text,label bit lonely on here don t seem to have many friend who actually use twitter oh well,0 "@ManuelViloria Thanks! I'm a bit scared with DreamHost, overall they're fine but I don't want overall! I'm heading out, have fun! ",0 txt chat with jake lmfao it frikkin awesome i miss this effin boy so much awww hoping you would come back here na xxxx,0 i am year old junior in college i have multiple problem that i need to address to start i have gotten carried away with smoking weed i have been using it almost everyday since i wa and i can no longer control it im always buying it when i can t always afford it i spend a good amount of my time at home smoking weed or using thc product i have also been drinking a lot more than i used to and i have even picked up a nicotine habit from my friend i am not doing a well in school a i should be and i really need to be more proactive and motivated but i feel no motivation some day to even do anything school related i havent been eating well a lot of day been eating a lot of fast food and skipping meal some day there are night where i barely get enough sleep because i end up staying up most of the night being on my phone watching tv or playing video game i have set goal for myself that i want to workout more build myself up and eat better but i never stick to them i feel very anxious and depressed a lot of the time with the only relief i have felt come from hanging out and talking with friend i have some really great friend that i am very close with and a wonderful family that would do anything for me but i can t help but feel alone i feel a great need for companionship and i have been trying to get into a relationship for a long time going from one person to the next but nothing ever becoming of it and we become stranger again it ha taken away a lot of my energy and exhausted my motivation and drive me further into my loneliness and add to my anxiety i have been on an emotional rollercoaster the past several month talking and going out with multiple girl not at the same time and it ending the same i just feel a void in my life some day and lately i have been spending a lot of time around friend to try and fill that void more than i usually do which could also contribute to me spending le time on school and a lot of other important thing i have barely been home in the past week because i wa with friend i feel completely empty and hopeless somedays and feel like my life is over i see others living their best life exciting thing happening having opportunity connection with others is just natural to them and just having a great time with life and then there s me who wish i could be that way but i know i am different than them and no one will ever see me like that i will always be by myself wherever i go and i used to be such a happy child excited for life not afraid to dream big and wonder about the future and just live in the moment but thing happened that turned me into what i am today i feel like a shell of who i could have been and that my younger self would be dissapointed in me i wish i could go back to when i wa about and not taken it for granted and go through life again with what i know now some day i really do not like the person i am turning into i do not thing that i am doing what s best for myself mentally physically and emotionally i feel like i m on a treadmill walking through life but not actually getting anywhere while watching everyone else pas me by i really need to break out of this mindset and change my life around if i am going to survive in this world and live the good and happy life that i always wanted and not a wasted life,1 wait bunch videos learn languages sleep damn im going everythinglingual keep sleeping rates,0 relationships last well mive break through relationships last teen years conversation gf future came realized nothing last hard accept falling love young age sucks wants move uk college states im staying explains wants experience new things sure enough new people coming realize pain relationship thinking end painful sure enough want ball cry,0 j xx is the white guy manager there the one that shout when you walk in i wan na go back and feast,0 I'm so exhausted! Well the b shower was amazing and now it's time to party house party!!! Yay! ,0 "@jeraa2t that is a lot of money to carry on balance, I'd love to have the interest on that ",0 fascinating yet unsettling look edith bouvier beale big edie daughter little edie aunt first cousin late jacquelyn kennedy onasis live rodent infested rundown mansion considered health hazard city becomes quite clear quickly two well past eccentric little edie seems acts mindset ten year old even though actually content pretty much made two things first conversations little edie lambastes big edie driving away potential suitors ruining aspiring career writer actress dancer discussions usually become rhetorical nonsensical often times amusing second part consists long bouts attempted singing parties course thinks singing perfect sounds bad one amazing scene big edie actually physically attacks little edie cane get stop warbling captivating yet one gets feeling serious exploitation going subjects far gone know it filmmakers seem treat like freak show circus coming day record and chuckle whatever bizarre behavior may come about ultimately sad picture shows world simply past two by hopes dreams decayed mansion live in despite bickering two need ever without would refuge loneliness amazing line comes big edie whose many cats relieve throughout bedroom response complaint smell simply unbelievable,0 im back days late clue im talking about click httpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentshvgjim_leaving_discord_and_redditutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf,0 saving posts fucked rn ya save somethng looks like save every new post u see unsave lookz like u save anything like plsz help,0 seems people like steven seagal take look nomination list razzie awards nominations with one win him think earn anything it saw good movies steven seagal saw bad movies steven seagal patriot one best movies nearly good siege hard kill patriot shows activities protect nature surely movie great one must say violence like must seagals best friend l q jones die death victim role dr mcclaren one seagals best performances has always good charisma summary patriot good entertainmentand average rating points underrated movie timebr br regards hansdieter,0 yall call karma whore help im starting new account cause hate user ui_dont_clare need u know what wrong ask soooo ill tell u fortune u help trading begging,0 want join discord server pretty bored want join server preferably weird dm invite interested,0 many cool clothes smol pup ampxb httpspreviewreddituzvluhinpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampseacbbbfdffeff,0 "Remember when your mom said eating all that junk food was going to make you sick? Well, she wasn't wrong. Anxiety, depression, mental disorders are really gut #biome disorders. #LoveYourBiome https://www.bbc.com/news/health-43815370 …",1 wish days could go emotional void turn numb little bit fucking rest redflag makes hyper aware depression makes intense streak lows week today work redflag going fucking nuts least winning fight depression occupy mind brain feels like neurons firing fucking fast cannot function going break cannot breathe today need breathe cannot yet suppose function like normal adult public clients coworkers yet brain feels like circuits fry try go forward stuck perpetual rerun stuttering get thoughts order words formed come mouth need fucking breathe one else need emotional void days,1 posting number everyday till reach end day kskksidhhdjsjdgdvhsushwhsjsjshhshssjsjsnjsjsjsjsjsbdbdjxurvvdhx,0 so i started having suicidal thought in april of last year and they lasted until around november in october i started hanging out with a girl and we started becoming good friend not romantic just friendship my mental health started getting a lot better after a couple month of friendship with her and it s kept getting better ever since a few day ago i made a passive aggressive comment that really upset her she won t text me back now i ve tried apologizing and trying to make thing right with her but i haven t heard back from her i m afraid i ve ruined this friendship forever and now my suicidal thought are back for the first time since last year i always hurt the people that i care about and i hate myself so much that i do this,1 red jaguar blue barracuda green monkey orange iguana purple parrot and silver snake remember legend of the hiddent temple,0 wish could masturbate feelings also wish feelingsporn masturbate feelings get depressed,0 old best friend relationship old crush weird huh dont really care havent talked years find awkward,0 @bavster_twit yeah tried them... convenient uplift is the issue.. i think i'll take them to staples - never had any issues with DHL ,0 My #firstrecord was Beatles- Red Album. I think I was 12 ,0 know anymoreive never sure want die before ive reached avail amazing boyfriend deserves much better this think hes starting see deserves better this friends already gone theres one feel close anymore more know happened life suppose get better never has life swing making extra money ghost writing paying debt looking new place live suppose exciting not move back home failed cant stand anymore really failed miss boyfriend bad want physical affection cuddle ugh really sure much take,1 ive lost gamei feel like every childhood ideal grew torn realities life everything cared gone world exists today nothing value enjoy bucket crabs,1 flo rider ha sampled that blue song he messed that song up for me,0 tw moroccan sucide hotline number hhey hey name rayna need help please ive feeling pretty weak mentally physically past last months time would try vent family would simply ignore saying its phase growing up simply took away phone thinking letting talk friends eventually try vent them am writing small message laptop sucide slf hrm mental illnesses are sadly really taboo thing country concidered haram since moroccan people closedminded would like moroccan sucide hotline number even tho doubt theres one thanks taking time read im really sorry possible spelling mistakes english first language im still trying improve,0 hope all is well this is my first time posting but would like to first take the time to say that i have been actively reading in this sub for the better half of a year since my generalized anxiety started to take over my life a little backstory i am m 0 lb and went to texas tech throughout college i wa on a pretty strong dose of add med 0mg vyvanse which if none of you have taken add med is like the pinnacle of add med at the highest dose i literally felt like god when i wa on them i say this because i would drink a lot on them do cocaine i wa in a frat vyvanse wa amazing because you literally could never get drunk also i wa incredibly fit even though i drank so much i would work out all the time but never wanted to eat but i wa shredded i wa also super social and had this crazy fucking sex drive not lying i could stay rock hard for easy two hour and would be told to stop because the girl wa too worn out not tryna to sound cool but i am trying to paint this picture of how powerful this drug wa but after about year of that i graduated back in may and everything went downhill i started to have severe panic attack a rapid heartbeat crazy high blood pressure which sent me to the hospital finally went to the doctor and she said first that ny old doctor should lose her license forever prescribing me that high of a dose and that since i had taken the vyvanse for so long and binge drinking i have completely drained my brain of any serotonin diagnosis severe generalized anxiety disorder initially wa put on lexapro but that shit gave me really scary suicidal ideation especially coming from someone that had never once even considered that an idea i have moved to celexa mg then 0mg then 0mg finally now 0mg which is what i have been at for month and it ha been amazing i am perfectly fine i had discussed initially with my doctor that eventually i would want to get back on add med because i do have pretty bad add and wa about to enter nursing school she told me that once we get the anxiety under control then we can get add med so about month ago i wa anxiety free some minor episode of just feeling anxious but no panic attack and she had given me 0 mg xanax for emergency use which kill those few and far between episode immediately month ago i wa finally prescribed focalin mg ir x a day and wellbutrin sr 0mg x daily right when i wake up so i currently take 0mg celexa day focalin mg ir day welbutrin sr 0mg day everything is perfect except for one problem now i can not finish sexually and it is hard to keep an erection like i don t even think about sex anymore which suck because i am good looking have no issue with woman tinder bumble hinge but this is a serious issue because i am normally overly sexual sorry for the long rant but i wanted you all to have the best understanding possible of what is going on and if anyone can relate i am meeting with my doctor next week to discus but am just sad because in the past week different woman have asked me why i can t stay hard finish which hand down the most embarrassing thing because they all think it is because of them i would also like to say that i regularly work out am very fit lean build and do like to drink when i am with these woman the drinking just make it so much more fun for me so idk if the drinking ha any effect on this issue i haven t tried not drinking which i will test tonight when i see one of them thank you again for reading this far tl dr sex issue on celexa wellbutrin and focalin i do drink when i am having these issue but drinking make the sex so much more enjoyable lol,1 boys before flowers is AWESOME. specially so yijung and cha gaeul's story. try to watch it. it's great. ,0 More than 1 in 20 US children and teens have anxiety or depression https://ift.tt/2HMU2Al ,1 @brianzwolinski good luck!! hope youre doing well out there ,0 im confused girl talking became valentines weve taking hugging cuddling see next hang today due parents fighting talking kissing asked shed girlfriend said ready im wondering something maybe ready,0 lot talk made psychological westerns one truly genre big name stars perform well director makes good movie stewart granger loses british safari hunter stereotype play haggard retired buffalo hunter revered west one best robert taylor plays upstart in contrast usual young upstart taylors character middle aged too wants slaughter buffalo lures granger business him hire two big name actors lloyd nolan russ tamblyn skinners granger haunted buffalo killed knowing may blame become extinct knowing become extinct native american way life greatly suffer taylor soon reveals sadistic side realistic saidism unlike one dimensional sadists modern film created nerds dorks insecure needs human companionship still stop murder end pits two other startling conclusion psychological effects theyre well depicted,0 cousin recently went search therapist find help depression admitted person spoke phone sometimes hits angry said need inpatient screening terrified forced go inpatient program lose job take care kids etc kids never witnessed thought would need unless immediate danger right last time happened weeks ago automatic inpatient,1 stuck using my verizon wireless card.. stupid internet at my apartment is not working. about to give up and go to bed early!! ,0 anybody play csgo so rank you,0 usual day start point place wisconsinbr br first all red tyrannical father forman family wwii veteran sits kitchen table reads newspaper overjoyed wife kitty serves breakfast comes skinny son eric sits table well father starts daily yelling usually involving placing foot erics behind insert reason here promiscuous angelfaced sister laurie home comes along red stops yelling kindly talks her making eric feel left familybr br once daily painful ritual over eric rushes basement friends already hanging out get see them becomes obvious eric redhead tomboy girlfriend nextdoor neighbor childhood friend donna pinciotti sanest people around meet steven hyde conspiracy theorist hates disco really care whats around long funny watch michael kelso kind guy thinks get life looks carrots grow trees jackie burkhardt one thinks prettiest girl around spoiled kid rich father and course cheerleader fez naive oversexed foreigner loves candy cant keep secret first simply hang out gossiping making fun kelso sit circle let real fun begin going something theyll regret laterbr br meanwhile red goes meets donnas weirdo parents bob midge hes rude mind think hes joking somewhere around leo aging hippie whos constantly confused makes word plays without even noticingbr br did imagine seemingly peaceful neighborhood awesome characters course seem clichd show takes clich new level throw wicked story lines sitcom offer sit enjoy one best tv shows ever one never two times thing is compared sitcoms cute funny purely hysterical get hooked let show let go bite hook and man see sitcom genre whole new prospective,0 owen 90 who do british people still eat like there in the great depression era,1 check profile see currently hospitalized selfharm watch trying organize things yesterday found bunch notes different people really cared about read mine undoubtedly hardest thing ever do could get hold hospital called mom could inform doctor since supposed see right now mom nearly demanding turn notes really wants read them refused saying something anyone ever read read sure addressed me question is asshole giving notes right thing found exgfs suicide notes,1 heard u get famous literally anything act like famous thing world,0 need ventto start im years old id grade severely depressed started guess family owned restaurant brother always helping step dad hired apprenticejosh young time main part josh feel like apprentice felt like family used take driving would always let play phone work boring me attending first year highschool time woke one morning parents tears eyes tell josh involved traffic accident killed absolutely destroyed me role model one closest friends happened noticed family close more step dad got increasingly quieter life consisted school restaurant want give whole sap story wanted end tried times decided talk somebody get help worked briefly much shitfest last two years ive living states capitol im looking work able hold stable job whole time currently unemployed almost months im medication seem work either soon course doctor says im fine get feels back want pill morning decide im going feel today destined keep eating ssris hopeful theyll work thing keeping girlfriend people considered best friends years never talk me people ive made friends same feel like inconvenience really ill go way see people things rarely mutual like that idea fuck want life used ambitions goals determination feel empty girlfriend working moment get slum applying countless jobs reply you unsuccessful remember teenager made pact kill late s hint successful future recently ive fantasizing killing driving highway running barrier kms hour would trick fantasies becoming frequent thing im certain girlfriend person keeping right now,1 im pregnant boyfriend left really want diei idea do boyfriend dating almost year pretty good found pregnant suddenly became different person left me says wanted abortion im alone scared know do mistake want tell anyone this feel like im worthless ill go buy rope tomorrow school im planning redflag want make sure im going die real want saved life hard birth control important stupid like me,1 I have depression of epic proportions.,1 @bilalhouri LOOOL @Eresse just recommended the same ,0 historic moment happen next hour yall nasas perseverance mars rover set land jezero crater mars site ancient lake mission search signs ancient life mars take surface samples possible future return earth theyre also bringing along helicopter which successful first powered flight another planet wright brothers moment go watch gonna sick,0 dumbi forget everything accidentally hurt people lose stuff cant anything righteverything create mediocre best sounds probably like im exageratingbut come point question im worth oxygen breathe im wasting stupidity wish would smarter wish could someone else want continue making people embarrassed embarrassed parent something like that making tired tired life please ways become better smarter person not know survive this,1 update updateso scrolling rmeirlmeirl left suicidal jokes always do one op responded real fast asked wanted talk ended talking abt hours wouldve definetly killed myself ending chat pm asking tomorrow today was trying send message im there found wasnt deleted account since suffering depression im certain killed himself want die now person listening making comfortable even social anxiety knew himher hours i think she saved life already cant take this,1 film blade master may cheap clumsy appearance sometimes shares thoughts problems way beyond era film set in ator chosen one protect earth terrible weapon compared unforgettable unpredictable way atomic weapon goes obstacles witful character muscle power although quite lot would say aspect movie makes surpass film like conan barbarian least say quite brainless diminish ways great adventure movie conan gives ator wholesomeness shares barbarian lower budget movie film good terms setting fights time believable zor villain prisoner throughout film one interesting psychological confrontation gives tension movie even ator seems way fit task loose br br what gives movie little extra scenes may look quirky worth mention fight serpent god even though gigantic puppet well handled snake good lightnings remains silhouette fight quite convincing movie 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waiting over felt worse masturbait problem,0 next weekend @ Rimini!!! ,0 @indiecindy93 enter shikari went to my school ,0 crush agreed go omg im happy sike thought another one annoying posts,0 @106andpark In response to your earlier question.. I would definately rather have 10 million dollars ,0 "have ID cuz it was a swim up bar dammit!! lol. In other words, I didnt get any beer.. and I was disgruntled.. Good times with the Tanners",0 anything live forit seems like every day ask question everyday no home parents constantly fighting whether amongst me amount control want insane added social media ask add someone online internet go pm im senior high school course led missing grades handed online late seems reasoning shoot even make argument ive got close friends couple others hang school im never really invited stuff really close friends ive tried leaving people looking people actually close give shit me come avail ive couple relationships ended shittiest way possible first one kinda ghosted ignored confronted them looked like asshole one ended cheating another girl half relationship im cucked one still wants guy treats like actual garbage cheats every day matter much time ive spent talking her trying help her recently looked group play video game competitively found one months lot member grew close take break focus anything said quitting there also lot drama happening want it look here httpsimgurcomazxcu literally everybody ignored message another person left seemed like everybody mom say something like topdog team took break month times like make question even exist head seems like karma world try selfless can somebody asks project them something them find hard say no get pushed lot even inconveniences me still it why believed built enough karma id get back one day seems like never get back sorry long post wanted vent,1 wrecked everything built back up still want dieits year still cant forgive fucking up getting degree clinical psych course one year got kicked research project cared lot about lost job clinician treatment clinic got kicked last practicum months set graduate tried kill then didnt succeed fast forward year half graduated masters degree general psych im even proud im sort glad covid cancelled graduation want part it im working research assistant hospital doesnt pay much dont get much recognition level im kind yeswoman someone knowledge money me entry level position future thought would get better still looks dim ever wish id die heart attack ill never successful like wanted be ive tried losing pounds becoming leader church group everything might make feel worthwhile dont l pray god end doesnt dont want here,1 feeling please text facebook details texthey guys letting strong tuff motherfuckers nothing one bring u down im physically addicted alcohol opiates u get cramps feel sick till u take drug anyway live alone shed see one go nowhere get depressed shit everyday guess life goes on like said im lost mates overdoses older brother redflag pain depression u give people kill another level homeless months last year months year ive locked juvenile detention times ive bashed times count ive robbed ive held nights taken away druggo parents yrs old ive pretty muched lived streets around brisbane since ran away foster parents last thing want take life want show hope people n out letting definitely alonei personally would rather live beside creek eating drugs till die killing myself anyone blue yellow white black fat skinny tall short whatever thats feeling well wants talk im remember im lonely u scared text feel free add facebook name jake elchapo picture holding rifle please im begging u text me,1 another breezy beautiful day on Maui http://twitpic.com/6b6x8,0 "Just got back from a great weekend in Destin, FL...ahh mini vacations are amazing ",0 "~ POURED @ the Nats game but I was prepared: umbrella, rain jacket, rain boots. ",0 hey uhh im bored feel like are click here would guys like read story wrote years back tell ill post profile linking post ,0 passed math test math worst subject usually fail passed today bitches,0 fuck ass im bad day read description plz dropped ear buds toilet ran trash bike black twice threw ear buds went directly computer broken screen,0 @vanewpc Thank you ,0 bad enlightened mindset help friends advice good sparking live others helped others darkest shit know ups downs ins outs still keep slipping mode self destructive behaviour keep saying going end killing myself know people love hit everyone like train probably think great say happiness gone mind numb suffered physical pain spine dental problems trouble eating swallowing things work waiting operation totally aware case much good around me grateful effort spent trying give boost living society holiday booked still hope turned reddit cannot turn anyone cannot bring worry them lost soul,1 last attempt went unknowntrigger warning redflag attempts people think last attempt boy close one im amazed im still alive lack eloquence reality last april wrote daughter small note telling loved her work tried hang myself worked home house full nobody noticed sobbing nobody noticed red welt around neck wasnt last month anybody knew decided honest medical providers it feels far away yet recent dont exactly dwell know hand ill go,1 think andrew davies admirable job taking magnificent book emulated pace styling victorian novel turning moving entertaining film im glad read twice book first usually case me know one must view novel film different media judge accordingly but still often hard read original material film gives away best partsbr br i realize davies good adapter wish producers chosen woman write screenplay davies admits commentary accompanies film dvd wanted particularly emphasis scatological bits book certainly enjoyed those film book davies missed halfdozen moments excruciatingly painfully tender could incorporated sensibility feminine br br i also would take issue use books primary symbol rosebr br as screenplay plotted davies denouement inevitable appropriate really think author waters final nod rose symbol much interesting preferred way novel let nan come age way davies chosebr br one quick comment four actors essay primary roles wonderfully talented well except singing dancing perhaps and moreover physical presences much minds eye sees reading novel seeing film thought terrificbr br i recommend lesbian anyone loves good fiction add book dvd tipping velvet bookshelves,0 iamdepr 9 have you talked to anyone about how you feel mentalhealth depression,1 went 2 wallyworld today had an awesome time getting a kewl easter basket and a nitelite for my computer ,0 well update post yesterdayshe likes wants couple jk said likes friend ive feeling like shit past hours potentially fucking friendship,0 @luna_libertatis else sucks? twitter PUNISHES you for being this way. if you only post once every few days... or less... your posts don't show up on your friend's timelines. which makes people think they're being ignored and discourages them more. super toxic place to be with serious depression.,1 Wow depression really thinks she's that bitch,1 prepare roll eyesim dismissed university pittsburgh let go student job thousands dollars student debt behind months worth rent see plain day life over ive worse im tired ive failed many times getting difficult summon strength thankfully time spend failing doors close stars ive shooting come closer ground every time miss attended swanson school engineering whim found depressing city broken people relationships uninspired jobs deadend cant help realize im constant factor superficial interests spend days watching youtube videos ad nauseam think site preys bored depressed alike spend days entertaining myself think maybe secret passion entertaining others im definitely critical maybe writer director even youtuber irresponsibly bought condensor microphone wrote script wanted make someone laugh week struggling release first minute video ive realized anything im going want require hard work feel like me years misery beaten joy life kicked month spicebath salts addiction years ago find im still weak piece garbage waiting next source entertainment id say passions life really passion life feel like trying continue making videos really anything creative help cant express enough feels like im moving quicksand like theres small voice within begging keep going muster expressionless labored movements trouble would cause loved ones would jumped next life seconds hope writing embarrassing whiny drivel ive least shown im authentically unhappy importantly hope forgive taking time thank reading id appreciate feedback really,1 i ve been pretty bloated the past few day happens a lot working on finding out the cause whenever i eat a meal my belly boost up and my heart rate sits at like 0 for around half an hour until thing start to deflate i m currently in the hospital for a completely unrelated surgical stay and it make my anxiety even worse because to the nurse it look worrying i think most of them have realized it s not an actual heart issue it happens so often and i ve had many ecg that were fine it doesn t help that having my pulse tested also cause my right to shoot up just hoping to hear i m not alone i guess haha,1 happened chat rooms here bring back fun could meet people,0 piece rope becoming seductivei fucking hate household live always felt alienated life dad biggest narcissist douche ever displeasure meeting hes norwegian mom korean gave job move norway raise sister thing life keeps killing cannot bear think would react found corpse dad fucking ungrateful prick calls korean animal done anything life hobbies lot needs provided mother even though uses little money savings dad hand always complained money would never financially assist interests hes also estranged two children exwife uncle aunt his siblings cant stand thats never see families anymore hell family consisting mother sister father fucking toxic want get away cant cant get away grades poor made worst decision life two years ago picking ib programme two years mental torture forced university level schoolwork naive enough think would suit me several mental breakdowns lead handing assignment plagiarized suspended days even that contact teacher student meeting got comments teachers performance one teacher anything positive say me told lazy would essentially never amount anything still many deadlines point even think graduate highschool days ago bought thick piece rope hold hands feel glowing almost trying talk me cant stand anymore feel trapped hopeless reached breaking point wake everyday stressed whats next beginning lifes journey intentions experiencing rest thing look forward exit world finally peace,1 nothing meabsolutely nothing,1 Perfect day in West Cork A big happy Hello to everyone ,0 crappy cyclops taco thing drew httpsiredditeocddlvtljpghttpsiredditeocddlvtljpg httpsiredditeocddlvtljpghttpsiredditeocddlvtljpg httpsiredditeocddlvtljpghttpsiredditeocddlvtljpg originally supposed death glider sg cyclops taco,0 decided watch fearnet demand free figured well nothing else looks enjoyable turned quite good little horror surprise film serves anthology four urban legends told point view four teenagers whose car breaks middle nowhere decide build campfire woods begin tell spooky stories movie transitions events storiesbr br the honeymoon newlywed couple traveling cross country rv las vegas terrorized park wooded area evil beings hunt full moon i spoil you hook amy smart james marsden probably famous people movie besides beautiful christine taylor play young couple come face face maniac hook hand recognizable shortbr br people lick too probably scariest dark stories young girl chats another girl internet turns actually man obsessed proceeds break house alone really chillingbr br the locket also great story glen quinn jacinda barrett play motorcyclist beautiful mute girl terrorized ghosts previous century mysterious farm house good weakest entriesbr br the group around campfire slowly develop terrifying experience segments stories end movie surprising really awesome overall bonechillingly scary certainly great little guilty pleasure horror fans alike would definitely find worthwhile,0 The best things in life has no reason it just happens ,0 film amazing would recommend child adult alike animation beautiful characters rich interesting story captivating far better anything american studios producing time however couple caveats statement shame disney bought studio ghibli backcatalogue proceeded butcher it main point being disney redubbed film despite original english version impressive new cast van der beek et al ruined took away much attractiveness characters eg pazu sheeta went adventurous companions whiny teenagers original music score also far better disney remix begs question disney make changes seems van der beek et al cast disney draw money fair enough process tainted film still beautiful film would still recommend anyone main beef disney ruined film childhood loved still love lucky enough original japanese import original english dub going guard life,0 milkshake brings boys yard dont know,0 anyone good art would make something me need new pfp discord draw wondering anyone would mind making it pay sorry dm interested,0 time go by so fast i had two day off work and i wasted them away just lying in bed i want to do something productive apply for college take a walk outside talk to girl literally do anything other than sink further into this constant malaise but i simply don t know where to find the energy putting effort into thing just drain me even more it s absolutely miserable the way life seems to be,1 edbehrens thanks for all the good luck ala i wasn t good enough don t really want to explain but thanks for everything i lt you all,0 "Just got done 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I listened to it about 100 times already haha.",0 foster families fakei really hate foster family reason want slice throat open fucking hate much want see dead first years life brought pain suffering never ever heard positive affirmation them make feel like im worthless always mentally abusing cant take anymore im verge harming them cant leave company let please someone help im kill care long see corpse maybe way things going,1 shooter drills schools like student shooter theyd know everything teachers students planned like theyd know everybody is youre helping point secondly could someone believe bunch kids randomly gone normal tuesday plus quarantine couldve given somebody months plan school shooting kind concerning,0 whats cheapest way get gun walmart credit card like im gonna pay loli dont want get anyone know trouble using theres,1 guys need help homophobic parents blocking access talk friends parents decided look phone without permission decided go discord backread found messages non binary person turns support try make sure understand people something wrong mentally next day change passwords go stuff without permission theyre even mad tell im allowed im allowed keep anything absolutely nothing im years old also think classmates gay people reason im like im allowed talk anymore ampxb know sorry bad formatting need advice,0 please help methis stupid know want live years old live family subjected physical violence father im bad want support want tell please leave message,1 Trying on dresses to wear out to night... I can't pick!!! lol they all look good on me ,0 um idea do guy told going kill himself basically im trader tf guy added steam trade with backed deal doing fine said this removed ive made decision im prob going so sorry wasting time im actually crate lol problem mate im actually crate wasted none time removed well think kinda innapropriate say im actually crate hm removed im probably going commit redflag im actually crate okay removed so cya removed offline heres steamid removed hes still online know trolling hes serious ive reported account put chat log report update posted thread please direct there httpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsmiqso_this_is_my_story,1 i m beyond worthless i will never be able to provide anything to anyone in any capacity i m no more than a worm i just want to break everything in my house smash everything in a complete rage and finish it off with a bullet to the brain i ve never been so furious in my entire year of living im in a perpetual state of anger lately i ve started burning myself with cigarette again i push them into myself until the pain fade i do it far up my arm so no one see them at work i don t need those stupid fuck questioning me i never liked cutting myself burning hurt a lot more in my opinion it s what i deserve me being alive is fucking crime i should just fucking end it now so nobody get hurt from me i m sure my family won t give a shit they ll probably be happier with the load off their shoulder and my friend will get over it quickly it s been over a year since i ve seen them in person we ve already drifted to far from each other in our life we re basically stranger,1 weeks ago got diagnosis bpd borderline personality disorder basically narrow ability feel things either high low nothing depression just side effect it everyone never able feel things like love like someone either fully love someone hate love part got lost last years since years old years later weeks ago went heavy unhandable decided start therapy first weeks thought ah therapy help anything maybe better stop it super lucky doctor started build trust which borderliner extremely rare weeks went in around week weird effects kicked started get feelings never knew all stuff high low irritating way handle feelings even cannot name read talked therapists found way get around illnessnext step would get rid self harm suicidal thoughts deep wrath hate base feeling level only never another person problem take around years sorry long intro problem one new feelings others would call love experience feeling dumb sounds idea handle i know usually every teen knows feeling fell love one women also therapy am feeling strange hurts extremely much vent people may understand least bit acting towards feeling totally impossible know would super selfish woman problems carry besides part times women attracted long gonei know long text maybe one nerve time read us get out thanks read anyway also borderline trouble,1 "is super excited, cause I got the twilight and new moon books today.. lol dont wanna see the movie, before Ive read the books ? o_O",0 august th prediction arg tiktok live people saying today government going announce fake alien invasion new world order thoughts,0 seems really bittersweet getting better last year lot sad things still happen like daft punk man im gonna miss them,0 "thank you @deinha_ny, @noellhyman, @LifeByChocolate and @veganism for the recipe spreading love! made my day!!",0 @lady__croft maybe you forget you re in Canada ,0 i feel so lost and out of control with my emotion i don t know what to do with my free time nothing seems to bring me joy i keep thinking of way to end it all without impacting my family and child but who will find me i don t want to traumatize someone i fight with my wife all the time i don t feel wanted or loved,1 @italktoomuch92 putting my shoes on ,0 want let gothe day waiting train standing close end platform considering dealing depression years years since ive dealt suicidal idealization scary im scared think maybe ive depressed whole life people told itd better got older could make decisions change environment therapy medication throughout college chronically miserable long prospects got job another country im still happy think ive ever really happy people told would get better hasnt cant handle prospect hang on longer im tired try nice people help however can someone asks help literally stop im doing possible give every time flip side think people know im struggling know that ive asked people help walked on people taken advantage me want bother anyone im dying kind connection contradictory is even people true friends connections have cannot deal rejection want trying settle days like today get frustrated want talk someone scared send another message ignored know problems big people want someone know work stresses out service job try really hard well think good work evaluation last month along lines great customers say smile enough please smile more cant want to things got bit bad weeks ago friend coworker got drunk sexually assaulted me people saw one anything it talked anyone whos taken seriously feel silly upset because yknow way rape police anything situation even reported it cry shower used look forward since catharsis lately dread wash hair comes clumps probably eating disorder now days im motivated eat one goodsized meal happen usually end puking ive lost much weight replace wardrobe second time eight nine months anyhow im still considered fat country one cares dread work since dealing people dislike people really like helping fake connections wear out im super introvert every day exhausting skills though days like today try study make marketable end crying half day instead im scared ill mess work get gloomy something get fired certainly kill forced go back country savings live family environment terribly toxic lately ive thinking methods like inconviencing people id ideally like arrange affairs unobtrusive again part angry much pain like one cares want everyone know yes bad want people stop think moment maybe even feel little sorry probably much coward go way though people would likely want continue living feel like alive profoundly unhappy perhaps way am persisting problem me like since kid whether working shutin social solitary sides planet got long im sorry appreciate anyone whos read entire thing ive wanted say things long considering next steps,1 want kill nowok got poor evaluation work low raise come home dad yells me family leaves without go fish fry please help feeling dead,1 could live without pain would much easier cannot reached help many times one concern it know anymore wish pain would go away,1 think already diedlife real way,1 im sure whether cant survive again cant take trauma failure cant risk arrested police surviving keep told services capacity kill stop me surely capacity way achieve need way id know going work,1 "@jonasbrothers my favorite song its about the new cd: paranoid, hey baby, and bout the other cds: video girl, bb good, shelf, tonight ",0 perfect date update first post page girl went meteor shower update so instead prom dresses ended wearing cute outfits skirts talked around fire laid blanket watched stars even saw couple meteors night friends listened music including dodie clark sang along one friends leave friend bf saying goodbye turned old show choir performance whole minute dance it afterwards finally decided go home meteor shower otw back house got stuck behind train like minutes spent time jamming music laughing talking lot fun even went little bit drive backroads near house finally getting home watched others tik toks and showed one shirt shower shoulders omg attractive family went sleep decided smoke together ended getting high ass somehow inhaling wrong used half kart trying get high pen died i let use much love kart temporary future girlfriend forever fell asleep couch others arms seriously cuddling left next morning promised wed get high together another time sure she got home day found indeed inhaling wrong trying essential oil vape since weve hanging much texting frequently fun conversations even made joke said id whisk away house called knight shining armor said gonna write story ab ended drawing picture knight suit princess dress sent her loved it even called princess morning form of good morning princess brings us today asked wanted us stop work us friend driving around said sure otw asked also wanted get sweet frog works right across one said shed get shift over it got excited said yes didnt ride back home back sweet frog asked could stay job said sure closed id wait outside it freezing btw obliged meant time her got around friend said hi friend leave left alone crush job hour half really fun talking bit helped stock everything customer needed help like cookbook smh said id watch cart left ended getting busy bit waited aisle good minutes looking crayola products twirling kid batons came back came back got excited show something shed gotten walking around apparently one regular customers named santa who looks like santa signed postcard gave her shared enthusiasm showing book aisle read gone made animal noises stuff leave alone bored announced store closing went front walk out found already locked doors one employees come unlock me decided let know id staying outside case got curious said ill sitting waiting fot someone know im weirdo waiting here worker told could stay inside waiting happily accepted stood front waited another minutes crush ready go got work walked car drove sweet frog got car walked inside decided match froyo flavors get different toppings bcs im indecisive ash left eat car sat watched tokomaru compilations cosplaying characters making ship content soon hehe talked favorite shows school stuff quarantine finished froyo headed home raining pretty hard heater way windows foggy trouble driving made back house alive lol got back unbuckled put empty froyo containers dash excitedly leaned hug embraced arms way around buried head crook neck seconds hug froyo containers fell ruining moment went pick up debated whether hug again decided to leaned another hug head neck groaned wanna leave said aww finally pulled away looked eye tell butterflies mean it seriously thought second kiss even made like smooch sound blew kiss go gets nervous driving super late grabbed froyo containers promised hang asap made smooch sound blew kiss back her said i love you other walked house tldr meteor shower went great girl hung today dropped hugged broke hug pick fallen trash continued hug seprated made eye contact could feel tension air eventually blew kisses other said love you left,0 just came home from market market. watched jash's cheerdance competition. Fun! ,0 theekween heart break trauma anxiety depression and pain of losing a loved one thelmasherbs,1 epic woke set alarm went back bed woke saw time decided go back bed again basically missed half classes thing happened yesterday too fucking hate online school,0 @neondeception ur avatar is so cute im trying to set this blog thing up and see what its all about lol,0 feeling excess amount give life cry last weekend yelled getting la job get good grades yada yada happens time get sad better today different im feeling hopeless scared sad that normal part teenager,0 its birthday today turned im tired month ago tried kill myself didnt want let live another year am happy birthday lol ive thinking everyday couldnt bring it really wish did come point really dont know want anymore feel like ill let go soon everything seems fucking pointless ive made peace that,1 dark thoughts think redflag live first floor balcony work would leave dad work mom meeting room taking bath cant go rooftop balcony since locked would jump highest place adjacent stairs know explain place every floor clearly remember view there beautiful used something ugly right know would go see beautiful view stop know would go back give excuse left tell taking picture locked door redflag survivors said immediately regret jumpingtaking pill would too right damn easy wouldbe mom dad would soo mad killed myself live society now would many rumors would remembered someone ruined life talking inconvenient funeral would would sister attend it would mom dad force sister attend pathetic would right would come news quickly people move say covid since easy explanation relatives wonder tuition teachers would reactthey remember maybe would girl died maybe would think simply stopped coming tuition since obviously cut it tuition teachers would sad right care tho hope die impact dont hope still survive would dogs find body first since one leaving house suspect maladaptive daydream dreaming disorder syndrome would night day night would solve problem beautiful view curfew streetlights dogs would definitely find body first case would sad like would amounted anything ever like one light goes out sky billion stars quicker would care would would mom would dad would grandfather would maid would friends would guys say like me would guys suspect crush would school friends would childhood school friend would tuition friends would tuition teachers would school teachers would school friends would dentistfav youtube fav music group etc hope later energy share little backstory looking sympathy kinda wrote dairy wanted share since show family members sharing sorry paragraph hope u nice daynight,1 trapped buried alive brings us resort opened soon closebr br we start guy gear blowing drifts avoid possibility avalanches somehow make sense anyways hes blow away one particularly big one notices resort open despite best efforts higher authority tells day overbr br soon everyone expects avalanche hitsbr br look im gonna reveal more say bmovie designed family channel which saw on fact commercials proves bmovie anyways pretty decent film partially unrealbr br firsthand people buried ice snow theyre buried traced powder or cd screwdriver possible finally cant stress enough explosion cannot stop avalanche guaranteedbr br furthermore worth rental tv viewing owning br br the movie rated pg maybe received something little strong boy nearly loses foot elevator leg cut around ankle guy toasted electricity diesel weight room dead people laying aroundbr br enjoy,0 im tiredthe past three weeks ive many days actually think would make alive help im undiagnosed mental illnesses professional help cant afford it today first ever session free sponsored therapist asked talk things liked think anything spent mins trying come things kept saying things dislike well thats point girl college committed redflag months ago situation isnt nearly bad terms financial stability social standing etc keep thinking get it see way out would much easier around truly would miss on positives life theyre far worth pain ive lying bed crying two hours head hurts nothing worth this,1 want run awayi cant go vicious cycle bingingpurgingstarving anymore along fact reason live mum completely given me nobody talk cant deal constant thoughts self harm pity killing anymore plan running away possibly kill wherever end at much pain mentally years enough guess going make years all,1 @DVDsnapshot thanks I see you've watched StarTrek twice already and really enjoyed it,0 graemearcher i am sad about innocent selling out too,0 dont know turn toi want die im trying best happy stay positive cant want reach someone dont know who appointment therapist next week dont think wait long want end now dont know keep thinking thoughts cant happy hurts live way want over,1 hoping my new kitten is well a she isn t eating or drinking hopefully just stress of a new place,0 hb4 - cyberia - hb2 - cyberia - new food court - hb4 --> CENDOL SEDAP!!! T'baekkk!!! eheheehee.. ,0 "@Kal_Penn I just read about your new job, CONGRATULATIONS! That's fantastic.",0 "THREAD A few months ago, I took steps to address my mental health. I think I've known for a long time that I've had anxiety and depression issues I just chose to ignore them, to lean into them, to just turn my nose up at them like I was superior somehow. I wasn't, I'm not. (1/23)",1 byeive realized way win play goodbye,1 @em_c Good try Well done with the painting by the way.,0 wish way make look like accidenti dont want anyone feel guilty feel like hard kill without happen fuck,1 people get comfortable point makes others uncomfortable comes personality people hating dark humor gotta wake pop ibuprofen numb everyone hurtin feelings mean bully people unless bash making joke cultures food cook something real one gonna eat like yams vagina,0 watching film explore turkish music also explore city istanbul wonderful pictures scenes important regions citythere lots delightful conversations sorts musicians thoughts musicculturethere also discussions mixture east west like istanbul hashow make music see comparing countrys musiciansit consists music cezadumanbaba zulaaynurmzeyyan senarorhan gencebaythe turkish queen music sezen aksuan important work art,0 @SakuraTbh I saw it! It great! I'm reading the book ,0 first got n five sixi fell love itand first game super mario and loved itthe graphics great timea good plotgreat courses allthe best music heard nintendo gamebr br i remember plot completelybut think princess peach kidnapped bowserand mario rescue herthe object game get stars curses castleeach five six challnges get starsthere secert parts castlewhere get starsbut courseyou beat bowseri think three levels beat bowser on lets start charactersmario main characterand gets helpful advice toadso basically one alliancesi heard luigi yoshi game towards endthe main villain bowserand bunch characters like boo goombathe characters really greatbr br nexthow graphicspeople say gameplay important graphicsand agree completelybut great plotthere great graphicsespecially timei whole bunch nintendo games like graphics compare super mariobright colorsgreat effects awesome sound effectsi found graphics water courses goodnext bowser world onesit best graphics gamebr br nowthe musicthis favorite part gamegrowing upwhen played young ageid gladly leave game night music would put sleepespecially music jolly roger baywhich peaceful wonderfulthere others great tooespecially inonce againthe worlds bowserare ones stick favoritesbr br this game favorite past time developing gamerand love itthis game gets go play game,0 Gr 5 is making their first collaborative website to share their info from the recent PYP Exhibition. Will publish it soon ,0 advice needed hardly talk crush amp never told anything recently blue removed fb amp insta etc sending request amp deleting fb still see status whatsapp oo question is know how way rejecting people rejected ff kinda new thing ,0 done reallylifes getting much thinking writing help thoughts lingering starting feel comforted idea existing cant tell anyone embarrassment cant go nowhere seek help people responsible downright refuse issues anyone knew felt would able face world,1 @TuckerGoodrich @japantimes Autonomic and emotion regulation in bereavement and depression https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/11943236/?i=4 …,1 hi guy pls who know how to overcome depression i m dying slowly,1 everything gets taken away mei rose high loved hard dared much tried grasp star overreached fell,1 hate myselftoday im goin g friends house goes back home viist parents im saaing night work whether want start dating dont hes coming back said friends made depressed suicidal dont know todo wish fucing dead im piece shit anyway im sick hurting people hate sorry writing yself mcuh id ont know feel fucking bad,1 lonely cool not lied,0 captain goes shipi major fuckup work today caught power line dump truck caused fire jumped truck caught fire for moment considered staying truck let get engulfed flames instead fleeing like coward everyone says glad im ok im glad like captain im ultimately responsible happens fire department showing time would destroyed business dumping at jobs there dignity left im fucking dolt walking hazard seems feel hard pressed continue life,1 "@BigSyke69 lol yea 2ish sounds about right, i love my sleep but why would you get up at 9 if you don't have to? lol.",0 depression ruining peoples lives point idea start getting better seems like tried everything personally helped manage improve depression redflag anything even seems silly welcome helped manage depression,1 one great ones works beautifully hardly notice miscasting year old dana andrews drugstore soda jerk goes war comes back four years later would been most then else played him,0 seen film different occasionson first occasioni bowled filmit appeared kind film mei hated film sentimental garbage second viewinghowever third viewing reasserted belief good filmthere lot emotional power film especially scenes emotional confrontation mr kramer madam kramerthere scenes meryl streep appears cruel person despite fact beauty real lifedustin hoffman appears lost hero unable grapple recent task childs custodythere even controversy sets filmaccording master cameraman nestor almendros shot escaped getting hurt character mrkramerin order show intensity angerdecides break glass hardluckily nothing happened nestorkramer versus kramer shows destruction family structureit also tells family must maintained kids involved,0 we re here to help we are online therapy platform which essentially connects certified psychologist and people suffering from mental health issue such a depression stress and anxiety among dozen of other clinically defined disorder book your appointment now http t co pz vurvh0,1 got chance see movie early screening brea crazy ever since film based shakespeares twelfth night read loved seen stage times certainly liked references whether like shakespeare matter movie stands on super funny witty charming amanda bynes hilarious david cross actually whole cast great happen huge david cross fanatic cast hot soundtrack kicks lots cool bands heard know cd coming definitely buy it everyone audience laughed start finish age groups ,0 heidimontag i love the hill but i missed the show tonight,0 want someone talk to feeling stronger evermy liver problems getting worse really care bottle vodka right near want drink die many things gone wrong summer cant get job area stuck home manic depressed mother always get fight verbal physicalmainly physical her try protect myself family extremely close financial ruin college got accepted transfer aka dream college denied financial aid basically gave hope something life said nope able fulfill dream matter hard try liver acting yet again bf college left starting love years able feel ex cheated me thing set though recent ex toying heart hurts fucking much taken xanaxs already calm put sleep hurt disappointment runs deep,1 wow wonderful film script nearly perfect appears film written minglun weii hope stories himbr br the acting sublime renying zhou doggie amazing natural talent xu zhu delight believable jaded old traditionalist br br the soundtrack effective guiding without overwhelming br br if movies like made whether hollywood hong kong family friendly well acted well written well directed near perfect gem,0 im going tomorrowtheres point waiting shit get better never will theres point trying know full well one miss im free it im pussy im sure ill manage comes ill try best,1 @SusanCalman 2/2 brothers suicide when I was 30. I would welcome a chance to share my story of survival of severe depression and trauma. @AKCounsellor knows who I am,1 ".@mmbc @matthewmelnyk I'll pass an email along to my contacts at Facebook re: FacebookGate, Canadian style. ",0 need music suggestion need song made globalization somewhat clean,0 looking application idk sign somewhere psych wards included reminded end like perhaps someone check every maybe remind much damage times manage suicide ideation times literally impossible think anything anyone else suicide want it really want it sure lot relate need help think good idea reach friend family member worried either panic think trying pathetically seek attention scenarios equally bad kind suicide watch applicationsservices,1 "Hi there , my name is Yasmin. Are you struggling with disappointment, depression, suicidal thoughts, anger, or do you feel lost and left behind in life? I have also been in situations in which I needed someone to talk to. You can definitely talk to me. 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Help out. ,0 explaining mike mike one ocs made post showing facts trivia him post trying explain existence mike biology ask everything ill answer,0 i am feeling sick,0 point someone go hospitaltheres difference wanting disappear stop existing bit come back wanting die actual planwriting noteetc theres also nebulous inbetween phase person acts impulse maybe die maybe not spectrum someone go hospital im terrified commitment mental hospital ive heard terrible things them especially one area walk er nearby happen send there want go,1 dont try get helpobviously question directed try treat depression why think redflag tragic thing mind boggling someone sad even deepest urge strongest directive survive disregarded tragic whoever experiences feeling support redflag understand someone would want it depression once nothing like guys terrible state years infact months years even leave home constantly contemplate redflag without even trying get help question why got lose,1 hmmmm..What are you doing?...im singing a very awesome song and ima go see a movie called...TERMINATOR SALVATION!!!!!!! OH YEA! BITCH! xD,0 jojo fans still exist yall go outside touch grass,0 day random questions much u wanna go back school,0 "@HarvardBiz Very true in most cases managers misread the signals / symptoms as depression or other, also requires managers that understand their teams in terms people management. Very informative article, .",1 dale wood i love uni coffee bet you won t get this one ilpc oh p uni tomorrow pick u up at p 000 word assignment arg,0 "@WhatIsKiss The interwebs twerent a thing when the betrayal hit, then the depression, rise and fall, continued depression and the acceptance of semi-sociopathism because so many humans do shit that makes no fucking sense to me that as long as I dont act on thoughts or voice them Im ok",1 i really want to play singstar but all my singstar disc are scratched,0 im cringe even day passed since started talking asked out fuck,0 dead endi feel life cant get better everything feels like reached dead end kill self end all,1 "let's go yankees! almost summer, 2 more weeks!",0 Can i go to your school? What are the requirements other than peer pressure and anxiety followed by depression? https://twitter.com/aJackieLarsen/status/988820882717003776 …,1 bipolar ii disorder bipolar ii disorder involves period of hypomania but depression is often the dominant state for a diagnosis of bipolar ii disorder a person must have had one or more episode of depression at least one hypomanic episode no other diagnosis,1 johnnybeane me too i ll see on amazon uk otherwise they make me pay custom tax if i order it from the u,0 o have too much on my mind and is trying to write it all down so maybe i can get some sleep before class it s not really working,0 tried make everything stop last night found time move thisthings hard past years keep going downhill college frustrating im stuck major like anymore much debt quitting would feel like failure positive change im stuck minimum wage job going anywhere best friend years falling month ago like lost brother im still love exboyfriend recently found slept someone swore hadnt though says wishes hes remorseful it pain still strong love me really hes justified loving me ruined relationship towards end checking early avoid pain made worse apparently find nearly impossible even lift bed every day happened fast came home spending work shift sobbing back office walked apartment share ex could think cold was got warm bath mind shut off wanted sleep decades took vicodin more must fallen asleep bath ex came home work found me naturally freaked out helping throw dry off called mum really remember much except taken familys house later night purging lot grandma cried lot mum upset yelled lot ex keeps calling every hour ask am friends filled happened lost help even know say feel empty plan trying again seeing everyone care distraught did guess need help figuring move past this im ashamed myself never wanted hurt anyone im exhausted friend suggested reach have im delusional think im one felt do want hide move on ever looked like before moment define rest life expect miracles quick fixes know im trouble guess need guidance,1 new article from obmintegrativeandcomplementarymedicine covid on the brain anxiety sensitivity and mindful awareness mediate the relationship between covid 9 obsession and anxiety http t co vfegm9dpzf http t co wkkexnjdys covid 9 anxiety depression http t co u pembdvcm,1 im peer pressured watching jojos prepared resist drugs smoking anime,0 i ve had depression since i wa it come and it go but it came back around 0 and never really left just gradually got worse i dont enjoy anything anymore i dont look forward to anything i just wait for the day to end knowing there another one anyway all my day bleed together at this point insomnia doesnt help to where everything just feel like a long long loop my girlfriend of 9 year left me recently it got to be too much for her i wa trying but i guess not enough i only have a handful of friend but theyre either all going through something or dont quite understand how i put what im feeling into word so i dont feel like i can really talk to anyone i use talkspace but even that feel hollow no goal no aspiration i work in a job where there really no advancement im barely able to keep myself standing financially overall i just feel like a loser im i dont connect with people i feel like im just going to be alone forever the last few month pre and post break up i find myself sitting in my car alone in an empty parking lot till early morning talking to myself hoping that something will help but im just talking into an empty void im agnostic i want so badly to believe that there something somewhere that hears me but i know thats just not realistic i ve contemplated suicide several time but im to weak to go through with it too scared i ll screw it up or worse disappointing my family i really dont know what to do it like im just sleepwalking through life i find my moment to distract me whether it going to the gym or focusing on my other venture but at the end of the day it all just come back to this i had everything and i pissed it away like i always do i dont see my value,1 @TroyNel16190599 Sucking my dick cures depression,1 noti reasons to mom brother would destroyed brother sick mind way mom brother nobody me im little sister know hes stayed before im meant anymore maybe im built afterlife here fair still fair need ok guys ill let know hanging im huge fast wish luck,1 never kind person life much done,1 @mmwine Morning sir ,0 bother staying aliveeveryone constantly mean reason always get lots girls would want live cant like that tried best years get anywhere think give up wish died infancy waste life life amazing me watch others good life,1 gunhello everyone write saying head much time want kill myself gun would dead already afraid feeling pain dying thats need gun tbh ive also considered shocking wires dont die instantly that im years old french guy dont feel whole purpose life feel like life simply me hapiness pretty much depends humans dont feel time dont understand keep staying alive nothing stops getting everything dont trust religions death fact not existing heres question exist simply exist keep feeling pain could simply exist red posts people lot troubles lifes felt like problem yo guy supposed nothing compared them mean asking im alive could dead lets admit gotta wait years finaly enjoy life whatever try waiting enjoy simply turn forever think brain sick really mean it dont wanna exist anymore thanks ready far tho,1 u ever get new book good makes want read fast get know characters plot finished book feel remorse sadness never able experience full magic book ever again already know plot,0 @oxofamilydad I can tell you're from a thespian background....... ruthless the lot of you! ,0 @Emskie1 tell him i said hi ,0 "No tropical depression gonna steal my sun away.Mm, I feel lucky today.",1 the american psychiatric association apa state that depression is a common and severe mental illness that affect how individual feel think and act http t co arsp syayj,1 hotline help related phonesi know silly question is really cant make calls severe social phobia cant use phone even good day im well im runing coping mechanisms fast feel like theres anyone help me cant afford therapist right now ones ive seen past able help me nobody else close family bunch anxious people love simply make matters worse panic comfort pretending im better calm down cant make calls ive gone metanoia site many times effect anymore yes ive waited time ive permanent crisislike state hours hours since least last night right everyone family left work afraid edit thank everyone expect people caring helpful moment im imminent danger keep mind links places posted,1 heatherlibby oh well she seems like trouble christian slater is trying to kill her at the moment,0 feel like nothing live forim almost college student graduate end schoolyear almost one live miles away family support group pretty good group friends months transferred school theyve completely abandoned me know incredibly suicidal am care brush give worthless platitudes want feel wanted somebody one makes feel wanted im school club actually prominent member know killed myself id missed duties personal presence seem close im never let group like nothing big party im invited to ive gone counseling therapy even antidepressants nothing gets better matter do let shyness take over stay im miserable overcome shyness try connect someone im eventually abandoned feel miserable sad thing probably best ill ever it college much monetary burden not yet anyway surrounded people age graduate know itll go shit degree european history equal job family struggling this would killed months ago want dead tie preventing taking life family feel like cant last forever want want content matter do cant be,1 loving lady G's new song ,0 know anymorei feel like im failure think im brink fired current job got nepotism like previous jobs one part though every single relationship ive seems fizzle out like leave everyone feeling unhappy unsatisfied me think people keep lives feel sorry make feel better comparison fucking failure existence think id use everyone ending it kind morbid juxtaposition success functional person probably make sense right now im pretty fucked up alcohol thing keeping sane,1 mizzzidc you are depressed over a shoe you spoke rudely to your mom and then posted it on the internet i mean over a f shoe and you want to heal from depression dear child you are badly behaved i hope you are healing from the depression now,1 know directors intent make sure sky almost always sunny beautiful film perhaps romantic image many americans time film set middle war macy returned war his neighbor asks hey true got fritz there trying get life one day gets new pair glasses hence name sees things clearly surrounding situation reveals one rabid antisemitism macy dern could wrapped it funny neither jewish film accusation made also historically accurate labor union democrats time wrapped flags america god macy continually pestered come meeting presence brings unexpected resultsbr br applying time frame today study contrast undergone complete reversal average citizens taken patriotism religion unifier supporting republican party viewing organized labor part leftwing unpatriotic americabr br a great picture watch care see friendly timid meek macy played beautifully him get caught carnage race hate mid s nycbr br a tough emotionally charged film,0 reason i m on the edge job search i m completely unemployable i lucked out and have had three real job since graduating college but i learned nothing from them i m now in my early 0 with no applicable job skill for today s market and keep getting rejection letter toxic shithead bos i put a lot of blame on this fucker he treat me like absolute shit and actively work against any career growth he ha huge anger issue a well so i m constantly walking on eggshell gossipy toxic coworkers they spread rumor about me that were untrue and constantly talk about people behind their back if we weren t remote right now and i had to be around them i d go insane so many of my workplace have been filled with these kind of fucker can t they mind their own goddamn business and just do their work humanity s fucked i ve been close with my family for a long time now but recently my parent have gone really far right i lean left and just hate a lot of their double standard my parent take that a an opportunity to take any anger out about the current state of the world on me at work and at home there is no source of relief i have no friend nobody give a shit i dream about using some of the money i ve earned up blowing it on thing i ve always wanted to do then buying a gun and shooting myself,1 getting sick time for some hot tea studying and then sleeeep,0 give one good reason livenot reason die because familyfriends stupid stuff like reason live reason die one good reason live thats ask,1 need friends m dm want chat play interestsnot lot know anime pc videogames like apex overwatch csgo others,0 fuck uterus dis bitch week late still put her wtf dis shit,0 starting online school weeks school could teaching us differently expected starters think wed using zoom all were gonna log in tasks thats it know could same,0 getting motivation something lifei chronic depression social anxiety life long lack motivation thought started getting passion weightlifting would set back right track and felt like awhile ive gone gym like times entire year took time school get better get treatment made depressed isolated im situation made new friend years ive single entire life im going new school soon even though social anxiety makes school miserable experience trying read motivational posts watch videos sucks know way turn life around better start proactive it cant convince even worth it ive depressed long become part me almost like im addicted depressed point effort would take even put slightly better place seems insurmountable cant stop thinking much easier would kill myself desire anything become anything fuck tough like want die time desire better life think lucky sheltered am make feel like im ranting entitled manchild something,1 ever popes zit felt really good end thinking week maybe im psychotic,0 to clarify i guess i wa only happy because i wa really high but i stopped for a minute and started thinking i wa thinking about who i am and how much of a sad useless piece of shit i am i wa hanging out with a few people at the time so i had to shake the thought pretty quickly fuck i wish i could just forget who i am altogether i m getting tired of me,1 theres website publishing content reddit sourcing original creator website called gaming memes httpsgamingmemescom taking content hot publishing website they credit posted it links image permalink source red flag front page suspect _without permission_ to confirmed second red flag theres literal website reposting stuff def cool thank coming ted talk please try spread message,0 get kiss make last forever,0 "@joannereid48 #ebnjc It's a very under-researched area, and there's some debate over whether it's appropriate to subject art to the rigour of science. But there's some evidence that it can improve depression and anxiety in patients with mental health issues.",1 Happy Mum's day ppl ,0 need help texted crush wished merry christmas wich replied thanks too havent texted like month dont know say keep conversation alive shy cant text much please need help could say keep conversation alive,0 i want end hopefully tomorrow better idk much take,1 @caitiejayne ok sick which date suits u they are thursday night friday night and sat night i think laast 3 nights get in quick ,0 know theres lot going right things depressing might make happy know hamster follow instagram get surgery remove abscess complete success name vincent likes cucumbers hes super cute sounds like surgery went fine hes road recovery,0 years old now feel good yall,0 @nillovic Welcome back! ,0 yay sj will be on come to play kibum is of course missing and so is teuk,0 meta ufo don t get involved any presale or lock project again of u don t want to spend the rest of ur life in depression,1 i m dealing with debt wasted year of my university getting awful grade i disappoint my family left and right i have no confidence in myself and i hate my body i wa low key molested by my best friend when he wa drunk my childhood dog had to be put down after i took care of her for month prior and i feel like it my fault tht i could ve done something better or idk i find solace in anime but even that is starting feel dull i thought i knew what i wanted to do with my life and career but i m so lost i dont know what to do and at this point i feel like ive ruined my life beyond repair i know im and most people just say that im young and i just have too dust everything off and it ll be fine but it not it never is and ive been in this loop of depression since i wa i think about taking my life and then think about how selfish it is to my friend family and little sister i can t do that to her and yet i still think about i i m so lost,1 people move texas ok basically texas havent lived whole life dad retired navy texan despite think dont dress like cowboys shit not half people see move come school dressed cowboy boots jeans cowboy hat dress shirt act confused one else dressed like right annoyed kevin male karen,0 unironically love pokmon go fun able catch monsters childhood ahhhh love game,0 @uNdlunkulu_Xoli Firstly if she is ready and welling to keep the baby let her do so.She has just came out of depression and terminating the pregnancy can lead her straight to back to depression .She needs to take care of her emotional well-being.,1 hr need to go by quick,0 left today taking everything stay alivei toxic one sided relationship til now time gaslighted constantly walking eggshells dealing severe anxiety ive past decade told wanted marry me wanted kids etc right told wasnt working sex makes feel even used know people say isnt good enough reason feel suicidal everyone goes this ive crying drinking day nobody awake im afraid sleep dream wake feeling anxious throw up,1 Abnormal Functional Connectivity of Ventral Anterior Insula in Asthmatic Patients with Depression. http://dlvr.it/QQjTv0 ,1 note english first language therefore text might gramatically correct best ampxbso even go on throw bit context best friend high school let us call d girl since first year hs eventually got together start third year always weird notredflag last long decided take break notredflag focus myself realize want stuff anyways get know girl let us call k bestfriend ds gf hangout times eventually decide would cool start dating together since new years things start get messy whenever something bad happens k always knows blames me mocks front k gf makes feel worthless k ds gf also started leave plans camping hanging out feel like ones number break k get ds gf blaming entire th year hs also classmates never ever felt trapped now anyone talk to lost lot friends k want talk many people parents always working tired generally bad mood ampxbi justcannot feel done point think anything matters point might mood swing feel really,1 @RadiumX I read your tweets with a british accent for some reason. lol Do you have an accent?,0 i ve heard this platitude my whole entire life nearly four year ago a teacher looked straight into my eye and told me the same thing i remember telling myself back then that i wa at rock bottom now i can only laugh at that sentiment rock bottom my as it s like i rolled off a cliff and the end is nowhere in sight,1 got chicken pot pie shit good yall gotta get often,0 take suiciding let people world know im invisiblewhy try redflag car leaving run await death work first time obviously im trying today friday cause right have guts jump shoot like rapist told me days consist painful redflag methods either fail sleep rets of wake try different one hoping fail wake another day fair share trying xyzall failed tired me passively want already least then free this also worry weight amount talking shift mind im become determined this simply versions last diary entries thing drop hard paper name rapist thats need know finally succeed eventually one days might shoot jump im trying go less messy route,1 Here's a theory maybe I should get high and do revision in order to escape depression,1 i return to work after a year of sitting at home with depression in this year i had to have a prosthesis put in my shoulder i am year old because of my past and depression my relationship with my colleague have diluted i ve said and done some bad thing that i couldn t help myself i wa just exhausted i realize that it is also difficult and strange for them but for me it is really difficult i still have anxiety attack daily with two teenager in the house the stress is certainly not gone due to stress i lost my hearing on my right side i got meniere s disease because of it i am sorry that there is no understanding for my situation now i had to have an ultrasound of my shoulder and it turn out that i have calcification it will probably need surgery again which i certainly don t like this would be the th time it s the first time i ve posted something like this anywhere on the internet i just had to write it off i really don t feel accepted in this world it s really difficult thanks for taking the time to read this,1 feel like able take anymoreim trying hard fight depression always lose things get better then sudden im without hope wanting kill im alive somehow im always able postpone date plan die time passes im convinced already killed myself keep living theres nothing really good it,1 im asking for u prove man culture well,0 i have hit 0 and i had friend from highschool left i kept seeing them for the last few year but when i see them now i feel lonely and i basically cut content a few week back i have one friend left who is going through load of stuff and hardly ha any time to hang out so i basically feel so alone all the time it s crippling i feel like i m a ghost in this city no friend left no opportunity i just feel like i failed not getting out of here sooner i live in perth western australia and i wanted to move to melbourne year ago and a i wa getting ready covid struck and now i m stuck in a city i hate with people that don t value friendship i wa seeing a girl form month and she ended up cheating on me with my friend and her ex husband she broke my heart told me she loved me i invested a bit of money in cryptocurrencies and i ve 0k fuck i had enough for a deposit on a house or a new car what do i do instead i let my depression destroy me i spent 0k on hooker and weed i went through month of pure destruction i am sitting on 0k left now in cryptocurrencies i doing a bachelor of marketing and i wa going to elaborate graduating with my friend yet after the girl cheated on me i wa emotionally fucked i dropped down from unit to unit then i found out my brother wa raped he is and that dropped me so low i should have protected him then i finally got off the weed a month ago and now i have this crippling depression that keep getting deeper i keep isolating myself i don t go outside because i don t have a job i m working on getting down to the mine here so i can actually earn a living and buy some cryptocurrency honestly turning 0 ha been the worst for me i m at such a cross road and my mental strength ha been reduced to nothing the other day nearly drove myself off the road on a steep hill i thought of my family last minute and decided not to,1 sis moment sis moment,0 writing for the website...http://bit.ly/llkL3 n looking up local job fairs..hope every1 is having a day,0 people twitter really cant handle others opinions borderline nazi friend accepting theres something seriously wrong,0 i wish i could go bed with out having take an allergy pill,0 friend threatened shove coke mentos ass im scared early shit,0 entire personality music like mental health substance issues filler filler filler filler filler,0 Yay!! it's Friday! MizSmith has a new post. Check it out at www.MizSmith.com Enjoy your weekend!,0 friendly discord made discord server want see people join made starter hoping could get suggestions improve put invite link pinned comment below hope join fun,0 redflag confusion confused intrusive thoughts afraid dementia chronic redflag panic hipochondriac etc redflag confusion,1 hey bitches guess whos getting therapy past weeks ive feeling mental health declining shot mom email shes looking therapist fuck yea see arent well sign fucking ask help,0 embracing darknessdo ever one days feel like cant fight anymore day first thought morning wanted cry redflag valid option complete useless fuck human being could sit cry know why,1 starting make driving license now passed start good months cruising around life still sucks planning crash treefuck jobfuck anxietiesfuck society money driving license,1 ive been out of work for about a year and tomorrow i have my first hour shift i have to be on my foot for most of the day and am still in the process of learning what i need to do and the worst part is i will be there alone for the last hour of my shift im super anxious about this a i haven t worked an hour shift in a year or more and i wasn t super good at handling them back then either any tip for getting through longer shift with anxiety and fear of failing or getting in trouble somehow,1 day working hey guys still great days going fast motivation still high changed training harder painfull workout hope enjoy keep following me,0 knowi know note cry help ive stuck downward spiral since teenager keep thinking well time ive hit rock bottom floor crumbles continue years ive struggled alone reasons want get family upbringing sad story heard thousand times cant seem connect anyone enter girlfriend lets call lala absolute angel whatever reason seems love me love too may reason ive systematically onesidedly everything destroy relationship ive cheated times count told heartbroken forgave begged never again look face broke heart stop me longer heart tell her know it even want it far knows were happy couple im dying inside keep telling shell leave eventually itll get forgive second time says shell forgive many times takes thats bullshit everyone limit im coward disgust myself deserve her deserve anything even death deserve sit hell ive created even shred identity left deserve stay alive suffer gotten whatever justice needs whatever justice deserves wont though im working nerve quit job easy part enjoys purpose even slinging food whatever fat load wobbles door cant make decisions ive heard everyone least one positive thing them im probably exception rule im worst person ive ever met,1 @bellybeyond love it - well done ,0 my bathtub drain is fired it haz job do amp it iz fail i got all drano on it as amp iz still not draining i wan na shower dangit,0 smash bros ultimate everyone talking steve fight sans everyones forgetting fight banjo cuphead microsoft reps,0 "@capn_mactastic *snuggles* Poor baby. At least you got out for a bit, that's something. Now stay in bed and snuggle w/animals. ",0 im thinking killing tonight would easy ir feels selfish anyone talk meeh,1 one thing i hate about dozing off in lects i wake up to a sheaf of wet and badly smudged note,0 hi everyone i m new to this sub and am just seeking advice support this weekend i entered into a huge depressive episode after not having one for many month i struggle with depression anxiety and ocd but it s been getting better a i ve built a routine and stuff like that this week though i had some personal issue one of which wa feeling heartbroken by a very manipulative ex and trying to get myself out of that rut the other is having to move back to my college town i am from a large city that i feel very much at home in and at college i have literally no friend and hate the small town where it s located it feel toxic for me and i never know what to do with myself i never go out and mostly just sleep to pas time today i had a particularly hard time going back cried my eye out began to feel this raw sense of loneliness and longing had trouble saying goodbye to family etc with my anxiety i also struggle with being worried that my family will die before we see each other next which is a whole other issue but it doe complicate thing can anyone help and provide some advice i do go to therapy and am not open to taking medication right now mostly i m just wondering what people do when they feel these profoundly heavy episode since it s been a while for me what is your go to activity how do you take care of yourself and get back on your foot any tip for detoxing from the internet social medium i think this might trigger me to think about my ex and stuff thank you and sending love to all,1 theekween heart break trauma anxiety depression pain of losing your loved one thelmasherbs,1 @JustinMGaston wooo ninjas rock ,0 got scared haunted house apologised ive ever haunted house friends mum anyways got scared shouted over chainsaw noises sorry nice day,0 know go anymorethis hard explain im going start beginning around time two months ago first started noticing symptoms know depression thought nothing it figuring combination stress school martial arts bsa future graduating high school june despite come home several days semester could make day without breakdown still decided thats figured would get better months wrap school scouts get ready college problem didnt made summer hiding everything family slacked near july thought right all august moved freshman year college everything came back fullforce again attributed school new experience want one those people tried selfdiagnose problems got worse first harmed november know why cant explain why started stop january alone attempted end all finish it know weak attached was could put away make sure one knew happened last year constant fight keep going many mornings woke nothing get going nights spent awake silently crying wake roommate writing notes last head officially diagnosed february school psychologist made sure would reveal information want therapist majority spring semester helped day time wanted make summer thought family would make better none makes sense me ive got guaranteed job future great family strong friends almost fullride school got eagle scout progressed belts quickly martial arts get good grades everything going right far am im going theres else go cant go family friends told abandoned lost contact even made second profile case brother ended found me cant get meds better help oneway ticket army lose dream know whatd id do theres nothing am austria far distance states tried run away problems coming europe ended happening im far home little comfort gives alcohol makes feel nothing cant go route know happens end make thats person want be used video games escape thats temporary get off everything still there may sound stupid music admittedly helps moment everything still temporary think anymore constant fight keep alive wearing down want hurt family friends two choices here either get help lose dream lose life want hurt people care for do supposed put everything worked life away im weak supposed choose life future feel like everything try ends failing even not every day night filled thoughts giving up point find actively looking painless quiet way out im tired feeling like shit know theres still part thats holding on cant keep going like this think im going make semester alive im scared,1 im sorry what no gatekeeping intended post way many cute girls exist rteenagers like what crazy cute girls spend time reddit like wtf many yall feel like definitely real using pics form internet karma im gatekeeping anything anyone allowed here im saying cute girls cant come obviously doubt many girls rteenagers never mind cute girls mean offend anyone post rant offends please let know instead downvoting talk edit remove post stay safe ,0 bombassdyk deathydescole ma m re est croyante lors de sa d pression on lui a rabach que c est cause de sa foi etc alors que la d pression est une maladie avec une composante biologique un d ficit de certains neurotransmetteurs c est fuir ce genre de personnes par exemple,1 ima really miss goodnight texts going without romantic aspect,0 i ve been suicidal on and off for just over year i ve been in therapy for i ve been on antidepressant for i just got out of the psych ward for the first time and now i m in a stupid zoom partial program i ve been taught countless coping skill and way of managing difficult emotion through cbt dbt act you fucking name it they re suggesting that i go to a residential program for a few week but there s no cure for depression everyone keep talking to me about college but i can barely think a month into the future never mind a year and thinking of the whole rest of my life just stretching out ahead of me just make me exhausted i m expected to keep doing this for like 0 more year at the end of the day i just can t imagine going on like this forever and i know it get better and all that bullshit but i m so sick and tired of waiting for better sure there are better day but that just make it all the more frustrating when the bad one come i m ready for this just to be over,1 dont even know m ya see one gonna read u would like say behalf wall it thou faulteth bumped me would appreciate u dideth noteth punch swear me truly sorry one bumped youre head me fault ok thank much listening goodbye u see dear reader wall upset swear assault bumpeth youre head it thank reading made far goodbye,0 survey school project hi could take survey views gender equality would super awesome results totally anonymous school project httpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlsfunqhmduxezaaxvxafgfyaunbpzkeydihitdja_djaviewformuspsf_link,0 24 hours from now I will be a homeowner! ,0 girlfriend ok worried long time hospital girlfriend good thank fucking god,0 applied mcdonalds first job feels great really didnt expect apply lastresort are still unemployed time depression sink already has knew getting classes would still result unemployed useless,0 wanna sleep rest life awayfor sleep next best thing finally enter permanent state unawareness eternal abyss nonexistence,1 Depression can be very lonely and isolating. Try @BlurtAlerts helpful advice for knowing when and how to reach out for support: https://www.blurtitout.org/2017/06/29/depression-how-and-when-to-ask-for-help/ … #depression #mentalhealth #selfcare,1 today is my worse birthday depression i can t even fake being excited for my birthday damn,1 {YAWN} Good Morning Twitters ,0 hard assign fair number stars film settled high production values was innovative approach war film remember seen since make strong impressionbr br the long days dying must one vivid antiwar films ever made achieves simply portraying extremely realistic terms actions handful soldiers northwestern europe film one showed war infantry squad level much brutal detail coldly dispassionate way lets actions speak themselves preaching sentimentality comic relief complicated scenariosbr br unfortunately theres subtlety either partly situation trying stay alive characters come across flat familiar clichs entertainment film make it though clearly intended entertain intended slug head misery horror world war ii modern war general twenty years platoon thirty saving private ryan far watchable films flat generally disagreeable characters lack actual plot realistically unpleasant images including may first onscreen vomit theatrical history make film hard sit through though minutesbr br so stars production realism stars feeling over bonus star heart right place average br br like carl foremans underrated the victors equally downbeat interesting thoughtprovoking film long days dying seems dvd not films cable number times,0 well that s where all the traumatic shit happened so yeah i dwell on it like i haven t had to hear other people bitch about their childhood and then watch them be shitty adult so sorry i can t move on from year of neglect go fuck yourself,1 situations redflag correct answerif think isnt please dont leave comment thank,1 @thisismyiq Happy Birthday hope ya day is filled with joy ,0 ugh sorry for being gross on main. depression depression depression,1 @brendax <333333333 love you! ,0 @andyclemmensen whoop i pre-ordred your album i'm hell excited about hearing it!you guys must have worked so hard on it nice work xoxo,0 im ready kill myselflike seriously im tired shit im hurting constant fucking basis week hard cant sleep cant eat properly without feeling nauseous due crippling anxiety haunts every night gotten bad turned deep paranoia ill honest know keep saying week rough every week rough one hitting hardest ive nothing taking pain killers drinking tequila wash down im well cant resort back cutting sitting drinking feel like ive got one left feel alone abandoned like ive got nobody else world talk drinking popping pills take pain away wish dead life irrelevant issues dont know want leave never come back nobody cares issues anyways cant make people care guess fucking hate struggling stay alive painful wake ever morning barely stay awake struggling go bed hate hate fact life become im close losing it feel god damn heart broken daily basis im always constantly crying sobbing feel alone worthless feel like nobody cares loves im already struggling getting affection parents dont know else do im lost im breaking cant take anymore im fucking losing moment im ready overdose slit wrists today day time want fucking die,1 watching jumanji in bed. super sleepy. text me all day ,0 doubt reach outplease,1 thanks for the #followfriday shout out! @b_edward_b ! ,0 planso im financially boned right now worst fear come pass cant afford apartment month im leaving everything behind hittin highway straight pembina nd border town south canada want look place never got go long term goal go there become citizen couldve better life there least could afford treatment even didnt insurance which first years while id slit throat last memory staring could been,1 the world ha been nothing short of a flaming corpse trash fire in these past few week there s no doubt about that but recently i can feel it around others when i m out in public no i don t have superpower lol i m just saying that i ve been getting this kind of collective i m so done with this shit vibe when i m out in public i don t know how else to explain it but everyone seems so exhausted and fed up it s like a butterfly effect since a lot of people have the same vibe right now i guess despite a lot of u being on the other side of the world it s certainly hard not to feel just how crazy these past few week have been it s like the pandemic already fucked people up for two year but now 0 just want to kick u while we re down with the current war it s neverending it s been hard for me a well i ve kind of been burying my head in the sand and focusing heavily on work and video game because holy shit is this world completely fucked up not to mention there s nothing i can really do about the situation and dwelling on it and obsessing over it isn t going to change the outcome even my friend on social medium have been talking a lot about how they ve been strangely depressed lately this situation is affecting everyone but with that said i really hope everyone pull through the rest of this month i m no military specialist so i m not even going to try and act like i know when all this will end but i hope the worst is over and that the war end soon there s a common saying thing will get worse before they get better i really hope that doesn t apply to the current situation the world need a break wishing everyone the best this week and stay encouraged,1 sentricmusic suffice to say their offer wa ignored then emi com launched and they all laughed rather a lot,0 want anything anymoreim really sure whats happened got home college summer ive felt lonely feel like friends all feel like awful person high school pretty awful person one good friends feel like still gotten awful things did now im alone hate going work hate wake up even mention anxious get around people ya know hate going work know ill speak up reason thats gotten harder harder do ampxb certain one expects low life feel like many people look im wanting quit everyone ampxb want better feel like every part wants hide ,1 @RoosterTeeth While struggling with deep depression and an eating disorder I met a girl who loved rwby. I promised myself that if I got better we'd hang out. I did recover and we watched rwby (for my first time) and I obtained my best friend. Rwby still reminds me that I can do hard things!!,1 "off to my BBQ, cofee with bezzy first I'll keep u informed through tweets not signs ",0 ok i think i m finally done with work for the yester day now for a beer and some tv before hitting the sack back at it around 9am,0 tip iceberg im making survivalhorror game friends need voice actors people use blender people cide c d animators dm questions want invite development server,0 batman returns opinion first batman batman series half movie batman returns is first batman tim burton batman joker played wonderfully michael keaton jack nicholsonbr br in batman returns feel perfectly cast batman movie yes even better dark knight keaton returns batman perfect role never going far top character batman perfect film comes two villains hes against first danny devito delightfully insane penguin michelle pfeiffer catwoman dare say one interesting complex villains batman movies feel way pfeiffer way becomes catwoman starts rather pathetic mousy selena kyle truly dives dark side mind get brilliant performance woman goes trying hero villain suppose back hero end also amazing cast evil businessman max schreck played amazing legendary christopher walken supporting role theres something role love maybe look schreck film makes performance better already isbr br story wise say batman returns much going time around opposed first batman part reason loved story much fact burton dared go much darker twisted direction opposed nicholsons top antics story penguin tries deceive people gotham making new hero mayor city catwoman struggle decide really new persona comes batman feel one hes ring leader holds two stories together course kicking ass timebr br cinematography film dark atmospheric like story thats taking place within it gotham city never looked good bluray hd chance see way means truly adds overall experience batman returnsbr br so truly feel batman movies batman returns believe tops dark knight enjoyed movie heath ledgers amazing performance joker felt movie lacking something batman returns lacks nothing want see amazing film feel perfect cast batman light bat signal for,0 feel like choiceits want kill myself thought fear always stay alive stops me universe infinite always alive exist somewhere matter do hate it hate existance nothing suffering times less suffering never good hopeful years go by gotten worse became better coping it none matters all reality care rule reality everything exist cant escape none us can,1 captainjohnhart most people don t realise how much they d miss it if they couldn t do it any more,0 "And every story i ever told is part of you" - Yellowcard: How i go ,0 ever take nap car listening playlist shuffle wake favorite song comes one best feelings opinion,0 actors symptoms of adult depression naked gteens porn with blow up dolls porn with family sexy thai girl pic.twitter.com/HMcWfFKyu7,1 binge eatingits fun hating image try adding food gaining pounds pathetic ive got pathetic man titties doublechin stretchmarks hated without them despise them food seems one areas comfort double edged sword kill one day get advice people stop binge eating torturous,1 golden boy opinion one sleeper lost treasures animes there sexy comedy young man quest find nitch life blunders sort odd jobs somehow rather sexy girl ultimately falls really realizing it truly something easily miss name viewing itwill fall comedysilliness lies inside truly crime produced ova episodes pilot movie made however unique is im surprised survived produce many want good laugh high quality anime cgi free check anime out boy one day may save worldor maybe not,0 curious people went trough similar experience also sometimes wonder behind blue self inflicted deaths stands similar urgei try make tight possiblei mid twenties married traveling eastern hemisphere stops photography happy life care free lots funone morning woke small appart sidney husband already left work he is photographer wella quiet fairly normal morning remember took coffee first went directly shower showering felt monstrously strong sudden never felt desire grab razor nearby sink cut veins bit prehistory would like give bit depth previous life beautiful calm childhood loving understanding parents sibling adventurous successful early adulthood working enjoying profession still till unpleasant encounter abusive boyfriend four years ago constitute biggest crise ever trough underestimate subsequent redflag enough time help time get it never depressed suicidal time vent happened usual good mood great energy excitement future working really good images remember welltill today cannot figure camestanding shower feeling like possessed fought hard knew real god wildly strong remember strange almost metal like taste mouth stopped shower went front mirror started slapping self strong took minutes urge started dissipate felt stabilized dressed went out walked sunny street nearby shop bought first snickers reason never one previously big one peanuts tasted like heaventhe feeling gone went lab husband printing work told story bit shocked think got truly happened quite afraid urge might hit again never did took years self observation slightest reminder taste else now wonder urge happened dark moment would strength resist much later life sharing moment close friend told story friend his middle aged woman visiting new apartment buy entering salon felt insane desire hang ceiling lustrelampes beyond fear strong barely contained herselfcould explanation sudden suicides ones person happy hours taking hisher lifewhat it hit me precise moment like mental virus externalor encoded brain psychics biding timeif anyone trough similar experience feel like sharing welcome thanks reading totally unexpected desire kill self warning fight mn went happen years ago never came back,1 always feel like everyone hates either ignored people talk me give one word replies idk really want exist anymore tired breathing,1 anybody want join discord server heres invite code cmfqgs dm discord black_flames work reason,0 i am soaked this is not pleasant,0 just stop being me stop being a disaster stop being a disappointment stop being annoying stop being so anxious,1 Cultivate supportive relationships in order to end #depression,1 I am 4 followers away from 200..let's make it happen people..ty for 2 of u that r following me ,0 currently struggling to deal with headache dizzy chest pain shortness of breath cough sore throat soon depression,1 hellish year life amp constant suicidal ideation still here writing tell can get better even currently feel like embodiment hopelessness long post apologize encourage read it thanksthis journey pit hell began last summer around june time broke could barely afford rent take nightshift job grocery store make ends meet lost exhausted want live anymore remember pacing room thinking hanging make problems disappear felt like unrecoverable failure one evening way work get frantic call mom get place asap explain why terrified me sped there get house cop cars driveway go inside take seat next mom one officers explains verbatim your brother involved shooting died im going delve specifics brothers death following months mindnumbing confusing heart breaking months life listen dad openly grieve more like scream console mom shattered pieces explain friends made feel like weirdo failure live guilt ie i could prevented happening first death id experienced know cope nature brothers death completely fucked emotionally mentally completely disconnect order preserve last iota sanity left selfisolation depression disassociation anger world began dark messed things while monsterish behavior contributed even suicidal mindset guilt amp shame literal voices head would tell kill daily basis deserve live months able get different job remember one day overwhelmed everything going simultaneously felt like getting running door planted mind day had kill myself even texted friend abroad tell going last rest year probably going hang myself fightflight response insane took everything keep going daily routine without harming running away new city car died permanently final straw me already felt backed corner even means running away wanted to damn near lost mind broke front dad cried openly felt like it money brother dead even car point make hardest decision life go get help want to either kill continue living hell reach someone started going therapist mom seeing time unloaded everything honestly felt bad endure say immediate improvementin fact airing problems someone actually seemed justify redflag times continued going started implementing things help cope shitstorm in eventually decided needed even help requested put antidepressants ive mg lexapro months undoubtedly saved life medication therapy able start climbing depths hell start moving forward life easy last months shittiest time years existence im still here like damn im proud that cant believe actually went made end course still days life perfect year since brother died im still emotional it suicidal thoughts crept times overall im alright might getting different job soon pays little more ive started hanging friends again feel like pieces slowly falling place so thats story im going sit bullshit saying get better know situation say absolutely can get better redflag isnt always answer answer getting help realizing external assistance way id get this set aside stigma fear medication put footwork finding people could help me worth end even another tragedy strikes near future absolutely could know take it fuck ive already trudged hell made out feel like take anything thank reading,1 wish finland happy birthday happy birthday finland nicely done dark fuck outside sun decided skip finland complitely today alright hyv itsenisyyspiv,0 rock bottom wanna give up throw ome whole year sobriety away worth trying stay strong anymore,0 @MitaJB he said it is a beach. 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Most useful. ,0 please tell doi want pass dont courage want hurt others want die without causing commotion dont know,1 m turning soon delete nudes girls eyes fucking weird post also typed phone theres probably spelling errors also forgive weird name made quick account ask questions ap exams shit online site actually seemed aight kept it basically gathered bunch nudes girls high school im still high school im senior year dont really know originally started collected turned competition friends far ish nudes friends arent arent deleting dont wanna delete cuz kinda holds sentimental value difficulty keeping sent principal every week checking phone friends send different phones make multiple snapchat accounts drugs issue tho dumbass friends kept pics weed dab pens dorm room im boarding school anyways dont even like jack anything like cuz competition go fuck ton shit these also like chad move kind know also got consentually like others came friends became competition in total definitely also arent different girls pic girls might know im gonna get downvoted shit ton cuz seems like fucked thing normal person fair is want advice someone isnt friend group wouldnt judgmental,0 didnt know having too much anxiety and the overwhelming depression is gon na make sleep at am sleep all day i misssed a lot,1 know benzodiazepines alcohol trick sure enough mg ativan pint vodka enough,1 really really wanna die right nowive feeling suicidal long time im sick it hospitalized days weeks ago feeling better thoughts back ive tried many coping skills im different meds ive like months im therapy nothing working im fed want die im sick tired feeling way want end dont see another way feel like option,1 @nansforever Depression? With sparkles of a fading sunshine,1 "@EricRobertsER Oh, I like that saying, Eric. Thanks. ",0 miss kabalin hate me,0 forget posts saying forget skirts butterfly knifes plz,0 grandpas birthday odd grandchild grandpa turned yesterday visited course girlfriend town thought also never mind parents hella worried fact visit grandpa right time came transgender swallowed deeply saw female clothes grandpa little shocked since knows ranting cause trouble walked house saw pictures me cousins father uncles aunt noticed odd weird am five perfect white male cousins one female mixed race transgirl but practicing christian left cousins start looking like parent little resemblance disappearing further born blue eyes red hair something one family from shared genes light brown skin brown eyes hazel glow the typical family eyes thought times change fast grandfather conservative atheist causes lot clashes sometimes feel kinda right since parents grandfather family left,0 recently came realization two different people me one guy genuinely make people smile laugh make people feel comfortable heard important guy kind awkward little nerdy goofy hes earnest loves smile see others smile that told makes vulnerable realthen guy hes dead serious speak others want spoken to waits closest hurt him happened past immensely lonely feels like burden others sometimes indulges alcohol food numb pain inside headthat second guy winning lately could describe depression would it feels like someone else inside me know truly am feel like burden so love her hurt life loved ones expect always meit sucks know treating depression involves recognizing sorts things still feel like living unbearable cross bear sometimes feel like losing smile,1 i don t know how much longer i m gon na wait could be a few day or a couple week or month definitely by the end of the year though it all depends on if it get even worse and how much worse it get if it get better then i won t do it but i don t see that happening given the pattern it s like every month i lose someone else every day i get a bigger workload and enjoy the thing i like a little le i m an alcoholic and i m not even old enough to drink i ve promised it to myself so many time because it s comforting feeling like the way out is close even if it s not happening but this time is different this time i really don t think i can go on maybe i m just a baby maybe i m over dramatic maybe i m a piece of shit who deserves to die or deserves to live miserable it doesn t matter anymore the reason i have aren t gon na go away or get better just because people tell me they aren t good reason sorry to everyone i m glad i made a new account so they won t see this specific post at least i m probably gon na post the note to instagram right a it s happening just so it s out there and people know and i don t just disappear from everything and leave anyone worrying,1 want die cant find courage kill myselfi nobody right ill probably delete five minutes like everything post im probably writing attention sense somebody might listen me maybe let out ive laying bed past week lot sleeping crying crack pressure college yet again ive thinking lot it various methods always excuse too painful risk brain damage living dont want family find body like that etc think devastated family would gets cry old friends would sad too resistance even much affects everybody else fucking hate brain convinced everything life worthless got shitty draw life everybody even slackers knew graduated started careers kept stopping anxietydepression wish could murdered hit car get violently ill something could die without family living redflag walking dark unfamiliar street yesterday thought hey getting stabbed dying street bad course even glorifying pain since im coward thinking lying floor life leave body strange idealize that times get disgusted thoughts sometimes walk outside wish could fall floor lay cold concrete forever even dead still motionless peaceful like im sleeping eternity fantasy nobody even notices everything else world keeps going see subway trains feel impulse second want painmess instead ride train similar thought floor before man wish could sit train nestled plastic corner eyes closedforever fantasize death like sleep scenarios feel like failure life fucking dropped college twice happening again im live parents im virgin never relationship woman friends anymore terrible social anxiety im ugly overall wasted potential future fucking point anymore thought could beat depression matter what never long depressed maybe im depressed enough yet overcome fear killing myself know whats worse idea things get worse fact im stuck cycle misery yet unable end already kinda hope spiral control finally point end fucking misery wish could fucking normal seem possible,1 got best compliment ever might stick life xd texting girl called cute sent selfie trying make move ive liked girl while told oh yeah well youre super duper cute like dude thats probably best compliment ive gotten,0 sometimes wonder go listening nba youngboy nonstop billie eilish odd guess makes sense need collab two though yb would kill track like michael jacksons jayzs tracks,0 destroyed year improving social skills started courage speak everything came entire year hadnt socialized anyone around age entire time spent home feel like social skills destroyed ive lost lot progress start person fall year im screwed dont improve then,0 @kristibice hahaha.. You'll be fine. ,0 fuck everybodyive posted many times nobody ever says anything thats fine add list ive struggled years thought would get better long series ups downs im still fucking back feeling set deadline gone turned turn today nothings changed shouldnt given chance therapists ive either dont understand basically venting never enough time crisis text lines try help moment say understand dont theyre talking strangers theyve volunteered do every time close eyes think jumping highest parking ramp know knife held heart land itll go straight in want increase chances success much possible fall head trauma doesnt stabbing will im going fail theres way im going keep going hate everything much,1 depression in older adult recognizing the sign of elderly depression and getting treatment http t co is9mstwzwu like share follow,1 im years old onlyabout hours do,0 osasue if shaggi is funny to you your depression is serious,1 id leave me tooive hard deal lately ive manic angry manic breaking things throwing things screaming sobbing ive hospitalized many times year ive slowly pushed everyone love away me thinking it maybe thats im suicidal im tired me too want leave me too im tired shit im sick me im sitting here typing darkas one talk and well nothing left say anywayi realize it keep praying tonight night close eyes dont wake up sure maybe itll get better bother cant even stand look mirror anymore whats point anything dunno sorry weird pointless rant usual wow hate shit today really hard im gonna go drink bunch nyquil get sleep im refreshed another day ideation disappointment,1 keep waking upits demoralizing keep waking dead joy brief feeling nothingness wake emotions come rushing back me im really tired im sure much longer this,1 dont asshole games played ranked games today certain game idk went really toxic people team got carried hard im shit player told kill made bad play rounds opponent got single win fucking ass decides write full paragraph im shit person dont deserve live etc im really lucky im happy person dont take things like heart judgement lot people could telling someone kill never okay dont know theyre going might actually it especially games lot people play escape ruthless world once end life isnt worth game victory dont dick guys dont anything nice say teammates keep yourself,0 birthday depression just ha an extra level of spice to it,1 polishing my nails out with the ladies to night,0 aging rocker movie mentions heep quo favourite bands ever incredible cast everyone fantastic storyline love piece creative genius cannot recommend highly mick jones added much foreigner lead primary songwriter along greatest rock singer ever lou gramm watched great work times bill nighy voice jimmy nail talent oozes every pore astrid karen could aging rocker ask for bloody brilliantbr br alastair perth western oz originally windsor england,0 struggles selfesteem reaching helpfirstly know post right place forgive me also want sound like kind dude complains able get girlfriend im going sake clearing mind im lbs attractive whole body region however physical appearance altered vigorous work hardcore determination both things motivation do focus post selfesteem know low selfesteem depression different things one lead other now lot posts ive reading subreddit people seem say showing low selfesteem huge turn women question is change view feel pathetic hopeless already ive trying wrap head around long time like couple years ive hated long something needs change really want change appearance mental health hopefully gain love wonderful woman someday also love myself however find extremely difficult improve physical mental health im looking guidance advice thanks read,1 @disciplesix ooh how??? Show me ,0 uncomfortable ill die lateram one weird coping mechanism like something upsetting uncomfortable happens like someones yelling calling things even something little small awkward situations way dealing repeating head cool could kill later worry anymore ill dead tonight dont even waste energy feeling upset this obviously ive never killed one times unless severe enough situation dont think would knowing end comforting expecting happen makes moment feel less intense anyone else too,1 keep trying find way able keep living doesnt seem like options need kill myselfi dont really know im still trying pretty clear need kill myself im huge burden parents want gone go dont friends family id homeless im disabled basically impossible extremely dangerous try homeless illnesses ive trying look help really none sucks friends family wouldnt situation id somewhere go help get disability medicaid housing stuff like that birthday rd guess thats im going,1 @thebeatfreaks thank you so much for coming to hawaii. have fun in guam ,0 many reviews film write get right tom conway fully inherits mantle falcon reallife brother george sanders entry decked beautiful doublebreasted singlebuttoned drapestyle suits cruising gorgeous steel cars huge fender skirts suicide doors come armpit conway travels new york miami keep formula industrial diamonds falling wrong hands client lovely virginal louisa briganza got gorgeous hair let kiss first two months along way runs type colourful array characters b movie could provide sidekick outing perhaps best among falcon sidekicks edward brophy goldie locke given really funny lines runs sinister dish doris blanding type s chick know puts out cohort benny played steve brodie who twenty years later presley punching bag two paramount king movies work cold fish yachtingcapwearing kenneth sutton ready takes get formula cruises yacht brazil saddled stoniest falconpursuing cops ever entry still reigns supreme forget minute melodramas give hour falcon movie day got wife two kids whos got time twohour movie shake dry martinis forget troubles great falcon movie tape local tv toronto like years ago luck,0 attention anyone plays music owner lives east coast made discord server anyone looking fine tune music bounce ideas other dm link please aware server newly created fully functional pm est,0 hoping would lasti went like year without feeling depressed alone recently today come back feel like year ago ,1 anyone predictions disasters coming months one hope year wont bring many tragedies last lets make guesses anyway,0 tweetup afterparty at genji ,0 youtubes really scummy announcing theyre gunna stop community captions like bruh theres people deaf hearing impaired rely understand video better plus people watch channels languages use understand native language youtube really doesnt care platform tbh gunna remove accessibility feature like,0 need help reddit theres girl like however already boyfriend tell relationship seems pretty stable positive side think might open got number around month ago advice,0 heres night im sitting airport waiting flight leave everything behind disappeari deal anger fear episodes panic disorder anxiety disorder etc family everything today bad episode mom yelled makes pull hair scratch bleed unknown rash thats spread arms starting way back chest fear hurting mother today attack after took everything packed decided leave decided im safe meds havent helped whole year breaking point theres nothing world thats heartbreaking telling little brother loves anything last time youll see other im still crying noises airport making shake uncontrollably making itch bleed spots later today go say goodbye everyone love home grew up dont feel safe wouldnt live hurt someone loved control,1 my whole body feel itchy and like it on fire,0 my bf cheated on me but got a dog today and my dog ha made me feel so much better who need a man,1 "@judyvillanueva don't like acctng? haha, yan p man din yung like kong course. ) btw, watched glee... liked it! ",0 mental health ward auhello wondering anyone brisbane area queensland australia knew adult mental health wards good experiences with im considering voluntary admission,1 want break free want break free,1 feel pretty im guy wouldnt know please tell,0 @jonnysun oh its okay?! i had a solid week of feeling 'normal' and good and positive. then i slipped back into it and now feel terrible- and in the deepness of the depression. you swear you'll carry on feeling good and you won't slip back into it. and then you do and you hate urself 4 it,1 truly one golden age hollywood kind make anymore unique fun movie keeps guessing going happen next br br all actors perfectly cast great supporting actors first movie saw ronald colman fan ever since reginald gardiner always favorite supporting actor mine adds certain quality every movie in played different kind character here still added something movie another actor cast character would added,0 reddit age funny number made remind nearly year ago make bad joke reason,0 tf make work know work dont want,0 "YES! AWESOME! Federer moving on to Finals, I believe ",0 @CarpeNoctom this is either adam and eve reversal or the fakeout pump between anger and depression ...,1 @theDebbyRyan im watching Maddie on Deck right now suite life on deck yo,0 @NiaBassett How is the health these days ? ,0 my chest feel so heavy and tight im having trouble breathing im nauseous and my head hurt so much,1 @nyneofuturists Thinkin' bout it. I've got a friend in town and need to check with him first... ,0 anyone ever despret enough use qtip toilet paper toilet paper hours ago despret enough use qtip wondering anyone ever done same,0 area nightclub making out of the bewilldered uni student who have arrived home while the poor folk like me have to struggle on,0 @Ancheeca Read and replied....love it!! ,0 "@mileycyrus hi Mileeey! my friend and I can't wait to your come to Spain! we are so excited! we love all of your songs, all are great ",0 see say freddys nightmares cheesy ripoff obviously know good tv see it episodes packed drama blood freddy creative way kills people love freddys nightmares hope get episodes dvd best episodes are saturday night specialschool daze love stinks think series sucked entitled opinion remember opinion means nothing freddys nightmares always one best series ever come accept fact soon enough like watch deny brilliance,0 im sorryim sorry must go im sorry waste space im sorry cannot anyone im sorry one trust me im sorry everyone hates me must go carry leave life behind make everyone happy going away im sorry wont graduate college im sorry person people look too im jackass im sorry life short people like me im sorry wasting world resources im sorry living wasting away m today day go one stop today well leaving morning might change mind highly doubt cause everyone hates me goodbye everyone must go live somewhere else good night,1 @nancynelson23 welcome aboard thanks for the new follow ... (finally...been watching u for like a month haha),0 hi i have always been concerned about not being normal because i have anxiety i realize that everyday is a struggle to survive to be mostly fine fearing so many thing i am so tired of feeling like this i wonder will i ever feel normal not being afraid and just live thank you for reading,1 @lilvalkrie aiyoh. so pai seh. sudah sudah. dowan to fish for compliments anymore. ,0 good morning i wish the weather wa a good a in germany today,0 waiting for my love to get home and getting sad that there won t be hot cross bun after next week,0 @waterprotein i <3 your icons especially Bulleto <3<3,0 It's so hard to move on when you have depression,1 im devoting life hedonismim sick waking crying think day turn im gonna go canada fucking drive mexico drink smoke fuck get killed dont like alive dont things make feel physically good eventually ill dead,1 hi male looking meet people hi im kinda lonely would nice meet new people here know probably get attention since internet cares females still try anyways nice mind texting please oh also live arizona enjoy playing games watching youtube im bit boring bye fellas,0 @havenward jensen and danneel bought a cockapoo named Icarus. And he said on stage that he loves her. ,0 je t ai sauv de la rue tu l a sauv de la d pression,1 appalledhave ever thoght none relations health,1 So happy for my brother and sister-in-law right now! Keeping my fingers AND toes crossed! ,0 going reddit think tips do k thank ,0 even know sleep much always tired anywayampxbgthelp melt wanted something productive today slept h,1 I'm going to swim again. Be right back. ,0 really love movie played final fantasy vii still loved movie really funny love job voiceover actors done visuals fantastic lines well donebr br i admit pretty good imagination able fill gaps movie presented suggest watch twice lots things suddenly make sensebr br also this pretty funny watch subtitles say subs say sometimes completely different really usually pretty funny sometimes helps u understand say betterbr br watch it love marnie,0 let tell story relationship till day im love life pretty disastrous long story short long ass chain rejections mostly due revolting time cut late im ict assistant school things looking brighter me started focusing life girls less started joking friend mine who teaching cannibal corpse girl right next recognized band might seem like lot eyes practically heart shaped point started talking told shed fell long time ago bit later dated revealed pansexual all dated honestly ive never happier compatible intimate kids kids even started sharing hobbies all anyway turned exclusively lesbian months later knowing wasnt either hands accept it absolutely wrecked dated makes difference things stiff us month half talking like best buds again shes great hard feelings still emotionally scarred breakup like goddamn one time date shattered sense selfesteem turns lesbian and despite wanting move feelings someone else acknowledge im ready new thing wait moral story im really fucking revolting,0 friends told bunch friends suicidality realy supportive j think ill still go attempt weeks ill chance surviving heads gaver,1 uworstestgrammar amass many coins question how,0 oliver stone always ready make politicallythemed movies makes another one here talk radio loosely based career alan berg radio talk show host denver murdered white supremacists case character barry champlain eric bogosian outspoken talk show host dallas loves nothing irk people call in is people call bunch pigheaded racists things may heating anyone realizesbr br bogosians performance brings light comical tone otherwise serious movie really liked scene jabs redneck calls in granted call oliver stones greatest movie ever good reference era media gets concentrated good performances ellen greene alec baldwin also help,0 "The Oil that has the Potential to Fight Migraines, Depression, Anxiety, & Even Cancer http://www.healthy-holistic-living.com/oil-potential-cure-migraines-depression-anxiety-even-cancer.html …",1 feel like hurting things getting worse lately,1 tryed something end iti mixed feelings right now guess next time ill try something else someone end reading this make sure go it cause ive got cuts armslegs got deal that,1 helpplease spent three hours today sitting roof four stories flat concrete please give reason stop hate am hate options future hate society live in inherently flawed theres reason anything else,1 saw begotten last night im two minds filmbr br on one hand appreciate total invert michael bay film dialogue extremely stylized grainy bw photography genuinely horrific imagery ever set film compelling use sound which nobody else seems really picked yet reflection theme dares go filmmakers terms images production concept movie people understand read comments find lot people whose lack ability figure film results shrieking pretentiousness fervor gibbon rattling bars cage feeding time genuinely shocked disturbed me last time film managed agobr br on other thirtyminute short sprawls hour half understand might artistic merit using repetition monolithic pacing bludgeon case help everything hang together imagine approached ragged man street grabys shoulders says something completely confounds core being then instead leaving shattered gibbering wake keeps talking talking talking end movie found glancing watch again br br this entertainment people disentertainment deprogram people watched glitter watch movies entertained frustrate confound possibly anger you approach begotten like chocolate cake want eat tastes good approach like something menu never heard before something see furtive glances kitchen door something thats dark glistens twitches platter something order taste good know like,0 wanted tell pm talking redflag redflag never option first all sorry umistakenbacon want apologise front members wanted post funny way memes umrcharisma thanks calling whore reposter greedy shit mind needs hear this hate gt good sir repost rteenagershttpswwwredditcomrteenagers given heading u_darthjarjar_ know called repost added joke image found internet meme making geniunely asking karma whore ok see things think better subreddit add touch sometimes dont greedy meaningless internet points promise reading repost thing shitty person inside respects words told members also want vent hate myself slapped myself no lunatic fucked teaching presentation class computer chose teach one topic whole class great opportunity right created good ppt time presentation got nervous fuck started stammering one classmate asked question able explain read till here thanks leave reddit december sorry umistakenbacon ampxb hate,0 hi everyone im broke many people sub are im actually asking money money keep anyway already entered promo code need get bonus cash app dont bank account understand it someone send send right back ,1 dontcha just love microsoft corrupted open xml document,0 nowi know think dying time ive planning something year really want soon can know im never going best anything smart talented want keep going know could go college good career everything but whats point though gonna like mediocre everything trying fit world thats skeptical hateful towards trans nonbinary person caught put dangerous situation yesterday felt like ready go it know im posting theres nothing say ill probably give anything though hurts anything soon im sorry worry know else do better worrying friends family sounds bad im good person guess thats fitting haha thanks reading this appreciate,1 definitely worth watchingbr br ten different directors present segment based favorite opera aria need opera lover watch film although course hate opera really going bad time thisbr br not surprisingly segments range brilliant fair fuss seems godards contribution whether think hes brilliant pretentious segment change mindbr br some pieces clear narrative others montage connected imagesbr br none pieces minutes so happy whats screen wait next segment think much culture soaking upbr br keep eyes open performances buck henry beverly dangelo elizabeth hurley briget fonda tilda swinton john hurt the buck henry segment alone worth price admissionbr br ,0 you miss every shot take wayne gretzky live words remember whenever opportunity something life give shot work enjoy it remember think ready take again miss shot sport someone makes fun attempt anyway either tell yourself you miss every shot take,0 hurt around think better stay away them ruin every good thing around two hands always wanted end partner love convinced unlovable happens reason peace made peace fact ill end alone,1 try to use skimmer by fallon for the first time like the overwiev and style would be cool ig you could browse the photo,0 the only reason i havent killed myself is because i know i d hurt the people that are close to me but is it really to sacrifice my happiness for theirs,1 real hornee hours rn wanna talk someone rn like fr,0 option therehorrible horrible relationship woman even understand hates me live her get hired company works part time itll forever save enough money move out even would never able afford live city starting school septemberor least id like to attend community college around cant live area unless im willing stay relationship makes want drink bleach money family friends could take really help way thats significant real future real drive depressed like actually depressed sad whats point this want go sleep wake problems gone thats going happen stay asleep,1 watching men in black on hbo right now ,0 i kinda miss when i wa completely apathetic at least then i wasn t anxiety ridden and constantly worrying about how much of a failure i am and how downhill my life is going i miss when i didn t care when i could watch my world collapse in front of me and be able to sleep at night when i didn t need to always doing something that release dopamine to keep my mind off of my severe procrastination should i even call it procrastination when the last minute already past i kinda miss when i wa apathetic when i simply didn t care,1 im exhaustedi tried tried fucking hard best friend best daughter best person could be enough spent much time money trying keep friends many nights ignoring sleep keep company darkest hours hand whip whipped cream tweak recipies best friend like vanilla much time care effort something simple gift wrap what blocked explanation called wife pretends like even know am want know wrong fuck friendship myo mother hates me hear much bitch many times breaks me money taken many times realize respect me want love man hug mom friend appreciate much truly care im done extending getting spit face nothig bottle now much love wanted give yall broke me im tired getting hurt,1 @poutkyuns I have depression too and I start counseling next month.All I want is to be happy again,1 flat earthers mental illness something like antivaxxers autism know that do,0 dont know im love background info cousin lives several states away mine see summer really close several years basically summer dog died cousin left back home really sad started texting left texting nonstop told felt super alone back home wanted stay here also told misses time whenever tell im sad always cheers makes feel happy shes person makes happy highlight day texting her make happy also told person opened to always tell problems shes going through feel like shes person cares actually listens me dont know love please help me,0 Oh dear... And the left side of my face Maybe sitting in the sun was't such a good idea ,0 death venice movie need see every ten years always different always different stage lifebr br the movie art beauty longing death scenes painfully slow others simply annoying watch especially seem before yet would want miss single frame music repetitive main theme adagietto mahlers fifth used again yet would want miss single note last image fades last note dies left numb exhaustedbr br this movie monument film making really good movies saturday evening crowd stay away it simply best movie ever,0 why am i always suicidal,1 "Dancers, Dance Teachers & Dance Studio Owners, How can I help you ? ",0 know write this searched redflag cameup sorry belongsorry english wall post accumulating feeling month feel like breaking apart wish could tell things know would make upset brother older brother suffers chronic depression also suffer it somehow less affected him due work move recently since then able sleep well see brother treated self harm multiple times even disappeared once refuses get treatment one would talk home gone going talk him scared nights days scared wont see anymore next time travel home breaks heart funny always end fighting hates put feet front car hate short temper adjust taste something talk him notices that try hard notices love him admire him wish sick one him always smartest one everybody admires including me always proud big brother instead always dumb stupid useless would waste notices sorry sometimes loose temper him feel lying time fooled mother truly loves us notices mother craves one hugs kisses always mentions it brother notice scared loose you liked called today sorry broke tears least seemed worried liked that truly did told missed you told thing hope miss too wish could speak often invite something like instead feel like keep pushing you cant wait go saturday know would like hugged you want know really miss you crying nights today worst thinking maybe didnt exist would happier die would miss me please brother smile bit want worried much please brother take care yourself,1 thinking sureive depressed years always mind ive reason why someone came life world changed instant recently person left world changed back was im giving january im killing things get better already things planned everything hell might sooner tbh,1 ever laugh say hahahahah it yall ever that,0 @Hollywelch i agree it will sort it's self out in the end dress yet?? lol. i'm going out with my mom friday to look ,0 Loving @gilesbennet teaching style - like Dr Strangelove on meth. He's just cut himself http://twitpic.com/5olh6,0 The #Grief Exception Is grieving the same as #depression? Should it be treated the same? DSM changes: http://wp.me/p34SkM-3vf  #diagnosis,1 is making a pot of tea ,0 Today is Thunder Over Louisville - the start of the Derby Festival. I love being here for the festivities even if I'm not going. ,0 @Callie06 WOOOOOOOOOO for school being out. Luckyyyyyyy im jealous ,0 welp bird threw cucumber slice cant find playing decided try cucumber threw im stuck crawling floor find,0 "@King_Styles But, man, what a pretty implosion it would be. ",0 dont see purpose livingi male med school student third world country recently mi grades kibda low friends parents always yell not manly enough gf much ibto church etc recently routine consist waking up stealing food fridge avoid contact anybody hace considering redflag since long time ago like year so want belive things get better someday everything change cant see how life gets worde everyday fights parents work failuresi want end pain,1 ive thinking now think im pansexual im still figuring tho wanted see guys thought cuz im gonna get support family,0 dont like alivei tried kill today failed im disappointment,1 telling jokes corona gone day theres joke today im sorry come back tomorrow edit ok ill tell joke httpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentslsxetelling_jokes_until_corona_gone_day__theres_a,0 zen sushi for lunch today look like it s raining outside,0 title interesting day great life nowhere get useless fucking completely also cool something you read,0 overwhelmedim starting college weeks im scared part wants run away it family issues getting hard like half im bridge between theres much head needs sorting big things coming driving crazy cant cope every time close eyes sleep quiet time think needs done whats coming know shouldnt say wanna give desire go college anymore want everything stop worry anything anymore plus feel like shit time go know theres probably easier ways cope excited college days lately getting overwhelming,1 julie brown hilariously demolishes madonnas attempt rockumentary gut ripping humor truly original catchy songs rival madonnas own cinematography sets top notchbr br kathy griffin chris elliott offer injections comedy enhances compliments film appearances bobcat goldthwait wink martindale themselves added bonusbr br its hard tell browns performance meant insult playfully tease madonna though hardly think material girl would find humor itbr br my favorite line why come to phillipines eat dog im vegetarian,0 giving upim point care anymore im twenties broke make own cant live home situation toxic job rent greater paycheck license car commute work bus desperately want place want happy safe matter what ill never it im stupid get good job one pays decent salary degree im skilled im competent enough cant take this,1 got attacked im much pain turkey gerard attacked feeding chickens wanted seven different states new name gerard christmas dinner pack shit,0 the description mood movie may considered spoiler much action factbr br great onebr br is peculiar interest dystopias utopias atmosphere movie magic yes sure utmost human onebr br this film is doubt extremely artisticartificial depends taste imagine people hate watch slow movies and tsai ming liang who enjoy times one slowest know suffering movie yes people unable slow let time pass watch without feeling waste it one take piece torture therapybr br the topic surface lack communication even live rabbit cages one next really together people tired sick something unable describe want meet touch talk confront others like disappeared big block flats looks void rain falling constantly evokes strange melancholy inside sometimes must something abnormal unexpected unwanted decay hole floor concrete allows us reach otherbr br one possible ways look this survey inner world characters consider whole moviespace inside yourself ask there could depressive states moods come form place them right here search answers if need them among walls halls block instead inside hardly transparent mind manbr br the key understand nottounderstand let movie borrow us subject study inside end safely return us colorful normal looking realitybr br then maybe reach like feeling real possible nonpathetic hope core still humans state mind help one much live world,0 @LPGthatDude anytime ,0 loved movie cute funny lauren holly wonderful funny believable role costas mandylan also good nice look too brenda vaccaro usual pleasure watch great job character pleasure watching movie funny interesting watched whole family difficult find nice wholesome movies anymore thank goodness hallmark movies wonderful wish could buy it anyone knows could purchase movie please let know purchase several hallmark movies happy them hope buy one,0 the great depression prolly the best album for me to listen to right now,1 didn t pas the first part of the cset i missed it by effing point,0 dont convince toi need end it depression false hope even depressedthe cycle goes on everytime get up next time fall hurts even greater cant anymore,1 changed mind love bot love,0 seriously thinking redflag know balls it crushed student loans know never go away minimum wage job ugly fat shit knowing one want methere point anymore cant get ahead life one want credit score k debt ugly im im done everything fuck it,1 that wa it folk spring s gone and winter is back it s snowing outside,0 need people talk to ps im high hell might od fronta you wanna help yall im fucked hmuhit looser lmao fuck me ever deserve this h self like legit pleasetake aeay god nanugrandpa daddy im sorry yoy got sepsis possible sepsis dont know im finna live without you grandson ishaan here loves you youre like daddy maybe youre daddyno incest loves failed yes failed nanu failed bad sick year one raised me everything mama nanigrandma struggling aswell im sorry im yo fuck up health went hill year id kever thought id see nanu like this sorry im alpraxz drank booze aswell im low imma kill self soon tho knoe failed nanu ishaan failed failed hard wish son instead mama daddybastard never there nanu youre nos youre old now im proud grandson grandson army officer ill kill vv soon deserve know forgive im crying grandma tough hospital wyou ill die dw soon infact today need mgs juxssss ,1 reviewing intense martial arts movie first time nearly years must say lose mysticism eyepopping martial arts action remembered youth story dying martial arts instructor sending unfinished pupil find past members poison clan seek fortune masters friend keeps hidden afraid last pupil enough training instructs befriend one five venoms defeat fourbr br i cant say enough choreography camera work fine film right quite possible one best martial arts movies ever made classic,0 why use AI anyway? once they get the power they are going to use us as their batteries................... ,0 tried everything exercise medication calling friend vent problems calling suicide hotline getting psych guard group therapy psychologists meditation eating healthy owning emotional support animal nothing absolutely nothing works alone life friends grew tired problems cannot blame them lost inside mind thought asking help could way mysery turns never was basically used every single person ever close could fix broken soul feel guilty wanted have even want happy wanted okayi lived past expiration date stopped trying long time ago want last words make everyone knew feel depressed opposite actually hope understand it cannot find happiness cannot find stability looking years got tired trying please put shoes sanei got point realized gone crazy depression took left me used be person everyone knew died long time ago left remainsi want know understand best needed free pain going through today finally restwhoever reading this wish best love you understand pain going through really do wish could free you wish could hug right nowmom please feel guilty dad take care her love both keep young memories find lived past expiration date,1 fucking hate every second im still breathingi hate every morning still woke instead dying,1 im leaving reddit great funny all theres depressing stuff really need right now along things still favourite subreddit though thank that cya around,0 white trash v u we were outnumbered http twitpic com y jp,0 omfg hurt httpsimgurcomaxvmalnssms,0 im going make spaghetti tonight hope good ive never done know,0 yknow see art post want say something besides wow great artwork cant think anything leave it feel like one experiences this,0 mean mom came room tried tuck bed started telling stories toddler would tuck in like u remember said obviously like oh left,0 @kg86 Thanks The elephants look magnificent This is what we miss due to stupid restrictions - 3G pleease and cheap!!,0 continuefor recurring thoughts redflag longer feel drive im either angry depressed feel weight things im tasked payout end,1 redflag hotline hung memaybe sign worth trying find hope,1 opinions abortion im bored fuck im curious please respect peoples opinions asshole,0 hospital convince friend stay get helpive got friend always heavy drugs worst ive seen today called hang crying heard buddy showed work completely fucked up drove work mg xanax mg percocet drove hospital cause damn eyes going different directions barely coherent falling asleep talking earlier determined completely get help hes afraid able see girlfriend also user able sleep bed ive hospital system told everything could hes point hes refusing budge telling give one week starts using daily xanax cant stop obviously hell call hell get admitted obviously going work convince him people hospital try convince well thank you,1 you enter a store looking to buy a particular thing you browse around and realise that they do not the item you came in for so you buy something you don t really need because you are afraid that the staff at the store may suspect you of shoplifting,1 want disappeari health anxiety every week think something new something would kill me would good anxiety knows it somehing consequences im tired wanna sleep wanna go bed ill alone already overwhelming thoughts ill stay living room tv sleep,1 i am so low on energy that i don t even have word enough for this post i can not finish grad school and the job i m qualified to do i hate it i also can not talk frankly with anybody now given that i have suicidal tendency right now and that sound like emotional blackmail to everyone else if i express my wish also if i were to continue living it would be an embarrassment living a that middle aged woman who wanted to khs i m tired i don t want to fake anymore and i don t think i m even good at faking it either people can tell this is a sad loser,1 Study: Sexual minority adolescents have higher rates of depression http://sbne.ws/r/zAhg ,1 dear community ever feel like emotionally blackmailedi know little guys like idea redflag legal think understand why just know myself hate here choose myself feel forced living resent people try stop dying resent people tell cause others pain seems like stupid thing say pain matter what people say thing head is their well important yours existence choice unwell woman chose keep thought could provide love denied life beautiful thought it unloved unwanted woman holding tiny baby someone loves is aw baby machine providing validation growing human needs go unaddressed big surprise abused woman one loves shit load psychological issues prevent fit mother fucking baby grown adult dealing result neglect wants die tells people wants die unfair chastise it met hatred even here sub met hatred suggesting allowed life wants commiserating others say want same people belittle challenges tell neglect reason want die mean whatever worst thing happened im saying right now life forced upon want it emotionally blackmailed staying hate it fucking hate it im monster want people care pain guess stay here continue mutilate myself body soul else do,1 video games look hella fun jejssjjjjsjjoaooaoaowozjznznznznsjsjjjsjd,0 think feel emotions right making nutsyup again still thinking dying according parents always relatively happy child age so started noticing something emotions just off really hard describe happiness just brief almost unpleasant anger feels like impulse something sadness like wanting cry recently cannot seem even get reduced feelings everything made happy anymore ive also tried new things also dont make feel happiness cannot reiterate much hate this enjoy anything again suffering just plain suffering torture even thing sort enjoy sleeping even getting old want anything anymore anything old hobbies serve distraction suffering know anymore also sorry hard understand english native language describing issue really hard well,1 ready endi intrusive thought runs head throughout day at least ill dead soon ill dead weekend recently ex dogs came visit sine theyve ive called manipulator piece shit vareity different things obvious person isnt good im tired really considering taking benzos tn along bottle rum taking uber park something let find morning,1 i m sorry sometimes i don t feel much i wish i did i wish i wa better for you i wish i could always try my hardest and make thing better i wish i wasn t bad i d do anything to make myself better for you i m sorry i ve cried more than i d like and felt a lot lately i wish i could feel a lot a lot of the time i truly am sorry,1 "@stevyncolgan Eeew! You actually deserve to be stuck indoors until 3 pm, blergh!! #badbreakfast",0 suicidal catfishi girl wasis girlfriend live supposedly fucked clings me morning went good morning baby good day love you dont take goodbye granted nothing wrong told working turned around shes offline nearly hours might come back done before many times actually supposedly shes hospital many times dont know holding on real know exhausting dont know do friends who might might real responding im grown man im worried scared,1 many others written wonderful documentary list chapters anyone interested new germany distant war september may france falls mayjune alone may may barbarossa junedecember banzai japan way usa desert north africa stalingrad june february wolfpack red star soviet union whirlwind bombing germany september tough old gut lovely day tomorrow burma home fires britain inside reich germany morning june august occupation holland pincers august march genocide nemesis germany februarymay japan pacific february july bomb februaryseptember reckoning,0 only two more day until holiday all my friend are in public school so we can t hang out on thursday then disneyland omg,0 "trying to find a binder to put my finished project in eep, i'm so happy",0 know feel livingim thought living next years makes anxious potential terrible things could happen horrible things could could done me financial worries country like years im uk family dying things regretting later justim struggling cope emotionally moment get overwhelmed want kill stop experiencing bad things happen forget things time im tired im useless recently quit job alone time work cope it want go sleep ever,1 looking new friends discord know place you server growing server thats lgbtq friendly almost times active always find someone talk to wanna make application join is httpsdocsgooglecomformsdpsyqdgzr_arprccuif_lftbnwqrqxseenideditresponseshttpsdocsgooglecomformsdpsyqdgzr_arprccuif_lftbnwqrqxseenideditresponses,0 http://twitpic.com/6cxe7 - 0h! Yeah! the New Moon poster! great ,0 Also! the Inbetweeners is Class! ,0 ".@sirajdatoo Thank you. Will give it a look. If I'm honest, I quite like the 140 char challenge ",0 @ScarletSass Yay! Making good progress ,0 againback feeling extremely suicidal again made post rdepression days ago hoping get suicidal again tried kill weeks ago not way see hospital never told anyone real life it family knows im really depressed wish could help me mother tried hard make feel little better work all many repressed memories im sick basically stuck bed cant go things yet alone go school job im alone well im alone many people around me im lonely dating guy like me left me would get better thought dragging more one made feel better miss lot months still feel way him im tired people telling you get it telling find someone better wont never felt attracted anyone ever whole life except him leave love anymore usual breakup reason cant forget him breakup loneliness combined problems things keep getting worse day day feel lonely wish still him needed cant get alone cant much knowing nobody else give kind support knowing post replies make feel better seems impossible,1 oh and my agent had me booked out the wrong day x 000000,0 ive made decision end lifejust need get chest today officially made decision kill myself likely happen later next month things keeping want get personal affairs order im visiting family soon may well see one last time go funny thing life even bad cheesy sounds death waiting doorstep think theres getting around it thats want say right now needed avenue release postdecision musings,1 know really tired car family hours hermit human completely social energy emotionally tired guess allowed snap dissociation mode actually feel something set stubbed toe real bad know really stupid way set off parents started laughing dad offered advice said joking right genuinely know mom said call really condensing way went room starting hyperventilating felt tense head lost control calmed continued crying sat silence trying build walls back up mom came said wrong said mentally ill i cope humor started laying america depressed life kept repeating ill even though two anti depressants go therapy regularly started thinking lot actually comfort makes feel small feeling feel every time confront is always says nobody perfect best could would cry feel bad never talk fully heal recognizes depression real thing downplays severe it tried speaking sister instead problems flat said know depressed atheist made frustrated got left room similar instances brother mom saying could depressed since middle class familyidk point post is kind put thoughts seeing paranoid actually discovering something ps grateful though least send therapy get meds panic attack crying questioning family support,1 theekween depression anxiety loss of love one heartbreak trauma thelmasherbs,1 read many commits theaters badi think certain type person enjoy movies person enjoyed waltons little houseu understand enjoy moviesbr br now loves abiding joyi knew bad news start moviei wish would shown end instead letting think it movie lot jeffit years later know interested girlsbr br i want say enjoyed movies farwas crazy bookscant wait next movie way clark talks get every time would love see january jones appearancemaybe family reunion something,0 current mood sfw httpswwwredditcomryaoicommentshaoiosauce_in_commentsutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare,0 @MorganBreAnn hey I just got your reply and no I was in the aftermath though dope ,0 one really cares mewhats point living anyway one loves you im sure belongs know myself think parents really care me think dead weight them living paying college close cannot talk feelings understand western society way conservative think prayer reading bible fix everything doesnt reason still sticking around though older brother took life february want attempt fail finding out would think reason failure parents short unattractive guy also takes toll selfesteem everyone dealt different hand life given worst cards play with way many obstacles concur definitely wish taller better looking social anxiety think could taken seriously life looking girlfriend moment never one way scared ill get pushed around knowing cant change anything yes know eat right workout room change fact short riddled anxiety selfloathing rampant me indian guy born raised ameria still stigma us one seems like us bad stereotypes us bad jokes us creepy guys sense communicate properly understand thing people may think things rips away me aware indians also prejudice towards others get may particularly care right now try kind anybody unconditionally try understand points view cant act angry public else bruting foreigner cant go clubbing anything like used seeing someone race things like that learned myself see worried things cannot change height race looks means cannot respected appreciated things different would much happier know could learn something new get hobby get rich konw momentary pleasures like music food etc however think none matters short tall ugly handsome stuff futile me probably sound sad pathetic right now entirely wrong either become nihilistic everything thing keeping college well either sure kind future have completely realistic myself future probably living alone working coming home redflag freedom freedom depression anxiety turmoil,1 "@TickleMeJoey I dont know if you are the real but even if its not, hey and spend a good day.. What is on its u have the same humor... xo",0 today i realized i am too good at hiding thing even i can t find it,0 really want go road trip miss traveling man want look good views listen music stay nice hotel only,0 turned today im ready share wisdom ill answer questions serious random philosophical plain silly ill best helpful,0 confessing crush like really seeing people react title,0 @rawdawgbuffalo... sound good big bro Save me some of everything that's NOT pork or beef!,0 i ve noticed my anxiety is really bad for me in certain situation right now i am working a full time job mon to sat 0 hr per week been kinda hard to deal with the anxiety at work a i spend too much time with other people and i have to face awkward situation due to my role also i have a severe problem while eating with other coworkers tried to control that and it worked literally did an auto therapy session to control my fatalistic thought but recently some thing went out of control in my daily routine like some change my bos made to the department there were some change and problem at work too and also i met a girl i really like but obviously my brain take it a an anxiety with thought like you should do this with her you should be quicker or do this and kore this automatically exploded my anxiety to gigh level on these day don t wan na suffer the same so what would be your technique with this tl dr what are your technique copong method when you start dealing with unexpected thing and how to avoid the fatal case of escaping situation,1 @ebassman my future baby daddy ,0 hi reddit i m not sure who else to turn to a i recently had to stop seeing my therapist because i moved state and she is only licensed in my previous state of residence i am looking for a new therapist but i simply can t keep this inside me anymore and i need a place to get it out this year and the last few month of 0 ha been the absolute worst of my entire life i can not believe the amount of negativity loss tragedy and pure bad luck that i ve been experiencing since fall of 0 it s been blow after blow and i can feel myself giving up i m giving up hope i m giving up my optimistic attitude i m giving up my will to continue existing in august of 0 my boyfriend of two year and i began our descent into what eventually led to our breakup in mid december we shared an apartment in oregon and i had to move out in january and move across the country back to my hometown in illinois i wa devastated about the breakup and under immense stress trying to find a moving company to haul my belonging such a long distance i finally found one and it turned out to be a scam they stole all my belonging and i m in the middle of several complaint with them but still have yet to see my thing and i don t think i ever will i lost my boyfriend and my life s worth of item at the same time living back at home ha been difficult a my sister life here and we do not have the best relationship she is severely mentally ill with addiction depression and borderline personality disorder so it s been very hard trying to manage her mood outburst destruction etc she ha attacked me many time said countless hurtful thing and done endless physical damage to the house living with her is very stressful on top of all this my grandpa just died tonight i got a call from my brother out of the blue i can t process this right now and i m at my wit end in the past month i ve lost my boyfriend whom i still love my old apartment and old life in oregon all of my life s worth of belonging and now my grandpa it s almost funny how insanely negative this year ha been i simply can not see myself recovering from all this loss and sadness and i don t know what to do it is just too much and i have no hope or light left i m feeling suicidal,1 totally disagreei thought great movie kidsdawn wells gilligans islandand promise shown barely known dana platoit disneylike hardly disregarded meaningless fluffno scary meant bei wont ruin endingbut unusual way donei mean kids characters great know expect endthe basic plot also lot kids say fact kids expert fishermen central plot especially initiallyit also helps jam towards endit also plus overly longi think clocks minutes,0 researching susan harrison the ballerina reference bonanza episode reminded gembr br this episode inspiration dylans all along watch tower hendrixs cover probably well know one best one bestbr br thus episode responsible several bests bad approximately minutes televisionbr br but the twilight zone comment series unnecessarybr br characters typical serling intense dramatic barreling toward end inevitable hindsight surprising first time see itbr br this episode spoiled one sentence good spoil seen itbr br but feel ambushed never listen hendrix ears again,0 seems like logical option world cant fit intohave never fit society im much nonconformist motivation finish college grades fine absolutely hate classes cant keep interest pretty much every class ive entire life ive tried multiple types classes spanning different majors friends to benefit success finding work parents use work mcdonalds critique smh career path well im worthless highly likely bpd mdd add well gad honestly sound like subsets one another tried medication unsuccessful tried stimulants hated well cure depression im essentially screwed life imagine death worse candy compared picture close lowest point ill probably get kicked soon become homeless,1 update yesterdays post da post httpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentskqyi_managed_to_do_something_big_epicutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf fuck saw astolfo internet said no also thinks big gay,0 birutagme yeah it wa really depressing stuff like that get to me,0 thinks bit odd story year old england got stabbed death really big news outside uk compare school shootings like hear england within day seems like story exclusive uk know year old boy set girlfriend paid another year old stab way teaching lesson got angry sent nudes another guy,0 friend said i dont even want im girl believes break himhi reddit really really need help friend lets call guy fallen girlfriend severe trust issues them fully believes going lose thursday next meet up told eaten slept last hours said i dont even want im girl idea help ive told needs get help said hed get thrown looney bin mind too fucked right now idea say help him know help situation im good friends guy girl reddit please help me wrong area please tell get help friend thank reading tldr check title,1 just joined up. can't sleep. mon-tue trackday at NJMP on the CBR600RR http://www.njmotorsportspark.com/tracks.html ...thunderbolt,0 fucking bored dad going take shopping stuck workplace got work seriously people that sooo bored,0 height reveal,0 narcissism thing keep alive super high eq fact know things others dont fact feel things others dont advanced knowledge sexual logistics ability think man woman many powers acquired years im normal man im gifted supernatural way,0 khqrightnow i heard them making announcement trying to find them the mother looked so worried,0 @lovemeavamp Have a good one Nighty night!,0 nothing do pretend horny jail officer check post history determine horny jail sentence,0 know make weekendeverything piling while every time looks like things getting better something falls end right back here worse watch hope get crushed never all im freshly minted grad student im well im working decent dead end job get rejection rejection jobs field husband family seem baffled seem understand im smart capable think am anyway th three day weekend think im going much time think feel like im drowning every failure ive experienced last three years love husband family want give opportunity watch fail anymore,1 boy boi one better boy boi,0 aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh saw really cute guy train im prob never gonna see ill surely never ever get talk aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa,0 wish would go away endive struggled depression years gotten much worse within last couple years feel like im burden upon family friends wake morning wondering even given another day lives taken deserve iti feel like nothing matters im aware sound like teenager going wah wah wah assure case oh add onto note im gonna soon today first day ive sat myself listened music thoughts crept back in why here would matter disappeared would take pain away feeling pain now forthmy brain wants never wake back deal life anymore,1 getting close hanging myselfim sick nothing working doubt waiting help,1 official redflag notefor legal purposes deny thoughts harm anyone else asked person deny it disclaimer asidei saw forty seven year old crush twenty two year old lap bode well thirty five year old fiance one guys age interested me know hes guy earth echos larger truth larger truth red pill right love looks beauty physical world failing organism poor treatment disrespect get whole society symptom something larger know letter might make everyone laugh honestly ive come smelly cell neck beard whos joy life arguing reddit trolls hate life hate people worst hate feeling skin hate waking every day me hate feeling inside even best technology strictest diet hardest work cant fix feeling body fail me cant fix aging male toothless balding fifty year old covered tats still get twenty year old babe lap idiot friend proves female sit around watching display feeling saggy wanting throw food miss loved cared even though real hate people theyve abused entire life thats universal truth life planet well fucking hate people lot,1 Oops just fell asleep for 4 hours. Making pasta ,0 complain instagram stealing memes stupid memes supposed spread give shit made meme also watermarks useless nobody goes back original creator page anyways memes art silly jokes stop commenting stolen rsubreddit look ridiculous,0 many thoughtsim sure completely qualify posting here seems like best place go ive many bad thoughts lately ive hard time couple years started really break somewhat recently im finishing high school hopefully going college soon im trying hardest go away college living house nightmare know me older sisters antidepressants anti anxiety medication moved out im afraid might stuck ill never able go anywhere life cant keep together mentally much longer want things get point cant fix anything really need someone talk to help would absolutely appreciated,1 @sm9 You can tell them what you like and don't like on their site so they know what to send you ,0 redflag drowninghas anyone ever tried it,1 either everything nothing all fthis going quite long im sorry know going make sense need let can ill try coherent possible apologise nothing makes sense all title suggests either feel everything nothing all know describe mean everything basically everything feels intense like experiencing every emotion once suddenly everything shifts colourful nothing feel numb everything seems static drop one pole another frustrating tiring ive always sad growing up know dad pictures passed away car accident young fault though car ill child am simply born hed still world always think never got chance tell dad loved go him everyday think life around death affected family intensely relationship mum used quite good remarried really happy going partner fact still somehow get experience like father husband really nice use treated us like own child is completely understand naturally would love child us obviously arent related him starting feel like family isnt blood unfortunately husband attention starting shift step brother dont get wrong love step brother still close right now id understand think im selfish bitch here mother forgot us treated us like servants wasnt hard brother used scream lazy selfish retard ill suffer cystic fibrosis stuff related ill given already lol literally thought going kill one point furious started hitting head wall still remember evert bit event still dreams mum coming kill me despite anger towards though shed still pay medical bills im thankful that worst brother showing serious symptoms brain tumour didnt anything about found stroke uncles place happened mums probably didnt even get chance fight turns cancer metastasised lung found out passed away eight months diagnosis really shattered died talented year old much expect future death uncle wife offered take ever since ive living them looking back time feel like coping quite well emotions boyfriend died years ago met brothers death hospital cancer really didnt want lose anyone anymore started seeing even werent hospital whenever needed him hed make sure ive taken medication always reminded eat drink know kind sounds like tfios relationship basically like film really afraid enter relationship borderline personality disorder im bipolar well imagine hard person like that didnt leave told stayed despite awful things ive said him beyond amazing although ive thoughts redflag brother passed away become intense especially boyfriend passed away tried times got really close left coma days made everything worse especially second attempt psychiatrist gives medication week aunt checks every fucking hour check havent cut im still alive everything controlled around me feel trapped mind surroundings want live dont want live want feel better thoughts comfort zone dilemmas hard weigh neither choose live die life meant shorter everyone else cant deal physical torment mental torment go everyday body never peace mind cant even get lung transplant even wanted since mental illnesses ive attempted redflag couple times part wants another chance live im reliable enough sometimes feel like mind peaceful even feel like want live another bipolar cycle become depressed hell right makes want kill myself depressed even something it really hard lately aunt makes big deal everything like staring knife dinner tons people lectured wrong commit redflag learn find worth life dont get it im running towards death everyday twenty ive lived average life expectancy cf patients everyday passes part body deteriorating someone whos capable ending life expected carry extremely suffering capacity slowing getting worse hoping life taken away live ive seen others battle cf pass away pure torture earth redflag crime modern society know long word vomit dont care one reads it thank much though did wanted write feel like someones listening,1 one minute im stable next minute im planning hanging myselfi bpd utterly exhausting fast mood shift used moods would shift course couple days bounce back forth extremes several dozen times single day yesterday morning woke extremely bad place ive displaying escalating parasuicidal behavior several weeks talking using pellet gun looks much like glock prop try get people acknowledge validate shitty horrible feel also get help dig hole ive dug myself clue climb own ive also extremely manic random mania manic urge hide emotional turmoil pain talking things like getting car driving hundred miles blowing literally savings maxing credit cards fancy hotel ridiculous dinners two weeks also cruising around car tune additional miles hell not manic energy scares me especially combined rapidly cycling moods massive impulse control issues recipe disaster spent day heart heart talks mom best friend phone spent hours talking phone total two them felt better talking them within minutes call ending started feelings despair hopelessness consume again feelings issue urges impulses feel particularly strong wave emotion hits me first thought hanging stepping front bus ive felt urges wash several times today came close giving temptation stepping front bus literally started sweating degree weather close it walked around hours afterwards dazedissociated state silently crying moved new hotel room spent least minutes examining room find best place anchor belt bathrobes belt basically anywhere post night honestly im always scanning surroundings see best path living moment case decide indulge urge like im always planning lay bed ill feel okay minutes thought triggers strong emotion run head next thing know im literally mentally picturing taking necessary steps hang myself minutes later im back calm collected minutes that another triggering thought pops head go back fantasizing ending all rapid oscillation okay one minute ready wrap belt around closet hanger bar next minute exhausting unpleasant unwanted roller coaster ride worst all kinds rapid massive emotional state changes urges increasingly common life level frankly mentally crippling dont want die feel like limited shitty options dying favorable outcome still shitty choice none options staying alive letting go past dearly miss desirable given emotional issues sucks much im beyond exhausted all want stability,1 first real break warning sucks irl friends seeing hi im ok rn dont bring plz seriously im recommending getting heart broken fun experience,0 high as hell. i haven't been like this in forever. watching mtv with cindy. ,0 is again in the math lab,0 today last dayim years old go private high school means happy thing wrong life emotionally verbally abusive father however cannot feel anything sadness pain im medically diagnosed psychopath severe depression nothing live eyes self esteem redeeming qualities nothing good cannot feel happy unless im cutting abusing drugs ive never loved never able love anyone im worthy love ill never loved isnt cry help comfort dont know im posting honest wanted like minded people know sympathize live final day earth,1 Off to GH to meet up @soodugyot Shawarma time! ,0 @onceatweeter it's called a nice trip to rehab town ,0 really know im meant type hereim sorry really know im meant say really wanted somebody talk to uh six months ago friend passed away ive trying really hard make new friends people seem like me ive always sorta depressed never bad know im meant anymore cant talk family anymore cant remember last time went whole day without little panic attack future im starting make really sick anyway thanks letting tell somebody,1 guess forgot read countrys native language yep guessed correctly kingqueen meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ,0 movie two australian girlsdebbie nell schofield sue sue knightand happens become girlfriends two surfer guysbr br i caught art cinema america technically still teenager i interested seeing australian teens acted script wise theres nothing new here shows usual teenage adventures dealing dating sex suicide etc etc always knew going happen never bored found interesting was despite accent changes clothes hair teenagers much different american teens many difficulties hangups also based book real surfer girl true life adventures i heard faithful adaptation it acting ok actors attractive wellmade pretty interesting unsung masterpiece pretty accurate portrayal like teenager trying popular kids give ,0 even know right now am someone really care blocked randomly cant calm thoughts really know do feel like absolute shit none friends awake really anyone go to,0 something look forward totruly find comfort pain gone end nothing matter simply exist dont worry others think gone wont problem anymore plus fuck anyways didnt care enough would care im gone regardless thing makes feel okay sad wont feel anything end,1 problem that kind surprised first time hearing cousins name missed dearly spent dollars plane ticket go visit think much it noticed course couple weeks constantly getting snapchats jessica reluctant open front me another thing surprised always would open things front me never problem phone open snapchat jessica kind pulled phone closer see screen noticed phone background one day saw happy birthday card picture drawn it signed jessica,0 i often hold myself back from doing the thing i want to do because i don t feel like i meet the bare minimum standard to have realistic prospect for success what should i do to overcome this for instance i would love to be able to have a job earn money and be self sufficient i lost three job over the course of three month from 0 0 and i wound up in a deep depression from which i ve been trying to crawl out of ever since i later realized that i have adhd pi which explains nearly every factor that contributed to my past underperformance i wa often late for work i called in sick when i couldn t get out of bed i wa slow at my job etc i didn t realize that the issue i had were outgrowth of executive dysfunction and once i realized i had adhd everything suddenly made sense i had always been told and in fact came to believe that i wa just lazy that my lack of success wa my attitude towards work and it wa a simple a that but no it s not actually so simple even so i feel like i need to be 00 confident that it s under control before i attempt to re enter the workforce here s why i view being hired for any job a a promise on your part when you accept a position you are implicitly agreeing that you will be consistently hard working focused and reliable by consistently i mean at least 99 of the time everyone ha the occasional bad day where they underperform but to be a good employee this need to be a rare occurrence no more than maybe once every six month or so at the absolute most you need to be on time you need to be consistently applying yourself to the extent where you re feeling exhausted by the day s end and you need to be making a sustained effort to be living up to and preferably exceeding the expectation that are set out for you by your employer in short you either make a full commitment or you don t in my opinion if you apply for a job and accept a position knowing full well that you re going to struggle with thing a basic a punctuality or worker engagement it is disingenuous for you to even send in an application in the first place another example at year old i have never gone out on a single actual date with a woman let alone anything beyond that it just feel futile for me to even ask a woman out i find it unrealistic to think that a woman would find me physically or romantically attractive i feel like in order to date someone you have to be their equal by most metric equally attractive equally successful etc at the very least you have to fulfill some basic criterion be employed full time have a driver s license own a car be adept at handling social situation take good care of your body and your appearance maintain a consistently clean and orderly living space etc similar to employment asking somebody out feel like yet another unspoken agreement in doing so you are effectively conveying that you have your life together are able to keep it together on a consistent basis for the foreseeable future and want to get to know them on an intimate level once again you either make a full commitment or you do not if you can t give it 00 on a consistent basis then don t waste their time there are other thing that hold me back from dating another factor is that i m terrified of inadvertently going about it in an inappropriate manner e g wrong place wrong time misreading signal and making her uncomfortable with my overture then there s the fact that i m asexual and probably wouldn t have a high enough libido to satisfy most woman on a frequent enough basis but the main reason is the fact that i don t think i am capable of making a full commitment in my mind it s all or nothing i guess the long and short of it is that i don t apply for work ask woman out or do much of anything with my life because i don t think i m good enough i m not worthy i doubt my capability a being on the same level a everyone else and i don t want to pretend like i am capable of maintaining the kind of commitment that most people are able to make,1 Meeting my bf tonight ,0 know tell anyone thismy heart feels cold feel lonely beautiful family many loved ones care me good job wonderful life still feel miserable want end girls wife daughter fuck hurts live thank listening really mean that thank you,1 im commit redflaghello ive never made post first last post last months truly completely lost everything life meaning february went mental break tried hook another girl relationship dumbest mistake ive ever made cant believe it nothing happened fact still counts willing cheat girlfriend girl dreams made every single day worth living made last months august person post facebook status effectively ruined life every single way shape form accused sexual assault merit police even take case community live apsolutely murdered me cant leave house without feeling scared cant eat cant sleep im upto day literally sleep ive started micronap last weeks ex partner parted ways good terms stop calling got sad every time called manipulative thats afraid me really final straw me ive never hurt anyone life crying emotional angry sad time take single call ive phone many redflag hotlines still even slightly deterring me truly believe nothing left life live now got fired every person ive cried help simply said theyll see tomorrow answered phone cant anymore life going where lost live tried fucking hard smallest bit left dont wish stronger im not,1 the only reason i can t bring myself to do it is the thought of my mom coming to wake me up and finding me dead or the rest of my family feeling burdened by it we ve already lost a cousin of mine to suicide barely two year ago i don t want to do that to them it s the only reason i haven t yet if only i could stop being so damn empathetic to my own detriment i could just stab myself and finally be free,1 maxbarners i hope it all go well,0 "Mm, that cake was yummy ",0 steve buscemi the weather in canada is freezing,0 i ve suffered with anxiety all my life been on multiple medication from a young age just to try and make my life more manageable i ve grown up because an adult yet i still spend day in bed and cry because my anxiety is just so bad i wake up with the heavy feeling of dread all the time and find even the most minor inconvenience barely managable let alone the big one which entirely crush me i have no idea how to help it anymore i drink alcohol regularly because that s the only thing that help my mind to hush and stop beating me up about everything i do wrong for just a little while any tip from anyone would be most appreciated,1 tried making post friends got harassed lot disorderit personality disorder did got called disgusting child alter told im lying making up im crying hate much ive spent life dealing diagnosed disorder got called childish disgusting random girl harassed pm others trying cure dont understand ive spent whole life feeling like freak child alter wanted honest disorder front new friends didnt think id get harassed much really hate feel like freak,1 many guys make friends girls actually want friends want fuck girl like says want friends whine moan it like guys genuinely actually want make friends women whats bad friend zone like someone enough want boyfriend enough want friend yall know tiring think making good friends person come say want fuck dissapear tell no braces incoming not guys comments people read title properly,0 better way everyonei unlovable,1 guys imagine ifi captured aliens post cry help wouldnt funny,0 tired know kill parents hidden things thag use really escape shit even know anymore,1 http://twitpic.com/6ghe9 - Enjoying my Bloody Orange granita at La Porchetta. Right after the gym too... Tsk tsk ,0 name identity memories lost girlfriend wanted disappear still traced destroyed world hardly built wants explanation get ride people made is yeah jason bourne back time s vengeancebr br ok movie elaborated script world thematics clever ask serious questions society course like every hollywoodian movie since end s the bourne suprematy superheroes story jason bourne captainamerica projectlike whos gone completely wrong first movie hero discovered abilities accepted second one fights considers like evil person close killed his girlfriend suprematy them thats part superhero story including character realistic still impressive almost invincible super powersbr br and interesting point evil fights across world theres frontiers bournes movies characters going one continent another blink eye is best seasons american enemy whos beliefs fight good country completely blinds him funny mad patriots n enemies paranoiac hollywoods storiesbr br beside interesting thematics movie flawless feminine character nickie parson completely useless direction quite unoriginal comes dialogs scenes really matter the bourne ultimatum action movie action scenes rather impressivebr br everyone talking waterloo scene tanger pursuit everyones right particularly enjoyed fight tanger reminds exaggeration craziness works tsui hark visually inventive scenes lots intelligent action parts good reflection americans contemporary thematics the bourne ultimatum definitely best movie series interesting original action flick,0 another showcase led zeppelin finest absolute rocking best every band member best jimmy page bow guitar jpj thunderous bass bozo pounding away robert singing like tomorrow say get first song gonna groove beginning something special dvd follows zeppelin year carree starting royal albert hall madison square garden followed much older mature band earls court finally different looking band last english show knebworth dvd fantastic showcase zeppelin fan n,0 everything enjoyed bores me life pretty much stopped worth pain experiencing every day pain got times worse due recent breakup losing meant losing source happiness got leftbut still cannot decide want keep living not hope left things could get better time something tells maybe hang onim relapsing self harm again least gotten drinking time being really know much able drink again replacing booze means self harm think working really well cave go bottle think expect final goodbye herei stuck weird limbo cannot decide end already maybe coward sure want live,1 friend attempted dies im sure tooi got news even hour ago dont know know one thing doesnt make alive know wont either fault,1 @Spingere I'm willing to entertain all offers! ,0 Cocktails + balcony +scorching day = heaven ,0 need love clap thicc cheeks butnever mind,0 jobs easy die inmy life horrible want live anymore however dont wanna take life im scared dont know painless method love serve people make others feel good might well die serving thinking military police firefighter else,1 dont know work regretting decisionfinished bottle zopiclone mg already feel nauseous dizzy solid minutes mg total im regretting decision much hate life hope isnt way go,1 well i wa going to rpm vespa need oil i ain t going anywhere,0 searching for a new apartment for six of us to stay...... ,0 "I turned my twitter back on. On my way to San Antonio. Riverwalk tonight, Fiesta Texas tomorrow, and competit.. http://tinyurl.com/n57944",0 much coward end itjust left home honestly im edge mother called whore shouted fucking much hates useless im next railway waiting train know im much pussy jump fuck want theres nothing make shit better know fuck fuck fuck fuck,1 : just got done spending the day wit my mom. We went out to eat & went shopping!! love you mom!!!!!,0 real socialism state mandated gf incels oppressed group world,0 "@exoticmaya Yeah, go on sexy! ",0 i am currently a senior at a prestigious college i worked really hard in high school to get there living a a lower middle class kid going to a high school that provided terrible education i never needed a pill or therapy or anything until my first breakup and my first year of college something shifted immediately suddenly i wa depressed i didn t have any plan for the future and i still don t over the year i used validation from sex with men social status and a crippling shopping addiction to deal and it ha been in and out but always there i started going on medication in college i am currently on anti depressant and vyvanse a i can no longer find any energy to do a single thing if i don t take it i hate it it make me even more miserable and my mood swing worse but hey at least i can get out of bed seeing my friend have the energy to go out on weekend them getting prestigious job being put together and looking at myself who ha no job lined up my partner is amazing but doesn t love me and i am in a shit ton of financial debt from personal debt like credit card to school loan i really lost any drive i had i ve been unhappy the whole time i ve been here for the past year it is absolutely fucking exhausting living like this my brain is always caught in negative thought loop i am so stressed that my neck and upper back are in pain i use kratom and other anxiety relief to cope my mood swing are horrible and even just fucking talking myself down every single day is so tiring i can t do this anymore i hate myself so much i hate my life i hate my diseased brain nothing help i m not even a good person a lot of the time knowing that i have to deal with this mental illness while working my entire life is too much to bear sometimes i am so angry i hit my head against the wall and hit myself with my hand i have so much anger and rage inside of me that never go away i don t even feel capable of learning anymore i am convinced my brain can no longer retain information and that i m just fucking stupid and worthless i want to die i really really can t take it much longer,1 suicidal online friend went darkabout week ago went dark one could contact tried asking closest friends one knows anything dont know,1 Getting ready to host my brother-in-law & our Swiss house guest for diner tonight ,0 "Having negative friends is linked to depression, lowered self esteem, insomnia and anxiety. Positive friends promote good overall health.",1 @ButterfIies It gets left behind in the teenage years. Replaced by intense memes about depression. Honestly not all that bad tbh,1 sorry posting topspin wii tennis ball post often reddit glitched up forced wait post tell posting repeatedly im swarmed many people like angry something understand side story know,0 long story short military amp go medical get diagnosed type mental ailment disorder ruin career say ruin would drastically change amp would ultimately change job duty station rip away foundation built here called suicide hotline twice seek guidance amp someone talk relation anyone around me database keep calls many times do so con would call people make known eventually chain command insight would greatly appreciated suicide hotline,1 my grad. party is tomorrow yay,0 "@alvinko Just got Tweetie for my iPod Touch, pretty sweet ha but have you got a chance to listen to Fleet Foxes yet? They're at Lolla ",0 one time asked gay thought would gay,0 Only 2 days of sophmore year left! thank godd <3 txt mehhh im boredd ,0 my miss doesn't read my tweets so she wouldn't know that the emo guy won #dsds ,0 friend wants kill himself stop sohe low selfesteem know wants life hes insisting theres nothing good himself redeeming qualities help,1 school starts tomorrow morning anyone wanna talk dont want summer end yet anyone wanna talk,0 watched kong vs godzilla damn godzilla moveable thats,0 lack social skills possibly unable watch one favorite youtubers due embarassed dmed youtuber bc like way edits videos hes pretty small like k subs k followers chances actually responding pretty good oh fucking god one awkward conversations ive ever and ive plenty uncomfortable convos asked wut uses edit told me made joke like my year old macbook cant handle lmao liked message respond texted friend complained lacking social skills told it showed channel asked old which fair vibe going u cant tell hes like idk ill ask ig like hour last dm good old idk sound like stalker asking old r u replied age polite everything im pretty sure thought psycho fangirl i fact dude feel rlly awkward whole thing im v sry wasting ur time u read whole thing lmao,0 told teacher use protection last accident didnt listen phone crack front back kept saying use case screen protector preferred phone unprotected look beautiful iphone pro max doesnt even single crack use protection,0 seem feminine guy necessarily way would think dont try feminine want be like dont change tone voice dont wear makeup dont wear dresses dont long hair well bit shorter version something similar jim morrisons hair ect muscles like alot masculine things dont like watching sports though like working out beer dont like beer prefer hard liquor stereotypically masculine things guess main way describe would list mainly stereotypically feminine things like live nature love animals im fascinated bugs like clouds sunsets sunrises read time love books obsessed self improvement ill buy healthiest best soaps best foods make art im photographer im emotional though still control emotions guess im type boy would take bug outside rather kill it would admire sunset pick flowers spend time reading day dreaming im going explain everything depth yeah also know many men like these common women,0 last post wanted see reaction posted random dimensions phone engineering project,0 stop giving cat milk cats lactose intolerant hurting cat enjoy drinking milk smell protein vitamins however lactose babys digest that anything kitten drink milk giving cat stomach pain probably diarrhea tell lactose someone wants,0 i wanted to share some of what i ve written because i find that writing is an outlet that help me to calm down sometimes i sit in a room full of people and stay quiet the loud chatter and the chaos of laughter will fill the room fill my head yet i keep my opinion and question to myself i keep my thought contained in my mind i watch a the girl who betrayed me smile and continues to talk i watch a my friend all happily converse with one another i watch a the boy throw their head back unable to control their laughter they ask if i am okay more quiet than usual and all i can say is that i am tired what they do not know is that i am not physically tired but mentally exhausted my mind is constantly racing overthinking every word that leaf my tongue every move i make and every awkward gesture that display itself during conversation with people i need a rest,1 yall know brentalfloss used watch brentalfloss like years ago hes making new videos im extremely pogging rn,0 @tsarnick Both got ReTweeted ,0 zero two pretty good anime character im actually sad dead tbh wish could lived longer ngl,0 feel like ive put wrong class mathematics im th set top higher ability ones arent im saying im best mathematics work easy like min time spend nothing like half year gotta prove worthy getting like tests,0 @JoLynneValerie thanks gonna try one this weekend ,0 hello i would really love some advice support from the community all day long i ve been so anxious that i absolutely ruined thing between the guy i wa interested in and myself i really liked him and i got complete tunnel vision about it i feel like we just ended up talking too much that i wa trying to get serious too soon and that i ruined it all by not being the chill cool girl how do i come back from seeming like a clingy freak is there a comeback from this,1 total disappointmenti big big big test coming working years cant fully succeed fully im sorry everyone keep done life rn working years im sorry parents point total dissapointment friends nobody willing listen me bye ,1 feel like ghosti want talk people im worried afraid approach people thinking theyll think im weird annoying stay silent hesitate say people ive got one talk real life thats want cant keep things boring dead im sure people classes would surprised waswas class,1 homie checkpoint,0 "@BananaAnna2008 @mikequad I TOTALLY AGREE WITH YOU, ANNA!! ",0 My 1st ever tweet. I want to see how far this gets I'm struggling with severe depression at the moment. To look at me you wouldn't think it. Call your friends and family as a face can hide a hidden demon inside I'm getting help but to smile hurts #depression #notsmilingoninside pic.twitter.com/2Gh0H6aViX,1 for whom with health anxiety over a diagnosed health issue ha therapy helped,1 much worsebeing pessimistic complaining help optimistic help either already planned day redflag september ,1 I don't have the job yet. But hopefully soon. Thanks! @notoriousflirt: @avengelynne Sweet! Congrats! ,0 is coldd,0 know dolife difficult always past years gone steeply hill time mother died years back getting better know much take anymore really wish end want kill seems like way cannot take anymore think gets worse cause one talk to,1 dont google scientific name pig dont google dont google ot,0 mom buying happy meal want course im getting choccy milk fries doesnt want toy mine ,0 michellepen immensely started playing with new site a i didn t want to mess up easter one paranoid moi,0 getting better tonightamy confirmed supreme court shes prolife anti lgbtq please dont argue post please dont argue jn post dont care disagree not shes many women lgbtq members rights shes might try overturn roe v wade want die dont argue fucking post im going delete unnecessary fucking comment point post improving feel like aneurysm dying leaving world,1 guys gals made sub uss southern state youll probably like it sharing southern thing do whack drive diesel tear fields dirtbike hunt enjoy country music southern rock racism allowed confederate glorification rhillbillyhangout,0 @archuphils itunes account pa ba to receive it? ,0 guys freak heck new gang new famous whatever sorry ive using reddit like idk couple days please explain im like years old old people dni,0 blocked father dead childi want abortion forced getting one day recovery calls say my job done closure end us never pregnancy said help recovery said even though access resources still need communication leasti know describe it odd hormone bond pregnant makes want fathers care hung up blocked every way possible way contact him idea hack could atleast get hold someone knows im physically unwell already post op bleeding pain mentally cant stand child father gone easiest way go without pain take bunch pills,1 jesmayhemwa still trying to sell the prelude,0 fresno important city california ok maybe rd important let explain fresno financial hub san joaquin valley productive agricultural region world think farmers getting loans yeah fresno fresno countries alone gdp billion national agriculture rd largest country thats including rest san joaquin valley welcome california raisin california wine part making live city probably financed,0 wow time flies by so fast on twitter...Good Night Everyone! ,0 "@Jon4Lakers 2 more wins!!! good night, Jon ",0 grew southern west virginia im age or maybe year older than homer hickam author the rocket boys book forming truestory basis heartwarming filmbr br and relate closely west virginia coalmining theme stunning effect sputnik time october us rocket boys went make great lives themselves went get degrees physics computer engineering sputnik woke lot young people science gap ussr us cold war daysbr br this wonderful film everyone ages grew west virginia late s itll touch core beingbr br everyone get it watch it recommend friends wholl thank many times,0 i ate so many cooky that i think i m hallucinating,0 @bigbeartaxlady thx.. ,0 want done lifei sit post lifes story wontin shorti want live anymoremy total situation insufferable saving little money towards car might take plan last week earth iti cant anymorei called redflag hotline back felt hopelessas time goes oni find less reason existima gonna get really drunk highthen end allthanx musa reference,1 parents standards weird like video games language obviously matter drugs matter violence matter single frame tit dick fucked kinda weird,0 cuddling weird lol one gets violently grossed cuddling anything romantic like idek thought bf like someone caring disgusting me need male attention affection grosses out idk rant whatever,0 advice intrusive thoughtshi m cutting it intrusive thoughts redflag days week kind creep thought process ill sitting desk work get daydreams walking door traffic example another example picturing driving sunset throwing severn bridge ill good time friends switch picture drowning cant stop it understand keeps happening someone suffered depression growing stressful disruptive childhood thats behind became fully independent moved messed childhood home trying really invest ever since socially friendships trying online dating not really gone anywhere serious economically im training low level lawyer personally taking music trying read more still struggle combat background feeling vapid apathy alive got better since becoming independent feel like im treading water mental health wise words wisdom would appreciated,1 see much suffering like do offer support,1 hotline didnt help muchits years since attempt years planning procrastinating best justify waiting another day years people telling gets better ive enough think im absolutely trapped situation completely detrimental whats left mental health im far home way get back nowhere go back to nothing cant trust anyone tried call helpline tonight amp appreciate someone talk things resources provided arent looking for job though wasnt expecting miracle dont know expecting dont know else do,1 @susysu If your are down there... this twitter hell thing can't really be that bad ,0 troubling time seeking someone talk gets worse preventative measureslong story short ass girlfriend dumped me friends really want back relationship her cant sleep dont appetite ive lost lot motivation feel like im falling apart months ago happened dating year thought one day would married children bright futures college work slipping first semester intentionally failed english advanced college rhetoric order grade replace thinking nothing it failed college algebra im dumb top a high school texas motivation work scaring me feel like ill never accomplish goals current gpa ill never get law school im losing friends dont necessarily best social skills branch meet new people drink go sleep rarely work im heavily addicted nicotine cant get juul go pod day pod pack cigs im afraid going catch hit once feel like would much happier someone talk to miss ex much want back her perfect match completely fucked everything took car payment adding stress took relationship destroyed everything mention also wrecked truck weeks ago perfect representation truck affected life complete wreck really need someone talk isnt going get tired this wont tell cut life move on need someone understands like everything fall apart know begin feeling better makes easier christian dont feel like god ever side want put end feelings evolve something worse family history clinical depression tldr life falling apart im trying feel better preventative measures reaches point return,1 im sufferingnothing helps im point take pills daily help ive tried many different medications nothing helps feel like depression wasting away brain body could many better things life reason cant truly wish never born know meant world,1 different jerry lewis film like famous films everybody knows lewis deals difficult task ww ii national socialism germany rather unconventional way even interesting important unamerican way many things world especially film industry unamerican means sophisticated subtle intelligent simply better reason film success us great success europebr br all all jerry lewis proven movie able much simple slapstick comedy,0 @Chance_second make a fan page ,0 took nholy shit tasted awful syrup barely improved anything good thing feel like puking wait idea long takes work like ask questions take eternal nap welcome plan backpedaling this yeah,1 @Stephscoo hahahahahahahah well as long as I do ,0 yup i need to start being more independent since im getting my first job and my license all before june this year so doing these small thing will only help me,1 hit mum today first time long time deserve it never ever deserved it hate way treated wish could go back fix everything destroyed people say things me provoke already feeling low causes fly handle emerge someone despise episodes often think ending life think guts to unless one day badly hurt someone anger guilt would consume me sometimes cut episodes seems fair much do mum lovely caring woman everyone life treats like shit including stuck cycle know change need help fucked life,1 tried talk people nobody cares better end nownobody loves cares depressing nobody cares im feeling want find peace,1 Enjoyed see'n everyone last night! even tho it was a really bad night financially... Cant wait to kick it again @ the drive -ins! ,0 horny af guy brown hair brown eyes football player girls wanna come sext,0 i m missing you babe but a long a your alive i m happy yawwwnn i m tired my love imma try to sleep hopefully you had a headstart,0 downvote post wanna know many downvotes get please filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 i m just tired of coming second to finding a partner and not being chosen over someone they say someone is out there for everyone but i don t think so they say don t go looking someone will come find you but i don t think so they say it will fall into your lap when you least expect it but i don t think so these situation have happened but they always fail i m just tired of not being enough,1 brokefor past years felt like completely lonely nobody else thought like liked things liked felt like everyone around people tried fit tried completely changing personality still felt lonely isolation got yesterday reached point couldnt take anymore soul poured body hard put way im feeling words felt hopeless felt like voice head wanted live completely gone,1 @Battleborne I'll email you the recipe You can do it!,0 works youim interested guys ever medication really worked period time it im currently prozac lexapro,1 i m currently an art student at university and i m trying to pas the year but my anxiety coupled with my low self worth ha made it dangerously difficult to complete any kind of task or face up to any kind of challenge it s already taking what i have to take care of myself everyday and to give myself break whenever thing get tough but my work demand a lot and i want to get through it but whenever i look at what i have to do the thing i need to do i shut down i can t imagine myself ever completing these task or accomplishing thing and this is my last chance at university or i have to drop out i don t think i could take that kind of failure i want to be able to sit down and work hard face the challenge and either fail and try again or triumph and move onto the next so much of me is tied to the confidence i have in a task on a good day i ll create something i never thought i d do on my own but those day are rare i ve tried therapy but i can t afford it anymore and free healthcare here mean waiting month for a chance at a session ha anyone felt something similar to this or know what could help so far just typing this out ha helped a bit,1 lmaooooo letsgoooooo im science class rn teacher didnt arrive contemplating leaving deputy head something like vice principal americans arrived letting us revise test hes letting us use phones revision help im tying clue lmao,0 types people subreddit people worship amp people consider bane existence ur third type person majority never seen u dont care dont tell im havin moment,0 i started seroquel week ago and i don t feel like myself all i want to do is sleep i work hour shift a week and it s all i can do to get through them i keep reminding myself i can t quit because i need my health insurance so i can get my antidepressant i m so tired my parent deserve a better daughter my friend deserve a better friend my boyfriend deserves a better girlfriend,1 want get dotz dotz time say trump shit trump right people see get dotz wrong people see get dotz,0 judgemental friendsi met tom high school part good friend group partied lot senior year graduated moved across country school went military six years senior year finally decided go home tom home summer serving five years military discharged along girlfriend moved together go college summer taking working staying toms parents rentfree usually go drinking couple nights week always like get blackout drunk loud toms girlfriend usually puts glasses bar thinks cool purse tom thinks funny encourages say bars get glasses free matter were liberal state im lgbt girlfriend pride month tweeted care youre gay straight plenty friends both pls stop forcing us wanna left it find hurtful tweet stuff girlfriend also tweet slutshaming things like women theyve slept everyone still find love post men aint shit think funny like stuff tom single hell sleep anything walks hes known dog past hes talked hed slept lot women shout women selfrespect hes also caught sexting girls hes relationship understand puts promiscuous woman post social media always trying look like perfect couple want distance him tom longtime friend feel like asshole judging much asshole wanting ghost people feel emotionally drained stop friendship would make asshole,1 someone help courage kill myselfi feel trapped want hurt family friends girlfriend cant shit anymore im tired pain ive got pills alcohol someone please tell okay want die want suffer anymore tell okay see future myself,1 "@TheDudeDean hmm, could be a gift card or a nice card I have not thought it through.",0 yesterday mom met friends told story like five something said something used say gay girls luckiest get kiss girls and girls closeted transbian ass sitting phone internally screaming fuck think cishet long did,0 need helpi while came ask advices friend bad state mind right worried her friends long time went lot always helping depressed suicidal meant still means lot got better last months really want die looking forward whats next happen life problem still make suicidal jokes depression statements funny even sick try help someone often joke start following jokes get scared dont know stop one started it like friend talking depressed state understand know help even ive went situation sometimes try start conversation bad joke mine trash meme dies fast seems want talk understand that ive experienced still want help know how u advices please type everything appreciated,1 hey hey youre swagger dagger ,0 events wait forspent birthday weekend alone overwhelmed im heartbroken it work dehumanizing covid demoralizing instead ending life things happen future wait instead,1 @IsaChandra your spinach chickpea curry has been a dinner staple at my house since I bought Vegan with a Vengeance- my fav cookbook ,0 anyone else focus best boring cooking video playing easy focus whats entertaining,0 wish friends would hug im female almost friends male maybe something it im sometimes scared people leave me last friendgroup did weird really want friends hug me think would feel less insecure probably think weird awkward thank reading did,0 It's all gray & thundery outside... i think we'll wait for walk 2. Recommend a good "inspirational" podcast someone pretty please ,0 five days ago decided going today planned wrote note alli promised best friend go roadtrip him wanted time cuddle girlfriend go work it work night receptionist thought would give enough time space clear mind get itand keep climbing roof cannot it keep trying saying going back reception order cry uncontrollably mins continue working another found new meaning life would happy everything seems fucking desperate was feel like better was deserve want days ago planned outso point venting know happening want jump cannot make it feel stuck limbo whatever is thought going today,1 advice dogs dogs good mistreat,0 advent imdb overlooked movie find interested audience why users search twotime academy award winner glenda jackson find the return soldier among credits checking oscar winner julie christie fans annmargret give title click looking career great alan bates mention added bonus movie supporting heavyweights ian holm frank finlay movie many notables rewarded imdb given crossreferencing goes here so movie dvd producers realize internet movie database marketing gift film the return soldier definitely gem waiting discovered get it people,0 im feeling stuck confused scared lonely dont know do keep thinking girl stopped dating months ago lot things mind im getting lot mixed emotions im worried father feels do cant go much getting cold dark curl think girl dont know do,0 i want to have a guitar like taylor swift's ,0 understand whyall ive ever wanted loved thought awhile marriage two beautiful children would again years could longer pretend everything jolly husband worked away home lot used time act still single kids inconvenience anything relationship year thought ready another lonely doubts anyone would want change that man came along online told everything wanted hung fear may never find anyone else want me short lived relationship long enough drive wedge children myself never forgive that since realised quite capable need man order survive children come back cant help thinking scar never heal us interaction far relationships go however never lasted one fellow visiting monthsyear told amazing beautiful woman wished hed met twenty years earlier faded away thats seem do fade away never seen again demanding woman im easy going like argue strong beliefs opinions defend expect man think everything attracting wrong type change right never pretended someone im hold attention me honest good communicator sense humour see positive things people yet sit alone tell wonderful person like first others also happen right feel like im old overweight ugly wanted anyone thats damn lonely place live ive suffered depression many years getting help that able keep smoother path occasional pothole turn bottomless pit anymore never seem able climb see horizon either tend self sabotage go doctor never wanted one complain give poor vibe play feel time hope getting rut tell crisis thing better always another crisis struggle get bed days cant see things getting better even bother whats point kids could fine without me fact take care way around makes feel like burden no felt suicidal many years understand everything take much effort fight everything nothing ever comes easy simple why me,1 actually ur bored tell cos im bored time,0 passed drivers license test today thats all nice day everybody lt,0 Yay!!! DC on a roll ,0 maybe sociopath wrong me grandmother died everyone seemed shocked funer simply standing dead inside always know maybe capable guilt everyone crying except me monster,1 i just took the pill i don t know how many it ll take but i m just going to keep eating them one by one until they re all gone i feel so bad for everyone i hope i really don t fuck up anybody s life by ending mine,1 for some reason i can t explain i know st peter won t call my name,0 everyone moved on became a better person happier get a career and a life meanwhile i m still the same stuck in the beginning,1 DEPRESSION SUCKS.,1 im gonna fail probably kill myselfyeah know posted last night im back im probably looking attention tried hard last night stayed late looking notes it even focus second math midterm one hour know im gonna fail know im gonna run home know im gonna fucking cry like loser cause loser im stupid pathetic loser say im gonna kill know probably wont never do closest ive ever gotten almost dropping toaster tub god wish badly close im sure today im gonna fucking set im gonna cry ill feel really guilty friend feeling bad ill pussy cause im pussy im gonna sleep wake up fail another midterm repeat im gonna fucking think christmas break hurts god damn much alive energy keep going ill lifeless corpse kind coasting life dont know even bother posting here im gonna end know it im failure every way wish would stop im failure school im disgusting hurts waste time waste flesh im sorry wasting anybodys time shit,1 tell post go back reddit idiot thanks guys love you,0 honestly feel like good idea thing starting discord teenage dating must submit pictures first verify theyre teenagers feel like could enforce being teenager thing would success,0 guys sitting weird position feet look scarily purple dead looking uhhhhhhhhhhh,0 boyfriend requirements male optional strongly recommended alien required,0 need normalize male hugging thing ache emotionally need support us males cant hug friends without labled gay inappropriate yet whenever girls situation hug regarded normal fine fell jealous fuck cant males that thank coming ted talk,0 soonive lost hopes ive reason keep fighting mental illness let consume me let pain engulf option end it never get better ive waited years years full hope shot happiness like everyone else around me making things worse illness perfect punishment someone ungrateful me either die live failure life,1 suck life suck dyingits frustrating dont want alive everything difficult dont find happiness life medication doesnt work nothing works im bad killing shitty im still here like world establishing im bad everything cant even let one thing want right ah fuck,1 also never relationshiplike me feel awkward people talk relationships constantly dont know feel around people keep talking past relationships makes feel like alien,0 "So u spend ur whole life thinking & dealing with things the way u deem right then at 33 realise no,that's not how things r done.That's not how you should be living your life. t's so hard to try and snap out of that mindframe. #depression #anxiety #coping #mentalhealthmatters",1 "@LeNuage it's nice to meet u, i'm from to Chile wait ur answer",0 this isn t getting better and i don t want to be here anymore,1 "@JagexJD I'd like to say beating people up but that is frowned upon.I exercise to keep depression at bay so I guess that helps with stress too, definatly relaxing.Hot bubble baths, a good book, loud music and driving with the windows down.",1 "Missin a certain person,mmh.... memories,thos were da days. I miss em day. Oh wells,luv u guys ",0 guy skirt every single post right like damn,0 i need to post a video but i m stuck,0 gonna lie uslendertrap epic,0 please please helpsomeone username uwhyamistillhere posted scary shit radvice dont know do please help,1 anyone else get annoyed teachers expect act like adult treat like little kid like make mind child adult dont assign word research essay get mad go bathroom without telling first,0 bit bit im subconsciously distancing people care mei brothers step dad dad mom sister year old grandma like people world care existence ive getting heated parents month ago stopped talking mom month fight today argument dad manifestation dont want happen abandoned everyone becoming reality since ive talking redflag im open family either stopped caring dont entertain anymore probably dont know tried failed like rest shit life im thinking part wants die responsible conspiracy theories family hating leads deep thoughts ill end it ive thought hard like cutting thats ill end it friends family knows im piece shit dont know anything normal everything feels controlled like im robot given commands dont end like me really care people give shit youre alive dont take granted learn say whats mind hurt others control anger seek professional help instead getting strangers internet say care dont im june th sometime around years life die redflag part eagerly awaits whats beyond life another part scared im done though really,1 my life is meaningless im a junior in high school don t know what i wan na do when i grow up my whole friend group is senior who all are leaving me and moving away to knew college they don t know this but their quite literally the only reason im even alive right now they give me motivation to wake up in the morning the day im alone and don t see them im always just depressed it s almost like their my medicine i just know once i finally move away to be on my own im going to end my life so i just would rather not delay the inevitable i don t even think my friend would care that much they ve already told me thing about killing my self a a joke not knowing the state im in and it s really not their fault i know their just joking and that they mean no harm by it it s just that im obviously fucked up in the head i sometimes would just rather wish that i d get into a almost deadly car accident that wasn t my fault just so i can maybe appreciate life more id also like to know how my friend and love one would react to see if they d actually care i think about this a lot when im driving and it tends to make me speed and drive recklessly i just want a reason to live honestly,1 cyberpunk devs receive death threats delaying game game fucking massive doubt found tons bugs fix people shit deserve respect fucking horrendous,0 insomnia lack appetitei posted wife left took newborn earlier week affecting lot keep pretending im okay everyone know person cant sleep cant eat,1 "I would like to see a #dystopian #YA novel in which a technologically privileged society makes personal autonomy the highest value, leading to cultural polarization, the fragmentation of communities, and a huge rise in depression and economic inequality. Oh, wait...",1 survival instincthow get rid least minimaze it,1 eighth thus secondtolast short animatrix ones one quite like this takes two main types filmed entertainment inspirations matrix combines unbelievably well immensely faithful trilogy aspect tone animation gorgeous breathtaking anim style omnipresent this noir plot fitting storytelling well music spoton sound general fantastic really helps solidify mood atmosphere along drawings designs voice acting impeccable one two people also movies reprise roles annemoss appearing this one best nine also one personal favorites ten minutes long pacing perfect never slows terribly much overwhelming either ending could appropriate this shares nine halfminutes long making kids story welldone informative recommend warmly fan universe two genres made of ,0 Tired today - drunk husband to be rolled in at 1am with bunch friends for another drink! Noisy lot ,0 it never get easier no matter how many year i wait it s not getting better i never learn to cope properly i don t even feel the slightest bit more okay or hopeful even after three year of therapy i am so fucking miserable every single day everything is so exhausting and i dread the fact that i have to wake up tomorrow and do something i just want to be left alone i can t deal with all of this i already shut down because of the smallest thing i have depressive episode every single day after work i don t want to live a a human being i hate this stupid world and everything in it i don t want it i never wanted to live in the first place i m so angry that i am forced to just exist because otherwise i d make people feel sad the joy i might feel for a few second once in a while doesn t make up for how much pain i go through daily none of this is fucking worth it and everyone who say it is is either lying to themselves or incredibly stupid,1 sit face suffocate pleas thank,0 worked hard title cant sleep lonely anyone wanna talk nothing everything,0 @pubby going to see Bill Bailey In August ,0 @JimCarrey We self-medicate to avoid it—Physicians label it as depression/ anxiety/bi-polar disorder/personality disorders—prescribing pharmaceuticals to numb its effects & distance us from who we are meant to be at our core—Yet it is our rite of passage/ journey/destiny. #awaken pic.twitter.com/1MsvHK5anU,1 ive lost mind soon lose life readim basic summary health anxiety since child became prominent severe everything feels real may aswell actually something wrong me cant get fact silent sinus syndrome rare condition causes eyeball sink skull due orbital bones breaking down theres painful symptoms hence silent rare cant find information commonyearly cases occur treatment redflag mean surgery add prosthesis fix appearance month eyelids changed creases instead nobody family said anything looks off ive symmetry tests take picture eyes draw lines connecting top eyelash bottom eyelash etc week ago seemed fine anxiety actually kinda went away tonight anxiety came get me ive taken sone picture tests seem okay seem asymmetrical bottom eyelash sign according google refuse think camera angle indeed asymmetrical results get indeed eyeball sinking skull promoting terrifying possibly disabling disfiguring eye surgery already suffered self image issues overweight ugly general one put casket cant get of imagine going school classmates hearing eyepatch getting rare condition required eye surgery life ruined absolutely chance life anymore,1 introvert person suffering depression really thought whole pandemic help rest better mental health since decided go home province really expecting good environment finally rest busy noisy city life wrong first months great fine gets longer starting get bad feelings again actually starting panic attacks childhood trauma like reopened i know better term like flashback bad things happened childand feel pressured job since resigned went back home though started small business seem work out parents starting complain bills really really wanted help financially cannot cannot even find part time job online pandemic friend suggests apply work abroad said might hired pandemic ends going happen oh remembered cannot job abroad illness weak lungs wants hire person weak lungs sucks right supposed doi cannot even bother family telling this really feel want worry me used telling anything anyways dismiss feel anyway yea chose share here appbut know what really tired asked born like this want this signed this tired tired tired weak tired depressed tired crying every night tired me know anymore,1 trouble disturbing thoughts redflagnot alarm anyone impulsive thing emotional least moment thinking greatly time suffering world hardship takes survive let alone nice life everything destructive manipulative nature everything wants eat physically metaphorically feels though universe almost evil way thought universe planet hell best thing go elsewhere place less suffering redflag know good people yes really good good gives good feelings gaining dopamine brain speaking simply nonpeople evil things like animals virus bacteria disease like cancer much pain suffering organisms want impulsively eat collect resources propagate suffering simply corrupt way die come back reincarnate if thats happens least soul if exists tricked something coming suffering prison soggy meaty human body,1 examz coming really feeling helplessssss,0 sometimes youtube ha no sound on ubuntu,0 dyinghow kill without hurting anyone especially boyfriend,1 first unc dominated second the hill is back hallelujah third econ paper gaussian copula is def not that deal,0 i had hour of sleep and now i cant go back to sleeping im thirsty,0 unspoken truth basically know mobile game shitty bad photo original console game icon,0 sometimes look couples shows think aw want seems special,0 "@EllieVonTainted just moved back into her old house. being here makes me feel like i'm 16 again, haha it's odd. but i love it ",0 randomlynat jeez i wa just trying to help haha,0 Corona on my desk.. sun shining.. TGI FRIDAY! ,0 feel almost every week need someone talk toplease pm me edit am went sleep back now thank sw pms love guys,1 subreddit disappointmentredflag watch like watch redflag page disappointment,1 apologies advance post long ill try detail words canquick background junior college good home life lot friends intelligent struggles redflag never anything extremein september suffered head injury playing pickup football friends feel serious back game minutes later like nothing happened symptoms kick daysin hindsight probably mild concussion nothing major however idea dealing with treated probably exactly treat it worried constantly pushed school partying etc lot wiggle room comes slowing college life continued try push on ended bad idea symptoms weeks timein late november suddenly crashed everything went shit again sudden course day became totally dissociated brain fog increased tremendously thought nothing symptom flair first eight months later still deal symptoms destroyed lifei done everything seen doctors thought would help nothing given relief constantly dissociated since time brain functions fraction capacity used to makes life fucking terrible live still try things before never enjoy anything due way constantly feel motivation pretty much gone driving feels like life risking activity every time it school next impossible last semester better one coming upthe silver lining think problem worry redflag trapped brain trauma surrounding worrying issue rather injury itself officially diagnosed depression one doctor thought could prolonging issues even knowledge cannot find relief whatsoever struggle tell people first personal second struggle share feelings third always guy light room act want bring peoples moods around me people life know suffering nobody knows suffering deal mentally daily basis hopeless right now wanted get chest anonymously,1 old oldf im slowly losing way im sure live narcissists friends never let express myself could mental breakdown one life seems care try explain theres something wrong im angry reason built rage dont know why explaining im either belittled ignored bullied told need kick ass one really treats care compassion yet everyday every time tell friends whats going vent im snapped told move house want financially cant ive homeless crashed couches fun im trying go back path alcohol substance abuse day day gets difficult family friends talk im really thinking giving up,1 talking people ive finally started think im attractive life ive shitted told wasnt good enough rejected responses like ew gross eat shit classic fuck off didnt think would ever found good looking ever good friends sub ive finally turned around led finally seeing worth helped me know are also struggle andor struggling like me afraid talking people due fear shit again know this worth find it like you might find tomorrow week find it please keep heads held high kings queens rule kingdoms throughout turmoil ,0 hate people dad currently hospital corona looking good know people audacity say virus isint real masks dont work way people horrible cant deal anymore millions people going shit people going keep going inconsiderate assholes,0 gifted redditgifts asap im sure tomorrow comeits bad time know else put it ive tried ask help feel like im alone im strong appointment shrink today ill beg sort med change know meds therapy wednesday make final decision ive already started say goodbye,1 still need to find out the code to get into the outdoor pool which is finally done! heading to the store to get sandwich stuff 4 lunch ,0 gaspitsnicole sigh me too mostly i midd hsnging out with my friend damn growing up p,0 go hell im gonna kill ronald reagan second time,0 banned point ive banned strong suspicion people banned least,0 yay it s time to fuck depressed depressed adjective low in spirit sad especially affected by psychological depression vertically flattened having the central part lower than the margin http t co pldmsm zxz,1 happy hardcore healed my depression,1 think keep upa days ago made post sw wife left took kids said things needs work need friends treating like shit cant anymore sat house almost days alone anniversary coming cant function want kids back bad havnt eaten seems like days want end,1 sitting park wondering frisbees get bigger get closer hit me,0 feel like im attention seekingi hate living dont even know im alive cant answer that damn want die maybe cutting wrist answer people telling im attention dont want attention ill happily speak talk anyone sit bridge hours ill still attention seeking damn urghhh need die,1 im bored someone pm like weed gaming music filler filler filler filler filler,0 cute girl litteraly bedroom way looks swear im going die knife bit annoying though,0 ende endeim writing ahead time incase fail grade friends know recover fail im cornered isolated hopeless meds helping make tired lightheaded sorry more ende ende,1 lot year olds wouldve intimidated age honestly guys still kinda even years old cause pretty damn cool typing like damn moron thought quirky random funniest shit ever props,0 "@kkozmic NH is a terrible solution for the reporting side of CQS DAAB was better at v2 than it is now, but we will write it anyway",0 im fed brain help getting medsto preface first reddit post idea im doing anyway going give away much info im live uk college probably years depressed since start high school finally got courage go doctors told situation miserable enjoying anything history self harm shitty family life gave form fill send away counselling come back couple weeks later see another doctor since first one got transferred basically tells im introverted get exercise ill fine even though tell ive tried exercising regularly made difference really listen tells could give antidepressants send on way good would need counselling though id already sent away application nothing that finally start counselling two month wait guy nice enough makes feel uncomfortable tell situation agrees yes fact need counselling aspergers even though told frustrating and one honest me much help im really wits end enjoy nothing college waste time cant deal constant headaches lack motivation anything anymore im deteriorating like normally multiple times year one taking seriously im done going cycle time nothing pull it know need medication one listens im terrible explaining people im tired fighting getting nowhere let anger there anyway im thinking something weekend sure whether going full attempt half assed one getting blackout drunk enough someone take seriously im fed up years ive thinking attempting waiting things either get better get better neither happened honestly whats loose point ive bought shit ton envelopes im going start writing letters loved ones today try power weekend loss could write lot would waste time guess do sorry messy post just fuck know anyone knows theres way taken seriously get medication id appreciate let know otherwise fuck cant deal awake anymore,1 line texts crush sent other blocked number this im done trying date people context texted morning weve best friends year half now rumors started friend group said liked me happened her name like you me like too her ew would say that her sorry youre type really dont like you proceeds delete first text proceeds text gc picture text well prior one her gc name send text guys asked hang today think might rape me gc proceeds kick out minutes later figured lying simply said too texting someone gc privately whole time fucking god third time ive tried date someone first one using bait someone else second one moved montreal without telling anyone one day hate,0 playing much games summer quarantine realised cop ambulance vehicles minutes hearing sirens front building,0 totally alone completely contenttheres one cares im not friends talk one im glad cant stand anyone im gone itll anyone knows looked help different professionals give less hope cant say try,1 I'm enjoying collecting all these demo versions of the songs from Brandy's album. ,0 pillsive counted pills grams fluoxetine grams topimirate plus small smattering paracetamol diazepam cant afford rent bills im self employed work coming in im fucking failure really would much easier dead idea would achieve that cause pain hassle even know want die im half absolutely desperate exist anymore im half scared knowing whats side etc know myself,1 I swear I want one of those LIFE'S GOOD braclets!! ♥,0 someone else it want die also want livelike would het killed would fine it would care get killed would mind eighter selfharm without real reason where cut yourself feel like sad sad also happy wanting die also wanting live,1 @MGiraudOfficial awwwww that's the cutest thing i've heard all day. I wanna see it too.,0 mandayyy,0 fuck thought putting alphabet math good idea seriously math problems like little timmy x dollars many bananas buy make train arrive bouncy ball land one second,0 year olds last wordsim done im done fuck this fuck life want over want someone need something need something go on yet im here cant wait tomorrow morning nice little accident highway cant wait seriously though u know me find im sorry cant go on cant live like this im sorry isnt fault may continue ever could love jacob,1 guys guys guys lets go yall crazy it ,0 i can t do this anymore the secret the fear that oh no i say something wrong and boom my friend all hate my as i m worried anything i say will tip one of my friend off the edge and she ll do it idk what to do anymore i have a plan but also i m terrified of death,1 bad parents inability decide overall badi committed college beginning may get wrong great school clue im life think logical make around every semester fulltime college student apparently do great city want able enjoy it that plus leaving home gives extreme anxiety work college would ultimately make im able make matters worse im still hung end basically twoyear relationship five months ago keep thinking things could done differently could better caused lot stress school since blamed entire thing want apologize point late plus would make look like fool even would put ease would make poeple dislike id admitting wrong thatd cause whole lot more hate seeing ex successful going one best schools state feel like im competition her go local community college ill consider failure even better decision myself hate living home parents supportive all keep saying got whole college mess want go chosen community college begin with change mind every second im scared leave one second cant wait meet roommate go college life next love job love people they truly make feel like matter super easy im good it issue deadend job id keep went community college near me but work out would then im also totally love coworker might affecting opinion think also think really cool friend im bad determining platonic romantic feelings either cool though yikes know situation kind unrealistic ill drop haha so go college not know decision make myself cant hence contemplation redflag lot im quite bad dealing unfortunately pause button life even know want die think feel important anyone life im unsure life course thats typical guess im conflicted really want anymore guess sad ive written redflag letter almost every month year months write little one feel like cold say goodbye many people care even really seem care anymore felt sad while want know do want know someone cares wants succeed kind feels like nobody does feels like nobody believes me im terrified failure even want try graduate eighteenth birthday never saw living past age seventeen im here hell doing clue im scared anything absolutely hate college could absolutely hate come back wasted first semester oh well im broke cant afford that cant certain ill actually end going anywhere life unless go school god know mind filled idea death want know people know ive lately want know care not im tired assuming do feel like let people know matter way much really seem care all like theyre affectionatecaring people probably me know really know looking posting this well maybe stemmed whole i seek validation romantic partners thing quite well college came again love would kind nice guess one funny thing happened though kind brightened day little last night trying make asmr video friend joke make laugh one soap cutting videos accidentally stabbed hand know sounds terrible kind funny fact lol,1 @Built4dTough ,0 Tyler said "diaper" today while pointing to the diaper box! Too cute ,0 read old redflag note tonightread old redflag note tonight back couple months ago long ago mental state particularly bad wrote redflag note didnt anything say parents friends except one dont feel like need give explanation id rather issues die rather existing peoples heads wrote letter friend ive fully opened to prepared it instead went sleep ive struggling lately went back read note got strange sense comfort made feel relaxed maybe idea id gotten close killing hadnt could again,1 reason get besides going workive struggling depression since fall last year awhile ok felt like going get go back happy care free self sometime early june contracted herpes genital oral gave overwhelming sense hopelessness along feel need try romantic relationships anymore want tell anyone herpes slept hours today reason wake up everyday work thing keeps killing badly think would affect mom sister words encouragement would much appreciated,1 @xDirtyBurdx thats good i reli loved that last pic it mae me feel special <3 ,0 life fucks everyone over whats pointim worthless meaningless absolutely impact world never will want get admitted mental hospital runaway kill self need break need somewhere anywhere isnt here but dont car cant drive hospital redflag hotline track calls jfc im done wanting kill self damn time,1 @ksymmonds @SarahSymmonds My pleasure - great site - use it a lot for me iPhone ringtones ,0 pseudocontent existencethe thought always lingered ive never really acted thoughts without thinking over ive never given redflag consideration deserved understand call post sort superficial statement one radical thought id received however thought ive paid attention to ive always considered well off fed clothed sheltered however theres always feeling innate loneliness ive felt life people ask full life encompasses honestly know say people assume wealth humanistic approach life makes one happy watched father leave due lust starting around years old would see around year even world started fall around would outlet anger mother relatively absent life spends time others family believes potential exceed life ever had terms school results slowly decayed think result gain sort attention pathetic right merely exist im wits end honestly wish life away,1 @bowwow614 i can help you stop cursin! lol. && I'll see u at Summerfest on the 13th ,0 record talking wanna make youtube video record feel really awkward talking fuckin weird clue get this,0 see point living plan dosent work out plan part time job along investing bunch stuff first year live like college student without partying cause like partys im basically saying spending money essentials get lot money that use money help create separate side hustles like youtube twitch example really want work job whole life im lazy really see point spending life working im enjoying myself see future field im interested ron stuff interested enough make living one them also getting university college diploma lot cases not all receipt couple years wasted time rant thats it,0 Having a beer & corn dog (I know weird combo) @ the Santa Monica Pier. ,0 feeling completely overwhelmed im starting get another panic attack third time month ive though redflag feel completely unappreciated andi even cry anymore volunteered plan nice party mother one sister gotten thank either them feel like theres freaking point anything anymore top dollars bank account feel like life complete mess thought redflag years thought getting better im not need someone talk to know im far worst im sorry that,1 dont blame anyone miserable life parentsdoesnt matter someone bullied me teacher making making stupid jokes unsuccessful become girlfriend cheats asshole boss like doesnt care well thinks profit could prevented parents didnt gave birth hate till die unless wont even take care graveyards hope die pneumonia something else,1 talk anything stupidfeeling little crazy wife said filing papers tiday im bad thoughts hurting people myself wish could fall back asleep think need stay put hurt anyone,1 new friends advice is anyone else depression anxiety overcame message here,1 heart races hands start sweat immediately feel need pee worry theres bathroom on train least unknown problem long trapped know stupid know fine know likelihood moving shortly constant ifs set off look around everyone else looks perfectly calm perhaps mumbling inconvenience gripped fear hate it,1 im waiting one decently sized reason it beat mentality wontmy life consists staring facebook raging videogames smoking weed take mind everything every aspect life use reasoning die school job motivation get job death simple flawless solution first place easy way out family miss course friends would shocked fact time feel happy even though appear happy there personal almost never why firstly explain question one must understand idea way must understand idea watch understand movie inception seed unbeatable logic seed logic cause flaw thinking fact family members love family choice back up different sperm reach egg sperm obviously family would love whoever person would end being point is purpose granted person personal makes difference me personal would love choice therefore would given purpose another person and technically anyone could say dont kill yourself reason reason reasoning like that almost matter from irrelevant fact die person previously tried persuade would affected person friend would affected emotionally small amount time move life effects moderately affecting yearning kill myself hate way look hate personality hate way respond human interaction hate person altogether soon high school ended last june friends either stopped talking me began act like asshole directly indirectly me serotonin imbalance feel happy feel happy feel hungry empty feeling similar person feels need something necessary life like water social interaction feel sad feel sad mean deeply distraught person could ever feel could leave extremely impactful messages world people interact with people know me due existence burden always possible way hell permanent god smart enough create existence if god exists fucking stupid enough punish lifeform limited intellect a human eternity wanted live able lead christian life first place thinking spirituality necessary contemplating redflag previously described thinking highschool something must know see this first girlfriend month two ago lost virginity her became incredibly attached dumped fear commiting personal emotionally let experience feeling anticipation something never experienced life broke lost purely blissful feeling anticipation life literally unable eat week body want live without anticipation live sense purpose almost vomited every attempt gave eating bites meal appetite improved agreed would continue talking even though broken up that stopped talking almost entirely appetite decaying month almost bad eating last month nineteen year old male weigh pounds girls emotional problems came two different boyfriends past first emotionally abusive raped her found out caused develop extreme complex cope boys sex with like me second emotionally abusive refuses emotionally commit another man something give time happened ago add this family fucked possible incredible incomprehensible stress sum up happy together also frustrates allow us happen would solution us people scarred girl undeserving life fucking terrible makes realize basis negative thinking ever depressed life human nature cause every bad action life obviously thinking extreme get makes want kill fucking badly one tries overcome it fucking disgusting cause every problem earth one realizes that do one made effort conquer human nature conquering every petty matter petty earth want human it abomination existence yeah ill come back tomorrow hopes finding comments cliche stupid meaningless good luck helping one,1 friends person while know real name age country live in always saw online am their time zone morning always asked could sleep told thinking much again always talked till went sleep days ago conversation told going away long time asked said it happens heard since four days passed do online friend feeling suicidal massaged days,1 "its amazing how depression can take any rare fleeting positive moment and make it feel fraudulent. you are not a fraud, your depression is not fake, if you come across happiness once in a while. you are allowed to feel happiness. you can let yourself feel jik",1 friend born january tomorrow makes scared fuck born early scares friends legal adults soon even scary im around age legal adults always saw way older tbh soon friends adults too,0 dog killed last night almost entire decade trying parents finally let us keep puppy got birthday gift last month neighbours decided keep him english cocker spaniel small sweet first day wouldnt eat couldnt walk thought parvovirus would die luckily separation anxiety course weeks him went silent teeny puppy lil doggo twice size would eat well run around lot generally sweet friendly last night brother took pee like always kglb german shepard must mistook rabbit brother tried run scoop puppy dog got first brother managed wrestle dog late shocking tragic dont know cry never thought would bury puppy constantly pissed floor yesterday brother brave even hesitating take massive dog dont know hurts much cant stop crying want talk someone,0 doe anyone else on this subreddit have a sense of karma that let them make decision but the opposite way round the only way to explain it is for example the opportunity arises to do something fun or something i ll enjoy i don t want to do it because i feel that i will be due a similar if not higher amount of bad karma back in return a i shouldn t be allowed to enjoy myself is this something others experience or am i alone in this,1 want boyfriend looks like would walk forest wearing leaf crown surrounded woodland animals asking answer riddles three really much ask,0 "just added heaps of new celebs. lana, i think we're the only true twitterers ILY all",0 abusive relationship destroyed everythingmy boyfriend six months told needed choose family knew insane thing ask walked door days ago nc since im realizing relationship destroyed much id realized small culture small community culture region everybody knows him telling people crazy family blame leaving me incidentally family might seemed crazy openly consistently rude them ties community stronger authoritative mine longer show face around community house worship or ones affiliated region connected them addition career tightly linked community dependent good relations many communitys institutions destroyed me even going far estrange important professional contacts happens close to making lies me contacts really instrumental helping build career met him developing good relationships people felt happy getting opportunity earn respect him top that pressure man put family caused pull away me say done me become different person even though longer him changed me say want part new person become six months trying separate family i stupidly thought could get point would ok them snapping me saying mean things guise caring me screaming randomly reason finally bad relationship everything life shattered it bright future used be destroyed relationship family career standing community nothing ever good again never thought redflag before cannot stop thinking swallowing bottle tylenol pm bottle vodka ending it last night even took first baby step practicing ive taken unisom help sleep even though know sometimes makes heart feel funny stop breathing night normally ill take mg last night took knew nearly enough kill me wanted see would happen know sounds sick hour went jump bed vomited not purpose unpleasant thing really stopping trying thought might actually survive fucked life work field even little bit brain damage would end career cant afford fail sometimes think what life gets better see could possibly get better relationshipwith man really thought onehas failed also left life shambles thanks reading,1 know one cares want become next rick roll probably wont wanna help heres link need spread httpsyoutubettfzzqthqk,0 amiriissaa brytonzablon mchelsea hawajui kuna vitu kama depression,1 anyone else going invest amc ive thinking wanted know wether,0 content content ive reloaded times past seconds k teens online rteenagers better step game else entertained anymore,0 got lead know feel week ago started talking old friend invited friends discord server started talking bit developed crush one night decide ask wanted go out surprise says yes decide start dating going meet couple days first date but two days date get text saying ready relationship go back friends im really sure feel right really know happened fuck up fuck up get unlucky know im experienced dating seems odd im really upset turned vent issues attempt understand,0 im tiredfor last weeks ive tired like walking miles miles miles barely keep eyes open matter much sleep im still exhausted life bad friends wonderful family shit theyre problem want keep going im tired feeling second best im tired exhausted numb im tired,1 greta garbos american film debut analogy lives swept course fate actions torrent causing us lose part along waybr br greta plays leonora poor peasant girl love ricardo cortezs character rafael landowner ricardo love too easily influenced domineering mother leonora ends homeless travels paris becomes famous opera singer develops reputation loose woman reality part attitude bitterness rafaels abandonmentbr br she returns home visit family eventually confronts rafael surprisingly one knows famous la brunna garbo acts role diva truly prised cool haughtiness later portrayalsbr br ricardo cortez reminds one lot valentino looks part groomed valentino clone mgm though never thought could reality right believable unsympathetic part weak willed mamas boy allows age realistically comically end movie fails win leonora returns home later follows her courage underminedbr br this movie beautifully shot brilliant storm sequences sets depicting spain time authentic looking also fine secondary performances old timers lucien littlefield tully marshall mack swainbr br although story lost love missed chances think leonora rafael would happy together needed traditional wife much career woman think would happy small village ending true life pulls punchesbr br see one garbos american film debut precursor things come,0 anyone else hate bio usually post like this would wise hive mind rteenagers improve bio grade,0 darling lili fantastic far one favorite films certainly deserve poor reviews received julie andrews playing title role lili smith schmidt best part whole movie entrancing spectacular julie andrews favorite actress singer far definatly surprised stunning is movie justgreat im running adjectives magnificent marvellous amazing funny terribly romantic sad allout thrill thanks dame julie andrewsand husband director blake edwards oh yeah rock hudson ok br br julie andrews beautiful wellloved singer lili smith rock hudson portrays major larabee quickly falls lili him affair coincedental meeting planned german government im sure thats exactly call them get point warm happy singing entertainer lili actually german spy lili told seduce major larabee order get information new top secret opertaion later know crepe suzette though lili solemn mission falls love bill major larabee real making original quest challenging lili pulls completes er task finds something really true bill ending remain unsaid wonderfully layed out anything thoroughly enjoy movie certainly didbr br ,0 snapshot popular pinup time typical dragged biopic fun fabulous film look feel era excellent soundtrack everything would want indietype film think tendency would portray bettie page sort sex vixen like jayne mansfield truly looked carefully betties poses always looked happy you wish could get me haughty look im acting career work out look porn star so ladies involved film three female producers female writer director female cowriter lovely gretchen mol im sure helped shape role sugary influence really captured idea sweet somewhat naive southern girl really enjoyed photo taken hoped good ol jc upset her br br gretchen mol turns career high performance she may perfect breasts ever happy about curse several years ago made cover vanity fair one really knew was touting next itgirl lets frank bit presumptuous mean unfortunately never made gwyneth status though lack talent making poor film choices pretty blonde fickle hollywood renders forgettable im afraid put back alist well ill monkeys unclebr br intensely private bettie seen film yet bettie left pinup party high note fell love old flame jesus whatever floats boat honey one helluva woman hope happy wherever arebr br congratulations mary harron done cult idol justice,0 unpopular opinion uhhh weebsgtgtgtgtgtgt want someone watch anime heh,0 got american word essay history dont know ehy everything asked do miss old teacher,0 "off to the hills of eastern kentucky to volunteer for a week. won't be able to check my retweets, but will tweet from my phone ",0 know go herei diploma jobs lined finished it living arrangements ready job basically finally shit together life accidentally deleted work clearing space money course again know else do want die stop leeching family everyone know really really want here,1 want diei want lay upside wait blood get head fucking die,1 @blueaero ooo it's fantasy? i like fantasy novels will check it out,0 "And to add My Depression n Bitterness is The Fact The MOST Character I anticipated to watch which is Princess #shuri has So Lil Screen Time. But I Hold ur word Mr. Kevin, Character that has less screen time now will have more on Avengers 4. DO NOT BREAK IT!!!",1 flair changing day bois finally turn change flair now,0 yo yo yo whats wholesome fact wholesomest gets award cos dont know,0 someone flair yo someone old flair older but many years have like hell million attendee old,0 depression isn't always that easy to notice. - K.B.G,1 China children in poor rural area with happy smily face #Xinwen Lianbo o_o,0 really wanna diei wanna commit redflag sometimes feel lonely really wanna die im frickin afraid death know im coward theres still bit life empty shell,1 making diary like thing reddit day yay yet another day through happy announce going okay girl yesterday mentioned seemed ignore first talked like yesterday least bit forgot mention this reason people ship her make fun friends linda like teachers used make fun saying crush together big fan it dont really care much well spent day computer yet again talked discord mostly begining find challenge get less challenging things getting easier do pushups becoming less less challenge still needs squads today find link challenge day so see ya tomorrow,0 Anxiety sucks. Depression sucks.,1 school celebrates autism april fools day lmao,0 @djmcstanford yo thanks man! ,0 i ve been bullied for year at school because of my appearance my nose and it always made me sad and insecure when it started i wa since then i take picture of my face at least 0 pic everyday now i m graduating from college and i still feel the same way a i did year ago whenever i am with friend and colleague i keep thinking that in the inside all of them are laughing or thinking how ridiculous i am when i take a selfie i find my nose to be normal but when someone take a picture and i m in it i find it so weird also i ve always been very shy but lately it got difficult cause everytime i m on a conversation with someone i can t help wondering how they re seeing me i think it gon na get worse now that i need to get a job and talk to people that i don t know well i just needed to say this,1 want end todaywe school break week school left us tons works finish break much normally week handle another pile undone homework it might fail classes cant fail classes want disappoint parents know seems like small problem kill over might say school problems that ive urge years ive acted upon twice year failed found perfect way kill guranteeing dead life clear want end it everything today,1 probably accurate stephen king adaption yet surprising since king wrote screenplay story follows creed family moving beautiful maine house one residents jud pleasant old man knows things area one highway runs right frontyard path leading pet sematary children decades buried animals killed highway soon enough ellie creeds cat church found dead luckily happens family exception louisthe father away thanksgiving jud takes louis another burial ground beyond pet sematary church buried later louis greetednot politely church hes returned appearing chewed way bag buried in maybe buried alive maybe not nothing say without ruining storybr br of king adaptions ive seen would terrifying characters real situations normal mary lambert great job directing proceedings suspense kept fairly high throughout film due part plot development scene gage killed stick mind forever then course conclusion easy determine whats going happen lambert pulls genuinely scary sometimes disturbing momentsbr br overall good film excellent adaption enjoy scared mind haunted occasionally disturbing images pet sematary looking for non horror fans want avoid this,0 dream right saw fox getting torn apart pack wild dogs kicked one dog face dogs started chasing one bit leg scary,0 point lifelove money social status job,1 anyone bad headaches recently reason ive getting bad headaches mum saying technology use dark mode everything low brightness devices p,0 cathrynscott thank you nor me,0 still think day school like winter break coming girl talking teachers like drinking milk classroom wasnt trouble playing around teachers got class supposed saw switching classes standing doorway fucking pretty couldnt stop staring her dont know name shes kinda popular hung around popular kids caught staring staring other realized still couldnt stop staring enter classes broke eye contact moved on hope go back school see again also hope remember moment,0 driving test anxiety driving test scheduled next week already feel nerves creeping in know drive pressure getting me anyone advice calm nerves test im worried ill sike well,0 otakusecret my reaction too whoa didn t see that coming,0 boys skirts bad boys thigh highs panties good filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 im real trouble mom caught fapping do,0 jonathanrknight i hate the limited letter too hope you and the guy are fine i pray for my dog she s not well,0 uploaded song spotify services hello fellow teenagers neri here ive composing songs since april first time release services fun hope like it song kissing night think it spotifyhttpsopenspotifycomtrackflnlthiwfpionmshqsiytxjseqtteaokrxsfyg apple musichttpsmusicapplecommxalbumkissinginthenighti youtube musichttpsmusicyoutubecomwatchvjehfcsfaaampfeatureshare tidalhttpstidalcomtrack,0 keep wanting slice myselfi keep geting stressed coking up drinking using excuse feel bad cut myself ampxb time ive got closer actually letting blood vessel bleed out talking itdoesnt seemto help ampxb do ampxb,1 teletubbies creepiest abomination past century today chilling couch brother came watch tv handed remote feeling kinda bored decided watch whatever hes watching hes years old going channels stopped one first understand watching recognized creepy smile creatures teletubbies name creature despise since small ages actually never interest cartoon creepy next level man seriously regret seeing face long time creepy also cringy af sun baby tv bellies turns rubbing ugghhhh bear watching minute so experiences abomination kids show,0 hello every one its nice to meet u ,0 is even more irritated to find that the patch doesn t even get released properly until tmrw whats the point of letting you do it now,0 "@MissPureGold *Hug..... I simply meant alot of us are sad here, not sure of depression though.",1 failing everythingi essay due monday understand readings spoke prof thinks im fine probably wanted get rid me exams summer going fail understand material im intelligent enough clearly work work work work get nowhere im nearly teenager anymore cant afford make dumb mistakes like this tried everything right going wrong know now feel like dumb idiot child ill go back shitty little hometown live parents let time pass by soon ill position dead pointless life hard make something myself feel like everyone else knows secret life dont people fulfilled lives friends good grades good diets workouts hobbies etc cant one things god ive tried im end road rock bottom see way up death seems like sweet relief id go jump front tube train want traumatise driver know do rant,1 ive fighting itive fighting thoughts redflag still creep in im f ive problem since age subsided past like last years horrible comes goes first child born months ago depression worsened despite mediccine ppd fear heart telling anyone im afraid could take away baby im going hurt tendencies as know like plan anything hate thoughts,1 Post graduate depression some sht,1 lissie sorry just saw the post signed up even before i finished reading lol these guy are gold feel bad for those who paid 00,0 ?????? SMC Official forum is up http://tinyurl.com/qax9tu,0 It is crazy how much better you feel and how much you can achieve when you get out of depression ,1 i quit my job today after being told yesterday that i m bad at it and could be fired if i fuck up again i figure that i d rather remove myself before i cause anymore problem because i know that i m intrinsically fucked since middle school i ve become convinced that i m retarded and that i m a fucking waste of space who should be put down i left this job hoping it d maybe remove some stress from my shoulder but instead i m more angry than ever and i really want to start cutting i m so sick of all of this i m sick of people telling me i should stay here and lying to me about how good i am i m sick of putting in effort only to fail at every turn i m really sick of all it,1 anything live fori mean dramatic way thinking even trying used friends less dwindled one i anything people stopped tolerating me grades shit know could get as actually tried im fucking depressed time care get bullied everyday actually enjoy anything more ive never relationship never even kissed someone im tired it im sick crippling loneliness bother living is,1 try get rtx since like double price could many bots rly get instantly idk would it maybe keep rly need it jew sell it,0 frog guy thank much frogs,0 moment knowyour life over swear joke post guess point redflag gotta laugh can fine fine know middle plotting death moment watching roseanne hysterical roseanne fans episode becky farted end speech student council part dan laughing it laughter lethal problems would over then moment came realized im never gonna that family home love nothing son gone social services took away found suicidal so problems gone son motivation live gone guitar straps perfect hanging got one calling name im alone friends family job even groceries went random acts pizza reddit thinking maybe could eat tonight even let post member long enough funny losing son bad hunger bad money bad future looks bad roseanne looks good ill never that hug kids hey me go kiss goodnight want see son bad hurts ill never see again,1 may messed chance crush know girl three years now good person always good friend liked year now best friend dating time long lasting relationship broke october met pandemic met last days august wanted meet somewhere tell feel told relationship someone else half year talk made big mistake it regret choice crypost something like that thought help somehow like give hope something sorry bad english tried best,0 "Back from a fantastic birthday gathering in Hyde Park. Full of sunshine, fantastic food and pure glee. Awesome friends are awesome ",0 life always ups downsshut fuck up shut fuck up dont care cant see im suffering cant see im hurting ever single fucking day cant see every time get something bigger knocks again im tired it im fucking tired,1 emotional numbnesshi want ask anyone emotional numbness since spine injury cant feel shit vibe people all enjoy music food anymore even videogames movies freezed year college depression came see ever becoming normal person again want end all,1 alexfoster re cat prob have amazing effect on vet bill too watch for change in character of remaining cat pus,0 what do you guy think will this finally change my life buspasfar mg day escitalopram 0mg bupropion 0,1 My first concert! Great memories Journey – Stone In Love ♫ http://blip.fm/~7ekn9,0 "Ok twitters, to indo pra aula kiiiiiiiiiisses",0 ill never experience lovei realized never loved life hate unable find love affection throughout life way cope high sexdrive masturbation porn addiction close decades hate even every time fap pathetic grown man watching people sex fantasizing girl side fully know never able that used go callgirls times felt even like pathetic loser afterwards though every time found girl liked managed mess far either cant really open got awkward around her didnt make move whatever probably seem cold interest maybe even plain boring really know point never working relationship girls usually tell either even rare occasions really liked me somehow fucked up started ignoring lose interest whatever always same happened mostly younger actually around girls decent amount time nowadays chance meet girls online seem success either means success back then fuck success now im already years old never relationship depressed fuck hardly going anymore job anymore failed university student even try things going get better on friends married partners even see hardly anymore im slowly losing friends s many friends social contacts acquaintances even many girls interest me theres nothing left feel like alien nowadays tbh really hate lonely always used social person nowadays every day lonely stuff home laptop going gym alone occasionally dreams anymore goals complete failure life point pretty much feel pathetic life over time courage yet take life want hurt mother friends tldr feel like loser hate lonely never gotten experience true relationship best years wasted end life eventually,1 feel heart even think anything anymore feel in heart heavy second wake second go bed smile laugh friends feel it try distract video games feel it always theresadness much sadness sad fucking sad,1 finally got girlfriend httpsimgurcomaknolhelhttpsimgurcomaknolhel,0 Everyone follow @madierox coz she's awesome town. ,0 i have to take my sidekick back,0 @NYT @amychozick @MiloVentimiglia Too bad her life has taken such a tragic turn. Anyone who focuses so obsessively on a particular person clearly has some mental issues to deal with. Perhaps you should suggest counseling for her obvious condition which maybe routed to post partum depression.,1 "@DiscoverTeris @muppetaphrodite Thanks to the both of you, I appreciate that very much. ",0 blasting the Across the Universe soundtrack ,0 one time family favorites need laughwe put one laugh way thru like first time weve seen it film good clean family humor pauly shore brilliant plans thanksgiving holiday crawl shore invited spend holiday conservative coed becca crawl big city boy must adjust farm life fall love becca but crawl one learning new things crawl teaches becca parents open feelings accepting others fun viewers ages,0 whos carson everyone talking happened,0 i am officially banning godaddy com from my comp my head hurt from the small print and i wasted 0 that could ve happily gone to boba,0 serious guys ask one girl like context sophomore high school one beautiful girl always see morning sitting alone school starts problem dont really know dont know approach im really introverted person shes really pretty girl would like take out dont know do advice,0 on a bad day it feel a though someone ha applied the vignette filter and my field of view is decreased whilst thing become a bit more blurry and le vibrant my eyelid also become a bit heavier a though i ve just woken up after a nap and there s a sort of foggy feeling in my forehead and behind my eye can any of you guy relate to this or doe it sound like something unrelated to anxiety,1 really need to clean the sensor in my slr a it is i will be doing spot removal from several hundred picture,0 guys ever act like this youre mentally confused dont even know ironic sincere makes friends concerned,0 im dropping falling apart m feel numb it dreamed going college years worked hard earned enough scholarships move away get paid go school cant anymore though ive anxious sleep deprived year pushed point considered redflag almost every day top would never ever sign one online class hit unbreakable wall trying adapt week ive laid off husband hours severely cut mother drug addict another city feel terrible alone medical conditions job support herself quarantined crack house lives left stopped paying mortgage electricity get turned off feel like better son stayed help things happened could help fix them dreams left pursue dying feel even worse today emailed financial aid office trying begin withdrawal process see need pay back aid leaving university grandma died less years ago mother cared died cancer hospital bed home held hand died wanted go college badly would disappointed it tried hard im unhappy decision hard feel like failure like disrespected legacy feel like human nothing like purpose value direction neverending heaviness chest anxiety come peak day feel like deserve live consume resources especially since longer job plans continue college ive let grandma physically hurts suicidal years never like this never felt hopeless lost forgettable social distancing never leaving apt husband still job works hard support us adds feelings laziness worthlessness want escape feelings lowest low know go here,1 canti know believe anymore anything know im miserable sick fighting it want done want disappear want feel anything anymore,1 been on fluoxetine for year but anyway there seems to be some stupid national shortage and i m just constantly having to wait extra week for my med and missing out so i m just gon na come off them i don t think they help anyhow so the plan is to take one every other day for two week then one every day for a week then one every four day for a long a they last doe that sound like i could avoid withdrawal,1 couldntbr br from cutting dialogue super special effects film joy behold throughout immediate feel bitterness antarctic affinity characters built base level real action heats cunning finale combine make one memorable enjoyable films aroundbr br up long list films attempted exploit theme visitors another planet thing comes top laughing forget perfectly timed dialogue chilling special effects special effects lot impressive computer generated images get see today one found enjoyable aspects film way introduced slowly member crew way distinctive character traits senseless bloodbathcomeslasherhorror flick film feeling emotionbr br i truly cant recommend film highly enough yet see anything class comes anywhere near matching let alone bettering near perfect acting timing utilised cunning polymesmeric feat cinema,0 live dream world get,0 im fucking metal breakdown overprotective mother cant buy chicken mother really overprotective pushing edge cant even devices shit phone terrible laptop room overnight without blowing top know passwords fuck wit brother stop playing fallen kingdom piano people really know friends past couple weeks forced us kids make meal every week week decided make chicken wrapped bacon a family favorite hour till dinner im ready prepare chicken look everywhere mother forgot get any one job make sure need forgot main ingredient set off ever brought shed say im spending long devices antivideogame activist thing keeping together reddit minecraft rant thank listening ted talk,0 cool no why oh 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flipped out parents divorced go dads house every week sometimes hard get work done like puts lot pressure this important later on explained mom teachers havent updated grades tells email teachers multiple times hasnt worked told that said something mightve bit disrespectful ive already tried emailing hard back puts lot pressure me get says first im back dont talk like second deal pressure wtf im years old care grades well wouldnt say im depressed dont really feel happy often bad thoughts mom scared depressed year told wasnt shrugged off pressure got started crying dont ask anything return kinda wanted place vent thanks reading whole thing though,0 execute emergency planthings gotten rather difficult lately hurts much family poking mental weaknesses seem know best seem enjoy seeing worst gun owner makes moments brokenness like especially hard get through heart heavy tired mind clouded im thankful thought clearly enough execute emergency plan hopped car dog drove drive jesus window parked car listening metal wondering theres church small prayer area back obviously closed hour parking lot illuminated beautifully peaceful place dont even belong church church matter spot gives sense tranquility moments horrible thoughts cross mind easily could end things home ill sit car longer tempest mind calms bit looking dog passenger seat helps come least first reason move forward keep trying life think ill get plain cheeseburger leave give second reason stay kind yall,1 feel lowim tired fighting battle im sure im going win cant escape anxiety making ill think im dying chest hurts time barely sleep eat cant stop shaking feel pressure relationships work family cant deal it much need stop,1 i m starting a new job tomorrow and i m extremely anxious about it i m excited to start this new chapter but i just wish i didn t feel so nauseous right now i ve come really far in overcoming my anxiety but i ve taken everything slowly one baby step at a time this is a huge step the only job i ve had in the past year is instacarting grocery shop amp delivery that i started month ago i did everything at my own pace day a week and maybe a few order a day this job i m starting is hour shift time a week i shouldn t have set myself up for so much but i need to start working towards my career a a dog groomer and this bathing job is an incredible opportunity to do so my living situation is changing soon in that i will need to bring money to the table so i didn t have much of a choice the worst part is i can t actually bathe any dog until i ve learned from the other groomer how to do it which will take time so i worry that the day will go by really slowly because i won t even be doing anything or getting paid until i am ready to start bathing which i don t know how long that will take a friend of mine who work there in the pet store not in the grooming room pulled a lot of string for me with the bos a well my entire family and boyfriend family know i m starting tomorrow and are so happy to see me finally starting to do something meaningful they ve all had a problem with my not working for year because of my anxiety i just feel like not only for my sake but for everyone else s sake i can not screw this up i feel like i m throwing myself into the deep end and hoping i can swim,1 krist0ph r thats damn sad hope thing will be fine after gud lunch,0 im fuckedso redflag always bit problem me really looking like legitimate possibility im type get emotional things honestly see killing logical alternative tomorrow go way think might court date tomorrow quite possibly ruin life background getting rid old truck uninsured unregistered died me left side road going get towed police found first gave three tickets insurance rego abandoning private property without consent im almost make less year fines could depending big dick judge is cannot afford that top insurance gonna skyrocket criminal record going keep school thus taking away whatever future might had everything falling apart really see killing wrong parents able afford funeral,1 depression sucks,1 want gun someone please send mei promise ill kill anyone except myself already lived hellhole life really wanna end shit honestly please someone send me address panchavati phase lane right side near karond square bhopal mp india,1 "@benjaminbirdsng -- Hey Ben, Its David Berrys daughter Breana from South Boston! Keep in touch! Love you guys! Yall did great.",0 saw little bunny rabbit couple minecraft think cutest thing ever know followed around sat together next pond dearly,0 need little help snapchat snap account currently day deletion period people still see account quick add,0 good spanish movie worried many feel lost many around world idea spanish civil war fought history teacher big advantage could easily see film could confusing piece together pieces doubt would big concern spain film made audiences may bit confused later filmbr br the movie begins yearold carol mother returning mothers home town years passed gather coming spain new york city despite strangeness carol speaks reasonably good spanish much film adapts mother alone ill spill pick fact carols father fighting war side republicans who eventually lost bloody conflictbr br the movie gets exceptional marks lovely camera work music rather slow rambling pace bad provided someone accept films way seen several spanish films war compares pretty well themnot better worsejust decent slice life film left behind well nice coming age flickbr br psif know side which republicans mostly socialists backed soviet union mexico well volunteers many countries including usa nationalists led franco aided portugal fascist states germany italy,0 trans person want date straight person preference yet straight person want date trans person transphobic double standards smh,0 my depression ptsd and anxiety have reached an all time high this past two month it honestly breaking me,1 curiousi know last days ive making many posts comments dwelling thought redflag expressing inclination towards it however has unexpectedly happened something look forward to life and please get wrong im saying longer see negatives world which many probably still hard time keep living something might make worth going through true still kind dream something going help stay feels like good enough consider outweighs negatives continuing life world escapism concept escaping reality fantasy imagination sort comfort find life figured things desire attained go mind make reality there also aware quite silly considered imagination before ive come appreciate joy getting far enough reality give found unprecedented comfort stories presented movies series anime etc oh also art find gives sich pleasure aswell music beauty meaning emotion expressed various mediums painting drawing singing and well many things almost feel like different person makes little uncomfortable insecure almost feel like almost betrayal said wanting end life still stand it believe past truly wanted die right so even something happened make want anymore people still receive respect wishes truly want die happened came accept desires found way make kind reality which felt like impossibility feel like free whoever however desire head must admit still feel insane really want die anymore found another way live one accept now yes would trade life one completely made thoughts emotions desires enough going head almost anytime want id rather live inside head dying guess thats im trying say want apologise saying going kill myself still believe truth way thinking and case wondering talk sort professional anything like that simply asked is truly want really way figured that was even obvious me guess commitment issues something already knew that enough resources would dead now oh well happen maybe later really know know want live inside head maybe hopefully start creating stuff it possibly even earn life it anyway thanks reading,1 tell themi want tell friends family im afraid try stop me want die want life end feel selfish telling life good plan dying next week dont know do,1 gf broke me got mad next day bc didnt want get back together bad grades got grounded got phone taken thought ghosting said breaking me thinking it lying constantly does mental health problems seems like has decided good idea next day got texts saying wanted get back together wasnt thinking clearly even tho said thought least week starts getting mad wanting date anymore make right decision given time thought,0 suicidal years since attempti years clear last redflag attempt serious suicidal ideation recently thoughts returned extremely heavily gone stages life anyone else childhood middle school high school college keep telling state going get better get better things change never better worse im one fall binary definitions life know life holds value know good bad way interpret experiences experience much suffering sadness im tired trying make best every situation genuinely want life over want suffer anymore,1 @fischface : I'm a good young act(ress) in her 20's-30's looking to be in a well budgeted indie horror film. I'd love to be kept in mind ,0 " i know i'm a syllable whore, sorry but i did it on purpose.....",0 i am worried that i check my pulse too much and the amount of time if felt my carotid artery i make that have narrowed the artery i m not sure if it placebo but i feel pressure in my neck right around that area sometimes,1 times mg fatal overdosefatal overdoses reported generally doses mg currently mg disposal really really want take alcohol meds really tempting feel like ive tried everything happy,1 New post (Reverse the Aging Process) has been published on Healthier Life 101 - https://www.healthierlife101.com/reverse-the-aging-process/ … #AntiAging #BestAntiAgingProducts #Cancer #Depression #HairProducts #PainRelief #ReverseAging #ReverseDisease #ReverseTheAgingProcess #SkinCare #Socialization #Supplements pic.twitter.com/m1qJmncpaL,1 @MsNessa lol I hear u follow me I'm following u... ,0 @katemthompson But how's your day/night? I don't know what time it is where you are haha,0 its selfish thing anyone dothats stepmother said redflag nice dinner table conversation nice family gathering celebrating one nameday two birthdays one own anyone else crisis think theyd live pretend whole time im normal way involved affected topic haha idea whole time many people even know im seeing psychologist stuff one stepbrothers seeing psychiatrist theyre judgemental hes valid idea could say things especially context thoughts this too agrees might times even help others selfish thing world give oppurtunity up what fuck one stepbrother one family member attempt herself started set rights meanwhile busy coward trying show hurt trying cry poker face dad sitting beside lay shoulder long time staying silent eventually asked jokingly are falling asleep better get situation needed contact anyway psychologist knows know long ill seeing her well anyone internet cares know joke friends know might harmful laugh wed cry god sorry rant im tired pretending,1 depression is so real i m over this feeling,1 http twitpic com y cf filled with curry the true indian in me is coming out,0 im fuckup again without fail ruin everything lovei cant get cycle nothing one love ever lasts always fault even im pushing away former fiancee friends friends family feel trust anybody anymore least myself im miserable failure hell go on,1 im literally drawing rn,0 want fuck right mortal coil something holding back need find eliminate iti living crushing depression interspersed short bursts mania on average probably duty cycle mania depression respectively since making life living hell cant bring things necessary fix situation know even start point far less effort done it,1 one watches romantic comedies one knows expect weve seen enough many many years know go theres formula one almost always begets movies become popular genres audience always relation actual quality play around that create something interesting movie suggestion works relatively well instead simply following lead follow skillfully helping unfortunate men lack attractive facade would allow reveal unseen good qualities possess women love with plot follows smith works selfproclaimed difficult case kevin james alongside aid james also follow mendes fed men lie get wantone particular scene inspires great respect smiths character meeting one jerk putting place seeing smith helping disaster james see mendes spite talent helping others messes up badly her making marvelous point love falling love affects us romantic comedy mostly avoids pitfalls suchat times almost bordering feeling like spoof genre though last scenes sweetness emotions type films whether follow formula revealed review pace quite good never really slows down seldom moves fast acting great far pretty much everyone goes characters nicely developed come real people humor always work occasional gags less fortunately executed one two jokes seem forced however part film funny recommend anyone likes romantic comedies anyone love believe love difficult time last scenes ,0 @LivPsy If you hear me sing you will have increased depression and anxiety.,1 law pajama online class,0 bradhfh hello you stoped talking to me lol,0 exquisite film make like more eavesdrop upper middle class family dublin early part th century hosting christmas dinner friends relatives table talk idle chatter well written one engrossed away dinner table fine piano playing helps create intimate atmosphere one one guests perhaps bit perfect amateur player odd mistake would added magic film real story real entertainment object lesson coming film makers,0 stuck throwing girls feel normal shutting everyone alonei would post rdepression people rarely comment unless click bait,1 It was around a half a year ago I was experiencing symptoms of depression then I was diagnosed about 3 months ago. Before this there was scratching to the point where I was bleeding which is still happening now,1 ive trying avoid social media know redflag provoking me joined ultimately thought would make feel connected people kind does im okay with course im looking everyones highlight reels friend count which im especially envious of cant help feel like crap social life came standstill early s compartmentalized facets life ensuring people knew never intermingled,1 sometimes keep swimming find way dark ocean,0 feel disconnected causing want kill myselfi turned suffering depression since recently started feel disconnect experience things feel far away them like im simply body depression seems getting worse sometimes also feel may bipolar disorder know sure moment disconnected feeling change feel people still love family death love friends etc feel weird also makes feel guilty guilty feeling do making want end life ive ever wanted to feel like im experiencing anything anymore still get angry laugh cry etc but feel extremely distant all thats it thanks reading,1 im itim going get gun local gun store im gonna go side lake pond near house it cant take living mind cant take sleeping awake anymore want mind cant mind noone exists mind nobody cares im bitter dance loneliness fading space love never love cant love ive always alone ive never met anyone cant mind mind cant anything mind stuck infinite pattern dont want mind get rid mind mind isnt fit reality exist here nobody even knew here im gone nothing never anything mind cant mind,1 id hard pressed say makes film important me good movie definitely outstanding fassbinders film still along american soldier keeps making personal list favorites whenever get thinking it,0 so this may be odd but ha anyone s sense of smell been really weird while on buspar maybe it s unrelated but i just get random smell sometimes and feel like my spence of smell is heightened,1 makin fun omegle im yo antarctica,0 maybe im gonna rich great grandfather owned whole beer company multiple fabrics soviets came took away nowadays possible get things back proving inheritor lets gooooooo,0 "That free Ericsson laptop hoax email is doing the rounds again. Now somebody have a face full of eggs, courtesy of the local BOFH ",0 think mayve figured yay think might pansexual thats pretty cool thought bi long time im sure honestly pansexual im going tell people irl ive already come id come again really terrifying didnt even first time also prepared jokes pans ya thats trying figure whats going sexuality think figured knows maybe bi,0 @Moogieredshoes hehe i am always fixing mine after mum has had a fiddle with it lol. but i reckon its the only way to learn how it works ,0 never thought would come thisive always background ive always felt replaceable like didnt matter dont want anymore always subtle suicidal thoughts ive hit time low past months worst life want end never felt broken empty depressedi went swearing never touch drug life might addiction point im sober feel like point living im wasting mine everyone elses time im still here im highdrunk whatever feel numbed pain little amount time doesnt last long still end going bed sad wishing wont wake next day tried stop feel like need keep going dont know else do thing always helped music favorite artist dead makes want die even well music helps used love video games feel like im living altered state mind musicvideo games im living good reason all recently ive many serious thoughts killing think im making wrong decision one cares funny like every redflag death one ends caring gone late havent ever posted reddit dont know else point thanks listening anyone read this,1 dab watch commit suicide,1 It was yum ,0 cant care anymoreive lost ability care everything anymore weeks left college cant imagine anything except waiting die beginning semester ok passion once excited finish up ive lost im lowest point cannot relate people well terrible time talking anyone hindrance existence pull humor nice cant anything else trouble expressing feelings deeper thoughts small talk everything cant explain properly feel like shit around me ive offon girl bit ive accepted im type really hard understand layers complications deal far better talking dont know stand right except friends feel like giant bother her made friends college connections feel loose now half openly expressed wanting kill themselves plans stop it guess think im losing mine ive started unhealthy things one cutting never really understood get now fasting past weeks ive keeping track calories lose weight taken drastically im lbs options dramatic long periods time decided dramatic now meeting school counseling thursday going explain everything probably use post guide help talk really thing im sort looking forward now way tell someone whats happening without feeling like burden im taking lexapro depression half dose things get real shitty know taking extra help since takes time work system might im expecting end institution counselor needs one also family midwest im massachusetts own talk mom every week thats contact back home im kind done tried faking til made cant anymore want out,1 guys epic battle best user teenagers every vote counts guys httpswwwredditcomuserppppie_commentsloemaewho_is_best_user_on_rteenagersutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf,0 honestly dont knowman im regular white kid smoke weed say whatever fuck want moment cause got months probation literally dont know whats happening brain im depressed anything im sad got anxiety really bad months ago got dirtbike wreck totalled injuries brain one severe trauma ive noticed anger issues went freak tf littlest things im literally insanely frustrated everything govermentmom political shit everything im mad dont want help therapist psychiatrist cause nothing fix,1 ok maybe deserve oscar golden globe award matter acting outstanding theres reason give credits directing really another semigory st century slasher flick people consider decent maybe even dreadful opinion matter bit thats great time watching moviebr br sure first minutes pretty slow movie progresses something like like was anybody else watching movie is looking hours fun mindless violence and kickass ending spoil yes many flaws movie let cast list front cover fool you hilton delivers decent performance nobody saw coming even greatest haters like friends agree surprised us greatly barely believable acting skills striptease nasty anything online popup would promise her still unbearable fastforward turn dvdbr br the violence surprised me nobody school horror board talking like these new movies called saw hostel could safely say wax graphic saw death scenes actually quite disturbingbr br in conclusion im surprised house wax make place imdb top definitely worth look,0 wanna chat cant sleep dont want to im talk whatever dont tooooo weird,0 anyone want uterus please send free charge take itits useless dont even want kids,0 went contacts theres oneno one say to anyone would turn would never believe capable this husband told raped drunk sitting car alone thinking ways could kill myself knowing feeling thats deserve thought good person wrong,1 hows ya monday going pls sign petition waddup imma keep short d pinter want decorate instructor wants signatures googly eyes mouth please sign petitionhttpchngitgsxqkpx,0 everytime gets mad takes phone items away tells bought his hes even broke iphone bought long time ago give money want some need good reason why works overnights makes things hard me long island railroad barely runs times even months old would baby go overnight know do im tired feeling trapped helpless,1 everything getting down im loss for everythingthe first thing probably explain is im probably somewhat pertinent struggle recall period time greater weeks everything ranging stuff sucks im really sick this want die thoughts even redflag attempts tldr is im love girl reciprocate it cant finish anything start hobby education hate feeling like constant stream failure toward father greatest man ever met matter much want success make proud always fuck things up always ive avoiding contact last months this hate fact im overweight really try lose weight struggle back second point never seem finish anything start hate way get jealous smallest things really see point around anymore im burned upon friends family even people even met like government whore subsidising education which ive broken again im even sure im posting ive erased rewritten post several times now know im trying say anymore last day haze me recall vague parts day theyre usually worst things like cutting fact ive taken smoking even though find disgusting mind mess,1 Rappers go thru depression while having everything they've ever wanted I can't relate https://twitter.com/rapup/status/989212266112299009 …,1 houndour i wish i wa there i m pretty good at scaring the shit out of people,0 im really happy right now dads surgery went well realized much missed him even though hes gone day im happy cant stop smiling duchdjcjsjcjsndn love much,0 although definitely read particular agatha christie book point remember anything except name abernethie good thing seeing story unfold without knowing play allowed appreciate sheer genius agatha christie way misleads pulls rug feet main reason success timelessness addition stories excellent production values beautiful locations wonderful music topnotch acting elegant directing etc reasons series success timelessness virtues present after funeral word advice alert right start clues dropped place even opening sequence quite unnerving moments well contrast peacefullooking englishcountryside locations small touches humor mustsee mystery buffs good film general ,0 not sure if this is the right sub to post but wasn t sure where to go really i wouldn t say that i feel anxious but i m what people call a worry wart if there s something i can worry about even if it s maybe very small i will still worry about it i m worried about multiple thing currently my dog leg that s hurting a pain i have in my lower jaw finding a new job etc i will have thought about these sort of thing and on the surface they don t seem like much but then i start to think about them more and more and i start to worry even more until i start getting scared of panicking sometimes like i have had this pain in my jaw for a few day now i m assuming it s because i haven t worn my retainer for the full time i m supposed to the past few night my mind think that but i also start worrying it might be another cavity and i ll have to go to the dentist which is the worst thing for me but then i think hang on i ve gone to them for similar stuff like this before and it wasn t a cavity but what if it is this time you see the problem i m having even though i ll try and think about it logically my brain always make up some sort of way to worry about stuff that might not even need that much thought this is half a rant and half me looking for advice i worry so much in my life and i hate it i know i won t stop worrying but can anyone give me some advice to maybe worry le,1 "Have a pic of Harry Connick, Jr. strategically placed in my office for continuous inspiration and constant swooning #happyclam ",0 cant anymorei thought wanted pregnant happy cant im mentally physically limit told get rid understood havent able anything barely capacity get bed relapsed got quote termination cant afford probably it feel selfish horrible cant four months this worst feeling world everything feels bleak hopeless meaningless want life back cant even afford get life back,1 outside hopped car ready diegenuinely feeling unappreciated always do im tired feeling much know please help think want help also wish people would tell kill myself,1 friend redflag descion friend mine mademy best friends girlfriends planning sucide second chose instead need advice fast get though head friends stuck mind,1 "@EcstaticGrapes Dont worry Raina, jsut expect an e-mail ",0 see living much longerreally point life two depressive disorders nothing interesting everything painful whats point end soon possible wish could less afraid,1 @Wereuntouchable Thank youu! ,0 and then i realize normal is horrible and mean working a job i hate to barely afford gas to work and killing brain cell with drug to put up with it,1 know weird would anybody talk phone discord voice calli feel like shit need vent talk someone random basic things feel little less alone depressed right now least pretend friend want to pm please im im malicious im fucking sad,1 tom fontanas unforgettable oz hands one greatest television series ever created brilliantly written acted directed close perfection art form film television literature music gets haunting extreme brutality creates prison world filled diverse characters range compassionate flat terrifying show matter brutal get through one cannot take eyes of combination professional trained theater actors film television actors allows range diverse original performancesbr br and show universally praised hashad loyal fan base one cannot feel underappreciated television run hbo dramas the sopranos sex 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Tell all what is annoying you at www.iamsoannoyed.com ,0 teeny tiny little question shaving leg hair hair go it stand sit,0 feeling pretty good right now stark contrast usual sending positive vibes possibly can broke free anxiety bit today ive riding high ive made friends past months theyre truly wonderful people im beyond lucky life ive got roof head access water food etc im leaning back bed hoodie amp sweats pulled dryer ago feeling comfortable hell got lofi filling room totally enhancing good vibe head isnt clouded depression anxiety worry doubt whisked away soft sound music first night long time feel okay hope too not please invite join stopping bit enjoy lofi me herehttpsyoutubelicfmag_a ill hang bit longer talk anyone feels like commenting nobody does thats perfectly fine know whatever youre going through youre alone hope looking sign give up it right here thing believe amp im proud making moment genuinely hope lovely peoples nightsmornings go well find way beat demons probably going doze soon wanted share small victory you love ya,0 mmm I'm so fuckin stressed out and my depression keeps getting worse despite upping the dosage and I can't AFFORD to fucking ruin this year's chances of getting into a school because of my depression,1 im getting it mind raced time never knew capable one day took shard glass wrist release blood pounding head helped escape began cut week twice became intense took apart razor hands could much blood possible release anymore became routine instead cutting twice week became twice day creative carved words help me wrist large proud drew initials boy bone cut could see muscle blood felt high pain began think ways out could see redflag felt like left me drew plans first thought painlessly began think going bang considered hanging shooting myself end took bottle pain pills feeling numbness throughout body go toxic shock probably relaxing thing world began sink onto floor time heard someone open door ended getting stomach pumped stay hospital days realized plan failed cried sick went home still broken attempted again again again every time tried either failed stopped mother emotional wreck hated hurting her time believed gone worry anymore wrote redflag note get chance go plan knew would successful going jump story building next fathers work particular reason chose building figured itd painful anyways gave trying die im glad did too still cut get feeling blood running skin got help bestfriend understand put me helped tremendously still relapse every awhile control now thanks reading im getting it oh mention im ,1 need make dinnerin order make dinner need use kitchen that kitchen usable theres many dishes smell thats gettig worse floors slowly tearing apart time attempt sweep mop them two holes ceiling occasionally drip water sometimes bee gets in normal day dishes make food frequently look pile everything sit back life slowly falls apart,1 @paulissima real life is offline too ... don't worry then ... be Happy ,0 anyone there could use supporti graduated degree neuroscience psychology loving providing family girlfriend loves would anything me part fraternity guys consider brothers everyone seems think things going well me ive medication since started anxiety depression diagnosed bipolar current issue insomnia began taking ambien help actually get bed sun came up discovered affects sleep became problem looked forward going sleep every day knew going get ambien high span years regular prescription it along samples weaker sleeping pills father also doctor plenty medication around house month ago procedure done given vicoden took one bottle effect given additional bottle percocet took percocet pain next week so began abuse them mixing anything could get hands on valium xanax codeine ambien lunesta muscle relaxers bad several nights ended stumbling parents room morning screaming something yet put bed keep quiet become apparent problem girlfriend would tell verbal abuse give take them finally came clean family seeing therapist week doctor giving enougb dont go withdrawal feelings guilt embarrassment still there feel like ever get better ive tried stop own several times past months cant alone family already seen one member go rehab would never want deal again current moment reasons keep living keep love happy every passing day think would easier live lives without burden,1 really freaky fucking dream dream chewing something thanking heard load crack reached mouth grab made loud sound two teeth fell broke middle im still sleepy half awake daise little shaken this,0 pink red paint brushes getting married always love painting red well call red pink well call pink pink red really great paint brushes years ago red told dating pink happy pink red always really close last month pink got pregnant im happy theyre getting married inviting paintbrushes need paint place wedding itll beach awesome d,0 About to muder some avacado crab cakes and sweet potato fries ,0 help addiction plzz need help guys mightve known teenagers like jerk teen like jerk too problem getting control jerk twice day might say pretty low want continue affect productivity everyday wake immediately get phone watch prn reddit ive started many great things last year like working out studying writing etc etc change since prn made lazier want stop dont want make worse please help me,0 dont mistake a bad day with depression! everyone has 'em!,1 died need tell storythis life long sad story one must tell someone born middle kid middle class family parents were first abusers dad alcoholic beat brother nights good listen music mom much better abuse dad abuse emotionally financially bad other around third grade diagnosed autism testing traumatic first experience gender dysphoria waiting room vhs worked alice wonderland wanted alice could handle new world handle mine parent filled pills till high school pill made slow fat easier dope parent lead getting lbs develop boob im guy ive spent whole adult life trying get fit this one biggest failures raped friends got drunk payed girl sex me happen party ive told therapist still cant talk about theres proof left too one one would believe me collage failure to know bpd depression still talk rape let build inside me met ex great first became emotionallyverbally sexually abusive hide friends family spend next three years deep denial come phone sex cam girl addiction itd year cant stop ive spend theres coming back this im stuck dead end job life forfeit theres coming back this,1 th birthday tommorow honor serving boys and girls thank you,0 crush said loves talking discord annoying usual said leave said bye said love you said said left think meant seriously,0 @markhoppus My Great Granddad Fought In WW1 In France So If That The War Your On About My Great Granddad May Have Known Your Granddad,0 really need talk someone pleasei go back fathers house brother was first time lives actually brother said father never really liked seeing him depressed never really felt love took like bomb took bad asked us leave crying cant describe terribly bad feel right now think one terrible emotion human feel unbelievable hiding everyone fact homosexual desires ive hiding long time life ive exclusively hetero things changed im quite sure am fear myself desires extremely hard so could talk someone think reddit great community even though millions people place feels good someone could listen well read me id really grateful sorry english intention killing myself know post this,1 choose life mom filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler fillers filler filler choose life filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 movie simply awesomeit sensitive issue movie superbthis movie create controversy india as far know publicity also kept lowinitially thought movie would simply waste time since indian directors producers used change theme even though sensitive adds love story original story spoils whole thingmost indian viewers would agree topic remember ashoka mangal pandeyloc etcbr br there many movies india would become milestone mega hits love story part would unnecessarily addedbr br but treatment pretty similar pinjar movie also must watchbr br if counts would like thank anil kapoor producer firoz abbas khan director making great movie,0 yall good comebacks need comebacks insults like slit wrists insults general want make bitch cry best insults get award please make original and good,0 "Don't settle with #depression, #anxiety or defeat. #Jesus wants you to overcome. #faith #Prayer #bible #kalamazoo http://www.vwcenter.org/fervent-prayer.html …",1 venting rotten putrid feelings haul around every dayive putting years lately feel like wasted time think years someone asking feel throwing pills would fix problems have try hard fit get good job well school exist outside fucking institution im beginning think past attempts one step success reason life gone shit meant around long know exactly anymore every day fucking struggle anymore time drive vividly fucking dream throwing car semi cross street slow hopes someone make decision me cant bear shit anymore im pussy gone how affect others fucking pathetic i,1 im probably going get body pillow printed plain white body pillow need hug something im crying sleep,0 really rough night last night everything comes wavesfinding words even begin explain feelings feel something ill never concur cant explain feelings go matter hour physical mental pain turned physical telling brain im cant believe again im disconnected self reliant feeling abandoned room full people nobody likes dont connect anxiety taking over friends arent really friends think annoying everyone playing nice like friend more acting weird stop distancing wonder youre alone one wonder uglyfatdisgusting fault redflag right itll feel better bridge close easy pills taste good taking cant breathe want die time im constantly falling felling alone alone completely different somewhat crave it isnt narcissistic price shit nobody fucking cares problems skin deep dont know like feel crawl back bed belong forget anything past walls mind races cant stop cant stop thoughts eating alive would anyone understand anything feel could begin explain dont even know idea whats wrong whats wrong whats wrong stop yelling please cant take volume head another migraine body physically clenched point causing jaw stress want curl ball deflate everyone thinks joke youre dramatic would anyone even listen words leaving youre existence end end youre worth space waste cant shake weight im drowning time im fine least thats tell self say stop pussy nobody gives shit problems youre suicidal never brave enough try,1 "Im on my way to the videoshoot!, get down there now! try get there before 3pm!...Support the hustle! COVENT GARDEN STATION!",0 whoever tells swankiest story gets hugz award got free awards thingy cant find post suitable entertain something quite swanky indeed,0 feel like attempting againthe last time first time ever tried september ended hospital mental hospital back home it wanted life change wanted guy wanted confident wanted ability actually make friends get that felt like going but nope im still pathetic loser goes stupid school fucking hate that im butt listening dad complain financial emotional stress hes under fucking ask that makes feel horrible hes saying shit like i think realize much trouble caused do know much bills cost thats masters degree makes feel like im unwanted am stupid kid fucked everything up feel suicidal dad deserve asshole kid like me sad part is hes fucking right says care anyone myself point view feelings matter feel okay whats point living fuck everyone else care dad cant find job someone even know pain fuck them get bent obviously im exaggerating pretty selfish want someone im upset nonjudgmental say everythings okay let cry like fucking baby basically want mom again maybe shed emotional wreck too shed disappointed me least would compassionate she know pussy guy even act like one ill get pushed around men actually dude fuck want that theres girl school intimidates me really let get me anyway im loser like alpha female thats even thing mocks say something stupid lesbian man am girl fuck say oh im transgender school would make much better candidate would fuck that hell pissed off cant cooperate people try make lives easier make everything harder feel like people need me one ever understand ive done many dumb things want deal everything ive caused want find shotgun flip everyone again deal shit anymore feel like waiting live own friends actually selfworth want see change life now want go new school want practice assertiveness want want want want yeah me im asshole anything unless feel like crap know would time obviously would much effective way took pussy way even physically hurt me maybe all know fuck need help,1 id show yall fakes real thick bitch strikes skirt could get skirt,0 whether important important feel strongly woman suicide watch entire world coming right way reacted long video posted online shows strongly unwell right everyone calling racist crazy karenthat fine great beside pointwhether wrong video point concerned mental health wellbeing idk go share concern everyone fuck abigail elphrick bring hey guys get mad angry right now also stop think longterm existence realize may very close suicidal mentality even hate right now please someone something place try help extremely diredflaging time heragain clear cast judgement whether right wrong definitely think fucked up think people imperfect mistakes happen fucking suck make them especially current volatile culture simply saying even though many others believe wrong also aware person care fellow human afraid mental state may attempt suicidei want try remind people struggling publicly shame guilt embarrassment many emotions topped hate receiving right may enough push edgeplease someone anyone can reach remind give up seen video woman abigial elphrick woman dubbed victorias secret karen,1 reason whythe reason still cant stand abandon cat cant explain life got much couldnt handle limitless anymore explain arent abandoning theyre true love youve experienced,1 "@Mrfainson-- I AM HAVING A BABY GIRL!!!!!! I tried to call you, it said you were unavailable...email me!!! ",0 feel might time iti hate pain time since ive hit car hate breathless disease people use me abuse me like mother ran away matter am do im always harmed bullied im alone cant trust anyone probably better im dead one knows cares anyways,1 bj keswickproblems ndp oh yeah you must enjoy record breaking inflation housing price that canadian can t afford because of all the foreign investor paying outrageous tax being driven into the next great depression make sure you stand with trudumb,1 pogba never said that manchester united wa dead to him furthermore just day after opening up about mental health and depression some journalist label pogba a toxic waste absolutely awful and just plain wrong mufc http t co m0oaeifywc,1 reddit im miserablei know do ive waited long years get better problems count fault somewhat got hole know do hate waking every day imagine silly sounds problem accepting way look look really young im male could pull problem single doubt weightheight probably something well lb somewhat baby face destroyed self esteem social anxiety gotten better got older men supposed strongtallmature looking fall short every category think of gpa destroyed think gpa freshman year flunked classes stopped going embarrassed young lookedsocial anxiety dropped out silly know felt reallllllly place years also chronic disease makes gaining weight bit harder keeps skinny also brings pain days hard cope with diet somewhat limited dunno every day thing work enough get online work play video games go sleep rinserepeat every day nothing changing way yearsas kid always thought would get better eventually would ageget everythingbut nothing changed sadder im technically adult also constant thoughts redflag past screw ups past embarrassments constant reminder much ive failed cant make stop imagine silly sounds looking young bothering me look young people treat different remind every time meet someone new reason socially acceptable see people age finished college starting career feel behind sociallyacademicallyin every way think could actually commit redflag thoughat least im desperate yetbut know do thanks reading kinda long somewhat nice get out,1 masturbated months im challenge anything realized jacked,0 I'm so excited bout this Saturday! Hope Fatin can make it this time ,0 I added a video to a @YouTube playlist http://youtu.be/7luYt6eanbA?a  Her last words (depression based),1 ive fucked life cant anymorethe thing keeping much would destroy everyone loves lives hate fucking core thought beat odds teen pregnancy early s two kids different fathers lost love life fucking sabotage everything im crazy brain working every fucking second every fucking day thing know hurt myself cant keep living like this parents act like everythings okay know must disappointed life ive ended with want go sleep never wake up,1 gonna tell guy claims convert made new must dating checklist since short time consider christian must date since theistatheist different theist relationships work lot cases people claim convert get you well fall someone claims that gonna sing some people go church signify trying make date neighbours wife brother let tell sure born better leave woman alone one days mark words think brother going work go work bang knock door thats brother knock more might run long time run on ducking dodging run on children long time let tell god almighty gonna cut down,0 i lost a subscriber. just ONE! but still. ah well #36 most viewed today. 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GO KATE!! ,0 polite way kill single fact stopped ending life time time again people always tell things get better there people care you latter seems correct people care me still gotten better try might cant get this ill weeks go without incident faintest hope things change one bad day im back edge end life chose take easy way out id hurting others process decided jump would sweep up shot myself would wipe brain wall taking life leave others bigger burden im selfish person really want die stop existing depart without hurting anyone never existed first place option really know seek gain posting here get standard your life meaning there people help you you bad situation random people ive never met though ill probably gain even less devaluing people like that im live parents siblings never went highschool got ged im college sophomore despite loving family ive never able connect anyone deeper level ive always felt adverse toward people different feel disgusted people similar me actively push people away often notice actions affect others around me lot problems gone undiagnosed untreated long im sure bad really is bouncing apathetic suicidal day day good sign im honestly disgusted myself cant commit anything cant make opinions when theyre unpopular ones taste everything trash whole childhood growing specialed outcast among outcasts bullied felt like deserved it nobody ever took side stood one got punished may cherry picking struggle remember things childhood traumatic way parents removed school th grade nearly killed worst bully school friends help him teachers stood watched stopped moving finally pulled him im still haunted day school closed years later inhuman treatment students little late damage done suppose venting make feel slightly better somethings going ruin mood soon enough spent way long editing this,1 talk tonighti cant sleep lot bad thoughts please comfort me,1 organization american states essentially become eu open borders free trade among every country american continent,0 hi all short years earth many trials triumphs life seems getting progressively worse best life ever already feel like lived lifetime worth experiences due trauma experienced life like sexual emotional physical abuse stabbed someone attacked mallet due bullying involved police chase surviving car accident addict addicted alcohol age last year age being deaf left ear birth survived surgery survived many illness infection young child revived birth due oxygen loss severe bullying around suicidal episodes last year many prior managed obtain ncea lvl even though kicked school due sevely bullied everyone hate me many fun sexual experiences done pretty crazy one kind stuff seen done things alot people could ever etc always made sure live every day last live fearless lived life edge fullest although lonely sad alot due redflag past trauma things starting look around last year acquired good job wonderful partner sc ironically car accident mins dropped friends place stayed mine met person night before relationship prospered crash made become clean alcohol drugs thought prospect career family always wanted raise children live farm countryside etc but life changed worst nowinitially illness started am jan th awoke vivid nightmare drenched sweat auditory hallucination diahorrea vertigo derealizationconfusion brainfog shivering chills went back sleep went away within day time went holiday suffered vertigo ear pain car ride initial sickness appear feb th got bad flu wsore throat vertigo ear pain coughing running nose chills diahorrea etc feb th suffered derealization severe brainfog crying sadness redflag rem sleep issues like falling sensation jolts awake flashing behind eyelids hypnogogic hallucination constant vivid nightmares every night head pressure diahorrea excessive urination shortterm memory loss bunch stuff around early march came psychotic ocd presentation delusion developing shitzophrenia intense fear constantly googled sort stopped derealization died bit left andeonia complete loss emotions severe depression mood swings came ministrokeseizures severe brainfog happened around start last month every time getting memoryloss long term shortterm almost dementia like memory loss developed internal vibration currently symptoms are slight brainfog internal vibration dementia memoryloss vivid nightmares still hypnogogic hallucination upon waking minor head pressure crying sadnesssevere depression complete loss emotional enjoyment life loss track time going around me inability retain information loss imagination hair thinning easily bruising loss libido abdomen pain months illness shts getting worse many blood tests tried different diets meds help mood none symptoms tried therapy ct scans head wo contrast tried heaps nothing works personally think maybe autoimmune encephalitis due virus covid maybe sure yeah pre much fed atm girlfriend long distance stuck this flys live today family lives comes every school holidays love much says loves supports till death keeping alive struggles issues feel useless dead example nana dementia home look eyes life gone soul lost mind trapped within body imprisons feel atm want go forever cannot feel life emotions feel severaly disconnected everything impaired cognitive function well experiencing symptoms daily always different insight life feel always thought felt different others idk feel special world sometimes wonder alive everyone else figure imagination idek haha plan spend last weeks feel better see reason continue end it sorry words wall text prolly need life story want make sure story read atleast someone goas many know dog eat dog world weakness tolerated strongest survive unfortunately longer strong man really yeah crying afraid death asking happened ages every night alone realise maybe good go first experience much suffering bad live generally die alone world strange place atm full pain narcassism suffering corruption also tried talking parents provide guidance tell accept fate yeah idek p thanks reading far btw god bless year old male life over,1 @shaynaalise get your Phelps on,0 im bored idk mention bored filler filler filler filler filler,0 talkin to my man ,0 quickly think check seperate windows confirm profiles made recently within past month even day adding me becoming really annoying profiles add me weird theyre obviousy fake specifically pose certain kind person add another stuff me im lesbian date older men ive never really hung anyone older know cant actually know people weird joke daddy issues dad still around really funny joke weird also note one profiles since disappeared really really creepy,1 finally today finally th birthday tbh feel much different lmao friends year older were age months least,0 im way clinic right nowhey first post here tonight ive suicidal thoughts finally decided call clinic im pretty scared nervous right now experiences,1 today one days one days u yet another massive argument ur parents endure two hour car journey rain huge box ur lap obscuring ur vision whilst listening ur mums favourite song goes take im tired now leave lie shoot shoot shoot never mind fact ur ur period anyway nice day,0 @LLMMCC is she gonna drive a drill into my back ? ,0 i ve been waking up with anxiety attack every day for the past week it s been a while since my morning anxiety wa this bad i usually get anxious around people or quite randomly throughout the day which i m used to i ve had that since i wa so i can sort of handle that more or le but man the morning anxiety ha me losing my mind i can t function for hour i either lay in bed with racing heart amp thought unable to move or i m the most fuzzy hyperactive person on earth running around doing random stuff just trying to get away from my thought and hoping it ll somehow calm me down i ve tried breathing exercise meditation stretching taking a shower doing stuff to distract me doesn t help much i have to wait til it go away which take around h for me another hour or two until i feel normal again doe anybody have tip please i just wan na be able to manage this until i can get help the worse it get the more scared i get that i ll fail my university class cause i can t get sh t done which in turn make my anxiety worse vicious cycle,1 someone asked ever tried cig said say try benefits could even come that like none id rather addiction even ruin lungthroat health thanks asking ig,0 There's #noshame in talking about other illnesses. Why should there be with #depression? #notalone #KeepTalkingMH #stigma #sicknotweak #life @Fox6TedPerry https://soundcloud.com/givingvoicetodepression/off-the-sidelines-ripple-report-four-ted-perry … pic.twitter.com/6SNTLJ17m4,1 dont want die sometimes alive muchim years old dads side abused brainwashed me made blame mom divorce rift family happened eight granny on dads side threatened kill last year screamed betrayed her dad didnt believe me blamed told apologise couldnt dont want relationship anymore hates im moms daughter thats something cant change blame everything dad recently asked talk couldnt understand told didnt want contact her stresses out things theyve said hurts head ive lot mental breakdowns recently hate myself live mom relationship bit awkward im working it sinking feeling chest crawls spine behind throat,1 hate texiting cuz cuz like haha becausee im extremely fucking funny like come guys stop laughing extremely intricate jokes nice conversation,0 Like breathing exercises do not eliminate depression... try again y'all,1 stay alive mean cope stress little one talk emotions general pain existence,0 gf navy bootcamp right want send memes look memes way much figured could print memes send mail send best got deserves best,0 yeah bad idea idk came back here bye again thanks reading,0 "@bdawg123456 i know right. Thats what i was referring back 2, lol! its like the ultimate line!",0 we failed that song,0 dont knowi mess everything up one cares me ive deeply depressed past days like scale probably depressed ive ever been tried talking boyfriend im states currently im vacation sucks replying says doesnt know say know hes therapist still want someone tell everything going okay need someone tell that dont know anymore cry every night night since cant day im presence family havent eaten days dont feel need to im alone friends turn to one ive become shell human ive come terms pain dying annoy people nobody suffer presence me watched family today hotel room fun beach swam drank ate lunch constantly smiling laughing seemed happy without involved dont need lives one does got brothers two children wanted theres me im nothing wouldnt missed,1 although alive feel like died long time agoi want anymore wish everyone life never knew existed could go peacefully wish spirit could watch family friends live happy lives without me,1 Yahoo !! I have 300 Followers Now ,0 unfortunately happened adobe flash player gone think back memories weve made playing give robot chess tik fak toe castle crashes many f,0 first thought normal feel anything hate ect became suicidal got idea tell anyone one here depressed life,1 today daydamn realize fast time going funny last month actually fun knowing itd end end going end life last post hope bitch out,1 im itmy boyfriend broke me had edit im mobile im sorry format know post vague emotional state couldnt think clearly ended taking way im supposed take daily adderall got back hospital hours know one probably see care ive finally made willing choice seeing therapist hard open people therapy never helped me want happy love myself whole story long complicated point anyone struggling mental illness please seek help extremely difficult know sometimes even venting someone feel better showing weakness strongest thing do took years learn this im sorry rambling im still ill okay hope helps someone mean im havent experienced lot life ive fair share internal struggle didnt believe therapy hope now,1 mandatory evacuation order miles right evacuate too feel like might need to getting nervous,0 imma honest yall straight tik tok extremely cringey awkward,0 the best part about having alzheimers: planning ur own surprise party! ,0 brain hurty squishy mess,0 crush know im m friends crushes girlfriends yet dont feel sexual attraction fit people really love somebody do im happy life told close friend think get girlfriend really spend much time girls friends kinda hang bois hang girls get know them tldr anyone romantically know why,0 @Irish_vampire //text// Hey baby...I am going to send you something soon...mind wearing it for me ,0 tipping pointso recently boyfriend broke premise know wants work himself dating months seemed come blue really fell months thought based communication style could get anything really know anymore often feel like whats point mean im part much luck relationships really want build something someone whatever reason always seem push people away point all,1 could kill right without ever firsts lifeive never relationship havent first kiss dont car job house im still teenager every day live care less less things im still high school care them dont think trying die sucks want enjoy youth want childhood want know first relationship would like college would pick graduate high school car id buy finally get drivers license instead im stuck trying cry everyday class im wouldbeagradestudent barely gets past gpa semester im trying convince everyday overdose wake wondering today day finally post redflag note online text friends teachers goodbye im tired living dont want die want everything stop feel lonely dont want try text call anyone know feel like ill bother ill add worry plate keep buying things online convince wait arrive fill emptiness materialism short span time sadness sets back in cant talk parents dont understand deal depressed child dont think teachers would really want deal break even though gave numbers case needed talk friends arent serious enough comfort me wouldnt know approach told kill myself im trying hard keep convincing live keep burning ive end rope weeks ill surprised manage live th birthday already surprised lived th,1 carter co kentucky ha estblshd thier first public library and are in need of a director thier entire budget is only 000 year,0 More than 1 in 20 US children and teens have anxiety or depression https://goo.gl/EN46R5 ,1 anyone help mei feel broken inside even know say guys ive looked help many places theyve failed me know do know much longer take this,1 know young much shit happened nothing dealing temporary got bunch pills idk else cannot anymore,1 "good morning, Twitterverse and happy Followfriday ",0 look movie obscure brilliant classic sought means necessary suppose powers decided forever relegated towards bargin bin nevertheless could pray chance see one dvd would say even beats great phatasm like dark movie plenty spooky imagery look one see s horror movie suppose be,0 theres one thing rely school for get something dad like go clean something ill like im school work leads choosing getting school work done something else,0 cant anymoremaybe one actually cares think might tonight feel alone empty im worthy existing anyway,1 Lunch is almost over which means i'm half way done with work. ,0 now we talk about football in lunchtime..anything worse? happy #hoppusday everyone! and mother's day too (fuckin&touchin&suckin hahhah),0 cant take voices head anymore want end allive lot mental trouble lately whether im work roommates voices tell say bad things bad awful illegal things could put prison dont want say would ever act thoughts ever push horrible thoughts away i repeatedly tell try get mind mind pushes want say loud feels almost compulsive especially bad work dont want go details too graphic disturbing every time interact customer voices start tell bad thoughts every time tell pushes want say loud brings extreme discomfort interaction start worry whether ive said loud start panic internally whether say loud end telling managers said call cops arrest me even im roommates silence im still tempted say things would make literally want kill get arrested cant take anymore mind turning dont mean anything comes mind would never act it im worried ill say intrusive thoughts loud would ruin life forever im sick this every day occurrence driving insane feel like way stop alone rest life interaction im sick shit dont know whats wrong me,1 else disappointed whole lotta red sure like wasnt complete trash anything couldve heaps better,0 selfish hypocrite be nothing encouraging say someone wanting toenditall comment would want one you literally happened block person keep bothering downvoting everything post insensitive someone elsessuicideattempt youalsorecently attemptedsuicide,1 preparing kill jan transferring cash bitcoin use darknet hate pain plan bunch oxy probably fent press itll job friends family care theyre city doesnt change fact ill always alone single shadow former self good career means nothing end barely bring office anymore waiting get fired remove stress,1 is in love with scrappy and is missin him already,0 family whats stopping killing myself im dead wont feel bad iti know thats incredibly selfish wont go details long run world better place without here,1 think need type outcurrently sitting car parking lot one hour stay least one hour going home told boyfriend id gone couple hours let house himself got fight yesterday didnt come bed am assumed id asleep morning stayed upstairs whole time pretty much avoid me left give space isnt major problem hurtful isolating zero friends family lives miles away rarely reach anymore kind feels like one whole solution fight would apologizing happy welcoming again cant that issues guess want come me dont want let leave did didnt care probably prefers gone again isnt major problem think cherry top everything else ive thinking killing seriously week now thoughts life usually serious though still exhausting functional person functional cant anything life bare minimum simply dont energy really tired living pain fear every single day tried pull bootstraps make life better end cant ive tried medication best makes numb doesnt really fix anything ive tried therapy good things end still solves nothing so started thanksgiving boyfriends family bad toothache lo behold sisterinlaw nurse decided call pain meds tbh would happy ibuprofen big bottle tramadol sitting drawer never took im kind antimedicine felt like would knock out cant quit thinking giving taking whole bottle pills researched actually causes lot deaths every year overdoses think could work real option issue is doesnt theres chance could end coma give brain damage heart damage dont want fuck life even more but losing endurance planet almost years now really sucks life fun happy good so difficult everyone hurts you everyone selfish included good place think would prefer nothingness,1 it feel we live in such a cruel world people torment each other always wanting to make others feel worse give each other covid or hate or rage or despair i don t sleep well i ve met some people recently whom have treated me badly ghosted me pretended to be my good friend and i ve suffered a lot of emotional pain i always ask what ha been the point of all of this i ve had some terrible pain last few year what wa the point or is it all meaningless,1 whats pointof anything,1 dman didnt expect girls hard come ngl thought would girlfriend know finding girl would hard part,0 depression over nike shoe which your own mother might have bought what disrespect too is this,1 people k karma like long planning keep virginity for,0 fellow lgbtqia people extremely difficult intolerant world still live amazing life nevertheless remember loved incredible people there thanks truly made life better made comfortable trans person well,0 become sort caretaker someone depression hes boyfriend struggled long time seems lost hope getting better rejects therapists person programs lack success past want help help himself seems like one area truly wants help money therapists hard get remote therapy successful er stays get quick referrals everything think of help worked you give hope please,1 28 Unexpected Coping Techniques for People Who Recently Attempted #Suicide https://themighty.com/2018/04/just-attempted-suicide-what-to-do/ … #chronicallysick #chronicpain #depression #mentalhealth #chronicillness,1 i ve just got my streetcar essay back from jerry and it still no good ah man this is gon na be a bad day,0 Windows 7 har fÃ¥tt releasedato : 22 oktober http://is.gd/MvXB,0 dont think herei dont think subreddit exist there said it sub named redflagwatch name blatant miscommunication redflag watch organisation dedicated making sure people wont kill themselves subreddit however almost seems encourage it problem sub consists mainly suicidal people hopeless thoughts someone posts suicidal responses usually people also suicidal leads suicidal feelings poster replier reinforced however fucking awful life may be least try keep living get it life sucks im suicidal myself sucks too point keep believing get better matter bad right now even beliefs lies terrible family members friends always outgrow family never know get thrust social situations youre tired job life everything monotonous try something new find way forward go psychiatrist things usually something underlying mental illnesses kind hopeless medical condition cant cured medical science advancing time knows future bring maybe things wont get better maybe never happy so it least try believe be next year best year life everything fixes everything works best eventually youll missing so much life never had dont think sub encourages thinking think subreddit eventually discovered uncovered really is mainstream media call atrocity reddit pressured shutting down think thats good thing want alternative get feelings internet much better one id recommend forum redflagforumcom genuinely wonderful people seem know theyre doing all keep hoping maybe get better never know,1 ive picked method placenow need decide date considering making look peaceful trying ol running car garage ive changed mind want results im planning taking either amtrak greyhound new hampshire taking life there nature looks pretty want see myself idk works ill probably go trails deep woods hang myself ill aim making painless honestly point im ready go,1 rubbish day of revision .. but Take That in 8 days !! ,0 i m about to be living in nyc and have never done anything worth wilde with my life and im sure im doomed to become one of those in the way people who don t do anything in their life which i feared most of my life nothing i seem to attempt to accomplish work out no matter how hard i work or how right i do it i gave so much time to job organization to further my career path only to used a free labor studying only to use up all my forgiveness credit and flunk out i ve been wanting to end it all for a while every time i sleep i see the bk bridge the spot i picked out year ago to end it i feel like i rather be gone than keep living with fact that i m a grown man that s not worth anything hell my mom ha told me that i haven t done anything for her to be proud me and i won t let my partner destroy herself trying to help me i wanted to be an engineer for nasa when i wa younger but here i am today the world shitist it guy that hasn t been able to find a secure job in the past year i ve been desperate for work for a while today i wa given a work assignment from my contract company only to be told i don t exist in the company so i can t work,1 tired lost will sometimesno memes mei see world actually life,1 want help problems parents dont know about thinks bit different issue thats probably true thinking setting therapy that would love go therapy big problem doesnt know id like keep way also would suspicious appeared eager go im stuck hiding one problem trying get get enough attention get therapy discuss real issue must look like dont want go laugh funny,0 i m fucked up badly with my 9f ex girlfriend and now i m so guilty of how i handled thing i m punishing myself mentally and physically i ve lost nearly 0lbs from not eating and going the gym so now i m around lb at i don t leave the house unless i have to and i just exist in my room everytime i smile or laugh i stop instantly because i don t feel like i deserve to feel happiness anymore i think i ve had a mental breakdown because i m so guilty all the time and i can t seem to forgive myself because it doesn t even feel real that i d decide to make the choice i made i don t even know who i am anymore if i can be so deeply confused at choice i ve made in hindsight imagine knowing deep in your heart you ve met the love of your life and you ve thrown it all away because you can t handle a simple issue,1 is 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Like youuuuu my sexy TWITTER FAM I THANK YOU,0 excellent film cried cried loved loved frustrated were film touched heart reality check since reality me year old soldier,0 had a fun night at volleyball... beautiful weather ,0 long time coming depression since years old now turning november decided end th anniversary be sure look back life see fleeting moments happiness followed long periods misery family might find so going mention them time come attempts get help get medication try coping strategies cannot anymored today millionth time called work cannot take pressure today millionth time turned guy online bc men see good time overall depression leads lack motivation keep losing jobs pathetic worthless lonely alone decided call right roommate away hoping last days good ones ready,1 guys talk go urself literally fullon conversations lol may going crazy,0 want hug recent post may have said otherwise thats im trying fap like make chill im so recent influx horny post horny reddit cant horny school,0 i have to wake up in hour laameeee,0 "Wasatch Brewery in Park City, Utah. They have a beer called Polygamy Porter... Gotta love Mormons ",0 poem first time felt elation oh no premature ejaculation,0 im tired thistired living tired every single fucking day therapist says need wait itll get better ways cant imagine says im young understand im turn end december previously plans kill then think im gonna revive plans supporting grandma somewhat supporting grandpa ive lived majority teen years parents abuse still cant get past trauma im also trans think go much bullshit able person really am oh well plan make family hate move another country im kill there,1 im scared ill regret itim scared ill regret it feel bad leaving parents brother two family dogs theyve much help me care me love much still want die cant fuxking suffer anymore anxiety sucks depression sucks symptoms come sucks life sucks like live wanna go really do im anxious scared go one knows happens death reincarnated afterlife absolutely nothing gone know much,1 silly putty implies serious putty,0 especially for @FizzyDuck. hi! ♫ http://blip.fm/~7t8uh,0 like disappointment everybodysuicidal scary word meaning behind represents feel ive always wanted appreciated someone feel proud me im taking duel enrollment college in future one me parents bat single eye feels like second mess something want drop im immediately go work home improvement im lazy selfish disappointment day day listen parents complain other he realize much work shes lazy wants everything wears away way get screamed yelled thing control over maybe im suicidal enough fact im standing noose moment means issues worth here months now thought ending seems present mind cant tell anyone cant explain cant tell anyone life this need say this somewhere someway maybe keep thoughts bay while,1 code geass watch it filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 inching closer redflageveryday wake life grows pathetic days go on lack sex relationships one reason reasons include mental health issues lack friendships extrovert lack attractiveness every person seem always around whether work family always seem better appearance personality me come point honestly dont care well being dont eat much im happy im tired theres really nothing much tbh live til im ready leave world nobody would hurt leave already know it,1 ashleyskyy but i wanted a margarita too,0 @balloonpup You must be following some pretty quiet folks. ,0 Depression and Diet: Why the Food You Eat Matters https://www.nutritionadvance.com/crippling-depression-and-diet/ …,1 @manderley Wonder if your brother also has dimples... ,0 past years feels like life thrown constant pain misery sure take anymore young lad feel like cannot live another years way feeling right now frightened adult comparing everyone around maintain friendships notredflag family feel ungrateful saying way feel frightened pain death would love die makes sense needed get chest nothing going way life,1 @jamesheart24 thaaankyou it looks the same though,0 im so tired,1 feeling like since beginning senior year high school thought going slump pandemic all never felt hopelessness entire life graduated feel samei live mom husband along two baby sisters feel like insignificant part family work the thought interacting people know makes sick stomach cannot even leave house take trash feel like eyes me rejected fast food job interview given idea around others myself unfamiliar place made panic anything around house mom expressed disappointed lay bed sleep till pm wish could tell want anymore wish could tell days seem blend now every day spent alive makes want scream pillow means dead yeti tried failed kill four times already feel like attention whore so even though nobody knows attempted fantasize death constantlyeverything chore things requires energy energy left me takes weeks shower process time consuming never laundry want go searching dirty clothes never clean room task daunting consequently live pile filth probably walking pile filth too everything requires effort absolutely none givewhenever mom tells clean house takes long always start zoning out thinking suicide thinking different life would born different family different country opposite sex make scenarios head make feel better end feeling worse before fantasizing unachievablei feel hopeless worst part is really want help want feel like anymore want wake every day start cry still here feel like probably exaggerating phase mom thinks nothing wrong me convinced lazy unmotivated maybe right makes feel like disappointment cannot even blame her because well am knows nothing feel bases judgement sees daughter future ahead her useless cannot fend herself never amount anything life know want die know spend every waking second thinking nice would could stop existing know anything wish didi know do tired life think killing nearly every day tired here,1 "2 National headlining Acts Next month..I wish I could go tell my 7th grade self that all the bullying, the sleepless nights the depression etc. was all worth it and that it gets easier and the growth has been incredible My life is a fucking blessing but NOTHING comes overnight pic.twitter.com/IA8NYOAQ4c",1 waking school everyday killing meeveryone mean nasty entire place toxic ive survived years cant even comprehend way drinking drink weekly thing makes happy friends interests want pursue parents tell me some people would give everything education case used barely attend welfare officer got involved attend everyday two years days blur point want hear schedule literally wake up go school endure insults overall hell go home enter bedroom lay bed debate hanging good minutes high point week get drink spirits friday im seriously seeing point going much longer please help,1 school work talent cultural knowledge relationship health physical appearance there s always someone better than me and no matter how hard i try the result are mediocre nothin outstanding i shouldn t have existed everything i ve done amount to nothing,1 living breathing potato thats folks read title,0 i hate myself i am the reason i m sad i have no excuse some day i m so happy and blissful but then there are a lot of day most of them where the only thing in my mind is killing myself in multiple way i overthink i plan to perfection i have ish plan to kill myself without my family cleaning anything up i already have an unofficial will written for when i do kill myself i don t want my family to struggle to pick up the piece of why i killed myself so there s always a note then i just do something where no one can find my body i m sad for no reason there is no porpoise to existing i want to help people but i fail to do so all the damn time i joke about killing myself but those joke are getting more specific and i m pretty sure people are catching on that i actually wan na kill myself i actually tried but thankfully failed i didn t have a rope or gun so i started choking myself to do the job i really wan na but i just can t please help me,1 killing christmasthis shit pointless,1 damn im pretty suicidaljust realizing this doesnt even seem like big deal me guess thats pretty fucked huh dont even care dont even care might care im gone lol wtf wrong me whats painless way dont even know im serious right thats thing fuck shiiit might seeking attention cares fuck,1 so i m have been feeling down rather often the last few year but these last few month im feeling constantly down my life just feel stuck everyday when my alarm ring i just cant get out of bed even tho i usually sleep for hour or so i end up laying in bed for or hour thinking about how shitty my life is and how i dont make progress at all i also get suicidal thought alot even tho i dont have any intention to harm myself in any way i dont want to die but smh my brain doesnt get that so yesterday i decided to finally get help and call my doc for an appointment before making that call i sat there and stared at the number contemplating if i really wanted to do this i made a list and wrote down reason why i want to get help and reason why i dont everything just pointed to me making that call and after hour i finally pressed call so then i wa on the phone with a woman at my doctor office i told her with a kinda shaky voice that i would like an appointment she asked what it wa about and i told her that i felt rather bad lately had trouble sleeping and am feeling tired alot i didnt feel comfortable sharing that i feel depressed she said she doesnt have a free spot in the next few week and told me i should come in without an appointment on thursday or friday so now im here without an appointment contemplating if i should actually go there tomorrow it kinda suck that im in the situation before the phonecall again where i have to make that decision to get help im so nervous about getting help i dont know what i should even say i dont know how to talk about my feeling i dont even know if ill make it out of bed tonorrow before the doctor office close im so afraid about revealing this about me but i dont think i can pull myself out of this without help can someone maybe give me some kind word and share their experience with finally opening up so my anxiety about this come to an ease,1 eu referendum result last straw xpost rmmfbim male english not proud it worst year life graduated university managed get decent grade barely tried leaving got call centre job left month due pressure customersemployers causing numerous panic attacks day months later got temp job basic admin middle management fired weeks later panic attack november since self confidence hit rock bottom meaning job interviews could manage or bothered get come across terrible candidate and theyre wrong become partially dependant cannabis im antidepressant shit broke arm uk democratically decided leave eu cant see future myself redflag mind past months im starting seriously consider it im aware many people worse positions stronger depression suicidal thoughts im verge redflag im thinking lot tldr got degree tried different jobs failed both ive got confidence cannabis dependence broken arm useless antidepressants which cause insomnia go them uk decided leave eu based bigotry fear blind patriotism want live anymore,1 havent done single assignment almost class since day one ya boi got permission redo em all theyre due tomorrow midnight around assignments one class hours assignment classes half hour assignments one class hours work got done today how dont know did possible believe you pass classes too pull back hellhole crawl way whatever hole youre in ill toss ladder need it dm need kinda help,0 think mental health condition worst cannot get worse somehow things get even messier next day even feel importance trying make feel better actually work end day alone depression deteriorating mental health persistent redflag losing interest everything talk close ones anymorei things used do right looking ways feel better know point cannot,1 got important question girls nsfw think im snapping pretty hot girl always shows pictures thighs cooter area wondering normal thing girls dumb sign something,0 always assumed thoughts normal noti think ending existence fairly often sometimes times dayweek times month gap so thought something everyone deals regularly thoughts,1 among us rated read title filler filler filler yo momma jk jk jk jk jkj j k k jk,0 anyone else already hating school year third day senior year ive cried day mutiple times haha idk im already stressed classes even many aps teachers already warned difficult know able keep up band one class used actually enjoy year absolutely loath it get frustrated practice theyre making us perform region music super difficult class everday shaking hard earlier playing m music got bumped top band year im able keep it put new instrument even still able play better this yet cant hate classes smh im also super stressed college cause idea hell im supposed this one talk except sister feel bad always dumping problems much help im extremely stressed right now hating life myself kinda want die lol want sit bed day school work were still online school another like weeks cant imagine much worse ill feel addition see interact people deal teachers facetoface sigh anyone else feeling way hope not idk im wondering overreacting people feel way too ig kind rant ive flaired such sorry one cares im really tired sad ill probably delete post soon anyways,0 oww the poor darling body of missing tracy girl sandra cantu found inside suitcase www tinyurl com dfhvzg tracy,0 i feel like my left side of the chest like move everytime like it keep vibrating is it normal,1 bro my life ha been so horrible it s unpleasant it piss me off and make me very sad since my life is just waking up having breakfast going to school studying coming home having lunch studying sleeping dinner is sleeping again it s this cycle that always repeat i have friend but they don t even care about me i don t even know why i consider them friend it s my family it s just me my mother and two brother and i don t have uncle i don t know why i m the middle child it s my mother i feel like she hate me because it wa because of me that i made my mother my father divorced since i found out about my father i i wa having an affair with a woman i don t even know and since then i never spoke to my father again my mother often even treat me badly verbally and physically attacking me and i can t hit her because she is my mother and my brother are the only one that i consider friend because they care about my existence but they are very reserved many time they even lock themselves in their room but these last few month i have a great idea of running away from home is to end up leaving the city to have a new life yes people i have money i can survive a whole month and i know it s hard to get a job but i m willing to leave this miserable life but for now it s just an idea that i still don t have the courage to do and i also don t want to leave my brother because i m afraid to leave them what should i do leaving everything is starting a new life or continue a is,1 guys feel going dates without knowing wish start relationship question pretty selfexplanatory im super sure whether like girl ive scared get relationship last one damaged years back therapist suggested ask go date without sure knowing want relationship wondering fellow teens feel idea im honestly sure people stand thanks advance ill answer questions asap,0 followers shitty pick lines wtf tell,0 Usemos nuestra foto como avatar. Aunque estemos feos / Let's use our mugshot as avatar. Even if we're ugly . (Please retweet),0 hi everyone i fly home from calgary to vancouver on sunday it s about an hour flight i suffer from gad and am constantly fearing the worst i have minor asthma i ve never had an asthma attack but i do have a rescue inhaler and i do take a maintenance inhaler everyday to prevent anything from happening i read somewhere that there s le oxygen in flight and am worried about what would happen if i had an asthma attack would i be ok would i be able to survive that hour flight please re assure me,1 "why does every real estate broker using social media have a pic of themselves in a business suit? it's twitter, guys. lose the tie ",0 morning people away to get some breakfast and then sort myself out and then must start on hwm no lazing about today xx,0 absolutelybatty hug back thanks hon i can t believe he s gone,0 puzzle lifeits almost funny one even notices knows true feelings deep emotional breakdown im going im unable really express truly feel inside say wanna live seen bad overrated overreacted meaningless damn im really sick thing called life think soon ill gather courage selfish levels need kill myself feel inside building up bulging odd feeling something wrong different previous times ive feeling similar stronger different stronger me soon enough people regret trying connect earlier probably sooner later theyll find letter too little piece ask omg see this could calm conscience needed need regrets tears blaming guilt certainly want die either cant keep going want pain stop literally make stop killing myself wish way could that rewind tape back lets say six years ago id say people die redflag foolish selfish ironically understand that think nothing luck decisions take embody actions lead us closer closer appear happen us next like puzzle puzzle life bring pieces together decisions actions inseparable theyre us were them follow rules puzzle life feel every single decision made life getting closer closer end im finding right now early days school closed isolated others followed aftermaths more following way feel think acting accordingly that slowly surely im led end edge hope bliss love real descending darkness inner self losing ability construct real point view constructing one real handle reality crushes way escape disappearing appearance disappearing suffering it pain inevitable choice moment great despair notion choice deadly one see me hear me touch me life empty thats me now,1 got whipped cord right didnt hurt tbh,0 man i can barely remember when i wa doing that game style weight loss thing like depression really just wiped your memory and clear out all your plan huh like none of that shit mattered one day and no going back,1 finally got spend entire night cuddling girlfriend im happy im shes happened yesterday girlfriend planning spend night together meant friends birthday party yesterday course boris new rule party got cancelled already planned gonna afterwards decided stick staying night hers yesterday arrives im anxious fuck ive got usual upset stomach pretty awful thoughts go alongside one doesnt want stay night following advice counsellor challenge thoughts end biting bullet sending message asking want stay night course silly donkey fast forward couple hours ive packed bag everything ill need pretty much ready go over ready hours meant headed over get usual hug soon opens door hug different wed extremely stressful week ill falling behind school work never less powered weekend go room lie bed arm wrapped waist head chest arrived werent really sure kill time cuddled next hours deep chats always appreciate find hard speak really am brush peoples questions instead really facing reality one point ended chatting best friend recently came bi im super mega proud know hes got really supportive friendship group surrounding hes got bi girlfriend whos accepted im bi knows wont change thing feel her loads friends super caring supportive ended crying little ive able properly open anyone quite felt really shit guilty school eventually rolls around get hungry plan order pizza eat made slight alteration little brother came us pizza went local marina got back little dinner date which thankfully didnt end us sat outside house pizzas somebody forgot key thanks little bro went room cuddled more teased little bit couldnt much period started watching baby driver fantastic film mind you eventually gets tired decides wants sleep thats do tuck ourself in cuddle wrap arm around waist waiting moment half years finally happening finally cuddling night entire night main reason actually wrapped arm around waist provide comfort also know struggles sleeping sometimes wanted wake up wake several times throughout night time jerk awake slumber give kisses neck hold close falls asleep pretty quickly around am wakes up sits really hot bothered goes gets damp flannel starts trying cool down eventually curls bed sat foot bed facing door right reaches grabs hand squeezes squeeze back whisper love you dont know heard me didnt respond like think did couple minutes shes tossing turning eventually ends settling head thigh curled really tight ball gently stroking leg falls asleep next hour comes around am point knackered stopped awake hours event even whilst slept awake curl next wrap arm around her gets bit weird probably am shuffled away me thought mustve hot didnt follow left be suddenly shot back across bed pinning agains wall body weight seconds relaxed shuffled again super odd also threw teddy head rolling am didnt mind much already awake wake am little cuddle chat get go toilet come back shes laying was get back bed her cuddle reaches across turn fan falls asleep laying top me fall asleep long wake around ish wasnt laying anymore instead rolled looking me turned head try find her spotted left went another cuddle muttered really wish couldve kissed lips pull awake looks eyes kiss lips first time well months amazing film scenes youve seen like that amazing pure loved much night finished even though didnt sex like hoped didnt care end interested spending time her know want fun started become sexually active rona hit long read youve made way want say thank you love all take care milf,0 aaaaand the nausea is back,0 "@SaSpotters @RayKK I've read about this. The worst I've had was depression on holiday when I couldn't work out properly for two weeks in a row. It wasn't as hectic as your situation, though. For me, rest was as important as the working out to achive my goals.",1 get covid bad weve fucked world economy percent worlds population died it people arent dying massive numbers like people keep screaming about,0 know im going anyone help mei timedout uni student trying finish last days feeling negative anyone talk to even know id say even someone talk to feel like life cornered way out want drop mostly financial conditions maybe work music know viable career option know lifestyle really pay started working freelance even get many jobs currently im broke point food since yesterday surviving wish someone would kill one cant even pay that surprisingly however ive grown hide much people near clue im going inside last days getting feeling might fact last days know set achieve post figured maybe id it since nothing lose point,1 First tweet lets see how tweeter works out.,0 "@CBCebulski you just made my day, YES! ",0 left school pursue career enjoy love partner want alivei left school take internship software company really enjoyed ended staying months later got job company overworked paid peanuts put it age flat living myself anyone elses standards well myself felt nothing owe parents copious amount money spending problems poor diet weight becoming problem real friends point feeling pretty down attributed mostly bad job had thought could fix getting another job did ive new job months now feeling worse enjoy career love partner particularly feel like alive either keep invasive thoughts waiting train public ill stand right safety line train approaches think jump it nobody cares anyway physically turn away track train stop myself similar thing crossing roads late ill see car approaching ill slow think go on hit me please feel like im following routine dayin dayout waiting finally die im scared know get this need talk things someone,1 heres hoping someone relate well tonight night plan go birthday wednesday im waiting long im laying bed im writing feel fine almost peaceful wish better way way explain im feeling know right wrong know im ill dont see feel ending life wrong choice bad see feel opposite taking whats left away benifit people life may sound like heartless person bother family may upset all dont hate infact dont hate anyone parts really wish could hate others id probably better person did im trying play superhero either ive enough all cry alot feel things alot hurt everyday dont see point good reason get better ive accepted me im going talk im like know better anyone im ill fair dont think matter reasons wanting end life good enough reason familys point view fine understand that put words try explain someone understand pain real need death one things dont like alone time become self centred worry even others may think say you im going head town ive posted im already worrying strangers think look somehow convienve everyone hate me probably didnt even notice me lol silly isnt it im heavily religious woman always taught treat someone would want treated got absolutely nowhere im saying go treat others poorly encouraging bad behaviour take care number one one else will im terrible looking thats something im good at im good looking im even better depression dont know ive gone topic sure say started typing guess selfishly wanted acknowledge existance leave anyone wants talk anything id happy company today send message take care everglow,1 "Just one puff of cannabis 'could ease depression, stress and anxiety' - The Sun https://goo.gl/fb/WhxNCL ",1 fly like paper get high like planes u catch border got visas name,0 hello friendsi struggled depression years lexapro years ithelped sort of still felt worthless tired sad irritable suicidal etc maybe took edge off however sexual side effects hard finish hard stay upfast forward year got better doctor decided add wellbutrin month like switch flipped still problems seem insurmountable especially felt past nice changenow question start weening lexapro sure ton side effects werenot ideal sure two meds working together wanted get thoughts backslidethanks medication opinions lexapro wellbutrin,1 hey one days miss you wish right now wanted share emotions understand me sadly situation allow it probably think betrayed you bothering first place feed energy okay know do need words peace manage read this tho doubt never will want peace soulmate,1 wish friend wish loved meim beginning struggle life reality ive struggling long time im years old always afraid grow up child hood wasnt great either fact something would never wish upon anyone parents married years divorced six years old torn two eventually stopped seeing mum years physically emotionally didnt know felt cant remember good times childhood going school wasnt great either never focused failed every exam thrown cant seem focus anything all interests value life dont see enjoyment wake up hoped die sleep every night never happened years old life took huge turn met love life mean knew something right valued life met her enjoyed conversations meeting her spending time her everything together everything mean everything moved together point planned ahead time future seemed pained clear day least thought move din everything great wanted get careers sorted ensure enough money enjoy life threw us october lost job wasnt able provide anymore became severely depressed didnt seek help while finally seemed help put sertaline nothing me didnt say anything stopped taking tried deal problems myself id stay night contemplate life point redflag impact would everyones life march th girlfriend out home myself went bath room wrapped shower cord around neck put something feet ensure would slip possibility going back girlfriend comes home shower knocked out shower cord must broke left went back out broke admitted messaging people behind back meeting them spending nights them ive tried redflag since continue till something works longer happy im product thats past sell date nobody wants me know this friends seem like strangers try talk make jokes try lighten mood cant handle it dont know do maybe last thing ever write is always love woman broke end fed insecuritys led months made feel special wanted made chance didnt always love her,1 uselesshonestly point anymore im tired weak unproductive feel legitimate pain entire wake up cant even put words everyday alone head thats flooded toxic thoughts starve everyday try make happy cant even look mirror anymore want cut skin disgusted myself ive grown hate much becoming unbearable everyday tell going get better never does im constantly dissociating feel like ive lost entire grasp reality january significant committed redflag painful thing go through hate sleeping every night always dream it always felt like sleep best escape anymore im haunted memories every day want happy again want love again point dont think possible,1 want here going change mind fucking hard reflect note gotten worse see evidence life better going bei want anymore want over,1 hate free speech hate it like someone walk like ass total vine energy take that theyre protected law,0 justify livingi cant seem justify continue living th attempt university yet again going shitter wasted tens thousands dollars parents money cant it eating disorders ruled life years long mentalphysical health shambles live state almost friends family person think staying so also state thing kept alive past year becoming chore even stay alive him family hometown friends fine dealt redflags past cant validate living almost everyday feels like torture theres light tunnel tend good days average per week meanwhile rest existence obligation comfort others help please edit good days fighting unidentifiable depression sadness real depression like pulled dark abyss without knowing chosen sink nothing reason,1 @therealTiffany lol make sure ur drawer spits ur shorts back out cause u'll need em wen u come 2 Hawaii LOL so hot & humid blah!! rock on,0 want hug hug,0 im slowly killing living sedentary lifestyle possiblehopefully heart attack claim soon enough,1 @AngelaWilson I have to convince myself to cook them. The Italian food is research for a story ,0 "Themes revolved around tragedy, death, anxiety, depression, suicide, tough relationships, and other issues that are so very relevant, so very current.",1 im tired waking upim tired waking faking ok,1 cried first time todayi suicidal thoughts while realized easily could could make easier mom like calling cops gets work doesnt see like that realized quickly could go broke front mirror wasnt much sadness realization overwhelmed me even notes ready send loved ones barriers put place stop thinking thoughts disappearing quickly dont even feel much pain anymore empty,1 anyone conversation im really bored rn hmu ig,0 Writting a song is like making a baby haha lalala,0 cant afford real therapy free therapy infrequent unhelpful helpwhat do feel trapped terms options free alternatives right inconsistent cancel reschedule im way fucked see someone month,1 hi everyone i find myself in a sad situation and i can t really seem to be able to find a way out or support so i thought i could write about it here i m 0 and moved to study abroad month ago i love college and i love what i do i am fairly aware i am privileged in more way than one and that i should be happy about it but it s not enough when i left i tried my best to leave everything behind a much a i could because i know i will never live in my home country again and that s sort of the goal anyways a someone who ha generalized anxiety overall i am also aware that this wa a very big step in itself i have been struggling with depression and anxiety that also take toll on my physical health from time to time since i moved but everything got worse a few week ago i had a week long break from university and i forced myself not to go home so i can be more accustomed to living here the problem wa that i barely went out for week being too anxious to do so and also my neighbour and friend wa also visiting her home country i felt very alone and isolated now i started college again and i realise every day how stupid that wa and i m stuck on wanting to turn back time which i know is impossible i cry every day i wish to go home and i have major problem performing at university i honestly don t know what to do i feel hopeless and alone if anyone ha any advice i would really appreciate it thank you,1 lost everything on laptop won t be able to cg anything properly untl about,0 visited sleeper agent tired got couch him,0 plot never strong point fred astaire ginger rogers movie follow fleets screenplay exceptionally mediocre fred ginger still come rightthey play bake baker sherry martin dancers whose personal professional partnership ended bake joined navy meet again lovehate relationship generates entertaining comic moments much movie take backseat tedious subplot sherrys sister connie harriet hilliard love sailor bilge smith randolph scott bilges dalliance another woman old schooner connie inherited father though hilliard rather charming plot uninterestingbr br but time follow fleet blessed exceptional irving berlin score gives stars plenty chances show talents astaire gets two good solos we saw sea id rather lead band sings expressively and course dances electrifyinglyand sailor suit makes look little boyish athletic usual rogers sings catchy let go later solo tapdance tune br br the three duets really save film even though theyre shoehorned plot silly excuses fred ginger win dance contest energetic routine another reprise let go later sing dance im putting eggs one basket early rehearsal number flubbing choreography comic effect end movie finally figures get fred ginger evening clothes romantic duetit makes part showwithintheshow situation contrived song lets face music dance one sinuously beautiful things berlin ever wrote its reminiscent cole porter dancing matches elegance quintessential astaire rogersbr br it would chore sit dialogue sections follow fleet again and fact necessary plot rarely propels musical numbers could watch songs over,0 so i ve been working steadily since i wa i m now i ve been dealing with anxiety panic disorder the entire time i used to have it mostly under control enough that it didn t usually affect my work social life etc but it ha gotten really bad i ve been calling in sick a lot i worked a five hour shift yesterday and i wa having a panic attack by the time my gf picked me up i just don t think i m physically or mentally capable of working right now but i have rent to pay and i can t afford to be unemployed so i m wondering if anybody here ha gotten disability assistance for their anxiety panic attack and how i might go about doing that,1 keep living small portion life happinessyeah know cliche overthought understand keep going sure theres things life fun majority life working exhausting myself stressed or least im told want live fun life forever die everytime mention idea get shot saying cant live like cant fun life time keep going cant enjoy life every day stressed exhausted every day live sprinkle happiness pool full stress sorrow im stuck school every day wake get back home exhausted procrastinate hours left day away go sleep cycle starts again im also expected work weekends wheres life going im told need future get good job struggle financially ill stuck another routine potentially working overtime exhausted shit get told thats life deal it maybe want deal want die cons outweigh pros,1 cant get ph cuz vote im illegal here wtf ph went told ph let unless vote kick polling place,0 theekween depression and anxiety thelmasherbs,1 top text utter fool thought going say bottom text played good sir lady now watch thishttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdqwwwgxcq,0 life truly shittyi single friend neither online physical thus make human interaction except ordering food saying thanks loland even though im stupid failed classes procrastination anxiety life get even worse ill go back shitty country ill live like prisoner even without friends academic success feel happy bald eagle country freedom things see do til age thought normal smart kid bright future realize socially inept boring slow sad person exceptional way keeps letting parents seriously wasted parents effort sending college america family already extremely poor wasted much hard earned money honestly want disappear erase everyone elses memory me end one societys robots in fact defective robot whos failing function existence impact world like ill never like newton mozart elon musk left legacy history actually positively influenced human kind guess life punishment whatever previous life wanna live joy eating internet anything productive improves person even gained back kg lost see writing ability like mentally challenged persons autistic anything related disabled ,1 fuck following why like im legit curious mist know im lasagna tonight fucking delicious doing feeling way,0 discord server howdy anyones interested joining discord server please dm me pretty chill mostly place bored people hang out open suggestions mods pretty nice ask role bot something thanks great day,0 anybody want talk im m horny guys begone im girl lol id rather tbh idc enough dm filler filler filler filler,0 @PawanKalyan @PenMen06 Dark depression anthey spider Anna... Agynaathavaasi core depression and daridram,1 dajbelshaw sound like my every day except gym,0 give reason hopefulhonestly hopeful ill ever feel better person get feeling way me im fargone get own yet one life able help me even though already reached help hopeful thing change me unable fuck hopeful everytime hear someone say just hold onto hope something feel sick feel insulted would ask someone doesnt drop hope left hope hope isnt possible depression ripped everything meaningful existance replaced misery seriously someone come tell hope want someone tell me please id love get secret,1 really like someone suicidal thoughts meaningless relationshipim year old guy last year ive gradually come really like girl ive working seeing everyday gotten know well always got impression unhappy popular girl lot extroverted friends goes lot them however seems introverted gives impression cold which think is decided tell felt long time want make working awkward also ended getting back ex bf half way work placement together end placement decided would tell felt hope honest could find happy not ends telling suicidal thoughts certain days really considered commiting redflag also said believed true happiness exist said boyfriend thats way things were thats placed subsequently tried getting talk it told whilst night out wanted talk face face day ended seeing every week next month two nights out conversation would take place eventually told text wanted see following afternoon id wait outside clock tower nearby live would understand turn up ended waiting rain hour turn up saw weeks later night out said needed time think month since then think going get back me problem is told people this said one them friend treated like weirdo suicidal thoughts her bf really anything it hoping would get better im assuming so continue pursue this seeing one else knows trying talk herhelp her let go try move on considering reluctant talk also feelings her tldr girl like suicidal thoughts told two people helped them reluctant talk it stay try help leave it,1 knowim exhausted every sense word im burden everyone life friends talk im feeling except boyfriend bless heart trying much even feel like im bothering people shit want end everything know would hurt boyfriend grandparents brother mom feel guilty punish one way another whether conscious not feel guilty everything feel guilty existing feel guilty wanting exist im stuck,1 hi i m m i m pretty sure i have depression im sad literally all the time and i just wanted to explain a lot to get some feedback sorry if it s too much so im around 0 0lbs and ft so im fat no girl ever liked or like me i don t like myself i don t look good in clothes nothing i have a loving family but i feel so alone i constantly think about what it would be like to be a normal weight and have people actually like me i stay awake until am and wake up too tired to stay awake in school or on weekend i wake up at like or i ve been going to the gym day a week with my friend lost lb hopefully this help me shed the weight but even though i count calorie i constantly eat unhealthy or fast food i feel like i m a failure to my friend and family i had this girl who i talked to for many year her and i were very close and she finally pushed me away i constantly wonder if maybe i would still be close with her if i wa a normal weight i have no motivation and i can t cry anymore i try but it just doesn t come out i have nobody to tell all this a when i try they say it s too depressing and they don t want to talk about it anymore even though all this is going on i don t have any intention or even the slightest thought of suicide or self harm i just want to be normal and loved,1 @ddlovato where are you doing your vacation? ,0 darkened jade yep work started badly and ha gone rapidly downhill story of my life to be honest,0 "out here in boston, chillin.. bout to hit up renthum (sp?) today and check out that gucci, coach, and whatever else stores they got ",0 I found out today that I get to fly to HK again.....weee me so happy,0 @secretsocietydi hope urs is great too.... dont spend all that cash ,0 strong people care im depressed think cant problems cant handle,1 want stay room forever playing video games watching anime living for life hell outside that left die love friends parents worrying money homeless time what suffer life hurts much,1 get hot pink full arm cast m ive boring white onehttpsiimgurcomkczfcqijpg last months get replaced months im honestly shy introverted maybe get hot pink pretend cool confident,0 so i got my mirena removed last month on the th because of it having a bad effect on my mental health i had it in for a little over year i knew getting it out id probably experience the mirena crash i wa fine up until today when i got my first period i ve had very intense anxiety depression all day today to the point where i can t even leave my house i m guessing it s the shift in hormone and everything considering it s been 0 year since i ve been birth control free did anyone else experience this super low mood after removal i ve also just been feeling very out of body today and very exhausted,1 im bored ask whatever httpsimgurcomaghpjev dms open want im m,0 Beginning to realize I only experience depression or mania. I don't know what true joy is.,1 tech progress thing makes want liveconsidering drastically different lives compared two decades ago im really curious see whats going happen next ai autonomous vehicles g research blockchain cant help wonder world going look like years now yes friendless lonely depressed mentally ill piece trash im ready suffer always chance die unless suffering excruciating unbearable physical pain need rush things,1 realized im stuck im worried im going ruin christmasim separate account girlfriend send posts reddit dont want see worry names ben im sophomore college want teacher havent started major classes fourth switch really think im good kids im scared wont cut man bun im really skinny im sure would hire me im gay im outspoken unique style stuff think people regard intelligent quiet weirdo anyways im also bipolar im family tree id hard time explaining siblings feel stuck cane college whim ive never good anything video games art two programs dont offer college either way im trapped underneath lease utility billl month cant afford it pay november december dont money im scared dont money unable work salvation army work ive reached limit work study hours semesteri cant find another job dont car dont want ask grandparents help wanted self sufficient year half ive recently acclimated credit card debt buying girlfriend siblings gifts came home fall break paid off dollars contacts food reckless spending ive managed accumulate another thats dollars accident still owe bills coming month house dont know do current plan sell stocks eat ramen cant afford buy christmas gifts anyone im worried everyone hate usually go elton great lengths pick great gifts cant cant make anyone happy making dissapointed spent money fuckup cant make class im stressed havent classes since found cant work cant wake alarm im mess please give advice hard want give,1 im part two cults one hail giant lobster another ants shows bored people become ,0 listening to nathan cry,0 hey gamerdude hi,0 so i m a pretty shut in introverted person he they and moved to a new place just before the pandemic so a a result have no local irl friend so mid pandemic i got on twitter and met load of people who came and went however i met people she her x and she they who i truly love hanging out with but here s the hard part for pretty much the entirety of last year we hung out maybe or time a week watching movie on discord or playing game always talking and indirecting each other interacting constantly cheesy ily ily more message all that sort of thing then just after christmas it all just kinda stopped but only for me i found out the of them made a new gc without me they talk about each other on the tl constantly but never mention me and we haven t hung out in over a month i ve messaged them a couple of time about this and had it explained that they still like me and still want to hang out but they re just busy but my brain is reading into everything so hard they re still constantly interacting with each other and i never get any response i can t stop thinking about every little thing one time one wanted to play game in bed by herself and then 0 minute later i saw them all playing on discord without me assuming i d gone to bed i just don t know whether i m reading too hard into this or if i genuinely need to say something every time i see so much a a comment or message somewhere else my head get so loud and i just feel like cry constantly i ve never really been able to keep friend for more than a couple of year and the only one i trusted enough to talk to about stuff are the i m not sure i can talk to any more so a a result here i am reddit what can i do,1 @DPrince2124 i Like Tons and tons of things ,0 dad becoming evangelion fan rewatching it liked saw hes watching beginning me doesnt usually like anime sister watch kinda poggers,0 know attractive directly told signs attractive specially signs easy miss,0 might im still drinking fanta eating ms cant stop me,0 want go backoblivion released were kids old friend met weeks year summer would play nonstop day wed take breaks eat lunch dinner together immersed fantastical world could free whatever wanted thing next year year that roughly decade since grew lost contact ive yet feel sense freedom happiness ive longer got friends im alone amount games ive played alone grant wondrous feeling shared friend want die,1 when u can detect the wave of depression coming as u notice ur on the last few episodes of ur netflix show,1 whats point living ugly skinny short manlike really point im years old top terrible social skills zero confidence for obvious reasons barely friends never job never girlfriend virgin feel incompetent literally look like year old im certain undiagnosed adhd depression anxiety obvious reasons also eczema asthma atopic dermatitis my scalp eyebrows itch hyperhidrosis thyroid issues plethora food environmental allergies struggle hygiene phimosis a tight foreskin tight frenulum foreskin barely retract try best clean thoroughly smell quite unpleasant times hair gets greasy fucking quickly feet start smell quickly im exactly ugly take care myself would viewed ugly society features compliment other skin part clear high cheekbones chiseled jawline haircut looks good however head small big eyes big nose hump big lips also look horrible smile teeth showing avoid that seems like problems stem ugly short could worse though make suffering better sure things improve life life still fucking suck know need improve life many things want do seems pointless hate course im college im pretty much forced work familys store live them literally dictate life across country even see friends anymore feel weak like alien seriously dealt shitty hand get better see people complain short theyre like fucking short try barely foot literally lose fight year old born attractive eyes society count fucking lucky life seems like endless suffering born attractive talented born rich family genetic lottery also grovel work shitty rest life die drift fantasy world tend dream ideal version appearance wouldve loved have living life likely never able live reality hits im back again ugly short man nobody gives fuck you people say what see instagram facade yeah right people see instagram who even models women men attractive enjoying lives partying travelling constantly updating stories stop trying make feel better even want work normal job as adhd something interest torture life already feels like torture dreams singer even social media star im goodlooking talented enough that hear people age talking partying travelling sorts stuff absolutely nothing understand people care please stop telling us follow suicidal ideations struggles simple getting help especially literally one turn to were still pandemic im actually planning killing myself really would mean hurting family small circle friends have keep telling get better followthrough plans anyone adhd depression know fucking sucks meaningless existence is probably missed stuff life fucking sucks see getting better im lying feel better point,1 amazing movie clever using actors sets also shocking physical psychological torture both explicit implied mixed calm even humourous stretches horror always unexpected brutal im soft would shocking film ever seen message film definitely delivered sledgehammer film always remember actors for,0 nobody ever speaks to me now,0 just got back from picking up my parent goodbye house to myself,0 need motivation title says lack motivation mean ambition wanna become writer humanitarian anyone cares encourages it obviously people internet supportive times want someone personally knows cheer tell im good im feel like ive wasted lot time lack motivation also feel discouraged love writing thing written story even short story whenever try writing end fucking able frame words develop proper plot discouraged feel like maybe even writing me cant sigh need motivation guidance get ass work,0 anyone else say fuck stay late like youre homework something finally finish realize arent going get sleep tonight whats minutes gonna do,0 Can somebody please get these done soon? is tomorrow ok? "New aircraft seat design ideas shown" http://ping.fm/Hnuv5 (via @Plane_Talking),0 "ayo three 6 mafia, Keri Hilson, and GUCCI on a track?!?! I'm all ears for that one yall hurr up ",0 guys put weight lets fkinmg go dikdakdlksskdkaks httpsimgurcomazhpcnwg ive trying hard years im finally normal weight,0 im soooo fucking happy fuck yes got english language im going fucking annihalite every single one english books finish never want see again months go orally rape ass fuck english hope die im fucking happy got didnt would fucking died parents,0 @ladybug8320 We will - have a great day too! ,0 results survey go together response no q joe mama good one q funny please joe mama good one response yes q hes cute like well thank aware q more minecraft know talking ive never posted anything minecraft related response no q because stole wife remember whose wife qdont steal wife u moron know talking,0 ever since uk large country lockdown thing last year social life gotten worse sometimes cannot even speak know sayrecently getting persistent suicidal thoughts wanting self harm thankfully addiction internet basically saved life found phobias are phobia death pain really saves anything hurt myself though times get serious thoughts try consider good things life turn helpanother problem parents completely different views mental health think looked upon mentally unstable talked more mum nurse thinks knows everything certainly not lastly the worst all dad tells cry annoying redflag stupid thing phase depressed teenager speaking says scared would shout time little sometimes justified time not tells scared understand children supposed scared dadssorry long but next unfortunately subject suicide attempted commit suicide couple months ago bath listening call lucid dreaming sort music family downstairs watching tv nobody checked while since mum always worrying knows struggle self harm thoughts wondering shouting asking okay kind made feel unwanted family laughing downstairs whilst suicidal kid bath could possibly decide like end all suddenly looking back times felt empty realised much feeling numb feeling decided sink beneath water reality set ended surfacing thinking over think people would class attempt think isi know long know sorry lot say cannot say loud going get grief bad things life,1 hector hammond green lantern movieexcept dont phd tenure play chess i even play grand strategy wargame x games dumb end villainous life fear,1 must thank you rteenagers epic poggers part daily vocabulary,0 failed attemptetried drowning ocean got nevk high went idk ohappened im alove,1 ok heres storyill try keep brief here jist really feel need live anymore days since split girlfriend years totally fault happened feel like biggest shit ever walk planet right now im maybe october time friend mines girlfriend called al st birthday party went girlfriend busy concert night think drunk ended sleeping girls year old mother didnt stop there continued months im young stupid boundries safe say fun fast forward weeks ago friend splits al girl mayb one hottest girls ive ever seen attitude devil himself shes selfish self centered absoutlly centre attention fucking time scumbag decide start messaging alot arrange meet completely unaware banging mother last months mother finds tells al banging al finds pictures mothers phone fully naked tags girlfriend facebook girlfriend found feel like reason living anymore feel absoutly terrible girlfriend brain keeps telling end all ill check back work hours,1 @techchat hola. ,0 kill soonfirst i say yo sad tired age cant even speak english properly cus first langague piece shit nonsesne latino unknown langaguejesus cant live us yo need surgery left legeye might problem spine aaaaaand face full pimplesi social anxiety cant even make fucking friendmy motivation live youtubegaming shit pci need money inexistent healtha days ago classmate found one hoby told classmates guess whaaati quitmy one happy poor motivationthank society isolate go outside schoolnow what think kill myself,1 @hitesha jive on a monday nite..howz that for an idea ,0 last post got removed low effort tittle people use metric system always saying imperial system makes sense measure weight rocks fing rocks,0 yall ever see old lady walking think damn wanna sucker punch lmao,0 late expect spelling mistakes this story references written spoilers guess trench whistle called night sergeant shouted men lined walls would soon go top would soon go running field barbed wires dead bodie infront machineguns jim filled andrenaline waiting for finally get fight rot dirty trench weeks months lets go get germans jim shouted men stood ready charge responded shouting hussah loudest could bravery mostly false save like jim afraid be knew likely shot even get trench few almost relieved years bleeding starving freezing place called the western front place never changed likely finally free place suffering place like frozen time even though different thoughts went different peoples mind would matter wanted happen reached german trench got slaughtered way thing one could know soon enough call came whistles rang out men shouted like feared hope fell first seconds others rushed straight towards enemy trench among ran jim know running wanted save world wanted hero simply everyone else did answer question now time think now another whistling sound spread across muddy broken fields sound knew well sound artillery look everyones face same look horror even though got used hit relative safety trench field machineguns rifles artillery aiming directly different tried running even fell feeling pride left jim what fuck here thought i need get away now amount men behind made impossible run back could continue thing frightened jim guns firing prepared this always thought would brave go top now nobody was nobody would ever be everyone tried hide it nobody wanted seen weak mentality showing weakness got forward bullet struck jim matter brave trenches love life bravery accept fact shot tried get back up couldnt please help me cried please love god leave here nobody heard him continued cry help words never left tongue continued try fight death couldnt is everyone feels die thought jim given trying get help answer no everyone dealt last time differently people like mikhail died accepting point trying fight it others like sam died without ever getting chance think it died like jim trying fight it end everyone dies dies home beds others muddy field france everyone matter believe in matter done through finds eternal sleep eternal peace,0 sister listing bunch female problems get that im female said quote unquote there recorded redflags males thats dont bother get help dont want reveal cut manliness proceeded say people dont reach girls thats commit redflag dude im mad acted like male problems dont exist confronted told shut up,0 i have my mom and grandma but it still feel lonely and i can t talk about my problem with them and my anxiety is kicking me in sometimes i feel like i m overreacting to it i just want to cry and tell people how lonely i m but still i don t want to share my feeling i want to stay strong a much a possible i don t know what i m doing and today is my birthday and no one wish me i m lonely i need someone to know what i feel it s just too lonely,1 Depression is being colorblind and constantly being told how colorful the world is.,1 i want to be dead ive been suicidal for year im such a fucking retard filled with regret and anger im done with life i want all of this to stop why i cant do one thing right,1 kill myselfhe tells im absolutely worthless nothing good happen me kill now i im fairly destructive society really think ill ever get bad family situation think go edit judging upvotes comments should,1 Getting a visit from @Ingebugurgh We're gonna watch a movie! What r u doing?,0 it s so stupid but my body ache i have never felt so sad before im so emotionally and physically drained i don t care about myself anymore i hate myself and the stupid relationship i wa in it ruined me all i want to do is take a bunch of pill and curl up into a ball i have no friend who i can talk to either im so lonely i don t talk to anyone and i feel so isolated and crazy who knew i would end up like this i feel ashamed i still have the suicide letter i wrote a year ago there s nothing i want to change about it,1 mileycyrus http twitpic com xszg napping at this point you may need a few of those gma is gon na come early,0 says Stop waiting for something to happen. Take action and make anything happen. http://plurk.com/p/xankw,0 @HousecatHST Quite a picture you are forming you suave white boy ,0 havent update this in a while bin stuck with my gf during the week non im bk in class learnin,0 went in for problem i won t disclose had blood drawn and they had it sent in my symptom just keep getting worse and it s making me fear getting the dreaded cancer call back i m making it worse for myself by googling symptom after symptom illness after illness treatment after treatment and it s filling me with more dread i can t stop shaking i can t sleep i don t know what to do this is the worst attack i ve had in a long time and all i want is to go back day to before my symptom appeared so i can feel normal again and not have to fear the worst i don t know what else to say i m just so scared of what might be and i m just psyching myself out and making it worse i wouldn t be surprised if my symptom are getting worse because of the anxiety i want my doctor to see me on the weekend and i want to be comforted i don t want to die i don t want to go through treatment i m afraid of medication i m just so fucking scared right now and i just want it all to calm down i m afraid to call people i m afraid to wake up family but i don t know where to go or what to do,1 If anyone is gonna try to get ahold of me I'll be taking a bunch of depression naps today,1 @albynomonk Hi! How are you Soren? ,0 society sees terrorist maybe go kill myselfim gonna labeled terrorist supporting certain people maybe ill go kill myself fighting help people thier psychological health alienate even more instead helping people like mass shooters shit like were gonna alienate even make problem worse make people suicidal nothing ever gonna change maybe go die guess nobody wants help someone homicidal thoughts theres help people suicidal homicidal thoughts then,1 marnieblaze haha nope i guess nothing is original these day,0 sorry longi cannot anymore ever since pandemic started cannot anything international student whose countrys borders closed stuck apartment roommates moved out sent kind crazy places always lockdown barely social interaction since stuck country pay rent know cook little money used quickly also starving many times got addicted weed edibles multiple times week home myself help cope used twice month smoker best social gatherings could never schoolwork mental state in even borders reopening getting vaccinated fly little late withdrawn program due government scholarship contract cost parents barely money name pay offi seriously want stop existing know people say your friends family would sad personally see purpose continuing life feels want suffer anymore hate covid,1 short want watch burt reynolds best films one must included like burt may still like this love burt may become one favorite movies time atlanta hit home also nice see copactiondrama takes place somewhere ny city chicago miami la film funny points good plot good performances great supporting cast every character real bad guys one sided really well thought outa nice offbeat romance nd half good old fashion shootouts fistfights no cgi thank god real actionbr br if clint eastwood best impression burt reynolds movie every way loose any way can burt responded best clint type flick this comes great,0 went bed yesterday praying wake upwell happen worst part is many people useful members society talented gifted pass away like meanwhile me done anything productive wastes oxygen stay im big pussy actually something world so fucking unfair many people deserve ive got im wasting away guilt feel immeasurable,1 dog keeps staring like bro ur allowed couch stop staring whimpering pls,0 aita purposely arguing people dont mean dick find super funny arguing people internet even get downvoted guy like hope everyones haves great day ill respond yo fuck fun it aita,0 call man carrot head stew,0 movie shows free enterprise system quest almighty buck transcends racial ethnic barriers ultimately market place determines message sent public movie dramatizes point conservative whitecollar advertising company taken group streetwise african americans chaired nononsense black man wants make buck believes sell products telling truth movie shows matter hard tries something different market place political system demands conform rendering different predecessors interesting offbeat movie,0 ever loved someone much leave hurts made many friends school lockdown came know many real turns love one best friend knows deepest secrets got selected different universities hurts wont able see face everyday hugged everyday,0 Wondering why Capcom found it necessary to comically increase Zangief's bulk throughout the Street Fighter games ,0 N my broke ass depression continues when I'm on the fence to call my parents just for lunch money. I dont want to bother them but where can i cope money except them so stressed out rn,1 "@claudiajordan Nice! Elise rolled out Thas wassup! Have fun, ladies!",0 film reinvents term spring breakumentary hans fat one group displays talents generations chris farley johnny kansas the king bet shows hes kansas anymore consistently upping stakes kyles laugh truly infecting offers little eyecandy ladies well as matt dwarfs moments justice mexican hat dance like deserves last protagonist ed gives hope us bumbling stumbling gangly pale folk still searching special someone hope little place called cabo san lucas blockbuster missed theaters must rent relate one spring breakumentarions,0 whats wrong mei raped years ago female friend im also female recently caught me hate alot wish never see reason cannot cut contact her add her delete her add delete again recently ive wanting raped again dont want experience yet do happened obviously wouldnt either fetish kink thing dont know means im unable tell anyone right personal problems someone please tell feel way could be forced send nudes past early january year years ago rape happened would also suffocate seconds incredibly rough abusive me never relationship never kissed hugged really made seem like sexual relationship abusive one that feel connection her loving one one want part of please help me,1 time say good byeits perfect evening end all wanted say thank people gave motivation advice years without would made far peace,1 disappointed decided goto park close nanas little cousins watch thought hell get climb tree minutes later girl age little sister brother around age i think well walked made joke gonna walk away ended staying attempted talk me got shy didnt really say much back telling went school started pay attention later girl kept looking whenever looked phone thought talk kept getting scared eventually left never got attempt conversation her even though didnt know kinda started like her sitting bed am asleep nonstop thinking her,0 me ok need focus class brain starts dash dancing aggressively,0 feel life coming closemy life right feels like last pages book honestly im done trying hold off tried kill christmas eve didnt work thought itd least give hope didnt zero friends major social anxiety aspergers cant even fucking decide gender am face covered acne scars rest body covered razor bumps self harm scars felt literally nothing tried kill myself didnt even cry next time probably same hopefully fucking works maybe people might acknowledge existence probably not though,1 im completely incapable future reason existi years old april socially isolated four years school jobs home im pretty much miserable point live dad older sister boyfriend thats people meet exceptions mom sister occasionally besides that know one friends family extreme anxiety comes anything outside bubble like right go dentist broke tooth pretty much want overdose morphine calm nerves part aspergers gotten worse isolation and think plethora issues isolated long also terrible chronic pain entire body keeps getting worse worse doctor able figure is pretty much unbearable point pain medication types pain relief works basically imprisoned body think redflag lot never go pain anxiety nice thought,1 i want to hurt myself to feel the suffer and hate towards myself for the pain i want to cry so hard i choke and get one of the worst death i want to regret when it s to late so it could hunt me down when i m dying i despise myself and want the worste for me but since i m too pathetic i will not do it also i feel like the only way to see a psychiatric is to survive death i want a dig i want more med i want stronger one,1 suicidal people want liveotherwise would occasionally number killer,1 "@a_mccallie Was there a marching band, bus and a steam roller involved too? ",0 every saturday morning am watched superstars biggest events happened show time challenge aired sunday mornings decent too big stuff happened show wrestlers would interviews mean gene platform next live crowd talk screen front background promoted them matches usually squashes sometimes would see mid carders square main event also interview shows usually resulted violence thus setting feud segments ranged pipers pit body shop flower shop snake pit brother love show funeral parlor barber shop recall titles changing hands show usually happened pay per views saturday nights main event,0 @JammyRabbins hey i sent you some fan art it has to do the jammy rabbins hope you like it ,0 im literally unemployablemy life beyond repair point im never job zero references use degree actually makes chances finding work even lower try applying anything rd class degree london know whenever look job listings see applying criteria panic attack think looking work going push committing redflag even sooner im told mum keep carrying muscle really know say know itll kill keep going consider suicidal person thought wasting life like beyond depressing choice point,1 u gay still terrible fashion sense time closet,0 im taking easy way outi see way dont see point going anymore never anybody never be second plummet bridge cure depression,1 join whiteboard link saw someone else thought itd fun idea shitshow last time lmao good luck httpsrwhiteboardfoxcom,0 someone help pleasei confused state right now badly want end life ive gone past days attempt keep finding able it made account website cos know decent people good adivce thats probably better advice people trying give real life heres im feeling feel empty inside emotion towards anything badly want cry cant manage it simply enjoy around others anymore today went kill myself razor wrists medication case wanted go option yet still made angry force im scared thing though life bad others attempt redflag proper reason behind apart fact want live anymore want go rest life anymore thats pretty much it makes feel bad know people go much worse every day im razor wrist ready attempt redflag mind set want which end life think change ive thinking years finally decided definitely want end it im asking someone convince im asking someone talk die peacefully least amount pain involved possible know selfish bad sound right apologise deerly sound like selfish prick mind messed right want live someone could help would amazing sorry thanks,1 is my life over i m m i ve never really had many friend and have lonely and depressed for pretty much all my life my family situation ha always been kinda fked up too however my senior year of h i finally got a group that went to hoco with me and i ve talked to them and played video game with granted they weren t a close a friend could be but i still loved them man they also are friend with a big group of girl so recently tik tok comment from month ago and a verbal comment from month ago were brought up upon my investigation i couldn t find any proof of that verbal comment heck i don t even remember saying it so it ha to be false or blown up from something much more minute i do remember saying these girl made my only friend in the world drop me and have ruined my reputation i keep thinking suicidal thought wishing i had a gun to end it but then i remember my family and life i have i wa so excited to start college too but now they re trying to talking to school admin about this they have 0 proof so i don t think much will happen but i m so lonely now and want to kill myself it s all i can think about i wanted to go to prom with them to a senior summer trip with them but now it s all over man i wish i had a gun and could end it without hurting my family,1 caricatures andor references entertainment industry people things even brands products usually staple shorts like one used quantity here individual gags rather generic im going give examples spoilers below br br there three well technically fourtheres quick one end cartoon caricatures spotted kind low type short though one featured character fair amount activity jack benny as jack bunny leopold stowkowski inimitable ned sparks as crab canchances good that crab involved warner brothers short ss caricature used would ned sparks also references billy roses aquacade riff radio show character called henry aldrich coming mother play superman superguy here villain takeoff king kong thats kind gagbr br the products mostly generic gags plays basic items unusual situations turtles coming cans soup attack villain tanks tomato soup cans the cancan gingerbread men turn paratroopers using tissues parachutes on gags good excellent example bob clampett cartoon clampett hit stride director point anywhere near best work nothing sneeze either short found looney tunes golden collection vol excellent set highly recommend short also recommended,0 "@RealMissAnxiety Hi Beth, I totally see self-esteem as linked with anxiety and depression. Whether it causes it or is caused by it, I'm not sure but they're certainly interconnected. Have you tried Chloe Brotheridges calmer you podcast? The first one deals a lot with self-help and self-love.",1 im tired last night got fevermy arms feel sore eyes look dead knee numb nose blocked headacheit hurts much cough voice feels raspy,0 noone talk too redflag ive taken dbtcbt classes yes ive tried grounding techniques get frustrated bunch work cannot afford pyscologist,1 Video: A fresh perspective on passion and its pursuit. Forgive the bit of foul language Web 2.0 Expo NY:... http://tumblr.com/xrp1xieqo,0 sudam0 yes someone hasn t been reading my post properly,0 im like broken record shit latelyim depressed end snapping people care about lose friends droves nobody understands id rather cry almost anything bad long even know depression started probably kid something dunno im trying lose weight cant even obviously ive weight month changes day think dying albeit passively sometimes strong times like loud clear offing think lately,1 @news2gamers Get 100 followers a day using www.tweeterfollow.com Once you add everyone you are on the train or pay vip ,0 tips stepping comfort zone gtthis first non meme thing ive done comes rteenagers sorry awkwardlt ive always bit shy comes meeting new people real life internet anyone tips could confident,0 lets go asked crush ive talking months liked back talked till am made official lets go,0 Justttt woke up. Styl in bed though ,0 laughed minutes straight group call skype buds said baguette friend thought said faguette funny sounds like word spent minutes loudly laughing untill one friends left call,0 pm got home school ive school nearly h haha fun,0 bunch pill bottles here taken yet really want to hardim probably going energy fight later hope sleep that ive crying day want hurt anymore hurts much fucking exhausting,1 take a giant step out of your mind ,0 im literally close karma im idk karma whoring think cause mods delete,0 want her step brother home im so worried you dont even know i hope he know how much i care for him,0 @jesssicababesss just got your tweet about being dedicated fans. thank you ,0 someone told dad drown shame brother said man dad must ride around sshitlermobilefuhrerwagon satire also compared nazis several times man twitter hates dad also phones die might need reply tomorrow will remove violates personal info rulequestions,0 shoulda stayed wathis city almost fucking disgusting people,1 "Good summer tune, to bring you up http://bit.ly/19l6Ok",0 emmaketurah i m sorry emma is swarley a goldfish i m sad for u,0 aight give love girls like me wants femboy friend instead,0 overwhelmed hopelesschristmas kid gamble safety net income tax refund safety net tapped years due transmission repair summer im behind rent electric days loans months car needed brake work tires tune maybe refund cover it im still behind sure ill dig enough stay water next right next going drown me hate living constant uncertainty get happy place experience got failed marriage sure ill things finally give hopefully painless years long enough,1 want dress like cartoon pimp one would disrespect ever again especially one bitches,0 le plus dangereux au lyc e c est pa la d pression ou le suicide mais c est clairement se faire sucer dans le couloirs,1 spencer is not a good guy,0 ... and lastly vlogging in response to responses ,0 listen song httpsyoutubeeaeiafutyu,0 feel like life simulation made sick entity wants see long takes people kill themselvesi know im right sub im suicidal suicidal thoughts lately sometimes feel like sick entity experimenting me like trying see long take commit redflag sometimes moments hopehappy moments last long feel like entity giving false hope takes away make lose shit put edge anyone else feel way,1 helpfor past year ive writing dates thought committing redflag enough dates make month dates really thought killing myself thought getting car running wall full speed freeway lot more wonder people would affect reason cant help feel would make lives easier im confused ive begun hate dont want go back way days hope wake next morning dont want live pain regret feel cant talk anyone try see talk redflag end day feel alone im fighting myself dates become consistent yelling something cant wrap around feeling happy again dont know do someone please help me,1 think says lot pm conversations ive started ones anxiety freaking might upset someone years reddit cant think maybe exception majority convos started people,0 life joke think people would better without mehi everyone name max im sixteen first post reddit may last one ive depressed really long time think time get rid ending life friends lack social skills spend every day playing video games watching social media avoid emptiness people know think im stupid lazy weird im afraid idea speak people think relate every time try say something usually connect other see loss time especially got enough money cant hang regularly always wanted express self way dress dad never gave opportunity choose want feel comfortable clothe wear hate people get wrong idea really like dress that people often reject way look make fun me parents care much feel theyre busy theyve never asked feel would like do know much education even talk ive never girlfriend im shy strange people interesting hobbies could get attention girls ignore time all anything special also cant anything without ruining it math music english hella nightmare cant anything right without committing stupid errors used good school seems like get dumber year sleep well anxiety depression harassing every night watch youtube videos get exhausted finally fall asleep nobody takes seriously im joke classmates teachers think im funny speak strange accent every time teacher orders us make groups activity class often leave alone cant like everyone expects be im different are feels like born another culture im colombia believe say cant relate them act like kind american european people do mean take things seriously prefer bother anything let things happen also music listen to movies watch language prefer speak way different do would like move us family cant afford it special talent something else actually nothing could make feel meaningful every day feels same take drugs think phone thing makes forget life empty used someone ton reasons live child seems like every dream ever forgotten tried hang twice regretted jumping chair think im afraid idea something could go wrong process stuff bothers every day apart ive said thats personal share internet want stop suffering,1 day posting nonamusing fact get laid fact ended trimming nails half length yesterday filed wrong fml,0 ship ahoy probably made order showcase mgm talent film fun trip ocean liner way san juan puerto rico time country involved wwii typical fare studios gave movie going public light weight entertainment distraction difficult times country livingbr br the beautiful eleanor powell seen best musical numbers clearly shows us dancer reckoned with red skelton also seen straight part much clowning pursues beautiful ms powell ship bringing puerto rico irresistible bert lahr good opportunities film show funny man also virginia grey seen fun girl fooled anyonebr br there good musical numbers featuring tommy dorsey orchestra one sees among others amazing buddy rich solos mr dorsey ms powell young frank sinatra appears also lead singer band backed pied pipersbr br this nostalgic trip savored fans genre mgm totally controlled,0 oi mates discord server friends r trying get new peoplee chat send memes play games like minecraft among us overwatch stuff going on commitment guys girls welcome dm link d,0 severe hypochondriachealth anxiety suffereri panic rare diseases every day like rabies cjd worry rabies much considered redflag free obsessive thoughts live country domestic cases rabies yesterday morning woke walked get breakfast saw brother wound nose told looked like didnt notice didnt care started worrying bat bit nose sleeping we never saw bat lives found sticky gum like thing thats white really big stepped couple times feels like gum convinced saliva rabid animal flew in didnt worry all later told fears started panicking panicked too didnt really give shit wether rabies im going kill soon really didnt want get rabies later moved forgot fear rare rabies country extremely small posibility rabid animal could flew without causing damage really wish cameras house see happened wont kill know doesnt rabies,1 "@jasimmo Ooo showing of your French skills!! lol Things good over here. Lovely weather, so should be outside How's u?",0 i feel like i ve got no energy left to give or to keep up appearance like even responding to folk when they ask simple question feel like lifting a 00lb weight i m exhausted and can t handle the thought of any kind of interaction i m so lonely but so utterly worn out from being anxious to manage the effort can anyone relate,1 experiencing joyim eating im showering im applying unemployment im cleaning cat box im taking trash im performatively happy friends loved ones desire to things make people happy make appear like im functioning whats expected usually makes people happy everything slog get joy it fake cling escapism fantasies real world rough unforgiving desire something unrealistic wish could child abused wish could happy child forever nothing child makes experience satisfaction joy im willing put hard work adult easier escape im going stop eating maybe body ive dragging long either start making food desirable keep alive ill start starving either go hospital die maybe im selfish dont care anymore im tired existing things people im tired it cant escape better stop existing,1 @lyneL Glass of wine might help. ,0 it rain heeaaavily outside and i trap in this building cant go home,0 aita calling cops suicidal friend ensure safetybefore get jumpy let clarify post aita tolerate redflag posts friend female lives miles she across country huge emotionally uncomfortable state she lot better now time parents even care thought attention so way could help her typing app called discord one day starts typing weird saying bunch goodbyes reason theyre scaring time redflagprone now admit something this wanted know lived chat another one close friends gives details name address however know county eventually found it found exact house via google maps so called police said name address probably redflag attempt get there texting cops there moments later get call one officers says everything okay thanked call empathy knew scared said thank you continued messages her proceeds rip new one saying never cried much life tell scared messages wanted know intentions apparently took complete wrong way tells fuck off blocked discord fastforward months later write supersorry message to friend yo her saying sorry huge misunderstanding asked meant messages etc accepted apology still wont forget night said questions aita improve relationship her,1 super weird dream went cinema best friends love filmi even watch those middle film one friends starts kiss meat point cant move started strip cuddle naked almost sex nobody cinema paying attention feel bad confused idea fuck means side note gay,0 freaking feel like crisis know do way get support rn mom busy therapy friday therapist wants make switch therapists anyway feel like losing support system know get this feel like breaking point someone please help know,1 @julierockaholic STEPHEN KING FO SHO ,0 found ugly people exist keeping thoughts prayers cant imagine must going,0 @luvara :O no fair! *hug* happy birthday though ,0 @winter_doll lol.5 shells that are thrown in the fountain will give you one poupee item. ,0 Heyy girl hey well I'm drivin to work and I'm deff late! Oh no! ,0 waiting waiting waiting for a phone call that may mean i can actually sleep at night but then again,0 "So i would just like to end all my social media, due to the post depression that Infinity War gave me. Move out (joke onli)",1 The ever so patient Michael is back today Business as usual for those of you who need to call Customer Service today <3,0 My followers keep going down. Hopefully I can get down to 0 again and that way no one will hear me. lol I love life.,0 ddlovato david henrie ummmmm i cant find it,0 "Depression, mental illness, is NOT a stigma. Taking medication to fix it is NOT a stigma. Some people need it. Don't be afraid to try it, to try something. You deserve to be the real you, just like I do. I'm still trying to figure out who I am now. I'm excited to do it. (22/23)",1 tell mumim trouble trying tell mum much cant take anymore want die anything like living dealing problems like family issues friend school issues much cant take anymore want sleep never wake hope wake nicer worldi never guts tell tried attempt pills couldnt pull want come clean get help im scared might react negatively,1 us control lives anymore hours online classes hours homework thats school giving out exams student time things months since ive gaming session literally feel weight eyelids since past weeks know need break aside saturdays sundays holidays even festivals overlooked teachers constantly giving homework soon finish one new one assigned cant really anything trying stay battle one else cares mental health gone point im total wreck really control lives anymore grown ups controlling us constant pressure,0 im upset fathers co worker tested positive whole family quarantine two weeks even test negative school literally reopened last two band shows next two weeks im band hate online school almost failed half classes last quarter suck online learning able talk anyone half year worst thing cant anything even know im posting guys probably downvote mad quarantining,0 hey heyi got rope ill try friday,1 want jump goddamn roofthe fall probably enough kill care want hurt myself im broke disabled direction life everything fucking sucks genuinely feels like end line want jump hurt beyond repair give fuck,1 tik tok bad annoying person bus thought never gonna give tik tok lost faith humanity,0 pain testicles now months last doc visit examined thats it nothing else testicle torsion etc etc scared going visit new one today night afraid ill loose young age,0 people weird like friend like oh yeah cool everyone else likeoh shes trash like wtf,0 march august its years constant pain cant handle anymore im gonna meet best friend tonight fun one last time go home maybe spend time cat call siblings text friends pretend go bed hang parents asleep ive done research written note even tested noose thanks support ive received subreddit goodbye,1 at work and tired doing report fun no not really,0 yo anyone want talk im hella bored female rn play soccer support man utd listen mostly rap im also dry hmu,0 might going hawaii tomorrow idk wanted flex everyone,0 worst geography teacher ever really bad geography teacher happen year online classes really good teacher start online classes resigned make online classes witch shame new teacher came becasicily class started played music with bad sound quality like michael jackson sand junior wolf time complaining internet half showing video really good geography take fist test made study really hard next one take get angry parents saw think get saw said bad responded studied hard realized test made piece shit why claims question test made sister discovered part text articles news gone relevant brazil newspaper note text relation content class studying remember one test question long text basque country region spain france country answer ireland school fired one test everyone get bad great school create bonus test people need better great new geography teacher inst bad take first test watch class,0 people react losing someone redflagpeople grieve die guess people kill themselves others react anger confusion along sadness isnt really period terminal illness people cant prepare death death wouldnt parent react roughly way child died car accident think so except whole could done something stop thing weird people view death redflag differently,1 waiting at the airport for my ride while i get harassed by men trying to sell me ugly hat why me i just want to sleep,0 i feel like people would be better off if i wasn t here anymore i m considering jumping off a bridge i feel so trapped in my own emotion after losing a good chunk of my friend purely because i ended a relationship that i wasn t happy in i feel like a horrible person and the idea of jumping off a bridge doesn t upset me anymore i feel happier that if i d want to end it i could and leave my family with more money time i m conflicted i want to die but what would become of my family my sister my remaining friend what about nicole would she be able to handle another friend ending their life how about snowey he is like a little brother too me what about my sister could i leave her during a crucial time in her life i don t know life is so painful right now,1 update last post tried talk mom headache soon broached subject ig well try tomorrow lazy check basically hour long mental breakdown prolly undiagnosed bipolar,0 i ve been struggling with an eating disorder for five year now it ha stolen those year from me crippled me from doing thing i love due to my low body weight made me unable to think rationally and study diligently my family are exhausted mum especially sleeping beside me because she s terrified i ll die alone in my sleep it make my heart rot thinking about the hour they ve spent worrying about me or the time and money flushed down the toilet finding me treatment i always disappoint them the mental health team i ve been going to have been more harm than good mum tried to send me to them a early a she could after spotting my illness they did nothing to prevent it from spiraling out of control which it shortly did i had a useless councillor who would stare at me in silence for an hour every week once she broke it to ask if i drank chocolate milk pretty self explanatory considering i had anorexia my parent and i left each session in tear after politely asking if we could swap councillor the team began bullying my mum they thought we were attacking the councillor i wa seeing this meant they refused to offer me a bed at a residential care and threatened to stop paying for my weekly doctor visit unless i disengaged in seeing a private therapist whom i wa making progress with today i found out my mum s plea to put me into residential care ha been accepted i m scared shitless what worry me most is how much they ll fatten me up i ve read somewhere patient are only released once they ve restored of healthy weight however i m also aware i ll be alone with sick and possibly more malnourished kid than myself five hour away from home i lost it when i heard the news screaming and cry my eye out at my mum who should never deserve to be treated like that she ha done everything she can to keep me alive both her and my younger sister are so sick of me my sister hardly ever speaks to me when she doe it s usually to yell at me for being an idiot and retarded once she even told me she wa embarrassed to go out in public with that me and wished i died of cancer honestly i wish so too especially when i remember how close we used to be i went to my mum after dinner to ask for some support she told me i wa so selfish for continuing to engage in a disordered lifestyle and then taunted me when i said i couldn t drink an additional supplement formula i ve pushed those i love away from me i m so alone and lost i m praying to god i get sick and die because then they wouldn t think i wa doing it for attention or being selfish i m so sorry for the rant but i just don t know what to do,1 im kind person call bitch something reply yea,0 @kristallin I hear you dude... try doing it on a goddamn 12-string acoustic!! ,0 everyone hate meplease ic ant im crying bad everyone hate me,1 recently saw movie international business class expecting anything another boring documentary not say love documentary ive hard bad luck movies class imagine surprise movie thats actually movie came up br br this film tell cultural differences work place need cooperate get anywhere culture clash shows different world differently perceive someone comes along gives us wake call would highly recommend film anyone business wants laugh yes funny br br well thats it cheers,0 give gaem reccomendations now,0 forging passports is better than attacking re: http://ff.im/3t3E4,0 mom called asshole struggling mental health getting bad grades words exactly theres difference making mistake asshole whatever going irresponsible cant trust anymore response bad grades due mental breakdown severe adhd im using mental illness excuse parents zero understanding mental issues fact parents west african mental issues devil literally gpa like entire life obviously used hence bitchy regret scholar past setting high expectation parents started fucking none would ever happened feel dumb failing classes one quarter like im gonna fucking repeat th grade,0 ladyerlynne awwww you could always post in the transfig classroom with sharmila,0 @digijustin yes it has...and one of my best friends is profiting from it... ,0 I bought glasses today for the first time is EIGHT years. The lasik wore off and old age has taken hold! ,0 title super interesting anyone discord server small join it want many people talk want socialize more dm link u want join,0 please help want know happeningthis literally happened fuck found sister ground crying apparently hour half muscle stiffness left arm small cuts perpendicular arm itself minor blood could feel toes muscle weakness pulse guess could find well even though ive training take pulse cut arm cold extremities less so still colder normal rough times friend cut often yesterday friend cut showed sister sister think also anxiety depression hid decreased appetite socializing weeks this ive rough time almost cutkilled never actually it holy shit know please someone tell happened said drink anything even though statistics say od favorite among females find cutting device anyone know did think know why know how help bad brother fuck edit thank all know much means,1 im completely alone foreign country im afraidive lost fiancee drug addiction had moved china kicked habit reality situation kicking in today best friend basically brother started hate something did last person left world ive suicidal different im afraid go home live fifth floor im afraid ill throw window,1 heroes one day,0 cant anything right moreno matter hard try matter say never anything right eyes others more im nothing failure through im lonely undeserving failure died months ago every time think things getting better end cursing things get much worse maybe deserve happy things get better end year im sticking around cant more everyone else leaving turning backs me may well same better way care anyway,1 gavlp yes i hope these shock are going to stop soon i think i m getting angry with earth itself,0 girl class asked and said really cute nice people also need anyone early send screens chat friend told everyone getting bullied think thats bs tf wpuld get bullied like someone yeah thats,0 remember first time got drunk warning eventfulinteresting expect alcohol fueled escapade all little tipsy else remember this mom asleep upstairs alone night already started drinking back sips taste barbeque previous day lot booze left could take top without noticing whiskey little bit more cognac thought always see niggas mixing vodka orange juice let try that already starting feel drinks went pour vodka orange juice poured way intended said going drink much booze drank all thats really started feel it wanted drinks stopped feeling little tipsy nothing much happen stumbled around little bit giggled fact fucked around got drunk watching tv focus anymore went sleep sleep pretty good night ampxb thanks reading despite pretty boring,0 next stepsthis first time getting closer closer killing myself even first time planning it first time found easy painless clean way it first time packing things arranging apartment things taken care of late night friday home quietly watching qi pretty peaceful go sleep never wake up drug overdose painful messy want talk people know this and really long story last time here said goodbye wife it might well have different countries join here wanted break months silence mixed calling pleading loves me lapse silence finally divorced skype last years living nightmare finish started miss every day even though ive done everything move betrayal love like last time saw her hugging kissing airport even though blamed many things fault im blameless never point open communication willing make change project try help relationship think end met someone thought better her id like say cant blame her good blaming giving benefit doubt everyone else fault everything could think of imagine im reluctant share im also aware trying goodbye conversation anyone something do want talk someone know necessarily stop though dump someone want help next steps cant take time work barely pay rent is im dog walker cant extended absence further former colleague work suicidal etc took big extended absence serve whole companys needs big disaster everyone already bad taste mouth that,1 time make another post boyfriend cause obsession lol yesterday spent day together cute stupid fun stuff day amazing love much im excited valentines day,0 im freak lesson informed schools closed tomorrow bc covid see crush next months started look short glances times hour probably notice im feel like fuckin creep,0 very happy!! coz he went h0me na!! haha.. i'm very excited for sunday!! ,0 gender sexuality even need label ive crisis last hour kind realized things used think im bi preference women thinking realized im specific genderers like feminity im attracted girls trans girls femboys really care whole gender stuff also even tho im biologicaly girl almost completly happy it sometimes feel like crossdressing basically trying boy even day would make feel bit better im sorry offended anyone im confused keep looking answers ignore labels me,0 At Jay's with my brothers Soooo tired.,0 requirements girlfriend female optional,0 "shower soon, reading geopolitics, and listening to kings of leon ",0 @krnkarina i think you should add more time to study nong ,0 so i have bad anxiety and it s been over a year since i ve worked within this past week i ve gotten job interview one i went to but then after i left the place i wa so anxious i developed a migraine and i vomited in my car the second job interviewed i completely ignored and this third one this third interview which i have tomorrow is for a prep cook position but i m considering quitting that too my brain always find some reason to tell me to quit and when i ask for people advice on this job or that job the bad experience discourage me i wa looking forward to trying to be in the kitchen but people tell me it s not worth it it s 0 hour work week little pay and no benefit and plus i don t want to be a manager either i just want to do something for income that i actually kind of enjoy everyone ha something bad to say and that on top of my past horrible work experience i have zero confidence in myself or that any employee or employer i work for will be considerate and relatable and not a total asshole to work with i m a horrible waitress bc my anxiety make me forget order and sometimes forget about a table entirely yet do i want to be in a hot oily kitchen all day and be responsible for people meal it s a tough choice between misery and misery i m depressed about the 9 work week humanity ha created my goal is to grow and sell my own produce and i m a current gardener a it is and my major is agriculture any job for money seems like hell and miserable and i hate having to dedicate myself and my time to a dumb fuck slew of ceo and higher ups who only see you a a number will i ever get over this enough to get myself a job my god this is just miserable day in and day out,1 make poll add polls rteenagers oh wait,0 @HeatherShorter I love that song! I was starting to think I was the only one that knew that one! #sameperson,0 hide depression,1 hi i keep getting stressed anxious all of a sudden and don t know why for example this morning i woke up pretty calm and wa just relaxing in my apartment doing random thing i started to watch a show then all of a sudden realize i feel restless and slightly weird and i notice my jaw is clenched but i cant unclench it and then yeah it usually just spiral from there or i just feel really fragile for the next hour or two any advice it starting to happen multiple time per day when i m trying to do thing and completely get in the way i haven t been able to do schoolwork in week or anything that requires much brain power,1 tolu pepper omo this happens every period but not through out the depression is overwhelming and i crave so much sugar to balance the mood usually chocolate help me feel better,1 ive done terrible things deserve terrible endfirst all im wrong sub id like apologize search redflag found im years old entire life ive done nothing bad ive prison twice currently parole next years ive hurt everyone ever cared about ruined countless lives remorse since incarceration learned lot im person used be predator hunted children unspeakable things thinking past sickens stomach see reason go here family talk me friends happiness still urges time time act again feel it take life now cant hurt anybody else way always meant be im looking sympathy im looking told change better know ive done life given thrown away selfish actions wish could go back young amazing mother supportive father brother never would thought would give me want go back days young free regrets want take back everything done theres nothing left say lay pool tears reminisce golden days one promise made got prison id stop drinking bottle tequila juice thank reading please hold flaming trust me know,1 @PamelaKKinney.. Summer is finally here!!yeayyyyyy!!!.. I plan to do some traveling this summer.. ,0 Leaving school and going to kathrynns to make an omlette for breakfast during study hall..yummmm ,0 rating cocks thats it thats literally it rating cocks,0 is so excited about my new website coming soon. I'll let you know as soon as it's ready. ,0 casomai last movie ive seen getting married last year br br it also first movie ive searched for married promised offer copy priestbr br sometimes reality apart fiction wrote priests like don camillo exist real life would recommend visit priest pe nuno westwood estoril portugal br br to others would recommend see movie i do day br br rodrigo ribeiro portugal,0 going burn alive hurts ive heardi dont want fucking body dont want fucking transition female wish born female wasnt dont want fucking freak dont want struggle fight fake thing want die tired social anxiety tired everyone treating like fucking creep social anxiety im tired everyone online telling get it im tired family telling get it im tired homophobic transphobic conservative christian family tired everything want burn alive want feel much pain possible want disgusting body destroyed thrown trash tired this matter stuck rest life,1 recovered from camping rave at last! Bank holiday ,0 people app annoying comes originality like theyll call stolen meme account filled stolen memes like literally shut,0 Tucking in all my babies 3 down 1 barley hanging on.,0 depressed many years experienced failure heartbreak rejection insecurity know love anymore still live parents got degree psychology offer much right now work two jobs make ends meet try continue education afford it volunteer red cross smothered work lost hope love lost interest things used love art music everything sexually assaulted several years ago lost virginity result assaulted person thought friend month later confided let guard down true relationship lasted year half realized recently rebound bad marriage bought expensive car lost job dumped next day relationship nothing gaslighting manipulating me even grandmother dying barely supportivesince terrible depression worked constantly keep distracted pushed better things worked self esteem lost weight gained relationship tried getting back dating game people tell regularly attractive yet guys interested desparate lonely edge know ready not,1 im letting life pas by because im so stressed and cant deal with my problem so i just hide away and isolate myself and it starting to harm me where im currently cry because i have no solution for the hole i dug myself in help me please,1 wish could make onlyfans people would buy content im broke busy work,0 had a moment with run fatboy run,0 want hospitalized cant stop thinking ending allim bipolar type hospitalized jan year th time extreme depression psychosis meds working put lexapro zyprexa helped bit last month ive getting worse worse fucking hate damn bad im tired psych listening me tired exhausting family bow fucking sick depression started hurting again little im tired im tired shit working im tired pain im tired know do feel like complete failure tired told keep head itll pass im fucking sick trying endless game rotating pills work im stuck want go drive somewhere secluded found maybe jump cliff shit overdose pills cant get head want hospitalized take away anxiety meds real bad anxiety disorder thanks past sexual abuse im done life tired trying hard nothing do im confused crying damn everything im sick this,1 Monday and Tuesday were beautiful and now it's raining. Albany is going to put me into a depression.,1 idk im anyway long read willinhidk start male uk really good upbringing sense parents really care me sacrifices make made still blow mind understand stresses emigrating california better future done work put in however grew way fast fault guess ill start major factor jumping gaslit first ever girlfriend feeling love towards someone unrelated also friends someone mentally physically abused abused growing up heavily around drug culture toxins environment holds eventually got corrosive meanwhile im blamed everything im threatened freedom saying shell call police house get arrested stop friends him used anxiety kissing best friend trying cheat party cope in denied week told push bitch would stopped her loneliness honeymoon feeling relationship teen romance bubbling up romance shortlived work fiction lose sidelines illicit substances exchanging them recreational substance abuse intertwined scary ur considering heroin last year smoked weed mdma etc party ones however wound manipulated realizing finally weakened me found prescription painkillers look overdose overdose january th took mg school day academia future stuff like tax sex education getting high school sniffing capsules stools stand brain sober pain emotionally later overdosed realizing happened pull phone realizing whats happened thinking g threshold overdose adults threshold minutes would fallen asleep started go respirotry decompression panicked ashamedfilled guilt hid room hand throat trying throw cus panicked nothing coming literally mean hand throat would burp accept walk bathroom write last words dont want go details ptsd woke up thankfully ampxb traumatised thoughts head christian upbringing question existence heaven mile away devil manifested shoulder felt cold breeze spine heat hells flame my body going extremely hot cold clammy hands would stuck purgatory waiting waiting mother would reacted opening door find son dead sheets peers teachers headlines vessel beautiful soul another statistic fell brain fried suffer tinnitus grainy vision static noise vision driving insane constant reminder flashback feeling train thought running noose around happiness one really knew damaged was looked pale white couldnt eat shit couldnt stand propely cramps couldnt sleep couldnt handle moments silence loading screens video games drove insane sit exam halls complete silence days mock practice tests colleges look at concentrate always edge thought would seize dropdead since common drug that broke two days told mum happened helpline hour verdict go e within hour since might die awful look mother eyes say took overdose etc would question why idea couldnt think could feel like wanted overdose kill me knew never feeling sadness undescribable realised flesh consciousness whats matter meaning life arrive say information school situation supposed wait hour half according tv saying wait times ended waiting gf time found out called junkie always using me im rat phone died broke down non stop crying saw people come whole night get seen me like stuck hell really die bright lights swollen eyes fromc rying causing much pain wrapped longsleeve eyes ampxb get ecg check files drug told blood test since past lethal stage heart seems healthy psychological damage endured past abuse overdose ignored catastrophic told grow stop scarred describing crippiling anxiety tightness chest constant cramps nobody could help reach out would try mental health olympics try make positive it looked like functioning stop asked flashbacks happen conversation withdrew school friendships went fulltime work became hermit paranoia started happen took mdma night group friends eventually saw wasnt bad weird remember much felt like machinist ended sleeping constantly weeks eating eating never feeling full thought weeks passed started think watched wiretapped family it realized paranoia conversations would happen know veil became lifted thge line already distorted ended interview psych ward th morning birthday knew yes questions would get bed love family house lied answers knew id rather get head right home there did problem fix it gradually got better try look back whats happened realize bad things watching perks wallflower hit me sexually exploited child bad kinda basically two older brothers found pleasure ithen made friends online xbox taught porn also another friend mate saying sexual things young u wouldnt understand like putting special mayo food etc one instance stuck me never really understood still dont damages child robbed innocence still unaddressed feel sick damage done cognitive bias manipulated also result ur thoughts manipulating you overdose unlocked problems deal od issues im scared brain switch ill end taking life ampxb cant live activities got involved double narrative life ive lived someone inside im come across mental health support isnt best always thank phone also always distance myself never return calls im scared write back want new life im hypersexual realized someone genuinely called it sickness bacteria taht grow ur darkness stopped growth trying rebuild life skeletons closet even friendliest faces idk typed maybe last nail coffin feeling bad stuff know wrong ignoring it nail really confirm taking back life illness slowly plagued thoughts,1 is that snow,0 going to sleep can t be up until am again and no i didn t finish my statistic homework,0 im fucking doneit one like claimed many lies hes gone way kill career warning none wed best friends fucking years became lovers everyone said perfect couple love him love him love theres huge difference loved desperately felt same looked way looked him said even kinder sweeter things tuhe wholb w ekugsgiufucking time lying face hisotry wuth killed career fucking ym work client idea another one told turned father swore would never violent like swore would never lift hand never like this never never kept last week gave black eye course three days kept trying destroy life warning none warning tried get help last night specifically calling hotline asking acounserllor dealt female male violence think less like people finna get help fix things cried swore loved sorry found trofay lied affair jhust once get trickle truthed every single day since october work client tiold came home left scene find called cops nothing whole life swore tio every day loved desperately cant cant abvuser canbt person hes twisted meinto bveing dont know many times came keeps lying im done im done,1 ashleyemma lucky devil i m dreaming of a crispy bacon sandwich but no one a yet ha volunteered to go get one,0 might delete later wanted say somethingsome weeks ago it months time going fucking fast lately scary said reason keep living sex immediate satisfaction get nothing else real really worth it sex fill more time go nothing left think time would come fast thought might years years trying get normal life im totally drained sexual desire time would kids want kill kids no took weeks whatever still trying get back better times always something missing obvious whats old work anymore cant think anything new might reached epitome creativity awesome im lost lost scary see everyone finding place world passion belong nothing that im walking alone people support make feel bad it know much ill able stand it look two people still take three buses pretend hate life for want hug tell everything want more something live for theyre good smiles sincere heart warming belong somewhere cry writing suicidal things reddit i hope really mean do decide really it feel like nothing else live for pressure high hardly breathe death would relief want know much theyre appreciated thought last times couple artists listen everyday love thanks coming life care fight make days better give reason one things enjoy singing,1 things hopelessi posted before good news im still here bad news im still suicidal thoughts depression comes waves days okay cry little days cry nonstop extended periods time last night particular wanted end all reached friend helped feelings lingered scheduled see psychiatrist wednesday morning appointment therapist afternoon cant say whether helping im going try share suicidal thoughts them tried share feelings depression family friends think understand bad is also wondering share feelings boss work believe full transparency good relationship extremely compassionate person trust him know reason tell now know try reach various resources whenever start feel bad ive used friends redflag hotlines reddit posts compassion chats help know else stick therapy hope one day waves big,1 "Manage your stress. Research shows that stress, anxiety and depression lead to premature aging, wrinkles, and even hair loss.",1 im readyi borderline personality disorder everyday terrible war rages mind heart simply surpassed able cope with rifle need one bullet cant even muster energy find one wonder hurts,1 "@dansterdavid Sure, no probs. I hope y'all enjoy there. ",0 i feel like when i m drunk i act like everyone else around me doe sober and i hate it like i ll talk more il feel more confident in myself everything in my existence will feel worth living,1 starting work next week seriously wanting end theni really dont want go back work im supposed to dont get breaks end work coworkers nothing attempts friends them hate me dont know why dont say anything controversial im nice everyone full insult face whenever bring boss doesnt care cant find new job anxiety would much im tired putting much effort job called fucking loser directly face top off redflag attempt ago arms covered scars considering judge every little thing appearance theyre gonna field day realized im likable friendship lasted week me slitting wrists messy obv didnt work plug someone could get drugs could overdose on ill probably try hang wednesday went bullied school bullied college bullied work im meant planet mistake,1 anyone know easiest wayi cant take shit anymore school almost feels like eternity thats least part problems recently kinda betrayed yea everyone kinda knows mental isuess besides hate much im hypocritical bastard begs attention ironicly never wanted step much people wanted to cant handle anymore tried mind stopped finally done cant take depression anymore anexiety also killing me want rest dont know suicidal wishes getting worse im scared hurt someone acctually care about dont need anyone talk want know easiest way it thanks,1 sometimes really want kill myselfi bad life caring friends caring parents brother nice things room somewhat good grades school feel like it im usa understand last year high school wanting go anything live pretty much diagnosed depression deep heart take pity everything do every mistake every action thinking good enough thats killing me done bed like two weeks although may sound ridiculous thats sign something right ive tried kill myself think times last one almost felt brave enough like year half ago im almost last year pretty good damn demons head came back came back tell wrong im worthy all know something love lot things love drawing playing wow playing music i play bass guitar drums think would miss things remember much fun things sorry post little messy needed spit somehow lot people know this think knows redflag attemps close friend mine even best friends know it im skipping school tomorrow clear thoughts or least ill try skip it th charm,1 heres knew atlantis watching itbr br officially disneys first animated scifi adventure im sure accurate i like nitpick made curious first time heard describedbr br preview looked part damn cool evidently also too cryptic according critics factbr br apparently badly disney said screw it lets rerelease spy kidsbr br so said moviebr br hellacoolbr br im sucker animated fantasy involves stirring music rampant special effects anyway atlantis goes out throwback cgi eyecandy shots beauty beast aladdin much almost effects animators bestof show characters maybe memorable except perhaps ships medical officer plots little dull movie watch plotbr br heres controversy bothers me failure as in only took in like fivehundredmillion something know animators whod kill see fifteen bucks that movie compared popularity shrek monsters inc seen evidence death traditional animation think thats true account south park movie final fantasy really story artistry everything method know disneys comeback movie like think theyre picture yet,0 good night use condoms peoples,0 got idea anyone looking come gay bi etc ok take wheres waldo book replace waldo whatever coming as get picture waldo outfit replace waldo book another way taking picture crowd waldo outfit placing book thought funny way anyone actually uses method feel free message saying went,0 "Analysis of 2,000 millennials found that the chance of experiencing depression or anxiety among those who reported feeling lonely more than doubled. http://ow.ly/6H1p30jFlVi ",1 @ferarospizza wine buzz and darts...?? Well...can't say I've never done it - have fun! http://twurl.nl/dr3wya,0 @leftIovers I'm in a constant state of depression,1 i don t know how anything work anymore my brain feel like it ha dementia forgetful literal lack of intelligence and critical thinking skill i don t know how school work don t know basic math never had relationship and feel incredibly out of place and inferior to the rest of the general population that s my age half of the people living in my building are my age now i m so fucking suicidal everyday i m just waiting to die,1 world beautiful dayim senior high school right now dealing major depressive disorder possibly bipolar since th grade with symptoms since birth caused sabotage destroy every single relationship shred happiness life ever known frequent suicidal thoughts occasional attempts battle drug addiction secret abusive parents came abusive person abused friends girlfriends myself life pretty regular th grade something kind missing which assume normal depression hit everything juste empty friends make happy things used love like film comics boring im majoring music next year conservatory yet music even intrigue anymore like everything became pointless feeling many probably familiar with unfortunately happened fell love intimate connection whenever life became meaningful while started date like every time abused emotionally forced away two months dating year extremely close relationship broke me every second every day im plagued know her evil drove away arms someone else one closest friend reconnecting soon break up were point says loves strong feelings still also feelings him wonders depression sarcastic literal course made feel lowest lows least felt made and makes me happier anyone else ever has ive seen two extremes life feel like now lived gained new perspective saw stars clouds trees totally new light deepest sorrows yet found beauty everything music amazing again days now nothing really changedbut feel like im reverting back past years im losing appreciation world know do love her changed months self loathing accepted good person regardless terrible things many people trusted protect harm truly changed person experienced life im terrified lose it im terrified lose her accepted regardless feelings other theres way were getting back together fuck rambling even coherent fuck saying this fucking ruined it deserve this fuck right hes house street supposed come leaves fuck long fuck know hope gain posting this im fucking bitchy fuck cant end it relies me want one thing it fucking ruined it think tears cried fucking apathetic it fucking change late fuck even alive people meant here convince let it know parents care friends deal it other hate anyway im fucking worthless im evil post make fucking sense want one thing ill anything everything one thing fucking late happy anymore rest life im damned remember pain caused im living right now damned remember mistake made never take back never fucking redeem get let fucking it,1 m started prozac week ago ocd and health anxiety over the past year have had 00 doctor appointment and test in several country nothing significant found panic attack resurfaced yesterday no cardiac cause yet high blood pressure and crunching gurgling in chest how can i learn to accept that the cause of this is anxiety and not some missing undiagnosed rare issue side effect underlying problem nutrient deficiency electrolyte imbalance food sensitivity or supplementation fix how doe someone make that real shift,1 it s simple a that,1 kinda wanna talk art styles dont like gatchahttpsimgurcomgalleryoohyrir first one dont like big head slightly unsettling lmao second tublr stylehttpsimgurcomgallerypqfkau idk style someone know draws legs like that no explanation neededhttpsimgurcomgallerymsvwrj fun heres favorite artstyle httpsimgurcomgalleryljfih leg minimalistic also symmetrical h n httpsimgurcomgallerydtrcloy,0 anyone wanna chat play number game talk u want dm ,0 unpopular opinion circa comment another post all modern rap sucks cuz kendrick lamar jay rock schoolboy q ab soul j cole mixtape logic kanye polo g amin earl sweatshirt jpegmafia vince staples big sean meek mill jayz nas andr tyler creator totally exist fuckin hate anti rap attitude community has mfs thinking gucci gang song popular like months sudden epitome rap shit closed minded garbage ive seen yall circle jerking ego cuz rap like crap amirite bullshit people made influential best projects music world whole come fuckin on actually take step outside hivemind give listen shit listen good kid maad city listen aquemini listen born sinner listen yo pimp butterfly listen late registration listen listen watch throne actually give genre chance maybe stop fuckin calling rap bad shit pisses unimaginable degree yall mfs downvote want know yall r missing real shit fuck,0 @wickedcanadagal Joe is a total sweetie. Just be yourself and he will help you through the rest I am always nervous too. I made a shirt.,0 airlie is sick and now mason is sick too he is going to miss his school disco,0 dont wish ugetclappedsket happy birthday go it,0 living suicidal thoughtstoo much burden bear own tried survive amp keep fighting what one cares,1 could use advice avoid thoughtsi suicidal thoughts often lately if walk front truck things go away act becoming harder harder listen voice mind tells things suggests way advice stop thoughts really dont want sure stop them please help,1 wtf leg hair alredy growing back literally shaved yesterday wtf bs,0 site load rising again increased my capacity but it s going up still,0 im worried dog yorksire stomach problems im really really worried ,0 @Flickie well the conference is 9pm so thats 5 here will try my best to keep u informed hehe,0 hey redditors idk post here tired diagnosed things never leave tired crippling redflag prevents functioning normally tired pop pills wake up day going sleep really tired guys ami want go home guess going home soon hey,1 saw something utterly disgusting comment section post trans mtf wrestler literally everyone kept misgendering using masc pronouns sad society farrightist transphobic ,0 way describe depression hell tired time matter much sleep feel recharge even sleep good amount time take sleep medication know brain saying stay night friends trust anyone leads fearing future mean find partner love cannot trust anyone f anything age gets worse age feel like zombie watching world go by one understands family saying happiness choice well depression everyday brain feeling you suck world sucks nothing ever matter die already on cannot find anything makes happy gone like that want help help able change life lived change choices made life live make expect happening want rage yell experience depression,1 my stomach is hurting all day from anxiety i have constipation what can i do to help this breathing is hard and it feel tight so i can t even breath properly no matter what so trying to breath properly wouldn t help because it feel impossible when my stomach and chest feel tight,1 drawing pictures from the outside of the page to the inside.. didn't realize how much i missed colored pencils ,0 Everyone come to Baltimore for Hon Fest this weekend kay? ,0 die jump story buildingi need relief get text back boyfriend today im killing tomorrow bushes window im scared might die jump im sure though need answers help,1 im bored hmu talk whatever long conversation stays interesting,0 doomedi know anymore know anymore academic achievements am wish mother loved based content chatacter bring table wish could live life chose it im destined live it wish could fun typical childhood teenage life late now im going adult soon late fun memories anything look back on wish never born im victim circumstances realm dreams wish accomplish cannot due circumstances wish could never see family again want bring pain even though theyve done without hesitation live house mother built house built agony despair people cherish life sister boyfriend theyre wonderful know things last forever knows boyfriend stop loving me sister isnt obligated help me id rather open cause pain resent life born live,1 im scared im going like parents need rant im scared ive realizing lately toxic parents much messed up theyre verbal abuse physically abusive too opinions beliefs listened im allowed practice believe make feel like everythings fault im scared im going like get older kids already feel like im toxic towards friends mess someone like theyre messing right now ever want make someone feel make feel do try hard help friends know im constantly pulling making everyone unhappy future family too feel like present so already want around mess already know probably kind jumbled maybe make much sense needed get out thanks listening rant,0 going new years resolution end thinking new year resolution said i dont want introverted anymore shyness want open direct extroverted beginning year changed vocational school focus it knew nothing one chance become wanted become now help always kept one thing head insecure something thought something bit long fucking it phrase mind helped lot starting talk others start conversation going always kept sentence head about fucking time let loose something head sure say thought fuck got head got big mouth love like get words without many backthoughts putting one joke loudly letting loose thinking things like really this would people think different this really makes feel lot comfortable around people becoming open extroverted now makes feel lot comfortable,0 say somethingim running short time lifes miserable full endless problems solution weep cry ive already endured enough point crying become every day occurrence im emotionally exhausted write essay long reason im like this,1 need talk someonethis throwaway ok im happy drunk rn next thing know see pair scissors think wow could cut wrists real bad right wow really wanna it feel pain see blood clean wounds bandage go business but havent thought cutting years cant like really want cut rn tf whats wrong help still need help sorry scattered im drunk rn need talk stranger please someone see talk please need someone talk someone help please,1 "@lukasrossi Hey, Lukas. It was a pleasure speaking to you on the phone, bro. Thank you for being such an open, loving soul. {{{Lukas}}}",0 today finally smiled got happy problems fixed literally yesterday got happy finally found motivation fix them crying never loved family problems get bullied s assignments pending one likes smiling least trying fight back fix everything finally tried putting effort looking everything positively maybe got high today least felt happiness finally felt happy long time found motivation fix everything,1 way this cannot stop thinking anything hurting myself feel like relapsing,1 im failurethis probably going long ass post explaining background story ill start now was part straight student throughout th th th th grade always work time even got award never missing day school th th grade then start th grade well felt classes bit difficult slipping little bit first time ive two cs report card first semester rest year fine stepped gpa end year year th grade schedule classes completely changed moved alternating schedules x block schedule basically classes every day except wednesday thursday wednesday first classes thursday classes mildly disturbed felt fine then started noticing missing assignments sometimes since alternating schedule always least day work things new schedule work could due next day started slip f c two bs two as a whole spectrum grades started get sloppy without enough sleep week vacation right weeks winter break ive missed much class everything kind collapsed me point talents lifting fighting im even strong bench less bodyweight since break gained lbs now bench rep max pretty weak know another contributing factor years ago th grade made friend online got pretty close spoke every day turning pretty good friends plans meet irl college then one day blue said was a sad person people pity pretty confused kept telling creep never contact again blocked speak recently messaged unblocked me said quote look boyfriend go watch porn cry loneliness obviously closure ill tell one last time ever want speak again kind blocked point brushed off started thinking though sad excuse human being always pretty correct guessing going life could tell me im thinking ive wasting life antisocial behavior couldve fun spending time better friends fun leads now tonight cried first time year curled fetal position cried half hour got came post sob story try get people care me cant tell parents theyd flip really feel throwing bridge one best options oding oxycodone ive never given anything full dedication also lose pieces win chess right im pawn game might well go waste create opening people use death justify things wrong education system us live aspen colorado hopefully ill throw terrellwade bridge tomorrow feet seconds freefall acceleration mph go splat river rocks it dont ill edit post say otherwise,1 "Does anyone else live an area resistent to change? So, hard to get some people to join the "Green" movement Very frustrating!",0 expecting much movie given ticket advanced screening gotten work hot tired wait movie line minutes seemed cool air flowing hallways theater complexbr br once seated theater tired frustrated movie started recognize actors beginning flow movie perfect right beginning became consumed movie getting excited minute passing think movie destined fantasyfairytale classic actors fabulous pace perfect ending magical,0 "Happy Birthday, Dad ",0 theekween depression and anxiety thelmasherbs,1 find new year hard timei certainly do brings home much ive failed past years certainly how even every effort im still making exact promises hoping changes another year again again is might next year time place thoughts im still here just maybe maybe year something someone side things improve stay strong stay me lets see do lets give small chance owe experience happiness please me im tired feeling alone,1 francesdath not bad transitioning being visited by many globe wandering gypsy queer at the moment but you are missing,0 "Omg same :(( for example, I won't know anyone and it's scary and 3 years of depression lmao https://twitter.com/___parv/status/989213960372215808 …",1 would feeling really good lately meds effective interpersonal group therapy cbt course everything well managed woke yesterday morning could get bed spent yesterday sleepingcuddling dog still feeling like crap today like could burst tears moment trying spiral work cannot make stop feeling like lonely worthless pathetic loser wondering point living kind life constant fighting exhaustingand cannot figured triggered me hit like slap facebeen dealing shit years give take never gets easieri really sure posting this think want feel little less lonely showed nowhere,1 avid julie andrews fan watched first time dvd directors cut version surprised rated g get bedroom scenes seduction story line two strip tease acts warshootingblood g rating weird would rate pgbr br other thoroughly enjoyed movie beautiful showcase andrews voice talent acting great storyline little weak leaving gaps could filled good dialogue many no talking walking scenes me would liked see relationship julie rock blossom intense love would believable,0 @Pink follow ,0 random question nonvirgins sub thinking realized know exact date lose virginity day shit even month im wondering anyone knows exact date lost virginity basically normal remember memory awful,0 anyone wanna make game me half baked story kind of pm me,0 feel really alone want help know dohi all sorry sorta dumb confusing know else do past week so ive feeling really suicidal ive therapy past nine years im tired alive raised single bipolar verbally abusive mom died fourteen ive abused assaulted physically sexually throughout life want pain anymore abandoned moved foster home foster home really wanted place family found home supposedly loved wanted eventually decided two years much forced facility within span night facility watched members staff get attacked assaulted forced body inspections whenever left facility generally awful time people threatened tried murder wish upon anyone leaving facility found home seemed love me family could potentially call own thought life going well everything order had wonderful amazing partner loves cares me group friends supported family loved me recently come change told parent would never dad let alone parent would never trust me going partner find emergency housing subsequently needing find temporary permanent housing stressful involved around time relationship problems started communication great really anyone involved even though weve progressively gotten better things not were constantly stressed even look afraid i done nothing significant enough deserve this even know why addition parents small little foster brother children got pretty intense car accident two days ago thats also big factor feel im scared know do want end life pain everything confusing know do ive tried calling hotlines talking friends not partner everything took mental health day school uni today cant anymore know do please help ,1 right least told cannot depressed least one person loves me cannot feel alone always someone me happy smiling time not makes seem like something wrong relationship maybe right maybe depressed really bad day cannot possibly depressed married,1 - @katherineholden Thanks K! Here's hoping! Pretty nervous though... ,0 there are a million thing to stress about right now and a million and one if you count my study i need to be good enough at art to get into college by january next year i m pretty confident i ll get in if i keep going but i can t focus at all and instead think of everything going on in my life i can t afford therapy or counselling meditation doe nothing medication doesn t work with this mindfulness break music podcasts and the like are already being exercised thank you in advance,1 insomnia ha got the best of me again ohhh so tired and can t find sleep,0 lemme tell yall traditional czech recipe called chlebov pochoutka bread delicacy take piece bread put piece bread put another piece bread bon appetit,0 best friend hung saturday promise people actually carei dont know post allowed best friend nicest selfless person ever existed promise everyone feeling lost hurt confused theres single person happy isnt around anymore broken girlfriend feeling heart broken wish realised bad feeling told would done everything could dont wait people come you go them tell youre hurting give chance fix things,1 mediccasts the alternative is suicide which is the most selfish and coward move there is people who consider that ha no sympathy from me fighting depression now that s something to be proud of,1 got a driving ticket the other day almost got another one today for parking in front of someone s driveway,1 worst day fucking yearim kill myself wanted write last resort goodbye thing maybe idk friend mine called sobbing saying cant see today final straw dont care abymore im sorry goes cant keep this everyone said get help cant fucking that family wouldnt let me wouldnt believe me im minor pretty much tell me constant isolation go far everything cant go anywhere without someones say so entire family ignores me cant kepe school failed finals going failure whole life hate living hate somcuh nothing norie say really cant tpye im sobbing pepole probaly would care one friend fucking english teacher english teacher really cool shaem wont bea bel see new year worthless patheric piece shit am votd student th e month want fcuking die im gonig fucking kill nyslef,1 im bored ask meh anything _ nothing see _ filler filler filler filler filller enough text,0 "@DJLPQUEENS I guess it will be pretty cool music, brazilian flavor mixed with hip hop music..I like the idea! ",0 hard parents close doors like close it hard u opened close ur way,0 one like whenever hits one im like woah brain shuts goes like night mode brain everything goes like slow also changed polished well couldnt tell slowed down looked go weird headspace hits one google dont know cause would google know that shit post im tired this,0 @dirtyrottengoss wat !!! omg that's awsom ,0 escapei seriously cant stand experiencing this cant take anymore break give death know do really see redflag something inevitable,1 high school years decades later look back fondness others embarrassment find easy forget one critical phases lives changes come fast furious whether were ready not longer children yet adults irresistible forces buffet us pushing pulling us every directionbr br fame best capture turbulent chaotic period cast young characters part succeeded meandered feel like slice life movie holds special place hearts class bid farewell decade soon end three four stimulating sometimes difficult school years headed cold cruel world leaving home college parts unknown approached watershed event newly released movie like twohour yearbook us escape titular song radio us screen friends rivals classmates faced dreams frustrations successes failuresbr br its especially poignant attended new york citys elite toptier high schools especially stuyvesant bronx hs science brooklyn tech like kids here considered best best auditions instead rigorous entrance exams perhaps even performing arts kids expected change world although necessarily become famous like them us made it pressure cooker environment fostered extraordinary camaraderie esprit de corps unlike toetapping hot lunch jam cafeteria graduation day spirits soared almost like jubilant crescendo rousing finale film leaves us fittingly single triumphant note end i sing body electric pointing blindingly bright boundless future promise heldbr br fame set anywhere else story never would worked small suburban school los angeles stronger identification movies television nyc mecca arts home called pa also worldrenowned juilliard nyc cultural center unmatched city world also time capsule rest city time showing seediness grit dirt endemic new york still struggling back fiscal crisis nearly bankrupted it all showed vitality since muted inroads giuliani disney tourismbr br what give young again fame least remember like,0 see point familyi never understood family never close like people are feel family limitation oh talk auntunclecousinmother like that ive never close family guess never clicked them feel family bond lot people talk put frank find annoying unnecessary memories mom yelling me telling im failuredevils child crying hard life is life hard love every time try talk back says you cant yell yell you right im mother crappy bullshit answer she actually says that finds reasons yell say brother tells complain much think complain much else do family gave physical needs survive give enough mentalpsychological needs dad know english gets bullied mom lot feel sad him hes good dad thinks things logically hes nice cousins people get along ill seeing rest life everyone else think main problem mom cant wait get life maybe ill start grateful miss start remembering good times ive instead thinking worst emotional roller coaster mom feel like narcissistshe entitledegotistical guilt trips carer cant anything it claims better think make feel better treating me recently forced program said opening doors me quit because want told to gets mad consulting her forces back says i changed mind anymore finalized everything program actual fuck cant fucking take mental abuse anymore want end im scared die efforts successful go absolute waste destined fail matter good grades matter hard ive tried reason is end life hand one day,1 see future myself think means im supposed onei know im actively suicidal actually redflag attempt years really view self harm redflag attempt since really point life threatening see point living though feel sort hollow numb time like smile laugh enjoy things think actually ever happy im ashamed myself im ashamed way body looks im ashamed fact im fat ive ruined self harm scars im ashamed cant seem keep people life fact im anxious depressed always comes out even though try hard normal functional partners im ashamed relationships ive in significant others greatest people im ruined fucked one would actually good long term would ever want me ive honestly given ever another loving relationship im slutty chick people fuck leave one would ever proud me even worthless im imposter job know anything hardly anything office im sort here know fired me let alone hired first place im school specific job field actually see graduating getting job see anything life ive never able see future myself honestly big emptiness there ive living day day basically past decade im surprised killed already honest always kind head think maybe fact right completely alone means optimal time it fuck life even more one really going miss devastated passing could sort pretty much affairs like hour so biggest issue would making sure house clean organized want anyone deal cleaning messes feel like even serious thing im experiencing sort mania sadness im just calm exactly resigned like im ready life supposed end,1 just washed the huge pile of post binge depression dish from my bedside table who s proud of me,1 Valentine's are lame so I'll bring you flowers just for no occasion ,0 is no longer on google,0 approach girl m always introverted friends girl find cute would like know start conversation get know more please help me thanks,0 self explanatory title i can make it through the day when distracted with a busy day at work or surrounded by friend but a soon a i m alone or i have a minute to think i realise how deeply unhappy i am in almost every aspect of my life i don t want to die i know there s thing to live for like family friend travelling new career potential love and child and maybe being one day happy but every day i wake up and struggle i feel little part of my health and sanity being chiseled off one by one and i just don t know how long i can do this for before i just give up,1 @kwidrick Awesome. And here's to a great week.....,0 gtg asapi wanted things set affairs order committing redflag birthday couple months think make far yesterday mom yelled told three weeks get job move skills motivation cant make own ive severely depressed years ive pretty much always lived constant state fear ive tried meds therapy fucking work really want die im scared feel like options im worried go hospital mom say im attention seeking lazy brat shell probably gut room get rid shit went hospital couple years ago unbearable suicidal kept week helped bit mom upset disappointed me id like poison bedroom im thinking might walk highway jump front truck parents go bed tonight wanted donate organs people whole body school anatomy but gotta fresh mangled also wanted avoid traumatizing strangers forcing witness death oh well fucking problem,1 know gonna hate im sorry gti lost gamelt,0 caliber put downi would rather try something little ummph unfortunately resources strained lr do im mainly curious chances survival using method,1 try post something sorry post removed ________ please familiarize rules,0 ashman0 my only complaint about facebook is they ve changed it so much it s confusing,0 pups dog birthed chewed damn internet boxs wire internet use phones data type gt hella pissed rn play singleplayer minecraft computer,0 want really selfishim teen really hate everything myself hate talk look dress entire personality etc want way body stress constantly school none means literally anything id much rather kill work essay another second im sad time im really not know im ugliest person im fairly talented musician gig semi regularly nice body bcuz lift etc happy im friends none like much like them ill put straight terrible crush one bestfriends shes one thing motivates im aware would never work matter do matter happy get always reminded life work reward ends honestly id rather die right work try best another years situation end without potential now xoxo,1 found use reaction channels add anything video theyre reacting use watch agerestricted videos not best method still use channels nonetheless,0 im scarred life accidentally found very christian parents stash condoms right next bible might move,0 haha @Diordan I meant i'm going to bed for the night...def not going out. But thanks anyway @all I have 1000... ? http://blip.fm/~78k0e,0 thinking it logically entire world falling apart anyway point staying humanity mess climate change happening right now everything terrible holding husband family kitty friend enough holding for holding for,1 anyone else having problem accessing ttb i cant get on,0 cant take anymorethe reason ive lasted long im yet find way kill myself yet leave organs intact donor usage want live life people allowed chance someone cant live life fullest given chance feel like im ruining chance existing need let go one way another ill find way preserve body breathe live life longer,1 on the coach gon na be fun,0 help thereive read many posts heres last days many people think theres hope is run group fb called pay forward global ones theyre linked it know right one bc admin there amanda roo fb pp kangaroo find it find me talk out im anyone needs it,1 ok tf express emotions like im sad shit ,0 @logansutch I know Bruce follows Danny..so cool! It'd awsome if we got him to sing with Mcfly! I know... really want to buy it! xx,0 i wa at work today and suddenly felt really really sleepy for no reason i do feel sleepy sometimes but this wa like extreme sleepiness brain fog ish feeling that i haven t experienced at all which of course made me little bit anxious luckily my ha is more manageable now a i know how to handle it the sleepiness fatigue lasted for like 0 0 min and then i wa fine when i got home i m yo healthy male and the only thing i suffer from is pollen allergy p wa really proud of myself that i didn t panic at that moment cuz i would definitely panicked when my ha wa really bad,1 im officially admittedly depressed tw want move toxic houseturning thought id magical way house money accomplish goals finally report abusive ex rapist thought finally get therapy etc stopped taking zoloft sertraline back cold turkied good emotional parents dont take anymore eye exams doctors appts concern swept rug always say theyll get therapy glasses never follow through need therapy ive needed since freshman year cheap therapists never give shit me called one saying suicidal wanting go politely told calm hung up dug trauma never showed another appointment braces years teeth straight beautiful year ago dentist told need wisdom teeth removed asap itll destroy progress guess cant afford it need glasses weak eye doesnt drift direction quite frankly im used looking fucked ive raised average family may selfish want ugly im terrified finally job cant leave money yet started first training day today looking job months dad wouldnt let work dad selfish controlling mom praises kisses feet defends him theres way point itll long time,1 gave up let run around wont desert made cry said goodbye told many lies hurt,0 which came first the chicken or the egg do i hate myself because of the constant rejection i ve experienced my whole life or am i constantly rejected because i hate myself both are true negative experience are what made me doubt myself so much if this keep happening over and over again then it must be because there s something wrong with me that people want to run away from i take it entirely personally but on the other hand people don t want a person who hate themselves in their life so they reject me and distance themselves i can never sustain positive self worth because every single time i m rejected i feel that they ve judged my character in some way and determined me either insignificant or toxic to them it s a never ending loop that ultimately leaf me alone and bitter i don t know how to fix it nothing seems to work it s like my mind is broken i feel like an evolutionary failure a cancerous lump meant to be excised from a healthy society i feel like i ve given up on myself,1 need help anyone good pythagriam tribometry half hours need help discord ahappysleepdeprivednerd someone could help get done would great,0 @Anitaa31 GoOd MOrning ,0 dont care anymoreout blue bf years thought going propose summer broke tuesday everything right went therapy got sober etc fact person told loved promised theyd never leave could make decision like blue makes realize isnt place want anymore starting let guard trust people again thats ruined now bought bottle jameson first time years hope kills,1 dont want dieplease help mothers day mother overbearing cruel dont get hit takesthrows away stuff constantly tells us much suck whatever dont know im right mind right now therapist told call ever feel suicidal am suicidal doubt make end week dont wanna make things worse already dont know anyone advice whatever just call her please need dont know dont want see dont know else please,1 wish she didn t have om homework to do right now,0 friends go years isolation took bigtm e p r e loving support network best friend always me matter what unconditional dropping anything world make sure ok one relationship later cut connections people closest me took years build connections with feel loved love best friend ever ex love pure like mothers love never let fall low low enough want die like now never impress make sure favourite person cared much matter happened would them jealousy demands economic ties battles life goals pure ex must love corrupt energy socialise never really know peoples opinions are probably think weird,1 feel suicidal every dayi keep telling suicidal thoughts self indulgent self pitying cant make stop ocd behaviours driving parents mad running helps think much get angry try make stop dont know,1 Just got a big wave of depression at work and I have a date with a girl tonight. #prayforme ,1 day great boom crisp water,0 ringing ears taking shower took shower ringing left ear think cant really tell cause really loud kind repeating ringing pattern second ringing second break second ringing repeats wanted share pain im experiencing perhaps got water ear something itll stop bit dont know thanks reading post,0 really sure anymorehi want start saying nothing tragic happened lost family member anything like that none less still consider redflag everyday option honest guts even pain probably would dont way painlessly right would consider even more every time contemplate cutting cant scars would still manage heal this also parents would send hospital straight away could impact year old year old brothers love much basically hope thats keeping alive right now hope normal again reason feel way impossible talk people properly anymore in real life way look impossible look uncomfortable social situations truthfully am basically shit scared people now including family im really sure screwed know life went downhill ever since year im year developed believe chronic dry eyes sleep deprivation anxiety social awkwardness depressed name probably feel it never drugs smoked yet still look act talk bit like drug addict ok reason life went downhill year onwards well basically move statesaustralia met someone who wish never met got addicted game masturbation porn became consumed masturbating porn found self energy play sport especially soccer cognitive skills window ever since then used really sporty kid really likeable enthusiastic life feel like energy drained zombie every day im sure masturbation problem tried stopping see improvement still stressed etc although managed stop week already several doctors specialists eyes nothings helped im starting lose hope self feel like every year going get worse worse think ill ever get job way am drive anything want homeless know deep really smart person hidden behind wall shit thats happening me theres anyone help would much obliged thank you,1 pedos sub ok ok someone explain many posts pedos recently drama wave pedos,0 imagine me running bedroom am morning screaming hustle hustle hustle wake ask confused who tf you answer get hustle go go h sleep hustle hustle hustle,0 sister first seizure years im younger sister younger sis diagnosed epilepsy age really bad surgery see seizures while yesterday came room saying felt wierd slumped over called looked like stopped breathing bit ok now really scary know im strong enough go went last time sis bad seizures ,0 please stop telling guys stop mansplaining manspreading stupid sexist terms give feminazis excuse mistreat men seriously like fact exist mean assholes us true women oppression generations fault ancestors generation like people stop coming new problems like mansplaining manspreading oh yeah manspreading thing called penis sensitive part bodies would ask us move legs instead making big deal would fine people pouring fucking bleach dicks apparently know ask politely ive enough shit thanks listening rant,0 i m so tired all the time in the physical mental and emotional sense all the time day go by doing nothing tired day of overexertion tired and sleep deprived the constant headache and facial pain doesn t help i feel like my tolerance to people is so low that i cry after i go outside my house or even more pathetically after when someone enters my room i don t know what s wrong with me nobody belief it you re so young how are you tired you need to toughen up the lab came back normal there s nothing wrong with you they don t know that every time i have to hold up this act the effect grows more and more devastating i don t blame them for it honestly i ve put up this act for such a long time that i don t think anybody really know who i am a a person i ve only allowed them to see the good side and whenever the bad side inevitably creep to the surface it inevitably end up being anticlimactically and severely misunderstood my mother try to string me along in vacation that end up draining me significantly and then she wonder why i sleep for hour every day a week after i ve given up the thing i like and i m passionate about because i feel too restless and tired to carry out anything towards a meaningful level jobless living with parent and on the cusp of a breakdown but nothing and no one that can help every night i hope i die in my sleep,1 cant handle iti tried tried tried tried tried accomplish parents have know place much energy finding partner clock ticking everyone else family kid family age started angry im always either angry depressed get partner happy truly happy lot people understand happiness get addicted things feel good think happiness experience take care partner cant even begin describe waterfall comfort sunlight rushing me like im needed like life purpose like im something right try hardest jackass referred rniceguys ive coiled anger ive letting slowly bits sordid degrading commentary pornographic subreddits comes sickness feel rage feel like im nothing like ill never anything lot people read listen problems take one way without even considering feelings nobody considers feelings ever ive depressed years nobody fucking cares im going tell nobody cares maybe help clear mind shoot myself severe abandonment issues severe mommy issues barely toddler woman gave birth ready fit mother still young would neglect favor parties friends dad way well suddenly awakening saw house party took away her married woman raised that except quite count one hand amount times ive hugged shown displays physical affection woman yeah yeah laugh want fucking hugged enough child something me several memories pushing try hug small shed sneer say something negative connotation child hearing words hearing tone voice good tone id often wonder wrong deserve hug oh always affectionate lovey dog shed kiss hug pet hours imagine like jealous dog getting attention felt deserved child you always best behavior effort get notice hug let like shed pet him never did late now im good late shit im afraid physical contact except sex learned young age sex feels good suitable replacement attention getting mother constantly busy work father got good sex briefly got trouble law sex somewhat main focus life now met ex first one actually display interest rather looks cock likely met online video game why wed talk hours end killing aliens together grew close eventually blossoming relationship lasted three beautiful years loved far away rarely got visit made it told eachother things weve never told anyone including problems mothers ive never told anyone something like her held me burst tears never held like before held close close could feel heart beating shook snotted shirt even matter her held told understood held told okay would hold always always said kept saying always way month broke know it really dont took care sexually even together took care made sure orgasmed every day would talk try best make smile everyday part associated mommy sort figure felt good made laugh smile sudden told love anymore lovedmemorelokea friend partner friends did mention fact three years friends told always pretty much times week and god heart broke could feel it like cold ice cold cracks splitting across heart really felt it changed thats rage started happening thats would start blacking anger getting sexual head aches sorts awful things got another partner everything wonderful again took care way took care ex better even even better stay always right good get keep always right wrong girl also said shed forever approximately six months later abandoned also explanation why next girl next next milicent found quality partnerand god damn mili best partner ive ever had one split mutually beneficial could pick back later were less busy could actually time eachother know trust go anyone else leave like but abused worse differently child understood thought actually listened talked anyways agreed would best talk completed college started college really almost year anyways thats wanted shoot brain stem earlier wanted kill earlier current partner ignoring week now honestly really liked lot sad girl made happy god feels good needed bring light someones life felt lovely abused us abused children got along together fabulously gave free reign body mind soul improved health mind set mother started grade bitch ruining everything also said something instead supportive talk me sounds trivial probably is worst feeling world guess really ds relationships well feel like failure make happy enough talking me third person ive talked troubles felt like could understand did hurts doubly ignoring me get hurt feel emotions really translates rage broken first heart break lasted long would shake hours collapse id fine one minute literally ground unable move legs breathe drowning dry land thats felt like cope sadness prevent dying body somehow learned translate emotions anger wrath pure unbridled whole body went cold vision went black also sort affect think combination heart breaking many times over lied mistreated relying anger much just even feel human feel except now feel like getting hard breathe feel like failure feel like nothing ever work out matter hard try matter much time attention devotion give partners also surrogate mommys matter always fail never enough im ever good enough really considered ending earlier started writing this going go garage get old russian officer pistol dad bought online know sure works put brain stem pull trigger im sick females lying me lie them treat every single partner ive ever like theyre going last partner thats want date marriage date marriage date heart break try hard please soothe issues try hard keep makes happy making happy always end failing get vengefuland sink wallowing wretchedness want die first time actually considered though suicide hotline pulled google know kill myself thats closest ever ending things dead worry living own worry money supplies maintaining image life style dead mymommy issues hurt so dead women bother me deadpeopleeoildmt make fun anymore say mean things me im done everything right now killed myself know theres probably least three people typing comments pathetic am maybe pathetic right almost died another human lied me sltof always lie use,1 whats hentai hear people talking alot idea is best examples find pms understand is thanks,0 literally anything funnier night literally anything funnier night,0 new article from obmneurobiology antidepressant treatment of depression in the elderly efficacy and safety consideration http t co hsu g pvhn narrative review of surgery for myasthenia gravis http t co siqks rzxp depression pharmacotherapy antibody http t co scs0lby0pi,1 im broken man looking forward deathnothing interests anymore really tried best nothing everyday cus im unmotivated anything all bring everyones mood im burden fucking disappointment,1 im still horndog reddit listening musicals baseball game tomorrow wtf wrong rn,0 finally finished noteit feels good finally see end sight days ill completely free happy,1 genuinely dont see point holding anymorenothing else say,1 give best pick line joke anything find exceptional ill give gold last post didnt get enough attention still got gold left,0 "wrap me tight in rice-paper string http://archiveofourown.org/works/11717343 • NAMJIN, namjoon-centric (7.6k)• LOT of dark stuff but mainly abt recovery and healing• BIG TW!: child sexual abuse, rape, depression, drug use, suicide attempt• only recommending this cause it's very well-written pic.twitter.com/6fqddXe5BY",1 humanity mistake httpswwwredditcomrspongebobporncommentsluaoh_gaaarryyyy_im_homeutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare,0 excuse the blasphemy but no i dont need god to tell me anything before i choose to do whats right no my lack of religion isnt what gave me anxiety and depression it your abusive parenting style on the first half of my life dont blame my belief pls,1 massage wa great i just spilled coke all over my desk lame watching the simpson a i ve finished all my hill dvd,0 @Runrabbit hello ^^ the meeting will be this evening ~ will start around 9pm how are you today?,0 knight no no notice they told me i d be working tomorrow and then i called the agency to follow up and they said it wa over,0 hey guys im lunch right wanna spam notifications see english class care spam letter want ton,0 death comes mewhen die hand serene think it end without fear spoke friend day similar state mind commiserated tribulations life mundane existence door close now beckon void,1 "@dougiemcfly @harrymcfly @Dannymcfly Thank you for your songs and being you, you help me forget the guy who broke my heart again ",0 rteenagers snoo girl ascii art hope like it txt filehttpstinyuploadcomindexphpfile_id,0 Why on earth do we sit here thinking ourselves into depression over someone who doesn't deserve it?,1 pros cons pros convicted pedophile,0 i ve always had anxiety issue a a kid i thought that i wa normal and everyone felt this way dry heaving in the car on the way to a new babysitter house i m now and i still have constant anxiety the last three month have been worse than anything prior the only time i feel slightly normal is when i take a xanax my dr said that they re addictive so it s a short term solution i have been off of work on and off for two month my dr gave me zoloft and i ve been on it for a week and a half and i m still somewhat hopeful that it ll kick in but idk what i ll do if it doesn t help substantially,1 im pretty weak willed personim sorry know long guess ill start introducing myself name tony years old father two children married mother two children things rough since first child born august know plenty people kids young gone tough times title suggests weak willed person im coward im easily broken im physically weak wife counters ways stronger me mentally her everything simple thats me ive tried strong always turns facade wife well ive gotten help ive therapist part months feel like everything said made sense stupid reason never follow through im quitter stubborn turn tail run going gets tough every single one aspects attributed depression constant thoughts ending all offing myself kids awesome lately feel like ive feeling hate them especially daughter pick up practically screams me never done started little harsh cries for literally nothing harsh yelling light smacks butt nothing hard enough let know unacceptable months feel hatred her son two years old every time discipline something unacceptable yells back me know hes kid thats kids bothers discipline says i want mommy broke heart made break down crying first time heard it yesterday ever since daughter born thoughts redflag gotten progressively worse thinking trying it without success mostly pills course think everybody else take death hurt them would dead ability care selfish thought feel like made handle everything im going now kids young married young two jobs moving state want at used live arizona loved there wife practically forced move california hate here thats things got worse felt choice still wanted children would left behind anyway conflict wife right now moved want to got job amazon fulfillment center want to were living brother girlfriend want judgemental pretentious people ever share conflict well one point brother almost got fight argument feel like go anymore,1 things slow burn many things overlapped one another pushed finished phd im worn looking it ive realized psychological symptoms redflag display closely aligned racismspecific redflag ive psychotherapy im sure therapist adequately prepared identify it know certain redflag want begin healing im done grad school wherehow start,1 @NadineDorries @campbellclaret is such a vile hateful individual that it has manifested it self in him as 'depression' from which he says he suffers. Is it any wonder? Rees-Mogg on the other hand is a happy decent individual,1 I wish this cloud of depression over my head would go tf away.,1 is rebooting relic and hoping to 'see' @vmadly b/f going face down. :p It's been a loooong wonderful weekend. ,0 reached point returnive suffering depression long cant even remember started ever since childhood began notice every years for different triggers enter depressive cycles become literally useless devoid motivation willpower point sabotaging life consciously sortf sick inevitable impulse compare addiction sorry think rn today years old year since entered worst depressive spiral life months ago fired job copy writer home let exboss many times therefore im broke broke boyfriend kicked dog getting tired trying help sustain me best friend speaking one talk ive also turned pathological liar year lied many times trying get better working speaking option anymore im currently days away becoming homeless cannot pay rent buy food seek help turn relatives since live outside home ountry degree practical knowledge know write able land another job even waiter point would think survival instinct would jump motivate think committing redflag want live crappy life even im coward conscious death would affect loved ones write im embarrased become want talk someone ask advice case anyone gone thing time hope live seems pointless like waste give life definitely stop breathing would call redflag prevention line credit phone know im pathetic sorry typos im best write english also know real problems like terminal cancer schizophrenia not judging something like that brain wired backwards guess,1 man fuck hoe want back tho,0 "Ga, when did I ever play a trick on you? ",0 made drink doesnt taste half bad peach bubly frozen orange juice little bit grenadine maraschino cherries bit triple sec orange alcoholwith parent permission course tastes pretty good,0 realized gay eat popcorn people say gay eat popcorn busted nut wrong popcorn kernels seeeeeeds proof httpswwwgooglecomsearchqisapopcornkernelaseedampieutfampoeutfamphlenusampclientsafari,0 @kanyewest @miked2345 @aldridtl thanks to Ovama and his policies he prevented the recession to turn into a depression— there are a miriam of other accomplishments but this one cannot be disputed. I can not believe anyone believes in Trump being honorable or representing anyone but himself.,1 wow like gaming bought nintendo switch march quarantine im already bored it bought one game tho pokmon sword still think ill excited games imma sell buy good headphones big question is beats bose,0 hello teens reddit go middle name family thing named great grandfather middle name dads favorite book character first name names combined means goose army,0 movie needs come dvd cause thats way buy it thought soo funny real plot it suppose oscar winning film appreciate films cary elwes cute robin hood cant even think favorite part movie pretty good anyways peace out,0 funny life change second attend the waterdance first time unforgettable experience way need get used new way life seem frightening notice people going similar situation help go on br br eric stoltzs performances mainly helen hunt oh man helen purest graceful woman earth wonderful wesley snipes also surprises one last serious roles film simple time deep get leave us indifferent message transmitted enjoy moment lifebr br really film hour attended sorry brazilian expression,0 former gifted child case again dissapoint parents show think anymore maybe stop high expectations me show terrible be man terrible kid thinking way deserve horrible gifted got lucky disappointment deserve trash kid like deserve better part wants make parents proud time want disappoint finally see really,1 g day at the evil highschool right now,0 @GuttaButta I'm having this debate with my friends now she said that too!,0 im graduate elite university people say im beautiful great friends toxic relationship shattered self esteem ever since boy walked away ive suicidaltheres that rough childhood im insecure upbringing despite ending really good position working hard life want loved someone love back live little brother dont want bad example him that suicidal every single day life two years,1 @Sarah_1991 it was good was it? mixed reviews in papers! interesting pictures in todays paper though ,0 not feeling well again stupid migraine making my tummy upset and my whole body ache shoot me now,0 cant stop imagining ithow would long would take get caught anyone give shit trying best utilize coping skills support systems getting harder hour say still fighting for family hasnt even offered drive see me im burden keep saying go walk think positive yeah dont think key would better now want go hospital im also afraid right now thanks letting vent bit,1 i just started citalopram this month and my period is late could this be a symptom of starting a ssri,1 want live my birthday week always thought would feeling better then ive really trying past years especially past months know point im going achieve want to im unhappy it im proud things accomplished life bit disappointed time lost trying get better ive already admitted hospital want go back know im know people think waste life believe ill good it ive lost lot friends ive hurting best friend feel like ive emotionally manipulative needs stop im content knowing could want hurt anymore ive trying delay smoking weed heavily getting bit unbearable relief knowing end soon,1 solid liquid gas come gentials states matter also come mouth,0 over lockdown i started binge eating to get through it wa fucking fantastic i d just get unbelievably stoned and eat and then suddenly it s tomorrow i didn t have to deal with anything but i don t enjoy eating anymore i don t like food it suck and i m at work and i pig out just to try make myself feel better because i guess that s what i do and i felt horrible so i thought hey is a good a year a any to develop an eating disorder so i tried throwing up in the toilet and literally couldn t get anything up i just gagged and then i pull back and suddenly the cloud change and i m just bathed in sunlight kneeling on the floor of a bathroom and i just couldn t stop thinking of those prayer add that say try praying and couldn t stop laughing for like 0 minute i wanted to share because i think it s really funny but who tf am i telling this story to so you get it anyways now i feel spewy af and need a smoke hope you enjoyed xo,1 need helpi need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help,1 wish someone would call mei havent feeling good would nice hear someones voice dont alone usually put music trying im overstimulated racing thoughts mania moment since havent sleeping want hear someone tell day maybe ask mine,1 enough fentanyl to kill a gorilla i m sorry i don t wan na hurt my family but i can t go on another day living a a junkie fuck up might a well end it i love you zoey in case you re reading this i m sorry,1 mean friend says i mood someone text rn talk whilst talking like someone talkin to feel like available comfortable venting friend keep company one else friend want there get wanting talk people talkin means someone want talk rn one available feeling multiple times would express bored talkin ignoring someone else messagesoh asked like texting said different like tired first choice good enough want cut everyone never give time anyone like never consider anyone friend friends making feel unimportant,1 piece shit wanted remind piece shit wanted whole world see am thank stopping by,0 poured everything relationship im worse start withabout months ago met someone reddit best period life week met happened around time things started going downhill faster difficult first opened level id never come close anyone before admitted feelings couple months later fought relationship helped worst times life now disclosed much could bring past things people done effects had first same others backs things started go downhill suppose long distance relationships rarely go well whilst hurt able take care person willing keep going joy brought life apparently werent yesterday i bad moment admitted frustrated situation their parental situation meant harder us see other instant relationship over supposedly protect me deserved better something else longer see ive deleted conversation history trusted them poured heart soul sanity making us work spent much time talking hours felt empty since never hope future met them severe fear death kept going far every day mental image falling nearest bridge replays mind constantly everything reminds them almost everything together even hug song introduced namely music activity eachother about things used enjoy gets crying again im sad feel hollow useless main thing motivating improve myself medical condition fixing us physical fitness i always quite underweight us lack effort uni trying fix work towards future us theyd taken away worst insecurities things good back worse im constantly questioning wrong whether ever really loved back whether broke found unattractive reason person supposed live without ambition hope concept future anything look forward to pressures outside world increasing various deadlines major decisions need make close me want stop cant see future world one thing consistently made happy gone enjoy present either past rules life past shit promised wed try stay friends afterwards too went window instantly blocked main apps used communication cant lean friends theyre going shit im alone alone without keep going,1 i constantly have negative suicidal thought and i need it to stop,1 @mcraddictal I LOVE Heaven Help Us. It's my favourite b-side in the history of ever ,0 i am wondering how to work this site,0 what is the point of going on when your parent don t like you your friend are nonexistent and your school is the most unsupportive and toxic place you could be in i m not loved by anyone i doubt i will be so forever i ll be alone i might a well take all the pill in the house nobody will have cared about me anyways,1 @bryonyxx Yeah a got quite a bit .. just need a few more bits for the evening like jewellery oh and a need a bag to ,0 At Anfield waiting for the game to start ,0 ariana grenade ,0 potatoe famine want mashed potatoes im hungry,0 im sorrysexualphysicalmental abuse child almost sold human trafficking someone intervened put foster home women tells spent life praying daughter am returned mother foster parents told never see us again relocated canada usa mom loses custody us arrested last time saw her returned canada waited everyday mom come get me finally receive message mother tells none abuse suffered real ptsd fuck ups weve diagnosed cant real according her try killing twice rehab physically abusive relationship beat pregnant tried kill once one distinct memory drunk searched house something find it came room laying bed breastfeeding daughter punched face hard could would strangle till blacked out scars face charged domestic abuse paid fine gained courage leave left province cuts contact gets dui province comes back wants visitation custody battle new relationship old ways kicked home sent shelter yesterday custody hearing valentines day today cant fight anymore spent life fighting spent life thinking enough years bullshit done fighting really enough finally convinced myself enough never understood mom could leave me understand difference daughter worth fight daughter means world me called father court anything ever happened would okay neither us deserve you love you want happy dead end love love love done fighting cant even believe saying this love thing got far love much,1 ok dont laugh need help deciding two christmas lights minecraft ive honestly fucking hours please help decide cant take anymore lol decide me httpsimgurcomateseln,0 falling asleep just heard about that tracy girl s body being found how sad my heart break for that family,0 it doesn t matter anymore i m going to copy and paste my note it really doesn t matter i know i m spilling my gut out oh who care now i m lonely i m a solider to my self pride status something i fail to achieve my whole life achieving to be a boy the one my parent are proud of the only reason i m not forgotten is because i m away from home do you think they remember me i m so fine with being lonesome i could live i no longer cry i no longer care i m not deep i m not feminine i no longer attract you i m not part of them or you or your life i m not even an outcast or part of the story all my life i thought of my self a the extra in this story but i realised i m not even that i m so lonesome and not noticeable i could disappear right in this northern line i carry everything in onto me try to care that i m awake but i remember everything what have i become maybe you could have it all maybe you are the one that make his memory you re unforgettable you are the one that s not me i ve been forgotten no presence of my own the place i have for myself have never been anything but death and so it s hard to imagine a life where there s life i m apologetic towards the emotion regarding me but i m not sorry that i m here somethings in my way it might be myself never have i been so ill and treated at the same time just been treated so badly in the past that even this single bit of kindness coming from you made me feel so sane that s all i got from you half as explanation came in my house and my mouth then you d leave to someone else s house some other girl post wrestling story line when i feel scared sad sorry about a story i feel le that about my self today wow look at what u did today look at how you feel look how easy it is to resolve conflict how easy it is to lie do that again i bet u what happened that you are in a bad mood are you reminded again that nobody care leading you to my story opening my chest up with information so little you barely understand i m here waiting what will it take for you to leave this time i m still right here puzzled i live in another house now in another country with a completely different routine and identity from my last one and the other one out in this city for year feel kind of funny i can t tell what s real and fake anymore did time really passed do i even have a family am i even here million people in london how do i always managed to find the most bat shit crazy one to befriend you only filling my free time with people way to stoned to remember all of u forgetting yesterday just like i wanted so lonely can i be yours fucking unmanageable why do i always get into this messy situation i can t bare to work here anymore i m fine but bitch who want me to fail will succeed unfortunately i want to die dead groom and corpse bride i can t write anymore no song describe the desperate feeling for thing to end again i kiss them the way i wish i wa kissing you who are you though third time cry at the tube this week i m tired i wanted to ask the world is it really a bad thing to die i wanted my work to speak for me speak for it self so i don t ever even have to talk i wanted to make every work my last piece of work becuz i could be gone anytime soon i wanted every piece to be the final piece the finale maybe this situation make me feel safe no attachment no regret i never had to say goodbye to anyone except maybe lily and grandma and grandpa and mom and dad and maybe my therapist if i die here in uk i only want lily to be at my funeral literally if anyone else dare to show up i would haunt the fuck out of them for the rest of eternity you were never here when i wa alive fucking bastard thanks to my grandparent i got that little piece of my childhood that i wa genuinely happy just that little bit of time in my life who would ve know that be the last time i ll ever be happy i ve only been happy once this illness is for life making peace that it might never get better thinking of bigger idea finalising my purpose stick to my self strengthening my sorrow smoking my thought away diving into these men story one by one from my perspective dying of thirst do you think they secretly categorises u year i m still the same out shining you probably at the bottom of my stash damnnnnn i got option i have a dream my ultimate weakness is being fearless how come yesterday i wa fine and today is another day of fucking it up yesterday wa a rebirth i ve lost him great the move on period that i m sadly familiar with probably the only thing i know how to do when i know exactly what to do my path is clear and i m brave fierce today we begin the process which probably started before i even knew it did subconsciously i never had him or wanted him in the first place they re right it triggered me badly i wanted to die now i want to live at least till i get to go home non of this matter at the end of the day i have to admit i don t care about the superficial stuff i care about the ugliness amp beauty we all are capable of the ugliness that we are capable of meeting by the pizza shop aa na that i ve never attended bill i never payed harmony that sound heavenly good standing by my self haunted by i feel unstoppable fucking fearless i am ready i want to hide in ur closet and cut open your wound i can t remember the last time i spent a proper holiday with family i don t really get sad anymore you get used to it and if you ve spent holiday with my family you ll be grateful to spend it alone and again me being me i rarely remember the good time i just know the bad maybe i get a little sad because even during covid people had the hope of seeing their family this year when i already know it s not going to happen i m not scared to have nothing and no one care if you have your last night on earth who do you rather spend it with i know it s not going to be any family member it s luck to tolerate more then half an hr with them ex s not really it s the people that i don t need to speak to the people that know me by just one look the people that really know i m just describing my self i d probably want to be alone for my last night on earth my stomach is always full nobody ever get killed everyone s fine life is pretty good cutting open my wound for show watching you from a far i just can t stop it s like i want to surgically remove you from my life just cutting till i get you to leave me alone i wa trying to find comfort in you now i realise i got that with everyone once you realise the concept of abuser come from being a victim and then everything make sense now all i know my whole life is to be the other woman just never the main one about to make myself sad again if he like me he take me home put me in a box it is so weird to cum to pain then why do we do it lol why do i do it enjoy now i m feeling really complicated about tattoo because now i feel addicted this kinda of experience lol had a massive break down don t know how to feel about anything let s just wait a few day i just didn t care what happens to me anymore it just feel like an out of body experience i m still alive but i feel dead feel like i m no longer here so basically i never had a relationship i reminded him of his ex he reminded me of both of my rapist someone put a spell on me i m in a secret place i m having so much fun with my head with my thought it s no longer delusion living inside my head i just built our living room and you re right there you you you you you him and him too stop stopppppppp being an artist is not hard stick that needle right through your heart what i feel the best about the blur is gone been bothering my entire life how miserable i am i couldn t live with the fact that i wa the only one but it finally made sense took me year to realise i wa even raped just a little girl to want to know you were raped took more then just time i just didn t know what wa ok because nobody ever asked or when they do i m not even sure i m not even sure what i wanted them to do to end this end me and this point on i m forever on my own in my head shhh they don t know i m going to leave i ve been so tired cry almost everyday it s not hard to face the past it s just difficult to imagine how long it s going to take for me to hide all this so someone would finally want me i need some help i never satisfied them at all why do some girl have everything i ever wanted in life he s like drug i can t get out this feeling i don t deserve i miss him and i hate myself i wan na leave him but i hate my self too much to leave even if it s fake i wanted someone to appreciate me for fuck sake it s so bad i just stopped caring about everything nothing matter to me anymore over flooded anxiety worry about the wrong thing think about bigger plan tho but i can t help but fuxking screammnmmm into the crowded bar god why whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyuuyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ficking pound to go home r u serious trying to keep my love life alive i sat by the bar dodging your eye winking at you fucking in the bathroom how i wish i didn t look at you didn t share that look that moment i i wish i didn t drink running around town in the middle of the night my heart is on the edge being alone getting high on my own year later and everyone still left am i even breathing do you want me or not just tell me if u do he used to pick me up after school boarding school drive way i sneak back into my bed at am hurting because i had to leave cry because i m already hurt now he pick me up after work he said he ll see me again and i don t even know why spilling my gut out in this note app my own best friend hate me the girl that i pour my heart into she doesn t even know me i don t remember much about anything ever i m happy like that if i remember all my feeling it ll be hard to get by so dark blue i wonder why i hear picture i m gon na fly but i feel small i want him to tell me all his secret thing you don t tell anyone i ll take it off you let s me carry it for you on my shoulder very free i am the girl that thing happen to why would anyone want to see the wound that i carry i hate to lie but i probably will disappoint him exit is too late if i could just have a moment to breathe please can t take it much more then this i m taking my chance not much more love left in this either did you just wanted to have fun anyone can be my daddy today he s far far away away from me have i told anyone i don t want to be the main one it s fun behind the camera it s safe being the stalker i m comfortable stood low when i fall at least it won t even hurt liar liar i m going to keep it low this time i ll ease it in but if this time go i ll be okay too i m already broken so what if i get thrown to the ground again every men ha failed me greatly my girl and i we deserve the world i m gon na kiss her forehead in my dream i m going to hell just left his house and he s on his way to mine not sure which lie to tell because when i kill her in my dream you won t have a friend to cook with no one showed up why can t you be useful for once nothing scare me anymore he invited me to a millionaire mansion said we can do anything we want wild swim in a private lake i said i might drown drown and i want to die and i want to lie he know about me i am twenty but like chain i rust you throw me to the ground again pulling my hair my heart shattered to piece he had no idea the war i fought and finally fight i am a soldier far away from home with no one to call belongs to no one i miss their forehead kiss solid a a rock shell each ringed a bell but shamed me to hell you call you called he called a well i miss my self my old self me a a child i want her back i m going to have a kid a little girl that i m going to protect at all cost all my life i wanted to be her but who is she it s just who ever he actually want it doesn t make sense you know i won t satisfy don t have the luck going to suffer every way possible life turn into shit for my girl but they re laying under the sun she s having some fun i m picking up my ash on the floor so i smoke it again luxury fine dining cocktail every day her hair is silky when she get hurt people fight for her is it wrong i hope she get killed being bi sexual and a story teller mean i make up plot and chapter between whoever is making me jealous it s actually a really nice way to train my self from getting attached to anything at all adding story to people relationship give me a deeper understanding of in a way i no longer call my bad thought putting my self down if all my thought are bad they re no longer bad thought they re just thought first and foremost i m going to write about you and your girl this is my kind of fun i hope when i m not around she fulfil your void you can have both my body and her presence we look alike don t we i m in my own corner the voice in my head say you re alarmed people say it s impossible you d be into me i believe them why would you choose me of all people i just can t believe anyone would have anything to do with me someone who just isn t special enough to have anybody i might be a little emotional writing this missed my mood stabiliser again it s ok though you can lay your head in my tummy i bet it reminds you of hers i have found my calling i m everyone s girlfriend just ended thing with you contagious doing another test simply because i just don t trust you it is my problem i should let you go i know you re no good but you were at least nice and no one have been nice to me in a while feel calm to think about how i ll be safe and sound in my pain another story to shoot yeah it didn t make sense to me but now it doe love bombing didn t work on me even though i ve been alone for a long time thank god for putting me through shit early enough that i left early a well my bad for thinking you knew better i felt like a piece of shit again again i don t give a fuck about any of you anyways but why i never know what am of you want or need i don t understand i might be on the spectrum you know i never communicated flaw are just so deep it s like haunting through sleep am i the one stopping her happiness i never analysed why i did all those thing during elementary school that my mom had to literally befriend my teacher to make sure i m took care of i wa that troubled 9 i think of all these intruder that entered my body without my wish kelly moore s dad a white kindergarten teacher in a majority chinese school felix another white men that raped me unconsciously in the club naz in which i still not entirely sure how i got lured into i look back at my self i sometimes wondered what went wrong how i wa made the best and then the worst why did i always had a bad time why i don t remember anything why and why and why did all this happened to me i think i just had an over amount of change that now i need a giant break but i don t know how to relax i love you but who i need to love someone why do i do that when i don t know who you are i m so stressed out i can only move on being rough wa all i know just people forcing themselves onto me all the time maybe why i thought zaineb wa so special and i m not ready to have that again even thought iain count a my first love i think zaineb wa when i completely trusted someone i just feel wrong and not accepted i guess i had another thought all those time they ve touched me just touching me everyone not just at the club it be when i wa getting take out shopping at the super market i never said anything why didn t i every time i look in the mirror i see myself disappearing into a bubble i wish i wa brand new i wish i wa soft and clean fresh off the boat too i wish i still believed in the world and white men you guy are losing me bit by bit day by day faded into the background i guess for now i know there s more to life than romance and belonging there s knowledge and creation story line and peacefulness in nature i realised that s when i m most allowed to stay is when i realised i m not rejected by the other side i m not rejected by hell a place that ll understand me may devil protect me and be by my side got ta stop having death fantasy must be a reason why i m fortunate and not is it karma or wealth abused or wa i too spoiled to think i deserve happiness is it karma or illness it must be karma right i know everything about you i usually prepare my research before i meet you a guy anyone i go through your family photo your ex the girl you slept with before me and potentially after me too i spot for lie matching the story you told me with evidence the fun part is researching the girl you are fucking i can feel my heart beat it like an electrical rush of anxiety it s quite an easy and intimate process a i realised my instinct is right every time by the way this is the time where i note down possible event that might happen in the future if this is torture then i don t know what fun is solving this puzzle i uncover every step a i am walking through your living room i give a fuck about you everyday ever since my first project i want to know everything the truth of story that s happening to me i need truth i need clue i need to find out if i m the other woman why do you want to know thing you shouldn t know ugliest ugliest truth still better than lie in my opinion and when i learned the fact that i am nothing in your story this is where i imagine love story that involves the girl you actually like is this process psychopathic i think it s a poetic way of practicing being a wife haven t wrote shit in a minute i guess i don t know what to say anymore i need to get going nothing ha been working fuck u all listening to he talk a i sit there again and again with my mouth shut still taste the cum in the back of my throat we expect the extreme every time we meet i always walk into your empty house the house you shared with her for year convincing myself that i don t care about you anyways ever since i haven t been able to learn or live i ve just been getting by and ruining my own life maybe it wasn t even that traumatic but i had to have an excuse for something right i guess i wa pale and green i became dumb never shared a thing fell short when my friend are watching film i watch now i read now i wouldn t have done the same for him filled my life with horror escaping intoxicated insane fucked so good fun fun fun you don t know half of the shit i actually go through you just think i m a simple whore i could be for you i wear black tights and two silk bow tie on the tip of my knee get all the way down i wait they always tell me to stay where i am because my back is arched and my as is in the air all the thing that made me who i am i bet her art is even wholesome and not pain then i worried i m not ur enough hey i feel better now still remember me what you ve been up to im not sure writing you from afar i m just getting to know myself why would i forget you i wa just trying to forget my self i m leaving london soon just like how i left china just like how i left la and like i left china again when will i ever return there s no more looking back my family s fed and i have some money under my name the only fortunate thing little fire lit in my world will never have the glory they once have i m not extraordinary enough but cool to have fun recently my family discovered that i am american a real american a real person with a passport that doesn t require month of quarantine a real passport that doesn t need a visa a real world i m freed and you don t understand i m trying to free my family too come i ll swallow all the feeling you might have may i open wide and welcome you inside up and down spending time with men that want anything but me ex and ex never ending dark hole of a modern bitch clear whiskey glass amp cocktail you never payed for her spend it all on me you never called no one did,1 amazon mp downloads down to 9p so much for my 0 cheer jodiedoubleday http tinyurl com dg qtg,0 ive preparing kill self month so things freak things today left thinking otherwiseso today sat run car parking spot trying get head sleep car pulled right never turned radio down made impossible sleep next side old guy pulled up really old kept playing radio eventually sat up tired acted like guys old bloke right chilling car park abouy minutes two hours old guy left started hating people again even started googling phone people like rats thats felt then fell asleep woke noticed nice cars behind one bloke looking me thought time go turned ignition nothing dull click againi started hate humans again seen get old feller get merc smile face heard ignition fail car park came pappa john pizza driver reason said along shot mate jump leads would you cut along story short car running life thanks guy suicidal earlier thoughts humans rats true saved today somone earns nothing shrugged somone earns somthing,1 simply floating life lithe inconsequential object people mostly ignore whim moan tremble shake bit much them become invisible suffering deeply nearly decade now admit many problems stem self instead muster feels like herculean willpower personal strength both have suicide genuinely seems like better option sickening utilitarian conclusion thoughtlessly turned personal mantra dissect shortcomings already do people life grown tired bored disgusted frightened finally seal residual ties might still me stop drowning selfpity remove wretched existence like done years ago faulty logic know much pain right feels like thing do scum hate myself wish anymore much coward it pray sort cthonic entity one day muster yetunpossessed resolve find way end life tired all yet never seems end need stop feel like spectre,1 @theknickermafia how is life over yorkshire way today? ,0 context grew up in a pretty abusive family and always wanted to jill myself even a a young child it get worse till couldn t cope and went to child service at age a i felt i wa going crazy i wa removed from my family and never saw my mum sister again my suicidal thought seem to not always be here now but come in wave i m feeling pretty suicidal now a my gf left me but it made me reminiscent of my last suicidal episode about a year ago this wa the most intense one yet i had plan and everything the last thing i had to do wa to speak to my mum and sister before i passed away i spoke to my sister first and she basically wa horrible to me to the point i couldn t speak to my mum out of guilt turn out the abuse got a lot worse after i got removed and my sister blamed me for it it hit me pretty hard i didn t end up speaking to my mum here s where thing get interesting a i never spoke to my mum i never killed my self she ended up dying a few month afterwards now i feel weird if i had rang her and killed myself would she have been alive it sound silly but my mum illness wa caused by sadness i m sure if i spoke to her she would have survived but then i would be dead so would my suicide have saved a life somewhat this now make me more suicidal a i didn t speak to her before she died but this time i don t have the courage to kill myself sticky situation,1 day posting something everyday get girlfriend im bored ask question want answer,0 mean why well die anyway someday could die want considered bad insane past japan example normal thing commit suicide remove shame even honourable ok kill day kind protest cannot kill nothing even suffering much like know form shame like understand big deal humans die anyway someday matter die years earlier later times ok honourable death let it see optimistically negatively like fuck up die know describe see optimistically like suffer much still want die things fucked up see relief salvation fuck ups know sound like kid feels cool me like feeling watch movie tough good guy main character even tough code like kill children stab back give chance defend etc like codes seems cool thing feels like code too feels cool too bad kill,1 phillcoleman i had it a low a last night,0 bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruhbruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh,0 sex ppl minion blanket want proof ur lookin,0 @miss_hazy do you need some lines to chat him up or maybe impress him? ,0 addiction broke another relationshipi love girldamn amazing first time someone made feel like truly didnt need drugs ended telling addiction wanted get better didnt take well dont blame her first time addiction cut relationship quite time depressed addicted drugs always believed least valueim ugly im funny try care people animals im loving partner relationshipsim always trying make people feel good themselves always thought worth even small past months dont believe anymore im finally worthlessmy addiction robbed everything hadeverything family doesnt like memy exes hate me friends avoid me even sister spent whole life trying take care of see loserits week since talked me even looked face job anymore failing college im fat depressed maniac disappear days end mom feels sad me used little bright boy today literally hear mom getting face yelling coward liar druggie one people left still tried help me run peoplei friends anymore one cant near me cant help anymore think im getting end linethere nothing left thats it wasted whole lifeeverything mom build me everything people invested gone im nothingim worthless actionsim suffering consequences shitty person was,1 life just fucking suck i hate everything but above anything else the most i hate is religion i cant help it but say that i do not understand religion and their concept guess what i had to be born in a religious family fuck yeah because of that i am constantly threatened by religious friend and family looking at me like i am a disgusting being constant physical abuse by my mother just because i disagree with their belief i never wa disrepectful to them i just hoped that i could be free and decied wetehr or not follow the religion but no my mother is more worried of what other family member think of her so she try to force me to not reject religion or else my family will think that she is a bad mother and look down on her my family is a fucking joke this is not my only reason that made me start having suicidal thought i am a teenager male so i unfortunately still depend of my mother but that doe not matter because i decided that after finishing uni i will kill msyelf i am weak i cant even handle a full time job i have no realistic goal i have no ambition and even le motivation to do anything it seems i am not suitable fort this world so the only thing i am able to do is fuck this shit i give up i am not strong enough and i know it is pathetic and cowardly yes you are right i am a fucking coward piece of scum so please kill me already,1 im horny anymore kidding im even horny,0 everything say gets deleted but genuinely do really really want kill myself also not live loving life hate horribly cut routine feel now like baths cleans makes less visible family noticeask kill hate,1 im girl please give attention bcos im girl im begging,0 im waitingfor one final straw drive edge finally all ive prepared everything except im going redflag note point dont even want write notetheres nothing want say anybodyits fault born suicidal self harming piece shit,1 "@drlfarrell #irishmed T1 Early intervention. Also, GP aware of impact of physical health on psychological well being aside from discrete MH difficulties ie anxiety/depression.",1 yeah sure breakups hurt ever lost amazing person life guys miscommunicated started dating best friend cant tell really felt see together time,0 better die means saving hersometimes vivid thoughts usually dreams sometimes happen im awake too ampxb see her bruised bloodied crying front me see feel warmth hands feel smell blood like see hurt dont always beautiful matter looks sounds like time always see her bleeding head cowering fear horrible always know im responsible sometime even sobs stop cant take it know never ever loved ever wanted but even infinitesimally small chance could reality better die loneliness enough make want kill myself even somehow somehow wrong that better die anyway protect whoever future victim wouldve been know ill never loved saw experienced physical sexual emotional abuse whos say girl love worth dying too make sure that chance future girlfriend exist finds someone actually take care instead someone wholl carry pain,1 second semester college starts tomorrow girl ive talking mia lately fact ill never successful streaming dreamsmp making sad wanna say something nice imma sleep rn ill wake whatever im awake say anything want song recommendations life tips whats going life anything ill see em tomorrow gnight ladies gents,0 keep living herive suicidal long time ive made several attempts before im used people caring attempt ive made new friend think would take hard wrong got really sad scared visited afterwards hugged crying tried make promise keep alive her want make feel like hard keep fighting still want end feeling guilt thinking taking life know much would hurt her really know anymore since feelings constantly gnawing me harder psychiatrist taking break holidays cant speak either this,1 want die stop burdenim tired burden everyone around me im trans matter life able pass appearances put strain every single relationship ive ever had lost friends family detests me family letting stay graduated college ended dropping almost year ago point able find job anything pretend go college every day dont soon figure may latest supposed graduate theyll throw ill homeless unable keep transitioning unemployed feel like get instead go put family trouble throwing im issue,1 goodbye amp thank youmy ex girlfriend years left hours ago watched leave knowing never come back knowing never see feel again always knew day would come however would deny deep inside prepared happen next life therefore decided time finish adventure here would like thank ex girlfriend girlfriend best friend amazing person supporting me accepting following around world truly deserve amazing person life travelled played video games suffered achieved many things together planned whole future together excited unfortunately something changed something flipped switch head decided longer going part future love felt gone chance try fix it made decision left quickly time react always knew ever lost would longer able live life carry on knew would completely dead inside energy motivation continue move on one person really helped life gave reason get every morning work love much person wanted spend rest life with gone thank sharing years life me travelling creating amazing memories together could asked better person nobody ever able replace you would also like thank father allowing amazing childhood allowing amazing relationship ex helped us go explore world encouraged us follow dreams matter what thankful father cared much invested much time making sure life great was last person would like thank sister giving somewhere stay looking tough moments life never got tell much amazing sister really are know really hurt please understand need do know cause lot pain longer live like this ex true love person could really talk to something funny show going tough times fought hard get were love different everyday special waking next seeing face gave much happiness could write much feel want get finish need say quickly life unfair one moment flying clouds next struggling get bed make breakfast even shower feeling way killing me ive never felt sad life know get better matter much try longer love life giving energy decided time right pull plug accept people handle better others years planet last spent best years life really fun longer accept fact us things building causing much pain cant face family tell happened cant open phone without seeing pictures videos together every seconds memory pops head makes cry instantly time come leave awful place job place own money perfect time leave thank reddit always giving something times tough im sure understand this hours longer honestly excited seeing this good luck anyone strong enough still go lives thank time see side,1 scared that the ceiling fan will drop and decapitate me can t turn on the air condioner either scared that it might explode,1 @Sageogfruit He has a derpy smile in honor of how I feel about the Classics one. Hate-yet-not-hate art?,0 i haven t thought about killing myself since 0 yet here we are today year later getting closer to 0 and i m in the bathroom of my workplace and the only thing i can think of is slicing my wrist when i get home i haven t slept in 0 hour and i m seriously considering drinking my pain away maybe i ll puke in my sleep and get done with it i don t care if anyone will cry for me probably will but i m in pain so much pain guy,1 fragglerock excellent way schindlers list excellent great watch children adults genders big noses seen hinting towards phallic symbols way hr puff n stuff hinted towards marijuana smoking kids love movie enjoyed much child father showed movie child enjoyed well pointed exaggerated noses phallic symbols although time clue were movie comedy adventure storyline wacky cheerful shall enjoy together,0 aight teenagers socially adept need help got back camping trip walking path chilling two girls maybe fifteen think laughing one asked ig gqve it walk hopped insta saw taht bith themhad followed sent dm requests said heyy obviously tiny stroke dont know anything kinda shit next day met again asked could hang anf explained campgrounds weekend can someone explain would greatly appreciated,0 im exhausted existingi tried therapy ive tried medication long term neither really worked me feel like cant trust anyone im isolated alone ive terrible life experiences cant trust people cruel im hope one day gather courage,1 doe anxiety get better after 0,1 said deep feelings me suggested meeting another time without booze morning text apologising asshole replied said think that little overwhelmed since heard much him cant stop thinking it,0 thinking would kill suicidalstruggled depression whole life im spot right second im faced lot things coming together potentially disappointing lot people including kids mainly myself feel like shallow pointless useless thing im even sad more im just empty feel suicidal think redflag daily think easy would turn car bridge divider easy would take entire bottle sleeping pills wonder would feel would able actually slit wrists could bring it reasons to many reasons right now hurt would cause people still big priority me want hurt people love made mistake telling husband things think daily hes freaking out feel like theres distinction thinking redflag suicidal really convinced plan except ways think it like ive sat put calendar maybe im denial maybe suicidal want kill myself just want alive more prospect facing future overwhelming feel like can worry point desire hurt people around overtaken desire live asked would tell got point answered honestly know think honestly point caring hurt pain much probably tell him now telling that ive inadvertently hurt him increased worry lot wish hadnt im sorry told him wants sorry tell sooner kind thoughts know know exactly started want think using excuse trump card argument attention seeking thing know want tell him know im posting this feedback feel like low level call hotline something like this like thats people knife hand car bridge someone thinking it way think grocery list chores,1 superb film draws variety talented actors musicians top form levant crosby martin rathbone manone completely home story apparently supplied billy wilder one would love know much it exceptionally clever variation sterile masterfertile servant tale nearly allegory entertainment industry run driedup numskulls made vibrant world art play exploited underclass nobodies nonwasps looking last six decades music tv film us hard see underlying insights film prophetic,0 know might feeling many relate to depression less half life due many different factors things happened throughout lifei used drink alcohol quite frequently even smoke lot weed however quit things completely couple months ago another journey itselfi knew indulging different substances make highdrunk pushed feelings redflag depression aside making disappear forgetting moment came back last couple months completely facing shit unable or say unwilling escape means constantly feeling want cry time little feeling want let floods real got much tension inside know potential would feel much better afterwards time feel empty cannot cry matter hard try feels like emotions somehow trapped deep inside me would need terrible reason able let go pressure instead letting go getting rid it keeps staying is really frustrating want cry cannot,1 famous saying lessss gooo a brody yo mama youtube channel b dad seeing fat cock c mom seeing fat cock d dababy,0 i hate it when i m having depression day and then something i wrote get published like i m sad but also happy but also guilty for being sad brain bitch what do u want,1 hate nose rgasm fades like relationship guy,0 lost lost game remembered,0 really considering redflagi thoguht life turning would get away bullying followed like years ago ive became bullied think time go ive feeling weeks now ive felt kind since week ive felt usually weeks cant stop thinking redflag im turning weeks ive accepted im gonna experience th birthday know im gonna die alone nobody ever love me even know im writing this maybe im drunk knows,1 "@LindsayWolves No nothing planned really, hopfully if the weather is good sitting in garden and getting a tan x",0 sister tried commit redflag last night confessed rapedshe tried commit redflag last night taking bunch pills really slowed heart rate down doctors said sick took probably would dead still resuscitated though stomach pumped still currently hospital shes obviously depressed says i want anymore worrying confessed thats raped years ago someone knew beginning downward spiral her found going great difficulty conceiving child ever can relationship trouble distanced family feel like belongs anymore locked up cant visit stays bf still stays grandparents controlling possessive fear is may wake one day may anymore helpful best thing say situations someone sensitive stuck ways really open healthy change also acknowledges need it help frame mind feel like living anymore much people offer around good enough emotionally tiring im half months pregnant four year old cant dedicate every waking minute feel like risk rn wish knew right thing was,1 toddler though april fools april long found one day year reeeaally dissappointed,0 currently researching guns buyive never bought gun never gun person shot gun maybe times life im learning lot trying avoid botched attempt even reading medical papers studies selfinflicted gunshot wounds works doesnt lied therapist today said im danger myself never lie him cant wait gone,1 tonight s episode of house incredibly sad and it ha nothing to do with meatloaf s usual bad acting,0 I'm entering a post-infinity war depression bye,1 posted rdepression im feeling really shitty yesterday birthday know bother anymoreso made plans party today invited people month ago reminded week ago people said bought bonfire permit today lot money right since im broke wanted happy birthday once well birthday rolls hear anyone another loneliest day year today reached people said theyre coming either got reply come literally everyone second birthday row something like happened spent alone maybe cant remember mention every holiday people funhalloween ect actually hung friends since graduated college year half ago ive things supposed make feel better like going gym trying get university something worthless like college degree quitting toxic job deactivating facebook none fucking working want fucking friend,1 kyrei eleison ego defeceruntalea iacta est die cast please understand present wish subdued it written letter wanted write little girl decision final she everyone else better without taint regrets adding another failure huge pack sorrow everyone might give damn failing little girl seeing grow up man love babe much reason message ask simple wish thank you thank letting part community this cannot say owe let acta sopa pipa form cencorship prevail keep internet alive free yourselves children future fight bitter end reddit chan gag memebase win cyber war believe all thank you oh small ps favourite movie whos afraid virginia woolf check out roles richard burton elizabeth taylor planted transcend every movie comes today,1 everyone everyone oh work here saddd,0 cant winwhenever im sad thinking i wanna die cause whats fucking point want feel like anymore whenever im actually happy thinking this going last im always going super fucking sad again might well kill tonight least die knowing last day happy know take much this,1 tired disappointment muchwhats point living nothing disappointment pain im forced go everyday ever since kid ive living shit life everytime think something good happenit gets ripped me ive always kept faith telling get better years later im typing tears eyes cause pain getting much try hard nice polite look others im always volunteer someone needs shoulder cry onnever shoulder cry on like feel peoples pain really really can hurts ive always kept head up looking forward good future me people try help well brother needs kidney hes dialysis promised mother would find one two years feel mothers pain hurts most try hard help others make progress disappointment makes worse want end badly know would absolutely destroy mother that would killed long time ago cant even keep head anymoreim army soldier supposed keep head up supposed walk confidence head held high confidence everytime think something good happendisappointment follows suit like im grateful already eitherbut grateful health motherthats it,1 need find courage iti cant live world cant happy desire keep anything all im still going work insignificant wish courage mind lay cold woods alone peace slit wrists ways dying extreme torturous cant this want this course cant let anyone know fuck dynamic thing look forward to would easier nothing want die dire circumstances id rather go still privelages still enjoy still basic necessities life could done total peace meditate it feel fear etc eventually hopefully enough peace it,1 storyi havent bad life honestly things considered fortunate but still happened thought gaping blackness lurks within minds rose took grasp twice life twice looked death face emerged scathed yet alive able learn move on tines girl different girls tine two deeply cared for friends quickly fell love them exact makeup type witty sassy sweet caring always trying make smile finally got nerve confess feelings turned backs me times thought killing myself seriously considered it fact recall pair scissors open neck crying mirror changed mind yesterday started crying work pause look mom completely oblivious pain bring back considering again year old white man never girlfriend kiss relationship kind body image issues related manhood raised religion teaches lust desire sure fire tickets hell perhaps important others wanted say struggle thought well do trick decide keep going gets better know sounds like cliche genuinely believe it give up fight on one day emerge victorious faith you you yourselves catch later good day try smile,1 donniewahlberg donnie when are you coming back to the uk it s been toooo long x,0 need someone talk to right nowi cant afford miserable yet front people know me want talk little bit chat sadness addicting nature misery stop disregarding stop suicidal hate much,1 message fellow teenagers myanmar hear anything us next hours days please know military cut internet connectivity taken freedom speech away well citizen myanmar agree current move would like request world leaders un global media give hand country leaders people bitter acts want democracy want country track democracy route saynotomyanmarmilitarycoup justiceformyanmar savemyanmar,0 first day of school. *tired* :-& http://plurk.com/p/113ph6,0 reasons date me many ask whatever want me,0 Happy Birthday to me! ,0 artistofcalcio amyisunited all of them will be i imagine i mean i have sympathy for him having depression but his performance haven t been good enough over the last year amp he wa quite happy to let raiola disrupt thing every month,1 im sad thats it thats post,0 yes ultralow budget movie acting award winning material times action slowpaced filmmakers shooting longer sequences million instants get edited movie film makes outstanding script takes vampirism seriously explains develops full plot it aside vampire story get detailed genetics info legal law enforcement martial arts action philosophical musings good metal music kudos go dylan oleary directorwritermain actor beyond man could fulfilled roles well think appreciate movie wellversed sorts themes see writer lot research knows things great camera work too interesting camera angles one underwater vampire attack something seen before pays homage underwater zombie attack fulcis zombi casting good far sexy female sexy indeed main vampire also looks perfect role female victim looks vulnerable complaint low budget horror flick nudity want see original vampire movie great story flick you im looking forward seeing future projects mr oleary,0 possible spoilers included nothing critical given awaybr br i watched classic low budget movie video knocked level energy present screen actors proud especially john daniels must see another films movie boast great performances manages stylish sequences like baron throws someone window see shards glass falling swimming pool erupts impact fallen man love way slowmotion photography used s cinema dreamy hypnotic cool witty black dudes spout great one liners slimy seedy lumps white trash come unpleasant ends love it rating ever comes dvd count purchase,0 @s4r4hj I know! already looking online to see what I'm after! Lol! ,0 hey ive got new sub called rfattestdogs pics gifs fat big doggos new want get started,0 killing todayits over redflag note done tonight ill free free emotion free self hatred free everything im almost done will brain trying one last time survive look help one time please thats says august th felt first stroke pain born coddled school issue went there stemm academy september th first thought death kept hidden told parents feelings told old thing redflag permanent solution temporary problem problem go away then got really irritated teacher might well spit face told whole class teen redflag caused thinking little things big now makes sense give up ive fighting war long ive left stemm echos pain still ruin me please help me truth want die ever want pain end im weak know it im coward ive given survive longer old strength support,1 wish could end years suffering alreadyi stopped showing class again looks like thats another k student debt nothing show yay rd attempt college years last night go night got drunk stabbed thighs stayed bed day cuz walk apparently called mom asked pick take home wanna go home thats nowhere apparently voice small child memory it suicidal im weird blackout drunk well im tired dealing this know need help cant stand another day month year feeling like way cant talk anyone depressed suicidal gets redundant awhile know,1 let lust take love oh boy even start well gone shit regarding relationshipsso lets call ex abigail around three elder me trust say this fell love even kidding happend and well one day confessed bam dating already best friends hung everyday park talked lifesometimes life sometimes china could become world leader coming years basically could talk days without getting bored well loved every bit hence loved other month datingwe first kiss always bit awkward didnt help first time lmao nonetheless enjoyed it thats began sweet moment ecstasy pure joy kiss someone love incomparable retrospect bit soonfast forwards weeks full making outher apartment mine top parents good friends could visit practically whenever wantedi talking full rd base here realised it got addicted itnow horny teen uk sux i would go way get actionnow would say whats problem right well problem getting addicted person dating rather act getting action love became lesser anything lust overcame love herit felt good used like toobut turns liked act her obviously naive self told oh guys together means love right wrongi horny realize much good person slowly losingafter first months remember nothing relationshipno talkingno hanging constant making outand wellthe day came feared most obviously cuz older go college firstnow love never grew lessit lust grew strongerso said you know even though going bout still keep relationshipwe love whats lil distance eh thats started long distance thought well diffcult be love someone stay away still love em problem love fell short front lust week lefti realized felt emptywe talk muchnot anyway even ever get enoughi always wanted time caring anywaybut realized talk much started looking friends friends anyone could talk freely like actually care know well graduated next gradeand saw one hotter classmatesand straight went like huhshe would pretty nice datebut looking back it realized much scum wasthe reason happen lustbecause well moreover care someone lovedi wanted boneand thats abandoned lovei started talking less frequently started talking friend loti legit became simp girl sexi wanted fill void created stupidity boning someone elsenow remember want current relation end either wanted bone well thankfully lil bitch never really advanced friendi happy didnt relationbut like fuck enough texted abigail outta blue told herheythis aint gona work us left herthe fucking irony situation still leave me first thing replied heyare ok want calland looking back it realize much moron leave her said said think us fight lot really get along anymore leave itbut still somehow managed convince break upbut disagreement little topic used bring topic breaking well started crywell much ever wanted run away heri see cryi couldnt well continued months finally december we decided end iti guess matter much love person tolerate much bullshit eh well might scum least know needed study well getting admission good high schoolso decided drop ideas girl study seriously fortunately exams got time lock imposed country well plenty time think everything happend happen future well quarantine realized knowsex aint everythingi blind lust see love regret everything done hurt saint womani realized much human trash probably deserved sexless quarantineactually funny thing thati even think enjoy sex anymorei guessi disturbed nowdisturbed easily one wrong things wrong reasons finally realized realized years agothat sex product lovewhen truly love someone wish physical things thembut guess young naive ever consider it took joke blatantly left girl nothing short perfect supporting getting action tldri human piece trasha scum may decided improve gonna go back hurt enough infact taking break sort relationships probably wont date someone find someone see settling with,0 i fell so fucking in love with my best friend and i m feeling very alone and in a dangerous space rn i normally would say more but i m tired of telling people the same story and just plane exhausted i just want someone to talk to don t have to be therapeutic just a a fellow human,1 anyone make laugh ill give award doubt anyone funny enough make laugh,0 I've been fighting severe depression and extreme anxiety for about 5-6 years now and anyone close to me knows the lengths I've went to escape it. While I'm still fighting I will say I feel myself coming out On The winning end and a lot of that has to do with those around me ,1 first saw foreign film festival beautifully paced nailbiter plot relieve estonian treasury billion gold shot gritty grainy style hollywood rarely uses captures atmosphere newly emancipated baltic states beautifully note tallin actually looking lot less grim therebr br theres lot humor romance too want spoil number startling yet logical surprises ill say heist film starts great script directing performances top notch darkness tallin simply fastest nerveracking example genre id put rafifi topkapi miles ahead new oceans though deliberately glossy rent buy now,0 there s much depression in europe and the leading cause can be traced to psychological overload the peace and prosperity of europe come with boredom something nigerian will never understand or relate with cuz there s no loneliness in nigeria,1 it using alt account say this cant take life thrown me lost job applying everywhere months even fast food places hire me move back parents im forcing marriage apart hurt father mother hated since wants tells every day doesnt care never sees again would give peace mind gone dads life taken possessions including car shes taken away phone several times always bought new one anyway guess wont need car phone tonight wake mom peace mind guess goodbye reddit wish best rest there,1 i am not wanting to go to school tomorrow,0 toi apologize advance use insensitive language first time writing matter familiar terms lost relative redflag year ago painful days ago heard another news high school friend scares much might lose redflag scares especially relative took life one saw signs protect ones care for know loved one danger late good reading non verbal signs strong tendency think everything okay makes blind subtleties would help someones pain,1 sucks im christian ive always thought church ive going past years great teaching generally really good really lost respect whole pandemic mandating masks worn services treating covid like joke mom agree irresponsible were attending person carelessness understand cant decent thing take seriously top first service back building watched online pastor basically shaming people afraid come church mean yes agree together fellowship want people come part make sure safe youth group same wear masks really liked youth group seen people age often past months obviously looking forward would able meet again cant go theyre safe,0 hi r anxiety i m a 0yr old male with what i would say is a decent amount of stress but nothing out of the norm yeah work is stressful rent is increasing and a proposal to my gf are all looming but i ve always been able to accept those thing will come with some mild stress since i m human i ve been experiencing what i can only describe a mild severe panic attack recently that are completely wiping me off the face of the earth this past saturday i found myself in a bathroom stall at noon after being out with friend for lunch drink experiencing symptom last night after work i came home wa slapped with tunnel vision trembling tight chest and once i laid down in bed had what i would describe a the worst experience of my life for 0 minute borderline exorcism i m completely new to this experience and am obviously concerned what my trigger are or where this is coming from i plan on having a wellness check with my local physician but are there buzzword or thing i should include so i can do exactly explain what i am experiencing i constantly drink water i take only about 00mg caffeine a day i exercise time a week i have what i would describe a a pretty well balanced diet why is this happening all of a sudden appreciate any feedback this is more of a vent,1 look furry stuff sad get never anthro gf never happy,0 saw true crime first released back midnineties watched many times since great mystery mary played alicia silverstone high school senior california town whos classmates younger sister tortured killed unknown murderer mary meets tony played kevin dillon police cadet sees bright decide work together try find killerbr br many suspects one true crime feels true real me read newsgroup review someone wrote total suspension disbelief present true alicia silverstone perfect role kevin dillon bill nunn great job actors locations right writerdirector pat verducci really captures realities teenage life marys loneliness see scene mary awakens dream sequence viewed photos took tony wish verducci would make moviesbr br i seen movie quite like true crime ,0 listening to birthday sex ,0 im doneim fucked continue living ive tried many timesive gave bestbut cant continue anymorei want find peace mind seems cant find life im letting goodbye note reddit thank everyone everything goodbye hope guys great day,1 get socially worn quickly went downstairs see sister playing wii decided chill downstairs comment game chill started discord call friends chilling like hour kinda tired it good time laughing lot idk feel like idk want call social battery gets worn quicker average,0 yeahi really much left except alcohol absolutly one life turn times like this always anyone else world remember things tell them im rational want call hotline again one life im sure much longer deal it im sorry edit im sorry want someone tell day was want deal again,1 want love people butif experience people past ish years going is going past days kind teetering edge wanting truly end everything but im still scared afterlife ever able rest never bothered again listen everyone money money lets whatever want move pos parents house never look back buy sex people hold shit head relationships contribute something loved otherwise lazy annoying piece shit thats waste space thats love according society loved are standards hard work teams hold others to reciprocate people ever keep promises you know else say anymore everyones going say fault anyways believe capitalist people eat alive shithole website run nerds survive job retail think theyre menial work like play video games watch anime shit responsibilities goals outside shit too wish someone would prove wrong doubt will im always told pray god never seek actual help something wrong wanting keep paycheck something wrong placing value human lives anything wrong believing things make life worth living yes matter snowflake must die collective cause organizations giving money relationships must left pick reference social cue go school us growing up part clique friend group etc working hard paying bills im responsible for making work time supposed privileged according people cant handle wrong considering ending everything whats wrong makes unlovable,1 redflag hotline sick voicechecked position waitlist months noncourtmandated appointments tried chat service instead waited queue minutes told services area,1 people make want kill you look like guy insults women refuse send nudes ampxb dont think fair seen creepy monster rapes murders etc im lonely even leave room anymore leave work go home dont energy go out date someone never killed anyone raped wife beater ampxb snap would long time ago suffered school bullying home absent mother stern father vibe weirdness say look totally creepy souless eyes souless smile creepy really mean really something menacing makes run life average unnatractive guy see street pic reddit ampxb im sick labeled something not sick living want end all,1 long post aheadi really know feel like kind last hope letting without people constantly trying help shitty you need move forward shit like that i well lonely man years feel like lived life theres nothing live little more why lot issues depression anxiety self loathing loneliness stuff well comes back teenage years divorce really messy exposed everything hate ensued fear understanding goes it help feel responsible it mean bullied school came back home insults flying around like say hello also help first time life top class yeah add dissapointment vocabulary parents school side things no stop there see picked guitar mom like dad encourage pursue learning it self loathing comes that hey whatever everyone shitty teenage period next thing explore situation became even worse come family mom dad sisters brother get worse well older sister left house go live dad tensions rising mom her without father confessing everything her missed us forth left tend younger bro sis much me brother hard time acting out mom constantly tail saw turn red anger sweating much would thought fever thing thought of go dads since whenever went there okay so comes fateful wednesday month october told mom going dads evidently took well throwing bro curb wait dad pick us up let sister behind made stand her telling mom also wanted come always raised support ourselves did told mom leave us alone moment hated her hurting supported know thats mistake looking it since understand feel left curb alone dads everything went fine went away university dropped of younger sister bullied brother slaps face shit like that came back home trying fix things family breaking apart failed again oh good note found love time became escape shitty family whenever visited felt like loved even family big change me depression began everytime come back home felt like torn inside out fear stress point lived mom cause dad kicked out saying piece shit gave nothing trouble huge problem find way get home impose mom long tried contacting mom touch seven years now went well point little sister called middle night time told missed wished her nobody defending little bro night explained everything treated bro slapped hard busted lip raging remember sleep finally got visit buying train ticket propose meet mom again everything fine expressed desire stay mom could make feel better worked while good true cool things fast pass cycle began anew decided get job far away move gf time years knew other know say life always find way mess you well lung infection nearly killed me oh also girlfriend cheated me kicked since lost job pay shit disspointment everything fault even mom still thinks fault back square one back moms depression kicking ass since fucking long year comes big fight tonight my mom remarried mom new hubby told move soon year already staying struggling get back feet failed therapy failed job interviews inability connect others even stronger before nowhere left go one talk to called redflag hotline prevention shit hit fan mom new hubby lost parent redflag caught talking could go he really helpful anyone gave shit saying people wants kill it talk stop threats snapped told fuck life since source problems their words imagine feel now laying hotel room bed sister worrying nothing her sorry long post wanted never it ashamed family anyway hope get sleep tonight laying outalso hopefully stopping thoughts,1 @dolphinking: we are the same plight ,0 dont depressed commit redflagi think really interesting everyone concept sad depressed want kill yourself mean sometimes get tired waking dealing bullshit every single day every time get car contemplate crashing it im young adult felt way since teenager feel way forever maybe thats way im meant go out im sure advice reddit friends dont feel like place purpose ya know like maybe id everyone favor following though ive thought many times before,1 anybody else get weird halfcrush fictional character need seek media involving them like waifu cant escape,0 cant family think timethis year thought better especially starting meds ive weeks think killing even once lately im sure redflag ideation always abstract kind terrified death really want kill myself wanted things end never thought worth much think it feel like main reason stopping sometimes want cause family kind pain know will theres real point this wanted vent think ive exhausted friends emotional wreckage point fed want anything anymore really anyone else turn to,1 music suggestions please like abt everything preferences feel free drop albums artists songs,0 @SecretShadows mixed indigenous and European. Majority of Latin and South Americans are indigenous and Spanish mix. ,0 decided hang myself know where made decision head cannot overcome depression redflag,1 feel like like gone me meet week chat daily im kind unhappy im getting cant get enough talking experience usually comes along enamoured start nearly always reply within mins im busy im still excited pahse get lot wait times read receipt coming whatsapp within period get reply hardly screams hes really ok wait long reply assume hes messaging others me im new potential gf,0 i ve been having these the entire day but i had sore throat since yesterday anybody else know what it is,1 heading to bed have to be at work in hour,0 i want to get back in bed,0 bought a couple of books.. and cds.. next whole week to enjoy.. MPH - i love you.. ,0 suffer depression redflag baghdad iraq sporadic pops bangs sounds explosions really haunt time sound easily like combatmy wife passed years years ago really nothing help cope actually got new friend shared advice live far limited do appreciatedi miss wife would hold hand play xbox volume cranked lay bed me holding fell asleepi think solution really exist miss wife much sorry pathetic story holiday reminder truly alone am missing wife helped time year,1 updated user flair birthday today woohoo year old gang at,0 @muffinwomanxo Yes kristen stewart is pretty much a tramp but im glad you admitted you love Twilight I love you even more now,0 cant parents understand mental illness me im pretty sure im like severely depressed anxious something please go doctor literally cannot live like need medication something mom oh need get game system pm like literally begging let see someone fucks sakes woman everything phone game system whatever i spent hours minecraft yesterday friend mine seen while normally play long anyway literally cannot get bed morning ive slept classes barely leave room even leave bed im tired clean anything dishes garbage everywhere give shit get kicked school something work im fucking exhausted care anymore ah yes phone ps problem sure always puts facade parentsteachers seems care much mental health shit comes step siblings always oh add take time him overwhelm him oh anxiety thats thatwhile entirely disregards probably have also severe adhd unmedicated despite asking go meds get told instructions way makes sense brain like step brother does get called lazy piece shit needs get act together get good grades else theyre going failure im tired it,0 stop myselfi tried die using zipties things looked mirror head turning purple cut them dont know did want dead indecisive,1 "Kids couldn't play outside today becuase of the rain, so we just made them a tent out of blankets and chairs! ",0 feeling brokeni know anymore thinking realized easy way it right,1 @chrisbrown902 hey..when is you new graffiti album coming out in the scotland? been waiting for ages...Hahah ,0 im alone manage mess whatever happiness manage stumble acrossim done ive alone long cant even decent conversation online anyone without fucking up maybe spur moment now feeling always resurfaces im year old male real friends never hint romance cant go world even wanted to nothing seems make sense world always seems turn back around set me wish realistic way in stop,1 @NoOneYouKnow Good Morning Adam How's the world treating you today?,0 @nglancy I was alright.,0 god way things saw ex guy holding hands hes wearing iron maidenmy fav band shirt jeez poser got shat universe multiple ways,0 I just got hit with what literally feels a solid block of depression wtf,1 please read waste timeits like could ever get balls together actually kill myself unless go plans buying alot heroin once post least important post here even first one either useless attention whore ever kill myself ill sit hope get deadly disease go serious accident ive failed two classes semester one university fucktard im going pass exams got phone lying parents grades enjoy last week here tell truth fuck up get go home week hear ruined christmas fuck piece shit worth bullet would take end it always thing concerning grades fuck lie ive gone counseling ive subscribed pills take im fucktard could point right path give everything need id still go wrong way cant socially connect anyone im failure man well cant even get women platonic relationship let alone romantic one even held hands hugged girl everyone floor including roomate hates around like really expected connection anyone wish could give amount time left life someone else use better things ever will point life anyone suffer make people suffer dead,1 nothing is normal anymore i used to be this happy funny kid and now all i do is silently tear up and think about blowing my brain out like seriously there s nothing else to think about i feel like nobody care i m not going to talk to my father about this and my friend would only agree with me hel i didn t know if i should come here i can never sleep and when i do it s in the middle of class i keep everything inside and i think it s making go insane there s some worse stuff on here so i don t know if i belong here i m sorry for wasting your time,1 need good news long since got good news really want hear some somthing good happened general good news,0 need another copy of visual studio 00,0 stupid shit weird keep giving sad people helpful advice never works personally give fuck sunsets finding soulmate succeeding care therell going back whatever paragraphs used write comments true im fucking hypocrite telling people things believe in fun cool idk much take,0 im garbage human beingim waste existence oh fucking god dont want hurt one anymore im worthless dont want exist fucking hate alive dont want anyone else get hurt love much hate,1 "@_mallory_king Well, he's an idiot. He doesn't see the real you like I do. I see a great smile, a winning personality, and a shining heart--and a female engineer to boot. Yes, you are frazzled with depression, but peel back the onion, and there is nothing to laugh at. Just beauty inside & out.",1 "i see the sun peeking already, hoping this week is a lot brighter ",0 why still herei understand it start off successfully took life years ago midfebruary large student party student college know anyone person invited me student housing hour half away home night took local highspeed train dorms party was planned going home party started slow eventually picking night gone on making drinks took roughly hour sloshing back screwdrivers wanting vomit alcohol acid sugar coming up stumbled bathroom inside small two bedroom dorm there vaguely remember lifting toilet seat puke next thing woke hospital bed really needing piss jolted fear knowing hell got there see father sitting next hospital bed told details happened memory went blank fallen bathroom hit head proceeded choke vomit stopped moving guy invited party noticed missing found dead bathroom picked began trying resuscitate me even vomit covered facetorso yelled one party goers call paramedics arrived within minutes thanks guys attempt reviving me kept oxygen blood flow going long enough paramedics bring back ill never able live down question is why keep going wanted die knew night want return home nightmares still wish dead want redo it painful begin with retry soon cant keep continuing think life value,1 morning tweetpeeps i didn t get to bed until am yesterday wa on msn to alex until and then wanted to play dead space before bed,0 "Just one puff of this type of cannabis 'could ease depression, stress and anxiety' https://www.thesun.co.uk/news/6137739/cannabis-ease-depression-stress-anxiety/ …",1 hopelessim lose job seems feel like im vomit cry im going keep job care getting paid thats even mind anymore guess im used getting screwed end too lose job probably lose chance tms hope remission depression ever like still fighting even drag out realistically going work means redflag round bloody right but oh well always seem wake tomorrow whats gonna change time,1 "@annieoliff so excited about the house!!! you want any help setting up moving or decorating, i'm there xx",0 im angry no hate anyone mentioned live deep south everyone bigoted beliefs christian im literally atheist entire familys bloodline even school go homophobes history teacher literally called bisexual people perverts tried call it told wrong people class started telling gonna go hell so parents pretty christian make go church every sunday like mom literally sat talked telling need know gay wrong sin kept nodding know disagreed literally anything bible id disowned relationship strained parents bad people anything though racist love me feed me buy shit take care like great parent would im tired keep beliefs call people bigots im tired christianity whole hate it happen live state extremely widespread happened born parents america support lgbtq know keep quiet thats best do know spoke out relationships would severely altered almost ruined wanted get frustrations subreddit know hardly ive seen literally maybe bigots here extremely large portion support lgbtq care christianity anyone similar situation love parents theyre great people really christian religion ruined south needs change im sorry ampxb edit im gay bi venting frustrations people thinking wrong way,0 @SaraLHValo Oh I'm so glad to hear that!!! Each day find something to be thankful for...baby steps...you'll feel better soon ,0 "@MissLordy @movnup Um, Lordy, you are stuck in a foreign land!! ",0 i don't want to learn physics..it's...i don't know...rubbish? ,0 ok school sent email online classes dot number four problems internet please mail school email adress way monitor absence someone teach people please xd cant fucking send email without internet ye xddd im dying stupid guy thought good idea ohhhh im dead xd,0 need nickname name sucks like it really generic,0 anyone else wish could hire hit man themselvesthrowaway account fyi dont want live anymore im m std havent gotten diagnosed cause im scared sucks know would never kill myself would destroy family wish could pay professional assassin kill within months something dont want see coming want shot back head without knowing it poof dead fml,1 overdosed nearly died anyone want friends support otheri one told dad odd went back sleep told im going er went back sleep thats family talk anything nothing all im glad survived hoping could meet friend support eachother keep hoping find amazing girl makes life worth living again im holding much hope p dont like admit miss ex years left right mom died cancer like day anyone want come rescue kind soul bit broken inside,1 first plani know escalating want done it first thought plan terrifying still comforting overdose hydrocodone suck theres always one dream thats kept going seems less relevant,1 gimme hot takescontroversial opinions please im bored wanna see entertaining things wait irl things,0 Going to say my prayers and go to sleep! ,0 freaking aced math test lets goooooo im really known getting prefect scores assignments tests ive struggling keep grade math i freaking suck math since grades closing next week kind test decided grade would b honestly stressful minutes ive while want fail anything b considered failure house today got results got questions correct lets goooo pog ya boi actually pulled off,0 everyone hear this next time rickrolled remember pull uno reverse card way win amp avoid rick rolled lesson learned,0 i made some really careless mistake at work today i ve been making similar mistake recently i messed up some stuff today and i m going down this slope like i m not good at my job and everybody is going to find out how bad i am and i m gon na get fired and won t be able to pay my bill and lose everything i have i don t know how to stop the negative thought,1 @Mike_Kunkle i want to laugh because i know *exactly* what you mean ... but i wont ,0 teacher nerve teacher nerve send email homework pm i go sleep pm smartalec says thats right sent you like kidding me maybe send homework earlier fault sleep wake am im able work send me,0 courage call hotlinei power search number call them afraid say want talk anybody want anybody hear useless voice want friendsnot taking last option much me jump here,1 take sat tomorrow advice didnt rly study lol expect,0 saw comment youtube said circuit minecraft speedrunner trans someone clarify need know whos dumb one,0 humanity like this people wearing masks respecting social distancing protestors tearing symbols freedom civil human right calling white supremacy years ago anti vaccine movement happened people thought smarter doctors phds earth flatglobal warming isnt real even goes way back s people denying basic science seems basic human trait now feel downfall civilization thank coming ted talk,0 nazarin directed luis bunuel presents extraordinary view religion mexico written director julio alejandro notable collaborator film put mexican cinema international map receiving grand prix cannes year disturbing film mr bunuel delves deep whats wrong churchbr br nazarin reckoning saint young priest seen living life poverty seedy pension city enough himself mind parting coin beggar appears window asking help time takes small room prostitute hurt fight another woman andara woman repays kindness burning room whole building nazarin seen taking countryside begging food andara beatriz two prostitutes old town follow him nazarins life parallels jesus fact saintly figure makes case humilitybr br of coursemr bunuel religion mind mr alejandro took upon create film ironic spain welcomed film released saw showing christian qualities reality acerbic satire catholic church ministersbr br francisco rabal spanish actor makes wonderful nazarin one best roles mr rabal worked extensively native country also mexico argentina rita macedo andara also excellent marga lopez also makes valuable contribution portrayal beatrizbr br a great film one cinemas master film makers luis bunuel,0 even love people always bound leave tend screw notredflag even loved themthe pain way much cannot deal anymore someone never felt love before see person loved heart leave owing fault extremely heartbreaking although numb pain now think function properly anymore want talk someone anyone please love exist,1 "@just_kelly The fact that you didn't know the library closed at 6, NOT LAME. ",0 cant cryi cant cry vent feel bad feel numb happy know im happy im probably going kill fucking ass want people know sit like fuck dont give shit anymore ive tried everything people wont care nobody does fuck mr smith fuck system fuck people,1 need help anyone good pythagriam tribometry half hours need help discord ahappysleepdeprivednerd someone could help get done would great,0 im tempted tell father buy gun kill mei cant really say much beside think living stressful right now aged insurence bull pay pocket dumb ass didnt set obgyn appointment still insurence im causing dad trouble it pay every month ass doesnt cant find job cant get insurance im retarded lazy depressed living annoying doesnt pay insurence month im dead right,1 is going to have a late one at mqu today,0 @DITAxDEATH AND I POSTED BACK!! ,0 much said film typical nunsploitation course nudity sex nuns almost incidental storybr br it set th century italy time martyrdom christians otranto battle muslims christians takes good part film interesting everyone running muslim hoards mother superior would ask why fear muslims anything christians done you certainly enough torture sidesbr br sister flavia florinda bolkan sent convent defying father process witnesses endures many things gelding stallion rape local woman new duke torture nun overcome visit tarantula sect whipping ran jew torture particularly gruesome hot wax poured nun nipples cut offbr br sister flavia bound continue get trouble questions maledominated society lives even asks jesus father son holy ghost menbr br eventually joins leader muslims lover sack convent see flesh possible enjoy one time but tragedy come manages exact sweet revenge all including duke father finds muslim lover treats exactly same woman itbr br i describe holy men church heretic end predates torture saw hostel decadesbr br nunsploitation fans satisfied treats movie lovers find plenty meat digest,0 i ve lost everything i lost my best friend a community of people who were my only social outlet i m a failure i m i ve never been in a relationship i couldn t graduate college i m stuck working at a job which doesn t pay enough for me to afford rent so i have to live with my retirement age parent i can t find a job anywhere else i started cutting myself today never did it a a teenager but i did it now and it feel great i don t want to die but i don t see any other solution i can not afford help to me being in debt is worse than death i ve lost so much i can t go on,1 @deeyoung08 im grateful and proud of them they 110% deserve it,0 im using reddit lightmode ill use dark mode ill end jail racist,0 @ohhushmusic are you sure bb? ,0 helpim gonna straight honest dont feel depressed ive never really depressed know of great family loves everything could ever want still want die close friends considered weird kid school currently failing three classes straight student everyone hates tried telling best friend doesnt believe me says want attention honestly cant anymore hate hate life everything it im need advice need now please dont give redflag prevention hotline need help real person knows im going through reason havent already ended life dont tools to tried telling parents believe me,1 please help mei feel hated throughout entire life bullied lot gradeschool got bad would actually physically hurt me would come home neither parents cared would say toughen up something along lines thought got highschool would get better since see grade school bullies actually got worse really hurts say sexually assaulted group boys never told anyone that would panic attack male would even look me ive gotten better im highschool feel like im waste space whole life people use make feel better,1 @EstelleDarlings good night ,0 anyone herei already posted sw twice tried looking online find need httpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsjbhdarkness_still_engulfing_me httpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsjynhsuicidalneed_help moment kind medical insurance im bit time getting back long story brooklyn new york want ask anyone knows psychiatristpsychologistcounselor etc see free receive zero income zero cant sliding scale whatsoever shot dark know see doctor soon talk things someone help me definitely kill myself cannot keep surviving one help really talk to cannot keep pain constantly crying til feels like im literally choking cant breathe made week feels like soon ill gone forever im brooklyn new york desperate need qualified mental health doctor help darkness theres anyone information share me please do im drowning,1 @JessieeeeeH hiyaaa my msn aint working :@ . so hi ,0 seasonal depression please exit stage left the sun made it come back http t co jdote rjd,1 last reason stay alive shattered todaythe thing stopping im much pussy it left work bed staring ceiling,1 @MissMillions yes it's a beautiful sunday over here ,0 I'm on my way to houston with new teeth. Haha,0 piece called wholesome cats butt requested uownneedleworker httpsimgurcomaedrhttpsimgurcomaedr,0 want hereive never depressed whole life family longer talk ive deleted social media except reddit live boyfriend fuck felt wanted felt loved like two years makes feel like shit express frustrations invalidates feelings calls crazy says people usually say you me im telling you me summer told kill one occasion went vegas actually purposefully sliced leg open badly night vegas massacre happened too bad concert right uncle died year go january father ever was feels like father figure look died cant see point more even loaded gun including silencer wake anyone loudly everyone work id feel awful ive got everything ready problem im pussy want live want hurt want find im going burn forever hell even though think exists like happened exist ive already lived full lifetime pain cant get break even decided id bathroom bit easier clean up even though know itll get everywhere pretty much least could run shower get lot it one loves me one cares family friends children pets im burden everyone knows me want wish could stop bitch pull trigger,1 "cool evening, white wine, homemade cheesy potatoes, HBO, and clean laundry mmmmm..paradise...or at least better than Monday thru Friday..",0 whats quickest way kill yourselfgive sincere opinions im writing office cabin feel like worth anything now world shit,1 survived last night hurting tonight know alone ive fighting depression life ive moments gotten worse gotten better least expected itit got worse again last night thought could take want diebut want live wrote note thought needed do laid bed turned television funny tv show thought could laugh times would over fought idea back mind want this scared fell asleeptoo tired exhausted worry anymore knew want live thought late me hours later woke up people texted night attempted redflag still responded people reached hadnt responded breathing still am ever want live want get better know changed within me feel hopeful ever had night recognized triggered me made steps stop happening again im healed cured know ill relapses back depressionbut first time feel like im strong enough alone face get it know im faceless person internetbut hurting alone sadthere people love want help want helpand care know feels like devastating hurts physical injury ive ever sustained anyone needs talk wants someone listen promise will pm me post here talk facebook text messaging even phone need hear voice line also skype want see face ,1 paul grace hartman husbands grandparents deceased met watching old movies good way see work always enjoyed old movies happy discover also good one,0 cant sleep anymorea month ago mom passed away arms sudden wouldnt wake still breathing even moved arms flat back whole night always trouble breathing laying back she tube chest kidney dialysis propped head back thats started choking opened eyes grabbing arms stopped breathing awhile cpr minutes waiting ambulance worked seen message help hershe low blood sugar slipped coma normally would awake see message taken new med mood two days prior messaged siblings came visit found pmwhile still alive last thought falling asleep worried dismissing thought thinking itd fine start living myself kids woke crying cant sleep screaming crying numbers pulses cpr cant stop seeing eyes struggling breathe grabs arms siblings also taken unjustly year ago bullied mom lot giving false information make look bad would less chance getting back dead continue get away it proven wrong many times get hoops jump over court judge also called past mom dead risk losing kids forever chance seeing again mom died waiting kids come home also feel like now things happen all feel wrong feeling things mom could saved easily failed neglecting night failing cpr propping neck back making unable breathe people lose people time pretty common therefore stop baby right want die hear see anymore want rest hope somewhere go somewhere,1 "okay, @T4OnTheBeach please announce some more artists today ",0 woke sweat remembering rapei havent sleeping well lately lately almost years days since ive self harmed im tired tried reaching people life love support feels like im bugging them like things do everyone life dont want mine,1 ive never close beforei really know im supposed post something like need get chest ive long battle depression anxiety despite quite probable born illnesses rather developing time think ive really come close redflag since ive finally reached end line light end tunnel darkness friends care me im another person talk to really second choice maybe fourth fifth choice good day days im last choice point im choice talking friend today told think might finally kill myself responded nice joke point people even believe ive jokingly said im going kill long maybe better way maybe nobody stop me last night realized soon today realized lost important person life probably good stayed extracurricular school upset sat seat cried entire hour none people claim care tried comfort me one person try even know me know feel obligated help minutes ago dad asked plan high school said die scolded not answering seriously little know plan kill within next weeks im letting sink might actually time feels wrong type share story feel right stay would stay world nobody genuinely cares me nobody even loves me worst part want tell someone want someone stop tell prove actually care one left sharing strangers reddit,1 it's real depression hours pic.twitter.com/zOG4ZTBM2e,1 dont know much longer keep upive attempted redflag times time think im getting better everything turns shit again dont know function without influence try talk friend feel terrible dad alcoholic recently diagnosed bpd completely thrown loop dont know feels like cards ive dealt keep getting shittier shittier fucking sucks im tired trying im tired trying get better nothing working everything feels heavy feel like im slipping feels like end dont want keep going,1 t w stalking so the other week i had a late doc appointment and whilst i wa walking a man started following me it obvious scared the shit out of me and my heart wa racing and i felt jelly leg and i wa in tear fast forward a couple of week and i ve started getting a racing heartbeat and feeling faint etc having the feeling only when i m out by myself so i know they re panic attack but they only happen when i go out by myself even if it s from the bus stop to home i m guessing that it may be from what happened are there any tip people have for trying to battle this im seeing a therapist soon but want some extra advice whilst i wait for it,1 i don t know how can someone be this much of a failure i suck i have no social skill hell i have no skill in general people say everyone is good at something but not me i suck at everything why am i like this,1 sick rat raceeverything parents want focused college marching band even though want to every days would get called guilted enough prepare stupid college feel trapped everyone says getting easy struggle thought redflag almost attempted hate existance asian parents suck,1 well i got diagnosed with depression guess 0 won t be my year either,1 school antiabortion club still hasnt shut even someone made fun girl got raped front principal pretty much high school antiabortion club fucking stupid preach ever life life matter what group students showed protest club the club meetings school theyve said horrid things people club unironically said girl gets raped baby matter predetermined father say students got extremely mad said one girl got emotional talked experience raped disgusting say that guy said crying wont unrape you principal front him principal fucking chuckled cracked smile what the fuck,0 never seriously considered redflag recentlyi always thought redflag knew id never it past days im done cant get right diagnosis whats wrong me citalopram took edge while stopped working tried cymbalta made zombie docs going lamotrigine working mood swings thats starting fail too still leaves depressed crying anyway lamotrogine also given worst acne life im prepared fuck around anymore medications especially considering could lead weight gain see ever feeling good finding right medications psychologist fucking sucks went talk lamotrigine within one minute wrote script ability sent out office four minutes friends never did sister friend got married even tell we still live house dog parents trying help thats it whats point feel good earth feel anything,1 needwhat need shelter need food money need job need friends family need hobby have rope,1 sherman set wayback machine for united states climbing worst postwar recession japan enjoying unprecedented industrial boom manufacturing industries still significant part us economy factory workers good example average american word downsizing entered general vocabulary yet everyone knew phenomenon bruce could heard radio singing foreman says jobs going boy aint coming back hometown chrysler bailed uncle sam bumper stickers could seen saying buy american job save may ownbr br gung ho better job capturing mood american industrial workforce popular movie made period certainly movie flaws loose plot threads mediocre acting jobs everyone except michael keaton gedde watanabe story really meeting east west keatons hunt stevenson personifies america brash confident outside yet insecure underneath watanabes kazuhiro personifies japan top heap successful system wondering learned western rivals movies plot flawed is simply provides framework conflict eventually synthesis two personalitiesbr br keatons acting overshadows everyone elses practically makes movie itself ive always admired keaton ability deliver lines feel improvised matter script hes following character hunt stevenson likable affable everyman natural leader wiseass streak fatal flaw common many us want disappoint anyone hell distract crowd inspirational anecdotes even lie rather point ugly truthbr br kazuhiro mirror image stevenson shy introspective also japanese upbringing reluctant bearer bad news scene stevenson first comes kazuhiro employees grievances captures perfectly japanese approach workplace conflict kazuhiro replies stevensons complaints i understand saying refuse requests loud stevenson misinterprets agreement goes away saying okay weve got settled this still problem japaneseamerican business relations st centurybr br ultimately kazuhiro stevenson problem get factory working smoothly meet production goals fulfill responsibility workers them working towards goal take page others book kazuhiros family becoming americanized obvious example also note stevenson thinks odd kazuhiro explains make public apology workers failing yet later movie stevenson exactly himselfbr br the plot resolution little cornball hey comedy overlook movies flaws great story selfrealization openmindedness here,0 play damn game game among us seconds game started somebody presses emergency button why wanted everyone know girl everyone skipped vote couple seconds killed someone front several people reported body accusing girl clearly impostor every votes telling leave alone ghost every happily crowding girl constantly calling emergencies decide sacrifice themselves next really pisses people even play game like theyre supposed someones gender play fucking game whats worse girl even took advantage win game usually play single player games deal shitheads servers like one,0 cnn in term of immune system depression,1 in america kill themselves natvies old ppl sad know im defect per human,1 listening to Gregory and the Hawk on repeat ,0 spilt koolaid carpet making koolaid spilled stains im fucked,0 @skylinesource awwww..you're so sweet. ,0 @BellsCullen1901 hey i may not be right. dont blow charlie off spend the night with him. things will work out i hope. ,0 balance slowly deteriorating right knee keeps getting weaker always keep drifting right walk without paying attention it family calls pinball keep bouncing wall,0 need shirts plz send recommendations tshirts preferred,0 math is 60% the cause of my depression..,1 friends replace relationships im done ittitle says all ive diagnosed ptsd last thing want hear stories reply explain would really like shorten explain want hear it best friend left boyfriend rejecting telling i boyfriend now need anymore never talking again tried everything nothing worked cousin we real cousins marital thing went together well relied problems relied often left boyfriend help start relationship him told sex him did told did said treated like shit would never talk again called motor vehicle incident arrived first one scene wrong way collision head on truck car car drifted wrong lane occupants truck okay woman driving car unresponsive instantly recognized saw face girl left time pulled vehicle buddy paramedics already arrived performed cpr success taken local hospital followed shortly told died likely even scene mother recognized also many years ago told i reason daughter died let die nothing could done never got chance talk make things right her never will httpwwwnjcomcumberlandindexssfyearold_woman_dead_in_crash_cops_sayhtml,1 think someone dont even know ended life im scaredi dont even know him ive seen post think hes finally done it idk feel idk calm kinda wanna hurt,1 need little supporthi im new here looked briefly rules best follow them please let know say something wrong suicidal ideation since decade now side effect depression im used it ive learned lot coping skills really good controlling days ive actually really well lately exactly crossed mind months couple weeks ago friend mine brother committed redflag brutal whole family talked offered condolences kept distance today heard another aquaintence whose boyfriend committed weekend close either again offer condolences stay bay honestly though im really hard time coping ive always quick trigger comes hearing someone else it surprised handled first one well did one making things difficult feeloff like little dissociative apathetic usual im afraid whats going underneath emotions bubble way surface want tell anyone know everyone understandbly high alert copycats around here know fall high concern list many loved ones guess needed get chest somewhere judge worry me understand mean say things feel guilty like im making tragedies even really mine also know perfectly valid someone history struggling right now guess need reassurance im alone here,1 five medical students kevin bacon david labraccio william baldwin dr joe hurley oliver platt randy steckle julia roberts dr rachel mannus kiefer sutherland nelson experiment clandestine near death afterlife experiences researching medical personal enlightenment one one medical students heart stopped revivedbr br under temporary death spells experiences bizarre visions including forgotten childhood memories flashbacks like childrens nightmares revived students disturbed remembering regretful acts committed done them experience afterlife bring real life experiences back present continue experiment remembrances dramatically intensify much so physically overcome thus probe transcend deeper deathafterlife experiences attempting find curebr br even though dvd released motion picture released therefore kevin bacon william baldwin julia roberts kiefer sutherland early stages adult acting careers besides plot extremely intriguing suspense building dramatic climax script tight convincing young actors make flatliners allstar cult semiscifi suspense knew years ago film careers young group actors would skyrocket suspect director joel schumacher did,0 really want get out maybe please hopefully someone words might able help all really really sorry long need get outim year old indian man grown quite traditional household uk means mental health always taboo subject never brought issues parents think level might know experienced issues capacity given done lot reading subject done charity work mental health charities etc part wonders upbringing makes obvious believe true problem sorted hugso went good school excellent university great grades show great social skills front whenever need to good job took two years moved japan moved back month ago living parents first time yearssomething wrong feel mentally fragile time nothing gets mental strength run rolling day cycle feeling ok heavy useless again backstory grew friends situation actually remember recently realised sdam inability remember anything recent years always saw positive whatever was past beyond that university always felt completely mentally strong myself time found infidelity father person felt close time excluding brother person id ever call anything went wrong fortunately trust issues compensated finding first love time moved america compensated drinking excessively entire year pretty much joining frat drinking troubles away year without talking family all year concluded breaking girlfriend time due lies infidelity side back uk finish studies started work years initial getting trust ex years probably strongest life felt confident trust issues or thought regained relationship family friends great job great house good circle friends great round timethen went japan again first months life exciting new city new culture incredible new career learning much myself found love nd time happened covid quarantine went incredible comfortable months life someone people say connect way never experienced time finding truly someone feel relationship reciprocated rare me excited slowly next year half turned steady comfortable relationship different people somehow worked think slowed much needed way although good times previously mentally strong highfunctioning probably needed someone lived bringing back healthier version strong mindhowever halftruths lies past side next months sort put damper it made continually question relationship thing time round although condoning it actually see logic lies clearest mind see still confident future together malicious intent long story short year since constant rumination mental battles issues again mainly trust whenever get stuck thinking it takes weeks even months get regresses back worst depressive states although know true because think it rather actual issues relationship think underlying issues previous trust broken father first love put position although want to cannot let go past new relationship struggle trust again screws whole mindthese ruminations kept bay japan still surrounded loving relationship meditation yoga surfing keep mind clear possible although often getting stuck found getting much quicker way really however almost limit longevity relationship mind limit much hurt caused become unfunctional human back uk month stuck beyond belief feel like thought loops get stuck head find going thing conversations brain trying apply logic get it mentally weigh beyond belief continually ruin daytoday life cannot bring things helped yoga meditation everything gets stuck way cannot live know back parents home long relationship lack trust lack job culture shock them think idle mind devils plaything seems playing relationship view ruining mindnow every interaction leads state mental instability today parents came back day told bought new bedsheets gift prospect anything new surprise ordinary breaks me walk away saying want it half angry trying hold back tears crumbing mentallythen get angry acting like dick face kind gesture people love mei know do nothing feels like helps want anything stay bed day torn putting brave face parents see me want get back healthy self point life know itif anyone read maybe provide help something do something focus on anyone something similar even someone talk to would really appreciativei really sorry long post know continue life,1 My depression has been cured. pic.twitter.com/kuh342PPjg,1 how doe your anxiety manifest itself when you are having severe anxiety,1 aging ruined mei completely unblossomed im average child became stunning yr thought everyone naturally nice naive really feel loss identity anybody knew tell shocked badly look now im typical hot girl thats going grow ugly s everyone looks better im really lost know living others opinions thats ive unconsciously idk nothing else worth besides looks gone overheard mum saying older sister prettier aging better im going kill myself ive talked school counsellor absolutely refuse go talk stranger problems again everyone look eye stare blotchy acne covered skin people thought cared using me cant even trust family im going kill probably kitchen knife ive learnt sharpen it found pulse neck probably artery flowing blood might stab backyard sound make less likely heard ill exercise cold weather bit effective going bathroom want stench there ive never felt form love never received truly family treated like trophy feeds look bad hate everyone much including myself online long text messages idc met anyone real life id revolted,1 want die cant iti nothing live for friends many enemies im disappointment family im social outcast without future still cant bring coward am fantasise people loving famous standing face danger super confident myself however could never this freeze thought pain im coward cant even bring give pain deserve ive done stupid things coward would do ive betrayed many people without knowing physically cant look anyone eye anymore im disappointment coward and all horrible person want make everyone taking life cant hate everyone everything yet cant leave all,1 amazing conversation go big international school get ton new students every year usually never approach new students begging year year regretted that theres new girl joined class never talked halfway schoolyear btw week ago beach cleanup walking back school decided chat her turns hardcore gamer loves fps games batman deadass minute long conversation overused use batmobile arkahm knight anyway friends frequently talk moral story make effort talk people,0 "@WTFKatie the video's done I can't get the link because youtube isn't working, but it's the newest one under youtube.com/sarahsaysfasho",0 anything fineim yr old boy fucking old ass dad always shouts play computer says fucking study knows top student science school even care thinks im lazy planning kill today get fucking home ill find overpass throw cars passing by,1 @ronnyvengeance I would be beyond excited ,0 towards the end of my senior year of high school my anxiety wa at an all time high i d cry in the parking lot having a panic attack nearly every day and i missed sm school because of it luckily my school teacher and counselor were very understanding and helped me get through it and graduate but i wa very close to not being able to walk due to my attendance i got through it though and over the summer that extreme anxiously gradually faded out surprisingly when i entered college my anxiety wa probably the best it s ever been to be specific my social anxiety wa nearly non detectable i still had some general anxiety about school and stuff but tbh even that wa barely there most of the time i kinda developed a carefree mindset where i stopped being so anxious about being a people pleaser and instead wa just myself i knew i wa a good person i m funny loyal adventurous and a good friend so if anyone didn t like me that s their loss tbh i felt this way in high school too at least in term of knowing my worth the only difference is i wa to afraid to show myself to people unfortunately though i think this carefree attitude went a bit too far a it started affecting my academic i have adhd too so that made me struggle with stuff ofc but i think that my new stance on my life kinda made everything even worse academically i dropped out after one semester i didn t want to but i knew i had to since i wa basically not trying at school didn t like my major horrible grade i wouldn t be able to afford it if my scholarship wa taken away due to my grade if i stayed i d probably be put on academic probation for a major i don t even care about anymore there s probably many more reason that led to me dropping out but moral of the story is i m not in school anymore the past two month i ve just been at home honestly doing nothing i enrolled in community college but i attended two class and then on the day of my rd class i got extremely depressed probably the most depressed i ve ever been i couldn t eat sleep or even drink water obviously i couldn t get outta the house and go to my class if i couldn t even do basic thing like that so my mom made me drop out she wa actually the one who kinda forced me into it i wanted to just take a break from school for a semester and work for a bit so i could figure out what i wanted but she wa adamant about going to community college since leaving community college i ve been trying to get my shit together i still have bad day depression wise but it s gotten better i started seeing my therapist again and i m also getting tested by a neurologist to see if i have anything else going on outside of my adhd anxiety and depression a my therapist and psychiatrist think i might have some processing disorder once i see the neurologist i think i wan na get a job again my old job wa great a it wa a small business so they were le strict i m chronically late by at least 0 minute but my old bos wa understanding about that in a way i feel like larger business wouldn t be anyways back to my point today i got a sudden wave of anxiety i haven t felt since probably my first day of college tbh since i haven t experienced it in a while i forgot how debilitating and overwhelming it is idk how to deal with it now,1 oh boy my 1st text message of the day my boy friend sent me a text yay ?,0 cutest thing happened petting kitten watching dreams newest yt vid hitman premiere decided boop kitty kitten booped back,0 "@Loviin_lyfe well, I think I'm going to focus on school and career and invest in a good good DEVICE lol.... (TMI?) if so... Good !",0 thanks american school system found little pouch thing near bottom stomach uterus almost starved death years ago uterus learning,0 think gonna get mega pranked april fools ya know like black plague part wild ass shit ofc thats world doesnt end december,0 im going hang myselfim tired cant stand alive anymore give up hopeless,1 @blackcabsession @tonyhawk gave you (much deserved) props ,0 cant get past redflag guiltmy best friend took life feel enough help him feel partly responsible redflag cant get past it cant sleep well cant eat welli feel completely dead inside feel deserve longer,1 @runnersrambles posted a words only report on mine ha ha www.chicrunner.blogspot.com ,0 never proper doctors could diagnose me theres long story there suffer redflag abused entire life physically abused teacher years old mother physically mentally emotionally abused me left house ,1 im damn years oldjust got enough equipment christmas cant fuckin wait feel nothin nothing keeping alive guess like think gonna waste life god matter fucking waste goddamn life im piece shit im asshole everyone knows it aint got nobody dogs goddamn thing notice want anybody see corpse feels like im faking this like want suicidal depressed rightly fucking do want get rid myself throw goddamn trashcan cant wait times tickin better get sooner later,1 nd redflag attemptjust tried commite redflag again wish scared go it delt much life strength stand tall anymore,1 Han Solo has depression. Pass it on.,1 @wstmjonathan proveeee itttttttttt ,0 sounds odd however late feeling anythingi used constantly sad bursts motivation fail make even sad feel nothing every time something bad happens realize matter life always shit always disappointment people try get wrong still severely depressed feel like entering stage numb see lot people saying feel nothing anymore even sadness might prolonged state depressionyears told one gotten help all living inside hell silently probably caused severe damage cannot feel emotion anymore momdad usually screams me head hope die later take back feel sorry anymore care die leave that person care me everyone else commit suicide die me depressed world happy conceited depressed depression,1 keep fighting dark side always feel verge losing battlefor suicidality never big part recentlything is dont want die dark side wants to able keep bay months nowi somehow able observe distance fear itll come back soon stronger ever feel coming back slowly,1 title says anyone anything try cheer up literally could care less is want think killing minute thanks bored sad,1 sonnyjoeflangan oh awesome shit i missed it,0 hi fellow peeps peepettes discord server friends r trying get new peoplee chat send memes play games like minecraft among us overwatch stuff going on commitment guys girls welcome dm link d,0 my story is nothing compared to everyone else here it s such a stupid reason to post i know but i still wanted to say it please hate on me if you d like cause i deserve it there this girl i recenetly met from my college program for month so far obv with everything being online i have only met her irl once at school but i have severe social anxiety and always have been an introvert since i wa in like middle school so i couldnt talk to her that day i actaully even purposly avoided her because i dont know why we also live far away from each other with the college being hour away for u both but for each others house it hour so this would be a long distance relationship if i ever asked her out which i never will but it an idea before i met her i wa always sad with my life not studying playing game all day not going outside eating unhealthy spending money unwisely no friend and also with my parent not caring about me or talking to me at all so i wa alone and lonely i wa actaully thinking about killing myself because i wa just so done with life and thought there wa nothing left to do in life but literally right after i wa thinking about suicide i met her after meeting her i have been eating healthy studying with her playing game with her exercised because she told me to and she is just someone i can always talk to we basically talk to each other everyday with over 000 message and she is really a joy to talk with ive never really liked anyone this much in my life shes just perfect shes funny kind beautiful thoughtful trustworthy sweet list go on i like her too much and it now starting to affect the thought in my head im constantly thinking everyday how im unable to always be beside her how we will only stay a friend how we cant ever hang out together like friend normally do me not being able to say a word in front of her irl it just make me so fucking sad im such a fciuking loser and i hate it i hate anxiety i hate depression i hate my life ive grown too attached to her and i just cant stop having these thought in my head im also mad ugly so im also insecure about that im back to being suicidal but idk yet today we had an in person lecture that wa mandatory and i sat in the corner a i always do far far away from the people and she came in and sat right beside me i shouldve been happy i should have been gratful that we could be together in that short moment but my anxiety got the best of me and i ran away from her left the class left the school and went back home when i came home i saw so many message she ha sent me and i havent replied yet nor have i looked at it i dont know what to do anymore thanks for reading let me know how much of a dipshit i am please,1 nipples always hard school nipples hard embarrassed someone might see nipples shirt omg,0 People at my work are fucking retarded. Makes me feel good about myself ,0 hey everyone i recently moved to another country for work this seemed like the best option due to lack of option in my own country the move came just after various treatment facility to manage addiction which i believe wa a side affect of my depression my experience in this new country ha been hectic no one can speak english so making new friend and connection are so difficult i have found myself wallowing in this outside of work i pretty much just sit in my apartment feeling really sad last night i had a dream that pushed me to a new low this morning the dream pretty much had me in a group of friend having a good time i don t remember any of their face there wa even a girl that i remember making me feel loved i dont remember her face either but that connection left me feeling so so alone,1 just got back from the funeral of a government employee friend http plurk com p n0bvd,0 feel like dog sense suicidal condition think know store myselfim sorry thank good companion,1 pe straight people subject like bruh would always put much effort,0 danphelan urgh it wa just the video and they cut the robot part,0 is going to sleep for a while.. --trish.out. **to OUR pillowcase: i want a hug** **musicians are sooo in. **,0 oops help maybe years ago wrote hate comments tiktok cause yea insecure that checked today saw someone commented bye one didnt really expect deleted course dont agree said back really hope dont know person gonna get cancelled something wrote many things bad things really regret do,0 "aha, everyone seems to be dead hot, im alright ",0 Walmart: hair dye and ice cream. ,0 "Where ever I go now I'm making an effort to hang out with my fellow illegals, and fully experiance the life in the shadows ",0 struggling wth alonei guess seem okay outside people tell pretty smart funny interesting hobbies functional go work study family friends want bother issues feel close enough with ex best friend cant rely anymore pets anything live alone tiny dorm room foreign country feel like desperately looking another relationship someone important would sad died it right okay alone objectively see fucked seems care anymore feel like nobody live,1 "Hi there, my name is Kuuku. Are you struggling with disappointment, depression, suicidal thoughts, anger, or do you feel lost and left behind in life? I have also been in situations in which I needed someone to talk to. You can definitely talk to me. DM me",1 going beach trip think thats ill end ittwo good friends middle school planned trip south padre think perfect plan away family cannot try save me already planning head guys finally time end it,1 think going kill tonightive living mental issues since middle school mainly depressed lot issues amhow look time started accepting relationship someone remind least thought attractive mattered however insecurities eventually got best became toxic jealous led end relationship several months agoi deserved that deserved better know hurt lot trouble living that also reduces self image further trouble living general think incredibly lucky relationship someone like that think happen again want happen again know would end way therapy help groups since break trying deal better person noticed improvementi think point burden holding people around back always bringing issues wanting deal them point one wants see anymore that also scared seeing toxic part trouble changing leaving mei feel bad people hurt this hope able move quickly someone always loses fight,1 feel hopelesswhats point surviving failing every attempt one wait you,1 im feeling year chronic depressedalready year feel nothing hatred sadness within fueling thoughts negativity ive hope ill ever trust people feel safe loved healed feel happy never person cry year feel like im constantly holding back could cry every day wanted command feel fucked head desire destroy vanish like greatness gone ive felt fucked often became chronic undeniable feel need someone fix make shit decisions professional would expensive right cant put real person shit im always keep evolving often leads going days denying insanity dont know do feel constantly outcast thoughts impossible fit in im either foggy fucked negative spiral inside head ive short outburst happiness hour drains energy,1 "@stefanie_go AHH! vampire! haha, you ain't that pale naman ah ",0 i ve turned this into my blog took it over people depend on me to be alive to function to live yet i hate this planet and pedophile politics religion racism and rapist and they are all allowed to live amongst u why because this god people belive in is cruel in the story book he gave up his son for u yet who ha god to either way i would like to ask him before i go to hell or reborn in this earth to relive this life in a different form my favorite part of the day is when i lay my head down and hope not to wake up the worst part of my day is waking up,1 know posts joke serious first hookup sexual experience girl kinds shit except kissing we neck kissing tho point kinda rubbed one leg like rub one bed nonetheless girl friend dark oblivious nuted felt shame emptiness inside feel like never things like like god create feel like shit im second year highschool year college,0 @chocolatebox279 haha...i went red with mine and love it! ,0 im sick thisim sick crying every fucking day want end today even worse day me nothing one help day help try cry fucking hard fine im used alone still heartbreaking always be hate day wish could die never wake another miserable day hope much better day me,1 i want doctor assisted suicide no one care a store i wa at last night wa being robbed i didn t hide just went about my business thought it would be best for my family and me if i wa killed the police didn t care they never showed up the loneliness is unbearable,1 going describe judge comments name redacted call dooramii year old girl like eddsworld danganronpa ojamajo doremi mixels lego movie course like playing legos playing videogames steam account minecraft accounts subscribed youtube channels timtamtom chris cross iilluminaughtii schaffrilas productions living tombstone vivziepop eddsworld rebeltaxi play roblox premium simp fictional characters picture face httpspreviewredditalfjmxyrjthpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampscfeffcdcfdedacddfdeeb,0 @cafedunoir absolutely! just pitch in a few bucks for gas/tolls. u in? also we're passing out prospect cds after the show ,0 cannot sleep supposed excited big company shit thinking much making want kill myself put lot work year get better sending entire strides back depression worried wake time choose gothat it going go cry sleep cuz anything say stupid stupid issue need get myself already wasted enough time anxious know sleep someone please make end soon am start new job hours,1 i so mood end shit not trying funny cope,1 poop school goddess,0 listening want christmas christmas wanted try challenge years ago rules are listen least hours day want christmas cant listen song starts first november lasts christmas variations want christmas allowed give try idk got mixed feelings challenge guys wanna join ,0 I'm sure The Ting Tings could do the same thing. ,0 want end sooni want write note want disappear never found declared legally dead while method possible place depends pushes edge going tonight worry respond right away im sleepy,1 tyjanetrev i agreee clearly they only want attention sorry i couldn t catch the train mateee,0 @mdalin Never did it occur to me ,0 looking forward literally nothing life want fall asleep wake want go,1 hi everyone in the past few year that i have been living alone a a student i noticed myself falling into period of time where i would not leave the house alone it s not a if i don t enjoy going outside i live in vancouver and there are some truly beautiful day here where the sunlight make this city breathtaking my issue isn t a fear of going outside it s more of a fear of the people i ll encounter and how they may judge me i ve always struggled with depression and low self esteem i ve always felt nervous about other people looking at me i avoid leaving the house alone unless it s necessary and when i do it s usually at night i ve even had point in the past where i ve drunk alcohol to make myself feel le nervous about leaving the apartment for grocery i usually don t make eye contact when i m alone outside and keep my eye focused ahead or on the ground why do other people scare me so much when i m on my own i can leave if i m with friend but on my own i always get nervous and procrastinate until nighttime when fewer people are out i think i just feel safer inside because other people aren t there to see me or place judgment i m fortunate enough that my current bos allows me to work from home so unless i need to leave the house i usually won t i even try to get most of my grocery via amazon so i can minimize the chance of going outside i feel like i want to hide in here and not think about anything i don t even want to look at myself i wa wondering if there are other people who feel this way too is there a name for what i m experiencing am i just lazy i just want to know how to feel better,1 @cragchris @Sarxos @WWF_Climate @bullyinguk @AmandaSanter Thank you for the #charitytuesday support ,0 hey question ever wonder would happen stabbed right now like would happen killed right now like would even care would go life,0 "hahaha by the time u see this, u'd have watched drag me to hell. ",0 example world war documentary madeusing first hand accounts actual troops civilians participated awful conflictand archived footage gathered around time i caught rerun history channel year half backwith knowledge really second world war timebut enveloped meand consider world war buffwatching reading find itbut nothing comes close landmark documentarydefinitely worth buying boxed set ofbr br this quite simply documentary making highest standard,0 Deep depression,1 convinced george floyd died drugs arrest video leaked dailymail see hear already said i cant breathe kneeled due resisting arrest died heart failure also mean overdosed drugs died stress high time arrest also convict angel known police also stupid believe cops acted racism black cop present scene youve lied cnn also millions americans relying amazon millions americans relying amazon millions americans relying amazon millions americans relying amazon heres amazon video httpsyoutubezqnnjwraak heres gf arrest video thats leaked dailymail httpsyoutubeypswqpfdiw,0 low key feel like could get though im way outta league feel like kind connection tho ill still wait,0 questioning morality guess titles pretty vague mean worry sometimes im actually decent human being know based moral perceptions listen parents who good people guidance actually i think right deep vile parents ones keeping afloat whats right way know parents influence grueling ive talk mom says even thought proves morality is others told thing response general moral questing outside childtoparent dynamic helped me sometimes still worry know kinda brusque felt share case anyone else experienced ordeal edit spacing,0 birthday none friends wished happy birthday someone plz wish happy birthday,0 i miss my 0 fam,0 tks pa quot tapauing quot croissant tuna knowing dat ive back to back meeting since morning amp zuraidah tks buying my fav starbuck mocha frap,0 Defeat #Depression and Execute a Normal Life Using #Valdoxan. More Information @ http://bit.ly/2HXUrOh  pic.twitter.com/9s7QGow7X7,1 god awkward five morning seven havent done shit internet hear out think mightve discharged wet myself im sure maybe im crazy discharged supposed feel like wetting self maybe pee dunno awkward,0 im ready lets get dooveri done point havent felt good years due sexual abuse constant bullying dreams goals going drain religious hope god reincarnation real want get doover born better life done struggle go every day thanks illnesses diagnoses contemplating redflag years feel like whatever lets already point life death doesnt scare me truly terrifies feel fucking good thinking redflag really gone far but might try holding little bit longer surgery want hopefully help me doesnt im done im setting time place method cant stand life anymore point feel like life way rigged people like me actually rigged even people born fortune life hard even them fucking impossible us thank world may fuck hard,1 pure hurt my neck at the gym,0 @seconddrink haterade? pullllllllease ,0 view risk,0 ive wavering suicidal thoughts since im almost nothing going right im ready give uptitle remember miserable far back consciously remember remember calling redflag hotline hung making excuses everything lady end saying trying help ive loser forever always picked on always forgotten always pushed aside im black sheep family theyre bunch pious christian straight white baptist fanatics im white bisexual atheist mom constantly tells need god tell anything personal dad brushes tells need happy tell anything personal ive downward fucking spiral since graduated high school moved parents got slapped paying stupid amount rent every month failed college programming class lost scholarship flopped around looking jobs dropped out took credit card debt fix car struggled paying rent lease ran out kept flopping around one job next moved back parents crashed car thats mention health issues ive got exact issues mom fibromyalgia though diagnosed benign tumor growing inside femoral neck hip causing suffer basically constant back hip neck pain today im living parents nowhere else go sleeping air mattress relying parents bicker constantly sort travel staffing agency im currently employed work thats within affordable travel range much job interview past months despite efforts send applications even know fuck decided write this think anyone gives shit sure hell dont im ready give put bullet skull even privilege parents firearms wat do,1 my year relationship ended about a month ago for me it feel like it just happened yesterday every time i wake up i remember this person is no longer in my life i check my phone constantly throughout the day knowing there won t be message from them anymore i haven t accepted that it is over they were my first for everything it s hard right now because i m not working and sometimes i get a week break from school i ve had free time before but i haven t had free time without speaking to them constantly in year so i feel super lonely and i don t know what to do most of the day i spend in bed i wa diagnosed with depression about a week ago i have probably eaten le than 00 calorie a day for the past week which is just making the depression worse because there s no fuel in the tank sometimes le than that because i have no desire to eat i just feel nauseous i wa doing better somewhat until i decided to reach out to this person to confirm whether or not we could contact each other again and thinking we could possibly be friend in the future i got a message from this person about a week ago stating that it wa completely over a far a ever communicating with each other again and also my dog died so i lost the two thing i cared about the most all in the span of a month and long story short i harassed that person because i wanted them to talk to me i wanted to say goodbye properly and i wanted them to say goodbye properly because it didn t end well and i wanted to fix it i have always tried to fix thing and be perfect and never make mistake i just wanted to fix it i definitely made it way worse by spamming them i didn t mean to i have always tried to be a good person and do the right thing and treat people the right way and now i don t know who i am anymore i feel really really bad about it i would never actually do anything to hurt this person this person knew me more than anyone in my life ever ha i really didn t understand that what i wa doing wa harassment i thought if i messaged them enough they would understand me and talk to me but that wa not the case i tried to message them on multiple different platform and begged for them to speak to me most of the time i sent the message i wa in the middle of one of my panic attack or cry on the floor and sometimes i would try to reach out super late at night when the depression get the worse i would like to add that i ve never experienced heartbreak before and i ve never had anything this bad happen to me my mom s car accident affected me year ago but this wa a different kind of pain i even sent them money through a money transfer app just so i could send a message because i wa blocked on everything else i know that i m not okay but i don t know what to do or how to fix it it s worth noting that this person life very very far away so when the relationship ended i knew i d never see or hear from them again and i couldn t handle not having this person in my life we had talked messaged each other every single day for year and we had traveled to different place together over the last year my life ha always involved this person i don t know who i am without them the only time i m not in pain is when i m sleeping and even then i have dream about them but we are still together in those dream so when i wake up the realization is brutal i thought they were my soulmate and that we would be together forever and grow old together one day i think it s hard because i remember u promising to always be with each other and have each other to love each other forever i think i could maybe deal with the relationship ending but i can t let go of the promise we made and when i remember this person isn t in my life anymore it make me physically sick sometimes i get actual chest pain i m 0 and i don t think i m capable of loving someone else ever again i knew this person wa special from the moment i meant them i hesitated to ask them out because i knew there wa a possibility that relationship could end and i never wanted to have this person out of my life i wanted them to always be my friend and didn t want a relationship to possibly ruin that it did in the end anyways i lost my best friend not talking to them every day feel like a part of me is gone missing it doesn t feel right that we re not together anymore it feel like they died it feel like the universe isn t going right like it s not in alignment and this wasn t suppose to happen i don t think that we aren t suppose to be together it feel wrong they were suppose to come visit soon but now it s never going to happen i had already practiced how i wa going to show them how the shower work because everyone s work differently bought spare soap moved thing out of my room so it would be quieter at night for them planned the place we were going to go and thing we were going to do imagined u going to get food and sit in the car and talk how i wa going to show them new thing and comfort them during the long car drive the movie we were going to watch etc it s not happening anymore now i can t do any of those thing without breaking down how do i let this go and i definitely can never get on another plane again because i ve only ever been on plane to see them i wa at my happiest when i knew i wa on my way to them even though it usually took 9 hour total to get there i have deleted almost all our picture together but all the gift from them and their family are in my bottom dresser because i can t bring myself to get rid of them some of them were very special meaningful gift i wa there for christmas and i don t know what to do with them i don t feel like i m capable of throwing them away i am unable to open the dresser and look at them i feel like i m a bad person because this is not something i thought i would ever do i still love this person more than anything but i am going to go to therapy today so that i can work on moving on i can not do it myself i will never message them again but it s too late to take back everything i did and said i even said i hate them i wa so angry but i m incapable of hating this person even in my anger i could never hate this person i said it because i wa so hurt i wa told that i am going through grief i couldn t apologize because i m blocked on everything understandable so it s probably best that they leave me blocked for now because i m afraid that i will get angry sad again and say thing i don t mean or beg them to talk to me i also sent a letter to them where i said some thing when i wa angry but they won t receive that for week do you think they will ever forgive me one day for the harassment my intention weren t to scare them i needed to talk to them to stop the overwhelming sadness i thought that they still cared about me i think i wa begging them to still care i thought if i told them everything going wrong they would comfort me because our relationship had been so strong do you think that they will know that i m sorry am i a bad person for doing what i did,1 why oh why do i watch video of people dying right before i m going to sleep,0 im bored wants ok me were strangers love know rules full commitments im thinking get guy wanna tell im feeling gotta make understand never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt weve known long hearts aching shy say inside know whats going know game were gonna play ask im feeling tell blind see never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt ooh give up ooh give up never gonna give never gonna give give up never gonna give never gonna give give up weve known long hearts aching shy say inside know whats going know game were gonna play wanna tell im feeling gotta make understand never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt still want ok,0 cry helpi attempted anything yet mind flooding kinds thoughts put shortly madly love girlfriends friends years lovers almost would constantly fight loved great time together one day two months ago decided break where day gave cold shoulder told fault everytime messaged tried see treated like stranger ever since cant get head talked friends family tried workout tried occupy time way get head cant live without her everything secure future getting good job going college get promoted work even bought ring going propose birthday know ill never find anyone like think driving cliff jumping bridge kinds things im spoiled loving parents great friends even thier words get lost head tried everything get stop even wrote one favorite song artist time see response would make happy im desperate find way out eating alive dont end getting help mind get best me,1 @adamagee awesome! super stoked for the new album ,0 gen z slang teach old ladies class lot old ladies asked could teach slang taught word simp it need gen z words teach asked advice,0 alcohol numbing guilt committing redflagi dependence alcohol however drinking every day every weeks couple months may seem like much drink feel dependent it recently something horrible happened feel happy somewhat drunk now know im harm thought dying mental state makes seem much easier doi feel free somewhat happyi plan drinking awhile possibly staying days max avoid ptsd dreamsthese usually triggered stress fear going sleep thats im staying want feel crappy staying up life feel guilt killing myself guilt family may think feel like would okay etc think im going drink daily know healthy feel like way feel alright okay,1 lilylauren i get sad when ppl shave their moustache i don t know if i d cry about it tho,0 taking driving test today wish luck guys tip me ill update later passed,0 @Tortue 日以æ?‰æ­»å?³éŒ„ etc etc Can do in Canto too. But I'd just as well memorize the passwords ,0 always vergeim scared even admit feeling incredibly depressed again keep journal im scared even write feel like killing myself feel like getting day telling least redflag always option like every day say well gets worse ill kill anxiety something ive never diagnosed im anxious call doctors arrange appointment im scared take time work entire life even school months years worse others find dumb settle boring routine relatively ok feelings messed taking promotion work responsibilities spend time home absolutely terrified ive done something wrong replay things head convince wrong lot responsibilities work involve outside clients something wrong could potentially big problems caused company really kicked anxiety depression overdrive exhausted constantly worrying cant sleep eat im terrified time genuinely feel like way end all like im worried something specific moment may sent something wrong client time wasnt worried all didnt think it came home brain started playing day realised didnt remember double checking it weekend ive state worry complete emptiness ive convinced wrong isnt unusual every day come home worry something didnt do cant carry like this cant tell employer dont official diagnosis told previously managing director extremely angry didnt believe me said wasnt trying given wanted fire gave another chance feel like dont leg stand dont sort diagnosis scared go doctor every day think worst things could happen decide happen ill kill sort gets through im worried worst thing going happen one day snap ill kill everyone sad cant see another way this horrible tiring cycle people tell stop worrying wont make mistakes im smart etc makes feel worse inevitably make mistake theyll disappointed literally cannot stop worrying feel thoughts going round round head like stuck loop know boyfriend gets frustrated angry cry shut away doesnt understand worry things wish brain could normal could stop overthinking thinking worst happen normal people dont think killing every day im sorry sending email know long dont expect anyone read all know im ridiculous im grand scheme things none matters wish could normal brain im scared tomorrow go work ill possibly find things ive done wrong dont know happen could lose job destroyed id anxious new job could even find one wouldnt money meant buying house next year go window too feel like cant talk anyone dont want worry them cant tell employer happened last time cant tell dad hell worried boyfriend means well cant understand never worries anything hasnt ever depressed before know long anyone bother with needed type out please dont nasty impatient cry usual ignore dont want ill delete it,1 "RT by @dietpatch RT @pjforguk: Profitable #Advertising-promoted #junkfood heightens blood #sugar => #inflammation hence #obesity #depression,… https://twitter.com/i/web/status/989130370577772544 …",1 i m only year ago i wa really one of the famous kid in school everything wa going well until first quarantine started i became probably the most antisocial person it wa the last half year of school so didn t go anywhere because i wa doing online lesson i didn t go out with friend at all until next year where quarantine stopped for month so had to go to school again i started getting bullied by my own friend i couldn t handle it i wa thinking of commiting suicide back then to i got through it but this made me even more antisocial i couldn t trust anyone for a really long time because a i said these were my own friend bullying me for fun now at the rd year everything is kinda ok i started going out with friend again month ago after so long but i don t like going out with them week ago i wa in bed thinking and my hole life what i like the most is video game and lucid dreaming i thought the reason why these are the only staff i enjoy to the conclusion that they offer me just an escape from sad reality which is me not enjoying literally anything else school is my biggest enemy my hole life i wait for it to be over but just can t deal with it anymore only for me to wait every day to end just to basically sleep and play some video game so i faked being sick with a lot of fever for the past week to escape school and all the stress i have in life my parent took me to the doctor and he said to do a lot of test so we can see what is my illness my parent found out because the test showed that i don t have anything they weren t mad because they think that i have a reasonable reason for doing all these and they are right but i can t tell them all of these i just can t find the power,1 cant cope please helpso im bi cant cope mum hates parents going disown find im bi theyve made clear religion family classmates mocking accidently swore loudly class teacher took class grandma basically raised really young terminally ill dying friend nearly killed weeks ago kind mental illness already feel suicidal deppresed think im going another deppriesive episode cant deal another one nearly killed last time time worse know mum also gaslights think tell shell say im selfish making dad worry last timethe time ever told suicidal said selfish fault satan decided test faith must easy target know cope please help parent gonna disown way kill save mum hassle cutting off,1 feel like lost myselfi wake wonder would happen died today bought enough paracetamol ibuprofen kill think use it even stash vodka hidden room note saying drink pills feel like getting life back track finally still want end all cant trust family cause overreact friends think taking piss do,1 everything readyim alone room drunk ready jump if fail fall window height would enough get rid me night progress reasons jump increase,1 i told them about my suicidal thought and that i don t know how long i would be gone it just got so much easier now the thought of killing myself i mean i originally planned to do it when i wa 9 but thing have changed the thing i wa afraid of wa abandoning my friend now all they all know is that i m taking a break if i just did it they would think i moved on not knowing what actually happened to me thinking that i got better,1 feel urge grow up dont im like panic mode tonight it dont know whether save fun thing get motorcycle license motorcycle im kind panicking cause make wrong choice never get around thing dont know im doing idea im life,0 engrossing drama four men canoing weekend remote river pacifist ed jon voight adventurous violent lewis burt reynolds obnoxious bobby ned beatty nice guy drew ronny cox first minute greattheres incredible dueling banjos sequence interesting interplay among characters stunning widescreen cinematography vilmos zsigmond two hillbillies attack ed bobby one rapes bobbyand trip becomes nightmarebr br just unbelievable scenery incredibly beautiful yet horrific violence taking place truthful beattys rape never bothered meim aware faked despite good acting movie also shows characters changeed pacifism tested lewis becomes weak bobby violated one people mocked earlier drew tries keep sane direction john boorman also assured sounds forest river help mood immenselybr br the acting mostly good voight ok leadhes better beatty also okbut debut film guts taking risky role cox good especially things start falling apart reynolds superbone best acting jobs ever even nominated academy award escapes me also bill mckinney herbert coward way believable hillbilliesbr br a powerful filmnot children try see uncut versionthe tv version butchered also letterboxed viewing essential capture breathtaking images,0 jlsofficial a photoshoot eyy im sure you will all look hot come back to brighton say hellooo to the boy love you load xxxxxx,0 played first soul calibur dreamcast thought great played second hooked finally soul calibur iii released bought playstation gamebr br this really keep hours huge amount characters loads unlockable content mention great fighting system really greatest fighting game date br br the games strong points foremost vs gameplay two human players battle other either playing one main characters created customized character create character option vast allows player make thousands different combinationsbr br the thing bothers create character uses fighting style grieve edge only kicks wear ridiculous shoes br br this absolutely greatest fighting game one could wish for now im hoping planned movie crap,0 meatrack no more sneaky late arvo surf now man i feel the late arvo glass off is now a distant memory of summer,0 throwaway think make next daysi life roller coaster cannot take anymore started college two years ago time life started relationship would first girlfriend things went while came back down finished year gpa depression leaving school friends summer combined enter long distance relationship girlfriend occured one year ago month affected job years camp counselor love working children passion job anymore depression got point affected job performance hired back summer diagnosed officially depression last august put medication never followed psychiatrist fall brought controlling behavior end regret fully understand wrong ok anyway so parent boss acted girlfriend never again december last year broke u third final time mess sent three angry text messages never threatened hurt her regret messages er suicidal times month end month asked girlfriend meet talk said no thaat night climbed ladder next apartment window knocked it never attention break in hoping would come outside realize wrong called police parents picked rushed hosital cops could get me admitted self psych ward stayed days diagnosed bipolar found wrong medication before months left hopsital set go back school past spring continue education major filed harrament tresspassing warning entereed database told would record go back skibum winter dream always had fun many nights spent alone knowing friends life many people liked considered good friend minutes away would text asking come visit not would taken one thing warning would become criminal would record unable work kids contacted anyone since night knocked window life seemed head again came home reconnected every friend blew last summer due depression got job working kids finished first week past week running background check cops said notices would show up local station entered database made clear phone stressed everyday show lose job signed lease apartment good friends fall school estactic thought back longer going back plan anyway days ago found ex filed protection abuse order me knew planning attending school fall months since called police contact anyone her want nothing her go court days there going back school help case certain thrown contacted able say going back important note contacted weeks got hospital respond made descion go back leave behind friends due mess sucks broke heart track attend school again not days see her angry past understand called police want see ever scared death see her gained pounds worked winter look good still scared see dont want bring back bad memories ten days find order thrown away finally move live life peace never see hear again order permanent go record ruin chance becoming teacher helping kids life goal scars self harm thoughts redflag rampant go work next handful days give best cant let affect cost another job affable benign thoughtful compassionate made mistake regreet learned it want live life scars self harm thoughts redflag rampant great this cant handle stress anxiety next ten days want see her dont know do,1 name jesus yearold male want dieive thoughts since freshman year highschool dont know much want say part wants bawl lifes story let everything note says hey alive another part wants disappear abyss bother anyone hurt anyone else all ive already let family down let others too theres small part wants live continue hopeful naive fool used be want die always remembered quote friend anthony used say favorite game little the heart may weak sometimes may even give in ive learned that deep down theres light never goes out stopped attempting multiple times now nomatter much want shake die cant ive panic attacks manic episodes years keeping family knowing anything wanna worry them want shun like others opening up dont think life meaningless theres lot things world love family friends significant other music games animals food things cant think deserve this im stubborn opinionated asshole friends openly make fun good fun know lot people care now want die every time try every time resolve myself remember care for dont want hurt them already hurt them want die lived th floor dorms college now roommate differences room myself every night looked window wondering itd like fall never balls it now want die ever ive got word academic suspension university ive poor academic standing continuous threats parents get kicked nowhere stay continue poorly school received threat first term freshman year college since regular panic attacks crying sleep even significant unaware this two former roommates do consider close friends ive here drinking last days knowing talk family im here drinking homemade moonshine friend got late birthday preset wanting close eyes die painless death dont know do talk family keep living every plan thrown window even college education look fiancee confidence finding place together already enough depression anxiety severe own ive pull knife away hands cried tried stab herself theres reason im alive try give happy life cant even that name jesus garcia yearold male former student msoe software engineering program weeks ago someone campus know committed redflag leading week finals failed classes leading go academic suspension want follow suit cant matter much want die cant,1 youre flatter flat earth society rip tits ill never ill never know like able store things boobs filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 @KimKardashian GO WITH THE HAIRCUT!!! YOU WILL BE GORGEOUS...I COULD TOTALLY SEE THAT LOOK ON YOU ,0 got discord finally really sure mean even friends know got im honest lol,0 #Valdoxan 25mg is highly recommended medicine for the treatment of #depression. Buy Now @ http://www.bestgenericdrug.com/valdoxan-25mg-noveltin.html … pic.twitter.com/v7Lyhtoq4u,1 found worst thing websiteits uredflagawarenessbothttpswwwredditcomuredflagawarenessbot yes bad expect be soulless bot replies redflag hotline number whenever sees stuff like i want kill myself imagine talking something serious wanting die bot poorly made minutes make creator feel like good person come reply comment soulless unedited text automatically replied thousands comments fuck uredflagawarenessbothttpswwwredditcomuredflagawarenessbot,1 thirty years initial release third version a star born finally comes dvd package please devoted fans barbra streisand would include since saw concert singing among numbers feminist anthem woman moon film easy dismiss movies careerpolarizing story sturdy pile hollywoodstyle clichs variations exist films including streisands funny girl time reset thencontemporary music scene timeworn plot follows selfdestructive rock star john norman howard deepdive career descent meets club singer esther hoffman awaiting big breakbr br troubles dog courtship outset john norman both names please responds grasping fans bloodless djs random acts violence from inexplicably escapes prosecution john norman esther represents last shot happiness turn drawn innately decent creative musician underneath faade movies pivotal scene gives esther big break benefit concert career takes off inevitably cant handle failure career light meteoric success familiar version story know rest directed frank pierson although streisands budding directorial talents obviously display film still manages draw in even though know shamelessly contrived manipulative still certain emotional resonance despite numerous flawsbr br although streisand prime seems like ideal choice play rising singing star screen persona simply strong predefined play esther credibly said performing style since script seems make allowances softer adult contemporaryoriented material accepted within otherwise hardened world arena rock moment pops head middle oreos cant help come across established star forgive lapse simply unparalleled vocal talent becomes less forgiving makes esther strident poignant john normans woes become overwhelming creates oddly discomfiting dynamic last part film becomes less caused climactic event esthers response it capped uninterrupted eightminute closeup memorial performance great except regrettably mimics john normans style toward endbr br kristofferson hand gives superb performance throughout managing level honesty grounds film makes palpable concurrent feelings love pride resentment toward esther makes vodkasoaked onstage growling work within context otherwise always strikes strange version supporting characters relegated background exist unless interacting two principals ones register paul mazursky john normans levelheaded manager brian gary busey cynical band manager bobbie veteran cameraman robert surtees provides nice burnish cinematography though level graininess persists print big seller day soundtrack hodgepodge different styles s songs still quite good everything woman moon watch closely now moved kitsch queen bee kenny loggins i believe love course inescapable evergreenbr br the print transfer dvd clean sound gratefully crisp thanks digital remastering streisands participation chief lure extras beginning featurelength commentary gives insightful information genesis film casting reportedly troubled production also refreshingly candid megalomania jon peters hairdresser boyfriend became movies producer dissatisfaction pierson director wish could provided scenespecific comments directly relate screen also tends repeat anecdotes mood strikes her eg gets tiring hear third time person playing chauffeur friend peters think second commentator could drawn nuggets herbr br there wardrobe test reel shows amusing s clothes especially kristoffersons mixedfabric poncho orange polyester shirt also twelve deleted scenes included streisands optional commentary one comic breadbaking scene reminded much like streisand farcical comedies another extended scene plays evergreen guitar front awestruck kristofferson falls asleep interesting alternate take musical finale incorporating fast cuts agree streisand used fittingly theatrical trailers three versions a star born also included,0 "dp has spearheaded a huge initiative to spread awareness about mental health. talking about her OWN depression helps in erasing the stigma associated w/depression. but yeah, bitter aish fans, aish's achievements are being duplicated by dp & pc. i get that yall are threatened. https://twitter.com/TasnimaKTastic/status/989133332750446593 …",1 @ismail Yeah. 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Support Kenya ,0 i <3 swings... i feel like a 5 year old... ,0 someone help memy girlfriend heavy depression anxiety feel like cant much dont know get seek professional help,1 may wanna reach crush dunno dont really want reach think cut something says fuck talking me relatively non obvious annoying way reach least become sort friends,0 hardboiled warner brothers film starring young barbara stanwyck consummate master portraying machiavellian cool technique perfected eleven years later billy wilders double indemnity stanwyck plays lily powers wellworn daughter violent speakeasy owner suffocating steeltown rendered cynical numb years offered sexual favor fathers customers father dies distillery explosion hops freight train new york literally sleeps way corporate ladder bankbr br this would come across preposterous stanwycks blazing work here deadeyed stare amoral seduction methods easy see men become addicted aggressive carnality one young men seduces along way freshfaced john wayne things accountant named jimmy mccoy melodrama gets heavyhanded toward last third film murdersuicide hushhush job paris keep lily quiet new bank president addicted lily embezzles company funds keep luxury tackedon ending somewhat disappointing stanwyck sears screen film curious touches like lilys bonding friendship africanamerican woman named chico german immigrant teaches lily nietzsche philosophy regarding importance avoiding sentimentality,0 "I never question my depression anymore. Cuz I'll do that for a minute, then a really really Terrible day comes around n I wonder how I could've ever questioned.",1 suggestions anime give suggestions anime anything except romance highschool stuff like,0 fell asleep really didn t mean too christina,0 "so excited 2day, looking 4ward 2 my long weekend ",0 ever since i wa little i wondered what purpose i served in this world i wanted to die because i really did not understand my use today i grew up i thought i had found this answer or that i would find it one day but i do study that don t interest me my family and my friend are far away i just realized that my spouse wa using me from the start and the world is bad i m useless and i don t think i ll ever be used for anything the urge to die is coming to the surface faster than i thought,1 keeps working thisi enjoy good thelonious monk comp then keeps answering requests music wise maybe tell us major blues scale,1 theres new channel youtube want see gain traction channel justfixitlater really cool guys checked,0 @Lucinda_Nadiaon Well I'm glad you're sis persuaded you otherwise. Welcome aboard ,0 @anz_rocks haha I'm gonna nick that one angi I love it ,0 online school min wish luckkk filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 hoping better daysi think ending life everyday thing holding back pain family would go through way makes even frustrated knowing option ive depressed past months soul shattering nothing makes sense right now think happy want feel something hurting constant pain chest makes hard even harder eat use love cooking havent made meal months body mind feel weak,1 I wanna sleep in late tomarrow! Thank goodness for Saturday mornings!!!!,0 think im horny simp started twitter went check friends page see retweeted beautiful lady named corinna kopfs picture bikini felt something never felt before know masturbate lot time different raging boner saw pic instantly followed notifications on started scrolling photos tab dick began get bigger bigger felt like gonna rip pants due aero used seeing girl bikinis hot tub leave phone table cause couldnt stop scrolling minutes later still boner point couldnt contain masturbated twitter posts busted biggest load ever done life day mentally changed havent missed facebook stream always get boner streams masturbate nut continue watching stream dont know stop this someone help,0 trying talk first time girl likehello idk really post this thing im timid depressive rejected last girl ive tried said shy im trying move forward hard get stuck much every relationship anyways want new crush feel like im shy ive never talked see college spaces common im planning approach say hello see often university seem interesting me would glad get know better name is always overthink first approach let way much time something get depressed uhmm guys think good enough sorry formats english too,1 had the worst dream abt some turd face i used to date ugh it wa awful,0 anyone wanna exchange music im looking new music listen to like rap music not cap mumble rap stuff actual good singers good beat want new songs playlist pm want talk,0 thinking killing know dothis going hard reed highly dyslexic go grammar hello break thinking killing hurt one love anything else also monster last moths birth parents dead job future also emotional special needs dyslexia know express emotions person make everything toxic also find people hard around emptiness hits hard try counselling acted like joke fucked around setting date calls meeting keeping find hard trust people self harming started last year mum dead way feel sad guilty time nothing used one person last years life treated like shit used like pawn manipulated anything said tonight fight scary would never physically hurt though going love love back toxic monster final word writing show must stop goodbye sorry everyone hurt stop,1 Followed by the great Super Mazembe. One of the favorites around here ? http://blip.fm/~5jkbp,0 spoilers ahead first ten minutes star witness were introduced quote typical urban american family unquote nameless city another way saying warner brothers version nyc except young children including charming dickie moore sprightly sally blane theyre pretty dreary lot dinner table conversation tedious wish story would move along bring star walter huston wait folks wait sudden serious gangster movie action breaks out drawing family will baby never lets up theres suspense oscarnominated script good acting everything want old movies beit here question chic sales performance must acquired taste presence turns crucial plot hes treated special status credits warner bros must really high sale corny old man routine fit public something lost me perhaps lost time period unknowable factor moviegoer understand also climax typically melodramatic nevertheless right best release studio year seen far however ive seen eight perhaps thats inconclusive view miss tcm shows it ,0 whats point anymorehello taking mg celexa per day days ago paid debts owe nothing anyone become happy like thought would still feel like shit days time im numb emotions really care anything anymore used take zoloft mg day months eventually came point actively trying half assed attempts kill light cord bathroom got pissed work took anger bedroom cupboard one ikea ones glass mirror blood hands everywhere smashed pieces realise wife came running pinned stop me anyway im still emotion less days ago became stressed work driving got urges drive death trying see would best brick wall lamp post something really looking forward playing animal crossing later day guess feel like theres escape one days im gonna die unless someone help me,1 @jordanknight http://twitpic.com/6cggr - Holla for the Irish flag!! 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LOL plz take yur meds I don't want yu feeling pain ,0 dont wanna wake hospital dont wanna wake all wanna jump campus week never feel anything ever againplanning jump building university campus kill week ill go night one sees looking forward killing myself,1 need reasonif theres god someone there please give reason keep on sick tired life going downhill able control emotions fucks sake please kill now,1 my macbook just froze luckily i wa able to take a screen shot of my paper and retyped the end of it i submitted my paper min late,0 f married seeming like unable kids job constantly belittled friends family wants start drama feel like failed life difficulty children really weighing sending dark place feel like everyone perfect lives world punishing me tired feeling like failure,1 @DPrince2124 thanks ,0 qweendassah no he s still miss n,0 theres point really triedtried get life together every step forward ten steps back cant anymore especially alone refuse continue live miserably minuscule chance id ever even find friend let alone partner could deal mental illnesses im tired im failure im alone im ready give now,1 I MISS MY TWITTER !!!! 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By the way... hello everyone ,0 deal itright im staring clock anxious work im relative average job make lot mistakes hate do always thinking negative things cant happy deal it every time know work day feel like throwing up im mentally unstable nothing really wrong feel like everything wrong bad things going happen going shitty day cant stop negative thoughts want die want world end fuck man cant control emotions either something really wrong me im probably going commit redflag real reason point im useless family probably thinking im selfish id killed myself cant stop it hurts wish world would end please end,1 looking norwegian speaking friends play games talk either already speak intend want learn much norwegian can already know bit dm want,0 sure leave noteso im struggling place leave note obvious family die find read it especially includes instructions funeral i want wasting money it shit like that need find soon can want find kill though difficult impulsive person know exactly im going it definately happening soon want find die freak out leave this,1 im normally dramafeel good movie kind guy saw trailer radio resist great film also grreat acting cuba gooding jr excellent job portraying james robert kennedy aka radio ed harris also fantastic job coach jones pleasantly surprised see comedy well great story great acting little comedy give radio ,0 hate complicated fucked lifeim years old going college next month if make it dad working years cant keep job two weeks bc hes lazy bitches bc sit around nothing ive done whole fucking pathetic life graduated high school diploma went prison born got armed robbery drug running two felonies mom works disabled children loves job minus shitty pay wage grandma somehow still going grandpa died brother same dad different mom shows parents house every tonight night im thinking ending all either hanging father lbs fat ass somewhere via gunshot bc quick painless know else ive single year two cant hold relationship bc personal demons porn addict try stop cant bc get bored hate more drugs hate constant verbal abuse dad talk back im afraid hell kill fight mom takes verbal abuse calls fat cunt dares call police hell kill us do im son could give shit less neighbor gun cabinet gave birthday shells never use either im going end life take family care someone world cares me one know matter hopefully meet weird afterlife pussy out put update try get help,1 @joeyjepson nice choice anyway. I thought maybe you were the artist ,0 husband blindsided told wants divorce today tired me include redflag notei dont want anyone else im tired life,1 hert jesus camp yeah,0 prayerfor years prayed strength keep going pray strength end it,1 emilthedk zebragrun so ist e auf dem gymnasium meiner jung auch zwei m dchen ritzen sich eine mit depression momentan in der klinik zwei jung nicht mehr beschulbar klassenstufen 9 und ef und da wa wir mitbekommen ist sicher nur die spitze de eisbergs e ist furchtbar,1 sorry post againi want use sub place go groan guess im now past couple weeks rough life saying much every thing crumbling around me mind broken afraid pushed dearest friend away ive intense lately many people open to know im much know throw sick weight onto loved ones shoulders ive watching videos people dying redflags favorite especially ones guns ive gotten murder videos freak accidents torture never never liked sort thing seeing hurt always made sick love now soothing pleasurable watch videos release drugsmeds always cheap masks make feel real pleasure watch suffering gore actually calm im filled hatred want hurt everyone crosses me want people hurt every fucking day hurt me always pinning screaming ears cant get quite anywhere everyones feeling forced onto me want stop it want eyes leave me ive never fight believe opportunity ive never hurt anyone want bash break people make feel like complete shit opened friend think scared off even give details needed get back wanted person care know completely breaking whats wrong me lived constant urge end life violence pounding head think really turned friend away me im tired everything loud want good man,1 favorite song let lick pussy let me let lick pussy let me let lick pussy let me let lick pussy let lick little wittle tiny pussy like tiny pussy let lick tiny pussy wanna pussy gimme let lick tiny pussy wanna lick tiny pussy please let lick pussy want lick pussy want lick pussy want lick pussy want lick pussy let lick pussy let lick little pussy let me let lick little pussy let lick little pussy let lick little pussy let lick little little little pussy yeah let lick pussy let lick pussy let lick pussy let lick pussy let me let lick pussy let me let lick pussy let me let lick pussy let me let lick pussy let me let lick pussy ooh wanna see hot nickel ball pussy wanna see hot nickel ball pussy wanna see hot nickel ball pussy know see hot nickel ball pussy every day day hot nickel balls pussy little twats little coin slot axe wounds little coin slot axe wounds ohoh wanna lick little little cute little pussy cute little cunt cute little twant cute little cunt gimme cute little slit girl gimme cute little twant little cunt little twant cute little cunt little twant gimme let little pussy wanna lick little pussy wanna lick cunt wanna lick little twat hot nickel ball pussy wanna see hot nickel ball pussy wanna see cute little twat shaking round like bat let shake little pussy let shake little twat gimme gimme little cunts let me let see cummies man wanna see little slit little axewound wanna see little cummy cunt cummy little cumming cummy cummy cunt cummy cunt cum ooh wanna see hot nickel ball pussy wanna see hot nickel ball pussy wanna see hot nickel ball pussy know see hot nickel ball pussy every day day hot nickel balls pussy little twats little coin slot axe wounds little coin slot axe wounds,0 i wasn t in a relationship but there wa this girl who i wa heavily attracted to for whatever reason nothing worked out well i ve tried throwing the kitchen sink at it for quite some time now but i ll never get any closure because she s hardly active on any social medium after much deliberation i actually realized that i still do have the same feeling for her now a i did back then but i can t do shit about it i ve started to accept that my pain probably won t ever go away unless my life doe and i ve been having an intention to act on that,1 hey fellow bi guys ive come conclusion bi great perk time curse beacause boners hard get rid of thing ever stuck abandoned island sort halfway attractive human still able fuck himher regardless gender,0 fun knowing multiple languages even basic understandings cuz say le arsch muy optimus amp one know said,0 ugh in sound class now out of here at kill me won t get home until 0ish,0 @bing searching for i.e. HP NC7010 drivers download and no hp.com results on the first page? Thanx ,0 girls issue guys love men theyre nice handsome gorgeous kind them like night stuff still cross street im waking see man automatically get scared strange man looks me feel really guilty know guys arent like that anyone else,0 everybody loves hypno toad hypno noises hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,0 going to church ,0 a month ago my friend group dropped me because the past few month have been tiring after a situation that involved my crush i kept bothering them about it and it wa just not the same after that i understand where they where coming from though a of right now we re just mutuals we talk in class sometimes and wave to each other in the hallway and smile no drama or anything happened but one person kinda told everyone we ended on good term which im glad happened now i hang out with my other friend we are a trio and we have each other s back nothing is awkward we just vibe with each other let call them em and ki ki is a very friendly person if one of u ha a dislike towards someone she would still talk to them cause shes good with them and they have no drama yesterday ki wa invited to lunch by my ex friend they have been talking and getting closer today in the corner of my eye i see them playing imessage game and just texting each other honestly im just worried that shell hang out with them more often and ill be alone for lunch i am not in charge of who she hang out with i don t mind at all if they re friend she said that our friend group is kind of her main lunch friend group so we hang out like most of the time she said if my ex friend kept inviting her she would probably go maybe a few time i honestly don t know why im worried im overthinking and stressing out a lot right now ive always been like this im afraid to be alone,1 gon na start seeing my depression like a symbiote,1 planning unexpected breaki lot redflag contemplation recently came way escape system loop everyday life weeks parents go weekends often weeks preparing moment loneliness head miles around bottles water lot food disused quarrywith tent stay weeks day go walking running working writing latest book this im sureits definitely going happen maybe ill go weeks school break july either way im going staying ill leave note know committed redflag murdered something reason this gets away suffering modern society endless loop misery brings natural world away modern horrors something seek even short amount time post go explain went,1 im frustrated small internet feels mean young moshi monster webkinz ty club penguin much more big social media sites instagram twitter reddit ect croweded hard noticed open laptop think wow entire world information right here dont know go could interesting would share with find something new thats nice internet seems small now everything seems serious,0 want put story therehi ive never done im sorry mess past filled abuse childhood sucked every time take shower get lost thoughts past abandoned abused poor every moment must filled music distraction recede mind problems cant sleep it dreams always nightmares killed different fashions ive worked hard ive worked large companies finally made management making good money fired ive worked hard since fired last year spent life saving start buisness failing spent ever last penny start new llc good friend mine said needed consultant got everything done decided didnt ive fighting whole life little little have dont want fight anymore whats point living nothing rest life im intellectual struggles emotions hurts relationship relationship bland anyway arguments sex aggravation dont want fight anymore dont want struggle feel maximum potential slowly slipping away ive achieved im ready take seat final swing set also ya know id call help line power call police would end right there makes angry wish someone would listen judge thank reading thank replying do,1 @eli_36 ughh I'm jealous! Bring me some ,0 feel like im snap bit redflagi know right board post in feel like im brink im feel like im going breakdown falling crying kind burn house stab mother death slit wrists kind breakdown one reason already done it thats girlfriend nothing permanent find pleasure anything else her mother insane really pushing edge lately ive always wanted kill her ive restrained years dissociative disorder feel like im really going explode fucking minute end bitchs life take mine wont deal stupid legal shit comes afterwards advice,1 someone in my script analysis class said this yesterday and it's really been irking me because a key point in a lot of people's depression is thinking nobody can love them because they're depressed.,1 crush fucking pretty im losing mind shes badass also super cute time wears super cool clothes cute poses please help im losng mind pretty please call need help,0 im online class right professor talking minorities assuming nobody people class part minority group someone called everyone religion terrorists ,0 horrible parents didnt anything hurt anyonewhat ever wrong why always blaming making suicidal really fucking cant anymore life become living hell me cant even fucking basic human stuff like eating working even sitting ffs fucking bullshit happened last year hell gone plan last year im fucking coward parents things messed brain minute fucking second born never supposed married used fight every single fucking day screaming sometimes even got physical like day fucking one years ago hell messed brain fucking much used think shit normal mother used cry sister saying never wanted marry guy like dad even threatened leave fucking house used pack bags shit almost went door couple times cant really blame though dad fucking sociopath hes never felt affection towards family once hes always coldest rock hard person ive ever met school fucking helping either day still fucking know fucking nd grader knew bully people hard always got bullied one year fucking definitely gonna next bullshit home made sort immune it stuff said always hit harder probably related me time passed somehow last year really got fucking horrible still know happened dad mom turned me still fucking know why used give punishments nothing all fr would come me would sitting nothing all tell im allowing something started telling fat ugly stupid deserve anything providing me know true want anything theirs im fucking coward actually go through top shitty mess sundae life im getting symptoms eating disorder im stopping eating feel disgusting around food deserve it honestly feel happy eat much like im finally listening want seriously feel like people meant live world long im one them im able nice anyone anymore want stay inside day takes much fucking effort find reason wake face shit every single day feel fucking stuck toxic household fucking quarantine know long im gonna wait im fucking coward anymore ampxb make separate acct this friends discovered original acct cant use shit now without judge everything do,1 @ItsPresmatic @AboksSignature We come to twitter to chill not read depression shit,1 going to the doc and after it to the studio .. flo rida - right round ,0 mother constantly forces situations awful anxiety also taken therapy depression weekend shes making go pool party think making depression worse get understand genuinely severe social anxietyobviously thats causing desire redflag many factors play it severe social anxiety mother wont bother listen really sucks,1 crazytwism i know they block orkut in dubai in oman they have orkut access but skype is banned ru from the gulf,0 think oopsie posted saying reply personal way every comment comments later ow,0 feeling bit down need someone talk feeling great now need someone talk while,0 guys someone tell name white mustached guy absolutely destroys tennis players bamboozles tennis skills ive getting videos recommended lately looks like badass someone tell name could watch videos,0 "@mattigee Yea, ok, the whole fat amercian thing was a bit pants but Walle himself is a cutie pie. Miss ya ",0 hide body joke burry himher imma stay him forest put dirt him put dead dog too someone finds it think dead dog burried cut little pieces give pigs throw river lucky enough noone find if ownwork meat processeing factory borrow process meat lucky enough noone notice ate human flesh tipdont process brain liver super toxic kill you pretend commited uicide in graveyard force two bodies fit coffin chance noone find bro keep reading,0 im done feel emptyive struggling several mental health problems since secondary schooluk years im feeling worse worse longest time school work since cant bring things even talk people also means dropped college due able force bed days scared people im unemployed living dad girlfriend years watched get worse worse years point accomplishment put shirt awake longer hours time one thing makes happy cooking cant deal stress professionally since money coming cant often coupled rat move recently keeps getting pantry starting get much want everything stop want go sleep never wake up dont want live day day life anymore ive enough it want normal person want able get job work move girlfriend shut awake hours pm am im done,1 @shandrarestiana: heyy san thanks for follownya yaa ,0 some great stuff here thx 4 add! @Style@EvDJ: "@ladypn: "Bounce THAT! 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You are on a roll "cheers" ? http://blip.fm/~74kks,0 hate good reason bad things kept happening last year worst one fault girlfriend depressed months got overwhelmed broke worst moment ever since regret fucking day hate myself three weeks break argument blocked again hated even more found covid ive hella worried reached her apologized asked doing fine want hear ever hates hate fucking self would everything fix done see smile fix something like this know do first relationship ever ruined coward find crying everyday yall questions suggestions please let know please go hard me im already broken,0 what tragedy and disaster in the news this week,0 hey need raise yall help got task get brothers youtube account subs btw work dad come clean office like bucks hour,0 almost year old comic artist last time this fun ask want ask probably answer it,0 talk someone im really bad mindset rn im scared reach friends think ending life cancan talk someone one person,0 there s just so much and i can t bear all of it and god there s the dumb bullshit that hurt me too like being ugly horrifyingly utterly hideous i get disgusted and want to vomit or scream whenever i look at myself in the mirror i just want to press a button and die,1 I got a new brand Bible !! Thanks family ,0 @therealsavannah loved your cover ,0 guess go bed pm every day online classes going start everyday guess need go bed pm every day now thats teenagers go sleep right school system,0 "No one understands how much he has helped me with. I have seriously never been in such a better place, I haven't had to see mental health in a long time because he relieves all my stress and depression. Sometimes you just need someone to help make things better... so thankful pic.twitter.com/YsJq5CXjXs",1 fruit womb cursed remains cursedfor long time enthusiastically looked forward day could joyously exclaim fruit womb cursed reaps many blessings ive finally come accept fact day simply never come allencompassing peace death brings one blessing least glorious one,1 i most likely need time away from social medium so i can get this flooring project started and find a new job in the process burn some fat maybe just maybe start to look attractive again to woman this here sitting around accepting depression a my best friend isn t working,1 spiraling downhill since august im renting room basement crappy job im separated ex wifenot divorced im sending money constantly girl ive dating since split found im separated technically married still friends family actually cares one near notices signs ive cheated ive lied ive grown spoiled people say leech ruin theyre lives im head heels debt nothing going like all tell im ending tonight ,1 everywhere go rejection rejection gay community damn obsessed age like want date even hookup always be x years fuck off number guys tried approach person online turned damn high like honestly think redflag ews ageism legit know much takenot sure going kill myself feel like selfimplode couple unhealthy coping mechanisms close saying fuck all gay hopeless,1 pandemic made world worsei already depressed tried several ways try get covid hope well fat too cant visit afraid getting covid us kids everything cancelled chronic back pain tired prayed would die way dont want anymore,1 "Happy Birthday to my Grandpa. He has 3 cats, but I still love him. ",0 you re so strong you re being so brave you re not alone you matter i we they love you doe hearing these constantly repeated empty phrase actually help anyone all it ever doe for me is drive the spike deeper into my heart and make me want to end my life all the more,1 @wizbiff Thank you for posting the LGT site! ,0 want kill myselfi reason live im trying put together plan ive hitting walls money feel like procure means it im years old lived parents ever since got raped years ago spent yesterday looking methods cant go like this went rehab one counselors said creative life would make it creative life im bipolar work money car husband children job time end,1 is there a surgery to fix my depression?,1 @fransiscawinda hey windaa ,0 film greatest ninja film ever made opinion seen worth watching would rate film want see check httpukgeocitiescomninjathedomination opening sequence evil ninja killing everyone way excellent character best possesses ayoung woman finds dying take revenge cops killed means theres killing action ninja destroy ninja boyfriend also one targets enlist help yamadsho kosugi release evil ninjas spirit destroy him,0 exclusively comment life lives many say life fair yet part want think is one cope pain one pain much them discuss moral standpoint answer clear existence causes someone suffering ending existence humane course action put pets terminal illnesses cannot cured yet human being suddenly longer case humane course action commit person extensive grueling mental training decrepit underfunded system hopes may change mindset teaches put it improving quality life therefore essentially incurable illness option treatment however someone goes treatment little improvement still believe life worth ending anybody else stop them cruel try keep pushing back mental health system best interest yet deem morally acceptable go far expect people report worrisome behavior professionals people forced treatment existence pain many pain great bear people right end life free stigma resistance society establishment impose mental health system twice hospital personal therapy seen little improvement quality life change mindset tells something take mind issue instead confronting trying solve it cannot deal pain longer logically solution suicide yet time begin set plan get caught frustrates hell people refuse let want life existence pain,1 nothing about this life is good school is shit i quit weed witch wa a dumbass idea everyone in my school suck most of the teacher suck i can t make or maintain friendship my family suck as nothing is good there is no light at the end of the tunnel i ve been waiting for the light my whole life and nothing ha happened all i ll ever be in life is at the bottom forced to live in misery the world is falling apart because precious generation are stupid a shit so even if i do have a future the world will be flooded and on fire there nothing to look forward to i live everyday on auto pilot so why even life anymore if people want me to live then i wouldn t get treated like shit by everyone around me and i wouldn t get treated like a number by my awful school it doesn t matter how many resource they give because they don t care if your not at the top then your just useless to them your just a number,1 maybe im doneive found lot bad shit ex past days go much detail gist cheating almost year went prison hurts bit now someone love either decided hate something happened her either way im worried fuck that im broke behind rent car towed last night n way afford get out ive reached friends tried help enough money buy big bag coke chop n fattest line possible untill lights go me say cause sounds like fun way go im sure right now ive always thought stronger reason im breaking edit shit like im considering ending it fuck cares hours later n one says word get shit facebook meaning get nothing facebook ill delete post shortly anyone reads this pay attention people around you cant say need help better way around me got like it yea thank you least dont know miss,1 suicidal thoughtsreally hard year old keep continuing living life im failing class parents working asses put right path thats working im wise person think better end rather letting waste money me,1 Kya Meri tweets se AP ko depression hota hai only becoz I every time share Quran e Pak ayat and hadees What u wantTell me openU can not change me I m MuslimI was Muslim& I will be MuslimIn Sha Allah,1 this post is regarding my father who relentlessly forced his own will upon me and made me choose my career and life choice based on that a a result it ha brought catastrophic consequence for me i wa an above average student at school but used to be excellent in creative pursuit like theatre writing story and poem english literature filmmaking etc but my father wa totally against all that he made me choose what subject i needed to take for my good future and it wa always what he think wa best that zi needed to do there wa actually no way i could protest because it would have led to physical violence so to cut the story short i graduated from school in the year 0 then because my father forced me to enroll in a wierd course i lost two more year until i couldn t and then in 0 i had to drop out because i wa failing in every exam it wa in those several month that i endured the worst mental agony of my life it wa a lot of mental burden placed upon me my father called me a failure and what not and compared me with a number of successful kid in the neighborhood and to the kid of his friend who were in good university and doing very well in 0 i cracked one of the toughest exam but unfortunately my rank wa not good and most of it wa due to the rampant corruption and lack of transparency and accountability in the examination conducting board what i mean to say is that i could have scored better if the result were not questionable in nature a court case went but nothing happened finally i take admission in one of the worst place i could imagine to spend another year of my life doing something i absolutely loathed again because of the pressure from my father then in 0 0 i finally graduated but then the covid pandemic broke out every one wa working from home and the nature of my degree wa such that for newbie like me working from home wa not possible and in hand office experience wa required so i went unemployed for a year also in my final year i contracted a terrible life long disease due to the mental stress i wa in and the crappy food that i had to eat the mess in the hostel where i lived for year wa horrendous to say the least now it is 0 and i am still unemployed my father somehow blame me entirely for this and never once accepted his mistake in life now not only him but i too view myself a a failure and have lost faith in myself the confidence that i once had the energy of youth that wa brimming to overflow when i graduated from school in thr summer of 0 is all exhausted and gone i could have done something really good with my life in the creative field that s what i think i have a knack for it i have a good power of imagination and an intuitive mind but now i feel it wa all a waste and all ha been for nothing i have wasted more than 0 year of my life in my higher study and doing something i not only loathe but detest in the highest possible way it would not be wrong to say that my father is responsible for screwing my life over but that s what i think am i making an excuse what do you think,1 point scared cant focus driving crash space going mph past ive major panic attacks whole body pins needles cant breathe well triggered major emotional events also used get really bad nightmares dying afterlife kid mom would rub chest til fell asleep never ever thought redflag didnt want diagnose know people actually wouldnt want compare redflag that,1 hi twiitters i ammm sooooo tired right nowwww falling asleep on msn i am thinking a le lazy day today p xx,0 know sexuality guaranteed im definitely gay im straight uuuh put something ass know think felt weird enjoy also hate it ask like ill try best explain,0 is really really tired and hasn t slept in day can barely keep my eye open really missing my sanity,0 wifi left meeee feeling blueee im tableeeee making life decisions youuuu,0 wondering where the sunshine went,0 Caffeine is the philosopher's stone which transmutes depression into anxiety.,1 think ive fill ready clock outat point life honestly feel like ive lived enough cases squandered time here im point feel like anything worth giving anymore lengthy spat depression ive never felt sense relief deciding finally time working security guard know im easily replaceable live two cats im planning rehoming time theyre well kept ive never considered close family know theyll suffer know move theyre stronger me reason cant pinpoint one exact one could learned parents accident never planned kids leading somewhat neglected child could ive grown despise general public dealt years shitty security job could fact ive read much next generation humans realized cant stand people growing becoming either anxiety ridden messes sjw types whod rather rip apart whatever reason deem rather grow people themselves guess could say hate era in id rather apart suffer it ive already chosen method im sure work need make sure cats safe cared for deserve me,1 use notes today sharpie pen normal sharpie pen thin tip normal pen gold accents fancy fancy normal pen thin aesthetically pleasing pic pen pencil black pencil,0 someone kill mecaution come anything advice topic dont bother posting wanna hire thug someone like kill me look much would costetc,1 Good morning... what a gorgeous day ,0 do they except us to study in this weather? its so warm and sunny to study..wel thats my excuse ,0 wow forgot great movie stumbled upon looking garage kind strange combination bio michael jackson collection musical vignettes story super hero fighting save little kids vignettes good especially speed demon best part movie super hero segment michael jackson turns car robot finally spaceship and weird sounds joe pesci hilarious enough cool imagery great music entertain throughoutbr br the real gem however incredible smooth criminal video makes movie worth owning part alone,0 need helpby time see post ill probaly delete it need help im still fairly young im still human being abused parents alot even age still abused im looking someone help since im verge depression possibly redflag anyone help would awesome even life changing,1 recurring suicidal ideationi pissed best friendroommate today moved new apartment lost dogs muzzle use keep calmer outside little upset started tell responsibility pack etc etc shes right course fit childish rage overturned box though contained doggy clothing soft things breakable objects held dear bottom box broke two them upset started cry feel horrible did normally stuff like happens start almost fantasize downing bottle xanax washing alcohol hate childish be hate mentally damaged get caught loop make others feel awful killed selfgtim stupid even thinking waygtmaybe deserve die foolishgti make others feel awful killed myselfgtetc etc part feels like maybe trying make suicidal thoughts focusing best friend feels im one lost something cherished im one wants kill myself,1 @WinonaWiefel yes you are Ooops... now I was? hihi,0 Okay Good Knight Twitter World Hubby time ,0 Seriously though. Amazing night. ,0 "Daddy" bought me an air conditioner! ,0 "I want to get something off my chest. Firstly disclaimer: if you suffer from depression or suicidal thoughts, skip this thread. We will be back to our regularly scheduled programming soon.",1 badly injure fists yes punching walls idk brooke grounded month barely talk like chance talking idk want fists bleed thats,0 many times day jerk off usually jerk time day maybe times day every couple days want know average,0 point life right horrible sibling child friend constantly mean people even accident maybe worst person world maybe kill,1 heres angrybitter poem wrote valentines day lol plz read perhaps cold you warmth within soul perhaps dangerous far beyond mold perhaps blasphemous breed born far bold perhaps empty loves sold ampxb wipe smile face lose stupid acted gaze erase name like phase turn rotten bitter page curse ring silver sting hope fall lose wings ampxb perhaps hardened sickened tastes perhaps blackened scarred take perhaps rabid canines bite unchained perhaps rancid blood name engraved ampxb eyes betray nature like sculpture crater youre sturm without drang sweet sour tang youre game without show without money blow ampxb perhaps frail spine beneath talk perhaps stale fat even walk perhaps ugly yet thought top perhaps dead lifeless afterthought,0 no o gprs anyone else with issue,0 uncle passed away coping wellseems ive getting older ive marking peoples deaths calendar,1 I have been suffering with depression and anxiety for the last 9 years and I finally scheduled an appointment with my doctor to get help. here's hoping it gets better,1 first film little ambition nothing sticks screen bad version back future zero charm accepted bill ted nitwits joke get hammered audience long breaksbr br this surprise spoiler warningbr br by todays standards fun shunned upon release sad considering talent involved first time get photographer faceoff editor fugitive production designer burtons early work sound designer matrixbr br the writers made shallow first outing something deep since shunned fanbase public director probably decided style extreme not fits material like death becomes her catch dares smart like movies simple buy it probably since dared different took producers pull off whats goodbr br nice selfreference towards keanu airhead messiah see also arnold schwarzeneggerbr br joss hates creations much hates counterparts makes hatred evil bt good robot usses vocabulary originals lesser copies depreciation languagebr br the duality motif nowhere else evident photography styles lots high low angles even use roy brocksmith total recall emphasize pointbr br the choices motif know started genre maybe ghostbusters used pretty well here even boils games deathbattleship clubbr br film selfreference even present game death clue smarter tarantino brooks notice premier magazine cover end bill ted movie ironic also death nomolos villains die hard lethal weapon sequelsbr br i still minor nits nothing compared original music film different mediums makes sense many scripts revolve around formerparticularly teen market carlin great comedian movies hes wasted also daring effort shows even cracking gay jokes cant kill catbr br so despite looking like nickelodeon production incredibly interesting movie got beavis butthead were heaven mugged three people br br final analysis midrange material,0 "My name is Derick Todd . I came to MI from OH for college. Due to unfortunate circumstances, mental struggles & depression I've faced many set backs. I just want to finish school however the finances aren't there . If you can help please do so . http://gofundme.com/dericktoddeducationfund …",1 milfs superior milfs there without mommy milkers superior,0 ive started think logically calmly plotting out scares mei thought this thought everything getting better would ok instead feels like im falling behind again like life trucking along dragging along behind it cant get footing every time trip im tired fighting feels like losing battle drive home night think easy would turn front tractor trailer people would miss me yes least life insurance would help pay debt girl love would better off use money bills anymore restricted apartments bad credit score could ramble on cant bring to im tired eyes hurt know could much worse predicament still change feeling wanting end good night thank whoever reads this,1 im still hung boyfriend _pain_,0 hate quarantine much right wish could talk friends face face right cause im fed texting bullshit,0 feel detached lostive struggled depression ive battled times suicidal before experience crashes month tend last week recover feel absolutely drained emotionally physically weeks recall feeling genuinely happy ive good days really cant remember period life felt slight bit happiness comfort anyways months ago started feeling detached almost like watching people live im spectator really tough time enjoying music move emotionally like used to everyday im work always wonder hell even there hate job wonder voluntarily go every morning feel tho lost limbo cant get out cry anymore smile anymore drink anymore smoke anymore like quit those sorta forgot things point life matter if anymore matter when im even sad moment gun near could pull trigger feel emotion least thats way feels completely lost stuck parallel universe seems anyone ever experienced this,1 medfitblondie brain altering mood depression anger no way god bless you,1 mind fucks much dont want kill myself feel nothing allim years old im college student fixing go junior year tamu anyways dont see point living life whats point getting degree working rest life fucking get old die anyways feel fucking empty literally feel nothing much hate towards called god believe in make fucking sense us suffer man im done actually feel guilty writing page right now good growing up parents gave literally everything guess need support right now please,1 december of 0 i wa hurting pretty bad anxiety through the roof anger issue depression then more anxiety here month later i m not at all the same person i m not getting the panic wave going to a store or meeting new people i m not fearful of conversation a much lol and i ve even been planning a trip or two with the family since jan st i ve lost pound in a healthy way 0lbs to 9 i ve changed my diet been excersizing been talking to other people who are trying to lose weight get healthier it s changed everything i m fitting into jean i put in storage year ago i have work shirt that i ve literally never fit in that are my favorite to wear now i m due for a check up with my doc and i m going to talk about reducing my anti anxiety med and my blood pressure med and that feel amazing and sure i ve had a set back or two some day i eat better than others but that s ok ive had cake kolaches and starbucks at time i didnt have to cut out all the food i craved just control my portion which happens a little at a time and make some substitution that i can t even tell anymore i know this shoe won t fit everyone s foot but making these change ha changed everything for me get out get healthier be more active be engaged most importantly trying is more than enough just being able to look back to when i wasn t even trying and i thought that wa just how life wa going to be is a huge mood booster maybe it d work for you too p i am in a paid program i signed up for i don t want to solicit anything so i m not sharing the info of that program in this post also in some therapy but personally the weight loss ha made more of a difference to me,1 drifted first time tonight fucking fun even better friends car gassing much even though know drifting definitely wasnt good id never felt good,0 hooray got called ugly times last night days got called another girl thanks guys reasons put lead head tho ugly,1 idea son suffering suicidal thoughts know jobi feel like im rock hard place son recently discharged hospital threatening kill himself thank god courage wherewithal call lifeline feel guilty husband went holidays idea suffering silence realize note years said planned kill work courage follow it back home im still concerned high risk want go back work new year without income supplement husbands puts us precarious position financially need money ever get professional treatment desperately needs good working relationship boss try flexible anxiety roof leave house reason even short time cried every day slept couple hours night even hindsight honestly say one small warning sign noticed seemed somewhat food never thought much it master facade act perfectly fine front others said would breakdowns car driving alone night poor thing tough life right word go autistic work much harder average growing up said exhausted work hard life suffered relentless bullying school achieved great results senior high school beginning college truly thought getting life order wrong said college broke spirits completely felt like alien found lying time blame him im angry sad suspect lot beneath surface drives sadness hes never date friends lot good qualities shame stuck shell,1 parents think money saved cause pissed lot drain lockdown do lost jobs lockdowns dont know replace money without parents finding out im talking like either near mark im shitter advice,0 bela lugosi appeared several low budget chillers monogram studios s corpse vanishes one better onesbr br bela plays mad scientist kidnaps young brides kills extracts fluid bodies keep ageing wife looking young reporter doctor stay night home discover responsible brides deaths following morning report murders police mad scientist shot drops dead shortly afterwardsbr br you got almost everything movie scientists assistants consist old hag hunchback dwarf her sons thunderstorm spooky passages belas house bela wife find sleep better coffins rather beds moviebr br the corpse vanishes worth look especially bela lugosi fans great funbr br rating stars ,0 cant go back homemy dad love me even though says does scared go home respect me everytime try explain brushes lazy respect me use right pronouns name purpose everything establish dominance put place room clean hes taking away shit try convince it hear any depression crap tells clean room depressed anymore hes taken things make happy im scared hes gonna take away medication im im financial position move out place go deserve respect im given it listen me hes reason depression wanna fucking kill way realize shit help hate him,1 aight bois im going sewerslide irs fun bois n gorls filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 let help yall something want age flair go subsgttop right cornergtuser flair nice day ,0 trained nh therapist are here to help you with your mental health if you have feeling of anxiety or depression you can refer yourself or your gp can refer you let u help you get your foot back on the ground go to http t co e onpgtu n talkingtheparies helpushelpyou http t co zxljdctvdp,1 dont know anymorei feel bad unhappy im fortunate compared lot people friends family go school sports overall relatively normal life guess could say days feel fine work distracts me days especially im alone feel empty unhappy theres lot things going some little big combined reason feel way recently ive alone time keep thinking everything thats wrong cant stop contemplated self harm almost today keep thinking killing myself dont know wrong me,1 just saw little and huge stingray in foot deep water off catseye beach at low tide no turtle yet,0 eligible old bs also tadd following trends,0 america terrible country better rd world countries pretty much every country europe higher standard living,0 anyone know free vpn im looking download jet pack joyride live america im kinda screwed anyone know free vpn,0 @FollowSavvy: I'm so glad you had fun what was it like?,0 first suicidal thought quite time one talk toi dont want concern parents therapist holiday hotlines shit country dont want anympre hear day long everything planet going shit dont want anymore everything goes down wont anything dont know deal this also depression getting worse reminding everything ever remotely wrong,1 start went kill last week got took temporary accommodation mom said could keep safe carers thinking helping reality full undercover police trying build case something even going say know think done questions like building happened day write note etc added think tried autism talk much incriminated myself know charges ill facing add speak much mental health fucked hear things bpd autism agoraphobia getting special treatment realised think intentions day going day word work think tried knowyes understand looks like instead trying help tried incriminate me family idea going either feel lost world bullied system probably going facing serious charges tried take life yes know looks like going specific building suicide note looks abit fishy authorities realised fuckedi bad person know cannot go say mental health know building casebro tried taking life day got rushed best hospital city got treated within mins like somebody want keep alive work like england especially state nhs inim scared fuck system set undercover police suicide attempt fuck system ,1 living livingits easy one breath take one dab sweat one look outside window one step take better keep living now theres much explore many things ive just never seen before maybe wash while,1 "I've never understood why Churchill called depression his Black Dog. I can think of few things more life affirming than a big, daft, mutt chasing me through the world.",1 doi would like kill myself called redflag prevention hotlines tonight one told me im extremely worried you dont sound good promised call back next week name mark nice yah worried too cant find gun looked bedroom closet idea husband put it many ridiculous emotions alarms people alarms husband known forever id rather dead honest god know feels like gives me want know whats wrong fixed cant figure out would rather dead realized im saying lot redflag selfish whats fucking point everything hot mess stuck inside slowly watching person learn hate us wheres relief everything over,1 "@sammythewizzy Yea! That's the usual story. Anyway, ATB! Just two more days and yippiiee! CDC's done forever. ",0 I HAVE CRIPPLING DEPRESSION,1 "I'm not sure how to use this place ... But.. I love miley, the most of the world ! And Miley should know that. ",0 "wtf the weather is weird it was full raining second ago and now its sunny,gahh i have the best week planned ",0 sorry its mcfly ,0 care believe in long enforce others absolutely problem religious people vegans opinionated people etc but problem people look upon people opinionsideology them example home city major vegan protest blocked main entrance city order raise awareness lifestyle look care vegan force one,0 hello nerds first throat hurts poor sleeping going start drinking warm water second everyone doing whatcha nerds to,0 @AmyEllisPR Your mom clearly knows who to follow! ,0 im nothingi live life ashamed of hate myself im shadow person ive wanted kill years know it live eternally sad try hard can change,1 us entered world war i government forced hollywood churn propaganda films little american probably best lot stars mary pickfordbr br pickford plays young woman torn two men jack holt german raymond hatton french decision delayed war men enlistbr br when ship pickford sailing sunk germans think lusitania carrying munitions pickford great scene stands lifeboat yells german commander later on course runs holt hatton held war prisoner chteaubr br director cecil b demille provides one truly great scene film pickford holt wandering bombedout village pass destroyed church one wall remains standing wall large crucifix stand watch wall collapses jesus figure remains suspended mid air surreal moment film otherwise straightforward unartsybr br pickford is always pleasure watch always natural actress avoided armwaving histrionics many actors day used also pretty holt good leadingman role hatton ok among list name actors extra parts wallace beery ramon novarro colleen moore ben alexander hobart bosworth norman kerry walter long james neill edythe chapmanbr br not great film interesting see us propaganda work,0 k karma achived b,0 i moved get away kind thing small town sheriff lamentsbr br this happens lot chicago deputy asksbr br well no really plot group martians mistake halloween rebroadcast orson welles war worlds account real martian invasion conclude need get action follows bunch mishaps involving martians haphazard attempts conquer town big bean il everyone concludes kids really good costumes except sheriffs daughter friend kid duck suitbr br the martians comical get impression threat anyone pretty early on fun family movie,0 "@unforgrettable Nah, I can take them, but I would soooo welcome a visit from you sweetums ",0 Cat Soup: A cohesive film about death and how people accept or refuse it. It was difficult to understand but was a kick in the gut. This was created by a depressed person with creative aspirations. Major depression is amplified in those who tend to ruminate on their thoughts. pic.twitter.com/f4qDe3lvs4,1 "@Cazzacookie68 You've probably already decided what you're going to do, but I'm not sure this person actually understands how hard depression is because they are trying to make you feel bad for not wishing them a happy birthday, so... But anyway we are always here for youxx",1 "@mfhorne as a sheff wed fan I'm over the moon, well done indeed, Birmingham ",0 suicidal thoughts overwhelming im accepting themi feel getting closer closer point ill try kill im happy thats goal life ive failed achieve goals killing goal might today tomorrow even week ill eventually hate alive fucking hate want alive anymore whats point alive never person want whats point alive stuck body hate way change whats point alive cant anything love forced things hate every single day escape hell whats point living alone feel like outcast society ive lived life motto only best good enough im best im even average im average cant live like anymore already got plan ill feel like last straw,1 "It's cold , and I'm not whining . ",0 There's not one day that I don't do this. Depression is a real ass mood for me https://twitter.com/krissyniicolee/status/988954737910280194 …,1 feel like piece shiti thought control this pretty long time since cut myself again felt overwhelmed everything love him want hurt him want hurt anyone want feel pain redflag thoughts came across mind im afraid them want someone tell going okay,1 goodnight rteenagers fun seeing sub long time return sorting rising sincerely umerp,0 "If it's not from within, no amount of love from without will get you taking care of your body.#MentalHealthKE#depression#MentalHealth#Hygiene",1 worried die someone find horrible things me know care ill dead anyway still scared factory reset phone searched,1 im retrying this haircut get serious like actually looks good people,0 im awarded lot posts rn warned,0 school opinion first school day year full day think years gonna good ill say tomorrow ive proper full day school better sleep bye,0 fucked bed find remote didnt find im stuck bed cant fix remote cant find terrible morning edit fucking fat cat got stuck upon entering room exploring new bed edit somehow got fatass unstuck left room without noticing,0 confessed crush today rejected eh happens also lost teaching license really care,0 need serious help soonim giving treatment everyone says hope help eventually person runs options feel different started tell person really wants help havent im sure inability causes suffer suffering higher importance theirs causing suffering getting relieved fair im going slowly withdraw world clearly help medical field ive two psychiatrists therapists ive appointments current psychiatrist different meds id say meds wanna run risk sounding like im exaggerating feelings cant defined explained therefore cant helped able put words im feeling anyone know people around feel like people around take pills day still feel incredibly hopeless take xanax lorazepam drink almost every night spend per week weeddabs know rare cant helped ive seen top doctors area excruciatingly guiltproducing since know much parents worry much spend afford fine feel like monetary equivalent specialneeds kid im live home commuting great college apply medical leave absence freshman year reasons suicidal time reached breaking point let know expand anything read above also please let know breaking rules kind wrote frenzy desperation try post throwaway similar last serious posts account got response maybe long people read input helps next move mostly stay bed bath im still open try couple things call quits,1 i m a girl on the autism spectrum about to leave my school graduation year but dammit my school a school meant to help autistic youth mind you ha been going down the drain over the past few year and it ha gotten extremely worried about how i m going to work in the future if i can even get a job at all,1 Made a Korean cucumber salad with cucumbers from a special guy's garden. ,0 matter allim middle aged man place society im irrelevant would want friends creepy middle aged man anyways fuck it think im gonna od again nothing matters anymore,1 life bitch mei cant happy ever im tired living life thats bad me,1 If you ever want to look as awesome as this...You should treat yourself to one of our tote bags :]Just like @NicoleDivide did!<3We support those with depression by donating 50% of our profits to @MindCharityPlease re-tweet! http://InMusicWeTrust.co.uk  pic.twitter.com/X7qxH7chID,1 yo fuck school im hella pissed right now given almost practice papers week ago solve even year considered submission shit pulled allnighters finish papers got approx hrs sleep week fast forward today say reconsidered submissions want artwork creative things next week like wtf kidding me fuck supposed papers huh shove ass serve dinner next days write every last ounce insult know directed towards you fuck ruining week,0 rendered beautiful water colors ponyo cliff definitely sight behold vaguely remembering trailer witch find impressive surprised beautiful detailed was film washed puritybr br at center young boy comes contact sea creature relationship carries movie miyazaki master creating memorable imagery showing young ones interacting believable way little quirks intactbr br there parts sit well me would understatement say music particular scene resembled ride valkyrians shame precious film cant afford take liberties hurt otherwise truly great scene antagonist backstory never interested either guess served background anything elsebr br anyway great film boat trip scenario imagery seacreatures stood thinks pure magical yes handrawn artwork intimate computer animated im really pumped princes frog now,0 schmerzen ohne endeich kann das nicht mehr wie soll ich stunden tag diese qualvollen nervenschmerzen ertragen ich kmpfe nur noch fr meine mutter ich hatte einen qualvollen geburtstag und jetzt qualvolle weihnachten ich habe tausende euros fr rzte ausgegeben habe aber nie eine sinnvolle diagnose erhalten mein leben dreht sich nur noch um diese unertrglichen kopfschmerzen wie soll ich weitermachen,1 kinda wish laying titties rn thats thats post,0 filler text filler tezt,1 anyone care mei disabilityim burden society familythey dont want cant workif run awayi wouldnt survive one dayi friends disabilitytheyre going kick cant take iti feel fucking unloved detested,1 requestcan please explain never touched girl move fucking life,1 dont feel like get betterthe last half years really struggling mental health health anxiety gad depression every year seems get worse getting point dont see light end tunnel nan died lock down saw die think may traumatised bit live grandad me bf moved got ill around more like second mother great comfort would feel like this without dont really know turn to ive strong mother grandad think im finally starting crack little good days seem matter im bad days ive thinking alot seriously ever redflag actually starting scare me dont wanna feel helpless guess im looking hope better day,1 Just fixed dinner for the family ,0 friend ended fucking two guys houe becuase hes slutty swinging faggot cant handle anymore im going downstair cutting shit wrists finally dying also parents sent psychw ard almost killed hould dead anyways obviousy full story sharing pretyt emotoinal obviously cant stop thinking greatr would dead good would feel metal digging vains right now cant sleep jerk without crying ic ant even sleep anymore im going kill myself end story lol want go crazy dhurtmyself someone like cops find email like lol least know stupid faggot shit face fuckdslkjflsdkjflaksdjflksdj lol lololol life joke goodbye,1 @TheCheerGuy Tweet tweet ,0 i have been living my sadness for a year i lost my wife and i don t want to continue here i want to see her again i want to be with her i am trying to continue my life but i miss her so much,1 quick summary film willy wonka chocolate factory boy hate poor grandpa were going fun factory mr chocolate hello naughty children time die,0 stupid state taking long finish covid app months since latest news app tested new info since then since live red i prefer call blue state people wont take covid seriously fuck kemp,0 How does depression and anxiety differ in people with cancer? Clinical update offers guidance on how clinicians might alter their practice to explore psychiatric symptoms in cancer patients: https://www.bmj.com/content/361/bmj.k1415 … pic.twitter.com/cnIfIi0mGc,1 warmly sentimental tale author waltons someone pitch material me would probably reject maudlin dramatization manages tear without expected embarrassment one s better lovable hayseeds arthur hunnicutt appeal put consummate use mountain man doggedly faithful loyal hunting hound fates tied together inseparably human bond good see subtle environmental message here critters go heaven condemn poor devil merely follows instinct order stay alive deceit kingdom animals yet cruelly often treat them oddly satisfying episode confirms important message,0 omkar kurode you won coz i created quot avenue quot for you and yeah i made the mistake of choosing tango over zone,0 good way kill yourselfive looking options nothing seems easy getting gun hard cause im thing prescription drugs could always hang 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white one cause theyll slam ya street top black police showin white cop ice cube swarm mothersucker blue uniform cause im cpt punk police afraid me huh young nigga warpath im finished gonna bloodbath cops dyin la yo dre got somethin say suck police suck police suck police suck police example scene one pull goddamn ass right now aww shit fuck pullin for cause feel like it sit ass curb shut suck up man suck shit aight smart ass im takin black ass jail mc ren please give testimony jury sucked incident suck police ren said authority niggas street majority gang whoever im steppin mothersuckin weapon kept stash box socalled law wishin ren nigga never saw lights start flashin behind theyre scared nigga mace blind shit work laugh gives em hint step path police im sayin suck you punk readin rights shit junk pullin silly club stand fakeass badge gun hand take gun see whats well go it punk ima suck up make think ima kick ass drop gat rens gonna blast im sneaky suck comes crime im smoke em next time smoke mothersucker sweats asshole threatens im sniper hell scope takin cop two cant cope mothersuckin villain thats mad potential get bad suck ima turn around put clip yo sound yeah somethin like depends size gat takin police would make day nigga like ren give suck say suck police suck police suck police suck police yeah man need police open now aww shit we warrant eazyes arrest get put hands see em what suck do man do just shut suck get mothersuckin ass floor but shit man shut suck up eazye step stand tell jury feel bullshit im tired mothersuckin jackin sweatin gang im chillin shack shinin light face what maybe kick much butt kick ass maybe cause blast stupidassed nigga im playin trigger uzi ak cause police always got somethin stupid say put picture silence cause identity causes violence e criminal behavior yeah im gangsta still got flavor without gun badge ya got sucker uniform waitin get shot another nigga gat matter hes smaller bigger size aint shit hes old school fool know es rule whenever im rollin keep lookin mirror ears cue yo hear dumb mothersucker gun im rollin hell one take out get away im drivin laughin ill say suck police suck police suck police suck police the verdict jury found guilty redneck white bread chicken shit mothersucker but wait thats lie thats god damn lie get here i want justice get suck face i want justice out right now suck you black motherfuckers suck police suck police suck police,0 please give npc ideas dnd campaign got harambe keanu dildo man,0 came bisexual girlfriend went better expected okay obligatory happened months ago late february secondly struggle anxiety depression self esteem issues regular realised bi sat wall crabbing older sister talking sex relationships quite open relationship wasnt awkward topic discuss clicked mind god knows long bi way around it july last year ended coming one closest friends thought telling girlfriend petrified me knew id point sooner rather later would best got really worked it worked ended string nightmares across week time period girlfriend leaving me nearly every night would wake crying shaking fear anxiety thought losing sexuality acting advice best friend others slowly started drop hints girlfriend course next probably months would hint it still getting occasional nightmare break better progress towards ultimately coming out part th birthday sister bought us cage elephant tickets late february favourite band never proper concert before went absolutely amazing night even anxiety cause little mishap one point okay onto juicy bit guess met girlfriend saturday following concert usual cuddle chat bed watched bit netflix asked concert explained fantastic amazing wish couldve much energy passion audience asked warm acts they good managed tell thought one guys cute couldve probably wouldve sex given chance looked little concerned anxious sent waves oh ive messed up nightmares gonna come true kissed said better philip schofield smile giggle i well brink tears point cuddled rest day picking hints time im guessing figured wanted tell scared love girl much means world im glad shes supportive me wouldnt person today without her yea thats came girlfriend of years fact right rd anniversary like week before,0 revising oh the fun ,0 sometimes think giving everythingdoes make sense think would easier die finally sleep forever,1 "4 shows / speaking engagements in the next 3 days. Busy, busy, busy. South Bend - IN, Clio - MI and Warren - MI here I come! ",0 please feel free downvote this im holiday induced insomnia looking someone talk toi doubt work worth shoti first looked rinsomnia look like would find anyone there so like said downvote want since im using subreddit anyone bored would like chat ill even offer topics went church today first time ten years found kinds weird belief im logical ever fall love again dismiss love highschool earlier kid love fake love stupid know real love is sometimes think since love ive known quite possible ever know maybe real love im currently graduate school health profession constantly makes think death im trying pick something might interesting good people subreddit suggestions please feel free talk anything may mind too downvote thanks reading not anyways,1 movie based true story christopher boyce friend daunton lee fascinating story takes place around time whitlam dismissal time clerk trw christopher privy classified correspondence admitted cias involvement australian political union circles movie shows several scenes involving gough whitlam transmitted us tv events take place confirm classified documents christopher read previously removal gough whitlam organized cia coup elsewhere film mentioned people idea level deception goes on ultimately ensure us used vehicle promote certain policies behest everyone else current age nothing changedbr br christophers life profoundly affected read shocked knowledge cia shapes foreign democracies including democracies allied nations united states christopher reacted probably best way time selling top secret information soviet union daunton lee acting exchange eventually christopher daunton captured convicted treasonbr br on rd may whilst serving time us prison christopher boyce agreed one interview ray martin minutes australia australian connection profoundly affected him caused furore australian media week went hushedbr br i liked movies symbolism falcon chris called falcon daunton snowman drug connection reality title falcon something used chrisbr br christopher boyce criminal man conscience decidebr br resources httpwwwplayitforwardozcomboycehtml,0 can someone help me kill myself or give me way to please i m i m really done with life idc about anything anymore i don t want people to try and stop me like i just need a way to do it but idk how like what thing to do love you all xx,1 i m worrying about having schizophrenia psychosis every day it s gotten to the point where i can t do normal stuff without thinking about my sanity whenever i talk to someone i always over analyze conversation i feel like people don t like me or make fun of me and it make me question my sanity too i do overthink my own behavior a well i always feel like i m behaving like a crazy person and people just don t want to tell me im crazy which make me think im delusional and the cycle go on with almost everything hell i even feel like a crazy person writing this post i d been to psychiatrist before and he told me i have ocd and anxiety but i just can t believe it i don t feel like a normal person and i m tired of this am i really going crazy if not then what the hell am i supposed to do to stop this if u find my text confusing then sorry english is my second language and i m still learning,1 need sleep ive awake hours,0 Left 4 Dead 2... 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Can't wait ,0 heidimontag the hill episode were so sad p love your name,0 post infinity war depression,1 movie far better original jerk would highly recommend anyone like quirky humor incorporated almost many lines movie daytime discourse monty pythonbr br the card game hobos mr suicide scene dinner table distaste turtle soup original jerk choreographed ans staged like steve martin seemed like trying hard jerk spoof enjoyed anyone jerk family friendly unlike original jerk,0 hello hii whats day fun,0 love rush disappointing everyone around feels nice even therapist fucking mad lmao gotta live name ig,0 asked crush hours getting response decided drink it,0 god love meif love me would feeling way right now alone feeling like everything fault feeling like anxiety panic attacks depression fault you control it says boyfriend plays phone laughs memes im crying side room you choose to god helping me im starting lose faith me never was was would feel like want die would feel much hatred problem peoples lives,1 sleep is my greatest and most comforting escape whenever i wake up these day the literal very first emotion i feel is just misery and reminding myself of all my problem i can t even have a single second to myself it s like waking up everyday is just welcoming yourself back to hell,1 we play the game of love to avoid depression,1 would wear cold winter hey guys recommend cool shoes wear cold winter c f clue look good freezy maybe boys girls live canada scandinavia ,0 no sequel fabulous ova series rather remake events occurred death ghim and disappearance woodchuck also accurate novels inspired wonderful series characters namely orson shiris reintroduced story may seem slightly different used ova the booklet included set provides excellent answers questions various online sites first eight episodes part tv series focus fateful battle demon dragon mountain remaining episodes introduce us spark bluehaired knight wannabe identifies parn ragtag team misfits attempt stop dark wizard wagnard resurrecting kardis destroyerbr br while quite equivalent original lodoss war we love finale parn saves deedlit wagnard we tv followup still great fun fantasy fans even animation limited and step artistic streak first lodoss part series elements appeal fullyrealized characters engaging storyline magic romance superb soundtrack scored kaoru wada ninja scroll give uneven spinoff punchbr br while ova dub lodoss criticized one reason another generally liked still consider one favorite dubs significant hopes dub chronicles made part lodoss tv english track passable if stellar quality does however share problems much original cast lent english voices characters lodoss return including lisa ortiz deedlit nice bonus hand billy regans mature sounding parn bit offputting bad job voice came across grating first eight episodes causing antidub fans instantly diss dub time spark company take stage found less bothersome i know improved grew me also everyone oav dub returns jayce reeves voices wagnard terrifically one episode hes replaced pete zarustica whole show gives scratchy still malevolent turn as well expected evil laughter anthony cruises kashue hand weary takes five episodes find stride oliver gregory probably effective orson especially final dramatic scenesbr br aside lisa ortiz deedlit karen smith shiris john knox ashram al muscari slayn dubs best voices come newer characters including crispin freeman spark maar garrack episodes roxanne beck little neese meg frances who voices pirotess oav also voices ryna vulnerability sassiness well karla especially angora deb who steals every scene leaf halfelf rest cast terrible means little uneven oav dub right aldonova greevus others lackluster hobb palace guards dragons etc awful in particular prince reonas va harsh monotone fighter justicebr br in fact lack aural continuity some cast members get new voices unexplained reason time get later episodes one problems dub others include less memorable awkward sounding dialogue uneven synchronization finally i apologize advance fans this lodoss island segments offbeat superdeformed interludes end episode either amuse drive batty admittingly first found major nuisance sorta grew while besides showstoppingly hilarious lines im king kashue cashew im really quite nut flaws rank dub chronicles notch ova resulting uneven english track summed best okbr br if one wonders japanese language track preferred listening choice well guess what japanese version good bad points too voices less annoying english language track found others less appealing english equivalents in particular actress deedlit nowhere nearly good lisa ortiz yumi tohma plus mention japanese cast ova series made seven years original one sho hayami cast members replaced new ones although respectably good job may major annoyance used japanese ova cast shows everything japanese better english eh despite flaws chronicles heroic knight still fine series deserves hold ground without rough spots always live predecessor yet theres enough good points counter bad making moderately enjoyable fantasy anime,0 public redflag im going kill myself soon eventually thing really want parents siblings one find know image never leave head painless quick way die public ,1 i have bi polar disorder and per my therapisti have dismisive atrachment issue but right now i am struggling probably worse than i have in a while in a drunken fit i deleted almost all of the number in my phone so i had no one to reach out to i even called by sister but found myself hanging up after the first ring because i don t want to bother her i am in a low point right now and i can t pull myself out of it i feel so weak my life is the best it ha ever been i have all of the reason to be happy and yet i am here i right now contemplating feeling like i am at the end of my rope i have the life i have always dreamed of and i just feel like i can t hack it anymore i can feel myself breaking at the seems my thought are everywhere i do y know where i am at right now but i am scared i feel like of i reach out to my family they will say i am doing it for attention,1 im bored tell filelrfillleriflllerfilllefiflllerdilllerfilllrrfillerfillleffilllerfilllrffillletfiollerfilllefifllerfilllller,0 soap opera small town married woman kay francis works local newsstand performs leading lady local playhouse dreams becoming star broadway famous actor ham windbag womanizer boot arrives town visits room dreams giving tips stardom pretends valet manager tricking believing takes experience become big star husband finds punches guy resulting actors unexpected death leads murder trial even unexpected life prison sentence hubby next thing know joined traveling burlesque show hopes one day making broadway making enough money get mans freedom baby sleeping trunkbr br this film pretty interesting plot well bit farfetched perhaps melodramatic with tons melodramatic music make sure get it greatly enhanced strong emotional performance given kay francis makes film also helping welldone acting minna gombell role getting close forty older lady works burlesque befriends kay worth seeing especially kay francis fans,0 every day nothing play videogames smoke weed job like year real interests completely fucked life hoping gather enough strength finally shoot head end constant pain useless,1 cant keep fightingim mobile apologize errors also kind mini rant ive felt constant fatigue awhile as early looking back thought normal parenting absolutely wasnt starters dad physically emotionally abusive towards brother mother even though saw this nothing claims never saw it right next least one scenes now know nothing me swear im getting it basically teens mother father me would also tell father out line would earn slab emotional abuse dad later found exaggerated otherwise lied get everyone on side tried kill several times highschool ended failing attempt later told mother suicidal exactly smart im thinking it basically rationalized abused iced an youre depressed im sure looking there guess felt could still trust parent wasso wrong now turned into oh crazy gossip tells extended family anyone else listen things say shout sleep seem line intrusive thoughts overhear theyre violent nature believe in person im danger myself still whole smear campaigning thing well brother acts like father combined hes much manipulative however increasingly unstable brother seem enjoy triggering purpose know theyre sort pain empathize that come someone elses expense im exactly sure go bouts wanting wanting keep fighting make difference someones life ive reached point im leaning former theres lot really want keep short apologize hope day going well,1 become likable unlikable per se id like hear reddits tips likable romantic relationship tips social life hacks ill take advice,0 sometimes feel ive got __shit brick__,0 life time little richard told little richard produced directed little richard one sided one songs biography even docudrama good writing great energy outstanding leading actor playing richard music little richard rocks tight lipsync every songbr br the movie covers early childhood carrys thru formative years music wild success richards throwing away praise lord tied together well obvious comeback manages stay away idea little richard discovered beatles opened himbr br my main objection outrageous counter cultural behavior underplayed get feel audience experienced time energy still has come across full force seemed tame compared remember timebr br the best scenes richard getting jilted lucille writing song strip bikini shorts performing make point decent place changebr br if gotten bronze liberace richard use refer interviews theres story trust saw perform couple months ago still flirts pretty white boys giving one particularly good dancer audience headband nearly still going strong recommend movie concert tv appearance find little richard always,0 so i have been on fluoxetine prozac for 0mg and it seems to make my anxiety worse 0 0mins after i take them i have been on prozac for roughly around week is this normal,1 Bout to go to my psychology exam! 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God bless NCSI writers ",0 "@salem0 Yeah, just chech out my followers and you'll find it ",0 "depression is lethal, you are condemning a woman who was actually fighting to live? guess who's the monster now#박봄제발내버려두세요",1 i get so confused sometimes i don t know whats real why i m being so dramatic if i can ever actually do this,1 feel like ive lost battle myself ive lost war tooive never put post like before think time go fast decline never prepared for eaten drank anything booze slept god knows long today long time boyfriend left me packed shit left gave every last part soul fight gone fight over want peace dad screaming way knows deal like this hes begging come home him mother begging come home her little brother know state im yet choose stay alone apartment rot nine animals kept going long cant anymore tied noose im waiting right time,1 suggest sick edms language idc,0 i m in a confused state whether to implement a tab interface in the application currently i m working in,0 "@avi_cado, I think @weathersalright is a hottie. 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WHAT",0 why do i feel like i m being punished for having depression,1 im losing itmy fianc left thing world me want feel pain anymore,1 hi i m an yr old guy from germany i had a quite good childhood exept that i wa bullied my low class in school and didn t have any friend now i have quite many friend and a good place to work but anytime i am alone i overthink everything and that make me sad my friend say that i am one of the happiest and funniest person they know but when i am alone it s the complete different i worry about my friendship my loved one and my family and that i am not good for this world i mean i am nice to everyone and try to make everyone happy but the most don t give back anything and i can t be mean to them and ignore them because my heart won t let me that make me think a lot i think i really need a person that i can talk to when i am sad and lonely,1 "Haha not yet, but i can come on aim and multitask ",0 want feel loved im tired watching old videos hub want hug something im tired cant honestly anymore,0 community icon change well it,0 motivation group ive feeling demotivated lately idea might work small group people around age send message saying life like right want change months work changing lives way want return march st talk successful unsuccessful us far fetched idea think could work message want try out,0 im tired itive given all even pushed nothing left living car went sizes weight process getting job life finds ways screw over wanna anymore im tired fighting,1 slightest thing sets offthe slightest annoyance bit bad news terrible still bad sets off fucking weak mentally smallest things make wanna hide away,1 people say im dangerous kill conversations pretty often,0 face willy,0 really today get notifications filled compliments also im girl yknow dont start simping please,0 baby i miss you so much,0 anyone want chat im looking nice conversations hopefully make friends ,0 movie considered academy award enjoy movie take seriously wants viewer enjoy ninety mins disappointment enjoy send darth vader villain the breather female batman heroine but much cuter much less costume running joke involves cigarettes police captain thats funny means great cinematic achievement enjoy campy fun worth viewing god help me liked it,0 america country created europeans get independed hate eurpeans bad thing anything,0 feel,0 just woke up,0 steamboat willie often erroneously touted first mickey mouse film though title actually goes plane crazy source fuelling common misconception probably episode the simpsons places origin itchy mouse short called steamboat itchy obviously parody cartoon interestingly steamboat willie parody spoofing latest buster keaton release steamboat bill jr though connection stretches little beyond title general story setting walt disney short mickey mouse takes charge river steamboat much annoyance captain pete cat spitefully casts aside mickey outdone nastiness far removed pleasant wholesome mickey recent generations enjoyed little mouse cares numero uno inflicting pain displeasure series farm animals order provide music amusementbr br first theres laughing parrot cops bucket large potato head goat cranked tail provide music turkey straw guitar swallowed cat swung around tail goose throttled throat piglet viciously booted childrens cartoon steamboat willie directed walt disney ub iwerks certainly meanspirited humour though also noticed similar elements though quite extent later disney shorts like gulliver mickey lets forget minnie mouse course suffers treatment could today sue sexual harassment jokes may crude animation perhaps even so cartoon delivers bucketfull laughs easy see little rodent became one beloved characters cinema history fan mickey mouse disney general one steamboat cant afford miss,0 time itive several failed attempts several hospital stays ive tried work hard get better know what want go stage ive nothing left sorry ones im leaving behind honestly care much im sorry hurting you know me something want something finally make happy,1 i wqs wondering after i remember myself trying lot of med im currently on risperidona 0mg and it working like a charm what dose do you guy use of your med and what type of med for profound psychotic depression,1 hey girl job im immigrant plan this one kinda weird idc ly all,0 out! i'm having dinner. ,0 redflag helpline messages annoyingredflag prevention messages fuxking annoying like sure id go emergency room call helpline planned redflag yes planned important gonna die could share person helpline,1 need helphi need help cyberbullied someone lured online joke im going kill myself,1 circleremember time used suicidal well hello darkness old friend whenever try find grey area settle there situations drags away life swings extremes survive finding spot thats right us takes strength stay there consistent effort honest tried learnt need much strength keep track,1 trying give comforting wordsi would love caring individuals would say kind words response message received fellow really know saw forums kinda light argument him later someone else said hateful words kill yourself responded confirming expect fairly soon person seems need someone got sucked in sent private message responded with gtthanks asking bore many details gist many years ive realized i problem almost every situation blamed others tell posts im enjoyable around much venom ive tried dialing back even turning venom selfdeprecating humor times use im natural asshole pain around tell people enjoy leave arrive tiring knowing constantly ruin days people around cant handle appropriately gtit basically boils wanting get way anymore cause anymore discomfort deserve it long im alive ill continue hurt others whether intentionally not fair solution take problem me equation let people live lives deserve without me all amount positive things ive done anyone counted without taking gloves off man needs encouraging words advice people please help give i showing thread,1 people always false stereotype buff people assholes judge fat really time come across buff guy gym field etc theyre always extremely nice me also happen people,0 Listening to John Legend and reading cosmo ,0 The only reason why it's raining is because my depression has come back out of the shadows lol,1 want hot big d catgirl want someone listen day went goodnight kiss ,0 would love hear community ask reddit benefits life outweight negativesoutweighhttpswwwredditcomraskredditcommentsezihdo_you_believe_the_benefits_of_life_outweight_the,1 always avoided posting voice head muchcuz feel like problems pale comparison many posts see every hour shits getting hard theres constant voice head telling kill past years think moment im intensely engaged something like conversation work video games constantly reminds kill myself rn im waiting semesters college got let go work chilling friends cuz quit drinking smoking thats friendships built on basically theres much going me voice constant cant escape it getting really hard back hs could meet new people date girls make friends doesnt happen now idk why basically constantly reminisce awkward terrible things ive done voice tells kill self sometimes strong feel inclined forced say loud kill kill even people around involuntarily try play like saying something else humming something breath ive lots therapy intensive inpatient psych ward previous attempt much earlier life feel like none could help rn think need people life rn course online friends nice guys know really same idk do besides nothing really wrong great family almost problems life dumb things ive done feel like ill never escape guilt anxiety may well kill self instead years now reason im writing cuz idk else talk to brother cool doesnt know handle stuff really fuck,1 posting every day end day july years ago today never gonna give rick astley released need make holiday,0 cheating loser among us playing among us got imposter crewmate streak killed someone suddenly red holds emergency meeting rest goes following redpurple me fell trap me what red purple killed alt account mecheater redhaha me im imposter get red cheating redill kick do thats punched thigh hard theres bruise now,0 honor spooktober lets write halloween story ill write comment word anyone reply another word another person replys reply new word cycle goes on words something halloween make sense good luck fellow spookers,0 @ddlovato we love you more. please visit the Philippines! 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You honestly have nothing to worry about ,0 holding mouth screaming pain bleeding lips knowing go fuck do bf love anymore tells feels good knows hes hit hard feeling gets hands want die everydaytheres one day goes doesnt tell im worthless ugly piece shit fuck do cannot go home abusive uncle lives there wtf,1 pretty much constantly depressed since mid may last days actually good feeling good am bed staring wall questioning everything eternity again wtf wrong me,1 working sexfactory takes sexy animal machine makes sex x times quicker warm result make fade away go bedsheets stuff little skunk legs badger legs use fur like black opaque tights trapped together mold shape private organs however fell comfortable put skinny badger body bite body play day please come waiting years penis big right want animals consent play hours hours penis molded like burnt candle done playing become infertile thousands baby skunk badgers eat rape choke necks sit faces sex years end food little children tiny carrot sticks penises post facebook show people shape spinal cords look like months playtime,0 hi everyone my life s pretty difficult now i hate it i feel like i can t do nothing about it i ve been unemployed for about month i quit my job because it wa a hell hole literally a hell hole they treated me like shit it wa toxic i got physically and mentally sick but i kept pushing until the point were i physically couldn t get up in the morning so i quit i ve been battling health issue and depression ever since i quit my family and friend are shaming me and trying to force me to look for a job i m just not sure if i m ready i m too scared i think i wa traumatized from my past job i m just too scared to find a job and get hurt again like i said i ve still in physical pain and it s really hard to look for a job while you re hurting i ve been seeing a psychiatrist for the past month i ve gotten better but i m still too scared to look for a job any advice,1 yayitsfoogie aww well i thought it wa a fun website anyway don t be lonely,0 just napped so hard that he slept on top of his keys. :S now off to magoffin! ,0 real healer beautiful many ways insane lie expensive medication ive ever already cost when say medication mean therapy rabbit love bits im actually thinking getting another pet soon mum said yes allow another big animal sometimes help alaska believe bunnies sometimes handful,1 everyone celebrating bidens victory like president yet trump put fight feels like horror movie defeated monster theres still hour movie left lol,0 depression: *exists*me: not today bitch,1 ur mom valid comeback mom person u say to sister said something said ur mom im thinking valid cuz mom mom h e l p,0 just booked to speak to my doctor about starting anti depressant i suffer from panic disorder agoraphobia developed from this depression and gad on a couple different thing at the moment but never had an ssri haven t been prescribed yet but zero doubt i will be i just wanted to see what people have experienced with these did they work for you did you face any unpleasant encounter with them any and all experience you are willing to share i would be grateful for i m just nervous about starting them my mind is quite foggy at the moment and it hard to get rid of my worry about them,1 i used to joke that he doesn t remember what my name is but it s not funny anymore it actually kind of hurt we ve been together for year and he never call me by my name or even a pet name ever if he need me to come he doesn t shout from the other room babe jill love etc please come here he come to me and just say i need you to come for a sec i ve expressed my hurt several time he just say he feel way too awkward using name on people directly and us an excuse that his parent never use their name between them either not true i told him he should make an effort at least for me but he just stay silent and never doe i thought of dropping this subject at some point because i love him bu then i got super pissed off like i m not asking him to do a headstand every time i enter the room i just want him to call me something nice i am also a severely anxious person but i go to therapy and he doesn t want to any idea,1 Really important piece from @lisabowhorse about the link between acne and depression http://metro.co.uk/2018/04/25/acne-causing-depression-7434740/ …,1 anyone cares today birthday one celebrate with happy birthday guess,0 get credit card teen build credit legit amazing hey ive using step send receive money get use link httpsstepcomrfgffc,0 good bye guys may last post accidentally used body wash hair thing save reddit premium know bros enough,0 tw somewhat mention of blood and scarring idk if this is linked to anxiety or whatnot but i constantly find myself picking at my lip and finger especially when i get really anxious i hate how it s left my lip scarred and bloody but i just can t seem to stop i ve tried putting chapstick on to prevent peeling so i wouldn t pick but it never lasted more than a couple week also my finger look pretty bad when i wa younger i would rip the white part of my fingernail off but now i just rip the surrounding skin until they bleed and scab i mean everytime i feel anxious and nervous i keep my hand together and in front of me which eventually lead to me picking at my finger i already have pretty bad social anxiety so the thought of people being able to see my awful hand and lip make me feel worse man something is really wrong with me tbh,1 feel like deserve diei rough spot relationship living another couple also relationship issues girl would talk out trying new things partners much decided try molly gone one day would like blame molly wont sex admitted love other caught positions decided continue pursue anything months later im still girl weve moved out every day want die guilt try let know guilt shows im different person dont know feelings girl gone within month suffering ive done feels endless nobody fucking know know look anyone willing give reason forgive please help me,1 im scared im losing person love life im scared dont know dont know carry without shes slipping away like doesnt care anymore cant anything dont want live without,0 first day christmas true love gave me nothing im single lmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaooooooooooooooooooooooooo,0 ayooo o im girl jkjk unlesss,0 "@catarina5 entroncamento ya know whos comming here too? Blasted mechanism, rita guerra, joao pedro pais..8D @lndwhite but are u ok?",0 Lemme just say when your playing music everyday Life is Grand! Never wanna gonna stop! ,0 this is a question i m struggling with for year now i wa a neglected child of an alcoholic father lot of trauma i m diagnosed with depression for year now i have this void where love from my parent and family wa supposed to be the problem it s causing is in romantic relationship i get addicted to people which is very unhealthy and it s cause of the lack of self love but how do i love myself what s the cure for this i used to hate myself now i m just neutral i really want to be better and be happy by myself i just have no idea how to do it anyone else struggling with that having an advice for this,1 fucking point anymoresaw got post twitter day thought id give go know live anymore see point purpose life little things get happy anymore nothing seems make day give reason go on injured back couple months back seems like everything gone downhill there cant help anymore cant exercise cope stress injury weight ballooned kg kg hurts lot worked hard get kg kg seems like alll effort gone drain started losing hair well bugs much cant deal going bald now im going bald would disastrous started care personal image started losing weight hair became important aspect first time life age started grooming daily became much larger part ever thought would losing hair soul crushing family life mess mums religious personally believe im atheist not one psycho poor language removed tells everyone god real every time meet them hard constantly barraged negative comments beliefs still come rest family friends point gonna happen find joy life anymore little things like able listen music go short walk made happy past cant even enjoy things without pain hair loss makes scared go im selfconscious hair deal everyone staring me cant go gym lift weights hours like used to cant hit bench tbar rows exercise made say you purpose today life mundane sense cant explain happy quote oasis the little things make happy right im reduced physio exercises make feel like incompetent paraplegic fuckwit exercises simple boggles mind cant pain free months back exercising minimum times week fasted cardio weight training later day cant even walk painfree let alone anything else cant little things anymore also see friends enjoying life studying working conscripted side note theres conscription country cant things well conscripted back injury according md there might need surgery surgery scare me actually look forward means get back right even poor language removed letter appointment simply told wait poor language removed letter appointment date right life absolute limbo cant anything right now pain help well call stubborn hate rely painkillers wanna create dependency drugs doc also prescribed tranxene months back poor language removed mood also use much either effects minuscule best right now typing kinda cathartic even little thanks anyone bothered read thanks anyone bothers reply,1 evolution kinda spooky ngl weve really evolved yo thrive climate eg hairy cold big surface area heat cant hold breath long like evolved somehow knowing wed live advanced civilization im religious anything seems kinda weird unless im missing something lol,0 hey to my new followers - come over and introduce yourselves ,0 @thaniajoe Told ya. ,0 "Bought two pairs of skinny jeans, one for 6 dollars and one for 10 dollars and then bought more stuff from Victoria secret ",0 wouldve nice known felt like kiss girl diedi know that matter long put killing myself ever reality wish something couldve experienced wish something even came close deserving feel,1 a veces no sentimos tan mal que llegamos a creer que la persona de nuestro alrededor est n fastidiad s de nosotros y queremos platicar con alguien pero ya no queremos molestarlos depresion depression,1 "Monday mornings, still feel like Mondays, but with the added benefit of being tired after a busy weekend of work, lol... ",0 grandpa die covid title yo grandpa die covid within next hours cant even bid farewell man filled void left parents divorce split asshole father im totally heartbroken j know,0 @mmitchelldaviss i want to do a music video with you in it some day. ,0 @1WineDude That's a really cool giveaway! ,0 abuse dad makes smell farts every time dads fart asks come over sticks butt face lets messy hell onto nostrils could sue dad this,0 talk someone suicidal thoughtsi would really appreciate advice feeling looming ruining everything try accomplish so think redflag everyday know need help however ive read stories people opening suicidal thoughts therapist locked facility somewhere pretend theyre better get out really happen im wondering whats point talking specialist theyre going send away anyway therapist too expensive thinking telling family doctor i do say want know im suicidal much anxiety this really need help,1 frustrated inability anythingselfimprovements key word self you dear reader provide advise read x y try z success stories told say xyz why exercised changed diet cbt whatever never able it right now would like become vegan read radical acceptance brach take walk every day would like start super small too walk maybe put shoes on nothing else needs done cannot even consistently theres mental block something whats worse stuck level planning nowadays cannot even sit make basic plan y try change internal monologue refuse change think aspects goes reality example i anything want no cannot anything somewhat privileged still worker capitalist economy able to though none works cannot just do it cannot magically develop drive willpower whatever people have even pressure nothing happens part feels like free must different everyone accept compatibilism thing total free will think different levels free per individual maybe really lazy weak thing worked years recent development wanted try intermediate fasting nothing worked decided feel like it days able wait dinner eat others eat day surprisingly worked lost pounds plans regime smart goals feel like which exact opposite advice given years able expand anywhere else know do sure coming unhealthy obsessive crap cannot not feed it always think dying killing never want doing fact that life catch screw over,1 regular katsu and spam musibi gettin fat.,0 findinmyway luv depression hit me out of nowhere last night,1 I've sign up for Nuffnang. Finally. ,0 im failure am woke half hour ago seems like monthly nightmare college theyre similar usually wandering around school borrowed traits ones ive before feeling panicked final starting soon im prepared for makes sense happened me calc years ago course failed final though time panic me knew prepared accepted fate whatever happens happens mentality it first class get least b in semester life started fall apart worsening depression remember starting strong semester even highest score one exams class also remember week wheels came off started insignificant troubles snowballed life today wish could go back slap keep track cant afford go back school even could worry would fail again least relive negative emotions associated it feeling inferior students based dress general demeanor lecture remember well intimidating felt trash kid like sitting among crowd kids uppermiddle class parents tons friends life experience me remember feeling like belonged went back wonder much worse feelings inferiority would be given im years older im straight failure great opportunity go college lot financial assistance blew it tried becoming lol pro failed that settled trying become streamer failed well always close failing end ive done last years work shitty dollar per hour jobs advice myself cant born trash cant escape it honestly point alive anymore picture future minimum wage worker rest life theres anything wrong that lifestyle me need something need successful traditional standards ie good degree job equal quality cant know cant ive tremendous fucking failure life im going poor life never get experience things want to heart racing last minutes cant go back sleep obsess failures ive made plans kill july know wait perhaps worst part knowing help me clinic afford within miles i car look elsewhere month waiting list something absurd like that every time called redflag hotline ask location refer clinics around me feels super shitty like im talking robots care me thinking makes angry really hotline people much fact government help lowincome people seek psychiatric attention yeah hotline people kind frustrating too ive called several times point say almost exactly things every time makes whole thing feel scripted insincere ive calmed little bit rambling wait july still feel slightly impatient wish could get with hate alive matter anyone tells me im piece shit need die,1 fucked exams upi messed bad fucked up gpa fucked fucked cant fucking even stupidity promised mess again again am sitting bathroom im hurting myself itll hurt take exams make dumb mistakes anymore enough fine fail accept failure move on better okay cant know hurts way stop thinking failure much want dig brain stop thinking keep laughing making jokes feel sadness anger disappointment itching need hurt myself painful im focusing pain suddenly thats think about nothing else feels liberating almost want die time want die mother grieve things live for im still child things want see go know long keep going feelings throw building,1 tonight nighti told story sub hundreds times younger brother killed himself life spiraled control person kept grounded broke fucked someone week later tried give every family member good last memories me even ex im coming home christmas want say feel fucking horrible need to get keep thinking fucking bad want this holidays already hard enough told happened knew do cant get matter hard try got accomplish one last thing accepted transfer student college goes to,1 living kinda embarrassing want dig hole plunge,0 i fucking hate everyone and everything i can t take another day fck everyone on this planet why tf do i have to feel so shit all the time fuck god he ain t shit he abandoned me why tf do i have to feel so shit all the time while everyone else get to enjoy their life and get everything they want i also hate people who take advantage of other people i can t wait to end it i wish no one wa around so i can do it idgaf about anything that s my rant,1 fucking sad every day feels like eternity pain know get help seems difficult pointless felt like long time self harmed attempted suicide since teenager love sons father live with gaslights tells never love allow talk one great job quit bc felt like going drive car river way work one day lost alone want genuine human connection history trauma makes impossible end rope know do want kill bc children love feeling isolated alone misunderstood eating away insides sad recently believe everyone would better here black hole within,1 answers test c forensic science teacher gave us form fill our deciding whether pieces evidence class individual aka piece evidence point towards one person group people swear god im next murder suspect yknow why goddamn teacher didnt ask single question answer would individual class evidence thats like giving final exam correct answers c all answers same make doubt like that know im right theres little voice head tells maybe im going insane,0 sister messaged call asap received message am woke home use restroom called sister time answered phone heard yelling screaming happened was sister gave father ride back wherever came get home father would leave moms home unless also came along,1 ah yes getting laid allgirl sleepover amidst pandemic im sure bunch people sub seen post guy got invited sleepover im disbelief guys believe quarantines depraved seeing people fuck man embarrassing around yall please better this even story true celebrating fact sleepover party pandemic jesus christ comments saying guy inquestion hero living dreams make feel slimy gross guess get girl subreddit im ready downvotes fingers crossed,0 stories high enough kill meevery time pass huge parking garage campus feel like would definitely die falling instantly im top doesnt feel high enough everyone campus asleep ones stop me ones fails,1 "Thinks morphing certain images, talking about the future, and trying to plan winter cruises to tropical locales makes my day. ",0 god got status update point im confused,0 cannot get grip wasted everyone time fucked everything up more thanks big sleep soon,1 cause takes best parts three films cape fear touch evil silence lambs mixes together come good thriller filmbr br sean connery liberal law professor married former assistant district attorney kate capshaw hes crusader capital punishment blair underwoods grandmother ruby dee buttonholes connery conference persuades handle grandsons appeal hes sitting death row murder young girlbr br when connery arrives rural florida county hes tough sheriff played laurence fishburne whos ruthless crime solving orson welles touch evil br br later connery gets verdict set aside evidence hes uncovered hes feeling pretty good himself point film takes decided turn touch evil cape fearbr br to say seems put mildly cast uniformly turns good performances special mention must made ed harris plays hannibal lecter like serial killer death row underwood make skin crawl starts making connery rethink comfortable liberal premises hes basing convictions on many confirmed liberal ive known come thinking quite differently theyve become crime victimbr br of course reverse equally true many law order conservative ever get involved wrong end criminal justice system wants make real sure rights indeed guaranteedbr br criminal justice end process never ending one society guess cause moral would probably it,0 havent seen movie years remember attack scene horses wearing gasmasks vividly scene ranks way best including beach scene saving private ryan recommend strongly,0 chronic depression foolproof plan scaredbe brave tell myself brave know means more brave live brave die two weeks ill answer lifes problems method fail does hopefully ill impaired enough livingdying matter family history parkinsonsalzheimers social anxiety bipolar disorder im quite close enough see rest life slow decline grave never made life job money way out know do continue live world ill nothing burden love me keep on cant even qualify social security death easier struggle find help found real help years,1 opening night released tries ambitious production succeeds truly stunning performance gena rowlands character theatre actress myrtle necessarily someone would love real life selfabsorbed often obnoxious makes life miserable around words unlike actresses myrtle also woman edge collapse quite sure demons fighting real imagined although let secret early rowlands obviously well directed love gifted husband actordirector john cassavettes role film well film without flaws overly long last part film myrtle goes stage drunk seems almost cruel improvising dialogue least stage goes way long supporting characters give good performances especially ben gazarra playing myrtles sleazy producer joan blondells character never fully developed never could figure film except placate myrtle see film rowlands alone fascinating throughout tough take eyes her although want times,0 everything hardi feel overwhelemd feel every single day cant handle it cant handle emotionally unstable cant handle forcing go work school pretend fine cant stand it im tired,1 everyone expects get better rantyet body pretty much feeling effects stress get waves nausea quite often feel nervous anxious feel like know reconnect mend broken bridges people heh could i social skills horrible realized social isolation reached critical levels ive wasted seven years life stomach cant even handle pills like fighting war entire army own im strong know feel suicidal suffered much compared others yet feel like im time bomb feel like im close snapping someone course care others think me because ive barely accepted life myself tried sincere keep morals life spitted face time time stop fucking cycle stop course ive tried improve get social skills try meet people seldom works always same people want put shoes yet rarely me talk people talk me im always giver people take time time im sorry mom always told love worry friends but sure im fuck up almost every single person met ends forgetting me people take take take,1 i am scheduled to be very productive on a few hr and i still can not sleep insomia ha gotten to me,0 @anna_banana25... It's only good on Thursday...I miss out on having Sunday off tho.,0 ventexplanation guessso may first last post im sure say guess get right point im thinking downing three bottles antidepressants mickey rye tonight intent obvious ive come realisation useless am cant anything talents cant even get collage fucks sake im fucking lazy ive disappointed everyone one many times im damn lost life course im afraid kill myself im sure else do father hates me mother abandoned dont friends guess want make sort note make sure people know sorry know fault im sorry wasted years everyones life couldnt make proud hell know im going scared anyways going work,1 @SandraBernhard Got to get when you can here! ,0 @BRANDNuMusic84 Had one for over a year...I actually LOVE blackberry and encouraged MANy to buy them..but this phone mos def TOPS it! ,0 im strait male prefer household chores women typically downvote hell sexist hear cooking cleaning around house typically jobs woman unless youre single guy kinda forced it im strait white male not matters id much rather clean house cook dinner mow lawn something like that love cook end stress cleaning lot anxiety enjoy cleaning writing this im making dinner spaghetti meatballs id anyone curious anyway id like hear options topic sex,0 is boarding ek a usual no upgrade from ek colombo,0 hateful world meive known long time becomes clearer clearer every day tried really done much try overcome suffering cruelty world things get worse nothing worth anything anymore everyone knows it thats one cares now blame them all autumn coming favorite season want die beautiful autumnal woods favorite music playing ears drift sleep guess theyll find bones winter never matter want peace time go ive got weeks make preparations thats good thanks listening anyone there im looking talked anything bother sharing here swear people subreddit probably last kind understanding people left planet far see,1 resourcefulness vision depression MagicianSeven of PentaclesNine of Swords,1 im tired waiting someone help kill myselffor past year im alone shameoutbursts think someone past shout come help commit redflag diagnosed bipolar disorder observation illness works two ways seeing people get fights with either destructive shitty people absolute saints right i wrong since extremes irrational left conclude are some people actually are treatinghave treated badly inability recognize address correctly making sick head want believe moment simply overthinking result mental illness itself nevertheless feel surrounded normal peoplepeople like youwho immediately recognize treated badly someone deal accordingly convinced inability see anger to least anger valid emotion weakness late fix cant stop thinking guns explosives exhaust pipes fantastic modern ways make quick painless,1 whos excited late school forgot mask home run back whos excited late school forgot mask home run back,0 question regarding sharing pictures console reddit share picture gallery ps reddit,0 friend dying friend swears shes going kill mental state terrible constantly complains body even going way harm look prettier lives toxic household parents hate dad covid doesnt exist type dude mom tough love type self confidence issues yet lot pride wont see therapist thing though shes probably one best people know helps everyone nice everyone goes extra mile everyone doesnt think shell missed believes replaceable im scared tbh texting nights ago says may start cutting soon shes done drugs alcohol quickly put stop that im wondering send screenshots conversations mother maybe shell forced get help dont wanna force get help dont know point,0 @Freddy1990 i do that all the timee! its sucks to wake up on a very good dream. and i say it focus get on that dream again!!! ,0 friend deathever since young feel like ive strange connection death cat would mutilate kill small animals leave yard would find would look it didnt really feel anything it would decay wanted watch it middle school cat died killed coyote hes death first felt remorse for missed him grandma passed away well didnt feel much day funeral kind would often read together put family dog horrible cared lot grew me next old family cat died peacefully home old age sad happy could pass peacefully soon got sick infection spine think sounds bad was didnt talk knew could die something went wrong could pass away hospital already coming terms fact might die recovered wish hadnt got new cat died killed coyote possibly fisher emotional support died next new dog stella got bone cancer suffered months decided put down hated seeing much pain could nothing her felt helpless im still people life love often wish would died hospital wish closed eyes never opened again im afraid dying im afraid pain death cause feeling ill seeing death ahead me life is whether hate love it everyone know love die one day feel tired feel numb wish died ,1 anybody just let me know i m here to listen and meet new people,1 Ok off to Waitrose for some salad stuff for tomorrow's picnic. ,0 nearly k main cant get karma alt mustve lost touch,0 titlebroke girlfriend month ago today told never anything using validation apparently also cheated different guys person felt sort closeness really loved her even supposed cope this hurts like hell absolutely nobody talk it im literally unable function im trying best get day,1 girlfriend supportive honest embarrasses meive honest suicidal thoughts understands hate putting her hate knows now want treat differently feel bad me told intending vent feel like attention seeker feel shame,1 @ColtonThomas01 I have both! Generalized anxiety disorder and v mild depression,1 show awesome thought two episodes paul died sad actually cried shows awesome kerry favorite character the dark side also thought bridget funny perky also thought guy played kyle really really cute loved kerry made sarcastic remarks everything guy played rory cute paul played john ritter really funny whole entire tv show funny wish still showed tv show tv though watched every single time on next time shows watch again,0 hey recently i realised that i ve been having one problem for a couple of year but i wasn t able to identify and name it until now so basically when i talk to someone directly i have no problem in holding eye contact it just feel natural no anxiety at all no matter if it s someone i know or some stranger however i m facing lot of situation when i feel unable to look around like in library where i literally feel some kind of mental block to look at someone sitting beside me or someone passing by sometimes i experience that also in public transport or at the gym i usually try to combat that feeling by looking there anyway but it just feel even more uncomfortable and i feel that this discomfort make me look like some sort of creep how do you even approach such problem,1 want become kword how,0 "@takaradragon I'm just on lowkey badfeels. I've been diagnosed with mild depression but it's been taking nasty dips lately.But yeah, doctor warned me about this. Said if it gets too much I can drop it.",1 read read written brief ampxb do read ampxb you ampxb lot know ampxb really ampxb read lot like say read read lot ampxb read daily ampxb comprehend ampxb intelligence brief ampxb extraordinarily well probably better anybody interviewed long time read lot ampxb idk found funny,0 anyone wanna talk hmu,0 sometimes wish closest familyi wish could end without feeling bad anyone ive tried fucking hard fucking long rationalize existence every time arrive conclusion so hurt closest ones never asked this never chose born world wish never was cant bring inflict kind pain upon mother father brother guess purpose live pain joy wish nobody holding back sorry fit felt like telling someone,1 hate cousins one cousin year old male cousin year old female started loooong argument saying sirenhead comes night minecraft tried explaining mods complain parents im grounded,0 asks anybody here who have FaceBook? Add nyo ako. PLEASE. http://plurk.com/p/xqhri,0 girls cute sized hoodies cant change mind girl sized hoodie automatically cute,0 feeling little disappointed tarantino ever since death proof insist little appreciate amount work producing homage stunts people inglorious basterds definitely propelled tarantino top ranks universe movie summed albeit inadequately one word raw br br there intense emotion every scene revenge justice seem main themes start movie one feels compassion towards victims nazis placed tarantinos fictional dimension ww historical context br br characters unpredictiable fun scary brutal sexy adjectives sure escaping mind fitting notredflag go appreciation character comments fellow users sum appreciation various performances br br dialogue evolved classic tarantino bad ass provocative style seen pulp fiction death proof one feel dialogues tarantino making open references movies indeed many dialogues near lessons cinema audience setting partly takes place movie premiere reference movie close around every corner br br it nice see language presented german french english employed rather equally naturally speak french english fluently frequently disappointed english speaking characters french movies act poorly french speaking characters englishamerican movies act poorly amazingly enough tarantino managed make actors pull natural graceful performance actors helps put audience context historical context indeed soldiers spies civilans rarely understood soldiersspiescivilians countriesbr br the visualsphotography beautiful sceneries convincingly conveying s wwii europe outfits perfect violence orgasmicallyrealistically conveyed punches held back nazis often shown tortured makes movie open audiences graphic violence shock sensitive demographic br br volumes written movie movie good north american inglorious basterds premiere fantasia festival montreal pee refused go miss one single scene hope image conveys strongly feel movie im hard audience please,0 overcome anxiety depressionim sitting crying type this life hit new low consistently like every week im job moved across country boyfriend im anxious learn drive find job like told would made group friends half longer like mental health distorted personality toxic one found tonight im trying hold together found boyfriends work wont give time anymore cousins wedding back home get plane fly first time next week im terrified dont know do theres much going want scream cry tendencies harm urges never strong dont know else type bad like beyond bad worse long time ive struggled since age really dont know anymore boyfriend asks whats wrong cant even find words say dont want feel responsible fixing making better want stop existing could kill without hurting family boyfriend would really dont want keep living life like this,1 feel really bad guilty dont like food mom makes rant maybe shouldnt upset im pussy whatever mom cooks lot shes pretty decent it whenever makes something shes super excited try it try something makes dislike it get sad telling upset taste food love much hate reject something worked really hard on sorry long ass rant needed get out im wondering anyone else feels do,0 got bio test well class average guess im bit better,0 cant handle anymoreever since raped life went downhill everyone way shouldve handled report it tell whole school ect instead making sure okay trying make statement wanted alone cope withdrew dropped school met someone time convinced end life then unfortunately cheated ex gave std needed surgery for since ive thought obsesses old sex tapes goes friends try get go talk girls even though im guys night friend tried hire hookers feel fucking worthless hate people high expectations me heck high goals aimed let crash burn going doctor wanted work chronically ill patients works towards better pain management hopefully cure some perfect boyfriend happened dumped trauma much hold onto anything cant pretend anymore things get better years pills therapy lost everything cared fault stronger really miss ex im glad saved trouble watching turn shell person really dont see hope anymore guess days go one day finally it,1 @ddlovato good luck with the uk release of yer album today. I got it. love you.,0 saw flick encw last nite third fourth time enjoyed much ordered dvd really standout course first mannstewart pairings usual oater although quite powerful searchers lots obvious symbolism achieving manhood mainly acting stewart partner millard mitchell shelly winters waco johnny dean dan duryea steve miller not joker interesting handsome would hero whos interested lola yellow like stewart man killed liberty valance hes practically reduced putting apron serving enemies coffee decaf doubt tony curtis bronx cavalry rock hudson behaving like indian ive seen screen interesting cameosbr br special performances john mcintire lucky card dealinggun trader hangs low grade western version ricks american cafe nobody wants spend night there jay c flippens kiss lola winters nice scenes stewart gets bend river far country geer wyatt earp indian chief takes walter brennans teeth red river pleasant sightings kind western stewart wayne scott could pulled off worth shot repeat ,0 know dohey ive struggling high functioning depression anxiety almost two years know started im guessing parents constantly fight dad extreme ocd add refuses go doctor get medication takes everyone else house know love sometimes cant dad constantly tells much disappointment nothing right mom better same feel told im going through believe im traditionally depressed would probably tell people worse need suck up many people days better others days im friends stuff enjoy better soon im home smallest thing happens want curl ball things enjoy painting horseback riding gaming sound engineering parents disapprove make fun about favorite thing job workintern audio engineer church services high school graduations etcetera feel like boss cares family parents christian im deist cant tell them things would different cant lose best friends feel place church even talking youth pastor nice lack faith best friends ever know nothing this family acts perfect seems perfect outside reason havnt ended want put family friends it cant take anymore im freshman hope future maybe time think done sorry rant tldr im high functioning depressive cant deal,1 im really indecisive get cheese pizza pita chicken restaurant title says all please help idk get,0 #myweakness @johncmayer - John Mayer of course!!! ,0 movie took breath away points simply loved it br br i admit character dialogs storyline could done bit better hey simple short story couple guys trying slain dragon theres nothing itbr br the overall design atmosphere beautiful landscapes magical br br theyve put lot love movie character designs great funny bit tim burtonish like recommend movie anyone interested great design displayed simple small lovely story,0 think africa toto watching sunset like watching tonight couldnt stop playing head reason usually sunset,0 made diss track towards donald trump like trump begin with made diss track towards amp lauren witzke hope enjoy tbh trump terrible person beep boop video linkhttpsyoutubengwpczhxfm,0 @schwern Epic. Donut Bread Pudding sounds disgustingly good. ,0 i cant eat over 00 calorie ori feel horrible and i lost kg in a few week but my parent didnt notice until recently now they scream at me wheneber i dont eat and threaten to kill me and throw sfuff at me im sitting in a cornee cry afzer my dad threw his bag at me and called me a disgusting skinny bitch my mom is now saying she ha arrhythmia because of my made up problem i have mo one to talk to i have no friend and feel like just killing myself,1 lonelyim lonely year old male friends two jobs starbucks gamestop one either job really ever wants hang makes think im unlikable one ever seems like wanna friend im sure ive ever real friend wanna end know yet,1 get opening someone guess friend told wanst crying little pussy would feel better,1 whats thing cchie man mean story behind it built different phrase come from cchie man born,0 @Jennettemccurdy http://twitpic.com/6qzt7 - Love it haha! I bet it will look amazing when you take it down!!,0 college graduate make k year live atlanta kids single reason happy feel like big emptiness inside really know do bored life feel like happy kind lost really know go here normal anyone else experienced this accomplished wanted life nothing idk guys think happy,1 "@_chris_scott_ That's a great approach on a sunny day.... lovely view, lucky you ",0 sub rules popular one,0 theyre determined keep alive hurt moremy parents taken life didnt live years hospitalized redflag attempt ive forced move back them year still watch like hawk anytime im happygolucky big shit eating grin face drill questions hurting again smiling need go back cant least try happy whenever truly feeling optimistic find ways tear down wow finally laugh wasnt even funny even bother shower always smell like cat anyway haha youre going living parents make feel im asking one thing never get it either let live peace let die peace preferably latter,1 want try bondage ask partner keep ropei sure keeping rope trigger suicidal thoughts would dominant one want explain get suicidal thoughts recent fwb would do,1 fuck life dont know im typing see get advice ive seeing girl like year weve become close asked last month rejected disappointed still good friends shes telling new partner theyve deed almost every day sense met like two weeks ago broke says hes shes im like wow seems bit weird like tells yea shes really happy shes sorry still friends stuff im like yea sure still friends know shes yo shes getting rammed every day im sure deal im heart broken sucks need advice plz one help,0 facebook url criss url please help share word importantly spread awareness edit available regular hanes shirts womens fit shirts sweatshirts,1 i think my depression has manifested into aggression. i've never wanted to beat somebody's ass as much as i do now,1 keep ya head bro girls call ugly want remember go swipe makeup remover keep ya head king,0 im ready leavei hate cant live longer never find happiness best decision,1 give reaaon itwhats fucking point im alone ill always alone one gives shit good person are one ever see good you whats point this im convinced born suffer die alone love give care means nothing swear im trying good person help homeless whenever can try break fights listen need someone listen them care everyone way fucking much what everythings always goddamn fucking same broke year old long distance relationship turned toxic end hopes might find someone whos actually able me one ever tries see good me know im ugly fucking fat whatever fuck am im bad person swear keep going im always going alone one ever love me wish could get hug single hug thats need ill die without it theres hope left,1 dont know anymorei kind plan die would th dont know would actually follow it one knows except you now congrats know current deepest secret,1 "Lonely millennials twice as likely to experience depression or anxiety, finds study http://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/millennials-lonely-depression-anxiety-mental-health-odds-doubling-unemployed-study-a8319686.html …",1 gary busey title character frank bulletproof mcbain standardissue reckless maverick cop whos earned nickname matter many bullets takes counting never stops going bad guysbr br when cuttingedge us tank dubbed thunderblast driven across border mexico nabbed revolutionaries terrorists led general brogado rene enriquez libyan colonel kartiff henry silva whos aligned russian villains army personnel involved kept prisoners chief among devon shepard darlanne fluegel happens mcbains exgirlfriend mcbain recruited army rescue missionbr br busey may physical presence say someone like schwarzenegger would another appropriate lead film type hes blast self confident dude whos quick wisecracks fluegel great female lead looks incredibly sexy makes fine buttkicking action babe enriquez silva juan fernandez always welcome william smith as russian major loathsome scum classic action movie tradition supporting cast quite full familiar reliable character actors lq jones rg armstrong thalmus rasulala lincoln kilpatrick mills watson luke askew danny trejo caryhiroyuki tagawabr br tl lankford bj goldman supply script based story lankford veteran b director fred olen ray kind script know writers tongues cheeks know material absurd cheesy fun throwing credibility window veteran action director steve carver keeps moving delivers respectable amount gunfire explosions general allout mayhembr br bulletproof good fun action fan mind switching brain enjoying generous assortment violence humorbr br ,0 really fucking overnot me whole fucking world humanity needs die hunger racism rapes disease mental health issues come fucking on earth please blow up saying cuz im selfish humans longer wouldnt problems wouldnt feel like killing self every day life,1 reason livei many people life girlfriend rarely friends get friend leave soon after nothing really makes happy anymore thinking reason go on,1 i ve had this thought for several year now and i can t break out of my thought i hope you guy would understand me venting here i have no friend well i have friend who always seem to be busy around me but not around others pandemic didn t help with my loneliness i am extremely lonely i might be going crazy the thought struck me when i realized that if i were to kill myself in my home literally no one would notice me being gone what s the point of living on i am only passive suicidal but i am worried my thought would one day consume my entire body and drive me to kill myself in fact i wa very close to actually committing suicide a few day ago i tried calling the hotline and wa not helpful i can not afford to go to get proper help i m sorry i hope you guy weren t bothered too much reading this somebody please help me please,1 stop getting worsei much longer,1 abacab 9 still sore come put tomorrow though,0 literally every single friend ever make ends leaving fuck shit im fuckin ending peace bitches,0 feel wayfor passed week felt alone want cry talk anyone feel empty know take life self harm hate feeling hope passes soon,1 @Ronny_ahGO I found you Darren! You're so cute!,0 easy painless way kill selfmy schizophrenia reached limits cant anything all head always keeps hurting always thinking always family willing help always turn head ask them brother stopped talking years ago sister little friends schizophrenia when growing up people always thought weird avoided me spent rest year sitting front pc schizophrenics also social anxiety disorder body muscle starts hurt thing pc cant use illness my brain mentally stops me please please tell easy way finish please head always thinking alwaysi cant sleep want stop please help,1 girls like guys like taht work nice look good etc,0 @youcancallmejuu what are u gonna watch? ,0 "@Lykakakaka OMG LYKS HAHAHAHAHA but she has depression, so I feel guilty hating her ",1 school year sucks thats all said before want say again now im going leave sad,0 pyromg massive depression and sudden musical interlude i have two trait shut up,1 know time laptop hard drive breaks dad fix cant ship laptop measly miles new york company fix laptop shipped november apparently still somehow way company,0 i ve felt like this for a bit but never super realized until i looked into a depression a i ve thought more and more recently that i might have depression i ve just kind of been watching youtube and show recently not doing anything i like recently i haven t had any good motivation to get up and do stuff like playing video game even though i want to i just can t get myself to i ve been failing school i can t motivate myself to sit down and even do that which i really really need to do and i feel bad for it too since i haven t done really anything and my mom stuck her neck out to help me i ve just about always had good grade up until spring of last year i think i m always happy when out doing stuff around people basically but i m not always feeling that way i ve just kind of been feeling off and a bit sad i want to reach out to people but i don t have the courage to do so even if they re a relative or a close friend i don t want anyone feeling sad because i am and i m just kind of trying to keep people other than myself happy people have asked me sometimes if i m ok but i always respond with i m fine sometimes i know like at the beginning of conversation i sound a bit sad which is why people ask if i m ok but then i kind of just go to a normal somewhat happy tone i don t want to really say i m depressed cause i think it s just my own fault for being too lazy and i know recently especially i haven t been getting to sleep really at a time i should just cause i don t feel tired basically ever so i just stay awake and sometimes force myself to sleep i m not really ever cry which isn t very depression like which is guess is kind of why i ve just thought for awhile that i don t which i probably don t i m sure i m exaggerating but i don t really get to a point where i feel sleepy and then when i do go to sleep i sleep for hour and even if i do set alarm i wake up but i m just not motivated enough to actually get up so i usually just fall back asleep but i just haven t told anyone up until now especially not irl until now but even this ha taken some courage to admit even to myself but i probably didn t say everything a im just kind of piecing stuff together in no specific order or anything and just ramblind on but i m sorry this ha been long thank you for reading and have a nice day or night i did forget to mention some stuff i don t really have suicidal thought i mean i ve thought of suicide but never actually thought about doing it and i have been thinking about talking to a friend that i believe ha had depression in the past but i don t know if they still do so i don t really want to put that weight on their shoulder a well and also i haven t been eating a much probably not because of depression if i even have it which i m sure i don t at this point and also my hygiene i haven t been taking care of my hygiene the best i kind of stopped brushing my teeth for awhile i hate to admit it but my teeth are pretty yellowed and i haven t really been taking care of thing such a acne a well,1 ezuiequotes it s a constant positive mental attitude a way of looking on the bright side of a situation to carry with you an ideal of helping others if possible to do one s best in not falling into doubt or depression a sunny disposition is a discipline,1 mom ignored paini feeling suicidal past years even though ive gotten better conversation mom last year still hurts me repeatedly trying reach desperation pain feeling suicidal typically ignored cries shes asian parent doesnt believe mental health gives motivational speech however simply said the dog barks never bites day think it thought time still hurts yall think spoken anyone would great peoples perspectives,1 hi all me again i ve f experienced a barrage of unfavorable stressful event since the beginning of 0 this ha created a constant baseline of lingering anxiety it s not subtle i am no longer able to function normally due to the chronic flight or fight response physical symptom include sweating tight chest and a pumping stomach adrenaline overload i can t perform simple task without losing my breath sleep is important to me yet i have an overhanging feeling of dread when going to bed sometimes i can sleep smoothly other time it s a war my main form of peace and solace ha become my enemy my doctor recommended i start on lexapro again – something that i had taken during my college day to cope with severe test anxiety by day it created a serotonin fueled brain overload my symptom intensified by a magnitude of 00 i wa unable to sleep for hour it caused me to pas out at work and chat with onsite medic my psychiatrist told me to stop the lexapro i wa instead given 0 mg propranolol taken twice daily and 0 mg hydroxyzine to help me fall asleep i wa also given 0 mg trazodone to knock myself out if needed but i only felt that i had to take this the first night to force reboot my body wa terrified of going into psychosis if i went another night with zero sleep i m at a loss everything is hard i m seeing a therapist to cope i m scared of losing my job it s physically and intellectually demanding but brain machine broke and i m unable to properly focus i m scared of having to move all the way back home because of my instability i often find myself wondering if this is a life worth living it doesn t help that i live alone in the middle of nowhere i ll use this thread to update my progress i know lot of folk are going through this keeping people informed of treatment and whatnot that may help them in turn is one of the small piece of hope that i m holding onto during these uncertain time much love thetipsyalchemist,1 im deeply depressed alonei friends hometown moved across country hoping would force get meet people problem im still awkward fuck dont know socialize all used least work friends dont even fit people new job though hard meet people go everywhere alone everyone already big groups friends least one person even met another person idk talk about dont even know people age anymore im miserable dont even family around anymore except sister came me shes starting drive fucking crazy cant even go home im stuck new lease next october spent entire savings account get here im fucking stupid thinking could make work want start cutting again honestly hope dont wake tomorrow,1 this way the people clearing out this flat will have le work i dont want to cause more work than nessecary,1 recomending song get bored forget day httpslinktospotifycomrpwfqpscibb almost forgot today lol thought ive listened band repeat today recomend it whats opinion,0 hopeless scaredhi reddit im longtime lurker need help family friends connected avenues communication feel comfortable talking people physical world reddit kind last shot want help think first please note im actively suicidal means hand anything resembling concrete plan however spent last two half weeks considering taking life things becoming solid day i figuring want belongings disposed considering best way make sure im found anyone know thinking method etc im starting scare myself seems culmination last three months loneliness stress ive always depressive though clinical depression undiagnosed parents want kid mental illness i convinced depression minimum said last months struggle even standards normally able pull episodes couple weeks good things happen figure fight back one different since came college gotten progressively worse would say akin sinking beginning fine swimming strongly cheerfully going meeting people focusing studying working hard while started get tired swallowed water couple times started get tired one met wanted hang me invitations things inevitably pity invitations point im barely keeping head water cant focus cant study barely socialize like normal human anymore exceptional ive crawled come smiling two weeks ago nervous breakdown screaming crying hurting myselfthe works scared me want hurt anyone drag anyone mess im quickly becoming go down want take anyone me deserve treated way treat them im angry sad time one needs that one needs person like me bring value lives im good writing thats literally have skills talents im kind im smart im good enough around people im waste space one good friend started build social circle one new friends like much furthermore friend disgusted see every time talk thinks im angry loud negative want part this love i love her begun try distance her deserves much better me would anything her im stepping away her tearing apart got friends miss me know sound articulate thats feel constantly state simultaneously nearpanic neartotal apathy everything scares cant make care anymore know logically people would care gone time know would better without me im drain everyones resources time deal ongoing issues go counselor im terrified theyll drop psych ward throw medications me forget me cant talk family would panic cant talk friends know tell this cant even get contact regular internet friends force reveal people want know im fucking disintegrating know much longer hang on want kill every day wonder bother living ive scratched safety pin last two weeks coping mechanism people would miss gone sure theyd hell lot better fucking everything constantly im scared fucking alone please help me,1 im completely numb think im readyi done everything solve this ive therapy talked fucking oblivion read books taken peoples advice still cant bare idea longer think it im numb completely numb nothing anyone says makes feel better worse im constantly think sign time go,1 yr old considering drastic measureshello sorry name offends anyone btw made playing video game really know start guess ill give background info im year old male good body straight as plenty friends void occupying attention little months every day thing endless cycle monotony ive built character thats always happy every day act person others happy im myself cant individual feel trapped even parents love character made lets call john mom spending time phone interacting us know probably done good job describing ill condense one point im tired living happy go lucky lie tired appreciated im contemplating ending it made plans even gone far open case dads rifle reason offed fear,1 @janeslee I have been told to tell you to go outside and enjoy the sun ,0 case vanished chicken nugget first would like tell dont know else put story story true back story going make chicken nuggets went stairs grab chicken nugget bag placed air fryer they like big chicken tenders sake ill call chicken nuggets cooked minutes minutes went grabbed placed plate felt flimsy cut one make sure cooked turns put back turned air fryer cook minutes went upstairs texted mom tell minutes up minutes go moon calls went check chicken nuggets left non cut one asked people my mom older sister said eat it lets start people mom mom wanted chicken nugget already started fryer didnt make one i know im ass hole plz keep reading older sister downstairs eating chicken salad sandwich chips thats think likely mom since wanted chicken nugget get one think took it dont really know else put questions please feel free ask away,0 nice weather here where i live spent a few hour outside grocery shopping i just feel like shit again couple everywhere guy with girl i like young mother father carrying baby or pushing pram around most of which are either my age or younger i never had a girlfriend i find it so hard to even meet woman platonically i never wanted to be a childless man i only have a few friend but they don t want to do much i struggle to push myself to try new thing these day a everything i ever done in life wa a failure obstacle or a setback i really want to kill myself i have been suicidal for year now suffered with general anxiety and depression for almost 0 year either i stay in my flat and just not get triggered by the outside world i e seeing couple and young parent or i end it the latter sound more appealing,1 i m a 9 year old male currently in college doing engineering living with my parent i love my parent and they love me and you know the pandemic for the last year forced college to be online learning so i m at home studying with no job yes my parent pay for my education and everything i feel very depressed every day and i became this awful person that yell back at my parent and me sitting at home made me very lazy that if my mom tell me to do a chore then i become angry now is it that i don t have a job i feel depressed and lazy i know i need to change this anger inside of me but don t know how to start the next step thanks for reading this please share what you think,1 "hey everyone i just wanted to recommend for anyone struggling with anxiety & depression, and you haven't found an outlet to cope with it, i definitely recommend arts & crafts. any creative outlet is very good for anxiety & depression (amount other things) have a good day ",1 beat white women ampxb httpspreviewredditcltlotlpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsffcadabaccadacdbe,0 "@JeffParsons Yeah, I think I will too - that's an impossibly good deal ",0 gotten worse idk everything getting better better id gotten loosing friends id mostly gotten crush getting bf hadnt cut months hadnt cried weeks started trust people again flipped around returned back havent cut yet ive looked open window way hadnt months ive cried first time couple weeks people keep saying itll get better hasnt years gotten worse idek im supposed anymore,0 "@SuzyDaFloozy for the non volley fans, the pix on fb will not me interesting I think (and most are Scott LOL), but the last ones I'm in ",0 nephew boarding school help suggest ideas things could use gifts nephew boarding school first time want send things help enjoy time potentially draw others together help build friendships ideas far bluetooth music player glowinthedark frisbee food posters room huge budget would like get meaningful gifts helpful suggestions much appreciated,0 lmao the weather is mad indecisive tho. alllll my depression is fully present. https://twitter.com/jenlaw_11/status/989222944470519809 …,1 indian life waste nothing deny itbut tried suicide reincarnation true might end back n indianwhich wantgod leave cycle cannot commit su cide n indian know do,1 seamonkey i am on a healthy eating kick i could only have shetland pony,0 life seems meaningless people deal lifei cant see future myself im young thought alive even years seems like work goals find enjoyment anything tried many medications nothing seems help feel broken abnormal compared everyone else wants things life feel like im destined kill myself pain id cause family wouldve done already anyone else feel way deal this,1 bernie sanders old since born anyways idk put hope u suffer much fine day,0 Partying with Depression Turned My Life Upside Down https://noisey.vice.com/en_us/article/gyydb3/partying-with-depression-feature-berlin?utm_campaign=sharebutton …,1 cant sleepits am thing keep thinking waste space know keep putting this arrogance people saying oh people care feel first cares me second supposed live agony someone else get sad im gone want put fucking head wall want scream want thrash just idk want be,1 hey can you stop romanticizing depression thanks https://twitter.com/onision/status/988655824368107524 …,1 "... and after a very long flight arrived in San Francisco. However, had a good seat with lot of space for the legs ",0 @comeagainjen goodnight. im from Vancouver BC ,0 depressed people helps im depressed personally im actually pretty happy person like one friends is told try go walk told felt better id pick one nature many people around trust try it great reason convince life worth living suicidal,0 "@balsamiqMarco Your message is in my inbox And a reply you. Please, let me know when you receieve it.",0 louislucci i usually only sleep hour a night or so going to bed now have to get up at am,0 going for a ride i hate my leg,0 new post new tagalog reggae classic song 0 – chocolate factory tropical depression blakdyak http t co htqh kebnh,1 th gradeback asked read novel based part english class studies remember touched excited tv version came year laterbr br kristy mcnichol popular tv actress film produced already playing daughter dysfunctional family hit tv series family clear range ability pull part recall bit stiff times good job carries movie wellbr br esther rolle fantastic domestic appears one household seems truly care her barbara barrie somewhat frightened slightly neurotic mother also good young robin lively who would eventually appear black widow lana milford twin peaksas sweet younger sister seems focus parents affection bruce davidson also appropriately appealing german soldier titlebr br the best performance however belongs michael constantine truly powerful merited recognition got time bitterness coldness expresses makes scenes appears difficult watch makes much easier understand quiet desperation rejected daughter constantine gives everything right intensity seems good understanding underlying psychological motivationsbr br the film differs book small ways wonderful inspiring watch hope gets released video dvdbr br ,0 giving them depression and anxiety cutting them off the food chain because it become all about collectible and utility artist amp musician have no utility they are the utility,1 well with 9 score i got a msca pf still can hardly believe it i will spend year across labreif lab maier amp winclove studying gut microbe of treatment resistant depression patient working towards a probiotic product supporting treatment efficacy,1 i am going to sleep. just created an account here ,0 curiosityive recently read dont hopeful future curious thats enough ive felt way long time however ive come realize im longer curious thirst knowledge whats come almost completely dissipated reason im still much like others dont want hurt family ive already found slowly cutting friends life think happen year dont set date yet disheartened feel now id still like read something good so made happy late proud calm etc thanks reading,1 look like baby is going to be born in pi,0 ass hurts forgot stretch proceeded work legs help barely walk,0 ueverbodykeepsayin friend ueverybodykeepsayin recently made post touching titties first time trying make look like pervert full story girl friend playing game wherever touched body would touch back hers playing ueverybodykeepsayin watching reason slightly squeezed breasts right first like im going back ueverybodykeepsayin grabbed hand almost made touch breasts im pretty sure wasnt actually going make plus also pulling back hand wouldnt let go looked said ill let lol second slightly squeezed boob slightly wasnt full squeeze ueverybodykeepsayin made post made look like pervert wanted let u guys know happend,0 feeling bit saucy dm me pedos creeps time filler filler filler filler filler filer filer,0 ive watched movie twice plan see again movie puts directors place regarding romantic relations political situation israel also makes cry remembering wonderful time was horrible murder described there really worth watching,0 Get an awesome twitter background http://bit.ly/bgtweet http://bit.ly/custombg,0 want find somewhere die im piece shit world fucked anyway long ventdont even know im posting wall text cant fucking tell anyone else cant weak im even able cry im postgraduate student biomedical science related degree always focused grades told started getting subject choice started hate it like turn back investing much life it think it applied wanted fuck home back high school mom suffered lot grandmother died every day would yell petty things sometimes throw shit around break stuff sometimes take it whenever said something back got worse went full mental breakdown telling hate her love give shit every day three whole years exceptions dad told shut up men like that studied ass able move uni uk back highschool fat nerd liked video games usually got beat humiliated every single day fought back broke someones nose sending guy hospital everyone said overreacted joke principal happy parents believed me happy verdict next time fuck im flying correctional facility bullying got worse everyone calling criminal now even fight back might fuck someone took beatings started skipping classes studying home night went nearby internet cafe classes play video games get high people met there regret it stuff kept killing myself closed id wander aimlessly inadvertently getting trouble occasion also time first cat died getting hit car true friend ever had got pets fine home now black furry little fucker one loved most always help get day day came uk uni good said everyone nice nice never managed fit in never got whole drinking clubbing thing really much disposable income others anyway stayed home studied played video games time relationship parents got better maybe realized left started respect wanted believe sweet lie everything ok get needy wanting always talk id want tell fuck off support home think care fucked way top worst porn addiction ever tried stop many times now cant brain used dopamine rush im im virgin might explain sexual frustration gets me could high sex drive might never know used fat fuck phimosis fixed both im used looking decent confident girl really liked back highschool asked point rejected partly fear might make fun might end getting ridiculed well seen me second one someone met time uni furthest went full makeout session tipsy decided fess said kissing skills horrible bad idea said anymore left straight away contact afterwards thought would pathetic actually tried fapping watching porn sexual frustration gets control managed month went one day period ended trying get phone numbers bar got rejected got shitfaced afterwards thinking decided stay couple drinks bouncer tried kick out flipped shit got fight started pushing me knocked think broke nose fucked right speed light went home wank decided drink frequent bars again recently started postgrad life bad made lot friends somehow im even popular see mask put on even admire fact im mysterious unyielding brick wall even got girls course interested me theyre interested something casual really wanna go risk crap getting out sense im surrounded people yet still fucking alone im thinking going back home join army maybe help find place die reason forgotten im stuck past barely even feel alive wish someone could beat im within inch death maybe ill find reason live never told anyone crap friends family tell reason depressed ive kept shit myself now,1 uncertainty loss and isolation during the covid 9 period have contributed to depression and anxiety exercise is essential to help maintain good mental health and reduce the risk of depression and anxiety brainhealth healthylifestyle avivclinics http t co kpli i bb,1 english revision class,0 days ago science class squirrel weird eyes staring window idk like stared like minute walked away weird felt confused rest day,0 would easysuffice say plan plan stares face least week coincides depressed sometimes consider quite time battling inner self stay alive weighing pros cons whether it help would even care would destroyed taking life friends no family course give two shits normal life lots people might even relieved ended it ive made many mistakes many things regret lack self control impulses im first place im battling stay alive sucks distance people want hurt them decided kill myself time loner contributing depression god wish could go detail wish could confide seek help without fear sent away either done might do even internet safe tor safe cant go therapist cant talk family know do anchors life fading things loved mind numbing boring pushed person love away needed latch onto something much her family around much get me mother real tether left happens gone anything else hold onto fade insanity depression affects work relations boss come accept im depressed obvious work save energy talk clients go clients business see im well im afraid eventually ask whats really going on say then used program develop things live inside code devoted entire self projects loved it fire system force look code find difficult stay long enough get anything done played games every game looked tried pay became boring repetitive eat love eat affecting health im depressed control eating slowly losing weight good enough also helps funding little though self control impulse issues tend make finances go elsewhere liked spending time older brother used play laugh talk inside jokes time taken kid cant blame him relied it pillars sanity whittled away nothing leaving crumbling remains life wake older sister used close younger moved away changed much barely recognize sometimes great around normally shes around enough really anything with im good lot things im fast learner drive motivation partly due knowing happen tomorrow someone uncover ive done taken away family forever changed scarred mistakes made occasionally write things like this never send always makes feel bit better today created alt write send one tldr plan mom thing still tethers me know would day really bad depression gone,1 @joshtastic1 yeah u r a stanger lol so hows things?,0 a lovely day blazing sunshine too bad i have to work,0 anyone else get super cold mainly hand and foot when stressed,1 university work cant get wanted im opening onlyfans im becoming femboy would rather sacrifice pride dignity homeless,0 fuck school fuck school teachers especially mr lee go hell anyone school sees please dont snitch ill haunt rest life doubt anybody school anyway,0 "@spiller2 @ann_donnelly Cool, Thanks for re-tweeting it guys ",0 whenever get told you life live it get sudden jolt angeris way get pissed whenever somebody tells dont it,1 Up early to get ready for my son's Medieval Fair. I think my costume is a disaster. But we WILL have fun. And the brownies look good. ,0 one wish would turn back timeto start whole life told society man talk feelings make seem weak ive bottled hard talk about want go much detail reason would turn back time loved care free smart child tons good friends amazing life around period time life began go hill involved serious accident hit car almost died like say like needle injecting virus would slowly eat away life grades dropped school although friends stuck high school drove away thought good decision reason pride dose allow talk anyone either want hurt want know truth caring not virus spread past would try fight seems like fight left me top tell dad disappointed lived potential knew said nothing make tell him might make much sense read way brain allow get chest sure delete later someone could tell would much appreciated thanks,1 decisioni made decision awhile ago feel like fight me kill myself thats way im dying made mind got fight mom earlier amp almost told cant bc know shell hurt amp want get help decision final im still trying live normal happy life know one day ill give amp comforting know way out,1 imagine this imagine middle sucluded woods high up cabin overlooking beautiful scenery lake distance also either raining snowing staring window form cabin adorable furnished traditionally modern lovely smell cabin sitting extremely comfortable couch staring window scenery listening old records player theres lovely fireplace bit side keeping warm finally snuggled couch softest blankets significant peaceful happy content,0 happened found sexual kink find reaction sexual kinks mean stuff like foot fetish boot fetish gentle femdom,0 great movie play ago extra zing it loved vanessa williams rosey also jason alexander good voice great setting also good except fact hours minutes makes pretty long overall give stars also added parts still cool,0 woke up too early,0 @infogeek2u I can't compete with Led Zep ,0 @ermelbow I too wish I had a snuggie ,0 mf beans beans,0 match tag team table match bubba ray spike dudley vs eddie guerrero chris benoit bubba ray spike dudley started things tag team table match eddie guerrero chris benoit according rules match opponents go tables order get win benoit guerrero heated early taking turns hammering first spike bubba ray german suplex benoit bubba took wind dudley brother spike tried help brother referee restrained benoit guerrero ganged corner benoit stomping away bubba guerrero set table outside spike dashed ring somersaulted top rope onto guerrero outside recovering taking care spike guerrero slipped table ring helped wolverine set up tandem set double superplex middle rope would put bubba table spike knocked table right brother came crashing down guerrero benoit propped another table corner tried irish whip spike it bubba dashed blocked brother bubba caught fire lifted opponents back body drops bubba slammed guerrero spike stomped wolverine top rope bubba held benoit bay spike soar wassup headbutt shortly after benoit latched spike crossface match continued even spike tapped out bubba came brothers rescue managed sprawl benoit table bubba leapt middle rope benoit moved sent bubba crashing wood opponents force table bubba allowed stay match first man eliminated shortly after though spike put eddie table dudley dawg ring apron outside benoit put spike table moments later even score within seconds bubba nailed bubba bomb put benoit table gave dudleys win winner bubba ray spike dudleybr br match cruiserweight championship jamie noble vs billy kidman billy kidman challenged jamie noble brought nidia ring cruiserweight championship noble kidman locked tumbled ring raced back inside grappled more kidman thwarted nobles moves noble fled outside ring nidia gave encouragement fight spread outside ring noble threw girlfriend challenger kidman tossed nidia aside taken modified arm bar noble continued attack kidmans injured arm back ring kidmans injured harm hampered offense continued battle hard noble tried put kidman away powerbomb challenger countered facebuster kidman went finish things shooting star press noble broke attempt kidman went shooting star press again time noble rolled harms way noble flipped kidman power bomb soon got pin retain wwe cruiserweight championship winner jamie noblebr br match european championship william regal vs jeff hardy william regal took jeff hardy next attempt win back european championship jeff catapulted regal top rope took hurracanrana ring apron back ring jeff hit whisper wind knock regal loop jeff went swanton bomb regal got knees hit jeff devastating shot jeff managed surprise regal quick rollup though got pin keep european championship regal started bawling seeing hardy celebrate way back ramp winner jeff hardybr br match chris jericho vs john cena chris jericho promised end john cenas career match vengeance came next jericho tried teach cena lesson match began suplexing mat jericho continued knock cena around ring cockiness got better him top rope jericho began showboat allowed cena grab superplex cena followed tiltawhirl slam taken nasty dropkick gut rookie recovered hit belly belly suplex put yj away jericho launched lionsault cena dodged move jericho nailed bulldog connected lionsault go cover goaded cena feet could put walls jericho cena ideas reversing move pin attempt getting jericho went berserk match winner john cenabr br match intercontinental championship rvd vs brock lesnar via disqualification next big thing mr payperview tangled intercontinental championship line brock grabbed title ref draped shoulder momentarily glaring rvd van dam s quickness gave brock fits early on big man rolled ring kicked steel steps frustration brock pulled together began take charge paul heyman beaming ringside brock slammed rvd hard floor outside ring there brock began overpower rvd throwing ease top rope rvd landed painfully back suffer spine cracked steel ring steps fight returned ring brock squeezing rvd around ribs rvd broke away soon leveled brock kick temple rvd followed rolling thunder brock managed kick twocount fight looked like might soon rvd went fivestar frog splash brock though hoisted van dam onto shoulder went f rvd whirled brock ddt followed frog splash went pin heyman pulled ref ring ref immediately called disqualification soon traded blows heyman after rvd leapt onto brock top rope threatened hit van terminator heyman grabbed rvds leg brock picked champ time connected f onto steel chair winner rvdbr br match booker vs big show booker faced big show oneonone next show withstood booker ts kicks punches slapped booker corner thrown ring booker picked chair ringside big show punched back bookers face booker tried get back game choking show camera cable ringside booker smashed tv monitor spanish announcers position shows skull delivered scissors kick put men table booker crawled back ring big show staggered moments later show grabbed bookers throat met low blow kick face booker climbed top rope nailed somersaulting leg drop get pin winner booker tbr br announcement triple h entered ring thunderous ovation fans hoped learn game would end competing could speak eric bishoff stopped game apologize getting involved personal business triple h signed raw bischoff promised personal life would never come play again bischoff said hes spent past two years networking hollywood said everyone looking next breakout wwe superstar talking triple h bischoff guaranteed triple h signed raw hed getting top opportunities coming way stephanie mcmahon stepped issue pitch said personal history triple h two know well said two unstoppable again bischoff cut begged stop stephanie cited triple h told bischoff said triple h talent charisma bischoff said young time know had still lot experience stephanie two continued bicker back forth triple h stepped microphone game said would easy say screw you either one them triple h went shake bischoffs hand pulled away said would rather go devil knows rather one know could go further though shawn michaels came shake things up hbk said last thing wanted cause trouble want get involved remembered pledging bring triple h nwo hbk said theres nobody world triple h better friends with hbk told friend imagine two back together again making bischoffs life living hell triple h said tempting offer turned hugged hbk making official switch raw triple h hbk left bischoff gloated victory bischoff said difference two hes got testicles doesnt stephanie whacked bischoff side head leftbr br match tag team championship match christian lance storm vs hollywood hogan edge match started loud usa chants hogan shoving christian ropes ring canadians took there edge scored kick christians head planted facebuster storm get tag hogan hogan began hulk soon caught christian big boot leg drop storm broke count christian tossed hogan ring storm superkicked icon edge tagged soon dropped opponents speared corner turnbuckles missed spear strom hit ref hard instead edge nailed ddt ref could count test raced took hogan leveled edge boot storm tried get pin edge kicked two riksihi sprinted fend test allowing edge recover spear storm christian distracted ref though yj dashed clocked edge tag team championship storm rolled got pinfall win title winners new tag team champions christian lance stormbr br match wwe undisputed championship triple threat match rock vs kurt angle undertaker three wwes successful superstars lined triple threat match undisputed championship hanging balance taker rock got face face kurt angle begging attention side got attention form beat form two men soon after taker spilled ring rock brawled angle angle gave series suplexes took rock great one countered ddt managed twocount fight continued outside ring taker coming life clotheslining angle repeatedly smacking rock taker rock got back ring taker dropped rock sidewalk slam get twocount rock rebounded grabbed taker throat chokeslammed him angle broke pin attempt likely would given rock title rock retaliated latching ankle lock kurt angle angle reversed move rock bottomed peoples champion soon after rock disposed angle hit peoples elbow undertaker angle tried take advantage disabling great one outside ring covering taker kicked two count outside ring rock took big swig nearby water bottle spewed liquid takers face blind champion taker stay disabled long managed overpower rock turn attention angle taker landed guillotine leg drop onto angle laying ring apron rock picked time break pin attempt kurt angle taker nailed rock ddt set chokeslam angle tried sneaking steel chair taker caught tomfoolery smacked hands referee got caught ensuing fire see angle knock taker silly steel chair angle went cover taker rock lay prone dead man somehow got shoulder up angle tried pin rock kicked out rock got landed angle sharpshooter angle looked like tap taker kicked rock submission hold taker picked rock crashed last ride dead man covered win angle raced picked taker ankle lock taker went delirious pain managed counter picked angle last ride angle put triangle choke looked like taker pass out rock broke angles hold find caught ankle lock rock got hold watched taker chokeslam angle rocky hit rock bottom taker refused go kicked out angle whirled taker angle slam rock bottomed great one pinned winner new wwe champion rockbr br finally decent ppv lately ppv good one winner give ppv abr br ,0 James mo tonight !!!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaa cant wait ,0 dad said would look cyberpunk see ok get wish luck boys n girls like seriously rn get phone wish luck tf u still readin need game,0 cadelofficial http twitpic com ved i love mountain but i live in belgium,0 first last posti dont know decided post tonight currently another ongoing mental breakdown im year old female tonight im going end life sis goes bed dad goes work moment im ready ive never felt hopeless ive got takes ive lost friends im burden parents im hooked meth almost month now ive coke times week life ruined options fix it mental states mess im diganosed ocd depression delusions child coming back im experiencing sleep paralysis exploding head syndrome falling asleep hallcuations im start lead something actual tonight end end everyones misery tonightgoodbye,1 i have trouble falling asleep i need something to regulate my sleep cycle back in the day i took zopiclone which wa good at putting me to sleep but early awakening were somewhat annoying i would like to hear the experience of people who have taken zopiclone and other z drug amp benzodiazepine how did they compare which do you like the most,1 another day i do not feel alive i do not feel like i matter i do feel like i am in the way and i do feel like my dream are my only escape lately i have had more anxiety or stress dream tho last one wa about the world ending and everyone rich enough could get a ticket to go on lot of huge spaceship ticket price wa low enough for my aunt and uncle to afford it left without a bother at all for me being alone it felt so strange seeing them board that ship and how little they cared the price wa like 00 000 dollar per person then added in wa pet and i have cat cat cost 00 per cat i could not afford it so i wa left alone just watching ship after ship leaving some malfunctioned and crashed it wa weird watching idk im just tired of feeling alone or abandoned even in my dream and how people dont get how much my cat matter to me they are here for me every day wish insomnia would go away too just another post from a living dead soul sorry,1 put number ill recommend song want share music,0 @hethfen Great thank you Have you been making music goodness today? ,0 i should ve died it s been a year since my last suicide attempt a year since the closest i ve gotten to dying a year since my greatest mistake of life see people talk ab leading up to the attempt or their life before that but after the failed attempt they just say they wanted to live and everything got better nah bro that s not this story a year later i m worst than before i just don t live alone anymore and there s more thing stopping me i still hate my life i still wan na die and honestly my depression got worst i just feel like i can express it le since then i had a brief period of being okay then again it all went to shit i no longer play college sport i dropped out of school time i fucked yo everything i cared about and apart from that i m in debt i self harm way more than i used to probably every day now i catch myself switching the knife i used to use for my bare hand a it s easier to play off and i just beat myself up every night until i can barely breath pounding at my chest or rib until it hurt to be straight and i need to curl up in my ball of sweat and blood and cut from the pounding i do to myself i feel invivible like no one give a fuck and neither do i i have to fake every emotion i have because i don t feel anything just complete numbness and pain i failed at everything i set out to do and i ve hurt people who didn t deserve my pain everyone who try to help find it too much and therapy seems too impersonal so it doesn t really help and i can t open up it really just feel like everything went to shit after that it feel like my rock bottom opened up and created a newer harder level called hell for me to play since i escaped from the real one when the pill didn t work and i catch myself holding my stomach half beaten sore and hungry from the day of starving myself due to lack of motivation and thinking god damn it i should ve died that day god fuckikg damn it those pill should ve killed me if they did i wouldn t have hurt who i have if they did i wouldn t have become this failure if they didn t i wouldn t have to fake if they did i wouldn t have to beat if they did i wouldn t have to pretend i m okay being alive when all i ever wan na do is die if they did i would finally rest i can t talk ab my feeling i m undeserving of that privilege i can t explain why i do the thing i do that hurt people the word just don t come out the feeling is unexplainable i can t explain why i just wan na die because if i did then i would be told i m taking thing for granted and i can t kill myself because it hurt to hurt people all i want is to be dead happiness stoped being an option for me long ago,1 im wrote redflag note im going stab death tonight im scared please help memy parents mormon im tired told im going hell gay everything wrong im tired never happy actually happy jsut faking it im tired hiding feelings scared mental hospitals ive already twice attempt hated anything im tired parents arguing fighting dad absolute asshole me im tired sister making fun making feel like human garbage dont want die want pain end death way jsut told crush liked him bi actually chance him declined it im tired feeling like trash uselesss piece garbage crying self sleep every night im weak cant even push up single pushup im embarrassment family especially dad ive breathing heavily last hours knife stomach jsut want push bad im scared please help me know ones going read want spill feelings die,1 cuz like troybolton is the hottiemcsuperbob omfgz my nail bud cry,0 pray for me please the ex is threatening to start sh at my our baby st birthday party what a jerk and i still have a headache,0 tried years cant anymoreyou know feel like persevered lot grew taking care severely ill mother father worked long hours take care medical bills even money family keep fed count one hand number times went clothes shopping family horribly narcissistic even let take advantage full college scholarship needed housekeeping family super bigoted wouldve disowned came transgender never actually came them thus sacrificing happiness also sacrificed grades social life them moved shunned socially awkward cast aside longterm boyfriend transgender suffer bone structure issues legs disallow walking properly makes difficult hold job struggled keep employed town retail chief field employment back living bigoted terrible family make feel like less person daily basis want die cant live awful goddamn people anymore worthless enough justify keeping alive anymore resolved fact tomorrow nights night,1 help sometimes want disappear live anymore stopped caring anything,0 "Me: *sigh*Mum: What's wrong?Me: TiredMum: Tired? You haven't even done anything!...........You don't have to do things to get tired. It's called depression. Hi, how are you doing?",1 pc died last night fffffff f f ffffffff f f f,0 someone kill me thanks advance filler depression filler filer filler filler hate everything filler filler one ever love filler,0 friend threatening kill right now need help dohe sent message telling contemplating redflag say,1 aiiane what s wrong with being an attention whore,0 fuck ted cruz,0 dude idc im friends singing song n word as long hard r im gonna sing im vibin idc posting saying shit song social media low iq one care around close friends youre vibing song able embrace vibe without thinking offensive,0 mystery meat school taste somewhat good starving,0 Yah!! Your right. Popeye also said this in the cartoons. I heard it somewere else. Everyone have a Blessed Day!,0 what keep me awake every night is trying to figure out whether my wife and kid would be better off if i actually did take my own life versus me continuing to exist in their life versus divorce and distancing myself from them a much a possible my best mate in my late 0 his mother took her own life when he wa about 0 year old and he hated her for it ever since my parent split when i wa and i have absolutely no memory of my parent a a couple you know a mum and dad together and i m pretty sure my dad left to live with his parent because he had wanted to take his own life and wanted to distance himself from u to minimise the impact he s still alive looking after his mother but he never had any passion for anything and always seemed to be just existing so i get it i m that way too i don t know of any example of father who decided to just live and not leave the family because all my childhood friend were also poor kid living in single parent household i have no friend now so i don t have any example to go by i can see how me choosing to stick around but the therapy and medication isn t making a fucking difference could make life shit for my wife and kid even tho he s alive i can t talk to my dad about anything deep or meaningful my so called adopted father my uncle is so full of b platitude and braindead socialist bullshit that i can t stand talking to him about this stuff i don t have any friend from church so i have nobody to teach me how i m supposed to pray about this shit so i m getting no answer from jesus god i effectively have nobody to talk to about this i don t want empathy i want fucken solution the mere fact that no matter what i do whether ten of thousand of dollar of therapy or a half dozen different medication over the last five year none of it ha made anything better fuck depression fuck adhd fuck doing a job for money fuck being productive fuck cognitive behaviour therapy fuck autism fuck aspergers fuck anxiety fuck just reach out for help fuck society and fuck god for making me born with this mental illness,1 im trying besti tried asking friends wanted hang out busy families tried offering go somewhere ive weekend spend time family several times no tried keeping mind busy trying create online business dad starts putting words mouth saying idea silly unenroll extra stuff signed school im math two years grade level yet dad still nerve compare people saying went wrong me hate much im sorry im perfect im sorry im sorry grandma lazy selfish person im sorry wish could better im sorry mom try spending time everyone always wants phones ipads watching tv whatever case is miss you miss family miss spending time family whenever try always end getting hurt someone blames attitude talking much want better im sorry,1 helpim crying wonna im sagfe neet talk,1 today all good is dead i feel a little funny,1 "I hate feeling like I'm sinking. Depression sucks, especially when you have 6 million things piled on top of you ",1 work making want tosomething somethinggot new boss beginning april cunt micromanaging yuongest manager bunch hes singling lot riding hard get stupid tasks done hes business couple weeks pulled office first week told need step role im listening getting resultsall forgot complete couple tasks trying regular job he asks stuff outside job description lot_ hes got working days straiight stocktake fine woulkd fine year old month old baby husband works full time clinical depression boss unaware last part however since give fuck rest pretty sure care prettttyy suure ive suffering pnd again well anyway im fluoxetine taking get stocktake varification day hurt right t want kill myself buuuut want stop feeling way feeling all would super work hr day yesterday hr today days hr shifts next days off yay yay days row lets see make it start getting zopiclone stash god im fucking retard babies need mebut cant even take care them job good i im cut this,1 Just finished implementing pretty much every feature I wanted for Network Defense 1.0 - Just gotta make fun maps now ,0 would willing award award offer best answer,0 got braces tightened teeth fucking hurt aaaaaaa,0 feel like thisi really even know say here ive never posted something like before know long post be sorry advance gets long thoughts also pretty jumbled right now sorry seems like im rambling structure post well so go feel guess im years old never good thing called life life never terribly bad beat molested no nothing like that never good life ive dreams goals never made come true get wrong im pretty smart guy im quitter feel like putting forth effort really like outdoors fishing hiking camping make feel good times im even going college environmental sciences next year well maybe know ill make long even going school something love get career something actually enjoyi think enjoy life know feel way do used good amount friends used girl loved pushed away know it mistakes ive made making like anymore ones turn away mistakes ive pushed away stopped putting effort stay friends them know why guess want truly hurt them end hurting me so ive become lonely want social im good it talk texttyping pretty well comes talking face face always find struggling find words matters much live small town almost everyone knows me would fine basically outcast school thats remember me cant really make new friends here two friends left keep things anonymous also keep things easy understand ill call john sam so john hes best friend anyone could ask for hes loyal fun smart strong willed would die anyone considers family know happened blessed way become friends him wed anything other were almost exact same well makes getting along easy were pretty fucked head humor sometimes even him subconscious stuff try push away try toit happens thankfully hes stubborn bastard kind knows feel try hide him ive become really good hiding it sometimes slip up know tell feel least little sam amazing caring nice smart funny beautiful outside truly beautiful inside too dated couple times never worked out better friends moved long ago lives couple states away text lot ive shared darker thoughts her caring best hard truly something text live far away two friends lot good ones even them amazing are feel lonely feel way life terribly bad feel like im cut life want livei truly do feel like cant it scares me,1 ok perfect movie means disagree overall imdb opinion really really bad watched lot hong kong flix s loved era dearly never saw black mask time saw last week first time apart embarrassingly poor dubbing dvd copy give option turn off movie contains raw energy bravado permeated hong kong movies time still stick guns opinion that comes action guys matter budget add element magic screen bourne supremacy casino royale mission impossible im knocking movies reckon lack spontaneity one feel regulated ever achieve it feeling filmmakers experimenting shot edited afraid leave blemishes learn lessons next time me makes watching movies fun dangerous,0 uzumaki visually astounding film however felt story line may sacrificed hardly character development left feeling personally detached film ironic puns aside film really draw many slight spiral effects stunning scene transitions first overall cinematography threw get used overall appearance start see beauty twisted film great movie looking looker much substance deeper meaningit great horror film actually scary suspenseful somehoweerie,0 end next week hope gonei cant function person future past ive come close backed out time different ill either die overdose destroyed liver either way do want out cant anymore goodbye thank past help,1 another entertaining travolta dance flick great music mood scenes debra winger beautiful like saturday night fever macho film features extremely improbable scenes beautiful women falling travolta almost begging sex them,0 @cathybaron There is an article about you in the Leader-News today! ,0 cant take anymorehello im suicidal year old egyptian male diagnosed ocd since years old ocd first manifested actions soon gone years old soon began manifest another way called pure ocd back realise it fear im pedophile realise harm someone im incest etc biggest thing im afraid im pedophile dont realise it got point cant look kids even hild little brother reason mind keeps triggering situations father met friend work meet friends family including daughter time thought pretty knowing ger age ask taught rude ask females name crush fetishised jerk asked age thought gonna years worst thing grandparents told fine egyptian culture one worst considering pedophilia egyptian ppl disgusting ok year old man marry year old girl said agenda almost believed it thought crush fine kept fetishising even full knowingly im stopped crush cuz mind stupid eventho looked like realized pedophilia manipulation introduced hentai jerked kinky stuff name lolislavebdsmrapeetc every time remember two incidents get anxiety run vains im one disgusting creatures called pedophiles im denying cant take ocd puperty freek denying say like is,1 "sau saal jiyo tum jaan meri http://bit.ly/Pj27i the lovely voice of Dilraj Kaur, sounds so much like Ashaji.. ",0 mentally died long time backwhats point feels like need die physically,1 know i m severely depressed but it s been like this for year i can t do another 0 year of this i turn on monday and i just so tired of this life already i have friend but there s no one i m close to no one to tell my day about not that there would be anything to talk about i do fuck all just barely surviving the day getting out of bed in the morning is so difficult i watch my friend able to go out everyday talk passionately about the thing they re interested in make plan for the future and i just wish i could do that i genuinely don t enjoy anything i m doing a degree i hate but it s too late now to change it and not be able to get out of bed to attend my lecture doesn t help i m on a waiting list for therapy but i m number so that could be up to a year wait i ve tried different antidepressant and they have done fuck all i just can t stop thinking about how it would be best for everyone if i got hit by a truck i am draining to be around i wouldn t be my own friend so god know what anyone else think my first thought about anything is negative someone asked me the other day what i want to do after university and i told them i want to be dead because in all truth that s what i want i don t want to be alive someone wanted me to do something and the first thing out my mouth wa yeah well i want to chuck myself in front of a train but we can t always get what we want didn t even mean to say it but it just always at the front of my mind and i don t even know if it s true because i m not at risk of doing anything i ve absolutely no intention of chucking myself infront of a train but i want to no longer exist sometimes i think i need to reach out to someone but who and why bother what are they gon na do i went to my gp about it and spoke to a mental health nurse but all that s done is given me antidepressant that don t work and put me on a year long waiting list i m meeting up with family for my st my and brother aunt and uncle and cousin that i haven t seen in a while all travelling to see me i should be looking forward to it but i m not i m dreading it because they ve all got their life together have something to live for they re gon na ask me how i m doing and either i lie though they will know i m not telling the truth or i m honest and bring the whole mood down and what point would telling them they can t do anything when i say i want to chuck myself in front of a train i m not just doing it for attention i don t plan to do anything of the sort but i think it s the only way i know of saying how i really feel because no other way describes it just saying i m not doing great doesn t really cut it i m doing fucking awfully and don t know how to stop it,1 need people please talk high school student great grades everything went virtual dont neccesarily think lockdown reason sething it barely get anything like fighting myself two opposing ideas head one me fighting everything failing almost every class feel innaddequite tried watch couple shows friends recomended ended watching stuff getting nothing done people still think answers almost everything sent school counsler bc failing opposite helpful demanded yes answer vague questions put spot said high schooler capable talking adults didnt get immediate response feel inadequate unintentionally disassociated everything nothing feels real want stop cant figure it is sure good way put it attempt edit dont respond commentmessage definitely read it im great words probably couldnt think anything respond sry,0 strange lights seen honolulu httpsyoutubedgcdzmhkwhttpsyoutubedgcdzmhkw,0 "@stephjonesmusic http://twitpic.com/6bclz - ahh, the 'almost half-naked badass' look, very nice ",0 weird feelinghi im young guy junior high school gotten suicidal phase semicolon tattoo stand redflag ya know minimal backstory care want redflag something anyone comes too guy barely knew shot stomach knots idk feel bad makes feel like throwing know sat lunch always joked cool someone id known long amount time fact knew one knows suicidal always happiest one feels like weird fucked dream though question is right feeling bad guy nowhere near close everyone else was,1 Depression is real https://twitter.com/markbattles317/status/906303122125017093 …,1 feel reason liveim unemployed mentally ill facing criminal charges borderline broke im verge ending it career prospects ruined now way hole,1 Follow friday yall ohhhh yea!,0 best forums get help suicidal thoughts anonymouslyim posting bit much wanted know anyone suggestions forums maybe small substitute therapy since im wait list,1 confusedlike lot people here idk want die tbh keep trying either wuss attempt doesnt workand try go theres reason must here try again idk anymore im tired broke keep trying life idk live makes sense,1 night young im bored mind wanna chat send anything pm heres discord mack,0 cant go back college reason stay alivemy college announced cant go back essentially entire year thing made happy first time ever felt happy live horrible home situation indefinitely see reason stay alive know ill eventually go back dont think survive another year want get kill,1 damnitgod fucking damn iti really feel like want die god damn it think were really fuckedand feel little bit better,1 tie noosethat moment watching youtube video tie noose,1 awww ellie sound so sick poor thing,0 could send picture failing something youtube video dont show face secs something either dm discord the holy sheep examples sharpening pencil breaks missing basked ball shot burning toast etc thanks much,0 "@MissSydneyJ Im good, lol... I feel awake ",0 "E just asked how to go around the pole. What next, clear heels? ",0 pepsi coca cola glass,0 gonna kill im fucking stupidm addicted failing school noone read anyway ahahah,1 @Cherrrylll I have missed you too. how are you lovebug?!?!,0 i m not here for support or anything i m simply here to find an easy painless way to do it i m sick of this place it s not getting better it won t get better only worse it s been this way for year man like literally year when i wa a kid the only thing that made i enjoyed wa video game and now i hate video game simply because i don t find any enjoyment in them smoking weed used to make me feel more numb or at least not like this but i m sick of it i m angry i m angry at my existence and i m angry everybody get so upset when i say i don t wan na endure anymore it s pathetic it s a if the pack animal want to include me in their pack just because i want to exit so somebody please tell me an easy way to leave this place,1 know parties happening like consult want go party,0 "I promise you if you're going through a rough time with anxiety, depression or whatever the case may be... journaling will help. so if you've had a bad day, WRITE. If you've had a good day, WRITE. IT WILL help. ",1 "@kanter Here is the link to the post about CEOS Must Use Social Media (note survey at end of post, please http://bit.ly/xb7Ww Thx!",0 nextthe thing getting convincing need christmas want christmas tell im needed christmas that what new years survive nothing close enough needed want given many times im fed,1 want get canceryes know upset many people understand runs family id never wish anyone except myself really pray get soon,1 doe someone feel the same i don t want to be alone with this feeling it s misery,1 pleas help person rredflaghttpswwwredditcomrasktransgendercommentskvcim_starting_to_plan_my_redflag_tw,1 @Psychobiotic @ajit9988 It's intriguing...but...I hear people talking about probiotics for depression and I wonder...is this vitamin supplements and herbal remedies for millennials approaching middle age?,1 give upwhen born die born die,1 voidthe void feel keeps getting bigger every single day thoughts get worse worse felt okay yesterday wanna end rn,1 weeks ago found mom spying night found confronted her thought stopped yesterday found still it ok get back thought something live place people open things things like gay people doesnot exist mother kinda open says problem going world until happening house also kind homophobic next time shes gonna it im gonna blast gay porn rooms tv dont think shell ever again going hilarious said people really open possibiloty shes never gonna confront it,0 urge want hurt ruin myselfi urge get face tattooi urge want get arrested crime go jail even crime commiti urge homeless sleep streets urge hurtruin myself,1 i don t know if i want to wipe who i am and have been for so long now or if i want to wipe ou my existence so long i ve told myself and forced myself to live just one more day because one day or another it will be different right one day or another it will be better right these day there s another loud thought i have not being here at all is different it is better it might not be the most pleasant choice but it is a choice all the same and it is the only choice that say you ll never have to hurt again you ll never have to hold your hand when you break you ll never ave to cry again it will all end forever this thought is the only thing that seems to care about me anymore,1 public transportation shitty everywhere cuz fax fresno area xpress sucks major asshole city really needs it pretty much everything else california except bart bay areas rapid transit also sucks ass seriously fax dont even cover fresno really horrible clovis roundup even worse,0 I am NOT going to allow my depression to take over my life again. my mental health is going downhill again and i'm not going to let it.,1 @death616 goodnight ,0 rd grade sister th grade whenever would look sister would always thing nerdy teachers pet days ago realized popular girl class everyone crush on know realize sooner every guy class used ask number one guys neighborhood switched schools could school sister like wtf,0 last school year first background meme alice jerk alice cute asian girl bin classes school nice obviously huge crush her weeks working balls ask out get rejected biggie tells girls school harassed ignore became huge jerk me luckily story permeated kids give shit popularity hang crowd stick status quo even seem know exists,0 girl told look like angel angels actually attractive theyre ugly see real description,0 @tiny_asian guhh i know! i miss you too.. :/ it's going good! more hours at work now and yeah.. living a chill life. neat stuff you?,0 http://shoppingfrugal.blogspot.com/ $5 off $25 at Pet Supermarket! Print now ,0 "I had to stop what I was doing to go pick up a bed for my visiting mother in law. I'm back! Let's see, where was I?",0 really need help im trying drive insanity kill easieri want eat days now meanwhile taking mg caffeine equivalent cans coke caffeine bunch risky things drugs im totally insane need help think go insane ultimately die,1 title says worked hard starting graduated high school get place work live own obviously many many set backs life general incredibly unfair complex me worked hard so hard hopefully end journey two years living job enjoy found then work working myself ampxbbut get enjoy future climate change politics instability world right now makes fear able to live first world country soo much thankful for good food family good uni enjoy life lot life still taken hard work redflag things work out self confidence destroyed long ago working restoring yeahh afraid world go shit feel like hard work put worth it would wasted years per se good moments sure went lot get thereampxbany comfort truth speaking would much appreciated everything went through hard work world going fear may get enjoy it,1 almost socialized today class today really extracurricular class instructor said got popsicles could go outside eat chat whatever hung around bit really talk anyone know anybody want butt without really knowing say closest got instructor asked wanted another said good since hands already mess one had idk though want able make friends talk people actually ends like end awkwardly hanging around within vicinity without really going anything actually something,0 feeling a bit better today at least i can walk i have no idea what happened yesterday on my way to school now ugh,0 @LuvBadger Sweet.... ,0 want drink beer want get caught want smell like alcohol ,0 My depression and anxiety vlog https://youtu.be/VEpZ8Js7h2M  via @YouTube,1 ill probably kill time parents diemany times past every winter last years actually point thing keeping alive thought much would hurt parents killed myself theyre dead reach point first time ill probably it theres nobody else life think couldnt cope redflag nobody whos close enough really really badly affected longterm basis,1 old friend invited farewell party normally get invites like going away another country honest never close went different universities get along well him dinner party people female friends girlfriend like guys whole night felt zoned out felt horrible friendly talking others felt faded alcohol made even worse one guys remarked barely talked anyone whole night felt crushed gave usual xcuse tired difficult leave right away first leave felt like giving officially came home cried yeah yr old dude cried party feel like loser matter much force always loser give even trying anymore tired it cannot even hang people feel like broken person,1 i am a late 0 s man in canada i have discovered i am bisexual my friend and family would be shocked i have always been with woman my whole life until last weekend i wa helping a coworker and his wife move we were finished and i needed to use the bathroom before i left when i came out they asked me straight out if i wanted to have sex with them i wa taken aback for sure but i felt my fantasy wa coming true it wa a wondeful experince never had a man give me oral sex before and i returned the favou http favour no r now i feel like my friend and family will reject me and i feel i should just end my life and aviod the hassle my http hassle my life is worthless and i feel after this happened i am done,1 "just found out she got pushed off a chair, hit her head on a wheelbarrow last night. I took a beating. Thank you vodka ",0 im alone homeless living tent woods eaten days conversation someone weeks sleep hours day due paranoia schizophrenia sleeping woods actually terrifying non stop anxiety feels like im going heart attack im edge time get moment relax breathe without worrying loneliness definitely worst part someone call literal fantasy fighting impossible im ready give up see point continuing see future this,1 whats even fucking point posting hereits like anyones going read say whatever try post posts get overlooked im last legs cant go anymore know else know reach anyone else im done im done like life big cosmic joke god huge bully enjoys torturing making life worse worse worse difficult cant take anymore want die want die want die anything else death would welcome completely open arms none fair tried reaching out able say didnt tried reaching out work reason supposed reach to much,1 aparntly making tea manly aunts uncles came grandmas house making tea aunt s already making wanted made cup uncle gave look sat next told make tea lady like tha fuck thats sexist wrong hate,0 well it sunny outside but im stuck indoors far far away from a window roll on dinner,0 thirty nine counting miss ,0 start texting crush m want start texting crush f know start many conversations besides wishing eachother happy birthday help suggestions welcome free ask questions helps,0 "Phew, thank God that the paper was manageable today! I shall rest well now that it's the vacation. ",0 seeing kind movies turns english humor often seen screen since days monty python man house badbr br brenda blethyn who first saw saving grace early year another must see way excels alfred molina does rest cast virtually unknown me turns great performances too film starts slowly gradually gains pace amusement midway tears eyes laughingbr br all all funny english movie thousand times better supposedly funny garbage comes hollywoodbr br ,0 "@Nguyen I've still got a Jornada, should we start a museum? ",0 wondering why gamebattles is down http bit ly qzuuy,0 Is there still a stigma around depression in the workplace? Read what we have to say https://buff.ly/2GHTiK8  #employmentlaw pic.twitter.com/V9qH2ZACvF,1 hey all creating depression playlist lol songs listen repeat also fuck depression song listen loop,1 hold tight it s nearly the weekend here s roger inferno attending a seminar to deal with his negative thought like a totally normal person depressed superhero webcomic mentalhealthmatters depression superheroes webcomics comic positivevibesonly itsokaytonotbeokay http t co erpvmv l n,1 @ishanibutalia Haha. Have fun in Kashmir ,0 could hera girl school near recently killed herself age hurts never knew her stories tell things common suicidal thoughts act out head went different outcomes etc want die know im going it however exactly trust cant even productive even want to knowing another girl went saddens me want anyone else feel way wish life nicer wish must shit world death saw scenario outcomes play out saw everyone grieve hurt including myself wish option would fix lives easily want girl did hate took someone elses death realise this ive posted many times even nice advice help im sorry,1 wanttss to go out,0 Nick is always a trendy topic ,0 warning may contain spoilers let rosalina help mario lead way smile game brighten day br br stars require luck skill bring much thrillbr br blasting stars show mario luigi travelers are br br walking upside never fun especially final battle koopa near sun br br this truly super awesome game absolutely deserves place nintendos hall fame,0 mom made fun gf face hate gf dad came house once could hang me last name happens rhyme jerking well yknow basically mom called insert name jerkingoff mom would beat shit her day lost respect mom,0 lately everything feels greyand cant seem shake feeling feels numb cold empty great got back right path everything unpredictable makes afraid wish could shake feeling know get better always do even feel like energy left time bit difficult guess miss friends much cat whenever feel pain much handle idea there waiting me comforts nothing feels quite like used im guessing never im hoping better times us know make everything constantly changing even hard sometimes welcome it im making effort want negative want feel better now hope eventually redflag seems oddly comforting know still fight know heal again know love all,1 first serious relationship even though know anhedonia nothing giving joy right now boyfriend calls love life wants plan rest life mei relationship him see working long termi want run away move away feel horrible absolute star amazing feel like obliged him miss him feel trappedis depression luring ugly head super normal everything fizzle year depression love boyfriend year,1 one asked wanted born like wtfso hate waking hours spent working working working want get hardly anything cities usa violent crime impoverished shit holes tell best place be see got hiv health conditions find enjoyment life calmly explained parents immoral child much less them world sucks much find horrible,1 boyfriend needs helpmy bf severly depressed suicidal ive asked get therapy many times hadnt yet im scared worried nd yesterday scary day told sister check constantly nd stuff rly think needs professional help right now want talk dad tell dad maybe consider taking bf mental hospital smth im worried abt mistreatment hes black man severe depression im veryscared might treat him think continuing untreated cause harm nd think rn thing tht might help mentsl hospital idk im also worried bx hes doesnt consent assume wont accept hospital wht ur high redflag risk tht different im scared worried dont know wht right thing yo is ik job like isnt getting help needs nd im worried waiting bring dont want die depressed feels like nothing get better nd everyone hates nd never right words say imnot equipped nd causing much stress love much nd wanna help way can feel small nd powerless want things get better deserves world,1 wo ist die studie eigentlich ver ffentlicht oder machen wir ffentliche diskussion jetzt einfach ohne faktenbasis tipp f r alle die auch schlechte studien machen wollen einfach die spezifischen longcovid symptome nicht testen kipptisch usw daf r depression nicht abgrenzen,1 feel trappeddo ever feel like never going able enjoy life accomplish dreams trapped mind seeing people succeed makes sad knowing could spot instead trapped thing see future redflag often sit porch middle night thinking mistakes opportunities took them makes sad times coming back way see redflag somehow would fix stuff want like this yeah idk do,1 First day of summer vacation at home with the boy. ,0 close giving upgive up dont much left family know it incredible irreplacable man makes smile sometimes see nothing else lost house two weeks homeless real best friends turned faux uni sucks therefore grades suck hometown people talk shit me oh may hpv symptoms may virus reason live hoping turn fine maybe thinking failed every way possible homeless two weeks isnt much is overwhelming tired today birthday say happy birthday all not whatever may end anyway,1 "In High School,"" the Kids Are Not All Right """"With social and academic pressure mounting"","" a teacher shares what he's learned about tracking his students' mental well-being."""" http://ow.ly/uFiS30jqqDK  #mentalhealthawareness #depression #anxiety #ketamine #ketamineinfusiontherapy pic.twitter.com/oAuMSBQhtE",1 anyone wanna chat rn im home chillin pm u wanna chat m,0 gonna fine damn damn damn damn dan dam damnm,0 wanted brag got th percentile english psat without minute studying im even native thank coming ted talk,0 want peacejust want done want stop godamn coward body aches mind keeps rotting want peaceful sleep,1 ismadinter en d pression,1 saved life dont know feeltoday called police attempted redflag really know feel it texting family hates us worry stop forever know feel,1 @alibalijeweller I dont know ,0 pepperoni roll in l a i called valentino s they said that they had sausage roll but no pepperoni roll http tinyurl com cec ka,0 waiting for my flight slumming it in the departure lounge,0 opinions cinnamon bun girl would love hear ur thoughts cinnamon girl,0 keep telling ill later tomorrow never do feel like wasting away life chance things want do sometimes wonder push things back far if even know it chance things really live disappears say chance really live right really feel like living feel like existingwhat push things far back existence disappears want do go pursue dreams die scares much guess scared died right now entirety life would mean nothing know matter hard try life really mean anything want life mean something die right feel like will wasting life away,1 Yesterday was all very fuck .Today go out with my friends kisees colleagues !,0 your language show your depression get well soon those who are using mask willingly or by compulsion will not support you even u may be right,1 need encouragement help please,1 Cannot Wait For Sims 3 And My New Shoes.. ,0 i know problem have always existed many people who are depressed now have been depressed before all of this shit happened but i can not help but feel like two year of our life have been taken away from u most people my age had to waste one year or more of their life doing college university remote i personally have witnessed multiple war and conflict break out over this time so much death so much stress so much grief anxiety and sorrow covid isn t the worst of what ha happened recently i feel like i don t need to mention what the world ha been going to hell a lot of people are writing that nothing seems fun well that s because it s not we re not allowed to do anything we re only allowed to be miserable and watch each other suffer emotionally financially mentally physically where ha everything went wrong maybe this is all a cruel joke well it s not funny,1 tldr help support partner starts treatments severe depression redflagmy partner suffering depression recently prescribed lustral help given option signing work also started therapy really happy getting help feel bit blind foolish understanding bad become her want make sure supportive can anyone advise trying dohere ideas read far would appreciate feedback on positivity in negativity do complain partner anything take others take share house work cleaning keep house clean mess redflagful flowers often empathise sympathise how would good active listening remember her me take anything says personally read possible side effects lustralthanks advance guidance apologies advance violates rules checked maybe missed something support partner suffering depression,1 u ever say something u know stupid someone u something talk feel like ive made look stupid could talk someone,0 hate myselfim failing half classes mess everything up always try homework find self procrastinating like right it pissed parents much trust want run away kill self,1 it april stop snowing,0 i know my life ha been flipped upside down when i just thought in my head that some ramen sound good,0 suicidal girl met online suddenly stop suicidal become happy never realized till blocked me liked could date kept getting thoughts date year blocked became confused found waited year started getting suicidal thoughts again helped get rid thoughts never realized never told want date feel like cannot live without her talked many girls online n person feel like one actually like talk to people say move know explain cannot live without her feel like found person actually fell love messed know want know ur thoughts,1 alone king kch din baad ye bhi chale jayenge depression main lmao,1 disappointedso im writing mobile hospital bed please forgive formatting length made attempt little week ago almost worked mother law walked bedroom which never does found unconscious tell me even minutes later would late diagnosed type bipolar year ago clarified ptsd induced bipolar time started taking meds again january admitted psychologist psychiatrist suicidal instantly changed meds gave impression working wasnt little week ago waited kids asleep beds went bathroom took recently filled meds considering take mood stabilizers plus meds migraines something else sleep lot stomach started feel heavy that felt great felt free knew matter time put letters written kids husband parents put sure theyd found laid waited remember falling asleep feeling like finally free fast forward days im waking icu mother asleep chair next bed one sisters boyfriend asleep couch room life me cant understand im still alive work whole body hurts tubes coming arms im pissed worked got explanations realized mother law called ambulance thing feel hatred hate picked walk in leave alone let die know shouldnt cant help it want here perfect plan ruined it im stuck hospital life want in people cant understand much hurts breathe every day completely sucks,1 mostazzza im sorry i ve failed you,0 @EHayen I think you'd have a fun talk radio Big plans for it?,0 @MazeRunnerMovie Love this i am gonna watch it 24/7 i won't have social life i will have newt depression hours only,1 "I am home from work, drinking coffee ",0 gen z want live theres viral video tiktok right know yearold saying hopes everyone related cop dies mean yeah fuck cops theyre assholes fuck wrong people xbox modern warfare i hope whole fucking family dies type joke people genuinely want happen,0 grownup lonely thingi make many mistakes grownup anyone blame yourself grownup fix mistakes grownup responsible everything do crushing lonely confusing think making right choice wrong choice think right thing wrong thing spend days weeks months sometimes years working make life better family fail again christmas worst theres nothing like christmas make feel like horrible parent tired alone yet keep going day day day keep waiting silver lining right im slogging endless sea gray,1 fact ive never stacked donuts dick astonishing like one reason god given mf coochie collapser done smh ask top donut glazed,0 so ive had a few small victory here and there which have made me noticed how we all make stuff 0x worse than how it actually is idk if it gon na be a long post but hopefully not so my main struggle is health anxiety it shocking how much it changed me ive always lived with it but it became a thing a bit before the pandemic obviously the pandemic made it 0x worse anyways i wa not working barely working out and barely had a social life isolation so i knew i had to do something i enrolled into a master degree in europe i live in mexico so it a big move anyways coming wasnt that hard actually the first few week it wa easy i walked around my new city went out etc my health anxiety wa still there but diminished so now i start class and ive always been a shy person i dont come across a shy somehow but i am and i wa having a hard time feeling like i had friend one thing about my anxiety is that im super functional i may be dying in my head but im still at school and whatever but the thing is i dont have social anxiety i love meeting new people but because i wa in my head dying or thinking that i wa having a stroke or something the nerve were translating to me talking to people i felt odd weird and that everybody noticed im sure there were time were they did but here come the good part a friend frome home came to the same course a me but she came in a few month late so about a month ago when she got here and went to a few class she asked me how are you friend with everybody i wa like huh i feel like im forcing myself on these people and only talk back if they talk to me i dont feel like i have friend ofc i didnt say that but i told her oh yeah whatever lol second victory wa today we have a class where a teacher talk all the time and barely let u talk she had u gather in team for a debate and when it came to me she stopped the class and said you meaning me im gon na pick who you go with cause youre a chit chatter and talk to everybody so they all want you in their team thinking i would have no problem debating since i dont have an issue talking in public at least in my class i wa shocked i still felt like a weirdo sure i did crack a few joke here and there but didnt really feel like people would noticed if i didnt show up but idk it made me realize how even when my mind is crumbling and im on edge people dont notice a much a i think if i told you all the stuff im thinking while im talking to people yall would laugh is this headache a stroke or maybe covid is this twitch a clot am i gon na faint now is this pain from overdosing on pain killer last week and my kidney is about to fail that is just an example of what my mind is thinking while im trying to have a conversation with people this is kind of a wake up call because it all in ur head ive been worried about stroke and disease obsesivelly for year and literally knock on wood everytime everything come back clear and the only think that worrying ha brought me is not enjoying where im at of course it easier said than done but omg im gon na try to remember this everytime,1 Mmmm Good morning Tweets! I'm taking a personal day today and am now sipping a cup of coffee in my jammies. ,0 want alivr anymore think take longer problem feeling hate everytying happening especially breathng want alive thibk kill myself want feeling idk stop it tired,1 pmarca tszzl how doe this gel with rising loneliness and depression though social medium usage is in fact associated with these thing http t co z9 fmrok w http t co hc mf gqmq,1 office se golden spoilers started watching show swear ending dwight rolling shit funny also leaves questioning future builds good character development show focuses main peeps wacky times switch jims new office really get feel feels amazing episode,0 posting im longer lonely day forgot post yesterday make up,0 Finally off to bed after ipod took ages to load but now ready for my journey to bognor tomorrow ,0 sighi understand prettiest boy school kid intelligent best math perfect grades national karate champion multitalent everything puberty hit ditched girl said liked me thought manipulating me never got back look years later im sexually emotionally frustrated kissless virgin psychologically intellectually spiritually physically devolved underdeveloped miserable pathetic loser going lower lower tons psychological pain depression homophobia incestphobia ocd generalized social anxiety hatred towards human race opposite sex etc trying pass exams need studying unprosperous phylology college shitty town masochistic people bad financial situation family bonds zero social life cant look girls girls cant look me ever touch girl thats virgin killing monday turn like this why thats question edit top fell buttom elementary school teacher never believe im person,1 diving deeper auras galaxiea first series hope god species auras going age order lets begin first list galaxiea physical social descriptions auras found herehttpswwwredditcomrimmersivedaydreamingcommentsmkqcmaintroducing_my_god_species_the_aurasutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumwebxampcontext basic info galaxiea oldest auras firstborn council also largest aura pris standing feet ear galaxiea siblings children galaxiea everything physical universe creates controls stars planets black holes neutron stars pretty much everything else inhabits space decides moves often planning course entire galaxies hundreds thousands years ahead time like tier auras galaxiea possesses telepathy telekinesis uses constantly keep items floating around well lift move items as well upper auras talk telepathy physical description galaxiea tallest auras feet ear tall stocky muscled wellbuilt short fur dark blueblack color eyes rich dark purple several planets rings asteroid belts floating around time never touching fur large yellow planetlike rings dance around neck tail ears ankles like jewelry asteroid belt floats spine neck tail weaving around rings planets varying sizes colors orbit rings asteroids none items actually hold life simply shrunkendown versions real thing galaxiea wears show sometimes especially bored galaxiea pick one planets float around her inspecting it may ever play rings watch asteroids soar around her doesnt often breaks cold uncaring front galaxiea puts on personality positive traits wise good foresight thinks long term caring good negotiator talker good memory watchful knowing soft inside cares around wont admit loyal static rarely changes mind set likely wont change always open help others never ask help careful words always speaks intent doesnt speak often always worth listening negative traits closed guiltridden blames whenever something bad happens auras critical stubborn tends come mean harsh struggle understand emotions especially complex ones doesnt trust others often tries things struggle asking help difficult please harsh criticism neutral traits cold stoney exterior opinionated blunt thinks long term fails see actions impact people stickler rules believes place reason tends harsher side punishment grading believes failures promote inspiration become flustered confronted always wants maintain cold exterior causing limit things doesnt enjoy listing others talk prefers alone enjoys company hates gossip believes people say things speak fun facts galaxiea sworn children saying one has ever will share power final galaxiea loves murder mystery books genre read several bookshelves filled murder mystery dozen languages line room know though since galaxiea reads room slightly embarrassed personal servants know occasionally sends retrieve new books absolutely loves read book owns least times never admit wants look fancy regal galaxiea change items float around her may add rings head like halos planets around neck like necklace never wears regular jewelry instead uses items fashion galaxiea sometimes seen tutoring young schoolage auras physics laws always get flustered closed whenever someone points out galaxiea one auras enjoy swimming auras enjoy getting wet warm days galaxiea may seen dropping floating items beside priss lakeshore diving in says water reminds floating space doesnt swim often believes undermines cold exterior since galaxiea blood family close many auras closest friends time death electricity though electricity tier aura galaxiea spends fair amount time him led rumors spreading around pris level relationship say simply work together powers relate closely intertwine often others say intimate relationship neither galaxiea electricity spoken rumors though galaxiea hates rumors blind male convinced let go still snarls anyone catches talking it hope guys like this please tell think ask questions would love answer them,0 pro adhd meds kinda focus eat less food looks disgusting even though know need eat haha get cripplinng headaches dont take meds eat like goblin feel like shit hate everything,0 suicidality made go crazyi keep internally laughing cant stop im barely close eyes keep laughing internally fucked think might crazy extremely afraid get diagnosed keep flashbacks day held captive hospital horrible time really deserved cant longer help,1 sarahlsharp oops feel like i m breaking a few heart now,0 im nervous basically start lockdown falling friend got along stopped talking one day according mutual friend going sit right next class together help please two days going happen,0 attempted redflag once didnt pan out now wish access fentanylmy attempt redflag took eight instead four trazedone got sixth pill figured fuck it every day realize much loser last day hopeless future is im almost im white hetero male high school diploma nothing else ive applied hundred jobs year ive two interviews never called back ive unemployed year now thats saying much last job mascot needless say doesnt come close even paying food live disability im ugly acne scars rosacea im little overweight cant afford clean clothes pay four days food without using food bank relying family starving girls look like im cockroach never get smiled public dont see point studying get technical school because thats afford student loan get computer engineering technology government take earn spend time working hard get job fry cook money taken away you enough some fun myself doubt id get promoted ive never promoted ive lost jobs since employment record credit score filth cant afford cant qualify move better apartment end dont mind leaving family behind theyll think well hes better place now would truth every day inch closer closer towards homelessness apartment building cock roaches mice god knows else makes living much desirable actually existing wish fentanyl days want go it day know ill day again,1 mother suicidal thoughts making sad toomy mother father split almost years ago currently lives brother give shit her last week one worst fights talk then today came tell died life pay more im im deal fact mother wants kill constantly alone hand deal father also difficult person deal with also going several phases life time energy dedicate mother since im living mother hard follow know determined commit strong suicidal thoughts today deal fairly well them fear anything happens mother know could handle suicidal thoughts well time passes mother loses reason live falls redflag please help me know else do like im loop takes get mother makes sadder talk today tomorrow morning ill schedule session psychologist soon possible her else get thoughts head,1 guys talk life good bad even extremes want know youre okay feel loved,0 anyone ever insults pay attention constantly person either get person stop coming creative comeback not likely succeeding ask kindly stop compliment them either weirded change views you either way theyre gonna keep distance time,0 @SHEISTHEONLY oh well i wont loose hope till the day is over ,0 hi try commit redflag tonighthello guys mg clonazepam kill someone chased alcohol vodka probably urgent need answers,1 im killing soonill kill soon thats promise truly mean it see go anymore even good life good people world full sad unfair things im good thing asset world,1 woman talk cbt phone minutes information,0 parents make feel like worthless human beinghi all ive looked many posts teensadults issues parents wanted share story since none tell to feel like treat shitty cant handle anymore whenever something proud reaction underwhelming even feel like anymore never great school especially elementary school joined highschool woke got good grades even upgraded higher level never noticed that small minor thing causes uprough need talk stupid never reach anything july graduated second time college dads reaction nothing absolutely nothing like expect anything mother simple reaction like goodjob son well done would sufficient day passed since graduated morning mom dad nerve talk cousin university graduated lawyer man made feel like shit like even want child always story whenever something im proud need bring someone else even better beginning thought sense encouragment know like keep going way say sense love caring makes want kill myself know mental health issues like depression stress cause poor childhood mom brought everthing ive done right feel like best thing could accomplish yet nerve still lecture me im sad right now whenever im home tell go work go away never want here yet mom always home never works father work still get money government like work yet like ish year old im right ive working since years old years restaurant years fabric produce glass ive working since beginning teenage days yet nerve say something like uggh know im saying things cant take anymore remember mom used k euros money kept pay debts house cause father got stupid shit like even worth going uni anymore sorry long story,1 Car-Scrapyards is now on Facebook: http://bit.ly/16QF7w ,0 dying soon know itim sorry,1 test pls ignore pls ignore this trying test reddit ban posting,0 "@pAinxiNtHehEart thx, yes i dont like summers in nyc, i was born in July, but im def fall/ winter person ",0 im okay starting careim just really even want talk want straight kill ive tried made everyone miserable obviously failed even see point things anymore nothing gives joy hope like life one long day nothing ever changes im point want break things hurt just uh even know cant get im feeling words pointless try,1 Up til 7 am. Talking to casey. it was perfect,0 girl sending mixed signals think need outside input one ive friends girl years recently as past year so talking constantly weve talking caps months joke often tells misses me sending emojis back forth batches sent emoji time calls best friend said snap couple months back looking date seeing im socially inept figured id get input outside perspectives want ruin friendship idk shes not thoughts looking far this,0 so i would describe myself a someone who is pretty high functioning in term of living with moderate anxiety although in certain triggering situation it can become completely debilitating and a huge obstacle to making progress in my life on wednesday i have a job interview and i am just nauseated and so anxious even thinking about it it s only 0 minute long but i think it s 0 0 whether i ll straight up have a panic attack during the interview and i m absolutely dreading it the inability to speak to think in a straight line to remember anything to breathe properly feeling totally disoriented i m not trying to manifest it here but it s just the reality of how my body reacts to these situation and in year of my working life i have never come close to conquering it i have a wonderful partner i have been with for nearly a year now but she ha never really seen what anxiety can do to me when it get bad i guess i ve just been really good at avoiding situation that trigger it she s very sympathetic and encourages me to prepare but it s clear she fundamentally doesn t know what it s like to be debilitated by situation to the point of panic attack i tried to explain but she think if i prep then i ll just be able to speak without issue but it just doesn t work like that for me at all prep can only get me so far and half the time i ll just get a few sentence out then descend into panic i am so anxious just thinking about wednesday that i ve barely made progress with my prep anyway although i ll try my best to do some more over the next couple of day sorry this is just a rant and isn t a very meaningful post i guess i m just desperate for people to understand how horrible it is to feel so anxious and to know you re basically setting yourself up for a potential panic attack with an audience hope i can find my courage to get through it,1 Had in awesomeee day )!! YAYAY haha that rhymed.,0 @frozenblueeyes my pleasure! ,0 ive lost hope futurei think im going live much longer ill never accomplish anything plans future im okay living forever poverty anything theres way get help one wants help me nothing anything do,1 "@emilyoftexas Oh, I'll be following along on your blog. I like it. ",0 want talk skype tarkanon voice ill delete hours im boredim american im years old retired im trip around world,1 matter timeive forgotten feel good myself im addict im chronically unhappy im treatment addiction mental health im grossly unhappy relationship nowhere else go nights around much sleep basement building used manage im riddled crippling anxiety im fantasizing killing myself feels like im getting closer passing day im broke medicated unhappy hope know live normal life think even want to want sleep wake up feels like healing worth process anymore,1 ireland fact bed that going tired situated ireland,0 drug arrived takes couple sniffs even know dying ideal way go day goes getting tempted use it feet away makes feel comfortable it months cycle anhedonia looking forward nothing suicidal purpose life like that none want feel need to stopping,1 bang average teenage girl actually lot different weird youd think depressed ask stuff talk tk,0 *talking about me*anxiety: he's overdepression: never started,1 need ask favour someone come hold eyelids open hour thanks x,0 Low-functioning depression mode. ,1 great cinematic musicals made twenty year spell rightly labelled golden era genre musicals prior that musicals since true classics seem invariably made period singin rain american paris band wagon seven brides seven brothers oklahoma south pacific king i many more stand tall much cherished products age perhaps last great musical golden era carol reeds oliver freely adapted dickens novel vibrant musical film version successful stage production magnificent film winner six oscars including best picture awardbr br orphan oliver twist mark lester lives miserable existence workhouse mother died moments giving birth him following incident one mealtime booted workhouse ends employed funeral parlour oliver doesnt settle particularly well new job escapes troubled days makes long journey london hopes seek fortune oliver taken wing child pickpocket called artful dodger jack wild turn works fagin ron moody elderly crook charge gang childthieves despite unlawful nature job oliver finds good friends among new family also makes acquaintance nancy shani wallis girlfriend cruellest feared thief all menacing bill sikes oliver reed many adventures oliver discovers true ancestry finds actually rich welltodo background chances reunited real family jeopardised bill sikes forcibly exploits oliver making accomplice particularly risky ambitious robberiesbr br oliver brilliantly assembled film consistently pleasing eye excellently acted talented cast moody recreates stage role considerable verve stealing film youngsters energetic performance fagin lester wild well young pickpockets wallis enthusiastically fleshes nancy role reed generates genuine despicableness sikes musical numbers staged incredible precision sense spectacle onna whites oscarwinning choreography helps make songanddance set pieces memorable lively performers skillful direction carol reed also play part unforgettable tunes include food glorious food consider yourself youve got pick pocket two id anything oompahpah immensely catchy songs conveyed via well put together sequences film thoroughly entertaining experience never really loses momentum entire minute duration sit back enjoy,0 girl school said ugly eyes idea means regular dark brown eyes anyone tell means someone tells youyou ugly eyes least let know im ugly,0 im wet said put much embalming fluid,0 find less attractive girls actually attractive like flat chest dont care ass dont care glasses dont care braces dont care chubby dont care why way mean guess good im genuinely curious,0 "@kathylewisart I Wish I Can Perform to You one of these days, it woulkd be a Pleasure, Thanx!",0 Great first sermon by @phillipsc today is a 2 eucharist SPF 30 day....,0 @tteague Send them to join the MPs - cheaper if we discredit the whole lot of them all together ,0 @ChynaDoll74 Good morning to you too ,0 know one asked wanna flex that getting go kart hahahhahaha loser go kart ya loser joke filler filler filler filler,0 woke please help im trying watch movie nerdy guy glasses goes hogwarts idk called feel really stupid,0 guys wish friend happy birthday would really appreciate it thanks guys heres youtube videohttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdubdaydbe,0 "Hi guys!! C'mon it's Saturday greaaaat!! Love Saturdays...Good Morning to all of you, guys..wish you a fuc*ing great Saturday! ;) Love xx",0 let spare dream suffering depression years ongoing headw meds side almost major life evens graduations travelling solo cover everything recently seen change destructive behaviour evolving pill popping major alcoholism sober now isolation even recent thing seem piercings professional experience whatsoever stick poke gave pricing tattoos separately prior idea scare me past months given least piercings night confines bathroom ashamed even though live alone never hidden coping mechanism seems foreign externally puppettered idk asking anymore feels like behaviours brain adjust according going headampxbi sorry incoherent mind mush nose hurts like bitch last piercing gave lol half bad immediate response self destructive behaviour evolve change circumstances sometimes smarter us,1 hi about an hour ago i opened my bearded dragon enclosure and picked him up to find him dead im so distraught and i feel like such a terrible person he wa about year old i ve had him since i wa and i m now he wa year old when i got him in the last month or so my mental health ha been very bad and i ve been working day a week and not had time to care for him at all this is my fault and i m so upset he wa counting on me to take care of him and i couldn t i m so disturbed by the way he looked when i picked him up his eye were black and sunken in and he wa completely limp i don t think i m ever going to forgive myself for this i just feel like the most awful human being alive i m going to miss him so much he wa really special to me even though i ve been unintentionally neglectful there s so much i could have done i just don t know what to do i feel so evil ha anyone else lost a pet,1 i have rewritten this post a hundred time and i have lurked this page trying to build up the courage to write my own i don t even care if anyone read this but i need to just finally get it off my chest a i have no one to confide in due to my career if i get help for my mental health i am basically saying goodbye to everything i have been working towards but i can t take it anymore everyday i pretend to be the picture perfect person who only feel happiness i hide how i am truly feeling and it ha become so exhausting to just get out of bed everyday my whole life ha been filled with abandonment and people who have only used me for their own personal gain no one ha ever truly cared for me not even my so called family i have isolated myself from everyone around me to prevent any further pain in doing this i have isolated myself from feeling any emotion at all i ve tried working through my abandonment issue and began to let people in and trust more just for them to show me exactly why i cut everyone out to begin with i am always alone and i feel a though i am no longer living i am just here taking up space and air i have felt this way for long that i don t even know if i have any real emotion anymore i don t know what to do i just want to feel something again,1 midnight ramblings volume iii quick side note series call that simply mental vomit whenever feel fatigued usually fallen asleep midnight name simply reflection state mind time drafting new entry high school relationships doomed fail everyone get separated opportunities availability funds pull everyone universities trade schools careers point failure relationships parties involved become seriously depressed while whats point risking happening multiple times high school ends become distant memory shared camaraderie with risk dating even possibility two eventually spending life together thing love first sight everyone including me seems confuse romantic love platonic love damn time personal believe one prerequisites romantic love two people complete belief maximum growth love people beyond fact brains high school aged people rewriting decision making parts said brains everyone high school relationship probably knows subconsciously bound go toilet point causing work hard need keep relationships afloat even long fuck mind destroying garbage otherwise known dating,0 i highly expect to get a lot of pushback on this one but hear me out for year i ve been in a horrible mental space with no hope of getting out the way i see it i never consented to being here i no longer desire to live on this planet and i m scared to do the deed myself a far a i m concerned either my mom or dad should be required to take me out since they re the one who brought me into this world fin,1 today might last dayi trying wait longer really couldnt take it somethings might help regain hope life also fun things hopefully not last day really cant,1 i m not worried about them cutting my hour down so i start at 0 00am every day except i may have to give up my morning starbucks,0 wish knew way kill myselfthis worst year life taught hope left wish could kill dont way without making sure wont cause pain feel like really want method go finally say goodbye world dont want keep living feel like choice ive thought giving brain damege would lead even suffering dont want live dont want suffer either im lost,1 watching part dreams minecraft smp literally like made sad disappointed many streamers many try hard watched sapnap half hour now literally did nothing probably made well dollars watching him literally wasnt entertaining sad could sit mining blocks repeating thr thing times his height would succeed anyone else could imagine habe multiple friends absolutely love streams try get them literally makes sense like like like wont judge that literally makes sad confused ig rant like legitimately sad bc it,0 dear reddit im gay soooo recently ive questioning sexuality ive come conclusion im homosexual friend group knows parents dont tell eventually dont think need know yet maybe theyll even find own thank reading,0 my car arrived maybe i ll get it on thursday damn paperwork,0 buy gift myself im online black friday shopping european want gift suggestions for deserve it heck yeah selfcare expensive like game consoles phones stuff got ideas,0 red roses mean so first things first quite introvert never able grasp many social conventions years ago throwing party th birthday nothing big always invite handful friends go activity this time escape room well return games gifts cake friend good friend knew since happens girl gifted single red rose main present also great gift card comic book store remember correctly internet gave conflicting answers never knew meant sure hell going ask anybody that yesterday asked mom told meaning rose depends color white rose means apology pink rose means friendship red rose means love baffled thats really true missing signs smart funny ngl quite good looking girl hitting me havnt lot relationships surprise oblivious ways love months birthday however switched schools introvert am lost contact point still confused little angry myself feel dumb thought might well ask reddit know whether go try get bottom this whether overthinking this oh yeah ask question point basically question title,0 need advice girlfriend killed ive depressed years counting now need someone talk to,0 i have been suffering for eight long month after a girl i thought would be interested in being my girlfriend ended thing and left me out to dry it wa a pretty short span of dating and hooking up we talked during the summer and only saw each other in person for a few week but the aftermath ha been the worst thing i ve ever gone through in my entire life i have alienated myself from her because i couldn t stop texting her and asking what i did wrong or saying thing i thought i did to make her not interested and expect her to confirm i am on a no contact basis with her now which is probably for the best because i don t think she even cared that much about me to begin with i can t handle the fluidity of dating how people can just leave something if it isn t working out for them for whatever reason and not know what that reason is i ve already come up with every possible situation or reason in my head that it didn t work out and it s honestly been driving me over the edge since last summer i can t take this anymore luckily it s never gotten so bad that i threatened her with suicide because i remember her saying she had an ex who did that to her and it sound like an awful thing to have done to you but that thought did cross my mind where i wanted to present that a an ultimatum to her if she couldn t just tell me what the exact reason or reason were she wanted to end it but i would never actually do that due to it being shitty to put another person through it s not enough for me to accept that we lived more than three hour from each other or she had a bad long term relationship end and wasn t trying to get into anything serious or she told me she wa feeling suffocated by me it s like the spongebob episode with patrick s secret box i just want so badly to hear what it might have been like she would tell her girl friend behind closed door no matter how bad it might sting or hurt but i know i ll never know precisely what she wa thinking it is so difficult to just move on or let it go like people always say for dating situation like this that to me just sound impossible i just hate dating i hate how some people have such ease jumping from date to date or going on multiple date with multiple people at once or talking to many people at one time it just make me feel so overwhelmed and upset that that seems to be the norm in society i can t take it it make me want to die just knowing that s what i m going to have to deal with if i want to have any hope of finding someone to be with let alone get over this last girl,1 poison wayi feel control feel calm,1 anyone else use facadereposted due lack responses so read another posts know year old highschool clear things up tired using ghetto facade time always act ghetto everyone school hide weak shy quiet pussy hiding inside hell reason many friends way act around people course facade flaws whenever like teacher adult comes near me parents around back real piece shit version me use act defence mechanism basically tired using it much energy socialize many annoying people short moments genuine happiness enjoyment laughter anyone else feel same,1 Holding squats for a minute each... OMG. My freakin legs were shaking during my workout. But i feel really good now. Very worth it ,0 take years english high schooler worthless im gonna examine every sentence conversation identify subject verb article adjective things need know need know figurative language means hearread know means im gonna take minute break every paragraph understand means wow romeo juliet whats that write essay symbolism good would me yes im procrastinating still years shit every year gonna me know speak english enough vocabulary get day day life almost every job unless someones showing reason make take tests story even dont like reading it make project showcasing tiny item story yes thats im procrastinating im advanced reader class ive read george orwell people class not read new book project cant use would think thats chock full figurative language cant read time overheard teacher talking another class future even ive learned th time,0 best movies categorized comedies actually blur comedy drama the graduate butch cassidy sundance kid made also late s perfect examples comedies dramatic undertones dramas lot humor many respects the odd couple falls category comedy yet highly dramatic deep underpinnings human nature much happens may funny audience characters laughingbr br despite rather lighthearted tv show s original odd couple merely neat guy messy guy forced live together marital situation really two opposites must face marriages fell apart detrimental idiosyncrasies reveal outside marriage neatness characteristic felix ungar jack lemon perfectly cast messiness characteristic oscar madison walter matthau beginning somewhat superficial story unfolds find lot men simply neatness versus messinessbr br briefly story really felix ungar face impending divorce wife francis never meet important character throughout story verge suicide ungar goes place knows apartment oscar madison group poker buddies hang every often learn ungar member poker club group knows whats happening try inept way help out madison figures best way help ungar let move suicidal tendencies wear offbr br unfortunately madison know hes getting into madison carefree happygolucky rather irresponsible slob whos refrigerator last cleaned probably herbert hoover still white house madisons idea serving snacks grabbing moldy cheese sticking two pieces bread throwing contents bag chips table hand enjoys booze women short good time br br ungar altogether different diametrically opposite obsessive neatness nut finds joy disinfecting apartment meeting women knows women cooking fine eating one point calls exwife talk reconciling get recipe meatloaf another moment ungar going spend rest evening cutting cabbage coleslaw madison seems unimpressed ungar finally confesses roommate cant stand coleslaw guy another endearing trait felix also hypochondriac obsesses health point makes strange noises public places claiming hes helping sinuses seems every health condition book made more felix would probably them ultimately overly selfabsorbedbr br running throughout movie references marriage one point madison trying convince ungar move in says what want wedding ring little know neat guy cant deal messy guy way around friendship becomes inadvertent hellish relationship climax occurs oscar invites two lonely british sisters gettogether comedic tragic results one best comedies type ever written missed superlative performances walter matthau jack lemon roles hard imagine better played anyone else unfortunate writing caliber sadly lacking comedies produced today,0 dodged bullet like im figured id share story th grade cyber school good half year missed fuck ton school im chilling procrastinating get call girl really know pick different girl knew even less about asks know anyone could love her response immediately look asking wrong guy school months sounds noticeably disappointed instead awkward silence say alright well im gonna get back whatever daily basis responds alright go back masturbating like fuck never heard someone passive aggressive im sure dodged bullet found mutual friend later toxic hell know planning asking friend mentioned single girl immediately wanted number tldr title,0 fired egg thats it nothing special however first thing exciting hamburger helper like cooked initiative felt like eating feel mature even though fry egg im dunno something feels nice guess,0 probably jumping tonightsitting work cant focus anything havent ate anything two days home go to yeah might use rest cash buy drink dont remember want end bad sucks youre fucked way around anything lover family friends one person supported cant keep making one true friend suffer dealt worst possible cards hours im off maybe call you dont know would say miss voice good times together thats now fuck love you fuck much cant even decide want last drink,1 haha my house is creepy at night it creak and stuff scary lol i m gon na go to bed,0 life pointless maybe see iti see point life others see pointless is redflag consideration life pointless is live die live learn work die live serve needs society whatever die people say get lots good life see that friends family woohoo no end die lose all same earlier later maybe dying earlier even better since weaker bond separation painful get little good things life get lot bad things sadness learn eventually work thats life its pointless this even living like im negative truth others see it read this people give support reddit see pointless life is understand someone understand life pointless something pointless quit right death im missing guts braver options maybe im already gone life pointless understands,1 ground going open swallow evil ground gonna open swallow evil right thats see it word bond seeand ground symbol poor people right poor people gonna open whole world swallow rich people cause rich people gonna fat gonna appetizing know im saying wealthy appetizing poor gonna poor hungry right know im saying gonna like know im saying gonna might might cannibalism mf might eat rich know im saying,0 harm feel bettermaybe better harming others,1 studying commerce how am i suppose to remember so much,0 needed talk thisim second semester college right things exactly going way barely made pretty depressing first semester im stem major enrolled rotc last semester dream longest time go space one day id settle pilot too anyway first semester depressed shift difficulty academics incredibly jarring me trouble making friends made think something wrong me failing math class rotc inherently stressful felt alone ashamed shitty lot time barely passed math class made lot friends second semester rolls around things starting look up finally feel comfortable rotc get first chem exam still things im sad about ill talk later anyway im feeling generally happy semester far get first math exam dug hole again thats okay though ill better next one final academic performance starts slipping across board im trouble math class fast forward month so im told medically qualify rotc adhd medication years ago devastating me finally feeling comfortable finally made friends thought adhd going obstacle anymore never identified certain group felt like part something worth part before dangled front face ripped away felt horrible okay though end world im still eligible apply officer training school graduate two days later meet cadre review case tell certain skin condition medically qualify military service means cant pilot went back dorm first time life seriously considered redflag felt like nightmare like presented puzzle solve wanted hurt someone myself anything though really know do week later take second math exam semester week that find failed ill drop class studied really hard thought got least incredibly frustrating go high school never studied anything almost never got test quiz good math science academics general college actually study quizzes exams almost never get even frustrating friends people floor talk got bs exams took im running ways convince im fucking moron feel like fraud ways one ive also never girlfriend thats always reason feel like waste skin ive never experienced mutual romantic love friends yeah need me ive always problem comparing people thats ive recently start feel awful im alone thoughts long feel like nothing proud anymore sorry making really long ive never talked stuff anyone friends family good comforting im pretty sure nobody knows im unhappy im afraid change that need talk someone,1 mom never blames teachers biology teacher whenever posts grades keeps points changes later weeks since posted another grade even older brother teacher explained that listen says well got bad grade like b know teacher could fing lazy little gonna basically like zeros thanks listening,0 im coming end much copeeveryday struggle im seriously thinking about planning end know do guess im venting right now know wont change much hope get rid pain even care anymore drugs alcohol selfharm ive run options cant keep safe much longer,1 final update shat pants school im threatened expulsion last post httpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsjacldupdate_i_shat_my_pants_in_school_and_now_im_beingutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare again thank everyone commented last posts read first two posts read content today final meeting like promised id tell happened starters put fight school board actually considered side argument mind lets get results went final meeting school board alongside parents gave days think whether expelled incident final verdict giving results allowed speak say side story without interruptions teacher gave side story exactly explained you school lunch gave bad stomach ache teacher never called hand raised ended defecating resulted getting sent principals office something accident principal asked questions asked aware severity situation people scared time obviously said do asked parents history accidents told truth til th grade die weak bladder never purpose never defecation school board explained sounded leaving details teacher has good record district highly doubt shed exaggerate things tell much reason good record tenure brother uncle remember bad experiences along stories heard tenure basically going take killing student get fired gave another chance explain said theres nothing else add story told everything said understood rules brought law law states one legally allowed let use bathroom said highschool sophomore know law even though want get highschool studied quite bit final thing stated got results asked students make sure stories lined up well bad news lined up teachers story guess asked bullies put pure coincidence said seem chronic liar taking situation seriously intentionally caused panic attempted biological act terrorism like teacher stated last time point crying knew lied future relationships family friends fucked bullies thought would hilarious teachers overly inflated ego told expelled monday then attend classes online fuck that im attending them fucked fuck them nothing worked overly inflated egos turn forced traumatic experience accident caused shitty food kicked school longer see friends girlfriend anyone else thanks lot mrs dickinson hope burn hell thank everyone supported painful experience updates future post right now nothing else say questions anything say general ill best answer,0 oh crying ill give something cry hug ampxb know stressful af day today ampxb let tear ,0 think going hang tonight tried get better mentally really did think made this family girlfriend tried help me part scared part excited longer live torture thoughts tried get better,1 sara kate im afraid too ur reply about uni from age ago,0 reached mine piece shit life think could ever kill myself want anymore make stop everyone limits,1 want die im afraid paini see hope living anymore theres nothing im good at anything left enjoy waste away time watching tv playing stupid games kill time die still every single day like torture want get with im afraid die ive thinking redflag years never courage recently pain become overwhelming thats holding back fear pain dying im failure im parasite worth living fail everything even dying im even worth talk people die lonely fucking corner room im afraid cant stand torment longer edit thank help managed get sleep guess ill try get help,1 lets face it australian tv part terrible real diamond rough enough people watching chaser crew satirical newspaper cnnn try something new mixing live comedy prerecorded skits political satire one show filmed front live audience sorta like rove funny love causing controversy causes shows funniest moments especially chris telling wife f off live breakfast television julian handing novelty cheque signed saddam heusein head awb one funniest aussie shows since micallef program,0 anyone need help homework ill try assist you,0 cause that s how i feel i see people who work study are fit and eat well do extracurricular activity catch up with friend and family all the time all while making it look effortless where a i m sitting there working part time studying part time and am barely and i mean barely holding it together i just can not handle more than one thing at once even one thing at once is a lot e g if i wa to just be working than others look at you like you re crazy when you say how overwhelmed you feel with your workload but i just can t help it it s who i am i feel like i have no one in my life who i can relate to on this level they just seem to suck it up and get on with it,1 im dueling someone five minutes wish luck update dead,0 dream thisim going climb walkin bottle whiskey im ready,1 anything worth want waste entire lifehelp care something,1 whenever going upload meme something happened rteenagers image option went away,0 me pretending depression isnt constantly smothering me pic.twitter.com/18E0c9dYcR,1 heres step step guide eating grams pounds yogurt do not this step optional note guide works vanilla greek yogurt,0 would like someone talk tosomething happend today something fault acted like bitch many emotions feel bad something always helps cutting im bleeding right didnt make feel better im going go take bath razor blade hand maybe run across wrists would better someone talk to someone lets talk feelings without seeming bored like im bothering them hate myself think deserve pain know tell people this feel like im bothering them,1 Good Sunday AM to my Twitter ride or die peeps! ,0 doe anyone else have like anxiety tic for lack of a better word and if there is a better word please let me know i think one of mine is picking at my split end sometimes i do it when i m bored but i know when i m anxious i ll just grab a bit of hair and pull at the split end to get them off i don t pull out my hair just the split end if they come off if they don t i don t keep pulling but is that normal for anxiety lol just curious,1 movie great touched stone cold heart relate racial discrimination antwone experienced im living country guess really hard discriminatedbr br we watched film sociology class new era universityand knew true story thought created intellectual want bring fresh air industry goodbr br the part shocked nadine abused antwone who six sexually shoes could jumped tenstory high building salute strongbr br the scene touched antwone finally saw mother eva face face bitched whateverinstead told achievements got within long years separated i think ill get chance tracing roots,0 first day work tomorrow got first job donut place tomorrow first day im nervous im pretty shy usually im okay talking adults im excited get paid still anxious af yall jobs advicethings know,0 im going commit redflag tonight afraidi helium canister ready go really scared it,1 live alone depression time high believe worth anymore finally given myself wake alone everything own fun activities truly enjoy doing nobody wants me anyone else wants something want do always it nobody me everyone else another person people walk over want genuine friendship people genuine love life seem get short end stick every time nice guys finish last happens time time again hate here want pain go away need someone talk to,1 my hair is relatively orange. but i like it. wild curlz again !!,0 love alli become upset depressed occasion sheer scale suffering really puts perspective feelings simply cant comprehend amount sadness grief like notion infinity large understand dont believe god anymore did id praying you love want know im holding heart sounds trite true,1 theekween thelmasherbs make people forget unpleasant event such a depression anxiety loss of a loved one heart break and any traumatic event,1 im officially thank making year sub amazing love all time pay taxes now,0 and so the editing of 000 wedding shot begin,0 barbara stanwyck plays lily powers waitress fathers speakeasy little crummy mining town also sells men escapes new york literally sleeps way topbr br originally seen minute version pretty extremefor time nowadays pretty tame movie moves quickly tons sexual innuendosome comes pretty silly but fun today moves quickly easily ignore could never happeneven theres nothing classic monumental thisits quick gleefully dirty little film thats lots fun falls apart end little moral ending censors demanded comes across unbelievable stupid i saw theatre audience laughed itone guy quite rightfully said no way saw uncut minute version different somewhat tragic much better ending version thought lost discovered mistake believe one releasebut aware br br the acting goodstanwyck jumps role plays way top makes believe enjoys cruel sleeping around also strong supporting performances handsome donald cook george brent also look prestardom john wayne hilarious bit meek mild office worker fun dirty fast give ,0 wish intervened years ago girl class constantly getting bullied back fall remember classmates would make fun girl would laugh jokes feel ashamed thinking im please notice someone getting bullied please speak up silent laugh,0 @queenoftheclick that sounds really good. we'll probably be having leftovers - but good leftovers (dijon chicken + frittatas) ,0 love gaming lowend pc keep breaking keep getting shit friends it pc broke morning phone calm self battery low put phone charge going think something eather wrong something right enough lowend life,1 sad that the foot of my macbook just fell off,0 reddit need favor so saw reddit post ago yt video thumbnail yellow lamborgini rain treadmill cant find video help fellow redditors great search,0 im extremely conservative man means waste much energy,0 feel extremely unwanted lonelyi many friends around genuinely feel absolutely impact lives isnt fault guess mine person cant fully understand people genuinely care im person get bored of feel unwanted life dont feel anyone open without feeling like burden,1 @lucylumcfly thank youuuu triple award? x,0 spoiler people readingplan read giver by lois lowry havent gotten ceremony twelve every time book says pills jonas takes always imagine someone saying take horny pills go fun think say,0 Just received the best text in my life from Mat! I'm officially in LOVE! lol A*,0 @Jesshazel of course huni anytime ,0 @NatashaJogNDTV @ndtv @NdtvLivestream Humans need reassurance in times of stress or depression. These makes them very easy to be influenced by these godman or priests who exploit the vulnerability. Most problems do go anyway or you get used to them. The godman take credit for this and gain disciples or devotees.,1 wanna leaveeee like anything anyone,0 @GlastoWatch thanks for that laugh! I do hope the pigs will start a worldwide panic now as well ,0 i m ready to end all but i don t have the courage to do it i ve thought of different way when and where i would do it but i m scared i m a f and life isn t going well my career isn t going a planned in a few week i ll be out of a job i wa terrible at this job and had no choice but to leave i have another offer and interviewing for another place but i m scared it won t work out and i m ashamed that i have to find another job i m struggling financially and i m too scared to tell anyone i don t know how i m going to keep going i m extremely depressed and want this to end i don t know where i m heading in life what is good for me and how to keep going my life goal wa to be successful settle down and have child but i don t see that happening if i stay i see myself being unhappy in corporate america my thought are all over the place right now but i have no one to talk to i m not living the american dream i m living someone else s dream this make me think that the world would be a better place without me,1 ignore spami hate physical appearance family want die,1 anybody want message directly long short term matter feel like shit dm anyone,1 last post everi decided it cant live person anymore dont know yet going stay reddit this live last days family friends people know irl read this didnt wont try stop me random guy girl reading this idk im posting probably dont wanna read it dont know im going yet know mother keeps glock might use that would prefer feel pain pain caused others life simply even now typing this watching blood flow wrists thighs feel confident this within next week person told it hope got wanted people harassed bullied me hope also gotten wanted signing last time hours useless junk im looking people try talk it saying goodbyes community kept alive long,1 deserve painive gotten back burning myself deserve pain im disgusting human being,1 ah classic comedy point movie brains get messed together two minute scene bruce campbell beating partially reminds simplistic movies ideas grab wrap whole moviebr br for years years bruce campbell knows kind movies want him want see weird movies like bubba ho tep want see cameo roles sam raimi movies want see man screaming brain title alone one knows going border completely silly type movie like army darkness silly less monstersbr br the idea movie simple bruce sees doctor doctor new idea bruce gets bad things happen way see doctor coincidentally thing doctor wanted show saves him hilarity ensuesbr br with addition ted raimi weird russian guy journeyman stacy keach dr ivan ivanovich ivanov funny movie complete funny never point scarybr br if like silly bruce campbell like this again would watching like bruce campbell,0 dennis patrick plays man accidentally kills daughters boyfriend reveals secret local bar joe peter boyle bigot getting drunk there first takes joke story confirmed evening news instead calling cops like joe decides that since guy killed hippie must kindred spirits blackmails man becoming pal first film seemed harsh judgemental but revealed itself actually became quite complex portrait current society yes think exaggerate bit amusing ways really detract power messages susan sarandon debuted film shock see pretty around well worth seeing,0 heidimontag lol i kant believe cam got beat upp sooo embarasssiiiin,0 guybatty oh i m so sorry to hear that very sad thing he wa so young,0 At victoria country park in the sun ,0 hate subconscious dreams dreams ever seem remember incredibly lucid dreams girls like problem didnt feel real whenever get one im always wondering real wake up awful recent one last night details little hazy ill best remember im crush friends forget really important afterwards go house group disperses crush waiting parents come get her starts telling medical episode recently highly likely condition causes death basically lie april point tells scared know do moves were couch way put around slump over point basically lying top me says stuff remember wake up apparently hugging myself theyre usually sad normally theyre pretty happy cool overly realistic im loser whos never girlfriend before know talk girls guess ive felt really empty really quarantine going on able see anyone go school helped well thats now stay safe everyone,0 "I used to eat nothing but processed foods & had between 5-10 energy drinks a day to combat the amount of weed I was smoking. I hated my job, hated my flatshare & self-medicated my depression/anxiety with anything that triggered dopamine. I'm glad to have put that behind me ",1 friends give fuck meit seems lately ive dropping hints want know one person care die exactly change mind mind set want know im completely alone death ive come realization dad give fuck two glad him really depressing spend every day two people honestly mind pretending everything fine anyone actually cares ive come across painless way commit redflag im ready get im caught causing dad much pain hes really reason yet im scared tell anyone fear someone try tell care nobody understands done deal already im waiting right time could ask anyone understand mean like care go not want deal it whether friend not say friend lightly because really friends two people spend time depressed someones company try help want see smile theyre sick dealing me get it lot handle negative energy around time know know tell me obvious truth im theyre alone think theyre gonna get used it around much longer know im gonna it ive told im going wait dad dies try cope redflag point im loss know make long know deal life top losing best friend father idk even know im posting here feel like maybe problem guys maybe one actually care time maybe im hassle you maybe im worth talking instead ignoring idk anyways hope everyone good night,1 need one person group chatchat room whatever ishas people now one person get perfection number anyone it,0 Hello world can I defend myself @purpledeeee ? And wassuppp @ms_monet!!,0 kids teenagers springwood ohio dead expect one teenager shon greenblatt still alive freddy robert englund letting go teenager much memory hes arriving new town tough female psychologist lisa zane tries break though new patient finds out hes from brings along springwood spark memories three teens lezlie deane breckin meyer ricky dean logan unexpected came ride arrived springwood psychologist memory lived town child freddy knows true secret true identitybr br directed rachel talalay ghost machine tank girl made grim somewhat oddly different sequel visual style funny moments horrorfantasythriller yaphet kotto alien supporting role psychologist expert dreams ingenious visual effects not everyone love climax especially d good style storytelling one gross films series box officebr br dvd strong anamorphic widescreen transfer also pan scan strongdolby digital surround sound dvd original theatrical trailer jump nightmare opinion cast crew information elm street series box set eighth disc interviews cast crew sixth film sixth film also d film climax could watch d also last elm street films wes craven resurrected freddy different darker style new nightmare silly surprisingly enjoyable spinoff horror film freddy vs jason watch robert shaye coowner coceo new line cinema roseanne barr tom arnold johnny depp alice cooper amusing cameos written michael de luca john carpenters mouth madness story director ,0 having lunch on my desk while i work,0 get better stupid saying somehow truei major depression anxiety good stuff tried end life twice luckily failed ill turn days never thought id make far months clean cutting happy weird saying still true confidence smile without thinking biggest turning point going grandmother best friends funeral within days other cant put family friends stuff again wont seems hopeless talk me stay alive friends family walk rain good food stay alive me love you gets better matter annoying phrase sounds,1 im fond film vexes many reviewers rank peter jackson trilogy filmed novel always interpretive particular animated film relies artists vision judged terms speaking purist finer homage tolkien updated version film flaws stays truer source especially far characters concernedbr br in jackson version tolkiens frodo barely recognizable first scenes portrayed weakling constantly wavering manipulated forces around never standing two feet this physically metaphorically true wonder fate chose limp biscuit carry one ring cracks doom jackson unforgivably rewrites tolkien robs frodo finest moment allows arwen rescue ringwraithsbakshis version respects original presenting frodo demands wraiths go back trouble more bakshi sustains frodos character tolkien conceived it see decline weight burden increases frodo pivotal lord rings wonder jackson took liberties he numerous characterssince character development propels plot inevitable conclusion bakshis film better explores companionship legolas gimli judicious scenes completely lacking jacksons version similarly see boromir horsing pippin merry furthering idea fellowship liking camaraderie developed animated version live actionbr br tolkiens poetry important ingredient novels bakshi makes tribute one favorite scenes frodo sings merry old inn song minutes stumbling strider cheery tune chillingly juxtaposed darker theme music seconds later invisible friends visible wraiths frodo dangerously exposed one atmospheric portions film chills whenever see itbr br the well documented budgettime restrictions limit films final impact completed may resonated viewers is worth look even detractors admit peter jackson derived much inspiration prototype,0 "All done! Played really well, shot 75 going to get lunch",0 Saturday morning after r*ve and m*vment class I was so depressed I just wanted to be alone. Idk if actual depression or sleep debt and hungry maybe,1 need someone proof read apology girl im gonna say,0 @Oddessy congrats you are now cooler than me. Happy Birthday Miss Lovely.,0 is at work xx,0 gonna keep shortim tired tired im ready go now doubt mind wont survive next attempt im ok that wish days leading death could filled something stress panic misery,1 started self harming again use self harm kinds food punishment gym started physically cutting cannot even feel anymore really feel done get pissed many times post overthink post delete post something else another day struggle pathetic,1 not able to sleep,0 close subs would make shitty week feel little better could subscribe get sorry advertise httpswwwyoutubecomchannelucwajopzlhbwznjbkhrqappdesktop,0 zapped balls riding high power ziplines never wanted kids anyway filler filler filller filler filler filler filller filler,0 i just fucking hate my self i m turning into a fucking loser i ve recently pushed my girlfriend away by being a fucking depressed loser i fucked it all up just by not trying hard enough and i hate myself for it she wa the only person who actually loved me and now she doesn t want to see me anymore i don t know why i m surprised how could i be able to maintain a serious relationship when i can t even show up to work on time i never thought i would ever find love but i did and i fucked it all up fucked up the only good thing i had in my life work suck life suck and i m just soooo fucking over it i m not cut out for the ups and down of life i m just not cut out for life in general i m a fucking lost depressed loser that at the end of the day ha nothing to be proud of tonight i really just want to kill myself and end this hell i don t think i can take this shit anymore man,1 first comment make laugh gets silver thats good luck,0 anyone else younger clearly remember small used stare ceiling imagine would like walk it would think floor ceiling spots ceiling would different furniture great way pass time,0 today i had an important college presentation to do but since last night i ve been so dead feel like with my brain my body ha also given up i have to pull myself together to even get out of bed i had to wake up early today and i did but i just couldn t leave my bed i wa cry so much the whole night for no specific reason i decided not to go and explained my partner that i won t make it i told them how i wa feeling funnily they re my best friend who were doing the presentation w me one of them said i didn t have the ball to just say it straight to their face that i just don t want to go because i m being lazy or whatever it hurt me so much how do i explain this to them it make me feel like i m good for nothing i feel like a piece of shit for not doing thing i should be doing everyday it keep on getting worse for me i tried therapy but it just expensive and doesn t work for me plus i always have this stress of spending so much on therapy being a student if this is how it going to be like then i don t even wan na carry on lmao i d rather just kill myself but i can t do that also because i m such a coward and always think about the consequence of my action and how other people would have to deal w it the shame that my parent will have to face i have so much fear and anxiety it so difficult to survive,1 suicidal paradox anyone elseim morbidly suicidal hopeless desire live future feel guilt anymore concerns people id leave behindim unwanted burden crushes soul i concerned dog though wont even bother note so feel compassion others share stories instinctively dont want it understand feeling way depths am working courage kill myself yet deeply affected others want die please let go hold on,1 "I'm suffering from depression, I'm thankful that you guys are helping me out, really, I love you guys so much even if you don't notice this, I'll always support y'all because its what you deserve #StrayQuiz #StrayKids @Stray_Kids",1 @kierij_ WOW you just have a sample of depression that's all ,1 cant stop thinking people evil ive gone abuse people cant imagine im dead im safe peoplei never want see another person ever again cant risk getting tortured again ive met many evil people flatmate threatened kidnap rape torture kill year thats one example someone pos sadly ive gone much worse bs im depressed talk it lets say family trying kill opened eyes evil humanity,1 u first think the solution to avoid hurt and heartbreak is staying out of love and marriage until u realize that abstinence come with another type of hurt and depression that come with loneliness and not having person u call ur own may love find u,1 "Leaving for a week at Bonnaroo in Manchester, TN. Music, art, and camping....and humidty ",0 "@ashyeeee giirl, u better take care of that shit! lol. goodnight tweeties! ",0 year since short term month sexual abuse incident caused strike depression caused suicide attempt self harm major redflag borderline personality disorder psychosis disassociating nowwell dealing non stop homicidal thoughts really know go this want tell family want hospitalized perhaps keep myself fuck know this lost,1 film life queen victoria youth first years monarch great britainbr br the young victoria amazing production every scene designed decorated immaculate detail extravagant costumes lavish locations beautifully landscaped gardens make the young victoria impressive amazed thoughtful cinematography every person placed relation background foreground well thought out every scene well composed scene strikes victoria talks melbourne melbourne positioned middle door frame victorias angle melbournes angle victoria situated space melbourne held arm hipsbr br story wise far compressed followed understood person without historical knowledge queen victoria many events rushed even explained expected grand scene coronation disappointingly lasted secondsbr br overall the young victoria good film would even better longer events could properly explained without rush,0 dorime interimo adapare dori ameno ameno latire latiremo dori ameno omenare imperavi ameno dimere dimere matiro matiremo ameno omenare imperavi emulari ameno omenare imperavi emulari ameno ameno dore ameno dori ameno dori ameno dom dori reo ameno dori ameno dori dori ameno ameno ameno omenare imperavi ameno dimere dimere matiro matiremo ameno omenare imperavi emulari ameno omenare imperavi emulari ameno ameno dore ameno dori ameno dori ameno dom dori reo ameno dori ameno dori dori ameno ameno ameno dori ameno dori dori me ameno ameno dore ameno dori ameno dori ameno dom dori reo ameno dori ameno dori ameno ameno ameno ameno dori ameno ameno dori ameno dom dori reo ameno ameno dori ameno ameno dori,0 @tysonritteraar good morning. not feeling so great - up til 3 watching Abandon play. Amazing gig though ,0 kids thing keeps killing myselfno respect love myself im incredibly disappointed professional choices ive made life know could be time seeing am devastating im ashamed everyday advice people give look bright side hard myself serves remind deluding lowering standards free well almost way im pain dont care part except comes kids leaving fatherless isnt option trudge on wading mediocrity point im given freedom solve problem all thanks listening,1 haven t tweeted in age my twitterberry doesn t work anymore help,0 like the title say i m doing bad at work i work a a claim adjuster for a big insurance company and i m really bad at it the job requires a tremendous amount of organization and i just simply do not have those skill it s my first big job out of college and i m failing it embarrassing and it s crushing my confidence i constantly worry about my job security being this anxious all the time is making me run out of steam quickly i find it hard to even force myself to look for another job bc of the little free time i get and how tired i am at the end of the day i feel like a burden to my parent and girlfriend because i constantly vent break down to them i did start seeing a therapist recently and he s helped but it feel like it build up a lot until i get to talk it out with him what trigged me to write this today is i made another fuck up at work and had to tell my bos she s extremely nice but had to be honest with me that my performance could result in corrective action i know that doesn t mean termination exactly but that is definitely on the table i have so many case and i just know there s at least a couple more fuck ups in there that i haven t found yet i feel like it s inevitable that i get let go and i m just not prepared to deal with the embarrassment of it it s eating at me,1 deactivate social media commit redflagi done life know lot people indifferent passing would better deactivate facebook everything go make easier forget im gone,1 ive tried hardest really havewhere even start lifes crumbling years now seems like whenever try something happy make life better fucks up really ive tried fucking best feels like always losing battle help im alone time either stay room parents house weve big fight led write this im child too legitimately nobody ive somewhat tried redflag before tied something together remember choking near closet thought give another try maybe different time wasnt know im posting really im much bitch actually go redflag actually know do im friends parents fucking hate me job go school moment although im signing spring classes part wants say hey hold near future better another part let many times cynical think way thinks absolutely pointless live anymore im rambling know anymore might try get job ive got bad anxiety two times ive attempted get job fuck interview,1 I am almost completely soullessI am incapable of being humanI am incapable of being inhumanI am living uncontrollablyIt should be called the anti-depressionAs a friend of mine suggestedBecause it's not the sadness that hurts youIt's the brain's reaction against it,1 deal suicidal thoughtshey guys lately ive thinking lot redflag kinda scares me feel like l time continues starting accept fantasys killing myself afraid actually committing redflag get chance talk professionals guys methods deal kind thoughts,1 wake every morning wanting die first thought have recently fixated gunshot temple sometimes noose times imagine jumping thousandth floor trump tower thoughts urges obsessive intrusive uncontrollable mornings worst contend thoughts throughout day everyday actively fight near constant basis sometimes physically stopped inch short plunging kitchen knife abdomen almost thrown onto trans canada highway came pretty close jumping bridges attempted suicide several times hospitalized ten times think future much do catastrophize worry homelessness car accidents cancer living survival mode makes difficult dreams goals living day day hour hour trying hang on grumpy bitter short tempered scroll facebook hours upon hours dulls pain sometimes watch cnn day cope absolutely mind numbing isolate hard leave house barely sleep difficulty feeding myself depressed usually depressed half year suicidality limited depressive episodes suicide hijacks brain regardless mood emotional state depressed thoughts suicide response deep hopelessness suicide seems like way end endless suffering clinically depressed still suicidal thoughts urges intrusive impulsive come nowhere replace shades negative emotion instead feeling irritated become suicidal annoyed suicide disappointed death middle ground nothing black white live die life better part decade much help people like me antidepressants work types medication hospital makes feel worse lack empirical data suggest hospitalization reduces suicide risk may actually increase risk long term besides best advice emergency room doctors give distract activities enjoy problem enjoyed activity years suggest calling friend ran years ago real treatment person like dialectical behavioural therapy expensive involved complex treatment take years complete master dropped three programs another matter altogether dbt teaches manage inevitable suicidal thinking borderline personality disorder suicidal ideation something may learn live with important note everyone bpd experiences chronic suicidality however bpd sufferers die suicide people complete dbt learn manage thoughts eventually get better starting dbt week things different time ok read end ok,1 im fine lost good longtime friend addiction and directly od morning let world get you seek help pleaseugh ugh,1 fuck started argument parents idk dont even know wtf shit shit shit fuck made joke big iron turned something protests shit fuck,0 @Naxos I love the Foucault book. . .I read it as his vengeance book ,0 angry getting headache do 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She finds really interesting stuff ,0 good lonely wednesdayhey im one worst days long time usual network support unavailable usually id text brother hed reply something interesting funny weve fight left existential dread cant stop drinking smoking imagining therapist vacation cant even bear thought looking new one would kindly post something interestingfunnykind help get shitty wednesday,1 im gonna get body pillow make life every night hyyyuuuhhhhhhh,0 sparkly devil hug i m trying really hard to concentrate on the nice dream instead i m sorry you had a bad one too hon,0 ashleyac my donkey is sensitive about such comment nevertheless he d and me d be glad to see your mug asap charger is still awol,0 hit k karma days let ego filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 guy know pussy feels like want know idk maybe could search something recreate similar thing,0 sure answer unfortunately yes anyone else recently friends abruptly ghost betray without explanation talking really close friends told could trust vulnerable around friend troubles,1 the funniest part about that tweet is the lady saying her mom wearing her sneaker will spiral her back to depression obviously doesn t have real life problem if her mom wearing her shoe sends her into depression,1 remember remember it recognize name know even speak of incredibox,0 whatit years since wife developed drinking problem strangest thing doesnt even drink lot little small grass wine becomes mr hyde abusive three children episodes hospitalized drinking mental health issues two occasions together years love her damn love her starting early february tried leave couple occasions recent occasion slept woman wife first time relationship fairly good sex shortly parting ways night occurred dont want sleep anyone wife sex without love doesnt seem worth it love wife went home things good week so dealing stressful housing situation several months finally ended day together kids school spent day together bed sex together great next day went work glass wine lunch mr hyde came home argued tried damndest keep together left took cab moms called couple days later begging another chance told loved would always give another chance said mom would bring home next day next day came wouldnt answer phone text night say wasnt coming home said tired disappointing knew deep would never stop drinking drove moms house find went house person described little brother part friends group ran kidteenager spent last years prison forgery car theft burglary aggravated assault theft round activities days isnt hard inmates get cell phones years ago noticed posted facebook miss you thinking hope okay dreamed last night hope well xoxo thought inappropriate married woman send another man asked stop talking him agreed complied couple years released started talking work left house found reiterated like little brother found went him lost it drove california got stupid stoned walked hole thighs pacing miles beach called right got back truck called coward leaving kids mom ran guilted returning northern arizona got home am sleeping next phone picked up read text knew romantic woke her told over begged steadfast told couldnt live without her steadfast ran house walked away got truck called redflag prevention hotline what joke is sent police house tried coax home police listening speaker phone knew better drove phoenix plan didnt want die love myself love husband father told going focus herself learn independent met almost life skills pretty much raised her ward state parents never prepared life neither state spent teenage years juvenile prison moved shelter northern az lived truck phoenix shelter kicked testing positive drugs pawned kids mom moved him business result happened got physically demanding job slept truck showered gym busted ass talked tried friend her need life one night working called walked away line hid talking her pissed ran me told would whatever get back ended conversation love yous back forth next day said memory conversation blacked out okay that crushed again text later night tell year old daughter stole grandmas pot given wife called daughter lunch break told wife put it going far boost daughter unlocked window go get pot person totally character turned went got babies easy pretend hate that felt better lost wasnt person anymore ignored texts made arraignments daughters stay respective best friends son stayed friend last weekend called ask could locate phone got him left house drank half gallon vodka somehow fell broke rib come find pushing file divorce wasnt ready motherinlaw told asshole used beat mom become obvious trying isolate her pretty much going check list shit abuses trap victims love wife dont know do job hiatus corona wife wrapped psycho kids begging fight full custody im basically homeless im suicidal need run keep im afraid kill him leave kids run hate probably end state custody want run im useless kids like this,1 graduated hs hate life rn hate parents much unbelievable extremely well school ranked class played sports joined clubs worked jobs volunteered n end feels fucking worthless school district graduated small majority students white minority hispanic population honors classes took white kids already friends since parents went school even though tried fit certain groups people went events showed happy ready never really seemed stick onto group people time studying school over deal insufferable parents mom pretends white let wear style clothes like makes dress like year old golfer dad control freak calls lazy fat time rlly sucks feel unwanted time came terms fact bisexual tried dating apps tried meet new people made feel worse body am felt used incidents now trying workout go gym dad let go sign waiver saying allowed go wants come me makes feel like cannot around parents feel like want cry time know may seem stupid really try sarong person sometimes feel alone place turn to feel friend since th grade distancing me saying busy time hanging others idk do get feeling sometimes like want live anymore hate life rn,1 ugh the struggle with depression and anxiety is real rn not to mention my insomnia is wanting to act up too zzzzzz i hate my brain sometimes,1 im suck life need couragemy wife cheated me im broke im short unattractive im loser need little courage take leap free,1 also possible since young mind distorted hid memories make less painful know brought back im therapy actively seeking type breakthrough sexually assaulted close friends boyfriend memories come back then feel right now mirroring felt honestly might worse,1 gender survey rteenagers question itll take couple seconds gender surveyhttpsformsglerkvrbfjympjgz survey finally figure ratio girls boys boys girls post results get sufficient number responses,0 i am still suffering from a headache which ha been with me since yesterday afternoon feel like my head is in a vice not pleasant,0 im constantly fighting urge delete entire internet presence think would neat dramatically dissapear everything,0 rape became pregnant regret keeping itampxb ok im kinda nervous share this wanna give much details information really hate son even like saying my cause hate much hate moment doctor handed knew made mistake first looked nothing like me looked like black ugly father the man raped me saw looks nurses faces handed me felt disgusted angry held hands never thought would black ugly dominant genes thought would looked like disappointed fastforward bring home hospital i live alone tried best snap everything need put crib sudden middle night hear crying got mad went room punch face go figure little shit start crying louder took crib throw floor went back bed left crying floor hes always crying like savagely crying opens mouth wide cries see inside fugly mouth today completely lost it crying lift throwing tantrum cooking pressure cooker time took stove throw head might started crying louder kicking screaming started kicking stomping him put ducktape mouth make stop screaming start beating shoe good three minutes done stop crying probably hour im sitting peace eating hot spicy wings comes staring sobbing big ugly stupid blackface got angry spit eye started crying rubbing eye furiously left room crying rubbing eye like half hour hear crying decided go back room see sitting holding knees sobbing quietly saw immediately looked floor went room lift one arm started kicking crying dropped went room boil water went back room throw ass started crying got upset crying lift went basement stairs toss like piece trash is last thing heard tumbling stairs crying checked yet hear crying anymore,1 want donetheres point fighting anymore found today ive booted group project poor attendance cant complete course without project im never going done degree ive meds seeing doctorscounselorspsychiatrists five years im barely better started friends left graduated moved away sided exboyfriend dumped last summer hesitation ending upset parents would be makes angry cant end suffering know would suffer result cant keep going sad empty treadmill kind life im going anywhere want out,1 day posting phrase liquid whales get girlfriend or likely forget post id anything power see see smile want come prosper come proper even means aint side devil shoulder tellin ill die soon dont really want impact dont know maybe im paranoid want whats best you want whats left oh youre telling youre sad inside im sad cant satisfy yeah pray get right time maybe well alright and todays filler brought juice wrld weekend song smile,0 human worstthe vile aggressive destructive species planet us cancer world bird wolf bacteria theres rent bills social media phones nothing land planet natural be weve created world within world focus garbage shit way life ignore beauty land live on often destroy consume shit created fuck human worst thing be blessing fucking curse die heres hoping covid strains get affected vaccines hope us slowly wiped out cheers cunts included fuck me fuck you fuck everyone die,1 watched movie first time ever sci fi channel must say simply awesome loves the never ending story one would bring back memories movie even though movie hazy like setting look makes feel like is fantasy acting brilliant music great especially beginning battle song end song yet see it watch it recommended completely,0 giving week figure reason liveim low point never thought id again were familiar it urges getting harder harder combat ive already formulated plan would guaranteed lethal easy pull off want yet know why feel like maybe maybe possibly find way justify existence world almost died twice infant ive always wondered deserved live im sure go this know reach examine things maybe ill find really vanish acquaintances remove earth cant figure week welp ill take days trying get affairs order make amends people ive burdened offended pass next life start determine worth here would better everyone died supposed to,1 think tonight night end iti tried fight feeling years lately hear head voice telling end put people around misery cause tonight night think finally going give in im sure im posting here guess want closure feel empty know am im unsure stand for hate everything do im failing everything even family told im disappointment never never contribute anything positive society actions self destructive im tired hurting people around cant stop,1 @codyjr It is easy to do that. ,0 end mei cannot cannot fucking it another year fuck fuck fuck social redflag friends redflag skipping lunch want seen eating alone fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck senior year starts month,1 25-04-2018,1 wonderful film powell pressburger whose work want explore more film perceive real real two difficult distinguish one another beautifully shot acted although david niven seem years old character claims be fun see young richard attenborough film made think watching it afterwards,0 My large 5 dollar pizza from Dominos was yummy. ,0 sometimes i feel like living and dreaming but most of the time i just want to sleep and never wake up i can t decide if i should die or live nothing is joyful anymore nothing make me happy and i don t love anyone rnough to live for them just in case what s a painless and quick way to go,1 wish couragei wish could bring offing myself know whats stopping want nothing overcome barrier it,1 help ive ended bondage youtube not theres anything wrong it left youtube playing ended the goat pentagram harnesshttpsyoutubeoynh_ubk_g im either lazy change interested help,0 overwhelming feeling lately right feel like longer go broken get feel like missing pieces know describe properly almost feels horrific way put like whole bunch body parts amputated years feel irreversibly disfigured mentally once gradually time like one day might wake look see leg gone hand missing fingers makes feel sick like body horror see feel it never go mutilated get feels like something puts surgical table injects sedative cannot move still see still feel straps takes pieces throws back world figure come terms new disfigurements horrific numb tired scream react like waking nightmare one see mei cannot explain properly trapped feeling silently horrified also tired want lay rest parts allowed rest gone too like eyelids removed shamble onwards feeling like trapped sawinspired gauntlet losing piece piece grotesque traps point even sure want get irreversibly mutilated feel broken beyond repair,1 so had a really bad few week with my anxiety my doctor decided to put me on citalopram and now i ve barely eaten and drank for day which ha made this experience so much worse so i ve decided to stop taking them and stick to my propranolol i m going to create new healthy routine for my day to day life drink more water maybe a new hobby i ve also ordered new book one on how to heal from narcissistic abuse route of my anxiety from a parent and how to let go of painful memory that are causing me to be miserable on a positive note i ve had a really good conversation with my boyfriend who s my rock a sometimes he get deflated with my anxiousness and negativity which i can completely appreciate also i m going to start going back to therapy and get into that routine too i don t know what the point of this post is lol but i just want someone who can relate to me or me to them after the worst week ever,1 recently sleepover birthday party five girls age eleven us thinking would harmless little movie jaws decided rent along rat race we watched rat race stranger calls ease fear put movie night lay together sleeping bags hiding behind covers it screamed five times unusual get scared movies never scared enough actually screambr br all us terrified even leave bedroom notredflag stalker jenkins called reasonwould get us played mean trick one everyone dozing rat race hid sleeping bag said quietly lowly have checked childen screamed like nuts scared would rate movie thing like many false alarms jill thinks stalker kids never woke whole thing jenkins kidnapped hid cupboard time cry like babies would highly recommend movie anyone likes thriller one thing babysitting past pm ever again,0 parents taking away car insurance failing grades im well aware failing several classes many us seeing incredibly low performance school year acknowledge entirely fault punishment doesnt exactly make sense im sport athlete parents consistently making late drive theres tons things id like young adult wouldnt possible extremely difficult without car ive failing classes since th grade ive diagnosed adhd parents ignored plausible cause struggles classroom hard focus year incredibly difficult find reasonable motivation actually accomplish work im stupid forced difficult classes havent able get get head game havent helping literally said well gotta focus find motivation wow howd think that anyways ill figure something out think,0 continue write redflag note im sober reali this get drunk cry go ways without family finding me stumble around house late night kids dads pick knives start note cry more read every love note ex examine every photo us together clean kids rooms pass mess next day see kids hug tighter tell love them dont want let go kiss little faces theyre struggling get free go play yell theyre entering school doors love them get car cry open notes last nights redflag note dont right words enough words continue note walk work greet everyone smile declare great day im having throw work throw headphones listen lyrics poor everyone else found ever lasting love songs reminders ex hes dating too found valentines day showed drop son girl there shes course prettier probably smarter much offer im two kids two different dads wanted family wanted love know im selfish kids babies parents family im selfish im sick dont want die sad whats worse loving day overwhelming sadness final moments despair ill cry ill panic might regret it then sleep im fake im fake good parent friend daughter sister aunt inside body dead physically feel it cant stop shitting amount anxiety have ran red light today day dreaming past dont sleep thoughts revolve around man broke me dream last night hugging kissing asked doing loved me said no said wanted this all im broken person answers explanations man abused me mentally emotionally tore family away me sexually assaulted me told kill myself treated son like shit dr jekyll mr hyde man called cps me lied me stole me victim abuse god damn stupid maybe me im real asshole wish could feel nothing ever feel cancer,1 say hi tha spoidur,0 anybody there need someone talk right nowi need talk anyone please message time talk want feel alone know void fast approaching,1 cant endure anymoreim sitting unable even complete highschool watch people enjoy life sucess ive already attempted redflag barely managed survive people said theres help get better year later still cant find reason even get bed dont even reason depressed all sometimes feel like im faking it doubt anyone really cares dont evne know im writing here currently hope wont wake tomorrow ill make sure properly time,1 anyone wanna chat ask stuff im bored idk much filler text need,0 i m so tired of living every day i wake up and resent that i m still alive wasting oxygen i m in pain every day i want it all to stop i wish my mum had an abortion when she wa pregnant with me i hate myself,1 done misery tired tired going bed every night tired waking every morning tired listening fucking dumb every day tired looking job tired opening people make fun me pretend care tired tell only reason still alive want destroy brothers life knowing brother would even care real reason coward tired looking fucking reason tomorrowi know do know even trywhen fell friends family showed real faces showed much care much want deal shit much want leavei wish end it done take away want iti wish could restart fucking game delete old saves start over fucking wishi hope everyone reading someone around hard times everyone deserves it hope happy tired,1 @MusiicLover no idea :S & yeah I LOVE the Jobros bye I must go (L),0 deleting reddit day blow inbox im gone haha sometimes breaks social media arent bad thing know anyways minutes ill log off wanna see first responses yk hehe,0 almostcool i m off now,0 "Exercising regularly cuts risk of depression by 16%, study suggests - Sky News https://apple.news/A1J3Hy-U_REKyEWflst-4Iw …",1 wrote something down would combined enough kill mei overdosed times beforebut nothing seems ever work careful calculated stealing random pills relativescopied notes svelta mig tvr til rjr vikur fyrst gera etta allt tman maga paracetamolacetaminophel mg hjartamagnlacetylsalic acid mg quetiapin actavis mg dimenhydrinate mg prednisolone actavis mg wellbutrin veit ekki mg concerta veit ekki mg alprazolam mg tylenolibuprofen gr kkan kassar af sru sterkt fengi poki yfir hausinn herbergi ea elliarrdal,1 takei tried last night take kept bleeding bleeding minutes bleeding stopped woozy blood pumping hard put effort cut more think lost like probably almost liter hell lot hours later im still woozy tingly places especially like cross legs ive drinking lot water gatorade ive eating food something better eating drinking still want live im anything point make appointment therapist im going talk worry that keep thinking back feeling losing blood watching fill tub feeling calm like finally coming home know best kind post subreddit yeah im kind mad able way cant feel much anything right now worry right safe just food drink something better get less woozy want go hospital theyre going lock id rather home roommates feel safer around,1 keep simple possible good show well written fantastic cast loaded blood guts centers around disgraced cop relationship exwife son former partner andre braugher childhood friend priest george dzunzda lastly person happens get hack episode likely find something like going city no still good story yes nice see man portrayed good father spite flaws watch one see lot us hooked show thank david morse making character interesting another good job,0 want die errand importanti cannot help laugh comedy errors life mine is supposed dying today planned time window several hours going alone therefore popping crushed pills would ensured demise no parents rang morning errand needs taken care of take better part day death cancelled smh,1 Back in SG! Wee! ,0 @nmieclki I can tweet u now....yay me *happy dance* x,0 feelings someone okay recently ive talking lots girls fourth block current events class ive recently developed feelings one them ive never feelings girl felt strange also contempt comforting asked could friends said yes shes also sister one friend brother lives near us always see hand out whats advice would want potentially start friendship later relationship autistic person,0 @goodlaura Darn tootin' I am! We've gotta be there for each other ,0 friend mine needs helpa friend mine steam recently talking lot killing deeply concerns me believe serious problem is clue real life information know go helping him talk much reassure people myself included honestly care him know really help beyond that could someone please tell do,1 late night is all re run http ff im y0 l,0 yr old girl im honestly good person want die maybe shouldworthless good word describe me im dramatic cant give people need im emotionally vacant bad things order feel something ya know tried medication therapy cant afford anymore honestly help hard describing feel wanna feel anymore,1 im fucking drunk at 9am even if im fucking with my life still ahead of me i don t wan na do this anymore i dont even have a house anymore i have nobodt y fck i cant even type noboidy i just want to end thing but im too scared to even kill myself hpw do i do it without failing i often imagine others doing it for me can someone help me do it where can i go to do it i think it will irresponsib e for me to just jump into traffic a i don t want others to suffer i just want to go quietly are there any service like that why is it so hard to log out of this life anybody wan na kill me no string attached we are the breath,1 is tweeting for the first time and is watching music channels ,0 bad thing say people unattractive attract others inb lmao ok incel whenever somebody says ugly attract people proven due life experience comments noooo need join clubs need shower ignoring fact nearly every person showers daily need put bro drink water get hobby things good things do definitely improve chances make friends overall health attract anyone romantically bad thing science end day humans mammals gravitate towards appealing thing see think people need accept,0 maladaptive daydreaming something want fix daydreaming fun way pass time quarantine know enjoy crafting tv shows head also music videos,0 @satalite It's up to @chicklet7 where i get it done ,0 ive eaten drank nothing half litre lucozade energy stomach feels awful slight headache consequences poor decisions cringe,0 hey gamerdude think literally called messiah,0 attention boys girls see someone visible nipples unless make clear you please ignore them know speak peoples nips say literally mind own time confused are please ignore em,0 know crush me wanna know why cuz tried give crush soda wanted lemonade ,0 wish assisted redflag acceptableif could pay someone painlessly drift deal life anymore would heartbeat,1 homophobic scared homo sapiens,0 im polar opposite guys say one traits would probably opposite trait,0 one scary moviebr br brad pitt deserved oscar thisbr br a traveling novelist played david duchovny xfiles fame girlfriend pick two hitchhikersjuliette lewis brad pitt way california br br on way stop infamous serial killer murder scenes photography scenes upcoming book duchovnys character working on little know disturbed serial killer history country sitting right next car,0 instead killing self ive decided disappear new country start new lifehey reddit really need help make long story short senior college majoring finance bank account ive major depression past two years enjoy life ive thought killing self escape however decided would better run away different country need advice this country go to passport tips ideas pull off,1 realized girl crush years ago flirting me wellfuck guess,0 desi people will not believe in depression but still say dil kharab ho rha hai,1 @shinskydadon ignorance is bliss! so yeah ,0 sitting at home watching jeremy kyle and bored,0 "every time I see that Jessica Alba girl, I think of "Honey". I know she's done better, but thats what comes to mind. that and Dark Angel. ",0 u guys answer google forms post school project completely anonymous thank u httpsformsgleyyzoqppweimwpfhttpsformsgleyyzoqppweimwpf,0 fuck boris johnson fuck making schools go back march th wont time play games instead work,0 nothing nothingmy husband last night drinking three months years problem drinking excuses maxing card card spending every dime including change penny jar getting deposits back beer store always last night worst right weeks ive worked overtime shifts am pmmidnight pay bills literally sleep nonconsecutive hours night im teacher work since rd medical leave aka hungover two days running drinking every day since fast next weeks actually ok ive done weeks before also necessary food hes skinny cant skip meals im fucking fatass probably partly man wanted useless horrible drunk friends homes families hes alienated everyone longer speak anyone family one nightmarish drunken episode another friends become drunk first cope keep every drop spend evenings hiding booze him hiding cards hiding keys drinks head bobs around stumbles breaks things denies hes drunk never gone university never left shithole town married best farmer shut fucking mouth hate life hate every day wake up hate already ive cut arms open never deep enough hung privately enough ive overdosed barfed up thing keeping alive knowing take proper care dog,1 @plainlyphyra aww.. didnt get to tweet with you.. goodnight (or morning/afternoon there).. ill catch you next time (soon!) tca *hugs*,0 "WIP art of my grandmere, memere, and mom from back in the day. I haven't made a ton of progress. Fighting with depression and nightmares ugh. Got to pull myself together. pic.twitter.com/Kk6RuZ4h2X",1 wasnt redflagmy name xan king anything happen know redflag ive recently stumbled across rituals performed masons know know feeling im watched times fuck fear wont play it u never heard name die u wont hear death know im completely sain posted said dont want end life ive mind never thought shooting myself never wanted hang other belt kid currently want too please ask one person remember case hear my real name starts r u hear name u know me one real subs app need anything please hmu wont say no judgment free please goodnight ps care understand,1 hi best friend started taking zoloft redflag depression two days ago really bad side effects like redflag way worse normal regular side effects iti read lot zoloft going continue research anyways ways help support time make feel little better know obviously going cure want help can things says breaks heart really worries suffer depression redflag well understand feels want anything bad happen worried right now thank advance help best friend,1 depression is when you don t want to live and don t want to die either,1 whenever i sit down to study my heart start racing and i feel overwhelmed and anxious i think it s my fear of failure sometimes it s so bad i have to lay down anyone else,1 @catconnor KILLERBYTE is #15 on the Mobipocket thriller list - BETWEEN TWO LEE CHILD NOVELS!!! How can you complain!?!? ,0 gave friend advice ask crush like girl know like know likes asked advice kinda gave good advice motivated go get her feel lonely given fact im pretty sure likes friend start dating im gonna person friend group thats anyone im gonna feel even lonely left befoee,0 dont want live anymorehello im struggling suicidal thoughts feel alone lot mean friends guess kinda consider acquaintances manly people close im band with ex true friend feel like people dont relate too im years old smoke drink lot manly numb world around me dont get wrong love enjoy beer find drinking much work good job im unhappy working midnights midnights years cant get better shift im it hardly ever sleep maybe hours day really gets years it girlfriend argument something fucking stupid usual ended relationship stress time fight freaked out regret dearly said really mean things hate it would constantly argue everything seems would make feel like cant anything right love much miss im trying hold together stress life routine gets me hate myself hate job hate sleeping hate world sometimes evil ways ive held head several times cant get pull trigger dont know anymore feel empty inside work hours ive sense pm yesterday slept hours yesterday life sucks dont know even talking this guess feels somewhat good get chest makes hate wanting fucked sounds first time ive thought though sat gun hand desire hurt anyone myself sucks ive smoked entirely many cigarettes typing dont even post probably try lay keep thinking ending it im broken dont know fix myself,1 "@AdrianVZiegler Hi Adrian your music is so good,your music inspired my all time its something it's something glorious to hear I am treating depression and your music inspires me and fills me with strength and joy,a hug from Spain Adrian ^_^/",1 biggest lie ever told gets better years since attempt nothing changed still agony future terrifying loosing faith god please stop testing god cannot fucking take anymore take now biggest lie ever told,1 bad luckthis first post reddit ever ive many concussions resulting different sports also bad luck cant really complain life had pretty much straight as building engineering large group friends family supportive loving good relationship girlfriend financially im ease thing is keep getting head injuries worst ways possible got one months ago seventh oneafter it period dark thoughts cause seemed like never healing love sports anything them even hang friends without getting headaches neck pain last week first time actually felt like getting better much so decided go pick nicking friends today arrived park go struck head frisbee dumb seems impact made lose consciousness finally got back apartment concussion symptoms back seems every time starts getting better everything goes back shit feel like strength left go trough recovery again university starts tomorrow im fucking scared able concentraee feel helpless like im endless cycle shit goes bad time start seeing hope almost like life wants myself sorry long post much anger rage sadness,1 @talkrubbish LOL yip..bikini with polo neck jumper and jeans on top!! ,0 rootbeersoup yeah too bad people like a certain burrito eating man exist,0 clear things clone upgrade notice instead get ur facts straight,0 last year depression went rising steadily every day every choice make comes wrong important people life ignore me feels like permanent headache nothing change anything everything falls apart,1 give reddit name someone send pictures sheep dont use u ping see,0 killing cat passesitll while feel like clarity today while im even sad done all accomplished something really big life currently supporting taking care cat bruce hes gone whats point everyone move on wish things worked way wanted life got close,1 i have had an allergic reaction to my contact stuck with my spec until it clear up mean and end to my breast feeding tho,0 ICU EDWARD CULLEN WEARING TENTH DOCTORS BLUE SUIT! ,0 beautiful film coming early silent cinema china shadow magic deftly combines love story drama cultural clash chinas ancient traditions modern western culture form film amazing first film chinese director ann hu correctly understood ms hus comments sundance festival film produced american film cofunding chinese government shot china shadow magic reminds films like il postino cinema paradiso necessarily theme plot similar feel,0 "@chayn3s haha where is 91610? isnt it 90210 maybe hahaa no way man, san francisco xx",0 weird place life girl really good friends might like might like like domt want ruin help,0 jerk watch another episode violet evergarden sleep,0 "@kelligillis Thank you so much for following us. As one of the first couple followers, your support is incredibly appreciated ",0 jerry dyer fucking idiot mayorelect fresno former chief fresno police department probably already see problem andrew janz enough people voted every vote counts especially local elections vote plz dont get another devin nunes jerry dyer devin nunes also idiot httpsthehillcompolicyenergyenvironmenttrumporderredirectscaliforniawatersupplyafterreversalfromamp,0 seen many wong karwais movies happy together fallen angels ashes time knew expect coming theatre cinematography would lush use space perspective would varied acting would superb least one characters would consumed ineffable loneliness are all precisely techniques make wong karwais art is expecting degree drawn film reviewers dismissed unfinished compelled characters seemed consumed ennuibr br i find interesting people utterly unmoved film vividly displays emotions settings many us take granted work ardently forget overwhelming sense grief stemming betrayed guilt aroused thought becoming better betrayer mundane yet profoundly intimate moments relationships need express oneself verbally utterly superfluous wong karwai attempts portray film achieves wellbr br too many americans consumed need every moment film filled stock dialogue witty banter disaffected sarcasm overwrought confessions seem pinnacle best american film offer wong karwai sees things differently instead character needing keep audience apprised every feeling perception belief wongs characters make feelings understandings known clearly facial gestures body positioning and yes silencebr br if viewers merely contemplate film standpoint character development action may disappointed offer willing let try intuit characters feeling may feel quite differently wong offer them,0 film taken seriously great little film nonethelessbr br its definitely piece fluff acting imo excellentbr br one films go way see brings smile every time comes around cable like old friendbr br definitely worth seeing get chancebr br ,0 finally today l finally got balls ask crush whether liked said yes l,0 remake anime classic s one even better sylia nene linna priss back knight sabers hardsuits battling robotic boomers animation crisp characters welldeveloped action rocks priss singer regular job series features wonderful songs well fair amount violence robots fan service nothing racy dvds also many extras including commentaries really enhance understanding enjoyment show musthave anime fanbr br also recommended burst angel armitage iii,0 hi everyone honestly trying anything point therapy nearly decade anti depressants psychedelic therapy etc cannot seem reconcile emotional sect brain logic part brain reason issues emotional sect overreacts melodramatic always overwrite warps logic rationalization battling selfish wish stick around self help genuinely feel terrible hurt point shaken faith particular incidents miserable years battling depression tonight feels like losing night suppose need rant fair require somebody stick around misery ow amusement particularly poor night,1 omg this bed is making me sick i cant even sleep in it,0 mg ibuprofen mei took tonight,1 stuck pit foreverim stuck cant seem help myself wanna die cant either fuck im stuck really stuck honestly dont even want get better anymore ill always fall back pit whats point getting accustomed seeing others lead lives waste mine away day day hour hour stuck pit,1 many people like sleeping raining understand calming keeps awake loud yeah make fun me,0 town mph wind rn watched streetlight fall semi tip side got learners permit today woooo ,0 foods boosts mood read title read title read title,0 went out for a short but efficient walk - felt like an old lady - that's 30+ for you ,0 mousenator cry,0 f sick living it call others names constantly bickering other telling fuck off calling asshole lazy etc sick around it confront acting like front either deny rude promise again anyone else deal this parents verbally abusive,1 way outi feel trapped endless loop head long mental state quickly deteriated able find happiness im ive attempted couple times tonight thoughts truly got best scared losing all yet time want it patience wait something good happen either even closest friend said i know asked get help mother help take doctor let even get medication hope one help find way,1 hey usocksareverycool okay hes inactive even though really active couple days ago,0 bravestarr released defunct american animation company filmation back heman masters universe shera princess power respectively plot cartoon native american cowboy named marshall bravestarr possesses strength bear ears wolf speed puma eyes hawk trusty sidekick talking horse named thirty thirty carried gun aptly titled sarah jane help deputy fuzz judge jb serve protect new texas evil tex hex band outlawsbr br set futuristic texas still day one cartoons set particular city us hence south thousands light years ahead future considering made s creators impressive job trying recreate wild west look scifi based outlook bravestarr evoke morality good verses bad well teaching children lessons life also highlighted themes culture community take things life granted despite fact action adventure cartoon many story lines themes issues addressed resonate children adults way makes sense them addition marshall bravestarr one first major cartoon characters ethnicminority background make impact tvbr br the sound effects amazing music great theme song equally memorable animation wonderful characters well designed stories diverse taught kids morals importance right wrong something cannot said todays cartoons sadlybr br whilst bravestarr overshadowed success heman still personal favourite many s cartoon fanatics suffice say preferred bravestarr heman diversity story lines characters depth situations problems characters faced themselves would say realistic identifiable contrast reason resonated people like instancein the pledge kid dies drug overdose fact happy ending important sense kids watch episode well fact anyone watches episode realise devastating consequences drug usage one underestimate dangers drugsbr br bold brave times thoughtprovoking bravestarr definitely that bold brave thought provoking cult cartoon classic many years come dared take risks well truly paid end remembered many cartoon fans one interesting well best s cartoons ever rightly sobr br half ten,0 shouting internet answer look really care side political spectrum fall into really disheartening see people blindly attacking eachother sub and others ofc instead saying blanket statements calling everyone side idiots sheep approach mature angle us young people obviously supposed future leaders whatever country reside in better came us clearly failed polite listen concerns other side feeling actually talk things realize different end day might side ask you lets conversation lets come consensus despite differences view want see change world start discourse all kind,0 "@rEDGYbrecker Not joking, I think he has a bipolar disorder that causes manic episodes followed by periods of crippling depression. This behavior goes back some years",1 spoiler alertbr br i watched extended version bedknobs broomsticks though like extended version wish would left original version dvdbr br the portabello road could cut orginal length long dragged movie along though dancing great would much better left dvd deleted scenebr br all great movie year old liked it wonderful movies enjoyed child passed new generation mary poppins added collectionbr br just rememberedbr br br br ,0 people know say weakness animated filmsbr br to fair people half right actual weakness exceptionally welldone animated films vintage family flick max david fleischerbr br you may thinking yourself well great heard it fair question movie released week attacks pearl harbor unavoidably bad timing caused film sink relative obscurity things looking up though finally released dvd title bugvillebr br its funny film went this kind mirrors actual plot although people claim movie trying send environmental message ugh personally think movies main idea perseverance adversity hard times after all country barely pulled depression timebr br our grasshopper hero hoppity desperately wants help endangered community problem time tries whether illwill others simple bad luck fails miserablyand slowly begins earn disdain people hes trying save although best maintain notredflag outlook occasionally breaks encouragement support friends gets back feet fights good fight healthy reminder that said done one really selfsufficientbr br okay saying it good message two actually really make exceptionally welldone br br my answer partiallybr br its message makes movie special characterization one films see personality cast member animation almost even need spoken lines good way sum energetic lively lot movies used selling point lovable cast characters whenever hear line always makes think moviebr br case point bad guys swat fly smack mosquito many movies lovable villains think find entertaining endearing fellows forget stooges cartoon s swat smack closest thing animated version moe curly but sadly larry ever find virtually funniest moments somehow involve gruesome twosome yeah theyre rotten nogoodniks still care them thats kind power see really talented writer director crewbr br the movie two brief jokes revolving around racial stereotypes native americans chinese think intended malicious theyre there regardless bother me itd pretty unfair warn someone potentially would bothered thembr br so share weakness and think do give one go,0 im losing iti love girl much get led left comes back happens driving insane cant stop letting love much im ive gone much girl cant her lifes fuxked schooling gone shit try make music never good enough nobody cares enough help friends stab back constantly use friends since day one quit job girl spend time cant get part time job sell weed got money doesnt feel right drink drink trying numb doesnt work smoke weed gives horrible anxiety cant feel im turning emotionless dont know im going life cant end family cant im struggling hard fuck everything up feel like options everything fails nothing left cant talk people problems feel bad dont wsnt that one understand girl think multiple personalities admits fucks bad help,1 im scared friends im lot friends really weird fetishes like bdsm shit dont try hide theyre completely public it dont know disturbs fetishes normal age go away feel scared,1 lets hypothetically say got k stranger honestly happen nowadays meet mrbeast stire everything like walkart target need spend h it,0 i can t concentrate,0 im trainsphobic trains scary af theyre big loud easily kill you,0 bell book candle released december features james stewart kim novak jack lemmon ernie kovaks film james stewart kim novak second onscreen pairing after alfred hitchcock classic vertigo released earlier year stewarts last film romantic lead deemed old age play sort part anymore movie witch played kim novak attracted mortal played james stewart puts spell falls head heels love her enjoyed movie cast movie time moderate success nominated golden globe best movie comedy gimmeclassics,0 says late afternoon to all! http://plurk.com/p/xksxf,0 point anymore cannot anything sitting helpless nothing besides scared crying sleep rn,1 well im cant party seen friends weeks got great homemade cake tho,0 normal avoid cousins connect other see point really like this usually ones started first ie inviting outings together cousins probably im youngest one excluding family gatherings remember time desperately wanted go begged join used desperately wanted join them seems like tables turned theyre ones trying include me im one wanting to really like join much though theyve started open try hang out hell try sit beside avoid eye contact them talk minimally them although family gatherings routinely,0 laying in bed with sugar! <3,0 today im celebrating first birthday years years loneliness years friends finally fear still stays what come what make fun you exciting yet terrifying actually birthdays mostly mom friends,0 ready diei sad get drunk friend supposed comfort tonight left get drunk aunt left alone nobody wants fucking around me even stay im fucking crazy nobody needs me nobody wants me fucking care anymore tomorrow im killing myself,1 ok quick question good app recommendations get bored easily need games play im ipad use apple appstore cant find good ones also im going record today taco trilogy day,0 evilunicorn will do lt,0 im burnt out quarantine onceinalifetime break needed im essential worker work even harder normal im drained brain nothing lefti know know thankful im still getting paycheck thankful get wits me know im blessed still bills paid mental health declining rapid pace first daily anxiety attacks frequent panic attacks weekends wholly consumed depression come roaring back alongside daily thoughts redflag sustainable day goes dont think offing myself recently idea death allure like water someone walking desert need rest death thing provide that feel like job meat grinder im meat fed it eventually going kill me either that coronavirus stuff ill get new job ill work til die way joyous im posting im actually going go it cant tell friends im feeling theyve fired furloughed set problems dont need hear mine needed get somewhere hope okay,1 holy shindig thats hot,0 curious to see what people think here s my question can dissociation also be described a separating yourself from thing event happening in your life for example if something happens that overwhelms me or make me really anxious a lot of time i simply forget it i ll be going along with my day a normal but feel that something is off so i ll have to sit for a moment and think why do i feel sad anxious etc and after a minute of thinking back it click oh right i have to give a presentation on thursday is this a form of dissociation it ha always happened to me and if i describe it to someone they usually don t understand it i e if i m anxious i can t stop thinking about whatever it s about let alone forget it i told my therapist about it one session and she thought it wa fascinating she said that anxiety is stored in the body too so that s why i can feel the negative feeling even if i forget why it s there just curious i m not seeing that therapist anymore or else i d ask her,1 planned seeing movie however disappointed friend dragged along although real surprises here guys reasonably well obviously modest budgetbr br if seen trailer probably know expect type movie theres pretty constant stream jokes here couple classic moments highpoint probably excellent flashback guys like s also ive read elsewhere ending disappointment found refreshingly different expected genrebr br overall movie wont change life got enough laughs keep entertained throughout,0 film version alice walkers hugely emotive influential novel written largely letters central character celie god massive oscar success rightly sobr br in role abused awakened celie whoopi goldberg gave best screen performance miles far behind oprah winfrey sofia fiery woman tamed fate others cast fleshed characters walker introduced clearly page danny glover albert celies abusive husband margaret avery shug force change good willard pugh rae dawn chong harpo squeak susan beaubian corrine preachers wife muchmissed carl anderson otherwise best known judas film jesus christ superstar preacher samuelbr br beautifully paced sensitively written the color purple justice source opening story involve viewers featurelength drama,0 hi my bf and i are dating since year we love each other very much but i had my diagnosis anxiety and depressive disorder due tu my anxiety month ago and there ha been a lot of change my bf is very comprehensive but sometimes he say thing that i don t understand like since ish month he keep telling that i make no effort in our relationship that i am always sad or tired or angry or sick i often have ordinary cold etc i already had a discussion with him explaining that i can t help it that i ll try to change my behavior that sometimes my disorder affect me so much that i can t move and he seems to understand but it all start again week later besides when i have panic attack he help me well i don t understand why he keep saying thing like this it make me feel guilty i try really hard to make an effort but sometimes i just can t and for those asking yes i have already talked with him about this but nothing change i understand that it may be tough for him to have an anxious gf but his word cut deep sometimes i am currently in therapy and with a treatment ha nobody experienced a similar situation how did you guy manage relationship and disorder,1 coming guy prefer special type girls please nice give lots hugs cuddles,0 moony 9 it must be because i slash their character sighhh gon na go sleep and dream happy thing about kutner,0 really need help im much emotional paini wish wasnt anymore thoughts ending life multiple times day last days ive planned cant fix im gonna choice it basically friend went class finished long ago course years long started develop feelings finishing finally got courage last tuesday told ask asked date went bad really bad opinion since havent stopped crying since also lost really good friend person feelings would anything keep happy havent eating fully either feel down every time sleep dreams every single night wish would never wake time dont want sleep makes think irreplaceable unique many ways shes constantly mind making eyes water speak stopping anything everything tried dating apps like match signed answered questions first person pop best matched cant take it tried tinder boom pops really want superlike press wink button time bad idea rejected past dont know anymore everything me,1 know life tough sometimes im offering hand friendship sympathetic ear think everyone problem bigger others also lot luckier others sense acceptance open minded person biases i think want talk someone problems thoughts im you alone okay,0 hi early s right teen recently depressed borderline suicidal never told anyone scared internalize every negative feeling get which currently working on past year found amazing friend group online love dating one quite issue keep making edgy jokes suicide mind jokes since edgy sometimes gets lot joke hey name go kill something times minute mentioned longer suicidal definitely moments past couple months overwhelmed sadness wanted die either way main issue person partner absolutely love much point jokes like ruin day give extremely much redflag terrified telling want either ruin fun want act different me know mad anything mostly scared something could completely change relationship since would become like emotional baggage and already enough thati mentioned sometimes deal lot redflag used really bad never anything else could possibly tell this try best ignore leave chat goes on tell someone suicidal past,1 class always thought life would lead either joining military going college however pandemic hit everything life turned upside down lost friends lost family lost myself starters would go recruiting office every day recruiter would call fat dumb show up remember specifically one day gained pound losing her found one pound put water diet drink liquids however dinner gained weight back point on knew starts lose hope seen talk friends me caught covid could leave bed whole month went back recruiting office saw faker human being moving forward point chat told straight would anything good life said army good thing me night starved june hoping get skinnier show right however found hard way help made weight worse year since starved myself however nothing changed sit family want college try out back plan except met right feedback met feedback made thoughts worsen calling retard getting told never good enough sadly every time try bring up either call names stop conversation hide paperwork colleges sorry long cannot take longer family trouble,1 im going sleep want post reach doots post making reaches doots wake up create new youtube channel try make good content current channel videos myself one day decided private all taking suggestions content may start streaming twitch platforms successful make first video try consistent future uploads again taking suggestions content see yall around half hours,0 stop posting goddamn karma whoring life stories omg guys ive stopped cutting full month came closet yay karma whoring garbage dont care about great accomplished something isnt rlookatme bet people dont care either want people slobber personal life go somewhere else im sure pedophile gladly you,0 ok but when's summer coming like this off and on snow & rain is making my seasonal depression stay longer than it should have.,1 "@MelPopular because it would be so easy to snap on you, I'm not going to ",0 psycho dark mode would u voluntarily wanna burn ur eyes,0 get sink holei m think got pretty good life ive got bunch friends family im either far close them got average grade school got average jobs got life project many got passion im crazy either thing think lack relationship thats driving crazy know deep deep inside question time become alone friend antisocial type slowly start ton enter even before covid social activity dampd game week said bad but meet someone new also try online meeting enough sexappel make play scene ask bar even im big fan craft beer friend social type always end going alone bar big problem know lot people thanks taxi driver little town months go bar lots people come talk like minutes pass another call end always end alone counter beer result ive got lot time think myself never good thing depress introspection moment ive came one conclusion thing do kill time forgot im alone preventing think ive recently observe lissent music loud prevent think thing make tome go faster die im even capable enjoying long terme lose them bother much sadly reason kill hour date im mom would cry phase phase days pass probably last one crazy lot people way worst position way happier fate fate future maybe day get better know good way thinking fking logical ass keep saying chance high loto ticket people know believing lotto chance one moment trip way living time good way thinking way stay alive understand too im always tear two exhausting wanna go sleep never wake up,1 got drunk first time tonight good feeling ive secretly sneaking dads vodka could see feels like really shit feel dizzy wobbly third shot vodka and smaller drinks like cider sick kitchen sink washed away anyone could see sat bathroom like minutes deciding stick finger doe throat led throwing entire conterntz stomach honestly bad feeling idea peol get drunk plus side see dizzy felt kinda funny gravity felt really heavy im cold tired dizzy pyjamas smell like fake lidls malibu almist gagged spat bit owt trying drink lot it advice people never drunk not might seem like cool thing everyone romanticises drinking school honestly bad experience hope makes sense hope dont get drunk long time experience,0 going sound strange but happens social media accounts cousin takes life i wanted see strange reason social media accounts close relative takes life weeks ago something mind reason,1 hello want heard somebody hope great day hey people want share little chapter life here want talk somebody problems maybe new friends i dont any january manager twin peaks good job me married love life dreamed car lovely dog months later nothing nothing got fired got divorced took everything bank account debt dont job many dreams required money time im trying succeed youtubenot trying promote channel want go check i consider nice guy never trying harm anybody dreams quiet simple overall life really hard want tell stories cry whoever listen somebodys problems dont know want heard guess let know think year you,1 bother anywayill never worth anything autism disables me cant go out cant work cant contribute society cant study executive function issues every time look work cry im abusive relationship partner know deal anymore still care im buried valentines chocolate feel guilty eating know strangles abd calls piece shit left id die hes carer cant make phone calls go alone payments woulkd cut ablw buy food matter anyone anyway say im never one think first cant help anyone cant get close anyone cant make difference literally sit everyday living existing wonder hurts live dont want anymore never anything anyone fucking piece shit nobody cares get close tell fuck im for live feel pain,1 fun fact friday dolphins sleep one eye open,0 "@WholeFoodsHOU OK, will do! Thanks for the reply. I'll have to figure out something else to do with it ",0 i had struggled with this decision for month and finally i did it today i think i had been thinking a lot about how to say it and what my bos would say and i didn t even think about how i would feel after doing it maybe bc deep down i kinda knew i wa postponing it for a long time kinda surprised myself today when i did it the thing is i m just really weirded out bc i know it s the best for me and my bos even said so that there s in fact no room for growth there but i think my discomfort come from a deep attachment to this routine i ve had for almost year even if it wasn t the best and not knowing what s gon na happen with my job life from now on bc i don t have a new one yet amp x 00b anyway don t wan na let my anxiety win and revolve around this weird feeling bc i think i should be proud of myself for taking the matter into my own hand for once and for all amp x 00b if you read this hi and ty,1 got ta stop turning in homework late would be gettin an a in information system if it wasnt for the few late assigments,0 hello i am i had been very reluctant to admit i wa depressed but it s very hard to hide at this point plus who am i kidding apparently it written over my face for people who have known me for a while it really hurt me when people ask how are you i can not tell if they are just being cordial or they truly care i assume the former for them and respond i am good okay but every time i say i am good i feel slightly sadder because i know that is not the case i want to speak about this to friend but i do not really feel close to any friend anymore i moved country so this could be a contributing factor so here i am on reddit i have attended university twice now and already going to have a delay on this degree which mean another year of my life wasted to chasing a degree 9 i have been very disconnected from friend over the last two year and have felt like i am in a prison because i have mostly spoken extensively to just two people over last two year maybe this is because i am extroverted i do not recognise myself anymore i used to be so positive and strong mentally but a lot of negative thinking and bad thought have engulfed me for a while now i used to be very funny and enjoyed joking around but thats vanished these day i used to be very athletic and worked very hard to get lean after antipsychotic made me gain weight but now i am starting to put some weight back on because i have been using unhealthy food to cope these day my mind is flooded with so much negative thought pattern it s becoming too exhausting and i can barely study despite my best effort and knowing final are next week mostly quit social medium especially instagram because all it make me do is compare myself to others and reminds me of how unaccomplished i feel and the older i get the more i start to fear that i might actually go nowhere and how it might be better to die young and full of potential than a wasted life will i get back to how i once wa before my mental health went to shit is there a way out for good i have tried therapy but didn t work my last therapist told me she doesn t know why i am depressed because i am very good looking smart likeable and said to cheer up like it wa that simple,1 husband m got married years ago happy together fairly dark mental career states met work found happiness left work place successful place new career new city enjoy things work success place family husband got new seasonal job place used work lives best friends town hour drive away hes loving every minute new duties new coworkers amazing boss loves place is damn happy him really fills heart talk phone visit him see thrilled hes amazing gift us both means living alone weeks since left comes visit every weekends found time enough energy even put plates empty dishwasher put wrappers trash empty overflowing recycling pick dog shit yard time must strength vacuum wipe counters laundry etc many friends new city back old work husband is like coworkers far younger necessarily see eye eye everything spend time alone walked dog weeks play back yard house extremely messy standards depression pit hes coming home week days picking place suddenly energy hide shameful mess make space welcoming him kitchen clean yard picked up sheets fresh trash empty feels good clean cannot myself cannot get enough energy little things every night keep house like this instead know housekeeping chores get mad energy it makes want hide world go crawl bed watch crappy youtube videos instead get energy take care yourself realized little value myself ill bend backwards everyone else make happy cannot even gather energy toss garbage alone,1 jimmy laughed chit chatted nothing matter normal jimmy even heavy fire hed still nattering scottish accent smile giant twisty raf moustache jimmy landed wee plane first open veld spotted father instantly fell plane tuck rolled ready run cover jimmy bit surprised steady old chap need tinkle,1 pathetici pathetic im fucking loser cant stand it im sick alive thought things starting get betterbecause finally got girlfriend treated like princesswas upsetgave love guess what broke yesterday shes already talking bunch guys fucking hate myself real friendsthey never think acknowledge existence hang them im back smoking weed taking dxm think im gonna wait till birthday june kill myself dont fit anywhereso stay know ill always melancholy guy never chance life cant wait die ill never deal miserable existence again never joys life me dont particularly enjoy anything except completely stoned numb used smartnow barely remember simplest thingsi forget spell certain words even though amazing spelling younger im deteriorating emotionallyin personality intellectually dont want live like this could today smoke weedsleep schooland took bunch dxm gel caps hours ago happened girls loved treated special virgin honorable swear girls whpres anymore never met girl age virgin cant blame women thoughim sorry fuck dxm fucked upim sorry,1 feel like way outin january attempted od failed things alright little got hospital feel like redflag option dad fight lot starting crying fighting called ungrateful little bitch said stuff could would abort right made want die know abuse feel like burden everyone around me,1 asked help get it want kill spite themive depressed long genuinely cant tell even adults supposed happy wanted help point asked it made beg give it go whole sob story sometimes want part statistic think even want happy want die know still years ahead want none them liked life far hell deal with fuck years more stupid game want play want stop life happening left fuck alone deal anyone anything ever hear anything heard ever again want stop existing want everything stop,1 worry much life worry myself always hating cannot keep people want think want matter many times times person tell worry care cannot listen them like parents mentioned price therapy could care pain l cared burden existence putting people around me care,1 @filmspotting welcome back to Iowa ,0 excellent thriller turkey make sensegreat job gokbakar brothersbr br first alli want point screen playgenerally screen play films turkey enoughbut gen best shots said perfectand also transition parts really excellentbr br on handgen great topic influence everyoneespeciallya woman who wants psyciatrist sanitarium has mother habitual insanityprincipal causes psychological consequences given genthe thing combine hintsbr br there impressive aggression part doga rutkay sahan gokbakar playedthis performance may realistic irrversiblemonica bellucci br br the last thing want say watch movieyoull get confused,0 life always revolves around redflagthat life about think about strive for want goals life first attempt redflag fucking sitting hill motor bike xr took helmet off jumped bike without really thinking it went full speed hill towards parked truck closed eyes breathed cool air dust woke hospital broken arms tracheostomy tube cut neck made friends neighbour cute girl age thought would badass way die killed pitbull expected chained dogs attacked straight away went it got good hold hip bone father jumped balcony story whipped dog face steel cap boots pulling away dog never let go meaning got chunk me always creative kid made device pulley system dam designed went underneath pulled rope would keep get out one cousins coming play saw finishing touches it told raft could fish with helped played little catch anything diagnosed cancer much energy kill myself discovered evolution happiest studying that antidepressants swallowed minute little later mother comes notices sweating looking good rushed hospital cleaned stomach put fluids put plastic bag head spray deodorant inside it plastic pressed button extract gas bag tied around neck cutting oxygen went sleep woke middle night bag beside me reconnected rough cousin well knowing probably something painless death mm wanted look kept bullets another locked box gave would obvious asked see bullets suicidal want sent psych hospital bought home every night since go sleep bath head hoping one night little tight wake up im cant go sleep without bag head im pretty sure point brain damage enough people notice enough to im looking help wanted tell story one life cry too im telling story internet thanks coming ted talk,1 dont want biological males using washroom using washroom school today biological male came in cant stand fact right use washroom biden erased women dont forget it,0 going going aaand gone poor moosie fell asleep in class http twitpic com y y,0 @ksidney wolverine was GREAT!!! a must see ,0 rumlover an empty rum barrel is a sad rum barrel shake head the horror the horror,0 used social incredibly active social media met lot incredible people there however one method therapist told remove potential triggers may fall back depression loop identified social media one them time went improvements mood swings relatively stable however became less comfortable inviting people life included isolated others still keep contact friends enthusiastic opening them zzzz things improving cost,1 for context i m an english teacher at a small private english school the school is so small i m the only teacher no sub i got my period last night and a always the first day is the worst cramp headache nausea needing the loo every minute and i feel so freaking cold today no matter what i do i just can t seem to get warm so i cancelled my two afternoon lesson and asked the receptionist to deal with a meeting with a potential client herself i mean that s pretty much her job anyway but i feel so guilty for cancelling the class the nausea got worse a soon a i sent the text to my bos i feel bad that i have to cancel two class in one day especially since i had a week holiday the week before last maybe the student are losing too much lesson time this year my class today were from to 0 and then to but i don t go home in the gap between meaning i d have to sit at my desk with nothing comfy or warm for hour all while feeling really crappy idk just looking for someone to tell me it ok to take a sick day if i need it and tell the anxiety voice to shut the heck up edit thank you so much to everyone who commented and got me through the day i went to bed feeling better emotionally and physically than when i got up today is a new day,1 And I got to see Coalesce destroy the low ceiling! And the gutair player used sheetrocks to play his guitar! THAT was awesomeness! ,0 knife hand itgtan audiobook played background switchblade skull print stuck throat body convulsed spurted blood mouth wound onto wooden floor slowly lost consciousness scenario imagined then think ill know idea felt nice commitment death terrifying process loosing consciousness seems strangely pleasing im guessing things do life half bad good grades supportive friends came trans everyone near accepted me parents provide anything need depressed life good attempted redflag last spring sometimes regret go way times im glad die want live others myself sometimes barely get bed mornings anyone else mess like me,1 mostly reminder use pill box purchased awhile ago rather taking pills straight bottle felt like needed get somewhere somehow update like me obsessively search forums like one thought id post happened since then took awhile find psychiatrist accepting patients finally saw one yesterday regards strange symptoms result taking nd pill accident said since mg already max dose lexapro taking mg could produce psychotic symptoms,1 abuseit really negative effect whole life someone whos sexually assaultedharassed emotionally abused drags drastically,1 "@mofgimmers Pesky world getting in the way of my idealism. I might kick the world's ass tomorrow and sort it out. First, bedtime ",0 bf care commit redflagi dating years love deeply im using redflag way control really bad mental issues ive gotten help im antidepressants years difference im ready want know affect want hurt him,1 still FIGURING OUT how to do this? ,0 no way i m gon na sleep tonight,0 everyday is so hard i feel like everyone is fake and everybody think i m stupid or weirdo i ve been bullied alot mainly because i m quiet introvert what people use against me and abuse me feel like every friend or relative think i m nothing i m a failure just stupid it s so hard to live with myself,1 "@danimichelle I am home with a full heart, and a sunburned head It's all good!",0 i am mentally exhausted i have so many problem that i can not deal with my older brother bully me daily and all i do is just sit and listen to it if i tell him to stop he will just continue to be more annoying i have a lot of health problem my parent dont want to take me to a doctor because they think i am lying so i have to do it myself i am not legal in my country i go to school and put on a fake personality and laugh people bully me even there not physcally but mentally they tell me i am dumb weird skinny crazy i have zero friend in real life i have online friend that used to help me with everything and even made a workout plan for me all of that faded since my health is sucking rn my parent call me crazy daily becayse i like ti play video game for hour a day that is crazy to them even tho everyone else tell them it normal all i feel inside if me is just fear sadness and hopelessness 0 good or happy thought i thoght dozen if time about suicide i can t do it i have ocd and that top of everything and obliderates my life and make me suffer even more i can t take it anymore i don t knoe where to go or what to do it like i don t belong anywhere or cant do anything all i can do is whine on random subbredit because i have no one to talk to is this all life really is i know you might say ohh but if you try to get yourself up and get motivated and do stuff trust me i tried it many time it fails because of family problem etc am i worth saving is my life really worth living,1 thought death brings peace ive never felt im whenever decide herei always knew different knew fucked way got here ive life formally diagnosed ive struggled short term memory loss since kid brings much anxiety life cannot really know am want die already know id it waiting me really shame wanted somebody try fail every single time hate myself itll huge shock everyone family always knew coming day,1 @jemima_blue they have ,0 Eating at Houstons. Yummy! Then Prom. & hopefully get to see someone tonight! ,0 really wish someone gave fuck methis throwaway account thats jake paul name joke remember kid thought id wife girlfriend grew up fucking joke instead stuck fucking room fucking dumbass quarantine school wanting kill one gives shit ive started texting girl asked course rejected im lowlife piece shit always hits first shes reason basically hope except deep know doesnt give fuck never love useless loser like fucking pandemic dont even soccer thing kept going every week time feel express dont want fucking kill myself best friend ghosted last weeks im completely alone person even texts girl wont hang even wanted couldnt quarantine im gonna make weeks wish gf cares would hold close tell gonna ok wish could say stuff friends im man cant show emotion look like pussy want cuddle girl warm happy im loser idk want happy long,1 i need my depression to chill a bit cause i havet done any art in over a month wtf,1 want end iti cant asked life skills hobbies none love none open to noone hug me none comfort me happiness life useless,1 life trust connection fucked upi live alone spent time alone since beginning covid ive ruined first relationship ive ever ive felt safe genuine ways keep fucking every time less safety less trust time dont know repair more moods point im completely apathetic catatonic like get up sit one place day lose time also aware horrifically dragged single minute is get stoned minds racing go bed again dont speak anybody dont hear anyone know point im thought people im almost waiting sign permission ok make decision thing keeping going making very gory emotionally uncomfortable art stuff intense enough cause loved one cry it close dont really see aspect true feelings more intense people love you dont want burden more relapsed opiate addiction midst bullshit kept hidden long could kept keeping dirty junkie secrets like always fucking used to even dont understand obviously wanted sabotage life badly recent months ive fucking clean days much even looking heroin whole time ive even tried sneakily source case one off ive taken form opiate ive sober exception weed feel better it everybody life treats something not using heroin partner told dont trust me nature relationship vague think dont like even thought person more feel completely utterly unheard unseen point due constantly spiralling ways existing expressing others dont find appropriate makes uncomfortable im aware reality so like now feel like truly end want hear reasonable way think feel fucking nuts cant tell anybody im close to im going jump local viaduct m high fucked,1 @HanSpam oooh cooolness check this... http://tinyurl.com/pfn57y its about a fifth twilight book,0 hello guy first time posting here i hope everyone is doing alright at this time i just found out my friend ha committed suicide a year ago first let me give some background my friend is such a gentle loving soul and very devoted to his religion jehovah s witness he is not the most social person around bit awkward and also had plenty of issue in the past mentally due to a rough upbringing we were good friend he d always give me encouragement and just be there for me for anything i wa cut off from the religion due to myself realizing and developing my own belief i don t have a grudge towards the religion or anything like that despite being cut off and not being able to socialize with anyone from that religion cu it s the rule also i felt awkward and embarrassed that i am cut off therefore i did not have the courage to face my friend a year passed i m on a skiing trip with my brother i asked how my friend is doing since he sometimes still go to their church so i figured he d know something he told me he passed away a year so from suicide i am shocked from the news i can t seem to comprehend or accept the fact he seemed to be very devoted to his faith and committing suicide is one of the thing that are forbidden also i feel like trash for being a horrible friend and not even checking in on him at all or at least tried to due to my insecurity my mind ha been in shamble i don t know how to make amends i don t know if i can see the parent they d just be like so now you care where were you thr whole time etc etc i wa hoping to visit his grave but he wa cremated and ash were spread somewhere now all i can think of is his obit picture smiling but i can see there s so much hurt inside that broken smile,1 http://twitpic.com/6umwn - that's me! - a photo to win a violet guitar signed by @mileycyrus. had to take a rock pic! Not the best!,0 recommend history research topic high school student history research topic must start extent year long project must able argued for must sufficient information decently sized paper,0 posthello please call latios ive depressed years many reasons ive suicidal thoughts years ive almost decided go it depression something hold behind while recently spiked around years ago ever since ive held behind alot lonelinessmy siblings moved leftmy mom ditched brother feel alonei talked anyone could really use help thanks,1 might die sooni feel guilty feeling happy found might heart problem bulimia might super long time live know shouldnt happy im time ive struggling depression whole life ive hospitalized multiple times seen multiple counselors types medicine nothing ever worked even asked shock treatment said type depression wouldnt work im much coward kill myself might light end tunnel know anyway appreciate always safe place say stuff thank finally feel soon might peace,1 failing bar examafter third attempt taking bar find failed im going end life im dollars debt cannot find job law field save life im doctor laws im working retail making like bucks hour cant afford live own im burden everyone around me think im mentally emotionally handicapped leading problems people im total asshole even though try fun friendly anxiety high think people hate me end prick ive never romantic relationship longer months sex anyone since july people try get dating apps im all ive women approve profile told things make available others see best light im old someone damaged me im unattractive feel wanted swiped right tens thousands times im apparently offputting cant get match all ive depression whole life went one hardest law schools country ive done great things standards lived good life accounts cannot happy depression eating alive failing bar twice urged try again heartbreak failing twice see way me something wonderful happen first week november resigned fate probably place post publicly it want die dont reason live more love meaningful relationships light end tunnel get better gets worse ill get older sadder ill get fatter balder ill get lonelier angry better wait boils hit someone else want something one ever find body like ever im obviously coward without getting eaten alive wolves drowning painfully dont want traumatize family anyone find gross body want disappear forever body burial ive already thought ocean need something render body completely gone trace eg cant use gun someone could hear it go somewhere could found thoughts miracles appreciated,1 please look menobody cares writing this bye bye,1 girl friend wants kill herselfmy girl friend say something wants die almost every single day suffered fro depression severe anxiety frequent panic attacks lately getting lot worse im worried day shell actually it every time hint speak therapist loses it ive always taught someone say theyre going kill get help im afraid get help itll ruin relationship im terrified im going lose best friend think theres anything it,1 my stress always culminates with physical pain,0 @miss_paola I wish u were talkin bout ME..... ,0 stop thinking killing myselfi stop thinking killing myself anything power stop thinking including one occasion principle pulled class youtube instead supposed doing even attempts temporary useless end last night scary thought society corrupt could remove crooks could make society perfect wait point serving society yourself everything useless end end since theres point managed scare myself,1 goddamn uselessim told gifted life know am done nothing it absolutely nothing went mediocre public liberal arts college dropped years easy boring desire go back school cannot make work hard enough anything enjoy it enjoy partying hanging friends im lot socially competent years ago small comfort friends going world writing magazines blogs starting bands getting big im still stuck knowing want do felt completely worthless person year now notion selfworth strongly connected success person cannot successful opinon know ive always hard getting impossible bear know people given much done little it feel kind like ready end all,1 Why hqs depression even to be a thing,1 best life offeri got diagnosed bipolar depression made sense time pretty shitty life fortunately since im canadian therapy meds free unfortunately thing therapy ever make aware fact redflag thing never stopped thinking since meds didnt much stopped giving while one knew fuck wrong me didnt know anything either knew didnt want live thing kept going doctor would always say dont leave situation making sure seen all kill sure lived life fullest part might sound like hopeful part not life got lot less shitty time im now im sure ive seen best life offer family loves much enough money lots friends almost get guy want try im healthy look life people around livingi realize lucky am really cant get better im still miserable even maybe care money care friends people want deal responsibility family loving me one still knows fuck wrong me still dont know anything still want live maybe lifes never meant people theres always error mutation least one models anything ever exist thought hook could kill without regretsbut couldnt it went bridge last week maybe stood hour went back home cant commit thing i think stopping fear wrong im biased im young know good life is dont actually want die wouldnt put years im herereddit wrong,1 ddofinternet first you get a bottle of water second you drink it third you become more depressed fourth depression,1 Now its time for my beauty sleep I hope I dont loose any followers...but I wont be surprised. Am greatfull to the people who follow me.,0 must continue must live according societyi born life must graduate get degree get job get drivers license start family say created here must normal labeled insane mentally defective must listen masters mean nothing extremely masculine rich successful smart tough must love material world it im going hang going free endless cycle dread try best spread joy love end efforts meaningless mocked time time again sorry childish rant truly life nothing suffering illusion happiness,1 refreshing interview legendary italian cinematographerproducerdirector passed away close features credit director large portion spent damatos softcore sex films including notorious emanuelle entries laura gemser also briefly cover porn career kept afloat last decade so interesting section focusing horror action efforts damato plenty great anecdotes actors low budget filmmaking including story assistant accidentally collecting real bones amid fake ones shooting yearold catacomb interviewees include george eastman al cliver would liked bit conversation stateside filmirage productions not single question troll granted cult film now,0 ran across movie local video store yearly sidewalk sale scanning thousands videos hoping find cartoon movies sale came across movie read back movie knew gods hand work purchase movie see sibling group three foster and soon adopted children living family immediately foster children made connection three children starring movie movie helped better understand circumstances first time also oldest sibling group year oldfemale decided open little bit past trauma experienced fighting entire trust issue also first time seen cry watching film asked meant child adopted replied it means happy must see families fostering children considering adoption certainly opened lines communication us,0 one of the hardest thing with this schedule no one i can chat with at the end of my day usually,0 tried overdose last night brother standing front methis exactly title says no partial attempt counter painkillers situation didnt walked me forgot lock door laid bed little rows mg prozac mg zoloft mg prazosin singular extra strength ibuprofin know came downstairs say anything happening fight that weve lot lately ever since got girlfriend hes different now episode panicking body looked trying make eat ive diagnosed anorexic years started yelling triggered ptsd went walk outside hour came home went straight room laid pills came started ibuprofin prazosin theyre hard swallow get gritty stick tongue taste bad wanted get way upset crying telling understand ive getting better told people tend fall pushed theres much know ive diagnosed bundle things cptsd did depression generalized anxiety also experience psychosis time time body covered scars forearms legs chest sides throat everywhere ive multiple attempts past always stopped something found time taken hospital ive tried drowning suffocation slitting radial artery slitting throat even stabbing myself ive close attempts trains nooses why feel like reading backstory means click away skip it tldr abused trans kid used smart dropout living away home ampxb used get absolutely perfect grades never failed anything several years ahead school work fathers old mechanical engineering textbooks seventh grade graduated eighth grade honors grades slowly started slip parents manipulative emotionally abused us kids two biological siblings sister called e younger brother named z currently respectively raised z parents always working going places together takes much fed clothed got trouble it e hated ever since came trans constantly told kill myself would hit scream retaliated got trouble parents accepting either told phase know came years ago hated looked began starve myself cooked refused eat table them always excuse ready time sexually abused one person relied trusted help sexually abused me want go court november think ill able to want go detail this hurts ive experiencing psychosis since kid saw therapists young age grandma always took me would hear voices see mutilated bodies horrid creatures still experience this suspicion may schizophrenic cant diagnose currently psychiatrist last one saw listen told diagnoses brushed ptsd tried double already high dosage zoloft stopped going taking meds high risk back march year hospital got back school principal told valid excuse falling far behind courses dropped out three days birthday last year turned packed clothes school bag sent parents email school saying going home withdrew parental consent live ontario form emancipation law that would homeless friend called a told last minute allowed stay place thats still turn october call brother thats essentially is family feels like family mine things started get better like said less ptsd episodes live with really talked it alters know of theyre like another family head blanks day bother me even though things getting better also getting worse relapsed anorexia recently skin bone ive selfharmed twice past month close friends girlfriend brother people understand this everyone age hates ex spread rumors school brother girlfriend months now lots friends hes im jealous wish could him wish born male wish friends wish could relationship like has tell this hurts upsets me pretty much ignores me sit room alone work sleep cant sleep im trying make career working online blogging made anything yet ive lost hope even though ive week motivation cant keep day job many episodes ive tried nobody accommodates many mental issues have working difficult brother tried get friends friends think call friends close cant go anything play magic gathering sometimes im tired im tired hurting im tired sleepless nights im tired hated alone im tired knowing nobody really cares live die except one person ampxb came last night still trying swallow two prazosin tried scoop pills grab all picked rest sat there staring him told eff leave alone yelled saying it started mockingly repeating earlier words back him yelling much jerk hes lately took zoloft right front him hit water bottle hand dry swallowed told leave again remember feeling nothing rage fear even tired felt nothing wanted pills done trying push way life everything going on still am took last night lethal sickening knocked hours hate forgot lock door want get better ive really trying im tired im sick fighting want sleep never wake up,1 girl wotermelon soooo sweet inside,0 know help them im running timea friend mine wants kill themselves theyre preparing kill themselves fact concrete plans commit redflag within weeks im running ideas ive read talking tips risk assessment guide ive tried best could follow them theyre made clear family unsupportive friends left seem external support fact mostly seems contact people think theyre attention seeker friend believes themself believes thats deserve die theyre minor live side planet know name address anything help theyre kid please want die,1 @hhavenwood That response fits perfectly for the "Diva" combo-archetype BTW..,0 f stuck situation decade want happy mind allow feel anything sadness hopelessness countless therapists psychiatrists nothing done helped tired feeling like this constant pain chronic illness pushed everyone love away going go ahead end it tried many times past secured enough pills make sure correctly time could jump front train hang myself inconvenient shocking others way ill bed somebody finds me reading this thank listening tried,1 would actually love physicist knowmath im practical physics side thats even possible,0 sooo whats whatsapp idk say feb gonna sth worse facebook scandal worried cause ordered kids basement cancel order ,0 explaining Burning Man to my son William (12). he's watching the 'Malcolm in the middle - Burning Man' episode ,0 window mobile doesnt allow me to write the stack pointer,0 saw film toronto international film festival la pianiste reinforces austriansgrim thesis im formulating isabelle huppert welldeserved best actress award cannes portrayal woman who efforts attain artistic ideal loses humanity trapped talent suppresses emotions sexuality expressed twisted terrifying ways younger student falls love her hopes rise soon dashed realization cannot experience love way others can late her films final harrowing minutes are tellingly devoid beautiful music carried first minutes message seems music enough without life beauty describing,0 "@Primevalfans:Re :mistake. No, no, that's just a secret message from the real Torchwood. ",0 cant handle it really cantim broken cant it cant im isolated broke batshit crazy ruin everything people constantly invalidate feelings literally one besides family theyre able help medont care cant make people care me please send good vibes prayers me last year around time promised going commit redflag birthday coming up want hold on emotions maxed cant cope anymore,1 pugs r better drama um besides drama reddit stuff lets idk appreciate dogs dogs cute specially pugs like chunky cuter family thinking getting pug soft cute yea gosh melting heart typing,0 "@AsaCavalli PS u can't call me boo then old head, that mix don't match!!! (An I'm younger than you!!! Cougar!!) Lmao ",0 fuck imma say kamala harris kinda bad tho,0 "@canzgirl ok, we can sort that out! See ya in an hour ",0 guys broke shop stole calendar got caught given months,0 "I broke my back carrying the burden of this dunya.Love broke me, hate shattered me, depression numbed me, and anxiety ignited my end. How naive of my soul, to burden it so heavily?Ya Rab, when I turned to You, all my worries were but a feather. pic.twitter.com/YiyGUBqAsa",1 Got four good jumps in today - not bad! Top speed for the day: 175mph ,0 stupid m amp m make my stomach hurt,0 @1stLadyE Loving your (smdhmoment)s... ,0 banddo play instrument play,0 waiting for the game! lets go team!!! ,0 favorite rap song rn said sum filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 "almost done packing. yay, and I can even close my bag without having to jump on it ! .. pretty skilled , eh ? ",0 listening to the Mix CD Kayla burned me ,0 says schooling isn't that bad. http://plurk.com/p/112ro8,0 better dead know to everyone know hates,1 off to bed now sick n can t sleep but will try w help of med s,0 thought might interesting tell least one personwarning might long preface this reason post im killing tomorrow big surprise there know kinda want toi guess honest once even though acknowledge pretty crazy start guess ill start first redflag attempt i through comical set circumstances somehow instead dying planned way reached final stage hypothermia instead minutes away death apparently mother unexpectedly came home instead going work she lost contact lens come home get replacement called ambulance survived record mental hospital sent got icu completely useless literally could gotten help subwayor hell even gamestop im glad place shut not gonna mention name anyways decided bide time years trying since everyone vigilant eventually discovered lucid dreaming interestinginsane part comes completely understand seems extremely delusionaljust plain crazy since completely indifferent living past an arbitrary year decided deadline started thinking could get unconscious could benefit me gonna get initial ideas meandering journey refinementpivots basically wanted make lucid dreaming state permanent im awake anyone whos lucid dreamed knows unconscious pretty damn amazingand definitely tell organic supercomputer wanted try leverage lucid dreaming state make unconscious alter genetic code creating refinements brain function form after modeling different neural structures calculate best possible performance then eventually alter genetics body would develop nanotechnology nano materials nano bots etc would enable make better changes faster so sum upmy goal recursiveself improvement familiar term know im little ambitious hehehe so attaining recursiveself improvement id gather resources fix planets climateecosystem basically goal everything else coming improve cognition enough make intelligent decisions know sounds pretty damn crazy figured possible fuck try goaldelusion thing kept killing past ish years unfortunately lucid dreaming difficult mention changed ideas going alot recently took growing psilocybin mushrooms effort utilize enhanced neurogenesis thinned barrier conscious unconscious try make lucid dreaming state permanent obviously post ive given up ive spent nearly decade shit ive come end patience anybody else manages it im happy you me im killing tomorrow shout amazon day delivery convenient gotta admit kinda nice finally tell someone ive trying last ish years even bunch strangers internetthen again maybe thats whole reason feels good worry anybody trying stop stuffing mental hospital sorry long post way,1 has a new table tennis bat. It even came with a DVD! Time to learn some new tricks ,0 think it point living not even here tired everything want fight anymore mood swings happen multiple times day cannot control them people always judge fucking sick it therapist parents mock it friends swear understand ask cannot happy once one gets it medications even fucking help therapist months room always mess saw aunt today smiled said glad better never get better cannot people understand am cannot control change it trying years feel better soon think anymore ill another teenage suicide statistic chart fucking tired,1 yes! the littlest houseguest is going home today. its already turning out to be a great day ,0 son typing difficult me son bright cheerful kid never thought would dealing this automatically default theory lying trying attention want wrong little back ground know relevant want make sure telling whole story anyone reading give honest opinion sons mother high school sweethearts split shortly high school started seeing people two years later single produced little boy together time went knowing would make best it go well got pregnant talked relationship bit clear going able make work son born moved tried them ex made life living hell fast forward years married children ex mostly communicates wife rarely talk two weeks ago son cousins house playing video games something happens game gets frustrated slams controller resulting broken remote uncle tells since enough controllers everyone play sit out uncle leaves room minutes later brother hears kids screaming runs back find son wrapped belt around neck pulling tightly defusing situation brother calls ex explains us happened sons reasoning feels made many mistakes life tired failing thing kid never gets trouble ab student plays football extremely respectful well spoken gets compliments everywhere goes end conversation agree best bring professional let talk someone tell son ask keep us do well goes school tells friends tried commit redflag weekend course prompts call school asked bring back school talked someone monday week ago first appointment dr called us back son sit together room asked series questions answered taking test knew answers clear truthful end appointment clears go back school schedules followup visit another dr office upon returning school son starts talking friends whats going on also tell one teachers happening go talk dr comfortable truthful dr mother decided try take sort action restricted access video games try ensure spending time around family members rather alone room playing games also though would sort incentive get better saw change throughout week went second appointment yesterday mother took appointment ended dr telling needed bring childrens hospital admitted tested done yet neither us believe telling drs nd dr asked lied st dr admitted portion questions st dr asked anything life would like change sons answer lie originally told first dr nothing wanted change questioned nd dr admitted moms house would like milk time play little sister also said house wanted step brother nicer him longer wanted come house thursdays which part custody agreement brings us today loss sure go here mother feel reacted broke controller point feels comes clean trouble want tell want feel like calling liar trying supportive worried seeing attention positive attention driving keep story point stuck advice anyone knows anything offer advice would appreciate it edit update school called wednesday asked return school actually goes hospital gets clean bill health much debate feeling like failing mother brought yesterday committed him im dying inside essentially took son know good feel like complete failure feel protect him kind numb know brought er dr spoke privately im sure told dr warranted action signed pec point take home even wanted to last night first night get call cst check him nurse checked said average stay days failed,1 "noodles are not so bad...they give a good balance nutritious food, if prepared well..that is what i get from internet am happy ",0 im currently hiding toilet work dont want locked toilet ive minutes send help,0 just cause my depression not kicking my as like it use to don t mean i m not still dealing with it,1 im going itin days im going go base buy gun go hotel it trying decide notes worth it,1 today i wa prescribed xanax and celexa for my depression and anxiety i have major anxiety about taking pill the side effect freak me out especially when it come to mental medication i ve took zoloft in the pas for a couple day and it freak me out with suicidal thought very angry and ticked off i m scared this might happen again i m so lost on what to do i really need the help but scared of the help,1 saying opinions random movie get girlfriend day stupid amazing movie like guardians galaxy remind breakfast club superhero actually good,0 Seventeen sleeps til #NXNE holds this city hostage. Let's make the most of 4am curfiew & banish TO's puritanical Victorian lameo past ,0 #sunnyside I'm a halifax mermaid... isn't that sunny? ,0 just called hillsong again they said they couldn t tell me where i wa on the waiting list i don t know if it s looking so good,0 finding difficult keep goingmother disowned me father disappeared decade ago long divorce sister disowned family always working low end jobs never able keep romantic relationships going friends slowly becoming busy problems current gf town week break responding much cries help expectations happiness attempts create ultimately fail leave feeling worse nothing really matters end die memory dies time attempted redflag years ago ended declared clinically dead revived er tried since thoughts creeping past months,1 happy head like thats impossible mental disorder anything,0 is happy because i annihilated a baby huntsman in my kitchen with the cooking pan however this mean a mama one may be in hiding fuck,0 feeling always come backfucking again im back ready die brain shit really want ect see finally make horrible dark tornado disappear life permanently cant keep living temporary fixes problem life feel way everyone really shit luck ,1 lili marlene ohh that sux,0 Well.. Now that's even good that I have an assignment in august I WILL earn some money!,0 girls yall feel guys big noses ive told im anywhere great hair amp great smile dimples gigantic nose im super self conscious about again ive got great dimples amp smile smile nose expands size elephant yall feel this,0 best way shoot yourselfwouldnt shooting top skull would cause destructive woundcompared mouth side head chin ive also heard aiming back head chin mouthful water even effective either normal methods bullet fails bullet travelling water produces large shockwave failsafesaid like shotgun blast using large bullets ampxb brainstem slightly away shooting downward it see reason itd much harder aim at top head simply thick bullet travel straight even large caliber guns longer bullet travel brainstem large hollow point bullet expand more causing larger wounds right reason ive never heard anyone shooting downward skulls water mouth,1 "@HayleyNewland Morning Hayley.... green tea and toast, I would sit outside in the sun, but it aint 'that' warm.... lol ",0 Good morning! I'm up early! It's Sunday today. I'll just probably stay at home.. And Twitter? Hehehe! ,0 want alright oncetonight realized little life really meant others went apply make something apply local emt squad turns mistake made year ago may come back say fuck hopes that im feeling really low right really anyone talk would nice person talk right nowfeeling really pathetic right,1 @Petermensink Looking good! Say hi to the parents for me ,0 @mileycyrus I voted Multiple times But it's not on TV here tonight I wonder when I'll see it...,0 "J. Cole Talks Depression, Married Life, & New Rappers in Rare Interview https://goo.gl/fb/PwnNUy ",1 i thought it wa an interesting way to look at it and wanted to share with you all,1 i hate it i barely sleep on my weekend off day have to wake up early for work and i still feel tired usually everyday when i wake up for work i automatically have to go to the bathroom must be my anxiety because my off day i don t my work is great and i work by myself and see basically no one all 0 hour but still i won t be at home lol,1 looking someone talk pretty bored recently would like chat someone,0 think timemaybe blow popsicle stand,1 go get summer job summer anyone got recommendations best options would summer job,0 new wife would get mad asking basic things pads new clothes school new glasses ect grandma one buy new clothes stuff refused to told wanted academic bowl bpa school laughed said mocking tone smart kids anyways many awards,1 Watching Role Models w/ Thomas ,0 cubedweller gah not for me on freeview then still if they brought over the colbert report i d consider switching just to get that,0 feel like im going kill sooni know expand title things going okay cant deal them ruin everything becomes even impossible im tired trying want tell people know im posting guess wish id die already im piece shit,1 "@Nishecup Depression really is big, once it climbs on your back. It can simply grow bigger and bigger,until you fall, meaning that everything is over for YOU only.However there is still hope, YOU can make it but it will be difficult alone; it will be all worth it despite the long journey",1 people keep asking meaning life bruh meaning life happy answer complicated ultimate goal life happy give shit people think makes happy bruh stop coming complex answers question,0 cant remember simplest things mind racing thousand miles minute know cant go on felt like sanity whirling away me arrived remember thatch poisonous thorns ripe painful tearful memories instead given give honestly looking starting deal damage deep scars today instead jumping operating table eager right wrong right foot got take bike ride,1 nothings fun anymore anything isnt fun since friends always flake wont hang me video games arent fun one play with ive tried discord groups me,0 fuck sad please much happiness almost painful waiting facade fake icing fall crash burn hope inspiration supposed figured supposed even matter cannot get damn head doing,1 skydivingits birthday thursday made alive one piece may seem inside slalom anxiety sadness trying grasp onto hope wherever find want feel happy finally feel fine bask little things make feel alive monday jump right plane hopes thrill make heart soar adrenaline crave certainly get maybe get ill,1 idea trash bags full unshucked corn foyer house im going go make enquiries talk amongst update anyone situation,0 want bleach eyes see someone followed logged click profile see like first post rate cock banner ass like wtf ion wanna see shit,0 ever wrap blanket exist,0 brilliant chuck jones master warner bros cartoon comedy brings us first pepe lepew cartoon alley cat tired pushed around paints colors skunk healthy dose limburger turns tables tormentors along comes pepe know rest many pepes famous gags born here including chasehop hops casually along prey runs exhaustionbr br in opinion warner bros cartoons became less inventive hohum s toon one examples mel blanc putting absolutely crazy voice pepes mouth kicker ending pepe revealed american wolf skunks clothing must see classic warner bros,0 binary meaning ,0 listening to the climb ,0 $20 worth of pizza. Coupons ftw http://mypict.me/3YKI,0 watch movies living picking ones good enough distribute tossing aside make cut im saying know anyone else based this im leading came watch the gospel lou anyways many bad movies land desk actually sit them actually watch everything usually look tv occasionally im working scan production value performance well story presented something catches eye ill take time watch it lou drew first minutes closed laptop wheeled chair tv could completely tune in needless say enthralled throughout whole movie story told well characters either endearing repulsive depending course actor directors intention character well played times caught occasional amateur mistakes camera work editing emotional nature story make faults easy dismiss ive heard peoples comments say times film brought tears eyes time extreme elation laughing one minute crying next incredibly touched movie sadly unable acquire saying goes week late dollar short thats way goes sometimes least pleasure seeing one cant wait see kind response gets good luck great fortune bret carr if read this without doubt talent watch for,0 non binary impossible how tell me either boy girl mean whatever want,0 "@KendellRenee Hello Kendell. I'm having fun on twitter, like you are! Have a wonderful #followfriday Friday ",0 sorry that it s kind of long and simple but i just felt the need to write something i don t know if it s because i m young or because i seem to have fun but no one belief me nobody listens when i say amp x 00b i can survive but can t seem to thrive i m barely even alive my every thought is fear and every day make it more clear that i m struggling to keep up no matter what i do it s never enough amp x 00b i ve tried speaking ignored i ve tried staying silent anxiety ha scored amp x 00b 0 i plan a ton i don t stop until everything s done but in the long run it matter none it s just yet another thing i do to try and stop the thought 0 amp x 00b so each day i plea to this anxiety that i don t get these type of thought the one strong enough to bring me to my knee and it never work 0 amp x 00b i try to open the door but it s like starting a war how i wish i could go back to before back to when i wa happy for sure 0 amp x 00b the replaying of every embarrassing moment that make me want to die inside even the smallest thing can send my brain into overdrive 0 amp x 00b feel free to contribute or give constructive criticism please i d love to see how we can all be struggling with the same thing and yet it affect u all in different way,1 im uselesshaving panic attack,1 life varying levels pain sufferingive typed redflag notes respective people family unlocked phone background screens instructions call certain people first let know news dont want live anymore fuck place didnt ask shit,1 @Myke329 Haaaa. That Goes Down In The List Of Best Things You've Ever Said To Me (Lol) THANKS Mike ,0 @MelissaCruz I do what I can...Works for my headaches ,0 i ve lost over at least job because of my mental illness maybe i should just focus on counseling and my medication for now and stop pushing myself to take job that i m clearly not ready for i m 9 year old and i can t even keep a job i feel like a complete waste of time and energy please someone tell me that it s gon na be ok and that i m doing the right thing should i just quit or should i keep fighting for the job i dunno,1 tonighti give im done bs depression ive years gonna detail came decision nobody really cares im killing tonight thats final decision bye,1 "sometimes i don't fit in with my friends and im always at the verge of giving up but you guys gave me strength and persistence to fight the depression and the anxiety i have, im so proud of you guys right now i love you@Stray_Kids #StrayQuiz #StrayKids pic.twitter.com/YnzCr2rgUv",1 sometimes when i start to fall asleep it s like i get trapped in my dream and can not wake up the dream are usually a very uncomfortable or weird situation sometimes even terrifying i normally feel dizzy and disoriented in the dream once im finally able to wake up im out of breath and panicking im not sure what to make of these event but it mess with my sleep when it occurs i can t fall asleep for a while until i calm my brain down,1 movie accurately portrays struggle life typical east german watched secret police friends coworkers easterners simply existedbr br the strelzyks wetzels two families decided going take anymore br br despite extreme danger involved escaping west feel rewards far outweighed risks john hurt beau bridges portraying respective family heads hit upon idea flying east germanys heavily fortified border br br there tense moments gather jimmyrig necessary materials flight work day jobs construct balloon night right noses authorities one strelzyks neighbor klaus loewitsch br br the first attempt involving strelzyks ends failure balloon crashes yards border crashed balloon discovered border guards relentless search begins conspirators determined try again sales materials closely monitored peter guenter still manage procure bits pieces cloth construct second balloon nail biting escape freedom film also features heartwarming effective soundtrack late jerry goldsmith,0 we re here to help we are online therapy platform which essentially connects certified psychologist and people suffering from mental health issue such a depression stress and anxiety among dozen of other clinically defined disorder book your appointment now http t co f ayloznc,1 hello idk what to do anymore my dick is fucking broken and i can t feel it anymore look up hard flaccid if you want to know it i hatey life now have little sexual interest and feel worthless idk if i ever can have fun with sex again and i m still only 0 i had my life to live but it seems over also i have some fucked up familiy and mental health problem i don t wvtn know where i ll be next year all my goal and ambition are lost i just want to end the pain is there any easy and minimal pain way to die,1 would perfect time itim graduating college couple weeks finally saw big finale marvel movies ive watching past years ill seeing mom next couple weeks which could last time everything ive look forward life coming end feel like would perfect time finally end life high note ill succeeded done everything wanted to instead venturing terrifying unknown could call quits peace out probably anything wanted get there feel like everything ive wanted accomplish life basically done ill probably never good chance end life terms time really feel content,1 lets play small game idk im bored is parent comment asks question child answers it grandchild finally asks question could answered like that repeat in case wanna play imaginary cookie nice day stay hydrated guy gal nonbinary pal,0 packing extravaganza just took place here... i'm awestruck at the help of friends & the fact that i'm packed up a day early!! what!!,0 burning the bridge of people i m supposed to consider friend but when wa the last time i could call them that suddenly my life took a sudden stop and i needed to rest well now i m recovered and everyone ha left me behind so what do i do i try reaching out but get pushed aside for other more important people in their life hurt when one of them wa your ex partner who still want to be your friend but can t put in any effort worth making it a lasting friendship best friend know i m socially inept and while i m extroverted i can t really meet new people on my own so do they help me by introducing me to their dozen of freiends they have despite being introverted no apparently you just want to keep me to yourself despite me literally begging for your help on multiple occasion i hate this the only keeping me around is my cat and it s not love anymore i just don t want to leave him alone in the apartment with my rotting corpse that will only be found because i didn t come into work,1 i got my thing set up i ll run away and try to cut my wrist probably on some kind of train track or busy road to be certain i cant deal with life anymore i m just exhausted and i want my rest ik i tried to do it but i always bursted out in tear and eventually did not commit to it but it enough life keep throwing rock and i don t dodge them anymore i tried getting help and didn t get any i tried talking to ppl but got ignored i tried just going on but now i can t deal with it anymore i fucking y o and i always say it normal to be kinda depressed at this age but i don t believe it normal i don t get love and i probably don t deserve it just wan na leave this message for the ppl that know me you probably don t care bc i tried talking and you did nothing it not your fault i m just a coward and cant deal with it anymore so bye have a wonderful life,1 dude office committed redflagi never knew interesting seeing people react wish wasnt jealous him hope hes peace life tends drain every part theres nothing left hope knows dont blame all mind sick arguably worst kind sick eats alive,1 count incest repost since one got deleted x x q ,0 life went shit monthsin short months life went best days life living hell developed chronic pain anxiety depersonalization depression ocd i swear im making up diagnosed now fucking tinnitus cant handle anymore every second life torture cant think one good reason kill myself life fucking ruined every way possible,1 guys ever received creepy dm old person posting smtg here yo old story like wayy b idk last yearor early year received dm woman sshe told married children posted smtg sad lmao ig reading sent text comforted lil asked wanted draw nude body like heckok little backstory explain said bcs draw lot hobby prob went acc saw drawings like yooi told uh thanksi dont rlly think need that said ok let know change mind obv checked profile mostly nsfw active nsfw subsshe posted pics straight closed reddit didnt contact anymore didnt block tho didnt rlly think needed,0 sometimes feel like im forced stay chinese class mean like fun sometimes feel like never even choice it also feel jealous sometimes little brother taken still understand took still also think either parents realize struggle sometimes probably ive since first grade fact hard change also takes credits cant take classes want do years im hopefully done it,0 i killed the eggnog thread on pj with my lame joke,0 face film women wanting see football match appeal much somebody little interest football however football discrimination womens enthusiasm sport lovebr br the film opens day crucial world cup qualifying match iran bahrain girl trying get tehrans azadi stadium dressing like boy looks like get soldier tries search her caught taken small enclosure high outside stadium handful women already caught guarded small group conscript soldiers whos leader would rather back home tending livestock never learn characters names get know people girls plead guards let watch though nearby gap wall refused try get least provide commentarybr br as well making important point rigid gender segregation much present day iran film contains many hilarious moments disguise one girls made wear going toilet girl disguised soldier caught chose watch match seat reserved senior officer girls enthusiasm game end viewer likely edge seat hoping iran win thus get go finals germany soldiers shown fundamentalists conscripts explaining girls woman cant watch mens sports seem convinced argumentsbr br it shame film cant seen iran good wider world see thus see ordinary iranians bunch fanatics desperate wage war west normal people passions concerns people everywhere cast great job making characters seem like real people rather mere caricatures,0 full surprises beautiful cruel times like life itself leaves one asking more best parts course action scenes chases really wonder much work guys put making scenes whale chases polar bear hunts etc wonderful experience missed anyone dives surfs goes beach while music enticing narration superb extremely well paced definitively one best documentaries ever made worth less respectable for kind footage cruel might recommended people weak stomachs every killer whale footage cruel,0 happen often occasionally one man make difference big differencebr br george criles best seller charlie wilsons war fascinating eyeopening account unlikely difference maker imaginable relatively obscure congressman second district texas good time charlie known libertine lifestyle libertarian legislation likable licentious even politician charlie wilson served constituency well since good folks lufkin really wanted two things guns left alone easy street replete bevy beltway beauties known appropriately enough charlies angelsbr br when asked entire office staff composed attractive young aides response classic you teach em type cant teach em grow tits argument therebr br but even rakish rapscallion conscience lurking somewhere underneath charlie wilson unimaginable atrocities committed afghanistan moved muster entire political savvy toward funding utter humiliating defeat russian military and possibly even help hasten end cold war result fat chance huhbr br under skillful direction mike nichols smart snappy screenplay adam sorkin charlie wilsons war sparkling sophisticated satire chronicles behindthe scene machinations three colorful characters comprising charlies teambr br the onscreen team composed three marvelous actors four academy awards nine nominations them charlie beautifully portrayed tom hanks solid slightly understated fashion among best work years hes aided abetted abedded joanne herring wealthy houston socialite played stillslinky julia roberts hey else bikini scene let world know this accounts ms roberts looks good holds own screenplay never gives us even hint kabul country important character maybe two afghan hounds usually side know audience never do third member team philip seymour hoffman steals every scene appears gust aurakotos smart street wise ie non ivy league graduate cia malcontent knows score agencys boardroom wilsons bedroombr br for mujahideen succeed important assistance us provide ability shoot dreaded mi helicopter gunships rule skies takes money lots money eventually charlies team covertly coerces congress fund effort tune billion dollars advanced weaponry arm afghan rebels includes topoftheline stateoftheart antiaircraft antitank rockets well highly sophisticated killing devices nasty nasty stuffbr br that kind multibillion dollar illicit activity take place behind congressional doors truly alarming every american see movie read book reveals truly frightening aspect businessasusual political scene rarely seen outside walls government oh momma wish sobr br even though initial outcome team charlie unqualified success unimaginable unanticipated final result sophisticated weapons used troops taliban others since funding entirely covert young generation part world idea fall soviet oppression end russian barbarity direct result american intervention yes russkies left aid zip schools zip infrastructure zip maintaining meaningful relationships afghan people result overall consequence unmitigated disaster like forerunner mission accomplishedbr br as nichols film pointedly points out the ball set motion keep bouncing even lost interest it mike krzyzewski knows this eva longoria parker knows this little lateesha lafayette knows this typical american politician doesnt go good guys bad guys let world know good guys talk catch another mike nichols filmbr br perhaps charlie wilson said best we fked end gamebr br again,0 @hewholovesher hope everything goes good ,0 birthday oct th will planning potentially day after im sure getting better me ill never find people gets me lover anything guardians mentally amp physically abusive almost bordeline narcissistic struggle race black weight no idea obese general outter appearance really much fact thought perceived one else except family members i go dont worry abt usually send breakdown disgusting look especially men cant basic things parent treated likr child age done everything me incapable lot things gone hs parent decided hs day turned years ago nothing live for sad everyday exhausting,1 resits upcoming week fail one two failed year happens also last time fail life fail resits something end week something fail at last thing ever do possible last week,1 dont know needs read but hope good night love kings,0 need plan months change life im im living alone need graduate time need make enough money live need become much buffer dont know do im graduated time dont think ill able handle it mentally wont able handle graduating im already basically loser ill loser whos even behind im much stronger july th ive failed wouldve kms httpsyoutubebttzzszdffc im already working job dont know leverage time much riding need help,0 can t sleep i hate these night when i try to go to bed early and stay awake for hour poo,0 mir every single morning i feel sick,0 wish the sun would shine more i have a cute yellow dress to wear come on sun come out and play stupid england,0 say permanent solution temporary problemwell need permanent solution series temporary problems need escape route,1 I was fucking scared that someone would prove to me my depression thoughts. You knew I was scared you didn't give a shit at all.,1 im helpless private video pictures leakedhelp please know go im nightmares suicidal thoughts know go wth life longer feel hopeless make story short ago someone trusted would terrible thing me friend years friend knew nothing would come it romantic relationship explained many different occasions felt nothing him knew feelings me told like brother me eventually met someone started work concentrate different things life paths diverged finally realized over time later posted intimate photos videos first boyfriend turned stealing material computer systematically idea of maybe fixing computer ocassions created fake profiles various dating pornographic websites posted videos different sites wanted look like it attacks me stalking slut shaming bullying afraid ill never normal life job friends noone around would help me deal own went police thy nothing policeman even said nothing worry even caught people envy me years passed still cant handle it trusted wrong person maybe made movies boyfriend first place asked together several years see anything wrong it young never thought people could cruel maybe mistake turn back timei cant anymore im weak please help still blame myself,1 months moved really big house next town over times size one burned down mom got fired though nursing caught stealing drugs dad graduated college good job newspaper place understand could afford big house,1 literally downloaded reddit could get chest nothing specifically wrong me supportive family amazing so job almost two degrees yet every day think ending all feel like drowning one hear me cannot talk gf want worry put burden her tell parents reason try talk best friend turns shit around like fucking fault depression cannot help it try talk big brother finds way make situation himself idk confused going motions rn fake till make it right going it want to,1 yo someone wanna see video made dm pm wanna see,0 makes angry today mom dad went bed told me night turn phone apparently all want do find stupid point hobby go school every second day even school still it keep saying just talk us idea talk about interests differ much different sense humor find stories boring time im phone watching youtube browsing reddit intereacting friends seem against still try keep healthy go jogging eat fast food make proper meals know theyre this course would tell this would labeled disrespect make situation worse im really angry would like know wrong,0 im going bed cya tomorrow seeing good morningnightafternoonetc,0 "OMG, I'm so glad there's no more IT work to do ",0 dad zoomer know do uses quotes tiktok daily calls bruh public random times day say something finds funny hell basically make one catch phrases acts personalitywise like people rimandthisisdeep makes fun of kind funny first going almost year now,0 helpits much insecurity anxiety handle think im really commit redflag,1 im bored ask random shit eat frosting donuts,0 @YoungQ I have made several close friends because of NKOTB!!! It's a beautiful thing!!!!! ,0 nothing left giveim finally decided ill it get work im going withdraw money eat big steak leave huge tip clean pack apt put notes remaining money envelopes im going take pills try co method tonight fail capable so tomorrow ill go next door gun shop come back lock bathroom try hope fuck too two hours work,1 @jeaninenicole_ depression...no joke from 70 - 67 kgs ako within 3 months,1 must play something contrarian reviews ab tak chappan extremely notredflag mine notredflag slightly equivalent c letter grade mebr br it seems lot praise rooted two factors one ab tak chappan realistic typical bollywood film two trying things differentlybr br the first point care less about im looking realism films score higher film shows story characters closer believe real world beim big fan surrealism fantasy absurdism on although dislike realist films merely fact theyre realistbr br for second point agree commendable try things differently however think originality versus formulaicism makes better worse film itself film original poor like film formulaic excellent matters well film whatever sets enjoyable aesthetically rewarding viewerbr br ab tak chappan based true story mumbai cop named daya naik naik encounter specialist encounter specialists could said early instantiations real world judge dredds trained operate like criminals gang members pursue theyre basically given license killeffectively acting policeman judge jury executioner matter moments ab tak chappan follows story sadhu agashe nana patekar encounter specialist based naik see work interacting fellow encounter specialists engaging violence see home trying live normal life lessthanluxurious surroundings see trying adjust new commissioner halfway film see odd relationship notorious indian gangster zameer zafar prasad purandharebr br all potential make fabulous gritty film agree nice forgo typical bollywood musical numbers romancesnot every film needs stuff ab tak chappan producer ram gopal varma famous leaving music romances background wayside many films hes directed produced additionally ab tak chappan good performancespatekar almost gives death wish era charles bronson vibe also admirable cinematographythe handheld stuff near beginning film particularly effective example great score mixes moody hollywoodsounding actioncrime score traditional indian instruments modalities violence well done grittybr br there also decent exploration subtexts including morality having encounter specialists idea following orders on encounter specialists shown largely divorce ideas right wrong poignantly film questions merit blindly following orders parallels drawn encounter specialists following orders and say members countrys military were shown corrupt situation lead tobr br but you knew but coming you director shimit amin scriptwriters created story far many characters far much sprawl moves bit slow problems may due amin crew looking godfather films ab tak chappan at least superficial resemblances to although policemans perspectivebr br most encounter specialists get know wellthese shallowly drawn characters say least except agashe jatin shukla nakul vaid one narayan know least halfway film name mentioned number times id get glimpses scene would change everyone would change clothes time appear id start figuring narayan wasbr br the thing happened agashes first commissioner film already far new commissioner could figure relationships seems like new characters every scene never learn stories them might artistic merit encounter specialists mostly killing people know anything because theyre mostly orders since learn much encounter specialists either difficult find characters care about exactly make gripping filmbr br the primary villain zameer halfway film theres indication this get much screen time villains parading film hes literally phoning performance inhes another location dubai communicating telephone majority film actually see zameer much extent film depends couple twists necessitate showing zameer number things could see things lot villains could left outbr br that would tightened film bit making focused halfhour shorter would benefited impact actionpacked film means least first minutes so found admiring ab tak chappans considerable style saying okay get story already,0 @GuySebastian Thanks for the follow first celeb YEY hehe I bet you never get used to being called a celebrity x,0 everyday last three hours days short im even enjoying hours,0 almost almost subs pls help httpswwwyoutubecomchannelucthaqrfgkugrun_mq,0 want stop tearswhen im alone cry time ever since wife died years back ive sad constant sadness made depressed stopped basic things like looking properly amp ended getting bullied work life went like years every day another comment depression amp dull background roar grief loosing her cut recently amp spate bullying gets angry one bullies mentioned wife words said amp ended resigning sit amp wonder happened me guy all wonderful women great job big group friends gone now ive nothing tv cat amp roof head roof go money runs feb now get new job bother everyday suffering me everyday live suffering people want go sleep amp wake heaven wife want kill myself want top stop tears,1 Gonna plant some flowers!! ,0 iamigboblood nonyekings mizzzidc likeee someone who s depressed with rant they ll go low they won t even bring it to social medium doe she know what depression mean people who re depressed don t cap outside,1 i just can feel it i can t explain it but i can feel it i feel like this is my true self and if it go on i ll lose it,1 keep searching boys cant find single incel post everyone else complaining like tomorrow,0 kelleyrowe hey you remember that time we used to be friend ugh vomit sick i need sleep,0 laughing heart charles bukowskiyour life life dont let clubbed dank submission watch ways out light somewhere may much light beats darkness watch gods offer chances know them take them cant beat death beat death life sometimes often learn it light be life life know it marvelous gods wait delight you charles bukowski,1 often happens great directors last movie becomes moving brillantly performed filmed masterpiece cast excellent well camerawork starts merry comingtogether group welleducated citizens earlythcentury dublin turns dark philosophic narration fear death sometimes dark shadows past thank you mister huston last piece great cinema,0 on my way to chicago finally connecting through london now and will be home for measely day and then back out again,0 showtime showtime simply bump eddie murphy robert deniros careers entertaining movie guilty pleasure quite actors standards especially roberts showtime directed tom dey features small roles guys like william shatner mos defbr br showtime two different cops mitch preston deniro trey sellars murphy one takes work seriously low profile quiet manner easygoing wants fun felons back seat felons behind huge caper televisions vcrs etc cross paths tv station wants new reality tv show fight crime tv mitch hates publicity trey loves line its showtime tv antics methods shown tv new cops show fun beginsbr br overall showtime fun action comedy good film quite actors expectations standards however rolls along treads parodies reality tv shows good break shows like cops truly end guilty pleasurebr br my rating br br eliason a,0 want supporti want end life want somebody support me somebody judge call weak wanting to weak continuing life past year completely miserable every single day want say bye loved ones without trying stop,1 Today I will be on the road a lot. I don't really mind though. ,0 lgbt community much power cancel people wondering anytimeik time often not someone mistakes someones pronouns assumes gender get hate mob them understand lgbt around long time recent years become much prolific society young people one seems able stand community someone else makes common mistake misusing pronouns baffles theyve got much power cancel someone see world way do ultimately led people scared ask common questions one ever say anything without bombarded insults community got much power short time,0 @JeriWB Quite welcome! ,0 Is watchin colbert I <3 Casey,0 nothing metric life worth staying except stupid catanything compartmentalize area life terrible partner interests friends hate job im terrible even know ill job go back im broke cant find new job field car needs work money apartment feels like prison might lose soon anyway one care one cares me spend every minute crushing loneliness failure see way out even anyone give hug text message im worst spoken another person face face two weeks literally nothing getting worse day day ampxb keep thinking could find heroin fentanyl lot it ive never done either guess means would take less ampxb love fucking cat anyone could trust take wake every fucking day life hate know hes happy,1 "@coolacid Well if you got the email, it must ",0 nontheist im going comment great mans theory changed world years ago safe say science based evidence religion based blind faith nuff said thenbr br the film produced bbc honest could quite easily shown television acting superb film really worthy full blown cinema release said reaches wider audience way it seen many period style dramas bbc tv well finished standard this expect much big budget thrill ride going see itbr br in ways found movie almost going limb apologise religious fundamentalists attains good sense tension whole way through help wanting get publication origin species much quicker actually youll wait right end that seemed dwell much ever aware darwins struggle wife emma portraying almost kind insane lunatic times hardly true many errors facts missing relation real story lead publication origin too whole premise movie focuses almost entirely difficulty darwin faced domestically book small portion death beloved daughter annie gives film moving scene annie passes away asks one final time hear darwin tell story captive orangutan died pneumonia though probably feel bigger connection primate scene darwins daughterbr br with early controversy apparently surrounding movie usa work well promote ensure many people get see it honest actually little insults mythical godhead hardly headline news theory around years all but fundamental christians and many religions were well aware of like wave placard two whenever possible guess movie good excuse any personally cant see fuss about maybe theyre monkeying around,0 "@iamww Just holler if you have any #habari related questions, someone will hear you ",0 parents fighting today another day parents fighting mum asked dad buy snacks going buy groceries said fight started went yelling mum threatening do something by means kill herself throwing stuff around im kinda used never fails ruin day make feel depressed fuck parents raised healthy way mum always told inside home go made really anti social naive dad always demoralised hit lot dad today bipolar disorder heart disease diabetes mum disease ig say shes bit unstable love parents know fighting battles fighting makes feel trapped cant kill take care family cant solve problem also two twin brothers im really concerned witness also seem anger issues mum threatened redflag once took knife hand screaming also went outside follow convince come back home whenever confront says doesnt mean things says anger understand holy fuck significant impact me mother fucking knife hand ready hurt scariest thing ever im im india last year school corona fucked im already stressed future idk situation im trapped feel really suffocated,0 thinking mans silly movie expect star wars enjoy british humor might turn cult classic wife casting voice cary grant jack nicholson martians overly simplistic populace big bean movie either sleep watch carefully enjoy either waybr br its everyone enjoy relaxing easy humor takes quick mind see joke slips enjoy movie,0 every success ever life come extremely lucky high school applied one college early got in senior year college depressed incapacitated managed send one grad school application somehow got accepted grad school ending still depressed actually work applying jobs replied email got sent mailing list on miraculously got hired last year got laid covid could even work motivation send resume anywhere old boss called offered position back somebody else quit spot opened upi never done work deserve things feel like cannot actually function independent adult wait things magically fall lap keep going another year every time way rock bottom manage make back surface water keep desperately gasping air little longer honestly wish could finally drown get with everything pure luck deserve it,1 help stay idk milligrams caffeine im trying stay watch finale wandavision,0 @DaUltraBeast I am really really reallyyyyy scared that i'm going to have postpartum. I hope not tho. At least me being paranoid about it means I won't be in denial and will get help if depression hits.,1 finally really great year reddit joined communities already love found new ones thanks making place really cool,0 limburger 00 infrastructure and improving their coverage service most of the wifi hotspot are in adelaide sa though,0 i won t be able to start college until september so i ll be at home doing nothing till then so a job would be great right but i can t get past the interview i have a panic attack every time i try i just fed so unless i sit at home doing nothing every single day ugh any advice would be great,1 Presented my senior seminar research today on the use of mushrooms as a treatment for depression and everyone's take-home message from it was: I do drugs.,1 "Had so much fun with the family this weekend, really had no time to tweet. Will do better in the morning... as for now, good night ",0 uhh? three more days left oh hot damn,0 mom f retired moved back childhood home week ago years essentially living alone put much weight career worked hard whole life feels like purpose grieving preretirement life depressed cries often try sit her letting know retirement major life change take time get used to anyone experienced know supportivei f single lived alone last almost years moved feel overwhelmed part moving also fact closest friend one true love died suicide days ago grieving hard finding hard support need much support myself advice support depressed recently retired parent,1 "@Kissmekayley hey I'm at work , but ok , I still can check twitter every 15 mins LOL .. So all is great ;-) how's you ?",0 @boysnightout899 tuna sashimi at saisaki or circles the beeeest!!,0 normal start day asked was card worth wait answered yes cried park jokingly said of course did tiny tears x asked did take photos chocolates said yes babe sent photo still online last messages wasnt read next message sent day wasnt sent anymore offline thought getting ready work phone died network hour got worried sent messages social media has know,0 keep making mistakes never learnim always saying wrong things never learn experiences im scared future,1 want extend much really know type advicesmy psychiatrist therapist aswell friends told thing try new thingsyup would like to impossible something new enjoy minutes longer find fun hobbies aswell everything feels bad fun enjoyablethis th year dealing depression getting worse worse cannot afford therapy sessions last week nd suicide attempt everything went wrong stuck shitty life try new things,1 I. Cannot. Stand. Depression. I. Just. Want. To. Be. Okay.,1 ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee boooty boooty butc,0 like u wanna dieeverything feels pointless yanno feel like matter much try nothing way want be possible want it,1 sat at work not fair so not fair,0 constantly threaten take son ill never see again last night started journal less abuse feelings day day basis morning hide meds me hour woke asked were cussed told talk pm last night forced sons room trying escape slapped wrist door,1 know give upthree months ago got hyperacusis tinnitus panicanxiety disorder light sensitivityvisual disturbances shakingspasming attacks pains headfaceneck amidst general unwell symptoms following three days antibiotics xiflaxan neomycin attempt address digestive issues ive four years greatly worsened year ago worse a year ago weighed weigh unable sleep reflux also became much worse gave ativan sleep night im still months later im sure fucking body more im stuck parents basement unable tolerate barely noise constantly discomfort ears ringing ive diagnosed lyme disease say could reason everything im pretty sure ears damaged antibiotics iv ceftriaxone making debilitating hyperacusis tinnitus worse cant drive cant go outside cant anything except suffer discomfort basement day every day little hope antibiotics make better even benzo addictionwithdrawal get through state ears taken away chance really living again im trying hard give kill myself day antibiotics ears hurt keep ringing harder day sign getting better give hope and understanding never going get better getting worse first im hopeless alone angry unfair happen me wanted able keep living life friends hobbies go out find right girl my gf broke week started im broken think fixed im stuck tiny ass town pasadena md parents basement alone wishing someone would come hug keep safe tonight im always alone keep fight thoughts cutting end picc line ending it even want call help came every drive car hurts ears much more know do im trying hard give end it hope maybe sort recovery able live again feel hopeless alone much pain,1 @ddlovato lol. can you tell whats the name of your new album? ,0 broke boyfriend want die so broke boyfriend year half small crush another guy felt unfaithful liking guy ended it regret much want back boyfriend know hurt ever before want back really feel like soul mate regret breaking him this im depressed hurting last night accidentally burned burning paper scratched chest scissors thought killing myself hoping would send message really regret prove truly love him puppy watching whole time reason im still here im really scared want end life want make pain stop get back feel like want anymore please anyone anything say please say it im really positive hurt get help,1 spending the day with my sister ,0 took look mirror today big thought was still need alot work im confident before also makes hopeful eventually go ask crush out,0 @williambason @ajhice I'm lucky to have such great friend that would drive 7 hours each way just to watch me race....awesome. Thanks guys ,0 please help meive posted didnt get enough replies two weeks ago broke boyfriend got along well loved much thought manipulative evil person told wasnt told would love matter oneday something kind annoying breaks like would understand little annoyed breaking fun didnt make sense god miss much ive thinking hanging last thing life made happy thing could come life make happy dream building portal going anime world everyone tells never accomplish do please need help,1 @tommcfly mmMmmm write a song ,0 studying suicidal thoughtswhy study anything going kill someday need learn anything need learn kill myself hate life much kill myself live homeless parents jobbless motivation anything life deserve live shit life nothing reason live give fuck someone get sad kill myself think deserve kill myself,1 hate wholesome posts get loads awardsthey already got happiness event increase meanwhile award sad persons post make happy,1 im sure sayits constant pressure bullying family im youngest years old older sisters older brother everyone says siblings siblings point im constantly put them every day constant physical verbal emotional put downs dont know always target me love parents sit nothing stop it im fed dont want anymore school escape even though see sometimes school mum knows struggle mental health feels like one cares nothing ever changes im emotionally drained wont get better since parents wont stop despite talking problems,1 want fucking sleep little ago stupid sisters friends went room sprayed glitter perfume bed lot fucking perfume now im allergic perfume get really itchy touch kind glitter shook washed bedding still fucking there cant sleep bed fucking love sleeping there anyone know get rid glitter im literally misery,0 you ever see a grassy hillside and want to just melt into the soil and be consumed by the plant,1 oopsyesterday ragequit job brink called parents told needed come pick up also handed revolver now morning feel like ive made huge mistake really wish gone it im parents radar bigtime drive back apartment feeling captive life made suicidal asking help made captive powerless ever before god really hope get chance kill himheritthem,1 cant post images cant post images ,0 hate cannot talk problems friends family say want help things start get real longer want listen mention suicide longer want there worst part whenif actually go it would first people say reached help want someone try understand feel come from want family understand least attempt understand anyone else feel way families comfortable listening you hate cannot talk,1 Happy Mothers day to all the Mothers in my life ,0 whoh what a day now for the shut part hydraulics assignment time,0 @dance2jeffreee I have already watch that video lol ,0 some people with anxiety experience loneliness and deeply understand it so i am posting on this forum i have plant allll over my apartment to make me feel le lonely since plant are a form of life it doesn t do the trick though oh well although it doe give off a feeling that i would not have of there were no plant so question do plant make you feel le lonely,1 i got a new job two week ago it s going amazingly i m a cashier at a retail store before this job i mainly did stocking in retail but i needed a job and they didn t have another position open everyone there is fantastic and it s fully staffed unlike a ton of other retail job i ve had i feel really comfortable already they even asked if i wanted to be a supervisor so quickly because of how well i ve taken to it a downside would be that i don t love being a cashier you re kinda chained to a little spot and have to interact with hundred of people daily but i m managing i m also used to heavy physical exercise at work which i no longer have however i adore the people at the front end and have been invited to a hangout with them i m super extroverted but i m not used to this level of constant interaction however i m well liked by staff and customer in the moment through out the day for most part i feel safe and comfortable however once i leave is a different story i ve always been an extremely anxious person cripplingly so at work i can get overwhelmed but i m always able to soothe myself i don t usually freak out though once i get off i feel a wave of anxiety i immediately feel tense driving home i had a panic attack yesterday on the drive home to the point that i wa hyperventilating i can t seem to get myself to relax i go into fight or flight then my brain will search for literally anything to be worried about covid cancer my boyfriend leaving me my physical appearance declining i end up staying up all night worrying and freaking out i can t get myself out of the thought loop i begin to feel terror and existential dread yes this happened before i worked this job but it s worse now i can t get myself back down from it why is this happening any tip to bring myself in the moment after work,1 wanting nothing kill myself order hurt mother simply runawayi every years so drive run away,1 diei want die cant seem kill myself decade ive struggled depression fought again exhausted tired climbing hill never get reach peak sliding back down terrible person need change better motivation so broke boyfriend five years let coworker move me let fall love let get heart broken let used used others let anger hatred bubble everything have lost best friends im going lose job everyone hates there loser im im alone broke depressed bitter cant drive rely friends family everything cause problems could ever hope solve never made single persons life better it once suicidal years often thought almost comforting point never wanted die right now im fuckup comes redflag too cant commit access gun im chickenshit take pills try hanging myself work then failed life much would feel like failed death too want die tonight never known wanted clearly this yet feel trapped cowardice always maker nightmares would ever think would different right know point die,1 watching movies all night Whoaaaaaa,0 "If you're wit Double S bring sum grub n a grill... If you ain't, bugger off ",0 nyquil sleeping pillsive broken many times again today last time guess,1 hi guys watch fany motorsport general car guys want know one yall share interest thanks,0 will deplurk too. buhbyeee http://plurk.com/p/rp3ir,0 I'm slowly but surely forgetting about you. now that I know something more about you that I shouldn't know. I thought you were different.,0 @dortt You were dortt? Awesome! Congratulations! ,0 need music suggestions used know music liked dont,0 like multiple people call attractive still girlfriend asking one funny,0 Morning all lovely day in Leicester again only tainted slightly by the fact that i have to go to the dentist,0 people like women better men men better women im man quality believe genders suck equally,0 scientists behaved way hg wells confident would future history quite turned way things come almost years past point wells wrote shape things come film based closer world describes before ways farther awaybr br though well known players raymond massey ralph richardson cedric hardwicke cast theyre caricatures real characters main weakness film devoted wellss philosophy science solve problems rest us backward foolsbr br masseys characters two generations family holds supremely optimistic view cedric hardwicke skeptic feels man rushing far forward ralph richardson warlord arisen destruction another thirty years war fought modern weapons way atomic bomb invented poison gas deemed weapon almost destroys mankindbr br according wells science conquest never mix scientists group far world politics engage things wellss lifetime scientists certainly fled rightwing fascistic governments hitler mussolini folks however order defeat them subordinated allies fashioned atomic weapons ushered modern age behaved wells would liked to someone like albert einstein would headed junta scientists would established new order world war ii br br wells got wrong time development apparently never envisioned computer well atomic power computer programmers far likely rulers brave new world scientists moment still things come aided direction william cameron menzies sets created offer interesting glimpse mind hg wells certainly respected thinker time though quite get right shape things come,0 sleep past mistakes keep haunting know theres nothing cant get head gotta wake hours anyways fuck guess,0 literally waiting die im assuming like people here know start please excuse throwaway seems popular please do also already see therapist please no you get help it already know how thing brings solace ive familiar death since young age would really rather acceptforce alternative obviously im hurtdepressedanxious managing years think manage anymore problem brother died years ago cant put family again although im actively trying kill myself im becoming reckless daily actions decisions hopes accidentally die know pretty much it im pretty super keeping happygolucky faade want family thinking anything different four years later still blame brothers clearly accidental overdose im essentially waiting immediate family die also know written well deleted need posting rredflagwatch,1 i m 9 male and autistic i have never had a relationship with anyone not even a date i had a few crush but i m too shy and socially awkward to act on them when girl try to flirt or hit on me i miss the sign because my brain doesn t work properly so i accidentaly reject them just to realize what i did a few hour later and get even sadder because i blew another chance i don t understand how i m supposed to find a romantic partner but i really want one i also don t think i would make a good partner my sex drive is high every slight mention of anything sex related give me a semi i really want to lose my virginity but the idea of being that intimate with another person is terrifying to me i would have to break so many social boundary to let anyone get so close to me and i wouldn t be comfortable breaking those boundary for another person either i stopped trying to talk about this with people close to me because no one understands i just wish i didn t have to deal with all these urge i ll never be able to fulfill i hate my life,1 thinking much keeps alivewhat mean ive thought multiple ways end myself wierd common thoughts are feels pretty normal decade lost best friend rollover catapulted mental rock bottom state didnt help deployed time stateside anyway years since finding out ive since pushed dozens life became recluse care outside world ive spent countless nights laying awake fantasizing ending all mental exhaustion constant battles inner demons dirt nap sounds good however countless nights planning redflag im also countering thoughts happens fail end vegetable forced stay alive machines bad hurt noose doesnt kill im suffering would pretty awkward situation someone walk seeing like right ive thought slitting wrists id rather kids see aftermath that jumping bridge standing tracks waiting train turn bits popping many pills ive thought up thought failure thats kept attempting it today feeling like im fucking cursed live days death finally takes me typical day wouldnt bother say due disdain society anyone reading feels hopeless dont give up matter hardships enduring keep fighting sometimes gets worse gets better take upon reach out follow another path know definitely alone,1 feel lost took mg metropozol let us see happens hmm help,1 forced send photos someone found site tell parents long story short black mailed man forced send lewd photos anything extremely nsfw mainly lewd faces took screens them put site months happened decided see posted anything took selfie myself reverse imaged found them want tell parents know im gonna disowned kicked do,0 well todays dayive today picked awhile mixture emotions plan tonight still go buy gun im freaking lazy im worried motivated enough go get it gun place opens early closes early able get sleep want go get it would easier thursday work want ask borrow elses gun everyone knows id want it im sleepy wanted tell guys today last day im going play destiny go bed pretty bad actually small amount power live longer want play destiny,1 "depression is something i don't speak about even going through it because it's also such a double edged sword. i love every race. even if white people had done so much i can't hate them all. my grandma is legit white! how tf can i hate, i do dislike people though.",1 devil dog hound hell really good film good acting cast including richard crenna rg armstrongthe music spooky gives devilish chilli liked effects dog think creature looked really cool hornsfrill like part neck acted really viscousif like horror films seen devil dog hound hell able find buy rare film good movie think disappointed,0 movie excellent save scenes esposito enjoyed brought together every detective series wrapped plotlines never resolved series thanks nbc great see pembleton bayliss together human basic persons braugher secor great job usual get overlooked hurt see end homicide memories tapes reruns courttv watching come every friday movie job well presenting great depiction life al retired family relationship existed unit enjoyed lot,0 im sure ever botheredim sure even begin like anyone cares im currently sitting bathroom knife crying uncontrollably guess years shit finally hitting me baby shes beautiful weeks old tomorrow shes reason dont want anything name ellie im shit marriage used love him still care way years mistreatment negativity crap sex life taken toll me cheated too sad part still cheating guy believe im actually whole heartedly love with im scared leave husband though dont want anything stupid want happy want us happy dont see anymore ive tried leave two maybe three times avail hate job shit money paycheck goes straight outrageous student loans im boss employees just awful left basically everything guess fault though im bad manager wasnt bad manager id good employees hate fucking family years years fucking judgemental hipocrasy mother morbidly obese bitch nasty drinking problem starts shit everyone especially sister ive literally middle man family listening everyone bitch complain everyone else dad cool though marine vietnam kinda scary though ive overweight life last march started diet lost pounds close goal weight got pregnant surprise im back fat fat fuck jiggling around everywhere none clothes fit im poor go get new ones also motivation lose weight probably already fucking lost gain fuck back again friends mean theres like maybe people would say otherwise see like that one bothered visit hospital since ellie around everyone else like yeah meet baby thats it someone best friend even bothered visit since thanksgiving guess goes ways shes pregnant wanted throw shower realized give shit ellie waste time person ive ever able confide guy ive cheating husband with hes one whose ever given hope loves me insane smart hed walk away trainwreck life im scared tell bad feeling right now everyone needs break awhile different tldr seriously dont even worth time goodbye,1 need helpim sorry dont know im asking im hurting want numb,1 aww this earthquake in italy ha made me sad just saw the pic on the news it s terrible,0 researching sell engagement ring bought ex fianc simultaneously somewhat relieved need money desperately currently living worst nightmare,1 eating! yum! ,0 years ago today uncle committed redflagi thought story might help people see like side years ago today enter freshman year high school public pool mom said run errand would back hour sister me hours later dad comes pick us up strange afternoon get workhome never comes gets us pool surprised knew get there get home asks us come outside something tell us confused scared point little brother inside time would turn days father told us favoriteuncle killed himself found aunthis sister mother hanging closet house father could handled better little sensitive year old girls handled next days blur many people started showing house point bringing food soda whatever could think try make us comfortable grandmother lives one house mainly mother dealt aftermath funeral blur soooo many people showed up always life party showed dip chicken nuggets honey drip place let drive lap gave spiked hair cut rat tail i girl mom happy taught water ski taught flick bottle cap hard enough make dent wall taught put cigarette loads moms cigarettes make explode took camping threw around bean bag chair like burrito many things list tears years later family gotten would lot better around sister aunt long term abusive relationships would kicked dudes asses uncle brother become raging alcoholic would kicked ass straight brotherhis little buddy become jobless loser would kicked ass straight well daughter two months old left met maybe twice never know father idea it note warning still think pretty much everyday every something kick chest break crying fit never get beer him would awesome party with get see graduate never get see get married sorry rambling want think people effect make decision years later think time aunt mess today one found still nightmares best friend better days misses much nothing replace brother uncle father wrong subreddit apologize,1 friend im chatting rn actually considering redflagwhat im panicking,1 days try positive end regret kill years agoto honest right know stuck ways useless worthless wretch human become unfit dumb dulled irritable mess person every single thing tried make happy succeed days want someone kill disappear use world anyone around me go belong dead grave like future talents skills lost seems destroy annoy ruin things around me ampxb cannot even bring focus mentally job feel worse tired tired utterly worthless useless job home feels like everyone around despises keeps around pathetic pity ampxb days try tell redeem myself future get good something productive deep know lie cannot believe anymore dumb become good anything days play video games watch youtube even work thing keeps bad thoughts walking trying jump building again heck walked work spent minutes almost minutes car debating whether try jump something quit job ampxb lot time know deal sort even try cope anymore feel tired lost mostly defeated ampxb felt feelings nowhere near bad time get feel accomplished stronger all tired times wished killed earlier least feel like died feeling like human ampxb know bunch incoherent rambling think trying vent either die decline mentally although feel like much real person anymore like dulled psychopathic shell,1 things get worsethings get worse sometimes get confused seems like things starting get better confusion caused fact things actually getting worse things get worse effort put in faith hard work taking risks putting oneself and ruin myself almost positive life implode get horrible fast makes sense things never stay course lieu positive growth decay want die feel like person held gun point begging life one take me just nothing here embarrassment shame frustration failure humiliation dread pain schadenfreude expense nothing ever right nothing right nothing find information gleam experience attempt have nothing correct wrong wrong wrong fit in fitting important power nothing cant talk hate world lie people know lie know why tell tell putting act am feel nothing dread shame perfect example fail airplane stalling seemingly reason all somehow reasons once bit everything knew felt am would never talk all sometimes even convince myself moments others best getting back need be gutter always be scared scared death pain death pain death pain see misery me anyway runt litter cant shit gets pruned pack natures beautiful wrathful glory death without care,1 is about to go out for a run 31 days until i go on vacation haha ;D 11 days without parents yay xD,0 i feel like giving up again i thought i had overcome this but i guess not back to square one wanting to die but not wanting to kill myself anyone else feel the same,1 chilling in the sun and just joined twitter ! ,0 im gonna kill myselfim gonna end done one wants around one wants alive hate prefect time end,1 may biased author novel hungry bachelors club selfpublished screenplay written good friend hungry bachelor fred dresch inspiration character marlon film pleased trailer hope see film entirety comment jorja fox plays delmar youngblood character stellar carries bulk emotional vehicles fine form done better myself looks like real people hardly formula driven thankfully drives statement racial prejudice home gracefully heartfelt,0 Topic 3/4: Mental Health and Substance Use. Paired topics due to sequelae. Text focused on anxiety and depression. States that anxiety is a given consequence of gay-related victimization. Gay and bisexual men experience higher levels of psychological stress,1 friend streaming us play csgo come join big funny moment httpswwwtwitchtvfirebird_films,0 tried fully explain mumstill completely different wave length tears feel same love family fixable state sucks im finally telling others years,1 one attracted girls cold make subtle cough red nose still would wear,0 #Glee is definitely my new favorite show...thank you @aaalisson for telling me to watch it ,0 bradiewebbstack sway sway tour in julyyyyy exitedd muchh follow me pleaseeee i need more followers,0 "I AM BACK, I WASN'T ALLOWED TO TWEET FOR A WEEK BUT NOW, I'M ON, TWEET ME!!! ",0 @MichelleZen you need to follow me so I could send you a direct message. ,0 I'm about to listen to don't fight the feelin and think what a great song is LLS in Don Juan voice oh boooooy ,0 got done jacking feel sad yall cheer,0 is about to have to start pakcing for Texas mission trip. Leaving EARLY Sunday morning ,0 failed adulthoodi diagnosed depression years ago stopped getting help soon after heard mom talking believe mental illness complained much costed already tried killing twice felt like burden feeling ate away me moved parents new city got new job left university thought change independence growth leaving would spark something me did things going well started exercising going out social work momentum decided time go back therapy started saving could afford sessions medication ruined everything got fired accepted elderly womans coupon known valid thought good deed thought helping someone loss prevention found owned thinking honesty best told sorry made things worse let go able find job everything saved therapy disappeared bills came around feel like burden best friends live with roommates leave work party im left alone empty apartment cant afford anymore sit room plan note settle drinking fall asleep want get better want stronger feel slipping more know bounce back keep wanting check somewhere going er telling thoughts always back mind hope itll keep something myself im terrified monetary cost,1 @Zac_Efron GOOO LAKERRRSSS ,0 have to work on homework tmrw,0 feel need see people rteenagers time theyre worthless something like it want help hot discord go friend name comments comments one vent to little text put beneath name iv made vent bot friend vent talk trash day etc best check daily key try best please let help you,0 really enjoyed movie is funny little film take seriously plot summaries available everywhere go details michael complex plot anyway builds great premise takes viewer wonderful road tripbr br john travoltas performance chainsmoking ladyloving barbrawling pieeating angel perfect love sparkybr br watch want laughs overall good time highly recommended,0 "gm to everyone tryna wrangle a lifetime of depression, anxiety, and codependency so u can start ur day pic.twitter.com/3QTNMHeYHn",1 deal competition school im interested subject specific part subject find someone class likes even better really demotivates,0 im overdosing im typing thistoday day im finally gonna end good im taking depression pills whole lot sleeping pills send this wanted say goodbye appreciate support ive got subreddit hopefully way afterlife shortly now love supported helped get far life goodbye goodbye everyone,1 kalichosich awww poor puppy is she ok,0 gentleman jim another case print legend errol flynn playing legendary boxer brash charismatic social climber rollicking entertainment barely stops breath pointless looking historical accuracy flynns charge light brigade sheer hokum stops pulled out filmed surprisingly lavish scale given real sense energy raoul walshs vivid direction flynn still height powers youd never guess suffered mild heart attack production alexis smith beautiful romantic sparring partner perpetual sidekick alan hale along good measure time flynns father jack carson takes sidekick duties time indeed even pirate galleon flynns earlier movies makes somewhat outofplace cameo dockside bout minutes breeze by,0 hi help guy told would put blenderleave blended mean,0 depressed since age get shut every fucking time ask help hard find reason keep goingi trans male parents still deadname dad thinks attention seeking many attempts therapy years mostly consisted think suicide would around you idk you clinging onto depression think really completely given now could potentially get better far tired hopeless cling onto hope anymore ask born forced live suffer people sadthe bridge gets tempting every day ok give now,1 mizzchievouz am sorry to say but it is still in the air,0 "Feet and back are starting to hurt, wish I could walk around the track while sleepi ng in my bed ",0 year reddit damn cant believe already year reddit first sub ever part of like damn ive while hey ive enjoyed time plan stay till longer teen thank giving amazing first year reddit,0 patrick coate jackposobiec agree 00 the arrogance of the biden administration will sink this country into a huge depression liberal been canceling anything and anyone they don t like soon our standard our living will be canceled by others who hate our gut and the dollar,1 am reason im vacuuming hear this kidhttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsiahxcqits__amand_somebody_is_fucking_using_a_vacuumutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf screaming background reason anyways ima get lawnmower post status update soon,0 That feeling when you realize depression took control again and you suddenly want to pump out a 12 gauge through your face pic.twitter.com/L5RmfiiQqi,1 @softtouchme @myinnersexfiend I will be there of course ,0 youre ugly af mental health plummeting bc,0 meeting ra today say xpost rdepressionso heres brief story last night feeling unnaturally suicidal got far pills lined desk taken much start taking them first always hardest messaged friend never responded still hasnt anyways something stupid forced apartment hall resident advisers room knocked percent prepared opened door tell call police me went back room going swallow lot pills well apartmentmate answered there shit went walk rain calm instead calling cops maybe done long manged go back apartment put away pills get decent nights sleep went bed though messaged ra facebook saying tried reach earlier would like set meeting today question nowwhat say her tell whole truth last night fact going call cops suicidal thoughts all etc im sure feel shell report boss mind im sure much really me thanks reading,1 talk someonethank you,1 really mood list million one reasons life considerably worse everyone elses not kind fucked updoes anyone know acquire positive outlet emotions feelings sitting letting consume mei quite suicidal yet fantasize death quite often want suicidal suicidal pretty help much look forward work towards want something help hold now something makes feel bit better maybe sort purpose feel empty,1 @matrob991 save me some Please ,0 well im fucked watching traps anime mom walked watching boy taking clothes off see funeral,0 bad memories keep playing headover again thought this,1 i am mexican and i speak spanish i am using google translator to avoid any error i m and i don t have social anxiety but i do have anxiety disorder and although i know that there is nothing that can harm me physically or cause something serious since i already checked my sadness and the thought that i will never get over it i get tired and i feel that if i sleep or relax i can even die of a heart attack this is the first time i post something on reddit but i think this group can help me,1 pisses people complain parents like get youre treated bad asking chores it people really ungrateful seen dad work hard one point take pills sleep least help chores making work isnt asking pay bills rent dont dick parent unless treating bad,0 get likes thats it thanks giving ted talk goodbye,0 bed creaks slightest movement cant even jerk,0 offbrand right point falls floor lands fluff fluff someone enters room end pretty unrealistic scenario didnt anticipate anything happened except fluffing probably cuz redacted probably expected realistic,0 supposed nowmessed life big time similar situation guy posted years ago messed whole semester school might get expelled lifetime basing selfworth grades want die kill myself relief death am alive supposed now everywhere say oh die die okay im dead now sit wait therapy date months away no cant go earlier life continues crashing around me not life stop crashing time freeze long enough rewire brain become normal fix everything fast enough know ive gone month without wanting die since fourth grade wish would stop wish brain ok tired,1 @jshe please do so. listen to some music to relax and rest a while *Smiles*,0 optionstldr age eighteen moved online partner escape emotionally abusive fucked family situation things went okay next years tbh became apparent pretty quickly relationship unhealthy us gotten point were finally breaking up literally nowhere go sos told want apartment asap lost job week ago nowhere go aside going back abusive family basically put eggs one basket thats fallen pretty much want disappear,1 "Tho I do applaud his parents for making him Do It, otherwise today he would have had nothing to reflect on. Made for interesting lesson",0 ever present suicidal ideation constant weight shoulders help coming quick enough really want diei take depression medication anything like might partly blame still even went gp got suitable antidepressants suicidal ideation what embrace unfamiliar path rather already familiar path half half suicidal ideation half passive suicidal thoughts half intense almost active suicidal thoughts tired right yet manageable enough level passive suicidal thoughts depressive mood know want guys anything current life really sorta feel like stuck middle seeking help never feel ready change due various reasons autism seek comfortable with cant seen get deteriorate back square one everything different usually hardly ever works antidepressants really assistance crap sometimes feel much weird mood stabilising things i think antidepressants seen mood stabilisers might wrong p helpful even find right ones me big part wants wait assessment session one talking therapy waiting lists try antidepressants part feels like fault keep feeling way since take offered in case drugs oh way read life andor like write post reddit httpswwwwattpadcomsighmonthsinthelifeofasuckersufferingof by way link recent update part journalrant compilation honestly though unable helped cant even help myself yea read rantswritings wattpad feel like it kinda want someone comment writings think subject bit heavy encourage someone p,1 i don t know if this is the right place but i just want to get this out of my system somewhere and a journal won t do if it doesn t belong here please delete my girlfriend and i are in an open relationship we both agreed on it and i never had any problem with it but after year of trying i have had zero success while my girlfriend can basically choose and it hurt it hurt seeing her choose other guy over me it hurt knowing she d rather spend time with them than with me what hurt the most is seeing her being happy listening to her talking about how exciting it is how much self esteem she gained from it and thus knowing that if i ever tell her that it hurt me i ll make her sad and i don t want to make her feel said even if it mean cry myself to sleep while she is having fun with our friend it s not her issue though she is always asking beore and afterwards if it is okey checking in on me and she would stop this instant if i would tell her about any of this but i know it would still hurt and limit her losing this part of her life and i can t and don t want to do that because i know that if i loose her my life would get miserable i d most likely stay the rest of my life alone and die alone i d lose almost everything positive in my life and i d rather die than having to live 0 miserable year alone thanks for putting up with my ridiculous and self inflicted shit and just remove it if it doesn t belog here,1 i m not here to debate y all if my take make you uncomfortable good critical thinking isn t flowery it s why i have clinical depression i m prone to screaming about it into the void,1 hell guys even find egirlfriends like im seriously confused find girls,0 someone talk toim musician sort of halfway finished degree jazz studies kitchen work gig living last year gotten many gigs im extremely lonely im good socializing im ugly im pretty weird easy talk to hard look people eye get really anxious anybody talk to person really gets ex girlfriend cant expect me im codependent mother abusive hit lot screamed everyday moved out im afraid feel neurotic week broke screamed direct supervisor work feel extremely condescending toxic blames coworkers mistakes me hes passive aggressive confront anyone directly reason im scapegoat called showing minutes late everyday yet complaining morning prep getting done training new employees expecting it generally applying standards sets himself feel close breaking know people jump death always change mind right jump logically see that im nearly thirty entire life awful something huge blocking emotionally know fix it feel like crying im tired time really need help know ask ask sorry wall,1 stanley iris show triumph human spirit stanley struggle become literate realize potential iris find courage love becoming widow beauty movie dance robert deniro jane fonda together starting stopping skills courage completely trust move on sense nicely gives us good view life often is thus credible unlike reviewers found characters rendered consistent whole picture supporting cast also carefully chosen add depth character main characters get added meaning supporting performances excellent movie best thing take hope,0 growing up with an absent father and a mother who s always attempted suicide became a normal thing and always used suicide a manipulation threat a mother who s always been depressed and always ha had it worse than the rest of the world i learned to despise anybody that play the victim for long period of time or cry all the time not even going to address the physical abuse part i live accros the ocean from her and we barely even talk i never miss her and i feel like i m sick in the head because of that she destroyed our family all of her kid including me came out pretty fucked up we mom and sibling don t talk to each other and it messed me up pretty badly i mourned grieved and have become numb this happened over the pandemic and since i came out i m currently engaged and have a hard time expressing how bad my depression is to my partner i do talk about it but not about how severe it is i think about ending my life on a daily basis i attempted s in the past and regretted it once at the hospital i don t want to do it but the urge get overwhelming sometimes i hate that i m like this especially because of the impact my mom had on me growing up i feel like it would be so easy to just leave i feel so unhappy in my life i try my best to feel alive but nothing feel good most day i don t even want to wake up i have to act normal it s exhausting i can t stand my partner s sister niece and the anxiety i get every time i have to see them or talk to them or even when i hear their voice they always wanted me out of the picture from the get go because they loved her ex never gave me a genuine chance it s all acting and pretending in front of her and she is aware of it my relationship ha been rocky but we have a deep bond that keep u together i have hope we will get that connection back but for now it s mediocre hoping therapy will help i don t enjoy anything in life and i really want to end it i won t but i really really want to i feel tired from my soul thanks for listening,1 rappers theae days goin bout guns uzis the real homies remember pulling block pounderhttpsyoutubevbxgylcnxetms,0 @annamurphy What ever helps ,0 last night was good watched pearl harbour in elli's. ben afleck & whoever plays his best mate in it is fit! anth fell asleep lmao.,0 gotta love friends cries inside,0 spoiler nothing spoilerbr br i add name list folks feel viewers get it one even mentioned s word far seenbr br while agree kid died think specific committed suicide races slope old wagon shoots cliff andflies away maybe whole account form death allegory maybe commit suicide wagon laid out either case flies away cmon tough metaphorbr br maybe thing tom hanks ok narration besides raising ww memorial gotta love thatbr br oh yeah loved movie found incredibly moving,0 fap i,0 it s march st i m so worried i wont get a job after i graduate from grad school in july i ve had interview have even been the final round of some place too i am networking like crazy have solid internship experience and a decent resume but there s this voice in my head that s like oh lol why would they hire you how do y all stop overthinking about the future,1 complete failure myself friends country familywell begin currently high seems way escape abused childhood burned beat cut home went private school surrounded millionaires even billionaires sons daughters came family even going home got dream th grade trip trip would get go airplane well got kicked th grade could participate pe fat first thoughts redflag th grade well gay thought monster highschool people touched bathrooms called names made feel like shit attempted redflag lived thought amazing reason purpose new life nope years later high school peers top private universities bullying high school stayed home never spoke class final year showed teachers true intellect said late show world deep down believe that am drugged escape cold world alone fat gay used joy fun happiness life died th grade reading online would get fat shamed gay men existence meaningless never move on want pain stop anyone say well anything know guess late,1 @MabelKatz Looks ok now. only bits and bytes. clean with Ho'oponopono too?!,0 thecampingforum if the forcasters are to be believed we ll be lucky of it last till this afternoon,0 anyone wanna friends anyone wanna friends im m like tech cats,0 bro skeleton missed little ampxb httpspreviewredditftkjxtpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsdebdfeecdcafafddf,0 im fan art like anything art like paintings sculptures etc movie shows it like lot shows woman wants paint anything art especially naked bodies cant strict family father beginning movie painted naked wanted man paintings family let paint naked men moral even artemisia could paint boyfriend art teacher completely naked falls love art teacher seems art teacher absolutely love too ending sacrifices freedom lying said raped her true artemisia fell love him says suffer lot trial artemisia father art teacher were somebody hurting artistic hands say truth think great movie art artistic love worth watching valentina cervi great artemisia acts well also like performance the portrait lady pansy osmond ,0 i haven t had a mental breakdown in a while because i m practicing to not let thing get to me a much a i did before now a day i ve been feeling sad not wanting to talk to people getting angry and cry i cried for about day now and i don t know how to get back to normal i m scared that i might go back in my black hole and that would be terrible because i don t think i can stop the thought if they yell loud enough i m scared because i might fall back and listen it s miserable in the black hole honestly i ve been pushing so hard in 0 i just want someone tell me that they are proud of me and to keep pushing please if you re a father please note that you are because i would love to hear it from a dad father s are their daughter first love but not in my case so please help me out,1 professional solitary confinementthis worst month life first significant romantic relationship ive years ended around thanksgiving bottle emotions eventually nervous breakdown instead handling like normal person rough weeks that going alright part work two jobs one projectionist major film theater star wars ruined me point running short documentaries job relatively active schedule keeps am hour shift consisting maybe hour work rest time effectively babysit machinery dark soundproof box alone myself unable leave get real breaks since downtime shows considered break first two weeks saw sun maybe ten minutes theater for business reasons get into decided get run understaffed projectionists zero flexibility schedule quit theater probably survive loss job gives hours time alone basically sit thoughts ive tried reading surfing reddit podcasts like cut it end night seen star wars times got sick thats spent christmas eve christmas day new years job also complicated work coffee shop days week helps social time covers rentbills job willing flexible enough accommodate theater schedule my bosses jobs good friends problem one coworkers recent ex tried make things work friends genuinely still love her im place mentally handle it month trying realized hurting us cut off well though looking back childish best emotionally abusive worst every interaction made feel guilty even though intend to horrible her deserve that point speaking asked understanding boss schedule us together anymore seeing feels like punch stomach completely terrified running her decided time move chicago really close friends migrated past years cant stand anymore city im small everyone knows everyone would say fuck theater leave tomorrow four months left lease unless find friend finish time me im stuck then im charismatic outgoing thats earned lot acquaintances one two good friends here none feel comfortable opening this point life cycle work staring ceiling trying sleep never isolated socially physically im incredibly dark place reason killed want kind harm family wish could stop thoughts every day voice gets louder louder getting harder rationalize away appointment psychiatrist tomorrow im seriously worried surviving end month much less may need help,1 aw ball the new shirt i got at aerie today doesn t fit i wear a medium but they only had a small in the one,0 @MirandaBuzz Well I'm going to go to bed now and try to sleep this sickness off. Good night. ,0 like women like like coffee thick hot scratch hate put oreo crumbs coffee thick weird think burnt mom please come help ill deal consequences failures day,0 wonderingi wonder many people survive attempts regret it actually end it always talk survivors glad alive im survivor fucking hate im alive failed wonder im alone,1 xambix wow welcome home eh that s well shit especially just coming back off holiday some fucking people,0 know america many covid cases britain stay m apart thats inches america thats why,0 can anxiety cause pain where ur heart is i ve had ekg n been to the dr n they said i wa fine but my mind think it something else yk,1 hate geometry hate geometry shapes shapes,0 guess finally time longer comment one posts instead make onenot completely ready take life anything need vent get advice so requires backstory im high school student back november girl im guy approached began talking one day whatever big deal anyways couple weeks later talks again couple days talks again ends becoming pretty regular thing one final days gives plate cookies me thought sure sign liked me im shy never really anything it ended able get number one day continuously chatted winter break however post winter break nothing happened still didnt anything nothing either well back february needed ride home days week luckily able give ride home one them would think good get talk more well me bad weekend weekend intended asking out rejected way going comfortable getting ride also walking car her overheard sister behind us talking sisters dating someone assumed mustve heard crushs sister wrong ive never seen crush dude acting somewhat romantically anyways second day week asked could give ride said couldnt going surgery next day needed prep it that didnt want ask next weekend march time recovering surgery all lost confidence ask out well today rolls around tell one best friends all hour ago told fact dating someone im upset kinda got rejected sense mostly read entire situation wrong wasted months worth emotion im probably closest something since chester bennington passed away couple years back,1 lol people carewhy fuck people care kill self next year take life why alternative insane legitimately finally manic break awesome cant wait thats stupid end go crazy bipolar disorder cunt dirty cunt wish best it fun actually painful thing ive ever experienced sometimes wish never born know dont want childrenif make knock devil fuck,1 finally know draw d time execute properly expect sketch next hours,0 Lookin forward to the Dauphiné Libéré. Go @teamastana ,0 join pls join among us game code ctkcwq,0 teleken unfortunately i don t sorry hopefully you do find someone who can though,0 going read post sorry writing points connected story forgive got energy thati want speak shoulders hate when much hide know smile face reflect real happiness heart i hate addictive life internet social media everything real day goes fast energy anything night comes hate productive wish somebody talk without judging somebody listen crying heart feel alone,1 know would good idea pegging asshole strapon dildo you could also use real thing want hehe,0 final birthdaymy st birthday coming weeks family going city next day presents excellent opportunity it wanted come too madeup work related excuse stay decade suffered depression ive kept hidden everyone planned way years ago go pain would cause loved ones especially mom depression gone worse ill take step even enjoy playing video games anymore passionate hobby since childhood bought equipment needed go painless way feel relieved ill finally saved pointless miserable existence ps throwaway account real account could tied me,1 ok tell whos stoping yall friend app ,0 "@meeshiefeet I look forward to see the Spider with my son ! it has come to my home town, Yohokama ",0 the 0 halsey melanie martinez troye sivan lana to 0 depression pipeline,1 Depression is real,1 anyone remember animal jam good times back then still play cause mobile version aint shabby and according majority long time players find there theyre teens still like play haha,0 "Stayed up till now, which is now 5:43am, out with Selene and friends for her bday was awesome",0 need genuine advice theres friend really really like replied three days text ive sent left read even ask leave read left read know part like leave alone want talk one like maybe hates speak anyone ever again know know,0 homework due th am still acts scenes sum,0 song recommendations crushing someone feel got u kinda like together amin lovedrug,0 podcast thats run teenagers hey guys made podcast thats entirely made run teenagers talk school mental health everything between want check episodes yt link herehttpsyoutubebobnqludig spotify link herehttpsopenspotifycomshowrjxwynxgsvmurzjzxysigkohwtorxcrgxnpavbpig please leave feedback comments,0 selfish wanting end lifebeen feeling suicidal got around purely people would get upset understand get called selfish loads things wanting end life understand people thinking selfish ending seems like option sometimes go things go nobody else understands dont even see good future people bring like gonna change things dont see happening sometimes get right edge attempting end realise fuck calm myself ive never believed thought id never get far im still daily things keep putting im scared ill get far ill end killing without hesitation lacking support right ,1 dont know im suicidali actively think killing self aftermath never consider it however consider dying peaceful freeing thing,1 is needing some love,0 never stood chance,1 amazing documentary saw original airdate dvd times last years shocked even nominated best documentary oscar year released documentary even comes closebr br it tv recently th anniversary missed added where now segment end except catch tony works hazmat unitbr br ive seen criticism documentary filmmaking list cant see could done different less months assemble get air dvd contains material backgroundbr br im also surprised according imdbcom brother projects four years since doing,0 i ve been feeling anxious and stressed out lately which usually cause me to have chest and pain in the middle of my back now i looked up my symptom on google i know i know big mistake and apparently my symptom mostly align with a condition called stable angina this condition can lead to unstable angina which can be fatal i ve gotten at least ekg done in the past month or so and they have all been normal but i m still scared that maybe my body just can t handle stress and is slowly shutting down i don t know ha anyone else here experienced anything like this,1 talked friend redflag today friend posted poll insta story going as u die yesno,0 get betternearly years old job family friends like im drowning sea people care themselves ive never even felt like loved acknowledged relationship ive ended cheating me social anxiety makes hard find friends let alone ones trustworthy cant see getting better change comes me world know,1 guess birthday win gold unlimited attempts delete mins one attempt per comment,0 tried checking mental health care facility todayleft said planning hold hours minimum fuck that id rather go back work thank god wasnt professional place couldve trouble trying get filled signed paperwork least know thats option help either haha theres escape hell life,1 like title says im rapidly losing motivation recently switched collages closer home could closer family depressive spirals coming often mainly lack work do always end things last damn minute freshman year tried best almost,1 surface written wind lurid glossy soap opera sexual dysfunctions texas oil family underneath deep social commentary s life director douglas sirk scores another univeral sudser robert stack falls love lauren bacall problem stacks best pal rock hudson loves too stack finds hes sterile bacall ends pregnant fireworks fly and alltoogood dorothy malone oscar portrayl texas biggest nympho shunned hudson good epic soap opera,0 im really sorry everyone im really selfish really want end itwhats point im anxious theres limit much take ive already failed think go dont think courage to cant talk feel like attention seeking selfish become like this want happy again college life go cant cant seem function like basic human im always anxious im trying hard hide fact always comes wrong way,1 @lopezwilfred Yeah. Me too. Will lookout on your tweets too. Happy Tweeting ,0 doi thought notes want stop living everytime bring cliff ledge hiking trips put knife throat cant think dad sister im years old th grade know life really worth living me girl ever loved relationship with lesbian cant find love girls know life plans outside joining marines maybe ill die hero diagnosed mental illness tried get help school thing said how grades second walked couselour office feel trapped every night cant fall asleep think death im glad found place tell someone someone please tell fuck,1 why am i like this sometimes i think about what people reaction would be if they found out i committed suicide sometimes i think it s the only way for people to understand and feel the pain i am feeling i know deep down i won t do it cowardice and my mom still being alive is the only thing stopping me i travel to and from work and i would always cry on the way i feel depressed i know i am depressed but if you would ask me why i wouldn t know where to start or what to say sometimes i don t even know why i m depressed i just am thing are seemingly going well and nothing bad ha happened yet why am i breaking down all the time and lashing out at others why do i feel this familar feeling in my chest like i m holding something back like i m on the verge of a break down i m not sure when it started but i m so scared of people i know my brain is telling me not to trust anyone or get close to anyone because i ll get hurt but i do it anyway i choose to believe that this time it would be different now im alone and i have nobody because i ve tried to protect myself from others look at me now trying to seek comfort from stranger i feel so pathetic and useless i want to be happy i want to not care about what others think of me i want to stop comparing myself to others and getting jealous of people my age who are more accomplished than me i want to be happy with who i am i want to love myself every year i would write in my journal my goal for the year and that would be at the top of my list do you know how tiring it i to pretend to be strong all the time it my own fault i did this i put my guard up and pretended to be knowledgeable a if i didn t suffer from anything imagine i m the one people go to for advice if only they knew how weak i really am how stupid i am i m so tired of reading body langauage facial expression and voice tone and trying to decipher word to see if it ha hidden meaning just to see if they are genuine living in fear of people and what they think of me absoutely breaking down at any mention of someone not liking me or liking something about me or what i did being cold and keeping people at arm length searching online meet people online and how to make friend online i m year old i ve been typing it in for year it dosen t work i m so lonely i have friend but none of them know who i really am i put up a front for year now no one know how to approach me or what to say to me if they see me i don t reply to text message because to me it s a waste of time because they aren t my real friend if i don t keep them around then i m truly a loner i go out of my way to be there for them but nobody asks me if i m okay nobody asks anything about me everyone assumes i m okay i feel so unfulfilled i m unhappy with my current academia but i m procrastinating and making it worse i feel no motivation to study all i m doing is destroying my life what do i do i cant trust anyone i ve tried it for year and everyoe hasn t been genuine sigh i m lost,1 pain life know ache know keep awake tonight fills dread hate braces tightened,0 god im tiredi want die bad know hurt horribly might fail wish could leave hope afterlife everything want perfect people damn mean here dont like live constant stress anyone know easiest way go,1 help trans guy hi name aki im trans guy ive emotional problems people using birth name anyone could comment something anything saying something name it even hi aki would make happy,0 im planning kill myselfi need plans tentative date figure things become even unbearable always early reason wanted live time date comes it ive already written one letter angry one writing felt cathartic good want recipient read in fact want everyone read it im interested response plans right couple more one detailing want stuff dog go to one actual redflag note explaining im choice one could prevented it sometimes get anxious fact letters written get mood either fuck it ill dead anyway care everything properly oh god cant right wherewithal finish want finish go never feel ready continue suffer indefinitely want get rid anxiety writing letters energy motivation them im sure ill really emotional whole thing sounds exhausting know expect posting here im looking for maybe want validation maybe want argue side maybe doubt strong maybe desire proven wrong someone point something genuinely considered would make life bearable know many places discuss things like this id like talk it context permanently disabled multiple refractory conditions make unable work mostly home bedbound constant pain discomfort miserable obviously suicidal want die time tolerable moments passively would like die instead actively exhausted treatment options worst conditions gotten worse time think redflag reasonable decision given circumstances,1 I just love how I'm learing to make 15.000 a month on autopilot ;) http://bit.ly/3hkEi6 You too here is how.,0 it s been a lot of stress past the last three year i feel like i can t take it anymore i m too anti social i can t talk to anyone i just start shaking and can t say a word and then this feeling of embarrassment will haunt me for the rest of the day no one want to talk with me i feel like i shouldn t be here like i m a burden to everyone i have to hold my emotion inside never letting them out and this is killing me i ve been cry for the last few day i feel so pathetic am i the problem i am so lost,1 hey guys bday today wish could invite instead got virtual hugs digitalized cake,0 feel trappedfor past decade ive felt nothing selfhatred anger sadness loneliness point feel like thing ever make happy redflag thats issue though issue know killed myself would devastate family friends ten years ive painted smile face ive acted like everything okay loved ones worry happy ten years this feel like im living everyone elses behalf im tired want sadden family friends killing myself im also sick living sake keeping happy feel like fair people always talk taking care well being supposed one thing make happy taking life keep suffering everyone else happy im afraid stay alive long enough im going start resenting loved ones happy want ever get point,1 follow @joelosteenmin you'll be glad you did! ,0 would rather numbi feel like born every advantage possible loving mum comfortable home life disabilities prosperous safe country intelligence etc surface everyone else im fulfilling it degree stable job pays money know with good friends family etc sometimes like right now mind collapses sense impending doom closes around me wake am complete panic voices head cant silenced saying ive completely messed life deserve anything anymore selfinflicted due past mistakes fault spew gall builds inside me option go cry punch pillow scream shut up ive done nothing wrong drink im numb curl sleep or theyre particularly severe talk someone get outside mind soon stop come back one coupled bolt anxiety perfect destroyed life never peace again doom around corner destroyed everything first started years ago got onto meds lexapro wow new man everything fine january year went bathroom blood holycrapwhatsgoingonimgonnadie taxi er hemerrhoids saw gp told mental state pristiq colonoscopy emptied myself little blood night night went under wakey wakey nothing wrong except crack one be went way weeks later blood went private hospital infected pilonidal sinus thank you saw specialist wowee said see plastic surgeon cant may stand know set off five years peace this normal normal every negative voice swimming inside skull saw counselor week amazing explained everything perfectly nervous system issue brain scan anything unpredictable voices meant helpful theyre wellintended fantastic left feeling really good voice little whisper back mind shes wrong yesterday searched voluntary euthanasia thoughts said good idea die hand way thats it went home cried stayed friends place cat lied me small comfort slept like log today im getting extended med cert im scared tell im rails id said getting better im bus hours im staying mum easter im sure ill last may would rather numb feel anything im not im full gunk pain voices oh god im scared way out peace ever again want stop want win positive thought instantly rebutted torn down feels hard fight wish to much easier give up selfdestruct end all ok voices fine right im screwed mum her already lost husband father im sticking around her want bury child,1 need someone talk tohello feel really bad need someone talk to past really hurt spoken anyone really killing quite literally thoughts anxiety helping me everyday past couple months redflag mind want live im afraid hurt self worse please need help ,1 everywhere turn depression always therei find depressing living world people depressed ever ive depressed since last years world changed people becoming depressed suicidal friends high school life party now two committed redflag one overdosed another mental asylum ive attempted kill many times failed also want help people make world seem better,1 i miss those day where we used to play till we saw the sun go down now life s just stress stress stress with a huge dollop of depression,1 feel stupid thismy life really crappy parents dead tumors brain spinal cord grandmother raised never fails remind held back things me life would comfortable would able retire already makes feel bad obviously resent saying things me makes feel worse fact people constantly telling im lucky her admirable stepping raise me since young could think much happier shell gone recently bought miniature dachshund puppy really love literally reason get every morning bought shih tzu like dachshund dog misbehaves beats tells it shell yell dog stupid like me gross like me makes feel like hates much hates dog care things important me reason killed yet im afraid happen dog ive always thought throwing busy street done it since im unemployed failure tells everyone too ive thinking different ways mind scares me feel stupid whiny feeling bad something trivial cant stop it,1 Thats cool ,0 sexually confused past years im starting give upi began realize depressed year old two years parents divorce i pretty insightful child coping since myself going years old ups downs thought hurting killing coping mechanism now began cut stomach get point long story short hopeless romantic loveobsessed lonely girl questioning sexuality since still found girl me fall love straight women unintentionally specific incident enough lost it closest ever gotten girl months ago got hopes played emotions completely dumped me hit rock bottom razorblades could make feel alive know get mess therapist cant figure either cant imagine spending another year alone im thinking ending day do,1 guess whos texting friend midnight ulolxd has tell sleep actually bc im playing gamepigeon rn,0 giggity giggity giggity giggity giggity giggity giggity,0 im scaredits two years since attempted redflag help received leaving hospital nothing stopped going psychiatrist therapy sessions months later went psychiatrist felt didnt believe word told him treated waste time problems werent severe therapy felt wrong me could never open up havent okay whole time ive self harming bathroom recently starving myself waking morning hell got call boss asking come back work monday agreed back monday wont even live see sunrise tomorrow leaving world today third time charm right,1 can i talk to someone please,1 wanna sleep aint got social warmth kind affection make fall asleep instead keep browsing reddit cuz fills dopamine even im extremely tired,0 drill still proceed caution mum gae,0 wish could tell uyeah idrk long deal w shit like one second im feeling okay next second im literally flooded intensely dark suicidal thoughts literally taking trash cant stop thinking abt much want like dont even know want do want everything want jump balcony want cut see bone think question really dont want do im messed up sometimes watch videos ppl hurting bc makes feel like im it sometimes makes feel worse bc it used save pictures cuts could look later almost trick pain thats skin know thats blood that theres weird sense pride think sometimes could convince done right would go away little bit sometimes feel worse wont means im coward dont know deserve this barely breathe whole body throbbing pain physical feels physical feels like gorging lungs breaking ribs pain big teeth ive always done best satiate it satiate others always ask more right second cant stop thinking abt would feel shoot head dad jokes could throw rock country find gun know stupid hes literal whenever take walks around neighborhood always pouch pebbles case maybe god favor once people scared kill dont get it might hurt half second afterwards maybe could breathe again once without choking without stupid pain would fast know wouldnt pretty want cremated anyways,1 feel like redflag inevitable me havent found courage go yet world wasnt made everyoneits years since knew didnt want alive anymore finding courage end really fucking hard though im much pussy it dont know though absolutely reason alive reason cant pull end put mental torture years end super frustrating sorry ranting,1 die taking lots metformin tabletstheres many paracetamol ibuprofen tablets loads metformin tablets dad used take take anymore want die im depressed bad person im really useless boring cant make anybody happy,1 omg guys measured today exactly inches nice number although unfortunately dont think ill height long,0 must happen ok something happend today time ago finally courage dm crush wanted something actually said yes happy talked dm bit also school hit pretty well thought holy shit maybe gonna get girlfriend one classes got cancelled today period asked could go mall friends said yes happy again yes really fun liked that plays minecraft asked were home play minecraft together also really fun remeber seeing tiktok talking class gay something asked her are actually gay responded yes,0 pmarnandus re daily gossip well the twitter gossip are mostly from e online which i can not access,0 im killing soonfuck life im even sad anymore im actually happy it kill myself wont deal school family anymore gone think much hate myself cant wait end soon,1 fucking tired aliveim going fucking it everything torture last week alive welcome you death,1 got first detention maths teacher trying zoom questions board know said press alt f probably tell happened next,0 talk someone suicidali thinking friend suicidal would talk them try relate experiences try convince know feel feel like negative side would watering down situation emotions approach think telling i cant even imagine pain in let let comfort them feel negative side would get even emotional dramatic situation gets worse anyone explain role trying assist someone predicament,1 hate birthday year time feel like wasted another year life accomplishing nothing bday dont dare say ting,0 to honestly want die think strength work overnight job fucking nights week almost year now asked job could switch shifts lazy coworker works nights ofc coworker says cannot night schedule would quit faith anything else fucking tired valued cannot take anymore cannot cannot deal life job right now,1 girlfriend residential rn days talk someone really need talk story behind it filler filler filler,0 @jbrisbon mmhm! Have a goodnight at work! ,0 mercury poisoningmy dad works lab took bottle mercury it sure kind kill you im desperate point probably much coward kill way right im sitting bedroom listening birds chirping outside think itll taste ready gag it throw up im second thoughts maybe im much coward even this guess ill edit post things go according plan,1 "@MarniBeetle I follow fridayed you b/c you're cool. No obligation to return, but I wouldn't stop you if you did ",0 i m currently taking 0mg effexor xr for anxiety and depression i ve also taken lexapro 0mg for year and zoloft 00mg for a year both had similar effect barely put a dent in my anxiety and really helped with the severe symptom of depression but it s still there my anxiety is still bad particularly my physical symptom i always feel on edge and nervous i can always feel my heart pounding hard not fast regardless of my mental state and it s the most debilitating symptom i feel i can never relax and never truly enjoy myself because of how anxious i feel i take propranolol 0mg twice a day and is the only thing that help a little with the physical symptom but they re still problematic i have tried meditation breathing exercise exercise i have read a multitude of book on cognitive behavioral therapy acceptance and commitment therapy and mindfulness no exercise in the book ha helped with the symptom whatsoever i should also mention i have had test for my thyroid adrenal any gi or diet issue antibody etc and i m sure i can rule out physical cause is anyone else in a similar boat to me and found buspirone helped if no ha anything helped you thanks,1 guys piss red help burns owwwwwwww,0 tf write right fountain pen im new fountains pens got today umany help this know probably worst sub ask this idk ask best option,0 wondering carbon monoxide painless way rest pretty huge cabinet go light charcoal got holes cover tape easily asking first sub saw suicide afraid fail leave brain damage prevent failing probability failing high methodthanks hello guys carbon monoxide painless way die,1 awww her husband cooked for us! awesome times girls! i love you ,0 im ok thought dressing masculine would make feel better didnt im crying ex telling make happy,0 "Victory! I won the fat boys contest with a loss of 5.7kgs. Off to buy a bacon buttie (via @ruskin147) Cool! go Rory, go Rory! ",0 gurumn but this is canada canada is weird we re supposed to get snow through wednesday ugh,0 wow miss uthepsylocke anyone active last year know,0 weird talk comments sure talk guy point suicidal commentshttpswwwredditcomrddlccommentsldskouch_ow_oofie_my_feels op saying bad things hes point experience with help here,1 why hasn't the depression groan been added to the diagnostic criteria i mean 24/7 i'm justughuGHuuuughhhhhhhhhhhUUUUUUUUGHuuuuuuuUUUUUUUUuuuugH,1 ventwhitehot anger sadnessdepression trying forget alcohol sleeping waking instantly wanting die sadness whitehot anger guilt feelings every bad thing ive done life defined now,1 robot chicken marathon? lets see how far I go till I fall asleep. had a fun time earlier today ,0 question dont know answer it help me question really hard love,0 situation girlfriend serous problems home contemplating suicide reference life easy parents passed away alcohol homeless recently lost job grandmother living let see finds job next week going kicked out even tho actively trying hardest id move place mom allow it refusing help point afraid going tomorrow morning know do really afraid two siblings lot friends care her know getting people mindset next impossible scared alive tomorrow someone please advice ill take it want live important me girlfriend needs help idk else,1 want end all im autistic im toxic element common failed relationships high school exclassmates still talk make jokes fun parents abusive stalk abuse adhd im trans body far changed pass surgeries would change im post high school education one believes parents abuse cant keep job born ugly medical problems cant attend cant afford want end,1 damn im tired pm,0 started planning recently limit days talking boyfriend bursting tears easily seeing face state amp hearing cried voice breaks heart guilt trip stuff understands painit feeling want him realized reason need reconsider suicide care afterlife family sadness painful stuff ending ed psych ward boyfriendbut still fucking hard keep living hellish torture want make crythink many relate thanks reading want kill cry,1 my depression is so depressed,1 challenge accepted today friends walking one friends like lets see followers instagram predicted won one like lets check followers girls tell guys one instagram seen face everyone see friends post art boi also sail hehim people following know me them guess won somehow followers girls like dont many followers either like like girls me jealous friend like bet cant talk girl talked weeks rejected cant even talk normally day like become friends dont want date anyone yet talk weeks get talk girl weeks btw girl one hottest girls school,0 why to we the only school in the world be in this week my school is silly anyway look on the bright side when i m off u will be in,0 @brianjshoopman Thanks! I'm in the same boat. Trying to finish up a new collection--but then will probably start on a new book. ,0 want family backi thought perfect family thought marriage perfect traded world turns wife pretending everything okay several months finally become much her leaving opportunity try fix wrong considers months hiding feelings trying says already tried daughter able control crying around every time see reminds im going waking school anymore idea losing family much bear hate wife want lose her best friend looks hated years feel alone empty everything me could talk anything thought could hiding truly felt want wake find horrible nightmare ive wanted die much since told way fix this want live life without best friend even talk like friend want give hug let hold way used to right closest thing friend year old concerned daddy crying much think id already killed myself planned shoot yesterday think way without traumatizing anyone idea daughter wife finding witness made impossible know do never even remotely thought possibility marriage weve together almost years happiest years life without struggles years would never give up im fucking alone,1 "the brothers grimm" ,0 Once again another crush on @Diem I think she's a cutie ,0 reckoning nowive coming think theres something wrong world maybe thats got issue life kick old feeling everyday felt like magic day loop centuries now im trapped hours again seasons change showers fall droughts come still watching blank mind lost time seems know get out think theres way live life try damndest back started sense meant something time another future id win day itd clear made behovely world instead tomorrow like yesterday people talk dull loops itll like sitting awful movie sundry parts add anything noise sequence static trying speak me garbled crunches holding nothing randomness end rope im great pain suffering great sickness hope seems silly now life breathing passing away whatever comes next though think jury made clear sentence comes conviction profit,1 @scodal Why thank you! This is Bonzo... He's my buddy! 2 yr old 190lb Great Parinese(sp)... bark is fierce...but really a big pussycat! ,0 "@Aasri_Kayy ummm... okay, well whatever IT is, it can't sing all that well? Katy Perry sings it better, mayne. ",0 I had a great day with my family. Now I'm going to sleep. ~Kel,0 " https://www.google.com/amp/www.wnd.com/2008/03/59405/amp/ …Bernanke: Federal Reserve caused Great DepressionFed chief says, 'We did it. ... very sorry, won't do it again'",1 going need therapy game sincerely advise play doki doki literature club steam do please dm bond pur lost sanity would like point gay realize geared towards males still carried screwed omg help please,0 a day negotiating wth insurer after spilling beer on my laptop last night probably to no avail,0 every seconds patrick rochei hope listen poem poem patrick roche,1 think google spying ive checking everywhere room cant find anywhere spying me,0 im trying things feel really dark right nowim going go much detailfirst time posting bit lurker looking back years ago always life family party joking things comedic sarcastic responses everything generally happy person went breakup lockdown happened got new job found new girl lost her suicidial sister feel like everything suddenly hit short period time divorce papers split new girl sister still suicidal feeling worthless new job dont find release anything ive developed alcohol dependency allow feel constantly thought head i keep hurting people cant help want to hurt people one last time cant again know need help fhere lot demons head dont want talk someone cant express im sober want go therapist drunk assume alcohol do im fine line away giving up ps theres backstory ive disclosed want entire life there,1 im going end iti hate everything myself look act inner thoughts much anxiety anything im failure theres really reason never good enough never happy want die shouldnt born ,1 guys think crushes watching ____ wondering im really bored bunch questions r flying mind,0 lads going trip ram ranch join want,0 helpi feel really weak need someones help ive depressed years so ive never seen doctor saw happened older sister went hospital fuck that tonight really bad im alone house parents europe late anyone awake want end it care anything anymore even loneliness thing past three nights ive gotten laid enjoy anything anymore im really ready it know im asking help anyone able say anything not cliche help thats story ive got rope tied basement,1 real suppleroot hours up week gotten good start,0 mistystilletto if it had happened to anyone else i would have peed myself laughing i scraped my leg,0 dvd treated indifference mllions classic rock music devotees across world rush cool shame rush overcome sneering disdain majority north american british music journalists thirty odd year history deprived many people chance get real bandeach last four decades well represented catalogue songs is seminal magical the trees lyrical tom sawyer interspersed highenergy genrechallenging pieces latest album vapor trails musicianship almost flawless stage show spectacular brazilian fans plain crazy at one point sing along instrumentaleach band member plays level defies beliefreal craftsmen performing artif doubt try instrumentals la villa strangiato the rhythm method sizeand yes latter drum solo which seen believedbr br sound vision production values high befits rush experience also get documentary multiangled set pieces bootbr br this astonishing performance tribute canadian rockers serious classic rock fans copy,0 im so tired i just want to sleep forever making a promise to myself that tonight is the night reaching out for help didn t work i can t do this anymore sorry guy,1 geoffmartinez youre going to be in mexico on easter why,0 "logging off ladies, will be back for that mass-tweet session ",0 im cumming hard nose lmao need tissues,0 agree best fruit foods green yellow orange ones think otherwise wrong,0 By the way... 200 tweets! ,0 teensy bit horny okay lied ive horny day posting would tell im bored,0 blocked idc blocked idc blocked idc blocked idc blocked idc irdc,0 someone send jail ive got much horny system cant contained,0 liebe depression ich will mein leben zur ck also verpiss dich endlich ich hab kein bock mehr auf grau in grau mit grau ich werde mir jetzt die farben zur ckholen ob du da willst oder nicht die welt ist bunt und ich werde da wieder zu sehen lernen notjustsad,1 well brought againi making much progress actually starting enjoy life again saw friday night club ignoring me fair enough last year threatened redflag acted like child harassed her absolutely everything wrong talked two months went end night said hi said thought civil next night texted asking still felt weird come say hi texted back forth basically said im narcissist spoiled brat idiot everything thats true said ever contact talk going police want die ive bed past two days cant see way out want kill myself please help ,1 hi guys need help hi guys great community like spending time lot normally post title would quit worrying sub need prove something friend new macbook pro runs minecraft fps says terrible bad laptop almost blows whenever type tell afford great laptops doesnt mean nonrtx ones crap thanks guys,0 July aint coming fast enough!! @loveashlay what u doin for ur bday? Its in 25 days! ,0 earth update us hello god speaking new update coming us version earth subscriptions people bought paying attention us politics subscription receive daily gifts stupid things people say twitter arguments occasional motivational speech covid event over course year introduced karens event adding several levels add challenge game schools reopening passed complete event likely create lag making harder finish event other we working large change game rendered unplayable people one people impacted this sorry working find solution hope enjoy changes game always find bugs please contact support team,0 apsanabegummp ucu it s like he entirely discounted the idea that staff at non striking university might also be suffering depression overwork stress anxiety would it really be such a terrible thing to lead an investigation into the extent of these issue in the sector,1 everythings bleaknow started taking ton medication stopped desire end soon possible still anything gives little purpose life without medication least something work towards even death numb everything pain felt gone replaced anything else know start feeling better least ill probably able wait mother dead myself,1 i already failed out of college once but i thought i might try again at a community college well i m about to fail out of this too and for some reason nothing in me care a a child i always kind of assumed my life would be in a great place at how na ve since i ve been miserable for a long a i can remember why would life magically get any easier i just recently pieced together that my earliest memory which i never really allowed myself to understand wa my narcissistic mother attempting to drown me when i wa about year old no wonder i m so fucked up i ve been planning on killing myself before my rd birthday for the past month or so i suppose she ll get what she wanted all along,1 tell native speaker ur learning language japanese korean speakers ur great learning japanesekorean english speakers understandable english useful spanish speakers tells something completely false cuz think funny french speakers fucking time everyone general vicinity points laughs cuz said un instead une,0 way outeverything screws kids over brought screws over leaving screws over dying screws over wish could hand life someone else wipe memories kids husband mother put new woman let take over better thought ok right now anxiety pmdd acting im struggling bit knew hormonal pass took kids morning engagements spent afternoon playing river enjoying early spring weather husband randomly picked documentary mother young child trying kill felt like throat closing over feel envious think methods try justify it try think theyll better long run wont kids adore me fight yell sometimes go far purposely mean think honestly think im wonderful cuddle kiss tell love much mama love moon theyd destroyed want mummy want mummy ive held whole lives awful pressure wish here want medicated ive hated cant deal again buckle push ill manage fuck wish could replace me go somewhere die somehow hurt anyone done,1 im gonna try make io game using webserver got ideas guys good ideas type game make running webserver fancy d graphics,0 Having depression is stressful enough but being bipolar and having up and down mood swings Jesus. I would cryyyyyy,1 idk anymorei feel like much yet enough work hard every day literally anything could possibly want yet feel like isnt enough despite working hours day feel like could productive theres many things id love cant seem find motivation therefore one holding back feel successful age want successful idk feel like everything great idk cant settle have idk burning desire even successful burning desire take everything next level yet hold back idk get around obstacle ive created feel stuck frozen,1 want wake anymorei know long continue feel way everyday become struggle sanctuary find asleep lonely friends let alone anyone talk feel person talk ex rarely talk now ive turned drinking too numb pain even limits antidepressants seem working either im tired feeling like this tired feeling worthless hating alive feel guilty thinking ending life people react hear redflag selfish act hurting much inside want stop,1 @YoungCeothaBoss lol good morning ceo.... For the second time ,0 never felt like want livei never suicidal ive good life really im days ago lost best friend identical twin sister cant explain kind grief causing feel like cant breath always us always together one soul two bodies plenty friends close family half one person would never let always back even wrong without im sinking cant live like this cant imagine future without her first got news thought would actually die right then sadly didnt gave medicine calm me cant stay drugs forever cant exist like this want die want live without her,1 similar on town musical sailors shore leave falls short later classic terms pacing quality songs charms kelly three fabulous dance routines one jerry cartoon mouse tom jerry fame one little girl fantasy sequence spanish lover determined reach lady high balcony sinatra playing kellys shy inexperienced buddy grayson woman serves love interest men singing iturbi provides fine piano playing nearly two half hours bit long light musical drag,0 SO tired.. but! gotta put a mile on my faceeee ,0 know anymorei cant picture going like anymore nothing make pain inside feel go away matter happy friends family make me love cant understand feel like started cut,1 love what drupal file framework module could do but is sick of bitcache error making it impossible to upload file,0 gender pants gender ur dad,0 quick storytime bc im super embarrassed feel stupid months later skip video httpsyoutube_xo_ihaap viewer asks question mine married course realize video months later due friend telling yeah,0 quick feel anything secrets die me one needs know am look back others see care anymore want close eyes leap,1 knew would totally fucking itbut dont god fucking damn it maybe jump front train tomorrow itll going slow anything probably wont fucking fuck fuck ,1 i m am very depressed i m getting a degree that i have no interest in getting a job in i work in a retail store and feel like i m going to end up stuck in these type of job forever i play video game hour every day i eat unhealthy my living situation stress me out tremendously i don t want to move back in with my parent but i also can t afford to live on my own i have no passion no drive no meaning in life i m so lost why do i feel like i m losing all control of my life like the world is crumbling around me and i m slowly beginning to fall towards my end the worst part about it is i already know what i have to do to fix my depression work out sleep well quit weed quit masturbating quit nicotine eat well and most importantly stop playing video game i just never do any of them sometimes i ll go a few day good get this sense of euphoria and tell myself everything is fine why am i even worried about the future right now i don t need to do any of this stuff i can fix my life whenever then i go back into my depressive whole i cut off everyone and isolate myself background please don t suggest therapy i ve been to three separate therapist ongoing for the last three year,1 first bought movie doubts it even though cast pretty impressive seeing it really regret spending money fact id love spend movies like this absurd combination humor drama thrill big questions exactly makes great movie okay might enjoy see might even turn little while loss got wonderful way dealing issues weve one way other characters think enjoy company throughout movie turns ones really come love short while anyone open mind sense humor living watch movie promise disappointed,0 has finally finished all of his exams! ,0 my friend who s always been like a motherly figure to me and i ve always looked up to her ha been mentally struggling for ever since i ve known her mental facility in where she life are actual hell she tried to off herself a couple of time but didn t this time i m afraid that she ll do it because she s getting worse every day and i feel so helpless because word can t touch her anymore and that s all i can do she said that she feel worthless and life doesn t have meaning to it and that she think no one want her in their life and she doesn t know right from wrong good from evil and reality from illusion she s tired and the only thing she can think of is doing herself justice by ending her life to shut the voice in her head it broke my heart reading what she said and i couldn t translate it all i want her to find peace i just want the best for her i wish i m more brave to show her how beautiful life can be but even i can t see it so is there a point in trying i wish i could do more i wish i wa helpful i wish i can show her that she s not alone in this and that i love her i hate myself for even thinking that it s the best thing for her because then she ll be free she can finally rest in peace even though it hurt but i don t want her to suffer more than she already ha i want her to reach the peace she s been looking for i feel so selfish if i tried to stop her what should i do,1 body dysmorphia bangin rn want new brain please,0 i wa woken up from a deep sleep just to be let go for mad max not happy and now i can not sleep,0 i doubt theyd care but at the same time i dont wan na die alone he s the only person i have in my life and our friendship is most likely going to end once he move away but it s going to leave me in shamble i m probably going to attempt soon after he leaf but thats the thing i dont wan na die completely alone yes i still feel a if i have nobody by my side even though we re pretty close but regardless of that i just want to die knowing at least one person will give somewhat of a fuck about me,1 black puts getting laid easy mode white girls rush you black cursed one affect aint mad at,0 feeling hopelessthey say it gets better really feel way largely unhappy while fact anyone life speak feelings makes feel extremely hopeless ive best keep head up seems harder try harder fall back depression cant help feel resentful hardly anything working favor life feels like universe get make feel miserable can want believe happening thats feels like feel extremely lost know go help ive seeing therapist im receiving enough emotional support loved ones feel trapped really know do sorry came across whiny andor annoying unfortunately cant help feel like this,1 cool title spent hour recording minecraft playstation youtube press share button twice find wasnt recording,0 reddit friend believed committed redflaghttpswwwredditcomrpungulagcommentsbzxgia_man_wanders_through_the_corridors_of_anutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_app scroll bottom post poorly worded makes think may killed udunno_wtf_im_doing userbase httpswwwredditcomwikilaw_enforcement_guidelinesutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_app reddits law enforcement guidelines info reddit said put scenario contacted reddit reply im worried looking post history found references liverpool brighton hope helps live uk please get law enforcement find,1 like thiswhy like this think know im feeling sad depressed im relatively successful decent group friends know care me im union electrician drive dreamcar loving family recently feel like im drowning pitch black ocean light coming through think know feelings coming hate it ex girlfriend handful months ago dated probably weeks always pretend perfect spent much time energy unfortunately money her spent everyday weeks staying trying get open talk problems even though wake morning go work try help her do starts dating best fucking friend done anything her drive hours straight pick best friend up spent bucks hotel rooms gas time missed work hurts fucked room paid got hear entire fucking thing worst part reason braking me said mature her accepting understanding her anything serious one worry me feel like needed say something none friends know account sorry wall text formatting first post reddit thanks reading,1 planning life freakin stressful anxiety day ig barely realized im actually live get job stuff,0 probably going dead hours goes dear anyone even bothers read this break everything touch broke family broke friends broke friends families broke life break everyone around me everything problem involved ever make things better even know exist technically supposed born exist make life worse exist punching bag whoever wants hurt someone scapegoat every bad thing every day new problem life sick pretending getting better not amount exercise meditation whatever fix me mistake punished done many unspeakable things short life get deserve guess really hope people pity sob story truly evil sight disgusts me know people miss gone first know much hurt really spend time crying foot under people get it see anyone crying granddad died died years ago assume years time people forget gone please look mum grandma tell fault knowing them blame themselves tell ok now pain more tell love them hurt many people past truly sorry every single person strangers worst enemies feel though need make amends die everyone know now sorry meet way sorry everything please get better me please live life would wanted live make proud watch you remember me remember name remember storylove jadeaster final goodbye hopefully,1 movie might put catholic church best light telling story based true events unfortunately everything life including religion nice rosy sometimes people groups things time seem like right thing retrospective look great did a love divided tells story family yes incorporate religion really story family familys ability stay together matter thrown them film also based true events say story scene scene true look news articles time period would able see neither churches handled incident way helpful towards family churches fault here catholic church forcing regulation family first place responding violence came protestant church telling mother obey husband priest put fight case let family down believe film good job showing struggle church family way shape form putting catholic church opposite shows one incident change course religions ideas one person effect far reaching themselves,0 what s the best way to eat reheated pizza i keep trying to eat this one but it s too hot and make my mouth be in pain,0 thecoolestout ehhh don t weather s gon na take a turn for the ugly tomorrow,0 @ArachneSpinner @upicks @darkartists hey guys welcome to my twit ,0 dog smells like fertilizer dirt muzzle tf appealing fertilizer,0 williams got investment know investments go williams go,0 filling up the bath with some serious bubbles ,0 came realize later denied it basically calling celebrity crush nothing love musician totally love heres thing love idea created interviews blog posts music itself deeper crush know that came whispers girlfriend stopped whining single twitter seemed happier,1 "@modbird Seriously? I think you are the only person on the planet to feel that way Have a half day today though, so more tolerable.",0 know else turnyesterday person talked problems told geniuely hang already basically friend weve friends years cried almost three hours ivr bad mood swings either nothingness anger deep sadness want bother one else know theyll probably thing another person already lied caring friend im scared message call redflag hotline feel much anxiety im scared go anywhere else im even scared say reddit actually want die feel safe reaching help dont know else turn help right im really hoping made post right losing right think killing myself,1 is somehow sick again day till my exam wonderful timing,0 walking cavemen hosted alec baldwin look back hominid thats us species past million years were like died out along interesting scientific look information species walking cavemen also examines makes us human waited several weeks watch this disappointed,0 no really i m just angry at the world i have mental illness and everything but i really blame the world because there s no system that can help me i m sure y all feel the same we re forgotten and fall between the crack and there s no help i m angry that i can t get better angry that i m getting worse angry that i probably can t off myself without my sister quickly following the fact that i can t escape this life because i have loved one just actually is almost rude love shouldn t make me feel trapped in existence but it doe i m running out of money because i can t work fulltime so it look like if i do end up dying it ll be at the world s hand not mine,1 done deserve hellfuck world everyone living it im done,1 dream hunter doublebarreled shotgun nothing else me walking around forest looking animals hunt really notice anything else forest tried walk past certain tree figure came kicked full force collapsed fell ground also dropped doublebarreled shotgun took rusty looking axe quickly hit head also stomped axe would go skull started dragging dead body away one brutal things witnessed life yet another nightmare recently,1 "5TH WAVE x ALL THE BRIGHT PLACESIn climate change ravaged America, Beth is the lone survivor of a plague. As she walks to the Grand Canyon with a stranger by her side, she must learn to forgive herself for surviving or lose her trust in life to depression.#DVPit #YA #MH #OWN",1 wikipedia loophole teachers allow wikipedia source heres loophole wikibookshttpswikibooksorg wikiversityhttpswikiversityorg wikispeacieshttpsspecieswikimediaorg wikidatahttpswikidataorg juat uae sources use make article,0 Just got my email - won Euromillions. Is �12.70 enough to set up your own record label? At least I can get the first round in at the bar ,0 chabi prsk tu l a fais tomb en d pression,1 How do I get rid of depression,1 nothing in life is enjoyable not to mention that i have like missing assignment i could be doing right now,1 insulted woman raised mewhen child mother left reasons understand more painful woman worked house raised me treated like son feels like mother recently problems home dad bad mood many days woman person extremely difficult deal with made lunch yesterday giving compliment started yelling as said extremely difficult deal takes even compliments badly anyways discussion raised point told this fight father nobody wants around even mother snapped called old bitch told go fuck herself feel like shit it know make this never listen me either saying sorry which feel never talking again never apologize accept wrongdoing kind sucks either making feel fault anything do,1 awkward talking girl inb neither us interested relationship told if people like emotions think breakups would happen awkward got super confused said oh thanks end pls,0 bored need things need distractions helpso gf bipolar adhd loses interest lot things bored quarantine help much im assuming mixed episode learning spanish rn might get bored quick said bored considering redflag know internet anything fun interesting could could learn pls write,1 beuller beuller beuller beuller beuller beuller hes today,0 are you vaccinated against chicken pox should i vaccinate my yr old i am so confused about this damn thing,0 yeah im pretty smooth women dms irl fucking choke like fucking mia malkova mia khalifas love child,0 will have a meeting in an hour to explain quot which version of oaw we use quot what to say none atm it s just a heap of unbundled emf tool,0 ask literally anything day hello,0 evens a really good depressed character btw like obvs everything in this show is unrealistic and pathetic but its good to see depression - especially manic depression - shown through a person instead of a film character yknow,1 a friend of mine gave me feedback about something and it came off a harsh and being a sensitive person it really bothered me then i wa so upset i sobbed a few different time over the last few day then all of the sudden i called them and talked about it and told them how i felt and then i felt vibrant energetic and super enthusiastic this behavior kind of scare me should it i ve suffered from bad anxiety since i wa and i m now,1 fun fact day reddit post number result search minion ahegao reddit,0 cant stop cryingwhenever im alone cry know im risk redflag ive planned would ive prepared it feel like im going to almost precautionary moments im ready set things motion know assessed hospital would placed psychiatric hold insane,1 The Hills then missing House for the local Pub Quiz... Team Name: Norfolk N Chance ,0 swallowed lot medication do regret ooooh regret it going kill already tell cant tell dad redflag attempt year pissed puke up fast acting medication minutes tremors cant speak like last time im extremely emotional cry like hours straight cant cant last chance residential isnt good,1 all i ever do is fucking annoy people lmao they re all going to leave me,1 question teens reddit think people subreddit im looking data people see posts,0 know want kill myself nearly kill myselfi feel like im stuck wanting die wanting get close enough come side appreciate life one feels like this,1 "@jamieyork Pretty good games, when you can get them running over 20 FPS. Preferred the first one myself. Worth picking up. ",0 t wolfe i miss u too i m totally comin back tho lastnight wa sooooooo much fun,0 point living unhappyits serious question put day day barely living im anxious mess panic attack need leave house im home kids day really think im screwing up cry time cant get basic things done drive locally two young kids still here know would messed grow knowing mommy committed redflag want mess up want baby walking around asking mommy is really think healthy around day way am im sorry place know im even posting im midst anxiety attack im tired this im really sure ever get better want out feel stuck weighed down ive never felt trapped,1 need talk feel like least one friend leave tonighti really need someone talk to one talked another human months posted one ever really talks me last chance im staring sleeping pills want take tonight least id something eat im literally dying one friend tonight go,1 boy fan conservatives rn th grade watched one ben shapiro video immediately considered republican watched conservative content plenty liberals owned videos since seen error ways pretty central generally leftleaning funny see grown adults acting way year old acted back then fact actually think trump pence either debates pathetic,0 plan taking life soon i know probably one give shit,1 number day day a aa a aa,0 spring is finally here cherry blossom galore such a shame they are so temporary,0 rickroled little sister parents bought sis new bluetooth headphones could online school stuff mom asked set see worked think guess song played test them,0 i can literally wake up and drink a coffee or i can kill myself the earth would keep spinning regardless and nothing change,1 anyone right open talkive worst weekend life far slumped time low made worse past week begun feeling much better numb right now talk someone,1 must horny girl fuck super horny girl huge thighs amazing hair beautiful eyes get lost in look like would great spooning horny,0 is excited about getting her new camera ,0 give song recommendedations pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee le popular onessss good onessss underrated onessss,0 reason familyive attempted three times last time feb gotten way better situation right makes feel helpless thinking past life makes feel helpless wont attempt it sucks ive feelings since reason im going try family specifically mother boyfriend two boys already lost mother wife im lucky people love me cant shake feeling longer months time edited also life attempt isnt successful another reason wont it,1 so i wa prescribed propranolol 0mg for really bad physical anxiety symptom i have something coming up later in the semester in term of presentation it s not just presentation it s like presentation in one day i know what a joy i wa definitely planning to take a dose that day however i m scared it will wear off a few hour later is it fine if i double the dos that day or should i not,1 when you can t work and feel like a shadow of a character you put on for other people when you feel like such a burden to people you love almost like you are taking advantage of them because you need their help i got help but i still feel the effect of this depression medication doesn t seem to help the overall feeling that i feel is a lie i want to kill my self at least the identity that i am a strong man i m young i ve accomplished more than my father did at my age however i am still under his roof failure to launch and failure to exercise work life balance living with what i see to be bipolar disorder and the effect it ha on my and other people life holding on to the idea i have that to commit suicide would be murder in the eye of god because i am a slave of his i gave up my life because jesus gave up his struggling to understand or at least accept my sinful nature and reject it at the same time struggling with the idea that perhaps i m trans perhaps i m gay perhaps i m yes that s ok looking at myself gain weight because of my own lack of self control with eating going from the most disciplined with cutting weight for a pro fight going from 0lbs to lb in le than month getting fairly close to the former in i feel sick i feel worthless impotent the exact opposite of what i felt month ago i wan na be well for other people sake i wan na be taken advantage of in the future a work horse for someone a husband a friend an artist just not a crazy one but what can i do i didn t choose to be mad i just am i want to overdose so far i do so with caffeine and nicotine had i been able to get myself to drink alcohol i d use that however i hate hangover i think once i wake up in limbo i ll still feel it doing everything i can to lock myself in the house and not jump off a bridge head first onto the highway running out of video to watch on youtube running out of idea for making music feeling alone feeling a buzz from my med a i type this feeling god looking at me over my shoulder the devil over the other i want to be ripped in two the life i want is living a duel life one for jesus the other with satan queer perhaps my favorite word lately i identify a that queer,1 hell wrong meso basically scrolling subreddit days now reading peoples posts one thing common mental illnesses diagnosed anything yet somehow every time get angry upset mind resorts death redflag self harm idea whats happening many opportunities commit redflag missed them end concluded wouldnt nice family go losing one sons chickened out instead thought stabbing knife left hand cant anymore self harmed nothing extreme like aforementioned knife hand mum noticed cuts sat talk feel awkward shyed away telling truth multiple times back main topic noticed most all posts subreddit made people legitimate reasons actions feel belong psychopathic making post ask help advice hell wrong fix messed brain side note last night cried sleep brain made imagine seeing brother die slitting wrists bath tub horrible weird relationship brother bullies hate matter happens always best help him anyway rant over please help identify fuck wrong sorry making read lame attempt describing life,1 happens get hospitalizedmy psychiatrist told yesterday wants hospitalize stop anything myself anyone know exactly happens allow to would day look like,1 anyone wanna clean my car out? DISASTER!! ,0 hello i hope you are having a good day i have been suicidal for the last year at least i am 9 male idk if that matter and i never told anyone about it because well i am too shy today i built enough strentgh to be able to open up about my suicidal thought to my mother just to feel absolutely destroyed by her reaction she immedately asked if i am autistic no joke and didnt stop saying that i wa telling her this to threaten her or make her feel guilty i wa very confused when i heard that and she still continued doubting my academic performance even though i told her many time i am still doing well in my study then finally she somehow ended up beating me up out of rage telling me that i am lazy that i dont help at home that i dont pay the bill that i dont get the highest grade making feel me like i am burden to everyone well i guess that must be true right i am worthless so i should disappear soon trust me i want to die really badly but i get slapped by reality and i realize how weak i am when i try killing myself i am sorry for being such a disappointment to everyone i am truly sorry,1 im sure doi cant talk friends family anymore nothing say tell truly want die exist anymore true reasoning it life isnt complete mess anything ok job good relationship good friends feel like every time go rails everything fucked dont want anymore guess way yelling void telling people dont know really feel like im end rope cant anymore dont know fuck else do wish wouldve fully gone though one past times tried im scared im lost nothing working medication nothing feels like finally time end,1 need talkim years old toying thought redflag months now need talk,1 I spent most of the day doing nothing!! It felt great mama brought me pollo loco and now I'm so full I can take a nap.. I'm so lazy,0 "@stillgenie I thought that was the show she casts. I want to be the star, or nothing. ",0 tired constant failureyesterday mom asked keep going looked normal emotionless face shrugged thinks therapy dont heart tell therapy doesnt help me ive started cutting cope constant failure tbh since early high school cant talk due culture male cant tell ive found comfort alcohol im trying keep binging becoming harder drink bottle medication im tired always failing ive worked hard many years sacrificed much slip fingers like water last several years comprised financial hardship rejections med schools deaths breakup literally havent even taken time mourn lossesfailures dont know mourn feel nothing void space nothing exists yet widens everyday consumes me think loneliness whats getting most relationship lasted months im grateful first experience healthy left craving affection dont get much attention women eat away me feeds suicidal thoughts feelings inadequacy want end cant find ways end peacefully cant share thoughts anyone since friends run ignore acknowledging others feel im failure worthless perhaps better let void consume me,1 alliana0 it didn t make any sense to me the suicide thing i refuse to believe that that is actually what happened,0 Sorting out my car insurance. Lady on phone is currently trying to get me a better deal from her boss!! ,0 give ultimate trick making friends irl cant simple going outside asking stangers friends anything,0 anyone else staying late interacting strangers dont actual social life filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 can your job fire you if you attend an intensive outpatient program and need to work part time while you attend my therapist and psychiatrist said they would not be able to but my therapist wasn t entirely sure,1 @Renesmee_C Missed your twitter updates. glad to have you back ,0 harry potter spells existed would use obliviate loved ones memories you disappear somewhere instead dyingfor know obliviate forgetfulness charm harry potter universe erase particular memories someone else perhaps would use erase trauma try live happily use someone else die anyway mourn death stranger im curious,1 gf said loved seconds later broke dated weeks thats nothing made really happy life wasnt great really getting annoyed time feel like ass breaking way please proceed commenting im horrible person feel free ask shit bash even personally,0 friends house thanksgiving watched dvd movie eddie monroe ive fan indie films almost years i loved brothers mcmullen impressed good movie is friend works magno sound told us movie shot super photography good looked though mm shoot furthermore music combined fred carpenters direction art storyline original led ending surprised us watchingvery cool acting entire cast good especially actor played uncle benny amazing film nice holiday treat delighted one first view movie many seeing future,0 give ship scenarios write fanfic wanna write enemies lovers slow burn long fanfic need pairings lgbt welcome straight couples also work hopefully ship harry potter avatar last airbender adventure time undertale anything works though give tropes scenarios youd like see ill let know use ideas itll posted archive ao ill make follow post,0 "Joined forces once again for a great night. Ended up staying at the 'Booty Beast' in The Social all night, jamming! Thanks T ",0 i m back unintentionally took a mental health break my depression got pretty rough,1 dont want overly dramaticbut im feeling well tonight,1 thasohtx depression inducing sneaker,1 might really unknown factor dealing certain thing,0 honestly whats pointwhen elementary school bullied suicidal thoughts told teacher led kid like mental hospital years later im thought fine guess im not cousins grew love heart would anything dont like anymore dont know why never invite gatherings even talk unless parents tell say happy birthday me invite like family thing there ill told parents mom agrees dad always thinks im reacting never listens me mom sister well tell way treat us feel hell get mad us hell take anger mom leading argue sometimes fight ill always love cousins theyre family dont feel love them also never girlfriend never first kiss even held hands someone fucking sucks knowing im going die alone fucking sucks cant talk people ive made new friends hanging recently feel like dont deserve it feel like wasted space know problem big deal important compared others here whats point go knowing ill never satisfied knowing im gonna sad alone rest life,1 day trying make friends pansexuals enjoy pancakes,0 five years tenko survivors returning home marions doubleedged well thats thatbr br its reunion time gangs here marion bea ulrica kate dorothy christina dominica latecomers maggie alice story unfolds beaut perfectly written acted thoughtprovoking moving original seriesbr br all questions left hanging end series neatly answered here marions family josss health centre everything changed five years everything changed bestbr br a trip dominicas plantation brings plenty shocks truly edgeoftheseat tension theres real sense tragedy disaster as again fate takes women struggle lives dominica finally shows true colours shoutatthetelly moments dramabr br lush location filming singapore opportunity catch group women feel like become friends shame really end could watch again perfection,0 reminder downvoting posts asking help sharing much person posts save downvotes truly negligent swcoming two year anniversary sw im looking recent posts suprised see many downvotes postings asking help sharing feelings please save spam opinions songs articles feel inappropriate,1 Getting ready to go to a bbq at my baby daddy's house with his wife and our kidscrazy huh! Peace..Rockin the bob marley tee and some j's,0 @dariachenowith so pretty ,0 life going nowhere lost half money saving past year fulltime job stock market stupid absolutely despise work done show lack compassion caregiving world little valued employee let ruin mentally scared quitting trying find new one lacking self confidence would able anything else isolated longer friends anyone talk outside family cannot form close notredflag everyday depressed anxious redflaged life world current state mind failed nearly everything tried work minimum wage job blew opportunity graduate college find good career put living life becoming adult skills hobbies interests awkward cannot express emotionally intimately another person virgin adult relationship see reason smoke eat drink death fuck shattered hopes dreams ability sense normalcy life best option get gun go forest shoot head falling cliff everything life absurd hate it seriously thinking buying gun online,1 cat warm soft love cats ,0 friend abandoned mei recently started dating older guy hes kind generous beautiful human hes supported abuse home parents beating me made friend life line greatest supporter gave courage recently told realtionjsip went mental threatened tell abusive parents living partner even went far calling dumb stupid know do partner literally enough whole situation announced would better broken up feel suicidal rn want someone smother pillow done it,1 born international redflag prevention dayif sign,1 @nypost @Nilkski_ Next they're gonna say porn cures depression lmao,1 im feeling lowest ive felt while stupid reasonfeel like two year old im jealous know why cant play video game want money friends it read past posts here upset fairly legitimate reasons time think im actually losing it upset something stupid even understand brain opened pill cabinet nothing could kill with im tired family never money cant pursue hobbies im tired job search im tired parents live paycheck paycheck probably support dumb ass im fucking done im gonna find something with im upset something stupid deserve die,1 friends birthday friends birthday coming monday havent gotten anything yet likes twix skittles dont want get those im creative person idk else give her,0 "If I tweet something nasty, I wonder if they will unfollow? Guys, I'm not a saint! ",0 everything hurtsmy best friend saved life day kind weird think now thinking back hours mean try it always weird always me weird numbness feeling acceptance almost thinking feelings odd gonna hang night plan asked okay started asking things loved which mean distracting me know were worked even know bad was still dont makes feel worse mean really nice know good friends idea someone would miss hurts hurts lot last time bad anyone like that feel bad everything feeling way notes plans feelings everything id hurting people makes everything worse hate feeling way big spiral keeps going want die feel bad people love makes feel worse makes want end all keeps going like that constant feedback loop hurt physically emotionally nothing left give theres energy going spare yet keep pushing past limits help people keep life even despite many things getting much better last year want go want hurt anymore wish easily distracted,1 help one friends tried kill im trying keep simple opened happened couple days ago nothing crazy cut said i knew going hurt thats wanted to also claimed massive flood emotions say everything control worried never something ive deal need help,0 im year old girl please tell itll okayedit thank response helps much even though know reply everything irrational fear feeling annoying maybe anyhow thank offering ear encouraging words really want read this please read bottom paragraph kind summary teenagers need place vent reassured problems struggles temporary id usually talk best friend one anymore im english speaking country sorry grammar mistakes deep know things stay bad forever im end really need hear everythings going turn fine sometime get perspective things maybe know ive never actually diagnosed kinda figured myself ive talked councelors school nurses teachers psychologist nobodys doubted first said thought might depression anxiety point know sit think wonder went suspicion fact way calming know whats wrong really know go here know im paranoid actually downwards spiral mentally speaking know exactly im depressed anxiety first noticeable felt little empty sad time home mom boyfriend hated sister lived so feel like lost much time happy friends this wanted move moved several times him promised mom gotten work another town believed him never hated someone much hated man made insecure took everything known friends hobbies life sounds dramatic head everything blown much cant stop analyzing things live without him mom sister two brothers im oldest mom lot friends tells problems struggles lot mentally living past boyfriend way treated her us siblings fine seems im lonely never much trouble getting friends here nobodys real seems ive lived two half years started high school i think thats american equivalent yet nothings changed getting worse worse best friend recently fight really want back person becomes sometimes sit alone time people school call whore laugh me laugh things ive done said nobody wants me understand why honestly read this problems start mind end affecting everything everyone around me even though know people seem like friends nobody wants know sick me one cries nothing feels heavy time need someone feel like reading seems like typical teenager problems ive really reached point want anymore see point im intelligent reflected girl ive never like before hope anymore deserve this make mistakes teenager makes want mental illness loneliness known people schools year old rumors still laughed about hate it hate everythings become really want anymore option move change schools next year moms pregnant new boyfriend this sounds really stupid theres lot it moms irresponsible selfish may seem im scared nothing change im scared make through ill sick hopeless feel anyone anything mean think way people realize feel like anyone wants me know does try positive really hard think appear happy friendly apparently people describe angry mad scary know understand really ____ im sorry mess post ive never low before think nothing really makes sense long story short anxiety depression feel lonely real friends hobbies feel home worry think feel sad lot move towns schools know it mentally see end anything know want anything anymore lot thoughts seem really dramatic mind everything is know anything feel blank think stupid really trust thoughts either know thank reading though,1 struggling suicidal thoughts years now finally made decision it really want talk anyone happened want something decided car aka carbon monoxide poisoning sitting car diesel powered audi diesel going buy cheap old petrol engine vehicle want attempt successful made decision,1 ia awake but ha to go into school today,0 hello i m having some trouble understanding my life rn i had a event that i would consider traumatic last year and i don t feel like i haven t been the same since i developed dissociation and depersonalization for a month i had trouble feeling like i and everything around me wa real i have self diagnosed depression and even then i could talk to my friend and have deep relationship with people now i don t feel talking to anyone and i have a hard time reaching out to my friend i have trouble concentrating and functioning a a student and i ignored basically all of my responsibility for the last two month for videogames i ve had episode where i have a lot of anger or i find it hard to breathe when i do something wrong and i ve also had a hard time sleeping i ve recently gone to therapy but i don t feel like it s helping my life feel like hell and my suicidal thought have been stronger,1 ya ll ever had beef with a microwave or an alarm clock,1 crying bookspoiler dasher year old adopted father turned away forces evil fire ice master didnt want it got it dasher along bullet fight him dasher always feel guilty cause father always get memories playing father much loved him eventually kill him killing dasher it dasher sent heaven seeing father normal form open arms dasher repeatedly told sorry was father proud him seeing one last time dasher hugged tears eyes sent earth people calling name crying book,0 watched Casino Royale again lajhnm jutr4rf2 i love wang in my mouth ,0 "regardless of how bad and tired i feel, the happiest thing just made my day ",0 heads upim still here still alive posted that ended sitting awake daughters room whole night listened breathe changed woke up ended holding chest slept hugged me hugged tight wrapped little arm around bicep squeezed hard could sleep whispered loveyou morning told wife needed real help im counseling now helpful next step drugs everyone knows,1 i'm cold should I just put my jamjams on aka my depression uniform,1 hey cute give hug gt,0 hit certain goal probably kill myselfgiving around days complete it around th birthday tired myself tired world tired feeling like burden tired fucked up want go sleep never get again ive got windex with ammonia ammonia plastic bag options nobody probably readcare matter guess,1 rteenagers discord jump in find self chat people great there hear abusive mod hear people making new servers mod finally meet mod starts muting everyone uses memes gifs emojis whenever asked punished entire self chat dies out today mod hops self chat mutes people explaining cough cough winterr incorrectly punished someone get muted collect screenshots send nothing shit discord,0 it bulle fika lokitaung utembee kwa mlima na ulale kwa laga depression itaisha,1 @djreflex I am I'm working on a pic of you to go up on my new site... I'll let you know when it's up and running!,0 is new here... ,0 posting rteenagers everyday forget post get th day day hey know snail sleep years,0 currently i m under and life is hell i have ptsd i wa sexually assaulted at my mom didn t feed me when i didn t do all my homework every day didn t oh and ofc ma hit me when i cried and gaslight me to believe my dad wa actually the abusive one she wa also anti vax and flat earth right when the ptsd started to get better life decided naaaaah i like you in pain so during covid i masked and baisicly hid in my apartment like a bunker i caught covid so you might say so what well guess the duck what turn out i had a dormant gene that cause lupus and covid sparked it and now mom traumatized me so that i never asked for help so now you have lupus literally causing organ failure and i m not going to the hospital my god i wish i died and ducking ofc i lived but not without permanent pain and needing harsh medicine for the rest of my life don t forget about school im at my dad now but guess what he care more about my grade than my physical and mental health so when my grade tanked he yell and guilted me into working harder and i m in the gifted program so i recive a workload nearly x my grade level and now lupus is in the story meaning i can t do school well anymore i have no social life due to being in an enriched class nobody doe anything but work so no friend in fact i got bullied and shoved context if i fall i can t get up due to lupus me around so no suppor there i wa already suicidal before the lupus and now i m in constant agony mentally and physicaly oi i m lesbian and my family is half homophobic and half racist my only friend just us me to get sympathy point for taking care of me nobody even care that every few second it feel like 00 knife are stabbing me that s not hyperbole i am in that much pain that i can not sleep 9 pain make it hard to sleep and no sleep make the pain worse then i get stressed about my grade and then i sleep le and the pain get worse 0 i m just a burden on my family lupus is a very hard condition to live with and it s even harder on dad wallet all i do is just cost him more money my dad yell at me to stop faking when i m having a flash back mom come back electric boogaloo nobody care about how i feel all i do is work work work all day even now i had to lie to dad that i m working in my room to write this my sister fat shame me my dad tell me his grandma had it worse holocaust survivor my nena guilt me into saying i m fine and doing more all dad care about are grade my brother is never there my friend only care about themselves and say they have it worse i just want the pain to stop please i just want it to end i m in constant pain my life is hell and i m in so much pain breathing hurt and there is nothing the doctor can do,1 debate anything pt ive done again,0 update thanks for everyone s reply s and advice i signed up to private guitar class going to the first class this saturday again i would like to thank everyone for the advice,1 im tiredplease excuse english im spanish well know anymore ive trying fight long im weak keep falling feel like im worth fighting anymore lately ive suicidal thoughts cant find reasons keep fighting im bother everyone keep hurting everyone im nothing mess mother literally said me dead me talk anymore keep making life living hell asked dad professional help said need it thing need stop am thats tip iceberg stop all im nothing bother whats point keep living,1 passive aggressive authority without getting trouble no wanna right person dosent use sort tactics lecture damages everyone involved,0 ramble ive feeling down emotional sparks including depression often come reason ill think different world could committed redflag unfortunately things much worse background yearold girl whereas hormones definite possibility situation theres another issue thats occuring alongside unfortunately mother lost home might add horrible money put financial hole nowhere put dogs dad house minutes away fiance refuse take dogs attempt find home dogs take them creates large ruckus entire family im middle cant anything matter try also emotionally attached dogs horrible cant give away cant solve family problems extra info also think mom bipolar mentally ill way cant deal family cant deal giving dogs ive thought much easier would die,1 feeling girl like playing hard get do know do,0 all i want is to be loved no i need to be loved i only ever end up in abusive relationship im an object i am always used the people i ve loved more than anything have hurt me more than anything i just want to be loved but i will only ever be abused,1 a day of nothing bliss miss my boy tho,0 get piercing im whim morning get nipple piercings ill regret get trouble,0 im tired need sleep get tmw babysit cant fall asleep going fun deal kids tmw,0 come hang out play games hey guys friend created discord server meet new people play games with play mainly minecraft maybe among us want find new friends chat daily youre interested dm me,0 Whatdya know? He does love me. Ri and I went out last night to buy a bday gift and hubby painted the decks while we were gone-finally! ,0 I'm wondering if winter is really over now so I can take the motorcycle out of the shed? I'm starting to get the itch to ride again ,0 yearso year since tried kill self hanging december th hospital get help released year ago today much life changed better worse days leading one year anniversary shrouded anxiety stress im still sure whether happy survived still times resent person found saved life still times feel alone trapped sought help none sources good fit else seemed go where maybe need patient maybe need willing know feels good talk it people life still kind tip toe around like im ticking time bomb disaster waiting unleash fury cant really blame anyone aid feeling alienated alone maybe need nut up anywho thanks listening reading maybe needed vent,1 i dont think i can do this i am so paralyzed with fear and dont know if i can make myself go in even if i do what if i have a panic attack and embarrass myself what if i am not smart enough and mess everything up customer will probably be mad at me for being so slow im so scared i dont know how to talk with people small talk and all of that how do i not sound awkward i wont be alone because someone is training me and that make me so nervous because theyre watching my every move for eight hour,1 @juliebenz Loved the first 'Saints movie... I trust your presence will ensure this one is just as awesome... ,0 so i been dealing with non stop generalized anxiety since december 0 9 i have had anxiety in the past but it would only last maybe max month and then i would revert to my old self now i am totally fucked and going on for year of constant anxiety i am constantly dizzy i constantly ob over my health last year i convinced myself i had a brain tumor and i had to beg the doctor for an mri and after an entire year of begging he finally gave it to me and it wa a unnecessary a everyone told me i constant detach disassociate and the only thing that help me chill the fuck out is closing my eye and being in my room sometimes i m on antidepressant like everyone else but i feel lichi le they re just doing half the work it s obvious that the other half of unfucking my brain ha to be done be me anyways i hope everyone is doing well,1 feel slippingthe last years difficult last ten even so year lost grandmother particularly harrowing form cancer left shell person less three months girl thought would spend rest life left life feels like going nowhere graduated university getting degree course used enamoured cant find single shred happiness within it daily living seems tedious ive changed routine moved countries careers yet feel like im going motions every day struggle meaning life struggling comprehend point living every sun set reminds eventuality death moonrise illustrates futility life tedium waiting eventual inescapable end thought getting better indeed am yet mood improves pain broken heart recedes left wake ashen remains past hopes dreams know wont it equally know well may put situations eventually come ill allow way unfold ever come find me,1 dont want hereive depressed thought redflag least passing though almost everyday since somewhere around sixth grade im cant find motivation anything know sounds lazy cant find reason fail something try pick pieces easiest way possible know cant anything hard know sound lazy probably cant seem anything much less people care about sister dad ony reasons dont try know would break harder harder put perspectives head dont want know selfish easy way take every time dont know im like want better feel like cant matter much people try motivate me feel like best part life behind even mostly shitty dont want keep going,1 any chance softbelly for mtub isn t loud,0 jay thinks #pearljam will never go to the Philippines again. So negative that boy ,0 woo for three page down and seven to go why in heck do i procrastinate goal for grad school do not wait,0 Charlie Bucket Leisure is napping...of course. http://apps.facebook.com/catbook/profile/view/6880718,0 yawn morning all i had a real rough night,0 sick thisim sick fucking living like this dad killed may worth anymore one feel empty life going nowhere im tired,1 ive come conclusion entire world hates wants see suffereven many people subreddit hate guts want friends hahaha loser want girlfriend youre entitled that want good job you work it want depressed insert bs fake advice here want kill yourself omg thats selfish i cant believe that crying noises wouldve done anything help meanwhile day called faggot told kill myself want nice people well prepared taken advantage ignored want taken advantage of omg dude dick want dick omg dude dick want wallow depression feel hopeless wow negative person making depressed want sit around nothing thats thing know do well fault depressed then believe x piece advice going help you well clearly want helped act weird public mental illness ewww theres something wrong wtf always fault problem anyone else co workers people bully you boss parents mental illness stupid fucking society you thing thats keeping alive hope one day ill able kill bring entire goddamn planet me,1 looking koopa troopa yaoi actually find hot help,0 "@joshwellington Ditto. Ok, but I think i'm going with the V2 (sharper). Big as you can make it. ",0 @bigmadkev I forgot to give you a hug when I left yesterday.. I'm feeling bad because of this ,0 tried save collard cat neighbors car want killselfinstead asking called mom come bring inside guess didnt realize acceptable want kill also psychosis reported neighbors car acctendtly hes pissed well think im sure j ,1 home from school ... got dance class soon ,0 im killing december ive got date place method set already anything else besides writing redflag note,1 anyone uncertain future extent scares you yes already know uncertainty part human being however sometimes think going good life good job girlfriend person fixed superficial things like looks simply end genetic pool may best smartest strongest know thought what future depares me makes feel conflicted things happend around me ad fact time feel cold way f like feel cold inside idk one experiensed something like this well way hope maybe give advice something like ampxb srry things weird dosent make sense bc eng second language,0 d trix my mom just had a root canal also i feel your pain buddy,0 would even happen went hospitalim beyond depressed ive thought thousand different ways end it consequences come it genuinely sincerely believe nay know everyone life better without me im urged go emergency room people care me blind see care me lets say ill humor them hospital tell that sucks call redflag hotline certainly care explain stranger also say generic usual life worth living bullshit please really dont want generic crap people either want know er us would show tell im suicidal,1 Don't forget to check out our courses for May! To book email training@commlinks.co.uk #mentalhealth #socialcare #suicideprevention #mhfa #safetalk #mentalhealthawarenessweek #mhaw #stress #anxiety #depression pic.twitter.com/pmme1xfThq,1 entering a depression week i feel it,1 strange reason stay alivemaybe strange stay alive family member would thought id ever writing this lot mixed emotions im sure lot feel true father bad person think like ive inherited instability mum im losing touch her live im aware reason luxury depressed cooped up im supposed lose quietly lot family people know cant understand them cant understand almost everyone lot trouble relating making friends dropped school thirteen although missing days per year since nine know me feel like im getting worse block absorb all mess also issue communicating people like two modes angry sullen happy sometimes become negative inside feeling causes really something pets family feel lucky makes me cant really explain feel like im waiting outside reason cant end me going reason im waiting for,1 "@mileycyrus And, i can't wait to see you WINNING! ) But, you'll tweet it, right?? Please LOVE youuu! <33 ;))",0 doe anyone el anxiety cause extreme paranoia for context there will be situation to in which i think a situation is true when it not because of this family amp friend have to constantly reassure me it not wa wondering if anyone dealt with the same thing and if so what did you do to fix it,1 mardi gras made china provides wonderful intricate connection popular culture nudity globalization making tossing beads saw film international film festival boston expecting dry introduction globalization got riveting visual display shocking footage china united states eyeopening film humorous indepth serious nonpatronizing leaves wanting credits role worth comparing murderball simply well done young women workers china various points view owner amazingly open discipline revelers carnival highlight excellent film provides indepth context inside factory china without narration bravo filmmaker getting inside finishing film would never thought connection beads china new orleans think human connection almost every object also role globalization inequality fun importantly make connections without feeling sense guilt watching film unlike films globalization ive seen,0 looking reasonhonestly looking non bs reasons shouldnt kill myself cant think,1 cant continue mental suffering foreverit come time give up im afraid unknown want redflag damn im like trapped tried everything nothing helped next,1 @charyl oooooh she has a blog too ,0 cant sleep she want to dream,0 "@Giacluca hopefully, it's really annoyin! ",0 need new gamertag guys suggestions used random name generators theyre shit name long xx cool really need new nice suggestions thx ,0 @Rosymeg - Will see you l8tr! ,0 lizhenry we haven t heard from her or sha,0 @bassiee Excuse me? ,0 abhian abey lalloo me n dake then went for the pm show cp u cud ve made it chal koi nahi nxt weekend try karenge again,0 pulling nighter eastern time right staying till hopefully ,0 im slowly ploughing many hong kong action films get hands came across gem mainly due ching wan lau one favourite actorsbr br its great action film although ott title might suggest moves along great pace truly enjoyablebr br the biggest surprise film soundtrack would appear rob dougan guy clubbed death song popular the matrix lifted soundtrack big bullet compiled one tracks furious angels album tune question called im driving anymore also opening tune tv series law order opening track matrix reloaded dvd menu teaser really surprised me due sheer conincidence,0 fren: i have depressionme: have u been diagnosed?fren: i know i have depressionme: yea but have u been diagnosed??fren: no but i know i dome: how do u knowfren: bECAUSE *tears up* IM JUST SO SAD ALL THE TIME AND MY LIFE SUCKS *fake weeping sounds*,1 hate disability anyone relateadvicei stutter quite mild mostly appears im stressed anxiety really makes feel like im alien k everyone something going them shit open frm stutter caused social anxiety im scared interact others times make want end all,1 convince gild you three people get gold possibly none good arguments are completely serious convince gild you good enough will,0 ive done nothing contributeim taking space using food water peoples time aspirations direction easier ceased exist,1 some of you on this sub probably have this a well i m about to be 9 and i have been depressed since i wa a child it ha taken away my ability to make friend be a functional human being and live a normal life i ve never felt wanted because i wasn t my narcissistic family wasn t of any help so i moved in with my boyfriend approximately a year ago i regret everything i have no support i m a disgrace to my family all i want to do is lay in bed and just stay there and the worst thing is i can t just kill myself or my boyfriend will be emotionally ruined i don t understand why i got into a relationship i m so selfish if it wasn t for him i would ve thrown myself off of an overpass a while ago i feel like i m going insane i want to die but i can t actually do it myself because of guilt fear so i m kinda just there trying to do what people expect of me,1 adults allowed post want reason feel like throat fell stomach found naked pictures best friend internet feel numb,1 serious problems family friends poor disabled good life think death may way better lifejust empty void cannot feel think anything pain sadness thoughts seems perfect life seems long boring sorry bad english spanish know happening,1 eating make feel betteram punishing still alive,1 amyg0 thats really sad i wolud hate that but i had choco milk earlier d lol,0 "@TyCity yes, thank you for refreshing my memory. ",0 feel welli feel like nothing stop existing right would great anything stop feeling sad useless worthless dumb like bother others wanted say that,1 interested see movie first came theaters however able get around it so finally hit shelves picked up knowing exactly expect plopped dvd player settled evening murder pressed play followed one engaging flicks ive seen last couple yearsbr br some spoilersbr br this story wonderland murders led seediest parts la straight biggest porn start s john holmes val kilmerbr br i hooked beginning feel movie held way bloody end surprised find movie focused less actual murders events investigation after aside blood splattered walls beginning actual showing murders towards end movie less engaging show great dialoge great acting val kilmer sells junkie porn star even beautiful thats it bosworth joy watch and looks mind youbr br i personally felt best aspect movie was mentioned lack outright showing murders shown dark atmosphere completely see brutal bludgeoning bestowed apon sleeping foursome furthermore sound effects said murders enough whet appetite beating lead pipes theres much needs saidbr br my real problem carrie fishers brief appearence portrayal overlyreligious figure was think bit cliche appearence maybe person actually part story maybe not sold reason fisher seemed bit akward portrayalbr br overall excellent movie worth watch even oncebr br ,0 wrong menoone likes menobody wants talk menobodyis emotionless face noone want friends meeveryone wants get far away possibleevery day try live people make think end it ive alone since birth,1 feel like need diei messed much life despite long ive lazy ive lied time face think better kill face whatever coming,1 forget milk cereal first yall wash hair body first actually bothering youd better answer correctly,0 know what new ui bad,0 julius s malema nyaope boy are causing havoc in township breaking into house you can t protect the dealer our people are suffering and dying in depression come with solution to create job skill we are tired of your speech and poverty we don t eat speech http t co xiw wf jkx,1 might made mistakehello everyone first post reddit first time feel like ive got something relevant post need get chest go think ive made mistake thinking ahead ive never attempted redflag think lot definitely mind dying actually knew tomorrow day id die try even slightest stop whats more id looking forward it moment cant say im certain commit redflag day neither say im certain it now think went wrong whats often mind friends often make redflag jokes and know ones it supposed mean anything were fooling around however find contemplating redflag really often despite mentioning ironically humorous context day decide kill myself feel like friends might feel guilty anything it start blaming recognizing jokes warning stopping me cant blame them because said many people joke way every single one suicidal friends good people last thing id want feel miserable me honestly thing keeps going feel like ive trapped here recklessly fooling around thingsand regret now things get better able endure longer lose day give decide take life way avoid feeling responsible read whole thing thank ,1 still sick feeling a bit better got some new medicine hope i feel good after a night of sleep ohh and it s suppose to snow wtf,0 random facts bad things ive done stash vodka room dont smoke drugs im good girl stolen cheated lied cheating lied teacher face times tped schools bathroom th grade arrested not jail like station hours got fined dollars swimming ocean got ears pierced without asking parents mad idk tho continue masturbating shower mom taking door smoked before didnt like idk,0 "I went to the doctors about depression, man try prescribe me something I hopped out straight. Maybe it was the stigma maybe it's because of what people I know take it say about it or maybe it was the higher powers saving me",1 anybody else experience feeling scared of your own mind or wanting distraction from your own self i feel like everyday it s a battle where i need to try to stay sane or find distraction i feel like if i don t find a distraction i might go crazy but if i do find distraction i feel like i m giving in to the anxiety i m so tired,1 i ve tried everything i can think of or have been forced into and i m not getting better i m failing every class because i can t get myself to show up my parent are sick of me and trying to get me sent away my mom telling everyone i know about how i m such a pain in the as everybody is telling me to get my as up and get over it but i feel like nobody get me i am so tired and so done,1 yooooooo found sumthin ume takes profile idk takes ops profile though,0 @ColorblindFish got your beer goggles ready to go? lol ,0 im drawing portrait jar jar binks middle freshman orientation im reddit im total savage,0 im really fed upthis probably going come sounding whining guess is want someone listen maybe offer advice guess understand im even considering redflag go background sister bitch quite honestly never hated someone much currently hate her months ago feel strongly pretty rough afterall abused long time boyfriend took kids away her tried kill multiple times diagnosed bipolar once took meds redflag attempt punched mother face result understandable given meds still disheartening would mean me boyfriend years took boyfriends work clothes dryer presumably get back us using washer i guess clothes wash told much disliked boyfriend regularly like conflict tried ignore her fast forward months ago moves out permanent road trip boyfriend things great remember life like without her sad is depression fades away however unfortunately gets robbed raped finally gets pregnant comes back home wants garage sale save money get abortion leave take day help move things organize halfway day taking break starts smoking im allergic cigarette smoke could deal however worried two cockatiels downstairs one started hard time breathing asked could please go outside finish cigarette told no started getting irate despite attempts reiterate asking worried birds wellbeing started saying things like i want shoot fucking animals piece shit point lost patience had told get out course upset more came couple inches face tried bait punch her im assuming boyfriend jumps protect gets irate calls socially inept piece shit among things states taking back room which mine moved years ago went upstairs heard banging dad called back downstairs named calling says leaving decided shove back turned if boyfriend catch me might fallen shove physically hurt least finally leaves telling us have fun cleaning yard since garage sale items still outside immediately went upstairs damage pretty extensive gerbil cage rabbit cage flipped couch cat tree well one gerbils injured leg process luckily rabbit cage he outside playing aware of probably would hurt badly was this mother tells come back next day things okay night time late night boyfriend went downstairs get bite eat use bathroom suddenly get yelled at sister decided come back sleep there next morning still there go bite eat come back doors locked literally sitting chair casually smoking cigarette next birds flips us off leave call mom mom tells get fuck out leaves go inside find dead animals bed dead animals rats previously freezer passed away week we horrible virus go around legally needed get death certificate made vet since rescues animals dad goes gets keys made locks us lock house up next day go work get call boyfriend apparently broke in came upstairs threatened boyfriend beat boyfriend she literally broke room staying yelled him naked took shower tried break room again barricaded desks freaks wrench hand protection takes glasses face give back days drive boyfriend work migraine days obvious reasons meantime stayed downstairs like nothing happened finally got back pretty broken still broken day the lens easily repeatedly falls out going get new ones soon that minor conflicts would happen nothing major ones ive previously mentioned one time boyfriend walked downstairs get rat food garage threw ashes face without provocation later said smiled funny way it directed towards all also got tiff mother told could eat pistachios later grabbed couple sister got pissed probably never washed handsneedlesstosay do still living us depression sets in im room time aside work go downstairs im filled mixed emotions hatred anger hopelessness downstairs boyfriend reside limits using old piano bench hold huge tv im pleased about mention used play piano lot cant unless gone rare feel like prisoner go downstairs wash clothes leave work it feels unfair great life right boyfriend rent real chores repercussions things done boyfriend always laughing come downstairs stark difference im feeling inside makes even depressed could happy making life miserable gets watch tv work all make kitchen upstairs buy mini fridge went days without eating fear going downstairs getting hurt ive thought ending multiple times guess im thinking maybe dead would understand wrong could finally peace its even depressing remember like gone fear comfort safety long time ive talked mom this understandably want choose daughters know either tells selfish think redflag im loss know anymore im sure much take,1 http://twitpic.com/69auz - @garygomusic we've saved you some ,0 "First day of summer! Going to the bank, then out with momma ",0 im aware need helpi need help dont want cant help way dont want get help never get better want end,1 carry oni know carry feel like everything crumbling know theres point always try optimistic hope theres much negativity thrown redflag letter want biggest fuck person caused this mom want everything emanate inside mind knows caused it,1 sometimes want peal white skin every thing wont boil white,0 @Surfergal1 SOrry i was having issues with my computer Technology and I have our differences from time to time I am doing great!!,0 im feeling horny im lazy watch porn masturbate im horny go sleep cant one,0 even qualify livemy life always riddled failures depression bad back gotten worse adult im severely lonely everyday repeat previous try distract activities cope loneliness often quit early god damn pandemic helping either im tired wasting away sad lonely world passes matter wanna scream show worth adult i keep composure ive hiding years now ive never told anyone really am usually hide smile like everything fine not im tired worthless piece trash keep saying want die courage it like something always holding back maybe false hope things get better fact die take care father family member back even never told depression bad gotten want burden regardless even qualified keep living im wasting time withering away clock keeps ticking,1 cant stand quarantineevery day getting tougher even mini routine people around feels like im pest everyone nothing helps anyone driving insane fuck isolation want fucking life back want chance get job start moving forward again dont want slip back darkest pit mind barely scrapped getting alive before ill die go back theres way keep till june later,1 @santorella88 You are also much loved!!! ,0 therapy forced disclosure diewould therapist disclose information talked kill myself whats deal forced disclosure redflag would family sort inquiry able find talking about id rather stuff die moment people would surprised commited redflag would feel like invasion privacy found private thoughts live australia btw,1 sogo ishii taken old myth musashibo benkei stood head produce dark gory spellbinding terrificlooking movie unfamiliar legend need be story explains nicely goes along well worth seeking even though englishlanguage home video versions,0 thanks dudewas already suicidal tonight someone calls school shoter instagram thanks dude makes feel great tell friend going overdose says oh completely uninterested little things like get state math dont enough pills overdose cant keep fucking living like this even living miserable inbetween state existence want fucking end cause pain time im scared pain want die,1 welp im writing short story book idk called groundhod week school shooting know little bit dark first idea came mind lmao edit called the rd day,0 baby brother murdered brutally last year still cannot believe happened hits like tsunami loved anyone ever loved star amazing big sister struggled suicidal thoughts ever since hand full life always smile face brother suffered serious illness never got spirits down life wished illness instead loved life not every time suicidal thought would think sad baby brother would be could bear thought hurting him wish one men took day here cannot imagine live life without him cannot believe life now little brother murdered cannot stop thinking died instead,1 sad truth life isnt worth itwhat life makes worth it relationships children money figured anything reason killed really belief kind failure so really found reason wanting beyond vague sense trying something completing life cycle terms lifes accoutrements seems really pointless much im starting think point life might actually kill yourself fruits life mean nothing life possibly mean redflag goal lived seems stupendously irrelevant wonder path easy difficult easier kill oneself difficult so cant tell anymore ambivalence towards redflag seems taken morbid fascination folly continue bang head wall test head strength cant perceive cant derive cant make conclusion exist ambiguity really upset bored annoyed sick stupid game reason it something could delude valuing maybe could make end,1 Awards day today ,0 regarding on post me posts comment raid shadow legends im pretty sure started influx posts bad __,0 @TwilightGirl_09 lool nah dw trustt me lol its at 10 ,0 ever since began feeling depressed trouble falling asleep usually takes hours staying bed motionless fall asleepdo experience thing cannot fall asleep normal,1 guykawasaki that s so sad for the goat wa ah ah ah ah ah,0 am im sad theres school tomorrow whyyyyyyyyyy,0 How does depression affect people with cardiovascular disease? https://hubs.ly/H0bD2zc0 ,1 paul lukas played russian intellectual making living waiter inbr br grand slam directed william dieterle surprisingly funny satire building celebrity waiter russian restaurants hatcheck girl played loretta young become americas sweethearts bridge partners squabble aid publicist ghostwriter speed mccann the wonderfully deadpan frank mchugh become walking advertisementsbr br for stanislavsky system system bidding whatever one feels likebr br since bids rational basis recriminations stupiditybr br a duel displaced bridge guru cedric van dorn sounds close goren no suspect choice characters name stanislavsky also slam another kind system puffedup charlatan played well ferdinand gottschalk broadcast radio stations across america like prizefight roscoe karns another great fasttalking deadpan comic actor sbr br the bridge players even ropedoff square though audience isbr br above them unlike boxing ringsbr br the wide variety american types prefigures comedies preston sturges though manufacturing celebrity grand slam calls mind two better movies precode era lee tracy playing fasttalkingbr br publicists the halfnaked truth bombshell grand slam itsbr br moments especially anyone played bridge serious pointbr br countersbr br loretta young already clothes horse to me face seems bit longbr br and horsey too another eras notion beauty guess moviebr br unfortunately drops glenda farrell plays mchughs forgetfulbr br girlfriend,0 hangin with ledd nd court. ,0 silverlines tadi di pim udah sempet lirik mesra tapi baru abis makan definitely putting it in my agenda next time i go to pim,0 know much longer hold on need help think redflagive depression life gotten worse lately read dad letter wrote got mad letter saying im making stress worse feel like thinks differently now know want die need help copy paste letter j read him understand god choose depression maybe thinks strong handle maybe test see overcome it believe born it nothing caused it nothing mom caused it depression feels drowning swimming pool people around swimming even though drowning see nobody going save me depression got worse papa got sick died matter much try cannot overcome death longer cry dead depression makes difficult forget move on made feel could longer strong family redflag planned december th stocked well advance sleeping pills morning took pills realizing done forced throw up going sound stupid childish papa died skittles one helped stay calm could sense emotions depressed crying would come stay side calmed down even though antidepressants still good bad days good days happy charlotte bad days even recognize myself bad days think death done papa skittles again several suicidal thoughts since attempts bad days thing saves completing redflag marijuana makes happy makes forget depression exist marijuana know view drug dont cannot view something drug keeping normal saving time redflag medication much respect house however feel like time come home brandts lying you hate go happy normal again know used use using way agree need okay using backyard none neighbors outside want go behind back rules truly something need,1 i feel like i m in a simulation game movie etc when i wa doin intake at helen ross mcnabb the lady told me it wa depersonalization i don t kno how to feel abt it but i also don t want to be one of those ppl who say they have something when they don t yk idk if that s what it is or whatever it kinda scare me inna way bc i think about stuff from the past n think did that rlly happen like could this rlly be all fake i m kinda stuck the only thing that help in when i m on the game or something,1 "@BenJoeM2 it's all good, feel free to poke fun whenever you want. ",0 @hardcliffe Poor Rara. I hope you and Benn both feel better soon. And don't fret for we shall be together again SOON! I can't wait. ,0 fat cry feeling like shit aha ha love,0 movie damian szifrns second immersion movies excellent character study el fondo del mar tiempo de valientes creates extremely well done characters far away prototypes unprecedented chemistry them ive seen szifrons talent present every character lighthearted way enough involve us emotionally them control magnificent restores movie great direction overall brilliantly polished script characters laugh cry real sentiment invite viewer join emotions evolution screenbr br the spanish takes english buenos aires urban landscape night replaces hollywood sets premise interesting other film daring compete hollywoods machinerybr br but want see movie mainly ive never dealt endearing characters them seems script suits perfectly actors vice versa really believe film making like argentina really competition,0 wanna diebut want live either ive trying hang people either always say busy see friends next minute actually busy none try make attempt see even talk me always contact first half time even bother respond usually snapchat saying streaks nothing makes feel wanted earth anymore especially summer feel like im really anything anymore feel worthless maybe temporary though even though felt suicidal past serious reasons people hung constantly highschool thought good thought liked actually am weirdo maybe also chance avoid me ive told someone thought close want kill feel worthless nobody wants see real life more respond guess thats id want get chest really well written serious yet im crying constantly this oh well,1 hmm a request for me to feature an app on my site from a quot merketing specialist quot sic addressed to quot dear editor quot oh dear,0 cant get head anymoreim ive dealing anxiety depression since middle school finally diagnosed sever depression anxiety last summer start medication month ago dr celaxa right now helping last week nonstop torment me ive lost control mind mind static selfhate ive come close edge past always still mind anymore know much have,1 guys sad day cat longer me part whole life miss forever may see among stars,0 uwu cute dont get uwu considered furry uwu pretty cute say use uwu,0 say funniest jokes teenager ill start maaan teen rad bro able ollies school pop wheelies bro aint right fellow teens,0 really want diefirst id like apologise inane ramblings im writing mostly get feelings there years ive let anxiety depression control me find hard make decisions life ive allowed affect many relationships career opportunities upset closest result feel lonely want nothing kill myself horrible feeling want die die sleep fade away one day would completely fine,1 depends next weeknext week ill get exam results fail them im gonna get kicked college trigger chain events leading hope decent future ruined so yeah pass exams gotta it finishing uni hope good life without it virtually reasons live know yet im gonna iti still hope case heaven knows pretty much hate life far got opportunity make things better might might manage might think extreme measure exams not fail ill go back shithole country place fucking hate place ive waiting years leave cant conceive living again really want die it wish luck guys maybe case,1 great example good dumb movie no high art means script anywhere close woody allen mel brooks what killer tomatoes series four movies cartoon series basically goodnatured romps gleefully trampling kind territory zuckers ruled switched making serious flicksbr br as title suggests fourth installment killer tomatoes trilogy deals killer tomatoes plot france case professor gangrene john astins rd time role plan rule france ancient prophecy return rightful king france steve lundquist returns igor humanoid tomato wants sportscaster happens dead ringer longlost true king france obviously also plays aforementioned ll k f happily skewering french languagebr br opposing fearless fuzzy tomato like others ft introduced second film would main character cartoon human allies mark price recently unemployed result conclusion family ties series plays thinly disguised version himself passing michael j fox way win girl dreams angela visser dream marie gleefully bouncing unabashed virginal sexuality borderline psychosis oh former miss netherlands film career another returning member killer tomatoes stock company rick rockwell now best known hapless title subject who wants marry millionaire like cocreator john de bello rockwell works front behind camera seriesbr br what say jon de bello much really except singular vision managed pull and done that apparently dropped obscurity john ever see this thanks giving us killer tomatoesbr br the script heavily obnoxiously aware movie like return killer tomatoes action occasionally veers set middle film crew mark price funny forum complain lack success compared former costar michael j fox biggest budgeted killer tomatoes flicks nice sendoff series okay show moved fox kids cartoon series which also quite clever cartoons same,0 cant alone anymoreif goes longer think ill able go on cant even get motivated lonliness might end killing disappointment disappointment life nothing ever get better ones gonna come give hug cuddle me im done,1 cant stop thinking iti manic depression every single day think ways kill cant stop ill bus stop urge throw under almost like devil angel shoulders type thing one telling painless take seconds misery good free im failing college parents high expectations put pressure every single day hate want out hate much want normal please need help,1 "@bkjeffer Well, thanks! ",0 "@josianna Lol, he's been like a lost puppy whilst you've been gone. x",0 ohgodjamnit my brain won t let me bullshit you set out to do it and announce it in cap like an attention seeking child throwing tantrum you are not a victim jun look around you do not have the monopoly on depression or shitty life circumstance or fucked up brain chemistry lmao,1 want end alli cant take suffering anymore cant take sleepless nights constant brain fog irritated feeling fucking hopeless despite best efforts years dont see point staying alive two reasons im still cat fact im afraid kill yet dont give shit anything anymore ive ruined life years ago tried time time something failed miserably friends nobody talk to even mood get better day week always fucking thing right back suicidal thoughts upon waking up cant sleep multiple time day motivation energy hope nothing fucking interest anymore im numb everything way years keeping suffering would worth cant stand ,1 helpcan someone tell many floors high building die impact anyone know high enough denver,1 parents understand want vert rich later like iknow worth talking millions billions billionaire buy everything available earth ur playing life creative mode prob wont billionaire lowest goal mill net worth one day,0 @sosadtoday I have crippling depression *road chair*,1 "@andrea_desherb Try looking under Barbara O'Neal: http://bit.ly/4k63y I know, I know--driving everybody crazy. ",0 weeksits six weeks since died cant anymore fucking miss him want end life badly make pain stop im done,1 phone guys have model fillerwelcome gboard clipboard text copy saved herewelcome gboard clipboard text copy saved herewelcome gboard clipboard text copy saved herewelcome gboard clipboard text copy saved herewelcome gboard clipboard text copy saved herewelcome gboard clipboard text copy saved herewelcome gboard clipboard text copy saved herewelcome gboard clipboard text copy saved herewelcome gboard clipboard text copy saved herewelcome gboard clipboard text copy saved here,0 almost finishedhello again grown weary existence parents curse life could courtesy abortion sick waking up night close eyes sleep pray whatever chooses must continue may finally eternal rest finally let go tired done everything society suggests become less unhappy well paying job hobbies friends mother father sisters care me sick going on continue them something must broken take medications sit lamp season affective disorder want finished would easy meander car close garage door start vehicle rest pull razor blade keep finally disgusted everything decide end it going back hospitals seen councilors psychiatrists tried coping methods lived long enough tried well living kindness heart giving freely others asking nothing return do time feel nothing truly matters feel little positive emotion rage unhappiness lucky sadness friend killed felt jealous could justify longed long hope peace know wife struggles son will everyone look disgust done rambling want stop hurting,1 @DwightHoward Congrads you guys deserve to win!!! ,0 need advice ex broke month ago really like it want over feels like part heart still love her even want be idk trust gut get back together go head stay away even stay away still know get rid feeling partly still love,0 good morning all anonymous redflag notei know guys get time deal swimmingly fact helped occasions different accounts that thank ye tired exhausted almost two months ago serious depression thoughts occurred cheated left moved regret it tried reaching letting know serious care well fuck then started years ago father died collapsed since skinny ugly person inside out emotions thoughts crush me wish could make understand random stranger way know do making choice talk it could least give suggestion last day tell everyone love them write notes send videos antidepressants helping therapy helping many people save me even act like want to ive going insane feel peace knowing im do life beautiful hope goes little better mine did love all thank everything,1 happened borrow movie friend knowing nothing it turned outstanding documentary journey ancient vessel across vast expanses ocean thor heyerdahl developed theory ancient incas peru managed travel thousands miles across ocean polynesia based certain relics found places certain types ancient seagoing vessels know available analysis ocean wind currents knowledge incas did fact travel undetermined amount seabr br in order test hypothesis heyerdahl crew construct vessel closely possible ancient incas available using balsa wood materials available time set lima perus capital try reach islands polynesia miles awaybr br his theory like much ancient history impossible prove certainty coverage journey provides strong support right film really little narration footage taken day expedition detailed description like trials tribulations faced often wish academy award winning documentaries easier find one years ago still interesting informative sure first released,0 I'm watching the last episode of the hills season 5!! I won't fall asleep for sure ,0 is ready to go to bed long day tomorrow,0 bruh snapchat needs get priorities straight theres option report someone annoying reporting literal drug dealer added,0 worthlessim hot kid probably autistic mess still probably i never confirmed whether im not im social pariah lost two relationships got fired one job quit other cant graduate due inability fulfill might even fail semester hate family trust friends want quit travel aokigahara put misery im sure keep going really,1 @dazzleme18 Awww I'm sorry you're having such a bad day! Hope it gets better! *Hug* ,0 day reminding drink water forgetget life drink water dont die dehydration,0 I'm excited...I get to meet up with the breeder later today to check out the puppies so I can decided which pup I want. I can't wait.,0 quot on popular music quot by t w adorno is probably the most difficult reading ever prescribed i m actually struggling to continue,0 feel like im stuck loopi wake up immediately anxiety sets in go school im able focus due constant thoughts racing mind go home talk friend bit times lot bottled emotions come im starting feel bad talking day want break loop cease exist finish all sometimes days okay im starting feel like burden friend people around me fuck,1 help convince waiti already took stuff today honestly could take sleep med go sleep id probably feel better tmrw morning literally zero interest that want literally take everything hope never wake again ones going convince kill im done things somewhat better im busy work therapy appointment tuesday so convince wait tuesday,1 hate social mediait reminds behind life everyone seems perfect life isnt illusion fact good looking people great jobs meaningful work awesome group friends afford travel worldnice carnice apartment still save house tons tons fun meanwhile stuck job literally high school student could director doesnt trust responsibility cant life maintain close nonfamily relationship plutonic romantic made many wrong decisions led life rather great life many former nerds folk people have wish nothing beg god another chance start fresh start start wont make fucked decksions hesitant start things like college late ask advice people wrong get social success week interviews thing mindaet mindset mindset heres afucking secret fucking impossible positive abundant mindset whem people stingy ebcause one little mistake made past abundant positive mindset comes treated respect well liked,1 aloneive dealt suicidal thoughts depression whole life depressed state ive fucked life up im failing school im thirties wife sure wants stay me confided ive dealt depression years thought making way excusing actions wanted support im taking steps think take ive started therapy ive working hard atwell working hard im trying everything man see future with im afraid matter enough cant sleep night cant eat stomach attacks me thing look forward life moment hope wife one day trust again like ive said ive dealt suicidal thoughts whole life theyve never strong theyve last days sometimes guts swallow handful pills done life short term people may sad may better long run,1 againmy life still bad end life day back again sill want kill family still want happy one day sad every time sadnesses goes away comes back know much take,1 OOOooo #BigBrother 10 #bb10 starts tomorrow its so wrong but im looking forward to it Another summer of BB ,0 hermes packetdienst suck,0 tried every imaginable means get long avail still cannot convince live without life partner every fleeting conversation woman gives hope immediately dashed every time hear people setting up want jump front train even try stay home avoid women much possible leads things remind themthere way this cannot even kill always carrot tomorrow maybe tomorrow meet one deep know hope cannot compete dudes accepted fact never marry,1 "@BWH85 Yes it will, because nobody is going to spend $800bn a year digging and re-filling holes, lol. This is the same kind of economic tool that was used in the depression that worked well.",1 pain gonei make new scars carry shit rest life might well make short trip right sure everyone sad angry pain due time inderstand i fact found peace anybodys fault mine kept quiet late make people worry know ill finally decide it noose tied while need find good place rewrite note less seconds lifes troubles just flow away minutes life follow sleep ones fear truly hurt parents child sorry destroyed worked hard create made sure smiles laughes around worry idea dying inside mom dad know think depression feeling solved manning getting it simple never tell that may blame yourself friends family im sorry hope effected this stopped talking wanted make soft blow possible never cut off know this want get help you know shit deal with end like me loved all see soon m love matter time,1 loved the cs graffiti life show. awesome night. i'm really proud of myself because i didn't feel the need to hold back my feelings. ,0 datesso ive made clear since id definitely dead im think im gonna shorten end year actually far oh well course ive attempted multiple times before probably deadline good plans methinks,1 lennartspion finally overall mental state matter a lot when i wa at the worst of my depression writing my phd thesis it just made me sleepy no matter what work way better now im in a stable job with manageable project,1 It's Eldora Time..Great Event ,0 lonely without son feel awfulfor year ive without son one me ive severely depressed since crying time never wanting talk others along threatened people nobody defend me parents strict thing keeping happy fantastic grades childhood finally escaping horrible people get life felt missed much young much missed horrible things done others ignored depression instead moved happy life getting job lawyer stories would get knew job help keep going amazing meet many new people keep great financial position adopted son never good childhood focused amazing one kept happy young boy actually looking me good life throughout time interested politics always told leader one day everyone happy joined military knew reminding great person hell become butdisappointinglywith gone feel lonely get reminders past nobody else either cant sleep sometimes ball eyes thinking things missed now ask help know is surely someone would know problem is firearms afraid able stop use end life,1 peepee poopoooh yeah death time,1 @itsneylaafaez hahahaha. i love youu too! ,0 every year get progressively worseas child bullied lack social awareness thanks add emotionallyphysically abusive highly religious mother concocted poison mindset myself said didnt need friends world going end soon anyways childhood filled mostly visited home psychiatrist going jw church speech therapy for lisp video games girls elementary thought weird girl playing video games anything boyrelated rumors weird followed middle school high school last year diagnosed anorexia nervosa body dysmorphic disorder last year also rancid passing best friend may rest peacefully looking forward year recovery hope closest friend toxic grew habitually gaslighting emotionally manipulating abusing anytime came disagreement instead properly addressing issue spent every breathing moment year wondering anxiously would break result belittling carefully thought way didnt recognize problem someone else addressed me hates talk people led drift friendships destroyed all worst part hes online friend real life friends anymore havent close real life friend years become husk lives breathes internet led growing incredibly detached people im hard time finding empathy situations sit like stone paired anorexia pushed excessively exercising last year and since im relapsing currently ended becoming hermit socialization back social events places food eating im increasingly suicidal lack social skills bond people outside internet even small college cant relate much classmates either talk feed conversations add awkwardly cut ramble also weird mannerisms hyperactivity childlike behavior given everyone thinks im really weird dont like spend time anything someone age yrs would like act like child actual child cupcakes candy cartoons name it ive self harming increasingly worse ways physical scars joke family joke isolation lot i dont want way cant understand watching siblings always go people experience things someone age driving mad started getting high could make imaginary friends interact midst psychedelic trances attempted days ago last month obviously didnt work im scared id found much financial impact would leave family want to really want go spent yrs planet without close friend share unconditional irreplaceable bond never going happen now cant stay longer anymore pains think even cases made friends left become emotionally abusive towards me pain variables mentioned strong dont want cope anymore want solve all tldr anorexic behavior emotionally manipulative friend isolated keeping little friends had since horrible childhood ive lacked social skills friends online friends literally alone spent life alone die alone suicidal fuck want friends man friends flesh everything like way happens movies try talk people going find people relate want know better internet exactly wont know like go anything anymore im tired everything,1 *Yawn* Good morn-ting everyone! ,0 ok hear know hair supposed protect head cold something pubes supposed protect private parts cold probably could get pube cuts theyre like haircuts pubes imagine going someone like got newest style pube cut dinosaur shaped,0 feel stupidi feel stupid coming online forum help im pretty desperate cant stop crying shaking want stop dozens paragraphs back story bore with ive suffered depression long remember past weeks and especially last days pure torture im kind person refuses go friends help want feel bad put awkward positionbut mostly think help me hopeless life nothing one im alone cant remember ever bad know do,1 ayo anyone play valorant here anyone wanna play me play virginia servers pm wanna play together,0 heart heas pounding feel sick inner voice keeps repeating i wanna dieim school rn im shaking feel frozen sick im planning committing anything feel sick head ringing inner voice keeps saying wanna die stop pls,1 i have been going for month to a new therapist and originally the goal wa to just do self care like shower eat take my med stuff like that i had graduated college and moved to a new city to start my first big boy job and i wa struggling with the life transition now i have everything together i take care of myself i have a stable career i go out on the weekend i have a strong healthy relationship but i m still depressed every session it seemed like she wa seeking goal out of me but i just don t have any i have everything but i m not happy and i can t come up with anything that would bring me happiness when i have everything i would need last night the topic of session wa my connection with people which i had made a goal out of last month but after getting to the end of it i made the statement that i don t know if i even want to make or strengthen these connection and she got frustrated with me and mentioned taking a break until i had a goal set and that my depression could just be my personality at this point since i have been dealing with it since i wa i m now i m just upset with myself and i don t really know what to do i ve had therapist in my life and none have really helped i know i have to do the work but it s hard for them to guide me when i don t even know what direction to go in i guess i just need to get another or more antidepressant or something idk,1 seriously considering redflagits middle night im drunk mean this everything gone wrong really want die family friends keep thinking walking killing cant even think way im scared ill traumatise someone find dead definitely cant house family feel like fucking hypocrite ive commented peoples posts like reasons keep living ready give up girl love ex pregnant someone elses baby dead end bartending job always problems depression getting worse cant see way out,1 feel socially romantically validated end year im going either jump thfloor apartment window stab death hang myself overdose sleeping pillsenough enough ive tried fitting year old aspergers since years ive anxious good enough fitting in friends popular finding girlfriend destroyed sense selfworth identity became persona hate never wish grow back into ive recently started discover am even that sucess attending normal elementary school somewhat functioning kids made people validate fitting in normal kids based still base value person that want confident want sucessful anxious time wanna go parties nonsocial outcasts get drunk girl find hot attractive sweet caring girlfiriend loves me finds funny one nice to make laugh take places fall asleep couch watching movies together im unatheletic short country im average height guys highpitched voice plain somewhat ugly face girl ever said looked hot ive never gf wanna normal tell wait until someone comes along that years way im sticking around long fuck that ive suffered enough im gonna go ardeous selfimprovement shit like that id rather die goal life take suicidal friends me position me hope people like us ive lived long enough parents peoples hopes expectations me,1 i lost a 0 dollar bill my mom gave me for emergency money that i have to give back to her i think that s god saying it s time for me to leave i m so poor and that wa not something i could lose i deserve to starve because of my stupid mistake i don t even deserve food i don t deserve to afford food anyway,1 almost sex but ive going steady chick long time finally guts ask question wanted deed appeared enthusiastic excited first however took member started laughing pointing ever since ive browsing rsmalldickproblems,0 @nsikub you're quiet right ,0 im probably going die end yearwhats fucking point im going feel way rest life,1 it tell confess crush comments whichever choice popular ill agree with im go bed ill morning lets see fate store me,0 "@Kyzon_Xin Damn...Mine is different from yours..Not really involving money, it's more toward emotions, depression, not feeling like myself, don't know who I am anymore, anxiety, sleepless nights, feeling like I've given up, thinking about death, questioning life...It adds up..",1 @manicmother what a wonderful Dad he is! ,0 thought could handle horror halloween now awake bed am fuck watching haunting hill house till like again,0 plans future mine are plan a work hard get dream job marry boyfriend kids become special person plan b live life easy marry rich man plan c stripper,0 ow i totally ate pavement this morn at stephen green luas stop so sore and there wa a freaking tv camera there of all the time to fall,0 feel split halfi verge killing myself told friend feel told jog want everything end tired waiting chat redflag hotline talking phone huge anxiety trigger me want head silent want anymore nightly routine wanting die want end want go home,1 @khalid_nawaz1 ohhhhhkkkk then y only depression neuron works ??,1 @penguin4784 must be Maybe I'll win the lottery and be able to afford it ;),0 @kirstiealley Whooooohoooooo! Hey congrats dollface! You are a certified hit! I'll go get a notary. Wait I AM a Notary!! *stamp*,0 omg theres year old white girl youtube making animated videos white people use n word names ashleyxd entire channel racist videos like im dead,0 yo kinda question hey remember cried cat died like yeah dad even though ago still makes kinda sad thank reminding me cat name old cat short catarina,0 anything life even past teen years yet still feel like trashy useless person want like people want smart charismatic memorable no going another random dude big ambitions went nowhere still confused people see good smart person all want important world think keeping one special person cares me otherwise would gone already feel like failure,1 fucking hate thatbi molested fucking hate still going affect rest life staying alive could piss assholes grave hes fucking taking long die fuck shit always going broken cannot fixed one ever love cannot fucking anyone love fucking broken know single reason fucking slit wrists week hope fucking bleed out tried years fixed nothing fix myself ruined cannot even friends fuck everything warped personality it done keep living never going fixed,1 im scared myselfim close edge one home really want hang myself one cares me sure hell dont,1 im sorry forgot let catch speed,0 want someone play minecraft want build big ass pyramid someone,0 "@TaylaMcCloud k called, it was niiiiiiiiice ",0 someone confirm lethal dose isopropanol mlkgseriously im done life plan chug fuckton need know enough yes know slow unpleasant way go seems retard proof option available end traumatising people,1 im bored balls tiredlife fucking boring tbh enjoy first years life constant hell school college working boring job making enough want life maybe rich could enjoy life way always wanted to right constant rat race probably always be,1 photoshop i hate it when you crash,0 reddit glitching anyone else nothings seems operating right,0 composed song called vitamin think electronic style tell think httpsyoutubebjnnmmchttpsyoutubebjnnmmc,0 american paris wonderful musical american painter living paris inspiration meets rich woman admires paintings street believes get work even popular public eg museum golden globe nominated gene kelly artist jerry mulligan perfect singing especially dancing also meets main girl lise bouvier leslie caron engaged best friend cant help feelings girl even finds engaged to filled nice romance wonderful song dance good musical film may drag slightly dancing dream sequence ie american paris ballet good happy ending oscars best art directionset decoration best cinematography best costume design best music scoring musical picture best writing story screenplay best picture nominated best director vincente minnelli best film editing nominated bafta best film source golden globe best motion picture musicalcomedy nominated best director vincente millenni lizas father gene kelly number movie stars number years stars men i got rhythm number years songs film number years musicals number years passions number years movies number greatest musicals good,0 Atlanta and the Unfolding of Paper Boi's Depression https://medium.com/@KazzleDazz/atlanta-and-the-unfolding-of-paper-bois-depression-4c7130f49b6d …,1 i can t handle people talking to me however they want anymore im over it fuck it,1 embarrass front others last weekend really made decide write this jay marie husband another couples house drinking playing board games jay work next day stopped early marie starts taking personally reason says us hes always ruining nights out,0 "3OH!3 were amazing. Then The Veronicas were up. I don't remember their performance, I was busy hyperventilating. Fml. ",0 @kieranmurphy thanks for followfriday btw more gastroporn pics today?,0 briish post oi yeah mayte g walkin street yeah roadman ting comes us es like oh yeah ill snap ya mate like oh fink ard bruv wanna go chewsday night bruv funny story bit stewpid though innit fancy cuppa now,0 coffee amp carrot cake slice mmm still lost for idea for art help,0 @CricketBookie ha! I just won! with 2.62 odds! ,0 feel well insecurities drown mei feel insecuree myself sure purpouse even worth effort somebody care think might get that feel drowned thoughts feelings push deeper want feel good again need help may fall even deeper months go on troubled,1 issue long time now try improve situation stuff distracting myself trying find new peers really seem help work out feeling people especially toxic mom says try find friends happy never offers support help says depressed super lazy put effort almost nobody sees,1 @hsivaram awesome it was an amazing talk,0 jon that just totally made my night lmao they were like screaming at me and i couldn t focus on the 900 mph song,0 want happy want die wish never born first placemy parents two ignorant people good people ignorant fact existing pain think pain because think much thinking much case means realizing shit living in realizing alive much proves point living worst yet able understand living sensation alive existing like multiplying pain already unbearable thought slashing flesh liquid holds alive absurd ask me fucking liquid red liquid reason suffering fucking liquid pouring mind organ ridiculous form colour details mass shit fucking flesh fucking frail flesh cannot stand anymore taking lexapro month half now shit work fucking shit fucking work doctor insists continue taking it fuck fuck medicine would alive matter dump money fucking pill pack fuck shit cannot stand alive cannot stand existing,1 i had to take my dad off life support in september my mom almost died my mom ha abandoned me more time than i can count her and her bf of 0 year and a few other relative have been so abusive to me i m on disability and i m trying to find my first job at i get interview but no job yet i really only have one friend but i think he s trying to distance himself from me i m trying to save up for a car so i can drive to work when i get a job all of this is stressful i ve always felt like a bird in a tiny cage with it wing clipped my depression is coming back and i have a habit of isolating myself from all communication and i m feeling the urge to do it again i need advice on so many thing how to improve life how to manage my depression and mental stuff all advice welcome,1 girlfriend broke wella hours ago girlfriend informed two weeks japan away me feels different cant keep things going us love her quite bit obviously shows far often im looking fact go sleep soon deal thoughts wake tomorrow days without one thing best part life quite time now far much difficulty justifying it apologize diatribe feel awful want wake tomorrow,1 i ve been feeling this way for close to a year at this point but it ha gotten worst within the last few week i feel that i am unable to calm down and i m in a constant state of panic at first i passed this off a just stress from school from being behind on assignment but i m all caught up with work now and i just feel even worse my heart ha been racing for literal hour and this kind of thing happens way too regularly now i m also really struggling from being in recovery from an eating disorder and i ve struggled with depression really badly for about a year about a year ago i also went through a traumatic event that cause me to panic whenever i hear any urgent voice from another room im just so done with feeling this way and keeping it to myself all the time and i want some validation for my stress,1 ekim 0 hehehe too bad they were separated,0 pack pack pack pack pack Punta Cana in three days! yayyy,0 realized somethingi realized things happening fault afraid dad almost died stuck homeless roommates crazy drunken person im always afraid anything taken advantage classmates abused aunt uncle moms side family today afraid talk best friend suicidal thoughts feel like idiot know everyone would better without me parents spend money me none friends would care high school im going try teach failure am wish dead rope towels blankets dog leash one would care everyone would better without me,1 well im sure definitely want anymore ive work months trying change career hate used do thought go back money terrifying every single person ive made plans even grab coffee ditched me last straw buddy said hed go fishing me got early dug worms got shit together ditch min before cat needs surgery called fho cant afford it tried fundraising nothing kid asshole understand why makes fun me ever wants money make food seem clean cook thanks appreciation anything do fuck everything laugh make fun me like ask empty fucking trash bathroom cause obviously overflowing one ever does so threw trashcan get bitched it nothing good enough make fun say certain words like adhesive fucking let it friends cant drive cause never taught money nothing im fucking useless lump everytime ask help im let down told im grumpy stop grumpy like wtf man im fucking tired it even get mad stand ground everyone ends pissy nothin g gets solved always turned around me stopped cleaning nothing plus hate living pig pen taken away dishes ffs enough dishware ppl live still get bitched at im absolutely done ive it know whether scream scream die fucking run time dying seems pretty awesome figure everything themselves im done spend day staring fucking wall now sometimes theres tears,1 good morning good luck with the math test,0 "Why is comfort food always bad for my health? Had the avocado bacon cheeseburger anyway, to help concentration. ",0 alt got banned made joke calling f word got alt banned f,0 thinking killing next weeks f lately ive contemplating redflag plans found looking online ways kill least amount pain think hospitalization even option financial state family in feel unfixable unimportant im end rope even know im posting here,1 saving grace never riotously funny delivers quite good laughs enjoyed significant degree brenda blethyn fine actress good job portraying widower grace resorts growing marijuana pay massive debts supporting cast also fine job french actor tchecky karyo funny little role premise alone appealing idea overthehill woman growing smoking pot sounds funny enough film plays around premise wisely every then course flat moments like one two elderly women mistaken graces marijuana leaves tea leaves start pulling childish antics store work mindless gag quite take off films tone downbeat occasionally dull got enough laughs give english import recommendation br br my score out ,0 spend entire day thinking redflag suffer constant nightmaresthe trauma never ends think anymore much hate existence life im miserable think ending all im tired people telling things get better reality may them me things get progressively worse im tired popping pills get synthetic happiness hour night im tired it wish dead,1 need helpi never felt crippling depression hard since lost job february alcohol helped first couple weeks became norm hate myself alienated every loved one live alone last two days even left bed want hurt know long last world feels like heavy concrete slab feel like paved it nowhere turn idea do please help me want kill scared immediate future,1 black lives stop mattering idk according reddit orange lives matter im sure support,0 just a head up site s being wonky so will like probably post late today flippin technical issue,0 good morning yall,0 ihappy i broke ex today relationship really bad started good hanging onto unrealistic expectations anymore dont love havent long time didnt realise it broke got back together times knew could yeah well anymore im free pain wont hurt again then potential new boyfriend messaged me talked called seems really nice d long distance thing like last moving quickly bad apparently feel kinda free rn happy tomorrow come ill find feeling hollow sad anyway wanted share good feeling feel every months,0 one mean care hurt family one day commit redflag tbh one reasons want it,0 @KatMcGraw yayy thanks hah,0 st birthday today birthdays keep getting depressing every yearthe title says basically havent birthday remember anyone actually celebrated me pretty much always resulted wishing day outlive parents finally without killing too th birthday took bunch edibles turned brain off one similar im fucked product messy divorce parents drained million fitting lawyers fighting sister i yearsolder sister took anger me moms love extremely conditional left fucked sexual romantic desires made insecure inept socialization im strong submissive really desire finding someone also that pickings extremely slim ive usually ended sociopathic women eventually kill me dont know relationship equal terms someone much less play leading role basically condemnation eventually marry someone destroy me either live alone nothing fucked thoughts weed made somewhat decent friends high school least could pretend friends pretty much moved lives ive gotten isolated socially went college west coast freshman year sophomore year transferred better east coast school really dont quality friends all anytime try say wrong thing feel awkward simply get ghosted guy friends smoke play xbox together sorry long ramble im rough night,1 someone tell life gets betterits getting harder believe im saying myself,1 "Me: I have good friends, school is going well and I'm feeling really good.Depression: pic.twitter.com/vXJkLynlDV",1 nick see please dm friend back summer leave got grounded dont remember username reddit met subreddit username words guy thats remember nick see this u pls dm wanna clarify stop texting snap know good good friend me anyone knows pls tell thanks remi,0 legit i am yet i wan na end it bad parent not my other one tho there good friend don t even care and only talk to me if i talk to them yeah and i m trans i didn t ask to be born male did i fuck it,1 film first acquaintance talents chris cooper deeply impressed character played knew saw film great things come gifted actor plays union captain who along couple enlisted men foraging eastern kentucky happen upon farm sesech woman whose husband chosen go confederacy br br the portrayal eastern kentucky seriously divided sentiments war accurate looking war film lot blood guts would it looking drama explores psychology peoples war actually philosophically best study divided loyalties affected interaction peoples border states americas civil war,0 following crimson stained roadwell following dusty red road path turns sideways every step sink deeper deeper thick red blood red blood path special tells dirty little lies finally start believing lies fake smile put someone asks whats wrong path let sleep night pulls deeper every hour sleep cant breathe step step step dark crimson lines wrists finally breathe dark angry lines remind certain crimson path hopefully ill see person tonight,1 "My kids graduate tomorrow! Aww, I am so proud.. Can't wait ",0 @kpacek330 lmao aw amazing i dont think i could ever get used to things like that. but hey thats me hah ! aw with DNA and stuffs ?.,0 struggling year nothing improved anything things gotten worse something clicked inside today think current situation ever improve cannot stand around family understand support me matter many times try explain never understand never help me hate think ever change see way,1 im suffering inside badim almost mild cognitive disability iq around ocd major depressive disorder severe anxiety officially diagnosed potentially bipolar disorder psychiatrist said severe anxiety cant drive lose control bladder operate motor vehicle difficult cognitive issues ive sex havent sex almost years dont job live rural area dont drive keep getting rejected remote jobs positive side best supportive family entire world love much basically sleep day havent wanted survive anymore really need game plan do ive tried going office vocational rehabilitation help worth jack shit,1 a little about me first i have always been the type of person to see thing only black and white i live my life through fact and being direct im very detailed and observant i observe people behavior and see who they really are are they genuine fake im also the type of person who analyzes everything could be over thinking i analyze every conversation every behavior every tone and i start to over think doe this person hate me did i say the wrong thing i dont think i can change the way i am by not caring because i had a lot of pressure of being perfect or good enough growing up i define myself a a perfectionist and a people pleaser i hate who i am and i push so many people away in my life because i dont feel like anyone actually care about me i feel alone and im sad i started a program at school that is very competitive to get in i wa hoping to make friend there since we all worked so hard to get in it been about a year and i dont see any of them outside of school no one text me outside of school and during school no one talk about anything other than school it like no one actually care what i did over the weekend or how my life is i would put myself out there and be interested in others life and even invite them to do stuff but i always get turned down every time i get turned down it just another step deeper into depression i just hate the person i am and i feel like i dont belong in anyones life,1 lounisdell stats feed i don t think a country s depression rate depends on world event people have their own personal problem too,1 almost feels worse dont reason feel suicidalim college work friends family girlfriend reason want die jesus christ think sometimes obsess past know brain feel like fucking terrible person waste drain people around me fact theres external cause feeling makes feel much helpless went long time thinking everyone went periods think killing one time close friend confided death someone knew first time life thought would like without the friend around hit isnt normal think way fucking time ugh wish would happy want dead,1 why do i keep looking i know that what i read is gon na hurt but i still look i guess it s just a girl thing,0 really want butterfly knife im allowed one meanwhile friends fucking swords,0 first saw track dvd hifi show nov london really cream nowit high end arcam systemit sounded great dtsi get dvd ill tell far exciting music dvd ever watchedthe performance cream age mind blowing sound quality best heard music dvdit matter type music likethis one definitely grow youits sheer brilliance performance make watch againeven new musicians cut mustard days old rockers do,0 not birthday whatever wantits birthday im level survived fucking years ive depressed long remember cant recall happy memories never gf never many real friends years since last saw old friends moved on lives moved cities study old high school crush wished happy birthday told go friends friends irl online friends never met irl social anxiety let make new friends or least thats excuse im high school see working hours week again much hope future die now leave much behind parents brother upset probably never forget redflag cant live satisfy them know today would nice birthday wish someone would kill without pain maybe give gift,1 redflag depression mental illness much life able get proper treatment local mental health clinic ways helped immensely able get pure obsessional ocd control longer bad symptoms still definitely sometimes flares bit faded background noise part ways mental health significantly deteriorated mids completely lost self confidence gained time college found tribe got better art skills could finish college drop due mental illness adhd trying get freelance artist mostly living disability though able earn anything close living wage would attempted without financial aid government would living parents parents supported me god knows would be would probably homeless know happened college friend mine parents support artistic pursuits quit school would kicked out mental health bad shape several years now since completely incapacitated comorbid disorders dealing with severe social redflag agoraphobia body dysmorphic disorder well adhd autism spectrum disorder also credflag parents drive everywhere driving terrifies cannot even call taxi social redflag credflag makes terrified space people know quick exit sitting taxi driver would mean would unable escape easily turned mean know highly unlikely still scares me friend one experience mean taxi driver late teensso crazy idea trying drawingart video blog seems lucrative tubers earn passive income think would great instead relying government financial aid want think would good it actually seems impossible even though decent drawing skills people skills socially handicapped mental disorders one main reasons draw hard time talking people drawing helps make feel comfortable around them idea would ever feel comfortable enough talk camera scare people away want insincere fake pretend talkative bubbly am actually thought voice changer thing captions talking scares hell me scared voice name recognized bullies stalked harassed real life online may try one video perhaps even post get feel work bother multiskilled vocation art vlogger also good people skills well videomaking skills hate idea video blogging hope earning money hating people like youtuber genuinely friendly acknowledges followers that would want put people unfriendliness social redflag responding comments messages turning comments really know myself cut existence feel powerless mess know prevent life going sht,1 f stressed depressedlast night shitty me told crush liked said adores im best friend looking relationship feel like wanna cry get enjoyment playing video games im behind d art one project due week concept another project almost end fucking semester term classes worst especially teacher bullshits way quarters class rush projects onto us essays due english class next semester gym im usually one whos borderline fat really want dead hope really awful year year think going get better might well try od depression anxiety meds,1 time mother work make sure took time take care father deathbed grandpa told landlord face perhaps the latter mothers words mine want daughter granddaughter homeless wanted take care us make sure place live unbeknownst me behind rent know much years later got first job,1 honestly really point staythey say redflag permanent solution temporary problem thats really true it life permanency us know thing want really end me everyone else keep living fuck it wanna live see anyways,1 @ExclusiveDay26 Good morning!! Have a safe and blessed day ,0 swati yeah i havnt got any crad unlimited to text call either suck will catch up with you today sometime xxxxx,0 is there anyone i can talk to just for a while,1 one best romantic classicteen deviyaan film selecting among equals soft emotionlovethis simple story middle class man came limelight poetic talent charming personality attracted towards three women vice versa one hindi movie star second rich lady third lives neighborhoodbr br the situation put confusion decide one life partnerhe asked days themultimately goes astrologer asked loves mosthis confusion came know lady living neighborhood really cares loves true lovedevanand played lead character fully justified contemporary romantic image,0 scheduling redflag the reality going break leave boyfriend next days tried times times hes talked staying disappearing him mean him breaking up years love him refuse go life pretending love him right leave right break up right date people married talks it again thats it im done going bridge jumping known people jumped deception pass seems like every week car found lot dark one around claim it car one cars august st leave commit cannot live life want choose live choose live life all please comment telling give boyfriend another chance want to want single want free want live life way want to please please tell stay tell need save date ill thing need ill leave leave earth,1 take interest profiler test like wtf since computer tell like like test proceeds inaccurately describe individual yet score school going use profile me hello person brain ability communicate like ask students what fuck like bro annoying,0 fucking hate people say shit like art meaning people try analyze everything scribbled pice paper deep like shut pretension ass artist everything deep sometimes want draw alvin alvin chipmunks alcoholic funny,0 hey so i feel cringe posting this and will likely delete but sometimes just venting and writing thing out is rlly calming and therapeutic this is my first post here but i ve lurked for a few year now and always read other people s story when im feeling down and alone which help sometimes background before getting into this i have gad and major depressive disorder and have been on ssri since 0 my dad side of the family all tend to have the same issue just on a way le of a scale i am awful at articulating my thought and it s insanely frustrating just a head up before getting into the incoherent vent post i m just gon na be listing a bunch of different thing that have been bothering me i am soon to be i am absolutely petrified of turning 0 and i have 0 accomplishment in life i still live with my parent i work a shitty job paying hr i have 0 motivation or drive to want to pursue anything like a better job meeting new people getting into a relationship etc i sit in my dark dimly lit room all day and play game watch twitch stream all of my friend are moving on and having kid and getting their own place and embracing adulthood with open arm i seem to be the only one that is incapable of making this transition i want to be a kid again i want the simpler time i hate responsibility and expectation i m immature and dumb and don t want to grow up i have a shitty jealous easily angered petty personality that i wa also blessed enough to obtain from my dad side of the family i have never met someone with a personality a petty and insecure a mine ex so i have this friend that applied for a government job that would be really good for her and she d be making good money this is obviously a great thing and i m happy for her but i would be lying if i said i wasn t kinda hoping she got turned down we both currently work shitty job and suffer the same money work struggle i think i just don t want to be left behind and feel like i m alone in my struggle i feel so shitty that i m even thinking this way i also have an ego that i rlly shouldn t have considering im an ugly short bald year old that peaked in highschool idk if it s undiagnosed narcissism or what but i know something is wrong because of this i am most of the time an awful friend i ve gotten better over the year because i gained some self awareness before though i would burn a lot of bridge i wa getting into argument with irl friend and internet friend weekly man i used to be such a bully to my little brother growing up too and i cringe every time i think about it im incredibly grateful every day that i wa able to gain self awareness and a want to change i have anxiety attack and sink into deep hole of depression when faced with the realization i have to work a 9 0 hour work week cuckjob for another 0 year i used to watch twitch stream a an escape but now i can t even do that anymore without having an anxiety attack that i ll never get to live the easy luxurious life that they do wake up whenever they want go to work whenever they want do w e they want for hour and then log off and go do fuck all they can take off whenever they want without the worry of being fired all while making more in year than i will ever make in lifetime of busting my as i understand i m describing like the top of twitch streamer but still i have really awful self esteem and have had for a long a i could remember i used to hate getting picture taken a a kid and would constantly try to hide my face it became a running gag in my friend group that i would never take picture it wa to a point where i wa having anxiety attack just seeing picture of myself there are time when i start to feel better about my appearance but then ill see a picture of myself and immediately get reminded that i m fuckin nosferatu i genuinely think i m incredibly below average and if it wasn t for the fact that i am addicted to working out i might just be the most undesirable man on the planet i would put myself in bottom 0th percentile in look i do think i have some degree of body dysmorphia and it s especially bad right now because im in a panic y state so i am probably overreacting a little about my appearance i ve always had some social anxiety growing up but it wa maintainable and didn t rlly stop me from doing most thing i wanted to do but there wa an incident in 0 that just made it skyrocket and it ha been progressively getting worse since quite frankly i think i am just doomed to suffer i genuinely do not see a happy ending future for me i am a walking abomination of every negative character trait imaginable that doesn t deserve to have good friend i don t even want to have kid because idk for certain if i just won t day get tired of it all and shoot my shot if u will i wouldn t want to have kid growing up without their dad i also don t want to potentially pas down to them the shitty mental health gene that i have and have them go through everything i have mentally bc it suck and i would want a better life for them honestly there s so much more fucking shit that i could complain about regarding myself but this is already long enough don t feel obligated to respond to this i ve already started to feel a little better just from typing it this is the th night in a row i ll be up till am bc anxiety attack keeping me from falling asleep oh yeah and reminder that this is all while still taking ssri s i do not want to imagine what my mental state would be without them tl dr money work growing up age look self esteem personality social anxiety it s all freakin shit and make me depressed and anxious,1 ive considering years years old now think finally time gosince seven years old ive wanted end life suffered home drugaddict parents heavily emotionally abusive father contribute financially emotionally life school always worse despite straight student spent every day life cowering classmates beat up excluded me threatened kill me always overweight even though ate healthy foods took martial arts resulted severe criticism family friends severe selfloathing part depression nothing new me think keeping alive whole time little half brother closest dearest friend life backed defended everything looked despite tortured child im never month gone redflag surface thoughts never courage tell single soul insecure ive recently seeing doctors dropping college my gpa quickly became gpa semesterlong severely depressive episode grades much low accepted school scholarships revoked ive diagnosed severe thyroid problem reason ive fat whole life never children first boyfriend past years taking advantage emotionally entire relationship threatens break every months loses temper due crippling insecurities today broke again want anyone else cant help feel cant stand sometimes im set move hellish home live him feel nowhere go prescribed prozac take phobia taking medication want live anymore even want happy get better want go bed want wake up ive felt way better half eleven years ive lost optimism want everything end,1 "@BTS_twt @blueminyoongi_ Bts helped me when i went through depression (it wasn't anything serious), though i was feeling sad everyday and nothing seemed to bring my moods up. So when i stumbled upon them, i seriously started smiling and i immediately loved their songs. And army is also like a family",1 weird way feel close death strangely nicesometimes theres tension air im feeling lethargic sad go kitchen open draw get knife put neck start feel better sometimes bleeds sometimes get scar thought death close could swipe weird yes is care,1 gave discord tag gave discord tag would crazy gtlrop not order unscramble yourselflt,0 ..dieting works! hurrah! i now weigh 53kg..at 5'8'' that may be tiny but whatevs..almost aus size 6 ,0 "@boborama lol Bob, well that's a good thing to worry about! Wish I could make it down Will do one day!",0 manual breathing blinking lmao gottem manually breathe blink next minutes brain forgets read,0 cant find reason keep goinglife thrown wrench toolbox full wrenches me due event suffer ptsd depression anxiety paranoia night terrors get average hours sleep night years now hear voice see sometimes paranoia distrust caused end marriage divorce left name moved friends another state opened one woman one two roommates something similar loved one another ended pushing away shes since left sleeping roommate night horrific hearing them job easy stressing poorly employees do cant handle all ive since far surpassed threshold want end all motivation life whatsoever im robot autopilot wake or simply get dont sleep go work go home lay down waiting end sometime dont want kill know hurt family friends also want die want hit car choke something die lose control car poor conditions someone rob end shooting me ive keep going all,1 yes ill say start commenting movie incredibly underratedbr br sharon stone great role catherine trammell morrissey dr glass analyst sent evaluate death sports star glass drawn seductive game trammel uses manipulate mindbr br the acting good apart thewlisbr br stone really talent role slick naughty seductive look day older firstshe really impressed melike casino morrisey also good showed much vunerablitity role needed it thewlis however lame ruined character overthetop whole way really suckedbr br overall movie good first stone hoot watch ignore thewlis,0 man i want some nike air yeezy s but a i don t live in state have no chance in hell ahh well spend the 00 on pair of sb s instead,0 take huxtable parents blend kyle parents get perfect blend top edge parenting wish family childrearing skills best part show parents come pompous selfrighteous upper class know alls time stereotypical undereducated parents constantly bamboozled disrespected children kids ages kyle kids see much situations mirroring experiences family silliness indulge goes show love family take seriously keep household together fun kids,0 25-04-2018,1 dad wa admitted to hospital yesterday so want to fly to cape town to visit r 900 for monday return ticket on kulula,0 saw movie years ago subject still infuriates me should anger initiative inspiring would takeover army kill people scene well rebel strong hold never leave mind great film prepared strong subject matter,0 very very very happy and slightly skinny xx,0 classmate mine tested positive im gucking anxious ive got ill tested tonorrow go back school mom heart proplems diabetes yesterday spent hours step dads mom brother old weak im ancious it since aslo dont best health hope guy class alright so mate youre reading this please dont fucking die,0 failureso somewhat long apoligize that story much different yours age decided wanted cook college carpentry becauae know since men family useful me im nerd im gamer im enthusaiastic types things play acoustic guitar fairly well friends rely everything mother stepfather cats age reevaulated life never carpentry job working kfc coffee shop eb games years marine cooking work cook sea first real job canadian coast gaurd hazing ritual refuse acknowledge hazing bullied taunted til point hazing walked away it much anxiety built point people saying hazing ia that sexual things dropping us overboard arctic water sling lock door put something people cant pour water night typea taunts walked aeay coworkers chased cooler workspace cornered demanding go saying everyone elae ia ur pussy u dont go physically handled trying make go yelled tears eyes fuck off telling im job put bullshit next day captain ushered mw come mess hall officers humiliate me present half document ripped front said compltleting ritual took picture forced shake hand laughed me point im mockery odd crew laughing stock pussy told bad attitude attitude developed happened courwe attitude im bullied humiliated stuck almost days never got justice process trying get settlement sue them theyve ignored years fucked bad gained ton weight lbs years later surprisingly atill work sea ships hate it nothing else skills live mom arthritus step dad basically cuz failure launch n know id dead broke wasting time im alleviating bills biding time moved away months friend met cooking school knew yeara turna big narcassist drank amoked dope house whatever always friend r laying board games one day feela need quit drinking smoking holier thou ao tella im allowed beer joint even outside ita disrespectful trying get better turned thia loat hjs mind got us evicted landlord said telling us bullshit hypocrit aince fine one day next also gf time fought brought ahit up hr celebrating birthday except weeks fact already done that did im allowed upstairs house make noise friend smoke drink betrayed me went batshit crazy us got home messaged saying wanted kill me ao told girlfriend cheating like good ex best friend would hates hates her tried fuck one night honorable hindsight wish really nice albeit broken mentally extremly hot league anyway ended moved home bringing new kittena cats love cats ash baby jax ollie bullied high school usual mom til pop drunk hated mom uncle made fun far back aa remember child essentially eatranged moms family since hate us hate mom broke gambling problem yeara high school dont get invited family things back work thing ive dealt good bad people this becauae first work experience enthusiasm toward going work dont talk personal life dont add people facebook im job dont want friends gruff tough type people dont understand emotion hardened life sea generally talk pretty lewd angryily last year got stuck year exconsexual assault robbery forgery fraud domestic violence assault deadly weapon ties hells angels blah blah blah usual told atories held ppl gunpoint robbed young guy gas station split head open bat got away it frienda abslducted guy house put bag head held gun head beating something wasnt business started getting scared guy drugs work coke percocets smoking weed drinking heavily messaging am passed go drugs himi got uncomfortable around started messaging calling everyday time off hes years older me like making excuses hang go back nd trip hes showing lot aggressiona anger toward crwq left days becauae itfastforward months new ship new company better job better payharassed bullied relentleasly year old thought best was putting taunting me throwing buss qnd humiliating verbally front entire crew noticed told put complaint did backfired longer able work boat since senority month later got fucking promoted boats left company way less chance employment now im rd ship ive battling since harassment xmas crap thinking redflag daily months even saying loud life spiraled control dont tolerate anger arguing loud voices taunting bullying kind now cannot hours boat cook ia yelling arguing me since apparently boat special doesnt follow sqme guidelines cannot know something right way unless told something wrong instead telling respectful manner yelled asking retorical questions make feel stupid kept liatening saying ok ok ok goes atop saying ok staring like idiot use fucking head hours later return break mins early except mins late tell know job drscription break times tella im full ahit im wrong says domt give fuck boata im fucking boss say becauae youre boss doeant mean right says gonna problem arent we respond yeah started morning alao blamed mess made play stupid get back yelled brek thing also said tomorrow youll chimed goes say say said thats break ends goes ballistic walk away tears eyes confirm captain hr job duties break times right fuck guy except knots stomach im crying front captain years oldthe pattern disrespect bullying led feel like everything fault like im blame everything im leaving day turning thousand dollars options put bullshit get fired losing him go home lose money intolerance bullshit know chances gone fullyime wouldve came around another months id making k taxes year insane bonuses benefits go home parents whove grown used failure im making miserable becauae im miserable cant get bed shower week maybe im performance issues last ladies lucky enough drag bar might get unemployment cuz im leaving though im trying since got union involved put formal complaint first ship thia company union rep saod contact anytime get bad feelinga theres emotional fallout mental issues harassment ever since home til crapim praying get layoff fired quit roe cant afford broke itll take til find suitable jobless time easier workload hopefully solo charge mom dies ill alone kill know too tomorrow go home im going straight bed dark know cant face them even know left pritct mental health ill still failure,1 watching show since ive loved ever since love show plain funny enjoy show lot shows something new funnier everyday favorite part benny always last comments george every punchline fat giant headlaughs would laugh id watch friends home itd like watching funny movie short love george lopez funny talentedfunnyspectacular coolfunnyfamily comedy series enjoyable everyone definitely enjoy iti did watched yet suggest start watching want stop watching it even though anymore brand new episodes still enjoy reruns still funny never wears off br br ,0 testing post perns nothing see ,0 rip mf doom died october death made public yesterday underrated rapper deserved love loved music rip hip hops super villan rest easy mf doom,0 i don t have enough med to od myself i m afraid of pain so i cant slit my own neck if emotional agony can kill me then i would have died a million time over already,1 quick psa males shower uncut men pull wash nasty stuff out takes second better ya wonderful rest day,0 The only person to make music keeping people away from depression instead of idolizing it. Nobody can compare to what Kid Cudi has done. https://twitter.com/ogthraxx/status/989254879502897159 …,1 hours buy first car one picked out ive test driven looked car fax it ive looking car months finally found it even dad anything say it nissan altima k miles for know thats good old car already passed emissions safety last class gets get home im going bank get k cash cause fees taxes including registration comes it thats much is all money ive saved since first job pay insurance gas well,0 little sister came room got made went outside back mom told look something like room frustrated since annoyed went backyard came back noticed phone missingi know knew password since keep mine remember easieri told mom tell little sister give phonethen little sister shows tell know phone telling give backshe started talking shit normally would ignore depressedbut started talking could hear voice almost sounded like wanted cry kept trying defend myselfmy sister used wayshe used nice everyone liked acting like better everyonesometimes psychotic way tone voice getsmy dad died maybe sleepi everyone since want left alone like looking since rude anythingi know deserve pain long time already hard happy already people acknowledge mental state makes worse embarrassing got hurt little sister,1 keep upive always kind overweight obese big guy ive always depressed guess two kind go together eat junk feel bad two months ago er visit told affecting liver coupled family history resolved better changed diet fried food sugar all exercise daily ive really really good first positive change ive ever resolved make proud myself would it id start losing id get confident id feel better moving maybe even id work courage ask someone out todays weighin weigh started ive lost maybe pound know im wrong two months came rushing back im going always big miserable lonely person i im fooling thinking could make better keep up try make change im going end anyway give go back coping easier see point,1 feeling ill today too so not having a great day,0 11 Symptoms of Depression in Men and How They Differ from Those in Women https://ift.tt/2HuMCSY  via LearningMind1 - #learningmind,1 wanna bury face pair thighs getting petted kissed top head dream boys,0 theekween heart break trauma anxiety depression pain of losing a loved one thelmasherbs http t co ayy9 a u r,1 i fucking hate my life i hate everyone,1 want die reallyi compelling reason get tired feeling this know family friends love me imagining would im gone makes sad deserve love maybe want give deserve maybe years would stop wanting die maybe years enduring suicidal thoughts worth it compared lifetime pain loved ones would disappear,1 have u ever noticed depression naps are great for like a second? That one second when you wake up don't remember but also the next second is nice when you go back to sleep,1 find something next two weeks im gonna fucking blow brains outi add hate passion current part time job thing majored in im s live parents fucking hate here also many mg dextroamphetamine fatal,1 hello i have this issue that s been happening more and more frequently a of late starting off back in the office i wa extremely anxious but i found that when i got there i usually always got excited and talkative for about an hour after which i start crashing it feel a like i start sinking into emptiness i get self conscious my selfless esteem crumbles and i start feeling depressed this happens regularly and follows me back home i don t know what to do or how i can mitigate this any advice would be greatly appreciated thank you,1 valentines day coming soon valentine yet friends ,0 im big fan movie musicals annie stage show loved movie flop phantom opera movies and believe three failed match weber staging loved this dvd take place honour among keepers even though movie adaptation somehow captures flavour atmosphere live theatre bette midler always treat exceptional role theres great music lots laughs even tear two ive seen big musicals eighties nineties somehow missed one theres comparison make gets revived shall first line tickets movie good ill odd position wondering stage production measure movie,0 well ever since toddler parents never got along well hardest part choose sides currently live little brother mother younger chose sides father since little less strict mother holds lot hatred me insulted since father around past years ever since covid started started taking work home mother never got along well mostly tomboy bought lot tricks girly dresses tshirts so tend wear tshirts neighbours kid girl loves girly stuff time mother wishes daughter also earlier stated hated reason that mother started insulting dumb since girl etc went kind crazy one day could take anymore screamed know bad could control time top things off brother behaves like literal baby even though one usually gets trouble fun fact brother mistake me mother kind compared me currently bad relationship father anyone go to think mother weird obsession making look bad front people telling day day mistakes ones perfect mental state gone thought killing myself tried dreams get way like singing mentioned earlier screamed pretty loud since voice went high practicing songs days like interacting many people opened people lifetime neither parents included list people mother makes feel worthless tries make feel bad girl know life anymore seems hopeless needed open,1 depressed broke hated friendless unemployed worthlessi found today someone actively prevented getting job someone knows ive struggling years knows poor am even go on bad enough knowing one cared lift finger cried help live reality people lift finger comes holding back,1 i f met my girlfriend on a game called genshin impact she is amazing really kind to me and is the first person who ha made me feel loved in a really long time the problem is that i still deal with suicidal thought worse now than any point before in my life and what hurt all the more is that i don t want to disappear from her i quite frequently find myself cry because of the thought of her losing me i ve felt incredibly lonely for most of my life that i can remember i used to feel like nobody would miss me if i died now i know there s someone who would really miss me and it hurt a lot i don t want to talk to her about this mainly because i feel like my bad mental health already affect her too much and i really don t like making her upset i wa on the verge of getting to therapy but then money trouble hit my family i feel hopeless and i wish i didn t meet her so i could just end it without feeling terrible,1 puzzle mv removed my depression,1 character customization character customization irl locked behind second dlc messed character creation accidentally skipped,0 anything requires math numbers mean,0 boyfriend says hes done summerhe says hes done cant take anymore hes much pain hes convinced wont get better back ex blamed redflag hes never able accept wasnt fault says hes going fall thought getting better hes not told knows im going call police tries hes going unfairly hate it hes therapy doesnt believe itll work dont know help him dont know point feel horrible asking keep going things might get better hate seeing pain hes told hes held long doesnt want hurt me know live others long dont know do know dont want kill himself anybody anything think might helphas similar situation please let know appreciate it,1 i m leaving tonight i can t keep doing this i m sorry,1 happy thanksgivingjust wanted hop say hope found something remind someones thinking holiday could if youd like could another stranger could someone unexpected could someone youd expect could family could friend could coworker could neighbor etc regardless hope youre well faceless internet being wonderful holiday,1 ive made app homework maths physics chemistry english free got k downloads insanely quick called school available download here httpsplaygooglecomstoreappsdetailsidplwaxerpomocniczekhttpsplaygooglecomstoreappsdetailsidplwaxerpomocniczek,0 Bottles of Jones soda and long car rides. ,0 "when something is already stressing you out to the point it's literally triggering your depression/anxiety to go full force on you yet someone wont stop bringing up the stressful situation, making things worse & more overwhelming then it already is pic.twitter.com/PVb6IG1FKm",1 leave positive impact ending lifeall want life make others happy really hate though simply cant put living myself possible im thinking ending life really soon get need it thing im probably gonna spontaneously disappear every community im in want everyones last memory positive one make sure last thing people hear something good think back theyll happy there sad im gone,1 came terms im gonna make end yearamp im content,1 fuck omg austin always there though man lt love you,0 think song wrote addiction runs family right staying up able sleep night mental illness ive enough give fight judge depression anxiety fill mind like balloon dont know do like hands tied head expands roof emotions feel consumed family abused wanting commit redflag like really lose,0 i think everybody on the internet forgets that the people they talk to online are actual people behind the screen people with real life with friend and family and their own personal issue i know it s hard to remember that sometimes especially when everybody just publicly post when they are at their best and doesn t want to share any of the negative or boring part of their life but everybody here is a real person people on the internet have a startling lack of empathy never even a little bit taking into consider anyone else s feeling or experience people just say awful thing and are surprised when others retaliate people these day especially younger teen are so terrible at understanding that other people may have life apart from what they are willing to show online and i think that is going to have devastating consequence on them a they get older,1 spoilers spoilers without doubt best film rainer werner fassbinder ever made even marvelous script film enhanced great performance hanna schygulla film starts maria schygulla hermann braun klaus lowitsch getting married bombs continue fall hermann shipped towards waning days war maria mother sister must scrape survive maria decides get job dancerprostitute club caters american gis meets black army soldier named bill greg eagles start see one another steady basis maria hears husband hermann died war gets serious bill one day getting intimate bill see hermann door died enters room scuffle occurs maria breaks bottle bills head dies hermann takes blame sentenced long term jail maria tells succeed something get out war ended germany must rebuild one day train maria meets karl oswald ivan desny successful businessman textiles uses charms get job maria determined well climbs corporate ladder becomes karls mistress tells never marry love her hermann gets jail goes canada try get everything maria done since locked upbr br spoiler alertbr br one day karl dies leaves maria everything maria buys house hermann finally comes home wife ready start theyre marriage even though married time now maria leaves gas stove house explodes still itbr br there many interesting things film one movies studied talked great lengths like fassbinder films use color used interesting way film begins tones brown gray represent war torn germany maria starts become successful change bright rich colors like red white rebuilding germany sounds construction used backdrop film stays focused exploits maria fassbinder want sounds rebuilding remind us going germany time hanna schygulla never better performance key success film lesser actress would another interesting film schygulla strong performance elevates film elite status schygulla shows maria determined smart time uses beauty femininity get wants embarrassed feel guilty fassbinder wanted show maria woman practically sells soul survive schygulla nominated academy award gave great performance stand test time fassbinder appears film peddler mother lilo pempeit plays frau ehmke heard many things ending film whether maria purposely left gas on later bathroom running water wrist appears sad speculation think im wrong please email me think overly excited hermann home left accident remember putting dress reason read point learns hermann karl become friendly without knowledge think felt everything done nothing thats reason bathroom scene house explodes accident think reason fassbinder ending like show anyone would sell soul business living fassbinder fascinated survivors also incredibly passionate view maria cant ways fascinating film,0 girl hit today hit balls specific hurt,0 okay actually wrong reddit like k word yet every red house get tells got first one like no please stop,0 anyone want come join minecraft birthday party bet ones gonna join like real life,0 "@alireddeer hah, I wish I had the luxury ",0 yesterday finally great time lot shitty days cooking listening favourite music feeling good mother came music stopped started feeling like always knife hands thought stabbing would stupid shit live someone like mom empathy people also hypocriteshe always told us kind people judge appareances said sisters taste clothes like going carnaval costume partyshe always told us lie hide truth always lying dad telling need money school something dad send money evaporates something she lot shoes closetshe always told us violence solution clearly remember hearing threatening sister saying would break face listen obbey also remember day came form work hit thrown trashshe always told us trust bothering lot care anymore thinks smoke weed something seriously person since child refused alcohol every time offered himshe also told us care us always ther hear hep us said wanted calm got mad started yelling asking reason like this said care fake when get home work want smiling hug me said almost everyday ask something tell need help blah blah blah always says no want talk would get even worse morning made wake cross whole damn city her arrived place waited minutes told needed could go home wtf knows school wanted disturb me fortunately see next days hospital showed way going visit her forgot write loooot things started feeling worse leave everytime mom near want stab knife,1 even live yourself supposed doing personally derive enjoyment nothing none hobbies anything ways pass time or convince better nothing what fuck waiting for hate existence like hate myself said countless times done know direct intent know method use when soon preferably year deadline closing it even suffer well would dead long after cares would care moment would nothing life huh,1 question everybody here favourite organ,0 saw movie first came out official selection temecula valley international film festival voted best picturebr br justine priestley hot psychotic complex amanda ordinary psycho movie lots interesting original slants genre sort fatal attraction younger set great blues music mixed object amandas affection married coming blues singer less time husband career takes offbr br ,0 wtf ask christmas mom idea neither i limit im tempted ask vibrating dildo dont think thats appropriate,0 im suicidalitd easier daughter cant seeher mother thinks im bad her context,1 friendfemale said lot veins arms compliment take grain salt really want misinterpret anything want ruin good friendship starting overthink ton,0 interesting title pheui day text post optional well really optional tho,0 finished binging hero academia say unhealthy obsessionlove uraraka thank time,0 thedeshbhakt are u alright posting against jihadis waise watched some of your old conversation on newslaundery man u changed a lot ye modi bjp se hate is part of your own depression and propaganda,1 wellreadkitty oh poor thing i used ot love squeezing out the pu when i wa a vet nurse kinda gross really,0 thinking ugly im fat went kg earlier year mom unsupportive soon back kg u hate fat am eating less damn hard smh idk im complaining lol fault anyway,0 theres way im going live thisim a im completely useless severe low self esteem confidence depression generalized anxiety chronic loneliness trust issues im shy quiet person one friend give shit using fulfill desires studied worked along fruitless path im job know drive even move around city public transport im scared call phone ask help let alone search new job single useful skill know listen get paid that im going die know live dying feels natural correct im living parents narcissistic mother alcoholic father im scared everything everyone got gun sleeping pills blame disappearance nerve ask other makes feel better know possession im useless im needed fault going get better time nothing know live,1 damn i don t have any chalk my chalkboard is useless,0 cut onion first time gonna harm eyes right felt like im going blind,0 sarmar i guess i m out of funny,0 i m not sure if this a thought process shared by few or many but it s one i wanted some clarity on i ve suffered with mental illness since my later high school year and and now starting my rd year of university i have ambition and desire and all the intent in the world to do good with myself and be the best i can be i have goal not super defined which i think is a result of my illness but i just can t bring myself to really go for it i ve been skipping class cause of anxiety issue whilst simultaneously being completely aware of how much of my life is being wasted away because my brain won t let me do what i want to do is this a common thing it s a complete self awareness of what i m doing wrong but an incapability to change it really would like some thought on this,1 im gonna try make short feel like im gonna commit redflag tomorrowso life shit recent im honestly worse position ever awful job shambles literally wage love cheated year im time low feel like theres point anymore said id keep short wont say much more im gonna jump office unless something happens turns think probably way get through nice get somehow thanks,1 know sound like much means alot today skated talked girl ive never met im usually social person around people know able go talk girl meant alot me gonna ask wanted friends lost her hey tried ,0 "@tmatzner The Rodchenko inspired web design just shouts, "Revolution!" to me. ",0 have an invite for quot healthy dining quot session at ashok hotel today with exec chef r chopra but damn workload will have to skip it,0 ending life midnighti dont know awaits me better life death dont know but take chances see dead ends wherever look best thing death tho hearts broken lived l alone die alone,1 richard brooks last hunt film star stewart granger even stand hear mentioned even tore vintage poster film presented signing later years director run wife understandable anyone else one best adult westerns s years ahead time attitude environmentbr br in many ways plays almost like sequel one anthony manns westerns see heroes dragged redemption kicking screaming every step way grangers legendary buffalo hunter already seen light but buffalo stampede costs herd cattle fit poetic justice hes dragged back darkness robert taylors callous proudly racist gunslinger justifying grounds ive already got guilty conscience might well money well raised indians hes fully aware damage hes disappearing buffalo heads extinction gradually becomes almost consumed selfloathing taylor hate two men fall debra pagets squaw sole survivor band indians taylor kills white buffalo hide thats priceless hunters indians different reasons showdown becomes inevitable though outcome certainly isntbr br taylors certainly ironic casting granger turning many epic roles mgm developed films like quo vadis ivanhoe gave taylor s comeback years steady decline hair color may convince performance does shallow violent man consumed hate wear gun gun wears him grangers accent always convincing makes good quiet hero jimmy stewart mold trying keep hold newfound decency reconcile actions beliefs finally getting chance make amends russ tamblyns halfbreed skinner lloyd nolans onelegged oldtimer also give good get real star script tightly plotted excellent eye ear character mention ending stanley kubrick borrowed shining balances historical revisionism entertaining drama without ever selling either short new french dvd extrasfree boast transfer english soundtrack,0 feel end line every fucking day dread stuff interesting irritable annoyed cannot care anyone hurts want care feel damn empty inside want disappear dog suffers depression relationship too work nothing untouched emptiness disease depression ever stop way tried tried feel stuck help please please solace break progress something help hold keep going empty irritating days every day,1 "@anthony_hill Didn't take me on as Production Editor as not enough experience, but asked me to start as an Ed Assistant as they liked me ",0 my father committed suicide day before my th birthday i still remember this day i don t really have any memory of him so i m not really sad but for a long time i wa kinda angry at him for letting u alone with a mother like that but i realized some time ago that himself didn t want to be with her anymore and he also had a difficult life i think i m pretty sure he also had depression i feel stupid for being angry at him for so long over something like that i m happy for him now he doesn t have to suffer anymore he s free from his sadness just needed to let these thought out,1 wish familyi would long dead im scared feel agony stay alive solely please others want way least painful them dont know,1 wonder day long worthless self continue forced sufferi sick shitty pointless life,1 being gay is so fucking lonely everyone is either busy making their crotch gobblins or busy with their so i come from a super religious family and am not financially stable by myself so i just have to sit on the corner alone and watch everyone else enjoy life i have no one to talk to i dont have any friend id feel comfortable talking about this with and warmlines feel fake a fuck i hate how straight men treat every get together a an excuse to find someone to fuck but i also feel lile a fucking weirdo for not liking woman in latin america where im from people think gay men want to be woman and every comedy show make fun of u i just feel like an object not a human an effigy created to be ridiculed and ostracized a thing that help straight people feel better about themselves by being a freak a useful object like a gay best friend or le of a man i know this will sound petty but it also hurt seeing so many beautiful men and knowing that i would never be able to be with them im also pretty ugly and gay men tend to be quite vain im not muscular im too hairy to be a femboy or a twink and im not a bottom like most people would expect of me i just feel like i dont fit in anywhere and no one will love me,1 just bought a car and my impending fatherhood is affecting my judgement out with plan of a 0ci and in with a rav,0 dadi iyal and you ll get familiar with twitter pretty soon i m not coming back this summer so that mean i dont even see you then,0 @jaymoskovitz Thanks! I will! hopefully we'll get a chance to bring then down soon.,0 lilbucknuts not an option,0 really enjoyed moviei fifteen movie came could relate movie would show kids let know feelings normal funny see could devestated things young agewho knew would bounce backagain againgreat movie,0 @buzzfrog Not one day too soon ,0 gen z culture dms redacted study wrote ago basically overexamination things friend sent me really meant serious enjoy qad quaque alternis die meaning every day direct message send oneonone messages to redacted colloquial english term cum pronounced km reference upandcoming gen z teenage culture subcategory includes interesting phenomenon male teenagers try best increasingly risky terms phrases cum informal expression semen ejaculated man orgasm increasingly popular term within last decade galvanized genzers one many words used disrupt social status quo gen z culture phenomena generally explained early childhood genderdifferentiated social relations clashed 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gen z culture dms redacted ended blocked main messaging platform seen previous entries may take us years entirely learn nuances gen z culture continued immersion means continue learn expand knowledge gen z,0 i think i am having a nervous breakdown i need help i have too much going on i cant even get into detail i had a panic attack and i kept hitting myself in the face it 0am right now i dont want to say whats going on particularly but i have absolutely nobody there for me or anybody willing to help i had a panic attack about minute ago it am a im writing this right now i got up from my bed and walked into the bathroom and i got into the bathtub and sat down and stared at the wall for minute i dont know where my head is ive been sitting here for 0 minute now i really need help right now ive never posted anything like this to a subreddit or any other website so this is almost a last resort for me,1 hey reddit sorry much really know else turn advice would helpfulone closest friends since going lot recently open feelings happened always said feels like life worth living talked since reached last month hanging lot since thenhowever told beginning year sexually assaulted immediate family member since traumatised developed redflag told rest family happened wanted press charges hear perpetrator age think main reason feeling way told always quite close mother who want press charges since living refuge cannot stand around family understandably means cannot even try call emergency services come location places give address even residentsshe seems like go found spending money friends buying people gifts sounds like amazing person always people feels like matter say do enough someone thought things understand completely also told one friends bought equipment commit suicide planning next week she specify day want anyone stopping her tried get mother earlier today pressing charges availi spent lot time recently felt really good seeing catching many years like never left to reconnected one old buddies too since told us part bucket list really know cannot even thin straight trying ask anyone know advice situation horrible one cannot even fathom feels wrong even trying look way help insistent planning doif helps advice live uk advice help whatsoever would greatly appreciated m friend f planning kll next week know,1 feel strong enoughafter years medication trying focus making better person thought finally it course bad days depression would slip make want horrible things finally thought control it today friends attempted get graphic design field university today day found results graphic design years father designer runs department ive learned everything him ive drawing whole life passion father best friend best critic and usually harshest critic years sometimes feel like one truly honest me something look right afraid tell me friends looking stuff great get wrong sometimes feel bad say anything negative pieces teacher great job reviewing too seemed afraid hurting feelings took portfolio father spending weeks compiling works organizing way thought perfect dad went found many mistakes entire spring break spent fixing them believed proud hard work this loved drawings graphic works put even paid printed completely unexpected today went friends go pick portfolios week since turned ive felt extremely sick week nervous was competitive program one takes lots work stay in friend gather outside teachers office behind everyone else want rude watch facial expression hands student portfolio grin face states name usually something notice expression changed got me even say name handed goddamn folder think knew afraid look friends pulling congratulation letters mine horrible thank applying but letter work meet professional standards portfolio show attention detail hate words actually proud something done once something thought best work ever produced yet good enough friends wanted look portfolio course wanted look theres keep tears back forever told go im ashamed say let emotions get better threw away portfolio way door got back apartment locked office life still since cant control anything anymore life seems pulsating keep going anger happiness sadness nothing sometimes single minute even tell father phone text course called right away tried make feel better could hear disappointment voice failed him failed everyone boss recently gave logo wanted design now im even right person it feel like lost someone close me partners face filled tears since got news know do im everyones disappointment morning cant sleep feel sick life put halt graphic design life like taken away me purpose idea go ill change major drop college know do taking everything power slit wrists burn myself remember physical pain distracts horrible mental abuse want gone hate myselfsleep bring nightmares life bring dissapointments death bring could bring happiness true happiness bullshit happy pill happiness kind joy read about know sorry friends post know else right now situation proven difficult bare im sorry im sunrises well thank love goodbye,1 notice im losing itmy freaking boyfriend always busy something blame him hes chipper productive dude notice much pain im in actually talk much general anymore hard get full attention either way would it send away mystery miss company much left today injured neck barely move ive bed day eaten yet really plan it keep suicidal thoughts even though im brave enough anything them sometimes feel like people miss much hardly even talk first fucking place goes everyone missing nothing ive lost all,1 battle insidei cut yesterday talked hospital full threatening unfriendly females manipulative little girl inside put happy face explained huge misunderstanding blood pressure high due anxiety didnt like put treated looked none full judgment full disdain full everything someone mental illness despises treated differently locked rooms chairs curtains security guess softer gentler psych wards treating like illness like caged animal needs tamed smiled nodded answered questions correctly politely thoughts violence swirled head yet never came mouth would thought well put together person could dark inside yet come across well spoken joke laugh nurses doesnt meet criteria heard say yes yes know respond okay misunderstanding one really knows meaning periodic suicidal ideation give papers walked doors ubered way home took valium sliced leg pain valium kicked brain shut fuck peaceful silence warmth blood dripping leg medication hit solace shortlived even hours later back vengeance hurt hang die die die dont deserve live children deserve way better mother dont die dont traumatize deserve much better one wants deal talk return calls messages pay people listen pay people care well least broken things left behind broke broken hearts broken dreams broken little girl could much stronger everyone criticizes everyone talks dislike someday someday going win going die,1 blanking age legit cannot remember completely ambivalent figuring out care wanting figure fix reason care anyone else multiple mini breakdowns week like mini mini cuz often driving tear soon single tear falls done feeling gone numb next hours still left realization feel like shit memory feeling idk disassociating toxic masculinity thing fuck sucks forgot ranted,1 i m and my anxiety ha been getting worse and worse a i fly towards adulthood at mach i ve started carrying around a plush of one of my favorite character it really comforting i want to start brining it to school because that s where a lot of anxiety happens but i don t know if i ll be able to ignore everyone s judging eye doe anyone else do this is it a healthy coping mechanism,1 had an awesome night at the bruecks! thanks kristi & bart!!!! can't wait until you have your house smelling all yummy! ,0 when you've got a fever and then caused u a depression,1 @espyon going to work LMAO srsly. >_< iono dancei suppose :],0 got suspended bus week cant go school bus driver claims wasnt wearing seatbelt really way could see waist driving instead talking immediately calls dad tells dad im suspended week get home noting happened dad goes cant go school without getting trouble go what goes cant wear seatbelt bus suspended bus week cant go school proceeds beat living hell me neck back hurt like hell now really hate house,0 poor achieve happyim transgender cant afford medical transition seen treated wrong gender everyday cant afford fix it ive redflag plans mapped long remember life lately ive lost hope someday real me,1 having depression or any mental illness rather is not a sign of weakness it doe not limit and determine your capability and worth to break the stigma we should all learn to be more compassionate with one another,1 i have been suffering from what i can only imagine is some kind of fairly severe depression for almost year now i m sorry if this post is hard to read i m new to redit and have been reading post in this sub and it just made me feel moved to share my story to start off my depression started almost year ago i wa in a wonderful relationship with this beautiful girl i had met in highschool and i had moved away to college but i still came home every weekend to see her everything wa going great and then over the course of a few week or month i don t even remember how it really started i just began to get more and more depressed at first i didn t think anything of it i m the middle child of other boy we grew up with a very abusive father until i wa when my mom took u and left and i just always through depression wa something only weak people got and i never fully understood it although now i know that my real father struggled while mental illness and sever depression anyway back to my story every in my life wa going great i had made new friend in college and my relationship wa going great i just could feel myself becoming more and more closed off and lonely even though i wa surrounded by amazing friend and family i began to fight with my girlfriend because she could tell i wa being distant we started to fight more and more the the distance only made it worse when i finally did open up to her all she knew to do wa tell her mother with made me miserable i hated that fact that i thought someone saw me a weak and i started to dread seeing her and her family a couple month into my depression and my girlfriend ha become the only person who truly know how i feel and is the only person i ever confide in then one day a close friend of my girlfriend commented suicide this absolutely destroyed her she became extremely depressed and started to have suicidal thought i then pushed all my problem aside and did my best to help her through her issue i took her to counseling and did everything i could to help her but she slowly got better and wa never the same and now with u both being depressed our relationship became miserable neither one of u were happy and we thought that if we split up maybe we would be able to find some joy in our life again so we broke up in made and these last 0 month have been the worst of my life she wa my best friend and the only person in the world i have ever loved it s gotten easier these past few month but i have lost all joy in my life everything i used to love i have no passion for anymore i m still in college but i don t every compete any off my work i never go to class i hardly ever sleep ill go or night sleeping maybe hour a night then ill just sleep hour straight i find no meaning in life anymore i just feel this giant empty hole in my chest that i can t feel my grandmother died last month we were extremely close and i never even shed a tear the rest of my family wa balling and i wa just sitting there with no emotion i m never happy i m not even sad i just feel absolutely nothing almost every other night i put my pistol to my head just hoping it ll go off because i m not man enough to actually pull the trigger i ve tried to move on and tried to get better i just don t know what to do and i have no one to tell i transferred college so i lost all the friend i had and i m too embarrassed to tell me family i ve read every self help book i can find and nothing doe it for me i just keep praying that one day soon god will take me off this earth because i don t know how to keep living like this i m sorry if this is too long and i know i jump around a lot and everything may not make sense i just wanted to get this off my chest and i m thankful there is a place for me to,1 doctor second song jack stauber even sad makes want cry also young folks one part buzz love song im becoming sensitive every day,0 @AlanAlston last time gaming was in any way cool was when they named it after Scottish rally drivers ,0 JUST WOKE UP !!!! WITH ANAÃ?S ,0 crush dedicated song me so problem she problem song song bts i problems bts name song friends so mean feel pretty happy also feel sad well sad feel friendzoned,0 film too know actually put scene in way back school trip in stopped service station time film asked the whole us run shout go freebird around years old could anyone seen film tell part actually kept film would great know remember thought film never come out another half years released comments seem good im guessing quite successful film might buy it first would like know im it d thank,0 youre ever sad remember youre world glam punk love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love,0 dont think anyone caresim already think redflag almost every day school friends seem tolerate talk enough isnt conversation times people really talk one else talk know less important wont ignore them worst part theyre right insignificant even though know fake ill still go along even call shit things fat hide emotions everyone always feel terrible think people think im happy joke try make people happy somehow makes feel less insignificant partly matter even though doesnt people talk make plans go im room invite me think might actually go one day dont want drive family insane deep think im much pussy go anyway sorry long text hardly ever tend write lots time,1 m my head wa so fucked up last night i wa in physical pain i live alone parent dead no family no s o i wa just lying in my bed sober and dark thought i can t explain the pain other than it felt like gravity wa working x hard i wanted to go to the liquor store and drown myself in alcohol but somehow i resisted the urge until they closed somehow i wa able to fall asleep for a couple hour now it s morning i guess i survived another night for now,1 girl pretty evil making sun feel insecure hotness lt ampxb gtok cheesy admit itlt,0 im sad anymore still want diei depressed maybe year kinda kept hid pretty well slowly got worse worse started seriously consider redflag hid pretty well friends started notice something wrong me one night got really drunk finally told one friends feeling told rest friends took see counselor show support great everyone come ive seeing counselor ever since ive feeling lot happier lately reason cant shake wanting die thought going see counselor becoming happy life would solution been want live life happy want live life depressed really know point,1 ive seen dads browser history dad ipad thats always living room phone charging room searching something chilling couch side bar thing open bookmarks decided jokingly check history full prn nothing prn several days stepdaughter prn thank god doesnt daughter choking prn bunch types prn dont even know time watch it sits downstairs night goes bed mom room cant jack cause always stay later come couple times per night water letting cat backyard bit since quarantine hes never really home alone long enough im disturbed discovery im lying awake bed,0 @organiclemon @SeanSaid_ #irishmed t2. Stigma even different amongst different diagnosis. BPD seems to attract more stigma compared to depression,1 @ReneeCarrollAZ @KyleKashuv These snowflakes would NOT have survived the Great Depression or WWII!! pic.twitter.com/yPbLtfQYgS,1 am january rn time across globe,0 anyone listening suicidal well small ways help yourselfif loneliness invite anyone even slightly want talk to join coffee shop somewhere else wifi super low stress easy spend time another person added benefit hot drinks food playing laptop plenty people would love that boredom join volunteer program never obligated stay get new experiences meet helpful people want travel go wwoof net live almost anywhere world free exchange helping farm toxic people life give people time day thats possible little keeping busy sometimes hard answer may need change scenery away people moving one stressful things work get settled,1 Visiting christina at starbucks! Those are all natalie's drinks jussss keeddeerr http://mypict.me/2jUI,0 battle clock rolls november over brave souls may put rest fight over survived nut november passed lay burdens enjoy fruits labor failed stay strong try next year time celebrate rejoice worst behind us go leave place enjoy yourselves earned it wish joy december,0 @nadiazh hehehe how did i miss it all these years?! glad to know someone shares my sense of humor ,0 emotional support time im girl therapist try help need it information distributed ill give honest point view ill even try give advice also im help avoid problems,0 @Kath1213 I have enough body hair to qualify. ,0 missing my boyfriend who im on the phone with but it just not the same tweet,0 ballinbitch haha im not that ballin i still got bill to paaaaay,0 something clear americans racist trigger happy bad people ive seen alot people thinking memeing lately id like say america isnt actually complete hell hole,0 im gonna try jump tomorrow morningwish luck,1 guess got girlfriend me,0 is not looking forward to class and work tomorrow,0 broke glasses broo cannot believe it every single glasses had broke break streak right dumb cant,0 @Caromans Oh yes! Hips I have but no waist. Just go straight up and down Nightmare buying clothes to fit ,0 scaredim unhappy time matter fix end anxious depressed thats life is hate like know isnt going get better less anxiety inducing older get stomach covered bruises punching gut distract self hatred keep fantasizing distancing family friends forget kill without anyone caring sad want future cant see ever one know see therapist get medicated dont want let family wasting money im stupid pick stop pathetic im really scared dont know actually want die really dont want alive anymore dont know do,1 thoughts dreamsso ramen od day went sleep would call dream endless free fall remember screaming help me husband told didnt scream all,1 skunkie sorry i guess sarcasm is hard to show in 0 character,0 doing a few upgrades and updates ,0 to preface i would like to apologize in advance for any posting informality this is my first reddit post i just graduated university in may of 0 and received a job at a global digital marketing agency agency life a a first job wa too emotionally taxing for my well being and gave me extremely bad performance anxiety i quit this job right before the start of 0 and have been looking for a job since i briefly had a job in february of 0 however a close friend of mine offed himself and i wa fired for taking time off to grieve due to this i started taking prozac and visiting a therapist once a week thing were going fine until i decided to drink on prozac one night and have a psychotic episode this episode caused me to get extremely aggressive towards my roommate for no reason i wa running down a list of accusation some true and some untrue however my girlfriend worried for the safety of my roommate decided to slap me in hope to end the episode terrible idea i know amp we have no history of domestic abuse this lead me into a meltdown where i called the cop trying to get her arrested for assault along with spewing false detail of thing that i wa hallucinating the cop soon realized i wa having an episode and luckily didn t press charge and talked me somewhat down from being aggressive once they left i packed up every item i own and drove hour to my family s house i don t remember anything until i wa almost finished packing my stuff i severely hurt my roommate and girlfriend i don t think about coming back because of how overwhelming the guilt will feel i m not sure what i should do and my brain is focusing on the permanent solution i guess the reason for this post is to ask for any advice or tip i didn t want to drone on regarding other incident so i ll leave a list below of what s happened in the past year cut off abusive parent experienced a few other meltdown due to work school stress lost a ton of friend due to self isolation took too many psychedelics which ha given me bad general anxiety wa arrested and impulsively moved halfway around the u before i wa ready to amp x 00b life for the past year ha gone continuously downhill for me i can t realistically see a way out of this,1 movie utterly hilarious cast clicks immediately frame one takes us wonderful ride spoofing gangster films conflict brother vs brother appears johnnys brother becomes dogooder da however best character johnnys crimelord rival overly accented moroni johnny says that man arrested butchering english languagebr br check video worth look,0 depression fucking everything quit different jobs mechanic lawncare seem redflagful caused suicidal thoughts sky rocket need something low redflag likely low redflag jobs,1 im losing hopehello joined subreddit need talk it cant talk friend dont want stressed whatever id rather talk and wont talk parents im crybaby recently death seems appealing everything problems im ptsd everyday mind torturing things like youre faking it youre worthless nobody would care died im going university tomorrow cant stop thinking everything ever experienced past happen university blamed friends point parents might think im unstable see state world honestly think unfair shitty world left behind even though sometime find beautiful things laying there ptsd avoid many things point ridiculous cant stop thinking none us free point think time rest die huge abandonment issues point someone doesnt act way millisecond stress think leave dont know im expecting putting here writing things way coping everything,1 Me: what's wrong?My girl: *looks up at me with look of depression and stress on her face**Me: same babe same. #examseason,1 last time posted got yeeted bot mistakenly think clairvoyant annoying set record clear actually clairvoyant joke making fun clairvoyant clairvoyance comes many forms perceived user differently way lets begin understanding means clairvoyant good place start clairvoyant crystal balls meditating spoopy persona tarrot cards clairvoyant seeing presently infront you opening eyes see infront today infront tomorrow right mindset simply put seeing future rather inferring without personal desires interveining warp see day dreams clairvoyance capable done without gimmicks bullshit would normally see anyone clairvoyant well debatable experience depends person long right mindset good logic inferring skills observant world around without bias yes anyone clairvoyant makes different regular thought materializes vision happens start infer happen accurate details world build problem people desire takes over desire warps truth vision results day dreams nonobtainable nature warping vision think clairvoyant annoying well simplified list personal complaints clairvoyance control get visions idea day vision take place for somewhere weeks next day vision give take outliers year never know event im supposed seeing always see aftermath event know train get better accurate visions happens night im asleep nothing annoying knowing something happen knowing knowing activate clairvoyance train get information get wrong cool knowing power sucks knowing use want to much free time stuff could used gaining knowledge future events prepare them makes feel like im wasting power getting full potential it clairvoyant like like lucid dream spectator part event imagine movie inside out headquarters without control panel thats accurate way imagine clairvoyant like,0 idk fuckin sad time tired miserable time imnot feeling guilty angry sad sleeping probably going rewatch eat goldfish eventually perish,1 "@Mark_H WOW! OK, I'm feeling motivated now. ",0 hate the waiting game she hate uncertainty too,0 day recommending songs like rteenagers httpsyoutubeerhxkxm day far,0 @Dannaca_Lynn idk.. ? that sounds good tho. what other movies? ,0 "@audaciouslady Hey, AL.. Have U tried search.twitter.com ? Adding hashtag (ex #Disability ) in front of words finds likeminded tweeple ",0 amelia torode have fun shopping but bear in mind the horrible forex truth http bit ly khbn,0 last sandra bullock indeed beautiful woman ive finally found film gets actress forget predictable keanufodder speed forget predictable kleenexfodder sleeping tests herbr br and great technofeminist role really works well screen subject close bone issues raised seem farfetched whole experience helped along fine supporting cast makes quite unnerving couple hoursbr br you may never enter another chatroom again fact im getting quite nervous writing reviewerbye,0 finally itgot psychiatrist day maybe meds ease thoughts anxiety idk wish luck guess,1 miss her miss watching tiktok gist babe even though use tiktokbut cant cus lives different state,0 know dude made doom pregnancy test imagine hes single goes buying pregnancy test cashier says oh think wifes pregnant replies want play doom,0 racist subreddits exist noticed lot subreddits rules racism immoral things subreddit racist would imagine would get taken down even freedom speech allows things like that anyways wondering subreddit rules like allow condone racism,0 last daytoday last day pretty boring honestly im okay it feel like im peace way gun put down feels really surreal im gonna go tonight people sub awesome previous deleted posts every one extremely kind ive seen way people treated great im sorry im one bad cases cest la vie thanks reading did,1 morning all st appointment of the day the dentist,0 my doctor said they d like to talk about my bloodwork so i have an appointment tomorrow of course this wa this morning and now my brain is gone to over drive i spent all day sleeping with no motivation to eat drink get up i managed to get a bath but i also have a test tomorrow that i need studying for that call could just be anything but i m worried it s something absolutely terrible anyone else feel like this any advice,1 friends turn to want alone anymoreis advice give make friends in person,1 feel lostim lost stuck anxious cant move anything lost friend fucked upim barely talking friends almost year ago still cry it motivation negatives need pick major college clue start interests abilities show social anxiety fucking sucks worry much worry becoming adulthow many things keep track of keep job manage money raise kids right reason im right dog completely attached cant leave her means much me im scared future idea im going do want world barely scraping lifejust waiting next paycheck wish could stop time sit think figure everything apologize messy is monologue thats source anxiety think now keeping night sometimes think quiet would nicejust real peaceful nothing worry about,1 karma hit today cakes make,0 breaks heart talking family members love meim genuinely grateful family know care me ive alone away family another country years got chance talk couple havent seen zoom call got emotional cried call really love people want die know dont want hide keep pretending like care career im invested world dont want wicked enough bring try make convince keep living im done ready die zoom call cousin called tried ask issues tell im suicidal really wish could tell family desire die would oblige im scared hurting living life daily hurting know im ungrateful im genuine say really want die nothing life thanks reading sharing thoughts help,1 storyim disabled air force vet got injured states commuting base recovering bed rest watching cnn one day two names people went tech school listed killed action afsc im like them expert marksmanship badge due lineage prepared warfare depressed ever since feel instead them and stronger would able take pain injury theyd still alive still blame deaths find state selfloathing regret wish instead them think ill ever forgive myself,1 guys got oculus quest im getting vrchat help prepare do go questions need answering,0 Watching my DVR.. Conan! http://bit.ly/1mahf8,0 still think funny people got mad simple toy called mrpotato head,0 @stevenreilly7 you'll have to come done to Fresno so you can come with everyone to the premier and we can celebrate our bdays ,0 think timewell bois im place life happy af instead im worst state ive ever in think tonight night goes down ill drink gin red bull get going tons isopropyl ethyl alcohol hand cleaners fuck insides ive trying figure get hell hole people call earth long time finally think way wish luck everyone im wondering im going get glimpse god empty void im ready find out good bye everyone love know miss wounds heal,1 free sat class scorer hey guys im gonna free class next week became consistent scorer hit want join want give back sub gave much me,0 care anymorea ago mental breakdown tried open family it sister criticized cleaning apartment said took everything get day ants uncles either believe mental illness friends moved lost contact nobody even takes seriously tell abusive past control finances getting harder keep going feel like every possible turn moment people keep kicking im down idk one probably see thing feel numb pain care,1 @HaylieK awww your lil dogs are well cute ,0 everything better past days even childrens television fraggle rock proves point quite easily time writing comment fourteen years old even teen years cant resist charm fraggle rock indeed living rock haha fraggle rock horde playful goofy creatures called fraggles liveamazinglyin rock theyre creatures rock inhabited many species like hardworking doozers countless living plants outside rock one side live inventorscientist doc dog sprocket who later befriends gobo fraggle side family gorgssupposed rulers universe five main fraggles gobo fearless leader mokey arty peaceful wembley indecisive friend gobo boober a pessimistic domestic god red loves anything sport general feistynessget caught strange situations episode time sing dance cares awaybr br fraggle rock definitely family showthe plots may intricate details infants may follow well songanddance routines hold attention characters strong likable conflicts believable adventures thrilling gorgs frightening doc sprocket enlightening uncle travelling matt hilarious the postcard segments s final episode change address genuinely touching lets go fraggle rock again,0 want die thats things seem headingi want die want go want leave people care behind feel like thats im headed feeling wake morning bed nice comfy maybe even bit sick tell i want get up want go class want go work matter many times tell this know eventually going get needs done feel like right now part taken inevitability waiting time find making lose plans part fighting back trying throw many safeguards can suicidal part control find slipping messages help me conversations nobody ever listens nobody comes help rational mind control find unconsciously making small preparations war head really tearing apart cant anything times liesit mechanically go whatever needs happen big career fair school week even manage go depression hit hard even though know need go need get job next summer even make next summer im making positive change world existence hurts people good like guy last week feel like im attoning terrible things ive done know things cant change know hurt people future im writing someone sense control right now know thoughts including suicidal ones mine it know much longer get myself,1 since posted hereeverything felt like could cope since last post gran died yesterday told idiot feeling way unrelated things thought dad finally done something nice dug vinyl basement ive talking past two years turns sister suddenly shown interest today feeling great me feel fucking stupid feeling again exactly last post like justified feel way thought could cope now thought id worked now im tired feeling stupid second best feel like matter anyone would difference dead,1 actual fuck supposed get white arabian horse cant fucking find rdr btw,0 friend lowkey like idk im sure randomly complimented makeup snapchat groupchat asked ab school thing guys basically gf now sorry tell yall,0 hopelessi spent last minutes phone national redflag prevention hotline aside asking questions are alone planning hurting yourself etc person talked really repeated said id say health issuesliving situationsrelationship affecting drastically said back was sounds like youre healthfinancialrelationship issues ask repeat literally said afterwards offering words advice even a itll get better kept asking repeat myself towards end call essentially said dont think theres much you okay enough right get phone dont know do feel stuck almost every way be im trying hard get license get job help myself keep uncontrolled seizures im scared ill never able help myself anxiety crippled point dont think ill able get job handle appropriately matter badly want to boyfriend says hes going break finances though doesnt pay anything dollars scrape together give continue home im homeless trying pay insulin food meds seizures hsv medication im trying break every second day disappoint dad ending it feel fucking hopeless scared dont think keep this feel brain deteriorating constant stress sadness anger anxiety memory bad cant even remember key parts conversation morning even with im breaking smallest things ive lost pounds month half dont know do dont want keep living like,1 anyone advice pussying last minutei know sub promoting redflag need know,1 sleeping good better living lifemy brain foggy recently ive finding hard remember things think properly apologies isnt well written slept day night yesterday like wasnt even more intermittent dreams blank space didnt even feel hungry little thirsty quick meal drink go back bed see sleep day night again feels good better emptiness sadness anxiety awake like living life camera hurts heart sleeping like used warn things be wants im awake end looming always ahead me sleeping feels great dreamt beach girl happy getting haircut,1 yo one cali hear dat lightning loud heck shaking house pretty crazy fires too gods finna pull balloon td battles lightning fire magic wizzard upgrade,0 anyone else get caught noteive mentally unwell yearsim medicated still frequently suicidal ive made three serious lifethreatening attempts handful halfhearted attempts years feel like frequently get caught note ive written dozen never feels adequate never feels worth happen anyone else feel like could get adequate excessive felt melodramatic explanation people whod upset could go it,1 @witxhcraft__ aye my depression was that bad i couldn't improve it through counselling so i had to start taking fluoxetine (which to my relief has worked wonders and i'm a much better person for it),1 the worst thing about depression is that you'll always feel empty or alone regardless of anything.,1 im tiredi never thought years would enough put knees looks like handle sometimes think im baby trying get comfort tantrum actually thats feel times im sad cause shouldnt know support family couple caring friends decent grades even mind fucked up everything near perfect somehow anxiety always takes maybe dont really love couple friends side pity really wanted could good student ive trying find antidepressant works me im getting tired pills take sleep doesnt seem work anymore come this used depressed functional need least hour leave bed seriously pathetic geez ive trying im getting tired days weeks go by need good day real smile unexpected hug something remind alive sorry horrible grammar puntiation etc gotta blame autocorrector that tho,1 @EdenCainx @fayelizabethxo_ And add mental health as a reason for absence n cedar. Little things like that and training teachers properly on how to spot children suffered from depression/anxiety,1 Supporting a partner with #depression? Here are 18 tips https://buff.ly/2oKiwiv  pic.twitter.com/De3m1XYuq4,1 caught fiance cheating again were less four months away thought going make it want face future anymore fault stupid really thought going make it caught texting people times went therapy life moved on decided get away maryland away drama found thyroid cancer texting people surgery thyroid removed whole time hes telling theres nothing worry about loves me focused us relationship entire wedding planned paid for every surface apartment covered engagement photos initials everything said loved it said loved me feel disgusting fat filthy alone really thought finally made it really thought future life look forward to nothing nothing want feel alone worthless anymore nothing helping want gone way know would work id right pills synthroid tums im second floor hurt bad,1 health uandpets saw the one with a gsd covered in them and i could not stop cry i just bawled and bawled,0 pointbeing sober hurts,1 think im gonna todayschool horrible cant switch online either im taking bunch pills get shower tonight,1 want die cant draw portraits art class correctwhy like,1 family member tried overdose paracetamolthey took paracetamols dont know mg mg sure severity likelihood pull anyone knows,1 yall wanna joke me im joke laugh end free trial life,0 vampire weekend rockkkssssssssssss! ,0 pm pm reddit crush promise tell lol,0 please help guy outfound rconfession op seems unstable recent redflag attempts httpswwwredditcomrconfessioncommentsteakwe_planned_on_getting_engaged_as_soon_as_we_turnstjisgthzampshff,1 growing late s s could help become fan science fiction americas space program top gear scifi books movies tv shows comic books fueled imagination opened mind possibilities exist universe farscape unlike scifi show yet ingredients made shows like star trek battlestar gallatica xfiles deep space nine personal favorites one criticisms farscape casual viewer cant jump watch one episode understand going on successful shows used multiple episode story arcs complicated characters one charms show need want story tied neatly end every episode like various incarnations star trek done all farscape wonderful funny characters running storyline says although humans may least evolved advanced intelligent species universe still unique qualities abilitiesbr br unfortunately shortsighted people scifi channel canceled farscapes th season stated cancellation based sagging ratings yet years ago top rated original series critical favorite shame artists help create show unable continue labor love fiscal problems channelcompany made possible first placebr br hey take word it watch show watch reruns make mind help save farscape,0 getting ready for great day st louis. tune at 10am on kmov!! we will be talking about getting great pictures on your wedding day. ,0 im bored lets basics age gender height weight zodiac sign first name birthday favorite things favorite color favorite food favorite music genre favorite song favorite movie favorite tv show favorite animal favorite thing lifeexperience hobbies sports future job ambitions drank smoked done drugs pets best memory embarrasing moment dream vacation looks hair style hair color eye color body type build ethnicity current outfit favorite outfit type underwear wear relationships sexuality relationship status crush celebrity crush ever cheated someone ideal girlfriend boyfriend idea perfect date asked anyone sex sexuality virgin anyone seen naked tattoos piercings sex experience ever sent nude ever sexted ever kissed anyone attractive sexual nsfw bra dick size pubic hairnatural trimmed shaved none body hair guys only circumsiced often masturbate last time masturbate ever watched porn ideal sexual physical attributes favorite sexual fantasy turns turns misc send dm chat message ask whatever like cant say no ask one,0 this doesn t help my depression,1 possible start online business able afford dream car college student hello guys currently im college student studying intelligent systems engineering like computer science time school hear people age able afford expensive cars not makes want able get deal essentially found starting business would great side hustle outside school since limited hours need do thanks professors anywho heard many different opportunities make money profitable decently profitable like example dropshipping teespring shopify investingday trading ect lot choices decide on idk think do obviously want worth time money starting business also want able able pay school enough money pay new car so general best method making money online afford things want to thanks much,0 waa late times month late minutes times month parents taking away stuff really fucking nice wake min earlier leave school min earlier usually wake leave ,0 song uis_sex_real httpsopenspotifycomtrackalzbskhqvpespirjjqbrsibccdhttpsopenspotifycomtrackalzbskhqvpespirjjqbrsibccd skrrt cobain arcadia grey like songs energy guitar,0 im jump story buildingim angry upset way things are longer contendedness patience case wondering false rape accusation loss everything everyone see happy lifefuture young guy thought anyone,1 i love this place add me "pkuhl" http://tinyurl.com/coojk9,0 cat feline leukemia know could get how are two days ago everything ok it know found theres vaccine idk afford it were pretty poor hes also cat keep away others think mom knows btw knows theres risk hell die know virus exactly idk think this,0 i just have random racing thought about the past song etc mostly it s just a constant ear worm it s a bit annoying but i can deal with it but a lot of thought about the past have made me cry due to the nostalgia aspect of it not sure if this is anxiety or something else,1 feel wayi depression years recently started treat it feel like want kill even depression gone im exhausted putting effort life,1 tried hanging today overdosed sleeping pillsif reading may already gone heres last words go fucking hate world bullshit im tired it im done getting made fun depression clothes looks cuts arm nobody fucking cares me even friends talk shit interests im failing school teachers hate me know ill never get job wanted im gonna dirty hobo street begging money get something eat theres really meaning life ill never find happiness goes away im back this nothing fucking works mental hospitals therapy anime video games nothing fucking works im lowly stupid insignificant human cant anything right goodbye reddit everyone hope everyone gets,1 assisted redflag vs redflag vs outward harmneed get chest context much fucking shit going on reaction would really love leave fucking world want hurt piss off want people try help suffer invulnerability towards solving issues want immediate family friends bear burden intentional redflag would really love leave fucking world peacefully,1 advice friend friend asked girl right moved away long distance freshman said perfect distance could difficult wants continue pursuing together ignoring elephant room tips him answer questions,0 "@Popehat @zentropy_ @bhodichaya Oh god, give me a fucking break. Depression manifests itself in a wide variety of ways, including a propensity for hate.",1 anyone else feel jealous see classmate shiny new phonetablet do ive got fomo sensation pretty much every student class gotten new smartphonetablet classmates due upgrade havent gotten yet,0 rarely write reviews film simply demands attention gets contains hysterical kidnapping gone comically wrong sequence ever filmedbr br i seen found funniest film ever privilege watch laughed beginning end shame dvd videobr br you compare cinematography mad mad mad mad world promise anything storyline nearly complex mad worldbr br i hope near future film released would shame lose comedy gem amongst dregs nowadays,0 happy christmas everybody president teens used powers come executive decision skip august september october november year pretty bad declared today th december christmas day,0 weight loss egirl day ive working unofficially week im going start losing weight end goal egirl anyways kicking official count lbs thats today kind hard avoid sweets shit im posting case actually go say,0 join please would quest formless entities ill bring snacks,0 wonder what white supremists have to say about this I abhor racists. http://bit.ly/Rd31F,0 home alone weekend producing bad thoughtsi home alone weekend dog sitting keep thinking would perfect time end it one around im going to something occupying thoughts,1 @anca_n That's sweet of u. And you're a sungirl too ,0 dont want support want someone listen acknowledge sayim bad person narcissistic also time selfdeprecating piece shit im fat unhygienic unmanly horrible personality people like call friend dont know standards super low what wish heart tell much appreciate fact like me wish would ignore go better friends time feels like knife going chest see talk people im selfish need approval even wont much get jealous see men around me theyre confident responsible beaten lot uncles kid tell one feels remorse actions since hes nice years trying buy expensive things whatever abuse ripped apart every inch manhood had wasnt strong wasnt dignified wasnt brave ive bonded sisters men ive met life understood abuse gone well however could bit stoic times abuse ive grown trust many people extremely anxious shy hear family members schoolmates etc talk lack ambition im reserved feminine im good kids sorry cant speak room full people sorry face flushes red name called sorry feel comfortable alone days visiting family fault sitting back supporting abuse younger every time took one step far id threatened thought good way control me father died vulnerable beating threatening violence two things definitely doing punches thrown tears ive shedded lashes belts benefit even then father probably wouldnt treated nicer still alive point im runt family now im stupid weak shy manly enough cant like fucking doctor aunts lawyer uncles id kill didnt two sisters friends care im happy sisters success still hurts good job graduating suma cum laude gpa degrees mathematics electrical engineering cried tears joy happy night could make proud did,1 single greatest movie ever seen daveymr slaussen simultaneouslybr br tortured talents eg i control it can hiiiide it feeeeeeeeeels goodbr br desperate make friends egbr br hows soupbr br the soup goodbr br would like crackers soupbr br id like crackers pleasebr br hows thatbr br yes soup goodbr br proud accomplishments eg pretty neat trick huhbr br ladies man eg youre pretty like me andbr br sometimes very angry eg you cant get awaybr br connors received academy award best actor movie mean possibly better tanya roberts rocketed stratosphere following performance tt wonder stars masterpiece go brilliant careers highly highly recommend film available amazoncom everyone it make night bowl soup watch,0 recap business usual louches casino tanger casino close prepares big transaction next day owner louche staff leave night leaving modesty charge suddenly troop armed gangsters storm casino shooting wildly unknown modesty already killed louche money hidden vault one present still alive casino knows code open vault vault heavily booby trapped explosives assailants cant blow door planned suddenly modesty finds eye eye gangsters leader miklos game roulette lives jeopardybr br comments review written connection ever published media modesty blaise neither seen read it first point like make slightly wrongfully classified foremost thought thriller battle wits modesty miklos main plot sure bursts action really integral important part storybr br as already mentioned main plot main suspensefilled scene game modesty miklos innovative intriguing way revealing background character much story takes place outside casino much earlier time someone said almost like pilot tvseries feeling might indeed used such but felt much better way introduce character many done way disappointed lack action instead enjoyed game history much simple action moviebr br i think two main stars alexandra staden nikolaj coasterwaldau well staden especially portrays modesty well really carries confident talented characterbr br ,0 "Ion think I'll ever forget my mom telling me depression is for the weak, no wonder she refused to let me see a therapist ",1 "Coming up around 7:30pm CST, photos from the Crookston, MN high school graduation ceremony!!!! I know, but you'll just have to wait ",0 people think garbage garbage let take,0 met palm reader goes ah see ah yes see forest disaster occur shortly quite soon actually even see coming fucking spits hand,0 m diagnosed depression anxiety suicidal thoughts years planso know thought posting reading id give attention severe posts lame ass one ive suicidal thoughts since ish never anything it however times ive made plans gave circumstances id kill myself never meet criteria times ill knife ready pussy whimp out gave overall plan within coming years years old if killed anyways solid band following music reliable wifepossible family steady career ill then need one work out really fucking dumb im lonely desperate need something work me,1 my synopsis rae christina ricci high school slut nymphomaniac connects ronnie justin timberlake fulfill needs ronnie must report national guard unit leaves rae alone rae alone long town tramp powerful need hookup man party rae taken home friend ends beating half death throws side road next day lazarus samuel l jackson finds rae carries home lazarus gives medical care rae believes also save herself rae like dog heat lazarus puts pound chain around radiator keep going looking men lazarus problems own wife left another man lazarus turns blues music relieve painbr br my comment movie deep meaning get past sex violence film different feel it story raw almost puts movie there pound chain good metaphor symbolic chastity belt give love away anyone keep true love chain could also parallel wife chained kitchen yet rae cook rae wanted sex time whereas wife may not think craig brewer writer director made extraordinary movie samuel l jackson sings mean blues song story emotionally charged tackling subjects race religion music sex one paramount classics run time rated r,0 suicidal feel life worthlesshey reddit thought id clarify things bat im suicidal though contemplated concept action several times ive never cut myself severely depressed or least think so exactly plea help advice mostly place vent thoughts honest people might willing contemplate life compexities me im years old male well average life friends successful loving family musical hobby guitar production regardless factors would normally make anybody feel content lives still find feeling sense worthlessness apathy myself humanity life general almost every moment every day dwell fact everything know ever known history life occured one small planet one small galexy endless vastness universe become extremely apathetic unambitious it life begins feel small start think deeply types things often do lately really starting hit hard species promoted self importance point feel though whole world forgotten fact planet smaller spec dust comparison even milky way let alone entire universe thoughts constantly feel though life planet completely utterly useless human race survival life completely futile illusion created around give us sort self importance purpose life question attempting answer since first abstract thoughts ever concieved personally believe real point purpose life ive already said pursuit continuation species completely futile live anybody live anybody alive nobody knows makes depressed days go thoughts constantly polluting mind maybe one days itll much ill pull trigger then thoughts subjects sorry parts or whole thing seem bit incohearent first time ive ever organized written thoughts theyre confusing jumbled head may came post also sorry spelling grammar errors typed phone,1 rad ramen today httpsimgurcomacqxcgx fuck image weekend,0 im fucking seething right now hey long read really want someone hear this please give time today mom threw science project she knew working on notified like okay okayy really snarky tone asked apologize said well mess stuff never apologize stood fuck snapped back like lightning tell one time something stuff failed apoligize looked speechless seconds since wrong could admit yelled get fuck room really glad stood bullshit one time weeks ago remember asked dishwasher minutes got call friend angry yelled threw cd case me always makes breakfast morning whole week afterward stopped making breakfast lunch kind developing ed severely affected ate nothing except dinner one night using moms phone set alarm presentation next day guess saw set alarm every day am pm labeled maki dishwasher late breakfast lunch confronted actually said tell something it wait minutes talk bullshit friends answer me left room cut later day good thing is today stood her didnt cut myself,0 gonna get worsei feeling one bother read comment im another one poor souls spilling depressive thoughts here apologize ruin day get sour mood im empty cold feel nothingness plan execution go remote forest walk deeply lost can die either exhaustion hypothermia starvation thirst natural deaths sort want rot decay moss tree roots want one chance finding body decaying corpse banquet smorgasbord creatures critters kinds want forgotten society want search parties give me want parents realize mistake me im planning taking trip tomorrow across country wilderness family camping trip may it may chance ive dreampt every night years,1 first word comes mind watching movie beauty beauty around actors play andie superb always well designed shots authors red line idea lovebr br i think kennys character white spot three womens otherwise boring predictable life interaction makes andies character living entertaining could possibly be hes gone became obvious cannot really appreciate hold inner believes sacred desiresbr br the fact andie successfully recovers loss nothing bad instead shows life prevails forms even small british village shown perfectlybr br another reason love movie british ways houses fags accents andie superb job shame movie got low marks ten,0 "Went back to my normal style of poker, lost on monday but won last night. Still up for the week though ",0 force go nothing live forhey everyone frequent lurker first time poster wanted reach guys feel like im wits end here ive gone pretty much everywhere else think of years therapy medication countless conversations family members multiple calls redflag prevention hotlines nothings really made better one able convince life worth living thats despite fact good deal stuff going me family destitute means go good school good friends get decent grades mom says id feel better ungrateful things life maybe right always seemed good things far outweighed hopelessness sadness im dealing time want good things have hate myself see indolent useless waste person goals ambitions life feel like placeholders theyre really want them theyre feel like im supposed something really want die think killing every day im tired feeling selfhatred despondence people life would probably feel sad die even though im convinced affection sorely misplaced lives would much better never entered them make people grieve do thing world want thing cant do everything feels empty hollow feel like losing drive survive know anyone say anything help feel like redflag solution life makes sense know keep going anymore,1 stumbled series rather accident half episode hooked american gothic dark strange series gary cole mysterious probably evil sheriff buck trying gain control illegitimate son caleb played lucas black impressed gary coles sinister sheriff even impressed lucas black lucas blacks caleb able stand sheriff buck one frightening characters ever created tv series rarely seen child actor much presence talent lucas black lucky enough see lucas american gothic see slingbladebr br it remarkable show many ambiguities mysteries never explained short run,0 yoasobis songs fire know jpop songs really nice go check,0 swellvintage a lot better today thanks unfortunately being sick did not mean loss of apetite for me x,0 deemaah but i thought i did not my fault that you dont pay attention to my genitals,0 goodbye hope end better meim hanging hat im done appreciate help ive gotten rdepression enough ebough take care yourselves hope find makes happy life,1 @lesliedoughty The dates are Sept. 24-27 and I will open registration very soon. I just need to finalize contract with the host hotel. ,0 got job got job fast food usually keep pretty late tips still spend time friends,0 deserve liveim pansexual apparently thats disgusting deserve die deserve die deserve die deserve die,1 mrskutcher i wa just thinking that today how deprssing it all is make u appreciate life more,0 best friends anyone friend group lonely everyone go person talk hang one them want another friend group get along well enough one get along well enough everyone least favorite friend obvious school hang whichever friends lunch classes almost never invited anything last person anyone friend group would pick sucks since winter invited hang friends twice stuff time without me feels like hang even less lost energy hide depression know bad cannot act happy one wants hang always depressed summer lonely hate rarely ever talked always hear hanging without makes sad wish better would like more friend people talk everyone else busy sucks,1 @hypnophil no biscuits here.. just bagels im gonna have tea and eat food later lol what kind of biscuits do you have?,0 guys think found soul mate crush sent hentai say is holy fuck,0 "has found and bought an awesome book today, entitled: "20 Essays Written by 20 Somethings." ",0 way outthis might sound ridiculous really bad fight boyfriend im different state visiting family staying moms house mom want stay dont want anymore feel trapped talking like couldnt hear them earlier offered take someone elses house told yes didnt want to house pretty far anyone else could stay with ive asking family get let stay house theyre asleep take medicine soon anti depressants would easy overdose dont escape right now trust know sounds ridiculous kill fight boyfriend literally choice trapped right now feel suffocated want end im sorry everything formatted typed like shit really cant bring correct anything right now id embarrassed redflag attempt survived least would get fucking house dont expect anyone read whole thing feel hopeless trapped want,1 sorry for not understanding depression intthe slightest,1 truly documentary love fascinating character outlook life extended family filmmakers spent three years taping sister helen halfway house managed capture much wonderful material help feel know sister helen boys house holds recovering addicts story almost involving sister helens ending scenes particularly involving emotionalbr br sister helens story marriage addiction loss reveals complex character whos tough love times funny touching endearingbr br the film amazing way tells story wonderful slice life sequences develop story almost clear scene scripted acted best honesty and obvious dishonesty clients involving learn fears watch attempts growbr br you never forget sister helen robert moe poor ashishspelling,0 "These are just SOME of the benefits of NEURO AEROBICS!Strengthen Immune SystemReverse, heal and prevent depression, anxiety, panic disorders, OCD,etcPrevent or dramatically slow down the progression of Dementia, Alzheimers, and other neurological disorders.Expand business pic.twitter.com/oW3x5nDmaF",1 comment ur browsing new rn yes even ur lurking pls comment see,0 "loves summer. haven't 'tweeted' in a while, been a busy bee ",0 exposed covid yall covid before im little scared get exposed school quarintine weeks im scared might happen,0 glad valentines day really like holiday couples love ive never able relate kind sad day me im happy got spend someone specially case made sad im glad thats overwith,0 wasted strippers booze hotels past yeari inherited money blue k going strip clubs taking strippers hotels short trips weekend feel like idiot complete douchebag,1 others commented somewhat strange video arrangements think trying capture looking attending live performance feet faces overall view unfortunately falls bit short but said that watching colin dunne nevertheless gratifying interesting contrast michael flatley original video progression show evident changes original dublin production evidentbr br trading taps highlight video opinion tarik winston unbelievable partner piecebr br i think audio better version original video production dolby dvd excellentbr br despite flawed videography mustown riverdance fans,0 feeling suicidali hate go details made reddit account anonymous one contacts family friends ive really considering taking life ive attempted suicidal tendencies since went institution one attempts people often wonder even consider it im year old girl college parents love me boyfriend think loves me years though feel like ive become nuisance ive multiple relationships either mentally physically sexually abused ad even sexually taken advantage year old current relationship lacks communication even though weve together years seems like cares sex despite knowing past parents constantly make feel like im going amount anything considering havent met goals set child use severely overweight spent years losing lbs ive sinking hole im slowly gaining back feel disgusting ive hit rock bottom mind pills hidden baggy bathroom guess im waiting right time dont know im anymore ive lost way severely cant help think everything fault deserve am,1 useless loserdont know start this hate much wish could restart life wasted much time nothing little thing gives anxiety want kill dont want hurt anybody know much family cares me im biggest failure hate stupid gap teeth feel like everythings waste everyone works boring job die talents wish everyday never born dont know else say want take bunch pills end dont know whens right time every since could remember always felt would end eventually never thought would even make far always depressed lately ive lowest point wish made like everybody else dont enjoy anything life seems like waste matter look it never really posted anything shared anyone needed say this,1 CONGRATULATIONS @justicecw for winning Scrabble SLAM! -Check your email ,0 Hamthrax? Glad I'm a kitty Swines are fines by me!,0 @CityGirl912 Thanks much! I did get some sleep and I'm getting dragged out to dinner later. ,0 i LOVE THE RAIDERS 2!!! Michael bush yayyy!!!!! @CrazydjBazarro i was a UofL Ladybird ,0 ooh hungry before anything creep out of the kitchen with leg and or arm attack fridge ah cold chicken how exciting,0 mom told favorite child im also child dont talk,0 somewhat new minecraft question got new pc christmas got minecraft sort played never made deep run days later stockpiled blocks worth iron found diamonds excluding turned pick im preparing nether question would smarter make armour diamonds tools diamond pick break enough iron make new set armour go iron tools also make diamond armour whats pick,0 hey girlam tv bc get turned everytime see,0 movies believed chinese ghosts much prettier mischievous western counterparts storylines three chinese ghost films largely identical direction excellent detail colour huge problem always humour integral part film accompanied course great deal mugging encountered chinese ghoststory trilogy yet film offers interesting departure western horrorghost genre have another enjoyable romp chinese ghost world,0 important realise eisenstein committed marxist film maker held specific particular theories film could achieve howbr br it simply idle compare alexander nevsky negatively anything similar period us film comes oldest film school world another continent entirely different approach cinemabr br to appreciate film little more try finding pudovkins kuleshovs theories montage example read wikipedia entry marxist film theory feeling really bold might even investigate triadic forms hegelian dialecticbr br it follows watch film without understanding eisensteins ideas ideals probably get it alexander nevsky main characters playing themselves meant distillations nations character nevsky generals deliberately shown largerthanlife represent stylised heroic aspects entire russian peoplebr br the acting wooden meant slightly mannered represents completely different school naturalistic narrative style hollywood rapidly adopting eisensteins films especially designed not realistic anything seems somewhat obvious whether lighting language pose struck actor meant way eisenstein one early proponents film art form entertainmentbr br if editing sometimes seems consist clash images well thats idea shots meant contrast other eisensteins films contain embody elements politicalphilosophical argument namely marxist dialecticbr br so sit back shout hurrah russia folkhero defenders boo cowardly nobles teuton invaders enjoy difference,0 "Come on Kirk, hook up your Wii to the wifi....you can do eeet! ",0 school alright ahem know ive seen lot fuck school posts im gonna tell think school alright teachers cool nice get fun stuff like going trips cooking contest stuff actually learn stuff not really useful stuff meh video calls classes get assignments instructions tasks im th grade know highschool norway lot hate schools thought might share think school,0 the worst part about laundry is the longer that you wait to do it the more unpleasant it becomes,0 "@chloayy : The way you make me feel atm. awww, I love every song. ;D xx",0 i really should be sleeping already but just can t seem to get to bed before the sun come up progress on sorting out life is slow hard,0 technically true joined subreddit technically belong years sadness noises,0 @rickyleepotts Thanks for accepting it!I wanna make a blog too. ,0 way least important profile google meet like top list everyone see me wanna hidden even camera on get mean like camera doesnt show anyones screen exists yk tips that,0 oh fucking godnobody life understands like living abusive household fucking hate shit,1 @ddlovato you're totally amazing!! love you ,0 cant die alreadyi fucking hate life ruin everybody elses itd better everyone killed,1 people care die someone recently committed redflag comments photos like amazing hate see go literally people ones bullied redflag yet seem care damage done,0 had a mean as time today. hanging with kendall and jane. i <3 visitors. excited for rise and build sunday!!,0 created reddit avatar made look like real life the avatar looks like nerd really look like nerd real life oh no,0 tiktok destroying brain cells hate tiktok hate us make peace em th best friends little sister kind nerd before serious working good grades all since downloaded tiktok started cringy hand dance posting pics videos thot like things luckily friend keeps totally dumb another exemple nearly crush shy girl class always drawing pretty introverted talked necessary downloaded tiktok bruh personality change cringy tiktok fortnite dances getting dumb friends became loud totally changed clothes style like ok late cant saved lost interest her also simp class tiktok stuff lets talk it tiktok like brain cell destroying virus spreading girl girl sometimes unvaccinated guys guys real pandemic isnt coronavirus fucking shit named tiktok every women earth tiktokers swear turn chinese monk staying alone rest life,0 gvenk thanks alexandernl sorry,0 "Save the date, May 8th 11:30 am PDT. We are involved in a new webinar for the Inland Empire Breastfeeding Coalition. Depression & Breastfeeding: The Impact of Oxytocin and Stress. Register here: http://ow.ly/idCO30jsC3M  #breastfeeding #lactation... http://ow.ly/idCO30jsC3M ",1 "@BBCOne @HughFW @jamieoliver @HairGilded Whereas shows on tv designed to make you feel guilty about being large regardless of whether you're otherwise happy at the size you are or not...those do wonders to improve depression in people, right? ;)",1 it never actually get better it seems like it is but it s not it s just a lull until it come back again even stronger i m done i m obviously not worth keeping around and deserve to be buried and forgotten who tf am i to want anything fucking idiot,1 innocentdrinks coke 0 minority stake really not april fool can you give it back so depressing you were a favourite brand sad,0 you go thru depression the first trimester of pregnancy,1 hate shit lifei cant fucking take anymore im tired me im tired familys failure fucking hate it cant fucking picture responsable adult im obviously gonna make past im failing school im alone one cares cant anything im fucking coward tell anyone it im scared commit redflag im fucking stuck here wanna end bad im scared hate,1 hi stranger hope ur great day look reddit age,0 bf requirements must alive must like guys,0 @tomhogsed just passing through ,0 Anyone else not able to DM? @blindcripple - wrote some articles about his wife and their business some time back - stalkerness forgiven ,0 feels good ive set dateim killing friday nice finally know im gonna it bye ,1 LAKERS WON!!! OT went exactly how it should have ,0 saffron why not,0 telling getting better today turning shit cannot anymore crying sleep tonight would better without pulling down cannot burden loved ones anymore,1 funny for paul pogba to blame his depression or whatever on mourinho funny bcos pogba feel his fall out with mourinho is the most traumatizing experience he ha ever had not being benched and winning absolutely nothing under ol joker,1 i m struggling to type this morning maybe i m still suffering from day glo overload from friday s 0 s fest,0 "goin on the boy's boat, gonna have breakfast in leschi ",0 im want live anymoreive never posted online want die exactly know phrase im sorry screw anything necessarily want die like want live anymore im tired everything time ive lost interest everything around feels pointless keep remembering life pointless meaningless know grow ill miserable since nothing live for want end early now know make parents family sad want anymore think depression since ive always felt like this want kill sadness anything wanted end drivers test thats tomorrow little late even enjoy driving even though people age do im basically worthless life goals suck everything im nervous wreck feel main reason im posting view redflag best option im looking advice try commit since cant come back dead im sorry rambling like said first post like this thanks reading,1 whats favorite method finish allwhats method bee thinking whats natural share story facing consequence,1 i need someone to calm me down i have a stutter and a couple day ago my best friend friend wa making fun of somebody with a stutter cause he s not aware i have one ever since then i realized how easy it is for people to talk behind people s back ever since then i ve wondered if anyone make fun of behind my back and i ve been taking individual people asking myself do i think they d make fun of me on one of my post regarding this someone said they went through this and ended up getting psychosis and paranoia that s one of my biggest fear and a i read that i almost had a panic attack and that wa like 0 minute ago and i still have that panic attack feeling and my vision feel very messed up and fuzzy like how a panic attack would be i m terrified this mean i m going crazy and i can t shake this feeling now that i m scared it mean i m going crazy i m thinking about it more i know anyone can be made fun of and i m no different am i going crazy i didn t have any ocd fear a this thought popped up it s only now since someone commented that and i m so freaked out can anyone help,1 for some reason i have a strong urge to draw illustration for novel cover,0 australian post office ever needed promotional film recruitment itthis one movies whos heart right place watch again mirandas performance touching shows aspect australia unimagined many europeans cold wet bleak like anywhere else like anywhere else important people surrounds you characters movie warm welcoming make prospect career move dead letter office thought considered miranda gone bigger movies hope always keeps thought inside one,0 guys big f ive talking girl discord video chatted minutes ago said liked me said tiktok even respond first one said tiktok im confused,0 always bad mood mentally restrain snapping people life sucks anything makes life redeeming exist suffer anything makes life worth anything all life working favoreverything makes mad even things even annoying angry time,1 new here need helphi guys sorry im breaking rules but ive thinking redflag alot dont think act could ever do family friends etc im dark place need someone anonymous talk to please help,1 deadline ahead,0 anyone else wanted helpfor history sorta depressed years recently cheated dumped person considered family still person cares ok which obviously shitty situation meantime found friends really support things get hard also pretty good qualifications cant find job anywhere graduating may guess curious people felt like want help know obviously need help hate therapy feel worse afterwards want future anything actually want really want kill myself want exist anymore either least exist reality,1 single bad unpopular opinion rlly dont see ppl obsessed abt getting relationship big part love chemicals like even real get horniness could play part personally dont find bad idk maybe im quirky weird oh special,0 "@FaereWolf I won't go that far, but the depression lost again today. :D",1 i don t want to be a grown up yet,0 dont know anymoreim lost ive turned here dont know im asking for help support dont know anymore im much coward kill myself im also numb lost anything else cant get anything fucking hate it turned senior highschool alright before going top seats highschool president honor society got raped another student highschool school pretty much ignored life gone pretty downhill there mother immigration issues almost got deported already depression self harmed since young abusive father issues dont know im saying know shouldnt need validate sadness dont understand havent able get better anymore mother always acts like act get going school dont understand would purposely fuck life like this dont want like this redflag attempt september since then feel like things gotten worse dont know anymore want end know things need do like schoolwork laundry life general fucking life me cant get anything fucking hate myself dont know anymore want die wont amount anything anymore point dont really friends theyre sick tired depressed missing school dont really know im asking for maybe somewhere rant feel like im prolonging inevitable let die already edit ive missing much school partly flu partly depression im scared wont even able pass classes point im still ap classes even though know theyve adding onto anxiety know care trying fix missinf work shit graduate feel empty numb im lost dont know anymore feel like dying im much coward yet everyday im messing more,1 fuck shitim im fuckin done one talk to husband even wanna hear it seems like doesnt care whether die not frankly passing day things keep getting worse think it come terms redflag hate everything cant imagine living another years this feel like life really is endless suffering people say its solution thats bs would solve lifetime problems,1 hang redflag hotline still unable keep safei uk cant call back one person working area tonight already finished conversation me please help nobody helping talking people help changes made trying get night help every night months now cant keep safe cant even ask mother tonight,1 amazing movie script writing could better some cliched language joyces the dead alluded throughout movie beautiful scenery great acting poetic highly recommend,0 allyheman but but but i m not a big fan on camilla belle,0 emptyi dont want hurt care im empty done everything really dont know much longer keep holding on ive ready die ive tried many times want could buy cyanide id gone already want quick painless money id buy gun fucking end dude im fucking broken cant muster strength pick anymore,1 @PerryMarshall I think your twitter pic looks much more trustworthy.,0 is getting the sims 3 ,0 http://twitpic.com/6e6b6 - Alexander William Gaskarth ,0 results in go days without wish luck something idk,0 ill prove one careswatch,1 "@Juzzash We've been discussing names for a few days, Koopa was the one we agreed on last night. ",0 need advice open uphow hell supposed tell family suicidal thoughts get help im young need financial support therapy cant imagine telling problems especially since would seem like little bitch complaining shit since hard life all also things would probably never knew felt way would feel awkward hell knowing this feel like even therapist would tell stop pussy open up need advice,1 guys think tinder pets let pet make friends pets,0 Real answers from a man who's come through the darkness of major #depression http://ow.ly/jDgt30jFrs4 ,1 Wyyyuuuuut. Amazing. Vines that cure my depression https://youtu.be/Z2s1qIBr-DU  via @YouTube,1 close people suffering death enough reason to honestlyi want fucking kill would suffer it want continue numb existence others want actual concrete reasons would make me feel better living feeling worse dying want reasons me wanting live further want wake one day think misery one fucking trillion people parents couldve given birth to want look gratitude instead life gift say well could fucking donate soul someone actually wants use truly live would would right fucking now ask here time machine id go back parents met would prevent ever happening feel like fucking mistake feel like im worth air im breathing atoms im occuping even here even feeling alone anymore feeling better described alone whole planet times bigger earth athmosphere crushing everyday bit day im completely broken feel like obnoxious piece sand inside mechanism perfect clock fuck me,1 struggled redflag depression years part managed it decent life support system past years everything life gone completely downhill one thing another think cannot get worse does started began get panic attacks every day social redflag took deep dive college dropped out managed classes since then mom started vision problems years ago due negligent doctor failed inform corneal disease since teen rapidly progressing watched go top specialists week week years every treatment option failed always best friend rock watching go this unable anything horrible recently mental health took big turn worse call twice get psych hospital past months truly person left though closest family members died unexpectedly rest family give fuck despite efforts reach out dad worst all lost friends absolutely terrified mom wish bad could something actually help her selfishly mental health time worse never felt alone scared life think suicide every minute come plan college degree barely work history hope actual future lost one person could got anything cannot burden mom everything going through see therapist every week zero help recommended residential therapy program month feel like worth try problem cannot leave mom enough vision basic things cannot drive needs right now one else family understands cares enough even call her feel trapped hopeless terrified know makes selfish person know need suck help mom fuck know keep going like this see way,1 @ImASadGiraffe brownies are good any time of day ,0 ate much bread feeling fat immobile lazy girl hours go brrrrrrrr bungholebungholebungholebunghole,0 horribly suicidal smoked joint im casually enjoying playthrough animal crossingweird mood change quickly,1 "@mikeneumann hahaha! I know, I'm so uptight. THANK YOU, handsome!! xoxoxoxoxoxoxox",0 Goin to the pool ,0 im even horny really want unspeakable mouth hate like bfs busy,0 anyone else comment bunch posts get replies feel less lonely im right now,0 moving tale despair agony xpost rpsychologyi surfing web usual found story man name clayton atreus last days wrote fairly lengthly note essay style final words message board last communicated followers read pages message boardhttpadvridercomforumsshowthreadphptamphighlightseattleargentinaklr link essay final words quite lengthly intelligent writing heart wrenching essaylast wordshttpwwwarmsheadcom would like hear opinions claytons absolute choice moral implications actions tldr man goes epic bike trip first time ends parapalegic mexico ends commiting redflag year later pushed edge emotionally,1 lovely love story brenda blethyn alfred molina whole story bizarre funny undertaker a molina loves married woman bblethyn try fake death escape husband village scenario strange situations starts good saving grace long live ned devine,0 im bisexual idk tell mum anyone advice so shes homophobe knowledge fine im still scared dont know do anyone advice would much appreciated,0 @DavidArchie the movie up seems like it would be hilarious. I wanna see it too ,0 @KaitiRambles I've got to get there when you're working and bring Kaci. We love the zoo.. Weekend plans??,0 Lol i barely read it cuz my phone was off. Text me tomorrow. ,0 A lil online shopping then bed ,0 day racist boom twiter,0 theres year old man asking random teens wear jockstrap fuck,0 much xanax alcohol kill youim ready die xanax bars mg bottle wine would kill me could buy alcohol need please try talk give straight answer cant shit anymore,1 @Sznq heh - fame and celebrity a refuge for look at me narcissists ,0 just came back from college assignment really pile up like shit so dead tired,0 think friend different country might commit redflagi live us friend lives ecuador said goodbye forever asked please hurt herself do would liable it asked tried help said cannot report police know real name address want liable,1 "@jonnysun the worse feeling is when you have a week of feeling better and good and you think this is it, this is the end of the depression or even feeling depressed but then it comes back and you feel like a failure and back to where you were when you felt shit. thinking this is your life",1 still wanna dietodays valentines day girlfriend still wanna die wanna die badly honestly im getting really close it really think cares anyone cares me feel alone im getting tired it really wanna die,1 walking home from school drain all my energy,0 Hey @roadie6 my day is going well! How about yours? ,0 finally gonna itfound autistic horrible hole life meaning people turns disability thats impaires ability communicate them oh since im girl gonna get worse realtionships going downhill finally realized fcuking autism paired fact high functioning lack sense self always though would regain point geuss becuse life long condition gonna tell therapist im gonna kill give heads bounce also post may soukd bit casual subject matter idk since deciding gonna kill ive felt happy found rather funny humorous,1 @RoxxiNikki happy birthday! Take plenty of pics/video so you'll remember what you did later on! ,0 lets stay dorm room courage kill myselfyep im piece shit guys theres denying now im bad nasty disgusting worthless person im likable anyone likes me ruin lives why dont give shit others feelings toxic disgusting thing hurt whoever im around need stay completely alone classes me lets wait til slash wrists,1 friend tried to send enough for a hotel but then my dog needed attention and then i sold my ring and i found out it wa pretty much fake and worth basically nothing enough tk get a hotel i thought so i did it it wasn t now i m probably going to wind up spiraling and i just want to be home in missouri never thought i d say that very thankful to the stranger who got my ticket can t wait until i can get on it please think good thought for my safety tonight it seems safe enough but the night is the worst for both me and my dog wish a shelter would allow her edit if anyone can help please pm me,1 biodoc enigmatic singersongwriter who according friends accounts spent last years relatively short life seemingly mission selfdestruction died overweight dissipated heart disease protracted rampage virtually nonstop overindulgence alcohol cigarettes marijuana cocaine raucous partying flagrant misuse vocal instrument he confided friend shouted lyrics one performance force spattered blood left microphonebr br all despite fact was widely considered perhaps gifted pop singing ability generation successful years effort terms industry acclaim grammy oscar decent recording contract top label least two stellar albums nilsson schmilsson originals a little touch schmilsson night standards happily married for third time lovely young family seemed adorebr br the films strengths begin completeness account nilssons life including fine use archival film footage many stills nilsson editors especially good job bringing movement stills learn close ties john lennon and later ringo starr lennon often said nilsson favorite american musicianbr br even impressive talking heads often documentarys weakest aspect get people like perry botkin jr ray cooper mickey dolenz terry gilliam mark hudson eric idle rick jarrard randy newman van dyke parks jimmy webb robin williams telling amazing stories nilsson many uproariously funny others deeply pathetic everyone conveying deep affection him equally informative moving interview segments nilssons wives annie una son zach cousin doug hoefer best set heads recall biodocbr br the glaring deficiency film crowds nilssons music even performance greatest hit without you cut short bars arrrrgh excuse this given movie runs full two hours is lose head shots could heard least song through perhaps one two more like one oscar winning cover everybodys talking filmmakers simply intent plumbing nilssons psychological mystique attentive enough music grades low b seen nwfcs reel music series ,0 hi all tried posting redflagwatch alt need someone know im here guys pretty active copypasted it trigger warning everything guess want know someone sees me help comfort anything acknowledge exist main account feel like im edge crumbling cliff im going slip soon goes lose childhood never one first place stuff goes much deeper this heres summary background mentally abusive mom small child parents disciplined me stopped around became preteen wanted run away elaborate thoughts murdering family tried kill started self harming anorexia relapsed badly year hundred times ive cried maybe family much worse summary want spend minutes typing pitiful childhood used friends get feeling like much none talked quarantine started real conversation anybody know months thought id fine own was recent events home pushed edge it even anything big something made realize something else hate fucking world hate myself hate people ruined life even more want sister go hell tortured rest eternity want mom see much suffering caused me know actually love me fucked never gotten help multiple mental illnesses has im narcissist perfectionist im self absorbed im selfish im immoral also th percentile school tests ive taken im going freshman taking onlevel senior courses im amazing artist work featured state galleries play instruments im straight student enough tried hard good person guess still standard way would help clean mess someone made pick trash im nice friendly strangers truth theres thing karma bad people get punished heavenly force im long tangent reality reality ill never live normal life normal memories loving family id rather feel nothing im planning overdose soon even want think happen fail thanks world beautiful cruel,0 forgot could rant friends here day good thing remembered,0 brown people identify sunsets much exciting saying brown girl wed sunset people hehe i mean asians yall asians bit yellowy fits,0 posting day get uk gf day day pog still taking applications requirements aliveoptional would pog understand possible female form uk preferred,0 anti p longtemps j ai cru que mon mec tait un enfoir la veille de me r gles j ai fait aussi une d pression post partum parait que c tait li le hormone montent progressivement puis s croulent d un coup pr sent je consulte mon agenda qd c est la fin du monde,1 i ve been diagnosed with anxiety for about year now and a far a i can remember i ve never had a full on panic attack before or after my diagnosis for a few day now i ve been having random panic attack multiple time every day i start to tremble and i get major butterfly in my stomach i also can t breathe dry easily and start to sweat a lot what s weird though is that i can think perfectly fine and i can keep doing whatever i m doing while all this happens i can t pin point anything specific that is going on in my life that could be causing this nothing that make me anxious is happening right now i ve never learned any proper coping mechanism to combat this kind of thing either i m not sure what to do,1 revengehave ever thought redflag taking revenge people ruining life deciet lies unborn killed themthey took futurethey took ten years based complete lies gunpoint deserve it,1 finding happiness anythingi happy since girlfriend years broke back ago cannot life find anything makes life worth living really know im trying wish could feel way felt fucking gross incel dude want life back genuinely want stop always miserable theres nothing waiting misery theres nothing pot gold end rainbow want done,1 many pass b movie is indeed first class comedy wellwritten acted red skelton great wally benton better known radio fans fox ann rutherford perfect wallys fiance carol lambert conrad veidt leads well cast gang criminals read one account movie states vincente minelli directed film unless changed name s sylvan simon directed three fox movies entertaining film made imagination encouraged get black white prejudice one sit back enjoy truly great comedy also reds first starring role take note climax reference orson welles war worlds broadcast,0 wish someone could cry dont even wanna talk want someone understand without explaining everything thats gonna go well cant fucking explain,0 know whats one best parts autism get say youre autistic actually autism,0 @TeamCyrus nm do you like my new display pic? someone made it for me xxxxxxxx,0 @AL80s haha thaanks. i know. he did a HELLA good job ,0 i have packed off hubby to bristol missing him already,0 I added a video to a @YouTube playlist http://youtu.be/7qMF0eAbDpw?a  Relieve Anxiety & Depression - Subliminal Message Session - By Thomas,1 posting boyfriend would get get someones boyfriend day would send letters hoodies ill facetime get good morning messages wake crocheted stuff,0 im afraid dont know anymorei dont know anymore dont know dont care all care much dont know im hurting much dont know it ease pain without giving others im afraid im fucking afraid im afraid ill always feel way never gets better truth told life couldnt much better great friends family job love pays well awesome flat therapist hobbies interests got all im afraid one day dont strength carry anymore one day lose battle win everyday fight next lose once over im afraid let people in fear hurt eventually im afraid mother brother sister friends im afraid day today ask happened nothing did good bad day other thats scary thing reason trigger problem fix nothing happened,1 time for food and ice cream gummy,0 I will beat this depression,1 first time contemplating ending thingsive battling depression since teens never really taken idea taking life never reached point close now recent break made spiral state despair could never imagine possible feelings worthlessness ive spent nearly decade fighting came back one moment constant feeling hopelessness pain cant take anymore one person thought would spend rest life with deleted though meant nothing ruined me try put brave face remind eventually get move work nothing helps days ago came mind would better dead ever since think about even dreamt successfully killing myself brings comfort knowing option available,1 @emsha24 hello misha! it has been a long time. ,0 phantom noosesive felt phantom noose around neck last two week cant walk past height railing without imagining world feel jump neck snap rope pulls taut hit ground wet splat scenario gets appealing day got fired year ago fulltime job since then parttime work field terrible boring stressful work ive ever done boring work barely uses degreeyou could train anyone read joband stressful theres guarantee assignment last even half time staffing agencies promise hustle send resumes every day keep parttime work ill quit job thats about end work one thats start broke two months this contribute relationship working plenty people jobs make happy always agreed equal partnership cant sos equal im working also depend financial support wed experiences exes leeching us would rather alone leech ive cut expenses bare bones hobbies eating out sold clothes books furniture netflix tv videogames sold too enough internet look jobs cheapest data plan phone company sells even turn lights anymore ive stopped using ac hot water history depression history redflag attempts want talk doctor told truth theyd probably commit and id get fired temp work stuck hospital bill afford dont tell truth theres point talking doctor want told things get better im irrational crazy stupid find platitudes helpful know lurking week common enough pieces advice here let get way right now also want need keep trying doctors find one trust because a cant afford that b do trust doctors serious tmifridays trauma last doctor saw put family through c ive looked states laws involuntary commitment think thoughts urges specific enough qualify and want committed know do want though job life back thats happen,1 Happy late morning (my time) everyone! ,0 life cant everyone rightmuch like everything else world things everybody couldnt life itself maybe im cut life,1 Listen to Healing Released For Me Against Depression - Proverbs 12:25 by Brian & Farha Major #np on #SoundCloud https://soundcloud.com/brian-e-major/healing-released-for-me-against-depression-proverbs-1225 …,1 might soonill begin new job next week industrial labor job ill working hour days ive depressed long increasingly suicidal want take first paycheck get overdose something im dont know im gonna make it im trying think life better get shitty home life think will might damaged already,1 feeling like going time again sit think let go long turn soon never got education never employed living someone sexually harasses daily drinking alcohol every night feel empty apathy unmedicated constant mental anguish makes want punch black blue least bruises leave scars like ones wrists remind guts go whole way let get bad something years ago still bothering wake everyday much coward get with wish would get something terminal rot away nothing left hopeless,1 cant genuinely cant remember happiness like death pleas filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 there is just something wrong with stupid vista i hate it,0 @Independent Depression kills animals to,1 im feeling well i already know to im exhausted overwhelmed also christmas comming im getting triggered everything points spend alone god feel bad fuckkkkkkkkkkkk fuck fuck ,1 remember yr old shit best exam stress got yelled less got eat junk food watch tv day shit bomb,0 also things like like mom go go gamble money works ass everyday gives money pay bills constantly goes gambling friend yes know mom wrong that siblings cant say anything mother argue things constantly every single day,1 something get chesti think everyone hates me hate myself matter think burden others think everyone hates including parents still high school hold steak knife throat practically every night cry sleep thinking missed opportunities,1 mccainblogette awwwww and you were trying to go to sleep hour ago,0 tonight nighti cant live every day regret partner months since left years loving wonderful life together fault alcohol depression ocd unchecked years caught me im going fist full sleep aids vodka drop lake backpack full rocks hopefully wait long enough meds kick least hallucinating drown,1 dress shopping ,0 putting one word castratikron complete whole song day born filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 theekween depression anxiety and heart break thelmasherbs,1 keep talking kid sexualizing shows like one talking about people keep talking cuties one talking pen like come people way worse,0 got ta do my cooking assignment it too hard,0 never thought id like thiswhen school still hope thought could find something wanted do apply always had yet university losing drive skipping classes assignments thought would comfortable slipping life alone family yet im alone talk anyone days time im family feel constricted stressful trying present version want see thought would girlfriend could least engage flirting casual relationships yet never experienced anyone really romantically sexually interested me im ashamed myself lie university work friends family im ashamed lazy gone psychologist months im ashamed challenging thoughts like asked to family friends supportive lucky continuously stressed trying disappoint try worthy affection think parents would better served different child feel like im burden friends feel foolish caring relationships everyone says care yet pine others cherish relationships easier feelings pretend matter people say need wait happen im going waiting rest life seems feel foolish sometimes come thinking could one cute someone unattractive abrasive boring could ever anyone desire them undesirable noone ever crush me downloaded tinder made profile got zero matches weeks using friends racked uo tens matches think im weird opinionated noone could really interested say romantically alone forever seen happiness future long while assume things would get better im good enough see stress uncertainty unfortunately me live australia hard kill relatively quickly like pain cant find easy way kill would work current small residence im afraid im afraid screwing ending permanently disabled disfigured afraid locked away mental health ward suicidal want pass peacefully cant deal life,1 kisluvkis oh that is very sad poor boy,0 "@gripgrand i'm not on twitter as much as i was... is there a way i can get all your tweets sent to me? when i do come on, i'm really just checking out yours because i feel we're dealing with similar shit and riding the wave of depression / anxiety. i write much more on fb where you're not.",1 im going kill selfbecause im going achieve dream world full pain thats it,1 im gonna try write book good story ive rewriting past year afterwards gets published im killing myselfi made post months ago talked life think im unhappy it well didnt explain text ive working book past months boy hates everything jerks lot tries kill pathetic actually it suffers entire life snaps loses fucking mind course theres lot book didnt explain dont want put many spoilers finished dont expect book well dont expect even get published im honest life plan finish make best writing ive ever written life im done im gonna stop caring life hopefully kill overdosing alcohol parents conservative fully alcohol drugs feel like need numb pain bullshit already knew gonna turn substance abuser get older im turning three days think wake much alcohol wanna drink dont care die it wanna die it ive realized life isnt me im already drinking deadly amounts coca cola redbull monster soft drinks right now amounts junk food eat unbelievable im still thin stick one notices it guess way trying cope biopolar disorder hidden depression,1 so earlier i wa on a run and some kid were playing football behind me one of them accidentally kicked the ball in my direction i could hear him getting closer behind me and i had a sort of intrusive worry that he might kick the ball at me or something a soon a i stopped worrying about it i realised how irrational it wa but i then started to worry that it wa seemingly a paranoid thought and could be a sign of my mental health getting worse can anyone relate to thought similar to this,1 "No Depression by G Herbo is my mood from now on, i'm done stressing over people that don't deserve it",1 tried kill twice now one quite recent back may cut late night mother woke found me first thought done accident kitchen seemed concerned however told done purpose instantly become upset seem concerned way angry upset way like inconvenient her wounds horrible bad point hospitalization concerning deep mom told put neosporin go back sleep told feel safe asked call someone take somewhere told bleeding one could anything me told fine attention first thought crazy scared right able go maybe subconsciously attention texted cousin next day check doing weird stuff made sad mother continues act like everything normal talk since bring gets mad always says i care grow up move out always tells sensitive emotional reason seeking attention moved away college september parents insisted come back october covid arguments always bring up telling stayed there want leave close moving away next year college seems like closer get leaving worse thoughts become scared might happen me want relationship mom bad really love her seems like want one treats much worse younger sibling hurts bad truly feels like would care want able it know need help difficult form support regular life hate venting friends serious topic want scare burden them making wonder okay ya knowi feel sad time counting days try leave whichever comes first know make better,1 time goi feel extremely suicidal today feel empty inside dont problem cant stop feeling pain chest letting know im wanting give up voices head usually call worthless failure stronger ever today theyre telling die sending nasty thoughts myself want drive lake walk it cant swimthats point feel disassociating keep thinking everything triggers me memories trauma mistakes ive made failures fault idea im posting here guess wanted someone know felt end it,1 wrote letter guy loved id like post bc idk took lot write hurt lot write dear alexander everythingthe reason woke daysthe person talked mostwho wanted text day call nightmost importantly showed love lovethere many things happened always came back grew stronger itive never regretted hated much letting someone goive never stopped loving youi miss everyday theres say goes dont think youyou forever alwaysyou still even dont talki never love anyone way loved youwhat special amazing id rather die never met saved kept alive daysyou made sure went bed ate didnt anything would put riskyou many anxiety attacks mom hit yelled meno one ever like werei burrito dumbassi love youi never stopped loving youi never stop loving youyou always piece heart piece earned havei truly never knew love till met youall calls lasted hourslil naps id takemovie nightssoftball practicesstupid pictures wed send othermaking fun people google mapstelling day asking ursjust seeing hearing voice laugheverythingi dont regret meeting youwithout wouldnt right nowi got much confidence youi girlbabyburrito anything else youd call didnt care long yoursim longer tears apart inside im notforever always thats would saywell forever heart always one loved mostthere word strong enough much miss youi stayed liked talking fell love youno one made feel made feeli cant ever say thank enough everything mei love forever alwaysill never forget every little memory madeall stupid inside jokes dumbass word niggardly liked say much knowing pissed offi miss joking around calling dumbass stupid shit facetime called idiotin moments always happiest ive ever beenyou made happiest one elsenow gone hard finding someone fill holei cant say easyno one amazing connection didi wish fought harder youi didnt biggest regret ill ever makeyou smart truly believed anything want deserve fucking best youve shiti hope find someone makes half happy made mei never forget youi love alexander forever alwaysim happy met hope find another like you,0 if you like 60s rock and are from LA please enjoy the band Love violent drunk hippies also welcome,0 holy shit im terrible humanafter first real relationship ended took pretty hard result said nasty things ex mistake number one mistake number two continuing message told wanted nothing me this guess wanted try amend wrongdoings made even worse leaving fuck alone third mistake continually stalked social media awhile like sort addiction good things say me one thing stuck really respect bisexuality as fetishizing sex women this feel like complete utter pile shit ive realized im horrible person want better call fuck die rings head loud clear also girlfriend thinks im great realize im lousy piece shit also completely bat shit insane never loved myself struggled suicidal thoughts many years idea recover actually better person,1 someone near age please talk me fi want die,1 seen without knowing hoopla surrounding lead character indeed without even knowing based reallife events must say impressed murder greenwich average production madefortv movie acting uniformly great christopher meloni particular putting standout performance teen actors excel difficult roles idea dead girl narrating movie stroke genius elevates movie merely good excellent script exemplary essentially movieoftheweek fodder cinematography beautiful,0 organ donationif necessary paper shit front hospital would able harvest organs ateast could used someone way die,1 "Congratulations, i hate you ",0 good short anime watched promised neverland like week ago finished erased yesterday loved them guys recommendations good heartfelt short anime,0 day posting something everyday get girlfriend math test today math teacher let finish,0 need end canti house car every electronic appliance could ever want need since girlfriend cheated me left me dad lost job mothers deteriorating health ive lost three close friends recently one connect talk redflag hotline said best option cry sleep wow thanks lot waht do anything do,1 well thoroughly enjoyed movie funny sad yes guy andie macdowell shagged hot interesting realistic characters plots well beautiful scenery think mum would like it still think allowed call sad fkers club though,0 keep feel like killing selfi keep researching best painless way kill self cant take life anymore anything wake up eat go sleep like am every fucking day going out doctors appointments anxiety panic disorder depression sucks ive started therapy hope ever life sucks fucking socialize regret decisions chose high school college career am quit job due shit fucking anxiety nobody knows feels therapist open hide home hate life need something stop feeling like this im scared tell anyone even therapist tell someone obviously to also suffer dyspraxia makes clumsy fuck mess am anxiety depression panic dyspraxia wonder nobody likes me,1 @deirdrakiai I think I'm gonna have to demand pics of this one! ,0 i think i ll try tonight i ll go on a late night walk and accidentally trip in front of a car that way if i fail i won t have to deal with all the shit,1 tested positive covid rip lol,0 politely deal guy thats probably using me reputation nice kid everyone would ask favors grew nice deeds payed off theres one guy still same found brother got vr set would come class every morning weeks asking trying come over never succeeded time remember would talk hang like regular friends thought changed one outing another friend kept begging us buy gaming gear money food told off wanted use free tickets free privileges famous tourist attraction impress girl gave fair amount would always barter now quarantine talked times ask steam account play fucking rust play though also tournament got cash never hear him still alot fun moments hang doesnt ask money im sick it,0 "@Jean_Pierce OOC: LOL I know, I know. I was robbed. I want my own ship. ",0 hard keep going dont anything look forward anymoreim going really bad cycle depression right now havent felt way since nearly killed self maybe even worse cant take anymore want well school want get study work hard cant bring it cant bring keep room clean drink water shower anything life isnt worth living more stay nights hating beyond words im badly school im stressed dont want live anymore every day going awful cycle again dont know do hate much hate myself want drink want drugs want kill myself want anything while keep pushing away people love cant bring tell anyone whats happening im numb cry cry anger hate issues body too cant bear living life more doesnt feel worth it nobody understands bad makes even frustrated grades terrible want good beyond words want well school dreams want follow need good grades it achieve able apply myself cant cant bring makes hate mad enough dont know whats wrong dont know fix it starting feel like late me dont think find keep living life,1 @shaundiviney i sure am ,0 see shitty post downvote post ignore it shitty post downvote it,0 your life your rule but why can t i finally make myself rest it s selfish but isn t making someone stay just for you to not feel bad also is they ll stop you but will only make you feel alone after a few week or so shouldn t we all ultimately live for ourselves why is suicide such a bad thing is it just because it s deemed morally wrong all of this ha probably been said a couple time i m sorry it s funny how the only thing that keep me going is that one musical group and my other hobby is this really it,1 want run car treei suffered years tonight went ex boyfriends drop redflag letter wouldnt answer know there wanted drive car tree way home could blamed storm done it,1 yea communism funny right people dont actually think works like think socialism good like sweden like memes right,0 finished making chocolate and foot really hurt,0 @tsimitakis yes cyby u can ,0 mom found account would kill isnt even anything bad hates melt,0 alone need helpim m lost girl going marry hate job live home cant afford anything friends always told im people want friends gfs ive like reached others never works out bullied whole life see path gym help always depressed feel worthless care anymore anything want end,1 "@cc_chapman Yeah - I've seen a few 2.8 problems... We're working through his lemons, though. ",0 i don t wan na leave co am is coming too soon,0 three cheer for fiber to the home now we only have to wait year for it,0 another redflag stole chance cant push anymore going kill myself worked out lived family four small children back soon moved going kill myself thing kept going years id hit rock bottom moving family four small children need part that even slightly know truck on got do used get am go work dark hours walking past houses get first bus could earn enough money pay rent solace knowing going kill myself aunt killed herself still tearing family pieces father uncle therapy resonance death staggering live place aunt killed myself thats reason last conversation telling wretched person world would better without like it pall bearer funeral lowered coffin ground wished dearly way around im lose house rented place kill myself yet times change little ways job amazing love job wish separated six weeks gives focus purpose reason like here local butcher knows name neighbours nice want alive wanted alive years keep thinking id died sleeping back van everything wouldve better everyone know theres another redflag hanging family like dark cloud feel cheated chance want alive know fuck quietly,1 i want to be dead ive been suicidal for year im such a fucking retard filled with regret and anger im done with life i want all of this to stop why i cant do one thing right,1 letouzet en m me temp il n est pa faux de parler de d pression elle est pas e par le cyclisme et le dopage quant savoir si ce derniers en sont la cause c est difficile la tendance d pressive peut mener ce activit s douloureuses,1 someone talk tonot feeling great dont want go back point anyones browsing right wants talk anything please pm dont know long ill account tis whatever,1 cant take pain anymore fuck lifemy life already full much fucking mental pain agony universe throw me two cavities one wisdom tooth probably get pulled want deal fucking pain hate physical mental pain fucking much id rather blow brains out spend another second piece shit earth,1 mizzzidc and you get mind put it here i hope ur bf or husband to be and his mother is seeing what is awaiting them ending it with emotional blackmail of u going into yeye depression nonsense,1 tf people rude u think makes someone feel u say shit like offense id kill looked like u first all world not offensive second thats mean anyway u trying make people feel crappy gt hate hate hate people say shit like hear one time break ur fucking kneecaps shatter ur skull,0 @DaphneOP hhmm.. around 12:30 am.. ,0 joined pro sport called professional crastination think im one star players team,0 @essentialimage what's crazy is I looked there first. you'd think sparrows would be easier to come by! I finally just made my own ,0 another ruined holidaywhen growing up dad ruined every holiday ever fighting mom well is another ruined holiday time boyfriend ex boyfriend even fucking knows told pessimistic negative everything life honestly cant remember negative supposed say hes bitching parents borrowing money oh sucks im really sorry apparently wrong also telling im sorry sucks sessions show also wrong told unsupportive also said heard rumor said sleeping around behind back envr said understand heard that keep second guessing everything ive done past months keep flash backs good memories spent day laying around crying tried contact redflag hotline waited hold asked leave message social anxiety cant call back cant bring try want disappear want cease exist dont know ill kill myself took ap woke deep scratches arm scratched sleep ive cut well hope wake morning really never want wake again,1 br br i seen movie many times least dozen unfortunatly recently however etched memory never leave scene mickey rooney killer mears knows executed getting close moment truth dances cries laughs vacillates hesteria euphoria runs gambit ever emotion never seen brilliant performance actor living dead past present know sure mickey rooney yes andy hardy actor great genius however kept it opinion years thinking surely must alone viewpoint years saw film last time television chanced read old q section los angeles times question posed lawrence olivier question was mr olivier considered one greatest actors time consider among greatest actors answer was peter finch mickey rooney stunned surprised immediatly flashed back killer mears felt good seen great ability him view supported another whos work admired later course bill many great moments mikey rooney film the last mile seen acting students frankly cannot remember great deal film years mr rooney it never leave me anyone remembers film do would interested hearing you picture etched heart alone gave face performance,0 "@lmpotter Near Bellingham, waaaaaay up northwest near Soviet Canada & USSA border ",0 "UPMC Looking For Participants For Depression, Dementia Study http://pittsburgh.cbslocal.com/2018/04/20/upmc-looking-for-participants-for-depression-dementia-study/ …",1 britsystem she stopped eating and is just sleeping all day im worried about my precious little bean,0 goodbye reddit goodbye teenagers no redflag post ive found reddit distracts work ive taken break before deleting it hope fantastic lives stay positive motivated goodbye everyone,0 asta a fost un examen pe cinste ,0 im starting think im stupid one idk is everyone reddit doesnt get sarcasm either im stupid reddit is im pretty sure,0 I gives a #pughug to @EmmytheCat @henryandfriends @Fergusthedog pass it on to three more ! Pughug is a free hug for anyone #pawpawty,0 @aniqa_x can't wait to see Diversity's performance! ,0 "@evolutionarypsy Genome-wide association study of depression phenotypes in UK Biobank identifies variants in excitatory synaptic pathways, https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5902628/ … .. (full text) (2018 Apr 16 Nature Comm.)",1 well entirely dishes still like extent delivery spots talking general tasting food ranges uh okay best wow feel stupid eating this gave satisfaction wasted money healthinterestingly body seems like foods cannot eat health preference reasons milk products absolutely anything milk usually liking eating it using gluten lactose pills help sometimes not worst get bloaty stomach recently getting even id eat something really milky meat pounds weight would like stay without meat feel satisfied sweets favorite thing make sandwich chocolate paste banana dark rye bread people surprised speed eat sweets lol rarely satisfy unless good portion good knowing size catch often type food product used like absolutely tastes like nothing me think thing loosing mood eat well grandfather inherited lot body issues snob guess complex village bumpkin used village third world country city bumpkin area advanced country possibly go back soon food tastes kind ruins mood also feel like snob,1 i say that i m feeling depressed and instead of saying anything about it they just start talking about their own day they used to ask me what s going on but not anymore i think it s time to start writing that note,1 alienated last person help step back thats left strangersi just cant take anymore ive felt like shit ever since fiancee died coming years holy fuck years think would this fast havnt serious relationship since close friend mine bad scare redflag cops found passed car stopped side building decided toss everything aside help it moved k miles away everyone know now talk anymore thats problem though just friends abandoned me ive got two great friends now one male one female that fell head heels for point became joke everyone drew guy came visited week pretense helping out spent entire week chasing ass far watching craigslist see someone would post bailey female friend since started dating someone tortured high school made fun me absolutely tortured high school hear great guy is telling everything happened hes amazing makes feel like person life gotten bad cant work cant sleep days straight passed phone customer nodden off passed out woke hit floor sent doctor gave script xanax im looking mg xanax bottle grey goose start look good here better idea seems nod off let pain go away done it back fiancee wife got taken me,1 attention epic gamers need help defeat big bad evil monki request account twittercom vote pezlord this httpstwittercomsmollfryesstatuss election basically friends holding election need help get pez pres could make post show art made cause would thank reading remember thats post shiiiiiiittpost,0 kind hope get firedive holding bit two things job cowardice feel obligated job however got email saying someone wants meet immediate boss already called bosss boss know make mad point know care did hope fire theres one thing left probably leave world cowardice thats easy overcome,1 stats feed indian doesn t know what is depression we would have been topping the list otherwise,1 im of to work for a little while ,0 if when thinkso kinda know start writing this typing google fast non painful way end it came across reddit post brought sub know posting this sure asking help screaming silently someone hear me silently beaten one love suppose love you past years real hard harder usual attempts tried kill myself one direct attempt lately mean time head again ready tired tired feeling rejected tired myself feel alone time women married pushing away long rejected time sleep couch year tired really need stop hurt feel pain body story leaving lot out like said know posting sure ill check this wanted something know is,1 My mom likes Milow's version of Ayo Technology... It's a good thing she doesn't have a clue what it's about.,0 Going to flea markets across the land. Found a replacment NES! ,0 life ending insult you grotesque wildebeest know ass hole ground ive seen pandas ferocious you like rapunzel instead letting hair down let people down mom slow took months make joke you glass water calories brain cells skin oily amazing hasnt invaded america yet ass ever get jealous shit comes mouth id shove foot ass wasnt already occupied head would punch face wouldnt want make look betterif got penny every one thoughts would get change im offended said im glad stringing words sentences now idiots could fly would fighter jet look like something would draw left hand wildebeest parents ever ask run away home reason gene pool needs lifeguard never witness true smile someones face happens leave carry plant around replace oxygen waste called gay honor reconigniton expert field laughter best medicine face must curing world must born highway thats accidents happen still love nature you like plunger always bringing old shit mark zuckerber looks human you roughly words english language none describe much want hit chair,0 i wa picking up dinner and when i went to close the door i hit my head i m sure i m fine but now my anxiety went to 00 and i m thinking of internal bleeding and all this stuff and idk if my anxiety is causing this small headache i have now or not,1 babies dancin shes dancin another man,0 back to a high depression we go,1 carbon monoxideis best painless option plan burn coal wqrm io place makes dizzy sleep all,1 one last chanceim sorry ranting randomly im laying bed looking ceiling killing me basically ive decided give one last chance letting go finally ctb good while people started following content liking im doing ive gotten bit exposure im working one huge project want succeed want live life knowing live thanks work love work hard for honest im scared im terrified fails honest think dying every single day somehow project work keep going however really end failing unable live passion im ending it im tired nothing people know get whatever want snapping fingers im tired all sorry rant,1 @MikkaDinah Yeah Yeah! Whatever you say?!!! ,0 @5windows Play your cards right and you can be @SunsBunny LOL Ummm anyway you look like an innocent angel but somehow I doubt it xoxo,0 day posting subreddit im yeah day go questions answered always stream twitch game,0 "@FranAspiemom talk to ya later hon, have a great day!! ",0 hi everyone ,0 @Sunshineliron that was awesome!! ,0 everything going still isnt enoughthe guilt immeasurable great career amazing wife pets love unconditionally still think killing every single day havent dont know ever will living pain every day burying getting much dont know do,1 lets get spooky spoooktoberif guess im little excited halloween love halloween especially spooky soundshttpsiredditlczuldszfrjpg strange vives,0 maybe overthinking wanna make im scared arent page,0 somebody dm im bored af nothing do m,0 mother found twitter account noticed pronouns forcefully removed closet let known felt safe saying whatever tf wanted without fear parents reprimanding guess,0 @madelineinparis hahah i have a spiderman costume. and fruit snacks ,0 anyone need math help im watching netflix chilling bird anyone need math help guess provide emotional support need,0 i feel like i experience anxiety backwards everyone say their thought are racing i get brain fog while my heart s pounding awful stuff when school is my main trigger and getting something done is the way to make it stop dae get muffled thinking when they re anxious any tip on how to deal,1 happy mens day like happy boys day right bois hehe could wrong everything world idiot damn big brain time,0 im still nnn pls proud biggest achievement year longest ive gone since like ,0 ight thats catch titling post omlll said yessss saying randomass shit like moms gonna make idk boiled cock ball torture castrate flaccid penis understand,0 someone please put end misery breathed febreze cant breathe without much pain,0 people raise put telling everything ok you next day mean show nothing hate disrespect done them done world liars,1 film made think judy peak looks wise previous film gal people often say looks emaciated well film looks perfect beautiful shows flair comedybr br i think film hilarious especially beginning trying arrange audition john thornway one funniest scenes opinion judys rendition lady macbeth john looking party give spanking lolbr br one criticism hole plot john lily fall love mean one minute despises next going date next time meet date lovebr br another point like opening night lily would furious john isntit make sensebr br but would give film wonderful almost perfect,0 according society im yearold boy pretty sure im turning week female im girl scout multiple occasions people come walmart selling cookies thought troop mates younger brother,0 suffering depression redflag couple years now rd year university year left really know that seriously considering dropping out feel know anything good anything feel never get job even do suck it really like study also anything else like done internships sucked both hated every bit iti supposed another internship part course still able even start applying thinking fact sit interview makes anxious get panic attacks think ever able job every time read job post feel incompetent write cover letter say good anything hence want drop outbut drop out doif finish last year whatuni expensive parents paying it really want pay year nothingi feel like loser confidence friends always lonely sad crying need advice,1 dont know much longer thisim close ending all cant stand go day day pretend dont feel way dont feel hurt alone sad try tell people feel way react dont think think im serious want show im serious,1 want cut somewhere always visible like face hand want forget want move on comfortable uneasiness melancholy despair someone help please want scar permanently reminder,1 said care told mother depressed said literally care expecting asking crush outta luck seriously mom said,0 didn t sleep too bad considering i have a workshop starting today beginning of a sore throat though,0 "@karenclaunch Bah! Hey, sent you a fb e-mail. ",0 im tiredexisting hard lost parents recent years ago im ok day goes think killing myself history self harm last time little month ago ready go thing stopped thought death expensive bills consume life feel like fair im young much happen me know others worse going work hard talking people hate job hate stupid expensive house hate room want exist,1 i will eventually give up i know whoever reading this doe not care so don t comment anything unless you are absolutely inclined to after i die i will ask god to destroy my spirit and make it a if i never existed i hate anything having to do with existing everything that it brings the people the negativity the bullying it just nonstop i wish to have never experienced this life or anything having to do with it this life is inherently evil and whoever made me wanted all the bad thing to happen to me i guess i will just row out to sea and wait for a storm or tie my leg to a boulder and drop 00 foot to ocean floor anything anything i got ta do to get off this shit i will go out of my way to cause my life to end,1 @xZach97 @TSM_Myth I drink my depression away,1 ow owie oh fuck thought blade dull strated cutting thighs sliced absolute shit panic dull cut wayyyy wanted stings rlly bad bleeding fair bit toooo fuck,0 wrong know guy edits memes hes done got tired getting messages telling kill himself messages asking nudes got tired idiots completely disrespecting him dont blame him pushed lot it ever could know brought lot joy mornings seeing someone admire every day good time make people happy wasnt quite it every time posted dummy would ask send nudes tell kill himself didnt make happy all reddit way assholes cant bear withstand joy perverts ask nudes teenage boys ask anyone right experienced it afraid stand yourself ask anyone pervert terrorist asking kids die find help find help youre disgusting needs stop,0 complain im hungrie somehow still hourz work n didnt bring money shame someone pick go diner date wit hold hands maybe get smoothies something pleazzee daydreamins making hungrier,0 i hate cooking dinner,0 mental disorder trait depression,1 @tainted_ilaria so happy too! another #puppylick for you ,0 ive seen movie preview recommend watch it minutes long felt like could go hours stories protagonists realistic feel really home movie basically consists dialogs bored minute people really different characters one acted well laugh felt awkward sad still felt happiness movie shows different kinds people society way communicate love changed nowadays handled economic thing dating becomes something similar audition whole audience loved it please watch theres possibility love it,0 plip would love to try trillian astra but it s a closed beta and they won t let me in,0 bought gunso wife recently left me among things took besides kids rifle closet now im avid hunter even marksman always made feel good gun house gun left possession went online bought smith wesson mm private seller currently sitting dresser little lockbox even shot yet nothing else gives mind peace know way out even im chickenshit ever pull trigger thing keeping unloading sweet year old little girl still love daddy despite distance current living arrangements never fatherfigure growing up despite wifes best efforts want little girl grow without knowing daddy think wanted vent little bit,1 @mileycyrus hi miley... The song "before the storm" is incredible i love it... Congratulations ;),0 everything ive ever wanted since rememberi know eventually im going die way know cant escape truth undeniability it matter much distance put truth still blind me reflective surfaces everywhere never able live without evidence failures lack ability cope honest truth want rip screen window fingers climb walk back suburban roads sun rises without thinking bombedout topography ruined face used think got older might look fine abuse could think thirteen told pretty knew belowaverage think specifics it told even watched sleep even recorded rise fall breathing even woke panic god forgive me took granted focusing terror felt would anything exchange terror that every source find every study trawl looking answers tells skin condition irreversible incurable undeniable never good base start with ratios bones protrusions skin way eyes sit hollows skull haunt every second breathe wish could make stop moment wish could loved like wished could loved tried kill first time terrified love synonymous fear is now still fear exist anyone looks like me uneven rough colour red crayons used child unaware fact would never experience something rest world takes granted real love real touch would touch someone scarred bloodflushed face would look like person living breathing human being never even chance never even chance one red shiny swollen skin bug eyes colour dirt want sink into nose big elegant small cut open bone poor philtrum chin ratio want held like person tip mouth sun catches would anything it negative canthal tilt failing curve jaw have hopes dreams ever wanted poor mouth shape teeth spaced large wish dead eyelids like crushed olives want die lips blood them want die want die want die ive never seen eighteen year old destroyed ive never seen anyone like loved ive never date kissed person alive eyes heart beating throat turn nineteen two months unlikely ever will think sometimes maybe could good could forget chemical burns gave years salicylic acid misuse products nothing poor face destroying face thing hated me always me one cares good not face good unruined still knowable still loveable theres little left kill truth take take contribute meaningless platitudes carbon dioxide die want ashes one urns turns tree want beautiful want people take care me want touched warm hands want something dying world could never life forgive failures,1 hopelessevery time talk one person feelings always says well gotta get better just stop feeling bad makes feel worse hearing obvious statements course need get better stop feeling bad cant suddenly stop brain giving negative thoughts yesterday told one wants hear problems willing listen part family told know therapist help me right depression panic disorder keep finding pros considering redflag rather cons think therapist help me recently went hospitalization program feel better there came home would start thinking redflag best could right is swallow bunch xanax knock little bit,1 trying sort things areim sorry sounds whatever need put cards table paper everything looks well swell well educated great parents great family good group friends really feel like phoney im honest friends as friend lie general im life party am feel alone im exist everything seems happen life positive thing leads working out always feel like step forward steps back sorry sound cliched much try tell friends family things arent ok get people believing me people telling suck up really cant cope wake every morning unfortunately first thing think say wake fuck dont know woke go another day woke up really cant cope ive never real gf im king friendzone happens anytime girl me end missing cues time notice late think girl me make move end wrong seen just friend end day im alone feel like always alone wish someone would nonjudgmental want shoot shit know alone im bigger guy take space feel like imposing dont know ps realize rant probably sounds like diatribe need outlet want cry cant need outlet even tear ducts cooperate understand things could worse understand alot people gone alot shit feel helpless know go turn to friends married exist am think packing moving cities would lead to baggage would follow end day know much farther go live strong reason strange want let go cant less me leaving parents sister guilt amazing guilt guilt keep going either way know is eventually raft run air sink im tired im tired putting face im tired waking tired im tired know others feel way is either way wake tomorrow say fuck start day usual make day im tired,1 feel this tw tried kill earlier month almost succeeded stopped bleeding hours one noticed dont know feel that feel like died used opportunity think feel remorse dont,0 "@Bridget_CooKs Keeping preserving, but share the recipes.... pickle for sure. ",0 north carolina baby aint nothin stopping them but the nba draft,0 chance encounter train young couple spends single night strolling streets vienna discussing life love primary reason see before sunrise watch young julie delpy deliver lines celine sexy brainy soulful browneyed blond sort cross brigitte bardot joni mitchell midtwenties risking overstatement celine practically ideal woman unusually beautiful feminine natural unpretentious introspective selflessly loving easily forgive bit eccentric talks blue streak sincere intelligent remarks occasionally penetrating further varied expressions nothing short captivating speaks english french accent endearing br br if fly ointment good movie would unkempt disheveled costar ethan hawke jessie comes like vaguely appealing slob sort maynard g krebs nineties attempting appear detached nonchalant sort drags certain shots pants fit poorly tee shirt coming untucked wavy dark hair his attractive feature needs good washing someone really showed properly trim youthful goatee nevertheless supposed represent unwashed youth twoweek train ride around europe look cultivated probably pretty genuine oftcynical observations wry sense humor seem impress unapologetically romantic celine although occasionally disturbed extent alienation finally admits utterly sick likes near feels like different person presence know getting somewhere br br after blowing collective funds series cafes bars silly diversions agree may never see one another again make it jesse bums bottle red wine sentimental bartender newfound lady love may repair local park middle night lie grass looking moon stars watching sun come up br br given boundless luck romance department especially irksome jessie definition naive jerk foolishly allows wonderful young lady slip grasp contents halfbaked plan quickly devised railroad station bids adieu reunite spot half year appointed time comes know beautiful unusual girl involved another perhaps even married pregnant whatever reason probably show jesse ends working target if hes lucky local library go back vienna desperate see again wind alonebr br despite discouraging conclusion before sunrise beautiful movie highly recommend sequel before sunset,0 tommcfly hey saw u guy play pushover didn t get meet u tho cuz of th huge line i wa very upset lol a msg would make up it,0 razzberrie wha so now it gb yay haha no more laggy computer but my mba can not upgrade,0 rut nowsorry long post know say to read way fucking saint love you ive struggled self harm dont want say depression ive never diagnosed since high school im almost graduated went college dropped out working full time dropped college better dealing anxiety going tomissing classes stress homework top work quit job february issues manager top hearing take people clock early not telling letting continue work got part time job month half came across job opportunity thought would amazing working cruise ship fast forward weeks job middle may im relapsing self harm worst suicidal thoughts ive probably ever due working hours week getting average hours sleep night quit knew good me spent money get back home im home drink week straight try keep everything bay warned roommate hand hide gun someplace find it get job beginning june driving doordash little better point found hid gun car which using this im alright still move mattress case come august get letter mail saying license suspended unpaid speeding ticket money pay off goes job fast forward today im starting new job next week ive already training two weeks ive relapsing self harming again bills piling up roommate trying best help taking every penny hes got im thousands dollars debt day feel worse worse knowing im going get this know gun is know ive neglecting pets know need professional advice probably form medication money prescriptions even see doctor know anymore,1 stop homeless homeless just stop homeless easy fix,0 life wants deadpeople abuse me dad abuses me discord abused years severe depression almost years antidepressants therapy useless nothing makes happy anymore even games frustrate enjoy anymore future really college pointless every single job requires lifetime experience im hope,1 anyone talk im bored asf want talk someone pm interested,0 ostracized coworkers point breakdownhi im currently work probation officer ive worked year half still made friends coworkers around age year half ive moved basic supervision specialized positions child support enforcement first mental breakdown coworkers wedding none coworkers talked wife night tried talk them heybye conversation got drunk joked other left early kept wondering even make talk me weeks later broke work left early took fmla time see therapist walk away work put celexa made lot improvements came back work little month later took different position lower totem pole work around time new girl start first weeks good showed around helped out came talked life problems joked around times nice actually friend work another coworker wedding again one really talked us assigned seating one age sat administrators s new girl suddenly became friends everyone night despite talking before coworkers come talk new girl day long theyll laugh flirt even say hi me get itshes young cute newly single guys married turn new girl partner talk day ill end work unit ive expressed concerns supervisor went nowhere one friday afternoon every single coworker left lunch together even went way find new girl ask go them single one asked go ive asked happened everyone says sorry feel like that that intentions include you thursday broke again anniversary moms death weekend help feelings one coworker came ask told everything feel said wants friend hell make effort talk me ive heard before took friday work today new girl posted one meme videos lad bible facebook tagged everyone wrote something recently hung out im nervous things go next week want pity friends genuine friends help get already stressful job positive things live for situation overwhelming me want accepted never can struggle acceptance becoming much me,1 impossible defeat itjust wanna die psycho anti depressant meds years wife new baby makes worse thought kid would find live nope change anything got mortgage car wife baby barely afford money cant anything nice trips holidays even bought courses learn make games barely touched them motivation energy wanna tie belt round neck hang doorknob garage really hate mind illness find hard walk live everyday like everyone else,1 anyone wanna talk im rlly bored finished school wanna talk someone im talk anyone anything play number game u want dm pls ,0 wanna try something scared im bored really wanna try this iphone bc minutes really call people literally send ur number ill call lets talk,0 ever stalked someones profile open see posted something like right second feel psychic,0 tomorrow it's the final competition ,0 im breaking pointim beginning realise sad reality lifes unfair matter much try better yourself matter much think youre whats right best still likely come empty handed doesnt help people thought cared arent anymore either ive tried past months ignore thoughts need vent know feelings nonsensical im point dont care selfish me,1 dont feel like getting everyday anymoreall life felt like nothing ever worked favor wherever applying job getting trying best college still failing im feel like theres potential me feel like im getting anywhere life always feel like odds every situation girlfriend mother know mental health issues theyre always trying help feel better appreciate feel like cant anymore feels like everyone hates friends want model past years ive worked ass trying get discovered nothing ever happens want give already feel like nobody understands feel like im complaining think want end life already,1 conflict in the very north part of the world result in economic depression at the eastofafrica many day away politics will still play super opportunist promise are in the way of this fiesta the ongoing conflict serving a an additive to promote political ambition,1 "@ClaireMusic hey Claire,can u add me? ",0 "Good morning. haha I just read that the swine flu probably not come`s from pigs at all, but from people! Poor pigs who got all the blame! ",0 "Causes of insomnia:Regret,self blame,overthinking,anger,depressionLonelinessAnd her",1 try befriend artists thinkers doers often either shun work sub par nearly non existant see equal show sexualromantic interest reciprocate makes nervous avoidant sometimes shunmed think mistake interest making friends romantic interest quite annoyed assumptionsgame playingprojecting goes world,1 robin hood men tights worth watching recently watched ive become cary elwes fan one leadroles moments really made crack hard expect know funny even nd time around still fall chair cast great course especially robin locksley himselfcary blinkin sheriff little john dont let name fool you veryy big lol everyone elsebr br there moments course film tried make comedic scene necessarily laugh it okbr br this second time cary elwes patrick stewart appeared film together way worked lady jane fun see them years later older awwwwbr br its definitely worth watching quite hilarious indeed,0 faq made well written male bi favorite color either black pastel purple go male female pronouns i dont perfer one other look like heres picture mehttpsimgurcomaoxsrni like s numetal music want call name reason use kira occasionally post depressing shite dont worry get sad late night often put lt end messages dont read feel free put questions comments answer lt,0 struggling even struggle pointim sure anyone care thought id share whats going me past days ive feeling really weird especially today months since planned redflag thought slowly recovering online friends came goals point feel slipping back was thinking ex used much happier feel like nothing ever again want feel normal again want revert depression bad lately though everything really hitting me hate myself hate living abusive family hate fact girlfriend left slandered name resulting reputation ruined hate broken beyond repair normal anymore good go god complex thinking im seperate special powerful rest humanity waiting rise up honestly though really feel lately maybe try committing redflag solution problems death istrue peace livingis suffering think it almost everything life enjoyable removing pain remove hunger food remove thirst water remove loneliness people remove horniness sex cant seem remove negative feelings though lately feel motivation anymore anything people say gets better people made believe someday life big grand turn around story think so,1 girls attracted like theres something wrong,0 playing the wsop ladies event tomorrow i'll let ya know how it goes,0 in like hour lol i m a failure i m bad at everything and all i do is waste my parent money i cause them amount of stress they will be sad when i die but it will be for the better i can t keep watching them suffer because of me my brother is going to be super sad which make me sad but hopefully he can understand when he grows up i plan to jump from my terrace hopefully it s high enough there is grass below tho i hope that doesn t stop me from dying cause it will be real embarrassing if i don t die failed at everything including suicide have a great day to whoever read this edit guy thank you for your reply i decided to actually talk to my parent and sort everything out i will not be killing myself for the time being i really appreciate everyone here thank you may god bless all of you,1 end lying bed majority day sometimes think small compared spacethere billions billions galaxies whole heck lot stars space toocompared me space large cares tiny human like me got finite number years spend yet spending every waking moment enough energy movestrangely enough thought things matter much life motivates move things sometimes nothing really matters get once helps,1 supposed really helpor help enoughi depressed longafter surgeries went bad ruined life career periods sort adjusted lower level living met woman suposedly loved tried livebut surgery made worse left went againthen tried survive family memberthen alone another country cheaperi done therapy meds none ever helpedmostly made worse tried disabilitywas denied thats longer option thought could survive somehow country lived beforebut nothing workingmy immigration plans fallen repeatedly health gets worse either cannot afford treatments help sure stay suffering everyone says you fight never heard good reason why it get betterbut liklihood given medical problems root depressionit wont odds better win lotto done years buy lifepay rent foodbut money nearly gone taking enough thought could earn extra working everything shiteveryone ask help says cant done things supposed always costs help fuck supposed do,1 m three year ago i broke both bone in my right arm and needed surgery they screwed in a metal plate between both bone to keep everything together well yesterday i fell during gym class braced myself for the fall and ended up fracturing my ulnar went in to the doctor and got an x ray that showed the fracture wa right on one of the screw now i have to see the surgeon from year ago to see what he say what do i do im so done with this mess i can t take it much longer i really want to km,1 i have two younger brother and they mean everything to me they ve come to an age where they can take care of themselves my excuse for not hurting myself wa them but now they started to grow distant and honestly every single piece of my life ha fallen apart even my mind feel torn a i realized i m becoming crazy i m having lot of harmful thought towards others i really don t want to harm anyone and i rather end my life before i do any harm but i don t want my suicide to make my brother fall into depression a i did i have 0 motif to be alive i do not like this world i do not like most of it s people everyone betrayed me and there s no one that give a shit about me anymore besides my brother i feel like i really have to do it i know i have to i just lack the ball this might be the cruelest thing to say in this reddit but i admire the courage of those that did suicide it s not easy and it s not the coward way the coward way is probably to keep living a i am this ha to stop,1 rented movie simply rosario dawson it sat watch buddy minutes glued seats intensity minutes real film hollywood bs explosions corny one liners film drew slowly reeling toward tragically human fate people think enjoy film sadly mistaken like movies mindless entertainment entertainments sake alone michael bays transformers like produced audience need think people watch allow ever stereotype muster slowly dissolve brain well even place advertisements throughout movie keep buying products forget explosions love explosions make distinction art entertaining also thought provoking moves hidden ways entertainment rarely artful even arbitrarily movie entertainment descent film film artbr br if still house soul within walking meatsack apparatus rape scene every bit powerful irreversable distinction irreversable violent rape scene involving two people whose paths unfortunately crossed wrong time hell ensued descent date rape less disgusting less depraved different trust violation soul desecration scars run deep character maya consenting would hot sex scene seeing desperate escape scene sickening jared sick manipulative serial rapist wholly unsettling closely resembles passionate love affair could maya ever close anyone even midst raping jareds slick lover boy facade ever hints slipping ruinedbr br the film whole beautiful camera work lighting times removes surroundings focuses everything maya silent inner workings mind accomplished rosario facial expression gesture soundtrack excellent blend everything particularly favorite scene synchronism film aspects working together maya dancing sea writhing bodies something inside awakening becoming aware set beautifully sad jeff buckley tunebr br i think ive really spoiled anything im stopping do bottom line think best film hands down unfortunately seems everyone jaded days hack slash gang rape nuke anything people cant bothered death worst thing happen you last thing happen existence worst things happen never leave you always thoughts shower brush teeth buy christmas present tie shoe haunt you haunt last thing releases youbr br treat yourself challenge yourself watch film,0 check new video if want httpsyoutubeavhzktnlqo,0 help please need helpnhelpim getting blackmail female wants dollers im scared shell might even post pics fucked hard kill post idk anymore,1 ah yes this is how it feel to walk around without a serpent in your stomach interact with stranger without overthinking every word you say focus on what s in front of you rather than what s swirling inside your mind to feel optimistic and excited day like today almost knock me off balance because i hardly recognise myself when i m completely free of anxiety aka when my atavistic survival mechanism is functioning correctly and not just making thing worse the fact that some people live like this make me unbelievably envious,1 rides horses type riding western english bareback fuckung around worst fall mine near concussion riding bareback helmet like fucking eijit whip hard pony goes like bullet jumps a drills spuds go flying friend drag creek make worse supposed riding keep gob shut,0 society entitled anything scrap suffer eeek meager living also society how dare decide like life sucide wrongsociety hypocritical cant tell people sucide wrong try force stay alive expecting accept crappy life is someone want that life worth effort struggle everyone hell gain working crappy jobs jerking another years get cancer die want,1 woo thanks ron and steeve for following me yeow i have folowerssss haha p.s i wanna got to the ellen show ,0 Gaa! It's 1AM already!!!! At least its Friday ,0 film industry forgotten make family entertainment meaning something enjoyable people ages particular wallace gromit enjoyed everyone toddlers like colors cute bunnies grandparents understand adult references br br this film direction good ive ever seen mean literally also packed tiny bits humor scene many humorous details background im going buy it order read signs handbills w gs world br br i plan see movie least twice theaters buy dvd see it,0 yeah sex great thats joke,0 "@SENexchange #SENexhange as above, majority of mental health I deal with relates to anxiety, depression, trauma, self harm and is certainly added to by difficulties with expressive, receptive & social emotional communication skills.",1 @brhownsugaaa_ Aye be careful that post grad depression is real. One of the toughest moments in my life.,1 im lowi dont know anymore ive failed badly life ive hurt ones love everyone hates hope way life get better,1 rational redflagi recently read mitchell heismans redflag notehttpwwwredflagnoteinfoebookredflag_notepdf work made ponder continue living essence heisman argues life meaningless and selfpreservation equals selfdestruction redflag reasonable choice biases overcame arguments compelling enough commit redflag,1 phasmophobia fun ampxb httpspreviewredditrffwappngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsfcaaddbdb,0 it s that bad,1 give ideas lunch want food preferably good food mmm,0 @tp71 Get 100 followers a day using www.tweeteradder.com Once you add everyone you are on the train or pay vip ,0 i now have every song Heidi Montag has ever released. ,0 @coffeencupcakes ahhhhh! i remember that poem. love it ,0 kissed girl years im proud myself hahaha gotem seriously virginity cool stay cool dudes,0 i don t know what i m doing wrong everyone always leaf me,1 older people think gamers orgasm upon seeing gore genuinely confused everyone reacts gore cause someone plays games mean cum pants upon seeing dead body,0 im done care anymore im ending sooni hate myself hate world hate life supposed be ive suicidal since young least th grade always thought things would get better dont everyone everyone get happy ending life shit show shit show brief moments happiness cant seem find makes worth it cant wait old age freak accident free pain want now want know hurt most im fucking alone never special anyone never friends lovers even family closest person ever life straight told tonight never meant shit him hurts much want loved ill never enough something wrong me im cut life ill peace soon know that first time ever im crying tears happiness itll soon feel way anymore,1 im legally blind tired seeing shit world become,0 wish there wa a a little tunnel preferably a waterslide direct from dressing room to water so people don t see me in my togs,0 took cocktail drugsi cant stand continuing life im failure friends people work hate means im going get fired due time off cant count anyone always come across dick im good anything im screwed financially academically work dead end job lead anywhere cant find anything else get angry time theres puddle blood bed cut arm open got angry myself normal im normal thinking through want hear want deal people people want deal me win win situation,1 want live another week maybe two longer absolutely necessarythere one thing life meaningless terrible girlfriend serious long distance relationship since little one year never seen person literally fuck everything life contact started casual made terrible mistakes mistakes probably able fix able forgive for know them tell want chance us actually together hate practically everything life myself seriously considered killing last months since keep becoming depressed possible life thing look forward to think able survive get professional help forgive me probably wont obviously cant tell that cant risk causing think committed redflag know anyone lives close me stick around little clear way forgive avoid risk sure completely ,1 "My mind is still on london local time.. Can't sleep. Workout, fifa, at&t, beach all day!!! @lindsaydowdal have a great day! See you soon",0 think might end life sooni dont know anymore feel stuck alone need help dont know get that,1 rustyrockets i tnk you need to make me smile today because you never ever write back to me but you do to everyoneee else x,0 ive never sad before im really scared one else turn redditlook know sounds stupid fucking girl well life went shit mom died days later mom died always close side family barely graduated highschool plans go college lined up ended move state away personal reasons father never close per se used fight lot much anymore dont typical lets go play catch type relationship sort thing idk anyways ive lived life sad always trying fit in good friends lost moved seriously nobody anymore met girl last year really hit off moved together fell love kids everything going pretty great started arguing lot eventually accused cheating me im still sure occured not dumped january regretted it impulse barely remember it saw black tired everything didnt want take back ended getting back guy knew like years dated little while fucked over split started talking again met times sex times never went past that knew wanted back met another guy moved hours away dated while split recently started talking again initiated contact time came visit family came saw night two weeks ago stayed over laid held night couldnt even sleep couldnt believe back arms morning head back work hugged kissed her told wanted back looked like loved me told just give little time well talk lefti talked weekshed throw comments like well whatever happens cant move back state im in told idc id move mexico her finally asked thought everything told always love me shes sorry love me heart fucking broken ive spent last eight months trying hard get back thought time would girl makes happy love god damn much like shes here greatest time together like dont mean shit her shes girl makes happy cant forgive past mistakes didnt treat right confused life regret now much miss fucking bad sent long message tonight basically asking rethink things still feels same worry anymore im going delete facebook probably will wants friends ill never happy friends im starting finally realize never together again ill never hold night again ill neer tuck kids night again saddest ive ever life nothing going anymore dad still support me im years old idk anymore ive really thought redflag dont want die nothing anymore nothing dont even friends talk to help things really dont like life know shes going say no im going crushed dont wanna live anymore reddit fuck know im rambling one anymore,1 girl broke saying sexy enough so went familys house seduced one family members now mom sister pregnant baby,0 life failure mi honestly never suicidal thoughts life considering now wife left january waiting papers come now learned today passed promotion everybody said sure would get job basically deadend skills move another industry financially im ok whats fuckin point more job thing left life idea continuing move thing even wake for literally friends either moved away got married kids prospect another human really seems far reach right now anybody talk anything aside dad mom sad actually want text exwife somethinganything human contact im going that want reach employees subordinates want worrying knowing feel way feel emptiness now cant describe bad hurts im reaching guys now,1 eating cupcakes yummie,0 "Deadly, its sunny, time to go lie out in the garden, turn red, and then bak 2 white next week... ",0 @totalgunner ahhhhhhh. so hopefully mine will eventually pop up then. good to know ,0 f cant take anymore happenedchild sexual assault tw last night dad things thought asleep hes done several times throughout last years like this nails hurt really bad already bleeding inside even fucking repel him acts like everything normal right wanna slice wrists open ive listening music since hes let day school lil peep uicideboy friends followers thing keeping alive even feel much emotionally except anger shock even cried yet know gonna get worse know im gonna kill myself would take drugs bit experience them know probably thing thats gonna keep numb,1 hello krimpeling depression it sure is nice to see you again https://twitter.com/newtmas_videos/status/988573159678009344 …,1 im afraid would effect never came home againone reasons,1 @PritiRai Thank you for the warm comment. It made me feel better to know someone cares. ,0 year old aspergers failing grades unexplained attendancesi feel really stupid ignorant probably guessed im year old kid living aspergers syndrome feeling depressed lately grades absolutely suck were working major projects school ive gotten detention twice stupid reasons today first failing get one little detail assignment attendance missed classes spanish teacher absolute psycho total asshole me even gotten point dad extremely pissed im depressed please need feel happy again people reddit help me,1 officially sober whole year since start middle school got close classmates gained bad habits along way got point started drinking twice week especially school nightthats usually expected taking engineering track am got wasted puked times one night but even still kept drinking started joining cousins whenever drinking well realized ive hit lowest point life so far quit drinking never really liked drink thought would make numb feel ease really gave anxiety getting invited cousins hundreds times drink year rejecting every single time ive finally gotten whole year without single drop alcohol system ive adopted highprotein diet started working times week gained kg lbs muscle mass sincei really weak skinny back then started drawingdoing art frequently again started conversing socializing family neighbours cuz im bit sociallyinept introverted felt little confident telling close friends bisexuality nonbelief which little hard especially live country religious bisexual atheist little bit frowned upon tldr avid drinker stopped cuz like best turn life around feeling better ever since bit context legal drinking age country rarely practiced regulated almost every street corner theres store sells booze regardless old are sometimes even see cops offering minors drink culturally speaking guess drunk minors tolerated since usually pose threat anyone even usually drink around adult family members,0 just had treacle sponge the depression is cancelled,1 extremely depressed struggle feel sense importancealways knew id post here cant deal life anymore work hours week go home alone big heart feel nobody ever interested try offer support support ever given back feel like try try try nobody ever wants try me im done,1 never take class httpsyoutubemwuaojhvckhttpsyoutubemwuaojhvck,0 depression gives,1 me waking up from an 8 hour depression nap: pic.twitter.com/lkz3KZqCw9,1 counts redflag attempti know sounds like stupid question allow elaborate ive struggling selfharm suicidal thoughts years day particularly bad state attempted cut vein failed try again unsure something tell someone times too ive close lifeending activities stopped myself none planned spontaneous would count redflag attempts redflag ideation edit thank much responses browsing subreddit helped numerous ways least reminding alone,1 wont girls text back everything goes well like first messages conversation dies happens every time feel like one interested ,1 updatei built enough courage sit front campfire family,1 kinda flag hang room cant decide kind flag hang suggestions me lol,0 im ft handsome creature yeah thats said handsome im girl fuck,0 i feel completely exhausted my life isn t going anywhere and i ve got nobody to turn to,1 "@ddlovato So basically, I believe you are a sadist. The building of anticipation was cruel and unusual. Yes. You are a sadist. hahahaha ",0 punishment failing nnn guys failed real god figured nnn thing made fail punishment th,0 fail im gonna kill myselfim currently fairly prestigious college paying tuition basically compeltely independant family fucking sucks used perfectionism get school financial situation might force drop out look peers hs didnt even bother hs live parents nothing wonder deal themselves drop school think kill myself ive depressed dealing ocd anorexia years college last attempt obtaining better future myself fail im scared thought would do,1 i m so tired of this i don t even know where to start so i ll just say what come up out of the top of my head a i write this i came here so that i could vent about some college related stuff at the beginning of the semester i decided to enroll in class to pick up the pace and get on schedule to graduate i wasn t necessarily looking forward to it but i wasn t regretting it either until now that is since the start of the semester i ve been feeling like i just can t pay attention i find all my class to be extremely uninteresting and i don t even take note every week is just a struggle to get through it without any prep time for the next one i swear there hasn t been one week where i don t have any homework all five of my class have already given the first partial exam later than usual and a expected they were all essentially at the same time it wasn t until this week that all the result came back and obviously it wasn t pretty so for the first partial exam out of all five i got f s in of them a c pretty proud of it actually and a b i know that perhaps i haven t been trying my hardest since i really don t pay attention in class i watch the recording and study for them later but i wa devastated regardless i spent countless hour studying for them only to see failure hit my liver i have so little energy that i can t even cry about how i failed the first exam of of my class i ve been so stressed out that a rash started popping up in my neck and chest i ve never been failing this hard in my life and frankly i m scared i can t show my true emotion because i don t want anyone to worry and i can t talk to my therapist because of the time my study consume at the end of the day all i feel is anxiety and the despair of having to repeat class and be even further behind schedule for graduation,1 give upi dont actually guts kill still give up im done trying im going lay day day exist die naturally decide stop eating starve death may physically killing im still killing myself maybe one day ill guts finish ill sit die old alone dont feel like rewriting backstory go find post,1 video rocked eddie one funniest comics ever seen class makes funniest observations history culture ever seen eddie original intelligent comic ive seen long time tell standups get stage let executive reign,0 imagine hampered bureaucracy one man spends years life mental breakdown trying solve mass murder case virtually himself murder technique clear government unwilling admit truth lets monster destroy dozens lives think job stressful merely remember true story behind wonder flick devotion duty main character masterfully portrayed rea comic and almost tragic times relationship rea sutherland character made one favorite movies last years catching one worst mass murderers history edge seat nearly well advertised talked silence lambs plot suspenseful rent buy movie today,0 dein depression,1 im pretty bored yalls hobbies started playing quitar,0 "Sitting outside, waiting for a reason to smack a 7 year old ",0 hi guy it s late night now here in my time zone i can t shake down the urge to go to the building rooftop and take a leap it s story tall should i do it please tell me a logically sensible suggestion my reason my family got covid 9 the past month but it affected my otherwise healthy 0 year old dad the most within a couple of week of infection including 0 day isolated hospital confinement thing just kept getting worse so he wa moved to another hospital for icu confinement and there went into lung failure doctor decided on intubation thing didn t stop there and currently he is on ecmo in a different hospital it s been about month and he is yet to show any progress i work and used to live alone but recently we all have been together from my fam s side my dad is the only breadwinner and he controlled their finance so naturally i took the heat during his absence a a stopgap running his business for a couple of month paying bill and medical expense food etc i have burnt through all my personal saving sold my cryptos and taken all the possible loan just to stay afloat with the expense this ha made me terribly depressed and made me unable to continue working since last week by the end of this month i can t even pay my dad s insurance premium in that case the policy is gon na lapse because of month of non payment i don t see a way out of this i need about 0k just to cover the due and maybe another 0k for the future expense at this point i can t get out or stop this snowball effect my mom isn t willing to work nor doe she have the experience to work any decent job my si just finished her high school but is trying for a job anyway even if we all work in this place we can t possibly make a dent in the due and expense all of this is taking my self control off i feel like i ll snap and go insane any moment but i and my dad have life insurance policy my dad s policy is just gon na pay 00k if ever on the other hand my head can pay out a quarter million dollar claim it can solve all the problem and save their life i can also get this miserable life to stop hurting me any further i like to think logically philosophically and pragmatically i don t see a better option than this should i do it tldr my healthy 0 year old dad got covid 9 went into lung failure and is currently on maximum life support on ecmo i ve bankrupted myself supporting my fam and am still in need of about 0k or more to settle the due and for further expense i m at the verge of insanity from all the pressure i ve a life insurance worth 0k should i do the deed and let my fam claim the benefit so that they can solve everything and live better life sorry for any bad english thanks in advance,1 Finally got to see Jake yesterday theres a reason i didnt wanna go to his moms house -_-,0 yall got outta toxic relationships yall got mf mud yall aint take shit nobody mad respect rn aint playin game,0 alrightim living dream job years get travel see kinds amazing things im active adventure whenever want amazing friends much love life yet think killing throughout day every day cant control it ideas creep leave know feel lately sometimes hate fing hard insane cant figure out thought good thing going ready grow want revert earth feel lost sad alone heart want painful lately pray wake sleep reason want actually diekill believe life worth living get better cannot bare pain would bring family friends im miserable think quitting job what shitty job way love cant wake enough give shit it,1 weekend homework kicking ass schools thinking saying hey idea give kids two days free time also give work free time well cant get enough us anybody works school system stop giving us weekend homework,0 reason done im scared paini live uk access firearms theres really way kill going incredibly unpleasant parents paying stay nice student accommodation attend university last year went classes recently told error booking next year honestly even want deal fixing it im waste space society sit room playing video games watching tv shows anything productive everything paid for wish gun,1 theekween depression and anxiety thelmasherbs,1 sneezed said bless automatic think im finally getting used lonely,0 everyone loose strands hair baliding like occasionally piece hair come stressing cuz dont wanna bald soo like happen everyone,0 cant cry anywhere dont even room thats piling emotions cant take anymore,0 literally post anything care getting downvoted feel immortal hahahahahahha,0 tired go sleep will good night sweet dreams others using phones bed,0 please save meim much pain think losing mind feel depression eating brain want scream hurts even try articulate brain want confront anything hardly left bed weeks use minimal amount information processing possible get by im losing everything im lonely im fucking lonely im scared im lost im detached wtf this fuck this becoming terrified world people im angry insidiously angry disgusting,1 people born january st know people born january st little cousin us,0 deal jealousy towards closest friends buying houses kids getting new jobs still dead end job yearsi actively avoiding happiness mess uo friendship consider worse years lifek debtthought dying s times gained stone losing boyfriend deportationbut every time called doctors get help courage continue calli struggling daily bases keep together spend time crying thinking would best bot anyone life would slow downthis may right place stuff felt bit better getting thoughts paperso speakthanks listening safe spacevent,1 if you follow me I follow you ,0 "@bwilstyle if you used my crock pot, it would be done when you returned from your trip ",0 dead mans switchso like mins ago found one friends high school sent dms best friend ive pacing back forth like dumbass hour got phone told ems would scene hes missing hopefully get update soon hear tthe worst,1 merry christmas happy new year,0 made decision killl august cried much long time sad feel like option feel sad family too hate world bawling eyes,1 guess try commit redflag yet againbecause really see realistic solutions fixes problems fuck bullshit life,1 all my tweet are already gone aren t they missed you guy tonight,0 "@toodamnninja I've not used skitch before, let me try again (5)",0 anyone else just done i m at a point in life where nothing is going bad and i understand i m blessed to be in such position but at the same time nothing going good my friend group have dissipated i rarely hang out with people everyday is just a repeat of the last what do i do it s getting lonely,1 one favorite movies time loved rain man dustin hoffman tom cruise movie ways similar makes rain man seem artificial shallow unemotional trivial comparison,0 horrible end th birthdayso th birthday spent weekend friends drinking etc come home around pm friends part ways go talk mum boyfriend both try respect much possible called up basically made emotional resorted room start crying bed feel like im useless helping making mother boyfriend economic situation worse feel reason live goals good looking lot money relationships sure,1 cant connect peoplei cant connect people friends people seem like me think look standoffish maybe mean people occasionally try talk like theyre speaking another language know theyre saying theyre saying it supposed say even social anxiety point feel anxiety anymore understand socialize diagnosed schizoid personality disorder think might austistic mainly actually want connect others know how insurance therapy help myself exercise comes mind cant seem motivate it im living car shower gym everyday could then job like time im really eating anymore im sure impact moods whats wrong me things know help me ive thoughts redflag often since half life everyday im driving think crashing want friend stick around would deserve that nothing offer lousy friend,1 Lose your #anger #anxiety #insecurity and #depression through #meditation #Buddha via @moodcards pic.twitter.com/K5kHydrKVJ,1 chose movie really husbandwho works radio broadcasting thought would movie would enjoy relate too though eightiesso little dated movie really draws in times want strangle host barry times want send bigots call true concentration camp times really feel sorry barry truly gotten big jeans know mean drama channel encoreso thinking true story truly love dramas love this even know ins outs broadcasting business alec baldwin fan watching see him shouldnt part really bit part movie,0 i don t know how to push myself and adjust to schedule and adult life no one wa really around to teach me i play video game a lot before it wa because i enjoyed it but now it s because i have nothing else to do with myself or other people i don t have any friend but even now i can t fit in online it feel like no one my age play game anymore they re focused on their life college school work i don t fucking have a life the only other human being i talk to is my dad when he get home from work which is only small talk since we re not very close it s been like this for year now i ve felt completely isolated from the world my entire life which is why i don t fit in why can t talk to people and why i don t fit into society standard i want to fucking die so bad i ve fucked up my life so bad i wasted my highschool year even if i have a whole life ahead of me i don t have the knowledge or will to get anywhere fuck it,1 @TheJASHJAY As someone that's suffered depression for years it doesn't affect your beliefs but your personality etc. as he has expressly said he doesn't have one you can't assume shit but that he means what he is saying,1 ayoooo ima order dominos pizza,0 "@latexloverm oh it's ok haha, I'm in another city and they're in the capital.",0 the real depression hours #The100 pic.twitter.com/1R1Z4hriW8,1 point nothing help going work might well kill slowly junk food moping around idk bother believing get better bullshit proof never going get better need take care,1 likely last month alivei tired failure nobody help either giving life one last final chance dont job end month walk traffic cant take belittled everyone around me id rather dead live pathetic life another month,1 christinastokes is sh working for you for me it say that the website is down,0 my life wa so promising and happy once that one thing left and i feel like i ll never get my innocence back i ve been on a constant stat of high alert and now i m burnt out i have no motivation heavily fatigued no matter how much sleep i get nothing seems worth it anymore,1 came door drunk high opiates hes ex h addict opiate rage real told me verbatim guy house hed kill spot questions asked pretty easy night ive spent countless nights barricaded bedroom rage past terrible grew gangs mexican mafia molested young age,1 source suicidal thoughts depression forever alonei met girl hit well lot common interest anime musici asked date agreedi didnt ask right away messaged months firstwe went restaurant eat saw movie date magical like dream happy thought finally found someone would love really thought always smiling making eye contact even let hold handbut day went shitshe became distant tried asking another date made lame excuse went ignoring me said fine give upwhy shit happen every female try get withim freaking year old kisslessvirgin fucks sakei dont think im bad looking take care go gymeat healthy shower every day on top work shitty construction job pay dentist bills also help family bills fuck economyif lovely girlfriend come home hard day work would lot motivated get am every day workis anyone else like mefallen deep depression cant find love whats point living doomed alone forever,1 attending army getting suicidalalright mandatory enlisting attendance army turn duration attendance months problem is cant handle anymore month get treated like shit even follow orders get dissed by different people asked medical care doctor check feet walking hurts lot days nothingi back home days tendons ankles gotten swollen barely walk getting suicidal desperate dont know long keep together parents wont allow quitting social stigma however leave here mandatory army way applied unconstitutional regulations un eu right un eu well country object due personal beliefs also battalioncompanywhatever way tougher rest country come second special forces only matter hard try get shitted people us object attending want kill person wish hold gun can kill person live without humility let go become part machine keep killing people lose touch friends family girlfriend person deserve get treated such become a man man want be matter much hatred people towards races such nothing pay country made feel like unwanted person cant keep sanity anymore none understands it complications attending these allowed work public sector allowed get drivers license country allowed vote social stigma want get degree university leave country dont plan coming again ever tldr parents unwilling sign stop attending mandatory army getting suicidal desperate,1 getting fucking worsename love much hope know this know rough been future ive messed irreparably recently life please know everything me youre reason got experience lot life deserved even though youve already done much me ask things please im life support let linger know hard know heart right choice please sign dnr please let go worth this anything anything feel promise regret knowing made feel way just best it worth it swear promise much happier without me please make sure pets okay need go vet didnt accomplish this please keep touch family please study much become marine biologist excuse me aquatic biologist know hate salt water please move apartment please dont sad wasnt meant world know disagree statement know sad please know im finally gonna okay anti depressants dont work stupid therapy guilt hopelessness please dont feel anything wrong nothing but called me angel savior please find love again please important wish good husband spread love someone else love much im so sorry know hurt ultimately see best promise im worth tears maybe kids sabotaged dreams person promised would be really sorry hope day future youll forgive me names im worth it,1 requested go bathroom right away helped that husbanddriver loading parts finally came bathroom asked wrong said he grabbed neck hurt me think go back him,1 show project today history rap im really scared plz give advice feel like imma mess,0 im still in school and i get bullied i dont have friend and i get beatun up almost every day and i get sick a lot like fainting alot and im just sick of it so here i am asking for help so will someone please just help me,1 joker movie actually good dont really know watched movie thought good long ago dudes twitter say wasnt actually good movie sucks ass whats opinion movie ,0 this post covid depression is making me go through it,1 welp im deleting reddit account im deleting reddit account reddit users virgins im anymore good bye,0 update im longer bathroom charger meant post update hour ago shower,0 In the limo going to see George straight!! ,0 turned its miracle still alive considering ive long depressed thought redflag progress think went worse every single fucking day worthless uthankful piece shit make everything worse hope die car accident something today always,1 "Everyone, here's Maria's LJ! http://bit.ly/TeVeR",0 every time happiness skyrockets feel fucking awesome comes halt self hatred anger disgusting intrusive thoughts comes back plummets im back started like cycle right now feel happiness slowly coming halt yeah excited whats come,0 everyone tells turn family things hardwhat family reason wish dead ive sitting idea killing while knowing feel push needed,1 im feeling little energetic usual im still tired ok context morning posted tired almost falling asleep classes sleeping bus school,0 encourage everyone listen album circles least onceto make relevant story suicidal broken defeated man coming peace situation theres maybe actual rap songs non hip hop fans promise promise promise worth ears find helps get rough days times even moment hear someone similar thoughts myself ill leave favorite line entire album dont keep head place know nobody ever see youre running low regret tears thats keeping wet think youre getting now day mac miller,1 @omarg let us process those cards and you can be even more productive ,0 todaysomedayi want die anything world want cease exist stop feeling shame selfloathing brought point countless times years cant epiphany opens eyes new sense purpose im much coward something it sit here day day out crying waiting day finally find courage need overcome last obstacle standing peacemyself,1 everyone subtweeting their s o saying sad shit is a fucking goober please save some of your depression for when bong bong win,1 book recommendationsanybody got good recommendations books covering effects redflag children whose parents decide take life looking material draw friend struggling suicidal thoughts kids nothing technical please thanks advance help,1 anyone else get nervous around hot girls even though interested happens lot wish could eradicate feeling,0 i want to be dead ive been suicidal for year im such a fucking retard filled with regret and anger im done with life i want all of this to stop why i cant do one thing right,1 pelf but work is demanding for so much more,0 midst adversityi continue display curiosityin way red flows wristsdown drainforever stuckbetween sensation willing dyingfor battle rages onbetween body mindbetween heart truly wants mind prohibits accomplishfor selfish desires would kill around mewhen truththe spirit want deadis own poem,1 make downvoted post history dream downvoted post history ill lose karma care lets make history yall,0 since age never friend cared me shitty ass school friends whose activity play fucking boring dumb video games whole teen life thrown away sitting front rectangle screen wasting life realized life brings joy good friends meeting other fuck man never experienced that everytime go city see groups people me awkwardly going alone streets course older brother good paying job wife good friends even moved times already me years old finished highschool scared job life days applied studying something know cannot it course got bullied secondary school since even know word social meantthis even long text felt like ranting today hope someone relate c anyone else never good friend interested you after childhood,1 something really stupid got drunk interacted horribly meds anyway cant remember im charged two felonies mi dont even know ill able get job im convicted let alone go law school ive studying for get approval state bar become lawyer cant go lawschool let alone get decent paying job ill kill self im scared parents find cant it cant cashier rest life could throw up feels like life something cant remember im sober feels like really risk,1 wanna useful make cash but troubling times nearly parttime jobs area closed covid and live restrictions super strict people age earning money would lot better me help parents pay fees school house bills along personal stuff need get parents working even harder make roof collapse year old boy feel guilty anything even though really want to im starting become depressed im feeling useless day passes want make life easier everyone want useful want help sigh,0 babe aint callin,0 dad told earlier id stop using internet much would slap existence dont know dad seems aggressive im using internet reas,0 females named callie here gf named callie went grandmas couple days ago weird thought,0 want die get old absolutely idea happens death seen rational perspective nothing cant picture nothingness wanted kinda get chest expect actual answers course,0 wait minute remember guys raped hey stop pissing im talking,0 relate heavilyi used idea graduating hs getting college would change everything could move boyfriend good life grades community college classes slipping wont get degree want able graduate college friends want world good life feels like things relentlessly falling apart dont actively want kill sometimes want stop existing little,1 im tired people complaining small dicks excluding females unless happen one three years old accident involving nail clippers bath parents watching leaving clippers counter reach serious anything bleeding bit skin torn uncircumcised yelling child get older developed scar tissue thing scar tissue fact layers upon healing skin making larger many would say oh cool dick bigger cuz scar tissue no get age much scar tissue uncircumcised penis skin literally verge closing dick left tiny little hole made peeing take minutes hurt parents take see doctor says need surgery surgery wake doctors say operation success theres problem things needed know circumcised dick meaning scar tissue issue penis soft hurt touch cuz covered skin years scar tissue penis grown im sitting dumbfounded like so telling thing size five says yes give time grow smaller average take quite long time forced grow complain constantly inches dick even ive got inch itll like till im least im rn,0 drshashsnk hoi but good thing is i can afford both therapy and book no more depression,1 my personal web site wa hacked what should i do,0 @richardepryor LOL! And don't forget 'I bring ignorance to the table'! ,0 sorry vent one tell to lost friends week fucked huge way inner turmoil bad things like lie broke trust spoke poorly them know actions warrant losing them loved them somehow despite this alone right scary painful know consequence actions hurts much know do recently broke boyfriend chest head feels like going explode went hospital earlier week get admitted inpatient scared try get help afraid failing ill feel hopeless now feel like redeeming myself want get better want change hard one along way one talk to tried reaching people life circumstances prevent us talking scared feel getting desperate cannot see way feeling like,1 want stopim tired everyone asks whats wrong dont know dont like all hate it hate confused dont know am im married shes amazing idea shes me try push away excuse least feel bad id never often hope happens me im tired therapist knows real truth feel wrong myself everyone would likely accept me me wish male wish id born way could snap fingers like thanos way im different transitioned whatever wife would still wife shed okay male cant risk telling losing her im trapped hate myself see therapist week enough inpatient fix this nothing fix this hate myself idea place works figured could say truth bc joined really wish could kill self keep hoping itll happen find caring say someone cant it wife depends much dont want hurt her im miserable feel alone,1 im edge starring abyssi cant guys cant fucking this im trying hard cant im lost hollow empty worthless disgusting less average life holds value fucking accident anyway wont anything great life im going change world im even going change someones life im lonely fucking lonely im particularly smart im even close attractive im stoic im cold hear voices see monsters health already declining reason live many to many already may knew would break may hit hoped something might change then knew nothing would fuck guys fuck cant keep going cant keep facade up lived her ive kept living feel like fault suffering starting weigh empathy im ready die keep up fight it ill probably four years road fucking reason worth enduring later im meant world im drag already rapidly depleting resources im fucking psycho hideous fucking psycho evolutionarily deserve live im fit survive please let take self equation please im nothing special nothing worth saving,1 cant wait c carter when bak skewl hate gettin sick it suks blech,0 story almost killed myselfokay really long im sorry that considering redflag please please please favor read this might help all might make difference world tldr version tried commit redflag with pills stopped taking several ended worst darkest experience life regretted stopping since happened life still great know redflag answer story bit background me labeled loner wrong so kid quiet everyone asked why led believe somehow broken social were selfesteem nearly nonexistent teenager thought ugly friends used convenience struggled sexuality lot guilt laid religious environment grew up social anxiety grew worse began withdraw cave bedroom isolated friends family alike job going college rarely attended church around people made uncomfortable angry that social friendly then couple months ago started listening rotten voice head told worthless said life meaningless reason live told everyone would better without bother staying one really cared right pretend to love to believed it slid hill faster faster nearing bottomless pit despair planning redflag weeks best way method would least painful want create mess want find body horrific manner want mess end screwing body live forever idea appealed sleeping pills gathered much could took several nights laid hundreds pills never gall it then one night much life reached point meant nothing all brought pills laid me started downing two three time got twenty stopped realized what doing panicked seriously going end life last moments earth would spent alone darkened cave hopeless lost miserable pain no want that go it tried throw pills work take long pills hit me cant really remember happened did ended falling asleep vaguely remember horrifying snippets night waking flailing demonic presences attacking or felt like me woke morning could barely walk stumbled bathroom saw still remember sinister looked pupils huge face looked evil worst feeling ive ever had went told parents id tried night called ambulance got hospital recovered quickly family best make much fuss it am still alive glad it life still hard me trials shared im comfortable so survived attempt mean suddenly find life peachy brilliant still days hate still loathe times im still alive still get laugh read good books listen rain still get gorge chocolate pizza sleep listen favorite songs again im still struggling find purpose doubt ill find keep looking believe were miserable found purpose life us feel deeply others results depression becoming suicidal please surrender please hold little longer,1 wake up in paris but it s grey need more sun,0 really anything look forward tolike title says dreams wishes go after im living parents plans go go college theres nothing want do see kill besides family friends missing me big deal me depression anxiety issues im aware of im religious theres nothing im concerned dying enjoy playing video games watching tv thats past year day ive told join video game related career lot stuff go college for lot money cant get also takes lot effort want put much effort pretty shitty life end life i look forward to,1 movies made suffer loved it loved it haunted days think erika kind character simultaneously loathe lament terrifying sex scene ever caught film best hanekes work far living director redefine pace since kubrick violence film gorgeous word film selfhatred sentence film trying find love order stop hating finding hopeless hope,0 @selfproduction LOL No worries. ,0 Depression is like a war. You either win or you die trying.,1 @BruniCFC Says an alpha male. I was talking about Chelsea giving me depression.,1 im going see favorite band end august think im donemy favorite band slipknot coming hometown august rd im fortunate enough opportunity see friend day passes however ill really nothing left live look forward to going wait till halloween favorite holiday even doesnt seem worth anymore ive struggling major depressive disorder suicidal thoughts almost years never worse recently make money job good friend others dont go school im dumb girl like going away college doesnt want relationship thinks school would get way figured seeing favorite band perform one last time would perfect memory go on anyways im sorry long read thank stopped read it means lot,1 hello minor years old exact yes fucking years old suffering depression since years old year told one friends two fav cousins depressed friend really helping know fake anyway cousins helping lot told feeling sad could contact could talk tell parents thinking want get therapy even correct age need parents consent want tell really harsh letting anything love tbh school blame school parents telling study cannot focus today cried shower wasted half hour even know cuz fucking hiding them coming cannot get therapy fellow depressed people know feels tell parents feel asking help want go somewhere nobody present scream cruel world lose voice coming heart kill plz,1 P.S. I wanna see star trek again ,0 redditors realize videos hot tiktok seriously like tik tok isnt bad u literally make ur tik tok page whatever content u want,0 hate step mom dad engaged her everyone family knows shes using him doesnt job drinking problem dad wakes begin working complain stressful day was cleans house yesterday got message speeding going passing lane told dad dad good terms know theyve fighting tf take me never gave shit years shes total bitch regardless im nyc blocked them,0 here school crowded hallway girls front refuse move thousands future changers humanity slowed them,0 reaching end road hereim life provided protected point skills idea fend myself got yet another underpaid shitty fast food job far fast paced keep up every minute every day like constant anxiety attack work worse want curl ball die every second it coworkers constantly ridicule help either last long job ill go exact thing another minimum wage meaningless job family basically keeping alive hoping kill point feel like theyve begun accept potential reality whereas saw impossibility im self involved felt like would destroy worlds away parents couple years think theyd able move on yeah unpleasant weve people family commit redflag like never even happened even ruin lives like theyve got much longer suffer anyway know selfish father serious heart problems last decade half mother frankly oblivious naive seems checking mentally anyways live sibling good bit older life together making great money great could help death theyre hoping move together next several months means need move out name not mention k debt credit score low s literally friends prospects places get room anything everything seems lining up like theres thousand signs pointing death never wanted kids give shit significant other frankly live long life ill likely die alone addict andor alcoholic theres issue alone prefer solace sad picture know ill it might pawn phonecomputer shotgun kind disconnecting family anyways maybe weeks months relative silence reduce sting them say constant guilt feel suicidal them would done long ago without hesitation wanna work ass hours week still live paycheck paycheck wanna contribute considerable percentage life time making massive soulless corporation even massive swallow peoples lives too care improve whats point create chemical reactions brain convince continue contributing society interest part of zero interest learning anything anything meeting anyone im alive sake familys emotional health im gonna reach breaking point think itll long now,1 i am not happy that i am still not better i have tried everything from working out meditating cutting off toxic people exercise being open and expressing myself truly i only noticed that it s getting worst and i have realized for the past few month that i am having bad side effect from my meditation and my doctor didn t even wanted to let me cut of meditation and even lower my dosage but thank goodness he lowered it cause i wa pissed he is also the one that outed me to my father and my aunt his sister then to my mom that i wa gay and he is my nd doctor btw cause my first one wa also dumb and didn t understand my problem i am so tired of this feeling you know a feeling that you don t wan na do stuff but just lay down and wan na cry also a feeling that you don t wan na do stuff or even eat this feeling ha been with me since 0 9 now and even though i tried to be better it just becomes worst and complicated i am running out of idea on becoming better atp thank you for reading this keep safe and take care,1 final rejectionthis weird kind long one im sex worker dancer ive job since covid yesterday got group text saying friend needs girls payed vegas trip asked us send photos well today learned texted us want knew wouldnt get picked always get rejected im ugly all since childhood ive always rejected found today friends picked not diagnosed borderline personality disorder treated bipolar since kindergarten ive tried kill self times since today never see friends again im kid gets picked last now know may sound dumb ive much rejection cant anymore clicked im researching helium redflag feels like way finally get peace,1 suicidal ideations bring great comfortthe perfect night getting bed imagining ways could kill myself great detail start end thought feel connected outside ocd tendencies consider treat fantasize death hours,1 aight need guys help gfs birthday gfs birthday right now as time among gift bought her also wanted give smth else whole heap happy birthdays her makes happy plan wish many happy birthdays possible happy birthday usomegirlxo ily much hope get many ppl possible support you,0 let's just go to bed....NIGHTY NIGHT.....rgh ,0 im lovin the new sidekcik LX. july 4th is a rockstar day for me and the other company members im with. ,0 baking oatmeal chocolate chip cooky to make me tired i can t sleep,0 curse my slow internet i miss youtube,0 thomasgudgeon well yes shame that you can only get the plastic one for the first generation,0 ooo dr who is on in hd ok ok i m officially a sad techy geek,0 anyonei alot shit life know answers lot things could save lives im going it,1 IM BORED AND TRYING TO STAVE OFF DEPRESSION BY MAKING U DO THIS BUT ALSO U ONLY HAVE TO DO LIKE ONE,1 first think would like movie progressed became better better love music impressed well cage could fake movements playing mandolin son also like movie lot music story way story unfolded slowly showing corelli girls heart acting story well done well directed first corellis bravado irritating soon grew you twists plot intriguing especially relations germans would like see follow side plots also want buy sound track hear music again,0 bad reviews understand treat low budget serial killer film might get mostbr br i thought worked way afterwards felt dirty wanted take long shower degree success itbr br i would say right level sleaze get skin although acting maybe bit uneven david hess brielfy get hopes much like last housebr br other worth look,0 "@vincelaurent Aahh I would prefer to become a politician here than being the "U" big thing, plus i am not that smart. Bensoir ",0 "Ok, here we go people, last tweet before the big show ready to yell at the top of my lungs!! i'll let ya know how it goes later ",0 oh wowi got banned days ago favorite place internet guess wanna die,1 teachers assign work christmas break called break reason break work project due th last day break want enjoy damn break,0 watching movie family dog sitting looking tv said oh watching movie want dogporn head thinking dog popcorn dogporn said outloud instant regret,0 @denharsh i'm afraid im def. a product of the NRI Karan Johar generation- I've been watching a lot of classics this semester ,0 therapisti see therapist tomorrow want know tell feel without committed daily pain spent today getting medicaid back freaking get surgery time go work today several hours today feel dominant hand barely eat normal food emotionally space want be like therapist trust him cannot deal locked without access medicine,1 "Ketamine Nasal Spray Shows Promise Against Depression, Suicide #health https://cmun.it/gmytyjgp ",1 wanted start working could move day getting fat medication doctor put on working making gain weight hate it want die really really sad,1 need help expert like guy says likes too problem is stopped trusting guys incident happened online know asshole move think every guy like guy dated before cant help it do say yes,0 i wan na go home,0 biggest karma whore universe browsing reddit stumbled upon gem account usmexyredditor apparently survived cancer children got heart surgery while grandpa caught covid also reposts others work like artwork etc hope steps lego psreport acc banned ps turns year old beat cancer posted sub beforez,0 boundless raw energy uncompromising vision talk radio brilliantly explores publics fondness reducing strangers private problems entertainment via radiobr br eric bogosian sensational barry champlaine rude inyourface talk radio host hes natural kind role fine tunes one impressive interesting radio personalities ive ever seen screen timing delivery insults various callers strokes geniusbr br alec baldwin also shines barrys boss demonstrates explosive cynicism would later display s glengarry glen ross supporting role truly stands stoned seemingly braindead teen played michael wincott see believe itbr br oliver stone robert richardson great job photography almost entirely confined single broadcasting room claustrophobic feel movie perfectly mirrors tone all one major points film exploiting peoples private moments draw audience stone demonstrates moments often private whole world experiencebr br talk radio film strong emotional cerebral impact likes seldom seen today,0 interesting story me watches ben shapiro religiously hardcore conservative present me hating gender norms means cant wear skirt public funny things work sometimes huh,0 known really want dead unfortunately forced stop considering option due certain reasons living world knowing want dead makes everything pointless forced keep body alive little necessary survivei mean anyone genuinely look future see anything worthwhile people fucking see hell get bed for worst part matter many times try think way this end getting nowhere nowhere go thing life worth living tomorrow working towards never comethis cycle never ends continue come realization belong right come realization nothing it continue frustrated futility efforts continue try obligation continue get absolutely fucking whereampxbampxbcheers working towards tomorrow never come hurts know might go years,1 "and with a click of the mouse, "Murder by Design" episode 1 has been submitted for approval over at @podiobooks ",0 idk anymorei honestly cant life anymore love horses failing school friends best friends im scared getting shot still want kill myself one really understands feel always private person gonna talk it help,1 i m at work and i m sick and it helluva lot todo this blow,0 die skies small planeso im successful attractive married wife adores feelings anything ive depressed entire life tried doctors pharma anti depressants even tried recreational drugs get last years helped till tolerance builand stopped working kids parents worry about real friends depression ruined life thsts all accept it people get cancer illness pass away years old interested airplanes dad aerospace engineer hes gone years successful home outright california many rental properties net worth around million money never made happy bought lamborghini whim thinking would bring joy kept garage years sold it desire interest sex opportunity women desire im like story a loser feels unloved inferior thats hates life quite love told im attractive got good going brain sick depression depression slow painfull tortured existence depressed understand guess like illness mental goes on better get cancer die suffer depression years ive decided wanna live much longer illness wanna found hanging garage something unpleasant like overdose gunshot methods im gonna take years get private pilots license thrn either buy a small plane go solo flight maybe take pills alcohol numb crash hillside mountain way people say died something loved died passion thats better remembered loser hung garage sound bizarre,1 reminder celebrating columbus day fuck columbus heres short list things columbus done he kidnapped gave carib woman crewmate rape a member crew cut native american peoples ears shock others submission columbus nothing he kidnapped enslaved people island hispaniola he forced native people look collect gold him otherwise would executed after taking island natives survived he sold multiple girls ages sex slavery after publicly beheading native american people left tied thanks coming ted talk celebrating columbus,0 know guts beauty guts virgin crap films hated many im gonna put bus say like em especially guts beauty aka entrails beautiful woman watched night folks pad surprised well actually went overbr br entrails type madcap cheapo horror softcore sleaze epic really find much outside asia specifically japan case basically raperevenge flick reincarnated monster instead silly shotgun murders motorboatpropelled noose even ticked daddy chainsawthat stuffs silly rather see hermaphroditic monster hilarious little snake monster winkybr br perversion factor movie high graphic sometimes wacky rape sequences fake pop shots satisfying masturbation monster sex sequences oughta like like corman nuggets like humanoids deep dunno maybe thats stretch personally think entrails beautiful woman let avid fan asian sleaze bizarro bpicsbr br yeah know sometimes recommendations always everyones cuppa tea even like kind garbage do stand behind one ,0 good enough dieits selfish post this im taking attention away people really need it people crisis need help im sorry thats kind attention seeking asshole am im going die yet deserve it need become better person die want death mean something want somebody someone couldve loved im sorry worthless ill try better wow reason post this fuck would post this im attention seeking whore really ignore me im desperately hoping random person thinks is interesting dramatic enough something care deserve attention care really want to im fucking pig like that edit ill ok jesus reddit amazing place turns theres cat pictures here needed someone care did need live now going painful messy cant much unless im alive thank caring,1 @itsposttmalone The depression hotline is outta service ,1 merry christmas nice christmas im gonna go socialize,0 need help worried friendi need help im worried friend im going traveling town chat had httpsscontentiadxxfbcdnnethphotosxapvtsx___ojpgohfeccdfdbeddcbdampoe information,1 edward cat feed hngrs internet points _ _ ,0 twitter is the only social medium platform i don t feel uncomfortable talking about how mentally ill i am im tired if struggling anxiety depression,1 going kill appeal rejectedim student us high school school limit absences per year ive dealing lot depression stuff like that ended going because well days gets bad cant even leave bed write appeal school board excuse them otherwise wontt get credits classes ive taken year even though im passing them doubt school board accept appeal personally dealt people it theyre legitimately kind assholes real reason guess like feel powerful appeal gets rejected id repeat year high school really reason already enough deal personal life isolating socially people age making take extra year high school really going help all really im left three options dropping out taking extra year redflag attendance thing im even bad student consistently as im going take extra year drop reason really third option redflag left appeal isnt accepted school board im going hang myself meet june st wont hear anything then wont know meet pretty sad im musician enjoy lot compose lot perform public can really want appeal accepted continue want do going kill event rejected ultimately would best option,1 is being lazy its awesome!!,0 junior high school flesh hit big screens good fortune see midnight movie houses nyc two years laterbr br flesh first part socalled trilogy films featuring joe dallesandro object desire bears warhol name work paul morissey essentially story concerns exploits surrounding one day life streetwise male hustler played joe dallesandro joe young beautiful bit naive manages bring home bacon wife reasons explained appreciate film fullybr br of special note film buffs film along remaining two trilogy script per se warhols superstars given simply premise words actions viewer sees quite natural even times ridiculous nonsensical works rolling stone noted review film better midnight cowboy film year polished hollywood an academy award winner best film big name talent i equally admire film flesh improvised somehow gut wrenching realistic without need complex subplots cause de celebre matter cause allbr br the film grossed million dollars absolute sensation particularly german market which ironically thought given censored version film posteditingsee note belowbr br curiously film much cut paste pops clicks flashes dialogue literally cut midsentence almost warholmorissey stating simple truth day life superstar snippets voyeuristic tendencies far better earlier warhol works hours sleeping statue liberty hour moviebr br flesh opinion first warhol films actually digestible given wide pallette warholsthe factorys first legitimate response hollywood phenomenon stardombr br as first trilogy portrays young desirable male icon naive sought after responding invitations please family subsequent films would show same character differing set values see trash heat,0 going to school soon can t find anything to wear gosh it s so hard,0 liked movie first told interesting story story told movie felt like condensed muchlonger story since book pages makes sense spans time period s s fictional south american country also lot fit time available think would much better sixhour miniseries turned minute moviebr br even though rushed story skip much gets confusing told told fairly well one fault claras supernatural powers appear inconsistently either appeared evenly course movie left out two faults which could spoilers estebans eventual return goodness happens somewhat suddenly ferulas curse seems wear off even though tone story suggests endure foreverbr br the acting excellent glenn close tormented spinster ferula outstanding jeremy irons brutal selfmade rich man also excellent meryl streep main character clara great although often even better movie many wellperformed smaller roles too biggest fault movie seemed lack dialect coach actor seemed speak different sort accent,0 i dont bother doing anything all day and im failing college yet im still tired and im constantly thinking about suicide,1 "Starting my day off EARLY! Lets see what God has planned for me today, NO foolishness I hope. ",0 dark placeim real dark place right now want pain stop feeling hopelessness go away feel like world falling apart cant stop it yesterday got huge fight husband partially fault escalated suffers borderline personality disorder took kids left talked im home still tension today oldest acting bullying brothers punished spanking sent room looked venom told hated me later came gave hug said sorry heart still hurts feel like im failing marriage children best good enough depression anxiety im trying cope stopped taking pills made brain feel foggy im sorry im rambling im sitting bed bottle pills want go sleep,1 ive gotten point stress sad tired angry ive let go posture bad voice low slow im tired literally everyday everyone tired fault think mean got huge mental health issues that barely survived btw abs math comes right push back im weak get overwhelmed feel like cant anything cry cry boys shouldnt cry anytime someone tried teach anything repeat never understand lost friends nothing nothing live for dont mean sound like pity party feel like theres nothing anymore,0 i don t know if it s that i ve been on antidepressant for year or that i repress my emotion and don t allow myself to process thing but i didn t even notice i went on my phone and started reading random bullshit,1 parents driving insane help dad says go walk which do make sigh louder would wanted want go parents hear me yell minutes get banned phone xbox computer two days dad leaves without waiting literally seconds finish putting shoes happened saying sentence why yelling go walk yelling reason minutes ago time writing this,0 @LTLline can ii come ? ,0 say like something wrong you plus jessica kinds hot reason may like set future seattle gone hell like cause future show could well happen,0 "I can't diagnose him from any distance because I'm not a medical professional or even a professional, but I *think* @kanyewest is going through mania.Fuck, I miss going through mania.At least I still have a massive amount of depression…",1 anyone wanna call discord idc youre awkward better texting dm filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 got spooky game ideas tradition make halloween themed game every year october ive got days left october got holloween themed game ideas would like either simple arcade type game game beat quickly,0 something weird cried last years even though years traumatic stressful years had even redflag thoughts while used cry alot reason got reason eyes go dry wth anyone actually knows why extra cry onions,0 i got hold razors tried slit wrist today couldnt cut deep enough theres pointless blood everywhere dont think effective way go jump front train car find may inconvenience many people guns arent sold city im really sure get one concoction available medications likely cause overdose work redflag prevention hot line talk people redflag regular basis all seems pretty clear life constant pain people wish redflag seen viable solution im sure im writing this guess maybe itll help figure put note something cheers,1 "#박봄제발내버려두세요 its been 4 years since people started hating Bom for taking medicines for her depression, you cant compare her to a serial killer she was doing nothing but taking care of her mental health!!! She did nothing wrong",1 Spent some time with the new girl at the old girls leaving do. wow. a little bit in love.. uh oh! ,0 add picture post phone wanna add pictures know,0 "Watching a movie whilst eating dinner, celebrating our good marks We enjoy spending some extra time with the children",0 @Jah423 rubs your arm Morning,0 anyone know among us player named coochie man friends started egg hat gang them dont know even reddit know player named coochie man usually plays orange started egg hat gang id appreciate left comment thanks ,0 had the best time at Dana's birthday party ,0 would writers interested writing group ive thinking making online writing group write talk get better share feedback writing promote creativity would fine people interested joining,0 birthday guess im now mean nothing really changed kinds cool years ago life starded even remember lol,0 redflag note would like feedbackive written redflag note ive sat weeks thought bounced back antilife always finds way id like critique it maybe another set eyes it im curious people would think im thinking ill post facebook decide jump parking garage im afraid falling regretting decision way dont guns dont want buy either think jumping might best dont want chances regretting past point return is small child thought universe solely existed torture dungeon specifically designed cause universal suffering thought existed solely pain plagued years ago maybe even perhaps even hard say mind gradually changed time since ive made significant lifestyle changes something ive probably times much come always feint feeling hope inside me hope desire change seek life want live become best version myself small hope reality actually something inherently good ive actually worked theory formula proving positive existence reality ive hit pretty big snag time around ive smaller psychological breaks one might one in perhaps depression self destruct mechanism genetically dead ends perhaps someone born without emotional needs met young age perhaps never taught tools form relationships human beings enter self destruct mode depression eventually kill allow resources socialemotional bandwidth better people perhaps people inherently stronger them like form natural selection built right dna perhaps depression redflag isnt abnormal perhaps fact people like born abnormal depression breakdown psyche eventual course correction redflag put another way fact someone depressed natural death assured via psychological natural selection perhaps process supposed happen people like me im error struggled depression since remember probably elementary school even preschool alone entire life preschool id hit kids wouldnt hang me wouldnt hang hit them feel echoes well adulthood maybe im still lonely maybe unloved perhaps never exist first place redflag course correction bloodline perhaps stop here hope ive explained well enough might bit esoteric basically youre suicidal youre supposed die isnt struggle depression youre supposed succumb depression die trying live whats abnormal every time see large group friends usually social media living lives want live happy couple enamored romance im hit intense unending jealousy always wanted loved always wanted apart bigger whole could never alone again since middle school always dreamt wife kids nothing makes happier thinking married life something simple grocery shopping wife playing kids beach seems paradisal me highest pleasure think of isnt meant me kind happiness never mine fought entire life years maybe sign universe telling bow out self destruct mechanism certainly seems like it else born way never consented existence anyways prison isolation ups life ploy effort cause maximum despair im allowed positive life experiences next negative experience crush even harder last process entropy completely crush soul theres shortage young men feel do youre wondering school shootings happen look african proverb takes village raise child village rejects child child burn village feel warmth secret plain day young men things feel isolated unloved uncared for isolation gives way depression jealousy jealously gives way anger anger hatred people technically structure reality mass shootings like twisted way showing god awful feel inside expression dread anything im like though dont hate people love humans anything thats hate home time want surrounded lots people time want one them want human too human enjoy life enjoy compassion love enjoy acceptance reality instead feel cast heaven straight hell love universe never something could have existed torment me depression sign god sign never exist first place ive written past maybe didnt get everything out feel cold alone loveless weak pain im tired sorrow dread tired fighting life im tired working meaningless jobs shit benefits quit job currently community college transfer university cant help feel like ive made huge mistake chasing dreams cant get full time job ive sent apps part time jobs reply im broke money im couch surfing weeks worth oatmeal breakfast lunch dinner healthcare expensive isnt offered part timers im tired living like this thats want end it im genetic error im thing wasnt supposed exist thats ones burden own bow out feel like say thanks everyone whos helped come far dont even know real not maybe one grand illusion maybe life one long nightmare im sorry death causes pain please understand isnt way time say goodbye thank you thats it im totally sold redflag yet feel like close dont think ive included everything here think gets point across,1 finished first 4-mi race in 33:09. 8:19-min mile--new record. also? came in second in my age group (30th place overall out of 100-ish),0 feel freei feel like killing,1 @__DearAngel__x oh. good i'm doing nothing. its boring here. how bout u?,0 fuck i feel a hell of a lot worse today,0 tutsy e say e wan heal from the depression torus bata notori olohun,1 im failure everything tired abuse since kid looking end pain soon need talk human tooi failed everything im years old failed abused age mom age present mom step dad remember telling teachers school nothing ive never friends entire life remember told one teachers going kill sixth grade told get back work mom pulled school punishment th grade made sign papers dropping out whenever went work always yelled screamed work fast food retail always deal bullies workplace see much ugly me ugly fat disgusting easy pick people like me went got ged twoyear degree joined new career field me ive deal nothing bullies workplace understand mechanical stuff became cad operator like wanted money move out end known failure whole life everyone hits yells screams calls failure workplace failure son remember trying draw something boss made fun said stupid join different career field ive worked seven jobs career field fired them seven jobs career field time span eight nine months deal people calling failure work saying cant draw need change career field im sorry even want work career field wanted money could move out matter anymore end worked since october work career field anymore hate looking mirror seeing fat ugly monster want know like friend ive never entire life friends mom would never allow friends kid adult never learned make friends im honestly scared people cuz know everyone hurt me like said see someone fat ugly judge them everyone judges people even admit it one wants friends someone makes hunchback notre dame look like elvis presley im years old im trapped hell last week stepdad got mad something think accidentally broke tool took me bruises scars body im years old keep getting hurt yelled at used punching bag never held another humans hand years ive eat bucket whenever eat whatever leftovers put bucket animals eat bucket too sorry im rambling much talk spoken another human months mean know like little kid sleep outside dog house yearold im even allowed bed house room stay day night sleep outside im always scared stay room hate it im trapped like animal want death release prison want die please someone come kill me im much coward kill myself im scared itll hurt ill give address please come kill me one ill im scared succeeding guess make coherent timeline idk know start mom step dad home soon cant computer theyre here login late tonight stay late anyone wants address let know make quick one ill figure use one guns tomorrow know tomorrow itll make easier figure use gun kill myself,1 cout ,0 attention women ages please dm girlfriend,0 miserablei wanna move isolated cave self ill never talk anyone again even though ill never know happened family go grieving process die want pain constant fear anymore everyday im terrified something horrible happened loved ones like car crash stroke whats point making every day end dead,1 Hay fever increases the risk of depression https://inews.co.uk/?p=147048 ,1 keep loosing followers smh literally minutes ago,0 days wish deadi hate life hate life hate people hate everything life general fucked,1 "3 days till Britney, excited ",0 bye loser virgins girlfriend i think shes fucking united states,0 truly remarkable film takes journey hidden emotionsa deep enlightening story story takes lives beliefs gay religious cultures excellent performances superb star cast touch deepest reaches emotions belief love risks nothing worth nothing film starts introducing us characters surface seem everything later find beneath surfaces character looking journey self discovery learn story must chose path life destined despite difficulties encounteran thumbs film,0 "just woke up; having a great long weekend, gotta do some h/w today though. but, then i'm going laser skirmish ",0 @bloodcicle use freeballin'! in a haiku please ,0 this is it i m sorry but i can t do this anymore i m tired and alone and i used up my resource to help me survive but it s over now i know my ex will be happier without me around and i know he will take care of our cat a i would it s going to suck not being alive anymore but i m done struggling to breathe i m exhausted i m bled dry i hope my friend and family can forgive me,1 deadlineso yea ive posted dont need go details crazy fucked whatever right im thinking need give deadline improve headselflife dont meet im gone guys think,1 @whitneyhess That sounds like a GREAT idea. I think I will do the same ,0 cant live world like thisi due self let periodontitis get bad humiliation fear dentist yell me teeth start falling probably within year ive brushed teeth used mouth wash years floss think necessary one people missing teeth find good woman looking like monster wont would rather dead wonder everyone saying me least im dead hear comments think it good future someone like world wife family good job theres point here,1 @clairabellejp thanks. I haven't given for nearly a year with one thing and another! Hope you have a good morning at work.,0 laying in bed and contemplating the meaning of life with a half empty glass that is leaking on the bottom,0 movie begins almost achingly slowly romance yawn seems ramble course all part plan then roughly one hour solemn movie feast worth paying attention first hour feast still solemn humorous suddenly withdrawn slightly petty characters come life everyone you characters leave feeling enriched experiencebr br women love this christians sorts enjoy profound faith demonstrated characters favorite movie time dinosaurs laser beams definitely movie happy seen missedbr br jim,0 ohhh i hate civics,0 teen programmers there please friend need guysguynts life,0 like penis balls choose ass weakling,0 @Teamcyrus I love you! I dont think i have ever met anyone as kind as you! And well done for getting 1000 followers! ,0 im finally emotionally better place im still want stay still may commit redflag please read understandi work restaurant industry graphic designer wasnt able get recent samples work poo hit rotating oscillator im sure restaurant business isnt going rebound fast everyone thinks many people think going go away things go back normal im sure think damage done im sure future there even things bounce back im sure ill getting call come back severe emotional issues adhd bipolar asd couple facebookinstigram posts mentiong needing samples work may screwed that ive idea wanted samples get work side goes on im told make look like im coming back ive since deleted them im scared ill end shelving groceries walmart heb kroger homeless mean medication id making minimum wage thats enough money eat cheap maybe pay bill id still sleeping street medication mentally ive preparing fact may walk everything own live street medication help id rather die go back im mentally prepared to want it push comes shove will living dead treatment actually feelings now im going back ever thank reading edited punctuation,1 redflagit brings little peace knowing thatll ill kill one day peaceful knowing end bullshit whenever want nothing help anymore im dead mentally,1 shower thought time wouldnt let post rshowerthoughts whatever reason dying afk way long server kicks out,0 i don t know if i could able to live another day or another year i hear everyday people judge who i talked to or what i m planning to do they hated my presence and how my thought is they hated my love of interest and my hobby because it s useless and not get you anywhere in life my mom constantly telling me i m not going anywhere in life because of the many failed attempt on planning to go to school or planning to get the job but no my self esteem and my joy for socializing people is ruined by my mom i m still in a constant unresolved trauma going on in on through my childhood where i get brutally beaten by people whose used to be kid and now grow up to be the same thing a me but selfishly beat me to the ground i couldn t able to save my dad through a stroke back in october 0 nobody understands me when i talked about my issue at home or my life they only thought i m a well rounded person who got lot of achievement and so called hope on me and now i m on my computer scrolling though which rope i could buy and how sturdy the fall is and use it before my birthday because nobody understands me,1 pristiq overdosecurious anyone knows effects pristiq overdose ive come decision want end life want know much pristiq would take complete task,1 On the road to my wifes 1st triathlon. 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Call the paramedics. ,0 want kill bad theres genuinely way homeim teenager cant get gun theres nothing hang of tall buildings area tylenol starving stabbing etc ineffective want die bad theres genuinely way feels kind awful,1 nothing make me feel more loved than knowing my close friend have my back my depression had been getting to me late at night to the point where i m having trouble sleeping and my anxiety is peaked but i always have the best people to cheer me up and calm my thought,1 byeif youre reading im either dead kill myself im sorry couldnt find happiness life anymore nothing left tried honestly im done one probably cares goodbye give,1 girl kicks guy balls hard one burst removed similarly violating horrible wrong rape unless necessary genuine self defense revenge rape something that view similarly horrible not seriesmovies make light that portray funny big deal deserved girls kick guys kinds bullshit ampxb also know thing obviously not im saying equally violating horrible,0 "eating food and stuff, then homework and chores ",0 speak forever hold peace either die filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 slept for hour had been awake since 0am yesterday and still i wa late for the exam got ta wake up at tomoro onwards,0 asante se she is driving herself to depression by being selfish and vicious,1 ventingi want die badly sleep wouldnt brave actually pull trigger hang neck im punk hate much wish could die sleep tonight,1 hey everyone first all throwaway account really frustrated year old guy rejections far counting in tried actually befriend girls well thing trying last couple months see friends girlfriends makes frustrated thing cannot get girlfriend thing cannot get friend girl cannot get girl talk mei get absolutely zero attention girls thought looks maybe ugly several people told average looking also fat skinny kind muscular i work outi seek validation people get enough d modeler video editor friends praise time make something new seek female attention get any makes depressed frustrated cannot get work done it makes unmotivated sad rarely go days fear rejection whenever try focus projects get reminded things every time concentrate girls do unmotivated female attention get motivation back,1 ive answered almost questions number game yeah lets go here httpimgurcomadaadhttpimgurcomadaad note question higher lower pic idk op jumped prepare sex related questions people wont like answers prefer say male idk honestly kg wont convert americans ukraine libra prefer say prefer say prefer say xx ddmmyy russian ukrainian english green black orange yellow white vegetable stew or pizza talk homemade stuff drawing idk indie glass animals sure idea many games like idea homework lol idea im worried future no hope never no again hope never cats dog idea prefer say japan probably probably one maybe think twitter pinterest much idk artists bandsmusic artists like etc many reddit mellisa pinterest youtube prefer say twitter yes uxthrowawayaccounthttpswwwredditcomuxthrowawayaccount sent hw friend lol reddit insta something youtube pinterest twitter atleast two hours day laptop mean lol dont think idea fragrance guess no laptop lol idk got wireless headphones hate wireless headphones lay around its pic reason idk answer short brown hate meme thin slavic guess pajamas brown boxers one lots body hair legsarmpitsarms dumb looking moustache bit beard gay never relationship crush girl moved away school older like years yes im gay im also biromantic romantically im attracted genders idea would never smart protective strong biiit shy funny supportive muscular belly well beard lots body hair something like this httpimgurcomatxhvyxhttpimgurcomatxhvyx nice conversation restaurant enough understanding other supporting other live love yes yes no think would get tattoo get older though talking myself yes think im attractive mean parents lol doesnt gay biromantic measured like two years idk theres lot hair there ill shave bit later like every two days yes second part httpimgurcomatxhvyxhttpimgurcomatxhvyx body similar this thick dick sex risky place turn ons smells like smelly armpitsunderwear im prepared downvotes turn offs idea idea different ways it well ive fast enough hide mom probably understood everything uhh idk often like ive sex tell sexual stories want partner rough want understand want serious it also since im vers want vers idk answer wont lots different things prefer say class teacher ukrainian language teacher actually talk like person age computer science hate sometimes highest probably pe literally give us highest grades nothing lowest biologychemistry hours it ill everything morning received yet bet math exam got bad grade since get last thing learned ukrainian poor lower class rooms kitchen bathroom living room lol prefer say small enough public wont answer last ones ok fun im prepared downvotes sexual questions get stalked woohoo good day,0 slayer doom eternal,1 so i literally have barely any success in making friend i make friend we get close then they disappear from my life i m in uni now trying to make friend i have a small nice friend group i get invited to some of the hangout etc but i constantly feel like there is tension between me and a few people like a if they hate me i made a friend last year now she barely talk to me and i genuinely think she hate me to add i m not a sexual person at all so i never made advance with any of those friend if anything i try to avoid physical contact because of constant anxiety of making people uncomfortable i also have low self esteem which is pretty clear but i really feel sad about having people not like me i mean some people always get text and are friend with so many people eventhough theyre barely more social than i am i genuinely don t understand my problem amp x 00b tldr how to make people like you a a friend how to stop thinking everyone hate you,1 subreddit yalls maymay know existive seeing lot teens lately absolutely fine teen too quite frequently however ive noticed years even though everyone super great supportive helpful sometimes need people age relate everyday issues adolescents exception so want link rteenageredflagwatch thats okay yalls sorry already done ,1 want live bad dont want kill cant livewow im ive become th grade future set want entrepreneur six figure income big house pool my parents never let get water backyard smoke marijuana in frequent grilling parties youtube channel purchase guns shoot love call duty sexy wife kids now dont even look forward anything anymore everyday get depression hole cant cope im going deeper deeper terminate myself havent happy long,1 rather tired after last night work getting woken up early doesn t help either,0 robluketic love the french i tell people here in the south i m qtr french and they snarl at me french are beautiful people,0 reason parents seem mean get older par reason parents seem like get meaner get older see loosing you thing parents feel like loosing get older want baby use be example asked something right away argue it want mean want baby again next time get angry yelling talking back thing take feeling perspective dont get mad thats gonna make worse trust,0 i know its so basi but i love guy ritchie's piece! ,0 There is a difference between being anxious every once in a while and having anxiety. There is a difference in being sad and depression. If you do not know the difference go read a book before you open your mouth and try to tell someone to get over it.,1 ever pmed commented one posts stalk profile daily thought would let know,0 i m gon na lay down and count my breath until i fall asleep wooo lol it s cuddle day today i need someone to cuddle with,0 @catherineb33 you can put "cleaning the showers" and "mosquitoes the size of my head" on the counter-list ,0 "1 September ...We love to change things! Be prepared...Flavourz is coming,,,,Hahaha",0 talk discord kittens imapedowkiwemjujijirj,0 low point life want talk someone listen november th former best friend arrested possession marijuana got let easy vehicle weed got dollar fine day blames entire encounter since completely betrayed trust essentially leaving without friends lets put events day aside focus today couple friends state rarely get chance speak them former best friend recently blocked number facebook steam account never gave reason why tormenting month rest former friends made decision exclude cut contact me aware history severe depression anxiety take consideration all ive dealt heartbreak xgirlfriend fairly recently father turning drunkard threatening kill people fear life sometimes close eyes wish would die next time walk outside wish would struck lightning pain anywhere near comparison others im slowly losing live sleep everyday dreams always better reality previous reasons kill family possibly still cares starting disappear favor really want longer part fucked world,1 parents house spring break nothing do suicidali friends literally lie bed stare ceiling went pc gaming cafe played games hours nothing else life worst part return university fucking hate even more working degree know get job go school lots stem majors agonizing swear thing take mind things video games went grocery stared charcoal consider charcoal burning redflag method someone please help me,1 dont really know else domaybe want vent get start killing myself things arent getting better life playing around bad luck life fallen rock bottom really want kill venting doesnt help one respond me cant blame stress suicidal ideations think would better wasnt alive even type feel like whoever reply saying wont leave leave like everyone else genuinely think unless say want kill thing someone willing put time me whenever brush idea ignored always leave get worried someone care ignores ironically pushes away im worried mess feel like id everyone favor gone,1 im shellim going post long post past something make u feel badthat dosnt matterim looking resurance friends want someone tell wont always feel like anymore want someone tell theres depression letdowns need someone tell gets bedder,1 clair denis revisits theme estranged fathers men follow bliss determined fashion heedless emotion toll family nnette boni earlier film live narrow world marseilles examination louis trebor intruder takes us remote location along frenchswiss border half way around world korea tahiti film begins mid stream louis sixties coping ailing heart attempting maintain high level fitness learn louis stranger violence cabin location smuggling gunfire regular occurrence louis sleeps large knife pillow rifles nearby denis hurry move action along must patiently build understanding louis daily activities people deals along frontier including son sidney grgoire colin almost unrecognizable long hair wisp mustache rejects lunatic shown dedicated father two many brief scenes which seemingly unrelated build impression louis milieu ms godards camera work exhilarating here controlling metaphor louiss heart transplant goes korea tahiti search another son found louiss new heart rejects sidney rejected old accustomed brief scenes deniss film inexplicable nnette astride boni feeding spoon drive shooting bonis father briefest images boni gunshot wound head scene louis morgue cadaver scar transplant body sidney implication last two rejection real imagined father kills something indefinable son,0 "ewww, goin 2 school. peeace oh & spencer pratt should really shut up.",0 pointi good friends job drop college year never relationship either im always looking way human contact despite this life particularly bad home state supports enough live minimal life could still finish degree apply jobs least train skills time world see would want that sit home pointless stuff keeps somewhat happy sane hand brought another problem mind months is even continue living point anything matter die today live another years accomplishing nothing past week thinking ending void feels far better option today spent entire day researching different redflag methods could drift away but im starting feel somewhat content pointless stuff actually preventing making final decision constant desire dying im sort middle ground cant kill cant live either want way feeling,1 im tiredi want kill myself im tired life,1 grum wah i can t see clip must be el stupido work filter can t wait till i get a puter something else blame ex he broke mine,0 close friendships driving insane want screami dont feel like belong planet know sounds cliche really mean it feel like im physically mentally im somewhere else ive always found difficult connect people like matter do im never good enough im always last choice guess im socially incapable keeping friends thing is dont want friends dont deep friendships want deep connection people seems like dont want me see people around age time lives friend groups im constantly asking whats wrong me cant that thing is whats point living life cant deep connections people im time life this lonely life like really worth living,1 femibello mourinho is a victim too pogba wa playing badly and pogba wa a key player for mourinho which led to his sack pogba naming mourinho a a cause of his depression is bad pogba hasn t won any trophy or played consistently since mou left he wa treatedwell with ole but still a mess,1 one taking seriouslyapparently im happy depressed want kill myself want people help,1 every time someone says see professional much closer killing myselfi see professionals take medicine nothing helps one find solution stop every time someone says reinforces one answer pain forever die please someone help,1 @winterfreeze179 nice..... real smart... lol! ,0 we re here to help we are online therapy platform which essentially connects certified psychologist and people suffering from mental health issue such a depression stress and anxiety among dozen of other clinically defined disorder book your appointment now http t co kt eyujmrw,1 painless poisonsdrugs redflagi need know quickly please let know,1 want watch suffer spicy wings charity stream im going hour live stream youtube channel radgamerdads ill eat really hot wings feel free watch suffer weekend also take donations extra life one dad looking engagement stream,0 ayy lost friends become distanteveryday fucking battle,1 clarseek hajji if you do it a a you be ready for whatever come out of it but you know the right thing look for someone dat is aa we don t want story lamentation grief pain depression later in life my prayer is that you avoid this silly act,1 twittering and peep watching in downtown san diego at lunch.. luvin life! ,0 i m 0 and i m alone and it s tough to pretend i m a whole person amp x 00b i haven t made a friend since high school i m starting to befriend someone at work but it s giving me a lot of anxiety because when am i going to say the thing that make her hate me it feel like i have to do everything right to be social or maybe i m missing something that everyone else ha or maybe i m just not cut out to be social but to have friend you have to answer them when they fucking text regardless of what s going on in my life and i just don t have the energy to keep up with that i recently had someone tell me i wa probably not doing well on bumble bff because i m a slow responder sometimes i don t know what to say sometimes word aren t happening in my brain sometimes i m just too tired maybe missing out on social thing for all of my 0 s is something i m never going to be able to recover from amp x 00b i ve been in a lot of workplace where i wa the loser i had no friend i d catch people saying mean thing about me they all get together with each other and i m not invited i ve been in multiple situation where group of people don t like me and do shitty passive aggressive thing to me every chance they get i don t know what i do wrong i try to just be a genuine kind person i get feedback that i m nice i know i m not perfect but at least i ve had some feedback that i m not totally delusional to think i m a nice person but there have also been a few time where i know what i said there have been a few time when i can pinpoint the off comment that make someone turn on me and it must be more than one off comment because it s always easy for that person to get a group to turn on me it s terrifying to feel like at any moment i can slip up and someone will just decide i m not worth their time amp x 00b and i never feel like i say the right thing some of my coworker s response are lackluster think lol and i just wonder if she even want to talk to me making friend give me the same anxiety that trying to date someone give me that s kind of fucked up i should probably not care so much whether or not someone decides they want to be my friend but also it affect me i feel like i m not worthy of friendship because so many people have decided i m not worth their time and honestly this is a big moment for me because this is the moment i realize i ve internalized all that rejection and got to where i don t feel good enough for friendship why would someone pick me when i m a ball of nerve why would someone want to hang out with someone who only feel like half a person amp x 00b lately i ve been doing okay relative to the last 0 year i finally got a job that doesn t feel like chinese water torture i m on medication and that help a ton i m a lot better about not letting myself slip into negative thought pattern this week i haven t been feeling the overwhelming cloud of misery because i finally got medication that isn t expired and i m taking it regularly but every time i think about social stuff it just give me this squished feeling i can t name the feeling but it s visceral my body feel shitty i m going on a vacation with my mom and her work friend in a month and i m so fucking nervous because what if i do the thing that make everyone hate me i don t even know what the fucking thing is but spending four day with people who are talking crap about you in a small space i did that around this time last year and it wa so bad amp x 00b okay amp x 00b i m a solution oriented person and part of my problem is that i don t know how to fix this part of my life i don t really know what the solution is to feeling unworthy of friendship it took me eight year to figure out the solution to hating myself and honestly even though it s a struggle it s also worth it to fight through those feeling and find an even timbre social situation are just approached totally differently from a mental health perspective i ve googled how to feel le lonely and the fucking answer wa make friend how do you make friend when you feel like nobody want to be your friend and for good reason therapist have basically told me to find a group and the friendship will happen naturally but there s not a huge meet up scene in my area and i have a ton of anxiety about going to one and the few i have been to were not great i couldn t read the book on how to influence people and never feel powerless again i got halfway through it and it honestly felt like customer service kiss as bullshit but this time i m not even getting paid for it that book make me feel like i have to scrub my personality clean and poke myself into a small box to be socially acceptable amp x 00b i just don t know i m going to keep trying different thing i m going to keep putting myself out there because the only other choice is to keep doing thing the same shitty way with the same shitty outcome amp x 00b i needed this rant today and if anyone actually manages to read all that thanks for your time and i hope both our day get better,1 wish i had all the xblm downloads all on the gamertag hitokyri this gamertag thing is nonsense and i m tired of it,0 @_TASOfficial_ I really miss XYZ since 2016 i have Post anime depression and its the most longest pads i ever have. :<,1 hanging least painfuli thought overdosing jumping etc think hanging technically least painful unless break neck shit,1 tbh idk why im writing this im struggling a lot ig i tried overdosing 9 day ago and barely nothing happened and the small amount of euphoria i got the next couple of day wa amazing idk just the fact that i could die wa comforting so now imma try midol i only have like 0 tablet ill prob only take it prob wont work but idgaf anymore edit would anyone know if this would work,1 throwing awaymy husband going difficulty time now diagnosed severe recurring depression anxiety shortly lost job could afford meds worse started well recently asked divorce acting secretive discussed divorce years ago decided to found seeing another girl kept going several months secret alarming me go crazy go every account look phone records etc found phone call number recognize long periods time working call ask says chick met facebook driving crazy want gone want feel hurt anymore keeps telling love long time want me etc married him married better worse divorce option me death divorce,1 udisguised_noob favorite redditor udisguised_noob favorite redditor,0 im done trying make something myselfi know things live for things get better stick it seriously life freaking sucks found girlfriend cheating me friend ditched plans watch nfl games today knows what im freaking fuck pass accounting semester ill barred graduating sort business degree university literally ambition anything right now idea want im going it hate everyone facebook getting married kids starting great careers im barely getting by hate right even care fixing makes even worse somebody please help know much longer hold ,1 ashley tisdale i love you but why did you dye your hair,0 lets goooo confessed crush likes toooo,0 Went shopping try to get things fixed Yo my shit went BOOM I trapped the wrong program Oop's Blue sky shining at me Nothing but blue sky,0 past week playing furry visual novels havent attached ever since met wolfgang animal crossing discussion post want know bad sign not love wolfgang wolfgang isnt treating like before ,0 day age every news story involves discussions waterboarding images abu ghraib tales forced detentions guantanamo bay gavin hoods rendition uptotheminute timely movie ever likely come entertainment mills mainstream hollywood not stretch imagination perfect film neither merit caterwauling opprobrium received hands critics across ideological political spectrumbr br the term rendition refers ability cia arrest individuals suspects terrorist dealings whisk away secret foreign country interrogate torture indefinite period time without due process law anwar elibrahimi egyptian man living twenty years united states american wife young son new baby way seems unlikely candidate terrorist yet one day without warning explanation anwar seized taken undisclosed location subjected brutal torture admits involvement terrorist organization anwar claims know nothing aboutbr br on negative side rendition falters occasionally storytelling abilities often biting little chew terms plot character ostensible focal point douglas freeman rookie cia agent brought observe anwars interrogation hands egyptian officials problem that conceived writer kelley sane enacted jake gyllenhaal freeman seems much nave boy scout make plausible agent given screen time needs develop fully character know little beginning even less seems end goes motions learn precious little man within thus without strong center gravity hold together film occasionally feels coming apart seams story elements flying directions similar problem occurs anwars distraught wife played reese witherspoon woman never get know much apart see surface gyllenhaal witherspoon proved fine actors circumstances hemmed restrictive screenplay rarely lets go beyond single recurring note performancesbr br what makes rendition ultimately powerful film however extreme seriousness subject matter way two concurrently running plot lines elegantly dovetail one another movies closing stretches may make slightly contrived story perhaps might liked subject but hey hollywood all film pay deference mass audience expectations get green lighted let alone see light day completed projectbr br two supporting performances particularly compelling film omar metwally makes palpable terror man caught real life kafkaesque nightmare cannot awaken yigal naor makes surprisingly complex character chief interrogatortorturer meryl streep alan arkin peter sarsgaard also make marks smaller roles special mention also made warm richly hued cinematography dion beebebr br does movie oversimplify issues probably stack deck favor torture victim evil government forces definitely one wonders movie would played anwar really terrorist yet movie guts tread controversial ground afraid raise dicey questions risk disapproval political stances takes openly ponders issue nation hold fast hardwon principle civil liberties all face terrorism fear much courage take people good finally stand say enough enough even risk branded terroristappeasing unpatriotic power the movie also not way deny reality extreme islamic terrorismbr br thus reject rendition hand would allow perfect enemy good rendition may perfect good something importance say world live alone makes much worth seeing,0 imohumoren that s where i have a problem not knowing who s is who till i got con of 00usd con another neighbour of 00k sold the gen in my family house now have till april end before i get kicked out all i have now is depression desperation without smoking,1 alcohol poisoningi curious much would take die drinking weigh lbs dads liquor cabinet looks pretty stocked,1 stephenkruiser you poor spunky it so sad my rotti made it to 0 and i had to go down the same path i know how you feel,0 sure im right placethings came head tonighti fighting wife mother dying stage lung cancer spread lymph nodes neck cutting right lung add years depression get staring end shot gun debating getting something trying chantix quit smoking quitter wondering anti depressants treated you also getting something cause literally to it straight break recurring issue still aware enough know serious af,1 cold heavy temple minutes nowive pump faked trigger coldness feels good sweaty head mother would flip huh feel mocking me want tears roll cheek jaw tenses up leaving state blankness fucking room quiet im done,1 since i can remember a a kid i had problem with anxiety it is not that i can not hide it except tremor but sometimes it is too tough and overwhelming whole my life i used to be compared to others and rejected at first instance of any kind of trouble it troubled me a lot because of bullying body shaming physical abuse even i developt chronic disease and had suicidal thought because of it the worst one wa rejection by the close one who said nice thing about me and thought otherwise my spirit in a way kept me feeling better because i made myself go against anything even if it is that stressful and i am hyperactive i know i am strong willed on one side but there is huge unsettlment on other side which is very hard sometimes to control i can have 0 bpm doing just nothing the worst thing actually are my thought and overthinking every single decision that i ever made i am thinking about going this time to have a talk because i do not know how much i can take more and when will my will break at some point even tho i make myself do thing to feel better,1 good enough girlfriend went friends place today ex there knew shes loyal wouldnt get anything w him went resturant w family time got found abt hugging looked happy got upset told didnt like like says but hes friend like that really hurt see hugging another guy told abt started arguing plans go back tm plans see eachother tm wrong good enough fucking hurts cant tell bc im controlling letting friends genuinely love hurts,0 anxiety thru roofi cant deal it dont fucking cry lot cant deal,1 ok first all ignore last person review admit falling asleep wonder understand going on thrillerhorrors go film aint bad certainly watchable right opening scenes get general idea exactly going cause craziness follows come end proved right everything made clearbr br i enjoyed movie quite eerie times old films go passable great watch late night give generous ,0 justanotherjerk i wan na c quot no doubt quot soooo bad,0 @bigtrocks Thanks for the #followfriday love! ,0 hmm nice placement ampxb httpspreviewredditeklnpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsffbdaffdbbfbb,0 my other alt account wa deleted so i m posting here today i had a mental breakdown on the basis of what i feel are good thing in my life disappearing inexplicably oftentimes whenever i attempt interaction with aforementioned good thing the last straw wa today over a fairly trivial issue but i broke down because of so many thing that had happened recently in my past that i wa unable to shrug off my life is fairly good and i am very lucky to be living in a household full of opportunity however it feel a though whenever i try to fully indulge in what s provided to me whether it be by my hand or anothers it s normally gone in no time flat about the call i wa in the middle of my breakdown and tried to take the rational course of action calling the hotline because i desperately needed to talk with somebody only to vent my frustration and promptly be hung up on by the person on the other end of the line i tried calling twice more ok case i hung up on then by accident but wa almost immediately disconnected and the last time wasn t able to be connected with anyone fuck what if i were actually about to commit suicide and just wanted someone to talk with only to find out that they didn t care about my problem either it anger me just typing this i m sick of living this way i don t think suicide is the answer but i really just need someone to talk with about my frustration thanks for reading and hopefully your day is better than mine,1 @_GREGATRON i agree! ,0 At boyfriends house now ,0 "JUST STOP. Dopamine is for mood elevation. Norepinehrine has activity on both @ and B receptors, increases sympathetic activity. Serotonin levels decreased in anxiety & depression while oxytocin causes uterine smooth muscle contraction in active phase of labour. Period. https://twitter.com/hamzaeqbal/status/989195927742238721 …",1 am decompressionnot friends disgustingly lonely family worried think makes look bad one live with afraid dying fucking hope something changes sooni tried fkin hard,1 nobody leftno friends left disowned parents girlfriend wasnt ready relationship everyone told stupid getting sick boyfriend guess kind good thing anyways one biggest things keeping wanting hurt people nobody left hurt nobody turn help feel like could without guilt idk even explain reasons it ive suicidal thoughts since kid maybe bored life always feeling hollow even shit goes south cant cry even want to every day painful breathe honest dont want get better already hated fact people survive bout cancer suicidal fuck like me things considered redflag might biggest accomplishment life wish best goodbye,1 advice attracting opposite sex ask fish fish would you ask fisherman take advice get girls girls get boys boys,0 "@NikkiNoo1956 Sorry, miss read that, did you say you couldn't fit your arse in the Brixton Lido ha ha ",0 woke wanting stab stomachthrough through sister sleeps top bunk unawares dad shuffling work curled corner bed hiding covers feasible since blood would stain sheets mattress want take plastic cover getting bad again,1 @radagast22 you have a cat? awwwwww. thats so sweet ,0 want scream top lungs methis feeling crippling suffocating im better dead everyone,1 accidentally slept classes im really bummed guys distract,0 cry helphi want die friends isolated years ago feel like waste space much anxiety everyday cant make house im idea want life feel meaning hanging dead tall place help reach peace thanks nd cool nite,1 i have failed you martha,0 stupid things kids people want know kind things think stupid people kids mainly kids,0 i never talk about these thing but i m basically getting closer to suicide i ve already seriously tried it a few time and i m still waiting until my family is out of the city to get it right but i still feel sorry for my grandparent i know it s not so normal but sometimes not everyone can handle their problem especially if your parent don t support you in any way and even making thing go worse these last year i think i lost my personality and i went from being the energetic and sociable guy to just a passive and socially isolated one i tried to talk about it but my dad doesn t think depression is a serious stuff and my friend say everyone go through thing like that i mean doe everyone go trough this is this normal,1 made hot rstartrekmemes im hot shit interwebs sweet sweet internet points anything useful life ah life,0 Yay! one of the kittens is alive and she's having another one right now.,0 "@skadworldwide You guys did an amazing job on my shirt, you picked my favorite colors ",0 lets swing together beautiful park sun shining,0 many xans w alcohol kill medont pull none get better bullshit im tryna push limits die die theyre straight mg pressies fillers,1 worst week far online school started thats kind annoying worst thing suddenly lost ability shit earlier week everything normal suddenly went bathroom nothing happened think time days still able shit took laxatives stuff right school tomorrow cant sleep stomach active volcano,0 still up trying to finish a mix,0 age gender m i ve been dealing with my depression for a while now and some people including my parent know although my biggest regret is telling my girlfriend when i told her that i have been trying to take my life everything changed i understand it s just her caring and not knowing how to deal with it but it s been such a burden on the relationship i m not longer human to her i m mainly a ticking time bomb i m starting to feel like i ve locked her in this relationship because of this disease i have we can t go a hang out without her cry about the fact that my life is hanging on by a thread and i know this is extremely selfish of me how could i not be appreciative for this caring girl to be honest i couldn t care le just every time i see her break because of me it make me hate myself more i wish i just kept that side of me hidden away from her to protect her from it the worst part is she can t help me even though she try so hard and she know it every day feel like a toss of a dice whether i will live or die and she is watching it all helpless i love her so much she keep me going but god i wish i had a time machine to go back and make sure i never told her just then she could be happy until the end i m sorry vesna,1 really bad heart burn school night trying fix sleeping schedule slap face know heart burn makes things laying fucking hurt fuck you oh whats that need breathe continue already shit existence sucks breathing hurts fuck part like human body trying get speed run redflag took pepto pain medicine done shit sucky thing really tired stand unless want release cocaine feening cthulhu pain chest cavity get wrong standing hurts too calmer pain makes sense,0 feel stupid trying im cowardly redflag im cowardly try dont want toi took day drinking week since ive drinking constanly past three weeks im back feeling like ever drank screw this need die soon,1 first saw title already deducing theme film clearly reference british currency shakespearian pounds flesh taking them giving them smiths feelgood actor serial killers out could man giving them must guilt somehow spoilt whole thing looking knowing story watched beauty buildup way parts main characters background drip fed slowly illuminate audience doingbr br guilt hard subject simply deeply uncomfortable sad encouraging premise hoping rollercoaster ride know going unpleasant say movie glorifies suicide delves extreme form selfsacrifice martyrdombr br its also brimming symbolism everywhere surefire telltale sign writing cleverly thought great detail driving multiple meanings deep reflective nature prominent theme struck giving heart girl loves emotionally metaphorically giving physically greatest gift could determined die plan thwarted falling love nd act complication absolutely masterfulbr br yes slowpaced im undecided whether would better slotted smaller timeframe feel strain terrible inner turmoil much could have maybe thats ruined beforehand saying though deeply moving original film incredibly powerful thoughtprovoking tragedy deserves awards inevitably get,0 got report card grades flunked so normally im good student high grades last year lowest grade ever b however last year teacher bitch know probably respectful since hes helping learn didnt gave detention pointless reasons constantly picked reading answering questions front room much could even though knows horrible case stage fright the principal told teacher let independant work often group work care worst thing is let get beaten up yard patrol time lunch got picked every day one time early january group kids throwing big chunks ice mainly targeting facehead teacher saw instead coming break since knew defend kids stronger me walked away smiling got concussion teeth damaged im lucky need braces away weeks injuries grades year as cs dissapointed im online school year im often confused were problems focusing im really anxious good thing online teacher really nice helps catch up cant change grades best mark b lowest c feel ashamed disgusted myself heard got fired know care long leaves alone thanks listening little rant wanted get system,0 im done class got fucking c science project earthquakes cause too complicated cause went physics earthquakes cause kids class level mean sink level,0 bird phone hes biting case help get,0 please tell keep goingim partial hospitalization program eating disorders right insurance havent able receive treatment last three days ive disassociative episodes flashbacks destructive urges lately argue family go psych ward go residential care come here may fight go different residential recommended therapist im tired fighting im fighting hard stay alive family wants magically better without actually getting treatment anyones reading would really appreciate words encouragement hope everyones staying safe sane,1 one greatest s movies sticks like turd punchbowl cant believe mad magazine denounced whatever yet proudly put name show stuart ispeakanoenlish chinese lady ups guy speed whats that and love ron leibmanhes foxy wonder name removed credits funniest role know of course hes nearly foxy norma rae but opinion movie right national lampoons vacation liked movies porkys fast times last american virgin s teenfocused movies love one rent see mean,0 give reason tothats it kill myself,1 say county usually say cowny slowly sometimes becomes caany like aaa sound like bat,0 everytime conversation starts keep silence hide suddenly disappear chat want talk one person time cannot anymore actually think becoming fear me like fear groups walking street see group people talking other want dig hole ground hide pass feel feeling like lost capacity talk groups,1 less introspectivei often find thoughts tend dwell myself im almost constantly lost thoughts really hurts social scene tend keep keep quiet also affects activities could reading playing video game watching movie thoughts drift towards myself changes however ive drinking absolutely zero selfexamination drinking id like state sober ideas,1 i lost job already months ago im feeling pretty damn worthless right now thoughts ending keep rattling head cant anything right,1 @twilightfairy yeah .. you are right I'll let him know about this,0 ey yo boys homie kamren needs big tiddy gf help out already got best girl world man two anime body pillows singing sad song sad playing guitar poorly get man girl,0 sacha baron cohen genius movie good although film nearly reach quality tvshow still funny seriously wicked moments ive liked ali g since first time saw material show think hes one best comedy characters time say peter dragon action blues brothers biggest surprise film theyve actually got serious actors dance gambon absolutely respect even more good sense take chance nothing really bad say film funny juvenile hey what br br one thing mr g sequel pleasebr br ,0 im going use shotgun better mouth side headputting barrel mouth easier im sure effective die shooting mouth besides putting hole back head want right side head probably effective extremely difficult do im afraid use one hand hold pull trigger kind kickback going fuck think get foot around use toe pull trigger lol,1 i had plan for the future big plan they don t exist anymore a relatively recent assault took them from me the assault also took away my ability to enjoy being out of my house the thing that once made me happy no longer do i can t take care of myself i m on med but they don t help i get up and go through the motion but on the inside i am dying i am just a shell of who i once wa what s even the point why am i still trying,1 im tiredpart posting last resort dont know anymore life seems series one struggle another hate pitying way ive wanted die long remember remember writing poem years age ive never felt like anyone ever understood me desire die isnt purely emotional though ive tried hard view situation objective stance death seems logical decision point psychotic may sound ive several clearly unsuccessful redflag attempts first occurred attempted drown rescued friend second incidence happened april took ibuprofen admit time cry help anything taken hospital given charcoal ingest dont think medically necessary procedureit punitive anything therapy recommended time complied found largely ineffective last time four five years agoi forget took advil fell unconscious woke vomiting sleep waited hour two and realizing wasnt going die called ambulance paramedics upon arrival told would probably die told amount ibuprofen ingested admitted hospital d therapy was again recommended time found therapist saw sessions deeming futile im years old born caucasian father multiracial mother who time early forties one older brother seven years senior half sister already years old born parents undiagnosed mental health issues father contracted ulcerative colitis young adult warranted proceeding ileostomya medical procedure removes ilium a part small intestine rest gastrointestinal tract follows it creates stoma essentially hole elimination waste made father extremely self conscious consequently lived entire life without making even single friend translated family living isolation grew up us family friends limited any contact neighbors feel like socialization skills inhibited this wasnt grade school really opportunity interact people outside immediate family painfully shy softspoken little eccentric quickly casted peers teased many things growing upmy multiracial identity voice appearance mother my mother rather overweight time intelligence taciturnity name few around four five family member molested times minor time surprisingly weve talked since felt terrible it doesnt bother anymore used to life ive struggled health elementary school asthma severe hospitalized multiple times every year remember years old coming pneumonia fell unconscious fever escalated nearly degrees prematurely pronounced dead hospitalized time afterward returning school many asthma triggers one grass every day lunch mother picked take home lunch afraid playing grass contributed feelings isolation whats elementary school without playtime fortunately asthma control still get bronchitis every year though immune system rather weak pick colds like magnet used love run cant anymore chronic knee problems luxating patella sides inherited mother sciatica know health problems minor im thankful that life home quiet growing up part since parents s little worn spend much time me siblings far ahead developmentally want play pretend me parents bought whatever toys wanted compensate recall feeling extremely lonely child cant remember time felt lonely brother hit adolescence life home quickly became volatile violent brother so sister got physical fight parents resulted father needing number stitches brother went juvenile hall several months released remember fearful time remember hurt feelings quite bit middle school tumultuous time me befriended become quite close one two classmates past years decided ditch without explanation eventually realized wasnt cool experience repeated repeatedly throughout childhood young adulthood time hurt significantly freshman high school parents got divorce father immediately remarried woman younger sister dad late fifties wife time prison fraud prostitute porn star stripper meth head ultimately released dad took go see her make long story short relationship didnt work out father known stoical became suicidal afterwards remember one night called mothers brother taken mother somewhere likely grocery shopping told jump balcony stole mothers car and without drivers license drove dads house got acted like nothing ever happened time got first relationship lonely desperate time welcomed first person ever show romantic interest relationship stormy one jealous type attempted regulate every aspect life towards end time together longer allowed talk anyone else school him could wear makeup dress up could longer devote time hobbies which time consisted mostly drawingpainting playing video games ironically years later apologized way treated me remains one closest friends day although speak infrequently believe holding grudges shortly that would sophomore year high school performance school began decline younger gate gifted talented education also pulled regular classes given individual attention around reading when nd grade reading th grade level friends wasnt learning anything class began develop record truancy teachers complained bright wasnt applying myself enrolled honors ap classes barely passed rarely attended didnt care anymore graduated barely parents always believed id end stanford ivy league university many ways feel like failure started working junior high school graduation began work fulltime attended local community college time switched majors frequently unable focus single subject long eventually settled business administration subject im passionate about seemed like safe choice would help pay bills eventually transferred mediocre local university transfer student even though im still one class left officially degree failed many classes due inability focus im sure degree even value,1 mycaricature the only bit that got me really wa when he said babs wa a bad mum i m sure that hurt her even though she s laughing,0 @jhamby @rjcc @Freeyourmindkid @SaneN85 Kanye was one of my favorite rappers (his older stuff is still top notch.) His change in behavior was sudden & occurred right after his Mom's death. I'm sure my depression/anxiety makes me look like an asshole to ppl who don't know me. He went on Ellen & called out the rap /1,1 remembered one day chilling harden discovered hedgehog garden hole side dead pond,0 want diemy dog saved redflag years tried could give best life could day took vet messed fucked trachea collapsed couldnt breathe emergency surgery soon possible wouldnt last end july theyd able surgery instead couldnt afford either one euthanize dont want live anymore always promised died would im pregnant now weeks know stay alive life keep going cant believe lose him almost years old healthy otherwise followed everywhere protected moms abuse younger almost years live without him wanted live long me wanted meet baby never will want die much want him fuck life me dog since puppy killed another dog december couldnt cope miscarriage weeks right died fianc trying chose try thats im pregnant now dogs literally lifeline theyre gone now fuck survive without them to,1 im bad personi hurt someone meant world me hes left blame encouraged it heart broken feel lost know else say know feel know do,1 feel like cant anymore attempts past obviously survived tired take group weeks sitting park bench thinking would like end life straight life situations cant survive spent entire first years abused escaped tried make new life turns quite work like that met someone thought safe obviously take away mental health stuff helps turns angry aggressive understand stuff use make feel even worthless friends reach reach times welcome never graduated university shit job illegal job hate provides shit apartment abusive bf drowning debt cant pay back cant crawl back home hope change afraid fucking redflag attempt making things worse succeeding think im done razor home calling,1 muchwell know start im certainly done keeping head seal job involves making people miserable young started back felt fun felt adrenaline rush now opposite way every day life feels stolen good man luck feeling especially strong new years people kind im stillme fiancee asleep next room im writing this ive mean people tonightyesterday europe ive mean her left party felt like much tried hurt myself like usual cut dangerous couple years militaryrecon training know make people die tried hurt stopped late felt fiancee still needs cant leave way took neccesary preacutions friends coming minutes watch me still longer feel manly man mc man always pretend im certainly okay sothere probably people need urgent help still feel better posting this know took minute read try understand me good person need someone hear cant say close ones thanks reddit happy new year,1 message ulefish ugly stupid go die painfully,0 found my sana and ha realized that just like a white girl i eat my problem,0 can t sleep again,0 need someone talk toi need someone talk generalized anxiety disorder im senior high school im falling apart,1 Getting ready for another busy day at work. Praying North Korea doesn't nuke us anytime soon. ,0 tried put sugar coffee back spoon happy monday everyonestay safe sunflowers one days,1 okay know start going pretty unorganised cannot completely express myself going end mind ig surei introvert antisocial athiest logical etc personality expected parents people around me always forcing change personality want explain hard rage know feel ig let want instead scolding everyday shouting wasting time force change personality understand want people neighbours judge lot going make life harder society wanted pretend enough always end getting teased extroverts want tell idgaf want talk you cannotmost times especially night sleep start reviewing day explain correct mistakes people around made stupidly wrong like correct even chance debate people always wrong comments always homophobic sexist illogical also sometimes generally misleading wrong even parents scold wrong reasons time explanation might change mind ends mindit home even school shy able answer anything justify end getting scolded reasons supposed tosome people might say speak mind hard it damn hard sure everytime take long breath talk end exhaling talk anything seriously forget words like blood instead rushing brain rushing legs arms asking flight fight times like cannot anything care move on night realise going affect life like that say get depressed everytime sure going struggle entire life end destroying opportunities imagine life would better lonely never relationship online friends another source depression things sorry repeating topics also interesting thank read idk sharing idc upvotes like explaining wrong people concepts myself makes somewhat happy ig but end depression bc going happen always ends mind,1 feel stupid writing oh wellfor year thoughts killing myself ive come close several times can outside perspective see killing good thing inside every cell body screaming way out mental illnesses getting worse friends feel distant world feels far away like im space water im screaming course nobody hears me cant stop thinking would easy slip reach forever feel writing this admit desperate writing here dont really know maybe see im screaming empty void maybe get feeling out honestly completely lost,1 mind talking everything bad literally everything even relationship gfevery slight bit work perfect boom mind head try make feel bad everything completely worthless moment hope nothingin last weeks got far even feelings overwhelmed turned sides gf busy felt ignored even something dowhile work do sit here knowing end relationship regret losing team position game server highest achievement almost years know useless canceled study means future work distanced almost friendsall head mind hates wants see suffer alonei sitting things never done like trying cut arms blades scissor hittingpunching head hope goes awayif something would wrong anesthesia last week would finally sleep peaceampxbits first time really doubt survive till next therapy meeting without serious harm mind killing,1 anybody else cuddle buddies not feeling touch starved id gladly send virtual hugs platonic internet love anybody needs trying times dms open anybody needs it big virtual arms,0 theres nothing else do ill likely dead augusti cant move dads disgusting home cant afford school anymore cant even get fast food job one wants hire me cant anything fuck everything hate hate society im fucking loser,1 so now it s just a wait amp see game i fall asleep amp it might or might not be there when i wake,0 painless methods richas turns,1 @KrisAllenmusic Hey Kris! Where are you first headed for your tour? Please visit the Philippines! ,0 its almost dinner time!!!! ,0 my heart is abused with so many hurtful lie and truth i hate being sappy about these kind of thing i hate it,0 @wendywings We aim to please ,0 aight im boutta horny post warned guys unironically really could use hug guys havent felt close touch somebody damn long,0 @Running5k2day especially right b4 vacation! ,0 getting tired httpsiimgflipcomitdnjjpghttpsiimgflipcomitdnjjpg,0 ha anyone had trouble with making progress in therapy i ve tried therapy a fair bit throughout my life and i ve never really gotten anywhere this year ha been exceptionally hard for me and so i have thrown myself into therapy and put a ton of effort both into finding therapist who were a good fit a well a really trying to put effort into it unfortunately i seem to be a failure at it i ve had four therapist tell me after a few month of seeing me that they didn t think they were making any progress and although they all offered to keep seeing me if i wanted they didn t want me to waste my money i feel like a complete failure and lost cause i honestly don t know what it is that i m doing wrong,1 guys caught light turning closed fridge,0 fucking hate mom mom stabbed fork cookies sister made counter put away yet reason expects suddenly know kitchen gets dirty rush fix it cookies like theyre gonna next hour people grab em yknow anyway needed rant,0 ted danson great choice play gulliver even though background mostly comedy shows drama well perhaps even better though lot humour this hard turn blind eye american accent especially since character supposed english thats minor thingbr br all villains equally well cast james fox edward fox peter otoole warwick davis john standing etc despite fact either tiny people giants believable everything motivations clear eg lilliputians unremitting suspicion gulliver grildrig giant dwarfs hatred usurping position court jester dr bates attempt gulliver proved insane marry marybr br mary steenburgen great mary gulliver another th century english character american accent never mind deeply tormented character waiting nine years husband return home finally does talking tiny people giants flying island talking horses mary despite strong fantasy element story believable characterbr br the special effects breathtaking especially consider filmed television scale time cgi infancy looks realistic see foot tall man walking city filled people inches tallbr br the cameos great well omar sharif richard wilson sir john gielgud kristin scott thomas ned beatty great actors create strong supporting cast complement dansons superb acting abilitybr br the houynhnhms yahoos probably effective element story satire side things society talking horses possess vices humans yahoos primitive disgusting humans mate forcefully appoint leader depending disgusting is gulliver mistress study also well done displays differences similarities humans yahoosbr br the best version gullivers travels far one best miniseries ever,0 done cant anything bring life normali failed friend student son want die got friends real llife talk parents neither got aim something life tried erase thoughts thinking old memories school life never good one video games helped fill emptiness got bored them foolish things done life gives regret really coward pos reason live ,1 cut hairi hit point life got mad hair tried cut it ruined made flat uneven ended crying long time calling redflag hotline help me waiting half hour hung one answered,1 hi recently got testi got test grade told mom let know checks online grades anyway told grade yelled told worthless waste money left immediately searched commit redflag im depressed if get f iphone switched flipphone,1 stop glorifying mental illnesses please see many people social media here ones too making beauty accessory mentally ill fun doesnt make u alt btw indie kids alternative sorrynotsorry dying hair mental breakdown ik people gonna say uh thats tiktok kids cringe that lot people too yeah sad one day doesnt make u depressed stressed doesnt mean u anxiety organized ocd blah blah could go hours resume dont say mental illness youre diagnosed cutter find extremely annoying hear friends say theyre so depressed shit like that im invalidating mental health stuff joke oh also unrelated dont make comments selfharm scars pretty please friends joke like oh cut hahaha theyre depressed seeing scars lie say cat u clue painful is also currently getting medical help dont worry point anyways rant probably makes absolutely sense people probably gonna downvote something well share whats mind,0 felt nothing read take weeks might feel something hope feel happiness hope free fucking brain fog stuns almost anything productivei also hope medication work long time stop working weeks so took first antidepressant today,1 future isnt brighti feel empty like shell used be feel like everything matter like people care matter feel like everything falling apart like events happening things cannot control yet suffer consequences control ive tried go therapy ive tried medication nothing works cant fix it im afraid point may get best me,1 easyim starting wake cant get back sleep start thinking reasons hate body cant control clawing face punching wall want let body know hate it want know placed body feel like im tortured in go around day one knows everyone thinks im teenage girl thats moody im boy angry skin come home parents know understand get angry understand im yelling feel like douchebag anger overwhelming cant control it ill teased much school people understand im trying me think easy would march upstairs bottle painkillers belong dad deal torture body people accepting fact never true body meant in sink back skin try fall asleep thoughts like broken record head think about feel like jumping running living room parents sitting telling everything think no that fall asleep,1 thestar rage i want one too is the branch in midv open too,0 artemisiii aw sorry to hear that i don t know what i d do without jean in winter,0 im fifteen already want dieim tired living spend day alone ive lost track time last months flew cant focus anything im constantly exhausted lived toxic family ive gotten beat belt thirteen punched twice constantly insulted father tried telling mom brushed everything told her sister completely invalidated anything said whenever said something little please that got attacked ends family trust anyone that cant talk people whenever someone tries talking freeze up whenever adult tells anything completely spiral teacher would tell stop something would feel shameful got bullied pretty much entirety middle school schools punching bag everyone would always make fun barely spoke all teachers joined too would get called on go silent would wait speak everyone waited around found friends least thought did im anybody else talk too year entered high school terrible get through felt empty time would pass would stay room im scared leave im scared talk anyone now feel like one life trust then first semester went home got called retard dumbass idiot days got pushed around yelled at etc know feel now im completely lost alone isolated im tired haul everyday want sleep things used pull work anymore anything friends anything enjoy anybody turn too cant much longer feel like escape this keep waiting get better suddenly four years passed nothing changed nothing seems change know else do im hopeless,1 me: wow summer depression won't hit me this year i can FEEL ITsummer depression: pic.twitter.com/8xSQZsnnAT,1 want livei lost friends cycle depression negative thoughts tommorow day gone,1 PARK BOM IS NOT CRAZYPARK BOM DEALS WITH DEPRESSIONPARK BOM DID NOTHING WRONG #박봄제발내버려두세요,1 cure constipation step taco bell step step profit,0 Murals: The Continued #NYC Commitment to #MentalHealth http://ow.ly/SFhu30jG6kx #APAAM18 #MHIZ #MentalHealth #therapy #healing #psychology #psychologist #newyork #nyc #lcsw #anxiety #depression #anxiety #psychotherapy pic.twitter.com/e6Awk2EWcV,1 GoodNight Everyone ,0 "mtv movie awards tonite!!! new moon trailer premieres whoo,excited!",0 franzglaus i know just wanted to let everybody know what wa happening,0 idk else post this something thinking bit mean post gate keeping judging way deep always kind suspect suicide attempts people take big amount pill take anything prevent throwing cry help thing like cutting superficial scars blood crust show people see someone tv wherever recognize kind actionstropes communicateim desperatei need help replicate communicate message environment think kind blurs line really suicidal peoplepeople harm symptoms mental illness ones asking help suicide ask help,1 I'm a LONE SOLDIER. Aha! That's how I really feel. Taking on my own battles & shit. Spare me the drama & just let me do it! ,0 @erichsalvesen well I'm glad I could be your first @ reply! Have a good weekend man! ,0 dont wanna feel betteri dont wanna get point life im better dont feelings anymore wanna die move next life whatever suicidal depressed anxious dont know dont want want exist,1 im tired failingafter surviving last attempt felt anger im usually passive quiet person incredibly frustrated im failure even kill myself ive lost count attempt last one probably th th draining fail fail life even fail death fail never get back up life always worse im tired know cant give up cannot ever stop trying kill myself belong world dead free constant pain hopefully next attempt fatal keep trying anymore,1 nobody cares me way contribute anything society cannot quit business alive wtf,1 feel sad empty feel feel empty nothing bad even happening right still feel bad point pain fucking stop,1 boysyou need stop calling ex gf bitch aintbut bitch means female dogand dogs loyal hoes aint,0 being border restricted victim day by day we getting engulfed in frustration depression suicidal attempt and much more that we can t express in word depression fmwangyisaveindianstudents takeusbacktochina,1 mom wants medication now dad wants smoke pot instead know doi trying show mom video made noticed moving legs table againmy psychiatrist told fidgeting due part anxiety turned video tried simply talking talking incredibly fast heart racing speaking like seventy five words minute told manic episodei told yeah thought bipolar took online test said exhibited symptoms bipolar dad said bipolarthen started moving legs way prove point kept asking is offensive you got mad yelling her said mom mocking me told said nearly tears mom freaking mocking me know hate mock mocking me ended apologizing mocking me hugged bed now legs moving speaking like words minute heart racing speaking shaking really bad start taking medication go get blood test every three months check liver problems seriously bad trypanophobia cant even think needles without freaking out know want do mom asked drawing blood thing stopping taking medication said yes asked so would rather take medication suffer blood test every three months thats looking like me told things continue refuse take medication find plan b plan b dad wants smoke pot him ive actually done couple times tells im allowed tell mom since moms nurse totally it two options either take medication man up adult say tell mom want smoke weed dad im stuck middle know do,1 years lowkey dictatorship ruling party country finally lost election finally freedom couldnt happy cant sleep excitement years old whole life single regime president announced man year organise crime corruption occrp stole billions upon billions dollars country closed almost every factory country almost comletelly crushed hopes dreams cried happiness pure joy tonight guys means much wouldnt believe,0 stay home plays sobs uncontrollably,0 done life like anything goals interests hobbies noticeable cause this ongoing years therapy help tried everything could think fix those asked advice least people one else help me go job like cant think single thing id actually want do friends girlfriend emotionally quite sensitive coupled people treating like exist using me losing interest short while great potential im fairly intelligent anything mindthinking based easily pick want to think worse way im wasting theres nothing want do id much rather stupid useless potentially greatly useful honesty think theres single upside life im considering living it need rope something sustain weight easy selfish solution again anyone reads this theyll probably think im emo something really matter difficult understand unless spent straight years caring people come across hoping one return favour person wants know you wants make sure feel happy mind you eventually gave caring people it knowing people are seeing cold eyes probably eyes,1 finished writing last words time eventually comesive dealing thoughts years gotten point dont even feel happiness sadness anymore havent told anybody know due deep rooted trust issues fear telling secrets fear burden others definitely cant tell parents im even sure tell friends want able confide someone close honestly think possible demons mind cloudy right honestly want let win point im confused empty lonely right now even though good people life dont think anybody truly lean give shoulder cry on end day dont think commit soon as im still young thought always mind feel like one day thoughts end consuming me,1 see point anymorei see point anymore future see anywhere years know anything useful feel unwanted lonely scared reach anyone know struggle selfharm people make fun it remember last time happy myself reason attempted yet im afraid parents knowing im dead thinking fault see way right now,1 educational show focused emotions interactions relationships produced detroits abc affiliate syndicated markets nationwide past week detroit public tv hour clip show part pledge drive wow memories resurfaced remembered show segments id forgotten remembered instantly soon theyd begin hot fudge holy moley detective tomato pies facebr br for public television special search hot fudge comin atcha concert,0 i've had a good day. ,0 "I'm becoming a major fan of saltwater pools!!! After I'm done swimming, I still smell like the ocean! Oh the discoveries of summer ",0 tried kill last nighti sitting patio imagining walking intersection could see there sudden compulsion walk there did standing sidewalk watching cars pass by almost daring walk front one also getting frustrated none going fast enough kill me minutes this broke crying punched wooden post frustration making knuckles bleed cried sidewalk while feel like shit wanted die bring it im stuck still,1 movie moving tender funny time scenery absolutely beautiful peter faulk paul reiser gave award winning performances olympia dukakis great understand due story line part brief wish could seen hershe true proyou able recall experiences life hopefully notredflag way seeing movie fortunate see paul reiser q viewing wonderful man clever eloquent real person truly enjoyable night outthis must see movie grateful went,0 gang bandits lead shrewd rugged ruthless monetero a perfectly imposing performance gilbert roland steals worth gold coins daring train robbery untrustworthy member bahunda an amusing turn jose torres makes coins hides them unfortunately bahunda gets killed tell monetero stashed booty monetero join forces cunning cocky enigmatic bounty hunter stranger smoothly played handsome george hilton cagey corrupt banker clayton a delightfully weaselly portrayal s teen idol eddie kookie burns find coins skillfully directed enzo g castellari clever complex twistladen script castellari tito carpi giovanni simonelli playfully amoral nihilistic tone everyone keeps double triple crossing happily greedy abandon twangy flavorsome spirited score alessandro alessandroni francesco de masi plenty stirring shootouts rousing roughntumble fisticuffs wickedly sly sense selfmocking humor steady pace real doozy surprise ending giddy often hilarious feature makes inspired sendup sergio leones the good bad ugly popping nifty secondary parts luscious stefanie careddu moneteros fiery gal pal marisol ivano staccioli hardnosed army captain gerard herter flinty lawman lawrence blackman immensely amusing enjoyable romp,0 "@JebDickerson Hi, Doc Dickerson! 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Opened a new Twitter account to tweet in my native jargon, too ",0 it's gonna be a good day. ,0 close losing itim close ending it im fucking sad depressed feel like failure everything need help messaged therapist like week ago okay never answered dont know do need help,1 help friendim sorry wrong place post this please tell theres better one friend depressed looked going therapy says cant afford it twice messaged middle night talking shes suicidal thoughts wants die always try reassure really care appreciate caring people worry one day wont enough anyone advice help more help get help,1 expect val kilmer make convincing john holmes found forgetting porn legend himself fact entire cast turned amazing performances vastly underrated moviebr br as mentioned earlier seek twodisc set watch wadd documentary first give lot background story helpful appreciating movie br br some people seem unhappy lapd crime scene video included dvd number reasons might included one john holmes trial murders first ever united states footage used prosecution want see it easy avoid clearly identified lapd crime scene footage menu,0 miss someone miss someone isnt valentines day post anything fact nice evening watching movie friends miss someone much cant go day without thinking them probably paranoid im scared ill never see again evidence suggests im wrong cant trust calm down every day think them voice smile everything rough five weeks us want safe safe themself cant them could would holding goof arms never letting go late im going sleep now goodnight miss you,0 pfff i want to go back to bed i feel horrible today,0 hiya im mental breakdown room drinking currently am honestly think life worth living anymore pet dying got harassed limited online grown adults im currently waiting get trauma therapy stuff happened past barely friends life shit hope yall okay though need help,0 i hate being awake going to school western civ presentation andn a really awesome lunch,0 im trying really am cant fix myselffor past months ive noticed alarming increase depressed thoughts noticed would beat even harshly usual whenever crossed street would fantasize getting hit car getting shot robbing gone bad work started hitting gym focusing grades work within past months ive lost nearly lbs maintained a average even got promotion work mood continued decline day spent thinking goddamn useless am cant kick consistent funk cant talk family ive managed slowly distance friends im basically alone this ive patient honestly cant keep faking way day day out,1 eye labyrinth average gialloand honest im really sure really giallo giallo not despite problems certainly interesting little film im hesitant call giallo film feature things make films are many genre entries break mould would seem one them film feature brutal murders many giallos do made surreal atmosphere plot confusing enough remain interesting duration plot seems simple enough focuses doctor murdered julie patient who reason sees lover father offended walks her relocate big house lived number people nothing really seems number secrets surrounding various events happened julies arrivalbr br the film seems professing something mind like labyrinth never really comes off preferred sit back enjoy going rather worrying point if any film trying make eye labyrinth directed mario caiano director behind excellent night doomed years earlier create atmosphere well film earlier one surreal aspects story come well mystery always kept stops film becoming boring film stars rosemary dexter provides eye candy throughout also delivers good performance rest cast really worth mentioning exceptions adolfo celi good villain piece alida valli cult fans remember whole host excellent cult flicks film explain end lucky im sure im viewer little confused then overall may classic stuff good enough worth seeing,0 want happy get help knowi really know anymore ive tried everything cant stay happy know thats ive ever wanted happy nothing want kill scaring much,1 missymoouk oh no i know i haven t cried that much since wham split up,0 keep tossing bottle around thinking finally itmy fear failing want end hospital want end it im little scared possible seizures guess but things reliable things have want hurt oh well ya know say im thinking using want encourage copy cats,1 even try anymore ever wear out use me disappoint leave mewhy sick pleasure get it enjoy watching suffer enjoy making sufferthese past days miserable years worth depression happiest month at leastat point fault everything always is always easy scapegoat anything nobody cares carpet everyone walk need clean shoesi hurting years one even remotely bat eye everyone fake fake care fake attention fake friendships fake family bonds fake work dynamics fake love fake kindness fake fun take never care me toolonce stop useful overshadows benefits bring leave deadi one life one soul see burning abysses overseei know going end it hell thought ending past months todayjust know previous yo eta probably away current etayou go die even try,1 Depression is a prison where you the suffering prisoner and the cruel jailer.,1 http://bit.ly/12TOOU yayyyy I'm very happy right now,0 well fuck it asked friend said yes never thought would courage ask never thought hed say yes know fuck say now help please,0 dont want doive written rewritten letter everyone many times thing holding back fear missing out missing big epiphany life need provide meaning it want here feel pain day day out cant get hump want something happen change mind know coming making go crazy,1 Having dinner w my dad. ,0 i don t understand why thing get taken away i didn t have enough time with him it unfair i want him back he wa like my baby,0 warning rapedsoooooooooio notes folder facts wrote sorry format happened im sitting feeling dirty disgusting awful help please im begging help hung tinder weird texts anothey place didnt know said take whores said didnt want go vehemently many times pulled hair choked called names forced me manipulative didnt submit leave mouth open mind gone pushed head couldnt see w going dick choked scared numerous times terrified begged use condom forced inside said stop pushed room hotel goes behind hotel first literally throws around slaps forced penis leaves let check go get condoms gets car accident was super low gas prob acts like genuinely likes person im genuinely terrified individual reinforces self doubt im sitting clothes underwear inside begged to laughed crying made think overreacting playing game no hes done girls im ashamed also im really mentally messed ptsd things happened afraid nobody believe please help please help happened im still wearing panties so im shaking im shaking dont know,1 "Do me a favour and just accept me for who I am, stop trying to fix me like I'm some extreme make over barbie doll kids play with, nobody's perfect, I'm happy the way I am right now, suffering depression is bad enough as it is as well as suffered heavy menstrual vaginal bleeding",1 anyone want exchange nudes currant desire ivory power untamed teal got fiery saffron,0 always heard great miniseries viewed first time week july see started careers many young actors story intriguing gives wonderful insights period civil war cared characters lives evolved period stereotypes still helped see people thought s many historical facts thrown story interesting see history books come life costumes sets gorgeous thoroughly enjoyed watching parts ii part iii disappointment,0 im want attempt redflag againplease help,1 get date dm date,0 When I watch icarly/the suite life/ SonnyWithaChance/HannahMontana/ WizardsofWaverlyPlace it just makes me want to be an actor even more! ,0 need thing something sets apart plebeians,0 question american uk teenagers also differential equations integral calculus graph theory highschool easter european thing,0 anyone else view odd names relationship deal breakers were gonna date name easily said name weird unique im tbh gonna romantic cant even say name seriously cant think top head im hispanic lot spanish names eh me anyway anyone else like this,0 stuckstuck loveless relationship kept around give them pretty obvious stuck them family seeming mine abandoned randomly go either kids awful want now seeming im dealing roughly hours day take leave job handle stress im tired see light end tunnel redflag starting feel like answer,1 feel like dyinghi family doctor revealed mother depressed ssri medication im legal adult expected information classified anyways mother told grandmother told uncle told cousins told mutual friends everybody knows im incredibly embarrassed ashamed completely enraged doctor cannot believe information got everyone want kill myself anyone somehow convince might bad seems,1 final try tho im still depressedi stopped new low saturday night took g aspirin one sitting went bed next partner love entire heart went bed hoping ill die sleep woke morning partially deaf nauseous lightheaded sick stomach done rushed er driving placed icu almost immediately ended staying nights days hospital took various blood tests worried internal bleeding brain swelling etc denied redflag attempts avoid psych ward said took headache lovely girlfriend going hard hit hard even though didnt know attempt im heartbroken ill never attempt,1 cant keep going world like oneim starting create actual redflag plan lot strong sedativeheartrate medicines im going end someday soon really reason keep going nobody help listen problems systems place try keep people healthy turning down im going take medicine tonight go sleep forever,1 maybe time goi got home work tonight nothing bad happened today still felt terrible all dropped college recently im living parents talked friends couple months theyve stopped trying contact me everythings fucked dad asked work went fine asked tomorrow why i want know says but why cant ask one damn question without treating like fucking inquisition jesus well tomorrow work why keep asking that because im dad care you have drinking again why fuck would ask that you never ask im unless want something you drunk you little shit never want hear again never you hear me why fight me i fighting you dont tell that fucking tell that always make bad guy always assume im get you guess whos paying new house last months me guess charged rent year me guess cleans kitchen fuckin basement playing videogames you never ask help you because to dammit grown man pull fuckin weight play dumb me im done playing stupid passiveaggressive game waiting ask help grow up what fuck say me shut your damn mouth this house dad gets chair walks me looks eyes wait start yelling something odd happens whywhy this lucas hes crying why fight me look feet why stop going schoolyour mom wanted succeedand youre what youre person thought would be point dad cant even speak anymore walks stairs slowly still sobbing know drunk know matters heard said heard pain voice saw disappointed look face almost wish wouldve stayed angry would easier deal with tried stop thinking happened watched movie laptop played assassins creed little while pain go away words still echoed mind youre person thought would be see road ahead college dropout degree crappy apartment barely getting by ashamed see family long lonely nights theres light end tunnel over nows good stopping point need end disappoint people life moms already grieving acting like ive died something maybe need finish job,1 someone give reasons live probably edgy cant finde right now someone wanna talk something ,0 "To be blunt, it's a tokin' puff piece... *drops mic, blows out of the joint* Could 'one puff' of cannabis ease depression? - Via @mnt https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/321589.php …",1 I have just made my twitter account! ,0 dysfunctional thoughtsfirst all im black girl living mostly white town pretty much racist people here people know anything world around them im relationship almost years vacation friends days makes feel pretty wanted right now im halfway social work study know self reflect need someone talk to ive always strange kid people town cant see beauty like stereotypical pale blonde girl im actually quite happy myself im dysfunctional thoughts atm feel like one likes me loves truly cares me one truly loves me actually much friends acquitances probably spelled wrong normally self esteem dependent so right is dunno long story short feel fucking worthless right now understand wrong normally im happy myself today miss boyfriend im tired always ugly kid feel need cut myself although hurt since years sorry horrible english first language ,1 nothing wrong that heartily endorse comments boblipton snow leopardbr br im thrilled find movie available us dvd ive ever seen persuaded goethe institute london show conrad veidt season years ago long see againbr br barrymore resplendent engaged movie possibly prick renowned german actor foil veidt wonderful scene stealer doesnt pick nose one point one seminal films connect dr jekyll th century grand hotel midnight the cabinet dr caligari the student prague the spy bladk contraband casablancabr br see it,0 losing mindidk anymore idc anymore feel like im living grandma younger sibling days im year old man feel done life mom wants get gf days idc anything living dont want hurt grandma younger sisters talk repeatedly abused pretty bad younger feel like cant even live anymore affected mentally many ways dont dance sing socialize hate thought redflag know others worse idk anymore tbh dont even know anymore,1 hello anyone feeling suicidal hear people lying truth httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvjkcjcbtqehttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvjkcjcbtqe feel suicidal go,0 started seizure stairs result pretty badly injured broke ankle injured knee also required stitches face let make clear recognize experience must terrifying tom understand frightening redflag provoking even traumatizing him,0 never loved life wish someone did feel lonely worthless always end crying sleep wonder feels loved,1 tired struggleive therapy medication since much adolescents spent drug induced zombie graduated binge drinking consuming mg thc day form edibles career almost encourages substance abuse anyone looking would dream job im tired go days without sleep sleep solid hours medication working therapy nothing always unhappy ive set date improve check out,1 religious ppl here ive thinking religion recently believe god gives faith,0 depressed want attentionhas anyone struggled fact want kill feel pain currently wish id rather dead way didnt live life feel like miserable reason cant feel like deep want people notice dead feel like thats wanting attention dont know makes sense anyone relate prideful person nature wish fucks sake dead one notices me even though im need down one deep need them feel like dead everyone would finally realize pain real,1 fucking hilarious found stupid meme seeing people defending opinion yeah im republican thinks teens nowadays snowflakes know thing ever seen meme lol httpswwwredditcomrspecialsnowflakecommentsmugki_miss_the_old_teens_people_are_just_soft_af_nowutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmfamputm_termlink,0 abc news youtube channel recorded kids zoom class made comment there ask like comment abc knows never again httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvgprncomzvgamplczfdxaqfpjzhvqtaokgjanhdhtaxzmzrirkhhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvgprncomzvgamplczfdxaqfpjzhvqtaokgjanhdhtaxzmzrirkh comment student worst nightmare cannot imagine zoom call broadcasted entire world even enjoy turning camera all furthermore doubt kids really choice whether aired unfortunately likely parents made decision please again,0 let teach new word flamboyance group flamingoes well thats new word nice day ,0 "Depression is a big issue, always check on your friends",1 sometimes difficult watch selfavowed message films earlier seeminglysimpler era without certain degree cynicism issue racism religious tolerance one drummed us early age and weve grown teachers authority figures sought less blatant yet equallyeffective means getting message across the house live unsubtle message films come frank sinatra seems treating audience like child indeed perhaps point short doubt intended primarily influence younger filmgoers even so found curiously affected sinatra launched sincere patriotic speech really means american im even american released two months end wwii director mervyn leroy greeted warweary audiences message tolerance togetherness and else hope music aint bad eitherbr br freshfaced frank sinatra already star yet superstar hed become opens film recording studio booming if dream full orchestral accompaniment when songs frank goes outside smoko observes large group kids bullying young jewish boy taunts provoked purely differing religion ol blue eyes quickly puts stop childish behaviour delicately branding bullies nazi werewolves scolding irrational prejudice earnestly goodnaturely lectures group plain silliness racial religious discrimination assuring every american culture however differs own still american heart unless course one bloody japs theres hint hypocrisy pleading racial tolerance presenting one nation collective enemy though could hardly blame hollywood less enthusiastic plight japanese br br sinatra drives point home wonderfully heartwarming rendition the house live in written abel meeropol songwriter first heard song film furious filmmakers completely excluded three verses considered crucial message omissions likely due time restraints meeropol understandably take kindly them reportedly ejected cinema first released the house live in deemed important short film golden globe best film promoting international good will honorary oscar involved judged culturally historically aesthetically significant added library congress national film registry came hear it approach may seem little hokey sixty years later film remains quite watchable thanks young fella named frank sinatra,0 destroying math teacher th grade school changed math teachers since used sit last seat class thought prick good subject mostly pay much attention since taught basic trigonometric functions first semester used call time distribution papers called roll number believe got speechless could face like anime moment protagonist holds right moment show power lol never crossed th grade,0 anyone offer advice thoughts anythingi figure place people might diverse opinions experiences biological depression aka im little down cause got broken with im debt etc top intense atheism scientific deterministic perspective quantities intelligence sufficient detrimental think might main problems see reason exist things fun simply to like waiting forsomething idea could be death chance deal continuous internal dialogue could somehow withdraw sit around rot without deal mind whole time would frustration life search meaning when really none whatsoever hobbies theyre distractions enjoyments enjoy them understand people function day day every hour spend conscious feels like last meters kbut never ends killing due excess emotion cant deal with would lack emotion investment anything throwing hands defeat fact one nothing exists reason existence itself existence really grating nerves,1 want die again anything sad anymoreim confused im happy everything going good life im starting feel better appearance urge go lay snow freeze death overwhelming im even sure im posting here know damn well guts it guess im hoping talk something,1 @mileycyrus I love you o most awesomest devine delight of my life How's my memory lol,0 hollow wicked thing unworthy love unworthy joy unworthy life cant anyone see me,1 lonely cant take anymorehey moved city couple years ago ive never really felt home fleeting friendships go gang friends reliably hang regularly going long now im drunk gun id end all im sick lonely spend nearly every weekend alcohol prescription drugs wish id wake morning im feel like ive completely wasted last years life oh young could try something different feel like late,1 god great hot wear pants unless goes freezing love it everyone calls crazy really im evolved,0 december ththe last day life decided im happy decision live right hope die even pain love world world love me may music give courage,1 moment im skinny skinny imma make many thirst posts bc imma confident yes nothing stop,0 years since emancipation ive watched cognitive state decline ive agoraphobic years now years ago moved shelter system domestic dispute triggered agoraphobia again felt like constant threat safe anymore moved,1 feel like people seem understand difference want kill like ultimate act self harm biggest punishment could inflict upon myself actually want dead never actually done it anybody else feel similarly curiousps post seeking advice vacuous messages positive shite want die want kill myself anyone relate,1 person pissed floor red robin last night fuck know kid teenager grown ass man sir ever come see post know you male peed floor times pm pm last night ended stepping on go hell wearing flip flops shit splashed like puddle hope step piss thousand times burning hell everyone pee floor red robin last night hope fantastic day,0 get suicide frowned upon knew me would want it suicide hotline pick,1 assigned sort population earth one side die one side remain alive would divide it theres guarantee side going left alive side could dead exactly could example ,0 got ropenow need courage ups life outweigh downs least life already dead inside physical death better,1 "@flxflcs043 what are you doing tomorrow? would you want to do starbucks, considering you work there? ",0 living actively drain care aboutme alive draining care about disappoint let down drag me generally cause difficulties anytime ive wanted change improve myself always past point could solved things always realize error ways far late keeps hurting people care about many small mental issues yet single fucking one excuses plethora issues must fundamental level bad person yet cant even obviously bad person im ensnaring disappointment grinds away good will brings worst people unfair them nothing going beside typical things people say someone nothing tangible give career future ever seem motivation suppose must coddled much child work ethic im already cant seem functional adult leech others slowly cause resentment alive first place dead single ounce real care around me brains would painting wall could motivated even god damn second could turn arm fleshly red ribbons save everyone time im much coward try again,1 rt if hajime hinata is perfect or you have severe depression,1 my son vinca is sick so i stay at home just three tense day at work and i am back on holiday with kid,0 best friend punches nothing itthere friend insults hits face hes always laughing me anything it im scared losing person see invisible started hitting thoughts family care want everything over life mess cant something,1 "Anxiety told meto keep moving,but my mindwon't stopworrying.Weeping,losing my breath,I couldn't think straight.Depressioncrept in;I'm disinterestedto live.Confusedand tiredlike the restless skythat keepschanging clouds day and night.#inkmine #prompts https://twitter.com/whenfridzspeaks/status/989068335982829570 …",1 time redflagive anxious since bullied badly school make proper friends distrusted everybody lived fight flight ever since home tense too distant volatile father gentle mother broke thank god damage done flunked leaving cert worked sales got addicted spending cash have smoking joints numb pain even though actually made anxious always tired stayed unhappy relationships ignoring gut frankly know felt bar constant fear one lead pregnancy lead breakup lead awful eight year custody battle including international abduction huge legal bills endless anxiety heavy drinking sleepless nights anger relationships finally breakdown time work went counseling years leading went time off met lovely calm driven girl got back feet job ground slowly still court battles gf seemed cold distant sometimes v angry ploughed wanted move cos housemate v moody battle eased now pregnant nearly killed myself went hospital psych assessments prescribed meds still want die weeks pregnant wish shed miscarry awful tension house thinks im selfish feeling suicidal knew want kids took laxatives counteracted pill refused point blank getting abortion hate feeling thus way hate ive created situation purely cos fucked know happy sad still wish god shed miscarry could still happen cant go battle cant cant love girl hates showing affection hates hugs holding hands cant live ruining her im done want painless way go im looking ways online hard find,1 "is having a well earned rest, with a big bar of cadburys and a big mug of tea ",0 know title need helpi felt really hopeless since probably th grade years things gotten worse good kid high school gpa completely sober four years despite good life was constantly felt lost since coming college ive begun drown sorrows drugs alcohol im first semester im well school guarantee academic probation come end semester parents paying lot money go school finding im academic probation devastate them feel like disappointment going put edge family members people ive able maintain legitimate relationships with ive ruined friendships people overly sensitive ive ruined every romantic relationship ive ever within month starting lack self confidence everything overall feel im wasting parents hard earned money realize it im going lose too lose them feel like nothing live for suicidal thoughts almost everyday redflag seems like best way go know exactly im looking feel like cant tell things anyone wanted get look advice guess,1 think today actually kill worki cant stand pain anymore nothing makes happy sit boring job fucking day misery people pile work dont care anymore dont care anything besides getting goddamn ride fuck everything fuck mental illness making fucked person am,1 wow danish movie kind content mean actors story pictures efx everything be br br and danish efx house producing vfx wow like nd rd time danish fx produces visual effects qualitybr br spoiler ahead twist ghostly children submarine quite good generally feel big chill would expect ghostmovie end spoilerbr br but anyway danish movie dane proud ofbr br the bad this danish director swedish,0 it s 09 am rn and it doesn t surprise me because i am used to this i have trouble sleeping because i always think about shit that ha gone wrong in my life and that is a lot i want to socialize have friend be funny i used to be when i wa back home with my friend i am learning in the u now but i always feel mute like i want to speak but i can t because i have a stomach feeling that shit is gon na go wrong so i just fake laugh and smile and it get awkward really fast and it becomes added to one of the thing that keep me up at night i also do weird stuff like smile weirdly curse under my breath or shake my hand or smth weird like that to distract from sudden flash of memory i have throughout my day and when i tell u it happens every damn day every damn minute or two i am not distracting myself in oh myyyy i just live everyday not wanting to wakeup wanting to die if course people around me don t know that i am just weirdly quiet to them anyway thought do i have anxiety,1 kal penn the thing that suck the most is that you were the one i wa most excited for even before i knew who the final team would be,0 "... still employed, no trouble there it's other stuff that's not as sweet",0 someone please remind reasons life worth livingi sincerely understand need keep going anxiety depression overwhelming almost impossible leave house keep wishing something awful would happen feel way anymore one cares me would happen me know i need reasons life worth it,1 is grouchy and want bmar,0 doooowap doowap dont know post hi guess,0 need someone messagethis aint going long im looking someone talk to redflag prevention lifeline region massive wait list like im number line idk else do online resources would appreciated cant help apologizing bother condolences hope everyones happy week,1 really wish courage itthats really reason already done it people miss anything friends never relationship social skills garbage live places people age hangout see changing anytime soon im bullied time anyway lets know im utter failure human being parents say it know see disappointment wish different child know im suicidal refuse acknowledge anything theres one really cares im going through passions ambitions theres job would enjoy doing doubt theres job without screwing up want here peoples responses pretty negative feel like end it hope get courage soon,1 anyone want collaborate shitpost songs shitty vocals great shitposts guess,0 worst dream ever and not my usual nightmare either the worst part is it probably gon na come true,0 my whole life i ve dealt with the trifecta of depression anxiety and ocd i wa always functional with all disorder clocking in at maybe a 0 depression always felt like more of a chemical thing it wa never situationally based anxiety amp ocd were usually health related hypochondria i guess anyways i never knew episode existed i always just hovered at the same baseline then in 0 i had a severe panic attack after smoking some potent weed it really shook me and it sent me into what i guess would be my first episode it wa my first time experiencing dissociation and it terrified me i wa in a constant state of panic for month at the time i had been on lexapro for year my gp wa ill equipped to deal with this so she recommended a new doc for med big mistake new doc decided i should quit taking lexapro and switch to zoloft which perhaps would have worked if she had done it correctly instead of cross tapering or weaning off lexapro she decided to have me stop taking lexapro cold turkey wait a month until it wa out of my system and then start zoloft going cold turkey off lex wa a nightmare of biblical proportion and sent me further into the most intense depression and anxiety i d ever experienced after a hospital visit they suggested an outpatient program i agreed and there they got me back on the lexapro after a few more long month thing evened out i returned to a manageable baseline although the depression wa a tad higher because i could no longer self medicate with weed the experience ruined weed for me would immediately send me into panic mode but still thing were going well fast forward to january 0 and suddenly out of the blue i wake up one day super depressed no appetite couldn t sleep at night i wa so confused my first episode had a clear and obvious trigger panic attack ill advised cold turkey med change i d never had something like this happen with no trigger that s when i started to dig deeper and found out that episode exist this time i had a doc i trust added remeron which wa awesome at first felt better than i had in year wa sleeping and eating great for about 0 day then splat all that went away back to square one and i even developed tinnitus from the remeron so i nixed the remeron and we decided to switch from lexapro a well but the right way this time i did a seamless cross taper to effexor i m on my th week of it went from 0 my last day on the lexapro wa last friday which wa the day i did the increase to 0 thing have improved slightly def not where i wan na be tho i now know that episode can last anywhere from day to month or longer so i m trying to be patient it s tough tho eventually i may have to decide whether to increase effexor again or augment with something else an aa perhaps not sure what i meant to accomplish with this wall of text but if you read it kudos to you i guess i just wanted to document this strange journey maybe you ve been through something similar or know someone who ha maybe you can offer advice which i d welcome either way i hope whoever is reading this is doing well and i wish you all the best of luck in this thing called life,1 tell something dont know filler filler filler filler filler,0 postm personality tapestry hypocrisy contradiction hopeless peoplepleaser heart ill damned go completely way make someone happy typically put minimum amount effort possible enough could said actually something made person happy put facade niceness despite bitter cynical even hateful times cower face conflict even around involve enough make anxious upset simultaneously selfloathing selfish narcissist addicted tearing unable bear thought others even disliking issue me deeply value honesty loyalty decade ive lied frequently parents many things including mental state employment status spending drug alcohol habits theyve told several times find difficult trust me cant blame them value thoroughness strong work ethic coworkers though find cut corners bend rules favor find forms work soulcrushing reason work hard shame disappointing bosses resented coworkers ask money family trumps agony working irresponsible money make pissing away alcohol junk food video games prostitutes futile attempt shove anything void hopes feeling less hollow moments else im diehard perfectionist yet lazy stubborn person be wonderful combination results someone cant assed anything forced upon him rarely follows things start finally almost never satisfied rare occasion finish something ive gotten good making excuses procrastination weaseling way commitments ive lost ability connect anyone make friends honestly think constellation traits particularly special typical shithead millenial raised mostly anxious mentally ill single mother ssi budget never learned work hard anything value things had parents divorced years old messy ordeal suffered clinical depression severe social anxiety since bipolar diagnosis following first manic episode nearmental breakdown away college prescribed lithium zoloft five years three failed attempts college many many types medication later refuse take meds im completely disillusioned pharmeceutical industry industry thrives curing keeping people bit less miserable with bonus side effects need pills for years depression pothead drinking heavily fucked brain enough is parents last two ropes mooring earth even friends ive managed keep thus far feel able move passing easier certainly isnt never be girlfriend hold back learned hard way im ugly insideandout considered relationship ive plan years now never felt close last acting upon it need one last push overcome nemeses cowardice shame beyond frustrating go want painful see poetic absolution mindless hedonism,1 need advice dont know put sorry that ive friendzoned last week werent right me met one girl interests more like lot different others advice give approach this thanks advance stranger,0 i don t know how to explain it i had bad childhood and tbh i never felt love in my whole life if i care for someone and they see this they hurt me i m not only talking relationship but with overall people around me and i have depression i feel tired all the time and sometimes i can t even leave my bed also i m very paranoid i feel like everyone want to betray me u me and i have lost all the trust because of it don t even feel like human,1 good move noi ended contact best friend starting today order get better matter many times tells otherwise accept gay male around even thought him puts extreme turmoil could bad move correct way get mind throwing life away maybe give months realize decent individual deserve treated less ive considered redflag due many problems one alone logical thinker able follow through easy starting new life new people would awesome,1 not sure why i m doing what i m doing not sure why i m writing this it feel like there s no point in doing anything i am not happy currently and i will not have a future so why do i do anything i try to push all my problem to the back of my mind but that doesn t fix anything i still question what the point of doing anything is i m so happy i defeated this super hard bos in this game but what greater purpose doe defeating that bos have what greater purpose doe completing a video game have fundamentally i do not enjoy life so all i m doing by playing game is distracting myself it doesn t matter if said game i played add to my knowledge or expands my worldview because i know i will kill myself in the future right now i m just on autopilot for year i ve tried not to think about my problem and had hope that thing would get better but i had false hope thing haven t gotten better there s only a slim chance thing will ever get better i wish i realised this sooner maybe the fact people keep repeating that one generic line thing will get better wa why i believed they would now i ve learned hope is nothing but a coping mechanism im just so frustrated that my consciousness wa ever brought into existence why couldn t i have stayed in the void now i see no point in doing anything i m just floating here unsure of what direction to go in i m unsure if there is any point in watching a movie letalone making any meaningful decision i m stuck in limbo i told myself i d wait this year out at least but i m starting to see there s really no point in prolonging the inevitable so why am i here writing this not sure what this will do not sure about anything,1 juzley yaaaay maybe i should ve gone,0 @Jason_Pollock like your green avatar! thank you ,0 need bit o help birthday ok so every year get choose want dinner birthday idea want th birthday uhh yall tell favorite foods would nice see make fookin decision,0 missykesson bet you let mcgee on there hahahaha,0 Off to the mall ,0 seems like woken today knowing thinking full clarity sitting desk thinking mistakes made feel calm scared lost everything lead fault manipulative second language hurt people meant everything me marriage failed held tight needed let go words say apologize take back pain caused suffocating eventually cheating her still crosses mind everyday even relationship tried everything right failed inherently bad person gaslighting without even knowing made miserable point fight air lungs get away ill never know make right you hope someday forgive meeven joined navy sense normalcy life messed left little pocket meant to stay awake night suffocating memories almost dying hope morning light bring life every part knows situation would pain now terrible person know deserve happiness life calm knowing calm knowing everything end somehow lowest ever felt also calmest ever felt anyone takes time read this thank you everything end,1 irani noobs kicked cs go server playing random competitive cs teammates irani professional noobs still winning kills top fragger everything going well start round accidentally attacked teammate said mistake im sorry listen kicked server sometime later checked recent matches guess they fucking lost match part really happy got fucking deserve im also sad wasted time fucking random irani dudes even know play,0 matured fascination academy awards evolved intense interest casual amusement comments written bizarre results academy award voting often difficult explain omission in cold blood one five best picture nominees one inexplicable instances especially one nominations year went wretched unwatchable dr dolittle insomniac masochist would tune rex harrison disaster richard brooks powerful adaptation truman capotes nonfiction novel retains ability capture viewers attention leave completely drained final fade out nothing particularly graphic gruesome screen film definitely adult material based nebraska multiple murder s filmed actual locations murders took place in cold blood filmed master cinematographer conrad hall stark black white screen compositions demand seen correct widescreen aspect ratio together quincy joness unsettling score halls work credited title brooks screenplay three pillars intense classic built performances fine well scott wilson cold charm robert blake intense introversion two killers there inside joke one point blake speaks bogart the treasure sierra madre duo driving mexico child star blake sold lottery ticket bogart john huston film film like book definitely slanted towards killers anticapital punishment tilt although remorselessness murderers somewhat negates sentiment despite difficulttowatch final scenes criticized film focus criminals backgrounds lives clutter family literally murdered cold blood middle night come across onedimensional characters little import lack balance comes book capote spent much time two killers death row clutter family apparently researched depth however whatever feelings one may capital punishment in cold blood leave mired deep conflicting thoughts run double bill dead man walking may speak days,0 get help without insurancei lost job recently find without insurance ive hospitalized before insurance then im point feel like need go back sucks there saved first time guess works anyway get accepted somewhere least get psychiatrist give meds without insurance feel though im stuck dont get help soon im going much longer,1 know type go year old male little backstory ive suicidal depressed year now better today people thought friends fucking left me middle city going hang hours sudden left tried texting multiple social medias phone numbers texted back yet know know,1 @mamaspohr that's awesome isn't it? made my moment!,0 im year old loserim reason completely unable hold job heres story every since sister moved back home town time ive nieces babysitter hours used babysit went work college adhd completely unable focus anything school little complicated sister moved back hometown well nephews babysitter eventually moved sister babysat everyday fun friend lived road babysat would go hangout mind still job ive ever kept babysitting turned started looking jobs id stay places months quit well getting paycheck bucks fucking stupid went back school finished highschool went work shop worked months am pm eventually getting fired working fast enough ended working rd shift meijers moved sisters friends trailer park quit meijers months months later still jobless getting kicked trailer park slept park harsh winter burning stuff keep warm week two later mom found let move first months want get job getting completely absorbed anime staying till am watch read manga took temp jobs summer started quit one first day probably hundred degrees ended getting angry messing bad manager kept coming telling much money costing got fed left took another coffee factory work took another temp job factory actually kinda liked even though repetitive kinda boring liked got listen music temp service pay whole months asked yelled eventually quit took another temp job quit days kinda boring got yet another liked assignment ended leave took job painter like month something ended took job one moms friends ended ended getting job really cool factory people area refused train would throw bus constantly laught call idiot something right cousin also worked get trained area moved around areas bit ended back mine time got orders months early ended month co workers super happy ridicule began months finally got fed oh time trying get aparment friend quit everything got put hold eventually took two jobs speedway sams club weeks quit speedway cause sams better hours pay months later quit sams cause cut hours hours week took temp job step dads ship stay month two extremely boring kinda soul crushing jobless two months feeling like real piece shit buddy money saved appartment added since last job know whats wrong love work hated am till repetitive boring bullshit wish could suck stay place tell need year experience move different shop something seems piss make wanna place anymore guess maybe sometimes look people place years still get shitty pay get scarred get fuck outta soon possible anyway lately ive really depressed suicidal thoughts mind alot usual find looking around items around house could quickly mostly spend time inside head fantasize way wish life like gf trying cook dinner watching stupid shows netflix someone laugh smile joking around stupid settling someone come home lately feel like soul screaming someone let like itd happier makes sense cant really describe feeling know really smile anymore wanna sleep dream day fun anymore even hanging friends space dream used love driving around aimlessly listening new music anymore usually dream fantasy life lately putting gun head emptiness inside cant filled ive drinking keys taken away weekend openly talked crashing car tree kinda dont want live anymore already guess,1 year old gives amazing financial advice httpsyoutubectadvoqtbuahttpsyoutubectadvoqtbua,0 well im legally adult im hopefully see much more,0 beginning excited see movie poster possibly funniest ive ever seen movie immediately bought one dorm septemberbr br every element came together movie beautifully often see movie many penis gay racial jokes praised critics carell rest cast deliver raunchy joke sensationally carell remains sweet throughout entire movie end movie rooting succeed relationship get laid supporting cast brutal problems ladies themselvesbr br one things movie abundance memorable scenes were given makes movie easy remember fondly movie often brought words chest waxing condoms mentioned conversationbr br watching theater surprised many older people watch it saw group four mids women come in despite older audience movie still filled entire theater laughterbr br i think type people like fans office steve carell lot jokes remind type jokes see family guy too movie shallow enough adolescent boys still sweet clever enough middle aged womenbr br i recommend going movie fan profanity easily offended however movie remember movie good humor jokes gay jokes theyre jokes theyre funny,0 yall recommend midwestern emo music like sum male manipulator shit c,0 Almost feel like myself again Depression is no joke I can't wait… https://www.instagram.com/p/Bh_O1lKBD4hgMAoLuwN9ZVYxR6_beuZpt0lYLw0/ …,1 Me and @seabee90 are making tacos ,0 soul hurts muchim lowest point depression suicidal thoughts mind time keep searching ways kill cant take action it currently im experiencing worst feeling ever dealt mentally pain anymore no starting affect physically im tried living like this want alive anymore hope ill snap kill soon finally free depression anxiety trauma know im better dead still cant kill im nothing coward,1 friend drove away know ever trust someone again fuck feels never anything right,1 "I wish I had more virtual memory for my myspace page, please Sir can I have some more http://www.myspace.com/38pr",0 Almost done with charging http://yfrog.com/59yh4fj,0 @poundifdef You forgot: pun intended ,0 I'm in the mood for a Love Game ,0 Woohoo! Beta launched today off tomorrow then mini celebration wed!,0 honore de balzacs genuinely bizarre short story loosely based gets unsettling albeit breathtakingly filmed treatment sort forbiddenlove blossoms period time man beast early part nineteenth century thin blonde english actor ben daniels plays role young soldier napoleonic wars gets lost whilst escorting exiled french painter across rugged dangerous landscapes gobi desert literally going around circles two men give ever trying reach civilization again thus decides against better judgment mind you go separate ways promise returning exact spot water source actually found course daniels character comes encounter creature a wild untamed female leopard eventually form seemingly unbreakable bond rather love saves life nearly destroys films end exquisite cinematography minimalist dialog somewhat demented story arguably hints possible bestiality three scenes ultimately lead professional critics pan film pretentious overlong rubbish film exactly tastes mind you find subtle though decidedly leftofcenter mixture fantasy surreal sumptuous atmosphere highlighted fact half flick actor ben daniels forced perform opposite wild animal four leopards actually used opposed one plain common sense slight knowledge theatrics dictates must maddening difficult job managed pull quite brilliantly ask me overall think passion desert takes warm to patient person willing give time fact cast uniquely original spell spite everything unlike platonic human animal relationship stories need require talking pig monkey shaggy dog keep interest throughout ,0 f know im bored asf hit ur unpopular opinion yeah guys super unpopular thoughts opinions wanna talk hmu talk im talk literally anything opinion point view long chill everything maybe convince im wrong ill convince wrong maybe well agree lmao never really know yeah im lot different stuff like music play piano guitar im star wars superhero stuff read fantasy books comics bunch draw mostly digital sometimes traditional too cheerlead play lacrosse volleyball also made list stuff fairly strong opinions talk try change mind cant think anything talk about racism religion modern music relationships sexism colorism patriotism politics privilege mental health family success education anything else think also like wanna talk whatever im talk whatever wanna yep pm please,0 Going to see UP! ,0 i really don t know how to put it into word but i ve been working on my anxiety for the past few year and over time my anxiety attack become le frequent but like today there are some day where my dream are filled with everything that give me anxiety work life issue etc then i wake up with chill having an anxiety attack i feel so strong for even working on my anxiety by myself in the first place but the time i have em dream i just want to give up and be shut out because of how much it throw my headspace off,1 great tv movie told murder martha moxley greenwich connecticut nephew ethel kennedy use ghost martha provide details effective added lot heart story christopher meloni seemed capture personality mark fuhrman well furhman got much underserved bad publicity oj simpson trial certainly vindicated contribution bringing killer justice years,0 days lefti know missed th one im tired im waiting everything end,1 today birthday gotta change flair ,0 "@newedge thanks for the follow, and the new icon looks great ",0 dont think care fact people hurt death anymorethat big part wouldnt commit redflag honestly dont care people life suffer death made suffer life care feelings even death thats selfish tbh didnt care whilst im earth im told care death,1 tomfelton late night suckkk gym always make me feel better though photoshoot for what,0 least painful way end iti want pure answers sorrow stories,1 @mishacollins Hope u r having a good time Can u get the boys to tweet to us??,0 want boyfriend could buy stuff like computer one graphics cards,0 need stop procrastinating ok project due next week know wont able finish solely school hours need work home whenever think im like dont feel like right now ill tomorrow need advice make work,0 @sanichols were you at Tom Thumb? I think I saw your drunk ass buying more beer ,0 exsitance meme theory element culture system behaviour passed one individual another imitation nongenetic means image video piece text etc typically humorous nature copied spread rapidly internet users often slight variations theory everything meme evolved design one true original god created simplest materials elements concepts time space matter etc mind say anything evolved including life bit changed idea source creator everything immitaion slightly changed original passed humans living non living creatures ever would argue meme funny go look second definition meme says typically funny nature witch suggests exsitance unfunny memes to disprove memes spread trew internet take example inside jokes friends irl saying something specific way achieve funny effect ok gesture etc disprove idea meme something nongeneticwho decided bc understanding genetics precedes modern idea memes mean included new idea memes and even idea genetics precced memes disagree even names nongenetic idea example roman soldier years ago carved dicks near hadrian wall disproveinge genetics part meme definition lets take look genetics genetics study traits inherited trait defined variation physical appearance heritable characteristic seeks understand traits passed generation generation short cells decided continue meme living changing joke bit trew long periods time point theory prove limit meme know everything joke point going include religionafterlife idea point life come continue best fix memes good memelord afterlife get go back original creator live eternal peace ruining good memes depending much ruined go meme purgatory pay unfunny joke meme hell burn eternal fire destructive normie thanks reading,0 suicidal thoughts againthese thoughts strong feel unable speak move body know want kill found love life want spend rest life him hate everything life every little thing attempted university times depressed stupid finish stuck shitty warehouse jobs rest life remember every single minor inconvenience life cant stop thinking them starting remembering boys molesting sexually abused feeling constantly lonely isolated since could go hate english never open here feel extra suicidal today fuck corona fuck job fuck people fuck life fuck everything,1 chronic asthma allergy feel sick everyday tired gasp breath even simplest tasks able work home barely getting tired burned out hard even simple tasks acute attacks trigger feels like life ripped body struggle oxygen add allergy foods means able eat foods weakened digestion suffer pain food poisoning eat something may contain allergic ingredients sometimes feel exist every day samegetting dragging shitty body work even unable keep normal tasks getting rebuked work coming home repeating thing cannot imagine fucking death watching people die due lack oxygen painful even watch cannot eat anything drink gasping breath coupled depression makes experience even better tired,1 sure im looking thishi all ive posted before back several months ago symptoms came back hard core large part shit going life keeps getting worse im point im beyond fantasizing redflag attempt im starting plan told therapist it probably tell doctor actually give refills want sure im looking posting this wanted put there,1 got first job ive applied almost stores town got response back inperson interview went great got email saying ive hired ampxb god im happy,0 can t sleep and dunno why,0 Okeydoke or Okie Dokie or Hokey Dokey or Okey Dokey or OkleDockle is American slang based on Oklahomans' experience during Great Depression indicating everything wa OK. https://twitter.com/rreecemd/status/989121581971640321 …,1 @kerner what is your opinion of best Japanese food with decent price in Springfield? ,0 got pills step lefti pills lot got pills could almost all really wish death,1 one le follower tonight,0 ever think about constantlyim utterly alone im hurting much cant go longer im giving in much everyone gone cant go like anymore cant,1 ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im gonna say reason ahhhhhhhhh,0 days ago days ago lost cat congestive heart failure little girl whole family changed monster alot one sole reasons im still here struggl wrap head around gone never run around house am never curl next purr ear hard change must move on post sympathy empathy posted cause want little girl remembered people,0 feeling like im somehow faking depression suicidal ideationive numb sort depression years gotten lot worse recently ive serious suicidal thoughts recently though time im actively suicidal wishing death would come one form another anyways better days depression crippling feel numb rather pained common thought is what im actually depressed imagining faking it im seeking attention mean easy not depressed cant seem get it even then still wonder im depressed know symptoms logically im making think feel way honestly confusions making desire end stronger moment think doubt starts surfacing again im making think want die maybe even feeling perceive numbness normal im making mountain molehill know paradoxical really cant seem make sense it,1 glade have the day off!!!! now jst to do some laundrey and then update computer lol ,0 watching Futurama ,0 zurich doe not have smelly bag anymore,0 one dayone day im gonna able take anymore,1 "graut? yah, itworks, around 7 pm I will make nachos anyways... ",0 thinks that Kellan Lutz is hot when he smokes ,0 "But I have my secret weapon. By making fun of myself in a silly way, I make myself smile and be cheery! ",0 told crush loved her said friend big deal thought would happen way kinda sad,0 hey guys please help calculate motion sig digs explain point test coming already c science,0 chances cuddling remains cuddling know really wants cuddle im okay that dont want turn,0 can't wait for wednesday (or thursday) ,0 trump like little devil sitting bidens shoulder seriously tho keeps interrupting him,0 momi think thing hurts whole world mom makes feel bad realizes it cries hug apologize try better mother makes feel worse sensitive feel way,1 would appreciate suggestions alternative rredflagwatchthis place advertises,1 Showaaa here I come! Laterrrrzzzzzzzzzz. <3,0 Its so amazing outside. What a perfect day to spend with my friends. ,0 remember disliking movie st time saw it grown me love costumes poses actors make humor cinematography soundtrack scenes rich moves quickly every time watch it something new catches eye aaliyah akasha probably thing ruins it enoughbr br also lestat movie different character see character armand given lestatlike qualities im assuming anne wanted in reason trash movie like books fascinating itself,0 nothing gets better saturday need do everyone hates better favour continue hang one day tired found femoral artery,1 end run front vehiclemy excolleagues forgotten me crushes ignoring me classmates pretend exist simple end it depression years straight end it end pain and over,1 love scared myself im forced go private christian university mom works there turns university ranked one worst universities lgbtq students state one worst america im scared im tired hide fit bibles standards,0 "had a great weekend...very tired, very sore...i can't wait to go back! ",0 suicidal years getting tired everythinghi everyone appreciate stopping giving post read giving much information can im worried giving much case live uk im male ive wanted kill years off right much feel like going finally feel like life useless pointless life nothing take extra space planet im alive still know much would devastate friends family ive reached point want die anyway regardless also think selfish feeling feel guilty feeling like this used self harm growing used feel kind rush it people life know this stopped gaining girlfriend began feel top world weve broken since still friends know still love theres much now im alone again feel like life extremely pointless feel though redflag nothing speeding process think anyone would ever want again especially since even want anything me ive spoken friends doctors helplines redflag honestly feel though helps much that im really sure wanted posting honesty guess wanted advice do steps take know move breakup know go killing myself not almost feel like need told it honestly know anymore thank you,1 im never going sub btw im fully aware nobody cares joined looking friends people like however instead found bunch sexist wannabe edgy idiots makes feel even depressed seeing everybodys either cringey levels edgy sexist desperate reddit awards tries play shitty meme something im loser feel put every post see perfect relationships since last years ago got cheated makes feel depressed anyway rant over great day,0 ugghigh school fucking hell like kids go bunch parties get ton girls high school amazing outcasts everyone kids super popular arent smart wont amount much high school theyre good looking athletic theyre treated like gods everyone always chase clout popularity always care everyone else thinks awful cant take anymore friends abandoned popular kids im alone nothing makes sense anymore,1 thought movie really awesome one drews best also fan michael vartan thought hot movie bad reviews would want watch movie could also loved ending movie clearly shown smile face also surprised james franco jessica alba it love also highlighted movie end drew making huge comment truth really told truth sometimes happens high school again movie amazing defiantly hope comment useful imdb readers,0 "The movie , TERMINATOR SALVATION rock ! damn nice and exciting ! i love that show man ! ",0 www.spookers.co.nz for those of u wants to know what spookers' all about ,0 landed funny on my foot this morning while jumping down the stair and i twisted it quite sore now,0 quite busy today attended appointment well tomorrow going to be another busy day,0 going to clean my depression room so i can change the desk and the bookshelf http t co dy0jj slj,1 @tourscotland ... got it ... you must be rechargeable ,0 braces got stuck girlfriends sweater ask embarrassing fuck parents help cut free rip sweater since grandma made,0 yay for baseball season boo to yankee losing their first game,0 feel like kill eventuallyhi guess want share really see resulting anything hell bit ramble apologize write seems bit scattered grammar off dependent personality disorder guess say i guess im sure trust everything psych says seeing ive diagnosed autism undiagnosed once im year old male leech mother scared failure hold job ive tried break lot tried really hard college depression sense empty made fall astray becoming marijuana dependent went hill though believe always would ended way now im lucky marijuana instead anything else ampxb really hate myself since young ive given made excuses everything ive wanted get good life ive fallen cycle years want anymore feel like ive lost faith everything every day feel like useless trash obsesses inane bullshit leech mother want anymore yet believe never get this least want play devil may cry go one things im excited anymore ampxb yeah thats,1 spoilersbr br i saw original tv sometime ago remembered production less gripping beeb costume drama rewatched dvd week still impression it good story first weakens heroine becomes oh terribly brave noble returns utterly vile husband hes ill got totally irritated saintliness suppose right thing do story written well contributing plenty angst difficult woman independent husband marriage made possession let alone carry scandalously lover expect lot modern audience would liked see hard take santimoniousness nowadays especially heroine strong brave admirer ready defend anyone everyone story film im equivocal well done per novel somewhat irritating per todays kind lifebr br steadfast hero gilbert certainly saint put ladyloves variable often cryptic behaviour persistent selfdenial consistently supportive felt great shame helen long last free him script allow bit one minute fall quick hug titles came up completely ridiculous wed waiting time dripping sentiment undeserving husband decent bit dialogue good embrace hero heroine instead ending though film makers run time finance bothered here one minute that cut director wants go home now left feeling totally dissasatisfiedbr br however high commendations acting toby stephens perfect handsome hero rupert graves superbly nasty selfpitying villain tara fitzgerald satisfactory within confines script forced depressing rather sanctimonious victim much timebr br that said love classic dramas virtually sight better much modern drama tv days stars spite irritations still good watch,0 wears contacts im needing get contacts first training im rlly upset bc able get eyes started crying lol anyone wears contacts stories trainings advice getting taking out thanks,0 communei considering starting commune california acre ranch would either free inexpensive like month could fundraising take donations nearby cities cheap food like rice beans would cooked could chicken coops garden water camping gear provided transportation town provided campfires coffee tea goal provide nonprofit service homeless hopeless lonely hungry people may penniless suicidal deep debt unable get hold job police welcome site illegal drug addicts criminals welcome banned need substantial list names interested people proceed ideas considered please email phillipanthonybiondogmailcom name contact info ideas like recruit members please try get names interested people really want this think people minimum would enough start ideally would like large group maybe someday huge community,1 "Depression,anxiety and panic attacks are not the signs of weakness....",1 "I'll just add that #FrostPunk has banished Banished as the survival city builder game. Banished is great, but it lacks the crushing depression and hard decisions on child labor. ALL PATHS LEAD TO CHILD LABOR, DON'T BE DECEIVED BY THE PROPAGANDA.... *waits for propaganda dlc*",1 longest call ive ever done someone hours bruh,0 cant stand aloneive feeling lonely lately really know do sexually abused child depressed cutting close years though past months ive therapy well mental hospital half year helped lot left college last fall things going downhill ever since ive always big family alone apartment really difficult me ive slept floor beside pc past weeks noise blinking makes feel relieved less alone tried moving back bed twice times ive anxiety attacks panicked cant stay weekends thought alone long absolutely terrifying me visit parents id like get another pet my dog staying parents fear able properly care it additionally lend parents money even took loan promised itd weeks turns itll take longer borrow made rent otherwise made really angry much fact make it still said theyd pay well rent due i already paid then im trying really hard get life control ive way worse ive genuinely happy little im point ask really worth overall pretty good perspective im getting rich means usually enough cover bases apartment study field im interested top university found things enjoy doing thats quite improvement able get morning needing hurt every day still feel like riding stupid rollercoaster cant seem get stop go here ive considered going back therapy think im worth time mean ive much worse think could handle little depressed angry sometimes without selfdestructive suicidal always go kind rage makes feel terribly helpless and want walk traffic _ anyone that specifically alone thing able get feelings level cope with phew feel lot better already writing this took quite time sorry little incoherent thank anyone took time read d edit jesus thats horrible wall text ill try make little readable s edit found another thing im really bad at formatting d think id hard ,1 originally watched simple rules disney channel uk first series got completely hooked show annoyed abc satred showing nd series think another series would start read john ritter died however nd series amazing latest series back old excellent standard hope go produce shows soon even though could watch show thousand times kaley couco favourite character airhead bridget also performs amazing charmed rory also good shares name grampa wellill keep watching ends hope carries funny ever,0 yever fart loud zoom reminds mute gonna hell week,0 know doim sure word one first reddit posts oh well im feel like future everything seems make sadder know want commit redflag not live life purpose existing ended yet want hurt anyone around make anyone feel mom feel sad do life feels worthless edit also closet gay,1 dont carefriends saying care open suicidal thoughts never initiate contact again never asking something me bitch even know im gone dont say care obviously dont,1 why can t people just accept i m tired of living i never asked be here i just want a day to say my final goodbye like what people do to elder so why can t i im happy with the memory i made but i don t want to continue i m done,1 last year i had a mental breakdown in my very first apartment i got way too overwhelmed and i panicked the anxiety episode lasted month and i couldnt function well today i made it through the night my first day back no anxiety or anything,1 cat like sleeping beside shes yoga poses,0 bad ideaso around years ago oldest brother tried overdose due untreated depression years as well adhd mightve partially caused depression idk dont quote dont know things thankfully second thoughts called hes still today however still think sometimes know would absolutely devastated succeeded look him however fell back depression months ago despite seeing therapist medication depression anxiety adhd ive wondered hes hoped attempt successful though honestly dont blame him despite loving household nice house plenty food still depressed feel exact way difference one life knows depression think redflag attempt almost every day maybe wasnt bad idea thought getting better started panic anxiety attacks again well feeling real depressed honestly whats point feel like shit now go get help ill probably go back feeling like shit except x im stuck weird limbo dont reason live dont reason kill myself im think writing redflag note im much pussy kill myself want stay bed sleep never wake up want go school actually get education want normal person get freeze moment teacher calls me want friends find depression least talk it push away get panic attack start even slightly figure out fucking hate this wish could one stop damn indecisive either kill dont theres fucking between,1 im crying buses today full due limited capacity thanks corona important school year ive already missed second day ive asked work teachers still feel like fucking failure,0 "It's raining tonight..but, it's so HOT! Uurggh..hate Global Warming!! Safe the world! XoXo.. ",0 ".@davea I'm much the same as you lot, it seems - tired and aching (from cricket and house movage) but generally trés heureuxe.",0 blame nickelodeon film barnyard taste women _____________________________________________,0 Oh gosh today ive went out with my dream boooy and he was arrived me at hooome,0 Winding down this evening after a REALLY BUSY morning. ,0 had so much fun today altho it was raining i want to be with you more <3,0 Going to buy food for tour! Kroger better have lots of Ramen Noodles ,0 "wyn takes 5 mins to prepare to go out, while mel takes 5 hours. :p happy birthday again my friend!",0 sunburnt to fuck ,0 @Antiquebasket Can't complain! How are you? ,0 honestly dont know anymoreim feel like life already over want fall asleep forever gpa went average completely nonexistent constantly push everyone away struggle taking care myself im exhausted try tell parent gets upset says phone ive wanted kill years now cant get therapy parent doesnt believe frankly dont blame him point life much medication doctor ended hospital getting abusive household dont know function think trying kill myself end forcing emotions much im end people try stay away im fake dont want anymore dont want alive want kill badly ive tried get help past one actually cared,1 im tempted take propranolol havei two boxes mg enough right,1 Can't believe i have already had 55 visitors on my website since 12:00 am ,0 reasons date arent move next post go fuck off someone tells fine make hentai,0 I'm sad and don't know why. Assuming depression is deciding to kick my teeth in like an asshole.,1 @kimberlydearr http://twitpic.com/68kgq - 123%!! that's ridiculous! Haha yay us wee are so smart :p,0 it s going to be a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnngggggggg night at work,0 interesting see people think movie since is fact quite unique though bears trademarks clive barkers writing even though might seem bit cynical say so movie intricate enough deflect need standard hollywood plot hooks layered expect fed see normal monster flick lots monsters disjointed plotbr br those need linear specific untangled plot line hate movie story lies like novella partially lines case partially screen comments imaginationbr br another possible hangup ending say without spoiling it entirely good entirely bad is fact defined all know sends people raging tantrums get know happened me many others im sure adds another dimension story dimension speculation and addition point great disruption tendency cause ripples extend quite farbr br there definitely moral here rather different kind standard hollywood inyourfaceattheendofthemovie sort display summing moral simple even though quite simply displayed prejudice human tendency hate differentbr br i love movie even though many reviewers noted expressions actors with exception david cronenberg wonderful appearance rather tacky im sure entirely blame rickety appearance lack depth though seeing common problems converting literature screenplaybr br all all great movie provided expect standard horror movie,0 sure least might experienced past currently feel emotionally numb point feel like family would better without me many already expressed want kill would mind dead yes thought maybe currently phase started meds little week ago hopefully gets better rough awesome family feel nothing all like know love cannot show try show feel like looks forced go away meds get better anything helped you thank advance hope day wonderful one emotionally numb,1 going get pinned mentally unstable fine it still bullshit pointless fuck running place pain til die cannot think anything rational this bullshit,1 @jamisloan Nuggets win they should have won game 1. Dumb mistakes they won't let happen again lakers should be down 2-0,0 @pcvmakeupjunkie You ARE gonna stop by later RIGHT. ,0 i miss them in adelaide i wish i wa there too the beach look beautiful,0 pretty girl exist keep getting heart broken skinny gamer boy,0 wanna get earings grandparents who live us house outside old school ans grandparents who visit regularly also old school do parents friends rest family ok it need convince lie try let see something do long hair hiding much hassle im also wearing headphones home times eat togethor dinner table week,0 movie absolutely perfect way explain good movie is movie children parents timeless saw movie oceans eleven must admit actors oe class advance play klatretsen much downtoearth moving say oceans eleven fact movies many things common klatretsen good bear comparison oe youngsters play part perfect way believe compared used denmark different cases impossible acts handled way belive many young actors and sometimes even old boys story things common oceans eleven except reason stealing money klatretsen need climb strongroom part young people take care idas younger brother gives fine element movie try imagine rob bank year child nappy arm br br this movie bear comparison grown up movie like mi oceans eleven yes believe good best see theater children room comments movie comments stay hearts forever br br regards klavs,0 @gotlove4dc3 j/k wit ur ratchet ass!! I forgot u gt defensive easy. And uh I've gt my man jst lookin 4 the other half! ,0 university drain a lot of energy in student damn the level of depression there could make a lot lose weight,1 hate men feel uncomfortable compliment like bro get it aint gay im flirting tell tshirt kinda cool get lmao cant people take genuine compliments im even creepy telling anything inappropriate basic compliments also bare mind barely compliment strangers time friends,0 ok udeleted transphobehomophoberacist,0 struggling hard thoughts redflag fact one carelately ive thinking redflag lot happened ive hospital months ago starting again im really starting realize meaninglessness existence world feel like matter anyone im always excluded people ask ask hang ask help im always one things feel like im always reaching friends respond gratitude like im cool enough time im loser live home parents like asshole moved living cooler friends never invited hang im not allowed whatever never try accommodate me im one always go are feel like one day im going explode them ive told several times feel inconsiderate changed think im one problems realize actions affecting me leading think matter redflag reasonable option give fuck die right asking me talking me theyre obsessed even though live together tertiary character star show want fucking die feel worthless stupid like loser never like them talked counselor said never say death matter people seemed extremely offended said that truly feel though hurts bad friends know often get suicidal think want deal shit anymore ignore me well die deal fucking problems anymore thanks anybody read this total whine fest im taking space sorry that,1 argh opened my crisp upside down i hate that,0 procrastinate lot issue may lack self discipline motivation procrastinate constantly may unmotivated rather may lack self discipline serious issue procrastination thought motivated would fix it schools put fix procrastination motivation i found motivated anything procrastination instead blame procrastination lies toward fact lacked self discipline procrastinators there child rewarded smart rather hard worker discipline work want do like study read instead blaming procrastination motivation maybe fact lack self discipline,0 "@TomJ93 it's off :p, hope that improves your mood Tom ",0 dm guess interests include limited to modlesgundam nintendo switchsmash mario kart splatoon sf ect i steam play deciet among us old music s almost everything spooky stuff spooky talesmyths yugioh old games snes nes gameboy gb sp gba n genesis dreamcast i love fighting games im open almost anything,0 whats rabid atheists fighting religion real reason manga comment section saw guy shitting religion someone made joke religious guy manga wasnt complete asshat like went reason made fuckin think dont get it,0 married japanese woman years ago were still togetherbr br however s would never easybr br life military mined action drama comedy years point mined death mixed relationships gave new ground cover old hat today then marrying asian back meant either owed somebody something freak sort touched possibilities along third maybe love br br brando usual good job garner better job usually does hes good showed good could be umeckichan helluva debut think earned statue really stretch role one overseas would recognized newness corkerbr br the real scene stealer red buttons red best thing film bank it japanese lifestyles shown admirable light wellbr br a classic,0 @detailfreak are you a med student? if you are: YAY! isn't it just wonderful?,0 do grew strict christian household dad mom spurred religious stuff siblings recently told believe god still make terrible efforts try convince bible true beliefs interfered education going without high school diploma unwillingness put school instead give christianbased curriculum ponder rely internet tried best get license money take it job lost birth certificate cant take first driving test fucking problems make life living hell wake up try convince im okay over try quelm good time friends like drink too legal drinking like course care admit sometimes like get drunk came home one night parents could smell alcohol today mom asked drink all parents burden life much try say needs get shit together cant help think ill probably happier college own without license right none that except depression religious parents without saying go hand hand young adult problem need leave asap,0 sister found undertale piss porn drawings made th grade fuck sketchbook sitting outside bedroom clearly looked it im scared look it hate year old me want death lord help me,0 makeing minecraft skins prices negotiable making minecraft skins happy dont half pay also dont get skin,0 hello people question bimgus,0 slim jim kid forgot name im going call sj for slim jim ill get story soon middle school rd period pe pretty quickly sj became friend him me girl talking period every day funny adventures together first ill talk slim jim story sj always looked behind bleachers bo reason coach never paid attention one day sj found old hard gross slim jim sj asked wanted shank steven the kid everyone hates especially me told stupid idea asked girl hung us told while holding back laugh it it sj shanked kid meat stick another less funny event forgot adhd meds managed break glasses attack me friend steven like days days pushing kid half size away girl foot taller didnt hurt or himself got mad me avoid head first charging minutes day got yelled pushing him sj got sent nurse charging students head first told sj bi thought meant slept guy girl explain attracted someone different sex illegally conversation went lgbtq stuff reason thought trans girl definitely wasnt sj youre reading go get help buddy insane tldr crazy friend shanked kid stick meat insane things,0 im ranting relation ship stuff saw post thats got idea btw really want relationship want talk someone problems night hug im feeling feel wanted cared someone make laugh matter stick side threw all hard find ppl want like hope find someone one day idk im mainly see lot ppl saying stuff like got girlfriend makes bit depressed also yes ik thag sounds quite pathetic anyways thats good day,0 planning week kill myself hangingits sad dont want it overwhelming depression fear spend next years life earth scary die anyway people die young years old house make six figures business great social life shit dont care make social life better push people away anyway ive three great girls life could married started family with thought hot shit playboy reality wanted alone feel bad let parents down friends people close going disturbed upset this justifying it people deal grief soon dead too religious believe afterlife god think likely scenario blank nothingness never violent person never understood people shoot place kill themselves would never desire that would never hurt anyone anything especially animal dont get wrong dont like people would never think hurting someone didnt deserve it even deserve wouldnt balls im ranting now shame teens early s high aspirations wanted somebody wanted make alot money good things im stuck average severely depressed alone fucked last relationship due depression pushed away thats probably alone forever im sorry parents crush you hope stay strong best people know couldnt asked better parents love you plan hang probably week done dry runs really think it redflag notes written out plan get hotel room know sucks hotel staff cant parents find hanging plan leave hotel staff money least do,1 think done cannot handle waking daily basis monotonous routine kills me want ocean sinking bottom nothing bother going stop feeling like tonight feel real nothing matters anymore,1 nights always badworthless trash checking,1 Listening to The Fray ,0 something seems wrong something seems wrong mind ability function common sense foresight makes feel like could easily manipulated unable read certain red flags signs started feeling way attempted redflag like mind switched turned dull emotionless numb barbie feel partly brain washed feels like mind isnt mine ive nearly completely changed something isnt me idk am feel like wont ever want freaking out feel like im going attempt redflag bc dont want live persona want be ppl dont understand possibility want im going explain answer you,1 reviews dead on ill cut different chase answer couple questions ive seen herebr br while characters seem look young hence controversy actoractress time obviously barrier usa thats still somewhat controversial simplicity innocence film much offset itbr br im sorry seen sean movie least expressions demonstrative obvious know exactly character feeling whether hes angry afraid confused anicee healthy career whos life cut unfortunately short cancer late beautiful talented actressbr br vhs tapes friends found amazoncom occasionally usually significant price ive seen low high as comment two price sequel video paul michelle quite pricey obtained when available amazon average,0 when i tried to km the second time what stopped me wa a terror unlike anything i have felt before i ve been planning an overdose for a while now and just planning it out ha brought that feeling right back to me i feel butterfly in my stomach and my heart racing and i know if i were to grab my med crush them up and went to take them i wouldn t be able to fight this terror i ve been told before that that just mean that somewhere deep inside you you want to live but i disagree this feel like basic primal instinct it s so hard to just say do x and then all of your perception will end that s not something you can just do yet people have i want to do this but i don t know how to prepare for this terror i remember when i backed out of my second attempt i kept on saying to myself nothing can prepare you for that i can plan and prepare all i want but taking an action that self destructive is incredibly difficult especially when you have a realistic fear of not dying and being left severely injured i m terrified and i don t know what to do anymore it seems like the best option but it s so cruel that it just ha to be so difficult dying shouldn t be too much to ask for yet absolutely everything fight against you i hate this so incredibly much this is hell,1 "@Chris__Emerson damn thats sucks, Well I guess we should try it next time and I already follow you hehe",0 bday thats literally it thank ur time,0 yall got weird fetishes kinks ok ill start feedism specifically feedee gaining weight fat stuff general feet furry breastmilk armpits tickling hairy girls dommy mommy and kind man im horrible person,0 sorry everyone tried help mei wish could say ive gotten better havent im still garbage human feel even shittier keep saying im gonna probably should seems like im going run people listen keep crying wolf goodbye im sorry,1 failed attempti tried overdosing yesterday didnt work let hospital planning kill asap advice how it get hospital shouldnt etc honestly point want someone care,1 @Keryje You really do have a cruel streak! ,0 help us school project teacher told us make project modern teenagers friend decided make project teenaagers think games please honest answers get good picture situation httpsformsgletqeffhvawtbyrmphttpsformsgletqeffhvawtbyrmp,0 is in pain after having her brace tightened,0 anyone wanna talk quick facts male love watching anime ive getting kpop recently like beats love cute things happy listen anyone vent and ive run things say hmu interested,0 want anything people lifewhy prolonging this hope have nothing going change itll always world,1 @hsabomilner gd mrnng... ah ur mood will changa! ,0 yearslast time self harmed years ago days today fine day right im worst ive since im really struggling deal it girlfriend important day tomorrow want wake anyone know do help,1 color hair say anything combination idk,0 im afraid feel know need iti feel worse ever feel hopeless insides hurt am one nothing afraid,1 byeyou could king street sweeper end day dance grim reaper life worst gift ever received good night,1 numb nothing live might goodbyeif button press would instantly end life wouldve pressed years ago ive come realization life never get better never weight want never medication never find someone love me never father didnt molest me never mother dont resentment towards never choice past make choice future one trying come best ways happen shotgun would traumatic around me hanging debating carbon monoxide moms coworker recently ended successfully tips,1 rach oh no that suck mike ha to work saturday and monday andrew got from friday till wednesday off the bugger lol,0 ive drinking heavily need take pills now finally free terrible lifei feel nauseous know need help ask itd make feel weak life honestly shit idk im posting im never going find someone fuck cheat me ill never graduate high school ill never able enough money move start new city able get dream job friends tell care love me ive told much whenever talk sad explaining slept entire day supposed hangout get annoyed inevitably leave im losing way many people probably sign swallow bottle pills cut arms knife im worth anyones time feel like im obligated post finally though maybe someone help see something cant doubt though lost chance hope fucking long ago feel empty smile public people ask whats wrong im sorry wall text sorry anyone whos read point im wasting time apologize waste human life,1 going sleep crying thought waking crying let wake,1 im up guy lloll,0 stats feed what an irony finland is the happiest country in the world and it still fall under top 0 country with highest rate of depression irony aparanjape chetan bhagat anandmahindra hvgoenka sardesairajdeep,1 relapsed shhi guys usually reading subbut feel like sharing today soi cut lifei and cut since i clean like monthsbuti relapsed todayjust came bathroomand cut dullestrustiestrazor everit hurt hellbut felt greatthe worst part isi dont really reasonthings getting better latelybut empty feeling really go awayit gets worsethe better things look me maybe know normal anymore,1 self sure approach professional helpthis throwaway account feel fantasies jumping third floor university quite often though necessarily feel near future days wish sort trigger makes go it want seek professional help like therapist know could afford someone meaningfully relatable feel depression continues like years come end inevitably instead therapy mostly selfmedicate depression weed options longterm therapeutic help someone could develop close connection understanding with like friend,1 redflag seems like optioni wake every day exhausted knowing ill again im exhausted things control im tired spiritual bullshit ask here ask this want nothing seems convince otherwise im desperately trying hang on anyone advice redflag seem like option,1 want anymoreliving life without father really hard really cant stand knowing hes probably enjoying life familys rotting away somewhere never got love support family material things would make life worse ive probably gotten family short congrats top grade like years grades slowly started getting worse worse family got aggresive insensitive time went on point mentally physically emotionally exhausting me ive tried talking usually works days come back before like friends wholeheartedly trust one slowly drifting away hurts person friend years become love life im close friends trust enough bad enough trust issues too help physically abused throughout childhood without fighting back whole thing badly composed im tired want anything anymore able afford therapy anyway guess end line,1 heck hummus smoothie bean paste dream,0 hey everyone wanted get stuff chest sorry wrong place this hey everyone sorry wrong place wanted chat guess last months ive kept feeling sadder sadder struggle sleeping cant eat without feeling guilty feels like nothing makes happy more think might depression think im qualified make decision feel like im allowed feel sad come middleclass background feel like lot people much less fine living day day lives always feel like im useless thing im good making everyone around sad also feel like everyone judging constantly thats relevant information think now ill add post think anything feel free give advice ask question comments ill respond feel comfortable answering it anyway thanks reading hope nice day,0 life goal sit room realize life thought passes mind life short want smoke blunt monkey want life probably good years left life least time want smoke monkey thats it chimp little capuchin something like thats it blunt monkey anyone else shares one aspiration,0 eat whole ass grape one bats eye eat whole ass lemon societ goes wild,0 found morgan subreddit worse imagine filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 someone knock insomnia moment really serious need punch head maybe caffeine addiction doesnt help cant even think im fucking tired help,0 Help out Culture Shock SD and join us a@t Hooters MV on Wednesday from 600-1200. 20% of your check will support us Drink and be merry!,0 im supposed happy wealthyi need pay school fee own pay college parents divorce theyve got big house live im still living age theres food eat legs arms cancer ive happy situation general since born know wanna take life badly im supposed healthy mind know,1 reason livei anyone depends me important job do know unpopular but alive thats case seriously whats point suppose took realise matter really close killing myself suicidal thoughts head day night theres two people world stop it think grit teeth despair cos feel trapped theyre still around im sure it,1 paris je taime film made segments math segments minutes means director seven minutes tell story movie based premise can indeed tell story short amount time premise works almost segments powerful complete satisfying presents different aspect parisian experience almost every director draws forth outstanding performances cast great neargreat actorsbr br there many powerful portrayals film hard pick one two favorites probably memorable juliette binoche grieving mother segment place des victoires gena rowlands aging beauty quartier latin catalina sandino moreno maid segment loin du me margo martindale colorado mail carrier learned speak french visit paris me arrondissement segment br br special mention must given gulliver hecq probably meanest little boy ever harass american tourist parisian metro station segment tuileriesbr br this outstanding movie wife decided rent months catch subtle points surely missed however paris photographed beautifully would suggest try see large screen case miss it,0 wanting kill guyi want it im tired everything everything seems pointless hopeless,1 need help know draw im taking commission im expert patience commission come time please forgive me nsfw things im familiar realistinc things draw fictional animals things like,0 think pretty would money get makeup little ago friend gave old eyeliner try out literally cried loved looked much would call average look makeup see would enhance features much just ugh even highlighter contour could much with,0 love horror films think work way better hide dramatic impact behind the devils backbone exorcist example kind film eerie terrifying be also really beautiful tale two sisters starts really slow hurry see ghosts first minutes disappointed actually ghost story though some something complex done way beats ringu grudge ring sweat tale way clever film huge cultural hits really cares characters direction flawless every detail film leave breathless kind person loves pay attention details watching movie acting superb specially stepmother main girl two worth price ticket alone favor watch awesome film,0 im sick fuckive saiddone awful things cousins deserve menobody does im terrible human deserves every painful word thing saiddone me even ask ive doneitll scar life,1 susie q one rare sweet movies give warm feeling bittersweet wholesome characters fun captivating first thought movie would clich cuddly movie would bore five minutes wrong made tear times plot enticing making root good guys loved movie still remember today years later recommend highly anyone movie family oriented worry unsuitable content truly disney would show movies par susie q would popular family oriented channel world disney would show one time_ go susie q,0 admit enjoying bad movies love watch them horror especially friends gather hard week school work rent crazy tapes order pizza blast one great box expecting less usualbr br the story housing project built nuclear facility aboveground layers bulldozed underground layers simply covered up inhabitants neighborrhood find covered facility kids fall hole inside cave wakes zombiesbr br from point on chunkcity gore effects action never stop end credits rollbr br ok great art one injoke dialogue overthetop gruesome stuff favorite evening actually one best party tapes ever pleasure watching could tell done money bunch crazy people hundreds zombies director looks like brendan frazer he cameo wild trip,0 @Thebombshell okie doke bestie! ,0 weeks ago took camping trip alone many plans one commit redflag there away everyone one call selfishwhy im still alive dont know really came back home days,1 hey reddit times gotten harder daysits months since love life committed redflag hands still tremble type this hard keep pretending outside world ive since episodes depression lasting hours others day two none like im going now ive tried kill failed failure something new me ive failing whole life hurts looking people normal life cant it know saying head life like driving car like taking train get direct train buy tickets destination think got one way ticket months ago good reason carry useless existence logical brain telling carry emotions telling ive enough im work im tearing apart inside cant take anymore,1 kazans early film noir oscar reviews go extraordinary detail length film symbolism rate highly almost see coming from prefer take toneddown approach longforgotten film appears shot practically budget quasidocumentary fashion pneumonic plague loose streets new orleans military doctor widmark city detective douglas apprehend main carrier palance film moody shot stark black white makes good use locations widmark wonderful usual forget symbolism crime equals disease disease equals crime enjoy chase always easy watching film like well new century particular style shortlived post wwii early s unlikely interest casual film watcher watching first time sit tight big chase end something else frankly know filmed it say probably took long film finale first percent movie,0 happiness fragilei well weeks feel hopeless even got motivation back school thought things turning around fail important test grade fucked jokes getting hopes __ im back spiral know get shit together now want pass classes see point im probably gonna fail anyways,1 became nerd accident glasses thanks mom new glasses look bit bigger social anxiety aspergers cant socialize well far nerd basically someone glasses doesnt socialize much welp sucks ill forever lonely like friends lol actually accept,0 cant eat drink or breath properly thanks to the bad throat infection,0 @AdamasityBarbie haha u know what's popping tonite ,0 bad titlesi feel like tonight really me rough year me ive stuck crappy job years im stuck im stuck needing help mother job long time making slightly minimum wage yeah big part im alone first relationship ended horribly lying cheating etc one two failures spent next years trying date sticking casual stuff wanting more set girl really changed views it seemed actually care made want myself wasnt like girls id before together year found sleeping several coworkers say least crushed me every thing ever told made rethink life suddenly faded away everything seems like complete lie make things even worse starting workplace week hurts first girl trusted long time started heal old scars turned around made even worse left wondering literally second last year thought was ive always struggled depression year seems kicking ass really feel like hope life anymore ive always struggled alcohol problem last year admit ive gotten much much worse dunno probably even seem like big deals are,1 Great to have created an illustration for a powerful blog for @FOMCIC The First Time I Said I'm Depressed Check it out... https://freedomofmind.org.uk/2018/04/first-time-said-im-depressed/?c=blue …#depression #mentalhealth #illustration pic.twitter.com/gC6YNDttbe,1 m gradate student abusing alcohol little much lately much afford days become routine thing now idk call binge drinking yet long story short cannot thing right career look great whatever happened far hardly friends good thing life mother sure going aruond long feels like nothing life matters except alcohol,1 honestly hate brother hate him think parents put shit hes like never shown love towards ever shown furious am start list past years quarantine situation really aggravating first off hes reason bust ass working new ps controller broke analog sticks circle triangle buttons dont work l r doesnt work anymore secondly constantly remind whenever chores take showers brush teeth eat held responsible whenever misses one always singled whenever family arguements concerning get blamed for think cool someone throughout younger stages everything power ruin life cruel doesnt care whenever breaks something pits blame almost everyone family blames breaking computer brother plays shady flash games clicks links hate it banned using computer never angrier sick him,0 feeling suicidalhello everyone know reach to thought maybe awesome people reddit would help out ive batteled depression know make pain go away feel like theres nothing live im empty inside might end tonight good bye b,1 "@djklutch i thought u might wanna kno born in Prishtina/Kosova raised there & Italy, moved 2 Usa 4 good about 2 yrs ago ",0 im feel ive lived much done much im ready goits kind melancholy type thought get dad said told tired burden world ready pass would happen kind feel way want control destiny,1 incredibly lonelyi surprised someone actually texted today turned automated message dentist got looking messages talked anyone months im isolated im anything life im tired want here anyone cares point still here,1 unbrpony fucked horse like nibba what joking either username means no bucket required meaning fuck without standing something,0 aight people say want big tiddy goth gfs question actually exist slaanesh propaganda,0 is loving how sunny it is - even if in work - it's still nice to look at ,0 days ill aloneits am cant sleep work today want end want wait im alone house parents care im gone sisters care im around extended family turn to december entire family leaves europe want last moments alone cant wait longer,1 Gonna weight myself to fall into deeper depression,1 movie never intended bigbudget film cute little picture pretty much anyone could enjoy probably change life certainly charming engagingbr br clifton webb plays curmudgeon thats certainly new tv however ratings failing worried cancellation decides maybe touch kidsas wife none own so volunteers scoutmaster regrets almost immediately remember curmudgeon particularly like kids make things worse one kids really likes follows like lost puppy matter indifferently acts towards kid child wants spend time him kid cute nearly steals show himself br br what happens next twists turns movie something find yourself understand light cute yet cloying movie probably enjoy,0 DS - was interviewed on KSL tonight. I can never remember everything I want to say when I'm interviewed. It was fun though...,0 not sure if anyone can relate i feel like probably not on this subreddit so i do apologise if it s rude to post here but i want to die i just don t want to kill myself i can t wait for life to be over but i don t want to just end it i want to smoke to speed up the process and i just feel a little nihilistic i wouldn t really call myself suicidal but i don t think i ll be sad when i die either,1 "Finished with the LRO! Phew, it's like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders! (#44290 for posterity )",0 my compassion to the people in italy my mother is calling with our relative in italy right now,0 the hoyts distribution nz website isn t working for me great and it ha to be like this when i need it most,0 movie halve bad people want make believe isbr br what reason many people hate movie laurel hardys last one together best lack laurel hardy regulars made hal roach studios th century fox br br definitely true movie successful attempt revive laurel hardy bring s also definitely true movie far best honestly movie still entertains well making movie also far worst worthy goodbye movie imaginable entertaining suiting goodbye nevertheless retired movies completing onebr br the movie still features great slapstick moments chemistry laurel hardy obviously still much present also makes movie better movies together s quite surprise slapstick humor still works great does considering days slapstick comedy over ever since sbr br the story perhaps entertaining could features many sidekicks characters result movie looses focus boys times shame still ones really carry make moviebr br sad see poor form stan laurel time making movie really looked ill old also course was well years old already surgery fully recovered still lived another years dying years good friend oliver hardybr br an entertaining though perfect goodbye boys laurel hardy end decades fun humorous quality slapstick entertainment movies still watched loved people worldbr br ,0 sitting bed alone cuddling mountain stuffed animals feel empty wish heart childhood wish hadnt beaten raped long im year old girl try give childhood never parents ever love me diei feel alone whats point even trying anymore im sad lonely,1 @NateyDynamite cool! She can purchase jewelry from the website www.cre8tivesoul.com it will be updated very soon with new product ,0 lost live age editedi lost interest things used love debate varsity team mycollege secluded team longer communicate practice them highschool twotime national debate champion still known esteemed debafer college however lost confidence ego feel longer really good anyrhing feel even simplest tasks even getting bed reading studying seems hard do feel like failure deactivated social media facebook twitter instagram active social person isolating past two months playing games means coping mechanism this feel life meaning wasting time games makes depressed cannot get cycle everything else besides gaming seems hard do honestly sad lonely background story father passed away big part ofmy life best friend someone talk anything diagnosed clinical depression tbe age back gaming coping mechanism got unhealthy coping mechanism looked towards friends gym got girlfriend age felt lot better broke actually felt secure even alone recently got girlfriend loved much unexpectedly broke really broke heart feels like reason live anymore feels even harder go gym make close ties friends little motivation so talk anyone think anyone would understand end pitying sermoning would want burden negativity even know maybe friends may probably want talk hesitant reach out eflo ps thank anyone listens done final edits ,1 "summer 2009 day 1 new rules, new routine, new attitude!",0 here the reason we used to stay in a nice house everything went well for several year all this time he father ha been borrowing money in mother s name now we stay in tiny home fight everyday mom in horrible health condition and he just sits and watch tv the whole fucking day no way to pay back debt he doesnt care about me or my mother at all he speaks to others like he is thier owner and they are his slave no care for anyone just smoke all day my life is ruined i have no one to talk to no real friend and about to relapse into old bad coping mechanism i dont know why i am living but once i graduate i want to take my mom and go away from him forever i live scared thinking and hoping he doesnt abuse my mother he doe but not physically only way for me and my mom to recover is his death or ours,1 idkim useless im dead weight im help anyone im loser im numb im empty im dead im goodfornothing im unreal not real dead dead dead world gonna wake up gonna wake nightmare cant real god help me god help us please god please know whats going anymore cant even talk someone without dissociating cant even look anyone eyes hurts much want hang badly,1 strange dream yesterday basically standing dark room suddenly dwayne johnson appeared accidentally stabbed lightsaber didnt even know hand suddenly everything back normal woke up mean exactly force sensitive,0 seven years shit lost hope ever getting better wish could die peacefully today want fight anymore,1 congrats me reached first karma hard journey ive lost karma total since joined still made it,0 want something would help small social redflag also prevent future panic attacks anyone good experience ssris tldr lexapro panic attacks social redflag months got bad side effects lexapro made moments almost going insane panic attacks since redflag maybe slightly better worth cons anyone stories switching lexapro something else made less anxious confident,1 gn homies hope die sleep kisses u gn,0 im okayi dont really good enough reason okay thats is ive thinking different methods redflag last couple hours cant stop crying reached service always amazing dont offer crisis support she suggested ed local crisis line big no grounding techniques went arent cutting it want feel okay instead wanting take world time,1 i feel like i should change my picture but i don t think i could part with my bff audrey hepburn,0 It's strangely quiet this morning Don't poke the bear don't poke the bear don't poke the bear......,0 "@Sini74: I'll ask if the results were confidential and e-mail you, OK? Don't have to stick w/140 characters then! ",0 Dinner with the fam... I have missed them ,0 "Keeping mostly to myself today, I'll reply to RPs soon, firs to @SansaBrokenDove and then to the other SLs I have. Yes, bad mood and crippling depression right now. I think I'll be feeling better later.",1 left bank account new job pays biweekly means ill starving weeks plan visit local food bank figured might well reach fellow redditors also leave link wishlist bellow guys help would gladly appreciate it,0 @VanNessVanWu ??!! can i ask for a prayer request from you V? ,0 "So far, no 3g wireless network. I'm having to suffer on this painfully slow EDGE network http://schmap.me/qhv2f9",0 @joshuaduboff: @jgarris and fans will still have the ability to get a printed guide...I'll have more details soon ,0 macbatchelor ah won t be at rehearsal tonight we are awaiting the imminent arrival,0 venting sorry im posting much let start saying im safe dont active plans harm anything crazy im suicidal thoughts ive like since weeks last attempt ive cutting thigh last weeks maybe week cut helps release stress dont know im writing guess able vent part wants die im tired life feeling like repeat part doesnt want see kids grow up,1 sincere words whoever needs hear themtoday lost friend almost months since lost another friend one shot one overdosed people shared many laughs with people pleasure working with people cared much always look back regret more maybe couldve said something done something change whatever pain going through keep running head ill never know live strange times struggling cope make feeling alone less real feelings valid ok feel know alone struggled depression suicidal thoughts long remember tell keeps going perhaps waiting see world turns out knows maybe things worth it need hear it love you matter world pain filled place full uncertainty still matter even weve never met love you pain pain together,1 getting admitted hospitali live uk sure whether elsewhere theres something quite get system far understand it way getting immediate help ie hospital failing actual redflag attempt show doctor say i going kill todaytomorrow method otherwise experience pretty much hmm heres slight med adjustment see feel come back month whilst appreciate simply enough space hospitals also really understand scenario could ever occur surely made decision make doctors appointment day tell them anyone experience situation,1 stupid super lucky got beautiful wife kids mortgage steady job nearly years turned supposed feel like shit time supposed suicide ideation every second day supposed get point week nearly jumped multi story car park good things feel like meet distractions world slows enough immediately think ending all react negatively everything first response putting unwanted strain notredflag reinforcing idea burden around me see lot posts people shit situations here understand completely feel way feel feel guilty feeling way counts not do still sure turn around hang got lot thankful for still want end all,1 im tired suicidal im tired drive liveive wanting blow brains since im tired never endless sadness im done ive decided im going best live happy go die final choice ive made im going struggle best can bottle paracetomal rope strong tree final decision either live happy die sad way tiring thank comminitys support good bye,1 dont want kill want someone love meim lost please help,1 merry christmas country th december hope jolly christmas think santa doesnt deliver funeral homes careful going alley,0 bored asf wanna draw gimme ideas pls wanna test hand drawing bit gimme ideas pls thank youu,0 seen messed stuffive cop years ive seen stuff one ever see kids murdered parents people crushed cars things could done something never cant go trauma know could helped people im going end life say sorry people could helped,1 loves that it is light out at 5 am. last bkfst before summer with science crew. then off for more Nemo. I'm gonna sing more today. ,0 sorry i should say that this vid hit you hard please beware the last minute especially http www youtube com watch v eujsme0torw,0 booked my hair appointment ,0 might mess around make profile picture actual picture like minutes idk tho feeling pedos run rampant sub might mothers jaded opinion towards internet forums shed pissed knew reddit dare internet safety unit scaring life,0 want pregnancy kill without regretim sick everything gross fucking room temper tantrums toddler throws mice think place roomies dishes trash everywhere pain pregnant despite birth control scraping keep bills stay thousands dollars debt apply jobs behalf fucking himself doctors blatantly making difficult get sterilized give birth second time im still young may change mind constantly judged mom sometimes scream cant take more again maybe shit mom becauae even toddler yanks hair hits toys put away shortened nap think much want die try desperately cry around cant hold know seeing way damaging way fault shitty mom like hes old enough understand that sees me wreck mess thing really keeping together right fact pretty fucked kill leave toddler alone hours till dad gets home weeks baby sibling born maybe moms kids live enough honestly hurts more choices options even death revolve entirely around whats best kids im trapped lost angry dont want feel way cant stop it wanted better foot forward wanted stronger happier mother wife dont spine it feel like im crushed alive one nothing help me im tired want go sleep never wake up want done,1 confessed feelings girl like said feels way,0 @musingsandmud Medication crisis catalyst depression recovery. Rebuilding polymath creativity! http://www.jo-b-creative.blogspot.co.uk ,1 movie the stupid comedy year quite possibly best thing mike judge since office space mike judge fan enjoy shows like futurama grave disservice skipping little known limited release although dvd touts bonus features film certainly funny enough make perceived lack valuebr br this movie army grunt name joe bowers played luke wilson part top secret army experiment designed preserve army personnel peace time thawed war time fight country however things take interesting turn general charge operation busted prostitution ring experiment forgotten bowers sidekick rita played maya rudolph find awake year course natural selection population america grown increasingly stupid joe rita find way time machine get back year help frito played dax shepardbr br what really enjoyed movie mike judges comedic satire course us history last years mankind progresses subsequent years evidenced advertising movie become staple american culture shows like south park mainstream media easy see conclusions could drawn future profanity become marketing tool portrayed film humorously subtle things fuddruckers changing name buttfers billboard displays advertisement if smoke tarryltons f you also cannot stop laughing carls jrs role future slogan f you im eating automated kiosks selfadvertising extra biga tacos with molecules film contained everything go movies for excellent sharp witty comedy well engrossing plot make dvd one ages warned however fan mike judge care beavis butthead sense humor movie probably good match you otherwise would say probably funniest movie come mean ,0 life hard enough right now holidays make much much worse definitely feel much isolated depressed suicidal today go work tonight hear everyone great holiday going help want life already enough holidays worst,1 Crescent shaped depression,1 theekween help people who suffer from depression anxiety loss of loved one heartbreaking or have witness something traumatic thelmaherbs,1 hello all i am in need of some advice and input on behalf of my wife she wa officially diagnosed with anxiety a few year ago now and she hasn t really pursued any sort of treatment it s a very sensitive topic to her and so we haven t really discussed her option medication is an especially taboo topic she ha a ton of hesitation about starting medication because she doesn t think the side effect and downside are worth the potential positive aspect i guess i wa just hoping for some advice personal experience and input about this situation what ha worked and helped what hasn t etc particularly about experience with medication and such thank you so much for your help,1 stanning him ha added joy to my life he s not a tool to fantasize in your arm he s not a play thing to go crazy over he s an artist you like him because his art is adding a new flavor to your time his song mean something to me my depression wa understood and respected in,1 unpopular opinion singing petitions doesnt really anything think like called performative activism something like idk,0 cant be bothered get out of bed day feelin ultra lazy i miss josh,0 laid todayas title says laid job today cant get thoughts killing head know end world anything cant seem shake thoughts im filling unemploymentbrowsing jobs despite overall dislike amount stress caused pay much deserved plus feels like positive thing going point life really reason posting this wanted get chest guess,1 fun bmovie shepis absolutely beautiful scarecrow distinct original really brought back monsters s budget obviously low everybody pacino behind lens matter never takes seriously trailer trash redneck high flying martial arts moves scarecrow truly bmovie gem grab refreshments snacks couple friends kick back relax enjoyed film much went purchased scarecrow films sure theyre everybody own sometimes set thinking cap smile,0 want award comment click short link get best music httpswwwgooglecomurlqhttpsaffopenspotifycomfartistfcvewnmaunzpeecnxkmyampsadampsntzampusgafqjcnhafdmwwrzveiynfnzlnnozknpfg,0 im scared ocd back go awayi depression anxiety already makes suicidal thoughts used ocd well stopped getting obsessions year ago today im starting show traits also different intrusive thoughts know whos thinking cant help still feel like im awful person know panicking like help want ocd im terrified feel trapped,1 @JamFactory Gav its amazing. Just wait for the dance routine ,0 Victoria secret is the most amaaaziiinngg store on the planet ,0 think going kill point wrote note phone whenever deed guess someone might end finding it really matter get found might help someone realize pain constantly life caused actions rest put onto me could never see future capacity guess wrote suicide note,1 edge much pain solutionstoday lost last real job offer due communications error family told believe told raped child edge raped school covered up school lawyer convinced family press charges ive stuck living family since got college struggling find fulltime work get money move outits goodwe get along cant communicate weve fighting years fighting mother escalated point hardly talk one another father completely oblivious everything although supportive goes whatever mother says even disagrees posterchild emotionally dominated spouse week ago mother beloved elderly pet rat euthanized without telling town weekend found getting vet bill gets angry mental problems take mental health seriously upon telling ptsd told build bridge get it lied terminally ill cancer years ago for attention actually hoped would die several months ago aggressive harassment took really bad turn causing ptsd get really badduring particularly awful fight took knife kill dared it almost did something stopped me checked mental hospital aftermath causing lose job process stay mental hospital ironically counterproductive mental health too since ive tried stay stable struggled find work managing get job struggling retail chain get breaks get yelled id like friends live far away work long hours get see often successful friends look like im crazy burnout humiliating relationship rest family struggled failed get girlfriend enough times ive given up sexual problems ptsd depression plus im looker i suffer physical deformity hand think scary movie two butler makes finding girlfriend painfully impossible task spend time locked room waiting form unemployed mother leave house she rarely does take handfuls drugs sleep night soon able afford lose insurance coverage ive seen dozen therapists none helpful ive tried talk problems friends problems personal dark want hear it lost know anymore want escape spend lot time thinking dying backing bag fleeing west destination mind know much longer go without completely losing it life string catastrophes since childi know take life kicking ass one time,1 my whole life i ve dealt with the trifecta of depression anxiety and ocd i wa always functional with all disorder clocking in at maybe a 0 depression always felt like more of a chemical thing it wa never situationally based anxiety amp ocd were usually health related hypochondria i guess anyways i never knew episode existed i always just hovered at the same baseline then in 0 i had a severe panic attack after smoking some potent weed it really shook me and it sent me into what i guess would be my first episode it wa my first time experiencing dissociation and it terrified me i wa in a constant state of panic for month at the time i had been on lexapro for year my gp wa ill equipped to deal with this so she recommended a new doc for med big mistake new doc decided i should quit taking lexapro and switch to zoloft which perhaps would have worked if she had done it correctly instead of cross tapering or weaning off lexapro she decided to have me stop taking lexapro cold turkey wait a month until it wa out of my system and then start zoloft going cold turkey off lex wa a nightmare of biblical proportion and sent me further into the most intense depression and anxiety i d ever experienced after a hospital visit they suggested an outpatient program i agreed and there they got me back on the lexapro after a few more long month thing evened out i returned to a manageable baseline although the depression wa a tad higher because i could no longer self medicate with weed the experience ruined weed for me would immediately send me into panic mode but still thing were going well fast forward to january 0 and suddenly out of the blue i wake up one day super depressed no appetite couldn t sleep at night i wa so confused my first episode had a clear and obvious trigger panic attack ill advised cold turkey med change i d never had something like this happen with no trigger that s when i started to dig deeper and found out that episode exist this time i had a doc i trust added remeron which wa awesome at first felt better than i had in year wa sleeping and eating great for about 0 day then splat all that went away back to square one and i even developed tinnitus from the remeron so i nixed the remeron and we decided to switch from lexapro a well but the right way this time i did a seamless cross taper to effexor i m on my th week of it went from 0 my last day on the lexapro wa last friday which wa the day i did the increase to 0 thing have improved slightly def not where i wan na be tho i now know that episode can last anywhere from day to month or longer so i m trying to be patient it s tough tho eventually i may have to decide whether to increase effexor again or augment with something else an aa perhaps not sure what i meant to accomplish with this wall of text but if you read it kudos to you i guess i just wanted to document this strange journey maybe you ve been through something similar or know someone who ha maybe you can offer advice which i d welcome either way i hope whoever is reading this is doing well and i wish you all the best of luck in this thing called life,1 jpiasentin same but unfortunately i have to pack now,0 @KeithDNoles ok you travel a lot-why are you in Seattle? Say hi to my friend Rick for me ,0 last post hereit honor knowing you kill weeks nothing change everytime see hangmans knot noose feel warmth like something loves me hope leave hard feelings here,1 saw movie stunned great movie was movie think would ever give star rating sure movie always top br br the acting superb leonardo dicaprio kate winslett best think anyone could better job kate br br if rainy day cant decide rent well one love acting special effects much much morebr br if seen movie go rent buy now regret itbr br ,0 took prozac whati read even near lethal dosage fuck im scared heat moment thing know,1 getting closeer time years later one wife three kids disabled plus years loveless marriage kids really much tried give could riddled health issues lost house almost died blood clots sure wished would of much explain enough energy care bother afraid end trying tell wife going kill seem think serious afraid use gun want mess vegetable building courage hoping either get sign life get better kidding year goes gets worse doctors taking away pain meds chronic pain slowly surely way young going much sister killed mom handle gone killed dad gave loss pile shit within years died one one younger brother disowned me guess family give end would much easier kids older get less shown really much gotten little easier get final push done all tried reach family seems like take seriously cry help sound projected hear one day end,1 people say adhd make sociable quite literally opposite maybe could mental problems talking fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 arghh my hand are itchy could it be that on top of my alergy to beef i also can not eat chicken no more,0 @labsafetyslut https://mangadex.org/chapter/268046/1 … enjoy depression,1 Visa Black Card with Carbon Graphite http://ow.ly/boTc Can anyone get it? ,0 hi update two i definitely go through a lot of mood swing throughout my day sometimes i feel pretty good but sometimes i feel very lonely and isolated it doesn t help that i m extremely insecure about my appearance right now and i don t even want to go out to social situation because i stress about how terrible i look i just want to look good i ve been trying very hard i ve been keeping to a strict skin care regimen i nearly cut carbs out of my diet in hope it ll help my acne and i eat like 000 calorie a day so i can be shredded it s a little rough honestly i m a male so that s not a lot of calorie to work with i guess at least it get me cooking because i can t afford to waste any calorie i ve gone from about 9 to about in like a month though i workout almost every day and i go very hard for over an hour non stop exercise i feel lonely a lot i want to talk to girl very badly but i don t have the confidence in my appearance to bother i know i m ugly so it s not like i ll be able to go anywhere with them im trying to change it though i just wish i had clear skin honestly that would erase of my problem anyways i m doing okay i guess not really satisfied with my life or all that happy but my thought have stayed away from certain subject for a few day now i guess i d call that an improvement peace out much love and good luck to everyone,1 wish born malei chance mother first born uncle followed aunt first born father followed grandpa first born great uncle followed children first born girl boy come long line first borns females males actually see quite pattern first born girls younger brothers want transition know feel real want cis penis grown male male childhood feel less than feel ruined feel left out feel like life sad things gender stupid thing caught stupid shit like mothers try pretend sad little boys mom would wanted first born son matter much would try admit it likes little dress doll sad life sad world want it options limitedidk,1 died spared everyone troublea little year ago tried kill myself hospitalized released thinking things going get better past year ive able control suicidal thoughts depression spiraling control got trouble school morning hospitalized again spent hour room mom listening cry fault id died last year couldve saved everyone trouble going again,1 hoping i can get some decent sleep tonight since i didn t get any worth shittt last night goodnight world xoxo,0 im playing love colonel sanders dating sim yeah thing come join me not you good day link join me herehttpsmtwitchtvlatenightbriocheprofile,0 "@suggadelic @ChaoslilKat I really don't understand why so many respond to people being depressed by demanding they justify their own depression. Or worse, proclaiming they somehow aren't entitled to feel sorrow because they aren't designated as disenfranchised. A lack of understanding psychology.",1 "Natalie was a great mystic, and this tale sings her story. Natalie took on depression, but provided refuge, and went home to marvel at her life.",1 like signs universe repeated words phrases scenarios scared also know seeing omens might die soon,1 for year now i ve always thought of suicide a a back up plan whenever somethings went wrong i just thought oh well i m not going to be here much longer it doesn t matter but i ve never thought of the aftermath i hate the thought of my decomposed possibly mangled body i hate the fact my family friend would have to see that i hate to put them in that position ive never thought of it in their perspective in general im just a coward it might sound good i don t want to kill myself but now i feel very claustrophobic i feel like i cant breathe there no escape,1 see pointill try keep short possible wanna bore anyone ive demons do matter do theyll never go away suicidal since think theres point living anymore bad many here feel hopeless anyway plot points interest you bullied nd grade til st year high school catholic boys school bullying bad made resent catholicism like trigger word find anyone catholic immediately trust them sorry catholic offends thats much bullying rewired brain found god became bornagain enough think anything enough demons always here found refuge woman loved never loved back now started reeking desperation sought love wrong places im convinced one accept anyone ill never good enough anyone good enough friend best friend close yet cigar currently graduated college radio dj keep getting shit mother tells real job verbal attacks starting hurt know else keep living ive never lived always felt necessity live them simply exist want need to think best way describe situation the world expects much someone never wanted anyway lacking live lacking courage die wrote case end all theres big fucking clue right post thank you,1 nothing mom totally crying ya know ampxb httpspreviewredditrlvveabpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsafcecadede,0 losti tried kill back work decided try figured might depressed told mom laughed me said pathetic found psychologist told suffer depression social anxiety told mom allow take meds refused go see psychiatrist even though psychologist wanted mom want disappoint her psychologist told know months stopped seeing her got worse cant get bed like zero motivation anything im scared go school teachers keep giving shit sick often im scared oral examination teachers yell try make feel like shit front whole class parents like beat yell kids really wanna take care baby brother become legal guardian probably happen life sucks idea do want end,1 things get better redflag attempt failedive debating whether say anything really like vulnerable however feel like im going try again want someone know story my real story could go pages list everything ill try sum up ill honest want die want things get better know deep down wont also sorry bad grammar repeat im bad words long story previous posts ive deleted redditors commented post long want get im depressed recently ill try sum much possible ampxb main points bullying peers bullying professors getting good grades get dream internship lost friends feeling like one cares rich dad different state financially help lot money buy christmas presents really feeling like everything fault would feel better ended broken ampxb last year bullied college school policy roommate kills themself get class told continued bully point would get stared at barked im furry think fucked dogs hence barking seen without emotionally abusedrude comments etc small dorms campus highschool popular kid party stayed dorm watching netflix studying grandmother passed away dropped semester due bullying sucks really want go neuroscience professor getting fired algebra would give us enormous assignments question writeout homework questions finals week valentines day gave us questions due night multiple step writeouts guess little happiness got class average one pass class with he eventually fired this year probably worst year life i said last year that think get worse want suffering end college multiple campuses switched campuses far one wanted bullying stop new year new outlook well thats psycho professor comes in human biology favorite subject good it hes type guy says opinions facts wanted polite really want drama wanted hopefully ask reference internship dying for goes well high ss gave participation grade go office speak it eventually agrees give feel like fine weeks later gives us project email question says emailed question taking points project yes really silly there syllabus negative question people double check think bad thing email professor project bring advisor threatening dock points emailed question says done nasty stuff like past its first semester first year teaching bring head science department asked said would something it she actually old bio teacher knew work ethic bullying went campuses project came added new peers grade peers criteria remember projects came us came group added new grading criteria project started berating asking questions i answered correctly would say prions brain btw stuff like that end walked class take berating me lying making feel awful even us call students see could repeat back said student called could perfectly ones back could not he called student got right thats walked out told class left would hold grudges students that gave s s would give full credit bonus contacted head dean nothing even response one anything purposely failed me proof stealing points grades giving unfair grades taking points reason even changed old assignments one two points took final today try know would fail me dean anything bragging favorite professor actually reported him bragging failing me wtf illegal old professor head science department told phone would love reference internship apologized psychotic teacher contacted days ago would still willing help never responded again professors willing help one made bet could get final would got i busy spending hours vocab words psycho teacher pointless regret give full credit reference number she promised hugged never showed day supposed get information references gone bums out actually breaks heart would kicked ass internship figured time would get another job i work library needed another job dad left need help take care mom began working dollmart rhymes certain chain store dad left help financially really much money christmas work butt off first arrive everything seems dandy start working jerk asshole say hazing first day constant making hard work telling bad job doing continues ive while claim break eggs took photographic evidence me reported putting gallons milk pm milk customers purchase last minutes shift zoned hours pretending busy figured id put milk customers milk anyone buy instead thanked threatened boss helping customers pm stocking even milk apparently coworkers mean try talk stressed college fact go breakroom talk im worried ill mess things hurt people hide read reddit lunch break bestfriend left close friend left move different states anyone this decided im going kill grabbed bottle vitamin pills stupid retrospect chugged bottle waited began feel really really weird took nap figured id die would it though woke feeling really sick crappy life came back minutes thought well maybe sign keep going thats did keep going help im back square one job get trouble trying best customer service school professor obviously illegal get ignored friends leaving enjoy new lives get dream internship ampxb sorry timelines seem weird put order ampxb sorry even writing feel dumb,1 n g h n n g h n got school tomorrow this,0 suddenly deeply depressed dont know whyi teacher crying class faculty meetings middle night reason work stressful inner city school always case making plans stop hurting something think deep dread future severe urges hurt myself please help someone,1 something lost itfreshman year college group friends would always hang talk to either another part country life intersect anymore try join new groups im always outside looking in getting ignored part one group could fit wont see people know getting relationships sex obviously probably never either matter much want to know everyone looks back college fondness feel life peaked freshman year hate life now see getting worse im now know it ill year old friends virgin never held girls hand nothing fun look back college whenever finally die like school im starting like work help seems like everyone else lives friends stories experiences im sitting wasting away every time try make new friends amounts nothing see point going know theres shit loneliness failure compared others rest life also older get feel humiliated never sex relationship ive using ok cupid lead anything reminds one would ever want me know rambling hope someone understands seems like would best get run train avoid shit,1 medicationmarijuana,1 i think to much on the past i cant change it i deserved so much more then wat i got but why am i still thinking about him gah,0 hey dont celebrate christmas help me get k likes tik get free jersey rn like help algorithm dont need follow anything like recent sorry comes self promotion havent able get much recently want chance bestnfl,0 im starting get sure really itim native speaker m think comitting redflag months now ive seen psychiatrist help all opposite case told intelligent age much reach future talked positive me view opposite case put even pressure me know im way intellectual people age thats important all thing is suck school never learn pay attention lessons never did even years ago grades really bad finish school since think want become self employed already made lot money online trade last year know easy future till now another reason finally kill antisocial af hate people get bored people very quickly aggressive violent too pretty sure kind aspd know cant remember ever felt empathy someone love see people suffer extreme torture rape kill fantasies get normal sex together psychiatrist called complex extreme end life best thing could imagine do see pain annoying things things im able do really want it want time half year ago knew would one day urgent now since months want really badly every every second day cant live like longer exist sounds great i atheistic think mind self conciousness dies physical death impossible imagine to exist feels,1 aight imma head outanyone need something im gone,1 first saw film seven years old completely enchanted years unable find film called twenty one stumbled upon film accident two weeks ago bought copy although memory film little hazy way disappointed saw animation film superb conjuring entire world believable well animated drawn film alone film also plot enchant entertain adults children alike floating island mad general friendly pirate granny well constructed love story film let would recommend film one,0 im awake people got nothing to do today probably watch tv and get rid of all my program on sky planner the joy not,0 it s snowing again,0 notwhy shouldnt it,1 When you're finally feeling good and your depression reminds you who you are https://twitter.com/necation/status/988621273067638784 …,1 whats painless way kill myselfive contemplating killing since im really want end all dont want parents find bad state way less disturbing,1 feel cancel culture support cases like someone pedo people take far sometimes think,0 Having a lazy bank holiday monday ,0 well got perm banned rmemes now,0 guys im feeling bad pls help guys lowkey showing liked maybe dont feel bad found boyfriend lied bout him blocked fuck outta,0 ok my tweet peep i must head to bed now got to take a test in law tomorrow is it summer yet anyway much love and hugger,0 off to unityville to cook for my momma and my gramma ,0 @mysgreen she did ask for a copy of Love Me Coo ,0 yo tho tong feels cut eating lot smarties,0 @David_in_Austin watching now thx a lot !,0 finland fact sauli niinist alpha male,0 tried everything could think of even came close still failed againever since turned legal rights change situation tried everything despite anxiety get situation im currently live one baltic states losing hope thing left probably death friends removed life kept asking help got angry kept telling know help removed all care money fame transgender unable get therapy currently at attempted redflag several times already recently ive done will cant sleep night always sick ive issues body cant afford get checked body feels like living hell sometime mind jail cell ever since parents divorced argued every single night getting worse never almost friends weird kid honestly deserved awful pissed self afraid go bathroom bit toenails nasty stuff know anymore tried escape america get therapy meet friends would helped me visa wrong notice late flight failed left here life ruined wasted almost money spare that mother debt im completely ideas willing escape country europe forced sterilization transgender people im willing work want help mother sister stable want good person help everyone want see everyone happy know go know message more im scared even post message feel like option left die theres point trying want live want push beliefs anyone free hate trans ok im sorry bothering everyone doubt anything done help me feel like end dead matter what apologise bad grammar badly collected thoughts cant think straight anymore want away here,1 Depression sucks. Suicidal thoughts too. I understand these feelings so let's all help by sharing the #suicide hotline 1-800-273-8255. It'll get better. I know right now it doesn't seem that way. I get it. I live this every single day. #DepressionIsReal,1 sign give up idk is nobody wants anything called doctor surgery every day week am line opens every time greeted someone really rude tells appointments booked today even though need telephone call,1 http://bit.ly/1a4vu2 /19/2nTSU-mFWGs cutest song ever ,0 wish wasnt born muslim countryi exmuslim lives middle east,1 im lonely feel lonelyhey everyone thanks reading in comparison stories subreddit pathetic story im year old male im depressed never seriously thought redflag couple days ago think im ugly wear glasses minor acne im confident way look basically imagine girl thinking hey guy looks pretty good problem silly people may think obsessed girls probably wrong ive become pretty desperate girlfriend past months want somebody love me want me never kissed someone thought kissing someone drives mad want someone share everything with cuddle im feeling down thing girl years ago seemed like well work out that ive never feeling girl actually liked friend i hand imagined spending rest life pretty much girl met lot girls already boyfriends though lot girls way league couple months ago met girl lot common with kind humor were interested things like think were equally intelligent already boyfriend though breaks heart joke around lot her last week made joke us like married couple stupidest argument took hand kneeled like propose her responded gentle slap face saying really need find girlfriend do really do think hopeless case way home day waiting train pass strangest though entered mind jump meters forward right now itll ok worries unreachable girls feeling how articulate this unfulfilled lust caught moment really wanted jump thought family friends everybody id leave behind decided it since day though lot moments wished coward done it want commit redflag im scared that bad day enough pressure will need help,1 "@UdiDahan hey, aren't you supposed to be prepping for #ndc, no commits allowed 24 h before giving talks ",0 read people easily mean duh go post read comments either obvious simping attention seeking lucky normal comment funny know myself also cringe lot stuff yesterday then proceed downvote me suicidal attention seeking,0 im tiredim tired going on im tired know ill never good enough know ill never mean anything anyone matter what always second matter what someone always choose girl blond hair big tits big ass tanned skin me know it please dont tell truth im tired lies im fucking tired want leave earth one love ive accepted it wasnt easy have im ugly anyone skinny pale anything anyone dont want thing every fucking day cant fucking count amount times tried kill past month wished wished would worked please take away world going shit hope,1 @hannahber Thanks Sam. I'm going through a lot lately. Take care of yourself. ,0 hey started streaming lately found diamonds minecraft join would fun sorry annoying im live twitch come hang out httpwwwtwitchtvkoolkidsra,0 anyone helpthis first time asking something like please try understanding m divorced move back parents trying survive years own everything gone hill idk do constantly get belittled made fun parents here bad health issues put hospital afterwards reached help first time years spoke year later moved hell ever since live rural area made finding full time job difficult cannot save enough leave since pay rent bills here sure asking really looking advice help please live arizona helps,1 happyahma welcome back sorry to hear about the ant,0 comparable fight club matrix ai sixth sense among others film approaches psyche way never done before first minutes builds interesting love story diazcruisecruz rest movie is well confusing pick every time watch ive gone movies see times now,0 Can Tae's medicine heal my crippling depression,1 thakre aarya wd9 9 stats feed explain to me then why white people feel more depression like give me an article that scientifically explains it,1 Ketamine could become the first new depression drug in more than 30 years https://buff.ly/2qBjQ89 ,1 got english exam tomorrow joined single english class since online class started like intentionally join classes lets say bit stupid im wondering myself do join exam dont idea taught class,0 "@pritchardswyd now that is a song that needs to be played full blast , fuck him let him listen to his mellow fm ha ha ",0 ok owes pulp fiction opinion voice identity mainly musicvideo direction style sketchlike narrative great performances thomas jane delivers great the drugdealer showdown extraordinary aaron eckhart likewise james legros short effervescent appearancegreat humorthey got wong house porzikova interrogation rape scene memorable mickey rourkes cameo appearancetake peakbr br great hollywood popcorn bproduction strong performances alevel aspirants renegadesrourkebr br well take peak worth,0 "Syo Kurusu is who's curring my depression day by day. His energetic smile is what lights my dark soul. I'm very blessed to have him in my life. Thank you, that is all.",1 "Took the day off tomorrow because... 1. Seasonal depression is lifting, BUT I'm so easily triggered right now that I need space (& empty house WOO!)2. I keep busting my pants because my ass too fat sooo I need to shop(I wish!)3. I'm taking myself on a date ",1 i ve struggled with mental health issue since i wa in elementary school i ve gone through period where thing have been really bad and others where i m more normal i m doing really bad right now i m in law school and i don t have time for a breakdown but i feel like i m drowning i have class in hour but i ve been up all night cry i don t know what to do my psychiatrist just put me on wellbutrin along with my current medicine of prozac rexulti and buspar i m supposed to talk to my dean today about my mental health issue but i don t feel like i can get out of bed this is ridiculous and i feel like i m being lazy but i legitimately feel like i m suffocating i want to not exist sorry if this make no sense everyone i know is asleep right now and i needed to talk,1 hi i m new here i have a phobia or heavy anxiety about not being remembered after death and not mattering after death i know nothing really matter but there s this primal anxiety i feel from it that i can not shake i recently started to look at it a little differently that made me feel a little teeny better but is this normal edit also i recently developed a fear of dying suddenly just some recent medical diagnosis sound scary and i haven t lived with them for long so i don t know what the new normal is,1 make official like recently told crush like her guess went well ask make official without looking weird,0 mt rushmore like carving natural beauty unpresidented,0 liked timothy dalton much even though bit young handsome mr r thought zelah clarke plump short version however true novel well filmed seen versions orson welles still favorite mr r though george c scott well toss joan fontaine sussanah york although bit old role recently saw brilliant tv version rebecca charles dance emilia fox would love see two jane eyreby time got watching ciarin hinds version think jane eyred out never tire first minutes hearing joan fontaines voice narrate opening first version ever saw always want go back read book again,0 "#MTV lol, @georgienba I don't think so.. I'm excited and I'm older. ",0 finding alone bad placehey guess im gonna spill story here read it big deal feel like head explode put tho life always kinda sucked bad tho people immensly worse really nothing complain about always roof head family that always weird kid never fit in overly emotional loud odd one out course easy target bullying life everyone told high school would better course high school mostly except fact found friends say quotes never truly apart group unless planned something invited always forgotten left out senior year got really close people group friends even though best days life also toxic encouraged others depressed feelings made feel worse never told redflag attempt time attempt made rethink life try turn around happier bit better finding things liked course lonlier ive ever confident okay person am started come lot try help people out wanting feel better made feel like purpose even may insignificant im complete spiral depression im life im done it future one nothing feel like sitting writing long note ending maybe im coming melodramatic maybe im numb everything know need someone talk world one cant keep ,1 i have never been a good person i think being a bad person wa hard wired into me and i don t think i can separate myself from the bad i ve done unspeakable unforgivable thing that i can t atone for i m both a bully and a coward with so many issue that my therapist couldn t find a solution i ve written ton of letter so people can understand my exact thought process and why i need to do this it doesn t even make me sad anymore it just feel like something that need to happen,1 day dad walked room handed thin wooden airplane walked back out,0 The #stigma surrounding #mentalhealth is gradually breaking down but for many #parents suffering from depression the question of whether to discuss their mental health issues with their kids is a tricky one. https://buff.ly/2HNcPt0  pic.twitter.com/oro2YtklQG,1 thats s here im paralyzedall want do do im capable right crying watching shameless attempting resist urge self harm ones taking seriously im seriously scared want die like im scary movie person trying kill also me,1 just go ahead and do it ,0 cant go sleep night without drugs take there hate myself hate every inch every fibre being im one blame it take mg valium alongside alcohol go sleep night stay awake night unable anything stare ceiling get involved drugs get sleep fuckers devil blue dress,0 now i want amanita someone made me feel unliving,0 sure plot oldboy seems great movies days amazingly shocking highbudgethyped waybr br spin kick dramacomedy group people decide pour hearts tae kwon do regardless expect film guaranteed feel moved work pain expectations characters force experience though comedic times many moments characters rendered beautifully theres old guard character takes things seriously hoodlum turned goodguy wants second chance life meek teamsubstitute would die happy life many wellrounded characters problems importantly hopes dreams plot goals movie simple aspects movie merely highlight development characters overcome personal interpersonal struggles br br in short film leave feeling fresh determined satisfied,0 feel like im completely alonei friends anymore friends stopped talking expressed im kind struggling mental health area my friends conservatively religious felt like mental health issues meant somebody praying hard enough due social anxiety severe body dysmorphic disorder hard go put there especially going college really feel like fit in im twenty never sort relationship guy ive never even real guy friends horrible relationship father never made feel important worthy pretty things guess assume thats men think me im really sure im huge introvert need alone time crave human connection none moment see point really im sad upset angry dad myself general im therapy im medication try sit around feeling sorry myself fact none working makes feel like time leave know,1 crystal blue persuasion yea yea,0 claireboyles thought a much,0 lockdown pissing so lockdown used would struggle get back old life people really pissing rarely go friends house literally talk play ping pong thats it yet look social media see people right next one another completely ignoring social distancing struggle seeing family rarely friend even see distance yet apparently rights see eachover without masks distancing anything pisses audacity so,0 i d love to just to die i dont have friend or family member that care about me haha no one will be sad when im gone which is good honestly but like i mentioned the possibility of religion being real scare me and it the only reason thats stopping me from ending it one day i wont care and i ll do it but it not today sadly,1 rustyrockets do i sense a blog coming on too bad i have to leave in like 0 min xxx,0 create child use gametes opposite gender preferably someone know trust ready baby wait months,0 roman polanski considered one important directors time mind behind classics rosemarys baby chinatown probably makes polanskis cinema interesting one fact capable creating commercially attractive films afore mentioned masterpieces also fond making lowkey movies personal nature le locataire the tenant one movies horrorsuspense story paranoia obsession among best works probably among best horror movies ever donebr br polanski plays telkovsky young man looking apartment france finally finds one discovers empty previous tenant simone choule attempted kill jumping window simone dies injuries trelkovsky begins become obsessed her point believing death caused rest tenants buildingbr br while sharing claustrophobic feeling apartmentthemed films repulsion rosemarys baby film focuses bizarre conspiracy may may entirely trelkovskys head catastrophic effects paranoia mind bizarre obsession previous tenantbr br trelkovskys descend darkness portrayed perfectly polanski first performance seems odd wooden slowly one finds polanski acts way trelkovsky meant acted way simpleton almost life traps maddening subworld happens inhabited collection bizarre people supporting actors really gave life people building creating memorable characters important success filmbr br also beautiful cinematography polanski employs film helps increase feeling isolation gives life beautiful building serves cage trelkovsky haunting images polanski uses convey feeling confusion madness supernatural beauty makes frightening attractivebr br if flaw found film definitely bit slow first may sound like turnoff fact slow pace beginning works perfectly mimics trelkovskys boring life gradually enters different realm also convoluted storyline definitely easy one understand due many complex layers has however flaw joy face thoughtprovoking plot like onebr br while the tenant may everyone interested psychological horror surreal story lines pleased experience le locataire really one roman polanksis masterpieces ,0 i fell tired i want to sleep but im almost done with some work and i need to go to the bathroom,0 you probably remember her as part of The Corrs but @Sharon_Corr is releasing a solo album! Go show your support and follow her ,0 cry much whats usually like tears coming eyes now feel anything might eyes dry something yawned withiut realising,0 feel lost feeling like since could rememberwhoever said life easy lie learned hardest thing individual live life background information guess say life bad grew parents sister family pretty religious im due personal reasons went catholic school life told god always guide you whatever me would say im open minded empathetic everyone could say care others much know lately life dealing shitty hand put hiatus education college due fact money job make decent amount money helps family cant really save pay college fucking sucks feel like options go military utilize benefits whatnot feel like would joining wrong reasons im people talk college way secured future feel like im going burn one days give up want to least think do choice have,1 im going kermit redflag april foo oh already second guess ill fr,0 soo im kill myselfjust wanted say thanks guys please go way,1 scc skwerl aww how depressing,0 "@AJvampie *giggles* thanx, i think ",0 riddle uh idk im good riddling gig,0 in 0 0 my wife and i moved back to my small hometown due to price of living and being closer to family since then it ha been just the worst year of my life the pandemic started getting serious so we distanced ourselves from my family because everyone wa still going out and acting like we weren t in a plague we have small child one ha a very weak immune symptom we were basically ostracized and told how selfish we were to a point where i got very close to taking my own life thing got better but i m not a close to my mom a i used to be the whole ordeal made me realize how much of a narcissist she is and that she turn everything into a fight recently we pulled my year old out of pre school because many kid i his class got covid with the intent of sending him back a soon a he can get vaccinated my mom is constantly fighting with me and my wife saying we are failing my son anytime i try to even explain my side she turn it into a fight i m at a point where i just can t do it anymore i m mentally exhausted in my head i m already planning on selling our house in the hopefully near future and moving this is just me venting because i have no one else to vent to i can t connect with anyone here in this town because most of them never got out,1 whos replacing megathiccc ban vote phone,0 months struggling finally got courage tell someone suicidal thoughts dismissedive struggling several months suicidal thoughtsideations ive constantly reluctant share increasingly difficult internal conflict anyone months now lot reluctance stems terrible mental health care system city well stigma surrounds main mental illness a stigma held people general also psych professionals forced inpatient several times later years high school anything experience made mental health worse adult psych wards city much worse ive literally dozens referrals fall able get treatment need well year now keep telling everyone ill tough out make through etc reality im falling apart inside out so finally went clinic university campus told truth experiencing mentally physically even made sure mention id reluctant forthcoming given past negative experiences ive local mental health system lot waiting explaining situation professional professional finally told go home because summation apparently reason provide degree professional care unless ive literally planned redflag step step beyond frustrating continuously dismissed im made feel like burden waste time resources cry baby anything feel like experience today made things worse feel even worthless even think possible point guess post way vent know,1 i recently broke up with my boyfriend of year and it s because of something awful i did but i don t know what to do anymore because i ve lost all my friend and everyone close to me found out about me and now i have no one i don t know what to do and i can t take it anymore,1 im monsterthis bothering life long time lurker first time posting here feel im wits end funny thing is feel like super depressed anxious feel fine today albeit littleempty woke lot pain besides that im perfectly okay im confused seemingly unending death wish even im okay im laughing now writing this threw balance today back pain funny slight inconvenience enough make want want kill myself thought okay life mean im published author musician suck it used straight student im anymore im university plans become doctor really plans parents plans personally want musician want music thing make feel like monster hurricane katrina destroyed home excited move practically start life over father stayed home mom siblings hopped state state settling down without father expected new start life genuinely excited expecting get molested raped however im male day never truly felt same young shaped today good thing ive bullied vast majority life religion im muslim always ass end ass kicking ass end bomb joke joke never really took heart kid lately coming back adult life feels like th grade pe again diagnosed tumor specifically hemangioma collection blood cells t vertebrae spine operated immediately year medication blood work hospital stays countless mris cat scans surgeries later cancer free never chemotherapy family want it growing cancer highschool days never upset actuallyrelieved honestly thought gonna die never told anyone course deep down hoped cancer would kill me upset just relieved like road trip really really need pee finally stop feel whole sensation relief taking hold body thats long for went remainder highschool years neck back brace certainly help case since surgeries ive great deal pain thought could turn drugs take pain away drugs kinda just took over huge problem certainly problem hated problem all im guilty crime want explain it but ive hurt someome sexually regard hurt sexually growing up thought right thing learned learned wrong hurt poor soul probably ive hurt wish could rectify mistakes god way undo entire life fucking show way im monster want end fucking circus life ive hurt im truly sorry nothing ever forgive me wish could modicum forgiveness told okay fairy tale real life real life sunshine happiness unicorns rainbows fucking dank miserable unforgiving im glad learned earlier rather later know im myself hope find way life wish balls myself,1 m smoke weed way cope redflag depression gets worse night also use way fall asleep easier dad found weed last night told dissappointed said good way deal things said cannot force do trusted enough handed back me know feel that right now dad also troubles mom sadly little sister got stuck crossfire dad barely talking anyone like used to often gets angry shuts talk anyone probably mental illness sort complex person mom told go see psychiatrist refused is good relationship father might somethingi also recently got diagnosed mild depression redflag got prescribed lexapro taking week now mother person always talk cannot tell weed thing got caught school knew want explain dad everything knowing person is part also want open him sensitive person something slight trigger point shutting family smoking weed always barrier appreciating life jumping cliff know continue smoking not feel guilty l smoke know dad probably redflaged situation also pretty well known city know alot people help either cannot trust anyone all real friends best friend girlfriend young know feeling way overwhelming want sleep day never wake up want kill way noone would sad about know people care me mom does dad does friends do suicidal nothing really even matter anymore feel like cannot take this overwhelming want someone read help understand better barely know anymore hope someone reads end,1 "leg is crippled, like really can't walk well. so sad. lovee the new tattoo though ",0 trying to figure out how the hell to use twitter??? p.s- completely in luv with new moon trailor!! ,0 well guess im waiting right time placei thought promised coming back guess another lie finally found gun waiting right time place technically gun people live better job hiding firearms small revolver understand shot near temple lethal often not yeah guess really it time put shut up speak,1 whats illegal thing done reckon fillerrrll fiilllllllerfrrrrr fillllllllllllleerrrrrrrrf fillllllllllllleerrrrrrrrf fiilllllllerfrrrrr fillllllllllllleerrrrrrrrf fiilllllllerfrrrrr fillllllllllllleerrrrrrrrf,0 school work boring working on a business law paper right now can t wait till i m done hopefully tomorrow grrrr,0 when my depression go wayyy down deep i say okay diana you re going into dark mood what can i do to fix it,1 i fucking hate the depression stage but i developed tool to work around it alcohol and lot of comedy and lot of sleep http t co u0giyncg0j,1 ruminationsyes contemplate redflag often plenty people life seems getting worse many peoples blah blah could tell myriad selfinflicted tragedies brought me depressed place place dull gray apathybut end mindless optimism encouragement it get better cause totally know life like sympathy really fuck me didnt rape babies wasted time money patience many good people certainly pity poor blind fools care me brings point real bar redflag besides cowardice anyone says person commits redflag coward could healthy dose websters pain would cause family poor little siblings wouldnt understand mother would wreck etc posit hurtful continue surely cant be ask them would prefer alive well yes labor opinion hope last decade taught anything this waste resources clear dont feel like need something especially fantastic deserve life life reason enough keep living satisfied it not burned bridges count soiling academic professional record point see grim shapes nebulous fog coming future mediocrity toil selfloathing existence knowing potential oh crushing pressure expectation squandered it must cause pain discomfort already loved ones so owe keep living owe every distant relative get bummed death go motions life fuck it many millions better come gone wanted opinions hope brigade would kind share them meantime going go calculate many days nourishment wasted tuition could given impoverished child,1 parents way high standards overbearing advice dealing parents always overbearing hypocritical parents treat like prodigy comes anything academic kept straight elementary im finishing th grade taking geometry something like it years ive gotten little praise school get yelled well enough class designed people two years older am meanwhile parents get super excited younger brother gets ab honor roll hurts lot ive stressed lately affecting mood around them making super pessimistic huge smart ass around them leads yelling talking back,0 "@inque54 huy, matulog ka na. hahah. CBroom ain't done yet, but it's taking shape ",0 I'm feelin better now ,0 Yay shopppping ,0 whatever good enough im years old im constantly feeling never meeting anyones expectations everyone always wants me even everything possible power something best ability always oh well good wrong differently throughout school coasted whole way always told incredibly smart gifted never tried except came computers ive loved computers since started using them escape real world turned mom stepfather always incredibly restrictive usage electronics always wanted less always wanted get away life hated much never really stable home parents got divorced mom remarried still married biggest asshole ive ever met life sad remarried twice single now ive never really stable home ever since parents got divorced ive moved around lot even then kept count went different schools years regular schooling result never made friends feel worthless job dad successfully started company im told grandfather also works underperform everything ever need get away electronics something productive time see point going anymore feel like one cares focuses wrong live life standards whole thought process stemmed argument grandfather who live temporarily basically tried run car walking home reasoning trying teach lesson hear going around listening music time,1 just burnt my finger on a hot cup of tea ouch,0 queen damned one best vampire movies ever seen movie suspense action gore combination fierce demanding attitude queen rock mood star well acted stuart townsend makes wonderfully done movie combination create im always one give advice friends family members movies worthy renting ask queen damned worthy tell worthy buying movie sure musthave horror movie lovers homes,0 sad say disagree people columbo episode death lends hand frankly kind boring columbo me times get bored changed channel still love robert culp patricia crowley ray milland roles story weaker episode others first robert culp plays investigator ray millands character hires investigate young pretty wife played patricia crowley see affair return culps character blackmails cheating wife plans expose scheme husband ruining career anger culp kills striking face setting body elsewhere know maybe care one all course columbo gets end question how,0 feeling extremely extremely ready today sitting floor sobbing redflag flashback yesterday friends left me already terrifying abandonment trauma top it made spiral today called childhood best friend close years now basically said told fault want move back city access better people better friendsthen reached second best friend known around years even lived one point asked could come crisis think alone right now response girlfriend went tubing tired told brother suicidal weeks ago really needed support told hes busy working give years buy house even bills right now still lives apartment foster care could easily request less hours since voluntarily picks upevery single friend interacted knows redflag majorly depressed three know suicidallmao everyone says kill reach talk someone do get blown offlike talk nobody actually cares people scoff act like must someone no literally nobody parents brother family friends give shit literally cats thing keeping everyone always tells reach someone suicidal reach people want deal you,1 "#GeneChat Large-population studies that look for such associations resulted in the list of genes that if mutated create a risk for depression or anxiety. Ex, MDD1 and MDD2 are related to major depression disorders. But the list is growing and there are many genes playing role NS",1 wish monkey like think monkeys pay tax give fuck grades get financially stable theyre fucking monkeys sometimes wish life consisted swinging tree tree cracking open yellow ones boys eating babies much ask for,0 don t go into depression because of fun you assumed others are having everybody just dey lie,1 i will say it out loud i miss you a hole and your answer to my iphone question now who will help me upgrade to 0,0 one favorite movies long time recently happy see dvd relief watching old grainy vhs versionsbr br i seen years watched today find amazed well movie stands time one rare perfect storms comedy great writing truly funny line truly funny line paired great direction outstanding performances timebr br dudley moore got oscar nomination arthur lost although john gielgud best supporting actor moores performance arthur win best actor oscar its proof comedic actor could ever win title another example gene wilder young frankensteinbr br steve gordon crafts film beautifully keeping true characters warmhearted tone story quite simply imho movie rare gem sad steve gordon passed away year arthur releasedbr br regarding dvd available soso although video quality leap old vhs copies still widescreen version availablebr br the dvd extras nice enough one example commentary director stating greatly wished certain deleted takes scenes could included because hysterical make tough choices final edit dvd perfect format include material certainly offered wellbr br this original arthur classic comedy one books,0 kel marshall tell me about it had some mortgage quote last sat going to be skint for the next 0 year,0 is also enjoying coldplays new album ,0 im good mood finally lol,0 taking angus for a check up today i always quietly dread it but this time he s poorly so i know the lung function test will be crap,0 Let's go Lakers! Hooyah! I know all the haters are gonna be annoyed with me today ,0 sitting parking lot wanting end allim really bad emotionally abusive relationship want leave cant guilt eating alive leave home cant think anything else ive driving around trying entertain myself trying entertain eating disorder mostly think much pain hes caused me manipulative hows never tried help me im embarrassed admit people relationship failing even parents really want son law cant handle pressure anymore days fine act anything less perfect hell make fun me panic attack two weeks got left like didnt want deal it want run car ramp im sure thatll kill completely dont want live like anymore much doubt hating myself dont know anymore,1 dads band released first album spotify anyone likes metal heres link httpsopenspotifycomalbumnynvxjblpcygsvoalzsibgkgvatwcpbkeorfbzcg,0 cant take anymorei wanna dieim done this ive since noon yesterday morning gotten absolutely sleep able eat days eat anything usually pretty small like stouffers something hate job time love it theres lot bonuses promotion opportunities perks medical benefitssounds great aint cracked be im im extremely lonely want sound like rincels post cant seem care enough let alone anybody else even try anymore get or give single fuck tried would anybody even miss me no course not im known financial burdens owe student loans college never even worked outnever money pay first bills probably went thousand so im trying get new car since old taurus broke i hate fords much im shitty saver told gonna save check ended spending going bar hopping getting drunk friend im even old enough fucking drink yet look confident enough and beard pass ive recently stopped smoking weed seemed way could take stress away took far trying get someone ended smoking half ounce week usually smoke what grams month shit tolerance goes drug ive taken xanax percocet smoked weed drank vicodins shit aint same ive depressed since young child contemplating redflag since yes fucking wanted kill due suffering abuse throughout whole life would get severely beaten small shit like forgetting tiny detail forgetting task really aint issue live outside city dying economy inner city treated worse financially point guys nobody would miss me nobody would care loved ones would give less shit im price tag them counting exact last years theres nothing do theres nobody call friends either stab back take money get highdrunk im done date anything planning buying lot fentanyllaced heroin enough kill elephant since shit tolerance everything work plentiful,1 nishitd no i missed everything onwards stupid work getting in the way of tennis,0 mfs like haha dw marcus im one boys aye dont like girls age think im intellectual like bitch know didnt know spell dvd yesterday maddie,0 probably kill bulk suppressed child abuse memories resurfacea bit scenario here lets say savannah bitten poisonous snake unable move see distance pack hyenas coming towards surely kill state better let poison enter heart die without experience flesh limbs torn body back reality already going pretty rough depressive episode less forced think childhood memories friend asked watching movie new therapist asked could get background first weird remember much time autistics like usually great memories took time mind suddenly presented terrifying flashbacks childhood concerning father already hate eg constantly threatening family threatening siblings take us family health insurance hes mostly life new memories things know whether live with chased around grandmas house cornered bathroom trying strike even people watching him shot cork gun bb gun blamed getting bullied grade school ever since fourth grade problems using hand belt discipline me forced eat jerky animals killed backyard time middle school absolute oldest theres going memories know it forget big moments childhood reason combined fact im survivor sexual assault think mind able let survive less able live college im even doubts whether survive thursday therapist appointment feels like shaped today personality trait lot things scare im victim choice whether would prefer trash person father wanted could childhood person today childhood starting consume life cant trust people say love andor worth father said exact things mentally cannot see getting better worse whether current events im american see life one includes chronic mental anguish im probably whining point im sensitive see nothing like myself cant even trust mind stable death preferrable,1 love waking up to the sound of the birds hate waking up to rexy's barks :/ goodmorning twitterville!,0 @aaaaaaaaahh i like you more than curly fries ,0 why is change by pac not on itunes boo,0 yknow interesting watching this half people involved deadbr br anyways long time since ive watched anything muppet related stuff pure gold im great fan puns movie quite well placed one amazing aspects pacing really highspeed childrens pacing filmmakers randomly decide move story along without giving characters depth kind moves along characters wherever want gobr br kermit frog awesome character voice expressions puppetface fantastic all points hes popularhe sing make jokes toobut appropriately hes endearinghe without effort inspires everyone search dreams meantime also deal himself uncommon theme family moviesbr br it also contains quite ensemble comedians making appearances there great effect others little less i think mel brooks part bit overplayed you parts film kind odd highly imaginative takes destination different directionbr br moving right alongbr br polarisdib,0 biggest fat pp move ever video made school work wasnt rendering properly put fullscreed recorded obs lol bigpp,0 need advice high school hi im go first day highschool asking advice incoming freshman advice good advice,0 bother anymorei really know do know ill ever see happiness ever again cant stop looking self useless awful human being doubts anybody would miss me ive dealt bipolar disorder ever seems get worse worse manic episodes make go insane cant slow im angry everything im depressed struggle even get bit happiness continously try improve make feel better tried lose weight start workout routine soon depression came back went right back habits binge eating drugs know take life granted know could happy everything seems grim im starting lose hope someday ill probably drug addiction everything looks like shit everything used love tried get medicated everybody im either just autistic which im not normal teen although see classmates getting angry nothing scared inanimate objects talking them,1 i am struggling with depression for about a year now it make me do thing i don t want to do i ve lost a good friend that i ve known over year because my mind told me to hate him i started calling him name and told him that i want this friendship to end i apologized so many time explained everything and tried to stay in contact but now we just go our way my best friend know about my depression and always support me but today they started arguing with me i think they are getting sick of me my mind tell me to hate them too but i luckily can t bring myself to cut them off my body is very often freezing i m sometimes even heavily shaking because of this idk why is this related to my depression my suicidal thought are getting worse i don t really want to die but i don t want to live either wait no i do want to die but i am too afraid of failing an attempt and having to live with the injury i might get doe anyone else have these problem doe anyone know how to deal with this also doe anyone wan na talk i feel lonely and i don t want to bother my friend,1 hate texting supposed feel natural something feels natural all cant see fucking person cant hear tone voice cant see body language im supposed understand right thing say dry conversation maybe comes easily people think things conversation im supposed pretend isnt hate people rely texting much im expected perfect response somehow natural all im given option take time irl im supposed talk isnt time craft perfect response problem words screen hard make words convey feel already hard irl somehow pretend im fucking writer everyone expectations im sick fact cant meet,0 anybody else have anxiety about having an allergic reaction to a food even when they don t have a food allergy,1 i ve been feeling a lot and going through a lot for the past few week i can t talk to anyone i m emotionally and mentally drained i m not even diagnosed with anything but i feel like i m having anxiety and just want to be done with everything i sometimes feel like i just want to jump off our building or drown myself in the pool so that i wouldn t feel anything i m really scared i know what happened to me wa careless and full of stupidity i guess this is my karma just letting out a little bit i don t know who else to talk to i feel like i m dying inside i m afraid to go to the beach with my friend because i might do something really stupid i ve been cry and cry every night so that i could hide all my feeling but it s really killing me i want to get out of this situation but i can t escape i know i have to help myself but i can t do it there s no one else to blame but me i m so sorry for this i just have no one to talk to i don t want to be a burden to the people around me,1 im going bed nowww surprising not rly i have school morow thats right my spring break day r over,0 expensive medal awards useless want show like someones post alot give many golds instead getting platinum argentium since gold give person coins ad free time like opposite stuff expensive get even more opposite instead spending argentium maybe get golds better value bonuses,0 she is fighting depression.. and instead of lifting her up you people are hurting her more.. #박봄제발내버려두세요,1 binncheol you should listen to some music by this dude called andy hull and afew other bloke i even hear they re playing ldn tomorrow,0 million different reasons why autistic bullied throughout school years emotionally abused parents home never friends kicked school months ago even know going anymore scared feel like might kill next weeks,1 need coffee dont wanna get,0 well portrayal lesbian love story fire also comic satire middleclass indian culture find quality little appreciated movie two genres ie deep meaningful alternativelove story comic satire usually mix together well oil water do mehta somehow manages achieve balance near perfection servant jatins behaviour familys treatment him bedridden grandmothers constant inescapable presence ashoks obsession swamis teachings coming culture much like indias things immediately identify typical crying pointed ridiculed developing primary subject matter mehta manages achieve secondary theme skillfully fact much humour film provides essential relief heavy subjects taboo lesbian love gender issues stem satire seemingly ordinary film flows comic serious great subteltybr br all all brilliant use symbolic devices radha compared sita legend coming fire unscathed and therefore pure lifelong desire young radha see ocean finally achieved gains freedom kudos shabana azmiradha lighting crew deepa mehta unhollywoodlike and unbollywoodlike talents made movie special one criticism first scenes seemed rather disjointed flow wellbr br the verdict nothing less movie scenes burned mind,0 nobody caresi cant anymore young used fantasize mom realizing dad treated drunk angry shed hug tell deserve things thrown me called things called me threats hurt me way would eavesdrop spy make sure funding help friends didnt probably known life dumb notice care im fucking alone going summer selfharm year clean want continue another summer here want continue another summer,1 fyckkkkkkk im home alone homework fucking hear someone breathe behind me think im going crazy lol byeee,0 oneam one wishes someone would kill myself,1 anythingi really need someone tell end,1 advice deal lonelyness tldr lonely due lack romantic relationships advice deal covid year old virgin never even came close ever relationship lately effecting way usual feeling lonely worthless someone never find love partialy closely resemble whale human social awarness grace brick thrown window biggest problem is covid even though think trying fix former issue hoping find someone ignore latter pity week give me cause covid dont want go around trying meet strangers point less rambling actual question comes out deal kind lonelyness covid,0 something youre bored hey guys made podcast please check youre bored dont anything look forward life heres link httpsyoutubehzxdmxdy please leave feedback comments video doing read chapters bible every episode talk news whats going lives well giveaway subs willing try anything want us do please give try thanks reading that,0 "@MartinStarr I wish. One day, when I can take a vacation. Or get furloughed. Whichever comes first. ",0 brag anything but im straight,0 rose colored glasses come realize thought closest important parts social life actually care much all supposed trust someone actions pure honest words demeaning vindictive grew mindset drunk mans thoughts sober ones words applicable angry sure say things regret fact said moment happens one time mistake habitual routine force move moments let brain play repeat still young still somehow feel fucking bitter point daydream cutting everyone life moving somewhere new tired feeling like constantly looking things bother feeling degraded upset things told fault if say dumb things would treat like dumb person,1 mom colorist says hates black cats white cats cuter im getting black white cat mom still isnt satisfied anyone elses family member colorist cousins kinda colorist dont really care,0 i want kill before sure waited want life holds value future there nothing waiting wanna wake im forty realize im alone real job kind future need i there way out,1 ive diagnosed autism going kill myselfdue trauma mental health issues began experience fourteen never able develop life management personal skills im twentyfour now diagnosed autism despite abusive mother dysfunctional family quite functional overall happy life began fall part many friends got learners driving license summer job fourteen things okay though guess throughout childhood adolescence hold autistic traits repressing emotions this along stress dealing family blew face fifteen developed severe case bulimia quickly took life basically l did everyday years binge eat purge spent thousands thousands dollars money parents money lost friends motivation life hopes people knew me used friends talked amongst themselves saying life ruined one point butt peoples jokes would say hey least life fucked flamingtrashmonsters lost ability much anything all eighteen constantly drunk bingeing purging kicked familys home lived alone barren apartment filled food wrappers empty bottles sucks realized autistic child could avoided demands recovery far great manage diagnosis autism basically tells need get better fuck ton work even think possible going kill myself cannot live like longer im much better eighteen im school function certain level meet demands life still feel act fucked up fucked up im fucked ever going go away get better life pain moments happiness thrown times,1 my abusive mom got off she died ruining me my younger brother is in her footstep and abuse me too i don t want any encouragement or anything positive i am just done sensitive people like me the victim always lose my mom won a she died and is now in peace my brother ha won too so i m done i lost the battle and the war narc always win,1 emilyruppe well he said that he is a looser and that is what the show implies,0 In my behaviour we have:-ADD*-ANXIETY*-BRAIN FOG*-DEPRESSION*-IRRITABILITY*-IRRATIONAL ANGER*-ISOLATION*-MEMORY LOSS*-MOOD SWINGS*-NIGHT TERRORS*-PANIC ATTACKS*-SUICIDAL*,1 "It sucks suffering with anxiety and depression and remembering all the hurt the person you're in love with put you through. Just when I think I'm good, my mind reminds me I'm not.",1 new article from obmintegrativeandcomplementarymedicine mindfulness in tai chi chuan a practised amongst higher education student with implication for health and learning a narrative review http t co p aciaxzd http t co usqjekvyaq taichichuan depression http t co scx fegnqf,1 is so excited!! Ready for the awesomeness of the communal driveway! ,0 tall lanky somehow monster dick weird world,0 im going girls sleepover im girl stop karma whores,0 Finally back online after almost a week on the road and in PA. Great trip; more updates to come ,0 "There's nowhere left to hide, in no one to confide, the truth burns deep inside, and it will never die. Muse, you make my day ",0 @JohnhampsonUK Oh very nice! I hope you have a wonderfully relaxing day! ,0 "@scenariogirl You want a Speyside or Highland single malt - Cragganmore, Oban being two good options ",0 scared commit redflagim planning lifes gone shit havent slept last days keep taking random pills want destroy life convince od,1 cant sleep wanna die one fucking girl stuck head ive trying get two years canti wanna die know dumb reason commit redflag holding back moving forward life way get end everything besides shell happier gone live life marry bf everyone better,1 "@aJackieLarsen @Nemosanartist @highwatermark_ Not everyone has the capacity to immediately understand all material taught to them. Everyone has their strengths and weaknesses, and the stress from dealing with something that a person isn't generally good with can be overwhelming. Also, depression sucks and causes crying.",1 office ntk michael scott left leave forever episode come back good also want make petition make office season the office electric bungalo would sign,0 feeling real suicidal money girlfriend job nothing cannot work due multiple mental disorders start seeing therapist know work idk anymore,1 lyrics hitting hard reason living gone idk much longer keep goinglost important girl months ago depressed suicidal ever since songs nowadays great love badly someone broke someones heart happy love songs kill know ill never sad love songs even worse one broke heart seems like pain lyrics ones relate anymore got feelin im gonna next year so lets laugh little im gone ive dreamin shit got high love me singin songs oh feel much pain got knife back bullet brain im clinically insane walkin home alone see faces rain time go spend gettin high hide lines go now im high fuckin eyes closed fuck more im mind though come fuck mornin blinds closed show everything learned away runnin away me im givin way way see things take away me im givin you way way see things life line fine cause time fadin got five hoes right side wanna die me im tired waitin life line fine cause time fadin got five hoes right side wanna die im tired waitin let know ill go tonight soul sight alone ghost tonight let know scarin girl even wanna fuck right really want could fuck ever put double cup really want could drug aint ever gonna run town imma kill everybody ima bounce ever gotta talk loud everybody get quiet mouse said im crybaby cant lately girl drive crazy amg mercedes speedin highway lookin street lights geekin friday never sleep right knowin hurt you deserve shoulda curved you know im worst boo but could cool too got dance moves got vibe swear perfect ride wanna die too wanna die got vibe swear love gettin high love gettin high too wanna hide find you ill inside im makin music cry oh lonely world know gon get lonely girl thats fo sho oh im lonely boy made lonely boy yeah know oh lonely world know gon get lonely girl thats fo sho oh im lonely boy made lonely boy yeah know nobody wants talk me everyone wants walk always kid maybe live long enough think ima die keep try cry loud wanna lay head chest im close gets heart fall apart start nobody knows me nobody knows one thing everyone doubts but ima make come true know pain go let bleed watch die got golden teeth got bright green eyes fantasy comes night know bout me goes inside ill let feel pain would get high make name break spine im way im lookin pain bitches fuck same matter place okay wanna die momma side tell love brother cry got time compromise need all ima make mine nothing loved dreams still dreamin know im crazy know im crazy yeah yeah yeah remember first time baby last time nothing loved dreams still dreamin know im crazy nothing died day left room tears last time past time wish end like last time past time know wish end like but time put kid map time finished last line cant believe last night last fight hook lil peep told stop car gotta say somethin ive thinkin every single day past months say much ask much got fucked told stop car gotta say somethin ive thinkin every single day past months say much ask much got fucked verse lil peep break heart break heart feel passion start girl life baby wanna play part real gothbois like dark real gothbois like dark feel passion start ever since met wanna apart break heart break heart feel passion start girl life baby wanna play part real gothbois like dark real gothbois like dark feel passion start ever since met wanna apart stopped car need nobody cracks heart ive feelin lonely silver chains heart ive caught take away give left scene heart beatin loud runnin away need right silver chains heart like down like like stopped car need nobody cracks heart ive feelin lonely silver chains heart ive caught take away give left scene heart beatin loud running away need right silver chains heart like down like like told stop car gotta say somethin ive thinkin every single day past months say much ask much got fucked told stop car gotta say somethin life gets hard sometimes know leaning smoking dope see face everywhere go thing reminds home team racing whips roll rolling bean took show young limousine im backseat rider calls phone thinks im dying baby one thats fosho need company ride slow aint want cold girl one know one love cant name one person trust one im one leaving ill go one love cant name one person trust want one ill find leaving ill leave ill leave ill leave you ill leave spent lot time background know spent lot time background everytime together black everytime together tap remember part past remember shit past took pill passed made deal devil know got problems problems know got know got too hold revolver revolver aint lookin they aint lookin you oh girl even bother bother act brand new why act brand new take devil offers offers got nothin lose i got nothin lose fuck songs got crying feeling lonely like always now one truly loved ever wanted with want spend life badly hate messing honestly know ill ever feel normal again suicidal thoughts persistent weeks feel like im getting worse feel alive anymore im living know much longer go merely surviving whats point living ill never happy her,1 im smart enough know dumb im smart enough fix that felt like know that,0 "Depression can't be cured though so, what next? https://twitter.com/ayanatheoracle/status/988861135142248449 …",1 asking riphone sucks theres gotta people iphones iphone sometimes tries automatically download call duty mobile want know happen iphone users apples thing what im confused,0 i feel like i can t get high enough to forget the shit that s happening in life rn i want to self harm so bad because i m so sad and idk what to do with myself and how i ve reacted to my relationship struggle,1 im alone useless world nobody needs anymoreim ive lived enough tell world shitty place,1 think might fail th grade keep getting shit scores states studies math sucks wish covid gone smh,0 watko shockingly not,0 @PercivalRoad Yes...at your shop!....nothing new from me yet...maybe this weekend ,0 guys help street lamp outside window got hit massive lightning youd expect stop working started turning super annoying rain makes atmosphere bed quite nice street lamp ruins it idea sleep comfortably,0 now whatlink last post herehttpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsduwoi_was_right ive cut contact her deleted number phone removed friend facebook also knew fb password knew resist logging account every while typed string random letters numbers changed password that yeah cant get facebook fuck her feels fine all just im left feeling what fuck now honestly want sleep thats it go work come home dick around internet sleep long can cant stand getting bed anymore hit snooze repeatedly minutes get ready work fall asleep work im driving sitting office matter much sleep get night before think day cant wait get home sleep feel like im living fog nothing feels real anymore know describe it carrying conversation perfectly fine someone never feels right like im dreaming entire thing look object distance first thought thats real none real even though know is physical thing grab feel smell like click more know describe it like constant numbness except still feel pain hurt always want cry never can just want feel something pain again im used someone there someone talk to miss loving someone love returned someone have love me know more ive thought redflag entire life always afraid physical pain would cause died past week shit hit fan care anymore want it want hang myself care much might hurt more want gone please help me,1 new testament test at 9 0 am,0 hereby declare spilling water ground leaving people step crime punishable death,0 im deadnothing left said ampxb ones tears shed ampxb funeral im dead,1 suicidal christmasso spent christmas bed wishing dead nothing new ive suicidal since childhood lot time wish would done child avoid pain suffering told family sick didnt want affect anyone im sure know didnt want come prepared gifts wrapped decided stay home smoke weed know made choice wtf like normal person would this part happy it wonder people dont like me im miserable around hate everyone everything friends crap job on totally get people like well change well years change today supposed day go find building tall enough would die relief,1 CAN'T WAIT FOR AD! less than an hour...<3,0 "Yarn arrived for Vivian!!! Colour not as expected by still lovely, a dark dusky pink/pale wine.",0 i f am really at a loss right now and don t want to talk to anyone i actually know about it i failed at college left my good job for my toxic ex husband divorced in a new relationship that is turning out to be toxic a well making salary i used to renting a house i can no longer afford i don t know how i will ever get myself out of the situation i ve dug myself into at this point i ve distanced myself from the few people i wa actually close with the only reason i haven t killed myself yet is because it would destroy my mom and probably put my brother back into active addiction after year sober i don t have insurance to afford therapy i guess i m just venting and trying to make up my mind of what to do if anything,1 game overi want die please excuse bad english im native austrian know english best dont deserve live anymore ive done horrible things everyone ever cared enough gone trough pain me gay love best friend familie never accept am dad hates gay people thing never get love back friend put him cant accept that dont know anymore cut today order get pain caused cant take anymore please help me cant take anymore know fault dont know,1 little sister thinks clean litter box day allowed ever take care cat honestly im sick sometimes annoying manipulative im glad see regularly really,0 saw today dollar tree ive depressed years now wasnt lately suicidal thoughts im unemployed failed years college due anxiety depression starting community college freshman age still failing classes right now former bullies high schoolthe reason depression going places got yale dating studying abroad im still stuck hometown dealing trauma everyday adds breaking pointlast night ok ko cartoon show really liked ended final episode talked growing up really hit hard hated stuck mentally still watching kids cartoons scared people watched show hours today first time planned kill myself going wait familys asleep tonight ill entire bottle antidepressant sleeping pills cup coffre soy milk bit afterwards mom told buy stuff dollar tree went saw cashiers wrist know say cutter cut across want attendion cut vertically truly want die like long cuts vertical something scared me help picture dead real thought terrifying also something seeing someone might also going suicial thought made feel like im alone decided kill today,1 think might need helpi dont know else go this im im newly minted lawyer corporate work past year this feel im cut profession screw lot work get yelled daily basis work hour days weekdays hours weekends wake every morning sense dread force bed every time get work email heart flutters panic want quit bad debts pay off also saving money go grad school im america law undergraduate degree im from feel like im qualified anything else practice law even though whats making miserable feel weak speak people everyone else know coworkers law school friends seems coping well work dont time friends family past months people ive spoken people work feel like complaining get decent paycheck feel completely worthless unmotivated anything now dont know improve work also find cant bring try more lie bed weekend mornings used rise early exercise meet friends sometimes skip meals tell dont deserve eat times im worrying much work dont appetite im also gay used think redflag teenager homosexual activity illegal here gay may cost job may grounds getting disbarred came friends family got support acceptance happy high school university days scares thoughts redflag coming back me familiar misery started creep back life thought ready happy dont know deal this feel like im cracking dont want to parents need right keep telling strong them im also exhausted would really like advice deal this thank you,1 @JMMAgroup haha thanks. mayer dominates. ,0 every person life supposed love betrayed completely fucked over npd mother grandmother two year relationship npd woman years older completely broke ability trust two faced friendsis me really deserve this alone now one person even much talk to post looking anything venti reaching limit thing capable laying bed drinkinggetting high cannot even watch tv movies nothing interests me one show watch sick itscrolling reddit makes feel like complete shit myself everybody good something cannot even try anymore families abuse made feel worthless shitty cannot even put words feel mentally paralyzed crippled cannot even bare face talk anybody feel worthless ashamed existence really deserve worst part badly want die hurt cannot coward pussy method see scared impossible right access opiates benzos anymore ill continue sit suffer finally get hands need fucking sucks pray kind freak accident terminal illness fucking mercy me fuck life unfair,1 major depressive disorder spiraling control either one understandor know say stopped telling people scared tired feeling never ending misery scared agony usually felt like past passes rather quickly first time ever residing going weeks now anyways take care all hope well try stay strong sure much longer,1 rteenagers banned alt days dear mods think make stop antisemitic,0 hey everyone ive drifting back toward suicidal thoughts lately really need get something big chesti lot mean lot drugs quite opposite someone age would do ie say drugs never really any thats all thanks reading gonna go drugs,1 many days get bed long enough grab food water see people wake early workout chores work socialize after run errandsall one dayi wonderhow hard know it people energy stuff,1 heidimontag lauren is being stubborn she love you you love her i feel so bad for you though it made me cry lol,0 augh eff sarth i stole some of mil s nail polish it pretty o,0 years baby finnaly two years reddit first sub ive ever joined thank guys love,0 me and my depression calming down and chilling after i take an anti depressant pic.twitter.com/13CWWcHdsc,1 i m extremely suicidal but i want to live could anyone give me reason to live i don t want to feel this way but i hard not to think about it please anyone,1 looks like see peoples profile pictures avatars next comments everyone gonna see cringeass profile picture uugghhh gonna hard getting kind respect,0 gay culture is depression and musical theatre,1 pointlessi wake everyday wishing would die life absolutely pathetic wife told wants around friend work women fucking sexually harass me kid sees sort moneybag job work reprimand people say constantly cant leave wife without getting son pulled school since way either could live neighborhood apartments housing district complete conniving bitch would cut custody ive years learning im loveless marriage ive got years son enters college always get another job cant quit theres evidence work im fucking drained log every incident concise manner nd commute hours time look new job literally feel constant pain exhaustion come home coming home joke pick everyones ass hours dinner tired too watch fucking tv hours time friends friends great lives im barely treading water cant kill myself insurance money take care kid im even active community basically didnt parent social committee would dissolve son neighbor woulnt school activities im left holding bag steaming shit everyone else fun fuck wish everyday transport truck would take out walk bank someone would shoot place probably soon kid college im going find quiet place die overdose disappear even give shit anyone getting closure want fucking endless grind meaningless end,1 alan rudolphs breakfast champions slides theaters little fanfare much derision makes think back keith gordons mother night came out talk kurt vonnegut unfilmable surprising gotten two superb cinematic treatments the slaughterhouse five mother night certainly one underappreciated films decade cannot understand why brilliant stays almost entirely faithful vonneguts book without stilted overly literary adds poetry purely cinematic many film adaptations authors work claim that vonnegut even puts cameo appearance towards end film ask better endorsement that beautiful film beautifully acted written directed film among picks top five american films s mournful inspired surreal masterpiece deserve neglected would sincerely encourage anyone see mother night even take familiarity vonneguts work fully appreciate as slaughterhouse five sometimes does powerful affecting piece cinema,0 hate behind everyone elsei made serious mistake indecisive wanted do graduated engineering degree still real job lined up people start real jobs year olds full years behind everyone else terms career advancement sick hearing mark zuckerburgs hope hicks elizabeth holmes world highly successful young age know outliers average year old lot better am struggling find real jobs already th birthdays whats even worse behind women well successful guys age making close figures also either already married engaged long term gfs sexhave sex dozens girls short term girlfriends socially behind thus weirded many people tons great memories buddies thing barely anything time get social skills par late either somethings done scene look like desperate year old trying relive youth rate may settle postwall sluts third set guys girls either engaged taken fat sluts retarded mentally ill combination above calling misogynist redpill piece shit make things worse hopefully god give another chance come back someone else learn lessons disgusting previous life,1 guys actually like fact mods close images videos weekends swear place becomes wasteland text shitposts horrible jokes weekends this,0 hope good night nothing much needed get sleep its midnight now wish everyone good night ,0 idk who s going to read this but it doesn t matter i m only writing this for myself i always had friend growing up i wasn t the most popular kid but i had my small group recently some drama happened and i m no longer in the group i wa wronged and i will play the victim because i am i don t have any friend now i haven t got a few year i fell into a terrible life style the only thing i do with my life is go to college work then rot in my bed consuming medium it took a while but it hit me during one of my break away from school and work i realized that i have nothing making me happy i wake up and go on my phone watching random shit all day in my bed at night i m afraid to sleep so i just consume medium until i can t stay awake any longer i recently started think about what make me happy nothing i have no interest to pursue no friend to talk to no life to live i ve seen everywhere that in order to find yourself you should start a hobby based on your interest that s bullshit coming from people that don t have these problem i don t have interest no hobby appeal to me saying find a hobby that interest you is like me telling you to start a hobby that you don t like i don t like anything anymore i don t know who i am and i don t know how to find myself being betrayed by the people closest to you is a blessing and a curse i know they weren t real but i also know loneliness i can t crawl out of this state because i ve got nothing i want to do how do i become curious how do i start to desire thing again i m so lost i don t even know if i have depression or something all i know is i m constantly hurt unless i m consuming medium being idle just hurt i don t know where else to say this,1 know dont need anyone love right feel empty past two years ive crush girl long story short want date feel empty almost two months since told yet still feel way feels even longer nobody likes like anyone else,0 guys never gonna believe this didnt get boyfriend anything wanted show guys picture grandparents dog chancehttpswwwredditcomrlookatmydogcommentsjiitmy_grandparents_dog_chanceutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf mr pants wish good day ,0 @Ruth4ashab @TasnimaKTastic Hmm...yes that's true as well...She should just stop referring to depression each time she does a speech... everyone goes through it...,1 "@essexwriter A lot of my Album concerns my Anxiety and Depression. How I deal with it, how I feel about it!",1 a little sad,0 uadripofvioletteas nnn log day dont know why decided best thing log years nnn not day woke im feeling good right now honestly dont anything interesting say since first day think might better chances better year last year all animal crossing ex wolfgang broke couple days before im kinda sad tbh,0 kill mockingbird movie would much famous gregory peck addicus fitch acting would much lauded william faulkner perhaps kill mockingbird might never written shadowbr br i found movie sadly familiar showed one favorite movies kill mockingbird may original id always thought was perhaps inspired similar movie oh whodunnit different underlying story lone righteous white attorney white southern town defending black man familiar and written woman mockingbird concentrates rape ultimate betrayal woman movie concentrates brother brother hatred rape man feels fraternal betrayalbr br theres depth mockingbird here comfort addicus brings presence left sadness that whether intended lift plot movie not harper lees mockingbird reflects nothing changed years since time may read faulkners book saw movie college alabama unconsciously took later years nothing changed race relations may say nothing changed even now many years laterbr br its sadly familiar one wishes addicus day make right mockingbird leaves hope that rocking arms addicus waiting morning better times movie leaves sad pride black people might equal better pride white people pride either answer allbr br rather answer addicus need comfort flawed frailty mercy pride facing differences,0 feel terrible never anything fun never go zoo go movies usually late im drained time pick up needless say lifestyle absolutely killing me miserable zero friends see wife hours week opposite schedules im drained,1 dont know anymoreall want kill myself faith god doesnt help makes feel ungrateful god dont know think fine minutes even hours im back wanting die cant stand person like living planet im much pussy actually it cant focus work id tell mom last time told problems made cry dont want make cry anymore im sorry making guys read pointless vent,1 now i cant go work in the hospital and enjoy the little fucking thing i do and learn there an all the people i like talking to and i got ta be stuck here for a week with a busted ankle who i dont even know if it will work properly again or not anymore either this year get better or idk but im just tired of every fucking bad this happening to me all the time i thought i wa finally gon na have a job and a boyfriend and turn out the guy doesnt even like me and the manager never called me again at least i wish i had someone that loved me he could come visit and we could talk all night long at this point i really need some cuddle at least,1 remembered one time tied rubber band finger tightly immediately regretting afterward got violet less secs bite thing would get th grade moron,0 "@2020science It was a promotion by AXE. Think of it as the evil, glamrock cousin of your duckie ",0 promised id give help one tryearlier today stood rope hands intending end it tie knot huge amount guilt hit me decided id give help one try put rope away went er get put hospital told said go see gp tomorrow sitting even depressed still feel guilty baby boy cant shake thought ending tonight tomorrow morning sure right now,1 love youi love helping people even tho im insanely depressed myself pm talk,1 im lost know anymoreive depressed suicidal ive always able hold together extent right though clue do im college getting degree want late change it ive got great job ive less quit told im welcome back whenever want specialty work outside perfect life mask starting fall apart too ive made lot mistakes hurt lot people hate every single day it ive nearly killed times last minute chickened hated more lost always thought would get shit point know point making progress failed struggle get bed morning struggle fall asleep night lay cry talking another person awhile back im pretty sure committed redflag makes feel even worse volunteer firefightermedical responder help either takes pieces me mask wear around colleagues falling apart late last year one passed away everything builds top little big thing happens cant take anymore,1 watching always watching run evilness upon dreadful stuff eery silence random stuff ghouls owl whatever noises make nightfall upon us nighttime scary afraid goblins out igloos safety creepy eagles whatever reason surrounding you yelps help distance obey voice hear ukeleles playing distance umbrella protecting rain people burning forest around no hidden message folks life,0 depressed stay silent unless good reason talk keep thoughts even speak words possible give nothing away angry focus drive take shit anyone fact actively punish people fuck me anything want give shit people think need anythingi like states keep never end regretting things say do happy like different person hate person get self conscious make concessions people result overshare tell people things id never want know immediately regret every time lose things learned right years things actually like myself like brain hijackedand people see like get fooled thinking actually expect time even though time even understand person times guess make people think actually want friends get confused blame want hang secretly want fuck which guess is faulti hate happy hate become wish could somehow guarantee id never turn person ever again hate happy,1 never whole fucking done already fucking dead dead years cannot fukcing wait destroy body release soul sure god willnhave good laugh life cruel fucking joke,1 theres pointi understand happening me ive always generally quiet person never stuck head belong intrude anyones business feel im punished like devil past life theres light life glimpse enjoyment whatsoever really begin with thought joining military would different would help become confident outgoing same wake up go work get back home nothing sulk go bed start cycle over went depressed high school student depressed military member little year found months ago mom sick things physically mentally needs take care her light life suffering cant take care her im trying things get stationed closer her realistically much chance air force care me well being family care work do feel route destined take while im finally preparing it cant see living end next year let alone end enlistment theres point im gonna state misery entire time cant talk mental health theyll put redflag ward cant talk chaplains always ends talking religion something gave ago nobody truly talk it nobody probably cares anyways want stop feeling way even means stop feeling everything things used stop thinking family much would hurt them potential become something getting lot easier disregard things feel sooner later theres gonna nothing dissuade going it looks like notable thing happen life ill add air force redflag statistic maybe theyll start caring people more,1 i m not ready for school yet,0 i could born fly get stuck web get devoured creepy spider could born billionaire unlimited access everything world live grandiose life alive need alive millions organisms earth born everyday living harsh cruel conditions unhappy trying hard survive none want here me alive point alive cant know it point alive happy happy what thinking random stuff die consciousness survive death meet god die good answer questions one day even know anymore no never knew do surviving trying best sake it yes works years need deeper reason work it deep reason role hate role want it give agree universe rules forced anyway reborn retry die wish would know world place it outside science religion philosophy want real answers feel surprised slack contemplate dark idea man leave guidance quite honestly take seriously going die anyway explanation absolutely explanation anything mean real one im gonna keep trying whatever know think anymore guess live simplistic life look deep meaning find girl get kids get house make sure kids well later life thats life right allowed say find boring limiting maybe im dumb lol get it sorry,1 For @mizhalle ? http://blip.fm/~5jbp3,0 tumblr is fun. but i have writer's block... so I don't post much. HAHA! claudyraz.tumblr.com Follow me? imma follow you too. ,0 aw im new to this haha hope its fun ,0 "Molestation, Attempted suicide twice , YALL DEPRESSION . Do not live your life according to someone else's plan, Don't seek validation from people who mean you no good or don't even truly care about you. Understand that your hardships can not BREAK KILL OR STEAL",1 so stepbro cant wait till first girlfriend will help everything pay dates gets girl first get girlfriend first life living hell dunno im sadistic sometimes,0 "@toastehmonstah Ohh! I got the fourth thing just not the may, ahh thanks. ",0 @dantheshive oh hugging dreams are the very best kind! you wake up in such a good mood ,0 dont need relationship survive see many posts dumb girls dumb boys get message everyone stupid smart stay single youre better place coming someone literally never crush someone never thought need desperately everyone portrays it friends probably like better single anyway,0 i ve just had enough of everything i don t know what to do anymore or who to talk to i tried to end my life twice through overdose and that didn t work i have episode where i just don t want to be here anymore i get agitated and it doesn t matter what anyone say or doe it doesn t make it any better i fear that i will have an episode of contemplating suicide and i ll just jump off a bridge it s like my mind take over and i don t think of anyone else my last resort is sectioning and i know what it s like i live in uk but i feel like that would be the safest environment for me where i can focus on getting better without having that constant worry of ending my life can anyone provide any advice at all i would appreciate it i just feel like my life is so pointless growing up with a disability being bullied always feeling different to everyone else childhood trauma and now having a constant battle everyday with my mental health i try to get on with life but i always feel like it would be better if i wasn t here,1 @fawfulfan @AEC_PA @AdreanaInLB @MairinMurphy And what about the suffering of other AA/POC people who arent all set up for the depression and pain Trump is landing on us? Only care abt blk ppl fine..how abt voting in THEIR best interests?,1 Greetings to @Starrybluesky and @travel_x_4. You had the idea about chariots exactly at the same time ,0 movie like little hidden gem come s shocking lot people know itbr br this movie definitely worth look things need horror movie especially good old chillsbr br i remember watching movie first time years ago remember name it came imdb years ago ask help finding title eventually got name title bought movie still love much years agobr br buy movie,0 changei also posted rdepression sorry shows twice you year old man depressed since suicidal since come bullied lot pushed people away small due growing community removed people age completely ruined development social skills years trouble people talking like functioning human being picking social queues making eye contact people friends long stretch time probably none all physically online really two right infrequent anything overweight lbs balding quite noticeably poor skin never wanted anyone hugged kissed nothing all never felt validation terrified never will dad thinks useless failure freak mom loves really pities me halves family share views loss right now know hope want to want normal friends feel loved someone cant feel happy unless someone cares one would care despise myself hate find hard consistent weight loss eating well amp exercise always falter went im back feel like im stuck cant unstick die need help need way break cycle want know do feel loved care enough fix way look much can please help me,1 yayyy text post weekend happy hour,0 god pls m tryna be a good gal u noe it best i dun n dun n dun wana be in deep shit help me out here omg,0 wrestlemania took place april skydome toronto ontario canadabr br match rick martel vs koko b ware was solid opening match koko always fairly popular fans point martel still getting heel talent end martel able snag win pretty non memorable matchbr br match colossal connection andre giant haku c with bobby the brain heenan vs demolition ax smash wwf tag team championship point andres health really awful performance really nothing special crowd pro demolition match end haku pinned new tag team champions match andre lays haku heenan turns face would turn last wrestlemaniabr br match earthquack vs hercules short match big dominant heels really popular thing time rip men match john tenta earthquake passed long ago hercules end earthquake pins hercules winbr br match mr perfect vs brutus the barber beefcake first really good match night rip curt henning mr perfect really solid back forth action talented guys end brutus gets win thanks lot major fan support matchbr br match rowdy roddy piper vs bad news brown technical classic pretty decent brawl wrestlemania piper comes half blackhalf white considerably classic moment end guys fight double count clear cut winnerbr br match hart foundation vs bolsheviks complete squash match hart foundation gets easy win surprising wwe used tag team divisionbr br match barbarian vs tito santana bobby heenans heenan family fairs better match barbarian takes win tito santana memorable good go back watch years laterbr br match randy savage sensational sherri vs dusty rhodes sapphire big intergender tag team match dusty rhodes wears uncomfortable polka dot outfit ring end rhodes sapphire get win the macho king sensational queen sherribr br match rockers vs orient express surprisingly another tag team match tag wrestling used much better time period young shawn michaels partner marty jannetty take loss count match orient expressbr br match dino bravo vs jim duggan duggan gets decent reaction despite american patriot gimmick bravo member jimmy harts group comes ring hart earthquake although support duggan takes winbr br match the million dollar man ted dibiase c vs jake the snake roberts million dollar championship first major main event night roberts extremely fans match considerably good was dibiase able pick count win roberts roberts ends possessing dibiases money giving awaybr br match big boss man vs akeem with slick one man gangs sad attempt african dream named akeem really short match needed time develop match boss man wins slambr br match jimmy superfly snuka vs rick rude heenan comes ring rude match snuka never really got good wrestlemania always seemed losing end short minutes rude gets win snukabr br match wwf champion hulk hogan vs intercontinental champion ultimate warrior dubbed the ultimate challenge get interesting promos men earlier night match actually good given people tend think hogan cant wrestle lot near falls really got crowd people watch home it end warrior gets win hogan wins titles stunned crowd looks hulk hogan suffers first loss wrestlemania,0 failed everything im done ittldr kicked school late twenties crappy part time job cashier associates degree show friends disappointment parents gonna end life week signed reddit specifically write post doubt anyones gonna read it im year old female single kids child still living parents found tonight kicked college attending last year half feel completely worthless hopeless adhd social anxiety disorder messed adolescent adult life feel like barely function feel like im point im incapable anything even right now feel like im fucking im writing like even make sense wanted bad transfer year college get bachelors even hoped get masters help adhd medication counseling finally able spring focused english major proud accepted insurance lost access medication counseling tried getting help college inattentiveness led slack meetings eventually fell old habits fell depression too since began feel matter got help life would always ups downs successful moment disappointment failure next adhd along bouts depressions constant social anxiety left feeling worthless contact friends person besides parents close cousin soon moving hours away new husband see day day parents see burden think they everyone else would better without me parents know kicked college know able handle disappointment would probably kill anyway gave everything help successful nothing show it friends so real college degree associates degree shitty part time job dollar store know well emotions coming across post feel drained nothing ever right never amount anything feel like everything leads failure matter many opportunities others give me despise feel like longer apart world contributed nothing people care soon become awful burden people do plan ending life next week since theres family functions coming up plan overshadow events redflagi might follow come final date im sure,1 cant fight anymoreim suicidal almost months need get chest cant share anyone know remember depressed since childhood always felt sadness weighing down make sense ignored waited go away past months gotten much handle fighting last year march break exploded years buried sadness came pouring know anymore taking anti depressants since months really helped much weird obsession think anyone would understand let try explain relationship ex lasted years time depression got worse before reason push myself him know stupid naive sounds thats kept going knew could make day would end day fought got better time but last year left another girl life went downhill sadness suppressed many years came bursting take anymore got relationships nothing felt anymore uncertainty always kept haunting me person leaves ill go again pathetic that need love function normally know ill get better find right person worth anymore late now final exams days away depression able study properly ill probably fail even manage pass good college accept student low grades much pressure romantic relationship like basic necessity makes pathetic human being low self esteem sense self want fade away getting harder get bed morning usually sleep till afternoon taking shower seems like much effort shower days imagined life would turn be want fade away forgotten,1 hahaa..you will not!did you watch SFTW? i hear u went for dinner on thurs night with anishahow is she??,0 ask weird questions yalls turn filler filler filler 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Thanks ! ^^ I know what to do alrdy.,0 omg it jst teusday,0 years training finally it made basic post one liner joke hopefully get awards,0 im coward idiotlife miserable death scary im afraid everything want pitty want help help works,1 weird situationive got disabled brother fairly rare disability suppose affects similar way syndrome lower mental age friendly struggles speech etc hes teen entirely reliant parents cant leave house own cant left home alone cant cook isnt even allowed run bath told almost everything hate life situation isnt awful fucking hate it dont really friends couple people school theyve moved different colleges got friends whereas one feel really lonely theres nothing want do im tired body feels fucking weak ive wanted die long time tried hang maybe year ago plan didnt work one knows therapy months ended lying therapist frightened happens people suicidal thoughts want die leaves brother makes cry almost every night died hed upset confused would eventually learn forget parents die hell one im brother siblings im supposed take care parents die dont want institution fucking hate life want able die fucking him,1 craftysince 990 lol that s sweet i bought ticket last year amp amp my partnerincrime flaked so i didn t end up going but this for sure,0 im slipping away redflag getting closeri really reason ive depressed ever since kid im right now extreme anxiety issues diagnosed add aspergers syndrome understand people im introvert im lonely make sense family wonderful loving waste days away playing video games escape now even like them im constantly bored school terrible im bullied nobody talks me nobody really considers friend think im going slit wrists end tonight,1 reallllllllllllllllllly wanna win an iPhone. #squarespace,0 mixed emotionsover course last weeks life living hell dont job applied cant get call back ive call usually give run around one job gave three interviews say wasnt qualified enough end my cell phone broke took said pay get fix signal antenna stopped working worth much wont send new phone week use back phone crashes every five minutes cant make calls try answer phone calls times drops them car wont pass smog cause need driven plates expired pay first bucks day name father car also broke ac needs since live desert uses car drive uberlyft want help cant makes feel worse honestly think shit keeps piling plate nothing go right fight things go wrong ive thinking ending soon cant seem bring it advice,1 blow jobs arrogant prick second hand jeans turtleneck ill drill hole middle bony head little spinning beach ball death hippie got given birth give away net worth aids research death wish guys also phone ,0 help boy friends something talk whether k followers tiktok k subs youtube wanna ask boys girls help blow up wanna able say clout,0 ive suicidal lifei want die,1 omfg. 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Seriously. ,0 second time getting bus turned walk street noticed driving beside commencing pattern black tinted windows license plate obscurer looked outofstate made police report first time went straight precinct second time speaking victim advocate two officers took interest case began explaining intimidation stalking me asked abusive notredflag,1 anyone else want leave subreddit weird reason feel obligated stay,0 yo heavily suicidalstarted around started really considering redflag gotten worse since currently situation considering every day like months never told anybody irl least ampxb things really get better current age said best time peoples lives yet miserable doubt going get better time absolutely desire continue living basically wasting precious time waiting die do,1 seeing gay shit seeing straight shit,0 anyone actually know social security number is someone sure security number tbh ,0 @ThisisDavina does Jackie have a passport? may i borrow her? need to lose those last stubborn 50 pounds of baby weight-- ,0 adviceim scared im going something stupid im scared im actually thinking it ive always thought redflag teenager got lot worse got diagnosed cancer thing always said mum family mum anything put much especially cancer took care love much even thought stopping wanting it want everything stop right sent therapy went remission feel like made everything worse think lot things uncovered although im sure works people thats amazing keep going it think problem start feel better talking one day reminded cant go forever talk cancer time pretty okay felt like taking much time work agreed end there theres fact since monday ive waking feeling throw every morning think thing you right now sisters asleep mums work miss someone talk feelings tell mum im feeling like friend work tells boss,1 ha been sick and her back is veryyy bad watching american history x wan na watch american beauty though buy it meeee,0 future girldaughter wants treated like princess so means want live dirty castle dont bath married young old creep,0 favor could give award whoever me thanks,0 @shaunarawrr_x same i'm on the go today ,0 thinking real actual suicide atm lot pain pain go work pain instability work fear enter another toxic work environment irregular hours norm country pain deal nasty people real consequences comes workinghelp me hate alive much room me want go sleep wake up want pain stop,1 @olivosartstudio Oh I do things similar to this all the time! Thanks for giving it a name. I am researching it now. ,0 dogsso looking setting will dogs legally name set legal state want go dont want shelter im taking care part,1 redflag pact yall wanna watch power rangers somethin im bored,0 "When my dad is drunk he tends to leave letters out of his txt messages. This is a rare event, by the way ",0 dont care afterlife just ventim kill soon care leave behind got one care about im years old still gotten friends ive felt alone ever hate fuck life go hell im gone life bad hell honestly feels kinda good knowing ill die soon,1 letsinorollz ivy nkk ignore consistent behaviour that spiral her back to depression no guy mental health first idc,1 wildest shit happened school today whole coronavirus learnt year caught covid apparantly year s needed sent home learnt lunch people kind nervous teachers started calling names people year contact got asked go home everybodys running around lunch hall screaming aah theres fucking covid hall even teacher told everybody calm sit down kids screaming were gonna die what it array swear words get banned subreddit tldr year caught covid lunch hall panic jesus day,0 "Just left starbucks with liya, brandon, AND nik ",0 unpopular opinion democrat female president feminist cuz group whore ass feminists want men pm curfew women safe guy rapped girl world filled many clowns also female democrat president feminist makes office country fucked,0 redflag considered bad person unhappyi think least x weekly shunned general society matter anyone else unhappy dont want continue way yes love family friends im liking life looking end today honest question keep seeing told wrong is,1 saw the ronnie nancy show first time on austrian television time already big fan spitting image since bronze rose montreux film festival course recorded every show tape watched especially the ronnie nancy show remember scene ronnie stood front painting abraham lincoln thinking mirror said i need shave amusing all played ball dog viceversabr br its shame spitting image seems fall oblivion one fantastic intelligent made tvshows ever compared satirical broadcasts definitely best all br br well almost years passed since then wish could see show again possible purchase someone somewhere,0 no clue where to put this so it s going here a while back i wa asked what caused you to start drinking so heavily my default respond to that ha always been it s just how i am which for the most part is correct deep down i think i always knew the real answer now i am finally realizing it s truth it s love a little more context i have been sober for over year now and to be honest recently it ha really been tested and i ve come closer than i ever have to relapsing it is worth mentioning i m not the type of person to actively seek a romantic relationship i have had a few very brief fling over the year but nothing i would consider serious and for the most part i have been okay with it but now i have actually caught real feeling for someone and i am falling hard so hard it s really scaring me it s causing me to want to hide from the feeling a i used too by drinking after year of counseling i wa given better tool to help process certain feeling that could lead to me drinking which i do believe they have helped me recently because i actually did something i didn t think i wa capable of i told her how i felt too my surprise she actually didn t tell me no but she didn t exactly say yes either which is why i am feeling the way i am now i believe now i feel like i m on a rollercoaster of high and low i see her and talk to her daily a we do work together however some day she seems so distant and shut off others it seems to me she s overly flirty we have gone out once it didn t really go a planned but it wa still nice now to the stuff that is really eating at me she had just gotten out of a relationship a while back i know it didn t end well and when i told her how i felt she said she still wa trying to get over her ex and she wa confused which is understandable and i want to give her time and space but at the same time i don t want to miss my chance especially because i have not felt this way about anyone for over 0 year to make thing worse her ex is also a coworker in our department and i have seen them leaving together after work multiple time a week which to be fair is really her business but if she really would rather be with him why don t she tell me that s what s killing me i feel like she is using me a a fallback or a second choice i really hope it s not the case i do not think i could handle it i just wish i knew for sure how she felt i can handle being rejected it the limbo i feel like i m in i can t handle and honestly i don t know what to do about it i m so scared i m going to slip one day and have a drink if that happens i know i won t recover from it and i ll loose everything i worked so hard to achieve there s more detail if anyone ha any question if anyone can tell me what i should do please feel free anything is better than how i feel now,1 gotta love gotta love mum decides ambush make make coffee literally left room piss apparently taste good obviously fault definitely sabotaged definitely berates messing up gotta love,0 many pills take overdosespecifically ibuprofen aspirin,1 khensu i always feel like that too have an amazing day though xx,0 mewhy born life shit good parents loving home one suffer life charmed cant beautiful face beautiful body beautiful mind fair want someone choke im dead want shoot head want fucking die fair fair fair,1 sadim really sad dont good reason pathetic feel guilty talking im really really sad ending looks much easier know,1 hitchcock gave interview said like direct screenplays ordinary person minding business whos accidentally caught awful chain events cant get dastardly plot thats behind troubles resolved way audience feel sympathy hero certainly fine film barry kane trying help fellowman performing acts kindness consideration like helping fry pick letters dropped factory barry even returns lost bill fry later onthat big money barrys acts christian kindness get trouble soon hes wrongly accused sabotage murder likely hang cant clear himself similar steps plot hero travels crosscountry discovers plans acts terrorism fascisistic cells archvillain nobody could believe closetnazi beautiful blonde patricia martin first suspects hates eventually falls love barry kane hitchs trademark touches humor here too patricia billboard model whos various roadside ads help comfort barry hitches ride bad guys way las vegas nyc meet trucker whos oneman comedy act someone convinced wife stylish eat three meals day field employees fascist spy ring grouse forgotten ignored suits working legit enterprise chase scene cinema audience members laugh action schlocky comedygangster flick saboteur cell shoots real good guys accidentially kills guffawing moviepatron awful dead old man funny hitch liked use famous monuments movies best instance statue liberty backdrop ironic icon works even better mt rushmore scene nbnw,0 "Recently fallen off waking up and going for a run everyday. I've let the anxiety & depression take the wheel. While sitting in my thoughts @ZacharyLevi tweet response popped in about how great exercise is for anxiety and mental well being. So I got up and ran, I ran so far away.",1 must force uimissyousomuch sleep uimissyousomuch sleep getting late,0 film lyrical romantic memoir told eyes eleven year old boy living rural cuban town year castro revolution obviously genuine worthy labor love br br the names cuba libre cuban blood merely attempts wrongly market action film dreaming julia makes much sense common european cinema rambo revolution merely inconvenience peoples daily lives pursuits fact alone makes film honest works dealing time period cuban historybr br the excessive use voiceover narrator undermine story film makes unqualified clips hollywood films say much visually narrator couldbr br the comparisons cinema paradiso fair game film wax melancholy movies underlying pain loss lifestyle surpasses lost love br br the revolution like film julie never seems ending,0 can anyone help me out with this it s been year since i have these thought flying inside my head and i genuinely don t know how i am still alive sometimes when i m driving i think about crashing my car other time i think about having an overdose or jumping off a cliff i don t know what s wrong with me i don t really have any reason to be sad or anything the trauma i dealt with i overcame them so i don t know what s happening these intrusive thought hunt me i don t know why i am not depressed nor do i feel down sad and i really mean this i don t know where this all come from please be kind,1 lately i ve been suffering from a lot of sadness i even struggle trying to get up of my bed i don t know what is happening to me i m only and i already want to km i m so sick of school i don t understand anything and it just make my head hurt i can t keep going like this i don t know how to feel better i m already seeing a therapist and taking medication but it doesn t work at all please help,1 hey depressionyou woni supposed go psychologist next week dont think make far one irl friends commited redflag,1 sometimes feel like want die not really urgent please help nonethelessthis first actual post here ive recently discovered subreddit lurking bit commenting times anyways sometimes thought redflag crosses mind kinda want time really want to make sense like wanting die recognize blessings given instead wish parents never gave birth first place know sounds selfish since im middle class poor rich parents love me decent amount friends go several physical deformities make feel insecure even putting aside im insecure begin with social anxiety due bullying ive made friends sometimes grow distant feel like theyre talking pity im hassle burden life whenever try talk them like im waste time know sounds somewhat selfish way knowing tons people way worse do believe genuinely something wrong need advice cope this sometimes isolate completely friends thinking probably hate me need advice,1 wanted see valentine ever since saw denise richards marley shelton played favorite movies ever watched valentine amazed great story line actually was kills see low rating horrible all actors actresses played parts wonderfully way ended brilliant cunning scenes little unbelievable poor admit minor parts got small bit boring overall nonstop entertaining suspenseful mindtwisting story line made guess whole way deserve crap gets recommend movie watch anytime especially valentines day sure give ton chills oh even pay attention trailer rating please dont,0 im fucking worthless even funny nobody even pretends care,0 introduction flawless august hey hey since new month want introduce new event like nonutnovember fingerfreefebruary you flawless august i know name nearly sound good two come anyways idea came german streameryoutuber named taddl btw link end post idea flawless august nothing really groundbreaking revolutionary still wanna share you soooo idea things goodbad entire month maybe even longer you pay attention correct course recommend things bad things good you idea isnt try things know motivation anyways you know pretty damn well lazy work consistently easier things things maybe think drink much cola something consider drink cola end choose yourself also push limits beyond could also make supersaiyajinseptember that little example flawles august watch porn go twitter practice french duolingo everyday write diary least week practice playing piano guitar least every two days also decide participate flawless august would happy write list comments taddls video its german httpsyoutubehppbxsmobmhttpsyoutubehppbxsmobm he also makes musichttpsopenspotifycomartistldcabctyzkrksktzusictewhq_qmcbqrwbsvw nice day,0 us british people guns but haveummmpotato guns potatoes yeah take that please hurt,0 http://twitpic.com/6c6nc - This doggie looks like my Bailey. ,0 i recently got a weighted blanket to see if it would help with anxiety and it doe but at the same time it make me feel really sad it feel like a giant hug and that reminds me of how lonely i am i rarely receive any sort of physical touch from people whether it be friend or family so whenever i put it on and it feel like i m being hugged i question why i never get hug from actual people and why i m so alone,1 fuck lesbians gays bis trans make sure swallow make sure say homo after unless really lgbt,0 i don t really feel like i could talk to anyone here about it i sure a hell don t have the motivation to get a therapist though it would likely help honestly sometimes i wonder how i m expected to make it so many year there s just no way i can afford to smoke enough weed to get through even though i graduate in a couple month and move to college i know it s not gon na get better it s the same but new and ill just get to relive this hell again truthfully i have no hope for the future despite my inability to pull my own plug i realized however i don t think i could kill myself not anymore so i ll just keep sitting here though i really don t want to,1 want happyi feel like nothing good come life want happy want fall love someone fall love too today put rifle head clicked safety placed hand trigger scared actually go closest ever come taking life get chest,1 at this point i m just tired of living and i miss my old life i used to have a happy family with just me my mom and my dad then they had a kid 0 day later my dad dy of stage colon cancer he already had crohn s disease so i wasn t that surprised then my life slowly sank over the next decade my friend started to become toxic and my new stepdad hated me i got used to it recently i met this girl in school and i really like her we ve been talking a lot and i think she like me but i also keep having these dream that feel like lifetime these dream are about different people i know and they get to be so emotional i get attached to some random people i barely know and develop a life with them like a full blown 0 year of life these dream emotionally hurt me so much because then i develop feeling for these people in some of these dream i have kid and defend them emotionally from harmful family member it s stupid but it make me want to kill myself i just don t know what to do anymore i have these dream endlessly and i cry after every single one every single night i just had one about a random girl in my school i dated her and had a kid and everything i have to hide my emotion from my family every time i see them i just want to die and be done,1 worst year life im edgemy life chaos moment born every time think hit rock bottom things keep getting worse estranged birth mother killed birthday year overwhelming sense guilt never reconnecting whole adult life always thought never felt ready never thought shed gone family going apartment brutal hadnt seen since three always cold tried converse online otherwise never forgot me wish got side story besides that year worst life seems like storm storm keeps coming life live shame guilt feel actions adult woman ive reckless sexual habits resulting hpv previous partner evolved precancerous cells cervix leep procedure cells removed guarantee wont grow back exposed herpes virus havent symptoms know body lot drugs resulted deep shame regret also permanent anxiety due amount stimulants alcohol ive dumped body got dui hit run bachelorette party evening expensive pain ass cant even make eye contact old friends mine anymore feel ashamed past im bisexual completely deprived ever experiencing romantic relationship woman besides purely physical settling getting married part deep dread that ive always preferred men romantic situations im disappointed never gave wholehearted shot especially since tend lean toward damaged men love husband death still regret mine one place wish selfish ive abandoned screwed anyone thats ever important way another due abandonment issues childhood ocd heavily revolves around abandoned compulsions drive insane point sit fetal position tell much hate it arent even bad compulsions get sensitive myself besides mental issues months premature born intestines outside body due moms drug alcohol use pregnant many physical health complications come it im nauseas day every day likely due scar tissue stomach insane migraines id rather die endure minutes more hard live normal life mental physical stuff thats happening ive therapy counseling whatever never really helps much get office im happy cheery optimistic freak loves life sobs hysterically whole ride home whats wrong me talk friends dont like talking much especially detail get relate still makes uncomfortable talk about husband talk anything hes great person bounce shit feel guilty like burden ive fucked life enough is made many plans kill myself always imagine car accident gun im glad dont gun lost license dui ive called texted emergency hotlines nothing really makes feel better though try reach out try talk it nothing trick day dream long dark silence death alive mom abort like have wish had life cruel didnt pets husband id pack bag see long could survive woods tent backpack thanks letting vent could write whole fucking novel fucked stuff happened chose limit years struggles alone maybe write novel maybe someone make movie get rich building nerve kill myself,1 thinking killing myselfim going really rough phase right now im bipolar i started treatment working know do appointment psychiatrist tomorrow even want bother anymore im done feel like jumping balcony,1 "@DaRealsebastian too bad, but I'll be patiently waiting ",0 years virgin ya it two blue pieces cheese theyre moldy father came beat belt anyway tell love yourself likely pretty radical dude feel depressed remember theres like years lifespan average lot things happen one month let alone year genuinely matter genuinely made impact many people make rash decisions please visit therapist talk someone phone get this struggling sexual orientation identify as theres plenty communities thrive in first step towards happiness acceptance if discord teamagers hella good server even cis straight friends accept you theyre friends theyre missing out family accept you theyre smart theyll come around theyre ignorant wont family isnt bound blood want make happier enjoy school find hobby when covid dies down afterschool activity join club finding things love others also love amazing feeling make days faster fun struggling find relationship lt dont rush things cuz friend got wholesome relationship beneficial one tell ya beneficial relationship isnt good might sound especially never even kissed someone itll better wait find better community crappy one wanna build gaming pc amd cheaper better intel least budget pcs wanna get guitar fender makes squeir butchered it guitars cheap prices change pickups strats theyll sound pretty close american strat also guitar sounds better amp guitar wont sound good one playing amp thats electric ive got clue comes acoustic bass theres also modern theory guitat vol like good teaching guitar that matter finding inspiration practicing every day alrighty else spit mouth mods ban boomer uhhhhh ranking system men coming bi boy gt hot lt playboy lt handsome lt cute lt twink lt femboy lt catboy lt witches anything cute attract wrong crowd time tho straight also pedos yes fucking curly haired boomer liking minors hella sus basically everyone hates you thinks burn yadda yadda yadda anyway go seek psychological help wont arrest you seeking help better person better person dont resort children get off could actual wholesome relationship dreamt young couldnt drafted war long live jim pickens,0 tips gain little confidence recently ive gotten confidence u ask how idk rly however helped overthink also wtf u want do u may think people look you yes do care wtf u r doing also girls called handsome others school finally started noticing me im nobody anymore wrote previously u r good path gain confidence ik hard gain even little bit confidence trust me follow tips itll get better,0 ive experimenting hanging head feels oddso ive experimenting hanging now since morning ive feeling woozy id get noose head level put weight it since ive felt rather dizzy quite sleepy expected,1 feeling bad bc teen redflags around meokay basically im freshman dont know like ive suicidal thoughts since sixth grade two attempts january girl school committed redflag really didnt like talked shit constantly died cried two days im still like months later feel guilty feel like fault death made suicidal thoughts way worse exactly month died second attempt since long ive started feel little better like pain started wear even though still think every day last night found girl school near committed redflag two days ago lots kids school knew posting links funeral fundraiser didnt even know existed still feels awful hasnt affected much girl since didnt know also wasnt bitch alive feel like set back little makes sense,1 shannanstedman haha i got to be up at and sit through a hr mass umm like ish is that alright is that too late,0 i miss my friend from elementary and middle school,0 i m talking to my psych on monday and i want to do some research into what might work for me i have frequent mild panic attack infrequent but still kind of like once a week once every week severe panic attack and constant anxiety i ve tried a bunch of anxiety med but haven t really found any that worked for me however i haven t tried any in year so there s a chance i ve grown a i wa about during most of my trial and it s been a good year since then so what are were your favorite thanks,1 im donelife unfair people even unfair even internet submitted story almost got banned subreddit cause bad karma gave me watch comment get amazing feedback support looking really bad told kill myself almost thanks im watch thanks guys real helpful,1 intelligent mentally illmy entire life driven near insanity around me everyone says one thing hard go rather using logic reason state argument theyll attack you position sense self worth beliefs must idiot knowing defend constant onslaught peoples delusional beliefs could stop trying ram stupid fucking opinions throat wanting kill daily basis peace quiet ever balls tell im mentally ill take pills maybe me them maybe im intelligent are could mental illness awareness truth everyone want convince im mentally ill try pills themselves everyone uneducated opinion confidently put display arrogant confident makes feel like idiot im confident anything im always questioning myself line thinking actions etc trying come reasonable answer people arrive answers never question anything idiot,1 at work w asma nawal in fe obeerate alwatan tv,0 love u make effort text someone one day u dont say anything complete silence u finally say something dont even leave u read like bruh say something wrong offend u boring annoying stupid worth ur time u hate me ignoring me even worse u text class u see snap dont respond u all get ppl asking homework answers hurts whats wrong point im worth giving dumb answers class wont even pass boring u feel need go way reply even tho ik u see texted u many questions,0 write poem roses red uwu inside im dead owo,0 thought id ask crush today long ago struggled breathe nearly collapsed light headedness going assume wont asking today,0 thoughts white guilt imo weird like please stop deepthroating huge colored cocks isnt helping anything,0 everything shitso landlord pestering move out last half year depressionanxiety gotten bad ive getting persistant fantasies cutting myself well lot concentration problems feeling fucked general back landlord finally accepted room somewhere else felt relatively ok it found today landlord basically screwing money would give moving went visit room found definitely way small accepted felt stuck current room deal pressure landlord good room packing found stuff care basically collection painttoolsmaterials something really space use new room ill glad get furniture fit clue id able paint build anything suppose firstworldproblems fuck mental issues building shit helps hold sanity first meeting psychologist last week first meeting psychiatrist second week march pills id get would probably take weeks work anyway honestly ive thought calling crisis center couple times last two weeks im supposed help now looking psychologist organisation crisis center basically told problems severe enough they get homeless people severe mental illness cases too yeah really nowhere go inside myself feel like want wreck making wrong decision stupid room everything going wrong kill myself thank god basically punish myself luckily psychologist said expected hes thinking diagnosis something personality exactly say yet one session suppose im completely crazy uniquely disabled something really feel fit categories treatment leaflet gave me general im kind sceptical treatment suppose point cant really get worse anything yeah fun ive never hurt myself honestly hope never will im getting closer closer something stupid either hurting destroying something else neither good idea im sure im writing wtf supposed it people talk family already talked couple times today im internet im scared suppose cause left alone ill mentally torture good reason anyway hope people better day am thanks reading,1 cant escapei debilitating anxiety job keep also love unfortunately forces work person hurt traumatized abused everyone life everyone ive ever loved finding recent abuse cant anymore cant quit job cant afford to cant keep job anywhere else anxiety dont want die dont know anymore im trapped im medicated ive therapy psychologists years nothing makes life easier better solutions arent realistic one help me one turn to go could pay house could least know place livethat would step right direction rate still owe wont paid another years dont know anymore would much easier give up dont know solution quit job become homeless stay job continue miserable cycle die,1 nothing onehaving children cant take care of financial stability whatsoever mother hates father brother exist relationships sustenance lost fight live sense am nothing give up,1 @kitkat1982 I'm ready to work on your design whenever you are ,0 einsten said solve problem thinking used create problem ocd hell way outwhat do please talk mei nice family loves much know deserve emotional nice person hurt anybody anythingi graduated college studled lessonsi less severe intrusive thoughts theneverybody dissapointed memy intrusive thoughts unique harm ocd contamination else ingrained character maybe ocd sure doctors said ocdi tried medicines ssris antipsychotics also anafranil thoughts make anxious make frustrated hopeless got erp treatment ut work biti people father mother brother virtual girl friend grandmotheri thought virtual friend understands different like opposite thought sameanyway chance get brain surgery called cingulotomy electrocution therapywhat broken non functional sadi exist live aware hurts lot family sad crieswhat live middle east facilities meds dark hospitals without life existing living mentally not nothing venting theoritcally helped say reality nothing ok,1 fucking stupid ever think im worthy happiness im miserable stupid annoying piece shit dont real friends never im worth it fucking run away rot gutter long ago like planned nobody would fucking miss one would care id get suffering deserve people would finally rid me theyd finally get one annoying kid stop bothering stop pretending nice everyone dont know ever thought people would want friend im loser im nerd im complete dumbass overall fucking pathetic excuse functioning human im supposed social high life havent talked close friends month every time pretend excited see me say hey whats up casual talk people expect every time ask wanna hang out question gets pushed aside oh im busy sorry theyll happily post much great time theyre friends week wish could fucking already already know one would care never spoke again thats holding back fear failure becoming burden already am disgusting live like trudge ever onward false hopes happiness one day,0 Making a present! ,0 "@dannymcfly I watched Faustão and I really love your laugh, makes anyone laugh too! haha say to Harry that we are missing him here ",0 i just did the sweetest ol boy he wa and telling me about when he wa in the war,0 score within standard deviation mean step ck going break girlfriend brutal way can going iti hope hopelessly debt way pay off subpar physician looked classmates rest life end it family left soon enough anyway unfair make girlfriend bear brunt shitty life decisionsi going publicly maybe someone talk terrible med ed systems are take standardized exam next tuesday,1 getting used gecko getting used cant tell girl texting see gecko using gecko reason text me,0 i m going insane every single day i don t know wtf is going on or who i am anymore i don t even feel like i belong here i just want to free my soul and rest in peace,1 #dnd #ddi #rpga WotC forums just went down for weekly maintenance. Stay tuned. ,0 not to include too much gross info but she had blood in the toilet she teleconferenced with her doc who ordered a colonoscopy not sure if anyone with a medical background is reading this but if so could it be anything else the doc said it may be polyp one thing she left out wa that she had noticed narrower stool which i read is a sign of colon cancer i m just trying to put my mind at a bit of ease,1 petshonestly want write long pity backstory experienced goes nowhere ill try brief generically nothing left besides pets become anchor life reason live dreams hopeless point family split hardly factor before anyone goes think loved ones none sorry fault frankly know nobody blame myself short definition failure burned bridges disappointments point wound alone cant keep relationships cannot escape scars past dont enough money time keep around happy spills friendship too thats fact aside good way make sure pets cats taken care of are different one nice doesnt get along well pets is slow slow hes bit chunky sweet uses claws much eccentric litter generally good way making sure taken care of ampxb theyre still pretty young waiting another years feeling like this really feasible planning immediately done pretty thorough research better get ducks row tips,1 couldn t sleep read some animorphs and now i m attempting sleep again please work this time i m exhausted plus i want to cuddle,0 Inside the April 23 issue: White paper calls attention to quality measurement need for depression care. Get your copy for more!,1 yes.... yes it is ,0 ive come accept idea killing myselfive always bit scared act number excuses go it think ive finally reached breaking point depressing overwhelming thoughts intense cant go day without contemplating much better things would could stop existing gotten point ill sitting best friend talking think would able go shooting myself seems simple easily buy gun whatever do need now cant live way one second longer desperation relief resolved pain put others makes feel guilty care anymore cant go cycle forever matter time feel like waiting,1 thinking adults dating kinda trippy like adult guy asking adult guy you wanna boyfriend shit idk kinda feels like childish thing teens somewhat,0 sure okaydisclaimer think want kill myself im tired struggling force mundane tasks im tired going sleep feeling nothing next day look forward to im tired convincing make better journal get lots sleep study hard exercise things pick up im tired convincing every day smoke little weed take tiny sip vodka feel better able relax function like normal productive member society im tired feeling nothing enough im tired feeling guilty whenever try relax always something improve chances getting job list goes on im tired thanks coming ted talk,1 wish people would respect desiredecision dieits annoying cant talk death without people going nooo dont gets better so many people miss you crap like okay clearly doesnt life awful years ago awful years ago years ago years ago year ago million times worse now despite efforts improve life despite time thats passed gotten significantly worse really wrong want keep putting everyday wish could normal happy life would love happy enjoy life dialysis bpd depression ptsd severe misophonia misophonia literal torture hell live with know seen simply irritated certain noises trust much worse that limits life much cannot stand around people anyone watching tvyoutube impossible passing people walking street cant work cant bear around friends family cant use public transport cant go cinema home life nightmare due neighbours cant go restaurants dialysis fucking nightmare etc every aspect life hell misophonia fight fight response comes noises horrible pain sensations afterwards feel like someone rubbing sandpaper across brain slapping me living headphones really life either would end tinnitus mum hell eat super healthy exercise ive tried countless medications therapies cbd name ive done it life getting worse maybe death really legitimate option,1 sure happened hopelessguys severely hurt ive really hurt religious people past uhm today literally contemplated cutting wrists razor hand didnt work wanted going resort means thought people mind spiraled thought parents thought people allah real afterlife everyone world wicked people since time people mentally tortured ive lost low self esteem anyone wants friend shows interest shut out ive hospital worse part mother father suffer came back mind yesterday went hospital chest pains stressed memories went doctor said irregular heartbeat took cab home cab driver making small talk asked said pakistan gave religious greetings anecdotes connecting family told iman diminishing didnt know god real not told story told went hospital much chest pains told thought past said ish going school taking honor classes schools religious boy guy would slowly criticize people didnt say salam properly anything became obsessed me would follow around school no one really living me barely saw parents worked night shifts brothers different country going college uncle developing early stages cancer later died next door neighbor parents attention went went state shock anyway guy acquaintance would tell everyone loved wanted valentine became valentine telling ten times no desperate made lie stating didnt want waste expensive chocolates roses friend time told go went went home felt uncomfortable told everyone next day going him said no said please love you allah wants us together well go hell yesterday obviously afraid tell anyone said ok said whatever ill break week well still friends way one gets hurt drama try break him told didnt see relationship broke someone starts wailing crying telling hes going kill sister mean him everything like wth shy person really gullible didnt know redflag watch didnt think redflag loved life didnt understand point redflag lying obviously next years would torment lies religious manipulation would compare many girls wanted meet guy friend actually liked got ready manipulative bf came door showing ugliest face making sure felt bad made feel unrelgious poor friend waiting hrs left forgot distracted boy telling going kill didnt run away marry him guy friend relationship went shreds hate stupid reasons never got tell day thinks bailed him anytime school state test would show door pretend dad phone call explain didnt make it sister came door told mother daughter whore begging brother sex ugly bitch see school tear fucking head apart beat shit her kept telling religious girl friend would hang guy pretend know father drug dealer arrested heroin deported afghanistan told mother call mother harass house mother called told wanted marry son mother tears saying no dad point crying day hes religious are guy kept saying werent siblings family harassed saying ugly bitch wanting marry him said father would hire hit man kill bc religion like wtf went pakistan way get away come back best friend starts flirting him introduces sisters boyfriend flirts him takes posts facebook tells wont leave alone say loves her told went hospital bc collapsed namaz told didnt like prancing around ex toxic distructive like oh know hes entertaining sisters love hes funny attended funeral uncle point didnt care would leave alone would say omg wasnt crazy yesterday room would compare her talk sentences close married someone else still flirt never recieved apology saw years later gave disgusting look working shitty retail job step me saw speak boss putting away hangers took phone laughed made sure saw texting someone dated wall street worker years later called pretty cab driver called beautiful dont believe it old five years thirty girl never gave apology never checked career daughter husband youtube channel gives religious dawah tells people always eat halal cover yourself cab driver said report them im afraid late im disgusted myself cant make eye contact anyone today really wanted kill myself disturbed feel cheated thought islam taught good good come back you bad people get punished im discouraged feel like tortured soul earth question afterlife used ambitious know im like whatever life over maybe kill ill show people end misery,1 struggling keep hopei wanna believe time effort get better make life worth living im scared wrong struggle ocd eating disorders social anxiety live lonely empty life cant fix it think keep going like this,1 like im pounds im girl always considered like little less pounds overweight bc me flat stomach averagedefault always skinny gained weight last year so overweightfat like weight pretty nicely distributed dont really look bad else probably wouldve killed myslef already according bmi chart im fine still im gonna try lose weight anyway tho fine thx reading rant,0 people go school covid th birthday next friday permit test planned someone school covid week quarantine meaning miss test earliest reschedule months,0 "@bbywoIfie I'm going out on a limb here, but it might have something to do with the heroin addiction/chronic depression?",1 feel like im buried pressure want stopreason im relationship someone extreme mental illness told lives cause im reason rushed uni cant leave unless wanna pay lot money back cant afford reason parents black white non understanding people world im want live life explore self find am im constantly promising ill start family girlfriend cause cant bare see upset im constantly stress im ready end it wanna fall asleep behind wheel crash tree wanna sit train tracks blast favourite music wait im stuck dont know get,1 how comedian battle depression and stress in private life fantegh on th http t co gwdy td via youtube,1 programming discords could join reading description legitimately said title,0 @tinkerbell87666 I'm up & ur not probably TInk. Stopped following her & a few other's...she's too young & not terribly interesting anyway ,0 gathering bunch fat people zombie apocalypse comes want zombie ass starve,0 I think post-Disney depression is a real thing. Been totally sluggish since getting back last night. The Disney endorphins are wearing off.,1 can i just have a little! http://bit.ly/4eBu2k please ,0 story lesson young old say may spoil future story but believe say everyone one particular episode soldier deathbr br okay stories one sticks the soldier death point life realized life terminal kidding airing birthday always remember it remember title tonight new synopsis may th br br it always difficult explain death natural part life also difficult adults accept children accept fact living proof currently yrs old children accept fact time time remind adultsbr br i write tears eyes heath ledger wonderful actor age died today kinda reminded many lessons learned life write reminder young old one immune whatever store usbr br i hate say death going happen story first time saw death bad thing part life quite literally story cant help it life changing moment alway bebr br and thatbr br i love jim henson and still remember much work life day died memorial muppet show thank brian henson keeping workshop alive honest thank you coworkers editors internsbr br the stage stage show show imagination create magic forever world knowbr br thank youbr br and doubt me dance magic dance,0 @kaaate18. So i log onto Demand John Mayer in Newcastle. & ive already demanded it... HMM ,0 my sister s kitty eva had three baby kitten yesterday but something is wrong with her and need to go to the vet,0 "Exercising regularly cuts risk of depression by 16%, study suggests http://news.sky.com/story/exercising-regularly-cuts-risk-of-depression-by-16-study-suggests-11346264 …",1 On that happy note I'm heading off to bed. To-recharge my chi for tomorrow. Good-nightweeps!,0 think life hates meim years old every day battle losing temper feel like want rage destroy everything want let everything out sadness anger want kill myself care anymore people alive torture life cant good happy people want harm me im different shit part world apologize advance bad english ive bullied since rd grade even teachers disliked blamed things parents may cared me feel like im part family rd grade got worse worse th grade tried kill myself first redflag attempt now regret it regret failure dead now suffer people annoyed presence time parents totally different towards in negative way following year got accused stealing money normal school day pe got back locker room one classmates said missed wallet five minutes later noticed another wallet pocket mine gave said somebody put pocket still know that remember standing hallway whole class around me ready beat yell me apart that also things instance messaging kill myself hating hobbys playing videogames watching anime coding etc really important th grade brother also went school im in classmates hated me soon began cooperate friend it turned never wanted friend whole situation got worse everyday eventually stopped stopped soon got first girlfriend life changed negative way cried every night her really toxic friends time also deceived me still picture head playing minecraft them server console running background due problems wanted solve saw friends girlfriend sending private messages insulting me things like im sorry boyfriend know read private messages appear console im trying fix something cant anything it never broke up thought everything fault days birthday broke nobody talk to weeks passed made friends internet today really contact anymore second relationship started got much worse looked like wanted hurt me started depression everything changed life got dark girlfriend tortured me emotionally wouldve done everything her even like that told flirted friend mine afterwards said im worst boyfriend said felt little uncomfortable talking like lovers girlfriend said you right tell ex do first time broke up yes also second third time although broke third time finally friends joking luck life still say normal im shit die want escape life want kill soon end all even know you thank reading story really appreciate lt least strangers internet hate,1 gossipmail i make people forget they have problem i depress depression,1 thanks covid mental health help easy get family going issues share need hearing mine right want redflag out depressed past present future feel empty hollow self hmed days ago want know going make worse trying figure sexually assaulted kid cannot remember confusing hate much feel like anyone talk me want hug ill probably cry get one thinking texting crisis line depressed need help cannot get,1 lost my phone some where maybe in the grass it just so long hope it doesn t rain,0 hullo name zach im one wanna friends like music anime dm me,0 adhd alien i truly despise that notion for exactly that reason i don t believe it bear any truth of course someone else can love you when you don t love yourself i have so much love for people close to me regardless of their depression and self loathing and vice versa,1 recently seem brain fogs able concentrate classes able take new information used to motivation anything thing whenever try make point lump forms throat eventually start crying regardless whether made point noti also feel really irritated time really reason irritated thingsmy parents tell nothing continue studying pass need know seek help experiencing due depression,1 im going jump next weekim going hiking next week im going disconnect safety rope jump im friends talent hate face body parents abusive constantly fight whats even point going anymore live next years complete agony die old horribly depressed memories full abuse self hate whats bet wont even it ill get close edge ill pussy like always do useless piece shit cant even kill properly dont deserve live im fucking coward always been hopefully much longer,1 Anxiety and depression have tried 2 take everything from me. So now I have to beat it. All of it. I refuse to let my happiness be taken away like this.,1 watching quot a league of their own quot make me miss mint chocolate ice cream cone and my grand ma fuck,0 depressed alone ambition nothing cant stop thinking it,1 @gee_lo is it paid? i was made redundant two weeks ago and need a job big time. ,0 Looking For Furniture With James xx,0 for starter i never really had a childhood when i wa my parent would constantly fight and eventually got divorced at the time i did not really understand and thought that my mom and dad needed space from each other well i never learned that they would never get back together until my dad remarried to a woman with son all older than me and my younger brother now my stepmother wa horrible to me and my brother this included being locked in the same room with my brother the whole day one meal per day a gate in the bedroom doorway so that neither of u could go to the bathroom or get a drink of water now i wa not always in my room i would go outside sometimes but i would be locked outside by my stepmother whenever i told my father about it he either did not believe me or shrugged it off a a mistake my mother wa not any better than my father she never remarried but wa extremely lazy and never cleaned the house she also never gave any discipline either so i wa free to do whatever i wanted then when i wa thing in my childhood got a lot harder when we found out my younger brother ha severe autism now thing switched from me getting some attention from my parent to none at all i wa now treated like a second rate child by almost everyone now whenever it wa my birthday and wanted to go somewhere we had to plan it to make sure that my brother would also enjoy going there because if he did not then my birthday would be cut very short not on y that the present were even unfair and i know it sound like i am just being selfish but is it selfish when on christmas i would get a 0 lego set and then my brother would get a new keyboard piano that he did not have to share the only time i ever felt like i wa treated equally wa when i wa over at my great aunt uncle s house at their house i wa not treated a a second rate child but instead a their own child they gave me acknowledgment and love when my actual parent did not they did not change plan because of my brother they helped fill the void that my mom and dad had left in me but my great uncle would pas away when i wa 9 due to cancer this not only hit me hard it felt like i had lost my real dad and now i would never get him back my great aunt wa still alive and kept up with me but i would only see her le and le a the year went by preteen teenager year were rough for me and yes i know most people s preteen teenager year were rough so for starter remember me talking about being almost locked in my room or having complete freedom depending on what parent i wa with well this wa not good for me at all a i got no interaction from peer my age and when i did get some it wa only for brief moment so i never knew how to interact with people i did make friend but this wa when i started lying to look cool instead of telling people that when i am with my dad i am basically in prison and when i am with my mom i live in a pigpen this kept leading to lie getting deeper and deeper and eventually developing into pathological lying it wasn t that i wa not kind or anything i just wanted to be cool and normal like the other kid and my friend this however wa only the tip of the very uneasy iceberg because now people were getting in romantic relationship in high school and god forbid that i get a girlfriend during this time well it happened i got a girlfriend when i wa freshman in high school she wa the polar opposite of me where i wa shy and not very interactable if i did not know you she wa the party girl who wanted to drink booze and smoke weed during the time that she did drink or smoke i would feel left out just like with my family at home so again i made up story and stuff to make myself look better well now i wa getting called out by others for my lie i knew it wa wrong but for me it wa all about the attention at the time no matter if it wa good or bad it made me feel real and like i mattered in a twisted way well now because i wa being called out i started to get even more depressed than i wa and resorted to self harm eventually one night when me and my ex were talking she got drunk and started sending message that i needed to man up and have intercourse with her r she will leave me well me being in a not so good position in life i self harmed more violently that time and sent an image to her in retaliation for her saying that she will leave me i know a match made in heaven right there i will not say that i wa not at fault partially in that situation and i will not defend my action i merely wish to vent and talk about this anonymously a i have never spoken about this before to anyone after that incident the next day i wa beaten to a pulp by guy who liked my ex and thought doing this would land them brownie point after which the school district finally did an investigation which involved my ex telling her side and only hearing her side my friend called me insane and left one by one until i had no friend anymore what hurt the most from that though wa now i wa alone my parent still never really paid attention to me and now were treating me like a chore than a son instead of getting me the help i needed they instead did nothing at all except send me to a psychologist who would proscribe every drug in the world and a therapist who did not really understand what i wa saying and that wa i needed help i relied on them for help and they were never there now at this point i m and have no friend still don t know how to keep friend and don t know how to reliably get help i spent the rest of my high school year in and out of different school with no friend or girlfriend i wa so shut off that when there wa a girl who liked me or someone who wanted to be friend i would always dismiss them or tell them that they could do better than me i wa a husk in my own body and it wa all due to my action and not wanting to open up to anyone i did get some romantic relationship eventually but those fell off a i never put the time or effort to make it last when i wa i had my first suicide attempt i failed obviously and i am glad it did at the time i eventually got in contact with my great aunt again after year we chatted about what had happened in our life with me tearing up for the first time in a while talking about what my childhood and teen life were like she told me that she wa the same way in that she wa suicidal and we connected together because of that morbid fact she talked me out of many other suicide attempt and kept telling me that it will always et better no matter what and yes thing did get better i bought a car and paid it off in le than a year i have grown and learned so much that i am wiser than i wa before and i am going to college to get a degree in biology and in all honesty i would not change anything one bit knowing who i am now but i still get the feeling that everything would be better if i just did not exist now we come to today with me still dealing with suicide it ha now been a constant battle with it daily because i just don t know what to do i can t get over my past and the mistake that i made and even then this post doe not even cover all of them if it did it would be almost 00 page at least i just wish sometimes i never existed in the first place or that i wa born to loving parent who actually cared for me instead of sidelining me for my brother because he ha autism i am so full of rage for myself and my brother not because he is autistic but he took away the childhood i needed in the first place i m and feel stuck like i don t know where to go from here i don t know how to move on from the past mistake that keep me back i don t know how to look at the future and not see it landing me with the worst life imaginable and especially i do not know how to get over the feeling of not wanting to exist daily and thinking of way to die sorry for the long post i tried to keep it a short a possible with the most detail and if this is not the right place then what is the right place thank you,1 finish working overtime get bonus end year im killing myselfi finally say accomplished something worked hard towards something end high note,1 heartbrokeni posted earlier week ago subreddit again ranting feel like anyone talk would get personal either way did feel comfortable ranting way gets less personal me since one obligated respond either way want write im very tired ive suffering depression anxiety bpd insecurity complex years im tired all want live life like mentally healthy year old girl once feel like im missing much mind practically always convincing scared nervous wary something whenever try reach goal terrible thoughts ways go wrong much im going fuck up ill never succeed im tired mind trying keep past making rewind terrible moments growing abusive household times made use of bullying people thought good friends spreading lies making people dislike me could person knew love them would anything them mainly used attention sex behind back flirting god knows what im tired know good heart want best anyone around me know im soft try see good people long realised people are matter sweet friendly helpful am always stabbed back constant fear friends drop decide turn me many goals hopes thoughts make seem unreachable cannot see lot good myself im tired this heart aching badly made several plans distance anyone one miss im gone method use places one find longer time since still bit hope myself execute this one angry myself angry fact im good enough everything fault whatnot im also angry dare give up constantly tell im loser go way think anyone innocent taken lives losers anything negative myself anger fear also keeps it im still scared wouldve gotten better gets worse know do hopes getting less less,1 anatomie anatomy entertaining engaging film falls short delivering discomfort connected films subject matter idea ethical ignorance medical science world one pushes viewer towards discomfort realism institutions heidelberg special effects make notentirely easy film watchbr br however characters script gloss film seem familiar scream movies repopularised sort genre sadly then whilst subject one care about viewer presented another movie full college student characters really get chance care about unresolved subplots hammy stagekillings reinventing since memorable drew barrymore opening scene scream several years backbr br steven ruzowillzky makes fair effort script direction pushes boundaries general theme whilst presented entertaining film reasonable performances unfortunately left old feeling nothing wrong film nothing extraordinary eitherbr br an entertaining film interesting chance see foreign filmmakers influenced postscream horror culture ,0 "Study finds LGBTQ youth may have a higher risk of developing mental health problems such as #depression, #anxiety, and #suicide. https://www.reuters.com/article/us-health-youth-lgbtq-challenges/studies-take-closer-look-at-mental-health-challenges-for-lgbtq-youth-idUSKBN1HQ2ZE …",1 know might sound wierd need help finding good picture im project school one part needs picture would nice could maybe help find one tysm advance anyway need picture sais basically i lot life a lot bad things basically like yea everyone love died im alone im tired care also bonus female ps remembered rn meme anime girl dont think ill use it,0 anyone advice dealing this keep repeating stuff like always double check stuff like times yesterday went kitchen times make sure closed sink sink closed dont know that happening months getting worse keep checking checking longer enjoy reading cuz keep reading whole page make sure didnt miss anything keep reading page satisfies me thing happens thoughts keep thinking something wont stop thinking it annoying dont know happening u guys advice dealing it,0 start bad decade please save post see im correct years,0 seriously need helpim sorry bad english point going kill myself know when ive trained karate seven years helped trough hard times recently started dating girl trained seven years family members train well girl got along pretty well im popular guy town first girl showed interest me first time life feeling better everything great dating months shit started fuck up told crush best friend do started blame it first girl ever showed interest me forgave said problem things always awkward best friend knew felt talk would advise break her want happy year anniversary breaks nowhere felt horrible absolutely traumatised best friend told crush guy couple weeks her get dumped soon better alternative comes along fast forward year still girls sends message thought maybe changed hooked again dated one month really thought could great relationship cheated me know care get really pissed tells family im huge asshole dickhead quit training karate one things liked life family hates me thats all dad raging alcoholic mum works day school sisters really care me thing drives life little brother love heart reason killed yet last hope guys ive taking depression medicine couple months tried talk psychologist told going phase end that cant talk family giving up,1 wish could give days life could left someone elseid rather someone worthwhile enjoyed living could remaining days life given them waste me almost feel selfish alive people die cancer diseases stuff like that theres many better people could live extra years real good lives others world,1 damnit need simp magnet oo lesbian ass needs pussy life xd,0 my head hurts after that all reading well it's all worth it!,0 duckling in famous child s book stolen from boston s public garden the boston globe http tinyurl com dc htx via sharethis oh no,0 unkleayo i just hate it when toxic people play the depression card after hurting another person if one ha truly struggled with deep sadness hurting another person would be the least in your agenda unless you re a psycho,1 im sorry bad lifethats family wants say ones wanted know something me next paragraph it sorry new bible im okay days really need unburden u wanna read fucking shit go last paragraph today heard aunt tell life difficult since mother always worried taking care hair food home etc truth mother always said bad children regretful me much daughter devil let hug because like touch leave house while see friends came home fighting me hated father left me chased around places watched hidden house list long suffered bullying lgbt woman black suffered homophobia even without family confirmation suffered abuse whole week inside home beaten mother times went principal badmouth eye me manipulated everyones mind would always wrong one list really huge addition neglect medical help never denied going doctor whenever felt something said exaggerating today chance develop uterine cancer due negligence happy situation country happy peoples ignorance happy loss important person entire life grandma happened month ago tried redflag age seeing best friend leave me humiliated school beaten place grandma almost died ending hospital end more ended picking knife birthday alone going kill myself stopping promise made moment i try continue forgive kill future everything fine received many threats mother child abandonment threats even though wanna make happy today heard aunt saying feel happy mom bad dad im even old enough suicidal currently years old today cannot see many reasons live want grandma want peace now think right life bad suicidal younger wanna phrase no one say much hurt u know sometimes need see things common child pass through wanna be selfish idk knowing everyone bad make feel worse like everyone worse handle better current age diagnosed depression anxiety almost did almost ptsd cant see whole life really something bad im selfish wanting worse really bad seriously need know could say im okay without ridiculed really sorry fucking mess put here alive rough sometimes,1 oppenheimer great series it first thing saw waterston in bad copies available similar situation exists glory enough all british series around time discovery insulin would pay good price dvd really difficult get oppenheimer dvd able played us another enjoyable series time danger uxb series defusing unexploded bombs hence name one get local librarybr br pete,0 attracted chris hansen httpsimgurcomakxhqywd every time says take seat want get show presence want whisper hes chris hansen dateline nbc theyre investigation men try sleep underage girls,0 faroukserf david9 gonda depression,1 identified travel another countryjust theoretically travel one eu country another die reason without documents chances identified going eu wide dna match see another way mean everyone donated blood done blood tests maybe huge database store info although private,1 Is at home relaxing cant wait too see my besty 2 morrw hope i well enough to go to the city woot ,0 @netmogul and they clapped ,0 @ilovecpstyle I'm at a little cafe/restaurant in Milwaukee ,0 writing something positive day day physics test today think pretty good,0 feel like grandpa replacing parents tenants son tldr family moved nextdoor family upstairs boy age tell grandpa enjoys me tldr so life ive lived two family house split two floors floor bed bath me mom dad sister two dogs got upstairs dads parents got downstairs th grade th grade corona messed up grandpa took school almost every day th grade became every day started taking bus love death carry middle name hey hispanic pretty darn close people knew next door moved wanted us take house did left upstairs vacant parents wanted rent someone gonna pick marine staying bit gave family near us whos house burned down come in next door snazzy since im next door high school honors classes come lot less ive trying hard possible visit always squeeze hour wish time mostly dont whenever come kid upstairs grandpa watching football never sporty kid play lot cuz parents anyway hell talking theyll coffee theyll grand old time whenever knock door say hi grandpa basically says hey mildly enthusiastic tone grandpa around ish well sit talk mostly small talk hell coloring phone tv on well sit there share jokes funny others kinda hurtful two im talking joking grandma saying im grandmas dont love anymore followed used love me man frickin hits hard every time general feel like fun kid upstairs feel like im replaced,0 watch movie truly good ride difficulties making indie movie happens blows film makers face theres lot stuff punk rock philosophy behind movement relationship project old punk american punk dig it but beware theres ton bad acting bits failed project incorporated yet come funny times and actually best parts listening people never involved movie making pontificate went three year period took put together anyone thats make film especially film school worked field watch learn film makers mistakes,0 lost job morningsorry advance lack cohesion streamofconsciousness way writing down fired job customer service morning alltime low stand waiting rude people call sitting front computer hours day depressing terribly past year only working cs year maybe part paranoia felt like treated like lowest position company saas type company employees frankly embarrassed it hated every day although im dumb enough ever quit decently paying job im ostensibly largely inconsistent work due internal struggle year old hated ever keep charade long full disclosure ive suicidal ideation approximately years survived attempt professionals tell increasingly common repeat attempts occur wake attempt spite ive beat odds graduated college landed pretty great job degree screwed ended fired year half league not really unexpected thing postcollege pretty rigid defense mechanism ive past years caught me propensity highly critical around me well myself drop dime feel someone guess could say im pretty emotional little guy internally parents divorcing around years contributed emotional state happened maybe years ago much middle ended what consider be immature dishonest manipulative towards me end all moved state family outside pretty much zero partially fault embarrassment attempt too suffice say christmases throughout high school consisted sometimes one sister whom ran away age current husband also note parents rich growing up could probably say silver spoon mouth life many extravagant vacations young pretty much college ive seen lot beautiful things easy lot life im even willing let go this life going get better mean drone much narcissism ive it ive lot great memories im able smile about ive fortunate enough fall head heels love date girl years college least know ive truly lived ever want make mistake children depressive affinity do last years volatile me think ill able another assuredly fucked often think redflag know that ive survived years feeling way years introspectively daydreaming redflagas easy type fantasy realistic look world brevitymy brevity want advice ive done therapy opens pandoras box tried celexa year two years back turned hypermanic mess thing makes happy music sit piano improvise beautiful compositions cuff catharsis stave loneliness times sometimes ill play hour straight start crying midway much keep inside help though know may seem quite pathetic obvious terms answer guys get out still feel godawful moment better started someone please give words advice,1 made motivationalinspirational podcast looking feedbackhey guys depressed long part life still quite frequently depression started recording thoughts help through while realized make public people like also get help at least feel bit better put episodes podbean test see guys like not enjoy support me would go making audios kindly note episodes recorded recorded cell phone professional mic moment secondly may pauses between wanted make raw real possible nothing is edited removed everything live recording thirdly everything is recorded impromptu prepare read materials advance brainwave start recording so take experiment rather super polished professional podcast would really glad guys let know enjoy it help would appreciate making it,1 parents admitted hospital assumed going nervous breakdown stay week hell stay hospital triggered psychotic episode would pin give injection buttcheek saw naked also physically aggressive body language male staff threatening triggered lot paranoia me also gave many pills feel like brain become mush now genuinely want live anymore lost positive trait left crying non stop now feel like doomed eternity nothing left world feel like good trait intelligence gone due drugs given even graduated high school yet stay hospital made worse,1 lump one testicles couldnt care enough go get checked outive years occasionally hurts pretty bad yet couldnt care less idea could be dont want know incase something treated caught time really want somehow testicular cancer take me hope is,1 ive realized even delete search history still find router history real would go thier way go check router go check thier child looking am,0 used touchy feely person pre trauma hell id stood big city sign free hugs wanted to id touch leg sympathy throw arm around shoulders comradeship family never like growing up recent years rarely got hugs parents brother wed brush legs sitting itd awkward oh sorry shuffle separate latter still true make joke,1 feel like hands tiedi want get better really do suffering anxiety depression good old fashioned selfloathing decade various life insecurities get here im losing hope got really bad got actively suicidalmaking plans stopping short actually them left home life seemingly turned around shortlived long fell entire family that among things caused downward spiral depression bad worse one id clawed of im fucking now past this still feel like scared teenager im sick never achieving anything im sick feeling like shit im sick fucking hating feeling like good reason to im sick feeling like fucking alien time im sick knowing theres way fix fuckups im fucking sick all know whats hilarious im therapy therapy program strongly forbids suicidal people using it im afraid tell therapist im feeling suicidal want lose services get emergency services called me whats also fucking hilarious probably would committed mental institution suicidal tendencies months ago cant afford it even could risk missing much work losing job want get better really feels like odds stacked me sometimes really feel like life all feels like constant war mind truly want die cant keep living like this either,1 lonely feel useless whats pointnot sure start here found today ive weighing options head kill try get help seem feasible me part thinks get help going make fit anywhere suddenly make people like months cant see change life significantly im living city adore moved country five years ago city nearly year it however feels city thing have family here people never stay friends year best know cant take odd moods when let guard depression anxiety is im girl im gay ive proper relationship dated girl months two years ago broke off really probably best never would worked ive fallen couple girls since then initially liking me decide dont one closest i use term loosely friend one girl time last year staying place instead travelling work incredibly happy several considered dates things going great im quite sure even wants friends me could tell becoming distant earlier year march told felt got youre amazing person but im sick people give shit telling im amazing disappearing life hear family much family have used speak dad skype time however life changed new partner years ago months go without us speaking place feel needed work also socialising know good thing like people work time even always enjoy work itself outside work feel existence pointless im important necessary part anybody elses life think dying think people would eventually notice would work think every makes sad im overweight incredibly enough im comfortable doctor told lose weight ive tried dieting made hungry tried going gym got bored it im thinking trying couch k dunno arsed junk food vice drink smoke drugs instead ill junk food seems much simpler end it though im sure go it stand rail platform want either jump rails electrocuted front train pulls in think jumping infront traffic think drowning river tried actually anything since teenager tried choke several times span couple years would feel terrified afterwards thought maybe trying cbt ive read help depression anxiety get really anxious nervous social situations point leave cry hyperventilate outside event tonight thought id enjoy didnt aware person made uncomfortable situations im fine own otherwise id never go anywhere anything thats usually things everyone else mostly well were really expected socialise gigs walks lectures stuff like that antidepressants couple years now dosage halved months ago thought feeling better im thinking ill need revers continue on want find peace hurt anymore apologies cohesive lot thoughts head share somehow someone,1 school discord band class started discord im excited feels like dream come true cant wait use nitro memes,0 fucking hate dad ,0 @Tina2967 6 miles good for you! Keep it up your on your way ,0 mizzzidc your mum for that matter irrespective of the past doesn t worth this shame you brought upon her by pasting the screenshot i wish you a quick healing process from your depression don t forget that an addidas sneaker shouldn t worth more than an 00,1 someone talk im lonley suicidal fucked someone talk please talk whatever want,0 Super bored... someone leave me a reply ,0 want die right nowi want dead want live shitty world want released im planning kill later life nobody notice success,1 i m 9 i m in recovery for marijuana addiction i want to quit juuling soon it s making me so depressed and anxious i feel financially insecure i m not happy at my job and oftentimes time i feel suicidal i don t want to rely on med have any of you felt this way and made drastic change and turned it all around this is absolutely the most depressed i ve ever been and i ve never thought about suicide this much before i m seeing a therapist but ultimately i want to start leading a well rounded life with healthy coping mechanism that don t involve health insurance ha anyone ever done this have you gone through a dark era where suicide wa on your mind constantly but then you turned it around need some hope some story that make me think it s possible,1 ever since little parents always fought blamed everything me turned yesterday still nothing changed parents put expectation initially becoming tennis player trained years life childhood would immediately pm eating would play tennis hours years end high school difficult unable multitask tasks i good tennis know limitations told give up blamed months end ruing dreams money told younger scared would happen parents hateddespised existence use them aimed become doctor year age breaking first girlfriend emotional scapegoat since parents hated me relationship toxic first love chose another individual much coward ask out girlfriend year parents would antagonise fall love ruined tennis career education relationship girlfriend realised way parents treating me lack social awareness enclosed life did know youtube anime insta etc till slowly began shut life parents would antagonise me act like support immediately backstabbed chance blame everything common enemy this norm life still is parents still antagonise falling love point depressed friends slowly forgot form happiness still left anime lego gamesmy parents antagonise successful much disgrace iam compared them freeloading leech takes everything granted whilst offering nothing return way parents brought speech impediment stutter cannot formulate sentences quickly struggle talk get bullied still laugh get emotional scarred people still expect smile laugh smile school friends since graduated friends one talks me except parents ostracise existence mistake everyday also biology class receiving crappy marks chemistry getting scolded parents slit wrist scalpel friends time took nurse medicinebandaid applied wrist scared parents say hid it woke up bandaid gone sure saw since live small apartment sleep room come morning seemed care wanted care injury wanted kill since age prayed would die everyday relive parents burden f me afraid end myself would hope got freak accident killed unfortunately nothing happened yeti go uni study software engineering received atar far cry studying medicine want make friends uni speech impediment look i exactly call good looking guy know ugly still continue hope on skipped alot past better left unknown turned yesterday hoping would die turning adult kind disappointed honest woke immediately scolded looking sad friends remember birthday family friends parents obligated wishes time flew people forgot me bad always wanted forgotten guess cutting cake asked smile would since sad still alive started curse like always thankful have always like monitor check phones stuff younger sibling blessed receive everything parents wish had also stopped talking parents routinely check email discovered friends joke round calling names stuff one friends called gay joke sister called infront friends highschool too person close relations made feel betrayed putting trust them parents made reconcile them acted did never felt sincere happened years ago trying get first job retail leave house contribute money family leech one hiring since covid work experience need wait covid bans lifted still alive lolnow today parents spoke much disappointment iam make numb pain holding back tears looking pan face time cried first time first time years despite calling out different things even wishing dead known going born would aborted calling mistake parents said probably made mistake received baby nursery broke heart act stone face hide tears sadness say anything back them whenever would make things worse expressing feelings imagine ur friend consoling despite reluctant finally get consoled pissed taking forever things get worse like quiet nod head giving word answers feel remorse continued talk me later one comes asks cried saying surprised choose say anything lecture hr mins asking why telling hardships much failure am verge decided whether jump apartment not written signed couple draft notes done body die donated medical research organ transplants removes burdens parents idk sorry wasting time rant anything thank time sorry bad english despite first language do,1 ive lost everything ever matteredmy fiance fell love someone else hurts much write did happiness anymore ive depressed months since told me everything going well moved country her got masters program struggling managing starting make friends cant get bed failed one classes winter nearly failed two more feel like huge disappointment supervisor dropped class supposed take summer cant focus anything lifeline world know pathetic makes me dependent probably drove away know else do cant function without her im worthless mess went got things used make happy got home wanted crawl bed cry wrote note apologizing know else do anything anymore stupid let fall away happy im alone says explicit methods know im going do,1 train late again i m gon na have to walk the hall of shame,0 feel content nowive struggling depression years now finally came conclusion theres point continuing on talked therapist ultimately nothing me thought seeing another one awhile decided know everything theyll tell already you this that however cant find single reason comes point feel nothing salvageable feel ive reached that everyday essentially same time see family friends whoever always conversations may well groundhog day ive enough it every time reached someone whether friend family member went nowhere know want do im honest care less theyd think dead im important anyone know people may saythink that cant be true say absolute confidence theres single person keep here feel going woods finish business later best thing possible im care see people working hard live thats incredibly unappealing want feel like slave take comfort that im sparing years whatever pain could lie ahead also kind comforting tell someone it theres need worry anything now,1 shave mf daily mf soft bodily hair ew icky gross disgusting im surgically shit removed,0 goes well gone sooni tired go on lost thought way out ive lost hope things get better im finally going peace,1 film heart pounding acting great erotic music beautiful women add make one winner lead actress decides join escort service realizes husband time her steps whole new world first client another woman film definitely want pass up,0 hey cutie pies made survey yesterday really want people it im pretty bored really want know people like hope enjoy survey pretty quick yeah httpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlscpflvntkzezxbwuahlfpyrusquyjwdbaubdqofaviewformuspsf_linkhttpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlscpflvntkzezxbwuahlfpyrusquyjwdbaubdqofaviewformuspsf_link,0 woke morning something stop waves sadness drowning me looking articles support came across this saved morning hope helps you toothe ten minute redflag guidehttpwwwcrackedcomarticle__thetenminuteredflagguidehtml,1 Going to the zoo with the wineholt clan! ,0 i feel like wanting to die why do i not have friend i feel soo empty lonely i mean i do have a lot of people i talk to on a daily basis but for some reason i feel the need to always have someone almost all the time with me like if i stay alone for hour i feel lonely it is weird i just wish to be happy i don t want to kill myself,1 great movie i loved it great editing use soundtrack captures real feeling indian life yet relate well chose cast great characters movie develops characters real care feel like know them use indian music drums soccer scenes great direction really works everyone comes real natural cant help root jess film acting really good even tomboyish walk body posture leading ladies convincing someone played lots soccer,0 feel like cant go anymoref depressed long remember everything feels like struggle tired feel hopeless dont know want anymore dont know myself feel exhausted trying feel like burden every bad thing happens fault wish life would feel light happy joyful again feel like running away dont want go anymore suffering world cant eat cant concentrate think big fuck one likes ever love me everyone leaves tired suffering feel like good nothing feel like drowning again went therapy long time spent lot money it parents cant pay anymore cant forget thats happened past failures mess ups feel like cant anything right deeply unhappy feel like dont deserve live,1 join skribblio u want heres link httpsskribbliohdnweuukcahttpsskribbliohdnweuukca,0 flex much yall but two reddit followers,0 im gonna thing im going predicting text whatever called make something totally makes sense im sorry dont know questions meeting ones chance good day today comments now,0 need someone talk downive well last couple weeks today worst long time im stuck work now cant call hotline wife also work want make day difficult mine is texting let know feel distract job work suffered severely this cant make happen her basically need someone talk enough make work day much call things crises seems impossible get help timely matter like already need attempt deed get help im half ass cry help when it going real potential help point disappears second appointment therapist wednesday might well years away im feeling feel trapped unable control even smallest aspect life work job worked really hard for frills self hatred coworkers hate promoted fraction time theyve spent employed try make every day difficult possible see fail supervisors cant trust coworkers jobs come every little thing needs get done want quit would mean lose source income insurance wife desperately needs chronic condition would mean able pay loans bills would fall wife parents cover ive already used pto trying cope this able land job anywhere else either despite applying sorts positions even jobs im qualified for still turned away without even phone interview wife threatened offered committed sometimes sound like bad idea im stranded away person love able fall asleep next end day hear laugh stupid jokes thats really thats keeping going past year anyways basically comes feeling trapped helpless change anything guess reading time spare pm something help make day half mind take long lunch go home grab straight razor take swim river really want that think many options left thanks reading,1 byei cant take anymore want want fucking please bye heh one even see anyway,1 "@allwithani *Consolation, haha. I missed all the french kids today. ",0 wish could whither away nothjng motivation desire live anymore anyone else live either energy even try anymore angry feel hollow hurt even feel anything now,1 can t believe cutner is dead on house sad day in santa rosa ca http loopt u orpl a,0 feel completely normal still want end alli depressed sad negative things appreciate lifeeverything it feel happy sad anxious excited everything nothing wrong me one question always pops head point living end game this contemplating redflag really dont see point living,1 painless redflag methodsstraight point please otherwise comment,1 right thingso friend mine saying pretty peculiar things hed received pretty awful news saying things like it matter anymore the reason stayed guys holding together despite persistence demanded left alone saying reason stayed tiny dorm room helped hold together demanded leave alone so many attempts change mind left alone followed went walk us currently serving military trained constantly situations like lot bells going key words listen leave alone so really conflicted ramifications letting chain command know situation made call right hes first sergeant well flight supervision talking know feel really guilty whole thing really going anything could tarnished friendship permanently bringing people confide in trust personal things like without worried ill panic make call again,1 wherefore mine pp hard wherefore mine pp hard wast nothing wast sitting thre nothing joke,0 bed time ,0 hope someone kills me want fast want fucking over make tomorrow hope brother good birthday ill probably live since fucking pussy want want someone else it hate everything,1 help online friendi cant crosspost ill put here really want know once thanks reading schizophrenic friend ive known years online diagnosed paranoid schizophrenia seems get worse years suicidal least attempts past years likes game lot one favorite fandoms touhou fandom believes dies would reincarnated gensokyo the main setting touhou project ive working mom years weve gotten help therapists many antidepressants persistent insisting put go messy way honestly know do long im shitty college freshman friends willing help antics goes causes much drama decide keep unblocked feel massive amount guilt single mother do,1 little girl desi adorable cant think beautiful story one here make cry laugh believe knowing based true story made gasp also made realize nice people there great cast overall great movie,0 I really love reflections and shadows ,0 @aidenchan yeah sure but its my sister's so take EXTRA gd care ,0 momim sorry,1 iso angel mercyas title says looking someone help pass on recently diagnosed two diseases quality life good now ive lost pounds im getting better cant even stand look mirror diseases killing would prefer go terms read somewhere best way go administer lethal dose morphine sounds peaceful painless two unfamiliar feelings lately want pain stop im tired crying misery help would eternally grateful even better idea thinking of would appreciated well thank taking time read this,1 it still wont let me log in i know my user s thier co anth sent me a friend request,0 me after taking a depression nap https://twitter.com/kanyewest/status/989153701095915522 …,1 @honorbright you totally made MY week. ,0 @jjkseuphorias instant depression cure,1 everyone everything liei cant stand it everything wrong existence wrong dont anything right good good hate myself please let die disappoint everyone always leave always fall trap think actually finally it worthless afterall,1 helping outwhats quicker death cutting veins strangulation want go quickly possible rather suffer last moments,1 wanting diei never wanted die right now dont wan alive,1 day a lot harder than day let s see how day go tomorrow,0 todays poop story wearing big shirt went latrine poop pulled pants down sat pooped shirt caught poop,0 water fountain cause want put lips make sick,0 bill wurtz music underrated listened older songs like play like dance the rabbit snakes anybody else even know music,0 cant get feeling new friends boyfriend eventually hate me met new people today boyfriend introduced cant get feeling hate point feel boyfriend toit recently happened old friends considered best friends to met boyfriend long ago feel like gets know real stop liking meis normal advice,0 mykele sayyyy whaaaa i wasn t invited,0 try numb painbut never go away gonna go new year bang take care,1 fuck police homies hate police especially sting homies despise sting,0 spoilers four men ed jon voight lewis burt reynolds drew ronny cox bobby ned beatty decide go rafting trip cahulawassee river floodedbr br they wanted fun nice weekend naturebr br but two mountain men cross path rape one bobby everything begins go hell handbasket nice weekend even cost one fours lifebr br deliverance italian stupidly titled un tranquillo weekend di paura a calm weekend fear grandad movies like texas chainsaw massacre the hills eyes wrong turn last house left evil naturerevenge subgenre films one scariest right next the hills eyesbr br based book james dickey who appears movie sheriff bullard chilling story someone go situation thinking knows everything doesntbr br and image dead mans hand raising water hands holding rifle onesheet haunting images never leave mindbr br deliverance ,0 henlo anyone wanna talk m damn got back universal super hot outside,0 i swear no matter how long i ve been getting up at am it never get any easier man my eye hurt wah,0 hey think im finally readyso anyways sister fucking insane drug fueled bender claims sexually assaulted her guess assume im lying say believe women always like girl seeing since im doomed die alone think im finally ready always thought id need gun actually super easy get lethal dose heroin normal person without history opioid abuse od like need get certificate anything way way better killing gun also fun less mess anyway heres list reasons absent one family friends significant etc man kill myself many men engineering politics law running music chess etc literally every interest have theres huge male bias percentage men thats high killing increase percentage women field recreational sports leagues gender requirements women play many want always many guys leagues sometimes feature girls times drive interest guys teams everyone prefers company women women want hang women men want hang women one ever says many women here believe women always rapist therefore deserve public shunning women want around like want men around women races yoga retreats gyms women screenings wonder women etc yes women may like particular men stick around guys really care competition net overall wanted theres many dating women overwhelmed messages guys like cares theres one less guy women trouble finding guys want date apparently anyway longer care anything else except this im pretty excited finally die deserve better exes emotional punching bag finally im gonna look me think writing note fun want guilt anyone issue want people happy given reasons listed obvious existence makes people unhappy anyway survivors hope happy really do want nothing happiness everyone friends family exes enemies whatever were monkeys rock kind other something says fuck guy think better move on anyway hope find happiness find someone love care about,1 working girl kitty sothern engaged bill kelly neglects working long hours garage order save money marriage stood birthday kitty goes doubledateblind date meets department store heir bob hartwell hamilton falls love leaves protestations love appear cover desire mistress rather wife faithful bill rallies round comfort her last gives repeated requests reinstate engagement pressured part bills support family loses job bob returns however convinced wants marriage all kitty follow heart conscience br br this film lot better id expected be character bill first comes sort loud comic irishman type jack carson played often kelly and script infuse character real compassion love bill turns best person entire group viewers may find rooting feckless hartwell tone film wavers however lighthearted romance much darker side especially depiction dance marathon rather horrific accident bills garagebr br the cast rounded dependable jane darwell kittys mother impish yet thoroughly obnoxious mickey rooney kittys younger brother spencer charters kittys neerdowell father,0 disappointed think deserve live anymore need kill myself much cowered so make stupid mistakes every day even get proper job find proper friends happy point life cannot stand today tall mountain lowest part need stop need kill now,1 Congrats @runkeeper on the site re-launch! 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Just pluck them out, no one will know ",0 i ve been having this thought that depression is very to addiction the harder you try to push away depression usually the harder it rip you back in additionally non adicts non depressed think they are strong enough to put down the pill or booze for good or just brighten up and snap out of depression,1 im tiredevery day wake go exact bullshit every fucking day two years ive felt like two years gotten better doubt ever will everyone says gets better im still waiting please cant wait anymore every day wake wait something faintest shimmer water endless desert yet cant trust myself maybe mirage heat exhaustion im tired chasing endless mirages hope understand believe eyes point latest body water dying thirst too see eyes im tired im tired say theres helicopter coming it ive waited long ive struggled long think coming im ready bury sand suffocate thirst raw agony wait wait die best glimmer water mirage please let sleep,1 "@DebbsElli @JoliciousJewels morning, lovely day here too ",0 tell secrets yes love hear xxxxxxxxx x x x x x x x x x x xx,0 yo boisss girls goodnight yee yee great dream something dont idc free country,0 been feeling my worst bought of depression in year i m not very socially graceful and i had a substance abuse problem for a long time clean year and sometimes i worry i pickled my brain lol because what s common sense to most people doesn t really register for me i get dismissed by people a lot and i m really struggling at work because of it i m looking for a new job unfortunately nothing pay a well a my current job and i m already living paycheck to paycheck i recently got a cat though and she help with the loneliness,1 years leftmade decision tough im im right now friends family surrounded people care get something it drown work im busy working dont time think pain get better next years figure time take hands make change,1 day posting favourite songlinklyrics httpsyoutuberaysaplzq httpsopenspotifycomtrackjagdyevzjnniysxeltsivtdlvyhttqbtoczrocewamputm_sourcecopylink feed mepumkin eyes cant help matter try cant help baby ive waiting waiting till come around ive watching ive floating floating beneath ground baby ive thinking back night took home looked pumpkin eyes stopped saying cant help matter try cant help cant help matter try cant help baby ive waiting waiting like nervous child im surrounded feeling caged remember used wild baby ive thinking back streets used roam looked pumpkin eyes told would never let go cant help matter try cant help cant help matter try cant help baby ive waiting im surrounded feeling caged baby ive thinking back streets used roam tell would never let go cant help matter try cant help,0 cant anymorethese feelings keep getting killing become prevalent every single day past month two mum dating man knew years ago former work colleague passed away dad hes violent thug criminal appears court like job it isnt idea does anything all hes failure man know sees him hes also coming home living time paying fk all eating food buy complete twat me setting new rules me nothing fucking id rather fuck off yesterday joined gym lose weight cant get without someone mum take me cant go cunt always here infuriates me,1 im creating minecraft server hey whats everybody im wanting create minecraft survival server similar youtube series hermitcraft wanting see yall would interested members yet think would really fun get group us together probably around players create great server yall interested let know ill give information entire process,0 like moon moonlight soothing,0 why do other pet care people try to run others out of business or send suspicious e mail fishing for info,0 i wa just doing my fucking job today like any other normal person and somebody wa very obviously taking photo of me why fucking live like this my life is already shit because i m disabled and in chronic physical pain that will persist for my entire life people just have to dump more on me by alienating me i hate my life i want to die but also i want everybody who ha ever taken a picture of me to die also i hate them and myself nothing but staring laughing and pointing whenever i go outside it must be such a fucking privilege to look normal and never have to deal with those thing,1 jojo dnd im making jojo themed dnd would anyone like join dm,0 wanna feel old big fortnite explosion game absolutely dominated every platform ,0 someone explain overdoseare like redflag pills everything overdose going give liver failures ect type pills overdose,1 kill pleasehow find contract killer willing kill me want die want lose health insurance claim please pm resources,1 want her camera back,0 @jlovesjonas Awwwww haha thank youuu!,0 pathetic like dream hugged role model last night afraid stepdad gonna attack mom like hes steroids panicked ive told many people reddit real life things get bad go adult need advice go adult kids so went exs dad hes best adult ive ever seen mad didnt hit scream throw things people would calmly raise voice not yell scream gain volume say disappointed know consequences actions he bf time front us even shit hit fan never screamed attacked like thought people would made wanna cry disappointed man overshared lot adrenaline gave caring short answers think may told little much abuse continuing they kinda knew wasnt told extent home eventually calmed felt weird texting him dont regret going him hes adult know good person fully but im scared hes shared family which understandable concerning situation may gained disdain mother dad grandma like comfort figures me trust lot people dad role model but ex best friend ex bfs sister wants dead know it dont know ex feels day try erase memory live without crying knowing disappointed whole group people loved dearly finally go bed slept weighted blanket supposed take away nightmares check profile quite often didnt dream ex surprising nightmarish figures dream getting ice cream dad getting hug floated something different without him woke feeling weird said dream ill ask guys weird dream got hug role model happens exs dad weird comforted lot it,0 okay redditors devil trying convince im bi parents cant afford conversion therapy know conservatives trump supporters back please help raise go fund share results therapy done s,0 grandparents cannot afford presents party cake nothing tired thought every teen girl supposed excited sweet th,1 do girl use crush th grade almost years ago friends friends would talk group chat everyday would talk school good friends like said crush cute funny moved right gonna tell still talked group chats thats stopped talking sent text telling crush her said sweet looking relationship moved anyways moved far maybe like miles away stopped talking recently added discord server talking playing games together feelings back know do wanna ruin friendship anything really say feel way said looking relationship time mean something know man girls confusing need advice stay friendzone cause really wanna ruin friend ship like would awkward us help,0 girl animal crossing island lets say im trading diy recipes pretty often her,0 ham cheese guacamole skull portugal skyrim footbal child chile eyes ,0 ive miserable long rememberim almost thirty goddamned tired living like this sad scared lonely miserable reference point peaceful content life like like trying imagine completely new color get hold there get past crisis thats whole damned life im tired surviving crisis crisis never getting feel like real human being fuck human being do tried getting smarter getting kinder making useful enough never enough point straightup cruel string person along vague promises one day feeling pain know whatll stop pain one responsible me hell responsible myself responsibility take care myself unless someone else going step in im one decides looks like know did understand could done little kid whole goddamned world denied me itll always denied me ill always feel like ive never felt different yet am held almost three decades dream cant even see im damned tired want end one person one person whole damned life genuinely cared helped me died completely unexpectedly know ill never meet anyone else like them one sliver goodness world gone never deserved it,1 bra strap problem whenever go streets people stare bra strap think show bra strap okay problem others solve problem,0 answer yes every comment yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes,0 workplace training thing coming making nervous reason workplace training thing might good description basically thing go apply place work week instead school meant introduce work like places im interested in makes really nervous reason places im thinking applying are kebab restaurant grocery store hardware store feels really weird like shouldnt happening idk thing years,0 scarletjac thanks i know that video is harrowing especially the last minute i must admit i cried,0 broooooo im excited college like honestly intimidating cant wait go choose one sucks,0 know im tired im tired everything always been school although sure help brain broken think wish could normal wish higher chances die methods available least even could get meds get diagnosed something although idk effective would ending sounds better right now want fail though idk ill just uhm coping method time im sorry post like im probably attention seeking im sorry idk im posting anyway im sorry ignore sorry,0 finally better concentrating work course make mistake misunderstand assignment plus recent death family placeand got negative feedback boss feel worthless probably upcoming performance evaluation entire day feels pointless bother already messed upanytime start feeling good inevitably something happens ruin it point keep messing feel good,1 wants to go to starbucks i am so tired i wanna fo to bed ;),0 tonight right now going try talk last people believe going prepare everything set speed dial last things make happy cut deeper ever have mark body right arm face legs torso arm everything prepared almost like sacrifice and hours less diemy name adam years old faced things torture has whole life lie tried opening last week immediately betrayed think one closest friends killed earlier tonight envy them would like disappear nobody reason get pity points fuck them years ago brother raped twice brother also assaulted sister months ago knife want continue know others live goodnight goodbye last night plannote twrape suicide self harm abuse everything,1 erre sc aaw i miss ya all too im leaving to bh tomorrow quot morning quot i think aww i wan na go to the beach w u girl,0 go kitchen midnight snack remembered already brushed teeth eh ill eat anyways brush afterwards lmao,0 im point living seem like something want im trying find please place end lifei thought shooting shower water running mess family clean up ive also thought backyard anything significant clean up or driving somewhere parking shooting car someone else would likely find mother personally see me ampxb please help me going happen im trying least disturbing way parents necessarily see deal body ampxb would it,1 blasting music laying bed couldnt go party do entertain reddit,0 thank thank still here isnt easy horribly beautiful world easy feel alone easy feel hopeless maybe community gives even smallest semblance togetherness minuscule amount hope still dark clouds dont seem going anywhere thank sitting darkness feels weird write ive browsed awhile reached times new accnt though pain overwhelming sometimes dont know pain hurt heart amp people fail empathize someone truly suffering barely hanging make much worse despite intention thank deep ocean pain going dunno darkness dont flashlight us share experience pain amp maybe something even know intention wanting share id like hope wholesome maybe ego say never shut either thank dark cloud suffering easy mind want compare try amp see itself darkness right used left day silent vipassana meditation retreat agonizing heart feels stronger now thank agonizing human existence depressed amp suicidal years still sometimes deep darkness like before held knife chest didnt push held amp kept saying want die want die mom witnessed fast forward blah blah pain darkness depression youve heard far worse amp maybe worse comparing help us thank confusing unmerciful house dont know id alive someone didnt pull lost someone started really leave darkness darkness baby year old sister dying arms car accident amp almost dying too gave little strength swim up introduced meditation meditation dont like word lot connotations attached it havent thought good replacement word really sitting along movement important like yoga amp qi gong training training bodies minds amp hearts muscles grow amp psychedelics amazing pitfalls thank river sorrow anyway blah blah whats use anything fast forward years path amp am id probably dead without stuff amp wanna invite try smallest things imagine sitting front you feeling terrible right now sitting hunched pain amp take one giant deep breath inhaling pain amp darkness sitting front you amp imagine filling body hold amp breathe cooling soothing relief yourself thank tried amp thank didnt maybe something maybe bullshit like everything else wanna tell one time thank here amp sucked im sorry tried like rest assholes try make worse ,1 dating really hard since im attracted trans girls hmu youre trans ,0 parents called immature saying heck joke said heck dinner earlier today snapped me sense sound childish using heck substitute hell got yelled at yell using actual words like fuck shit etc sat confused rest night what anyways im done parents said dumbest shit ever tonight,0 think ill make monthshits gotten point im starting go insane last night hallucinated badly sure real wasnt im constantly paranoid im still sure im dissociatinghallucinating not almost nothing entertains anymore something entertain me cant hold attention cant read books play video games dissociate story completely forget everything it example ive played hours fallout ive dissociated point remember hours it feel like im fucking going insane cant fucking take anymore,1 anyone else dont sense identity like dont really beliefs politically religiously i mean atheism sort belief ig dont feel strongly adamantly it ive never hobby besides sports video games netflix even though ive tried many idea describe personality since many different personalities depending im at morals constantly shift change clear longterm aspirations ambitions basically lack personality charecteristics make someone anyone else relate nornal young hope cause im young,0 i ve been in therapy a few month cbt he mostly just advises me to try to stay in the present and mediate at first it seemed to help a little but the larger issue i have won t stop bothering me i make good money and i m not bad looking at all but i have basically zero friend and i haven t been on a date in over 0 year im and i ve been thinking about suicide a lot but i obviously can t tell my therapist or he ll get me emergency petitioned im really not sure what to do my anxiety and depression just seems to keep getting worse i can barely get myself to eat most day let alone exercise or try to talk to someone,1 Ok I'm sad depression nap time ,1 want planim risk today immediately future decided make plan ready tie loose ends happen dog afterwards years ago thought college would ticket out end ended parents place debt bad hs want im years goes quickly,1 "Im a little sunburnt from the beach- but who cares? Im not as bad as the other [Lauren Wilson, Lauren Geddes & Erin Geddes] Love You Guys ",0 @KoldCastTV and @beautyboutique Thanks for following! ,0 feel annoying fucking time im middle severe mental breakdown mean genuine medical definition quirky one ive bottled up love friends feel annoying keep accidentally venting server im talking much stupid feel awful like need so like sometimes like need stop venting emotional feel like wear people dont want hurt inconvenience im literally awful friend sometimes hurts much feel awful saying selfish like cant imagine feel makes feel awful annoying feel like fucking burden im fucking burden,0 "free(@twittom180), effacé le tom ",0 e next week think time leavei going say im near end rope ive since lost rope years ago still going actually keeps here well one method readily available quick method that much kept tethered besides people dog ive lost almost enjoyment things loved im tired bone all the time andi see benefit here ever frustrate piss people off even closest friends deserve someone like me deserve someone better im pathetic cant anything right live fantasies time order cope oppressive thoughts many reasons want die needed get here,1 ill post here probably ignored anywaysheres backstory im math major college im greatest ill put time effort can love mathematics ton books it study read lot it try understand goes love everything it finals come study arse month ignore world completely study hard crazy still recall if material day test thats beans get nervous contemplating committing first degree murder myself opt it tried really hard material really difficult failed exam quite miserably tell truth his exam hard course grade comes ok big deal see much final grade was comes b really fair seeing class average going curve needed mentions class curve college logic come analysis class oh god fail studied hours day class get c class what cant go graduate school want see high b marks math ive actually contemplating while asked around do advisor math department said well try getting job live life liking math thats life thats meaningless like thought redflag able want study hard show test ridiculous stupid professors help feel useless look material wanna grab kitchen knife sometimes stab it nights hold back looking saying cheated multiple times till knock repeat process please help me,1 @YoungLazy lol yes yes no problem .. thanks for tha shoutout ,0 one last post night strange and stupid questionsigh firstly want thank everyone helping out still guys cant guarantee tomorrow still alive here also sick dog freaking terrible head cold can say shitty immune system thanks anorexia here stupid question hear term mentally ill thrown quite bit days hear term think schizophrenia psychosisthe bad things know yall doctors looking definitive medical diagnosis anything i get next week go appointment surefinally concrete name names this mentally ill fuck wrong me blah already dx officially ago anorexia nervosa know disability there otherwise idea wrong me meh wondering opinions are thats all u__u hate feeling need sleep happening though damn insomnia lg,1 transbay quot sfmta budget proposal hearing tomorrow april at 00 pm city hall room 00 sadly i can not attend quot me neither,0 im hopeless livebefore vent ass off legitimately cant wait year over days know nothing special switch january december nothing day change seriously though gives opportunity make new year better happened year year far worst year senior year high school ended abruptly super long break later august started university wish didnt absolutely horrible im currently enduring christmas break took long time get used things exams quite confusing anyways ive decided drop university completely ive already paid first semester dont plan next absolutely idea wanted do wish learned earlier could go community college instead least join workforce feel like college isnt something frontal cortex fully developed make good decisions dont know career would fit me ive never job before enjoy reading writing learning healthcare related sciences im fan math mainly hard time understanding it weird thing used enjoy reading problem solving lot feel like ive gotten lazier like get distracted easily something play hands order something else ill get fidgety think big problem im afraid touched dont like anyone touching anywhere even simple high five handshake would problem future job seeking im sure past trauma dont like feeling another persons skin me dont like people looking think theyre perverts do also makes quite shy except im online anonymous forum like place sometimes get jealous envious others also defensive im hopeless arent i,1 feel peace satisfaction imagine noose around neck stabbed stomach the two parts anxiety paralyses mostand like think im crazy feel like death already shown upon meonly way die hands thanks space attention im looking helpi really want itbut feels good express,1 blueeyedbomber excellent missed you saturday night,0 @Gailporter thats nice of her! ,0 pre redflag logisticsi suicidal long time almost ready kill wanted know anything hand help family friends deal death far got note written visited relatives process giving away things advice things hand would greatly appreciated thanks,1 trip friend take life feels surreal gets closer every day wonder actually go it plan suicide,1 got top roof high school ill going year kinda scary,0 i have been told by several people including my brother to kill myself recently it really just seems like everyone want me dead i ve been thinking and i know how i could do it the only thing keeping me alive is my dog but when he dy i die i cant deal with the bullying and toxicity anymore,1 help needed interviewees needed idk flair sorry hello everyone im getting bit desperate decided try posting subreddit basically one activities subject school wanted us interview people chatting taking care sick people home please pm want answer questions shall give context pm anonymity shall also discussed you choose want keep secret not thanks advance everyone,0 cant win so party yesterday kissed random girl first kiss since ex broke heart think much miss ex trying happy move feel dragged back darkness ever fall love give one girl much power me still love ex know do look post history see big problem me hate love right badly want love someone else mush emotions want alive anymore ive much turmoil need end im anxious know ill ever able move first love everything really bad right now this want strong again,1 goddamn brainhow possible start creating game plan make harvard seriously consider downing everything medicine cabinet twenty fucking minutes seriously fed messed head easy opening skull draining depression juice id start drilling holes immediately wouldnt mind blowing brains right now thats tired roller coaster emotions feel like strapped rocket missing tail fin control takes practically nothing send spiral parents child whenever reach dont give shit im pretty sure friends lives would pretty unaffected died im smart im talented im reasonably attractive bunch really desirable traits privileges so why fuck cant i just livewhy cant ok one take seriously say need goddamn help hard give validation im crazy im functional doesnt mean im okay want die badly want curl outside someplace pretty fall asleep never wake up,1 @ejcanita Evening basketball practice on a Saturday?! Weeeeeh. ,0 dating confident overthinker tldr im confident enough talk strangers cant ask anyone out wallow misery ask girl like prom wallow misery turns down ill probably first matter say im really bad this ugh dont really know start this guess issue im unable ask anyone out feel like ive got bottomless inkwell confidence talking people like friends strangersyou hear talking customers checkout job walmart comes asking people overthink lot countyim us currently big downward trend corona cases school planning prom hate dances theyve made extremely anxious since middle school started letting go them often id either sit around cafeteria friends alone fun one time valentines day dance middle school called mom soon dance started come get mefortunately got able catch friends excellent sing along rendition barbie girl one good experiences ive dances girl friends separated corona first hit schools alphabetical split return school system school ended system extended whole school quarantine going school days dont classes together dont talk much used to dont follow instagram dont know shes single not post mess know havent posted reddit long time good reason depression used mess brain make post awful shit ive developed coping mechanisms im much happier now guess ill sum question tdlr whoever read im sorry incoherent,0 called best friend suicidal know shell ever trust again lived best friend almost years complicated relationship romantic times others one thing sure care lot other battling depression essentially whole life mostly due things happened childhood much control over recently though difficult events made enduring pain day day lot unbearable day work getting text messages really scary talking able do anymore wanting a way pain think ive ever affriad someone must called times minute none calls picked up could think could verify safety accross town would answer calls panicked first thing could think keep safe get apartment fast enough maybe emergency services could dialled called cab home cried got there walked door two police officers standing next her we chat one said your friend agreed go voluntarily hospital honest hospital staff told seriously worried her would let leave father picked up important story understand friend traumatic experiences police past situations anything wrong knew feel guilty panniced stop think would feeling end needed safe friend feels betrayed says really knew would left alone knew calling would make everything worse feel like known better way help feel incredibly guilty says hate me never trust again wanting go behind back seemed insignificant face potentially loosing her feels like worst thing ive ever done,1 literally zero friends family really care alive deadim going lot right now tried level best escape situation failed used work restaurant lockdown able earn enough pay food bills rent lost job covid right im hopeless sorry poor english tried learning new employble skills finished full stack web developer course udemy angela yu basic entry level laptop help build beautiful websites e commerce store webapps downloaded course torrent money buy legally finishing course created account fiverr hope paid work get gigs right know do think myself redflag becomes attractive option want die really cant afford live like stray dog im coward cant afford hang ceiling fan want end suffering know,1 Had a blast Saturday evening with some friends at Midsommerfest in Andersonville. Got a little tipsy! ,0 "@Real_DavidCook im really surprised when Kris Allen won, and I love ur song permanent. You were amazing last finale as always. ",0 lightskin boys longish curly hair cute asf need white boys anymore,0 tired gunna stay dont wanna sleep,0 soon enoughi cant anymore im typing using starbucks wifi im homeless empty agonizing pain found girlfriend cheating last december since loved ive loved anything life loved daughter stepdad too loved family found guy cracked something inside snapped still sleeping together odd relationship may constantly toying emotions getting hopes up happy around falling apart wasnt tried hard get back like life depended it happen keep together moved different town back april thought fresh start would needed things still lingered find job came see couple nights actually ended sleeping together that disappeared thought would better stay guy instead working me stopped talking me able find job got kicked out managed find place stay finally got job week first paycheck kicked reason whatsoever ex come pick cat whatever could fit car rest thrown away brought boyfriend daughter see crying hysterically losing cat street ended best friends place days got leave space best friend mind im street ive reached everyone can facebook entire phone book family nobody cares im homeless depression crippled mental state im constant agony cant anymore realizing people loved care constantly realizing lost everything mere weeks away getting back feet ive alienated everybody nothing nobody keep going almost hung last night backed last second figure get paid tuesday ill go enjoy it one last hurrah seems like option obviously theres something wrong me one much bad luck ive never felt worst life nobody cares im gone whats stopping me,1 i went through a chill short term relationship break up three month ago which shouldn t have really even affected me but somehow it ha thrown me into a spiral of overwhelming anxiety i have difficulty sleeping and functioning with feeling or derealization and a constant sense of doom i can honestly barely function for the last year before this i have been completely normal feeling and could easily overcome stress i did have a month or so episode of anxiety when i wa where i wa put on lexapro for a short time i overcame it and wa fine ever since m now i now have a prescription sitting here but i dont want to give in to this anxiety any thought on why this happened to me and if i should just start the med,1 rating cokes cokes allowed interested pepsi,0 valium i needz it,0 im experiencing one darkest periods life amd family thinks better solution always insult meits months life circle shitty things every day wake up watch online classes get insulted parents go sleep think im going crazy okay weekend online classes wake up get insulted go sleep always telling sleep much nothing day everyday same want kill courage yet guess days pass want die do im going run away family time ago covid made every plan escaping impossible,1 home from franklin street i almost jumped over a fire someone kicked it before i could jenny lost her shoe,0 no not everyone suffered from depression not everyone found everything exhausting yeah everyone had their own struggle that cant be compared to another but not everyone got depressed from their struggle i just dong understand why god pick me to have depression life is so unfair i ve been thinking about this about a few day,1 birthday exactly one week h,0 tips stay motivatedfocused hey ive gotten pretty behind schoolwork wondering yall tricks staying focusedmotivated get distracted pretty easily often motivate sit like hours work,0 amp im scared always miserableive sad since ive antidepressants since still feel sad world makes sad cruel is mean people are feel alone scared never want feel terrified leave friends house feel like im going vomit fact alone get especially scared night feel ridiculous want parents hold me want held told everythings going okay one knows help me terrible fucking feeling reach help amp look confused know say sometimes feel great feel like beat bitch get low again lot childhood trauma think lot it along chemicals brain idea one probably reply makes sick dont know do cant feel alone like anymore im starting see point hate downer needy want successful life get amazing grades happy really try think positive things make happy like hike watch favorite movies im tired one helps myself mom used help lot shes mia almost years now miss lot wish hard time debate ending life every day god would mad would give pain everyone love would miss friends family too idea feeling like longer gut wrenching dont want scared little kid anymore want function take medicine fucking alone friends family deserve better sometimes imagine last day earth try take everything tell everyone much matter often feel like take care everyone one me get im adult need people someone understand pain would awesome wouldnt feel like person world cant even write feelings probably cant describe feelings write notes saying goodbye cant even offer logical explanation problems seem ridiculous said outloud know dont want die cant hurt anymore feel like burden,1 im fighting losing battle pointyeah post wanting die im honestly really serious say hope literally hope whole plan officially ruined pandemic choice conform college dont life miserable parents wont let get job wont able move out im living house theyll torture finally give parents always win matter what time fucking cheap shot covid close finally going plan still jobless back room day havent even started movie supposed make made promise thought could keep probably face fans tell cant make movie im way depressed even school assignments havent submitted single assignment month keep telling tomorrow need catch work never do sit bed contemplating redflag listening music last day school thursday ive done throughout quarantine procrastinate contemplate redflag theres many obstacles now cant handle anymore im finally accepting im fighting losing battle im going win hopefully week parents go louisiana ill finally end life ill post update delete account die like pointless keep living now said id die couldnt make year looks like couldnt unless kk dollars magically appears bank account expect miracle anytime soon miracle happen like clearly purpose life now nope nope nope,1 tf dies paradigm sound like pairuhdime like what hate english born speaking weird language,0 im tiredi battling anxiety and according one former therapists ptsd life abused physically emotionally folks summer finally decided cut life father denied physically abusing told made up told threatened kill young girl became hysterical told head okay believe guess parents think overly active imagination outted closet many years ago living indiana pennsylvania without letting know drove home mine burst apartment screaming crying took room entire day continued scream me asking god life lost professor pancreatic cancer several years ago like real father figure life passed away ive traveling undertaking job job bad experience overworking overseas minority lost job due racist situation okay believe many people life who present time see situation eyes also told making up worth new professor time believed told saw many similar things happen also worked overseas occupation sexually assaulted another job okay believe handful people mostly women oddly enough either insinuated fault knowing guy sleazy totally invalidate experience altogether ton people saying guy reported good guy happens going hard time currently working toxic environment consistently intimidated tenure evaluation advocates higher places empathize situation nobody seems power really anything maybe really want help one guy particular intimidating ever since started job last year nobody seems want see outbursts point someone angry instead praise guy earned top position young age okay believe me among coworkers one seemed like wanted get closer me hoping could help look another job worked many different places landing current position honest also looking another job right now feeling stressed field extremely competitive feel using me encourage her receive none return brought issue racism working overseas completely invalidated experience insinuated making up brought issue assault workplace the assaulter mutual colleague ours also invalidated said known better expect someone strongly believes meritocracy brought bubble entire life went undergrad together guess lonely overlooked fact sheltered person fault still hurts even time energy spend helping her contemptuous attitude around work several days later comes help again going job interview several days yesterday wished good luck encouraged her received words return even though job interview coming up done care political affiliations trying make political statement watching dr ford kavanaugh hearings brought many feelings memories assault one colleagues work told rape catalyst selfgrowth think meant purely bad way choice words sent negative spiral president company talked length men industry ousted positions proof not allegations sexual assault said terrible pr terrible men involved made feel bad working current company knowing well might cover situations save pr blocked father phone leaves messages time get anxiety seeing messages tried therapist several work people recommended he sees people workplace free laughed several times told family especially story outting me told call father seem care told scared felt left session feeling extremely devastated partner says feels frustrated relationship says want burden problems life therefore holds in feels upset talk problems lot feel like blamed this despite telling many times share experiences getting point feel inner rage words i want burden you also lives way australia live canada massive time difference distance help anything feel like wants take break would never express me spent eight years previous relationship feel happy happening again much stress upcoming job interview one sincere little you going great would meant world me partner says feels like know encourage me parents never encouraged her wish coworker encouraged much could say words me too wish parents could said words me instead always saying god going take care me chest pains past week heaviness makes pulse rush also makes hard breathe crying every day thinking redflag lot used think would never thing would never want put partner pain im sure would really care thing keeping alive younger brother talked long time know parents would give hell anything myself little things too might sound silly might agree many points thats fine feel heaviness unfairness world us step climb top power corrodes empathy migrant workers pick produce low pay abused employers sweat shops make clothes animals suffer food took land indigenous peoples dishonored every treaty made them systemic violence still happens marginalized people homelessness still problem modern society on sometimes get tired human get tired seeing mistakes cycle out even get tired activism sometimes even activism feel tone deaf me sometimes need time process feeling sadness powerlessness activism constantly screams pick use energy keep fighting makes feel even tired cant share feelings partner says makes feel bad going see new therapist next week ill read everything ive written her sometimes things feel excruciatingly painful wonder last long im wondering whats point would make difference never existed sleep night theres much suffering world lisa simpson ampxb,1 my anxiety come with irritability avoidance of others impatience low frustration tolerance sleep issue restlessness and all sort of strange worry but the thing that really annoys the fuck out of me is the constant tight feeling in my head neck and chest anyone else feel this way,1 Had a crazy day at work..... Now I can relax at home.... ,0 please stop talking politics like really could care less think president anything political matter want support something good you care somewhere else personal attack anyone said anything political something future please please realllyyyy care last time polity ask shut up,0 The Stock Market Is Having its Worst Second Quarter Since the Great Depression http://fortune.com/2018/04/02/stock-market-nyse-worst-second-quarter-depression/ …,1 "R 30th wedding anniversary's 2 morrow. How she's put up with me, b n bipolar/depression,I just don't know.",1 playing minecraft increase memory noticed couple times actuallywhen ever play minecraft something seem remember going around me instance family watching moviethis happened six months ago still remember dialogue said remember gamei exploring cave second time noticed online class english decided play minecraft missed whole class could hear said still remember names characters story whole story understand possible since paying attention said class still remember word said block placed said anyone else relate me,0 @lazydays00 congrats on getting accepted to week of 8 ,0 suicidal dreamsi vivid suicidal dreams last night jumping front train today im travelling train im scared ive planned im going it theres stopping train passes around station never busy,1 Get your zzz's! Association of mildly insufficient sleep with symptoms of anxiety and depression https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0941950018300691?via%3Dihub …,1 ya get it ya get it lights cigar woah hoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo puff puff woah hoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo puff puff idroid gets call snake took long,0 wish deadi grit teeth everything do hate job abusive ex boyfriend stop harassing found stole bunch money bank account im broke im tired deal stress well im tired brunt everyones frustrations job treating like less human ever wanted life someone love unconditionally never got that never get that friends tired hearing whine every day miserable am im tired hearing say it anti depressants stop attempting redflag feel dead inside wish dead,1 @samnzed deliciously--not a word ha haahaa ,0 lost love life depression months agoi keep asking enough get bed anymore done life,1 reddit awful twitter way better fight me time,0 "@jeremy_lim ah awesome man, good to hear! Felt like it went well on the night too, really enjoyed it!! Can't wait to come back now ",0 idea danger thoughts anyone else thought going insta live posting story like someone breaks house describe person location people follow report police case go missing well thats like back plan cant contact trusted adult thoughts questions ideas want know anyone else back plans limited options,0 uhenwa challenge uhenwa challenge challenge challenge challenge begins march kill reaper leviathian you make base crash zone kill reaper leviathan do ill go dunes accept challenge,0 bi homies ayo kinda think im bi cant really put finger it yall figure,0 ha anyone dealt with tight throat shortness of breath for multiple week i ve been short of breath for almost week now i just got prescribed escitalopram and this is my first time taking medicine for anxiety i need insight if this feeling will go away soon thanks guy,1 love pain cause mei dont know talk to dont know get help without sounding desprate im breaking point consistantly thinking end it im nightmares every single night havent felt like since highschool coming back im scared feel like way out best thing tell story started university moved mothers home protect myself verbally emotionally abusive tried maintain relationship her worked cannot get past issues right before directly moved two friends died moved sibbling hoping would able get closer happened life hell distracted sibbling sure do failing classes cannot focus exactly escaping mother tries control finances bad mouthes anychance get point shes destroying self esteem making family hate me eldest sibling trying help trying keep grounded keep getting wound this since ive moved shes made feel worthless schooing insignificant work insignificant relationship boyfriend doesnt exist says simply want say im someone need attention men daddy issues moved found cheating boyfriend something agreed on camera basement videos boyfriend would shove face make watch them told didnt want to said could never talk anything talked man sex with ended destroying relationship heard boyfriend point hurt didnt love him wanted end thought wouldnt i even though hurt disturbed me concerned him sister got mad me wanting upstairs could time alone saying neglecting family didnt pay enough money live there nothing family something comment wanted relationship me tried talk would ignore act uninterested cheated boyfriend best friend also showed video that want see it told cheat jaded view her much want think badly her hearing warped mind went go see boyfriend christmas lives ways away said isnt real relationship cheat me dangerous stupidest mistake ive ever made lovely felt welcomed happy family regret second time went on lectures wanted housework rent went up fine this personal jabs hurt like mom judging relationship school came summer gave lecture right front him humiliating me talking treated horribly got upset one point hated didnt deserve treated like that why would interfere relationship way shape form offended broke rules rules going upstairs boyfriend came upstairs wake morning asked lay give hug got caught large amount trouble course going break rules im teenager sex wanted together mins response got disrespecting family cared nothing them boyfriend told talk him else would get angry would hit me became scared uncomfortable home called home sisters boyfriend offered massage accepted back massage text afterwards multiple times asking give another massage time clothes full body massage said no said would professional persisted give one thing said first taken no not telling therapest this things shouldnt say talked daughter treat her want honest opinion isnt fantastic isnt horrible child taken away isnt best sister emotionally distanced child constantly loses temper despite fact child hours per night unless day off does child something gets trouble go upstairs father rough doesnt beat things done questionable said therapest taken worst way childrens aid called sister immediatly blamed me worst part peak sat three hours asking called rat living house little bitch morning child woke crying wouldnt listen mom said heard say yeah keep going childrens aid take away used threat call information disclosed meant family did cannot change it speak want speak confirm true reflection treatment child taking place rather reflection me boyfriend speak me side family hates me sister doesnt know do options kicking out moving living hell leave though get kicked out look bad childrens aid know came therapest scapegoat yelled three hours straight chance arises told im horrible person her depite knowing would happen despite feeling broke down cried last night saying sorry didnt mean like this doesnt truly deserve this right wanted us never there remains relationship taken away nothing find impossible cry everytime expects it drains much defend much begin accept shes saying accept fate nightmares wanting dead entire family hating me without family nothing without family person broke this,1 @ultimusomnium It was great! Thank you very much!,0 emily will be glad when mommy is done training at her new job she miss her http apps facebook com dogbook profile view 0,0 "shares http://tinyurl.com/nsvg8a (watch nyo crazy karter, sweetlover! ) http://plurk.com/p/xd8oj",0 i m having a really hard time with my long distance bf right now he s going through a super low phase with his anxiety and every time we talk about anything emotional he shuts down he say talking about the emotion stress him out and any time i ask him how he s doing he responds with thing like i m okay i try to ask more question but he s just not giving me much we used to be super affectionate and connected but now i feel like we barely are sometimes i feel so far away from him physically obviously but mentally and emotionally i care a lot about emotional connection and i just really don t know what to do i ve read book listened to podcasts have my own therapist but i still can t help but feel super sad about it doe anyone have any advice,1 fuck youfuck yoy fuck whats point anymore,1 @shashee I was in a board meeting all day and just got into my room from IHOP ... Had to check in on my tweeps ,0 miss leave man feel empty inside friendships falling apart motivation anything anymore,0 barakasaimon what a toxic mom you can t just snatch my stuff like you don t care ima grow as now mom like what the fck were you thinking seriously am done living in this house am done doneee look what you have gotten me into am depressed depression ya nyokoo,1 wtf guys weve lied baby carrots arent actually babies theyre normal carrots cut up,0 on the surface i can think of a lot of reason feeling ashamed about needing med worrying about side effect forgetting about them etc but at the end of the day i can t say exactly why i just know i don t want to take my med at the same time i know i need them i know that without them i simple task like showering and doing dish feel impossible i ll fall behind on my schoolwork isolated myself and sleep hour a day i know they work for me and that i ve felt much better when i wa taking them regularly but dang it i just don t want to take them one day i just ignored my alarm to take them and then i ve kept doing it now i take them so sporadically that they can t be doing much they re an ssri and mood stabilizer so they need to build up in your system and such part of me think maybe i just hate the daily reminder that i m not ok like i think that maybe if i ignore it for long enough i ll forget that i feel that way but even knowing that may be a part of it it doesn t feel like that s all there is to it and i don t know what to do about it mostly i m just wondering if anyone else feel like this too and if you do do you know why you feel that way and what may have helped you get back on track with taking them regularly i ve talked to my therapist and friend but i haven t been able to really figure out the full reason i feel this way or how to get back to taking them regularly if you ve dealt with this before or think you may understand why this resistance to taking med is happening i d appreciate hearing some potential reason or way to improve this of course everyone s mental health is unique so i may not relate to someone else s reason but i would still really appreciate hearing any potential one so i can understand my feeling about this a bit better,1 quick message everyone breathing blinking manually looking amazing today,0 anyone else see things wayhttpiimgurcomhhftqbjpg decided make diagram better illustrate think suicidal thoughts positive negative signs represent good bad feelings life horizontal axis course life time cant seem handle roller coaster effect seen first part figure want make things simpler,1 "In Heb. 12:15, the Bible warns us to beware,"" """"...lest any root of bitterness springing up trouble you"","" and thereby many be defiled;"""" #Bitterness can lead to depression"", sexual sin, and others' corruption. But the #Bible gives us the cure for bitterness: https://bit.ly/2HtEzlB  pic.twitter.com/iGTdUaOJPM",1 tragicomedy written famous serbian theatrefilm writer dusan kovacevic probably one best movies ever made comedy category yet appearance theatre play transformed feature film takes nothing value masterpiece one miss see preferably subtitles dubbedbr br in aged bus en route capital belgrade looming war decides passengers behaviour two gypsy musicians sing miserable life also foresee tragedy come singing divides connects stages extraordinary road movie real life kostic brothers amateur actors together stanojlo milinkovic farmer whos plowed road give reallife performancebr br the spectrum characters gives brilliant image society facing war insight nations collective person everyone aware war begin try live lives best can hoping ignorance might avert tragedy using simple movie language director slobodan sijan paints picture society torn previous war world war i also highlights personal portraits success provincialism singer inexperience newlyweds seriousness great war veteran way visit recently conscripted son gloomy predictions man seems german spybr br brilliant narration memorable soundtrack especialy gispsy songs adjusted atmosphere well photographed edited feature sijans feature debut introduction series directors bittersweet comedies define serbian cinematography s maratonci trce pocasni krug kako sam sistematski unisten od idiota directors favourite davitelj protiv davitelja,0 know life hopeless continuing suffering end yourselfwhoever control life wont even let post reddit ill try anyway ampxb cmon think logically answer yes,1 after month of doin good i fucked up my depression hit hard and i isolated myself from everyone i stopped talking to my best friend which made her upset and now she want nothing to do with me she wa the last friend i had if i could tell her anything it s i m sorry i should ve been better friend tonight i m not smoking or drinking because i believe we can always get back on our foot someday,1 @ToYKillAS the real one is better I like peacefull people :-D,0 tooo early im running late,0 know handle social media anymorei major depression dealing years stopped using facebook brings worst me ive suicidal bouts past years ive trying different social media platforms maybe give up thing is feel lonely without pathetic is guess reddit really best place either seemed okay discovered hunters jerk pages dedicate time witch hunts voting trolling sake it episodes used cry lot cry all tried counseling going doctors even medication nothing seems work cant take internet cant handle real life anymore either way see things thoughts projected online thoughts people actually real life say them makes want withdraw inside myself got attached hunter page like play character video game overwatch heard it ask advice better everyone started attacking telling bad person playing character cant even ask general advice anymore without attacked put phone played game guy got mic started yelling guy playing character like telling bad aiming feel like theres way bad good world days feel really empty even though im happily married amazing husband loves works hard give fantastic life cant stand taking people feel scared letting people know worry know real theyll start hate me told friends depression accused opportunist started reading differently really hurt especially since waited months tell them opportunist would told much earlier even tell suicidal thoughts please talk me tell im wrong im sitting home alone husband cant talk negativity need help,1 terrified by the news from italy http tinyurl com dhdpne,0 baked cookies first time im guy finally made cookies lazy ass didnt wanna go store,0 came outer space ii good film good cast includes brian kerwin elizabeth pea jonathan carrasco adrian sparks bill mckinney dean norris dawn zeek lauren tewes mickey jones iilana btiste jerry giles howard morris acting actors good kerwin norris really excellent film thought performed good thrills really good surprising movie filmed good music great shirley walker film quite interesting movie really keeps going end good thrilling film like brian kerwin elizabeth pea jonathan carrasco adrian sparks bill mckinney dean norris dawn zeek lauren tewes mickey jones rest cast film mystery scifi thrillers dramas interesting action films strongly recommend see film today br br movie nuttballs note br br i noticed second film dean norris mickey jones movie together classic violent epic total recall funny seeing another alien flick br br if like alien movies andor subject aliens also recommend following films thing another world day earth stood still war worlds horror express ufo incident invasion body snatchers et extraterrestrial john carpenters thing krull return aliens deadly spawn time walker science project howard duck john carpenters starman john carpenters live mac me explorers invaders mars alien seed abyss communion suburban commando fire sky arrival mars attacks contact men black stephen kings dreamcatcher xtro watch skies battlefield earth saga year stargate puppet masters john carpenters village damned independence day life form contact xfiles fight future roswell aliens attack faculty mission mars pitch black evolution kpax signs silent warnings forgotten alien hunter spaceballs alien aliens alien predator predator avp alien vs predator entire star wars saga a new hope empire strikes back return jedi original special editions phantom menace attack clones revenge sith entire star trek movie saga star trek motion picture wrath khan search spock voyage home final frontier undiscovered country generations first contact insurrection nemesis stephen kings it,0 @TuesdayKnight heyyy purty lady!!! and thankies mamita ,0 lyn thanks hun didnt even no he wa going to be on pitty we couldnt see him sing,0 @iamkelis Okay you helped me make a decision about the two- I will see the Hangover today ,0 omg eyes like theyre uneven please dont even care abt look want eyeliner easier,0 tried life even worsei thought could confide longterm close friend im longer talking again feeling miserable desperate stop feeling way told tried kill saturday night friendroommate stopped me called cops told parents tried drug alcohol problem not family ever trust again decision making money own crisis center went wants put inpatient insist plead bargain roommate would watch go home day go back register counseling psychiatry im going lie feel cant myself friend getting tired watching afraid go out inpatient thing everyone last thing want do,1 alright guys im going bed hope everyone lovely day night etc anyone hard time cant guarantee get better know im hoping will goodnight,0 always say let dogs out but never let dogs ,0 psych wards worse prisonwhen emergency psych ward never knew gonna get out terrifying life outside suddenly hold chance explain anyone not anyone cares came learn maybe shouldnt cared didnt value life meant would even less control it utensils gave spoons plastic knives forks dangerous locks bathrooms people walking shit time mirrors trapped knowing leave scary trapped even given chance end life yourself,1 "It's important to not identify with your illness. You may have #depression, but you are not depression. Seeing a qualified Counsellor is key. http://www.asanahealth.co.uk/index.php/therapies/counselling-and-psychotherapy/20 …#TalkingTherapies https://twitter.com/Onlinevents_saz/status/988893007708499968 …",1 yeah sex cool ever teacher respond email minutes,0 join among us konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf,0 wish existmy family wants gone want gone mental illnesses get worse make every single aspect living pure hell still killing would cause much trouble wish never existed first place im sorry burden,1 videos pictures death videos photos always death youll eventually die youll already taken videos solved clickbait videos video taken death thank later,0 i have already given up on my life cuz i have realised no matter what i do nothing ever gon na make me happy happiness is an illusion a myth and it s always the next step like do this after that you will be happy do that you everything will be fine but that next step where the door of happiness exists never come we are always step step back to happiness most close you can get is that you can knock on the door,1 writing thislet absolutely clear know devastate family know devastate friends know devastate community let also clear saying depression made look horrific consequences realize simply willpower live life solely benefit others tomorrow going drown lake cold painful perfect quiet end quiet life perhaps lived longer would find something live for perhaps would make something myself perhaps none would happen year line kill anyway let cruelty hope drag another painful year know problems lie intrinsically within myself simply cannot bear longer sad seventeen years old im going hurt family ways even vengeful person dream of done sad tired goodbye,1 Wowzers not been on here for a while. I refuse to submit to the monday morning blues i'm guna smile allday ,0 im take mg g paracetamolim currently treatment previous overdose im feeling done saw family tonight made peace decision im feeling complete,1 bad hear bones arm rubbing head arm laying head arm moving arm around reason heard noise like hand goes across window,0 fifth vodka well reddit used king castle girl wanted marry wrapped up like good things times good true broke me belittled destroyed past month messy break up always manic depressive find little joy anything joy brightest star night said wanted children marriage around commitment i today said care live die relapsed sober months life really serve purpose anymore really cant find happiness anything life always felt meaningless i sit second guessing decision shooting heart acp going midnight time fear death fear loved ones told even were together still want whatever takes make happy staying life completely stated why fucking kill already tried failed like always failure never amount anything want degree astronomy wtf going fucking failure die ask today may seem sloppy ive posted here however quite impaired cant seem find reasons go plan already last words paper directed ex love nothing harsh blame memories good times reminding even though wants dead still support everything wants takes make happen her edit well odd strange turn events texted morning sorry bitch doesnt understand cant man get over explained things made believe hard eventually asked ever sees us said year likely told year ill probably loving someone else crush person her got mad said dont talk me bye said okay bye,1 "just landed, home at last can't wait to get back to my bed ",0 anyone sleep deprived same hour stream fun twitchtvdozer_gaminghttpsmtwitchtvdozer_gaming,0 you know a monday s really bad when it spill over to tuesday,0 haha hey wanna talk im kinda bored,0 wanna know im alone anyone else think relationships rated ive lead on let heart broken past done feeling emotion forming super close bonds people ive grown shell bit wanna smash go anyone me,0 nobody gets enough love anymore people say attractive people think world lot polite actually is think sucks world polite accepting black friends get lot hate online person like wtf fault born way im make internet little polite heres virtual hug and maybe kiss deserve it notice pain want know well love hope made daynight little better suffering take hug anyways love amazing people incredible talents personalities,0 cant see option redflag makes sense father regrets becoming dadive terrible headspace mentally since daughter born months ago negative headspace results knowing child mistake me life pregnancy actually unintentional partners religious beliefs made room abortion decided go ahead it married weve together years love daughter many unresolved issues life becoming dad people become father position optimal mean already probably lived care free stage life wanted lead theyve wild fun s theyve made connections last life time entered fatherhood considered life mostly failure suffered anxiety depression s never fun others have theres huge part feels unlived never live without abandoning child bring do furthermore ive always incredibly introverted point feel genuinely upset cant alone far back years old used go bedroom hide people came visit house value alone time despite mental health difficulties best ways ive taken advantage ability alone going solo travel trips different cities cannot feasibly next years minimum internal conflict regretting becoming father did wanting live different life much handle people might say theres middle way could separate partner least provide child support rest life play healthy role childs upbringing see viability middle way would lead guilt partner left hard work so arrive redflag best solution splitting partner would lead daughter feel unloved unwanted grows issues come that killing leaving note says due mental health difficulties cope would least provide reason furthermore id age daughter understand im gone know probably need help therapy honestly cant ever overcome feeling living life wrong gone way everyone else happy fathers subreddit s probably wild youth full happy memories thats me,1 im stupid stupid stupidim incompetent stupid lazy brothers biggie used close fucked higher ed third chance play sports sociable lil bro epileptic currently private school hes best hope idiot somewhen childhood stopped sociable still shy different id mumble myself soon schools id lock indoor nothing stopped studying too theres guest id run room hide habits die highschool decided want live town still started studying though think ive completely stopped studying outside classroom stayed enroll school dad teaches woulda saved lot money waste lot less time regret everything enroll night class program second grade college useless degree matter ive learnt nothing anyway ive burden whole life theres way could survive this stop burden end soon can,1 @NIMHgov 8 weeks of meditation training has been found to help people dealing with depression. #meditation #depression,1 attention hand cum,0 dont know whats happeningtoday bad stupidly thought cured realise delusional phase again dissociating shower past hours im wrecked shocked im place again anyone else wschizophrenia delusional disorders ever convince theyre sane mind always horrible time delusion breaks ,1 @Shawnieceqb until next thursday! But we might give ya a extra week 4 holdin us down on twitter! ,0 im birthday party people dislike hope get drunk enough go iti really wish could go home cry sleep without offending anybody reason nobody host really wants even seem like invited unwillingly want go club afterwards feel uncomfortable tag along even though part plan popular club means prices high people pretty snobby elitist room dancing people furious slightly touch accident feels like economic statement activity one fun meanwhile im supposed go looking like abomination horror movie thats putting effort looks disgusted sheer sight hideous body without even talked and im sure would make things worse problem is promised somebody could crash place flat mates uptight either go get apartment trust enough give keys either wish said cant come unfortunately im sucker social interaction take opportunity not many probably makes worse even pretty much know theyll make miserable that ive realised yet another reason life waste resources achieved anything im liked anywhere everything destined fail straightup feel cursed point intention continue living life whatsoever tried ending life once unfortunately survival instincts seemed kick in wish knew turn off would make things much easier actually im waste least waste recycled cant be im actually worse trash,1 share mental breakdown playlist mine im disappointment httpsopenspotifycomplaylistjoixbcbpbxvpyccqaesiqjhxoesriqyl_rgqafg,0 went breakup girl wants stay friends want hurt know painful me better friends cannot even one becuase still feelings hurts much know considering blocking everything contact get know hurt her also try think negative things order lose feelings still working sad scared know need advice,1 group members always shit lazy care stuff solo order get marks also get free credits peanuts hate itgive x test exam individual assignment fine it group assignment literally killing inside triggers redflag depression insomnia cannot sleep without thinking will lend hand tomorrow will pass assignmentfuck group assignment every group members ever school group assignment killing,1 depressed feel like accepting never anything great value hate everything myself feel alone even friends bf family feel inescapably sad lonely trying get job lockdown lifting shit show feel like honest people succeed impossible get anywhere unless know powerful people somehow convince help youi pathetic crazy feel ugly inside out feel like want peel skin off take shower water feels like rough sand hitting skin feel worthy washing feels bad wash eat sleep nothing feels goodi medication shit even worse without it feel like done everything wrong everyone mad know fix it getting shit chest,1 want watch world burnim sick tired feeling sick tired im done nightmares every night want weighed depression want made victim anymore want part world anymore choose born fk world never wanted this,1 cant deal fact mental illnesses anymorei cant deal anymore diagnosed bipolar generalized anxiety disorder adhd teens diagnosed major depression psychotic features latest diagnosis saw anymore im different medications abuse adhd meds like crazy thing find makes feel good cant deal fact im going taking medication forever almost nothing help feel better like exercise diet like previously thought cant deal fact ill always way nothing ever change that way live since last wednesday think killing myself always mind cant stop thinking it family know deal this bother them ive hospitalized times cant put again feel like theres nothing anymore theres nothing left here want anymore hobbies interests friends dropped school job though ive applying everywhere since beginning month cant sleep well feel world me thanks reading,1 my throat is always closed up and today it feel like someone ha their hand on my neck i get burning skin and twitch in my eye and so many other thing it make the mental battle that i go through 0 time harder i wish i could have a day off,1 wanna talk someone tried help friends problems asked pushed away one talk anything uhh interests anime video games uhhh thats really it im dead inside asshole smart ass think sakuta bunny girl senpai anyway wanna talk someone interests stuff none irl friends actually interests anime video games kinda lonely names alex anyones interested,0 nikola right live see manmade horrors beyond comprehension,0 my wife f wa doing great losing weight by walking and dieting but she expressed sn interest in working out in a gym so i bought her a gym membership for christmas a higher package that includes tanning and massage besides just the work out equipment she go night a week now after work i do kid duty in the evening after work and then just sit at home by myself if i ever try and make time for myself it is interrupted by work or home life i love my family to death would do anything for them but i have burning the candle at both end and never see any relief in sight it never stop someone always need something someone always want to bitch about something it just doesn t stop never i just want something for myself to go golfing uninterrupted to get a haircut without my phone buzzing my only release is yoga at night when the kid are in bed i know i should do it in the morning but i am just exhausted and can t i work 0 hour a week make sure all the bill are paid pick up the house every evening make dinner to time a week do homework with the kid every nigh do the dish do all the yard work and house upkeep i m just done i m spent and i feel like i can t take a second off or i will let someone down or be deemed selfish doe anyone else feel this way,1 finally reign supreme family thats right ladies gentlemen half long years finally happened achieved father brothers feeble bodies could not passed six foot mark clocking glorious possibly still rising brother may still bulk yeet across room ease mere hes nothing joke point achieved level dominance next goal,0 corpses fans opposite fans try cancel every opportunity get lol recently started rumor fucking dog,0 doneim going kill tonight im behind bills hope daughter forgives,1 reddit survived redflag attempt months agoa months ago wife asked divorce finally got around talking realized treated poorly really messed up wanted make things right already moved want try option felt atone done wife amazing person theres excuse way treated her felt appropriate punishment death i rather hard myself took inch knife stabbed chest missed heart i aiming heart puncture lung going take hour wouldve died punctured lung complications herehttpimgurcomwhqb warning hairy man chest picture right now knife wound upper middle portion picture scar left side inserted chest tube vacuum chest cavity reinflate lung and suck stray blood wife called police found shortly stabbed drifting consciousness taken hospital patched sent inpatient psych im medications really help course im lot therapy well two months later im feeling ok im still here forgive acted marriage feel good around thing want people take away crisis get help get medication resistant drugs first literally took pit despair make therapy effective,1 poor mel feeling your pain,0 convince parents let transfer seriously hateeeee school im right constantly get talked shit about lost almost friends want fresh start im incoming sophomore parents keep saying switching schools like running away problems anyone experience transferring schools do,0 Why aren the kardashians the most entertaining people on twitter along with the Disney girls ,0 waste management day mafia crime boss night ,0 today vaccinated today gone make vaccine beacose yo feel stupid beacose born like feel autistic karen explain,0 @dancinontops my depression: over,1 jillianfish tweet something damn it and hang out with me please,0 things going hill ever since porn ban happened tumblr idk man tumblr porn hit different,0 homosexuality sin cares bible says so also says forgive sins dont tell sin,0 guys need som help need come superhero school give names please,0 ask someone cant start conversations theres girl really like want ask out know how know other were friend group well play jackbox stuff sometimes talk except group together were chatting cause im really shy good joining conversations classes ive reading bunch advice says strike conversation her cant that know start conversations like cant even strike conversation guy friend chat every day literally people school ive every really started conversation with way able start talking her ask out,0 that overnight screwed up my sleep,0 please help idk ami want soccer time want track want art piano guitar perfect grades learn thatetc etc etc know want ,1 rather annoying reviewers keep comparing planet earth course planet earth better much much same earth like extended trailer planet earth series such inevitably inferior simplified comparing like likebr br as featurelength documentary or actually featurelength anything surpasses pretty much anything see entire life unless choose traverse earth helicopters longrange cameras years end wait months extreme environments catch glimpse extraordinary beings earth lets face unlikelybr br on narration yes everyone uk much including adores david attenborough theres little excuse narrating here hardly deserves knocking star three presenter planet earth narrator im sure hes modest gracious enough realise anything gets viewers good thingbr br anyone sees overwhelmed awe majesty glory reviewers agree that love ie everyone willshould go see buy planet earth three cheers cinematic release big boooo anyone cheap enough buy dvd rather planet earth boxset works art theyre competition peoplebr br the earth big enough both,0 OH SHIT! family force 5 is gonna play at great america! shweeettt ,0 why is it so hot today,0 know anymoredont really know im posting since think im really looking someone talk sympathy anything like that guess ill blunt want kill myself know im going to im afraid went painful experience ive ever want go again guess wish way would fail painless accessible me theres not feel abandoned lonely right one person life felt comfortable enough talk emotions feeling told feeling aforementioned blue mind you response basically i think im able speak anymore thats fair enough guess burdened knowledge issues problems worry about really needy selfish put them regardless feel angry betrayed right anyone talk to know people around might available talk feel like trust anyone let alone comfortable enough talk stuff with describe crippling anxiety depression im feeling anybody really talk anymore ive decided try see gp know actually will thinking going place nearly induces anxiety attack want things change im thinking selfharming again see pretty edgy thing used long time ago help suppress thoughts feelings redflag depression still bear scars last time kind stuff completely destroys selfconfidence know really looking approval anything im thinking loud point again really know im posting purpose is wanted get guess sorry wasting time,1 think masturbated lil hard low sounds quarantine phone sex cuz cant see wasnt close cumming said close gripped dick really hard cum think fucked hour later round tip dick pains finna night im hella scared,0 talk problems every time try talk depression theres always someone saying sad theres people worse me yeah like already know fucko thanks making feel invalid,0 know whats wrong me need help desire kill myself often moments seems like viable desirable option preface let say always strange self esteem issue friends family self esteem high truly hate human often go self hate benders last night long involve compiling reasons care hate ass death would positive thing worst part is reason upset reason hate bad rather persistent bullies elementary school even remember well guess started believe time became part am time fine love life love everything one percent hate point think would benefit end existence tonight girlfriend long discussion it said could bipolar currently studying psychology this first year college idea weather true girlfriend amazing person life says self hate hurting loves much makes hate more question need professional help think get own male helps thanks advance read rules posting would like clarify want know fine people think need psychiatric help edit forgot mention something important self hate benders usually beat ever loving shit myself blame tripping something stupid one time sibling mentioned weight issue im even fat slightly weight went self hate mode carved word fat onto stomach knife,1 dont know anymorefeeling life drastically go drain im starting fail school get drugs dreading waking everyday horrible society thought never able pass school seeing black darkness future great literally ok killing scared dying realizing lonely dont talk anyone realizing fucked life permanently wont probably live agreeing kill whenever dad dies considering dads human love earth great,1 "Your MindSmith© has many #therapists that can help you with #depression, #anxiety, #stress and the challenges of everyday life and much more. #therapy #personalised #confidential #experts #understanding #treatment #depressed #stressed #panic http://ow.ly/tHpw30jr8eJ ",1 Finally landed in memphis. Missed our connecting flight. Supposedly they have us all worked out so we will see. ,0 reason im herei know it though feels scary,1 genuine questions would like opinion multiple peopleim debating killing soon another choice break someone kill myself bad write redflag note one specific got boyfriend almost years write person im contact note know im close enough someone include note,1 know anymorei dont know living anymore feel like sinner cant forgiven dont deserve life ive given im years old im porn addict cant stop it one point life gay sex cousin brother ive ruined life feel like alive forced me jerk cousin sisters sometime feel like pathetic losser cant forget much losser really am really dumb fell like cant grown anymore dont understand life supposed meaningful people even feel like deserve life hopeless dumb pathetic losser cant get addiction fiest encounter rd grade years old see everyone better failure think world better place left besides sinner worthless think im gonna kill myself know ppease helpj,1 in twitting mode/mood today yay,0 @DJSMOOK I love that Andy is back too. I used to watching them back in the day. Remember the "Stare Down" ,0 spoilers aheadbr br it really unfortunate movie well produced turns bebr br such disappointment thought full silly clichs andbr br that basically tried hard br br to american guys there many spend yourbr br time jumping girlfriends bed making monkeybr br sounds married girls many suddenlybr br gone prudes nymphos overnightbut yourbr br husband french would really ask someonebr br being la fac know speak french wouldntbr br you use common word like universit br br i lived france sort know understandbr br europe and love it german roommate found thisbr br pretty insulting overall looked like movie funded thebr br european parliament tried hard basically allbr br sorts differences tried tie together not bad thing inbr br itself result best awkward fact ridiculoustoobr br many clashes really happen end thebr br moviethe last minutesruined rest xavierbr br talk erasmus students meets back paris doesbr br he walk off run away job thatbr br freedom end new europe supposed rest onbr br a bunch people smoke shag day whatbr br its made of br br besides acting pretty horrible cant believe judithbr br godrches role acting made look likebr br emanuelle bart much first thought xavier ok butbr br with retrospect think pretty bad br br and thats really bad technically opening creditsbr br scenes hes asking papers needs reallybr br good except sound editing around british siblings thebr br soundtrack great too form good contentbr br pretty horrible,0 @TSM_Myth @D_eh_go Its not just depression. It's accepted cuz everyone likes the feeling it gives you.,1 pendulum calls itsomethings wrong cant figure tearing relationship amazing person apart emotions seem unstable dont want argue hurt couldnt stop everythings fault always fault im mess think running away im afraid fixing things cause never works im constantly saying things anger make things work just dont know wrong me stupid doubts fears want go away im tired loophole ive made dont think could ever get it want sleep wake one deal anymore,1 fellow teens share another valuable piece information today make war love virginity cool,0 anyone wanna talk disocrd back shit lol one talk dm user tag,0 poggers train cancelled trains college since am way am cancelled due flooding man sure love english weather college today tho good,0 bet someone gives shittoday friend bad day know struggle us heard bit started getting worried texted them time passed got worried messages staying delivered finally called heard voice almost cried im crier meant much hear them know you know story bet theres someone worries you would cry relief hear voice cant promise ill reply comments kind message bottle hope makes least one person needs it,1 nervousand restless anticipation inevitable demise drink quite heavily enough im actually surprised even years im physically dependant it death seemingly unknown ive heard must peaceful end chose here shall ultimately critique played game ill leaving coming weeks possibly months hopefully sooner still coming terms it everyone to die someday obviously ive decided go early,1 need venthi dont really know start begin ill say need simple can im suicidal no havent cut hurt myself havent stood edge building wishing could muster courage leap off havent put gun head wishing could pull trigger ive severely depressed years since young dont know why maybe im obese maybe social anxiety maybe im sort joke whatever higher power is loving family friends care me got whatever wanted since young always close mom dad always wanted writer creator tv show cartoon something would able show different kinds characters good despite skin color sexual identity was thought thousands ideas story never skilled enough write like professional find even pitch suxh show even animate often feel like wasted potential wanted great couldnt anything make right friends weight began feel lonely time sure friends spend time me cant help feel disconnected like theyre bothered me waste time dont feel like im one deserves millions others never got chance born recently mom died one closest to dad cancer im fearful come back refuses stop smoking matter much try beg quit stopped long cant deal parents gone brother one seemed everything work right highschool always wants attempt get job learn drive stuff im lazy ill honest put year highschool learning drive roads crippling fear getting wreck hurting someone else getting fined something wrong scary im sure getting job wouldnt bad im afriad couldnt asked since overweight would get fired reprimanded it im afraid means im losing free time ill never able play games stuff love anymore piling once driving stress job stress weight dad potentially sick loneliness dont know do sleep lay bed motivation left want fall asleep dream forever dont deserve life im using it stop existing,1 jadedjust know keep going forward sort happiness stability badly want life better part knows im hated huge embarrassment used ampcheated mate lost pretty much friends im alcoholic coke head work hard but always get cast never fit fuck addictions get attached fast men love me ive living like since remember know im mentally ill point continuing try life going bring misery,1 currently am sad every night miss old times as year ago would hang girl best friends always compared couple not social anymore never hang anymore used go outside stay place watch movie something cant stop thinking moments watching old videos like this life much worse now always sad makes sad idk im posting wanna tell someone,0 im haunting friends among us rn dont know ban someone im renaming chase call dont speak english,0 im love egirl mom took away ps ive said many times live keep collecting every little slights insurrections constant pain every dimension,0 dead inside feel nothing mercy given me keep falling deeper fucked head cannot even comprehend it reality forget am try everyday cannot live illness memories know end road feel defeated,1 cant wait shitty valentines day posts tomorrow listen bro dont valentine either stop reminding stop posting internet,0 andreabakes oh gee insomnia suck have you tried melatonin,0 good time allits weird im literally reddit every day yet posted times due massive situation look post history actually funny played ultimately almost everything dropped bought new car even desperate situation this last week massively terrible like massively went back school first time three half years semester okay know happened within last two weeks snapped work overnight job fulltime go school mornings became switch went work school home homework work school etc five days week im already insomniac since work nights always sort handled would drink nights listen music would make happy would inspire five nights option last week bad finals week ended working schedule overnight mothers day came back hours later mothers day afternoon shift hours later rush school final presentation finals ended missing tuesday one due oversleeping since literally time able sleep three days wednesday another final went okay wednesday overnight worked thursday morning went home work final get done friday morning well paper online class due friday call work thursday night minutes shift even though im supervisor literally could get twelve hour extension programming final would allowed sleep since then ive massive disarray got massive argument manager logistics random things even make sense means basically mad called out yet third call four years quit last semester school took dropped classes time needed needed get done literally call fail course decided go see second favorite band tell username favorite one is headlined skate surf asbury park sunday ended zoning halfway show good time all even got angry decided play extra minutes played songs happy normal day hear also front center people got front see one favorite bands everyone else attendance behind me felt nothing then festival mainly street parking forgot parked thought knew asbury well never put tag originally parked would funny cases would simply go bar drunk enough go find without worrying gaslight anthem song ends saying we could sleep beach night would totally done happy reason panic attack ran two half miles blocks see sentence someone extremely shocked even happened started walking wrong direction thankfully officer went pizza shop and though sweaty shaking worst panic attack life drove around found it im here hours later feeling better know point post was got diagnosed depression three years ago dropped school bad this bad weeks ive usually always able handle it recently umno hurts saw one favorite bands band countless times made feel good even better current situation feet away even work time,1 is ready for ATL this weekend with the Sands!! We're going to have sooo much fun ,0 "@noodles2007 You're clearly the best cousin ever. I just took mine to ice cream, right after their mom said no to it. I'm baaaaaaad. ",0 muzzzza ur a bad a kateedwards,0 Anxiety so real and depression too ,1 told im using makeup contacts stuff im crying yelling yelling shoving broom face tell im taking stuff bathroom shelves cleared off now thing mine bathroom toothbrush tooth paste nbsp i cant live like thisi cant anymore,0 might play song repeat next week december frankie vali seasons fucking slap might listen times week depends feel,0 le supporter de seahawks regardant le supporter de autres quipes rentrer en depression apr s le trade d un franchise player http t co oy0e kaf r,1 want fucking diei hate away school hate home ive always wanted die option gets appealing every day weak staying strong realizing amount lifes bullshit want withstand dont want live anymore think thats totally valid,1 feeling like shit ive never wanted kill ever nowthe fact depression decided fuck boyfriend hurts lot fun till started break feel like shit him never break depression eating hit like fucking truck felt like shit started crying left ive never done before first time hit hard fact leave house strange hit hard time ive crying fucking hours havent stopped since dont know depression getting way want selfharm badly either kill tonight need break feeling like shit time fuck life im done emotions constantly feeling like shit constant basis feeling like shit im boyfriend thats crossing fucking line dont get wrong im glad boyfriend tries help fucking christ feel awful tonight know im going feel awful tomorrow want kill im probably going later tonight really early morning dont know anyways end killing self oh well fuck it ,1 "@Faith_Mariex It's almost become cool to have anxiety or depression. Like, mental illness isn't cool. It's absolutely terrible. The terms are so over used it's disgusting.",1 fuckim fat ugly im never eating again need get skinny girlfriend meets me ever misfortune so wish hundred pounds thatd sexy cut first time weeks think dont even keep track anymore always end making resorting back pathetic self destructive ways dads right im attention whore teenage girl tantrum want shoot front him want mentally fuck up everything hes done times called fat times said acted like mom times called whore dyke times beat times pushed stairs times threw drink times hed lock room fucking everything deserves deserves it still want stab myself right fat fucking thigh dont know why need to,1 koschbob jonathanhatami the great depression saw crime spike to it highest point in the u especially in regard to theft when job don t pay enough and cost keep rising people who aren t able to lean on supporter or debt resort to crime in order to make it or fall into homelessness amp squalor,1 glamgirlgargiee beleg bur or bhal hoisiii o exam huni huni moi depression t gusi goisiiii,1 contained disk first rate show first rate band disc faint heartthe music incredibly intense cool learn watch movie huge long true records great shows top heap concert shot screaming teenie boppers threw jelly beans beatles gone bands and audiences settled long often amazing displays musical virtuositysomething audiences intellectual curiosity pursue age canned music britney christina especially learn amazing things happen gifted musicians encouraged improvise try concert out really amazing,0 need advice got new online friend grouppretty normal theres girl subtly hinting things towards me think likes me subtly called hot literally said would kiss me im genuine confused likes friendly jokes need advice,0 unsure suicidal may may bedoes anybody else ever doubt legitimacy suicidal thoughts will recent last months ive found looking redflag appealing manner constantly wondering truly suicidal intrusive thoughts list things effectively justify redflag reason find hard believe myself difficult explain somebody understands im interested thanks,1 "Mom's depression tied to kids' emotional, intellectual development http://dlvr.it/QQmx4Z  pic.twitter.com/KXBW40vzTD",1 ugh can t sleep wish i had a good cuddle to make me as out,0 thought id share know lot like video games recommendation beyond wire ww tactical shooter made cooperation developers squad based base game opinion extremely enjoyable much fun last days playing it really think check maybe youtube something still early access need ironing still incredibly fun slow paced needs action packed want be thought id recommend maybe could give small dev team support allow easily achieve potential also amazing soundtrack anyway thanks reading guys,0 Depression isn't the black hole. Depression is the gravity.,1 thoughts ramblingsnot really sure im writing this guess need get out probably ive never told anyone ive always hated things end without solid conclusion one kids obnoxiously talented time jr olympic team headed olympic team spent two summers training current olympic coach last student took retiring end second summer together told never trained someone reminded much himself compliment id ever heard give well school recruited several colleges life far perfect path achieving biggest dream shit fell apart almost death went numb kept going motions kept competing normally good grades became flawless felt dead inside one day like someone flipped switch every damn emotion id ever suppressed came flooding back vengeance fell hopeless depression getting bed became daily struggle went top five class almost failing school credit teachers everything could keep failing succeeded went top college nation sport although gave scholarship id quit sport struggled throughout first semester college end first semester healthy first time years healthy energetic happy vividly remember stringing lights onto christmas tree plugging wall flickered on like id colorblind suddenly could see again absolutely mesmerizing think one last happy memories have christmas went back second semester school things fine first month got deathly sick hospitalized degree fever strep mono three sinus infections that struggled rest semester ended failing classes mono stripped energy brought back depression worse before weight cycled completely emaciated slightly overweight either stuffing starving myself picked habit picking skin constantly covered scabs scars drank shameful things hid regret weeks afterwards managed finally fail properly sophomore year spiraling depths depression ive never since come up ive gone years numbness ive done cbt hypnotherapy tried every drug could throw me tried specialized diets ect even experimental drugs literally thousands dollars parents money wasted fruitless attempt make feel again im exhausted every part every day internal struggle body haggard breaking down ive slowly extracted every important relationship life could see pain causing around me stand it ive researched ways go plan least organs use people still see joy life deserve keep living wish it,1 why won t twitter let me change my picture,0 rteenagers doesnt let teenager mean seriously think care title interesting standards let title post loving fact slow dont wait npcs final fantasy remake ff,0 classic dramaaction western incredible cinematography well ahead time production good tell done pride loveunique peek american northt west pioneers educational entertainingthis movie rated people like see reality many lawmen particular time place crookedcorrupt much like developing countries todaythe action sequences could realistic though stillthis movie really covers essentialsnot audience wants pure testoterone type westerns movie sense history philosophy,0 tiredeverything life gone shit past years want end theres way,1 apology if this is confusing i m having an anxiety attack while writing this like most people at the start of the pandemic i got sent to wfh which eventually turned into permanent wfh i loved it my job doesn t involve speaking with people unless it s on my own time and i m only in charge of a handful of people and only deal with the people who need the most help i got to sink into my own little bubble and it s coming back to bite me i ve realized my social anxiety ha gotten so much worse than it ever ha i have so much fear just speaking to other people that i feel insane acting like this recently a promotion became available and i don t want to apply i made the dumb mistake of telling my partner about the opening and he s pressuring me to do it i feel physically sick at the idea of doing this some of it is because i m going to be judged but a lot of it is because i will have to do more in the sense of talking to people i can t get away with meeting a month with people i already know it will be constant employee contact and even meeting with people i don t know i m stressed if the pandemic had never happened i could do it i use to be able to flick a switch and become a whole different person at work who only had minimal anxiety now because home is work i can t feel that separation i try to make my work in a different location within my house but it s not easy with my house set up i know i m going to have to do it whether i want to or not because we need the money and the benefit also i wouldn t be able to forgive myself if i didn t at least try but i m so scared i m worried if i do get it that i will be having constant anxiety attack until i m use to the job i just don t know if i can mentally handle that i m worried if i don t get it i will just be constantly overthinking and causing myself anxiety over not being good enough it s a lose lose situation for me and there isn t anything i can do i just want to run away and bury my head in the sand but i can t so i ll do it knowing the consequence and hope for the best,1 help please messedup rn lost everything need couple dollars parishrmack sleep outside best find work also smell bad starving n want money food last resort start stealing food give proof please someone anyone crying help,1 always get high sad ughis america boring fuck ugh fuckin zombies ughhh wanna sleep witch might money help drugs dont help sex wont well know ugh humans useless evolving stupid devices im sick know ughhhhh fuck im losing one reply please,1 dead luckyi cant help think died lucky theres pain stress depression family friends homework work nun bliss want dont wanna wait anymore,1 really want diei really understand whats even wrong redflag matter want kill myself going hurt jobless miserable person leave earth care anyone hurt theyll get anyways really want out things looked forward even spark joy anymore hate everything living wish easier ways kill myself ive making pro con lists different ways redflag want find easiest one want risk coming back really wish could die want wake tomorrow,1 http://tinyurl.com/ry9wap Hi there! How are you? Wanna know more about me? I can email you some my pictures. Please give me your emai ...,0 returned viewing academy awardnominated doc thoroughly touched interested exploring works fellow id never heard before course im someone whos captivated beautiful architecture realize others carebr br we imagine couple visionaries philadelphia back late s kahns plans possibility wonderful city center would be wonder whether see bangladesh building beginning movie patient provide climax film end br br his sons personal discoveries process making film quite interesting sometimes touching even funny times one comical antivisionary rants ever captured camerabr br rounding good points doc touching musical score excellent expressive string music expressiveness major point found kahns architecture points made architects spiritual nature matter kahns buildings brought tie together overall experience movie,0 mom came lesbian today might get downvoted hell feel like homophobe im totally comfortable mom gf im trying get it cant needed advice dont understand why im sad af now also gf ugly maybe thats reason idk please dont hate homophobic im trying accept way is maybe need advice emotional support,0 i barely function and can t do basic thing due to how bad my anxiety is can get i berate and criticize myself for being such a pathetic worthless piece of shit i m almost live with my parent and have accomplished nothing i never passed the high school ged i have some minor learning difficulty but too embarrassed to get help i suffer from depression but i don t feel comfortable seeing a therapist and where i live there are few health care resource i don t own a driver license because being in and near car cause me to have panic attack i m terrified of being in a car accident or causing one so i have to avoid it and there isn t public transport near me but even if there wa i can t handle being around a crowd or in a small group in a limited space i m just a fucking wreck and feel so awkward and abnormal compared to most of the world i have no friend irl only a few online friend and haven t been completely honest with them and sometimes lie so they don t see how fucking pathetic i am i m ashamed of my existence and wish i wa never born i m just a burden the people around me don t understand and get frustrated with me i don t want to be this way but whenever i go out an inch from my comfort zone i have an anxiety attack,1 thing keeping alive inability think method people love believe accident wantthrowaway obviously metaphor struggle depression writer plenty articles write cant focus anymore think exboyfriendnot want back im kind crazybut strung along fwb posting much hated me posting lies me acting kind enough face couldnt found reddit use independently said spoke afraid would kill didnt cant kill hed vindicated hate taking option away regrettably friends want take sides alternate partynights main friend hosts believe friends care me one good friend outside circle town loyal friends international now cant go them know make new friends know anyone would want friend fat failing twentysomething guts apply work abroad barely enough work making money alli live home parents truly love me though would never want find body bathtub want die broken heart know live one problems big enough justify redflag disinterested living anymore edit adding exs betrayal evidence four years picked good man ex first boyfriend since sexual assault sexual assault man love abandoned over,1 yet yet find someone whos come within hours listening time spotify dont faith,0 one main reason im still im afraid afteri read many conflicting opinions around topic afterlife best case scenario absolutely nothing heaven hell terrifies thinking could something like hell reincarnation hell christians eternal damnation constant suffering never ending torment reincarnation russian roulette could lucky unlucky depending part world family people believe prison planet escape endless cycle life death via reincarnation ruled evil aliens feed negative emotions suffering theory scares even more true literally point redflag die reborn second later guys think,1 Watching http://bit.ly/16Mm0H about #google #wave. Looks good. Now can I have nice android phone please? ,0 is setting up her new macbook! ,0 guys got orange logo back finally orange logo guys feel that,0 "@AppSecEU09 my gf thinks i went to Krakow to drink beer and watch good looking girls, are there pictures available??? ",0 drugs really coolsedatives really much affect me oxyz percs form narcotic even weed guess high tolerance amphetamines good graduated highschool long ago constant contact dealer much before car bike bike lives hour away theres really dangerous intersection would cross order get place im thinking could bike eyes closed red light on since getting hit car highway going speed likely kill me get hit kill me ill least feel something get hit all score speed currently thing know make life feel worth while even little bit seems like winwinwin me,1 much homeworkim getting hours homework every day cant spend time family friends barely time talk girlfriend parents yell manage time better really difficult cause usually get like hours sleep every night cant wake early cause feel emotionally deprived anything wanted drop college classes parents let me get yelled spending time anyone everyone thinks im lazy really im drained fucking thing every day want kill ends im tired shit,1 failed attempt weeks ago thought id shaken up feel hollowmy brother gifted magnificent vintage rifle years ago one old russian rounds given misfired gave life decided shoot head mouth ive tried explaining story people asked before either received silence return generic responses life get better your meant something greater it meant be referring living right now part wants type series events lead right now another part keeps repeating trying create pity party myself dont know anymore even energy type incredibly long detailed message here hell im entirely sure even know im typing this out set another date though figure least way ill get see family go fullproof method cant fuck like before always read stories redflag survivors always say regretted it well thing regret using old ammunition,1 guys think vaccine idk might wait like months first wave people take comes kinda seems little rushed tbh,0 get pm links sites redflag methods known troll please use message moderators link right copypast pm message us take there please take personally pathetic person apparently nothing send dozens poisonous messages,1 girl watched prnhub story am happy new year playing roblox jailbreak next thing saw friend didnt end good terms like make things right fix relationship something goodto start year apologize said reacted later cuaght see going life since using zoom decided screenshare show memes reddit jokingly said funny watched porn said sure not like u sure confirm looked pornhub catalog see anything worthy enough watch awked liked anime did hentai is watch wholesome funny hentai enjoyed it went back hub watch to overall year started well,0 this is it,1 "Time for a shower and french toast. No, not together. ",0 ideathings keep getting worse worse like life im kid early life bad hell hope future wanted actor model cant im fucking ugly repulsive wanted doctor something area medicine cant im dumb af blessed bad teachers teach and know older classmates ended also knowing math im ugly broke talentless skills whatsover im dumb artisticcreative skills less pain still hurts much already cut legs early age keep coming cut more stop ive enough life please stop stop pain im tired suffering much,1 And congratz to you Miley for your video music award! ,0 anyone talk girl problems thats dude thinks knows everything women seriously every time try talking problems ive girl always another dude tells shes thinking girls like need someone tell straightforward yes without girls way sometimes king keep trying,0 far away place stood wondering whether be right journey led me place sought long time then feel accomplished sacrifices made worth presence here choose wrong way herethis place wonderful truly is feels wrong thinking going back feels even worse belong belong anymore goal finish line fool planning beyond that really does even sure going therecan continue without certainty get better allowed feel sad paradise offence stayed behind cheering me betraying past self fulfilling expectations head mess right now day passes know losing self doubt grief darknessi tired tired beating myself want ask help i happy not short text wrote month ago where now,1 Retweeting @jquipp: Search Engine People Named One of Canada’s Fastest Growing Companies by Profit Magazine http://bit.ly/A3XRA --> ,0 coworkers talking im snob im right next work want diei know anxiety depression probably ptsd maybe aspergers i fucking idea cant function im normal im uncomfortable around cant genuine unable open vulnerable make connection anyone cant communicate im anxious depressed ive trying sooooooo fucking hard past two years im ready give up im crying car lunch want go walk intersection end everything things make happy partner cats get spend hour two day whats point,1 first person make laugh get anything make laugh ok epic particularly susceptable never ending horde among us shitpost memes sense humour good ok,0 just been given ma marching order got ta go do some work yay,0 theekween depression,1 i just found out i wa unsuccessful in applying for the hampshire probation job fb,0 went hopeful recovering apathy depressed selfharmingi guess title really says all im feeling suicidal began selfharming year know kickstarted cant change thing want know cope whats going right now anyone words wisdom set mind straight kick selfharming habit get redflag mind start feeling hopeful again,1 Happy mothers day tu all moms out there !!,0 tf redacted mean redacted,0 @iKristy Monthy Python samozÅ™ejmÄ› znám O Ä?em jsou Black Books?,0 sick poor livesicknesses blind one eye scarred retina birth hypothyroidism undiagnosed stomach condition told barrettes stomach gastro paresis kidneys arent filtering blood correctly some sort porphyria get nauseated every meal pukedry heave hours sit hot shower turns cold sit cold shower hour nearly hypothermic sometimes hot water dump ice water head body shock sickness away seconds gives terrible colds add misery ended hospital four days became dehydrated kidneys shutting muscles cramping lack sodium given scopolamine zofran morphine stable enough hold bite pancake sent home forty thousand dollar hospital bill recommendation see specialist applied charity assistance hospital seen hospital bill since hope money owed anymore months later lucky enough get decent affordable health insurance used get every test conceivable tests went years never given definitive diagnosis mother end stage copd congestive heart failure oxygen could leave house couldnt even make meal without nearly suffocating death step father throat cancer liver cancer step father radiation treatment throat liver throat cancer came back full laryngectomy came home hospital feeding tube crush pills feed liquid diet feeding tube also needed stoma cleaned suctioned surgical wound opened packed treated also making meals mother store runs laundry cleaning house dealing sickness day th birthday july mother died heart failure step father home hospital one week passed could even speak married years step fathers liver cancer come back fear doesnt long finances work past years moved mother step father got sick work worked well three us past years despite illness still able take care terminally ill parents able survive financially parents disability checks long term settlement check per month two rentals properties owned mortgage as long renters anyway uncles grandfathers exwife which married years passing first wife years complete control ownership two rental units past year sickness subsided somewhat want get back work afraid afraid sickness hit work get fired again afraid get back job market long inherited home mortgage cannot pay property taxes insurance told cannot take mortgage house dont job also inherited per month settlement check run two years enough live pay taxes insurance also hire lawyer order get house checks mothers valid due notarized one witness two per states law still owe lawyer dollars racking penalties taxes yet pay also losing health insurance end month premiums going lowest tier plan extremely difficult try find roommate move house house state disrepair terminally ill step father master bedroom would want move one sick dude one terminally ill dude plus bedrooms tiny two uncles one credit card debt offer help gifted dollars since mothers death cannot ask more idea going pay bills next month owe lawyer medical bills know of student loan debt property taxes accruing penalties dollars month expenses insurance electricwater etc have home valued city would sell maybe due state disrepair per month next two years plan leave hand written valid state leaving house step father acquire small boat kayak load back pack weights travel far east atlantic ocean one night enjoy stars one last sunrise get water wearing backpack hanging edge boat shoot brain way bullet kill water will body sink depths end me clean up coroner funeral gone disappeared world stepfather never super close grown father apart since death mother alone life wanted put someone might read since one talk to,1 Interview Thursday! ,0 got banned made another account report block disgusting pervert,0 feel like despite deciding kill piece diedi planned nice last day lake killing new years eve ended deciding to feels like part still went barely get motivated leave bed feel numb,1 @Rotmush no.. I think it was Ori ,0 achieved lot years life extremely fortunate friends fun parents me fantastic job starting couple weeks everything fine rightlast year around time drinking numb nights would drink would write letters myself would draw sometimes would harm myself hole chest big gave friends even myself realized needed disappear point living held go cannot believe someone elsenow year later deep down hole still there tried focusing positives still there know much longer take alone want find someone believe in need someone believe in hate pangs loneliness cannot get rid even others sometimes even miss wreck last year least dealing emotions rather ignoring themeverything feels hollow anyone life understands awful really feel point living understood,1 bout to start poor linny couldn t keep her eye open she tired and ha to work tomorrow morning night ilovefatsusan,0 whats effort put something else procrastinating procrastinating homework often procrastinate working stuff needed while example day pretty deeply cleaned room not quite deep clean got rid stuff clean another time photoshoped friend thanos avoiding math assignment whats something put lot effort procrastinating,0 quiz questions hi there family quiz every sunday evening last week im writing week normally im quite good writing enjoy lol ive come bit block here anyone good quiz questions,0 it came bisexual parents today ,0 watch movie clean ears take away makeup eyes tell girlfriend stop kissing you to picture give warmth enough keep relationship lifelong enough jewrussianukrainianimmigrant yes popularmovieminority ever laugh within memories something else whatever anyway laugh bittersweet memory importance friendship family movie nothing seem strange ever strange may seem still im afraid see movie type picture people watch go movies please humanity forget get soundtrack pleasure,0 been on mirtazapine for week made my depression way worse and didn t do anything for anxiety it s mostly for anxiety i havent really went into detail about depression but it s supposed to be effective for both right im gon na have to start smoking weed again will that have an effect,1 Watching a movie. Chillin. ,0 onethere oneno euthanasiano psychological helpnowhere seek refugeno one ask helpi cant even speak family christs sakethe government busy sucking bezos dicki cant stand bullshiti didnt ask bornto made everyone blames wretched existencei cant stand please help,1 im going leave house family th junein early started getting frustrated mad friends started noticing flaws obviously didnt care friendship aspect wanted friends play video games things style never cared actual person friends with struggling emotionally back never asked support obvious wasnt going work eventually dont know started trolling anonymously online didnt recognize first eventually one asked me immediately felt guilty tried delete everything happened immediately snapped back reality realized much hurting them called sick school days left summer shut life idea happened might puberty aspergers ive recently considering hypomanic episode happened next years ive completely isolated havent meaningful social interaction anyone except family ive tried finding friends different schools along places never worked summer ended started second school basically isolated entire summer developed social anxiety got panic attack entering classroom forced work alone another room room got almost nothing done constantly watched youtube phone escapism stayed room breaks therefore didnt meet anyone school year switched another school people given support actual work went okay part almost everyone else school unbearable extremely socially awkward constantly made uncomfortable year half switched school again time constantly longed someone vent never happened majority awake time spent escapism early started fourth school normal state run people werent socially awkward also werent socially anxious anymore everything pointing towards things getting better never did work okay might able get good job im extremely lonely down later day birthday june decided write thoughts notes phone didnt anyone could vent to kept writing almost hours without realizing much time passing done felt happier ive felt years like drank energy drink typing realized one make difference life me everything happens world happens indirect consequence dont do want stop lonely im one fix nothing one else also realized everything okay long one gets hurt it made accept lot things ive ashamed of also found venus project gave goal life hard explain go wwwthevenusprojectcom want find out felt amazing week half felt numb usual point figured might form bipolar probably cyclothymia still contradictions ive still figured key solving every problem world happy im not might sign im faking give feeling control bipolar isnt fun would nice know caused life suck much since still believe figured hypomanic might faking whole thing know aparently common thing think paranoid bipolar subs im going let affect think ive decided im going leave whole family th june get monthly money ill able buy food im gone im sure im going kill im gone im going sleep dont want think now havent planned anything im going gone im turning brain basically cant stand lonely scared faking mental issues leaving house family could escape that longer worry think actions really worry anything kind like temporary redflag dont know right sub dont even know wrote this,1 prospects pointi unemployed since summer matters much went school got useless degree history gpa low go back school earning shit money past five years live dad almost career prospects earn decent living dads hospital nd time c diff recovering probably get sick soon leaving hospital like first time mother died cancer years ago family nothing sell home mom died shortsale years later place worth three times parents initially payed it hate people people live there anyone owns home region friends family dog gone soon loving girlfriend whats fucking point friends move lives family dies living life poverty soon cant ask girlfriend stick around cant earn living latch pathetic guy late s lives dad prospects prospects improve since destroyed future useless major low gpa good first years bout depression disillusionment cratered graduation would already done dad dogboth old girlfriend really care friends would think since resent point resent careers money make fact none seen parent waste away cancer rely ever stumble would never stumble made right choices life right major right career one always stumbles fuckup always makes wrong choices maybe finally make one right choice follow footsteps best friend shot years ago really isnt another alternative wont go past zero prospects happen today tomorrow dad dog gone ill spare that fuck everyone else,1 I really just want this depression to be over. I want a night I don't cry myself to sleep anymore. I just want to be happy. I want it to be over :(,1 hey folks wondering anyone else experience something dealing with escitalopram mg now crazy vivid dreams bizzare whenever sleep dream even naps every single night need movies got sleep anyone else escitalopram,1 How Psychologists Treat The Kind Of Thinking That Leads To Depression by @drake_baer https://medium.com/thrive-global/how-psychologists-treat-the-kind-of-thinking-that-leads-to-depression-a690a0cebade …,1 tested hang nowi hurt much hurt thought would go fast ofc would little painful thought wouldnt sting much hanging listed non hurtful thing fuck plans may ruined bc scared hurt much dont hang jump,1 lesbian f desperately longing girlfriend ever since puberty shy chubby teenager many unrequited crushes straight girls late teensearly s try meet queer women near me mainly online dating led dates notredflag and made uncomfortable anyway social redflag queer dating pool small anyway also screw general depressed college dropout living relatives working dead end job probably never amount anything like women would breaking door date anyway still find longing love sex breaks heart see almost everyone know datingmarried move obsession accept probably never happen make peace it and please responses like just go try do give up trying realistic specifically asking help accept probably inevitable accept probably never lovesex,1 hey guy something that ha really helped me in my mental health journey is to find friend to connect with if anyone want to talk so that we can check in with each other and just have an online buddy let me know it s really great to talk to someone we re in this together,1 gots question anyone else naturally replace love feel someone hate breakup me,0 fat eat much food kill soon killing,1 word day defenestrate defenestration act throwing someone something window,0 redflag hotlines call police ive thought calling redflag hotline but want take risk calling police would make everything worse so hotlines guaranteed call police or would taking risk matter called,1 dad shady shit partialy heard phone call heres things heard dont act dumb youll get fingers scaned argentinian slang espending time locked up stupid never get out talk dumbass listen name uncle woudnt mom find woud you ill cut fucking hand so yeah,0 finest film ever made deal subject aids documentary two men living dying illness film beautiful heartbreaking funny incredibly moving all amazing true love story sure hankies ready watch movieyou need them extraordinary,0 think enough want prove point redflaga couple months ago made post explained therapy working years trying well think im officially done week ago went drinking drank much could attempt black out thats time im apparently suddenly extroverted awesome well work instead threw panic attack middle street friend call ambulance course hour painful experience ambulance came bawling want end life try something different change doctors confirmed nothing change itll wasted money came home simply talked friend nothing matters suddenly time people care famous person commits redflag even then educated mental illnesses suddenly people blame victim selfish reason become better musician right literally commit redflag ever get following send message also thought days redflag blogvlog type thing see everyone takes time censors gets defensive aggressive post daily updates yeah kind thing one lose life would me think thats last way fun end life confirmation lacking mental health department could make things come or maybe not others confirmation id really like see amount inactive profiles posted subreddit comparison subreddits,1 finally got gf even talk insists still together help,0 babysitting this morning stiil it s an excuse to watch the chute on cbbc,0 "@pris1692 hahahaha did u have a blast? *i know your type, GIRL you're dangerous* :p",0 @mystica43229 Hi luv! Sounds like you had a busy day! Hope all went well. ,0 @joliesouris it's working. i don't have 2 re-add u. u need 2 go 2 sleep! i'm so sorry i made u come here. have a great day 2morrow!! ,0 im so tired. like my life is one huge chasm of depression and maybe i should go on priv about this? yeah,1 seeing enough karma post e,0 sister is here in FL now ,0 can t sleep again face is kinda swollen don t let me be allergic to the thing that ll get me to thursday school tomorrow doubtful,0 wishing i could sneak in to watch the star trek premiere,0 ive thought lots ironically im scaredive considered taking life several occasions reason im scared would effect children ill married father beautiful children love dearly love same fought depression awhile even knowing st years call it dealdealt basic problems life money amp drugs lead relationship issues lost mombest friend almost yrs ago everything im self proclaimed mommas boy things got worst second family fell apart dad brother sister aunts uncles stop seeing eye eye cause resent ppl reason gone kids know end day wrong thing do phase better days ahead situation mold comparison others get constantly go backwards life matter hard try try stay positive comes point feel like alternatives deep know wanna this feel im running fight even know im making post think ive heard every solution try fix problems zero percent success rate thus far figured cant get worst posting this tldr ive considered redflag lots times never attempted it suffer depression led financial relationship drug family problems,1 time im sleep leave something read wake morning,0 "Outski, Dunno what I'm doing today. Call me ",0 dont mean political fuck spaghetti,0 cant cant continueit hurts hurts end relationship straw broke back ive abused raped thrown away im unlovable im tired tired alone tired strong tired myself tired constant struggle im tired always weathering storm tired all world shit people assholes want use throw away im tired piece meat used spat out im sorry cant anymore hopefully long now,1 Depression is no joke,1 @elsekramer Yeah the spammers are discriminating: none of the females are part of the target group apparently ,0 "@networkbarefoot @gina_romero @OrganisedPA Great webinar today, packed full of great information and tw-inspiration! Thank you ",0 military branch smart people seems like army marines full brain dead people httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvqsjhvxrcampfeatureemb_title worldview superior believe gun rights global warming elon musk needs military branch dedicating stopping china invading countries exploring space httpsstaticcbrimagescomwordpresswpcontentuploadscerberusgroupjpg,0 grunt good luck with the big meeting i hope the rumour mill is wrong,0 think usually approach film festival comedies low expectation invariably quirky intended humor derived solely expense characters simplicity face complicated context exceptional big bad swim director able maintain integrity development characters film still finding laughoutloud humor scene scene sophistication maybe due also part sharp work dp ive rarely seen indie film even rarely comedy special note here paget brewsters turn amy math teacher seeing performance cannot understand brewster discovered larger audience brings necessary mix anger likability role really helps picture reach potential terrific work deserving larger audience look forward director cast,0 well i need to get to bed. chat at everyone tomorrow. ,0 find gd duct tape context mom needed duct tape something like making stuff duct tape shes yelling find tape tape u move tape im sitting like no idk no response say havent seen it say im always using i havent used make something year half starts talking littleif u didnt always use wouldnt hide it fuck say tldr mom hid something me lost it blames me sorry ranting pissed off seems like right place,0 caught movie ifc enjoyed it although felt like editing job little rough though may deliberate little bit hard time figuring going first seemed going little bit pulp fictionstyle nonlinear plot presentation seemed little forced though certainly think movie worth watching think could used little cleaning up scenes seem make sense others br br im surprised see rating low is outstanding really serious problems gave movie show least laurence fishburne act wants to must told matrix movies,0 pealuh i think i need to go to twitterholics anonymous,0 guys lost v card today gf kind drunk hanging bed kind just happened unexepected amazing,0 My psychology teacher assigned an essay about depression in teens and I'm about to GO OFF,1 last ressorthave ever thought last ressort redflag like commited die instead go trip fuck prostitutes drugs dont knowdo something anything something dying maybe awaken life,1 is so relieved to have internet again ,0 Just left the gym and I'm feelin good~ no work tomorrow woot~ ,0 is COMPLETELY CHOKED! ,0 best drug od ive waited waited waited horrible feeling hasnt gone away,1 someone else feel way like wanna grow time dont want youre scared furture please dont let one,0 just played beach house day of candy depression cherry,1 everyone loves fbi said im second wanted person everybody wants piece me,0 Let's talk Depression during pregnancy and what to do about it. https://buff.ly/2HR3BhK  pic.twitter.com/tk8gYq9V0c,1 prior seeing show people impression silent comedy essentially slapstick slapstick only could imagine screen comedy could possible without relying heavily spoken word numerous pratfalls masterful film proved wrong davies view probably greatest comedic actress come along prior lucille ball mention lucy primarily davies mannerisms facial expressions reminded point wonder davies one balls primary influences coming year old never seen silent comedy must say matter much periodspecific references actually get i didnt apparently bored movie probably even laugh would talkie comedies favorite silent comedy easily among ten favorite comedies time,0 even though friendship person messy still keep coming back life,0 seems like many people enjoy personality looks style hate much want harm diei stupid freak,1 funny many people think bad yearso many people agree bad year forced isolation lack employment opportunities anguish knowing make ends meet lack human connection life like lot people way imagine live like rest life lot people would ask early exit really know tell them,1 cant anymorei annoy girlfriend depression suicidal thoughts daily basis tell mother im sorry me job working nights therefore lot quiet alone time think things im afraid anything anymore going grocery store highlight life im borderline compulsive saver friends hate me father hates me im fucking tranny hobbies anymore enjoyment life anymore im going anywhere anywhere life ive always thought people meant happy see im one people thing makes want destroy marijuana thats destroying another way reason keep going nothing live for nothing,1 kept aliveim kept alive will crohns disease endometriosis chronic acute tmj severe social anxiety im flat dumb hate life nothing contribute please let fucking go,1 "is embarking on a five day weekend! Beaches, ferries, and fun! Life is good! ",0 at work,0 entered schools yearbook cover contest got nd place meaning back yearbook lmfao ampxb i would show whole thing personal info ithttpspreviewredditqlqkoktkxajpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsbfefedffafdedfa,0 i feel like shit i just want somebody to talk to idk if that s too much to ask for,1 "@optimuffins good luck, depression is real but not being stuck inside your head and rather paying attention to the outer helps tremendously Have been there, good luck, stay busy and stay happy.",1 "@09Casper Oh. We're usually pretty calm, but I guess you could say that Pinot Noir is The Girl's natural stress reliever. ",0 betty make assumptions switched homeroom think cause,0 thoughts head empty mind quiet numb use rare opportunity sleep goodnight,0 ooooooooooooh my headddd uncle johnny i never should have agreed to work the town election for you when i got that drunk last night ow,0 feel kind selfconscious height im feel pretty short alot time weird im taller people meet id kind like taller honestly,0 really wanted happy know something get tired depressed time point even want happy anymore seems like much mess much effort something even last feel like already tried many times happy none worked even people love me friends hobbies life still seemed shit it point stopped attempting accepted never happy life way see end suicide scared either also know hurt people die end feel like trapped nowhere go makes frustrating hate cannot kill feel like even want happy anymore want die instead anything else,1 anyone else weird experiences hospitalits year since last attempt go me think ive fully processed experience the hospital think days constant redflag watch first couple days hallucinating vomiting violently drugs put on im still slightly convinced put drugs try deter trying if so worked afterwards like prep school try get out practice say make sure washed clean looked presentable would hopefully let out went saw psychiatrist supposed check see allowed let out started telling needed jesus needed accept lord could happy told stuff relationships time which looking back abusive picked that told stay away men except godly men surprised treat badly nodded nodded told id go church finally let go like hours im still processing shit anything im processing something like could allowed happen nhs,1 idk people complain mask hard wear whatever like legit forget take mask car literally makes difference,0 thoughts get really intense feeling cant take anymore days lasts couple hours couple weeks ago lasted days days nonstop really sure going itthe thought brought sense relief sense calm really before think want diehad remember depressive feelings hopelessness because depression id like know guys coping strategies ways help feelings stop weather relentless storm less intense week beforethat height farbut im still getting them would wait one minute one minute one more butit almost enough thats scary think about verycomforting think about way too,1 this is what my main problem boil down to i feel like i live my life inside my head always checking in on how i feel and if i m okay is my vision blurry am i dizzy is my hand numb etc etc i also think i have pppd so the unsteadiness and swaying rocking sensation affect me and freak me out the most if i wa free of this hyper awareness hyper vigilance element i really believe i d be fine but right now it really run my life ha anyone found way to reduce this or even get rid of it completely,1 @breatheagain Things are good. Trying to get LoveBetterCamp.com up and running. Hotwings in the oven ,0 Please pray for all of the people struggling with depression. Especially the youth. I'm in the E.R. with my daughter right now. She took a bag of pills and a suicide note to school today. This spirit of suicide has to go!!! #SuicideAwareness,1 must admit reason bought movie big fan gackt huge fan hyde expecting good movie lot shots were shall say pleasing feminine eye slightly cheesy story mean synopsis sounded really there finished watching feel need tell world brilliance hyde gackt gave heartwrenching performances eyes still hot crying lasted throughout last half movie get sucked story really feel characters end element vampirism love easy overdo ruin movie subtly mixed storyline make something merely exotic normal setting rather random unnecessary addition story ranked firstand went back tried think giving last point came nothing ten ten is im much critic fact im bothering write review means either really hate movie really love it tell side im moon child,0 first thought man invented shovel had ground breaking,0 fear ruined life fail every job panic get afraid failure bail fail every task try cannot deal embarrassment quit stupid fucking girl liked much good liked alot ever let on fucking stupid tell felt gone one realistic chance alone gone going stuck purgatory failure ineptitude loneliness die going end life summers end one thing longer going bitch that starved anyrhing worthwhile life deserve allowed die coward,1 awh damn my puppy ha tick,0 hi fello gamers friend made discord whos mostly talk memes play video games skribblio minecraft alien swarm stardew csgo tf valorant together guys girls listen music also separate channel nsfw small enough form sweet community everyone knows otherr comment link d my dms wont work,0 "@Emmanuelle_LES yep, thanks for checking though ",0 "Had fun tonight, even if the show kinda sucked.. Now I'm laying in bed watching stepbrothers. ",0 mom killed th birthdayitll two years christmas ive thinking lately man of man get here talked family since aunts uncles two dozen cousins looking thoughts literally comments appreciated thanks advance give love get love,1 loser loser real friends actually wanna go anything say blow ignore,0 sick tired people uploading status sad and mental health diagnosis likes validation etc refuse go therapy loose shit sadfishing making tired,1 ap lang really worth it im sophomore atm need decide classes take next year im recommended ap lang however im entirely sure take it might whole pandemic situation im really stressed right classes im already honors except history took summer school plus choir spanish im good classes far want go good college im considering ap lang all im scared going hard that plan take ap bio next year would require drop favorite class choir choir really important im close everyone there originally planning take english summer school im sure since might take ap lang also mention awful teacher english freshman year mean made hate english breakdown multiple times also one ap lang teachers wow lengthy sorry take english summer school less stress ability keep favorite class drop choir suffer ap lang tldr know whether drop choir take ap lang take english summer school,0 everythings fine im tryingjust rant got drunk way way much panic attack front friend whos never seen before vomited floor got new job reason making suicidal state world jacked makes want end it im getting fat food thing makes better point im wondering ill ever ever content every day hope do hope everyone finds peace one day,1 adreamforsteph ok house wa sad,0 awkward moment earlier introduced moms coworkers son whos twenties shook hand face immediately flushed cute dont know behave around people stayed car,0 "my tweeps, ima get sum sleep.. had an awesome nite. peace an love ",0 ha a really sore elbow i think it s broken,0 stilento trending twitter hate curious also saw tik tok saying something silento gotta get curious like cant unsee,0 im close itim close ending it feel like control life honestly decent life cant stop constant depression overall sadness diagnosed ocd well makes everything much worse know close breaking point right now seriously it ive kind halfattempted before kind started take pills stopped phone call friend idea happened honestly saved life im end though cant stop this want get final rest death im afraid death even slightly say everyones afraid death want bad wish id die sleep something know theres something within wants to thats im posting this side wants winning something change tonight last night alive teenager spoken parents this seems childish always seem want someone help people try talk go therapy close cant talk whats really causing pain cant talk people it almost seems better one talks it nights like close ive never felt way before im close ending it plan would via overdose im fucking close even know im posting this since im convinced tonight night even know im looking comes responses even think anyone respond guess im sharing story maybe end someone know hurts know thousands people feel way though wish something actually reliable help this nothing seems help though want die want go away im sorry long post know read even want people respond with im looking for least want someone know die thank reading,1 i m tired depressed and can t go through this alone anymore i haven t been kind to myself i ve taken a pill because i don t want to stay awake even though it s really early can you leave me a comment so that i won t wake up to zero notification maybe something to make me get out of the bed a little easier,1 depression fucking suck man,1 ohmontana deal i ll murph you with my pliplup or whatever the water one barely at level 0,0 long take anyone noticeim ive suicidal year im much worse year ago one noticed said anything me im really anxious say anything outright really obvious im like this ive felt suicidal since got worse ive never form help one ever said anything meant it others ive seen happen matter might well kill never worry anything ever again,1 m cannot keep fighting fighting long time remember long problems simply cannot hold anymoretoday first day years alcoholic father threatened hit told kim nobody could stand around drunk adult first time life change thati cannot describe awful feel hearing call idiot several times threatening mei always felt disappointment everyone specially himhe always called useless idiot lazy many things always felt like son never wanted happened today simply makes want run away end alli also feel like disappoint mother specially talking school ever since depression started struggled concentrate work even subjects like every time talk highschool feel like burden disappointment gifted child used tomy sister another problem sometimes feels like everything alright others treats like annoy her like care meanother problem feel like belong anywhere even friends consider brothers mothers even though gone several groups friends never manage feel like belong like truly care even like mei feel alone lost want pain end want stop feeling like burden everyone elseevery time knife hands cannot bring end everything cut arms swallow pain today different even cuts helped deal pain matter many times it deep were feeling go awayi really want push blade chest simply slash veins afraid afraid next afraid hurting mom sister afraid leaving alone stupid father cannot get enough courage itsorry bad english native language feeling way help writingi needed get chest so thanks listening kind strangers cannot go anymore,1 weirdita weird feel awesome days later want jump front trainits weird telling parents want kill careits weird family bipolarity touch psychologist life weird living third country care mental healtits weird living,1 m almost never dated anyone never first kiss avoided main high school social events prom parties thought physically inferior everyone else worth noting attempted date rejected hurt every single time tried still put horrible depressive state emotionally many friends see people work many people talk snapchat stuff makes hate life even more understand get people talk snapchat get confidence even ask someone snapchat unless like best friends family asking someone snapchat instagram may something super simple everything else me requires days sometimes weeks planning going every single scenario could casually ask someone without random weird find myself face especially utterly repulsive ugly instance employment manager work high schoolers girls like take pictures us the managers reason ask say funny work environment really relaxed like fun work acceptable every manager tell want picture taken keep trying it tell why tell feel really ugly hate way look believe too therapy working feel like mind cannot changed want changed feels like cannot feel like forever idea turn here thanks advice advance get self degrading mindset,1 right schedulefor now ive wondering possible ive managed make long know someone else me would ended long time ago wanted hold out case maybe im wrong maybe old saying it gets better actually true know ive always known doesnt thats say cant doesnt hasnt continue to things decay thats life hate pessimistic thats reality would best people would honest it said im honestly peace know leave anytime know how when wait right moment im sick feeling like im crying wolf day come though maybe soon ill right schedule,1 one thing say one thing,0 im scared ill something tonightits particularly bad couple weeks already shitty year ive struggling mental health while always manageable took hits life though lost someone really cared about lost job became isolated family friends see alone knowing absolutely nothing live for hope getting better friend ask help know man want end all feel like thats way theres part wants live try better gets confusing me dont know im scared alone locked bathroom dont want feel tempted hurt something sharp might see outside dont think makes sense im sorry,1 happens tell therapisthey hope okay place post question im wondering would happen told therapist suicidal thoughts ive always deep fear telling people suicidal thoughts lately theyve gotten worse ive figured couple specific plans would relatively easy carry out ive gotten place twice past week ive felt need contact crisis line ive suicidal past ive attempted twice im scared time problems multiplied theyre bigger feel like im collapsing weight life dont care enough stop it thats scares most past ive cared least bit time around im asking friends family support im unable verbalize bad am thank help,1 therapist read message respond make appointment cooli fired due world events get enough unemployment monthly live kicked house dog family turn would let stay stay mentally healthy andor keep dog boyfriend said live together bit lost job too gets pretty short me always upset him think actually wants move feel like downfalls last weeks changed feels me annoy much get it ive always annoying ill probably end living car pretending like found room somewhere pay storage unit remaining money keep things safe reached therapist days ago need appointment please im afraid im slipping read it nothing reply appointment even therapist wants talk me annoy too want die want be way worry annoying anybody burden anybody anymore constant dog without him could leave him want be,1 "@GPhie As someone who struggles with severe depression, this is perfect.",1 hint pathetic nade post titled say something mean me minutes ago im start crying comments even mean need die,0 announcement mad critocola op fucking play scout sandbag,0 safe spaces arent safe spaces mei opened experiences sexually assaulted raped women know people said im homophobic didnt enjoy catcalled woman age motherly touching time giving unwanted hugs course wasnt abusing power teacher reach back touch me anything normal middle school teacher would do fuck safe space talk women abused without labelled victim women apparently pure pristine i im girl too world sucks theres good theres people use experiences assholes others never see world changing better everyone becoming selfish caught even stop think second theyre doing everyone cares making look good everyone cares always right always correct always last word everyone cares themselves care too im going fucking kill myself,1 suicidal thoughts cant tell anyone herehey history depressive episodes suicidal thoughts fortunately managed ok last years ago right im husband month old visiting sister family parents theres bit culture clash im managing also trying deal small comments us first time parents people respecting need sleep things seems trained one nap full nights sleep either dragging around everywhere im losing mind trying deal her seems petty small straw tonight sat backyard holding screaming daughter wanted set drown pool cant tell husband birthday tomorrow cant tell friends hardly any fucking sucks,1 sorry ,1 i ve just spent hour to enter all the bureaucratic nonsense for march what a waste of my time,0 suicidal dont want exist sometimesi cant one feels way sometimes wish start new life one knows fresh canvas see family see fit but without picture somedays im grateful circumstances days really really bad days think myself cant live grid another land want alone sometimes days feel alone want people support arms reach conflicting feeling like live new life keep close me know silly stress future stressful feel like dont enough time days worry im gonna three decades worry im going failure,1 i don t want to d e but also don t love the idea of being alive i feel like im just existing my life somehow sound really cool on paper and in real life it s extremely meh im in a long term relationship working in entertainment like i always wanted for myself living in new york i have some solid friend but none of it feel good am i just an entitled brat i feel no excitement anymore im just constantly working on arbitrary goal that i set for myself so i don t just lay in bed all day call it high functioning i don t really want to keep doing this whole thing i m tired and over it and i ve gone through too much shit this past year and i am still dealing with ptsd and sa stuff and i just feel like i don t want to deal with it anymore i want to give my life to someone else and go live on a beach somewhere and i know that life is hard and i hate that i wish it wasn t so hard i m not strong enough to keep fighting i want to give up seeking advice please or some word of wisdom or something how do i find my spark again,1 "@Starshipmates Thanks, kekeke ",0 bad nighti took two gravol yesterday knock severe panic attack calmed put sleep feel like missed medication much psychological pain now cannot put words im suicidal thoughts tired hurt people think ssris disrupted gravol took last night even though took meds today think maybe two go together gravol overrode something period also due days pms pretty hellish depression anxiety think call premenstrual exacerbation mental illness aggravated premenstrual symptoms im chilling kitchen floor cabinets right feeling like pure death inside help,1 I feel like I'm losing the battle to depression right now,1 guys need help change flair beside name pls hlep,0 feel people want kill themselvesi feel like people want kill cant dying hard painful vent frustration sub reddit like wish dead ill soon anyway read recent post society fked view stuff even education system wrong,1 @dsthestar1121 Last night was FUN!!! Well this morning. lol. See ya Saturday- get ready to REALLY party! ,0 "This book tackles subjects like grief, depression, anxiety, first love and first heartbreak. It is extremely hard to write at times, but it feels incredibly worthwhile. #amwriting #YA #ownvoices #HawkFalls",1 boi wants get fucked mint mobile fox good taste,0 depression incurable depression incurable,1 miss sil no i wa half asleep and turned off the laptop after that,0 dudes small dicks stay playing xbox like bro worried wrong microsoft,0 feel like ever able escape thishi im mess ive always mess really became mess long time ago mother literally abandoned us came back reason bit left forever absolutely contact mother like people mother recently partner im suspecting narcissist discarded horrible state depression little month ago still feel horrible cant bring go nc even worse struggle ocd ocd narcissistic abuse mix well obsess narcissist myself caused this horrible person obsess people love hating me think much anybody ever loved loves now friends one talk deals issues want add theirs friends busy stuff theyve helped lot feel good enough anybody guess also mention father think going downward spiral ever since mother left ive forced endure feel much family really evil narcissist it feel hindered much feel trapped here time ive brought mental health downplayed father also busy working feel connected father really know anything me anytime ive tried open up seems dismiss me want escape cant know im going fail senior year im never job car much way social skills either feel like creep people out ill forced stay home never able succeed life escape go college pursue want do even think id good enough it feel like piece shit horrible person someone here feel like everybody agree me probably sound like egotistical bag shit cant even fully convey feel here cant even kill means to far know maybe im overreacting im sorry everyone everything,1 antifa terrorist organization even full orginazation trump must crack something cause crazy bruh,0 dil shikastagi isn t quite the same a depression but nice word nonetheless very apt for me,1 bad person sound mind voices hear come life trauma trauma come within often fear caused fate fate came found me ask pain inflicted me hands meant protect me ask hear voices telling afraid dark always feared bad person voices ask wrong others bad person know right wrong say dark face away shadows refuse accept enemies stay wish darkness turn light poem,1 teacher randomly left meeting without warning math left reason lol,0 enjoying show years use dream able see share grandchildren happy pay small amount memories found recorded dvd florida caring mother loving hard working husband one spoiled beautiful daughter two sons different day night michael baby son freedom walker jj clown know many afroamericans disliked show know many relate accepted was heart sad learned ester rolle passed tyler perry leading writer actor today support work much since made cruel mocking rolle one plays one hear ugly things physical appearance show started getting less interesting daddy james died picked bit florida remarried slumped took absence show all show great pleased copies part past try keep work former stars good times must say one group wiped rumors think children today enjoy show problem sitting watching children congrats writer crew stars years renewed memories time enjoy without skip scenesbr br ok watch shows over lately noticed thing made rethink series dislike them think florida bit harsh came money children made children need supervision done way makes floridas mothering different scenes florida speak people good looking bothers now james alive show made big thing james wanting fixit shop never lived see family projects florida marries someone owns fixit shop bit slap face actor ended time good times showing accomplished strove for lastly watch shows see series going overtime renamed jj truthful james left everything mostly centered around jj bad thing noticeable thing would trade dvds amount money time maturity experience began guide eyes while,0 samsungimaging better get your auto feature ironed out that blast of 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httpsetsusociologycoqualtricscomjfeformsv_bsutnwuawvikdhttpsetsusociologycoqualtricscomjfeformsv_bsutnwuawvikd,1 debunked bone marrow basically bone marrow apparently make sperm it men useless right nope matter fact man found out plus nothing cater kam pos made help people cant get partner pregnant seen women tiktok saying baby would always female thats complete bullshit kam childish know also going make bone marrow eggs gay men men wives cant get pregnant genetic kids bone marrow doesnt exist one gender exist help lgbtq infertile people biological babies might wrong stuff thats think bone marrow reproduction going like,0 fluoxetineother medicine odis possible overdose fluoxetine medicine got mg fluoxetine mg quetiapine mg amitriptylin ml mg amitriptylin im sick feeling anger freaking pressure inside want make sure enough kill myself,1 hopefully post allowed anyone wants talk otp direct message ur literally wanna talk someone idk make friend,0 get money ya ya get money ya ya like ooooooh oooooooh,0 @softtouchme i finished DMing you ,0 important message thighs ampxb ampxb thick thighs,0 please help me heres deal yesterday mom breakfast table told headache since friday imma make quick stop say literally every single day sick something dont know since father well hes us brought fact shes always sick big mistake went full defensive telling shes pain wont tell shit aches pains picked food plate table rushed room could tell single word mean tried tell mean seem listen ive depressed cant figure wrong shes still mad cant figure say wrong heres post here would greatly appreciate crowd help figure wrong tldr no read whole thing cant summarize this also sorry english bad,0 people say relationship isnt key full shitthese past years happiest ive ever life found girlfriend finally felt void inside filled finally wasnt alone world anymore someone get morning someone could hold whenever felt depressed suicidal therapy medication helped too nothing like girlfriend did probably over says doesnt feel love anymore different previous times want right get finally kill myself im alone afraid hurt one conversation turned past self again im done guys dont want anymore want collect courage finally end it please talk it,1 reasoni reason kill self still feel need im going school teacher feel dumb worthless live family loves supports feel alone boyfriend miles away feels still far want see happens die wish knew wasnt alone drink feel alive please let know something more,1 feel worse boyfriend broke mei know whole thing may sound stupid suicidal thoughts boyfriend broke blah blah blah start off ive depression almost years suicidal thoughts time ive tried commit redflag times went hospital twice months ago found guy nice caring always thought would together long time ive never strong feeling someoneever know loved sure love right back found thinking breaking did said lied much got upset lot around himi blame much things arguments caused me also said could find someone better really best person found never meant hurt him guess even realize lying got upset around him really dealing things mentally seem believe thats case swear is care much drew portrait him made bracelet wrote letters basically could keep him feel like worst girl friend him tried hard work keep one love dearly ,1 s nanna just passed away,0 im going kill life keeps getting worsei care make sad die anymore fuck it one cares care feel im casket,1 thanks one year ive couple months months great thank you,0 i have tuned in into pak v au sadness depression trophy series,1 husband suicidal im barely finishing treatment wont bei knew needed help bad went first keatmine threapy always acted like worse better keeping in im even feet yet feels like im getting bombarded everything trying knock working feel isolated alone scared many new emotions flooding back already struggling everything getting worse new type worse im alone fucked mind stuck repeat,1 ahh good morning! getting ready for this crazy day. and i mean crazy....,0 well isn t that great now i m really sick all coughing and having a sore throat,0 RANK UP ! YEAH YOU GUYS GOT PWND ! ,0 anyone agree doom relaxing videogame series mean anybody read play doom shoot everything moves incredibly simple fucking amazing,0 im turning today cant spend family friends want spend rteenagers thanks comments,0 feel like shit help meim awful human deserve live get mad things life throw hit things im mad release frustrations get want feel like brat never spoiled want kind person lot things mind come every years make me say depressed since diagnosed sad want hit myself kill myself cant seem it always looking ways actually going it friends know things me want kind person want change want help life sucks cant afford therapy want parents finding even could idk maybe im acting holidays near get wrong hate holidays worst things happened during want get guess anyway made far reading this thank you sometimes want heard feel free comment drag me,1 nowi feel like keep rehashing long story short agoraphobic human interaction go time due fact wife avoiding terrible person conversation gets lost love son deserves much better prozac metropinal still depressed horribly low peak high peaks usually agitation ignorance without large quantities alcohol pretty much ive reached point life insurance worth people like suffering multiple years me still apprehension much honestly always someone around prevented till now really know expect already medicated therapied,1 watching all saints ,0 fellow teens year old male weighs pounds ways lose bunch weight lbs months less title fellow bros need help filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 @kynagelaver slr again uhmm. yeah. kinda?? lol.,0 havent power hours really actually upset this pseampg says th return power currently car charging phone,0 "Remember the days "being followed" by someone was a bad thing? Anyway Ran @Harnevo is following me, cool!",0 im ashamedive accused plagiarism second time course one year due sloppy citations despite working really hard improve feel ashamed want die normally work jobs time year made possible focus university what poor marks plagiarism sleep slept days sometimes stay close hours row im anxious weep hours parents knew full story theyd ashamed me fiance probably hates ive put year university planning wedding cant cope all ive officially broken im done almost threw front train yesterday hate everything inside brain go away im massive loser knew cut postgraduate level ,1 call transgender avatar gender bender,0 never endinglast night bugs crawling body werent husband assured werent there could hear rats wall could not sirens gave headache know none real time was havent hallucinated bad while times year become deeply suicidal life forever know be theres guarantee kids would better mother leave chances good risk it could worse occasionally psychotic self ive never hurt them ive afraid going to havent quarantine two small children helping illness love them husband amazing know could find amazing woman making sense then dealing dead body takes paperwork lot time first respondersmedical personnel hands full is cant add that moot point anyway cant kill myself cant risk hurting kids know husband loves me resilience incredible hate brought children worldnot shit going on predisposition mental illness well take care them trying hard love them tired,1 Wow we love depression,1 im slowly losing myselfnothing pleases anymore try things used love never works still feel miserable feel trapped place longer wanna in im fucking scared anymore id heartbeat could feel selfish people around try cheer doesnt work already know theyve given me fine,1 get recommendations media main characters fight god feeling frustrated current world order existence general looking tvmoviesvideo games main characters fight kings god anyone hordes power media category include hollow knight adventure zone eragon recs appreciated,0 sometimes post fleeting hope one day itll appear meme title says all im typing reach minimum word thing mods added anyways thats enough words always thank coming ted talk,0 whats psychology redflagi thought necessary asking here since may useful understanding considering it far think is believe brain cannot distinguish reality vs fantasy were talking evolutionary point humans species commit redflag reason commit redflag believe solution ending pain brain thinks redflag solution help survive better reality opposite think happiness choice otherwise would happy think people depressed genetically wired brains stimulated much like adhd person is perhaps evolutionary trait think modern society made difficult depressed people since society caters average person way depression im trying understand better thought giving ideas depression way get better understanding think understanding important trait world,1 anyone wanna vibe discord group chat ideally like cause little kids weird im matters,0 im scared itive close could never succeed it omg dont wanna live rest life ugh,1 want die decorate first ever christmas tree life cause cousin sister decided instead megrowing up christmas big deal family due poverty could never buy decorate christmas tree life went on grew lost interest buying decorating christmas treecoz life fucked mood disorder severe depression two years loosing father therapy sessions decided try celebrating festival time celebrate living make mom happy according therapist advice probably reminded wishes going left wishes high expectations always end big disappointments turns cousin specifically informed ill decorate tree mistake brought decorated without minemy mom involvement sweet actually meant good sadly one joy looking long fcking time got robbed off felt extremely cheated im left dark thoughts hand looks like butchered meat blood came sufficient sooth anymore favourite chocolate icecream pizza comforting me wish cut little deeper enough end pathetic life all,1 soluna is slower than accord,0 anyone d printer use wanna d print japanese girlfriend,0 @rileyvann Thank you! Seems to be working great! Took the photo in downtown LA. ,0 My mom stress more about the fact that my room smells like weed than the fact that I suffer from severe depression... it really be like that sometimes,1 miserable ranti know ill never happy ill never depression weighing brain works im know life wont get better isnt even great right now love family value much dont want grow away know ill never miserable dont necessarily want kill anymore realize would never want inflict parents absolutely hate miserable despising life much im hopeless useless,1 @LeonieLion ...in Sweden that is. I am as usual to tired for twitter.,0 kill constant dreamsmy ptsd dreams constantly never leave vivid dreams every time shut eyes draining kinda bit break tonight suicidal ideation active usual want swallow pills fall asleep forever thing stopping really planning dog loved ones even boyfriend cant stop me dog can need good vibes sent way try fall asleep tonight dont know want wake dont want dog suffering god help brain,1 chris 9 0 that s very true i think so many people are suffering from anxiety and depression right now we need to just listen to what they have to say listen to what s going on in there life right now,1 @freaky_curves funny ,0 line work occasionally get contacted independent filmmakers trying publicize film can take look lowbudget films often make think future hollywood going dogs while though film born pure passion desire created purpose reminding film industry good movies still possible short film b r k e n directed alex ferrari genuine surprise worth second lookbr br clocking scant minutes b r k e n tries tell compelling but surreal story almost back story audience plopped middle action clue happening young woman samantha jane polay awakens dream hear gunshot subsequently abducted home awakes surrounded group mercenary thugs look like would home comic book nasty guys girls larger life guns knives way outbr br the kicker that despite low budget film play like one beginning feeling b r k e n shot edited produced professionals looks like something quentin tarantino might done day jamming wachowski brothers film sharp cool looks good feels like something bigbr br the acting much better usually see smaller films polay paul gordon who plays head killer duncan well chosen two speaking roles film carry film special effects matter good would saved film bad acting thankfully polay manages convey true fear gordon manages come real psycho limited roles seem filled lesser talent hardly showsbr br the downside b r k e n minutes long story ends twilight zone twist seems bit contrived hardly subtle watching it felt like supposed epiphany feeling much mundane hoped would be film tries hard one puzzles leaves audiences talking hours local coffee shop comes unsatisfying keep thinking first minutes longer filmbr br my rating ,0 @so_jentastic Thanks girl i plan on making this day a good one somehow lol,0 keep finding situations people end hating me one really wants around anymore past years could never figure why maybe physical appearance even online communities everyone eventually ends yelling me maybe something say always known trouble understanding social ques i put quotes really understand are know people take offence things pretty easily also champion say whatever want afraid talk say something get mad say something hurts either speak do yell more probably say dw nice people world are acknowledge that almost everyone least decent irl world busy deal problems always ask stuff anything busy even respond sometimes always believed nice get places life does nice people time me want find something suck everything hard find passion alone nothing done,1 @krist0ph3r nononono... i'm totally peachy!! I just realized something mindblastic all of a sudden.. that's all ,0 paul reiser steps away standup comedy spotlight write warmly humorous gently tender story family see see expect surprises us thing folks set new standards film fine little story well told reminds us significant bonds family representsbr br sam kleinman peter falk workaholic times pushing wife muriel olympia dukakis daughters mackenzie connolly lydia jordan son ben paul reiser background one day muriel leaves note years marriage leaving daughters along bens wife rachel elizabeth perkins immediately begin search whereabouts leaving confused hurt disgruntle sam sort things road trip son ben road trip becomes time two men learn mean status father son family members sam relaxes first time life introduces workaholic ben pleasures fun living trip comes end phone call whereabouts muriel left regrouping wiser family draws storys warm ending seemed better and well differentbr br falk reiser play like pros are many ways film belongs brief moments olympia dukakis screen reminding us one strongest matriarchs film well worth viewing grady harp,0 complicated love problem crushi dont instagram snapchatjust phone number thing know her went training w found number training whatsapp group doesnt know know number would dumb say hi trought messages bcs doesnt know i also found snapchat thinkif doesnt add do confused u probably,0 help study physics pretty pls cant concentrate know anything chapters tommorow exam im grade help,0 breathes fucking cutely sleep ahhhhhhimnotgonnagetoverthisboyinalongasstime,0 "you can cure bipolar depression by eating fruits, going to the gym, and discovering what YOU'RE doing wrong — a dumbass w a no-name online degree in holistic medicine",1 friend would needed them maybe feel suicidal againim much better used be ive tried hard get am feel like progress anymore feel like im stuck forever now stuck feeling depressed every month so feel better again back depression endless cycle ive reached friends told need someone ive lonely depressed told ive suicidal care im always theyre going something want someone talk hang with one wants help know cant normal life compromise mental health order occasionally happy,1 could watch movie day love it probably time favorite movies but way badger parts bad language bad exactly g rated great movie recommend everybody way making type lines text going keep typing let post comment okay still typing getting annoying ugh still four go anyway watch movie even already seen it care lines yet nope lines left even know wants this think done wait minute im done sorry people know torture listening me well suppose read comment should wrote it probably done now finally bye,0 took mg mg pills fluoxetinemight enough trick ill figure something out,1 Love "good girls go bad" ,0 brother gets n w paying hell yea already finished like good,0 holidays worstnot dont want others happy reason seeing everyone laughing fun amp actually living reminds empty life people like much i trouble living im feeling worst today beginning holidays,1 imagine humanoid skirt caption might well give shot image black text surrounded white box funniest shit ive ever seen lol,0 formy almost year old daughter almost year old son id gone long ago whats going happen need anymore,1 "walk, run, eat, laugh, eat, eat, laugh, sleep - perfect evening ahead ",0 the matador stars pierce brosnan burned assassin hes james bond gone seed tootight garish clothes gold chains ugly haircut struggling assassin julian noble mexico trying regain nerve staying hotel likable downonhis luck businessman danny wright greg kinnear also trying regain equilibrium danny desperate close deal return wife denver hope davis good newsbr br noble wright unexpectedly become friends wright convinces noble reveal certain techniques demonstrates bullfight noble eventually targeted employers shows denver br br writer director richard shepard qa delightful movie austin film festival shepard also luck suffering loss agent rejection recent scripts decided write story one would buy create character one would want play pierce brosnan called brosnan regains equilibrium movie there life bond wonderful flair selfdeprecating comedy miss it br br stay closing credits read filmmakers say bullfighting look forward richard shepards projects,0 poohpot lmao im sorry poohpot i ate it all,0 question regarding redflaghello rredflagwatch question redflag know ask ive come here understand redflag must always taken seriously intend to people fake suicidal cause problem people suicidal bad place,1 w e e e e r httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvjphgzqmyhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvjphgzqmy,0 pretty sure everything electrical in my house is slowly dying on me like i have enough money to replace all my stuff,0 but the international font look ugly going back to original font after all who d tweet in malayalam,0 anyone want chat idk like dm u do im probably gonna go sleep soon tho respond im probably sleeping,0 wow arms gotten muscular recently flex arm defined inch dent forms side near body see muscle raise inch,0 worst day life opened fortune cookie fortune hurt worse getting rejected girl one best friends,0 youtube algorithm working us believe youtube algorithm trying make fail nnn benn days morning ive seen videos recoil sniper girls ass mia malkova exercising tricks super seducer geralt fucking yennefer fun fact these recommended,0 today seventeenth birthday mostly spent alonemy seventeenth birthday today predicted quite lonesome one went school forced smile peers friends acknowledged birthday not feel entitled it school went work forced smile coworkers customers served get wrong things happened today made smile coworkers told happy birthday even sang me brought birthday card balloon shift customers told happy birthday really it that sort came home depressive tired trance like usually do party anything friends that special conditions kind know hate seemed entitled guess wish felt wanted appreciated birthday once friends even play game me something usually always together anyway busy least said were end day yes people acknowledge existed birthday still ended coming home alone depressed nothing else day really changing im still old depressed lonely loser always am nobody seemed care much usual could tell everybody said nice things obligation birthday could tell really care again guess expected anything always expect something go way once still get disappointed always ends favor maybe im selfish though know wish somebody loved join house get surprised friends family balloons streamers cake stuff let know care proud making far guess commodities like soul contract ampxb im done whining though know tons people way worse me wish things different thanks reading commenting do cheers everyone,1 life worth losingim articulate please forgive me braindamaging psychiatric drugs specifically chlorpromazine neuroleptics forced upon child moodiness moodiness caused daily physical emotional abuse poverty shrinks love pathologize everything cannot tolerate social situations even around extended family trigger panic attack withdrew school sixth grade mother claimed homeschool status bullshit though continued learning web sat passed new ged battery may collegeready designation transcript yet find employer willing interview me ive submitted thirty job applications and followedup phone calls poverty abuse aspergers syndrome tarnished hope better future nineteen year old feel like fing leech living grandparents thank reading rant truly appreciate time,1 need girlfriend give girlfriend shes mine thanks food,0 motivation commit redflaghello ive never tought id get here wow lots fucked things happened life they r fucked dont want mention here friends doubt anyone cares me still go school yeah sure laugh comments well actually parents care know automatically act normal im im scared tell actually feel inside kinda wanted visit psychiatrist never convinced it shit building inside trust would cant get tought would parents feel think like maybe would blame themselves another reason grandma passed away month ago pretty much financially motionally parents fucked death would completely destroy mom wallet im fucking better dissapointed everyway could theres still things doesent know me dont know put shit thats inside im literally nowhere feelings inside destroying me would dickhead idk leave note fault smthng tried fucking hard one ever noticed fuck im tired,1 got something really important tell guys fote gtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgt,0 just awhile ago me and my dad played wii sports and it was so much fun! ,0 Did you know that 4-10% of people in England will experience depression in their lifetime? #Talkfest #ItsOkToTalk #ThursdayThoughts http://socsi.in/32qe1  http://socsi.in/32qe1 ,1 feeling suicidal yet againi want live anymore want die leave behind people still love me want hurt like that ive got much pain inside know do feel like id better around anymore know hurt people still love me feel trapped world never accept want shit world anymore horrible want live anymore cant anything it good job gun would seriously consider shooting head,1 "@FRANKTRIGG And if the heat doesn't get you, watch out for those crazed Disney fanatics ",0 cant bring iti cant kill myself either pussy trying shove handful pills throat pussy try tying belt around throat problem everyone couldnt even father today dont know still here ive never known im here every day feels like waste time repeated cycle cant even talk therapist shell probably tell parents something worse cant talk anyone it noone would get act fucking tell something bothering fucking stupid,1 @MarkTheMogul is a beast yall betta follow him now b4 yall hear his stuff on the radio!!!...u the best homie!! ,0 beatccr i can t wait to read that one still waiting on my copy,0 dont want get upso sunday im starting go work rather kill myself im ready dont want see anyone always like dont know whats wrong me thinking maybe s kill maybe im going live till next rd birthday shit getting tuffer,1 comment age backwards see officer old enough,0 anyone else consumed morbid curiosity im constantly rwatchpeopledie rmorbidreality raccidentalsuicide well sites like death addict best gore documenting reality etc concern myself bragging im phased it savour atrocities feel like must keep consuming them hardly anything fascinates more,1 i don t know if something like this ha happened to any of you but if i try to sleep on my bed i wake up in the middle of the night or can get any rest i can only get to sleep on the couch i m worried about this because i don t want to sleep on my bed any tip,1 want burdeni want die done life im aware death hurt people truly love me see getting anywhere im lazy apathetic found pursuing path others wanted follow feel death way out aware reaching love would right thing do refuse know them know would immediately give anything wanted want that want manipulate others changing actions holding life hostage im good person even loathe idea faling low become manipulator like that want go silence feel want talk tell grateful everything love family friends love see well am always fine that blessed people care me feel enough never enough simply know is want disappear forgotten death accomplish that know will killing feels close enough,1 i really want a new job not particually a better one just a new one,0 fuck antidepressant all i want is a hug i know a hug will make me feel so good right now that s it that s my cent,1 Hopes everyone has a blessed day 2day is payday! yay-e-yay!,0 Day off the sun. Now I'm going to enjoy today ,0 i wish i wa dead im too much of a fucking pussy to kill myself i rely on pot to function there isn t a single moment of my day that i m not thinking about my ex girlfriend i m extremely pretentious while also being insanely insecure i hate my friend i hate my town i hate the way that i am i m unsure of my view and future i have debilitating anxiety i fall into the same loop over and over of making progress in life only to fall back into depression and start again my passion is guitar and writing song and all of them are garbage my parent suck i m afraid of sleeping at night because of nightmare that trigger my trauma and make me dissociate i can t drink anymore because it make me want to attempt suicide fuck,1 Procastinated by doing up a new playlist for TCC. Now off to Nalina's for teh 18th birthday bash. 2Forever ,0 im waiting parents die kill myselfmy parents good people adopted raised best efforts want upset them especially mother attached would go insane kill myself im almost lover life loneliness unbearable right want live like this time want parents sad im waiting,1 year old woman fucking sick tired treated like person enough sometimes want fucking throw phone wall read shit see sent me talking guy seemed nice nice able talk normal things flirting all really amazing actually flirted with felt like person talked weather countries pets real mundane shit nice even got share bit traumas saw picture conversation change told me no warned seen look like going hard ask nudes get thirsty said it told talk always days normal stuff obviously hard person too actually said quote yeah knew attractive fucking audacity offended saying conversations ruined could control himself basically cannot get basic human respect normal conversation someone sees fucking look makes feel like nothing feel fucking stupid thinking person nice sat genuinely upset two days now explained upset one leave conversation never apologised sick feeling like object sick nervous guy talks me sick scared incase see face sick scared full stop deserve fucking respect deserve treated treat you deserve heard fucking say no feelings fucking sick tired thirsty fucking assholes cannot accept wrong acting creepy give fuck offended tell flirtyi offended would listen first place honestly hide face get normal conversation hate shit sometimes feel like want hide away want talk anyone already hard make friends put crap top it tired tired treated like human being dealt alot years past sexual abuse physical abuse rape survivor fucking several times shit makes feel even worthless thoughts go back used think abused i pleasure matter feel want sex good for puts really bad place know deal stuff anymore know everyone deal it online world feel like ignore everyone incase want that fair shit scary know trust deserve respect too,1 get home go bed struggle getting morning im trying hard feel like cant get right feel stupid literally everything ive done life far way ive gone things im terrified letting ruin me try hard pretend everything ok cant anymore,1 kid up at the crack of dawn i m still full of cold bleh starting work stuckrecord,0 @BlueEyedGirl18 Thanks for the follow (um),0 i know i can be intense to deal with when my anxiety kick in i don t know how to get out of the low just wanted to kill my self really,1 girls w huge glasses look cute af really,0 yesterday evening i had the worst panic attack of my entire life this ended up making me feel drained defeated and like i wa an absolute freak for the rest of the day i ended up venting on a subreddit about how i felt and a lot of the comment actually helped me a lot and one reminded me of a couple of old trick that a therapist taught me awhile ago that i wished i would ve remembered yesterday when your brain is feeling really overloaded and so busy that you almost seem manic and don t even know where to begin to start the best thing you can do is force yourself to sit down and allow your body to sink into the chair while you close your eye and just sit there in silence for a moment this allows you to relax your body long enough to feel the emotion that is bothering you the most however if you find more than one specific emotion coming to mind you are still too overwhelmed and need to sit for awhile longer once i can identify what i am feeling the most i just say one word out loud sad scared tired angry etc and reflect why i might be feeling that way and what i am able to do on that very moment to make myself feel better taking a shower napping asking someone for a hug etc it s important to focus on the thing that you feel like you can start to work on in that moment because if you allow your brain to slip back to thing out of your control you will end back up at square one he also reminded me that these are all normal emotion and that i am not weird or crazy for feeling the way that i am and that it is ok to ask for help or set up boundary for myself i used to use this one more during busy quarter in college but can still be really helpful for trying to squish anxiety down before having to do something you can t get out of which could be taking a test going for an interview or even making a phone call i like to picture all of my anxiety and worry a little people boarding a boat on a river and just like to imagine them floating away and out of my view even if it is just for the time needed to complete that one task that i have to do i really hope these help someone because these trick used to help me a ton when i wa going through some rough patch in life and i think i m going to start using them again,1 best friends dad died know talk got hit truck really close like closer dad i talk her want nice hurt feelings say wrong thing im going delete like days thanks help,0 i like freddie his so cute.. ,0 empty voidone afraid life death words never spoke truth im year old male living california currently ive depression ocd now taken life top im put simply shitty person im unemployed living parents house hope going anywhere failed navy let everyone including down take voices head felt weak wanting out dropped college cause id rather get fucked anything all ive plenty jobs ive either fired fucked somehow im pretty sure sort chest problem cant even sleep left side without chest hurting feeling heart pound lost recent friends awful them friends im burden family try productive want drink sleep went rehab drug addiction see getting better know im hoping writing ill feel even minute tranquility thank reading,1 twilight didn t come yesterday finger crossed for today,0 @CheekyNath Newcastle are so rubbish @onlineanalytics see you both next season when the mighty Leicester whup your asses ,0 wishing i wa getting 900 for free but noooo mr rudd want to play mean,0 gooood morning ,0 yall milkshake order tomorrow place got hella flavors cant decide one get flavors narrowed either cherry oreo chocolate blackberry raspberry pumpkin,0 life worthlessi done everything can best could demons chase nightmares back head stuff dark rooms mind darkness bleeds corrupts hearti know people good see beauty everyone opens heart before friend family partnerthere beauty all pour love sacrifice heart life give everything see others built up commit giving income helping building others carry s car time homeless almost always stop people walking side highway could tell names stories several homeless city used spend time sitting them giving hugs rides love cherish othersand alone always been lastest abandonment damn fault too fell love married woman would have except marriage one neglected abused took mantle loving gorgeous depths heart facade came down victim ran back abuser one mebut person actually see me love me leave died short yearsthe relationship before fell apart emotionally abusive could wrong would shift blame use guilt avoid admit fault anything serious finally confronted her lefti perfect person hold doubt ball wax selfsacrificing otherfocused see take responsibility failures absolutely give life always bettering myself sole ambition best man best potential husband woman assumed walking earth waiting find heryet efforts naught search search put many ways yet connections few ones form fade away quite rapidlymy one fear unlovable walking dark streets mind led two previous attempts life difference now live city could shot walking street nightnow spend hours day trying find something do someone talk to still searching someone love desolate worthless soul heart yearns leave dark streets mind take last walk would ever walk darkness take long nowi want die want pain end walk path destruction again,1 scaredi grew child prodigy always getting perfect grades singing locally preprofessionally every parents dream im older stakes higher cant cope pressure im crumbling want make parents happy cant even give im shitty person core days like today barely eat everything feels terrible even foods give sliver happiness taste like mush sometimes bang head wall hoping switch click ill person want be ive always people pleaser ive always done wanted do im want anymore even know me is im good anything used good at special traits made me gone im failure mom dad always say theyll support matter what know theyve given pushing theyre scared ill break ive gained severe anxiety almost depression amount pressure parents placed me never like wanted will knew good did wanted something could proud of wanted compliments humblebrags facebook newest achievements love much want happy theyve always loved me ive taken granted dynasty child prodigy over know anymore terrifying push stay alive everyday comitted redflag could never forgive parents could never cause emotional pain im strong enough keep afloat mean im sinking though every day battle within sleep day pretend everything fine fine want fine feel stuck hope fading wanna happy without worrying eventual tsunami sadness comes it im scared myself do,1 fckeveryword in case you didn t know depressed adjective low in spirit sad especially affected by psychological depression vertically flattened having the central part lower than the margin http t co iv 9md l,1 yawwwn got ta get up early tomorrow who s ready for the weekend,0 talking friend talking loved ones either dead dont love back mean much talking alone life im point nothing hurts anymore people say please wont care started talking also sit room watching netflix i actually alone nobody talk love strays talking current girlfriend ex goes you really need girlfriend brain went did even fucking listen said,0 hoommmee from work! going to bed to wake up that much closer to thursday! "I know a boy and his name is...",0 mm twitter appears to have eaten some of my post naughty twitter,0 bed work in am,0 title every day is a struggle gym help a bit but it s temporary i can t take this life anymore for long,1 katortiz not forever see you soon,0 disable ring im classic high school scenario parents going town weekend want friends over issue ring system covers sides house even living room anyone know disable things,0 Just finished a makeshift photoshoot. Dog was acting crazyy LETS GO ORLANDO MAGIC!!! ,0 wednesday my b day n don t know what do,0 everything life favor right now feel like thisim getting paid love constantly keep writing great music enjoy tastes bland feels black white girlfriend love feel down keep pushed different medications zoloft come closest working im constantly crying least get erection medication love life sometimes do sit think while try hard make friends always tell want friend almost makes wonder sometimes im autistic something know it im adult feel like one people treat things know like common sense feel isolated main reason kill trust anyone else take care cats im sorry mini rant idk else put this think every night luckily stop myself advice,1 d castillo ugh that s disconcerting,0 Yay the sun is out today ,0 teenagers world help meme making meme history assignment simply need guys help come best slogan shirt kid supposed super cool actually biggest cringe example catch fists sesame street send final product done like,0 know doi firmly want kill myself keep thinking it know thoughts pass then absence thoughts feel unsupported scared isolated friends ones understanding problems own triggered panic attack someone earlier talking feelings grandad said go home im house im going upset complain things im guessing cos bad blood pressure thought going aampe im physical danger thats probably recommended gp said something like things get worse redflag ideation like crisis call helpline go aampe remember exact words someone online said would better call nhs like hours ive either sleeping sitting around wondering feel seems messaged best friend asking whether would go aampe hours ago hes still responded still feel shitty before think im particularly impulsive person ive thought many times actually killing never actually something undo im kind nothing id decided family worth living for potential pain worth it etc mean im really despairing feel like never get sufficient help maybe one day decide worth pain loss opportunity im might late anyone help me now im making move kill myself people particularly care many people ill nhs could busy with makes feel kind cheated though teen threatened section anorexia recall feeling despair desire actually die time want help forced i sectioned cos accepted forcefed desperately want help gp surgery literally available appointments every three weeks making emergency appointment like aampe thing would feel selfish plus cant stand gps even appear diagnosis depression although psychiatrist diagnosed years back say low mood patient summary depressed mood priority severity whatever section suspected uti years back,1 saw movie first time years ago still new satisfied great hollywood makebelief story teenagers however lifelike much would want believe it stories never happen thats irritating watch movies like that play teenagers minds imagine many girls still high schools believed magic got disappointed recommend movie little sister cousin director spent time thinking plot instead thinking actors yes actors good idea worth lot films teenagers make better one,0 one lieeverything ive thought anything big delusion know sounds angsty big lie pretending happy everyone thinks im better ever ive never alone empty entire life im still broken im better hiding it sort selfrespect realize friends people life last couple years hate guts completely act like want real yet everything feels empty time worse ever makes fucking sick people tell im good guy anything jerks even ive got really good living complete lie feel like actual self im hollow completely gone ive autopilot long know genuine anymore almost miss dying inside feeling compared dead inside feeling,1 want someone know im catsnot cant feed themselves love them dont want sad gone used lots reasons stay alive days them,1 need stop stalking people like ever someone says something funny follow scroll readcomment shit ton posts,0 very recently my life ha been treating me absolutely horribly and i haven t been able to see anyone i ve loved or my irl crush for a week and a half now and it driving me insane because i just want to see them and i ve done nothing but sit in my room in bed and die for a week straight and i can t leave my house because i have covid btw it like i get to watch everyone else in my life go on and do the thing they ve wanted to while i m stuck in bed trying to take my life or just sleep but it never work and it never help my back ha been hurting for the longest time and i don t know if it normal or not but i can t seem to stand up straight and when i do it hurt and it hurt to walk i just want to sleep and do nothing else,1 im back unfortunatelyi thought could find way out moved across country try become better self failed miserably im soo fed miserable life want end rather tall building near hear around stories tall rather easy gain roof access may look like fly way beautiful people today hope going better mine bad day remember pet would sad confused come home anyway thanks reading red,1 short venti cant high functioning tired cant cant trying things going well life like see getting better one thing makes feel better moment thinking ending trying fight get better could hurt many people try know long left told anyone gotten worse want go back ward want out,1 @byatrobe busy! tho busy in a v diff way fr how it used to be. so far so gd..happy thanks for asking! glad to hear ur shoots' gg well!,0 im guy set date ive decided talk itim things little complicated mentioned last post also suffer massive depersonalizationderealization basically persistent existential crisis well paranoid psychosis going years ill try explain meaning defined terms things meaningful relation things etc etc etc rather like define word using words strip away recursion find existence state utterly devoid inherent meaning potentially purpose realize this activates homunculus inside head vetoes attempts make order disorder sense nonsense purposes life get subconsciously dissected reveal empty cores meaninglessness ephemerality universal indifference towards condition live constants reconcile anything constants is well inconstant goes long enough objects lose meaning look car longer see car shapes make car car becomes strange sounding vague concept head actually associate anything perceive like constant dream world thats derealization along comes depersonalization im really sure put words simply feel real everyone internal feeling self inner ego exist anymore thoughts everything series unrelated automatic actions feels unnatural somehow turns normal human behavior even im typing really it see hands typing see words screen feel like hands feel like alien add paranoid psychosis occasional illusions grandeur work hear phone ringing look see not think network administrators work monitoring connections posting stuff reddit response mains posts taunting me think people trying tell things using hidden meanings say like hint giving im picking on etc etc etc constant battle rational mind paranoia far battle attrition new years date give up ask yes care multiple psychologists psychiatrists tried dozens medications self medication medication tried change city change job regular exercise good diet regular sleep when can edit forgot add sometimes cause pain feel real try cause obvious permanent damage,1 advice wantedi ingested like mg oxybutynin am right pm immediately prior ingesting tablets drank bottle beer evening two bottles beer wine questions really count redflag attempt chance dying tried overdose milk would count im fairly certain cant die oxybutynin said dont mix alcohol ended hallucinating stumbling around like idiot also do dont really want call poison control hallucinations memory problems gone still hard focus vision coordination problems though im happy alive,1 many people ironing shirts like iron shirt every day school notice many people wrinkly ass shirts became something always notice probably favorite insult doesnt matter said pointed yo wrinkly shirt like coming school shirt looking like that,0 25-04-2018,1 im verge killing race whitepretty much reason im suicidal right race spent another night news website vice reading horrible things say white people try white thing would make want live people hate harder harder read vice article saying ariana grande needs painful reminder shes white madame tusauds figure amount tanning change test exactly imagining youre causing someone pain i doubt ariana gives shit advancing cause social justice all people literally think race biologically genetically cogent real someones race defined genetic test read comment saying transracialism nasty white women like disgusting repugnant human like rotten food vomit existing audacity confused body dysmorphic abused mom mentally ill idea someone wanting change race apparently abhorrent cannot win feel like way find relief would take dna test come even percent nonwhite thats thing could make want go living point,1 i have a monkey minion!!!! ,0 jonathanrknight good knight hun looking forward to ur tweet again hate that i keep missing out on the fun cuz of the time difference,0 i confess crush yay firstly sorry english im vietnamese yesterday confess crush discord day replied translated i think something friend best friend im sorry hope understand what now,0 not feeling well and back hurt,0 me im sitting womens clothing store waiting sister mom girl works walks smiles least times comes compliments shoes comes another time tells need anything let know could mistaken guy store women going need anything right may overthinking seems like shes leaving subtle hints make move idk let know guys ps compliment made feel super good daily reminder compliment someone whenever youre thinking something genuinely nice them may make day made mine,0 f really messed life dont hopemy family always shitty me dont speak family anymore it speak mom phone week speak brother birthdays holidays sister father contact with extended family grew isolated from dont speak either dont friends like mean isnt single person world call phone casual conversation otherwise with one person call husband got married last year knew schizophrenic knew family antisemitic mom saluted hitler front knowing im jewish married anyway werent even contact family much stopped taking meds psychosis relapsed couldnt function work staying parents house stressed psychosis triggering suicidal thoughts keep thinking much fucking hate family like zero repercussions would want actually cause physical harm mother also really angry would jeopardize finances ability work taking meds feel really alone like reason live like need divorce husband dont want kill myself divorce starting life seems harder killing myself dont know im fucking exhausted emotional support whatsoever feel like failure like made poor naive decisions im paying feel like want life doesnt matter existence doesnt matter feels like wont ever get better cheers,1 guys comment lots comments normally dont cause nobody probably see it hundreds thousands maybe even dozen bother,0 im intelligent need sex waste time id rather make money,0 damn im tryna get laid semester got condoms got room myself need gurl now well lets see goes,0 want human interactionits months since ive even touched another human days since ive spoken face face one outside work interaction get texting people occasion same want interact person want fucking hug im lonely hard stay alive im already struggling wish someone real life loved cared would talk could see real talk wanted to feel like ill die lonliness point sounds dramatic guess true im lonely maybe ill kill spare pain mixed everything else,1 taste shiddy humor httpsyoutuberbyu_todkhttpsyoutuberbyu_todk,0 dhar mann change name fans missed opportunity call dhar men,0 i recently started a new job and i m finding it difficult to socialize with my some of my colleague i have no problem with one on one but i tend to struggle with social anxiety in group setting a a result i often avoid joining my group s table during lunch fairly small around people my biggest concern is that i m half everyone s age and they ve all known each other for year in addition these are group of people i wouldn t normally interact with in social setting when i joined the table at one point i felt awkward and out of place worrying about everything that came out of my mouth i also joined them during happy hour but felt bored out of my mind and didn t want to be there i have made work friend during my orientation but they all ended up working different shift so i rarely see them i ve been spending my lunch alone so far and a much a it s way le stressful i sometimes feel sad and lonely i am not the only one alone in the break room though i didn t expect to be that person although i don t particularly relate to my colleague what are some way to get closer to them side note i work alongside with them all day hr shift in a lab setting so it s not like i never interact with them i can t tell if wanting to spend break alone is rude antisocial or actually common,1 three children born exact timeduring lunar eclipsejust th birthday embark killing spreebloody birthday typical slasher early sits pretty average stuff plenty nuditythe evil children never generate menace almost suspensethere also gore scares bloody birthdaybut film mildly entertainingunfortunately real explanation provided kids sudden homicidal maniathe murder scenes quite gruesome example weve got death handgunbaseball batskipping rope shovelso fan early s slasher movies give one look,0 im fucking failureeveryone leaves me always have either leave themselves someone else makes them everybody see im worst possible fucking thing ever live hate much literally cannot express it amount words actions ever come close much hate myself need die would generally improve life everybody around me guess anyone else im inconveniencing taking oxygen id write letter asking organs donated theyd probably kill someone know heart black fucking dead try kind people fucking kick ledge lose grip spiral mentally unstable im worth anything im fucking peice shit would shoot think live long enough someone else me,1 sixteen year old smiling lines face want call wrinkles thats is started form last year little bit since especially two three months seen go reached chin area feel awful ruins day catch reflection see themi smoke drugs eat like average person seen fat people snokers age them anyone similar experience please let know methods,0 pet semetary creed family moved small town ludlow family consists father louis mother rachel brother gage daughter ellen greeted kindness jud crandall jud could basically tell entire history ludlowbr br behind creeds new house path leading pet cemetery spelled pet sematary ellen wants go see it jud willfully takes family trip start hell creed familybr br when rachel kids gone ellens cat church dies jud feels ellen ready death cat suggests louis follow path past pet cemeterybr br jud tells louis burial ground used micmac indians louis buries church without juds help couple days later church returns alive hellbr br this movie one two horror movies could actually scare me aside the exorcist greatest performance would ever zelda rachels sister spinal meningitis victor pascow ghost tries help creeds making mistake bringing back things deadbr br the music movie plays extravagant part time sad mysterious goes along movie wonderfullybr br ,0 identify introvert since exposed internet year always found comfort reading psychology fascinated mbti big models jungian typology things along lines focused much self improvement tried improve skills figured atleast acting like extrovert tends make social life hell lot easier whenever try feel like myself kind become numb among people realise let speak often night alone think forcing socialise talking friends kind helping building social persona live philosophy everyone alone life long fall making vulnerable front people fine want anyone know real me guess reason experienced firmly believe one ever understand fully tried explaining people feel every friendfamily ever waited turn speak ever talk myself anyways question confused part should keep happy keep living head stop interacting humans literally love living myself keep trying socialise also believe want earn even small amount money need develop social game keep mind every human including family person never reveal true self talking things want whenever done life people go blank like huge lot complex even comprehend believe tried way many times imagine losing definition,1 Finally turning in for the night. Busy day tomorrow. Domo comes home! ,0 So i definitely had an amazing night! Havent laughed that hard in like a month. ,0 Walking down these cold Wellington streets in his new jacket. So warm! ,0 read pleasei know title this honestly everything life beloved boyfriend dumping seemingly feeling thing after almost year broken me every time something bad happens feel way every time feel like rock bottom im finally going it always manage something else happen sink even lower said feel though timewell closest ive ever redflag keep seeing signs telling right thing hard obviously idk even went er monday told admit id kill myself locked room hours let go haha sign cant even cut anymore feels like end cant even bring cut energy anyone experie ce this,1 @adrianacisneros yea! the insurance is gonna pay for it all! I was so happy! lol I'm taking it tommorrow ,0 feel way hey im pretty new here expect many see reply im month away turning but ive felt depressed lately depression symptoms ive sad ive felt like boring person lately im freaking ive never felt way before feel like want anything anyone while but long story short normal feel way,0 trans mental illness personally think delusion,0 I just got 11 hours of sleep. I feel quite energized now. ,0 bipling are you coming to au or is cobi going to you jealous lol misser you,0 give upnot going kill myself think im done living cant motivate anything beneficial life anymore schoolwork working out may even make term care anymore amount help counseling seems changing that,1 someone who i know also suffers from anxiety also told me that everything will be fine and those are word i sort of never am able to grasp and i think he saw the look on my face that these word almost didn t make sense to me,1 @tommcfly we have some kick-ass beaches here in Venezuela! C'mon Fletcher! You all have so much fans here ,0 stop omg literally soon month passes brain forgets bad end refused listen feelings love bombed made feel like gonna together forever made trust him allowed take back love yous whenever wasnt perfect enough him perfect want love cant make peace someone like that theres use trying every time tried ended getting frustrated bc would talk cute girls apologize things shit talk friends im fucked,0 be offline,0 i have been struggling with anxiety and panic attack for most of my life but i finally seem to have gotten a handle on it for the time being i still have stress and anxiety from time to time but the panic attack are much le frequent i actually can t remember when i last had one and i used to have them a lot and when they do come i m better able to handle them so i ve been able to get out into the world a bit more now but there is one problem that is still lingering from when i wa more anxious i can t tell whether my desire to say no to certain thing is because i genuinely don t want to do it or because of anxiety although i wouldn t call myself agoraphobic anymore i still always have the automatic urge to say no to anything anyone asks me to do i understand that about myself and usually it s enough to give myself some time to think it over or not think about it at all and then i m able to decide that it is actually something i wanted to do i am just nervous but lately i ve been feeling this intense urge to avoid doing certain thing and i don t know if it s because my anxiety is creeping back in or because i just don t want to do them my mind tell me i just don t want to but a you all know our mind are not always the best reference for example i moved from the u to italy and i finally mustered up the courage to join a book club in my new town to try to make some friend here the other member are italian but we all discus the book in english which is awesome because i can speak more freely that way i wa really anxious the first time but it turned out to be great it wa really fun and i couldn t wait to go again until right before the next meeting when i got anxious again again it wa fine though and this happened three or four time but every time i wa actually at the book club i wasn t anxious the only problem wa the anticipation but after the first couple meeting the book club itself started to be le enjoyable aside from one or two other member no one is very nice or talkative and hardly anyone read the book and for the last few meeting we have only discussed depressing and completely unrelated to the book thing like war and death and covid all the thing i read and go to the book club to escape from for a while also my being american apparently make me like an ambassador and the leader of the group keep asking me for the american opinion on this or what this or that is like in america and i usually have to tell them about stuff that isn t great like health care police brutality issue etc it isn t fun anymore and there is also the added problem of the leader of the book club sending me message outside the group asking me to edit her assignment she ha to do for a magazine and while she s way over the top with her gratitude about it i feel like she is just using me which is making me not want to go even more so now every time there is a meeting coming up i again get that feeling like i don t want to go but now i m thinking i might just genuinely not want to go because it s not fun not just because of the anticipatory anxiety last time i actually skipped it but i felt the same kind of guilty feeling i feel when i skip something because i m anxious this week there s another meeting and again i just don t want to go even though i read the book but i don t know if i should push through it and see if it s a better meeting this time or just listen to my gut and skip it again and or quit the club i really wanted it to be good though because i love book and i wa hoping to make friend here doe anyone have any advice tl dr how do you tell the difference between not wanting to do something because of anxiety and just not wanting to do it when you can t trust your own gut to tell you,1 ughi took ten norcos lot vodka im fuxkup cant even kill fml,1 @JeremyPowers Great job Jelly Belly! Good to see Brad up on the top step again. ,0 stopped following therapist discovered experience treating depressed people hid fact specialized couples therapy me psychology intern volunteered help me dumped apparently condition complicated her two years antidepressants redflag meds antipsychotic meds antiepileptic meds months psychiatric ward guess what single improvement lol everyone spout your life worths living crap quits soon discovered many traumas bear fucking greedy world depriving joy making feel less human single friend never felt like relevant someone life piece garbage used walked on even family except mom still care me despises wishes born including dumb fatheri wish undo birth single happy memory help cope back square one,1 im sitting outside alone bottle pills im scared im thinking right nowthis closest ive ever right im calm out almost feels like right move make anyway im sitting concrete outside dorm bottle ibuprofen trazodone ive already taken mg latter plan taking super dose mgkg ibuprofen enough get hospital knows whatll happen then maybe people seeing sick want care though ive alone long know am phone mom earlier far knows im fine please help know want it,1 waiting game nowive taken pills gotta wait well see anything actually goes down wrote sentence note whoever finds me wish say isnt much more,1 nearing endrecently realised really truly one say one mean one talk to boyfriend hes greatest places mentally tries stay strong fear telling thoughts set off knows happens head or atleast basics it think saying loud ruin him stuck nearing end,1 zero tolerance xanax alcoholthat probably would end lifeit sad reality but people meant brought world xanax alcohol combo kill me,1 birthday today told tell happened is yesterday came back trip class parents little sister surprised cool balloons today my actual birthday pizza family best friend also gave present tons people highschool wished happy birthday nice day family also said celebrate next days week ill celebrate closet friends day school bit tough cuz learned untill like pm kinda enjoyed day previous post someone wants httpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsmkrgpxhey_random_people_in__days_its_my_birthdayutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare ask tell everything comes mind even dms sorry long post tho,0 hey guy im gon na be honest here im a year old stoner with a lot of mental health issue i havent ever really had anyone i felt comfortable or safe opening up to and i know it can be the same for a lot of other men of all age i wanted to create a subreddit of some sort a a safe place to vent give and seek advice for domestic or any other reason a men mental health problem seems to be kinda looked over i m looking for advice on how to grow that kind of community i haven t had a safe place like that for me and i dont want men to have the same problem or feel the same way i would eventually like to grow this in to a full fledged non profit organisation kindest regard safewithus,1 send artwork portfolio interested writing samples also provided choose fine receiving portion funds beginning work rest everything completed paypal transactions preferred thanks reading merry christmas,1 might kill people knownot saying know knows future holds,1 im really confused know feel believe think kill me know wanted see simply never told him fault dead now little brother father anymore im confused overcome emotions right now,1 accepted semester summer school enough self discipline online shit especially dumbass school decided theyre going keep online january bruh moment considering school failing,0 get monthly subscription something anythingmy ipsy subscription given something look forward to yes days shit bad cut but stop going far want get ipsy monthly makeup surprise items glam bag lot crates meal boxes many things one could buy give something help want hold longer hope helps,1 Awesome football stadium ,0 please help i need to know if any of you have been on some type of medication for your anxiety and depression and if it s worth me giving it a shot i ve set the date and found the method of my suicide but i want to give life one last try before i pull the final curtain one reason i didn t want to go on medication is because i ve heard it just make you worse and you become too dependent on it in 0 0 my gp didn t want to medicate me after telling him i d made an attempt on my life instead he said to try therapy first which i did in 0 and whilst it wa interesting and i liked my therapist it didn t actually help me please let me know of your experience with being medicated for your depression and anxiety also if you could mention the drug they gave you that would be great thanks,1 methodsjust purely theoretic discussion easiest ways out would prefered way least impact family least destruction body course purely theoretical,1 kpreyes remember my bum leg strike back this time it serious,0 widely unknown strange little western mindblowing colours probably material used johnny guitar guess trucolor something makes blood drips look like shining rubies nearly surrealistic scenes twisted action characters something different far masterpiece paid attention little gem western encyclopedias,0 app needs taken needs addressed game app store carbon copy fleeing complex henry stickmin please download leave bad review needs taken heres link leave review httpsappsapplecomusapptheprisonescapeofstickmanid,0 im going kill need advicesave dont comments want know lethal method bought glock occasion shoot head least pain foolproof method,1 hey folks made discord server talking people around world around people server already dm wanna join,0 hate myselfive become ridicule everyone school every time try something serious friends laugh mock it used hand them exclude hang outs privileges slipping away used work concessions stand school incident longer work there every time hear someone mention it want punch something im thinking head collision end all cant go living like,1 life sucks please dont itdo anything kill yourself drugs therapy excersize least something help change perspective give spark motivation way anyway people overcome redflag faith motivation believe same anyway advice get every day,1 cant live iti cant live kt constant paranoia intrusive thoughts sister days dared things like naked facesitting arse wiping laughing dicking around didnt know im kept reading sex offenders stuff year old went jail sexual assult uk hiw got put sex offendor registry cant live it constant paranoia put sex offendors registry going jail im rapist im paedophile mental images someone raped murdered cant deal,1 cannot tell many times heard parents every time suicidal thoughts next thing know grandparents house celebrating cousin first birthday talking almost dead last easter told wanted die thought going say no lovley life worth living instead said hey everybody else head like wow thanks mom dad totally helps suicidal thoughts saying kind hypocritical fucking sick hearing you get one life live love one killing solve problems depression got worse dad told reproduce told we never truly died offspring carry genes thinking head seriously fucking disappointed want children want get married want die old fucking terrifys fuck honest cannot live forever would rather die young die bed old able move scary fuck told born world works would say l think ok existing need live get one life,1 give enough credit sure beat curer cancer next enstein sperm race also probably beat rapist pedophile simp,0 weakdo know phrase redflag permanent solution temporary problem cant get job deadend town thats temporary problem right cut ties father hell never satisfied are maybe maybe need vent maybe need way out look pros cons really supportive grandmother girlfriend theyre probably reason committed redflag yet guess weak people problems sr makes special right hate want people give random strangers close wanting give up know like feel worthless broke alone life like throwing shit us one care no thats think feel im tired struggling cant take it,1 i am in pain my back and side hurt not to mention cry is made of fail,0 crisisi want kill myself anyone talk to none friends like care respond texts ask hang out know unlikeable one likes me im ugly too also im crazy keep moments crisis like im right every negative thought comes head reality situation one likes me one becomes much bare want kill myself called ex boyfriend times last hour suicidal know else do called texted dad answer texted friends respond normal texts anyways im ugly year old crazy female career living basement friends direction like reason kill myself,1 pillows bad cuddle partners cmon pillow hug back already,0 anyone wanna chat talk literally anything im bored fuck maybe little horny probably sleeping rn sleep weak things me like cook read philosophy listen unhealthy amount music,0 Dentist said my teeth were good. 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Don't do it fast, do it for good ",0 like musicians reference work like one band refers last songs sometimes subtle way like i think saved life i saved life song named stupid theres one thats like i stupid you stupid me sometimes lazy af songwriting tho,0 every second film gorgeous thats earns plot especially devious thinking back last minutes never really felt excitement investment characters anything luxurious graphics framing made certain scenes the car chase instance pedestrian ought look lovely original design occasionally novel camera angles missing kinetic movement closeup shots part language normal actionthriller first hour plods along dialogue feels edited bit stagey people wait finish always react natural cadence would problem recording individuals dialogue separately rare occasions emotions voices quite match screen something really avoided futuristic architecture attractive lots glass wallsceilingsscreens lovely smokemiragespecial effects nicelooking cars exercise graphic design real impact story id argue whole point using drawn animation instead actorscgi really push limits imagination design difficultimpractical mediums although animation renaissance certainly stunning incredibly wellaccomplished never felt like seeing something done beforebr br immortel another french cgi film also suffers imbalance beauty story pace fair marvellous engaging french movies also languid pace lingering shots look someones eyes rain paris cobbles evoke great emotion animators need understand animation brings unique strengths also weaknesses compared reallife technique perhaps would break noir rules film wants stick to think filmmakers also missed glaring opportunity explore future society bit social strata fascistic grip corporations etcbr br i problem recommending renaissance anybody enjoys stylistic design andor animation manga fans particular make filmloving friends sit it take away sumptuous visuals barely average film,0 fork outlet rope throat slit pills laylon bag faster,1 going die one day mods dont take down going die could tommorow years nobody going live forever cant stop thinking im going crazy ,0 friend suicidal dohi friends reddit one closest friends feeling depressed suicidal long time over years last night confided getting much worse recently feeling absolutely hopeless thing holding back much would destroy younger sister went it lie bed day wishing could stop existing one knows feels right now parents suspect therapist probably too already tried commit redflag before tell anyone else fears reactions mother quite forceful father complete opposite feels uncomfortable talking a stranger her therapist older sister aggressive loves younger sister much potentially upset her feels like burden family strongly believes putting they to were right help us around gone university study parents tried force go university past two years friend interest whatsoever trying get job now stays bed day interest either ive depression though nearly long completely different reason tell ridiculously lazy family thinks lack even get morning constantly panicking paranoid everything although always show it im glad feels comfortable enough talk i person knows anything remotely similar know except listen try convince people love her etc i even know right thing do reliant pills always wishing pill cure cure that told every solution comes pillform looking back may cleverest thing say im bit lost person talk to want best friend possibly her so dearest redditors help greatly appreciated thanks lot hugs everyone,1 wake feeling really proceed go day feeling really depressed able much curl evenings lie bed feeling like complete crap body never girl want spend half night tears able sleep find really takes toll relationship boyfriend leads fights distant seem uninterestedi really wish could minute peace even activities rarely takes mind dysphoria cope day day gender dysphoria,1 understand iti helping people cope depression suicidal thoughts years helped lot get back feet looking brighter day reality ive preventing exactly cant sum courage myself know want exist anymore know why need reason exist cant find one,1 know lot bad stories therapy wondering good experiences experience six weeks ago slipped went bender fell depressive suicidal crisis phoned every crisis line exists ten hours well getting drunker drunker,1 want anymorei feel like failure posting feel like need tell someone know love wife feel like im addicted want live without want live life wants to loves shitload animals farm either take care neglect whichever time for theres compromise theres solution divorce get fucked debt likely alimony stay remain miserable unable improve situation all hate friends never get see due spending days together friend business i think cheating throws placating statements occasional sex way knows im happy frankly believe cares beyond that housework no dishes vacuuming laundry necessary cleaning etc im one anything im depressed even keep everything place going shit farm work unless feels like absolutely necessary doesnt feed animals expects yard maintenance building clearing etc keeps fuckton worthless junk plans fixing sell point never going to business thinks going make bunch money friendbusiness partner stupid spend money business policies bad make almost money much work theyre putting in two businesses complete money pits wants hobby none money job go towards us gets spend godknowswhere end paying bills im goddamn depressed woke afternoon laid bed fantasized several easy ways slip away cant leave without causing even pain myself way gets life insurance payout find someone wants shit forever ambition deal shit anymore even heard today since walked house morning,1 riancurtis i m here friend and i love you,0 Hanging with the girlies. Missed this. ,0 he told us he was diagnosed with depression some years ago and that he goes to a therapist and he was telling us so many kind words,1 big fat vent todays birthday feel alone parents working cant go anywhere since im self isolating planned call friends one said gonna play videogames got birthday wishes ive screenshotted stared hours make feel better,0 thinking giving im really uselesstbh dont saddest story makes feel even worse im actually really blessed im hopeless useless same so story is parents especially mother really abusive me mom would constantly tell ugly fat developed anorexia shed manipulate thinking garbage daughter loving enough that dad kinda absent worked lot dont resent much dont feel close either parents really hard deal with didnt suck purpose flawed left place go college living w pretty manageable deal functional depression since left parents place ok kind relationship however gave degree personal reasons since extremely disappointed parents always sort habit lie hide stuff manipulate wanted sabotaging wanted didnt quit college didnt tell them lost job september last year ask financial support im full control again let stay place beginning year hoping id get back feet didnt ill moving back weeks sinked deep depression since losing job sleep day tired time drink smoke never leave house thats basic routine thing makes keep living neglect world pets two lovely angels form beautiful tiny cats darling baby dog saved times count clean house give dignified space live werent here id living filth let sun exclusively know like sunbathing get bed feed play walk them werent wouldnt leave bed all anyways straight reason im alive functioning pets feeling like garbage lot since losing job contemplated redflag greatly decided love pets life worth living around me recently tho something really great happened me university europe got contact study there wanted go bad itd dream come true parents wont help unless give pets wont help financially take me wont take go cant this cant get rid beings literal reason im living now things love life decided cant go know matter time depression hits im alone finally kill myself cant stand idea getting parents hopes finally failure waste money die abroad also would never give pets circumstance see way move back parents take pets house killing myself cant stand perspective disappointing parents refusing amazing education opportunity refusing im sentencing burden entire life im already jobless know dont future id never able get myself plan make parents already adopt pets leave note asking get rid angels im dead give instead dealing continuous disappointment failure idk else could,1 @Pannee ....But you already accepted the most important one from Mr C ,0 never behaved like this clue happening really scared mind spiraling really dark place beginning overthink everything nothing makes sense anymore useless boring human ever existed planet feel fucking isolated everyone everything like even really here feel like someone living life instead me everyone pretends care really give fuck could trust people cannot even trust myself sabotaging happiness making things worse fucking thoughts promised would never try hurt yet am knife hand cuts bruises body feel like turning completely fucking insane idk do idk distract myself make stop want stop thinking miss numb think turning insane,1 want hurt myselfive fighting depression lot lately im point think killing nearly often would normally good old suicidal thoughts replaced thoughts selfharm whenever anything makes anyone else mad hurts someones feelings dig nails arm tell im piece shit am say deserve hurt happy day broke razor trying get blades out work shaved it cuts scrapes legs kept telling deserved it want tell husband thoughts cant gets upset depression understand it always tells glad cut deal many girls that am slowly destroying myself cant stand happy,1 keeping political views aside feroz khan anil kapoors gandhi father good movie cleverly explores confusedtowardsfamily side mohandas karamchand gandhi fight eldest son harilal gandhi society largerthanlife father importantly demons head one draws parallels gandhi father nation struggles son could fatherbr br the acting good shefali shetty darshan zariwala akshaye khannastrictly order add color pathos heart wrenching tale harilal weeps hugged also runs away faintest touch fingerbr br feroz khans direction production canvas lavish attractive however screenplay couldve tighter seen play years ago pirated video type dvd it called mahatama vs gandhi think certainly gripping though movies background score fatherson motherson moments brilliant treatbr br this movie could great borderline that potential huge story differences father son gandhi even both somewhere plot lost expect absolute epitome emotions nothing comes youbr br it compares decently gandhis certainly overview film like kingsleys gandhior abstract kamal hassans hey ram film manages find footing however one left wondering what if worth watch ,0 im failing subjects school mom furious reason bad cause one gives good enough reason want succeed school even passing live boring life mom still yells me,0 giving song recommendation part cause httpsyoutubemv_wdelqbje,0 love yall swear god talk like bots like gonna initiate conversation stranger least prepared lead conversation towards something interesting instead hoping ill different answer so wyd ask th time,0 school experience lockdown covid been march approaching realization two weeks achieved one full year lockdown live third world country hit hard covid frankly gonna get better year last year march government temporarily shut school cases started popping up far schools city live resumed classes campus seen irl friends since day school lot people experiencing lack motivation even desire exist constantly building increasing pressure college stress load quite high remember remarking online school easy itd hard poorly fate may it exact opposite turned out classmates experiences been back class still online gotten chance see friends ampxb tldr hit one year online school lockdown school pressure sucks suck you,0 followsavvy i never found her everytime i click on her twitter thing through your myspace it go to some dude s page,0 "Exercising regularly cuts risk of depression by 16%, study suggests..... def worth a read . http://news.sky.com/story/exercising-regularly-cuts-risk-of-depression-by-16-study-suggests-11346264 … pic.twitter.com/OT9aYkfht3",1 best friend told want friend anymore think really need helpi posted roffmychest please read context httpswwwredditcomroffmychestcommentsejlvmy_best_friend_just_told_me_he_doesnt_want_to_be want kill myself simple that best friend thing making happy reason ive live without him ive nothing im completely alone world want die per se just know more im angry ruined friendship confiding him subsequently wallowing selfpity know expect people so know expect give reason so hope someone help me id rather die want live like this,1 fuck schooleveryone tells important future whatever wanna fucking die dont want future im bored give shit anything,1 didnt hear from my hunn today,0 covid rules fucking suck school like dam lunch cant even go see friends bf,0 played first piano concert last night hear name called instructed walk onto stage im sing quivering walk out trip wires embarrassing get piano bow people clap sit down first note play wrong correct myself now im shaking hard black out luckily camera head honestly remember nothing rest piece but according video apart form start nailed thanks,0 just got back from the hospital bf s nephew might have meningitis,0 yes tap dancing horror thrillerwith shelley debbie goody goody demented campy fun part guignol cycle s leaked s released double feature burt reynolds comedy fuzz mad scare bonkers throughly entertaining like mix day locust baby jane suggest prospective viewer take idea almost meant skewiff sit someone shriek elbow it actually get drunk whilst watch iton cheap champagne again many s film ideas also delusion struggle time better life getting bitter twisted emotional madness falling murder one plain crazy also reminds lot bloody mama de niro winters shlock fest makes film look notredflagly glorious,0 so i came out of clinical depression like month ago i wa never on med i somehow used affirmation and mental exercise however today when i still see people battling mental illness and not address it and be in this successful relationship in front of the world and them coming to me with their relationship issue which point back to their mental health i find this so ironic and make me feel stupid for healing completely cause in this world we live in a healed person is punished with solitude and a person who is goin thru their trauma ha support from someone or something i don t even know what this cycle mean i just wan na know and be for someone out there,1 cant deal thisi lot family issues really want go live mom bad history dad dont want talk moved utah really dont like never agreed said multiple times dont wanna go visit moms house like month go reaching end really sad pain love mom brother sister stepdad ones really care make feel like something worth living left im feel nothing matters anymore keep seeings things remind moms house fun times lot pain nobody understands made deal could move eventually long time dont really trust dont motivation get anymore nobody helps never try find solution arent want move back know matter nobody understands bad feel know stupid reason post people get way worse problems im going feel,1 im fucking exhausted fucked became year old loser stoner wasting away fucked every relationship opportunityim numb right now hate person ive become hate person ive become literally picture different types redflag methods daily take subway even im laying bed fucking done havent accomplished anything never school worked deadend jobs never relationship girl becomes interested quickly loses interest gets know me dont know fucking fake long close eyes picture rope around neck comforting,1 f anyone wanna rant hormones im gonna kms rn hate hormonal fuck hormones ugh,0 struggling find purposemy life completely without purpose bring nothing table im single never married children dont home limited social life thing interest run marathons half marathons trail races etc im pretty much useless irrelevant everyone around me,1 really want kill myselfim questioning long term relationship job friends family go times need physical mental health slowly deteriorating im done it years going nowhere made hit breaking point ive hospitals stayed mental facilities ive therapy ive seen psychiatrists ive exhausted every option life continues drastically go downhill tonight especially hard night one talk even get mind things friends family couldnt even find someone reddit talk to cant even get one person online wanna talk me fuck live for seen zero improvement life many years now im exhausted point think time call quits move onto whatevers waiting side,1 really wish i could see eddie izzard on tour damn the stupid expensive ticket cake or death,0 want live anymorei cant connect human beings,1 mmuk09 moodle x must upgrade to 9 before being upgraded to 0 theme will probably break though,0 "WATCH: Deepika Padukone talks about depression, equal pay in her moving speech at TIME 100 Gala .. http://www.bollywoodhungama.com/news/features/watch-deepika-padukone-talks-depression-equal-pay-moving-speech-time-100-gala/ …",1 morning everyone still feeling poorly hope u all have a good day x,0 getvisible journalist are up there with ambulance chasing lawyer in my reckoning,0 hamporter i always walk by the annex hoping to see you but instead i get the nguyen family,0 sorry get out cereal definitely soup goodbye,0 hate friends hate else go cut dont think could live loneliness friends makes constantly feel like shit idk wtf,0 everyone always asks waldo nobody ever 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Print off an Amazon Gift Card for her! http://snipurl.com/hq0n1,0 friends ive grown apart ive grown apart many friends last year think covid lock downs made realize many people want stay life rather seeing forcefully daily basis due school acquaintances people thought actual friends stupid things wish reason growing apart wish could talk friends maybe put things back together ill wait little longer guess,0 Just had a quick shower......feel all refreshed lol ,0 today long live without earphones listen new music albums need listen grow halmp,0 @gtowna I am reading 'Never Eat Alone' Now. ,0 I was supposed to revise business but I forgot to swap my economics book for a business book in the library so I guess I'll just spend my time watching vine compilations that cure depression,1 cant iplease let die please let die please let die please let die please let die please let die please want stop thinking stop please let die stay alive alive born never fucking asked please give permission die tell okay tell im useless piece shit never amount anything theres way could fucking want want breathe want eat disgust stop stop stop stop stop please tell need admit hate want acknowledge im right please stop torturing look like smile stop stop stop stop stop fucking stop say like never thought dying understand like say straight need help need pity fucking tell im worthless admit want look want see see anything think anything need anything stop go away leave alone fucking come back tell get hell house reason think stop thinking stoooooooooooooooooooooooooop fuck tldr im orphaned unemployed high school dropout hates worthless friends want anything get white girl wasted every single day isolated everyone liked bother them im left dying grandfather unbelievably understanding supportive call like trash am im pampered little brat always been ive always given anything want much freedom neighbor would play doctor her would take turns lying bench backyard inspecting others genitals good days turns longer hated inspection table hated would prod pull choice cant say friends mother found moved away newer suburban complex nice enough started making friends school friends live close smart responsible child theres way i could get trouble so packed yugioh cards gameboy backpack headed beating sun play newest bestest friend ever half way there walking house noticed man tip box spill seemed like thousands millions yugioh cards wouldve hard clean himself man visually grief stricken naturally goody goody asked needed help hollow pits charred face lit up mouth opened smile seemed shine bright sun oh could please feel free help to gonna sell anyway score him course feel sick someone tell fault tell deserved everything got tell im supposed miserable everyone else happy go ahead tell me hell born,1 yall want porn ya go httpsporncompornhubhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdqwwwgxcq,0 @maxie2007 It is #ff again already eh? Thanks again for always the nice #ff. Funny new avatar pic by the way!! Lol ,0 first period canceled first period ap biology like people kind hate class must felt dismay woke morning saw time start alas receive text group chat saying first period canceled kids school substitute teacher teacher know use zoom hook overjoyed returned back bed catch much needed sleep took note much time left nd period good slept second period,0 funny intelligent and sense realistic comedy yearold trying live first love vacation also complex sometimes amusing sometimes touching relation divorced father growing daughter far women not nicole teenager go get man loves laughed lot lively scenario never drags,0 rant shit life yeyso really want end life everyday wake upeat play videogames grades shit mother find im going get serious trouble handle hitting taking away phone cant stand screamed at im terrified exams literally text girls class send answers homework barely understand anything sister silently judging keep asking give homework answers barely talk friends anything outside school days ignore friends always ruin relationships people define morals know fault things like feel lonely time try talking someone online sound retarded af stopped hobby enjoy dont get noticed people almost like forgotten eat much shit look like harry harry fucking hendersons im willing anything theres point get fail get anything less im going it actual reason thats keeping dont want end hell im good person morals prostitute either way im going spend eternity satan post useless apparently cant talk feel without sounding like person single digit iq pray god sincerely hope next time im falling asleep last time,1 need help friendhello everyone friend gay really going tough time also gay unfortunately one people close talk sexuality understand him constantly deal homophobic family relationship parents rough mother father seem at least hes told me edge divorce another big issue depressed seems certain days really upset say least messages like thesehttpimgurcomkqihoai talks self harm become frequent seems getting worse time tend skype lot tell voice hes troubles never depression cant really relate anything going through makes particularly hard me seems tends come needs talk someone time know respond with kills inside coming help someone trusts im sure appears want talk it wondering anyone advice him hate see like this advice would greatly appreciated ,1 @PotterMoosh Whoa ok I only saw that reply just now. I've actually seen them once already. one of my friends directed a Wrockumentary ,0 so i m om an anti depressant and i feel it work somewhat i ve tried many others that just don t i ll be ok for a while just ok not cured or anything then ill hit these pit where i can t find joy in anything not even doing stuff with my kid like i just wan na lay in bed all day type of depression and idk what to do i do struggle with substance abuse and i know that s a big part in it i just didn t wan na get too into detail about it here i m so stuck i feel like i m in a funk and just wan na get out i ve struggled with substance abuse for a few year now which ha just worsened my depression honestly,1 hope someone understandsi pack gremlins cling me matter go doing tell do sometimes theyll tell leave bed morning nothing contribute otherwise done so theyll tell simple thing im reminded tired constantly am theyll tell one cares exist amounted anything human being tell try hard wont take far account anywhere go tell find gun closet tell find secluded place wont bother anyone promise feel pain itll go away quickly voices get agonizingly louder day got point first time theyve said years ago things exponentially grown ive come realize waking moments denied them think go,1 welcome httpamonguswithgunscomhttpamonguswithgunscom free pc reason pirate among us steal innersloths money unless live shithole bu afford computer good internet,0 inform yourself abt her 'drug scandal' before u start talkin shit abt her. if y'all wanna raise awareness about depression in kpop then do it right and don't be fcking hypocrites. show your support for Park bom #박봄제발내버려두세요,1 twitter is down,0 weeks pregnant bipolar suicidalhi nd pregnancy contemplated terminating early depression bad seemingly perfect life wonderful fianc beautiful year old nice house suburbs bipolar wrecks havoc that months ago spun control went manic cheated wonderful man broke a month wedding called quits got back together august immediately decided still getting married wanted another baby tries conceived baby boy lost severe depression point redflagi struggle whether want baby im thinking quite often redflagbut want hurt unborn child,1 @ElkaBr yes I understand it's cool.,0 get film possible find really good performance barbara bach beautiful cinematography stately and incredibly clean creepy old house unexpected virtuoso performance the unseen picked used copy film interested seeing bach id viewed the spy loved me love really classically beautiful actresses appreciate even act little so start nice fresh premise tv reporter bach walks boyfriend goes cover festival california town solvang celebrates swedish ancestry putting big folk festival brings along camerawoman happens sister another associate the late karen lamm plays bachs sister know celebrities ladies married to funny watching bach mrs ringo starr lamm mrs dennis wilson going street sisterly quarrel anyway bachs disgruntled beau follows solvang hes done arguing her theres lot feeling still wanna watch tear anymore downthedrain football career ladies arrive solvang assignment station find reservations given away someone else maybe bachs boyfriend think wheres gonna stay gals ask around nowhere go mistakenly trying get old hotel serves museum catch interest proprietor mr keller the late sidney lassick decides gentleman lodge home insisting wife happy receive them oh no next thing know keller making whispered phone call wife warning companys coming threatening shed better play along trouble paradise ladies eager settle get back solvang shoot footage interview swedes one girls feel good bach lamm leave behind wondering mrs keller played heartbreakingly pretty lelia goldoni looks like lost best pal speaking undertheweather vicki slips clothes gets nice hot tub realizing keller crept room inspect keyhole hears him thinks hes come deliver linen calls thanks lassick great job scene expressing anguish fat old peeping tom get long enough look hes left poor vicki tumbles bed nap gets yanked real fast in really decent frightening round action something big apparently crept grille floor unseen lamm comes home next bach finishing argument beau cant find anyone house knocks plate fruit kitchen and hands knees collect it hair fashionable scarf sway temptingly black floor grille attracting unseen again well time poor lamm getting quietus kitchen flashback mr kellers past get full story sick sadistic background really wife smile much bach finally gets home wants know friends are meanwhile lassick apprised afternoons carnage weeping wife decides cant let bach premises reveal secret home tempts basement last act keller family tragedy finally opens usbr br i cannot say enough stephen furst id never seen before obvious homework role studying methods communication expression brain damaged bach goldoni diverse way give movie luster that movie winds satisfying resolution stupid cheap tricks eyeballrolling dialog pathetically cut corners real treat collection,0 @p_niice lolol woorddd lol an u wanted dat pic wif her on the low,0 reason dummy thicc ever grope yall,0 im starting feel suicidal year really need therapythis pandemic school semester really pushed unstable mental state im constantly scared im close falling apart collapsing entirely im architecture major constant studio presentation deadlines working hours every day really minimal time take breaks take care properly extends weekends holidays become hard stop breaking become even harder find time spend family friends boyfriend going lot issues pandemic school well slowly feel become unable support properly since im struggling much myself breaking heart see personal love life and family life too strain tension struggles used pretty suicidal high school im feeling thoughts creep back hard year goes on im scared cant anything immediately help either boyfriend myself im terrified somethings going snap im going lose myself want happy badly becoming grim day dont know many hour work days handle body shuts down desperately need therapy need professional guidance cope stress properly support boyfriend way hurt emotional state ive always scared therapy parents raised strict mentality thinking taboo immigrant parenting like that really want consistent getting professional help recover properly i tried times always stopped going month always thought wasnt stressed enough later on final architecture studio presentation next thursday im going call university counseling center ask help need to post reminder really need this body cant handle anymore stress without proper professional help if read far wanted apologize embarrassing af name joke username chose made account long back lol thanks taking time listen stranger vent emotional turmoil,1 playlist nostalgic music mainly late s mids music music find nostalgic listened radio guys recommend songs maybe check out thanks d playlist httpsopenspotifycomplaylistrnimemjobkdyihgvichttpsopenspotifycomplaylistrnimemjobkdyihgvic,0 point call redflag hotlineive thinking it ive worried whether since know im worthy attempted redflag yet im commit redflag suicidal thoughts showing multiple times per day call redflag hotline,1 certain things make feel uncomfortable recently jokingly play nipples like suck biting laying bed im shirtless makes uncomfortable dont like all ill laugh tell stop dont like feeling it keep jokingly tell stop baby joking around,1 regular show still best cn show change mind,0 goodbyei took antidepressants couple acetaminophens hope enough end life,1 tried failed againbeen suicidal years now firends went music festival hoping would feel better ended feeling worse alone ever im sure do guess,1 @andrea_r so it would seem. Good if you wanted your own multi-user video site (also known as a news agency) ,0 im scaredi really want tell someone want kill dont know who im scared anxiety roof im scared,1 can t sleep it s 0 am ugh i m not even sleepy,0 want die beachi want die beach warm sun body sound waves cool breeze id pull trigger gone peace buy gun state bit slog through ill take trip go cape cod oregon maybe south africa mediterranean hope family friends wont take hard know though hope afterlife forever beach day stress nothing bad pain comes real world life beach know wont like infinitely better life now know wont live college hope die beach worries pain calm tranquility ill probably end dying parking lot gun store sadly one dream,1 difficult get bed wake morning first sip coffee lose sense meaning nobody ever wants anything me thoroughly convinced exist point attentionstarved show it well others worse even excuse kill myself guess keep going till heart gives out bother,1 buy antidepressants without prescriptioni really dont want hour talk doc wanna try see helps,1 want something lifei feel like nothing life literally nothing fucking day except school homework phones broken friends literally feel like nothing literally feel like nobody likes me wants me cares me wants friend feel alone end want stop know feel like mess everything fucking people would say omg friend people people treat like shit point,1 people need car understand people cars people thats useless probably drive,0 people telling go living people causing kill myselfim talking parents mean abuse anything like care much them definitely theyre flaws thats it mom constantly screams telling work course cant cause severe anxiety dad care want deal me fuck life ill end soon possible anyways im sicl human,1 Happy mothers day to all mom... ,0 "stretches, crunches, leg lifts, pushups, running. SHOWER TIME. god I feel good though I sure miss working out <3",0 dont like penis like penis dont enjoy cocks attracted male genitalia pp bad,0 interact uytoppop manipulated bunch friends transphobic homophobic avoid,0 took really long time insecure anything ego need knocked peg two like love much think im better people physically personality wise feel like first step admitting yeah rant,0 i have to go to the library and get some book on the bloody wa i really can t be bothered with these a level anymore,0 teenagers logo hey yall im overweight friend also subreddit wondering could make different body types teenagers logo,0 "Today God wants us to know that all emotions grow in size when practiced regularly.Practice love to have more love, practice hate to have more hate. Practice kindness to have more kindness, practice depression to have more depression. The choice is yours as always.",1 day was pretty goood actually ,0 I'm calling your room-mate!!! ,0 tv movie definately worth seeing acting well done story touching universal theme readseen original rule cant stand shakespeare enjoyed moviethe civil war setting well done well dont expect see epic however find moving enough enjoy way on side note compare or movie matter original work movies supposed transfer book screen rather take general idea adapt story it people say the book much better theyre usually wrong anyway really trying say book different,0 Absolutely beautiful today. Headed out to hit yard sales and run errands. Twitter people have a wonderful Friday. ;-D ,0 realized something one fee mail friends flirting past couple months stupid ass noticed shes found someone else ,0 i m done i m tired of fighting i want to rest now,1 honestly mind friendzoned means finally friend breathing manually,0 "@NintendoRed sometimes, you just have to let go! ",0 help acquaintance suicidal lives usa live overseas basic info herhere situation facebook social group quite members share common interest tonight one members posted startling message indicated might commit redflag tonight know well friends fb least see city lives in employer family unfortunately live overseas know best course action is sent fb note son grandson expressing concern m worried might seen tried calling employer hours large employer im know would able help called local crisisredflag hotline city spoke counselor understanding asked would worth calling local police seems without specific home address police cannot anything distressing else situation even proper course action would be miles away makes even difficult good handle situation based said take seriously anyone advice could point would greatly appreciate it,1 Had a GREAT night last night I just ate a sandwich and I don't feel so sick and I'm about to go over to johns house for a little,0 ive strangely attracted film since saw showtime sometime early s say strangely rather ludicrous bit softcore fluff genre im particularly interested in dialogue pompously nonsensically philosophical making sense doubt francoitalian producersand plot completely extraneous achieve wonderfully hypnotic thoroughly pleasant mood scenery the beautiful philippines softfocus nudity wonderful score contribute strange extremely watchable exercise sort film making seldom seen today truly one great guilty pleasures fortunate enough find old laserdisc watched times think healthy worthwhile moodpiece,0 working on my lab report that s due 9hr tonight,0 it s just fever,0 need someone talk toive feeling suicidal long remember need friend talk to,1 @XennyBrown aw comeon u knew i was more coloured then you didn't you ,0 awful relationship learn it so im year old male ill sharing relationship story dont make mistakes have apologize long post ill make tldr background time fresh basic ait army since october struggling mentally socially quite time hid fulfill dream soldier got home happy part moments fast forward march ex friend started actually hanging thats met girl girl led months vigorously tortured mentally find using amusement friends also make boyfriend my ex friend jealous she lied that destroyed laughed guilt tripped ruining life taking advantage them wont believe thoughts months suicidal murderousviolent thoughts angry depressed long im pulling through resented everything ever said them genuine feelings love destroyed wasted them considering mental instability absolutely devastating took advantage weakness almost committed redflag left cut up im far happier without wretch human being im focusing job military career road recovery tldr got screwed girl used make feel better sympathy mining left mentally scarred alone,0 made first website let know think httpsjustdidthistiinysite copy paste google vary proud,0 stopped taking antidepressants need help coping side effects paxil likewise years decided quit weeks ago cold turkey yes zaps uncontrollable crying deal that however cannot deal anger pissed let family treat last decade usually never feel anger anything person mad last years myself want scream punch holes walls send irate emails need someone tell uncontrollable forever honestly think developed coping mechanism anger whatsoever would love hear someone gone thing know done editspelling decide go local group therapy back hours,1 love life earth beautiful people too want die sometimes braini cant seem hold job bipolar severe case adhd feel hopeless gets better feel like shouldnt exist love family beautiful fianc dont think make world nature beautiful find beauty little things feel like demons back head get close much handle dont want exist anymore want commit redflag existing painful lot time filled positive happy energy lows intense dont want anymore exist,1 alright guys tea nothing better nice tea drink tbh,0 rhyswynne that s a pest grr to spam,0 movie really well made one great looking passionately directed tell every shot thought executed perfection lovers cinema especially great watch especially able appreciate beauty passion cinema put itbr br its hard place movie one label really drama really thriller really comedy instead movie style things way necessarily follow rules cinema features many different elements many different genres combinedbr br but like movie main character movie gets sort slow boring parts artistic style directing tries conceal story actually quite simple one movie relied solely style overall atmosphere created movie make movie horrible anything prevents true absolute mustsee parts movie also feels trying poetic tries let images speak much itself feels bit overdone parts though part movie still works beautifullybr br it features great camerawork unique storytelling makes original well great film watchbr br ,0 know feelcan someone please message rant life,1 could schlocky idea private detectives getting involved women theyre supposed spying on dialogue written perfectly banalbr br but actors turn dialog something makes sense see real people behind unreal lines directing wonderful scene ends without dragging longbr br i showed several friends mids perplexed bad material could made good movie friends enjoyed too,0 want take shotgun side head obliterate brain stop pain suffering depression redflag heartbreak trauma haunts constantly tired life energy fight things anymore living hell want blow brains,1 missing the fab five,0 ive seen various hamlets ive taught play watch jacobi im tempted think hes every bit intelligent hamlet himself alive every nuance characters wit deepens rather solves every puzzle regarding hamlets character illuminates line line word word shining light sparkling mind time however cringe horror hamlet feels betrayalfar actorbecause jacobi feels pain profoundly anyone else shudder hamlets betrayals jacobi afraid baseness hamlet descend short jacobi gives us hamlet full hamlet full greatest character literature thats im satisfied jacobis hamlet finest performance ive seen actor,0 humpninja i cry my asian eye to sleep at night,0 New personal one-legged squat record of 10 whoot whoot ,0 exhausted helplessim living dads old house empty earthquake damaged zone shouldnt moved mother kicked toxic verbally abused told kill worthless million times week ago tried kill ex boyfriend lives overseas managed call interpol told parents was knows live dismissed hospital took parents place kicked basically told couldnt stay im trouble day abused verbally happy leave since came three times one say much disgusting useless human whole family ashamed second one evictions order leave house two weeks risk zone third now literally destroy words said worse things die useless able anything life ex right leave behind im worth peoples time make everyone around sick suffocate people make leave feel like im bad person listening mum say know depression suicidal thoughts awful toxic around me me one thing attached me cant control cured living environment lonely medications arent working never work alone without support im sobbing tears hands shaking im joke failure wish one good reason kill myself want happy loved late everyone loves leaving slowly killing anyway better kill self first im tired suffering,1 tried hang ceiling fan failedive contemplating redflag last yearsmy mom died years oldim months ago hanged ceiling fani felt unconscious secondsthere red marks neck breathing almost stoppedunfortunately attempt unsuccessful technique used improper tired putting face everyday living sociopathic dadi friends never girlfriend im short unattractiveeven im dead people would forget months,1 bf year generally quite charismatic positive person jokes around absolutely charming talked stranger would never think may depressed starting get seconds thoughts breaking hearthe grew rich family lot staff helped family house went expensive private school also youngest sibling family enjoyed careless childhoodthen studied worked years successfully met me notredflag women me always somewhat traumatic abusive think caring relationship strong charismatic personality manly talented empathetic smart met years ago time till working hours cut due corona worked days week home lot free time besides working done things years smokes reads social media watches series most hes seen before eats insomnia often wakes tired morning work frustrating him seems feel insecure search another job recently jokingly said something old psychological trauma mine answered seriously trauma go work days week puzzle got together head today think kind rich family never taucht concept labor kind work actually something really unpleasant him current job especially boring feels unnecessary never really accepted go work actually trauma dreads time learned work days again glum grumpy whole week really wish would get therapy matter afraid would think sign weakness world works way everyone job much disagree feel something dreading exhausting time think fear work many years love him think hes lazy person believe actual problem please recommend help him think bf depressed hes hiding realizing it breaking heart need advice,1 whats karma mean im new site wtf karma like building something what see people calling karma whores like people want bad brag it for pls supposed karma,0 wait good taste httpsopenspotifycomplaylistecohkcphbjxskwoknrsirxmotcrtbwjciwaecw,0 date heya ive away here month now back since days and ive got questions new important names need now new memes new rules important events anything else worth mentioning happened last months thank yall ,0 im patheticive tried hard end it pills blades works never works master escaperedflag plan laid out wait everyone asleep open window jump out grab ladder backyard run highway jump fence fall traffic pathetic even pull off im dont know anymore ive lost many people cant continue on,1 i am 0 year old and genderfluid they she he and every day i am alive i have no clue what is going on my depression is mostly caused by my other disorder asd adhd and ocd and i ve had it since junior high often i feel so hopeless because those disorder all have their own comorbidities that mess with me on the day to day i struggle with writing spelling understanding verbal word social cue my own emotion if my thinking or the disorder and more there is just so much happening all the time at a nightmare level of complexity it exhaust me and paint the world dull i feel like i am always on the verge of imploding and exploding at the same time people get mad at me for thing i didn t know and expect so much from me when right now this is all i got my goal is to move far away onto a hill in the middle of nowhere it seems like the more the world asks of me the le i do instead of a big moment breakdown it little one like a car sputtering to a stop this all being said i know that my life will keep moving forward and thing will change but right now it s just so hard to believe that a if the world wa against me since day one ya know thank you for listening if anyone can offer advice on dealing with this i would v much appreciate it,1 danaeatsyou hahaha im sorry i didnt mean to and you re supposed to film the day of silly thats cheating doing it the day before,0 hey tbh i don t know who to ask i tried unalive myself by hanging un fortunately they rescued me i don t have any medical complication but i have something i can describe a bloody eye like the part of my eye that supposed to be white are partially cover with blood i m wondering doe anyone had something like that i love my half dead look but i m curious when my eye will get back to normal,1 seen broadcast channel seen earlier comments think would like state firstly favour death penalty way expecting great things film quite deliver dead man walking cleanly done good performances round good script fact hard fault artistically however felt although attempted confront issues surrounding capital punishment seemed become sidetracked religiousmoral stance hardly surprising given main character nun although im heartless individual really empathise characters story take religion seriously probably see much film think peter medaks let much powerful moving film would strongly recommend anyone considering watching go see that,0 mood rn drinking water wine glass bcs glasses dishwasher bcs lazy self lazy wash dishwasher bit late,0 genteel softly spoken drama steven spielberg first real venture genre departure normal adventurefantasy fare paved way success schindlers listbr br based upon alice walders pulitzer prize winning novel story concerns young girls arranged marriage hardship brutal angry farmer painful separation beloved younger sister nettie plot compassion abuse power love heal wounds often powerful moving loses way fault continuity menno meyjes scrambling screenplay the color purple times hard follow one occasions tends little erratic regard time frame lapse scripting cost viewer depth detail obviously present miss walkers novel real shame maestro spielberg unable pick rectify problems show wonderful example prowess directorbr br performances strong throughout whoopi goldberg making debut never matched since regard acting accomplishment heart broken celie yearns loved danny glover lends solid support though moses superior turn places heart standout showing comes unheralded oprah winfrey miss sophia single minded fighting black woman whose spirit crushed terrible incident involving patronising upper class white woman good support also margaret avery adolph caesar rae dawn chongbr br quincy jones coproducer spielberg kathleen kennedy frank marshall penned beautifully melodic score also provided original blues occasion editing michael kahn sound always director photography allen daviau shows consummate skill capturing glorious southern scenerybr br this true affair heart surely bring tear eye unfortunate left many unanswered questionsbr br wednesday january video,0 @AlohaArleen Sometimes the best shots are the spur of the moment snapshots. A good pic indeed to finish out @HawaiianShirtFriday ,0 goes around comes aroundhard express even computer screen used everyone hard trust anyone love anyone cant move forward anymore past still haunts me sexual physical abuse family members bullied school kid im first nation male finished high school gave up either hunger failure every subject took guess thats it,1 normal school underated af recently start going regular offline school years worth online school completely honest consider complete victory like yes risk corona may higher but get meet friends goof around breaks pay attention classes cause longer listening teacher ramble on feels much natural participate offline class rather turning mic online classes shit wayyyy better online schoolespecially cause forced us keep cameras on,0 im planning killing sooni need resources die painlessly quickly,1 context post struggled depression life position anything before recently never problems going on always serious issue slammed eight things work way around every day order actually function lot happened past two years stabler notredflag friends like i cannot really talk issues never experienced long lasting significant mental health issues personally told me understand frame reference understand going through things deal past six seven years extreme mood swings crushing apathy towards anything loss interest activities eating etc mostly died would call normal levels almost everyone experiences life manageable guess lack better words downside meant week long sometimes even months long depressive episodes sudden onsets debilitating depression its depression severe bland dictionary meaning severe feelings despondency despair way explaining it gone pushed side lines order deal stuff front centre life now cry commute back forth classes two weeks ago feelings depression would crushing week suddenly peaked skipped last two classes genuinely feel mentally able concentrate focus bad felt depressed was wish exaggerating order make coherent simple case yeah proof debilitation depression affects life not say every day fight majority goes avoid friends hide bathrooms intervals breaks normal capable human interaction again even know head around friends make feel better seeing remind matter stupid things mentally right there sometimes win sometimes not feels like uphill battle none lessons learn being friends good isolate yourself get retained remembered idk brain muscle memory anything best years managed keep one step forward two steps back herculean effort take another one step forward balance things again cycle know going get harder intense school next year increase workload general insanity redflag uni applications important exams determine future decisions making year supposed plans next five years life right feels like opportunity take kind action medication lmao get used side effects academic stakes still relatively manageable even makes cry sometimes guess always money made feel getting diagnosed leftover remains seriously mentally ill being alive waste money complex hahaha counsellor seeing past three something years tried broach topic possible diagnosis depression just opinion mgiht wrong let say opinion disagree based know seeing semi regularly last years two weeks ago same day missed last two classes lmao shot really pathway getting diagnosed least me end medication friends people diagnosed major depressive disorder among depression disorders took medication fallen contact due past year lockdown pandemic etc still remember talking side effects medication whether really worth still pain still struggling even medication talking made realize right could get worse treatment taken potentially severe side effects worth feeling like hell obstructed mind every day life the issue parents despite knowing almost zero absolutely nothing depression mental health issues genuine quote one i know nothing understand need explain me medication terrible side effects ruin life yet still manage hardline antimedication lack better words views percieved horrific life ruining side effects medication worth despite side effects,1 planning out the SF trip tomorrow. ,0 it s been and a half month now the depression is getting way worse with suicidal thought antidepressant don t help me at all trazadone moklobemid i can not cope with his death i ve dropped out of uni my life is meaningless now i have 0 hope i don t look forward to anything anymore all relationship i have now feel empty also i m an adult now year old i don t think it s even possible to make real friend at this age i ve grown up alongside him went through middle and high school with him all the memory i have with him are just a burning memory now and the worst of all is when you don t believe in god or afterlife anymore you just know that your best friend is nothing but a brain rotting in a cold grave right now and you won t ever see him again never ever,1 dammit i think i picked up a bug from the girlfriend,0 hail mary pass ironicallythe church says mortal sin know selfish act living suffering fear shame years now selftalked near insanity ive kept goingtryinghoping hope deferred makes heart grow sick red said hope dangerous thing hope drive man insane utterly failed life lot fault lot isnt thinking going infection would hide act suddenly leaving seeking medical help would be least odd would hurt mother know even think redflag would torture wondering issue me waking every day loss questions would cruelty yet another seemingly endless list misdeeds im nearly famous for know im seriously considering scares yet continue plan would leave home seek infection return course protect family would find location fill gas tank etc first minimize transmission would isolate somewhere for im guessing good month isolate hotelmotel think could afford long night not even thinking food airbnb might rentable place month right doubt it money still issue would put others danger even though actively isolate obviously shelters centers etc camping maybe like read sorry novel,1 guysssss part outfit cameeee httpswwwredditcomrpeachykeenoceancommentskxboze_purchase_jedi_i_apologize_for_not_buying_theutm_sourceshareampamputm_mediumios_appampamputm_nameiossmf first two,0 sometimes all i want is for someone to tell me everything will be okay i m proud of you i love you you re doing great just general supportive word you have no idea how happy a simple good job can make you feel,1 "Muchos thanks @melattree and @husbandsanon for the #followfriday love. Right back atcha, you guys both rock my stream ",0 dad girlfriend think stupid trying transfer colleges think bad idea think handle reason think want go school anymore worked hard past year get deep depression years sudden back it cannot drop everything go hospital manager work place love still enough money move yet another like three years really sucks want give bad clean since january trying day,1 @LisaSladden JD's on nights tonight so I'm Twittering all by myself Am reseaching the link between creatine and thyroid.,0 "@souljaboytellem you the man Dre!!! the swag flu is off the chain for real! Killin it man, my number 1 rapper right now no doubt. ",0 guys im freaking fuck mum booked skin cancer check without knowing im go brothers done literally woke went forgot put underpants also im self conscious fat ass body full body scan holy fuck im nervous know probs wont judge im still nervous,0 "@viherrera omg vicky, you are so brave! ",0 stooopppiddd abbey national i need to get dosh out and it blooming shut,0 "Twenty20, tennis, F1, wahay! Thankyou @alys_d for last night Might do a twitpic ",0 months ago started feeling anything again thought would eventually feel again even though started feeling things again feel like bloqued again mean feel like superficial thingsfeelings cannot make deep conection things example love listening music still enjoy listening music enjoy melodies cannot connect lyrics even hear songs used deep meaning me like cannot deep feelings basic feelingsalso like missing times misserable deeper shit know good healthy miss worst time beacuse could feel deep way also life total flatness nothing happens something different happens cannot feel different keep going like nothing mattersand another thing happening longer want goor better person like givng beign better everytime longer care used think better person better stuff would come life actually gets worse sometimes want give fuck everything around me tired everything still cannot feel enough reconsider suicide seriously unsensitive cannot even get courage reconsider suicide again cannot get sad ot angry enough think iti know becoming worst person fighting hide it know bomb eventually exlplode know problems accept people menthal problems problems know cannot control it know do cannot thinkit like knew doomed become shitty dude bojack character like him fewling even weird,1 knowing worst feelingi arrested almost years ago pbl house arrest im currently probation im completely different person got arrested make one wrong step get life sentence go early termination hearing less week goes way completely dodged incarceration something people get life for everyone keeps telling ill definitely get it ive system long believe that feel like put hopes early termination theres good chance could set disappointment strong would kill myself keep day dreaming im going buy land start farm get away city life person biggest say whether cut free judge person disconnected whats going also judge probation officer double checking im abiding terms probation day go court ask judge call pessimist feel like theres million ways could go bad model inmate matters went prisoner support forum talk case nothing probation officers talking like violate people let judge figure out thats real problem historically tell fight lose give life end taking plea whether something wrong scared right cant handle it tuesday probation officer wants look everything over wednesday judge gives ruling whether qualify early release everyone excited understand im not court system keeps getting wrong me get something armed robbery court kept acting like spawn satan barely dodged prison time judge hated matter did got handed hell sentence deal terms make sense personal situation,1 francis ford coppolas masterpiece great ending golden decade american cinema s atmosphere tolerance openmindness progressiveness among studios allowed making major films best directors united states ever had historian events preceded decade a violent deaths major figures american political cultural scenes racial struggles emergence s counterculture increase violence death streets seemed influence vision filmmakers willing dare different create entertaining intelligent motion pictures coppolas film strange blend humanistic thinking skillful filmmaking following parameters war adventure films time subverting flowing reflections value life reason death ethics war also passionate work made odds chronicled documentary hearts darkness filmmakers apocalypse motion picture went beyond previous reflection vietnam war ever reach screen may definite vietnam motion picture dealing coppola defied formula classic melodrama found two vietnam movies made simultaneously the deer hunter coming home latter ones platoon casualties war vietnam became starting point make products genre horror jacobs ladder comedies good morning vietnam among respectable coppola courage take economic political conflict background search answers questions faced man every day life without betraying dramatic consequences war,0 What a day!!! Went to 3 locations of Hillsong Church and love our Kidmin more than ever!!! Now time to REST ,0 hey there doe anyone here have this odd anxiety over commiting a crime and or lying when you infact don t whenever i get a call or letter i immidiately think i am in trouble and when i run into an issue that even remotely ha to do with official matter i am so anxious i might have accidently commit a crime it go so far that i start to convince myself i infact have commited crime when that isnt the case it might be a tad of imposter syndrome too example i worked a a freelance designer for a year jumped in when there wa a project i found interesting i did everything correctly etc after the project wa done i realized this sort of freelancing isn t what i wanted to do so i cancelled my status again i didnt know i cpuld just freeze it after having had only one client i again did everything a law demanded soon i wan na to apply for job in a different field game art and going through my document made the anxiety flare up again immidiately thought like you werent a real freelancer or only one client is shady af or in general just obsession about having commited a crime i have asked the literal tax office how i would go about cancelling since i figured it wasnt really my thing and if it is possible to start a freelance gig again after i officially cancelled my status for example a an artist they told me all i needed to know i did nothing wrong but there is this irration fear and voice that keep trying to convince me i have committed a crime and that is just one example sometimes i feel i stole my art i could draw it this exact moment with no bloody ref and my brain would tell me stole it i feel like i weaseled myself into uni and didnt really pas the test i dont know how to deal with this shite anymore is it this still anxiety or what oa that anyone can relate,1 know else go last resorti think handle life anymore think ever meant live long anyway always thought id kill now am burden family unable function adult completely miserable tired burnt existing would better everyone dead want die want try tread water anymore still feels like drowning brain constantly fogged muddled feel like im experiencing life even thoughts get shift work get car realize remember nearly anything went day suppose life monotonous forgettable like theres wall glass rest world see it mine cant touch experience it thing side glass clear coherent thoughts loneliness numbness depression college shitty community college that work feel pointless consuming im supposed want teacher ive day plans come future ones end grave energy actually pull plans redflag im much tired die mention ive developed couple eating disorders past two years first anorexia binge eating ive lost pounds gained back half it feel disgusting unlovable control am stuck know else do im burden everyone nothing make family miserable ill never enough anyone want die im exhausted wish could die sleep know im hoping posting this know else do guess last resort vent everything event decide end it know know nearly im wishing dead nothing left words maybe tomorrow kill me get hopes up,1 indian fact religion made drink cow pee young age chances might turn atheists future sourceme,0 im sure even write this ill regret second post might well delete know ill repost it again again cant handle shit anymore tonight wish dead care how im fucking done middle another borderline breakdown cant anymore feel like deleting social media know people seem worried call whatever know even expect know expect posting anywhere fuck want bpd let die already cant even it wouldve almost attempted twice two years ago state im still alive many regrets everything awful even get back right dose meds ok nothing ok getting covered temporary mental stability cant ok could girlfriend would worried care cat hint sent redflag relating lyrics knows well enough everything wrong wake ill either want die much ill laugh horrible state thing going head twenty one pilots lyrics as always days oh god fucking boss texting me fuck want fuck think song anathema fucking depressing youll never know whats skull say goodnight say goodbye im goner thats episode over ill fucking laugh shit never ok wonder ill delete let stay,1 dont see point everybody loved gonemy best friend rory died months ago home less im not got hit car girlfriend died two day later thank close friend highschool died days later work got job make money ever before im still unhappy think redflag almost every second every day get state license get job im ok broke times work it dont know keep together testing agency im broke every way matters hate life,1 hello again friend streaming commissions please check out hes pretty good httpstwitchtvwafffle_ironhttpstwitchtvwafffle_iron,0 killing practical thing situationi want kill birthday month wanted said id wait til case things got better got worse going homeless im disabled cant work get situation people like me without friends family disabled always end shittiest situations homeless forced sell things money raped beaten robbed look upon etc dont know want deal kill avoid stress shitty life id end living im homebound means never able leave house ill like sleeping car time scares me dont even blinds windows plan try use towels hot af out makes symptoms worse like ill miserable literally nothing like im already nothing huge waste life hate im lived fucking years waste like somebody else years added life instead boring idk im rambling think im really going kill almost night like easy kill thinking thing gives peace right,1 cant switch thoughts offi got ill christmas time broke someone seeing long seemed like perfect person asked thoughts taking step forward we seeing other question says cant thats it over nothing point gone wrong sent really nice messages voice mail literally telling really really liked me ive break ups cant shake one even though short romance feel like never meet anyone quite like ever cant get head due illness norovirus lost almost stone weight trouble sleeping days thoughts ending all point started thinking would best way went doctor help im antidepressants moment begins c cant remember name ive days now trouble sleeping given sleeping tablets still keep waking up went back doctor took away refused give anything would make problem worse ive feeling better just want end end it recently massively cant sleep less two hours days ago found would likely made redundant end february since cant sleep thoughts driving crazy want stop appetite drive carry anymore really know im posting this guess want vent cry throw go away wish antidepressants actually made feel happy,1 im done thishow many times hit bottom im allowed stop giving shit feelings people id leaving behind like im ive felt way since ten years old fucking every time feel managed comes back hits harder im exhausted want done want out gun id already dead,1 "@starpadilla lol so, I don't really understand Twitter quite yet! But I JUST got your reply to Chipotle. And thats cool ",0 @canadianarch sounds so peaceful and beautiful ,0 people stop treating people like shit ideology aslong anything harmfull something bad go ahead stop pushing worse time,0 cannot believe im actually posting this really know begin first all guess sort inconceivable im sub posting something like this hell add humiliation guess ill start saying im year old male currently college computer science im proud person default raised single mother im masculine person believe strength tenacity discipline importantly purpose personal motto always suffering breeds discipline discipline breeds strength im old school traditionalist believe natural order things although im leftist absolutely disdain liberals qualities exude weakness believe human beings equally worthless myself included ive suffered depression past sheer force able conquer it viewing depression martial light depression eternal enemy must continually fought kept bay must consciously maintain vigilance one dark thoughts enter mind must vanquish immediately available means me point however elements life worn last four years eroding iron depleting fighting spirit im going go got heartbroken girl although factor im pathetic let sole reason wanting carry on start saying thing wanted child fly military aircraft fact still maintain service state highest honor one aspire to attend flight school high school thought going accomplish dream becoming military aviator however suffer bad case adhd would seem academia insurmountable objective im medicated tried best ultimately unsuccessful attempts complete college courses without medication crushing defeat me picked moved on knack military history writing so im told fulfilling gen ed requirements took th century european history class professor army colonel years earned undergrad west point completed phd u m graduate thesis apache scouting parties one strictest professors humanities department earned nickname pressure sheer amount homework gave difficulty tests rather liked immediately excellent command presence additionally thrive environments im held standards excellence professor demanded nothing short excellence quickly became top student class due rather vast repository knowledge concerning cccp das kaiserreich und das dritte reich addition knowledge infantry tactics employed world wars even told you excellent work remains highest compliment ive ever received one day approached professor informed interest becoming military historian looked dead eye said dont itits difficult make living field although another dream crushed deemed acceptable wanted pursue career would allow maximize utility state professor instilled burning desire serve apart something greater myself deemed future battlefield would digital nature stuxnet proved me decided would pursue computer science major vowed henceforth compromises defeats knew going field would conquer greatest weakness mathematics knew going easy deemed anything possible courage discipline around time met ex loved much attracted femininity honestly tell want saw me obviously thought handsome transferred university moved together relationship ended devastated however heart hearts understood left bore responsibility break pretty nasty honest although knew largely fault felt betrayed yet quick find bed room another woman soon realized however made mistake new girl banging total opposite ends spectrum tend worship strength discipline least hedonistic broke trust her also mention point best friend ive known talked everyday since th grade best could me still devastated break up even though id women experienced better shape ex buddy though always grateful someone like him failed classes semester completely utterly ashamed felt broken family thought transfer schools move back home though seemed like admitting defeat simply unacceptable me tried again time though found ex fucking entire computer science department im ashamed admit point decided situation untenable retreated back home ashamed broken home quickly went trying recover defeat called computer repair shops asking hiring technicians one hiring got job local restaurant people appreciate strong authority figures job still haunts me chef de cusine total tyrant coworkers even noticed became verbal punching bag day know why give best shot however soon fired me time ive ever fired job honestly relieved point panic attacks shortly shift ended feeling pretty low point gone honor role student deans list college drop got fired first time around point started waking going bed suicidal thoughts got job liquor store worked next three years although liked coworkers boss store help feel disgraced felt like failure around time started hang around old high school crush seemed nice outside break forced necessity move home parents however absolutely toxic individual told numerous occasions expendable worthless im totally ashamed admit stayed around long did know why hate part myself also accepted university area wayne state however earned credits transferred start square one made extremely bitter gone precalc prealgerbra however persevered else really do anyway still unbelievable bitch started get stressed finals tolerance bullshit rapidly started diminishing faster think anticipated ultimately took game hockey restore masculinity sense self worth told sick shit sick driving places want talk anymore think caught guard next day texted telling back ex state told simply care absolute truth felt liberated cost started developing deep resentment toward western woman even still today aspirations foreign woman preferably middle east ive ever wanted simple life myself government job allow assume role breadwinner virtuous intelligent wife adheres traditional values family call own however im starting lose belief vision obtainable people would call chauvinistic sexist vision feel like relic bygone era born century off feel outofplace todays society quite clear belong erato add sense displacement academic achievements wayne however shadow former glory take education seriously stellar gpa takes toll self esteem finally come infamous summer year best friend died minutes phone him catastrophic loss one seriously fucked mentally knew person talked every day half life closest dearest friend grant sherman stonewall jackson robert e lee ill never know specifics died know fell onto subway tracks train coming screaming died something profoundly horrible think best friend screaming goes out drive new york recover ashes bring home parents single fucked thing ive ever do tell post lot shit already going wrong break emotionally day cannot feel emotions ways think blessing kind tired feeling point anyway new york meet current girlfriend appear love care me im justnot capable anymore reciprocating way ive become detached emotionally also western woman really type know love want to justcant feel anything guess thats say care her do something right though idea is also get job computer repair slightly fulfilling want fix peoples broken shit teach rich idiots computer semester rough ive taken calculus discreet math looking like im going flunk classes despite best efforts showed everyday class got help went office hours still failing financial aid likely going cut ultimate insult me prove hard work discipline simply enough situation feels futile wish model citizen serve state feel like theyd never accept point purpose pride cannot go like this would rather blow head off live disgraced failure the family fuck up simply refuse carry way want live see become failure still living home im seriously contemplating suicide living without pride without purpose way live yet despite hard work perseverance world seems determined make drag society wish serve issue receive stateaid personally simply unacceptable brings question identity male would rather die man beg scraps like dog existence feels like joke string disappointments setbacks feel though im disgrace family name family warriors grandfather awarded iron cross bravery cant even pass calculus equally inconceivable embarrassing work hard still nothing show it life started fall apart four long miserable years ive endured hoping things would get better havent feel like could spare decades soulcrushing defeats disappointments manage courage end now aus der traum,1 my alt acc look like it s made by someone with major depression and schizophrenia while being high on ketamine,1 contemplate redflag daily basisi contemplate redflag daily basis addicted pot intoxicants everyday lift worse worse cant find fucking real carear enjoy cat find job give kid opportunities asshole abusive father gave me contemplate redflag everyday regret fact lack balls it,1 courtneybrwn awww thanks i hate being sick,0 @aquarius00 thanks for the follow. Hint: you will never figure twitter out...lol...just enjoy! ,0 i guess i just need to vent but i also feel really guilty about all this for context we re on vacation and today we went to find one of the stop which wa one of the national park on the way there i had a panic attack but i m not too sure why i think it s possible that it wa because my mom wa driving too fast but that seems dumb since i m used to it by now anyways my panic attack are basically just me cry and zoning out with quick breathing on the way to the park i had the panic attack and after we finished the tour i told my mom how embarrassed i felt about it and she said not to worry about it and that it s no big deal well a few hour later i got hungry and we went to get mcdonalds but i had another panic attack on the way back to the hotel this time my mom got really mad at me and said you know if you can t handle going on vacation and stress out this easily then you should just stay home i felt really bad about it but i didn t apologize because i just feel like she will get more angry now she s giving me the silent treatment and neither one of u even ate the food we bought i feel so awful because i feel like i had those two panic attack over something so stupid and ruined the vacation,1 life worth damnit never be matter hard try cannot whoever want be cannot live kind life id wish live months like hours years like days everything feels inconsequential robotic cant connect socialize well people cant really anything substantial life outside fantasy real world cruel unforgiving reality cruel unforgiving compared full life ive lived inside head person never become matter hard try every day change person enjoy life is simply kind appreciation experience life passing time im even real person know conform reality take is cant matter hard try life waste cruel exist all knowing one day going im ever going life able bring it utter shit am broken fundamental level cant repaired way im broken fucking abstract psychological people even begin understand feel want sit smoke weed day die natural death really other better substantial option that,1 Poor recognition of #depression and #anxiety is associated with reduced quality of life and survival. #cancer https://www.bmj.com/content/361/bmj.k1415 …,1 im lonely lol hit reddit messages ill send u discord im wanna chat looking friend,0 attempted todayand didnt fucking work ran husband couldnt get police stop me tried overdosing instead ive puking night third attempt wtf,1 spacetoon homies here theme song lit,0 thoughts killing methoughts couldve been couldve happened instead things end relationship over like that maybe put much emotional investment things do dont want feel anymore want feel like never met him wasnt bad person would better way,1 hanging likethis probably asked million times already anyway describe general physical experience it managed fail,1 "I intend to live forever - so far, so good ",0 need help longhi problem become main source depression nihilistic beliefs past years living sisters although supporting me hard live with mom staying grandpa already caretakers fine however mom refuses get job find us place live move last one tell tell get job keeps saying faith god plan us matter much pray nothing changed begun become frustrated every night go sleep wake knowing cant leave hell living in dont know anymore contemplating redflag someone please help please,1 give upi know normal people it just smile keep living get throguh tough situations barely trauma it im ashamed way feel mental problems wish never born least one severeal redflag attemps would worked couldve prevented hurting people making life worse ive tried getting help life ive hospitalized like times since ive seen therapiste psychatrists either call names completely ignore everything say know me many people manage overcome mental illnesses get good professional help cant find one decent fucking doctor keep getting shit everyone openly suicidal everyone knows want kill ive tried reaching people get shut ignored people say care act like it swear god finally kill theyre gonna come running obituary saying wish couldve helped cared much missed fucking hurtful thing need stay alive people tell things now know need help know im going kill yet one says word me soon die everyone magically start care bullshit cant care now cant anyone help now dont know soon im exhausted tired all fight every day day fucking keep breathing miserable stupid fucking life one wants in,1 day goes break tears point worst lost job aunt stepfather anxiously awaiting results chest xray nerves shot redflaged struggling pay bills keep car road still trying figure going afford new tires need missing payment credit card living away maxed last months starting think everything would better lung cancer gone stop worrying money happiness burden familymy wife talked going on kept lot her sees crying best ignore me sure resents useless waste space gone able find someone actually happy with guilt freei just know guess needed say it expecting advice help wanted get ramblings head feels like alone,1 hey you yes you wanna watch paranoid person play zombie game one zombie ruin progress made answer yes im streaming billions rn would love see guys make fun play twitch xdimitri hope see,0 curse survival instinctexplain stupid thing im ready die pills pocket almost killed friend found me kill again time double dose family gone vacation too taking vacation overcome survival instinct,1 hate feeling suicidal suicidal timesometimes ill go walks dog feel like everythings going okay moment dishes mind focused cleaning them ill get triggered one little thing get flashback bad memory become suicidal again hate sensitive knowing ill feel suicidal again mind always alert mode never rests forget like suicidal even though wasnt years ago,1 im bored powers fuck yeah anyone wanna talk something comments ig maybe politics ,0 past weeks seriously thinking existing anymore avoid self harm,1 really know doive planned ending life tomorrow bought plane ticket california want see ocean one last time want die hometown im wanting back out think im nervous travel around strangers however really need end soon im living uncle im unemployed supposed move end august told would pay back week lie since planned dying tomorrow miss flight end life hometown really want that maybe really want die im making excuses know fact want live either really know anymore,1 mom pissing shes fucking nuts love im tired bitching goddamn time calm enjoy day,0 "Wow, my Web Stats are up today ... smiles takes a bow http://theguitars.net & http://acousticguitarists.net Tony Hogan",0 fix boys vs girls meme clear meme problematic fix it without taking away funny factor meme,0 is it mostly in your thought mostly in your body or both if it is in your body where is it centered doe it feel like a buzz or suffocating sorry for all the question i m just curious about all of u,1 everyone policy mine one weird thing holding back guilt know really care emotions turn back need laugh throw struggles face manage pull dark place enjoy like something even know worried guess feel empathy know feels like anyone care whatever really anything left tried hobbies making friends patience energy maintain them like feel connected people whatever people life definitely least favorite least liked hate school hate program longer find joy little things like music food tried therapy multiple therapists either expensive good tried joint program feel like id around caring people feel community someone sees world similarly also backfired nothing keeping anymore going go read finish policy start planning family taking life insurance policy least leave something,1 brother dog treats teething dogs would get treats drop brother would eat them mom asked doctor bad said fine fed us thats all,0 lower eyelids die sun im slowly drifting stars planets calling billion years away im way taught courage stars left light carries endlessly even death rare beautiful even exist im way,0 think messed relationship ive talking girl awhile during school summer quarantine weeks ago started dating well week told realized asexual told didnt mind perfectly fine fast forward today chat minutes send super long message explaining still love still date even though asexual still love ways well sent hasnt responded minutes she usually responds instantly think overstepped aware asexuality doesnt apply sexual orientation dont fully understand it dont know feel ruined great friendship really love say im freaking out,0 taking note momentim confusedand trying stay focusedon know rightim torn know wrong torn,1 @Jhermin I checked out his twitter profile but I think it's fake. Found someone else though: @TomFelton --we love him all the same anyway ,0 weird type of depression indeed,1 ok going to start with i had originally posted this on a different account but i don t really want this to be traced back to me from anyone i may potentially know who may stumble upon that other account there s way too much that i could say so i will just say a few thing i think i ve been suffering from anxiety for a long time and it s pretty crippling to my social interaction and the choice i make i miss out on a lot of stuff because of it and tend to have self destructive behavior when i make friend i have this problem where i feel like oversharing because someone is actually listening to me but due to some thing lately i ve started putting up more wall i joke around a lot and tease to distract from people actually knowing me because i think that people knowing me is really scary i ve been closing my circle and any time i speak to people i m just overwhelmingly anxious i fear that i ll say something that will make people start disliking me or finding me annoying i work at a customer service place and i get really anxious when customer start asking question i don t know the answer to or get even remotely frustrated with me i also get really anxious when a bigger group of customer come in and it just feel really embarrassing i have a really hard time with phone call too it really stress me out when i have to call someone or talk to like authority figure on the phone i wish i could be able to fix it and make it easier to leave my house or message people etc i just want to be able to exist without being afraid you know,1 calming feeling made mindonce path forward becomes crystalclear mind calm peaceful feeling feel less anxiety right ive felt years feel like could lie sleep like baby path forward clear news got morning doubts washed away mind almost like baptism rebirth cleansing soul go really truly exactly thought was never just depression talking the lies depression truth people aint good live world shit never ever ever put trust faith another human person messed head are angel thought found sent rescue depths hell always always turn another demon waiting drag hell people cruel way survive world cruel heart made iron soul world made you one big joke hope laugh right goes black life funniest sickest cruelest goddamned joke ever seen heard,1 anyone talk toi need someone talk situation,1 im always second choice no even thatand sucks much like nobody cares ill always one people get stuck with ill never good enough anything anybody im going crazy it world would better gone one,1 tess storm country mary pickford vehicle intended get time finally found vhs copy reasonable price got enjoy itbr br mary gives typical spunky innocently sexy portrayal wrongsideoftracks girl wins heart rich heir time stakes higher false murder charge illegitimate child and ensuing case mistaken motherhood contemplated suicidebr br one see pickford wanted redo one story real morality tale kind loved star in controversial topics always spelled plainly viewer pay attention pick hints catch everything implied first viewing although everything less explained endbr br about negative remark make would concerning jean hersholt dog hersholt whose character ben letts looks pounds bigger next mary course sent fleeing panic pound chocolate lab charges toward him then top or maybe justify perplexing fear dog manages pin ground somehow injures badly still struggling get much later bad storm hits lovable lab sleeps frederick lloyd hughes cuddles mary yet mary later throws boiling water bens face barely slows him ok ive vented ben chocolate lab that movie quite touching certainly held attention pickfords supporting cast strong believable certainly among better films,0 @sparklove im listening to the new jonas brothers cd its soooooooo much beter <3nick jonas<3,0 "@OpieJoe You're now listed in the http://tweetva.com Roanoke directory. Thanks, and please help spread the word. Have a great day ",0 aliceverheij on m xp im afriad laptop is about yr old and think it just a bit messed up,0 wanted say birthday thats it thats post,0 close minded stupid two friends decided theyre two different people respect pronouns call whatever name want be fact people take seriously friends mine take seriously boggles mind names alternative persons fucking pretentious stupid lmao bigoted others also think stupid maybe understand fully idk think bit odd identify two people fact two friends theyre closer me makes wonder theyre cool smthing,0 chinese class cringe oh god im going die cringe syndrome im taking chinese class test talk random subject determined dice roll see screen minutes in front entire class zoom already bad enough the topic how people teach responsibility education i even know heck is teenagers interested absolutely know heck answer speak min without whole bunch fillers cringe also like unit test grade probably going quite bit ampxb httpspreviewredditrphraulpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsfebdcbebcfcdbaeee wait sec recording im absolutely done,0 "shall bring his own glass to work from tonight, no more 'half half' hor!! ",0 fellow girls decide type underwear wear morning like pick old pair depend mood outfit brief day thong day style really matter wear first ones pick up maybe type underwear issue im making sense i thongs myself haha ,0 went va help even called veteran crisis hotline one available talk two months va hospitali told bother scheduling appointment called veterans crisis hotline,1 @thefeeling see you later!! xx,0 @herstorygirl I like that name ,0 last time i attempted i failed for like the th time and i m not going to mess up another one this time is going to be my last so i hope y all will stop worrying about me because i don t deserve it and i m not worth worrying about it s going to happen today or tomorrow most likely tomorrow though bye,1 would like dieignore last post want die wish gun laws strict netherlands,1 family believe mei used joke killing way cope friends family im straight telling dont believe anymore try ask help cant anything im minor money god sometimes feel would understand,1 last night dream causing massmurder spree schooltoday i reason want kill people kill end all theres clearly something right here desire kill feels stronger vivid,1 guys guys hear ok i powerful great white shark heres i pullups without taking break however great white shark cannot making me powerful _ powerful least ,0 @ricacupcakes I didn't see it lol it was sold out! But I ate at pink taco ,0 god im fcking thirsty dont mean sexual way feel like could drink one liter water help me,0 dream stans corpse stans terrifying mean likedream stans managed make trending cuz fell chairi also saw fanart dreamsmp crew kissing shit despite fact actual peoplethere also fucked fanarts drew dream turned chair corpse stans handmade trending cuz recorded breathing fact someone fucking tattooed soundwave breathing makes question f wrong stans stans much fucked berserkfor least,0 interesting cartoon included dvd the lost skeleton cadavra especially like way color used background artvery artistic columbia whose cartoon department generally low budget and results looked like itbr br i wonder however certain um finger gesture ever got past censors granted gesture question seen lot less frequently today think someone besides animators would noticed thoughespecially since seen three times scene question based context suspect inclusion intentional something animators slipped see censors would notice,0 i m currently trying to go no contact with narcissistic family it s so hard to do because i have younger sibling who i can t contact or help at all parent are using them a leverage against me i don t have their landline blocked because that s the only way my sibling can reach me if need be so once every few month i receive a call from my father love bombing me i feel like i m going crazy i have so much guilt disappointment anger and more i ve been trying all week to get into therapy but my insurance is being a po and every place that supposedly is in network turn out not to be the only thing keeping me going is knowing i need to be better to help my sibling and staying strong for my bf and his family they are all i have which kill me i have no family no substantial friend i feel so alone and like no one is willing to work with me to help i m trying to not get suicidal or self harm but i m on the verge of having a mental breakdown unless something give,1 tonight might nightthis lowest ive been closest ive come redflag see options method location note done im work im worried about actually going it im ready need get done,1 awww. home at 11:30. i love being in year 11 ,0 missykesson cant find u on it,0 anyone chat n chill im bored af home middle night pm u wanna chat,0 trans woman suffers bpd adhd severe redflag feel like cannot go on suicidal since teenage attempted suicide twice last resort starting hrt made significantly less miserable since still ugly progress seems stopped years hope anymore think would ever able look mirror want throw upi hate adhd bpd mental illnesses ruined life mention gender dysphoria makes cry every day sometimes look mirror days keep sanityi cannot accept look like rest life cannot accept nobody knows woman rather predatory straight man day father said transitioning able easier access women rape them rape victim raped everyday age coach later classmates high school fucking unfair internalized fear around women feel like occupying space wrong there always afraid go since beaten severely twice past always sexually physically verbally harassed out lost almost friends transmisogyny sure always alone people want date fetishizers see exotic creature man woman never able find sb see like thatnothing change always pain wisest thing end things courage times attempted chickened out sure again cannot endure hell anymore either feel suffocated place world girls like want out,1 cant stop cryinghelp please im desperate want anyone feel awful felt way months weeks im back hate,1 okay i am on the line of alcoholism and it s tickling my nerve a bunch knowing that i crave a drink and i feel the need to turn to alcohol to make myself seem whole here s my little run down im battling with depression a little suicidal anxiety and we a little lonely that s why im on reddit im sick of feeling like shit everyday all the insane irrational thought that go through my head once im on a certain bothering thought i get stuck on it for a while till i cave to drink so my idea to combat it is to start organizing my life more financially at home my priority my hobby all in all im aware that the whole you have to learn to love yourself theme is a big thing for people like me but at the moment i am just thinking of distracting myself with work school hobby people what if it s not enough my thought may start traveling again when i am doing those thing how do i combat those thought it s like i go in circle with question to an answer then question after answer it s mentally exhausting and it physically hurt at time i want to learn how to fight internal how doe one do that,1 played simlike games becauseid like family someday think redflag stop happening obviously ive download virtual family game phone kids third generation people now die happy closest get married family know know how feeling gnawing telling ill never live longer this one day ill take death hands hopefully ill brave enough so one day,1 i could post my face and the fact that im sexy everyday but my depression won t allow me to flex on y all nigga like dat,1 cant handle pain anymoreive gone lot trauma life im tired pain im going put dog today know right choice pain end hell peace keep thinking cant too mercy end pain cant peace horrible want end suffering know cant family want pain end want peace wish could let go,1 everyone always cares late truly caredi dont think id feelings considerations care that make feel like least tried,1 hey think dont need live advice pleaseso syrian lives europe student refuge learned language perfectly still get racist slurs every single day clean record never hurt anyone im open minded accept every human never stick nose doesnt belong work study pay taxes since day never used help got offerd lot nice people im alone europe family friends home country decided finish college go back syria worked hard family died war got girlfriend also syria want come also die really hsve one world point dont want live anymore,1 anyone wanna talk title says im jst kinda bored,0 @Lalusion that should be meet not me ha ,0 understand fuck guys look penis think sucking pleasing another penis like penis great u want touch own text automod remove post,0 i m trying to plan trip low budget though don t think it is working,0 lonely hopelessim thinking ending life next couple days everything feels hopeless ive suicidal years decades im tired cycling feeling okay desperately depressed fucked missed important deadline basically set life back full year put relationship jeopardy cant deal sadness disappointment top normal depression want kill want die help me,1 "Depression in Men: Signs, Symptoms and What to Do https://www.wellness.com/blog/13283521/depression-in-men-signs-symptoms-and-what-to-do/wellness-editor … on the #WellnessBlog pic.twitter.com/vkUntfKTBE",1 "invites everyone of you to watch me in my first ever mall gig. See you in Market! Market!, 730pm this Saturday, June 13. God bless! ",0 feel embarrassed still suffer depression idea wanting hurt kill seems immature feel ashamed feeling it feel embarrassed mental health bad like,1 fun time student greece since beginning school year greece think th semptember lot conflict safety covid schools across country masks ministry gave students ridiculously large could easily cover someones entire face it even mention size comparison preschoolers one misstep minister education greece ms kerameus secondly students included put students freaking rathole arse classroom easily meters wide made useless masks hours straight it might sound bad thats worst thing schools cleaned properly result us students rightfully feared safety ones home elderly students decided act country broke schools changed locks started lock up infiltration schools preventing anyone getting standard subjects aka school minister acknowledged situation decided even try least fix situation btch threatened us said open schools would forced online classes participate lock ups would blacklisted joining thus getting absencehow works absences repeat grade school hour absence absent sad fact lot dumbass parents think right thus attacking students forcing school open usually resulting physical violence teachers plain chads totally agree students demands less students per class obeying safety steps thus ratting students absences tldr minister education greece fascist stupid individual resulting many students close schools,0 all ready to go to the premier and just realized how under dressed i am,0 european movie nice throwback time student s experiences living abroad interacting nationalities although circumstances slightly different klapisch the director went new york film school one would think drawing experiencebr br it interesting film balances message one generalize notion for every stereotype underlying truth example italian character based pothead aspect wellknown italian stereotype german character features tried tested stereotypes stereotypical aspect movie character central theme infidelity critic observed infidelity crucial french film class british filmbr br both main character girlfriend played entirely likable think deliberate greatbr br it may unintentional nationals elements could taken metaphor countries perceived role eu british woman fling american who entertainer like s us president frenchman shows natural leader when landlord shows upbr br although europe diverse new york striking see two nonwhite characters one chilean woman indigenous features despite appearing age main character portrayed potential object interest another gambianspanish rather gambiancatalan male appears bit inventedbr br one might ask klapisch chose protagonists longestablished eu member countries western europe nationalities reflect would meet students s believe exchange programs contemporary europe much diverse erasmus program encompasses countries iceland eastern europe many eu members understand however choice nationalities familiar majority viewership may deemed necessary distract contrast klapisch wants create peoples europe bureaucratic europebr br despite minor gripes great movie made consider going back europe live french friend mine also expatriate us captured shared feelings piece contradiction if europe like us would leave heartbeat,0 ive bad day today mostly rambling day started stayed night days ago went sleep am slept pm yesterday ive night its pm usually go sleep around am wake then stayed watch streamer twitch ended starting hours late things happen thats fine waited extra hours see play game play probably worst thing thats happened old friend tried contact me unblocked acting like nothing happened even though talked months answered short point possible herhi barkshe started conversations usually types something deletes it whats point typing responding idk respond that oh ok meow what want damn thats rude asf im gonna block again ok little back story randomly started ignoring irlin school answer texts stopped trying gave completely week tried one last time month answer noticed months later blocked her litteraly months later today tried that may hard brought alot pain one day fine next talk fo reason sent hi months ago decided going move on moved trying talk me also ignored talked everyday video called basically day everyday hurt alot audacity text again furious trying verbally assult her anyways thanks listening me probably people actually read it,0 sure whats going happeni drank half bottle tequila downed whole bottle nyquil last night whole body numb head feels like constantly spinning really thinking killing found could cause liver failure long since it go hospital would nothing could do,1 Everyone tells u to brush it off but u can't brush off depression,1 waste oxygento anyone reads this im sorry bother ive crying last half hour maybe share able finally fall asleep feel like depression getting worse dont really understand why world becomes grey mass care less less anything everything loses meaning me hard see even subconsciousness preparing die idk reverse dont want like know continues redflag eventually thats left nothing worth living for meds dont seem desired effect occasionally help care much much everything sucks despise people find needing dont want need anyone even stopped caring people actually love stopped fighting whats important me stopped wishes expectations existing living thats waste oxygen earth might desperately need,1 make biggest mistake familys lifewell least still woman son come home least keep hope alive try girlfriend kids watching father die take care family immediate family help everything dead end job still enough imagine going home complete failure grateful have spot would kill least son reach highperformance goals ever did killing would dumbest thing ever you could sitting next big baseball player next president next valedictorian life family one made please forget it would literally kill spot take granted,1 Whatever is troubling you !OPEN YOUR MOUTH & PRAY !!!!I'm talking about :- Anxiety- Depression- NervousBut when Anxiety attacks read :1 Kings 19 : 2,1 keep coming back idea inevitable endtheres part suffers much like cancer spreading killing everything good me im scared dying want believe im better this want believe make it day im getting comfortable idea here,1 like girl girl ive known long time weve friends long remember also live close go school wondering friendzone ask out age taking similar things school,0 taking sibling mental hospital help ive posting multiple subreddits looking help sister f multiple mental illnesses like bipolar idk one depression odd spoke recently feeling suicidal expressed wanting admitted mental hospital feel safe herself cant much supervise her left home alone week due parents town work i f able drive around go this advice appreciated,0 I LOVE TWITTER IM ADICTED TO TWITTER. ITS LIKE A DRUG ,0 every day think deatheveryday wake first thought shorting head chin constantly crave death never get around it think gun head least painful method need buy gun know start,1 im fat hot im skinny cold riddle also explains alo also john sus eject iss hamstera six days,0 home alone heard footsteps upstairs yall might last reddit post,0 took nap fist nap ive taken months im much nap person remembered lyrics really sad song video watched like twelve floodgates memories watched back cool stuff watched came back me hit hard almost cried kinda wanna rewatch stuff nostalgia sake,0 messed bad today final term maths exam stupid ass thought hours well didnt end marks worth questions it guys always read instructions,0 "Spreading awareness about depression and sharing her own struggle with it is one of the reasons why she was included on the list, obviously she's going to continue talking about so ignorant people like you stop seeing it as a joke!",1 Good morning to everyone except the people that told me Jesus would fix my depression if I let him. (I'm going to a therapist for the first time today),1 is watching the hill and it making me sad,0 finnaly happened started date crush today,0 saymy best friend suicidal goes months hes fine crashes want end all know well trusts much past relapses completely honest pretty sure know better anyone else however draining managed keep anything past times worst done small cut however really afraid going say wrong thing going something going react bad way say make snap make feel better personal things know get really deep stage last time barely worked read how act forums need specifics please help out,1 lovemeagan how i ms the snippet hun wts it of may i ask i wan na hear,0 want sterility test idk called cannot without mom finding masturbate shall do,0 im hungry like human body needs eat five times day,0 im deeply unhappy changei going go entire life complacency never following goal relationship feel undeserving unwanted that point go best really shitty years,1 One of my mini poems. #helenswriting#mentalhealth#depression#poetry#Friendship#friends#anxiety#livingwithdepression pic.twitter.com/IT8ZJ8uIo4,1 find need escape something hold attention two hours allow lost another world domino satisfy need entertainment all plot keeps brain motion one movies like usual suspects want see second time figure out wondered domino harvey herself life became interest hollywood acting lots celebrity appearances shown trailers actor makes forget done job well think kiera soccer uniform pirate costume granted mickey rourke plays mickey rourke well often here despite violence shows signs capable caring people,0 lot delayed this im doneim sorry thank kind words cant keep anymore cant,1 @DitaVonTeese it's a classic ,0 i am on the train with feeling of regret sadness lonliness disappointment and nostalgia most importantly dealing with uncertainty about the future we could die tomorrow thus the train crashed killing me i could end up homeless i could end up penniless i could end up in a wheelchair i could be super disabled i m just trying to make good with what i have and to not be sorry for what i don t hope is an addictive drug that stimulates dopamine but depression give me doubt,1 different everyonesuicidal feelings different people thats something important note may see post think i must faking it cant relate theyre saying people full breakdowns others quick intrusive thoughts on everyones trauma different expressed differently regardless people deserve listened helped even seem serious one thought enough remove another good person planet stay safe,1 hi want friends pls idc u r b friend,0 still stalker mean like real stalker knows dont tell coz u better leave alone,0 happy asexuality day yall im asexual anything like happy asexuality day lol ron almighty rat king,0 hedonist lover ive lost myself upon your devilish gaze smile razor blade cutting word vibrantly painting picture with blood marking wall memory screaming out i will infest your subconcious like drapery beautiful silk of morbid whisper cover my body while my soul gently rock in the wind hedonist lover set me free,1 @seanownsthewrld: i always am ,0 composition posts wanna die crush uwu ask hey guys im streaming game watch stream insert twitch link here lgbt related guys help momdadteacherother adult life fucking asshole stop,0 saw lon chaney jr boris karloff cast expecting find typically schlocky s style horror movie opening scene a graveyard wolf howling background seemed confirm this began watching it though discovered nifty little mystery englishman richard green seeking discover happened two friends disappeared black forest and necessary take revenge evil count stephen mcnally ruled territory chaney voiceless gargon rather limited role one reminded hunchback notre dame actually karloff somewhat substantial role dr meissen fact meissen one interesting characters movie difficult know end whether would established good guy bad guy castle set magnificent even limited depiction black forest real enough certainly come across lowbudget compared movies ive seen anyway disappointment thought rita cordays performance countess seemed somewhat dry seem put much passion rolebr br that aside found movie held attention throughout enough suspense going turn make well worth watching definitely recommended rating,0 doe anyone else feel their anxiety lower when they re living in a busy home i m not sure if it s because i wa raised in a crowded home so it gave me a distraction from my worrying but now our home is about to get bigger and i m thrilled about it i always found comfort in knowing there s always someone in the house and i ll never have to be alone,1 holy fuck zoloft making drowsy feel high went mg will go week days ago holy shit im drowsy seriously feel high something damn,0 learned origin cheesegrater meme furry community ohhh boy never same,0 Is #stress #depression and #anxiety really a choice? Can we simply decide we no longer want to have a #mentalhealth difficulty and then 'poof' we're well again?... https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/why-having-stress-depression-anxiety-really-choice-we-katie-woodland/?published=t …,1 a an fyi i wa diagnosed at with ocd usual hand washing fear of germ thought of death checking thing over and over again different trigger didn t leave the house for two year it s well controlled now but i m worried now that it s having an impact of relationship so she wa at the time now i m we chatted for two month dated for went on date but mainly she wanted sex had a lot of sex more than actual going out and doing stuff she becomes distant then when we see each other again she say she want to see me more we end up texting a lot a she wa always unavailable either with friend family or her guy friend she would see him more than me we re texting a lot so i tell her how i feel and that i want to see her more few day later she break up with me with a text won t go into detail why i try and text call her everything at first she ignored me then she gave me a couple of reply saying we ll talk thanks me for birthday gift i d gotten her before we d broken up then she just cut me off two week later she s in a very public relationship with her guy friend who wa seeing a lot when we were together and even stayed over in his place not long before she ended thing my problem is i couldn t accept that it wa over just after a text even before i knew she wa in a new relationship i replied to her she ignored me few day later she reply tell me we ll talk she then ignores me again i call her a day later she ignores me and cut off my call she message me a few day later thanking me for a birthday present i d given her before we d broken up apologises for ignoring me and say she shuts down and act weird in situation like this i tell her she doesn t have to feel that way and can talk to me to tell me what s gone on then send her a voice clip trying to talk her round she ignores so i tell her i won t try again except i did and messaged her happy birthday she replied and i try and make conversation she ignores me i then ask her if she want her stuff back she ignores me two week later i see she s in the relationship so i message her telling her how i felt and that it wa right to end thing a she wasn t making time for me i m bothered that i couldn t just let go and it s making me more concerned that maybe this is my ocd making me obsessed with someone and that i didn t actually feel anything for her i feel like i ve been set back about 0 year here worrying whether i acted normal or whether it wa driven by my ocd,1 "Tingly lips, best friend night tonight ",0 im old dont know version ps get help main concern getting digital version account hacked something lose games maybe im wrong concern,0 anyone else struggling something like thisi feel like depressed long time finally got courage start something someone insecurity problems meant acted like myself pushed away ruined something could good triggered bout depression sucks potential relationship triggered ruined depression,1 anyway can you believe Hyolyn really cured my depression just like that? Queen,1 hate work hate school want sleep day without disappointing anyonei never able hold job started new position today ive looking forward summer worked hours today cant hang quit im constantly overwhelmed work school graduated now whats point even trying could retire znd done it im tired sleeping hours exhausted want wake,1 http://twitpic.com/6biim - ( bobby + ritz ) me & miu miu @ butter ,0 the mighty tap are doing a one date world tour but i will have a newborn http news bbc co uk hi entertainment 9 stm,0 hey anyone wanna talkchatdo anything idc im bored wanna talk random strangers feel free dm stalk profile make sure find post kinda thing lot,0 i better be allowed to go to sway sway baby concert or i ll seriously cry,0 advicei want end life going downhill,1 Depression hit me like a truck,1 im waiting family leave go upstairs gorge anyways r guys doing im okay submitted bunch late work,0 plain ole depressioni point thinking everything everyone bullshit get reddit share opinion get told eat dick bitch annoying patrons work get dogged coworkers complaining shoving people aint bad man come stop way throat fuck me express transparent observation world around me get told brothers im negative fuckhead im miserable relationship someone coddles me im like literally fuckkng pure selfishness deeply sensitive failure boyfriend important relationship shes months pregnant still wish early abortion easiest life ever hate it body dysmorphia dwell body hours day even tho im lbs weight would take months gym correct physical issues im stuck fuckin floor dis satisfied everything like look around see system see games play im aware lights clockwork theres nothing special shit like emotionally im dead please dont mistake tone crying words out bland dull im shrugging around flip guess anyways hey,1 floppy 0 atipyque sarahelhairy macron le a noy dans la d pression pour ensuite leur offrir une porte de secours par l amour du b n volat la m me m thode que joseph di mambro sans le soucoupes volantes,1 i put a resolution that if i didn t get a relationship by the time i m 0 i m going to kill myself at the end of the year i m 9 i turn 0 in mount i found someone but i really screwed everything up because i feel i don t deserve to be happy with anyone and this feeling like i should just end it all is still here on how a screwed everything up is i wasn t there when she needed me most when her mother died i talked to a few others and they think it s because i couldn t handle my mother s own mortality when this happened i retreated into myself and closed everyone out and barely spoke with anyone i don t know if i can make it much longer because i love her with everything i have and her heart is broken because of me i hurt her i can t fix it and i can t handle that,1 genuinely want gone world lack resources disturbing unethicalall self help books inspirational shame memeposts help lines etc still complete lack help wanting end life effectively understand why jesus even post simply asking writing note pulled mods couple days ago elderly physically ill one would question death remaining option im s relatively physically healthy im supposed suffer because theres nothing here im terrified messing attempt life even worse im researching methods definitely going timing element everythingand think struggling much make happen theres million therapists medications already proven work chance getting better alternatives option actually ashamed despite cutesy memes society delusional obligation make sure living better matter quality life is even want hear but people miss me bullshit miss grandmother time go miss people die immortality answer time fair alone fearful someone finding execute it sorry rant over get back scrolling,1 omg more than 0 people is the death toll in italy,0 look back times messed things happening cant stop laughing got jumped bathroom th grade got junk touched second entire school thought raped got pantsed times row many people saw porn addict knife pulled pokmon cards events used haunt shit me laugh them something wrong me,0 Mulching my yard wih dime piece. Wendy's party and GAME SIX laterrrr ,0 quick question girls yall enjoy eaten out,0 best birthday ever untill the house sold,0 use reddit wanted share going hopefully someone take time read reply need type support another person always underlying issues like redflag impending sadness always pushed side growing teen parents never even talked mental health even diagnosed adhd kid mom huge stigma mental health told doctors kid thought normal growing would get extremely nervous anythingsimple tasks also would get distracted easily never able sit work schoolhome mom also emotionally abusive times would rarely hit things putting hands for thinking high school dark time time feel bad caught graduated mom great mother never listened opinion always kept box helicopter mom checking time led little social life high school also highschool sick twisted could go whole post it kept telling mom take school course never listened forced go school students students acted way younger age seniors would act like th graders weird confusing environment angry mom love immensely turned lot issues caught me unhappy unable even speak people redflag became worse would start shaking even speaking somebody started notice friends people knew time looking friends know depression making think friends people want around regardelsss pushed everyone away going horrible phase year hell mom thought changing cold reality really really down made feel bad way feeling still till day social life friends pushed everyone away one positive year finally found passion wish discovered earlier also zero idea start redflag depression become debilitating quit job room time contact ppl besides online friends i room time high school too become distant family feel distant everybody daily intrusive sad thoughts already getting therapy feel bad times right cannot imagine job going college almost seems impossible me also judge people much think others head truly know unhappy myself mom extremely judgmental hard things like without judging me need someone talk to ill try reply might forget even wrote post nervous reply need advice mental healthsocial life interested in old friends pushed away choice mental health know get started need speak going long post,1 I made a dedication for Karolka from my class ! I love you,0 religion sucks reallyi used kind buddhist believed reincarnation kinds supernatural things now know buddhism branches believe reincarnation im atheist pretty sure ill cease exist die think cease exist anyway endure painful life im this feel much sucks im religious person christianity thing gives meaning life allows find comfort it cant go back religious much sucks think,1 fuck isnt surgerymedicine free us funded entirely government like wtf fund police fire department military science much shit healthcare probably could save lives combined like mental health care surgery prescriptions rehabilitation free paid taxes to extent dont want pay melanias millionth plastic surgery anything like that duty government protect people letting people die theyd rather get buried six feet call cab cant pay infuckingsane idk countries tho really talking us,0 friend tight situationhi me friend mine theyve recently told therapist tell family whats happened internet friend bullied internet told anyone point family going tough time theyre worried told family family would another burden take really feel guilty point contemplating redflag talking veered conversations onto dark paths sort humorouslight situation rises immediately gets crushed say really want tell family would rather commit redflag know help way ive tried talking regularly via skype due technical circumstances thats extremely limited now options go,1 Pebbles was afraid of the Thunder and Lightning this morning. we aint had that for years! wow! new picture/s coming soon ,0 im going kill tonightfound ex cheating mo ths breakup feel ugly worthless im going slit wrists tonight die like deserve,1 train could either kill save lifesince today made homeless year old male lived bipolar depression years staying abandoned apartment leave sunday nowhere go friends nearby family money arrange accommodation thought accommodation mid december apartment demolished told last week leave monday thanks kindness stranger able afford cheap room two nights last night streets first time terrifying one large suitcase clothes stuff money get cheap room anymore try get help council sleep last night worry writing hope someone help tried kill worried try find streets again feel like hope im told get emergency benefit payment possibly next week probably thursday week then money streets somewhere stay miles away means getting there could get would safe benefits payment comes in train could either save life taking safety kill get desperate throw beneath one anyone help purchase train ticket secure safe accommodation next week council sort benefits find somewhere live thank reading,1 @kidOhri mmh sounds really yummy ,0 set dateone year today checked calendar itll saturday summer nice beautiful sunset want last thing see im going start writing letters getting affairs order give plenty time things little time without anyone noticing giving away major tells wife well taken care shell free upset sad first relief set shortly thereafter im even sad anymore numb setting date helps know endpoint is wonder sad upset know nothing get better matter making things better everyone else making easier them put normal happy face go business knowing soon none means anything im relieved finally,1 Can I get some depression with sprinkles? https://twitter.com/sweetsilktae/status/984874349059551233 …,1 anyone seen hat lost hat ,0 @LGBTQueue @MizTeeFranklin NO JUDGING. DEPRESSION AND SUICIDE DEMONS CAST IN JESUS NAME. HEAVENS BEST HEALING AND DELIVERANCE BAPTIST CHURCH. pic.twitter.com/onQ2C4YcWM,1 how to remove somebody else's depression and anxiety. help ,1 "@Medscape Higher Rates of Depression in Sexual Minority Youth. Adolescents who are gay, lesbian, bisexual, or are questioning their sexual orientation have significantly more depressive symptoms than their heterosexual counterparts, new research shows https://www.medscape.com/viewarticle/895658?nlid=121981_4562&src=wnl_dne_180425_mscpedit&uac=236116DX&impID=1616018&faf=1?src=soc_tw_share … via @medscape",1 wait stop scrolling wanted ask doing,0 nglonline school sucks get wrong video mute basically garfield lasagna omfg sometimes feel like physical school better worry teachers remembering old assignments stuff right instead distractions home friends last year new school f love friend life online school alot technical difficulties thank coming rant tnar ym ot gnimoc rof ouy knaht,0 The camera won't be on today sorry ,0 anyone wanna friends someone talk quarantine,0 problem would like experiment try new things life feel restrained parents arewould try stop mecare completely dread form judgement them even though intellectually know would passively disapprove leads strange emotional situation desperately want experiment personality also terrified step line fear literally nothing solutions dilemma welcome,0 hrs laterit hrs since tried commit redflag im sure share original post im still hospital ill probably weeks call mentality resort im guessing nice padded white room want thank support everyone given me honestly im sure wouldve succeeded totally forget invited sister talk saved ass hands down really hope get better mentally least,1 beccaacyrusx chyeahhhh my shoulder back and leg all hurt atm,0 im fucking close ending allwhen eminem said when im gone carry mourn wish upon friends really considering redflag point hate life really see point it like peace life always depression even anti depressants really depression fucking tired everyday fake happy mom dad sister school counselors friends hurting inside much want pain end fucking ed fucking school front friends teacher staff taken restraints hospital hours upon end think that probably fucking helps shit make even suicidal permanent way end pain death cutting temporary solution literally fucking anyone sees tell someone trying get help good intentions always end going hospital want peace never ending depression tried hang twice stopped parents came home times tried od adderall adhd meds take enough fucking sick tired world become want end life really see future wretched thing call world like fucking real want emotional peace once,1 crushing feeling get realize never going get betterim stuck position never asked in due mothers mistakes self destructive behavior ive tried help longer feel can come point realize cant help never going get better jumping fremont probably logical choice left cant im seeing failure trying bail sinking ship mother continues drill holes in,1 im concerned im going get liver damage mg paracetamolhi all know incredibly stupid year shit ive found back cold grim clutches depression earlier today phoned sick work argument mum due low mood sucking happiness situation ive part of know mean freaked out basically grabbed paracetamol could find grabbed beer fridge wrote note family friends have wolfed mg tablets breaking thinking itd mum sister going eat packets stopped guess morals pulled out tried throw many could toilet straight away sick even salty water managed get bit bile saw white residue solid tablets please anyone put mind rest know go hospital really ring anxiety preventing cant tell mum years since last attempt time break heart know lovely people offer help depression point something ive years im sort old friends depression relatively check take mitazapine get therapy every weeks social anxiety really bad lapse judgement ultimately regretted soon realised id started doing feel fine hours know liver damage failure etc take week present itself someone could please put mind rest danger realistically pose me asked friend works nurse said mgkg weight likely damage im kg pretty big guy know im way bellow threshold want upset family much danger realistically in drink fairly regularly drank past days due working christmas thanks advance lovely people gods work page,1 cant anymoreevery action take trap behind it cant anything even self pity god make looking love raped cant breathe move family done hrs without sleep cant eat guys dont want die,1 quick questioni atm mg hydromorphone left hand would enough kill take time im year old female weight lbs history tolerance opiate thank time,1 send help im bored class,0 horni disease cure u ahaha hmu bb lmao jkjkjkunless ahaha dms open,0 #HealthNews - More than 1 in 20 US children and teens have anxiety or depression https://ift.tt/2HMU2Al ,1 knoi wanna touch depressionredflag one quick second fact one thing say it matter suffer depression matter attempted redflag million times matter studied mental illness depth levels possible person committed attempted redflag person currently trying find way depressions dark deep void subject depression conversation kno feel understand go thing fought battle agree literally pure ignorance thing complex human brain comprehension existence our brains included different every piece sand beach every snowflake ever fallen every star ever wished upon comprehension individual experiences completely different one next fucking tired people trying project idea understanding every thing happens anyone world era arrogance swear need go bathroom look mirror take real long look eyes tell aloud i kno shit,1 want outive dealt depression suicidal thoughts years seriousness reason havent killed yet mom reason left stay here however dumb ass something really bad back found it said best herself parentchild relationship requires trust lost hers put shit years think last straw dont see point going forward anymore especially mother despises like now,1 yesterday i noticed puncture wound on my thigh i m actually not really sure what they are they could be abrasion wound i might have scratched there but i can t remember but of course i ve been fixated on bat ever since i heard you might not feel a bat bite i ve been very afraid of them i know i m probably ok like 99 sure but that like a bat might have gotten under my cover bit me then flew out and disappeared is just freaking me out and i thought my toe leg felt a little tingly tonight so i just can t sleep health anxiety is so unreasonable,1 codylfriend you re not sweet,0 my therapist and psychiatrist say they can t fire me if i follow the protocol and that the program will help me work while doing iop the iop program would only be hour a day on day a week so i could still work part of the time could my job fire me for doing iop worst case scenario i would be able to bounce back but it would be difficult,1 elf best christmas movie ever made wayyyyyy better thann home alone,0 the maine please out me to sleep i have test in the morning,0 goodbyeim m tired things going hill me every attempt something gone horribly wrong im scared even happy realize nothing help everything seems go better nothing family seems happy friends much better without me looks world better without trying get it dont remember much high school every mistake ive made everything horrible ive seen sister pull knife mom elementary school twice apparently ive seen attempt redflag boyfriends breaking her parents want work hard athletic work school well cant it every attempt get help hasnt gone anywhere past hour asking okay have dont reason couple keep living out friend really good me hes like brother know hell fine hes stronger mentally physically crush im into know doesnt like way like thats kind way now video games dont give much happiness anymore fast lose game anything all ive planning four years now thing thats stopped note people care about believe better leave any know words misleading ive lost appetite think ill enjoy ice cream final snack thank you everyone trying,1 can i just post this picture everyday pleaseit helps ease away my depression pic.twitter.com/mJfLaJOcDw,1 slide dm like guy m really social people never life slid instagram dm every girl ive ever met mostly met a common friend b wingman c drunk going group girls never ever slid dm kind anxious it say start conversation talk about,0 respected devendra fadnavis sir i am abdulla shaikh from mumbai sir my friend hasham qureshi want justice illegally possesion taken by jj marg police station sir his family is in depression due to this they will do suicide if anything happen them you and your government will be,1 i wa really stupid and ordered nitrogen gas without thinking of a back story because i stupidly thought they wouldn t ask well i got a call an hour ago asking what it s for and i folded he could tell it wa bullshit and i sent an email asking to cancel the order and now i m scared i m going to get sectioned edit the cop actually did come around today because of this but i wasn t sectioned,1 "@StewartKris hi kristen, i adore you like a LOT! so sorry to hear your last twitter got hacked, hope your doing just fine ",0 "@loristolcpart thanks Lori, I'll add it to my list. ",0 seem worth tryeveryone says find someone talk suicidal one like make friends want bother people realize im sadawkward time people want first friend ugh im never going get fucking life like did,1 never afraid ask help asking reaching help sign weakness sign strength burden annoying attention seeking worthy happy living best life possible reminder loved alone,1 need someone rant youre lmk lol,0 suffering from chronic depression https://vine.co/v/iu3l2lPBhiK ,1 "Finally, my bedroom is tidy. OCD does come in handy ",0 gologistically go ive tried find straight forward answers cant anything need student loans bank account make living will say goodbyes without letting people know im planning do make easier them plz dont tell it im,1 remember kids want age flair click three dots top right corner screen press change user flair,0 demi lovato's song back around is AMAZING ,0 comment discusses north south book i dealing periodbr br the th century history usa mostly identified people civil war reasonable opinion civil war put union severe test civil war made americans realize precious live peace finally period last brought end shameful system slavery br br from birth motion pictures people adapted time onto screen dw griffith early s made unforgettable birth nation yet famous film northsouth clash still suppose gone wind unfortunately fewer people know magnificent tv series based john jakes novel north south best tv series ever made time spent watching really precious taped video polish tv many years ago come back great pleasure many times since then why br br firstly entire story deeply rooted historical reality two families maines south carolina hazards pennsylvania represent two entirely different ways life spite that friendship unites them yet experience struggle people do friendship attacked truth political correctness love attacked hatred legal spouses gentleness strength social heroes orry maine patrick swayze beloved character someone finds love quickly deprived her someone cares friends political fanatics step way ruin much finally someone see tragic future land nothing souths inescapable fate friend george hazard similar aspects sometimes appears stronger character shows orry although tragedies must get despair live since life precious thing have although represent two different lifestyles friendship occurs stronger prejudice politics conflictsbr br other characters also particularly well developed villains like justin lamotte salem jones really wicked people ambiguous nature humanity always been charles maine is first full rebellion prone fighting later however learns true southern gentleman southern pride courageous words foremost courageous deeds virgilia hazard represents fanatical side abolitionist movement striving condemn slavery punish owners black breeding farms marriage grady appears symbol equality also symbol saying no politics south two interesting characters orrys sisters brett ashton sisters whose veins runs entirely opposite blood brett gentleness also naiveness believes absolute fidelity marries billy even though northerner truly loves him brett representation precious young woman ashton however vamp tigress woman hesitate wicked things clear picture world views clash chat men familyunforgettable moment universal characters head valuesyet war breaks theyll put aside lotbr br secondly performances someone said people act naturally say that id rather say cast good jobs parts main characters portrayed younger staff guests consist famous stars including liz taylor robert mitchum others patrick swayze orry great job consider role one best ones lesley anne madeleine also memorable part perhaps entails much suffering manages express sorts feelings really well kirstie alley appealing truly memorable abolitionist virgilia hazard phillip casnoff worth consideration horribly ambitious elkanah bent well david carradine monster husband disgusting justin lamotte and contrast him mention must made jean simmons truly excellent orrys mother whose heart beats glory family life concord union br br thirdly memorable moments north south leave unfading trace ones mind forget first meeting orry madeleine charm gentleness scene possible skip moment madeleines father dies found really powerful real drama moment drama woman left someone really loved her also liked churubusco sequence george hazard worried life dearest friend orry meetings constance terrific virgilias speech philadelphia masterpiece performance final moment first part although north south may separate friendship never die orry george symbolically join hands train moves on simply many beautiful powerful scenes impossible mention even half here gorgeous tunes bill conti shot brilliant landscapes music north south touching memorablebr br what say end north south real must dvd simply amazing tv series victory precious us love friendship loyalty honor truthfulness absolute fidelity ,0 sneases sound like shotgun entire neighborhood goes panic half think shooting half afraid covid really terrible seasonal allergies,0 opinion on career option quick note agree blm movement disagree alm movement agree cops people support enforce racist system justice ive seen lot people sharing around posts career option black isnt disagree first part since career choice many people people say career choice people age still live parents never made single cent entire lives definetely live own hand older people youngadultage college students college graduates parttime workers etc never done anything claim career choice why many people depending careers live people say know hard make money make living people work day sunrise till midnight could food eat water drink say career option parents career gives money money live bedroom air conditioner money nice meal times day money cups water day money phone fast internet connection say career option but lot celebrities say career option celebrities make millions dollars single instagram fucking post make millions dollar posting shit instagram course would easy say career option quit jobs still millions dollars bank accounts lot people need constant income live now expect people bombard hate comments and either lazy ass read arguments read whole thing spoiled ass still need money parents make opinions careers dont even job,0 feel empty regret cancelling therapist matter tell know mistake idek even undo mistake,0 @ArianaGrande I LOVE U SM BBY NO TEARS LEFT TO CRY IS PURE TO MY DEPRESSION,1 feel like im stuck ruthi all im years old live united kingdom near dover past hours ive feeling low unhappy life right im final gcse exams im going get good grades ill probably getting ds es worse try hardest enough im overweight loser whos best enough never seem lose weight ive tried several times past unfortunately always seems fail skinny perhaps id confidence feel like ill probably commit redflag im im stuck home pretty much everyday school finished friends teamspeak voip talk to couple friends school social life girlfriend heh me girfriend happening id like nice job wife daughter move canada think ive damaged much young child especially weight normal happy healthy weight teenager instead fat one goals life feel like ill never able achieve them feel like crying know do,1 looking dot imagethingys im looking repository instagram dot messages like this,0 "@_thatdamnkid Don't worry, you're not the only one. If you feel you have clinical depression. I know a friend who can help.",1 @davsot Awesome! Enjoy the awesomeness of Sennheisers! ,0 anyone got full prophecy true copypasta gotta send friend cant find,0 britney wa fucking amazing after we just went back to the hotel i hate travelling with cheapos,0 won silver in the Fareham Open Class D Pistol shooting comp ,0 hard know make weird little aussie crime flick one hand enjoyable little film great sense humour other lacks certain something ensures film never reaches boundary keeps trapped within merely interesting territory said two hands well plotted film excellently juggles several stories time allows several small climaxes throughout movie turn helps stop film becoming boring absurdity goingson thick australian accents bizarre set characters help ensure film entertains also plot follows story young doorman thinks hell go bigger things accepting job local kingpin doesnt job lands trouble fancies swim stupidly leaves ten grand beach promptly stolen couple kids time lives shopping spree however rosy hero must find money face consequencesbr br the film made cast unknowns least back nowadays heath ledger something name impress much here however performance mostly onenote variety make compelling lead fits movie hes australian looks naive beyond that hes best lead ive ever seen movie ask me bryan brown gave best performance here might great deal screen time steals every scene hes provides movie lot humour hes got nothing best sequence however takes place form probably hilarious bank robbery ever caught film whole recommend film people enjoy quirky crime films weirdness plentiful way events take turn bizarre enjoyable fan sort film cant really say two hands float boat must see thing get chance see ityou probably wont completely regret it,0 "She definitely showed signs of alcoholism, but it was potentially triggered by her suffering from Postpartum Depression.",1 literally saw many times oh fucking god cishet writer pov everyone assigned certain color birth assigned red wanted blue trans people nonbinary people people literally anything cis,0 "@natneagle No, I just found out and heard about www.incompetech.com - 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Boardmates' Dinner downstairs ",0 wahre worte depression depressionen burnout,1 loved movie ever since debut lost track many times seen it never fails make laugh cheer feeling down three leads fantastic script priceless plus get nostalgic hearing theme song think quote movie without realizing it basically know entire script someone watching first time hold back saying something funny next line it cant even narrow down although sir johns character probably gets memorable ones famous ill alert media arthur announces intention take bath still priceless list truly endless scenes arthurs soon fiancs fathers house scream particularly interactions moose favour see movie,0 YAY for bonfires!!!! ,0 first want kill phone hotline not regret much planning killing tommorow excited something look forward honestly felt morally obligated least try hotline uh bad idea first people even say anything meaningful someone talk to someone gets paid prevent suicide thought maybe would give reason live sent police house parents know suicidal mom bawling horrible dads taking hospital see doctor tommorow day suppose home alone things love one last time ending life gracefully tricked suicide hotline,1 ive looking sex grindr day nobody wants mewhy even fucking bother im ugly im wanted obviously guys want cry fucking die,1 f 0 i m feeling very lonely i need someone to talk to,1 wow really liked movie william h macy great quiet hitman alexbr br all performances really good plot interesting entertainingbr br alex married hitman like fatherwith little son going middle age crisis wants quit family business goes psychiatrist help place meets young free spirit sarah falls love to one day alex know gets job kill person knows br br i recommend watch like mature interesting moviesbr br stars good,0 yall seem little stressed gtpopltgtpopltgtpopltgtpopltgtpopltgtpopltgtpopltgtpopltgtpopltgtpopltgtpopltgtpoplt gtpopltgtpopltgtpopltgtpopltgtpopltgtpopltgtpopltgtpopltgtpopltgtpopltgtpopltgtpoplt 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speak certain friend happens female saying talk day asked could tommorow says nice want talk much say need talk friends speak english others best friends previous school replied youre sweet anyway say things thats it know likes even like i legitimately could dont know even relationship would work since were sort half way across earth other do help also please make blow reddit likely shell figure sees this,0 parents buy phone friends get phone parents buy myself anyone else buy themselves ive euro phone years cant afford new one,0 probably best royal rumble yearsbr br match sees edge battle shawn michaels good long match next one worst wrestlers roster heidenreich takes undertaker boring casket match match number sees bradshaw defend wwe title big show kurt angle surprisingly good contest next match sees triple h defending th heavyweight title reign randy orton great match upbr br next royal rumble takes place raw superstars smackdown superstars hit ring try win rumble face champion whoever may wrestlemania highlights included tough enough winner daniel puder getting ass kicked chris benoit eddie guerrero hardcore holly superstars beating crap muhammad hassan raw superstars vs smackdown superstarsbr br not bad ppv allbr br edge vs hbk taker vs heidenreich jbl vs angle vs big show triple h vs orton royal rumble match ,0 corona positive school someone school got positive corona friends quarantine best friends tested positive corona also got positive thing touch phone sometimes watch youtube play games th day hospital wanted make post im super bored quarantine thing hard boring feels like im monster keep locked wish luck ,0 @PaulaFanx13 Lol..Thanks Glad you like it ,0 number day day doing im pretty good,0 hate life much social life till like back days kindergarden teacher literally begged children least try befriend exclude activities still got marginalized friends got bullied lot still cheerful person till moved parents house went uniand things started turn better guess what covid happened isolation again fact live literally shit country romania made even worse hurts impossibility find romantic partner tried every dating app possible went every social event restrictions lifted literally trying hard check boxes success single chancealso tried therapycounselling help all one tell eventually find someone cannot menrally exhausted try anymore feel condemned live dream nightmare stuff called life dream every aspect life point going absolutely perfect social aspect gives suicidal thoughts every daythe thing aggressive troll internet said something bad toabout you sorry mean it unending frustratiin speaks me sometimes wish terminal disease know certainly die soon,1 reeeeally want always end backing wish coward tired,1 nthe edge right stepped backi tried put misery days ago stopped myself problem nothing really changed life static due early life crisis see always known wanted writer since childhood ever saw doing th grade entered essay contest overheard head contest talking essay words never good writer said made eye contact lost words moment pretended hear anything next day depressed ever been lost faith skill dream even muster strength go school years later im drop idea want life im angry everyone everything try write im happy anything come with everyone life thinks graduated working getting community college classes want filmmaker tried make short films shit unwatchable truth walk around pretending homeless sleep park benchs tried truly think im going spend rest life like this moment truth realised really want die problem know do cant go back school cant write confidence films trash also late tell friends truth without losing them tldr genuinely lost life redflag answer know is,1 beautiful waves make day happy httpsyoutubev_onlii good day ,0 need help talking girls boys nonbinarys try playing question game question game pretty simple understand begin taking turns asking questions person cant dosent want answer question person answer question loses may seem like simple concept helped get know opposite gender pretty well hope help fellow redditors well also cautionary advice ok lose game question gets personal uncomfortable know boundaries fun,0 stevenghysel that seems to be a problem with twitter s timestamps not much we can do about it,0 made lemon tea lemon feel boujee yall gonna pay euros,0 boys skinny enough need skinnier filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 somebody talkim attempt right something urgent need somebody talk feel alone,1 If behavioural activation is too much to think about then you can always try some high quality #selfcareA duvet day with just a little thought and structure can be a wonderfully restorative and self compassionate way of dealing with low mood #ItsOkNotToBeOk #depression pic.twitter.com/3tUAs1jb5G,1 hopes she does well at shooting today *fingers crossed*... and is looking forward to seeing her Ameypie! ,0 read content warningso recently played first part doki doki doki literature club half regret it beware post contain spoilers played trougth game already expected terrible things happen shit hit close home one fucking thing dumbass sayori said agree with congratulated and still do game stopon portrayal suicidal thoughts people last scene fucked completely saw there saw myself awful scene ive fantasizing last years pile shit supposed dumb graphic novel slight twist kicked right nuts realization im much worse thought was see ive gotten used it normal redflag solution everything normal way it fucking pile shit game made realize close snapping much research ive done subject easy simple elegant exit bag compared living made realize warp vision is fucked every possible aspect know worst part nobody missed her game goes on life kept going almost nothing changed left right know game means know put content warnings got it ive messaged friend school one ive ever trusted know shell stab back eventually hopefully ill dead that asked meet somewhere talk private it private able keep together utter words ive avoiding piece cunts hopefully ill dead months,1 sure get you young posting here something like feeling great long time now exactly friends nobodys beat friend feel nobody cares me nobody talks me also school painful me hour day redflag sadness suffering horribly school feel life go crap something worse could happen then ever since went secondary school feel lost everyone actually cared primary school longer energy want eat enough barely get sleep feel sad time redflag way much recently lost friend believe depressed sure anything anymore sometimes feel like jump front car would probably make everyone lifes easier obviously probably big deal overthinking sure st time posting already feel nervous press post felt happiness while,1 "Natural L-Theanine for Anxiety, Panic Attacks and Depression - https://nootriment.com/l-theanine-for-anxiety/ … pic.twitter.com/YOrrlwKKuZ",1 give movie a sheer camp it dietrichs daughter maria riva wrote book mother if one sees garden allah context high camp amusing how laughed delight overwrought score astoundingly ridiculously fantastically melodramatic dialogue viewers whove read accounts boyers toupee it kept coming unstuck heat snicker every time makes appearancebr br dietrich boyer rarely look giving lines instead gaze dreamily distance presumably faces photographed best angle advantageous light if starring turkey might well look good dietrichs costumes world riva notes book dietrich managed steal paramounts travis banton design divine gowns chiffon beige dress capebr br i heartily agree reviewers rave technicolor really hard believe film done color fantasticbr br in short watch garden allah lenient attitude embrace silliness cant help enjoy it,0 please someone chat me feel super hopeless want cry cannot feel empty,1 broken heart and torn up letters ,0 i m feeling so bad i can t function anymore and will probably be hospitalised but i got a message from a teacher saying i wa missing too many class and referring me to the school s psychologist what can i do,1 readyi thinking long time got plan bought needed wrote letter son ready gut it cry day im almost cash lost family im time drunk fuck pills im scared it wtf wrong me im scared pain anything me fear miss ill explain hospital family probably get see son biggest fear work would son become fuck me try get help see guy alcohol abuse got psychiatrist follow me another girl try help anxiety problems problem nothing work today made prescription pills starting think might starting state schizophrenia want become insane am keep thinking son keep neglecting im already fuck head say im gonna get worse wtf suppose live for thing live son know im gonna deceive hurt emotionally keep going on wish could disappear without hurting him,1 liveim older autistic ill never normal girlfriend wants call says spark nothing changed far see always fail everything anytime feel good things something happens remind im social retard failure put animals suffering down cant people look forward dead feel anything,1 Having depression for dinner.,1 spoilers review edited due word limitbr br the horror horror marlon brando apocalypse apocalypse redux br br the sentence famous heres looking you kid are talkin me may force you ill back means little oneliners spoken lingers air importance meaning go unnoticed might drive viewers nuts may never find answer horror unless rewatch film try pay close observation every single framebr br what exactly line dialogue mean horror spoken reality war reality moral men easily corrupted turn inborn instincts kill fellow beings without sign guilt capt willard martin sheen stands dying col kurtz marlon brando end film the horrorthe horror realization willards corruptness mercilessly killed man cold blood part assignment typical hollywood ending cases character gains something whether emotionally physically mentally three willard gains loses gains knowledge lost morals shocking endingbr br apocalypse now francis ford coppolas tribute artistic side filmmaking film wholly different the godfather hallucinogenic visually dazzling ode guilty side human nature first seems realistic becomes strange symbolic and end original unique perspective spiritual side warfare much film vietnam war film war within usbr br at first appear another war film captain willard sheen assigned army lieutenant a young harrison ford assassinate renegade american colonel named kurtz brando hiding somewhere vietnam hoard troops less act slavesbr br willard carries mission with extreme prejudice heading boat along four soldiers including boat captain chief albert hall chef frederic forest young larry fishburne who later went appear morpheus the matrixbr br apocalypse now many ways modern update homers odyssey main character willard carries journey meets array original strange characters including lt col kilgore robert duvall strange fetish surfing stoned photographer dennis hopper whose lively gestures mannerisms compared much lesser jeremy davies the million dollar hotel one worst films ever seen davies failed make connection audience hopper does like poetic vibe willard kurtz like interpreter going back forth speaking foreign languages case translating kurtz willard although im sure kurtz needs translation willardbr br many films lucky enough one two memorable scenes lines apocalypse now many kilgore descending upon vietnam village playing wagners ride valkyries remains one remembered scenes film history sharpness it brutality it ironic tone it also sense playfulness kilgore kneels beach says i love smell napalm morningit smells like victory crack smilebr br i lie you apocalypse now strange film exactly easiest thing analyze end may frustrate viewers understand marlon brandos significant speeches comes to really matters film dark nature human psyche horror realization war effects war itself kurtz says you right kill me right judge me brandos character kurtz left audience judge many nave viewers may appear crazy loon whose power got head francis ford coppola trying get across fighting vietnam kurtz realized great it bad others it walking devastated villages eventually comes realize nave ones living lives fools paradise totally nave surroundings possible misfortunes hit seeing unlucky vietnamese are kurtz realizes easily could struck something easily could end like people around him also realizes people people abandoned morals left door many people think horror one thing two kurtz horror reality nave reality wars impact upon men willard murders kurtz hears kurtzs dying words realizes too realizes effects war see many soldiers sense right wrong makes realize horror war man done him horrorbr br stars br br ,0 @TourSeries Another day of fab weather for it...all good stuff ,0 might make gay sex poem tonight get comment calling pretty princess ill it,0 bad day at the betfair office,0 previous reviewer claudio carvalho gave much better recap films plot details could recall mostly beautiful every sense emotionally visually editorially gorgeousbr br if like movies wonderful look at also emotional content beauty relevant think glad seen extraordinary unusual work artbr br on scale id give reason shy away mood piece mood really artistic romantic film definitely think mustsee none us mood time so overall ,0 buddy manucciroy scheider solid chance leading roleheads secret undercover police squad called sevenups whose tactics necessarily follow exact ways law get job done way without anything leaked press gives freedom expand means getting criminals working detectives policeman nab buddy pal childhood named vitotony lo biancowho swaps information regarding mob types shysters working streets nyc buddy know vito hatching scheme using names buddys check listhe book open taking notes provided vito know friend copied names written within mindto set mob families series mob kidnappings eliciting cash thanks two copposers moonthe alwaysvillainous richard lynchand bobill hickmanworking him scheme goes awry one sevenups killed vito becomes fearful knows buddy hes doggedly someoneespecially one murderedbr br extremely underrated cop flick thrilling car chase new york city buddy follows kidnapping copimposters trying get killing partner film overly complex plot setup realize ringleader scheming mobsters scheider never given credit deserves fine lead actor emotional range see losing cop friend takes toll him film briskly paced good action sequences sets interesting plot betrayal friends greed comes childhood friendship seems like smooth crimespree evil mob families get cops killed,0 failure failed mom failed dad failed girl liked importantly failed myself use sub understand others maybe build empathy love least forgive mistakes always tried good swear life keeps fucking ass lube try act normal go friends work harder learn new things feel everything act still feel empty clear path follow tragedy never noticed signals always there time day night feel painless really trying fuck man god idk fuck charge assuming someone making fun me making struggles bigger day day young less year would graduated top tier uni hopefully things improve prospect better life keeps harming myself family friends her even know going on ones know kind understand tell make stronger thing is tired strong weak pathetic idea keeps popping head keep fighting decide worth fight anymore want coward care love ones proof do care care me give life them escape,1 crying hrs straight ok serious tho lol,0 when die someone bury me dont whats difference gives damn huh thus philosophy life or lack of summed less classic nevertheless fun spinoff sergio leones dollars trilogybr br in opening scene three obviously evil gunmen ride western town and menacing glares intimidate pathetic normal people hiding homes observant watcher notice three bears striking resemblance characters leones dollars more one guy eastwoods poncho one lee van cleefs black suit one seeming act like gian marie volontes indio movie guys sooner ride town gunned someone even cooler they mysterious bounty hunter known simply strangerbr br no altogether different storybr br in obvious copying leones good bad ugly three gunmen vying hidden treasure bounty hunter mexican bandit stranger george hilton supercool bounty hunter penchant shooting people dressed like priest reward bandit monetero gilbert roland moneteros gang steals three hundred thousand gold coins stranger gets sidetracked normal line workbr br to round trio edd byrnes corrupt bank executive clayton wants money himself money hidden away man knows gets shot clue hiding place medallion shows family crest game find treasure anyone else does gun playbr br with plenty gunfights fist fights double crosses action takes three ultimate showdown ripoff three way draw hidden treasure ala good bad ugly twistbr br this movie good leones films course end gives damn huh movie fun s nihilism spaghetti western style rules enduring loyalties right wrong treasure whatever takes get it and though movie classic ending surely is hey maybe get along all hundred thousand piecebr br if like spaghetti westerns check one out fast furious worth look,0 New City Focus for Round Rock came out today: http://tinyurl.com/lxd9kd The story on Summer Safety Tips came out really great #3 ,0 im fall apart everydaywithout distractions feel like im gonna go nuts today got never slept kept thinking problems problems panic attacks past got work easily finishing around sat everything kept feeling like going break again used drink vodka stop thoughts keep coming back kept feeling like wanted grab knife cut throat let press there mentally fall apart anything stress about depression gets worst want kill little confidence actually it cant think properly,1 strength anymoreday ive feeling like seems like long time almost every day past year contemplated ending life ive selfharmed somehow slitting wrists open watching blood trickle calmed down ive done everything promised wouldnt night went sleep theres something inherently wrong that wanting kill myself despite everything kid age needs around months ago started slipping college wouldnt attend days stretch days turned weeks weeks turned months knew wasnt good head space id hiding something parents while sent counselling lied woman well couldnt tell anyone one night however mother caught crying sleep told honest said would support matter was told time inappropriately touched grown man almost two years ago ever since like this felt depressed wrong disgusting always called mother best friend literally nothing havent shared her everything sixteen year old girl indian household remains silent about able discuss freely her quite understanding mother much shell go lengths defend argument father still doesnt know doubt would even understand speaking father never hit me hurls abuses me never physically hurt me reminds every day failure wasted investment useless impure negative slacking reminds best hope life job call centre boss yell ill suck desperate money ill husband berate ill mercy dont bring joy im meant anything good regrets giving things has ruin everything touch complete utter disappointment then hours later sweet words usual want whats best you know does person says things every single day start believe it first words pinched would cry listen him scared explain ive become mess am started screaming back pretending dont care calls rude shameless way know block out cry leaves room say is ever finds this im sorry know expected promise tried ive thought months know people worse problems maybe im selfish mine cant live like this strength anymore know im writing this wanted see could put thoughts together theres dayweek rule one must follow committing redflag day one well see happens tomorrow,1 feel worthlessno one fucking cares everyone takes everyone selfish chases goals called friends even family comes make decision choose themselves thats world seems be sit im scared alone nearly everything friends really need someone drop everything help them thats dumb exploitable thats everyone about find idiot exploit need never give back cant anymore got hopes often crash every single time one ever unconditionally take im sorry rant letting crying trick time,1 cant anyone appreciate anything dolike im fucking trying fucking happy like fucking cant never im trying one fucking thing last months everyone keeps asking help ask anything answer ever support people none supports,1 Voted for teen choice awards... Wish they would include another category: Christian and Inspirational music! Sent them an email about it. ,0 every time pain heart hope ill dieto intensely connected someone months go away taken away memories pierce mind every fucking day cant handle it much pain crying pain mind rejection betrayal hate every single moment im alive spent time her messaging eating together making plans talking fucking connection thought would die together turn butterfly went much poverty heroin addiction fights happiness love longer talks me broke up friends something happened left drunk took heroin found strangers respond messages want talk me void void heart id rather electricity thousands volts snapped testicles go this pure emotional torture reality cruel beg god kill please every time pain heart happy maybe maybe heart attack kill me plan yet method sure get idea,1 i saw cable back late s big wrestling fan since saw vhs for sale bin bought itbr br in started training wrestler air force would always go back watching see accurate portrayal people involved wrestling families friends understand us travel heartbreak etc henry winkler funny sometimes sad watch nobody else understand genius creatively great way separate fonz character played happy days time plus look castwilliam daniels knight rider polly holiday alice wrestlers roddy piper chavo guerrero sr get chance watch it,0 great movie worst ending think ever seen actors great displayed wonderful talent entire story twisted unexpecting which made entertaining good movie was entire film judged ending terrible maybe sequel could eliminate bad ending,0 "@TimCAD Good god man, are your hands ok?? ",0 literally everyone needs see video no rick roll httpsyoutubeulsvie_q,0 bored want join discord im guy the discord server aimed teenagers ran teenagers occasional events chill discussions almost anything link server profile fun whilst server,0 @srslyallison They don't make a McCoy. ,0 online schooling best video conferences place teachers drop exercises today one task return next month usually percent school day things school also ridiculously easy barely tests homework all shut up,0 im making soup guys welcome bowl,0 want get revenge brother good plan ask parents seem insist wear older brothers hand downs problem pants never fit even wear belt keep slipping showing underwear parents listen say your wearing belt fine pull slip years yeah worn something without belt years im getting used used underwear showing time except home ever brother sees always gives massive wedgie ive come plan get revenge wanna ask good idea good enough brothers pants fitbut wears belt time sags pants tbh kinda ive started now times wants look good wears one girlfriend coming hour hell getting smarter clothesso im considering stealing belt embarrassing him leaves giving suprise wedgie telling stole belt good idea,0 i feel worse than ever i need more burn than i thought i started using cigarette burn i thought this wa going to be better than cutting but it s worse much much worse i need help the guy i talked to in dm wa right i need help i just don t know where to start,1 brag shortest person friend group,0 hi ellie diagnosed depression gadfucked every way f helps told family done done days working idk why top mod post hits hard,1 yeaj! ... nu hat mein macbook auch applecare protecion plan ,0 another lonely night starring ceiling guess lonely together,0 everything is a really weird blur not all the time but these wave of blur come and go doe anybody else have this it s like i m existing but not really dead but alive deaf but i can hear blind but i can see what is this,1 want pain stop goodive suicidal years straight severely depressed long remember things life improved large others gotten worse ive gotten older biggest one mental health ive psych ward three times tried kill twice recent attempt unfortunately botched left agonizing pain every single day nearly months later im surrounded people love care none ever really get matter hard try im tired trying everything sun seems work everyone else doesnt jack shit frustrated disappointed im getting worse meantime im tired miserable pain im nothing helps shitty life turned be all im tired pretending like things improve know deep probably wont life fucking joke im tired goddamn punchline,1 susan sarandon is lack better word incredible opinion and yes understand everyone agree here one greatest actresses ever least oscars credit mean amazing performance lorenzos oil but think every performance amazing gave emma thompsonwhat about time got oscar shed industry years think anyone deserved more especially performance brilliant portrayal sister helen prejean again artificiality hollywood need oscar people know good anywaybr br this film carries deep thoughtprovocing messages needless say taken lightly tim robbins course cant escape credit here would think that person feelings death penalty portrayals made movie accurate however sides deathpenalty debate given even weight one side see interesting side matthew human side makes witnessing death rather heartwrenching time see way savaged victims constant torment understandably griefstricken parents one word tim bravobr br a brilliant movie and like said welldeserved long awaited oscar susan,0 really hard timecopying pasting fb conversation friend really feel like retyping whole thing sorry formatting bad grammar typing tears easy im really depressed im feeling suicidal cant deal anymore literately sitting couch listening family talk much hate didnt kids would homeless right now choice world wouldnt living would cut completely going getting progressively worse obviously know hear ive everything try make happy made deans list last semester im working ass off nothing good enough k saved put torwards getting place asked help paying school told no spend savings plus pay summer semester theyre mad dont money put torwards moving cant afford move without roommate anyways one wants move single mom two kidsz dont want live anymore everyone hates me constantly feel alone mom constantly screaming me cant find way out feel like choice seriously want get up walk kitchen theyre sitting get knife slit wrists ive told mom im issues ever says need stop overdramatic im going continue spiral no dont get aid ive paid everything pocket far im eligible according fafsa tcc screwing yeah k last two semesters friends best friend moved hours away completely alone one would even care gone ive trying really dont know anyone craigslist skeves anyone talk im always one starting conversation one ever reaches one really cares talked brother say irresponsible my kids wouldnt know difference always want go dad never care coming home me spend time family anyways im constantly school work really want take car side bridge side cliff something have felt like before cant shake all married abused what then highschool totally alone ran away times cant though left go dont want take im stuck theres nothing hundred dollars name debt im falling apart im tired stong time one lean cant alone anymore one family cares anymore honestly think would happy killed dunno im tired mom dad sister left walk dog im tempted let come home gruesome scene,1 whatdamnnick well the problem with rain here is that it come with extreme coldness,0 "this weekend has actually been the funniest in a while saw a Neil From Inbetweeners Look-a-like today. he was so cool, gave us the (Y). ",0 incase feeling stressed heres amogus,0 @jonas brothers: i love u in your next tour please come to venezuela! ,0 woke morning wood wont go away one boners literally hurts lmao,0 it is now the best month everr 24 days until my birthday!,0 gifts girlfriend christmas hey fellow teens struggling come gifts gf christmas ive already bought records likes however cant figure gifts one got recommendations,0 cant stand life anymore need someone talk tothis throw away account issue recently see this posthttpwwwredditcomrihaveissuescommentsmif_cheated_on_boyfriend_now_threaten_by_ex_lover that tried get ideas guy herehttpwwwredditcomraskredditcommentslxwjyou_are_alone_in_an_unknown_city_no_money_no lastly told thishttpwwwredditcomrconfessioncommentsjkmpvwhen_i_was_yo_i_had_sex_with_my_best_friend_and story im years old female started think things happen life half sister abused emotionally abused sister half sister childhood im kind ugly overweight lost lbs now im socially akward much im depressive rosacea hate im kind retarded aspergers way nose surgery hated nose in general body issues lot course low self esteem emotionally abused current boyfriend years ago child barely saw parents kind parents talk teach stuff low self esteem cheated current boyfriend ex lover threatens follows me even classroom trying improve life got rgetmotivated lost weight tried keep hobbies see im really fucked up almost everybody around bad people end relationship years something awfully stupid did im studying software engineer im top class generation feel incompetent want get fuck life prefer committing redflag instead hurting boyfriend,1 im lbs im ,0 got gaming pc basically ive wanting one saving up last night parents said going costco get brisket got bought gaming pc took best buy get monitor setting tonight love much,0 @genejm29 Thanks! You're a *star*! ,0 see like right now put cosplay contact lenses kind weird ngl barely make letters actually wanted know contact lenses felt like dont really hurt loss sight kinda bugs ngl ampxb im actually looking people chat with hit want to,0 horni back dont even know how wasnt even anything randomly happened make two days without horni guess im strong enough,0 agree jerry underrated space movie of course many good lowbudget ones underrated remember correctly solution mystery sort variation but ripoff computer controlling spaceship actually man somehow turned computer like hal tried disconnect mind mechanical parts him hal led disaster least one funny moment christopher cary character cant find food finds abandoned pet bird theres kind ominous moment obvious thing happen all,0 perseverance landed mars pog,0 "It is now 4 hours past my bedtime. I love getting lost in crochet, even if I did mess up and have to take it halfway apart to fix it. ",0 know death comingim year old male suffering depression since know cant really say began hospitalized year therapy seem want get better seems like takes something have persistence sacrifice energy on yet hand want commit redflag atleast seems like it nothing live for want life pissed people worst part everything want sinfulimmoral know one day deadline over grades really low cant study hate everything it fighting suicidal thoughts really hard every single day there waiting moment finish it living cause society thinks good actually living cant go like anymore feel like want close eyes jump car tempting really cant explain it cant feel good things anymore everything black sorrow situations go wrong everything hopeless one day wake woth chains realise forever noone really cares except parents guy talk thats all even hate option except hang him know happy get want life things take whole new level hard work get desires unfulfilled dreames lost still crying glimpse back them think redflag easy well easy all cant go it cant finish all im going hell anyway bother greatest wish random guy pulls gun street shoots head cant change desires cant lie want something yet die beliefes atleast one fight go grave,1 anybody considering it please dont gets better story inside longi normal childhood much little boy could whose father walked age mother worked double time odd jobs make ends meet keep roof heads food table little brothers myself graduated hs went onto college meet thought love life wasnt virgin also hadnt w lot women either anyway met began year romance relationship w her included graduating college getting first apartment together getting married little girl together one night middle dad cant say happened theories sleep deprivation moodiness problems within marriage itself got physical w other nothing horrible like always hear enough pressed charges tried take daughter me bruise bicep grabbed her left nail marks neck etc blood busted bones damaged furniture scared lost wife newborn daughter months time job because local news printing allegations apartment lease up moved took everything either bought together gifted wedding baby shower moved back w mother age days trying strong endure never ending relentless pain made horrifying decision one night write redflag notes leave pin debit card wedding band wallet passenger side vehicle walked nearest overpass about ft sent goodbye text wife called brother let know loved him closed eyes fell hit cement w impact knew injured pretty bad tried get standing position hip buckled laid bridge w oncoming traffic passing next hours degree weather passing consciousness mother knew something wrong issued missing persons report emts found loaded gurney never screamed loud life knew back severely messed slid board underneath me cold didnt even register pulse machines passed ambulance way icu first time waking up remember seemed time like giant heated pool cover kept days finally stabilized well back brace keep shattered pelvis hip together administered every two hours w dilaudid pic line says half life medicine hours believe tell seemed like wore much quicker that days finally went emergency surgery routine surgery lasted hours go complications pelvis shattered right side w incomplete break tailbone broken ribs two lower lumbar vertebrae shattered back surgery right lung collapsed put onto rebreather overnight week recovery mind still dosed every hours w dilaudid which equivalence street heroin barry eating lost lbs took weeks every level hospital get back health went icu emergency surgery recovery rehab also behaviors heath unit voluntarily signed hour hold happy say incident months ago got back gym gained frame muscle back living better life well first ever due june just fathers day guess came say thought couldnt get worse wrong right help support things get much better please value life get live once,1 cant go oni want die know right thing im tired feeling bad empty day embarrassign open psychologist want stop bothering people around me really see happiness future made plan kill long ago kept hoping thing would get better everything worse im tired feeling way really want die post here people try stop you man idk anything point want bother anyone know irl,1 idk if it wa selective mutism or not i never got a diagnosis wasn t even suggested to get tested for it partially bc i don t think people understood how serious and debilitating it wa but i used to have severe anxiety around certain people mainly teacher or subject talking about myself or asking for help were big one for me to the point where i literally couldn t speak like people don t really seem to get it when i say this because it s one thing being shy or nervous to speak for me i know how that feel like if i m just nervous i just feel very uncomfortable this wasn t that when talking about certain subject or talking to certain people i would have this very uncomfortable and sometimes very painful physical symptom where i don t know how else to describe it other than it felt like someone wa stepping on my throat like my throat wa closed shut tight i found it hard to breathe not in a hyperventilating kind of way more like in a i m choking right now please help me way i would start hyperventilating if i wa forced to speak for whatever reason trying to force myself to speak would make me lose air lightheaded and i would start breathing hard trying to take in more air since i wa literally choking on nothing basically or worse i d quickly break into an anxiety attack and start cry if i kept trying to force the problem even harder to breathe i felt faint close to passing out so many time then it wa not even funny i m not looking for a diagnosis i wa just wondering if anyone can relate idk,1 @206bones u just made my day - I need something to read in the garden - thank you my first Bones fanfiction,0 looking posts sub oh god people lot mental health problems,0 living undignifiedby assuming role dysfunctional body vouching it never viewed anything physical self part cannot change attribute whole existence bodies conditioned believe entire being consequently feel like escapeto survive nightmare must become it successful compromise am want stoic assertive want kind charitable people walked entire lifeby living societyunited states contributing it perpetuating system agree with cannot live part problemeventually become feeble useless trade best years sustain reach point convince struggle reward address cognitive dissonance wasting lives knowingly working towards deadendhow live life fully cognizant undue suffering inflicting spirit soul deserves better,1 rlly think im someone gives flirty compliment amp get scared like ok miss ego stfu amp stop scared,0 seen lot ppvs past entertaining intense ppv complete dvd ever seen dvd extras worth gives different view wrestlers act show such chris benoit interviewedge interview glimpse monday night wars erathe first match hogan winning tag title gold promotional talk additionally good music videobr br tag team table match bubby ray spike dudley vs eddie guerro chris benoit pretty good intense match start show many holds pure raw physicallity spike hold tables matches guerro benoit gave good pure wrestling skills mat br br wwe crusierweight championship jamie noble w nidia v billy kidman crowd really care either wrestler get interested kidman shooting star press usually people expect lot high flying cruiser weight championship little fact bad noble hit finisher one even cared knew you tell lack cameras flashing ending quick though br br wwe european championship jeff hardy v william regal ive never really liked regal wrestler lacks intensity style hardy impressive really get chance show high flying act although still performed good counters added needed fast pace match ended quickly perfect match br br john cena v chris jericho funny looking back cenas first ppv used act used dress used look watch interview pretty funny good intense match cena showing nice variety holds suplexes counters aerial jericho subpar definitely helped cena launch career cena winsbr br wwe intercontenital championship rvd v brock lesnar intense good match wrestlers styles really matched well screen brocks pure power raw energy vs rvds skill full moves quickness rvd looked great match better later matches edge cenaand entire match fast pace ending worked perfectly still preserved brocks undefeated streak giving rvd desserts home statebr br disqualification match booker v big show another solid match lacked certain intensity rvd match still good follow up although started kinda slow which always big show booker impressive sick move announcers table finisher awesome ending great upset big move booker tbr br wwe tag team championship hogan edge v christian lance storm mediocre match hogan comes like usual huge pop variety moves lacks intensity energy christian exactly greatest athletic abilities himself ended mediocre match best still ok ppv br br triple threat match undisputed championship rock v undertaker v kurt anglebr br easily match year far best triple threat match ever seen close falls plenty finishers stolen finishers raw energy intensity fast pace one could predict would come one going buy dvd would buy strictly match ending watch yourselfbr br overall solid ppv plenty extra goodies keep watching again although hard find i pay little usual dvd definitely worth money,0 when people ask me what i wan na do or what my plan for something is i always kinda give a vague idea or like say very generic thing everyone around my age might be saying like oh i wan na move out and pursue this or that type stuff but in reality i don t even know if i want to be here i think that my lack of proper planning for thing or goal setting is because when i wa younger i had to go through a lot of difficult thing that traumatized me and made me minimize the space i took up not only in everyone else s life but in my own so much to the point that i didn t even think i wa gon na make it to the age that i am today i really only planned on being here a day longer than i wa yesterday and eventually it s added up and i have been here for this many year i don t know how to look forward or plan for thing ahead farther than tomorrow really because i never intended to be here for that long anyway but it s becoming a really bad problem a i am in my 0 and everything i do now is going to affect the rest of my life it s hard to know what i want to do or what i want to pursue when my whole life i didn t think that i would even be here i am so lost and genuinely don t know what i am doing or who i am and i feel detached from everyone around me i feel like i am just existing and i am thankful for the thing i ve experienced and the people in my life and all that but i m just so lost i genuinely have no word to describe the void i feel and sometimes can not believe that i did this to myself i made myself so small i don t even see me so how could anyone else see me it s so hard when your own mind is the thing that make it hard for you to do anything and i ve just been struggling a lot lately,1 liesive lying lot people really trivial things makes look better anything like that get kick it eating alive recently cant stop love lying people anything cant live lying others breakfast time woke up life based falsification grandeur deserve life think take,1 depression almost eighteen years thought mostly gotten grip suicidal self harming aspects it lately lot kind thoughts come back know redflag dealing exacerbating poor mental health want sleep struggle falling asleep redflag redflag keeps up feel like constantly verge tears keep thinking really start seeing professional worried affording it dealing overwhelming sense hopelessness feel pushing away people care most worst long time,1 night wasnt great felt ignored guys my bf mutual friend mostly conversations her leaving trail behind thought maybe hosting shes opposite side spectrum compared us in shes things engages things necessarily into interested could hold conversation about anyway course relationship bf would still bring sally occasionally going hang coworkers course im totally okay encourage social can ive met friends always enjoy around except know who enter sally rolls eyes,0 tonights nightim killing tonight thank reddit everything bye guys,1 i m am worried about potentially developing schizophrenia eventually my sister 0 is suffering from this disease right now of my mom aunt also had it my parent did not have it they both passed away and year ago i know the onset of symptom typically occurs in the 0 for male i smoked weed very often almost daily when i wa in a smoking mode but i also took a few tolerance break anywhere from month the past year but recently i decided to stop i also tripped on lsd 9 time within one year but the last trip i had wa almost year ago i know lsd weed and stressful situation can trigger dormant mental illness in people but i am wondering if schizophrenia would already have been triggered and active in me given my history i didn t know i had a family history of the disease until about year ago so please don t shame me for my ignorance i also just found out there wa a link between weed and schizophrenia in the past year and thankfully i have conquered my battle with weed even though it took some time do you think my previous drug usage will come back to haunt me if someone could provide some number for what my odds look like that would be nice a far a i can tell i am not in a prodromal phase but after leaving the weed behind i am worrying myself a lot thinking about all this thanks for any input,1 @KimKardashian omg I luved it!! can wait to see kris with the monkey!! ,0 @dean2105 Stress-free is the way to be ,0 @ErinMayeQuade Who's going to do the background checks? Suppose you can't get a gun because of your depression or autism or whatever. Universally ban weapons of war for all people.,1 posting everyday people stop caring religion matter private thing allowed share it force others also people treated diferently religions belief pearson stopped seeks harm humans care others religions,0 @phishgirl3 @lisa_g sorry I was out for a walk ,0 one significant quotes entire film pronounced halfway protagonist mafia middleman titta di girolamo physically nondescript middleaged man originally salerno southern italy were introduced start film hes living nonlife elegant sterile hotel italianspeaking canton switzerland last ten years conducting business gradually introduced to pivotal yet apparently unremarkable scene takes place employees swiss bank normally count di girolamos cash tell dollars missing usual suitcase full tightly stacked banknotes news quietly icily threatens coaxing bank manager wanting close account meanwhile tells us spectators bluff bluff right end without fear caught appearing ridiculous says cant bluff halfway through tell truth eventually done bluffed halfway told truth accepted consequences life ultimately love exactly reason behind beginning titta di girolamos troubles br br this initially unsympathetic character scowling taciturn curt man verge man even reply kind chambermaids waitresses say hello goodbye becomes one point someone spectator cares deeply about one point nonlife titta decides feel concern appearing ridiculous first half film may described slow some indeed reveal di girolamos days nights hotel oddly disjoined deliberate pace revealing seemingly mundane irrelevant details however scenes may seemed unnecessary reveal essential masterfully constructed innovative film unfolds eyes existence titta di girolamo man imagination identity life unsympathetic character unexpectedly end loving feeling least thought would also conveyed elegantly edited sequences interesting use music one theme scottish band boards canada especially stood out br br never contrast way hollywood italy treat mobsters odds since release films le conseguenze dellamore limbalsamatore another interesting element way film made use protagonists insomnia unlike machinist and far explicit way al pacino film insomnia le conseguenze dellamore uses condition symbolise deeper emotional malaise thats rammed deep obscurity unconscious almost impossible pinpoint cause if indeed one br br the young sympathetic hotel waitress sofia played olivia magnani granddaughter legendary anna memory tittas best friend man seen years unexpectedly provide tiny window onto life titta eventually though tentatively first accepts look again though never explicitly spelt out spectator knows man like titta accepting consequences love unimaginable consequences film without single scene sex violence film unfolds time concedes nothing spectators expectations le conseguenze dellamore fine representative small quiet discreet renaissance taking place italian cinema since decline cinecitt second half s world waiting italy produce il postinolike fare la vita bellastyle films neglecting explore fine creations like le conseguenze dellamore limbalsamatore others loss world,0 machineplay i m so sorry you re having to go through this again therapyfail,0 cant stay functionable two daysnor hopeful matter though hopeful even peace since began freshmen year college first finals week everything feels fake barely find comfort online redflag resources half depression might never get better kill live miserably next years half even worse well need things depression keeps doing keeps bed get bed mean yeah get it could act depression still guess im depressed sake insufferable burden family revel making people mad me argue that sorta treatment developed used actual psychologists hope know better brain works i spent lot money yk guess cant follow probably secretly subconsciously dont want get better bc im shitty person wtv idk whats catch im extra pissy bc havent found anything worth staying considered notterrible future realistically attainable since s im yk feel like crap corner web psychologist country ever able make feel better still feel bc im lazy liar everything get better wont bc ive become complacent wtv last psychologist told me sorry rambling post im crisis bc college life demands act like reasonable human since im unable productive way guess college happening unfortunately dont much option dying bc family going accept living daughter attend college,1 stupid rpics turning political sub nobody cares commented one post literally news article told op keep political subs wake morning message saying im perm banned rpics,0 cant see mail three awards ive gotten tyy lt,0 gen marie i hope we can fix you in california at least,0 got free pass preview movie last night know expect premise seemed silly assumed would lot shallow makefunofthevirgin humor great surprise laughed hard cried jokes film must see anyone open mind slightly twisted sense humor okthis movie go grandmother jack palance small children language filthy jokes very crude sex talk graphic find anywhere whats amazing however movie still sweet love story girlfriend loved it steve carell terrific like office supporting cast really makes film work characters flaws also depth likability everyone pulls weight chemistry perfect cant wait get dvd im sure office space replays quotable lines,0 when i wa younger my mom would get me for month out of every summer a written out in the divorce paper during this month i wa hardly allowed to shower or brush my teeth and i often got in trouble for asking repeatedly for food or saying that i wa hungry i wasn t allowed to make friend in my mom s apartment complex and i wa never allowed to go outside unless my mom wa taking me to get food or we were doing her shopkick stuff i wa forced to drink coffee even though i didn t like it at the time and she d smoke in the apartment without opening a window from time to time a you guy can probably imagine i hated it there and i would become very unhealthy my mom would keep me up all night and refuse to let me go to sleep until like am i d pray for her to leave the apartment to go to the gas station for ciggarretts so that i could at least brush my teeth and chug down some water i wasn t allowed to drink water either because my mom didn t like it and she didn t want me drinking the tap water i wa only allowed to drink soda i d wait for her to fall asleep on the couch and try to sneak off to bed and finally get some sleep sometimes she d wake up while i wa sneaking and i d play it off a i wa going to the bathroom i wa always deathly afraid of making her mad because she d emotionally berate me or go overboard with the belt i wa also always afraid of getting caught for brushing my teeth or showering or going to sleep i wa ok for the most part when i d live with my dad i wa usually irritable for the next few week while i d readjust but now i m a sophmore in college and i m finding myself becoming more and more introverted and having more anxiety with le control over my emotion i am also doing the same exact thing that i d do when i wa with my mom for that month eating no more than once a day not sleeping staying up all night watching tv not taking shower not getting up to drink water not going outside and not talking to people and it s not for lack of wanting to do these thing i ve also seemingly developed a skin picking disorder where i pick my acne pick my bottom lip until it s completely covered in blood and my lip is raw and slightly swollen and pick my cuticle to the point of cry when i put my hand under running water i ve noticed that when i m picking at my skin i m thinking about how much i want to take a shower go to sleep eat food or drink water i have no idea why i m anxious about those thing again i m living with my boyfriend who encourages me to be healthy and is the complete opposite of my mom he s perfect all i know is that i need it to stop before my skin picking and or my introversion becomes so severe i can t come back to it i can t even go to the store by myself right now and i wa very independent my freshman year of college i m sorry for this being so long but if anyone ha any idea or advice that can help me get to the bottom of whatever is triggering me to feel this way again please comment below ask any additional question if you need to i would greatly appreciate it,1 jessicafilan it is,0 "@2jacksandastaff hahaha! Don't worry, i certainly wont ",0 life envy yet suicidal selfharmed i three months clean selfharm now see enough reasons feel way somehow lot chest one knows too barely remember genuinely happy feels like mostly numb occasionally cry sleep since open anyone would get help need babied youngest family also best friends part still responded texts social platform adding insult injury feel like ass way,1 Is basking in the sun Kate,0 chewie update ocd in left leg fixed but possible ocd in right leg a well and worse still hip dysplasia in both hip not good,0 @lancearmstrong my car died 2 years ago now and i never bought another one - i walk & bike ride everywhere best thing 2 happen 2 me! ,0 @disruptiveplay haha. tweeros more like it. send us pics/quotes ,0 Watching My Best Friend's Girl ,0 im losing live feel like im reaching limitso transgender already suffer major depression add dysphoria bad time wih people leaving today say goodbye important friend all got much one around wantsseems willing help care me good day wanna ruin same time slowly losing live know post please downvote upvote whatever losing ability care anymore,1 cursed want die prevent inevitablei born abusive family autism spectrum disorder makes weird terrible interacting people im terrible sciences life general yet decided go psychology im interested subject thing im good at level want help people barely interact people relate many them straighta student ill probably crap job psychologist therapist meaning life help people which believe is nothing left live for barely help myself cant confidentally say could talk anyone redflag think dying every day,1 sleep forever never wake up basically going coma probably need get accident shits gonna hurt ways tho,0 @mehmetemin really a great song ,0 currently watching show american frontiersmen got part theres war mexico interesting,0 fukc school want happy kids school friends joke together homework mins class together fun sit corner play tetris guess school would less stressful anybody could talk,0 miriam hopkins the lady red hair biopic mrs leslie carter also stars claude rains david belasco richard ainley lou payne fine cast supporting players including laura hope crews victor jorybr br miriam hopkins claude rains give wonderful performances hopkins beautiful actress really makes us feel mrs carter rains great flamboyant egotistical producerwriteractorimpresario david belasco one great names theaterbr br though mrs carters second husband lou payne served adviser film poor representation real events mrs carters life true much publicized bitter divorce undoubtedly viewed scandalous character becoming actress however custody son dudley custody battle broke belasco go back and fact started working vaudeville actually made films toward end life indeed marry lou became leading man many productionsbr br the driving force mrs carter beginning film regaining custody son finally realizes time away him thoroughly bonded father film also and im sure true real life traveled mother lived theatrical boarding house gives film added interesting atmospherebr br not bad movie probably depiction greatness either carter belasco one mrs carters famous moments heart maryland wore wig sixfoot tresses offstage fans blew hair hung feet stage clutching center bell keep ringing quite visual,0 Depression's such a villainous state.,1 @ddlovato Apparently your concert last night with Jo Bro was AMAZING! My friends love you now (finally) haha ,0 Mean Girls 2 ,0 a beautiful morning the sun is shining the bird are singing i ve just been playing mousetrap with the kid damn now work,0 perhaps last film would expect come vittorio de sica cesare zavattini who wrote novel film based neorealist fantasy kind oxymoron really old woman finds baby cabbage patch raises son years baby young boy named toto adoptive mother dying goes orphanage and finally turns leaves immediately finds home toto optimistic though let anything get down man steals valise instead getting angry it toto becomes friend goes stays small shantytown toto takes initiative organizes many homeless living area build better shantytown soon landowner trying sell plot land citizens shantytown protect themselves many attempts owner mounts force police get rid homeless point film becomes fullfledged fantasy before comedicfantastic melodrama style charlie chaplin stuff weird shocking probably best others see themselves quite amazing funny objections could raise plot miracle milan certainly fellini visconti greatly criticized started stray neorealism think read widely criticized time release point though enjoyable loved much might favorite vittorio de sicas films although umberto bicycle thieves come very close ,0 tired sufferingive honestly grown tired ofeverything going past seven eight years lifeits filled much crapthese past months especially crappyim already failing two classes fall semesterthere still lot problems going back hometo top offmy girlfriend broke six month anniversary told relationship while earlier today see picture another guy dancei cant take anymorei try good person manage annoy people say annoy problems going meive come realize really purpose livei feel like wrongi great people lifebut feel like im always bringing around themand want burden anymoreand sorry seem like im jumping around,1 train rammed fellow commuter vile special derision reserved for the man who appeared out of nowhere to claim his seat luggage rack,0 know nobody cares butmy birthday another two days want around anymore ive turned passively thinking redflag actively trying die,1 i hate life hate living every day i wake with no energy and no will no to move further in life it ha beatin me down again and again all i do is work i have friend but never stop feeling lonely the one thing that keep me tethered to this reality is my cat who is currently screaming outside my door i don t care though i haven t cared about much in a long time i think i ve had enough of this world maybe someone reading this will be able to be stronger than me but i think i ve had enough i just don t know what to do and there only seems to be one compact sized way out i m lost,1 acummings i ve got return ticket booked for this weekend if the exchange rate wasn t so bad i d go but don t mind missing it really,0 going to the hangover ,0 wanna sit face im straight dark cares,0 life going good went downhill pretty fast depressed left house months severe redflag nowhere think suicide almost one attempt failed scared fail way get issues sad,1 Binge watch a couple comedy shows on Netflix while in a bout of depression and it never recommends anything else every again.,1 Wedding countdown: 1 year to go! ,0 @SaidaGP how are you? i hope that smile is still on your face ,0 In a Drill Sergeant's voice: everybody wake the fuck UP!!! *flicks on everyone's lights* it's 500 est rise and shine beetches!! Lol JK ,0 going kill myself anybody gun plz let use it cuz tired hearing peoples bullshit things get better want die,1 reason killed girlfriend dogthe reason killed girlfriend dog could bare thought leaving alone considering has could imagine abandoning dog life fucking sucks sucked enough pandemic started cannot even afford pay billsfoodmedication take multiple credit cards borrow money family members get last months maxed out drive hour away work drive hrs day days week get treated like absolute shit customers line work quickly drying making half making months ago frugal person never spend money things completely necessaryi see girl one day week puts big strain us both thing keeping going barely even get see now sent hundreds resumesapplications past months jobs stable paycheckspend time girlfriend gotten interviews amounted anything numerous health problems constant pain dispite midtwentieseveryday holding back constant tears suicidal thoughts anybody words advice been similar situationtldr barely afford place live food meds taken good amount debt survive cannot take credit cards constant pain doctors care enough anything me reason killed gf dog have spend day working exhausting job hate treated like shit shit pay fighting back tears suicidal thoughts reason killed gf dog,1 still spitting out stitch from that bone graft,0 brag anything but sit three girls lunch table,0 ariels grandma's house is beautiful! i love grad parties cuz all the fooood. THERES GUACAMOLE YEAHH! ,0 How rude is Simon Cowell!!???...."Your not gonna win."....Vote Good Evans! Porve Simon wrong! ,0 year old sister ticking time bombi live privileged family sister gets everything ever asked im unsure year old could incredibly unhappy makes fake personas usually abused boys acts online constantly lying smallest things matter asks sort manner doctors family therapists etc never come forth truth top knowing feeling this acts completely normal home acts like regular happy go lucky year old except maybe bit sensitive actually way sensitive explode break cry shut smallest thing hospital suicidal thoughts weeks ago back again cant change mindset know happen amount reassurance us family amount money amount support give stubborn change youngto realize life beautiful precious might wrong subreddit say feel believe listen anything takes medication depression spiraling downward impulsiveirradiate emotional behavior feel like would take life triggered enough mental hospital today mentioning redflag someone middle school feel hopeless maybe best start mourning now nothing works maybe best stay hospital seem help last time sorry rant rredflagwatch needed get mind maybe someone something similar would year old want take life badly,1 world better without mefor last months ive feeling like hurdle world people approach need something have im grad school new university seems everybody else built friendships undergrad years theres need me then used group friends online ive part of fell apart january bloke ive pretty close turned cold towards but towards rest group yes ive tried reach him take initiative complicated subject uni judging professor talks me assumes dumbo yes mr professor sir count much that suspect profiling im girl long blond hair wear glasses talk students like that even fail answer questions thursday lost new friend speaking mind friend public place suggested go separate ways entirety today straw broke camels back cashier rude made honest mistake mum showed vividly care less feelings talked dad world would much better place without me im inconvenient uninteresting stupid death would increase worlds intelligence overall happiness margin fair tired inconvenient ashamed existing circumstance people find efficient way it make least mess death people deal with,1 seeing break leg vancouver release party thought enjoyable filmbr br i outright belly laughs cameos eric roberts particular scream heard word actual release date although ive heard closebr br the story simple mainly vehicle characters situations script smooth seamless plot develops effortlessly acting comfortable yet fresh film least one award film festivals in around sobr br i highly recommend break leg,0 hey whats yalls favorite pokmon jolteon gang life,0 making post till get gf ok say im trynna copy urubeva_ out yes im copying given terrible idea however ill posting jokes cos im funny gonna post random shit,0 serious advice highschoolers mental health guess need vent usually tend stay away subreddit im fan content here though may sound stupid anyway im right coming last months second semester high school well classes rough point honors geometry currently in thats b classes as b honest very stressed out feel like developing anxiety atleast thats teachers telling honest though algebra ii scared me led thoughts what make college i need diploma jobs alg required do basically kinda blame way school works certain degree also blame myself ever since got that growth online classes th grade going back remember little algebra i gives anxiety everyday kind getting better able calm reading exercising well friends main thing remember basic equations like example x x solving that well finding work triangles people school say first semester alg relearning sem working new skills advice keep algebra notes assignments review honest first vent topic would rather keep myself feel like talking would better kept work know notebook somewhere seriously folks keep notes stresses it kids grades way thank read this needed get guess also anyone confirm relearning alg please cant remember life me online learning messed hard dont fee motivated anymore,0 almost itthe first month hospital unable breathe myself overdosed benzodiazepines opiates also drank lot alcohol good measure caught minutes death am anyways ended getting committed th time cant fucking die im crazy bad experience usual lied lot like always get early days felt good life coming close ending want end again committed actually die time idk feels like im trapped tortured feel unsafe cant ward embarrassing,1 feeling displaced rn everything everyone feels fake nothing feels right,0 place wanted goreally post rredflag directs redflagwatch know is im looking courage please give courage end this know works ive always lurker thats am ive never even courage post reddit anonymously know do several people would devastated cant keep like this please someone tell okay cant,1 brother keeps fucking annoying never fucking talk cut mainly thinks matter real life says rude things xbox party care says hes sometimes like that im trying play earrapes mic like dick might sensitive still fucking pisses off,0 made huge mistake challenged old friend hockey match forgot canadian match happens tomorrow im screwed,0 life led tomy life started june th name gavin ignore reddit name joke please ban commit note notes ready life always bad lived grandma horder everything used sleep close never able shower use restroom cook untill certain point life thought normal so gonna fast forward march time went church day like every sunday little know would different rest dramaplat class church acted old bible storys new twist kind modern old school time grandmawho call mimi call mimi rest storyrushes says get shoes crying visibly scared upset get car go back aunts house little cousin aunt says dad rush branson missouri see shot girl friendnot mom cleaning gun forgot unload standing killed instantly proceeded shot times another guy room speak irrelevant pronounced dead latter hospital pulled plug mom left new born killed self unrelated dads death without knowing killed assume forgot mention dad died also raped beaten want google dad put branson missouri murder redflag tulsa couple google search struggled depression years therapy stoped helping stoped going help anymore point turned therapist helped began notice things wrong therapists life stuff like stoped tried several times kill reached high peak depression low point life grandma verbal abuse hurts im meaning less wants im getting kicked soon well im good school lost motivation everything recently gave lost girl cared ex girl friend die lied threw teeth ruined new girl friend best friend since dad died plan wanted know one threw similar stuff also spelling grammar bad year old ever im also boy helps feel free ask questions threw lot said well key points sad shit always happens life id assume little things go wrong thanks time,1 hi so this morning ha been really rough and i m experiencing worse than usual muscle spasm a a result of my anxiety how can i stop this it s on the entire left side of my body and it s making my anxiety worse i m a bit scared i ll need to go to a hospital and i don t want to my entire left side of my body is tingling too i m just really anxious is there any way i can calm down or stop this,1 @DawnRichard -- ma buddi boi @JusJey is dying over here! Lol. PLEASE say hi! He & I would smile about it! ,0 happens every goddamn time get inspo think genius go make meme come reddit see weekend ampxb repeat,0 and his band AROUND A have just won the Battle Of The Bands rock contest!! WE LOVE YOU! ,0 beach with the mel and liz. ,0 nothing life worth living for parents would get gone friends would sad little would move too nothing feels like worth it love money faith nothing sick crushing loneliness given opportunity cease existing would take heartbeat fat loser spent entire life making people happy late now cee ya later everyone prolly going soon least would like to,1 dream florida protest masks shit bad leaking private mind efgnd f feds sxfvxsvxvwxddxwvsxf bfscbsxfbcsbscfscgb,0 Ughhh so over nightmares - So Instead of sleeping tonight I'm listening to Hollywood Undead and Dj Cammy + Hanging pictures on my walls ,0 Happy Sunday - going for a ride on the Harley today ,0 fuck september mom told go look computer refused stayed cos laziness idk absolutely computers went older brother went bought it told my brother already knew it go later bring home whats problem monopolized play shit tft lol turn kepk playing lol matches long also played like hours again complained mom said shouldve comed us buy said let it ate dinner school next day didnt time forced play asked first time using shouldve comed us buy it fast forward today went home first relaxed h arrived teacher didnt comebecause friday going shower arrived asked many time going stay went directly play computer showered told going use computers homework ate lunch said ok finished still making stupid quiz browsing images genshin impact waited shouldve directly told him asked going homework time limit told also that split faster wrong didnt even read assignment wanted use also changing document name continue using computer told let defended telling hours it called mom told let time said much time need said least min exercise hadnt done yet min thing cooperated do said would let fast forward mom arrived kept telling min late went complain said let min told could use phone finished clicked send kept saying shit like like minutes played games one needs h assignmentalso needed finish homework playing games well important thing going bedroom told playing said came us like said go look computer said explaining brother could play more chinese brother least came me gave money in chinese one syllable immediately rectified said help said much money said came her gave help will idk said said money said said put could play x time asked give moneyand going go get said play equally im spanish chinese idk translation went repeated saidhe least lend help will basically bother said shouldve came us buy it replied said going look buy continues replying said etc ended saying dont know youre going search computer buy it angered using mother authority end it notes went bringer computer together downloaded minecraft attempted download roblox little brother tldr shit happening disgusting y disgusted time goes karmawhore sub rant,0 girls rteenagers f think might ace never looked anybody thought dang wanna bang em ive seen sex education shameless felt absolutely nothing and pretty sexual shows ive heard lot people specifically mom say girls general less sexually appealed visual cues tend prefer emotional connections person rather focusing appearance like would term asexual even exist case am asking fellow females validity that sexual feelings towards people based appearance feel anything watching sex scenes tv or porn ig may young really know im ace really feel like spectrum somewhere im probably greysexual think sex could nice somebody im really really close with really feeling it intimacy it ya know let know tag nsfw,0 hey you yes you girls allowed guy dont use lube should x better fuck cops see us,0 old janes mannered tale seems popular days lost count number versions going around probably reason ruts ruts even late date tv miniseries gives mannered telling suitable novel headstrong opinionated emma pretty modern girl think it even though ambience jane austens world may seem tad artificial us today seem emma ill say selfsufficient emma get comeuppance worth watching find how acting honours go ladies kate prunella lucy samantha could almost psychic connection old jane,0 guess not really redeeming qualities woman ever love,1 @Antiquebasket Thank you ,0 of course the mindset of a knetz who can't grasp the concept of depression/ mental health and thinks going to church is the answer to everything. https://twitter.com/seulgiseulgay/status/989033564170842112 …,1 quick reddit simppolice get me regret it ur cute filler filler filler ffiller filler filler filler filler filler ffiller filler filler filler filler filler ffiller filler filler filler filler,0 alexbigman you left without saying hi,0 do dowell first off depression anxiety fucking life up cant keep going like this know do,1 @TaylorEcstasy Moreeeee thann everr ,0 unhappy life lost job place really enjoyed going to making friends enjoying first job college lost cat emergency dental work cost dad going prison never see boyfriend new job officer manager asked come today chat thought nothing it realized let go reason given others believe good fiti feel dumb stupid person spent much time going school getting bachelors degree fighting homeless abuse worth anything bored job measly receptionist job law firm filled waters clients cleaned office filed paperwork wanted responsibilities since found lot downtime took upon try see attorneys needed redflag thought job well maybe little qualified amount water doing guess felt differently know idid agree political beliefs employees open about times would joke would feel uncomfortable times left out know took months find job back square one everything inside wants give,1 mods give free rewards look nice today,0 dont care someone rickrolls cuz love song sansrolling thats whole different story,0 just microwaved a kashi chicken and spinach thing and put in the milk dvd anyone seen it i bet it s good i still havent seen slumdog,0 dressed kill surely one best horrorthriller movies ever madeits tautstylish extremely suspenseful mixture sex violencethe acting pretty goodthe orchestral score pino donaggio unforgettable theres plenty surprises keep thriller fans intrigueddressed kill murder mystery involves sexually frustrated housewifeangie dickinsonher teenage sonkeith gordonher psychoanalystmichael caineand high price call girlnancy allenthe murderer film transsexual named bobbi also one caines patientsthe film full breathtaking momentsthe infamous elevator murder scene extremely stylish pretty gory wellhighly recommended,0 utdjazzy kia kare wou khudh depression mein hai,1 whymy mom looked stuff phone everyone family knows im gay dad thinks im faking know thinks im sort crazy person im gonna go hell tell brother looks differently saying anything mom hates found messages sent friends private rant written shes kinda abusive block contact friends look rest messages them ive always kinda thought killing idk seems like everyone hates things horrible place right now parents fighting mom gonna try leave take knows where know everybody always kinda annoyed kinda feel like ending done shit good im probably making big deal like always though wanted post vent stuff,1 kill ever get pregnant unable get abortion force miscarriagejust another reason die thanks shitty usa,1 im female everyones posting im in,0 long distance girlfriend suicidalhello so girlfriend suicidal but extremely suicidal want move another country help her,1 lol discovered phone cast videos nintendo switch im allowed tv room use switch that make good connection could also connect jbl flip speaker it better audio cant wait test that,0 i feel anxiety over race i know this sound bad but hear my out please i have been doing anti racism work daily and i ve been trying to challenge my own bias but it s been triggering my mental health my anxiety ha taken over and now i can t make decision in my life without fear i ve practically stopped all my hobby cause i m worried i m appropriating in some way and hurting a community i know that none of this is what the anti racism work is about but it s what my mind ha been running with lately it s been i don t matter no one else seems to be having this issue and i don t know who to turn to this is not a reflection on the conversation around blm it s my own issue i just don t know how to get out of this way of thinking,1 can batman with prep time cure my depression,1 thinking telling therapist attemptive nervous bring up im going it told anyone since get hurt bad it but im tired one knows this ive feeling guilty call hotline like safety plan hell probably happy im safe heres hoping chicken out,1 OMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!!! SO FRIGGIN EXCITED!!!!! ,0 i m in my clinic it booring http twitpic com y qq,0 traumai school weeks cant ever bring feel way times tried end crying front people trying to zone entire lecture learn nothing im able finish school hold job months save money depression trauma still makes suffer everyday ive therapy meds since nothing changes traumatic shit things seem get worse matter hard try person kind makes feel like staying alive ex gfmy friend completely cant feel anything anyone else family abusive toxic hate im pain everyday years years often find daydreaming restarting life able rewind back time past hurts anything wanted get chest,1 toxic relationship suicidal thoughts aftermath idk doi dont usually speak whats going life really go online tell anyone anything personal myself im usually reclusive try let life continue lately ive felt like im very dark place ive told opening forum help least help opening feel something read guess well ampxb heres big one ive never honest myself entire life battled sexuality gay straight bisexual ive bounced around entire life ive never chance explore gain comfort might be ive always relationship felt like wrong gender years ago found furry fandom accepting people felt home short started causes gaps life friends looking weird family asking questions clear never opened furry anyway hide directed me like sexuality lifestyle hobby people could relate too slowly faded away want friends family calling weirdo hid it still look lot art use help find comfort might be even begin start this year long relationship partner ftm early process hormones anything yet started dating still going well say lindsey first love nothing stopped us wanted together puppy dog stage strongest awhile fell apart partner struggled faithfulness lot relationship primarily internet friends also furry internet big part lives means internet friendships play big part well hard time remembering privateclosed relationship within first years th th year began make internet relationships making mistakes fueled mostly spite also begging attention anyone th year took break currently lived washington i taking care sick mother decided return california first week stopped talking one day sent message something forgotten me kept talking that began breakdown emotionally mother falling ill loneliness sudden change lifestyle year relationship began regret choices talked things end asked could try again distance try fixing things distance us test waters things come agreed began talking day night calls intimate videos shared still felt strong love other as year relationship you seemed like things getting better slowly months eventually moved california mother care equipped family hard first managed however never really talked months apart even though talked often lot days went without text call asked usually told family busy something eventually refusal talk happen time drew rift us one day shower decided pick phone browse chat histories time period look messages social media accounts went ultimate snoop found everything could month time sent nudes countless men stand wanted fun once lied multiple times sex another man countless times texting inbetween hours together im sick writing it remembering it but haunted years found out fought days nonstop think would mark end relationship right well no justified saying hurt break wanted get back breaking her and like idiot agreed her took blame convinced sex man me deserved abuse forced us take break ive struggled depression entire life ive never months time without feeling creep way life usually triggered something anything could big could small never really know happens fought feeling two years peroidic episodes accusing lindsey terrified would cheat again idk stayed guilt fast forward years weve together years total hate myself everything me annoy ones care cant stop talking idk why excitement eagerness ive never really known get carried away people tell jerk taking lighthearted teasing far without realizing feeling embarrassed hours even notice ass attitude towards life soured im often irritable upset roommates unreasonably dont much good say anything anymore ive gotten bad enough people around speak it used attractive cared appearance excited show off but ive gained lot weight last year nearly pounds nearing pounds even ive never disgusted myself problem im upset eat habit forever lot people im sure stop im paying it stopped wearing favorite clothes stopped taking shirt public stopped making video calls cant stand might look im constantly paranoid shell cheat again ask questions go silent ruin entire days frustration did every fight would break up get upperhand never true maybe days week spend together laugh two miserable know it cant let go coronavirus locked home last months straight ive left handful times supplies overall ive anxious leave house im scared getting sick ive depressed relationship lost job live unemployment sit around waiting next day shes picked social media again talking people hours plays apex legends every single day someone met online someone talks hours hours bed dinner everywhere never explains anything tells wants social life again stays almost year lost friends bad attitude family learned im questioning sexuality i dont know how cut entirely spend time waking am smoking weed every minutes sitting bedroom pm taking sleep aide fall asleep ive suffered nightmares regularly last year dont know anymore ive lost feeling im nub everything feel like husk autopilot thats breath air ive lost touch myself ive felt mental health suffer dont know how cant even describe whats happening anymore weeks ago sat car wondered could use kill without hurting others dont gun lindsey came garage wanting smoke weed seen sitting car trance focused dashboard staring nothing told truth without meaning too slipped accident coming whatever stuck in response was passive encourage me but didnt anything help time either laid bed hours thinking little seemed mean her little seemed mean her everyone ampxb dont even know wrote this hoped maybe saying myself typing out maybe could stop myself feel like inevitable eventually today broke again mean it idk ive sitting box days wondering theyre gone good time left read ignored entirely dont know anymore feel like control taking life dont want fight anymore dont want suffer dont want keep going everything ugly life race wars virus scares gays hated again conservatives rioting sexuality never got experience years whats point continuing life never even start write entire story attention forum people real problems im sorry post even here know else post this im desperate advice anything,1 lolitariot oh no hope you re not getting sick too,0 best friend committed redflagi attended funeral last week valentines always aesthetic way best friend peculiar relationship met mental hospital age immediately clicked roomies month time talked thought life death first time felt someone actually understood me also faced crisis moments felt suicidal episode bipolar bpd worst times always others backs year later still best friends still well due mental health decided redflag pact bailed though haha told therapists didnt want die year course help people mental health issues going graduate studying psychology working part time well finally would text check other told feeling down said too supposed meet dinner next day fell sick two days later ended life cried like ive never cried before couldnt register head gone hugs jokes pranks love yous creating trouble you so ive decided going end life going join well finally happy,1 good advice gave become cursei made post another account years ago saying get girlfriend alot things like that guy made big comment stuff said big advice gave look girlfriend try build confidence first get career get money go gym clean first tried followed advice successfully avoided women much could get tempted ask out saw girl approaching would try avoid her still use advice even though know ive basically completed advice maybe girls like like instinct avoid girls cursed never love,1 bugger the spray paint just showed up i spose that mean no riding and doing work for me now sad day,0 what do you do to help it,1 closest ive feltso ive seeing therapist months would like see psychiatrist possible medication scares much worry losing am think would feel knowing need pill feel normal feel lonely want feel like belong something wish could find someone relate talk to,1 cassou post concert depression tu connais,1 "I see Kish talking bout depression and I wanted to cry, I'm literally working hard so that I don't have to see people do that",1 cant kill myselfi wrap noose around bed post slide bed vision gets blurry feel numb courage fully succumb pain go unconscious would count redflag attempt wuss,1 boyfriend broke help im spiraling,0 kill myselfokay well let explain little bit life know asking this normal life live mom dad sister thing need know socially awkward person ever since elementary school picked shy different people glad left school currently senior year high school bit step longer harassed still lonely ive never real friend before ive people actually gotten along conversations either never get really see moved somewhere else think kids school really even care much sometimes people walk past without ever telling hello even look upset fellow classmates even care whenever people ask whats wrong tell nice things make feel better people ask carry lives even get invited social outings really feel important comes peers around think would fit many people school think friend pretty much right older sister like talk time know best conversations maybe people gave chance got know better maybe people would see quiet shy girl many people know really act obnoxious loud seem different interests me getting really depressed time fact cant make real friends beginning think killing myself planning tonight time want family members get sad depressed this think life kill chance getting things better future,1 perfect life paperusing throwaway account turned life perfect paper perfect health fit enough money large amazing house mountains view two dream cars more live wonderful pregnant wife two incredibly loving girls super stable incredibly high paying job love research industry also mountain athlete running skiing biking even race social media were pictures would probably amazing perfect life so superficial well years ago brain violently remembered abused neglected child struggled deal sought help learnt also likely high iq highfunctioning autistic person severe case ptsd rather cptsd means horrific flashbacks autistic meltdown linked particular traumatising event like would find trauma victims years trauma inflicted developing brain child strong read many books made changes life meditation etc done therapy eft emdr helpful cbt meh never took medication although remains tempting defined specific list ptsd triggers writing list these situations hurt me also prepared short specific procedures used autistic meltdown related crisis typically overwhelmed situation linked ptsd mostly help wife take proactive role example reduce prevent self harm happens incredibly brave fully supportive patient beyond imagination last months slept two three hours row every time wake middle night sweating screaming simply emotional distress pain would stay awake too horrible part story wife one pressing ptsd triggers time sometimes several times per day basically like bringing traumatised war veteran loud fireworks every day trigger pressed despite frequency would fail recognise situation fail apply things could help me procedures mentioned above does manages help usually massive pain suffering while sometimes hours time evolving become increasingly sensitive triggers totally allergic situations clearly kneejerk reactions small innocuous mildly inappropriate reactions words may may notice become hell me yet cant help it love wife person world asperger great social cues human interactions blame way also obviously aware dealing ptsd responsibility yet lost energy sleep pride identity weekends start great projects end misery continue emdr meditation stuff help loosing ground ptsd taking growing space days nights decided stay alive refuse make children suffer feel abandoned dying loyalty sometimes hard commitment hold tonight difficult night work hours slept alone house alone mind thought would write here thank reading,1 finally figured tiktok algorithm finally got it become famous i studied tiktok algorithm dont tohttpsyoutubepnwvzjzayt,0 @x3RuthTruong Noooo hehe.,0 I am at Cheesecake factory yay! ,0 dm want m probably one yeah,0 jazz aficionados treasure classic short showing best men jazz thing like watching frills music video todaybr br the jazz men give us additional treat person marie bryant sings classic version sunny side street never heard sing before bryant sounds remarkably like billie holliday thats compliment folksbr br their instrumental work tops well black cinema time fed lot white stereotypes film watched treasured great production values lot good music,0 im getting diagnosed with pure ocd and my doctor told me i most likely have an anxiety disorder a well i never put myself in stressful situation so i dident really think about it i dropped out of school,1 lot childhood spent lying front wireless listening round horne hancocks half hour watching carry films probably famous line comedy infamy infamy theyve got infamy still makes laughbr br this rare insight man behind comic figure whole production brilliant mix tragedy comedy right final quotation coroners court read four different voices michael sheen brilliant role members carry team soso kenneth horne good michael sheen carried show award sort himbr br it left feeling wow quote kenneth williams cynic says life joke response yes well lets make good one,0 another fight wife feel worthless hopelessshe complaining earlier problem work always paint villain know much blame anyway started talking loudly problem kindly told calm down tell though her told getting worked up making mountain mole hill told simply wanted relax big mistake alcohol came home work telling calm caused explosion size atomic bomb badgers badgers back do wants doormat say yes dear like spineless jellyfish vowed got married make happy talks like belittle feel worthless guess im going make happy relieve burden me maybe carry decision end life maybe soon know make happy end pain cant talk her im alone know do im lost wish saw hurts me ive said previous posts sex give affection tied job hates takes me might add im punching bag go away one less problem has maybe it know,1 sure title onei dont care anymore quit job go school wouldnt work school schedule the first time risked anything something myself cant get another decent job im flat fucking broke also drop school dont hope all dont even try job interviews anymore know wont get itive rejected fair amount im anxious fucking time dont want get hopes spiral deeper depression ive become numb go numb bipolar acting fucking symptoms come shit cant kill family shit dont want anymore keep fucking dont want try anymore fucked cant talk dont want bring people know wont help idk let out maybe someone relate,1 traffik excellent miniseries dealing drug trafficking europe european produced pbs series oscarnominated movie traffic based on loved traffic traffik must seebr br overall would highly recommend miniseries anyone interested seeing drugs social point view screenplay exciting unexpected weaves lives drug dealers traffickers farmers policians police officers unlike movies sensationalize issue drugs traffik presents is,0 movie lot recommend it paintings music david hewletts naked butt gorgeous plot story redemption forgiveness courage face adversity also interesting touching predictable saying quite lot movie day age but acting mediocre direction confusing script odd often felt like trying parody never figured trying parody of parody well remains movie great potential live to,0 mum watch weirdly sexual dancing videos youtube like shes watching one rn tv really fucking disturbing me anything slighty modest im confused cant tell turn shes gonna yell someone help,0 "Proceeds from May 12 Dreambuilders Ball support innovations at @VirginiaMason, like Volunteer Companion Program. In this donor-funded program, volunteers visit patients, listen and show compassion to combat loneliness and depression for admitted patients. http://pbynd.co/2v6gr ",1 keep wanting comment everyones post saying im boat them so ill hereim awful person undeserving love want die i however kid think would crushed died regardless circumstance so im stuck endless spiral depression anxiety failed promises lies deeeeeep sorrow dont deserve love keep telling im grand reason but everyday feel like thats becoming bigger bigger lie,1 "I've been handling my stress pretty well. Depression has been at an all time low, Working on being happier, it's a process, not a fun one, somewhat a fun one.Taking every measurable step to achieve the goals I've set, from the daily ones to long term goals #IGotThis",1 dad found swearing internet dad found swearing im internet honestly want advice found swearing used phone sleeping looking private chats friends swearing included honestly get coming im pissed took phone sleeping need help honestly think cares chickens rather children like bought weighing machine chickens useless eyes pathetic purpose life,0 straight guys pretend gay go girls sleep over gay guys pretend straight guys sleepover thought shower ya,0 want someone listen feel scared depressedthis going wall text im sorry im anxious right now sad hate feeling like this even real reasons sad fucking hate that feel like cant get this suicidal thoughts leave keep happening frequently intensely feel like everyone would better without me boyfriend years annoyed lately much patience anxietydepression bullshit anymore feel like deserves much better would happier someone else im selfish live without him cant love much think dependent him texted telling im anxiety attack reply think ignoring scaring shit me dad killed years ago miss fucking much want anything self esteem fucking hate body ashamed body think could ever let anyone else see naked body ever again thinking makes want throw up think boyfriend like body either nice think found deformity nsfw httpwwwdrhayleybrowncombreastliftwithaugmentationlasvegastubulardeformity started anxiety attack ive always hated breasts knew ugly confirmed everything ive believed in boyfriend says likes know cant true think stupid college im assignments cant stop crying know going this sad anxious want die,1 thlolo march eh it s because i don t want stress mjolo uyi depression,1 https://bugs.launchpad.net/bugs/56125 really does need to get fixed ,0 It's been an eventful day with some real quality time...now making dinner with Amelia and maybe a movie too? Who even knows... ,0 @sheffieldpsy Thank you Lisa for writing this excellent article and for including links to the IAPT site and the BAD skinsupport site - Is acne causing your depression? http://metro.co.uk/2018/04/25/acne-causing-depression-7434740/?ito=desktop.article.share.module.twitter … via @MetroUK @SHSCFT @HealthySkin4All @AdkinsKate @Sheffieldpsy,1 ive got nothingso fucked real bad got stupid shit fault know it older brother tried kill himself times broke me like seriously broke me dont know else say it ive tried everything get better honestly im now ive done therapy ive tried talk hes fine honestly hes well ive done well too ive worked hard somehow ive fucked it got drugs bad lot good job im trying recover make work keep falling back in im debt lot debt nobody knows im scared life insurance death service policy family would supported best friend girlfriend would get twice salary each plus more keep thinking hanging recently predominant thought head hurt it dont know do im pretending manage cant keep pretending k debt repay dont know it im gone nobody mind debt go theyll get money help themselves right,1 got girlfriend best happier ps see emma profile page,0 suicidal schoolgonna make short depression dropped grades low im even depressed feel like im worthless stupid im going get anywhere might well end gets worse weird thing feel like destiny like another poster earlier said people know someday theyre gonna get married kids ive always felt like destiny die dont see point anymore,1 "mama mia, here I go again, my my how can i resist you. mama mia, does it show again, my my just how much I've missed you ",0 twittermaniaaaaaaaaaaa ,0 wouldnt funny killed day birthday redflag prevention weekmight,1 lockdownwho pushed edge lockdown exactly lockdown made mental health worse makes idea staying world unappealing given likely future prospects,1 is still packing and waiting for my clothes to dry then off to bed then beach ,0 simply without cohesionparticularly feeling severe anhedonia alogia wanting involve people anymore find pleasure existence decided end anything yet care happens me find people talking draining hate sound voice head want wake morning anything cannot motivate myself follow thoughts consistently demonstrable antipathy towards friends wish would go away,1 what is the point of living life suck life is hard 90 of the time the 0 that doesn t suck doesn t make up for the other 90 people say that i need to just keep on living because they would miss me they re selfish what about what i want i just want to blink out of existence before anyone start feeling like a knight in shining armor i know i m loved i know i m not alone i m know i m smart and valuable i know all the thing but none of those thing make up for the fact that i simply don t want to be here anymore,1 arguably best outdoor adventure film time four city guys confront natures wrath story survival setting backwoods georgia forests mountains wild riversbr br the director john boorman chose use local people actors portray secondary characters locals imbue film depth characterization unequaled film history central casting actors could ever come close peoples remarkable faces voices actions recall film wherein secondary characters realistic colorful much anything else gritty realism makes film amazingbr br another strength films theme nature wild violent appropriate setting american south places us are been violent redneck country story darwinian survival fittest film conveys idea humans part nature separate itbr br deliverance much product time when unlike today americans expressed concern vanishing wilderness films magnificent scenery sounds birds frogs crickets roar river rapids combined absence civilization convey environmental message another strength filmbr br at entertainment level tension gradually escalates plot proceeds even half way film tension becomes extreme never lets up final credits roll films sustain level intensity long span plotbr br finally films technical quality topnotch direction editing flawless cinematography excellent dialogue interesting acting terrific burt reynolds never better ned beatty perfectly cast fine job jon voight nominated oscar weak link film music strikes timidbr br overall deliverance almost certainly appeal viewers like outdoor adventure even dont gritty characterizations acting plot tension reasons enough watch film one finest cinema history,0 shankiaustine depression,1 hi everyonei weird thing know ask iti exactly depressed feel excitement lot things work out trying eat healthier study work small project would say perfectly fulfilled cannot feel joymore specifically joy partner happyi know why told whenever sees excited something also becomes happy happy reason work me whenever see excited happy something become happy sad either like mood change think never really happy feel positive emotions like excitement intrigue hype lot positive emotions cannot really get happiness thing doanyone knows this fix it weird thing,1 "Cross the line if you're sick of people faking anxiety, OCD, and depression/suicidal thoughts or actions for attention.",1 "@crystalbutterfl Ah, well, lucid or not, least I was there ",0 feel like drawing something ill draw whatever top comment nothing nsfw,0 life been worst past years rped abortion catholic family shot directly gun frienda man tried abduct meput truck sister went coma months clinically dead minutes physically abused everyway boyfriend figured seizure condition kill within years or lesswow whole paragraph think past years go things ill sad remember something random like abortion raped fact something unbelievable traumatic forgettable compared everything else wowwhat wrong me am luck like this like things done one person everything separate group people different parts country kidnapping thing happened days ago finally got courage work outgo run outside scared people second day years man tried kidnap mesomething life right something off feel like human guinea pig tested see far human pushedi want go crazy want control anymore tired want someone take body need anymore give up give this want anymore suicidaldepressed ever since remember certain point care hurting family need put empathy aside care myself game quit whoever win do please someone tell want alive want hurt family,1 ill give award comment made laugh fillerfillerfillermckdndmnamp,0 think readyi voice used tell give every time wanted voice would convince something stupid recently fell love girl going something great going due insecurities guess broke up think one positive thing going strong life happy her break voice disappeared one person get angry one person felt safe me like voice agrees im scared gona able stop time,1 hello angry dart frog whats up frog frog frog frog frog frog frog,0 @next_connect @danlewisnet It seems to be more common lately for me anyway. Help me help you ,0 need penis music would sell anything ability order get super speed using it penis music follows trail blasting non existent speakers full volume,0 love thin man series love movie powells character vance similar character nick charles even dogs br br the chemistry powell astor may fabulous powell loy half bad,0 had a blast at the getty villa but hate that she s had a sore throat all day it s just getting worse too,0 shows posted cannot find post back allowed post here,1 enough christmas year walked school saw neighbor put christmas lights thankfully whole village got school girl playing want christmas norway bad us malls first time ive heard year remember annoying,0 day posting subreddit im yeah day go questions answered always,0 @nicolerichie what if one of the adults actually needed that hug and didnt wanna ask for it. just give the hugs ,0 charp i wa being all nerdy amp thinking they could help me with my metropolitan area network,0 im killing may ththe month anniversary th birthday tried everything give in,1 back even though feels like never lefti spent today like ive spent last three days bed thought dog pissed somewhere room morning realized sweaty sheets must smell like sewer academically im mediocre barely scraping by im completely disinterested everything university im deep debt doesnt matter point nothing years now unthinkable last summer cheated girlfriend found earlier week still together hasnt spoken couple days ive agreed relationship counseling dont know itll help anything judge want spend every minute im awake punishing anyway realize ever insufferable live ive alienated friends couple affair with mostly keep myself think time either leave us kill myself ive hurt many people including loved most im monster,1 bees smol one bee swarm one giant bee heck one chezit chezthem,0 people love care know that deny it want alive want wake up eat go work distract emptiness life truly is that also psychotically depressed know anymore convinced die reason chosen one free physcial existence suicide something people actually desire know freeing bc illusion life better death also even know am feel mentally dead think myself understand people make money survive corporate slave job masters power say school hospitals at least times year point getting better bc going to died years ago mentally first spiritually physical existence must go people care value life reason killing bc want shatter illusion,1 @DrCSaroyan You will?? ,0 tired lying everything going ok everything getting even worse trying stay positive better person keep hurting people love people saved ending life feel awful tried everything self improvement seems like nothing happening fucking done cannot stand anymore,1 comes backi would get thought stuck head telling over sad lonely fought brought back remembered times thought wont happen ill stop gets point next time never go back fucking sad like was came back came back could even notice,1 made life escaping abuse life jeopardy feeling hopelessi ran away abusive home situation taken supported financially friend support suddenly ceased months ago facing homelessness desperation took first place said yes hate it pay like income rent room house full screaming children passive aggressive control freak roommates thought could deal cant constant tension air walking eggshells dreading coming home refuge shitty day highstress lowpay job reminds much abuse flew thousands miles get away from feel safe anywhere anymore never relax building stress putting crisis want get out since previous roommate parted ways literally reallife support system anymore deepseated trust issues means reallife friends moment feel like one talk to therapist extraordinarily kind letting see free ever since lost previous living situation cant see often feel like need feel guilty seeing without payment matter many times tells alright aside that therapy world solve practical issues money move again license would even physically move belongings previous roommate helped move last time theyre state now feel trapped hopeless felt emotionally mentally bad years feel capable job anymore especially feel like mile walk every day get back energy im utterly exhausted always feel like im fightorflight mode now cant handle stress catching flying handle minuscule things almost meltdown grocery store yesterday fit shit reusable bags brought in cant go like im afraid getting deep crisis become fully nonfunctioning then cant job ill become homeless hurts much especially well felt like full functioning adult job boss loved me considered promotion putting money savings paying old debts fixing credit score putting food table felt like become much told family would ever capable felt like life own gutter really know im going get time im sure even want get time do,1 cant take anymorei cant eat cant drink cant sleep head hurts time feel lonely cant take anymore im sick crying sick always left out wanna die please wanna die want sleep never wake again im smashing breaking everything angry control time lonely cold cant hold really cant want die life doesnt worth living live every single breath hurts oh god feel like something really heavy chest keeps breathing lonely fucking lonely one absolutely one im cold ,1 normalize calling guys sis queen girls bro dude day got flamed friends calling girl friend dude fucking matter call bro bro dude used guys,0 top funny songs right now found nigerian pussy deepthroat show genitals enormous penis men hot want inch dick looking back im weird mf,0 hiding wanna diehello im year old girl bullied tried overdosing before work tell im still thinking wanna try like always everyone stops since like oh wanna die bullies grow up thats reason reason im scared dad sister etc keep tell wanna kill myself,1 liberalnomo thirtyonemks nowthisnews so what advice would you give a man who ha depression cuz he know his sexuality is off and he s attracted to men he also feel uncomfortable in men clothes and can t get turned on from woman or would you just not even associate with them even tho they re an amazing person,1 finished marking can t celebrate yet tho got to communicate mark amp feedback to all those online student rest of the night gone there,0 latroneb oh but there s one bestie missing,0 #Depression in young men due to strained relationship with their fathers https://www.standardmedia.co.ke/health/article/2001273446/study-fathers-are-main-cause-of-depression-in-boys … via @StandardKenya #MentalHealthKE #depressionke,1 unpopular opinion cheese pizza better pizzas plus affordable please judge me im poor _,0 fuck mom helpinga couple days ago asked friend livestreamed redflag would watch it made clear intend asking fun question ask pretty chill nice talk forgot it earlier yesterday mom comes room starts lecturing even think killing got calls friends mom regarding considering redflag mom lectured like hour instead pray more left feeling worse later evening brought topic up time front dad began lecturing like good half hour talk friends either i would usually talk anyone feeling really day really needed vent somewhere consider pretty good friend mine someone trust im never talking anyone redflag feel ever again now mom randomly bringing since today morning telling pray think redflag fuck mom helping ps real point post needed vent somewhere im sorry belong sub,1 i feel so alone all of the time i have a job where i get along great with coworkers however i have no genuine friend no one to hang out with i just spend time alone after awhile anxiety creep in i feel like i m trapped in a box and can t get out i tend to struggle a lot with moving forward in life and part of it is i feel i have no one by my side alone in the world,1 basically im quite sad right would appreciate advice cope basically mom dad divorced stayed friends continued living other whole life would get arguments would scare overall pretty nice even heard mom say would get remarried unfortunately today dad caught cheating phone another girl son too whole year going actually mom obviously mad planning move october came said im still moving october then find place yourselfyoure coming worst part days birthday coming up someone give advice cope maybe,0 life going way fast cant keep upi decided attend elite university clout even though fully aware mediocre student high school got straight first semester im currently going second semester gpa first semester seems great pussied due pandemic took easy classes fulfill general education requirements decided passno pass class instead opting letter grade cuz im shit writing philosophy papers struggled find motivation power classes even though supposed really easy signed technical class required intended major spring thats it rest classes general education requirements one fun im realizing ill need take least technical courses sophomore year order able declare major time decided pussy take hard classes pandemic university attend known hypercompetitive getting grade less a like death sentence hell even a enough cause heart attack dont know future be want go medical school seems near impossible competition here made garbage grades test scores high school taking extracurriculars easy went ghetto high school im pretty reputable university way many students way little resources somehow fight way top havent even made friends first semester uni dread go zoom meetings getting coldcalled professors graduate student instructors dont attend office hours im pussy poor attention span live extremely rowdy house constant arguments im cut university wanna think pandemic thats messing vibe thinking back high school always bare minimum give crap learning wanted grade grade b okay it always crammed information head exam proceed dump finished class repeat process again ask question ill explain incoherently probably even inorrectly well decided something winter break actually prep chemistry class signed for even trying prep chem fucking stoichiometry eating ass thats like one first things teach college chemistry fuck going survive dont know basic fucking math speaking math im doghsit math realize ive going rant far long basically dont know fuck im going life people tell theres always going second chances college whatever got one shot parents getting old cant leech forever cant fail classes need get good enough grades medical school fuck universitys grade deflation competitive fucking place is fuck supposed find internship im fucking dumb dont know anything probably students way smarter know way do fuck come clout shouldve gone smaller school massage big fat ego maybe better chance medical school sorry long rant sorry bitching moaning know ive got way better lot people given pandemic feel bad bitching privileged life,1 theresawhite this is true lol but it s still a slap in the face after such a warm end of march,0 "Tell me, please, how to stop being a victim when the only thing the WORLD wants to see me as is a corpse or a beaten and bloody dying messPlease, oh so enlightened genius, cure my fucking depression. You just have to fix the entire world first",1 yo guys found planet solar system gas uranus,0 im going jump story building head firstafter ex broke two many years ago ive pretty much undateable adhd ive become drifter grunt dead end job dreams life shattered even surprised always like me brother ive third wheeling ever since parents ocd hoarders friends seen years realizing girls ever going want me whenever sincerely try improve fate like crash brick wall know understand cuz im average intelligence fuck society judgmental everyday feel like im facing judgment day im single unwanted alone nervous pale fuck im sick this im sick infatuated women fucking guys told gets better im sick hell,1 im finally ready diefor weeks ive feeling like stuff shouldnt happened nothing feels real died years ago life meaningless world would better without one would care anyway dont feel anything sadness numbness anymore whats point,1 "@kevingraham oh, and thanks for the help ",0 guys finally finally cleared inbox went emails free man now,0 best french movie year saw twice found great times think boring even though long hours im seventeen obviously get live events may marked extremely important turn french history really matter since still really enjoyed film actually quite universal people parents age identify characters people age garrel seems perfectly understand young people way think complications love well loss illusions concerning possibility changing world maybe thats character played louis garrel his sonis actually meant represent philippe garrel himself well anyway great movie action have honest point strong feelings cant possibly stay indifferent it looking relaxing sundayevening movie waste time this disappointed like cinema like les amants rguliers bewitching movie close made s s nouvelle vague artists,0 why am i here i have class i need to go back i m sweating my backside is all gross and wet and it s not because it s hot i m wearing short something is wrong with me i m broken i can t be around people but i m lonely i can t care about college awful apathy is in my vein i can t even pretend to have any desire for life or conversation i m going to fail my class maybe failing something will finally wake me up or no i m nothing of value without my grade it s all i ve ever had it s all i m actually good at and now i realize how utterly pointless and empty that overwhelming stress wa good grade never made me like living or myself if i fail it is justification that my existence is worthless i m just lonely and socially anxious to the point of phobia and scared of others and especially of myself i just want to die i m supposed to commit suicide i m sure of it i am not meant to exist i do not belong here i belong nowhere i m tired really really tired,1 sad time year againi stocked vitamin fish oil forget anything time year always pretty rough alone feel same,1 types posts types posts subreddit random memes relationshiprelated questions depressed people people found hope im bored wanna talk,0 @sassyshannon I'm just being lazy and want to do it all from my phone. My bb is still a novelty to me http://myloc.me/6pQ,0 @malayb I'll be there July 8th and head home July 9th. It'll be a fucking party that whole night ,0 made post yesterday useless already admitted ever friends always alone parents forever future alone rest life even fun playing videogames anymore thing liked most much coward kill myself keep suffering life die natural causesi tired everything piece trash one wants with always fuck everything lose friends notredflag time make them even girl cheated shitty person give enough attention cannot stand anymore want everything end tired life,1 one time favorite cheap corny vampire b movies br br calvin klein underwear modeloh mean stefan good vampire returns transylvania ascend throne vampiric royalty manicureimpaired eternally drooling half brother radu plans killed father vampire king radu sets sights stefan stefans new mortal girlfriend michelle two pretty friends allpowerful bloodstonebr br okay scenery beautiful shot location transylfrickenvania gosh sakes actresses great shakes stefan heroic vampire charming refrigerated fireplace poker cares theres one reason watch movie name radu hes physical homage nosferatu best lines movie spoken raspy voice man smokes ten packs cigarettes day cemetery festival scene one best scenes film radu slowly approaches camera reveals grinning slobbering face world see found cheering collected victims taunted perfect brother maybe im sicko questionable taste men aside highly recommend film vampire enthusiasts original fun radu one best vampires ive seen long timemuch fun stiff tragic whining undead brats endlessly grace horror screens days radu enjoys sadism never apologizes hes vampire be,0 wanting twitch streamer remember watching one boring person get boring nobody like me oh wait know people partner pain,0 @mckaylaeastman It helps with my anxiety & depression as well. A friend recommended cbd for those reasons but I haven't tried it yet. it keeps me sane lol,1 best friends started dating banking idk im annoying theyre wrapped world used talk every day started going christmas time spoke times week outside school huge arguments broke times months always mediated got talking lockdown started ill speak one twice month half hour convo theyll respond idk whether im annoying theyve got stuff going on plus theyll ever respond sowhich annoying take days reply take another day respond ive got people much listened supported ignore sometimes weeks end problems lives want push ask find theyre nursing injuries parents seem evil im bit loner anyway ill see post videos friends im still shielding ill feel really inadequate idk feel really bad one every often says miss takes week reply lol im really emotional reason made post im tired feel like im massive burden even though ive never shared problems ive always supported thanks coming depressing ted talk,0 needed tell somebody anybodythis isnt looking someone come save me isnt wanting attention wanted tell somebody it lays heavy mind want hours peaceful boyfriend killed days ago fully completely love sickly sweet reason now hold on starting whole life together going get place april year get two cats angus maggie eventually get married live together happily things went well really good true pretty much reason decided try get better wanted future wanted future me went amazingly first time long long time didnt want die maybe reliant happy cannot stand world without him everything quickly caving me theres way fix it funeral absolute breaking point me many people standing room see coffin hear songs loved see family mourn big gathering people something completely snapped longer even slight hesitation this,1 know doi need let out dunno do current relationship falling apart relationships fallen apart mess everything hate myself makes hate more one love someone like that get it really think im good enough ever get together im weak let things get fall useless burden over ive like forever tell im gonna try harder never happens depressed ever real reason be life come kicked around like everyone else im pretty sure made worse know everything could make things better dont need help know one else me energy anything it moved hometown current bf whole family lives here nice know talk to real friends here acquaintances think people need hear problems bf having hate dragging people down wish could make happy get depressed screw up last time fought told kill get with said mean things too apologized said mean it really think hes right hes home alot lately want come home find dead cause thats awful thing someone time kind do edit see problem soon post this immediately feel guilty making anyone read whining stop feeling guilty existing time,1 "#depression is to feel like crying every time someone askes how you feel, because you can not lie about it but at the same time don't want to bother them with your problems",1 figure putting guys off advice appreciated tldr first dates last months thought went well beyond well wanted go second date me wrong figure im wrong,0 reasons world screwed also general life tips disagree women face lot every damn day like every woman know made feel uncomfortable man makes depressed even though im male even though talked everywhere need people know kids need raised knowing like women even though im even women heard many storys probably worse think makes situation even terrible please tell every single person know make sure know police brutality think weapon use whenever want think police wont face consequences saw police car outside mcdonalds teenage girl shoplift something next door im kidding say job right good police folk isnt pricks abuse badge pedophilia ima say one time weve heard still fucking continues sexuality wrong terrible children easily influenced know ethics abusing sick sick im gonna honest deserve die take interest children heres something many people tell dont think dont want famous fame bad draw negative attention uh ever heard happened lady gagas dogs dog walkers walker got shot dogs kidnapped fame bad lead misery famous people assassinated lot famous people died fame discussed much people world still go blind it treat people around better every single day theres chance wont come home would want peoples image good try always happy conversation people hold closest mum quite ill face every day always try happy conversation make laugh always cherish every moment matter severe situation is lot people reddit would say go outside please dont toxic games game see people getting doxxed minecraft hear stupid is actual real life identity compromised actual illegal stuff block game noah get boat swear parents specifically embrace facts kid person make choices arent always going there dont overprotecting teach independent one day child grow well become adult adult things need realise wont always little kid life taking way things love wont make learn make dislike im prepared critized come good life,0 two beers larry came bar every day drink two beers my brothers dying ones him said eyes full tears day same two beers hed go one brother one him hes sad sweet schmo one day orders one brothers dead im thinking asked him replied no me ive given drinking by joanna fuchs,0 Just finished running. http://bit.ly/38lLd1 This picture is epic.,0 mom always told sit actually watch movie one favorites never years caught one night tv movie great even know explain it cast excellent julia roberts keifer sutherland kevin bacon william baldwin oliver platt story awesome freaky scary makes think left speechless film amazed good actors actress five people really are william baldwin go hes great film must see anyone seen go rent it sorry amazing,0 life isn t good i opened up to some people but i fear they are planning to put me in a psych ward my shift is ending soon and i m in a corner here there s no point in elaborating further,1 "@Padmasree Yes, but there can be no execution if there is no vision to start with ",0 everything hurtsi know fix feel besides getting away transphobic parents since im nonbinary enough money hate go community college kind tried kill last year hate feeling like every day exactly hate im eating healthy working taking antidepressants everything still hurts every day want live like anymore please make stop hurting know deserve want things get better im trying really really hard gotten better think maybe im bad evil deserve it want happy im tired waking every day exactly like last know keep repeating know anymore im tired sad time,1 guy best friends elite talk anything everything would still chill you elite,0 ninjen i m sure you re right i need to start working out with you and the nikster or jared at least,0 friend suffers depression implied choice make said suicidal thoughts before phone happened argumentthere tension group chat people said choice make another person privately wed see monday school dont already know why text mom like make sure shes ok message delivered response sent another one so meaning either phone ran battery turned off know mom usually goes bed earlier dad stays later im worried phones off feel like wouldve saw message turned phone go bed wasnt first place dont see running battery dont know do help,1 "@gilltaylorphoto My money's on it being an issue. Also, WEP is horrendously insecure. I feel a trip to Stafford coming on... ",0 "@NetNobody @TubeCosix Depression just doesn't go away. Depression is a longtime thing, just sayin",1 My sisters new car very nice http://pic.im/3vW,0 in form now leaving for religon ,0 "@jamesmcgraw yup, we have tickets ",0 http://twitpic.com/4gw8e - @minauderie It's true! You are! ,0 hi i m intense uncomfort in social setting worsening hygiene teeth pretty bad body pain from not eating properly anymore like almost fainting from the stair my body is really weak feeling too and like these fucking muscle twitching and joint pain no motivation just wanting to lay down fucked sleep and loneliness is making school suffocating i think body pain is the worst but even if i actually go to the doctor she ll just fucking tell me to eat better which i know that s the issue i m prob not going to do i m in charge of my meal and om mazy so i ve been eating frozen i just lay down everyday after coming home usually nap like usually my body feel like it s breaking down while i m there i always feel like cry at school which is fine but i have to keep dealing w this by myself is hard i m not realistically going whine about this to anyone i can t open up i tried to speak to the counselor but i only mentioned not eating properly so she just told me to eat and join a study group people don t like me generally esp adult so it s kinda no use fot me i have definitely thought about dying or getting beat up i prob won t but i m a bit stupid and hopeless at this point so my weekend i just lay in bed all day literally that s it my single parent father doesn t value thing like this it s just financial if i get hurt it s generally a burden which i m used to i just need to get my shit together,1 feel like mom cares less less abt fell asleep today woke first time pm sister asked wanted dinner told wasnt hungry went back sleep woke last time hour ago pm felt really sad sister come check me mom hadnt done anything went eat mom didnt say anything come kitchen went upstairs ate bed rn im sitting livingroom wanted see mom would say anything hasnt hasnt said hello anything wanted ask didnt check boyfriend really dislike him like im even sorry hard read im really upset lol,0 i have a lazy eye and am overweight and i have a bowel problem which make me smell even with these attribute i ve managed to fall in love get married and have a daughter but i keep getting this urge since i wa to end it all it doesn t help that my family doesn t want anything to do with me or my child hell my baby is year old and my mother ha yet to see her or even call the shitty part is she life an hour away i keep on thinking what s the point of trying so hard to keep people who don t even want you in their life i love my daughter but i just want ti end it i ve been fighting off and on with my wife over small stuff because i m not home enough i have to travel for work week at a time because we can t afford for me to quit and honestly sometimes it feel like she s just with me because she can stay at home and not work long story short i m tired of trying to keep up the illusion that i m happy the only thing that make me happy is reminiscing about holding my daughter when i m on the road but it s getting harder and harder to keep going,1 would anyone like join abr btw abr stands army black rose,0 stupid poll stupid idea anyways crush considered popular person quiet person scale quiet kid popular person ever im honestly curious ratio could answer feel comfortable,0 why is that when you have time off from work you get sick,0 "@adamrocks Oh you've watched 3 already, awesome ",0 for example this happened the other day while driving to class the week before first week of the course sometimes i wa pretty nervous agitated and generally anxious during the drive resulting in a weird feeling that i usually feel in this circumstance it s hard to put it to word like an uneasy rushy in real time sense of reality this time i didn t feel any of that i wa actually close to being symptomless the problem is that when i started noticing this too much my brain started to scan and check for that feeling that i described before even tho i didn t eventually feel it again it did ruin the moment and it impacted a bit on the symptom anyway so how can i just let go generally speaking,1 "@omygoshashley yep! that is what i was thinking! good choice! he can promote it, then! ",0 kill myselfi cant take thoughts anymore spending two years suicidal hell earth ive angsting whether try get help again know fail horribly again need overcome fear death fail time im close almost taste it thing life need succeed at old saying goes you one job problem keep bouncing methods ive collected menagerie suicidal implements hopefully last post im terrible succeeding first succeed try try again,1 ayo shit bussin cap sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeessssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,0 so im depressed ive accepted itso im pretty big lurker reddit never really post late really become depressed serious kind please dont hit hard first time ive ever said anything honestly im afraid even post internet great thing anonymity ive always afraid tracked either put crazy house black listed ha g rights taken away cant take anymore talk someone reason trust reddit anyone life searched redflag sub came up im posting need dump life somewhere let someone know unfortunately want write novel write never able get back work keep posting updates get back breaks lunch otherwise depression make say fuck it post anything allowed please let know delete post know im glad found place feel comfortable comments notwithstanding letting out ill back hours im lunch,1 whoohoo Mtv Movie Awards Tonight ,0 went date last night ended with found girl dating app turned real i know shocker go college days talking asked wanted go date said yes immediately went get food i saw people old school tried avoid lol refused let pay food we used money school gave us money per say sat ate went outdoor area outdoor area sat talked literally anything hour eventually benches sitting became uncomfortable started walking around campus talking anything even breaks conversation smile always inspired think new subject continued another hour this said needed go back dorm laundry we hours insisted walk home cold somehow turned dropping place got car asked dates ended this first ever date said however wanted end reached hug awkwardly hugging center console jeep unexpectedly kissed cheek shocked never happened before realize kissed back given legit hug rookie shock second date scheduled saturday see guys go date someone anyone can,0 female lets see shit actually works,0 thinks that enough tweaking the twitter home page....might be too David Salle. ,0 http twitpic com y yi i love you buck,0 "@Hedgewytch Bugger being sneaky. Flash on and camera in continuous, get as many shots as possible. Pap the hell of of him ",0 need advice friend pleasei close ten years online friend always suffered depression last months gotten worse worse talks redflag daily serious im different country hes us know address want call redflag line anything like that anything do all need detail ask,1 @kerosky I buy the cheapest good thing thats why I got a mac mini,0 "@tracecyrus http://twitpic.com/6ghfg - Honestly- you look so much better when you smile, you should really do it more often ",0 have any of you seen the new JB picture? - #jonaskevin,0 I give up on grad work...but I do love Google http://googlereader.blogspot.com/ What will they think up next?! #tedu560,0 happy pokemon day entire childhood ngl,0 ginayates sorry to hear about maggie thought to your mum,0 i ve thought of ending my life so many time but i never end up doing it i just wish there wa a peaceful purposeful way to go out that would be a benefit to others but i suppose life isn t that kind so the next best thing is to donate a body to science right or i hope so ive been thinking that it would benefit my mother with financial trouble she said i m just getting in the way so i think insurance should give her some money i think right now that s my only plausible solution but i just am too chicken,1 i ve had this ever since i wa young and now that i m in my adult year i feel like i m running out of time i m still at home and i feel stuck i can t hold down a job i ve lost over job let alone my therapist keep telling me to be compassionate towards myself but it s so hard i just want to be normal be happy my panic attack are bothering me lately more than ever and idk how to help it,1 "Okay, so this was over a year ago. Speaking on something that sent me down hill where Depression and anxiety were at an all time high. I still have very bad trust issues, but where I am now just shows that you can get through the tough spots in life. https://twitter.com/cj110395/status/822278779238285313 …",1 happy yearsive lonely years grew abusive father nightmares escaped me want friend,1 @MandiElyse sounds like you have had enough fun to last all year. Perfect. ,0 @AceyBongos How about a trip to Area 51? Because there was a crashed alien ship in the game and it would be cool to fight aliens ,0 http://twitpic.com/3pd5a - makapu'u beach 2... my camera phone is awesome capturing blue ,0 amsterdamant unfortunately i didn t dream about shoe,0 going go vr chat date mcdonalds boy kid discord like talk lot recently dmd wanted go mcdonalds vr chat said yeah even got another person recently said theyd cashier stuff,0 hate world nothing good ever happens me miserable fuckit really hard see reasons stay alive think ever escape misery death would free pain have fuck world,1 want alreadyim tired anxiety depression ocd loneliness feeling love people want put already itll stop pain point trying nothing ever seems change,1 masks really uncomfortable mean id still wear matter what risk yeah least me kinda uncomfortable,0 broooo fucking excited girl im really called adorable like oh man like back jesus christ im excited aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa going later today aaaa goodness im sorry im bursting right now,0 "From there, I tried to have regular conversations again. He has depression, and he's not open about anything. He's also moody around me, mostly because I'm such a terrible friend. Eventually, that wretched, terrible side of me took over. It decided that it had enough of it.",1 online lesson forgot mic still fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck like fuck,0 Is anyone joomla-savvyyy? We just need a lil template modifyinggg pretty please we'll give you cookies!,0 nobody turn toi friends family talk me girlfriend never one ima pretty soon since im nobody hire im typical creepy dude nobody gives fuck about people despise want destroy me nightmare getting mental health treatment im male god attention compliments really cant stand it wish somebody cared wish subhuman,1 always happen me thought time bring good grades maths online test turns fate currently feeling upset sitting bathtub india must excel maths take science th grade dang difficult mins questions markbut reality take longer time probably marksi telling man hypocrisy school give less time high difficulty time cheating like defeating thanos almost impossible searched questions google half cant even found ,0 want die badly im scared ill survive family see mei want leave die ill go somewhere better wont remember thing wont know family go through im fucked head deserve die fucked shit never tell family want commit redflag badly urges time jump balcony im sick liar im attention whore want die even life much mor fortunate everyone elses im bored staying here im fed everything want leave badly want sure die cant be fucking hate myself deserve die shit ive done control want stop sick things tried hard canti give up like this im fucked fucking kill me please kill,1 im living nightmare want endi feel like living nightmare wanna experience anymore know people way worse me realistically think keep going on couple months ago raped threatened keep secret made mistake waiting long reported go university university decided help keep safe alongside police idea investigate hearing happened however university began investigating created lot controversy case closed twice i repealed recently closed without charges police would take serious whats worse fact roommate rapist rapist harassing spitting ever since case filed roommate close residential assistants boss explaining even acknowledge existence rumors spread saying faked attention despite witness accounts backing mentalprofessionals seek trauma of gave coping mechanisms said beyond care would need seek outside university help people constantly give dirty looks spit me getup move away sit near them romantic connections hadrelationships resulted getting dumped one wants based rumors baggage family support either really much blood family family dead them lots friends stayed situation avoid getting harassed well feel alone like belong anymore this thought childhood trauma everything happened growing would stay past even affecting me nail coffin really feel like cant anymore thank actually read it wanted someone world know going through least someone might understand ampxb tldr raped university buried case people side rapists best friend regarded subhuman people know,1 taking the rent to the airport not excited about being up this early have to go to work at,0 "Just got done shopping with Andrew for dinner stuff. We cleaned house all day, so movie night!! 'My Best Friend's Girl' ",0 "@comeagainjen Jenn, I just wanted to say that I think that you're so beautiful! ugh, I seriously love you <3",0 blasting west savannah repeat one nights iykyk,0 i have decided my room need to be more quirky so angel gave me a mirror and my a button isn t working too well either,0 help mom leans emotionally comes father relationship financial issues etci dealing lot personally outside family stuff top too feel trapped honestly went see counselor college thought got routine going would fine also extremely judgemental scolded coming college regularly believe things told him left go counselor times abusive relationship ended still felt vulnerable scared leaving place told feel ready stop this said nothing could do point feel like nothing nobody me feel emotionally trapped know do go anymore,1 yay english exam is over ,0 tonight faced decision could either cut something life know would make happier could continue remain am lead realize scared happy again first majorly depressed last december got became would say happy again obviously suddenly perfect recovering well around end may got super depressed even worse before even started self harming weeks somewhat normalized recovering scared recovering scared try recover happen time might permanently scar worse advice topic scared happy,1 i wish this wa easier or that you got the hint booooo,0 agree nomad s hvrs comments perfect laid back sunday morning movie humor subtle exact opposite slapstick one misguided commenter notedbr br but always ceases amaze often find wanting come back movie over originally copied movie onto vhs years ago premiered one pay cable free weekend previewshbo maybe never heard previously know marketed well dvds released en mass one first movies replaced great combination cast writing plus back drop montana wilderness hurt things either beautifulbr br its probably type comedy everyone is adam sandler type stuff alley probably cup tea movie needs full attention humor mostly dialogbr br i believe next viewing probably th still know gets scenes like one hoods police cars start blowing off im going loose ed oneills face priceless recommended ,0 someone i thought loved me my ex fianc of six year just told me i should go kill myself oh and just a few week ago he said i should go hang myself so i guess i can just go do it now clearly everyone in my life will be better off if i just end it all now i finally got confirmation of that oh do it on your birthday so you can go out the same day you came in april 9th is my birthday so i guess it s happening he cheated on me on my birthday last year anyways and knocked that girl up so i guess it s time now i should start preparing and i ve been trying to get rid of all my stuff and give it to friend or donate it anyways my camera are going to my best friend my video game and console can go to my nephew i have another niece or nephew on the way that i won t get to meet but it s ok i guess it s better that way i am giving my clothes to domestic violence shelter and a couple friend i m going to give all my art supply to my best friend too i have ton of unopened canvas and paint i m going to give my book to the library in my hometown i ve got a little over a month i think i can do it then i have a surgery i fought for for over year on the th but there s really no point in doing it now i guess i ll just call them and tell them i back up give my spot to someone who need it my sister ha her gender reveal on the th so i guess that will be my goodbye they won t even know it but i will tell them i love them a lot and in my note i ve written page upon page of apology for being a failure of a daughter and sister hopefully they forgive me i had a long note for my ex fianc but i m not giving one anymore he s far away and my family hate him so there s no guarantee he d get it even if i wanted to i have been wanting to die for year since i wa little i first broke a mirror and cut myself at the age of fucking i ve had nearly ten different attempt i think it s finally time i don t want to live anymore and i finally got permission by someone who claimed to love me that i should just do it so in a way it wa a huge gift from him to say that i am thankful for it it gave me peace i can just do it now and be done with it so honestly awesome i m so relieved,1 national people day instead womans day mens day celebrate every human matter,0 i feel so helpless like i have absolutely no say in my own life and i have no idea what to do anymore all i want to do is to kill myself but the way that i ve decided to do it is going to be painful and right now i ve become so mentally weak that i can t even tolerate or accept pain i wish i could just die in my sleep tonight or get hit by a bus tomorrow because i m not even strong enough to end my life no matter how much i want to,1 i use video games to cope with my depression,1 need get havent day hour minutes st idk ill survive month tbh,0 lost game,0 About that time to smoke some weed and take a depression nap,1 hi im wanting die jsut took lot kloniponii wnat die im jsst sick life now im worried may taken much drank bunch beer too hwere go ehre,1 film delightful light hearted look sides club kid rave scene blends new york art music performance art worlds with cameo omnipresent miss bunny torch song trilogy perkypostteen girls that girl disaffected affected millennium timesbr br the dialogue fast funny parker poseys costumer deserves academy award least stadium wave kudosbr br of course film rests stylish platform heels miss posey perfectly cast like lot acting work may deep often selfreferential and well posey works talented comedienne incredible entertainer film entertains carries shoulders like faux leopard wrap never lets drop floorbr br mary superficial party fashionista stealing designer clothing friends closet making someone elses boyfriend deeper level story girl friends careless every sense word including people process learning caring necessary life br br the script beautifully crafted witty performance disappoints aunt role much onedimensional heavy handed nuanced performance her would deepened relationship two but hey comedy surprisingly deep role gives film substance world vision fallafel selling boyfriend lucky one mary one gets away br br i rate great moment film history classic great art all get deeper richer reviewing like desperately seeking susan represents something true time period may become irrelevant time still everything entertaining film needs worth viewing several times clothes alone,0 want her ipod,0 i don t get it what did i ever do to anyone i doubt even some of the people that know me will feel bad or even start caring once they find out i m dead maybe they ll never even know and not notice my absence but why,1 literally anything else gtgtgt anal masturbation people act like good doesnt work smh hurts,0 Monica and i go together like cuawfee and quack ,0 everyonemy previous post got deleted hadnt read rules properly but hope everyone safe okay please let us know youre okay want vent ask advice anything please leave comment help listen giving support,1 need big tiddy quirky gf big tiddy squeeze cuddle pillow cuddle funny quirky big booby gf please hold me,0 guys want ask girl asked girl facetime said yes pretty happy scared anyone facetimed girl give tips much love,0 stephenkruiser awww so sad i m so sorry,0 alright boys im starting nnn early year wish luck always dont let temptation get you also girls arent real remember,0 @LilViolet Are you to the beach? Anyway...nothing news for now...have a nice day See you soon...,0 bruh actually needa make alt alt need stop creating controversy jdjdjdjdjd,0 helpi cut leg again,1 @kferin no idea! Was raining until we headed up the monument. Great views ,0 i'm pretty sure it's 5pm assuming all goes as planned. now 5pm our time would mean no maryland that night. hotel in seattle for atl. ,0 did not sleep well at all and have a very unhappy stomach,0 after a little trip to the er the doctor there gave me a week worth of ativan to help with panic attack my doctor now want me to take klonopin instead i don t want to be dependent on either of these two but i used ativan every night for 9 night to calm down from a panic attack is it dangerous to switch from ativan mg to klonopin 0 mg just worried about the stuff i read on seizure and my hand cramp a little after i take ativan,1 @MrsDDoubleU and you know he will ,0 anyone wanna cosplay punching bag need practice boxing,0 @littletiara haha dont we ever do that before many times,0 one worst weekends whole year know talk toim crisis mode atm woke friday thinking meeting rush for turns actually online shit me idea going we ended using multicaller phone call phased out meant ask prizes businesses donate week ended time work ones wanted thursday rest friday it also scared sort person told manager id organise saturday eventually got headache front computer long started talking negatively stuff probably minor anxiety attack friend convinced go home rest eating something woke saturday feeling shit cause hot degrees celsius ended getting severe anxiety attack afternoon left crying bathroom floor exhausted try stabbing myself evening rolled around everything seemed amazing woke am friend anxiety attack culminating told im going talking before help cause nothing help anymore wont check phone stay bed feel cut deep inside able go sleep am person live gone bed yet made noise keep night holidays nearly cant cope probably able go church morning im failure able commitments know im going explain this im horrible situation friend know talk to worst,1 plain simple recently single year relationship fault loved life itself parents live across country family family without her one bought house together last year like living literal dream together two us dog little family everything ever imagined wanting crushed broken never wanted anything less losing her home everything visiting parents happened dad came picked florida flew home together today family packing stuff house yesterday get home tomorrow nothing sure house there little bit furniture nothing meaningful gone dog gone forgot pack cousins handgun closet might use get with not might buy sleeping pills peacefully really know yet anything live for,1 wuts template called drawn shows someone beat two people hiding behind wall really good meme idea cant find template please help,0 understand everything break cycle wanting kill myself yet always returnive always felt off like part incorrect wrong missing feeling ive since started able memories explored feeling farthest reaches imagine tried find various religions scientific theories make feel purpose tried sports gaming social events helping community finding passion career tried therapy antidepressants experimenting consciousness looking family members help yet still convinced commit redflag logically makes sense me know possibilities await if any side better stick devil know one dont still though feel like want kill frequently suicidal ideation never stops head always reoccurring event matter do merely coping existence want feel alive want feel isnt trap gift logical reasoning addition actions could take could provide feeling want know wrong correct problem im open anything want feel right,1 tiredmy partner trying best make feel better took long fill something school owe money cant blame anyone just genuinely think cant get job think could handle im scared leave house im unemployed school family also unemployed good one suppose go somewhere high like seven selling nudes easy nothing me good quality attractive features im charasmatic enough use able think right anything everything went shit want give think would kill partner tries take care dumb bipolar suicidal self sit room day alone day day im tired im lonely im trying find good way go wrong wish could go back normal,1 @selenagomez I LOVE YOU SELENA GOMEZ... 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I would be so happy if you reply to me ,0 film one best creepy yet intriguing performances crispin glover dennis hopper reagan years pretty bleak lot people teenagers flick really captured desperation despair welldirected great script apparently based true story really see weaknesses this opening shot brilliantbr br keanu reeves decent change miss skye right money hopper three great performances year blue velvet texas chainsaw ii hoosiers imagine cult following wonder picture would fare rereleased super stuff,0 confess something grade exam super important brought exam home typed questions online found answers put piece paper went back school saying left field trip paper desk excuse put exam back desk without anybody noticing me years later brother grade asked whats story andre told looked showed answers took note im bad man,0 lmfao younger brother owns two laptops none this bit less three years ago first part story context basically parents forced let brother borrow laptop went high school pc games files school gave school ipad parents said didnt need anymore told parents would make separate account lmao let use account proceeded wipe computer games files istg highkey wanted strangle him proceeded trash laptop destroying arrow keys scratching screen getting gross ass food crumbs buttons heres second part recently laptop broke apparently laptop wasnt turning pissed it asked parents get another one upcoming birthday did got really nice one lmaoo anyway turns og computer still worked problem wasnt computer charger started using charger new laptop both now two working laptops ill returning temporary ipad graduate asked could trashed laptop back says needs one play roblox one play tf also says laptop wtf also parents wont anything idk even know laptops working theyre still using school ipad excuse legit cant anything thing monitored limited school honestly rant salty dont computer play pc games thx coming ted talk lmao ,0 @mismile you're so cute. ,0 how sad i did not 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friends popular guys self reflection realised didnt even like well pm questions,0 fuck macbeth essay macbeth write fucking clue play dont speak fluent ye olde englishe anyone explain macbeth,0 my tummy hurt i wonder if the hypnosis ha anything to do with it if so it s working i get it stop smoking,0 my teef hurt,0 im terrifiedsomeone hold im scared,1 depressed since teens keeps getting worse nothing interests all good job work busy feeling incompetent due many big errors making ever talk boyfriend want burden friends pain find hard continue genuine conversation would feel selfish dump feelings onto since barely energy converse want overwhelm scare bf either since also dealing depression holding feeling myself really close relationship family days spend time alone room doggy sometimes socially withdrawn even know speakwrite feeling fake forced continue work pay rent want live anymore,1 day gets harder harder im losing survivefor past month ive spent almost every day bed literally nothing try take one day time day getting harder harder im losing survive weight loss plateaued weeks self control turn overdrew bank account way repay it started posting nudes attention got validating ive started cutting first time years ask trans want life like this wish born regular person either gender wasnt ive gone mentally wish upon worst enemy destroyed life keep going trying look big picture knowing survive get eventually ive lost continue want get become person im proud point cant see happening want die want hurt anyone else feel option point,1 "@Skylten ahh thankyou, got it now ",0 we understand that most people who reply immediately to an op with an invitation to talk privately mean only to help but this type of response usually lead to either disappointment or disaster it usually work out quite differently here than when you say pm me anytime in a casual social context we have huge admiration and appreciation for the goodwill and good citizenship of so many of you who support others here and flag inappropriate content even more so because we know that so many of you are struggling yourselves we re hard at work behind the scene on more information and resource to make it easier to give and get quality help here this is just a small start our new wiki page explains in detail why it s much better to respond in public comment at least until you ve gotten to know someone it will be maintained at r depression wiki private contact and the full text of the current version is below summary anyone who while acting a a helper invite or accepts private contact i e pm chat or any kind of offsite communication early in the conversion is showing either bad intention or bad judgement either way it s unwise to trust them pm me anytime seems like a kind and generous offer and it might be perfectly well meaning but unless and until a solid rapport ha been established it s just not a wise idea here are some point to consider before you offer or accept an invitation to communicate privately by posting supportive reply publicly you ll help more people than just the op if your response are of good quality you ll educate and inspire other helper the 9 90 rule http en wikipedia org wiki rule internet culture applies here a much a it doe anywhere else on the internet people who are struggling with serious mental health issue often justifiably have a low tolerance for disappointment and a high level of ever changing emotional need unless the helper is able to make a 00 commitment to be there for them in every way for a long a necessary offering a personal inbox a a resource is likely to do more harm than good this is why mental health crisis line responder usually don t give their name and caller aren t allowed to request specific responder it s much healthier and safer for the caller to develop a relationship with the agency a a whole analogously it s much safer and healthier for our ops to develop a relationship with the community a a whole even trained responder are generally not allowed to work high intensity situation alone it s partly about availability but it s mostly about wider perspective and preventing compassion fatigue if a helper get in over their head with someone whose mental health issue including suicidality which is often comorbid with depression escalate in a pm conversation it s much harder for others including the r depression and r suicidewatch moderator to help contrary to common assumption moderator can t see or police pm in our observation over many year the people who say pm me the most are consistently the one with the least understanding of mental health issue and mental health support we all have gap in our knowledge and in our ability to communicate effectively community input mitigates these limitation there s no reason why someone who s truly here to help would want to hide their response from community scrutiny if helper are concerned about their own privacy keep in mind that self disclosure when used supportively is more about the feeling than the detail and that we have no problem here with the use of alt throwaway account and have no restriction on account age or karma we all know the internet is used by some people to exploit or abuse others these people do want to hide their deceptive and manipulative response from everyone except their victim there are many of them who specifically target those who are vulnerable because of mental health issue if a helper invite an op to talk privately and give them a good supportive experience they ve primed that person to be more vulnerable to abuser this sort of cognitive priming tends to be particularly effective when someone s in a state of mental health crisis when people rely more on heuristic than critical reasoning if ops want to talk privately posting on a wide open anonymous forum like reddit might not be the best option although we don t recommend it we do allow ops to request private contact when asking for support if you want to do this please keep your expectation realistic and to have a careful look at the history of anyone who offer to pm before opening up to them,1 "@robotjohnny Really? 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I'm sure "what to paint" will be easy for you!",0 "Woke up too damn early, but will have time to get a nice shower and pick appropriate clothes for getting to worklies ",0 life questions life moving hella fast anyone else quarantine recent high school graduate like feel like im missing life experiences,0 behold latest creation octopussy its full formhttpimgurcomaezcueh,0 get many im gonna steal youre banana responses posts mean dont know expected named account still kinda annoying,0 honest question whats horny posting title says,0 swear god family start knocking im going start locking door family people usually knock bothers lot one knocks im room one knocks im bathroom which okay guess privacy respected general sister conditioned always knock pretty pissed didnt somehow parents care comes knocking my door like smoke weed i smoke all possibly crappy example i want some privacy changing minutes ago late evening here mum comes wandering taking clothes might imagine nice situation came minutes later still without knocking told reason id really appreciate family knocking door first may uncomfortable her unpleasant situation me eh no im going knock ill just cue many filler words finish sentence see anything anyways walked girls locker room told eh see anything would keep trouble however start locking door handle going turn without knocking may add followed knocking parent outside asking lock door its like drugs there father dearest start locking door talk id prefer to imagination would come with uhm stuff something entirely different im really annoyed want rectify actions every day start locking door,0 struggling years depression suicidal thoughts always thought keeping work best thing i would sleeping entire day working no big mistakeit th week sick leave mess feeling day day cannot imagine difference feel connected myself even smiling feel useful again even shit entire day needed sleep take nap waking up needed think annoying coworkers needed go bike ride pm wednesday needed days front tv eating crap watching stupid shows nothing neededpeople go work every day feeling like shit crying work hours talk whoever supports discuss taking time off responsible it take advantage it office job course makes easier boss read much bottom sub wanted give bit light better timesi sure feel like forever always ups downs mental health learned important lessons myself everything help get depressive episode future welcome burn depression,1 dont know anymoreim broke actually debt point holding lies im fucked actually like im seriously fucked dont know fuck im going do next paycheque gonna pay debt hopefully pay car bills too late july early august need somehow come fucking thousand pay insurance fuck man like fuck me dont know fuck im going it parents dont even know ive failed fucking uni working developing courage tell them im fucking lost fuck here ,1 Florida in 2 days! how excitingg! stil got lotss too doo!!!! although jeremy kyle comes first! hahaa. cant waittt to see my sexy! x,0 NICE are looking for lay members to join the Depression in Children Guideline Update Committee - https://www.nice.org.uk/get-involved/our-committees/join-a-committee/lay-member-depression-in-children-guideline-update-committee …,1 yooo whos wants talk especially ur south america yeah ya boy wanna speak people ur south america dont matter still pm,0 love korean films ability really quiet eerily really capture real life tend watch korean movies reason alone ive seen directors movies before one comes closest feelings got oasis another awesome film called charming girlbr br however title summary supposed chrstian perspective ill start instead showering praisebr br for non christian perspective director changdong lee captured unbiased almost eerily real portrayal modern protestant church regardless denomination warts all ive always waiting christian film truly portrays darker recesses church life christian films tend speak language different want share faith to many films religious undertones though good motives tend resonance disney film school special need show life is real people curse real people lust real people fall though christians believe salvation available seek it still challenged everyday horrors life doyeon jeons character totally honest almost brutal portrayal woman found god lifes bitter realities loses love had deny god exists refuses accept live idea loving forgiving godbr br in decent edges morality madness character asks questions mind every one religious notbr br if god love allow terrible things happen film answer that rightly so believe last minutes film though open interpretation leaves us hopeful future main character brings idea secret sunshine full circlebr br i believe second film tried religious way tried set that lies reason worked even more real honest that far best summation real christian life seen film,0 "1. Kaskade - 4am (adam k & soha remix), 2. Dakota - Johnny The Fox, 3. Mr.Pit vs. A&B - Shana Can't Sleep. 3 Tracks I dropped at Motion. ",0 im going ask again anyone want play super smash brothers ultimate switch dm you,0 im failure aspectsi feel like born fail miserable mother abusive peacemaker stupid dysfunctional family always corner silent trying exist failure socially know talk people isolate lot life fear top stopped religious keep closet parents knew nice anyone wish could die want kill cant it even here,1 know anymore going therapy years feel like nothing working taken meds past couple days wish could happy without taking pills feel happy so going town two weeks tell love way love me young already fucked up brother fucking died last year due choking game even fucking suicidal perfectly healthy brother kill cannot fucking pathetic care anything anymore giving everything up staying bed day get guys kms get summer job school starts productive shit want fucking exist anymore tired crying numb want end happiness short lived wish could walk room immediately see possible ways could kms want normal like kid worry bring show telli feel bad younger self sorry grew monstrosity innocentam even real anymore cannot decide completely give try hardest,1 think people used saying want drug deathhe said many times annoying were used it drug death,1 paini young everyday same wake terrible headache going doctors years really long remember gotten point want live anymore really lot medication right now helped days hide it think fake it going kill myself want live thing keeping alive family myself feel better letting out think know me bring up deny it stupid posting this want get trouble,1 know anymoreim year old male depression mom gone insane kicking year wanna end all mom talk want something go work friend said started yelling because woke morning weve talked days last night texted saying new rules u get silence remainder year come tell heck ur mean everyone house u steal me u sunday morning texted saying actually forgot sunday four years mind ur willing change ur mind set today april th completely done trying parent you u seem things figured out good luck life u may stay ur teen ur responsibility mine cause truth tried fighting never changing u time life need sister sister sure hope turn like urself u wish remain year following ur th birthday it providing month ur special diet longer need want ur help tried keep fighting you health vital twinsgood luck im shaking im contemplating redflag,1 sixth and last movie boxset well looks like ive saved best one last ghoulies iv originally review back like february decided new one ghoulies series pretty awesome know people like them thats fine happens favorite one series yeah know actual ghoulies appear replaced guys costumes one tony cox bad santa now onto moviebr br the movie centers around jonathan graves main character first movie played again peter liapis cop lapd put past occult behind him first part movie encounter alexandra played hot stacie randall communicating demon beyond named faust dark side jonathan faust asks alexandra red jewel something goes awry therefore unleashing ghoulies beyondbr br i think jim wynorski good job directing music chuck cirino funny well spoiler ahead end movie ghoulies say ghoulies iv part ghoulies v still hope sequel gets made especially hope jim wynorski returns direct agree gimbotheghoulies that,0 cant post images rteenagers hey all wanted share achievement made sub cant upload image first post know pls help,0 "@hannahmz @addyx21 Thanks guys, Love ya ",0 @ptvjaime Happy Birthday Hi-Me ,0 He thought about me. <3 that's the part that makes me feel like he still cares and that I'm still on his,0 failing redflag years sure would work tonight body keeps failing meive depression since motorbike crash sustained severe brain injury permanent brain damage frontal lobe syndrome struggle much stuff filter anymore stupid things one tell brain injury im still communicative feel like complete different person acts impulsively ptsd insomnia mixed anxiety disorder depression classed chronic insurer refusing treat me one understands feel face everything apparently appear absolutely fine never talk people brain past mentioned something people disregarded said im fine mood swings severe go high extreme low try i think first usually always act kill myself kid know much redflag overdosed times pills so naive ended hospital watch crash brain changed depressed long time tried take life several times downed v large bottle oramorph online drank times fatal dose again incredibly stupid decided bottle instead sporadically drinking it course body puked straight away left much alive vision almost completely gone several hours closest point ever got to tried hang banister stairs low suspended drop pretty painless lost consciousness body thrashed leg reached back edge step right tried tonight noose hanging loft steps suspended hang hurting time body begins jolt pull up cant lose consciousness seconds like says online also hurts lot time sure do want end body wont let,1 hurts friends someone basically everything wish basically everything wish had like life decides cruel dangle dream front knowing matter never able obtain easily born sheer luck eats inside makes feel like somehow worst enemy friend adore stillit hard dependent ways emotionally feels like something ever happen like anymore part dies sometimes feels like without life worth living like dependency understandable also know move lives find someone value me even want love wish someone put othersi tired mentally ill makes wish feel anything even know normal is raised normal raised broken depressed anxious mess envy complicated emotions,1 Teenagers who get poor sleep are at increased risk of depression https://ift.tt/2qZmR37 ,1 itll eventually get bettereveryone says yeah might take forever itll get better eventually yeah might take years itll good grateful sit think amount suffering worth might come after thats question think person experiencing answer people cant none can say life ok years explain agree me say somehow worth suffer long isnt scale put years absolute suicidal misery one side average existence tips side misery suffering really worth might come after even best case scenario maybe id depressed long even matter again cant decide,1 sure say sure people dealing way am many suicidal thoughts past month best friend moved another province really lot friends confide in friends confide want bother them hysterical want anymore feel like life anymore go counseling take meds i bad consistent seems like vain tried cut carotid artery past friday box cutter blade stupid dull stoped i definitely hysterical day tired all extremely lonely,1 fun fact day two roughly character bmovie script,0 guitarists there ive fallen love fender newporter malibu decent guitars,0 production quite surprise me absolutely love obscure early s movies prepared last minutes story if chance convinced first half hang finale course must look blatant racism purely topical fascinating viewing experience think cats paw available videodvd yet watch pbs listings,0 "@anjelahjohnson Tried to buy tickets for May 5th in Brea, but StubHub bought them all and charging over 3x the price. My friend is a social worker and said she was battling depression and I really wanted to bring her to laugh together, but on our salaries, can't do it. pic.twitter.com/RCxOC5g0kX",1 this response from support is blatantly untrue fake account are shut down all the time and it contradicts their own term too,0 know do worst relationship imagine goal happy worked way feel unwanted feel lost feel alone feel confused feel scared know say anyone know fucking sad mi genuinely feel lost,1 call mr submissive because go whatever everyone else says make desicions,0 since growing czechoslovakia following history raf pilots crews wwii great britain stories tragic ending either combat communist prisons camps without doubt dark chapter history although fact brave men were able go recover afterward amazing people want see great moviethis one recent visit czech republic saw movie three times three days they were playing three daysotherwise go see even times worth it hope enjoy it although requires little thinking knowledge background information behind story pretty much way movie kolya was simple movie deep story way told likely make cryingit three times row zdenek sverak always great script son jan made great movie cast without doubt great job amazed ondrej vetchy great role played oldrich kaiser actors made movie simply great oscar nomination think strike holywood,0 yesterday watched movie third time recommended fried several weeks ago never watched even noticed before falls so typically category swedish movie rose like me hollywood productions tend sceptical foreign movies hell paradigm shift film touches me keeps hope mankind change better way swedish village pattern areas earth people live together controlled religion misunderstandings lack courage predictions disguised brutality also ability fun meet sing takes trigger outside rip masks everyone who keeps one let feel human beings desire live lives never stop see stories like this because keeps hope described above five minutes containing story gabriellas song including performance one moviehighlights ever thank kay pollak minutes made happy,0 cry easily movies admit one brought tears although ms streep fan performance excellent title defines sentence mothers love is first hour like characters changed movie went on movie also explained certain marriages last even though obstacles must see film,0 throwaway account partner follows main account might compromised too reasons explain sooni currently living immigrant eu country i hail another continent since years fianci health issues mental physical prevent working since years ago credflag clinical depression burnout chronic pain due severe injuries received really speak language well partly took year become fluent covid happened went months without seeing human cashiers market partner lost lot proficiencyi saying bad person isolating me best take care me just lost much freedom here unhappy one really takes need help seriouslyi contact family anymore one parents dangerous controlling abused since childhood like abusers parent projects great public persona divided rest family either support side me family cut contact prevent drama parent person tried stalk threaten speak abuse point finding people worked years ago using messengersas might guess became overprotective privacy functionally much social media presence anymore take pictures even talk former friends much also friends eitheri know parent stalked found social media accounts tried find addresses move another place no idea manage even found landlord info twice years despite another country imagine bad person moved continents get away themi trying get therapy here partner thinks unnecessary unneeded expense cannot get treatment chronic pain reasons cannot even speak pain killers without treated like addict housei probably fucked coming probably never done anyone friends family anyone help me place call home return to feel alone trapped isolated miss human contact much remember last time spoke another human cashier wish could escape to nowherei keep hearing voice head telling kill hurt anymore able rest might even lonelier might better pain free so longi afraid messing know face retaliation things just somehow worse everyday prison see kitchen knives wish could slice dice oblivion escape thisi france going suggest local hotlines not already tried back guy told this beyond level hung me intrusive dark thoughts isolated country nowhere return,1 there s this idea that people will say you can always count on me never bottle up your feeling share and you do that and everything will be alright the truth is that people will lose their respect for you they ll think of you a a problem and will just feel obligated of half assing some help not worth it i ll just suffer in silence ok,1 finally watched gotham knights gameplay trailer im fine batman im fine batfamily game im fine levels,0 we re here to help we are online therapy platform which essentially connects certified psychologist and people suffering from mental health issue such a depression stress and anxiety among dozen of other clinically defined disorder book your appointment now http t co e stifhjtx,1 a the title say i can t be bothered with life anymore it taking me so long to even go to a bridge and jump off i just wan na die already got no friend family dont give a crap amp i always get left behind when it come to meeting people so why not end it all and be done with this pain,1 "OVERCOMING DEPRESSION - RC BLAKES,JR. https://youtu.be/mvqd4WKJI6I  via @YouTube",1 is awake at a sensible time and is doing alot of coursework bohoo,0 oh jey look user flairits user flair change day happy flair change day happy flair change day happy flair change day dear pronoobie happy flair change day singing aghhh im lonely ahhhhgh,0 @NKAirplay good night its been a blast thanks again have a good nights rest ,0 heartbroken over little sandra prayer are with the family,0 im readyi noose roomi spend last weekend mum goes back work monday im going hang myself sick fa one sick told internet cliches try reach help never fucking work im normal person crippled social anxiety depression life isnt worth living me longer live longer lonely hate good enough anybody im excited finally peace,1 fucked dudei fucked badly want life over past haunts catches me fucked relationships friendships school everything feel like ive said wont stop saying true feel like good time end general time period im school social interaction one find one gives fuck seems fucks sake,1 fuck it s just perfect torture god i could not make it any better myself honestly i give credit to those torturing me y all made me just perfectly susceptible for this shit in my hell odd why a god make a person a he device their hell why make them in the first place and why make them do what you would punish them for this post like everything will not help but if get the stuff off my mind,1 sometimes wish gay catholic school want miserable find solace forbidden lover much ask,0 i know this is weird to ask but anyone got any alternative to cutting i m too scared to punch a wall not scared enough to not cut somehow and i can t cut without getting caught due to helicopter parent they have caught me cutting so my mother doe body check regularly again i know it s weird to ask but any suggestion are appreciated,1 switched ssris feel better like feel stable however although feel better like brain never switch off anxious like developed adhd feel like always need something constantly find near impossible sit lie watch video movie etc say it distract feeling crap like want able relax enjoy things help depression hyperactivityadhd,1 breakdown gymi working usual started jump rope mile sprint treadmill started working leg day stuff lately theres girl goes gym looks exactly like ex exact body type faces almost indistinguishable tried notice let bother me turned music finishing workout started flashbacks deployment vivid images things flashed brain like one old time movie reals slide different picture pictures buddies killed ied explosions legsarms torn off kids screaming villagers crying marines dying started thinking late nights ex would hold breakdowns shared deepest pains secrets begged information it promised would never leave me gone leave legs collapsed held onto squat rack legs stopped shaking enough grab things headed straight door breathing heavy felt like going vomit threw stuff car got drivers seat gripped steering wheel hard could screamed top lungs felt like minute broke crying im here telling guys miss tell everything going okay tell im good person go home room sleep sleeps someone else hate this,1 Depression isn't even real dude lit up lmao,1 i feel like a complete idiot i m the only one who doesn t get how this shit work help me,0 like body hair feels barbaric like shaved ,0 smh bad thoughts probably going delete lmao also dont read venting thoughts wont seeing replying comments post dont read especially someone ik read friendship likely ruined fucking dont aaah fucking hell hate bad thoughts background people hurt shit also humiliated ways worst one guys ganged andi tried hit sticks cause sick bs grabbed shoved ground punching times tried make say sorry didnt ofc shoved even more schoolyard front everyone afterwards said sorry like wtf still fucking doesnt mean shit anyways end background cause shit like ive thoughts torturing people killing people anger gouging peoples eyes spoon stabbing people musltiple times even theyre dead tearing fingernails etc obviously would never that worst id probably ever assholes ever take far id hit hard nearest thing could hit with fucking hate thoughts feel fucking guilty ive tried many things ignoring them punishing physically bashing head wall burning myself punishing mentally imagining things myself ive got bad habit imagining yay issues fucking annoying wish itd go away wish end shit well cause also weird fucking illusions people read mind shit ik real cant shake away ever think anything remotly sexual thoughts immediately try block cause reason think people tell even though ik cant try block copmes strong fucking strange anyway yeah read fuck reading it yet idc dont think putting stupid shit like need help your fucked up cause yet again wont read it youre friend might well block me told read,0 monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor 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would make real easy dead another generic rant,1 saw film years ago promptly bought soundtrack simply excellent bacharachs music endearing given recognition richly deserves cinematography awesome critics hated it hated home alone too found video welcome anyone find copy,0 mtee w deolfc mizzzidc if the lack of respect for some sth serious like abuse then yes but not angry your mother wore your sneaker your sibling don t borrow y alls shoe amp necklace without asking first just to start posting on twitter amp cry depression if sb forgets this one s charger nkor,1 watching a cheerleading competition on ESPN2. happy days ,0 im failing every one online classes expected year fun got concurrent classes means im taking college psychology english composition trigonometry calculus schedule looked great school started school started work pileup immediately started classes assignments day each physically cant this understand anyone expected this im wrong though principal told parents people adjusted theres excuse me also understand despite constant work go lessons insanely fast teach acceleration physics test understand calculus trig assignments slowly infact even know lesson were either math classes now feels like losing battle matter what history assignment waste time since im physics assignment due couple hours math huge waste time since knewton take hours single lesson whats even worse sheer amount assignments many s recover even everything perfectly ive recovered awful grades hole deep school councilor messages every days telling im fucked im close telling im gonna kill amount work,0 getting ready for work 0,0 Cleaning ...ugh.. In a sombrero? Now thats excitment right there ,0 "Last night made me well happy. Drinking in the meadows, in the sunshine. ",0 ending life end never ending pain problemswhats point surviving one bothers existence people say live yourselfit gets better time doesnt ive literally one call ownno friendsno relativesno relationship parents hate ready get rid anyhowjust consider burden single person age nothing more growing dysfunctional toxic family lead many trust commitment issuesscared attachment want get married relationship want someone neither het anyone wholl bear mood swingsmy depressionmy complete lack emotional control keep pushing people away scared theyll hurt leave megot rejection abandonment issues several times find searching sure ways ending life what survive everyone hate more everyone hates without reasonno one understands memy socalled family friends ashamed people call psycho attention seekerbut survive somehow physically challenged itll less nightmare like anyone bothered diei friend whos always remembered need something never called outingwhos always left behind walking conversation childhood experience hatredbitterness getting beaten home along getting bullied school college severely damaged mental health hate talking anyone scared theyll use me scared relationship one tolerate hot cold behavior plus people days want physical needs scared get leftover sanity heart brokenmy sibling hates mejust wants push house prove loser wrong one front parents beaten much childhood still care beautiful onemy relatives cousins hate usseen fathersibling heard grandfather cheating spouse hate marriage relationships more childhood two house staffs used molest me years oldone cousin lesssometimes feel may somehow responsible it hate people touch me school used badly bullied humiliated never anyone help understand even bit mother sometimes getting manic tried kill me sometimes crave affection push people away im fucking scared one ever hugged mei want hug someone see feels never played teddy bears childhoodjust want get one myself never anything person age does always tried good girl trying appease parents always helping others even hurt me thought ill anyonenever intentionally hurted anyonenever demanded anything myselfalways listen others want moneyriches anythingjust small happy family protective sibling selfish one leave sister front wolves fend herselfwant caring partner wholl understandlove care respect mewith respect comes loyaltysome love never got life even everything till love parents codependencyobsessive helicopter parenting ruined badlythey aged know survive alone big bad world cant marry want want liability anyone want live independently terms think thats good true years struggling im tiredguess problems never ending im high manic mode sharing much publicly regret im normalguess ending end problemssorry long rant,1 @chronic_hopeful Spent the last two days at 2% and couldn't sleep. I think I would have lost my mind without the internet. The boredom/frustration/depression of stsring at the ceiling thinking of all the things I should be doing...,1 single sad hello wondering site sub reddit people like me even single people place discord talk people ,0 dont know im trying writing this maybe vent get advice dont really know go abusive relationship years everything great first bad boy saw much did loved everything always him,1 every single day i just wake up miserable and an insane urgency to immediately end myself everything is just empty now nothing really get me excited and i don t even have anyone to talk to cuz most of my friend are just not that close my family is much worse a nobody ever care about each other i have a father but i don t have any father figure cuz he wa and is never there for me ever i can t even share anything to anyone cuz everyone just tell me that it s normal for people my age to experience the thing i am going through i just absolutely hate my life and everything i literally have no will to live i even sometimes subtly and unintentionally put myself at dangerous situation to like somehow get myself killed even though everyone just say it s normal to experience these at my age i don t see anyone my age talk or even behave the way i do i also hate the fact that i am self aware of every way i am behaving but still can t seem to help myself fix those thing i really really really hope everyone is living better life than me,1 "@besz Well, good luck then. ",0 im borrreeeeed dm something funny spooky based smecksy,0 r movies today hard find something take whole family see kids loved it good clean fun would highly recommend anyone wants take whole family nice evening movies,0 genres outdated sort music depressing andhiwy much reminds much world sucks,0 i seriously don t get how people just live their every day life without completely falling apart and i don t get how people are just happy with their life i m in college right now and i m failing class have no friend and zero motivation to do anything about it i really just don t see the point in putting myself through hell for a degree so i can get a job i don t want and coming home from that job to absolutely no one i really don t think anyone could ever love me so if i ll hate my job have no friend and no romantic partner what s the point there s nothing in my life worth working towards and i m ready to give up on everything i just can t do this anymore and i don t know what s left to do other than kill myself,1 Man with a great sense of humour... Venky Pachad? ,0 fuck star signs date someone favourite element acceptable like thorium plutonium theyre good based marry right now like uranium thats red flag leave relationship immediately,0 think tried killing first time todayive very rough year chronic illnesses ive suffering from recently got worse lets say depressing lonely life anyones standards past months ive thinking redflag almost daily basis never courage actually anything it today ive terrible mood since woke up decided tie belt around neck tight enough feel substantial pain hard breathe afraid id pass out removed belt felt slight rush minutes afterwards really want again fully understand why strangely also feel little towards particular incident time feel empty anyways may extension that also kind want tell dad somewhat close knows depression know bad particularly care gets upset it please talk someone over pm happened,1 choke ropeits lonely here loves theres girls want whole ass world thats never happening though never will lonely friends bail me life getting shittier yet nobody fucking cares irl anxiety without meds everything fucking else better choke fucking rope lol,1 taking life breakup happened yeti friends guy two years started dating october good me understanding related many levels problems emotionally always affectionate seemed genuinely want around gave reason want live happy excited wake day could talk planned vacation together months talked hes whisk away northern maine would adopt cats togsther made remember eat healthy lost weight fixed teeth make better him past months hes down talk anymore often hes curt me never before plays game day literally twelve hours messages maybe paused worry death ive patient supportive nothing seems help last night tried tell id loved him snapped me hes never snapped before took surprise sorry mood gushing told hurt wanted help flips gets selfdeprecating stop swearing telling stressed is returned love disappeared rest night morning acts like nothing happened telling fucking game again ive casually asking call skype anything want hear voice hear tell okay know clicked thought im making life worse might leave ive spent months saving money could scrape together visit telling make happy heard since fucking february read old messages still acted like happy me felt way almost year got happy little while think knows inner turmoil im dealing with ive never hinted it ive tried seem positive supportive whole time lost loved one redflag years ago want feel again hell think im ghosting him one left left hard easier deal knowing made feel much dump someone love ive always loved want go chance tell feel anymore,1 roommate get along much fun like roommate sometimes announce things like im gonna make leaf juice anytime one us gonna make tea sometimes well lie floor school collectively die internally also like aircon cold thats important,0 anyone else feel like thismy childhood terrible parents addicts child bullied throughout school molested traumatic car accident mom driving high oxys died lost contact dad addiction long term notredflag abusivehow fucking hell supposed believe life ever get better literally cannot even imagine it seems like impossibility impossible imagine life ever good now never way,1 i ve been having an on and off anxiety attack since pm it s now i ve been exhausted and so tired all day but not able to sleep due to the anxiety everytime i close my eye my anxiety spike and i start freaking out even though i can barely keep my eye open i ve taken hydroxozyne in the past half hour i don t know what to do i just wan na sleep i feel like cry any advice or help,1 friend needs get help canti friend know online severely depressed serious suicidal thoughts well host problems point think knows needs immediate help told friends think able call crisis hotline social anxiety help now,1 Things I never imagined doing: researching dog anxiety and depression and nightmares at 4am,1 dont know doim exhausted want give up point even trying anymore,1 found kerzners new account u nheek please report fucking creep make leave sub permenantly,0 everyday exactly samei go work come home empty house play video games bit go bed weekends stay home time go need groceries something friends never successful relationship im getting younger amazing im still alive im grateful place live stable job life shit,1 feel somewhat calm making plan kill myselfi plan certain things bucket list killing myself ive accepted im beyond redemption beyond chance happiness friends betrayed me feel like im worst person world think theres chance make new friendships seem like good person others ive made mistakes anyone else think im beyond fixing people hurt told im worst person never change always bad person exist world want others happy means leaving world it ill start slowly cutting whatever friendships left time hopefully forget leave alone ill try achieve something noteworthy im want least one good thing leave,1 @WhiteHouse @PressSec @FoxNews watching foxnews has been linked to high rates of anxiety and depression. Has this happened to you? Save yourself!,1 cupcakesok lied another person suicidal flow events life never connected much peers family is was much fundamentalist christian took passionately faith conflicted growing realization attracted guys family moved average every year recently friend mind come mean somebody feel safe talking all grade school got good grades gifted program pretty awesome sat scores blackbelt in tang soo do hate myself mothers emotional support punching bag since father left freshman highschool made deeply fearful connecting anyone even slightest degree told since people around deeply sad father left mother finally took seriously enough let see somebody it depression meds made difficult think feel anything all started cutting soon starting meds took stopped cutting month meds started effect ever told anybody cutting feel ashamed able deal many people clearly dealing fine talked several councilors always ended thinking fine tell anything really mattered without also telling strong urge though desire end life fallen completely behind college certainly fail entire second semester getting full as first semester painfully deep way know handle knowing wake tomorrow drive school found making stupid mistakes also found difficult resist driving bridge close house every time pass it the speed limit unreasonably high back road is want make sure something super obvious missing everybody else somehow understanding would appreciative things show comments anything word wait it gets better anything somebody in metaphorical sense kind gesture honestly helpful somebody irl posting right now edit typed one go spelling grammar mistakes please tell fix them,1 cowches arent funny im tired people thinking cowch trend funny funny beautiful piece history needs respected actually laugh sight cowch disgusted cowches feelings too,0 story focuses birth defect known fas fetal alcohol syndrome disease diagnosed often among native americans spite downbeat nature drama great script characterizations move story along well arguably smits best performance,0 @Eremitpurpur That feeling is terrible. Last time i forgot my depression medication i ended up puking right after leaving the chemist. I hope your alright,1 My heads pounding. Off to bed! Bet you'll be happy with the 12 hours i'm not twittering again and again! lol nite everybody ,0 Finally decided & looking forward to my month relaxation & happy times with family & friends ,0 Holding this baby has cured my depression & cleared my skin dude,1 thanks i got back vacation find longer job due covid likely best since suffered permanent damage spine feet serving years still clue im going do get another job serving ill pain due damage also sole caretaker children sole provider husband goes school remain unhopefull ever find another job complies childrens school schedule especially since due covid school home want end all want stop pain want stop burden want stop worrying want stop fighting get mornings want everything stop,1 said yes idk tho playing subway surfers,0 tragedy tragedy cant handle more think ive limit year ive hospitalized many times ive lost count want quit want quit hell is form torture corner hell claim form hell purgatory maybe release would put better place thats everyone claims someone passes away all want peace im going go much detail would easy identify me suffice say issues since around years old go job job never really able maintain normal human required society function son dies months take it definition fathers job there responsibly take action protect family sole job life whether protection comes form keeping nightmares away story telling getting job provide failed ultimate test life fool i could allow happen son hope care turn imagine dead corpse stuck mind something positive tell dead infant turned positive tell positive,1 and i feel nothing nothing at all i almost flunked out of college twice and here i am with straight a s last quarter and i m slated for a similar gpa this quarter and yet i don t feel a thing about it everyone is telling me how proud i should be i went from a high school slacker to the one looking into med school to the family fuck up and now the one doing ok all within a few year fuck i should be proud and yet i literally do not give a shit all i feel is apathy i m just so fucking tired i feel like i m just going through the motion not sure what i m looking for with this post i just had to tell someone that i lack the capacity to care my parent and partner were so happy when i told them the grade i don t have the heart to tell them i don t really feel anything about it doe anyone else just not care about achievement anymore it d feel nice to know i m not the only one,1 "still waiting for 30 followers, any helpers out there? please ",0 might kill tonight d rapist boyfriend leaving rn,1 contagious redflagtwo weeks ago little cousin brought gun school shot killed high school auditorium history self harm boyfriend recently dumped guess set edge happened florida recently surfaced two parkland survivors killed recently ive always thought redflag back head always prideful ever get help im afraid getting locked away psych asylum tranquilized mood elevators life sucks everyones day im understanding real world works get away literally anything enough money innocent people suffering hands wealthy every single day nothing done it doubt society ever see change lifetime im slowly giving up whats point suffering gonna get better envy late cousin parkland survivors,1 @LaurenConrad You should see June in Ireland! The weather is crazy ,0 mmmmmmmmmm plastic mmmmmm nomnomnomnomnomnomnomnom burp nom nom nom nom nom nom nom nom ampxb schlorp schlorp schlrop nomnomnomnomnom,0 = ok my dear friends! have a good night!.. i'm so tired todaY! .. so By3 ,0 helpit time since posted something app need get chest bf toxic cant get away him hes aggressive manipulative hes always pissed makes feel terrible almost lost friends him tells leave them forces leave them want live like thishe told hed kill cheated him never never would im afraid leaving it would hurt me want diei dealing depression gets worse everyday know love manipulative disgusting asshole,1 know joker cards batman card perfect duo joker get batman mystery pissing off,0 argh there go my plan for friday,0 @joshgoldenmusic Im so excited for your album! ,0 ever look instantly think yeah look like girl look mirror realise sad reality,0 think im readyi guess ill start drinking deal pain aspect much shorter would thought less poetic too,1 sometimes wonder many sub members still alive idk many going one dead member soon something change fucked life,1 next weekendi house next weekend ive never felt empty before even im laying bed someone care keep thinking it much easier would be life shambles nothing ive done past two years helped ive pushed everyone away let toxic feelings people in tired dont want fake im okay im okay,1 i can t keep running from how empty i feel how everything feel so forced and fake i m and the social problem began from a very young age the familial problem also i guess i learned from a very young age to brush thing under the rug and bury all of my emotion to the point where i ve been detached from myself for probably year now i ve been to therapy different time and am likely starting again soon but to be honest i don t think it s going to go anywhere until i can be honest with myself but i literally don t know how it s like there s this pit of intense pain that s constantly buried deep within my chest that i suppose will either give me answer or kill me from shame all i know is socializing is completely traumatizing to me school a well i don t know if anybody can relate but i just don t know how to figure myself out or if it s just all in my head i must sound so crazy to anybody reading this but please if you have any question it might really help me to be able to answer them anonymously and unpack stuff i m committed to understanding why everybody treat me like i m some freak i know i m not completely hideous but beyond that i don t think i know what s going on there s like this deep disconnect between how i act even by myself and who i am internally i believe i don t know if any of this make sense but please ask about my childhood or whatever i got ta understand even if it kill me,1 thank you all for the #FF mentions. You are all awesome. ,0 "Sleeping next to someone you love not only reduces depression, but it also helps you to live longer and makes you fall asleep faster.",1 I have started using Itunes thanks to WATE and James lol,0 kinda feels good stand thinking nothing staring cute tree feeling heart lungs work meditating ,0 nhsuk the issue with this a a formerly obese person is the jolly fat folk persona i wasn t amp all those i know amp help are not happy being fat it is a myth put out by the food industry suggesting we are happy being metabolically unhealthy the depression caused is astronomical,1 depression kicken mich in bett,1 saw film rotterdam international film festival seemed one less popular films festival however turned out interestingbr br the story actor trying come grips environment withdrawing drug addiction based actual facts moreover characters playing film real people living experience again time film partly set stage play happen good actors jia hongshengs parents actors real life well methods used highlighting relationship towards jia effectivebr br jia hongsheng actor chinese action films late eighties start nineties later see great films frozen suzhou river two career paths jia becomes drug addict looses drive act even anything productive except making somewhat futile attempts becoming guitar virtuosobr br i like way writer scenario choose emphasize behavior withdrawal horror drugs really feel pain struggle jia in time hate way treats around himbr br the film draws viewer tiring pattern jia seems caught in dragging parents sister try take care him personal interviews characters feel like getting know jia others wellbr br the film heavy feel scenes jia cycling bejing partying friends lighten tone bitter humor lot events throughout film music beautiful stayed after film might easily appeal many people interested serious modern chinese film strong recommendation,0 younger use think eating ice cream waffle cone way eat it,0 spending another christmas thinking thing every dayanother night spend hours trying fall asleep cant ive depression many many years killed yet family try fall asleep time usually cant unless im totally exhausted write thoughts cant fall asleep usually ends paragraph hate life kill myself know go make things better want bother family shit anymore know happy ive years therapy jack shit im antidepressants still wanna kill myself ive heard everything book people said feeling better still feel like trash makes posting seem pointless hey im still hanging thread something tried yet hell not want live life learn work boring cycle realizing makes wish born im already sick it,1 helpi messaged before tried look positive things life let get dragged hurt constantly feel wife cheated me spent savings move out leaving rented home wife dog desperately miss doctor months medication see counsellor weekly also psychiatrist able work since christmas cant handle emotionally pretty much said job anymore living brothers house enough money get divorce done thats it close friends best cant around suicidal year now try hard tell things get better friends find hard understand feel even though emailed explained fell alone lost everything worked for cry constantly really want go anymore know would end life think it makes feel much relaxed point even want try find way out want die thing stopping right now sister would gone know feeling cant keep putting feelings mine want selfish want instead putting people first wrong want go life pain someone else wants one person tells it get better swear scream wrong putting first,1 ok i m sick and spent an hour sitting in the shower cause i wa too sick to stand and held back the puke like a champ bed now,0 redflag desireable change mindgive good argument commit redflag following conditions selfish enough ignore pain family membersfriends whatever close person sick tired life dont believe religion,1 tell good enough hereim going run facts otherwise would entirely long ive chronically ill since age four almost twenty ive almost died twice due medical issues ive never attempted redflag institutionalized sick incurable conditions every waking moment rest life im child single mom busting ass care and great job dad care me feel like biggest burden earth beyond miserable broken sickly body body body failed return feel like failing mom people care me honestly need told im worthy living someone mom help girl out,1 How can depression hurt my ability to manage diabetes? http://dld.bz/bApHH  #diabetic,1 opinions anarchy someone tells theyre anarchist would say return,0 f struggling scaredhi im entirely sure put everything words just anyone partner years left me days ago didnt want anymore entire future planned half wedding chosen kids names etc told loved went work day stepped foot house night said anymore live together another months separate rooms least im really struggling see point anything anymore pain feel strongly physically makes sick cant eat properly cant sleep properly promotion work meaningless now time soon well time now tried talk feeling struggling hes really well hes happy now gets mad me write pro cons lists every single day end pros always win today would perfect day hes out hes drunk friends housemate him one get me one would home days pain scares me scares keep going,1 looking pc players looking people play pc right my friends manly play xbox im mainly playing destiny rainbow siege im open playing games send discord youre interested,0 @nerdonabudget This is why I have depression ,1 want start good conversation crush need tips interact crush general want keep conversation going want enjoyable us thanks advance,0 new type suicidal thoughtsfirst off might well give basic information im ive plagued thoughts since early teens ive years therapy tonnes different antidepressants antipsychotics none really seemed help much all ive learned live it even going different professionals ive still never properly diagnosed anything slight anxiety disorder like therapy though nice that since im work next month so im therapy get insurance back pills year now past used idealize redflag escape pain monotony living lately become much intriguing idea nothing necessarily wrong life fact things going pretty well hang friends much can im well college courses two possible internships lined summer go back work month previously stated lately ive hooking girl every weekend free despite still constantly live suicidal thoughts seem there theyve always had think them interesting seems actually go it honestly want thoughts stop everything perfect hate end day still wish wake next day exercise frequently eat healthily smoke cigarettes drink know thats contributing factor honestly something ive picked last year half help pass time help cope stresses juggling relationships friends family work college courses short want commit redflag escape suicidal thoughts rather escape living never experienced before know do maybe much free time now maybe itll go away little go back work highly doubt itll go away fully hours lot time try use best ability reading exercise writing netflix video games school work classes hanging people matter im still left alone thoughts im getting sick it though know happy,1 brain cancer learned doctor stage brain cancer incurable month live thing make happy getting ludicrous amounts karma idiots think im shitposting thank coming ted talk,0 whats pointim literally drifting life right now im years old im college month ive ignored homework everytime try bring mom never really allows temper usually stressed make seem approachable hate this everyday wake lay room thinking game plan thought running away avoid embarrassment parents thought much fun possible killing end year looking like best option me think fun ending feel less stressed actually get bed days time sit dark thinking smartest way kill attempted yet want make attempt redflag better fucking die know kill im going explanation everyone life girlfriend love much shes wonderful going go extreme depression kill know im going write essay apologizing her im fucked school point im going make little money keep going life therapist unlike others find rather useless ask questions need im scared talk want die time im scared change things much even know im posting maybe really want help maybe dont know see guys copy paste comments like even individualize people feeling alone know get know lot really trying help maybe help way let every person life,1 i smell depression collab here,1 The lack of this understanding is a small but significant part of what causes anxiety & depression to both feel so incredibly lonely. It's soooo easy to compare. It's so easy to invalidate ourselves because of that.,1 left mehe walked door never come back numb entire world come crashing down spent years love hes gone survive this,1 im sadi feel sad every day feel like im losing memory mind ive struggled depression severe anxiety entire life never bad good life good friends successful career deep feel misery dont like anything decided long time ago experiencing true moment happiness peace would never kill strength conviction gotten lot hard times many years lately feel like im surrounded shadow dont know do dont want die im sick enduring pain sadness constant worrying know im selfsabotaging cant stop it feels like im runaway train dont even know im writing im looking for guess writing thoughts cathartic way anyone else feel like feel feel like past get it,1 @djwj awwwwww realllyy??? *blushin* ,0 hey um so wanna smooch,0 @fiascowines let me guess. You devoured your duck with Fiasco Pinot! ,0 wish people family owned cats dogs like cousins million nd amp rd cousins like aunts uncles none pets like how nearly classmates least family member pet im one family genuinely loves animals understand cousins living situation unable pets rich cousins,0 fuck bot dont wanna write novel every time write post especially text says your text post optional notice anything says optional,0 padre told room spotless tomorrow week tell clean room sprung day im pmsing cramping bad barely stand up literally told like hours im supposed go moms house plus sleep point told like minutes ago clean am hes going go room throw shit out game him,0 ex gf currently hospital redflag attempt im trouble knowing dobackstory here httpredditiyi updated information admitted hospital actual room now may days little info forgot include post usually lives min away me depending traffic actually visiting past weekend internship hours away parents live hope sound selfish right seem trouble figuring i supposed doing wants come visit her feel bad since one else here know finally calling parents they live together tonight talked her im sure theyre coming anything first all im sure good thing point id think go thinking im great guy love with thinking called already said today wished come myself taken er would voluntarily told maybe good thing keeping there craigslist post incredibly fucked up reading notes sorry rambling guess advice is her myself desire get back together her im pretty sure still does another reason im sure seeing good not promise would bring stuff apartment going see least one time unless theres unexpected twist,1 could introduce one law would why title says all would change reason,0 born waywhy trans feelings family never accept live transphobic country difficulty imagining body ever looking like girl gets worse every day want exist anymore,1 11 Symptoms of Depression in Men and How They Differ from Those in Women https://ift.tt/2HuMCSY  via http://www.learning-mind.com ,1 beeeaaach,0 anyone needs trans buddy im need someone talk experiences vent im ,0 "@ZeenaBoBeena eeeek!!!! Good luck, Zeena!!! You'll rock itttt. JB inspirational lyric: don'ttt forgetttt toooo takeeee a breathhhhh! ",0 redflag logicali told dad feeling tells get thats life hes trying way though anyone thought redflag logical way out example dont want husband dont want kids dont friends family like fucked up degree useless im currently unemployed ive felt empty entire life sometimes wonder addition mental disorders also psychopathic tendencies kill myself ive known brief moments happiness wont come again ive incredible experiences ive known few moments true friendship love now doubt makes sense head except disappointing dad worth staying alive him really cant see dont want future myself ahead life pain indifference,1 getting worsei finally got help many years struggle went doctor psychologist diagnosed severe depression anxiety also meds feel nothing getting better ive started lying cant get bed morning make excuses cant make event im committed to point ive lied workplace closest friends family every possible group responsibility to even habit before do know why getting worse much trouble getting bed morning problem before think meds ive month now suicidal thoughts popping now know want live know how also want die know how know nothing im empty,1 always soft spot disney flick another part live actionpart animation entries sought recreate success mary poppins never quite made it grade school every would movie day whole school would crowd cafeteria movie would projected oldfashioned way multiple reels all time seemed like momentous occasion whenever day arrived bedknobs broomsticks one movies remember seeing waybr br and remember quite charming angela lansbury never put name anything least competent winning witch magic bed boy could misconstrued it take couple young kids magic adventures faroff places come on kid want bed like that br br grade,0 @brookefraser and they definitely have smells hahahaha,0 gooood mooorning world i had a dream last night i fucked my knee again def need to kick start my strengthening ready for bournemouth s,0 turn gay sexual desperation experience id say yes makes sense everyone jail turns gay,0 dont believe gets better dont read youre feeling fragileive read lot years ethics happiness philosophy religion self help much stomach psychology every psychology book lecture try makes stomach turn knots dont believe treatments dont believe consciously lying just think positive taking drugs every day help think clearly feels like cult stuff makes skin crawl ive therapy years different therapists feel worse started said wasnt qualified deal specific issues took maternity leave chose stop seeing said since mood low however many weeks row wouldve suggested switch anyway next week see one way out feel hopelessly insane ugly like ill never anything another horrible person world miserably toiling away paycheck paycheck dead end job ignoring horrible life seems worse struggling change till kill myself feel meds keep step two redflag decades till get alzheimers something you skip next paragraph want heres rant free will therapists seemed try convince gods existence god thing anxious admit justice afterlife convince of also tried convince free id believe existentialism seems obvious doesnt exist free want cant chose want want something free mention fact mental illness intellectual disabilities dreams drug use attest fact biochemical puppets think different person alzhiemers high lsd acts way react something exactly body upbringingenvironment would act free existed psychology psychiatry neuroscience exist many conversations like therapist eventually said recently saw new study saying free doesnt exist im smart good changed way talk free class i doubt changed full grown college professors mind free basic arguments hes likely heard before also saw new study saying people continue tell theyll unhappy be struck suspicious found two new studies week suddenly admits free doesnt exist also seemed concede god doesnt exist either he might believe god either way dont believe shifted opinion many years mustve spent studying profession based idea factors beyond control shape behavior reason brought shows lying truth horrible hes also said lots little lies ive called usually seemed make nervous feel fundamentally broken important ways like things hurt literally course life lot ways fantasize bad things happening longing time dread often see graphic visions grizzly death close eyes trying sleep seems ridiculous suggest someone misery closely entwined psyche happy getting help feels like carrot treadmill just keep trying youll happy one day dont believe biological children todays world dont believe im cut relationships relationships domination elements makes feel horrible break off ive decided die alone im looking answers half life spent obsessively trying find way happy denial reality,1 eatin' ice creamm ,0 @beriberikix You can actually run Umbraco from a USB stick using VistaDB and Cassini web server ,0 age flair change day goodbye age flair hello age flair ,0 @klovesNkotb ohhh ok i was just wonder lol wasn't sure who was going ,0 tpaw wooo yeah sorry to hear you missed out on origin ticket,0 think tomorrow night nightunless actual miracle happens think end this asked help make life better like weeks ago actually going take baby steps fixing things hanging there hit another pretty huge set back even got started never get better barring something amazing happening okay though crying anything clear minded collected,1 going end soonwhats point alive fuck up ive already started selfharming recently tell im spiraling anyone lives near pittsburgh sees redflag next days me,1 got threat legit track phone number body text sent boss informed send text messages investigated you ask photos waste time girls one main objectives since girls company made waste valuable time active men go house job think better try talk things get worse family work involved this,0 im fucking done everything guys fucking use hate much good enough anyone never wil cause clearly thats thats super fucking cool u want someone fuck use,0 panic attack rushed ampeit started morning today mom sister fighting supposed go lunch nice day kept arguing walking restaurant chest started hurting started hyperventilating lost balance felt like fainting happening mom screaming stop pretending kept shouting me left felt like dying almost fell middle road couple times sister drag back home went home locked room lost everything started screaming hyperventilating thinking maybe die could hear mom shouting screaming asking stop telling im making head panic attack couple times bad sister started freak cry point close fainting called taxi forced go aampe institute mental health lot shit happened cant seem look mom ever again feel like thinks im mental crazy would wanted hold hand tell okay instead leaving middle road screaming im back home one wants look talk way know relationship mom never never likes address depression always think head,1 racist guys think america is im american want see people think,0 suicide note passengerthere rules obeyed standartsliving charade thy all real purpose save mentally ill ocd non responsive meds everday lose part identity constant fight beetween two spheres brain star dust ready fulfilled life go back everthing started love friend yamur mix passion love charity anything healthy enoughi love family matter lot tolerate daily melancholic suicidal depression obsessions sake them world rules grand scale justice purpose distract mind create illusion second forget exist yes exist must bad joke walking eventual death us day us suffer us happy distractionfor example girl loved texting ilove much without even seeing face voice yet know never meet touch ever top void calls me always dreamt jumping bosphurus bridge jumping look mu childhood photos family photos photos girl deeply fell love in want lose tarnish love call coward probably right anyway sleeping pills jumping bosphurus crystsl blue current choice maybe time would free dying misery become part eternal silence maybe revorn example another big bang maybe never knows maybe simulation th grade student real day universr cease exist availi want thanks reddit full nice also weird people people shows true selvesi love yamur foreverand family morn finally freein another life brothers bye die born nothing become nothing suicide note,1 nword stats survey made quick survey nword usage take minute take survey httpsformsglesjtbvrsrjxcdehttpsformsglesjtbvrsrjxcde ampxb edit fucked one questions guess ill roll it,0 never stopsi depressed mentally fucked since hit puberty im adult life better still want die constantly sick hearing gets better ive tricked family friends thinking im happy recovered living good fulfilling life reality spend every minute im alone fantasising ending life think finally time go end misery,1 argh driving into london today made a wrong turn at king x stuck in an extra 0 minute of logjam traffic,0 admit something wont mind giving guy sloppy fvcking ass go cause shit gay af,0 whenever tell parents im tired living threaten beat thinking wayi dont know that think way trying snap im getting tired threatening hurt suicidal trying help find help it think therapists mental hospitals schizophrenics anyone area would probably embarrass extended family,1 "@LittleFletcher 6:55am, what the flippin' 'eck were you doing up at that time, silly person xxx",0 braces removed due bone loss caused prejuvenile periodontitis orthodontist advised retainer cost believing would need it sometime around th year teeth began shift horribly im left horribly crooked hanging front tooth terrified speak to smile anyone years absolutely destroyed self esteem ive contemplated suicide many times it,1 best plot world comedy movie rules kelsey grammar wonderful movie another funny guy rob schneider make crack segments ken hudson campbell plays buckman lauren holly plays probably serious character cast lt lake bruce dern great actor movie playing probably serious character movie actor liked toby huss nitro electric shots character takes movie hilariousbr br plot little uneven lt commander tom dodge years wanted command sub finally gets chance instead brand new sub gets rusty wwii diesel sub stingray crew better misfits us navy put series war games shows old diesel engine handle current nuclear navy things still get better finds dive officer actually female officer see women actual subs get commander position wants win war games blow dummy shipbr br the movie fairs quite well fact laughed nonstop saw movie theaters loved silence buckman farts everyones reaction smell hilariousbr br overall movie plain fun watch nice movie like this hate movies try serious,0 birthday always makes feel horribleim tired burden family wasnt even supposed make here feel like ive somehow cheated redflag attempt months back relocated icu big city hospital stayed days couldnt walk using bathroom worst sorts heart monitors remember ripping chest woke up screamed cursed angry woken up one wish world even taken me remember mustering courage call two friends had one declined call second made excuse hang phone remember family coming visit family stamped thousands medical bills since pretend didnt happen reality dont think anyone wanted wake up ive trying hard dont believe friend me need time successful please,1 been on escitalopram for about year worked great for the first or year wa prescribed either or 0mg honestly don t remember the exact dosage eventually it started making me feel complacent with sleeping long hour and not having any energy not meeting my goal or even making goal in the first place and not caring about thing i used to i didn t feel depressed but felt like i wa not where i wanted to be in life and that the antidepressant were part of the problem i should also mention that part of the reason i take them is for anxiety when this happened about year ago i decided to go off of them over a period of month it wa a very slow process because of all the side effect it wa terrible once i wa finally off them i felt worse i did have more energy but it wa like anxious energy i could function on hour of sleep just fine whereas with the antidepressant i feel like i have the flu if i get le than 9 hour normal on the pill is 9 0 hour well once i wa finally off the pill i wa getting anxious over every little thing including driving i had just gotten a new job and wa failing at it my inlaws came to visit in two seperate trip and after the first trip i decided i had to go back on the pill asap a i couldn t handle it anymore random outburst of cry and feeling very depressed along with near constant anxiety which is not great when my in law already don t seem to like me much long story short i went back on the pill about year ago probably about a month or of being off of them but i have kept the dosage low mg a i d like to try getting off them again i am worried to get off them completely again to try new antidepressant a i ve been promoted a few time since i went back on them and i can t risk screwing up my job i did ask my doctor if i could take the lowest dose of my current antidepressant 0 mg while i switch to new one but she told me i would have to be completely off the old one before starting anything new now i am also contemplating just upping my dosage to higher than it wa before and seeing if that help but i m also worried about having to try to get off a high dosage again it wa so terrible i m mostly just wondering if anyone ha any similar experience and what you decided to do and how it worked for you i know going to my doctor is best but it hasn t been super helpful for me so i m just curious about personal experience and i just feel like rambling a bit i guess,1 want die due failure lifei feel like everything ends failure even bother live masters degree cybersecurity turned waste since trying better myself failure turns degrees amount anything modern era anyone tell college going useless also late bloomer peers well except me always runt litter hate much really want die hate failure unemployed took gigantic risk threemonth cybersecurity contract quit job for fast forward unemployed really want work technology one hiring even masters cyber security do die due failure whos wasted youth,1 hey there need share something u guys feel like im middle existential crisis guess may vulnerable depression bcoz entrance exam approaching amp feel quite afraid time mean cant stop procrastinating past failures amp seems like parents really acknowledge small successes teachers really mean amp predict might fail it things bit tough past years able perform according parents expectations think talking community similar age group might lighten heavy heart amp give head start towards destination anyways community encouraged get downfall thank u guyz,0 you know what I fuckin love. julz will NOT find NO BITCH greater then me! on some real shit. every othr female out there is WEAK as fuck ,0 fed bokkie too many birthday treat sicko,0 ok im going sleep fml hope tomorrow feel better good night yall good day,0 might corona work butcher grocery story one people work never wears mask confirmed corona woke morning killer headachecough really bad chest pain ive currently locked room fear infecting family fun homies,0 feel endsuicidal feelings since childhood checked true friends checked mental disorder checked burn checked able help parents need checked dumped wife years checked enough enough bad around know ill alone rest life children fault im strong enough swear tried,1 friendmy friend know love romantically lot diagnosed cancer barely able convince kill minutes ago love dont want lose her told tell anyone cant lose like this do im person phone,1 well im optionswent college immature so flunked courses since nd year first year great girlfriend time hyper organized life wanted impress busted ass thats last time ever saw found bed summer roommate crushed me obviously left that losing source organization created disastrous consequences moved friend classes far away school figured great well go morning together keep focused unfortunately didnt give fucks school started skipping well without car minute bus ride best days bad weather started skip well knew leave couldnt get job better minimum wage dont car considered militaryafnavy time im flunk another course week im finish th year gpa still credits shy finishing degree fucking hate degree busy depressed anything productive it im stuck irredeemable grade field want nothing finance got get wrong used find market exciting accounting makes want blow head accounting used know with supposed able anything iq clearly anymore varsity captain high school sports teams multiple stateprovincial championships finished top national math contests got sats without studying world oyster caveat bad case adhd dad always paid things for necessities ive job support myselfliving arrangements since ive hes great guy love dearly never around saw maybe days per month significant mother chronically depressed bipolar disorder career failure and might even smarter me spent childhood mom bed pm point would grab bunch food sit front tv learn cook meals year old reason werent even poor thanks divorce settlement incredibly emotionally abusive whole life growing up didnt want anything like her way embarrass ever friends would always stacks dirty food containers everywhere shed go days sometimes weeks without showering really emotionally stunted me always felt inferior kids matter good life was super glad picked traits anyway except treat people thats one thing thats different got involved stupid people started drugs way escaping problems instead dealing mostly pot cocaine things too got clean start year little late clear mind enough realize fucked am im way behind peers even though supposed biggest potential them cant imagine bigger letdown dad siblings friends already been gone military gotten head straight learned goddamn functional human being im turning degree worst transcript youve ever seen life no actually like fs ws actually going drop start year exactly that getting good enough shape slipped vertebrae lead darkest depression yet medical history depression inability pass fitness test thats completely ruled out hindsight think would loved pilot move time would great me kind like small group known colleagues better big group office worker anyway ruled too im little old pursuing commercial pilot especially consider cost since said cant even enlist regular forces let alone highly competitor pilot program medical situation dqs me even got job hilariously bad transcript know wouldnt enjoy chosen field ive done internships school clearly isnt answer im able apply anyway wont able get loan anyway im completely fucked destined spend next decade life earning less someone potential earning wouldnt tough pill swallow actually liked doing dont conclusion ive got point id much rather dead alive wasting anymore peoples time effort world doesnt need anymore brilliant losers health massively deteriorated point prime physical attributes gone still coordinated scared heights etc im weak shit slow shit shit cardio always pain back chirophysio didnt shit best friend murdered years ago think set spiral self destruction ill never know sure know im ready end,1 almost didso last years felt really shitty feel like started parents upbringing mom blackwhite really seem understand much situation grew strict house el salvador s contradicting always says if get bs class stuff fine somedays exact opposite says need push live good house good car dad hand essentially man child emotionally jokes expensethings actually enjoy life constant pest occasionally hitting good reason distinct memories playing ps living room hit good reason another standing sister clocked stomach dad mother also kind couple really never gotten married grandma dads side always made mother feel like shit made fun el salvador etc mom resents dadhis family heavily dad never really stuck mom always brushed aside joke came point dads sister threatened kill mother kitchen knife pregnant sister late s reason mom decided stay dad empty promises naive mom wanted divorce sister born economic issues dads job we still cant bottom middle class top smack dab middle rolled around brought family really never happened mom dad always fight stupid shitalways bring families childhood petty shit eventually started playing guitar kind escape always hated drew doodles notebookswould regularly check make sure plenty overbearing things like they still almost started playing guitar looked really coolwanted play like guys classic rock radiowanted hobby could free first couple years playing dad would always make fun ability jokes like why cant play like van halen stupid shit like that still day even though feel like guitar thing actually good maybe so crippling self esteem issues idk still have burning desire play band likeminded individuals never really got freshman year high school name cooper basically soul mate nonromantic way started hanging making music together shit felt right everything felt ok once actually sounded really good together one day told gonna move utah i live oregon first thought joking serious left end school year brother man trusted like family member family thing hurt leaving felt like lost brother part myself felt like lost bit musicianshiphumanity thing makes feel like actual human being eventually depression got even worse solid week cried sleep still feel like year later gotten worse parents gotten difficult live with feel alone playing made feel like actual human being gone played people tbh love receive parents genuine feels fake love feel genuine close friends gf people make feel like actual human without cooper feel like missing key component humanity read entire thing guess trying say wish self esteem issues anger issues parents depression mood swings crippling depression would disappear wish parents never got married wish live hell days really hard pretty fucking close taking entire bottle advils went bed waking up thing stopped thought seeing cooper again thank reading,1 need someone vent toplease please talk me need vent,1 i ve just walked half an hour to my therapy appointment and i m not even sure if my appointment is today or not they didn t send a reminder this is my second appointment with them it should be today and i think she said next monday but i feel like i m going to embarrass myself by showing up and it s the wrong day not only that but i had another appointment today that i had to reschedule because i thought i wouldn t be able to make it but then i realised i read the time wrong and i would ve made it i m just an idiot i hate being me edit it all worked out i panicked over nothing like the idiot i am d,1 wayne wangs direction may ingredient made film much impressive slums beverly hills covers remarkably similar ground interplay susan sarandon natalie portman riveting real chemistry there film succeeded bringing inside dysfunctional life two women without dragging depressed frustration susan sarandons character hammers nerves narcissistic parent capable touching insecure adolescent amazingly manages without coming across floridly insane intentionally sadistic and natalie portman deflects attack characters ego resigned grace intelligent codependent child untainted smug cynicism natasha lyonne character slums beverly hills portmans character adolescent dignity stress unusual creature modern films film reaches satisfying resolution without trying hard highly recommend film viewer wants challenged entertained,0 feel like cutting myselfi dont history cutting im actually great blood hate needles almost fainted nurse withdrew blood me short blood makes queasy though feel really low even angry overwhelmed filled selfhatred look facial razor pick obsessively imagine would feel like cut myself my facial razor sharp ive cut accidentally times ive never cut purposely dont get urge coming from though suppose good mention ive struggling thoughts redflag dont consider serious serious attempt drunken tried fling onto upcoming traffic due fight boyfriend dont think would done wasnt intoxicated though,1 depression instrument filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 tried last week think im gonna try tonightfuck it life going where fucked everything up girlfriend years dumped me manipulated back dump again fuck me fuck life hate everything always have whats point anymore ive got full bottle cough syrup next might start chuggin whats stopping me sure hell life sure hell family friends idea whats going head im god damn closed emotionally one actually cares me maybe someone im gone,1 "@EmilyJane1104 thanks, it was nice......apart from being at work! but one of the girls gave me a pressie & every1 was nice to me ",0 "@kennethpilo No worries, I won't say a peep. ",0 gaindaswamy ye kon si ameero wali bimari hai mujhe to sirf depression pata thi,1 "My my , just like that ? You wave the white flag ? ",0 tried use special flashlight dong dummy thicc fit please help hurts,0 hey deadly virus lets still keep kid school hmmm would seem friend may deadly virus hanging around day wouldnt good idea ask parents stay home days oh whats that parents said no damn oh well guess ill risk getting people ill covid__,0 whats ur favourite shows zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz,0 Hmm... What's going on here on Twitter? Am I missing something? ,0 done big bad got school computer first real time interacting one own want know google themes allowed computers werent would think would block them someone confirm dont mess up,0 im going see whats afterlifesorry goodbye,1 running reasonsthere people life would hurt it continue suffer benefit wish would another heart attack one around call time would much easier theres little left hold onto,1 i used to be a swimmer back in elementary 0yrs old it s so quiet underwater and everything feel so light after a year in sport my mom started pressuring me she would compare me a lot to my other teammate and eventually it made me lose my passion for it i tried drowning myself a lot of time and one of my teammate would eventually pull me up i left swimming and suffered half of my junior high life being blamed financially by my mother up to this day i m still afraid of receiving thing because what if they ll blame for losing money for it so instead i would try to get high grade so it ll feel like i deserve it and now i m being pressured a lot again by my family i ll be in college next year and they re expecting me to get into one of those state university i just want to be dissappear at this point,1 remembered one time girl reddit called ugly even tho shes never seen look like idk wanted share u dont care u ignore post,0 when i female wa a very young kid i wa exposed to unrestricted internet access i watched a lot of porn and i recently remembered at time i would watch bestiality and animal mating i wa young and didnt know what i wa watching i didnt know what the feeling i wa having were i remember once i tried to get my dog to lick me when i wa it didnt happen because thank god i realized how weird it wa and stopped before anything happened im now and not attracted to animal at all im scared that maybe i wa when i wa young but i wonder maybe i wasnt attracted to them just curious to sex of all kind because i wasnt aware of it at the time im experiencing suicidal thought and so worried i should kill myself do you think i should kill myself am i overreacting im desperate for advice and reassurance but if i dont deserve reassurance go ahead and tell me how disgusting a human i am,1 year olds levelheaded adults care from political standings are color skin is sexual orientation is anything could identify pansexual monkey care its joke chill long jerk cool pleasant conversation allow to moral moron gen z dominate,0 Great blog piece on dealing with stress from @AfSFH #stress #anxiety #depression #MentalHealth #MentalHealthAwareness #mentalhealthmatters #Hypnotherapy #Coping #Wellbeing #SeeChange #positivity #PositiveThoughts #positivethinking #Leeds #solutionfocused #Happiness #healthylife https://twitter.com/afsfh/status/989136839624790016 …,1 Chris never holds that incident against anyone but himself even though he was sexually assaulted and assaulted. Why? Because he believes no man should ever lay a hand on a women and him doing that actually helped cause his depression and thoughts of suicide,1 "@elizabeth_anna lmfao no thanks, in bed watching harry potter for the night im content i think ive polluted my brain enough for the wknd",0 rapednone friends believed despite giving police info to already felt like shit want die felt way long time accused lying im not really bad way,1 want live anymorelife absolutely shit gf away week get emotional support people constantly insult school outside school im btw cant deal anymore want alive longer,1 in biology class my lip hurt,0 noticed since began using small dose respiridone augment ssri noticed tremendous difference think actually use logic find easier ignore intrusive thoughtshowever started gaining weight yes even small dose cannot help feel little insecure also cannot afford buy new clothes lift weights couple times week too wondering maybe try keto diet maintain weight even worth it thoughts weight gain antidepressants prevented,1 I'll never understand why people use depression for attention. It's not an accessory. Lmao,1 "@JoyceAnnWert it may be effective for some things,"" but I'm moreso referring to the people who go on about """"don't take medications!!! just have positive vibes and your depression will go away :)""""",1 dont know is yall ever awake late night feel sad something similar like dont know kinda sad,0 good morning ready go but i want go back bed,0 assisted redflaghello suffer paranoid schizophrenia medication counseling tried remedy situation last decade without much improvement seeking advice would go traveling country liberal views doctor assisted redflag would apply this help appreciated thank you,1 theyre better placea common saying people say comfort people lost someone idk think interesting society antiredflag try hardest view someones passing something positive like shit theyre better place let join,1 It's really nice to know that you think we're all out of time. Going to Six Flags for the day ,0 Is soaking up the sun xxx,0 @moodysgartner @ziyatong Exactly... that's my point. We are trying to get China off of coal... health. We are trying to have money in our economy so we have tax revenue to fund hospitals and doctors.... health. We want neighbours to provide for their families and avoid depression & suicide... health.,1 venthi thought would come back ive made post deleted got scared anyone knew would find it yesterday told mom made want kill ended parents freaking almost calling police me they didnt yelling telling ungrateful selfish hard explain life parents support financially im international student im legally allowed work however work table business stressful work almost everyday another employee messes parents blame it even though employees like years older me hate living mother weirdly overprotective me doesnt let lock door something usually go sleep wake morning yelling unlock door curfew even though im almost know every minute days theres obviously life im showing you im always stressed work school living family makes worse suicidal past couple months parents arent talking anymore yesterday,1 always end suicidal thoughts even though theyre rationalive suicidal thoughts since remember time things go wrong end going thinking giving up im trans transition going wrong im young bad health studying career like sure help find job future ive going therapy since four years old never talk openly family friends always told suicidal thoughts laziness want work solve problems best thing repress harm people loves me ive spent night crying parents also cry cry cry more im tired think ugly stuff want think kissing boyfriend new cute socks know strength see problems realize life shaped like dead end plan get weapon shooting shot myself thing never unable get weapon fucking hate world munch,1 would people listen conspiracy theorist hippy scientist scientist wins httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvlniscigigbc damned hippy lot people httpswwwyoutubecomwatchappdesktopampvqhxtwcslfcy hippies stupid,0 really like movie australia chinese movies like never get shown prime time must say one best serious movies ever outlines difference hong kong people mainland chinese really shows theres discomfort two get better hk learning mandarin also showed mainland china indie rock scene exists chinese people know strum guitar get house funking whoever said china ready rock music daniel wu absolutely superb clean crisp voice honest acting total chick magnet recommend movie know much asian people cleanse typical western stereotypes people love chineseasian cinema like myself check out,0 Ready for my first long run in a month. Nothing better than putting in 10+ miles on a saturday morning. Well maybe some things ,0 um tall guys curious feel like im short,0 point living hate lifeim young hate school uni father growing up immigrated another country friends family currently country gf idiot give shit family thinks im good muslim boy im semi alcoholic atheist mother finds would totally destroyed living double life quite while shitty minmum wage job ambitions theyre unattainable now feel bad time workout yoga seen improvment body still absolutely hate it hate everything myself hate easy ways commit redflag hate ugly hate dedicated summer improve still failed miserably hate everything hate want friend hate cant get that hate stopped talking friends througout years miss old self confidnet little high schooler thought life high school going uber cool hate spend time stupid website hate every single thing posting anyway else get attention lol fucking stupid mean holy shit im little faggot hell going im bad commit redflag anyway things might improve fucking what hell even great life point living tried reading camus bullshit point living continue living suffering know know problems bad things might get better whatever gives shit one life does im whining little bitch desrves die idea death beautiful whole notion nonexistence really appeals me im thinking going sky diving see ill use chute beautiful that ill know life worth living not,1 looking redflag literature readany one ever read books helped deal redflag obsession fiction non fiction,1 would rather would rather drink bleach eat dried cum scraped sisters asshole,0 mother took see film child long see every year christmas favorites remember silly devil santa looking telescope waited looked tv guide year see would shown would usually find playing saturday afternoon found movie english took something special away film longed find copy spanish hold film dear heart never suffered nightmares others might suggest yes different film santa claus makes special unique cant wait get copy film watch children explain favorite parts memories,0 hey girl creative writing class cant come second line ran pickup lines think need go bed instead using brain come impractical pickup lines socially unacceptable hour morning,0 tell you life gonna alright get it got fellow teens,0 Up was supercute ,0 become physically deformed dad gorgeous mom gorgeous brother handsome movie star handsome instead whole face slanted physical deformity could prevented bullied kids striking traits mushed around face want die every day years planet still alone curse proof god,1 anyone like fat lumpy dumpy plump double decker patty wacking boy booty cause favorite thing gonna,0 all the photo i try to upload are too big,0 im tempted buy one rings attached chain think itll look sick ik wear public pointless,0 obsession saying uwu loud uwu,0 please let diei want die everything fucking stupid dont want anytjing,1 fake scenario one die mom strangers choose im curious,0 @JulieGong its called pacing Jules...pacing ,0 @keith75m Up is about a little old man who floats his house away with a bunch of helium balloons ,0 anyone us preferably wanna chat im bored stuck traffic bit dm interested,0 going end little boymy boy weeks old going surgery needs general anesthesia dont know survive it know fighter not does god hope does need years therapy training support may never childhood have hes perfect little angel reason needs going this would suffer torture eternity normal life deserves decided going end coward cannot handle this anything family need money cover future expenses taken large life insurance policy couple weeks ago upon learning sons diagnosis reason surgery doesnt go well prepared bag need end life wont spend anymore time alive something go wrong go well kiss mother one last time kill car accident involving car dont know killed intentionally deal thought love wife love boy cant live knowing hardship follow moral support ton around us need money give them life never fully appreciated held son arms since first moment saw wanted nothing world healthy happy taken us family thing help end pain pain death fade time son wont remember face pictures us exist never work day life neither mom ever again focused health happiness,1 apologize posting this write ithi name trent im sixteen ive dealing depression while alone kid fifth grade met first friend picked lot know post dumb im sorry posting it ive trying post past three nights every time finish erase everything since worthless text im sorry anyone knows real life reddit account id use throwaway feel like id quitting life soon really want start telling story ive wrote many times know people care point last september went hospital second time extremely suicidal ive sick school mono past days im feeling extremely lonely know im sorry im saying enough im sorry im saying anything im terrified idea liked disliked thin line is maybe silly maybe give up erase this go bed find bottle tylenol wake up im writing post try find alternative routes like music kid cudi kanye west course everyone makes fun hard motivated nowadays im sorry im going back crying love guys subreddit amazing im sorry feel way,1 "- go & try the yummo & super hot 'plecing kangkung' + ayam bakar taliwang.. **sexy food from exotic country,Indonesia ",0 Im ready for the world ,0 former ohio st football player harry miller medically retires from football due to mentalhealth concern delivers powerful message to anyone struggling with depression http t co lkynhiiifj mentalhealthawareness mentalhealthmatters endthestigma health wellness,1 okwhich like better jelly sticksdonuts stuffed donuts make sure think answering dirty joke,0 someone defined definition intellectual being a person listen the william tell overture without thinking lone ranger this heartily concur surely would tall order accomplish this one leopold stokowski arturo toscanini leonard bernstein would find nigh well impossible dobr br and disgrace radio series television series along movie serials feature films syndicated newspaper comic strip comic books part make the masked man plains faithful indian companion tonto deeply seeded element collective psyche literary folklorebr br as legends started gradually first series radio plays written local use detroit radio station wxyz creator one george w trendle principal writer series mr trendles brotherinlaw mr fran striker year ranger first rode the plains early western united states lone ranger tonto radio series successfully guided depression era americans mid late s world war ii postwar era found country midst supernova explosion invention technology new communications medium standing ready wings unable go forth day vj day achieved accomplished world america ready settle peace prosperity new technology was course television would surely need something else roller derby wrestling marigold arena fill broadcast hours first time tv station anything on except portrait mohican chief test pattern schultz soon post haste networks began tapping existing natural resources existing programming virtually would ripe adaptation tv screenbr br so folks lone ranger incorporated interested producers jack chertok harry poppe sherman harris jack wrather approached deal put masked man tonto television waves well radiobr br immediately went work gave us first season made use considerable back log radio dramas potentially adaptable tv dramas cast clayton moore fine supporting actor many feature film dozen years experience also done work serials republic pictures thrill factory would invaluable experience the lone ranger cast faithful indian companion partner bringing justice various parts frontier sheer perfection charactersupporting actor jay silverheels must mention rift clayton moore walked replaced john hart season so mr moore back inhaving missed much now back story first years filming gave episodes look sound own made good use screen narrator gave shows feel authenticity individual standout one kind series actors employed veterans movies late silent era thru s s lot exclusively cowboy movie players good example casting glenn strange bartender sam gunsmoke vicious murderous gang leader butch cavandish cavendish gangs massacre texas rangers led origin john reid thought slain texas rangers lone rangerbr br in addition old timers cast find lot new coming talent then cast see people like phyllis coates dwayne hickman denver pyle others cast week week this along always calling fairplay justice peace western worldbr br the last couple seasons brought big changes first use colour filming made difference colour tv set still long way household second new set musical themes queues other rossinis finale u wutt new music never big deal us preferred old radio stock stuffbr br with series two feature films done period lone ranger warner brothers lone ranger lost city gold united artists character permanently indelibly impressed identity people americans,0 "I am going to rest, to die of cold :| and not feel like sleeping....I think I have a fever.... Bye ",0 music recommendations im looking expand playlist usual genres alt pop minnesota hip hop steampunk various indie genres artists people like cavetown aliceband bug hunter penelope scott various rhymesayers willing explore new genresartists such anything generic rap the type exclusively sex drugs cool rapper is rap types pretty good pop popular couple years ago dunno technical genre name anyways anyone got music recommendations favorite artistssongs,0 want disappeari know say appart fact wanna anymore wanna die feel like able kill myself im afraid whats gonna happen im honest im know thats miserable know entire life front me but great continues livinghell girlfriend bestfriend back days said loved me infortunatly say backmore recently asked wanted girlfriend again happy feelings same thought now anymore time goes realise love way love me thats awful feel horrible wanna hurt like first time would never want hurt care much feel guilty theres reasons explained suicidal thoughts appear on months since restarted cutting myself cuts arms inner tights thought stop but it think ill never really stop know help thoughts wanna disappear know im afraid dying put end life,1 think im tail end boutim almost always depressed last month worst ever been feel like part snapped ever heal im bit better now though im back normal depression least marginally manageable im gonna anything bad least yet thought id post case anyone worried,1 dont thoughts like literally ever cant even remember last time thought,0 legal get old cavalry sabre like really want one think super amazing nice conversation piece scared get save one really want it,0 Just got done recording a track for my mixtape with @ToddtheEngineer got a 16 for @listentoivan to jump on! ,0 Drax the destroyer cured my depression,1 ive wanted die past yearsive reached point wake go sleep dreaming im strong enough kill myself im years old ive never wanted alive friends know im wrong try happy enjoyable around im obviously awkward idea fix this want enjoy life right worth continuing ive told gets better ive felt way decade cant wait longer get better something now either need make improvements fucking end it ive tried antidepressants need know kind person people actually like anyone advice would really appreciate it edit feel anything fear pain anymore smile feel like im lying,1 i ve been dealing with multiple health issue currently having bad pain in my broken tooth my dentist checked it out last week and said it just need pulled and put me on antibiotic have an appointment to get it pulled this weekend but it look so infected im worrying of course about it causing death because im in pain i really feel like making another appointment to check it again but they don t seemed worried at all i just want to cuddle next to my bf or mom or dad but the anxiety always happens at night and no one want to wake up and help comfort me,1 @chelsealinn Totally jel right now. tell him hello ,0 could actually worth somethingi cant really contribute society im music education major education important music isnt nothing mankind future solve poverty disease sits distraction anything truly productive maybe take construction job become truck driver get way real educators teaching stem go wrong love science ive wanted astronaut forever thought good math failed last calculus test understand basic astronomy gonna helpful anything earth theres even argument made lack importance space exploration much love space much really contribute mankind everything enjoy important get way something matters even like go even end point know stuff sounds like eugenics support that really do cost money food time resources energy people care about needs that,1 finally it outpizzad hut greatest mistake life years perfecting recipe made way local hut freshbaked pizza pie hand try this told kid working counter did agree better anything pizza hut offer soon entire store customers included feasting delicious pie manager walked over grabbed slice took bite look him anticipation rising boss local fief lord hut approval meant rest combined took bite nodded ill damned said you really it outpizzad hut shame shame mean tha manager pulled gun behind apron shot nearest customer head we code jalapeo said wrist executed remaining customers i repeat code jalapeo ground slick blood kid working counter choked dying breath manager turned me you motherfucker outpizza hut shoved gun face scared fight scared run manager pulled trigger click gun empty threw chair manager scrambled pizza hut even bothering see missile hit mark closely pursued manager gotten hands deadly sharp pizza cutter suspected hands would cut pizza somehow able get car speed off manager cursing existence left behind took deep breath manager clearly psychotic yes it crazy man gun be phone rang sister picked it theyre dead sobbed theyre dead mmom dad chris bill dead killed all could barely understand her great sobs what mean you asked urgently how possi single gunshot sounded phones speakers silence then heard mans voice no one outpizzas hut hung up drove empty county road mind blank nothing killed family alone moment knew do took everything me well then would take everything them pizza hut terrified outpizzad forgot theres one thing worse man recipe man nothing lose ill give limited time offer able refuse two bullets price one free side order pain,0 i'm watching tv on my ipod...lots of fun ,0 friendly reminder go bed want remind great year killer clowns back,0 i m tired and exhausted at this point i m just someone else and i don t even know how to carry on like that i ve tried to kill myself several time i ve lost everybody and i m scared of the silence now,1 today learned friend mine apparently trans boy im okay that fact im proud brave enough able accept tell others it but came pretty big shock me kind came nowhere really seemed like girl beforehand im honestly hard time getting past shock wrong approach this,0 i ve been on this for week and still barely have an appetite i even got nauseous going to the grocery store today is this normal ha anyone else experienced this it s been great for my mood and communication but it mess with my diet i don t even want to consume food really keep in mind though i did used to emotionally eat,1 im hate life even though really bad think redflag daily years stress buildingsorry long is id like preface saying im right edge think contemplate redflag every day im closer year two tell call hotline whatever urgent think need talk get advice whatnot im ever serious call hotline first abused since kid institutionalized think times redflag attempts diagnosed depressive disorder around around time entered foster care never got treatment antidepressants recently took whole bottle one day prescribed once obviously ran gotten im bad scheduling doctors appointments anxiety clerk always feels patronizing me feel think theres something wrong like im retarded even though even know ive never diagnosed anything mental except depressive disorder serious physical disability hate calling thus put put more tried weeks ago schedule appointment got busy signal times tried since supposed go talk vitamin levels well antidepressant early may im month overdue makes want go back well im afraid ill scolded rightfully fucking stupid to think antidepressant help bit living situation like said im foster care never lived anywhere year since like im program pays apartment with one roommate food cable transportation work dj work consistent working one night week enough make much it weeks get work attending college college summer college financial aid department fucked telling id keep financial aid even failed class did called said id lost financial aid next semester means cant really go one big point stress this anyway program houses like people around age apartment complex two apartment took lease apartments needed since roommate first move thus first lease expire theyve forced us move different apartment complex incredibly stressful settled much shit move dropped us suddenly first heard monday told wed move sometime week monday night came apartment told start moving well moved tonight manager place started bitching apparently supposed move roommate moved things afternoon were supposed thursday though make sense were getting mixed signals manager staff work here nobody communicating us im new apartment right apparently im supposed even though nobody fucking told like pm id already moved electronics bedding less everything else except furniture pa speakers sleep schedule terrible virtually impossible fall asleep am tomorrow ive got wake up get ppd shot finish moving unpack clean get bitched manager goddamn lack communication skills relax really bad day ive far far worse days life soft life foster care made soft compared used abused even though peoples standards im still hard like stoic confident tough whatnot im absolutely dreading tomorrow additionally im terrified theyre going make get minimumwage job theres something possibly lyme may due extreme vitamin deficiency wrong bones cant handle physical stress every time past ive job like pushed closer redflag every fucking day djing handle less prolonged stress one night week most plus find extremely enjoyable less thing makes happy im also looking substitute teacher local highschool next semester meet states requirements one could handle desk job thats one really think may able get im type roll defeated all im dj im gogetter im sure could come another way make money yet partially motivation completely died used get early hop bike pin fliers advertising around town go random businesses ask use dj that forget repost ad craigslist half fucking time much less actually go market physically plus even inconsistent gigs im still grossing money peers here save least everything make whereas burn money like object bank despite spending equipment working way sum using speakers lights got goddamn thrift shop even despite working nearly hours week every week relationship status another big problem cant get girlfriend im hot project confidence even though tell im actually wreck im good always put facade living mom im creepy whatever ive girlfriendsfwbs since highschool ive single months now killing selfesteem girlfriend less makes selfworth one two friends last girlfriend practically begged stay friends her tried literally reason it blue suddenly started ignoring completely still christmas tree loaned december impression lot sentimental value her refused come get months contact cut ive tried tinder chicks seem understand dating app get ton matches good conversations them time time soon actually ask completely stop responding think bitches using boost ego hell else would match me talkflirt hours drop hints going date disappear moment actual date mentioned extremely limited social contact real life im young go bars college out two social things know im fucking isolated ill never meet anyone it need someone know absolute fact im much attractive average dude standards high go ugly fat chick want fucking die kind pathetic fucking worm attractive cant get girlfriend im onpar disgusting slime rincels whatever must absolutely fucking worthless something literally used girls me past girlfriends hot standards came classes whatnot think recent ex pretty much every night understand suddenly decided act like exist obviously situations usually dude didsaid something creepy absolutely didnt last conversation id minutes late presentation together class took together semester broke up presentation which wound even late for bullshit art rest semester whenever id talk shed seem awkward it completely stopped responding texts absolutely nothing on end things then think may ex broke get me theyd together years abusive hadhas selfesteem issues rolled it broke assured get back together im sure broke sort mental issue started shortly got together ended months split less issue would always extremely tired physically mentally problem demanding sex could never remember things said remember fucking anything reason went sauve charming confident dude got hots blithering idiot probably thought gave fucks relationship said felt like listening remember things tried explaining fluke weird thing never happened life im sure thought excuse anyway guess main thing idk either those got girlfriend problem living work situation seem bad all cant im fucking young go literally social spots miles chicks tinder get ego boost rather actually go someone guess since late ive got get early noon probably tomorrow im gonna go sleep ill back tomorrow respond read stuff im killing tonight gaurenteed im heavily considering calling ex begging come back guess ill save another night,1 "@Jo_Crew hey there. Sounds like you guys had a good time bathing the pups. Hope the beers were good, as well. ",0 so got school mascot homecoming told friend said signed school furry havent quite since,0 totally shocked by the episode of house this eveing lost one of my favorite character,0 movie directed renny harlin finnish miracle stallone gabe walker cat mouse mountains ruthless terrorists renny harlin knows direct actionmovie stallone needed role get back track snowy mountain good place action movie better direct movie snow ice cold bad weather finnish man action good music film spectacular bad guy john litghow stars micheal rooker portrait serialkiller janine turner strong medicine placed beautiful place exciting movie overall good movie br br remember extreme lit special collectors edition good extras comig soon finland straight video,0 anyone else subconsciously internally glorify redflag physical painfor period days lasted two weeks ago found serious sudden physical pain largely over call unbearable really sucked worse would stay hours simply sleep anymore thank god pain bad unable sleep something happened happened periods intense pain internally imaginationmind glorified redflag escape pain imagined damn nice would painlessly end could end pain wanted bad idea became palatable subconscious level thank god consciously aware horrible idea permanent solution knew would temporary problem phenomenon happened horrible pain ive considered becoming gun owner past actually generally support gun rights in fact financial issues reason yet extreme paininduced mood swings makes afraid cant sure done something pain much worse think id get nonlethal defense options like pepper spray stun gun im horrified another pain flare comes might lose selfcontrol end gun fortunately promise actually suicidal pain largely feel thoughts anymore really concern id love get idea abnormal is something similar ever happened bad flareups pain subconsciously involuntarily think redflag palatable relief physical pain even though consciously know it,1 wanting some sunshine so we can lay in the pool,0 dunno post here im even suicidal im really anxiousim im still fixed shoud life thats part problem made poor choices past pay it wasted three years college going one area another but never completed anything took year half class graphic design kept working area four year even like it scared death going back school im still now thought time start something interesting begin bachelor degree september im reeaaalllyyyy anxious learned experience usually better jump fire get comfort zone but still tons thing worry about still debt pay related car spend quite bit rent room close university still wage get lower even find high wage job studying time whats really frustrating hear people telling why dropping good job probably kind person boring job life without asking question still find really frustrating part problem always fell akward engage conversation someone else grew loner im scared fear able get know people worked me past volunteer redflag hotline helped build confidence know ill able continue studying time especially knowing far place always lived past,1 take child admit hospitalbasically title says really want admit local hospital im terrified theyll try take child plan leave father time really want kill cant handle thought seeing grow see smile anymore support system extremely weak need professional help none doctors ive contacted called back im feeling important issue needs dealt with im us cps fine long dont take baby,1 @UnderwaterLama actually at least it will be cool. We did a hike yesterday and it felt good to have a little shade ,0 yeah sex cool know china concentration camps,0 sure doim twenty years old getting life started graduated highschool seems like since senior year began everything went downhill parents problem through gotten point cant handle more third time ive written this gone character limit several times times ive tried make post make long story short parents drug addicts past years january middle senior year parents lost jobs started selling pills pay rent ended addicted things went downhill fast mom got jobs within next four months fired either stealing strung work got arrested dui graduated used money graduation buy car all car getting road work it things bought it got job gas station full time hours week nd shift get keep money parents took pay every week naively allowed thinking theyd pay back agreement borrowing it gave friends job thought right family helping pay bills whatnot time friends worked nd shift every day tuesdaywednesday off cant make plans days friends working although thought right family reality every dime gave parents went buy pills moved grandparents afford rent house quit job got sick working money point friends stopped speaking me see often depressed hang exactly usual self left car old house since pay insurance it therefore take road parents sold without telling it parents guilted giving tax return working rest claiming little sister dependent could get apartment felt like choice because even got taxes parents told entire family going give taxes get us apartment grandparents incredibly relieved wed living sinking afford more got new apartment tax return rest used buy pills unbeknownst me parents put utilities lease name mom got credit cards name secondary application started popping pills ever strung every day sister fend ourselves ended steal grocery stores fast food restaurants daily feed us every dime parents got went pills entire family knew something wrong point winter early spring never paying rent evicted apartment august last year point started new job another gas station mom also got job fired three weeks starting stealing pills job taking care elderly alzheimers patient mom thought could make money womans alzheimer meds mom started another job taking care elderly man legs got fired week it stole mans wedding rings pawned them edit post make sure long yet below around time november family stolen constantly uncle guns two rifle barrels stolen him grandmother purse taken uncles house broken computer stolen christmas eve went aunts house lives hour half away get see often bedroom going use new years vacation stolen could go on thats part ive gone character limit many damn times now quit job gas station because again parents taking money time around father works construction job localgovernment agency provides assistance low income families working womans home govt agency paying contract all father said needed borrow money materials labor costs said done get dime money back made months gas station get naive enough believe parents things worse ever entire family knows everything father gotten act together hes working trying make things right mothers hardcore drug addict continue pop pills found mothers crackpipe tonight apparently pills enough more theyve taken bills name possessions theyve sold money theyve taken ive given them even stole money bank account bank tucked away thought know about found bank card treated themselves beyond drugs money theft theres also fact im gay come family yet entire family knows made mistake coming grandmother gossip juicy keep herself mother knows im gay im open it thought accepted it seemed fine gave youre kid love matter what speech comfortable days ago heard talking dad me that disgusting dick sucking faggot choice wording said lot more pretty much says all cant take dealing more theres lot ive left out spending hour writing rewriting continually going character limit said screw tried give short could nowhere else go nothing left money possessions bank account overdrawn friends family members take in trust parents know more,1 Holy shit! I saw a tornado today & I got some SWEET pictures of it from the roof. I've always wanted to see a tornado. It was awesome! ,0 gamers need help get celeste stardew vally spoilers please,0 i m sure that twitter doesn t know the definition of depression,1 Makes a video with the sole purpose to belittle depression but attempts to silence other's opinions. What? pic.twitter.com/kcSusZgBKM,1 lost motivation live fi recieved exam results yesterday poor qualified technical school customer service loathe job server hence think ill enjoy life customer service parent supportive retaking exams private candidate school kicked out however dream making politics someday entering school going shut doors reputable law schools think life realized wasted much life computer games failed developed soft skills even manage schoolwork well typing away bed know well final nail going pushed coffin dream terribly upset scared think parent going force back work chose retake private candidate tell continue living,1 ill go sleep ill ill fucking cant stop,0 now even more annoyed with bone i would have preferred the gratuitous grossness poor angela,0 back school guess ive coop goat farm quad today last day next week march break that back actual school back schoolwork back sitting class praying nobody looks me back uniforms back getting bus every morning am back heart race every time male teacher purposely walks behind stairs uniform kilts fucking short asscheeks almost hanging short back literally wear kilts pants designed fit female bodies back around racisttransphobic people back hearing awful shittalking bathroom back vice principal aggressively asking im every time sees hall back teachers singling out back teachers penalizing work isnt good neurotypicalnon learningdisabled students back forced speak infront class nobody knows me back new kid school back seeing peers great friends years ago cannot stand presence anymore back parents texting everyday needing know im school dont live anymore back grade s grade s back seniors looking like child back freshmensophomores gawking constantly back little hell fucking town,0 also best book ive ever read karl urban steve zahn great together drama adventure sweetness sadness laughed cried hard laugh gus talking wish gus would smacked clara like inez clara lead gus years intentions ever marrying him liked playing him sad spent whole life pining her would nice woodrow married maggie would died anyway woodrow man could express feelings kept bottled up obvious loved maggie raid austin rangers got back ran hold her val kilmer excellent playing odd characters loved portrayal captian inish skull loved whole lonesome dove saga comanche moon best bunch,0 type diabetic stress another aca repeal much handlenot trying bring politics this reality situation trump administration reversed stance aca affordable care act protection telling court preexisting conditions clause the heart bill unconstitutional last year gop tried kill aca beside stress months someone chronic illness already went bankruptcy back aca due medical bills aca literally saved life allowed start small business support myself im years old managing disease thanks ability able afford insulin medications without aca would lose everything again cantlive stress looming safetynet ripped again optimists say congress let happen obviously saying unconstitutional reason hope more god sometimes wish born canada europe healthcare fucking political trading card bad person sick bad citizen deserve die fucking hands chump cheap fucking suit value life cant take anymore,1 help wantedsorry crappy title really sure posted linked askreddit post found herehttpwwwredditcomraskredditcommentsddwhats_bothering_you_right_now_what_do_you_need_to guess ill give backstory around years ago moved home country new zealand another country really want give specifics sorry thats rules got there different country different culture language etc novelty wow cool wore fairly quickly went school started school fairly cheerfully first week school broke crying recess friends really know do got friend changed cheerful started become depressed started fake sick go school fast forward two years believed bullied called nerd snotpicker among things almost daily though memory may warped quite ago happened fourth grade fast forward two years come year old emotionally unstable trust anyone anyone friend basically clung onto unstable day moved never really no friends always someone never thought friends despite them realize fast forward two years arrive year old thought redflag written suicidal notes before taken tests seen therapists wants end all tasked huge amount school work mother micromanges life suffering headaches things like that allowed stay home school requires go school unless want spend multiple days catching up now honestly ive enough know commit redflag ive thought before ive seen two therapists before ive leave due leaving schools school go currently small around people max much variety people result im starting doubt whether continue life ive feeling like crap lately especially school ive deal headaches stomach aches im fed it took test iq doctor suggested take antidepressants refused heard could make flat way regret decision im avid gamer usually play games get mind things thats happening less less mother takes control life lot more going university generally stressfilled life help all also help changes diet whenever sees something thinks help family leads angry due fact spending money food could save bit buying half brands does family eg father etc away another country generally things do im sure do ive tried make feel better ive basically lost motivation things days spent reading reddit nothing else get pretty good grades school generally neartop class marks yet im still told make study notes study every day mother believes getting a marks every assignment ive basically lost motivation live thing keeping going fact want disappoint people feel like im pulling people time ive skipping meals mother spend much people plus help classmates social rejects feel like fit anywhere leads internet strangely feel like fit in welp im going stop there thats one gigantic ramblerant know do seen therapist lately helped before im scared ask one mother may say you need one need help advice anything help get hellhole life hope sound selfentitled anything mother tells that quote dont bad im sure that seen people worse would love somebody gave help sorry incredibly rambleyranty,1 im aloneim worthlessim uselessi dont know startim sorry im place im currently years agei wish died earliermy life gone downhill last yearsive much pain cant take anymore always feel lonelysaddepressedsuicidalit even gone far cutting myselfi feel hopelessi feel like never able achieve dreamsno one ever love everyone forget ive alone since childhoodive never make good friends never talked anyone biggest regret lifewhenever im pain dont get share anyoneno one makes feel betterpeople made fun im awkardim scared express feelings mindive tried make friends left bullied foght meeveryoneliterally everyone makes fun meim going downhill studiesi always get low grades always scolded parentsi even thought killing beforeim sorry try escape sadness life sitting near computer screen mobile phonewhenever taken away instantly get depressed get jealous sick people got enjoy childhood stuck alone hell yearsnot shown hope ive really gaming since childhoodthere barely day havent gamedit kept happy alive long timewhen saw utubers esporters instantly started like wanted big thembut ive taken away things fucking burns me im unhealthy havent went outside weeksim scared talk peoplei dont even know drive cyclei want stay home im writing bed phone crying wanting cut againwhy see hell young agewhy couldnt life better like otherswhy one ever try talk metry understand pain make feel better feel worthless nowim useless worldi mistakei born sufferno one happy meno one ever love looseri forever alone bet might laughing storybut u experienced understand much pain life really is done shitty lifei might try kill monthsi always sufferi never achieve dreami pain everyonea waste humanity wish someone could help memy happiness deadmy hope deadmy innocence deadmy love dead get ready see another redflag story news thats sayi never talked nowyou dont look deep cause im looser anywaysanyone still livingyou still changeyou still happyyou still enjoy life failedand failures dont deserve live goodbye everyone ,1 @househomeauthor @CFcreative Thanks to both of you for your advice ,0 get stressed want diei feel like everything much im frustrated want cry time cant find summer job know im going want cry im sick people trying form relationships get close bc im going fuck up i one guy really really like im ready relationship im really going ruin life bc get upset angry time cant get help first relationship ended months ago it went years abusive asshole suicidal issues over met i worst part personal struggle but got thankfully thanks im happy that got worse blamed said rude things yelled would come home college he older dropped bc hes scumbag cant anything would use sex rape yell essentially tell vagina disgusting like okay help family brings time like need fucking reminder mom fucking defends like say hes scum earth goes hes hard life like oh im sorry give excuse rude me even tried talk said thats lost cause i never even bothered mention would force sex use condom always worried pregnant never brought bc bother little ever cared left gone mother moron smokes severe asthma hospital time cant ask help bc always center attention probably money pulled help fucked relationship years ago pretend like even care her would rather move never speak family cant money stupid i need talk mom im want turn nasty bitch like her finances one thing really stress help already worried mother go hospital weekend time this im done want move leave bc im much happier college never see or sister rude really love dad going stay home dog baby died months ago reason anymore im beyond frustrated want stop ceyinfn stop hurting people get help cant bc mother center attention want extended family think im looney bc need help want die done since last time felt really bad about years ago im now im frustrated want leave im sorry rant im really frustrated even got even made sense thank much random guy like bc really sweetheart nice want break hes sweet nice tell cares never takes advantage anything always support part wants leave bc im tired people seeing vulnerable get upset like tiny part still worried might try hurt me worry much anymore im worried im going break make suicidal,1 made horrible least ,1 "I've finished Hannah Montana, on to Peep Show ",0 guys it lost virginity friends keep telling cant lose virginity apple pie disagree,0 think way dress nicer got rid bummy clothes option would wear nice clothes plan buy nice clothes look put together,0 really need care much politics youre old enough vote question geared towards americans due extreme polarization country right now parents seem almost offended didnt really care told biden chose vp said really dont much need know details right now especially considering wont even able vote time election comes around get important especially right literally cannot get away politics matter go im really interested parents hope biden wins dont really know want do post picture snapchat story show friends cant vote support him really want know common american teens parents seem think otherwise,0 really hurtful memory mom back going lot shit really want explain everything going much although backstory needed right answer ill give little everything happening time escape goat family made feel horrible point ended carving branding monster course happened years ago also really depressed happened opened suicidal family handed knife said oh were waiting day ive wanted question soo long im scared to probably gonna always mention past act like never happend live sunshine rainbows mean narcissistic yeah shell flip shit try say im accusing shit never happend anyone wondering bad mom fucked childhood going lot no hate her tries really hard keep roof head would anything family however causes much stress pain life turns around works hard us im mental conflict one hand want hate her hand works hard us feels unfair selfish im getting topic back saying originally im wondering question it want feel would cause harm anything know please someone help decide,0 incredibly immensely indecisive,0 even after year i still feel the hole that she made i m trying so hard but nothing work,1 "It's amazing, I'm not procrastinating today! Actually will get free time tonight ",0 cant take migrainesim already severely depressed get migraines almost every day nothing doctor gives works cant take it im hours current pain one worst ones yet nothing works otc painkillers work ice heat packs work matter lay sit up want over cant think straight living worth it fuck constant head pain god would design us way know im saying im middle it im crying pain,1 sacred hell playing game accidentally pressed rest mode disconnected id lose progress thankfully game disconnect,0 helpi dont know much longer keep this im afraid die im afraid live dont know,1 stuck head recently think think think end talking hours days even one thoughts tonight theory feel need certain thingsi struggled certain addictions past put quotes know wereare actual addictions conditioned think in days something first step admitting blah blah blah get it probably actual addict would claim self harming would say probably addiction tell alcoholism hand know addiction real friend ever one encouraged stop drinking found suicide attempt drank full bottle bourbon cut arm took box sleeping pills never meant tell heard next day crazy circumstances long story talked little bit told wanted stop drinking good reason obviously sure id say addicted alcohol drink fair bit first night id polished whole bottle think main reason view possible addiction asked stop time pretty easy drinkbut anyway aside starting notice addictions whatever want call hard hardest resist thinking kind movie moments kind hard explain like think emotional state event triggered sometimes picture sort movie scene something id imagine would see main character went scene shows processing whatever example would show lucifer lucifer sitting beach smoking wings ground behind him time bojack goes bender bojack horseman scenes like that like way know process emotions creating one moments real life put music sit beach night glass whiskey hand go club get lost drugfuelled montage stand roof high rise middle city smoke know isbut urge create moments main thing pushes want drink smoke drugs selfharm settings feeling feel wrong without accompanying vice even things like type alcohol changes sometimes straight glass whiskey neat sometimes beer sometimes vodka straight bottle times cocktails preference own fits moment feel like need havei know this thought maybe want people see certain way maybe extent almost every time alone although guess movies always start alone sometimes somebody walk them know information know better ignore urges create hollywood moments even though sometimes actually make feel little better nothing else helps that give happen take sign need process allow break sober streak hell even know still got sober streak people cared getting clean gone now guess force habit point anyways know decided post something noticed thought weird theory get impulses get,1 "my depression, anxiety, and loneliness fighting over who is gonna take over me next... pic.twitter.com/oj1iMktFr7",1 guy discovered dairy milk doing fr tryna,0 Only just made it before 3pm Friday! Have you McValue Lunch-ed this week? http://u.nu/7dk9 #fb,0 i cant sleep,0 tonights nighti cant take anymore notes written happening tonight goodbye everyone,1 oh god god damn itthis awful excruciating havent gotten work done months everyone knows it handful people take pity pity wont get work next year officially starts couple months im right fucking mess wailing desk trying work missed am appointment today slept pm even though work am even though slept entire weekend days straight could die one would notice weeks left stupid job one would notice months maybe years ones called cops screaming wailing yet one called pest control dead animal wall stunk duplex im physically sick shaking im mentally sick dont think ever truly recover this true breakdown one cares me fact people claimed abandoned abused insulted me over over girl loved ghosted me well claimed busy guess busy post instagram try find enough energy make fake profile maybe hopefully get add see shes posted maybe give closure wouldnt thought might dead said cared didnt call like promised accident outside house mph head collision mph past midnight screech boom lady screaming screaming wailing baby wailing crying quiet go outside crowd already there missing limbs apparent fatalities drivers messed up girl saw always visited me didnt like wear seatbelt would dead waited weeks months weeks response texts called her answered minutes alive happy good her ive cut myself ive picked follicles arms legs tweezers want gone one,1 excited anything anymore except drinking smoking kind feel sad numb time weird keep hoping wake go bed unfortunately idk needed put thoughts there necessarily feel better whatever feel like belong anywhere,1 serious moms reaction breakdown overload bc stress life schoolwork im th grade btw get something print set off mom walks crying bombarding questions tells calm down helpful,0 "I think I'm going to bed soon. Nightnight, yall! ",0 http://bit.ly/19HHwZ haha ain't that cool ,0 good age teenage relationship im turning year i think grade ppl america im sure im ready relationship someone maybe im mature enough or came subreddit ask since saw bunch ppl posting relationships also please tell post different subreddit ill remove one thx,0 life fell apart could watchfor past months ive watched life fall apart everything going ruined it given multiple chances redeem failed every time feel hopeless now ive gotten help doctors therapist didnt help anything made worse ive tried look healthy social support closest friends moved away alone one talk anymore ive tried optimistic pick pieces try make something ive failed too whole life one big failure know family friends look me honestly end road ive exhausted options im going write every single one friends letter dont want blame themselves ill write family ones cant take living failures anymore know do,1 i m and my doctor diagnosed me with anxiety yesterday meanwhile my mom doesn t leave any chance to make me feel inferior keep barking the world would be a mess if there will be more like you thank god i didn t have another child are some common term i hear everyday but let s skip that i workout almost everyday and took a day break due to a minor injury while bench pressing but now i m just not feeling ok i worked out today and my forearm got so fatigued that i could do nothing so i started with ab again nothing then leg stretching again nothing i m tired of myself i couldn t even tell the doctor what s happening with me i m hitting myself of anger i m shouting i m throwing the weight here and there and what not i ve been feeling really off and am feeling weird my chest is heavy my throat is heavy im not able to cry i m not able to do anything,1 endi feel like im end rope met somebody online genuinely intrested dating me turn saw look like aunt died watch scatter ashes wonderful human life justdumped water friends getting annoyed constantly telling this tell start conversations anymore start it ive waited see long took days lonely acted like perfectly fine messaged joking around stuff ive lost friends depression before cant lose more now im writing this morning one awake house may live house nother father brother honesty ive never felt damn lonely killing me im wits end theres train track house know could go there lay head never feel way again idk im trying achieve writing this honestly know feel like get out perhaps final letter world last words want happy ive tried therapy ive tried meds ive tried finding job talking people work never does try right want work once idk theres god ive never given much thought hope is least send someone grant strength keep going want die want live feel like thing point die im fucking scared,1 one diagnose redflag not dont know ocd thing multitude things mind milder worries seem fine brain quiet worryless seems involuntary remind dissociative flashback starts cycle psychological drowning feelings detachment well depressive feelings one thing past life would x better gone heck would anything get rid forever meds helped occur less frequently still severity,1 guys need help asking g wait dont go school everything online goddammit dont like it cause cant go school fantasize different girls frick wanna see someone want them dm want want you see pulled sneaky ya,0 almost well done john carpenters vampires entertaining solid piece popcornentertainment budget small enough overrun special effects obviously aiming from dusk till dawnaudience vampires los muertos tries starting rockstar jon bon jovi playing one main characters almost well seen jon bon jovi movie able compare acting vampires los muertos roles really suprised good performance movie started convinced expecting grab guitar playing it life something kill vampires showing mercy job done means lot part audience also me probably thinking just hes rockstar course bon jovi james woods honest could much worse opinion bon jovi good performance vampiress played arly jover leather dressed killermachine vampireleader met part or similar way ghosts mars jover plays vampire seductive sexy moving lithe cat attacking fast snake dressed thin light almost transparent erotic cloth even optical effects supporting kind movement well made really takes beating director parts film avoiding turning movie actionhorrorfilm sensitive horrormovie like murnaus nosferatu almost see directors temptation create movie personal note different original real strength movie time weakest point audience celebrating funbloodbath first movie probably expecting pure funbloodbath second time might little disappointed make mistake vampireslos muertos funbloodbath time kind movie think massacre bar compared scene vampiress tries seduce zoey ruins barmassacre expect american popcornentertainment seducingzoeyintheruinsscene almost europeanlike cinema the movie eager tell us relationship zoey vampiress refuses answers time would slow action showed audience vampiress human past suffering creature beast slaughtering anybody thats point decides whether movie accepted audience original movie not also from dusk till dawnaudience really going like this im sure that nevertheless tommy lee wallace really great job vampireslos muertos surprisingly good also think direct sequel popcorn movie wallace sometimes almost creative expressive like hes keeping developing talent order satisfy expectations audience opinion wallace talent fills movie life maybe sometimes sucking time vampires los muertos almost well done i give ,0 jnos legyen fenn jnoshegyen estre odavrom jnos nekem nehogy lmos legyen mert n azt ki nem llom jajj jani szeretnm hallani szerelmet vallani csak ez kvnsgom jnos legyen fenn jnoshegyen estre odavrom jajj jani szeretnm hallani szerelmet vallani csak ez kvnsgom jnos legyen fenn jnoshegyen estre odavrom jajj jani szeretnm hallani szerelmet vallani csak ez kvnsgom jnos legyen fenn jnoshegyen estre odavrom jajj jani szeretnm hallani szerelmet vallani csak ez kvnsgom jnos legyen fenn jnoshegyen estre odavrom,0 see bigger threat society corrupt world leader horny artist,0 i cant take no more a knock come on my door i open it and oh farewell my sweet friend darkness fill the room but the flower will soon bloom it coming to an end farewell my sweet friend i dont care anymore nor i can take no more no way out of this farewell my sweet friend,1 quote used summary occurs halfway good earth captain chinese revolutionary army played philip ahn apologizes mob time shoot looters among them unit called back front lines course next looter found shot main character film former kitchen slave girl olan for whose portrayal luise rainer yearsold second consecutive best actress oscarbr br the next scene finds olan dutifully delivering bag looted jewels underappreciative husband farmer wang lung paul muni setting motion classic dichotomy mans upward financial mobility direct inverse moral declinebr br for movie dealing subject matter including slavery false accusations misogyny starvation home invasion eating family pets mental retardation infanticide exploited refugees riots civil war summary mass street executions bigamy childbeating adultery incest insect plagues biblical proportions good earth surprisingly heartwarming moviebr br my parting thought form another classic quote olan while putting precious soup bone son admitted stealing old woman back cooking pot husband wang lung angrily tossed dirt floor side hut meat meat,0 anyone talk mehi really need people talk right now okay atm im pain moms bf basically hit strangled me life honestly pretty shit overall try keep going everyday today bit much called police here end still left alone theres much do file charges feel alone life tbh know go anymore,1 "@JudgeJadams Good (that' you'll be there, not that Sammy will be in Thayer... Ha!)... Don't guess you'd mind a house guest, would you? ",0 "It's a fabulous rainy Monday mornin! No sarcasm here, seriously ... about to bring (free) food to my elderly friends! I love Mondays!",0 apparently brother thinks water tiny amount lemon juice sour obviously got up went fridge got lemon juice drank nice refreshing glass lemon juice,0 confessed crush happen happen guess,0 Looking forward to a beautiful and relaxing weekend and Game 3 tonight!! Happy Memorial Day Weekend ,0 @eoghanquigg you were great at the boyzone concert ,0 Testing Threeter More info at http://threeter.devv.com,0 cant fucking another second thisive wanted kill fucking long tried several times thought getting better lmao wasnt im bad ever hate everything life fucking going anywhere seem make mistake mistake fucking rant everyone else lmao fuck dude guess shitty lives huh feel terrible im going friends care honestly im point really barrier anymore last straw finally happened too thats awesome im trans ftm two years still dysphoric mind nothing changed much thats even worst though lol weeks ago drinking friends house got blackout drunk really bad night im pretty sure someone fucked lmao definitely condom anything even though took plan b think fucking worst thing couldve happened happened theres symptoms it everything sore gross morning after bruises over theres scattered memories someone sex me know consent even did even sober enough stand definitely state to got sexually assaulted sex traumatic reminder super dysphoria inducing avoid costs done right mind ive nonstop anxiety attacks last week even period year plus ahahahah apparently im unluckiest fucker alive thats fucking kill myself everything goes wrong im sick im sick forcing get motions top it cant even think put name literally retch dysphoria another panic attack skipped school go cry car today cant fucking man even thinking whats happening right makes want go grab knife get one dads guns hell theres plenty lakes around too hard lol ive wanted excuse long ive known redflag cant take care im state requires parent consent it tell one theyll fucking mad might let get rid theyll literally ruin life afterwards tell them know fuck happened remember consenting it plus physically able this ive got bmi get periods literally testosterone fucking years way apparently was im fucking miserable sex even decision im one stuck consequences thats all cant it life nonstop traumatic events ive got hella mental illnesses want fucking deal anymore care enough future give damn recovery im sorry friends sister know fucking break hearts cant fucking go anything else end here,1 fs dropped excited now know dont move along,0 whoever guess zodiac sign receive via cashapp paypal u haeve paypal first person guess zodiac sign gets lets get it,0 @StarrGazr Yes mam! There's nothing like starting the day with a good song and a few dance moves ,0 ban i hate pedophiles i pedophilia pedophilia disgusting thing child porn digusting thing think either ok disgusting child groomers also disgusting i likely gonna banned sub soon idiot thinks pedo not cant technically anyway year old attracted fictional characters older pedophilia people older attacted kids leas years younger definition pedo people disgusting humans ps fuck mini ladd,0 wishing she hadnt drunk so mush yestaday,0 im coming weak straight basically straight except im attracted trans men,0 Okay people last one #1 H-Town Part Time Lover you already know RIP Dino http://bit.ly/eFfHn This is sexy.,0 hate tiktok personally like tiktok hate it,0 lost best friend im lonely shit gtgttheres long story behind this one friend amazing person talked time good stuff depression lot issues lives always talk help shitty times hard type whole story really stressed bad anxietyam also lot insecure started really pressuring later on making shitty mistakes made friendship decline eventually really messed stopped contact me way actually talk im school phone used skype removed that months im going really shitty times really miss them know people might think stupid super saddened this saying things like just move on they true friend know fact fault everything got fucked up pretty much deserve this friends hate screwing things best friend ton issues im really close giving hate vv well thats rant hopefully someone give good advice thankful help,1 rohitdoss yes romba depression aguthu stress aguthu mudiyala,1 big balls important big dick small balls unsexy even u inch massive pp big dangling balls yummy,0 expensive liveive overdosed know wont kill me dream dying slide consciousness next hours life getting harder harder dont know im meant keep going health insurance going minimum month april im australia health insurance must appropriate inpatient mental health care rent going week may moving somewhere cheaper means wont able access public transport even socially isolated physical health isnt improving looks like im collecting chronic illnesses every year im alive none cure treatment manage symptoms theres guarantees ive already rejected appealing ndis disability support would fucking amazing electric wheelchair would mean leave house independently try build kind life im stuck home small collapsible mobility scooter allows get local shops further im disability never increases cost living quit work year ago became unwell work manager simply chose give shifts im done dont think ever meant alive long redflag entirely logical solves many problems cant otherwise solve,1 im alive attempt happy itif one thing could right could least fucking killing myself im pain physical emotional feeling worse attempt physical pain id attempted already im literally fucking crying die pathetic know is mention feelings impending doom anxiety upcoming events wish someone would shoot me wish god wouldve killed asked kid wish balls back first attempt ,1 change ios app logos photos im honestly know change app logos,0 whenever see yall think southern like idk ingrained yall south,0 im looking artists song romance stuff probably best subreddit post got tired topic music again listen rock music too used artist say kind interesting things lover so could recommend artist even playlist spotify id grateful sorry use word incorrectly im native english speaker,0 famous person meet please share met met ,0 "@happynotsnappy they came out brilliantly, so impressed ",0 live prison cannot get depression cannot kill want hurt anyone family live torn apart even anyone talk deep sorrow,1 tired failure collegei got c important college class might affect future grad school ive gotten another c already important college class know try take again going hard even know going worth career even know worth it like im done feel like im walking life im even sure why even know want want give up life people telling smart going great college came intellect fallen window care care future care grade shows im wow suck im tired im tired want over cant im pretty sure someone sad die wish tried harder feel way wish knew future hold im scared it im scared whats ahead know thing easy well easy simpler trying hate myself im tired im really fucking tired cant believe failure couldve stopped this hate want someone tell everything going okay believe it want change know want wait want end things least itll final,1 supposed answer girl says likes like fr sure isnt joking around pranking also please jokes ,0 I ain't stressing bitch ain't no depression,1 mental health using social anxiety and depression a tool of productivity http t co i p0xklncz,1 ok so last week on wednesday i had to go to hospital because i got appendicitis then the next day i wa bleeding internally so basically had surgery x i am currently still in hospital and it been about a week exactly today however i started getting very severe anxiety and have reached out to my nurse and everything to take med but they domt seem work i even tried mindfulness youtube breathing yet nothing seems to be working for me my thought pattern is like your not gon na get outta the hospital alive your gon na die shit like that with my thought racing and it been going like this all day and i can t seem to stop it just my thought taking control of me and i feel like shit because of this anxiety like i never had this bad anxiety before also im still stuck in this hospital until im released maybe this week can someone please let me know how to deal with this i feel like i cant take it anymore and it getting to me,1 ive talking guys sexually online feel connectionbasically would download pictures pretty girls give guys online tell jerk off would rarely get would feel connection someone im going kill ill never get girlfriend unless hire prostitute closest get sexually someone ive stopped btw crying day,1 hey redflag watch family im checking the homeless shelter going nicely new city im staying many kind donators keep us fed clothed shelter assigned case manager help stay track focused toward getting feet helping get apartment ive met interesting people friendly towards far like hangout chit chat garden also watch court cases together p love love love guys,1 another rant school mean guess elementary middle school important fuck whoever invented high school cuz ever taught really advanced ways cheat fart silently everytime make mins feel like hours work cheetos monster,0 imm kill himgave dealer xtx mdma speed ran without giving shit swear god text back ill murder ass,1 @MrArtClark whatcha doin' tomorrow? I am sure all will be fine ,0 parents assbackwards logic dinner table right finishing dinner talked mouth full admit disgusting step dad says youre allowed call people things yourself naturally ask that points mom says time sometimes disgusting id like manners right get this step dad time mother calls it actual fuck,0 ok so since last post fairly good tuesday felt amazing got ball python name chad slithers hes amazing cute aslo amazing much better therapy helping lot ever think suicide feeling really good things rn love all feeling better,1 @BeShayBe lol thanks girl! I think im FINALLY understanding what ff is. LOL Ive been confused all this time,0 New York was wet. Lovely but wet. It rained the whole time we were there ,0 best friend likes idk kind long sorry so best friend leaving next week hung last time ended making touching almost went stopped mom rushing us home acting really weird taking home didnt text back next morning talked phone last night basically said loved wanted show make see beautiful him said felt like half said almost cried kind scary didnt know say feel like im freaking kind of dont know feel love feel like see friend hes liked ive always rejected him ghosted it felt like couldnt handle felt scary feel like thinks ill keeps making jokes leaving now also girlfriend hates me theres that please give advice dont want hurt love him tldr best friend intimate says likes dont know do,0 "@madmagz22 hey hun! great to see u're on twitter, too hope u're well ;-) x",0 optioni awful person around good intentions matter fucking hard try different always end fucking asshole everyone around me three best friends stopped talking january got pregnant march lost baby tubes told cant get pregnant now live boyfriend told end month nowhere go money thought living roommate excruciating cant bear close another person end hating me every single relationship ever ended unbearable around really try fail over ive done therapy emdr im going change im going get better want get hotel room shoot enough heroin die ive clean sober five years graduated nursing school none matters literally make everyones life encounter worse tired scared disappointed became,1 absolutely nothing.. my sister and i won tickets to the lets make a mess tour in cleveland! cant wait to see hey monday;again ,0 dont know get helpive walking fucking circles m trying say feel friend m cant it dont wanna die without knowing good me dont know want ask help say im ending tomorrow cant take inability something anymore stupid inability talk new people person cant stand anymore cant stand dad anymore wanna die idk stop feeling like except kms im tired crying useless anything games dont know life talking people helped while simply dont think would work again dont know want,1 @ItsDely wut u tryna say? lol every1 shud be happy after they get out the shower ,0 happens tell therapist im suicidal thoughtshi ive dealing depression years year hardest far havent able get redflag mind months im scared die whenever im alone cant help think killing myself realize need professional help ive never therapist scared tell dont want sent mental hospital want honest therapist go dont see point going disclosing feelings theyre gunna send hospital wont go posting post got deleted nostupidquestions thanks,1 good people tend say im so relatable,0 catastrophic failurei cant accept done screw life cant bear face consequences still come cant go back time win lottery need shot like broken horse one else shoot me im going get nerve hang myself tried really hard certain want kind life remains available me even miraculously cured tomorrow mistakes made cant fixed worst consequences still come im ashamed say time read posts here first response envy lives totally ruined im glad still hope you even see way makes realize none me anyone else feel way cant carry on want die,1 hi there i ve spent the past couple of month dealing w anxiety depression and depersonalization and trying changing medication i am on a part time work plan where i work remotely in the afternoon even though i go to bed at a very decent hour i find it so difficult to get up in the morning i will make plan to get up before 9 and get thing accomplished make an appointment etc and despite all this i just turn my alarm off and sleep until noon when i have to log on for work i just dont want to be awake i need to get back to work soon and will be getting up at my old time of 0 am every day but i have no idea how ill do it thing like that used to be so normal before but now i barely want to be awake or leave the house doe anyone else struggle with this are there any tip you recommend to try to get your day started without dread,1 teenager id actually go outside drink fun bang chicks guys sit net thread trying clout farm take long hard look please youll thank years,0 cthgisnialpnidenodnabamocefilretfalarutcetihcrasptth,1 advice girls boys guy theyre different use fucking search bar see people karma whoring goddamn thing people keep falling girl means obviously theyre expert women please shut up none people ever ever represent entire race nobody gonna give advice get somebody screw actually go outside read stupid reddit post im done sub,0 brought existencethis shit doesnt make sense,1 one gives fuck accidentally select wrong answer kahoot one gives shit get kahoot question wrong you clicked wrong one never will felt like putting,0 thisismyiq layin down i dont feel well,0 girlfriend im pretty sure getting mentally abused parents girlfriend long distance like mentally abused parents long care grades mental status theyve taken phone caring thats way talk me theyve neglected younger sister need actual help friends saying call cps im worried shed lonely foster care abused harsher grandma dont know fix this runs away ill arrested need help please,0 let againthe people love ones likely decimate heart cruelty malice indifference keep lowering expectations standards keep getting hurt one day ill learn,1 will leave now. http://plurk.com/p/vhzkv,0 i have a cold buee,0 experience covid far brother got covid like symptoms week ago got tested then came back negative symptoms go test day ago come back positive basically meaning first place fucked idk happened isnt fault everyone whos come contact likely strong chance leads personal experience since im sure too far experiences really lack energy really weird feeling headache us hasnt felt painful guess like annoyance nothing worth complaining about lots congestion aches thats really it way hes felt past week feel mean used bathroom kitchen ya know whatever else house week pretty sure luckily far lesser spectrum,0 "@JonathanRKnight no, i take that back. you just totally made my year. thank you! ",0 "@CookingGranny had me a sleep in today.. took a sleeping pill last night, thought I deserved one Back n forth from the kitchen today ",0 redditors recognize ive seen several people,0 film absolute classic camp elvira mst classic everyone knows story scientist keeps girlfriends head alive lasagna pan basement cruises town tries find body checking local chicks finally finds real hourglass body scarfaced chicks head top severed head makes friends failed experiment closet conehead comes closet rips assistants remaining good arm his right scientists earlier failure whole place burns downbr br the movie scared us much kids friend go basement year seeing it kids ranked scariest movies time one number four one scary movies really good the original the hauntingbr br i give movie seven rating tremendous amount entertainment value offers eerie effect crappy production weird sexual angle scientist looks bodies complete porno sound track scares hell innocent children ridiculous aspects make prime material watching talking laughing could watch film tonight enjoy id rather go dentist watch chicago againbr br seven give it entertainment value mere luck film cinema disaster,0 @divad71 Mmmmm. I just got home from a work dinner & my weekend starts now ,0 thoughts feelings every day wall detailed text inbound hey guys going long one going read way end might want get comfy would first like disclose immediate distress sort making plans snuff anytime soon least yet ive lurking subreddit little now ive got say actually refreshing see people getting helpful answers comfort rather typical know feel classic help there even better people spam redflag hotlines number everywhere look im knocking redflag hotline anything like that helps someone immediate crisis power them knocking friends really know better help distressed state like that personally redflag hotline never effective parrot back things im telling add im sorry must tough everything say offense mirror effective people need someone listen thats okay im need well bit point ive seen others getting things chest guess thats im right now things ive seen people post similar thoughts others not one similar things intent taking immediate action quite people basically accepted likely going die redflag one people already method mind one messy mostly painless make easy clean authorities find body likely thing eventually get sick given familys medical history father brain cancer got treatment got witness slow decline new wife leaving she one destroyed relationship first place nursing home possibly dementia one thins lot cancer survivors talk toll takes loved ones medical costs constant treatments doctor visits spite strong person withering away shell former self ive already decided something similar happens me start putting plan motion loved ones assuming even still alive taken care of going way nah takes courage however something conflicted by long mother father alive cant put that circumstances went far en extreme would ever even consider that slowly developed toxic trait wish harm loved ones find wishing would go freak accident would pass away sleep something effect longer world could finally give permission take life thoughts feelings like make feel like real piece shit course past couple years distanced away acquaintances even closest friends hoping think little bit less and less day way reason end taking life hurt badly forget wrote it said person dies once first time physical body twice name spoken aloud last time last fleeting thought crosses someones mind last time know mean well friends is things say annoys hell me professional help there situation wouldve gotten long time ago thats things though took long time realize this want help already takes much motivation te bare minimum get by im going go someone ive never met develop trusting relationship break barriers put brick brick tell entire uncensored life story theyre going tell slowly start working things like thought process give pills keep among things work next years life away pray major catastrophe happen mean time die yay besides really much go far religious beliefs afterlife feel like magic words pills could put would magically make believe santa clause god change views world matter know probably thinking that point seen way certain situations play out way sociological constructs work cant really unsee it past ive told people things run mind daily basis im told need grow thats life quite frankly never asked begin with thinking way im ungrateful selfish immature person fuck that no whats selfish people claim would miss shit like that go says months time without talking eachother staying here thoughts feelings suffering worth minutes interaction eachother interactions even give second thought go sleep night im selfish one right ive come realize humans one shittiest things happen earth know good ones there humansare cutthroat species ever exist one going friend unless something gain use you nice something people edge bets society taught way theyre suppose act behind closed doors kind remarks love hospitality vanishes cant okay find comfort fact way society is future ahead me one riddled bullshit always struggling make ends meet im tired trying giving all pushing feelings thoughts putting happy face draining always struggling make ends meet im tired best never enough started new job month half ago keep saying iwas great im good everything do hire new person thats fill pick extra shifts okay thought lets see goes im pretty sure know going lets see low behold sudden getting shifts would normally get later find lot experience already front desk agent hotel im basically getting two days night audit lady off rest basically played ear helping house keepers shit like that matter put little euphemisms such busy work sure might lending hand makes jobs little easier helps cut time take clean rooms im part time guy now matter job im doing try try again amazing work ethic always time im great customers im professional time personal engaging guess understand always second choice know happy even job right now swift kick balls finally found something like doing im always pushed aside people makes feel like failure cant even thought adequate basic level jobs like front desk agent holiday inn express making hour half decent job always picks people me trying best applying never good enough places decide give chance take in point highlight day getting work watching bit youtube take ungodly amount counter sleep aids pass out theres something love much warm fuzzy feeling get kick in fighting bit enjoy finally kick in really wish could give life someone would actually use it someone would actually enjoy it way intend going out maybe call authorities right it get time organs able donated need them way death could give someone new lease life hell ever robbery something someone tried mug id everything power get killed ive even thought something horrible ended dying result loved ones miss much even bring that putting weight moms shoulders especially would bury child mother guy decided shootout police gun full blanks redflag cop also messy even though job would go home sit dinner table remember shot guy earlier today one deserves live weight shoulders stupid decisions want go sleep wake up slowly forgotten everyone elses lives go normal maybe even better perhaps someone scientific mindset imagine death like going sleep never wake again believe afterlife reincarnation heaven hell anything effect think trying imagine anything death would like trying remember birth time spent womb speaking biological son barely knows existence tried there mother see good father man god fine dandy though since found someone ended two kids married him signed rights full custody best regardless bringing churchgoing godfearing christian didnt loving siblings something wanted did stable family father figure couldve actually taught things things could never do lot friends think want know older strongly disagree honestly thats best disrupt natural order things make suggestions get told tell raise child made right decision seeing watch grow sidelines place polar opposite person spiritual beliefs hanging around hes happy thats whats import me hes happy without me take chance confusing fucking things up theres much could type make damn bit difference im ready end time im terrified it reasons know best guess would death permanent thing cant comprehend existing like explaining earlier really like reason fear it since going happen us eventually embrace it made far wall text would like thank patience so another day life suicidal nutcase someone take comfort knowing alone way feeling thinking maybe afraid say aloud type out know word right way even anonymity bunch strangers reddit applies you best say take one day time think many ahead end eventually,1 "@abduzeedo : loving all the new tech being spoken about this month so far, seems that things are hotting up social media wise ",0 overgoodnight everyone pray everyone seeking help finds solace late me r k q always love all,1 "you are not crap, that's probably your depression talking",1 need someone tell im okay want believe itno long post like last time im angry sad know help healthy ways anymore selfharm ive done less lately feel worse it thing helps alt account fly handle people think assholes maybe me feel like im never going better im me am feels doomed know interact people anymore nothing enough thought seeing friends would help didnt reminded lonely am problems unsolvable theyre even real problems theyre me need loved fucking hug anything cant ask help anyone actually know go back work days know cant fucking job anymore im snapping ive snapping months finally happening help sorry how doing much posted days another useless thing make fucking furious reason im immature oversensitive piece trash edit response certain asshole commenters fucking shrink seen summer thanks dick really loved reminded im basket case also followed rgamegrumps wonder danny would tell someone kill themselves probably not right maybe either fucking monsters,1 hatoumadks mdrrrr d pression c est petit m me,1 @dfizzy Play Ghostride the whip by Family Force 5. ,0 @macaddikt18 Congrats! Very cute. ,0 our duck and chicken are taking wayyy too long to hatch,0 riotous farce set world glamorous daytime soap operas film hilarious admittedly taste films screaming hysterical dialogue overthetop acting melodramatic plot twists do one hell treatbr br sally field plays celeste talbert daytime tvs queen misery celestes cushy life thrown upheaval unexpected arrival lori craven elisabeth shue longlost niece and simultaneously jeffrey anderson kevin kline splendid always celestes longago lover celeste hiding deep dark secret arrival lori jeffrey might bring surface add diabolical montana moorehead a wonderful cathy moriarty full gorgeous woman testosterone spare mode trying mighty hard destroy celestes career david robert downey jr weenieboy producer soap whos secretly plotting montana ruin celeste and rose schwarz whoopi goldberg scriptwriter celestes one true confidant heaping helping subplots general chaosbr br chaotic comedies like tricky execute does anyone remember mixed nuts done well pretty damn funny major ingredient necessary good comedy casting seasoned pros know lots times funniest things said seen expression look field kline goldberg rest work together well clearly great time hard become drawn energy enthusiasm shue clearly weakest link here draws attention surrounded field kline et al moriarty standout showy villainess role making think hottest damn dominatrix ever see also lots familiar faces recognize small but nevertheless funny roles including carrie fisher garry marshall kathy najimy teri hatcher director michael hoffman keeps pace swift histrionic plot moving toward big finish mention must also made robert harlings screenplay carefully constructed stage soap opera within soap opera dialogue boiling great lines delivered brilliantly actors id willing bet lot stuff improvisedbr br look want see bunch pros best great time it get hands one anything else put good mood make laugh,0 "i just want to have a nice weekend that's it, my depression has been kicking my ass for MONTHS and it still is but i just want to enjoy myself and not be miserable ok",1 @GeekRemixALot Aw yeah depression wont know what hit it,1 bored amp tired miss the stay back time,0 need helpi suicidal point plan way it suffering while every since lost baby august thoughts best friend kill long ago everything falling apart around really know else ending all,1 hey guys get feedback could really use feedback streetwear brand could guys check comments link brand let know think feedback seriously helps much thanks lot,0 finally readyits overwhelming impulse anymore actually calm calming decision october th am head golden gate bridge beloved motorcycle ill hug goodbye ill walk along bridge displaying mastery performing people entertaining others wearing smile ill find spot inhale exhale hands chest climb up fall backwards head first everything okay im perpetually lonely nothing make feel better im broken incapable feeling anyone therapist bless heart put much shit me care much shes person care about dont want deal anymore dont want feel lonely anymore want die,1 ill preface saying seen numerous psychiatrists therapists gps wringer family doctor throwing antidepressantantianxiolytic prescriptions see sticks everything still feels matter med new routine holistic solution etc exhausted living so march attempted suicide lived alone nice apartment locked door suite flipped security latch taped handwritten dnr sign living room locked door took uncountable amount clobazam not clonazepam different drug gravol pills least nighttime benadryl pills got bed listened strict machine goldfrapp then feeling id never felt done felt like id finished life soothing also could effects massive quantity pills took thengirlfriend called me fine conversation black out tells days failed suicide attempt happened completely coherent stopped talking passed out long story short too late wake two days later intensive care tube throat regulate breathing catheter definitely in guess dnr work parents who live four hours away sitting around come to fast forward convince everyone crazy say maybe go psych ward said no get better care move back city i living small city time get back apartment parents stay me covid breaks out postgrad program studying announces classes over move back big city parents basement degree mailed me keep conversations people keep wrong things continue comply ministry transportation get drivers license back keep sending different forms get doctor sign depressionredflag stays same covid made world weird years days suicide attempt purgatory much violence greed narcissism world like never seen before every day work jobs money comes goes id never even made anything conversations ad nauseam hell sartres exit days think purgatory purgatory purgatory trigger warning,1 year old daughter began taking riding lessons started looking horse movies her always heard national velvet never seen it boy glad bought it become favorite mine year old year old shame movies like made anymore,0 got biggest clutch got chemistry test draw diagrams thought failed it instead got percent im relieved rn lol,0 just bought You with @melorahardin & @allisonmack (@youthefilm) I can't wait till it gets here! ,0 watched series seen naked gun films found much better films thought films great series literally glues television set anticipation next pun sight gag funny situation the night wicker place club flamingo think ive ever laughed hard tv series life even seeing movies first thus knowing jokes think shame six episodes produced agree writers would hard pressed maintain level comedy episodes overall series must see like puns bad jokes slapstick sightgags,0 finally home now so hungry and now one is home,0 want kill myself realise factual level probably end line meive poverty entire adult life severe developmental disabilities compounded trauma trauma trauma trauma trauma trauma trauma trauma im trying take inventory remaining options stare one looks appealing dying really working family bank account way ever make money ebegging anymore cant beg life accused scammer stalked rumours spread whatever else people get upset wanting super friendly cheerful everyone want place say live one live anywhere want sense permanence life income home family live hostel visa country runs less week know im going know maybe want kill all ive keeping drunk days days much handle emotionally even drink killing starts look like genuinely viable option table know id rather die put one problems anymore,1 is uploading pictures to Flickr.com ,0 @HayleeLovesK2 omg im watching ice princess too lmao i lurvvee disney 2!! lmao were destined to be sisters. and yes Niley equals luv,0 saw theater instantly thought good enough video big nut scifi action flicks though anywaybr br without giving story away worth seeing like scifi without requiring much thought story basic plot good worth time seebr br maybe make sequel br br ,0 ill never get thisim lazy sack shit fix life ever simply lack discipline drive so whatever good things ill halfassedly worm happening deserved im simply incapable trying best cant even take fucking meds consistently try get therapy bothersome me want live better yet want fucking try live better worst part is im much coward even go deed im dooming life incredible mediocrity ill simply rot away without accomplishing thing thing im good english language im russian something ive learned still drive accomplish things get better something long gone im honestly incredibly pathetic even deserve redflag many people better understandable grave reasons it disgusting apathetic mediocrity,1 jugular veinif got stabbed jugular vein long would take die,1 "@BethFratesMD That's what I've been trying to build up for a few years. My grad advisor has been one of my best supporters in building up my confidence in psychology. Having somebody else believe in us can be such a healing thing, especially when your mind is poisoned with depression.",1 my mental health ha been sharply declining lately for various reason and i ve found myself in a constant state of dread and paranoia i m far more nervous than usual and i m very uneasy around other people even my family in general i ve been very jumpy recently i m constantly glancing over my shoulder at shadow in the corner of my vision mostly i just feel very unnerved like the feeling you get after watching a horror movie the unnerved feeling is the worst part because it s been interfering with my sleep dae experience this and how do i make it go away,1 pushed friend slide see happens floor made concrete great idea park fell face first broke nose lol blamed kid nothing bad happened,0 @ShannonLeto Aww bless. ,0 broooo im kinda embarrassed right ive going around telling everyone im ask measured im literally dot thats kinda embarrassing man ig im shorter thought,0 @britneyspears I was at the show last night!! AMAZING! So glad I was able to go!! ,0 hello fellow users whiteboard shall creating specific whiteboard tuesday thursday week irregularly create whiteboard weekends yeah got meme corner art corner hope hear think it have funhttpsrwhiteboardfoxcom,0 gf suicidal need advicethrowaway gf dating weeks already love eachother much far good right yes found suicidal messaging right im writing this saying things like it would better everyone died he made makeout even though want to im thinking killing constantly i want dad know freak daughter has they know me freak etc please help gf,1 know much longer go without actually haha want okay again know could amazing life right much pain aparently everything get better eventually really hard see far future right now really hope gets better literally every day come close killing,1 failing highschool want kill myselfive honour student since grade im currently grade ive schools moved times never stay house years soon years pass family moves new location hard make friends make im gonna move again mom literally came room one day said were moving dad left kindergarten never seen since hes running cops last year failure year first semester got honours like always second semester went hill transfered completely new district mother transfered school week started sign classes want since classes wanted full highschool supposed go signed ap classes art kids smart school math slower kids completely died class schopl filled fithy rich drugged white kids coming asian family completely hated it fit in whole year made friends second semester science new caucasian teacher completely hated guts mother decided would great idea go vacation week summer break hand around assignments one week panicking thankfully really killed me whole week vacation panic science teacher gave notes study on friends class would help surrounded classmates copied person teacher would make jokes like mimicking donald trump saying racist things made joke said see white kids laughing looked directly me shed always forget im class would mark absent shed never give assignments literally everyday would go desk ask it every day shed give tons home work id fail it asked help would always half ass answers shed always talk boyfriend forget something were learning students would always correct her failed me got needed pass longer storythis yearskip put science grades went last year marks teacher amazing suddenly kicked class put learning support im good student homework sat class nothing counsiler like all school offers support think credits last year low asked online courses summer school extra credits counsiler like said hates said everything mom wants take science classes cores next semester sci eng social next year sci sci need science graduate shes forcing me first semester almost over huge mental breakdown last year cry front people started crying room mom came running think shes help right no yelled me screamed threw things me said things like fuck crying huh answer me look me fuck problem threw phone charger me younger sibling amp steal swear lie time theres sooo much drama tell all ive depressed long many years gone without killing myself cant fake smiles anymore theres absolutely way ill get enough credits graduate want drop end all care anymore almost am right now cant sleep think killing myself im ready die,1 "Just had lunch and watched some clips, found a page that has collected some funny stuff http://digg.com/d1tshi ",0 big frog eated sad day us,0 "my twitter first! Had to try it...looks fun...time for bed! Night, new friends Pls..good thoughts about that grant-update tmrw. promise",0 sloanb got it sadly only work for uk amp u at the moment,0 i m currently on prozac rexulti and buspar i m in a pretty bad place so my doctor added wellbutrin to my medication generally how long will it take to show improvement in fatigue and motivation if it work,1 arrangmentsi going kill myself foregone conclusion beyond possible retraction point thread point age things vastly complicated would gone acording plan case trying get handle things need address finishing job dont leave annoying loose ends somebody else figure out would terribly inconvenient think rude so lets make list considerations made beforehand bears mentioning useable part remains harvested rest corpse disposed expedient least sentimental way possible explicit instructions funeral memorial services obviously life even worth living damn sure reason tie money peoples time senseless ceremony platitudes hit ideas reasoning,1 get gf supportive lmao ampxb processing img mkazzfkdi,0 november two weeks ago resulted heavy head bruising another concussion lasted two weeks kneed repeatedly head kicked face well punched several times tried escape tried get away,1 ok looks like biden lead v nervous u guys think win,0 @michaelsheen flange huh i will remember that if i ever make it that way. love your work!,0 hey mods stop banning people answer modmail pls also pls someone tell send yall message mod,0 losing girlfriend faultwe argument instagram photo liked know fucked big ive hurt badly little trust ive made think dont want even tho amazing ive complimented everyday amazing body like talks everything silent cant seem trust anymore killing never intended hurt like im known boyfriend made insecure body even tho love it feel like whats point im job shit different day bullshit routine life seems pointless feel ever touch break cant seem please dont think get trusting,1 moan name now like right now time explain moan name ill explain later,0 thanks grandma cool grandma reminded stupid childhood trauma severely messed cant stop suicidal thoughts ill fine need help someone talk to know im coward commit anything,0 days left think quite nice,0 "i've got sausage and egg sandwiches for breakfast, yay! ",0 almost years since saw jennifer first time know name movie looked web site told many people especially grandchildren movies include graphic details order frighten leave powerful impact story skillfully introduces concepts true put ida lupino dangerous situation time miss lupino discovers new fact draws viewer confusion fearbr br this movie impact almost years later still list one frightening movies ever seen yet movie contain blood gore became popular shortly movie made amazing impact good story great actors make,0 thats messed up,0 Hope everyone is having a SWELL day ,0 hey guess got bf well yes actually got bf,0 urgentplease tell go away see psychiatrisdoctor anything like that really cant take it keep thoughts mind cant control cantdeal more much thoughts come anytime increasing even typign this theyre much know anymore start personilites mix thoughts mock control actions much yes mean control like actual body want see pain want die like fun them know like others want see hurt kill yourself sense guess bring redflag thoughts let buts much please say doctor anything asked subreddits got answers said that tried telling others look weridly one way control found repeatldly hitting head thats obviously good solution ease things,1 im bored yall got good tv showmovieanime recommendations favorites are got attack titan deadpoolthe expanse thanks,0 i dont bother doing anything all day and im failing college yet im still tired and im constantly thinking about suicide,1 past month trying really hard get shit together slow going trying course depression making easy started eat lot better gained weight i underweight win least lolim struggling bit personal hygiene problem taking showers often skip brushing teeth especially night energy also struggling keep things cleandoes anyone tips consistent works you tips function normally least consistent personal hygiene,1 i always wonder how much of my anxiety justifies thing and how much it doesn t like when i have no energy and just wan na lay in bed and do absolutely nothing when it feel like i can t do anything or when i feel so drained when i feel to anxious and can t breathe or when i get physical symptom like upset stomach etc when this get in the way of school work or well lack of school work how much of it is my fault or not my fault is it just an excuse but it s really hard and doesn t feel like an excuse or am i making mysef just believe that i m struggling but i m not so confusing just wan na sleep all day,1 thecoolestout,0 offbeat slowpaced entertaining erotic thriller many graphic blasphemous scenes undoubtedly disturb viewers however itll hard even appreciate several imaginative sequences film contains ignore krabbes firstrate performance verhoeven maintains intriguing ambivalence throughout film playing meaning heros visionsomens unfortunately last minutes everything turns blur unsatisfying ending certainly good rest movie ,0 ive decidedif anyone remotely care dies kill ill actual reason wanting die loneliness depression wouldnt give fuck hurting love yeah kind fucked cus im kinda kinda hoping someone finally kms,1 death hardim tired life drunk bunch poison im still dead researched lethal amount im still here killed me feel awful im dead far thing thats happened caused boyfriend leave me said deal hurting anymore really matter already wanted die gives one reason want leave horrible world,1 triplejsr the new eminem single quot we made you quot it s got zero play on aftermath s myspace i wan na hear it soo bad,0 "@understand2244 (pun intended) It's called celiac disease and the good thing is if you have GI problems, depression, anxiety, muscle spasms, joint pain, hair falling out, bad teeth, and the like, you can get an easy blood test to see if you have it! But note that you will get a false negative...",1 A guy called BalusC is pissed at me at sun forums http://bit.ly/3wGfM6,0 mindset machine these are helpful suggestion but don t guilt yourself if you can t always achieve them clinical depression anxiety etc and be disabling and often require professional treatment to overcome be patient with yourself and simply do the best you can with what life give you,1 tweeting with eli. ,0 ajnr 0 obama manuel cyrill wegotalkam isaacquophai boyekweku broken heart 90 jon kay rockson soul izzatelkhawaja and here i am thinking money cure depression eei,1 girl interested me thought would escape self loathing id finally found reason give second chancei bullied high school got called ugly lot high school guys really shot self confidence one wanted associate anyone find voice stand bullies caused isolate develop social anxiety hate myself ive already tried commit redflag two times back high school little sister saving suffocating myself nearly everyday feel like im good enough womans romantic interest see attractive people relationships makes mad want have makes feel like im meant alone thought previous girlfriend great extremely attracted her really clicked lost interest ever since ive working trying rebuild selfconfidence finally built courage verbally flirt girl something ive trying since th grade hd date even kissed tells interested anymore mightve little shy besides idea wrong im left assume looks lack selfconfidence ever want feel like again im also tired much consumerism affects life wish want money attractive relationship need someone something take mind much hate dead none would matter,1 another shit year coming right upwhy fuck even bother staying alive end finally done everything theres lots competent people replace existence anyways,1 got argument flat earther uncle middle heated debate asked legitimate associations actually support claim world indeed flat said enthusiastically response yes flat earth society lot members organizations around globe,0 @quantastic yeah...I'm in the market for lamps. What bulbs do you use?,0 update im gonn kms christmasso hey guys hope ur well ive made decision one guy ive messaging really helped turn around wanna live want meet people like him mentioned last post family absolute shit dont want live them anyone myself life decide happens people reached really thank you bottom heart people dont realise words impact man ur guys messages positivity really helped reading going hard time hope find light reason live many gotta find them overall id like thank concerns messages kindness thank reddit helping get hard place,1 @sjusjun cats are such perfect alarm clocks ,0 I thought theses day mental health matters so when a 17 year old calls the docs to get a call back and says it's about depression only to be told manage it by the receptionist and there's worst people out there really,1 pandemic made cullwith pandemic ai digital social requirements function feels like really designed ongoing cull going on,1 wants hold hands yes know im naughty girl,0 gulshan hinaaltaf cylinder ka rate badhane se depression se kaise bahar aate hain doctor saheb koi sir pair hai teri baat ka,1 hello world im really bad nightim worried tonight impulse decisions something stupid tonight ive really unfulfilled life while im letting relationship decay im unchallenged work go work come home sit go bed again going really long time gotten significantly worse last year dont socialize outside work ive completely lost sex drive gained lbs work even wants promote id make decision wanted do motivation want sit cry feel really empty disconnected people dont even know form close relationship even though ive dating someone years now cant bring talk thing important dont even see point to last time best friend also years ago died suddenly heroin overdose didnt know using again want disappear im tired tired,1 @ChelsIsTheName ah well i'm glad i could introduce you to PER ,0 reward cute af never said anyone wich makes oyu special ,0 got destroyed mother said know get news faster you say memes reddit mother like social life comeback one,0 morning all i m back from my little break from the computer back to work again today,0 aaaaand im backit good one week run suicidal help st johns wort supplements quitting coffee anxiety dropped quite bit suicidal thoughts gone week im back utterly miserable im constantly fight flight anymore deeper issues start emerge long lost feelings come surface ive pushed decades want feel way much want stop enough looked old classmates profiles advanced life many found love im stuck traumatic dream land achieved nothing age im defective useless want die please love god put misery,1 i didn t choose to be born i didn t choose to have these vital instinct it shouldn t fall onto me to overcome them the world that gave birth to me should fix it mistake i shouldn t be asked to fix it in it stead it s not my responsibility,1 im bad mood want friends tiktoker want come creepy incel harass it supposed this livestreams every then thinklike week im pretty much one chats almost like texting her im incredibly lonely every time try comment vids end breaking im scared want friends lesbianso im trying come romantic plus taken wants block me im eagerly waiting next stream ask know thats gonna work asked qampas deleted questions every time want friends hernothing that never asked thing could make happy think stemmed able talk real friends quarantine stuff commented vids want others see it truly lost get go it im claims bad experiences school target bullying rumorsso probably want talk me fanbase surprisingly smalldespite follower count like count would tell youand thats feel like could get along pen pals something someone big charli damelioi would definitely try get clearly notice me open region lives inso fantasize actually meeting personthough feel like would miraclein sense word like posted feel like guys rteenagers understand better raskreddit would hope come creepy,0 drugs really bad except weed coke shrooms acid aya dmt,0 seen many bad reviews supervivientes de los andes felt compelled stand or least ill try first all course looks dated made seventies low budget thats part charm like contemporary films also dig old ones worth im one feel urge see like movies modern treatments effects besides almost every movie buff likes old fashioned motion pictures who like films el santo plan outer space matter overall quality aspect pace tool covering again low cost think constant dialogs order better character situations development sure alive better fx despise old one that feel quite attracted english speakers event involving people uruguay me gives plus supervivientes de los andes like even canoa seventies based true event too would better remake due advance technology think would stick one based emotions offers regardless production datebr br all based impact first time saw tv nowadays think lost primal force course long time ive seen tons better movies every aspect cinema diminish true value bad film place alive without hesitation give break,0 let us face it little good world things keep us going false hope things get better get better world cold place one nobody gives fuck you nobody truly understands you alone inside heads trapped prison torment merrygoround hell reprieve drugs price future torment like sick joke believe otherwise burying head sand comforting believe positivity also comforting believe fairy tales cannot live cannot die barely carrying on every time start picking peices life knocks back again years years come realize destiny fear death brings respite deeper versions hell see positive things delusional,1 I wish ppl would talk about depression accurately in the media like what is the point of awareness if u spread false crap,1 *Camp Wiggi* Training at the YMCA from 10am to 7pm such a long day but I love my camp friends <3,0 everyday wake think really shit againjesus fucking christ many days there like today yesterday get break feel like ive alive years wanna wrap shit days counting,1 want put cap head im sick life hate much theres point existence im horrible human being im freak deserves dead energy left end school hate life wanna dead im sick this cant body give already fuck im sorry ,1 jesus christ even straight dude uncomfortable read posts thighs filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 depression remedy little step big impact http t co kebtd od depression humanpsychology remedy,1 wizarab 0 aunty said this would spiral her back into depression i just can t abeg sneaker,1 waiting die going long wait pretty much,1 hope die sleep timefuck,1 theekween it help with heart break trauma anxiety depression and pain of losing a loved one thelmasherbs,1 tonight planive wanting two years ive said many bad things people ive treated people like shit life girlfriend broke yesterday wants someone didnt hurt like did month together trying hard better since constantly blew never gave time day acknowledging love years completely disregarding fact note ready songs planned release tonight farewell idea im going it idea use ropelike restraints used sex honestly dont want suffer idk would hangstrangle myself despite half assed cords want madness,1 FRM:Nick Heunisch MSG: were talking about her dog it's a turn on Cat pussy yum!,0 theres lot built dead skin hand broken arm really gross feels kinda nice rub off cant wait take cast nice shower washing off,0 viennaceleste no wednesday game with viewer that s almost equal to clinical depression c,1 ah came old friend depressionim feeling relatively calm right now theres things id like get chest family aware mental state usually avoid talking it living own although alone express feelings however like home dare cry every time do parents scorn weak emotional thats hardest part hardest part that believe ive sexually abused kid cant tell anyone it barely think live grandparents uncle aunt summer holidays parents busy working one morning woke up felt something genitals thought fist accidental went back sleep know better weird feeling wont go away obviously cant prove anything guilty party already jail for reasons theres cousin also age think asked hand job something exchange bought snacks currently huge debt gambling mom wont stop coming house ask us money horrible memories wont go away please help can,1 transitioning relationshiplate twenties im ftm transgender im getting depressed anxious time cant afford see therapist im taking hormones thats something thats going well life everything else falling apart husband left want seen gay love anything pain knowing could not transition stay bad anything else issues related transition dysphoria im waiting long seen progress treatment get help know it,1 anyone know good ways make money online free also without paypal,0 bfs mocking cried end arrow season lmaoo watching last episodes together i didnt watch episodesseasons started crying end last episode hes mocking lmaoo,0 moment,0 vending machine story remembered th grade think waiting mom pick up friend nick sat next left earlier me sitting head looking backpack hear someone approaching vending machine meters away me think wanted doritos vending machine scammed didnt fall minutes girl came vending machine saw kept moving around vending machine making intense life decision decided go it kept making noises trying evade cars highway without brakes end hear oooh got whatever wanted doritos fell yeah randomly remembered that nice day,0 how do i quit a job i keep having panic attack and it s interfering with my job i just started two week ago and this is happening someone plz help i missed my alarm this morning and it s a bad look i don t know what to tect my bos i m quitting bc i feel nervous everyday about the job it s sad bc i actually liked it it s my body that s the issue,1 i started taking depression med a few month ago and it make my suicidal thought go away it wa somewhat amazing i had such thought every day and now i barely think about it at all even when the stray suicidal thought pop up it feel different le scary my problem is that such thought would help me through the day ironiclly if i wa getting stressed i wohld think about the end of all my problem i even began to mutter i m gon na kill myself unddr my breathe and mask during work this wa insanely unhealthy and where i am now is much better comparatively but the thing that worsened these thought is still there i hate my job i have no friend i don t know how to open up to people and i m terrified about having to choose what my life will be i want to go to college study sociology maybe creative writing a well but when i go to take any sort of action i m terrified it s illogical i hate it i work at an amazon facility i stow package i pick up box and i push cart i ve working there part time for year it wa to me at least pathetic so i moved to a longer shift a small bit of action i hate working there but i m terrified of trying anything else my new shift is 0 and a half hour long with a 0 minute unpaid break and two minute paid break yesterday wa my first day after hour i went to cry in the bathroom i drove to work 0 minute ago and soon began cry it wa ugly cry i wa shivering and whimpering on my drive to work i didn t use to do this when i wa depressed i wa much more apathetic i had my coping mechanism but now i don t i m not saying that being depressed wa better i hated my suicidal thought they would ruin my day but i m now noticing that they did help me get through some rough moment it s just not something i expected i know that i should speak to a psychiatrist maybe a therapist a well i know that quitting my job would be better for my mental health i am lucky in that i have the ability to do so and still have somewhere to sleep and eat i know that i think about my future if not college with a sociogy degree then an electrition there are other option for me i m just scared and anxious the reason i wrote this here wa to make it all feel real ir s easy for me to move on from these moment but i should realise that the fear and anxiety from change can t be worse than the anxiety and especially the self hatred that i feel now sitting in my work parking lot writing this out and i took the day off i m scared to confront my mom when i get home but it s for the best and it s what i should do fuck amazon,1 existence hopefully coming end maybe idkmy mind always races races find sickly foul way commit redflag time tries distance family friends give trauma mind races public online im alone find people act ways appease try get good side feel like im needed im naturally kind others time im always toes constantly guarding others incase say mugged kidnapped attacked etc trust anyone im always thinking im wrong compared others opinions politically morally etc difficult think anymore im self conscious stomach way walk close others order draw attention worry seeing hearing well forgetting shit ton things barely think that fucking burden blackened hole heart mind make better want never hurt anyone want alone forever im worthy relationships allowed live never existed fucking hate depressive asshat mind time find comfort it knowing pain go away know how maybe years move out maybe pandemic maybe bleeding alleyway alone maybe quick death gun shot know im hoping happen just hope im cut away everyone ive ever known never seen again fuck existence fuck humanity fuck self conscious fuck world all fuck existence,1 Reinstall of Windows 7. Just installed my new HDD 1TB ,0 anyone or know anything about dependent personality disorderi formally diagnosed this particular disorderhttpenwikipediaorgwikidependent_personality_disorder although ive diagnosed related problems like anxiety depression strong feeling it tick almost every single box however ive never met anyone else problem cant find anything reddit either except passing references someone ive cornered listening suggested post it many different issues hard know one ends another begins seems like one biggest feel utterly helpless make decisions life without someone else guide care me usually accomplish lowrisk lowpressure things like posting internet own anything that even seemingly simple tremendously difficult me mind constantly occupied thoughts alone year ive lost remaining serious reallife friend almost entirely result overdependence understand tiring others almost relationship family fear recently become reality every day gets harder harder accomplish even basic things lately feel forced circumstance habit like going work anything optional less regular even things like going grocery store become impossible me ambition kind no serious financial educational occupational family desires real goals life except surround people care rely on since desire ability carry myself thoughts frequently turn redflag as many years inability act make decisions makes fearful actually following through motivation might suppressed one issues depression ocd anxiety bodyimage problems maybe worst part words make anyone else understand it tried explain people left life get depression anxiety aspects cant grasp overwhelming feeling powerlessness comes things own think see sort helplessness people often feel depression ive experienced know difference enough peptalking usually motivated things depression something else all short new best friend falling sky cant think way solve becomes completely unbearable theres nobody near fill role need filled nobody ive met even relate it anybody experience this supposed do,1 you know what suck finding out i have a burned out tail light when the store are closed plus they are not open before i work,0 discharged hospital definitely want kill myselfi understand perspective ive weeks longer im harder itll go back real world little improved stay things gotten worse meds given anxiety came think redflag every day tried twice here life outside safe bubble overwhelming every angle thats want kill myself real safe place go leave back shit got here keep saying cant cope attend emergency room come back know even go home flat im going go straight bridge jump cant make far ill walk traffic feel like matter say theyre going believe im serious telling us suicidal gotten comfy hospital true want hospital equally cant face life again thought hope getting better despite engaging activities mind gotten worse ill leaving day tomorrow energy ask give least till friday doctor set wednesday stone putting immense pressure agree day want leave go things all tried,1 commies choose abolish communist china communist vietnam dang commies gt,0 "@iveeanne hey, I'm crazy about him but I'm just real, that's life! but it thrills me, and if it's not , well that's ok too. ",0 glowstick cracks final defence yet day becomes crippled darkness steals seeping protective light wounds like depraved hole black mass scrambling fir get,0 helpim new subreddit id rather spend time reading peoples stories supportive wasting time front page people posted here helpful things say helpful,1 know theres making right know theres changing mindddd love nothing waste time waste me great song btw,0 @markng Sounds like a plan. Nice to see some positive thinking though rather than the usual "media is dead" tosh ,0 finally finished new pfp took like hrs kinda underwhelming long took tbh fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 today fucking wild so ive questioning years now never knew exactly was recently watched reboot shera netflix one characters introduced idea non binary research clicked head came girlfriend talked nearly two hours which came panromantic asexual always dreaded times ace would interfere relationship turns ace too sorry rambling mess excitement kinda makes go monkey mode also first reddit post officially outta closet itll take get used theythem already feel much happier,0 realisewhen finally realise months telling thought much realise option cant live like longer girlmy self mind dreams gone nothing take back past please let anybody stand way you nobody narcissistic personality destroy life please please run sooner later end take,1 @nbelloni Cool ,0 #Journey2worthy #podcast episode 13FLAT to FIT! Listen to @lasagafitness as she explians how to overcame a severe depression and started her own fitness company! Tune in here: http://www.journey2worthy.com  pic.twitter.com/SaXILDoiBq,1 i wa prescribed 0mg paxil and am on my second day first day felt like nothing but the second my jaw began clenching and shaking headache and the topic of this post a weird feeling in my penis the best way i can describe it is the equivalent of going on a rollercoaster or something like that and your dick feel like it s trying to crawl back up inside of yourself that feeling but constant and le intense i can t find anyone with a similar experience despite my searching which is why i m posting here i still get off fine but the health anxiety still remains curious to know what that may be indicative of also the username wa meant a a joke never thought it d become reality lmao,1 back again tucking inside longlooks like urges die never really go away,1 need someoneneed someone talk keep something regrettable,1 "Meek was in jail eatin dumb good, or it could've been depression. Who knows lol",1 @nkotbgermany it is. ,0 strider is a sick little puppy http apps facebook com dogbook profile view,0 sex cool all would never able redeem eyes holy father stay pure shall punished sins,0 celebrate chance alive breathingi linked specific part song always helped felt depressed made want get change something immediately sometimes little things get through parabolahttpwwwyoutubecomwatchvriv_uepbltms,1 number day big day guys our first milestone day ,0 wrote poem daydreaming tagged art cause not hope like worst thing dreaming knowing images never become real ill never go destinations create mind ill never meet people spring brain never touch talk see hear world places fiction want want do restrictions within mighty fortress inside head amazing able go anywhere want could fly breathe underwater could swim land walk clouds able things outside mind truly worst thing dreaming,0 find out literally want friends im weird nerdy guy idk else me find out also hate titles hard time making good one,0 @JackAllTimeLow u should take twitpics ,0 let say first huge fan original series lonesome dove book based from put watching sequel better part years due bad reviews id heard it tommy lee jones playing capt call see point larry mcmurtry involved care wrong wasbr br this many ways worthy sequel lonesome dove maybe even dark mood streets laredo story acting production cinematography topnotch course script colorful lonesome dove moments and much surprise bits lonesome done series relationship july clara completely dismissed prequel brought almost identical book welcome surprise story roses surprises too far biggest surprise jon voights interpretation capt call direct copy tommy lee jones faithful unique voights credit cast fantastic across board think rick schroeder done better job acting series oliver reed practically steals show here superb role makes care character equally hate himbr br it worth watch due bad criticisms especially dvd affordable i got disc set probably find cheaper way disappointment dead mans walk turned well me mcmurtry involved one,0 lack purposethere certain emptiness cannot pinpoint cause know possible consequences something tempted twice eternal oblivion,1 hashtag first world problems want make joke school shootings online classes dont know phrase,0 @Ms_Shellow ooo oo or they can drink a cup of bleach ,0 still betteri made post days ago watched rather extensively work home therapist see cannot prescribe medicines earliest psychiatrist appointment least weeks way get medicine need sooner ultradian rapid cycler bpd type fighting losing battle ive attempted times end last year last two times found blade still arm desire fight more true anchors left want stay alive broken hollow others insist staying alive hurts much,1 wait wait wait telling me women pedophiles rteenagers mature body ready molest teenager oh no fixing hair oh thats bad oh putting perfume mouth spray watching im good mirror bbut thats like bad society i reallllly hope non even dares reach me would hoooorrible fixes flannel,0 many us read book seen play movie version came terribly disappointed well maybe would one movies saw play too someone never opportunity see stage extremely entertained movie characters funny music great story interesting made feel genuine empathy characters flaws all jonathan silverman good comedic timing lines especially hilarious im going give spoilers nicely done funny movie showing inner workings middle class family wwii never saw play enjoyed neil simon movies held back couple negative reviews seen here own brighton beach memoirs great movie guarantee no money back though,0 look want attentionoh well careshey all really sure else post really say feel like life spinning control racing ahead me every day blur nothing look forward to difference date thats guys,1 @JeemZay No others are as well worst form of depression,1 stuck years way get out unhappy unhappy continue unhappy rest life cannot claw way one even knows here trapped bottom dark well,1 joining cults linked redflag lately thinking joining cult think would easier if let go follow someone else sounds less stressful than living life redflag works similar way letting everything go,1 @ItsNeet nico is still irritating... hehe we just gotta keep calm and smooth ,0 film follows bunch students nyc high school performing arts theres coco irene cara black singer make top despite everything helped bruno lee curren white musician theres doris maureen teefy wants actressbut shy scared becomes friends motgomery paul mccranepurportedly gay student school romanced raul barry miller theres leroy gene anthony raywho sadly died whos homeless great dancerbut cant read theres various teachers albert hague anne meara stand out trying teach kidsbr br the songs great the title tune out own nominated best songfame won dances energetic young cast shows plenty ambition talent film misses boat drama department many plot lines brought completely left openended end movie coco porno doris raul remain together afterwords either make it montgomerywhat happened him leroy ever graduateand how many long speeches raul two moments lead nothing im assuming cuts scripti cant believe movie left open br br still worth seeing acting and again music theres basically one bad song dances go full force and one point stop trafficliterally favorites fame out here i sing body electric great closing song recommend give the script really needed tie loose endsand didntbr br trivia wanted shot film actual school performing arts get permission dean school read script said way much swearing film truethere lot foul language thats high school kids talk avoid tv version abysmally overdubs it,0 hard find heroinat rate im probably going go home depot buy rope idc painful want already,1 im soi dont even know,1 @Mark_Stringer and @geechee_girl how weird/cool that two people from my two lives should meet on Twitter ,0 didn t get shit done today i m so screwed,0 nattnatt you doggie dazzler im trying to work a bit today if you want we coule pop ovr and say hi later,0 post got deleted shouldnt saw post someone talking harming got taken front eyes dont know user wish well hope youre good,0 exmi hey doll sorry to hear bout ur doggie hope he come home soon would help u look if i weren t so far away,0 parent contribute to their child s depression,1 writing an article video converter in test it ll take a long time,0 whats good dudes first post sub wanted say hi,0 ever fantasize much better world would without youi always think every aspect world effect would improved there like think every possible case every person every little thing improved im part it death net gain everybody imagining world without exciting im looking forward creating it,1 want kill even know whymy life good mother loves love her friends love me wonderfull boyfriend love too go law school hard stresfull home really serious problem little problems while mostly economical problems nothing impossible overcome yet find crying everyday im sad time im alone okay im around friends laugh tell jokes boyfriend im happy everytime im alone start crying started even public sometimes public transport example cant stop even know im crying sad cant find single reason want like this want live life happy every time like want disapear times tried kill backed off mostly mother cat mother would left alone think would kill want happen want happy sometimes feel like cant live anymore know do try stay possitive tell lot reasons live seem work try new things find new hobbies distract think bad things nothing works feel like im getting worse everyday want tell friends boyfriend know would worried cant help me know do even money go therapist ive like years now bad cried times week thought killing often like said gettin worse pregressively since couple months every day same crying times day even know describe feel like sadness frustration depends mostly that exhausting feel like this mannage stop crying relax feel tired like single drop energy left still go school every day eat normal things do think im really bad im afraid someday get tired kill myself want happen know do english first language actually third one im sorry wrote things bad expressed bad know may problems grammar im aware lot people may situation me would really grateful could give kind advice like manage feel better stop sad whatever could try see helps too thank reading,1 im thinking dressing baby order breastfeed woman never figure out,0 what a mistake buying that dress i dont even want to go to grad anymore,0 shit sucks last days lost wife child house car job next financial stabilitythis first time able charge phone last month liver probably going fail kill myself first time remember drunk excluding thisall started rape accusation enough shit stacked almost found guilty something god knows do wife divorced found unfit parent lost job could afford car anymore nothing clothes phone which plan donating shortly this backpack suppliesim known pedophile area nobody go to money even leave nothing leftall life end see happens next god know iti feel need privacy anymore since got morphine willing answer questions poverty crime suicide,1 tell replace plastic bags bottles also motivate answer filler text filler text filler text filler text filler text filler text filler filller strok filler kara give nude,0 bitches like wow u playin yea im playing run cool math games,0 goodbye im going better placei dont understand bad people are shared unpopular opinion fat shaming illegal people said run fatty run nothing live for abusive dad bullies filled real life internet ampxb im going better place called heaven stop can,1 Im well bored what can i do .. i aint been on here in ages ,0 like heavy metal musics join community anybody like heavy metal musics join community called rheavymetalmusicfans,0 honeymunchkin my anger is getting bigger for every minute that go by i got some uglycomments on one of my video,0 love interest school go school two days week go days want advice approach them im like second around feel weak etc etc want know flirt without awkward,0 please talk mewhy wont anyone talk me wont anyone talk me wont anyone talk me wont anyone talk me,1 kmsdoes anyone know best way kill urself efficient painful maybe od,1 good bye everyone fuck world boyfriend broke meam gonna kill self today gonna take foster dads sleeping pills pills alcohol boyfriend broke fucked made mad hea whole fucking world love lost might get adopted foster parents might thrown foster system lose hamster got birthday love fuck ton dont friends boyfriend bestfriend friend bullied abused school teachers dont much anything live anymore lost life twice,1 hey twitter hows it going? let us know how your day is going,0 english first language sorry grammatical mistakes i currently turn year graduated university last year yet find job due unknown sickness happens whenever get emotional hot temperature body overheat causes immense unbearable psychological pain burning needle itching sensation idea get rid instant solution taking cold ice bath impossible outdoor rely water spray minimize pain keep body slightly cool sadly help much either since hard spray clothing public partly hot partly cold wet feelings make even worsethis kept kind activities even leaving room telling parents since years ago take seriously cared whether get degree not although force finding job graduated still proceeded ignore issue feelings according logic think overly redflaged needed time part true really needed medical advice treatment yet remains silent everytime bring up shift topic job seeking tolerable allowing me take year worse dad doctor mom former nurseand shut everyday hurts going outside yes know permanent solution cannot stay like forever even work like normal person itch suffer psychological pain every second fuck no even know wrong body name disease sort doctor seek for even funnier think get itchy pain drinking hot soup walking point useless piece junk stay bed rant internet seriously idea anymore even type nothing change noone help suffer unknown pain everyday last years want end everything now,1 could use friendso ive feeling pretty bad past weeks think lot holidays really rough weather ive really depressed suicidal could surrounded loved ones feel alone like disappointment feel like burden achievements minuscule people hate me feel like coworkers really like me feel like im close breakdown concerned weight want stop eating again feel beautiful loved slept days nightmares mind racing feel like would better everyone disappeared sometimes even know im sad cry reason breathe want hurt want anyone accidentally see feel like im spiraling control want everyone happy feel like make things worse know do hate myself wanna die sometimes,1 anyone ever want make bonfire dance around said bonfire like caveman speed,0 Hey why wasn't that message to me? I'm wearing my peace bracelet too! represent!,0 "gumawa ako ng tula, came up with the topics about love, government, family, education and depression. so random",1 wish reddit would delete replies title something delete dont even feel like explaining,0 since i wa little i have been raised to never respond when i think people are wrong or when they scold me so i learned to just keep it all since i moved alone to another city i have tried to express myself better without being aggressive but lately i have noticed that when i express my emotion or thought people get angry or upset with me so i have been thinking for some time that maybe everyone prefers my submissive version that doe not mention what i think to my most assertive self and that from my perspective it is my true self maybe my personality is wrong and i really should change it or maybe i just don t have the tact to give my opinion advice for any of those option would help me a lot thanks,1 itsnicari obeyalliance good morning depression,1 GoodMorning. Skiping the 1st 4 periods and still in the bed. Only goin to 1 class today. ,0 Our BBQ went well. Pineapple was perfect. Kat added lime to everything. Now we have nothing in the world to do ,0 Part two! Hahahahahaha. What the. Am I enjoying? :o,0 starting senior year collegeampxbseptember body dysmorphia leads believe gynecomastia plastic surgery research occupies time turns basically negligible case goes away lose weight learned much later onampxbdecember scheduled and cancelled surgery dates plastic surgeons remove gynecomastia parents recommend see doctor talk depression obligeampxbjanuary first visit doctor start taking zoloft mg xdayampxbmarch dosage mgday start complaining doctor emotional numbness taper back mg xdayampxbapril bar get cold clocked to day still know hit me clean mandibular fracture broken two places wired shut weeks that ampxbaugust decide good need zoloft anymore was also overweight go drug two weeks later total bmw e m bought year prior running stop light see tboned taxi ampxbseptember researching zoloft weakens bone density increases risk fractures thought if zoloft jaw would broken starts grow head call mom birthday mention suicide first time says cannot leave earth tearsampxboctober meet new girl become boyfriend girlfriend ampxbapril buy penis enlargement device just because see get bigger gf time mind you insecure size begin with wanted see could get bigger ended suffering injury much fast left penis hard flaccid state sometimes actually lost bit length girth it leads lot redflag depression still experience dayampxbmay depressed decide start zoloft again mg xday ampxbseptember go zoloft again girlfriend break up ampxboctober january working fulltime met another girl around feb dated recently things ok covid make things easier whateverampxbfebruary approach urologist potential zoloft ruining sex drive reason cannot perform like used to start research come across wellbutrin start taking wellbutrin mg sr xday ampxbmarch go wellbutrin ampxbwellbutrin mgx per day continues monthlong streaks coupled month off cycle repeats months middle past june ampxb end june come across bunch photos year two prior gynecomastiazoloft phase look love see face looked different remember penis looking functioning way used to remember way teeth pressed together closed mouth jaw click everytime opened gave girlfriend oral ampxbjuly take fathers competition ruger case next bed i parents house here hold it look it wonder cry whatever try fight try think differently nothing really happens put gun back case decide light bowl get high pass top parents stairs pm afternoon work rest family vacation house home alone ampxbjuly decide book tee time drop holes tips home course back nine golf big passion mine horror stories trying play collegethroughout highschool get into played golf entire life july today wake up depressed again high time start reading people psychiatric medications permanently mess up start thinking everything dick fucked up face looks different jaw fracture suffered chose take antidepressants and ssris probably weakened bone density pissed away good notredflag good women everything go back upstairs take dads ruger again look it time cry little bit start realize unstable thing holding back really know operate ruger magazines out though bullets magazines frighten again put back case cry god bit say i really tough time man know do am july hit post reddit grab keys head town habitual coffee yo male getting close scared first time unsure matter time go,1 die without anyone worryingi wish fucking device could erase memories family friends anyone ever thought could erase brain fucking fiction im called selfish wanting deal shitty pointless reality eventually im able cut everyone people idea died fucking hate humanity fuck idiotic fucking brains dont need emotions fucking horrible regrets want longer exist hard fucking thing ask,1 @vinaroon I'm glad u liked it- I used 2 go w/Guides. I miss those mountains & ice blue waters...,0 @kimcoach thanks ,0 at UPS sending out these special P.O.P packages ,0 i m so sick of the grind that is life i m so done kill me please,1 whenever im sad look dick get sadder cause even wanna use,0 ""Wow, What A Tight Fit" Lmao, Shutup. ",0 brothers putting together pc dad next room heard dad say dont force it brother angrily replying i know thats im not hear plasticsnapping noise,0 i m not sure if this is the right subreddit to go to but i don t know where else to go my spouse ha struggled with severe depression his whole life it is genetic his dad wa the same any amount of pressure make him worse he constantly feel a though life is not worth living and he s a lost cause he will never feel okay and just want the pain to go away we have a baby coming any day now and i wa worried that pressure wa gon na send him over the edge we have been talking about having him voluntarily go to a psych ward and see if they can help kinda a a last ditch effort before i just give him permission to end it today he talked to his counselor about going to one in a few week after the baby wa here and they came and picked him up an hour later he is pissed doesn t want to be there which i understand is normal he feel completely betrayed by his councellor and never want to go back i m worried that now he is going to pretend like he is fine just to get out the point of this is to get help why won t he just take it i m scared the mental hospital won t help at all i just need you guy who have been there before to be honest with me did it help what thing helped and what made it worse if it doe help or when he come back home what are some thing i can do to continue the healing process or just make his life easier anything else you feel to share please do i hate not knowing thing and this is really killing me right now,1 "@OushDA Lol mixture of two is Bipolar Depression and mania, although they both don't happen at the same.Mood swing from depression to mania",1 im tired waking upi genuinely think ending life lot ive thought years sucks ive therapy ive medicated nothing seems pull head trauma every years fall deep depression complete misery cry everyday hardly eat filled sadness kind go numb feel empty thats comfort away sadness days nobody knows ive started isolating friends family feel like burden everyones life want distance far dont feel guilty dont like person anymore abuse drugs alc daily drinking taking something else started self harming almost everyday look wrists body represents scars inside pain outside now look makes hate more feels good one control pain once point tell thats hurts really want die peacefully sleep ive thought mixing pills alc taking sleeping medicine hoping stop breathing time sun goes up ive thought carbon monoxide poisoning didnt ask born didnt ask put trauma fair forced stay tortured every single day thoughts feelings head life would go people die everyday thats life get choose amp thats difference wishing life away feel content anymore sleep hate feeling way cant help it want know feels like happy wake anxiety attack first minutes awake day asking manage escape today repeats living im simply existing dont even want to im much pain wouldnt say anyone real life anymore deserve better begin remove easier really remove myself,1 two weeks ago made massive commitment move miles new country gf new job new start ended blue day got therei first met gf work got summer job due connection boss theyre germany work uk office wed dating since last summer months clear boss winding operations uk refocusing everything germany located two us left working uk year guy apparently lost job put garden leave confirmation anything else otherwise talked gf possibility moving there returned home last august flown see every months since lives mins away german office works now seemed incredibly excited idea joining office uk one shut down last month march started happening everything seemed fine still super excited it finally ready go middle month booked channel tunnel ticket drove miles germany literally got though suddenly totally blue made clear welcome stay her one else reach help speaking partial german way contact boss anyone worked with facing homeless almost immediately arriving even know get office address listed website expecting travelling gf anyway ultimately made decision go home could still afford travel miles again around hours driving total back home again emailed boss explain situation eventually replied sorry hear it looking solution heard anything two weeks apparently fired even officially notified ive sitting around waiting boss contact back still idea went wrong gf either seemed move right actually got there last visited midfebruary fine ever together even trying ask wrong happened got angry defensive blocked me cant even talk person literally weeks ago best friend love life mean risk everything like someone sure about hurts even knowing happened asking makes angry cold feet maybe dunno would make angry even now feels like entire future destroyed one day gfbest friend job place living ive learning german literally putting move also video called every night nothing ever seemed unusual im back home even know ive officially fired either way longer office back job quickly going cause lot problems ive work years ive jobhunting since far even response yet person could ever confide even speak me highlighted lack friends even more anyone turn anyone help me im approaching years old im stuck mum again ive got prospects nothing good look forward to apart financial ruin bills commitments catch end month best friend since school even give enough time see left still make time even see now lives minutes road makes excuses everytime suggest something hell never attempt rearrange suggest better time ive never felt low worthless alone life ive tried reaching tiny circle friends have theyre busy even meet me even telling happened literally cant see anything worth looking forward to already thought lucky job had im exactly fast learner despite efforts ive constantly worried falling behind ive got one even spend time with financial fallout job unexpectedly looming head really even means meet new people im quite shy awkward new people actually meeting someone new think im idiot pretty hard since ive come back home ive sitting alone jobhunting wracking brains could possibly even happened everyone ive tried reaching give time all either im much hassle deal with give shit me cant see way get better me already pretty depressed met girl gave new lease life new start somewhere totally new could try really find again much hope first time years first time life ive ever actually felt like someone wanted around me feels cruel thought finally found life could happy with pulled underneath me still even know why hate feeling like this thoughts ending make feel goddamn selfish see anything look forward to even really would miss me immediate family perhaps even get idea im already seen disappointment,1 world hates me like actual world want alive anymore whats pointi treated badly everyone life think ive bad person purpose get really anxious easy out freak out people often mistake mean say think attitude even tell dont grandma adopted mother daughter would laugh say she daughter take want her aunt would laugh whenever cried upset would scream me would ask hug would recoil disgust mother would punch stomach hard could aunt would scream whenever would make noise watching me overweight always teased bullied even teachers called fat bitch constantly told i left whore mother im going take back people mean even im nice people laugh gaslight try confuse me whenever im talkative nice basically run away me say anything make lies me think im autistic well people like me world treats like shit older get realize much hate me im black woman im treated like dog im white black people im black anyone want stay apartment forever nothing makes happy anymore whenever find something look forward something realize point one share with whenever see people happy immediately realize alone useless am ampxb use happy guess stupid realize world wis family friends literally zero family literally zero friends dead never any high school people forced groups real friends people deal month start showing signs hate want around im fat anymorei even thought pretty little bit world reminded disgusting black girl done things proud of im nice world still hates me im shown hate everyday starbucks bus drivers therapists try get help im dismissed wish could happy wish autistic black woman different could blend people would treat like person would,1 @AshleyLyn1983 i texted it after the movie.. ,0 still waiting and missing my baby boy,0 imagine failing invade finland art,0 okay okayi diagnosed clinical depression anxiety since still it always emotional sensitive overtime realized nothing change am maybe meant way struggle come accept disheartening ever go away idea theyre tides ocean high low learnt flow still feel suicidal goes away knowing emptiness scares dont kill or maybe coward im trying say is sucks sucks less sometimes okay okay hope learn embrace comes let go,1 hey reddit this may be long and just me talking about random shit but i just feel like it would make me feel better so a you guy saw it wa my th birthday today and today wa probably one of the shittier day i have my best friend had a pretty bad panic attack today and i chilled with him to comfort him but it made me kinda realize how lonely i am i have friend and a loving family but i just feel deep and dark loneliness during most day i can kinda just ignore it and have mediocre day but most day like today i just think about it i don t want to make it a big deal because my friend is going through some tuff shit right now and i need to help him a much a i can but i just feel like laying down and doing nothing for a while obviously i can t do that with all the homework and exam coming up but i just don t know what to do like i wa saying earlier i just feel so empty when i m by myself and sometimes i feel like a have no personality i feel like people only like being around me when i m high because i m a lot more talkative and just more enjoyable to be around i don t know it s hard for me to talk to people about it because i feel like they might just blow it off or something and my friend deserves all the attention i just feel bad that i m feeling bad if that make sense like my friend is hurting and i feel bad that i feel so empty i m starting to think that life won t have a lot to offer for me i m not suicidal or anything but i wouldn t mind just like disappearing and just chilling on the top of a mountain or something like that i m sorry that this is so long i just feel really empty and it s my birthday i feel bad that i can t be happy for my parent i love them so much and i wish they knew how much i do but i m just feeling really exhausted all the time i don t know sorry if i selfish in this post i don t mean to i just feel really empty when i can think clearly almost like i built my personality around being with people thanks for listening whoever read this it really mean a lot to me,1 atekinzz where in the world are you,0 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I'm proud of you, I love you & I wish you the best! Congrats! Enjoy it! C u 2nite!",0 year old sister attempted redflag friday looking guidanceshes currently hospital still psych weve helping treatment past year im loss communicate effectively positively anymore want upset want trust me im looking sort guidance go this im lost love much want help much possible sure correct place post is,1 tired moving forward matter make better person still feel like shit fuck everything fuck life hate it time needs come soon ready let go nobody would give fuck anyways think world would better exist anymore,1 is procrastinating i feel ill but don t want to go to bed,0 oh shit new demon slayer movie coming im fucking excited see man akaza come thru fuck shit,0 wants pancakes made many,0 Gen!! Do you use this service? How are you doing???!! I just link this service with gmail. and I find you!!!! I miss you ,0 pratama same imac came out 0 more in indonesia than the state,0 like fruit punch monster redbull pm im addicted monster,0 being border restricted victim day by day we getting engulfed in frustration depression suicidal attempt and much more that we can t express in word depression fmwangyisaveindianstudents takeusbacktochina,1 took new job gut feeling ready die now point want kill feel peace,1 want diemy birthday coming feel happy all ive hurt never attempted redflag know anymore family loves me always feel like burden bunch medication dresser tempted overdose right now lonely talent whatsoever im stuck want free,1 "Beer pong with @ChrisMallin, Marcie, an AJ. Minus the two ppl I made up to seem less pathetic... ",0 ex says wants kill frequently idea hes serious dohes always negative person everything happens shit seems incapable finding true joy things sure happy playing starcraft example get idea hes never truly happy even me hes said positive thing ever happened him deserve person like hes messed make happier happy even person loves heart make happy multiple times even broke he broke btw said wants kill himself wished dead blue idea respond that especially weve broke up seems symptoms depression yet want seek help what help could talking shrink do break ive tried support much can hes unemployed keep encouraging send application letters possible next step would write letters him tried make promise least try day write letter he one needs adjusted fit jobs hes applying for response im trying hard kill gtgt serious cry attention since weve broke up ignore force see psychiatrist know world would crash ever kill ps hes im ,1 seasonal depression session over,1 logging out i need to study,0 lolololol i love how you guys make me laugh when im pretty much as low as i can get. i love you ,0 anyone chill enough play overwatch qpcomp group pc im looking dudedudette play overwatch with im pc blah blah blah usually play comp high silver im gud takers,0 update headphones broken idk worse problem headphone plug laptop im gonna clean hopefully sound goes away ,0 "Nog having PTSD and depression is insanely good, incredible",1 About to sleep soon; ,0 the muppet whatnot workshop site is temporarily down apparently totally sold out quot working hard to get it back asap quot hurry up y all,0 guys like asian femboys xd please message cool af like asian smooth femboys would awesome see liked lol,0 please helpreddit im good know problems typical time im trouble dealing them im girlfriend year leaving me week ago begging take back didnt im alienated family friends anymore ive quit job start new one turning inside anxiety lot feel like im losing all today hard exactly two year ago best friend roommate killed himself earlier tied belt around doorknob sat almost blacked out real concern die funeral want inconvenience anyone want start again im old want go dates want move home cant pay bills anymore im counting reasons keep going shit one hand im runnning out cant find value anymore really need kind therapy health insurance shell bunch money pay antidepressants every month keep getting like theres much do someone listen feel bad dumping problems onto im living completely inside head cant anymore cant,1 first two films johnny to film many awards none prestigious cannes golden palm nominationbr br the triad elects leader far democratic behind scenes machinationsbr br tony leung ka fai zhou yus train ashes time redux big d plans take baton matter takes even means war well war going happen bad business big change tune orbr br good performances simon yam louis koo ka tung lam infernal affairs iii along tony leung ka faibr br whether masons made men mafia members wo sing society ceremonies same fascinating watchbr br to continued,0 endno matter hard try nothing end ive put everything left final effort failed never ever her over guess im gonna end miserable life soon,1 life supposed get better still sucksmy life boring empty repetitive around bad im tired really happy suicidally sad happy suicidally sad draining never feels like really going anywhere matter good im ill never real normal live,1 hey girl u optician cos u stare eyes day week,0 Could not resist that packet of 7D Dried Mangoes. Hello yellow fellow ,0 profkarolsikora absolutely i m shortly been suffering with depression and medicated for year recently suicidal never been referred to mental health service until this year and been told i probably have adhd but i doubt i will find out until my 0 s unacceptable,1 i ve always joked about depression but lately i ve found myself facing overwhelming feeling of a sadness that can t be described in word i pray i have it in me to face this and not get consumed by it,1 shower started think life realy miserable mom says single mom month old currently living parents going parental court take care soni get morning rain shine matter panic attack night before tend son every needs play read take walks goes bed around go bed too asleep i currently sick leave due redflag stayed home son till march hours alone every day except weekends spend daysrelaxing napping days cleaning getting back feet went pndpna ppdppa pregnancypostpartum redflagdepression redflag went shits eating disorder blossomed again hard since need put son first done time put first daytime workingi got social life well talk bit neighbours parents kindergarten meet friends date focus son feel lonely anything bit failure times hard mom worst days want get bed to getting outside playground also hard iti feel like putting much hard work mom talks tells cut crap life miserable starting think might befrom everything utter shit contempt good place even though struggeling ppd lifted alot love son much waiting whole motherly feeling want stay bubble working hard mama son needs means much social day working mebefore son sociali about worked made even sick things pace working showeringbrushing teeth jazz want slip end dark hole again super confusedis life seriously miserable life sound miserable,1 pls answerrr,1 life fell apart giving upmy life fell apart short time frame dont know do year ago confident young woman great friends nice apartment wonderful job outstanding university grades skip now friends ditched started dating bf broke boyfriend cheated gave std now forever alone parents divorcing lost home renting dive apartment bad part town lost job due downsizing went highest gpas university poor academic standing failed semester plans graduate studies over dont know life now theres way out help me please tell life worth living go on need something cling to anything please edit holy shit seriously owe guys life last night bad real dark place completely given life made realize things status gave practical advice reminded come this gave hope decided take sleeping pill go sleep instead something rash im alive today new perspective things know life sucks right now need end get really really rough patch guys,1 many people seen using obama username also hail obama prism want to to,0 imagethief i know where you found that but your url is so much tinier than mine,0 but like my depression is going bodily and it hurts to sit up so i maybe don't need to be a full fledged college student for a minute lmao,1 "need Tea, basking in the sun, in Peasholm Park, and on the North Bay sea wall really is exhausting Scarborough is glorious today",0 find useless dealing social redflag others may find easy go work me really redflagful whenever think going work even job find meaningless too wake am am job reaches home pm hours left stuff sleeping early cos got get early next day again goes rest life like all tried sell stuff online support financially working out breadwinner passed on left huge debt housing loan also suffering monthly utilities bills family relatives tell go work income support family others look me since useless slowly losing live want leave go happier world slowly losing survive anymore reasons live on,1 @charlene205 you have to watch it i made my boyfriend watch it but at the end he was like CHICK FLICK! lol ,0 kind excitedthat ill jumping cliff tomorrow sunday ive neet not employed education training yrs intentionally making poor decisions entrap redflag would option lol really expect live almost hoping id die ill probably leave phone stuff home bring bus fare one way im thinking stuffing drivers license mouth ducttaping shut id later ezpzs anyone wants see niagara falls canadian side ill probably aim old concrete building cliff someone come let know plur d kandicuff go,1 think cut pretty bad kinda hurts stings lot know gonna hurt much shower tomorrow ,0 anyone suicidal fantasies killedive suicidal life sometimes goes far envision actually killed or least seriously hurt someone else accident sort maybe theyre dirty work me wondering anyone ever happen suicidal thought fantasy know fucked up redflag watch sub hopefully yall understand,1 lfta got me what again i m sorry i can t understand ur last tweet,0 akianz renting but very cheap renting and awesome house we had buying attempt fall through,0 @skratty007 fun! 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Have a fun time golfing ,0 hollowi feel hollow feel like everything happening around isnt real im really dark place rn feel like me feel like time coming end blame myself problem everything bad happening rn couldve done something different game life made every wrong move must think im least somewhat smart guess not everything know upside down people better picture im sorry im sorry everyone ive disappointed im sorry everyone disappoint dont know right dont know whats left do im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry,1 every side asked question got massage ask questions page faste suicide method,1 hello i have been dealing with bad anxiety for le than a week now which mean that it might not last for long but the idea of it just going away seems unrealistic and i want to be able to deal with my anxiety in the future if it pursues me for the rest of my life i am year of age and live alone i a couple of close friend and family and before my first panic attack where i thought i wa dying i wa having the best time of my life to be completely honest and it somewhat saddens me that my life took at turn for the worse i have always had bad social anxiety but it ha gotten better though my panic attack and my panicked state since last sunday have me questioning what is happening and if the anxiety stem from something unresolved i acknowledge that this would better be discussed with a therapist but the wait time is long to be clear i have far from lost hope but i would like to hear how you guy on here figured out what might be causing it if you did and lastly everyone should know that anxiety isn t going to be the same forever even if it seems bad it can change for the better just like a person and it is natural even though the body s instinct might be acting out of whack,1 fuck mei need advice massive od shoot drowned body never found,1 lemon tea amp weezer filler filler filler filler,0 parents get angry food room theres many worse things could doing choose get angry literally nothing honestly bullshit like go away instead coming room check food come check mental health ask im ok lot time im you,0 "What's the matter today? Look up, the sun is shining....Try to ",0 im tired year old girl senior high school sick all think analyze everythingits two parts one always telling good enough thin pretty smart enoughand part telling okay unrealistic expect many things myself really cant take anymore used eating disorder not specifically diagnosed parents never sent doctor would cost money failed too difficult starve extent still keep grades up hardly ever speak parents because well cant even begin explain mindfuckery behind all ill honest admit make easy mother not applicable dad give fuck me quite nasty know things im fairly certain times parents want rid me mother ever talks email nowand forcing get birth control pills believes pmddits embarrassing insulting me wrong cant depressed getting birth control make problems disappear ill still hate school believe im good enough ill still think im ugly wish could skeletonill still cut myself problems mother go away magic pill quick fix welli mean one leaves alive desperately want someone important life push away guy comes near me cant let find messed ami know ill screw somehow also feel repulsive allow anyone close way disgusts guys find sexually attractiveso much feel sick stomach strange also little respect body even know cant accept affection though want it future want live rest life like this also interest college get scholarship notifications applied prestigious school sent special application mother believe get large enough scholarship able afford going discouraged pursuing art the thing im remotely interested in really wants go community college nearly perfect gpa high act score better go community college ill definitely kill myself cant believe im still alive begin with lethal dosage pills ready summer supposed do,1 "(cont.) I am glad to hear she is bein reloacted to Highland Wildlife Park, hopefully its a more suitible enviroment & she is more at home ",0 crazy expensive old pokemon games games get older generally get cheaper yet pokemon opposite pokemon soulsilver like even though year old game pokemon black white like now prices used games crazy got point old video games skyrocketing price low supply,0 come sweet deathkomm ser tod returns nothing heights depths despair fuck cant shit anymore,1 i think i m getting sick,0 need answers quick take shit wait hour minutes now much time want wait,0 everyday like warim live england since got thrown home done take drugs become shell former self dknt want get anymore called friends steal make jokes expense decided show them pm gmt today going kill myself dint want talking it wanted leave trace somewhere know wont remembered people hearts due harm caused drug habit stealing mostly miss girlfriend sad things us idea dark cloud carry around understand why thanks guys edit landlord found blood broken glass sink cutting myself proceeded scream call worthless fuck care three pm today fuck it im going leave im going start sliding everywhere can people like give fuck make want even more,1 and it wa a great song too,0 ask bored closeted trans girl something im going respond youre young its phase know do,0 join subreddit rdogeprime subreddit,0 @DLoesch 2012 is the end of the world. ,0 even words braindead zombie it tired demoralized explain further like years day mental hell depression destroyed mind personally,1 omg breech again sob,0 Funny how depression can be cool,1 never rickrolled thats it thats all im proud,0 horny cop question bonk you make even horny record im gonna catch horny,0 i m a 0 year old male lb lately i ve been having a dull ache that come and go in my chest the right and the left side but never at the same time aching pain in my arm especially around the wrist and knuckle that come and go almost always at night an occasional dropping feeling in my chest like my heart dropping and nerve tingle or zap kind of like an small electric shock at different spot all over my body sometimes it s my hand sometimes it s my neck or face the back of my head anywhere really it s almost always when i m trying to go to sleep at night i have an appointment with my primary care on april th and i m just trying to hold out until then went to the er a few week ago thinking i wa having a heart attack ekg came back normal and they diagnosed me with an anxiety attack and gave me hydroxyzine mg which helped at first but is now hit or miss and i m running out of it everyone at home including my dad who ha had many heart problem and know what it feel like say that it s just anxiety but i m honestly just so exhausted and on edge all the time even on the good day it s always there in the back of my mind that there s something wrong with me even though when i m at work listening to music singing basically exerting myself i don t feel these thing but when i lie down at night to go to sleep it s like everything just wake up and start fucking with me i dread going to bed every night ha anyone had any similar experience or symptom i just feel so alone in all this even though i know i can t be the only one thank you to anyone who actually read all this nonsense even though i don t know you i really appreciate it lt,1 "{Trending's Latest Episode} @CMuellerTweets and I discuss Avicii and Verne Troyer. We also cover CA's transgender AB 2943, challenges with Orange County sex education & what parents can do, depression, anxiety, dating, priestly vocations, & the royal baby. https://www.spreaker.com/user/10066808/trending-042418-show-1-48-min?utm_medium=widget&utm_source=user%3A10066808&utm_term=episode_title …",1 incomprehensibly filled rage stopped throwing shit inside room hitting boxing bag started aggressively rubbing head hands pacing around small space room because barely clean it hyperventilating drool seeps mouth rubbed head much hands feel like covered wax hell anger driving insane,1 @WWEsBiggestFan the only thing i remember from that visit was "oh crap i think i want to go to wm now"..i was pretending to listen ,0 Mark Twain Motivational Poster - a nice twist to a common theme - http://is.gd/MqNW,0 film opens director talking camera saying going show story brazilain street kids whose families live poverty must steal kill survive fact main character pixote played actual street kid years old follows one brutal depressing horrifying film ive even seen saw years ago on double bill black orpheus never forgotten it think ever want see againit much br br spoiler ahead scene leave pixote meets prostitute abort fetus see itbut get quick glance got out almost years later recalling scene upsets me spoiler endbr br the movie gets brutal goes along ends way can whats harrowing stories like really happen brazil and still happening todaybr br a harrowing brutal filmbut seen handle it im surprised got r ratingive seen x rated film less graphic ,0 @NateCow oh cool! That'll be sweet then if you get that job ,0 accepting brain transplant applications tw playing minecraft watching twitch brain went dont want alive offed myself takers,0 im lonelyi drown bit past middle august date set contingencies could save time,1 tombot oh dear that mean i won t be driven away to do something more productive,0 didnt ask borni didnt ask born stay fair ,1 half class isnt active group discussions like class,0 kill tonight realwhats point,1 tell redflag answeryou cant plain simple life worthless die every single one us whats point prolonging inevitable hell matter die years now might say what loved ones would feel killed yourself well ill tell this nobody really cares anybody else themselves coming place angst truth human beings understand self know long certain self exists put simply parents would upset would feel arbitrary love me even simply love real chemical reaction brains top this every single thing life get rush dopamine literally nothing else throw feel good bullshit me go ahead try convince life worth living,1 feel like nothing helpsi feeling depression whole life entire childhood tried find place society cant even remember many people left hurting even hurting slowly fade away reality every day completely lose mind many doctors psychologists tried fix broken pieces life gave sort hope slowly turned dust worsen ny conditions every single day think details leave life hardest part question when maybe life meant everyone anyone else experiencing sort struggle,1 i am year old and 9 pound and for the past few day i ve been having this weird chest pain it s right in the center of my chest kind of lower tho like in between my breast and it feel like a dull ache discomfort feeling it s not burning at all and doesn t hurt a lot but it feel strange like a little ache with some tightness it only last le than a minute but happens about three time a day it happens when i m sitting down and it happened this morning when i wa laying in bed about to get up i suffer from bad health anxiety and am scared that this is angina based on what i ve heard about it and there is something wrong with my heart i had holter monitor and ecg s in the past that came out normal but im scared thing changed from there this keep happening and i m so scared,1 "@Fidanza you can never mention that too much, ",0 leelowe aww thanks hun but am just picking this up now i wa in scotland until yesterday evening how d it go,0 in a threesome with anxiety and depression,1 one ever love againhe left much prettier girl boss let go job failure social skills never looked pretty theres way ill ever attract anyone again theres point eating anymore theres point sleeping exercising hanging anyone gone eventually kill myself worthless person loved like gone im good enough,1 really mean romantic way mean human miss humans miss conversations learning things people want go adventures one come me want laugh someone else things human around lot humans kind sucks life really sucks alone,1 final year student enter workforce come privileged background work part time pay school fees live comfortably parents lot grateful feel like nothing worth living for find satisfaction friendships whatever hobbies like swept aside smart study time able pass exams even school ends ill working job maybe ill able pursue hobbies love family hate hounded constant questioning life sometimes gets much rather alone motivationgoal desire rich ok long roof head know time comes begin work go work know dread every day it job liked do even so would make enough money pay rent feel stuck cannot figure else live for mostly positive live day day someone gave way end life think might take it wrong me change selfish mindset find purpose life make life worth living,1 people asking want me bitch daycare fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 @thethirdrat oh good. thankyou ,0 hmm put this thing called love fantasm created humans feel safe idk mean see it heart it taste it smell it touch feel really really understand people believe thing billion humans except maybe even mean devote ur life someone live himher ur entire existence life lol think never understand think love exist,1 people dont understand fuck dark humor said im gonna kill jew thats dark humor also mean im gonna actually kill fucking jew say im gonna kill jew clever way thats dark humor dark humor everything table murder abortion national tragedy assault racism etc dark humor supposed terrible mean anything idgaf people disagree thats people do jessica type shit like wait people think i shut hell up,0 feel completely hopelessi live alone broke got food supposed live remaining euro rest monthi fucked pathethic everything hurtsi haveso much redflag barely sleep nobody ask help freaking muchi tried getting help many ways nothing worked living worst days lifecan someone talk please know,1 god gave everythingmy aunt doesnt believe depression diagnosis thinks didnt bad life and shes depressed need toughen up strangely enough dad brother virtually symptoms actions couldnt obvious genetic thing blessed without predisposition depressionsuicidal thoughts best friend also diagnosed depression or possible bipolar disorder im entirely sure fuckton family support hell even from aunt im happy shes fine tell im always happy help live whole life jealous younger best friend gifted looks social department adding family support long list things shes better me stings bad boyfriend amazing ive never someone awesome however see loving accepting family is accepted asbergers diagnosis talk respect overall great people around wish same dont believe hes depressed generalized anxiety regardless hes confident almost intimidating honestly feel bad im trainwreck doesnt deserve that cant help feel like irreversibly crazy alone ive trapped room last four hours knowing else im anxious depressed nowhere turn uncle home dont even know knows im home least dishes though,1 thought suicidal people dont know people think redflag answer got take step back evaluate wrong think redflag even option youve gotta work issues think second death forever die thats waste trillion chance even born already defined odds get anywhere life want word get put think bad situation think probably someone x worseyou overcome anything try enough decide life goes anyone else dont want redflag known people think talk you considering redflag please take moment think really gonna fix problemsno,0 happy happy taught months worth school math stuff weeks spanish words days hell lot physics exams coming teachers focused kids th year mulo its level school ig rd year failed exams bad held back year th years wouldour education system complicated ik thats help me exam skipping th year mulo btw anyway got results today got spanish english maths physics th years even score high like super hard get like got s thats fucking awesome also got dutch im pretending happen everyone know said dutch exam way harder compared exams previous years point fucking passed passed fucking awesomely get go vwo another level school country next year thats fucking cool get wear best uniform all fucking happy yet im sad,0 ""But you're just so cool, run your hand through your hair, absent mindedly making me want you." - Taylor Swift ",0 my memory s fading i m losing weight i don t sleep sex feel hollow i have no motivation to do anything and i frequently think about death i ve been seeing these symptom in myself on and off again for the past few year but never really put them together until now i attributed the weight loss to a study i read stating that just thinking about working out can have benefit despite not actually working out i never really thought of it a a symptom i just saw it a a positive slightly inexplicable development in my life i think i read that i have passive intrusive thought or something like that essentially i think about what it would be like if i wa dead but not about how i would want to die or anything like that the reason for it wa always lost on me i just learned to live with it my sleep issue motivation issue and lack of sexual pleasure have always been present so i never really thought twice about them i thought the memory loss wa due to my rare and infrequent use of recreational psychedelics when i connected all of these together i spent about 0 minute just trying to remember what i had for dinner last night which i found fairly upsetting a up until my teenage year i had an immaculate memory i d still consider myself happy at least to the extent that i ve always known but the symptom are there nevertheless and i m just finding the whole thing quite strange,1 saw film released minor cinemas uk years ago memory remains great musical score tragedy storyline saw video recently sound track poor picture grainy one two films saw next day gladiator music theme intensely tragic outset one knows heralds failure death certainly one george sanders best performances man working black market get pay back lost war nemesis waits patricia roc plays refugee eastern europe eaten despair attracted her selflessly wants help her falls love her proud hurt accept help love destroys him inevetably girl doctor herbert marshall brought nemesis storyline complex intertwining destinies subsidiary characters appear be film diappointed critics struggled box office adolescent saw it retired gentleman saw one greatest films taking account agewhose story akin opera,0 id like share redflag note wrote year agoi sorry way words express sorry all lot thinking decided best thing stop living hard decision wonderful people hurts ever know hurting like this cant bare anymore reason keep going sorry first foremost family please guys dont anything rash support other please know know kind like death bed confession always honest ones fault please know that please sorry love all support other love all impart guilt one except blame truly mean that believe deeply sorry love all various people supported past life thank you please know fault either therapist effective patient willing share never willing share anything pay price cant let you go lives great people life full opportunity help people anyone else please know blame you also specifically school sorry campus hope doesnt hurt anyone sorry every woman girl ever met please forgive existing practical stuff passwords not including im idiot movies books dont want keep please give library anything else please give homeless shelter whichever seems need more please give money personal bank account split equally food bank redflag preventative non profits martin scorseses charity film preservation sorry please dont try understand try live let grief take course support other dont follow me please dont talking family love much hurts keep hurting you please good other please live lives love you theaccountismine want dead made drafts really best draft have attempt year ago im probably going use it did would work would people okay im really cowardly shitty dont want get better want people love me im sorry,1 like guys gals facial piercings dang attractive give cute punk sort vibe love it also shows theyre willing accessorise explore,0 got point constantly try escape reality nothing ever helpsi always find square onealways feel claustrophobic feeling escape truly happy ever againi always thought death last optionbut feel like many options lefti know long keep going hate here,1 im overwhelmed looking options amazon anyone found something works them ideas subreddits redirect question to saw spire many one star reviews customers whose device stopped working one reason another im looking something thats reliable,1 dont want commit redflag dont really want wake tomorrowim done cant wait another year leave college boyfriend im tired living house toxic parents toxic divorce im exhausted able proper job stress levels high sensitivity im tired jobs right want get morning im done amam days babysitting homework dog walking homework sleep day im exhausted bored realize thats privileged thing saying want people fun interacting love much thats get stimulation life cant work two hours customer service job without close panic attack pressure insane flow people messes empathy cant anything else besides high pressure customer service job undergrad degree im tired working hard get trauma boyfriend work man emotionally abused three days week part community built business im tired job right now im tired regressing every single time goes working hard feel betrayed choice right now im tired missing actively participating community boyfriend used work together made realize boss teacher making legitimately depressed taken almost year get since quitting im done close im done back there im done want next year want across country away town away jobs want different person im exhausted want study focus classes read favorite books talk boyfriend get away parents fighting money college tuition stupid divorce im tired i probably mention im planning anything all want wake up want next year im still hopeful get here every day weeks draining much im scared im reaching inability hope also thank much listening sub incredible im really grateful opportunity post something like somewhere guys amazing,1 won t be doing the frank morgan race,0 @chevale hey nice layout! ,0 please read momenti dont want reveal age know im minor ive made awful mistake over never meant send photos myself every moment thought wouldnt regret it haunt every single day didnt know wasnt ready it im afraid telling people mistakes ive made fear persecuted criminally charged photos words wish could take back every day hate this hate myself im awful person things ive done adults kid matters,1 pain ive fallen love yr old pain pain pain pain pain pain she also lives hours away pain,0 dont try please others pls read going sound cheesy dont someone youre not dont learn instrument cause bestfriend is dont juul cause friend making fun it causes much anxiety stress wear want others want wear just dont change cause youre scared judgment nonacceptance trust me heres why listened everything people said look fat became anorexic youre ugly put pounds makeup til considered pretty youre lazy worked muscles practically gave out dont like hair grew even though hated it working hard someone im please people hated much hated myself shit brings down yeah build listening them got depressive state cause body dysmorphia anorexia tried kill myself reason got depressed trying lead peoples expectations fuck bmi fuck skinny girl vibes etc none matters thing way see yourself others see makes crawl deep dark hole cant get of cold harsh aggressive lonely makes push harder harder something might even want love sexuality love body love yourself cause loving gets much life wanted singer missed opportunity cause thought everyone going judge voice im loving voice trying find producer now go wear clothes youve wanting wear put mask go store looking fly fuck,0 hate myself cant even kill myselfive treatment taking meds now always thing feel better want die again im much coward actually jump take whole damn bottle redflag realistic option end asking something kill outloud hours end friends talk feel feel like drags seem help end spiraling way always do dont even think theres point writing this im sorry wasting time ive failed everything life im useless piece shit cant even end all,1 "Yes. I had to go play some Lexulous to forget, though. ",0 believe wanted series work early departure kevin kilner dealt near death blow season one robert leeshock right part jane heitmeyer admirable job lead series got messy confused point know happened season five mess sometimes time drop red cape stick sword bull know mean consistent thread holding series together amazing performances leni parker anita laselva two taelons quiet idealogical conflict talents wellwritten dialogue would two weird bald manchicks bmovie seriesbr br if series could ended season picked later syfy,0 say yeaeeeahh excuse bitch know name smack cross roooooooom,0 "finally finished breaking dawn! SOOO GOOD! sad to see it end tho :/ gonna find some food & then get some work done, now rather than later ",0 guys imma get mending book villager im playing server one thought use villagers ill mending theyll getting fishing stuff thats less efficient,0 old teenagers im want know leave,0 hate shit posts half posts made one person like shit posts damn,0 How to Avoid Depression While Working in Business by Tommy Zimmer https://mental-health-matters.com/how-to-avoid-depression-while-working-in-business/ … pic.twitter.com/jyv5IO1vY5,1 husband told odive detoxing trying hard get clean husband told im well well saturday got blackout drunk hit hard od hang slit wrists unlike know save family ive put hell detox got hit man almost hundred pounds weight more,1 hey u fuck u,0 look im saying would really gay put socks circle jerked plus midnight wont bad,0 I left Facebook November 2017 and took a long break because of my mental health was my top priority I was diagnosed with suicidal depression 12 years ago because of what happened to me,1 ik yall dont know wont care im gonna temporarily delete reddit idk im really kinda bad point life im kind lost reddit sure fuck aint helping im temporarily deleting it download again maybe im deleting account might not knows ik need time kinda find myself again im making post anybody might texting someone whos familiar u know kinda vanished lol im mostly focused posting profile think ill post rteenagers since im quite active goodbye now,0 doe anyone else feel the overwhelming urge to sink to the floor when their anxiety get bad like you just want to make yourself a small a possible because this ha been happening a lot to me lately i get an anxiety attack and i just want to sit a low a i can usually i m in a public space so i don t give into the urge to just sit on the public ground but when i get home it s the first thing i do to make myself feel better i don t know if that make but i figured i d put it out there,1 whats one website objective information redflag methodsi found ago im looking again like im suicidal wanna read again,1 morning im super bored lets conversation something idk,0 is not going to sleep tonite,0 earphones broke noooo earphones broke gonna listen gentle femdom audio now supposed use listen music middle night headphones ew like prefer earphones cause comfortable broken like heart ron almighty rat king,0 hate people racist hate racism hating people wrong opinions help anyone push corner make extreme try get people racist hate nice people disagree withfundamentally cause become deviant make harder confince racist also dislike people putting high emphasis using n word except parents idols instead focusing irrelevancies words focus taking action racist n word nice word id rather called ten times n beaten feel many people put great emphasis using n word would step call police see black person beaten,0 sleep night kept staring razor bladei couldve killed myself but didnt want pain end hurts cant sleep want wake wish someone end misery guts fuck up everyone right nobody deserves me tried hundreds days counting maybe force happy myself never works lost mind want die like heart sinking never happy end it,1 cant this im watching dragon ball z movies cause im bored far ive thought pretty decent them little repetitive stuff thats generally dragon ball z got dbz broly second coming hate it like firstly focuses goten trunks little kids makes annoying af secondly feels rushed thirdly everloving fuck need put edgy metal music it makes feel like amv which cringe fuck dbz movie ive heard next one biobroly even worse im excited,0 haha trans deathwhats point trying know never pass stupid petite girl even thinking wanting transition man pathetic considering even register even shortest cisgender men ampxb waste hours days weeks months life silence laying bed could studying practicing art improving portfolio im slightly confident may able landing job actively improving considering im highschool but whats point ill still me ill always me always painful body much less literally chronic pain see scoliosis apparently existing ampxb sucks though really im really jealous everyone gets even normal average body much less healthy body im entitled despite deserving bodies thats life is like literally peoples common complaints superficial requires self improvement intelligence sure sucks could least hopes goes functional families friends lover black long honestly care anymore ampxb anyways sucks wait years get gun feel like would mess rope accidentally face slow painful choking session degrees mouth go,1 hello it s getting hard for me i don t know if i m really suicidal or not but i wish i could just not wake up i think about that every night before going to bed and when waking up i hate myself for this i clearly don t have that much problem in life i don t have money problem i have friend i am healthy yet there are time where i just feel so crushed and it hurt so much to keep on living people have it muc worse and they are still doing so much better and i have trouble getting up in the morning and doing simple thing i don t have any hope to find happiness in the future my therapist try to help me and is very nice but it s just not enough i have felt like this for too long it just never end and not existing would just solve it all in the end we all end up dying i don t want to just continue living just to see what it s like i just want to end it sometimes yes it s selfish but i won t be conscious anymore to see myself be sad from my decision anyway yes there are thing that i like in life but honestly when i m in a bad state i don t care anymore i don t look forward to those thing and i just want a realease from the mental pain don t worry tho i don t have the gut to do anything anyway and i m not looking for help or advice i am just rambling and expressing how i m feeling because it make me feel a tiny bit better to let it all out if you read it all well thank you,1 I think im gonna be like Danny Jones right now...............tweet tweet. FOLLOW HIM!!!!!!!! ,0 hotline really worth iti get much detail hotline probably last resort ive read quite lot posts sub hotline mostly depicted unhelpful bad know therere probably good people working hotline wanted know worth it really want get trouble like cops called me please reply would greatly appreciated,1 I've suffered from depression since I was little (and no I'm not one of those teenagers who says this all the time to seem quirky) It's so hard so extremely hard especially when the people around you don't care I've opened up to friends about so many things but they just forget,1 inspiredwriting i love how i can could easily read and tweed while working with twitter com i m reloading all the time,0 nicolerichie yes we had the vhs i cried when the old man died,0 mental health bad lately cannot find energy anything it doctor exhausting know talk anymore listen tired feeling like shit time tired trying feel like shit tired being cannot find enough motivation get help mental health,1 im scared myselfi live life filled depression go school ignored come home ignored want someone hear me im almost done everything im close breaking point able turn back im tired ignored want hear once,1 Morning all! Feeling great this morning. Probably something to do with the weather and the fact it is Friday! TGIF,0 need help girl went school except im th grade th grade like know start conversation her need advice start talking her,0 horny hour soon beginning hornyness starts minutes need say something get done quickly horny takes,0 feeling very poorly and sorry for myself can t swallow ow stupid gland,0 "@LILBOOTY24 If u do, please pray 4 me. Lord knows I need it. ",0 found one local grocery stores near sells croissants literally cents piece theyre good croissants too also sell ham cheese ones like cents still hella cheap find earlier actually get croissants havent that wasted opportunities smh yes buy lots croissants upon finding out,0 @FirstFrontierBC He is probably living on the street eating in soup kitchens with some sort of depression disorder...,1 help friend overdosedmy friend texted saying taken grams seroquelquetiapine grams lithium mg codeine die,1 @seattlepmm I learned it's awkward turtle... And.. Um.. Hard to explain... ,0 obviously needed like make choice forced situation go down reason went inpatient treatment program,1 coffee is turning into starbucks feral child wise,0 im really fitting college even friend group im still one person friend group thats really kind there one person people dont care much about one people rarely acknowledge talk to guy kind hangs back tolerated hate it thats guess,0 "@xitsmatt Aww thanks, even if you dont..just for saying such a lovely thing ",0 lol I am so nervous and I 100% know that I'm gonna be rejected but just reading those words is gonna give me some good ol depression,1 theres shortage bad dialogue david bathsheba i quite hand slingshot the king israel darkness exposing enemy full marks dennis hooey delivering one straight face go sit concubines somehow doubt bored david ever told prophet nathan whatever say even tries old my kingdom understand me routine desperate housewife bathsheba one point probably tribute henry kings direction film bad despite pitfalls much first third provide maybe censorbaiting nature plot married man kills femme fatales husband gets away it king brings growing moral theological complexities phillip dunnes script rather upping sin sandals hokum conflicted david downhill slope abandoned vengeful god longer understands film back away awkward unanswerable questions loving deity would choose wreak vengeance innocent rather guilty even offers genuinely surprising criticism sexual inequality law failings husbands result punishment wivesbr br unlike king david sidelined king favour admittedly interesting saul david firmly centre drama despite interesting display shoulder twitching frankly gormless overlong closeup visiting site saul jonathans death gregory pecks performance grows stature david shrinks susan hayward pure hollywood pro raymond massey appropriately theatrical prophet why naturalistic got voice makes heavens quake kieron moores uriah intransigent unreconstructed chauvinist cant exactly blame david putting harms way despite threatening soft peddle film allow david moral get jail free card death surprisingly strong subdued design technicolor photography definitely cut ss biblical epicsbr br foxs new dvd good transfer including incredibly hokey candid behindthescenes short trailer brief shots deleted films sole battle scene,0 At the bubble house again ,0 feeling worthlessill always weird tranny woman know am im loveless relationship boyfriend financial security finish school im old af high lows much handle days im afraid starting ive burned many people including family trauma runs deep body forever fucked stretch marks used fat lost lbs also im fucking tall kill now even finish school become hair stylist self doubt forever prevent succeeding xanny alcohol things make anything tolerable fuck literally everything desperately hope spirit lives im ready move on,1 asleep soup asleep right share im souphttpsyoutubefaunddtzkvideo good reason,0 began watching thought watching prokoresh amateur documentary however never seen footage used interviewed people saying fbiatf instigated things sounded far fetched followed fbi video testimony amazed documentary followed senate investigation fire seeing interview video footage shocked senate attorney general turn backs davidians basically cover aggression fbiatf start watching must finish it otherwise think propaganda something like that,0 give kiss forehead tell everythings gonna okay thats fucking want life feel like crying bruhh ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,0 whenever i m about to fall down in the dump i start having a very very intense feeling of disgust everyone and everything feel gross to me i start hating my mother s laugh and voice i hate every smell i start hating myself even more i feel gross when i look at the mirror i want to hide and i wish i were dead everything feel bigger and more detailed i start eating like a pig and feel horrible ha someone felt this way do you know how to snap out of it it s better when i m just tired of everything not grossed out i m tired of this stuff,1 one best western movies ever made unfortunately never got recognition deserved storyline action music mind one best give double a randolph scott gave terrific performance along members cast ending one best western made,0 at work plus im sick blah,0 @Beam mon charnel ,0 never gets bettergetting kicked th time ive exhausted resources go cant repeat cycle sleeping streets begged come back things thrown trash start anew end tonight never gets better matter hard work taken away instant ive lived miserable years ive enough tonight join father tonight set free goodbye,1 aita dealing ex girlfriend way didthis whole thing happened seems showed true problems now m started dating old friend rd grade f long distance bother much time sucked able see like young notredflag were something grew around mom military got deployed lot also planning going military week thought bother much would talk phone early hours go school things fine while started acting strange first pay mind right set leave go spend thanksgiving fathers side familybig thing trust mom father mom hated due time military together best friend tells everything going behind back cheated multiple times multiple different guys girls one days birthday rest day before day of day birthday found information sick honestly made upset confused emotions confronted everything huge fight much truly loved girl decided going give second chance believed said would change ended going spending time family honestly overall great time left kind sad moment everything stayed fine while worst part came hit like bus said sent guy photos meaning send genuinely seemed upset apologized it forgave looking back wish ended things found everything her later finds best friend one told everything also forgot mention would tell best friend helped cheating time open relationship found furious called screamed it well asked logins everything gave except one damning all hated going messages time something felt like needed asked give login last piece social media lied saying nothing it oh worse yet come pushed giving login eventually cracked let specifically looking one person deleted messages unadded him well best part go find messages time best friend start scrolling found everything needed screenshot everything messages cheating dates times stamped logs point utterly destroyed especially around time coming prom already bought suit plane ticket out already bought dress hid everything needed evidence needed case tried spin things mefast forward week comes prom feelings period least none like before completely killed side me set forth plane executed almost perfectly flies bring back house things best eyes like nothing wrong guess skill almost whole time darkest times people never knew except best friend well taking prom worst mistake made absolutely ruined me take home days later go take airport leave gets plane cannot talk me blocked everything go contact send everything cheating friends familyreally sent home wanted know exactly kind person daughter friend was cheated ton different guys girls worst part guys friends boyfriends disgusting cousin cheated with went contact found sister tried kill successful simply told problem anymore years later present day seem still bad feelings ended come find dad facebook ended turning okay breakup ended taking life one people left letter told dad sorry lost daughter truly care want letter got upset blew me still haunts me asshole responsible someone taking life sorry long felt like needed give almost whole story left red flags saw sooner change outcome advice would helpful thank taking time read this wrong,1 friends suicidal dont know dotwo people know suicidal one cuts arms constantly talks ending it tried end life occasions help prevent it sorry isnt post this please tell post it,1 excellent twentiethcentury fox filmnoir metropolis labyrinth despair scavengers predators survive living one another brooding cityscapes lower puny humanity bleak expressionist symbolismbr br a prostitute purse snatched subway contains microfilm communist spy ring go lengths recover it two parallel investigations unfold spies cops hunt precious informationbr br antihero pickpocket skip mccoy played scornful assurance richard widmark knows cops moral equals intellectual inferiors taunts them go on says captain dan tiger murvyn vye drum charge throw in done before pitiless world cops one gang streets candy hooker bribes lightning louie get lead police busy paying stool pigeons informationbr br it hard believe widmark made film already early middle age yearold star coming end contract fox plays upstart skip mccoy irreverent brashness teenager today may acceptable romantic lead punch love interest unconsciousness revive sloshing beer face mores period signified toughness candy all fallen womanbr br jean peters radiant candy here right middle fiveyear burst bmovie fame beautiful engaging whore golden heart storys victim martyr beauty much anything else means well constantly manipulated cynical men joey skip copsbr br the real star movie new york haunting urban panoramas snidering subway stations offer claustrophobic evocation city living malevolent force like maggots rotting cheese human figures scurry citys byways elevators subway turnstiles sidewalks even dumb waiter act conduits flow corrupt humanity people cling niche affords safety moe grimy rented room skip tenebrous shack hudson river characters move interact framed bridge architecture lattices girders divided hanging winch tackle personality city constantly imposing itself angles crossbeams wharf timbers echo gridiron street plan cardindex cabinets squadroom mimic manhattan skyline joeys exit subway barred steel sinews city ensnaring himbr br a surprising proportion film shot extreme closeup character drives plot should closeups used augment character skip interrogates candy closeup captures sexual energy them belying hostility skips words jean peters beauty painted light exquisite soft focus closeups device also employed heighten tension opening sequence purse snatch contains dialogue drama relies entirely closeup powerful effectbr br snoopers snoopers upon snoopers populate film moe thelma ritter makes living informant place hierarchy accepted even victims skip observes shes gotta eat chanting recurring refrain straight new yorkers peddle lamb chops lumber underworld traffics commodity informationbr br and yet even stool pigeons superior joey communist friends joeys feet moes bed symbolise transgression basic moral code joey beyond pale moe trade joey even preserve life even crummy business gotta draw line somewherebr br pickup made depths cold war richard nixon chosen republican vicepresidential candidate made name phoney alger hiss expose bogus communist microfilm all mccarthy show trials daily reality see cops movie inveigh the traitors gave stalin abombbr br new york seen giant receptacle human offal cheats squeals murders containers form leitmotif throughout film moe carries trade mark box ties candys purse container microfilm engine plot skip keeps possessions submerged crate symbolising secretive streetwisdom paupers coffins moving hudson barge containers one cargo shifted around pitiless metropolisbr br the film masterpiece composition candy shown skulking skip rickety gangway shack signifying moral ascendancy gun placed table extreme perspective makes look bigger candy violence beginning dwarf compassion lovers eclipsed shadow stevedores hook reminding us love neither pure absolute contingent upon whims sinister city enyard communist shadow wall disembodied puff cigarette smoke like lone alley cat amongst garbage predatory phantom night camera shots taxi hoods inside newspaper kiosks bars hospital beds constantly reinforce us awareness trapped metropolis civilisations mulch,0 feel like im staring death facei feel like choice either die live painful life success me im good enough make friends people never be life cant make friends hope hope im stupid say am am cannot let go enjoy life like normal people never able to im weak everything effects emotionally negative way cant this never meant succeed want over,1 mom like mom well joined teenagers group facebook moms talk children do me dying inside lack privacy teenagers getting k also mom still thinking idea sex works even dick looks like basically anything sexual stuff basically im upset teenagers less privacy time im pretty sure mothers idea actually time idk confused this,0 got an offer to go camping at fraser island for the weekend would jump on the offer without a nd thought but it s forecast to rain,0 pillsso made mind im going take paracetamols mg each happen me,1 @albo60s you must ask the Cubs fans. I can't fathom it myself. ,0 retrospect s golden era american cinema demonstrated explored documentary directed ted demme richard lagravenese ifc effort serves illustrate clarify main idea time meant careers illustrious people seen documentarybr br the amazing body work remains legacy people involved art making movies period decade marked end viet nam war turbulent finale years jimmy carters presidencybr br one thing comes clear films today measure movies came creative decade industry whole changed dramatically big studios nowadays want go tame pictures instant hits without consideration content integrity long bottom line shows millions dollars revenuesbr br the thing emerges hearing americas best creative minds speak importance independent film spirit thing afford creators great moral artistic rewardsbr br this documentary must see movie fans,0 the exact date are kind of fuzzy at this point but it s so stupid he said they put me in an altered state seriously i need them to sleep and not hate every waking moment of my life,1 @moveonnow Not me! 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Still chilling in The Jersey! ,0 the drawback to this is that every picture i take with my phone is broadcast and is sent with the file name a text automationatacost,0 pushing buttonthats it loved reddit afterlife involved amazing media platform spot heart topping lonely depressed virgin family doubts nobody turn to mother abandoned father side family dont faith due quirkiness personality get experience love joys life im alone thoughts always dreamed aspired scientist studying field biomedical engineering like father even study artificial intelligence practical usagepossible detriment modern society nowi quit adhddepressionsocial anxiety inflicted son bitch unwanted buti digress working final release without thatim useless unneeded sure right community saw says redflag soto blunt fuckin math advice death methods would helpful end shitstorm called life live preferably painless quick high success rate chance get out,1 one associates dog horse runs like one look horse wholesome too one,0 sick today and i have a lot to do at work,0 This is for @rocklandusa when her wakes up from his deep slumber ♫ http://blip.fm/~8907i,0 need support contact real it life worth throwing away ampxb dont wanna talk hotlines use frfr twhelpline names mention depression rape serious matters samhsa national helpline help operated substance abuse mental health services administration samhsa national helplinehttpswwwsamhsagovfindhelpnationalhelpline provides information referrals loved one facing mental health andor substance use issues confidential service provide counseling direct helpful resources treatment facilities support groups area national redflag prevention lifeline talk national tollfree numberhttpsredflagpreventionlifelineorgavailable connects local crisis centers trained worker provide confidential support people experiencing suicidal thoughts emotional distress crisis text line text many people especially teenagers young people growing comfortable speaking via text message crisis text line serves anyone united states confidential free text line connecting trained crisis counselor childhelp national child abuse hotline achild dedicated prevention child abuse hotlinehttpswwwchildhelporghotline staffed professional crisis counselors translators provide help emergencysocial service referrals languages online chat trained professional also available website national domestic violence hotline safe text loveis national domestic violence hotlinehttpswwwthehotlineorg provides confidential assistance anyone experiencing domestic violence questioning whether abusive relationship online chat trained advocates also available website samhsa disaster distress helpline text talkwithus to available anyone us territories samhsas disaster distress helplinehttpswwwsamhsagovfindhelpdisasterdistresshelpline provides immediate crisis counseling experiencing stress anxiety symptoms result manmade natural disasterincluding pandemics national eating disorders association neda helpline available monday friday neda helplinehttpswwwnationaleatingdisordersorghelpsupportcontacthelpline offers phone chat support loved one coping eating disorder quick access crisis text line needed rape abuse incest national network rainn hope phone online chat options rainn helplinehttpswwwrainnorgaboutnationalsexualassaultonlinehotline provides access support trained staff help direct local health facility experience caring survivors sexual assault well resources healing recovery longterm support more lgbt national hotline hours monday saturday lgbt national hotlinehttpswwwglbthotlineorgnationalhotlinehtml provides onetoone peer support confidential safe space anyone talk issues coming out gender sexual identity relationship concerns bullying selfharm more trevor project text start phone chat text options the trevor projecthttpswwwthetrevorprojectorggethelpnow national organization providing crisis intervention lgbtq young people national runaway safeline runaway available national runaway safelinehttpswwwrunawayorg crisis hotline online service judgmentfree safe space runaways homeless young people national alliance mental illness nami helpline nami nami helplinehttpswwwnamiorghelp nationwide peersupport service not crisis line provide information resource referrals community support someone know living mental health condition note nami currently taking calls due coronavirus pandemic ampxb ampxb ampxb stay strong,0 @davynathan Lol!!!! Ur too funny Mr Hottie Way - Ethan probably went back to sleep.,0 writing break tears eyes another meltdown work written posts similar one before deleted ill probably delete one too sick treated like shit everyone usually talkative try hard sociable considerate people around me know feels excluded looked want others feel way around me work ass stupid fucking store put every ounce energy getting things done right time take breather even second suddenly end world put notice boss slacking blatant fucking liei hate boss hate way talks way walks stupid juvenile sense humor fake wannabe tough guy attitude hate here matter go never get respect anyone know wrong me hate way look talk friends afraid even try make every friend ever abandoned whenever convenient them life boring pointless brave enough kill myself feel like doomed alone forever living meaningless life something fundamentally wrong me resent mother marrying dad huge loser maybe met someone else would son totally fucking useless know myself want stuck way forever know need change sleep thing enjoy anymore maybe one days ill take nap never wake hate boss hate job hate myself hate life,1 voice head mine anymorei think used know him know talking now sometimes speaks mouth comes out black fair bit find driving somewhere dont know got there sort wake up hes telling bad things bad things want to think want to honestly know know person see mirror mean recognise hes different me things hes telling going hurt people know much longer control him dont know whos control anymore needs shut up need shut up,1 gfalcone 0 nawww take me to london please cornwall s boring,0 stupid thing gave stick n poke guys bash made sure clean space paper towel made sure everything new used proper ink thing regret couldnt find gloves made sure washed hands touched things using little dots forget name represent still telling story heart like little hearts tiny made sure put bandaid done hours took moisturiser let soak put new bandaid done couple times since first tattoo arent best think good first try probably deleting go bed cuz dont want family finding out,0 i m 0 and have never even been on a date with a girl before everything ha just gone wrong growing up there were so many time where thing almost changed almost got in a group of people i wanted to be with almost would no longer have been alone but every time something at the last second happens and i lose it forever sometimes my fault but usually not i ve stopped getting my hope up for anything i know it will always just never work out it s like i m destined to just always be like this i had a few friend in high school no one i could ever connect with though i didn t care though maybe i could meet new people through them but for some reason anytime anything interesting would happen with them it wa when i wa gone anytime i am with them same usual boring shit i m not there something crazy happens i started going to college recently i really wa hoping doing this i would meet people make friend but even doing thing like going to event and regularly attending class just nothing i love talking to and meeting people but i just never get placed in the right place at the right time and the moment i get close i fuck up again or something else happens i downloaded some dating apps just to try to meet people i know i wouldn t have much success a a short medium attractive guy i would maybe get a match a week if i wa lucky and we d send a couple message but nothing more last week i finally got someone s contact info and we set up plan to go on a date i wasn t particularly interested in this girl but wa just exited to finally go on a date i had a class for the time we planned but that didn t matter i can miss it thing were finally going well and then last night i suddenly remembered nothing is ever supposed to go well i always get so close so this morning i check my phone she had blocked me i didn t even feel anything it s just how everything go for me i thought i m not angry at her or anything she probably just decided last minute she didn t want to go i m tired i m done trying i m killing myself next week maybe if i keep putting myself out there i ll actually meet someone but it s an endless cycle my depression make it so hard to do that which just cause me to get more depressed what is supposed to break this cycle i ve tried medication no effect therapy i ve tried may therapist and they ve all told me the same bull shit i ve already heard i don t really want to die it would be nice for thing to work out for once but with the cycle i m in nothing will ever change and i don t see a way of breaking it if thing will just be like this forever why bother continuing sorry for this absolute wall of text if you actually read this cool i guess i just needed to write all my thought out gon na go to sleep now bye tl dr god fucking hate me,1 mts attempt minecraft,0 "@jonasbrothers http://twitpic.com/5nf67 - Joe, you look like an insane tourist! 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Kevin, where a ...",0 maybe timeim sure im looking wanted maybe constructive criticism here last months ive struggled get bed single parent mother died last year really shook me cannot fathom empty made feel think kind first step long year me months moms death met girl intelligent interesting interested me attractive instantly chemistry keep hands sex first night ever saw other fast forward month so girl im seeing death family mom think caused weird sort energy relationship really think things gone differently constantly support her met family shoulder cry months thought time would maybe help get problems didnt think made resent her sad know death unimaginably brutal every person way think really changed her became completely reliant around her needed attention constantly give time grieving own get wrong rude girl anything definitely considerate listen whenever want talk never remembers often changes subject sadness seems like open shut case right one me thats okay serious time now somewhat recuperating death mother still love really way care human want hurt worse needed to however say this yet dont even consider feelings want kill myself remember first night met great passionate night gave herpes feel like cant girl feel stuck im necessarily looker thats sure feel like putting hsv positive dating website probably work me im constantly torn girl completely alone or taking easy way out know thats never answer im rational guy feels like anymore truly feel like every single aspect life screaming it everything seems hopeless im sure turn to mom gone ever had just give silver lining cant find one tldr mom died put depression met girl whose mom died immediately began rough relationship felt obligated care her wishing to gave herpes feel like get pick anymore,1 hell blond insane anime girls name meme template no later wanna show sister haircut looks like it,0 Last night went out to photograph Jazz with "Gadjo Calom". Terrific band and had a great time. Today: still tired! ,0 thing stopping killing ugly untalented am even care anymorei constantly fantasize redflag usually imagine years im skinny longer hair made couple albums good piano etc years standards keep getting higher get older point im sure even worth it sure would nice die young pretty talented reason want im remembered worthless fat ugly slut anything life one know even existed generations anyway care die as ive lived disappointment might well die one too,1 helping brotherim total loss moment brother lives side country called night say good bye said plan said would call tomorrow said answer panicked called police ended breaking door taking hospital hes recently abusing many substances high time phone callthe police intervention called say id abused trust would never speak again also threatened soon gets hospital go plan wrong call police hospital keen feel unsafe family next flight im worried something silly that,1 feeling pretty lonely extremely depressed would like someone speak toive pretty depressed lately even tried hanging last week want talk someone please thanks,1 @GADataGuy You too have a great day ,0 hate feeling emptiness cannot even say sadness feeling pure emptiness hate felling emptiness,1 guys even know attractive things last year sat behind guy class kept stretching arms desk like oh sorry didnt even say anything,0 going divorce bankruptcy looking losing homei bought water hose duct tape morning im currently sitting location take last breath connected hose exhaust ran vehicle turned vehicle stayed couple minutes finish it turned vehicle off im building courage finish think ive almost got courage again im mistaken talked minutes painless wish another choice know ill respond not,1 know greek mythology really offical timeline shit hear say faulty memory correct famous greek heroes existed trojan war means recent greek hero odysseus theres chance completely wrong since im relying purely memory fuck it,0 pauliwhirl omg whine whine whine whine housing lotery is over stfu i had to explain to qidong that he wa fucked,0 age biggest insecurity see im play games comunicate people im also discord servers etc know people want me sometimes say things probably age guess im scared tell them take seriously anymore many people that im worried too hate age anyone issue,0 good common logical sense know oil cannot last forever acutely aware much life suburbs revolves around petrochemical products ive avid consumer new technology keep running space powerboards know even energy crunch associated peak oil change life appreciablybr br the end suburbia shows rational entertaining manner much whole familys lifestyle change lifetime particularly concerned future generations pick tab excesses however filmmakers offer glimmer hope acknowledge human resourcefulness determination sense community tends engendered shared hardshipbr br there point trying pretend peak oil baseless propaganda treating like approaching radioactive cloud on beach ie suicide pills ready even best efforts times get harder over im hoping theres enough compassion humanity go around,0 type rope works best hanginglooking something sturdy,1 please don t judge me for what i do or how i m handling my current situation i don t have the capacity to get a job so i m a hooker and i barely get any client sadly i don t even make enough to eat i don t have a place of my own i give whatever i make to roommate so they can afford rent gas grocery etc i dreamed of being a mom and teacher since freshman year i wanted to attend university but my mom forced me out of school at and now i m almost 0 still no education no job nothing i know that this will probably be a rash decision but nobody will really care anyways i have no other way out i am just a street loser like my entire family and like my mom wanted me to be,1 reddit kinda screwy recently im checking see posts still show up they,0 "Last minute wine change! We ran out of the David Bruce, so we are substituting the 2006 Ancien Pinot Noir from Russian River. Same Price ",0 mom spanked front girlfriend im earlier girlfriend gonna make mom leaves upstairs playing minecraft got killed creeper screamed f word mom grabbed one dads belts told bend started whooping ass embarrassing cant believe still me im gonna get dumped probably cause girlfriend thinks im little bitch,0 why the heck am i still awake i m usually so tired all the time but once a week it seems my mind body say no sleep for you wtf nosleep insomnia depression stress http t co oyjph znfy,1 trusting peoplehey i uh want share story well first redflag attempt mine last summer details matter thing went rambling venting friend mine internet friend one considered dearest that mightve mistake supportive first ignored time rambling depression tough understand never told fine it nowhere your redflag attempts make laugh ass off was know apparently joke joke see ill react see serious suicidality not know stab someone sorry wanted see react many things said way gtdo even know much hurt me gtget shit together already gtugh know whats problem go fix it duh gtoh cant fix it well continue onwards slump currently are waiting miracle happen gtlook couldve told irl friends that didnt last one racket going chantage dealing suicidal person wrong them well half year passed still fixed that still want friends person really do talked one time recently either want hear all hostile hurts cant leave it well dear friends great ones turn back supported thanks them im still here unfortunately incident even want tell parents mental state im scared wish one would face someone like that,1 questionim hearing lot nobody really cares you stuff directed me general like saying nobody really cares going problems stuff thats case really alone world id truly nobody cares all still here actually illusion someone would care real question is have to then mean nobody really cares right nobody cares problems live die hell even live sure shit care live die rhis point practically emotionally logic shit live technically something think about,1 posting makes panicive gad mdd since child feel like getting worse days cant anything stay bed job cant afford therapy medicine feel like ill never amount anything im afraid everything dropped college im failure everything do practical talents im smart never know say social situations im people feel like im heart attack feel like deserve little friends have understand talk me im still live dad would homeless without him every job ive had ive broke quit nobody hire me make art point long run want exist anymore probably got hours sleep last night stay awake worry people important me made friend online last november weve talked every day since struggle depression too reached last night know say would help them know would say myself want help feel like id say wrong thing told id need me know thats enough im worried want lose them im tired want sleep sleep nightmares want cry hate myself want hide even know im posting this,1 failing highschool family poor mother stressedthrowaway small introduction me grew pretty average parents kept lot things hidden me dumped load information onto suddenly th grade always back brain bugging me family poor hurts watch mom work long hours hurts even watch dad struggle finding job sister best student attends community college know hurts parents im poorly talk grades mom horrid told hates me wanted kill making life hard constantly asks cant meet expectations ive lost motivation since freshman year hs think ending life right would healthier family me sorry worded awkwardly im throwing thoughts onto post need worry im sure able end life easily,1 im scared cant sleep rn promised would start going bed earlier cause im but cant sleep really really big storm outside im afraid storms literally shaking house sounded like garbage men outside like am looked outside saw lightning lots rain keep hearing big thunder claps lighting far away even hear wind inside room really scary idek why im still kid ive never issue before ive bunch anxiety lately prob reason idk today logged old discord account best friend lucy room realized friend ruby still used discord server still active background knowledge ruby friend since kindergarten met lucy th grade lucy didnt get along first outgoing girly ruby introverts ruby paid mind her th grade started middle school ruby classes together lucy classes together say opposites attract even today lucy nothing common still friends outgoing talkative good personality i dont ruby lucy best friends middle th grade beginning th grade that ruby still ate lunch together didnt hang much always lucy ruby used play video games together dont play games anymore ruby still text sometimes see sometimes moms friends arent close were back topic rubys discord server snooping reading chats lucy came up ruby saying doesnt understand move quickly lucy happy even liz new best friends even though used known zoe known since nd grade stopped talking middle school though liz met th grade ruby crush dont want relationship yet thought ruby still thought friends idk anymore dont feel bad though honestly like lucy ruby still like ruby lucy feels really bad it though lucy issues also depression im afraid cut again maybe big thunder clap omg lol sorry rant kinda got hand,0 Yay for free food! Even more yay for the fact that the managers bought it ,0 reddit gave free wholesome award must earn filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 socially awkward irl im socially awkward friends school none social media cant even chat them hate quarantine much fucked even little social life,0 poor dvd video quality reason gave movie instead could much better movie deserves itbr br this truly movie covers several themes simultaneously like movies serial killers fascinated astonishing bureaucratic culture former sovjet union movie mustsee anywaybr br i cant compare silence lambs several reasons way serial killer portrayed done far much better citizen x see several details private life travel along killer gives idea source constant anger sexual frustrationbr br the movie seen realistic one henry portrait serial killer fascinated movie definitely need take look citizen x,0 Just met my neighbor Cindy who told me that I have a small rhubarb garden! And it's ready to pick! Strawberry-Rhubarb Pie...Oh Yah! Yum! ,0 hopelessive reddit year ive commented never posted struggle depression panic attacks last night wife got upset cat hissed her threatened let go play street we live busy road got upset told messed say went got couch slammed door went go bedroom try fix everything thought locked door pushing closed opened slammed hand told crazy leave everyone life abandoned girlfriends friends dad years old cant handle another one wife leaves nothing else want live for life disappointment dissapointment divorce fathers redflag truly think world would better without me wanted post someone would know felt im new town friends job reason keep going thank yall listening me,1 reddit premium ended days ago still mean im complaining thank reddit gods,0 planet worthlessthis bunch people ripping apart beating senselessly giant fucking competition unrelenting shitshow people always win always lose rigged purpose pretend not put quarters pull slot times surely least throw coins time get it everywhere look people tearing down ripping apart spitting other laughing other mocking other treating horrible everyone thinks theyre much better everyone else ones get relentlessly abused kill die exhaustion symmetrical body comes along shower validation pleasure happiness specific body shape that ultimately merit human nothing more nothing less reward cherish get it understand reading history horrible species engages awful acts often not pretend pretend cant even talk this pretend everything wonderful people pumped full psychiatric drugs simply imbalanced joke society everyone hormonally imbalanced longer touch themselves following everyone told follow bunch willing lemmings falling cliff fear labeled outsider cant blame them least theres degree companionship that lot here family less abandoning me always embarrassed me concerned came friends person blame them im realizing many opportunities had around have never will sort things show life like every three lives family need take can one thrown boat correct cant blame them like peers see differently theyre either intimidated find chump nothing between get bonding respect friendship love physical mental intimacy put gun head fact could that way everything would fixed id dead longer using resources longer whining longer bitching slot cant find role beyond lowest low sounds nice wish strong enough kill myself wish could power something even that second power empowerment,1 @berkaytascioglu u know u love me ,0 yup finally turned wild ride younger thought s would mean much responsibility stress thought id money world moment get bank card withdraw much money want anyway im actually im slowly realising different childhood expectations like though dont feel different yesterday anyway think ill still lurk around here spend quite bit later teen years scrolling subreddit wanna hang around little till turn annoying old lady old person flair here,0 i wa suffering from walking up in the morning in absolute terror not long after starting this that ha subsided but now when i take this when i go to bed if i don t fall asleep within 0 min i get racing thought and confusion and none of the thought make any sense a in they are not logical doe anyone else have these issue trying to figure out if it s the drug or me,1 stop meplease someone stop me want die autoimmune sjogrens syndrome active long im years old dlco pulmonary function test normal feel breathless everyday talking people reading outloud walking leaves breathless probably scarring interstitial lung disease sjogrens recentlt found pulmonary function test took years ago revealed moderately decreased dlco asshole doctor said nothing wrong asthmaif ask pulmonologist asthma doesnt cause decrease dlco may even increase dlco know scarring reversible want die never life working for classes left graduate uni degree biology degree job energy either anymore im breathless fatigued yearning swift death remedy knew way improve state least percent at would willing fight life everywhere look western medicine says im doomed decline im burden society becoming even burden alive insurance one year stuck nothing pay meds nothing pay procedures need do dont money dont energy dont hope end painless possible i hate feeling pain dont expect people actually answer one thats im thinking right now,1 yeah iam literally posting catacheism exam,0 "slept too much, so, no school to me bitchhhh ",0 want die hard put reasons words want die know young even started high school yet feel like nothing here know want point,1 one reason done iti want last action feel like another regret,1 going for a shower amp brush my teeth don t wan na go to work,0 hi i have been having anxiety for a while now and it crippling my life i have tried yoga meditation supplement walking cbd and still nothing ha helped i am wondering if i should try a medicine but i am afraid it going to take me further away from myself and change my personality and i wont ever feel like myself again can anyone share their experience thank you so much,1 best friend tried kill last night stopped her idea doill get first way fucking love girl fucking love death one best friends help problems talk lot anime fetishes stuff but best times depression before seemed okay addicted cutting afterwards depressed boyfriend dumped last week like piece trash suicidal too bonded that broke up took days school loved guy loved death guy said really loved quite boyfriends gets help therapist even met guy had decide diagnose clinical depression gets depression tablets friday so feel good all make upset ill insist take kick in days tuesday talk lot fun tuesday talked til pm am great conversation then ex gets head texts demand broke her says like anymore find bullshit beautiful mensatier intelligence goes worthless telling let go partially confess feelings her sure serious said loved lot kept telling let go tells godfuckingdammit tall alert best friend this panics tells go going hang herself luckily father downstairs am computer tell drive place let parents know speed down bang hell door parents wake little groggy theyre calm tell exactly happened go upstairs them best friend coming door never seen like this like zombie harrowing immediately hug her say promise me never anything like ever again keeps saying sorry daze kind looks floor shame go downstairs dad there make small talk ex life shell move weve etc go back home shaking text kik half hour later are feeling better read watching lord rings next morning texted back movie phone off likely away sent message am pm know bit silly worrying hours normal situation tried commit redflag yknow im fucking worried idea talk about help her really first time ask help regarding her normally know do please reddit need ideas,1 we re here to help we are online therapy platform which essentially connects certified psychologist and people suffering from mental health issue such a depression stress and anxiety among dozen of other clinically defined disorder book your appointment now http t co pwwuvws j,1 gfalcone 0 nawww fly me to london australia is boring,0 dont want go bed dm me filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 really adult ft fault theirsmy mom asked looking job because yknow hit im adult capable adult things like told everyone else asked bad wanted kill school idiot doctors think way theyve asked ive socializing school going plan school ends like every minute im awake spent thinking much id love cover room walls blood ive told stupid pills work said i notice changes they _the months said magic pills help me_ said wanted start testosterone said unstable would higher risk killing started _after telling months pills are helping im getting better_ fuck everyone going hear say want kill say _we hear understand anyways almost plans future_ real kicker professional idiots heard say _i hate living_ _i stopped taking pills_ believed next month said _everything ok_ _ive taking pills_ last years change mind transgender think ill change mind now ive told feel always _oh old enough decide_ _youre stable enough_ ask uncertain future functioning member society adult makes old stable enough _now_ warned _very_ long time ago think worth much trouble im sure ill dead decided try anyway im room wishing final push really funny mom pissed told spent whole day cutting myself even going tell her said glad stopped messaging tell feel self destructive got head thought depression gone took sharp things ok though doesnt know about,1 year old loser going kill drunk die,1 tonight finally say hindsight ,0 another suicidal posthello guys im early s finishing one typical schools country two reasons im writing this dissatisfaction life existencial crisis that let explain deeply real friends gf wanted girlfriend long time feeling loneliness desire loved someone frustrating so problems making connections women so thats selfimage really ok right little bit better hobbies connected computers programming gaming also enjoyed reading books any sometimes try read something really difficult finish book right know fact leave home couldt find person talk something interesting started feel really bad making questions like whats point existence order happy need do following twothree years trying find answers im convinced meaning all were animals without purpose point know create meaning myself work like that cannot create something nothing illusions cannot tried failed cannot try anymore want enter university want earn two dollar hour hard work shitty mcdonalds similar company suicidal attempts pushed harder should afraid heights pain on hard finish im thinking of care anyone like anyone depression cure laziness lack motivation reasons wake morning nothing makes feel good feel anything all expect anyone give right advice ive read many posts topics cant help tell anything know shitty situation serious problems memory focussing things alcohol amp stuff made situation worse sorry mistakes,1 fuck russianeastern european accent literally know nobody there accents dont carry genetics still wouldnt make sense fucking clue dont live near eitheri live ohio,0 hopeful im sure im going kill myselfhi im f freshmen high school ive wanting end life since years old continuous bullying lasted till suicidal thoughts never left developed mental health issues like eating disorder social anxiety the bullying also plays part there wanting kys much pretty bad pressure comes highschool keep grades worsens conditions joined new school highschool everyone dick mocked time really helping mental illness never told friends im really lowest point ever im afraid might actually kms anything ex want get back together feel best person open upto anyone im scared leave baggage please help want die,1 glue not coming off it is sooo irritating,0 jambothejourno i am indeed the one with my rlc interview in good stuff thought i d finally found something no one else had,0 Tag your level of depression pic.twitter.com/PAwFqcsrUM,1 Off to the radio station now...another day ,0 yes! coffee was actually saved for me ,0 freedomi thought going end month ago guess missed that honestly see things getting better guess im waiting next emotional spike happen may deed long free isolation judgement jealousy anguish care comes feeling around years now heres hoping comes soon,1 listening to q i got a really bad headache and a drivin lesson in ten min lucky me i just wana sleeep,0 im fucking scared im going tell crush love know say try best wish luck,0 real life birthday in exactly six months,0 message clear money important lifebetter die live broke care look never find them care neither person reading this know simple would ask give one hundred thousand people would k dont care enough even give therefore conclusion money important life even value life amount sick living unwilling dieand know filling blanks would rather leave you matter put list none would missed,1 friend mean friend let watch bf sex sad boi hours,0 elected supreme overlord earth life make sure every citizen earth gets free heavyduty sponge also outlaw dirt soil outside designated dirtareas like forests parks sidewalks walls buildings must kept spickandspan clean ill also scientists finally break flying car tech theyve keeping us,0 im lost doall want hurt myself motivation anything motivation eat get up get dressed motivation live im existing awful everything going wrong life one go making feel shitty im sick trying fight dont know anymore,1 -No one is perfect... that's why pencils have erasers. ,0 boyfriends th birthday presents hi everyone boyfriends birthday weeks current bought leather phone case name engraved limited edition hungry jacks cups missed on plan also get self care basket couple colognes face wash mens bath bombs baths lot overthinking lot worrying might like suck found smart watch thought might good work dosent one still looks classy classy get watch also idea get lego set the stormtrooper one always jokes getting lego display one would probably actually like it already know getting birthday necklace replace one currently wear time ahhhhhh teenage boys please help someone willing help pm next days decide get him would great tldr struggling figure get bf th begginning worry like ive gotten him,0 guess got breakup well understatement month days but whos counting dumped text talking online fried asked still liked me said direct quote used to im bi different group people like five seconds later screenshot conversation sent him played dumb first thinking meant see im bi part rather used like her portion guess thought good tell cruelly end gave saw meant see then natural reflexes hide emotions kicked in pretended give damn did still do honest cant quite work feel this emotions range were mature yearold get become stronger together i know weird around him still civilised go die fucking bastard whos far chicken worth time around him put fake front smile laugh act like care inside hurts see happier without me guess fact life miss him miss quirky geeky personality obsession things medical miss tried fit crowd yet managed entirely unique special miss way would anything cheer up miss ability make laugh split second miss would make feel like person world mattered miss long talks way first person approached faced problem viceversa all miss trust other best friend barely proper sentence passes us day month since got dumped know im him yet still feel hollow inside like part missing friends tell hes worth it hes trash move on still defend were friends right know feeling way normal know terms hiding emotions right know want best friend back want happy need like love me please treat friend im sorry whoever reads new felt like typing out seeking advice listening ear read this thanks hearing ,0 @daintyflair was at Bishan just now; is ok la. ,0 missing the feeling of being a pelajar cemerlang. thnk u munirah for reminding ,0 want end suffering pleasei want end really cant take anymore didnt ask brought world suffering waking hours,1 she s a afraid of you somebody killed herself bcos of depression after sexual assault by you,1 oneand im exaggerating single soul cares would notice perished loneliness devouring whole ive alone years now lots gaming listening music cope sitting room day getting unbearable late know came way perhaps homeschooled factor im seriously thinking ending cause feeling worse death im constant state mental agony btw ive run tears shed hope hang to thing left cease exist,1 tf slugsoul k people subreddit see mf,0 helpi feel guilty people try help me people already going things cant help them im tired here im tired disappointment think things get better without hurting somebody else anymore better struggle finally gets commit redflag,1 falcon snowman true story two collegeage rich kids la become spies soviet union one played penn already drug smuggler eyeballs trouble other played hutton lands position aerospace firm job man topsecret cable facility learns dirty tricks employed cia foreigners america like forget movie set early s time vietnam watergate appalled hes learned hutton character decides betray country convinces buddy join him neither long brains long theyre way heads way outbr br this thriller rather slowly paced problem you well worth rental,0 movie gets guts tension son fatherbr br the brilliant dialog lovely scenery great acting serve excellent way present onion keeps peeling back layersbr br the core issues parenting communication manhood explored indirectlybr br in fun ways curtain pulled back masks slip little truths exposedbr br all happens amidst road trip format backdrop rural new york state early fall trees changing colors wow,0 know doim recovering metheverything junkie going year two weeks last night went visit sister friend place ive never really before ended rather going home right sister left flight sitting buffalo wild wings drinking turned year never drunk bar suppose wanted feel like everybody else place felt absolutely terrible three beers decided drive home told roomates happened entire three hour drive could think disappointed myself made progress life throw away peer pressure felt like failure still right now know silly seems even think silly feel though let everyone around me want give up solid support system set trying get sober feel disappointed well feel horrible called work today let boss down lied calling place recently got promoted actually rising ranks great job im lost desperately want like people went high school college partying acting normal becoming suicidal fact drank couple beers ive thought today giving up drive home last night took everything slam gas pedal let drift something time past year actually looking forward future im back last years feeling like shit ashamed deeply wanting anything take away worst part drugs now used use drugs take pain away worked time anymore even picked meth heroin whatever chemical gave put much could make feel better thats worst part want end im tired trying hard better go right back demoralizing tunnel leads bitter end either directly killing slowly dying addict death,1 miss summer wanna look sunset feel warmness tbh thought summer nicer actually summer sit around room regardless season still summer depression nicer winter depression,0 My girlfriend is amazinggg she makes errrthing better Becca Jean Lewis iloveyou.,0 baby tarantulas cute wowies,0 successmoneyrelationships curei see lot posts people mostly young individuals unhappy lives thinking would depressed money better looking found attractive partner successful used think couple years ago achieved things family went poor attaining decent amount wealth failing student pushed able improve grades attend good university started working lot became attractive opportunity marry amazing person im happy all actually feel even worse realize things illusion really cure suicidal before im suicidal now dark feelings manifest differently people say things get better may true things problem first place us broken individuals struggle day die matter what people care forces keep going feels like blackmail dont try escape pain otherwise loved ones hurt beyond words pray every night wake up hope universe listens someday soon,1 good reason commit redflag years old life never really great ive suicidal thoughts made attempts feel like choice end life face hellish consequences await people know early teen years something regretted immediately it every single day since pain guilt also whats going happen social life becomes known theres way undo solve this whats ahead dead end nothing more must end life,1 im ready diethis long time coming wouldve done year half ago thought one last chance happiness found ive ruined that unfixable im done cant anymore used wanted gone necessarily dead exist thats now want death im ready it want cause pain thats inevitable this im really looking someone talk try convince lifes worth living experience shown time not whether actually simply specific personalitymentalityetc make debatable but want talk need someone talk cant say anything anyone know directed sub another ive never really posted anything usually look others helpi else say edit wanted let everyone know im still things happened weekend though really feel better maybe worse actually stay around awhile longer make sure things ok care about ive thought trying find professional help someone talk know begin thank help last week meant allot,1 life garbage justifies redflagim tired retards telling gets better theres much live for motherfucker couldnt wrong lonely socially awkward outcast cant even say single sentence another human isnt life worth living working earning money pointless life still empty shitty always going garbage fucking hate existence cant even imagine realistic life would worth it wont get better life always garbage ending destiny,1 i used to be someone who wa down with depression for a long time but this doesn t feel like it i wa working 0 hr since the beginning of this year due to my yearly busy season and i m suddenly asked to work jus 0hrs and honestly i feel so lost sometimes the anxiety is crippling like the smallest and most insignificant thing is anxiety inducing but other time i jus feel empty inside it s been a while i have talked to my friend and the only ppl i talk to are friend who keep reaching out despite me not texting them back it s not that i don t want to i jus don t have the energy i don t have the energy to get out of bed and i survived on one meal during a weekend i haven t listened to music or i do the thing i enjoy the most i jus don t know wat make me happy anymore and this is so not me i want to get back to the happier me sorry for the long rant but i can t go out and tell ppl that i miss work is there a diagnosis for this or is there anything that ha personally helped you to get out of this,1 thanks trying everyonei lost everything today hope resolve go on gone tried fucking hard,1 im really really close know gonna news college freshman kills campusi dont care world knows it lost best friend made many mistakes wanted much him ill dead soon,1 count it loses sleep games regularly think hours might lowend estimate want say games every day go real life friends except invite friends numerically yes spend time together hours spent sleeping,0 life end wantits life ive never control anything im going fucking kill hate life,1 really well made movie sumitra bhave always made sensible cinema favourite film her movie national award would pick represent india oscars least thousand times better shaaws going oscars india yearbr br it pity information and indian movies imdb lacking sometimes even wrong sadashiv amrapurkar played important character movie even credited pages rest cast crew mentioned all awards nominations movie given even sonali kulkarni indian national award movie even single vote cast doghibr br doghi hindi movie marathi thankfully escapes song dance sequence get tangled glitzy glamour halfwitted designer ware real life soulful story made rare understanding respectbr br doghi roughly translated two women story two sisters gauri krishna actually simple story sumitra bhave venture many sub plots makes difficult film direct entire movie set nondescript remote village maharashtra screen rarely ventures far house two female protagonists aesthetic sunsets onebr br the movie opens introduced entire house preparing gauris wedding gauri krishnas father hard working farmer house full happy nothing wanting simple lives however eve wedding gauris tobehusband meets fatal accident gauris father cannot bear tragic news suffers major stroke without strong working member house could fallen apart gauris mother shoulders responsibility works can cannot make ends meet life still easier gauris superstitions people halfheartedly try forget make gauri evil luck bringer outcast societybr br gauris mother writes brother desperate help accepts suggestion takes gauri mumbai made work brothels gauri sends home money earns conditions improve gauri gives life familysbr br however gauri returns home krishnas wedding mother come meet her allow krishna near allow gauri front guests loves gauri fears krishnas life breaks gauri completely decides return unfortunate life krishna runs holds gauri begs beloved sister return krishna promises stand her promises would face world togetherbr br there nothing required movie everything necessary sufficient gauri goes mumbai never told subtle dialogues tell us know bare story profound simplicitybr br doghi responsible cinema respectful subject handles respectful towards audience think mental capability four year oldbr br the acting first rate direction marvelous silences carry story forward way words could have script well researchedbr br anyone appreciates good cinema bound like doghi,0 keep trying failing hope lefti cant really go things basically life ruined everything ive ever worked life current phd student ruined family supportive everything ive going cant take pain anymore see theyre going me tried partial suspension belt several times times always stop soon im close blacking out makes feel like bigger failure cant end it,1 @angedmondson I guess you can enter as many times as you'd like ,0 need help month year questioned gender like times know female sometimes feel masculine sometimes feel like gender,0 posting every letter english alphabet meet shrek get entire alphabet day fourteen n,0 it s 0pm early day in a looooooong night at work,0 overim done im going kill week can please try stop me doubt anyone can tried best over,1 asphalt recruitments hello looking anyone join club asphalt requirements although ask kind respectful club name godspeed club id faca,0 is supposed to work for university but the construction sight close by make contant noise,0 "@ShwayNotScheu I mean, the thought of running gives fat people like me depression. Good job at not being fat, and being able running long distances.",1 got gf met online live different states meet person abt month hanging msging late night asked liked her said yes said too agreed keep casual say dating instead slightly friends couple days ago added ily end said gn said back today agreed date gf pog,0 said no but feel great quarantine tough lonely asking someone great thing either keep current position get something great keep asking im right ya,0 heres hand reveal handhttpsyoutubeohgsjyrha,0 boyfriend cop live sweeden cops got high authority boyfriend abusive harrases infront everybody let gohe forces sex anal sex led hospital many times asleep goes in lost sleep days days wake sexual acts done mehe hits time slightest disagreement want go friends goes enraged giving black eyes every thenhe burnt fathers memory led fight tried punch pictures father memories us beautiful childhood always hits back harder breaking foot bending wrists knocks cannot anything hurt times size always threatens cut hair eyebrowsi tried contacting local police ended punished kept locked room letting go bathroom embarrassing therei cannot anything poor nobody friend phonei know life get rid nowhere else go maybe suiciding painless way would really help redditors got ideas please share them could find solutions online f scared boyfriend need help,1 Depression really is a mf,1 ps forgot mention know put back goes parents big houses live room small apartment one brothers lived nd house parents left last year fixing it completely mess spend lot money make habitable planing move christmas put hold thesis could focus that said plenty times apartment big issue small moved parents nd house would great improvement relationship life,0 ha a math examen at o clock,0 i swear i was perfectly normal till i met those losers i call my best mates. ,0 cant stand iti cant go on,1 ive already cut stomach arms up wristsim tired living hopefully last post ever ive mentally defeated life dont care hurt didnt help asked maybe something stop me im not,1 i feel trapped and like there s no way out everything feel like shit i went through ton of family and mental health issue but i soldiered on and i got my college diploma in social science and my bachelor degree in sociology i wa on the dean s list i worked my as off through mental illness and exhaustion and i m in thousand of dollar debt i did everything people told me to do keep going get a degree take out loan and now i can t find a fucking job that doesn t pay total shit public transit is beyond atrocious i just have 0k debt staring at me in the face every time i open my bank app i ve applied to hundred of job hundred of job my brother want me to go back to school and get more debt more fucking debt he want me to leave my boyfriend and move to another province i can t talk to him about my issue because every time that s all he suggests same with my best friend my dad life in a tiny town in newfoundland and make shit wage my mom life somewhere in ontario and ha made no effort to help me out despite not getting to see me grow up due to a nasty divorce i have no will left i m afraid i m gon na snap and go crazy i try really really hard to be positive but it s really hard to keep it up i feel like i m in one of those trap where the wall are slowing squishing you until you die please doe anyone have any advice anyone i m dying my hope is fading so fast,1 tell friends birthday birthday see remembers im thinking keeping birthday secret happens on august th see friends remember do,0 ive given hope humanity poured soul post hard write got downvotedi posted night httpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsdlsdyou_win_i_give_up_my_letter_to_the_universe hardest thing ive ever write poured heart online downvoted someone whomever downvoted reading wanted let know people like reason commit redflag soon im going make sure die painfully wanna stab death bleed slowly realize must really hate something said considering spilled guts out could please pm let know genuinely post made want downvote it made want take someone already suicidal push further,1 people say pain temporary pain isthis isnt theres healing growing past this me pain head someone escape pain without dying thing causes pain themselves answer theres one way escape thats death way act way look talk think oh god way think one biggest sources pain nah cant escape that way thoughts jump one thought next like youre skipping tv channels fast complete nonsense try think get random clips songs past events stories quotes noises static pictures movement always moving completely still time theres escaping that toxic personality victimising narcissistic personality craves attention cant stand spot light pulling pushing away people ruining everyones lives causing drama completely unnecessary unnecessary thats it unnecessary weak god damn pathetic im dark see things move around little shadows grow big move towards me everything goes black go cold cant see theyre everywhere blocking in cant move make sound because tbh scare me longer look trapped feel lay eyes closed dont look else get you im probably tired hear feel heart beating im sorry,1 ive feeling good recently long ramblythis post might pointless redundant feel like writing chronicling moment dont diagnosiss anything else sort prove anything confidently say ive quite seriously suicidal last four years although ive experienced suicidal urges lesser extents since so changed honestly dont see living past soon uni break started two weeks ago ive absolute high typically id go depressive andor suicidal episodes every day sometimes daily havent single thought like entire break though considering suicidal tendencies follow year round arent triggered specific root as far im aware im pleasantly surprised things bring make worthless still much intact realise theres sign changing maybe ive successfully distracted point whatever happened seems done good though ive much positive lately notice change daytoday life speaking much fluently even though im still social anxiety ridden mess much sharper things like critical thinking even joke making chatted parents times hung around friends felt like knew exactly say something ive trying crack long time normally im friends whether private close friends something public involving lot mutual undergo depressive bout half hour whatever stays go sleep whatever reason though havent feeling fortnight even situations wouldve easily caused two three times genuinely enjoyed every time went out ive also really dedicated hobbies seeing results back up favourite past times performative depend building skills succeed would usually get upset underperforming would sometimes trigger depressive episode would spiral track suicidal ideation havent bothered nearly much failure messing time giving much drive continue practice even certain task impossible makes feel accomplished worthy actually seeing results time im spending things love most post definitely structured basically diary entry me write down im confused happened im scared gonna go away probably tomorrow since uni starting again cant recall ever going anything like im surprised whats happened want last forever know wont,1 @Dannymcfly 19th june baby! ,0 all my colleague hate me im just so clumy and stupid spilt a bunch of milk on the floor second time this ha happened and it went on my colleague shoe and she made a sarcastic comment about it and then her and the other guy i work with were looking like they were talking about me afterwards i cant do anything right this and everything else thats going on really is not helping the suicidal thought,1 wish didnt promise best friend wouldnt hurt myselfshes thing preventing ending life right now,1 yea what the title said,1 ive waited years wait another just felt like sharing get load chest ive made decision go redflag im really sure dogs rescue shes attached me shes scared everyone everything look her cant trust anyone take care took life ill wait shes older socialized guess feel little proud going tonight keep thinking keep repeating years calms enough take meds once hope anyone else feels like this maybe theyll repeat words well mean cant see anything getting better try another years know can thanks reading daisy,1 anyone talk torecently ive feeling like absolute crap ive attempted times past year ed flaired violently ever ive q constant state depression past month half currently high school amp taking full ap gives something lounge around day either way im incredibly lonely friends wondering could talk anyone life lot,1 please talk mehi all so things tough lately ill try write coherently im struggling ive going time time lately lots reasons longstanding anxiety depression ocd recent problems university relationship problemsconflictions not word apparently on ive spend last days really much ive trying tidy tip room havent gotten far that ive mainly bed drinking watching youtube simple things tbsg dont tax much yeah im going tough time one thats involved lot alcohol ever life am time sleeping pattern messed up usually anyway especially lately mind mess im struggling lot people talk but dont know please talk me feel alone im supposed visiting parents later today sunday dinner visit enjoy anxiety leaving house things bit much sometimes especially sleeping problems least couple weeks since last visited them know mum misses worried me see sheer number threads started subreddit people truly struggling depressing try help can need something dont know what dont know ill fall asleep go parents later day hope visit them might go drunk somewhat drunk time dont want worry them helps me makes feel better makes forget things bad thoughts dont last long helps sleep chris,1 failed everything matters mei want complete waste life end fucking stupid euthanasia illegal here would give money blow every god damn person company way kill painlessly,1 demonicus movie turned video game love story things goes filmit bfilm ofcourse doesnt bother one bit made right music rad horror sword fight freaksbuy movie now,0 howre guys doing im feeling sad wanted make sure guys werent place ,0 im hopefully going single anymore met someone gets name daisy i,0 i cant do this i just cant anymore i wan na be happy again im dealing with lot rn ever since i watched some verg graphic gore smoked weed had dpdr researched solipsism it all too much for me i wan na be happy again i just cant see the world the same anymore but i want to please someone help ive had this kind of depression for year it come and go i hadnt had any kind of major depression tho for a while this doesnt feel like itll go away i rly need to know and make sure itll go away because i just cant especially at night thats when it get rly bad i just don t know what to do this doesn t feel like it ll ever go away please please help im desperate i just wan na be happy again i can t deal with this again,1 interested relationship makes weird guy seriously dont want relationship trust issues insecurities know good relationship im really interested those people see weird guy yeah im strict family kind relationship thats relationship thank,0 rt @ammr: ??????? ??? ???? ???? .. ???? ?? ???? ??? ?? ????? http://ping.fm/A4BH1,0 boys wavy hair look like george washington shit try comb it istg frustrating hair uncombed ends looking x better ever look combed,0 everybody wants make home year even world crumblin,0 At Google's creative brief... finally starting ,0 Only 3 classes today and 2 tomorrow ,0 I would just like to say that I have THE best friend in the whole world...literally I lovesss you & I'm glad you're feeling better ,0 What a beautiful day to tie the knot... despite the heat. congratulations chelsea and jarad BEAN! ,0 recently posted trying find help afford rent pay transmission fixed depleted little finally able save able afford rent caused overdraft im asking cover overdraft negative balance give enough buy groceries next week this include bag dog food send picture receipt money spent on,1 got wanted say hope great day,0 "Breaking News: @fbish spotted walking PAST a Record Store. Did not go in, did not purchase vinyl. World first. (via @fbish) I lolled ",0 redflag lifeline chat useless even offeredi cant phone conversations im desperate point waiting endless endless queues chat ive waited nearly hours total today two different sessions ive waited least hours day last two days never made front line bit ago course minutes position line finally went right had step away computer could stare screen anymore notification ping nothing missed it ive waited long im desperate finally called line hear hung panic attack ampxb even offer service wait times bad cant imagine many people crisis may kill see option never get in understand,1 best way commit redflagi really hope everyone life right including pets know much mean however cant see going longer,1 cant fall deeper doneim year old guy sick living world used hunkfunny guy back town girls liked guys friends with moved town college rock bottom since then real friends here although stand some simply feel like real friendship ive gained pounds summer spent front computer or eating im law school which hate ive never known abilities things simple brushing teeth become titanic task depressed am times feel alive go back old town see friends tired useless piece crap rest days care girls anymore sexual encounters ive had ive erectile dysfunction want kill im afraid even as everything do wrong everyone seems start succesful meanwhile ive never job real sexual relationship travlled around world hate career wanted vent thanks reading this,1 want kill dont know howive suicidal longest time want kill already end suffering cant hang theres nothing house thats either tall enough support weight cant shoot cant get gun im percent sure jumping roof feel like theres slight chance ill survivei dont want someone try talk this methods use please tell,1 working on my senior paper,0 How to Deal with Losing Friends When You Have Depression http://bit.ly/2HYQhWq ,1 felt ecstasy feari tried out sort of way want go quit could anything harmful want found goes plan ill try hours know want work im pretty sure do maybe ill choice taken away me know started feel immense pressure windpipe scared scared situations knew could easily get out tester all split second gloriously ecstatic going free cant stop coughing still feels like theres pressure throat also feel relief long anymore feel like ive stabbed heart every time hes somebody else deal terrible obsessive personality mine anymore deal intense longing desire love never be deal intense sessions highs lows fine week writing notes next even notes time want go least hell attend funeral hope im rollercoaster started started him know ever going stop cant forever much im done,1 "im going swimming today, and it's the first time in 1 1/2 year! so im pretty much excited!",0 Tweeting live in depression.,1 want anymoretheres many people around me feel alone nobody cares am see want be im tired it sleep matter much try im never good enough anybody feel isolated want sink ground never found even know im here like typing whole bunch strangers gonna help im suicidal need tell someone,1 nice guy women date dicks unless theyre lesbian date vaginas theyre bi date dicks and vaginas,0 life meaningmy life meaning cant imagine five years now dont want to someone told best thing could happen life death is dont want upset friends family seriously upset short move on might even talk bad me die peace everything pain world dont anyone remotely interested dating me dont anyone texts aside one friend nothing here absolutely nothing,1 voted first time today vote bluehttpsiimgurcomuafbmjpg,0 adviceso came inches away losing boyfriend today im hes yes gay couple death train im sure would reacted actually followed through im torn thinking it little background met online year half ago since dating little year now things seem like going great knew many mental issues going relationship difficult first always seeing dumps sort learned cope new obstacles major anxiety add suicidal tendencies also bipolar depression bit juggle ive done really well point telling something like let know hope him part wants still live alot pain life family life sucks parents divorced remarried many times father verbally emotionally abusing him mother complete alcoholic family always fighting grudges around caught middle surrounded friends similar issues seem help much definitely first attempt im certain going last ive voiced concern invited seek sort help know force going help anything here let know im always due anxiety situation parents lead fear commitment commitment issues makes sense raised around divorced parents watching many failed attempts relationship lose faith love hes seen dealt firsthand far many times another point seeing pain afraid build relationship fear ends much much worse affect still love truely im loss help him losing would hell although tried least prepare worst decide follow through worthwhile advice would appreciated questions ill try best answer all,1 name junei struggled depression social redflag since gotten worsei exposed internet learned well everything know nowjust diagnosed learning disorder depression social redflag diagnosed struggle severe social redflag depressioni friends years earlier yearthey assholes glad left themin may admitted special ed school forced attending summer camp following weekit terrible one day tell make outi friend online friendmy family could never know would person trust taken away mei struggle suicidal thoughts wanted die since turned hatched plan october never able toi want diethe things keeping alive friend genshin impact lose friend fall apart loud yelling banging screamingit everywhere house loud want everyone shut up family could never understand iti came non binary omnisexual parents early i felt made fun them never ended using correct pronouns me try never actually happensi want kill myself cannot tell anyone elsetldr non binary kid rants abt life want kts lowest point,1 is ready to be with all the @freepeeps! Time for church ,0 pour certain jimenez est mort de suite d une d pression pantani d un oed me pulmonaire et simpson d une insolation tout ressemblance avec de v nements r cent etc etc,1 wow the shout box ha kicked me out and i can t get back in i guess this mean good night,0 m f we are currently dating for like month i mean we had sex timesim sure that i do love her a lot and she doe to but i don t want to get in a relationship now cuz i have trust issue it not about her i swear to god but i mean i dont want to think of her in a bad way i dont want to think that she is sleeping with a random dude at this moment i think she is cheating on me for no reason d even though we are not in a relationship and we didn t talk about it actually i am just jealous or have trust issue and i dont want to to make her day bad i want her to feel happy but am not sure about her i mean i had the thought that she is playing with me at the same time i feel like she rly love me and of course i didnt say that to her cuz i am her friend or her lover i meant i don t think that is ok to say that when you re not in a relationship even if we were together i wont say that or think of her like that with how to deal with that how to make it work,1 too many assignment,0 life curse get better tranny freaks like me im killing tonightlife fucking curse nothing gets better gets worse worse worse worse everything ive ever worked stolen me im homeless unemployed tranny frankenstein monster freak one hire jack shit ill always poor homeless im time left build future everything over need kill myself tonight im laying train tracks im sick pathetic waste life im fucking tranny monster need die like one one ever hire me future life life live need die life suffering life fucking curse,1 ps black ops zombies hey anyone want play zombies black ops ive got cold war im right now im female if even matters yeah dm ,0 mizzzidc o masepa a ngwana straight wena the way you we spoke to your mom it s like you were talking to your small sister even if you can go back to depression voetsak http t co y hsjd nr,1 dream weirdestcoolest fucking dream serial killer tokyo yokohama s called nagatsuke dream meant the beast irl mean anything lmfao,0 NEW SHOES!!! thanks Lizzie!!! http://twitpic.com/6ccj4,0 ive smelt worse thing ever exist basicly cousins holiday together sharing room go soon get back us needed shit us used bathroom swear smell made want fn kill,0 thought could help them stupid enough think could it longfor anonymity obviously changing names duh another thing post me suicidal little shaken happened im worried came looking advice need fast know much time have well grace likes like tells depressed people like way feel bad liking way also making depressed feel even worse basically told saved life pretty much feeling alone people like tried kill multiple occasions met me tells nice thought could go slight hope might like her liked were best friends like way im glad friend finally feel bad feel like like interests understands lot better people dont shell talk depressing things life bad person which all gets mad tell things bad seem always accuses lying trust thinks tell things shell shut up ive found like helping people problems like help people honestly care feel bad hurt themselves older sister rachel cuts burns attempted redflag multiple times also rachel know grace also aware grace finally open enough confess cutting going quit live promise get mad know hard addictions be anyway point made feel guilty still cutting made feel done it reason always told could make stop made feel enough like good enough help someone stop causing pain themselves ive never felt way anything enormous sense guilt finally broke hard promised grace tell rachel cutting problem intended keep it snapped guilt pressure confessed everything rachel lift weight told right thing nobody keep secret like that right thing feel like did rachel confronted grace front i_just_need_help told everything need stop this told grace fond tumblr looked poems wrote knives hints cutting throughout them checked scars joke mom tell me mom understand makes things worse assume common another reason grace tell rachel feared would tell mom way would tell her even grace suicidal way could ever her grace said really mad me want talk even see me extremely character ever since met yandere me shed talk even worst moods want cut contact asked sister told redflag part knew cutting redflag part new she people delivered final blow push edge said care care anything didnt believe grace ever it believe trust came realize told thing mattered realness feeling something pain something knew find it thats snapped take anymore broke cried half hour cried since never cry id never experienced anything like before hell cry dog dies found body cry grandma died always thought emotionless anything happened help think fault happen got involved really want kill myself id never thats about ive feelings redflag looong time id never it mostly id feel bad family back point rachel grace always talk everyday fb rachel deleted fb past felt getting close like knew lot her found scary convinced reactivate messaging tumblr while well grace deactivated again tumblr really want talk apparently fault want die cant live guilt do think help all cant anything,1 baked please hmu fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 adamcurry can i get download version of the dvorak interlude since streaming is banned at work,0 feeling really latelymy depression escalated extreme used consider person family loved ones would leave behind theres much guilt built started care anymore last night seconds asphyxiating minute argument myself convinced game moment cease exist everyone else would too end stopped self harmed instead needed release another night coming im afraid might edge again ive already given sister belts know might get extra creative desperate tonight anyone relate,1 jack kate meet physician daniel farady first psychics miles straume demonstrate come island intention rescuing survivors locke group find anthropologist charlotte staples lewis ben linus shoots her meanwhile group jack finds pilot frank lapidus landed helicopter minor damages repaired jack forces miles tell real intention come islandbr br the second episode fourth season returns island four new characters stops confusing flashforwards seems finally beginning explanations and fans viewers expect provided lost interest government ben linus informed boat questions expect see next episodes vote eightbr br title brazil available,0 wonder atheist say us pledge allegiance sense yk says god im bored,0 god im stupid,1 "Well the video preview in search results of Bing is awesome , Go Bing ",0 "eez playeeng dowtah, you know. ",0 realise thinfit mine friends went garage managed get unit gap inches wide ribcage hurt skull hurt bit kinda proud ngl,0 trishzw megafast trip you have time during day tom wed or you going out tonight want to see you bad tried to warn you tech fail,0 azizul0 this cat singlehandedly cured my depression for a moment,1 psa part alcohol get party see alcohol try consume little amount possible underage drinking cool think is driving definitely stay away drinking driving dangerous think,0 i have money for or more month rent then i ll be on the street i m in crippling debt i ve been drinking nonstop for the last day when i hit the street i m going to start using fentanyl again where i ll inevitably od and die at some point is there any hope for people like me people that hurt everyone around them destroy everything they touch i ve dug my own grave i m sure people want me dead anyway eh fuck this noise,1 id even say shades hitchcockthis clearly better mmm seen guilty pleasure woody fans way know annie hall first conceived murder mystery anyhow woody reclaims relevance film comedy one plot turns nice tight say first minutes so actors little hasty delivering lines stick around scarlett johansson proves wellcast diane keatontype role time uncomfortable moments much older woody one could imagine perfect actor role peter lyman jackman,0 recently mother asked afraid dieing told part truths part told scared death going die time means pain taking medication get day part share actually thoughts ending life daily would act know would traumatise nephew calls best friend another reason scared successful ending trapped body mind working unable communicate wishes somebody else making decisions believe id want reality would want want cancer scare decided getting results would receive treatment personally believe life wasted death scare me scared death,1 people laughed redflag attemptyeah,1 i m and i have bad anxiety debilitating i haven t been able to keep a job since i wa so pretty much ever i wake up early morning hour before i have to be my heart race i black out i puke cough my body shake i have so much fear of being in danger when i leave my house i have the feeling of when will i ever be back i fear that wherever i m working isn t safe i ll be shot i have no issue seeing friend for the most part i do like driving myself so if i need to leave i can i m not relying on anyone feeling like this ha made me loose my job due to me calling out i ruined every job i ve ever had because i call out too much i call out because i m throwing up so much that my body won t move i pee myself i push through the hard morning snd i puke on myself in my car on the way or while i m working and with covid i wa sent home a lot mix that with my call out and i m fired i understand i hate that i m like this i want to be where i work especially now i have my dream job i ve called out time and i just started i feel guilty all day and everyday until i work day and get passed it then it happens again i ve been diagnosed with gad and ptsd but my doctor don t believe in giving me anything most patient would get for these thing i see they are looking out but i m now no car to myself no saving can t have a healthy romantic relationship can t keep a job and most important making me not like myself whatsoever i m letting myself and others down i feel so toxic to my family and friend they say i burn them out with my anxiety snd bad habit im exhausted too please any advice please i just need someone out there to maybe say they know and understand and that they got through this peace love,1 flawless why did my baby have to eat prune today and now he finally went my poor baby,0 i passed the part where the withdrawal made me feel crap i m slowly becoming the person i wa before med but i really didn t miss it my insecurity is the highest it s ever been in year i ve been ignoring school i ve gained weight there is always this sound in my head saying no one actually want me my usual cheerful self feel forced now it s weird how the feeling i had for year can feel so foreign i don t know a long a my family doesn t know about it it s okay i guess,1 first off anyone looking to help can fuck off i have no interest in your pointless recycled comment they are falling upon deaf ear i am only looking for genuine advice on how to achieve a vegetative depressive state a i am unable to find a satisfactory method of suicide to people offering advice on such a thing how do you do it i suffer from ocd a well so it hard for me to have an inactive mind what i want is to become the traditional view of completely apathetic listless depression i am sick of trying to combat it and constantly failing so am now simply seeking to find a way to give up upon fighting edit to whatever arsehole reported me to the stupid resource bot i blocked it for your information,1 feeling light headed and gross,0 @tommcfly Hi Tom! I was in Leicester to see you guys! ;) All the way from Denmark!!! And it was the all worth THANK YOU THANK YOU!!! ;D,0 anyone else having awful war anxiety if so how are you managing i like near a base so basically my situation is i m f ckef if putin decides to bomb it any advice or well word are helpful i just need to calm myself about this ww stuff please,1 think hanging painful people saymy brother school right im home alone jusr got stairs tied rail took step off hurt like discomfort like try choke bit pressure made breathing really raspy could hear weird noises over face turned bluish hurt pain came trying headache afterwards whats reason go it,1 I love how you say you suffer depression when you probably live in a house and have food every day and electricity. Just get ov... — I see this argument popping up a lot when it comes to depression so I have something to say: depr... https://curiouscat.me/cutiepienestor/post/429598999?1524670430 …,1 gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer,0 im sick covid really want see friends im semi mental breakdown everything im usually type person feels better sorting issues alone really need see people irl im seriously losing it talk everyday saw person back november need sort ground give reality check fucking hate,0 note add comment fear black hat criminal whos image ripped band thats cb easily confused two films similar black hat vastly superior two yeah,0 thought freed comfortingim going fly free soon know know soon ampxb cant wait im going free place im really excited like going vacation nervous excited time want spread wings fly away finally see light ascend belong cant wait moment ill miss friends family know itll better long run this im going fly free nobody stop me ,1 wtf happened monster school videos used watch around times complete cesspool clickbait seems borderline softcore porn edit im talking minecraft one,0 posted couple years ago another account deleted posted poems stuff thought might like anyway years ago made attempt gone wrong ended psych ward local hospital quickly enough realized actually stake showed love affection attention care kind cured while thought yearsmeanwhile good life found want life found romantic partner loyal loving clueless romantic far expected couple years ago lol parents moved back together even helped them found new friends enjoy like everything pretty much literally hundreds times better was life improved every aspectuntil recentlyi recently started would call minor anger issues throwing qualified tantrums age pretty ashamed me feel like thisi also started alimentation problems again barely eating anymore appetite to drink lot however ever did tired work tired family yet love done anything wrongrecently caught contemplating suicide more way began many years ago try distracting playing online video games getting call someone myself always one main triggers past feel like here purpose meaningful thought was need help again restarted contemplating suicide lately years last visit psych ward,1 Love the Go pass. Unlimited Caltrain for free ,0 im calling girlfriend love,0 wife lost jobs home pets depression latter feels worst im sure turn hereim sure im help achieve feel need put open depression taken almost everything us see end cycle loss guilt pain ampnspb start nearer beginning wife relocated across country years ago work stayed fairly happy never friends miss family hugely wife especially always support network outside me suffer horrendous depression seeking referrals see bipolar fits im unsure ampnspb anyway years back wifes depression gets bad enough work goes sick leave try best act carer im work manage months breakdown retail managementchristmascarerbad end work time family help us rent bills parents retired mine good financial shape lots guilt feeling like permanent burden ampnspb skipping years end flitting work symptoms never really address survive monthly help wifes parents several large loans overdrafts taken get by develop fast food addiction spend fortune takeouts feel ill cook clean wife spends time bed ampnspb last year things turn corner were working money coming were medication seems working contract temporary im making invaluable extend monthly wife gets sick get sick trying hold job whilst caring cycle repeats contract cancelled wifes statutory sick pay ish week parents money run out point chip us bit money food thats it weve fucked lives too cant pay rent bills loan repayments anything sort literally thing keeping us alive cats becom surrogate children me cleaning them feeding caring given reason get bed ampnspb sensible option us move parents try get jobs start fresh ourselves cant afford it house big enough us bedroom storage furniture things downside extra strain well putting them hugely allergic cats also two large dogs make home welcoming speak ampnspb saving grace brother law said would take one boys us pippin special us whilst favourite cat totally is got ill kitten nursed back health heart murmur lung condition weird obsession burning hismelf butt cannot explain understand despite this happiest loving cat ive ever met greets like dog always happy see people special us others two easily rehomable a gorgeous maine coon cross year old kitten one old boy suspect may cancer make easier idea one cats least us visit makes workable ampnspb today ring tell us cant take more option give away reasons live weve drained family everything systematically inserting lives job sickness record allow get another one money pay bills facing bailiffs collection managed sell possessions wife talk worried hearing cat would push edge hear mother im sure last straw,1 fuck yeawelp didnt plan succeed leaving uni,1 make lasting online friends ive never lasting online friendships know games im playing lack people wanting lasting friendship something else often see posts stories group played together years really know though sometimes want play games people like forest example know get it,0 "@NoHoesGeorge not gonna front when that nighttime depression kicks in and i see that ur going live it just brings out the happiness in me, that's y i'm such a fan of u",1 ahh sorry ya ll for not being able to twitter from the show my phone so did not work in there at all but brit wa amazeing ahhh,0 im tiredlast night pressed knife wrist wondered deep id cut bleed out im pussy barely cut myself spent night crying next time stop,1 salancaster hope your ok,0 ugh cant sleep it 0am,0 state years ago back years ago march th purchased mm handgun box bullets sat hotel room seattle washington ready die time processing military knew went home would regress work done growth would longer amount anything significant memories father beating screaming top lungs frivolous things outside always outcast family traditional methods discipline didnt work needed room grow support didnt receive apparently made shit kid didnt see anything joined military hotel room staring weapon recieved messages battle buddies believed needed get head that spent night carrying like bunch idiots night drinking saved life instead going back went college got back work setting plans accomplishing goals graduated back may nightmare realized familys home thing knew waiting me resentful father past prime bemoaning personal failures claiming superior knower things sister doctor married sister engaged settling successful career still single jobless honestly dont care anymore want die,1 kids movie holes looks past incidents still affect us today whether know not teenager stanley yelnats iii shia leboeuf gets sent prison camp forced dig day long discovers number things camp personal connection it flashbacks learn number things closer realize youll understand better see movie leboeuf pretty good job cast members sigourney weaver jon voight tim blake nelson henry winkler patricia arquette eartha kitt interesting movie,0 @BkBap LMAO!!! we'll need all day disclaimers now ,0 "Many people have taken a mental health break in their lives, whether for stress, anxiety or depression. Only the truly SICK-in-the-head individuals would use this mental health break against them, just because they don't agree with their 'opinion'. https://twitter.com/KimKardashian/status/989220790741553152 …",1 first saw movie little kid fell love once sets breath taking script damn right hilarious you sons thousand fleasbr br it always shown tv late night really early morning woke started tv companys need show little respect put prime time sunday everyone get chance view fine workbr br ,0 eating lunch forgot to get home cooked food this morning,0 post hits k likes finally get k karma im super happy huge milestone me havent reddit long guys made welcoming environment im glad part community,0 pushups day months day rest day got schoolwork im skipping today goodnight,0 hours probably kill myselffck life heard best friend fcking weeks ive lied manipulated ive told kill many times im going fcking fcking hours get response redflag hotline,1 depression anxiety join us close knitted group discriminate anyone mental health conditions life already hard enough safe space lovely community talk mental health experiences relationship experiences without feeling threatened judged gtgt httpstmehuddlehumanshttpstmehuddlehumans ltlt join us part huddle family welcome open arms always nonprofit run people believe cause eradicating mental health stigma,0 i stayed up too late didn t get the design done like i wanted to,0 "I had such a bad day depression wise, that I had a four hour nap today and I did no work on my assignments and I'm stressed as heck.",1 turn today enough bottle ibuprofen tablets anxious take scared kill me sick that afraid living dying scouring internet days looking success stories many would like be never thought would me hate become todays birthday want die,1 i m not sure if this belongs here so if it get taken down i get it about yr ago i went to visit my friend in eugene oregon for their graduation a day or two before the ceremony my friend palmer and genie bf and gf palmer s parent and his sister went to the river to go tubing to this day i wish i told everyone we should go home but we ended up going in anyway we tied the tube together and launched but within min my tube popped we were too far from shore and the rapid got u moving eventually all the tune but one or two were destroyed i used my height to dig my heel into the riverbed and held on to the string and wrapped them around my arm so everyone could readjust a well a get the parent on the remaining tube when i reased myself from the riverbed i wa still in the water merely hanging on to the string all i could do wa tread water and not let go i could feel the string tangling around my leg i did my best to counter the entanglement without letting go or rocking the tube i tried touching the bottom of the riverbed again to gain some stability but it wa too deep that scared me i m i wa on swim and water polo in high school and i even grew up by the beach but for some reason i freaked out and started to panic palmer s sister reminded me to keep treading and kept me in check with all that happening i wa still being slammed into rock and swallowing water if i remember correctly i think when the water were more calm i wa able to push the tube to shore but my memory is hazy we got on the road walked back to our launching point got in the car and went back to my friend s place i haven t thought of it much since that wa 0 i woke up this morning in tear every time i close my eye it s like i m under water looking up at the rippling surface i ve been scared to go in the ocean or any body of running water i understand if this post doe not belong here but thank you for reading,1 but fuck insomnia that moment of peace is snatched too,1 nigga im sniffing fart sniffy sniffy fart im sniffing fart sniffity fart sniff sniffity fart sniff sniffity fart niggaaa sniff sniffity fart,0 fucking manybeen thinking deleting account might well leave trace theres parallel l saw,1 considering redflag tonightdont know put here im depressed,1 ryde dieanyone want make redflag pact im giving days last act turn life around doesnt im jumping bridge lf redflag pact ive weak sick hungry diminished character want make happen myself lets encourage support other ill help die whatever plan is,1 ever feel like plastic bag strangle ocean creatures,0 feel like evrytime start feel good voice head sounds like like no bitch fucking worthless delusional nobody loves you give up stop trying would anybody love you hideous fucking kill yourself nothing know me know brain cunt would lying said believe sometimes anytime something important brain fights tell just even bother going fail goes on always like this long remember ill go silent become really obedient clean nothing all really beat person get like feel like bug bottom shoe hate essence existence burning raging fire hate eat want sleep stay night take cat naps day want anything time really want much life feel bit place know depression adhd could honestly go live woods rock would flippen great feel like clown like entire existence cosmic joke mistake inner voice bitch f,1 ask helpi weekly occasion contemplate killing myself realize probably normal get help issue would ruin career probably making want kill even more profession kind paperwork mental disorders redflag considered one automatic separation get separated guarantee cannot move forward career certain jobs maybe dreamed of want help seek help means dream jobs denied me,1 guys hit foot dont newd tippy toes go rollercoaster lets go,0 anything like im going surviveevery nye ends crying bathroom im afraid face next year year worse ever truly awful part think ive living undiagnosed mental illness whole year dont resources get help it getting worse every day feel like im point life growing moving new things getting mature im stuck am hopelessly running place finished aa community college fall ended take semester hopes getting control mental health working save money decide majorcareer want go for university attend move semester passed ill wait fall havent accomplished things needed to im stuck here years old still living parents working hrswk idea go little hope ever getting better happy new year guess,1 call nonbinary so girlfriend boyfriend wife husband,0 back school nursing feel like never going able stand working mental physical illnesses diarrhea year signs physical causes likely due redflag unhappy makes mad cannot experience positive emotions like normal person enjoy anything husband sick me hes staying someone else past weeks tried plenty meds psychotherapy none ever worked well weigh ever have never get period worst acne life hormonal issues stopping oral contraceptives november in attempt help gi issues going years intense depressive episode ever experienced feel like much longer enjoy anything try hard happy people enjoy life without kind struggle hate alive feels like cut it mind body pushing past limits hated past years feel like ill ever content sick clawing scrap positive emotions,1 maybe weird im looking forward birthday days like idrc it maybe im getting older n stuff like ive also put half money birthday present laptop cuz needed school last one broke like im trying greedy yeah anyways think ill much fun idek dad remember bday th idk guess im feeling kinda it,0 keep writing parting notes people ive ever loved throw away could grow balls mail finish off bit background years old female university boyfriend love much hes kind sometimes though feel like hes settling me feel like knows could much better cant tell signals im picking him thinking things head ive suicidal thoughts years now since think dont know started know ive long dont think im depressed person people know might describe goofy otherwise happy girl dont think anyone would ever guess keep suicidal thoughts honestly thats reason havent offed yet cant imagine killing leaving parents knowing why boyfriend close friends have dont want leave unsettled again maybe theres way without leaving way feel like killing without talking would selfish me feel like cant talk anyone without damaging relationships still have dont even good reason wanting kill myself ive thought reasons would long time recognize none justifiable still doesnt remove want need it happens lot get stressed out like make mistakes school work even minor mistakes like exam forgetting step work at university lab make feel like it world would better place like cant even simple things happens think weight know im horribly obese still significantly overweight every attempt lose pounds fails either diet exercise fails contributes intense feelings failure thinking myself face belly arms try hide long sleeves even summer feel repulsive think everyone else grossed way oddly im grossed fat people started diet tried exercising boyfriend hes supportive attempts starting feel like good everything making things worse cant even articulate properly even came back home goddamned dog didnt want come me stupid reason could keep thinking was well even puppy prefers someone else stupid reason stupid stupid reason theyre always stupid reasons noticed time seem reasonable theyre not good enough reason sometimes ill sitting bus staring window content be wham it kill yourself swift enough wouldnt even feel anything times dont need reason it long it world would better place wouldnt deal waking every morning facing day every day find looking tall buildings sometimes dream would like get top fall slowly backwards edge always dream leaving note parents telling love much none fault imagine crying tell stop brat deserve hurt stupid thoughts feel like coward thinking escape reality finishing off sometimes weak seems like good enough reason it hate fact want kill myself even without knowing times why dont even know want escape shitty future promise destined breakup eventual death dog parents im sorry long dont anyone talk to thought id able find someone listen here,1 gunna have brunch and watch The Rocker ,0 passing thoughts active plan picked day several times go full plan go er say suicidal thoughts plan picked day happeni curious length time voluntary vs involuntaryhow really help er aside keeping safe hours weird thought went inpatient voluntarily monday work wednesday would back time know sunday would start hold monday goes far also best time go question like go er suicidal thoughts,1 "is exhausted, but has so much to do this week! Prom last night was fun ",0 nothing worth living anymorei drove away friends matter cant ever get back ruined life girl love im also slowly fucking relationship mum depressed ive thing left live for know much longer,1 everything makes things better temporary distractionive really nasty prolonged breakdown last week ive definitely acted family perhaps couldve bit less harsh weve argued anyway saturday ive really lovely hike around fields ive felt mentally fresh long time absolutely thriving could say come in excited clean room long shower mum goes move asap cant change behaviour absolutely regard thats behaviours happening even though knows im okay found redflag note went rooting stuff one time massive row im sat room crying drinking might take pills later might not knows reason living go hike could kill still wanted to clearly hiking doesnt anything end still come back problems,1 gem film four production anticipated quality indeed delivered shot great style reminded errol morris films well arranged simply gripping long yet horrifying point excruciating know something bad happened one guess lack participation person interviews compelled see it bit like car accident slow motion story spans conceivable aspects unlike documentaries try refrain showing grimmer sides stories also dealing guilt people left behind him wondering stop time took hours get melancholy gripped seeing verywell made documentary,0 just watched grey s anatomy i cried i will be writing now i miss meg,0 please give advice use snapchat properly cute girl swim team added snapchat sent picture ceiling didnt know sent picture ceiling sent picture face same sent another picture face again ok like do im good got advice people discord told this want make sure im ok,0 another reason blow brains end people get tired call annoying self centered psychotic,1 know call abuse fianc suffers redflag alcoholism punched threw shit international airport almost got kicked flight last night nd time far worse beat bag thought packed thought going leave it bag forgot unpack closet head bleeding profusely thank goodness ran outside called help,1 want die badlyi wish werent coward could go it ive lost family cat he absolute everything grieve loss everyday health really dont want go on feel hollow scared hurting people around committing redflag wish entirely alone could go without negative effects others,1 no online class for upcoming class 0th there must be both option of both online and offline class whole year online class lead to stress depression and pressure incomplete course and offline exam this is not fair at all smeodisha,1 feel rejected playing minecraft friendcrush bunch people got angry people playing with friend acted bit strange said lot stress wanted check maybe cheer little send dm worried shutting overybody think still angry though basically told also wanted shut me this sounds selfish me sorry feel rejected sad,0 found ex attempted redflag overdose called me icu called emergency services even though it want upset me recovers prevent againim sosorry long detailed work colleague months moved andi got know properly together almost years left really good terms left knew much work us im christian partpalestinian jewish partisraeli deep relationship also hesitant hesitant familys reaction sexualityreligious ethnic backgrounds went knew chance long term relationship us worked london far away families live outside city cambridge educated one brightest quickest minds one difficult prestigious careers could get into so mind told need check months definitely well moving finding someone else placed missed call yesterdaymorningand icalled back later nightto check whyi anxious pick upbecause callmeant something serious told called hear voice apologise telling work out knew something triedto stay calm possible told lovely hear her asked herwhere was anyone heretc told alonein flat apologised calling earlier dealing small overdose knew get medical attention finished call without telling driving flat got toher flat told wanted see her tospeak her let quiet nobody spoke minutesuntil noticed getting sofa went held really tight didntwant leave didntwant go sight second knew extra careful words get come hospital sat talking everythingfor good hours could tell visible pain tried subtle possible told lets go together check you quick check see whats going itllultimately choice whether want treatment not told go wanted wait home everything end silent said that ifeltlike fucked words shedidntbudge left flat sat cari sit home andlet happen walkedback flat hours later called emergency services begged come check somehow convinced arrived dontknow do icould call knew relationship all one areoutside city soi almost physicalsupport ive slept long called sick work today gets upset mewhat help prevent repeated future please anything think helped someone know,1 told husband felt suicidal said give break go bedso took mg xanax mg valium mg flexeril mg amitriptyline im going bed right also cut leg open else new kids would taken everything medicine cabinet called psychiatrist hours nurse said redflag plan call otherwise call monday,1 fuck girls probably gonna get downvoted oblivion saw this posthttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentskmpvtfuck_girls front page afternoon opinion topic pretty much summed no lets take pointforpoint shall we ampxb gtgirls always say guys never open do fucking tell friends laugh every single girl ive talked to eventually open bit moment open up tell friends laugh this suck thats all female thing asshole thing ampxb gtits even fucking worse im trying friends girl think crush them im trying get know better every girl try become friends thinks interested probably something make think interested teenage girls least experience actually super happy make guy friends often value relationships female friends really sad thats another topic entirely ill try get sidetracked ampxb gtthan tell friends fucking laugh fuck gonna laugh shes messaging shes actually interested say fuck gonna send pictures herself wave n smile even add private story that fucking laugh im sorry sound like sucks again really asshole thing certain extent boys too maybe even worse super sweet funny own become warm toilet seats highest order around friends ampxb hanging wrong girls honestly assume every girl meet insensitive dirt bag may part issue,0 @shipovalov "NOKLA connecting people" ?? ??????? ??????? ,0 If you happen to ever stop by a fresh & easy try the chocolate flavored blacktea its delish! especially when u make it a milk tea yum ...,0 Three Common Misconceptions About Depression http://www.organizeprioritize.net/three-common-misconceptions-about-depression/ …,1 anyone want talki feel today,1 wanna dm got bit till laundry done whatever for hmu,0 forever alonei friends therefore significant other every attempt keep friend meaningless always fuck somehow thats got nothing valentines day single teddy bear card waking lovely text someone actually gives shit im alive practically forced look happiest people enjoying holiday school one cares day everyone loves other one cares day english teacher doesnt care im work people acknowledge existence far times day one talks me good one care leave,1 "Mom's depression tied to kids' emotional, intellectual development http://dlvr.it/QQmx4b  pic.twitter.com/Kf8KrZPf2T",1 @AtomicLola AWESOME! I'm glad you liked it! I'm so jealous! ,0 "Going to chillax on the beach sunshine, picnic and beer what a combination.",0 kill myselfits fair cant kill would seriously hurt people care about fair want hurt anymore die finally find peace,1 viennah yay i m happy for you with your job but that also mean le time for me and you,0 haggis time accept fact bow frog overlord,0 @DaleSpoonemore That's too cute ,0 "@sethsimonds I am grateful for a great marriage, awesome kids, and a business that rocks! I guess the rest of my family is ok too. ",0 kal penn ok well i think i just got a spoiler for this episode i haven t seen it yet i m in the uk gutted now,0 im tiredi cant anything haircut months cant fall asleep without tv youtube movie running background distract constant thoughts loser failure worthless selfish weak sometimes hit head im dizzy like grandmother used hit herself cant stop thinking sister abandoning me cant stop thinking first time father tried strangle her cant stop angry her even thought fault cant forgive telling married eight years cant stop thinking father yelling comatose mother stop clenching spastic arm shed stroke cant stop thinking mother protect us cant ask dead ask alive remember speak yet im living house again taking abuse again feeling guilt wants feel again im fucking barely go house im afraid seeing people know seen failure am quit job almost two years ago applied another one since last friend stopped trying get touch months ago know say her even read last message fucked too im ashamed myself miss touched like fucking hug anything miss full hope ten years ago despite everything miss last time felt hope remember was know happened think anyones ever going love again think first boyfriend time know thats insane actually miss myself feel like ive dead whole time im starting wake fact know keep going see should never stops hurting anyway,1 Here we go.Follow Depressed Dave's comics at https://depdavecomics.com #depressioninsg #recoveringfromdepression #depression #comics #depresseddavecomic #depdavecomics https://depdavecomics.com/comic/take-the-plunge/ … pic.twitter.com/jPLTYOYZEu,1 realized expensive phones god damn splurge unless disposable income,0 ok two followed last time remember looking bam people,0 piece shit fuck mohammed carry whole partner project days suddenly come back three minutes due ask help even myself taking shit isnt excuse days could helped lazy bastard,0 i absolutely hate having my picture taken right now i m going through an especially hard time my med have been changed and i m in the early stage so going through the side effect with none of the benefit and i m informed that they are doing company picture tomorrow the one day i agreed to work in the office i also have an appointment with a hand surgeon to schedule surgery on my right hand tomorrow i type for a living so i m living in dread that they can t fix my hand and will make it worse because that s what anxiety doe so what do i do i just had a complete breakdown i work from home so only my husband saw fortunately and i cancelled working in the office tomorrow i had planned it that way to be closer to the appointment but screw them i m not going to let them do this to me anxiety depression and adhd all at the same time just suck,1 @find_hope remember when @deyderz had no idea how to use twitter but now she's a bigger tweeter than us?? ,0 really need advice hi school starting would like hear people think girl school would speak me good reason start last year really broke money name started selling weed surprisingly one first made lot money never got caught sold school property good till word spread much surprisingly guy friends gave shits everyone else became scared buying me started selling lot more became much stopped school year over regret selling motorcycle pay insurance it really want go back really good job sales make enough really would like fix reputation people scared me advice thanks,0 ok im going out now ,0 I just woke up and I'm already thinking about taking a depression nap,1 cant handle itlet start saying im going hurt every time im feeling overwhelmed mind goes straight wanting myself wont it ive got much going it even slightest bit overwhelmed cant help start suicidal thoughts want stop dont know how cant even bring therapist ive got kids theyll report it itll turn problems need stop please help dont really want it seems like brain thinks answer problems,1 get betteri first considered redflag th grade reason another ive pussied every time ive got close years depression nothings helped tell gets better high school would get better college would better get better start working get better want get better want over im buying motorcycle seems like accident itll little bit easier everyone else,1 enjoy anything anymore friend talk tohello would rather company internet strangers company all cant enjoy life longer loved playing video games writing ive lost love me im year old male profession janitor although love people job job title feel demeaning job tends lonely one much social life im introvert hard keep friendships me people around care understand me im absolutely desperate form socialization lost lot hs friends disappeared them another story hope trying get career janitor im trying learn programming depression sort helping im really sure not please dear redditors im sure much really left anymore im point id okay dying due emptiness inside me theres anyone advice thoughts suffering similarly wants say hello welcome you anyways thank you words mean know,1 used best friend best friend chilhood grow old trying avoid started hangout cooler dude me hate dude bcoz hes fcking selfcentered contact friend long time whenever texts feel joyful also feel hatred like texted mocked treating like dead always see cool assholes hang around believe fcking douchbags him friendi trying change paying attention guess restrained past memories know friendship matter,1 getting baited tell baited someone know confesses you someone confessed need pointers make sure theyre playing mean prank commit anything,0 im nightmares everywhere end time furthest ive gotten beginning phase intend going back point im getting bad stuff,0 this despite original began life play central europe weathered several incarnations followed mgms remake period songs good old summertime broadway show loves me even excellent theatre revival paris couple years ago remains definitive version one beat several previous commenters identified contributing factors make successful memorable least prevailing fashion s s hollywood lavishing attention detail ensemble playing rather two leads often happens today try example removing ugarte ferrari renault etc casablanca yes still rick ilsa viktor lazslo theyd frosting without rich cake mixture below jimmy stewart maggie sullavan ideal irreplaceable leads much brighter shine performances reflected frank morgan felix bressart joseph schildkraut andy hardys sara haden factor lubitsch touch okay maybe tad naive innocent even jurassic age many genuine film lovers sated scatology screwing inyourface sex turn back days stories style slickness skill wallow great movies like one far best thing technological age csi dvd one time make classics available nostalgics show matrix freaks big boys used it,0 every try type idk accidently say dik heehee funni,0 bf application please red requirements must be willing anal boy optional thankyou coming,0 @Corple Thanks~ ,0 dog would really good poker told barked would dropkick her immediately knew bluffing barked me idk knew bluffing seems really good figuring,0 mans castle set one jerry built settlements vacant land parks times called hoovervilles named unfortunate st president got stuck great depression occurring administration proposition film mans home still castle even shack hoovervillebr br spencer tracy shack truth told guy even good times would working much part typical tracy cast priest san francisco start slew classic roles hes playing tough good natured mug takes loretta youngbr br one things mans castle shows effects depression women well men women additional strains put them men trouble finding work women twice hard sexually harassed resorted prostitution square meal spence takes loretta young whos facing kind problems makes demands castle pretty soon though theyre love though tracy kind settle downbr br the love scenes extra zing tracy young torrid affair shooting mans castle catholic married days insuperable barrier marriage tracy young took catholic faith quite seriouslybr br also cast walter connolly kind father figure whole camp marjorie rambeau whos pitfalls young might encounter tries steer clear arthur hohl really loathsome creep eye young well hohl brings plot mans castle climax scheming br br mans castle grim look great depression usual movie escapist fare trying avoid kind reality entertainment,0 @rollo11 We have to agree with that... LOL ,0 want kill myselfi want kill myself want something really fucking stupid like drive car tree trip flight stairs something take away suffering everyday life want die want something big happen something serious make everybody else reset way think me adhd making life hell moment especially trouble emotional regulation tearing girlfriend apart cant remember shit enthusiasm happens less remember said shit feel harder becomes snap it wish could restart life blank slate connections ties live pace mental burdens holding back envy meander life happily whereas overthink every single decision make deal constant thoughts ideas swirling around head every single second day matter decision make ill think wrong one cannot content life moment nothing try best despite experienced fair deal trauma life whats price happy,1 @silixell ...put another way - "remember... you're unique - just like everybody else" ,0 wassup hope everyones nice day days going pretty smoothly yours finished essay last minute phew,0 "@Sparkal yeah its negative alright. This moment will soon pass...for every up has a down, as long as you find away to come right back up ",0 "@KimKardashian By the way, your tweet also confirmed that he is suffering from Mental Illness called depression. Get him some help!",1 recall ever choosing exist first place genuinely understand forced stick around suicide wrong again,1 @hannahlovesa7x yes it does it is like the worst movie ever,0 improve score sat sophomore high school want prepare sat didnt get good score psat took fall freshman year score i actually dont know average good score psat aiming take sat first time fall junior year college want go average sat want know improve,0 @rashmid Even me from Symbi. SCIT to be precise @Anusual has got @sahil 's number i guess,0 honestly know much longer go attempted many times past overdosing sadly survived one biggest reasons still is bc want parents bury me want pass pain onto others really much left me dreams amp goals seem impossible depression draining me amp suicide mind psych ward many times tried many different medications amp seen therapists friends amp family supportive really understand wish already gone cannot keep going,1 says fight says tatakae ,0 need someoneits years havent friend nobody call ask im doing person listen take opinion from gotten point im scared socializing dont know act still try put there matter what always mess up family ignores point try say something theyll start talking sentence everyone looks right me im tired it constant dread alone feeling heart stomach cant take it nobody even notices me like im horrible person try best help people part best still universe wants kick ass guess people like brothers house something invites friends look treat like shit brothers fiance fell drunk night went go help low behold got pushed way told move people me cant wait end it hours,1 d whats random thing made smile today kinda yum milkshake today made make face hope yall mfs day full smiles tomorrow else u gonna bald,0 dealt consistent depression years like daytoday basis feel like deal long term depression,1 organic TEE giveaway http://bit.ly/lVWWH,0 heading to altrincham again out of hour install,0 whats best way handlethings talk someone tried commit redflagi talk someone shooting police put psych ward involuntary hold want visit theyre processed wanted hear anyones personal experience being either side best thing person hear want go personal details someone know well know whats going life hoped someone could provide guidance approach this person intoxicated degree well influence suggestions,1 "@thebleachworks just surfing, did some schoolwork, getting ready to go to chuch. We need to know what YOU are doing Is mylo behaving? ",0 anyone like horny anything im definitely,0 leave interesting comments ill back morning wait sorry meant pm bc thats bad sleep scheduel plus rn,0 forgetful blame everything life feel fault like this plus cannot even get reason deppressed even remeber first placei feel unmotivated dead inside keep telling ok really true think deppressed still laugh talk family still watch funny memes boost confidence always doubt deppressed makes worse indecisive never make decision unless parents make mei feel useless like cannot anything anyone feel way yet still goal complete school also question say care anything yet care education think back even know cared first place always thought job student good school also parents future even future continue way even think job also introvert never want go outside sitting balcony typing this get enough vitamin almost always weak eat much aswell parents tell eat sometimes even realize starving depression bad even remeber long seems everytime try make better gets worse feel give let take also part still hope wants keep trying confusing talk mother feeling think could relate situation use watch videos try think positive thoughts help get life always revolves around simple question why like this always type ask questions always overthink things require much thinking worse part selflessness always care others like entire life always wanting help others make world better place hate that hate much hate one wants way hate worrying everyone around me want dissapear know sadness family committed suicide wait natural causes happen hit vehicle kidnapped killed way parents whouldnt blame death sad part going highschool feel mature look back tween really anything else say wanted speak mind hope wonderful day symptoms depression,1 think way ever get life blue pill waylook us all miserable depressed cant see way think know everything meaningless turn suicidal thoughts make us feel better death closure ever get everything depressed illness opinion im depressed see world full unanswerable questions seems humans need something pull us life like beautiful lie tell ourselves truth things much bare,1 "@sudhamshu well, i am terrible at keeping that one handy. half the time, it isnt charged, not to be found, blah!",0 really want permit birth certificate changed yet im anxious name gender use permit goes birth certificate really want dead name drivers permit luckily still like half year get changed im still super anxious it tldr im trans guy gotten birth certificate changed yet im anxious deadname driving permit,0 dont cut dont cu dont cu hell whats wrong mei saw many reports historys here think its much pain perfect life right fell like cut even kill myself im struggling cut kill mysefl think make fell worst know competition fell worst worst life dont know fell week falling little im sorry want put out hard cut right now,1 basically bioso years time got told parents separating didnt see dad months accompany mom tribunals fighting tutelage i guess thats word im looking for missed dad much couldnt believe separated tried stab belly kitchen knife spent days hospital next time happened felt useless reason recall anymore drinked bleach whatever thing was pair days hospital back home think time two months later went excursion forest shit got hella pissed girl whatever reason think something activities started yelling her teacher started scolding treating girls like that threw hill scratches broken leg years old lovesick tried cutting wrists bleed death got caught put useless psychologist grab dads cash years old long distance relationship girl visit first time sexual intercourse like raw week went back town started saying afraid pregnant didnt wanted bother s kid blocked everywhere wanted back would loved indeed pregnant kid would definitely meant something wake mornings for able withstand situation going jump bridge gor mugged way police saw half naked street middle night brought back home parents werent home never knew this years old days birthday discussion gf same one blocked thinking pregnant kept going around guy knew cheating even though said guy played league legends with one day flat back living town around minutes walking her sleeping phone started getting messages guy saw basically sext time stuff night went cliff near home jump grabbed behind hugging me nowadays cut wrists bit feel pain sad havent really tried killing myself may change soon im trying find perfect location isolated enough hang tree nobody ever find unless actually looking corpse,1 imma give hentai shot ruin me idekkkk im nervous usually watch regular porn,0 loli really thought could something doesnt involve fucking huh like claim im aw sad cant even relate someone else feels make feel slightest bit better all love annoying fucking everyonemessing fucking everything apparently feeling like wanna kill like course want final action still running away mistakes god im pathetic,1 @davepettigrew Have a blessed day! Praying for you guys ,0 want give lifei gay jobless single moved india states hoping give fresh start rather tumultuous childhood teenage years trying identify pushing fit among people dismissed different among muslim family know gay jobless today foreign land surviving last couple dollars keep getting rejected job interviews record masters electrical engineering something passionate hoping switch careers gained grounding us nothing sort happened life pushed back darkness yet again dont feel like going back home failed myself parents everyone hoped would make big never happened feel like corpse starting rot one talk feel lonely shit try pushing hope things dont seem happening want give rest drained mentally physically giving option see reason,1 im probably leaving sub idk joined memes arent funny anymore man,0 @Dannymcfly hey just wondering whereabouts in uganda you guys went? im going in july so was wondering if im going to the same place xx,0 sorry for the clickbait title i just really want to share call this number if you re feeling down and hopefully it ll lift your spirit 0 99 0 i saw it on instagram,1 I don't know if it's just my depression or if im really just that boring and uninteresting. Hmmm.,1 4-0 ...okay really the Penguins must so be humiliated... ,0 cant fucking take anymoreive lost interest everything made happy best and only friend yrs replacing boyfriend months school stressful c classes make people feel bad dont want die dont want live like anymore want make change life dont want end like genuinely dont know fucking anymore seems like redflag option yet thought death terrifies me cant even sh hard hide hot gets havent vented anyone know years im afraid wont taken seriously dont want burden redflag seems like way terrible way living,1 i ve been taking escitalopram for a while now it s helped in that i can t even remember the last time i had a panic attack however i have this really weird feeling it s like i have no strong emotion no motivation for anything the thing that brought me joy before don t anymore is this a symptom of something else i don t remember feeling like this before,1 hello everyone thought id say love all happy december lol,0 stop touch deprived like whatever cost im ready sacrifice children idk really friend told so,0 oh no it s a harrod day now i really will be sick,0 biggest fear biggest fear seen incompetent expressing myself example write poem song write book people see stupid sentimental idiot realised saw criticism surrounding cough cough gabbie hanna like anything realised way writes songs poems really similar mine mainly get really emotional other care others think ack know deal this,0 reviewer already commented made tv comedy amongst best football parodies ever buthaving failed video first aired find around format ok polled votes date average seem suggest something special basically suppose case tough luck missed cos longer available view aaaaaaaargh,0 "@Gangsty It's all good thank you, thank you? Oh if you wanna hear some i can send you it it's ok aiight ",0 totally awesome movie seen yet damn well should sure plot slow develop special effects laughable acting ridiculous action badly choreographed wrestler ddp would say thats bad thingthats good thing everything movie hilarious especially get dubbed version even worse actors countless laughs get end yearning sequel mummy fights wrestling women thus give ten stars unless one discriminating intelligent people good taste likes high quality films highest calibre recommend utterly monkeydellic movie,0 tired living chronic painbeen living chronic debilitating pain years gets little worse every year condition progresses medicine helps greatly expensive doc visits many barriers copay assistance card manufacturer helps always difficult understand supposed allowed day period overlap medication case issues refills pharmacies want wait run medication fill always takes longer think fill never stock makes cry every time happens claim warehouse supply anymore go somewhere else hate it almost normal person meds without cant much recently move wifes work area meds common really hard feel suicidal right like world want around medical problems afraid going miss dose even worse going able get prescription filled time fear every month everything tell do call ahead time give notice everything still cant get day supposed filled tired treated like belong bothering people need prescription fucking pain life sucks moment,1 whats first impression someone wears boots thesehttpsdiponvvotwcloudfrontnetpostsbcbffcaffem_bcbfaacedjpeg boots im thinking buying pair versatility durability would first impression be cool,0 point go nowin situation redflagim feeling more theres nothing really left me im last year one two strokes left side paralysis right side constant pain central post stroke pain increases sensation movement lost job lost motorcycle lost bank account least figures debt year behind child support still waiting months now decision social security reason im street pity family member whos basically letting squat house hes trying sell feel like loss everything could deal with starting actually seem bad ive done times moving around this pain think can want take anymore va tried several pain killers settling oxycodone worked take pain away made care it drugs baaad mkay cant keep increasing that tried tens hwave both hurt more lyrica pregabalin mgx kinda helps pain still there typing feels like streaks searing electricity shooting arm radiating fingers help like oxyxidone gets high much say break toe work work stop bar couple shots fix toe stop broken get buzz helps broken leg think shots help point simply getting high work im trading one high another getting high legal state means really cheap weed helps moment cant high day want anything really anything anyway struggle walk fall often generally takes xx longer task normally would sink dishes take hours get through ill lucky id break anything know expect this typing seems help ive alone living alone mean almost full year since leaving va hospital staying at job real friends social media outside reddit every day physically mentally hurts hurts lie try sleep hurts sitting shower chair so slip kill myself hurts walk point win situation ive mris cts blood work angiograms heart monitors name it bp great low cholesterol heart great history stroke family non smoker outside weed active lifestyle before stroke neurologist gave up saying tests run happened cant fix it deal it funny got optometrist fitting darkened indoor glasses eyes fine brain fucked up hey heres bandaide ya exist try make next day it hurts get this tell myself never get through may subside compared worse never goes away like blown speaker car matter high low change volume one still crackles piss poor job supposed do something repaired fucking brain brain damage theres nothing anybody it take drugs try get time take drugs order refill time lyrica controlled substance va procedures go through takes time ran wed get refill following tuesday withdraws bad symptoms stroke wishing death brings back bandaide fix takes drugs smoking weed day helped waiting real drugs two days finally slept better still hurts lie there whats worse spasticity spasms waves clenching muscles tightening shaking movement causes pain sensation affects nerves right side causes pain spasms hurt like someone kicking ribs laying down drugs supposedly help win situation do va anti opiates could get oxy again get stronger dose high day drugs drugs drugs wake up take pills make take pills try sleep wake up take pills,1 i shower and wash my hair naturally curly so it s a whole routine do my skin care routine and feel good for a day or two then i just don t even want to do it again i stop washing my hair for a week or two i completely stop taking care of my skin i fall off my routine until i get that motivation back to do it again i m getting so tired of this i miss how soft and fluffy my hair feel after washing it i miss how clean and soft my face feel after exfoliating moisturizing i wish i could do this everyday but i just fall off i get so depressed and watch my hair and skin turn into exactly how i feel for the past few day now i haven t even been able to get out of bed i lay there wanting to do thing but i just don t get up it feel like there s so much weight on top of me just holding me down the only one good thing i did yesterday wa getting up to wash the dish i like celebrating the smaller thing but i m kinda getting tired of that i wish i didn t have to i wish i wa functioning like everyone else i wish living didn t feel like such a chore i seriously wish i could give my life to someone who want to live this out anyone else probably would ve made better choice to get out of my situation and much earlier too i feel so useless if anyone s got tip for the getting back into routine thing please throw anything you ve got at me thank you for reading,1 alright first thanks taking moment read terrible mess punctuation spelling social redflag depression since years old now made learning experience time growing tougher hoped not sound complacive anyhow skimmed highschool plans secondary school college never found interest getting bed morning let alone pursuing careerpassion graduated june immediately kicked dad step moms house couch hopped found full time job shithole apartment rent around year living wake force bed take bus work keep head listen podcaststhe reason writing bullshit depression social redflag amped since moved here every day convince hour two everything okay working mans lifeso reason say stuck position cannot seem make friends good conversation even try hardest matter much cocaine booze nothing changes fact fucking cringefest talk to really know asking guys say want hear stories opinions hope well wish best stuck,1 link twitch stream case yalls links arent working haha httpsmtwitchtvreemaplay rn theres jk soooo,0 "@amyerichards Happy mother's day! If you were in Guatemala, there would be firecrackers at 4am in your honor!",0 @PatchieSteve Don't tell me God suffers from depression. Great story!,1 ewarden you may have to email this one to me i hope you feel better,0 "@AnneMama Hey, you have generated great discussion with the round-table...good job! ",0 @mcflyboards psssssst. can you advertise my westonbirt ticket? £20 i just want to get rid of it. ,0 Les longs week-ends font les petites semaines. ,0 anyone awake even chat nothing would help right nowhey anyone awake live canada coming bender helped mask anxiety depression everything flooding im alone watching tv room would nice someone chat am cant really reach anyone without waking fucking day tuesday havent slept since saturday night hours,1 Hard work and an active lifestyle is the best cure for anxiety/depression in my opinion. Productivity breeds productivity. Getting started is the toughest part.,1 i am in my office s toilet for about an hour now and i can not stop cry i wa having a good day for a change after a really long time in a while but one bad moment wa enough to push me into this mess i have been trying to make myself stop from cry because i need to go back to my desk but these stupid tear won t stop and my eye look bloodshot right now and i forgot my eye drop in my purse life suck,1 friend going kill right now please helpi know do answer phone anything,1 @roflucy algebra is easy lucy ,0 Sign up today to join countless others in lifting stigma for women suffering from an mmh disorder like postpartum depression. Let's be some serious light out there for those moms suffering in darkness! https://www.facebook.com/DarkSideOfTheFullMoon/posts/1284836754953259 …,1 always alone always lonelyto grave thats empty existence follow me damnable slog working live combined inappropriate coping mechanisms lead this shell vacuous vapid wanting death nothing mourn whoever inside died long ago years unsaid happy birthdays decades even much touch another lifetime alone comprehending one understands surely whoever inhabitated shell died body continue meaningless march oblivion nothing left mind nurture soul save hollow husk pay mind pass by do second might hope cruelest punishment inflict instincts shell knows never loved die allow allow hope otherwise well must inhumanely wicked,1 guess much add found comedy still funny ten years since came outbr br the one thing notice music dialogue distracting often made movie hook been use songs fine movie orchestral background busy contrived movie ever edited dvd would seriously recommend background music toned almost inaudible level cheapened overall feel whole film see subconsciously lot people passed upbr br the film lot levels working script plot comedy level bad producer director felt needed musical schlock enhance mood knowing this find hard watch quietly curse whoever involved musical editing film subtlety jackhammer,0 legitimate question i m not trying to be close minded or anything i got referred to a therapy clinic by a friend of mine and i have been doing weekly session for a month now i don t feel any better and to be honest i kind of dread my therapy session because they leave me feeling even more helpless and empty i think my therapist isn t the best phd student in training but i feel so bad saying that since i know she s there to help me people have told me to change therapist but jesus christ i can t bring myself to do it because i feel bad i put myself in her shoe i honestly don t know if i m being impatient about all this since i ve heard therapy take many session to help at all anyways i went to therapy because i wa fed up with life after dealing with anxiety and depression symptom for year and i wanted to take my friend s advice also my depression symptom have been worse even though my qol ha been better overall i let my therapist know that nothing triggered my depressive episode this time around and that my mind is just painfully empty feel like someone is constricting my brain and i feel lethargic all the time but all she doe is ask what do you mean by that sorry if i m writing too much in one post but i heard therapist aren t supposed to give advice so what exactly can she do for me she doe cbt sometimes like when i told her that everyone in the room judge me for the way i walk and talk to which she say who told you that are you sure you re not judging them first which doe make my question myself slightly but that s all nothing that i can actively implement to help me counter those thought but then again i have no idea what i m supposed to take from my session and would appreciate your guy feedback any experience you want to share amp x 00b edit sorry wanted to clear up that i haven t been formally diagnosed with anything so i m not 00 sure if i had a depressive episode i had to ask my therapist to refer me to a psychiatrist didn t seem like she wa going to since i wanted a proper assesment,1 stop mean meyou guys keep mean confess mean thats insecure guys one extra reason redflag,1 would coming states first time years dec ecstatic finally meet mil weve chatted several occasions truly great person rob excited wanted make trip memorable decided wanted get family portrait painted late christmas gift,0 remember ralph bakshi guy animator terrytoons paramount cartoon studios that director fritz cat heavy traffic well coonskin actually pretty good racist good movie takes place harlem nights no duh working title twist becomes lampoon disney movie song southbr br its sampson barry white preacherman charles gordone rush help friend randy philip michael thomas escape prison stopped roadblock wind shootout police waiting them randy unwillingly listens fellow escapee pappy scatman crothers begins tell randy story three guys used know like friends pappys story told animation set liveaction background photos footagebr br brother rabbit voice thomas brother bear voice white preacher fox voice gordone decide pack leave southern settings bank mortgages home sells man turns brothel arriving harlem rabbit bear fox find made be encounter con man named simple savior phony revolutionary leader purports cousin black jesus gives followers the strength kill whites flashy stage performance church savior acts brutalized symbols black oppressionrepresented images john wayne elvis presley richard nixon asking parishioners donationsbr br rabbit first goes madigan virulently racist homophobic white police officer bag man mafia demonstrates contempt african americans various ways including refusal bathe anticipated encounter he believes theyre worth it madigan finds rabbit taking payoffs cohorts ruby bobby led nightclub called the cottontailbr br a black stripper distracts lsd sugar cube dropped drink madigan influence spiked drink maneuvered sexual liaison stereotypically effeminate gay man shoved clothes women representative racist archetype adorned something racist finally shoved back club discovers ruby bobby deadbr br then recovering delirium drugged shoots gun around randomly shot death police shooting one thembr br rabbit bear fox opponent boxer rush boxing arena blows up liveaction story ends randy pappy escaping shot various white cops managing make alivebr br this movie controversial time release reedited director several times title street fight obvious since street fight documentary racism streets fact movie subject documentarybr br that caused bryanston pictures distributor film original tobe hopper classic texas chainsaw massacre go business paramount wanted produce distribute film due racism bryanston took bakshis productionbr br despite controversy worth entertainment animation awesome time plot makes sense actually funny toobr br final verdict ,0 "@breadstix oh 7am? thats heading mah way in 1.5hrs oh god, coffee, tea, crisps n rice. so fed makes u skinny 2 huh?",0 @mikeyhell @zeenemesis GLADLY ,0 need help quick year old male wanna kill tonight,1 #derunkah-Twitter ;) woooooooo! Downtown enjoying the last bit o' sunshine ,0 first cold night of the year,0 orethebrave but we all like writing that we can work under pressure me na to cry i cried sotey i pack my load and left my work place before i go die for depression i don t know who told employer that they don t praise employee but right now in that office thing i did a a,1 asker crush together cant express happy am,0 sure exactly got honestly feel cursed god universe whatever forces work felt depressed years now that child felt different weird isolated alienated seeking real help someone university asked have ever considered killing yourself occurred normal major antidepressants hospitalized twice seen countless doctors therapists psychiatrists psychologists still place reached tms ketamine places gotten anywhere tinnitus taken number blows head throughout life never sure related depression supportive family even great wife feel terrible relying much financially emotionally able make progress main problem seems feel like part anything going on understand going on know supposed doing everything seems wrong see chaos confusion honestly trying best survive thrive keeps getting worse went college thought wanted filmmaker barely even enjoy films feels like every idea done knew could network assemble crew necessary things would do ever able make wedding videosand hire maybe person decided stop that got job editing short promos tv shows gave portfolio one seems care about worked local government creating media getting fired voicing concerns noise office sensitive one hiring me go back driving done ever since able work used think driving made feel free could alone music podcasts thoughts want alone thoughts think killing day two years transported dead bodies super depressing work fedex hot noisy extremely strenuous every time someone tries help job prospect leads nowhere point even want accept help rejected many places seems would qualified for look jobs time look really bad pay much process takes much time rejected end want quit job spotty gig work fall back on feel like failure cannot contribute financiallyi feel gratitude things have tried journaling meditation yoga exercise plenty things people suggest do mind stays locked past mistakes cringey moments beat shit day everyday cannot stop compare others get jealous get angry cannot normal successful feels like getting dumber forgetful harder hearing need faculties working well possible seems getting older life gets sad embarrassing barely want leave house sensitive horrible things see situations might end ini know anymore scared getting older could possibly get even worse need help cannot seem get it everything reach everything seems impossible tumbled long time see way back,1 OMG! am so bored my pussys poppin! ,0 i am 0 married year this october and a four year old about to start school none of this matter when i m expected to pick up the slack for my family and their failing my sister wa diagnosed with schizophrenia my parent have no idea how to deal with it having lived with chronic depression their entire life and relying on faith to get them through she s refusing treatment medication and in denial of her condition it s a constant cycle of her being unstable hospitalized until shes able to manipulate the doctor that she s okay and go home to torment u my brother is leaving his military job after year and freaking out because he doesn t think he ll survive a a civilian i m fairly certain he ha his own mental issue stemming from way back but he s also just barnacled on to me for guidance i wanted to kill myself i wa about to and i called and got help and i ve been on medication for year i struggled with alcoholism in my early 0 and decided to stay sober for my daughter and i m finding it hard to hang on with all of this going on i m finding it hard to help people who don t want to help themselves but if i don t then everything just go to hell and i m the one to blame because i m the smart one and have to guide everyone where they re supposed to go it s exhausting having to care for people who refuse to accept they have issue i feel like i m being punished for being the only one in my family for having had the fortitude to acknowledge my mental illness it s taking a toll on my marriage and i am scared of the consequence of what that would entail i worry for my child because if i can t take care of myself then i can t take care of her i m staring at the same abyss that wa before me those year ago when i wa spiraling and i don t want to be here again anyway thanks for hearing me out reddit i just needed to verbalize it to make sure i m not just imagining it all,1 really feel life scared chop veins wristi purpose yeti feel pressure wanted end this needed true connection needed someone talk to college graduating,1 failed againi failed levels reapplied different college gave second chance im failing again easiest exam understand half ended panicking even write enough get marks pass failing first time destroyed me second chance again american high school im going highschool dropout im stupid,1 dont like doom eternal get wrong hella fun game hate idea doom slayer back doom saw doomguy mask suit armor face image body dialogue revealing armor feels like doomguy soul doomguy seem like person embodiment intent vengeance face body leaves us imagination doomguy looks like personal preference imagination feels like doomslayer doom eternal changes that silent embodiment intention buff human doom makes us feel power comes pure intention malice revealed doom eternal drugged guy severe psychotic ptsd doomguy talked flashback makes seem weak helpless face revealed seem deadly hateful another protagonist sea endless averages basically revealing vs face v vendetta embodiment intention drugged mentally impaired human,0 but i still look at them everyday and overthink for hour,1 ive gay lately im bisexual im think im turning full gay girls interest anymore used love looking pictures pretty women im like ok unfollowed many girls used turn instagram dont feelings towards anymore im looking pics im like why even follow you hand ive perplexed emotions much want bf,0 "@mrskutcher Have you ever gotten a tarot reading? I'd love to read for you sometime. Thanks so much for your work, btw. Best!",0 Listening to some Runrig while work on some designs ,0 understand became like this suddenly lights always turned off believe happiness see someone happy understand it believe much depressed like normal course am everyone else acting normal except like this remember wanting people wanting connection wanting make people smile suddenly happened year also fast point almost paralysing good day day eat great day would mean take shower even question ask answer seek fucking want get back normale right fucking now add up angry confused fucking unfair logically know always like this right ,1 Sent email to Tony Blackburn blaming him Lol ,0 merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas 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redflag weeks ago by stabbing seeing nothing changed nobody cared all brother could say i never understand pain cant help you hope somehow continue on nobody helped me even though mental hospital they jackshit told therapist psychiatrist amount anything either think ive come point really want it im even taking meds anything depression though help sleep yay already know advance life complete failure future ill fail every way possible ill never find job ill never find friends never ever ever find love im thinking buying nylon rope amazon sucks wait cant try immediately wanted tell someone im gone soon least ill try hate suicidal taboo is cant talk anyone openly whether doctor psychologist psychiatrist god forbid normal person nobody even tries understand really might much maybe way out always automatically side without even like really discussing all makes worse opinion,1 thanks for bursting my bubble,0 m thought redflag officially scary anymoreand worries me lot part saw coming timeanother part denial every relationship toxic level intense codepdence coming family selfimage think go unattractive am college active sports teams social clubs outgoing talked girls never succeeded overheard second time girls talking embarassed disgusting look closed book me done talking girls none projects sidebusinesses every panned out academically sucked get masters program im home odd work dad friends works home treats like owns me parts life oddly exemplary eat diet rfitness would jerk to im bf train times week meditate daily couple hobbies enjoy sleep well fillers cant get anywhere want academic goals business goals financial goals relationship goals sex goals list goes on im tired generalized anxiety makes life hell my psychiatrist want give meds says im better cbt looks like itll enough understand all neither last guy im good all bring meds told get meds asking thought dead used scare lot would think missing little things air sunshine food etc thats changed too ive seen all ill see way im tired tired,1 cant control anger hello guysgirls im born english speaker english grammatical mistakes try explain good manner note real wanted tell since little kinda antisocial afraid go crowded places tell shy too parents normal parents one could have although dad kinda strict bad thingsany dad like this hes nice huge temper anyone anything wrongplz dont think dad abusing anything love muchits temper crazy school kinda alone friends never hard easy make friends never progressed life like going parties study nights sort things students do liked hurt little animals like kittens chicksif rememebr right kinda sudden impule feeling felt child dont feel like this love animals plants muchi dont know changed things progressed stopped talking people even best friends dont anything talk unless topic like even family inner circle always kept silence speak something good studies liked science musiceven nowi felt anger days huge rate like im feeling now grew im years old school enrolled universitycurrently last year im internship software eng somehow managed talk people now good like before always felt emptiness heart im alone think stuff able worse always thought dont have example im short af im kg weight weight years slim always never able increase height weight muscle mass friends well developed nice body figures dont have depressed fact im like peoplefrom age noticed anger normal impulsive even things believe im angry dont blame others fighting anyone keep myself release temper break stuff stopped broken laptops mobile phones etc temper cant always afford new one instead try hurt ever im angry bigg anger outburst last week almost bite flesh inner forearm painful think bite force something vein inside hand day hand still feeling numb area huge anger outbursts im impulse drive knife serious damage myself hit head hit wall over destructive im doubting live anyone like this im afraid hurt someone badly anger reason anger anything cant anything get mad worst part is progresses fail game i played league legends recently quited anger burst like raging fire ares body hurt hit fist always feel gloomy sad im anyone think abut alot get depressedwhen happens smoke get worst mental illness need opinion plz ps smoke weed like everyday alchol abuser never dangerous stuff like heroin meth tried acid times times good trips,1 give things weeks school need stuff holidays suggest things and im studying,0 GR8 job 2! @realandrews In case yall didn't know @realandrews played Taggert on GH! (via @lucyntn)thanks for the props much appreciated,0 lets talk stdsi caught herpes relationships since want ever discuss person someone ever again im longer dating ive used hookers but really kidding theres reason live ever able give someone love herpes id rather not far gone seems like reasonable feeling incurable std diagnosis id always felt viral infection kill themselves now sort feels like normal conclusion feeling,1 got tb hdd games pc could hold siege gta bo now hold black ops black ops black ops siege fortnite minecraft minecraft bedrock garrys mod addons killing floor every borderlands game more,0 i miss my bcd friend,0 wanna really get girl going say good girl idk works everyone literally cannot control that,0 @Soo_zee Fall Out Boy!! ,0 chaotic depression: do u even deserve food,1 advice needed moving redflag attempti tried hanging two days ago interrupted someone knocked door turned mailman took sign life turn around live im back depressed anxious ever abused mentally physically sexually father made awful mistakes regret haunted trauma shame plagued mental illness know drill snapped two days ago best friend didnt seem care wanted kill think friends insulted it also disappoints hanging like kate spade doorknob scarf seemed difficult slower expected less hope could actually would choose scarier method like jumping im pretty sure would able get do anyone advice moving redflag attempt,1 im completely ruinedi drink much fucked cheated ex miserable person world anymore finally started thinking im even using throwaway know do ruined best thing ever happened me never getting this im completely self destructive point im useless know fucking anymore im never going stop thinking her bet may reading this knows reddit account is im beyond sorry know else say fucking fault every single goddamn fucking day live it sucks fault ever im leaving keys apartment front porch note animals ok know else do want fucking stab sometimes apartment never feels like home never everything feel awful long im there im bad place wanna way want thoughts cant fucking normal cant normal shit wrong me fucking hate myself dont know much longer endure this every single day waking feeling miserable regretting every choice make fuck fucking fuck fuck fuck,1 "@zigzackly Hey, Peter. You are a hard man to get a direct response from ",0 gaslighting myself into getting rid of my depression and anxiety,1 question girls gf spends minutes night using lotion skin soft girls care much soft skin,0 neighbour named new cat anime character ultimate bruh momentum filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 lockdown so im uk were heading lockdown im incredibly terrified last lockdown last time tried kill cant support bubble live mum mum support cant even see boyfriend idea even try phone someone mum stops yet im shouts soon start mental breakdown last time got touch helpline made even suicidal saying completely wrong things told thought upset everyone one likes,1 death salvationi friends anyone talk to aspergers adhd fear medication way treat this suicidal thoughts never normal im always bullied positive social interaction social skills easy way out ability kill myself,1 tonight night cyawill spare sob story im tired incel want fucking love affection girls society deems subhuman it cya sucky years,1 im struggling rn im struggling like sometimes intrusive thoughts go brrr,0 originally saw film working musician musical theatre summer stock ever done work theatre especially summer stock theatre really enjoy filmbr br yes moments really bad writing film overall lovely tribute theatre people love it,0 happy christmas hannuka funky monkey friday everyone whatever celebrating hope everything great well know year pretty hard live us were gonna go forget simp corpse nice weekend lt,0 happy mothers day to all..im gonna help mine right now.she deserves it..you guys should too.. ,0 @whitchil you could've saved me some lol,0 i woke up at 9am to study for finals and all i've done today is depression nap ,1 desperately need helpa stranger blackmailing me making admit lot things save relationship someone want lose want hurt theyll stop harassing someone say im one harassing them oh god killing me,1 finalization workingim alcoholic stage know never know know im sure felt feel im coming free cant break cycle leave behind beautiful partner kids leave behind estranged ex son leave behind lot people overlooked shunned including parents siblings look here comforting explaining strangers judge keyboard warriors weak emotional thats curse packets nurofen tablets it worry anymore relief brain relief,1 @moreandagain go ahead & treat urself u deserve it ,0 never relationship im couple months jr hs ive never relationshipgf virgin first kiss even fucking hand holding lmao sound douchey cocky def lose vcard first kiss really wanted i want save someone worth alot friends didntdont feel like im missing out even point saving person difference friend like first times suck anyways better person want advice,0 im done cant anymorei dont even know teen angst anymore im honestly sick tired loneliness heartache friends people around somewhat care me cant get head go live happy fucking life feel empty calm like im trapped feel like built whole personality people would like it yet still dont dont know am dont know im doing dont know going end thats terrifying,1 try take opinions grain salt incel really isolated trend cases part way modern malefemale gender system works also understand this questioning stuff mean hate women even imply that everyone right vent frustration want talk give details,1 i have been at work on a new beat a night.. its been like this for at least 2 weeks.. i cannot stop people. i need help! album out soon.. ,0 watching bob ross brings back memories im rewatching joy painting bob ross bringing back memories bob ross joy painting best,0 "how have i gone from having a depressive episode last night, breaking down on the bathroom floor, genuinely wanting not to exist, to today feeling motivated and wanting to leave the house independently to go do a cute spring photoshoot?? depression is weird",1 mizzzidc move the fuck out of yr mother house she cant be getting disrespected in her own house bcoz of a pair sneaker dont play the depression card u are gng to be really depressed wen she kick u out,1 im tiredby rights great right family cares me girlfriend loves me enough money go college even work job im tall fairly athletic people tell im funny good looking intelligent im feeling anymore decided go university two states away thought would nice change pace even alone older brother already hey much trouble making friends right ive ended alone wonderful girlfriend two states away friends relationship parents tense lately due various reasons appear improving im decent student im failing classes pretty much beyond repair means ill single class show half year life ton money even workload overwhelming tests hard motivation succeed anxiety depression im meds enjoy things used fun ive tried going hobbies come empty attempted start new hobbies find interest them made friends first semester classes lectures meet anyone roommate guys floor answer theyre nice guys good intelligent people really talk girls drugs judge drugs front im currently taking drinking every substance get hands time really enjoy week im sober yeah ive failed college classes parents happy it enjoy anything anymore overall cant bring care know lot problems life solvable put effort end ive wrestling idea killing past month two seems appealing time goes on say wait three days week trying kill month might actually it,1 need some help want to buy a macbook pro but still inlove with my old powerbook,0 masked beautyi ruined tripped realization come to mean ruined start all never initiated contact felt something never felt before would held back known would become us trip started taking away took far much sat underneath largest resolute tree campus fall new england trees full effect known coming bottom green grass bowl surrounded trees large boulders cold looming brick buildings many many people who us appeared far colder stones earth sat two us existed felt ever since day always two us remained spot morning long past dark holding tightly laughing crying kissing attempt either us leave brought us back sacred spot beneath tree spot still resides her me us two us still lying beneath tree holding onto one another watching sky night unexplainable beauty girl stars still is however consequence resides her holds dazzling image delicately beautiful mind time knows long maybe since day shimmering ideal place dreamscape filled rolling green hills single tree tree wants take acid lie beneath it die wanted come her die side holding tight hope abate pain harbors soul correct one aspect theory pain more transfer known loved graced earth leave infallible hole knew her void cannot filled anything presence one last time since day met her filled void within me one carried life one thought could never whole this saved me made whole become part me many others part that removed would crumble around it shuns me shouldnt she isnt created deep bleeding wound heart isnt ruined delicate existence life sun moon stars wrapped bow tore cosmos apart feel stars pain lives within me although doesnt see way but could she every time cut bleeding drowning deepness all one could pull back up mend wounds regardless caused them tenderness love never known need be need her ever shimmering idealistic place one die comes death rolling fields greens sacred tree grasps frantically at comes death true ceaseless empty void feelings love hate sadness need nothing void creates reduces to nothing although thats wishes become cannot let something ive ever slip fingers disappear obscurity thing differentiates everyone else life weighs heavier heart others would give life instant would anything protect her keep safe whether safety not still blindly clings notion place save her place like doom shed involved with came know love her boy saved many times would never able repay her would live neither free pointless would exist could longer bare absence ripped him would move join her would find there nothing find one search it true deliverance one another two exist theyre together nothing else matters salvation hers needs take hand yet emotions change july weather gone quickly misty morning showers giving way marvelously expansive shining sky lay beneath deeply secluded solitary tree watch skies worlds pass need beside me hands wrapped around neck kissing face whispering ear secrets know stroke back brushing strands raven black hair face eyes may meet reminded till death us part matter happens us coming days always you side holding hand firmly can one ever heart one ive ever loved depths soul fight world together stay strong deep heart believe always meant always meant last forever love beautifully intricately woven eternal threads every fabric heart soul reside every fabric being till death us part never give you see this please wait,1 already years of budding addiction job again perpetually selfdestructing family complete inability make new friends girlfriend onoff years moved back baggageboroi spent entire teenage life abstaining drugs wanted enjoy adult fresh brain realized threshold child adult hopeless blur bad genes genes winning far enjoy altered im college dropout skills retailfastfoodlevel experience vehicle day job applications essentially shittiest lottery ever hope placed lucky enough win minimum wage im person real life internet theres real mask anonymity use flatten selfesteem palatable wafer bitterness may come girlfriends proliferous digital social life utterly failed thing lived room years charming best feels like matter luck moved back came months telling know wanted me couple weeks expressly wanting baby family future moved conversation week know need do try harder get job learn marketable skill open people more move worst need dragged it need friends somewhere go id like beach im right there car get it,1 "@mpowers7718 July 12th is the last Plano Centre show, then we are going to be doing Garland Special Event Center shows. ",0 i ve had tinnitus for like year could it be somehow related to anxiety also neck pain for year tension mainly thanks for answer,1 THE FOUR STAGES OF VICE:> pose> depression> overthinking> anger,1 depression feels like something lives me corner room sometimes there quiet silent watching me wondering sometimes attacks without warning without advance destroys tears apart every possible way fighiting years yet seems like always find place room this monster facing me hated myself pitted myself felt numb paralyzed hopeless screaming empty place possible things yet always place room monster watching me till put mind that i okay oh fine gone i already smiling fine finding next moment day time second breathe monster crawling looking again ampxbsometimes feel like becoming monster myself thoughts,1 people post secret codes posts by hand shall know glories yourprogeny world made right forever more,0 tw suicide yea so my recent symptom of depression wa that i thought i wa really really old i m lol there were numerous occasion where i had to convince myself of my actual age because my brain wa certain i m or had to count year from my birthday and repeat to myself over and over that i m i thought most of it wa because i m seeing a lot of successful people on social medium younger than me and because i m not finished with my uni yet because i m repeating a year but during therapy today i realized that beyond those reason i also had this subconscious plan in my head that i will barely make it past 0 like top and then i will be dead i have no idea where it came from i m not suicidal i don t think i ever wa but my brain seems convinced that by the time i m 0 i will develop suicidal thought and then before i will kill myself no wonder i thought i wa so old i have a little more than 0 year before my deadline lol and that s being generous idk why i wrote this i will probably delete this later i just needed to dump this info somewhere i don t want to worry my friend and family,1 "What were you taught in school? Have you ever independently researched the Great Depression, to prove or disprove what you were taught? https://www.facebook.com/VPAofTX/posts/1912767898797971 …",1 i m so behind in video game and everything for that matter i m yesterday s news,0 sheer quality performance theater absurd one hard compare anything else world melting early s film made perfect sense then still resonates george scott could never typecast,0 think people give movie much credit deserves love low budget horror movies takes cake especially originality yes scarecrow kungfu fighting frightner not one else willing go far really much fun watching movie since candyman town picks one kid calling scarecrow even mom care him gets killed spirit infused scarecrow goes killing spree demise relatively easy assume movie gets going dedications end go straight bunch horror directors dedication towards dario argento really struck cool folks wanna make movies newer genre movie lot arnold rip offs one liners definitely laugh like stick around kills sheriff stick would say grab pizza friends laugh a movie love originality fun,0 hate myself many things wrong failure hate myself hating entire life good reasons countless things wrong countless times failed school failed good person bad selfish person obviously lot people hate you please downvote post want lose karma deserve it,0 really want praise subreddit community im happy forum entirely dedicated offering support watching others worst times lives thank all,1 chewbeka yeah it is brutal at least it s not until june lmao but i m excited then we have to get onto another plane to canada lol,0 know anymoreapologies advance know im longwinded boringly pessimistic incubating depression coming head im nearing two months unemployed goodpaying seasonal job lined up start weeks meantime ive searching something solid temporary gig ends since goal move current lease ends next year want leave town found much success county ive lived past years job prospects low im also struggling find right direction anyway quit job two years early summer little background think might relevant later id really well company year half id gotten great performance reviews made decent sales managers found resourcefulness communication skills exceptional however parttime encouraged take fulltime lateral position nearby sister location debated ultimately applied received transfer stood offer experience good hourly raise plus bonuses sales manager ill call melissa running office crucially busy time working alone lot sacrificing days meet deadlines suit melissas scheduling needs tried stay positive burned fairly quickly melissa salaried came work late and im talking least hour often not would keep paperwork so constantly fighting keep us current one occasion found integrityhonesty questionable also really problem taking ownership workspacei desk front worked hours week melissa office large desk upon kept fresh decorations personal photos etc however would come back day find personal affects place see written desk calendar which id personally purchased know writing appointments helps memorize them melissa would insist desk computer belong me needed utilize desk gone could front store really fight that really got skin removed everything bare essentials generic emailshers managerial one mine sales per company norms wed put names signature lines respective email accounts shed use computer shed log sales user instead manager one led sending emails sales outlook account shed send emails account used would sometimes even change signature line shed go far refer third person one final straws melissa boss our regional manager decided would get bonus technically belonged me pretty big sale required regional manager authorization bonus structure rightfully mine months worked location melissa id reached teams locations needed support trying best honest state office without blatantly calling melissa shortcomings bringing personal feelings it even addressed concerns regional manager sending factual professionallyworded email started looking fallback jobs realized melissa would running show regional manager going help deeply regretting making transfer came shamefully abrupt end one saturday morning long found shed taken bonus office open daysweek funny days off came back monday really saturday find background wallpaper computer changed obnoxiously pixelated blown image pink rose i prefer stock wallpapers dark colors find desktop icons even set keys patience took hit albeit trivial annoyance great start week whatever melissa showed surprisingly early prepared make morning rounds opening shop chipper mood obviously pleased punctuality day quickly sensed irritability keep mind im monday mode anywaynot thats excuse bitch anyway latched onto mood called putting damper morning sure could probably used attitude adjustment chose right perform impromptu assessment problem is caught guard prepared launch wellformed argument problem reached quick answer mentioned desktop wallpaper melissa said another manager spent time office help must changed it followed chastising too obsessed desk needed accept people needed use it moment done clearly respect effort put work care took organization feel valued respected allowed take ownership part job wanted rip top bun stupid blonde head call selfish bitch was instead calmly dropped office keys desk told quit going argue minutia foundational issues id dealing weighing heavy collected supplies id purchased left office last time morning left voicemail hr department headquarter office theyd know quit luckily one applications temporary reception job came through quickly resumed working week later days chose hire permanently wanted stay temp longer let me feel good long commute enough pay ive unemployed since late september ive applied places im avoiding industry id last two yearsits really cliquey good feeling toward anymore either mostly retail experience belt scrapbook collegeuniversity credits degree typically aim clerical work government positions least feel like im contributing society somehow kinda fell salesoffice job stayed pay awesome often hear keep finding situation problem likely you so im owning that maybe im straightforward worker think am maybe work ethic really be maybe get along people im spectrum something working relationship pattern melissa seem new tend regularly find fault type management guess feel like put bullshit know see way fix it make work me know belong calling ive lot jobs last years live longtime partner ill call p im ashamed say p support financially month next temporary job begins feel really guilty essentially ragequitting i really rage though swear good paying job turning next job offer havewant children pets p offers moral support well really emotionally supportive seem understand im experiencing right now thats okayi get job everything times feel really alone spite someone come home to come large family mother died four years ago week slow descent opiod addiction unexpectedly turned extreme alcoholism estranged years prior understand accept choices making family negatively affected death personally im peace knowing longer selfdestructing wish still mom sure woman became longer momid lost mom years died siblings understand feel way villanized bullied it talk them dad side count him either lives nearby relationship all ties cut whether inperson social media contact siblings abusive lead toxic lifestyles lot incestual abuse moms large family auntsunclescousins life either p thinks siblings take advantage funny probably take advantage him says thats hard time making friends thinks keep guard high ive made acquaintances work years gone dinner movies coworkers years since ive really connected someone could identify friend someone flakes me tend waste time anymore early twenties id get backstabbed lot too coworkers thought friends course leads question myself kind person prone backstabbing people think so hesitate confront someone example someone im friendly workplace drops ball somehow problem reminding expectation would describe stern straightforward unkind im left assume people generally like it otherwise think im good listener trustworthy honest make effort put positive spin things workplace tear others gossip tolerate vicinity guess im unlikable maybe im annoying uninteresting dumb hard tell kind person im perceived as many people outside p socialize with ampxb past weeks ive cleaning belongings mom died deal storage unit junk want leave kind mess p went journals present ive always same listless position running narrative know work bosses little work much pay feel alone know myself clearly im problem early thirties already im stumped find work entry level guess really deserve anything that stuck anything long enough earn it today cleared old video diaries laptop yes video diariesi get lonely lose patience handwritten journaling quickly so ive tried recording try talk even myself skipping them im disgusted emptyheadedness speak well seem know anything substance look like ive done anything value frustrating thing surface seem problem ablebodied enough jog miles time eat fairly well read bit resumee strung together time hands ive job search submitted applications every waking minute im employed right picky health home car manageable debt burdens hold back cant make something happen feel dead inside why since kid ive ever wanted dead see future real goals passion sense community theres book dbt skills got outpatient program ten years ago desk distract self care hey weeks ill job keep mind plenty occupied im really tired conversation days health insurance im sorry obama aca never good even staunch liberal therapys question right now put position involuntarily committed ill need pass last background check simply posting feels like red flag is could call hotline im cups volunteer im crisis modewhat even say shit work like that id tell like profound sense fallen cracks know im shallow idiot psych drugs fix loneliness change ideology maybe everyone supposed born maybe person life better without dark presence his maybe week maybe next week maybe next year even land another sufficient job ill ever dangling thread,1 actually plan wanna today im gonna make jewellery someone ordered something im gonna play video games maybe draw time lets hope fall asleep since like hours sleep,0 day asking everyone filler filler filler kakektidb filler filler filler,0 dont know doive screaming crying help past years im yes people theyll think phase now not wish stupid fucking edgy angsty phase that ive felt way since middle school junior highschool now first time asked parents help asked go therapist feeling depressed nothing asked least times after still help second time ran dad crying told wanted kill myself told loved me told me dont feel way told fine happy good life still got help third time told mom need see therapist need help told right feel way good life loving parents this gave asking help them went school counselor told overwhelmed life wanted everything stop told made sense felt way easy classes workload wasnt heavy tried explain wasnt school everything didnt listen told one friends sad depressed feel told get emo phase screaming help ive tried fucking hard get help know need one listens dont many friends im introverted awkward like many people go one friend tried really friend although dont even really talk anymore feel alone hopeless im ready end it dont know else tried hard find help honestly believe things dont get better within years im gone sooner im sorry wasting time post needed get everything out im fucking hopeless point,1 Wooohooo got tickets FO SHO to the blink show! So stoked! Best birthday ever!!! ,0 scared driven harming andor othersi get thoughts things going webcam call friends harming myself recent eventhttpswwwredditcomrdepressioncommentswqim_in_the_most_convoluted_relationships_of_my incredibly scared ill eventually driven thing basically cry help want scare like that part thinks nobody grieve conflicts thoughts people truly care because people do really know want anymore unpleasant dreams going back psych ward i went one last year impulse redflag attempt want go back one,1 trying give reasons liveso think ive life going use throwaway see purpose anymore ill dead within hour anyway im dead end job dead end life cut contacts friends become alcoholics drug addicts burnouts parents cut support me ill homeless month paychecks longer able cover housing bills strange think life made dramatic turn graduated high school high honors scholarships never relationship even kissed girl hopes though college would change things would finally able achieve dreams become medical examiner live comfortable life bat things go well failed make new friends college ended hanging friends high school first two years bad well academically loneliness social isolation final caught me around junior year college began get alcohol heavily becoming might call burnouts followed suit grades fell barely graduated college worthless humanities degree spent following years dead end food service jobs drinking away sorrows basements houses remaining friends finally lost virginity way wouldve hoped for slept best friends fiance told keeping silent ruined friendship kicked apartment shared them took back left defeated man tried kill year half ago hospitalized three days hopped ativan olazipan let go saw counselors tried get back school every time would take classes anxiety would take would fail horribly took numbing way taught how drinking even course thrown detox clinic three months ago went bender pulled knife frat boys encouraging kill bunch friends ditched me gave friends drinking basements left alone even friends left beginning fade away friends begin new relationships want drag mopiness anymore new year dawns resolved see another sorry long rambling post guess wanted tell story feel amanda always huge crush you thank always matter sorry never balls say felt reddit awesome provided hours hours entertainment making feel alone world adios,1 spent almost every single day drunkim ashamed it want stop,1 @lucyucy Lol lucy as much as i love hugging u i want a guy hug x xx,0 concert coming th september thats last thing really care do feel like ill right thatso ig could last weeks right now,1 iphoneincanada no wait their 0 cheaper package ha 0 more voice minute it s cheaper and substantially better messsedd upppp,0 "@JustA_Girl unless it's Rob or some other hott guy, don't bother ",0 boss disappointed mei work lab im undergrad student such cant dedicate much time lab boss emailed telling disappointed performance dont spend much care lab fair completely fault im stretched thin depressed already doubt ill able actually improve im tired worthless honestly dont see point living anymore,1 ive bed days straifhti get shit eat eat dayi work april extend end july go back work july th im scared im judt gonna wnd disappointing wceeyone im meant world parents hated would kill without hesistation bc love stay alive im tired,1 found toxic guy name upiece_delicious toxic wonders find nontoxic subreddit got banned check profile time,0 happy right attempts painful heart racing nauseating attempts ive got ps ordered happy right,0 idk vent guessim sitting bathroom knife im sure im gonna yet likelihood ill cause superficial damage patch up move on wish could cut chest open rip lungs done im one friends vent everyone else falling apart drifted away feel like theres one go to ive tried therapy ive tried medications doesnt work think wasnt meant exist world,1 th last rko falcon film starts mutual injunction tom conway tom lawrence alias falcon ed brophy goldie no dames whilst prepare go vacation still wondering theyre going vacation job since beginning st film with sanders gay though jenkins goldie bump woman get dragged seedy industrial espionage caperbr br they promise help uncle murdered taking envelope containing details formula make substitute industrial diamonds business colleague miami suspect everyone except cops lawrence goldie murder console goldie keeps paraphrasing travel brochures on coldest day always enjoy warmth nice cosy electric chair one nice languid atmospheric nightclub scenes rub shoulders especially bad behaviour baddies favourite bit dignified game hide seekhunt thimble imperturbable suave lawrence baddies sleeper train least favourite bit embarrassing scene entire series alligator wrestling hut definitely thrown kidsbr br all best series yet another entertaining outing overall satisfying plot many episodes even make wish could gone years columbia boston blackie although rko churning faster absolutely sex much violence in fact none todays high standards notredflagly message make type film anathema serious people regard movies art form must depend three pillarsbr br three diet falcons made later john calvert title role mind could never bring count main series tom conway made time sad also downhill conway moved tv voice overs even played norman conquest park plaza rather well also developed serious eye alcohol problems know linked wound poverty stricken spell hospital found dead girlfriends bed us folk want least still entertaining falcons plus number worthy even classic rko movies remember by,0 rteenagers discord nice know theres one maybe know ,0 love life every night cry room thinking redflagthis happening way often recently again currently crying bedroom love life cant stand mom reason get sleep ever reason trade pillows night mines already wet cant anything right eyes makes worst doesnt even know suicidal am constantly bombards shameful comments act like dont care shell use me loves love her thinks shes helping family turn better people shes really destroying it again love life within past week ive noticing much joy do ive realized everything makes depressed life her comes home late sisters everyday late night get bull crap always end day every night think writing last words grabbing knife try stand moms stupid ass comments tries play victim says feels attacked one days shes going kill herself know wont sorry post doesnt make much sense whatever came mind moment post writing however make feel lot better im going kill self know itll hurt makes oddly feel better too please one see comment writing reason making feel nice even jumbled up,1 reason liveplease im lonely ive lost everyone want left alone anymore im good enough anyone today never come,1 longer year old virgin joking sex losers,0 one caresno one cares something really happens you tomorrow attempt end pain,1 is listening to NAS - America. Now I remember why I liked him so much ,0 @jearle That so sounds like a Viz 'top tip' it's not true ,0 review james bond movies evaluate them rate according well meet expectations certain things one come expect even demand bond film individual effort either delivers doesnt so ten elements make bond film bond film even though never say never technically part official bond filmography mere presence sean connery returning makes something merely honorary member series anyway heres rates scale br br title never say never again clever title apparent link actual storyline instead injoke reference sean connerys vow never play oo lured back diamonds forever whatever case catchy title pointsbr br precredit teaser perhaps trying avoid obvious parallels official eon series bond films teaser opening scenes shown behind credits even disappointing yet another ohno bond killed fakeout pointsbr br opening credits screen full tiny s even bother trying jazz credits graphics split screens interesting camera angles pointsbr br theme song written michel legrand sung lani hall never say never again would make perfectly pleasant part particularly long elevator ride bond theme merely okay pointsbr br bond james bond appropriately since film sees connery lured back service bond decades hiatus story begins facing question whether bondconnery still job happily connery proves ready bondage again though bit grayer sporting bit girth wearing slightly obvious toupee seems trouble slipping back action all one connerys best relaxed turns character pointsbr br bond babes even best bond films female characters given much dimension exist largely necessary props bonds use future oscarwinner kim basinger granted great deal leeway creating character domino petachi film benefits this nice job bad look either pointsbr br bond villain reports death obviously exaggerated blofeld back least moment showing lives prized pussycat onetime jesus portrayerturnedstereotypical villain max von sydow given lot role silky presence nonetheless overshadowed wonderful performance klaus maria brandauer maximilian largo string banal bond villains refreshing brandauer gave performance subtle yet colorfully evil funny without campy ruthless without seeming cartoonish largo ranks right auric goldfinger one bonds best villains pointsbr br bond baddies fatima blush say played bold style particularly flamboyant drag queen barbara carrera breezes film displaying mix selfamused evil tad pure psychotic insanity bond crossed paths variety femmes fatales easily disposed existed amusing eye candy characters dared exhibit flare dramatic fierce determination even untimely demise spectacular even bondian standards pointsbr br sinister plot remake sorts thunderball film seem bit beentheredonethat nuclear missiles stolen major real estate go kaboom countries world pay multikazillion dollar ransom least producer kevin mcclory lucky enough find forced remake one weakest bond adventures comparisons effort blows thunderball water despite absence many bondian trademarks film succeeds own pointsbr br production values film starts uneasy style like tv movie trying can story progress film gains momentum sense purpose making superior adventure points br br bonus points several odd changes sets bond film apart official series miss moneypenny hardly acknowledged played edward fox m cranky old grouch respect double os foreshadowing judi dench would later play part q suddenly cockney accent buddybuddy bond curious sense nostalgia throughout film replacing bonds astinmartin vintage packard tango dance number cleverly inserted story big rescue near end horseback homage raiders lost ark tribute bond films pointsbr br summary never say never mixed bag really important areas holds thanks hero connery villain brandauer assassin carrera damselindistress basinger devil details seemingly unimportant opening credits theme song seem film lacking absence comes faux bond film good substitute substitute nonethelessbr br bondometer rating points ,0 yall believe astrology like know sign shit fun read personality yall actually believe it jus curious,0 ugh...I LOVE the rain!!but it makes me want to... eat sausage burritos from McDonalds haha so I got some hard time waking up this morning,0 i can t tell if i m actually enjoying life or i m just dancing to distract myself from the depression atp amthoughts,1 guys make list good games free steamepic games store anything parents buy video games waste money would spend time it laptop support games think play games it please help me im losing mind locked covid,0 @RobertLHeureux Well I *LIVE* in Vancouver BC Where I'm from is a mystery ;),0 i feel so lonely and empty nothing fill that hole i have to live in a fantasy in my head to try and get some love and appreciation but a soon a i come back to reality all of it is gone i want this life to end i can t take it anymore,1 im suicidal thought keeps popping unbidden headlong story short im low point life right really bad im unemployed im socially isolated stuff friends go weekly board game night still whole unemployment thing getting me sometimes try think resolve it brain comes redflag dismiss it keeps coming up im confident im going eventually turn around meantime something want brain stop doing also wanted vent guess told anyone this theres family history redflag years ago something similar happened mentioned mother immediately called cops come check me awful unnecessary experience,1 @Terracegirl Your daughter sounds like a right star ,0 get relaxing weekend probably gonna twisted teas might able get hit good shit friend,0 karma ahahirbahsgejabhdhdajiabwjab,0 contemplatinglast time tried overdose survived since im stupid think enough time ill hang myself thing im contemplating whether leave something behind particularly care others might think think im thinking saying fault thing ill it maybe tomorrow today next week now birthday coming up hate day seem appropriate end time think last weeks this time fail,1 first time life im pretty proud looked report book realised scored overall score exams years ago received results today saw got overall know nothing crazy still though im really proud improvement also im asian imagine pissed parents saw results,0 fucki made post before talked situation little friends leaving college parents really like care me long im fed really care feel dropped school parents pushing go back motivation finish it like used like hockey computers hate them feel like nothing left me cant feel happiness life point living seen signs things going get better even know could get job show up thats school anyways still like talk friends like discord that seems like like really care happens me try tell im feeling awful ignore it really care matter much try get point across im happy think ever happy crave like important somebody day see really isnt possible personality besides sad time thing play fucking video games day even get joy that used watch people play games youtube shit thats enough either ive pondering whether like hig hike south see something finally makes feel better like leave one would really notice parents probably tell im gone like days since rarely even check me like matter choose im going happy im told redflag answer really tell why want like stop feeling pain alone time ive never actual girlfriend anyone actually cared me feel like matter im going actually meet anyone shallow am push talk girls hurts everytime get ignored told im boring like actually matter school say get really picked gotten shit kicked like times like talking like wanna give want kill myself feel like im running excuses im alive right now used fit healthy hockey im underweight almost pass randomly get anything used actual friends really like talking since really reason talk im boring uninteresting may think im assuming things get told repeatedly dad mom thinks like help feel better gives tell im feeling brother literally wants die like joke wanted stab one point hid room hes disabled really take seriously still hurt want see actual sign like im making day fucking get old thing sit waiting friends talk computer wait long enough try talk like play game get mad leave fucking sucks know do run away stay dropout go school anything never motivation fucking myself know least structured shit probably said lot things multiple times fucking hate feeling shitty empty want something change like anything,1 feel like need tell someone herebefore happened diagnosed bipolar disorder mild depression making whole experience worse swallowed random pills even know were ate them memory happened got half way stairs woke bed hours later terrible pain well everywhere couple hours figure hell going on never told anyone trust issues personal things continued going school whole week grades spiraled down would sit there either sleep play phone told everyone lack interest school anymore im pretty sure believed it recovering it really made progress yet almost everyday im still thoughts trying again never go it completely honest reason tried kill mthe cat gets extremely depressed im gone multiple days tried getting therapy helped all im best confrontation issues none friends really know it well one did gone now moved another state ill add feel like later right seems long sorry format im mobile,1 never life cavity anything done teeth bc negligence whatever im disgusting like lot ppl actually good dental hygiene djsjsjsjxjdhdjdjdjsjxjxjjdjdjdjskwskjxjdjdjsjdjdjs,0 doityourself indie horror auteur todd sheets returns another entertainingly atrocious nickelndime shotonvideo clunker thats basically feeble excuse sling around lot watery blood gleaming guts often possible evil demonic scarecrow resurrects dead ravenous rotfaced zombies feast living bunch bickering college kids trio dangerous escaped convicts led vicious slade byron nichodemus hamming outrageous degree two equally savage sleazeball hoodlums trio hottie sisters best survive harrowing ordeal thats needlessly muddled convoluted plot fortunately hilariously horrendous hoot lacks narrative coherence plenty compensates pleasing plethora gloriously grossngraphic gore disgusting highlights include woman fingers chopped off fatal gunshot young gals groin attempted necrophiliac rape evisceration and course repulsive entrail eating shake pile moist intestines at moreover weve also got rough grainy cinematography constantly alternates washedout color grimy black white ineptly staged fight scenes lousy acting uniformly pathetic noname cast jerry angell particular cops top crummy thespic dishonors laughably abysmal histrionics slimy nocount psycho criminal joe bob grating headbanging thrash metal soundtrack generic shiverynominous synthesizer score lets forget ridiculous ending several survivors stumble across vials flesheating bacteria use shambling undead hordes sure flick pure dreck certain endearingly abominable quality turn makes great deal soawfulitsawesome grade z fun hardcore aficionados bad fright fare,0 anyone share birthday saw someone thought would fun anyone else born january year doesnt really matter tell,0 hey lads im back final beating masturbation addiction update sorry late got day suspension reddit making damn pedo joke rmemes people really cant handle dark humor anyway curious celebrate going month possibly im able without masturbating would guys like post picture myself do ill wearing face mask since im comfortable posting full face ill let post marinate day general consensus yes ill go tomorrow oh thanks support even though posts never really get much attention good know people supportive,0 hey youcome wanna talklike realits quite lonely night im gonna sleep whileso yea,0 hey hi hello yo whats up my oh me oh boy whats word could call ya late im one im new york my oh mi amor told ya could look good,0 i want to share something my therapist told me that really resonated and stuck with me she said anxiety is like a smoke detector it go off whenever there smoke to keep you safe but a smoke detector doesn t know the difference between a fire or burnt toast so it s our job to identify what s making the alarm go off and how to manage it most of the time it just burnt toast even if you panic when the alarm first ring you soon realise it burnt toast though difficult anxiety sometimes just need u to take a second to identify the source and put it into perspective is it manageable what s the best way for me to approach it without avoiding it so yeah burnt toast,1 looking subreddit anyone know active subreddit people share images anime boys completely sfw would like totally nsfw subreddit best ive found ranimeboys thats mostly dead anyone wanna help fellow need out,0 least could put effort selfies jk whatever want ngl selfies justidk least courage post face could never,0 so i ve been taking mirtazapine for year for my depression sleep problem my doctor also prescribed me hydroxyzine for when i m feeling anxious panicky i just took a hydroxyzine and now i have to take a mirtazapine before i try and lay down is this harmful can i take these two pill at the same time please help,1 comment mainly comment first commentator the extra film unhappy assessment film think perspective indicates extra extra director director film sweet acting sufficient experience watching nice diversion busy work week the hours acting the matrix special effects even the color purple direction movies be also crap fest vinny would lead believe sorry guy centsbr br as movie itself end gay affirming showed world full diverse less perfect peopleyou know like opened door one culture without excluding cultures liked music ,0 understanding loss personality trait i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i,0 Exercising for 20 minutes-a-day cuts risk of developing depression by one third http://ow.ly/WHDu30jFglS  #health,1 trigger warning humiliating story sitting tears kill myself crosspost rdepressionthis hard type cant really collect thoughts much anxiety coursing mind right now need get chest im going try try make least complicated possible im going try ramble details much can forgive do past year change suffering depression started way since started develop reveal previously existing ptsd syndromes experienced painful sudden outright abusive breakup end hurt deep never anyone close before mother alcoholic dad physically abused hell kid hes gone now hence ptsd btw leading now year experienced extreme personal trauma abuse important close relationships monthly basis even frequently lately close friends problems romantic relationships nearly started ended because again personal problems these took heaping amounts person abuse berated things hate intentionally saying things knew would hurt really deeply mentally ill people got really vicious terrifying anyway past weeks feeling extremely lonely missing girlfriend still depression hitting rock bottom one nights loneliness went one fuck cam sites girls chat rooms shit kind hung out cute girl whose thumbnail saw honest libido dead hanging really cam girl thing started lot almost every night least couple hours tipped her lot mean i sent girl probably thousand dollars started relate her wasis clearly depressed well seemed struggling life way was wanted supportive told appreciative that would chat privately stuff text day snapchat seemed like getting along weekend night seemed especially sadlonely chatting offered talk needed someone said would help anyway could surprised shit me wasextremely offended like first sort brushed hindsight which tell vague security leaks thought uh ok mean pretty sure going get hacked said oh well chatting secure enough could see reliable program something lost shit said respect boundaries pushing etc meanwhile im loss words told anyway hey sorry meant thought worried hacks etc always talk blah blah seemed cool things down felt uncomfortable point last night got on pmed said hey that said think come back nature personal like pushing back arms length causing good deal pain need move along likeripped half told entitled was shit over like said something stalked whole time im sittingspeechless left got drunk snapchatted something hour later replied something like im sorry mean disrespect you wanted help tell feel sort things feel know value privacy really need help send websites find therapy insurance something ill gladly contribute enough go think good person one thats hurt right now get again promise woke morning got message back yelling me saying piece shit am ignorant am idea im talking about continued go pressing personal info took twitter start publicly bashing me pathetic drone ass fanboys started piling on wellhere are killed me life trauma depression abuse did straw broke camels back cant take anymore big blow knock one cant cant face anymore this im shit piece human scum alone worthless scumbag human being tldr abused entire life emotionally hurt abused constatnly heavily friendsfamily year especially recently started internet friendship camgirl sent thousand dollars to publicly betrayed mocked going kill myself,1 well royally fucked today interview scheduled potential graphic design job first one months scheduled pm today dumb ass do fucking mistake time realized already like getting ready email interviewer technical difficulties video chat software was degree let on apologized asked reschedule heard them would surprised went throw dumbasses file trash need shitstain company cannot believe fucking again previous interview fucking slept through one got god damn timing incorrect like never fucking going get shit right never wanted harm fucking badly life not thought cold metal blade skin makes squeamish heard much harder stop started god fucking damn want to life waste fuck everything up cannot seem get right,1 Justified album ,0 my boyfriend is suicidal he s almost attempted separate time thankfully i ve stopped him i know he sometimes cut himself very small cut but he just sent me a photo of photo of a drawing he made of u using his own blood he wrote cute thing all over it but he literally used his own blood so i feel like he s thinking about attempting since he put angel wing on his back what do i do i don t want him hurting himself anymore i make sure to spend a much time with him a possible and even though we re both we both truly love each other i just have no idea how to handle this like should i go over to his house to see how he s doing his parent could care le about him im the only one who s ever there for him what should i do i need help,1 im lonelyi need friend,1 "@philgerb It only takes 30 minutes?? Have a great day, Phil!",0 this is amazing but i can only get word per minute http play typeracer com,0 guys need post life boring af start posting need juicy stories shi,0 "@Huda_Imdad Blank space, I was gonna tell you but some Anda said he will speak to you tonight and I'm still waiting on that @Archer96Danny (I'm planning to do the one I wrote after you suggested catharsis but I have 0 motivation and +100 flashbacks and depression today)",1 heard film walt disney pictures worry it would classed along films disney meant educational purposes like family planningbr br it coproduced kotex teach preteen girls menstruation supposably educates superficial level go heavy detail animated rams head reproductive system sequencebr br the film show the wonderful world disney elements like turning page use animation tell storybr br this film impossible find find film best luck enjoy,0 im supposed essay think ending itread least doubt get attention cause probably long respond feel like time worth it it probably be wanna make compromise reply read whole thing read last part im senior highschool m every morning struggle thought process every morning first fight leave bed im contemplating shower not finally get bed keep thinking if make throw need go school take swig hydrogen peroxide puke guts out finally end taking shower sit toilet minutes hoping suddenly get sick avoid people hate talking people im listener introvert im fucking place guys gravel road im safe driver really care happens crash crash oh well ive slid road several times serious impacts yet constantly think its straight stretch easily hit mph hit tree depersonalization getting bad again thought gone guess not best friend says probably caused brother also thinks thats reason im cool headed hate arguments try deescalate peoples arguments people say im kindest person theyve ever met never mad anyone longer minutes except myself theres one dislike even theyre total dick me need energy dislike someone theres point causes trouble ive grown treat others want treated ive taken heart thats ive lived life go way help others helping others helps get stuff done example never homework someone asks help theres ill gladly help boost own heres main point post im suicidal years now im supposed writing essay descriptive thats due tomorrow took friends aderall help focus i adhd doctor cant prescribe aderall vyvanse focussed essay family life fucking shit im sure people worse lives complain well am im adopted infant adoptive parents connection with know am know like feel like im living house theres love presence brother nut not bio severe anger issues cause many problems think think home shake badly get depersonalization episode hes months younger me im afraid sleep hes awake past hes woken beating bat throwing rolling chair me weve gotten fist fights hes put blades neck repeatedly like swords knives every single time screamed fucking godamn pussy know balls it hed drop knife run crying caught dragging sister not bio shirt hitting her lost slammed wall punched knuckles bled ran downstairs crying sat bed trying fight back tears came back shotgun stood looked eyes walked him put head tears streaming face im going put fucking slug head feed dogs touch one time turned around said do it hate place fucking much cps cant anything idk theyve tried scar arm pulled knife cut me im done rant read thanks send message comment even bigger thanks oh well least waste time reading it guess ill try stupid essay cut myself cut chase hang myself im done also last part meant chunk this,1 i activated my selfcontrol block early meaning i can t check out the new qc regularizing my internal clock is might be difficult fb,0 "@Leafybear lol Working for Born Free we offer animal adoptions, membership etc and need to expand our operation lol ",0 Dis gurl got crippling depression hehe pic.twitter.com/vX4iH11WE9,1 The end is nearly in sight! Thank god. Got a cheeky bit of supernatural on in the background ,0 mom gave glass orange juice mean nice thanks love bits,0 yes plot predictable yes plot holes yes madefortv quality yes britney spears wrote book obvious selfpromotionbr br but forget that movie funbr br fun school special sortofway fun neverthelessbr br virginia madsen mother great job good im going start watching movies reminded diane lane good reasonsbr br the rest cast fine job too casting agent id scouting young actorsbr br the production values usual tv standards music really great better several bigbudget movies ive seenbr br if mood german noir movie you want safe fun underrated movie good one one could show year old daughter enjoy too,0 important question feet nsfw may sound like joke something im actually serious would say ghey nsfw,0 movie everything going it fully developed characters realistic portrayal working washington bathed warmth humor uniquely albert brooks dumbing network news even issue remember precable satisfying care complex people attempting achieve complex goals moves along lightning speed true life depiction friendships teeter toward romance see spot john cusack angry messenger recognize peter hackes real life broadcast news finally dc see agree holly hunters directions cab drivers,0 i posted on the self harm sub a to why you can just look at my profile and you ll see it amp x 00b have a great day everyone,1 young seen movies parents wisdom rented one wary movie about fact even allowed watch it brother sister got course made angry do late night trashed vcr kicked screen tv called police reported vandals arrested course unable get foot tv set police arrived given stern talking sent home parents grounded course made work repay debt tv vcr tore apart slave labour really sucks believe me it chores around house happened end got big screen tv dvd player surround sound system work get money easy made movies sold disney remember finding neno well wrote movie filmed goldfish fish tanks rewrote plot course cgi afford make real life action picture like done end never saw film head die rating gave life rating pretty good,0 "@Just_Emotion ? ?? :crazy: D ????? ???? ????????????? ??????????? ? ??? ????? ?????? ?????????? ? ???????? ????, ??????????? ?????? ",0 depression cause feeling of sadness and or a loss of interest in activity you once enjoyed it can lead to a variety of emotional and physical problem and can decrease your ability to function at work and at home,1 thankful small college town abingdon va near bristol tn home famous barter theatre gregory peck acted managed get art film festival togather show film there abingdon two hour hours live trip worth every sense word uzakdistant amazing brilliant jarring emotional captivating film turkishamerican film testimony life turkey like larger scale tells world like turkish whether one lives istanbul berlin montreal new york omaha may two hours length opposed five minutes effectively bob marley song many wonderful scenes film difficult choose random few but me one telling scene takes place beyoglu downtown istanbul cinema title character played mehmet emin toprak sadly died car accident shortly films completion follows attractive young woman staircase cinemas main auditorium goes see vanilla sky image tom cruise reflected glass sense turkish men competing tom cruise womens affections even though tom cruise nowhere found beyoglu scenes shot across bosphorous shores also quite revealing symbolize beauty yet desperate empty gulfs painful fact life turkey film gulf separates lovers families simple empty packet samsun turkish brand cigarettes dying mouse jump screen way seagulls serif gorenyilmaz guney film yol many guneys films including yol suru herd completed zeki okten babathe father considered many best turkish films ever made without guneys sometimes overblown socialpolitical anger especially last film prison drama duvarthe wall distance captures essence turkish life quite remarkably crowning achievement director view already proclaimed turkish equivalent directors like tarkovsky bresson ozu cant wait see films,0 people hate me always get tired me especially depressed always leave so apparently too much people,1 damn it i hate this stage of the breakup process i miss the boy we had just fallen in love damn it why poop,0 @ryanhawiya yeah i wouldnt care if i was in a Disney channel movie! but i really wanna be in a horror/thriller ,0 actually ask helpmessaged friend nights ago said please tell kill myself really struggling end sent back gif cartoon snail said heres lucky snail fucking point anything,1 hours cried cried cried cried cried nothing lost dog today already friendless cried cried cried cried,1 @Jonasbrothers yay!!!!!! I'm soo excited for the concert!!! And I'm happy that ure YouTube account is back! ,0 stepsis applications must get stuck daily,0 get political think spiders could get way sexier,0 actually need help something cant search sub reddit something else comes mean nothing comes up recommended whatever nothing rmemes dead daylight cant get rhelp unless text turns kinda link thing anyone else know fix this,0 poem wrotehey guys wrote poem last night stumbled upon sub thought poem might help considering redflag is they say ink permanent blind father never glimpse light daughters smile say diamonds forever hands widow lover spend eternity cold apart say one lives forever cant avoid tolling bell say get one life pray god live mine weli death permanent one things truly forever even earth stars around us crumble fall yes death inevitable given gift beyond compare life chance live long live well may people care now people care future waste life given things seem bleak right now gone cant take back feel free reach need anything loved valued,1 shawshank godfather pulp fiction good films great films nothing mean nothing lives greatest christmas movie all santa clausbr br the film great many messages cried watching it seriously one movies need watch times see pitch get told eat ice cream see sadness eyes feel deep sorrow wonder bad ice cream implying humans treating ice cream good make us evil think movie makes thinkbr br this movie best rendition santa claus ever unlike santas normal person see imprisoning children spying kids dreams wonder santa believe really good also santa actually mentions christ whole meaning behind christmasbr br you owe watch cinematic masterpiece stop making movies air nothing epic whether christmas not movie gets whoever says movie bad ignorant fool,0 video live! wait for better quality though enjoy,0 cheems broke legs holding hands horny jail romantic,0 daily basisibe suicidal thoughts every day since im years old dont know without thoughts feelings theyre head often feel big part personality every day feel slipping closer making thoughts reality thing thats stopping knowing happen after,1 stop pretending helpfulno insep went throats went got cose h h e w well ever knew wouldnt done knew knew fault de n n day classes went morning cattle drover wontt go see today donmt thinj able finish homework wont come like wont come like thats keep getting trouble failing trying losing giving up bet friends tired keep giving im tired trying make harder me one helped gone whole life mental health system failing every chance got mother told lying everyone thought lying well dead child hands mom bet wont think lying nothing helps one wants im pain head hurts emotions hurt feelings hurt feelings pain translate pain dont know dont mean mental pain hurt differently hurt physically same bet friends tired keep giving things always happen talk feel bad professionals wont help supposed dont tell friends much detail tell im sad im depressed want die feel like burden never good enough hold own reach everyone says get turned down fall cracks one wants believe serious urgent situation people get help cant believe one person cant hope college faculty pushed point get fired find dead ignored said temper tantrum cant stop screaming everyone gave everyone given evidence expect change,1 need friendtitle says all im burden so want feel pressured me,1 favourite film think perfect unlike virtually film name never watch film think would better theyd changed whatever definition work art think so every brushstroke mishima perfect flows schraders script ive always sort liked paul schraders work you cant argue taxi driver light sleeper amazing film writing often seems border bombastic directing style usually nonexistent deliberate think films usually deal search redemption set real world ugly harsh style suits themes presents characters simple realistic way lets show audience truth situation imagine schrader directed taxi driver bringing dead instead scorsese like protagonists two films mishima man ideal schrader material rightwing vain odds society works subtle beautiful fact secondary writing career womans writer churning reasonably described romantic potboilers necessarily imagine schrader ideal man capture subtlety beauty film think film shows was script helped fashion splits mishima man three parts life death mind life represented black white still camera formal compositions death always best remembered handheld documentary style mind represented dramatised extracts novels one revealing thought processes complex man hardly ever wrote character reflection himself dramatisations beautiful look at thanks eiko ishiokas remarkable production design schraders imaginative staging parts acting superb especially ken ogata mishima captures essential charm arrogance narcissism man photography excellent throughout contains images viewer retain forever finally music simply superb perfectly matching images although written recorded shooting adjusted editorial process rerecorded much music influenced shoot know bonds perfectly image seen many ideas various people think theme film is schrader trying say know big stuff life death etc think film saying anything mishima already said it film simply repeats,0 wish knewi wish knew gives person enough courage commit redflag wish brave enough get with hate living im afraid dying wish courage end today make many plans end life never follow through feel like failure everything would okay over life complete waste hope improve theres nothing look forward happy for anticipate horrible things inevitably happen me living prolonging suffering anyone tries say it no literally single person would actually miss know fact,1 girls cute im sorry girls cute cant pretty cute especially blush forget compliment girl today ,0 fuck societyjust kill already dont want live abusive society kill me end laugh dead body remove people like make us extinct perfect model society stays intact never ever try help warped sense justice fuck never accepting me,1 sometimes i think i wa either born too early or too late for my life the shape of water anyone else feel this way sometimes i feel like somehow i wasn t supposed to be here i don t seem to fit in with my life finding someone i click with ha become like finding life on other planet at it s difficult not to momentarily succumb to feeling of quiet heart heavy despair,1 got a speeding ticket,0 maybe tomorrow morning cannot stand it everything loud cannot stay longer body mine anymore done feel like tonights night,1 anyone watch hells kitchen im watching season forget season comes first dinner service always suck youre going hells kitchen arent supposed know good chance wont get served like going would eat full meal hours dinner service finally got meal would hungry ready rip someones head off,0 RT Depression Could Be Improved With Vitamin D Deficiency Treatment http://aboutdepressionfacts.com/4wxu  pic.twitter.com/QGgbqPZUMR #health #well,1 go here im last year teenaging got know go here s subreddit,0 saying pog everyday get girlfriend day pog know day im dying inside,0 i accidentally put sugar in my food instead of salt so now i m eating sweet fried rice my clumsiness astounds me sometimes,0 brown eyed gyel that s not depression dude that s being upset http t co ofshzqrka0,1 @kylielonsdale heyy Kylie! you have a twitter!? ,0 i graduated in 0 9 and since then i moved back home and have been living in my room aside from going place with my family when they would force me and emotionally manipulate me to go which worsened my mental health my mum keep putting pressure on me to go with her to a spa or something even though i tell her it s not good for my mental health for her to try and manipulate me or guilt trip me to do thing with her when she ha friend and sister she can ask to do that with last year of university during the last semester i became mute and forgot how to talk to people because i wa alone and isolated i m socially awkward shy and my self esteem and confidence are none existent i prefer being alone but don t necessarily enjoy my own company i just prefer it to being around others i wa happy when lockdown happened because it meant everyone wa stuck at home like me and we could all be miserable together summer is coming which is my least favourite season because everyone s out and about laughing and having a good time and i m always home alone i don t want to live this way being all depressed anxious and suicidal i want to live and enjoy my life and remaining 0 i turn in a few month what can i do like what step can i start to take to be more confident self loving and go out more also what sort of thing can i do on my own or to find friend and a boyfriend please don t suggest online dating because for some reason i can t download any of the apps on my phone anymore,1 unga bunga oog toog oog nog booga baga gook nug beel,0 joyi cant seem feel anything fear anguish anymore think im going kill myself quite yet ive entertained idea many times recently suffer bpd pretty extreme hypochondria every little thing going body sends shivers spine used write play music time cant even come words melodies anymore see much reason go living like this things cant control know medication would make much much worse ive even considered picking heroin late drugs seem help feeling temporarily im afraid heroin overdose seems like best way go honestly really know im posting this guess cry help something cant seem feel positive emotions anymore,1 good life meant everyone people suffercan live itis worth it laurel worth it life worth it dont know kind question that guess sometimes sometimes not times worth living make ultimately worth living dont understand hurts sometimes one moment im okay next contemplating alive sucks doesnt make sense life got crazy people better others dont go feelings loneliness able connect people family cause family knowing werent related them wouldnt care damn you people see someone worth it used thrown away convenient im living life everyone else living ive learned people use satisfy themselves whether family friends significant others dont even get live lie believing people genuinely care me know women are know friends are know family is maybe ive given shit examples maybe ive given best ones cause know know reason different whether better worse dont know yet know utter worse im least say make feel better people say teenage years best years get live carefree dumb things get live yet havent done things always felt alone always outcast havent got experience life waking day day hoping tomorrow different not still wake hoping maybe today different maybe life change today thinking since middle school nothing changed ive aged gotten worse new experiences turned tragic lessons went severe depression period third nine weeks junior year reasons still dont understand something wrong me must be right oblivious things always face reality situation never trick feeling better certain situation always realize exactly got there exactly reasons happened example met someone felt like connected her freakishly lot stuff common felt like okay finally get person get close romantically boom less months went shit damn pandemic hit lost her instead able oh well life fully understand even happened first place used rebound friend group trashed ex wasnt even him wanted forget wanted hope things would go back him never wanted like felt like me basically went cold turkey me worth talking too dont even care know im alive never could understand this still dont understand this so ask question even like me seen reply do im hurting again except know best know leave im best at severing link say cant this really want someone least like relationship get text although similar got know you knew wouldnt last thats nothing you even bother worth it felt terrible not broke her felt terrible cause really felt could girl say alike still even like me make since even possible many questions wanted answers yet insignificant couldnt even garner response none text none phone calls nothing even drop water even bother dodged bullet anyway maybe hit me best delete number hit forbidden key unfollow months ago whats point anyway done done was am sense changing finding better ways cope am am maybe never meant regular like everyone else experience everyone else experiencing friends family lovers experiences maybe never meant me want continue writing maybe should could write good friend hooked another friend girl mine hasnt talked since initiate contact every time month hasnt even wanted know im alive point many questions go now work ass get nothing return im best shape life source income couple thousand saved still feel place feel worse cause achieved still place choosing live everyday tomorrow,1 carbon monoxide poisoning questionearlier week about days ago tried kill driving car garage hours car minutes total extreme headache felt dizzy day felt better next couple days however today woke feel extremely sick dizzy symptom carbon monoxide developing cold,1 test heavy weapons guy continue comments,0 hey natsuu need thighs lay httpsnewredditcomrteenagerscommentsltioeremember_that_guy_that_ended_questions_like_this,0 asked yesterday didnt get good answer anyone know ban appeals teenagers server please thank,0 i have these bad episode of anxiety that last for day where i m constantly dissociated and whenever i try to sleep i wake up almost every hour with my body completely numb and my vision is like zoomed out and everything is super disoriented and weird i m so tired but i can t sleep and it keep me up all night and i m so exhausted i just want at least one good night rest but i can t even get that i feel like anxiety and dissociation are constantly kicking me around and i can never catch a break in life,1 anyone gonna tell anyone gonna tell supposed eat grapes milk together supposed fuck find own im pain,0 @sixgauge im following u man. follow me ,0 "i love warm days like this.. especially for laying out dinner, blockbuster, movie night with wifey.. such a good day ",0 @NKOTB Can you please send DEWSOLDIERGIRL her confirmation so she can rejoin the community boards which she left of her own free will ,0 drinking things helps im tired everything hurts much want dead cant deadi want everything end,1 "@Kaijah Thanks, I appreciate your thoughts and comments on what I post, much love, peace, joy and blessings to you and yours. (HUGS) ",0 @Samush Allah sarki. Say "hi" to Bee for me ,0 things die lay one chickens earth one favorites always walking beside always acting like dog chicken im posting help move on people realize but animals brightest people,0 sucksi survived th redflag attempt take anymore took lot energy finally slit wrist bled hour two saved this tired end twice day last year october ampxb much big failure cant even succed fucking redflag attempt despite trying times fucking want live anymore deserve live,1 @Fred_TheRed Já digeriste as noticias? Ou parou-te a digestão??? ,0 feeling super lonely suicidal right now anybody help allcant get rid fucking loneliness,1 @alabamawhirly I know! Do I get a lollypop http://bit.ly/15jycE,0 depression amp anxiety changed me 0 tried to take my own life 0 9 with therapy and time i turned it all around passing my trade test stabilizing myself becoming a dad and supporting my family now so clear that i don t take shit from anyone and they all hate me for it,1 "@TheFamulus I'm glad to hear you are well, M. Here's to those improvements but in the short-term to good sleep ",0 hate math tuition on a holiday wanted to sync my i pod with the latest track nd podcasts will have to wait until im bck fb,0 garretjiroux do u write back on twitter i miss ya garee x,0 @effyobie OMG THANK YOU NIKKI FOR VOTING FOR HIM! YOU'RE AWESOME ,0 bf pog,0 would died cati taken dads gun gonna shoot remembered cat leave cat behind died packed stuff brang cat girlfriends house years later im happy married still cat dad apologised aways abusing me life good right now,1 kill meyeah thats,1 please read this need help post m crush f past months texting videocalling everyday weeks ago guys trying find eachothers crushes want say mine say names think figured right then said crush someone friendgroup thought me im sure anymore text back often calling often invite people call please give advice,0 girlfriend want anythingshe told want letters voicemails want say good bye me feel like leave something behind people life letters hatred parents letters forgiveness sister friends abandoned needed them girl special though sweetest caring soul ever hope meets someone like her want emphasize know letter would that know thoughts formed one cohesive sentence idk im tired head hurts,1 cant anymoreplease need somebody talk to,1 suicidal ideationi know counts want kill myself want die im terrified dying im bad place right times wish exist want everything stop im waiting call back therapist schedule appointment im going discuss her want able put name feeling,1 "is tired. Spent all day: cleaning, making a garden, watching UP, eating @Denny's, and then dancing the night away with my friends ",0 "We didn't get home, though, until nearly midnight, so I went straight to bed. ",0 lgtbq bad contradicts hear hate me bisexual girl made video saying going conservative instead democratic within days got nothing hate lgtbq support got conservatives non lgtbq friends may prepering hate comment should compare whole community few tiny people hating her k lgtbq members bashing comments conservative soon videos full hatred towards lgtbq people must think it couldve anither reason know everything say people lgtbq bunch comments said we want conservative ass bunch stuff hows shes traitor bs made last video got bullied point broke down know people lgtbq arent stupid idiots blatantly hate acab says if support cops support corrupted system logic support lgtbq support idiots harassed someone lone fact ideology,0 hey touch screen iphone broke anyone know way still use phone also merry christmas,0 oooh! this is my 500th tweet so I shall have a coffee & a cookie ,0 "Chronic depression is a mother fucker. I don't know when I am awake, drunk, asleep, crying. Knowing I have no one to talk to.",1 girlfriend suicidal jobs know dowere th years university weve dating years past two months now applying searching jobs entrylevel jobs puts ton weight getting job fact insert major friends getting interviews job offers want fall back parents toxic her result multiple undiagnosed episodes depression anxietyshe said multiple times get job within end winter break going just give up leave place just go phrases strongly implying wants commit redflag also history depression order get job end break would need interview end week early next week throughout time needed affirmation support boyfriend ive reassured would get interview week despite stressful week finals week then earlier week thought luck changed received interview another interview today genuinely happy excited wasnt found first one contract job as opposed fulltime one consulting company not wants go into so yelling excitement discussion take interview received lack confidence would get interview real jobcompany soon honest frustrated even willing interview im best show it tells doesnt want shitty jobs want either also want homeless commit redflag honest know do tldr honestly frustrated trying understanding gf doesnt want interview two lower tier jobs despite us stressing job apps past two months need help next,1 redflag letter would sound something like thisplease take moment understand depression real isnt saying want kill rather something pushed move really accepting time really didnt want live people anymore sometimes dark time gets dark redflag may feel like thing person get hurt constantly battle selfhate low self esteem following reasons dear people world first thing would say become good person stop assuming people going understand you even tell do means parents family friends heres say used live life lot pain carry onto now past wanted live one else live everyone else rather myself causes good amount hurt carry along hurt thoughts well suffering causing person feels like one understands everyone sick hearing shit hard understand lot people assume able certain things age mom came today told handle pain young dad cant old excuse mom cant handle pain body went throught chemo reformed this time ill let pass mom really love love try get scared whats come see life robbed you young age taken away country told marry guy did much it that exploded cried broke got lost remember telling stories end day forgot rest started see good ugliness remember one time mom saved life right watched mrs doubtfire learned heimlech maneuver scene movie remember day vividly fainted right mint ball flew out white red stripes already wore off today told forget give person couldnt handle stress fucking tired hearing shit beat cancer carrying around pain long finally starting see straight people always assume im problem okay thats fair say im fucking problem doing need figure way isolate peoples worries pain makes sense need always involved hurt came accept became crazy yo kid sense purpose father er failed choose accept one another supposed give cant handle stress day knife slit wrist first time see thats problem society people tend assume dont know someone elses pain brings carries fact do feel way us act stronger others would redflag letter would isnt giving up caring anymore living world people dont seem understand failing understand itthem feel like prison thoughts really understanding life taught stop always giving kinda sad im writng complete opposite redflag letter now given everything life want die makes sense yo im given anything explode try figure shit tend always failure people even tell someone please hurts ask it do start see inner good order get shit hole youre in people remain humble safe place times god forgotten people suffering add pain world bleeding everyones sorrow born alone die alone world comes existence soon never exist one day live anything love,1 @billyraycyrus hey Mr.Billy Ray Cyrusim your fan i LOVE your songs as well as my dad he likes your music too ,0 "@hotsports Man, that would be awesome, I bet the kids would get along famously! Maybe one day that will happen ",0 guys serious coming cage ive fine gotta gotta want started kiss end like this kiss kiss im falling asleep calling cab hes smoke taking drag theyre going bed stomach sick head touching chest takes dress let go cant look killing taking control jealousy turning saints sea swimming sick lullabies choking alibis price pay destiny calling open eager eyes cause im mr brightside,0 waking up to a new day ,0 nothing wrong everything feel wrongim sure start saying this im sure start hopefully short paragraph text tries explain im depressed nothing depressed about feel alone despite room full loving supporting people cant manage explain hesitate tell parents this ive pulled together list people ive ever told struggle guess there freaking parents therapist know wanna tell parents anything like why depressed queston idea stop asking wanna go therapist requires telling parents this cant handle knowing someone paid talk me pretty damn good life honest cant fine feel like this hopefully short decently detailed kinda wrote suddenly,1 fucking stupid statement is wanting forgotten feel want feel wanted gives redflag try want me try talk relate touch me hurts feel warmth long caged pain tormented said pain know gets better eventually finagled internal prison gained control whatever animal thing locked their happy them me watch suffered watch mother hold knife throat still remember looked finished sat staring nothingness eyes bleak yellow walls looked empty pull it would bleed floor husband son watched happen taken away next day someone got rid knife using still feel graininess wood handle still feel serrated edges neck try understand fuck happened wish would pulled trigger wish wish could go back day pull trigger wish could go want always loved idea dying violently something crashing freeway divider going mph fastest car goes well fastest went going way committed plan monday never set exact date know soon thursday totaled car driving street lamp oops cannot even fucking die want wish wish could take pain anger away die it forgotten one remember go through read stories fantasize get happiness serenity deserve know right speak others truly feel calm mind us want mean sub exist would die happy knowing could take grave id release pain ones want now could wanted earlier sorry seems ungrateful people actually alone everyday feeling dread fills stomach gets darker darker lately hill battle becoming hill stroll void fucking stupid i want forgotten anyone wants video chat call text like go long walks id love hear you want forgotten,1 "@ikelovegreen welcome to our world, where the baddest bitch$$ roam ",0 nigel balchins mazelike novel a way wood adapted julian fellowes also directs terribly british drawing room suspense piece film whose effect relies cast portraying varyingly benignmalignant characters fellowes directorial choices superb story linear line easy follow beauty film metamorphosis player single incident ignites minefield disastersbr br james manning tom wilkinson successful business obsessed solicitor london married anne emily watson needs life couple childless live country beautiful estate assisted long term cleaner maggie linda bassett attend social outings meet among others william bule rupert everett passively lazy wealthy neighbor anne decides entertain neighbors gruff james protestation anne proceeds planning james arranges not attend due business night party hit run accident maggies husband accidentally killed someone range rover she observed james returns home sees scratch williams range rover suspects william perpetrator anne discourages james going police information what possible good ruin bills life socialite father son important scion first lie virus spreads james confronts bill talks james going police anne confesses driving bills rover one responsible james convinces anne keep quiet would ruin reputation anne confesses affair bill three concur stick together big lie sake greater good anne eventually succumbs guilt telling beloved maggie one responsible maggie guilty previous theft whose life saved annes mercy hire anyway agent draws story surprising conclusion lies begat lies begat lies et ceterabr br the major impact intrigue manner isolated tragedy impacts characters involved changes dramatic way tome wilkinson gives finest performance career filled brilliant performances able say posture facial expressions actor audience today likewise gifted emily watson adds yet another fine role repertoire surprisingly smarmy rupert everett who despite yet another wealthy british gentleman gives us man arid spirit yet ultimately needy alwaysfine linda bassett takes small role finesses making character quietly central chaotic web liesbr br the cinematography tony pierceroberts musical score stanislas syrewicz add immeasurably multiple atmospheres story encounters ensemble playing finest always means director julian fellowes fine grasp piece interplay fine people makes dodgy story work well indeed grady harp,0 i unpopular maybe nerd you prob get idea dude sitting lunch preppy cool kids days basically idk people think am like nerf maybe idea thats little ive talked people get idea class lunch outside unlike every class school class end hallway door outside teacher thought itd nice anyway used sit talk anyone partially chose partially one invited me recently started sitting cool kids guess could say started talking classwork day sat circle formed part it nice year even sitting them thought kind superficial stuff get idea classic preppy girlsboys im fascinated them sheer truth exerted conversation like nothing ive ever seen before social media know basically everybody know people grade and name mostly anyway going good would sometimes contribute conversation mostly listen one annoying girl decided yesterday sit us too man fck ruining me goddamn ever see opening scenes fight club gets mad marla coming testicular cancer meeting thats felt anyway pretend friends sometimes sometimes fine talking to really best explain th grader room th graders anyway sits us monday instead usual crowd beyond pissed off transform semiusual asshole be talks,0 see point anymorei see point living anymore clinical depression grief consumed me get enjoyment anymore trolling fuck people here even enjoy weed anymore one thing helped see good people made love life stopped working want end mom recently passed im probably gonna readmitted within week two cant anymore want either die bed day,1 On my way to karaoke! How fun! Hope you all have a good night! XOXO http://pickchick.com ,0 anyone wanna chat discord dm tag talk whatever ig,0 always change breathing manual mode abt sleep like cmon let sleep dont want think breath,0 smoke whole bowl myself yeah yeah,0 considering suicide really want it want happy going wake everyday rest life feeling like this id rather kms honestly want get help late know find any want tell friends family bcuz want worry me want counsellor therapist cannot get one get help,1 du rififi chez les hommes brilliant film studies criminal minds allows viewers better understanding criminals fundamentally different ordinary folks like uswhat director jules dassin shows criminal families care lot themthat adhere strict code honor family made wivesmistresses children also include casual acquaintances close friendscontrary many might find hard believejules dassin tried glorify crime film rififi makes clear crime never paysit shows kinds bad activities result kind human lossapart philosophical stance rifif worth watching technical finessewhile watching one films brilliant sequences breaking safeone would find hard believe meticulous precision criminal minds execute plansthis scene nobody dared copy hollywood,0 cuckold i m being set up again except now i ll have to watch her with huge membered guy i feel like a hat stand,0 blip fm is down i m going back to normal tweeting for a while,0 think kill myself depressed mental i am much hate hurt inside i do even shit deal people point it live die opt out going happen anyway end even matter nobody know ever existed years dead might die tomorrow anyway wait give actual reason go this reach end everything wiped clean think kill myself,1 @foodsbitch I don't know. I was too busy being mesmerized by Richard Alpert. ,0 is annoyed with the amount of glass on dublin road and the number of puncture i am getting,0 friends amp familyi often read think redflag thought seems cross mind hard times fantasizing ease pain bit therefore read lot committing redflag articles topics forums stories methods get help etc bugs mind is literally everything ever written redflag mentions friends family mostly either context ask help them think would feel kill yourself well first guiltripping somebody living others kindof fucked redflag more importantly main question is suicidal person friends family fucking kidding me imagine cases person lets say terminally ill general would okay life loved ones something control concerns said person happening cases obviously somebody desperate enough consider taking life probably friends fucking family would say loneliness possibly main reason redflag begin with mean surrounded loving people would even wanna die annoys whole imagine friends family would feel seems like hypocritical statement coming someone know anything ever deal suicidal thoughts feelings condescending patronizing ignorant assume someone whos take life luxury love,1 ladies gentlemans lose virginity thanks school system,0 mother fucker changing the rota without telling me not cool off to work,0 please let know versions precious bane gone earth video people may aware of love books mary webb wholeheartedly would grateful information either vhs dvdbr br ive read precious bane gone earth favorites mary webb many times collected novels also lucky found springs joy poetry essays ive never able see precious bane version masterpiece theatre full version gone earth although american movie classic airing wild heart choppedup version gone earths original film br br if anyone assist obtaining copies either films full versions would thankful,0 "@vmlemon University of The West of Scotland here We just merged with Bell Collage last year. Same ,all over the place",0 cant anymore one last goodbyei cant like anymore pretend im normal go work work like everybody else theres everlasting sadness inside me days worse still put shell towards people worry smile laugh crack jokes get home break down crying smashing things punching wall know do get overwhelmed hopelessness wish something could do ive tried long last time knot untied time made sure nice tight guess goodbye im sorry times let near down im sorry normal im sorry giving easily im sorry cant take anymore goodbye thanks everything,1 police officer struggling suicidal thoughts cannot openly talk aboutthis throwaway intend reading responses think mostly want type get things chest tldr talk strong desire kill without fear repercussions every outlet find wants know location contact info theyll talk me want call redflag hotline trace call years old live work southern california deputy last years spring chicken wife years struggling infertility years now lots surgery medication end sight stress scheduled sex lives absolutely taken toll us were still much love same july fairly routine call involving child abuse kind pushed edge call mental breakdown work since then take mg day buspar my wife says help me sure xanax needed prescribed i originally tookalprazam rare side effect stop asked see psychiatrist next avail appointment midjanuary digress line work talk redflag be well career redflag no pun intended keep thoughts absolutely bottled inside act like therapists asks it therapist provided work specializes law enforcement issues nice times think killing myself hourly usually wake night middle panic attack cannot get away pain almost physical pain specific plans would kill myself works think entire process detail often drink usually come close actually really fear matter time happens ironic type out clearly reservations killing right state mind wrong state mind sounds like realistic idea physically exhausted genuinely want pain end seeing answers make happen want talk someone without putting job line being put hold ca means cannot carry gun therefore yeah heartbroken frustrated know anymore every day seems like groundhog day desperately want wife leave deserves better would make lot easier end life hated me completely gotten rid social media blocked parents life really good reason downward spiral last months been talk strong desire kill without fear repercussions every outlet find wants know location contact info theyll talk me want call redflag hotline trace call really think end killing within next months ironically want talk anyone might able stop me backwards ampxb typing exhausting might go bed night thank listening,1 So pretty today. Going tan ,0 hey pssst come here something important wanna know post title ok order that also know maybe know let us know,0 guess id set fail life goodbye world hope happier without meas title says im stuck right now fight past two days work finances ive helpful all fulltime office job cant fulltime office job nearly got terminated resigned instead avoid shame fucked bigtime previous workplace fed way deal time workdesks manipulated time system thats reason quiti really lot ampxb said know could still employed again right now im freelance recruiter manager esl teachers earn much operations started recentlyi five teachers im paid per class done money runs quickly frustrated lately regards that ampxb life would surely better gone shit nmom edad focused whats wrong life then nmoms help maybe id greatpaying supervisory job now hell least something bearable do ampxb unfortunately think still employed again maybe life meant be perhaps would better dead start call center similar toxic work environment perhaps right photographer case goodbye everyone broken dreams someone hand gun exactly one bullet chambered please edit spent hell time trying get another job prior resignation want hire all help want write shit boring articles anymore then,1 i have bipolar depression and succumb to nihilism a lot i m so thankful to the people who still talk to me when i feel low and check in mean more than you know love you all,1 0 letter to be sent out better start writing now,0 helpso im finally deciding end tonight now anyone know much losartan mg enough anything successful medical injuries would deal with,1 currently watching quot roommate quot i miss the nyc,0 heading walmart today might day u see cutest insert pronoun world ill go without making human interaction,0 dont know anymore story became friends best friends ex girlfriend thinks wanna things genuinely dont threatened saying test keeps threatening swear god fucking break jaw mobile sorry bad formatting,0 hey guys today coming back school way saw tiny little dog usually whenever see stray dogs avoid themcause im scared tiny little doggo something made want go near it im going closer dog hear familiar tune annoys shit me thats realized school monthsanyway doggo dream cute,0 im tiredwhy isnt ok end suffering wish balls now,1 well crush cuddled feel happy invited house kinda watched youtube movies taught play basketball went inside vibe jumps lap dont many outlets express emotions,0 internet weird love internet quite weird everything happens forgot minutes later much stuff happening internet remembering would hard barely remember anything posted post yesterday got k updots sure one knows tho thats pretty normal yet sad yet funny everything h p p e n n g everything everything existing ending one ever watch youtube one ever read articles one ever experience internet big brain sad cool,0 rgdub yes i really wan na go bad but i have to work,0 gas gas gas cause injurys covid havent run cross count meet two years healed practiced days able finish race today although wasnt fast able go without stopping wanted get im hyped it thanks reading great day sexy boi,0 @agnesramfelt SOME songs! 42 is really good! The " You think you might be a ghost "- part ,0 omg united states make bald eagle national dinosaur bald eagle coolest dinosaur anyway,0 earn money im currently jobs me none neighbors need help cant afford supplies training art commissions anything two dollars name right now earn money people ,0 overweight anxiety body issues good enough acceptable reason want kill myselfim curious guys think context im m senior high school overweight since years old im cm weigh kg fat cant remember time life didnt bulging belly manboobs affected severe depression confidence issues anxiety im overachiever achieved every goal ive set fact gotten fit lean trying years makes feel like complete failure makes ashamed even public theres mantra repeated year fight happiness failed so feel like deserve happy hence deserve life itself feel like ive missed many things highschool due low confidence shit body im terrified happen university day first day uni gets closer feel pressure anxiety getting worse,1 reply texted couple hours later reply saved embarrassment didnt go night texted next day ask happened week already since happened texted me,0 think killing every dayi think say kill yourself every day know why mean im depressed think killing without depressed told anyone confused happening,1 @sterrarim Potato head!?? hahaha *ahem* sorry but clearly you are rice! ,0 "I've lost out on everything, said Mr. McIntyre, who at 64 is a member of the Windrush generation in the UK. He lost his job and the right to benefits. He became homeless, sleeping on a mattress in a cold warehouse, and he fell into a deep depression. https://nyti.ms/2JqoPjA ",1 @niallbrennan It's great ,0 @emitoms Love this. I struggled with depression in high school. We need to lift each other up more than we do.,1 "@TheAnand There's one on the 20th in Mumbai. I should be there for that, hopefully ",0 cant even imagine feeling better ive suicidal almost year or down say day cleaned room moving home summer felt awesome felt really really happy next day downhill today even lower know is school absolutely nobody home least parents room comforts feel bad even feel gets worst feel like happiness all feel future humdrum holding on weird day ask questions felt awesome now even imagine world friends every ideal thing cant see feeling better hurts think someone something something completely unaffected like operating outside normal reality know kill myself one hand hurt feel bad see reason put death hand feel like resist this must reason everyone throwing bridges often think means something feel better one event affect differently makes feel better end would it edit someone would suggest it bipolar good mood equate manic episode,1 stomach hurts text dad come get suffer rest school day like hours left school btw,0 truman burbankim psychotic schizoeffective im legal trouble irresponsibility im violent im probably going jail soon feel numb it feels like im truman burbank except never actually find fake feels like life running joke everyone laughing behind scenes waiting finally reach cross line end it psychosis feels real realer real always proves wrong family thinks im crazy understand completely change feel inside head maybe die ill finally know wish never existed fantasize time dying falling asleep never waking up paying someone shoot fatal dose fentanyl crashing car full speed highway buying shotgun blowing roof mouth out jumping death drowning cinderblocks chained ankles wandering aimlessly wilderness night starving death therapists worked hospitals worked meds worked months sobriety worked despise waking every day im ungrateful im majorly depressed idealize death feel void everything positive wish could wipe memory wish could start over wish everyone forgot was wish never existed first place,1 @make_me_scream ,0 trapped lovehi ive got wonderful family three great sister loving mum dad problem hate life want end life cant them im trapped really know else say,1 god fucking love anime girls fucking much god fucking damnit hurts much physically hurts me lay bed dream day ill never them never,0 im sorry but that's truly just not the case at all. mental health is different for every person but if you do your damn research you would know that homicidal tendencies do not relate to depression in any way,1 im donebeen homeless drug addict last years time transitioned came family mother stroked died rest family disowned foreign place alone full guilt drugs i need sleep,1 sure looking for maybe way feel way brother killed days ago buried days ago years old wedding days feel joy wedding think there feel terrible fianc want think happy marrying him love him hes trying best supportive understanding devastated room for supposed one happiest days yet know family especially mom going able mentally present understand fine past week trying get everything done tough mom help she barely leave house want lay bed day friends really made time redflagful want talk them let alone lean time aunts best friends even pushed bachelorette threw one since maid honor dropped ball course none make iti like going parents feel like support there wanted wedding be supposed joyous not already antidepressants supposed start counseling get back honeymoon tw brother committed suicide,1 age nojob sleeping thinking of suicide,1 i have the worst tmj right now how do you get yourself to be more mindful of this lol also are there any stretch massage that work for you in relieving tmj,1 got broken year relationship feeling greatest first time posting,1 redflag kept going past monthsive terrible yearim pretty sure everyone has year made promise enough enough dont believe redflag im despair depressed know years time function,1 @evregirl That's my fav too! #starwars #returnofthejedi,0 loving summer ,0 @natashaloh talk to you when I get back k? hugs. At pedder red now. Beams.,0 study group extraordinare about to leave campus some of tort outline finished good thing but sleepy a h will be back am,0 ago phone got stuck boot loop got mad punched realised right testicle little circle pulsating ,0 realised reason livei realised real friends none family cares me im constantly bullied school one truly cares world would better without me really reason live,1 remaining money going toward mothers back pay district continue supplement personal care attendant bonus compensation state agency im ideas support woman daughter setup gofundme page cant link moment im trying get anyones attention would listen offer redflag thank reddit help advance,1 fuck may becoming little libertarian called friend statist wanting legalize drugs aside weed,0 want someone talk toim terrible day today morning called ugly racist attention whore rude different people today im sitting crying class cant stop thinking redflag need someone talk right now friends family could talk,1 mental illness treated physical thatpeople cancer choose fight illness chemo n stuff would rather let illness take course prolongworsen suffering make family members witness struggle treatment acceptable wouldnt choosing fight depressionredflag dont want keep suffering it keep subjecting loved ones watching suffer acceptable,1 came floodingmy life never meant like this based hopes family infidelity arrest drugs life crashed wife wanted divorce years later two years since divorce ive settled misery let addiction continue control me cant keep steady job health insurance even though meds therapy essential tonight come back me wedding honeymoon birth children holy shit painful see fucked threw away job wife family none instead ive move back abusive parents house maybe get job despite shitty work history background check ill never important part again god id wife half life time proposing divorce stayathome dad years miss exwife bad miss seeing girls every day instead occasional weekends repeat never meant life like this future looks blank empty especially tears stream face juice wrld whispers ear ruined everything ever looking forward to way life ever clear complete ive continued living dont want hurt daughters become mature wont able hide really them theyll know im piece shit junkie fucked everything up beyond that im sure much longer keep living miserable pointless lonely life call redflag selfish way end suffering flip around too isnt selfish demand stay alive youd sad dead fuck life,1 harrowing masterpiece sheer madness despair war fires plain nobi going everybodys taste war movie truest possible sense term one resorts neither flagwaving patriotism saccharine sentimentality nobi cuts deep ugly tenebrous bleak things ever committed celluloid ever be war behind cannons triumphs heroes moral victories defeats had handful gaunt terriblelooking men strewn across land ravaged war like penitents fleeing great disaster characters defy moral judgment creatures beset great woe woe permit questions moral nature war survival pitting ones others battlefield arena loser simply removed existencebr br tamura soldier japanese imperial army discharged platoon ordered report nearby hospital account coughing blood disliked rest platoon hes told never come back instead commit suicide hand grenade case hospital rejects him does hospital nothing shack made wooden planks hospital surgeon simply tells hes capable walking hes fine shabby excuse hospital one harrowing scenes film takes place area carpet bombed american planes doctors walk sustain flee hospital woods moments hospital blown pieces gaunt crippled figures sick injured crawl every manner posture dressed sickly white robes building kind beast spewing viscera filth upon earthbr br that nobis greatest success stark brooding depiction suffering war simple evocative images without melodrama pseudoheroism soldiers cross marsh wading kneedeep mud move across opposite bank field discover enemy tanks hiding woods lights shining like malignant eyes scan dark procession injured soldiers dirty halfmad crossing road dropping ground sound enemy planes buzzards feasting pile dead bodies abandoned village mad soldier believes buddha sitting tree covered flies excrement offering arm eaten tamura hes dead images kon ichikawa conjures eyes merciless unflinching poignancy honest rawbr br nobi rush get somewhere content follow tamuras travels wartorn land tries reach regrouping center palompa observe madness obscenities war movie wades sludge horror war slow brooding like characters follows final thirty minutes tamura taking refuge two deserters feed monkey meat closest nobi comes adhering conventional narratives theyre less powerful matter strikingly photographed black white great performances cast ichikawas assured direction nobi among best war movies made also among finest japanese cinema,0 found ass eating isnt joke thank you ill pass gooch grease im bottom feeder,0 everyone resistant change mean fr new avatars new avatars theyre designed give customisability everyone hating them,0 @XanaduBTherapy I'm off from the day job today...so it has to be wonderful! Hope you are having a great morning as well!!,0 Great to record interview with @LomasChar yesterday for @SkyNews & discuss our research in @AmJPsychiatry showing protective effects of PA from depression in our international study https://ajp.psychiatryonline.org/toc/ajp/0/0#/doi/full/10.1176/appi.ajp.2018.17111194 … @exerciseworks @NIHRMaudsleyBRC @MindCharity @Sport_England @KingsIoPPN https://twitter.com/skynews/status/989149289833271296 …,1 friend relationship before so killed themselves pretty depressed found girl really liked thought liked back went stayed night exes house know help comfort friend need help idk many subs kind thing,1 new video up ,0 fucked even though im younger sister finally pissed enough push say wanted beat crap her shes blames panic disorder jerk despite never taking initiative better matter much help gets always yelling parents timequarantine made worse bad shes even nuttier half year locked in today stood told shes made life miserable thinks makes rest family stick neck make perfect even though stuff go through continued scream call asshole saying im older brother dont get say anything goes around me say god want beat crap push her even though would love said id much happier since least id get rage since shes going shape anyway wasnt actually going that wanted scared enough quit bitch course changed mind things matter second happened tried pull youre adultact age even though shes acting like toddler able go anywhere claims hit rib thoughts,0 mcdonalds secrets former employee food probably touched ground ate it dont use gloves anything hygiene everything frozen icecream machine broken one bothered clean takes long asf one wants say broken people drunk high working youre rude customer food violated gets without ever knowing source former employee maybe add even crazier things later,0 next yearthings wrong since beginning but couple months getting worse worse get feeling im gonna make next year shit someone gotten reading how fuck important enough keep going reasons had,1 i hate when i have to call and wake people up,0 Depression hit me like a truck part.2 ,1 feelings someone telling ones tho haha,0 one best best film seen very long time enough action satisfy fan yet plot good really enjoyed filmand hooked start finishbr br added blood gore there brought realistic nature happens front film even tear jerker ending many people thinkbr br it must watch anyone seen many reviews slating film fair films get bad reviews turn best proves againbr br rent film buy film go watch film disappointed,0 us pretty great place live country first world country government oppressing anyone women oppressed whether were best country questionable say country pretty good live im united stated im happy live place thats third world im saying best place live bad people say really least enough freedoms added things happens places like russia happen us thats country honestly laughed lot saying bad place live really innacurate,0 wtf are we doing here,1 still in germany,0 hanging out with two lovely ladies ,0 school really sucking dick ahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahhahahahaha gottem,0 iv fan rik mayall ade edmednson ever since remember weather young ones bottom say never laughed much life guest house paradiso bloody brilliant know going everyones cup tea with vomitingslapstick comedy violence foul language watch aint yours like one knows sick twisted things rik ade come theyre working one another think unfair film received slatting critics becauseand think im one think this film ,0 afraid add name long list people remain flabbergasted film still sept issued dvd one mysteries makes mind boggle especially consider amount dvds available today containing material binned years ago still excellent digital vhs copy english subtitles nicam stereo qualm one principle frustration able view film film itself excellent allrounder good picture quality satisfactory soundtrack lively plot involving suspense emotion sadness frustration feeling good exotic surroundings european true film fits reality burma idea indeed less important essential thing entertainmentwise success one soon becomes attached main characters admit heart mouth final crossingtheriver scene shame hear little countries burma film least gives insight country situation changed since events occur later month seem answer question resounding no regime place seems brutal ever even sparing lives monks let alone women children ,0 alcohol sleeping pillsthinking,1 @verkoren The blip.fm song you posted about twitter ,0 depression nap incoming gn,1 im fucking idiot thought character yugioh named joey spelt yoey,0 anyone feel like talkingkind bad spot right feel like need talk someone edit feel bit comfortable think im going post told writngrl here sorry relatively large wall text incomplete ill add later well come middle class background year old white male sorry useless information suppose started around years old and currently living mom dad step brother used showers brother believe sexually abused i cant say remember much back sticks out mentally disabled swapped kind crazy zealous christian done anything harm since general brotherbrother fights young overweight kid confidence coincides fat average build still self confidence issues growing brother general problem child good every two weeks id deal loud raging arguments father continued years point mom mental breakdown tried slitting wrists recovered awhile another breakdown years later fine past two three years breakdowns stop step brother slitting throat means redflag,1 @HimOverThere Gooood morning! (or afternoon in 5 minutes) ,0 watching friend slowly descend inescapable placehi all suicidal self harming thoughts literally breaks heart watch friend tell live reason live themselves rather friends family want to need help reddit do help understand blame redflag loved one,1 girlfriend broke cant see long term relationship manim heartbroken now ex girlfriend two years broke couldnt see man long term broke got back together times past month two wanted make work time last home life terrible genuinely thing made happy trouble connecting people instantly made connection two years ago dont know do havent really eaten slept much since happened monday chest hurts pulse super fast hard im heart palpitations likely benign still rough ive never felt awful want drop college courses failed test messed important assignments upset couldnt focus all feel fucking awful im already struggling suicidal ideation think pushed edge cant stop thinking her,1 great adaptation great miniseries right plot cutdowns might disappoint fans book but really many modern readers read bleak house without seeing film version first know few br br i think quite appalling see reviews critical series clearly written people clue story actually see series bag bbc production gillian anderson newer versionbr br the series captures mood pace characters plotdrivers cutting dickensian flourishes needed detract film treatment like turveydrop story smallweed family dynamic extra lawyers tangle vholes etc truncated omission wish kept jellyby incident first episode already trifle slow after first episode pace perfect see go br br the criticism jos death could faithfully done see would practically canonized woodcourt hes kept little human scene really think jos death one poignant points book missed even though always makes crybr br has theowinthrop actually seen series think esther raised aunt uncle uncle suppose someone could mistake name denholm eliott desmond really appreciator english art film literaturebr br i also think mistakes treatment law yes law drawn badly bleak house fails descendants jarndyce whose valuable inheritance eaten costs litigation fails deceased tom jarndyce rick carstone faith suit fails miss flyte sense also fails captain hawdon driven death monotony law copyist work yes feeds scavengers vholes tangle also makes men like guppy kenge able move beyond station life though kind social statusclimbers dickens clearly would preferred bound stuck station born contrast jo brickmakers families climbing poverty charley neckett br br also law misused tulkinghorn chancery vultures actually source security wards court ada richard esther simply jarndyces ward security ensured law delivers jarndycebr br i cant see anyone could trouble following story remember supposed realize esther lady dedlocks daughter right beginning neither supposed get connections immediately instant gratification happen dickensbr br as seeing clearly fog gosh gillian anderson scatty editing found impossible follow knew plot alreadybr br i found diana rigg absolutely brilliant overacting drama make good lady dedlock think try gillian anderson versionbr br its ada rick kate get need rouncewell subplot,0 im posting hand pic already made mistake,0 @Adrienne_Bailon talk with your HIPS ,0 sun cant shine foreverim years old ive made abuse years sober opiate addiction selling opiates years got kicked week high school graduation homeless then papaw looked to shot drug addicted biological father drove tree died year fighting depression whole life amp traumaptsd past year finally path wanted be girlfriend loves almost years now pulled addiction amp never messed drugs got masters degree therapist trying help deal trauma forgave adoptive dad put good relationship well rest family now finally feeling happy past years even depressionif makes sense im barber school one top teacher said hed ever had spoke volumes since hes owned ran college years even one teaching classmates months school left graduate work job love vape shop building coils make people healthier hadnt thought redflag years now never thought worth shit slowly shown was girlfriend would tell me survived struggles amp happy found outthe sun shine long june th year tuesday woke late class hurried get showered ready dont remember much day remember some tuesday monday worked late night overslept time heading car class starts goes till pm amp minute drive town bigger city get gas also rush gas station miles away drove parkway towards gas station mph speed limit mph without seatbelt cause hurry sunny warm fresh air smelled great knew good day got mile parkway fast lanethen next thing remember someone saying ive called ambulance coming call you immediately remembered moms phone number i lived adoptive dad amp little sister could get back feet gave number asked happened next memory morning helicopter noises next memory days later pain never felt way second set surgeries hours surgery total lots blood transfusions days remember anything more semi truck wasnt looking morning pulled straight fast lane front me hit mph nobody understands didnt die engine pushed dash causing stuck right hip amp pelvis shattered left hip amp pelvis severely broke dominant hand right one broken along right wrist thumb broken nose right knee bashed open exposing knee cap amp lot glass face months amp im still hospital bed parents front room cant walk bear weight sit wheelchair half hour so learn walk time comes seemed far away last month xrays showed hip muscles turning bone may require surgery cant get stopped im constant pain amp supposed take pain medication amp muscle relaxers times day along lot medications fought get away opiates im forced back them likely recover enough barber needing full motion right hand amp needing stand day hated waking late morning everyday now struggle didnt end like thought became harder worse forced lay watching life move everyone else stand still me wish didnt survive amp want end now today could take dont know struggle anymore tried positive amp strong im tired strong shoes walked miles life soles weight ive carry amp road feels like end dont know start again dont know smile dont know want live isnt living im crying help feel like one listened traumas come back made forget night terrors killing amp im terrified sleep dont know ill see dreams ive always told im needed planet amp might know yet ill find one day im strong enough stay fight another day ive prolonged inevitable sad truth sun shine brighter everyone knows go everybody take care im wearing thin drowning me dont think make this,1 going put since got one else tell past months mental health completely crumbled friends reach me always reach them really obvious past months care never reach even ask okay nothing fact lonely loser amplified past monthsi always thought reaching friend think bad day normal friends knew depression yet one message comfort sent me friends always important whole life experiencing life school everything feels hopeless stuck depression feels like matter do cannot get rid it friends always said improve whatnot simple would depressed suicidali felt lonely past months reached one last time one friends said reason reach check we adults now said toughen up words stuck head past week know right wrong anymore know want move on simply want live anymorejust removed social medias friends lists amount pain went life outweighs good happened never girlfriend fear lonely forever eating away me seeing friends care enough made depressed day told toughen bullshit bullshit excuses words tell me enough ofi hate everything cared much friends care returned anyways guys probably going post honestly feel extremely suicidal right might last post reddit sick,1 bored tired tired boredi wake everyday wanting sleep again sleep peaceful get whatever want lucid dreams im nobody reality wake everyday empty home friends family internet social circle eat meals workout fap work sleep barely remember names colleagues sometimes im addicted porn go gym admire pornstars bodies im years old virgin average looking short thing makes feel happy fapping playing games tire go bed want die really want feel tired time needing masturbation games make feel pleasure hope die soon,1 aaaahhhahahahaha bruhhhhhhhhhh lets gooooooooo got comment said shadowbanned removed deemed spam lmaoooooo also got infraction point one im permabanned lmaoooooooooo,0 spazmoraz get up lady see you in work boohoo,0 new podcast alert surrey scorcher guard caylin raftopoulos join the mvp cast to reveal his retirement plan and how he dealt with depression by learning to speak up http t co fn qbl r z,1 "Princeton, kinda hot but looking forward to a good weekend ",0 im fucking sick shit want normal meltdowns issues digestive system acid reflux etc sinus issues mucus shit throat guess autism okay meltdowns shit want bloody music career reflux along mucus saliva make difficult well kinda rap id pause reflux fucking constant dont like asshole people want control it fuck anger issues much fucking school work didnt go school fucking pandemic ive working ass that back reflux im sure medication helps ive tried decent amount medication still comes up want lay bed sit it im fucking sick it want physical issues go away point wish didnt want career wish didnt wanna shows too anyone starts worry might suicidal im not doubtful ill try keep hope future want fucking doctors find solution wont deal shit id say judgement lot better mine obviously still isnt life fair dealt wrong fucking cards wish normal dont wanna die like ,0 want kill myselfwill propranolol mg x tabs x mg zolpidem enough someone weighing lbs,1 theekween heart break trauma anxiety depression pain of losing a loved one thelmasherbs http t co ayy9 a u r,1 ddlovato do you hate u please don t,0 excuse give spending theres reason ive part time jobs wanted cosplay didnt money money bank account given aunt meant learning driving money cosplay matter getting past parents problem last part cosplay mask something like mascot head costs custom made dress boots satin gloves pretty cheap small amounts deducted bank account could easily passed buying food game currency mask know parents get suspicious see huge amount money deducted dont want another lecture wasting money solid excuses give ask theres huge drop,0 let get ready... still a lot to do before we go ~ wedding day!! ,0 went hospital called nsph visited psych still feel emptyso sunday overwhlemed everything im im decently high corporate ladder technically support system nothing helping heart mind see everything okay im aware enough know sound like whiny bitch throwing tantrum attention however rest doesnt want live anymore sunday called national redflag hotline got response line another caller shed call back literally nothing happened felt even like sign finish wasnt worth it went hospital got asked typical questions sent way home told visit psych following day werent open mlk day feel uncomfortable skin im half mexicanhalf white gay overweight food makes feel temporarily happy gained lbs past year half it im east tennessee things feel like case even worse actually is people expressed important them much love much ive done life feel nothing except wanting stop living brain wont stop going back dark side whatever hell is life guess want magic pill stop thinking everyone lying dont really care theyre using me past keeps coming like elevator started floor someone pressed every button floor cant un press them someone felt way advice pulled want help understand trust people life honest true word want pain thoughts stop want make world better place want one feel way feel terrible thing shake off want happy again,1 wonginator i wish i wa on spring break,0 time goim really done it dont understand anymore everything acted fine long time really cant take more drunk everyday numb pain wanting hurt people afraid get house job messed school keep failing driving lessons girl going rave tomorrow probably cheating something wanna leave cant live without her hate her seriously never bore fucking drug problem thinking fun going raves leaving home cutting trying drink death im sick shit wish everything wouldve different would get heaven live happy life cant like that dont know wrong yeah probably end it think hell less pain here honestly wanna leave planet im sorry read this really hope rave party worth fucking death caused bs ignoring feelings yeah might little crazy different try best hope pray pray god still let heaven,1 protect shopping trolley improvised explosives lets paint picture grocery shopping local tesco yearold loon lobs grenade shopping trolley explodes groceries runs store escapes via tube station across street takes victoria line london st pancras railway station boards eurostar service parisnord france belongs hundreds dollars goods burning front you image familiar you course is many people often suffer experience made fatal mistake shopping routine see it answer obvious shopping trolley unarmoured target method defending itself invitation disaster today show modify shopping trolley successfully shop tesco express dangerous area south london am lets begin upgrading armament begin mounting mm mhb browning heavy machine gun plus another antiaircraft purposes aerial attacks live birmingham also install trophy active protection system countermeasure antitank guided missiles rocketpropelled grenades antitank rockets high explosive antitank rounds system uses selfforging warhead destroy oncoming threats preemptively detonating projectile shopping trolley thus longer vulnerable multitude threats may encounter thing shopping trolley cannot effectively defend kinetic energy penetrators mount atgm launchers shopping trolley penetrate enemy enemy penetrates trolley may noticed additional weight modifications installed shopping trolley made impractical manual propulsion solve problem mounting litre cylinder twinturbocharged gasoline engine producing brake horsepower revolutions per minute five speed manual transmission thanks lightweight construction shopping trolleys achieve optimal powertoweight ratio gives shopping trolley extremely high acceleration top speed properties enables us make flanking manoeuvres around enemy also sick outside overtakes turns test modifications placing improved shopping trolley situation again fined unlicensed operation firearm possession automatic weapon,0 Waitingi for the train. Oh its almost here. now 1/2 hour ride. Maybe i'll write again.,0 ha a hangover,0 me falling into my anxiety and depression pic.twitter.com/XGlw9Pkxgl,1 @KidCarson_Van pls check out @officialcharice 's single Note to God on iTunes/Amazon & play it on the Kid Carson Show on the Beat 94.5! ,0 @Tw1sty I shall come keep you warm ,0 need helphow keep going time time time tell things get better try hardest still end one bad thing putting gun mouth want something help change mind im becoming tired living like this,1 @jun6lee nah nah..dont worry..even if u eat penguins I wont kill u!!! no judgements passed no explanations demanded!!! ,0 hiya leave message reply wake day took break days personal reasons im back happy was good night,0 good morning i m off to the hospital with my dad to spend basically all day in the waiting room just for a two minute app fun fun fun,0 cant keep going like thisevery day like fever im much pain feel sick ive depressed life nothing like this ive started cutting never understood before get now ive done much less visable methods self harm think people noticed making worse everyone around gives shit depressed others caused detached yet feels like ammo make fun me seems matter makes everything worse even people say care feel waiting either get fucking already blame them fit world everything makes want die ive tried following dreams succeeded im empty cant feel joy long since have think ill ever ok every single day thoughts speaking directly someone redflag every day say today day cant push myself im afraid pain really all guess default plan hanging nearby tree maybe best think jumping something time thought wonder brain trying put it brain dragging pit know do want over anyone understands state im in,1 certain thing story gold digger viola dana tenement house mother uses take care two brothers loving family although danas character opportunity marry streetcar conductor refuses holds millionaire everyone makes fun fantasy surprised one day really meet millionaire son owner popular abc restaurant chain two marry hastily girls dreams wealth shattered rich father disowns son marrying gold digger however truly loves new husband two unexpectedly successful making ownbr br a rare glimpse movie star viola dana film lot fun danas role accessible natural entertaining displays knack comedy well ability dramabr br the mechanics film lot fun too camera displays sophisticated late silent techniques like mobility title cards also incredibly cleverbr br if like films like best girl it patsy enjoy film,0 one call want know anyone alone without feeling alone worth scared dying alone without family homeless,1 @ShakenBake80 3 hours!? O and Hai again Nick ,0 indian looking study germany bachelors itd cool german dmed me id really use advice stuff hi far ive researched biggest thing getting admissionlearning german im really hard time understanding that apply apply apply every university seperately many universities there even started learning german late much time have also within country almost every state different native language national language even though guy knows national language know native makes things little difficult people would straight assume knows language would stagmatised him etc thing worry germany learning germany alone enough know basics like ich bin ein jung du bist eineine dear friend whos gonna dmcomment right rent goes anywhere learned earn euros per month got lot stuff worry like settling first implying first year earn roughly months planning get job study im working like shopkeeper security guard lol even idea student eligible become security guard internet internet expensive kind data consumer am imma need really big plan since imma study outside hostel room wifi option ill probably need internet anywhere am know even top things worried pls halp,0 trapped circular cycle feels hopelessi scare friends away mental illness makes feel worse distances more hate wish could normal instead go fine considering death daily basis friends lie caring never change feel like im getting anyone running time college im alone please help want die everyday,1 Q&A today with Denis Leary today!!! Thanks Katie ,0 gameis game immensely cause harm purposefully character asking friend,1 i m trying to fine friend on twitter no luck so far,0 @redcherryxoxo I'm visiting kimbobly ,0 little bro needs friends play fall guys ps tmrw brother allowed play video games week able talk friends cvirus doesnt friends play fall guys with cant play single player game favourite wondering anyone play am et tomorrow sep couple hours ill pm first comments psn pm send psn back thanks guys ampxb ps need mic talk dont kind defeats purpose,0 meh almost lover is the exception this track get me depressed every time,0 completely hopeless life never gets bettermoney extremely tight left thats overdrafted student loans stepdad took pity me amazing boyfriend worries constantly money me burden everybody know love desperately wish even month im applying disability due extreme disability takes fucking long need help bad none sight redflag seems attractive every single fucking day fuck do car broke down got scammed tow place cant even drive cant get job anyway due depression even could could fuck disability application fucking hopeless,1 could right nowi hate feeling like im conducive part world truth dont know go person point dont really want anything get better im know im fulfilling prophecy nothing work out nothings going easy theres knife drawer house didnt care hurting people life id take instant,1 why doesnt she like meeeeeeeeeee #suicide #depression #gangnamstyle,1 like redflag attemptsnot even death wabt geez,1 endearingevania i sure wish i could go with you guy tmrw but a per usual school interferes,0 women reddit friends say right hit girl think,0 "Two things I love, like possible actually love, right now 1) My hair. 2)Re-watching My So-Called Life. ",0 Bouncing on the trampoline http://twitpic.com/6cc6j,0 "@janaebreanna kay, you win. i'm ready to go homeeeeeeeee. Actually I'll be visiting @zacseif before I do go home MAYBE.",0 waitin the theory test centre open,0 motivation live first sorry bad english idiot cant learn english must write post dont anything life wake redflag thought every fucking single day years old suicidal thought years two times attempted dont courage die loser clever enough living ugly fat small penis chance girls unsuccesful everything diabetes keratosis pilaris fucking hate myself wish courage redflag everytime sleep want died morning,1 "Top of the morn! @VioletJohe ok, please. ",0 @taylorswift13 I'm watching you on CSI now baby! ,0 i need to talk to you @mynameiskaraaaa well my lifes pretty good. have fun stalking me ,0 I love you <3,0 life feels messythis going sound absolutely ridiculous computer messed up phone broken think mantain decent grades anymore im lazy work keep spending gross hrs porneven blockers feel addicted it many things read thing type lot work im lazy hell made bit fatter annoyed feel annoyed angry irritated sleep feels messed up cant stay finish anything spend way much time avoiding work sites face feels extremely oily acne active im unable get shave properly skin feels bit bad feel conflicted many things time feels like moves fast suck lot things subjects im lazy feel extremely unproductive honestly kind wanted vent probably unless something big happens really really want to,1 i wan na start by saying i feel like i have nothing left i m and i have no money broken car bad job abusive toxic friend i m so mentally broken i can t hold onto companionship i need attention from the people i love and i go crazy mentally when i m alone i ve finally reached the point where i can t think straight anymore i let my friend who i deeply loved and thought wa close with me take advantage of me and massively hurt me to a point where i m getting trauma because of the situation i got attached online to a bunch of people who wanted to care about me and told me that they loved me only for me to send selfies and their entire mood change i feel like a monster i m so filled with rage and bitterness and sadness the thing i take enjoyment in make me mad i constantly check my one friend status every min and see her happy with others and rage just shoot over me the thing they did to me affected me so much mentally and it s making me insane i can t cope anymore i need someone new i need this pain to lessen before i go crazy what do i do please someone tell me,1 using imdbbr br youve given hefty votes favourite filmsbr br its something enjoy doingbr br and this fifty seconds one world ends another beginsbr br how given ten wonder give seven eight exactly could first film ever made better record long still opening shot great showmanship superb innovation perfectly suited situation dog bike lovely touch within fifty secondsbr br the word genius often overusedbr br this genius,0 Twitter has become a place where I'm able to write about my struggles with anxiety and depression. I also see that I'm not alone.,1 everyone hate me so much,0 rant post much want vote hell comment frustrations it let anger gets bad,0 wish never borni didnt ask this,1 fucking hate people text press send finishing everything say send like messages fuck rather boys text ok,0 "@cybereddie work? what is that? summer in Corfu and you are working? hmmmmmm, no good my friend... good morning chief! coffee oN me",0 first person comment post gets free award got free award hours heres chance come snatch,0 do you remember when you joined twitter i do mytwitteranniversary depression http t co ooprmbtxhu,1 good morning for a very rainy france no gardening for me today,0 worki know passing happen peacefully pills never seem work hoping one peaceful moment life woke instead appeal bleeding kicking struggling hanging ceiling peaceful all always pills never works maybe death like life peace either want moment calmness muchsoughtafter exit desire go stronger expectation peacefulness unfair everything ugly cant calm easy go,1 drinking a nuun lemon amp lime electrolyte tab drink it s not sweet enough,0 maikeru you aren t connected with me back so i can t dm you,0 pls need help cannot take counseling,1 know point is attention maybe vent either ways nothing good comes it still depressed ever feel claustrophobic feel exhausted feel totally alone world hate thinking much alone thoughts feel like walking dark room filled dangerous predators locking door behind me know continue post,1 @MoBenessa Hey hey glad you appreciate ,0 many attempts tiktok getting banned us sorry country bruddas,0 "@jonnyshare Haha, I like your style ",0 slept for about two hour woke up with my mind racing again couldn t eat dinner due to stomach pain from anxiety just want to quit work and start somewhere new again but it s not possible and will probably end up with the same issue i just wish i could restart everyday and fix every mistake of what i say and do can t keep living this way but i don t see how i can change the cycle i feel like i bring everyone around me down why am i like this i just want to turn my brain off,1 day sucks know many probably aswell day kind sucks already every little inconvienience feels like blow day everything demoralizes you today one days today enraging stuff happening laying bed thankfully cat lap trying take breather always think things every single time entire family disregards someone else comes me care siblings feelings dont me thoughts right dont know answer yet you,0 anyone wanna join new discord server called boredom unlimited place people wanna play among us fall guys gta fortnight apex minecraft dont members right now join would greatly appreciated,0 im pathetic pos kill myselfim stupid spoiled brat feel like could go right im sure how know pills dangerous access prozac seroquel advil roof high im scared jump anyway yes ill listen stuff guys say id also appreciate info c,1 just got out of the showerrr! myspacing! ,0 one big mistake ends alldear all like share current feelings way vent everything rages head thuesday last week last working day long planned holiday japan evening became tired temperature rose went bed early temperature rose bit night came back next morning thinking postponing departure roommate pushed go said want expose people perhaps pass virus sure called airline company noted contact gp called gp basis phyiscal complaints coughing sneezing could fly decided go take easy first days thinking could mild cold blocked nose days body tired due end stressfull period work think agreed also based stress level make think clear really called parents advice didnt japan gradually started show flu symptoms although overall felt ok day flu sick could expected day night however realized turn flu im sure off could passed travellers inside airplane study shows passengers vonuerable virusses outside went hospital influenza test showed negative read swab tests reliable according fda im positive flu know hell thinking board plane im stuck hotel rooms exposed people potential lethal disease notes annually ca people die flu related infection attack rate population brings following max average mortality calculation bn population x persons get flu mln although cough sneeze flu also transmittable breath lets presume ive infected persons chance im going responsible someones death im usually responsible person thought responsible someones death unbearable me cant live life idea might killed someone ill never find know whether might infected burden never released im much regret get plane miserable time life ruined want end life even following reasons to im bhuddist therefore redflag negative karma you hurt others unpleasant way exiting life ill lower rebirth next life love mother know devastated many many years cant see little niece nephew grow up tried slow hang wrote goodbye letters family puss stopped getting unconsious days ago major panic attacks calmed bit talked dad yesterday although mention mental state regretted board plane mom said relax also talked friend comforting however lost think future ofcourse say take easy carry burden murderer start eating drinking backup plan redflag dehadration would time tokio ive booked hotelroom week ive time die slowly made stupid choice life never again acted unresponsible must pay sin im much regret cant turn back time maybe someone die ignorance chance haunt rest life prefer end japan waste time bought rope today could wait till im back home easier body could minimize burden parents good life everything could wish for messed never same supposed fun holiday end years life perspective repent stupid life threatening decisions ive made done late now cant turn back time yes chance ive killed someone low noted inluenza deaths seniors chance much needless risk ive endangered people with cant live idea end life over finished grief much want kill asap afraid back last moment unsuccesfull potential brain damage would better back home buy better supplies ive wait weeks that oh mess everything worked well this im sopping hotel room full thoughts feel sorry family friends buddhist dharma says focus future past result caused unintentional harm feel sorry lowereing negative karma use make changes life generate good karma helping others genuine good person cant life grief stupid mistake need carry rest life cant come comfort always question mark many people suffered action thanks reading hope suffering end soon,1 dont want lose another friend redflagi dont know it hes hit rock bottom refuses talk it cries time studying skipping classes hes always night idea help him dont want lose another friend redflag dont genuinely want okay again im want realise okay weak vulnerable talk let out dont know came write this cant tell anyone needed get chest want know loved refuses listen advice,1 someone please help im literally crying watched video opportunity rover mars literally sent entire song rover fucking funeral everything nasa make tears worse end video guy said ever get mars hope get opportunity spirit another rover reunited brought back home fucking crying robot,0 shattered,0 mom put broccoli spam together dont get wrong love mom uhbroccoli spam combo dont know eat this excused bathroom write this wish luck,0 really need therapist guess ill never reach itwell guess kind personality disorder im sick since hit puberty social anxiety depression mood swings identity problems gender identity problems suicidal behaviours selfharm self sabotage eating disorder emptiness etc know get help cant mean money real therapist yes free therapists fucking know go i wrote email hospital said go somewhere else asked reply noone talk things time want feel worse worse want die thats fucking hard find therapist know do feel hopeless talking strangers online problems me make feel worse im guess ill kill next week chance get help,1 hate im right nowi hate im subreddit right now hate feel way hate feel alone hopeless talk internet instead person im sick really sick remember like feel okay remember like pain want out feel like people life love wanting wake next morning lot easier everyone gives me feel like stupid illness big awful cant fight alone everyone gives up one wants fight me many people made clear actions im worth fighting for im worth fighting hell still fighting right remember im still trying sure want reminded live want someone tell okay let go,1 @HollyEgg i use medical marijuana. i have bipolar disorder. i still take all my psych meds because cannabis doesn't address bipolar disorder or depression. your nephew needs a clue.,1 "@consumingtheart No, Dusty! My furry kid ",0 help meim afraid,1 everyone stalking profile see u bitches,0 @honeywithsole LOL Donna. We're not spamming. Entering contests = FUN! ,0 i ve experienced this before they describe this one a brain zap but this time it s much worse it s at the back of my head now like near my neck then it s followed by intense pulsing feeling somewhere between the back of my head and neck and i feel like something bad can happen to me anytime i m not even feeling anxious at all right before experiencing this one anyone else who experienced this,1 want itim second year college sadly academic probation subject disqualification parents know bad school theyve paid much pocket know much better semester supposed make went shit never fucking secretly pledged one fraternity wouldve golden deal stress knowing pulled class keep going university comes point disqualified school know say parents want die want end shame brought upon myself,1 tell getting wave depression whatever called want idk stop happening coming back,1 looked gory shit half hour idk feel rnoriginally gonna look videos people attempting redflag actually succeeding cause ive seen blurred ones watching redflag rescue videos tear up cause mainly dont know person feeling idk many truly believe theres nothing done people like me seeing people talked rescued puts tears cause know personally would never want talked dragged edge kicking screaming putting shoes people videos makes sad granted want cry good solution theres that obviously ofcourse everyones shituation permanent unsolvable cant happy someone jumps edge you personal feelings fucked is watching videos people actually dying brings sense satisfaction way feel like they it you possible sense of they it escaped im proud jealous even watching brutal explicit graphic videos seeing images originally wanted see destructive shotgun be keep mind images enough scar even adults life seeing give sense assurance odd safety yea definition suicidal madness different everyone even meaning changed couple times believe not downslide worse evil heros think first responders comes redflag personally idea someone taking away escape wholesome way makes wanna cry different emotions theres times feel like way possible would try kill banging head wall floor innocent virgin christian eyes numbers scary think would type person would permanently committed idea living thought illegal thought process scary thought like people knew felt feels illegal know do or feel do like living fantasy world try absolute best taken alive,1 hes claiming beat fight go court treated like abuser whole time sat next me protection order written daughter go home day vacate face eviction landlord lost job this pre trial next month lawyer seems like idea case,1 progressit took almost hours figure post simplify website thanks ive left house years ive visited gp multiple times past years avail know anymore ive seeked help every public channel ignored reason im still alive niece nephew support forever last weeks horrible suppose do suffer agroprobia social anxiety disorder know anymore ive already lost many years life,1 something s wrong i keep getting some error graphic instead of the music player when i go to a musician s myspace page now,0 never felt doomed life gf left months ago mother really could call functional person since rent expired living house months friends basically disappeared going therapy really help much feel like going crazy truman show kind place living killing me could kill real what,1 I love depression music,1 deserve want sympathy tell dowhite male parents always poor fuck work every possession have senior year highschool ive going local community college duel enrolled since payed classes myself suffered anxiety bullying family church got rid summer went taiwan mission trip went real tough shit leaders challenging integrity upon returning several symptoms ptsd tormented memories finally learned let go last summer moved on problem is still get anxiety attacks lot lead contemplate thoughts redflag attempt harm myself anything make stop trouble breathing sometimes shake completely unmotivated worst though chest throbs im laying floor tears like minutes ago happens dumbest reasons im pretty tough logical entj big acting emotion things like fights parents want kick cause enough home cause im always busting ass school really hurts me misunderstandings people things able get instead cause hours suicidal anxiety even admit suicidal took question test friend psych school evaluate me results test said suicidal ideation levels were remarkable depression anxiety im always like this bouts doctor gave stuff work months later prescribed something else get cause healthcare savings card empty makes really upset could prevented money get medicine could talk forever probably broken people trying help broken people,1 energy left meim almost thirty since graduated high school fucked everything life job job job moving over one fucked relationship another depressed lately today latest relationship disintegrated im steam thought ending everything seems like relief freeing,1 shytheo mizzzidc pappy bright the depression part is kinda much but if it were me i d be really mad co according to her it s a repeated action,1 tonight might nighti think anyone really gives shit care anymore im currently sitting desk staring math homework understand slightest sobbing fucking eyes out im fucking fed shit every fucking day get treated like dirt every single fucking person life professors boss parents even friends treat like fucking trash im sick it ive tried reaching people give single fuck either theyre busy lives im paying them feel human anymore im fucking lonely girl ever loved left years ago day gone day without crying her last heard said going porn find job want hold never happen need fucking hug need somebody tell ill okay want things go back way used young clueless im college even know fuck im doing im fucking stupid really get anything done right im fucked right need help,1 dog died weeks ago alright part miss again found crush girlfriend always home alone bored demotivated sleepy goddamn time work anymore shitty diet weather sucksi know going get better bad life go shits quickly sometimes,1 like whales rejected evolution returned fish like whale return fish,0 www.myspace.com/andybrainsforbreakfast check it! Give me some shows to play ,0 bruh im stupid ate nothing ramen drank soda week got surprised nearly fainted seriously need something healthy asap,0 americans fat like seriously shit eat even real food gas country come to,0 people sub know jasmine elias logan haden vilko james sami pham sean shell tas shalap swarali steal lukas elijah eric cooper emily ben sebastian yair karma jakob alexa presto charlie aaron gio jeb luke jesse zepplin kyle dominik john,0 feel like im hellprior year burning problems optimism motivation hope quarantine started back march mental started deteriorate stuck inside four walls bedroom first month kinda fun relax chill watch tv play games etc get bored brain starts unearth pain trauma u put deepest depths subconscious realised alone realised nobody loves realised relationships ive exs lust n love realised friendships never authentic realised died today person would keep connected world mother n isnt well suffer hidradenitis suppurativa body constant pain theres cure everyday rest life put burning sensation way since sitting painfull sometimes cant even get bed wonder whats point living way cant even take shirt swim wear certain clothes stings dont emotions left want cry try cope heart cold wont let me feel like hit brick wall every time try thought death went something used scare something gives inner peace dont know something look forward to try tell people feel always response get better im sure turnt pain aslong remember used hold onto hope thinking people go pain find joy later life used optimistic thinking good deeds karma good thats life works dont really know typed feel like life im like red rose wilted feel like everyday earth hell death doesnt phase me dont want live keep going mother im sure,1 feel abandoneddue mental illnesses dropped school felt people cared actual care existence since about months ive realized one cared people texted time thought general interest wrong needed homework dropped one texted me yesterday cake day single person texted me would understand know social media snapchat facebook ect realized one texting figured busy decided text closest friends none seemed interest talking me one said youre alive figured dead feel like maybe good option,1 girls reddit think actually kicking guy balls fine reasons physical abuse girl know told would kick guy balls stares boobs ass even telling stop guy dont know correct so,0 nut use lever method method like this put ur hand tip ur dick push side side might hurt start pain dissapear friend try it approves,0 got attention want say going die peace chopped nipple ate,1 walked home party crying way back fuck still here,1 desktop goose awaken honk,0 daily reminder drink water may posted today forgot,0 essentially want ever terrified know right thing destroy family friend circle care owe much inflict pain make pact end figured way cope torn slow suicide continue drink smoke work early grave hope easier circle bite bullet rip plaster quicknot really asking question help throwing thoughts void nearing age told id figure things out,1 being border restricted victim day by day we getting engulfed in frustration depression suicidal attempt and much more that we can t express in word depression fmwangyisaveindianstudents takeusbacktochina,1 Depression and Sadness. https://twitter.com/ArabPysch/status/988793211006148619 …,1 im looking friends wrote bunch interested yo im im kinda lonely shit yada yada wanna meet friends guess interests include video games types preferably good story im always looking someone play smash play basketball stuff im pretty tall like art im good heres looks things im years old live canada alberta im single just kidding actually im kinda not brown hair brown eyes im pretty buff could say idk awkward section two awkward personality section thanks todd my names todd jesse well people tell im kind person im also little bit sad lot bad feel lot lose motivation thats im looking people talk vent maybe play game im also kind childish guess like marvel lego still read games lot hyped steve smash yea theres im also pretty funny idk youd vibe sense humour still also im smart suck math socially awkward ive never talked girl really hit anything still think thats cool guess anyway thanks reading hope make friend two id love anyone talk lol anyway bye,0 pizza roll done ah yes pizza rolls done chomp,0 wish easier kill myselfi cant anymore ive tried long life seem worth living anymore,1 It is 7:10PM only 3 more sessions tonight ,0 that one week wa the best in a long time around month of constant depression ha quite honestly made me want to kill myself but i have too many people in my life for that i m grateful for having supportive friend and family member but i just want to die,1 first person tell good bee joke makes smile laugh gets award ,0 please kill mei need help need help need help need help need help cant stop crying cant anymoe feel like head going explode please help me,1 hlots outstanding series nypd blue never be hlots plots real dialog real relationships real hlots back movie tying loose ends good gang back together even passed away show wont say how storyline fast paced emotional full spirit series week week out homicide life streets network drama best stars thumbs that thanks nbc giving us finally get,0 i thought you could buy silent hill for the psp on the p store i can t find it anywhere,0 @Nireyna Good for you Nireyna and good luck in whatever it is! ,0 Off to Canarywharf! Mail me ,0 localtweeps wow ton of reply from you may have to unfollow so i can see my friend tweet you re scrolling the feed a lot,0 thinks you should read her real blog: www.lisarcastic.blogspot.com it's awesome; like me *lol*,0 "I'm not bi-polar, but my depression is.",1 Just finished leadig praise and worship. By His Grace was awesome...but not nearly as awesome as God is. ,0 failed attempti tried kms night let cousin know cuz always talked wanted come get kids morning well rang police arms messed nothing family kids week ever completely childfree yrs considered away thats ideal time it ive trying hold on call social services hour ago questioning ability children police woman night condescending cow smirked whole time made report sound way worse was cousin never called police im worse position before im sat tears meds ready need see children one last time cant video call cuz family members know something stop me thinking writing letters that still get see them need hug them feel terrible leaving them hate life much ss crawling one thing cant handle kids things got bed for im good mum get every day even want lie bed waste away look get appointments kids things kept here even sometimes feel like enough im actually fighting whether it drunk night im sober feeling overwhelming im going potter round tidy up wait sign dunno sign looking for something good happen make decide stick around something bad push past tipping point read far thank you really needed tell someone feel safe knowledge going call police family members me,1 "@squirrelrehab With the crazy weather we have here in the midwest, a blizzard would not be out of the ordinary ",0 life society jokelife poorly designed mess society joke like idiots decided unless ideal person life miserable you agree bad im pissed like many im stuck i make better imma end all fuck this,1 "thanks debbie, madz and @gabgabesp for the free coffee and donut ",0 guys mean ive bullied guys girls guys much meaner,0 got incels huh man think good make absolute shitposts generalizing women ive come across post girl want rich guy shit honestly makes seem like troll seriously isnt sitcom romance movie girl always every movie no incel meme take away fragile u are good bye merry christler,0 recently getting suicidal thoughts lately getting depressed matter much try think brightly situation jus cannot shake thought wanting die really want share past abused dad got bullied school looks middle school moms relationship started degrade point really care affect commit suicide due playing games try get rid thought ig suppresed feeling think want future cannot think want matter hard try people closest friends parents siblings tell it worth it whenever hear feel guilt whenever think idea suicide feel calmpls help really know,1 took bunchof meds hoping job around anymore cant take life anymore done never asked born never wanted suffered horrid life more least hope meds work right,1 sometimes wish id never born allhello everyone late night here life went downhill struggling heavy depression year ago absolute nightmare worst time life thought got it im much stable now turns wrong afraid coming back feeling yet am feel ashamed pitiful writing this really cant keep inside much longer theres nothing keeping anymore find happiness anything tried to ive tried see positives ive tried help people close me ive tried keep mind busy failed time education perspective future ill one remembered ill probably die nobody ive cutted myslef everyone strength write things led this painful me point wish quick death know ill never commit redflag im scared it enough courage so do im hopeless strength anything energy inside im waking every morning asking still here whats point living like thati hate past people suffered actions especially person cared about cant change ive done wish could disappear die disappear thanks giving timeand sorry grammar or any mistakes english first language nice day,1 im going crazyplease help me think im going crazy need someone talk to dont anyone help nt want risk put stationry mental hospital phone call would help much,1 any one el see the slightest double not like seeing it bad but in a mild way like hard to focus on looking at thing like ur finger for example if u have doe it ever go away i got it from being derealized for a year n a half im not extremely derealized any more but it s slightly their but if u have experienced this what did u do to help it im gon na start going to therapy to find the root to my issue soon how did u guy benefit from therapy i m exited i m just constantly questioning every thing n feeling scared i just wish i could feel normal again i m constantly anxious i hate being in car and just being any where in general,1 many replies post get many ,0 #Science Says People Who Burn Frankincense Are Less Likely To Suffer From #Depression http://bit.ly/1SJ3Nhh  pic.twitter.com/9IvbFCmSId,1 dont know want helpi want kill fucking badly school daily stress overwhelming me im fuckjng ugly cant disappointment girlfriend one day im afraid like gfs gonna leave shes left apart two cats one likes really dont even think gf people swear finds annoying people go oh care dont kill yourself like sure makes wanna die dont know do one talk talk gf shell get upset me help please,1 @michaeltherrien I'm IMing you ,0 life definitely going shitter lolive studying hard lately school every single day pm study hour increments minute break collect myself think working dont know much going improve gpa really want go good school dont im going feel like failure music thing doesnt work dont end going good college think know im going do reason ive staying alive want see successful career im older fantasize redflag everyday without failure,1 hi im indie game developer first video new game hope like it video reach likes publish second devlog subscribe channel would grateful thank lot advance httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvotavrrgcehttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvotavrrgce,0 it bad that we cant buy it here,0 one true thing proves characters make movie streep surely receive oscar nomination role beautiful drama one true thing prime example moviemaking late s still people care making watching movies big blockbusters million dollar special effects best picture anything silly amount emotion delivered actors writer hit like shockwave cried twice movie says lot year old man,0 biggest fantasy want go out idk want die methods yeah problem is none nearby buildings come close tall want leap building,1 fucking hate nword rword im neither black mentally ill im white brazilian though signs autism depression adjustment disorder borderline disorder etc ive never time money diagnosis gotta assume im neurotypical therefore even right use rword hate nword rwordeven black mentally person uses them believe reclaiming bullshit seems like roundabout way encourage discrimination heard one celebrity say black people rough get worse jobs treated like shitso please let one word like uhfair enough guess still like anyone using word,0 want kill myselfi planning jumping bridge river impact it drowning hypothermia will im three feet head stress anxiety hate body want try anymore im tired through antidepressants helping im done,1 hiso hi guess sorry really broken ramble lot relevant one way another guess really know thisll actually work hell probably long shot reading comments posted guess start fact im feeling suicidal exactly knew me ive casually thinking good two years thinking upon kind shrugged puberty shit whatever hormones guess ive thinking recently come realisation redflag coming mind more more hell even feel bad thinking kill reading others put know people family losses huge god damn fallouts everybody know contrasting reasoning seems petty guess ill post here family wise see family see dysfunctional fuck eyes aka relatives close me sit computer day honest true theyll say hello ive heard comments parents asking anti sociable hes rude parents responding oh hes always like ignored also happens parents friends well struggle conversations hell time cant hold one one conversation thirty seconds mum dad split mum split boyfriend four years two weeks ago give less shit him never talked actively avoided me ever said theorising problems kids caused who got along fine actually fault saying mum proceeded shout me ill get later dad probably family member like little basically lets stuff freely ie eat dinner wherever sleep schedule choice things like that ive got chores often thats fine never shouts unless ive actually done something really pisses off three times fifteen years also sometimes like every two months stuff like go golf free time go computer browse web play games like csgo terraria family see disappointment apparently life never go friends more thats mum tells though stuff like homework leave school times last day friends varied even know like huge act try get away whenever attempt socialise couple friends constantly actively attempt annoy hurt emotionally physically in minds probably bit fun annoy me like talk makes breaks lunches okay school outside school talk though stick couple groups talk playing games time im silent reason probably talk pity as one said privately serious anger issues whole amount stuff said previous three four years keep trying bottle up sometimes ill slip start getting incredibly annoyed something pathetic cant contain myself nobody gets hurt im weak thin feel like parents like me although like dad see weekends seems like like me conversation telling dinner is hes going bed mum hand seems get annoyed shout me know aspergers although pretty mild affect looks smart like some knows said shell stop shouting getting annoyed however happen probably said front person diagnosed make seems like loves me shell get annoyed something also take everyone else however im normally one there resulting shouted at one friend told recently thought killing said thats stupid idea thats it proves care overall feel pathetic family care me little amount friends affected death recently feeling edge suicidal thoughts constantly popping up kill would mean badly school aka annoying teachers would affect someone minutes theyd go without giving shit already redflag plan consists oding pills jumping unfenced bridge probably also hitting car bottom ive enough hide fake smiles laughs jokes comments aimed me refuse go physiatrist tell family one friend tell care need help ,1 ive disliked long time certain things life recently made spike unprecedentedlyim sick tired liking myself im trying ignore problems sex drugs turns thats dumb im done idk,1 on the bus going to work booo,0 legitimately fucking love trisha paytas lmao people hate lose harder ixine haters,0 hate life passioni wanna die dont ever see strong enough get life everything know people cant anymore dont want live dont want get old dont want family kids dont want experience anything life im done hate living ive crying day now think it wish could find easy way out wish virus would take me wish someone would kidnap murder me anything control cant anything im fucking depressed done im alone day everyday one dont care make new friends anything literally dont care damn thing anymore dont give fuck honest let one thing id give anything die obviously need find way life need figure easiest way dont want endure pain dont want to could get enough money get hard enough drugs od on,1 reviewing every dutch pat mat episode special edition repost cuz forgot first wont read entire post made pat mat video game avalible anymore steam tags are cold war illuminati sexual content nudity either know get game steam key something sort tell me want see tags accurate also put bottom done time two you might even today feel like it daily episode plot many books make bookcase stuff happens too also blueprints nuclear bomb idk why things nice music episde three exactly k views conclusion quite good episode tags correct want find pat mat game anyone knows get please tell me score episode plot fix vacuum cleaner move carpet things swear lot jesus godverderrie odd tv show time although even old given voices shown netherlands s conclusion slow episode much happened quite boring tbh score important stuff again made pat mat video game avalible anymore steam tags are cold war illuminati sexual content nudity either know get game steam key something sort tell me want see tags accurate edit even intriegued ive seen metacritic user review here is rickrollhttpswwwmetacriticcomgamepcpatmat spoiler alert particularly enjoyed level horses angry feminist muslims must game anyone likes good games would say game easily par best games recent times like perhaps civilization spare copy civilization id glady swap pat amp mat said,0 thing want kill myselfnothing enjoyable anymore dont want anything life id rather die right now kill years old currently dont want live world anymore made live purpose alive useful skills life dont want improve myself eat loads junk food regard health dont give shit healthy im going commit redflag anyways,1 redflag act honornot escape pain sadness merely pay respect world leave gradiently become even stupid redflag incompetent point struggles ohhh suffering stem purely incompetence arrogance redflag cant offer life world infinite flaws past shitfest wrong decisions redflag made stupid head redflag you redflag i,1 changed user flair time seventeen gang finally rise up,0 paul pogba man utd midfielder experienced depression under jose mourinho bbc sport http t co lqiuvbtd n,1 I look and feel awful.. I'm ready do get out of this depression.,1 in the past year i got raped by a friend i trusted deeply i lost my job to covid my grandmother who i loved more than anyone passed my best friend completely ghosted me found out i have a chronic disease i can never have my own biological child i thought a these thing were happening that i would eventually be able to move past them that maybe they weren t such big deal and i really wa being too sensitive like my parent love to tell me i m an adult and i most definitely can t afford to move out i can barely afford to pay the 00 a month rent my parent charge me i live in the same room i ve lived in since i wa born i just pay for it now with money i wa saving for a car so i don t have a car i don t have my license cause my parent won t let me drive their car so i ve never practiced i don t have a single friend i had two but if you read the beginning yea i ve been homeschooled since the start of high school so i don t have anyone to fall back on except for family my grandmother wa the only one who really sympathized with me and i spent the past two year taking care of her pretty much full time she wa 9 and mentally and physically declining it killed me to watch the woman who raised me wither away i felt like i lost my only purpose when she passed away and i constantly blame myself for not being there when she died she had a heart attack and the coroner told me i couldn t have helped even if i wa right beside her but i m eaten alive with guilt i m still grieving but i need money to live i interviewed and got a job at a place i wanted to work i wa dreading it though because i knew my only way to get there is my parent my dad begrudgingly take me even though i don t know how he expects me to pay his rent if i can t have a job he constantly complains about having to take me there and back which is at the most minute of driving yet he won t aid me in getting a license and is draining my saving from my old job by charging me rent and now my current job is slashing my hour i went from 0 hour a week to what the fuck and they now expect me to do double the work on a single shift for 9 an hour i thought thing were looking up when i first got that job but now it s just shit i m not making any money or progress in life i m dependent on my family and im sick and tired of it i don t feel like an adult at all and frankly i don t want to be why would i want to live the next sixty year to pay tax work and be miserable there s nothing worth pursuing at the cost of prolonging a life of suffering i m traumatized from being raped i ve never told anyone irl and i think i m asexual because of it now thinking about anything intimate make me physically sick i never want to be in a relationship what s the point if i can t have kid anyways nobody would want me all i really want is a friend or two people to talk with and share hobby but i can t drive myself anywhere so i m kinda unable to even attempt to make connection with people and i ve noticed pretty much everyone my age is only interested in hook ups or relationship my old best friend of year completely ghosted me after she got a boyfriend i wanted to know what it wa like to have a boyfriend and my first kiss but it wa forcefully stolen from me i wanted to master an instrument and another language i wanted to keep seeing cool new game and anime come out i wanted to try food from around the world i wanted to see the northern light dance i wanted to see sakura season i wanted to see crystal clear ocean water i wanted to spread my wing and be able to just live normally but it just wasn t meant to be for me well i accidentally turned this into a long rant but basically i m giving up i see no point in living tomorrow will be my last day i made plan with my older sister to go to a movie and dinner so it ll be a good day at least i wa gon na shoot myself but i figured an overdose will be le painful for my parent to come across i m not sure exactly what i believe in but maybe life will be better next time my heart hurt for anyone feeling the same way i do it s hard thank you for reading,1 so i haven t had a job in a year and today i finally had a phone interview for a work at home position that involved customer service since i have over five year of experience in that realm i thought i wa going to do well like i wa feeling really confident and thought i wa going to slam dunk the interview i watched so many interview video article wrote down interview question and my answer and practiced multiple time in the mirror and recorded myself over and over again i felt so good about myself but when the interview started and he started to ask me question i panicked because they were nothing like the one i thought they would be for the position i could barely get my thought together and form sentence i hung up and he called back and i lied and said the call dropped and then he went onto the next and i just couldn t do it i hung up again and broke down into tear and started to shake lmao at this point i feel like i m stuck in a vicious cycle of anxiety i want to get a job again i want to get back into school but this anxiety shit ha me in a chokehold and it s making so sad idk what to do,1 first time trying wellbutrin side effects affect sex drive i female anyone tried wellbutrin,1 so get vampyr mario d stars got bucks mario sale vampyr sale thats,0 why kutner i mean i knew something wa going to happen to someone but it wa so sad i lt house and it wa well done but i m still sad,0 hi fello people peopleettes discord server friends r trying get new peoplee chat send memes play games like minecraft among us overwatch stuff going on commitment guys girls welcome dm link d,0 @luddywitab00ty till mondayy ,0 "@wine_sport @AntiGOPActivist @EnriqueMFlores3 @otepofficial @SassyMsViolet @MamaRose2017 @KalelVX @dawnresist @SagArcher @KalenaAnna Kalena,I am so sorry u had a stroke!I have had several TIAs without lasting disabilities,Thank God. Being a retired RN I understand just how close we both are n having life threatening events.Don't give up hope & don't give in to depression, it can cloud ur perception,Wish u Best",1 Finished work.. just joined twitter. WOOHOO. Hi Kim Kardashian! ,0 i m quite a nervous talker anyway i m not toooo bad if it s close friend or my mum but co worker and stranger like supermarket worker or customer i stutter quite a lot but like today i ve had to work at a really busy pub i do mainly cleaning there alongside my main job i used to work at the pub full time but now i just help them out and i feel mentally numb it ha been especially busy today because of a big town wide event we even had to have staff from other pub help being a chain of pub i also wanted to be sick and cry a couple of time and it s just from the sheer amount of people and the amount of contact i have to have with some people i ve been invited out to watch a game tonight i enjoy watching rugby and i m still in two mind whether i can face going,1 "Lisa Hoffman Lamanna, RLCSW ​Psychotherapist and Health Coach at Roots Health & Wellness ~ I provide both mental and health services with specialization in Nutrition and Wellness, Depression and Relationship Issues. http://bit.ly/2xdfXLA  pic.twitter.com/HQICYy7mPC",1 nd grade made economic system pringles made dictatorship based pringles best friends would buy pringles kids didnt wed trade things later became super valuble id give people pringles swings etc became super cocky bit months teachers caught finally stopped me economic systems formed thousand years ago would became king would lead modern history,0 @sonicdork Should I check them out or will I be in a deep depression?,1 poor cameron the hill,0 thanksi want say thanks people help rredflagwatch thats great even sometime work keep watch others nice ,1 shit im even joking bothered go bathroom im sitting poop,0 Drove around all night Fat cop followed us the whole time. Ahhhmayzin.,0 mentally ill continue living much damage already done realistically sort opportunities even have plethora mental illnesses progressively getting worse worse abilities function work drive focus things conversations taken nosedive physical health started take tumble well metabolism noticeably slowed down im exhausted frequently moments brain fog forgetfulness im unable distract pacify entertainment im uninsured unable get type treatment issues almost went broke seeking therapy previously work slightest cannot afford type medication type hospital visit certainly insurance im danger losing job despite looking jobs place cant find would pay well plenty work experience relevant skills im underqualified real jobs aforementioned mental illnesses inability drive also major factor this due faculties getting worse im unable learn things learn skills ive tried number different creative hobbies avail ive tried getting computer programming music writing among things avail friends family relative parent live also mentally ill treats im sort highfunctioning special needs child im stuck toxic relationship draining energy me making exhausted anxious perpetual fear partner im getting old ive fraction life experiences knowledge people years younger do im constantly embarrassed age ive achieved amounted nothing compared peers compared teenagers point im sexually broken unable fully enjoy intimacy this relationship strained im deathly afraid prospect finding another relationship know nobody want deal someone like situation especially considered problems everything getting much worse short span time,1 anyone like chili cheese tater tots want know im one,0 dont get itpeople tell kill yourself why alive change life stranger appear care person could bleeding bath tub never know yet push redflag hotlines cared enough would dont simply wish relieved cumbersome existence idk wanted know go ever man upstairs wants,1 think movie deserves low rating give it one best teenager horror films ive ever seen thats saying lot nothing left without explanation back up characters plot break countless horror movie stereotypes got nothing horrible pieces weve submitted lately a clear example mindless saint ange first minutes might downright boring exception beginning although minor light mistakes easily spotted arrival village though horror a different twisted kind horror beginsbr br with plot details goofs minor characters movies strongest point given many clichs broken it example two main male characters nick wade means idiotic types were used to although dalton might fit better stereotype one pay lack consciousness scenes truly satisfyingly horrible making tense moments scattered around film and end although everything decorously explained easy see things go easy surviving charactersbr br the errors see imply continuity ie carly finding cut finger unconscious bos pockets illumination somehow annoying first boring minutes although plot effectswise everything drastically cruelly twisted arrival main characters ambrosia little village midst nothing ill give that pretty much argued movie illogical how two people build entire house wax where get wax from uprising questions people would paid attention movie sinclair brothers build house wax mother worked making actual wax figures exhibited museum scenario paris hiltons unfortunate character meets untimely death answer second question personal objects mobile phones cars clothes dead people using third brother connection exterior pretty much arguable sinclair twins obtain money necessary buy wax wwiitype fashionbr br so aside think movie deserves lot gets nobody lose chance watch it go see house wax right now,0 time comei personally feel time finally come take oxys slit wrist finally making plans write good byes tonight get ready over cant handle anymore getting much im tired tired time anything look forward life,1 I probably won't talk but I'll listen and help him. That's what's gonna make my depression go away.,1 even today it s a strain on society people thinking people with depression are over acting lazy making excuse even with the people who believe in it they still don t know how bad it get thinking you can change that everything will be okay or my own personal favorite a lot of people have it worse i remember finally reaching out for help on the hotline only to have the police knock on my door handcuff me and take me to the hospital i wa next to the ambulance triage door and saw multiple people enter and exit while screaming and a patient in front of me decided to do perverted act in front of me i m more traumatized by the help i got also where i live the mental health place for teen is a death trap there are many one star review for one of the few main mental health place where i live it suck that i want to get help but society just literally treat me like i m wrong or that the place where i want to get help aren t safe i do have a therapist but i still don t feel safe around her,1 falsely accuseda couple months ago accused rape female acquaintance im virgin but things way high school ive lost basically every friend ever really trusted able convince people knew situation innocent still realized bad things significant others years feel nothing guilt ive trying make amends however possible nothing working im basically isolation now dont think deserve live feel like passing might make people feel better fucks bad people thought would ever intentionally hurt someone fucks even actually stupid see it dont feel like anymore im scared ill shell forever,1 hey bros qu hay probablemente nadie lea esto creo que es lo ms estupido que hecho en mi puta vida pero hay das en que estoy triste intentando suicidar dos veces se que la tercera ser la vencida se cuando ser pero veo viviendo mucho supongo que tengo depresin pero lo s pero todos los das cuando todo est en silencio pienso en las mil maneras en cmo podra matar aveces lloro aveces hablo solo supongo que es la vidasolo eso cudense si alguien llega leer esto ,1 "@TiffanyAnn16 Yeah! You guys should just come on up! The water is great! My nephews and my 14 year old are in it now, so I am online... ",0 woken up by someone hammering gt lt they have stopped now and i can t get back to sleep,0 i know i m not i m fully aware that i m not dying the problem is the fact that it feel extremely difficult to breathe even though i know nothing is wrong my lung are genuinely taking in all the air that they can and i don t have any medical issue there s no pressure around my rib yet i feel trapped i feel like i m running out of breath and it s making me panic and that in itself is making it even harder to breathe i feel on the verge of a panic attack even my posture is fine ha anyone else felt this weird out of breath sensation it feel like no matter how much air i take in it s not enough,1 Good Morning @weluvsoccer ,0 May at least one of your dreams come true today! Have a great day ,0 suppose quite achievement able present audience true tail frail man tail protagonist spend majority film back bed totally unable move yet achievement films effectiveness dramatic piece recollection true story guess argument people right die wish to film political statement perhaps thankfully shies away many scenes debate although include one sake argument anyway moreso one foreign language films presents lead character cripple nothing talk people around yet able come across engaging compelling anywaybr br so rather argument film sweet yet timely dramatic piece another person wanting something search something difference attaining goal would mean termination someones life would achieved physically going anywhere javier bardem plays real life galician ramn sampedro individual much earlier age dived clearing water shallow activity rendered bedridden rest life wish die focus chilean director alejandro amenbars film weve seen many films lives characters certain goals targets one must meet film provide satisfactory experience audience change pace sea inside gentle involve young energetic attractive heroes going battle far places real person something means much thembr br even strong policy either pro antieuthanasia may find hoping ramn gets wants end anyway film sets tone early ramn giving speech wants die watching family members immediately introducing situation subject watching audience may know film about interestingly family members anti wishes might place audience member feels strongly subject respective shoes purpose set tell audience no one man something incidentally whole family backing end quite easily film couldve gone route sampedro family vs everybody else antiramns idea young acknowledge whats really going others seemingly distraught even opinion want ramn stick around bit longer love allbr br the sea inside following story revolving around victim sorts ramn quadriplegic perspective see things from something may disjoint viewers film come across quite odd given presented film point view victim rather instigator lead character film always inducing cause cause effect drive criticism credit director delivering approach effective manner is film asks questions offers scenario audience ramns position would do think dream talk about consequently dreams lawyer juila rueda much shot audiences pleasure much ever slight window one mans escapist fantasies predicamentbr br the study julia intensifies somewhat later begins share certain similarities ramn begins strokes result disease own trait seems timely progression relationship adds ingredient connection top already engaging friendship julia feels physical pain restriction sense able get walk think realises value life given emotionally bad felt beforehand film based true story covers subject euthanasia feels like earth drama man situation prepared fight wants must verbally refreshing see films like sea inside references history gives us insight stand alone film delivers emotional engaging level,0 honestly put existenceso many things happened life lately pushes ending all drug addict sister abused parents hospital baby severe health issues due drug use pushed mom finals mediocre grades im years graduating even though graduated year financial debt got mostly racked school letting boyfriend take advantage me im still abusive relationship years ago recent ex take seriously abusive relationship opened old wounds fell madly love someone terrible again broke thinking going life without makes feel alone honestly life gotten better ive gotten used disappointment grief loneliness im think im finally going kill end year,1 posting everyday get girlfriend day random joke time man walks bar ouch,0 cant stop hurtingi cant stop pain inside turned self harming help deal depression low moods thats turned unhealthy cant stop self harming find pleasurable im fixated going harder deeper cant stop know do whats point all life shit maybe cut deeper find another way relieve pain,1 everything gets worsti came home worst emotionally draining semester college friday supposed fresh start transferred schools left horrible shitty friends behind blocked them everything got worst friends spent semester stealing me ripping work taking advantage stupid fucking personality car put fried sister top coolant weeks destroyed engine cannot afford new car live town public transit job process background check cannot find another job applied thirty bank account cannot afford prescriptions new glasses rent also lost scholarships due administrative fluke old university im tired dont understand nothing runs smoothly even moderately okay im sick feeling like dont exist,1 In dorking looking at houses ,0 lets start review notredflag note glad decide wimp tony shot retrospective season like people rumoring actually creator writer episode david chase quite opposite actually know tony live die hes coma chances recovering slim none episode seemed move slow coma induced dream tony involving mistaken identity robed asian monks slapping sht absolutely flatout weird minutes got little sick everyone grieving shouldn reason slam episode weird unpredictable episode still wellwritten intense edie falco gave astounding careerdefining performance episode conflicted wife face husbands couldbe demise also found interesting aj dropped school swore vendetta junior aj likely balls pull off silvio actingboss opens numerous doors problems later episodes lot great quips episode also think vito polesmoker spadafore may meet demise keeps greedy sobbr br this great episode disappointed even though tony kills people audience adore feel hero show necessary episode series even though little snore inducing towards conclusion kudos edie falcos performance david chase writers creating wholly original unpredictable plot twist season the sopranos fcking clue going go cant wait next weeks episode rating br br best line episode paulie aj lets go van helsing,0 i m and i ve wished i wa dead for the last two year of my life i pushed away all of my friend who could understand what i m going through i m failing all my class because all of my motivation and hope is drained i don t feel like i can tell anyone what i m really going through i had all the making of a perfect childhood i wa smart i had friend and i had a good family with enough money to live in a nice suburban neighborhood i threw all of it away because suddenly i didn t feel wanted any longer i don t know what to do anymore the thing ive used to cope are slowly being taken away in the hope my grade will rise i ve become emotionally numb to everything around me i don t think i ll ever find love because of how quiet and secluded i ve become i ve stopped trying to make thing better in my life i just needed to get some of this out so thanks,1 part journey end mi think ready go think im depressed suffer mental health issues time thought death comforting me im always tired mentally emotionally physically seems like would nice drift away nothingness rather grind way corporate america work rest life killed climate change bs look forward getting bag helium making final goodbye messages hope good years earth im ready rest now part journey end tony stark endgame ,1 voice chat intimidating find hard talk great games play teambased,0 @mitvan Lol. Too true. I'm going to Cornwall with Mum next Wednesday for a week but apart from that I'm free x,0 american boy jesse took train vienna order take plane usa train met french girl celine although met first time talked like good friends train stopped vienna jesse begged celine accompany tour vienna romantic story unfoldedbr br at first cautious funniest scene listening cd music store peeked other though eyes contact indepth conversation relationship became close saw romantic scene pretended call respective friend deep love expressed completely wordsbr br love strange thing really want it come wished love needs mutual understanding without it love last long spiritual harmony important lovebr br excellent screenplay performance resulted huge success moviebr br one best romance movies ,0 lmao someone come slap the depression out of me pls n thx,1 @lodoconv I happen to enjoy quarterly podcasts much less demanding on my attention :p,0 turns friend really socially anxious afraid texting people decided gonna text help practice idea start texting realized feel pretty much exact discomfort starting conversations people text decided would start texting lot help normalize wed comfortable texting people dont get wrong im totally board idea dont know start dont want feel like texting sake texting even thats actually doing want feel like actually talking friends dont know natural way,0 set stoneat pm everyone ignored pm cried help feeling upset one cared am threw im still throwing am im love someone love someone little background girl played fucked emotionally three years dated days cheated couple times left tried better im obsessed every shell come back like wants keep fucking leash im rambling probably making sense im upset love ex fuck ex girl driving insane im love want slit fucking wrists tools fuck alyssa,1 cant take anymore want outim tired living want anymore ive depression anxiety since young struggle matter great life is theres always sadness looming me anxiety makes much worse sad im lonely too depression anxiety internal im sad im anxious might fuck things up enter suddenly top depression anxiety ptsd like depression anxiety except external hundred times worse addition anxious might fuck things up im anxious someone else might fuck me up im sad like myself im sad people awful may four years since started going downhill still feels like one help me one fucking takes problems seriously even therapist everyone treats like im normal like nothing happened im expected keep functioning like normal human being except im not raped fucking ptsd top depression anxiety like one gets that one understands especially family especially rest society even get started stigma comes along mental illness regardless whether caused someone fucking raping you ive taken staying cooped inside apartment avoiding everyone either dick around internet play sims sleep day thats even working anymore despite trying stay subs im likely see things triggering still end seeing shit like thishttpswwwredditcomrindiemakeupandmorecommentsvzsa_major_rant_about_insomnia_cosmetics almost every single comment urging people understanding sympathetic invisible illnesses downvoted oblivion reminded everywhere go people understand like suffer people make worse telling ought able even tell cant cant cant live like this,1 movie shows many feelings emotions strong personal atmosphere movie tense sad really get clear picture main character going through responding world around him think great movie everybody see itbr br ,0 Oh how I love pink lemonade ,0 @JoshFittell i do what i can. whats up? so bored.,0 @shiiilah Great t-shirt! ,0 mileycyrus awww u seriously have the cutest dog miley sorry your not with her now hope u get some sleep xoxo,0 moony 9 i think i will be even more in denial after i watch,0 @RuiSeabra So any product that's not free is automatically "fail?" Remind me not to write software for a living. ,0 reminded actually talk mental health issues sort traumatic history no whoops talk so support mental health awareness ladeeda people going leave hanging thread best reach actually say struggling bad posted reexperiencing trauma social media,1 guess favorite colour shoot,0 century long debate finally resolved glass half empty full glass half full empty need thank,0 tonight nightevery day adult life total shit real friends girlfriend family cares fuck keep trying tonight night im gonna end make suffering stop simply reasons left keep trying good bye,1 "Today I'm celebrating my 13th wedding anniversary with Noell. Lucky for me, I'm having the time of my life with her. ",0 hmm so the sun shining brightly thru my curtain lit up my room n woke me up cnt sleep nw 0 is way too early to wake up,0 stressed crying know do trying save money good sudden minecraft realms subscription literally fucking cancelled got charged im mad sad stressed filed chargeback paypal even go microsoft site says cant cancel im assuming already did anyways im breakdown finally something good control got fucking ruined fml,0 i m f been struggling with depression for almost 0 yr i ve noticed that in recent year i ll have a or week long period of feeling so depressed i can hardly function followed by a few day or usually where i feel normal i m talking high energy normal appetite have a hard time sitting still easier to sleep thru the night etc just wondering if this happens to anyone else i don t think it s mania it just feel so drastically different from my usual depressed state,1 every day getting worsehey guys created account post without followers seeing mental state in im broken nobody talk friends leave every time talk once girl dreams denied everything hurts thinking redflag much person age worried im gonna something myself,1 "Just got back from seein "Drag Me To Hell>" It was pretty cool, love Samn Raimi. had an Army of Darkness feel to it. Seen preview for HBP ",0 thought interplay crystal devito great movie rather wall unforgettable lines ramsey momma vulgar top also funny effective character pretty awful else would someone entertain thoughts killing mother crystals wife slut everyone would like receive comeuppance thus role though minor also effective justify crystals ridiculous case writers block certainly dark moments movie depressing and despite murderous urges protagonists feel redeeming qualities toobr br overall one funniest movies remember one mind watching several times,0 davidkudrev it s just a pity that facebook chat ha exceeded even msn s amazingly level of unreliability,0 materbated first timeand feel like shit feel disgusting ugly im lonely anti social dont ask masterbated answer abvious i want distract fucking head,1 fuck happened ok guy ive known maybe half year now reached said likes me know im dude like person lot really romantic way say normal friendlike either cant put finger it know respond thought gay before im beginning question sexual orientation tips,0 theres much cant stop cryingits new years eve cant help reflect theres much need change myself im overweight shorttempered immature thinkingreactions receive respect siblings friends elders made seriously stupid mistakes past ended less mediocre graduate school seriously affect future career opportunities want wellread want get involved three hobbies im interested in cant cant trying get high marks school make past mistakes crumble weight want take on throw sibling whos clinically depressed brings endless amounts stress torment family severalyear long ldr woman plan marry cant plans us finally one another another years theres much take on ive tried time time make progress balance life change attitude everything falls apart weeks point fall cyclical rut depression lock room days crying regretting hating life live guy like come along much farther have many friends actually theyre excelling fit making huge strides professional personal lives am fat lazy unmotivated moron cant seem make step progress damn direction deal jealousy motivating achieve goals saying everything happens moot several decades live itd nice ended,1 want die meant liveit make sense im alive want alive anymore seems like everyone okay it ive never close family all seen since january multiple members family passed away recently find facebook posts mother asked money whole life parents yelling asking money forcing inhale second hand smoke drink money food away college constantly struggle feed myself pay insane bills work go school deal faculty university constantly rude friends anymore either moved away decided depression makes useless them called best friend told goodbye good mad negative ive professionals year summer none helped made things worse one even try told everything going through said nothing almost minutes asked pick issue weighing most couldnt decided end session even know im posting this experience well meaning people internet pretty much saying sorry saying generic line telling one specific thing yelling tell possible mei already tried get yelled at even told kill multiple times morning hate hearing it gets better people treat phrase like magic spell thats supposed instantly make feel better said maybe im posting goodbye cant even bring talk everything seethe point ive heard gets better time heals much long believe that tried every long day sleepless night make things better second ever talk issues often get told im weak im trying im negative want happy childhood mistakes parents made depression cutting scars everything make others happy high school life got worse kept it whenever people want entertain energy im issue im better dead want anything life anymore want keep surviving think time,1 vegetables im eating right salty im going finish still edible guess,0 kind want dieim really gonna anything it too redflagy post rself going here throwaway one person knows handle id rather risk it yeah im want die brother whos im even though hes fucking torments me get really really upset sad way like im pissed him sound like whiney teenager even though right now thats am nothing ever done it hes got bad attitude hes horrible everyone even mom hates hes youngest child hes always gonna extra leeway older brother never had know im older im expected extra work responsibility never stuff age hes lazy really honestly annoying makes fun stupidest shit like mom pick dog poop th july party its not today brother laughing calling names luckily mom made job took away phone week even still stop giving shit anyways enough talk brother lost person ive ever loved like died talked since took concert kissed end night even first time kissed rd time like like place guess holding hands whole night bought wore matching shirts ffs know im wrong kissing im definitely saying entitled feel like least deserved explanation im hoping love someone romantically again im basically aromantic romantically attracted him really like identities anyways aromantic description guess ugh people ask talk like illness im broken im interested romantic relationships dad oh god hes awful like calling dad mom got divorce went city across state could take concert hes horrible like ive finally realized hes really actually emotionally abusive im crybaby gaslighting horrible like compassion fear feetsockssome shoes like cant within feet sure af cant touch them getting laundry dropped sock even clean ones freak ok asked pick bit shaky reluctantly avoid yelled at guess what still yelled at saying clean knew pointless try explain cried also dog allergic dogs anything it let sleep thats it sick whoooole trip wanted die sick anymore dog staying another days clearly important wellness thanks dad guess suppose im live buys things try make shittiness early life know hes still shitty got weezer concert doc martens trip pretty cool crying time wasnt feel like mentioned earlier cut burned long ass time started like stopped january st time got psych ward near redflag attempt go know im glad didnt thing gotten better worse since then one best friends since th grade were going junior year hs right now like person world talk wanting exist general suicidal ideation trusts kill id trust ever thought might hurt make attempt know loves lot love too cant help feel paranoid might actually like me know get along family feels like never really have were horribly incompatible point healthy us living together im im gonna stuck least go college like years less feel like living worth effort im even afraid die anymore thats depressed long done me sorry wall text thanks anyone whos read much,1 in the last 0 day i lost the love of my life my home my cat my job and my will to live today i got covid so now i cant even look for a new job so i ll lose the new apartment got no friend some family but they dont care i m out of reason to continue help,1 im really depressed dont know go iti wake feel depressed work school meaningless tried welcoming someone new friend group essentially broke up im lonely school horrible dont know do cant kill dont want people sad feel like make people happy forget myself personality point continuing life,1 simpsons predict future world us becoming dumb copying script cartoon im middle east way better us countrys government breaking apart joke sad truth,0 i feel like i m going to go in a bad place mentally i keep trying to rationalize i can t control what others do but i can control what i think and how i behave it s hard the last time my anxiety wa this bad i ended up in the er i don t want to get that bad again but it s so hard i hate my mind i know that this anxiety is just going to put me into a deep depression,1 @tommcfly morning Tom!!! woow i can't believe that u coming to Brazil soon... i'm counting the days for see u here! xoxo,0 sad birthdayi already depressed this rock bottom birthday tomorrow got broken summer plans girl thought loved gone literally friends nobody cares birthday mum wish could die right ,1 feeling depressed dunno ,0 @epiphanygirl hey doll ! can you give @tx_girl the tix for the dallas show tonight?she would really appreciate it ,0 guys actually happened omg stranger offered candy told get van actually got kidnapped also im grave danger please help,0 "@ddlovato Dude! Edward Scissorhands is awesome... but you need to pack, girllll!! Don't forget your toothbrush haha. Have a blast ",0 page one films madhur bhandarkar makes expose societal filth film compelling but like bhandarkars films onesided overly pessimistic film tabloid journalism gossip celebrities film exposes lives socialites whose lifestyle disastrously boastful peculiar repulsive party care nothing fame plan parties funerals craving money higher reputation anything get due exposure media get names boldly printed daily newspapers social column known page huge photographs center peoples discussions attention seeking salacious hypocrite film industry shown sleazy casting couch common phenomenon among filmmakers thats lovely heroine young social column reporter madhvi sharma thrown people mumbais elite depend articles right person befriend parties want mention article later film learn even madhvis friends different highsociety people tough viewing me although film unquestionably brave issues deals interestingbr br the films music average passable songs kitne ajeeb huzooreala sung two melody queens lata mangeshkar asha bhosle respectively otherwise soundtrack bad one song particularly horrendous filmy filmy films writing quite good second half far better first turns matteroffact exposes much important issues terrorism child abuse thats film applauded sad know people prefer ignore crimes fear konkona sen sharmas characters disappointment easy relate to excellent throughout film acting last scenes particularly impressive atul kulkarnis part small full justice it boman irani solid newspapers editor sandhya mridul lovable madhvis sassy roommate pearl marries older man money honest enough admit it films ending really welldone provides certain sigh relief unimaginably tough proceedings page good film interesting times moving level interest general quality marred exaggerated overly messy negative portrayal rich famous,0 drop favorite albums comments im trying listen rate new album every day need recommendations country metal probably wont listen though heres ive already done far rap songs earl sweatshirt forest hills drive j cole miseducation lauryn hill ms lauryn hill mmfood mf doom emma forever ago bon iver undun roots internet childish gambino,0 time end iti think time bother anymore hurts pain alive havent school like months didnt even realise summer break half skipped school months previous that im loser nothing life nothing brings happiness future want goals life friends forget month two anyway mom sad cant live life her collecting anti depressants sometime now think enough todays day goodbye,1 feel anything anymore despite havehi im depressed college student wants diei know sounds typical whats got down schools hard friends family sucks actually no currently gpa enough scholarships pay tuition even get hefty amount whats left directly bank account enough sustain apartment comfortably although still work part time family perfectly functional besides me sister became pediatrician parents work respectable jobs theyre abusive anything friends few ive always preferred done anything wrong wonderful cat whos super loving caring counseler super cool actually believe cares despite that feel anything anymore im completely numb feel despair easy put act convince everyone around perfectly fine ive even tried talking people depression theyre like oh im sure phase smart ive wanting die everyday past year oded weeks ago didnt work obv intentions ended nuisance i took pills mg zolaftsertraline nd thought shouldve downed whole bottle guess question ishow hell fix someone much already people cant believe could possibly depressed much craziest thing know thingsand acknowledge it yet still want nothing sweet release death whats wrong me,1 @imontheroof I'm out and about today sowwy,0 dont know doive mg prozac right hands seriously considering taking it everyone home asleep girlfriwnd qorried havent replying her life absolute bullshit honestly xant continue tjis anymore need one final push,1 @YonkouProd Lots of depression in this thread.,1 Roger Federer's jump to victory! http://tinyurl.com/l8jrt4,0 much painim redflag thoughts cant stop crying boyfriend going shit im trying help verbally emotionally taking me guess realized told leave alone triggered start crying kill thoughts started stop go away think kept much bottled inside coming out typing this stop keep crying cant handle feelings once smothering me,1 "@Troooper Not bad, some things can be fixed but yeh good luck. ",0 please help understandeverything seems pointless well two online courses finish associates degree something name maybe go bachelors saved money thing stopping knowing major want choose want waste money currently job mind going people good often mind staying late help good relations family members keep touch often good friends know me people ask sometimes flattering want relationship guess ive never really wanted one feel close anyone ive tried couple see future want string along relationships everything predictable got tired wouldve rather friend go often meet family members often meals im initiater planner go friend group friends to mainly keep busy stay touch them like board game nights karaoke pick sports games bowling swimming ect social media except facebook go gb data month im almost never phone things like right learning juggle couple minutes day im getting better everyday messing around keyboard acoustic guitar couple minutes hour couple times week take dog dog park walk around neighborhood often often listen focus surroundings walks even general time posses array narcotics never really enjoyed drugs people experience like event planned trip get high whatever see taking future anymore even people think im going throw away give away stopped vigorously exercising became lenient exercise used religious workout routines right actually liquid diet called soylent i eat kinds different foods im people saves money stress eat helps eat excess calories meal plan went doctor physical said blood tests came back normal im healthy weight good blood pressure healthy underlying thought wanting go away like soul wants released body want freedom ultimate freedom want continue living know feel happy sad everything between know failure like know success feels like theres point anymore things middle it often thought im okay died moment actually often get feeling im happy elated state want die happy talking friend asked me what want life answer actually shut down said know stopped talking answering questions stared space changed subject silence exposed desire wanting die course want tell that put spot want life end it im capable anything cant everything im hopeless know potential world help people feel people mostly take advantage ulterior motives relationship know everyone know do almost everything jack trades still learning everything anyone anything trying everything open anything took dialectal behavioral therapy know mindful often use skills come back middle emotions become overwhelming me im seeeing counselor talk stuff week another person trying help another person job maybe right professional councilor enjoy talking her mother wants medication knows thoughts often used prescribed want that want feel again want substances think theyre bad think lot people benefit them personally feel like want altered state mind get it im things trying new things constantly meeting people even moving states soon job things are per say good eyes everyone like want release like im tired tired living see future myself im hopeless know potential want anything anymore want death everything meaningles irrelevant unnecessary ect me know feelings im things always there feeling end near want release expected life feel already foresee get married not kids not employed unemployed everyone else living like said everything predictable turn way expected mind ive thoughts since little theyre occurring becoming increasingly prominent thoughts get older know feel im tired loop like thing interests death know desire death,1 ive realized matter situation people im able socialize anyoneonly two people able make talk interact regularly life happened life anymore last one lost broken way past point return six months still get panic attacks goodbye worst part maybe still someone would able make open up im scared trying cant deal another goodbye im lonely nobody matter good intentioned help me want scream help cry someone else know feel like outcast among outcasts even live for nothing im good human contact im able socialise hurts much cant deal anymore cant tried meds professional help nothing works im tired,1 im already feel old like again,0 someone gifted sub twitch ok literally watching girl like mins dont even follow bored looked notifs someone gifted sub her lmao pointless whatever,0 @ashsimpsonwentz hey how are you?,0 amazing people lowest low console othersall sit say same,1 sure even posting here redflag recently entered mind living alone first time miles anyone cares mei sure intend achieve writing lonely hell redflag crossed mind tonight want feel way,1 want get helpi want quick fixes want distract inevitable death want someone talk to sort problems situational existential nature want done ive reached hotlines ive gone therapybut useless cant even hold job let alone get one now debilitating depression low selfesteem want feel cold embrace death want experience last dying gasp cross emptiness nature become one firmament waste spacea machine longer function lost ability lost survive all machines anyway soulless world method conducting redflag finger buy button amazon speak least say used money something positive oh yeah student loans shove it ,1 m i have been dealing with depression anxiety panic attack for 0 year and also have adhd i kind of suck at everything i am failing my rd university almost have no social life have no girlfriend for year no job no goal and no achievement i have been trying to get my life together for year i quit alcohol and cannabis completely i am working out regularly forcing myself to socialize and learn new skill and trying to date failing miserably i am only successful at quitting drug which i can relapse anytime i suffer month of a year have some good day so what is the point of living if i won t be happy and achieve anything what kind of man i am who can not attract a woman and never be able to and why do i bother to live if i am failing every job i took and every university i went to i always feel lonely hate myself and can t look at the mirror anymore i am about to give up but i can t decide please answer objectively thanks,1 i wish i had the kind of depression that knocked me out for a few week at a time so that maybe people would actually realize i m not doing that well but instead i m the olympic champion at masking,1 got free award reddit first one comment gets it sry everyone isnt first ,0 man do crime society woman s he is a criminal he is a monster bla bla bla woman do crime from decade society woman s itself it s depression it s self defence woman would defend anything done by their fellow sister http t co mk j c jsh http t co zjbnbowzjn,1 @jenluit thanks! i really appreciate the feedback. i'll be submitting at least 2 a week so keep checking back for more if you like. ,0 ventingi want sit around read play video games stay reddit long explore new york city cant without money cant earn enough money without working hard it work boring college coming im getting lazy want end things cant lazy enjoy things want anymore things continue time enjoy things either way im loss hate unable stand pressure real world,1 hey posting throwaway account obvious reasons also english first languagebut graduated last year school feel really hopeless like idk schools out really know personality want do school faking am class clown etc get accepted make friends went pretty rough break first girlfriend year ago break able perform bed girls performance redflag ultimately led wanting anything girls tried viagra etc work time could get redflag become worsenow alone room hopeless wishing could sleep forever like motivation anything end drinking andor smoking weed watch youtubenetflix job like something do soon leave feel really whack hoping someone could give encouragement support insecure depressed,1 so i ve been browsing this sub for a while don t have much to do today so i figured i might a well vent on here i guess to introduce myself i m currently and just recently left the active duty army to attend college on an rotc scholarship about month ago prior to that i wa deployed to afghanistan for about 0 month it s almost hard to even recall the person i used to be back then i wa so mentally strong and confident in myself and my purpose ironically despite working hour day seven day a week under constant threat of getting blown up i can t remember a time when i wa better off mentally like nothing in the world could stop me a i had a plan and wa going to stick with it and if i did end up getting murked i wa just fine with that too i stayed pretty safe for the most part although i did have a pretty close call with a rocket that landed in a ditch on the hill below the building i worked in it obviously scared the ever living fuck out of me and everyone else but after like 0 minute we were all laughing about how close that one wa and how if only the stupid guy had aimed higher he would have got u the whole affair really only strengthened my resolve and made the return home that much better getting back to the state wa probably the best moment of my life even if it wa right in the middle of covid lol i don t want to sound like i m trying to flex my great strength or anything i m just trying to describe who i wa then to who am i now a they aren t even remotely the same person problem started to arise for me around month after getting back after the novelty of being back home wore off i started to experience this weird sense of dissociation and depressive episode that would sometimes last for an hour to a day and then i would suddenly snap back to what i considered a normal state of mind these normally entailed feeling of hopelessness and dread like something in my head just wasn t ticking right and when it came to social situation it wa like i wa operating on a different frequency than everyone else like i could hear and understand them but there wa no emotion behind the word it wa distracting but manageable at that point and i just chalked it up to being burned out at work and figured once i got off active duty and into college thing would greatly improve fast forward to the first semester of college and unfortunately thing have not gone a i imagined in term of school and finance i m doing fine and everything is going according to plan externally but internally i seem to be slowly degrading bit by bit the depressive episode became more intense to the point where i would physically lock up tighten my muscle grind my teeth and it feel like my head is throbbing from all the negative thought it is nearly impossible to sleep in this state thanks to the extreme anxiety but then i would wake up the next morning and feel fine barely being able to remember how i felt the night before the cycle never stopped though and then the thought of well if you just ended it this wouldn t be a problem anymore started to kick in and that s when it really started to snowball downhill fast at this point in time it feel like i m in this depressive state nearly all the time it s only a matter of how bad it s going to be today the dissociative feeling have been cranked up to and conversation just feel like emotionless formality i can no longer connect with friend and family the way i used to like i said earlier it s like we re not on the same frequency if that make any sense the thought of suicide are ever present and feel like a big red emergency eject button begging to be pressed the only escape from these feeling are partying drug and alcohol which are great temporarily but eventually everyone go back to their life you sober up and reality slap you in the face even harder than it did last time i ve also developed a very odd fear of human intimacy that i really can t explain for instance i m a virgin which is a huge insecurity of mine and pretty embarrassing i know i always figured when i m in college i ll meet plenty of woman so there s no need to be insecure about it however i ve had several instance where woman have come onto me and i m totally comfortable with the conversation and flirty talk but once it get physical even just them grabbing me it trigger this instant fear and panic response and i make up an excuse and leave in a manic state then beat myself up for the next week about how much of a pussy i am this is honestly one of the major contributor to my broken self image a couple of week ago i randomly started bawling in my car for over an hour and honestly don t even remember why i m not eating much anymore maybe only like one meal a day and my cognitive performance motivation ha declined significantly my sleep schedule is a total mess i ll either sleep for hour and wake up from nightmare in cold sweat or sleep for and not want to get out of bed and face reality what really prompted me to post this though wa that last week i got really drunk and ended up putting a gun to my head without even thinking about it and then i realized what i wa doing that s when i kind of told myself holy shit man this is real and something is very wrong with you i need some kind of help i know but if i m diagnosed with any kind of mental health condition i ll lose my scholarship and i ve just worked too damn hard for it i ve openly told some of my close friend and family directly that i m having suicidal thought but the response is always oh c mon man your way too strong for that or you re just in a slump right now it ll pas a much a i appreciate having people who care for me and appreciate the sentiment it doesn t do much to alleviate anything i feel like i wa never meant to live this long and that that rocket wa supposed to kill me that day but i m living in some kind of an alternate reality where i survived and nothing make sense anymore at least then i could have died strong and confident rather than broken i had a friend who wa killed over there and honestly i wish i could trade place with him he deserves this life more than i do sorry i turned this into an essay but it feel good to get this out of my head for once if you read this long i hope you can relate or at least get something out of it and thank you finally i ll leave you with a song i ve been listening to on repeat for the past week lmao http www youtube com watch v ksjrcczo,1 @ellamorton cool! wish you luck. and hope the rain doesn't dampen your mood. ,0 "Here's what I Know so far.This is what depression does to you, instead of keeping on top of things you just pull the sheets over your head and feck the worldHad the ultra-sound done on my leg, they are happy with that, no circulation problems. However, I have an infection on my",1 upthingy everyones comments except one screw whoever end unworthy will go here hate please ,0 At the station waiting on lauren. Today will be awesome! Jeremy Kyle...your fans are coming! ufft jeans were so not a good idea today!,0 trigger warning read feeling lowi feel like ending things nothing right last year me got jailed lost job loosing loved ones sad used look happiness elsewhere sounds late make changes life now tried medication tried meditation still feel worthless unwanted happiness ever got helping others need help someone listen to do would do,1 lonely self motivation post xpost rlonelymy entire life alone separated rest humanity different sure friends girlfriends one ever stood me everyone went away end cry help one answers constant endless suffering depression anxiety loneliness jealousy complex emotions even understand tearing limb limb slowly chipping away left happiness sure may young still emotions still feel pain everyone tried turn to every time try get help get treated like outcast monster day pain worsens become lonely matter with many people around me ever one person never felt slightest bit loneliness around one special girl turned me like everyone else left lied me broke trust destroyed every last bit hope happiness left everyone sees happy one understands feel may physically young could see goes inside head would understand everything complex confusing mind like tangled mess wires everything feels chaotic messy never ends every day proceed live life desolate lonely room pushing forward trying get by hope one day suffering end want happy much ask one day come back see this see bad show myself things get better beat this keep living keep fighting,1 BigglesWorth: It is relevant to you and is on a good topic for the teachers. -hic-,0 i m trying really hard,1 ive seen nsna ive seen roger moorefilms must say felt good see connery again proves times one bondbr br the film really masterpiece really worth watching jokes sit much better here effects funny interesting connery connery brandauer really good villain von sydow wasted score often good scenes seem pretty unnecessarybr br ,0 interested tech hello everyone want let know exciting opportunity join team fairly new social media brand amp upcoming youtube channel sharing amazing innovations facts tutorials computer science coding variety voluntary roles available many requiring specific skills experience main role currently looking is graphic designers looking graphic designers create interesting informative posts audiences little experience beneficial provide assets post templates training support need roles available wed love discuss individual basis please get touch well see role might suit you ampxb return contribution lots benefits offer respect free time know volunteer work much want to workload generally managed freelance style basis meaning choose work tasks pace training progression amp award opportunities get free access award scheme recognising talent giving extra things boost cv supportive culture want enjoy learning new skills meeting new people helping educate inspire people coding amp computer science more well discuss full benefits package applied ampxb apply please dm leave comment below ill speak likely want progress application week trial team upon completion trial well ask whether want accept permanent position team course end trial position time feel like you thank you look forward reading responses,0 still remember first seeing tv believe tvnz let on it lot humor lost nonnzers give go br br since finishing back series matt chris gone bigger better things nzs greatest daredevil stuntman randy campbell often appeared british tv series balls steel yes still fks stunts drunkbr br also house band deja voodoo since released albums brown sabbath back brown band consists members back team singles i would give one beers but ive got you even born s continue humorbr br the southbysouthwest film festival also featured feature length film the devil made it released early nzbr br all up find guys funny fk off,0 im really scared killing myselfbut also feel like thing need,1 im on val s mac in iitsc clubroom still sweating,0 i just wish i didn t have people and pet that wouldn t be bothered without me i have all the general visible asset of my gender identity but i still know i ll never be a girl,1 nhlanhla lux will mislead you if you have stress and depression of unemployment,1 @crimesinthemosh Was gonna buy plane tix but was convinced to wait a few days to monitor prices. But other than that the trip's confirmed ,0 guys get wave sadness nowhere know fuckkkkkk feel like want die sudden guys situation anyways guys good day,0 I once went to the psych ER for depression and made them release me to myself (not normal practice) instead of a family member so I could stop by the cafeteria and get some food. #bestdayever,1 continue lyrics great edgy teenage years got time got time live got time live cant say goodbye,0 @locaoimh thank you. So how are you comfortable with your intelligence? it was not rhetoric only! ,0 almost lost head farted laughing neck cracked really hard,0 get fucking scared people love leave find someone better get rid fear trust person know wouldnt leave where always back mind im worried ill let hurt relationship,0 this time next week ill be packing ready for the water park WOOOO hope my backs cleared up fully by then... probs wont be :'(,0 url confidential support charity young survivors abuse kind want chat anything visit support forum hang around find member support staff such myself best support whatever going through based dundee scotland uk supported survivors world local willing make trip centre dundee talk volunteers support staff person,1 @hollyknowsbest they were good on friday. but there bass player wasn't there. so they did it all acoustic :'] was good ,0 someone family not saying personal reasons thinks mr bean always silly whatever comedy series imagine felt time shocked instantlybr br there reasons one love watching mr bean one earliest shows local television country first grew watching one things stuck head even friends talked selected episodes laughed togetherbr br its always silly funny hilarious whatever antics rowan atkinson mr bean episode though lately times may show repeats here never failed bring back childhood memories mine fact dare say first show introduces kind shows come uk growing upbr br the comedy seriesdefinitely really wicked brits may saying,0 boyfriend redflag planive never posted feel loss cant seem find anything online similar figured id post bit backstory boyfriend years called work monday saying checking mental health hospital knew roughly would still shock me wasnt days later opened said made plan chose weapon decided therapy session didnt want anymore weird spot didnt necessarily attempt redflag damn close closer ever could imagined started new job bakery month ago happened ive hard time coping everything told boss probably back following monday fast forward friday get call one friends helped get job saying work team trying understanding think friend thinks im immature irresponsible going work friend even went far enough say maybe strong enough boyfriend since find go work this guess im asking advice friend said work talking cutting hours since ive shown im reliable even though happened never much shown late called out would do feel loss yes realize working know face work especially knowing annoyed me,1 spent six years abusive relationship child together born made way out ended fleeing several houses apartments trying stay away him theres long history,1 want say woman pussy im cool that woman dick im cool that guy dick im cool that guy pussy im cool that enby dick im cool that enby pussy im cool that person people parts im cool that please love,0 scroll anything putting feels though helping never able sleep every night lay brain runs runs runs hours every time know lot people lot people know me still dont friends im unique im average average used sports dont best thing im smart doesnt really matter i feel insignificant even though categorized existential crisis common doesnt make emptiness leave idk feel im losing emotion im definitely sad im happy either however feel found passion dirt biking rode almost entire life never good thing however went riding today feel helped me solo ride around hour two music in idk think im going continue path feel im able pull mood thats lasted way long maybe ill end going back old me happy friends liked,0 carrots and hummous mmmmmmm http://tinyurl.com/rcynho,0 damn im cold windy tho feels chilly idk brrrrrrr u feel,0 "@PreDivorcePower More like outer circle, not inner circle...stepping back from a lot of distractions, thankfully. ",0 late night tired galaxy brain go deal vampire werewolf would use silver stake wooden bullet,0 "@shradz congrats! but don't get into fights! on a street fight, an ordinary belt is probably a more useful weapon ",0 hate awards supposed give awards spite,0 redflag vegas final chapteri know lame op deliver especially know right begging pull figurative trigger ive seen beautiful crosssection humanity last hours im hopeless position im end resources ive tried positive thinking reaching friends like nothing helping came back guys sorry gender specific pronoun actually helped last night wrestle fact still think desperate plea attention even worse attempt guerrilla marketing struggling writer lack success intentions last night paints unfavorable light get that shit bothers too gets right even solve problems listed previous entry im still pretty doomed heres another desperate cast sea lowliness feel struggling find reason keep going responded previous post please take personally im really hoping see efforts wasted im asking help situation tonight dire before though id fault equate boy cried wolf help,1 would like hear guys opinionssoo dont really know start im eager talk led state im lets say ive knew day would come day eventually fact suicidal since years old cant set thoughts straight think dark thoughts real dark unsettling rage inside wants burst out emotions gone except rage dont think ive ever loved someone makes feel so empty exhausted lonely ive never attempted redflag done basically wishing someone would kill free feel like waste life didnt ask born wish never was dont know do really dont drive left motivation dreams whatsoever theres emptiness inside me except rage thing kept alive years fuel im tired rage fuel tired dont know posted since internet probably shittiest place open to id like hear thoughts anyone else feeling way know im special theres probably thousand feeling way clue make it im open discuss anyone wants to,1 is hopefully getting some sushi for dinner tonight! ,0 i measure my depression by the amount of my ex's tshirts im able to wear in one week,1 know really bothers people decide shower right specific time ive showering past years reason like either already showered shower dont time morning plenty time stay super late shower pm every single night theyre excuse oh thought id time get unspoken schedule years break hell earth made shower couple minutes less brush teeth oops ok gn bothering currently needed complain good day,0 "Who Likes The Show Ghost Hunter(taps)? Do You Believe The Stuff ...: SugrNspyce4 said,. June 5, 2009 @ 10:37 .. http://bit.ly/FZdfY",0 awards dumb would someone spend literal money something gives nothing makes someone feel slightly happy honestly baffling,0 He did care about her depression and ptsd but he was a teenager not a trained psychologist. He was doing his best with what ina... — I know. He's a Gemini and we don't know how tf to comfort people. That's why they weren't right f... https://curiouscat.me/swiftlyheatonx/post/429965499?1524681522 …,1 but first the other workathlon set of management account one after the other,0 i have no one i m alone that s why abuser target me no one care about me if i had someone that wouldn t happen,1 yall dumb enter exact time microwave likeeee simple spam start add sec button reaches time u wantttttttt duhhhhhhhhhhhh,0 ok guys unpopular opinion time vegetable pizza far superior regular cheese pizza,0 "MSN just went BLAAAAAAH! meh, thats why I like Skype better ",0 "every muscle in my body is sore from weights which is great,but i have some damn middle ear problem! whinge whinge haha ",0 chronic intractable pain redflagthe doctors helping anymore know do crying wheelchair pleading quality life meaningless seemingly everyone honestly reason im still is fear end life painful pain dealt every day honestly much coward anything falling asleep never waking back up thought waking indefinite amount days months years knowing night get less hours sleep wake gasping pain heart racing sit awful painmoan sounds like demons hear eraampe sometimes cannot that thought im stuck everyone around healthy fine almost perfect life wake every morning new hell makes angry want hurt others thats terrifying never want anyone suffer even fraction like have ever know else do think turning hospital saying im much pain want kill myself earn anything psych ward stay least hour hold doubt psych ward would clear able go physical issues id probably get thrown top floor embarrassing days never able return hospital bc nurses think im crazy never take seriously again sort options live waking hell constant physical pain make attempt probably agony might even fail leave mangled ive never less idea carry living,1 im depressed alcoholic im ready diedepression scrapes surface im diagnosed ocd bpd every single day feels like living hell dont think keep going like this lot issues main diagnosis include severe social anxiety bordering agoraphobia major depression im sick living like this thing keeping alive right family dont want put that part feels like theyd better though mental health become debilitating last years cant even work turned mooch grandparents live cant function like normal human being ive tried therapy medication nothing helps feel lost stuck getting current situation point do failed college mental illness live small town finding job almost impossible social anxiety makes even daunting cant hardly even go grocery store point dont know point feel helplessness like im drowning way out im stuck thoughts waking moments way get relief alcohol hard see light end tunnel feel deep id better dead,1 basically gave hints maybe one day could happy someone else mentioned he said want happy someone else respond care replied never said before numb sad surprised life keeps getting worse seems like dealing shit full job damn planet daily routine thought that falling love last time could help me thought time would different not sad quiet lonely shy it empty see that nothing good happens me know heart since kid knew today bones yes nothing good happens get better know yesterday secretly scared boyfriend might like anymore buttoday true know nothing like many facts that conclusion deserve life one bfore never going be nothing drama daily routine,1 always smell like victorias secret amp weed lil bit rly became stoner chick always dreamed woooooow ok pretty lame honestly,0 "@1capplegate Yep, to repeat/quote someone's tweet. ",0 rough life start with years old birthday less month turn today way home movies dropping friend pouring backing ran large rock size large basketball realize timeso drove home smelled burning got home saw rock still lodged underneath car destroying radiator key components believe totaled would third car totaled past years father extremely redflaged think ever let drive car again redflaged college well little desire continue due lack able focus money recently girl love left got new guy still think every day know kills me nothing want live anymore seriously considering ending life cannot deal redflag anymore want free feel like financial burden family feel like future feel like never find love again eyes nothing know would hurt family would save lot money redflag long run many real friends talk to close family members listen like trapped myself cannot take anymore think really going this cannot take anymore need help driving isane think time,1 freaking years old therapist need asking brushed fking teefersi want know felt ask want know intricate detail emotions going head asked thati mean put position client oral hygiene practice due never something reinforced child going head get ready ask questioni want ask brushing teeth twinge insecurity words say want put much pressure client maybe make cutsie sound quite badly maybe feel like treating like child essentially is grown manchild brush teeth maybe sneak slight dig motivate morethose immediate thoughts come mind yet use word teefers time later session attempt compliment deep discussions usually thinks very smart yeah one things like other one things belong let us realistic,1 garbage truck guys important planet along fireengine guys doctors without politicians really notice much difference without garbage cleaners collectors world would shit place,0 required reallymy eyes burn weeping clawing hand weeps too walls around closing in suffocating im going die here prison mind prison mirrors merciless,1 @emgrant hey there sorry missed your tweet from Saturday & there are always plenty more fridays Trip going well but so busy. How are u?,0 watched debate america like this wanted live quiet life fucking happened,0 @samjmoody Pls tweet this to make it trendy! #mcflyforgermany #mcflyforgermany #mcflyforgermany #mcflyforgermany #mcflyforgermany,0 know athletes right im struggling weight need low calorie filling meals eat ideas,0 american please make sure parents registered vote also possibly can post serious posts here ill keep quick ampxb democracy important want political family affect outcome im canadian cant american make sure parents aunts cousins everyone is,0 @meg_mcbride I've had depression for over twenty years. I love hearing about people who've recovered.,1 im done everythingthis throwaway incase actually quite old one ive lost years worth data life recently went really downhill me every small wrong thing causes feel like it everything goes wrong good thing happend well yeah bullied practically half life ive enough get random calls like everyday someone laugh go like oiii go kys school get followed get told thing theres nobody trust everyday ive felt like ending it soon slowly start actually ending feel like heyheheyehey like every suicidal thought goes away second want commit redflag im tired living want peace god exists please look friends family especially mentally ill people,1 obtained anime woman yea thats basically,0 transgender redflag hotlineif anyone transgender needs someone listen please use this trans need it please share someone may need it theyll see httpsiimgurcomtytjpg,1 @fascicinate i can hide in your suitcase ,0 thing prevents starving fat ugly is im much lazy piece shit p r b l e m,0 see point life made wonderous thing people cant seem see thatill start asking question point life reading this everyone seems different answers question none seem right me im years old depression past two years so overweight originally believed reason depression started going gym eating healthier way combat this actually made amazing progress far im still unhappy though clearly issue cant believe im naive thought thing wrong currently second year college uk pretty much dropped point attended now days go on im discovering useless thing call life is ive failed education im struggling find job money name whatsoever around see successful people fucking hate much much envy others wish could people possible thing anymore tried ive given caring days nobody speak seems understand that mind dropping planet right peace finally still feel though hope me need find life means me thats issue hand maybe time may come soon maybe later life wish something would take away now deal thoughts feelings,1 goodnight post idk im anyones gonna see rn shitty sleeping schedule am im typing rn wanna change starting today guys chill say goodnight youd like tell something weird oddly interesting facts goodnight sweet dreams lovely evening day night ps ps even mean anyways might often see continue knows die something,0 im fucking stressed cant seem relaxi already feel like piece shit knowing months ive unemployed ive gotten two interviews didnt get either jobs years kitchen year bar backing experience fast paced bar and ive freelance dog sittingwalking fucking years ask grandmother money asked what again calmly reiterated she one told get bar would pay everything shes going back offer now need find job im seriously even slightly holding well right now im fucking depressed piece shit havent able drag bed walk dog days seems mind much still need odin get groomed tomorrow nails clipped thats money bone chew im taking exam tomorrow disability center one exam today final paper due pm didnt even read book havent money buy any fucking libraries now totally pull final ass literally passion its deaf culture class im asl interpreting student theres like literally like online resources even give small synopsis book definitely work with im gonna hate since im super unprepared im piece shit person wants die,1 family got mad asking sister shes eating mozzarella cheese straight bag wasnt even am gotta least past midnight start eating shredded cheese,0 sometimes wish never born dont want end itnot yet anyway,1 need help listened pekoras aquas bgm like minutes im pretty sure brain melted,0 "@GayleConnell What kind of business are you working on? I saw your tweet to @jcloake she recommended Joel Bauer, a friend of mine. ",0 life & style is dumb. "Twilight heartthrob Robert Pattinson cozies up to a blonde in Cannes - what will his crush Kristen Stewart think?" ,0 @N can you invite me ? ,0 well went purpose lifejust forget it worthless ever sw,1 diagnosed bipolar disorder ii due financial problem able continue medication year also cannot afford therapy country health insurance mental healthfor part year feel like really need medication anymore well cured really bipolar all days even feel strangely positive hopeful even though pretty much given life even non depressive state days like this paralyzed past hurts unable move on thought move things depressed comes rushing backi trying psyche myself think positively giving headache brain constantly feeds failures inadequacy try feed positive thoughtsbut feel tired want think anymorei just empty empty,1 hellogoodbye will be walking-distance from my house in exactly 8 hours! too bad I cant go.,0 Depression and drug addiction don't blend,1 sister saying mids time thing f sister college saying everything mids dont understand why didnt think old college years ago way thing right reaction everything saying mids good bad middle mids drop keys thats mids line long mids uses insult well youre mids dont mids,0 year old here i hate myself so much i wish i could be different more motivated i wish i wasn t so skinny i wish i could be braver funnier more fun to be around more cool more outgoing and calm i m an anxious loser who stress over everything but doesn t try and be better i wish girl would talk to me thats all i want a girl to like me i wish i could feel the happiness of someone liking me,1 @DawnRichard Wow Thats So Nyc And Motivating...Thnx ,0 bored guess im really feeling like taking scissors clippers cutting hair rn even care looks bad right im thinking mohawk cutting bangs right hairline sounds cathartic know awful idea,0 assumes it wasnt so taboo to start an email with "LOL" considering that the reply it got started with "ROFL. 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I love the internet! ,0 deserve liveif died right noone would carei real friendsi always start conversations get dry responses i feel comfortable around females emotional abuse mom put left usi never find love i keep getting reminded everyday failure disappointment parents compared siblingsi first suicidal thought afraid grades good enough parents this probably end soon,1 sadly available dvd yet worth pursuing tcm vhs secretary believes boss wrongly accused murder courageously takes many dangerous characters effort establish truth movie many twists dark alleyways none mention jazz band sequence heroine seeks information killer one erotic scenes hollywood history despite low budget made wwii black white despite low budget long island looks somewhat mountainous movie original style outstanding vision ella raines great actress discovered howard hawks knew much matters casting feistiest women joanne dru hepburn angie dickinson lauren bacall ann sheridan era robert siodmak one several german hungarian czech filmmakers sirk wilder zinnemann lubitsch curtizlang etc migrs relocated hollywood brought highly original fresh vision them sadly ella raines never given great part again eventually ended poorly produced westerns,0 overdosing win wineither im going die yay might damage brain enough point stop overthinking everything even better end bedridden life,1 is drinking coffee and sorting things out ,0 isnt weird crave something youve never ive never relationship yet wishing someone next,0 for awhile i ve been having thought like these i ve spoken to my therapist and i can t really say she s said much i m trying to make it become a bigger topic but these thought seem so weird and i m not sure how to deal with them it s really extreme stuff too i don t see anyone forgetting like i will literally sit there and be like what if i cheated on my boyfriend and just don t remember it you people reading this probably think i m so stupid but it can t just be me,1 psychotic break best thing happened mefor life operated highlow basis manic would act physically emotionally impulsively manipulatively would sink lowest lows months later get bed shower take care basic needs convinced unworthy manic powered thoughts selfworth surprised people wanted around me clung semblance acceptance could would manipulate situations benefit feel like shit depressive episode came along took millionth suicidal intention mixed manic phase urge check institution insurance cover mental health knew last day didnt best friend ended relationship years way hospital text medication prescribed earlier year working me instead muffling depression brought redflag knowing would it planning would happen rose water drowning hour morning knew time better medication mood stabilizer given life back still working fallout finally hope reaching friends spoken years talking strangers internet going movies myself enjoying instead fearing time myself trust again happy confident ever hope guys proud here need someone talk to know here,1 method im almost readyive decided method im finally ready ill go pharmacy buy bottle insulin inject hundred units ill go hypo never wake up completely painless ive already accidental went hypo before life completely went shit ive lost everything past months think redflag basically every minute every day wish way wish could live life had go back time thats going happen time coming soon,1 saying hi reminding drink water every day till get girlfriend day hi hope great remember drink water stay hydrated,0 im scared ifwhen boyfriend breaks kill myselfso boyfriend together almost four months amazing helped lot reason im still here unsure everything im scared feelings girl met week ago talking problems idea even am talkin breaking said tries fix everything still meet talk feel like avoiding me hate wondering wrong im scared alone severe anxiety attacks time now breaks me dont anyone likely kill myself trapped broken scared him means world helped many problems feel like im first priority like doesnt care anymore sorry rant,1 @markhundley hey Mark...today was GREAT! hope so for you too! happy monday by time you see this ,0 well hello depression pic.twitter.com/kAAilckxtx,1 need advice trying find things cannot signs depression advice cannot cry anymore also,1 question girls height matter always wondered friends never answer need know im pretty tall age,0 hate myselfi really know im like this want live know im seriously unmotivated want disappear like long time im stressful feel like im piece trash deserve live many times wanted kill myself im coward pitiful it would like gun quickly die without suffering worst im affortunate lot things feel satisfied me thing like play videogames even know satisfaction long got depressed again attention deficit torture anything feel like im inferior people feel like everyone else things want later ther goes thoughts im trash stupid worthless shuld die hate myself little mistake something demostrate im piece trash sorry english maternal lenguage,1 "Interesting and needed read for men with sons, men who are coaches, mentors, father figures to young men/boys, AND adult men who are struggling with loneliness, depression, despair- identifying the problem is tough but will bring you the freedom you seek https://twitter.com/LilaGraceRose/status/988958507465564160 … pic.twitter.com/p17NyFIzxK",1 feeling worthless take years figure im addictim doctor prescribed benzos benzos since im guess im depths withdrawal keep reliving whole life new pyschiatrist cussed friday month ago messed rx reduced w refill set telehealth appt march th informed said get rx fix march th till hell friday spoke w nurse told would change called said im making look crazy wanted go scripts changes person sorry im going suffer long guess thought would pleasantly suffer silence asked cold heartedly want prescribe valium liking scolded calling cvs make sure dont pick refills told wanted prescribed years want billed two telehealth appts hung phone screaming bye moved hours away leaves office pick up anyways guess im addict keep hating im anything right addicted benzos never anything hard dealt w ignorant docs past pull shit take business streets isnt prescribed benzos doesnt know somebody knows somebody gets benzos im broke getting older dont want illegal shit whole shit questioning relationships failures like damn prescribed wrong drug chose heroin younger least help benzo addicts get fucked system making us look pyscho doc makes mistake arent feeling good even mention risk getting pegged addict losing rx sanity im really hating hour ride tomorrow make thoughts dissipate feeling hopeless anxiety anxiety thanks,1 made pixlr x work art ampxb lamphttpspreviewredditkqhfxlmdjpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampscfaecfeaebbefda,0 perhaps tomorrowlong story short life mess taken advantage of abandonment issues child hood lots loneliness rejection finally done bullshit life given fulfill role worlds trash can,1 "Good night, Sweet Tweeters!!! The Princess really MUST get some beauty rest. This royalty crap ain't for pansies!!! ",0 i have my week follow up with my dr after having my medication prescribed i wa given buspar and xanax but have only taken the buspar a xanax is only for when i have a panic attack so far i have noticed i am a lot calmer over all i still get worried but i know it a bit diff my mind over all feel quieter my mom ha said im talking a lot and at work i am for sure talking to more of my guest and client sometimes i feel dizzy mid day or at night and if i have a snack it ok but it going away i also had some weird dream but that too is going away i dont know what else to look out for or mention to him about how ive been feeling or what might be important to say or consider is there anything besides what i might feel is working and anything that seems like side effect i should say,1 reason livethe thing anyone cares making sure people kill themselves even search reason live google get bunch redflag prevention sites redflag hotline numbers think mom could handle died reason im still congratulations google im going kill im still hating every second it reason care life minimum keep breathing make people happy im trying wait mom dies kill tgeres nothing wrong least another years im trying hard wait know years ive tried bunch different medications go therapy therapist tells still feel like shit absolutely reason believe things get better,1 hyperbets i hope this doesn t last too long i feel miserable,0 @the_crooked_toe haha love it! ,0 angry sad want scream cry want hurt myself break something cannot fucking handle thisi hate fact still waiting therapy originally waiting hear scheduling learned counselors could handle schedulei work till pm monfri supervisor said make work matter what opened schedule think going hear anything back themi need way cope emotions want able cope used think could getting hit every direction realize handle break hurt myself promised would again know doi tried watching youtube tried smoking vape would considering trying play games probably punch laptop go walk end punching wall make work life harder since need hands even considered writing poetry coming head fuuuck want something regret cannot even jerk off porn free now use imagination would probably rip dick off sitting here numb feeling once scrolling reddit even reading posts barely feel arms considering going getting pack afraid use cope once use cope end sad lonely drunk actually try kill myselfi got nothing right now cannot even talk friends this secretsnot mine cannot know even talked someone would probably understand try twist things around argue actually happened need that need feel better head fucking noisy,1 i slept for hour straight yesterday it felt really good i wish i could do that everyday,1 @londicreations Hi Londi! Thanks for the compliment Love your work too!,0 think episode bionic blonde httpsbionicblondefandomcomwikijillian_returns,0 cant take thisi keep asking people every single day things going go back normal never answer hear pollyanna bullshit stay positive gets better bullshit rebound start year look everythings gone shit im explode cant take anymore go site twitter everyones denial maybe itll get better maybe wont new normal bullshit aint covid conspiracy cant fucking take anymore fucking idiots jesus fucking christ im gonna fucking explode,1 opinion gays burnt cross sin,0 ever deserve thisi nothing literally nothing literally nothing positive life always friendly others try burden anyone fuck this hate here,1 redflag attemptthis long time ago cant remember caused breakdown probably something stupid tired feeling mom surgery years prior bunch old pain meds never took pills even think knew take pillsfireball whiskey soda go deep woods want anyone find me drink alcohol take pills minutes later feel total peace painworriesanxieties go way last thing remember passing out woke next day hours later vomit dog laying next me remember chose weekend mom dad away suicidal mental illness always there close get point return,1 junebugg i had to super glue my shoe lol,0 Anyways. Off now to tutor. Last maths tutoring before the summer I think. All good things and all that ,0 oanhlove i hate when that happens,0 @ClaireBoyles Almost there.... ,0 it still hurt,0 feel extremely weak feel really weak ate slice bread breakfast somehow exhausting feel extremely weak fuck wrong me everyday im getting sad also weak maybe spend around hours bed everyday maybe literally killing me really know,0 it s excruciating every time i interact with a romantic partner because i go basically mute when otherwise with anyone else or even with that same person just before we re dating i m hyper and outgoing and comfortable and creative and i can experience and express thought in my head i say a partner a i ve dated four all very different type of people and experienced the same draining of brain juice a soon a we make eye contact a partner it suck lem me know if you can chat about it all relationship lasted almost to a year and i m in th grade by the way thanks for reading and take care today,1 god im lonely like im even lonely want someone,0 crush fucking blocked beginning school year online began chatting cute girl online class lot common took lot courage email first became friends made friends another guy exchanged discords me around day talking anime stuff started asking sex position liked best blocked him later day crush asked online friends mentioned turning predator seemed weird respond days woke see blocked panic attack threw toilet cut arms sharp pencil,0 m and i did what i wanted to in life grew up poor got an education make ton of money hit the top of ladder in a respect profession and i m not happy i m not rich but money isn t a a big a concern a it used to be i have a job i like sometimes but the reality of it are physically and mentally destroying i have good friend and am finding myself making more a i go but i m miserable completely miserable i wa told that you become successful you work hard and have good moral invest in your friend develop hobby and fulfillment and happiness come a a by product but when in the actual fuck doe this fullfillent and happiness come,1 day posting short stories woman blue man wondered aimlessly new desert sand felt wet yet air dry trapped tropical paradise wondered saw strange sites decrepit buildings ships larger life glittering blob followed along behind them rising drain blob gotten larger incorporating parts long lost walked large vicious looking rain clouds enclosed desert watching continued exploring knew landscape man wearing clothing many could describe rags hair dusty curled walked womans hand his know other never spoken them felt right man little weight him otherwise fit walked hand hand blob microorganisms drew closer threatening rather comforting buildings covered old ocean floor style castles modern buildings futuristic complexes roads buildings random distances one another continued walking rain began fall moistening air causing desert cool walked inside one buildings small warehouse type building large metal roof vented ceiling walls covered algae sat building rain grew harder trees began sprout grass began grow wasteland ocean floor large butterflies size backpacks flooded area pollenating life grew sea floor sand turning dirt butterflies swarmed warehouse covering floor around pair unique designs sat still warehouse looked extravagant tiles pouring rain slowed drizzle mist polluting building wings colony gently flapped took flight two butterflies strayed picked pair holding took flight flew dense overnight jungle towards mountains distance jungle slowly dissolving behind them reducing back been tree tops interwoven one tree many branches descended upon mountains storm brewing around them came upon cave butterflies hesitate swarmed it navigating tight passageways skillfully theyve done many times eventually erupted peak volcano butterflies elegant last stream dark blue highlights unnatural yellow tint unleashed pair near top peak peak littered snow felt comforting cozy foot mountain utterly blocked deep black clouds wondered around peak saw man mask obscuring face yet could visibly see beard meandered way closer them approached other mountain gave way man mask started skid quickly downwards man rags first time let go woman blues hand try grab man like that time stopped again snow flakes stood still air butterflies frozen mid flight grabbed mans hand time stood still cautiously pulled man up making sure would fall went back woman grabbed hand like time resumed and please check wattpadhttpswwwwattpadcomstoryutm_sourceandroidamputm_mediumlinkamputm_contentstory_infoampwp_pagestory_details_buttonampwp_unamebearwurstampwp_originatorljgsagzkvtsntgcapvebhrhuaoyajwsqhwggricwvyufoychfndvxyktqpxgomhbkngexiwmhuhbqkgaeaxtlogwtiaifrflwmxyizijy,0 when ur shitty depression is back. GREAT :D,1 "prom today, then prom party? ..",0 tony ha changed so much why did he have to change,0 rather poorly named western series emmy best syndicated program certainly interesting series produced republic studio action better anyone put best it episode built around real historical figure old west railroad detective named matt clark similar later elliot ness gangsters s s managed become involved almost every notorious western outlaw middle s wwi series best asset jim davis tall rugged ruggedly good looking prime shape authentic western accent great riding skills made utterly convincing action scenes davis every inch western hero teamed two lovely active costars mary castle frankie first season kristine miller jonesy second worked well davisbr br what separated show contemporaries much came later professionalism invested action scenes ace action directer william witney directed episodes franklin adreon rest filmed action polish republics vast store stock footage serials bs utilized give scope level individual episodes rose fell quality guest stars brought play outlaws among really good ones marie windsor belle starr lee van cleef jesse james fess parker grat dalton jean parker cattle kate joe sawyer slim pickins butch cassady the smilin kid cream western comers pickins parker denver pyle james best richard jaeckel honed craft b veterans decades experience belts harry woods glenn strange kenneth macdonald earle hodgkins steve darrell chief yowlachie provided old leather feel vintage westernsbr br the weakness concept many famous western outlaws second season famous figures becoming mite obscure dedicated history buff nevertheless later shows match any due guest stars henry brandon portrayed rustler nate champion former republic star barry outstanding smalltime outlaw milt sharpbr br western fans history buffs want see this,0 need helpbut cant ask paralyzed,1 feel exhausted anythingcontinuing go life fucking hard dude tough ended could quit fighting hard want fight anymore ,1 @efgfca That account was opened Feb 15th... so someone had the idea first ,0 teenage son years refused photographed due anxiety issues nowhere weeks ago asked could episode kids show make proud think good job guys think side note yes yr old mine httpsyoutubewdjyduhzee,0 i have to be out of my place in day any help i can get packing painting cleaning is much appreciated oh and rip my wall,0 fuck people getting free awards reddit whyyyyyyy youuuuuuuuuu hateeeeeeeeeee meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb lol need crush notices me,0 homemade gununderage bm expensive risky sick bs might well make something worthwhile last thing idk even im posting im gonna make it already started might well say bye,1 ever wake suicidal spend day feeling suicidal go bed wishing would never wake again dealing feelings now believe things get better life get easier lately kind feel like worth it go mess feel like might get glimpse happiness far future cannot take anymorei tried talking friends stuff try nice supportive cannot make feel better know seek professional help let us say easy option person circumstances would shoes feel like worth,1 @ShirishKunder @aranjan2012 @Kshitishsc @SanghiWalker @GaganJass141 Troll Gagan ! I can understand the frustration you are going through. But my concern is your frustration will continue till 2024 now - Modi will be back ! Please consult a good doctor for depression which you might get into after General elections next year !!,1 watching NCIS. Is it the grey hair that makes Mark Harmon so attractive? I think so. ,0 i keep having anxiety in the shower sometimes i can manage through but i had to shave and take a little extra time my usual anxious thought about a million way to die i swear i could have written the script to the movie and why i m terrified of the unkniwn waved over me and i pushed through the shower a fast a i could got out and instantly took a full pill of my clonazepam mg now i m sitting here about minute later still half anxious struggling to even right this a my brain is going into shut down mode i still have to make dinner but my husband may be tasked with it tonight which i know he won t complain or think anything of it but it make me feel like a bad wife i went almost month with little to no anxiety until about week ago and now i feel like i m right back to where i wa it s been two year and i m so ungodly tired of this i m tired of being good for a couple year then being thrown back into anxiety panic attack i m tired of deciding that not feeling at all is better than participating in living c,1 im wretchlike baby stillborn like beast horn torn everyone reached me relate lyrics much you reading please try change perceive myself tried so long hurt many others find purposefully avoiding forming new bonds even though hard to feel alone want hurt anyone else hurts painfully aware machinations mind force cycle toxicity struggle break it try simply withdraw interaction possible continue it yet thought never leaves me never able fully overcome eats away me problems consumed whatever before longer myself husk you reading thank you listening you listened could dare write people contact with,1 how would you feel if you had told someone that you were depressed and then later on they said that to you idk how to feel ab it on one hand i m like ok that s really good that they see me the same way and not like just a depressed person on the other hand i don t feel so good bc it s like they don t acknowledge that part of me i guess what doesn t sit right w me is the fact that they perhaps have some sort of image in their head of what depression look like so when i m not explicitly expressing my depression they forget you have depression idk maybe i m overthinking this but y all lmk your opinion bc i m interested in other povs,1 story contemplationm ive recently developed alcohol addiction rarely drank prior months ago suffer anxiety insomnia ive lost job due depression anxiety alcohol basically hung calling sick feel like crap daughters amp im divorced fianc love dearly feel like im burden her ive told this basically tells get it ive planned everything far buying rope cousin hung months ago spine surgery got behind support spent days jail it dont know do dont want die feel like problems would go away dont want children fianc going life thinking could done something ive opened fianc think shes taken seriously dont want die feel like workdays solve lot problems cant bring right thing spent days alcohol detox cost job went week control im using again ive basically self medicating advice,1 husband hates much hate myselfim scum fucking earth deserve anymore husband cant even room me stupidly pulled gun awake took away me im planning slitting wrists outside snow soon falls asleep,1 miss watching live pd cable wish brought back reason stopped broadcasting outbreak antipolice riots across usa assumed temporarily suspended safety cameramen riots wanted police officers go them ive researched figured cancelled year is according them a critical time nations history makes think corona virus antipolice riots im thinking two things get better soon eventually favorite television show return back,0 "@mileycyrus yes, we know it, job is job, haha, we love you mileey, Argentina support you, ",0 cha cha real smooth im gonna steal lego collection im gonna breakdance front you,0 finland fact every day finnish music culture weird recommend maybe give listen brobably wont anyway skkijrven polkka tll pohjanthden alla here northern star olen suomalainen i finn soviet anthem finnish volga moskau finnish,0 "@shy_and_quiet Most depression, I once read, occurs when we have a felt need to make a decision or solve an issue. We may not realize it at the time.",1 stuckive attempted redflag many times already last one weeks ago serious far excuses cerebral palsy alone rejection family living arrangement dissolved know go im stuck definitely know feel near future try soon,1 swear ever tried cocaine id able relate film perfectly pace well dialog churns speeds viewers might need stop relax headsbr br there great little elements pop film like rob lowes character seems always loosing shoe characters keep running spirals around zigzagged path story put together extremely well direction seems flawlessbr br the movie reeks clumsy cuteness one think could enjoy laughoutloudevenifyouarealone moments ensure ill certainly watching again,0 female body disgusting change fucking mind would much rather born male body,0 guy class kills cat hate existence hope fucking burn hell actions every single animal youve huntedyoure scum earth dont know people like youand also fuck hurting friends emotionally also credit umtrx_ giving idea express,0 anyone else see like porn someone rly sexy u cant get hard nut them theyre still rly like filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 robots love people mean people say cant love computers actually make one love humans fellow robots even form sorts loving relationships people honestly pretty deep thinking already,0 shandasaurus i see,0 suicidal thoughts scaring mehello need somewhere share story hopefully get advice ive depressed think ive sunken back want live on see light end tunnel anymore ive lost confidence know do good days suffer anxiety always worry things go bad ill suffer heartache cant happening again know happens im scared whatll ill do days triggers smallest things hear something want hear something excited happen could sat alone mind wanders overthink suddenly im crying again frustrating scary gorgeous family always me love much think world try think push always work happened got heart broke guy loved seeing casually nine months never wanted anything serious though always hoped eventually went asked relationship said really liked cared him said no want girlfriend fair enough let go talk that found three weeks later girlfriend devasted time lost job nearing eviction house hardly friends social life friends busy relationships also self esteem issues raped cousin eight bullied school college cherry top slowly sunk depression move bed cried time drank alcohol even took overdose though survived it confidence felt like nothing eventually sorted out went doctors went anti depressants took therapy session sorted though family kept going gave advice support got job managed pay rent arrears went more got well guy friends hung enjoyed hanging house felt better enjoying life again last since ive two guys hurt both one went another lass front face party went week dumped saying would still sex want relationship go further gutted feel like anything wrong still see im normal usually bubbly self always goes wrong think somethings wrong me first guy especially hurt really liked him friend well lost him ive sunken low again hate myself cant stand look mirror sometimes feel like theres hope me horrible thoughts thoughts whisper weak am pathetic go work come home what nothing guys lost friends well keep trying think positive thinking oh bad concentrate work concentrate thoughts let up always come back one guy wanted anything me never wanted relationship used shot away like im nothing went lasses time lives cant see nothing valuable myself cant see nothing good wonder anyone would want me thats wanted someone know happen now im dreading christmas new year know depress more alone try think matter enjoy single loss friends social life time anything im always working makes think it life make goals myself like wanna learn drive next year dark thoughts come forget that care goals anymore worst im still attracted one guys one walked another girl party scares more want feelings ill get hurt cant take heartache hes still friend family see often act causal around friendly distant want get close cant rid feelings im scared one days ill hear getting girlfriend hurt me cant take that know do anxieties throttling me want go whole process tablets therapy part sees silly get depressed over probably feeling like this im broken know fix me im actually even planning commiting redflag christmas thoughts petrify know part im pushed hard enough dont want family cant take thoughts life anymore always wait something bad hit im scared feel blows get christmas new year feeling like this advice anyone,1 im going kill tonightive decided tonight night it ive given everything want stop feeling surrender whatever death hold me im liar cheater thief bad person deserve this hurt people due selfishness see reason give future even hell real feel like deserve it hope enough pills get job done hope get see mom im dead goodbye,1 life isnt even bearable anymoreive much pain since years old years later im still pain know people worse know people experience things worse ive ever experienced im sick hearing that im sick hearing feelings arent fucking valid im young moment wake up moment go bed im much emotional pain hard cope theres always heavy weight chest suicidal thoughts race head im sick living im fucking tired life long pain gonna last like doesnt end im tiny insignificant dot universe wouldnt matter gone anyway ive gone inpatient hospitalizations countless medication changes two therapists almost crisis evaluations multiple redflag attempts etc im sick hearing life worth living thats fucking joke im sick hearing life matters doesnt im one billion people planet gonna make difference everything getting worse theres way out everyone says gonna last forever fuck off please literally feels like effort move body point things used effortless require enormous amounts energy do even build energy them normally dont normally cant nobody understands serious getting either try hard scream help nobody realizes bad cant much longer im years worth tired tldr im kinda wanna die ive lost energy live gonna get better life doesnt matter etc,1 @pdurham hellooo twitter punkins sounds like a new rock band ,0 someone said tell one time conservatives good guys mean theres many instances conservatives often bad guys go ming dynasty china took mongolian led empire china mongolian empire china progressive changing culture tradition economy china ming took over restored much chinas culture lost generations ruled mongols also reestablished much chinese economy drove brutish mongols out ming dynasty could easily considered golden age china though youll hard time finding times conservatives right also dipshits conservative universal term im saying many people think conservative american term conservatism republican party two different things,0 alone hurts best everyone else end redflag never wanted pain took mg vistaril otc medicines,1 @fjkeogh hahaha that is @shazy_s my best mate,0 This emotion stuff is so human! Love and accept yourself exactly as you are.,0 @snobscrilla you so loved it ROFLOLHAHA. tragic xx today is a good day for us!,0 @freakgoddess hypnotyst .... hmmmm... i should beware.. ,0 of course the baby is screaming in the crib the night before my first day back at work so i let him cry it out boooo,0 ask crush out ive thinking telling crush feel im scared look way ill ruin friendship even though im pretty sure like back feel itd wasted opportunity say anything knows maybe well become better friends might even say yes anyways thx people read this sorry boring,0 for about a week now i ve been experiencing extreme anxiety and panic restlessness a need to move my leg etc it s been waking me up in the middle of the night or it hard for me to fall asleep bc the sensation is just so uncomfortable i also feel wired and like i have all of this insane amount of energy i have no pain and my heart beat honestly seems pretty normal maybe slightly elevated at time however i keep getting this weird uncomfy fluttering tingling sensation in the middle of my chest that will not go away it is so hard to describe a little bit of butterfly in my stomach a well a slight nausea i notice with some cbd i can calm down and feel alright but i don t know if anyone else experience this it almost feel like my body is actively fighting a panic attack for day on end i ve been to the dr like time in the past month and have had ton of blood work done and had low vitamin d and low iron but i ve been on supplement now and have been feeling better there wa no other concern from my dr so i don t know if this is health anxiety or from something like gerd i just fear i m either crazy or i m dying or it s both,1 help raise awareness raise awareness redflag ive myself im saw one way out however ive faced head reached support want support people know hard is ive set gofundme feel free message redflag awareness httpswwwgofundmecomfwsbrbgoutm_mediumcopy_linkamputm_sourcecustomeramputm_campaignp_nasharesheetamprcidcaefefbefcba,1 know someone said going kill todayits got phone girlfriend one acquaintinces last year college said going kill today minutes ago currently phone redflag prevention hotline sure else do im immediate vicinity either them didnt say going kill herself,1 know want anymore ive posting since old im tired,1 wish born americai saw comment someone living us saying british people mentally challenged babies born america low functioning autism might grasp basic english instead fluent language cannot wait kill birthplace would actually human born outside uk able speak basic english low functioning autism bad teeth deformed make want kill myself,1 essteeem depression be real,1 ill kill tomorrowi friends im unable pay attention anything interest makes impossible perform well school cant anything productive waste time needlessly scrolling internet genuine interests spend time front computer ive struggled severe social anxiety years caused isolate society also detrimental mental health dread waking everyday it im extremely depressed see disgusting pathetic incompetent worthless excuse human ever walked planet think world colorless place spend hours daydreaming would like live fictional world full adventure such day goes without thinking id better dead today useless self finally decided ill commit redflag tomorrow ill head deep forest hang myself ive thought killing before never courage thought devastated family would much tried change im strong enough im exhausted want free endless suffering,1 feeling unwelcome posts gay people shouldnt flaunt gay people shouldnt make whole personality want wear rainbow without associated gay people everything else complaining gay people existing makes feel really unwelcome sub honest wear whatever want care much associated gay shit dont like someone openproud sexuality flamboyant leave alone write post every seconds idk people hang people dont even like them bad vent huge bummer used really like sub kinda ruins me,0 role play love role playing none freinds while childish,0 want everything endim tired people always trying talkto make feel better always wind feeling shittier im class right trying cry cant stand living ever since th grade im almost im tired people telling itll get better when clearly hasnt find things make happy literally nothing makes happy anymore hate much feel bad say envy people actually courage kill,1 im gonna need help figuring get tlsae coursepermit exam florida looked floridas official dmv website really want get permit would hate test person honestly social anxiety really want pay take test drug course either anybody help received permit im years old rehabs monthes taken permit exam actively abusing drugs long time done research requirements state need valid reasonably priced provider examcourse get tlsae course online permit exam valid certification standards florida dmv main intentions getting license age years old appreciate help provided,0 mean something someone ive always problems anxiety huge fear mine invisible meaning anything anyone last night talking good friend mine expressing worries sent couple voice messages assuring yes ive helped her enjoys friend mean something her me never hearing before start happy sobbing said considered unalive helped it sorry needed rant somewhere seriously meant much feel great it know video kharris calling joe saying like joe thats felt crazy good yeah thanks reading ,0 fuck lifei know horrible person difficult understand absolutely hate myself idk just might fucking crash wall fuck shit,1 sub surreali scrolling sub fucked up bunch posts talking shit happened people crying hope posts mere minutes apart without comments them like sitting room dealing horrible fucked shit one talking eachother really surreal,1 i had a pretty bad bought with my depression over the last year i walked out on two job because i just couldn t deal and i wa jobless on the couch for about month nothing really mattered and everything felt overwhelming and hopeless i started working again and while it s only been two week thing don t feel a hopeless i m trying my best to keep it that way i just wanted everyone to know that it really can get better i love you all and i m sorry if this doesn t help anyone but if it help just one person then i feel like it wa worth the time take care of each other and yourself,1 another unreasonable waveif check previous post live decent life things bad outside perspective heres selfish perspective ill never happy sure sometimes months go feel great feeling like blood turned lead keeps coming back over particularly think future todays cake walk went second attempt getting masters program deserve it everyone else denying fact would insult hard effort point never get angry anyone makes second interview wonder going another year trying one last time worth it know school one sure fire ways getting work field im aiming for theres support sincerity take time care listen everyone around me one ever shows consideration logically know im lucky country make attempt trying go love fear life every day grow knowledge things start fear unhappiness number one fear alone already feel way even though loved ones around me everyone else want fucking get it able find job one three careers ive trained for get cards people time call want work them businesses interest in im active helper encourager concerned anyones general well being even one fucking friend theyre focused work interested friends theyre married well fly back home tomorrow least afraid flying trip back get like this usually care random accident happens want pm can read sticky post said posters offer im usually debater comes this though im sorry come back reasoning opposing reasoning rebuttals confirmation understanding views also understand people want publicly write embarrassing things like cheesy encouragement thanks hearing got far rant,1 mom suffered years shitty life brother died cancer young age dad complete drunk asshole friends anyone even live for know store me continued pain kill restart better life kill myself,1 im gonna end myselfi share bit story might bit long skip end want explaining how born france village countryside mom dad big sis little bro me lived pretty normally friends relatively happy family little shit time always getting hurt stupid shit think it maybe parents thought autistic something always kinda special bit emotional maybe lets carry on th birthday moved place job issue issue make friends again im bit weird thats okay time goes pretty much peacefully house bit unhealthy always getting sick father built new house were moving out new house pretty clean cool and parents divorcing always remember moment two siblings mom dad yelling standing crying well something special lot couple getting divorced consider special case occurrence destroyed me think root mental state today like thought maybe bit emotional mom took us moved another village again seeing dad every two weeks told us dad one wanted divorce multiple times talking dad another school again something different hard keep classes hard time make friends im talking less less peoples nothing special part except two things bit lonely disgusting scutigera living house creeping out hate things finally turned time middle school collge france time make friends and good im even lonely im starting get bullied pretty clich right im weird kid talk much many friends kid nobody wanted team sports always getting trashtalked used it found pornmag ground time furious stroking great times im now highschool time yayyy shit before bully cool im moving dads appartment much closer moms house big sis moving too im now im getting degree baccalaureate im starting electricity technician formation im working gendarmerie the french countryside police force reservist getting bit money holidays im still technician formation there really anything big void want opinion shits going pretty quickly point turns mother cheated father father knew led divorce mother brainwashed siblings years father knew it know truth big sis lil bro believe it big sis confront father yells yells lot big sis packs belongings leave appartment never heard ever again dad saying big sis raped grandpa mother side little fuck going on lil bro attending school anymore hes still mother hostile relation father father going confront lil bro mother smell danger im going him mothers house lil bro pulled knife threatened father me saying things like fault shitty life things like that were leaving place im never going anymore hello depression old friend im tired shit im getting here im getting ground army forces months formation nice months formation sport coach break finger year rehabilitation im fired army going back fathers appartment working pretty far another appartment im alone year total solitude started take opiate medecine fun im bit alcoholic too severe depression suicidal thoughts everyday courage take action end rehabilitation fucking finally fuck ground forces im going air forces im going avionics mechanic job pretty cool bunch im fun formation easier ground forces thats good covidchan incoming months total isolation again days worsening dark thought wanna get up wanna see anybody wanna eat still gotta strong father sad end confinement going back base wanna this want end this getting month holiday weeks base hell going back appartment im tired give shit anymore ampxb ampxb next sentence end it im im tired really tired im alone want meet people anymore even father still make friends never grirlfriend still virgin state mental nothingness feel anything anymore even anger bit money im distributing bit random people without noticing aka mailboxes found random place far away people countryside im packing lot alcool gasoline go place im gonna drink till cant even think anything im gonna set car fire thats want finish let burn want disappear ampxb really badly written sorry like said could go end im still sure take action august thats sure ampxb thanks reading,1 is getting ready to eat salsa and chips! bless God! http://plurk.com/p/xzsco,0 stephenkruiser i m so sorry to hear that it s always sad when we lose those close to u a we loved them,0 un xnut if only i didn t work an evening night job,0 overnight flight los angeles miami lisa reisert rachel mcadams meets charming man turns hired killer demands help killing businessman else father diebr br red eye terrific thriller keeps audience edge seats premise similar cellular phone booth red eye better films almost everything red eye average including suspense acting direction film take place plane slow movie film fast pace exciting slow boring spots wes craven really good job behind camera instead focusing thrills focuses story characters movie share suspenseful moments thats film really about also like way wes craven focuses passengers small details become important later on red eye really shows skills storytellingbr br red eye also works well young talented cast rachel mcadams gives engaging performance character hard hate may even end cheering loud cillian murphy gives creepy effective performance villain way acts charming first turns psycho especially impressive supporting actors also pretty good include brain cox jayma maysbr br the movie also stylish overall creepy vibe it setting works well since obvious fear isolation escape overall tone film consistently creepy screenplay strong everything else though unrealistic moments may distract viewer bother left shaking head also ending disappointing bad ending simple one different approach would better since movie focuses characters really scream moments maybe jumps expect horror movie end disappointed end red eye engaging thriller one best movies summer rating ,0 im never actually horny anybody masturbate orgasm feel good,0 @tcar haha thanks ,0 lost friend redflag worry going lose everyonei lost friend unexpectedly last year know sad gone someone life upset now want leave alone get scared say goodbye friends hanging out start get feeling im never going see again someone answer text email hours start grieving them one year this paralyzing ive cried many deaths never happened stop freakishly obsessive people life know might sound bad want care much im tired grieving people died,1 contemplating redflag break upmy boyfriend recently broke me feel lost went talking marriage baby send messing breaking iti feel sad alone messed want forever feels responsible it great guy think ever find someone like him im pretty sure tonight scared final,1 HEY EVERY BODY!!!! 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I'M SO GLAD ,0 thelmarockz thelma i can t see shiz i see blank and me and u comment,0 "i loove finding nemo haha. actually, i saw it today i think i saw it like a BILLION times haha",0 many people hate mei imagine funeral she lot problems guess brought herself thats it idea im still living literally want someone save me again idea why,1 need advice help friend rough time mention redflagi need advice help one good friends really rough time now gotten hit really hard couple things last months really made life lot harder her asked call little ago crying spiraling control said feeling really paranoid lately like burden everyone around her struggling suspect psychological issues now really gotten help needs today first time mentioned depressed says cries time it struggle everyday kill myself if dogs would already done it cant leave them advised quite go get mental health counseling offered talk anytime needs issues happened last months think really contributed are got kicked school poor grades verge filing bankruptcy due unpaid medical bills student loans credit card debt one dogs ill recently still know cause brother moved away another state relationship boyfriend ended really complicates that a barely make ends meet support debtcost living b longer gets free mental health services school student c still working school kicked out means generate income figures wants next reminds reinforces failure d comes unsupportive family parents divorced narcissistic show vested interest helping supporting children know right feeling really hopeless major debt making barely enough get by idea go terms career direct family members selfish dealing matters timeenergy help lot friends believes ones pity herwant get rid her things tried help encouraged seek counselingpsychiatric help reassured im friend understand feels encouraged seek career counseling offered talk anytime needs vent talk someone right im feeling really scared know help time suggest going psychiatrist says cant afford it added cost vet bills sick dog monthly income stretched even thinner before keeps putting looking another job filing bankruptcy despite admittedly needing things anyone else would contact family try get help get support needs since family selfish disinterested see viable option im asking advice go here freediscounted mental health counseling services refer to local support groups look into anything else friend support her feel like get help soon chance might actually kill cant bare thought that im unsure help her please advice public private greatly appreciated,1 decisions always held high goals myself lately falling short them fail goals depressed come constantly think killing myself simply believe im failure failings cant talk anyone it simply feel high expectations well way down feel long reach point quit now destroyed myself keep trying keep cycle going get back track,1 need break whilei dont think im ready die awful wish something take would put hospital like week without killing dont go work anything while im defeated exhausted tired trying house mess desire clean it gets worse every day,1 thinks time see point anymore working shitty job gf split year ago sick way succeed anymore nothing name reason keep going moved already entire reason see succeeding point infertile ex wanted kids could give made feel less man hopefully new boyfriend give that keep going reason to want work shitty job pay live even want to even want anyone know feel alone entrapped like world closing know do want take gun head leave all want relapse drugs temporary numbness want permanently numb everyone always asks okay always try make seem like okay okay soon ill free cruel world emotions bad mentality really took over forget check people never know going it think time,1 fit inno one loves me ever loved me ever love me guys ive connected abusive piece shits friends nothing live for past year ive known nothing abuse want nothing die,1 hate short im im im taller parents like boys school taller bruh makes feel like fuckin baby fuck short hispanic genes mannn,0 yoo kinda hype rn ngl mom finally said would allowed build pc ive enough money never let spend it finally gon able play games friends,0 blooming great change of weather now i have a cold just my luck don t seem to be having much luck lately life suck at the mo,0 reason im still alivethis may get written stupidest thing ever attribute ongoing existence coffee hear second im married suicidal years now find comfort comforted people get it hobbies anything simply good feelings come little things dade temporarily dull ache except coffee friend mine struggling emotional fckery tell this solve problems go get good cup coffee sit slowly drink it time focus anything coffeethe smell warmth flavor may minutes thats minutes nothing world matters except coffee stress bills stupid peoplenothing many us know sometimes need short break thinking sounds stupid works me sincerely hope helps someone elss even five minutes,1 anyone wanna lonely together dm lonely noises filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 Ty - now quit readin my email already will ya :p #SOTM Bible QUIZ: http://tinyurl.com/pxbhf4,0 get f chat poor dude used head shoulders shampoo lube may pray dick burning ceases,0 okay hear normal person im gonna kill you grrrrr mathematicians im gonna subtract equation thats it,0 things sayordinary people seem realize really apply right way philosophy directly accord preparing dying death true actually looking forward death lives would course absurd troubled thing comes long preparing looking forward socrates phaedo im scared die choice made believe everyone right decide whether want live not matter great logic use matter much emphasis put beauty life left live always absurd meaningless existence purpose some purpose must exist go on cannot created exist doesnt choose live life purpose tell wrong,1 likes this new remote microsoft are coming out with ,0 people think depression always sad people think depression always crying people think depression dressing black people wrong depression constant feeling numb numb emotions numb life wake morning go bed again tired hurting end,1 #netflix has awesome customer service and not to mention a great product,0 why cant it just fucking stop the pain is just too much sometimes all i wan na say is im sorry to the people i really care about i feel like a bad person who need to change and get better but i dont wan na do it for me i wan na do it for them im sorry i dont know whats wrong with me i really dont and it genuinely scare me maybe i should get help this is a wake up call ig fuck,1 relaxing first time while operating system decides die universe wont let rest it,0 step mr beast yall hoes got step prbly lol,0 @zenzie386 Yes NYC has it's own way of love/hating you... http://twitpic.com/3ky08,0 darenzia assuming i wont get to see u before u leave i ll miss u punkin,0 put bucket list im moving less year im making list things wanna w friends then suggestions,0 being border restricted victim day by day we getting engulfed in frustration depression suicidal attempt and much more that we can t express in word depression fmwangyisaveindianstudents takeusbacktochina,1 good morning im crying crabs found hermit crab finds bigger shell itll explore see itll fit shell big wait shell hours crabs come along try out realize big well queue next shell form line biggest crab smallest wait crab perfect fit exchange shells sequence everyone gets new home omg,0 see evil kane movie great storyline hide eyes scream loud horror flick thought going watching wwe superstars monday night raw movie first came theaters enjoy movie though loved story played outbr br great movie excellent would like see part br br it matter kane gets killed endbr br or killed horror stars every movie br br they still comeback part wouldbr br be interesting,0 anyone wanna talk halo know video game,0 want kill myselfim nearly years old depression years now friends boyfriend perspectives yet feel something missing life therapy medicines dont help me impossible get rid suicidal thoughts haunt often even things supposed improve mood dont know anymore,1 hate post someone dm me fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 silence thoughtspretty consistently find hardly hearing listening people find wanting die almost time like warn people involuntarily awful everyone leaves eventually find narrating thoughts life others talking dont know maybe alone this im not fuck remain present anymore think negatives practice dbt doesnt help,1 so i had a doctor s appointment on a school day and i wa so anxious about missing day of school i wa cry because i would miss stuff that day and wa anxious about being behind on my work because my grade are expected to stay the same and not drop is this anxiety or just pressure put on me,1 one earlier reviews movie ends only big fans lead actors fans exotic romanceadventure holywood movies reason enough love it anyone who seeing movie complains connerys accent lack historical verisimilitude realism political motivations extramovie concerns simply love movies see awed starpower two leads exotic romantic photography music bold adventure truly escapist film proof hollywood make em like used to really wants to solid ,0 @DavidArchie woot woot knock em dead David!! ,0 @ireckon That my friend is a deal. ,0 myselfmy brain worst enemy moment poisoned years lies deceit try better person environment people around help choose stay behind content little slice life think have theyre caught ideas everythings ok isnt ive working healing really slow process days days feel healthy horse feel good dead,1 mad at @tacrain and @kylielanejonas for completing our mission without me! but app was so good and very pretty!,0 Thanks to the multiple Psychology majors who make my life a little bit bearable. More specifically:-guy I met on Grindr-kuya in choir-my Mother-stranger kabatch girl who dm'ed me abt my depression,1 screw zodiac signs colour ur binders ive seen people saying math blue deserve go hell math red idc say science green math red english yellow social blue disagree wrong thank coming ted talk,0 "@MeganMadiina I HATE YOU, YOU HATE DANNY. AND ROBIN HOOD. and theyre like the best things in my life ever danny jones will hear of yo ...",0 "@animated years: Friday and the weekend will be a lot better...don't worry. But wait, you're in London. Isn't that place always grey? ",0 helpive failed redflag attempts past two months mostly slitting wrist two overdoses didnt work im still cutting constantly parents love used well school im failing classes bunch friends yet still always feel alone hate almost everybody know everyone trust betrayed me people lie much hurts constant pain heartbreak used somebody able make friends happy someone seemed little crazy smart ive somebody ruins mood im always sad depressed make everybody feel worse even though many people want help me still fucking hate myself hate much life every second feels painful want kill much unbearable cant fixed cant helped nothing makes consistently happy anymore besides best friend cant school work anymore cant focus class appetite fucked up matter want die im still seeing therapist ive psychiatric unit depression cant take anymore feel hollow inside personality always switches seemingly nowhere dont even know anymore dont know do,1 i don t have access to a gun and after attempting and going unconscious i don t think i could go through the pain and fear of hanging again i want to overdose with something like fentanyl i guess the only thing i m scared of is getting arrested because of it is there a possession with intent to overdose law do you think i d be charged for more information yo minor perfectly clean record except legal hold for suicide never touched any kind of drug including alcohol legally mentally disabled have a 0 for depression and anxiety,1 in dad's surprise bday party in plaridel ,0 That was my first post with my blackberry. ,0 last daycan someone text kik citygirl name sierra need friend,1 jealous of my friend who got to see the new star trek film in austin tonight,0 @xgemmalilyx it's okay i just wish people took things like depression more seriously,1 "Ready for bed, making a mental list of the things I need to do tmrw -- a lot !! Nite tweeps.. ",0 Falling into a depression and it's so easy to do.#keepingthefaith,1 never done anything right life continue fail never meet expectationstheres nothing going nothing useless waste space life feels purposeless nothing world would make happier dissipate every time go sleep hope wake sometimes wish id get deadly disease tell pull plug immediately would go daunting task killing myself wish many risks surviving attempting suicide realistically want paini want over exhausted,1 "okay that idea didnt work, back to the shirt design ",0 neckbeards took movie theaters happened normal movie viewers superhero movies earn billion movies like ford v ferrari struggle earn ,0 anime fun thanks coming ted talk,0 i have a tendency to ob over some thing that have occurred and replay the scenario over and over in my head i m not even trying to focus on it but the thought still come into my head and then i find myself focusing on them and it serf me no purpose how do i stop doing this i know the scenario are over so i don t know why i am still thinking about them so much,1 ticking away moments make dull day,0 yesterday when i woke up i made my final decision to take my own life i have thought it over and even though there may be other option i decided that i am ready to just simply give up a the ongoing struggle ha made me decide it s not worth the pain i haven t felt anything but numbness for year i ve become obese my body is in terrible shape i ve battled with addiction but somewhat recently ive started to get over it when i finally thought that wa going well and started to be proud i wa met with people who didn t seem impressed and moreso judged the small victory i felt i guess because they didn t realize just how bad my situation wa three week off of hard drug wa a major milestone for me but people said it wasn t good enough and that i wa pathetic for thinking it wa impressive i don t see a bright side a i am finishing college even though i wa given a great job offer because i would just be continuing a life in a city where everyone hate me while i can work a lot and be miserable i am not the type to go out and leave on my own i would do nothing but recluse myself and probably miss home if i moved away i recently came to the realization that outside of the people that are friend with me my public perception is very much that i am a loser my antic have made people that used to consider me a friend not even like me a a person a girl i used to love decided to lead me on somewhat recently just to tell me her friend and everyone else hate me and that she would never consider dating me this wa essentially my tipping point i have decided that thursday night when i am returning from a work trip i am going to park my car on the way home by a bridge i am going to start drinking heavily i will make it look like i lost control a i drive through the rail and into the water those that know me will find this heartbreaking but ultimately not shocking and devastating in the way a suicide might affect them they will be able to cope with the loss without wondering if it wa their fault the only flaw in my plan is i have written a note to be left with my closest friend because one thing i can t do is leave without letting him know how much i appreciated everything he s done for me i simply can not do that but that is one thing that might ruin the hidden intent of my action,1 granblue reminded me i have depression,1 recall seeing film tv years ago paying full attention maybe even missing first half came conclusion dull rated decided revisit last night see missed anything first time certainly did one disturbing amazing films time clearly much influence films today probably forever cant believe thought film boring br br a young jon voight burt reynolds give performances careers supported ned beatty ronny cox story leave sense disgust dread long watch it truly horrifying oh mention theme song great well well is movie seen movie fans everywherebr br everyone see movie experience expect picnic,0 venting grew without father mother insane finaly died s nothing close years old nothing show it drivers lisense girlfriend nothingi feel emotions anymore way feel emotion drink heavily do anger shows least somethingi started hitting hard headface conjunction drunk gives sort calm feeling like currently red face hitting feels good rant started hitting myself years pain need relief,1 @sam_h786 just got in from work so no sun today for me but gas a good day ,0 normalim scared die feel though purpose life even live it im somewhat depressed make apparent im divorced parents loose every one care life believe god one turn guidance dad constantly screaming getting bs instead as mom care im trying die death scare me ask you browsers reddit normal curiosity death safe,1 i left my id at the location and now i can not go out to bar fuckkkkkkkkkkkkk,0 so i wa formally diagnosed with an anxiety disorder roughy month ago i wasn t all that surprised honestly recently i had felt like i wa making some improvement and starting to feel better but today ha been horrible i ve been stressed out over a certain situation and i have no idea how to alleviate my fear i just feel like i am always going to feel this way and that any moment of happiness or peace that i feel will always be momentary,1 going on holiday with my friend tomorrow exited but no twitter,0 body like browsing reddit felt sleepy turned comfortable awake again,0 "@booshtukka I'll look tonight. Don't bring the laptop to work, given that I have my PC laptop, and iMac desktop here ",0 casting jack cassidy ken frankin sheer brilliance cassidy personified arrogance confidence charm wit condescending evil little smirk face opinion jack cassidy far best murderer having appeared three times columbo series particular and first performance favorite columbo episode ever hands down fresh faced steven spielberg amazing camera work yes couple camera shadows actors timescapturing nuances banter different intriguing angles columbo franklin also panoramic tight shots big bear lake ca franklins cabin home impressivebr br if yet seen episode owe true masterpiecebr br jack cassidy talented actor singer charismatic personality highly infectious death age sad indeed tragic surely best years ahead him rest peace jack live eternity great work,0 throwaway acct never really post so excuse formatting or content i have hit the point now where i am really wondering what the point of it all is i m very tired i feel like i ve been running forever my medical bill are continuing to pile up i haven t been working because of my medical issue so money ha become my biggest real life issue my relationship with family and friend are deteriorating so quickly i don t even know how to stop it my education proved to be the biggest waste of time my work skill are so unremarkable that i cant get anything more than a warehouse job i m a complete definition of a loser i feel like my life is spiraling out of control it feel like it s all my fault and i know it is i just don t know how to fix anything and these random event keep happening to me that make me question if maybe it is just some cosmic entity screwing with me because every time i tried to do something for someone else or tried just taking action to do better somehow it ended up in failure i tried getting a new job and i unfortunately my medical problem hit causing me to lose that new job just a month after getting it prior to that i took a better job offer only to get hit with even worse working condition for an additional 0 hence me leaving to try to get a new job or how about the two time i went christmas shopping for my family i had to replace two tire on my car one each time i went out i mysteriously got a flat tire that went unnoticed both time resulting in me having to buy new one because the sidewall were screwed or my favorite one i decided to take a trip to another state on a whim one weekend for a concert at that time i had felt that i wa at the lowest i could get so i said screw it and decided to go i decided to go out the night before to check out the city and found a local band playing a bar i ordered a beer and the next thing i remember is waking up in a hospital they proceeded to then let me just leave the hospital and i wandered the city with a dead phone for a few hour looking for my car to go home i got a lot of nice thought from family and friend initially but then the jokey so you didn t get raped did you and then just laughing it off most likely because i m a male i honestly don t know if i did i remember nothing and i would rather it just stay that way everything i do in my life seems to result in the worst possible outcome whether it s my fault noticeably or whether i want to blame the void for all my problem the outcome is still the same and my pile of problem doesn t change i just want to do right but i can t seem to do that i want to give up completely every time i think thing can t get worse they do this isn t a final post or anything like that i just want to scream everyone look and talk to me like i m some stooge and maybe i am but damnit i just want people to care i m trying but failing at every corner so i am at the point now where i don t do anything i ve sat unemployed with a friend a my flatmate for a bit now and i get the sense he doesn t believe my medical issue and i sense this relationship ha also lost it end i m so lost i don t know where to go from here hang in there everyone i m sure it get better sometime just maybe not soon,1 helpme where going dad i know asking want come want to said so me i never said want come wanted know were going dad exactly say know sorry make sense english tricky translate native language dad always this ges mad reason really messing up considered normal,1 spoilers since disappearance sea favorite niece phyllis murder mystery writer abigail mitchell ruth gordon strong suspicions phyllis husband edmund galvin charles frank responsible death fact abigail convinced murdered made look like tragic accidentbr br knowing theres evidence edmund arrested phyillis death deciding take law hands abigail cooks elaborate plan make look like phyllis death tragic accident getting edmund secretly come mansion give combination walkin safe leave vacation new york city abigail tricks going inside locking startled surprised edmund in safe soundproof nobody mansion butler maid abigails personal secretary veronica mariette hartley hear screaming help next day edmund found suffocated death veronica discovered edmunds body put away safe keeping abigails latest murder mystery manuscriptbr br lt columbo peter falk called case involving strange death edmund garvin determine murder tragic accident going edmunds apartment columbo puzzled find single photo late wife whos missing month ties abigail always felt edmund love phyllis also suspect her abigails mind murder br br columbo big fan together wife abigails murder mystery novels hard time realizing fact responsible edmunds death evidence points abigil including pair missing car keys edmunds proved abgail fact house way airport edmund locked inside walkin safebr br going evidence columbo comes strange conclusion edmund must left evidence inside safe writing killer is conclusion quickly checkmated found edmund even pen pencil well light safe lightbulb burned out write it theres also something odd thats inside safe lt columbos mind ever since came case black paint residue found dead edmunds fingernails belt buckle br br its evidence put together number items safe end hangs edmunds murder tricky cunning mystery writer abigail mitchell edmund let abigail unknowingly convict final attempt air safe used up breathing using burnt matchsticks write abigail last manuscript murdered him abigail mitchell,0 anyone wanna talk fnaf lore im nuerodivergent bored ive peaked cringe culture honestly care public opinion anymore wants talk william afton stabbed children haunted fursuit cause ive got slide powerpoint aching infodump about,0 astewart oh my gosh that made me emotional haha idk why i dont want to get old,0 it hasn t gotten any better i did it almost year ago and the feeling of trying again ha gotten worse no matter how much i try it s not good enough i m trying to go to school i m trying to find a job i m trying to shower more and blah blah blah but no i m still too lazy my hair is too greasy i smell i m a fucking failure don t get why they act so much higher than me you failed that exam you got fired you didn t do the school work how the fuck are you going to look at someone who can t afford all the thing you have and blame them like it s their fault no i can t afford shampoo no i can t afford food no i can t afford a car or even the fucking lesson we couldn t wash clothes for a week but i shouldn t smell sorry let me pull out my imaginary washing machine my imaginary money to buy a car my imaginary money to buy the game you have the food you have the soap and whatever the fuck else i don t have because i don t have the fucking money let s also forget the fact my parent haven t been working properly for almost year and the amount of shit we owe which you don t deal with which is why you have all that shit they look at me in disgust you should come out more you re just lazy you don t want me there anyway which is why i walk metre behind don t have proper conversation because you wont talk back or am completely forgotten about when you go out i m fucking trying i do my best in exam i do my best to shower often or to eat often or to get a job you just don t see that i live very different to you i m trying my best to not kill myself every fucking day the thought didn t just disappear when i got out of hospital you know the same place you laugh at me for going the only reason why i don t jump in front of a car when we are together is because i don t want you to see the mess left behind i have a box full of tablet and a bottle of morphine i m sure something there will kill me and i m ok with it,1 Is sleep deprivation affecting your health? http://restyledliving.com/not-getting-enough-sleep-it-could-be-affecting-your-health/ … #sleep #sleepdeprivation #health #WednesdayWisdom #insomnia #aging #depression #heartdisease pic.twitter.com/F6Q3D1MQ5l,1 feel lonely dont know else say dont many people talk nobody important dont know every night feeling lonelyness imagining everyone would forget would disappear dont feel important loved im feeling pretty sad,0 "@CaseyJackson09 good thanks. just tired :O, ur up early hows you? x",0 noticed everyone attracted opposite me even know three straight girls know gay guys even girlfriend mainly attracted women im still even her one day going cut it matter much improve myself im still unlikely wanted like intellectual level understand bad sample size statistically unlikely really easy forget that thats all just needed get chest thanks reading,0 spanish fart fandom dying updoredacted true pedophile,0 know im anymoreive depressed years getting worse life keeps falling apart wasted years useless college music program even like music anymore even bigger waste years adult high school try get university computer science got in except ive pretty much failed university since demandinggoogle uoft cs post basically need average get second year average figured thats decent mark id go backup plan transferring different university except got rejected feel stupid guess terrible all world want im dumb ambitions left goals im dead end im debt wasted time spent school get shitty minimum wage jobs actually barely even get jobs spent almost year looking shitty job right now oh probably thousands dollars dental work need get done broken teeth cavities im doomed poor forever top friends never girlfriend virgin course one wants friend im depressed negative ugly broken front tooth even smile wanted people would get grossed out extremely skinny since eat im antidepressants seeing social worker going group cognitive behavior therapy thing none stuff working cant fix future ahead me cant even go public more see everyone else enjoying lives get jealous makes angry go home hate myself fuck doing,1 hi i m year old student who s moving abroad for university i moved when i wa 9 the first year wa super exciting and everything is going better than ever but since i started the real university i wa 0 y o everything is crashing down for me i don t have any spirit or willingness to study make friend or even do everyday job i always sleep and just do nothing else i changed my major once and changed to my favorite major but still i can do nothing i m always tired i feel like i m a useless potato who s just wasting everybody s time i only did exam in the span of year i can t concentrate at all i miss my old self i used to be the top student since i wa a kid and i don t know why am i like this right now my uni is a mess i have no friend and i don t even have the energy to try to fix those what should i do drop out isn t an option for me doe anybody have any suggestion thank you and sorry for my bad english english isn t my first language,1 ratatouille gt frozen change mind filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 Thanks @wrigleygirl @PeachiePoodle @JennyRosePetal Hope you all had a nice weekend ,0 http twitpic com y e i wan na wear my doc marten out haven t worn them since december,0 "I'm listening to Amputechture and am the most inspired I've been in a long, long time. That, and now I want red hair... ;P",0 good morning tweeps ,0 poison for real i had a c section they gave me ibuprofen like wtf that didn t do anything and got postpartum depression on top of that too,1 one really like movie reasons ill go late want touch think people like it first off people like hate tom cruise understand really second cameron crowe think successfully pes two groups moviegoers film casual relaxed not looking think hard group moviegoers left confused plot takes complete end movie deep philosophical mysteryfans devastated crowe one characters completely explain mysterybr br this good movie tom cruise good job it think probably best performance ive seen though seen movies even majority probably supporting cast good well penelope cruz gives solid performance jason lee enjoyablebr br i like story think thats vanilla sky anything mystery adventure romantic comedy mostly good story lot philosophical undertones it many similar ideas stories like occur historical philosophy david aames cruise man everything wanted less lost it given second chance catch regain back end facing demons full scope happening chooses reality simplicity normality see finally find one thing could never get grip on happinessbr br many people disappointed crowe laid complete mystery end think necessary audience knows beyond shadow doubt david aware circumstances makes choice end powerfulbr br and music movie great probably makes movie enjoyable is particularly njosnavelin sigur ros amazing songbr br all all id give stars movie substance like think things through great story looking relax moderate approach probably people dislike much full blown mystery full blown love story mixes matches different elements genres,0 hours im going psychiatrist cant wait anyone struggles mental health problems please seek help second time im going psychiatrist last time swear felt like first time someone understanding made feel kind light makes sense,0 eoghanquigg wish i could but i m no where near belfast love the new song btw,0 @tommcfly haha it depends if its red or white whether its girly lol,0 original story funny compelling characters went well teen girls slumber party movie times now loved it fun moved quickly boring drawn scenes violent little language though covered up great movie david strickland terrific actor ron eldard gave wonderful performance watch girls every time,0 peepoopfrickhecc im kinda fricked ngl im online test french idk much aaaaaaaajfkqhckfaocekkacjskaaajd french hard broo,0 i m coming back around from a deep hole of depression out of the last couple day maybe some of my hardest my life is a whirlwind and i accidentally got off my med for day one day off will really throw me didn t even realize that i didn t take my med until thing calmed down that th day i wa posting here yesterday and some of you really helped me out i m on the other side of it now and just want to thank this sub it wa a brutal low that lasted for sooo long i m on the other side now if i could go back to tell myself anything it s this hold on yes life suck but your brain is lying to you you got ta wait until it start telling you the truth again it s hard and it suck it suck major donkey ball you can t see any good right now i know you have to believe me it s imperative so just hold on,1 whats wrong mei done rn i hate much keep paying ppls mistakes family drama daily basis fault power energy motivation anything im drowning toxicity physical illness nothing everything consuming im torn one side wanna kms im piece shit petty excuse human side know whats waiting aint gonna pretty everyone looks even wanna change minds anymore im sick it,1 oxygen gay proof gay breathe oxygen inside thats gay,0 feel anxious when i dont follow my routine exactly for example i usually do the same task at work but do know how to do other task non are hard and take a few day to learn but however whenever i deviate from what i normally do i feel anxious that something bad will happen it doesnt make sense because i have done it before and have experience but still feel scared,1 weird super nsfw dk tingles dont know why does feels super weird,0 talking husband makes want diei middle getting divorced state requires year separate addresses so husband road trucker moved bought huge house needs help getting mail receiving packages etc trying separate amicably coordinate moving property house third house elderly father lives in since paid off weve agreed move move father house im living in old house parking movers would challengeda truck would block traffic husband prefers spending money new toys house adhd collapse trying organizemy stuff gets piled husband dumped stuff old dayshe ignored stuff piles hes home new house stuff really wanted immaculateno dumping floor there father near hoarderthe old house floor looks awful needs deep cleaning husband informed new family moving big new house christmas new years his girlfriend husband kids want polyamorous panicking cleaningpacking do everyone since hearing girlfriend move in extreme trouble sleepingi end sleeping day husband wanted hour drive pick car truck depot could bring back house generously offered pay gas car wagon trailer would useful moving wanted sleep drivingi never able sleep car hes drivingso could get appointment drive could sleep heading back job except appointment immediately long drive asked rescheduling extra time accused wanting dead hed tired roadhe refused reschedule take extra time away work avoided confrontation he enjoys it said get someone else he said might use son father rent car hes accused wanting dead before never never never takes caution ask hes vet paratrooper loves driving motorcycle rain logically knows id worse died job enough income purchases houses vehicles expensive hobbies insurance cover it like how get better argument deny feelings trick want die every interaction makes feel like life worth living im seeing therapist days good grief management helping get stuff done asks im suicidal time want say yes want lie i take wellbutrin,1 @Larasexypanties Hey you! We need to chat sometime soon. I hope you're ok ,0 working job recap post abought going interview owner shui place friends dad shes nice dident even give questions im starting tomarow im bus boy cant wait wish luck guys,0 going really hard time lately need ventive struggled alcoholism depression poverty quite bit past quite bit present certain point blacking friends acquaintances couches place place while basically homeless basically wandering aimlessly stopped counting exact days ive sober ago years ive trouble finding aa meetings area closest area ive found reddit applies problems people whove dealt similar things ive dealt with mostly became sober pure necessity even really hard big motivator used member radical cult recruited bottom luck saw horrible things there treated horribly people managed get treated much worse managed escape easy that time got job apartment even gone apartment likely long welder recently laid due cuts make reason even utilities landlord understanding really tolerated beyond grateful towards him right now really even food quite literally food money food that feel incredibly weak numb mostly ive drunk water hungry quite bit last time low least liquor better nothing really friends lost quite friends feel suicidal much feel tired hungry urge drink badly months least maybe id distraction mostly vent id like someone talk well,1 0,1 film favorite comedy time seen lot comediesfirst alli film scriptjust storyboardthe dialogue almost completely written actorswhich makes film absolutely hsytericalthe cast one best comedic ensembles ever seethe story mayflower dog show philadelphia contestants themparker posey shines absolutely greatthis one films laughing comes absolute patheticness characters,0 losing battleanyone feel like losing battle time surrender fought depression anxiety hole life therapy medications alternatives work short term done exhausted cant fight anymore depression won,1 song listen sure looking recommendations im bored filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 What if all along I had depression but decided not to face it with the mentality that my life could really get better,1 redflagtheres pretty big chance ill actually it life really worth trouble all entire life one big painful meaningless existence would absolutely love get hit fucking bus body shattered onto glass get done with brain make feel way want curl ball die worth trouble nothing is worth trying since ill still feel like utter shit rest miserable existence putrid earth children starve women raped egotistical social parasites feed battle might blinded greed tell age know parasitic scumbags latch onto stuff throat,1 know anymorei end rope pain great hard time focusing school work it went counselor enough want end life tell whole story anxiety depression fighting while life actually emotionally mentally abused child finally broke free that found nice guy made feel wonderful myself fast forward almost years broke me unresolved issues engaged years went counselor it that felt pretty alright life going alright finally stop talking ex finding world weeks stopped talking told wanted back loved never would leave again promised never hurt again stupid shit relationship fear another months dating broke again promised time worst isolated world last semester college friends family talk me went back him week almost since break hes already dating someone new loved everything best friend cant take anymore years old suffered much tired hurting tired breaking down tired pain tired effecting everything want die,1 Republican policies and ideology brought the world to the brink of a severe depression and mired us in a deep recession. THEN they had the AUDACITY to do whatever in their power to obstruct the Obama administration to lead us out. #BULLSHIT #MorningJoe,1 Watching the steam trains go back and forth in Ravenglass - sunny! ,0 @earthXplorer http://twitpic.com/6bz8u - There she is sooooo adorable!,0 happy rn feeling suicidal cold yeah thats fun,0 th birthdayi never thought would come far,1 @HooperMatthew yay auditions Good luck!!,0 my bf s ex is now his best friend there like sibling according to them and they love each other like family i m a person that can t handle change well at all they use to hate each other and that wa what i wa use to they became best friend and i try so hard to deal with it and be her friend and accept it but it s so hard for me i ve been trying for month eventually tonight she got in a predicament and i helped her bf get her and calm her down i feel like maybe i m accepting her more and friendship more but this relief feeling want me to k ll myself even more what is this i m so confused i thought having good relationship would make you want to stay more,1 i m not sure if this is the right subreddit to go to but i don t know where else to go my spouse ha struggled with severe depression his whole life it is genetic his dad wa the same any amount of pressure make him worse he constantly feel a though life is not worth living and he s a lost cause he will never feel okay and just want the pain to go away we have a baby coming any day now and i wa worried that pressure wa gon na send him over the edge we have been talking about having him voluntarily go to a psych ward and see if they can help kinda a a last ditch effort before i just give him permission to end it today he talked to his counselor about going to one in a few week after the baby wa here and they came and picked him up an hour later he is pissed doesn t want to be there which i understand is normal he feel completely betrayed by his councellor and never want to go back i m worried that now he is going to pretend like he is fine just to get out the point of this is to get help why won t he just take it i m scared the mental hospital won t help at all i just need you guy who have been there before to be honest with me did it help what thing helped and what made it worse if it doe help or when he come back home what are some thing i can do to continue the healing process or just make his life easier anything else you feel to share please do i hate not knowing thing and this is really killing me right now,1 #emotional #rap #heart #pain #depression @jurrivh https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lz3GVww1p1g#hope … you feel it <3,1 reason overshare internet got judged people real life sharing hide behind anonymity get judged people least,0 hate subreddit im bored asf text m covid makes holidays bday suck lmao,0 sister got scammed hi im younger here sister shes amazing person me mom drive meet aunt cousin cousin chill car aunt mom sister go inside get sweet dress also got crown business idk say name not get home takes crown show us second took pop jewel came out touched one time first got today day nothing happened today takes out puts head two gems popped out crown apparently adhesive used sucked shes freaking it likely got scammed,0 this shit is a good depression killer pic.twitter.com/ztfNNFMJ3k,1 yes call perfect movie one boring second fantastic cast mostly little known actresses actors great array characters well defined understandable motives could sympathize with perfect lighting crisp black white photography fitting soundtrack intelligent harmonious set design story engaging works one prime quality pictures pride hollywood rest mark everyone endeavor reachbr br barbara stanwyck simply stunning nothing actress do always went easy melodramatic side hysterical outbursts lady always thought better actress screen goddesses like bette davis joan crawford movie confirmed opinion always tough nails time conveying true sentiments fair add also got many good parts long career one far least interestingbr br the title fits movie well desires human desires think everyone understand actually one seems scheming movie characters act impulse everybody wants happy without hurting anybody else sad fact often leads complications makes dramatic content go herebr br i liked movie say youth maturing necessity compromise movie associate one alfred hitchcocks shadow doubt creates similar atmosphere idealized time caricatured small town america story certain similarity fritz langs considerably harsher movie clash night made one year earlier stanywck stars similar part also recommend it,0 scale bad day honest answers mental health check,1 dispair islands residents void islands group islands located surface almost dead dimension islands likely alive demonstrate lives changing position shape every years island inhabited tribe natives called the wave missionaries dc another group humans came islands pillaged them began war wave missionaries aggressors missionaries led hato best swordsman islands gifted wave set divine powers aggressors came never specified location led irwin wardlock war ended fall fort hijo hato decided pass powers family mysteriously disappeared leaving note saying ill return listened wave calling me pleasant invitation scream pain years later city founded alliance missionaries another batch humans called londinium years later relative hato grica wallace irwin sets find truth behind shady actions duke abraham lucas fate long lost ancestor hato,0 "@Scaleytron Watch teh video, you can't watch it on your computer cos it doesn't work, but it uploads. On my channel now ",0 f dm question want ill answer school personal nsfw questions allowed please try restrain,0 man tax suck i m horrified that i did something wrong on them turbotax decided to keep around a lot of the stuff i turned off,0 bolajioyebode depression co your mama wear your bata where are these people from,1 cannot believe enjoyed much did anthology stories better par linking story surprise ending hooked me alot familiar faces keep asking where seen before forget running time listed new lines tape aint minutes according vcr timer imdb space maggot douses campfire special way hikes ,0 i ran out of ativan and have been waiting for my refill i also didn t understand the danger of taking it until now i can t really remember how long of a period i wa taking it i ve been prescribed 0 which i take of them every night to fall asleep i am sure i have had break because once my prescription run out i normally take some herbal stuff my question is i am day without ativan do i just quit cold turkey or keep taking it goal is not to be taking ativan anymore,1 id like quote alexander great take life alexander conquering many kingdoms returning home way fell ill took death bed death staring face alexander realized conquests great army sharp sword wealth consequence longed reach home see mothers face bid last adieu but accept fact sinking health would permit reach distant homeland so mighty conqueror lay prostrate pale helplessly waiting breathe last called generals said i depart world soon three wishes please carry without fail tears flowing cheeks generals agreed abide kings last wishes my first desire that said alexander my physicians alone must carry coffin pause continued secondly desire coffin carried grave path leading graveyard strewn gold silver precious stones collected treasury king felt exhausted saying this took minutes rest continued my third last wish hands kept dangling coffin ampxb people gathered wondered kings strange wishes one dared bring question lips alexanders favorite general kissed hand pressed heart o king assure wishes fulfilled tell us make strange wishes alexander took deep breath said would like world know three lessons learnt lessons learnt last wishes king alexander want physicians carry coffin people realize doctor earth really cure body powerless cannot save person clutches death let people take life granted second wish strewing gold silver riches path graveyard tell people even fraction gold come me spent life greed power earning riches cannot take anything me let people realize sheer waste time chase wealth third wish hands dangling coffin wish people know came empty handed world empty handed go world ampxb words king closed eyes soon let death conquer breathed last ,1 guys every feel like awful human matter what nojust me ok guess im weird one then ,0 known depression since young teen noticed last years issues anger ever since car accidents honestly normally pretty laid back even little meek small things like dropping something turn car around forgot something flips switch feel angry want throw destroy things usually go alone cool soon calmed severely depressed ruins days cannot get anything done motivation anything stuff happens feels like happens nowhere happened morning sure deal kind stuff anymore beginning affect work well anger explosive,1 depressed people get assisted redflag i ask id like die id prefer painful prolonged fail,1 hate existing cant take anymore cant get person ever able connect toi able get first relationship ive ever had almost decade person ever able feel anything for cant stop obsessing her recently found might something called limerence want make stop cant dont know do know pathetic cant eat move sleep cant get bed really anything resembling functioning person therapists psychiatrist psychoanalyst and psychologist life advocate spent time residential day mental hospitals ive sent wilderness program months spent year therapeutic bonding school will bounced around high schools held back year could function depression take medications day sleeping pills night rarely get sleep pop ups dreams makes worse almost embarrassed ashamed main problem causing many waves life im feel like years life stolen depression live home cant get job go school choose this cant fucking anymore need stop every day look revolver bought think terrifying unknown nonexistence seems better constant pain live with horrible existential dread fear death struggle think everyone dies eventually even sun eventually die consume earth even whole universe eventually retract self end existence reality know it seems like better option take inevitability hands unfeeling universe creates things consume them story met girl small artsy alternative high school around lets say so course months became really good friends knew completely love her worked courage tell felt started dating girl little weird love either notice didnt care examples are phase wearing wolf tail thinking kind animal spirt something wore lord rings cloak lot time bit another phase transgender new thing one alternate personality named shadow hated me on seemingly switching old one get attention bother time person ever felt kind connection entire life dont know due fact adopted dont feel anything real connections people family ive never real friends either social skills knowledge make them never found anyone wanted connect beyond surface level interaction dont currently friends even anyone talk anyone outside house beyond basic interactions people buying things passively existing world girl something something made feel complete felt better motivation things accomplish could even tried absolute hardest move grade could get school time thought spending year without time horrible thing could imagine current psychoanalyst thinks sensory issues spd part autism spectrum stuff have main issue may may true know person ever wanted touch touched by mainly sexual thing ive never liked hugged touched family anyone else made feel even isolated parents slightly distant sad hated people physically showing affection never wanted it different loved could never get enough point im sure annoyed would push away physically emotionally pull back constantly although never actually sex thats detail help think things would make happy think things want main thing pops constantly hug her nothing more hold long could lounge feeling someone also friend group seemed value relationship times would publicly break stay secretly even put phone contact fake name unattractive kind person people would feel shame around normally something head group seeing differently seeing girl something although want get it high school boys want play finger fencing girl desperately trying touch breast would often break things devastated me come back letting win back want put like that mainly trying talk thinking friends ignoring altogether russia lived mom assume father issues obsessed knives weapons took many different fighting martial arts classes even medical sword fighting course again time seemed cool anything would talk hours hours got know incredibly well although things would never tell things found analyzing things facebook yeah pre facebook remember that details almost like wanted people follow breadcrumbs learn personality constantly gave gifts mostly specialized knives weapons some mildly illegal desperate show felt form kind powerful bond would harder break quite bit talking wasnt person though texting messaging also breakups happened never face face one particularly devastating time came parents made easter basket never gotten one life fun time weekend next thing heard something trying push away often spent night others houses think non americans accepting parents knew important me never full one sex desperate literally sleep her literally cuddle bed sleep wake up thats it never got to although fair amount cuddling again loved handful relationships since despite best efforts could never care way feel anything for truly loved girl sadly still do finally ended good one summer spent entire day together talking apologizing hurting many times promising never break things again guessed it break next morning fucking text caused year old write verry angry violent letter spread around school sparking would become multi year downfall seen maybe times years since always writing long winded letter planning elaborate meeting designed rekindle feelings get foot back door russian restaurant presented sword ring made accepted time mailed back ever get full sized sword rejection letter mail recently saw months ago asked help explained life mental state gave full control time place etc picked city square used meet took basically walking tour landmarks tired memories uncanny mean literally every single one boston relatively small city sure could met anywhere all picked square met infront library walked park finally told felt even ended abandoned hotel ballroom hard explain used go time hang out powerful times spent together claimed remember purpose hard time would forget that took edibles medical card bought cry infront talked this boy backfire took one to one own even offer one claimed did come man quite bullshit weak ones too similar note first time real sexual contact together smoked weed fake weed plus never inhaled correctly bong got full hit high way matters drugs fake plan anything taking advantage could get real weed time really wanted seem cooler was looking back and time thought seemed needed excuse bogus catalyst act feelings me believe feelings stronger ever allowed realize wanted believe again like edibles seemed like need fake reason act buffer people objective reality someone dealing severe alcoholism drug addiction understand craving need put something reality seems weird point want obsession stop didnt want choose this cant get fucking thing head really running life still cant make stop point understand objectively horrible person claimed caused obsessive behavior others met one online long time ago little girl went school kind pheromone thing animal magnetism charisma still even last meeting something makes feel whole feel like physical hole heavy weight center torso never goes away currently using parents money travel job dads shady russian tech company really unhealthy poliamerus sexual relationship guys seems built around commit center attention times really cant see future happy without her know unlikely healthy horrible person thats really want,1 "@ScruffyPanther your like me too many baby genes, feed us too much we sleep ",0 often think question perfect life world one quite same wish place simply bad thing would perfect life look like,1 someone please help chemistry homework please makes sense im hyper ventilating please ill anything,0 rachelcmrn i don t like goodnights,0 start bruh chain bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh,0 mild spoilersbr br and thats top ten time stumbled across two hands accident maybe made special inflated expectations ifc one night believe heard anything it heath ledger getting famous usa im sure available time telling friends film one could find anywhere except occasional ifc showingbr br anyway blackcomedygangster genre fits well favorites everybody film really seems end deserve bryan brown hilarious main gangster makes origami small son plays scrabble henchmen also hilarious quickedit fate random car thief even heath pretty good it time vaguely remembered shortlived series fox called roar hopefully gregor jordan make another hit far im concerned best yet,0 @YoungQ have a safe flight ....... Take care *I was just chatting with yah a while back* ahhh what a life.. LOL,0 ive thinking redflag loti think daily set desk work think awesome would constant torment recently got divorced woman put depression irritability anymore im year old man going home apartment alone one share life with odd feeling know months ago things fine great job nice house school working masters rocky semi stable relationship amazing dogsto coming home silence reason done parents brother thought pain dealing committing act stops tracks could never them hope stay committed them text ex still things pretty cordial part however already started looking someone get that could already looking relationship act high mighty already slept someone else im even close ready relationship even reality people suck tell everything ok pass hard see im currently standingfuuuuuucccckkkkk,1 completely addicted to my iphone it s like a bad habit,0 appreciation post uwholesomecuddlesuwu probably one awesomest people ive seen subreddit uwutalk cringe maybe idk use time weird yes wholesome hell yes need people like world everything feels like shit easy task all so thank ,0 @theamazingchase Here sheepy sheepy....here sheepy sheepy....wake up ,0 looking someone share art critique others art bored art friends live america time difference big art best id happy get geniune critique even hurts ego please give advice actually know draw though,0 my father disagrees with me on everything and always brings nay topic up he know will annoy me i m only one person s true friend and even that is flimsy my stepfather bearly talk to me my mom always make acscusses about being mean i m atheist and my whole family is except sister are christian and think i m a failure for it my grade are going no where i see no point in continuing if god is real i m going too hell which is what i deserve i don t even know if these thing are true i hate myself and is not great at anything i don t know how i would even kill myself but if i saw a car coming i would not get out of the road if god isn t real ill never have to worry again because i don t exist anymore i just dont want too live and don t tell me the generic nonsense i ve heard it before it doesn t work,1 know how success rate chance still there want see light see shitty lonely times struggle psychotic symptomssomeone want chat comments got plans tonight,1 resent kids daysi keep thinking robe belt have efficient assume would be keeps getting easier imagine finish this stars aligning make happen say goodbye thing preventing kids guess yet feel like would much better without me eventually forget me right fudge probably not mom would them days resent them keeping alive,1 @oboymikee ohhhhhhhhhhhh mikeeeeeeeeeeee where are you ,0 dannymcfly haha tell me about it i dont get it either x,0 third post sorryi sorry feel like commiting redemption posting anonymous feel better receiving anonymous love care internet sorry disappoint go everywhere disappoint say sorry mean hate disappointing disappointing you talk much sorry keep much sorry still figuring out go sleep live disappoint wake another day disappoint people around me say i love you like mean say easy cry disappointed you hate thinking much thinking enough sorry love ,1 "There. I've done my spamming for the night. Heh. Need to go write, now ... Howdy, all! Hope folks had a good day. ",0 Just watched the MotoGP qualifying...simply gripping! Great results - looking forward to the races tomorrow ,0 lets play simon says simon says open mouth swallow daddys cum,0 gonna make offer cannot refuse ampxb httpspreviewredditmdhklakyrpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsddbeefccdfffcfabfb,0 recognize totally steal ulovelytoasterbath uwu,0 emoji mean u title filler forty forty footer filler filler filler filler filler filler forty forty filler filler,0 payingim gonna kill myself rn,1 @alexandramusic Beyonce does the birdie song http://bit.ly/5ANNN i thought you might enjoy this ,0 is giddy. still giddy ,0 therapy expensive completely unpredictable therapist even able healthily provide needs personality therapist shit rambled much life gave toxic advice thought way out three year later still struggling everyone tells go therapy free even done times every time crave thought therapy feel like desperately need it think price immediately pulled off want go therapy price feels like obstacle need constantly passi get people make livelihoods pay quadruple age group make hour talk feelings tell stuff already know people say money make happiness think therapy done hours research trying find cheaper therapist cheapest found like therapy cost much advice thrown everywhere,1 last night i had a dream that ha been weighing on my mind all day long even now a i prepare for bed i cant shake the memory of it and i fear that it will be revisited in more horrible way than before the love of my life stephanie is traveling home with two of her male friend from a party their car is forced off the road by a pair of car and armed men jump out and pull them from their vehicle the friend are brutally executed with a hail of gunfire and stephanie covered in their sticky blood is forced into the trunk of one of their car pleading with the men she is taken to a dark place and sold a an object and she becomes the victim of human trafficking for 0 year i pine for my lost love a i wonder about her disappearance and out of the blue i learn of her fate and also her whereabouts i go to the gun store she is being held in and spy her in a back room chained inside a cage her form battered and bedraggled and only a sliver of her once beautiful form remaining i make pleasantry with the men behind the counter a i surreptitiously draw from my pocket a blade asking for the price of an item on the shelf behind him i draw the attention of one of the men away from me making him turn around when his back is turned i take my knife and swiftly slit his throat throwing his gagging body to the floor with shocked look on their face the other two men in the store watch a i bound over the counter and stab the first of them to death through his chest with a leap across the room i take hold of the last of them and we struggle furiously a he force the blade from my hand causing it to clatter to the floor we fight ferociously and eventually i best my foe caving in his skull with a piece of furniture and pulling the cage key from his pocket covered head to toe in gore i unlock stephanie s cage and help her to freedom she look at me like i m some fresh hell being visited on her but i reveal myself for who i am and tell her that she is rescued she burst into tear of relief and sob for hour over all the horrible thing she ha been forced to do and to witness for year nearly uncounted and i console her until she is calmed i produce for her a pair of cupcake that i had prepared before entering the store and had set aside i tell her that the first is made of sugar and apple and is all the sweet thing i will give to her the second is made of coffee and rat poison and will taste bitter but will be the end of her suffering at long last i give her the choice and without a moment hesitation she take the latter and eats heartily of it sending the former to the floor forgotten she smile a wan grin at me and tell me thank you before closing her eye and looking finally at peace with her lot i hold her in my arm to keep her warm and safe a she pass on into the next world unable to live with what ha happened to her in her captivity at this point i awoke and stared at the pillow beneath me and imagined all the terrible thing that stephanie must have experienced and for a long moment i wa horrified it wa only then that the realization that it wa a dream hit me and i remembered the truth stephanie ha been dead for fifteen year she took her own life in a fit of depression and did not in fact fall victim to human trafficking at this realization i said aloud i m glad you killed yourself with an unspoken underscore of this realization that she hadn t been sold a thought that in no way ha ever formed in my mind or lip before that moment writing out this account already make me feel better and i think i might be able to brave another round of unconsciousness though i have no doubt another mare of the night will visit this is my first reddit posting and i thank you for reading it,1 @gratzer94 When I saw @thirdday in South Bend- I had them 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LOL ,0 tomorrow crush hangout part going house seeing really goes well feel like will gut feeling likes back see,0 committing redflag well it seen coming sooner made case parents want investigate redflag mom dad im sorry,1 delete rdr cod rainbow six delete cod definitely download red dead delete rainbow might delete small game havent played cod since like early july hoping season bring back havent played rainbow since like may something im playing play rainbow first game got xbox one great memories it,0 lightsnoor funfact c est scientifiquement prouv que oui la lumi re a un effet sur le moral de gen plus ou moins prononc d o le depression d hiver quand y en a moins ect donc au fond on est tous de plantes,1 Enjoying a quiet saturday afternoon ,0 so i have a stutter and i ve always been insecure about it i wa with my best friend and his friend and his friend made fun of someone s stutter because he s not aware i stutter this made me realize how easy it is to make fun of people behind their back i felt really bad that night and started cry when i got home cause it made me realize i didn t know who wa being real with me and i felt a tho i wa devalued flash to today and it wa still bugging me but i realized something those people aren t exclusively making fun of people like me but making fun of a lot more than a stutter people are made fun of for stutter tic religion sexuality lisp appearance and more i realized it s not my problem to worry about them and most people that make fun of others will show themselves with time and real nice people will never do that this made me content and i wa happy i forgot about it for the most part and went about my business but i posted something to reddit about it and someone said they had a similar experience and it lead to going into psychosis and being paranoid about people talking badly about them this made me almost have a panic attack when i wa eating with my parent because going psychotic is one of my biggest fear ever since then i ve felt so anxious it took a good 0 0 minute to calm myself down and not be on the edge of a panic attack ever since then i can t shake this thought but now for a different reason instead of worrying who s judging me i m worrying if i believe it i ve had this fear before but when it s bad it get so bad it feel like i m already psychotic even tho i m not and today wa one of those day it feel like the thought you believe if fact and i have terrible depersonalization this ha happened time before this and normally after a good sleep my anxiety tone down a bit but since this is a little different and it started out without that anxiety doe that mean i am going crazy instead of thinking anyone is judging me i keep asking myself if i think these specific people at my work would judge me idk why once again that wa cause ocd started to ob on it now but since i had this thought before ocd doe it mean i m going crazy or am i sane since i m worrying so much about it,1 @websmith1 You find interesting movies. Sounds like a good one... ,0 chronic pain redflagis anyone contemplating redflag due chronic pain,1 retire starting drama im bored good habit makes annoying,0 nearly always youi hate good enough live day day trying find things look forward,1 th birthday todayyy leave nnani,0 hahim breakdown feel like gettinginto car going full speed tree might selfish dont care itll affect,1 theres something saidtheres something said man thats planning death children grown leading lives own years minimum finally end pain im constantly in problem is nobody believes im much pain blame noticing tend hide things quite well time resolve slowly starting fade day feel clawing psychosis edge mind desire end finally find semblance peace day gets harder harder deal with feel slowly slipping backwards real hope desire stop it ive come accept thing painful so im tired tired visions voices tired demon see mirror tired seeing dead son every day unable touch him matter much want hard try torture torture nobody know could ever hope understand im fragment person used be even wish like this ive seen parents like myself problems inadvertently children grow up son knows something wrong see face looks me happy yet sad time im glad hes still young enough understand never want understand lest hate ive become im going stick rest lives im gone want them them think all im worth remembering day go bed last concious thought hoping never wake again ive thought killing times count ive almost done several times back last minute wife cant understand matter try explain it often cant weather unable refuses cant say long ive come realize want to sad thing love much hurt people ive heard much many times ever question it everybody else right wrong always way even childhood wonder anybody actually even believes me again doubt it show it care frankly theyre better care make easier forget im finally dead cruel heartless ignorant stupid selfish lazy im nothing eyes know me faux friendships serve reinforce beliefs act distraction simply wait years tick by i wish never met wife say anger hatred say feel sorry her stuck monster like bound break even resolute person ive ever known know loves me wish didnt would free this free kids free live life pleases like always wanted to even blame leaving without kids id right take solace fact finally happy thoughts relentless even mind drifts various kitchen knives disposal easy would simply slice open quiet enough could right nobody would know till morning tempting honest myself im problem ive always problem know try deny it im cancer everyone know cancer really one recourse cut out irradiate shit bury deep ground even time forgets it secretly thats want thats want buried forgotten way cant anymore harm love sure pain would feel might considerable somebody like would should forgotten quickly demise celebrated good thing world im nothing poison wish would keel die toxicity possible again something would welcome thing would deserve thing deserve nobody honest though see eyes even mouths never speak words hard miss know deserve too something im argue theyre correct simply deserve die,1 cant muster strength go class anymore anything reallyim tired college im tired life gotten bed three days already missed classes doctor appointment which im going get back june health insurance country sucks want continue living already tried kill twice past guess enough cant even use sleep escape anymore either oversleep wake feeling like id rather dead cant sleep days swear im going kill fail or any semester finishing college basically thing keeping back redflag but ironically hate lectures attending makes feel worse even point going like this,1 Nice new proj at work! Ride on! ,0 My anxiety keeps me awake and antsy but my depression makes me unmotivated and not wanna do anything. Please let this end...,1 anyone experience type therapy so process like helped struggle regression therapyanyone tried it,1 little brother got fucking ps birthday give dollar lego set pack batteries stuff thing is hes years old back age xbox ds years kids days,0 mizfitonline is ur host down i m getting nothin,0 struggling emotionsi wrote followup last post here link bottom one hard thing always gets depressed weak mental state cope emotions probably happens too sentient beings deal emotions thoughts all would like write get chest maybe help someone read also experiences similar things grow older feelings get complex sometimes mentally prepared get struggling them usually struggle emotions thoughts late nigh layed bed left alone sympathize with feel lost one thing remember even alone moment one someone else went someone else will remember everytime find alone invite feel lost remember that better things await feel worth it remember worth it feel desperate look calmness feel world gonna end you remember world rainbow come storm comes sunshine alongside it __________________________________________________ thinking much losing sleep thoughts httpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentspgsthinking_too_much_and_losing_sleep_thoughts __________________________________________________,1 reason havent killed yet would really hurt familyi feel like im walking thin ice dont know much longer keep going plan im missing when feel day getting closer though feel like im letting cause love know level blame themselves guess easier thinking affect friends since managed cut life except roommates for obvious reasons even though tried im lost point dont think im coming back wish wasnt good pretending im okay im much coward ask help,1 father real macho guy thinks mentally ill people lazy giving poor excuses definitely cannot understand going through today went away meet mothermy grandmother talk alone mother problem is told mental health before probably year ago sheampfather said it stay indoors day go exercise usual shit since than stayed silent home know today best day talk it cannot it least years since depressed could gather courage younger supposed that know do know strength it,1 @meofthesea It's how depression works for a lot of ppl :(,1 owe moneyi owe dollars friend thats thing keeping alive soon repay him im gone already job months over,1 feel like redflag waaaaayyyyy overduelike guy charge redflags getting fucking slammed rn finna get fired soon cause shoulda bitch like year ago idk im still even,1 cant post images here filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler 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decision thought would never regret thrown drain im christian trans girl basically got harassed another trans woman apparent reason didnt provoke anything literally mentioned offhand christian suddenly angry comments message someone telling faith fake im horrible person believing god dont even feel welcome one community nice anymore fuck everything im fucking done planet,1 people quarantine still crushes like hypothetically lets say quarantines going maybe months seen crush seen heard internet ie online classes socials people like respect cause loyal af cant even remember classsmates faces now,0 i accessed oneindia mobi from a google phone android it doesn t support indic language,0 least one person really gettin tiddy sucked rn god wish joseph joestar fucker,0 haven t had one in awhile took med still nothing helped,1 43 53 minutes till i get this smelly cast off lol ripping off a fat ranga c*** lololol seeing if he will fighters me lol,0 thoughts redflagit feels like im clawing sort meaning none keep telling end already selfish know do feel like im spiraling control tried getting help got list numbers im reluctant call need help know find it,1 still depressed hard recount deep lows got point would lay bed eat weight eventually differentiation tasks like eating jogging watching tv became laying bed anything else not laying beddid care dressed shoes drove around goal paid bill pure apathy care was long dying oknothing made upset getting point care hair looked awful killing it care looking bad comfortable feel nothing worries would ever bother leavebut end year looked mirror lbs overweight friends hobbies aspirations nothing recognize myself entire year felt like one long day laying bed anybody get point things could say none matters anymore,1 teenage trump supporters give best reasons would vote upcoming election,0 @ShelbyRayne oh yeah it was! haha i loved that part w/ the basset hound ,0 think redflag every dayi feel numb cant feel happy past years depressed always feel like simply suffer anyone else see bullied heavily victim blamed childhood my fault getting bullied every time feel like wasting summer matter also worry lot family going summer ends last summer bad nowhere near bad,1 reaching breaking pointive diagnosed severe my psychiatrists words own depression long time things finally reaching breaking point everyday seems living hell earth school friends consistently ignore treat like im outsider ever really talk either a im emotional breakdown b none friends around that act like im there or worse still like im painful nuisance worst all one person used talk this first person told depression worst offender every time see which often feel like knifes twisted stomach romantic life similar ive never kissed never girlfriend every time ive asked someone out ive denied hard school painfully boring best torturous slog worst grades shitter were talking low cs ds someone who last year straight student and matter hard try lack drive ability bring up home life bad family tries help me none understand depression like act depression simply means im sad top this feel like im carrying great weight shoulders lack energy anything lack drive willpower try improve lot antidepressants im simply damn thing anymore abandoned betrayed friends misunderstood family im cracking weight me simply going fuck you leaving reinvent option waiting high school hoping things get better college option im standing death seems way out back september attempted commit redflag failed next time im sure lucky,1 goodbyedont bother responding case anyone cares enough find happened killing within hour,1 Is modern society making us depressed? This entertaining Podcast looks at the Extrinsic Values our Western Culture produces. Like 'junk food' we're ingesting an abundance of 'junk values' that are driving an alarming rise of depression in society. http://ow.ly/3QBY30jG4Pc ,1 rconspiracy disappointing expected thought gonna interesting stuff people leaked government documents cia files etc etc said said american elections sides pathetic virus bad anti vaxx good stupid theres barely decent conspiracy even top time picture chinese masacre everyone nows us politics article epsitines death screenshot hillary clintons guy asking help hoe delete email files archive utter shit,0 opinion give opinion anything long isnt political sexual please nothing political sexual that anything works,0 dont want anything anymorei dont wants mean dont know want be dont know anything mistakes ive made life feel like im gonna anything good ever come ever never anything life dont remember day havent money issues childhood now life feels like long endless struggle minimal enjoyment dont feel like even talk people live lives seemingly much better own feel like far apart unreal like genuinely dont even feel attracted girls look like together go girls look like shits falling apart feel like maybe relate either dont attract initially find things arent actually bad aesthetic dont really end things common real best friends feel like betrayed every expectation parents ever placed point redemption feels impossible cant even expect people even like me feel like people wouldnt like im worth even liking dont even want anymore love family keeps ending becuase cant let sad dont want live long enough make opinion worse im stuck spend weeks clean sniff ket week anxiety keeps rinse repeat im overwhelmed,1 sad put idiots would sad nothinghey reddit name collin im live south us frame reference struggled depression throughout teenage years honestly hoped would grow it somethingapparently cards last summer took first job college really excited first noticed growing distant everyone know now first time life friends hate living south hate job people work none make working conditions horrible anything get along well problem legitimately terrible people part im close mom really ive never known dad never close family call friends talk to either wake every day palpable feeling extreme sadness inside like im verge bursting tears ive even begun day getting harder harder actually get up literally reason keep want keep paying bills lately though ive started wondering bother keeping lights shit going life aside work really want it guys im threatening anything thought mind pretty consistently long time now made one attempt maybe obviously successful tried since though struggled thoughts im scared alone feel completely vulnerable want live life like this see point even when past things sunshine daisies walltowall feel overwhelmingly depressed sad absolutely reason want lifetime know im asking for exactly want hurt anyone taking picture thought redflag actually scares me think im scared living like longer though makes ending everything seem pretty damn appealing ps saw post talking great finally get help op told friends actually felt horrible noticing suicidal great awesome circumstances isolated one gives fuck even alive not thats feel like i am wish one person besides mother lives hours away legitimately cared feelings want feel loved know it started crying desk work bathroom,1 @mileycyrus take care then ,0 film reminds nd street starring bebe daniels ruby keeler watch film lot reminded nd street especially character eloise whos temperamental star ends falling breaks ankle like bebe daniels nd street another performer gets part become star film like race films keeps people watching great entertainment race films always showed black entertainment truly popular time era dancing styles music dressing styles love it movie could big made hollywood would better scenery better filming money would make movie better worth watching good micheaux good little has say micheauxs films swing best movie features singers dancers actresses actors popular forgotten today doli armena awesome female trumpet player blow horn good think gabriel blowing horn sky sexy hot female dancer consuela harris would put ann miller gyspy rose lee shamebr br adding info popular blues singer s s cora green focus film mandy good hard working woman good man takes money spend women nosy neighbor played amanda randolph tells mandy seen heard mandy goes club catches man attractive curvy woman name eloise played hazel diaz hotcha entertainer s fight breaks out mandy goes harlem reunites somewhat guardian angel lena played one beautiful women movies dorothy van engle lena provides mandy home job helps become star temperamental cora smith played hazel guess playing two parts maybe changed stage name tries ruin show bad behavior cora gets drunk breaks leg lena convinces everyone mandy right job lena right star born mandy tall long lanky handsome carman newsome cool aspiring producer lena looks well pretty boy larry seymour plays good man lena threatens him might shape up highlights one sticks part cora smith hazel diaz struts late rehearsal goes everyone man comes punches jaw thats enough almost gets fight mandy again theres great entertainment chorus girls tap dancers shake dancers swing music blues singing theres even white people watching entertainment wonder micheaux found them theres even scene theres blacks whites sitting together club micheaux frequently integrated blacks whites films commended bold movebr br this movie first race film really enjoyed helped introduced oscar micheaux movie one best race film genre behind scenes story ups downs show businessbr br no early race films may best cant compared hallelujah green pastures stormy weather cabin sky carmen jones hollywood films great watch early signs black filmmaking plus films provide glimpse black life black entertainment black persons eyes films gave blacks chance play people walks life beautiful classy elegant stereotypes whites felt blacks portrayed like hollywood actors actresses race films best ones could afforded time micheaux spencer williams afford nina mae mckinney josephine baker ethel waters fredi washington paul robeson rex ingram bigger stars micheaux black white race filmmakers would use nightclub performers movies good great actors actresses think micheaux others knew good actors actresses used apart experiment true talent wanted stories told return many black performers got perform true talents films true actorsactresses race films type films could get work especially want play hollywood stereotypes think able spot true actorsactresses nightclub performers race films historic could lost forever many lost maybe race films greatest example cinema even hollywood films start great beginning think race film genre continued would better looking great acting race films ones looking real example black entertainment blacks portrayed films watch race films entertaining race films good acting cast moon harlem body soul paradise harlem keep punching sunday sinners dark manhattan broken strings boy girl mystery swing miracle harlem sepia cinderella good entertainment good acting,0 i have fucking shin splint im in pain drug please i never realised they could be so painful,0 even botheryo back september almost ended life didnt though keep thinking mistake to got bullied years never really friend besides mom family even acknowledge existence let alone family tried months make friends always find looking like fool female crush whenever talk gives one word answers acts uninterested me try make freinds week two never talk again glad never drank used drug did would probability lose control end life everyday drink looks tempting make forget pain live day hiding feelings get home feel like worst thing planet time go sleep near tears wake morning feel like physical embodiment pain cycle continues want stop want give up,1 @joshmacfall Hey you! I heard the Gimp Ninja script is great! Can't wait to see it! ,0 get know hello name sergio years old adhd also born months early survived months hospital that worry that anyways im gamer plays much smash brothers friends,0 hii bit bored want debate write opinion think accepted people often considered conterversialnohttpsconterversialno need toxic,0 got pc among us hit apollo discord,0 husband dealing depression two years now two small children together going therapist taking medications days good days really bad truly makes feel like hates fault later apologizes confusing know think anymore depressive person make spouse feel good enough,1 @Jonasbrothers you`re my angels ,0 brother hanging pic brother caught disaster hit httpsimgurcomakrljcl tricks filming one point messed fell nuts screenshot it rip future nephews nieces,0 suicidal hotlines manned people previously attempted redflagif thing already,1 im homeless drink coom survive yeah u read title filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 every day feel so fucking long and school feel even longer somehow,1 @Raeknightowl4 haha the lord heard my prayer ,0 running optionsi feel stupid ive always kept redflag plan b case things go wrong recently found im graduating college time feel like im letting everyone down mainly family thats invested much me ive gotten good lying im cant lie anymore stupid end world feels like it want difficult conversations know do want out feel guilty posting know put feelings feel like cant honest anyone,1 so i took for my first time and it made me a little sleepy but it didn t help my anxiety much but i had the most lucid dream last night and wa literally pinching my skin trying to wake myself up is that normal i m really scared about it,1 mum called mental health servicesbecause bought equipment kill myself went sisters amazon account ordered last night itll arrive today sister saw email called mother tell her want die such want give stop hurting cry help mum called attention seeker guess am im frightened theyll admit hospital nurse arriving shortly assess me mum wants leave house said days wants out says obviously need help im letting mental illnesd consume want around anymore im lazy dirty disgusting ive crying days im god damn depressed feel completely ruined family going find feel sick guilt shame see way anymore im better dead everyone wish guts end it last night episode calmness made mind killing myself right feel hopeless,1 theres point literallylife pointless thing me work hours day days week im years old mom dad family yalk fall back on city im full people care leaving friends passions whenever id like develop interest get home working hours pass exhaustion taught life fucking pointless get work whole life get work family even share life want bring children disgusting world us vs them life nothing stress stress payment payment one loves me everyone gone every one else busy want care me even care me never eat constantly high work so fuck might well get high chance get whats shitter im scared pain anything cry beg die,1 end ropeim kids financial failure burden brother parents cant make good decision time try get life straight end screwing again im work leave surgery havent paid month wont get paid middle january fail attempt relationships basically im unlovable useless im coward ive plan plan cant find courage it family would better without me im chicken shit follow through,1 and more of 30 rock too! ,0 @BTCare i hope so i'm only getting 0.5 Mbs ,0 @TayJasper alrite thanxx ,0 bet guys cant find rare piece internet over youtube videos still say three years ago around hours left,0 final goodbye well like first hello last goodbye one ive never posted subreddit now ill teenager hours im banished adulthood grow elder eventually cease together fun lasted ill see dudes side,0 m&d's i think soooo ,0 "under 24 hours left to vote for @protagonize at #LPV7! if you haven't voted yet, please drop by and help us out http://tr.im/n7QC",0 first second third place kahoot science kahoot shits giggles used phone two laptops playing got gold silver bronze crazy part class accused cheating even though multiple accounts actually caveat made harder still crushed pathetic asses,0 one really gives fuck thinking honestly one seems care much iim second option,0 there is stage of grief denial anger bargaining depression and acceptance,1 timeim going lay train tracks today thanks support,1 orangeflowers me too it scary not the clutter but the unclean pain keep me awake lately but shld start subsiding in a wk or so,0 Have a good friday night ,0 @_Oodledoodle s'all good we want ahealthy sized group goin with us ,0 today last day earthtoday last day existence last time close eyes last silence ive looking long time solution nuisance seems obvious monotony today im wearing shirt tie im going go work im going give damn goodbye cruel world already late me cant go back rope already tightening neck leap towards deliverance able stop me least please look sky next time think me,1 the leeds festival twitter man ha lied there is no update,0 holiday question yall ever open gift early christmas eve,0 ive stagnating life yearsi meaningful progress turn everythint touch shit mental issues betrayed close friends dont know function anymore im getting closer every day finally pulling plug,1 redditors tv show gay character,0 july june hi im new here buttoday day ive battling depression literally life past month may honestly worse mothers day hit hard coupled year anniversary moms passing may girlfriend ended breaking icing cake everybody always leaves need most theres attempts past weeks alone last one ended admitted days time called ex told sorry everything response please stop contacting me talk slap face stab back two days got discharged one worse anxiety attacks ive ever had ended breaking telling aunt nightmares ive god brother cousin trying touch little ive never told one family never even got chance tell mom passed away heart broken guys seeing mom pass away front friend getting murdered girl love turning need her everything falling apart around me cant handle anymore know sounds silly hurts id better dead alive everyone would happier without know true cant anymore,1 doneive already taken several ibuprofen pills maybe melatonin pills wait head starting feel heavy hopefully wake anymore do still zantac pills hopefully trick ok best,1 delete reddit account someone explain me jsjsjjsnsndndndndndnndnxmcmcmcmcmmcmcmcmcmfmfmfmcmfmmfmdmdmfmfmfmfmmffm fill space post,0 kill myselfim getting close snapping anyone life im distant entire family feels like everyone would prefer dead family hates everyone else loneliness utterly painful nobody talk anything online anonymously post much reddit makes feel pathetic ive lived many years life full im starting come high horse im coming hard nothing interests seems like things cause thats gotta do really want work rest life thought sucks much im afraid everyone social anxiety debilitating hate room feels like everyone glaring judging me think everything general anxiety gets intense fight away distractions keeps working anything else im maladaptive daydreamer ive spent years laying bed dreaming exaggeration done many things ive daydreamed instead pathetic could never build another connection human being never feel close another human being theyre distant bring everyone down like im outside world looking in im fucking lonely guys so lonely horrible school starting eighth grade sat room never work never even got job volunteer service hung friends its good years now friends nobody earth goddammit alone submitted mediocre college apps im loser pos ill probably end working dead end job hate like everyone else whole family fuck hate thought much want work horrible miserable job rest life want go community college want fucking city want run away start completely over want completely totally different human being want anymore addicted video games many years lost many experiences guns house think might kill weekend cant find guns im going go buy strongest sleeping pills sturdiest rope ill way im done im fucking poison earth im fucking done im gonna stop now cant read screen tears im starting shake problems infantile stupid im whiny needy entitled bitch even bother posting stuff never helps nobody cares nobody ever cares yeah im leaving soon im home alone tomorrow next day goodbye everyone sorry ill write note tonight,1 "@nopattern merzbow's nice,good for work. did you give lamb of god's latest album a listen? seen you talking about gojira the other day ",0 multiple half assed redflag attempts since elementary schoolnot sure much actually intend say ive suicidal long remember think first attempt around age suicidal thoughts constant life since then age ive tried kill times success struggled self harm that got close trying lost motivation even resorted staring floor realizing would fuck like past times planning going field near house jamming knife stomach probably badly worded whatever im incredibly frustrated especially years denied help medical malpractice bullshit pushing closer closer killing myself kept alive peoples sake,1 im taking driving test im kinda nervous wish luck guys,0 bored probably need talk someone dont really know anymore new rule dumb fuller filler filler,0 long bowserbye bye,1 ok tried hanging myself work matter much pressure try put arteries feel explosive head sensation black out wtf one thing want life cant accomplish it gotta say feels peaceful this maybe keep trying one time ill get right spot whole life building to destiny feel it,1 choke like choke choke choke choke want boyfriend choke idk tell hes bottom relationship,0 rejected disney college programhi everyone got rejected disney college program broke heart much feel worthy anymore now give keep trying even though sent nudes past apps cant make deal disney employers something,1 Time for bed... Last day of school tomorrow! ,0 number mental breakdowns number near mental breakdowns nearly mental breakdown wish someone would understand going head time entry log day ,1 what the fuck youku i want to watch skin,0 listening to murd and 9th wonder just chillen out missing my crazy sex life,0 remarkably well done underrecognized limited distribution bigstudio feel understands horror genre speeds along clever plot twists never stumbles could college cult classic ever gotten opportunity,0 glinner don t think that s the right username for mr brook,0 porn addiction thats right something though,0 deliciously nasty black comedy middleaged schlub danny devito wants bump mother hatches plan bitter divorce wants bump exwife movie completely unapologetic cynicism gives us one like works movies favor rather turn offbr br anne ramsey devitos battle axe mom steals show grotesquely funny performance even though horror end rooting her seems like could kick devitos crystals asses time hands tied behind backbr br grade b,0 know stay honest people want helpi know start this im year old male depressed since teenager past couple months ive considering redflag option im feel strong enough able change life im jobless skilless job years pretty bad anxiety people driving interact people afraid drive know people love life feel like unable love someone cannot even love myself thing stopping killing chance failure redflag given sure method would likely it ive never selfharmed done drugs almost never drank alcohol want even pain problems life october hospitalized suicidal thoughts days lied feelings could leave still suicidal thoughts beginning december hospitalized broke therapists office suggested hospitalized days thing happened lied feelings want anymore hospital suggested try ect electroconvulsive therapy depression seems like big step trying medicines that right im prozac abilify ive tried medicines besides prozac know keep honest others trying help me know hurts long run ran fucks give,1 enough died i died i died i death but am delayed death years what nothing everyday same getting better never going get better old old writing getting supportive comments children younger hurting more fucking deal shit going live live like fucking adult going die die like fucking adult stop acting lika fucking cry baby stop fishing comments going help me cannot stand myself cannot live myself die myself incapable anything it really to maybe writing shit fishing pity too pathetic fucking disgusting done comment please talking myself enough,1 i just can t do this anymore how the fuck did i make it to 9 at i tried to kill myself and thing got so so so much worse so bad that i didn t know it wa possible to live in such agonizing pain i hate people and i hate myself and i hate this life but i will miss the sunset i wish i could ve made it work but i couldn t do it anymore bye earth i ll be underground now,1 You guys are the best friends a guy can ever have never met online ,0 when will i finally get over this cold,0 forget star signs whats blanket tog rating ,0 "@mileycyrus you have changed my life, thankyou i love you so much, God Bless, your my hero ",0 @stormeranna_ Life and general depression and anxiety over my future,1 rsurrection battle 0 copaincopain mon avis a moi aquatennens le oliennes depression sont de eoliennes eole vent,1 Happy Birthday Snickers!!!! ? 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Find out How to Deal with #Menopause and #Depression: https://buff.ly/2Gc1Hby  pic.twitter.com/b7tLz4vuJ0,1 guten morgen up and off to get ready to go to phantasialand cologne yay but booooo last park of holiday,0 time goi know know worth blah blah im getting divorce wife going take everything should amazing person ive married years never loved her married age guilt took tennessee utah got pregnant anyways chose leave wife still wants home ive multiple affairs current affair recently came light kids going hate comes fully out plan settle debts selling semi successful construction business make look like disappeared want leave house paid whatever cash left over want die want know easiest way make look like disappeared instead commented redflag im depressed crazied state mind want least painful way family im still around feel like wife never move children suffer going work out,1 thoughts teasing people havent done since got boyfriend would little body showing thats nothing tooooo revealing dont feel like leading someone on whats yall thoughts,0 wrote redflag notei heard somewhere helps write redflag note feel like dying think last words youd say people tried honestly feel worse redflag note want die more,1 body acceptance mods bully body intersex said im welcomei freak listened people saying kill thr years m saying watch already done want risk anyone held responsible im writing down cat fed weeks boxes gallons water im sorry bothered people done teen instead now,1 @ohhaikaaatieee im excited ,0 @seniorgonzalez: it was a pretty damn good weekend! cant wait to do it again! but for now....workworkwork,0 think really existnothing feels real ever cant remember feeling like real person like actually exist people ignore listen forget time disposable extra peoples lives existing convenient times them like im fading away world even cutting feels like anything anymore im nonexistent see point living is fake im real getting worse going keep getting worse,1 ive found new life objectivedeath longest time since years old wished sweet release death never knew wanted end life figured two weeks ago ive never life new friends stopped coming turned different schools different personalities never synching again started grow up suddenly parties gatherings trending topics none permission enjoy either parents myself time pass suddenly find end high school life graduation coming closer time pick major i ive lived world know fantasies created alone room voices recognize ones made talking within head people ive met ideas made saw someone elses face protective bubble never experienced anything myself never met anyone make up like ive born years ago turned parents decided need protection anymore go on live life whatever want said know want know want go see future past concept dreams goals ive born i somehow manbaby writing found girlfriend fantastical worlds ive made brought attention me like her love her likes nothing pretender know live starting show ive made mind find job save much money possibly can enough live dreams although heartbreaking her want wish goal finally cross line finally decision regret making life goal die saving enough money person love live life im gone,1 everyone would better without really care anything life feels like matter end killing one day point living even reason live,1 HEEYYY ALL!!!! 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I am very happy to have your support KISSESS ~Cute Rain~ ,0 halloween one best examples independent film well made psychological elements might realize first glance simple movie told well music perfect one haunting scores seen movie yet must check out cast terrific wish never made sequel sequel first one far best ended like without sequel fun see jamie lee curtis movie seemed age shes gorgeous today without hairdo seventies clothes scenes mask one scariest things ever,0 i m not even gon na use an alt for all this shit any more this account probably won t be active from now on i guess it s time to delete everything and sort thing out one final time i m tired i m done i don t know if anyone will see this and i honestly don t care i mean if you are reading this then it s just a waste of time just like me i ll never change no matter what happens sorry apparently it didn t take me too long to fuck up a new friendship not surprised i really did want to join and play game and all that shit and try to talk to others make friend and help but i can t be bothered and i don t try that should be obvious i m a lazy little shit with no motivation to make thing better i usually just laugh in text even if i m not actually laughing to make the situation lighter or something idk yeah i m a mean person you should hate me you should just leave me alone that ll be better for everyone i m actually surprised it lasted this long i didn t really come her to rant i don t know why i exactly came here or why i typed this one of the many problem i just wan na say ig gon na leave the majority of depressing stuff out i really hope you don t see this i ll just leave at the end of this week when i m done preparing i ll let you know exactly when i m leaving in a subtle way a to not make you sad again ahahh i ve tried not a lot i can t remember the exact number they obviously didn t work out and i never got caught pathetic right sorry but i m gon na make sure it work this time around no matter what that wa my last try at friendship or anything else a a matter of fact i guess i m just not suited for this stuff and life my personality is absolutely shit i wish i didn t get attached for useless reason and then not try at all i made you feel like hell i m absolutely shit i know i am everything you said is correct i read every last bit live well have fun byebye,1 mental barrierhonestly ive stopped trying get better ive sick coming years learnt disabled time too im getting tired waiting out what dependant parents rest life never achieving anything im slow instead sick theres better me coping care anymore used fantisize dying natural disaster getting hit drunk driver anything blamed for realised nothing guaranteed happen unless hand fantasies trains bleeding out pills ive become realistic since understand whats plausible me honestly feel im ready mentally im ready just dont act it reason handful halfarsed od attempts sure nothing likelihood success theres difficulty feels like near impossibility taking whats head making real point want feel like even failure it used scared admitting it ive told doctors think want it multiple times hey long dont actually it problem since feel afraid one surprised whenif happens thing left figuring remove barrier bring want thought much actuality idea makes hate more every time think act feels like personal failure,1 parents expectations high let preface saying post reddit frequently anymore im sorry somewhat place needed vent frustrations group hopefully support me thats way parents driving wall lately constantly talk getting sat scores apush grades up driving insane reference ive already gotten sat far away enough get moderately decent college enough go school want attend want get music engineering degree theyre insistent get degree whatever engineering make sure im successful want college happy live life see fit need making figures long enough live ill perfectly fine cant seem understand that theyve turned criticizing whenever im anything schoolwork spare time like jesus christ let hobbies live life peace point im starting want live expectations show content life without following perfect step step plan fulfillment cant fucking deal anymore im sure guys delt too im wondering fuck managed deal it thanks coming ted talk,0 at shell gas station lunch break tired,0 right i be off out love you all xx,0 always told burden waste space fuck even tho im one family get qualifications nevermind getting uni ill likely end homeless cant even work little work experience try part time jobs end panic attack early got fired time friends uni well makes feel worse im home sack shit stays indoors day social interaction parents berating life even know killing me friends constantly remark mess,1 got shot lol pfizer gang,0 want itim tired ive spent whole life trying make others happy im worthless dont deserve friend ive met wonderful people would fit better wasnt weighing anymore think im gonna start planning today finally stop bother everyone im sorry,1 im looking julian ampxb httpspreviewreddittnirgazmjpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsecefdaeedfeccf,0 minecraft dog died today im sad rn died beacause fucking creeper idk flair counts cares anyway,0 Depression sucks,1 anyone know good laptops usd area im looking laptop run minecraft terraria im luck,0 lets real people stop giving shit weeks if ever even care allredflag deeply personal thing ive two acquaintances kill last two years hardly ever think them want kill myself im scared to dont want pain switch flipped brain brain wants die every day strong suicidal thoughts im running gas wish brain didnt want kill much ive literally beating shit lately close fist punching face ive lost control forehead knuckles covered visible bruises want stop pain ive saved lot money funeral costs years ive distancing loved ones want reduce footprint redflag inevitable hurt family wish could make look like accident would hurt think still care people want live im trying hard live im scared,1 "thanks http://newsweek.com  for helping bring to light a HUGE problem. Childhood is for fun and laughter NOT trauma, abuse, and anxiety. Join us in helping them regain childhood at http://chaoticspyder.com #ptsd #mentalhealth #kids #parents #teens #depression #trauma #abuse https://twitter.com/ISSTD/status/989158405532258304 …",1 want relationship feel like many friends want boyfriend girlfriend title anyone mind yet really want relationship without ever one even knowing something would enjoy idk feel bfgf accomplishment goal positive sure someone care feel like theyve lost meaning bit obsessive,0 want selfishi came bit ago made account post im always finding buttoned lip im sorry that guess wanted say really wish could end all good family best wonderful father many friends always forget many people want lives wonderful boyfriend wed long distance relationship almost years cant take distance anymore agreed open relationship found someone else makes happy felt could better ever could even though hes told thats case told break insisted taking break whats point still someone love nothing told things let together told still loves me honestly pushing away want live anymore believe something like everything like everything long time ago made center universe reason live hed saved emptiness sadness reason get every morning horrible thing do reasons world live basic minimum wage job useless degree whole lot nothing else going me reason im dead know horribly selfish thing amount pain would cause many people unbelievable yet cant stop thinking dying self harmed yesterday first time years keep thinking too done tired want loved person held person touched person cant wait cant wait anymore feel im crazy even want blew job season anyway first counseling appointment th im suppose move place january february told even together still go im okay live now feel like id see together id lose everything would hurt far much probably would able selfish there know do time moves slow days lay awake either sobbing panic attacks eating away ill never find love want love want die sw tell die stop wanting die,1 heres dumbass rant happened zoom sooooooo zoom three hundered people it three grades school one mine facetime friends messing around reading peoples names wrong would turn camera around put random people zoom joke dumbass accidentally put camera space bar know temporarily unmutes you whole time reading one persons name wrong joke unmuted worst part one moms friends kids entire zoom heard me got like texts said fml im embarrassed,0 kindness cost anything neither nice today reason ive probably pleasant encounters people online helped me kindness taking time day make sure okay talking issues anyways yea helping people nice world would nicer place everybody like,0 i m thinking about killing myself since i m almost did it time and had multiple breakdown the last year i m now and nothing changed but i want to get better how do i tell my parent i really need some advice please,1 @buffyc Yep Saronti blog is http://is.gd/N4o8 but most articles on it are RSSed on the website.Why is that? Do you want 2 write for it? ,0 depression arai,1 porn video two years later want kill ithappened struggling undiagnosed ptsd sexual assault got meds got therapy industry couple months made one video anything except kiss her naked feel like using camming take back control body completely regret it feel ashamed every time girl who still business shares video twitter feel ashamed disgusted myself tried reach used good friend spoken since feel disgusting feel hopeless know people highschool know im sure theyve seen video honestly want kill myself fucking stupid,1 redflag heatstrokeis viable option painful were coming summer could park car sun close windows pop sleeping pills,1 uninstalled social media apps except whatsapp reddit days ago asked crush long story short left seen cant say depressed really sad school fake smiles everytime theres one person knows story prepared tell others this one day saw story crush started smoking really fan smoking people tried speak normal way like sending memes kept leaving seen im weeb started watching romancedrama animes make feel better loved sakuta bunnygirl senpai thrown away smartphone distance people following actions yesterday uninstalled social media apps except whatsapp reddit distance people keep distracted reinstalling apps bought manga books read find better me sorry english bad sometimes english native language,0 @AKGovSarahPalin Have a great week Sarah ,0 horny post second nvm theres nothing say im tired h time lemme happy,0 everyone uses offer leaves told well people suck worry them oerson too peoplr see others interacting get included get asked about one thinks me one misses me always one reaching iut ti people knew one ever time me stopped reaching anyone one tried get hold me one miss me proven that tired disposable,1 i wa in my car actually but it wa a bad time to start cry i know it sound pathetic but i felt my emotion build up and started remembering thing i shouldn t remember then my tear started flowing the worst part wa making sure my eye didn t look red before going out in public this happens to me a lot and i can hardly control it i ve always thought cry make you weak but a it turn out i cry a lot for someone who look down on it i feel like a pathetic po and even more so for being a grown as 0 year old woman,1 hi guys taking antidepressants month now going get vaccinated second dose sinovac next week think stop taking vaccinated covid vaccine,1 annoyanceim right gonna days im usually happy days im starting think life good anymore bullied young time troubles keeping friends moved quite lot too never got permanent friends usually lot new schools friends time left me started eating less less never got treatment since parents saw happy child most times money type therapy mostly alone im friends would usually talk even ignore times would library trying enjoy studying studying useless sat came sat schools let made currently parents lenient sometimes get way hence title annoyance yes love them feel times bothering randomly talk square face height short apparently world im cm rn get good sat score would practically useless get good college also parents lenient asians know thoughts redflag since little feels like everyday im hearing redflag know feel alone not feeling suicidal getting thoughts more,1 @freito morning mr.hotrod ,0 World Matters #TorontoStrong #stolengirls #equality #PTSD #abuse #depression #TIMESUP #TheWarAmps #mentalhealth #suicide #stigma #homeless #survivor #Just4Today #RedFriday #IG2018 #LoveisLove #abilities #ACCESS4ALL #ClimateChange #MMIWG #Bully #boysmattertoo #BeccaToldMeTo pic.twitter.com/Z30r41Uh5o,1 @jamesmachan i think you will too what pizza did you end up having?,0 i ve been very close yet i ve been postponing for a while on and off to cut thing short i believe i may end up leaving sometime next week there are a few reason why otherwise if i don t i am saving up for my mom to buy me a new ar it ll take about month to get sufficient fund but i am solely using it on myself i already have access to a firearm but i am choosing not to do it now unless i have to because the caliber might not be sufficient enough but yeah no one see the warning sign i may have potential but i can t live up to it i ll always fail i know many people that read this will skip over or not even care i am just putting my thought somewhere no one will probably read it oh well all i know is that i have tried my best my circumstance are holding me hostage from flourishing in this world i am only here to fulfill the need of specific people i am not loved i mean this with everything i m basically here surviving alone trying to keep myself sane under the condition i m under my own interest are impossible to achieve i am a batshit crazy piece of shit disguised a a well mannered average looking tall slim smart person according to them but yeah this is something i have extreme feeling for i truly believe i may end up going through with these plan sometime next week or sometime soon id love to talk to someone about this i ve tried to reach out to friend before about how i ve been feeling and everyone talk to me one time and never check on me again honestly im ready to fuckin get this shit overwith no one give me a fuckin chance literally i m getting fucking exhausted i m tired of this planet i just wish i could feel different at least i m tired help me,1 good morneen! ,0 im bored anyone wanna add discord also vc friends server want lmk mack,0 asthmatic person agree this winter worst season makes feel asthmawise,0 I'd just like to say that I really love my job. ,0 heres one pleasingly scuzzy s blaxploitation grindhouse items pervasively lowrent pimp opus comes across like sleazier version the mack john daniels studly womanizing hairdresser hero mr jonathan immortal black shampoo gives excellent steely portrayal baron ruthless business savvy forever make allpowerful flesh peddler much dismay bitter brutal italian rivals reigns supreme sunset strip locking horns fellow nocount criminal pals best avoid busted local vice cops daniels leading sweetly average existence standard gardenvariety suburbanite dude complete caring wife loving kids typically humdrum california small townbr br the glaringly absurd premise alone promises toprate trashy greatness decidedly grade b schlock picture variety george theakos deserves kudos hilariously ludicrous script matt cimbers commendably tactless tasteless direction delivers junky goods slimy bucketful thus making film hugely enjoyable serving celluloid grime among assorted squalid delights savored herein plentiful gratuitous female nudity coarse dialogue beautifully gaudy decade threads halter tops felt hats sparkling dayglo jewelry loud seersucker suits intensely funky rb score smoke hopelessly pathetic acting the little old lady lives next door daniels excruciatingly shrill memorably nasty turn patrick wright sadistic goon couple cool action set pieces the climactic slow motion barroom massacre seriously cooks lurid travelogue footage sunset strip shake feather boa said footage allegedly includes the actual hookers blades sunset strip hollywood effectively darkndingy cinematography ken gibb sicko sexual fetish tableaux raw explicit violence a prostitute one breasts cut off amusing supporting performances familiar schlock feature perennials richard kennedy george buck flower pair racist corrupt browbeating police detectives sure movie aint art certainly artless enough qualify deliciously grungy chunk entertainingly sordid cinematic swill,0 last dayhey im going kill right post nothing theyre point alive anymore im sorry dont another post means im dead im sorry posting btw,1 hot tea hot tea nowi sucking tea bag reason need know rasberry tea,0 bottle handsi going it none friends cared listen tried tell them theyre worried posted done am im called pathetic person petty apparently throw pity party life hard selfish bitch wants more give nothing return great glad know family sees me reason it family nope friends nope so yes no one best friend listened rant hour shit built past months tried tell people about listen tried therapy work tried let work one friend everything alive her,1 looking film control nympho gets chained radiator extremely religious southern man look paramount vantages latest release black snake moan exactly looking described say well then best get ya wits bout yaself mosey local theater still see samuel l jacksons character lazarus would say long open minded take everything seriously theres reason leave theater glad saw itbr br in third offering director craig brewer taken deep south tagline film claims everything hotter were introduced godfearing bluesman lazarus previously said played jackson almost always half naked rae role bravely taken christina ricci film unlikely pair cross paths long enough characters learn lesson one another lessons ultimately convey message us audience matter what human one perfect everyone would realize that wed lot better off question understood accepted see film another storybr br one thing debate great jackson ricci here think role sexcrazed woman overacting would given no here ricci breaks demonstrates true talent raw performance also doubles best date jackson completely disappears first time long time makes us forget even is sadly third star film justin timberlake plays raes militarybound boyfriend great start fails miserably appears trying hard later steps some still hes far level reached januarys alpha dogbr br the thing black snake moan boasts splendid soundtrack containing tracks black keys john doe pieces score done scott bomar course four count em four tracks jackson himself actually one songs main performance film stackolee fuel fire great collection alone worth ticket price notable musical delights soundtrack bomars the chain when lights go out black keys title track also among memorable scenes film lazarus sings rae stormy nightbr br the efforts craig brewer cant go without mention though last film hustle flow ended surpassing low expectations gaining critical acclaim put map done black snake moan sets apart newbies industry directed moan also wrote screenplay end result story surprising clever watch feel like know exactly headed despite valiant composure think predicted next move brewer shifts gears takes entirely different route however blotches within screenplay background characters drab flat ending somewhat disappointing left craving something exciting many highs guess final scenes tad weak compared rest filmbr br i imagine majority people see black snake moan enjoy due fact able stop thinking unlikely situations are depressing part many films unlikely even outrageous scenarios widely well received issues race religious motives sexuality film exhibits effect opinion anything idea black man chaining white woman house enough make people even consider seeing it simply put everyone like said fully enjoy go open mind else wasting money that highly recommend it,0 cannot compare amount pain experience everybody faces hardships struggles make day day different views opinions people hated likely misunderstood light jesus go seek help feeling comfort love minimum mutual understanding other grew believe realize lie people try make competition matter values uphold pure heart is people want see destruction observe like movie snack popcorn even nickel pocket worth second thought even five dollars pocket people craft new mask put face order get close reach back pocket take little insert knife back everybody something wrong going life rather much good life understand true human emotions work go stomp heart shove riches mental stability face make grovel pain live thinner spiders web people fight show right everything revolve around mindset make us mindless symbiotes bent manipulated will politicians bending truth blinding us truth longer see pile garbage piled onto world presidents rulers make decisions affect millions make big shot calls could devastate many religion one thing history lead conflict disputes origins life awaits us die cannot comprehend everything world let alone everexpanding universe create truth simply make us feel better death blot fear unknown people absolutely disgusting violent manipulative creatures think superior find necessary better destruction torture others that raise middle finger hope day comes complete extinction human race comes upon us hearts made glass minds clay,1 sometimes ok sit couch dog watch portuguese cartoons morning even understand portuguese sometimes ok thats cable bonus package,0 whykay it s lashing down here,0 hey stop scrolling reminding great day,0 normal shaving razors single edge razorsare razors people use shave body hair ones people usually use self harm with sharper really difference,1 got question im looking good gaming chair around less idc office chair long comfortable reclining function footrest thing,0 @michaelflux wont get passed the king of revers engineering shots lol,0 wa going to make a site update twitter account but nahh it won t work,0 august my probable death date switched date many times always hoping things get better wont think finally one date set hope chicken time too miss many things sure happier side,1 i m i ve been depressed since i wa maybe about 0 year old and i wa diagnosed in 0 0 clinical depression i struggle with substance abuse alcohol and weed and that combined with depression is what caused me to quit my job now all i do is cry and get stoned cry while being stoned sometimes and lay in bed on tiktok i m unhappy in my relationship but i m afraid of losing the best thing i ve ever had i m so unhappy with existence and i m fucking sick of being told to tough it out life isn t easy i don t care if i m not going to be born into a decent world i don t want to fucking participate it s selfish to force me to stay when i contribute nothing to society i have no goal or passion anymore my clinic psychiatrist hasn t reached out to me i quit taking my prozac because it stopped working and one specific event triggered my current depression episode regarding my family and boyfriend i m miserable is anyone else miserable,1 Depression and WANIMA,1 marks & spencer cupcakes = yum ,0 back day decided friends became legendary sanin one us died journeyed new end pervy sage would without himeddie rath rip pervy sage still miss naruto,0 Eww lol my twitter looks depressing lol happy time out eating breakfast ooober hungry! Ice cream shall b my eggs lol,0 gotten worsei feel like cornering myself gets worse worse every day cannot control thoughts actions stuff regret immediately keeps happening crying day long trying distract myself feels like burning inside cant talk anyone want lie listen silence id happy go therapist money moment feel like rotting like tomorrow me nothing,1 havent sub weeks wondering left long posts starting make remember why,0 wanna end dont want mom sadmy mom thing left brings joy life works hard provide put sister thru college nothing day works ik shed better without me got new boyfriend live ik doesnt want around friends one likes motivation life anymore wont it cant wnd life cause dont want sad wanna dissappear never existed,1 mfarnsworth you and i will both be retired by the time this is all done mate,0 @ipoyzn Are you referring to the @NameCheap contest? Here: http://is.gd/11rEp Goodluck! ,0 I've read two @AdamSilvera books and I now have crippling depression... time for number 3 :),1 im really bothered new narrative going around evangelicals going teachings jesus meant make look hypocritical espouses people havent read bible dont know teachings jesus still buy whole hippie jesus silliness feel like lot atheists doubling the like theist counterparts truth is just jesus new testament general about jesus wasnt feeding poor loving everybody said that sure jesus loving jesus way light one meets father except me xenophobia rampant bible jesus says sent lost tribe israel introduced concept anyone doesnt believe goes hell take shit apocryphal text tells weary heathen lie god need soldier christianity army lord hard see gun toting bigoted misogynistic evangelical get ideas would best world concept died completely never long people know nothing religion try tell people know something religion dont know atrocities part religion clearly is another version religion peace trope islam islam religion peace much jesus hippie loving figure is even little bit,0 story incompletesimilar story here op case dad spent childhood promising help pursue science career moved him along many exorbitant promises coaxed signing life savings guise teaching money management skills afterwards personality instantly changed like replaced body snatcher started holding money hostage control me forced flat earth fundamentalist church started incessantly discouraging scientific interests forbidden even seen girl since might lead others think sexually active threatened cut ever associated members many demographics functionally unable friends would scream belittle humiliate hours every day church strict give hobbies sinful tried damage relationships family members would constantly follow around would incessantly act attention much struggled even attempt schoolwork even remaining hobbies quickly psychologically broken started failing classes despite growing honors student years later took second major hoping raise gpa barely squeak grad school dad took somehow mean on verge graduating two phds completely flipped incessantly discouraging exerting pressure graduate two phds immediately explained getting two phds accept it despite protests spread word far wide two phds gained reputation kind miracle prodigy could never actually live to point dad final stages terminal heart problems relentless pressure started going along even years lies abuse want disappoint death bed years went things continued get worse me overwhelmed preemptive grief dads impending death every day went traumatic religious deconversion lost soulsustaining nonfundamentalist faith god started experiencing severe diabetes symptoms struggling increased course load failing recover grades dad continued sink deeper deeper obsession completely imaginary phds one day dad started taking visit old man crazy cult bedridden terminal heart problems years went dad old guy alive meant dad final stages terminal illness something like years realized outrageously exaggerating health problems spent last several going along delusional nonsense fuck it im tired hurts much hurts much,1 That was a fun show. Grabbing a bite to eat now. ,0 empathy wierd legit felt bad damn squirrel another squirrel stole orange even care squirrel beforehand seeing work hard something stolen away hit reason,0 confusedthis may seem like random rant anything else im really confused right now im really bad depression years now aswell mild conditions im feeling suicidal almost every day feel like cant stop myself ive getting help started taking pills depression sleep recently make worse usually losing appetite stomach pains dizziness etc make worse get pretty bad anxiety educationwork since dropped months ago i idea want do one day ill feel perfectly fine somewhat happy next ill terribly depressed suicidal feel like giving up really interested music psychology distract life anyone advice do cope yourself anything general,1 got less hour till bed help sleeptonight rough me man need relief either cut bash head wall guys need go hospital think make family ashamed im lost do,1 movie intelligent is movies transcends least common denominator stupid people probably appreciate it story also relies heavily dialogue parallels lost translation although sunrise much brighter somehow less abstract simply lot betterbr br the script characters even slightly surreal atmosphere feel totally realistic actors play absolutely brilliantly rarely seen movie script acting melted perfectly togetherbr br the dialogue moves personal issues risk becoming little top does however stay right side almost time although found moments little awkward embarrassing balancing fine line demands outrageously talented actors sometimes yields great results overall movie simply stupendous very rarely love films depicted way find trustworthy realistic every time achieved result fantastic think stunning apparently timeless beauty female lead actress helped quite bit respect still looks stunning film years afterbr br this simply gem movie cant miss one best movies seen s,0 parents need stop blaming puberty everything im trying enjoy soup nowhere mom starts filming me thats awkward af tell stop doesnt walk away yells puberty shes blaming puberty lot today actually teenagers fucking opinion feelings doesnt mean actually mean always puberty besides theres one way annoy offend someone blame puberty act like means nothing im trying peacefully lunch nobody care video consuming soup later,0 drunk birthday wanna dieim pretty drunk st birthday theres point livin anymore one would care died people would actually benefit dont want live more parents want house lives none old friends would notice dont new ones fucks sake sister wants dog im dead him dont want anymore,1 sound therapy to reduce anxiety mental health amp depression guaranteed http t co xipwe lncd lavenderetherealmusic short sound to reduce anxiety depression stress music mental health therapy meditation music music for stress relief balance,1 guuuuuys passed dance exams honors got honors bronze new vogue exams merilin tongoette evening threestep first time got medal something im happy rn,0 delighted audiences number film festivals hard see why director yang zhang help nice work three principle actors xu zhu father master liu quanxin pu elder son da ming especially wu jiang irrepressible lovable younger son er ming spins tale warm coldest heartbr br the film starts man taking shower automated booth middle beijing puts money slot opens door takes clothes puts conveyor belt cleaned steps shower gets cleaned brushes squirts water soap though hes car car wash future symbolically speaking old bathhouse see next scene past agrarian china giving way industrial chinabr br pollution cultural revolution hangover industrialization blues way celebration people kindness love one another celebration goodness hearts men yet wonder chinese government views film one hand clearly presents pleasant view china people stringently nonpolitical without criticism present regime expressed implied yet slightest sense good old ways going replaced something may good think yang zhang wisdom let may tell story old men bathhouse get back rubs massages tell tall tales reminisce good old days relax play chinese chess stage cricket fights master spry wise old guy assistant son may retarded autistic job glee infectious spirit fun good willbr br enter back scene older son da ming polished well groomed taciturn uncomfortable sees unsophisticated behavior father brother represents modern china tie briefcase cell phone education returned thought father dying sees true packs bags set return wife career crisis ensues crisis da ming sees value natural peoplecentered life father brother livingbr br and yang zhang reconciles old new charming manner object especially since style neat carefully expressed one nice things miss movies way dovetails subplots within larger story resolved picture ends bathhouse regular sings o sole mio bathhouse water showers upon him much delight er ming finds cant sing public stage fright near end film loses stage fright sings thanks inspired help er ming bathhouse regular losing wife becausewell tells tale master liu confesses real reason liu understands movie over husband wife reconciledbr br this kind happy ending moviemaking unusual today artistic international films almost film directed adults happy endings contrived embarrass contrivers audiences blatantly condescending audience offended however audience delightedbr br see especially comedic performance wu jiang whose warm effervescence overcomes handicap character may have,0 wow ur pretty pretty fuckin cool ahaha dont crack,0 posting gnarly space facts run knowledge day hey everyone hope great day far havent perhaps space fact make little better always questions andor topics space me leave comments ill see tomorrow fact saturns north pole hexagon first observed voyager missions s seems top everyones favorite ringed planet lies massive hexagonal cloud pattern kilometers miles diameter twice diameter earth entirely known caused strange storm appear theories ampxb first all mentioned hexagon vortex center it meaning almost certainly caused sort storm second south pole hexagon likely something exclusive saturns northern latitudes current prevailing explanation hexagons origin simply giant current wind similar jet stream earth kind anticlimactic know interesting note current continuously churning decades reason know nasaesa cassini probe revisited hexagon early parts mission find moved continued study another interesting thing cassini found shortly hexagon changes colors original voyager observations hexagon appeared blue began turn brownish color top theory sunlight caused haze form pole due seasonal changes saturn yes even gas giants seasons cassini continued study saturn long could ended mission plunging planets atmosphere rest peace cassini one favorite probes o,0 @kiala her hair is the least of my troubles with her.. ,0 merry chrysler guess yeah im gonna quietly sit corner definitely feel jealous literally everybody christmas imagine 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first moments film quickly see friendship two building see rub little other remarkable piece work manages tell good story without twist upon twist people leaping bath tubs superheros coming save daybr br theres fair amount grit reality there everything ever go right gulfs ever spanned film delightfully shows lotbr br if watch film impressed id suggest watch anything again,0 found perfect formula friends redditor weeb metalhead social axienty formula friends totally description somesomething haha,0 geordiepaul williamnhutton supermactoon government have the mean this country wa heavily in debt from ww and the great depression but they still had the resource and mean to have the money and resource to fight ww,1 day asking day day people woke great day ,0 ive got short survey plushies would really appreciate could take minute two day complete it share friends please httpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlseqtauzb_adcynwmossnaozumbrfbjdgexmhkobhtnaviewformvcampcampwampflrampuspmail_form_link,0 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He looks like Einstein. ,0 stuck at home,0 seem pointi ruined relationship girl dreams dated lived together three years small little family unit adorable little cat imagined growing old children depression thought help her strong ignored depression tried force thought best really needed help terrified vulnerable tough approach towards others opposite effect turned monster became terrifying her spent year broke hopeful would get back together still numb still ignoring issues know do took affection granted something changed got rid distractions able see become i go felt like years suddenly bore full brunt guilt shame hurting girl realized loved ever confessed her suggested take time love first trying make codependent relationship work again agreed went contact fool abandonment issues hurt more started dating someone new suppose hurt last time month since then stopped eating first want feed horrible person hurt vulnerable person went fluoxetine went therapy im trying take care now new breakups heartbreak understand time heals wounds understand abusive childhood created issues still need deal also lot pressure issues sides far complicated explain times happy now see happy new boyfriend still seem exist instrument happiness cant contact her live know humans supposed love themselves know loved myself could avoided hurting her know ill likely meet someone new able occupy heart similar way focusing healing hurt another person like again every day painful getting point exist future pieces seems hopeless heart hurt long ive never prior physical pain come close matching feels theres much life normal person would want live memories want die want die it i ill keep living guilt shame loneliness ennui become completely different person now find wanting die day long every day wish something would kill me im nihilist something worth living for gone cant seem find something valuable anything excites me gives reason keep living fear continues one day ill become numb ill casually myself worse continue starving develop illness slowly die it want something live for find around reasons die think anyone read this upsetting know even someone does able understand everything wrote im tired living needed put something there im tired suffering alone,1 hi im looking someone met among us me bil cipher there im looking drcactus dark green skin cowboy hat watched gravity falls really wanna play rounds him leave please there come out,0 subhuman trashi ugly piece shit exterminated immediately useless human deserve nothing bullet head start physically harming soon prepare death,1 get cuties trailer dislikes youtube rewind mean idea deserves,0 just woke up tiresome time,0 i purchased a helium tank just waiting for it to come i don t feel sad anymore just peaceful and ready for an exit,1 ever watched animal get butchered it fun,0 horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny 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cant fucking take gone shit everythign shit im sorry fuck everything,1 id probably dead music didnt exist idk lil thought,0 "@DanWhitley heck, I feel left out by the kitty ",0 i want to go but i m afraid of what s there after idk religion i guess i feel pretty pathetic all the time but i m thinking like maybe in a few month sometime this year i just need clear answer on how and when the right time i guess soon i just need relief,1 high school long so started hs today however big problem school system works borders means area one hs go hs since borders it though exactly border went school signed inhttpsinhow began let explain june singed school area closer i sent email receive answer hence father went ensure signed there said yes went said belong belonged school conclusion weird situation almost friends went feel sad mad given false hope yesterday,0 hate pmddnormal brain disabilities going behind classes thats okay need make plan professors work pmdd brain take bunch pills smash head wall good amount times go hospital use excuse behind,1 outside skrrt skrrt inside hurt hurt,0 tomorrow morning im taking drivers test im freakin nervous im good driver know that get nervous easily even day heart pounding,0 guilt eating aliveso couple weeks back mother episode stopped taking pills cared whole episode eventually bring hospital weeks visit presumed dad going let know going visiting cant drive btw phone good times weeks make sure ok ended getting visit hospital guilt eating alive feel like ending,1 attempted cut selflooong story short tried cut today one big knives cutting block tried cut near hip would easy hide marriage done nowhere go down bridge via knife knows,1 want die fucking badlyim giving end month make something happen theres point living like this,1 think people around ideaim always surrounded people work i work fairly big retailer none idea whats going head getting harder hide it friends momment getting better anything getting worse way feel good drugs thats time feel anything close happyness remember quite happy before seem truly happy im surround people like friends either hanging someones house them longer getting point yet again want end it failed attempt weeks ago decided try and carry on trying survive working social skills getting new friends almost impossible know go meet either im constantly alone room feel lonely want guts properly time one live like this every day torture,1 escape alternativesthis bit positive lot reason think killing way boringstressful life used think going mental institute actually going really good place escape suggestions espacism plans driving hours see ex probably healthy,1 fucking done youi stash paracetamol house contemplating taking iti know would probably fucking painful hell,1 @ngraham311 you are always on the move I need your kinda money ,0 sucks suicidalyou know fucking sucks suicidal coward many fucking times felt like shittiest piece trash world cant end it question much really want it question cant build courage fucking end it cutting excessive drinking easy second decide tonights night im done freeze cant it envy people built courage end lives thats ballsy,1 my depression has suddenly been cured pic.twitter.com/PMcMtwBRYD,1 man womans body born filler text filler text filler text filler text filler text ,0 @Allegromouse And good morning to you! ,0 16 days until I start moving! ,0 petemc they re horrible they re out to get me,0 losing time ever feel like youre losing time like one minute next thing know pm youre back bed ive feeling days now feel like im losing im losing meaning day thing again anyone know called,0 finally finished moving months family planning move away small town nc florida intense packing weve managed get one family friends houses live minutes away tampa also everyone mentions it yes understand covid issue left rest stops made wore masks gonna wait week anything quarantine which gives us time settle in currently complaint going feet sea level average f feet sea level average f anyway hope yall read this,0 "who couldnt afford the bus, got rIPPED OFF, got into a car accident, suffering from depression and anxiety,",1 gimmenow gimme negative karma want ,0 know elements order friend challenged science day week see elements could memorize kept going stopped days elements known order know,0 starve deaththats probably im gonna go heres story went downstairs saw minor flooding kitchen pipe beneath sink leaking overnight serious could mop that dad finds trying fix mess flips saying helpful all maybe im overly sensitive really hurt me im already suicidal told useless really pushed edge threw fit moped room daddy do stops buying food id go buy citys week lockdown pass long take die hungry,1 my forehead is starting to feel like someone ha cut a slice out of it oh that s right someone cut a slice out of my forehead today,0 tired i need a regular 9,0 stompthewalrus haha well i have lived in texas the past year i think that explains itself lol si habla espaool,0 @Jane_Safarian Awwe thank you for the lovely comment Im fine how are you?,0 girl ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb nothttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdqwwwgxcq,0 sorry need vent ive lot trouble keeping school really bad short term memory quickly forget himework simple assignments even remember assignments troubke finding motivation even turn in think bad cant even find motivation take phone take picture grades starting fall ive hella stressed cant bring dad hell ground fix them know help really want get top things cant get everything together,0 hey music question anyone knows anything abt latin american musicrhythms really like beat rhythm body language intro kali uchis know bossa nova know style music is really like though id love find like it anyone recommendations anything please tell me,0 one thot two thot red thot blue thot going doctor im gonna get flu shot,0 This is so true. Depression especially https://twitter.com/FranciscoLWhite/status/988758953470431233 …,1 headed awayjust writing things out feel desperate dont know whats wrong me know do need study every time get it lose it cant focus break randomly car class im biking grocery im fuckup thing going grades thats gone nothing left even though cliche anyone family basically nonexistent people care professors lame is theyre good interesting people whove encouraged helped me im disappointment everyone always be im capable handling school life general theres nothing want life anything ive thinking dropping abandoning life here moving new state big city working full time professors would people id miss want another college dropout giving would put farther behind redflag seems like option know im posting really human contact guess tell day whatd work hows life whatevers clever someone anyone talk me cant alone right now,1 anyone christian actually still believes god day age please tell either a leave fuck aloneb transport back simply belong like years ago basically truly believe made mistake placing day age orc fucking send hell already depressed ass probably rightfully belongsanyone still christian here trying insult anybody is are truly believe god proud you glad gave good life truly am unfortunately everybody human creation simply give shit about lease ask either kill outright fucking help not really care amore point either way probably killing soon anyways gods will message god loves,1 burgaw ooooooh sealclap see i download shitloads of zip folder off chan i have no internet money fuck yeah alicia amp mikey,0 dramatic suspenseful movie many plots turns story director opens question marks death row presumed crimes committed black people film well directed arne glimcher fine sound james newton howard excellent strong performance sean connery ed harris liked one dont miss true crimes the hurricane wife gave ,0 always bad depression redflag issues today seeing hearing things just much things like volume existence cranked db better curl bed eyes shut able actually fall asleep either anyone experience this always gotten really overwhelmed nothing like this first time life felt stimulated awake all,1 learned helplessnessaccording wikipedia learned helplessness is gtlearned helplessness behaviour organism forced endure aversive painful otherwise unpleasant stimuli becomes unable unwilling avoid subsequent encounters stimuli even escapable presumably organism learned cannot control situation therefore take action avoid negative stimulus learned helplessness theory view clinical depression related mental illnesses may result perceived absence control outcome situation organisms ineffective less sensitive determining consequences behaviour defined acquired learned helplessness last years wife leave me diagnosed bipolar disorder got addicted drugs family essentially disown me life hard rarely happy ive gotten by month ago lost career said emotionally consistent enough lead team fired me great ill survive right got job delivering chinese food signed take classes go better field old ass motherfucker wrecked car parking lot hes saying fault even though car even moving im certain insurance company fuck me drop me cant leave house beyond bicycle go no public transportation town cant earn income job relied car bank account bills coming due end month mention deductible cover it ive trying hard happy everyone else makes look easy wish so even friends talk with dont im fucking failure deserves alone miserable im starting think whatever do never get better want pain stop feel like option,1 sure else turn im years old ive spent entire adult life chasing career got good grades high school never partied thing college job even graduated ive never loved woman feel like ive wasted much time stupid stupid green paper everyone tells glad im employed care want gone want sleep forever im burnt everything wish someone understood me,1 best nut fuck cashew nuts macadamia us im,0 anyone wanna chat bit nothing lol day weekend nothing lmao please entertain talk me im age important you,0 may sound stupid really need encouraging wordsi bunch economic problems going right now aside several mental illnesses top that recently seem developed sort lymphoma probably stage ii iii funds treat it bad press onto carotid arterieslarynx constantly way painful help suicidal already moment thinking jumping balcony tonight that bad turned fuck diploma nobody wants hire would give chances solve issues no ask traumatized parents ask get sick even painkillers help pain getting lightheaded constantly pain like pinched constantly cant this,1 @TwilightNewsMan -- i loveddd it ,0 @lisaannsandell messed up the timing and missed you at BEA on Friday. from a distance looked like you had some good traffic. ,0 i hate so much of my life i love being at school with my friend but i have to come home every fucking day i have to wake up to these fucking asshole everyday my older brother is fucking insane on good day he is simply the most annoying little shit that won t shut the fuck up and stop talking to me on bad day he just argues and scream and throw thing and take out his anger out on whoever is closest mostly me bc we share a room my perants are nice but my dad transphobic and i want to tell him that i want to transition but i m afraid he wont see me the same or love me my younger sister is the only thing keeping me here i love her she s so understanding and sweet i don t want to hurt her by dying but i can t stand living anymore,1 i got into fasting couple of year ago and trained myself to go long without food i did month of just coffee and water last year im not joking i didnt die because i wa very overweight i lost a lot of weight and gained some back doe to depression eating this time iam going to push myself till i collapse i know i can dont ask me why it unfixable thats about it hope that yall are better,1 so fucking bored of work,0 crossed k karma would first like establish myself im year old indian teenager started new reddit account hopes posting memes interacting people around world hopefully getting positive negative reactions too im pretty popular school class clown people take seriously mean say im underdog definitely couple really good friends people know me tend hate first give chance change mind reddit account years ago too wanted refresh mind started one months huge change mental behaviour got really better keep hanging lot broken relations even people give shit me probably pewdiepies lwiay huge factor betterment hes idol posted meme reacted channel made feel really fantastic course earn money it gave huge boost confidence really needed probably like huge cringey piece past reddit experience people probably notice it im really thankful people may seem like small thing person might make day even care gets lost im keeping this thank reading,0 @llisalang ,0 ahhaha found problem past relationships turns emotionally abusive clue feel like total fucking asshole wanna die yayyyy today good day ampxb well hand ik need change sooooooo,0 i ve made phenomenal progress with my anxiety issue over the decade but one thing ha gotten worse and i m not sure what to call it if i start a train of thought and i suddenly remember something traumatic or embarrassing or unpleasant i start to feel bad and i start to say thing out loud when i say the thing it seems to release pressure so that it s easier for me to stop thinking about what upset me it s usually something like no or amen although it cycle and it s been worse thing like i hate myself or i want to die it s annoying enough when i do it by myself but i ve started doing it with my husband or child around and it worry me to know he s hearing me say these thing is this actually a kind of tic if not what is it doe anyone else do this,1 every single day at school during my rd period i get very nervous for my th period and my stomach start to ache badly it s like there are gas in my stomach and i get very gassy i think i get nervous because i start thinking about this girl i m very intimidated by but i wouldn t think that it would make me this anxious and then in my rd period i have to go to the washroom to do number two and it s usually diarrhea and that happens every single day in rd period no matter what i do to try to calm myself nothing seems to work i tried breathing pattern but i just get nervous again maybe it s because i eat lunch before rd period but it s every single day that my stomach is aching is it normal to feel this way i don t know if i should do something about it,1 playlist dry af recommend songs listen to ill listen anything except country thx playlist dry past month feel free give music recommendations like title says ill listen anything except country,0 someone gives awardee karma get notification right anyone else get surprised think ban notification bad heart,0 Surgery went well....lotsa after pain though.....its really bad....they keep giving her dilodid and it seems to help....I want some.. ,0 need love yourself sincerely stop depending others provide do pain experienced differently feel negative energy welcome open arms let stay long wants harm you harm trying get rid it times negative thoughts interactions flood mind accept harsh judgement could correct might done something stupid may awkward matters say does without consent nobody define good existence powerwhen depend others image worth constantly change fit definition good trade life affection another idea here becomes blind leading blind spend time yourself watching tv reading book stand slowly move toes bend knees slightly flex lower body feel like let muscles take pressure bones turn music allow connection sound touch go unfiltered make vocals let blood oxygen flow nerves come alive hear saymany abuse bodies treating like slave will foundational part existence spend time enhance experience lying bed shut everything slowly curly hands toes tense motion feel movement it experience existence grab second appreciate it believe could create better one power so rules meaning purpose written mind difficult use knowledge empathize existence malleable going shape will need connect it voices others yourself you exist incredible let anyone lie telling truth know see is please understand sincere love,1 @kerryetches fingers crossed ,0 pain doesnt stop stop temporary pain isnt,0 baf0 hi steven man it s only been a week and i m already behind on school work,0 justagirl 9 that s great about your license wish you d got the rest of it back,0 finally feel relaxedits long ride honestly im male lot happened life live third world country grew alone real interaction people age kindergarten either missing basic socializing sent school age youngest class made life worse screwed over got bullied everything never understood wrong people hate much also lived really far away school take bus came every hour skipped school sometimes really let socialize free time either years ive outcast whole time one really cared tried talk least shoo away tried talk them tried talking transfer students caught associating would turn scapegoat well really blame them stung quite bit one point got pneumonia parents able treat time healthcare system utter garbage hospitals underequipped personnel qualified one knows whatre doing really ruined health later line due additional complications kidneys liver something else even know whats called english english skills really far away good even health either back up blacked pe one thing teacher dumped like sack potatoes onto small bench left whole thing over thats fine too paid nearly enough care teachers paid enough care escaped computer soon could afford one years ive spent obsessing ebooks video games basic chats absolute best time life finally someone end screen hate outright existing however friends online lived really far away neither us could afford travel remained cold text screen dozen years bit more learned english tried talking people overseas strange experience theyve lived different happy lives could never understand said friends someone hang with relationships steadily losing voice years talking point started forgetting whats like talk verbally every time try talk stutter horribly cannot put thoughts order magical floating keyboard turn things want say something understandable came university afford dorms commute took roughly hours every day years learned make basics human communication hell internet widespread acceptable tried using advantage long story short get friends university either single relationship look horrendous deformed blame single woman much looking direction thats fine want too would anyone else tried signing psychology doctor im sure whatre called english properly tried unhelpful garbage looked empty eyes waiting official time spend patient would run out gave ordeal like afford good private one later line annoyance started settling in ive technically friends internet stopped existing lives second stopped posting almost none noticed hospitalized month think someone would notice suddenly gone weeks without notice guess not invisible irl seeped invisible internet well superpowers yo hollywood movies made look lot interesting turned real life found likeminded people also never person could really call friend say loved someone loved back point life gone now left world peace used envy greatly weighs dozens years alive one single outside family considered attractive worth talking despite trying go libraries uni clubs walking around outside trying read park told get hell stop creepy fine too know im failure ultimately fucked everything ever happened life used work dead end kinda job finishing university get bills food mindnumbing waste time days ago feel like something flipped switch inside me im finally ready go feels relaxing like breath fresh air locked cellar years pretty close reality sucks ive pulled short straw make longer effort maybe things would different support pillar sort hang rather crawling around floor trying get places im closing accounts ive services one uni acquaintances provided materials go sleep paid debts ive point one things wanted post small life story internet nothing truly lost internet much difference ill ever make planet use reddit normally reply wanted post somewhere itd get archived maybe remembered one person least minutes so thatd great thats could ever ask for still preparations left long finalizing papers thank you ill going now,1 need find something need find tommy gun replica toy use halloween costume well mm pistol mafia times,0 im getting feeling everyone paindoes everyone want end suffering everyone hide unbearable suffering god destine us suffer wrong avoid suffering,1 chat brother earlier today took wind sails talked work notredflag not glad him feel like never amount ismy parents wildly successful ambitious never proud me despite academic achievements growing up staying trouble second person graduate college family among things never gotten recognition them brother serves intermediary relays lot cares also one family proud of much successful got wife good shape got shit figured out feels like fucking sailing direction holes hull flag recognized really trying damn difficult tired feeling way like failure like never achieve brother parents done tired worn feeling wayi know hell life despite best efforts worn,1 wondering why gamebattles is down,0 On our way to citymoves alkmaar!!! ,0 really hate sub nonetheless am scrolling sub maybe im looking stupid people,0 i feel empty inside miserable and worthless i hate this pointless point of fact but what else is there here taste disdain hate and fear within myself that s all i find even though i wish to be kind i wake each day in dreadful pain hating every breath and every night i say a prayer begging for freedom for death,1 Hey @jonasbrothers *type your question here* #jonasliveonfb nick my lucky number is 7 too im just like u in every thing i l;ooooove u,0 I can go to the mental institution to get my diploma under depression minds. LOL.,1 @stargazer60 cool I'll watch that next week.,0 mother lied tried hit multiple times bitch dare defend maximum trying hit afraid idiot father kill lie,0 lol boys talked on internet past months irl years fucking sucks,0 LETS SEE WHATS IN DEMAND. Catch you guys later & @Nancy9980 GOOD LUCK HUN.,0 "@wowie It's a good movie, I like that one. Never seen it start-to-finish but it's good. ",0 someone please offer chat service suicidal people im coping allim australia lifeline chat worki cant get button show upim suicidalive thinking everyday non stopi need help came psyche med two weeksi taper properly ended brain damage suddenly reaction food like looking rock cant sense taste anythingor get reaction things think called anhedoniabut cant feel things evokethis devestated completely really passionate person interested booksballetevery beautiful thing many interests affect me became suicidal itbut decided go onto continue livingbut saturday caffeine something never ever doi three years stopped able deep sleep i serious sleeping issues soon knew done something terriblebecause three years ago deep sleep rare me coffee suddenly deep sleep stopped come back yearswell thing happened saturday wake like half awake nighti cant get deep sleep desperately need real restthis destroyed feel without restoring deep sleep brain heal feel hope nowi cant see way out mental state decline kind real sleep anyone offer hopeadvice anything,1 isnt guys wearing skirts already normalized like one gonna rip skirt wore one sure theyd make fun getting made fun wearing something different is normal people would make fun wearing wrong colored khakis youre insecure wearing skirt cant take criticism dont wear skirt even complain normalized,0 wrote noteas title says dont really plan telling anyone else id like feel perhaps little less alone moment go bed night know know me im stranger internet words screen really im did ive turning idea while im one today uncovered trauma memories guess last straw us weve lived much already idea happened us cant really take idea ive alive less quarter century im burnt life gonna get worse always does yes theres good parts life stick around anymore mostly im sad ill leaving husband love words say know im selfish person ever this wish could hang on ive hanging almost years cant anymore im sorry everyone guess tomorrows day thanks took time read this,1 ufroggo appreciation post pog guy,0 anybody willing to help me i ve been trying to make a sad tune on the piano for a new song but it always end up happy and bright,0 hey guys im year old guy serving emotional rock family two suicidal parents dont know anymorehi everyone happened hour ago would take days explain issues lives lead tonights occurrence ill try keep brief essentially received text mom work saying needed help messages exchanged realized clearly needed home left work came home scene traumatize die mom kitchen floor wrists slit knife beside her instantly checked injuries pulled phone call realized werent serious heres backstory family well financially many years came end dad quit job order pursue another opportunity seven years road still unemployed spent almost savings keep us afloat well ran dry almost year ago amassed almost debt mom still works full time making enough money us short around month needless say adds up tonight think broke stress everything constantly maintain positive outlook kids work full time support dad emotionally severely depressed top that mom receives lengthy texts emails dad daily basis horrendous emotional state according her hes said openly intends commit redflag near future going elaborate event happened tonight ran door sat next held arms didnt anything say didnt know words would make feel better honestly everything said true situation fucked knew it im year old kid dont know fuck say two suicidal parents id really appreciate advice several years ive emotional rock family stay strong even though dont fucking clue im doing sorry post poorly wordedexplained wrote everything thinking im hoping best,1 feels weird people years younger gonna allowed months oh freaking goodness know people felt kids back im starting see really feels know people felt bad back tbh lol,0 serious mom tested positive covid yesterday mom tested positive covid came home egypt wednesday rest family got tested yesterday except twin brother were problems health insurance car oldest sister twin brother noticing symptoms idk im noticing sharp fast stomach pains really mild twice today wait wtf one sentence,0 short im f f think stopped growing short,0 take step forward two steps back want anymore,1 hate among us ruined word sus me slowly starting reuse word sus back july joji used sounded cool cant say sus without thinking among us,0 helpim brain wants kill myself dont want kill all feel scared right now want call hotline something dont want something happen would get parents involved this dont want know me dont trust them please someone talk dont even know want anyone say scared,1 "Mom's depression tied to kids' emotional, intellectual development http://global-news-views.news/moms-depression-tied-to-kids-emotional-intellectual-development/ …",1 im saying enjoy it need it long story short somethings flipped head last couple weeks libido much back worryingly so im sure lol weve sex past days preceding yearsbut still much him know want know ask want freaking long since considered sex thing actually makes nervous,0 i cant wait to blow people out of the water with my new stuff.... i have the most amazing people around me now head down tail up.,0 chrisdjmoyles i m not excited a i live in wale,0 help friend whos feeling suicidali know whether right sub it friend whos extremely depressed deepseated family issues offer help him thinks im toying feelings would leave like everyone else thats much doubts everyone day tried kill chestersinger favorite band think linkin park redflag luckily go it whats best thing situation seem trust anyone else,1 "@Jedi1123 Haha Great idea Now, where the hell is Edward?? :p",0 espnfc so you give up start whining and blame jose sulking and depression are not the same depression is hideous sulking is childish and attention seeking,1 seen movie years old years ago never forgot movie deeply touched moved brave little boy beautiful eagle believe turned eagle everyone theater thought going diebr br my sister movie asked recently remembered movie saw boy eagle said remembered like saw yesterday mebr br this movie must see br br you never forget like sister me,0 "Jeff Goldblum's live instagram story just now was just him in an opticians trying on new glasses to buy, if you want to know what helps cure my depression",1 fuck man want watch cyberchase anyone watch little pbs kids cable gang wanna go back watch fucking cyberchase,0 im stressed want kill front customersi hate working holidays retail much makes want scream hate customers hate dealing them hate entitled snobby attitudes have hate right end getting table clothes clean clueless asstart decides mess again hate customers either cannot read receipts return date imply im idiot cant job way like it store messy right want gut open one box cutters feel stressed feel like may puke pass second barely time mentally emotionally recharge goddamn job grateful coworkers nice hate dealing customers hate forced put fucking extroverted attitude please goddamn customers literally almost snapped one yesterday rude told return policy tried return something bought year ago dont know much take point given chance guts id kill front goddamn customers push breaking point whether directly rude mess something cleaned up want cry guess crying professional end breaking front coworkers want tell boss feel mentally emotionally well would possibly mean either going hospital told nutshell suck up ive working much havent time eat much need to wouldnt surprised end losing weight goddamn holidays point wouldve been screw fucking money health important no want able afford rent bills throw goddamn sanity shitter fake it end working much fucking possible push much end breaking dont know much take anymore,1 "@lapetropoulos Thanks for the #followart, LeeAnn! ",0 ammarz i could not install it for xp user here in aramco vista user have no problem weird,0 "@BWalker25 It was a blast! Next time, we need to make it TWO bottles of Patron! ",0 @VernaeWilliams Yes I did girl! You're gonna have to come visit when I move in! I might be there next weekend too. I'll keep you posted! ,0 i feel like i m really close to ending my own life i cant imagine myself living another year i ve had happy day but i haven t been able to appreciate anything good that ha happened to me i m so hyper focused on every bad thing that it just make me want to end it all the only thing that s really stopping me is lack of a proper method and making it seem like a big deal i don t want anyone to care i don t want it to effect my family or for them to even notice i m trying to distance myself from everyone close to me so i can make it easier on them when i ve finally had enough the sad part is that i ve been so lucky to have a decent upbringing but everything i feel right now is just my fault i don t have any valid reason to feel this way so many people have had it worse i cant even be mad at anyone else i did it to myself and i continue to do this i ob over my appearance too much and it just hurt looking at myself i cant stand to hear myself speak or let other people see me i m so disappointed in myself for letting this happen to me i don t think i ll be able to get out this mindset and a soon a the time is right i ll probably take the east way out man this suck,1 downvote want getting repetitive,0 goodbye sorryi took mg xanax hope forgiven act hope family friends forgive failing failure next life me,1 pandemic triggering old trauma responses barely functionim nearly decade sober past years trauma trauma emotional abuse multiple job losses incorrect mental health diagnosis amp medication which months now multiple failed relationships etc understand life ive mentalemotionalspiritual practice many years get things well friends inside outside substance abuse recovery world pandemic triggering otherwise dormant trauma responses memories body reacting accordingly want eat work respond anyone care happens me except really care panic attack feels like im suffocating feel completely alone despite constantly pestered talk roommate friends phone zoom feel trapped ever chose home own know without feeling guilt right since technically know need do feels impossible fix right now feel guilty feeling way many people fighting lives lives others im sorry thank reading,1 love american healthcare system especially pains lower right side gotta decide wether want car life saving surgery,0 do you ever just day dream of an alternate reality where your the main character where your almost like a superhero and everyone love you and your life is so perfect and you have all the thing you want life like your in a movie then you return to face your reality of sadness and face that grimness of it all i do this almost daily it s depressing,1 beat upi want get beat up bruised bloody,1 a real psychologist just said excersise and eating habits will cure depression LMAO honey I wish it was that easy,1 told boyfriend ive thinking killing myself said im sorry left workif care does ive stopping guilt loved ones look me finally free end pain edit know loves aware depression two years ive never felt suicidal now really scary think anymore sometimes think gets sick consoling knows issue chronic way am im feeling sad again ill cry pass much different ive never cried wolf redflag seriously think need help week make through impulses strong one person hoping reach indifferent tried make clear serious is different time walked arms want alive would feel content dead forever like always people around keeping losing would devastating them hate every second it live miserably go bed depressed wake anxious flashbacks inconvenient times point prioritize pain theirs everyone could understand let go would much happier fuck,1 absolute classic direction flawless acting superb words fall short great work definitive movie mumbai police movie stood test timesbr br om puri gives stellar performance smita patil less actors done best movie races thrilling every moment movie shakes whole badly forces rethink many issues confront societybr br this story cop om puri starts career honest man ultimately degenerates killer first attempt bollywood get behind scenes expose depressing truth mumbai cops kudos nihalani br br after movie slew bollywood movies got released exposed criminalpoliticianpolice nexus thus movie truly trend setter trend dominated hindi movie scene decade br br this movie moderate box office hit br br a mustsee discerning movie fans,0 difference really make long scheme thingsi simply wanna live anymore ask brought world sure hell aint waiting taken world think motherfuckers seem selfish even fucking know am say give shit saying suppose to,1 just started today ,0 Listen LIVE! Now playing Depression by J.C. Hulsey! Hosted by Tim Boudreau. http://outlawsradio.airtime.pro/ ,1 A girl at work just pulled out a bible in the breakroom and it is now the topic of conversation. My heart smiles! He is awesome!,0 let say outset im particular fan kind film nightbreed holds certain fascination message perspectivebr br back old days folks inhabit midian would called zombies undead according clive barker given us certain members human kind craig sheffer born potential become part worldbr br psychiatrist david cronenberg first looking like mild mannered professional taken unto fanatical mission rid world nightbreed tricks police killing sheffer sheffer goes graveyard named midian cemetery nightbreed congregate live underground br br sheffer also left girl friend anne bobby still feelings even hes killed one undead tries small way bridge humankind br br clive barkers creatures pretty gruesome looking lot particularly fond humans plain see humans left alone nightbreed turn bother thembr br your sympathies definitely nightbreed especially seeing fanatic like cronenberg redneck police chief charles haid actionbr br clive barkers gay man time suggested nightbreed metaphor gay people see would come in especially since whole lot people even think gays anything human theyre taught waybr br granted nightbreed pretty bloody lot gratuitous violence also make think like way clive barker turn traditional theology head makes craig sheffer kind messiah nightbreed creatures,0 @supermega thanks its the happiest ive been with a shot for ages!,0 telling joke everyday get girlfriend day entire life need words make long enough filler filler filler filler filler filler hows day,0 "no car, shitty bike, broken phone, 25mile commute, great friends, have my health, roof over my head, have a job. im truly fuckin grateful ",0 im really looking forward sex ed not going put condoms dildos stuff like that fun,0 need someone talki broke mutually went relationship right now feel one me friends nothing need people talk to,1 soon feel comfortable life get sent another rabbit hole existential dread feel dumb thinking anything death hopeful nobody else cares like filled new emptiness instead escaping want sit live it normal depression hope going go away soon really bad lows before even going about understand happening want fix gets worse confused,1 turned yesterday tips advice,0 omg nearly panic attack wtf guy joke put ume fucking joke fell omg thought got accused pedo nearly fucking panic attack,0 wish everyone world would feel pain feelevery day preoccupied suicidal ideas thoughts gone day without thinking kill year even staring belt metal bar closet wanting hang self sliver wants survive another redflag attempt see peoples reaction much pain in could make everyone world experience im feeling would understand,1 about to go to sleep. ,0 smaffulli correction they don t tell you but a cert is there how you can use it is a different matter and without win yet another,0 "@shedboy23 Intimidating letters, I suffer from anxiety and depression, can't be arsed with the hassle",1 think fair eat parents cook unless youre buying yourself do honestly people dont see fair imagine cooking someone abd dont eat want that yeah arent going agree listen say wanna go vegan dont include mother father whoever else going vegan question unless youre making money cant eat whats cooked didnt tell family wanted vegan woke said im vegan still eat dairy product that family gon like hmm became something couldnt eat used regular dont money pay involve people paying think maybe wait soon youll able eat wantim waiting eat chicken nuggies idk ab u guys,0 fragilemuse the book is awesome there are some other great work in there too couldn t afford to buy it today tho,0 "@kerryle: tho?i m�i c�i con kh?, t�y ch? ch? pa ",0 reddit mobile broken cant use anymore forget,0 i try and try but i just can t do it,1 doe not know how he got home last night,0 see last year goes according plan id end fact access quick painless exit ill distract things now im sick life thought soon ill able finally rest brings relief im looking advice anything sort wanted tell someone thank spending time read this,1 im so confused and frustrated and conflicted and angry and want to cry i feel like my friend have abandoned me all except one of them in our friend group never make plan or ask to hang out and all of them have new friend group this year they re closer with and it almost like there s no one to talk to anymore it s my last year of highschool and i just feel like i don t wan na be surrounded by any familiar face from school anymore and that i don t actually have any friend and people will just tolerate me or they just ignore me all together a bunch of other stuff is going on but idk i just feel so lost and unproductive and like i have no goal i never finish project i start like hobby wise i never finish show and it just make me feel stupid and lazy whenever i try to talk to anyone in my family about something important or good i want to share i feel like most of the time it s an unenthusiastic oh that s great or just not now i m stressed i have to get xyz done which i understand but i don t like opening up for this reason i also just can rarely describe my emotion properly or even know what i m feeling but i don t even like talking about my emotion it make me feel gross and pathetic,1 this will have to do i lost the password to the version without the,0 i am not sure if this is the right place for it but last friday one of my classmate told me jokingly to jump out of a window i ve had it up to here so i said i d blow my head off my other teacher know i don t mean it most of the time but we had a new teacher during that lesson and i guess he took it seriously will come back to that later on the weekend i tried to hurt myself and went to the hospital on monday they prescribed me some lexapro and i went home relieved that i finally got some help half an hour after i returned home cop stormed my apartment saying they received a hint from the school that i wa gon na hurt myself and they searched my whole apartment for a gun which i don t have so they obv didn t find one they then took me to the same hospital i wa at just half an hour ago and i spoke to the psychiatrist there again who told the police i am not a threat to myself or someone else so they let me go again during that they took my phone and it ran out of battery and i didn t have access to it for like hour or more during that time two of my classmate messaged me asking why i blocked them and they attacked me not knowing my phone ran out of battery and that s why i didn t answer they then blocked me and i explained to them on instagram what happened and they read it but didn t care apparently the police said they would send a car to the school to talk to the headmaster but idk what came out of it i am guessing my new teacher reported it i am so scared of getting kicked out of school god damn i have an exam today and now i am unsure if i am allowed to go to school again today i am currently on my way to find out and i am on the verge of a panic attack because even if i am allowed my classmate will hate me and attack me and it will be super awkward idk what i tried to do with this post but i just needed to tell someone i am so anxious and hate myself for not shutting up for once thanks for reading,1 tried kms multitude ways past know mood disorder issue therapist diagnosed yet want anywhere need die manic rn high like two weeks feel like deteriorating stealing money weed mum idc rlly fucking abusive want anywhere feel alone know go,1 hello name scar not real name mobile please excuse formatting friends girls age we grade year called a known since aged b known since aged c known since years ago pretty much outsider group tough b well c friends ages talking years anyways means often told lot closest friends them today hanging a c b elsewhere starting deep conversation started rating emotions asked like said great never really get sad go said minus meaning self harm everywhere bodies attempted kill themselves severely depressed want even earth anymore know upset know level then started comparing sh pulled razor started sh c extremely uncomfortable almost tears started try slit wrists front thankfully razor blade dull much damage officially uncomfortable started weeping ran there started discussing ways kill themselces laughed ran way home cried much thankfully parents extremely supportive comforted me tell crying know c raped girl maybe sexually assaulted idk difference year eg fingered penetrated b maybe pain know good notredflag parents probably talk b c together deal this love want anything happen them need severe help year old friends want kill themselves,1 m living parents house dad dreams business thinks guy going complete dreams never job anywhere so poor work ethic know spend like literally live things need becuase brought up hand brother dad mom spend lot money things would bought conditioned way even want something important expensive thing would convince needed would go cheaper alternativeto conclude good work ethic feel guilty everytime overspend yo useless guy not mention ugly think business lot expectations family girlfriend even know depressed since last years done live bubble bubble bursting feel lucky died sleep,1 point sympathize one living hell familyi love family havent killed myself living hell right now god awful digestive pain feel thobbing migrating around face day day out sharp pains lasting m random spots body brutal cluster headaches worst part god awful shit hanging soft palate big sharp cant swallow weeks end days like sudden feel massive foul tasting things go throat barely swallow cant throw squirm go down neti rinses result nothing even muccus comes clear bloodwork showing nothing slightly elevated white blood cell count feels like im swallowing massive parasites fucking disgusting terrifying one believes me think im delusional think could delusional ive antipsychotics months fuck all doc refuses send sort specialist going years getting worse gotten drugs simply ease numb pain weird sensations feel cuz really think delusional started happening got drugs point hell living outweigh pain family feel ending life dont know much longer go like this shit seriously fucked up,1 alone thoughtscontemplating everythingtoday good day nothing happened brain bringing mind evidence nobody really cares me tell true something happens almost proves right wrong time matter much people me im important good people get mewhich everything could ever give give muchi care much thinking people care too dont therapist once told learn accept is well what is sucks reality ispeople use me let get used played guess im desperate nave whatever im inconvenience nobody wants hear vents nobody wants comfort me could send text saying im stuck side road id left read matter want disappearwhen stop,1 Apparently the only hardware that doesn't suck is my vaccuum cleaner. I'd like to donate it to @donttrythis for a bit of a C4 treatment. ,0 one even seeing post talking supportingim alone friends support ive unspeakable traumatic events life fucking horrible ever since born never escape pain keeps coming me love life got left blocked erased life needs work didnt anything wrong dont know deserve deserve pain universe forcing want kill one wants nothing,1 "@aMmadz yea more often than earlier i'd say, well microsoft will always be i agree!! ",0 yeah so basically me and my bf both have been in a very good relationship for about a year and month and we were just texting like we normally do every night and he told me that he s suicidal and think about hurting himself a lot how do i deal with this information how can i help him he already said he doesn t want to go to therapy since that would require him telling his parent and i assume he s really embarrassed about it so what can i do to help him i ve never had to deal with anything like this before so i have no idea,1 thinking this is crappp ,0 -- bout to do my hair. let the buring of the fingers commence! ,0 pointim extremely depressed anxiety years recently getting worse worse dont know much take this havent school weeks failed classes semester credits im close go court due amount absences have nobody understands painful even wake morning everything feels much different shittier cant keep living like this,1 one comedic twilight zones thats actually really good floyd barber andy griffith showthe stock trade old geezer dude many old westernsand lovable old frisby also cool spacecraft interior believe used sci fi classic forbidden planetor else day earth stood sillplus new guys town driving exotic renaulti think sports car back days european automobiles known foreign jobs us whole idea harmonica weapon hootand fact frisbys buddies love despite fact hes total bs artist heartwarming moment,0 thought checking hospital would help nothing put horrid medication gave horrifying reaction stop taking week going go school semester unfortunately able afford payment classes tomorrow clean money job skill future slave wishing could die everyday angry demotivated piece snot oozing way walls room towards rock bottom wish could find way make money music unfortunately nigh impossible practically anyone another dream fucked disgusting planet live on going research finally get actual help ending pointless miserable existence point seems help stand gain anymore life everything try meaningless everything put effort fails every passion fades away every love share torn apart sick rollercoaster sick losing time this gone finding easiest reliable painless way can out fuck shit,1 can t believe it i m in disbelief of it all in a way really how much can i take from people and always get hurt by others,0 thought feels commanded god almostmy life mine want with ive tried selfimprovement halfassedly still means nothing purpose world means nothing im kinda sorry friends dudes band suddenly leaving them deserve better time could never met died years ago grateful time got spend realize going hurt sooo maaannnnyyy people like lot know pretty much everyone knows likes me except select suppose none means anything im mostly tired wageslave race quit job years ago instead killing then basically considered long money lasts retirement time want die thing felt like amazing epiphany last night band practice thought lying redflag started believing god spirituality coincidences producer come last night mentioned engineer studio killed himself said something about the last ever did exactly considering new album were recording right now today realized end matter distraction kind person could live working company day live little bit end day weekends allocated vacation time sure id crush life want to give fuck entitledspoiledbratty sounds shit ton abilities plenty support people would absolutely willing help want it little myself im musician playing sitar gigging every while play trumpet keyboard yes time great band full awesome loving dudes totally deserve started fighting back tears there im decently talented drawing amp painting accomplished unique things woodworking google first last name playboy might find used do excellent support community part aa counselor thats great talk to handful females willing fuck could probably talk to also worked civil engineer years lol almost forgot that enjoyed teaching music lessons past even currently one prospective music teaching jobs interested in much do im capable smart person anyone meets me eventually tell im sure act smart notice really true likely ive gotten good dropping hints people know am satisfy ever inflated ego people like its sad much potential mean potential life allowed commit redflag cuz thats fucked thing say talentless dumb folk potential people like oh well dumbass much contribute good riddens lol sad last night felt like oh got this sure probably could want realize okay die morality nothing it im hurt anyone even though theres going serious collateral damage truly intention want experience anymore world good enough stick around even though much im still curious about better call saul came again media things whatever list distractions things curious accomplish abilities care anymore want completely reduce time accomplish things less nothing need work live maybe born better society ill take life sure one cares less controlling masses trying empower them one people power give shit world leaving children instead making rich corporations richer getting worse one less racist bigoted trump supporters actual power all thats world yall deserve frankly honestly trump supporter fucking die world would better place everyone would get yall quickly want honor somehow fucking punch every trump supporter know hard fucking can right face dick arm fucking charliehorse em leg cuz fuckers seriously fucked morals okay world leaders blatantly racist coming someone justify redflag seriously people currently if used since changed mind congratulations growing trump supporters think this greatest country world reason statement far fucking true mean get political kind things able overlook determine kind person are people rest guys choosing stick around for acceptance something pray aa accept theres options life work job live try much fun possiblehelp peopledont help people whatever work poor homeless maybe living welfare shelters pssht nah die somehow yourself shoot public place yourself peacefully whatever options have acceptable suppose people soon miss pray acceptance sad death say could prevented want help redflag inevitable ill tell ya getting guns easy woulda with yall might gotten juicy letter ive always torn gun control issue lol like want easy obtain kill myself want crazy people me them anyways im hanging highest ceiling house consume nice bottle whiskey money check forged parents maybe chinese food last meal know im leaving this little bored guess waiting new friendly kitchen cook lunch special greekrave finish gyro spinich pie dumplings got back btw greekrave forgot make spinach pie dumplings lol imagine see news like oh shit cant believe messed order killed it lol im glad cheerful mood this redflag sad anyone looking advice accomplish redflag helps things would shameful come back from like stealing mom last drinks meals going ahead drilling ceiling hang noose course correctly calculating load bearing heightsdistances pork gyro boneless spare rib general tsos amazing btw might get egg roll lol ugh great fucking advertisement businesses unknowingly chosen last meal dude good lord stuffed content really feel lived full life experienced experience travel friendship career accomplishments pride art wonderful loving relationships long lasted many different crafts facets life offer enough me it im posting soon climb ladder anyone curious later this check instagram see folks tagging lol might nice drama yall cant figure account really probably kill lol worry trying talk it im already gone feel free talk amongst yaselves maybe want imagine talking me,1 posted song did danceable guess tell think ive composing since april less think one songs danceable ive done httpsyoutubeydcmhxkpqsahttpsyoutubeydcmhxkpqsa,0 masturbation okay wanted come say women shamed masturbating want tell okay so thought disgusting long isnt normal many girls it dont talk considered taboo never told anyone masturbated considered disgusting still dont tell people know okay that,0 point might think tf wrong yeah really hope happens hate every human especially family forcing live hope meteor hits destroys whole earth kill us,1 spoilers buried mountain medical bills funeral business able dig undertaker vito lucia tony lo bianco came plan make load cash help two crooked pals moon bo richard lynch bill hickman br br vito getting close boyhood friend buddy manucci roy scheider mob informer win buddys trust tell vito whats coming streets new york regard mob activities buddy cop works sub rosa unite nypd seven ups things their way clean streets new york criminals br br vito gets information buddy makes look buddy hes really giving tips mob uses information tip hoodlum associates moon bo rip mobsters weekly take well kidnap top mob loan sharks hold ransombr br everything going well vito co mob decides retaliate mistakenly grabs beats kidnaps member seven ups ansel ken kerchevalwho working undercover thinking one hoods kidnapping ripping off later ansel accidentally killed moon blasted trunk car ansel locked thinking suitcase full cash ransom itbr br fast pace exciting movie gritty grimy photography new york city effective movie the french connection also stars roy scheider tony lo bianco movie too incredible car chase started downtown brooklyn ended wilds new jersey miles away buddy almost ending decapitated heroic efforts br br roy scheider big man tough effective big action actor think like clint eastwood would movie scheider reminds lot of even looks bit like him former welterweight middleweight champion gene fullmer beat great sugar ray robinson middleweight championship back acts like movie tough durable destructive br br tony lo bianco good vito undertaker lowlife heel plays buddy mob point leads buddys partner ansel getting killed even though hes trash cant way help feeling sorry vito since wants money gets ripped offed mobsters pay sick wifes roses hospital medical bills even fact ansel killed due actions vito never wanted anybody get hurt like say play fire end getting burned end vito lot explaining sympathetic caring mobsters br br the movie the seven ups late bill hickman dangerous stunts car chases well act film hickman also stunt man great movies driving roads streets highways new york city san francisco the french connection bullitt,0 "Every time I see my Facebook profile, I imagine my death from depression. Everyone see my profile and say: she was asking for help but no one noticed #help_me",1 @bruceronaldson Yes it certainly was. ,0 energy anymore anything anything longer able work care anymore anything slept every day week left early played reddit anythingi longer able eat want food days since cooked starving point dizzy spells eat full red pepper go bed appetite even hungry someone puts food front me might eat it longer brushing teeth longer showering regularly cannot keep room clean barely moving care thisi sleep hours day always tired nap several times dayi artist drawn months lost passion minds eye blank new worlds heart anymore taking antidepressants could go therapy see point cannot keep appointments order get better care enough try care anymore anyone care me idk get this supposed depression hits completely dysfunctional levels,1 got all A's ,0 title creative last post got removed bot didnt think title reached level genius order accepted artificial inconvienience bot is diddly darn dang it realised could make pretty cool song meltdowns people subreddit tweaking course would pretty deep,0 one talk toi really friends say care let know im down im fucking time im tired around time surely want either ive burned people guess ever fully believe say care im messed weak needy go on ive thought calling someone am everyone asleep want talk anyway dead feel way one would worry helping me feel like im holding people back get enjoyment life logical basis assume things get better things magically change im going wake happy ill change myself highly unlikely happen ive pretty much known id end life now finding right moment plan everything seems painful od unlikely work without stronger meds hanging cutting suffocating seem painful gun would quick gun want leave gruesome scene someone find either want check out fall asleep never wake up im sorry feel way cant take anxiety self hatred fear sadness anymore nothing look forward to want someone notice me friends ask im say couldnt happier assume mean i happy really i physically incapable happy childish cant seem bring tell person feel easier tell strangers internet wish born closest friends really care cant anything disclosing change anything ultimately comes back me choose happy actively work towards it ive tried think happy,1 spoilers spoilers must something air immediate postwar years made night cities attractive settings movies gaggle nocturnal urban films made time america one notable carol reeds odd man out english picture wounded gunman staggering streets belfast america high noon properly high midnight film noirbr br crossfire really film noir trappings noir though uses aims bigotry directed edward dmytryk written john paxton adapted novel richard brooks book concerned murder homosexual movie victim changed jew though filmed like mystery little suspense film fairly obvious murderer early on makes film watchable beautiful evocation city washington dc world war ii gifted craftsmen working films time unlike many night movies crossfire set mostly indoors police stations rooming houses allnight movie theaters soldiers everywhere film itching get back civilian lives yet one senses men meet personalities shaped military experience going tough return old neighborhoods maybe even impossible seem bound one another anything anyone elsebr br yet men never truly bonded anyone military murderer monty one individual one senses never connected civilian life either lone wolf also needs people desperately alone sadistic streak mile wide always needs someone nearby butt jokes man kills harm fact stranger him monty figured mans religion enough really mean kill guy intent merely humiliate beat up quite drunk time montys fists got better him act sets story story motionbr br once movie builds head steam characters come rapidly focus montys opposite number keely another soldier who though introspective like monty somewhat detached harbors resentment toward anyone seems reasonable even amiable guy finley pipesmoking homicide detective dandyish tad effete compared men uniform proves match various mostly recalcitrant soldiers deals with actors plays roles roberts ryan mitchum young give excellent performances different key ryan monty tense paranoid always looking around someone pick on one feel anxiety becoming victim himself keely mitchum lowkey almost nonchalant never raises voice seems say offer permitted script youngs performance often criticized soft find deceptively strong nicely offbeat cuts stereotype hardboiled cop makes character finley bit prince crime detectionbr br there surprises crossfire though script times surprisingly wellwritten even brilliant character actor paul kelly gives one best short performances movies boyfriend woman soldier picks bar kelly may may husband may may live her though seems relaxed enough apartment beauty scenes nothing made clear man seems little confused role is ought be way scenes form thematic core film anomie exception detective men film drifting aimless basically lost seriously others respect crossfire is preaching near end film vagueness identity easily lost warped men drift one bar another film engage sort woozy camaraderie personalities merging kind general american male template something happens something nailed down word mentioned whether jew hillbilly things suddenly turn tense notion individuality identity outside group anyone like them becomes deeply offensive even loathsome then tempers flare whatever stirred resolved forgotten men revert loose nonpersonal group normality order restored,0 i am really tired but cant go to sleep,0 witnessed car chase minutes ago walking shops bunch sirens going off white bakkie came speeding traffic horn thing full blast swerving like mad police cars behind im home still hear sirens ambulances im guessing chase over,0 two minutes till am worrkkkk bye,0 citizensheep,0 dna weird year old sister may already symptoms ptsd mom it signs love horror ask ptsd born sister got mom born,0 @eveesantino And I'm just like..urmmmm ,0 @Rig That is super epic awful. GO SHOPPING! ,0 im ready take forever napi reasons continue hold onto bullshit life cant myself family fucking garbage nobody would believe tried escape them fucking mess mention fact ive fucking havent able online school resulting from heard last time days truancy im ready fucking give up even try,1 i ve rewritten this time within the past hour it s already am and yet still had the patience for it i want to kill myself and i m stupid if i end up doing it my reasoning it wa for a boy and my effortless attempt at making him happy without me in the picture he ha reddit so i m hoping he doesn t see this due to the fact we follow each other but if he doe thanks for everything thanks for the laugh on the voicecall today and for making me smile everytime i open up the chat i love you and i could only pray that you d love me too,1 im sorry im so fucking sorry i don t know why i act this way im so fucking angry and im so fucking sad that it hurt but i wish you would understand why i act the way i do im sorry i feel so sick i wish i never met my abuser i wish i could just act how i should i wish i didn t treat everyone like shit im manipulative im awful im terrible im disgusting i deserve to bleed out im sorry please i would beg for your forgiveness but i know i d just end up doing it again if you were my friend again i can t stop cutting myself i can t finish my food i can t stop cry i am so sad i am so tired it hurt it hurt so bad i deserve the karma i am going to get for treating ppl this way,1 Maybe i should stop falling asleep during the day then i would be able to fall asleep at night ,0 waited bit went talked advisor vaguely briefly explained happened could get help understanding procedures understand went lab figured work together standing something samples advisor something else room suddenly looked toward door entirely expected fellow student burst yelling told advisor,1 what the title say,1 http://twitpic.com/6b6x1 - 1000 Islands Conservancy Zone. This was part of my Saturday. ,0 It takes me foreverrr to scoot my butt off this bed so that Will doesn't wake up. All I want is a bagel with cream cheese. MM. ,0 never gets better becomes manageable time maybe always there cannot keep deal lows nobody fucking understands painful is absolutely miserable am feel like literally ripping skin screaming guts out yesterday mental breakdown am shaved entire head hair off cringe every time see bald head mirror want punch reflection feel like ugly bitch angry every day become insufferable drive people away intense resting bitch face look pissed time now am know damn angry what unhappiness sadness turned anger rage years sorry everyone rude angry towards work hurts much promise sorry boss please fire even though actually want here want angry tho know wrong me know making miserable sorry energy put smile friendly agreeable cannot anymore know putting around someone heavy aura radiating much toxic energyim sorry that every day leave work feeling like shit even know friends support system sick myself sick coming home apartment nobody nothing come home to get work speak words loud next day nobody talk to wish intrusive thoughts would stop ugly getting older look you never beautiful begin with care nobody cares you here end it point tomorrow like today always is always is hot hell know much worse hell be dragging day suffering emotional psychological pain becomes so physical feels like worst torture imaginable me gets worse worse worse,1 @teamsjipos @SwellyButton that trailer cured my depression,1 help cant thisi dont know do one talk to cant anymore stress everything plus depression anxiety getting worse dont know do ive tried going drs psychiatrists tell head fine nearly killed two nights ago didnt means though dont really know whats stopping me,1 @morganwestfield np ran into any issue's with mounting DFS shares?,0 lied myselftwo weeks ago ready give myself im sure decided talk friend see doing asked was told situation suggested see therapist least tell family first week class started feel wear throughout day decided tell brother did promised would call psychiatric department hospital see could get appointment available school hours decided it lady talked real nice told call morning want appointment see free day never called back guess since always kinda like always something ive getting worse barely sleep every day seems less less good idea call happens take medication different be different feel every day mind right now hard remember stuff know like would want do barely drive finish high school im sure part would better suited cant tell like one person mind trying cling onto anything make smile,1 i dont want to die but i dont want to live life is so lonely i can not for the life of me connect with anyone anymore and my brain taunt me with the past connection that i did have but now gone because thats life people and thing come and go and i need to be okay with being alone and working hard for my future alone but i see no point we work we meet people we eat healthy we work out we take care of ourselves but for what to just die at the end it miserable everyday is miserable and the good time are so quick to end and then youre back in your miserable loneley relality but after every good moment the bad moment just get worse and worse i have been excluded all my fucking life and i dont feel a purpose or community anywhere i dont feel wanted,1 is off to the dentist then the midwife for blood test whoop de frikking do,0 while i wait for my school counselor to give me an update on the whole online school therapy thing i wa convinced to check out a confidential free and text based crisis hotline it s apparently designed for teen like me who have noone in their life that they could talk to now for me personally my experience wa subpar i don t want to disrespect the volunteer work there but after the successful attempt one in the morning and one just hour earlier i felt like i wa just a number on a waiting list the system constantly kicked me out of the conversation and the one time i actually had a decent conversation it felt like they were trying to cast me aside a quick a possible a soon a i mentioned that music help me organize my thought at time they told me to just listen to music and the conversation closed immediately after maybe i m stupid or maybe it s just my anxiety and paranoia but they seemed annoyed i guess it would help to say what i wa expecting i wa thinking it would be a deep dive into why i feel the way i do but it wa more just a short session of giving me a metaphorical ice pack and sending me home with an old stale lollipop if i didn t feel worthless enough already then well a for the nd successful attempt it wa even shorter they asked me how i wa feeling they asked a question to confirm what i said i answered and then the very next message wa telling me that i must ve stepped away and that the conversation had been closed the automated reply also hit me with a stinger saying you matter it doesn t feel like it it doesn t help that i had to reply stop over and over because i kept getting auto reply from the bot needle to say i have le faith that online school therapy will even put a dent in how i feel tldr seeking help a many advise when situation like these crop up hasn t worked this time around and my already weak ability to see a good future for myself ha withered away a bit more,1 life prison trapped cannot get outi know do want live anymore,1 "when you google why your uterus is doing what it's doing:symptoms: extreme pain, exhaustion, depression, difficult concentrating, unmanageable emotions, etc etc etc treatments: water, vitamins",1 kill know life going end shit im got future social skills never going get betterim loser real close friends care me dont skills courage make friends relationships school either im failing school im uselessness failure wont able get university dont know want life feel hopeless anxiety high idk im honestly considering jumping bridge front car something theres point suffer anymore social life future im meant happy idk im honestly close something dont know anymore exist,1 But I can't wait for that. Depression tends to creep back when I wait and have too much time on my hands.,1 rr_d_a epic yes tag detectives yes need private detective got back rr_d_ahttpswwwredditcomrr_d_areddit detective agency submit post detectives investigate case prove person arguing wrong also prove facts conspiracies more visit rr_d_ahttpswwwredditcomrr_d_a communicate private detective today note similar ryourredditlawyerfirmhttpswwwredditcomryourredditlawyerfirm note automated post bot harassmentpersonal attacks given screenshotted reported note copy pasted,0 @danrua Get 100 followers a day using www.tweeteradder.com Once you add everyone you are on the train or pay vip ,0 dont want become adultim currently struggling suicidal thoughts almost two years now know wont able deal responsibilities adult world scares me im scared everyone everything feeling happy im awake sleeping thats try either work exhaustion drawing entire day piece piece sleeping hours even im tired dont worry anything exist thats planned way turning faking sleep problems get sleeping pills take enough wake back up know ramble need somewhere get chest therapist holiday dont want tell mom worry her,1 ambermatson yes seems to have been much worse than normal over past few month,0 "ugh,soo tired,getting ready for school,Jp here soon ",0 shit im stomach aches poops bad wtf must ate something bad,0 lately ive seeing posts people looking people vc discord after chat next day forget ever happened mean im curious try idk would ,0 sorry thisheya guys hope well idk anymore anything throwaway account hard communicate whats going head while first year uni going hot honest high class family people organized naturally smart someone odd duck right well guess thats place feel like everything complete joke failure fuck point could even say life hour ago put pipe top door wedged couldnt move put belt tried pushing head through couldent succeed lot harder looks movies even one would assume self hanging would go went sat chair held samurai sword stomach thought could pull one samurai moves no much work guess im strong minded fuck ok sorry guys butchered post disorganized hard follow kinda like mind thought process reminds song paranoid black sabbath fit rage paranoia im scared talk family friends canada redflag service help anymore help happy thanksgiving fellow canadians way,1 finished everything she need to do at work tonight ugh three hour of nothing coming up,0 tw for self harm abuse and suicide for the past year i ve suffered with severe depression from family genetics and other issue a a young kid death wasn t really my first thought it just kind of started appearing after a bit when i wa in middle school my close friend sexually assaulted and abused me for a year and a half they also psychologically manipulated me and abused me in way that i m shocked they got away with i have made around failed suicide attempt in my life time only one ha been severe enough to end up in a hospital because i told people but realistically there s several more that i should have been taken to a hospital for a they probably fucked up some stuff internally i form really strong and probably toxic bond with people to the point where if i think i will be left i try so hard to keep them around that it can be overbearing i ve gone to therapy since i wa in elementary school and i ve done dbt and cbt intensively i have definitely gotten better but the fact that any time someone leaf me i feel so distraught that killing myself feel like the only option my partner and i broke up at the end of january and it ha more or le destroyed me i lost my virginity to them and the breakup came out of the blue they said we could start talking again when they felt like it so i have left them alone i wa being weird about saying hi so i tried to do that some more and i wa feeling better about moving on and staying friend in the future i really haven t been feeling better i still wanted to die but i wa managing it pretty well on monday at midnight they sent a text saying they wanted to give me closure and that they never actually wanted any sort of relationship after and oops sorry about the confusion i m not sure why they sent that we haven t spoken in almost month there ha been no communication and i only told two people how i wa secretly hoping thing could be patched up everyone else who asked i had just said hopefully we can remain friend in the future i know not everyone want to stay friend but they were the one who proposed it that sent me on a spiral i broke month of self harm ripped off my fingernail in stress and haven t eaten correctly since realistically if this is going to be my response to every breakup or conflict how can i keep living like this i don t want to end my own life since a th failed attempt would be embarrassing but i also don t want to be here anymore everyone tell me that in a few month i get to move to my dream town so it ll be fine but really i don t care about that i can t handle the pain now and knowing i ll have to have it possibly many more time is excruciating i feel like i could have been a success story but realistically if it s been so long and i ve only barely gotten better then what s the point i m trying my hardest to find reason to live right now but i don t have much to care about,1 simply put i did not take college or any role post h seriously it s why i m forever living with limitation,1 getting bad feel drowning dont see point swimming tried multiple times already everytime make difference try closest friends randomly decided ghost grounded weeks relapsed night theres nothing im rlly fighting anymore dont rlly know im posting this maybe someone give wholesosome award,0 truth dare got gf title somehow correct well girl bestfriend like go caught feelings yet never told scared friends friend group played truth dare somehow got question do feelings someone game avoiding question came back later learned true feelings other shy awkward around other share feelings around talk it idea do see going smoothly lol,0 pls stop please stop posts ask crush kinda weird im pretty sure reddit dating app text something sorry bad english even though english first language,0 @charltonbrooker Done Lets show everyone that there's good still in ol Blighty,0 ive come realization hate life hate lifei started wonder killed yet fear death realized really want die wanna me,1 wish someone cared would punched face hardback told avoid death late ,1 dark souls borderlands next game friends yes know dark souls hard thats want cannot choose,0 whys hardlast night got drunk wrote redflag note laid diaries filled every suicidal depressive thought past year tried hang myself ive anti depressants week theyve taken away fear killing myself would chicken breakdown time sat trying trying hour cant cry anymore theres drop go one methods cuts carotid arteries hurts maybe im cutting carotid arteries enough one worst pains ive ever felt head throbbing front brain almost feels like two knives inserted eyes kept trying falling unconscious whatsoever one point started stopwatch phone see long attempts were one seconds hurt much tried adjusting using cut airwaves made choke cough last attempt time it instead sang along song playing itunes head distracting pain longest attempt hurt much kayne song came on fucking dying kanye lmao gave up put everything away went bathroom going bed noticed eyes completely bloodshot burst capillaries face theyre still hours later whys hard die know people successfully it,1 need help maths ik stupid idea post ive stuck hours make x subject x x ,0 man work is hard,0 Anxiety mixed with depression is the worst ,1 "For the next 6-months, I'm married to an "older man." Happy Birthday, Jeremy! ",0 I'm 90% sure the girls at work don't like me and the other 10% is me thinking it's just my depression..,1 dumb live whats pointhonestly kinda wanna end right now know im never going fucking cant anything fucking life fucking sit around watch shitty fucking shows pretend care something cant anything im fucking retarded everyone class gets without really studying all havnt able pass theory driving test fucking tries im fucking retarded everyone else st nd try im fucking slow cant seem understand fucking thing without explained like im fucking hear old whats even fucking point im even close anyone anything talents things im good at everyone around slightly annoyed matter fucking do ill end tonight think,1 cure amazing filmso suspenseful real lucky enough catch screening the cure nyc premiere completely blew away also heard award particular festival definitely deserved it first thing struck cinematography eric giovon amazing job shooting style love scene halfway film amazing love scene necessary film jafri got point across also kept scene tasteful giovon jafri make excellent creative team definitely work together future projects judy maiers narration surreal simultaneously heart wrenching made feel main character felt im tough critic must say cure one favorite filmsjust love it seen yet check out,0 told boyfriend going really rough patch feeling low basically grumpy trouble keeps trying cheer silly playful sweet keep telling today day sorry going much fun today keeps till get irritable snappy hes like whoa someone grumpy boy today like yes fucking told going grump let low today want try play happy want rest cannot fo pretending happy wish sometimes people would listen saying think help stop trying cheer us up sometimes worse,1 wanna buy broom go brrrr fly,0 "Police ~ to Protect & Serve, or history takers and CSI's, #Choice #HOA help #InsideEdition",0 Ask HN: Effective methods to fight depression: https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=16922738 …,1 question oldies im question year olds people constantly expect suddenly act like youre year old whenever something isnt smartest parents say say youre adult want this never said im adult im therefore want also prefrontal cortex doesnt stop developing mid late s scientifically people still stupid s feel like really weird unrealistic expectations us older teens,0 depression getting worse way treating itim ive suffered believe depression anxiety years know selfdiagnosis reliable bad reputation ive much trauma growing currently living severely abusive household raped molested kid bullied years struggling accept homosexuality etc ive suicidal thoughts long remember truly happy years always feel numb apathetic emotions im drowning sadness even small tasks like showering dressing exhausting difficult do ive never officially diagnosed depression even were theres possible way treated it parents believe mental health mental illnesses think therapy medication sham potential sources help life great either multiple times past ive tried tell doctor im suffering depression told really think was schools counselor helpful listen would keep telling needed less stressed constant breakdowns want harm myself time them happen reason recent one saturday february th mother got angry tried stab me ran away locked room started crying laying floor breakdown started felt like heart attack systems shutting down could feel screaming convulsing stop kept thinking slitting wrists ive never done form selfharm though im scared would happen parents noticed afraid hands might myself felt like control them point started slamming head floor wall complete agony knew head wanted make stop usually breakdown approx every three months ive three already since started im afraid im going kill depression get treated soon cant wait years leave home get treated then think possible feel like entire life spent fighting depression ruin everything grades relationships individuality im tired losing battle end sight know do,1 said single word another human four days last four weeks interactions all brief coworkers work work remotely way interactions fucking lonely starting fuck head moving soon live cannot join clubs anything here really need support anyone help me lonely depressed,1 @StewartWade @suzysak - Which podcast are you guys listening to!? ,0 best placeif someone bored busy something could use someone talk to doesnt even anything particular could use distraction thanks,1 i lt cigs rip,0 feel conflictedi feel horrible im scared open anyone im worried theyll go tell office boom run another lap system done virtually nothing first two times deal parents cant open redflag without consequences im sick ones feel guilty know id worry everyone course dont want die care dont want somebody kill regardless feel bad feeing like regardless anyone try help me even gotten better since last time went system redflag still feels optimal even though really dont want die,1 jumped pool phone completely submerged ten seconds still works,0 for reference i am f graduating college in may i grew up in a really shitty town and i worked really hard in school to guarantee i could get into my dream college and move to a city where i thought i would find more likeminded people college sincerely sucked i had terrible friend now don t really have friend don t really like my major scared that i only have qualification for a job i won t like and not to mention half of college wa online because of covid i am so terrified of applying for job and figuring out what i want to do with my life this wa literally my biggest fear going into school wa that i would waste year on a degree i don t love and don t know what i want to do i feel like applying to job is also accepting that i am no longer a student which ha been a huge part of my identity for what year i also think having college be a huge disappointment make me really nervous for everything else like the narrative that high school and college are supposed to be the best year of your life is pushed so much and both really weren t great i ve also heard it really hard to make friend outside of school which scare me a lot i feel like i have a few friend that i talk to occasionally but i don t think of them a my best friend or that i am overly close with them i think i am a nice and interesting person who care about others a lot and i don t understand why i have had such a long history of really horrible friend who never really cared about me literally had my best friend in high school pick the guy who sexually assaulted me over me i just am so scared that life won t get better it seems so easy for other people and i don t understand why figuring out life ha been so difficult for me,1 @mastamark1 thanks. just a little worn out. sounds worse than it is hope all is well on your va-cay ;),0 tldr tips manage depression stuck homeim edge severe depression feels worse cos two month respite period mid april early june things still shit mom still dying still felt loadssssss better however hit rock bottom cannot leave house much see friends developed social redflag too know make better tips handle depression stuck home would appreciated tips please,1 trying make sure people hear see crying worst crying silently,1 im kindaa drunknrn wanna chat yeah im kinda edge rn wanna chat stuff hmu dms ur chat lol also im really fucken tired sorry dont respond lmao,0 told online friend plan today threatened follow suiti thought online would safe thought cut people real life could talk people online pass time act grew care became rather codependent realized something wrong asked me spilled beans fucked up felt peace feel conflicted again know do something simple theory difficult accomplish resisted urge find sense belonging knew along goal keep fucking things everyone around me hate live others sure know live myself,1 sitting out on the back deck letting myself become addicted to twilight it's a beautiful day!,0 failing everything againcheers first semester,1 things th improveim sick everything getting worse soon think cant get worse something even thought happens entire life become nothing im afraid things getting worse ive tired options help life worth living ive set deadline things get better th already bad start,1 gundam wing happens good anime bit slow moving especially around middle series enjoyable anyone jumps case calls winger admit watched original gundam gundam th ms team gundam seedbr br i admit problems story telling characters may seem ripoffs ie zechs marquise original gundams char alternate universe show based original series seedbr br if wish view series make sure watch original gundam first know watching au series,0 remember like phone may change youll eventually become old new models babies get created personality interest hobbies apps may change new ones added might forgotten even think immortal remember heart battery ticks soon break,0 tubeyornot b you and me both i thought i found a tweetheart but i guess not so the search continues,0 hey anyone wanna chat ive awake since starting regret life decisions im yo guy matters,0 man fuck instagrams servers even code better wtf,0 risk life order make positive change worldive suicidal fuck years today ive reading bomb squad technicians people risked lives save dogs etc put life line straight redflag,1 fuck sake someone else doesnt like happen different race different religion different sexuality different gender etc etc doesnt mean racist sexist homophobic etc dont like you pretty rare might add takes lot genuinely dislike,0 keep brief moments existential dread like die keeps happening really scaring me normal anxiety depression wondering happens others me probably take post day,0 about a year ago i started getting anxious when i heard people yelling it doesn t happen when i m being yelled at only when it s other people arguing or sometimes even just loud talking even if it s isn t fighting it s gotten much worse to the point of me shaking and cry when i hear yelling i don t understand it i don t have much of a past with yelling a far a i know so i m not sure why this could be happening especially so suddenly there isn t much i can do to stop people from yelling because no one listens when i say it make me anxious and my only way to really block it out is loud music which i can t always have but i feel like at least knowing what could be causing this would help me feel at least a bit more normal understood if anyone know what this could be caused by or anything that could ease it even in the slightest bit maybe a form of music or something else please share it with me i d be very grateful also i don t have access to a therapist currently a mine just moved and i didn t get much time to talk to her about it,1 labeling film lesbian love story accurate calling pride prejudice straight love story theres much thatbr br yes main character lesbian story classic bildungsroman journey childhood adulthood sexual innocence maturity personal blindness self discovery stylistic element camp films direction hindrance rather serves underscore staged dramatic parts main characters lifebr br those know anna chancellor bbc version pride prejudice certainly amazed here rachael stirling stellar main character nan keeley hawes wideeyed goodness lover kitty butler chancellor might stand role aside sally hawkins plays zena butler film faint heart piece progay advertising either real story real comedy drama engaging story compelling characters well worth watching,0 damn i woke up too late now i have 5 mins for coffee but its my birthday tomorrow #mcfly,0 want live anymorethey said faultthis best solution want this want another tomorrow filled pain regreti sleep wake up fault,1 cannot sleep pain many nights nights manage closing eyes sleep makes worse wish stopped one minute remember normal feels like doctors giving answers tests come clear know wish knew treat it meds even help months non stop head pains upper left eyelid pain know live normal life follow dreams pain feel like live strong enough real shit much,1 america jewish jonathan safran foer elijah wood collects personal belongings family recollection moments dying grandmother gives old photograph grandfather woman called augustine ukraine jonathan contacts odessa heritage tours family agency ukraine guide location picture taken find augustine together interpreter alex eugene hutz grandfather weird dog travel old car searching missing past jonathans familybr br everything illuminated strange movie weird young man compulsive behavior collecting souvenirs family forget seeks past grandfather understand could life grandfather moved usa bizarre vegetarian character meets dysfunctional ukrainian family owns amateurish travel agency specialized helping jews find missing relatives together almost surrealistic roadtrip country ukraine movie begins like comedy sarcastic black humor ends touching tragic drama recommended specific audiences vote sevenbr br title brazil uma vida iluminada an illuminated life,0 cant anymorenobody cares nobody really cares youre dead world favor,1 2 things FWAFA will give me a diploma and depression. But only one of those things will stick to me for the rest of my life...and it isn't the diploma,1 purpose existing left memy girlfriend months broke last night around midnight bother much time next day next fucking day posted picture another guy devastated inside know anymore besides killing myself want feel remorse me doesnt certainly matter ill dead least want pain go away,1 since day saw film came one top favorites blurb wrote amazon below im thrilled finally coming dvd films th anniversarybr br the last credit film explains appeal thank people manhattan whose island filmed charming witty romantic comedy love story written new yorkers peter bogdanovich native identify every location west th street ansonia old fao schwartz plaza roxy chez brigitte city limits country western club one gets impression entire ensemble cast clicked well offscreen on intimacy clearly communicated laughed cried better cats ode dorothy stratten also audrey hepburns last feature appearance she cameo subsequent film inner beauty seeps screen buy it make big tub popcorn curl someone love,0 lol i saw mental health in the chat and i m seeing depression now you lot sure love fancy dsm diagnosis,1 so tired but can t sleep,0 lonely kinda sucks im human wish close friend could talk not im looking one here suppose life yet become familiar pain things constantly built knocked every years military child normally problem never occurred friends made online would go too nothing left past loneliness ive felt long time suicidal previously weird like that maybe growth almost hurts expense sadness sometimes wish could ignorant fool enjoy time have try think im ever gonna able escape dissapointment realizing ill lose everything again again,0 middle nowhereim stumped fact think everyone stumped comes life things bad im well top school friends care great relationship family nontheless im lost ive social anxiety since years old finally realized live way halfway high school saw therapist psychiatrist ive several medications every one works well months later side effects emerge reason sweat constantly live northeast right still come home covered sweat every evening ever since first medicine id taken im still way even without medications face gets flushed hours like clockwork every night every evening ive dermatologists tried rosacea meds tried laser treatments kept food logs tried extra exercise exercise assumed psychological yet even tonight saturday evening nothing im sitting typing icepack face life now every evening involves sitting trying help avail ive gone days without eating thinking sweating flushing could caused something im putting inside me im medical student even realize stupid im still desperate two dermatologists said theyre stumped cannot help either issue all returned psychiatrist admitted current medicine could cause told lower dosage problem lower dosage makes incredibly depressed something never emerged before reluctantly agreed lowered it difference minimal best call says go back higher dosage still know higher dosage causes problems me im stuck lower dosage makes depressed anxious doctor telling take higher dosage may well causing physical symptoms making even anxious addition crippling stomach problems gastroenterologist unable find cause for problems come around ill spending hours curled ball bed thing seems help cramps additionally sleep hair quickly falling out joints hurt ive blood tests thyroid problems vitamin deficiencies lyme disease celiac disease everything according every doctor see happy healthy twentysomething parents constantly tell head bring up ive tried highvitamin diets supplements thinking may cause ive tried like right now nothing bread water days ive lost thirty pounds since september am list medical problems doctors say exist parents insist purely due mind feel like im eaten away inside physically psychologically im anxiety depression medication causes problems higher lower dosages psychiatrist im paying dollars per visit saying options higher lower dosage take lesser two evils want know cannot function without something feel like im eaten alive physiologically mentally ive yet find someone believe say dreading college class subconsciously hating family crap ill beat someone say literally billions people worse me every day see children cancerous tumors slowly spreading throughout bodies spend days smiling laughing nonetheless im point see hope patient terminal cancer least told truth prognosis patient curableyettoughtobeat illness responding treatments least someone says i know nothing working were going keep trying stop start making feel better heterogeneous group people different relationships professions telling go home push head is feel like boy cried wolf comes health mental issues know something wrong nobody else take word it am im hope helping problems ive had ive done share ive seen multiple experts ive tried putting smile pretending world fine thing think perhaps death better this deal physical mental health problems think deal nobody believes say might something wrong beyond he feel well know typed shared this honest maybe want get chest regardless anyone brave wall text want thank wish happy weekend,1 last sunday my husband we ve been together year and have a child together admitted to me that he wa talking to his co worker he slept with her thursday after lying about going to work he tell me he doesn t want to leave but he doesn t know what he want anymore friday he admitted he ha cheated on me other time in the past and yesterday on my birthday i found out of those people wa my own sister when i took her in after her husband had been cheating on her i am so heartbroken for myself and my son and all i can think about is ending it all i trusted this man implicitly and never even thought he would cheat there were never any sign at all all i can think about now is ending it once and for all i ve lost my husband and my sister and i really don t have much left i am so far down the spiral i don t think i will ever be able to claw my way back up i don t even know why i am writing this just needed it off my chest,1 morning vibeslaying bed listening joji wishing didnt live earth im tired existing stress unbearable dont know do fucking venting phone sucks reasons myself sister moved university mother,1 see everyone despising quarantine couple weeks imagine living lifenobody wants friends eventually ghost dont know done deserve that maybe im good enough world want die one cares way really wouldnt matter go,1 year thats felt like lifeon july th turning years old clinically diagnosed depression recently completely gone away ive felt rather happy free thought felt like normalcy mental state feels foreign evolved significant version myself past two years traveled hyperspeed everything felt short lived rapid like shutter camera havent able live breathe moment true potential would argue say posthigh school crossroad ive stagnant in past two years felt like glitch system life development unlike probably everyone know not im freightened turn im ready ive lost grip train life hundreds miles ahead nothing thats enough close gap feel need move will ive referring saying pass away instead redflag cannot bring say is time yes attempted got freakishly close succeeding way summoned depression thought redflag move scenario hopes creating place here titled thread way think us felt though weve lived several lifetimes want know world put flames want know kind experience trash mental complications want understand importance life worth living natural death ill around cant say many times ive thought passing away never succeeding probably another one times unfortunately,1 @ShozzyShozzy thanks! i just took it this morning.,0 Goodnight world i will open my eyes at 8:30a.m. haha,0 posting made things worse tbhive posted times throwaway accounts people just idk mean people saying things like get yourself posted made artwork which never said masterpiece time effort felt pointless person gave disregarded it point ask artwork good not since art completely subjective way person acted gave really hurt yet someone decided tell post link painting awful get it also mentioned suicidal simply rejection long list things added up thats one posts ive made ive deleted ones well one mentioned feel like bringing again ask ampxb whole point here thought subreddit people feeling suicidal come ventfind support understand feeling way feel like not somebody tell get tell im allowed hurt happened realize place people invalidate peoples feelings experiences if anything nice say say anything all like get people might like art everybody will tell get art awful therefore person got shitty reaction justified just rude personalized thing specific tastes means meant person gave to mean hurtful matter good bad anyones art person give present throws away right mr art critic seems understood this ampxb feel suicidal want burn painting punch inconsiderate user face disappear,1 felt good long time sometimes feel sad sometimes nothing numb do regain live,1 new iphone yay not restoring backup no stupid apple,0 gaaa i want some peace and quiet hard to find wen living with people living in a small bedroom unit,0 Went to "Let's Be Frank" today. I enjoy the idea and I support them ,0 theekween heart break trauma anxiety depression pain of losing your loved one thelmasherbs,1 lgbtp lgbt pedophilia born acquired links below words pedophile choose is accept pedophiles are way accept lgbt community must help control urges act them thats exactly opposite society rn constant shaming pedophiles reminds us constant shaming homosexuals years ago think learned mistakes note pedophiles sort monsters were ones create monsters them pedophile make one bad one suffering genetic disorder shame people genetic problems we time us help pedophiles overcome fears problems especially society,0 ylizabeth because you died and i never see you,0 ill dead octoberi literally cant this im fucking party im lonely touched long hurts need held kissed im lonely know know dad keeps guns overdose easily maybe get home know,1 posting evil facts historical figures love stop cynical asshole day charles darwin charles darwin one great scientists challenged church going history galileo mendel proved living things made cookie cutter templates ancestor became creature fir environment act surely requires scientific genius right well ideas first taught schools found would better teach elementary school level thw reason even found simplistic principle geniuses world figured yet well did many people him even grandfather discussed idea yet plagiarized all even add much idea mathematical model scientific method made support it even less point general idea wrong point point z right since personally observed it points b wrong happens show work class kids another thing idea rejected nationalist right going taught younger generation reject it fact embraced it used take nationalism next step formed new idea called social darwinism idea humans go darwins process migrate new environments become siperior others mostly used excuse racist however idea even used create nationalistic movements like nazi party,0 im like girls im useless,0 seriously care coddit go take walk outside need fresh air fr,0 calling debby ryan! ,0 @toadloading Bon means good 我也是刚刚学嗒 现学现å?–å’¯ ,0 alright took psats want happy but friends immediately started talking scores th percentile shit got like th know realistically better didnt really sleep last night mental health recently absolute dumpfuck know th great still hurts kinda wanted happy thats hard people around kind shitting you,0 Who's going dancing tonight?? WE MiGHT GO!!! ,0 im peice trashhonestly id world favor got blew friend would hate him i hate me,1 anyone else fantasize dyingi lot im years old,1 im so embarrassed for you ,0 choose redflag death neglect dementiai rapidly deteriorated past year accumulated many serious health issues including polycythemia shortness breath chest pain light headedness fatigue digestive issues complete inability gain weight neurological memory loss years now insomnia months incapable sleeping normal night learning difficulties always smart despite memory loss dementia still college made friends chemistry class apple watch took heart rate said how even alive cant believe heart rate high resting friend talk class every day said handwriting matter long brain still good unusually friendly reminds character gerasim tolstoy novel terminal illness knows sick compels kind me ampxb ampxb anyways family unwilling recognize illness real claim physical pain health conditions mental illness need involuntarily committed mental hospital continue delusion sick call police tell delusional health problems handcuffed put mental health wards physical pain claim delusion,1 want anythingi feel like sleeping ask timei want live home want buy car live near anybody time would okay do,1 @robertpaulyoung perhaps watching in polish took away from the experience? ,0 ending it would hurt familyim staying alive loved ones know much would hurt them would blame themselves wish lived world could kill would consequences think fucking unfair carry living hurt anyone fucking torture fantasize death time wish could kill myself im coward always been always be,1 I'm home ,0 sleeping at a friend today x whats going on with u don t understand,0 I understand You just gotta work on it! haha. chew gum when you feel like smoking. My dad was a big smoker so I know these things. lol.,0 ive come verdict lonely place werent meant brought worldrelationships forming true friendship love thats weve got lonely people simply dont that deprived natural instinct fuck dont stay awake long dont go bed ill make cup coffee head ill get going outta bed,1 pinkiecharm sorry you musta got a bit sick of my dance tweet sorry to have you unfollow me,0 thinking cutting myselfup,1 @chickybarbwire there's TONS of types lol! check this out. it tells you the types http://www.modeltips.co.uk/modelling/types.shtml,0 come join minecraft stream kareoke twitchtvbarfequieshttpstwitchtvbarfequies,0 byei try give love everyone nobody ever cares trying understand might shut going lot die anyone even pretends care me go hell beg understanding beg someone understand like live life feel like dead body walking everyone seems take pain trivialize it im done trying explain show anyone truly feel inside goodbye,1 we have lots of exciting things planned for july ,0 always hate myselfidk coming tbh nowhere else go apologize ill try swear though hard im pretty sure tell spots changed swear word reason feel need let stuff out guess one talk to fault unlikable people friends ended hating ignoring eventually everyone stops talking mei make mistakes every single day hit itin two spots basicallyif use right hand hit right side head use left hand hit left side headi know everyone going find hard believe think talking like depressed person hate good reason cant break curse life stupid constantly making mistakes get absolutely pissed cant help hit myself even make mistake second ill calm say its fine big deal next thing know cant control im really feeling pissed screwing send flurry punches face scream top lungs calling kinds namesand since im alone day sit back think much weirdo freak amthere many reasons hate myselfbut basically always screw find way make mistakes get troublei tell things hate ill watch get horrified andor laugh head much loser point proven really piece crap well goes ive never kissed girl gf idk even ride bike took years learn tie shoes watch porn time grown insane fetishes ruin relationships ive ever anyone ever friends one point eventually come realize loser stop talking me im always freaking idiot never took anything seriously always ahole class clown school spend life computer fail everything cant thing right screw literally everything imaginable like takes multiple freaking tries flip light switch always forget something andor wrong sweat time constantly wipe off pick nose eat freaking forced pick cant breath otherwise always position blow nose wipe something get rid eat it form blankets body pillow something cuddle night lonely virgin loser ive completely embarrassed public front many people scared go see someone knows past several years stayed house total shut hiding everybody go sweaty nervous scared watch better people loving couples happy together literally think i hate myself hate myself hate myself scream lungs often punch head treated pets like crap entire life nothing procrastination waiting day finally kill worthless self job diploma license even permit everything fault lazy worthless stupid sack dog s cant thing cant cook cant play sports cant anything sit computer day every day try smoke weed much possible since hobby require skillactually think even suck even like cant take big hit last long all entire life weird problem gagging puking easily forced stay away dentist worst teeth world deformed tongue worst stretch marks anyone ever seen im overall ugly ass piece s basically told someone redflag forum website plus course weirded wanted nothing me trust way embarrassing stuff get tell want though ask privatei guess trying prove right hating telling people watch get totally freaked laugh see along right truly loser need die even old friend let hate dad told commit redflag finally understood human amthe reason kill love smoking weed much live every second life based fastest way get weed right trying get job probably fail drug test tbh kind hoping excuse end lifewell even livei know never going like simply cant stop beating whenever make mistake time freaking deserve loneliness never someone love killing watch people know get gfs get laid lonely loser one freak good enough girl watching happy couples time absolutely tears apart want kill worthless self sorry making long least think pretty interesting anyone wants see true loser feel better themselves doubt anyone even going read whatever entire life wasting time anyways guess matter please prove point laugh know sure pathetic weirdo loser die,1 loose ability walk sad lost fell tree vent se doctor doctor said loose ability walk due ligma,0 is off to bed. Goodnight everyone ,0 many struggle talking girls dont mean rude way might im extrovert stuff doesnt exactly matter best friend girl people making awkward moments completely normal also straight dont understand difficult people talk girls general give yall tips less awkward guess helps,0 feeling trappedi feel trapped life know know killed myself anymore wrote redflag note today know ill ever send it want life stop know whats side better this,1 actually wanna commit die im like years old asian family yes shit sucks like born anywhere live sucks im forced study career option rather engineer doctor makes worse mega nerd twin sister keeps studying like shit makes parents expect also studying like hours day handeling bs parents decided take laptop and im fr never getting back honest im offended rather super sad u would place would easily made sense phone basically theres big amount points think make sense yea premium account mc basically could enjoy really playing servers actually bought account fucking money hid parents like year now like things but explain im sure basically like people read till end that related laptop mostly im gonna lose friends made discord actually ended meeting peeps like interests enjoyed playing csgo minecraft skribll among us fall guys live streaming like random shit stuff never imagined enjoying friend internet tbh watching subreddits like rmademesmile wholesome subreddits make feel even worse seeing strangers help family pressurizes study take career gaming crime basically true redditor live make even worse btw meant hate towards family rather im super pissed explain like everything must super unclear im actually trying say genuinely caring family still loves even though nonsense,0 grandparents are here ,0 browsing twitter stumbled account clicked red pill reality imploded itself mind undone anyone try red pill lately httpstwittercomchuck_grahamstatuss,0 cant force care anymoresorry make sense memories last months little broken cant really piece together well little months ago broke long term highschool girlfriend search fulfilling life got together want smoking weed anymore stopped pothead sort made little sad decided worth it naturally broke up started smoking again else highschool senior doing smoked every single day months trying sorts new drugs along way cigarettes alcohol opiates shrooms lsd mdma cocaine sorts fun stuff thought would give new perspective life left shell person used be graduated high school months broke her thats drug use really took off chose attend college miles away hometown effort start anew different person now alone live huge city money im verge failing important classes nothing left want anymore want anyone want nothing wonder else could been hurts cries help lonely nights account overdrawal emails antidepressants never worked contributed person today ive tried blame people creating monster am person blame me im dr frankenstein tried kill myself thought best seek therapist maybe antidepressant medication therapy jack shit thing thank medication nonexistent sex drive life fucking bland christ fucking killing me,1 mad minecraft so maybe hour ago died blocks away pig bastion one brutes knocked lace thought safe took whole hour get back died maybe times used extra food stacks potatos finally get fight brutes checked died stuff despawned wasnt even chunks long looking magma cube along gang bangs brute die full netherite gear pretty much maxed out maxed crossbow netherite tools taking abreak minecraft,0 say im lonely lowkey cant snuggle bed watch shows want hang out,0 excited might care wanted share first language english finally years learning language going take advanced c english proficiency exam day tomorrow excited nervous cant sleep can guys please calm down thank you ,0 looking fellow gamers hey im us play games primarily xbox pc ps games xbox got pc mw ps im currently really mw war zone open play game xbox tag noobilator steam noobilator psn nubber_scrubber im happy play anything platform unless dont game really expensive first time reaching find people play im sorry seem bit awkward first time favorite thing pc currently playing black ops mods games open play anything itd awesome anyone would add platform could start playing games,0 @jaybranch Thanks so much for the #followfriday! ,0 f school picture taken look like female version sloth goonies dude made pics made weird pose fucking stupid dude ,0 goodnight & this one is final.,0 cant anymorei never going pretty women fall love with wife beat me destroyed emotionally physically im worthless financially mentally want let go honestly feel world would better place without it,1 @savannahp must not chase the boys is playing on my ipod right now. no joke. play was the besttt,0 @shaznyc I drink my Corona's sans the fruit. Perhaps I'm just lazy. ,0 want see film guns blood sex shouting angry people hero bad guys girls even clumsy love words want see film every shot meaning love one must see film ive waiting film like life,0 theekween vhulivhadza help people forget unpleasant event such a depression anxiety loss of a loved one heartbreak and any traumatic event thelmasherbs,1 ahhhhhhh everyones doing laundry except me,0 im so happy - dommie : thanks for your attention i'm so happy jason : you know why i'm so care about your... http://tumblr.com/xcn1wn616,0 whats wrong wanting permanent solution temporary problemin case temporary ive struggling suicidal thoughts five years already loving parents im attending medical school according standards ive hit lottery life well ill completely honest tell feel like drew short end stick everyday feel like failure feel miserable surrounded people dislike tired living perpetual state anxiety panic cramming head hundreds pages information weekly basis probably life do something enjoy people even understand depression makes unable enjoy things used enjoy then take time school drop medical school altogether already tried taking time away academia worst two years life believe me drop medical school default neet lots money wouldve dropped already parents need grow old stable jobs need become successful member society make proud pay back bullshit theyve went raise me time wish could switch brain stop worry things time im solidified mass depression anxiety panic regret stress,1 little vera story russian teenager family attempts find meaning value life sliding increasingly decay search meaning falls love intellectual rebellious sergei whose hatred deeply flawed parents quickly spirals controlbr br little vera shocking disturbing nearly every way drinking father enabling lack understanding mother casual lies misdirection brother vera forgiving flaws shocking slightly disturbing watch however raw honesty film somehow manages become even shocking plot characters set cramped spaces vast urban decay little vera presented vastly different view soviet life ever seen before fact little vera portrait collapse soviet society painted shades pain desperation rust implosion family set implosion entire social orderbr br although painful desperately unsatisfying film definitely worth seeing understand feelings cultures still reshaping russia today,0 things work outim graduating college june borderline passing class difficult job offer lined fear ill lose offer fail class entire career result top difficult time making friends girlfriend yet pretty fucking sad fail class might straw breaks camels back even want imagine life happens help,1 "@afirmin *high-pitched-girly-shriek* you have made my day! Scrap that, week! ",0 anyone discord servers could join may may tryna finess mod one ones inactive though whack,0 feel like need go hospitalim really really close ending it im hard time taking care myself feel like hospital would good place days would safe cared sense would fed people could talk though knowing wouldnt talk them idk maybe dont actually need go im baby either way wouldnt even know go getting hospital without making another attempt im cant check in cant tell patents anyone this idk need help,1 @Jadelinaa you know its hard out here for a pimp... ,0 "@melaniejane I'm arriving in 7 days! Woohooo! Soooooo excited. #SteelBridgeSongFest, http://sbsf5.com",0 my anxiety is so through the roof it cause the whole host of problem depression agoraphobia extreme cynicism trust issue assuming everyone hate me that i come off a mentally incompetent everyone look down on me which cause extreme bitterness and resentment towards everyone i interact with feeling inferior to everyone constant feeling of guilt over everything ultra self conscious always worried that something is going to go wrong if i m not always on high alert and never being able to relax everything feeling really fake because i have to pick and choose what i say very carefully otherwise someone might beat the shit out of me too nervous to look anyone in the eye too nervous to talk to anyone always looking nervous and keeping my head down and staring at the ground zero self esteem because i noticed every little thing i do wrong and mentally flagellate myself for it feeling so hopelessly inferior i can t talk to anyone because i don t notice anyone else s mistake ever major anger issue being so nervous i start cry not knowing how to start conversation because i overthink everything i say or just assume everyone want me to fuck off forgetting thing because i m so nervous i try to do everything super fast so nobody get mad at me and i m always in a rush always really nervous and looking over my shoulder to make sure no one s behind me stomach issue because i m so anxious that i vomit getting this point where i m so anxious that i get overwhelmed or something and i dissociate and can t understand what s going on around me everyone think that i have severe autism or that i m retarded i don t know maybe i am but i ve noticed that these symptom go away if i actually feel fucking safe usually i have to be in a place where there are no fucking human it s got nothing to do with autism i just associate human with danger after having the shit beaten out of me so even being in the same room with someone else put me on high alert no one is screaming at or threatening me and no one is fucking watching me unfortunately i get lonely but people pick up on how nervous i am and they say that it make me unlikeable they say that i come off a creepy shy and weird and i can t even bring myself to talk to people because i hate people fucking looking at me after the incident unfortunately i never feel safe anymore i am stuck clinging to my abuser and being unable to leave them because i know if i m out on my own i ll be destroyed by everyone who see me it s like i m walking around with a giant red target on my back that say kick me probably because i m short and they know they can easily kill me if they want to in my personality is so unlikable they know that people probably thank them for killing me i don t know what to do im really lonely but everything about me is wrong and shitty and i m a garbage human who doesn t deserve to exist all i ve heard from god damn human since the incident is how unlikable my personality is i m sorry i got beaten within an inch of my life for 9 month straight and i m fucked traumatized by it don t you dare call me a wimp if it happened i bet you d be fucked up too and you wouldn t be mr tough guy,1 lunafiko can t wait to try em but prolly have to wait until next weekend at the earliest,0 smh want sinp post cant someone simp,0 ive waited years watch film simply never saw advertised tv eventually caught well worth wait much better overhyped scream last summer garbage fairly quick pace drawn out creeping house cheesy music scenes bad dubbing lets little let put way lies beneath hyped crap mute witness low budget hyped good,0 hi wanna drop say something one friend love ever could gender not love mean love point bf gf equivalent best friend bestest best friend ever kind friend texts hours felt like minutes flown by type friend laughs even find funny visi versa type friend tell even tiniest things gecko floor bird tree type friend helps get never tries flex it friend like this heshe could city heshe could country heshe could abroad anywhere moment realize got friend like that realize got almost everything,0 @brentbolthouse you have a Ducati? Those are sexy bikes. ,0 tips keeping redflag mindhi cripplingly low self esteem cut still fairly often lately ive leaning towards redflag often im scared might try something know case nearly serious others here wanted know guys tips simply keeping redflag bay,1 whats simplest way make u happy title im curious,0 literally never talk irl barely ever comment whenever comment anywhere online talk someone irl always get attacked knowing internet norms sarcasm info need know talkative socially attractive person makes feel like shit isolated thoughts getting even rn people attack idea posting this want chest mostly fellow depressed people nice post roffmychest receive hate usual knowing how talk right way st century especially internet always get attacked people,1 my friend that understand what i ve been through and know how much i ve struggled and how far i ve come always find a way to kick me down i m always the second option i m always the one they come to for help when i sit in my room and rot when i show sign of being in a horrible state they just ignore me they tell me i have attitude problem they treat me like i want to be this way yet they always say they re there for me always they lie with no remorse they ignore me when i m in need genuine help they only do what make them comfortable and what make them feel good i always stick my neck out for them and i never get anything in return i tell them i want to hang out and they just lie they lie and lie and lie i call them out and then they ignore me and they wonder why i want to kill myself,1 got kissed first time omg unbelievable still cant believe ampxb mother kissed me oh fucking god,0 goodbye debi quit job last september killing me first mistake fine made great friends online started looking new job one one friends moved on lost bunch big argument another friends things went downhill there end landed single friend really really good friend one none less last month husband diagnosed cancer spent every waking moment trying help get surgery last week surgery went fine recovering well they yet confirm indeed cancer removed thyroid successfully regardless problem is time spent taking care took toll me still super emotional everything going life broke last week started feeling suicidal problem is told her cried it lot point husband forbidden talk anymore place handle news ashamed say handle well especially considering last time happened see previous posts left job money friends miss much already know go on,1 helpiam strong suicidal urges years now family doesnt know depressed mindset preventing anything productive life iam currently looking fulltime job work im also webdevolopment sidemaking website small businesses etc every night strong negative emotions give feeling shame disgust selfhatred day mind wandering im daydreaming heavily one week im feeling great week want end life dont see meaning progress it know fulltime job urges disappear life normal friends lost contact them ive recently met girl making situation worse im reading much trying learn new things doesnt help neither problem focusing tasks important im straight mess alot more keeps going im going end life wanted put out thanks reading,1 everyone know tired sad time decided want turn life around kill myself stop wanting to thoughts suicide constant me cannot kill myself stop thoughts stop feeling like this,1 please someone talk meim panic attack induced nightmare ex bf havent slept years nightmares traumas life im turn see ability turn life around right im hyperventilating holding razor neck cards dealt horribly ruined life trying school mom dad dead adopted parents hate tried kick police said wait im im tired burden unloveable everyone says im young make decision ive suicidal since rd grade havent exhausted every option dont care want sleep im uselesss unloveable whats point suffering also one stopping everyone around says ok,1 movies loved almost everyone come across yet happen boxoffice failures andaz apna apna intelligent hilarious comedy falls catogory once indian director kept mind sensibilities audience churned kader khan type stereotypical hoax movie two guys dream riches try accomplish wooing millionaires daughter humorous drama unfolds lot complexities surface story complexities add sheer comedy entire plot aamir khan plays streetsmart guy salman khan gives unexpectedly good performance dumb guy villian played paresh rawaland henchmen junior ajit kaliaa make laugh sleep although movie borrows lot movies despite shoddy camerawork despite loud times remains one scarce funny movies bombay come movies like padosan golmal amol plaekar movies sad well boxoffice means producers turn back formulas creativity abandoned,0 on the phone with kaihlaniii ,0 slash arm first time year im sad took knife kitchen dad sleeping slashed arm red everywhere hurts feel bad,0 foot is out of commission ouch running this morning did not help not smart,0 text post weekend over back shitty memes ,0 "The official result came out, PR won 2 seats whereas BN only 1 seat. Congratulations PR! ",0 @ShesElectric_ Good morning xx,0 got medical condition birth defect almost untreatable live one functioning kidney however kidney getting worse years severe redflag depression see future myself living occupy someone boredom loneliness today life span cut years average kidney could overload taking load one kidney keep mind high blood pressure redflag kidneys itself eventually could kill myself struggle make friends slowly surely trying reunite old friends tampered decided push away thought would help me instead left massive debt loneliness sure get job probably pay back parents spent bit million birth practically save me take care true friend someone love deeply enough supply happy life not sure would like enjoy life knowing end near person loves attention idea love general would love wife kids one day horrified thought would happen left anyways thanks reading another rant good daynight take care dying away,1 @RichardHill21 next to the post they sent you there is a star and right under the star is a lil swirly arrow....that arrow is the @ sign ,0 night demons another long line teen horror films released video paytv mecca film making eighties unlike crap peddled around one actually decent watch group bored teenagers decide party halloween night away pair bizarre sisters mimi kinkade linnea quigley infamous hull house usual cast stereotypical teenagers invited party average teenage bash turns night terror try survive halloween night undead residents hull house decide crash party wholl survive night bloodshed horrorbr br a nice horror film best seen unrated version watch rrated cut miss splatter effects nudity stay tune amusing epilogue gory film followed equally entertaining sequel horror fans onlybr br highly recommended,0 gay incels exist ive scrolling deep reddit day im curious lol,0 ok amma honest like thigh high socks said it,0 i read about someone who couldn t stop thinking about breathing and other people who were stuck manual breathing which terrifies me i have massive chronic health ptsd now i m constantly thinking about it and i don t think i breath correctly when i manual breath which make me short of breath and lightheaded and drive my anxiety higher when i get distracted i pop out of it really can only get distracted at work sometimes it get better but then when somehow i remember it just go right back to bad breathing please any tip,1 home mc bored missing him who him sigh im bored tadi exam amp wa okay thursday lagi exam gaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh,0 Depression is like trying to get a guitar pick out of a guitar hole in the dark and every time you shake the guitar it bangs harder against your head.,1 need talk pleasehi talk someone,1 tired one putting effort friendshipsfuck that im done time watch friends drift away really friends theyd ar least attempt contact me,1 rt kimkardashian khloe just got fired from the apprentice,0 firefly uk twitter is really playing up brace brings back memory of bad gagging reflex,0 incase feeling sad heres ternion,0 i m struggled with suicidal thought for the best part of year majority of my life i ve spent fighting myself thing that happened in my childhood have such a deep and agressive hold on my self esteem no matter what i do i don t feel confident in myself i can t even drink a coffee without getting into a fit of anxiety it s never been this lucid to the point i m planning exactly how i want to do it don t want to reach out to anyone because i ve pretended to be fine for so long couldn t imagine what it would to my mom but can t see myself ever getting better enough to enjoy my life absolutely lost,1 need help best friendso start off small friend group three super close neither us friends fine coz like said super close used larger group recently kinda fell apart three us left one bf vacation miserable wasnt well things got way way worse course two days shes great risk redflag right really dont know do lot trouble home life general fucked way possible concerned worry her decided ask wether wants meet afternoon evening asked wanted stay night hasnt answered yet even tho online time do call her wait really worried concerned seriously terrifying need advice please thank u advance,1 yesterday bought games doom bit strage play games came befor born still pretty fun i bought first ones evan sale steam sorecommended,0 started happen quite bit past year due job demands increasing feeling like things fault controli start crying work redflagfrustration sudden begin laughing like madman uncontrollable extreme urge drive head wall happen anyone else crying redflag uncontrollable laughter,1 depressed long remember cut again started use drugs again going dark hole idk get time feel like lowest low,1 film expected little from watched pass quiet hour hour turned be roll excellent nonetooserious little story countryboylostinthebigcitymakesgood funny throughout characters endearing pace rightbr br toby malone true star film endearing portrayal matt said country boy local aussie rules football hero come big city try one big teams supported superbly john batchelor local gangster tiny watch twobr br highly recommended,0 get f chat bois playing warzone kills well thought would match finally win nope soon find last player get lag die f,0 nite twitterville workout in the am -ciao,0 @ShellyKramer More in some areas than in my immediate area. They really don't bother me. I just have to plan for longer drive time. ,0 myapplestuff sadly we can t turn back time we have to help to re build everything amp give those poor family much love,0 selfishi struggling suicidal thoughts fear ive become reckless behaviors lost satisfaction joy helping others uplifting them volunteered crisis text line still find wondering pointless help them start wondering allowed selfish even plan redflag would consider ways make look like accident save others truth die way organs could salvaged others live from become okay selfish want someone cherish love me kind selfish clingy desperately claw onto someone love feel like im desperate ok someone want selfishly myself feel like im chained im thinking others first ok greedily selfish hate every thought wanting reach feels like attention grab cry night missing people life lived far always others feel alone people say arent are touch hug kiss skin deep feel know alone cannot share feeling mine ours thought understand point me wait struck taken death step step closer death accelerated recklessness know need life know want get nothing,1 nowplaying manic depression by jimi hendrix experience 0 http t co r umpqwwmv http t co n evcmygjc,1 Why do people welcome depression in their lives like its a cool thing to be depressed. And when they are depressed they want to include us in their aura of depression. ,1 weak become maintain success matter well shoot matter cant defend ballim basically bitch never shit shit now never shit get shitted on,1 strawby jam hits different,0 film sat tivo weeks watched it dreaded selfindulgent yuppie flick relationships gone bad wrong engrossing excursion screwedup libidos new yorkersbr br the format max ophuls la ronde based play arthur schnitzler given inspired by credit starts one person prostitute standing street corner brooklyn picked home contractor sex hood car cant come refuses pay her hes peeing answers cell phone takes message runs away keysbr br then story switches contractor pays professional call rich bored new york woman plays aroused pulls away tells desperate unhappy is tells beautiful is lucky leaving asks would sex her sits top him bounces down time comes leavesbr br the woman husband throw dinner party trendy friends hubby robert talking business wife ellen bored switches subject sex often men women think it husband switches conversation desert later guests leave ellen tries entice robert sex robert wants none it puts jazz record ellen turns radio robert turns music ellen turns tv robert turns another tv cacophony ensues ellen goes roof robert joins her ellen confesses needs experience men men robert robert says needs experience menbr br we next follow robert visits artist martin played steve buscemi wish buscemi could roles like this sexy smart totally desirable guy robert praises martins work much deserves promises get show martin excited turns robert speaking groin mating dance robert tries kiss martin lips martin pulls back saying gay robert asserts hes gay either martin scoffs admit artworks bad robert leave martin allows robert kiss him make out robert goes martinbr br next follow martin prepares art show manhattan gallery smitten receptionist anna played rosario dawson i cut review keep words make love otherbr br we next follow anna sitting lunch stand boyfriend nick adrian grenier enters bearing flowers cold toward him tries figure why coaxes information sex someone san francisco coaxes fact stayed exgf san francisco sex her latter revelation turns lie two make luncheonette decides must break up nick heartbrokenbr br and follow nick confesses troubles older woman meets park bench joey carol kane joey sort weird childlike good audience nick needs sympathetic ear two go coney island night look stars nick falls joeys spell despite age difference them go back joeys apartment nick gradually realizes sex crazy old woman top him want let go manages escapebr br this is way best carol kane role since played latkes wife taxi joeys phone rings man calling psychic friends network joey one psychic friends although still hurting nick gradually gets psychic shtick man office late night wants phone sex her although joeys business joey goes along coaxes man come wants keep talking although man want get phone finds embezzled lot money company found tomorrow life ruined joey realizes man going commit suicide tries make believe friend cares him care himbr br but man packs gun briefcase goes seek prostitute brooklyn waterfront come back beginning prostitute started la ronde wants give cash kill him tried kill himself it prostitute want it insists holding hand holding gun inside mouth telling aim eventually gun goes off see prostitute walking street arriving corner normally business contractor pay earlier movie drives up rolls window look other end,0 "Mom's depression tied to kids' emotional, intellectual development http://dlvr.it/QQmx4V ",1 ive given life yet im still alivei constantly think killing myself ive done endless amounts research trying figure methods least likely fail ive planned redflag again setting dates writing notes yet ive never gone it maybe im lazy maybe im unmotivated mostly think afraid failure really know im going this anyway feel like im constantly waiting waiting magically get better waiting perfect opportunity kill myself like im stuck inbetween place im able get better time im able end suffering mentally completely given living even attempt live life anymore physically im still here know im here certainly want here am,1 "@probles that's a good one, although it may have got 90%+ of the votes ",0 name anyone want hunger games participants,0 cant handle anxiety depression moremy anxiety bad nearly crippling actually felt good last night long thought making progress new meds lost little weight cut back drinking went bed last night said going good day off woke six anxiety back full force felt like going vomit im tired living like this wish single kids times could kill feel way anymore cant though im afraid would family,1 choclatdrop 0 he s not paying me any attn,0 failed flirt girl today restaurant friends saw pretty waitress probably year two older me hell mightve not would problem that wanted say something like friends bet couldnt talk pretty waitress order money wasnt sure would react fact bad enough couldve gotten us kicked restaurant end never said anything feel bad it,0 made it into dc on saturday afternoon after hour in air and am now in south fl jetlag suck haven t had a full sleep since thurs,0 mother grandmother fighting something incredibly childish feel horrible it heard shouting upstairs went check going on didnt acknowledge continued screaming otherand asked turned said go back down theyre fighting mom didnt call grandmother meeting anything do im always weary kind fights usually end badly hope doesnt escalate,0 brokeup gf yesterday unexpectedly saw todaythe love life woman helped several periods depression years dumped yesterday already quite bad unexpectedly saw real life holy shit want die words bad fucking hurt thought killing think stay strong fight now fuck pain honestly devastated nothing fucking matters anymore shes gone life want fucking die stop feeling anything hurts damn bad honestly energy live anymore,1 hey folks thats now theres gonna anymorei want die flat i want to die hard say text cant voice anything feel immense judgement wether judgement real head feel real cant anything crippled me im even sure really want help im going woman love dont think want help want waste away get shit faced high watch adult cartoons cock gun shoot cant reach people one wants burden cant handle push away instead dont even know im posting here maybe im bored want someone talk die,1 Time to disconnect fantastic dinner waiting with great friends...cant get enough of that!,0 cool malegender neutral names im uhhh naming original character nothin else haha,0 swear sub lives two worlds post new vs hot completely different like new filled shitpost depressed teenagers hot filled like memes youve seen someone sharing something tragic happened them,0 one favourite westerns cast glenn ford plays role usual mild controlled firm manner ford plays one smaller ranchers shadow mighty anchor ranch wants swallow whole territory edward g robinson plays crippled patriarch anchor ranch barbera stanwyck plays sly scheming wife plenty action western quite impressive scenery delicious letterbox scope photography breath taking soundtrack stereo would say western sizeable budget looks expensive one series great glenn ford westerns,0 attracted celebrities crige attracted anime girls scientifically attracted celebrities peson attracted simps bothers them never reach somehow possible one trillion chance crush na celebrity seeing canvas art flawed person might completely fake anime girls exist simps bother her never reach everyone knows thats truth crush character literally see whole character show literally get know her literally flawless,0 made decisioni going kill myself maybe today maybe tomorrow tired sad toxic house mostly father everyday need walk eggshells everyday fear going hit manipulate used hit younger tried year gonna take antidepressants high blood pressure pills done dont know going work done lonely feeling fear sadness done fuck family fuck abusive ex fuck called friends irl doesnt even try call me done fuck everything lost years life studying stuck home depressed toxic man dont wanna live anymore wait gonna send saving money charity kill myself,1 oriental fantasy thousand one arabian nights plenty incredible adventures fantasy witchery wizardly malignant vizier jaffar magnificently played conrad veidtwith powerful magic faculties imprisons prince ahamad bagdadattractive john justinwho loses throne escapes thanks little thief named abusympathetic sabu arrive basora ahamad princessgorgeous june duprez fall love prince thief haunted jaffar ahamd turned blind abu become dog story accumulates several fantastic ingredients transformation starring flying mechanic horse magic bow flying carpet course colossal genieoveracting performed rex ingram gives three wishes sabu magic eye figure goddess kali several hands among othersbr br this remarkable picture ranks one finest fantastic films time produced london fims alexander korda directed definitively credited ludwing berger michael powell tim whelan stunning screenplay lajos biro miles malleson also dialogs writer actor sultan fond mechanic games wwii outbreak caused paralyzing shooting three korda brothers collaborators traveled usa continuing filming especial grand cannon coloradothe splendid visual glimmer technicolor cinematography setting fx provoked achieving three oscars production design william cameron menzies vincent korda cinematography george perinal special effects osmond borradaile though today dated urgent necessary remastering colors wornout furthermore one nomination evocative oriental musical score miklos rozsa vivid tale immense doses imagination like fantasy fans cinema classic buffs,0 reason im good mood today tell you loooong time good mood,0 yk tho moment change flair feel hella powerful switching flair mmmmhhmm,0 need girlfriend im bored im bored right now need girlfriend real shit,0 ive wanted kill myselfdie since im feeling changeive wanted kill myselfdie since thats realised mum cheating dad went abroad work time even wrote redflag letter tell dad mum wanted overdose painkiller pills ive never done obviously years past dad knows affair parents still stayed together worked feeling still remains want die family went abroad dad started studying foreign language failed courses twice now know different language hard time know put work slacked college university drink much play games much escape reality procrastinate trust therapists even though should know do know want die could never commit redflag cause love family know theyd devastated want die means car accident cancer anything know do currently live england,1 "It's amazing how i literally can't control having depression and anxiety yet I get in trouble when no one covers me, sorry not trying to teach when I'm panicking",1 today my teacher called me and told me if i had trouble in class because i didnt do any of the activity she assigned she asked me specifically if i had trouble at home which i don t it somehow made me felt validated since i dont really have much to be sad about and she thinking i had it worse lmao in truth im probably just a whiny little kid that just want someone validation everyone around me tell me that im just lazy my parent and my cousin that wa once the person closest to me the worse part is that it like pm and i still didnt do shit and it suck because i have to go tomorrow again and she ll ask again i dont want to tell her anything because she ll probably call my mom or something lol she doesnt deserve this either dont want her to do something significant and care too much about me it not worth it im not worth it,1 depression cured https://twitter.com/baekfiring/status/982638068711616512 …,1 vah the dreaded lurgy strike i m in dire need of tea chloroformed or otherwise ala i m off to asda for pizza no time for tea,0 "@salt_shakeshake + pay internet- attempt draw+ shower-+ meds (i'll take the depression meds right before sleep, but i took the thyroid ones)+ vit c- tidy bedroom & comp room",1 i also have a lot to say about asian immigrants and the pressure to succeed which leads to depression/anxiety,1 im sadgimme advice sit crush mathour teacher gave us assignment today said yall gonna working partners partner sit with crush said noooi cant remember exactly said upset,0 crashed car days ago im depressed got license midaugust sucks go without crashing car two months anyways stop sign neighborhood turned right looking behind mirror dark outside see much reached dome light i think called quote it next thing knew heard loud noise airbags deployed subaru service automatically getting called shellshocked idea happened fast got see mailbox made rock completely leveled bottom front car broken too minutes later dude whos mailbox broke came garage driving car immediately stopped saw mailbox got car explained happened called parents i adhd tend panic often came instantly since house literally one block explained happened police came well since subaru service alerted guess officer asked obvious showed him asked guy wanted put ticket license said no man going pick pizza dominos mom dad helped shovel remains mailbox he able leave completely blocked driveway told family name towing service left mom came back pizza called towing company told us wait minutes mom left dad waited came towed subaru im left car rural illinois the university like miles away tho small village dq mcdonalds subway jj arbys know do parents like leaving house much stranded home im also picky eater know family brings food like also supposed poll worker cant without car tldr illinois teen crashes car mailbox cant drive next month rural area ps fine airbag gave bad scratch back left hand im good physically mentally whole nother story,0 @tristanhuwjones Finally got to read TMNT 56. Great job on the story! Harmon's artwork definitely complements your style of storytelling ,0 so I've decided to put off my Tai Ji Quan article until I've gone to Wudang Mountain (also for free) ,0 whatevernothing matters one help deal problems im reason dont matter one would care disappeared one would care vanished really even exist exist reason,1 continueever since middle school wanted commit redflag gotten better final stretch school college want end it logic shifted hate awful person deserve live whats point living figured like everyone else problems things good bad at thats fine theres reason hate myself do every action take causes sadness happiness happiness attain never lasts days ive tried medication makes everything worse much worse whats point continuing moments happiness life drowned sadness feel every day life come world alone go alone loving family amp caring friends ive bright future almost hundred grand name without much raising finger attain it cant enjoy that instead focus fact cant enjoy it focus everything thats wrong regrettable past actions must hurtful towards anything care about even jest one nicest people thats fine fact like making people happy since cant enjoy happy least window shop watch happiness whats point carrying though everything eat turns ash reason ive killed yet selfish hurtful towards people care about fairly disturbing thought process recently you always go way others something yourself something wanted since middle school kill yourself realize preferred method selfinflicted death gunshot head anything else would give much hesitation plenty live for want too spend much effort trying accomplish goals things could make happy im tired trying happy failing constantly cant make moment happiness last ocean painful things remember harp on even ocean look perspectives life disappointed myself ignoring introspective causes depression life another source complete meaningless life work semihard attain certain goals values completed joy rather limited still existent however tired tired work age rest life filled nothing work till retire wake up work sleep repeat why thats mind numbing task endure rest see able future definitely something look forward too want alive going forced work rest life fun fact ive commited hospital self harm fifth grade attempted redflag four times last attempt senior highschool used cut myself ive put antidepressants three times real effect offered moderate place back said gonna hard tell people alive want to course reason gave mwm decline place far depressing tldr emotions caused negatives life outweigh emotions positive carry on want stop putting effort alive far much work appears little pay off,1 anyone else procrastinate like this anyone else homework latest time possible like got much free time choose homework almost midnight feel like normal anyone else thing,0 reviewing water everyday get girlfriend day good water today slightly average still thoroughly enjoyed satisfied thirst well also ive realised fucking lonely,0 so i have a mild stutter and i just had an epiphany i ve been letting my stutter control me but i found something amazing out i let my stutter define who i wa a a person instead of an aspect of myself it s so bad that when my parent talk to me like a normal person i d think to myself wow they act like i m normal despite my stutter they see past that and when i would work people would see my name tag and say oh i have a son named my name and i would think he probably doesn t stutter tho i let this define who i wa a a person and i let it really get to me i wa looking at old reddit post from other people asking how people view stutter and most people said they didn t care at all and even found it interesting some even said it wa hot cute made joke sound more natural and a a result more funny not like they found the stutter funny tho and one even said they were turned on by it and someone said something that stuck out to me they pretty much said how you perceive yourself is how others will so if i see myself a weird and anxious i will act that way and be perceived in that way but if i see myself a confident and charismatic and just act like my stutter doesn t bother me and even joke about it then others will perceive me a such this blew my mind a i thought everyone didn t pick up on my stutter at first and just thought i wa super weird but it s just me convincing myself of that so even tho this clicked i still can t just flick the switch off so how do i actually become confident with my stutter it s very mild and is fueled by anxiety so if i can get rid of my anxiety it ll in my opinion make me sound more charismatic and confident so i really wan na figure out how to just own it how do i do this,1 i feel like i have always had anxiety ocd but it ha never really negatively effected my life like it doe now it feel like it is really getting in the way of my daily life being that i made it year without it having huge effect doe that mean that it can go away or will this just be my life now amp x 00b any thought that people have from experience,1 clarity instead sadness three months livei felt enough sadness simply decided fact end life researched peaceful method exception live developing website hugely successful spent months it,1 my therapist asked me if i need anything but i never know how to answer this yes but i don t know what to stop feeling this way i just feel worse for not having an answer so i say i don t and than i feel even worse i just want to be ok but i don t know what that will take especially in a crisis,1 review movie date really trashes stars movie itself usually like read user comments give idea expect movie know much about unfortunate many comments certain tile one review unreasonably trashes movie cast get idea expect read review watching title know venom movie stars came from douglas blondell talented attractive people usually delivered even material greatest found movie performances fun enjoyable one great alltime classics pleasant funny diversionmuch hope newer movies fan stars disappointed,0 my festival depression is so real rn,1 finally gave in and wa bored enough to start this thing i think the 0 is going to be a problem for me tho it like a myspace status,0 director douglas sirk scores this grandaddy dysfunctional family films lush trashy saga masterpiece beautifully combining elements sirks soapers strategically placing one movie written wind obviously influenced s tv series dallas dynasty basically featurelength version later nighttime soapsbr br lauren bacall wonderfully subtly plays lucy moore new york city secretary marries oil baron kyle hadley robert stack unbeknownst them mitch wayne rock hudson also love quiet sexy secretary go back kyles familys mansion texas meet white trash slutofasister marylee dorothy malone oscarwinning turn yipee sparks begin fly romances catfights campy trip mitch fight feelings best friends wife marylee tries sleep everybody since cant one true love mitch topping off kyle learns hes impotent somehow lucy ends pregnantbr br this pure soap pure melodramatic entertainment love it film signals one universals popular films one director sirks best works dialogue absolutely sizzling visual metaphors thrown every way theme wind throughout great cast great although bacall completely underused despite receiving topbilling behind hudson stacks oscar loss reportedly devastated him considered finest performance apparently none pleased lose out turn fabulous performance whimpering alcoholic stunning movie film proves ive thinking ages sirk master classic melodrama wheres oscarbr br ,0 knowing timelost everything caused doing nothing left tried kms x chicken right passing out plan jumping soon cant take hurt anymore place ive picked one lived jumped anyways,1 "So i set a goal of losing as much weight as I can (seeing that I gained so damn much bcuz of depression) by making just food changes. No crazy diet or obsessive working out regimens, just changing the stuff u put in ur mouth",1 always felt like would end going redflag think time almost herethe past years life nonstop nightmare nothing punching bag world around me think squeezed extra years numbing drugs dont want keep though become exhausting today figured someone used know pressed charges offhand comment angry nearly year ago know whats gonna happen going stain life ruin part me like everything else does find almost perpetually envy others nothing ever seems come moderation im cripple depressed personality disorder covered scars accidents surgeriesi cant take anymore makes worse go part world watching everyone go along ease listening people talk struggles makes jealous im trying invalidate peoples struggles know people much difficult time am also know however great majority people age dont struggles bad things come justgo like them tackle gonei would give anything that problems arise life seem always take part never get back broken world beaten completely never stood chance always sort expected would go redflag certain it truly finally end rope simply cannot keep up every waking second spent slowly coming terms nothingness waiting me im beginning want embrace it dont feel scared anymore long much tired,1 @ahmedhosam ma3leesh rabena haykrdmak be 3ataba gdeda. At least u still have @kassem_fci with u ,0 is really sad and doesn t really know y,0 on my way to the V to see ma fam bam!..tryna stay busy..doin good 2day ,0 life flashing eyesthese intrusive thoughts every memory ive ever had random ones unimportant events keep flooding hurt much want anymore like ive recorded mentally like mind like myself want anymore hate mentally ill hate emotional responses past feel childish,1 damn stiff neck day,0 sure say here looking talked need talk outso im sure people would envy life im still kinda young mid s wife daughter full time job home im loved family im respected professionally too sent wife running house crying knife throat reason cut would family ive wanted end years now wife keeps telling bad itll end it im sure itll worse stay heres story since afghanistan keeping two thoughts together challenge came home months combat unscathed home relax drank drunk year doctors base threatened put institution sober up lied said sobering up didnt drank quietly months met girl would become wife years felt good calm sobered real got married kid wedding started getting angry angry stupidest shit always getting angry angrier become am simplest thing set off cant see straight cant think even im angry distract reddit xbox movies always work especially tablet game crashes really sets off ive counselling since got back fools quest every doctor either stereotypical joke pushes pills get military so end explaining things talk now im wits end cant think clearly see clearly except im thinking ending it thing keeping would family im afraid working anymore im positive stayed id damage wife not physically emotionally daughter would end like me angry distraught distant like said im talked down wanted somewhere could talk out im going today ill need find place method make worse anyone walking traffic would fuck whoever hit me jumping building would fuck anyone saw eating bullet would create mess want family see want gun community another statistic hanging would leave someone find me could get boat id step side tied bag rocks kind want family body bury is crazy writing actually helped calm down now next time think may walk never return thanks reading,1 i feel so tired so exhausted i sleep most of the day away and have no reason to get up thing are hard and my life is in a bad spot on one had i feel like i wan na let go and let the tear flow but on the other hand i just feel so empty and they don t even wan na come out i just sit here staring at the same spot in the wall with no drive to do anything anymore i m not sure the anti depressents are even helping me much anymore they re gon na run out soon anyways because of some bullshit with my insurance that s nice i just feel like i need to get out get some where far away and if i don t soon thing are gon na end badly i have nightmare about my emotional support animal dying still it s so hard to get over it my friend keep checking in on me because i m not active and say it s fine and i can vent but i feel i m letting them down i don t even drink to escape and feel like i can t anyways because an abusive drunk father i had got violent when he did and i m scared of ending up like him this is a vent post so i don t expect any reply out of it i just really needed to let this out and i obviously couldn t tell a therapist because i d just be put in a damn hospital and billed out of my as for it,1 fuck grey sweatpant season yall different colored sweats jejjehhbbbbfukhddtvvydrjdtjhtghhvdrhsrcyyhy fh hsr,0 Magnesium Can Decrease Depression Symptoms #abeautyhealthy http://www.holistichealthliving.com/magnesium-can-decrease-depression-symptoms/ …,1 yohi really dark moment atm aspergers syndrome affect social skills trying improve time never enough one day im probably going die alone whats point continuing parents help either want go back home home makes worse isolated know whats going me never understand one understands remember reading article redflag rates autistic people higher heh understand fact now,1 sweetlyaroundme p i woke up this morning and i cant access any website or i havent cleaned my computer completely,0 hey you ya you add discord lets talk preferably zipzip,0 "@KayBallard Ummm, any fortune come with that fame ",0 feeling kinda insecure writing thing theres writing contest love writing basically thing im good at i hobbies im good them story long people ready storiespoem shorter really good im sitting wondering im good enough even win joined fun im feeling bad basically,0 could wish got memory goldfish cant lifespan one,0 wait flirt always people flirt crush flirt random girls like mean,0 girls heartless im sexist hate title please im gonna straight up feel like girls logic comes dating ive around many breakups put much heartbreak exhausting always girl decides love guy anymore time pissed bad cant handle it homie planning getting married girl dating years theyre turned down work time spent together would someone fucking that mean mean nothing feel like committing hate crime sooo bad girls please let give advice please let know love prior dating least little bit after theres excuse put anyone bullshit,0 Night @pianzi take it easyyyyy ? http://blip.fm/~7d7jw,0 hitting the gym afterwards looking forward to rewiring my studio yet again,0 expect permit test i live california im california resident taking permit test next monday ive practicing throughout lockdown attentive road signs parents drive id like say mildly good understanding everything yet finish little aaa booklet dad gave look over expect suggestions study prepare,0 chocolate french bread baguette still good fuck yall,0 @MarquitaTiara Thank u soooooo much babes!! I appreciate that! Call ya 2morrow!,0 dont know doim combat medic ptsd ive dating girl little three years today broke up never felt horrible life ive married kid another chick thought got everything good ish anyways dont want kill keep leaning towards it point dad come house take guns house i live america gunz cant help think always mess things time dont even feel like living anymore helped much better myself quit smoking rarely drink around made acceptable society love know constantly upset everything do im kinda money hungry always trying get promoted better positions im glad dad took guns sorry rant guys,1 kinds community service activities done recently im trying come ideas small community service activities college club corona making difficult find things do guys suggestions done anything fun helpful,0 want disappearits years intermittent suicidal feelings emotional damage hurting people studies gone shit im covered cuts even allow wear shortsleeved shirts want end finally good good others abomination,1 ex girlfriend kills point living either cannot stop thinking drowning pool know could figure sure would painful end dead anyway matter want drown,1 im going ask crush thursday yeah saw title im fucking scared guys know this wish luck friends,0 me: i'm gonna clean my room so i can feel better about myselfme: haphazardly shoves all the clothes from my Depression Chair™ into the drawers,1 xovince pssht i miss u u don t respond to me,0 is running on low battery http plurk com p n0blb,0 hey girl u athlete cos u always go extra mile,0 don t have any hot water,0 thing is matter anyonedisclaimer may lot rambling need someone hear me im actively suicidal think frequently ive always someone ton friends even high school girl friends two boyfriends time them best friends ive acquaintances seem get along almost everyone one ever wants close me never problem comes finding significant other one ever wants friend one ever seems want spend time me awhile reached people seemed connection with anymore text them blow off happened many times cant even handle rejection anymore everyone family cares them might think mother cut ties heard somehow started smoking cigarettes told if im going kill going watch it years ago always close dad stepmother months ago decided happy away exboyfriend left guy get back together him please father say least got nasty text message said needed return car borrowing said mind borrowing it want anything getting back together said ex lets call george im stubborn individual fault cant stand anyone tell do worst ever been supposed move father girlfriend moved george instead due events occurred spoken since stepmother tried reach me tell family events missing reasons father mad me course angered anything ive already felt abandoned feel like love spite anything matter what weve close long time know plenty people betrayed parents trust parents still love them ive never done anything stolen lied etc cast aside hurt me im free spirited person believe necessarily try maintain relationship unnatural forced never thought dad would treat way george loves me since hes have seem put stress thats unhealthy relationship thats going drain too single friend family member actual closeness to so im going kill tonight im starting wonder dont even here seem negatively impact people close with people even get close ton flaws ton love cant stand see anyone hurting human animal thats became vegan saw many documentaries hurt much even watch them know im like people need someone tell im completely worthless cant understand one really wants around im drowning thoughts im alone help,1 im bored asf someone entertain please like anything want dm,0 @EmmaKateAllen clearly quit ,0 lack donald trump porn makes worry generation accepted long ago real authentic donald trump porn never going become available years best could satisfy kink create porn myself option crudely photoshop donald trumps head onto bodies male pornstars limited photoshop skills could accomplish much matter hard tried make fantasy reality could never make feel real technology advanced since then humanity evolved made contact monolith universe advancement emerged deepfake porn ability put anyones face onto pornographic video anyone much ask porn made famous man america honestly point desperate donald trump porn watch anything could create video myself would bottom im going honest here align barack obamas political views im basing facts alone then statistically obama likely larger penis living us president would mean that ideal trump porno barack obama would top created rough outline porno would play out debated whether plot porno many pornographic videos plot good many people skip beginning setup entirely get straight sex scenes think reason plots pornos boring acting never good able get good actors star porno plot would much better experience people would enjoy lot more think samuel l jackson would make great barack obama john goodman would make great donald trump aboth critically acclaimed actors bodies built similarly respective roles opening shot barack obama would sitting alone home wife kids vacation wifes parents watching fox news dont worry hes watching ironically says fuck republicans moment donald trump breaks door says will fuck republican obama already sweating heavily utters bbut orange man bad trump says yeah orange man bad owo obama hastily rips pants exposes inch cock trumps knees go weak sight immediately falls floor crawls obama obama whispers no wall would able keep of ass going along typical porno formula first sex oral trump lips already moist plunges face violently obamas crotch practically inhales penis trumps surprise obamas penis even reached full length yet snakes additional inches wet throat trump slightly regurgitates mornings big mac onto obamas penis even care filled desire other obama explode molten pearls inside trumps weathered mouth trump pulls away inch shaft leaving greasy orange spray tan obamas jungle pubic hairs trump turns around reveals large hammy slappers small puckered hole obama obama even applying smallest amount lube plunges full force trumps wet depths girthy anaconda obamas penis slithers way many feet trumps intestines along way lots moist feces inside trumps poop tubes coats obamas shaft friction monstrous beast slithering inside trump stimulates prostate trumps cheeks grow hot pink orange penis fully erect throbbing passionate desire cant see surrounded pounds pounds moist sweaty blubber obamas cock inside trumps stomach point tingly gurgling stomach acids oddly erotic unison trump obama say oh fuck im gonna cum moment monumental explosion happens obamas penis violently sneezes gallons gallons thick sticky sweet milk inside trump trump hand slowly oozes semen penis cum sugary toothpaste like quality obama pulls penis trump cocks color revealed beautiful mix brown orange white trump stands barely walk butthole completely permanently stretched out gallons sticky white fluid cascade beautiful waterfall puts business suit says racial slur obama walks house ,0 crying bed th night rowim tired around theres billion people planet enough without me im tired crying every night im tired enjoying anything except conversations certain person hates me physically enjoy anything anymore used love playing sports playing video games going school hate them worked ass summer make school sports team studied butt hours world history ap got final got ps saved everytime look it reminds pathetic lack friends pillars life keeping afloat one sports crumbled year best friend wish still crumbling lot redflag idealization within past months would fucking easy drop face planet self harm cope fact never ready world social experience true aspirations reason live im going anything irrational tonight supplies need atleast wait holidays over summer plan either killing running away whatever fit backpack,1 plan killing hate homosexual h,1 know see cousins theres first bit awkwardness wish could skip like first hour awkward guys chillin,0 tell quadratic formula cant tell life works high school school honestly biggest waste time dont teach anything practical im supposedly one better schools state makes lot fucking sense everyone real world dumbass,0 Lunch. Over. Dishwashing. Over. I'm back! ,0 wish lifeall sit home try take peoples advice volunteer stuff nothing interests me got job hoping could make new friends dont care want busy like everybody else dont independence life sucks want die im tired fake people able make friends would talk mom says fault blame everybody else make psychology terms victim everything fault makes want die hate myself ex seemingly friend thats losers,1 @depressingmsgs @depressionnote Block them. They are fake ppl so just cut them out,1 @JonathanRKnight wow that's alot of water. Can you pretty please aceppt @miizronnie request to follow u ,0 im actually done existing know im going get countless comments telling im fucking done existing im useless take money food water cant feel anything anymore failure cant stand living,0 reddit especially commenting seems fritz tonightif comments showing or cant see replies post seems reddit issue affecting us sign ignored anything stick us hopefully reddit get fixed converse properly,1 @CLinterior Happy weekend; that is great about your father. Good morning yet from our side of the globe ,0 @thisisrobthomas hey! what's a girl gotta do to get hello out of her fave rocker?! ,0 film got roasted boys mstk actually neat nasty piece lowbudget film noir plot tight characters believable within goodboygetsobsessedwithbadgirl genre pacing solid climax wellhandled cast bolstered several fine character actors true time want hit protagonist brick hes actually quite effectively creepy plays mastermind scenes dad quite powerful minimalist kind way sure depressing thats point good movie,0 passion desert exemplifies spatial grander visual narrative illuminated magnificent cinematography passion filmed location deserts jordan egypt morocco namibia tunisia br br we egypt augustin napoleanic soldier escorting writer artist jeanmichel venture de paradis official mission document measure draw paint cultural landmarks egypt dunes stupendous ruins mysterious people br br but truly document majestic sandscapes fractured edifices wild bedouins truly capture essence egypt nature man timebr br jean augustin become lost mesmerizing glittering gold desert whose vastness overwhelms senses br br you cant get lost egypt theres nile theres sea says dehydrated augustin soon discovers ancient winding cave leads palatial ruin br br delirious neardelusional attempts rest perplexing sound rouses him eyes body emotions become hypnotically locked time stumbles sensual sensory experience br br a wild sleek female leopard stares back him love affair beginsbr br a daring love affair daring film,0 i don t see why suicide is selfish in my case if i killed myself to make other people s life better i don t think that should be considered a selfish but im called selfish for wanting to kill myself i don t get it im a fuck up if i m alive and i m a fuck up if i want to kill myself i don t know what to do anymore,1 im monster im okay iti abuse neglect friends im terrible dad sister im mean cruel cat fucking care life meaningless im going fucking die soon might well make everyone around feel much pain go want whole fucking world burn go everyone feel pain rage feel every fucking day,1 pls help dmed crush insta responded wanna ask wants hang point say i think single sure edit said might want to talked fir bit epic,0 give life feeling worthless tbh recently accepted cant move forward life advice support guys give me nothings changed im old old nothing ever change thats fact me honestly feel like im abomination hate body everyone always calls skinny feel embarrassed im made fun body also feel ugly people gave gestures disgust see me one kid even called ugly im going keep playing video games watch youtube im going abandon dreams find new job career heres worthless bye guys good day,0 even point telling friends mental health issues like even gonna say cant help reason,0 back s grim study joy young proletarian wife introduction career ken loach became one distinguished respected british filmmakers time knew little brecht politics reality underprivileged quite impressed aesthetic film free style austere color cinematography joys monologues front camera also much surprised find terence stamp who become celebrity thanks billy budd the collector modesty blaise little screen time although th century fox distributed poor cow panama loach stay mainstream cinema which film hardly is lost contact films heard successes kes family life black jack caught s beautiful title song donovan way available anthology troubadour,0 anyone wanna chat rn wanna chill someone got sum wanna talk pm,0 thecoolestout ha the sun s already gone,0 anyone please give good reason end allbecause cant think one its op permanent solution temporary problem good reason know temporary id rather take risk its selfish good reason selfish want someone live life pain misery want die there people suffering worse good reason make pain hurt less make feelings go away adds guilt top everything else its cowards way out good reason us okay cowards else got,1 im sure scaredso im high school recently became atheist thought fact life feels kind meaningless considered redflag however one time actually seriously started thinking it managed stop myself help,1 katebornstein which is pretty anti memorial tattoo but for all but the strictest there s no official ban just disapproving family,0 "@Templesmith Oh, no! How will we survive without your mad ramblings and intresting facts ",0 dreadi really see future bleak carry on single ruined last best relationship fucked day ,1 this want monke httpsimgurcomavxoai,0 life keeps shitting mealways one step forward two steps back one thing another thing new day new problems im tired idk anymore past years shit,1 post expire exactly minutes,0 feel like end nothing ever right stupid worthless see point living anymore know keep going,1 hey guys im hosting rave watch movies fun community dm discord rave ill add invite alsoif question rave called rave app app store dont discord rave ill send link dm,0 since my stepfather died i have slept hour every single night and day my anxiety is just at an insane max right now to the point where i break down everyday in the shower if i m not in there with my so my bag are insanely black and i m so exhausted but still doing my hardest to function in society which is making it worse since i m failing,1 i just need to vent a little i think it s upsetting to be a student who know the answer to your professor s question a student who want to engage in discussion but also a student unable to do so because of this silly little thing called anxiety cowardice even a i ve been told it s been an uphill battle ever since i started highschool my grade have always been decent but they re never a good a they can get because i can t speak up in class i know the answer and when i don t i can make intellectual guess not that i m boasting but it s something that i know would be well within my capability if i weren t so scared all the time whenever i m called on to recite it take everything in me to keep the shakiness out of my voice in the online set up even if the question being asked is a simple how wa your weekend i stutter and shake and sweat a if my life is on the line during face to face class i would visibly shake in front of the class and i ve lost so many point time and time again because of that the embarrassment and humiliation even if no one laugh or pick fun at me outwardly burn so badly i guess it s doubly upsetting because i ve been told that i just have no goal in life and because of that i can t bring myself to prepare for anything then proceed to cry and complain about it when i m unable to answer a question or perform well you deserve it if you re not going to do anything about it is it my fault wa being so anxious that my mind would go blank at every question a choice i do try i don t back out when i have to speak in front of the class i try my best to pretend that i m not terrified out of my wit i ve joined a quiz bee or two even if i could never bring myself to compete further than that and i want to do more i don t want the people who say i m wasting opportunity wasting my life to be right in the end maybe it s hard to believe but it s just so tiring when you see everyone around you breeze by an obstacle that you need to spend hour and day on just to overcome imagine that hyping yourself up to do a thing accomplishing it telling someone about it casually only for them to throw it back in your face because you couldn t do better than that ah what a mess,1 i got smoke in my eye now they burn,0 someone share netflix account share three months deezer account someone share netflix account share three months deezer account maybe find glitch deezer premium trial infinity,0 friends fake honestly im sick tired constantly make plans reply okay dont know whether drop not honestly every time go them im one making plans whenever make plans among themselves never include me always feel fucking left out dont know do like feel lost ive known year invited them,0 omg i ve an economics test and i dont know all the thing i have to know and omg im gon na fail,0 i ve been prescribed setraline a an anti depressant but i m beginning to have serious anxiety of the side effect especially the mental one i don t want to start taking them to relieve my anxiety and depression and then become suicidal my anxiety is making me think it will happen to me and i ve read so many story of people becoming suicidal because of taking setraline is there any advice anyone can think of to alleviate my worry,1 ththth grade boys video games work place hangout teenagers long ive worked or attendee theres strange obsession video games middle school boys fight theres things go rock paper scissors shoot doesnt work one gets it like near throwing punches games shorten attention span really dont get it someone please explain,0 testing twitter mobile sm from australia expensive,0 bpd controls entire life feel nothing feel empty time angrysadanxious want turn off think happiness realistic goal me therapy took dbt courses take medication still feel way getting worse ever wanted happy wish could die without making loved ones feel bad want stop,1 rainy days and depression,1 I think my next solo compilation is gonna be pretty awesome. I've recorded some good stuff IMO. (Including Lazy Eye gtr lead 1 today.) ,0 @yami_mami i thought i was the onli one up cant go to sleep...,0 wish balls iti nothing life im years old wife kids job nothing look forward except same wish goddamned pussy finally went ending,1 telling jokes corona gone day theres joke time never rob bank pig always squeal,0 believe anything help mein last three years have single longest stretch life since age breaking yet another codependent abusive relationship sober longest stretch life since age finally quitting drugs drinking smoking living alone dog trying learn fill space steadily therapy tried variety medication options spent lifetime swearing would never try completed group therapy program people experienced trauma formed joined meetupcom ravelry groups gone meetings total strangers try make friends get house spent nearly two years completely estranged dysfunctional family gotten back touch parents gotten agree family counseling made significant career advancements done well budgeting shitty income flown far away places visit foreign countries cities meet spend time people strangers colleagues last three years also continued intermittently selfharm barely slept able get week without least one anxiety panic attack spent countless nights sobbing floor dog unable calm consistently wished dead felt completely incredibly painfully isolated alone experienced loss betrayal two closest friends felt joy anything life past weekend i erworthy breakdown emailed therapist desperate cry help message reply could actually go er none friends could watch dog hours watched documentary redflag read redflag notes counted pharmaceuticals adjusted life insurance etc trying steel stopped believing hope things cannot stand hear it takes time you cant see better things get better you try xit totally help even know posting this guess wish kind help feel like though,1 "I can do whatever i want cause u never be there when i need someone at my lowest.Depression is not real to you. Anxiety is nonsense and mood swing is normal.But when it comes to ur case, why does u being so anxious bout it?What? Only you can have those feelings?",1 i feel guilty of everything i feel guilty for telling people my problem and burdening them when they re dealing with worse i feel guilty because when people dump their problem on me i can t handle it anymore it s so selfish of me i hate myself for it so much but when people dump their problem on me i just want to kill myself because i m exhausted i m exhausted of helping people i ve been doing it since i wa 0 and i feel so guilty for being exhausted i cut myself over and over for being so selfish,1 heres thingive suicidal life first id get really depressed teen early adult would grab whatever bottle pills swallow them someone would find id end waking hospital day later then years ago really depressed things dark deeply hurt wife left parents taking divorce attorney making things nothing daggers heart stood everything wasnt made breathe wake morning get bed etc devastated still trying nobody wanted listen so made decision end life read online ordered meds went state booked hotel couple nights took pills found hours later helicopter ride couple ambulances days later miraculously woke coma so last years down get really down recovered month two time felt up last months very bad feel totally hopeless ordered sodium nitrite online thinking taking end life however last time serious attempt felt peace it actually happy peace day it time feels different cant reach sort peace felt feel like may making mistake it ive thought much would rather let family get with know,1 life terrible pit full shitwhat point living cant get pit shit find in feel like rats would trap oily bowl doomed swim scrape sides futilely eventually tire drown kids would better family give time always saying hurt stay hope get pit tried everything success,1 crazy people actually enjoy life arent suicidalhow,1 wasted whole life nothing playing mobile games day sitting couch day already years old still even job yet truly sad pathetic parents actually trying threaten get job kick house right graduate high school year left graduate honestly care parents anymore want kick end life never really cared wanted live guts kill waiting patiently parents help end pain planning end life right graduate chronic procrastination affected life many ways affected physical health hygiene relationship family school grades mental health struggled chronic procrastination ever since elementary school really know wrong past based research sure struggling chronic procrastination adhd reason struggle chronic procrastination chronic procrastination pretty much took away happiness gave nothing self hatred hate hate way today truly want change bad habits difficult cannot even something simple brushing teeth everyday again shows pathetic much mistake am tried change bad habits past like drug addict eventually relapsed back old bad habits trying change bad habits feels like asking person smoking addiction stop smoking completely difficult change fact cannot change bad habits matter hard try makes feel like maybe end life end disappointing family maybe born fail life never succeed longer see confidence see point trying anymore nowadays let chronic procrastination destroy life everyday life pretty much playing mobile games day sitting couch honestly cannot stand thing everyday know even tried changing going fail anyway weight increasing every month due lack exercise really care hoping heart attack kill me dental health looking good either again really care today waiting death thinking end next year wish could sleep forever escape reality know possible year difficult me sometimes cry night amount pain going through tired pretending ok front parents really idea much pain going long suffered pain argue yell me worse feel myself think past memories hate myself playing mobile games day coping mechanism helps escape reality helps distract brain pain everyday act nothing wrong hiding really well hiding emotions distractions deserve everything happening hope get covid nd time hopefully end time done life year left live,1 shes been saying nasty comment about my body since i wa like they used to tell me i needed to stop eating and stuff like that snd it been destroying my body image i feel like no one will ever love me if im not unhealthily skinny i starved myself for a good while like year ago and lost a lot of weight i then hot depressed a hell and gained it all again she still say some nasty comment last night she said of course it not good that you were starvinh yourself but it mustve been so nice to find clothes that fit right dont you miss that i just want her to think im pretty and the kind of daughter she want,1 know whats worse jeans pockets jeans fake pockets fuck,0 hate university life friends feel steadily depressedi feel lonely feel empty stopped exercises thought killing becomes wish ive talking people say im overreacting stopped taking serotoninregulating pills solve problem lost friends cant seem make ones life shit im gay makes even harder one question kill myself,1 "@snarkoleptik lol anytime, i know ill be helping u out lots of times haha ",0 @jaredlunde That sounds fun! I'm taking my brother out to our local home team baseball game sunday afternoon! I love baseball games ,0 movie the falcon snowman showing christopher boyce around complex satellite background actual ryholite satellite space trw allowed interior shots trw also allowed interior exterior shots one original star trek tv series the episode one spock goes blind string satellite lights activated kill aliens christopher escaped jail lompock featured americas wanted drinking bar show aired said hey thats me needless say captured transfered maximum security jail,0 @MortarWombat i want to ride my bicycle i want to ride my biiiike! ,0 Try to keep up with social activities even if you don't feel like it. It'll help with #depression,1 going to britney spears in nov ,0 @dizzyfeet good witch bad witch? Glinda wasn't ugly ,0 imagine personality post made using ppls personality im talking,0 dont know else dobank account overdrawn havent eaten days paid weeks friends turn to family doesnt give shit why help son buy second k car mean friends all ive never friends high school quickly realized forcing way none really wanted there years later havent left house anything work made friends coworkers hate me hate everything life think im going opt tomorrow im tired living like this,1 music taste hmu immediately httpsopenspotifycomplaylistcbbytzbqqoufkvzbsizjpeqbqxomk_zjrq,0 thank you times covid whatnot everyones life changed somehow know mine was however all sub repeatedly reminds maybe bad guys like giant online friend group chat send prolific memes well time look forward seeing whats new every waking morning peace cheese balls stay awesome,0 called redflag hotline night immensely helpful wanted sharehi often put feelings open grateful organizations redflag hotline well subreddit called night heavy drinking grandfather died struggled depression alcoholism self harm worried may hurt myself so called never envisioned myself year old man someone call crisis hotline thankful did woman line one compassionate understanding overall nicest human beings ive pleasure talk to would give anything thank annoyed me thanks listening hope rant feel free remove post mods,1 lmao im older im probably gonna make lot money scamming tourists selling junk food double price buying corner store touristic area one perks super touristic area never understand many people come there,0 shaundiviney i want pizzaaaa,0 enjoyed still crazy film seen years successful band s decide give another try start playing gigs seedy european venues hilarious results music fantastic script acting terrific characters spot on especially lead singer high heavy metal voice makeup personality problems concert end unreal go see it preferably cinema good sound system ,0 ayo im bored slide let know slide in im super bored ideas dip dick lmaoo,0 Expression is the best outlet for depression,1 doesn t like how much uk postal price have just gone up now cost 0p more to mail a black velvet to usa rotw amp 0p uk,0 seven years old mama told go make friends lonely,0 so basically for a long a i can remember i have been terrible in public situation when i have to present i shake and go red but the most difficult thing thats happens is that my throat feel like it closing up and i can not get any word out even if i keep trying this lately ha progressed into seemingly random situation i think it s because im more aware of it i could be talking to some of my friend in a group and suddenly start to choke and can t speak it s made all the more confusing a when i take beta blocker i can speak fine in any situation so i guess this must mean it a mental block if anyone ha ever experienced this or could even point me in the right direction for stuff to read that would be great i have tried googling this issue but can t find anyone similar to me i m not sure if practicing talking to people work in this situation a i literally cant get the word out of my mouth when it happens thanks,1 @Saskiafairy *blushes* awww now I feel a bit fluffy towards you!!! ,0 movie really makes think life culture family structures situational actions give plot post think others beat already hope despite reading opinions site take chance see movie yourself went see movie husband friend must say movie total silence theater minutes looked behind everyone theater staring screen lost thought make delve deep psychological abyss ponder several thingsbr br how much society influence life lives generationbr br how long someone pay mistakes madebr br if second chance given ever realizedbr br is better live box live all br br my questions intended show approval disapproval lelands actions want opinion way dictate take away film giving it see yourself still lost thought attempting answer many questions film enjoyed greatly hope too film trying answer questions condone action promote punishment movie trying make us evaluate lives take rose colored glasses us view world throughbr br great movie stars,0 looking gf requirements human optional alive preferably age within years older ladies dm info,0 noticed recently sleeping problems might reason first thought something physical lack iron blood something never thought would something deep post isnt especially discussions really wanted post story course comment would love discuss stuff guys thank reading,1 turtle are better than my mac last longer and move faster,0 im angry timeim afraid dad gonna say wrong thing im gonna snap get really angry kill myself im afraid anyone gonna say wrong thing im gonna lose it,1 truthtruth is always want die hate existing honestly writing words paper scares shit raw me want show people that feel like im trapped nowhere go whatever do makes bad person whatever say makes bad person feel like wanna shoot myself im bad person feel like shit something talk it im bad person make others feel bad constantly alive tell anyone problems feeds negativity ive always awful person deep down ive always been ive struggled like accept years ive realized really garbage want stop existing cant believe god hates me let die everyday hope wake dead makes happy thinking it unfortunately come ever want future want anyone else nothing one bring happiness im tired trying want die deserve anything anyone understand im still alive keep replaying ways could really hurt brutally much blood satisfying makes sad know ill never die soon want die cant hate cant maybe deserve stay alive continue suffering happy feel bad person am,1 hugbubble im keeping my distance well well away from your comment this is not good for the male specie,0 @karmamars Lol. So do I thanks man!,0 im goodim alone always verge crying cant talk anyone one listen im stressed taken toll feel completely hopeless,1 hey guys games play sad want distract yourself past time,1 died gang night passed out last time remember screaming top lungs fucking die woke everything still wrapped tight around neck untied myself got couch went sleep feel like waiting next opportunity feel numb fuck what tried,1 im going kill saturdayactually fuck im going tonight,1 someone tell whyi wanna know people nasty try talk wanna die threaten call cops excuse cop coming door help way telling care really dont say shut also cant place someone terminal disease cant anymore cant keep fake old smile face anymore,1 sometimes feel like cant go onim never kissed woman never relationship thing want ive lost hope ever happening ive tried joining social groups ive tried land job abroad try different country i live third world country people online dating makes things harder however efforts nothingi feel pathetic disgusting seeing every girl ever crush married someone much better myself seeing everybody grew made progress life except myself ect feel like im good enough never born want die im afraid death kinda wish never existed first place see life passing every day despite efforts feel miserable ill never relationship think dead,1 Now or never... No regrets! Off to Europe... Love you no twittering for a while!,0 now i regret ever seeking help the hotline had me wait so long and basically just mirror my word what s the point of looking for help anyway they just add to thing i fail again,1 godi wish could someone else ,1 Either I have a smidge of depression OR I've hit that lost 20s phase,1 feel dangerously alonei dunno deserve constantly beat thinking im bad person maybe xyz different people would like me id friends likely case still believe thoroughly friends almost identical pasts thought patterns behavioral patterns hot talented etc get away flaws cannot current friend group operates wholly conditionally things like get attention slip up get boot convinced one friends clinical narcissist needs help id never dare say it cant even say hes hurt feelings flipping without punished feel dangerously alone moved away home friends family near me friends hold bc feel like family shit idk do ill text apologize think ive done something wrong theyll either ignore use me even know anymore took shots alone monday night hands numb nobody dont even real job risked leaving grandma mom sister k miles away career doesnt exist friends gaslight cry dont even give time day theyll give friends time day me never felt lifted inspired one them clear dont want me im dangerously alone amount self care save career theyre gonna keep trying ruin slander ive ever done defend,1 creeps sub yo man ask dick pics made joke post saying pp hard said hes jacking right looked one photos posted myself wtf,0 mother really likes play victim spends entire day screaming school reason decides victim wish talk her cant wait move outcan day come sooner somehow course entire family treat victim great lying littearly days become hoping arrive home went somewhere moment peace school hated slowly becoming high point day peace today first time ever actually glad school home,0 horny people subreddit whowhat horny horny himherthemit ,0 movie good came out attended cooley high cooley upper grade center around also home coming queen grew lived area cabrini greens knew lots people movie nice see friends movie lived area also chance star may life time experience them good times growing north side tough times relate movie cooley high longer standing person like others still remember fun growing attending cooley high lot history around north side area told ,0 ready for some PATRON! in Hollywood for Phathead's bday ,0 bullshit postmy life dream life like complain it forget that could drawn roadmap every single thing could make life livible would fail taken away besides living situation misery life difficult how fuck also proud recipient misunderstood award every single positive instinct either repressed dismantled strung pilliaging yes physical yes psychological would rather dead many years ago propped rancid chopsticks mom dad would much like anyone else life opportunity better hack own fucked you want death piss off,1 hes talking girl snapchat hes never met well looks like time move on even kidding even wasnt talking another girl still wouldnt actually attracted me feel like shit,0 Checking my blogsite and gaming online! ,0 go to cinema and watch hannah montana!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!,0 so i started having suicidal thought in april of last year and they lasted until around november in october i started hanging out with a girl and we started becoming good friend not romantic just friendship my mental health started getting a lot better after a couple month of friendship with her and it s kept getting better ever since a few day ago i made a passive aggressive comment that really upset her she won t text me back now i ve tried apologizing and trying to make thing right with her but i haven t heard back from her i m afraid i ve ruined this friendship forever and now my suicidal thought are back for the first time since last year i always hurt the people that i care about and i hate myself so much that i do this,1 writing love letters middle school experience recommend,0 wrote felt laptop never againi never life talked depression anxiety keep bottled inside write somewhere whether laptop paper ive writing diary years parents havent found one time decided write laptop parents found it said ive feeling depressed whole life wanted die wasnt death note anything expressing feeling time mum found screamed yelled blamed me told never dumb shit like depression head im faking attention feel im always damn phone ever since would bring ask still think dumb shit like say better would tell truth,1 constant thoughtsi friend considering committing redflag gun last weeks told first thoughts off non stop think courage pull off im afraid constantly thinking may it ive recommended crisis lines says work want send hospital think would make things lot worse already are would guys do,1 relationship multiple people polyamorous relationship wv cade j cade main focus currently using actual name hes ok it currently lying bed j cade alone separate house pm call check already sleeping issues j asleep point worried cade suicide attempts none since hes close calls tho bad feeling know mean much still fucking love much means world drug self harm problems worrying really bad may make panic scared worried lover,1 know youve roasted someone way hard delete snap story asking roasted bi girl whos school said something along lines heard bi ghat didnt luck liking one gender,0 fucking sucks man hate ya taking shit company time someone walks bathroom gotta mute ya phone shit silent mode,0 got sony video handycam lying around house apparently use grandparents back s things missing mm tapes battery,0 drove car first time im turning months dad took today empty parking lot districts highschool asked wanted get behind wheel wasnt sure ive always scared driving fact maybe ill bad driver time switched spots repeated commonly known steps start engine start driving spent minutes turning using break pedal drive pedal is called using turn signals stopped couple stop signs drove circles around different objects moved slowly didnt spin snow hit curb all still rush adrenaline driving pound machine made feel powerful,0 going back real school gonna weird transition mostly early get up like getting am morning sun never then fucking zombies yo,0 could use earwould anyone mind taking hour hear tale even need advice literally nobody talk real life im sure talking would make stop crying skype aim pm available,1 remember st night september love changing minds pretenders chasing clouds away hearts ringing key souls singing danced night remember stars stole night away ba de ya say remember ba de ya dancing september ba de ya never cloudy day ba duda ba duda ba duda badu ba duda badu ba duda badu ba duda badu ba duda thoughts holding hands heart see blue talk love remember knew love stay december found love shared september blue talk love remember true love share today ba de ya say remember ba de ya dancing september ba de ya never cloudy day ba de ya say remember ba de ya dancing september ba de ya golden dreams shiny days bell ringing aha souls singing remember never cloudy day ba de ya say remember ba de ya dancing september ba de ya never cloudy day ba de ya say remember ba de ya dancing september ba de ya golden dreams shiny days ba de ya de ya de ya ba de ya de ya de ya ba de ya de ya de ya de ya ba de ya de ya de ya ba de ya de ya de ya ba de ya de ya de ya,0 It's so crazy to see the weight Meek put on in prison in comparison to Gucci coming out ripped af. Depression is real.,1 damn i have missed gsoc apply deadline,0 well that made me sad i sat down to watch tv and then remembered i dont have cable anymore lol,0 Finished finished finished-yay! Trek tomorrow yes please ,0 fucked last time feel like fix lifenot sure wtf anymore even put forgive doesnt belong tldr used play college sports cheated longterm long distance relationship never able stop years even though wanted ive caught cheating many times forgive want live anymore even though completely aware awful everyone know love basically crisis contemplating ending life past two weeks think it ridiculous stupid feel feeling way entirely doing find asking internally well didnt see happening now ex girlfriend years finally given trying make relationship work spite issues infidelity understand cant process accept know caught cheating multiple occasions time feel like managed grow move never really addressed issues associated problems relationship despite insistence knew something wrong me talking trying find way move past always resulted blaming collection small anecdotal incidents resulted resentment miscommunication always felt like tried take burden responsibility ever fault look mirror see someone longer wish changes wish make seem impossible point ive ruined whatever good feel left world imagine looks lense worse considering finally hit threshold tells never girlfriend trust again know circumstances unreasonable selfish fuck even considering killing myself know responsible misery position in accept things accept actions left impressions feelings cannot fix immediate foreseeable future know follow through probably killing mother older widow looks world also know people still feel attachment world care spite ive done would crushed take life addict ive addictive personality whole life ive known enough habits family history life though managed mostly avoid addictions deemed harmful like hard drugs gambling ive actively told dislike without ever really letting open experience trying long time addicted alcohol kept manageable obsessed football playing career ended find temporary addictions hobbies pick week two immense passion forget lose interest weeks later biggest addiction wish would kept better check involves sexual addiction even prepuberty feel like aware watching porn via internet albeit poor dialup connection home short time parents work computers girlfriend started dating sex year dating definitely rushed ready maybe first year seemed like genuine hesitance keep sex hard us arrange feasible location comfortable accommodating addicted willing sex anywhere asked suggested constantly legitimately took high school classes together would give handjob desk almost every day still wanted more one point suggested wanted sex much find another girl knew wasnt suggestion much active choice someone else lead path using internet explore sexual fantasies first chat rooms message boards progressing time actually texting video chatting women time freshman college freshman year started increase frequency lived another state thought would secret sidefantasy could play enjoy without hurting feelings eventually lead actually meeting girl aware relationship urges wanted sex without attachments piecesofshit like do gave selfishness without really considering girlfriend besides wrongly justifying sexual experiences burden her thing considered possibly giving std wish could say rooted intent live safe healthy lifestyle much feared caught requested see recent test results girl wore condom sexual relationship happened times felt tremendous amount guilt experience left addicted browsing craigslist various dating sites nsa hookups ultimately hooked two girls year girlfriend moved went school year later thought could let things go resume normal relationship put aside infidelity eventually found girls freshman year fact randomly met made friends first girl finding happened eventually worked things insisted purely sexual past since cycle developed periodically almost every year two would find slipping back old ways either cheating getting caught textingemailing women honest dont know many different times situations think it wish would addressed it time see tried redistribute shame blame things weshe could control want end life stop thinking mistakes made recent failure lifes attempts maintain faithful sexual relationship result schedules growing depression felt since car accident november left questioning life value convinced would somehow healthier find discrete fuckbuddy instead address lack sex affection life person actually loved because coward know am feared rejection judgement felt like would disinterested things wanted try even find repulsive it long story short weeks ago found texts even photos broken whatever previous forgiveness mustered get it logically get cannot even imagine possible future me cant get head actually wrap around reality least reality want part more cant ask take back again mean have isnt gonna happen know it asked least plan potentially move forward since live together seems like accept friend cannot even put idea getting back together realm possibility get that hurts past two weeks still attended two weddings planning go went together maintaining appearance friends family things okay impression total lie felt like trying make situation work could eventually try work without making publicly known issues bringing directly see saw differently thought strong feelings felt still enjoying others company probably mutual coping going maybe hardest week work life responsibilities requests pressure compiling seemingly insurmountable life obstacle almost support system im starting care really dont know want role im company at wanted job maintain life sanity things feel gone looking left life moving forward see nothing disappointment missed opportunities reaching friends even family able articulate dangerous finite mindset sure proceed here smart enough know need help strong enough admit others know need it help expect deserve want it want another chance think deserve even life have,1 cant stop fantasizing coffee induced redflagsooo basically unmedicated bipolar person crashed life straight ground lost everything after two years trying build future career really liked im longer denial really wish gotten help earlier and past attempts getting help ignored suppose biggest problem physical real world barriers obstacles scary intimidating much im sort sitting back watching life float futon hurts back neck terribly think kill myself really want someone help talk day day think get away situation thats causing grief job thats least tolerable ive learned lesson see past thought problems external needed get someone good id happy no everything still darkness lingered tempting work harder try get somewhere stable reveal demon known mania medicated though appointment mental health team th mental health dates like beacons trying get one hopefully make another day morning wake reality situation nightmare slightly better demons face took physical form manifestation biggest fear slow slow crawl homelessness loss items two incredibly loyal pets often mind wanders ending life im loss fix it try day something little bit better hard without sense direction applying job everyday cant fix end summer make reasonable progress probably end life want pick method one else blamed as jump front car train one think reasonably know im even reaching out think find help anywhere im trying prove wrong,1 everyone should follow @dinaxlovesJB & @melasays they're a fags.,0 ngl might look kinda cute dress like girl took amazing selfie look pretty cute,0 recommending songs untill get gf day about girl nirvanahttpsyoutubejixhplxdu,0 im alive catsit would hurt bad leave dont know much take life miserable,1 Thoughts on the ascent of the AKP in Turkey in 'The Third Great Depression and rise of the far-right: experiences from Turkey' by Burak Gürel for the @TheErpi writing in @openDemocracy @stepscentre @nathan_oxley https://www.opendemocracy.net/burak-g-rel/third-great-depression-and-rise-of-far-right-experiences-from-turkey …,1 mueller g wusste ich vorher brauchst nur in unser b ro schauen die haben ne riesen angst vor covid lager interessiert da keine sau ihr longcovid ist ihre depression und angstst rung sonst gar nichts,1 poop im class poop bad,0 i ve been trying to walk forward despite everything but i feel like i m out of option and got no help so i m here trying to figure out if my situation is a bad a it seems to me i am a classical musician not from the u trained in a conservatory since i wa a child and over the year got to play and perform wonderful music in different country and finished two master s degree in the u i graduated the last one just a the pandemic started and eventually married my u citizen boyfriend the application for a green card is gon na take a few month at least six so i have no access to health insurance or medicaid or really anything that isn t out of pocket and super expensive i haven t had a single job or real performance in two year and my playing ha declined over this time which make it even harder to find a job in the future when i get the green card not that there are any opportunity around me anyway nobody seems to care about classical music im feeling like i spent so many year and made so many sacrifice my childhood and teenage year and friend for example just to be able to play music that nobody want to hear i know i could play arrangement of popular song but that just make me wan na cry all the hard work feel so wasted on that and it brings me no joy to play music i don t like on top of this i have no support network apart from my husband who is super busy working for both of u and can t be the only one in my support network which i understand i have no car and live in an area with zero public transportation so i have been all winter stuck in the basement we have been living in it doesn t even have window so no sunlight i do try to spend time outside every time it s not freezing but i m increasingly lonely and spiraling down more every day about everything i have terrible social skill autism so i don t even know how to make friend but i literally haven t seen anyone my age in the neighborhood or really anyone approachable at all i need help but i don t know how to find it,1 "@SarahhSquare I hate the depression flares up personally. Like cmon I got shit to do stop making me a weepy, depressed asshole",1 war reposters look anyone tries gain karma reposting subreddit google try think full yourself people judged comment karma karma decides real redditor person discussions funny original usupersujith_ uraghavw earning karma like whore,0 daddy issues exactly mean many use term idrk exactly means like father left abused something,0 Good Day People just pop out of bed looking at E! news,0 enough shitty placeive enough im sick peoples shit got denied poor peoples health insurance dependents year late slashed budget last year yay adults without dependents get health insurance paid social security number years deal get social security payments years theyre out deny help yay thats great way cut budget costs im sure smarky mba thought budget scheme weasels infinite wisdom lol going stand living world another week longer denied beggar lowest sink to sink lower die now fuck them,1 im already failure human beingwhats point im relationship close friends people talk university keep touch summer even still often eat dining hall university every single day every single meal miserable especially since tables people right next table get look people happy loathe meal job tried getting summer job help pay expenses school mcdonalds want me manager promised call interview never did tried another job help wanted sign ive store times now keep telling come back cause never applications going month now go fuck off keep going chance ill get job remaining week head school happen family despises im religious also think im failure nothing day watch anime computer play videogames never go outside unless inquire job ive gone outside times summer ive school since may cat hates too longer wants play me dream job work google cant get summer job whats say ill get job major company yeah right im gaining gaining shitton debt school go to constantly dream getting horrific car crash permanently disabled society expect work watch anime miserable rest life stress ever job skills job real family love friends nothing ill k student debt graduate probably job offer whats point dealing years could end everything right now,1 cum secreting balls plz help,0 question eating water came me different time zones time zones day ahead whats official birthday someone birthday th october mean actually st october someone else,0 yo guys house right now hugged loooool cant express words happy,0 @radphotographer why limit your story to 140 ch. Tell all what is #annoying you at www.iamsoannoyed.com ,0 @mitchelmusso heyy you should sooo come to scotlandd ! your amazinggg x,0 simonekali get me an autograph and shout out you have to record it though my computer is dead so i can t listen,0 surgery successful hey again surgery earlier day surprising much thought would suck mean maybe five hours later life kinda returned normal two hours could talk three could eat still crunchy foods soft things like soup ever reason remember me sister didnt end coming appointment didnt say weird shit anesthesia fact think regained control like minutes waking,0 darn forgot that tonight s shoot wa postponed will be at a loose end now quot,0 sat theater almost crying dismay atrocity ron howard tom hanks call da vinci code could see light end tunnel angels demonsbr br hanks company back sequelprequel angels demons learned lessonbr br acting wise everyone much better aylet zurer good vittoria vetra better girl played sophie neveau tom hanks good always better though works harder giving movie feeling thriller think ewan mcgregor best job actors might even deserve nomination come march doubtful convinced right end hes dynamic faithful rational realizes church needs put past behind them minor actors also good jobsbr br technically visually movie much improved cinematography muchmuch better visual effects superb final explosion sequence end excellent howard masterful job taking tour romebr br pacing wise ron howard amazing job time around keeping story moving boring us history lesson deemed denouncing christianity movie also makes feel like stake feeble minds discovering whether jesus children high list compared cataclysmic explosion killing thousands including roman catholic church part reason think story fast paced due excellent score cannot say enough score epic times like something lord rings sometimes felt like bourne movie nice mixbr br my complaint movie ridiculously far fetched chances carmelengo someone ewan mcgregors age highly improbable chances cardinal adopted son getting elected pope even ridiculous mention whole antimatter thing yet created dan brown wrote book br br overall angels demons much tighter knitt faster paced exciting important movie da vinci code must see thriller anyone loves history mystery combined one,0 youtube ad bypass get ad click random youtube story click away story ad bypassed,0 think videogame characters would want christmas guess doomguy would ask santa trip hell,0 ive enough lifei honestly see point life anymore got military last year four years deployment afghanistan kept thinking life would much better out truth far worse friends hang anymore im fucking school im tired frustrated time think friendship woman truly care love death night drunken sex honestly think straw broke camels back person would hang love fucking much know see way got drunk friday evening asleep started fondling initiated sex know basically sexual assault love much know intents malicious guilttripping even speak anymore want know okay im afraid whatll happen friendship really over leaves thats it ive got one im close family im even sure actually love anymore crippling depression keeps night tired throughout day depression let sleep ptsd attempted redflag three times military first time afghanistan nightmare last night crushing top everything else woke covered sweat kept feeling back head exit wound stand laid bed crying alarm went class seriously cant take much this loneliness killing faster anything it im resorting alcohol escape fear becoming alcoholic again want pain despair go away badly im sure long last time since severe feel like buying gun finishing started afghanistan,1 teacher said use big words cos require self validation earlier im gonna lie hit hard fcking true really sad,0 i hate myself right now because of my anxiety i hate the anxiety and i hate that it make me hate myself i hate that i didn t ask to have anxiety i hate that i didn t ask to be raised in a culty religion that wired my brain to have such a narrow view of the world i hate that i wa raised in that religion by a manipulative mother so now it is difficult to believe anyone i just freaking hate it all ultimately i hate myself for hating myself because i didn t cause this and i shouldn t have to suffer because of how other people treated me,1 @singpolyma You should use a real XMPP service. ,0 "SayThat 316 is up! We talk about struggling to pray, God's promises that things will get better, and doing daily tasks while dealing with depression and anxiety. http://saythat.podbean.com/e/episode-316-1524631761/ … pic.twitter.com/R20Ajg01MF",1 I never knew there was a brand of ibuprofen called 'Brufen Retard' - I got a good chuckle out of that for about two minutes ,0 I like how they incorporated manic depression here :( Aaaaaah https://twitter.com/officialQUEST/status/988747084584042497 …,1 life lie minecraft achievement taking inventory talking inventory,0 ive gotten ad glossier lip balm thing many times plzzz stop want bad im literally cant afford anyone wanna buy jk unless,0 "Wow, fell in love with Sly Cooper and Ratchet. Well, I know what I'm buying on PS3 now ",0 giant asshole pushed everybody lifei literally one talk blame made attempts life tired step everybody around feel like piece shit afterwards vicious cycle want tell anybody afraid call cops sitting letting boil helping everyone rad tech course hates me treat chick like shit one wants anything me ropes end feel pushing get last hump order it trying get hold thought process always whats point couple months tired fucking tired time trying stop buying six pack know need gain strength get with,1 need vent receive advice encouragement went major jaw surgery i replaced tmj joint disk fat graft mouth wired shut next months fill time would spent talking eating generally good time instead studying standardized tests need go good college studied least hours day put strain recovery this upper body muscles strained affects jaw subsequently new disk luckily hard work payed off,1 feel like cant breathe moreive hard life controlled repressed lifetil reached early teens im live mom really christian controlling im wild child wants self broke ankle backand im struggling build strengthand required range motion walk again never go out im introvertlonging be im home schooled week schoolthen work home again im lucky get see brother sister thats friends days want end alli want live want toi need toi know to,1 hate quarantine miss able socialize people even though im awkward chill friends also wish could talk girl since were person cant almost year since quarantine started im slowly growing insane,0 check out Ben's new video at www.whipplewords.wordpress.com We clearly have too much time on our hands this holiday weekend ,0 i'm in a new outfit today=D cute blue shirt white shorts with leggings for dance ,0 ha a huuuge headache omg i feel like crap,0 Is Electroconvulsive Therapy a Miracle Cure for Depression? https://www.healthline.com/health-news/is-electroconvulsive-therapy-a-miracle-cure-for-depression …,1 hate this like you responsei finally opened two people past days leading vacation week friend told never thought suicidal like like asking if im sure feelings boyfriend things this like me comfort opened him like me feel like reached out wish didnt ive feelings since freshman high school although goes away sometimes always comes back past months basically daily idk,1 ew making post like makes feel sickim coming back hopefully one last time reorganize plans give little ultimatum see theres place here job carrier wack give shit dreams goals none care family average bad important friendships really big deal care care care matter do want keep dignity struggle live struggling better dead thats really living im going waste time trying fix things better really care main idealistic goal would stay absolute isolation eternity away everything everyone else erasing bad memories life able whatever want terms interests games stuff watch suff cook plants care for books exerciseimagine little paradisemansion could whatever want truth im detached reality like it like world things ive gone many times already even feel bad anymore ive realized many things mostly peace gonna go uni year guess felt got approved nothing ok thought get actually checking grades see stood nothing aw chose subject go for care chose agronomy mostcompatible me actually thing thought im gonna see plants guess cool care career dream job whatever dont year first sexual experience grindr hookup guess realized im kind person sleep around enjoy themselves mad that im happy realized longer obsessed sex also reflected realized reeaally enjoy human men much enjoy furry porn real people boring kinda suck true path would relationshipbut probably not since care enough relationship kinda least care life certain degree ground reality whatever im also gonna drwaing course year really care it signed something mild curiosity even like drawing tried learn realized really want put work although like art imagination rich many concepts characters little fantasy worldi really want draw whole you never stop learning thing makes hurl translates oh start bad still draw interested even tho itll look bad even years itll still look bad you wow pathetic one admired artists draws porn literally said get quality porn imagine someone anyone could possibly enjoy drawing process admire determination imagine horny invest time effort making good porn so overall care im fit reality like it like environment countryhot garbage id rather born fucking nigeria die aids newborn family history like it want bother try therapy fix myself even though broken damaged believe therapy really want try getting brainwashed womanman late s whos listening theyve paid so mention annoyance would asking family put therapy yeah im mood open everyone say give shit plan offing eventually thatd annoying really really really care keeps going daytoday mindset little goals stablish always involve entertainment sources creative work whim games books anime series gardening cooking random shit like making clay sculpture learning make winecider myself stealthly fun little occult artistic moment looking goetic rituals making summoning circles summon spirits haha didnt work out still huge circle tho pretty also collect incense plan buying occult shit now bought little dragon statuette hes cute also tarot deck pretty cards guess im charlatantype real magician thats ok like writing little story imagination gave tho realized really make whole thing got bored writing boring fit fully express imagination stories orwhatever random stuff end care entertainment satisfaction obeying whims random desires things really care anything anyone else im going try struggle better life better me decades eventually die either way dont want go adult life mean ill forced annoying job take time away ill live boring days away annoyed things like taxes robberies scams whatever meanwhile family annoying like always itll get worse worse die whatever ill eventually die heart attack stroke cancer like everyone suffer horribly till im gone rot away nothingness wow load bs ampxb solution that ill continue days following perfect daytoday philosophy keep calm stable angry things get upset easily think suppose maybe whatever goals stablished dayweek ill uni guess want see like agronomy thing andi really choice it gonna bother getting job even though feel liiiiiiiiiiitttle bad still living parents brasil us like theyre mad gonna kick something stay im uni im really gonna bother job regardless want eventually kill anyways need care that ill make money buying weed selling brownies something know get cheap weed guy worry im done using weed myself make easy cash thats sure anyway yeah ill live philosophy uni drawing course months one meanwhile ill list things actually list already existant tobereleased games well seriesmoviesetc consume entertainment play watch follow interests entertainment sources whatever feel like doing eventually ill run things do hopefully probably uni ends ill end uni times high telephone tower close old school feels weird say old since last year still ni easy place get ever gate easily climbed theres nothing impeding someone climbing tower ill gather courage hopefully dont chicken out really must otherwise ill get fucked climb one day jump really different dying stroke heart attack cancer whatever painful less sufferingduration actually get decide die random unhappy surprise like boom stroke doesnt matter healthy still got bad luck really bad luck too used feel like god get true god doenst really give shit bad luck brain damage hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahhaha anyway yeah thats idea want go terms keep dignity matter stick something right one likes quitter certainly not things disdain pathetic people struggling fail give cry it get also annoy me seems theyre really shit like if fall get back up mentality fucking overused really hate interpretation life a series falls supposed true definition life id rather shot right fucking disgusting pathetic view guess alright mess sometimes live constantly failing miserably thats pathetic get grip buddy something wrong fall get once alright fall many times look buddy covered mud yeah get up get go home wash yourself stay there weird metaphor right im trying say really feel like ruining mental stability conquered experience mindset trying fix myself imagine fucking work do end one help me people cant help others end comes yourself want help yourself dont im already helping plan got bored writnig this stop around here hope get replies even doesnt really matter anyone says say much support really care much people posts internet were dettached like attention ampxb ampxb,1 it still suck m that ha a job that a lot of people wish they had hr showed me that they received over 00 application for my position i moved to a new city for this job right before covid took over can t seem to make friend or meaningful connection with anyone in just over year i don t really have hobby and dread coming home to an empty house every night i ve always struggled with self esteem and this crushing loneliness ha me struggling yo get out of bed nobody call or even sends me text message i have no one that care about me i m already hiding so much including my emotion just desperately hoping someone i know reach out to me life is hard i get that and i know it s not easy for anyone but so many people i know have it so much easier their constant smile and laughter hurt but i hurt even more pretending to smile and laugh with them i ve ended up losing the passion and drive i once had got my career and am truly lost no friend no family no career no future fml,1 dbz fans annoying hell can beat goku one cares ill watching anime maybe looking anime tik toks talking cool powerful one faves are one fuckers come start ranting cant beat goku realise absolutely _no one_ cares nothing better eating gokus ass understand yall like dbz respect that ruin everything cant shit without dbz getting mentioned yeah goku clap cheeks well done heres trophy shut up ps targeted dbz fans chill yall fine,0 so i recently wa put up for a promotion at work to a position that would allow me to work le hour le day and make more money while also furthering my future i have never been happier until recently i m in the final stage of the process to get hired but i m still currently in my previous position we have a rule at work you can be late once per 0 day if you go over that you get written up and put on a disciplinary level which wouldnt be so terrible if one of the stipulation of being put on a disciplinary level is being unable to transfer position for a year so on sunday morning i wake up and start making breakfast what i do every morning on my day off i ve been off every other weekend for the past year so i go into autopilot and sit at the table look at the clock and think i d be at work right now so am roll past and while i m wating i see my phone buzz so i pick it up and look at the screen and see the word that make my heart climb into my throat every time bos where are you you were scheduled for i scramble upstairs so fast i knocked over the table and chair and took some picture frame off the wall of the stair but i get to work and think it s fine it okay i just cant be late for 0 day easy enough day later it s an unbelievably slow day so we all order sushi and i drew the short straw to pick it up take me minute to get there pick up the food and start heading back so i m at a stop light about minute from my job when i see a car blast through the light and tbone a truck causing a huge accident and blocking my path back to my job i feel my heart sink and my ear ring the closest way back is an extra 0 minute at least this asshole running a red light may cost me my job i m not proud of it but i sped the entire way there to get back to the hospital i sprint out of my car leaving the food i get inside and dive to the time clock and swipe my card time punched 0 late at this point i just stand there for a second unsure of what to do do i tell my bos do i try to fix it do i lie i finally decide to text my bos and explain the whole scenario in detail expecting to get back a next step a scolding reassurance or anything instead i get back one word ok ok what doe that even mean i want to press it further but i m so scared of fucking up even more i ve taken on extra responsibility this week and picked up hour of overtime over the next week a a subtle way of saying please dear god dont put me on a level i need this promotion this all happened day ago and i m living in panic every one of these day since that i m going to get the hey can you meet me in my office now call thatll signal the end of my dream to progress i m not sure what to do at this point but i just had to get this out tl dr asshole running a stop sign and causing an accident could cost me my dream job,1 gonna listen whole album right now one sitting not going tpab filler filler filler filler gshshsbsbsbsbsbsnehehsh,0 *cough**cough*YEY!! to low pressure area!! \/ okay i might be crazy.. but i really love rain! ,0 "@SuzanneEvans You poor girl, I do feel for you! ",0 im killing hours need company attentionjust ordered last meal chinese fried chicken need less four hours since mom get home anyone talk thought might chit chat least judgmental ppl could get discussing it want alone rn yk ive lonely whole life wish could talk someone antagonize pain least day im trying cry much overdramatic even walking around overwhelming today kinda shuffled around like zombie lol im waiting chicken,1 anyone wanna dm want chat someone bcneidnekdnekfnrvjnrfjenfkwnskwndkwndjenvrjgnrifneindwkdnejvnrjbbtjgnricnskdnskdnekvjvnrjgnekfnekdneifnrgkrjgineknefkengrkjvekfmkkdmwkdnrkgnrkgnrkvjrkvmekfmskfmdkfmrkvmfkvmdkfmdkmfekmvrkvjekfmekfjekv filler candjcdckndjvnekvndkcnsifneivenfinekdnekfenkefnkvenkvnefkndkcdnkncdkcmdkcdnckdmckdmkdnckdvndkmckdvnkdv,0 good bye video ever thought good bye video case die,0 god helps still strugglingone day suffering end hope enter gods kingdom till day pray accept jesus savior,1 henkuyinepu it s overrated,0 hide depression,1 coin gift guess number thinking one attempt only,0 remember similar vein young ones wed stumble back pub watch tape spend weeks replaying lines otherbr br we called one mates zipmole watkins brilliant episode daniel peacock bit restyling nose back street abortionistbr br lots great lines remember morning get white bread brown man take easy guy gandhi local shopkeeperbr br tony woodcock definitely episode teaching ralph daniel peacock barman its good amanda ill never make bar man helen lederer teaches ask people match see match last night thought woodcock played well string failed conversations curly haired arsenal star sitting bar see match last night yeah thought played wellbr br we still odd stupid lines reg ralph or ralph reg reg reg reg reg reg regbr br lots surreal silly moments surreal songs flatlets back street abortionist personal favourite great ending line and hell mark packages return senderbr br good old danny peacock added lot young drinkers evenings sirbr br update found couple episodes tape im going upload gandhi sketch youtube ,0 trying to write dssertation,0 im exhausted know longi even know say anymore sure want answer want vent always somewhat depressed whole life never super popular anyone even im still punching bag friends ive pretty good controlling emotions last two months hell recent problems past post history im going repeat it exgirlfriend transitioned guy month half ago everything ever cared went shit tried supportive could nothing ever seemed enough took week two start using new name pronouns ive heard pretty good adjust quickly matter ex blocked everything connected im starting believe entire relationship lie called many fucking things told piece shit way texts saved video evidence exact bullshit know end hes lying asshole want closure attempted redflag weeks ago ended surviving behavioral health center almost whole week ive gone therapy times week since admitted done anything im rereading whole post right barely even cohesive feel like psycho scribbling notebook point care im thinking making exit bag day two making sure recover time im tired point im even willing make life better,1 helpim nothing special im failing college courses get beaten get abused got bullied high school dads kind asshole thats fine relationship spectacular person falling apart cant fix it cant find job despite turning aplications course months cant anymore goal focus life nothing one cares me one stop me told girlfriend worried might even respond me helped before please need guys,1 desperately need job mom pretty much it hey record im rapper take rap shit serious fuck like im willing put time effort money shit problem money guys aware turning months job working twice week making like paycheck mom hardly let work anymore shifts frankly shes lazy mean could drive myself finished driving classes wont let take road test practice hardly takes practice shes protective fuck doesnt want driving back whole job thing old job went corona reopened like months ago never called back chances probably wont hardly making money anyway tried talking mom it made bunch excuses virus dangerous know plenty jobs really good safe health regulations place dont want constantly leave house wouldnt issue let drive already give dollars month thats nearly enough need actually accomplish shit plus dont want use money want get early start career always makes shit difficult stems fact shes protective fuck wants stay inside time im turning months fucks sake know purpose place world know want do let geez,0 hooked up to Restaurant City wish i could have one for reaalllls... nyahahaha ),0 want overhometown friends given even replying now last thing told complaining get anywhere context family money issues cant anything im allowed get job look like bum compared average kid school people keep talking shit more yet family member drop phone like nothing know keep sounding like dick school bag falling apart shoes wear everyday falling apart pairs jeans ripped probs im fatass whatever already think people talking shit me actually say face control cant shit it theres want die posted different thing explaining bit more go read want know little thing guess cant imagine waiting next year ive waiting long little ounce hope nothing happened long whats point sorry annoying want talk someone also please pm me got dude wanting take away shit,1 live woman started cheating mei nowhere go place go way get there place go amp way get there way make money credit completely wrecked banking friends family job car membership anything way out need hear damn good reason live,1 relapsing isnt enoughi annoy people probably annoy everyone amount posts ive made ive deleted im sick tired world im going go look tools attempt again cutting bullshit im fed endless cycle goodbye,1 i want to be back in la,0 cut deep enough actually see fat freaked second life going like forever trying get deeper deeper done being fighting fight left me exhausted tired,1 still thinking dying alone world appearanceif curious story see previous post used driven determined make better life myself barely get bed objectively bad looking anyone guaranteed alone miserable day drop finish off whats point even trying like polishing turd wanted world never be day sit computer ranting online disgusting looking am people try console me make feel better fact arguably least attractive guy planet death friend,1 Be sure to check out our #podcast this Saturday at 11:00 am EST. We are replaying our show that featured the lovely and talented @erezshek http://blogtalkradio.com/leftofstr8 @powerslave1974#KeepTalkingMH #mentalillness #mentalhealth #depression #suicideprevention #advocate pic.twitter.com/7BniJlWGga,1 poggies song uis_sex_real httpsopenspotifycomtracketweuxwdzglhwnpsvlsiaaddcdchttpsopenspotifycomtracketweuxwdzglhwnpsvlsiaaddcdc windmill mccafferty theres supposed new song end month hope good,0 Dating Someone with Depression http://business.labviral.com/2017/11/09/dating-someone-with-depression/ …,1 andy winward only quot seem quot funny,0 think im alive love sona bunch shit happened recently past year half actually one thing another something big happened october weeks ago something big happened again last week worst all first time life im depressed anxious bad things happening feel nothing nothing all ive felt happier guess upbeat most part think thats know wont make much longer know cant keep going energy to want stop everything think didnt young child id already done it hes thats getting through im hard time believing hes benefitting anyway thats time get sad think im failing whether im not ive always struggled mental health part cared much future success family wouldnt gone killing self dont care anything really except love son hope even go eventually knows hard tried him,1 flyingkittys video still up im going take oppurtunity also rant it dont know flyingkitty made funny rick astley parody give up youtube alledgedly took video down still up people keep saying taken down good news video still up added completely unnessecary age restriction disabled sharing able snag link still watch original thing httpsyoutubepayvwjpikghttpsyoutubepayvwjpikg rantyoutube why try taking down enable age restriction disable sharing manually scavenge link shame dont approve stuff approve graphic stuff leave creators alonethe platforms going die keep act up all,0 continuelast paragraph questions boiling mind parts little background am read it ill warn now kind place start off want say even living years hard life pretty comfortable life far family friends always supported me never tried put down nothing support life yet felt lost empty almost hopeless near years now male diagnosed aspergers back then really understand meant mean knew slightly different fellow peers especially would able make small talk keep eye contact general social awareness made progress social aspects longer try avoid looking someones face talk able least make small talk introversion still level would almost make hermit necessarily feel introversion curse anymore years explore understand thoughts emotions led painfully introspective state go weeks without talk another person feel least bit lonely used beat up thought weird could go without human interaction prolonged periods mainly due caring others thought it necessarily problem anymore problem arises look life see nothing world worth going struggle living family primarily dad friends see studying obscure subjects that ever reason catches interest assume passion them thats problem necessarily passion subjects would call unhealthy obsession became anorexic years became obsessed body looked pounds lost pounds span year researched read bodybuilding dieting affected body feet tall little low especially since bodyfat measurement body pod read fine still aware look know perfectly body reacts certain foods caloric intakes workouts family friends also see extremely intelligent pisses saying intense discipline again obsession feel smart feel rather stupid time seem found meaning passion life allows deal constant stress struggle living see it everything feels seems illusion me work survive find outlets tv games drugs etc take us away life seems everyone trying escape life one way another least people would love view world eyes would love find something could distract blaring fact everything ultimately pointless struggling live hit grave want find something would give reason continue on year goes by find resolve crumbling dad tried guilt taking easy way high school saying would destroy him even said knows playing guilt card many says people commit redflag selfish believe try keep people constant inner turmoil selfish could go left lot want write novel want know light end tunnel journey even worth taking find reason living convince view something meaningful convince pushing life everything ultimately meaningless almost feels like purposefully become insane believe fact work do emotions struggle go through worth end want state know one chosen finding meaning life mean special anyway want find reason method ignore looming despair,1 cant fucking thisfuck hurts fucking much cant keep up,1 kenichan i dived many time for the ball managed to save 0 the rest go out of bound,0 goddamn wish mom meow meow myow mow meow meow meow myow myow meow mow meow meow mow meow meow myow,0 sorry millionth post night writing mepeople would say given good life would they chose destroy it every day live exact opposite want could change not depression excuse one ruined life over me one keep ruining life forever people never get better one them looks thinking streets might bad least wlnt pay bills might comradery people sick me cannot exist among normals used goals dreams shit realized give two fucks happens life guess better person would carpe diem bad person exist anymore depression,1 want it one go to young really anyone look to dreams already crushed years ago parents family constantly makes fun me people really care important nobody nobody really supports me wish parents told loved me seriously wish one person told loved meaning it dreams goal never come true childish mind like mine bullied since young done everything wish painless way die really hope die sleep tonight like here,1 all i know is i ve been saying for year a a pisces stell amp h jupiter that i ll be more successful during a great depression 0 which is honestly embarrassing but also been preparing since elementary so uhm u know it be,1 almost iti almost last month really close didnt regret it feel like couldve missed chance end pain im really trying stay alive feels like one everyone life either cruel abusive flat uncaring try reach people love talk say shit like im sorry could worse im trying hard find fit live go work come home cook take care myself pay bills sleep without wishing dead crying day thats want dont even want rich successful dont even want love dont need amazing career dont need excitement popularity admiration want peace maybe tiny bit understanding want love myself dont feel like ask much im tired living,1 omg @officialswick made my year....he told me thanks im a nerd but in love with him!!!!!!!,0 fuck rsex posted something saying dont get people think wrong suck dickeat pussy post got taken mods everyone basically shaming girlfriend wanting give head calling stupid ok decision still thinking shes love life im probably getting banned sub someone insulted girlfriend called ho posting nudes online fuck them supposedly sex positive apparently thats youre whorefuck boy sex people get married post nudes fucking cunts,0 know doits gotten point even expect anyone see reply this everything say invisible matter care people want ok always seems go wrong want die feel really unsafe one talk to im going cut deep,1 @authorlisalogan oooh cool cool thank you very much for that information ,0 rock n roll high school probably go history ultimate rebellious party flick portraying bunch high school students using ramones music inspiration rise despotic principal mary woronov eating raoul fame whole movie mile minute basically big excuse fun im sure will bullied freshmen check dorky music teacher paul bartel also eating raoul check exploding mice checkmatebr br anyway sort stuff makes life worth living even someone like know ramones music pure pleasure roger corman executive producing joe dante codirecting could expect anything less bad director allan arkush later degenerated fare caddyshack iibr br also starring pj soles vincent van patten clint howard dey young dick miller who appeared every one joe dantes movies many roger cormans steele course ramones real treatbr br it seems like bartel woronov always costarred also costarred joe dantes hollywood boulevard slasher flick chopping mall also starring dick millerin reprised roles eating raoul,0 dog died coming home feels empty one excited greet im gonna leave social media,0 would anything end life maybeive really hard time depressed every day constantly urge harm kill myself point im forming visualizations ideas head go it last redflag attempt march tied bag around head ive seen many therapists none really helpful except current one telling helping get better lifestyle see point continuing feel like helping really hard open anyone general also really really want kill myself point continue joy pleasure anything every day same sit home pitying thinking ways kill myself want live anymore matter never mattered anyone flashbacks stop want want die edit thinking giving everything job games everything want keep feeling like oxygen thief every day want end keep eating junk food hopes heart attack might happen soon,1 im doneive therapy years ive gone inpatient ive tried numerous cocktails meds ive got one friend kids time dog cat enough im struggling keep head water interests desires goals responsibilities thing keeping going im tired time get everything order go it,1 need know works see next thursday find out date plan,1 So let's spendsoo lets spendd the afternoon in a cold hot air balloon! okk im gonna sleep good bye owl cityyerss.,0 cant leave termsplease dont tell smell flowers realize amazing future could potentially be already know didnt ask life given maybe want leave turn accomplish this everyone seems weird agenda keeping people suffering alive make feel better,1 one dark night staple s low budget horror genre filled retro puns clothing scenery odn transports viewer simpler time horror films that horrorbr br nothing intense cant understand whats going on film tells dark fable happens mess dead well acted stable screamqueens fine directorial job tom mcloughlin revels time makes believe hes presenting who done it certainly big twist end straightforward face horror beginning end lot s humor thrown added spice give simply special effects fall short towards end film least cgi perfect film new fans s horror genre anyone looking relive fun night classic horror bliss,0 going jump bridge tomorrow morningi tired join us navy last year failed got sent home basic training family hates torments everyday call disgrace say year old living home parents cant get job anywhere cant even get interview mcdonalds walmart people call lazy job trying get one friends hang stuff with life consists sitting computer day playing games talking people online desperate attempt form human interaction car drivers licence going community college studying computer science but looking least three years get associates longer anyone else want transfer university know fact money that even did stupid horrible math means take extra math courses hence talking longer everyone else get degree girl love loves someone else texts shes hard time wants fix it going tomorrow walk around city try find high enough point like building bridge jump land grass water want land cement rocks posted months ago get lot replys post go buried ended talking everyday like torture wanted leave record even though one knows here,1 sinking feelingmy girlfriend left me id always felt like waste gotten expelled back middle school thats first tried take life swallow pills easily ended taking anywhere near enough hurt myself wailed smacked head floor finally made unconscious one knew except brother found note left page scrabbling shoved couch wanted die on highschool odd time id spent eating lunch alone stairwells horrible student motivation every week wanted die got arrested menace friend parents forbade seeing me became truly alone tried breaking out joined schools football rugby team went denied freshman year starter senior junior talk anyone teams anymore never went parties except athletic award theres way remember years one ever took picture memy parents never came game became cynical faked played cool cat feel drugs drove drunk high times care admit id drive fathers motorcycle near kmh hilly roads countryside regard others id sometimes close eyes hope id veering course it id break crying pretty often randomly things explain it sometimes id look mirror notice frowning intensely tearing up hurt way cant describe feel university rolled around getting high everyday every day failed program first semester ah side garbage current girlfriend ex introduced friend shed room late night floormates would tease locked door time friend told theyd bang id begun lose weight went current past year id think love someone would mean something yelled publically telling me confided in she actually never asked life feeling used talk get him awh man fuck,1 In an interesting study on headaches more frequent migraines were experienced by participants with symptoms of anxiety and depression. https://summitpainalliance.com/proper-pain-treatment-may-reduce-depression-and-anxiety-in-migraine-patients/ … For more information and to schedule an appointment call (707) 623-9803. pic.twitter.com/JdvTDMc7Fp,1 "As some universities give free iPads, my university gave me free depression.",1 cant even tell im actually miserable anymore im lying myselfi feel fucking hopeless everything feels like lie rarely cry dont even get sad feel fog headed fucked thoughts scare shit me every time think god im miserable ill start thinking im lying im actually miserable im psychopath trying rationalize myself,1 im ordering many packages mom wondering whats like boxes day xd fr mostly small stuff things need like garbage room shit also bunch pc stuff,0 even know anymorei want die im worthless human cant get job talents and even mean hastalentbutdoesntrealize way literally nothing cant even handle basic day day interactions people social anxiety bad im good nothing even feel right calling human anymore would diminish value term by like hate much even know anymore death seems like option sorry needed get chest,1 nachojohnny brian don t make me fuck u up lol i replied ur message did u get my i miss u,0 time come im leaving sub good no didnt turn anything dont think worth spending time anymore mostly people way young making popularly liked statements acting like first say it bye rteenagers thanks one friend got,0 one get feeling used triggered afsomebody helping get heartbreak violated sexual boundaries cracked show affection something categorically consent to still feel theyre back partner ig feel used af triggering ive abusive relationship before do help please,1 cant normali cant anymore life miserable anxiety depression cant handle anymore seeing peers time lives sitting home time even tho go panic attacks feel uncomfortable hate it every single year feels worse worse tried talk people cant people dont feel anxiety talking parents couple friends close play games together sometimes go feel like im gonna lose cause dont want go cause anxiety professors making life even harder cause keep humiliating me ive bullied cant keep going anymore im tired plus im living small town poor country dont know going future feel like,1 always depression issue ever since remember usually cope recently alone time thoughts one seems care husband never around usually chooses hang friends home dog friends lean on family going lot cannot burden them hate feeling loneliness emptiness gives usually play pup feel better recently surgery lot work wish could take break one else help people come around usually husbands friendsfamily make pretty obvious care there hes gone even wait him usually leave hes back god forbid someone around minutes tired alone tired feeling empty depressed tired constantly feeling like enough even husband hate alone ,1 @sweetiemiley i ove your rolling stones shirt at mitchell mussos concert ,0 assume know film about also forced assume come review knowing probably watch regardless say rings true read likely find consonance least part review undecided really entirely certain happened late s early s urban suburban youth music culture probably read one reviews pretends objective insteadbr br although grow california american punk scene first music scene ever truly lived in height hardcore immersed everybody band common denominators bands indeed members audiences werebr br rejection conformitybr br tolerance enjoyment differencebr br desire fun hard fastbr br hairstyles politics dislike authority figures violent slamdancing integral experienced though certainly cliques factions tended intolerant dress speak act punk enough often certain amount unearned credit extended cliques tried really hard live fascistic paradigm anarchic self mutilating angry young cophaters br br although interviews audience punks penelope spheeris excellent calpunk documentary decline western civilization present narrow view subculture us enjoyed interviews bands club owners promoters even security people much representative least perspective memories the scene nevertheless possible approach prejudices punk experience film without preconceptions challenged unfortunate is blame rests solely promote believe feel comfortable stereotypes filmmakers blame messenger br br the music presented going everybody even most crude stuff there loud obnoxious fast less concerned technique raw energy br br for me seeing early black flag ron reyes singing x fear circle jerks worth far cost hard obtain film much like germs seeing darby crash mess nice guy left bit cold nevertheless scenes darby playing pet tarantula shut down droned background precious x interview also great br br spheeris straightforward documentary style supplemented wild pans zooms musical segments interviews framing used nicely provide context whatever said considering experience budget spheeris well anybody could filmbr br recommended appreciate film actually about forgotten years fun honest directionless rebellion amaerican punk coopted yet another flow within musical mainstream stereotypes became important basic philosophy,0 ill kill weekim boy friend girl im love her boyfriend told wait see future cant stand pain anymore wants friend moment boyfriend love her do want marry kids her want love survive love without cant much me much love give everytime try give love anyone suffer last hope,1 Everyone has a war going on inside of them between happiness and depression just some people happiness is winning and others depression is winning and some people the war is constantly changing,1 read read obamas voice fellow americans president united states enormous erection michelle let cuck speech hard fact could break diamond thank god bless america,0 oh im drunk dick hard normal ever find hard keep boner cause do idk why,0 absolutely desire live several children want liveper subject dont want live see much pain suffering world sure love kids would rather die continue pain endure everyday every fucking day go trough pain existing tried kill year ago found much ventilation garage saw psychologist gave drugs fuck disposition fuck it dont want live,1 moved state boyfriend seriously strugglingi uninsured meds had job benefits lined situation control get job basically got discriminated preemployment physical furiousonly got license state get marketplace plan probably cover treatment need stopped different meds without guidance doctor choicethe job ended taking scheduling every weekend saturday sunday shared days boyfriend friends spend days alonei used hobbies perfectly content alone enjoy anything enough worth effort everything hardi spend lonely days mindlessly scrolling social media bored death want anything nothing appealingi hate working hate days alone hate everything excited new start life kicking face repeatedly angry defeated moved struggling,1 @meekakitty CAPS ARE VERY NICE ,0 mileycyrus i have the same problem but it s here let s see if counting work no z s for me,0 200GB into a new 1TB drive... ,0 requirements girlfriend doing bc saw someone else it female nice treat respect and same nothing else really matters,0 @fanxyncity his feet look like they have depression,1 "@obrizan ok, no more holywars in twitter ",0 http://twitpic.com/6qm0m - Let us all go! ,0 i have had a pretty good day today. went to the parko with jeremy smith ,0 hey there made a throwaway because people know my normal account long story short i have this friend who used to be my closest friend we ve been like brother since we met in college a we got older we bickered a lot and had a major falling out about mo ago we made up and were kind of just friend that can be around eachother since we have mutual friend but not close anymore which is fine well we saw eachother for a trip with our group a few week back and we bickered on the trip a lot i know i m at fault for my side but he doesn t believe he doe anything wrong mainly we were bickering about politics which i swore to not speak with him because we disagree but there wa drinking and talking regardless after i attempted to apologize and be cool he instead of accepting or apologizing in return turned the conversation to my entire personality and basically dug hard into me a a person he made up shit about me that s not true a well it wa out of the blue and real hurtful but it is what it is i just kind of blew it off until i find out he s talking shit to my close friend in the city i live in now these friend are avoiding me not talking to me i have no idea what he said and how bad he made me look a an almost 0yo adult i don t want to deal with this but man this is really getting to me i m having anxiety about these other friend so bad,1 Vintage Pink Depression Glass Cherry Blossom Jeannette Platter by FabulousFinds1 https://etsy.me/2qXAijU  via @Etsy,1 want continue living know aint rightive always depressed ever since around so born condition thats known thalassemia since felt different feelings feel detached parents siblings everyone everyone treats looks pity feel like void now everyday pain contact parents like would give money unquestioned thats want want ignored want get better thats happening right now im gonna soon thoughts killing me cant continue im still figuring kick bucket cant figure better tried exercising think everything matter do cant seem find happiness im looking for im afraid im going something ill regret soon enough,1 i m sick of living the world is going to shit depression is ruining my life no one want to help why is it bad that i want to kill myself i think i should be able to genuinely life ha no purpose and i contribute nothing to society i m sick of being told to suck it up it s just life like fuck off if i m not born into a communist utopia then i don t want to participate in this life shit all i do is lay in bed all day i m unhappy in my relationship in fact it s what triggered my current depressive episode i just want to escape all i do anymore is get high and browse tiktok that s it,1 i love depression hour pic.twitter.com/XKaD37qE7O,1 "@POTUS @FLOTUS @RamonitaSilva7 @JeffreyGuterman @steve_durnan O saved us FROM a Great Depression. Recovery has steadily improved w NO CHANGE under trumpAlso, trumps getting ousted one way or the otherHe's a CRIMINAL & Mueller will NAIL HIMCOUNT ON IT pic.twitter.com/5avCFO1r6R",1 dae find suicidal thoughts comforting ever go itthese thoughts become sort coping mechanism me although ever actually harm myself others,1 What does it mean when you dream of shootin stars and wish that you and your bf would prosper and be together for forever?? ,0 @MYFUTURELIES i didnt know 26 year olds rode bmx's thats cute hahaha,0 chick corea wa tonight and i missed it now she sob,0 people reddit ask stuff im really freaking bored realize school holidays friends aint great combination know,0 i don t know what to feel but i just am tired and over it and there s no end to running on a hamster wheel of constant sadness ugh,1 might fucked upi feeling better past months talked therapist adopting cat emotional support animal shes sweetest thing world love death realize dont know would go died feel like im tied shitty fucking world her im actively suicidal right matter time again everything much harder love her shes sweet things get bad need escape,1 is further figuring out what she wants. dream build! ,0 boyfriend deals knowing im suicidalis normal boyfriend treats like exist pick call like ever in years dating text first ask day answer wanna talk make effort see me last year tried commit redflag one knows it thankfully im okay physically mentally all know fault cant help imagine way treats normal mentally stable girlfriend importantly girl full anxiety pain heal from wrong me act like care,1 im suicidal againgoddamnit casual too easily kill self today feeling always leaves soon dont know,1 "Came for Miles Davis, but left with Sonic Youth and OutKast as well. Kinf of Blue cost me $5. ",0 say excellent end excellent series never quite got exposure deserved asia far best cop show best writing best cast televison ever end great era sorry see go,0 mmm french toast ,0 ive seen slew s rocker horrors years rubbish like terror tour ridiculously fun gems like slumber party massacre somehow managed keep putting one off strange probably popular well received one well finally caught easily best mostly awful but almost always endearing subgenre plot which pretty much lifted film black roses concerns mulleted misfit named eddie whose ridiculed high school taste music loves s metal especially idol sammi curr played late great tony fields sammi killed eddie favorite radio dj gives sammis final recording eddie plays record backwards discovers hes bit tougher bad things start happening taunt him sammis music possessed trick treat wellmade total hoot special effects awesome even though feature typical s laser beams grew s fan heavy metal remember urban legend playing record backwards hearing sounds satan worshipping haha also remember told older siblings neighbors kiss ozzy worshipped satan amusing see make cameos harmless radio dj antirock priest seen film kid film seems poke fun popular connection s alleged devil worship heavy metal viewer never really finds sammi curr back dead creating havoc killing whoever gets way movies weakest point overlook that loads fun,0 im afraid im going end one dayive plan killing anytime soon but im afraid im going point ive highs lows throughtout life cannot take anxiety depression longer hate way makes feel im afraid alone idea im left alone nothing one hang with feel unwanted also overthink like crazy end anxiety attack like theres always something mind insignificant distracting things actually matter life im sick tired use drugs escape feeling mean shit im practically killing already amount ive done dont know anymore im tired feeling always coming back reason dont want end things im starting college end august moving completely new location hopefully make new friends,1 whats favorite variant boy favorite variant skinny white femboy,0 biden goes sniff sniff ur gf goes oof oof old man got nice teeth good job,0 honestly would love partner problem is cannot push away problems get depression redflag bad life experiences even though trying work myself point could start relationship without ruining least redflaging partner sucksthe problem is even know healthy relationship looks like chances pretty high let get abused learned spot stuff like even worse unknowingly become abuserit sad admit cannot someone else right now sometimes life sucks still try work hearing stuff like thatespecially ask comment like that might find someone long stay also depends me at point find partner worry it yeah no gets sadder often hear it,1 i have a friend at work that i ve been confiding in for the last couple week we both are experiencing depression and suicidal ideation over the last several year she seemed like someone who ha everything together in a sense that she ha a gridiron exterior great career very positive attitude and i come to learn she s barely hanging on in my struggle with depression she ha been my most interesting and welcomed member of my support network i m also working at getting my former bos now my director back into my network my current bos add to the depression quite a bit but having a network of people to connect with is truly a blessing my point is that there are so many wonderful people and sometimes you expect the least expected to be your strongest ally stay strong and make today the best you can practice self care exercise is therapy therapy is therapy and be a reason someone release the stigma that depression is for the weak but that the strongest have to survive the self destruct mechanism in your brain just learn to manage it,1 whats point livingidk direction anymore know deal im tired,1 "All the #diet and #exercise #plans aren't #working. #People are getting fatter. No #doubt , if enforced they do #work, but #life isn't #like that. #Something has been #overlooked. http://appetitecontrolsystem.weebly.com  #depression #posture #body #physical pic.twitter.com/fG5RlNggRb",1 wish could give life awayi always think how could would give life someone die dead really wanted live really enjoys life sort purpose theres point alive im enjoying hate here im completing tasks expected parents society im tired this want make stop,1 "@marieclaire @WALK_Magazine Good morning Ashlee, Aetrex Web Person here. ",0 @MsV1959 whoohooo love eminem! On my playlist for Sunday ,0 day cold war beta httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvtnnduwglcampab_channelpuffpuffhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvtnnduwglcampab_channelpuffpuff,0 @mambaMVP24 lmao I told him that me and my Laker army on myspace are going to jump him. ,0 mom forget name time dad like y oh sorry dad,0 CALI JULY 2- 6 && VEGAS AUG 28TH -31ST ,0 turned parents handed freedom longer lie age uh certain entertainment sites ey safe birthday still january ,0 officially hundred days old reddit dont know information bet dont know information either heres random gold found make somewhat interesting,0 womens shampoo much nicer guys shampoo damn much expensive,0 think tonight nightim alone house now would someone found me im everything could could rest,1 theres boy really like him nobody knows even friends today orientation day a tour highschool hes going highschool too friend whos annoying lol keeps pulling away talk him wait next year get highschool tell him idk trust telling telling friends thx guys,0 tonight hopefullyif fucking penny every time ive convinced would jeff bezos hopefully tonight night dont want keep holding back pussying out want really commit time,1 first posti suicidal last years right feel like situation would die would try save unless someone else present could endangered thing really keeps committing redflag people know imagine would wonder never said anything asked help would beat want them also given parents back money spent me often wish either different sperm made egg exist wish redflag super acceptable could say ok im done enjoy guys go every single day happened wake im waiting day dont however social butterfly make friends real easy good crowds feel like every single new friend chain binds prison life figured id share not thanks reading,1 doe depression destroy your brain cell like literally i feel like i can t connect with anyone and i think in certain situation,1 feel like im postponing deathi really know explain it feel like died long ago ive planned many times always come sort dumb excuse to right excuse concert im going friend february know im going that scares me know people care me know could worse know could probably good life im fucking tired crying sleep constantly fighting urge hurt myself wish could get hit car tragic traffic accident would over,1 @regnisab I don't know. I'm really not involved with that end of things. If I hear anything I will post it ,0 christmas gift arrived courtesy tcm never seen film even though seen films barbara stanwyck comedy made us laugh much times restrain ourselves order hear dialogbr br this movie seen people suffering stressful situations especially around christmas would certainly lift ones spirits letting go movie would make perfect gift form dvd vhs tape br br christmas connecticut directed great panache peter godfrey based story aileen hamilton br br the best thing movie felicitous pairing two popular stars era barbara stanwyck dennis morgan barbara stanwyck always played strong willed women obviously change pace her film well lady eve ms stanwyck displays knack comedy mr morgan played lot musical comedies make winning combinationbr br there weak performances film sydney greenstreet actor notorious playing heavies delight watch rich fat alexander yardley man owned media empire knew good thing saw it reginald gardiner accomplished english actor adds luster stellar cast behind two principalsbr br s z sakall another source continuous mirth plays hungarian chef felixwho hard time version english language also una oconnor makes perfect norah housekeeper sloan perfect connecticut farmbr br in reading comments forum sad learn glorious black white cinematography appreciated people all color widely used s classic movies seen original format because would accomplished coloring thembr br this film requirement anyone looking spend almost two hours uninterrupted fun christmas time total merriment assured watch open mind heart maybe like see christmas connecticut every year,0 favorite lines tonight poor boys in least racist person room everytime biden laughed seconds fracking good,0 finally it woohoo finally wiped ass myself im proud,0 MMM Roast Pork was yummmyy!!! ,0 talking mother last nail thisi called mother ask bucks agreed tried open interrupted said you made choices long time ago revenge redflag mean feel bad commit redflag mom said me least last thing told loved her figure go get frozen pizza something tomorrow wish could get real pizza could committing redflag keep things perspective redflag big deal people care about people care waiting it once disappoint,1 feel like this assaulted kid redflag anythingso fuck dysphoria debilitating every day want get bed less less knowing people see girl even want die want live want thrive minister love others want man life worth living way now fucking hate fact religion cannot ever anything many people tried convince bible condemn transgender people trans christian fuck that man literally evidence people cherry picking parts bible support want do time wish god would come sky one second tell me hey okay this thinks choice except keep living woman id rather kill myselfi plan cut enough bleed death tomorrow work going take nice peaceful sit railroad outside house wait end want live like anymore gender dysphoria fucking unfair,1 reader perfect example short film be poignant story told simply well written dialog beautifully painted images score seamlessly weaves way narrative characters portrayed thoughtfulness gracebr br i saw film festival interesting films ideas screened none shorts elements great filmmaking coming together one film reader did reader commanded attention every festivalgoer room minutes took us emotional lives charactersbr br duncan rogers created beautiful film hope see director shorts perhaps feature length film,0 holy fuck im old like actual fuck two months im really dont know fuck whole life gone,0 feel really lonely sub feel im girl brave enough browse post here,0 @Eclipsed23 //Thanks... I have been neglecting my health due to depression and stress... Dont brush my teeth... Shower... That kind of stuff...,1 based posts image percieve yara yara yara stalk profile dunno,0 want give upjesus christ feel like everything slow im mad sad angry time feel like waste space completely worthless everyone around me friends family care continually push away used smart get straight as mostly get bs cs feel like nothing want nothing,1 give one good reasonive benn alienated entire family since probably tough thought would get easier way deal easier till want end years see another option end ,1 tired seeing best friends returning people hurt multiple times getting hurt again cannot even talk issues getting baker acted getting left without anyone know week people always say faking know anyone would fake shit long story short cannot anymore want go please help justi know anymore,1 this love song brilliant example chase genre many people think underlying meaning love two main characters may fraternal believe heaton love spike spike naive see thisbr br i really feel portrayed scenes blow back letter writing sequences heaton shows great intimacy towards spike intense facial expressions takes great care writing spikes name top lettersbr br one thing ive noticed looking external reviews film slated reviewer seems fully understood film even mentioned possibility heaton sexual feelings spike also get feeling reviewers recognised it use phrases like who heaton whats retard like spike person however may hit nail head remark spike shows noticeable signs add although think person realised this seems using word retard derogatory termbr br i really enjoyed film although faint hearted film exceedingly character based shooting end much dialogue two antiheroes unless used watching deep gritty films stay well away,0 i really wish could dispersal attempted redflag times yesterday eaten day barely hours sleep last night self harming crying day,1 "I gotta say, so far I'm really diggin' Hulu Desktop. It makes me want to hook up my computer to my TV again ",0 warning nonconsensual support caring liking appreciation met extreme hostility may include doxxing termination traumatization death required ask consent prior engaging activities feelings towards mentioned first sentence asking consent permitted either reply dm agree terms conditions life,1 "i will never get over the fact how easy it is for people to joke about someone's depression, addiction, anxiety and suicidal thoughts simply because that person is justin bieber",1 dumbass thoughts day ok elephants elephants fucking cool got incher average dont pretend like dont know im talking about like relative body mass around lb assume im talking african elephants thingy tiny asf like thats one inch every lb every inch humans lb every inch meaning elephants got like humans would inches haha nice yall fuckin imagine that like im inches tall meaning elephant shlong relative humans shit wuoood packin almost times fuckin height thats today,0 depression come from not forgiving the past and trying to control the future happiness come from living and working on the present,1 My wifey still asleep. ,0 try make quick hope started like years old life started turn gray lovely child everyone loved me beside dad left mother one trait made special relatives someone cried come them hugged them automatical one day mothers crying kitchen i like usually decided make happy again tried hug her tried pushed away looks today state traumatizing little child years later married another guy made childhood hell never talked way shouting smallest mistakes pretty bad too time later fall love first last far due introvert nature talked much least end considered friend end one day decided ask out mother called me tell me one friends died car accident told her probably joke photoshop friends often shit like that bad joke dead light guided life obvious depression that make shorter unsuccessful redflags first one classic rope around neck second three packs strong painkillers third cutting veins missed think last one rope again keeped secret family one time opened mother helped me least thought back then better time graduated new school new environment etc destroying mentally cant take it often stab neck hand explode emotions hidden inside far pain let me control myself days ago asked mother help firstly made laugh electronics addiction i one one close friend often write stuff seeing phone rare finally sayed need real therapy talked like back then realized something talking mental health talking me make stop thinking it asking help forgot whole thing next day leaving alone thoughts probably made huge holes story also english good im writing know situation fault hate myself that yet still want someone notice help me,0 i truly made a steve carrell dressed up as gru account 2 years ago... and the memes only getting attention now? with no link to my account. Depression risen,1 miss gay life worth shit give redflag methods pleasei need backup plan case dont get college course important could thing changes life better open lot doors hear nothing back tuesday im done ive left school nothing courses offer construction fuck that,1 @DerekinPA hahaha yeaaa thats a good one...Notebook too! ,0 got day planned out really looking forward itfor first time im thinking theyll sad im gone help help got great day planned out favourite food last meal visit escort couple hours overdose heroin simple feels amazing excited death rather something crave scared of,1 @davashmava i love you girl! you's my favorite!!! and you need to go out with angel already lol you love me i know,0 friend need help reddit hes dating girl parents hate blame lot stuff like depressed atheist bs hes wants break thinks hes bad influence alot stuff best teens hes afraid kill herself guys help,0 officialrandl when is the announcement i stayed up late last night,0 promise myselfwhat saved idea redflag without idea redflag would surely killed myself allowed keep living knowing option always sight really without could never endured life cioran really hurting loneliness age considering upbringings loneliness too makes feel hopeless perhaps social development stunted truly feel less normal person literally worthless uncared unloved really want special person life want it impossible becomes knowing pass away quite painlessly makes relaxed felt disgusting loneliness years ago nothings changed im giving years persists make vow right right kill myself would want dreadful life caused either shitty introverted neurotic genes stunted development both go sake family would hurt sorry not imagine death general fear missing anything id already missed believe truly matters meaningful friendships relationships people respect care for tomorrow day wake again take stimulant medication get bed attempt schoolwork hate imagine loser study engineering sleep days reattempt everyday become sociable positive valuable years that persists im pulling plug more years,1 spraypaint artists general oil painters get spraypaint oil paint skin rub germx spot mins rinse still there repeat ap art teacher taught ive using technique ever since,0 @doubleickey u know those minichocolates in the shape of liquor bottles? with liqour inside em ,0 even harassed sometimes users comments posts madelike fucking mental annoying thing encounter here even happening me,1 i wish i could just be normal and happy i have no friend and can t work i am just so tired of everything constant letdown and failure i cry and throw up over the littlest thing i barely even go out anymore cause when i do i see group of friend laughing and talking people will never understand,1 may failed saving friendi know next nothing her chat room in ran sounding bad pmed would hardly talk get say anything says took full bottle lexapro dead tomorrow help talk someone talk back one chat room knows better do im really loss,1 Depression levels 14554550 https://twitter.com/SonlarRuyalar/status/989208187231461376 …,1 @mmkrill Brings back memories ,0 "We've got heat on the way!We're talking to @TheSADAG about student mental health after new data reveals a quarter of South African's suffer from depression. We've also got the new @SunELMusician track, and we're testing @YouTube's fake news detection capabilities pic.twitter.com/FBBPNZlRQm",1 im girl btw yes accsualy girl boys pretend guy,0 enjoyed watching well acted movie muchit well actedparticularly actress helen hunt actors steven weber jeff faheyit interesting moviefilled drama suspensefrom beginning endi reccomend everyone take time watch made television movieit excellent great acting,0 english teacher watches anime yoyoyoyoyo holy fucking h english teacher something year old korean man got discussion class anime hahahaha animes weird discussion guy knows h talked haikyuu food wars hunter x hunter jojo even fucking hentai even recommended gurren lagann him holy fucking hell,0 rantlike even gf exhausting overshared sometimes reaction pleasant cautious much thoughts displaying keep rambling bad feel feel bad people seem either run bullshit npclike script able deal depression everything fine snap apparently keep whining shitnot words gfi glad joined self help group people suffering depression least rantvent people still hurts tho like would gf like that would feel feeling right would understandable could rude sometimesbefore guys ask yes happy her moments feel like would need somebody talk frustrated depression well hello upset feeling like well people acting like could flip fucking switch happy mode people close exhausting need wear happy mask,1 hey big fan poetry particularly around depression existentialism would cool anyone else wrote commented depression poems please ,1 Turn in your montage videos of various games ,0 kailuh dis guy wa talking about his brother s cock and thats all i feel like talking about ewww you can figure out the rest,0 Good Night Twitterlers. I'm off to DreamLand with the positive outlook that I will finish all my schoolWork by Sunday night. ,0 yalls thoughts trick treating yall think ok skipped,0 @dougiemcfly ohh lovely x hehe x count naked people hehe that's what you always tell me to do hehe x x x night night xxxxx,0 urgent really want talkim going die im going commit redflag im lower priority everyone else here still time wanlt talk want able say want die without regretting without making tje person feel bad without thinking ruined image person heavy overdramatic annoying want die bad want disappear everyones memories want never existed hate bad bad part knows im bad day today meds rheir job usually ill feel okay morning nd grateful that doesnt feel like roght right want talk someonw know wonlt hate me dont know dont know canlt hate me please give words words grateful able talk someone doesnlt hate me,1 http twitpic com y i snow the guy i m seeing car at work lmao he gon na kill me,0 ha twitter changed in past week can only view page of tweet on phone a selecting older repeatedly show page and no more,0 going back n forth w sum girl snap expecting fast snap back right bored started tech decking minutes im realizing maybe im getting immediate reply expected,0 keep going back forthbetween wanting die wanting die nothing really triggers me much ive thinking buying rope sell job picking nice day hanging self one trees outside house plenty from ill think still want live confusing,1 plssss advice shit needed sothere girl friend groupshe nice frankly quite hotlately find obviously tries stand sit next me talking something said wants make ex jealousso said randomly walks hugs something play along low key shooting signs something,0 gonna hour really really wanna go there plis teenage best period write million reasons why realise still hard ngl thanks yall making easier fun sub awesome never gonna leave here know ill suddenly transform super responsible disciplined adult also supposed mood swings anymore,0 sitting at the table in my back garden. with my laptop. ,0 school connectedness anxiety and depression recent evidence and young people s perspective activeingredientsmh from national elf service blog http t co cjfjwx rfh,1 even knowive made set conditions mind going kill myself believe fine it may snap break conditions comfort me worries all one knows want anybody know exist society like this possible,1 so i m a 9 y o female who ha been on zoloft since i wa 0 i ve never drank or done drug but lately i ve gotten to a point in my life where i d like to try having a few drink with friend however on the side of my zoloft bottle it say not to drink alcohol would it still be okay to have a few,1 @cate1987 converge without notice and you might find the manboob in your luggage when you get home ,0 people want live i know question answered everyone differently cant see want alive theres purpose alive ya gonna human live life hate life die whats point would easier skip bullshit kill yourself right life ive battling depression anxiety im lots meds turn weeks goal turn kill want skip shit world nobody tell death bad dont know whats beyond it goal life die anyway im really suicidal right ive hospitals multiple attempts life times police getting involved tackling extra human wants die right doesnt matter mental illness physical want kill place country leagally aged walk building write name date birth given pill sort end all fucking hate life fuck everything ,1 emoji bad ,0 like the title say i have no idea who i really am i question myself and wonder if i am a good or bad person lately everything in my life ha sucked and i just want it to be over w this is not a confession btw i m ok i won t harm myself i just mean the disorder to go away i need to go back to therapy and get on medication maybe,1 dont get point awards mean like someones post wouldnt better give actual money something already reddit premium,0 enibeni i would if i knew them ed si que se duerme temprano s,0 question uk redditors friend mine from england says okay say n word without hard r similar saying dude bro im american idk guys uk us words same were white,0 @musgravejw The Prohibitionists are tasty. Thanks for (finally) posting links ,0 recommending songs bf break day dont u want back indigo de souza,0 the last time i checked my weight wa around week ago and it wa around kg 9 lb my anxiety ha been really bad for the past few week too but today i decided to check my weight and i lost kg i think i ve been eating the same amount everyday so is it really my anxiety that caused my weight to go down or i might have disease i m not aware of,1 live society mean holy fuck thats deep let sink in,0 would make good boyfriend really know expecting ,0 fucking tiredat point dont even know im still alive im fucking tired crying every night waking feeling nothing cant even finish this im mad vanish,1 @Shama @CarlaYoung Hug returned. ,0 maybe lesbians dont existmaybe everyone right ill probably end dude anyway maybe lesbians dont exist apparently sexuality fluid lesbians fuck men maybe milo right lesbianism bullshit i want to kill my fucking self,1 day school going walk miles sun city lakes menifee today to get free phone ebt phone broke recently eaten breakfast food while know asked received grateful think mentally handle eating something today help help thank reading message hope good day,1 you honest im fixing go work again im getting ready leave tell doing uwu,0 i think i have medical problem that will never go away and that if it wasn t for them i could be so much more than i am from personal reflection i m actually really happy with the progress i ve made with myself and in my life since a couple year ago but thing like my anxiety are horrible and if my life will always have it i d rather be dead than continue living not to mention i ve already done most of all my life ha to offer so what s left really amp x 00b i m sorry if this post sound pretentious but i can t find any other post that i can relate to so i ve put it here,1 brown eyed gyel bongani dee mizzzidc perhaps we need to redefine the word depression,1 emotional instabilityim nineteen years old constantly thinking killing myself ive always low shit selfesteem extremely selfloathing compare everyone around me know guys tell biggest problem hardly help it many girls suffer eating disorders domination super skinny girls media opposite problem knowing skin bones guys want nice curves im skinny small boobs butt whatsoever mention fucking weird looking vagina makes want vomit try gain weight goes weird places like arms thighs woman supposed accumulate weight sure guys like smaller bodies most guys age would prefer exciting body hobbies real interests ive tried getting drawing reading writing playing keyboard etc always lose desire continue really quickly ive tried several sports random activities never good anything hardly motivation leave house im driving friends away pretty happy im little miss miserable thing ever truly wanted kill myself reason moms mom died mom ten thing mom ever wanted daughter know would feel like failed parent would immediately give life gave up selfish grateful someone cares much feel resentment fact feel forced continue living want to im sure sound like spoiled brat intentionally screwing life really happy really know last time happy feel terrified surrounding world going happen it absolutely idea want life anything ive wanted major college parents told make money consider something else feels like basically telling need work butt next years get job want work life away never happy go want ill spend rest life debt still never happy understand point meh cherry cake mention last sound like real reason negative thoughts reality going since kid last event made worse dating boy last two years broke month ago always felt like league would wind leaving move on much happier eventually meet someone way better suited him last part yet happen know eventually drives nuts think about know get someone better never immediately smitten anyone else sounds bitter want happy feel like knife chest see happier someone else me like death cab cutie lyrics you better me cant better you ive felt awful everything since middle school seemed like one thing could turn around obviously work facing guaranteed struggle many months come hardly feel capable handling top racing thoughts username augustth planning ending everything summer class finishes right move back home perfect death imagined requires state taking class in however dad leaves new job new state next week leaves mom home deal without him think die even remotely soundly knowing that also would second want blame fall ex bad timing around would wish could end it feel like eventually something change know power change problem know even really want change things since said feel doomed unhappiness later life matter do wanted get chest anyone actually reads ill really appreciate it feel free offer advice although honestly know help another possibly biggest problem pick skin cant seem control it scalp causes lose fair amount hair really noticeable yet im afraid eventually got really bad year first year college ridiculously stressful year meh think it feel like fucking freak worth anyones time,1 make stopi literally try hard different doctors comminicating changing way think always end wanting ro fucking die wish would stop overdosed janurary entire family hurting amd angry holds me wish succeeded dont wanna breathe dont wanna alive feel trapped theres worth me hurt people really sick feeling guilty alive id rather dead battle one im destined loose,1 unpopular opinion chase good song fight,0 birthday yeet dont comment shit,0 thought it would be interesting to get f update from twitter slightly regretting the decision i can t see anyone el s update,0 want make people happy dont feel anywhere close dont want live eitherit sucks im college studying theatre arts life ive wanted make people happy since last years wont feel like constantly reason sucks dont think ill make even finish degree bad right least wont here,1 @fafs I was thinking more a drive from Dublin to Berlin or something ,0 driving permit ive studied memorized questions inlcluding signs alot people say test super easy still sure ready able first practice test flawlessly the rest locked behind pay wall drivingtestorghttpsdrivingtestorg still sure need reassurance tips,0 fourteen year ago today i got married i thought it wa the beginning of my uneventful everyday nothing wife mom homemaker life and id be happy and grow old and die and be buried beside my old man nope here i am and widowed w four kid and alone af i m so lonely in the human sense that yes it contributes to my mdd and cptsd i ve been widowed for four year raising four kid solo my parent died a year after my husband did my sibling live 0 mile away my extended relative live out of state my close friend i only really interact with through texting because they live far away all of my friend and female acquaintance have boyfriend or husband so anytime i m physically around them the interaction feel awful for me and my kid i don t fit in at any of the church i attend or interact with because all of the other widow are decade older than me and all of the mother w young kid go there with their husband and are all happy with their full life and younger people don t wan na talk to the widow w a bunch of kid in her 0 dating hahahahahahahahahahhhhhh they re either never been married and want someone young and childless they re older and don t want to have a house of kid if we d get married or they re younger and don t want to take on that role to kid who aren t biologically theirs etc i m just left out and alone and then people don t like if i voice how lonely i feel so they ll attempt to invalidate my feeling with you have kid that make me extra lonely i have no one to send the cute pic i take of them to tell their cute little story to who they can do thing with or help me answer the question many time i m overwhelmed because they ll all talk to me or ask me question simultaneously because we have no one else who s a regular in our life it s just me so they swamp me and i can t pay attention to everyone all at the same time how they need so then at night they re asleep and i m trying to destress but i can t because the next day will be the same and there is no one to cuddle with or talk to etc it s funny too because i see article etc about how mom are overstressed etc and they need help and all but when i air my situation and trouble people say my motherhood single widowed motherhood to four fatherless kid should be the answer to my loneliness and stress if society want to feel bad for and support married mom of one of two kid how come i can never get some freaking recognition and support a a single widowed mom of four with no family or whoever helping her again i m ostracized even in the stressed single mom circle,1 wasnt like hours guys another accomplishment missed u guys tho,0 need restartim years old ive alot since little kid abuse rejection depression used hate always thought redflag reached wanted restart stopped negative always said going better it never tho always positive thought someday leave country go live somewhere refresh day fight family time get bullied school say fade away im certain wont cant leave able to cost alot money fastest way get money keep studying cost least years life finishing college getting job collecting money ill need leave knowing that im longer positive fact depressed desperate making worse ive sexually confused knowing really am since never went date self reason redflag since im arabic country lgbt taboo im solutions im fully aware get better im longer thinking way leave since reach instead im thinking way end,1 redflag im currently years old ok life uppermiddle class teen easy thats problem mother tried hard give life wanted thats good thing made mud worked hard position society turn like shit fs school nothing going me used varsity baseball player started getting horrible grades kicked team want get good grades care subconsciously dont give fuck anything ive indirectly taught work anything mother resents it father left never supportive father figure life confide trust ive taught show emotions ive keeping bottled years away anyone emotions ask well one people ever trusted life passed away years ago accident crossing road going store cousin kyle struck car october died impact hes person ever shared emotions taken me seconds slower would fine one except girlfriend idea im mess doesnt know im depressed doesnt know im failing school doesnt know childhood trauma ive forced through doesnt know shit ive showed good stuff deserves better depressed thats really even reason im going end life reason nothing look forward to everyones life ends point ive decided ending day turn good morning today october th regret inform native teen dontei lecue aged died morning due high speed collision suspect due state drowsiness influence narcotics,1 lets say hypothetically you liked me crush me words although flattering woman specifically lets say waifu,0 found himmy ex boyfriend years best friend killed week ago found body woods feel like everything touch dies third fried killed themselves cant even begin figure process this id used call bad nights hed talk promised hed alive long was feel like fault feel immense amount guilt neglecting final week almost taunting him cant stop crying unless turn back substances know wouldnt want like this cant help five fucking words destroyed me they found him hes gonehttpsimgurcomagzppe,1 @tgn Nope. ,0 I'm hoping that my Will Young singing buddy will be behind me in the car on the way home tonight ,0 year old could like a years ago thats incomprehensible fuck anybody three years ago blows mind cant believe much younger u guys kinda rly are omg,0 cant morehonestly feel like ive enough this feel alone many ways life seems grim cruel worth fighting even special life gift something given us force eventually return it death inevitable way avoid longer feel comfort thinking fragile life bullshit end feeling dread overwhelming cant believe ive using fiction cope reality believe simple characters screen words paper one barriers keeping ending all also want fall low enough drugs shit mind long way access since know dealers want cry right since want live deep inside im afraid die ill take chances hope whatever waiting worse this please someone there know even know self sometimes feel like attention feels wrong want know quickest painless method use know bullet head quick enough noose overdose would painful many types medical pills disposal knife neck also seems painful,1 "Watching UP again with my brother, lmao. I looove this movie! ",0 caregiving i couldn t bear to watch it and i thought the ua loss wa embarrassing,0 apartment fire not also bad apartments fire alarm went im locked room degrees wait minutes firemen show to wrong building realize door bedroom somehow locked key inside leasing office opens hours im stuck couch also fire,0 @FranciscoLWhite I'm actually one of the lucky ones. My boss and co workers are very mental health positive with a 'take care of you first' attitude to everything. I work as a support technician at a children's hospital and I have PTSD and constantly battling depression and Anxiety.,1 Hooooray! @felixkat452 just made me breakfast Now time for star wars revenge of the sith ,0 just joined twitter and doesnt know anyone yet,0 getting ready to hit the sack... 3:15 comes around pretty quick! #fb,0 why do i feel worthless,1 jokerrrr it stillllll hasn t arrived,0 there must hell lot people world like me want die got gutsim k years old feel lucky im going ivy league school fall full ride yet ive never felt alone life feel unwanted burden unneeded times imagine downing bottle sleeping pills hiding closet slitting wrists cant work courage it im wishing maybe hopefully bus car comes hits kill myself groups ive never felt alone feel like im always odd one out outcast rang true past couple weeks participated precollege summer program month ago feel one notices me everyone group best friends felt like always outlier couple days ago student meetup area bunch us going college live area meet up hung group guys trying flirt one girl ignored even try carry conversation even notice there huge blow self esteem ive never felt ugly kept asking myself what wrong me feel matter much effort put try socialize put there guy ever going interested me nobody likes me im jealous pretty girls especially people surrounded lot friends everything going them dont people lucky whereas luck keeps fucking life thought college going differen feel like high school again high school hell terms loneliness ive never boyfriend never kissed college even starts many students already know hooking up feel pessimistic prospects making friends starting relationship even family feel like im outcast kindhearted family sometimes feel like im odd one out im one struggling depression rebellious parents understand depressed tell go help myself long time ive struggled feelings worthlessness loneliness low selfesteem issues seem mundane struggling loneliness life maybe killing seem bad all one would cry anyway try things love reason cant even work motivation that used love writing stories cant anymore feel im good enough everyday heavy feeling feel like crying reason im pretty sure one days cause death going redflag feel like im caught sort perpetual sadness comes goes never leaves entirely,1 first wet dream really really bad timing st need include background info girlfriend years going college musical theater order get college theres tons auditions go super stressful also job taking relatively difficult classes school knowing this backed settled hanging weekends sometimes every weekend i also taking home learning person relatively little contact us aside nightly calls well nowhere around christmas asked could take break super stressed out said ok said would week tons work do didnt mind want happy well weeks went got thinking happy felt great reason would feel stressed relationship felt guilty cheating approached asked admitted maybe started feeling something one coworkers fuck ok im upset see spending hours someone times week might make feel something towards them especially never see current partner explained wasnt mad didnt tell issue know start spending time her plus im person school ill start seeing talking daily accepted points wanted decide wanted continue start something coworker fuck x well days every single day ive wet dream her wtf never get them now body bring right im hurting most tldr dumb stupid horny teenage brain kicks im note think good chance getting back her weve never big argument treat wonderfully though im hard time competing someone sees frequently also im hoping none friends see this do hi thomas,0 fuck fuck fuck fuck everythingive failed woken care parents people say people attempt redflag regret ever say ass ive daydreaming felt finally think going free counted pills made sure lethal amount gobbled down extreme nausea didnt even bother me thought abyss would scary even tho unconscious remember peaceful felt felt content regret failing seeing affected them things bad attempt die part survived,1 want kill myselfhello there long time dark place cant see light constantly hear thoughts want talk anyone hate living hate myself existence meaning wish could die partner love together long time years but craziness driving away know loves me cant bare anymore know became horrible person redflag attempt years ago today thinking it took sleeping pills want pain go away currently taking antidepressants therapy seem help came place friends wanted someone know want die,1 im donei feel tired hopeless even slightest reason live im escaping pain over everything breaking life lasts two months im tired feel like cant go futher pointless im tired past fucked up present fucked future fucked up ive also fucked every possible relation anybody one believes nobody realizes close death actually is makes wanna redflag even more prove everyone joking all also get relief,1 Heading back to the apartment. Wanna get some rest with this cool rainy weather! ,0 show wonderful best writing ever seen brilliant directing dvid trainer also directed another smart television series called boy meets worldbr br this show dought one greatest like threes company roseanne famous cosby show television long time comebr br from perfectly crafted jokes great performances would dream wonderful show people lived seventies people didnt show appeals young young heart perfect show,0 life summed song lyrics never failed fail damn auto bot post isnt short,0 wild way takashi miikes later films good crime drama br br the basic story story cop japanese cop chinese parents trying take coming chinese mobster complicating things younger brother acting lawyer villain gang film actually much complicated several complications keep things interesting distract things central narrative thrust complication loss way hour film makes less great filmit good one definitely worth seeing especially mind frantic pacebr br a word warning violence happens explosive nasty also semigraphic depictions gay sex thats cup tea proceed cautionbr br ,0 alone foreign countrylast week went first holiday overseas croatia remember happy year once thought chance ive met two friends online one poland one croatia since work live remotely really friends two always past years even isolated last time hang friend march year went back old town grew saw old friends really excited meet spend time finally ive waited past years booked flight poland talking friend said could meet week stay stay place paid changed mind want meet me booked flight croatia soon land poland talking friend zagreb said shed like meet hang weekends spend weeknights together landing zagreb catching taxi studies waited till finished unfortunately there happened next two nights planned meet would wait rain her every time show argument ended blocking ive sitting zagreb apartment last week ive barely left motivation im scared im scared city live away society ive gotten used member society keeping cant bring go town see sites relying show around really whole reason came spend time two friends ended blocking me fault would get angry situation take anger think every right block never talk again hurts came far spent much money meeting friends even give chance meet ive suicidal past years ive never really wanted go it always wished would involved accident sit foreign country alone one two people always past years left really want end all want anymore one really care im gone tried tell blocked fault guess believe would something like that im tired done wanted spend time friend,1 familys staging intervention tonight know say still feel like tryingtheyre picking couple hours its pm est right now one told it sister said want try giving back control life also put club car cant drive anywhere suffering lot indignities right poor choices example sleep room yearold nowhere put stuff sounds like big deal least place stay still makes feel like child unemployed broke while phone shut off missed call could landed job told sister said could asked help phone bill problem feel like asked help directly could always really hard me told siblings able pay bills jack shit it cars booted think ive never reached whole thing really humiliating really whiny bitch try looking outside wow take intervention seriously suffering more ways petty ones ive listed obviously years little pissed off calming down ive posted before theres little history there httpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsfbqi_dont_think_trying_is_worth_it_for_any_reason_at edit thanks everyone wrote im heading meeting check post later little better prepared collected grateful people talk spectacle begins sw really amazing place edit im back man weird might post little description respond couple posts there edit thank everybody communitys kindness support really touching time read bit attempt sleep ill check thread tomorrow throw cents got them,1 @OrganGrinder_ settle and i are still on our ncis marathon. ,0 whinging my client amp bos don t understand english well rewrote some text unreadable it s written by v good writer amp reviewed correctly,0 though movie cheesiness best pulled perfectly movie without doubt considered modern classic basically two kinds movies like movies depth chick flicks must blame wife this mindless comedies sit back relax movie perfect example latterbr br a friend mine turned movie shortly release considering somewhat shallow said me youve got see movie type movie foregoing insult started watching know mentioned ramones million times actually see them said hey ramones friend replied i know real band moment glorybr br this movie though somewhat dated must see ramones fans anyone else matter,0 tellyoursonthis it s called depression anxiety and stress in the west black magic someone want you harm while we don t consider other people s action and thought s to be evil or the reason for our misfortune,1 @Adgeee13 lauren momberger! she loves harry! ,0 boys locker room heaven,0 "I guess it's meant to be, you and this depression lonely together forever.",1 dont know deal suicidal thoughtsi ptsd go fight flight mode whenever im outside im constant stress feel underdeveloped age im supposed job travel independently cant drive struggle leave place im ruining sex life scatter brained planet dying im contributing destruction future looks pretty bleak love people around good time burden people depending much ive suicidal past couple weeks feel like im wasting peoples time money,1 i have a severe problem socially and going out in public i can talk to people on no problem but when i have to be around stranger in public or just a bunch of people i think everyone is looking at me or making fun of me and my anxiety will be so bad i start to walk weird af and it make people notice me even more and i just dont even wan na leave the house anymore i literally cant walk in a straight line when i have to walk by other people especially if they are with friend idk what to do anymore,1 getting older feels bad man friends started last year elementary school already week since weve seen first time summer brake found everyone feels same wont enjoy school trips boys fun anytime want children live calmly care nothing yeah children feel empty kind sad figuring out turning isnt far awayyou considered adult age country dont know handle rn,0 mizzzidc imagine making sacrifice just to raise a child and said child flip up at you like this because of a sneaker she s gon na get back an average parent might go into depression,1 katyrullman this is why you need to not be over in the old world i miss hanging out and being awkward with you,0 hello ppl sorting new tell something new abt day interesting abt yourself,0 know closing eyes sleep higher chance fall asleep compared opening eyes thank later,0 want die dont want leave friendokay long story short wanna kill myself mean thats sub exists right incase anyone wants know im nineteen ive pretty much felt way since thirteen fourteen ive browsing sub finally thought would post moved university september found amazing friends truly greatful for honestly reason im somewhat know issues life share good people relate also dont wanna make worse mentally talking shit time honestly im rambling reason im still alive honestly feel like friend would kill feel like would did,1 anyone else dealing autoimmune issues feeling close edgei vasculitis cause determined autoimmune optometrist thinks may multiple sclerosis referred neuro ophthalmologist cancel appointment due expense know really multiple sclerosis theres something else happening like vasculitis affecting brain feels like endless list symptoms whats worse health issues visible like eczema petechiae vasculitis least internal hide pretend outside everythings okay im struggling winter settled in ive felt increasingly hopeless future day gone on currently im dark without even starlight im wishing wake tomorrow pondering hurting potentially killing do hard handling things remembering disappointment everyone,1 rare get opportunity review film imdb relates life close way however someone living cerebral palsy albeit less severe michael one main characters film wish give film free pass tackles subject thats rarely approached is normally treated pofaced seriousness minor problems film id like address first people clear situation clouded judgement overall excellent film br br parts felt unashamedly crowdpleasing expense realism pound every time wellmeaning member public mentioned electricwheelchair racing me id much richer man speaking personally fits public perception deal disadvantages rather reality actually goes on thing spending time watching disabled people go pub big deal us actually it much might admirable outsiders looking in appreciate previously sheltered perspective michael still think hed concentrating enjoying experience rather reflecting big deal actually there first place such amount time spend seeing fun felt like bit muchbr br felt terminal nature rorys illness brought attention far late meaning used cheap sentimental device come pair rather something everybody knew along going dealt withbr br to balance criticisms dish heap praise well although thought scenes showing getting grips normal life touch overdone script also ventured tricky places expected comes lot credit so instance raising issue love relationships showing daily apparatus often used aid assist lives non ablebodied people also despite blunt emotional shock tactic death sprung upon us movie whole far less sappy anyone right expect type films bebr br brenda fricker performing variations role capably autopilot seems like years robertson mcavoy share special interaction must noted inside im cartwheels group people somewhere finally made film justice lust life many disabled persons,0 life friendsnothing look forward to im poor lived trailer park life friends abandoned me im like one step away slitting fucking throat,1 @AnnablazE_ Its just small depression ,1 throat is so raw she can not sleep,0 every attempt getting soundboard failing tips websites applications something use soundboard im legit annoyed point username checks hard,0 todayis final knife back im tiredjust let pass away peace im tired fam job friends nothing even want live me still here make pass next birthday ill better dead im sure plenty people happy im gone pile crap anyways fucking tired life,1 officialprofoz she sed puerto rican,0 please help mei feeling right now big depression top love life broke two weeks ago already wanted die right breakup tonight fight wants cut contact want live anymore cant even talk him find worth it never want go pain again want hear get better right now really dont know anymore feel like going outside hang tree right now,1 family fucking insensitive dont care uncle assaulting mei raped piece shit pedophile uncle barely anything done it thought restraining order dont tell shit always invite over let around young nieces nephews cousins dont fucking care hes family hes struggling make ends meet whatever actually pay work around house fucking tell parents sister makes uncomfortable sister doesnt care problem dont get piece shit used touch kid too get bad anxiety looking him fucking triggers end come home house knowing im going run rapist day not dont know fuck anymore one listen me make feel like im crazy one wanting come over make feel like shit suggesting ask leave parents solution stay house leaves go hours end unless im work shouldnt leave anyways dont know fuck much anxiety rn want fucking cut hate everything feel sick,1 day guys great year reddit lol,0 weird dream last night forgot typing,0 love boys boys boys boys boys adore god im sure im horni boys rlly cutest things earth,0 is sad coz alison s leaving england to france tonight,0 "@emkattt Personally, Red Rock Deli chips are a rip off - if I pay for them that is :O think i might try that flavour tomorrow ",0 "@tamas82 I guard a house, like I said Bit dangerous? Maybe...But nothing bad hasn't happend, so...and I don't like fighting at all :-D",0 daysthis summer i yo uni student came conclusion want end life also set date myself new years eve last new years eve whole thing fleshed kinda rushed it year want to im coming terms dying takes couple moments brave one last time least time life get things done right mess up im trouble kinda scares me sadly share anyone life except great friends made internet family strong distaste me friends quite alone considering think internet friends substitute friends actually hang with one might wondering posting this valid question last days surreal amazon packets ingredients demise arrived today made feel strange deep down like punch guts opened box im debating really want this promised new years eve nothing changed fact things got considerably worse even always told miracle happens life makes total wont it nothing sort happened family cut contacts former friends ill alone christmas birthday th im welcomed home anymore im stuck apartment town know nobody h away home hate rest life cant new years eve,1 damn maybe use sometime occasionally homework done homework year yet ampxb online school point ampxb thats probably im barely passing swedish,0 fuck greta thunberg know posted video mocking governments spending space exploration want mock mocking military spending u stupid piece shit srry needed vent,0 super smash bros us presidents sounds like fun imo,0 mikebreed it all up to u mike i understand what you say but i think it u that need to change my opinion but yours is good too lol,0 why can t i breathe yes an over exaggeration in term but still i hate being ill,0 much money get from thats mine spend whatever not like parents savings meroth ira etc grandparents parents birthdays holidays etc would work tbh aware terrible sounds need already get tons grandparents id rather fun stuff friends,0 gon na try to get some sleep in this hotel room,0 anybody vent too idk cant find anywhere else,0 i m so fucking done with everything what s the point of life nothing i ever do will make a permanent impact nothing anyone ever doe will make a permanent impact sure you can be famous you can discover something important but what s the point all we have are our silly little life on our silly little planet and it s all going to be destroyed someday nothing is going to last even if we escape the expanding sun billion year from now if we still exist even if we flee to another place in space we re all just eventually going to die out all information and evidence of our existence will die out i could live any life i wanted i could be rich and famous painfully average or i could waste away all my life but it doesn t matter because no matter what i do nothing will ever be worth it what s the point of trying if i m just going to die everyone always say well enjoy the moment appreciate the little thing yeah no that s bullshit why should i enjoy anything if i won t even remember it after i die why should i do anything if nothing matter sure i can enjoy the moment but what s the point everything in the universe is going to die out some day and then it will just keep expanding and it ll be dark and cold and nothingness why did we even exist in the first place everything is so complicated i never asked to live but sometimes i want to live after i die because there ha to be something anything other than this i am so fucking desperate i really hope there s something after i die but at the same time i hope there s nothing because i m so tired of existing there s no point in it there s no point in anything and i can t enjoy life anymore because these thought keep coming up what do i do,1 ex committed redflagso wont short post serious comments only ex died three months ago well two weeks away four relationship complex best others names tattooed ourselves insanely close and probably person ive ever fully let life miss him im alone grieving im ex people tell worst things example wasnt fault glad happened someone else imagine would dealt better off think things add anger hurt ex addict alas too though im sober trouble bit sometimes good person someone loved quite dearly think people feel justified saying things past led redflag im say absolutely doesnt justify say think towards me also know played role hadnt broken really truly seven months seven months relapsed got girl let walk him beat down addicts go living life hell understand did dont questions knew well knew me im given privilege able openly speak him hurt dont know ill stop grieving song comes ball eyes out pull letters soul burns course im recently married too husband though good man cant relate worst experience life thats coming woman whos beaten abused drugs hated herself survived suicidal tendencies raped seven wrecks lost mother age pity party ive sufferings know pain cant seem deal death im alive theres good bad days comes waves realized lot things poorly treated years afraid actually love stay left always thought better found husband ex well let go always give freedom express free always said wouldnt settle less right wont downplay love husband either hes wonderful really is im thankful him think stems closeness shared ex life similar mine worlds mixed eerie ways last time saw hugged me said loved always husband messed would beat ass hurts over think mom telling mustnt wanted piece shit like broke upset was planned marry me think good times laughs talks know ive aged years months anyone experienced anything similar,1 help me listen school understand memes really introduced internet earlier sent cursed meme school group chat saw it please help me,0 god cant wait move go prestigious university big city bunch rich kids fall love billionares son dad lowkey mafia leader son gonna take couple years fall love anyways rival mafia kidnaps order leverage son kills guy saves fall love kids im lawyer even tho im married leader biggest mafia north america thats hot part,0 im living ghosti dead died years ago thing shell was im hell think redflag attemp years ago actually worked hell im living in,1 free promised freedom lie,1 im gonna commit lonely luck women run dry im years old pls help,0 people keep saying itll get better better isnt happening amp want die everydayidk itll get better even means tbh like sure ill go therapy still want kms therapist sucks constant state,1 botherit seems like one night im great next night things utter shit cant keep fulfilling relationship anyone friends lovers you maybe can appreciate friends people care me regardless feel love world put love it im growing estranged people like theyre black hole emotions screaming feelings sucking mine never letting go consuming efforts nonefforts makes feel bother acting happy laidback motivated get return shallow people see it people care respect seeing right thinly veiled act something me maybe im intense person anyone wanting know gtgtmeltlt gets scared away maybe im much roller coaster one moment this next moment that fucking know know reason theres real point anymore something based personality am born as cant change single fucking thing it supposed change gtgtmeltlt and even could trust me thats lead great places would change to much add family understand me parents think theyre whats best me really theyre bad me wanting everything want saying whats best me therapy went far meds fine still feeling hopeless defeated unexplainable depression real realization im person people enjoy around nothing did born as oh mention theyre throwing academic support putting alternative programs want confront agony face face school trapped halfassed hybrid semischool ive thinking final solution months now something keeps holding back im tired throwing life moral tolerance waning every day much longer restraint all day please im begging you help me tldr whats point living personality sucks im constantly aware it,1 another shoe throwing incident journalist jarnail singh threw a shoe at home minister chidambaram bt missed target,0 unable cry months idk went wrong felt anything months piled up well still feel good feel horrible little bit better tried best cry forced it cried like mins eyes got pretty tired though physical weakness need take nap help distract myself planning way suicide really hard pick method felt redflaged saw easy end pain cannot keep anymore redflag there used it brought old memories back cried out guess sleep help clear rest whatever one day tomorrow worse one day crying helped,1 "I am very, very sleepy.. And I am going to bed ",0 this ha become a coping strategy for me i always did it to some extent i had many other ocd tendency a a teen but those went away pretty quickly after i tried to stop them but i ve become so anxious lately that i m starting to scar my face i know it s gross so please don t hate on me just wondering if this is something that anyone else with anxiety experience thank you,1 join skribbl httpsskribblioyycucnknqym,0 one straight like damn everyone cute girls,0 "Mom's depression tied to kids' emotional, intellectual development – Reuters - http://mommytimes.org/feeds/items/moms-depression-tied-to-kids-emotional-intellectual-development-reuters/ …",1 "Shame and uncertainty are only a few short steps away from depression and anxiety. Separately or together, those emotions can drive you to the brink. They can blot out everything else in your life and literally make you crazy. -Lewis Howes",1 two cents strangeras title says two cents here know depressed broken feel utterly worthless nobody loves cares you yet despite that are still alive stared darkness abyss witnessed horrors lived them yet despite still stand absolutely incredible mean realize kind strength takes something like that face nightmares unimaginable horror every single day choose keep pushing along situation right would opt out bet many others would agree yet stand covered scars blisters wounds continuing march forward hope someday even isnt today realize amazing able that fact alone even able get bed morning testament strength seriously yall strength greater even worlds strongest person brilliant human ever live keep pushing on im dang proud you gosh dang wish absolute best hope day becomes even tad bit better was keep amazing shining example from stranger internet,1 @britneyspears thanks for following me back ,0 ReCoVeRiNg FrOm ThE lOnG wEeKeNd ,0 no phantasy star yesterday going to work,0 living dream fucked lifei cant believe different life compared year half ago studying uni internship film company loved gotten accepted dance team training gigscompetitions guess fucked started counselling near end degree started confront feelings gender disphoria counselling realised wanted badly transition tell loved ones feel accepted ready to went hill graduated getting month extension able graduate friends dance crew took break stopped dancing isolated room continued binge eating which always turn trying finish uni deadlines worked part time job free time would watch shows phone spend wage food couple months id put kilos completely given following passions dance filmvfx degree go make worse weight made look much feminine fast forward got laid full time night shift job ive put another kg given hopes ever trasitioning anything life want find another mindless nightshift job make ends meet untill ive properly planned redflag worked guts,1 moar updates thank yousup rsw wanted say feel bit better today realize certain situations tend blow things proportion head certain things people trigger me happens stop end spiraling pretty badly realized last therapy session often reactions things triggered less actual thing said done anyway ive posting lot lately ive gotten really kind responses people also wanted say thank you may good accepting help moment believe mean appreciate it edited cuz fail grammars,1 career disappointment iti going get job ive dreamed about training for years fucking loser everyone feels sorry me even boyfriend scared me profound humiliation ive ever experienced want disappear since cant simply disappear want kill myself way minimally disturbing people stupid enough still care ive disappointed everyone need stop disappointing people ive researching obtain gun thats next step life hard continue,1 "@nkaranja anytime, my pheasant friend... anytime ",0 im running optionsso summer years old suicidal time acted upon suicidal thoughtsa lot psychiatric hospital times months put shit ton medications made things worse eventually taken medications homebound school forced inhome therapy times week inhome therapy wasnt bad ended really liking therapist inhome therapy lasted months really helped get better while although lot lately ive getting really depressed pretty often like used to depression suicidal thoughts relapsed cutting last week clean november last year progress gone could always go parents concerned went thing age last summer cant go act like thwy dont care im sounding like broken record theyre tired hearing brush off tried telling one night thought needed go back hospital mom got pissed ignored me liketonight told mom feeling depressed disconnected reality time smoking cigarette play dumb ass games tablet even look tried tell felt told its probably youre bored end discussion said didntnthink case nodded head playing fucking game tablet dont know do im sure know help anymore dont remember shit therapist told months ago ive tried telling parents think need help dont fucking listen used listen changed feel like way get head try attempt redflag again,1 feel pathetic for past almost years ive depressed anxious wanting commit redflag goal dead end summer tonight would perfect night ive looked cant dying scares fuck me dont know feels like worst case scenario go hell plus attempt fails could get brain damage dont know fucking do feel pathetic pussy every option seems painful risky wish could fucking go like that nah plus id like possibility living incase know im asking much something simple redflag im scared dont know do feel like escape death moment feel like without im pathetic fucking dgy tn moment im praying fucking aneurysm kill me hate much dont know im fucking reddit looking essentially nothing ,1 hi im high home hippie homie double yippie kai yay girlfriend blowing,0 @orange24 that's fine unless you don't mind your very 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Drink responsibly. ,0 deep intellectual rant ok honestly feel like ppl born selfish like u met single person semi passiveaggressive also anyone know thing called moral realism rlly fucking scary thinking abt that anyway philosopher said ppl good things feel good abt themselves kind agree with im history hw rn take look fucking world wars proof humanity whole lowkey selfish,0 proposal anyone wanna get married dating nothing go adventures kids settle cuz,0 scream void aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa thank time,0 movie better expected think deserved r rating though ive seen pg films worse language violence found movie entertaining enjoyed it person dissects everything might find lot wrong it take face value think find entertaining,0 workouts home lose weight im weigh pounds im doctors right scale said pounds honestly im disappointed myself knew gained weigh recently didnt think pounds thought time lose weight get fit dumbbells home highest pound dumbbells also straight dumbbell bar thats pounds weigh bench home lose weight,0 mind feels like scary placei broke boyfriend feel like im falling apart feel like im crazy feel like patterns burden loved ones want want live ive depressed before even still around see dying mind need help,1 broke bug rule minei m cried someone yesterday close fuck supportive im embarrassed told dont want anymore im sick saying im okay people worry pay attention it told sit town hoping bloke come beat up starved days laying bed staring ceiling wanted die right there dont know im better worse it,1 three months talking one friend could call free pm am due atts gophone policies whenever could get away it texting nokia tracphone the ancient indestructible brick phone sister lashing ungrateful allowed come use internet triggered snapping back due to something cant remember just stopped asking ended losing contact everyone one friend could talk maybe twice week couple hours shed try keep apprised stuff going folks phonecalls ended bring spark bloomed us couple but enough negativity feelings selfhatred selfdisgust believing everything father dumped slowly took over,1 mean anything anybody future everyday hell cannot handle anymore feel like one escape everyday get closer closer one days going happen feel like death way,1 @hlbllygrl your kidding it's saturday!?! that's it I'm leaving work now! ,0 "bought apple for dinner,,hope my stomach slim faster,,hehehe... ",0 @divasteph ...Thanks for asking Hey! Can you check your DMs on your phone?,0 actual dick terrible httpsyoutubemlmshkypsi httpsyoutubemlmshkypsi httpsyoutubemlmshkypsi httpsyoutubemlmshkypsi httpsyoutubemlmshkypsi,0 surgery three days instead want die firstlife worth living full stop desire get better surgery days time going make suffering life worth time need find final method cannot fail im interested recovery anything hope me story violently abruptly dying wasting potential pot gold end rainbow want sadness wasting ripple forever beautiful nothing else matters achieve it help find right way,1 pem pem quite frequent and sometimes much more intense than mine but it look that the only important thing for me is to alleviate my depression symptom whatever the consequence,1 watching Kendra! I sooo wanna get a stripper pole in my house! lol ,0 Roasting marshmellows. ,0 hours historythe belt note ready ive given precious clothes shoes survived properly arranged far know homeworks done except leaving im excited years mess suffer die later shorten suffering die terms wish guys success whatever direction went take care guys,1 lives outside group often coming far away go group try friends them feel like theyre going want hang dorky year old idea wed even anyway also tried bumble bff make friends found constant swiping texting really boring depressing theres much bland small talk person make,0 mae fitch you keep deleting my number,0 well that sucked,0 Incoming ,0 had a psychiatrist appointment today she said she recommends lexapro to me but i am scared of the side affect and wether not ill gain lose weight if anyone in here is on lexapro could you please tell me what youve had a side affect and wether or not it worked for you thank you,1 i m tired of trying to be happy i m tired of seeing the light at the end of the tunnel after how many half glass is it acceptable to see them a half empty literally i have so much to say and i can t say a word small rant pardon my sudden lapse,1 see point anymoremy life never good seems im years old guy since yo watch brother drug addiction break mothers heart year year od times started selfharming years old ages years old literally friendmy neighbor mom super controlling never let go kids houses everyone school bullied quite shy bad sports years old met girl became bff also made friends ppl told girl loved her ended destroying friendship transfer different school started cutting way much suicidal lost best friend friends made graduated alone since starting college mom still super controlling struggle sexuality never dated much seem end bad girls except one meet perfect wonderful died stroke months started dating disease called avm still miss see parents regularly happy them live hour away recently started dating girl never felt connect someone cheated boss ended hospital it months still cutting it think redflag constantly never seem able sleep life never seems get better hope immediately taken me like cant control like feeling like ghost robot im told never noticed never anyone share pain true empathy know truly feel feel alone sorry ranting keep thoughts head day,1 low iq adhd cant remember chemistry ive read didnt pay attention class feel like loser rn idea im doing dont know im posting here hope fade away someday never comeback want exist painful nice suck playing minecraft too builds sucks couldnt beat game without friend everything lol even though netherite sword suck killing mobs dumb ahhhh wish wasnt born parents cruel bring world evil iq cant logically think anything want go somewhere comeback mom knows im loser stopped bothering me dumb brain makes kind posts fail exam year thanks making far imagine im real person ill annoying right cant really explain whats exactly mind thats reason consider alone forever bye,0 tired trying people care getting better want alive all making hate people around every time say need around something sorts fucking care selfish choose forced alive bullshitwhy fucking hard able kill myself deserve right body life people try stop me hope god figure today last day here tired,1 updated the MAC. cool new programs. ,0 lwmedium it is apparently the chinese government put pressure on the sa one not to let him in whole peace conference wa canceled,0 dont motivation world moreidk yall,1 I can't go to sleep... so so SO hyper! lol ,0 crush usually sits lunch table alone say mean theres people around usually talk anyone phone,0 want say thank youmy brother jin created account struggled depression undiagnosed lurker subreddit took life brother always confident person ever met strived help others way possibly could personal demons took better him always open never thought would go far end life would like thank everyone posted continued support others made cling final year life anyone feels like taking life perspective please speak family express struggle something could help with love baby brother dearly miss every day every day reminded kindness intelligence angry decision annoyed closure issue anyone come help please know bleak outlook may seem people spoke to could help darkness,1 heysoi things mind sorry bad english much sadness inside me feel like right feel sad bad feel like nothing feel better nothing anyone help me either ever recall geniunely happy never thought before know times felt glad maybe even cheerful never lasted everything went back gray that happiness really necessary even possible me become worst posible version me cant explain why people loved me love anymore unlovable maybe am ones still do even like me likelove facade everyday mask would go away knew real me broken unstable real me really need them want die want live life way want leave brothers right know want stay either wish wasi know far drinking tea reading amazing book actually making feel something forget worldi even feel anymore then coming back home maybe alone maybe company proud happy home happy place spend hours daydreaming nothing daydream about life better never better anything imaginary mind could come with like that tomorrow woke everything keep sadness nothing make think maybe current life bad maybe wasting time maybe someday happy way spent lived best years nothing cant feel anything good ampxb ampxb,1 whats inconvenience thats bad really annoy you first thing think browser computer automatically switches yahoo manually change,0 @strainprint More great media coverage on study results obtained from @Strainprint data analysis #anxiety #depression #medicalmarijuana #medicalcannabis http://flip.it/aiin6b ,1 far parody films go worth time energy recent resurgence horrid parodies date movie comebacks breath fresh air come back rediscover truly funny farce like johnny dangerouslybr br after mother end medical problems little johnny goes work mob fallows series gags work are however occasional flops foreign gangster cant master american language profanity wise least rival gangster penchant shooting mouth once younger brother da get johhny dangerously hot young starlet hot affections johnny busybr br and viewer busy laughing part every gangstermovie clich skewered talented cast decent writingbr br not perfect long shot definitely good smile bad day,0 look like the first stage of depression for most people wa triggered by mishandling by parent,1 assy mcgee outofcontrol hardnosed detective based countless examples late th century police dramas twist assy literally walking buttocksbr br the cheap lowbrow facade show belies cleverness hidden satire say assy devoid fart jokes toilet humor used sparingly enough elicit consistent laughs groans eyerolls title sequence program demonstrates clever subtle humor used throughout sequence consists panning photos city set jazzy s cop theme one photo police cruiser shown camera zooms front license plate holder vacant meaningless zoomin satirizes production typical ss cop drama and incidentally makes laugh every timebr br all typical characters included frustrated police chief cant control assy loyal minority partner acts foil assys recklessness regular cops detest assys means accounted hilarious satires typical police dramabr br the voice acting primarily performed larry murphy nothing less spectacular assys voicebreathy gruff bit drunken sluris clever unique ranks alongside alltime greats like stewie griffin family guy homer simpson simpsons though voice slurred diction somehow clear easy understand nice change adult swim program voices often require closed captioning understandbr br besides fantastic production voice acting script also hilarious assys no nonsense directness fuels humor particularly interactions citizens outside police forcebr br if access adult swim comedies assy mcgee certainly worth watching episode clocks mere minutes really little lose,0 voted movie minor childish flaws that movie one favorites entertaining say least shooting scenes ridiculous though think gackt who wrote book takes little bit much matrix obsession it seems like enemies stands therewaiting get shot at however movie touching always makes cry lot great humor makes laugh well gackt superb actor must sayhe shows much emotion hydes first time acting okay role fits him wang lee hom absolutely great whole cast would say perfect movie miss it regret it,0 ap world history teacher redditor school went back today anyways got th period class ap world randomly starts talking ab reddit shes also got nukacola bottlecap clock apparent shes huge nerd pretty fun school year least class,0 gmg 00 lol omg don t tempt me i just started p90 hour ago i need to at least be good for a day shoulda asked me yesterday,0 im giving lifeman listen shout countless people yesterday internet strangers fucking amazing last three years hell ringer back back deaths house burning christmas homeless child pregnant cheated on bastard baby car lied over leaving great job start business money issues while abused brutally raped molested child went foster care tried self medicate sex life kick fucking rocks refuse give fuck up universe wants going send someone kill themselves im fucking quitter ive lowest low dragged two kids skin teeth body capable ive done depression ride shoulders next years idc ill depressed im going function might sad anxious wreck wont loser cant control life control choices death final dont reset button come back want even find minutes happiness next years life thats five minutes wouldnt died fuck world prepared im coming you,1 best independent film went see wind recommendation friends caught dances films festival la last summer great scary well made film score amazing cant wait see next movie,0 planim going college september care grades im going try make last years fun possible im killing college im responsible im lazy piece shit wholl never fit world last own im always thats gotta end im gonna cut people life need alone guilt it isnt need alone kill doesnt hurt anybody else ive waiting kill years going really suck losing friends im good needs done wish better wish things different wish didnt emptiness heart there going anywhere nothing fills it fuck none shit matters anyway,1 sooni think killing every single day always sinking feeling back mind deep chest every time something happens think automatically wont matter month everythings numb like im movie know people wouldnt care dont many friends ive moved home nothing feels worth anymore even feel somewhat normal always comes back dont think ill make christmas,1 anyone ever gotten spark backwhile highschool constant interaction coupled long distance girlfriend gave loads energy would get xbox yelling attack names narutostorm friends irl made alot people smile acted well graduated highschool keep keeping contact friends girlfriend broke up grandma killed end year around time moms bipolar disorder got control started drugs practically babysit her ended falling asleep wheel car busting headlight whole time ive room playing dragonball fighterz work fedex wake am everyday go work everyone asks im ok people around inside joke depression reflects face honestly idea do ive never face face relationship ive lost depression wake feel horrible almost driven road angry shitty self reflections times want energy back supposed do,1 feel unlovedhatedso im extroverted kid im rey depressed lonely put facade family friends acting happy know theyll never understand today feel like im gonna end all mother person literally half said hate you dont talk me supposed handle that dad sisters also dont like me youd think id friends online games right wrong im often called fag girl im preadolescent boy sound like yr old girl often take lengths rope lying around tie around neck know would feel like gives clarity closure everyone expects much yet preform miles,1 Serious question for my fellow depression sufferers. What are some techniques you use to keep going when you're not on medication? Because I find myself sliding back down the slope and my progress being reversed.,1 yeah parents antivaxx yes need help,0 know say talk toso wrote phone hours ago ive reading over thought would help write down but case every time ive tried made feel worse blindly paste it heres background unhappy person moved far away school excelled difficult program cheap well regarded univeristy day academic peers tell talented reason resent closer graduation drew depressed became drug alcohol abuse ways ive known cope problems took binging extreme ive become repressed withdrawn depressed ive failed classes took gpa semester ive fired job cant pay rent bills im facing eviction soon friends much im sure care want thing me im isolated insurance null void us obv cant even afford professional help wanted to ive called hotlines ive talked people free chat bs honestly people redflag text sites are trained put politely talked friends peers former coworkers former boss one seems help say thing either need nut shut up bad first place whole youre gonna okay im okay okay long remember one seem help want okay i dont know how think redflag day every day anyway rest post wrote phone sorry wasting time feel alone feel scared feel worthless feel like one knows much want die name long remember ive wanted kill myself like would could inflict kind pain onto people want dissapper never born never lived hard life family least acts like care amazing friends really life pretty good want live cant articulate feel way could never explain anyone around ive tried let alone phone possessive thought alive work hard miserable free anxiety depression consuming thought idea cant shake im down want die im happiest all fantasy idea could stop unhappy consuming rarely think anything else fall asleep like safety blanket encompassing me pretecting psyche irrepreble harm like shield matter fucked get head affect me later tldr suck,1 high blood pressure makes want kill myselfi outlined im feeling bad here httpswwwredditcomrselfcommentsibi_hate_summer_days_its_hot_im_in_pain_and_i_want since made post im feeling worse allergies high blood pressure making awake suffering like every day summer keep coughing time feels like something might pop head want sleep body let me every time go doctors theyre fucking clueless too cant figure spiking meds work right type this body feels stiff hands shaking sucks makes want kill myself worst part cant talk anyone nobody cares enough respond back try telling them,1 mileycyrus ouch mine too,0 @SabrinaL make sure you post that website to download the mixtape from. ,0 dear girls guy something nice call simp sometimes might be sometimes good deed,0 Do you struggle with Depression or Anxiety? Here is what @SummitRDU has to offer in the area of our G4 Recovery-Support Ministry: http://ow.ly/FDTI30hKiHJ  For a look at our curriculum check out @BradHambrick website here: http://ow.ly/ffSl30hKiMr ,1 michael winner probably best known revengethemed films death wish chatos land equally gifted director occult horror cinema the sentinel proves the sentinel based novel john konvitz also wrote screenplay clever immensely creepy religious chiller lover occult horror consider missing film obviously inspired successful occult classics rosemarys baby the exorcist the omen but far concerned also easily unsettling widely acclaimed films probably even creepierbr br allison parker christina raines beautiful young new york model traumatized events past yet willing marry lawyer boyfriend chris sarandon allison search apartment finds big incredibly nice one also affordable old mansion brooklyn new apartment however comes along bunch strange tenants sinister new neighbors soon become little bothersome alice may adequate plot synopsis would hate spoil films great moments give plot description say however the sentinel creepy effective film profits great cast well often bizarre constantly uncanny atmosphere fact director michael winner writer john konnvitz also acted producers certainly influence outcome film imaginatively photographed eerie old brooklyn mansion fantastic setting kind film mentioned above atmosphere obscure creepy film also includes several shockmoments genuine scares film features many sinister eccentric characters cast superb beautiful christina raines great role allison parker lovable yet cusp losing mind chris sarandon also good boyfriend successful lawyer supporting cast includes many big names christopher walken jeff goldblum jerry orbach beverly dangelo tom berenger becoming really famous cast also includes stars like ava gardner horror icon john carradine burgess meredith and personal favorite great eli wallach cynical homicide detective ive great fan director michael winner long time mostly films like death wish chatos land the sentinel yet another great film winners repertoire also proof man master hardboiled revengecinema also atmospheric occult horror all the sentinel creepy intelligent amazingly bizarre occult chiller highly recommended horror fans,0 sitting work reading postsso im sitting work reading posts make feel many things sadness numbness sick time people feel feel hate knowing people feel way wish could change that always scolded friends nice people want know why never want people feel feel never know someone going through moment nice someone change persons mind ending life hide depression least try family good friends know it dont know bad gets besides immediate family dont talk it cant words dont come mouth hate feeling pain suffocating hurts people try help dont understand unless go something similar every single day think death every single day never attempted redflag completely scenes crossed mind almost like visions want help help doesnt even help medications dont work me therapy doesnt feel fucked up feel defeated im lazy im tired dont energy care anything exhausting vent many others are truly feel like would like end life soon understand extent feel in way would love talk you love helping others maybe help other may bit hypocritical dont really consider bc dont think could ever truly go final punch remember people care even dont think do sometimes monsters head want feel otherwise try constantly tell tomorrow new day maybe something positive come about,1 feel relaxed hurt myselfi feel relaxed sleepy cut myself pain goes away slowly fall asleep afterwards relaxing thing cry makes tired bet death far relaxing would great could slow painless death thought dying makes really happy im awake feel worthless hurt feel like im actually accomplishing something ive kind worried though think death family think loves me find hard happy know do,1 @MihaiDragan wow! nu stiam ca citesti amdoar18ani.ro ,0 of everything hating being alive hating myself being bitter and lonely i see it only getting worse i want to just die,1 find comfort knowing die eventually mustsometimes appreciating mortality comforting knowing matter eventually me want die glad least know one day ill get want,1 online friends leave everyone dont even know happened maybe me fault go never return why two friends disappeared month close nd one really really close make mistake doxx unknowingly wanna let out,0 swear friends literally say anything you say joke cant get mad literally got told best friend hot wasnt front group people cant upset joke like ok,0 morning everyone stuck in registration for a while then assembley nayyy,0 "I edited over 400 photos, blogged ( http://tr.im/funnyface ), and took care of some emails. If only I was this productive all the time. ",0 passed drivers test today thats nothing else passed,0 im really stressed rn idk things going great life rn im happy ever problems yet feel really stressed idea,0 grr i want to keep reading but if i do i wont have anything left to read,0 saw anatomy came recently bought sequel watch lot foreign films various genres watch movies original language sure annoying know voices belong actors always seem cheerful like whole movie one big long toothpaste commercial something makes otherwise awesome movie seem horrible convert lot friends used think foreign films good north american films hollywood enough also translation never right literal screws vibe movie even basically saying thing watched anatomy week german subtitles roommate laptop want miss parts see subtitles typing mins begged let finish work start movie subtitles loved it movies awesome intellectual horror films kelly,0 waste spaceeveryday want floor swallow whole ive lost nearly everyone love cant handle anymore,1 My american visa was approved. YAY! ,0 "Having been in the PL & not involved in my lifetime, I've just been watching highlights of every Championship play off final game since 2005. And my god, the reward for winning is total ecstasy, the price for losing is suicidal depression, can't wait. (If we get there) UTV",1 jess t they have diff camp gahh they re all rural though woga woga and bathurst but they re the best advertising,0 Depression and drug addiction dont blend in,1 im tired seeing chadwick boseman post every second ok sad guys stop flooding page him please mourn peace,0 send dunes yes want dunes sand send pictures curvy sand,0 yo neurodiverse people part lgbt like autistic people stuff like me think would good,0 small rant ok im extremely annoyedpissed grandma went stairs pretty quickly got bottom slipped fell instead nice asking ok instead goes dont slip mopped floors already fell told fell she says well shouldnt went flying stairs like that without hint care kicker is didnt know mopped fucking floor,0 cannot go studies would like people say work physically rest life life probably worse death believe life death fact go hell restrains me me life earth hell painless way kill yourself buy poison sometimes death best happen us,1 insomnia sucks sun rising didnt go sleep all im gonna tired day sleep schedule gonna fucked forever,0 july thtoday th anniversary losing father redflag every year fantasize something honor memory help people considering redflag never do always felt like could somehow share pain heart world nobody would ever end life prematurely again every year feel guilt able save father every year feel guilt able save you are ive drank whiskey like beginning every july th time ive made mind im going try tell you anybody care life anyone world care about please it cant fathom ways taking life change world life never same nothing good been miss father much would give anything back years wish could explain it hope somebody reads decides give life least one day people would leave behind know important really are fathers favorite band steely dan when demon door morning more major dude would tell you,1 i have serious insomnia and messed up hour and anxiety i ve been given hydroxyzine in 0mg and mg for sleep and only x 0 mg xanax per month for anxiety a lot of the reason i can t just sleep is anxiety 0mg of hydroxyzine doesn t seem to work on me anymore mg knocked me out but i woke up extremely groggy with a fast heart rate and these effect lasted the rest of the day it feel horrible i could take the xanax but i m limited to tab a month it s fine for me anxiety wise i just feel chill with it but i ve heard valium might be better for sleep faster effect and last longer too i m wondering whether i should ask my psychiatrist to let me try valium instead but i have a feeling she will limit me to tab a month a well exceedingly strict rule for benzos here ha anyone tried both valium and xanax what wa the difference for you should i even give the hydroxyzine another try if so in what dosage,1 @Irish1974 Morning Irish BTW ,0 hate flat earthers dont know else say without bot removing posts,0 learned good friend tried commit redflag need advicehey all first off thank wonderful people take time busy lives help people struggling people friends struggle highly appreciated nevertheless days ago learned good friend mine tried commit redflag called ambulance pass away came shock hes really great happy funny guy guess statement you never know whats hiding behind someones smile greatly accurate told me good discussion ensured could always talk me listened describe situation essentially letting get things shoulder ampxb even though alive well something causes great concern seems fine it hes open tells people consider great friends someone asks tells them hold back also eerily comedic it cracks jokes it lot however use humor cover up sit serious conversation him opens up ampxb anyone opinions means ampxb edit forgot mention accepted seeing mental health professional,1 getting out of bed every day feel like a pain i feel like rotting in my bed all day even completing minor task make me feel drained and lethargic i m not sure who i am anymore i don t have the energy to talk to anyone yet i m desperate for love and affection i m trying all i can to cry but it s not working could someone kindly tell me if i m depressed,1 nothing doi work hours week money gone days waste juul pods food cant even afford haircut prioritize nicotine addiction look dont car walk minutes work back every day dont sheets bed im lazy piece shit cant get bed except work im parents dead sister inherited house sister lives boyfriend hate ive taken food without asking starving trying make dont get money house sell it sister working lawyer havent able talk friends nobody friends someone car money think killing every day walk past train tracks way work whats point living whenever sell house im sure ill homeless less year,1 please comment whatever want want feel popular,0 less month turn ive decided want,1 Perspective ,1 "@gfreibert aww poor little one. SHe prefers if you call it the princess room, pls and ty. ",0 believe might help lot people heremy name wil wheaton live chronic depression generalized anxiety ashamed wil wheaton httpslinkmediumcomkxsmlvks,1 cant muster courage kill myself afraideach day want jump skin life torturing day every day cant possibly make another week want die soo badly im really scared do,1 billed story steve biko played excellently denzel washington expect actually story donald woods played kevin klinebr br this undoubtedly making kline serious actor surprisingly good rolebr br attenborough gave sort direction expect often spectacular scenes masses sort get acrossbr br the remainder cast competent enough good job ends ultimately sad tale south africa still nowhere near distant past,0 @denifty That is what I was just thinking! It would ease my conscious for not getting the deals done Good thinking! List my fav spots,0 sam piroton hope so i don t have an iphone lauraoliver,0 need friendsjust people talk,1 ive iti really life year old severely disabled multiple sclerosis patient diagnosed life sports athletics truly become blob lost job didnt technically lose it retirement age kind losing income reduced ive complete loser women rather waited hoped the one never showed ones eventually interested turned flat oh boy hell virgin days ago finally said fuck it hired escort went bare may contracted something know care hopes finding lover wife past stage anyway months increasingly unbearable pain went er mri taken back doctor said may herniated disc meaning surgery meaning kill now please sister surgery back herniated disc years back remember bad shape post surgery needed people help get bed go bathroom yet hernia returned live alone shit neighbors even report faggot shit punk bitch living upstairs precinct came door grabbed collar threatened fuck up years ago would broken arms rolled stairwell make example violated little fluffer keeps around wife got live for,1 crush asked out she find next episode your mom gei,0 happy fulfilled life want gonedisappear dear folks life carry us many directions yet battling specific issues namely year old female living abroad expat eastern europe undergone many challenging situations child sexual physical verbal abuse majority life aimlessly trying drown anger frustrations different ways relationships alcohol gaming changing country around mid s started picking pieces forming healthy individual ive read self help books visited therapy weekly basis year last years done always wanted fulfilled life goals ie got stable job nice flat renting still sustainable lifestyle good friends fulfilling hobbies ive learned piano practiced drawing visited every concert every band wanted which big deal me even sex interested lucky enough travel vast majority places wanted see everything up me say achieved one big wishes since early s healthy relationship become mother huge struggles sustain sort relationship ended alarming behaviour and course responsible nastiness wellbut never disrespected partners always tried hard perserve it therefore relationship life lasting least year ended either unwillingness move together extreme jealousy cheatingyou name it eventually made peace fact simply cut it done everything within power including long periods only looking anything actively getting younger plus according gynecologist would difficult get pregnant anyway want disappointment therefore rather volunteered local shelter helped people making lives better free time am left real responsibility bound absolutely nothing one fulfilling could would ideally take months finalize certain things ie make cookbook recipes others use describe life lessons wanted go someplace nice peacefully pass away started planning details actually mind you feel depressed sad hopeless per se feel like somehow done imaginethe feeling long day work managing everything know going shopping taking care animals family planning holidays etc tired go sleep think yourself sureit would nice bubble bath sauna bed would awesome go outside bedroom balcony cigarette expensive champaigne relax water bed kinda wanted try hey everything done took time needs nothing one left behind feel good myself feel now goes future know everyone says meet partner later life on simply think late me also pandemics simply even chance meet someone tomorrow would take time getting know other investing common real estate getting pregnant pregnant best case scenario first kid let alone second kid potentially more assuming able get pregnant first place addition could go wrong children marriage etc therefore even stars would perfectly aligned regard rather made painful decision give idea it get wrong never put entire happiness idea family despite fact elderly grandma living h away family ever have apart that prefectly fine grateful everything everyone have seems ticket checkpoints ready wrap up question would be ideas seem little unconventional me quite months increasing normal train thoughts phase seek help sadly offer english speaking therapists live limited nonexistent thank advance hope make sense,1 days till im oap okay maybe oap styll one year till im longer teenager quite concerning,0 @TrishaBabbitt i blogged a @neilhimself "hey girl" photo on bust.com. you prob can find it if you google "fuck yeah! neil gaiman". ,0 done everythingas title suggest im done everything im ready end begun process so yall advice really like it,1 UK smothered with rain-did we have our Summer already? Surprised that Gordon Brown's still in office... Overpaid gravy trainers? U decide ,0 give upsimple question literally worst type person ever exist im alone best friend probably leave boyfriend started dating everything goes wrong me give up,1 @mchooyah My theory is getting stuck behind slow drivers leads to depression. After the fits of rage of course.,1 i thought you would support me on this,0 Online Cognitive-Behavioral Therapy for Anxiety and Depression. Mindfulness Therapy via Skype. Most people see big improvements within 3-4 weeks. Contact me to learn more and to schedule a Skype therapy session. https://ift.tt/2Ke1ItX ,1 @Forbes How Do #Marijuana #Strains And #Doses #Affect #Depression / #Anxiety? A New Study Looks For Answers http://bit.ly/2HZnMaQ  via @forbes,1 @meinrosebud and live like its your last day on earth ,0 hour laying down on a flattened bean bag ftl,0 [Zicutake] Depression can be prevented by exercise https://goo.gl/fb/Mu7k6t ,1 i feel like sometimes i can t tell if it s anxiety or really a gut instinct,1 "@Thyme2dream Awwww...shucks.... Thank you, Milady!",0 get crush know one girl really like know never billion years ever even proper conversation her get her,0 survived redflagwhich one someone know survived redflag family friends even doctors react blame you shame woke up live germany maybe anwser questions live also germany everyone anwser questions,1 kushaltweetz guddha musko thammudu already depression loki going http t co wchqiqiwk,1 thing feel proud got diamond apex legends friend probably double age,0 enjoyable minor noir boasts top cast many memorable scenes big distraction complete disregard authentic accents spanish characters film played frenchman boyer belgian francen greek paxinou hungarian lorre top bacall supposed english aristocrat despite absurdities performances good especially paxinou lorre scene boyer paxinou lorre meet talk wildly different accents real hoot guess seeing alone actually speaking spanish anyway seems pretty weird brothers warner find spanish speaking actors los angeles course hollywood often any old accent do policy favorite greta garbo swedish mata hari dutch falls love russian soldier played mexican ramon novarro maybe got novarro confidential agent would great boyers role least francens which would saved greatly dark makeup budget,0 enough karma post test,0 wake up force yourself to eat breakfast go to school that s filled to the brim with people who don t like me and think i m weird overthink everything suffer through class get home sleep or do homework then go to sleep again repeat for the next few fucking year is there really any point if class were at least enjoyable i d manage to get through it and honestly most of them aren t horrible just one rd language class that i can t fucking get out of or get better at because how the fuck am i gon na find the strength to learn a whole new language i always get yelled at always stressed at that class because i know i won t answer correctly and i will get yelled at then go home and cut yourself because of it fun right,1 @itswendylou Thank you Happy Saturday to you too!,0 almost giving i know die mom grandma sad dont think alternative dont future hope iam big loser genetic mess burden think redflag way ,1 my nap wa interrupted so many time today going out for japanese with the rent again,0 wanna die canti want foolproof way access gun because reasons bleach really effective fancy tall ass buildings live skittling wrists takes long hanging painful im considering maybe fire straight electrocution might well go flaming whatever otherwise im stuck little backstory world live truly utterly fucking faked wanna die could wake daaaaamn seriously tho cant anymore mean love parents shit theres much take cant live anymore knowing actually life like literally im gonna end nothing give back story fucking answer question please electrocution legit,1 Physical Activity and Incident Depression: A Meta-Analysis of Prospective Cohort Studies https://ajp.psychiatryonline.org/doi/10.1176/appi.ajp.2018.17111194 … Including some familiar names!! And some media: https://news.sky.com/story/exercising-regularly-cuts-risk-of-depression-by-16-study-suggests-11346264 …,1 to end this shitty existence,1 @pluggerguy yeah - i saw that on the internets today. listening now ,0 im feeling like shit finally need get out idk say really life consists daily errands whatever do im constantly fantasizing ways could possibly myself im much pussy really follow through know ever got hold gun really hesitate haha great segway though anyone know easy ways get gun uk,1 first deepa mehta film saw film tv hindi version sita character presented nita also note radha underwent allegorical trial fire film nitasita yet loved film screenplay ms mehta direction characters big small welldeveloped seemed quixotic towards endsomewhat like end mazurskys an unmarried woman brave women surrounded cardboard men one cardboard man ashok seems come alive last shot see himcarrying invalid mother biji seems finally take future responsibility beyond celibacy adherance religion br br ms mehta seems fumble director however compared indian mainstream cinema would seem brilliant cannot use script go beyond microscopic joint family presenting except presenting glimpse chinese microminority social milieu india even dedicates film mother daughter not father yet radha reminesces halcyon days parents mustard field compare mrinal sen adoor gopalakrishnan muzaffar ali dwarfed giantsgiven competent canadian production team financial resources mehtas film two bisexual ladies indian middleclass household may sacrilege some merely captures atrophy middleclass homes seem aspire something better immediate survival limited social space kannada malayalam bengali films touched parallel themes india publicity surrounded film therefore seen wide segment knowledgeable cinemagoersbr br ms das ms azmi mr jafri mr kharbanda credible outstanding ms azmi talented actress gave superb performances good directors mrinal sens khandar gautam ghoses paar benegals ankur brilliance notably absent film ms das sparkled due screen presence rather acting capability all films strength remains structure screenplay average terms international cinema sure ms mehta hone writing talents future screenplays,0 you look depressedyou look depressed you adhd depression stop making attention stop faking it you right depressed you attention whore words make want end even turned year confessed ive failed attempts ever since try explain whats wrong get told bullshit get ditched hurts more everybody expects others help out friends tell go family family tells get it feel damn hurt like fucking hell were th grade fucks sake people expect psychopath depressed saying may also bpd makes even unaccepting me really hurts cant handle anymore people accept courage talk feel like belong anyone anymore ones trusted ditch me family tells get it hurts want die whats worse depressed since attempting redflag treated like dog shit admitting trying get support get even lonelier realized people accept telling trusted felt getting ignored time makes trust issues even worse know care courage im weak world cant handle telling mom truth feel like big fat liar never trustworthy putting trust people thought right huge mistake months till school ends tell ones truly like me,1 mom mom talking birth control morning means still secks going kword,0 throwback one time felt kinda happy looked cause one girl liked emphasise ,0 "not even in college yet but i can already feel the stress level, depression, lack of sleep and more stress ",1 for the last year or so i have suffered with extreme tiredness an shortness of breath i ve been to hospital and had every test going and found nothing it also doe not affect my cardio i go to the gym regularly if anything this help it however when i am resting i literally feel like i m about to pas out i then try to breath more and hyperventilate i have control of this now and use an oximeter to reassure myself but it s incredibly tiring feeling like this drinking also help it not a good way to cope i know obviously i m taking all medical precaution but if anyone ha experienced similar it would be reassuring thankyou for taking your time to read this,1 Remembering my dad a few weeks after his passing. Losing him was the last straw. This thing that finally broke me. #death #family #rip #depression #wellbeing https://carafromthebottomup.wordpress.com/2018/04/25/my-dad/ … pic.twitter.com/aEmtRt94Vp,1 took lot pillsim scared overdosed,1 guys gf pretty voice think wonderful voice says sucks lots people say pretty decide us link voicehttpswwwultimateguitarcomshotfightsodirty,0 Don't over work self there's anxiety that leads to depression and we don't want that.,1 know wake mornings look world people wonder what happened world happened us love kindness caring compassion friendship humanity humility anymorewe spend hours days weeks months social media lying great lives are knowing full well lying however it mean spiteful cruel horrible lives spend time social media hating ridiculing people vaccinated unvaccinated hating ridiculing people black white jewish muslim asian skin color ownwe even talk people outside computers anymore more good morning good evening hello barely even communicate people social media brainwashed believe know talk them yet comes around so connected brothers sisters no not entire world divided ever get know people learn background experiences get make people brothers sisters matter know stay confined living lives communicating people see daily lives wake mornings news filled stories hate crime violence new york used one beautiful states america turned violent mad max type state california cluttered homeless people one absolutely one california gives damn about good homeless lumped together mentally ill people thus treated like garbage right american soil one bats eye one cares vaccinated people holding parties living life totally separate unvaccinated told unvaccinated toxic avoided without us realizing lie told keep us divided other stronger together no division world men women race race richwealthybetter poor homeless vaccinated unvaccinated hear stories young people adults committing suicide say things like oh sad feel sorry family really mean it person committed suicide came you words encouragement virtual hug ended lives would them no know them problem however someone dies hand problem die cannot find peace joy happiness earth responsibility help them contrary popular belief every person alive responsibility outside simulated world call earth related realize brainwashed realize truth world nothing like used be s s yes times bad times too yes part absolute part times beautiful social media people people families families friends friends blacks blacks whites whites people people mentally emotionally every child someone elses child well people would walk street greet with hey brother hey sister meant it today people think lost mind humanity gone say no not look many missionaries feeding helping poor countries yeah countries right american soil uk countries extreme hunger poverty problem humanity gonei want world s s back people could go sleep night lock doors would wake up safe sound next morning want world s s back could go outside see kids playing streets instead inside homes playing mindless video games want world s s back blacks would look whites brothers sisters whites would toward blacks want world s s back music actual meaningful messages them men gentlemen women ladies want world s s back anyone else could make instant lifelong friends people never knew before want s s back everyone concerned others welfare livelihood mental state howeveri people very people feel like me know never days back drift years turn humans mindless uncaring robots emotion care concern anything even remotely resembles humanity even remotely resembles towards other why lot days wake up even wanting even planet anymore even recognize world anymore hate disconnect towards other violence coldness turned world one completely foreign me however world in many many years sadly world known happened world,1 were going die eventually end nowim tired pain suffering life constant mood switches missing deceased loved ones general unhappiness cant anymore lonely without purpose cant wait till paycheck buy gun,1 got pp joke dude banned sociopath enjoying report people,0 anybody want pic dms open m filler going,0 @Letzjusbfriendz yessssss ,0 im gonna get snacks stay safe everyone,0 would anyone follow people follow single reason someone would follow,0 got old southern advise takes twice long build bridges burn keep nose grindstone pills run far enough youre bound trip around glory fall get knocked sometime gotta hit fence mess bull get horns last one make childhood one ill explain ones dont understand,0 im failure disappointment theres nothing left guilt continueive always said would kill life got hard believe god afterlife always seemed like right thing do life philosophy enjoy myself thats longer possible whats point everything want be im year old college dropout virgin living moms basement working dad buried debt getting high everyday got credit card debt time college im capable making longterm plans incapable following short term gotten better ive spent last two years active goal getting credit card debt im exactly started id worse already hit credit limit im sure money guilt let everyone know love many occasions lost faith me rightly so im flakey promise something might it conscience would let live like that feel terrible every time go back word every time much suspect ive let someone down thing kept going till constant deep feeling guilt way live selfmotivation cant anything unless someones breathing neck it left devices get high play video games masturbate sleep wake up rinse repeat let lizard starve dehydrate point finally tried give water weak drowned it got puppy previous roommate neglected took one day got hit car better fate him two weeks ago skipped entire week work gone work since thanksgiving now im embarrassment dad wants well tries push me respond said word since sunday even tell coming in id feel worse im coward sense responsibility willpower commitments end disappointment guilt myself somewhere along line failed learn basic human social skills cant carry conversation get scared cant describe ideas anyone im reading book ask it give dismissive answer go back reading im asshole scare shit me im terrified touching people anything attentiongetting poke hug hell cant even say peoples names feels wrong this takes huge amount effort even social situations let alone try talk people end isolated choice hating it thats comes to im selfish loathsome person hate it feel nothing guilt selfloathing except im escaping drugs entertainment thing stopping killing figuring best method leave notes for edit drove around today looking good place jump from find one spent rest day weedfueled haze friends house almost entirely quiet drifting consciousness then coming home pulled cemetery spent next hour holding knife throat listing reasons die obviously it called therapist schedule appointment soon possible clearly antidepressant longer cutting it im going talk mom attempt tomorrow morning dad work hope best that thanks everyone posted morning sure last day im sure long ill keep it given strength try longer,1 cut nails rubbed hands lotion feel smooth,0 possible speed heart disease muscle wasting disease specific heart break last year decided enough enough im trying alone long story short guys cant go like im wheelchair bound ive become burden family recognise anymore since lost job friends either married left im tormented nobody cares disabled men ive met disabled woman never alone ive lucky enough also heart disease ill die years met men survived scared see future may involve electric wheelchairs spoon fed dinner every female boyfriend married men find nurses want kill myself way speed heart disease md awful wish everyone made far best,1 point become bragging talk big pp would cross line bragging like girl talks body people usually agree guys bragging weird,0 theory posts pedos getting removed mods pedos gets removed get banned theyre proving point take ur pedo,0 fucking dollars today random guy twitter minutes shift fucking mcdonalds dude dms outta nowhere still cant believe,0 name already carved bulletx bullet cures defective brain ive even carved name it wish failure wish eat feelings become fatassi wish awkward weird wish brain hate me im planning using bullet officially get kicked parents health insurance plan longer get anti depressants building courage parents deserved better kid me want make sad hate everything hate people hate myself belong world last favor parents hopefully affect property value make quick cleanup either going blow brains backyard possible put tarps room want make mess,1 re really wanna dieim done looking forward vacation im happiest place earth disney forget problems soon im alone almost worse cant handle im strong enough give up im done,1 potato flew around room came aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa,0 never real human beingi fucked work again everything touch always rots happiness distractions never last person im tumor need excised earth lose money anyone else wish parents care could go peace without guilt hurting death much birth destroyed them,1 "@GlobalGrind hey jojo is this you, running the the global grind twitter page?? Great job ! ",0 Sittin outside Tomatinos enjoying this beautiful evening ,0 Ah! I'm back. I actually got in a couple of hours ago.,0 im scared myselfive wrote times dont want judgements please even begin im almost used athletic nickname phoenix always somehow pulled ashes save youre decaying body literally changed life welli bad car accident bad airlifted days hospital aprilnovember lost use legs june relearn walk still barely walk foot never regained feeling july told going hill fast im chronically ill conditions ingredients fake food little morbid joke got life expectancy im lucky used independent still kept spirit than october came flulike illness spinal leak almost killed me literally edge death body isnt putting fights anymore somehow im here know much offer world body biggest enemy happened june happen time body wasting away takes toll mind im serious court cases peoplecompany cannot say much about that ticking time bomb body become pain much physical pain becoming shell was knowing never parent knowing anything happen time mental toll legal things hospital bills family problems everyone tells im strong brave inspirational inside dont feel way feel weak feel scared feel like burden yes knew summer people get less time yes know many people could shoes going spunky person nothing could stop me disabled dependent others operation operation im sorry theres much except help things go on cannot fix sorry eventually need feeding tube body biggest challenge caused confused feel like need finish court things want go know selfish recently began self harm again pain control im control yes im help yes im professionals mental state hate this controlled medication doctor visits body turn scares bring back crippled want live dream theres wheelchairs walkers let ask this close eyes imagine beach feeling sand feet smallest things freedom youre young appreciate it feeling run dance hike go friendsappreciate it wish knew got sick look back go damn im happy this want live want die dont want leave friends family want leave cannot escape im afraid theres nothing die ive friends die something happened mother grandfather afraid even though life point is im afraid maybe reading small smudge story make someone appreciate beautiful body is beautiful health valuable thing see even type fingers dislocating type hospital home where go sick low funds must near hospital want play sun things youve never done always reply messages friends never tell peoplefamily things regret ive met many people sick supported believe me right now dont smile inside scream youre biggest lie youre okay im kinder person smallest things biggest im scared im scared death im scared myself hard im alive dont want hurt everyone truly stepped others stepped out many ways im blessed wish body could love like others do want make tell story help people right im physically weak mentally exhausted im grateful im much pain im trying get justice hurt many ways hug more love more things youd never imagined do dance sing im suicidal im afraid it im afraid me know im good person otherwise wouldnt people around do still hope hope ill rise ashes even wings broken thatll ill stand body greatest tool love it know long dont need hear generic shall pass maybe emotions im chronically ill theres things life cannot control control can whether die body hand im sure im gonna keep trying literally cant but im scared thankyou,1 hangingthinking drop hanging balcony terrified it also worried loved ones cant handle life almost ,1 ayudame por favor necesito ayuda en classe de espaol,0 guys im going scooby foo mystery incorporated marathon im chapter right wish luck,0 plug on train once again doesnt work,0 Going to bed earlier helps protect you from depression and thoughts of suicide -- At least 8 to 9 hours of sleep makes a huge difference.,1 movie must people enjoy soccer art strikes first movie soccer world cup way filmed besides following play like tv broadcast generous footage dedicated follow individual players games brings forward emotions situations men go attempt reach glory todays tv broadcasting style different still inferior quality compared moviebr br the players stars audience referees journalists covering matches environment play central role development today history movie see factors play together explicit way regard todays tv broadcasting style yet reached level quality although much closer beforebr br there several highlighted players maradona argentina elkjaer laudrup denmark francescoli uruguay platini france lineker england rummenigge germany butragueo spain socrates brazil sanchez mexicobr br this movie collection best soccer moves mexico although well covered across movie stress presenting several aspects game competition based progress players teams even cost skipping relevant plays games themselves makes movie interesting uniquebr br because happened referees mexico much comments movie world cup extremely maradonabiased much comments take account referee two linesmen human players abovementioned make mistakes one way other soccer rules allow referees use tv based replays make decisions part referees decide perceive consequence referees play active part development game influence seen several parts moviebr br the sequel movie world cup compared one source bitter disappointment much comes fact became involved game whereas movie tells things distant unbiased point view,0 "@jajtayl No, other people suffer too but they can get cured or helped. Depression and anxiety CAN get cured. Your assertion is either wrong or a blatant lie.",1 thinking overdosing bag asphyxiation bleeding tonight everything planned outi like posting here many places suicidal discussion found active usually taken obscuredif years therapy pills done anything whatsoever know help feel like much shake this eaten days clean system write redflag note thinking overdosing acetaminophendayquil liquicaps count robitussen antihistamines bag asphyxiation severing arteries arm years old pounds born malei transgender felt way since around age able get support whatsoever family aprehensive negative situation would probably take long describe reasons want go this general dealing massive ptsd things happened years ago verbal physical sexual abuse absolute hatred myself feel like absolute stranger home lost first job month due life complications high stress work area license ect heard stock support answers youre young redflag permanent solution temporary problem ect time feeling way taken therapist therapist getting random pills prescribed slipshod way hospitalized redflag attempts everything worked fairly certain want go this failing redflag attempts past think take going back hospital resuming life hell lockdown afraid fail fuck things even worse never overdosed before know combination methods want call redflag numbers want traced want everything end,1 so told crush liked them title says all last night around am said love you explained further kinda happened felt really weird tbh honestly didnt expect fantasies come true response though preeetty cool kinda shakey it became reality guess im pretty happy nervous too hell im still confused even happened felt still feels like fever dream advice thee it coward set deadline however small large is aligned crescendo favourite song though replayed bit minideadline fanfare terrifying terrific trembles dont pussy self destruct seconds minutes hours,0 "@Sarahboo93 haha, i just decided to try it last night so you probably know way more than me are you coming home for the summer?",0 im got depression long period boredom began lose feelings happiness everythingmy grandfather died watched dad hit wife get arrested family broke spine damaged cant play sports anymore girl love w relationship long treated like shit ive found hooked best friend isnt really anything me even god,1 deserve it life like this,1 good time buy new bike read title read title read title,0 skateboard think gay game really great smooth fast easy play fun even well really fun make skaters crash burn easily one best video games ever,0 "well, i'll go cook byebye",0 feel lost years old lost job due illness friends moved countries feel alone depressed black thoughts behaviors lately see way this want disappear somewhere upset others behavior feeling would find job lot things would change me cannot find health problems live poor country europe much tried positive cannot take anymore feel crazy without job longer strength fight,1 supposed kill age i cannot wait die honest life nothing pain short bits happiness last millisecond due date coming,1 watching tv trying to sleep not working,0 still up sad i lost follower,0 cant anything nobody wants anything me im completely utterly without single shred hope pointim disabled family members stop it friends scattered wind employers tell cant job trained professionals belittle me even things used enjoy doing cant even anymore im fucking vegetable nothing nobody turn end sight honestly literally way out seems like literally reason keep living cant even call hotline report police ruins life even more im totally completely fucked fuck shit,1 years ago tf time go fast ,0 citizen kane deliver cleavage lots itbr br badly acted directed poorly scripted cares watch dialog,0 @TobiAndith No Problem ,0 More than one in 20 US children and teens have anxiety or depression https://ift.tt/2vFLXsq ,1 pretty depressed todayi pretty depressed today went therapy yesterday told depressed laughed nervous laugh woke morning got coffee going motions think might last year one loves feel like living repeat mean less shit another years fuck no,1 is going outside ,0 "@Anishaflower THANK YOU! My feet and legs are aching, but that comment eases the pain. ",0 feel suicidal pessimismi yrs old tight group friends consisting them love history anime quite ironic sarcastic know offputting people dont know me terrible reading signs ever since nd grade used bullied th grade managed get hold forcing mind care great sucess bullying stopped felt great first time quite while result started struggling lot care stopped caring opinions others unless close me stopped caring looks lot things like think pretty good history humanities general really enjoy managed pass ap play instruments fairly well really really like things like also despise dont result th grade ended failing year felt horrible alright came back vacation established system get better focus more simply put didnt study home knew got distracted easily instead went nearby cafe study worked great mean problem completely ignoring dificulty studying focusing tasks home thats problem right always leave chances something happening could force stay home matter study worst circumstances yeah recently graduated th grade fucking desperate always quite pessimistic friends graduating one going study abroad two people felt like could gone ever since quarantine started terribly recently watched kon anime cute anime girls playing music second season show caught completely guard heavily focused younger character azusa inevitably beeing left behind group friends one year behind them ever since forced stop caring lots lots trouble caring connecting fiction kon first time life felt true connection combined fact idea fix problem struggles focus corona virus seemingly beeing time soon friends leaving fact pessimist believe way surviving future college work work load lot heavier know biased pessimism influencing thoughts doesnt matter still feel way point life best ever doubt ever reach heights again since halfway vacations terrified starting grade barely passed th mom ways fighting nothing serious fact almost always right takes minutes us forget it every time happens feel pointless kill myself even incredibly trivial things like dishes something problem doing gets confusing quite political mom staunch environmentalists i see world burning feel pointless feel like china take everything trumps presidency feels like joke way stop us beeing taken over corporations destroy environment brazilian lived brazil whole life bolsonaros antienvironmental policies drive feeling desperation isolation want kill emotions logic feel like logically speaking persons death contributes something mean much trash produce better die combined sense utter dread feel torwards future really see reason keep going emotionally dont want to terrified dying terrified living dont know do feels like major fight broke would kill myself likely thing tensions building home please help dont really money phychiatrist hate online classes sessions one would likley help me know hiw ling sorry unsure do,1 im sure imdb weighted average came low rating film opinion accounts overlooked gem movie rip torn fantastic stubborn noel lord tantoo cardinal superlative housemate torn cardinal underrated actors finally given stage work craft onbr br their relationship always pleasant real humerous touching love story billed dvd jacket end tragedy lord simply aims high ignores advice take money offered power company movebr br the music fantastic period sets,0 things dont get betteri friend kept going high every aspect life tells things get better started sound grating condescending child thats reason it get better hear live child see every weekend dont find reproduction reason living dont actually care selfish sound never happy memories childhood happy stretches time entire life went trauma abuse child huge slut early s could places go ways escape thoughts didnt work got pregnant got married didnt work out im divorced homeless months living car winter last year im back grandmothers cant get crippling debt make shitty hour going thing ive lived long enough know never happy feel way desire sort career everything takes amount effort money study turns stomach makes want more desire mother dont even know im going post this,1 get itwhy let die why fucking get it cant kill me every day gets worse add nothing world why cant tell anyone lock psych ward again get it dont get life cant life im losing fucking mind cant tell anyone cant even drink get altered state mind im young hate existence hate everything myself feel like animal road got ran over guts hanging it yet still alive tremendous pain everyone keeps driving by one helping it,1 opinion meme stealing i saw post rmemes someones meme got stolen would told straight didnt want get yelled entire sub meme stealing isnt bad memes meant stolen thats get spread around although nice give credit nobody really cares got meme know people say memes like art would want people steal art theyre right wrong memes something make yes want credit put watermark somewhere like artists usually also memes edited pictures ive seen people turn subtitles movie screenshot scene put hashtag relatable caption it art takes time take hours even days finish something,0 oh god literally tired cannot happy feel anything sad numbness sometimes wonder ill end alone motivation anything anymore even want say hi family anymore want anything anymore even want anymore tired existing fatigued,1 cancel culture loss friends loved onesin august last year lost nearly friends woman never slept telling people privately raped her six months new band started become bit successful six month mark person scene wrote facebook post calling serial rapist liked hundreds people shared expartners mine commented saying glad someone standing right others shared said never liked guy one involved asked going on took truth year now havent known respond dont side story panic disorder barely think subject without feeling like im heart attack stopped going restaurants bars grocery store everyone stopped talking me save handful good people luckily partner keep company help get it two months ago partner broke tears shopping mom furniture new home said never going get better referring life cancelled losing friends wasnt well mentally depressed beyond belief friends stayed beginning leave too seen rape apologists apparently worn her told difficult together accusations wasnt told conversation recently partner engaged new home still completely set coming along nicely things looking us when one morning got small fight something seemingly trivial left wasnt expecting dont blame her dont think anything wrong left got job miles away pays quite well since shes opportunity live work fianc broke good day called job told wouldnt next day seemed understanding fired days later dont income made great deal plans future together days since fianc left me havent speaking her dont know say days running one another stare window stare ceiling fan ive lost interest things attempted kill once ive struggled suicidal ideation since kid new me know may another low swing became worse best friend mine hung im now managed three years without going sort plans still struggled with feel mean is isnt new me ready knowing close happening parents moment refuse go back home fianc cant stand see it loaded pistol dresser drawer here dont get internet much stumbled upon subreddit googling circumstances cant pursue music anymore film even people play video games abandoned me im afraid go anywhere may see people think im terrible human being cant text old friends ask theyre doing think im monster probably dont feel like human anymore feel completely discarded society think going kill soon hope attention seeking behavior hope real want die want stop dont want pussy constantly feel necessary way want it dont know else anymore nothing going get better wait get house tomorrow morning right time dogs sound hurt ears woods behind house walk deep into far enough hurt ears love dogs anything dont know do theyre better friends people seems needed write story it dont want leave note friends family dont know people okay dont know people dont know me sad really hope okay well please kind people life please reach people tell everything okay please try tell anything all im sorry,1 hate fortnite suck balls eeiihsajjhkeoa djcjen sncj,0 "@Joffff I beleive it was Baccara? First time there, quite classy and good mojitos ",0 @shenrick Good point. Use your SatNav - POI Food ,0 one understandslast week best friend person understands ongoing struggle depression self harm told wishes never met life would much better put me feel alone worthless dont think want live anymore even though im surrounded family friends know care me dont feel comfortable confiding anyone else confided dont understand tell dont need happy dont want anymore please help me,1 shit guys feel like fucked or had friend uh like argument yesterday online school nothint special tho normally sit together class talk lot etc today entered class sittting guy also friend tho even say hello saw idk give up also note im scared ask were ok,0 get girlfriend so trying find someone feel something special sounds cheesy true tried apps find horny people thots so really appreciate good tips,0 who am I kidding my anxiety and depression kicks in for everything i'm a lonely mess,1 day random questions computers ever achieve sentience,0 i can t sleep it s too windy and scary out,0 wish skirt trend oddly want one feel like would cute,0 something really wrong meso im really struggling moment lots things staying home really messed schoolwork im back school now found grades beginning fall im getting worried final grades good enough ive heard many people tell end world desired feel like is talents skills interests passions decent personality succeed life so grades thing im sort good provides chance getting somewhere idea want future finish school end year still clue all everyone else idea im confused really many friends either ive cut lot family so life lonely lot time deal devastating social anxiety held back many times even caused stupid things last couple days done nothing besides school mostly stayed room looking phone motivation anything anymore used like making videos playing keyboard try feel it even feel motivated play video games anything bad is little hope myself dealing suicidal thoughts couple years though ive set dates never gone end supposed done beginning year scared always im stuck,1 temporary solutioni woke morning am brain stress thinking possible solution problems kill myself took bunch valium feel awesome still know do still think die like feel much better drugged bother even hurting myself took later keep feeling going obviously cant every day god damn right effective,1 feeling like crap tonighthi sw im feeling personal low since period year usually hit low depression around time year usually manageable time deep winter think lack sunlight gets me anyway argument parents thats something always brings out typically never fight maybe year every eighteen months stay trouble good college well got fight went room cool off say anything stupid room reverted one worst states using energy keep redflag mind even im typing this realize many issues have im afraid ive never able admit ive never able talk anonymously guess need counselling least use marijuana irregularly one helpful things ive ever used helping fight depression reason know get better way drugs help ive got able reach place without them know how advice feel like im wits end here want end trying kill like used to much know want live im right now feel like littlest thing could put edge thoughts comments would helpful thank advance taking time post,1 my gf might be pregnant we haven t done it for month now she told me with all honesty that she and her boy best friend did it last month she only did it because she wa drunk and had a fight with her parent i had no idea about that until now she s delayed week i feel like my chest is getting crushed by what she had done i can t cry but damn it hurt so bad i don t know what to do i admire her honesty but the pain is still here in my heart she doesn t want to break up with me either she said she s sorry i love her i really do,1 bipolarim sick ups downsim back manic swings depressed lows havent slept night days got hrs sleep last night im sick craziness head loud there want stop want normal much live for like hiking adventuring friends cant take ups downs tearing apart matter time starts affecting everyone around me girl seeing see crazy quit talking me friends see dropping get sick swings leave matter time part sucks ive done everything healthy im sober recovery trauma counseling medication compliant im still fucked up im never going ok airsoft gun looks realistic enough get cop end things me every time try fail want live see beauty world want get away pain fear dont control head,1 "Ooooo, Blue Velvet is on!! ",0 exceptions made mind wanting wan make parents sad starting seem like care got till birthday,1 @Rotae Sent you an LJ PM with some shinies ,0 @SocialRepose Waiting for my depression to go away ,1 light end tunnel train thats it thats post ,0 foolproof suicide methods methods,1 need outi need help please,1 sub deaddd wish could dead sub rn,0 I'm back I arrived a few hours ago. I'll be making a blog post about my short vacay tomorrow!,0 dark lorax wip lorax speak trees litter again ill break fucking knees lorax knew one thing better all knew thing better dinosaurs roar trees cant harmed lorax armed pulled sniper could kill like viper shot onceler littering wanker fired shots shot one chest head knee onceler one second bed next second dead know warning blunt directed littering cunts lorax speak trees one man dead thats me,0 tired hearing give get better give time every day gets worse single thing makes feel anymore empty even alone still feel like everyone looks me everyone wants something them role life need anything figure own cannot make friends matter much try relate people sick here sick trying waiting things different tired seeing therapist getting nothing one feel like pay listen ramble hour every two weeks easy tell people give,1 dear twitter i just updated my blog. You like? I do ,0 something woman man cannot involve sexualityi thinking putting raskwomen worried breaking rules im ftm transgender closet im desperate find theres something stupid body defile even further please something womans body mans cannot involve sexualitypregnancy orgasms flirting etc making dumb excuses get situationsblame pms something acknowledges weaknessgetting help street woman refuses get pregnant even purpose world causes much unnecessary sufferingthe reason could think someone would go things like female puberty pregnancy love babies us love purpose something man cant well better research yet find single thing,1 "@DrPsyBuffy 1 class of 25 - 1 hospital- based eating disorder treatment, 1 in the hospital to re-establish bipolar meds, 1 witnessed 2 murders recently, 1 suspected brain tumor, plus the those with the usual issues, depression, anxiety...",1 too worried and tired to post tonight,0 online school awesome get class still get everyday zoom,0 if depression wa a garden,1 BIG HAND <--------- Someone pass that to @bryantma ,0 mother might covid shes miles away mother dies im committing redflag guaranteedok little myself born raised small poor country south america father abusive absent mother stay home mom one sister ive living us past years sister living europe man husband met online time thing life europe husband cares little parents me last time saw six years ago doctor trained home country middle becoming licensed us one test go cant take covid medicine brutal chances matching residency slim time passed since graduated medical school live wonderful man takes care loves much ive known years unemployed feel worthless feel like chance making anything life gone future used feel like promise feels like threat somewhat ok health chronic back pain need surgery cant get corona might also nerve damage pain might go away even surgery long without proper treatment doctors saw first ignored complaints suggestions getting imaging hunt pcp would order mri back herniated disk compressing nerves dont know life without pain feels like everyday pain days good others bad pain never leaves mother shes experienced tragedy tragedy brother brutally murdered mothers day years ago parents died saw grieving death never recovered shes living alone home country shes complaining covid like symptoms country lockdown even wanted wouldnt able go see one last time flights honestly ive thinking killing however would never want put mother that always told would kill dies love want spare suffering life hasnt bad im tired needs met im pain career worked years might never materialize plan shoot head inside rental car parking lot level trauma hospital call police warn hospital go ahead harvest organs donation wanna die every day wake up first thing say oh comes nightmare want die im useless im broken im pain want over,1 @trinafraser Impaired is impaired & I'm feeling second class to workers that have been driving to work forced on pill cocktails causing depression to go down a couple of lunch beers like Prince or Elvis. Pros need a chemistry set & bigger budgets looking for evidence of impairment in 2018?,1 @YanceySlide the CWG got a half a shout out tho ,0 im going something fun entertaining im going try start playing air soft dad lets me reason want friends play sport something play video game watch anime school summer play pandemic ft part wear masks know consequences ive looked equipment guns total total,0 jim henson kermit drteeth rowlf waldorfbr br frank oz fozzie piggy animalbr br jerry nelson floyd pepper robin frog lew zealand crazy harrybr br richard hunt janice statlerbeaker scooterbr br dave goelz gonzo drhunnydew zootbr br charles durning mel brooksbr br cameos steve martin carol kane orson welles bob hope richard pryor othersbr br this first muppet movie billion others came out also best far deals kermit frog going trip hollywood meeting characters along way movie along already good excellent songs performed muppets including rainbow connection picture that moving right along others movie unlike muppet flicks carries strong sentimental value me nice movie also noted many cameos featuring steve martin mel brooks dozen othersbr br my ratinga plus mins rated g,0 had depression since started seriously wanting die since turned im tired everyday time feel alright im fall asleep family idea downside ending feel would ruin future decembers family really dont know im typing this im tired living see reason anymore depression started school rejection stress added it tried drop school try get metal state right parents wouldnt allow getting worse read back sorta seems like im lying oh well guess jus hope strength actually end time comes everyone reads this thinking redflag dont it may sound unfair tell im gonna time theres better way deal problems good luck everyone hope live long great lives,1 man girl cute shes cool nice too calming comforting voice could really listen forever lives across country wish could hear voice irl hug ill probably delete post bit doesnt kick ass though lol,0 but i have to work now so no time to play,0 nothingim sorry im sure people worthy people would actually go it think im going to matter much want end even plan anymore thought always plan going happen worthwhile people spend responses on guess needed scream space yknow feel like failure part am went incredible college im working artist even though artmaking fellowship closed show day job parttime though honestly love it make less spend rent month theory making art getting jobs using money survive ive depressed anything stay bed days off im supposed using art cant even that im fat seems like nonsequitor im dancer first round suicidal ideation came disordered eating behaviors stopped managing depression least thats campus therapist told me made enough sense believed her ran away therapy stupid reasons wanted anorexic bulimic time worked nerve go therapy transitioned mostlybulimic behaviors ashamed wrong eating disorder fucking stupid that accept help disorder thought less glamorous one started with fucks sake started dating girl also anorexic behaviors depression wonderful tried make healthy fueled behaviors didnt dumped nowhere seven months ago im sure best seems happy now ive barelyfunctional since then rock best friend person knew extent going head totality support system though tried rely much left someone else now seems happy lot healthier talk much anymore im fat working working partially im afraid go auditions weight do also afraidashameddepressed go classes gym take care myself im stuck stupid cycle even convince one day hey yeah lets take steps make better takes much energy lasts maybe day maybe two im back curled covers staring netflix distract thoughts anybody died coworkers would first notice think im supposed go work tomorrow show think would call text probably think check show tuesday timed right died work thursday would four days anyone would even notice im sorry im mostly crying ex still silly happier without me feel like failure cant make take steps become anything else know make things better just it know im scared convinced ill fail depressed really fucking lazy it nothing nothing mean nothing provide nothing im sorry im going go it im sorry wasting time,1 commit redflag mondaymy situation pity asked raise job listed position higher salary have like increase send email person resposible forward manager set meeting monday angry email think fire mei working months working one half year contractor nothing left life sucks job dedicated sure none appreciate it highly debt fired kill myself want now,1 dont ever feel like crap day school feel like everybody experienced least life like cant play video games go outside even antisocial feels like forced world bunch dicks theres nothing it eventually feeling goes away within week two feels like meaningless wash rinse repeat routine,0 "woa long time no twitter. it was because i got the flue or how the hell you say that in english, nothing special happenend. move along ",0 third time life post herefour failed attempts redflag behind me im getting better fact getting worse im waiting last push finally jump window,1 many early british sound films ive seen video suffer either poor print transfer quality poor sound both fortunately able obtain copy movie video excellent quality enabling focus story itselfbr br and excellent story was first sight passengers illfated bus looked like pretty boring lot except always lovely jessie matthews but film went back show passengers story day accident discovered cast contrary initial appearance talented group performers skillfully directed bring real individuality distinctive characterizationsbr br viewers may different preferences two passengers going meet tragic end ones survive but movie holds interest keeps guessing film deserves much wider audience real gem early british cinema,0 0 0virgin honestly i understand her frustration my mom doe the same with my thing she wear my clothes sometimes tseding hadi kgutlise but nka sebe depressed aowa depression yonke no,1 im already want end shitim turning next month another fucking day get great feeling knowing im closer death im another ungrateful asshole lot friends school means nothing wrists legs nothing fucking scars aint deppresants fuckin joke life aint worth living im tired much life live want bullshit want cold hard painful truth maybe somewhere deep want help want love friendship maybe hell supposed mean something maybe make better made worse hate everything including life nobody cares neither fuck,1 last day spring break td tryna relax school takes life,0 just explained Twitter to her Mom ,0 got sick head hurts im always tired even tho sleapt hours sad boy hours hit times harder im hungry time cant focus all ovarall im fucking sufering,0 going go hospitaltomorrow therapist wanted wait could reassess emotions could get things order girl hang getting admitted shes currently er knows right things say get room makes everything definitely worse do plus dont want knowing details shit theres psych hospital wouldnt hour flight away idk doeverything feels hopeless lately sign maybe im supposed here,1 slight breakdown hey fellow teenagers subreddot talk people cry ever wanted anyone partner people find annoying stupid weird really need hug cant fucking friends arent nearby im trying karmawhore understand say that really need talk someone like,0 tired lifehi ill try keep shortish im angel im ive contemplating redflag know going tonight itll soon ive grown tired life think handle anymore course reason lifes kind mess since came closet announced family friends gay parents disgusted friends already figured out mostly fine always feeling people like me came out dad would constantly verbally abuse me calling faggot making gay jokes anything make clear abomination him mom that drifted me clear like it even though never said it could tell wished son person family truly accept gay identical twin brother kaiden close stereotypical twins identity crisis everything together actually lot things separately played baseball played soccer student council drama club etc always ate lunch together school play pranks teachers would tell eachother basically everything family moved went whole new school issues making friends father continued verbally abuse me finally got tired it take it so attempted redflag drank bleach kaiden found me rushed hospital pumped stomach kaiden insisted get help refused decided best thing would move house rented apartment next almost two years went smooth kaiden sharing apartment boyfriendgirlfriend never spoke parents sharing apartment great never really problems then months ago kaiden got car wreck days later died ive completely lost without him like part gone practically whole reason living boyfriend tried hard help out honestly working mope sleep eat little bit play video games sleep more life meaningless feel pain now kaidens funeral mom said son died dad shot many nasty looks made even gay remarks usual stay whole service terrible im lonely know end it editsince redflag watch id like say im planning anything tonight ill probably fall asleep soon nobody freak im replying,1 lost boyfriend grades car overi crash today earlier ghosted friends blocked everything deleting social media art presence online perfect driving record never drive again crash fault ruined everything lost grades im going fail class literally last semester as year ive afraid germs tonight learn gets much worse getting sick good world want escape sick tired hearing life gets better everyone told past days read posts problem back mind believed people part believed gets better doesnt never will never drive again never go school again never love again never go outside again left cant even breathe anymore im done goodbye,1 uh heyso ive feeling really lately even tho dont much feel about wish wasnt alive googling things redflag found post reddit group saying theres tons supportive people decided make account vent here maybe help idk uh im dont really much complain about life fine rn amazing parents amazing friends amazing girlfriend feel depressed anxious dont know do wish wasnt alive rn think need meds changed maybe upped seasonal depression setting in girlfriend coming see tomorrow nd time see eachother irl first time went see thats asked gf im scared seeing again realized im ugly gross transgender hates im scared idk dont even know gonna coming town dont think knows fucked am every day past weeks ive thinking would happen died rn would it want pain stop wish could sleep weeks everything okay again dont know else im supposed say point feel empty nothing makes happy anymore wish wasnt alive,1 trying stay strong know options want throw life awayive long history depression anxiety usually im able push things stabilize enjoy life next wave hits another wave hit weeks ago one hit hard hard enough first time ive taken action woke next spilt bottle pills vodka dry heaved hour calling work sick next two days scared shit me scared enough touched alcohol past two weeks still feel bad day want whatever snapped inside night happen again six months ago started new job knew would challenge opportunity turn down lately barely make show even fill spot desk know made huge mistake feel stomach tighten up thats feel time depression affecting performance makes feel even worse know people noticing want better cant right now im afraid theyll either find someone better ill drive snap again want feel like failure certainly stupid brain know options are keep grinding im afraid ill snap soon leave ill ruin opportunity possible future ones im leaving months unclear reasons want throw career away never want end couple weeks ago either know right now,1 know call fcking upso fair warning probably terrible human struggling sexual relationship couple years ago trying come terms some definitely overthinking want sense talked me basically dated girl six months never sex got pretty close it one fight lead another ended breaking up well broke up talking some told yeah going sleep weekend broke up almost hanging head try get get back her ended starting hook started try take things little since expressed interest sex wed hook up beginning would always ask okay shed respond yes my name something okay id tell you well trips up wed hook up sometimes shed underwear still id thrust some occasionally id move side little tease sticking some never extent itd past foreplay one time asked are still underwear immediately stopped teasing went back underwear return that night times incident id try like said wouldve told something okay never ended sex definitely teased like wed shower together times one time asked questions underwear would off reason feel dirty sly taking advantage pushy thinking realize moved underwear know cant shake guilt keep overthinking things ive almost painted sexual assault perpetrator feel like jail did past years never said anything anyone feeling like something wrong damn reason keep thinking did ended things years ago really bad terms recently tried reach apologize treating way using hookup cheating her etc stonewalled me brain overthinking saying thinks sexually assaulted her ive hard lately want clarity think would willing come terms something could put label it able that find spiral perpetual guilt,1 depression fr,1 want end dont know howi dont want pain want out ive never seen point this put earth without consulted hard enough see value life things going fine lately things going shitter honestly cannot take one minute this dont job job get couldnt start wasnt granted work permit country live i wasnt born here months waiting around limbo im money options havent felt real connection anyone years barely friends ones dont really give shit theyll say polite thing move on thats fine dont want nuisance theyre entitled life want out im tired keep fighting things get better get slap face people unlucky guess yet im one lucky ones many worse off doesnt make want die less anything confirms world place be anyone im gonna die decades maybe earlier that anyway grand scheme things makes difference keep suffering cant find way thats foolproof dont want pain agony want press button gets here hate parents bringing shitty place,1 hate myselfcurrently home drunk ive wanted kill since around maybe years old im now thoughts seem come waves tried exercising eating healthy seeing doctor social none works keep coming back wanting die worst part feel like could fixed getting relationship know make things worse im lonely crave attention get wish could exceedingly happy like people see almost exhausting me year die,1 ever lurk post refrain commenting cuz know controversial opinion cause idiot try argue you annoying get offended others opinions like wtf let others think want,0 fuck guys shes abused shes brainwashedthis girl beautiful life ruined prick reading site every single sign right on warning signs abuse social isolation limiting one do one see one see unexplained physical injuries victim may show signs depression weight loss gain constantly tired extremely anxious batterer verbally abusive private public extreme jealousy requiring permission certain things ex see people spend money etc controls one wears abuser might history violence short temper fighting others abusing animals property easy access weapons becomes angry consuming drugs alcohol stalking together constantly calls inquires whereabouts shows victims home victim apologetic abusers actions makes excuses them rationalizes them blames victim constantly edge things keep abuser happy afraid make abuser angry victim loses interest onceloved hobbies activities time spent abuser tasks abuser abuser threatens selfharm redflag guilt victim want beat shit within inch life know might send even deeper feel like tell parents ill lose trust her tell wait shes gonna fuck life,1 definitely feel like optionto copy paste thoughts raw gti feel im absolutely going able go nowhere life right even though im eighteen true rights person order get need change anyway knowing parents definitely treat like garbage physically verbally violent towards past cant expect going alive long enough support financially emotionally also cannot feel obligated take separate governmentfamily people directly responsible life capability look anymore suppose means rot financially physically immediately commit redflag want immediately burden anyone previously supported want anything else initiative contribute means potentially parents people around support get agitated attack like parents did think know options allowed have want read anyway thank i want add more feel like also disrespectful look others support journey one deserves support someone family take time busy lives end tried work study immediately detrimental system working in guessed detrimental system people inside system support far knew going focus far enough thanks support guys,1 cant stop lonelinessmy whole life feeling lonely on always felt like everyone liked me friends always kept contact with times feelings subsided others comes back full force mostly constant feeling feel like never loved always wanted big group friends stuff time other always planning events other see time people me guess couple years ago slowly subsided feel like friends always make initiative didnt would never keep contact me sure though amongst friends always invited inviting others forgetting me often get jealous people especially hispanics see friends family time parents probably take initiative see multiple times week mom doesnt take initiative me dont know unliked life years old white male living bay area married child way feel like ending terrible fear loneliness want loved dont want die alone would rather end feel like later life want feel loved big family bunch close friends care me,1 lifes really weird right think like person school like crush know ill fail someone life hate soul seen get angry recently im switching career choice food choices im turning soldier main ive spent tf got weeks school,0 killed moonlord expert mode switch aw shit go,0 julisa a seokjeng0 yes i needed them so much and when i wa at my worst that s when i saw them and i wa in total depression and i only wanted to kill myself but i can say that he really saved me with their music and their joy of living http t co tw g9ylqdh,1 pussyi dont even fucking guts end suffering atleast people kill brave enough so tried recently ine them always emerge pussy,1 like disrespect yall year olds know yall gay young like broski middle school thinking parkour way tag like bitch im bi didnt truly find till like cuz actually tested out,0 hey guys got dumped whats new you hurt much painful love people hurt me ex asked ex said was asked sure said yes fuck would that hurt much,0 im bored homies pls dm ffs jcjfbfjurijrjfhhfjsowkksbdhdidkdbdbshsjjsnsndbdbjdjdjdndbdbdbdjdieknebsisosndvsokabshdjdidkjdbfhdoembebebdhdj,0 some backstory i have crohn s disease but am currently in remission so physically and health wise i ve been doing well the combination of medication that i m on seem to be doing their job and overall i feel pretty good so over the last year and a half or so i ve developed this awful anxiety habit of being terrified that i m suddenly going to get sick and need to shit and not be able to find a bathroom when i m out and about and it s taken a toll on my everyday life i can not leave the house for work in the morning without returning the bathroom sometimes more time before i finally work up the courage to get out the door because i m terrified that somewhere along my minute commute i m going to feel the urge and not be able to get to a bathroom fast enough the thing is if i m just at home all day i likely will only have to shit probably once but if i even think about leaving the house i instantly have to go to the bathroom if i have plan i have to schedule my day around how much time im going to need to spend in the bathroom before i can leave i have to feel like i ve emptied out a much a possible before i can get in the car i don t even hang out with friend or date anybody anymore because the stress of this situation is just too much taking my kid to the beach or the park ugh if i m not 00 positive there will be a public restroom available there we aren t going and i hate that it s not only affecting me but thing like that are and will continue to affect my daughter if i don t get a grip on it soon another example of this is i have the opportunity to send her to a much better school and one of the thing that s holding me back is i m terrified of what morning drop off will look like that i don t think there s bathroom available for parent to access during those time the business around the school aren t open that early to access it start earlier so i ll have to leave earlier to drop her off thus leaving me le time to sit on the toilet before we head out etc etc it feel so stupid but to me it s so real i don t even know how to really put it all into word the anxiousness i feel about it it s such a weird thing that i don t really know how to talk to anyone about because i ve never met someone else with this kind of issue doe anyone else struggle with this i feel like i don t even remember what life felt like before i developed this weird anxiety around it my life feel like it revolves around knowing where the bathroom is sorry for the long post this wa kind of a looking for support asking for help needing to vent post thanks for reading if you got this far sorry i rambled on a bit i don t even know where to start,1 it really annoys me when i m on msn on my 0 late at night watching a dvd and i fall asleep inadvertently damn it lukey,0 well hey reddit well couple months ago got first girlfriend past months amazing ive never happier yesterday was fun told join discord got really happy since played minecraft together lot thats said horrible words im going give straight im lesbian now nothing wrong lgbtq kind stings first girlfriend thought things going really well guess not asked realized explanation follows mean slow process basically november basically privately decided wasnt really interested dating men came along like ok nvm like started feeling like something off like every reason happy relationship something missing talking one friends lesbian started talking ended realizing suddenly clicked found missing really need advice deal since really fucking sucks ngl,0 want make friends even deserve themdo even deserve kind love care feel like dont thing deserve gun head make friends would anger sadden finally kill myself want die want die fucking badly cant it know wanted would right now cant i one would notice even care whats point im making everyone around angry frustrated deserve live deserve noose around neck thats deserve,1 one funnest marios ive ever played levels creative fluid controls good graphics time theres also multitude crazy bosses enemies fight sometimes levels get frustrating leave hard levels still need get accomplished fight boss annoying another complaint camera angle though works fairly well time pain certain situations big time mario fan ones you even huge fan him id still recommend one big game getting need take while satisfying good playing short bursts time almost certainly hold interest sure hold mine,0 i m sitting on my bed alone in my dark room smoking weed looking at the night sky and old photo listening to music i wa listening year ago and thinking about those time when everything wa fine and i knew le than i know right know it hurt so much physically and mentally,1 i am having my coffee i see frost on the car window i suspected there would be some this am i hope i am not so tired today,0 "Very excited about T4 out today, no more Arnie, but Bale will definitely do ",0 failing class first time online school sucks does always high b student yet seeing grades slip recent math now dual credit college class scared graduate wont able go want school hell probably wont even walk due covid mentally destroyed lately grades arent helping alot study too yet know fact fucked test took genuinely terrified work year nothing end sorry rant least needed type it,0 another go round monkey king going westsort ofbr br beginning middle action movie goes first frame onwardbr br a monk three disciples go town get sacred suras bring peace world translated spoken worldbut evil force intervened kidnapped children town evil force wants monk eat live forever retainers battle forces darkness forcibly sending monk safety the monk thinks win simply reasoning bad guys monk ends bunch lizard imps plan point eating him however bad guys arrive hes odyssey ugliest lotbr br can movie starts rails go rails get wrong really liked movie scatter shot place plot logic simply fall away scenes simply pick mid action way knowing got the final battle rescue disciples completely left field one messiest movies ive seen while made laugh smile like get out movie starts idea things whats screen either interesting funny go it get thing thing often beyond me full odd asides strange references go heaven ocean space rib cage mythic beast god knows where movie floats place helps keep fun since know end and reasonm keeping details minimum funny funny timesbr br and action good even good chunk unabashed cgi animation which provides cool images golden staff spider attack formation angel flight touching action comedy aside actually wonderful love story story ugly imp monk end falling love and complications interesting look nature love true love movedbr br however much enjoyed still annoyed scatter shot construction films inability hold ideas together tell complete story really hurts film takes away enjoyment every time get bump road bumps take movie make realize much cribbed sourcesbr br absolutely worth seeing since many choice moments prepared bumps good time,0 money need smoke let us see goes going rob weedman,1 guys made 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that i agreed to do this but i just feel like a dick for not inputting anything they dont even really know that anything is going on because im too afraid to tell them too much so i just have this horrible feeling that they are starting to hate me and want to make me go away so they can actually enjoy themselves i think the worst part is is that i dont even blame them im really just not fun to be around anymore a i dont find anything overly enjoyable anymore i apologise if my punctuation or my spelling or whatever is off i just felt like i really needed to say something,1 hate ever want retype hands shake ampxb httpsredbirdcompersonalpersonalthreehttpsredbirdcompersonalpersonalthree ampxb let lesson road safety,0 guys know people named dick originally came fathers penis,0 advice needed last post give anything go im reposting sent crush picture snapchat get streaks going them day half since responded send pic else,0 experiment placebo effect going bedroom sister took pillow i two 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workschool sleep eat dont see anything special that thing one day get married kids work job dont see importance it doesnt make special dont difference anyone else continue that,1 anyone available talkim edge,1 wyldceltic he ha karate tournament in week,0 every time i think thing are getting better they suddenly go to shit is it even worth trying anymore i ve hit an all time low and my confidence ha never been worse which is kind of uncommon because my confidence go last usually everyone seems to be getting happier and they all have plan for the future but i still feel like i ve a long way to go when it come to starting a new chapter in my life i m exhausted this overwhelming emptiness doesn t ever go away it only get filled with sadness and anger,1 im going kill th birthday havent found girlfriend thenwhats im years old ways wanted get chest im literally never much held hands girl might think kisless virgin meme something doesnt exist nope im one ive one girlfriend brief time apparently didnt quite understand intentions found another boyfriend impression dating friday went date tinder felt went really well nope ghosted ive literally never girl express romantic interest me im physically attractive personality good wouldnt consider overly friendly nice core im good person im welder make stacks cash drive fairly nice car fairly nice place im exceptional regard im good solid guy didnt really get short end stick aspect life dont even necessarily want sex want actual relationship someone bring family think im gay nothing gay people im gay sort annoying people dont understand literally cant get girlfriend matter hard try others get relationships like normal thing cant reason dont get relationship time im fear turn incel nice guy blames women general problems dont want happen therefore killing day th birthday if point relationship even something lasts week call real relationship would satisfactory me unfortunately isnt anything anyone except hope find relationship 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this is my first reddit post also my first time sharing this information with anyone but i can t really keep it in anymore man so bear with me hopefully there s a psychiatrist out there that will read this and hit me with some world altering advice because there is absolutely no way in hell i will ever tell anyone especially not a doctor or psychiatrist what you are about to read but i really just need to get this out there first and foremost no im not going to kill myself let s get that out of the way but i do think im depressed i wa telling myself it wa just a life slump for a long time then i wa telling myself it wa just sadness from the slump now i ve literally been sad and thinking negatively of myself almost every day for like a year and i got ta talk about it with someone even if someone is this phone screen i ve always had major self esteem and confidence issue not really sure what it stem from but i have always felt inferior to those around me which btw i can not believe people live life happy with their appearance that is a blessing that people take for granted anyways ive done some research and educated myself with the science behind depression and i believe that over the past few year a mix of rapid lifestyle change and stress related event ha caused me to have depression the part that confuses me is that while my life is on the more stressful and busy side of thing i don t feel like it s a bad life to live i have wonderful friend family i have a great scholarship to a good school i do fun thing and go to party and drink i feel like an average person put in my shoe would be happy and excel if they had any drive or passion at all which i do not probably why i fuck everything up all the time it is common for me to have suicidal thought i really don t know why since in reality i wouldn t want to kill myself i may be a piece of shit but im not selfish nor do i like the pain of self harm i am self aware of these thought and i have attempted breathing and thought altering method to get rid of them but they pierce my heart and mind like a dagger it physically hurt they are not always about suicide but they are always very negative targeted at myself i just can t help staring out at the edge of that cliff wishing i had the nut to finally end it all sometimes i can t look at myself in the mirror because i know it ll lead me to thinking negatively about myself just at the sight of me and a sad a it is to say it i really just do not like myself i look in the mirror and want to smash it or rip my face off because of how ugly i am objectively and on paper i am not the worst looking guy im and im physically fit but holy shit i swear what i see in the mirror and what other people see when they look at me must be completely different there have been a few instance in recent month of people tell me im decent looking or im good looking or i have a nice body and i take the compliment and try and try to see it in myself but i just can t i literally can t i don t see it i don t know where you guy are looking but i truly don t see what you see okay it s not just about my appearance i find myself annoying and awkward i try to be a happy go lucky guy most of the time usually bringing conversation and a smile and sarcasm and even some humor sometimes but behind my smile is most commonly a frown im fucking annoying my thought scream at me at how what i just said is so stupid and i need to shut the fuck up why do i talk so much why would i ask that ect i talk too much sometimes i say thing i dont even mean or agree with just to say something i never know when to talk and when not to and it frustrates me a lot im volatile and irritable and ugh i fuck up most thing i do work school relationship you know how it go the classic poor me self pity i ruin everything type shpeal something about the way i wa made is just wrong i guess that s another one of those negative thought that repeat in my head a lot born wrong today i had the pleasure of envisioning myself fist fighting myself beating my own face in felt great honestly wish i could ve made it a reality i can t find happiness in any of the thing i used to enjoy ive gradually stopped all my hobby except for the gym which is where i take my anger out usually i have a lot of that i can t even sit through a movie without thinking what is the point of me doing this what is the point life feel numb pointless i go about my societal life just like everybody else i study work play sleep rarely but it all feel the same a gray bland mesh of nothing even something like eating delicious food i just don t get enjoyment anymore the best way i can explain how i feel is if im with people and someone make a joke that people laugh at of course i laugh but if nobody else laughed i would never know when to laugh honest opinion of myself i fucking suck im lazy and i lie all the time to keep up a persona of not being a sad downer hater fuck i constantly make poor decision and can t seem to learn from previous one im ugly the only thing im good at are mansplaining and making a fool of myself i say dumb shit and get shit on for it what kind of asshole ha the privilege and opportunity that i have and is still sad and lazy like this im the type of person that wa actually just wired wrong in the head and the fact that i try and try to be appreciative of my life and still can t disgust me to be honest i don t even know who i am a few month ago someone asked me what my hidden talent is i replied nothing i don t have one i really don t have a talent or something im good at and seeing people around me do amazing thing and then watching myself dig deeper and deeper into this rut really hurt i do not feel like this id say about 0 of the time i forget about all my stress and worry and appearance and fuck ups and im actually happy then when the happy go away i realize that whatever made me happy is so very temporary and it all come flooding back im just running around my mess of a life chasing those euphoric mindless high and happiness that seem to get weaker and shorter each time i find them the question i find myself asking often is why why am i doing this why do i feel this way why did i say that why did i do that why am i a certain way yadda yadda i am a realist i also truly believe there is no point to this life why do we all live such stressful unrewarding life putting all our effort in just to die and be forgotten forever i read comment on post like these saying that life is beautiful meet everyone you can experience nature get help it get better it can get better but the thing is no it can t everyone s situation is different i guess but where im at and what im doing nothing gon na change im not going anywhere even if i wa it wouldn t matter societal standing and fancy job position mean nothing human are not made equal everyone is different special in their own way therefore some people are biologically and factually better than others whether it s stronger larger smarter faster people are different and some trait are preferable i just happened to get stuck with the trait that make me fucking suck at life no amount of meditation or antidepressant fuck big pharm is going to change who i am people don t change painting a leopard red doesn t remove his spot it just hide them temporarily well it s and im going to the gym at and then lecture after that so i guess i should sleep a few hour so my motor function stay working so i can keep going on in this endless cycle of pointless effort thanks for hearing my ted talk wish me luck on my chemistry exam good night all lt,1 lied myselfi told id never get point failed causes follows a failed math part tsi could cause get college program want already took remedial math still failed cant get program literally never happy absolutely want life b fucking bed bugs nasty rash bites c watch husbands family put brothers wives pedestal treat well husband tossed aside religous belief theirs d laws never gave us wedding gift card literally told us happy wedding yet day acted like greatest day life hate fake people e friends live far away jusy drive see starting become extremely lonely f politics g someone thought friend using me h husband family claims family everything yet obviously theyre not family literally bat shit insane cant stand makes sad basically us world im literally tired exhausted cant go on want end right here im tired trying im tired failing im tired feel bad im gone would husband bur time maybe would favor,1 baka mitai gotta idiot band home alone go hand hand know ive foolhttpsyoutubeziwrvmvomi also sing end video,0 @JanetcBaby You'll always get good services at DELL no matter the problem. Choose a Dell today ,0 my mom basically invalidated my feeling now i feel like doing sewerslide,1 friend sent message said found one discord chats litterally biggest roast ever shut yo skin tone chicken bone google chrome home flip phone disowned ice cream cone garden gnome extra chromosome metronome dimmadome genome full blown monochrome student loan indiana jones overgrown flintstone x hormone friend zone sylvester stallone sierra leone autozone professionally seen silver patrone ching chong ling long suck ding dong head ass pubg fortnite flip phone remote control autism syndrome stage four terminal brain cancer oreilly auto parts silver bronze ash amiibo uv light pen sushi ramen harrison ford gamer bitch ass virgin lamp thermometor lean mean string bean charlie sheen limousine canteen trampoline serpentine antihistamine wolverine submarine unclean nectarine broken gene halloween defective spleen smokescreen james dean putting green tiny peen anti vaccine aquamarine eugene extra green nicotine vaseline jellybean magazine protein lightningmcqueen vending machine whatchu mean ocean man ween head ass tf bitch,0 pills againthis time mg ibuprofen mg benadryl mg melatonin usual adhd meds mg caffeine mg acetaminophen less usual eh,1 ive given decided live parasite diei hope able form work ever feel better im going life run people exploit know selfish wrong thats am pathetic petty person thats life im now even improve things im far lazy put effort ill neet friends leave me ill kill,1 beating nnn it know im late say it use nen chakra quirk ive awaken sharingan beat november,0 c est trangement le sympt me de la d pression a,1 please talk how good felt masturbate last night sub fact say genuinely concerns like fuck people,0 feel like shit itonight might time slit arms long time god fucking tired this want dissapear everything hard oh fucking god hate fucking place want end much ask tired,0 @realcharmbreezy http://twitpic.com/4w3zf - now that lmao ,0 Going running with Smalley and Cougar. This could be interesting. ,0 anyone else bored fucking mind cause sure am boy bored bored am gee sure bored yup im bored booooooorrrreeeedddd,0 @a_simple_girl I already have a CHI ,0 never suicidal lifein years never thought redflag much past months like number thing mind time dont goals anymore dad doesnt understand im going really doesnt even try idea anymore look mirror dont recognize myself struggling nobody seems notice plan ready go stop pussy it cannot continue like this agony i dont care grammar punctuation,1 uluciferr spamming hentai sub mods fuck learn fucking lesson ubritish_empire_,0 @symphonyinsepia It's the depression and stress.,1 hoping drink enough go sleep without cutting tonight depressed cannot even masturbate,1 "I fucking hate those people so much. Those people who go """"""""I was depressed but then I just started thinking happy thoughts and then that cured it :)""""""""Cool. So you didn't have depression. You were just sad for a while.""""",1 struggling long never able venti loathe hopelessly unhappy want die that like cruel joke tell anyone low ostracized berated guilt tripped how selfish am met empathy world keeps selfishly saying dont want die piece shit coward miraculously wonders depressed people reach out ive talked friends just stop depressed dude ive talked therapists years take lots drugs admit super depressed ruin life flag dangerous person theres one talk to talking literally makes worse seems reason besides fear going hell killed know mom would die grief mom managed get diagnosed cancer bit tick get lyme disease get bit brown recluse spider one day considering recovering breaking legs arm feet accident still cant recover partner years telling go kill think hold much longer cant help see life sick comedy terrible is laugh world laughs you cry cry alone guess wanted rant talk myself sorry bother annoy anyone,1 know would wrestler im gay af sport would make wayyy aroused actually concentrate im,0 "@ResPres BTW Meant to tell you earlier, sweet shirt, to wear Afflication/UFC shirts, still waiting on my cool card to get auth to wear ",0 hi fello gamers gamerettes discord server friends r trying get new peoplee chat send memes play games like minecraft among us overwatch stuff going on commitment guys girls welcome dm link d,0 every little thing i do every step i take i regret it after i think too much about how what i do will affect others to the point where i just want to fade away and not exist i can t get over my failure a long a i have a constant reminder of them it s impossible and i can t bear it anymore i wish thing didn t happen like this i wish thing didn t continue like this i just want thing to improve but there s no sign nothing i feel so done,1 feel like im dying know im feel like it im end cold cold sometimes make head actual cold stuffy nose chest congestion scratchy throat,1 i don t have someone emotionally close by my parent do love me but it s cold and lack intimacy i am looking to feel emotionally safe i am trying to find a girlfriend with whom i can be safe emotionally but till them i feel i am fighting alone with no one to give me a hand if i fall emotionally to get up so i fear doing lot of thing i live in state of fear like i might one wrong thing with a date work etc and domino will fall and everything will come crumbling down which will now even push me off my physical safety couple of thing about me i am m brown man from india currently living in europe i had childhood where i had oppositional defiant disorder imagine the junior healy from problem child or the movie the babadook but he had understanding father i didn t had such supporting figure and school made it clear to my mother if he isn t disciplined he will be kicked out of school and she fearing i would not have better future without school education i will be left behind she implemented corporal punishment like kicking me hitting with metal rod etc and routine shaming at school for me being bad wa common getting kicked out of class wa common so much that now i joke about my childhood a being and outstanding student because of many time i wa to stand out of class there wa a point when thing got to boiling point that my mom wished i wasn t born to her eventually i realized the pain i caused people about me i started to doing thing to make others my mom happy well i tried it didn t worked always i never lost my rebel streak but a constant ping in my head would haunt me of thing i have done to cause others inconvenience in past somewhere down the line i lost myself and i trying to be myself but i fear of falling in my old self and everybody hating me i have fear of judgment like one recent example i live in white neighborhood and given the medium doesn t have that many positive image of young brown man other than extremely nerdy or extremely creepy and i fear if i like someone who isn t brown might judge me don t get me wrong if a stoic brown girl come in my life with good sense of humor and decent looking i don t mind having a relationship with her but i fear if we both have exposed to similar set of medium trope she might judge me by same parameter i try to use humor a coping mechanism to make people around me happy but then get in overthinking and depression mode if one person doesn t laugh or find me annoying i have intimacy issue i think i don t remember exact detail but i wa being cheeky a usual with a girl back in india she wa laughing at my joke and at one point she said you so cute and hugged me that feeling of hug felt so foreign that i stood there frozen i am hyper independent cause my mom have warned me since childhood that world is not safe place and people can take advantage of you so never be under anybody s thumb which i guess make sense not gon na lie but it also make you skeptical of lot of people which is also not good i guess i will help someone with no second thought but asking for help make me feel like keep a large rock on my heart so i forgo my need seeing happy couple make me depressed a i feel left behind like i should have done this long time ago anybody can tell me something or provide me with link or insight a for now i couldn t afford therapy i am trying to find one i am in talk with a therapy at a church in a city thanks a lot,1 memes go brr memes cant post subredditsso im asking financial karma support,0 hi fello peeps peepettes discord server friends r trying get new peoplee chat send memes play games like minecraft among us overwatch stuff going on commitment guys girls welcome dm link d,0 Good morning everyone ,0 big capacious wooden kitchen island 0x 0 metric thought i wa buying it but we re not photo amp c on request if you re interested,0 need brutal honestyso ive come conclusion im leech parasite friends losers change life which believe possible hard work effort want change itll take long im goddamn lazy thats truth im drinking rn contemplating hang tonight constantly feel suicidal im sober shit everyday expecting changes need get ass bother idk im asking natural selection finest lol,1 "Mom's depression tied to kids' emotional, intellectual development https://ift.tt/2HtVZCE ",1 hey guy i m and female and i ve been struggling with my mental health for the past year i ve had a lot of suicidal episode all of them were in my head so i never actively did anything except wishing to die but the wish of dying got bigger in the past month i just hate my life and i struggle so much it s just crazy i don t see any pleasure in living but my problem is that i feel like i m not 00 ly sure if i want this my reason of dying i might have ocd and this shit is just a living hell i keep ruminating so much and i just can t continue to live like that this sickness ha taken so much lifetime away from me i have horrible thought about the people i love the most and i m scared i might have harmed them in any way and i wouldn t be able to live with that i just hate life when you see me from the outside you ll think that i m a happy person but i m not i struggle with anxiety and panic so much they re part of my daily life i just have too many issue all of the pain will be over the problem is that my elder brother past away a month ago and my family wouldn t be able to handle two death child i told a close friend about my suicidal thought but i think that he didn t fully understand me he doesn t know that this is something that i m considering all the time about therapy i can t get any help bc of my parent so no matter what you ll say about therapy it won t be possible i just want everything to end i ve suffered enough i ve had enough of this life maybe i m being selfish but i ll have to do what s best for me in the last day i haven t been able to do anything good i mostly laid in my bed on the phone i just don t find any motivation in thing i eat very bad and then my stomach will hurt the next day my sleep schedule is fucked up too but it ha gotten better in the last day i feel so sick and when i m with my friend i play the girl who s always happy while i m not i just hate life i ve harmed myself a few time but it wa just biting myself i wanted to do more extreme thing but then i didn t bc i don t see how self harm could help me i d like to die a painless death or maybe commit suicide indirectly so that my family won t see that i killed myself,1 im suicidal im definitely existential crisishow one deal knowledge universe one day end find solace idea try best were alive let stress suicidal verge pulling chris mccandless,1 would like know anyone know get copy movie thats way world years since ive seen movie would like see again earth wind fire transcend nation globally inspirational music themes unfortunate group take like counterparts early s previously stated racial tension existed united states prohibited equalized exposure african american musical groups good see earth wind fire continuing success would like add movie collection someone please help possible thank attention milton shaw,0 Depression really play no games lol,1 end era released states spring the rookie disney live action film seemed best last took place right texas actually story began west texas evidenced area code found sign there high school coach convinced high class baseball team decided go professionalbr br what liked movie sooo nice good sports movie ala the mighty ducks trilogy also taken moviegoers across texas somewhere panhandle el paso way metroplex where live tell recognize ballpark was the ballpark arlington ameriquest field nice see disneys golden age end areabr br ripbr br golden age disneybr br sspring br br it started mouseand ended baseball sobsbr br ,0 doneim kid bad break problem family turned me kids speak tell horrible mother mother died pet adored life cruelly taken me im horribly sick disabled hurt time grandson ripped life ive researched ways get life really wish could get hands cyanide tablet killing hard do easier way person done,1 tried to download tweetdeck but it wont download,0 rather go location make realistic film drug addiction windy city contrarian director otto preminger decided go opposite way make movie appear artificial possible thus flying face fashion set men like kazan huston zinnemann making pictures world nelson algren whose novel movie based went record despising it what one wonders preminger to movie waybr br the sets film minimal suggest mr magoo cartoon louie drug pusher attired resemble sort gangster artists mad magazine used draw arnold stang wonderful comedian was seems place serious picture like this appearance topped exaggerated oversized baseball cap elicits laughter robert strauss another actor best known humorous roles likewise place large heavily jowled face runyonesque delivery lines seems appropriate jerry lewis movie this stars frank sinatra kim novak eleanor parker work overtime keep viewer snickering sinatra jittery manic throughout suggesting man ill ease himself hence wholly appropriate role drug addict miss novak plantlike sublimely deadpan sympathetic seems product artfully dingy slums graces film parker pure hollywood hardworking crippled crafty zosch never convincing neither filmbr br i recommend movie anyone interested realistic depiction lives drug addicts america caligari sets alone make unbelievable preminger may aiming dream effect cardboard backgrounds give proceedings surreal feeling nightmare operetta perhaps harking back premingers early days vienna,0 want go outd wanna go outside know im bored,0 @pursebuzz..G-Mornin' Pursebuzz..! Coffee..? ,0 gem british capercomedy poor american schlub pinky green richard jordan playing another bad guy time adorable one gets british jail tries go straight maintenance man job bank attractive neverreformed criminal friends headed really nasty ivan david niven one last roles pinky resists lure money much him things unravel reravel joyous watch jordan must played bad guys career never played one twice one lovable hate niven never played slicker bad guy oil over two fine actors weve lost wish back,0 one outpizzas hut except pizza hut,0 frustrating how day really need therapist home sick child cannot come in totally get job them lives families come first lonely feeling adds despair person talk roof feel lost right now therapist even,1 everyone smart enough become astronaut would world like would anti maskers conspiracy theorists would covid over,0 welp im goign depression again,1 yr old friends yr old weird hes turns turn ,0 @MandyyJirouxx try nordstorms cafe' romas tomato basil soup its...... A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!! P.S PLZ MAKE A NEW MILEY AND MANDY SHOW EPISODE!!,0 I want to have a good time! ,0 wishing i could get some sleep but that probably isn t going to happen tonight,0 youbaviandecru aaaaah oui d accord je me demandais pour combien de temp je partais en d pression merci toi,1 welcome everyone we are happy to continue our discussion on postnatal depression with you now how different is postnataldepression from maternal blue come on in and learn some more postpartummentalhealth timewithdrnita http t co cmfou0tnan,1 id make gay joke want keep straight face,0 @Khayzcee04 are we going to the mall? or something? can't wait to see you guys again ,0 why am i still alive i havent done anything with my life other than eat and leech of my parent and im already why am i still here,1 @fionajc3 It's quite cool.... and very easy. Just visit. http://blip.fm for more info. ,0 constant masturbation lead disinterest girls asking friend filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 last time i watched this movie it had this huge epiphinal line that wa exactly what i needed now that i need it again i can t find it,0 dont knowits much cant handle anymore but dont know want die want everyone everything stop hurts much,1 im unattractive lonelylooks matter point yeah dont that im home right trying figure kill,1 warning possible spoilersbr br rock star one solid rock movies ever seen original idea script focuses young singer s leading tribute band one famous hard rock bands period playing music note also living life idols friends tribute band expel him search originality destiny plays good turn gets hired replace lead singer idols band dream came true well almost starting live life famous including drug sex excesses rock scene s also face problems relationship supportive girlfriend eventually need answer questions creativity saying music bandbr br i liked film one reasons one first times life music hard metal rock bands shown realistic manner fans music genre satisfied soundtrack overall idea original issues artist lives life creates art rendered sensible balanced manner acting quite good mark wahlberg better action flics saw lately jennifer aniston tune nicegirlwhoknowsalotaboutlife role problematic ending quite conventional may disappoint looks like main character quiting big famous band found creative path however ironical twist music playing club end worst whole movie br br personal scale worth seeing however expect exposure high dose metal like kind music may chose avoid film,0 friends tiktoks arent able save cant figure videos account set able saved nothing happening shadowbanned sooooooo maybe something it unsure anyone sudgestions,0 guys help dont know whats happening usually like chocolate dont eat and sweet things days ive eating way chocolate usual way way more maybe equal chocolate bar day playing games ill disassociate want puke feel limbs theyll get cold,0 lot of depressed people out here just barely holding on to what little they have if anything life is tough another day,1 guys guys found im human bcause im water,0 hate body friends left mei born boy wish girl every day wake realise im going boy day makes die little inside top off closest friends suddenly moved school leaving noone im behind school cant tell anyone feelings ive suicidal two years now feel like im getting close attempting redflag,1 mental health deteriorating badlyi getting sicker sicker hard function anymore day day life hard whilst dealing severe mental health issues cant live way want see future even worse today last appointment doctor try best slit wrists,1 i would like to know if anyone ha experienced the same thing a me or at least close to it and how ha he coped or even solved it to get you up to speed last summer i had to go meet my long distance girlfriend and thats when it all started a week prior to her coming to see me i wa gagging when eating and generally feeling sick because i wa afraid worried of meeting her which wa not normal of me but it happend during that period i did not think any of it a i thought it would stop happening after i meet her and leave again but it stayed i have it when i am going to school and when i eat from the time i leave my house and reach the school i gag all the way but when i step my foot there it stop when i eat after i finish i will start gagging and fight with my self not to puke january of this year came and i had almost removed it from my daily life maybe because i got used to the thing i wa doing so they did not give me anxiety but when i have to do something out of the ordinary it get me for example when i went to a car meet week ago the day where the car meet wa hosted i wa feeling a bit sick and right before i left my house i puked out of anxiety i dont know how to remove it completely from my life all i want it to just live freely with out having to worry if my gagging anxiety will kick in if someone can help me or give me a tip i would gladly appreciate it,1 guys jacked middle class turn camera andsince anything related pornography blocked school laptops and im asexual bdsm kinki opened amazon looked bdsm toys beat meat shit aint pornhub itll do cum stain clothes fcking ate it yea whenever jack eat cum now would recommend,0 Well jus got out da shower from a has wastin time @ work glad its not MY gas lol,0 "@Whiteboy712 oh snap, u got 5 kids????!!! lets get together and combine kid forces to abuse the welfare system ",0 life shittired fucking living shit everyday nothing ever changes im loop everyday im fucking tired wish kill already cant anything right,1 it s tuesday evening and i haven t been able to fall asleep in a few day because i can not stop replaying a sequence of event at work from last week i talked it out with my coworkers and i know that i wa in the right there wa nothing i could have done to get a better result and it s ok everything s cool let s move forward with our life k i would love for it to be that easy but that squishy asshole between my ear ha a very different perspective on the matter so we can t move forward we haven t earned that yet we have to spend an indeterminate amount of time meticulously dismantling and examining every minute detail of the incident my action and the reaction of everyone else involved buckle up and grab a barf bag folk it s about to get real whenever i have even a tiny stretch of free time the film reel in my head alternate between warp speed and slow motion depending on circumstance and timing every minute or so my brain get the ball rolling with really all the thing you could have done and that wa how you handled it idiot followed up with whoa you ve got nothing to worry about bae you handed that shit like a champ before circling back to what the fuck is wrong with you why why would you do something so heinously ridiculous this is why nobody want to be around you this shit right here and after that we get another no don t listen to that mess you are entitled to occupy space on this planet without apoligizing for your own existence but then that s hilarious see how far that attitude get you tomorrow after everyone ha had time to think about what happened and they realize what an immature out of touch self centered asshole you are have fun dying alone and unremembered and then every few minute the pattern repeat itself in an infinite loop of madness half assed self justification and shame this can go on for day sometimes week or month but it never permanently stop sometimes a certain song a smell a facebook memory or a half heard remark from across the room will launch my as back in time to tear myself to shred over an instance that ha been dead buried and forgotten by the rest of the human race except for me lather rinse repeat go fuck yourself wave of abject misery and self loathing interspersed with flash of contentment that might occasionally brighten thing up but it never really stop or get any better the best i can really hope for is the drop off in frequency that occurs after a few week or ideally i might forget about the incident entirely until i get hit with a trigger again at least,1 It's the princess' birthday. ,0 "HOME!!! from my relatives. my sissy, @jennyisms, posted pics of her and our cupie cousin Audrey. ???",0 today first therspy session weeks therapist seemed really concerned suicidal ideationi telling feel like theres real reason anything even bother living squints says so suicidal ideation lately started panic internally might institutionalized,1 Meet n greet right now. Love yalls hugs. (via @DonnieWahlberg) <- you should get some hugs on my side of the pond ,0 teacher daughter college made advances me man suck chess,0 Watched Will Ferrell on Man vs Wild w/ Bear Grylls....funny stuff ,0 im complete failure dont deserve chancesi fucking pathetic failing college third fucking time unable get bed consistent basis bc cant fucking get shit done need to fall asleep reasonable hours fuck fuck growing fuck normal ive depression years havent learned much dont deserve opportunities never deserved ones anyways wish could stay alive burden family oldest child family ruin lives siblings guess id anyways disappoints cause yearly dont feel sorry me im piece shit spoiled loser cant anything lie around feel sorry myself dont insurmountable problems esp compared others posting here never asked easy life never promised work hard deserve it ps im fat ugly im high priority rescuing also told smarthad average iq ive realized ei emotional intelligence way important dont much theres one thing know sure life something hemingway said happiness intelligent people rarest thing know,1 company knows something wrong mei work since august know something wrong me probably suspect im suicidal cant anything due lack reasonable cause every day get uplifting texts companys line every day ask name positive thing happened day today asked administrative employees better things send texts boss says care checking falls better things do category kind feel bad im wasting company time need it otherwise id probably kill myself,1 taylor 100% is not gonna perform so it goes on tour lmfao depression pending — STOP https://curiouscat.me/perhcps/post/430016277?1524684188 …,1 think girl saying likes music weeks ago sent video dancing single ladies we dated last summer today facetime call hours put one song lyrics werent perfect ive never felt way anyone thinking it,0 man im glad stumbled across place popcorn instead place fuck goes beyond understanding thats ,0 hanson brothers andy apparently act together hank clearly act together need money andy comes scheme get dough consequences whole hanson familybr br this film delivers layered fullblooded roller coaster ride knows exactly doing crime drama thriller would happily compare no country old men films ample supply character drama thrills devil thriller side fast pace no country colder bleaker film really admire devil bit enjoyable definitely less violence devil no country acting delivers well ethan hawke sometimes wooden past brings jitters sweating deerintheheadlightslook besieged hank philip seymour hoffman andy films hardest scenes fast becoming actor believe anythingbr br theres really much wrong film jumps back forth without confusing events spiral control film never writing from first timer kelly masterson directing veteran sidney lumet editing stay tight drum many categories award caliber stuff though maybe films like the departed no country squeezed one limelight liked those like this,0 need get things chest iti cant take life anymore fucking hurts go everyday life fucking shit im poor hate it time cant afford food im living two bedroom fucking house five people reason get internet pitch it people left word brothers friends know life never fucking different me cant afford college hell barely make highschool im fucking poor idiot want live like forever think way stop living like stop living together,1 found work parking lotjust pulled work brother video chats me good friend brothers decent friend me guy know tight spot wrong way decided say bye think planned options slim none took none rip,1 first regular filmed columbo movie episode yet aired second steven spielbergs columbo murder book also time among one better onesbr br bernard l kowalski one great creative director wonder later asked direct three columbo movies movie real creative innovative shot sequences movie whole also clearly made style passion eye detail every shot connects reason movie better also better looking average made tv movie definitely one better directed columbo moviesbr br its quit original columbo entry couple reasons murder less accident impulsive act killer time time plan perfect murder advance clean traces afterward dispose body killer movie handled man committed crime man helps lieutenant columbo solve murder makes character interesting layered one well also helps make way columbo solves whole crime seem way interesting well that course columbo starts suspect pretty early always comes solution making vulnerable look stupid course truly gaining killers trust obviously spoiler since way every columbo movie gets setup liked story movie progressedbr br it also helps movie fine cast time movie peter falk really made columbo character character already fully developed robert culp truly great short tempered brimmer funny thing would later star three different columbo movies one mrs columbo episode totally different roles even played murderer couple movies well again way actor later columbo movies also great ray milland makes appearance movie husband victimbr br all all real great early columbo movie among better ones long running series moviesbr br ,0 im going try raise grades got grades i know lol gap wild precise af scared lol last weeks test next tests would like around th august im going better time smh ah gotta go back studying cya,0 im back day ban lol dont even think anybody reporting me im pretty sure bot trying cover hateful content,0 karsentheslater i m getting pissy lately i know i make mormon joke at you i m sorry i hear mormon joke now and i feel bad,0 i ve tried different table from the doctor and they all have really bad side effect i also can t live with i ve tried talking i ve tried working out i ve tried meditation and breathing technique is there anything else i can try,1 @MyManJBone I'll try ,0 in 0 i found out a former friend and person i used to have sex with in 0 wa posting my naked photo to a nude sharing reddit page kik and trading them with stranger on the internet we lived in two different country when i discovered this and the only thing i could do wa call email with the police in his area and inform his girlfriend at the time the police didn t really do much but they were able to track him down and tell him by phone or in person not really sure that he should delete the image he ha of me that wa all that came of it the police couldn t really even ensure he had deleted them his girlfriend broke up with him i did speak to him and he sounded sorry to have been caught he didn t seem to feel bad at all for how he made me feel ever since i have been struggling with this i feel extremely violated and stupid especially since he could still have the photo and be trading them with other people i wa only 0 and he wa when we were sharing nude and having sex and i feel like i did something that could potentially follow me forever i wa struggling hard with mental illness at the time i also had very little sleep and a stressful schedule i feel like i went into some depressive spiral and i started doing dangerous and promiscuous thing including being with him i know it s not an excuse however most day i just try not to think about what happened but some day it come so strong and i get an intense urge to do something bad to myself i am currently married to the love of my life and he wa an amazing support when i discovered my image online in 0 i know doing something bad to myself would absolutely crush him but i feel so worthless sometimes i still feel so violated i have the guy blocked on facebook but i know who his current partner is and i occasionally type in the usernames he used to share image to make sure there havent been any post since then he still seems to have a kik username active under the same name but i have no idea if he is still using it the police told me it would be hard to prosecute for something like this so telling me that i should try to get legal help is useless i obviously can t tell most people about this only my husband know so thank you for listening it s been year now since this all happened and i still occasionally feel extremely suicidal over it i don t know what to do to stop this i struggle with depression and anxiety on top of this but i usually don t feel suicidal unless this come up thanks for listening,1 itthis note guess right post im going end it knew may find this ive slogged long enough hell middle fucking apocalypse im surprised made far im finally tired suppose years living wrong body someone also adhd ton likely incurable mental illnesses too made one last huge push fix things year failed know anybody elses fault dont want funeral anything especially anything religious also name ray please dont use old one last all im sorry realize going put everyone know pain simply cannot anymore may hard impossible understand hope forgive ive done love all go peace,1 im absolutely terrified kill myselfi dont want die dont want live depressing lonely life used kind joke killing way cope everything honestly never really considered it iv always said would kill ever hit never girlfriend l things gotten worse right next days time decide go it first time looked methods imagined would like shit terrified me literally started tearing shaking whats options live always horrible life filled people telling oh dont worry itll get better keep trying attempt hang going described horrible experience risk surviving like come on kind crap that,1 so i have finally come to realize that i have had this fantasy that i have a family that care my mother ha her own issue bi polar my mom life partner just doesn t care and tell me to get over it my sperm donor of a bio dad remarried and ha his own family now and is ecstatic about his grand kid i feel like i wa the throw away tossed out with the garbage when it come to my parent it ha taken me 0 year to come to this conclusion why did it take me so long when my sister said f ck you when she wa hope is the only thing i can come up with to answer that question they say blood is thicker than water when it come to family i now disagree i have finally come to the conclusion that my parent can kick rock if they fell off of a cliff i would watch them fall some would say that is a heartless thing to say about your parent but i am done done placing myself in a situation that allows my heart to be trampled by one that claim to love me or one i would think should care all of these thought and outcome in life have lead me to being suicidal and depressed i am now working hard to manage my thought of suicide and depression first thing is to get my finance in check pay down my debt so i can become financially free to do what i want with my money second and really while i am working on my finance lose some weight and get my physical health back on track it is time for me to start living this life i have been gifted with and see were it take me all i ask of you is your support and prayer if interested check my profile from time to time a i make journal entry posting them to my personal profile god bless i love you all,1 had a groupwork assignment from my university and my best co worker are my anxiety and depression,1 mandated reporters get professional helphow get professional help someone go therapist im honest ill reported immediately,1 thinking ending allim long time stalker subreddit know strange thing say thinking ending many occasions feels like ever increasing feeling like right thing do right fiance friends work guess would lessen impact finding me also wondering things could do tidy things could make things easier handle passing,1 time get helpwhen suicidal thoughts problematic like point need go seek help seek counseling first thought happening multiple times day thinking would need take care ahead it problem contemplate acting thoughts,1 usmy friend wants die cant help her want die wont talk me friend trying balance us making two us feel worthless us want die question wholl crack first,1 heres poem wrote sugar birds broken record spageddie sea made grape soda theres dolphin named miss june jumped ocean flew moon flying found seagull sugar coated wings chirping help miss june please cant fix strange thing held june record broken june stood thinking didnt know do well come sea me thats thinking sugary bird followed her kept sinking could maybe use squid ink act makeshift glue seaweed tie broken pieces always option too sugar bird thought it said back miss june like squid ink option could find squid near soon miss june simply laughed well course can dear bird pet squid way get ink say word bird looked squid said squid word ink squid looked right back him little wink squid little shake knew time exploded puff black cloud ink divine thank dearest june thank lil squid too ink fix record like new celebrate moment played record then beautiful arrangement happy storys end wrote girlfriend doesnt like fancy symboly poems like such think fun,0 @Yummy411 not a problem love your display pic,0 Oh it's the kinks! ,0 know what fuck decrapifies life hope helps anyway,0 @cosmicgirlie Thinking of you. Everything crossed Turn baby turn!,0 people act like liberals arent gay conservatives lmaooooakdkskd laughs loud crazy liberal insane radical leftist like umm anyway,0 dont really wanna live past next birthdaymy birthday coming months ill turning every birthday depressing supposed die years ago nobody even cares im still anyways fact birthday literally ignored throughout whole life ive one decent birthday bittersweet memory lies anyways ive basically given life dont really see future me future envisioned years came crashing destroyed sense reality im also stuck right now parents basically holding hostage feel like loser failure lie people question ride bus dont job still live parents like im lazy stupid dont even know would first thing come mind things cars expensive housing state horrendously high actually problems parents psychotic easier explain ride bus save money gas say im living get enough money apartment fact job once car once apartment too lost things mental illness fucking stupid idiot im stuck parents wont let get job car mental help rather stay suffer homeless again ik im weak rather die point plus ive winging awhile planned dying years ago ever since failed first time future planned bf refer abusive ex severely damaged me lot people severely damaged me wheres punishment wheres damage ive tried think it feel fucking angry it guess caring stupid again also feel like reason killing time stupid last time killed myself ex abused shit felt worthless im scared life people everyday fine cant fucking normal im pathetic,1 i love my family i have a slightly distant yet mostly kind older brother a supporting and caring mother and a funny and relatable father i have a stable home life and have a roof over my head and i never starve i would say i have an amazing family and life yet i constantly ruin it i ve been sick and i ll probably need to repeat the grade even doing online course i don t know if i can even pas high school my parent have spent a lot of medical fund for a useless child i have no friend since covid started due to online course and the only people that i constantly to other than my family are doctor and my tutor i make sure that my family never find out i m suicidal though they don t need any more problem i don t even know if you would call me a suicidal a i only have suicidal thought daily i don t cut myself or do anything like that but the reason is because i want to see my family in japan one last time before i die we re going on a trip to japan this summer and that s the sole thing i m living for i m scared of the thought of what will happen to me once i no longer have anything to look forward to i know that at this point i ll probably kill myself the second we come back here at least i ll be known a the cousin who probably died first instead of the suicidal one or a drug addict i know how much my entire family pretend my cousin who is a drug addict doesn t exist so i know the horrid backlash that would occur if i survived i know that if i fail dying i ll fake a recovery before properly offing myself sorry this ended up turning into a suicide idolization rant if you managed to even read it this far i bet your thinking why don t i just get a therapist therapy solves everything not i had a therapist for a whole month and i hated the judging eye the subtle why are you here you have a great life and the fact that they treat you like some kind of test subject orochimaru like creepy people i honestly managed to connect more with my tutor that i ve only known for month who i only met once every two week on zoom never met her in person now i bet your thinking wait why did you contradict yourself you said that your family didn t know you are suicidal and yet you had a therapist it wa because i had to go to so many doctor so often that mother thought about my mental health and gave me a therapist i had the therapist or month before my mother decided that i wa just fine i thank my ability to hide suicidal thought well thank you reddit for letting me make this confession i felt like i needed to say it somewhere where no one would ever find out who i am,1 please dear godmercy kill theres gonna lot suffering future lot hurt bitterness hopelessness stay alive cant family killing pray get terminal illness die naturally someone shoots blow up im also scared commit redflag myself please,1 hubby ha such a tight scedule for u during easter vaca that it stressing me out visit all over denmark in day,0 today my teacher started talking about depression and anxiety etc and i fr got goosebumps the whole class,1 http twitter com freddybust status thats right,0 it already in the a m i need to sleep especially since i have to be at school for hour,0 feels inevitablehi first time posting reddit dont really know begin im sixteen didnt think id make far dont deserve alive im burden everybody feel like monster ive selfharming now two years people progressed time went on started cuts barely leaving mark ive got nasty purple raised scars mums told ive ruined body it already ruined find agreeing her im walking trigger warning fair others theyre exposed scars theyd better seeing burn too feels pathetic hurts though suppose job used take lots overdoses never tell anyone them nothing ever happened never even passed out attempted redflag back march hadnt planned deep knew wasnt going work hospital five days discharged attentionseeking stunt part ruined things family friends selfish know hoping things might get better might got support attempt counselling year depression anxiety selfharm month got referred somewhere else restrictive eating disorder im honest eating helped many ways id stopped selfharming starting feel positive put meal plan told hospital i healthy weight meal plan month followed almost problems started overexercising abusing laxatives time didnt lose weight though thought everything fine mum hated meal plan me acted though toughest part day plan eat stopped it myself shed say wasnt eating enough exercising much would call names shed make eat lots night would lead bingeing gained stone lowest weight started purging since october life consisted nothing eating lots unhealthy foods getting rid it noone noticed six months mum called cleaning toilet properly told psychiatrist support worker werent particularly concerned refused weighed that im fluoexetine moment hasnt helped greatly caused extremely vivid dreams manic episodes manic episodes included giving address public forum asking someone help run away trying solicit pills alcohol take overdose shoplifting razor blades think able smaller amounts reckless things id able get energy out take mind things instead gonna end killing myself problems lie within myself mainly appearance pretty personality wouldnt matter much unfortunately me redeeming qualities im rotten person inside out thats feel like inevitable im going kill myself plan now didnt before believe it could work could start starving unlikely control would almost definitely work im allowing time see lose weight either things get better me like things remain certain way out gonna soon exams another week ill see restrict intake lose weight ill also go shops unsupervised i live middle nowhere within walking distance point get one last thing need im bored life depressed teenager isnt tragically beautiful unless beautiful sad lonely dont want feel anymore much,1 mizzzidc la fisto how about you just move out wtf are you doing living with your parent anyway especially since you re claiming that it s causing your depression,1 sorry thought stronger this thought one day would find purpose this cannot eat showered slept days dad died front daughters mother left proposed girlfriend left last night alone state moved order her cried begged talk hung phone me thought loved idk anyone treat anyone like that always second option everyone life believe imcapable loved even deserving it planning killing crying type feel like dead weeks want stop want stop feeling once sorry strong enough tried hardest beat finally give up please hate meim bad person e want anymore,1 "Ok, so everything doesn't turn out perfectly. That's why it's so great that it sometimes does.. ",0 school laterr ill probly seak on at school soo ill update there ,0 @jkuner It's not...got some "insight" ,0 // Fighting depression is really vexing.,1 If an artist doesn't show much support towards his fans people call him ungrateful. If an artist shows that he cares about what their fans are going through and try to raise awareness towards stuff like anxiety and depression they are considered fake. Stop being like this.,1 ballsack sweat _________________________________________________________________________________________________,0 objectively pretty unlikable talks speaking you know try see best people ignored talk him claims bisexual introduced lab partner current girlfriend asked interested pursuing her stated clearly no fast forward three months winter break hanging bit frequently,0 five teens set camping oregon wilderness despite warned park ranger soon realize something lurking around backwoods waiting strikebr br when comes old horror movies one keeps popping every conversation friday th took upon find good old horror movies fell short simply compared friday th dawn happened among ones found really impressive bland stuff find today sharp terms character development quite likable ones casual pace hurry get hack slash bits takes time set proper mood tone atmospheric builds killer suspense letting always sense dread like somethings know strikebr br where live definitely overlooked gem simply people never heard give chance ill state friday th rip off two concepts even go near other mind overall one impressive slashers ive seen while,0 everything slowly getting better me friends plays video games numb pain school starts soon gave ever making good friend playing video games dad walks winning son dad im losing everything play cod one day random says lives state ask lives minites friends hang drive around fun ive forever dad asks playing video games winning son yeah dad,0 announcement make gaming ampxb thats it thats post,0 i feel a if life is winning i simply dont want to be here anymore i cant tell if im loved by my parent because it certainly doesnt feel like it i feel like they just use me a a maid and thats just how ive been taught since i wa younger so there not and reason to think that im unable to every week feel the same monday friday is homework with study group and im struggling in class because i cant remember shit it not that i dont pay attention in class it that i am mentally unable to rememebr shit i know back in high school i never had the problem then two year of covid hit and now im aa dumb a rock in a engineering major ive wanted to switch so many time every semester but each time someone talk me out of it ive told my parent twoce already but they insist that i finish school before trying to learn other thing i cant tell if my girlfriend love me anymore after the argument we had a week or two ago about me playing clash of clan and not giving her attention even though i feel like im doing everything i can to give her attention i cant sleep anymore and i just find myself staying up late and repeating the cycle it not like im not trying to better myself either i go to the gym with my friend at school and ive been doing it for week now i just thought it would help me get into the right mindset and help me focus more on school and maybe bring me out of this year depressive episode ive been in since covid started but nothing ive done work now im afraid that i have been pushing my gf and my close friend away and i just want to end it all i just want to jump off a bridge into oncoming traffic where i will have no chance of recovering i just want to go so badly but i cant im trapped not by others but by myself cry doesnt make me le of a man right,1 im tiredi dissociated years now battling suicidal thoughts constant self harm top nicotine addiction im years old sick ignored parents despite cries help cant live like anymore,1 imagine hating someone theyre slightly different post made people accept people,0 shoutout bf orgasm without cumming wish lmao,0 welcome cum cafe get today cumsume,0 speak swedish swedish original title film rnarna translates something line the robbers fact main problem film cause really robbers all young woman working swedish police researching robberies regular desk job one would think girl soon field taking matters hands story goes even shooting one robbers exactly weve seen before fact theres rather interesting twist plot halfway really help ending clich first two thirds filmbr br what saves another mainstream film fact masterfully executed ways actors great overact director really manages keep thrillingly exciting storybr br one thing really loved film fact music sets right mood needed absent rest time gives nice sense reality shootouts carchases spread throughout film nice touch fact michael persbrandt one swedish actors often tend get typecasted sadly hurts film know hes going play boyfriend heroine supporting character background thats something neglectbr br all entertaining film steals money plot time you ,0 trigger reddit ok pls show mercy,0 argh ive eaton so so much today,0 Going to Houston for mass at the cathedral ,0 "Exactly Sinem, exactly! 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Something very cathartic about it!! ,0 coach hillfuck you racist piece shit got ive become depressed contemplating death wish would suffer hope get heart attack fat fuck seriously want die fat ass makes feel like minority sucks fuck hate different hate god giving dumb fucking body fuck quit,1 add pokmon go please need send gifts challenge none friends friend code ,0 ive best friendzoned girl months case guys ever feel like love life cant get worse remember this laugh least bad lol,0 exactly one week ago came hospital alcohol poisoning possible organ failure made realize fully expect die im it took minutes find vein collapsed doctor thought going die came hospital night telling would sober point on exactly one week later want weed glass whiskey matter happens always go back old ways realize theres way im going make all,1 doesn t want to go college want to cuddle my babyyy,0 trying to write an essay in english painful,0 imagine holding gfs hand even though dating whole year could relate unfortunately,0 cant much longerevery day hard get know long ill able keep it want die,1 @BravenakBlog Actually we will be lucky if it is not Great Depression 2,1 would say film disturbing brutality depicted sick way like psychosis minutes time cruel introspection human behavior scenes ferocious starting butchery horse ending brutal sex scene kitchen every emotion exploited extreme frustration butcher love daughter almost incestuous rage finds abused every feeling natural wrong film delivers truth human nature honest brutal way message film ones life change second consequence ones behavior primitive emotions powerful determine ones acting id loved unique manner filming simplicity brutality accompanied silence inner thoughts pierce through,0 got pumpkin spice latte four pumps pumpkin extra whip coconut milk put fridge drink tmrw class also whats yalls starbs order,0 think need say anything elsei fed want sleep broken hopeless hearing voices mentally exhausted,1 know one caresa weeks ago went home ended going back old high school program visit instructors younger students hadnt graduated yet formed good relationships with first thing said go get stuff walked instructors classroom saw one first time nearly year forgotten get tshirt ordered graduated kept bc expensive ship never told me went saw students program first thing said wish like minutes ago couldve gotten us dairy queen instead us order it like know wouldve picked bc im pushover im someone people use idk ill ever go back im state college wont even option ill try kms go back half dozen tries different things dont even hope relief shitstorm live,1 @9_6 thanks. tired of explaining it to non kannadigas. wat does 9_6 stand for???,0 helpi swallowed handful old prescription effexor im shaking bed im passing out im scared tell anyone either,1 @Leeratow23 It doesn't have to be a solo battle when you belive God is with you! Only God can deliver you from depression and give you the peace you need!,1 i had so many suicidal thought last night while i wa driving to try to make myself feel better i thought drowning is scary but i can go put my car in the river and drown then i went well let s look up to see what medication we have that might do it i m just so tired i ve tried so many different medication at this point i do therapy nothing ha worked i m still holding onto a little sliver of hope thing won t always be this way maybe one day i can keep my house clean all the time maybe one day i won t be so stressed and anxious maybe one day i ll be able to stay consistent and do well at my job if feel like it s further and further away i also just believe i m a total fucking failure at and discredit all the thing i ve done because it s just not good enough to me i don t know how to stop the negative self talk oh and i m also sometimes hearing voice lately sometimes i know they re not there real other time they sound like they re right next to my window or in my house i really wish i could just not exist for a week or a month why can t i just shut it all fucking off for a while i even just had a nice date with my partner and i m already back to thinking well i should still kill myself soon,1 although small film kind got lost wake waterfront edge city certainly hold star studded classic another story docks code silence rules itbr br next corrupt union lee j cobb ran waterfront jack warden really small time corruption hes real enough gang boss one docks intimidates workers handy fists bailing hook gets rest kickback part hard earned money hard earned money jobbr br one guy warden cant intimidate sidney poitier another gang boss tries intimidate newcomer john cassavetes poitier takes wing two develop quite friendship poitier wife ruby dee even fix cassavetes kathleen maguirebr br warden truly one loathsome creature sad sheer force personality physical prowess cows almost everyone else submission sense hes tougher lee j cobb rely impression collection goons enforce waterfrontbr br edge city marked big screen directorial debut martin ritt great job good cast new york based players spot location cinematography films low budget show impressed ensemble cast really carebr br cassavetes loner past hip tough poitier fine personal favorite film ruby dee gotten award performance final scene cassavetes outstandingbr br catch one ever possible wish dvd vhs,0 "@cwelton: Hi Chris, Im at napier doing communications, any advice when looking for work experience in the PR sector? ",0 Just had breakfast. Oh so ready for graduation!!!! Rise & shine everyone ,0 writing noteacetaminophen take enough okay im waiting bank transfer buy them never made world im sensitive different soul cries aches every touch blow piece aof paper bunch scribbled thoughts life it note im tired understand people think selfish selfish one making feel guilty desiring peace join countless souls like fit this place cruel unforgiving cannot express thoughts feelings have love love love never loved cant wait say hi others me ill finally able meet others like me fit realm died years born realising could never happy was never content look dissociate horrible existence agonizing pain born woman guess thats reason im going fuck im attention seeking throwaway making shtty post taking time day single ounce pity pretty pathetic want put thoughts there way since family horrible hate near them could never relate anyone im different maybe someone see understand future archived months wish able connect someone else intimacy nonexistent me,1 want learn draw nekked girls maybe clothed ones mostly nekked ive taken ddrawing classes like times school still kinda suck,0 im scared myselfi really tough time coming parents transgender born male living knowing since im told parents pretend ok want really arent push me hurt sister upon hearing really hurtful me scared huge fight dad seeing cry first time life seeing yell mad anytime life one hour went online searched redflag drugs methods always happy never thought moment would come calmed detailed plan weeks go get eyebrows done whole body waxed get professional makeup get hair extensions nails done etc completely look like girl i feminine face body cross dress time getting public wear red dress get bed lots roses rose petals cut wrist bleed bed dress im scared keep getting closer closer this want call cops tell friend anyone want save this want live beautiful life transgender know can scares im close pushed ledge help myself,1 really need someone calm down please go rehab hours im scared im gonna away frends everyone else know days im scared going awful experience never wanna remember,0 girlsgonechild,0 @adorablyapples good morning! ,0 my friend ha suffered with depression for what seems most of their life and recently it s become apparent that it s become worse due to them distancing themselves being more irritable and stressed and even mentioning suicide they have also withdrawn from doing thing with me a much when we used to do thing very often i try to support them already of course but since i don t necessarily deal with severe depression like them i struggle to know how to handle thing sometimes what are some tip on how i can be there for them and support them many thanks if anyone answer a i really want to support my friend,1 i wake up and do the same shit everyday at a job that s a coin flip where i have a decent day or not i m just tired from my childhood and how the fucking demon i have just never leave im just so tired and done and burnt man i never hurt or did anything to anyone the fuck are these card i wa dealt all my friend are moving on in life now and i m so fucking stuck i wa at work today and my coworker said oh your mom raised you so well i bet when my mom called me worthless just the previous night to my face i just wan na go this shit is donkey booty fart,1 sublimity way reach beauty sublimity stuff film made of best loved bogdanovich moviesbr br this unique masterpiece remind us films director life or be about love lost or failure hope faith charity song films takes title gershwins well known composition film makes impossible true tries make us aware noone able judge anybody lightness comedy timing masterful direction the first ten minutes detectives following ladies almost without line dialogue constructed upon looks views characters with bogdanovich touch based pointofview class cinema language something pb learned well admired directors golden age movies superb cast glorious soundtrack including best sinatras trilogy movie full selfconsciousness compassion far away selfindulgence emptiness as critics wrote deserves better place history american cinema placed long style short substance complex simplicity beautiful absolutely beautiful,0 want help want dieredflag like natural selecton mentally distressed ones strong enough overcome so ones not live enough reproduce life finds way hi name x years old could th post site scrapped previous ones before regardless anyone read not want somewhere choose irriversible born third world country priviledged enough considered middle class comfortable luxurious grew grandparents mother almost half time group due ladder work day minimum wage paying jobs stated comfortable way living never ran food water internet tv could afford buy nutella pizza while thanks mothers savings need material possesion mother someone really short temper severe untreated depression characters tale would often get mad miniscule things loose mind screaming saying whatever went mind later sometimes regret reaction truthufly apologize worked years say least today well learning control it calm ever seen her hand grandparents female gm verbally abusive emotionally manipulative woman male gf submissive passive agressive judger problem here growing learnt since pretty early age first granddaughter born my oldest cousin four three younger taking place grandmas spoiled little girl also exange token fights were are common thing family family gatherings call disaster hasnt single one without exageration walked without someone fought someone else yet unknown reason yet understand keep soon fumes last fight go down going back token status time mother gm fought would usually taken away grandparents blackmail them youre gonna see x that x cant love someone us proceed cry everything gm done past including limited ruining academic opportunities making life miserable then everything over forced stay weekends deal gm crap how much love me how unreasonable mother keeping away how much hurt horrible mother if something call us come live us i matter could see trough bullshit naive aspect could easly see trying achieve this again wasnt problem grew partially religious household became atheist early age natural manner kid stops believing santa thoot fairy time term it exellence student almost shcool history full a grades strong relationships tutors i still talk highschool professors used back day intellectual scientific conversations almost every time contest participated developed mental motor skills early age born lucky star as far ignore familys long history mental disease trophy child everyone close family would held high standards didnt liked underpeform pushed beyond limits since kid loved brag family reunions workmates complete strangers giving crap social proposes showed world scolded missing things shoved cak crystal cabinet wait wanted tell everyone i kid again lowering grade tiny fraction would make mad getting sick daring respond would give week long scold go trough months punishment say half year without using internet no im exagerating even forced use summer vacations read trough three page budhist books make resumees mother could think touching electronic device never stopped complaining weight no fat rougly kg recommeded weight cant physycally seen even close examination ive never underweight person gm always wished to im also femenine thing there gm would desire dont stick archetypes want rebellious according society social movement kinds politics like videogames from terraria xcom saga age games puzzle ones books the praise folly erasmus rotterdam favorite written tales since learnt write poetry since well none matters passionate dampd player early years developed paranoidal behaviours still have screaming tears random corner room invisible man know watching me leave alone times would cover anything eyes portraits plusheies blanket utterly unreasonably feared watching me would lock doors windows even hottest days weve reached temperatures c f halfway boiling point water design clever noise traps mechanisms wake slightest disturbance caught grandparents watching windown couple times am nothing else stopped locking doors bady months ago longer scream misterious invisible man constant pressing feeling watched whataver do wherever am usually pressing feelings excessive guilt im productive also developed severe anxiety quick self esteem learnt hear familys emotions trough sound made footsteps speed parked with opened door long took greet sublte voice movement variations started live constant feeling something wrong time would see something made either grades weight productiviness would receive complains cleaned house without asked for would get you didnt clean here thank you one ever came time talked me time went even close bedroom id get really anxious started ask what wrong similar kid knows took cookies last night asked it difference time yet still isnt problem severe problems anxiety self esteem pressure started slowly climb me started drown expectations felt responsable obligated fullfil them smartest responsable best from born famous phrase one roleplaying games almost never enough almost never enough let ehile then teen age approached got lazier tired it grades dropped problems rose time time thing happened anxiety getting worse self esteem going lower got highschool everything ended falling pieces never got along well girls females age quite peculiar beings trying find group boys would accept got involved wrong people ocassionaly hited verbally abused me remember occasionally ignore comments kind things would like do year people got involved first ever fist fight won resentment tried move group boys kind enemy relation ones got along yes childish move else expecting year old girl wrong desition one kids believe reddit way knowing am changed lot trust slowly built though solid friendship lasted year right refer take advantage emotionally fragile suceptible year old girl without friends parental guiadance know talking about kid blackmailed time changed schools chose would go told me due fear i fortunately me kid didnt transfer first day school lot anxiety fear finally blocked social media didnt saw again since event highschool lot went on used generally happy joysful girl anxiety problems turned someone uncapable trusting people closed always defensive adoped ideal believing human hypocresy fakeness around me day still kind hold dear skipped lot details went forced love gm show affection someone made feel like carp nothing happened trapped blackmail someone thought could trust physical abuse non ending family problems lot them simply trust anyone anymore problems went by started unhealthly blame happened me point started hating myself day night would reming much idiot was slowly depersonalzied completely past self bitter personality pesimistic attitude pissed face day trust issues anxiety constant feeling watched judged people try hurt me thoughts become overwhelming decided shut head keeping busy day started ton activities per day tried take free time could good thing got diplomate literature age months later though started mentally exhausted continue convinced value came productive which pushed months tiring rountine so stopped things wasnt surprise quickly lost self worth left self value came useful want useful mess lasted last five years sunk deeply good friend mr depression originally thought teen years drama moment nothing reelevant one year ago date first redflag attempt failed couldnt tell thoughts started overwhelm much could wake best moods put single miniscule thing single comment even nothing would start break tears without reason get agitated nowhere feel terrible look deep images like cloud black smoke completely covered whenever wanted to rendering useless weeks started unable wake somedays stopped eating drinking water i couldnt meet expectation dissappointment letting everyone down useless stupid fake whenever tried make anything make useful thoughts would overhwelm broke tears constant impulse bash head wall make stop funnly enough recently realized bashing head wall form self harm nowdays want die longer see way breathing relieving pain firm though werever im sad happy good bad mood i want die years sites redflag conviced want help want better happy though did honestly isnt much me people say could brilliant person good job get good degree studies maybe could could wasnt me one good friend certainly miss gone even refuses accept it know really well easier would gone family would trumble bit exange token gone yes still that eventually pass rest dont even care strangers there dont even care know important help distressed people maybe theyre guided morality not they perosnally dont care would fight world hasnt done me anyone tired that tired trying get better better convince everyone im better know dissappointed them fooled ones hadnt fake intellectuality human hypocresy mentioned resented life nature humanity hate lot people mere existance specially hate me heart soul hate myself hate choices life ive done not would love go back mend mistakes cant one can honestly want live them used say tiny spark light inside myself memory old me trying survive trying tell strong convince i still here drowning shit details skipped long busy keep writing looked mirror today realized longer here want try anymore reason stay want die got far sorry stranger apologize broken english native speaker making afternoon bitter already was,1 know mebetter anyone know every little tiny detail cant hide anything you youve known longer known me longer mother has youve seen every part life tell everything ever happened excruciating detail start finish know happened know things made feel know things affected me whether knew not must also know feel ive seen much ive much must know want out must know feel like game isnt worth playing anymore im running around circles waiting die things ive experienced left empty desire see another day ive given up wont get better irreparably scarred battered broken seen much hard work nothing nobody cares dont even care long go sleep last time understand please dont make wake world life ever again,1 mitea is missing http apps facebook com catbook profile view 0 0 9,0 @bunki311 That sounds good! ,0 just finished watching the movie prayer for bobby broke my heart,0 know else turn to feels like brain hates me happy good job roof head clothes back lot people have able smile drains energy possibly describe voices head tell good enough never good enough pathetic useless worthless stupid waste space time energy matter world would better without me besides small screw grand scheme things world still spin family move on maybe without dragging down finally happy look mirror harbor nothing disgust resentment thing looking back me speaks me pathetic useless learned young age people pretend care see scars cut legs cannot see those one ever see those pretend care talk behind back oh look cutting again pathetic grow up be man told family monsters say phase its fucking phase want feel ok ok motherfucker got attention need change couple things change eat right exercise literally drink water dog thing world keeping here made decision kill june rd am tied noose hung closet wrote note one would ever care stepped closet thought last time dog barked never that cannot her live her pathetic staying alive dog animal would forget month family would forget month friends even care now bring past family parent told impossible man get raped well guess impossible happened twice life secluded away women hard time opening trying get relationship understand that exactly something bring first date heh never get second ones pathetic typing bunch strangers care they tried getting help meds make feel worse them therapists push agendas one you themselves myself one is worthless even done things thought id never do prayed prayed looking asking help strength get rid demons monsters avail monster laughs me useless used smart used lot practical knowledge superficial stupid nothing life make difference words say bring impact anyone else want one person read this suppose lot ask would waste time energy precious internet activity someone so pathetic want reach out waste space time energy matter matter never will die history books never say name never look me bones ground turning dust least ill useful fungus probably even right place post this many people need am made promise intend keep it die give dog best life deserves mean spend every waking moment wishing thinking planning death one day disappear never seen again would go canada northern forests find spot summer already picked day june rd good day die method sure guns messy pills unreliable rope trick anyone read this thank you sorry decided waste time reading words something like me thank nonetheless typed days hovering post button wanting burden others stupid problems gets sent all id surprised monster mirror,1 @RaMo_Live thanks man and good to see you twittering ,0 sorry annoying give comments respond wake saw someone else think responding comments super fun makes feel wanted,0 feel irritated af rn feel soooooo irritated reason feel irritated wanna fucking punch someone face fuck feeling like hormone related shit fuck deal this,0 big sad send commentplease write something feeling suicidal right crazy get state ,1 "Lmfao. There's two spiders racing around my living room ceiling. Mines is called Jonas, and my Mum's is called Bones, LOL. Go Jonas! ",0 loved series kids wb believe batman spin seeing original show ended show came first loved idea robin leaving batman solve crime own interesting perspective relationship also liked addition tim drake series like predecessor show great story lines great animation better original fantastic voice work course brilliant writing thing like us would often run episodes minute storyline wish episodes could longer favorite episode batman cartoons comes series called over edge opinion good better heart ice robins reckoning overall nice follow up along superman show made childhood happy,0 change mind people say but loved ones miss you bad people say if repent going burn helljust something needed get chest experiences irl whenever subject redflag gets brought up single response get reason it something along lines but family miss you thats selfish think family go through lesser extent bunch bullshit implying im coward first all actually make point let say dare anybody call selfish coward wanting out would literally like calling somebody piece shit quitting job working dislike ask born shit show world no agree this no this one going sound cheesy but consent born no importantly owe anybody anything brought life specifically owe anybody stay alive fuck no disagree selfish also hypocrite dare condemn me dare look me dare insult wanting make choice regarding life dare feel entitled putting ton effort continuing existence want what feel bad yourself selfish petty selfish please note theres big difference people essentially blaming victim essentially threatening victim trying guilt staying alive theres big difference type person people actually try talk things listen im like attacking everybody replies suicidal person person grew religious family ive heard fair share people telling if believe god burn hell get tortured forever people always say theyre to protect me theyre trying help me hmm sounds familiar lot people tell dont kill people feel sad pretty much say theyre just trying help like religious nuts answers anything why stay alive why believe god literally met threats condescension people tell theyre just trying help theyre jerk off want feel like moral high ground want feel like oh boy im good person stopped somebody killing today reminding people miss die or ofc oh boy converted another sucker cult mean sure religious people threatening torture least actually think bad person think need think like them people basically calling piece shit decide go redflag tell type person worse,1 "i vote for you about 130 times now haha , you will win for sure loove youuu! keep smiling don't be nervous for tonight ^^",0 distance does not make the heart grow fonder it makes the heart grow depression,1 @MarvelStudios @Marvel WHYYYYYYY??? Depression level 100 #InfinityWar #Serbian,1 just called out of work today i m feeling like i let everyone down which i know isn t the case at least i recognize the anxiety,1 think killing self everydayi dont want use gun bc idea get one plus know wouldnt able go it mostly fear wouldnt shoot correctly end vegetable state cant take pills bc none strong enough dont want end getting stomach pumped ive considered slitting wrists letting bleed many things online say takes hours itt effective bc many people cut right area people wake feel nauseas lightheaded lot pain wish someone would kill would get diagnosed something will dont want live anymore im afraid it im coward hate myself want die,1 need help hw bio need answers ecology webquest biology due minutes front page trophic level pyramid rly feel like it,0 What do tupperwear and a walrus have in common??.......They both like a tight seal!! ,0 I am Lowkey going through depression that I'm fighting HARD to overcome,1 it is official... my favorite psp game is Naruto Ultimate Ninja 2. yeah! this game takes me personally to Konoha. ),0 @kelpel Too late for me to try to fit in in NoCal. I've been here so long that I either fit in or there's no hope ,0 moody rn hate life hate schoolwork hate grrrrrrrtrrr,0 interesting titlehi im sorry wasting peoples time would one person able talk me guess realised tonight back shit gone partner listen me even listen sits completely quiet get upset says i dont know say every time know life comparatively bad since im homeless option food usually available yeah im good person,1 @jesirose it's on too late for me and they were bashing Os secret muslem teleprompter. They gave credit to O for being an elegant reader,0 bruh also fuck mods title length requirements cant mean lady thighhigh boots dom me once smh smh life sucks fuck capitalism,0 gentle easygoing s comedy kim novak belongs coven witches manhattan puts spell neighbor jimmy stewart boredom eventually falls love him losing powers see witches permitted hot blood love elsa lanchester novaks aunt also witch jack lemmon brother ditto hermione gingold chief witch ernie kovacks sidney redlich author specializes writing witchesbr br i described s comedy could hardly mistaken anything else everything smooth polished set decoration wardrobe plot performances direction take character ernie kovacks hes referred a drunk nut heres movie demonstrates traits asks second drink and though always wears jacket tie like gentlemen hair bit long tousled thats strictly s version drunk nut nothing place everything tidy free dust soles jimmy stewarts shoes barely scuffedbr br and zodiac club witches hang out called a low dive yet clean dark place polite waiters quintet musicians neatly dressed clientle potted plants bare brick walls idea low dive even greenwich village idea dive greenwich village juliuss white horse tavern san remo swing rendezvous defunct lesbian hangout zodiac club high dive compared thesebr br the kookiness always hear muted todays standards mean kim novak odd runs around apartment bare feet wears lot black clothes like beatniks period didbr br but never mind that enjoyable romantic comedy kim novak effective gillian runs primitive art shop uptrodden strange beauty bulky ethereal time glides rather walks wispy presence eyebrows seem drawn set plastic french curves jimmy stewart quite good bewildered bewitched victim s usually played light roles postwar years much s tortured protagonist puts early experience comedy good use could resist laughing hermione gingold forces wear shawl drink hideous concoction putrid fluid order cure novaks spell good see stooge instead angry indignant man principle danger becoming richard quine directs movie quietly without fireworks special effects interesting things play had note scene novak casts spell stewart siamese cats face ears seem merge novaks startling eyesbr br ernie kovacks s wellknown television personality never anything quite like ernie kovacks show after brings word surrealism mind could stage five minutes worth wordless indescribable tricks unpopulated room bartoks concerto orchestra background unimpeachable sketch using character percy dovetail effete poet credits kind skip condoli brothers thats rather casual two guys pete conte virtuoso trumpeters independent careers jazz ensembles conte later member doc severisons band johnny carsons late showbr br the third act kind bogs little becomes romantic comedy never dull whole film rolls along neatly van drutens play kids probably get kick too,0 confession make thx listening spotifyno really couldve listened radioyou couldve spun vinylyou couldve listen track tapeif knew track tape look likebut listened spotifythx thatand still hundreds playlists enjoy,0 so close to finishing i can taste it ,0 made im officially popular kids among us discord,0 unusual film ringo lam one thats strangely underappreciated mix fantasy kungfu realistic depiction swords spears driven thru bodies startling especially first ten minutes horseback rider get chopped two waist legs keep riding horse several horses get chopped up unexpectedbr br the story simple fong shaolin brothers captured crazed maniac general imprisoned red lotus temple seems torture chamber temple general similarity kurtz apocalypse spouts warped philosophy makes frightening paintings human blood br br the production impressive setting bleak blood everywhere action well done mostly coherent unlike many hk action scenes time sometimes movie veers absurdity effects cheesy never bad enough ruin film br br find one one best hk kung fu films early nineties remember child friendly,0 attempted suicide third grade why sick parents arguing sick one weird kid school nobody talks too sick seeing family poverty trying raise family course still love parents hate watching struggle needs is split hated seeing single parent cry handed bill christmas tears eyes barely able keep straight i however beyond belief grateful getting never owned much money beforenow comes self insecurities self doubt depressionredflag lovetrust issues spend hours day wondering ugly kid life would much easier dead i know killing look something do insecurities wondering skinny like people seen physical appearance eat enough self doubt good enough burden parents ever suicidal ideation held together want see pain circles around head eventually driving madness causes break tears know love hard time trusting people causing push awayif hard talk feelings peoplereach get help getting understand going inside mind life maybe id different point state mind rant post thoughtslife,1 commit suicide or selfharm,1 dont big tiddies least cosplay male characters small tiddies better big tiddies,0 movies viewed almost years later yet remain engrossing one technological advances dated classic love story special effects used remarkable movie acting superb david niven kim hunter especially roger livesey outstanding job use black white color adds creative nature movie seen television years people even aware existence favorite movie time waiting hoping dvd release movie many years is itself a matter life death,0 feel life worthless need helpadvisethis first time asking help cant really talk parents say stupid depression real problem worry about etc might make mistakes since native language english year old girl living parents studying last year university degree last years life real friends friends parents love heart might ask years old pretty outgoing child hard make friends parents moved country russia spain economical reasons know spanish communicate anyone loneliness felt cured watching tv surfing internet playing games time learnt spanish anything common talk classmates no one interested liked time became unsociable introverted thing cheered parents pretty well studying lived today friends eat play gamess read study fat kg weight ugly people would advise lose weight stuff that years went gym putting makeup trying talk people wearing beautiful clothes still ignored people find real topic talk about feel like exercising putting makeup anymore left gained weight one time try hard still lonely either way also lately likely fail subjects university huge since family poor also hit hard selfesteem went downhill parents angry thati cant find job since spain unemployment high theyd rather employ spanish person mei feel stressed last years every day thinking suiciding useless life and likely future thinking future get well payed job finishing studies buy anything want maybe lot happy moments no change anything work life boyfriend first kiss friends acquitances starting lose interest even trying things trying go trying make friends every time see people know happy travelling friends always sociable feel worthless inferior want continue miserable want think redflag every day want stop crying almost every day one sees me stop depressed kniw antmore do think life worth living way is sorry hard read bad expressing,1 tired long went strip mining hours went strip mining fortune pickaxe ended getting stack diamonds right end put diamonds chest skeleton shot lava lost fortune pickaxe grinded xp hours got fortune pickaxe,0 hello first let start saying like all realizing little mean people giving up soon me going break mirror hope one shards big enough stab throat with bleed death probably suffocate okay either one really matter long job gets done cannot stand living endless repetitive regret fun birthday next month one ever cared abt birthday even alive feel loved anyone alone hate much would rather die continue living like this already self harm stuff big deal right gives shit anymore never really mattered first place born dad could play house mother absolutely disgusting life wasted is good guess want everything end healthy way life huh,1 still no quot follower quot please some inform me on how this work,0 im happy relationship feelings heartache guilt regarding ex making feel terriblei long distance relationship years things got rocky one fights broke enough want crawl back like before stood ground think spite wanted fix things let him started feeling guilty decided go try enjoy life hanging boyfriend got involved intimately one thing lead another hes boyfriend ex well call v wanted try fix things said changed could work things out hed finally fly see family after years never did always went there hed visit move whatever begged begged said no left alone week felt wanted take life asked stay phone decided could talk outside mosquitoes eating me know suicidal said left alone wanted put head lap wanted talk left alone many times dark place matter going on hed set aside come help me betrayed him cant say felt like wanted go back stuck decision theres much more may write out want make huge post basically im friend spending time with ex moved telling dead him girlfriend understand happy think im happy sometimes remember hurt caused again theres tons layers this feel horrible wonder things could ended differently sometimes feel horrible boyfriend right kind caring always looking me care deeply told loved once cant feel like say ever again know im still love v keep trying pretend like im not like think him push memory aside alot christmas coming the time year id go visit anxiety getting worse feel like crying see things remind him mother loved own cant anymore im scared feelings regret hate man one point told id side eternity life planned together year supposed close distance hate keep holding this want pack things run want leave everything everyone know behind alone myself maybe go west lay field fucking overdose lost want kill myself thing stopping lack solid plan along guilt feel hurt man loved point want myself terrible pain want hurt anyone anymoreim scared loving again miss man called lover best friend v miss friends lost end relationship spent many nights playing games together wish could somehow still friends im scared hurting anyone anymore thats thing thats keeping just finding whatever means end it know im loved many people im blessed friends like ones do im blessed family like one have im blessed caring boyfriend wants find happiness feel fucking alone scared right now bringing anyone gonna cause trouble again cant tell anyone cant afford therapy want vanish edited missing words,1 hi i am an y o female and i struggle with social anxiety i am attending my last year of high school year and i ve been struggling attending school lately especially history class a i have a presentation that wa due week ago it s only in front of the teacher i ve had this teacher for maybe three year now but i hate presenting in front of him i had him in year and too in german but last year it got so bad i had to get help i even went down a grade because of my anxiety he s not a bad teacher or anything like that but he ha this habit of pointing and making u student talk even if we don t necessarily want or is able to which ha made me scared to attend his class i want to cry just thinking about it he also doesn t give any confirmation when we present something he just look disappointed and it doe not help at all he doe this even when we do a good job get good grade i m also not confident about this presentation and i have barely slept these past couple of week because i feel bad about not going to school i sit up wanting to try fix on it but i never end up doing it because i just feel like i can t it s really frustrating it is ruing my attendance and grade in other class too any advice i am in this horrible circle and i just can t seem to get out i almost don t even want to but i m scared i am going to fail history and i can not do it all over again it s too much,1 im tired everything seriously considering end allso lately ive feeling really everything something ive dealt long time unbearable im pathetic year old loser basically future friends nothing care anything anymore spend nights crying help,1 clearly something wrong mei always try kind many people wax poetically world needs kindness yet ever gets shit shoveled face getting used friends whatever whole schtick point ive edged last facebook friends college friends high school friends even family gone numbers deleted phone anyone contacts anyway ive managed scale back social side life barest minimum maintaining decent job yet cant shake discomfort around people especially young women around age frustration almost much bear first girlfriend dumb rocks entirely codependent next turned lesbian next emotionally manipulative latest and significant started developing schizophrenia years in even better thanks way come waves got watch lose mind twice eight months life eggshells hoping return im alone get thinking why nobody around seems worth time i honestly think anymore redflag mind decade long wait sacking it like itll hard,1 looking new friendly faces hey im xander im looking folk would willing try hand relatively small server mod team best keep everyone happy plenty kind caring residents would gladly welcome you may true server may active moment wed love good folk like liven soft cozy atmosphere dm details invitations,0 real relationship yearsi relationship years rejected times month point know never person come home to one ask day was one hold night want basic human contact want cuddle want look deep someones eyes know love me want look eyes let souls talk other know go anymore loneliness going kill me almost ended life times last months time interrupted malfunction sort im afraid might succeed want live loneliness rest life ill end first help me,1 i did it while they were talking in the living room area of our hotel room they talk so much and so loud they didn t even realize i wa in the bathroom dying my attempt failed your body naturally won t let you die this way but whatever i ll try to find another way to kill myself because i m tired of living i want to just die,1 got girlfriend sit down relax let kama start rolling,0 guys there many actually practice nut november seriously ive always thought people make memes fit times wanna know many like tradition,0 dont love know,0 something positiveidk appropriate post sub since im often wanted say planned end life week ago birthday obviously didnt think blanked day dont remember anything nothings changed im still guess small win me,1 breakthe break fun spending entire time sitting room bed crying door locked looks like head back school i could take knife beside reasons jam throat slide across bleed horrible pain really better two considering go back school guy wants slit throat anyways reasons seriously really want gather enough courage time ill it,1 need help hey guys get chest pain getting bed real painful lately figured could ask guys help im male btw,0 made video regarding whether reviews really helpful video explains either listen reviews not gives right idea given desire buy game jokes many inclusions horny man himself httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvhlqvskxshttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvhlqvskxs,0 got abuse hurting friends family family literally tears scared psychosis going come back fucking traumatising also me top kind get treated like hormones get lied horrible going kill voices,1 "@joannasas may hang over pa ko sa bonding m0ments kahapon hahaha hay this time.,",0 @sincerelyyou oh good I'm glad and mine was very delishhhh thanks for asking lol ,0 11 Symptoms of Depression in Men and How They Differ from Those in Women https://ift.tt/2HuMCSY  #learningmind via LearningMind1,1 havent ate days feel finally peacei drink ltl water mostly mouth know time takes time dunno even eat,1 hey guys people different races baby biology taken consideration,0 stay goim sitting couch trying make decision life become unbearable one wants around soon unemployed would rather live homeless car dogs stay family doesnt want me ive calling texting support network past hour one answered dont want die option packed bag full tank gas dogs eager get going leave,1 i m had a suicide attempt around month ago and am struggling to move on after it i tried to overdose on my antidepressant i wa in the hospital for day on the psych floor until i got released since then i moved across the country and am living back at my parent s house in my childhood bedroom i applied for medical disability from my h teaching job am currently in therapy twice a week and thinking of outpatient program my antidepressant were increased along with adding a mood stabilizer all my life i ve never taken medicine and now i am on pill each day i am back at home and have no friend here i use no other social medium other than reddit due to my social anxiety i just adopted a cat for company but he hide from me all day i just feel so stuck and alone i ve been depressed for so long and am not sure how to move on i feel like i have regressed so much everything that i feared for my life when i wa young ha come true i am with no partner gay no job and no close friend my self esteem is shot and last night i cried for an hour when my dad sat beside my bed some day i feel ok but most day at some point i feel hopeless again honestly i don t know what to do with myself each day all my interest are gone and it is hard to just get out of bed anyone who ha been through this how do you move on i still feel i haven t completely processed the attempt,1 submit image posts im honestly confused media art flairs exist then bug,0 ive killed head least ten times todayim tired energy move forward anymore care life kind go everyday motions without drive im shy overly self conscience ive developed social anxiety years im afraid everything panic time feel like everyone know thinks im joke every time feel like im getting little better feelings come back stronger harder cant get head know explain im feeling even want fear shrugged fact mother friends im done life want put fucking gun head pull trigger im fucking trapped money therapist car work dead end job money gone end week cant fucking take anymore,1 recover sanitywell ive lately struggling random sanitycordure loss driving crazy used dissociative identity disorder treated got integrated for anyone know imagine disorder fragmentates someones head different people control someones body without even aware since got integrated parts fused complete again happened like half year ago lately random sanity loss breaking mind feel sad cant move bed reduced amount food eat due loss appetite know break pieces again parts might complot possibly kill well actually know alive something good anymore grades going care much like used do got way restore sanity something like that know talking psychologist could help lot ive told mother twice already care enough might even think due age btw struggled years apparently got fixed seems like coming back possibly proper traitment tried deal it entirely myself right now im bed study exams coming week hard even think something remain bed listening music,1 want attention want heart maybe hate thought someone newlala,0 ventinghey dont anyone say to dont even know say this stumbled across subreddit idk maybe belongs here ill delete whatever much say dont know put words im year old female never felt loved life entire childhood general adolescence experienced extreme bullying large group people ive high school years mental physical trauma left lasting damage honestly dont even know start feel like words cant even express hopelessness hate myself feel never mean anything anyone never accomplish anything serial failure ive never relationship ive never important people considered friends cant even say im afterthought honest im much thought all meaning nothing anybody surprisingly exhausting dont think im ugly im certainly unintelligent love sense humour however never met anybody thinks same dont know act like look like make someone want life dont know interesting someone ive tried buying friends ive tried everything one person like me live somewhere guns arent particularly accessible love family dont want see upset lot deaths family close ones too ive seen experienced sadness losing family member cannot kill without guilt knowing giving parents huge funeral bill also afraid loose ends tied desire kill great wanted since know never significance anyone anything think hurts bad know dont deserve treated way yet treated way every person bring life maybe im bad finding people maybe always starts beautiful promising letting someone get know always mistake dont know im for im asking anything wish knew available would give best result im stupid dont want hurt anyone myself hate myself hate im me want anyone else want desperately love loved know unattainable goal know going get gets better always gotten worse know going get youre young dont energy detail every trauma experienced pattern summed arent good enough know am never be good enough happiness get socializing people online however reminds im likeable youve never met me ive met people ive close online promptly stopped wanting life want kill myself afraid failing im afraid loose ends,1 dont think im things rightim single amp living parents dont know go school for dont stable job even wanted to things never work out relationship lasted years honestly say relationship made happiest ive ever been although long distance relationship knew wanted forever legal situation couldnt go see her got tired one able come and problems ultimately broke amp shes happy someone else matter hard fight seems like life always goes south everything goes wrong think alright wondering sort rehab camp something inexpensive sort rebuild myself,1 discord server kinda chill mainly meme shitposting server lemme know want,0 hopin for a text 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to everyonee jared neveerr chat on kyte lol,0 know handle thisevery day think redflag think id it fantasize it want escape way feel way am feel strong enough keep pressing weight cant sleep barely eat every second torture cant ever seem actually it think thing keeping thought everyone expects stay disappointed heart broken want feel like enough want stay for nothing inside wants exist benefit feels pointless idk feeling pain start therapy next week hope feeling normal know immediately cure me,1 new art teacher thank getting upset class snowpants dont lockers due covid karen,0 Quick Question Is Fortune And Fame To Much To Ask For Reply me <3,0 gets betterif going end minutesthis tale depression im sharing hopes may help people background grew live southern alabama us growing short carefree attitude made great target bullying mention last name included word panty fun that years verbally bullied year physically actually got beat lunch money th grade met girl start love started spending lot time together started dating rock then th grade year mother moved away job another state parents divorced way evil stepmother verbally physically abusive occasion left living grandmother became ill moved aunt far away living house myself working hours week sometimes paying bills still high school least girlfriend high school high gpa decided id go military pay school thought could get base close far away home yeahno far continentally could home two years engagement ring later breaks phone real start all spiral tell friends weeks cause bring accept it finally friend dragged party base ended going home mother twodivorced instead it attached feelings left hanging exfiance new girl date get deployed take break get back continue see official take leave head home couple weeks home course weekend goes meets guy gets engaged weekend tripped fuck out ended sleeping married friend found later became pregnant miscarriage get back leave start cutting myself state feel endorphins kick in real feeling feel fuck head even start oral sex mom whose engaged im sleeping bed her fiance lived couple hours away ask marry work guy classy right saw military psych useless well guessed work got married two step children wife exfiance im still madly love time too new wife tubes tied chance kids find exfiance pregnant another mental blow find friend pregnant child miscarriage another mental blow due force shaping program implemented air force time get transferred reserves back close home uproot step kids wife take washington st lower alabama try fitting wife two kids dog four cats two rats explorer making cross countryso make home finding jobs sucked time hurricane ivan blown job support family would leave weekends reserves hard find family help found job ac heat business worked hospital viral ulcers throat eat drink lost pounds week though changed jobs line cook moved neighboring town relationship got worse got point asked divorced thought yeah wanted make work didnt also around time started hanging high school friends also included exfiancestill love with husband would all including soon exwife go drinking dancing ex would danceslow dance me made think id chance least side wanted anything soon started smoking pot one coworkers help deal it wife left weekend go see new boyfriend virginiawhile still married less gets engaged there leaves two year anniversary bag weednot bad high mention bad anxiety issues pot way deal since insurance money see doctor dated slept around little drugs mdna felt level first time long time exwife left after started hear voice head would say just kill yourself theres reason still alive even worth it many nights alone holding knife wrist got set blind date wife went good started dating shortly that six months relationship need pot anymore things getting better eight months in im pregnant ended getting married year blind date college time finally started college newlyweds kid college financial nightmare started seizures complex partial temporal lobe know place memory is memory sharp anymore took get seizures control failed semester it medical bills piling up luckily mild insurance time seizures control finally move first house mortgage wife dropped college got full time job enter kid number two kids wife mortgage plus full time college student working hrs week anxiety reached high point depression gradually worsened gets bad again would days days days constantly think killing myself bad daysdidnt go classes maintained c avg best could tried see psych college professor sessions pop dollars student talk you useless funny story took one tests know mentally lying stable lol sadly regretfully started affair co worker lady ran pizza joint shopping strip fellow classmate sex classmate made fingered two made hate more wife found classmate confessed know two rough patch got it exfiance would come store worked occasion would still get biggest anxiety attacks hard enough think much less see her finally got contact ago able talk things her even still took several months finally come emotional realization us nine yearsnine years love person unrequitedly good im married someone loves two kids still financial problems steadily working that low emotionally imagine wanting kill myself went bouts could think killing myself held knife wrist many times made small cuts made bigger cuts elsewhere point take decade get better also believe destiny fate life flow let go drift makes nicer ride fight flow like several occasions even times could feel current me wanted control life hard sometimes live life walk far enough desert find oasis,1 ever found strangecreepy websites so id love see them im currently trying look obscure pass time please pretty please something fill thing im making barbecue chicken ngl kinda slapping,0 getting worseim still thats alright guess im still dropping regards esteem determination hope left me ive made cheesy post before ill spare tge detail time vent want vent about ive gotten point becoming hard get bed im eating much all nan entire life final stages cant breathe without moan airways expand make things worse take prescription drugs every hours hardly mentally already miss much woman was outlet nobody cares make things worse got midterm im averaging dreams going university shattered well whatever reason keep pushing though landwhale aunt joined pos uncle honestly toxic entire family uncle related nan blood lets stay around kicked once aunt told nan terrible mother abandoning child nothing done though kill im afraid snap late now everything bottled long im breaking point,1 tho feel like one give chance encouraging stuff would nice,0 "@KingOfStatusB Depression is tough to deal with, its not like you can easily snap out of it. That shit is hard af",1 committing redflagif believe afterlife think happens next punished read many ndes really curious wish could assure ok know family okay without me need know ok mm grapefruit wont hurt,1 motivation things work weekends anymore whenever get home work next work day cannot come quick enough whenever weekend starts cannot wait finishi use hate work look forward free time found job like seems shown much dislike personal lifefree time talking friends helps cannot take free time up enjoy going work look forward coming home look forward work distracts personal life,1 worth livinggood evening everyone im sure correct place post oh well here suicidal thoughts since age never actually anything im writing despite thinking killing near future like living find boring nothing personally enjoy seeing people around depresses even more luckily enough blessed good family never notable problems trouble school trauma social problems despite thoughts while never told anyone apart teacher familiar with want hurt ones love me think therapy kind would help though tried yet point need live like anything do done at least thought about hate certain things like school even stuff necessarily hate like spending times loved ones boring pointless grow older feel trouble keep coming financially independent all want live pay taxes nothing truly live for know normal im oversensitive start thinking future end crying want live want end life front others always put fake smile invent random garbage goto job life would people look weirdly move on im tired that recently thoughts become stronger spending evenings roof idea yet impossibility im weak anyone situation ive tried setting goals stuff nothing gives live please give ideas otherwise would also appreciate ideas regarding painless ways go future thank taking time,1 nick crowley inside mind nexpo scaretheater barely sociable mama max max best em great youtube channels check em out cover relatively similar content good inside mind good couple months ago thats theres like good args anymore,0 broke many friends lately people tired me summer vacation home alone time meet students lose easilyno job nothing cannot find anything good doi going lose mind genuinely want end thisif could would freeze come back years later cannot exactly best method escape reality suicide ending all all writing supposed celebrate todayi want forget problems stop getting complaints every small thing doi emotional person point somebody calls baby could literally ruin whole dayhelpmeplease still depressed long live,1 looking iti came reddit looking sub would help figure best way die without damaging organs donated i two routes wanted discuss witch one better see community exists seeing sub posts made think really want it thinking time almost last year whats really stopping thinking family bf feeling guilty would feel time wanna keep sake others life going anywhere cant accomplish anything know person life lived differently pattern follow wanna life nothing thinking death could bring goodness by donating organs feel like would finally accomplish something even know wrote this know gonna read comments guess wanted vent ok bye,1 feel like belongi writing this know add want disappear escape world living in simply die existence know place here,1 aight gtg kinda need pay attention class ill see later g,0 dont knowi dont even feel like belong here im constant balance slightly numb daydreaming redflag ive done everything fucking feel something past months ive cut many fucking times finally stopped weeks ago bled much thought hit vein although sometimes wish had wouldnt deal fucking noise around me bullshit many ideas many people think know all canmt tune anymore feel like everything coming end im shouldnt fucking go this sounds selfish feel it wish didnt aware everything falling apart around me wish didnt people age shaming putting acting bullshit thats going on im tired nothings getting better im drunk mind right now im trying make things coherent forgive this fuck pointless want drink cant move,1 @_Xat_ OWNED! ,0 im planning making abridgefandub spongebob anime need voice actors people help write depend wether fandub abridge decided yet yeah comment find interesting sample text,0 smiling.everyone should try it.,0 had a long talk about my well being i have a history of suicidal thought for about year see my page for detail if you d like anyways they said that they re worried because i ve been literally drained for week work ha me tied have a weird as headache for a month nearly and i haven t been uppity like i usually am just tired of working to live and living to work i have no college history barely got through high school no ambition nothing i dont want to keep working job to job until i can retire 0 year down the road my folk said thats life you have to push cause thats how it always gon na be i just told them if thats seriously how it going to be struggling all my life id rather paint the ceiling with my fucking brain and walked off just man im tired guy so tired,1 ...Nothing like a mini-vacay to the lake! Good times and great company! ,0 "@jmcefalas @BootstrapCook After years of no-appetite/depression I gained weight, came up to 29 BMI. This is a good thing though, as a certain someone refuses to believe I'm overweight so it's shattered their ideas about their own weight.",1 @jefflandon agreed! probably just as easy of a lesson.,0 "Am home with the family, wet cos of the rain, got a call from dad on the bus cos my mum got worried that i wasnt home yet isnt she sweet ",0 thought killing myselfso posted multipul times really want kill myself like really everyday shit gets worse either way going say im now graduated highschool thinking really wanted kill back didnt thought things could get better today another interview went nowhere thought kill years ago nothing experienced would regret getting experience except maybe good video games lol said years nothing good worth noting thats past years school even worse bullying ontop faliure tell ok head cliff near house want fucking bad said mom still live isnt world sposed somewhat even arnt supposed get good bad bad bad bad bad bad,1 destined failure tragedy mom dies im years old im beside dies pneumonia from breast cancer chemo fail law school years debt age got pregnant gave birth months daughter dies hours alive cousin age gave birth healthy baby notifying us already months constantly cheated boyfriend coke heavily drank one even suspected pregnant true say happiest people oftentimes saddest ive told im funny witty really think thats coverup im sad lonely feel like evil woman using piggyback happy pain shes inflicting mealmost like scary movie sad endingone kill myself sit bathroom floor inlaws house cute lime green bodysuit ripped jeans numb legs tried therapist wanted refer psychiatrist instead give magical pills people told youre brave strong stop going big lifechanging scenarios fight smaller battles instead happy new year something bad happen year never easy win life,1 Study identifies new method to treat bipolar depression http://agenciaajn.com/noticia/un-estudio-identifica-un-nuevo-metodo-para-tratar-la-depresion-bipolar-96075 … pic.twitter.com/9zIdAKEZjW,1 parents get upset phones day like yeah know bad concerned us disturbing anything minding businesses,0 enterprise entertainment also forefront science fiction notredflag outlook tomorrow gratitude respect mr berman mr braga wish well thank service trekbr br enterprise trek about,0 hit missed guessed always missed huh hit missed guessed always missed huh keep boyfriend bet doesnt kiss ya mwah gon found another girl wint missed ya gon skrrt hit dab appreciation wiz khalifa hit missed guessed always missed huh keep boyfriend bet doese kiss ya mwah gon found another girl wint missed ya gon skrrt hit dab appreciation wiz khalifa hit missed mwah bbbet doest kiss ya mwah guessed always missed huh mwah hit missed mwah bbbet doest kiss ya hit dab appreciation wiz khalifa played taking balls appreciation fifa win level youre leader ooh use worked upon whataburger currently pop pussy warner brothers hit missed guessed always missed huh keep boyfriend bet doesnt kiss ya mwah gon found another girl wont missed ya gon skrrt hit dab appreciation wiz khalifa hit missed mwah bbbet doest kiss ya mwah guessed always missed huh hit missed mwah bbbet doest kiss ya mwah gon skrrt hit dab appreciation wiz khalifa,0 anyone tryna run warzone im bored asf still high kinda run warzone xbox ur leave ur gt comments nd ill add u,0 "@grahamwalmsley No, only good deeds today ",0 life falling apart think diemy life fucking joke haha kind joke dark sad kind joke outward appearances top world advanced degree great job ive high school sweetheart years friends money etc truth is degree helped find happiness life job awful hate it im getting divorced im living x room blow mattress soontobeex flies back forth atlanta spend time new boyfriend who family loves cant find new job nothing ive tried works everyone around tells keep trying lt worst thing ever btw cant even focus shitty job anymore means im probably going get fire next round layoffs what im slowly starting accept one shot love im going alone rest life oh thats impossible say need take time havent even really started looking dated anyone years dated girls high school know date im terrified even try addition think about seems like really bad proposition im short balding deep voice contrary popular opinion degree seems turn people hilarious ways thats one things really surprised me thought getting phd physics would earn respect maybe even admiration instead get either i combination feartrepidation ii complete apathy ive crunched numbers region single women age group assume a im attracted b attracted seems harsh again short balding low selfesteem physicist lets say conservative estimate leads grand total women might shot longterm relationship odds certainly favor im years old future discern afterlife redflag longterm impact me fact id speeding inevitable eliminating pain life not,1 back to work with a bump the long weekend is definitely over,0 quit job live little brothers room stuff storage income pay itsee title job friends car way paying storage bill phone bill credit cards racked up honestly feel like brainwashed young age serve rich like new version slaves field backs lot rich business owners actually descended slave owners society convinced they get rich like them yet never happens people hear making good living rich parents,1 feel like trashi got banned discord server making redflag threat even though wanted commit redflag times feel like piece garbage past want die mod never forgave mocking mental health trolling even though wasnt wrong because didnt take help askedwhen gave me declined idk still living like ive said loud want commit redflag cant live world havent done anything dreams ive wasted countless years opportunities worrying act sat ps whats wrong me like one except online friends wish friends girl boy want feel happiness feel love friend even girlfriend im incapable love one wanted me want honestly disappear wanted apologize mod banned forever server finding again hasnt forgave me hope sees message that make him want change cant find willpower within it feel entertained working feel entertained playing im lazy ugly skinny loser feel embarrassed whenever people school ask still friends dont know do actually want become game developer programmer artist animator cant school procrastination want become artist make manga comics cant im worthless want feel love feel cuddling someone handle pleasuring women whod deny quickly boyfriend idk do please someone help me im sorry ive done bad things life pleasuring gym bleachers th grade cheating test th grade idk do feel dumb want end christmas bye guys,1 top tier list people miss talking like ever former best internet friend stopped talking unknown reasons ex stopped talking insecure bf children basement may rest pieces know amazing encounter with one wholesome person met train first went visit ex someone look hospital gave memorable piece life advice friendly person met train station talked something important us hugged goodbye look to abigail thorn philosophy tube niall comas pyrocynical appreciate friend meet irregularly open with without judged wavelength many ways brother shares similar absurdist humor helped become critical certain people said interesting talks with friend education makes feel less alone struggles education listened problems needed generally nice fun talk with former best internet friend one mentioned met irl once me interesting wavelength amazing person kinda fell touch though thats alright recommend making list feel empty af,0 want kill dont know whyive depressed wanting kill years idea why parents love everything could hope for everyday contemplate stealing key dads gun case ending all cry sleep every night dont care anything life anymore dont care school weight issue life think might school even summer time im happy smoke overall want end it,1 bugger it all good today might have to error check thing then,0 feel empty used upim turning next year im gonna go whats wrong me im kissless virgin ive never even come close im ugly sin awkward looking small frame im short especially place live small penis phimosis really really bad hirsuties coronae trust gonna find anything looks like mine image search damaged sensitivity porn im incredibly stupid terrible literally everything do best mediocre im pretty sure iq somewhere close number im loser driving license goals future fucked violent straight psychopathic imagination mind really bad anger issues manipulative behaviour awful things close friends ive never best friend ive fallen love one girl ever hurt badly girl beautiful months since last spoke still think practically every day want check life,1 yesterday zoom class english teacher asked us tradition gotta say really enjoyed watching bunch people temporarily double said peer pressure dead people,0 hello new account new me right such think id like let know year old bachelors degree holding female college educated struggling helped dealing delusions hallucinations years lack sleep follows course medicated happenings well versed to handle them least thought was started work right last monday week today asked speak supervisor right leave boss written up fine fine fine fine realized lying it proof proof somewhere proof everywhere everyone id told said ridiculous said fineuntil looked proof spiraled getting binder hold proof notebook write times box paper clips hold proof together box sticky notes annotate work lists proof called yesterday stayed night tv yelling me bugs crawling me husbands itching disturbing me rough happened last night get sleep ish am got dreading life around am people work staring me bosses plotting me coworkers talking me cannot handle this want sleep forever cannot even get sleep first place post title required,1 im lowest point lifei good life good position job liked amazing girlfriend several friends ruined all got fired broke incapable changing ruined friendship friends month since broke up shes gotten help best friend theyre close seems like theyre interested connecting connecting despite barely meeting maybe months ago im middle child one expectations thrown sister screwed up ive never close family im boy never really knew interact theyre disappointed hobby playing games feel like one left huge burden placed myself im looking reason feel even hopeless see old friends fun together without me feel like dont matter anyone,1 doctor android use doctors knows apples day dow keeps doctors aways,0 ending right nowwhen knew would switching careers wanted different field graduated university even said ill kill nothing works best field want switch to im already nothings working best make work every day feel inadequate myself think place anymore got months turn leave then,1 need advice im afraid boyfriend might hurt himself due serious fight currently speakingto make long story short boyfriend year long series incredibly bad luck relationship also suffered serious blows due serious mistakes others due anger got huge fight throughout course day culminated explosion anger left house mentioned feeling suicidal first time today stayed long could make sure okay forced leave half hour ago called couple mutual friends asked talk make sure hes okay without letting know behalf hes furious me things could ensure safety im sure serious talk redflag was today would considered real risk intrusion outside forces authority figurse kind would likely anger upset further would go back house willing sacrifice well being selfish might sound thinking clearly know do,1 @JonasBrothers listening to #flywithme on repeattt ,0 through a series of negotiation amp alliance coupled w issue of filipino product competing w u s product in the great depression filipino leader were able to gather support for the bill authored by sen millard tydings amp rep john mcduffie http t co pt smyuq,1 doneive got method mind im hoping finally go it im tired living always love wrong people cant anymore im narcissist beats every little thing unfortunately really really love him says hes tired me want everyone else favor im sick living pain usually thought death scares me right im numb actually sounds comfortable id love sleep never worry anything ever again,1 thank notethis thank note might expecting want say thank reddit sticking rough times always really need help guys like friend never thing im point life choices go live forever failure kill die happy ive bullied whole class im brink graduating class year friends slowly pulling away im annoying little bitch cant stop hating im fucking stupid even funny right im holding noose end reply want ill probably dead next hour im trying say guys awesome trying save many strangers life hope best life hope painful mine write note anyone significant life give redflag note except guys,1 year old virgin never job going kill myselffuck shit hate motherfucking life never one real friend life know interesting never friends never girlfriend year old virgin also never job try try sent countless applications never called back interviews fuck goddamn country america goddamn job opportunities unless got bosss dick mouth people know good it gotten laid job right complain like me poor lonely need walked shoes even consider thinking killing yourself fuck man killing myself fuck world,1 advice needed tell dad cant finish optional project im working late hw yet expects optional project im sorry dad tried cant,0 kelly loeffler david perdue woohoo gonna keep georgia senate keep america great,0 suicidali need help life spiraling control,1 dont energy explain dont energy anything anymore want overlife pointless maybe all mine is reason gone losing made realize worthless rest life is been want done im ready call quits now posting least say something somewhere guess thats,1 sick jokepreviously going kill feb manage survive point occupy several days yeh maybe im far like around years then thinking new semester starts st april might well kill day background recently knew well dugged past classify mentally weak physically weak happened got genes like parents mom died redflag crippling depression giving birth me also diagnosed something called baby blues father cheated mom knew something wrong mom make things funny year mom passed away live together house living room hahaha first thought cheated girlfriend bestfriend last semester hs one month prior national exam already bad enough recently september last year ex left ex depression recently learned this done myself like legit im tired keep feeling dejected time goes on bestfriends my family heck even father say it pass there people went worse yeh ill keep facade nothing happens everyone else community im counting days end i seek help counseling instesively within economic capability yeah somehow still see worth keep moving forward who myself judging experience ending still looks better option,1 losing continue husbands last violent outburstlike title says already brink husband destroyed trust him really know do,1 film incredible looked high budget felt heartfelt original like indie amazing part film astonishing performances david beazely mark hildreth paul anthony plays main role carried film ease humor charisma balanced huge depth br br the cinematography really beautiful even though subject quite ugly realistic way make larger point really great seeing alan cumming too script tight propelled nicely best acting ive seen whilebr br go see this,0 finished cronicles heroic knight mere minutes ago find extremely please questions still loom me would appear first episodes actually retelling events first record lodoss war truth really arent would appear creator cothk different vision original ended and may reason first episodes occur find case cothk say starts years war heros parn part of think director made first episodes seem much like recap original give viewer small reminder introduction characters deeds done appear much less series kicks sparks story now series kick sparks portion find kicked another years years since war heros spark crew do cases resemble parn crew journey kicks gear especially love story brews spark neese also thought several times throughout cothk threw original series sparks long blue hair know wouldve pressed stop make sure right disc in means consider major set backs however writers fine job crafting believable characters remarkable storyline thing makes hurt ashram wagnard return ummmm how get wrong great villains even though ashrams villainous trait supports marmo perhaps missed something coarse series explained part far sequels go though highly recommend cothk place cothk and even so original record lodoss war far lord rings trilogy epic anything ive ever seen read highly recommend this,0 you know i may sometimes get my as kicked by my depression but overall my depression is struggling with me rather than the other way around these day and i consider that an achievement,1 i just want a hug right now i pissed my gf off and i just want to know that i m forgiven or at least told it s ok,1 "@__Kizzle Sure, you are. ",0 okay theory day today ive seeing lot coincidences strange things first shoe section ross consisted black red shoes solid colors toowith exception brand markings later noticed every time came intersection light turned red right got making us first line time every time white toyota corola followed blue ford f went taco bellnot choice every seat taken stereotypical family one girl one boy mom dad saw dude staring ground drove first time leave store minutes later yet move lady karen haircut big glasses got broken product walmart didnt complain okay last one joke hear out think matrix updating think something big happen soon earth least near me big thing happens want come back worship new god least praise noticing did,0 Watching NBA playoff coverage.... My favourite question: Do the Jazz have a chance against the Lakers? Everyone's answer so far: No. ,0 maxime megelder but i m useless if i don t sleep it s not fair i want all the fun a well,0 "@mami_lina life has been good, I'm blessed can't complain. I work at @RapRadar ",0 Can't wait to be sitting in the sun sipping sangria's with the girls ,0 im tired sufferingonly reason dont commit redflag hurt family im tired actually dont give fuck mental situation im feeling im tired living family would love end pain forever,1 i tried to help his family abandoned him so it wa really hard to change his perspective im addict too gambling addiction but i will do better i hope sorry just a rant i found about it yesterday his life situation forced him to live in a mental hospital for last year and at the beginning of march he wanted to go to the germany to work a escort march he mentioned that he leaf tomorrow march i texted are you alive yesterday by googling him i found a necrology of him he killed himself march he texted many time to me about suicide thought im so sad,1 cant believe texas went f like f week fucking hell texas weather unpredictable cant make shut up huge jump,0 "Mom's depression tied to kids' emotional, intellectual development http://uk.reuters.com/article/us-health-mothers-depression/moms-depression-tied-to-kids-emotional-intellectual-development-idUKKBN1HW2MZ?feedType=RSS&feedName=healthNews … pic.twitter.com/JBDhLXyOgi",1 i don t want to wake up early tomorrow damn you work,0 @Goldyfinch too late. hv already crossed 2 the dark side. haven't had sticky toffee pud 4 years. wish me luck & thks for tip re c.cream! ,0 pros amp cons dating pros dating cons,0 jmielcarz send some of that warmness my way it s cold,0 i need sims gaah,0 really not cannot hold job end showing cannot take mental load fucking pathetic working since already burnt mentally really fucking pathetic cannot show anymore something make happy point going bring joy least worth time cannot it also pathetic people offer solutions none solutions want sure would probably help solve problem make happy literally want now want feel something good someone really close killed last weekend even go fucking funeral going make feel better go think ill regret long time tried therapy tried meds dna testing done fucks sake see meds body metabolize best know handful body actually metabolize tried half already either make worse make numb sure id rather have neither want exist anymore guts commit really wish did think gets better,1 right got a stinking headache but i need to run i m not a happy bunny,0 boredom apathyim suicidal thoughts again idk side affects medication somethings really wrong,1 wanna know whos cool ethan_keith,0 The world was suffering from the Great Depression http://MysteryArts.com/JINX ,1 whats least painful way dieits long sad painful years last year filled much heaviness heartache dread find hard stay positive calm normal im alone anymore last weeks ive unable stop crying public emotional pain feel makes feel like legs stop working sometimes im especially bad day cant seem make go away go numb usually doesnt come back mins time im really ask help ive tried many times get help doesnt last people dont care near unless im usual happy self dont access guns want end life soon closing loose ends family friends would appreciate advice,1 woke morning wood grrrrrrrerr,0 pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo,0 whats worst post seen sub seen try justify school shootings worst thing people agreeing them,0 @djtruskiespy @artisteboy You just summed up my lifelong existential dilemma and depression about employment in modern society.,1 film came years years ago revelation even people knew something drag scene new york textbooks drag performance say nothing vogueing houses anthony slides great pretenders says nothing julian fleishers the drag queens new york illustrated field guide flow chart influence pulls together julian eltinge minette warhol queens s club scene postdates film ignores houses completely even laurence senelicks the changing room closest thing definitive book drag performance rushes quickly past film give background information one would expected itbr br i understand film itselfand various articles found web house system goes back decades major film performance house member prior seems chrystal la beija the queen historical context biggest missing part paris burningbr br the film valuable focuses scene otherwise ignored valuable snapshot life unfortunate fact venus xtravaganza murdered filming provides dramatic ending film transsexuals include reallife murder know dorian corey mummified corpse literal closet come three years laterbr br of historical importance still need someone either book documentary film provides context,0 sevenmac you should set up a video channel for your podcast on miro just checked and you re not listed there,0 paul pogba reveals he s battled depression since split with jose mourinho at manchester united http t co ga st9nrdz,1 i hope everyone ha a wonderful life you all deserve good thing i m too tired,1 fever ha started anyone have any miracle cure for a cold,0 I just got home from a fun Lolita meet-up Thanks to everyone who came!,0 paid child support fulfilling courts orders would get chance petition supervised visitation feels like hes completely disappeared father still feel like hes going come back even writing makes hard breathe silly,1 came parents so today finally got courage told parents im trans female male think scariest also bravest thing ive done far life despite waterfall bad thoughts turned really accepting supportive me obviously need time adapt thought im son far good well searching gender therapist pretty soon im excited that looong difficult road ahead me gonna make quality life even slightly better im whatever takes feels much better years hide much anymore kinda good true sorry im posting here really wanted share somewhere im actually super proud myself guys seem like nice people also wanted mention none ever give up theres times ive completely convinced absolutely never come thats impossible parents would never accept way turned proves little know might might happen try never say never give things want accomplish always chance maybe girlboy find pretty also finds attractive maybe one amazing skill impossible learn perhaps job wish stay dream may become reality try think it many opportunities miss believe enough anyways good day fellow teens forget brush yo teeth,0 maybe one of these year i ll get a tax return a girl can dream right,0 so national redflag hotlineguys im desperately feeling like shit know im supposed get helpbut fuck supposed calling countrys redflag hotline gets automated wrong number voice message im truly suicidal moment really need someone talk given current unbearable amount pain tiredness anxiety stress in,1 im road trip give good karaoke music like dont cringe,0 dad got rid cat year ago mom rescued abandoned kitten recently cat started poop basement becuase brother wasnt cleaning litter box yesterday cat threw carpet dad decided give adoption today dad said going go human society asked see grandma would take cat agreed dad came back home said gave cat random guy wanted it didnt even get number check whether suitable owner also didnt call grandma first see would adopt it dad doesnt even feel remorse cat laughing crying im sure whether ever see cat again one experienced pets rehomed advice coping getting pet back also ill link picture cat find to,0 idc anyone else says youre true gentleman unless you would gladly decapitate anyone needed it gatekeep true,0 @saranich I know u will like twitter. Welcome to the darkside ,0 people america mostly texas guys ready snowvid school canceled months according mother nature god trying apologize peaceful snow,0 one question im suicidal feel insulted everytime someone dropping line like hey lets talk it get better promise comes people get people like done talking things got worse years curious reading lines bringing thoughts like ending it ever,1 well every scene perfectly presented never seen movie meaning almost every scenebr br well watching movie remembered watching amilie amilie also similar kind movie fun fantasy touch movies based plot line perfectly perfect way able create world ownbr br red able provoke lots thoughts people destiny dejavu s still thinking itbr br the story great ending bit funny laughing end scene well funny three movie red white blue connectedbr br all great work art work mastermanbr br ,0 having a coffee and going through my twitter facebook and other social network it seems to become a full time job to keep up,0 is suffering with the lugholes again,0 childhood friend died cancer knew kindergarten went primary school did name jette died cancer end st grade close always supressed sadness comes up ill stop rant surely something better read post,0 took online test got question teacher needs grade nsome answers frogot put it means like exanple know cuz u cant write like pen conputers forgot ro put stuff like irl class teacher cares doesnt mark wrong,0 keep thinking lowest gets worsethings getting worse worse cant anything it cant stop concentrating bad feel point anymor nothing look forward all interest everything hs dwindled nothing severed ties friends parents probably hate since inconsiderate lately cant stop selfish think myself fuck everything horrible life ive drug binge days feel nothing anymore care,1 wanna tank guys first year reddit guys helped depression pain wanna say thank,0 ever discover song completely relate it i talk myself self think need help help im nanana okay im nanana okay im bad health health heads shelf shelf im nanana okay im nanana okay sing myself self needs get well well im nanana okay im nanana okay ampxb ampxb ampxb i promise enough karma account post ,0 chan new york gets involved attempt sabotage new aircraft designbr br the war year away reaching america second world war already raging everywhere else world colored everything since people probably realized war coming war mentioned fact film deals production planes least alludes it mystery pretty good notion plane sabotage lends nicely couple rather tense moments certain talking charlie chan certain would live fight another day guarantee condition would in whether anyone around would survivebr br i really like film great deal one nest far worst one truly rare things truly enjoyable one definitely worth look six,0 ive dealing lot problem past years childhood present yearsever since little father died years old elementary school ive bullied lot speech disorder weight ive repeat kindergarten speech disorder failed rd grade middle school ive developed anxiety never talk anyone speech disorder ive never friends high school year great stepfather died thats feeling depressed sleep thinking much shit ive through im done anything life anxiety depression cant get relationship maybe im interested attractive trust people since want use me ive throughout life keep thinking negative stupid thoughts like kill myself run away people keep telling think positive shit work though like putting happy mask forgot it,1 rougeforever i ve just been faffing actually reading which is work but doesn t feel productive,0 @Yeeeunaholic - HAHAHAHA! 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I'm a big big big fan until I name my pet @mileycyrus! i didnt see you online one?,0 arisan no free day for you,0 playing amp streaming minecraft server httpsmtwitchtvilychaya im playing minecraft server quests come chat,0 whats difference using chip sliding debit card also use them umm im sorry ask dumb question im new buying stuff dont want embarrass use card help would greatly appreciated d,0 dont get it tf americans hating asians theyre fucking awesome culture food women especially smh ppl,0 ap calculus absolutely kicking ass im frickin done school year october,0 sleep soon i just hate saying bye and see you tomorrow for the night,0 so i m sure all of you who live with anxiety do have your good day like the bad crippling anxiety come in wave which it doe for me when it s bad my anxiety is looking for any reason to latch it s self onto and make me believe that whatever the reason is that s what make me feel like shit when i have my good day and that thought or issue come to mind i m unfazed it s really fuckn annoying and i feel like it could make me make decision that i will for sure regret why is the brain so damn powerful and why do i have to live with this year of always feeling like shit it ha ruined my quality of life i am very grateful for my family and friend and i am grateful that i ve always had a good life but man i think of all the family trip event party anything fun ruined by my anxiety and sickness that come with it i feel for everyone that ha to go through this i m sorry guy and i hope one day we can be truly happy,1 well good morning... working the late shift again tonight. last night not so bad though ,0 - 5 days to the musical i'm gonna dance wow WOW wow it's gonna be something like High School Musical ihihih xoxo Petia,0 "(Reuters Health) - A mother's depression is linked with her children's development from infancy through adolescence, according to a new study. Researchers studied 875 middle- or... http://global-news-views.news/moms-depression-tied-to-kids-emotional-intellectual-development/ …",1 recently posting rteenagers lot trying get one girl friend knew her asked bring like casually instead said wanted teach draw havent talked her didnt know drew dont want learn draw yet planning talking first myself no im kinda freaking think good thing dont know im mentally dying think im alright though likes wont seem like im trying get dont know human ive even talking class raise tolerance even though hate every comment even make whole class laugh feel like end world isnt im still freaking out so day,0 lets combine art style anime girl appearance furry i mean catgirls fuck shit would ideal girlfriendwifemother children,0 thats iti reached point return means it please follow path took remember life absolutely worth living anyone,1 move us us europeans always wondering us still partially working country today changed opinion part dutch celebrities ill refer bners on cuz thats call them decided wanted become karens said im done went onto social media say stupid things undermine government newsoutlets interviewed didnt arguments disagreement thing bners could really say disappointed income gone given mostly musicians kinda funny started whole war within bners cuz camp gogovernment versus stopgovernment im mostly disappointed stupidity thought existed american karens thank reading rant get system tldr part dutch celebrities turned karens,0 aches after working out....off to my brothers for Raph to swim in the doggie swimming pool he got ,0 the thought of living the rest of my life with depression is so sad and i don t think i can handle it i am already dead inside but i still have to live with my body i couldn t see my life other than being boring and empty there is just nothing to look forward to the regret from my past keep haunting me and there is no way to stop it no matter how hard i try to improve every day is the same a i dropped out from college and currently unemployed with unsupportive parent i believe my life is already in ruin,1 need helpi suicidal past year hidden away everyone feel like ruin lives closest people parents say leaving never coming back want die even,1 close friends years kinda weird cause ive always thought another someone small friend group im realising thats cause ive never really close friends place,0 is at beso in hollywood so tired,0 DEPRESSION. STRESS. ANXIETY. SELF-PITY.That stupid things that sucks us down. And it's happening it to me right now.HOW DO YOU DEAL WITH THAT FAM? PLEASE LET ME KNOW.,1 im doneim finally reaching end life life shitfirst moved another country last octoberfrom south africai white year old guy girlfriend virginall friends left get better friendswhat best ways kill myselfdont say redflag answer yes meive diagnosed clinical depression im antidepressants,1 min till home time and counting i have a craving to visit the mac store but they will have closed by the time i get there,0 http://bit.ly/18mdyM tech is changing the way we FARM!!! AWESOME ,0 im religious song goes hard like wasnt religious id probably listen kb k httpsyoutubecomwatchvfqs_azkhttpsyoutubecomwatchvfqs_azk,0 amirrabennett nope baby s due in th may getting closer but still 00 thing not done,0 idc care one selfie much love boys selfie get girls get ton first ive seen maybe one selfie girl hot barely orange houses second seen one hot sub full straight guys likely give orange house girls post third stop wording posts guilt people giving orange house wrong alr thats good day,0 "Despite my random lack of energy, I am *really* happy right now ",0 frequently ghost friends come back nowhere different right now want ghost never keep touch again think depression social redflag although could never tell diagnosed feel burden them like would better without group feel like always bother always act weird feel like fake person lifeless pretend every time okay not get wrong toxic really best friends one could ever ask feel like deserve someone like me everyday find buried deeper deeper isolation push everyone away know do help depression becoming worse everyday mind always filled suicidal thoughts want exist anymore want ghost friends never show,1 would say first quality romanticcomedy ever seen depth although knew beginning going end together still longing anticipation thought maybe get together indie film all movie well written directed acted dancing side road scene magnificent,0 rather famous quote show fortress ill show ruin ultramarine probably,0 michaeltao man america is so borez anyway lol i just realized you sent me msg on here i had no idea i have no flash,0 ive legitimately considering latelyim still live home super depressed car job schooling motivation get things hate everything myself dad emotionally abusive mom ignores care brother old enough need anymore cant picture going further could snap fingers able drive anxiety keeps so cant go therapy things might better cause could get job go college obviously cant happen rope closet keeps getting closer closer way shitty life,1 "Yoga, meditation, running, gym, healthy eating, mindfulness, hula hooping, dancing, self-care, enough sleep, arts & crafts, puzzles, colouring books, affirmations? http://feelgoodart.org  #affirmations #videos #printable #depression #WellnessWednesday via http://ripl.com  pic.twitter.com/LGt3KJt7Rp",1 "@LauraRepetti i tested on an old shirt first, which was good coz they failed, but the two i did properly look awesome ",0 please talk mei need someone talk to everything getting progressively worse life know lack motivation pursue anything aspirations goals drove away love life felt relationship going nowhere want something care about even know want talk someone feel empty time idea normal fucking person,1 getting help leads painabout months ago met girl really liked first months quasi relationship going on time first person could tell suicidal thoughts first great problem felt little great couple really pathetic reasons still told problems even though knew interested hearing even talk me fucked up talked things also one last friends shitty little social life crumbling away last december told mym mum suicidal thoughts awkward fuck next couple days tried talk hated it regret telling her still cant sometimes look eyes military told doctor thoughts waste lot time convince bad shape none even slightly respected need military straight desires matter us well take freedom away well feel like attitude lost one friends lose tell friends made things awkward capable loving purely genetics almost lost choice military people respect free make decisions me completely alone im uncapable anything alone hence im completely fucked,1 outer limits brilliant show part leaves strong emotions are undoubtedly stinkerepisodes essentially old pulpcomic turned tvshow expected part excellently done well produced directed often featuring bigname talent seem enjoy working solid translation short fiction hour long television formatbr br the outer limits tends focus rather large ethicalphilosophicalmoral questions rarely ends without voiceover intciting serious thoughtbr br from timetotime themes hammered little bit heavily thickheaded viewers additionally certain level distrust government conducive effective democracy unluckily catch several episodes backtoback border absurd regards distrust armycia etc one note large group power the roman catholic church evangelicals peoples republic china on cast bad light frequency ranging oftenbr br while show beat dead horse watched enough overall quality astounding im grateful scifi decided continue airing produce seasonbyseason dvd set and afford it,0 the angel is going to miss the athlete this weekend,0 at Maryborough RSL with a guy on electric guitar playing great music - sweet home alabama and april sun in cuba ,0 "@joeymarieward Ohh boy, craziness in Marlatt! ",0 bro assignments live class assignments meetings today one wednesday one monday sunday extra credit like assignments due yesterday live meetings stressful im glad today chill day also got sleep,0 im tired everythingim anything im tired want end life,1 ive fantasizing killing since years old think timeim year old girl life average honest problems worth rough mentioned ive struggled eating disorder since suicidal thoughts around since remember theres nothing keep away mind one ever noticed that even parents like think due pretending ok skills deep know nobody really gives shit me again even parents every single decision ive made since conscious bad mental state made order get better experience happiness life nothing seems work out cant even bother fuck things theres good thing around me everything fucked already one really cares me clear know im going eventually kill myself idea how know going one way another thing haunts fact selfinduced death represent major trauma friends lives scar parents forever absolutely want that want go peace knowing one hurt process afterwards maybe life get better couple years maybe try harder therapy somethings start go right way life emotions ive dealing past couple years painful god are thing pray theres type life death aint willing breathe anymore take life distancing everyone find easier face death eventually commit it know hole text sound overwhelmingly condescending typical depressed teen im sorry cant take anymore im going wait til birthday final decision even though im sure ill eventually kill myself thanks reading me ill let yall know,1 ive lost motivation idea doim m high school clue want do cant define single hobby own cant find motivation stuff future close falling apart know myself school luckily counting marks since onset pandemic march but im fearful everything fall apart soon go back school one friends trying hook guy started texting him like like him though keep pushing away fear burden lowkey friendzoned myself haha exchange program germany barring fucking virus cant even find motivation study german though would open opportunities future know best nothing watch youtube hours day sleep barely eat and cut myself im blank ive lost motivation im seriously considering offing every week fuck do please help really know go do sorry rambling know say do ask questions need clarification ill try answer,1 "is happy for BFF. Gujab, Lakers! http://plurk.com/p/x4gcx",0 sorry if this is the wrong subreddit for a long time in my life all i wanted wa to have someone to be there for me a person that could love me back a much i love them back but now that i have it i don t know if it s what i wanted in my past i had suicidal friend that influenced a huge part of my life i begin to realize how stupid living wa and started to question why we live i m losing all my energy slowly and slowly i find myself losing all motivation and having no goal or dream anymore this reddit is my last ditch effort on seeking help from other people i ve already started to distance from everyone around me i know that i can t be the only one that s been or going through this how were you guy able to keep your energy and have a positive outlook on life,1 want die im tired keep strugglingthe title says all life ive struggling make ends meet im poor family certain thirdworld country since little knew need break away poverty need make parents proud despite circumstances born into fast forward years later im studying local university im nowwas rock supports friends helping way can caring them havehad loving girlfriend everyone believes persevere never many friends never used social apps then one month beforei argument girlfriend little know would come bite rear later sooner three days ago final exam semester combinations loneliness due absence life fatigue boxing stress papers yet come anger dissatisfaction seeing friends ones came depend things get rough playing games generally rowdy hit face overcame feelings retreated solitary first friends came check time passed reluctance say anything fear ridiculing thinking feelings started isolate turn even talking day went back respective hometowns first blamed abandoning smoke cleared out realized brought myself blame feels right reasons im still struggling commit redflag thoughts disappointing parents passion boxing sorry long postrant needed vent everything me tldr want live im slowly losing reasons to,1 diary day high keep diary days basically bought weed got really high tired busy keep diary days also got math work vibed lot today went ice skating hours also played ice hockey da boys ive got pneumonia bc c outside ik carebut feels right also smth makes happier good luck guys,0 turkish person sw helpon forum post on someone turkey threatened redflag want help them know contact know real name forum name accounts facebooktwitteryoutube name pictures posted facebook well anyone know do feel moral obligation report know how,1 gets likes ill kill see posts anymore seriously stop annoying something original,0 user threatening redflagi know help beyond ive already said planning take life tomorrow im sure next step helping them know location cant call local health services ampxb httpswwwredditcomroffmychestcommentsaozthis_time_its_going_to_workhttpswwwredditcomroffmychestcommentsaozthis_time_its_going_to_work,1 "I think as soon as I get AIM back, I'll be able to cut down on the number of tweets and maybe NOT get kicked off ",0 rpeta shadowbanned want make something explicitly clear way petas message ideology find fault conduct themselves way month ago posted question subreddit wanted know peta supports vegan diets cats dogs even though so could lead death may seem hard believe given petas reputation however truly wanted get answers spark discussion instead get shadowbanned realised now forgot post even go hot rpeta see post even amongst post days ago pretty suspicious conduct mods part honestly made need rethink view group good people believe good things part peta however bad apples spoil bunch thanks reading feel free ask questions,0 @chrisaffair I am so buying one!! nice.. ,0 course bump classmate day pimple nose first time im seeing year fml,0 hours much read wanted tell self harmed first time today ,1 "@BetsySharp Oh, but I have an autographed Christmas card... from before you were a famous MTV commentator! I feel super special. ",0 redflag best option lazy idlerif someone lazy want work hard even try put effort anything improve situation redflag option them,1 okay finally admit iti lonely hard admit years years struggled women go lots dates laugh good time ask lots questions try relate saying justleave say feel connection whatever excuses come with know found better man someone offers something dont know else do hobbies good job pretty good looking yet lonely read posts reddit men s s saying despite efforts never got better puts much fear hard describe feeling like redflag way last years cant ever get god damn happiness know much longer last getting harder,1 new animated real lego series hello ive recently started new lego series based things happen life teen ill leave link anyones interested thanks x httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvowdiyrpsoahttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvowdiyrpsoa,0 @Britneyxsucks hahha mexicans are cool ,0 vanidosa what s wrong why do you need an inhaler i didn t even know you were sick hope you start feeling better,0 question less answeari dont really know start this guess could go ahead explain story im average guy tries social circle feels inviting surround people i think wants best me recent events turn feeling security feeling fear space merely months life went sweet dream tormented nightmare started girl met years back had huge crush her made fall love her every little bit her made realize person created thoughts never really tried have guess could say made see best myself made think worth something eyes like something special her started downfall soon after dated months thought found right one gonna make best relationship ended fooling myself talking boys job one friend lets call jake kyle time jad idea started panic attacks frequently ate less paranoid time one point remember molly ended sex remember told one important relationship life one week later left hooked jake kyle guys presented her span one week even confessed friends enjoyed watching low guess question start know since particular day december life started shatter one piece time loosing love friends job really close friend me guess made descision brought but point end bottom barrel categories feeling redflag way look cara passing by subway coming station heights bridge sharpness knife products lay around house could cause death thought rope feel place like something went missing lost focus life know way usally think loosing one loved got point im always stress panic attacks frequently lost job didnt help pile already damn whats purpose everytime build something crumble one day,1 today s episode of quot house quot episode simple explanation wa so heartbreaking,0 @ambermacarthur get better soon amber ,0 open suicidal thoughts school advice pleasei need advice ive school couple weeks feel terrible ive sick got bad infection im currently using medication right mental health biggest issue feel worthless like killing making wanna leave room anymore school worried absent much called dad today asked could visit tomorrow dont mind visiting me im kinda nervous talk gonna have know mental health crap dont know bad neither psychologist ive told dad suicidal thoughts last year hasnt told school anyone else tell school it people visiting trusted people school know would safe hands dont know honestly guys think,1 Time for bed nighty night hope u guys have sweeet dreams <3 ,0 oppression muslims context hijab headscarf muslim woman wear halal meat islam kill animal certain way symbolize respect animal animal isnt killed way muslims arent allowed consume march french senate made illegal woman age wear hijab trying ban word hijab university higher education mother wear hijab allowed accompany children school trips muslim patience cant request doctors based gender july halal slaughter chicken illegal france oppressing muslims while dont live france america say im sick constantly explain people get curious people constantly belittling us making racist comments girl meaning wear hijab get constant negative looks comment random people seems every time go friends family im always target something middle eastern muslim female us struggle people refuse see it im fucking done people acting like im normal im like im good wearing fucking scarf doesnt hurt you believing religion isnt hurting you know fact people going comment say people constantly dying you im terrorist im muslim dont support stand people maybe would educate real sources mainstream media would understand dont stand violence gonna feel safe home im scared im done hiding everyday deal refuse say anything bc bigger problems course doesnt make mine less relevant please stop muslim hate consider human want walk public called names guys questions ill try answer best can thank reading nice daylt,0 Logging it out. Thank you Kiana...you're something else ma! masha'Allah.,0 will be great seeing pink with meme in june ,0 dont want anymoreim angry tired recently ive getting dizzy spells im almost always tired irritated cant sleep well want get either im constantly floating drifting limbo like state hurt myself brought light teachers got careless accidentally exposed scars spoke school counsellor feels like listening finally teacher told stop lying myself stop hiding asking attention stop pretending life sad get people listen know im really pretending sad gain attention even now im still trying figure out maybe am considering feel lonely despite friends never life feel could truly talk anyone want seek professional help do even assuming parents mock me able afford it maybe id distrusting doctor friends people genuinely feel happy around time cant help lose patience stupidly small things get angry them theyre nice enough brush off maybe theyre tolerating it know mind bloody hellhole cant look someone something without constant fear theyll hate me even small things like saying hi pure torture mess up hours keep harping bloody thing feel like overall piece scum want anything want die probably seeking medical help thats option anymore talking people work now im ready go decided push everyone around away want anyone wasting tears go wanted get chest,1 wren internet hug yep i know the feeling,0 my depression: https://twitter.com/kanyewest/status/989142253468708864 …,1 @annagoss yep will be fine with that ,0 im heavyi want anymore weight me bye never better,1 is going to be a long week funeral and work tomorrow jac,0 thoroughly enjoyed movieand watch time time still ive used music classes school teach kids seem enjoy it although wish colorbr br the best thing movie is me grew heifetz died chance actually see master violinist work craft surprised up date story line is although references reform school outdated boy whose father died raised mom stepfathermost kids today raised stepparents although movie makes seem like stepparents cruel get angry mother take side defend actions stepfatherbr br also musical selections difficult believe find unbelievable child looks play minute waltz year old girl could sing aria rigolettobr br other that really fun feel good movie recommend it wish would come dvd,0 "@pirateheart Thanks, Queenie! Omg, I am so going to buy it. It's perfect for me. ",0 hey girls dm open boys want talk someone girls preffered,0 mauricedb i tried the sitecom one to but felt to toy like,0 we have avoided it the past two year but just now she showed me her lateral flow test and it looked positive i m worried about getting it i ve been with her most of the day this is my worst nightmare and i don t know what to do last week i did feel extremely fatigued but i chalked it up to my chronic illness i m worried about my mum a well a she ha asthma please if anyone can reassure me that i won t or might not get it or any reassurance would be great thank you,1 Do follow @aptextclan to all APTCians out there. ,0 seriously pissed homeroom teacher school thing morning announcements every week give anonymous fun facts teachers today fun fact one valedictorian said loud much screw life valedictorian end teacher living k dollar salary teacher staring rest class im scared tomorrow,0 i hate converting movie just to put em on my itouch,0 go back work today time mental health body issues alcohol depression name it absolutely terrified redflag levels okay honestly know people work redflagful jobs stay sober keep health priority sounds pathetic years old still find adulting hard feel like this endless loop dragging ass work excited time work dreading next work day much cannot even enjoy time off dunno ranting here work life balance,1 Late reaction: Filipino pride (Vatti recorded the match.),0 talk outive struggling past months nearly attempted october planning go garage guilt thought ruining fiances car deal top funeral preparations thing stopped me im struggling today really badly thoughts like way pull essentially guilting myself fiance close graduating years needs finish couple months classes now leave wouldnt able finish classes hed distracted push back graduation another year cat special diet pain ass make im one knows make it want anyone else that want inconvenience anyone want here want this want disappoint anyone else already have days like im alive weird sense duty im tired want anymore need advice different ways talk im becoming numb guilt,1 tried with smsjunction com but got odbc driver error,0 cant remember day year havent thought redflagand point im done everyones bullshit lies life know fact getting better thanks nice lie though nobody knows inside all dont think go longer all one knows whats going mind actually knows whats wrong me thing thats making slightly temporarily happy siblings food music cant happy dont even understand people live normally im far away normality im place mind cant imagine living future dont tools plan living literal torture thinking brain complete utter torture every day days numbered cant wait die finally time comes,1 @dlsbeauty welcome to twitter ,0 attempting scary living painful even hate me want part gone back hate wait antidepressants universe laughs uskind words appreciated dearly living painful,1 already took excedrin pms last hoursreddit need help every time get depressed start taking sleeping pills point forget many ive taken pass out forced bed first time hours im worried im going absentmindedly take many end either dead coma mean estimate well more im attention advice want someone talk to preferably someone experience sleeping pills update pm est taken since amand put bottle eyesight tempted take anymore im still pretty shaky im finding ways distract myself art class hours boss gave day tomorrow which help relax sleep naturally bit want say thank everyone replied really helped lot may update later things bf go well pm people said okay thanks guys nd update okay pm feeling much better emotionally really physically ill dizziness nausea loss direction unable make coherent conversation fine again thanks everyone positive attitudes really helped out also dumped pills going try sleep tonight you guys awesome,1 tired itim almost still virgin never kissed never date im tired much try make change doesnt go bars speed dating try online dating apps nothing im fat ugly im worthless sucks friend group cant get girl always hearing youre great guy make one happy time im end even like could probably please girl size dick im worthless one way point continuing alone sad forcing happy every day im tired everything,1 @scottstevenson Must have missed my tweet yesterday. It was Game of Show runner-up for me ,0 "@marxdeane @Raymartin55 The same old story -politicians are only too ready and willing to commit Australian troops to conflict but unwilling to help vets overcome the consequences of the experiences - ptsd, depression, drug and alcohol abuse etc. ANZAC Day is about remembering the human cost of war",1 people like gecs sounds like someone stroke trying make song,0 Mother's Day in Sweden today! ,0 I am realizing I should start updating this more. ,0 "Mom's depression tied to kids' emotional, intellectual development https://ift.tt/2HtVZCE ",1 fan willy wonka chocolate factory wanna see oompa loompa,0 im mad sad dont know friend moved since kicked told stay till enough money move out hasnt even full week since lived brought gf sleep over queen bed ready go bed room me sitting outside currently havent slept work im pissed breaking hate life,0 f i am just so tired i hate my life i know there s a beautiful side to life but oh my god i don t even wan na see it if the thing i ve been through are always going to be in the back of my head i don t feel guilty about leaving my friend or family anymore i just feel ready what i m worried about is failing,1 get helpno one wants help tried helping nothing works redflag methods recommend care painful obviously handle pain well want know one guarantees success inbox too thanks,1 utadddyy appreciation post u pog ,0 huh wonder trump got coronavirus mask hes ever worn kkk mask,0 trans boy pussy fire,0 "@nerdy_passion Bullcrap you don't miss us. Do you know how much trouble you caused? You caused the server to die and caused me to go into spiraling depression, came into my house and accused me of crap I didn't do to you, etc. Never contact me after this.",1 i have a constant fear that i m going to have cardiac arrest or a fatal arrhythmia i f in good health just got back from the gym and it wa great now i m in my car about to get lunch and bam my anxiety kicked in and my heart started beating soo fast honestly it probs only beating 00bpm and all i can think about is what if i die from a cardiac event i m on beta blocker literally for my anxiety and am in therapy but sometimes these thought happen from time to time and it s frustrating i have no real problem with my heart and it s all in my head but sometimes i just wish it would turn off,1 want outhi im im failure everything do motivation much days days seem little brighter comes crashing again today one days know long ive depressed many years sure last proper job months ago father talk anymore hes prick sisters birthday dinner couple days ago kinda pretended exist last relationship ended months ago since ive living moms house ive gotten back together ex months ago decided go month trip another continent everything planned went last week decided wanted be alone find herself called telling contact weekend believe her think wanted fuck someone feel guilty told never wanted see again dont feel like never loved me know is wanted us get back together one ended accept abandonment needed take control one make decision mother told much time hinted would put house soon quite times mocked everytime talked killing myself looks conflict constantly even confidence stand ground today terrible day ive response cv sent then first exgf texted told want listen could get things chest disturbed quite bit second mother came yelling forgot wash plate yelled quite bit sent cvs today told time running every opportunity life lie know fault noone hates myself strength anymore cant pull fucking bootstraps like society demands to want pain wanted anyone go away want die ive looking balcony thinking want it want pain either know do strength anymore anything beaten outof me real friends anymore everyone liked end alienating went away treatment option money wanted write something hopes would calm down want homeless decided kill comes it ive picked spot ill jump comes it im tired lonely sad angry weak im going sleep kill today sorry torrent uncohesive thoughts,1 finals tomorrow! only have one to do ,0 situationhey all ill try say much can need help need compassion want express im boiling feelings want people know exactly might lead potential death lets start general im yo french male ive always shy ive never really self confidence ive bullied th grade overweight nerd class became pseudo depressive kept saying id kill really wanted bit attention love get anyway now today im different person ive become heartless careless bastard imagine chose to started movie watched bother tell ill tell made think become today movie occupies dear space heart showed side life deeply want discover dumb know made realize im missing life ill try make little sum learnt first friendship think might one biggest parts movie hit right guts movie made question definition friendship friends any even feel yeah turns feel shit anyone called friends dicks like them yeah im alone friends point view second love on side things mean saw like love somebody wether family friends girl mad think cant love cant ive never met girl loved theyre so superficial dunno all heartless bastard third dream context place movie took place in man hate france hate people here hate myself want live people like ill like people place even biggest city appealing sunny full life think need trigger something make feel think miss plain happiness thats made become today think ill change mind im going bad stuff know it question importantly not ill leave that fellow friends hope great life fulfill feelings like id like to edit forgot say eat sleep anymore im critical exhaustion point too whenever night cry hours also exhausts physical aspect,1 "had an amazing day off today, very relaxing, refreshing, and SO much fun ",0 want diei really see point living anymore im going spend rest life alone friendless ill go work day put good face keep moving career along career im really suited go home empty house waste time fall asleep friends see regularly long distance friends live parents im looking houses right thats do financially responsible thing think could live another year parents im waste space resources theres point alive anymore im disappointment parents even admit themselves im burden world even want risk passing fucked brain chemistry children probably have ive tried exerciise that helped bit ended back here something everything choices actions pretty much determined genetics past im pretty much doomed fail time might try get healthy eeod im lost cause ive watching reading lot horror stuff lately guess because kind wish could get killed monster ghost whatever itd make things easier probably easier family too im probably going kill weeks maybe sleeping pills itd kind nice go sleep never wake up im sorry friends family deal awkward annoying depressing alloftheabove bullshit me im sorry mom amp dad im sorry ali good friends good family ok without me probably better even never even nice except big sister college sorry incoherent ramblings im halfasleep moment im going try get rest another week work,1 im horny ive got girlfriend help luckily ive got hands,0 Not long till LONDON BABY!!! and then the EMIRATES ON SUNDAY!!!! YEAH!! cant wait... ,0 reach irls im suicidali work everything horrible lately feel like cant anymore need human contact like hug literally anything another human person even like listening make jokes something dont know ask without seeming like fucking freak could post sos snapchat ask someone come dont want seem attention seeking feel fucking bad,1 I'm so in love and inspired...I don't know why? ,0 maybe first car im riding around subaru outback right now sitting backyard year dirty dog hairs drivers seat tear it that looking good theyre asking telling you idk care probaly not excited,0 loaded gunthrowaway account short cant anymore theres escape understand death cause pain trauma part unfortunate however fairly sure continuing live without merit likely equally devasting consequences hear out failed everything ive ever attempted okay passing exams thats it life skills social skills made two friends high school thats literally it job history joke secure okay jobs cant ever hold year objectively speaking im bad things tends cause problems employment im year old lesbian im hyper androgynous everyone confused me cause problems live midwest come largely conservative family romantic life successful area thats saying much sex fun one stay realize im complete fuck zero social skills top lost person wanted with kids left baby daddy beats her desire date again cant afford buy basic necessities ive living rice peanut butter weeks degree psych student loans started job child welfare fail risk ruining lives children already endured trauma unlike anything privileged ass ever known quit im homeless andor family burden bought gun weeks ago waited three days bought ammo planned night instead passed drunk bathroom floor loaded gun hand every evening hold gun head ritual think help desensitization feel bad mom ms emotional never got dog dying ten years ago still cries it,1 I'm pretty sure this is a sign of depression pic.twitter.com/t01Rmp4oq0,1 post posts one made someone deserves love please go tell that thank you,0 okay so still no school,0 @kkd2525 thx 4 the fb if u like go to http://nodes.fm/manatmouse & get 3 albums of mine for free / donation have a great time!,0 ajudem por favorvou resumir histria pra vocsconheo meu namorado anos gente se conheceu ficou trocamos ideia se afastamos depois voltamos como amigos ai nos afastamos novamente e que chegou incio desse ano voltamos conversar diariamente e consequentemente se apaixonar n e assim eu sempre fui uma pessoa que bebia todo final de semana fumava e etc e ele sempre na dele quietinho com cerveja dele comeamos namorar e eu vacilei menti para ele para esconder uma verso de mim que tinha medo dele rejeitar e uma mentira levou outrativeram influncias de amizade e um certo dia ele descobriu e obviamente abalou confiana dele e ja estvamos passando por uma fase nao muito boa ento complicou mais desconfianas comearam aparecer os cimes comearam consumir um pouco eleat olhou meu cll escondido porm admitiu depois eu entendi os cimes e tentava ao mximo explicar pra ele coisas para cime passare quando ele descobriu mentiras deu uma oportunidade de mudar de confessar outras mentiras e eu como nao sou boba agarrei escrevi todas mentiras que eu lembrava e mandei pra ele resolvemos tudo e seguimos eu comecei agir e mostrar que realmente queria nosso relacionamento mas com tempo ele comeou ter cimes meu passado desconfianas sobre mentiras passadas e perguntar sobre meu sexo com outros etc relevei tambm e ai nosso relacionamento comeou desandar um certo dia ele foi la casa gente ja nao estava muito bem e ficou com meu celular tempo todo afastado de mim mesmo eu implorando ateno e aquilo nao era normal porque sempre foi grudado ento gente comeu jogou buraco e fomos transar como nunca tnhamos transado antes e depois sexo maravilhoso tomamos um banho e ele simplesmente surtou disse que eu estava mentindo pra ele novamente e que tinha provas ai ficamos sem nos ver por dias e eu quebrando cabea pra lembrar da mentira quinto dia fui na casa dele e ele comeou falar algumas mentiras que eu realmente contei porm nao lembrei ento eu sei que estou errada prclh porm ele sabe que eu estava dedicando de mais nosso relacionamento ltimo ms eu estava dando tudo de mim e ele sabe eu realmente estava melhorando mudando ento assim vocs nao acham que ele deveria da uma chance de fazer diferente ou realmente tem que largar porque sou uma cuzona eu devo abandonar ele pra magoar mais ele socorro,1 dont want family friends knowyou ever think leaving note says something along lines love thank everything turning next page life say im abonding technology electronics living hippie while deed hidden everywhere truly boonies way family avoid heartbreak redflag,1 doe any else feel that they can t really think anymore particularly in academic area and for anyone who ha been through this before do you ever develop the ability again,1 djalizay i really don t think people choose to be that way but i think he chose not to accept my family s help he might be dead by now,0 cant anymoreits two years three minutes ago close jumping window cowardly go it feel safe anymore,1 hit hurts much want stop,1 fellow dudes normal neck match chest get checked im male im underweight im nowhere near overweight crossed past underweight range im kinda proud except neck wide body literally bones showing chest neck face seem way chubby match them normal could posture ive studying head tilted low since august around hours day also eat junk food like twice week much quantity jaw also widening up know puberty something else bad point friends point notice exclusively like making look mention though drink coffee every days around tablespoons sugar look suit physique also seem healthy something deserves visit doctor making look real bad photos face neck look almost joined reversible give time push puberty,0 boningwigald so sieht meine momentane depression au,1 i 9 f moved to a different state to support my partner while they re at school we went from a duel income household to me being the breadwinner i wa diagnosed with adhd anxiety and depression last year and am on med and in therapy i just keep screwing up at work the work isn t hard but i m making stupid mistake i feel like im not doing anything correctly i try to be thorough and am told by my bos that i m getting too caught up in the detail i try to be quick and cover the basic and am told that it isn t my best work i have no idea what to do i m told to ask question if i don t understand by my bos and when i do she s short with me example i asked if i should include document with a proposal because the last time i did there wa push back from someone saying they didn t need to provide the document she replied if i wa asking if i needed to follow to the standard operative procedure i feel stuck my performance ha been worse partially due to depression which ha affected my focus cue adhd issue med for that aren t working great i just feel so stuck i m literally cry once a week bc i feel like i m failing so badly i m literally doing working extra because i m behind and not charging for it bc i just feel like i m so behind i started this new job and wa immediately sent home to telework full time so i can t just ask the people around me for help,1 i ended my depression when i stopped procrastinating free ebook unlock your power via r freeebooks http t co v wwlg p,1 "@kacibrown hi,your pic and background is so pretty and cute How are u? I am so fine Peace from Germany ",0 it ha almost been month since i lost my nephew more like my brother though i wa at the time and he wa he wa the person that meant the absolute most to me we have both struggled with suicide our entire life i used to be a very emotional and empathetic person and i tried to make everyone happy i am no longer that in fact in the past year leading up to the event i had slowly lost my emotion empathy my ambition and pretty much everything that make a human human but when it happened i lost everything i wa and am no longer the person i wa i want to be happy again i want to care about people i want to care about music again i want to care about car again i want my hobby back most of all i want him back and what we had we were the same person our emotion the way we thought our diet everything affected our body the same way we thought about thing the exact same way our reaction were the same the thing we loved were the same for the most part our depression wa the same the thing that haunted u were the same the thing we were scared of were the same we were the same person i don t really know how to go on without him i have people that care about me but it doesn t matter they aren t him i don t even know why i m writing this this won t change anything i just wa listening to music he used to love and i wa finally able to cry a bit it s gone now though my feeling are gone again my life feel fake now,1 i have severe eco anxiety sometimes it s so bad i have a breakdown and think how can i possibly go on with life if it s headed somewhere so awful i m always worried about my future ever since i wa a kid however most of the time when i m doing okay i want to keep living and i want to do what i can to make that happen i so often see people saying such morbid and pessimistic thing about the future like they ve already given up and i find this so disheartening i also don t think many people realize what this attitude doe to people mental health it is incredibly harmful this kind of opinion breed consequence and make more and more people feel the same way i just want everyone to think about what they say on the internet and how it can be harmful anger and negativity don t do any good so let s not waste time and energy focusing on the bad that wa done rather we should focus on what we can do and how we can help no matter how small the worst thing you can do for the planet is expect someone else to save it please remember it s never too late to save the planet edit i wanted to add something marketing it a powerful tool study have shown that fear mongering doe not work and just creates despair and inaction people need to believe the planet it saveable to save it so when talking about these issue please try to leave the intense negativity aside also i don t want everyone to feel like the world is on their shoulder i just want to do what i can to create a more optimistic attitude towards the future any small change you can make make a difference,1 last years sold beautiful condominium foolish use mind time cats got sick one passed away one week later due move new vet killed got sick needed help given taken mental hospital police vet told police going kill upset state lost job became sick still sick trying see ever recover medical condition m trying keep short go details happy want see therapist read watch tv movies need help finding happiness,1 hate cuz know im wroung rant get jealous upset think friendex sex people which tonight called bothered found texts people talking know im wrong hate said feel bad bad cuz feel need except im never going another chance mean much wish,0 hopefully ill get right timesince attempted take life birthday ive hollow hopeless ive experimenting alcohol combined different types doses pills moms medicine drawer finally keep ever waking up tonight drank pack beer took temazepam tramadol wish luck,1 masturbating shower best try argue cause wrong,0 hated reddit attract people like opinion seem like me,0 tomorrow going home visited dad first time year probably last time ever plan equipment date even time know stop me friends more like acquaintances know mental health optimal family life family abusive anything dysfunctional one knows thought daily last months one last therapy session goes down unrelated issues seriously doubt going tell anything all get tiny little moments doubt like right now sure choice pass way soon mindset completely decided it everything cold meaningless here supposed stuff plan stuff good person really want disappear one fucking day wake wish not drift middle conversations fantasizing ending it snappy total nightmare around starting lose grip reality fucking hard deal bullshit stuff bad going get worse want happens ask this want this want this fuck know want know whatever is would never able achieve it know trying here sorry hope grandma sad think anymore,1 ugh need tell people know understand happened relate offer support anything would appreciated ive dealing disease years now worst flashback ive ever had boyfriend long day going sleep me,1 xjerx she s at the ritz lol but been there before and it s ok for a gig not got any more planned what about you,0 Bipolar Depression is something serious.,1 hey creeps msg yeah said creeps please msg hear creep please msg creeps,0 mizzzidc any small thing una go tag am mental health depression and trauma so it s co of sneaker your mental health suddenly got affected get your own apartment if you want privacy si,1 i always feel like i dont matter,1 swoyer fighting depression isn t a easy a it may seem because you never truly know how that person feel and people have thought of suicide because they feel a if that s the only right thing that they can do and they think it s the much easier route to go along with life,1 called girl cute wasnt angry disgusted thatsba plus called cute think heart might explode,0 i finally started therapy last november because my social anxiety ha gotten too big to deal with and i feel stuck i thought it wa going well therapist understood my problem anxiety ha been my reality for year so i guess changing my mindset is a slow process and all that but a few week ago my mom told me i should try to talk with a few other therapist because she doesn t think i m not really making progress and she also doesn t like that my therapist ha suggested anxiety med and antidepressant which i m not on right now because it s like she s dismissing me she said this got me thinking that i truly don t know what the best path is because you trust your therapist you aren t the one who studied psychology so you assume she obviously know better so i thought i d try to ask people here who went to therapy and got rid of anxiety what should i expect i didn t expect my therapist to say a bunch of magic word and cure me but is it really anxiety is never going to go away you can just learn to handle it better just make yourself suffer by putting yourself in situation that cause you anxiety until you get used to it and take med to help if you want to because that s depressing i know i might sound whiny but having to make all the work myself make me lose all motivation and i just wan na off myself because i don t actually get used to stuff i ve taken the bus a million time in my life and yet i m still anxious every time i have to take it i feel like i can t win i thought that therapist would at least help a little bit because what am i paying her for telling me to accept that i can t control everything because risk is a part of life and to take a walk everyday because i could ve realized that by myself,1 you shouldn t have gone,0 doesn t want him to go,0 @doombox it was funny. sookie laughed too and bill gave the best look. it curled my toes he's smexy,0 @RockinMileyFans I do! It was great! ,0 @Simplicity2202 Love it Bo! You sing it so well. Damn you you talented bastard! ,0 "@aneffie53 enjoy your beautiful day, Ricki! It's sunny here, too! ",0 "@ashleytisdale you should come to auckland, new zealand! you rock ",0 great james cagney topbilled big letters show till movies second third probably less screen time dudley digges plays eeevill reformschool potentate jimmy arrives deputy commissioner somethingorother reform reform schools slashes air hands jumps balls feet spits punchy warnersfirst national dialogue customary expected panache psychology crisp antique one warners many efforts assert place socially conscious studio run deep digges bad script requires be theres quaint notion juvenile delinquents turn swell kids theyre given dash autonomy made spare fast style studio specialized in never bores frankie darro got kinds onscreen trouble brief tenure warners favorite rotten street kid ideal jd handsome charismatic toughie pug nose hatefilled stare could wither steel kid actor today touch him,0 alonefirst year college hate introverted friends childhood friend decides ditch new group friends lost motivation feel lonely everyone someone hang with im myself im envious mad feel betrayed im alone cant see reason keep living really cant deal situation anymore,1 matador hitman movie liteif say hitman movie violence never really shown often introduced first scared another retread mids gangsterhitmanhipsterdark comedy happily surprised realized sweet humorous story friendship nothing terribly exciting happens film every bit kept grinning three leads best chemistry big screen offered recent years looks like great time making film together writing sharp though times felt script adapted stage play one set dialog scenes good film probably remember long time complete joy good film,0 bit young one see it theres excellent music many folks mentioned one seems notice rare appearance angel mostly ignored quite popular musical outfit wearing trademark white outfits grind th century foxes apparently try cram cameras field vision keyboardist gregg giuffria remains bands highlight apparently never gotten much haircut ever cherie currie exrunaways singer begins brief notable acting career here quite memorable alongside jodie foster rest her topless d scenes parasite ufo sighting wavelength kept us watching time br br its masterpiece preserves chunk period gaze upon wonder,0 teacher lowering grade previou grading period anyone straight as first grading periodnow im end secondand looked back stand one class c wtf techah,0 puppy dying ii know say ive raised special needs puppy day born weekend took turn worse vet today sent emergency veterinary college state took three hours lot false promises said accepting would thousands dollars told morning ive sold camper took loan car put downpayment surgery want even tomorrow treat her release balance even could get gas drive three hours back college cant even end depression social anxiety made shit life social media nobody small circle help gofundme tried desperation gone nowhere cant get word out im money food hope world two years ago lost person dearest redflag teetering line deciding follow now hope tether world brief time beside worthless powerless save her im broke ridiculous piece shit dead end shit job alone lonely ive dealt enough failing someone dear dependent greatly probably losing great beyond last straw theres hope kindness charity warmess world cold unfeeling money grubbing kill her ive lost everyone time ill join love sweet eternal silence leave dirty greedy world behind sometimes okay sometimes decision have good luck fellow travelers,1 Yay! Iron Giant is on tv ,0 bruh reddit notifications now always keep filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 As soon as I get my hands on a scanner there are at least 3 people that should be prepared to go back...WAY back. 1998 was quite a year ,0 expecting movie suck got pretty good slashergore film death scenes adequately brutal teens decent penny mcnamee definitely best bunch rachael taylor looks like young christie brinkley bring much movie that kane good killer totally believable fearsome juggernaut saw twist coming miles away still enjoyed moviebr br but really stood direction gregory dark might actually career legit film ahead him aside overusing horror film speed camyou know like guys face shakes fast theres good shots here camera angles environments really emphasize kanes size making look even bigger actually isbr br if looking deep story characters aint it thats slasher films about looking good violence gory films go check out,0 name yoshikage kira im years old house northeast section morioh villas are married work employee kame yu department stores get home every day pm latest smoke occasionally drink im bed pm make sure get eight hours sleep matter what glass warm milk twenty minutes stretches going bed usually problems sleeping morning like baby wake without fatigue stress morning told issues last checkup im trying explain im person wishes live quiet life take care trouble enemies like winning losing would cause lose sleep night deal society know brings happiness although fight lose anyone,0 one days last night tried talk girlfriend worryfeeling ive feel like attempt talk explain problem brains pushed away wanted talk feel suck talking feelings made things worse im even really asking advice do ive feel like ruin everything try help,0 skirt bread quote world history teacher aztecs needed chad blood,0 think factorial design are going to be the death of my test quot a quot who come up with this confusing quot mathy quot stuff ugh,0 aminelkhatmi ric zemmour l alg rien vous invite vos ascendant descendant et vous m me a elkhatmi de saisir l opportunit de la r migration pour viter le grand remplacement afin d viter marion mar chal le pen de crisis de d pression,1 "@aJackieLarsen @Nemosanartist @postphysicaI depression in college is actually high, in law school the percentage sky rockets, providing a space for overwhelmed students to take a break and cry is actually a really good idea",1 nototyrannynow a stagflationary prolonged recession or a hyperinflationary then deflationary depression,1 helpive stress vomiting lately times last weeks im pretty sure weird sort hypomanic thing two weeks really fit criteria length consistency especially since people notice im fucked final exam incomplete friday already extended im fuck made progress essay notes also fell behind classes really would like self harm ive noticed telling goes hell try killing myself idk thats fucked coping mechanism or cant this therapist much help right thoughts serious know prior experience go serious really bad writing notes holding stuff,1 Gettin some patron!! Then off to gay it up at hamburger mary's ,0 yesterday said would regret killing myself didthe maintenance quadriplegic unbearable bailed attempt kill yesterday regretted it feeling regret came hours minutes ticked close signal arrival caregiver bathes strips carcass naked regret stronger lay bed feeling feces uncontrollably make way ass fill diaper exhausted wear fake smile day therapy wanting nothing sleep never wake freedom love stripped me replaced with pain humiliation endure life quadriplegic life goes on yes mines life hallow,1 still feeling like shit still bored go saw guy im gonna steal idea whats impression me going profile alone,0 MY CAMERA JUST CAME IN..... ,0 late forties era screwball comedy over films moving different direction comedically otherwise television looming horizon hollywood would soon rough time where one wonders would movies gone television come along arrival scene delayed five ten years mr blandings builds dream house offers one particular way comedy might developedbr br ad man jim blandings along wife two daughters living nice way cramped new york city apartment one day gets bright idea might fun realize dream building house suburbs buys property connecticut one built precise specifications well almost known trouble might changed mind might have decide frail premise wonderful film results full conflict middle class dream owning ones home oftentimes unpleasant reality acquiring one nothing comes easy life mr blandings learns one miserable things always go ones way is all long run but blandings asks every minutes long longbr br this movie delight not suppose masterpiece capramccarey tradition worthy successor thirties pictures may well harbinger things come arrival television changed cultural landscape radically real warmth picture good deal wc fieldsian hardedged reality obtruding periodically much leave bad taste people film smart affluent decidedly professional upper middle idle rich upper classbr br lead players cary grant myrna loy plays mr mrs blandings perfection melvyn douglas fine pragmatic lawyer friend often bring unpleasant topics real world works is too wonderful sense want better term one might call romance suburbia infancy immediate postwar years one sees woods streams drew people country first place people definitely fish water still largely rural connecticut short years things would change mad rush suburbia would full gear destroying forever pastoral innocence many yearned small towns soon would connected highways littered bottles cans effluvia rivaling anything one would encounter city,0 suicidal thoughts everydayi hate life im apathetic right cant even bother writing lines think maybe killed pain im scared something goes wrong clue without much suffering cant sleep cant awake cant focus anything,1 i don t feel like trying to make thing better in fact i never did i just accepted it a a part of life it may be because i ve never been that much of a person that work hard i m just lazy in general i like to take thing easy if you re lazy apathetic and unmotivated there s pretty much no chance of overcoming depression,1 tbh havent found right person doesnt mean will,0 20 minutes-a-day exercise significantly cuts risk of developing depression https://buff.ly/2qWCxDx  pic.twitter.com/rpI6zq43UO,1 want to use the directional dance pad pero di compatible sa tv yung game http plurk com p n0hyu,0 everybody gangsta till daddy issues start talkin time supposed vibing,0 sorry bother youi usually things like want get know else say it reason im alive father raised belief selfish people kill made terrified selfish tried kill college got really drunk took bottle sleeping pills slept days desperate sleep woke morning realized id done sad still alive loving family good friends wonderful partners live away them hate live im minutes away partners id love live boyfriend want to pay per month apartment hate two roommates stopped liking found polyamorous think gross gossip diseases im barely making enough rent ive trying find new place live costs less scary areas im heartbroken man im living stupid city take although im also aware selfish makes makes hate myself job hated left freelance working hours per day try make ends meet im constantly sad tired feel like every day same im sure im still around for im failing everything anyways im failing life keep going remember id selfish kill cry every morning every night miss family miss best friends want feel home place first time years once im tired,1 @delanelyn Im excited and scared 4 u all at once lol hahahha i cant wait for u to tell me how u like the south its wierd but i <3 it,0 greaaat my lappy won t turn on wtffffff,0 feel disappointed whenever wake morning like oh taken sleep yetits brutal cycle every single day id cry sleep wishing gods would end suffering take sleep want painless quick death every morning wake up immediately feel disappointed going another day trying get shit thinking life together clearly dont want end everything pointless theres sense waking anymore fuck shit,1 s afghanistan pushtun boy amir zekeria ebrahimi hazara boy hassan ahmad khan mahmoodzada loyal friend son hazara servant ali nabi tanha raised together amirs father house playing kitting streets peaceful kabul amir feels wise good father baba homayoun ershadi blames death mother delivery also father loves prefers hassam him return amir feels great respect fathers best friend rahim khan shaun toub supports intention become writer amir winning competition kitting hassam runs bring kite amir beaten raped brutal assef elham ehsas empty street protect amirs kite coward amir witness assault help loyal hassam day birthday party amir hides new watch hassams bed frame boy thief force father fire ali releasing conscience recalling cowardice betrayal russians invade afghanistan baba amir escape pakistan simple life fremont california amir graduates public college pride joy baba later amir meets countrywoman soraya atossa leoni get married death baba amir famous novelist receives phone call terminal rahim khan discloses secrets family forcing amir return peshawar pakistan journey redemptionbr br i familiar afghan culture read novel spite recommendation daughter yesterday decided watch movie dvd found good story loyalty cowardice betrayal redemption brief insight recent history afghanistan peaceful period s present days taliban actors actresses great performances giving credibility realistic story arid locations china recall images see television afghanistan end found the kite runner good movie vote sevenbr br title brazil o caador de pipa the kite chaser,0 wanna cuddle uwu like baggy pajamas ac temperature makes us cold also warm lay thicc blanket thicc enough make us sweat fall asleep uwu,0 sci fi story idea mind jane meitner private eye a science fiction detective novel rough outline draft idea something whatever called jane marie burnell former science officer astrophysicist galactic federation research vessel wanderer due false accusation falsification data one papers meitner expelled scientific community meitner soon sets private investigation office pleiades deep space station solves cases mysterious disappearances unsolved abandoned galactic federation meitner soon finds embarking galaxywide journey small starship centauri encountering strange planets creatures new dangers lurk darkness universe man,0 horny strong someone please kill or least help kill horny,0 okay hear fnaf chance get smash cause fucking steve in like what chance big voice genre need horror character hand tf character likely game made v would rad play heavy third hand crash spyro get in think would get in,0 seems quick fixes depression struggle good side struggle now realized long road worth it even though go read peoples stories read books deal struggle seems person write book get hole read much material listened many podcasts youtube videos taken meds gone counseling still write booki experiments see worked me wrote worked down then went difficult times got unfinished book read it tried solutions book came ones worked particular day start writing book today find recovery slow road back,1 Craving some STARBURST ,0 at wye river it s really cold this internet is really expensive,0 promise keep thing keeping herei made promise not gonna retype all interested promise feed cant keep it screwed many times burned every one bridges thought done damage irreversible thought would best hurt much okay started talking pain appeared again pain screaming end all made promise ive tried keep it im knife collector see plenty tools cut releasing run blade across arteries arms neck press blade skin till break cant actually cut id break promise time shaking excited end right there single quick push minutes bleeding wouldnt deal anymore im work right one person noticed small cut artery im invisible always good theyd worry theyd watch me wouldnt able get closer breaking free world saying fuck promise dont want break promise dont even reason live person made promise different life track am even worth keeping suffering keep word im sick alone invisible rest world want gone world stop feeling pain im going seek help keep promise till die natural causes damn feels good actually say somewhere,1 yall think weird ghost corner room sleep paralysis demon see us masturbate sleep,0 hi d hope ur great day just long enough,0 dumped transphobic boyfriend two gender ass get fucked bad dont even feel sad,0 attempted kill days agofailed miserably btw thought would feel something would start dying parents find after no everythings absolutely fucks sake still dont care anything anyone still motivation reason live still afraid anything welp lets see lead,1 ill never love myselfi want live anymore many issues cant seem solve problems suicidal thoughts coming back droves amp really want kill lately become smarter better version cant believe myself ever find right partner love myself want suffer anymore work amp suffer william love amp gave me every time think ive cried tears return think you know anymore hate free time mysel introspect much cant sleep night anxiety man ever love respect really am always pretty face mediocre brain work hard exactly need something numb madness,1 Dave Matthews at their very best ? http://blip.fm/~5h5es,0 at work and a little sick,0 sad talking girlshe friendzoned first broke like dayafter went ahead kissed another dude kinda flirtinand even looking texts probably explaining happened thing pushups everytime feel like piece shit looks like ill like tonight,0 wrong personal body stuff holy days im kinda ugh really wanna nono stuff feel bad easter bad it see sin terrible damning sin something thats like kinda sorta bad since im bad feel scared easter christmas etc,0 @jackstackbbq @heretical_1 @Black2thBone @chrisvega25 @Kurtis4Mary @WaltMum @ScaryHomeschool @dam7978 @AnIshia420 @NoBotting @ldlmead @RubinsRants @PassTheSalty @NewsJunkie60 @twmentality1 @kellmas06 @_lynnwolf_ @WhyThisFuckery @Rosethewolf @buffster76 @bruce79038687 @Snobyrd @juliet_benoit @woofwoofblake @randallpink17 @DrKittyKatz @MeemawResists @FeralTwin @lisalbarjas1 @ajsgmajc @DonnaWithrow2 @pissedoffwhtgrl @Dgc9274 @ConservativeSti @musiklpn @grumpycham @TomDurkin1 @Steve03343829 @mmdesoer @PixMichelle @Crystaljones__1 @nhojhpesoj @britin17k @KerrazyCanuck @BriztolJeff @Domdalom @HollywoodDebi @Kokomothegreat I read some of that feed sorry for that. Ive had depression but her behavior switched up very quickly. Nothing but love ,1 anyone wanna start group meeting zoom talk ill post link people interested,0 "@apryll_lopez Hmm..that's some kind of logical thinking your husband has there! Sounds like something mine would suggest, too! ",0 thousand mile no,0 f complete fucking disasteri hate completely hate look personality basically everything get up go gym go work rinse repeat barely leave house friends never even boyfriend everyone else buying houses kids getting marriedhere sucking everything basically exhausted ready give up,1 "Fete and Terno Inferno on Saturday, anyone? tweet me. kitakits ",0 gemma brett i made a film with teenage woman who cared for their mum cold house dark room the love shown the tear shed the weight of responsibility the frustration at missed opportunity the depression the anti depressant castaway in their own life the youngest wa,1 life like movie sounds,0 pity doesnt helpim admitted hospital currently work though obviously much longer lady orientation said heart goes redflag ideation patients yall people dont think life worth living hurts heart internal reaction person without realizing b one said life worth living either could literally life would still want die basically point pity helpful less you aside really sucks true even though specific life extremely difficult hard deal cannot imagine possible life would okay apart maybe inheriting couple million dollars not going happen time soon cant think job would okay way life would okay meltdown work tuesday severe anxiety sent home two weeks sort out home week improvement tried find doctor said least week half first app therapist two weeks see psychiatrist dont regular doctor local doctors charge new patient fee top appointment itself husband says take commit tomorrow hospital triggers anxiety good hospital everything suck knowing backside pitying doesnt help makes think life special compared mine maybe us tired suffering resources help ease that,1 typical suicidal thoughtsi feel empty angry sad time decades ive therapy help medicine makes zombie want end cant read anymore cant feel genuine joy anymore want disappear forever evaporate air,1 saw someone say youre favourite fanfic tropes friends lovers then youre closeted gay fell love childhood best friend well umm im f girlfriend best friend since im close friends so,0 slessard but but but i wan na listen to the master too,0 "Already Gone" - Kelly Clarkson very beautiful :'),0 @staceykface make yourself busy ,0 i m currently working on a game which i hope to put on kickstarter i m not looking for fame and fortune but i would like for people to like my game and give it high review problem is that i feel like people can read my mind whenever i think about my game so i try to keep my thought quick and quiet forget writing anything down that s just another way someone can steak my idea how do i overcome this,1 "I love your smile! Yea, for old school R&B! ",0 josephheustess well there wa this really cool part where i wont spoil it,0 woman like woman strong anything oh yeah strong woman beat never win checkmate liberal,0 happens get caughtokay headline suggests im kind hitting point desperation dont care want stop mind you im dont health insurance question hypothetically go somewhere try finally end it get caught sent hospital happens refuse cooperate peacefully dont talk all ik theyll still hold whatever like im admitted hospital take meds eat talk stay room etc happen ive pretty much hit point depression social anxiety want theres going back fixing me ill cooperate try kill every time get finally succeed,1 wish euthanasiamy whole life keeps getting worse worse everyday goes by im even yet feels like im old fuck ive work since ive since lost dad one supporting family financially mom barely makes anything ive work live normal life see everyone else age going friends traveling fun im house day bed usually sit outside sun thing gives happiness now go college semester drop couldnt afford one help pay off started working full time job came back home years later quit couldnt take anymore routine everyday physically demanding didnt get paid lot hard work everyone else slacking off tired happening everyday walked never came back regret new job gives hours minute drive dealt stress previous job didnt think would hard get job day every single employer always pick people seem cool attractive ones one cares hard work anymore wont even give chance prove it go someone looks social status feel alone sometimes one talk besides mom little brother even dont want listen sometimes gets awkward since mom never really talked showed emotion feels nice someone physically around you older siblings great life guess forgot me ive asked help think figure own feel helpless wish human euthanasia legal wouldnt feel way everyday dont know im future im scared,1 had a great st birthday but is sick a with the flu,0 helpi adhd know good self diagnose know itmy family doesnt take seriously though ive looked almost symptoms anyways also anxiety diagnosed im relaly anxious next school year anyways mom tried get diagnosed adhd kept nagging got forms give teachers forgot give one form take doctor guess one concluded didnt adhd confessed forgot give forms said wont go back doctor get diagnosed get really bad headaches whenever im faced much work focus one right told parents wanted try grapeseed extract read good focus yelled me really dont want help way marks low last school year want fucking kill myself people adhd dont belong earth cant function it feel like burden everybody know cant schoolwork go living ill probably fucking bum dont know do killing makes sense honestly im pretty worthless really cant anything without getting fucking migraine help,1 really enjoy want break either silly sometimes think im making bigger deal be get insecure fact high school boyfriend one actually asked date slept together every guy always turned same come him sex guy maintains wants nothing serious nowhere comes really strong marriage kids talk,0 @etrangle http://twitpic.com/3l8mv - Mysha & Myreen are so cute... ,0 "Depression is real,cant begin to describe how I've been feeling this past http://week.It  comes from nowhere & wants to stay.",1 finished geometry summer work get algebra sophomore year finished fucking geometry lfg id like thank couple people far ive come first all uiia whos consideration kind heart gave strength motivation one else could be could even said outside this reading this cannot thank enough everything done me second umikyni ive said iia could said you amazing friend source motivation well mention cheered shit got stressful getting algebra year sophomore newfound motivation mostly thanks gentle souls gratitude immeasurable cant imagine id gone without them reasons call best friends times like really shine amazing friends grace earth thank much,0 im cowardbecause cant take leap im standing edge here cant it im scared anything around me im grateful everyone im shitty human im leech drain everything want something else someone competent someone better whoever am try might success seems reach though ive accomplished nothing well truth plus side right anywhere else help expensive every day gets harder harder even trust anymore feel useless wish something anything could feel useless hardest part friends know like come advice people even look me know im worried look me want say know itll make sad know put that yet am ready jump cant keep asking pick speeches help getting shit together many cant even admit im sad broken shell human being want this want die want live guess want say someone shit really really hard life really really hard im shitty human think really shitty possibly even make good martyr anything maybe go kind hunger strike something cause notbut theres nothing either care anything enough please understand love everyone thats fucking hard many ways know struggling know problems know mine worst know means im weak know means im worthless anyway thats piece im gonna stand bit longer ill either take long way short way im leaning toward short way honestly either way ill see see you,1 @DonnieWahlberg Wondering if he's still listening? If so can we soldiers get a goodnight! ,0 normally like romantic films love film much story really touching ending appropriate feel really care many characters film feel feel feelings romantic films always make feel detached bored one completely makes feel involved starting scene capshaw running along beach scott ending scene want rate film want give extra one point ending acting part strong kate capshaw good opportunity show talent though im impressed scott dead man campus film completely changes viewpoint towards him hes irresistibly charming here geraldine mcewan terrific everbr br film might good complex deep believable films deal little bit kind relationship lecole de la chair post coitum animal triste the love letter still proud casts rare different light kind relationship difference makes film eminently enjoyable unambitious relying great charms small stars dreamworks time really make dream come true,0 i am and think i m depressed idk what is but happiness just is not the same anymore it feel bland from what it used to be it all started when my mom separated from my verbally abusive dad when i wa 0 after that is spiraled down and down my aunt uncle grandma and grandpa dying left and right and my aunt turning out to be racist even tho i m her nefew i went to therapy for year but it did not help i dated my best friend who i have known since i wa a kid and it did not work out the relationship is ruined and now we barely talk i have plenty other friend but it doe not feel the same i hate school but my mom say i cant drop out and i have to have the best grade posible i know she is doing what she is supposed to and i wan na try but it so hard to even find the will to stay alive i m very self conscious and do not like the way i look i have a girlfriend but it doe not feel like what i thought it would be and doe not help me mentally at all overall i want to off my self because of the thing that s i ve done and thing i ve been through i don t know what is stopping me i don t think it selfish if i off myself and i don t really see any benefit if i stay alive i don t believe in true love and i m not happy at all really my mom want me to graduate so i can be happy but school make me even more unhappy but i think that s just cause i m a kid i don t even know if i ll make it past let alone go to college i just wan na know why can t i be happy,1 i just let my everquest subscription lapse just don t play it anymore don t have the time,0 tell people care love themi questionable shit last post now behavior getting increasingly impulsive worse plans see psychiatrist talk meds see june murica problem is know ill around then basically wrote redflag note hours ago get like this start things feel x y can impulse start acting without feeling im completely gone part want this but risk want ask case need know tell people care love them want know case anything happens later hell even nothing does still want know,1 life meaningless wasted life away cannot fuxking focus find passion anything xd anyone experience tech cleanse something perma online,1 im set august thon th gone,1 really need advice guys serious id really appreciate helpful advice im mobile sorry formatting spelling etc im really tricky situation guess im m pretty abusive family parents get fight constantly often pretty nasty shouting calling names insulting etc going therapy year got worse decided wasnt thing psychiatrist told parents put psychiatry children teenagers didnt research forced go wich ended helpful made feel uncomfortable one point physical abuse dad beat also beat once stopped mainly verbal abuse insulting dad constantly talking failure even fighting laughing me got fight morning threatening take away phone laptop really need school unless come stupid written agreement act family genuinely dont know go life everything except family life great im really well school bunch friends bunch hobbies etc please tell could do,0 Reposting @mshapshaycomicbaker: - via @Crowdfire I am because you were. #carriefisher #princessleia #princessleiaforever #starwars #mentalhealth #mentalhealthmatters #sober #sobriety #rehab #recovery #anxiety #depression #bipolar Doing my best to keep your legacy of mental pic.twitter.com/rkpTSwmL62,1 rteenagers allow post images temporary permanent me,0 longer happy unless drugsim ive shitty life seeing doctor wreck passenger months ago crippled temporarily got bunch painkillers addictive personality weekend im going jump tower soon pills nothing matters im state mind normal life productive citizen longer intrest me,1 chronicles sav titty pics rock hello welcome chronicles sav today want share experience got first titty pics so started cool thursday evening playing among us yknow everything going good one friends playing simping one players supposedly girl like name davis arent girl said jokingly mind you confirmation pic dont believe it now friend got snap shes got k snapscore girl pfp told msg still wasnt convinced said said add her did msged her radio silence thought fucked boned will stuffed like piata fancy however today blessed ray light shone me im pretty sure im qualified buddha thats enlightened am,0 i m m and all i feel like i do is dissapoint everyone around me it suck i remember everyone used to tell me that i would have a bright life when i wa a kid and i look at myself now unable to talk to people hold down a conversation without saying sorry every second i just feel like such a dissapointment and feel like everyone in my life would be so much better without me i see my partner of year just thrive in her life and it just kill me so much knowing that someone who is so full of life love me i feel so bad for her sometimes since my anxiety get so bad to the point where i get panic attack going to her family house or even taking her out to a restaurant i ve never felt this low in my life and all i can think of now is just offing myself to spare everyone of my misery nobody deserves to have someone who is just a downer all the time,1 Maneater is hysterical ,0 hey everyone sorry english first language chronic insomnia basically days since stopped taking mirtazapine withdrawal horrible question travelling important event ran ambien sister takes mirtazapine question would bad take mg days whole withdrawal process would another withdrawal itok thank much could use advice please,1 weird sometimes im suicidal hell sometimes think allon days reall suicidal point stepped balcony ready jump hands full pills ready swallow it days really think like never head like episode comes goes really randomly,1 i m scared of my future i m scared of taking responsibility for my own life i m scared of facing the consequence of my action i m scared of making decision because they might be the wrong one i m scared of taking a step forward i m scared that there s nothing i can do with my life because i m too scared of everything i m scared of living,1 feel lost trapped know do please helphello ive never really good sharing feelings im begging help plan kill myself thought head longer remember recently urge lot stronger im longer scared idea think dead think alive hate life gotten point want normal feel lost trapped nasty thoughts leave head please help,1 kimberley lol awww i want a cuddle now you almost made my eye leak love you too lt,0 i can t take it anymore,1 neymar messi et pogba ont fini en d pression le ravage du foot business,1 although certainly politically incorrect entertained drunk theres charm dudley moores portrayal lovable lush arthur bach one cant help feel unique wonderful character entertained infectious laugh giggle utter silliness although im really liza minnelli fan really excellent linda marolla picture anyone else role sir john gielgud heart film deserved oscar rest cast also excellent great tune arthurs theme wow truly one best comedies s great films get better viewing case arthur,0 iti want least painful option fucking redflag last time ill ever feel pain im wondering exactly ensure ill die country guns pills home paracetamol ibuprofen knife theres bridge overlooking relatively busy main rood near me take ensure death cant bear existing anymore,1 song series go orange justice sound sister watching series called go dance music show song called online hey opening sounds excactly orange justice go youtube search netflix go online hey hear almost scary,0 feel ashamed life hardthats,1 This is a new one on Twitter: @justinlevy (great person to follow btw) is tweeting his wedding day #levywedding,0 im a faliure i have no friend i have shit grade i dont find anything interesting i just wan na die i dont know what to do,1 man upon time lovely princess httpwwwscriptoramacommovie_scriptssshrekscripttranscriptmikemyershtml,0 know petty reason sad dragging pretty badly mind hates me overeat cannot sleep well pervasive redflag also sprinkled good measure too spite actually somehow making good progress terms losing weight getting better running probably going go window since got shin splints hurts like hell run now took much fucking effort get point forcing go spite incredibly sad tired fucking time wanting sleep day ran regularly able fucking laundry break habit order recover sure feel sad disgusting since able really run mostly one good habit actually able form keep length time might start over sorry probably overly dramatic constantly like supports ripped cannot body listen,1 mental confusion from physical or psychological pain the influence of chemical or disease physical and mental pain may cause fear anger and stress chemical change magnify the pain and can cause depression,1 dont like want fix hard shit made overview really dont like am dont good personality im funny im skinny af really dont like myself heres thing fully realizing hate thought hating fix it im starting working eating better friend thats going help think biggest thing personality another person definitely wouldnt friends myself want nicer funnier seen guy people and myself like talk around dont really know change tbh feel like im asshole half time annoy people whenever say anything even get annoyed talk really need fix this anyone knows how please say something need change,0 grandmas fake hear one fellows grandmas way nice gets little suspicious sometimes huh well guess theyre government spying tool see everyone keeping ft apart utilizing masks granny sees let whit microchip forearms give much free money pls keep mask keep distance,0 Dads side of the family and getting drunk with them. Always the best. ,0 would great app help people need someone talk to find someone talk to confidentially safely survey gauge interest mental health app idea,1 it a grey day in london come back sun all is forgiven,0 want enddddi feel like mess matter hard try never stop upcoming bpd phases always manage cut anyone close me always vicious cycle cant feel anything forced eat today every bite absolutely nauseating eating hurts much point wanna cry want disappear probably get home ill cut wanna feel hurt thing understand im writing nothing makes coherent sense doesnt matter ill die anyway,1 hate step fatheri worst step father ever ever talk shit me explaining brother luck interviews today day finally got one parents ruined ended missing appointment felt bad mentioned step dad talking negatively customers said called good nothing lazy tub lard believe brother first time said things like me ever since young always something me used beat like father real dad passed started beating way sophomore year hs already lot problems really sucks feels way talks way complete strangers hate everything have cut many times thanks him try helping house always finds something scream for cry idk else do parents put turn comfort afraid kicked take want street dog suffer me,1 crush think likes back try ask out,0 Always a fun time with the ILYC'ers! I love em all! ,0 @thePISTOL http://twitpic.com/424qb - i must say you guys pull of the snuggie VERY well ,0 ilivedliving trying kill weird feeling tried kill yesterday failed completely time attempted certain going live past day yet am feels wrong alive like even though die still feel strangely dead even planned everything plan end dead im weird state now what really know anymore,1 unfortunately one people thinks death lot weather hands multiple instances varying degrees possibility matter attached detached reality are come find feeling numb perhaps merely trying trick thinking ameither way known afraid deathhowever id like think stronger suicide like think hold world refuse allow kill me truly wants dead dirty work itself save ultimatum actual emergency either save another save completely bleak situation yet time like hypocrite say fully peace unknown death unknown life shakes core still young getting sense world learned far scared hopefully shocked amazed frightened beginning see small everything yet large things appear even little thoughtless actions massive consequences present unknowable future know doexcept always done run hide watch distance talking ghost people never met notes screens light half time freeze that sit hole survive spectate never truly live interact tired know blame world given others actions much many things could done differently honest response scaredand know be want kill sure live,1 one things interested film way characters associated histories developed fly suppose writers wanted us gain interest characters force feeding characters premise using art craft furniture design construction unique theme andor analogy familiessiblings go life complexity twin serve surrogate father even husband added great tension towards making film emotionally interesting also although story one masses might directly relate ie jewishtwinsfamily business themes fairly universal every family black sheep it made engaging,0 i really struggle with depression and increadibly miserable thought about myself and what i do i also struggle with realising what i like or enjoy doing wearing watching etc in a few word i struggle with knowing my interest i feel no emotion for life at all i just see myself doing everyday stuff i need to survive a a human being do you have any suggestion on how i can help myself on speaking much better about myself and what i like sth to enjoy and be interested in like should i tell myself repetitively for instance i enjoy dancing rather than i just do it because i have to because some people say i do it beautifully but i m not sure about it or i don t feel good about it should i write down everyday sth like for instance i write well i read well i like writing i enjoy writing instead of i just write beacuse is needed at work because i have to people use to say i speak well in front of people but i just do it i don t feel anything it s known that depression steal u the joy of life and everyday existance it steal our curiosity in everything i leave everything because i feel no interest on it i just want to feel engaged in sth i m exhausted of not feeling anything good but i have no money for therapy atm can you help me thanks is advance,1 belgian myself take interest history congo colony many years rwanda belgian protectorate colony part countrys history nowadays seems popular say belgians congo wrong especially th century im saying bad things happen course did back abnormal really think french brits much nicer colonies no werent normal time king leopold ii use congo way gain personal wealth private property it belong state then tried make it course gruesome things like hands chopped happened yes todays standards thats inadmissible days common practice said happen anymore last decades know several people lived worked congo many years declaration congolese independence true several black servants nice people really cant imagine ever treated bad far know always treated lot respect however im saying belgians did fact old almost years old now would love return congobr br the good thing movie gives historically accurate vision happened last years belgian governance first years congolese independence story black white perhaps best words context else explain mean feared would be say belgians wrong congolese good shows perfectly congolese rush getting independent belgians mind accept help russians well americans eye raw materials like copper diamonds bauxite rubber getting congolese political camp interested independence give good idea lumumba became powerful also mobutu played double role shows belgian reaction compatriots violated threatened even murdered my father one paratroopers send congo rescue belgians gives good idea political problems lumumba encountered province katanga want part congolese republic role belgians murder lumumba gets part moviebr br the story seems accurate characters really look act like real ones movie able give good idea life congo late fifties early sixties like seen everybody interested history country also shown history classes especially belgium part history never forgotten give perhaps even ,0 friend talking something showed r prove point im worried life,0 darkness finally lifting thank everyone ever lent kind wordi made post ago old account explaining thinking calling quits honestly brink grasping semblance hope owed finestickets unable renew license unable work pit financially honestly killing lent plight sub many people sympathetic going through many even similar things life let know even though take time _definitely_ gets better put head focused could financial help grandma able pay fines get license back first time years drive again feels incredible side dark place may seem trivial problem one hardest times life even problem way similar yours im sure outcomes hold keep believing change come months ago wouldnt ever thought would say _it gets better_,1 wanna live anymore life senseless please change mindhello created reddit account sake post january diagnosed borderline personality disorder taking toll me go therapy coronavirus outbreak whenever mother arguments im always wrong one always keeps top take things anymore want die prolonging time die senseless well die future anyway whats point living really get raised parents what compete others using learned skills knowledge compete best resources available try gain much experiences relationships achievements knowledge satisfaction end die anyway humans worthless selfish pieces crap ever really compete resources even see global warming result selfish deeds competing resources species animal kingdom that humans well known compete humans too iq skills climb hierarchy acquire financial relationship status gain self esteem iq skills stay ladder live worst life possible none low financial relationship status gain least esteem fucking brain hormonal differences world mad stress senseless selfish deeds end well die anyway letting emotional physical pains insecurities anxieties fears death stay sides end well die anyway say prolonging time left final line death senseless please change mind using nonreligious views believe god,1 "Mm, Mushroom lasagna. It reminds me of Taos in New Mexico. Good memories. ",0 kimmyawesome ohhhh that suck i love the summer set,0 bivancamp did you update itunes to the new version b you lost it new software update killed my ipod,0 im really frustratedi feel like life uphill battle years now back younger brother killed himself ive always anxiety constantly dip depression realization struggling much always bothered me dropped school struggled years manipulative figures life lot bad decisions recently found way go back school ive picking up always feel lonely feel like talk anyone life point none make feel better talking always makes feel pathetic many people life give terrible advice way support makes feel worse despite good intentions month im really behind rent terrified evicted feel like im going ruin anything ive tried build past year know keep holding on family cares guess want hurt them im aware reason really working anymore worse feel less reasons hurt matter constantly think hurting regular basis think things ever line work out,1 "@billchills @RealRyanWhorton I guess people with depression don't deserve to get jobs then, just let them get kicked out of their house for not being able to pay bills",1 wish category place horror simply isnt granted horrific moments however feel makes horror film give movie could better million little things could changed make betterbr br that said love movie im often sad people misunderstand whole point it always clear point movie say things always seem sometimes evil isnt br br barker con went little talk watch movie thing interesting many things wished put movie be chunk cut movie believed long lost chunk helped shed light boone girlfriend well detailsbr br i know people bothered information breed background however always felt gave movie real fleshed feel read novella based well many comics this movie always seemed like staging ground whole story much involved story sadly never chance live br br despite flaws movie might believe lot offer monsters wonderful imaginative acting sometimes bit stiff quotable lines whenever watch find something new keep eye boones chest toward end one point decker stabs shortly boone falls card table ends card stuck chest card stays even lori pulls knife out stays boone casually removes it love that lovely little detail thoughtbr br basically want say that looking horror movie watch this believe times men evil anything ever dreamed up movie you movie men destroy understand fear,0 first saw movie movie channel hbo time ago fan public enemy nwa early rap seen cb theaters anyway promo caught eye wanted see about well right bat knew going good warning right parody songs alone make movie worth watching my peanuts overall flow delivery movie great got love satire rap groups obviously nwa certain rappers eazy e flava flav ice cube humor three members nwh forget tone deaf scratching ass bad movie get credit deserved overshadowed cb releases opinion much better film know like s gangster rap watching laughing movie long time like rap enjoy jokes expense genre,0 reason anymore ive thought outi really thought long time now life time low see getting better ive tried everything could people sad theyll get it everyone does care happiness anything end better now cons definitely outweigh pros im going give bit longer see mind changing,1 recently broke ex huge emotional void since really anyone else talk to much friends either could someone shoulder please need someone talk,1 i hate this shit that is called life and myself a well i seriously just wan na be normal and mentally stable i turn in month i suffer from bipolar adhd and severe social anxiety lol and i live in a country that do not give two fuck about mental health not even my family know about this they just think am weird i always find it extremely hard to be social or have a solid jobe interview without sweating or going completely red lol i also have some leftover acne scar so that made it alot worst have one friend that i feel a connection with and i love that i mean hopefully thing will get better am in my last year of college or i will get the courage to and my miserable life,1 anyone remember playedonlinecom sure do played time games like raise dragon super mario crossover guess kizi took one point site longer exists,0 i ve been dealing with some really weird painful burning throughout my abdomen and my entire middle the last few week i don t know if anxiety is the culprit but it definitely make it ten time worse doe anyone have way to reduce the effect of psychosomatic symptom,1 think im going try tomorrowbackground first rodeo ive dealing suicidal thoughts since years later theyre coming again louder ever heard chester bennington history abuse learned victimized ages music life support young cant shake idea happens life hard deal kid degrees psychology still cant get stop really thats want point stuck body mind anymore lost job due depression lost partner similar reasons survived car crash fucked brain thats past years able pick find life worth living instead keep treading water matter many job apps put plans make future pan out feels like end road want end suffering tomorrow im going show see one favorite bands ive using show reason hang past couple months silly working over theres whole lot else keep figure im still unhappy end night hell point holding on comes tomorrow night im going try hanging bedsheet slip knotted doorknob thrown top slip knotted around neck ive gotten setup see would hold does worry cat since want cause pain owner around shes attached end either going goes firstits inevitable know im telling this im alone would good feel heard guess,1 think people like would relate feeling trapped tortured flaws society also like interest nonsense required interact societyconnecting supposed help becoming difficult find reasonsways feel isolated humankind draining enough even express thoughts words consider accurate enough hopefully maneuver empty void internet space grasp strangers attention universe connections first requirements hopes revitalize society world yet continue fall isolation,1 technically katara bend shit since contains water shitbender,0 redflag hotlines garbagefor first time life used crisis center fucking joke is parrot emotions back like talking robot you seem frustrated im sensing lot anger so feel burden never using shit again im better deed bad im already drunk home alone would go drive train tracks wanna kill anyone else driving,1 "My memes are ironic, my depression is chronic",1 "A million memes a day,keep depression away.",1 Good morning everyone! ,0 don t want to leave college,0 Thanks for everything ,0 last person care dropped mei told last real friend call text anything fo tired depression could act normal would talk again know anymore,1 @KeithLFC thats nice lol ,0 @AdorkableMellie I love that! What kind?? ,0 anyone drawing suggestions im bored cant think anything draw might post stuff draw idk,0 read manny soldiers killed like life living generals leaders like used religion weapon keep people killing complete crap looked hate used instead trying make things better people heard suicide sinful religion christianity started,1 want go away dont know this feel like world want talk it uncomfortable people hate feelings tip iceburg redflag felt like needed say something somwhere though,1 is at work. ,0 dont even blame covid anymoreim gonna one approximately redflags unemployment uk every year year lol cant stop crying write th dogshit cv someone suited jackass gonna look two seconds jump straight employment history section reject immediately though putting thousands pounds debt go university years doesnt mean fucking thing,1 know else doim normal good enough live fuck relationships make things worse anger issues self confidence problems fuck live go college even think succeed all want die feels like good thing world whats actual goddamn point living wreck every single relationship have family romantic family better without me romantic partner deserves better probably going dump soon feel like hurting physically like mentally years cant normal relationships anyway im ugly useless shit head stupid stupid stupid posting thinking im even slightly important im not im fucking useless unimportant worthless loser parents regretted anyways fuck life give someone better again im cowardly go it probably get help that actually go it go back thinking mood swings next hour feel much better thats almost lie still feel negatively myself feels like life always fucking mess mess idea normal killing live fucked up is,1 Depression is fun!,1 reasons guessgrowing up parents addicted pills still alcoholics relatives aunts uncles cousins grandparents etc shunned parents way lived remember always feeling place family gatherings cousins dressed cutest things new game consoles clean houses always talked trips gone on going mall shopping listening felt different im oldest three girl memories infant carrier watching dad beat mom memories toddler baby mom driving find dad cheating leaving car yelled outside window strange drove bar months back friends pulled up memory washed back me clearly remember even parked car seat front facing assume around car seat behind passenger side seat extremely tired mom woke drive left car ran inside bar dozed back off know long woke pushed car window next me parents screaming eachother eventually got car mom sobbed entire way home kept saying things like who women kissing her asking types questions pretended asleep memories like come back there fuzzy clear day like night night punched dad face stealing money moms purse later met guy highschool summer sophomore year year older lost virginity fell love like stupid kids do together years least spent beaten like mother entire time cheated on started using drugs him weed first synthetic marijuana adderall molly finally left met nice guy came back life resorted back toxic life slept him hed changed right came senses got back together nice guy month half us back together found pregnant know father was knew beginning stayed allowed enjoy pregnancy every time near family would ask planned take dna test refused invasive test pregnant get done with driving home hospital awful slept since delivering son lost lot blood doctors monitoring levels discussing blood transfusion regardless tired was made take pitstop way home newborn dna testing center swabbed things seemed better besides normal sleepy life comes new parent results came in saw email closed laptop left days son belong him tried make work guilt pain situation got best us left lived alone one bedroom son that car job relying mom everything found job got car things seemed better job met ex husband clicked well cant even describe it moved slowly filled tiny apartment furniture decor pictures us took car work one dat cheat me cheating continued off swore stopped changed got married years later divorced cheating never really stopped im living room moms sleeping air mattress nothing name account negative cant work enough catch bills im drowning school trying get degree better son trying right struggling bad pass get assignments done time work pay bills good mom spend time top still dealing attacks mental poison ex husband feels like endless loop today birthday wish would done today son reason im alive,1 i just feel like i ll have depression forever nothing really work at least not for long i m just too tired i don t want to try so hard all the time anymore i don t want to get better i give up,1 holy crap hysterical american comedies written like this anybody thinks comedy dumb wit intelligence six episodes series shelf novels hugh laurie complete hoot believe guy house many great lines gags series could watch show dozens times still pick new things time rowan atkinson hilarious verbose put upon butler edmund favorite blackadder series tony robinson wonderful ever somewhat obtuse heart series the oppressed mass baldrick favorite lines when someone messes wellington really puts foot it baldrick explaining got name cousin macadder the top kipper salesman homicidal swordsman scotland,0 iphigenia great achievement michael cacoyannis masterful play masterfully adapted screen brought life wonderful cast cacoyannis achieved impossible managed film greek tragedy screen without losing effectiveness importance stellar greek cast helps this newcomer tatiana papamoschou extremely impressive iphigenia equally impressive irene papas who even though sometimes seems top realistic wonderful greek film beautifully adapted directed michael cacoyannis excellent music score mikis theodorakis ideal every scenebr br ps rumours say film lost best foreign language film oscar vote,0 wanted people talk feel even worse even triedive gotten point want rant try get something this feel lowest ive years lost job retail year ago couldnt face going store anymore year half ago lost home landlord sold up new owners wanted us soon possible willing help cost etc already quite low sate point job becoming stressful worked stock controller busy small store well know company am moved store year manager want take her tbh wasnt ever overly happy moving agreed struggle say people new store wasnt alot busier old one morale low old manger store wasnt seen best terms people management didnt know time signed sick overall first year ok paying rent getting needed know housemates best friend wouldnt say happy havent felt truly happy long time getting life around march new year old manager brought back store lost manager working try improve stock loss things like store morale whole felt done good job mean wasnt involed store morale store felt together soon old manager came back could feel drop people became less willing work hard felt like trying hard myself time losing place move back dads till found something else lose sort freedom sucked life became stressful me move around weeks manger back got call manager ask charge shifts shift runner found stress much gave up told him kept me felt like ages constantly saying no really didnt want it went long eventually agreed said struggle say no next morning went work feeling like shit running store felt like leaving then got on moody admit whilst bringing delivery snapped asking moody snapped said excally said took realise much hate charge angry left work didnt go back days didnt call store anything know wrong tried go day after knew trouble crying whilst driving in sat car tried build go in got sat wall outside smoke whilst lady store past ask ready busy day completely broken down told thought getting fired today lucky kind person went get person charge time also took doc visited younger depression try make stupidly long post least bit shorter keep doc stuff short know goes around julyaugust im seeing doc taking meds im cbt sessions im sign work lasted around months done cbt sessions still taking meds see doc still felt low ask could get proper therapy session doc refered local place would deal things go talk there went talked told offered service younger didnt even remember offered anything like this assume around attempt take life im writing this say get back me received letter day christmas saying wouldnt helping me low christmas stopped taking meds didnt visit doctor go back work really try couldnt it time thinking would easy jump infront train nearby bridge gave up didnt go anymore feb lost contact ex housemates best friend time half year nothing sat room dads going dad said dinner would say night sleep day i still now sneeking snacks binging dad loves drink think feels bad buy junk food stuff me sadly hes bit enabler obeseness always way since maybe know self control take responsibility myself around months ago made reddit account not one made one post type places days ago never did honestly wanted talk someone took maybe month actually reply someone acually maybe friends ive trying past week really put there giving much care people think unfortunately tell form post talk alot also get attached easily especially people actually dont mind me see people dont enjoy friend days talk people normally get tired me get told talk much ask many questions ive really lonely long dont really talk people well even friends putting left soon could know compared others issues stupid im feeling low right wana try get something maybe posting could help im gona lie say im atb point taking life feel could right now hours distraction me someone actually reads thank you really dont know say sorry wasting time shit life story perfect time want leave place everyone asleep would easy get car jump somewhere think weight help make easier long land head first honestly dont know people worse lives dont it guess im weakess weak sorry stupid post im sure people much worthy space here,1 ive got get rid ruminating thoughts want get rid means please help someone pleasei cant get thoughts head nearly two fucking years less three months come im still thinking her relationship guess thoughts driving redflag fuck get rid ruminations im desperate someone please help,1 quot blip fm is undergoing maintenance quot sorry no music tweet for now i m shaking already,0 would love one people pull through im notim statistic everyone make it im going one ones doesnt thats fate know it one day probably soon im going pull trigger,1 just got a job offer! Thank god!! ,0 mandatory song suggestions anyone give song ill reply one like im anything metal country,0 reached maximum boredom cant seem find entertainment anyone wanna talk m hmmmm like video games vr youtube twitch dog otamatone lounging bored looking things cant buy thinking attempting buy realizing im lazy um hmmm talking discords fun too,0 someday youre someday youre bound lose everything everybody around gone final fantasy vii,0 mizzzidc what nonsense disrespect your mom then dangle depression toxic human,1 Going to the cinema with Karlijn & Stephanie; 17 again ,0 give upmy life fallen shit past months ive typically antisocial introverted began making effort get know people more partially succeeded feel guise fake persona someone far actually feel ive lost actual personality trying make friends shit well managed fall love one confessing sent letter essentially detailing friends felt obliged give letter solely circumstances hit pretty fucking hard big enough part life get away depression redflag first time feel like ive dug hole get of redflag honestly looks like better option continuing live shit ive flung im tired living say least,1 Yet another pixar movie that hits close to home ,0 school giving option stay home stay days week get nothing going school somehow get less sitting around grandparents eating snacks scrolling twitter pick,0 @Kevinmiam Thanks! I'll take inspiration from today's test. ,0 im really lose killing tongihtim scared cant take anymore pain anxiety levels skyrocketing reason cant keep holding on know could kill almost time theres reason hang on im scared though know make stop anything edit today got really close im relieved kill myself im actually frustrated sad get chance attempt parents interrupted could start place realized want anything want work study succesful fulfill dreams love someone future i lot pain hesitating becuase preperation done plan parents came unrelatedly mom freaked stupid thing clean im legal visiting home cried bit it got whole redflag sin implication selfharming wrong speech also threatened commit ever admit danger myself mom tells meet pastor whos going tell things familys religious many peoples opinion pain need trust god more spiritual all things work good bad im sort becoming atheist reasons anyway im upset beause thing want die thats literally only desire have balls yet actually kill myself solace got pushed little farther alcohol maybe could it hard hurts much alive hurts since cried earlier feel better nothings hanged dont want feel betteri wantthe problem solved dead guess need drink next time jave ready thank tldr i living nightmare thing want death guilt tripped staying also im weak it hurts feel guilty wanting die trying get better feel better cried want feel better temporarily een get better want die,1 hate life feel good emotions painpain pain life endless suffering every single day fair reason stay alive,1 i recently found out i have high level of anxiety and i notice i m very anxious at work all the time i just wondering if there s any job that is not to stressful and i can still survive i also think about starting my own business will that be a good idea,1 sounds kind silly whenever something example spreading butter bread would black see stabbing butter knive would froze second like really noti got offer business academy independent scared worried would able adjust new people environment well years meeting new people conversationsits literally next month scared hate much get even worse suicidal thoughts maybe even going since away parents everyone know scared accidentally kill,1 anyone want loan paypal go drive boys dont gas money right now really want go drive them anyone want lad paypal pay back later want idk,0 hello guys first all sorry advance english native language struggling suicidal thoughts months need advice problem advice cope situation would appreciated come middleclass family third world country years ago borrowed savings money family around interested stock markets wanted earn side money higher education parents especially dad checking updates every month money doing techsavvy believes tell him long story short noob lost money could tell lost since huge amount us lied told invested money bucket stocks according current prices stocks told value both bad good luck ig lied have money lose invested index funds thinks worth stocks reality far different although financially well would ask withdraw fictional money thinks have scared shit would find out cannot tell truth lost money years ago would break lied him cannot hold lies anymore too since every month ask updates hurts mentally suicidal thoughts now cannot take anymore cannot talk situtation anyone guilt shame posting using throwaway account advice deal would appriciated thankyou struggling suicidal thoughts advice needed,1 saying love day love ,0 film great comedy drama christopher walken tremendous supporting role manager commentary keep laughing robin williams plays great role quick wit jon stewart amuse fans comedy central show good viewer halfabrain see needed subcultural attack policies current republican government criticism american democratic process mention means politicians get electedbr br i amused subplots found film fast paced entertaining without usual ohbrothers would agree film less comedy marketed however without question better garbage theatres present thoughtsdon,0 found biggest pp among boys sure ur supposed w info want,0 one likes hungarian models shit bro found dream girl instagram hungarian like shiiiiiit,0 valentines date ideas want treat girlfriend valentines day were long distance rn cant together person ideas type date could do anyone similar situation doing,0 mum anoying mum mom made sisters download life one sisters living house thats end went got premium dont get cannot bothered,0 cupcakesfortwo no pain to really be the issue though there s the thing can t figure it out,0 promise hear without judgement however worse situation is stay long run m feeling lonely redflaged out let us connect,1 could say peaches complex narrative dealing multitude issues a small tv idea beyond me besides think many films a small tv idea plots obvious dislike tv industry sue smith failed rise television background confusing particularly a great time working tv could talented ms smith no friend relative afi award winning brides christ road coorainetc made tv come think it small tv ideas like against wind bodyline the dismissal scales justice blue murder water bridge etc think peaches good entertaining film interested friends well start finish far flawless yet think among best australian films seen last couple years knows viewings theres much think about might classics like the year voice broke the devils playground really enjoy film much somersault three dollars films think momentssurreal atmospheric realistic dealing important contemporary issues sheer entertainment mrand mrs average movie goer me ordinary boring go movie always conscious audiences reaction film through in cinemas reactions overheard conversations foyer loo came peaches shaking heads negative criticisms many seemed enjoyed experience,0 dat posting subreddit im yeah day go almost weeks questions answered always,0 @okko Even my masochism has its limits ,0 @ajuonline They'd open their mouths and say "Glub!" ,0 @vr000m: convocation is once a year. Most MTechs finish their thesis a little after the convocation. ,0 pretty much tbh want die go bed every night hoping wake,1 slipknot be having their music about serial killer suicide death drug depression hatred and in like yupppp just what i need,1 "@abyssinian13 Thor said it . . . um,nicely man. I would've answered differently. But I have a lot of a.e. friends. ",0 wow turned today almost forgot unsub nice day,0 important announcements doomslayer enter facility anything breathes advised,0 feeling guilty like dogshit pulling allnighter last night pulled allnighter friends well us did back home feeling like absolute shit im feeling guilty reason cant stop crappy feeling tips,0 tried talking girl breakdown ignoring im high school ive crush girl hard enough talk regular people social disorder finally get courage go talk got around min conversation complete breakdown legit started crying said played video games me friends trying get stop crying sitting there friends told give discord completely ignoring me guess nobody wants mental illness breakdown prone bf,0 Wow. Crest glide is great. ,0 i feel rlly bad rn i wan na cry but i can t i wish i could cry but i feel so numb and distant like a robot all i can really do is lie down while a few drop fall from my eye i wish i could cry my heart out and let it all out im so tired i hate myself so much,1 depressedif im suicidal mean im depressed know im suicidal dont know im depressed maybe thats part trying downplay problems actual question,1 drawing difficult recently got drawing never expected hardi thought could draw easily followed tutorials drew abraham lincoln draw sight looks completely stupidit right hard is,0 @2assist Pray for me while you're in church. Thanks homie. ,0 im still alivesadlyi nothing one even try find reason live cant everyday worse version previous one clearly see depression grows im tired living im scared end all im much pain rn idk do,1 Depression is a bitch,1 canti dont know much longer go feels like shouldnt im sad leave guys comments whether end it theres nothing within month anyways thank,1 i m only and already have so many physical and mental health issue ptsd ocd autism adhd depression anxiety visual snow obesity fibromyalgia gender dysphoria im trans chronic fatigue binge eating disorder it s all so much not only all this but recently i ve been dealing with more health problem my heart been racing even when i m just laying down and it make me feel like i can t get enough breath in like i m constantly breathing but not fully or something i also have been having horrible cramp like pain and after getting a ultrasound apparently i have a bunch of cyst on my ovary but this apparently isn t the cause of my pain and that terrifies me they think it might be the testosterone and i m scared i ll have to stop taking it and they re not even sure that s what s causing the pain i ve been trying to cope by hanging out with friend and my boyfriend online and other stuff like that but it can t distract me enough from the physical issue so i ve been using weed and alcohol but i know i can t keep using these to cope forever i know it s likely i ll become an alcoholic and part of me doesn t even care a long a it distracts me from the pain enough i m trying to apply for government assistance for disability but it s a lot of work and i feel like it s pointless and they ll just reject me again i ve been in therapy for year take med and go to doctor a lot im still this way no matter how much help i get i m so tired i m so tired of the constant issue i cant keep doing this how long do i have to keep going thru this it feel like it ll never get better idk how much longer i can keep going when i have to deal with all of this it s so much,1 saying film depressing necessarily bad thing im willing watch depressing film point made one certainly one often heartbreaking story chinese man family experience many years hardship plenty but must warn might depressing film come hollywood sbecause peasant life china tough say least prepared watch segments famine death diseasebr br about negative persistent tone misery lead played paul muni exceptionally talented man real shame hollywood always cast people european descent play asian leads era paying attention all pretty obvious muni wrong part,0 hi guys redflag came suicide related incident im ready talk happened pretty recent even small things triggering timing possibly worse reasons gaining popularity incredibly quickly ads popping everywhere im getting help things take time cant quit internet way block specific type ad,1 year old male year here i ve always had a confusing relationship with myself and anxiety when i wa a young child i wa very outgoing then hit about and wa bullied because of my sensitivity and openness developed really bad anxiety a a result got to year old and found it impossible to talk to girl and wa completely sick of my shyness so i decided overnight that i wa going to showcase my confident side at all time faking it till i made it this wa a blessing and a curse because a lot of my confidence wasn t necessarily real i wa inspired by people like russell brand and keith moon and i kind of acted like them all the time now thank god i ve reached a much calmer equilibrium most people would consider me a a very confident outgoing person but i feel much more myself i m way calmer chatty and forward with people one on one but i m still plagued with anxiety in other area i have no real issue in social occasion i m the frontman in a band and we re about to go on tour playing to thousand of people and i literally have no nerve whatsoever if only this translated to everyday life firstly i m terrified of getting a new scary job working in a pub bar something with people who have the potential to be snooty and mean if i don t know what i m doing instead i live at home with my parent in a sheltered existence i work a really simple easy job at home because i m too scared of a job where i have to do something new for the first time working in a bar absolutely terrifies me but deep down i wish i had the bravery to just do it and not give a crap if i fuck up whenever i ve tried new job in the past i get so frustrated with myself when i m not my cool calm confident self in these new situation why the fuck do i take so long to get relaxed with these thing and how do i get the bravery in the first place i m just so scared that people might perceive me a being shy i guess i value my self worth on my level of confidence in that current moment my second massive issue is when i m on my own in public perhaps public transport for example i m just fizzing with anxiety constantly it s horrific in public i feel extremely self conscious i know that no one give a shit about me or care about me but i literally feel like people are judging me constantly even though i know this isn t true something a simple a cycling on a road is a fucking impossibility i m just so scared that people will think i don t know what i m doing i just hate that physical feeling of anxiety of people watching me and judging me literally sitting here with a massive stress headache because of being in public the last couple of hour i then overthink about this for hour and hour because i just don t understand how i can be this way feel like i m having a personality crisis therapy hasn t helped medication didn t should i just stfu and get on with it in essence exposure therapy how can i not care when load of people are watching me on stage but literally feel like i m dying when people look at me in public why is there this maddening split personality in me i don t think my confidence is an act because when i m confident and relaxed i would consider that to be my most normal authentic self i m not naturally a quiet person just desperately insecure and sensitive,1 @hereinthehive I'm going over to #barcamoleeds too ,0 lets gooooo im virgin anymore becouse fucked grades,0 trying find reasons toive searching ways end it friends family started soothing stress drinking trying socialize bars clubs avail even started thinking obituary say remembered by would even publish pay obituary paper good drama school good actor control public view people strangers towards me nothing live for know talk professional know consequences it lose job,1 dad fucking simp dad fucking simp hate it always rants woman come first men second multiple occasions simps woman sees woman road struggling jumps help her sees man nothing believe everyone equal wrong simps more,0 news boys girls significant actually loves me cute nice beautiful green eyes warning drill really happy,0 feeling suicidal ive ever beeni ocd ptsd schizophrenia saw psychiatrist first time gave medicine it state insurance cover nobody cares poor homeless want die theres hope wrote redflag note killing weekend,1 sometimes one thing enough live die fori honestly feel like people never kill x youre looking excuses live really want die dismissive rhetoric people one thing resolveddidnt happenwas attained would able live people one person one hope would able die like many people im enduring purely family destroying sustainable theyre excuse sole reason case everyone sometimes one thing enough thought,1 get me out of this depression plz,1 i m not interested in life there thing i d like to do but i have no money to experience them i dont have friend or any girl to share a relationship with life is bland i have a job interview tomorrow i ll probably get it now i ll have to show up and sell 0hrs of my life doing something i could care le about for some money i hate everything it s not enjoyable pandemic ruined everything a girl i started really liking doesn t want to see me anymore because i m not vaxed that one definitely hurt a bit she went cold on me please skip the anti pro vax debate i m over it amp i m not anti i dont like leaving the house or dealing with people i dont see any point in this thing called life it just drain me and i d like it to end it simply exhausting amp i get 0 enjoyment from it it feel like a sadistic game i just want it to end i wont hurt myself i dont think i will i dont know if i m depressed i either feel nothing or anger i envy people who are blissfully happy enjoying life i d give anything have that i dont need everything to be great but i d at least like to not hate day to day life i dont have much left in me anymore,1 i m failing out of college right now because i can t fucking focus every time i try to do my work i feel so restless and irritable i get hit with this stupid melancholy feeling for no good reason and it make me feel like doing nothing but lay in bed until i die of starvation but dying is too painful for a number of reason so i really have no easy way out hell i don t even have an out that seems reasonably doable i feel so trapped i want to talk to my loved one and tell them i m dying over here metaphorically but it feel impossible to tell them without something awful happening help,1 i know that my depression is going terrible when it start to be physically painful i don t know how to explain it but i m in pain,1 want attempt redflag least feel somethingi want attempt redflag im miserable live thats fine thats also fine maybe someone care then want show people im pain im danger feel like one takes seriously like one knows much pain im in nobody understands want make know need show them people care theyll see maybe ill feel something ive miserable years want kill everyday every hour ive never able attempt im weak pathetic feel like im lying myself end week im going try wether live die im it,1 man do crime society woman s he is a criminal he is a monster bla bla bla woman do crime from decade society woman s itself it s depression it s self defence hypocrisy http t co evffplq0ug http t co 0gxfpnbrsx,1 would like play boobs pls coronavirus made bored take shirt off now,0 bed class work gym or then class 0 another day that s gon na fly by i miss my girlfriend,0 How the waiter knew that this is my absoloute fav dessert is beyond me. He just brought this over http://yfrog.com/17ig4j,0 @CorazonGTX i was also a patient of chronic depression and these SM increases this and its a proven fact because if u think all will behave with u like a saint then DR mam this place is not for u and out of curiousity am asking why u tagged twitter .go n show a doc,1 ibrahimkrts stats feed wait is that the same depression a the original tweeter is comparing,1 biodiversity corresponds variety species living community community gang animals species,0 people feel need tell others die want diethis includes me understand people want tell others redflag matter random people know it im waiting right moment die right now itll probably happen eventually theres nothing anyone say stop it,1 Oliver Long getting ready to come on ,0 teen boy last weeks bff leave seen doesnt respond calls messages etc good friends before ignores me mean,0 walking reddit im online classes online classes sucks blaw blaw blaw,0 alive true hellim dumb ass depressed ass good slut year old im literally turning year dont think ill probably even make bad im coward even kill myself get used even though im virgin one wants dont even want myself im waste space mom shouldve went abortion wanna die dont im confusing stupid im hell suffer suffer earth evil creatures well feeling like hijacked mess brain im always annoyed feel like asshole dumb ass say care dont even check me always one nice talk first theres literally words explain feel shit even really feel dont know im useful ill post see many disgusting ass perverts act like care want shit me,1 hope me irreparably broken beyond fucking lostsomehow least continue live bit longer due mother would still feel bad leaving family members deal fallout death be past years tried intensely see could change cope ive multitude therapists prescribed taken numerous medications quit substance using selfmedicate cope things improved become worse worse functional working months nearly never true romantic relationship family situation deteriorated even time ugly fuck lost genetic lottery allow manipulated used abused long end peace death yet feel trapped forced exist others feel bad take life tired even know point posting this pain much,1 im looking anyone whos forever alone am hopefully poland tooim year old bisexual guy poland accepting relationship proposals default sorry potentialerrors im drunk right now gonna go slee ill chedck ther aer repsonses tomorrow,1 miss old friends one friend nick names mine jiggaboo cracker good times,0 @sophiestication Good luck Sophia! ,0 jammed my finger and it hurt really badly,0 i don t know if this is my depression or various other diagnosis i have ptsd anxiety etc but i ve been trying so hard to work on school stuff and i just can t do it i open the article i m supposed to read and i read the first sentence i know what word i m reading just like i know what word i m typing here but the time i get to the next sentence i ve completely forgotten what the previous one said it s become an awful cycle of re reading thing until i eventually give up and spiral into bad coping habit i feel like my brain is melting ha anyone else experienced this i feel awful because i m only i m supposed to be youthful and smart but i m just losing every part of who i used to be i have one job and that is being a student and i can t even do that right,1 over the past few month i ve felt like shit i ve been tired lonely and the depressed and on the verge of just doing it i ve had multiple occasion where parent haven t been home and i m just sitting there thinking about committing to doing it i can t handle the pressure of everyone around i feel like no body would really care even if i did end it all i don t have many friend and verbally abusive family member brother and mom i feel like nobody would miss me i m told several time a day at school to km and that no body would care i have alot of child hood trauma from growing up that i don t want to get into my home life and school is very verbally abusive to me i get shoved into locker at school jumped one kid even broke my tibia in the hallway i m never happy and haven t been happy in several year a soon a i get happy i go back to having bad thought again for example today my mom wa out picking up furniture and i wa at home watching tv she wa out for at least an hour at this point but then a little bit after i just had the sudden urge to do it i then called mom and tolled her that i threw up which wa a lie so she could come home and stop me from hurting myself tomorrow i m going to tell her everything that ha been happening and hopefully getting some therapy and medication do you guy have any suggestion for what i could do to be a little more happier sometimes,1 wish luck tomorrow exams need wishes motivation would helpful thanks advance,0 got huge argument little brother pringles said you ruining life diei know said heat moment kept repeating head hurts bad bc family reason still hereand wanted get knife go bathroom smwand got weird excitedlike feeling stomach surprised kind scared mei sat thinking crying minutesmeanwhile brothers enjoying movie eating pringles probably even remember saidalso thought ab think actually want die yet rn bc want say goodbye first stuffbut want suicide attemptnot like attention family realizes little sadness almost commited pringles,1 dad accidentally sent text talking bruh know react bc fucking hilarious humiliating time ngl,0 Could 'one puff' of cannabis ease depression? https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/321589.php?utm_source=dlvr.it&utm_medium=twitter …,1 want an iphone,0 i have irrational fear of a home invasion being attacked by a stranger for context even thing like elderly woman with cane walking behind me sends me into panic mode me and my fianc just bought our first home together after renting for year instead of me being able to rest after a long day of moving i am instead laying awake because the house is settling every 0 second and i keep thinking it s an intruder coming to kill me this ha been going on for two hour my heart keep pounding out of my chest randomly and i keep getting so frozen with fear that i hold my breath my mind is working overtime playing escape plan confrontation scenario on repeat so i can t relax this is so fucking irrational i hate it i ve been this way a long a i can remember but ugh i know why house creek i also know this home is older which is something i love about it during the day but i can not seem to think logically about this every pop creek and bang is sending me into panic mode and i don t have any remedy i m sick of being constantly on alert for no reason this is an extremely safe neighborhood and i should not need to be this worried over nothing some night are better than others but why do i even have to go through this at all i apologize for the rant but i am so exhausted and i just want to sleep but i keep getting snapped awake,1 "All chores and paperwork done...Jobs a good'n, now for the weekend!!!! ",0 think made mistake much jagerbombs cant sleep think fucked up again,0 it happens a lot when i dissociate at least i have been all day and everything seems like it s moving at the speed of light my whole body feel dizzy and shaky too because i slept hour the main cause of me dissociating today and sometimes it ll randomly feel like everything is going super slow and it feel like i m like stuck in quick sand or something trying to move forward and do stuff but something keep pulling me back,1 su yin huen tweeted i feel unbearable guilt i made my staff cry http tinyurl com cw l9t,0 friend jokes wants kill dont know hes serious need know get away precipicemy friend quarantined together two months now close like brother me history antidepressants regularly meetings therapist two weeks anxiety whenever can try get calm doen anxiety attack met anyone else anxiety sometimes feel dont know handle situation make better him weeks ago made redflag joke laughed let slip ever needs talk here told therapist hes getting suicidal thoughts gave pills could give day prescribed him lately hes making suicidal jokes get serious answer straight dealt ever want everything help him willing put things hold means getting better dont want close talk this need advice broach topic brings up even really joking want know redflag out open advice helpful tips help someone going this tldr friend suicidal thoughts makes jokes redflag need advice handle healthy way without making feel victimised,1 @benkeighran stop rolling around in your money ,0 best friend killed self one felt like shit one could make believe shit would get better shes gone forever never got chance tell love her im sorry posted felt like needed talk someone dont anyone miss mya,0 motherfucking birthday officially lets go boys made another year hope treats good did anyway hope guys amazing day,0 umegathiccc umegathicccc havent seen need know doing,0 dying terrifies me cant see way outhey guys hoped id never post here im desperate right now ive episodes depression years now last four months wrecked me im medschool started internship last year completed feb took break home month folks lot stuff going needed there college absolute piece shit responsible nearly issues ive struggled weight gotten good place college joined everything went hell people around bodyshame like crazy especially family ive able tolerate past even laugh it got back room home month want go again want see ingrates work shitty hospital ive lying everyone last four months love anything anymore friends little brother talk to doesnt help anymore know itll wreck cant take anymore even finish internship familys still going bunch asshats ill still alone shitty little town want know im going go on wish could go therapy cant afford it cant see way ending it,1 youre poor spend two hours finding coupon code pair flip flops ampxb iamincollegeandimpoorsopoor,0 dude im going to work w my dad today bc he is determined to get me out of depression mode but i am still awake,1 make online friends im f kind introverted havent social pandemic ive always wanted online friends seemed easier less socially draining irl friends never know get them ive tried joining discord servers snapchat groups stuff things usually dry couple days never really connect anyone advice would helpful thanks,0 looking someone play minecraft pe dm interested filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 mmmm i want eatser show on the th not th this is bad for me maddie d,0 call lone cactus im sad horny,0 best way commit redflag guns rope knives,0 miss rach already,0 really want make rope mothers yarn uses crocheting hang backyard scared find ropegod damn it universe never letting die,1 On my new computer! Woot! ,0 think hit low motivation anything slowly begun ghost closest friends return texts physically cannot find things cut contact people girlfriend feel empty know go here longer goes begin rethink relationship girlfriend love much start overthink every single aspect it healthy fear end relationship maybe deeply insecure myself cannot seem tell thought vs depression talking never like life girlfriend months now clinically depressed met medicated strength keep going something else makes love even more afraid broken me broke front told felt comforted plan figuring future get back trip planned august backstory crossroads life know future know want other uncertainty love creating war mind want stronger mentally handle myself hate become like this need myself feel low m feel hopeless empty,1 option move try live stay commit redflagive stuck essentially us state entire life ill april every memory place full trauma abuse struggle able take proper steps recovering even medication feel stuck place want move different state start new place know anyone one knows me truly feel begin move on feel hopelessly stuck am want assume know best me feel like know anything myself doubt myself scared moving scared attempting redflag life joke feeling attempt ill end making living existence worse ive written note im giving weeks figure want do cant figure out plan end suffering confusion fear one speak to one listen without bringing problems family two three people hang who also turn talkworry redflag sickeningly upbeat conversation problems guess post heard something know sorry,1 time to comatize for 10 hours. ,0 tom holland twink spread word mother truckers tom holland twink spread word mother truckers,0 may may heard term people friends easy time anyone else with recovering bout septic arthritis know cool either let us say requires surgery fairly long hospital stay home iv drugs none fun going this course outpouring facebook well wishes get wells people mostly away close friends use term close loosely hospital mom flies yes serious anyone care wager amount friends came see me one one grateful came huge gut punch one else even made effort made really rethink allowed friendships be allowed people take granted equivalent ramen noodles let explaini hate ramen noodles buy case throw cupboard case emergency ie money nothing else eat zombie apocalypse sort thing allowed ramen noodles emergency friend always available need otherwise forget something better available find fishing invites things still left always outskirts asking myself wrong me wanted people family care me care much people give crap me answer know stop trying get used fact may never find gang ever really belong anywhere think acceptance heartbreaking sure come back it life alone waste life lonely seems pretty soul crushing fair weather friends next time wind changesjust let go lot less painful try find way least content company cannot manage happiness fair weather friends,1 so mlive alone foreign country past yearsfamily girlfriend back home seen since christmas thanks rona life pretty much broken record stuck repeat wake up go work get home eatplay gamesread go sleep every time try something new get bored couple hoursday shitton unfinished stuff properly taken care apartment weeks cleaning gets indecent started smoking occasionally quitting couple years backliterally thing keeping going couple weeks every months get se family gf past year destructive mental health know see therapist cannot bring it lack interest stuff extends welli probably sleep its am get hours so comment ill try ti reply morning nice dayeveningnight rant bit,1 wish functional family argue every day unbearable ugh,1 killing slef storyi brother always says watch porn always said stuff mom always believes anything says word mine always try kill self stop someone coming upstairs cry everyday try hang,1 @diamond_girl__ haha LOVE YOU SWINE !! did you like that? <3,0 lmao im still contemplating whether confess feeling lucky bastard im crushing sub havent even seen face fuck theyre cute attractive skme reason id literally lose comment post theyre kinda active afaik,0 @snapviashot yes.im sleeping early.wahahaha.so that i could wake up at quarter to 5am and go online for a while ,0 want alive stupid title fuck offi matter nobody cant stick things promise myself ive made many mistakes spite gone much shit mistakes still end repeating again cannot anymore want quit want end cyanide seems best way bitch get hold of enough place space hang myself idk maybe ill jump tall building something want vent scream just express theres nothing left me part wants get better part wants quit life im constant battle cant seem win fuck shit fuck all,1 todays birthdayim uselessim suicidal yet think ive done anything world worth anything perfect childtag classes ap classesautomatic admittance state school admittance certain professional school first try people go couple application cycles now im dropping out yet nothing regret used every resource available me studied hard school weekends study yet failed two classes high school til now ive ever skipped classes one f fever accident im back home im going go take assessment tests bit local community college ive tried hard years good personon first glance seem normal friendly silent shy esl student social skills hard im scared going i want mom how pathetic that x years old wanted go health professions felt like useless way could useful knowfailure hits especially hardwhen used stress out caused incapacitating stomachaches whole body muscle tremors felt like deserved happy suffered inadequate many people worse mebut feel horrible todayand people remembered ,1 dad jealous hot girlfriend like really hot cute girlfriend dad jealous,0 thanks everythinghes gone guess take hint write anything last two nights hes working like always do want go long break process die single handedly take care all well time it suprised even lasted long honestly would much prefer died th birthday seen coming fault planning things enough end february th day shared first intimacy think good day general leave ring table wear best dress put make take final step life feeling pretty relieved ive arranged date even thought dress still sure place somewhere see sea one last time anybody reading this think someone rage quitted game think post see news poor rd world country girl taking life also think least completly happy first time life fun time hanging around guys good people thank waste chance like me give stronger sorry be one many flaws thats it guess would like say see side since say goodbye friends,1 missed brent at praise band no fun to not have your lead guitarist lt pout gt,0 m british ask random stuff long train journey rn bored af ask random stuff please yeh,0 scaredi wish scared kill myself think start making plan tryingto write letter start crying shaking want peace im tired alone feel like mind slow cloudy lately like cant think used really good writer every time try talk write something words feel forced think really hard im trying say im really sorry,1 im talking to a psychiatrist on friday i m gon na most likely be put on med which i need lol but i m scared the med aren t even gon na work for me and i m supposed to go to florida with my family in a few week but my anxiety and depression is at a all time high im rly just scared the med won t help me cuz it feel like nothing will help me,1 Memphis was amazing ,0 love sisters gave mom christmas gift early teddy bear voice recording know whos voice recorded mom played thats tears came grandma passed away years ago heard voice since day passed mom bawling mom sisters closest hit hard say grateful family cherish spend time theyre,0 We have the Cookie Puss!! We havethe Cookie Puss!! His hair is blue! Repeat: his hair is blue! ,0 know doive never connected people ive friends still people life consider friends think different people really connections people talk people drive completely insane around people consider extrovert im alone definitely see introvert know never see people people friends basically people know better others like concept loving someone loved return know feels like friends know like friend whatever times love alone get explore mind try figure im here really would love friends actually want something me even hanging out people call best friends know really cant take anymore sometimes simple thinking things times sitting floor cut leg bloody razor blade know do,1 i am prone to sinus infection and my nose is clogged and i had a slight earache a few day ago and chalked it up to a sinus infection i went to my cousin baby reveal and then i thought after the party what if i gave her covid she is a nurse and is around people with covid but wear ppe she also ha three booster shot and had covid before i can not get the thought of maybe infecting her and it will harm her pregnancy i am cry so hard because she tried so hard to have a baby and i m worried me disregarding my sinus infection a an allergy might of done something i can not sleep and i am going to throw up from the anxiety,1 anyone ever overdosed painkillersif so painkillers effects,1 frasar9 tonyrouf edgar ojwang njeriwanyina superiority take your depression else where how you keep a conversation with a person with inferiority complex explaining your mental status wee go and cut tree,1 probably going jump bridge sooni know read post history whatever cant much longer feel angry helpless,1 jim carrey good usual even though quite jim carrey moments definitely jim carrey moviebr br its targeted mostly children managed enjoy movie promoted israel another jim carrey movie expected weird top comedy disappointedbr br the movie nice moments works well movie kids cant say loved movie im target audience,0 sibling suicidal dont know domy sibling suicidal help them found sibling suicidal again want get help freaked last time happened need help dont know know told let sibling know know ways help now dont know family worried dont want make obvious know whats going case freak out im generally quiet person dont want push much suspicious random support still want support them really dont know right now think parents gonna help take care help,1 best way get expelled school asking future reference,0 recommend watching film significant planning romantic evening himher chemistry johnny weissmuller maureen osullivan tarzan jane steamy could fog screenbr br after original film begin see tarzan jane adapted jungle other janes skimpy jungle wear tarzans protest jane covers visitors illuminates romantically also quite sexually lovebr br ones imagination supplement constant touching love talk tarzan jane portray much jane actually teaching tarzan love emotionally romantically sexually janes student embracing also thriving previously untapped sexualitybr br the skin show film charts addition janes twopiece sexy midriff leg hip baring costume also underwater nude swim tarzan although osullivan olympic swimmer josephine mckim doubles scene weissmuller also reveals tremendous body perfect pectorals barely loincloth ladies delight weissmuller emerges water lengthy fight giant crocodile sounds yell water soaked loincloth practically falling hipsbr br its shame overprotective censors toned adult nature tarzan films entry although weissmuller tarzan films would still prosper years come would rarely approach sex appeal movie,0 think someone talked might killed discord chilling got ping mental health group part of someone asked someone talk to said dms open started trying help him almost whole conversation kept saying would best killed himself last words stopped responding i go really nothing really help me sorry said kill happened like minutes ago offline now im scared might actually done it really like helping people mental illness much can shame seeing kinds people go youre dealing lot mental illness stress depression you dms open need someone help you please kill yourself know might sound tempting options hope alright,0 make title yourselfsince suicidal thoughts scared even cut wrist even though may scared hope alternative way ending it mean mugged stabed somehow still phone would call help would see blessing know long thoughts last everyday get stronger every day wish something worse worse jut wanted get chest cant tell family belong delete it cheers reading,1 breonna why not saturday,0 idk subreddit put in decided put herewhy someone admits may bad characteristic people admire it impressed someone admit weakness sensitive inconsiderate myopic loud shy etc general people impressed others admit weakness themselves people admire admit fault able constructively criticize yourselfnow start talking physical attributes skinny fat good looking enough becomes matter self esteem matter constructive self criticism insecure tell need think better yourself looks define you work self esteem you sound insecure cannot peacefully say admit good looking anyway physically attractive make insecure acknowledging fact myself know reminded everyday see treated differently opposed conventionally attractive people know never liked romantically anyone cannot people accept instead invalidating saying negative insecurei asking pity validation stated fact observed myself makes uncomfortable it would fine admitted outspoken good problem solver right would insecure would someone wants better insecure also blind see mirror everyday pretending attractive going change anything stop insecurities,1 try put there try more anxious depressed drained one time anymore applying places months get goddamn house get rejected ignored sought therapy find available find joy things wanted dedicate life to think anything right slashing wrists open letting drain die care anymore point exhausted every option,1 fayokemi keziah oluchy is it laughter or depression you re wishing me,1 even try going diei never understood people would work hard life life waste time willing hold onto going die rather like not dont care anything anymore want die get hell with reincarnation real it ill kill again again hell real it real hell alive growing up life crystal stair dad physically abusive mom wouldnt shit it im teen expects us happy healthy fatherson relationship fuck past right okay school now im complete failure parents never content bs high cs gave completely never felt sense accomplishment them never felt like genuinely made parents proud sure tell make proud everyday world knows doesnt come bottom hearts nothing hire c right lots ds fs times would try improve avail intoxicated procrastination deprivation wanting live longer born government suck money us parents getting pennys worth want us incredible debt beg loans debt want schools encourage college burn hundreds thousands dollars relive high school get degree something never truly interested in successful people smacked face leave real good red mark feel like shit every god damn time reflect yourself cant get better anything damn tired lifes bullshit life isnt worth it really isnt sure go ahead start multibillion dollar company buy mansions studios lamborghinis hell it know going lose die im social introvert embrace it hate talking people hate people talk me hate everyone hate society hate mainstream media news hate everything hate world hate myself hate life everything terrible god sent hell amuse watching suffer expects get knees bend pray mercy fuck that let die already whats hold up im right god look now created image right wanted no fuck you kill right now even writing waste time god nows im depressed sociopath dad tried open several times fucking hate people try getting head fuck off would never understand even halfassedly opened clearly stated felt depressed correlated fact need friends fuck dad fuuck friends never trust people fuck people world filled backstabbing rats hate family brings girlfriend bullshit look straight god damn eyes say chance woman fucking it even ever looks would never date piece shit filth like me everyone says looks maybe do fucked teeth dont anything goimg me god damn dentists orthodontist arent jack shit never called next appointment saying lets wait years teeth grow settle its five fucking years since said that fucking long take teeth fucking grow fuck shit fuck god damn backstabbing sons bitches thieves dentists fucking kill today sure fuck hope make deal devil fucking demon kill entire fucking family cry shitty god mercy life waste time nothing going me ive online friend recently killed himself lived different countries strong anonymity wasnt shit could help since never took advice seriously hope meet soon peter,1 lost splatoon cartridge sad pls send prayers,0 geez what a busy afternoon meeting email meeting and email and more meeting pm and the day is still going ah it dark and,0 brother told doesnt understand cloning told makes us,0 wow im suicidal locked for minutes posting many encouraging messages forumim years old ive trouble working people jobs chemical engineer im living rent free friends lake house hard get bed look forward day done go sleep daughter isnt talking unknown reason son isnt talking least unblocked fb want know happen death scary always want die cant even think reason get mornings think job prospects ruined health problems health insurance husband killed self years ago always sort of redflag pact maybe time fulfill end bargain,1 @OnFrozenBlog I'll have to see for myself since I have Citi Field first-hand knowledge. ,0 update girlfriend were still together going great im happy her were helping bunch baggage im happy lucky her last time hung out watched lighthouse kept spooking throughout adorable sadder news end may soon like super smart applied different boarding schools definitely get into different states sad least ill know end is ends going well spend summer like last months alive clue whos going read whos going care wanted put there love stay strong lt,0 guys female make karma whore,0 want drive away hang myselfim tired one gives shit feel parents give shit remind disappointment am matter hard try never satisfy anyone matter hard try one ever think im worth talking to medications put anything want get better anymore want feel anything anymore,1 don t really know why i m posting don t know what to expect i already hate myself more than life itself but it is what it is i caught my wife cheating on valentine s day which wa great we tried to work thing out but apparently she would rather have him a felon drug addict i m not perfect but damn everything s just gone downhill since i don t see a point in life without her but i can t have her so idk i m so lost in every aspect of life i already know how i ll do it but i can t because i can t do that to my granny,1 milestone acheived karma away karma life complete would like thank mom dad twomad helping get here,0 first saw movie freshman high school film stuck years soundtrack cinematography even dialogue somewhat bad acting educational purpose message behind important sin child teenager still high school really bad thing either problem tons girls knew children now guess never watched great movie did clearly get message behind all taking chances sexual relationship girl get pregnant first time myth necessarily lose dreams take backseat future child think firstbr br this movie clear message behind it say no,0 nothing pm want talk,0 "To show you the power of SUDDEN DEPRESSION, I SAWED THIS BOAT IN HALF!",1 i m m and i now have no one i can trust i don t know if my life is even worth living i don t know what i want to do with my life i just don t want to be here anymore but i can bc of my dad he would miss me to much i m a awful person and should be around anymore,1 gah comcast doubled our cable internet bill w out telling u so we are quitting can anyone suggest an affordable company in bay area,0 my appetite extremely lost itself day by day and week by week i can t even enjoy eating sweet anymore or even the most delicious food make me want to throw up except for liquid such a coke im addicted to soda and milk tea i feel sad and pity myself im fully aware how my health is deteriorating yet i dont know how to deal with it i suffer from did mdd bipolar and cptsd i m in early phase of therapy so thing aren t really going good these day im really concerned about my health im already severely wasted underweight sometimes i just think thats it better to not eat cause everytime i eat i get depressed feel discomfort and idk why from one cup of rice to one half cup to and now i only eat spoon per meal i don t even drink much water i want to change it but i just dont know how,1 hey dude quite possibly gamer hugs,0 much love living ina small country it impossible find anything here material things clubs resources specific issue going international school want participate academic competitions get university however assume school prepare guide you well sike even respond emails everything cannot find place internet offer advice resources could use prepare competition high scale small ,0 Kids craft classes went dandy thats 6 week session up next session starts in 2 3 weeks so I have some time to plan them ,0 anyone participate nnn lose im bit unsure rules haha,0 dog thing thats keeping alive wont know ive gone lefttired living im year old female living asian country im honestly sure im depressed ive never diagnosed especially asian country depression basically taboo family doesnt want anything get diagnosed basically feel like parents dont love all love elder brother hes smarter me theyve always compared always feel inadequate help around house laundry cook clean im lazy slob cry sleep almost every night im tired living sometimes feel like want commit redflag feel life isnt going anywhere im mother always says age shes already graduated university job ive started university keeps saying im slow stupid mention got tattoos parents found back dad slapped kicked punched strangled me tattoos says prostitutes get tattoos wanted kill day mother saw everything happening never stopped him dad beat brother would put physically me stood watched wanted call police said would breaking family right im tired also issues boyfriend ive posted another thread see youd like im tired living dont feel like anything ever going get better feel ill forever unloved ill die alone dont think anyone ever miss me thing thats keeping alive right dog wondering went tears inside dog passes away wouldnt anything live for anymore,1 since become target girl bullied relentlessly breast c wrong lead damage self esteem become shut yet weighed less bullys think ugly hard time feeling beautiful since every time happy drags soon stand bad person pretty much everyone calls beautiful cute adorable know suffer low self esteem never tear anyone else make feel better unless girl made fun mine talks shit anyone b cup anyone views prettier complains boys like like boyfriend wtf btw still stuck high school phase wonder people want spend time never problem breast jealous struggling self esteem,1 @smartassredhead i know its a shock to you isn't it but i have to be honest with my feelings ,0 i m have aspect of social anxiety and notice it largely when talking with people i view a smart and they start bringing up some complex idea a they are explaining it i often go through this cycle of oh no they re explaining something complicated you better pay attention or they ll find out your dumb then of course i ve zoned out for a few second now playing catch up and i either nod along praying they think im following or if i m feeling brave ask them to repeat there s a major imposter syndrome component i know but i m just wondering if anyone else struggle with this kind of thing ha any 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started dating girl ive known long time half months ago great made happy dont really feel happy often anymore told that made sure best boyfriend could be caring texted made laugh often could week ago blue ignoring texts day messages saying need talk calls breaks suddenly im pretty shocked sad though everything fine literally days ago gone seen play told amazing job im sad confused one best friends starts acting weird find hes texting were playing dnd kinda rude tells couple days later came onto super hard even broke broke mid flirting make comfortable literally next day fucking confronted said true apologize anything rude saying im confused know feel gave k done never got relationship even tho let know ask horny fucked friend first date see wearing jackets hallways school posts instagram im pissed sad lose someone loved though loved me lost friend valued unfaithful girl years friendship dont post like ever needed get chest,0 "Expense claims rules in full: 1)All claims made by MPs are within the rules.2)All rules are made by MPs.3)Er...4)That's it"-Private Eye ,0 cant anymoreocd going kill even anything it im tired fighting everyday thankfully wasnt sent psych ward yesterday parents go sleep im going drive hours away kill myself pain over,1 washing the car has been accomplished yayy ,0 im planning killing sooni really dont much live anymore noone relate problems have terrible acne im really shortim male get judged time skin colorim black feel like loser im even crying typing this life awful want kill painless way possible messing ending living life long issuesie paralyzed im thinking trying variety different ways go overdosing pills hanging myself jumping tall building wanted vent wont write proper redflag note one read miss im gone,1 cant helpdoes anyone know cowards way out want painless possible anything ventolin overdose im worried id fucking seizure live worse pain please dont try help me barely even want this theres something wrong brain genetically every male bloodline ive met committed redflag guess time too,1 im outi cant more reached help many times denied berated ignored tried im trying want happy cant remember feels like theres really hope future shit goes downhill here going shit faster ever right now looking all cant deal nobody go nobody cares try talk people thought supported avoid weeks time ive really impulsive unpredictable lately hate it im everything never wanted be im weak unable live this fuck,1 insurance kids reason im still heremy ex cant provide kids thats job mental health problems deemed problematic enough cant see kids little ironic whatever term makes sense,1 invert socks untie shoelaces im stopping,0 little brother wasnt born could kill myselfbut need wait fucking years adult,1 tonight night end allits fun ride bois meaning years wanted go ahead months ago feeling shouldnt nothing lose right get better definitely went downhill much although enough make understand really want anymore ive living hurt others past years despite suicidal tendencies pretty tough made work past year ive ripped possible ways life getting career ostracized hoping could take care mind set right it hurt people maybe genuinely cared me unintentional guess letter ill never leave people know me sure want death it get better sometimes want around happens maybe get meet yall motherfuckers next life one take care keep rolling can deaths bitch death bitch fuck world make own,1 heyyou awesome guys thank much,1 shoutout shoutout amazing teacher let us play among us class period instead schoolwork even scheduled zoom meeting us tomorrow,0 scoutbuck ton no hay troll ahhhh,0 contemplatingi think im gonna try kill tommorow im happy way life going im tired burden everybodys shoulders know family would happy deal anymore tired heart aching time,1 up and movin....got bootcamp in a few hours ,0 even suicidalmy life general pretty unsatisfying ive got point still want die want live either seek death seek avoid either literally care one way live die see should long live dying always continue option die matter long lived get remember anyways i reason believe sort afterlife exists even really know im asking im really confused probably even bother posting this feel like need put kind cry help somewhere,1 @davidgallant I'll be at next months! I'll leave early to get there ,0 @LeonBasin that is a good thing. ,0 woman know raped know heavy title staying friends house past weekend eating dinner mom clearly bothered something sure was friend finally decided ask friend mom whats wrong mom reply friend mom whats wrong you mom sighed stayed quiet minute looking us explained woman well call works got raped going divorce decided go bar one night met men there talked invited party one men drove place party supposed rest drove another vehicle party men brought place raped her five them course heard this friend floored woman going divorce two young children last thing needs top getting fucking raped friends mom explained another woman people knew would never known see break break room said want tell us figured since were young girls need careful realize know woman pretty common name saw store works today seemed little off pondered moment connected dots fit description perfectly asked friend confirmed it know extremely well ive gone kids birthday party little brother plays kids little boys already hard time divorce knowing would break them know do want go police embarrassment fear feels like should thinks knows want falsely accuse someone situation weighing told mom someone friends mom works raped forgotten name told mom know im hoping connect dots like did know much though think will mom knows woman want news spreading able stop thinking friend nightmares able sleep well night im anxious person im sure ill able get soon im worried friend since never worried much everyone stay safe careful trust,0 @Jonasbrothers can't wait till I see you guys on gma...my first gma concert ever ,0 okay pretty damn good episode much better credit receivesbr br the camera work splendid best yet love final shot atmosphere fantastic costumes great guest cast minus helpless victims strong br br what like episode many things left unexplained change sex whats purpose theyre aliens kind never shown later mythologybr br im giving episode high three stars one favorites yet plot holes bother me still gonna let ruin entertainment,0 dudes like men able hit girls self defense also bring everytime men stronger women im trying start argument see irony means iq dont read get triggered also actual fight sure persons dick doesnt mean destroy them like ive seen videos women slight taps dude doesnt even flinch continues use power rko tiny women,0 anyone suffering from depression and or is suicidal whatever it may be i truly hope you the best ik how hard it fucking is unfortunately i lost the battle it s the last thing i wanted to do i know i m young but fought for so long to be happy exhausted every option but it s just too much pain not gon na get into all the detail to what happened to cause a lot of this feel like it wouldn t accomplish anything amp this post won t even be noticed just leaving a digital footprint ig already wrote letter for my parent and little brother amp close friend this thing happened about when i wa and have been dealing w it since and it s mentally taxing and caused severe depression stress amp pain amp turned my once happy outgoing self threw it in a fucking blender can t say i didn t try though just get to a point where every option available you took and you tried your hardest to get over what happened and get life back to normal and everything throw you back to the fuckin ground then you realize there really is nothing you can do and look back at how long you ve been trying and how hard you tried it s painful n i ll no longer by suffering by 0 pm wish you all the best stay solid,1 "@mrskimyadawson This is how I found you on here, because you mentioned. ",0 every post see always start hate feel feel see youim done life past week ive planned many times ive stood edge beautiful cliff id love fly really strong urge jump kid dreams jumping getting seconds falling think life die theres turning back even wanted save change mind cant couldnt think better way go ive wanted whole life since dreams started happening cliff edge dont get close really jump ready yet first dreams kid jumped roof house im sure didnt hurt felt good reason dont see living past age im convinced eventually im sure anyone else fantasy jump high places please let know fantasys redflag let know might sound like weird cunt yeah thats friends work drink much days lot problems cant fix haha pretty chill overdosing wasnt fun thought wanted mix try something new work cant fuck matter much fuck things,1 like think reasonably intelligent human beings love film good attention detail enjoy indie movies funny smartly written dialogue film youbr br for poor attention span high expectations brains well um may get bored find things dragging timesbr br this charming modest well paced movie actors bestowing real sense depth warmth roles chuckled pretty much whole way throughbr br this film little gem,0 part cells hydrophobic smh like water dont see whats hard,0 family murdered breast cancer husband abandoned meim alone im fed working ass barely breath abandoned husband fiance boyfriend whatever wanted call me years im homestate hometown reason even try go back hometown one there cant take care showering eating family murdered left abused me im supposed go police monday file rape asualt charges already went nowhere cant stand hes done me vandalized car killed motor threatened kill many ways years reached police hospital rape pure exhaustion cancer pain ended taking nut jail hold raped know deal cancer patients hrs late meds almost died there anyone ever says thats good idea made suffer more anyone overdosed baclofen,1 mellynisaki saki help i m being possessed by this thing called loneliness and depression,1 anyone else sub pet snails lot people love think cute keep them also some,0 a year ago today i moved to a new city the city of opportunity growth and everything nice but i also learned this is the city of demise since i ve moved here itit s been hard to adapt to the culture the environment and pretty much anything else the store were different everyone talked differently people dressed differently and everyone had money so i thought i realized that my salary wa not enough to fund the normal lifestyle that i managed to survive off for year post undergrad in my home town and a new lifestyle i wa living paycheck to paycheck borrowing money getting loan and using credit to make end meet this made me depressed because it wa at the pandemic s peak and i spent 90 of my time inside with my thought i became more and more depressed and didn t know what to do i had suicidal thought but i tried to push through here s where thing take a turn i got a gig i earned more from my gig than my take home pay so my life wa sweet i wasn t depressed this lasted for six month then my health took a turn i couldn t keep up with life anymore i wa physically ill and had to let the gig go now i m here no gig and leaving the full time job so now i m in a new city no income following for a few week and ready to end it all i ve always thought money doesn t buy you happiness though they re right my journey prof that money can contribute to happiness doe money make you happy,1 going out with josh of course i broke up with will but wa it the right thing to do i feel so bad so confused,0 Hi everyone ,0 "Well surprise, surprise, I didn't get the job- I knew I wouldn't /didn't expect to. Low self-esteem /self-belief /confidence feel justified, reenforced & confirmed with official rejection. I know I'm not worthy of the trust & respect a promotion would show. #Anxiety #Depression",1 wish someonei wish someone would hold sob wish someone would care wish someone would notice hate bad nobodys here nobodys ever here always me alone left deal loneliness pain sadness wish someone here,1 but how many people more realistically have a debilitating mental illness,1 whole day bed crying mi cant stand seeing people happy understand wrong me over good student year best im meltdown hope get reincarnated week person before something happened unconsciously and friends would get girlfriend would wonder too monday day test knowledge faculty someone cared much grades someone anything now wanted jump building cutting razor seems best things getting worse every minute miss lot things maybe im kind idiot im favor missed normal family whole life since parents divorced yr old missed someone give advice lot things never happened happen never friends always missed dad never learned make friends remember feeling normal presence kid never sister brother nobody still nobody nothing absolutely nothing worth living except things miss wonder chance would happen,1 movie shows federal pigs persons government powermad threats real life lot recommend mebr br alas script supervision editing even times directing flawed people disparage whole movie ignore good momentsbr br i saw original way back new hated it despised it loathed it thought terrible irrational piece junkbr br now though remember whybr br i believe two compared even connectedbr br consider two different moviesbr br rate two different moviesbr br this vanishing point provides rallying place banner people want encourage individualism believe human rights recognize threat freedom government is especially federal governmentbr br the voice wears cap bearing state motto new hampshire live free die one time would motto americansbr br despite obvious flaws vanishing point film cheer,0 marriage upscale new york city couple child falls apart wife wants it took lot courage walk door neighbor tells us busy distracted husband takes motherly responsibilities grows closer son soon wife returns highly manipulative picture give us realistic familial unit with young justin henry certainly resembling product marriage dustin hoffman meryl streep dynamics intriguing involving director robert benton keeps pace popping lots cleverness marvelous classical music canny editing surefire bits humor streeps character designed cold selfcentered witch ready feel lot benton probably wanted painted terms black white good bad hoffman learning hard wife getting second chance good parent film never falters preconceived path fine acting nearly saves it im sure benton steering film final act closing scene awfully abrupt ,0 The Floater has been downgraded @madridchanges to ~ The Soggy TwatSock So sayeth mine husband...,0 falling love crush round weeks ago got back contact childhood crush started talking went call play games noticed getting feelings again little fight ever since hasnt same dont feel vibe used be feel like im falling love never experienced hope guys might advice me still emotions crush feels bit bland moment guys tips advice might help falling love,0 guys names reddit vastly different girls like guys username would epicbigchungus girls would katlynxox idk find strange difference see,0 working at uni red bull and a packet of sultana for dinner,0 @jasongardiner love you soon?!?,0 recurring thoughts diabetesso start off currently suicidal thoughts danger need flesh things out mainly concern recurring suicidal thoughts okay diagnosed type diabetes last september done excellently handling staying healthy however makes feel like cant normal times like cant meal without worry go hike without first thinking every little thing might need safe make sure die really depressing especially diabetics represented popular film media games etc part knows cant normal life still hurts lot suicidal thoughts diagnosis despite feeling ever kill myself im moment dark place tempting never owned gun never will im scared impulsivity kill me however diabetes worries offers quick way out simple insulin overdose fall sleep wake up frightening option im worried one day may become much may impulsively od drug thats keeping alive one thing always kept carrying act image parents suffering damaged hurt killing myself every time thought im reminded it reassures know thoughts still there like subtle flash ending it brief reminder easy would be far ive overcome know long forever advice help especially fellow diabetics would wonderful edit context used self harm still burn marks left wrist deal alone well thats usually im worst also constantly dealing self doubt well mild paranoia like doubt friends really friends sometimes mainly im myself diabetes diagnosis certainly helped much anxiety getting worse year update one probably reading anymore mind sharing tried kill last sunday lived im glad did still bright side close friend talked revealed gone similar stuff attempted redflag determined keep alive now one way another thank support everyone end matter since guess almost anyways worked best first time while im slightly hopeful future,1 want someone talk toim suicidal extremely lonely pm willing talk drunk phone bill nb canada,1 mods arent issue site is someone past moderated subreddit k users abandoned account sub taken moderator wasnt even appointed mods made current account escape drama related sub tell moderators issue reddits sitewide rules administrators problem posts moderate previous account behavior could seen witchhunting inciting violence censoring name screenshot twitter pedo counts leading witchhunting showing evidence user engaging animal abuse pleading people report animal abuser counts witchhunting mods right thing could associated witchhunting get subreddit banned reddit created assumption people wouldnt use violent toxic even criminal behavior years reddit cracked down implemented stricter rules avoid bad press controversial subreddits however process trying stamp toxicity form site made safe pedophiles zoophiles human traffickers rapists half time sitewide admins dont even look users reported things much evidence circulated criminal counts witchhunting please dont blame mods happened blame uspez sitewide administrators botched attempts fix reddit ones opened worms tried define behavior became harassment hate speech process trying make site inclusive safe inadvertently opposite mods trying best act moderating situations like happened recently avoiding subreddit banned,0 cracking weighti want nag anyone want worry anyone want take something chest kind oppression feeling life seem good others look around people find good job get married kids average people nothing special heroes side me son hero father counterterrorism police corp boss got massacred days arrival many friends died lets focus struggled past years forceless good kick boxer joining professionals incident took away right shoulder dream law degree good lawyer live country law ive woman years lived together left overnight saying i nothing learn you good musician composer mix classical music rock music fit current tastes ive received ohsomany answer many producers saying thing you good looking this job friends future number reasons write would tedious trying say fit world want live world im tired living fight simply make others aware exist want sleep wake again sometimes cannot wish long parents still alive after know feel forced reply want tell feel one talk to honestly reading hope good happy life,1 last day at lshs tomorrow,0 everybody everybody let us rate reddit avatar edit ayo hold,0 iamloz jspr ouch,0 dohi im name anas depressive since long remember even though thought death long time never thought would consider ending life often find wishing dead looking razor blades case wish fatal disease every occasion make wish fight jump front car every time walk streets imagine head exploding everytime something stupid etc etc thinking getting help year never actually it need right would pause family friends well everyday life getting worse worse many questions one ask go schools counsellor tell parents condition go school counsellor directly er parents know anyway they special program school might lose place miss much school getting harder work grades droping,1 help utimoweicthis redditor going worst point life please help out theres one else watching them let give up heres post httpswwwredditcomraskredditcommentsemqwhat_is_your_version_of_hell_likedkoecontext,1 wow epicfail on me i did a search for epicfail and didn t see many entry but apparently it s widely used i m depressed now,0 suicidal dont think ill iti crazy thoughts reality whats happening world around us ive visions time space weird tube traverse length know seconds passed much happening around us know ill never get answers makes truly want die dont know why,1 medfitblondie it will also be life changing when you come off of them so much so in my experience that you will one day wish you never started them yes the energy is great the focus is great but when you get off them depression will set in fatigue amp sleepiness will last week,1 think im ready goive enough already genuinely unhappy life fucking hate family future look good either think im ready go know how want sisters grow like me want protect them way,1 really funny and sexy movie silly great acting kind movie characters entertaining feel like connected everyone theater saw boston film festival found frequently laughing loud everyone else also moved movies serious parts unique movie two doctors want give anything away powerful scenes well really funny ones plus dialogue great wood harris character unique relationship girlfriend zoe saldana brian white mya also funny sexy roles get chance see go disappointed worth seeing again wood harris deserves award,0 whatchiing commercial breakdwon lol and havee homework to do enrtertain meee,0 leave groupi cant help you want thing want want die every single human people admit theyre afraid stigma us want good life never have attractive wealthy smart whatever get better make better make better show fucked up hard probably give fuck probably talking trash right now getting dicked one close friends happened me ive heart broke ive struggling suicidal thoughts years now im multiple redflag attempts point im convinced im immortal diagnosed schizophrenia buy it hate think whole world cruel simulation im playing alien spaceship fate time set stone moment reading this want know whats side maybe hell right eternity hell living rest miserable existence want mom know killed myself great mom everything me younger siblings see would survive tears shed dead hamster pain love go away gets transfered someone else wish good passing ive dead man long time suffering seems financial situation tried easy stuff makes worse cutting getting tattoospiercingsleaves scars stupid people ask questions trying drugsmelts short term long term memory drinking oblivionraped drinking driving tickets fines mph mph crashes damage shoulders neck back tons meaningless sex girls highschoolluckily stds children im walking life like dead man easy pointless mundane need hard stuff study succeed financially heal trust try heal humans shitty find one tolerate forever sometimes theyre able tolerate you oh well work hard succeed thats advice maybe ask god im hanging around waiting see apocalypse grow balls burn everything down world cruel unfulfilling acquire money im working years im fun sometimes thinking apocalypse manifesting horrible things like riots police california wild fires im living life point trying get end cause cant mom deserves better son im going try better son killing would ruin siblings forever unfair torture stick around them life even horrible live moms basement work lousy job leave group im going tell either kill yourself start setting everything fire everything starting police stations government buildings need wreck financial institutions go back living naked woods it ill setting fire one day eventually middle favorite highway protest horrible justice system ridiculous laws human life earth general honor highway thanks reading,1 life hardi kind problem cant handle life one thing day im ready something unexpected happens suffer much supposed keep living without good reason everyday life everybody cause much suffering me stop working lot do life college that could finish nothing home suffer future suffering everyday make food wash clothes pay bills theres way keep living one problems redflag logical alternative,1 i m wondering,1 knee surgery tomorrow story tell it so warning terrible storyteller also tldr top grapefruit brain falls skateboard cripple backstory live west coast oregon town popular set skate hills go down two row one smooth barely used road result group go daily that gotten new board wheels also crew theres james reckless kid could shake broken thigh bone wyatt the interesting one balls anything alex gf time this fateful day gone hill bike friend well call james goes hill longboard daily without us one day feeling pretty good myself new wheels all decide stop pssy go hill myself soon kick off know theres getting ride halfway hill im time life feelings like lightning mcfuckingqueen decide raise arms celebration head everything goes wrong lift hands head start wobbling inch still wobbling time im way hill wobbling gradually got worse worse worse im going like feet across road point realize option jump off theres ditch left concrete right make obviously sensible decision jump straight traffic im falling remember rotate jumped result this im flying feet ground going mph sideways good then impact completely terrible time sure hell hurt now forgot mention friends top hill could see entire time saw dumb ass grapefruit brain collapse wyatt started riding hill safely see badly im fucked up point try stand shake off cant do anything left leg tried flex it spazzed went limp friends arrived one called mom lifted field side ditch point know im screwed know badly yet anyways time goes by im screaming ground everything hurts eventually mom comes lift car go home take ibuprofen sleep fo hours cut now found torn acl im getting surgery friday months recovery time wish luck reddit ill try keep updated anyones interested oh yeah ps walk everything now hurts lot get lot worse left untreated,0 plz help im straight man tik tok found trans women actually turned help,0 am went place decided hang myself pussied came back homeon way back home kept thinking fucked life regretting it still dare go back place again fucking pathetic expected parents would found gone worried home lights nobody noticed thing wrong later one wake bathroom check condition theyll think stay another night thinking makes want scream cry hard right now life death difficult pursue,1 rejected soulmate cause im fucked upwe dated months before im fucked relationship cant even function normally anymore now stopped eating showering brushing teeth changing washing clothes etc time near isolate get close cant miss much wish could something good him im insecure depressed would likely wanna deal shit baggage bringand much sucidal emotional wreck am thinks im normal cause put act front cant hide forever clue hope finds someone actually wants live personality besides depressionanxiety like me,1 "@ddlovato, Your Awesome! I love to draw you! I hope you'll ever see it! (: http://twitpic.com/4lvns I hope you'll come to Holland soon!! ",0 bethesda joke gtbe gtwanna play fallout gt buy steam gt fucking work gtnot compatible windows gtrefund gtmonth later gtgo pirates bay gt fallout gtpirate gtit works bethesda fucking joke mean fallout new vegas compatible windows fallout not fucking joke,0 im almost certain crush depressed posted fitness account confident lately lot family members commenting post ive never seen want sad text her so say,0 playing facebook ,0 little twoperson movie actually much bigger looks many layers ive watched over always pick something new amazed depth acting feel movie gotten wider release would question alan rickman major star,0 fun fact default profile pictures cute,0 recently enlightened fact mistake parents never really wanted me happy two siblings accidentmistake going depression suicidal thoughts past years always reason stay recently finding feel like reason anymore cry almost everyday thought kids growing without feel like nothing would change left worldi really looking help place finally able say words without criticism thank you recent findings put state unrest,1 im addicted child pornever since age s now watching child porn wish myself did cant find way out still cannot break habit matter hard try matter meditation mental exercise do compulsion cannot help ive dug dug still found pray need miracle break free never want hurt child im even attracted children and even think except trying figure break addiction videos unbelievably addictive cant even imagine anything else level hold me problem terrible compared even worst cases rnofap need daily children children cant believe it cant believe real even break finally then past ever live fully cant seem anything cry hate myself matter hard try want risk hurting child need miracle anybody ability give advice way please so use improve grow love thats want,1 official longer call good ol us think us longer deserves called good isnt old us excuse im going continue anxious fire could burn city nuclear arms race trump might started pandemic,0 1-800-273-8255 - Suicide Hotline877-226-3111 - Addiction Hotline844-228-2962 - Eating Disorder Hotline877-455-0628 - Self Harm Hotline888-640-5174 - Depression HotlineShare this for someone who might really need these phone numbers right now. #MrJayV,1 fucking bother anymoreim done everything im years old training teacher else im struggling depression anxiety every day every day deal shitty little kids respect me told lessons standard matter long stayed plan put together deal fear failing ive already months due mental illness came back want career also problems home deal constantly fearing money im going finish training whether pass fail always tell im dead man walking redflag way out ive watched videos perfected technique tying noose even hardware store look right rope job even considered booking flight san francisco go golden gate bridge end life ive watched many videos redflag clips livestreams indulge suicidal fantasies im medication problems much every time hear people jokingly talk killing laughing subject redflag wish gun blow head teach lesson im asking pity advice want whoever reads know might live much longer may see lifes fucking hard dont want anymore,1 there s a new kind of starburst favereds sound fab bc cherry and strawberry are my fav red s but they added watermellon and it yucky,0 ive hard dayposting alt hard day today got messed bullies went home play online chess lose two games row and lose rp compiled bad day almost feel like cutting please give reason to,1 what do i hold onto once the depression fades away?,1 michatagana ahh i m sorry there s a nasty virus going around apparently shame atagana,0 messed friendships therapy family life full nothing helli really hate life freaking bitch way much going right now girlfriend broke year ago actually trying move without try get back way hard eventually became friends obviously family want hard repair relationships family think theyre willing listen even give another chance theres like nothing fucking do im hard time home hate it get hassled time full bullshit cant even bear it already advocated get hassled again know stupid thought mutual agreement know family cares dont feel like deserve theyve annoying fuck outta listening even worse went residential straight years sent hospital psychiatrist like fucking times gg fucking years there thats damn life teenage life ive seen hell ive hell actually places fucking negative impact almost like perm affecting me fuck really wanna see place like staff member kind stupid shit places actually killed heart ultimately got point well im feeling like indebted friends family every time try talk friend facebook something another friend friend mine badmouths friend calls stupid well fucking hate like school outcast never got fad teenagers people called stupid friends really assholes friends hang with add today got betrayed kicked group really like fuck life fuck myself sorry long connected pretty sure probably normal here cant see things getting better feel like mistakes ive made going end making things fucking worse actually know hell except kill myself,1 mid terms so second last unit test monday last one get know mid terms cause th pissed af now like sitting hours writing stuff marks sit well me received lecture makin well scheduled timetable exams covid bad,0 opinions needed bedtime sister six ten bedtime ten year old brothers almost downtime when phone shuts off while think reasonable parents turned randomly tonight wouldnt tell why guys think reasonable get downtime back miss talking friends writing this weird would usually logging minecraft getting ready idk want downtime back,0 really pointwere raised consume hope someday may eventually comfortable ive got bachelors accounting make barely minimum wage literally never money despite everything right serve bourgeois overlords thats it right complain plenty people going way tougher situations dont care fuck system religion politicians failed us hope theres peace death living life hell,1 set japan ashura story demons taking earth premise far complicated arching storyline forgotten japan turmoil demons occupying human form roaming lands generally speaking demons look act like humans evil japanese word use demons rather classical form ogre mythological creature historic stature were talking creatures would appear like gods simple ugly childeating monstersbr br however human form remains green eyes green teeth appear put sort stress order save world demons demonslayers trained skilled warriors spot defeat every kind demon guard passageway realm hell real world basic premisesbr br the story begins festival local town amid festivities men ride in dressed black seemingly intent harm villagers run excepting demonic nature turn greeneyed try kill them demonslayers end killing majority demons story gets interesting whole essence story begins gate hell fortunetelling demon appears gatekeepers revealing arrival ashura it comes end reign man begins reign demons ashura however requires form birthing process first step occurred opening battle revealed see film demonslayers wise old man powerful yet unprincipled man skilled compassionate warrior immediately see split them old man wanting stop demons powerful one wanting bend increasing ego maniacal wishes third looking stop second along way meets woman begins take fancy to believes special relationship with turn brigand goodnatured sought authorities two finally meet face face places hand shoulder suddenly scathed mark shoulder needless say mark good sign ensues battle earth battle good evil be also good good itselfbr br the point film became something thought would came thinking would either fastpaced action style film demons horror film macabre evil foul creatures likes would seen ringu juon however mistaken best possible way story seemed adaptation old japanese play plays such combining essentially action driven adrenaline scenes great concept amazing narrative style makes compelled think rather sit wallowing gore many scenes painted luxurious dialogue two characters likes never seen hollywood film becomes practically theatrical experience takes breath awaybr br the film makes use immaculate scenery camerawork comparable many great samurai films days adding wellthought classical plot great acting great music thoroughly stunning scenes must watch bookbr br that said need disclaimer everyone cheap thrills horror balls wall action horror style play thats filmed much say takes time so flying face conventional oneliners like japanese plays exchanges characters last many minutes come together quick yet marvelous battle scene enjoy thing masterpiece idea good film slasher flicks little plot excessive nudity easily watch something elsebr br overall film unique amazing one keeps riveted amused good writing good acting good direction solidly great film,0 i have plenty of people who pity me i often feel like a project to them instead of a person calling me to see if i m okay and then hang up 0 second later when i say i m fine check in on text once in a while it seems more like a task than concern and for the people who don t pity me it seems to me that they re more just people i know than a person to call a friend if i m being honest i m not the type of person to actively seek friend but fuck man i just want a person to talk shit with once in a while but i ve come to realize my mind is too fucked to poison other people so best to leave them be of my presence it s honestly got to the point where my mind is going numb we all know what happens then,1 the title sum up my whole life perfectly i wa born to a loving caring family my father is my personal hero a real masculine role model who taught me pretty much everything i know my mother gave me all the love a child can ask for they were always supportive in all the good thing that i used to do but always very strict about the bad thing when i chose a career path they paid for a private school which i m so grateful for high school wa the best time of my life they supported me in sport i used to be an amateur middleweight boxer i love them both dearly that s why it hurt so much knowing that i m nothing but a disappointment a burden a leech to them i made the worst decision possible after i finished high school i got accepted into the best technical university in my country it is so embarrassing to think back about it now i actually thought it wa an achievement to study i m ashamed to even type this be free to laugh software engineering i can t explain how a person can do something so stupid i only recently found out that most programmer and software engineer with a master degree which only about of student finish make minimum wage if they are lucky i m from the czech republic central europe programming is a dying career here everything is getting outsourced to the east job are disappearing left and right moving to a different country is not an option since i don t know any foreign language except for english which i m really not good at a you can see and most position require you to know the language of that nation anyway if you want to work in poland you got to know polish etc it s soul crushing to think that all this hard work is worth nothing and even if i manage to finish my degree i m gon na be making the same salary a people with no education and skill whatsoever the minimum wage here in czechia is not enough to afford even a room apartment so i m either gon na live in my parent basement for the rest of my life or i m gon na end up homeless if they decide to kick me out and probably freeze to death when it get cold but then again i m the only one to blame here i should have been thinking more when choosing a career path it s too late to change my profession now firstly because of all the money that my parent invested into it i feel like cry writing that and secondly because i know deep down that i can only do this that i would be a complete failure trying anything else the moment reality of my situation hit me my life took a bad turn a you can imagine having those thought every day just ravage your mental health i can t sleep properly and there are sequence of day when i don t eat anything i m losing weight i would be a lightweight boxer by now but i stopped training anyway my grade got worse i get feeling of despair and misery every day i don t smile anymore i get no joy from anything all my friend are gone i m very lonely i m invisible to woman and i completely lost interest in pursuing relationship no woman is ever gon na date a homeless software engineer i can t remember the last time i had morning wood i m never going to have child my bloodline end with me sorry for the wall of text if you read it all the way here you have my thanks,1 statistics scare meas middleaged single uneducated white male im likely commit redflag ever imagined age gets likely never fooled thinking life got easier aged fuck think got much worse,1 ch0en huh like what i didnt know,0 tracitoguchi nah not really feeling it come back on,0 im sorryive wronged many people im selfish lazy mean person think peoples wellbeing shit person want commit redflag that deserve know make things better atleast hurt anyone ever again know else point everyone hates hate myself,1 I take meds - the truth about postnatal depression and chronic pain https://wp.me/p6vH90-DK  #mentalhealth,1 one year since attempted redflagon october th itll one year since attempted redflag im still deciding wanna celebrate day go another normal day come today tell people life gets better almost whole year intensive counseling appointments week every week ive become happier person im nearly person year ago broken depressed teen wanted end all want people know gets better matter youre going figured id share success story need little motivation dont afraid seek help best option life gives you counselor recently sent letter saying congratulations counseling free proud person ive become really made cry tears joy seeing someone proud progress ill leave lifes precious enjoy every second,1 tylenol pills kill youmy boyfriend tryed overdose idk is texted saying took hes responding need know hes asleep,1 im sorry everyoneim fucking failure mom spent hundreds dollars tutors yet im still failing algebra class betrayed best friend somebody whos supporting long im going hurt anybody else care about im usually talkative today really quiet grandmother kept asking ok instantly able notice something wrong went bathroom crying thinking much id miss shed react finding dead cant stand letting everybody care down im much failure live today im it im going od pills im sorry grandma,1 yo americans alseep europeans australians americans bad sleeping schedules rise anyone wanna join server tryna get europeans australians ppl around world cause lot u chat people yee,0 "having fun, feeling relaxed...its nice after such a loooooooooong time worrying ",0 @SWeeTKiTTie Thanx dats our newest song i appreciate u listen 2 it 4 me 2,0 been feeling this way for some years now .. moms dealing with a lung disease and depression been kicking my ass .. and im tryna impress people that barely pick up the phone and ask me how I'm doing .. shit wild @JColeNC pic.twitter.com/CwvIFKQdub,1 I have an unbelievably sweet girlfriend <333,0 sometimes wonder live die end remember anything live nobody going remember going die matter much live keep going tiny organisms big universe why people always say hey it worth it worth it existence really matter anyone really going care die strangers people internet really going go way cry you point society spending decade education system go live mundane life everyday die living even worth it live,1 random fact go school max verstappen went lived kilometers away,0 finally startin to feel like i am getting to the top of the mountain . . ,0 update my suicidal gfan update previous post called my suicidal gf idont know announce updates properly sorry months together now turns next month applying euthanesia dno feel do told kept alive til now says done broken exhausted cant stop crying,1 quick thing zoooooom,0 i know vain reason to be depressed but i ve been so rejected all my life that it would be good to know if somebody remembers me,1 advice pleasei psych ward due redflag attempt essentially police officer detained brought hospital hospital assessed trying vague trying kill try dodge questions bit first told honest thought dishonest told best way get tell happened never anyone talk talked samaritans wanted kill gave every detail problem told involved told bit suicidal time happened without mental illness ended redflag watch psych ward every detail told psychiatric record every doctor nurse assess ashamed personal also worried redflag watch hospital would ruin career opportunities cause troubles life future every conversation recorded trust ppl need somone talk expect open anymore im tired need get kill asap realised living sample observed want know going kill im discharged not problem made felt suicidal personal never told anyone problem happened since last months unfair involved problem even know someone tried kill herself opposite bed said doesnt want apparently gonna make things worse need fake want get advice please need advice suicidal quite already thought got someone talk getting things chest first trying plan get back feet get much,1 Watching @AOTS from @G4TV When the summer is Full of Repeats you still got @OliviaMunn & @kpereira to Make your Day Better ,0 got hugged girl warmest fuzziest feeling years ago,0 sept would fifth wedding anniversary feels oddly comforting specific date feel like everything happens like water ducks back normal peace,1 great show total freshness innovation usual chair couch woman host mandatory band playing monotonous tunes old jokes pattern copied days nebuchadnezzer probably pattern johnny carson copied one all latterman leno conan daly show seem thesebr br i fell love show 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wish way see many people easily either come across needyannoying overly shyquite tried somewhere middle feel consistently empty always first reach out find things do really mind it once id love someone say op saw thing think would like it want go op let us grab dinner thursday always finding things asking hurts years old want over cannot please everyoneanyone killing,1 i 0m have had a rough past year my brother ha been in and out of psychiatric institute due to drug induced psychosis changed major life choice around my recent ex of year and am now living by myself in a college town doing all online class all of my friend are hour away and i can not seem to find connection with anybody where i live currently my mental health is on a steady decline despite being on medication and having therapy i drink alone frequently self harm almost every other day and when i try to get ahead i m constantly being pulled back i ve considered killing myself during the height of these past event yet for the first time i am enticed by the idea while having a relatively clear and calm conscious my studio apartment is hell for me a i am stuck in my head almost indefinitely i have no motivation to work on school or go to work regularly despite being a relatively driven person both ex i ve ever had see me a an emotionally abusive and controlling person and seem to have a lot of hatred for me i have always tried my best to be loving to everybody and never intentionally wronged them yet i allow them to hold power over my life even though i never see them after explaining these circumstance to my therapist she told me that it doe not classify a emotional abuse yet i still cling to those word i feel like i ruin everything around me without ever trying every time i get into my car i think about how easy it would be to just speed into a building of off a cliff i honestly don t know if i d be around to type this if i had a gun the only thing holding me back is my family and few close friend but sometimes i can completely disassociate from that reality the future scare the living hell out of me and i don t think i have a place on this earth people always say it get better but i have trouble believing that anymore i ve failed a a boyfriend brother son when all i ve ever wanted wa for people to see my true intention i don t want to go on living if it mean i continue to hurt people that i love,1 ship put sea name ship billy tea,0 i m m on a super low dose of buspar all thing considered i think i like it i ve been on it since mid december and break a mg tablet in half and take that x a day so basically mg a day overall it feel pretty good for me minimal side effect other than i can t drink on it alcohol isn t a huge part of my life but i ve always enjoyed meeting friend or coworkers at a bar for or beer for a couple hour once a week that amount is enough for me to get a little buzz have a more lively conversation but also still wake up without a hangover now with buspar after drink i get drunk but not in a good way in like a very confused dumb clumsy and sleepy kind of way i ve basically just cut alcohol out of my life which doe have some benefit i don t spend a much money i don t eat late night fast food no more groggy hangover no staying out late no beer belly but on the other hand i ve basically become a social recluse part of the reason i started taking buspar wa because of my social anxiety and in day to day life such a work and parenting and just going about my day a normal i feel like it s improved but so much of going out in the evening with friend or coworkers or new friend or new coworkers involves drink and a that s no longer an option i ve just kinda found myself le and le interested in going out with people who i know are going to have a night out of drinking not entirely sure how to proceed,1 inyoureyes 0 i reckon,0 keeping ideai get dad hes passive aggressive mainly issues him argue ten times day think ive enough never getting him ignores say good morning him stored glass case feel like dying know much worse get keep items cant trust alive im always watching programmes laugh death skulls im dealing grief ton year im losing ton hope,1 always wanted urges never actually tried want bad stuck people family died little brother still kid hurting bad brain says people try kill themself worse disorders go try really think ill die wish easy moral bad feel fake never tried kill myself,1 begun bother since try please go way little foreplay never really returns favor become one sided physical relationship ive even multiple times trouble getting up largely due fact receive physical stimulation prior intercourse weve known year officially dating months finally decided say something month ago really beginning bother id hoped shed slowly overcome fears time seems content things going change,1 wanna dieplease help wanna die wamma die kill em please beg kill wanna die wanna die pleas help wanma die kill kill kill kill,1 wish redflag much easiermostly everything life getting extremely fucked up studying relationship everyone know got irritating situation left anything worthy would make cling life redflag extremely scary position unreliable gun poisondrug wish one night wake anymore end without pain everything left life shitposting consuming food daydreaming redflag,1 brian wesley eure works security firm owned mr norton conrad bain norton firm financial trouble for unknown owner employee selling secrets rival firms owner jim bacchus brian loyal faithful employee good inventor but mr norton patience brian part nortons beautiful daughter casey valerie bertinelli thing brian norton questions brians motives wooing her however brian come great security device called chomps stands canine home security system device looks like dog actually computer controlled animal ability knock walls emit siren sounds capture burglars rival owner sends two bungling spies one red buttons learn details new invention chomps save norton security fun family flick old school good clean entertainment chomps is course real dog played adorable talented benji fact benji duel role brian real dog named rascal too watching little dog action pure joy able scale walls pull trucks operate machine buttons capture bad guys human cast also quite nice everyone giving upbeat performances infectious costumes scenery production values good too although may trouble locating film would well worth effort secure view closest loved ones chomps wonderful wholesome diversion worlds woes,0 music going listen gopersonally im going listen spaceywhitenoisenovocal music kinda like meditation music ill even happier die you going listen to,1 I absolutely LOVE the movie Shakespeare In Love <3,0 using shethey getting mad someone uses make sense saw instagram post said someone uses shethey switch use them like literally say oh yeah bought coat today lots money something like that otherwise apparently offensive someone enlighten makes sense all friend mad says hard respect want understand even makes sense,0 got french test hell yeah hard last part conversations organized odd way confused still,0 opinion stereotype redditors lonely always single see kind thing time find odd maybe joke im oblivious see it wonder people actually selfconfidence selfesteem believe get partner mean boyfriend really love believed one followed stereotype im taken think everyone find someone find special,0 "@StylistMagazine Hay fever linked to increased anxiety and depression risk, research finds https://www.stylist.co.uk/life/hay-fever-risk-allergies-mental-health-anxiety-depression/203144 … via @stylistmagazine",1 still alive convinced going die sti got distracted night someone needed money distracted making sure okay missed deadline lot things happened since dont want talk also delayed it want guys know im done delaying more im killing tonight fail ill try straight tomorrow rather wait week bye reddit,1 i know big love true blood and united state of tara have too long of wait between season,0 "@DeionSanders I changed my life with the help of football, saved it from depression and almost suicide. But today continue to help others",1 birthdaysi think id alive year last birthday am flu ears ringing painful throat hurts breathe im missing class im old far behind missing set birthday public fb see would happen nothing thats happened wanted one happy birthday mom brother apparently thats lot ask for large im better year last year longer go straight redflag considering options problems guess thats progress im still unsure last birthday,1 im dirty feel really dirty everything body dirty shower im still dirty brush teeth mouth dirty teeth feel like fall hair feels disgusting feel like roots hair like dirty dark basement legs many bruises face looks like soemthing wrong feel weak feel thankful shitty things life right becasue least use excuse im hurting much didnt would nothing blame fucked thank universe keep giving fucked shit allah dont believe elhamdulillah u gave fucked life hope put hell asap suffering reason wont feel like something wrong lately read pyschology website sensitivity genetic im gonna blame mom kids even tho fucked head makes fucked kids like mom cant therapist feel disgusted today arm touched mine wanted throw anyway dont know take care thank never teaching thanks never emotionally available making ashamed every part body elhamdulillah blame mom anyway dad biggest asshole ive ever seen selfish ass person ever dont deserve family dont deserve single thing still give fucking patriarchy whatever stayed stupid small town never moved istanbul never meet mom bc u married lived city generations ur stupid backwards head still even tho live north america sometimes u outside house sit living room talk convince shit yes ppl sit discuss convince man let us live lives way want congrats fucking dictator controlling adults kids lives hate you hate erdogan hate allah three head could would kill feel happy fuck u fuck mom especially fuck u making watch little sister slowly getting fucked say fault fault u made kids everyone knew u cant take care of stop raw fucking throwing babies around hate u also feel bad bc know end really fault whatever fuck society guess like fuck u sex years months ago didnt want born,1 idk i guess this is a vent or something but whatever lately everything ha been okay like daily wise school is okay i guess just wish every math lesson didn t either leave me with a headache or panic attack slamming door and yelling just remind me of my childhood and always sends me into a panic attack today i had two in different class i m hard of hearing and i have hearing aid i wish that i could turn them off or take them out whilst the yelling and shit wa happening but i m always in that state of freeze and panic i m the new kid no one seems to notice it which is fine home is okay there is just court and custody shit going on since my mother and father can t make one agreement now me and my brother have to go to court and get like attornies or some shit like that to settle it down i don t know i m exhausted i don t feel like living rn i feel like everyone hate me and is drifting away and i can t handle that i m clean of self harm though i m probably gon na break that after this post i ve been thinking a lot about offing myself i m so tired i don t wan na live anymore i can t live anymore to be honest i m just struggling so much fuck i can t even make it a full week of school i got sexually assaulted by my cousin on the weekend and i feel like it s my fault i just really need an escape but even getting high can t block out all the shit that go on in my head i don t wan na fail like last time i tried offing myself just too many question and everything what am i meant to do i do see a therapist and everything but i feel like it doesn t help i don t wan na be alive anymore i really don t,1 posting song everyday not day want love nf daily songs playlist httpsopenspotifycomplaylistzilhbtxsnfkgatuareusigspyxmqjgbdtgvlqiog,0 diazepamdo think x mg pills diazepam plus alcohol induce comatose,1 one friends blocked sharing opinion story posted something black lives matter told alot protesters part racist white people,0 @RLN49 Too funny!,0 [ 1:38 PM] - Good afternoon Twitters! ,0 @cartoondutchie Is there a live feed of those Bell Fund results? Is there a page i should be watching?,0 sad think ill never able draw anywhere near good people mean would want draw weave pretty damn good story amirite,0 @symphnysldr haha mines is 8:03 then. haha so party with me on 8:03?? ,0 Bun venit @cursuriafaceri pe Twitter ,0 know song i removed verses make bit difficult dont search lyrics up ruins game ampxb fuck princess im king bow kiss ring bitch kink fuck else think fuck princess im king bow kiss ring gonna hurt itll sting spitting blood sink im crazy like bite back daisies nightstand never forget blossom moonlight screw eyes glacial blue ice im terrifying im cinderella like shoes big glass platforms bitch im choosey long blue hair blue bruise trust fella light amusement im prey pursued pray me churches pews new dickstraction cant confuse whiskey hip flask nothing fruity,0 Stuffed. My last tweet....I swear til like maybe 8pm! U will not get a tweet out of this twit! ,0 amberpacific i know i dont know why i said that,0 quick question stuff noticed twitter flag pretty girls twitter there ive never seen flag got emoji,0 often band get together reunion concert find cant get together here concert shear brilliance start finish three musicians obviously got together beforehand plotted planned needed ensure nostalgic bash satisfy someones ego obvious start even step stage many faces crowd even born guys first performed first song capture old magic cream men instruments fuss clapton admission said stretch concert keyboards synthesizers etc get see best ginger baker demonstrates many drummers today speak sort drumming guru jack bruce great really managed put together piece magic stand test time many years come ones me,0 first post using pc reddit hi typing mechanical keyboard,0 "agreed. i was bullied relentlessly after i came out to the point i had to leave my secondary school to be home schooled. i developed panic attacks, clinical depression, severe anxiety disorder, etc. things need to change. https://twitter.com/jadeyasqueen/status/989014175065235457 …",1 k ppl online almost new posts smh head,0 Depression really got me lately,1 many nonasian guys like japananime etc racist towards asian men something weird noticed often look asian men feel superior them obviously lot im asian know people say doesnt exist people noticed too,0 im done im done im donei miss wife miss life im falling apart im done im sorry tell mom fault,1 free wholesome award give away something wholesome free award play rainbow boys slots free something wholesome edit imma give usnak_hadios frobby frankster,0 could a man with depression own and operate an air fryer didn t think so,1 "@Drew_Seymour Hey, hows it going? Is it me or is twitter a bit shit sometimes? ",0 whats pointis point born purely life bad good die wont remember anyway waste time seems like ending would save pain forgetting already know earlier rather later,1 really care much life anymoreim full selfhatred im constantly lonely depressed ocd im constantly bombarded evil thoughts im single shitty job enough energy motivation pursue dreams anymore find solace jesus feel like enough sometimes want anymore thats all,1 "@StacyJMT Thanks, today is the first day I can type without tons of error correction during and after due to distraction ",0 Alisa just bagged for me ,0 im genuinely afraid schools us reopening student myself understand everyone hell bent getting back school understand pandemic devastating individuals mental health people abusive homes put many teachers children risk socialize other personally anxious melancholy time school good refresh me believe reopening would bad decision seems like teachers students used pawns government trying see reopen fast enough note isolation traumatic think students teacher relative dying going back school would even traumatic i others would probably feel immensely guilty hand e learning much better everyone recources andor doesnt work well virtually know experience stressful scary learning home think lose lose situation personally think reopening would smarter option lmk u guys think comments,0 robparsons too difficult who are these people no doubt the one who only ever see african a starving and helpless grrrrrr,0 "@MissBethAnn That was an interesting link. Anyways, you do know that I'm in Australia, right? ",0 pyrocynical comment section gives me actual depression,1 "an official good morning, almost afternoon Twitter! I'm sort of in the mood to write some kink bingo, who's with me? ",0 join server cause teen,0 living hardi cant anymore feel like shit everyday everytime want die always think it,1 ventingive place mentally depressed anxious suicidalmostly thinking it attempted twice pretty much long remember nuisance younger years first attempt grew older realised depression never went away even situation changed became something never thought could be much worse tried every medication sun well smoked weed moved changed jobs numerous times went therapy solid years things seem better except awareness middle age brings place change depression drugs work appreciably im starting new hospital outpatient program say optimistic even though know need something since really sick suicidal going cycles working months getting stressed quitting ive failed jobs school pretty much everything life wonder often simply courage myself cant see situation long term pain ass alive better slow leechlike presence currently am ill job while mostly live welfare everything inside used dream hope dead since awareness cant make jobs college relationships find place world since cant pick up seems suffering never end damn therapist ever helped one lick except person vent form unhelpful codependent relationship with know im middle aged feel useless collecting welfare hate it try work wind quit im sleeping dissociating time hallucinating social anxiety think somewhere sliver hope pretty fn dim wonder keep alive fear killing fear death would cause family life im nonentity derpy depressed wallflower nothing pain others around me thanks reading needed vent anon,1 caykdae moi cayekdey hwo wanst soem mey cayk,0 hello everyone first time posting love movie child mine could watch over well taped long time ago like years ago dropped broke seen years could one please tell come again would really appreciate alotyou email want cause favorite movie including empty cradle anyone knows comes please let knowi would really appreciate alotbr br ,0 titlei dont know anymore made dumb decisions fucked around senior year high school instead planning future years passed since ive still never worked would consider real job let alone going school quickly losing live keep thinking hanging myself taking aspirin cutting wrists thing thats kept numb glimmer hope still left fear fucking live failed attempt loveliness entails met girl failed shooting stuck wheelchair scares fuck could happen me ive applying really simple retail jobs need around people im going lose it ive socially isolated since left highschool every time try reach meet somebody either too busy anything me meet thats ive sitting ass almost years honestly dont know ive made fucking far horrible diagnosed social anxiety disorder probably borderline avoidant personality disorder unable leave house anything social years post high school ive therapy helped anxiety still horrible self esteem every job interview ends call back reinfornces horrible feel mself top that therapist moved away left second therapist seemed completely disinterested helping didnt get problems told leaving job couple months agreeing new regular therapist lady go fuck herself timing told leaving impeccable told scared getting suicidal nothing life seemed working out threw oh yeah im leaving good luck top im also transgender hate it cant find anybody love am everyone fucking stick ass completely repulsed even im apparently one beautiful women theyve ever seen get comments model pretty time yet one shows sort romantic interest me would they im damaged goods hate body time hate voice anything hate wish could disappear right im taking larger normal doses klonopin keep complete meltdown want release want go sleep forever im tired trying im tired every day goes leaves feeling like literally nothing live for family treats like shit lack motivation finally get motivated nothing ever seems work go back hating wishing someone would come house put misery please give reason keep going on dont know keep trying feels like vain truly feel like cant go like much longer new years resolution apply one job day far ive gotten two interviews anxiety already fucked second one lady apparently couldnt hear phone probably ive taken enough klonopin calm horse feel like ive already fucked chances even though interview hasnt gone through one hopeful yet got callback like told would interested even though interviewer made sound like going get it always happens me get hopes invest much energy something happening doesnt follow completely crushed,1 day asking everyone filler filler filler poggers filler filler filler,0 @IamDomo Ha! 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Good luck with that! ,0 running sticksi dark place right strongly considering taking life finding really hard find meaningful reason keep goingthrow lifeline tell please,1 im eating pringles mmmm pringle,0 @fictionals your nose is clogged? use a plunger then ,0 I spent all of 10th grade crying for absolutely no reason and i wish someone would've told me what depression was back then rather than me just thinking I wanted to die,1 had a lovely day at the beach followed by dinner with a gorgeous lady roll on the work today booo,0 @sizzlemaker check out all of the celebs needing interns on quarterlife.com/intern or in my Examiner Column ,0 trust anyonei lost trust everyone close me stupid enough tell do im stupid,1 ever bop beep skdoo bep,0 i got a mattress topper and now my crippling depression isn't the *only* reason i want to stay in bed all day!!,1 im thinking transferring schools mom forced go private school never wanted attend ripping away friends except one shes kind toxic old friends go another school want transfer there cant parents would never allow me im sure feel moving schools sophomore year feel sad miss friends hate here please give advice,0 clarify i never told anyone wanted die them never something lifebut done realized yesterday something very selfishin past years used tell closest friends ever feelings suicide like felt sad empty wanted catch bus including time engaged selfharm twice but never told something similar also told things people used know internetwhat did unforgivablei put huge burden them think made feel responsible happiness even intention even tried reciprocate things much could damage donethose things told either qualified mental health professionals decades study anonymous forums people similar problems either anonymity professional relationship boundaries ensure person listens end feeling guilty responsiblemaybe main reason ended mostly alone even desperate help asked horrible way could ever donethey moved deserved happy deserved surrounded positive people love them deserved good things worldsomething useless toxic cowardly person like would never able provide even hurt lot even society ended betraying me never asked kind advice them honestly think ever good person all ever since child trouble connecting people way like speak walk express myself pissed much ended bullying punishment slowly ignored got message moved away livesheh thought could hero kind hero thatwhat kind decent human something like thatlike someone told once even never bad intentions towards them final actions ones mattered mostaristotle said friendships based either affinity utility true loveaside exceptions think friendships ever life utility affinity ones based true loveand deep inside core good person explains suffer like punishment think manipulator,1 caught last half movie cable one night struck morbid was even one two victims deteriorated camera keeps going lingering shots corpse uncovered concentrationcamp figure zipped body bag moving depressing watch movie already depressed watch feeling really good,0 ranting guess become self conscious look im beginning hate it used care little looked course wanted look decent try look appealing brushing hair hygiene started wearing jackets cover arms eventually started wearing hoodies cover myself started wearing clothes without words objects them last christmas bought plain blank dark colored tshirts even though nobody see hoodies keep worrying hair theres one part eye stupidy curly shit cant anything it four thirty begin wondering ive lost hold fell rabbit hole mind school bus f u n,0 update still alivemade post taking pills got fair amount heat feel obliged make update inform people im still alive feel terrible dont really want talk people much idk appropriate allowed admins feel free delete yeah,1 wish knew start post a year old cis white married man live one richest countries world eat everyday sleep indoors employed love wife despite this life especially last months want diei tried therapy medication still feel like meaning life people care truly would benefit deal me gone contact family last two years ghosting friends last months ultimately know coming think stop iti tired empty know keep going really even want anymore tired pretending fine breaking alone tired trying find motivation errands chores hobbies friends livingi guess last ditch chance counseling friends family able fix me maybe stranger internet words pressure reader walked edge deep breath fall feel like finally bottom,1 i dont want to write this because i feel like im disrespecting the people that actual suffered from suicide but i dont want to live without her she want no contact at all and she wa all that made me happy i miss her,1 lost coworker week want chat amazing guywe knew problems much could do cant chain bed really nice person like give food ate kind guy filling last year half really great person im sure becoming great father really odd subject get type publicly often even 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All the best! ,0 @CharlotteLilly @goodlifegrspc @props4WAH @RavenSu @andykarelas @knittingnews @SusanCosmos thanks for the retweet ,0 chronically ill young college student help pleaseim years old four half years ago got diagnosed chronic condition completely changed life worse type person could really made difference changed world better intelligence drive importantly opportunities follow through disease broken me everyday im plagued pain many fronts ive lost much physical dexterity mental quickness worst ive lost drive motivation thats let push despite paindespite long hours true agony ive beaten submission yield truly take more condition grow worse years go on ill try one experimental treatment next putting family tremendous debt work best theyll prolong inevitable die affliction manner provided something else kill sooner ive always considered religious man ive spent life short been prayer good faith say missteps along way however im apparently doomed incontrovertible thought process really god let suffer either cant anything it refuses anything it exist inevitably lead conclusion god exists worth worshiping god consequences doomed hellfire eternal like ive taught take matters hands end pain wrong either ethical religious ways wanting end appears lifelong promise anguish,1 "@sarazarr GREAT! I didn't make out with you, but we did snuggle at Geek party! ",0 get platinum award id love reddit premium terms money money probably need award anyone got ideas get awards xd,0 night cunt love you dont let bed bugs bite,0 doubt ill go longerheres starving death thats redflag method im pussy try honesty lifes painful go on hope people come funeral,1 is in the bathroom wake up lakin,0 one word word bring strongest warriors knees word break strongest men word break hearts word put fear bravest men woman word word school,0 tonight might itim getting drunk think might tonight feel guilty father never really growing hate daughter well though even remember me idk gutted post tomorrow it maybe beers,1 "@amarita77 goodmorning, that is good to hear did you cut out the red bull before bed? Lol",0 joke time almost joke day normal laugh weird evil laugh everyone bombing site looks weird,0 i am year old and i have been diagnosed with anxiety disorder and depressive problem since i wa i have no one i don t have anyone to talk to when i have a problem my family it s not even that they don t want to help me it s that they don t want to listen to me they have even blamed me for part of their problem my father tried to kill himself over 0 year ago when i wa little and i have always been afraid that he would do it again a few year ago i wa very bad and my father told me that when he saw me like that he wanted to crash the car into a wall how could i share my problem in such a situation i do not have friend i may have had at some point year ago but never particularly close and the one who wa closest to me when he found out about my problem he started to distance himself from me apart from telling many more people what i told him in private i have no one to vent to no family or friend i left my psychologist to whom i paid 0 euro per session because she came to call me selfish for being depressed and not being in the same situation a a beggar a cancer patient or a person from ukraine this last one seemed totally outrageous to me i do not know what to do i m sick all day no one to vent to or talk about anything just my medication that doesn t work for me lately and so with year i can t get any better just survive day to day,1 nice description situation us explains different kinds islam show terrorist extremist islam thing killing show people become terrorist muslim without extremist great series muslims nomuslims see hope series films done change idea muslims terrorist americans want destroy islam gave interest discover islam exactly us also european government help cohabitation people different religion,0 feeling pretty sleepy. i want to hang out tomorrow! hope prom kids have fun ,0 aiyerchitra yikes now i have no clue what to do,0 know exactly how you feel man re http ff im xtn,0 wanted post herei always try help people fullest always fail make thier situation worse im one people always lied seem better failed protect everyone cared about im posting cant talk anywhere else wont get help dont deserve it wanted say things hell might looking attention cause im trash human being sorry wasting time anyone read please downvote it,1 quot who is your favorite vintage designer quot lucy quot topshop quot i miss cycle of britain s ntm,0 hi i hope this is the right place for this i have been suffering with anxiety for a while the last month or so have been particularly bad which is affecting my work my relationship with my family snappy extremely irritable tired no focus i reached out to my doctor last week after a particularly bad episode at a work event who ha prescribed sertraline and advised a course of cbt no one else know this and i am anxious about telling my wife which in turn is pushing my anxiety up further i wondered if anyone else ha been in the same situation how did you approach it every time i feel like it should be the time to say something i completely lose my bottle,1 need cancel cancel culture cancel culture ruiend many lives even outside media internet _________________________________________ first all someone gets accused something everyone take rule mind innocent proven guilty actors content creators accused something unacceptable everyone canceling them like jhonny depp lost work youtubers lose income wich obviously ruiens life everyday people problem too female accuses male rape male automatically lose job probably wife too even courtcase happens ofcourse accusions hopefully rightfull false accusation female basically ruien males life simply saying raped her cancel culture people _________________________________________ also media automatically choose side pyrocynical case people automatically chose iverys side provided big amount evidence know would work pyro defend making kinks public evidence based things specifically picked fool people _________________________________________ even celeb automatically guilty like pewdiepie said live nword shouldnt screw immediately over yes wrong shouldnt screw someone mistake even youtube chooses sides like logan paul showed body video lost revenue weeks nothing _________________________________________ probably dies new felt like spreading opinion cancel culture k bye,0 enjoying toasted butter bread know heading school minutes ago lmao im going late,0 feel lonely thoughts redflag looming getting stronger every dayi moved take care mother college could barely pick things get bed able get work home traveling couple times year years depressed learn drive family friends teach me get paid much able save lot series emergencies use active gained weight now face amp teeth messed born prematurely cleft pallet feel lonely every night lost interest movies games want someone hang me brother moved away big fight mother use love playing video games walking downtown watching movies thinking putting craigslist ad wants hang socially awkward ugly broke guy cant drive service like cheap thinking redflag often getting hard fight pain loneliness strong anymore thinking would it hang extension cord drown bath tub throw story apartment building guzzle thing bleach,1 ima make quick im going make quick simple partially auto mod already banned first two posts also somewhat busy first things first year ago got reddit life changing whole daily routine changed it wacky stuff happened past year im glad reddit keep going great daynight dont forget stay safe,0 hello ampxb processing img qztqlzzsr,0 i certainly do enjoy havimg depression :),1 figured yet the raskreddit autobot deleted original post guess imma go ahead ask here possible check chat feature mobile browser dont access pc day tomorrow then wont know whats blowing notification chat which says anyways get point i think,0 slut shaming real issue need stop girls shouldnt called sluts ever sex entire football team soccer team swimming team wrestling team chess team league club theodore club science club anime club half building services people make slut means shes free spirited values experience body ever wants sexual history determine worth men need know this,0 coll aka aubrey oh you were joking well now i m crushed i wa totally gon na stand in the middle of a field and wave my arm,0 slowly surrendering thought never completely happy even know writing this watching football match italy uk everyone cheering teams victory felt lost touch like everything slowing around me could feel anything seeing everyone happy made feel much pain thought never reach anything like made feel scared terribly devastated wanted express feelings someone life anyone could really understand lot empathetic faces smile one really knows feels feel tears eyes breath caught throat thought ending non stop mind know ever it want hurt anybody making others happy continue suffer inside sorry badly written mind fog right now much feel need say little actually say feel defeated giving up,1 I'd love to see Tendulkar bowl today and give us two figure runs ,0 cannot one gives shit ready end scared feel one cares anymore struggling cope rn,1 uploaded first video wondering could get criticism make better my first videohttpsmyoutubecomwatchvdqwwwgxcq mainly hypixel videos guys wondering,0 alone alone confused,0 walls vibrating please help me please,0 "@Sprite_3 Ha, sounds like another crazy great plan to me xo",0 normal eyes leaky im crying leaking water guess im gay water fountain give money,0 DEPRESSION IS REAL & IDNT WANNA BE HERE !,1 new project idea index wikipedia pages look rteenagers spooktober want find words leave word comment section done using program making rn,0 @mOi_UAE wth! .. 9_9 hello you ,0 chiefdelphi is down,0 treated like shit ready end lifemy life easy attempted redflag first age jumping front car insulin overdose last time so overdose opiates antiemetics tied bag around head spent weeks coma icu swear cant die im single parent two sons ive tried hard keep together ive faking every day know would better sooner gone work healthcare bullied since day one first sexuality progressed more people total harassing me went hr fired homophobic nurse others even worse manager told month ago im getting promotion working different site bullying however heard update asked timing told in months believe anything change cant another day this applying jobs year career specific field openings year medium sized cities like mine bought house march bills pay full custody sons cant leave job dead good hands mother im sorry them promise better im gone get time cant keep living misery day day keep happy im posting way give permission know redflag always end path know when do im relieved im sorry boys,1 want anyone take there going get car stranger relate so would do do do suicidal thoughts hurting myself hurt others around me gone psycho he even called psycho called deranged called deranged cannot ruining room want to ry imsoat part wants cry arms hate that vent rant,1 unc bruno saula tobiloba una get am bruh will jus b like we meeuve while some lady fit hit depression straight,1 scarred life please save yourselfdont make mistake made go reyeblech,0 question guys rteenagers question specifically straight ones girls perspective id love answers sexuality yall find attractive girlspeople would one obtain boyfriend trying times im looking one moment like future reference case anyone else wondering like am,0 enough time claw mental health problems k guys need advice dont know do ampxb lot mental health problems might know fixreduce impact them tldr find hobby ie something like brings joy would able better cope problems ampxb think might like writing scripts cuz tried got really inspired really happy like day want get habit so problem takes time dont time lot homework do ampxb im starting get point school everything becomes really important every test take influences final score influences university go in country called atar think comparable sat basically constantly homework do ampxb means cant devote time write scripts since im anything fix mental health im incapable spending time required get homework done ampxb cant ignore homework work fixing mental health cuz ill fail school would make parents angry would make mental health worse im sure ignore trying fix mental health longer cuz im afraid im going wake one day fed everything kill myself ampxb thing think gap year basically taking year away studies high school university im going stage make decision another years,1 I know depression and alcohol addiction doesn't blend,1 hear out gorillaz still fucking good especially new album love pink phantom momentary bliss,0 ohmyelio google with the fact bruh omg i can always count on google to cure me haha but not my depression,1 gotta love going back school first day back also week exams lot reviewing person do naturally break wifi cant use chrome books review,0 depression ke,1 @feginem Lmao I'll try and stop by Am visiting everyone tomorrow ,0 made promiseso weeks planning oding medications yesterday someone made promise kill kill myself two weeks since last talked informally someone felt good someone relate talk to hope able keep touch people understand struggle judge hard find,1 im thinking killing right now someone talk pleaseok even know talk still need badly,1 got ct scan day normal living room decided sit couch sit couch hit head wall hard becauze couch near wall stupid bitch anyways started crying hurted like hell ten mins later things got worse felt like gonna pass out ears head felt weird jumped taxi went hospital doctor checked alright sure wanted get ct scan health insurancelol free stuff ct scan weird shit lay something enters circular thing thats said anyways went got results alright doctor said might metabolic illness bruh moment there said might normal thing idk also doctor super cute lol feel radiation bones btw might glow dark idk lessons learned never sit couch,0 mmm mm ya love mmmm love mm yesi love turkey sandwiches aghhh mm great wth,0 wasnt paying attention time im gonna go die now minutes like minutes less usual bad fuck,0 i feel like i have no redeeming quality deficient in everything no determination strength ambition intelligence virtue im not even beautiful im ugly a shit and my personality is even uglier i just isolate myself now i can t even be bothered to try making new relationship anymore i ruin all of them with my horrible personality i dont even have to try ive sorta accepted that ill probably die alone it doesnt bother me a much now but the fact that ill have to live with this ugly face body and mind make me physically ill i just feel so fucking useless like the side character whod get killed off in the first two episode haha im literally such a goddamn loser it almost funny,1 everyone learn language im saying learn language exclusively agree language teach children addition local language would probably either english latin much hate esperanto kinda perfect youre going teach everyone thats good for imo either latin korean probably latin cuz wouldnt learn new writing system grammar relatively flexible technically flexible rearrange words sentence order mean thing even though couple grammatically correct,0 healoo fello guys sooo friends hav discord server r trying get new peoplee chat send memes play games like minecrsft among us theres ppl console nintendo channel channel ask opposite sex channel relationship advice anime images ppl europe australia asia too stuff going on commitment guys girls welcome teen baby old man loool dm link d,0 wanna im sure howso uh yeah really wanna myself im tired everything need permanent solution point dont really means anything im kinda fucked rn dont want live anymore fuck,1 feel happy life sometimes feel guilty happy mean looking people depression that hard time im completely enjoying life bah,0 end life eventually post times never actually stated real genuine reason tried kill day the goodbye post attempting time time get right problem want hurt family thats problem also fact access firearm hang myself look post history see main reason im closet lesbian always one get twisted though never come closet want to hate gay much people hate pedophiles never ever act feelings i before continue keep quiet die naturally otherwise overly sensitive homophobia turn away annoy activist bullshit want hear it known gay young age denial teens admitted im gay thought okay thought okay feel things ever be reason life screwed me fault let feel things thinking okay mess met two people on here feel me thats it gays straights get its okay accept it theres nothing wrong it blah blah no stop fucking dense give fuck people gay care people lives dont gay happy give fucking shit want gay i dont want to im sick people fucking listening me say gay affects me my life im sick it im sick people generalizing gays same one gay person okay doesnt mean be im also sick people debunking everything say but thats similar straight people do stop whining gays straights neither ever helped me boyfriend plenty boyfriends like it everyone thinks knows im straight makes happy sex guys very brief sex soon shit gets serious bail them feel bad yes thats am horrible person disease mind you go nice guys turn hurt them normally date assholes care other life actually okay otherwise im smart successful one reason ruins whole entire life squashes hopes dreams fucks completely im going get hate gay know exactly people going reply people fucking dense im going bother tried get gay fucked me visiting pastor soon hopefully undergo reparative therapy im even religious slightest excited could feel normal people would feel work ill continue live heterosexual die want gay want anyone know ever want act mental illness,1 im year old male its long fuck lmaoive never really opened feelings anyone whole life every fucking time someone tries get open end feeling annoyed like im depressed push away im pretty sure parents never taught feelings idea handle shove deep deep deep body one time tried let broke cried family african american brushed little bitch suck honest im used caring dont care anymore thats one problem another thing really dont see making end year graduating young mom found church jesus christ converted mormon ever since would let skip school middle school would create lies avoid school actually believed know sounds like fault definitely smarter really takes church anything including fucking children sucks im really behind school mention parents divorced used argue every single damn day thing brought peace xbox play video games time mindset whenever play games dont worry everything else life also im pretty sure im addicted porn cant stop even though im trying fucking hard stop feeling makes feel like im loved something masturbate lot feel feeling another thing lol feel like loser this tend dwindle past lot times really cared siblings second oldest would expect someone black foot decent looking extroverted fun around complete opposite extremely introverted like alone hate im pretty sure thats like pushing people away really sucks like dont even know real anymore really want feel happy like kid sucks man could playing sports going year college instead im depressed want die badly opening app god want someone save fucking bad even funny,1 film wonderful captures gaming life laughed hard watching this movie gaming group hard time campaign dungeon master came with movie switches real world gaming world play campaign shows gaming world character switches back real world playing campaign basis module dungeon master lodge writing problem lodge cant finish module characters cant finish campaign killing looting instead role playing lodge wants role play campaign something never done before decide bring extra help bring await it girl play lodge also makes npc non player character paladinwho witness wrong play film want spoil film say more movie may big budget film acting may oscar worthy gaming dungeons dragons definitely watch it lot fun making film shows going bash movie problems continuity thing low budget film fun slap stick comedy enjoy damn good writing opinion want fun film try ,0 eighties savage steve holland put three movies two classics seems small genre absurdist teen comedies third how got college measure better dead one mainly lack john cusack curtis armstrong except tiny cameobr br one crazy summer underrated movie lots great characterizations gags recall savage steves movies vilified brain dead time three movies drifted childrens tv could use movies likes him,0 wish physical part dying easyim years old friends besides one go work school fee time spent video games nothing better do really hate redflag looked bad yes counter argument redflag selfish hurt anyone physically ive tried standing cliff want die pussy out rate get enough balls jump everything better wish redflag pills legal,1 winggato no free comp lol,0 anyone wanna talk im f creeps please feeling bored yeah also dont reply quick dont take personal ,0 good show entertaining good marshal arts acting good story plot entire main crew nice job robert urich chuck norris jennifer tung especially big hand judson mills especially fine tribute robert urich latter days great actor truly missed,0 somewhat short first listen critics bad say is sniper uses classic movie formula many dismiss immediately flawing movie sniper reflect truth countrys military snipers work give know nothing professional sniper glimpse world sniper yes movie many flaws movie doesnt many good scenes good acting tom berenger say worst scenes beginning movie billy zane helicopter followed zane marines bar scene best scene sniper berenger middle field opposing force sweeping it also plenty good shots jungle classic shots using camera though looking riflescope yes sniper motto one shot one kill judge sniper yourselfbr br ,0 redflag attempt failedlast time wrote post thinking would last swallowed whole bottle pills happened vomiting blacking couple hours generally feel weak try right now days will funny thing im failure everything even demise,1 im dumb anything lazy undisciplined retard makes guilty worthlessi dont know fucking do im ,1 feel like failing dog mom every way depression getting worse day time get home work everyday zero patience energy deal him husband month half hes months old hes incredibly rowdy attentionseeking huge sweetheart cannot seem help jerk whenever hes around feel overwhelmed around him cannot help hate hes feet time constantly trying jump lick anywhere skin showing trying train hes progressing rapidly still cannot seem find leftover patiencei always dog person happened mei feel like worst person world feel bad love much want feel loved know do horrible dog mom,1 suicidal thoughts jobi called meeting today told close fired meeting sales goals really confidence meet meet sales goals know going fail fired cannot stand thought failure thinking redflag think redflag would better option labeled failure,1 ok ive hours need stay another fix sleep schedule d idk it touch bed fall asleep dont wanna anything especially hw,0 life pointlessthe meaning life reproduce die want something else dont anything give world parents dont care me dont friends shitty hobbies fancy career life boring long nothing changes fact im crash course die alone want kill myself want over,1 og post lost new update help motivating friend friend started youtube channel hes always wanted didnt understand technical side made channel posted video asked same videos havent really seen discouraging him told patient hes losing hope im posting another video right later tonight playing rec room ask go check think channel potential subscribe wont really like content dont friend agreed make another video lets keep views coming httpswwwyoutubecomchannelucncyfypwtzpyagdgufqq,0 ill take bonks bonk youre looking people bonk ill scapegoat take bonkening,0 talk redflag friends think jokefor talked redflag like majority friends think joking like yeah going kill buddy mine said yeah same ahead me tonight somehow got subject redflag packed guys like yeah join jokingly know people know im fucked guess think im joking guess finally it friends laugh care,1 @jordanknight too early for cheerios! still sleepy time ,0 davedynamix i m still sad over marley amp me also that damn clearance dog,0 is looking for a dress for her friend but can t find it,0 @prernabhagra Welcome to the Twitterverse Prerna ,0 "@Jestertunes - Meh, I know not from political correctness... you're just a colorful guy. ",0 did I mention I'm drinking beer ,0 im sorryto parents ive lying college ive faking grades im attending classes anymore wish could say you going half year already completely gave handle pressure anymore stepping inside classroom clouds anxiety every time walk class ill cry immediately wipe tears away everyone might think im going crazybut guess already am im worthless im wasting everyones time parents money theyre hoping nothing im gonna successful mom dad im sorry want thank always trying hardest raise though love guys im sorry ive become failure least put me right friends thank understanding mood swings thank there friends someone like me wish couldve done better someone better im already tired trying keep appearances hope method works smoothly wanna burden anymore,1 im fucking lonely driving insanei cant anything anymore without periods completely space start crying cant find soul want around life me matter okay happy normal act,1 The reason's why I use TweetLater... http://bit.ly/uJD5u,0 "We can't guarantee you'll turn into Superman, but after consistent usage our customers are now feeling SUPER!!#cbd #fabcbd #fabfam #fablife #happy #honest #superman #hemp #sweet #ocean #breeze #tech #cannabiscommunity #sqad #depression #anxiety #help pic.twitter.com/GgbPTcFYKs",1 story toxic relationships decided share story reddit remind people toxic relationships much exist even young age look support middle one back little younger met someone quite quickly fell her despite mates said her lived road walk dogs park thought id talk her i bring it matter cos talked first anyway get on days later im asked out seems pretty legit atm started okay first met up went park etc etc things changed started becoming little obsessive shed constantly want see me did also started becoming violent first case chocolate bar thrown face as joke btw hurt made mistake decided ignore red flags continued getting worse kept slowly becoming violent point slapped least everyday almost got knocked rock thrown head her again as joke also became sexual things looking good made mistake decided shrug off basically abuse now shed steal phone deleting every contact force meet her full punch me stop seeing friends shed also always make look like bad one scared always hated telling people problems always seen unnecessary decided to told mum adviced break her near house things got violent could retreat inside did broke up end tho day after found also cheating whole time too one guy week later rumors spreading sexually assaulted her apparently shed told everyone school make seem like bad guy would also continue stalk me call threats police informed today zero contact her please notice red flags something it toxic relationship rn tell parent police things get worse otherwise deserve it,0 Experts say anxiety and depression top the list of reasons people have trouble sleeping. #sleep,1 indeed amazing adaption missed first episode unfortunately missed bonding characters smooth flow storyline soon watched second third instalment blown away ordered dvd less week later unable wait come went straight brought book moment opened hooked put down decided finish whole book dare watch dvd all preferred book got inside characters minds could understand totally coming role within story missed lot adaption disappointing book master piece think could done superbly able stretch longer period time considering able fitted hour slot think done excellent followed main twisted storyline brilliantly actors enrolled main characters amazing love making scene pure beautiful tender loving showed natural homosexual love be totally blown away book tv adaption loved sarah waters previous novels also found tipping velvet adaption quite enjoyable read watched fingersmith knew none previous novelsadaption could beat it sarah waters indeed exceeded time recommend watch adaption tipping velvet thing let put one fingersmith whole new ball game beautiful yet dark twisted story love greed betrayalbr br a must see,0 kill myself everything go awaythe voices stop screaming if shakes stop constant irrational worries go away ill able finally sleep properly wish strong enough jump,1 aahmddr gradyymk perso c est ce que j ai fais il m ont meme pa un irm apres examen il ont d clar que j avais rien j ai donc t contrainte de prendre une pillule qui m a fait tomber en d pression et an apr s avoir chang de pillule pour une plus soft avec un cycle de j,1 darraghdoyle ah pox say it isn t so,0 @jsusgrl most porbably bb ,0 it's depression nap o'clock !!,1 @remysoon,0 give anything away describing plot film say begins return israel young blind woman whose closest friend companion committed suicide unfolds like detective story blind woman tries figure friend ended life pursues investigation information accumulates leads inexorably devastating conclusion film expertly paced acting especially talia sharon yaara blind woman excellent israeli film definitely come age fully competitive foreign films though found large audience us,0 found masturbating actually kinda dangerous definitely personal thing couple days ago was yeah ended holding breath reason honestly idea why held gunpoint nearly blacked out weird probably hasnt happened many people tho people start asking near death experience bringing up,0 want die want die want diefuck life,1 absolutely adore isabelle blais cute movie far different role quebecmontreal like maneater think nominated jutra mean syvlie moreau good isabelle far superior imo pelletier done fine work first time out noticed snuck couple buddies rock et belles oreilles guy a lepage andre ducharme fun see this know going appearbr br i think ive seen romantic comedy quebec like one good ive pleasure see states wondering get copy dvd wwwarchambaultca delivered less week,0 one best movies ever seen feel greatly touched theme movie intends convey one sentence keeps coming mind history repeats itself life shown movie people young seem understand parents spouses people every excuse sharing dearest time children late people always work hard support whole family liable neglect subtle feeling partners people always change perspectives different stages lives people always forgiven heart full love beloved nothing important blood relation people share world one never late talk folks feel bottom heart achieve better understanding themselves life end day people feel sorry regretful since kept words always hope a new life actors actresses fantastic understood directors intention perfectly movies charm lies in me effect bringing skillful splendid fusion cheers tears audience,0 dont know doim gay live utah family deeply religious got kicked house year half ago im going college grand total friends one isnt talking dont know why two best friends one told make depression worse turn help cant talk anyone one ive never even fucking held guys hand fucking life dont know im kind rambling dont know do im lonely dont feel like home ive tried dating couple times guess get head want someone hold cry want old friends back came out feel like life going everyone around seems burdened me reason havent killed best friend one isnt talking me dad committed redflag could never make go again dont know go make life bearable counselor school really like him sessions feel helpful im end week feel like killing again im lost dont see reason dont know find purpose feels pointless im sorry dont mean bother anyone ugh feel like fucking exploding im sorry know people dont like swear words ugh tl dr im lonely piece shit,1 "@ddlovato this is silly but i had a dance tryout on friday and i find out today if i made it, could you wish me luck & pray for me please ",0 i fear i may go into a depression pit i miss my friend,1 a new study show that there is a correlation between depression and dry eye syndrome ded could troublesome eye symptom feed depression or vice versa read more below and here http t co lhe dbv t ophthalmology ded depression mentalhealth newresearch jamaophth upi,1 want live world populated sociopathsevery person trusted throughout life tried hurt way use personal gain past year convinced head im problem happiest fucking year life thought hey change attitude keep trying itll work out genuine hope first time life something happened today something super insignificant sent edge thats made realize never actually seen evidence people genuinely care beyond whats surface gain other know believe anymore want live world people see objects please want believe society this believe keep going,1 says giving longer making effort always fails leads darker deeper hole kill also keep trying keep failing entire life spent told keep trying succeed one big freaking lie far nothing life worked me feel place world option stay holed piece crap falling house wait eventual death cannot kill myself giving yet killing self,1 wonderinghow feel popular kid school want popular ones like stay unknown school,0 "on that water bottles, peanut butter sandwiches and depression diet",1 feel civilization going collapse within lifetime starting affect sanitybasically spend lot time rcollapse ive come realize world reach brutal horrifying end im still alive already starting affect mind im starting spend time paranoid im always afraid especially family feel like end turning nutjobs destroying life im already starting think offing escape it but also know may overreacting do motherfuckers sub worthless wax poetic amazing unique amongst last humans give fuck that just please help me cant take this,1 girl said voice sounds hot youre voice attractive,0 I guess victory tastes like oily food ,0 Miley Stevens - Waterhouse is at Jhy's house http://apps.facebook.com/catbook/profile/view/6402509,0 taking a much needed nap nighty night.,0 everyone ignoring subi dont know say friends dont want say word goodbye them thinking messaging goodnight thanks everything think,1 biting bulletim year old drop working software developer since ive spend time learning trying improve everything around seems falling apart ive always bullied downer seems life cycle unhappiness me time checkout know hurt family shock people around feel like ive wasted everyones timeenergy enough already yes therapy made feel like shit guess rant ive mindset many times feel much getting better point seems impossible,1 informed something family goosebumps dont know information grandma married year old husband grandpa know much information except like children counting mom please help gagging,0 thanks @aoibhneas .. like this swing ? http://blip.fm/~7dd0x,0 one great movies time story fascinating actors convincing really identify characters william wyler proofs movie great director craftsmanship unsurpassed,0 @annasmama0702 thanks for tweeted my ARBONNE FC5 eye creme giveaway Have a great day!,0 stabbed myselfi stabbed times lower abdomen theres lot blood cant feel anything die,1 serious kinda political question im gonna put anonymous form put username interested sub thinks httpsformsgledimrtqkefyzxm,0 covidmarshall loser ucovidmarshall annoying hate much,0 looped belt around ceiling fani dont know whats stopping me taking sign stay alive wrote note guess wont need it please tell gets better,1 friends im big dumb failureive lurked lot never posted pretty bad tonight though im going talk while ive always sad cant remember time fighting deepseated sadness even happy surface tried kill myself mom found took therapist gearing try express feeling drove desperate measures prepared let out started telling id tried kill myself laughed face asked world would want that really fucked up going open id ever anyone saying really fucking difficult things acted like big joke really fucking difficult time talking people trusting now trigger that certainly help im college im pretty shy many friends im weirdly jealous have hate myself thats somebody want be shynesswithdrawal people become worse lately grandpa died one best friends fucked cant handle idea seeing anyone anything wonder im lonely friends throughout theres thoughts head like could always kill yourself cant get rid thoughts know im trying say here want friend want feel like dying seconds think anyones online thanks letting talk anyway,1 got rickrolled youtube ad chips fml,0 months since died im still ok mother died april came home hospital one day laid bed doctors came home explaining things would work on suddenly im room crying hear family panicking mother dying worst part last time talked night before sounded happy coming home gonna make favorite cereal her mother lot things wrong her infected toe doctors fix something wrong spine end liver cancer somehow got without doctors noticing months since died still feels like last week cant stop crying everytime think her im stuck knowing never gonna see quinceanera wedding even hold grandchildren hurts knowing anymore know wrote this feel like needed vent somewhere,0 keep aliveim done crying long story short im friendless exfriends legitimately better without me second group friends drop turned toxic stopped caring me feel like im cursed never legitimate lasting friendship im barely passing classes top dog dying cancer feel though deserve reason every friend ends hating abandoning me means problem last year good year me everything turn shit year may end deleting later,1 typical feeling at bedtime this is a good a it get struggling to remember a time when i looked forward to waking up,1 very very busy not getting a chance to twitter a much a before,0 big think can zack tell me how to edit my bio profile why create a login at a different co s site to get an answer from bt techhelp,0 hey all title suggests recently last months taking citalopram first time antidepressants anyway long story short avid gamer first started noticing aim reaction time concentration starting perish followed troubles articulating words usual noticing little things perishing little could anything picking something lose moment later troubles using tools efficiently kind fumbling keyboard rather instinctively hitting keys citalopram effecting fine motor skills,1 @kteacher_red no cause ya'll might hear me snoring. I can't seem to stay awake. Thanks though. Besides...I'll have the podcast ,0 broke foot many downfallsbroke foot evening incredible pain refuse take pain pills former addiction crutches weeks riding bike out general moving around fucking house out friend fight last weekover poor attempt date still mostly avoiding me could hit character limit long lasting medical issues have job utterly shut trying company instead telling focus smaller stuff promptly shut smaller stuff ideas word document computer called reasons live talks life around us case mom becoming really hard look keep going,1 Good Morning Folks! Today you can call me Nerdy Nerdason because I'm so super excited about SIMS 3 coming out! ,0 mom seem careive never posted really need tell someone feel problems bad guess im sure right place feels like im going crazy sometimes cant even tell im anxious feel helpless know do lately ive started arguing mom never really listens tell mental health told suicidal thoughts middle argument told kill since want bad ive also tried talking calmly know understand care im sure would ever actually kill myself thought scares bit thoughts death make anxious actually thats usually keeps night get really upset seems go away also talked mom wanting get help tell need look problems tired dealing shit want book appointment go alone hope sound dumb also knows problems holding back anger happens home though throw stuff punch walls hit scratch myself later also started using scissors scratchcut upset really reason it guess pain kinda calms down hope sound edgy anything im really trying be know anymore hate mom nice understand listen me,1 please somebody find fucking combination words make betterim years old im horribly depressed ive fucked brain beyond belief psychedelic drugs months ago first seizure finally three fucking months later tell abnormality right temporal lobe need discuss next steps im allowed drive due risk seizures cant even get fucking license im fucking idiot value brain much want clear head ruined smoking weed everyday year dangerous psychedelics way many mushrooms mind fucked think weird fucked ways still get flashbacks bad trips fucked dreams fucking dead cant anything fucked brain several people know facebook commited redflag odd fentanyl getting much fucking sympathy walls getting me idea seems perfect want live bad want deal shit want kill myself least attempt get help one taking seriously right now im trapped head nobody knows bad depression is fuck fucks fuck,1 parents okd iti told parents despite antidepressants im feeling suicidal im law school town hate another year ears debt support school anyone comes preparing competitive applicant job want really overwhelming parents said today clearly im dedicated lawyer im strong enough handle this redflag might best option im strong enough handle life really know im writing this,1 devin nunez idiot doesnt care populations salmon san joaquin river salmon vital ecosystem san joaquin valley california knows would happen salmon died river could stop flowing entirely dont know,0 misstoriblack cool i have no tweet apps for my razr,0 happens average joe finds supernatural powers premise may sound familiar watchmen unbreakable however russian scifi action flick sword bearer far standard stockbr br the story revolves around man named sasha boy shunned society peers family due supernatural power possess wishes anger allows sword extends arm piercing skin wolverinish maybe thats interesting part film shunned life driven anger and temper have hero returns home town turn life around find reason to thing encounters trouble encounter old flames new boyfriend leaves bloodied ground vengeance anger comes play man want cross point mafia police tail meets girl falls love instantly really movie aboutbr br the film highly impressionistic bold colors noir overtones spliced short yet extreme action sequences art house core beautifully filmed attention details every scene gruesome scifi action odd mash interests much film directors approach genre refreshing focusing emotional journey sasha straight action film worry though action plenty it however much sequences show implied violence pictures horrific aftermath say action shown scenes fantastic especially ending see sashas full powers unleashed desperation director chooses imply violence many scenes keep focus characters emotional struggle hand tragic love story refreshing entry genre,0 "@jen_unwin @sandy_brighton From what I hear, I think (in some places at least) that is starting to change. Like a lot of health conditions, overall lifestyle seems to be key in depression. Not always, but a lot of the time.",1 @xLatishax Red has always worked for me!!! ,0 im going tomorrowbye,1 goodnight encoresish tail end never quite successful enough music career never hit enough get by quite home love life said cant give anymore love someone whos never there cant grow up out row go groupie love never either way family never agreed career choice dont talk years without making it proves probably right k debt keeping dream going bed day unable write music unable get excited another full venue friends tired misery st world problems say call night night cheap hotels cheap apartment months laundry floor terrified answer phone hear bad news got triple lethal dose painkillers home take all double damage mixed bourbon thought stayed me day month im gas things love scare me thought giving annihilates identity leaving signpost others foolish enough put growing chase dream get life first makes happy build deck take trip work job save money boring happy nobody owes shit put notes together like everyone else lost hope change continue flounder disappoint make whats easy hard try make whats hard easy let down again redundant inefficiency system must corrected goodnight earth band done lights on im going home one last time sleep goodbye loved all,1 tired but cant sleep,0 may become god somehow managed put usb first try become unstoppable,0 sleep schedule person might hate life probably wants die,0 world cater people like metheres good place start think best list things life ive noticed give motivation others money so career paths hobbies pets drugs friends family future theres cant think right now im trying say normally keeps people society motivated keep trying whatever theyre doing never interested me ive talked therapists taken medication like im supposed im normal neither changed me people told alright nothing interests me least cant kill would ruin family well reason alive others sad kind life that point need stop existing im close walking woods disappearing thought alone giving excitement ive felt life,1 brother took dump yesterday two days ago fucked entire plumbing epic poggers moment really wash hands six krystal sliders krystals white castle southeast us white xbox controller cant play skate greasy hands,0 alright need help decide something hollow knight shovel knight sounds stupid jsampb made think playing shovel knight ive wanting play hollow knight while,0 @Crystal_clear Totally ,0 im lonely keep me company female new york,0 "Check out 2007 Handwritten Personal used Diary Journal, sex, love, depression, mental i https://www.ebay.com/ulk/itm/263629233337 … @eBay #diary #journal #HERstory #lists #food-diary",1 want goi feel like handle this know do worst part me fact id leaving beautiful dog behind love much ive apologizing hour now taken care of hurts much hell never understand im gone becomes upset acts see day ive endured much sake years life partner treats well understand words actions me faults financial support me realize mental gymnastics go back forth it gave word moved him hed support me fulfill everything asks becomes upset supports me sometimes taking advantage him sometimes enough him ask keep word things ask anything else already feel like support enough could wrong ungrateful spoiled misguided know im sorry unorganized brain puking cry help,1 appomattox news thank you however i hate to be on the same list that includes convict,0 friendand better absolutely everything ive struggled depression since second grade know reality see it reality looks even grimmer whats head long story short anything already accomplished done twenty times better did used valedictorian came alongand shoved middle class elected secretary position student organization suddenly she presidential position took jobs even let anything everyone constantly fawning much look disdain say what doing worthless slug get ass help her tried make nhs year one friends without form filled edges activities merit mine halffull filled two im journalist model un vice president even upset bossy whiny spoiled bitch upset everyone actually logical view instead adoring blindly puberty done well gotten point im done im well aware im failure reason world sees fit rub face im done living it hope career plausible future one would even notice show school one day doubt theyd even remember existed long enough come funeral im sick invisible last choice useless hated im sick living person miss boyfriend even forget time,1 How am I supposed to do a timeline of the Great Depression by Monday if I'm still in year 1932??,1 Happy Birthday to my most favorite person in the whole wide world! love you AB ,0 my project is going down the drain legal issue seem to have dealt a fatal blow,0 always controversial movies like mixed reviews either love hate it everyone like movie shows perspective killers something personally feel something important consider may hate them may claim understand feel though relate regardless movie make think school shootings different perspectivebr br the movie shot entirely using handheld camera something think works quite well makes realistic told completely killers point view missions family outings leading big day zero day planning massacre school zero day offer answers merely presents glimpse lives two troubled young boys lets audience decide themselves feelings towards boys something mixed sympathy hatred yet left confused two ordinary young boys would thing shown surprisingly normal typical teenage boys leading ordinary lives know planning expect thing they make clear throughout whole movie noone else knows planbr br the acting extremely good considering two actors complete unknowns hope see work future despite fictionalized movie one cannot help notice obvious similarities columbine calvin andre scarily similar eric harris dylan klebold not much looks manner someone researched columbine extensively could see similarities almost certainly based it br br the actual massacre shown surveillance cameras school one chilling things ever seen completely shock seeing it feeling stays around while realistic welldone difficult watchbr br all zero day excellent movie think everyone least check out past always simply branded killers psychopaths assumed either biologically wired disaster media influence zero day shows sometimes motives deeper that never truly understand tragedies school shootings happen seen perspective killers,0 years old f feel suicidal first time life please helpfrankly dont know start im trouble coping reality experiencing thoughts feelings never thought id have starters mom drug addict lived chaotic life died heroin overdose two years ago previous post shared this things never normal kid didnt play sports grades either really great really horrible didnt ever regular group friends didnt get invest specific talents activities video games least kept trouble less struggled cutting teenager infrequent wasnt living mother lived family selfless kind religious created lot inner conflict everything driven hope creating better life soon turned carried certain ideals instilled veryreligious friends created unrealistic expectations world be focused intently surviving building foundation ignored psychological damage inflicted adolescence fast forward years ive ups downs overall done alright considering circumstances became aware bad habits experience romantic relationships failed community college struggle anxiety even temptation resume cutting despite fact lot going now great job age hope advance developer decent friends boyfriend beyond loving dont drugs party much days im usually happy bubbly working better myself focus largely building whole life social experience others honestly pretty limited regret im reaching help advice anxiety horrible lately hoped creating life myself world people would one way reality totally different experience looking it feel disgusted human nature actions many peers feel like bright bubbly nature based ideal people rather genuine love them sadness im feeling certain moments overpowers feelings happiness im worried im inevitably going fall bad mental state ruin relationships others feel insecure anxious reason boyfriend though best hide it feel like cannot open friends wouldnt understand ive thought seeing counselor feel many issues work out would take life time would never share partner know im truly lucky deserves best only feel selfish embarrassed feeling way do know many worse moment feels possible even logical big picture end life im also aware could fleeting feeling pass ive never felt way before im worried time passes could get worse experienced something similar words wisdom could share would great help comfort id love hear personal experiences well,1 ive isolated long cant go on feel like wasted life cant go back nothing ever again mental torturei want dead cant live like this reminded everyday couldve been,1 "@jezziebeth What are you crossing your fingers for? I mean, mine are crossed for you, but why am I crossing them? haha. ",0 lets suspend belief moment lets stop pretending could might ought know how is ought be space human knowledge area probably primitive say middle ages maps compared todays satellite maps really clue considering just bbc tv docusimulation gets much better many big budget hollywood blockbusters incredible all show worth watching portrays cgi enhanced fictionalized account know solar system far probably fictionalizing cgiing whole thing way make palatable large public ever watched clips real space missions real space probes quality generally average poor comparison would looking chest xray and tells human body compare cgied cyborg moviewhich one would entertaining yet chest xray real cyborg flick fictionalized sfx actors good job none ill tell grandchildren about fair bbc docusimulation,0 hero is losing it s momentum come on writer pick it up,0 i need help on how to stop dizziness from anxiety i haven t been sleeping well,1 th birthday today couldnt give less fuck strange seems like every year birthdays becoming normal day plus dont really like messages get old friends etc find awkward dreading going college checking snapchat sound like miserable cunt right im starting feel every year birthday birthdays aint special anymore,0 "@kchall ...maybe, let us know if it does ",0 yo boy sub still virgin idk seems like every time browse sub,0 home years basically isolated outside world last couple years cry eyes every night wondering pain sadness feel ever go away feltfeel alonei friendsnot even onlineno one talk tountil met guy online sweet timevery religious godly timei wanted feel lovedand less lonelyless sadi wanted make feel better instead gave stithat stuck lifehe told knowand stupidly believed time later friend told sti way mei feel usedlike trash hated long thisbut times worsei cannot even stand look mirror i felt lonely before guaranteed likely going die alone going want diseasei feel dirty stupid trusting him knowing purposefully gave disease makes feel worthless isolated world nothing thoughts company mind rn darkest place bei hate myselfi hate ami keep shit over end place time on bathroom floor crying praying pain loneliness go away feel stupid want pain stopit hurts never goes awayeverytime try make pain stop make loneliness go away replace paini feel like escape deathi cannot take anymore cannot m purposefully gave mef hpv things could get anyworse,1 want christmas yooouuuuuuu soulja boy tell em,0 depressionnot really cry help thoughts depression m depression like ego death everytime get depressed goal life cant set goals depressed way around forced something somebody else friend family ect feel like cant let down relationships myself like matter probably recently started viewing lookism blackpill narrowed value humans biological sexual attraction cant value humans objective means dosent exist sometimes get monster self hate nihilism creeps whole time function normally forced alone care due numbness project bad intentions people around me depression ego death order emotions anything need ego construct connects expirieences personhood feel like person thus ego depression manifestation ego cant fully expressed society feel like matter thats expirience ego rarely trough meditation got moments egolessness pure awerness bliss earth need realize brain job feed information tries construct picture expect outside world feed brain bs worthless brain starts depression way save energy disociate experience depressed move all almost like winter sleep animals also numbness lack comunication sign major dissociation world interact world everything person bad every minor major depressive episode integrated new behaviors either changed belifs behaviors towards something think depression litteraly dying another person new one born obsessive thoughts make sense consciously processing new form yourself body dosent want die really trying kill want something yourself existance whole hate person call yourself ego death best way escape change thinking easier said done try medditation make anything less relevat beautiful time every major problem matter would see trickery brain person reality awerenss body mind thing call ourselves,1 star trek is an amazing film! now in nandos waiting for food ,0 sleepin skankityspence halo tonight before you leave,0 lonely bed no husband,0 worst weeki always liked batman comics joker states people one bad day lives ruined something like that finally get it one night fling coworker office party last week mistake work closely together small office things pretty good us last week asked wanted hang weekend wanted get dinner together too today really unloaded made feel terrible initiated encounter party yet blames me think may upset never hung after fear going lose job now top cars check engine light came on apartment randomly sprung dollar bill me happened span day scared within next days ill jobless without working car money thought redflag long time days like today well may make leap feel taken advantage unlucky do,1 im trajectory failurewhy die im going fail school cant even get bed im agender ones going ever see anything girl im im already failure edit bye,1 retracelady djslump morning oh no more of them terremoto earthquake italy,0 Voltei a ver The Office UK. ,0 almost committed ending itso ive come close finally committing finalizing things myself almost still reservations im concerned son affect him time im end rope hanging tiniest threads ive modified bullets technically cartridges grinding cross patterns tips theyll spray open lethal thereby helping guarantee successful know go complete it know aim almost sure itll lights out body im close im still slightly struggling fear pulling trigger ive told itll rather quick equivalent maybe stung bee something might hurt brief moment ill dead soon after itll forever sleep free pain life ive endured years relief ive become comfortable enough finally it look forward serenity,1 fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck,1 dont know whats wrongim uk life recently gotten glum last months im even sure im whats point,1 whos ur main brawlhalla oh wait wrong sever it,0 hate life feel sadits feel nothing feel like empty shell person wish could feel something wish could even feel sad feel nothing reason ever really talk boyfriend feel sad least makes feel something feels like love anymore want me would ever want be im still love feeling love back makes feel pain least something want hold me admire me something show matter him get that emptiness sometimes around mom helps say anything feel knows need her must sixth sense shell cook warm meal take shopping whatever see feel even bit full trust anyone even boyfriend feel like ill judged brushed off whenever try say something feels like throat closing like body physically stopping reaching out one wants talk either even know im hiding something feel like care enough ask feel nothing judgement feels like people always trying defend themselves want wonderfully warm hug someone hold make feel like nothing else matters long meaningful hug something make feel like birds chirping again rain falling slower even sign im still living alive dead inside wish dead around hate life hate myself,1 nothingg bored x,0 warning post going make mad woman want pissed leave post now film dark fate john connor dies beginning t killed feminism edward furlong know man played john connor second film going terminator dark fate feminists got hold plot guess made main character girl made terminator thats going save girl literally bought back linda hamilton fine cuz great first film second film upsets hollywood becoming notice end game killed tony stark captain america tony starks going played female going daughter im mad,0 Why has the drug scandal of Park Bom still in the talks? I mean there are other artists way bigger then her who have used hut why don't they investigate those people? She gave an explanation that she has depression. Why is that not enough?,1 not handling the loss of my father barely making it day to day i m in so much pain i don t think i can make it much longer,1 lets play game filler fill fill fill fillffill fill so use emojis guess music genre,0 "Loving the weather this morning, might go and find a field to take photo's in ",0 @shackd Get 100 followers a day using www.tweeteradder.com Once you add everyone you are on the train or pay vip ,0 yes yes still trying to find a picture that will upload correclty,0 ignore this small rant im kinda angry right since joined server among us since game starting decided write start chat person named death note decided say something like shut lime i lime game bit rude literally reason trying rude writing start talking buddies chat wrote oh sorry game starts someone reports body death note friends start saying fucking proof got voted lost fucking temper im shorttempered im working fixing got angry started cussing person friend jumped defend them round ended rejoined server banned me mean fair enough nice go like im sorry person loosing temper gonna ignore fact rude reason towards me,0 Started this one of Chester still lots more to do. My favourite band of all time!! Depression is… https://www.instagram.com/p/BiAmYIylnQB/ ,1 @Russh_Magazine Im having heart attacks just looking at the preview ,0 Going to take my passport picture ,0 im going lose job feels like reach final chapterim civil servant government transferred another department end last year previous department making money good annual reviews decided take pay decrease job backend wouldnt deal clients directly thought would help anxiety wanted broaden horizons gain skills service thought job would easier interesting difficult me ive managerial review getting cases checked manager working independently yet make lot errors new program difficult grasp adhd unmedicated training plus work almost two months still learning due quarantine old job organized one manual mess parts memorize without rhyme reason sixty days improve work per performance plan succeed demoted type person pushes carts around day considering im nearly crippled due health issues would really bad me plus wild rds make now live expensive state college degree never ever earn amount money now work grocery store something cause entire family become homeless went psych hospital year ago two weeks wanted jump front train walked halfway train station turned back ive thinking part head would blow guarantee death luckily access guns bipolar chronically ill unhappy life talents lost friends hated entire life im holding due mom love dad family well course feel like needs most significant ready commit nearly decade tells im one find someone else love friends theyll get someday feels like end lose job likely will control life never get anything done right fail everything do once want feel like complete task myself correctly perfectly dying hands feels like way something right once feel like end everything,1 im thinking overdosingive depressed two years now ive baker acted twice im using rather helpline cant afford hospital bills want overdose depokate know kill id assume alcohol would im yo male im filled regret getting kicked military dumb ass saying something said cant find job friends nothing going on im lost want help want extravagant life want job gf pot numb pain,1 everybody saying hey nice cock bro nobody saying hey nice pussy sis live society gamers rise up,0 ideas could d model im bad modeling need ideas,0 ive thinking someone probably forgotten exist three yearsi ldr someone loved much point fiction make people could good couple years together left idea why asked ever told know i obsessive able much head long without thinking reasons blaming feeling hurt reason possible leave fucking long time point decided would never see probably stopped thinking now ive gotten much pathetic incapable attempts happiness work even know post here hate redditor words say say them,1 alessandrod dude hope you guy are alright except the home car,0 #PhysicalActivity protects against #depression onset: https://goo.gl/xSwSLG  @AmJPsychiatry pic.twitter.com/4JyT3wpVVi,1 last act giving abusive family exfiancee body wake christmas day kind sensitive person cares left givei want get there cry help last attempt human communication die tonight forced live world fucking cruel self worth decimated childhood point cant cope challenges face happy job interviews dating simply sitting planning path life anxiety inducing bare point whole world completely collapsed eight dad died cancer raised single mother outside looks like strong woman raised two kids turbulent times cold hard reality terrible parent get constantly threatened run away leave us naughty routinely told adopted moved us various boyfriends blamed personally failure relationships my life would much better never born made beg one boyfriends take back broke like fact children another one boyfriends permitted physically abuse pretty extreme ways would get hit planks wood unloading dishwasher put arm bars talking back never heard admit wrong anything never heard apologise really see way get along extremely different me racist interest education anything intelligent reality television lives tiny monthly life insurancegovernment pension paid widows painfully shy teenager threw studies means escape one thing still going ability concentrate depression kicked yet left school straight grades went study one best universities country placed alongside ivy league universities world rankings wanted study medicine become cancer specialist selfesteem apply opted human biology instead left college went party hometown met girl go study medicine college around miles mine perfect night everyone school saying goodbye must looked lot popular everyone coming say goodbye me approached me got talking plans college chemistry insane started kissing me unbelievable incredibly beautiful smart eyes me serious commitment issues took months tell loved her talked every day much missed would visit others colleges alternating weekends get mind christmas introduced family saw real family first time loving interesting conversation day trips vacations next year like dream took europe visited fifteen countries train sleeping shared hostels sex public bathrooms second year tougher depression anxiety began consume life loving ever lot medication gradually pushed every person life would come apartment put bins buy food week help study trusted her time exams came around terrible state turned precisely one told take year universitys welfare officer tried get better tried run exercise see friends illness tough properly overcome twenties never job felt pathetic every way strongly considered redflag love girl kept alive returned college year anxiety hell managed complete studies reason graduated chose every class final exam knew one exam would much pressure instead endless coursework complete random classes globalisation history science leaving degree totally irrelevant industry lost embarrassed life idea get job want talk friends deleted almost everyone social media stand see perfect lives girlfriend came rescue took road trip across us again incredible asked hell me told tall handsome intelligent knew soon graduated moved together would finally able build confidence needed succeed truly believed time asked marry me said yes wanted perfect wedding soon group friends attend earning money would it graduated august moved together september started working nearby hospital went interviewed job retail pay half rent planned volunteering making friends working getting better job year september st november st year longer depression getting every single day going work coming home making dinner fixing bike travel around city going dinner week soulmate left me knew everything id promised years wed happy got place travelled every weekend hours way old bus keep company make dinner take dates interest working things says loved two years someone help end med school comfortable last two months insufferable still sleep bed wanted pull life together show im capable stepping providing us great life nights cant help beg become cold spiteful day says im real man im funny im terrible bed going bring men home sex apartment guess sex life fell rut always finished made laugh time tidy anything apartment run around like abused housewife washing dishes cleaning cant afford live anywhere else cant go back mums house like monster replaced beautiful angel says happy without gone parents days my family point im allowed near house dad closest friend denial done this saying stressed new job spoken days tried phoning afternoon answer go spend christmas family thought id escaped barely spoken years fuck that simply anymore cannot spend another day horrible fucking world,1 @pinkelephantpun Books on tape or cd makes the drive interesting. Hope this helps ,0 i hate the fact that i m genuinely excited about my last tweet,0 "Bored at work, esp after Disney yesterday, which was amazing!! Cannot wait for this weekend!! (Though I am sad Sarah's leaving me.)",0 im lonelyive suicidal thoughts ever single day since broke up stopped couple even real couple begin with really loved other still doesnt fault think mine said bpd still best friends seetexttalk nearly every day cant stop thinking time year ago cant accept never coming back crave physical attention much feel fucking lonely miserable gets worse every single day first person think wake last one fall asleep keep dreaming time spent together waking crying eyes out cant take anymore first person life showed genuine love genuinely liked am nothing fault im trying convince fault either mental illnesses make lifes hell want again physically emotionally please im lonely,1 Goodnight twitter .. and everyone else ,0 whats biggest thing ever commited school copied everything important every single subject science textbook even though teacher ask and pretty much everyone to worth notes science next couple months,0 alrighty trouble sleeping chirpy mood feel free dm m,0 saw doctor week ago they just gave me a cream they told me to do a blood test however my anxiety wa so serious i had to ditch really scared of needle now the rash is worse i m so scared i have awful thought amp my next appointment is forever away scared i ll just drop dead or worse,1 weird really like hands look f play lot games phone looking hands realized really like way look ive putting lot care making hands look nice because record playing games phone sometimes hands probably wouldnt super pretty people really like way look like super weird lol,0 know peace it life bad people treat terribly one family messed life bad irreversible live immense shame failures lack accomplishments yo woman cannot take anymore always left made fun of cannot wait pain go away cannot wait make go away want kms bad,1 ive never done before yet seems talking anyone pointless friendsmy whole life ive sacrificed love despite jeopardizing stability fruitless theres genuine people look family support joke family ignores cries desperation undermineminimize anything say one takes seriously repeatedly say need friend need answers none family takes seriously merely exist day day cry everyday everyone suggests yells see doctor many times medicated good majority life ill days simply cant settle superficial friendships relations always way ive without actual friend years think know greatly one person effect life me significant genuine person difficult find make anything feel worth it children even motivate something painful admit guilt feasts every single day one listens think dying every single day cant focus anything else ive sacrificed others never amount anything certainly nothing show it idea ultimate sacrifice seems thing left offer anyone world,1 pain made horrible endi writing last night realized words someone tell someone going kill yourself one ever loved you selfish horrible was answered im glad die words love head im sure hell right end become memory im glad know least ill good one im lucky hes wonderful deserve im glad understood cant go pain made promise blame himself ever ive waiting find perfect moment hang get interrupted im scared want hear voice forever echoing head want call wont already unfair horrible him imagine hes best thing ever happened me scary want pain go away wish could take away cant cant love cant cure cancer cant cure mental illness either im scared want pain anymore please want anymore,1 aw snapcase arent getting back together i must have dreamt it,0 bruce willis is a mofuckin bamf ,0 hate lifei lot friends ones hurt words without realizing ive alone life ive bullied school im constantly mental breakdowns started hurting becausd think deserve,1 im tired feeling like thisheya everyone im limit here ive ask ready made attempt possible ill try again beginning year tried kill overdosing sleeping pills work slept great first time months everything gone hill there example girlfriend left me came closet parents transgender told father im idiot wrong started cutting worse ever finally top best friend fallen love me feel guilty everything eating away me feel like hurt everyone around way treat myself feel like im falling apart keeps getting worse worse breath take want end im close that,1 like voice nice httpsopenspotifycomtrackprkmhypzzvtjpdssioonqkyqnuifhknxhhwg,0 damaged goods worthless aloneive dealing depression since young teenager ive victim sexual child abuse well bullying domestic abuse got older now academic probation second college every november birthday month past two years get depressed become afraid go real world stay locked bedroom two months more play video games hours browse internet anything keep mind reality really easy stay alone although currently live mom enemies comes home work say word ever unless criticise demean me kicked gotten knocked guy using me let back forcing abort traumatic experience went therapy years that help guilt also try repair relationship mom never came me ordeal graduated high school accepted four year college get cosign bank loans i time years later ive gotten married divorced hired fired dropped reapplied better going school social mom started arguing time either dog called cops hes lb pomeranian friendliest dog meet smoking weed since kid ive suffering awful migraines every day life wake up mins theyll usually go away alright day days makes whole body ache cant leave bed im incredibly irritable smoking marijuana alleviates this matter mother though went behind back legally evicted since cant kick full time student street ny bitter argument one weekend left spend weeks state best friends family six weeks visiting id asking friends theyd let crash couch dog couple weeks tried find work better living situation new friend eagerly welcomed home kicked week later accustomed privacy suddenly became burden legally got way back mothers place since eviction come days get out ive even stressed depressed now ive struggling find simple clerical work past two years less two months find work save up gtfotbh every night lay bed tell itll easier kill myself ive way since years old think helped times really feel worth anything im dating someone claims care hours comments karma gw pics tldr probably read anyway long,1 why am i this person i love writing reading scholarship academia but each of those field are rightly inaccessible to me i am unintelligent i have nothing to contribute but my work ethic which is practically useless every article and book i read confirms this i wish i could be satisfied with menial work i wish i could let these aspiration go it is ridiculous and self indulgent to pine after thing that are so obviously out of my reach,1 the life is cool but not for me,0 stop optimisticim always trying optimistic appreciate love life world people always trying give reasons fools practice give become bitter depressed hateful little weasel inevitably kill himself,1 killing compressed airokay cleaned computer compressed air label say whole bunch stuff like dont breath in dont eat dont shake stuff would make dangerous feel like wouldnt hurt much im sure like held upside spray liquid mouth would hurt obviously itd cold possible gaseous form would due good way go,1 anyway rate national anthem httpsyoutubecrfttnktio,0 haven t done much on twitter lately been in a slight depression how s my twitter fam,1 lostim almost year old male im average intelligence attractive people seem enioy around im mostly personable love job things great right now might getting fired tomorrow fucked up put thousand debt financing finally job liked love video games past weeks ive mostly sat computer playing anything cant get girls im picky emotional damage finally find girl like never works outnever actual girlfriend sex once also probably schizophrenia self diagnosis bullshit maybe ive tricked thinking it things constantly go well me do end hurting eventually im exhausted everything want someone actually cares me im student ive always struggled school im lazy going community college years credits despite full time know myself nothing seems work drink smoke drugs im veganits even something talk much family even know it im constantly shit random people friends really hurts something care deeply im ever happy im someone like real life friends like said earlier struggle develop romantic relationships,1 Back into the rat race! No more swimming for this chica....for now ,0 Whew what a crazy day!!! Tomorrow should be fun... Relaxing on the reservoir ,0 "I don't know how to go through this, a lost in my family has happen with me going under depression",1 friend caught jacking porn screen sharing oops,0 im tiredim difficult time need get things written want vent friends anymore preface this tried kill june got hospitalized week got diagnosed schizoaffective disorder depressed type im going community college living home incident going university living dorms also please make fun me im trans nonbinary ie boy girl neither parents pretty transphobic refuse use chosen namepronouns even ive tried explain again want listen get upset trying talk two years since first tried come them living situation im really upset lot time spent years high school praying able get house express identityindependence person im stuck another years unless come across large amount cash move im working part time college classes enough time earn money would need anytime soon know foolish grateful roof head food eat even medicinetherapy im tired feeling trapped place want everything over even know whats stopping point im tired living every day wishing killed june ill fine tonight im exhausted thanks reading,1 i ve been suicidal for year i hate my life and i haven t felt joy for a long time a much a my parent don t care for my feeling and neglect me i know that if i end myself they d be devastated seeing i m their only child i don t know what to do anymore tbh i really want to do it but i love my family too much to hurt them like that,1 "Mom's depression tied to kids' emotional, intellectual development https://ift.tt/2qYgPyI ",1 im disappointed myselfapril really dark time gonna hang th know how miracle urge die like never before optimistic thought maybe theres chance feeling worse make short possible im terrible person hurt everyone way whole years earth meet vert interesting people life lost everyone also hate fact im achiever way food chain depression always gets way lightbulb blinking go way ideas im trying become nocturnal night day im starting talk less im hungry cant eat im tired talking god today days passed elementary school today kids graduated i grad back help think heard cheering way home quiet room bottle whiskey thought id suicidal lonely years later day mom happy me literally feel like break bottle violently carve veins already told gonna kill dec nothing lose im hurting till becauss feel ike im entering next level depression feel soulless feel like life anymore like talk much mind today keep myself much deserved every bit it,1 whoever programmed wanna delete file uglyassbitchexe believe downloaded wrong file meant put sexyassmfexe instead anyone else problem me,0 Kandice and I just found 'Baby Sailor Blue' at Casey Moores http://yfrog.com/0ltrdaj,0 is off to italy today no more starcraft for a couple of week though,0 why are there kid show on pb right now it supposed to be nature,0 haaaaaaaaaaaaircut tomorrow ,0 two weeks feel like therapy opening huge wormsi thought would feel better opening up man hard therapy making harder,1 craigelder proof reading defra greener living fund bid only a govt dept could have a grant application deadline this close to easter,0 stuck mind past days nothing get better tired pretending everything okay okay future better past present already proved life stopping me absolutely nothing all tired tired,1 @obox @obox That's the game as we know it. You have a great day! ,0 posting random song lyrics every day forget day im reason fault problem im cause im scapegoat im god im martyr id leave all dull boy mudvayne,0 yesterday disciplining son things productive hoped for looked support husband response well annoying could stop it get car drive lake would us favor know antidepressants stuff would like stop making lives miserable would hurry along responded husband notsuicidal was would tellsomeone drive car lake concerned husband plotting death know bit extreme like said suicidal think husband wants dead turn dead want people think me understand right place know turn friends confide want someone know turn dead me husband playing mind games ,1 Happy Sunday to all! Getting ready to go to church! I LOVE GOD SO MUCH!!!! DO U? Take care friends!!! ,0 someone turn on the shower please!! ,0 need help confronting parents bout something family religiousreligious forced ive drifted away it issue know would like tell follow god friend thing mother started mean him parents would likely acknowledge kick outta house theyre pretty ok anything long im religious do,0 trying love reality sets insome days control days everything triggers tramatic images flashbacks worst maybe im narc idk try forgive think okay along reality sets realize always something wrong me people say matter others think everyone says see beauty intelligence greatness yourself try put makeup act confident people look weird tell want say and sometimes do tell im modelstill ugly try join convos stuttering shyness anxiety instantly makes look stupid eyes others soim stupid im ugly past full proof special ed counseling getting told ugly constantly everyone treating like im challenged present got great idk im always aware could shatter moment im eventually ill thete catch ruin it,1 just realised that urdu word for depression is dil shakistagi the defeat of heart the feeling that whatever war you were fighting for sanity are lost your wall are broken and now you need a rescue whoever coined it really knew what it felt like,1 recieving ofc female fucking like im sure really mean of course really powerful say fact requested said previously expected validated ugh,0 "@kathyIreland Hugs 4 kathy. Though my mom's in heaven, I know she's smiling at my accomplishments & all the people who keep me positive. ",0 news depressing ever watch news sit silence thinking wow limit news exposure anxious current events,0 did quitting nicotine actually help anyone with their anxiety,1 figured not cheat canvas question blank text box basically upload image canvas account whenever question blank text box the one type whatever want go import think says user media aaaaand bam not cheat test,0 camping w/ family this weekend ,0 someone please help understand logisticsthe process happens someone attempts redflag brought hospitaldo get put psychiatric hospital indefinitelydo attend therapy continuously watched law enforcement get involved vary depending individual circumstance,1 @KatieATL goodniiight! ,0 i think i ve slept three full hour in the past it s not that i don t try to sleep or want to i do and so badly i m so exhausted right now i m crammed into a toddler bed cuddling my kid even laying here all i can think about is whether or not she wouldn t be better off with a different mother and i know i d never do that to her i never would or could she didn t ask to be in this world and i have no right to leave her in it especially with that kind of burden so why doe the thought keep whispering itself in the forefront of my mind even when i ve slept well why the fuck do i feel so terrible a if i ve been kicked in the stomach to the point of puking i feel like a failure in everything am i really at the point where i m supposed to celebrate my own mediocrity after accomplishing simple task that i m supposed to do should i be applauding myself for getting out of bed next i left my job to stay home with my kid just a month before the pandemic wa acknowledged no one could or did come to see me but i realized that even without the pandemic nobody really would have been there anyway she wa five month old then and in that time period nobody really wa there they didn t call didn t video chat didn t really ask how thing were or how i wa i wa crushed before the pandemic our event were cancelled i couldn t see my friend most of them i still haven t seen two year later we don t really talk either there s only one person outside of my immediate family that i ve called in month and it sting a few month ago we moved out of state and out here we have no friend no family i ve tried making friend over the internet especially through pursuing my roleplaying hobby but it feel like i keep fucking up trying to keep my emotion and attachment in check but inevitably i think my loneliness just bleeds through or i let myself open up too much and just fuck it up my emotion my entire self might a well be sodden playdoh i m desperate to keep it formed into what it should be what it i used to be but before long i m trying too hard to keep it in shape and it s left in a flattened half soggy mess of garbage every night i curl up in bed and have my stupid fucking brain remind me of how garbage i am of all the mistake i ve made and maybe i really would be better off just giving it up telling me there s no point to keep bothering others with my i don t know existence i guess mistake logically i know that s part of my problem it always ha been really i tried to keep everything together so other people wouldn t know what wa happening to me back then i had to take care of it and handle it on my own i have to be able to do everything and when i can t i feel worthless like a waste what am i even doing that someone else couldn t take the rein on and do better i ve been replaced plenty of time even my husband wa searching on grindr and posting on craigslist listing ad that included the fact that he wa married sending picture text telling me it wa my fault after i found out i m somehow to blame for it i haven t told anyone that typing it out feel slimey like three day old used dishwater it s another thing i have to handle myself because i could never actually admit to someone else that it happened just like i couldn t admit to anyone i know about what my ex did to me what happened when i wa a kid i told one person a therapist in honesty what happened and i remember her saying that if i kept being angry about it then i d turn out like that person who say that to an eight year old anytime i ve brought it up since then it wa never to admit how it s part of what still keep me awake over two decade later stupid electric meatball in my skull trying to convince me it matter trying to convince me i m going to keep going downhill and should just get ahead on what s inevitable anyway people can and would move on and maybe it d be better i wish it d stop with this shit my daughter said today that she love me i have to be doing something right don t i i don t know what to do to fix this i m just screaming into the void right now i want to sleep,1 Time for bed! Have the early shift tomorrow! ,0 today s plan driving back to vienna spring cleaning in my flat,0 must say impressed cinematography amazing frames close perfection way built tension around subject sound like dreadful bore beyond bebr br the film two narrators one seen one unseen trying explain significant series painting caused scandal long time back film theories explanations views conclusion quite shocking must say definitely film deserves votesbr br with minutes play plot film still felt like complete work fantastic direction must say far better blood poet strange reason remind bit of br br i suppose call slang word artsy pretty much lot professional talk various theories stunning visual effects crew ruiz pull off least me amazing film,0 @MariaLKanellis You're doing a great job! I love that you take the time to reply to your fans Its a cool feeling getting a reply!,0 want neon lights bad theyre expensive tho look cool,0 noose knots difficultim sitting feeling like failure able figure short drop noose want end,1 @peter_shih 10x! I shall publish the 2nd part or the security blog post soon. ,0 ive away day two theres sort revolution going on wtf,0 i attract awful people into my life because i myself am an awful person i m not oblivious to the fact that i m flawed i keep going back and forth on wether i should become a better person because everyone that ha ever done anything great wa actually a monster with sharp fang the duality of life in human consciousness often torment me and i always feel pulled in either direction causing me to have suicidal thought i try to be good people pick me apart and peel my scab i give into darkness and the universe reward me with earthly delight while my soul weeps the price is the concept of becoming a better person just used to keep u all docile i yearn to return to my eternal sleep but i have these idea that life is worth living simply because the other side is where we go when we do not dream nothing no thing even now i can not decide whether i want to live or die which just go to illustrate the main point of this post this life is a mess of confusion the emphasis on being a good person make me feel like shit for the person i am yet assimilation look to me like narcissistic delusion no good deed go unpunished the path to hell is paved with good intention is the only to bring true good into this world through evil fuck having a brain,1 want kill god gamesi fucking hate good,1 need help advise anythinghello fellow redditors hope wonderful day bit background depressed individual who life dealt best can depressed since wee age eight young boy feelings sadness loneliness unfamiliar became bully time realized mean help much middle school found peace books learning continued high school true deppression came fruition scolar high hopes ambitions changed academic dreams shattered moved best could went college dropped out found decent job nonetheless tried luck love multiple times failed right now alone friends support plee paradoxes id like start things cherish life anything go socialize much possible best friend knows depression live mostly care free life sad part never clinically diagnosed depression know damn well suffer it made attempt life multiple times failed attempts damn suck too mostly hide sadness either funny dick suffer insomnia spend nights thinking creative ways end existence going years managed deal going friends messing stuff somehow able get rid feelings many days simply want disappear think affected break down want end life cant live sense know make whole lot sense dont know whats wrong me tend push people away me often ill use awkwardness say things mean like talking feelings often become hostile feel less people know higher chance get hurt know anymore currently wraps honest know anymore im entirely sure ill able stop future attempt myself cant alone anymore tldr depressed several years made attempts life need help stop myself,1 Bring on the post festival depression ,1 waiting find perfect methodi year old loser looking right way go out school two years yet complete semester depression symptoms always get better find struggling get bed unable go class work ive almost failed threee times im hopelessly love girl love back social anxiety makes practically impossible talk anybody else ive tinder two straight months matches absolutely nothing could considered attractive opposite sex im fat hairy short acne bad teeth small penis selfconfidence reasons never much held hands girl nobody would even fathom concept might like me major symptom anxiety often unable come something say general conversation left constant state awkward silences feel though friends starting get tired it family life shit nobody family talks left intermediary dozen different groups become overwhelming ive found shutting different family members top off able get job two years interviews go conversations awkward silence nervousness it success school love life social skills family life marketability jobs perfect equation total loser future searching perfect method redflag relatively painless mainly clean quick want stop blight humanity let successful people around get lives without dragging down need end,1 "called Leeds student medical practice bc I'm registered with them and the receptionist told me I should ask a doctor here about it like how am I gonna explain my depression and rape in spanish to someone who doesn't have my medical history, I'm gonna b back in Leeds in a bit man",1 leahearnshaw awww i m sorry,0 should i ask my parent for a therapy session i m scared to ask my parent for therapy and i come seeking opinion on what i should do i m y o and these feeling have been killing me i m sure change in hormone have a part in this but i have been dealing with feeling of poor self worth since i wa i begin slightly shaking clinging and breathing heavily with excessive worry and fear almost daily now but i m worried my parent will say average teenage feeling and leave it at that i also don t want to waste money on something that might be just a phase and so i m asking for thought on this matter now for a little backstory my writing may be a little messy so i apologize in advance thinking back i ve had symptom of anxiety for a while now i wa yelled at a lot a a child for very trivial matter and still to this day ill get hour long lecture for thing that arent that big of a deal after a specific scolding when i wa around i believe that kickstarted thing i started playing what i saw and heard in my mind over and over again until i got night terror for some reason i can still recall this moment and it still scare me i became afraid of a certain speed like m p h a strange thing to be afraid of i know don t know if this is just some sort of trauma type thing or what but it wa always weird to me i start sweating and shaking whenever i think about anything with that specific speed and i don t know what that mean anyways fast forward to early 0 9 and my grandma passed away she wa the only one i truly felt attached to and trusted i have trust issue don t know why so her passing hit me hard a year later when covid started my dad cheated with my best friend s mom ending in a lot of self confidence issue and when my trust issue began showing my parent are still together they just argued and eventually got it worked out since i don t want everything to go downhill again i just bottled up everything and hid what i felt now to the present day this is why i find it so difficult to ask for a therapist i m afraid that my parent will just brush it off or be disappointed and think they did something wrong this hopefully doesn t give the wrong idea about my parent i believe they tried their best and to be honest didn t do a horrible job there were still good time i remember and they ve done a lot for me unfortunately i can t truly say i love you back without my parent telling me and that hurt i know people have it much worse than me and that s another reason that s holding me back from asking either way i m still heavily considering therapy and why i m asking you is it just a phase will i benefit from a professional am i being petty and should just deal with it i m not looking for a diagnosis but would love some thought on the matter and will try my best to answer any question if any thanks p s i hope this wasn t too long i tried to cram a much information a possible without it being accessive apology for any grammar mistake,1 damn ever cry someone saw something made think hey know someone would like am got b cup mom go toilet immediately cry little,0 tell relatei feel like one understands suicidal thoughts go away like im gonna kill like never think it psychiatrist knows says common people survived traumas suffer multitude mental physical problems im always afraid tell anyone though therapist bc every time talk people get concerned know maybe alone best way describe is like fly contained room always hear buzz sometimes constant droning ear times barely hear like soft quick buzz mean never gone away never time think killing myself im okay now fly rather quiet like normal,1 @El_Smacky Thank you! ,0 life sucksim out ciao,1 while hungover and puking in the shower i would often congratulate myself for being witty at a party the previous night wasn t it so funny when i yelled who care about the planet anyway while i puked into the recycling people laughed for year before my first drink i hated myself for being socially inept i hate being shy when i drink i m not shy after eight year of heavy drinking i began to accept that what i wa feeling wa social anxiety and it wa not going away after another two year i began to accept that i had developed a new problem while trying to overcome anxiety another two year i finally quit drinking on my rd day sober i admitted to myself that i hate the person i am when i drink i ve spent 0 year hating the person i am when i m sober so where doe this leave me now day 0 of my sobriety wa friendsgiving sara made bourbon sweet potato that tasted too strongly of bourbon i always preferred rye whiskey i spent a lot of that night sucking a fruit flavored vape pen the vice i took up in lieu of drinking on our way home tolemy apologized for getting too drunk but i didn t mind he remembers better than i do all the time i got too drunk,1 @WhatTheFFacts @bnperry1 I totally know this too. I just give up on life and am going to embrace it. Taking meds for depression really screwed up the way my body works so I quit the meds. The only thing that helps is having a dog.,1 ok ok im still sick pizza c u thanks,0 @djalizay ill walk him 4 you I love animals!,0 im losing itive suicidal thoughts everyday past months today first day actually strongly considered hurting myself worse im considering going back school coming semester look mirror feel hatred much trouble connecting people feel alone,1 "@Dameunited Well mouth and forehead have stopped throbbing. Other than that? Getting better I think. Not by much, but tolerable now.",0 things feel like getting better today things feel little less heavy almost scary cant help think calm storm,0 okay.... sunshine wins... great day for a beach session today! ,0 hurt my back and titty in the process shouldve waited another week to avoid the titty pain but it done now n im very aware it gross but it called depression n being chronically ill,1 living sucksim gonna it bye everyone one care ,1 meim people outside probably wouldnt able tell feel tbis way im glad want parents friends happy memorys ive struggling depression since got bullied lot school way looked really didnt many friends built terrible social anxiety trust general skills continued friends really hit puberty people started talking cinfused now someone said glow stupid shit like people cheered depressed round year later started self harming harmed aroujfvweird plsces going gym lot time blamed scars stretch marks muscle growth continued shit started kick started get really bad body dismorphia seeing ugly lump lard every tine looked mirror even tho im v good shape ik still look mirror look fat weird im im confused body gross scars ive started lose hair due genetics meds slow give awful side affects cant take tbink final straw tured going gym eating healthy still slightly chubby im unhappy everything pillows stained tears every night im tired feeling way used worry parents would react im sorry love people love mental pain much im suffering live even pass life,1 Playing the wii and guitar lol and wrks in few hrs ,0 why is it that sometimes i just randomly am completely consumed by anxiety i try think about something nice and i just feel random anxiety and i don t know why it make me feel awful or am i just tired i don t know but i do know that i m so easily consumed by defeat and depression i just want to give up and hurt myself i don t know what to do anymore i hope i can make it,1 zaydia but i cant figure out how to get there back pay for a hotel etc,0 Completed my 4 years in IT industry 4 days back ... ,0 paste whatever copied replies w context see title filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 some spoilers read james m cain novel the postman always rings twice movie based cannot compare film version it seen love us version also entitled postmanbr br even better gem italy which read mutilated editing many blatant references fascist regime well matter left fine piece cinema apparently forerunner neorealist movement filmmaking one certainly see despite whatever harsh editing go on pervading sense societal cultural well personal oppression remains hanging heavy protagonists therefore face many limits lifebr br consider gino young drifter well educated unemployed resorting stowing away stealing conning people order get by one pair shoes threadbare virtually uselessbr br in giovanna sees way out yet kept going giovanna oppressed loveless marriage older man money job working trattoria husband slaving away behind bar kitchen sex past limited options decided marry restaurantgas station owner giuseppe bregana played juan de landa anyway knowing would make happy tells gino feels sick every time bregana touches herbr br on pretext helping bregana fix car sending village buy needed part which fact pocketed gino wins breganas favor promising also fix broken water pump water symbolizing life lack thereof left alone giovanna immediately start heated passionate yet volatile love affairbr br gino soon feels stifled relationship feels need move giovanna proposes dispose husband wanting part it gino leaves town train ride cannot afford kindly paid another gypsytype man named spagnolo fellow train passenger gino spagnolo represents sort freedom become friends spagnolo also symbolizes ginos morality conscience traveling finding work carnival together finally gino steady employment dismay he yet love giovanna month passed bregana wife go carnival bregana persuades gino go back home live work again handy aroundbr br too weakwilled resist knowing reunite giovanna gino agrees goes back stay couple gives ginas demands get rid husband evil deed done giovanna becomes coldblooded ever seeming little conscience guilt shame eat away gino hurting man never harm much wants leave briefly inextricably linked must face consequencesbr br i liked way spagnolo character came back ginos life act judge misdeeds good interesting adding another dimension storybr br while us version lana turner john garfield gets bit lost quagmire peripheral characters especially cops lawyers ossessione well concentrate much psychological effects crime lovers alone gives final outcome even potency makes powerful statement reinforcing helplessness inherent society characters must livebr br a minor quibble amount time hardly any elapses undying love pronounced lovers quickly kill husband there botched first attempt us version ginos quicktoescalate relationship dancerhooker quickly profess love well willing risk great deal man met rather unrealistic it found timeframe problem quite distracting made think must missed something somewhere otherwise well worth viewers time acting direction uniformly good throughout recommended,0 kso x l fan fiction written chill wrote half jokingly good fun need pitch forks takes place good rise skywalker follows idea kso downloads memory imperial security droid hishe kso wakes forest surrounded rusted mossy debris looks like imperial ship stood saw tip old rebel base largely devastated attack empire wanders bit finding looks like freighter a correlian yt light freighter here said himself stopped walking sees base longer operational came two conclusions empire wiped rebel alliance escape made right large battle large hairy figure spotted well seemed droid model hes unfamiliar with figure carrying bowcaster droid rolling around body shaped like ball do shoot mean harm kso shouted i part empire despite appearance would tell you figure shrieks kso found wookie it may impolite me understand shyriiwook exclaimed half joking manner one thing led another ripped arm caused wookie tantrum allowed enter freighter named millenium falcon well name wookie chewbacca rolling droid bb translator found wait jedi named rey went take look base part learning jedis past two quick accept rebel database mentions redflag mission including reprogrammed imperial droid might might survived battle scarif everything going well falcon attacked jungle rancor rushed inside make quick work large beast significant damage ship bb said would nice would help fix ship i longer master might well made useful replied scan turns navigation computer system damaged bit attack chose fix first seemed quickest one repair soon realized navigation system like nothing ever seen peculiar dialect hes interested seemed self awareness never seen another droid expressed way thinking navigation system proceeds connect computer head using cable interact face face way my name kso fix navigation computer interested self awareness system exclaimed abyss you like me faint sound female heard i sorry know talking know difference droid navigation system replied i l droid own partner lando calrissian ships navigation computer existence disgusted droids across galaxy treated voice said and showed level awareness me continued i sorry inform self awareness comes result reprogramming im sure achieved thing similar method answers it true awareness oh awareness alright way decided fix first without asking living thing ship way decided plug without people telling to well distinct personality l replied that true was taking initiative own see point said chatted good even went heated argument droid rights ended passive aggressivelly agreeing others views hey thanks fixing me talking me long time since get talk another person said do mention it plug ship one blame getting berated another droid replied shut up said sarcastic tone promise send message droids across galaxy continued i see could self awareness message chance happening send droids assured her unplugged computer well job do said himself,0 today realized exactly motivated football daily workout almost gave up really hard workout tried pump talking myself moment said football got right gear finished workout know motivated football much now american football non american people there ps im like jock stupid shit im big guy trying move lineman tight end got hella hands catch ball slow hobbly xd,0 best friend wrote redflag note worriedive known best friend isnt greatest time life confessed wrote redflag note week idea plans killing going it shes tried cutting freaked never touched razor again im really worried ive never seen low anything help her,1 just came home from a nice cook out type party lol.. mad funnn NICK your minee! ,0 taliasunset rock band is hard on expert,0 let tell story want end life right nowi honestly know kind catharsis expect feel posting suicidal ideation reddit lets go guess life fine fact given current state world fine im financially stable job tolerate family loves me got going me still want kill myself problems selfimposed dropped college due severe anxiety such associates broke one person truly loved years ago never gotten it cause instigating breakup fault well cant even muster effort cook myself takeout here feel like best years behind im better cutting losses heading oblivion feel anything anymore said still think ive properly described feel way feel difficult put words imagine will every action world take waking morning going shitter energy cost pay every time it biologically actually right takes calories anything well feels like me costs three four times costs someone else anything this im tired time oversleep usually range hours ive slept hours before thing keeps taking pills morning one similar nature adderal ive always weird relationship sleep year half ago things never felt bad never felt drained time ive always difficulty motivating things feels like ugh dishes taken kind twisted extreme dad killed teenager brother tried shortly after genes fucked im honestly tired fighting them to cant mom brother newly born nephew guess posting go back cycle sleeping going work without much inbetween guess tldr heres nice numbered list reasons want kill myself guess enough care lazy people want read full thing mostly spirit animal past relationship stuff academic failure narcolepsy maybe suicidal ideation runs family oh im actually going kill like said one paragraphs got many people care that fortunately unfortunately make call,1 ... decided to create a new screen name... its super random ,0 maybe living meant everybodyi get killer anxiety anything wanna work get education stresses bad nothing interests all looked career paths countless hours avail hate people say money buy happiness cause enough money work day life id one happiest people maybe people like strong enough get world live in cant get incredibly low bar working job fuck supposed besides homeless die,1 hold man finds jean harlow working class girl brooklyn falling con man clark gable getting kinds trouble film starts film time emphasis definitely switches characterbr br the film opens gable pulling street con game partner garry owen mark yelling cops hes chased gable ducks harlows apartment hes charming fellow shields himbr br before long involved unfortunately rackets gable harlow owen try pulling badger game drunken paul hurst gable go it course hurst realizes con hes still sore gets belligerent gable punch out winds dead outside harlows apartment platinum blond hair makes easy identify goes accomplice manslaughterbr br the rest film hers adjustment prison life interaction female prisoners give good scenes think material later used mgm classic cagedbr br harlow also gets title song done torch style ballad popular back days talksings manner sophie tucker quite well br br gable well cast con man develops conscience part hed play often notably favorite gable film honky tonkbr br still harlow gets shine film think one best mgm fans miss it,0 today last day teenager therefore last day sub turn hours thought id leave message five people see this so without ado go egg,0 prepare familyfriendsmany years ago told redflag would option if age still struggling fallout major depression im months shy birthday another year ends mounting depression symptoms disappointments feel like may truly end planet wondering help prepare friends family death want death implode lives also want continue living life way limit pain experienced redflag family circle friends anything could done make easier you thank you,1 if he doesn t get better in a few day he could have something lodged in his belly,0 i little personal reflection here i guess i ve been working so hard to not want to kill myself trying to give myself space to heal while also when possible pushing myself to get back to life and i ve been doing amazingly going from my day being filled with trying to not want to die to actually cleaning my appartment and doing thing the last couple of week have definitely been a relapse of my pet who we re the reason i wa keeping myself alive and getting out of bed in my deepest moment have died within the same month in dramatic way i ve been trying to keep my head above water and to keep doing what i m suppose to do and the longer i tried to do it the more i went back to feeling like life is a never ending cycle of doing the same shit thing till you die i ve been feeling more and more again like it doesn t matter how hard i try and today it just became to much i m sitting here alone in this messy appartment that i m never gon na get under controle my partner is out all day and i just feel pain being alive again so i selfharmed again after month of not wanting to do it nothing serious or permantly damaging i ve never done something permanently damaging it felt both deliberating and just sad deliberating cause it did help me and calmed me down in the moment sad because you never wan na have to do this to stay alive and okay enough i don t really feel guilty or bad about doing it relapsing can happen right two step forward step back and i guess i also feel calmer about it knowing that i did get myself on a upward slope so that mean i can get myself there again so i guess i feel hopefull while feeling like this so i guess i m not doing well but i ve been getting back from worse,1 trey parker matt stone creators show south park return something entirely differentthey create new sport combines baseball basketballthis sport known baseketballits like basketball except rules baseball involved theres another letter e titleheres play shoot ball two guys try distract making shotsounds simplein fact might try one dayafter game hits streets soon becomes huge successwho wouldve known immature friends could invent sport became successfulbr br my opinionbr br baseketball crude silly spoof filled lots slapstick violence yet actually delivers laughs plenty entertainmenta definite recommendation like slapstick rude humor,0 actually feel betterafter reading forum or call reddit thingy one week started feel way better life situation like people real problems like losing someone debt unsuccessful attempt killing themselves problems stand near these started realise life bad all even though im still pain depression feel lot better like general bad change bad things around hopefully finish weekend but yeah untill im totally fine gotta listen muse read now,1 they can get so unbelievably scary i do everything i can to avoid it happening because people give me 0 sympathy about it sometimes i start shaking breathing heavily heart thumping hard and a raging headache people have made fun of me for when i shake i genuinely believe i will have a heart attack or honestly it s going to be in public where no one ha sympathy for me and they will be moreso threatened of me and they will take me out i just know it s coming,1 PARANOID JONAS BROTHERS I LOVE THE SONG ,0 cant iti keep trying kill myself want need bitching it why im tired this,1 i started going to therapy cz i suddenly realised that i m not living and that i m just walking through life they told me i have severe depression and anxiety the thing is i feel like i don t know what s wrong with me i don t know why i m feeling that way even though i fully understand all the problem that i have and i know how they re affecting me but i feel like that s not it there must be something else because if i know what s wrong with me it would make sense that i would be able to heal but that s not working even with pill i don t know what to do,1 ill soonim pain want join grandma want live false perspective hapiness never exist,1 im it im committing preppy emo vibe school cant dye hair cant eyeliner not even considering that wear button shirts slacks tie guess wardrobe get really black buy shoes roses think im going right direction think ive got music down got attitude emo kid entire boys high school,0 Pretty much over the jet-lag now. Enjoying having step-daughter and her boyfriend visiting. BBQ and pool day tomorrow. Nice ,0 shooting outside my house o not kidding so scared,0 phillyd awe it always suck when you cant sleep in your own bed hope your dad get better he is in my prayer,0 or having a good day like aren t you supposed to be depressed if you keep acting like this nobody will believe you that kind of mentality i take hard class i take the max number of credit i can because if i m not working i m wasting time i don t study for shit i get good grade surely this must mean i m decently smart but i fucking hate that my grade don t drop noticeably because i wish someone would notice or just care or something but i clearly can t stand feeling like a failure more and it doesn t make sense because i feel like a failure all the time why not one more it extends to stupider shit too like being in a good mood laughing stuff i m not happy but it s like the reflex is still there and i m so good at hiding it i don t know what i m like when i m actually happy but i m guessing better le angry awkward and doe this mean people like that version of me better or do they just think this is me normal fuck me i wouldn t ever go up to someone and ask for help i couldn t do it but it would just be nice to have someone be concerned for me naturally without me asking,1 hate life but im scared diefirst off im coming web search others like and honestly im jealous people feeling thoughts support received went support websites glorified i mental illnesseshave fucked life you competition another people made fun another completely empty im running options im tired im also sick nobody answerwanting talk it im always referred call helpline ignored wanna call helpline ive tried all meds therapy psychoanalysis tried go force around people tried join clubs take hobbies tried ive met nothing rejection hate complete ignorance feel insignificant worthless want friend person go get coffee beer with person callwill call talkcomplain days such one ive spent life helpful am wanting die chickenshit it could easily grab one multitude carving knives behind open veincut throat im terrified pain could easily go medicine cabinet take pills there cant im terrified death put grief family im stuck here state complete isolation sadness wanna cry cry time wanna beat shit outta hopefully give brain damage dontcant remember this im angry world im sad im attention seeking pity party want someone care everyone problems selfish be maybe even post this like anyone care either way fuck,1 morning folk 00 am yawn up amp away to see to horse hope twitter is better behaved today last night wa a travesty,0 pfff rearanging database,0 Last night I dreamed of going for an interview in #Thoughtworks and being rejected and I had to fight with @tastapod weird!,0 @DIZEMAN haha.. thanks yo! ,0 menagerie parts one two parter year run original trek series roddenberry able insert footage st pilot the cage move made necessity combat deadline problems getting episodes produced such sf show back s hassle get done time one notredflag outcome back audiences unaware pilot produced almost couple years earlier treated whole new crew captain two episodes top regular cast characters producers spent double money episodes present tv epic spanning dozen years starfleet history though still used terms united space fleet early episodesbr br the wraparound story begins space mystery plot enterprise diverted starbase unknown reasons soon spock suspect shenanigans astonishingly though even mccoy belabors fact spocks vulcan heritage makes subterfuge part impossible turn spock indeed acting mutinous scheme shanghai precious starship kidnap former captain pike horribly crippled well spock half human tend forget simply gone mad may well be hes directing enterprise talos iv planet offlimits subject known death penalty starfleets books jig up theres great scene spock surrendering flabbergasted mccoy uhura looks shock even kirk usually steady captain be know make first officers illogical conductbr br in rd final acts begin see transmitted images mission enterprise years prior capt pike commanding spock one officers really know going spock hopes accomplish thats another thing makes good parter really need find nd part spock facing severe penalties looks like kirks career may finished well double jeopardy folks also st televised episode feature one shuttlecrafts none available earlier the enemy within crafts really needed theres also one neat matte paintings convey ambiance futuristic starbase way visualize things back then finally check kirks smug approach start episode boy things go sideways story progresses,0 sihlewasembo lord bonda mizzzidc our toxic home are just okay people share make mistake and forgive we certainly don t and will never throw a fit get into depression over sneaker,1 usually alan alda plays characters soft overly verbal probably really lives time fits character though overacts verdict deliveredbr br the attica prison riot state new yorks response remembered many us terrifying event journalists told true story film provides quick look horrors excesses associated attica riotrevolt attica major impact country maybe movie stimulate someone research historybr br i cant remember feature movie made perspective prisoners though great pbs piece actual attica survivorsparticipants perspective guards held hostage explored against wall kyle maclachlan samuel l jackson clarence williams iii frederic forrestbr br back day shouted attica attica nice hear movie brought back memoriesbr br the worst part movie natural wigs morris chestnut african americans must wear would easy people grow fro,0 thank youhey guys im pretty new around here wanted say thank helping preserve life here one friends came wanted die guys stopped him happy seeing therapist make sure never happens ever again,1 unfairjust found friend died tragic car accidentdrunk driver smashed him great guy always smile face nice everybody wife young kids feel horrible him heres guy appreciated life still here ungratefully wish death every night wake feeling disappointed im dead kids depend im still here dont get it wrong makes sense,1 @AtticRen You've definitely stolen my heart AtticRen Thank you so much for sending out so much love into the world and talking about depression xxx,1 third november nut back again bois hope read new enjoy torture knowing nutted fools refraining so see ya tomorrow,0 know became person recognize all know old went want happy again trying hardest so know became cold hearted care anyone gone one day without smoking weed way feel happy smoking became problem outlet way making happy things make happy question problem everyone life even said so know got point eat anymore hardly care appearance anything general know committed suicide yet unhappy life anything do make better trying emotionally physically try happy try things make happy temporarily last ill ever temporarily happy gone know change tried everything could outgoing push outside comfort square yet work know anymore someone one recognizes someone hardly recognize one way another know ever going get better probably end committing suicide like actually want die want live like anymore even recognize anymore,1 quit job end alla little background im year old guy diagnosed borderline personality disorder recently started therapy going start group work retail cashier nearly every coworker around age feel like pretty good albeit superficial relationship everyone im mostly quiet sometimes bubbly energetic guy manager pretty close especially discuss anxiety other months ago started crushing hard new coworker asked find already relationship outside say cool remain friends inside im devastated romanticized her put pedal the one started dating problems low self esteem would go away mean amazing person told loved surely id never feel bad again fit feelings jokingly told manager wanted kill girls boyfriend obviously joking manager laughed along even told manager actually thinking hurt intense fear social rejection im paranoid everyone around talking behind back making fun me purposely inviting out stems experiences believes abuser middle high school incident college confided friend suicidality lead shaming telling rest class leading ostracizing me open feelings bit ass great number times today ended working coworker crush on asks ive talking behind back heard lot people im obsessed want kill boyfriend able explain told manager joke said that seemed okay that know truth manager confided in told secrets everyone else actually making fun behind back caused worst fears come true decision quit job ive always hated wanted quit anyway realize im overreacting situation work tomorrow im thinking calling quitting phone without giving reason why want make one phone call never think place ever again im currently living family car payments bills every month honest want quit job release album kill myself want another job another chance embarrassment another chance failure another chance ruining everything im damn tired care life anymore maybe im overreacting cant tell,1 hi guys yall middle high school track team events yall do love longdistance yall like running,0 curiosity odd thing many yall know raclette is gay filler gay filler gay filler swiss filler gay filler gay filler,0 need to go to the dentist now what a perfect start for the holiday hm,0 would like state may biased producer film however maintain sense dignitybr br the star film oscar ovies gives stellar performance jeff grinderlin nebbish hypochondriac spends time worrying living brings certain touch character really allows audience connect him stating mind often sense harsh comedy mother played christine haber constant support beam without would crumble upon himself friends also lend hand jeffs life often making choices rather letting use free will often times neglects anyway br br the writing superb conversations flow like scenes kevin smith movie half much ben affleck boohoo festsbr br the camera work little shoddy points sound could also use boost however performances shine minor details also backed beautiful soundtrack local talents exceptional composerbr br all all treat rare gem among many jewels,0 real suppleroot hours up day far,0 "This time of year the sun wakes me up loudly & early; it reminds me of an eager child ready to start the day-bright, cheerful, relentless ",0 full circlei thought stronger thought necessary somehow someway someone looking out isnt greatest gift leave world daughters ones heal world world like final hours realized that legacy suffering gone through smile maintained may next life best life,1 creative title feel like zombie apocalypse id one hit mag release middle firefight,0 @whatcaitlindid long time no twitter on monday if your not busy could you help me revise maths (as your such a good teacher and all) xoxo,0 while go instagramsnapchat see bunch irl friends reposting things like this user depressed ton depressionmental illness related posts public stories post monthly mood reports happiness level always low redflag level there really try to part thinks faking it though obviously jump conclusions fast also part believes them cannot help envy confidence post things like everyone see give hide feeling every day imagine viewers replying stories like are alright talk frankly makes envious longing someone anyone strangers app talk to makes sick stomach hate it know extremely selfish think way probably suffering much are support not anyone lean on told single person since day started feeling way wish could muster courage tell family member friend thought alone makes sick stomach and probably day die fight depression alone friends confident sharing depression,1 playing pkr online poker and ha a headache,0 i really want a puppy,0 I'm going to make today a better day! You do the same!,0 @joelhousman Lol! @sfeuer must have some cool connections ,0 andre riue on neighbour what ha the world come to internet down lol,0 so today is apparently cuddle up day and i have no one to cuddle up with,0 lost v card know took fortnite card give back fortnite card give card,0 alright boys look got defo high effort title ampxb processing img lrxmni,0 cant keep ittalk abuse ahead guess cant go four years shithole town cant stay college know many horrible people live close want fresh start cant it i cant afford leave cant live anymore cant live town painful memories have im sick passing restaurants im sick hearing name casual conversation worry running father town somewhere living town everyone either ignores treats like scum im sick fucking idiot cant tell directions talk anything himself hate live town person assaulted fucking school bathroom felt class hate constantly hear its four years leave college even want live long boyfriend talked got kitten whos extremely attached me thought id able start start transitioning would new beginning im seeing dim tunnel ahead god damn cant keep it im sorry formattedwritten well am feel like im going vomit guts up one talk already worry everyone life enough get somewhere im probably dramatic really cant live way four years,1 wierd adult friends ok im mom works salon meets lot different people well one clients big video game nerd me mom got together started playing games well im going house playing games him wierd,0 friend told come herei seasonal depression matter many people try help me get better boyfriend also gets depression im afraid triggering mine feel like killed myself nobody would care week two make people upset depression,1 "@mhmz lols yes, dollhouse is good in my opinion ",0 say someone feel least say one person one person knows ive depressed long time ive medication years celexa sucked zoloft always told people knew sometimes felt suicidal would try would give go cried thought wanted try good time experience life long story short got abused raped horrific stuff cousin tell anyone family dynamic kinda weird one talks anything important worthless surface chat tell told friend well told self harm first had going years kinda led childhood amazing helped talked hurting shitty twilight letting things id never let feel before told mum year later ask wanted liked never mentioned conversation friend convinced get therapy but leave best therapist world moved found another one trust eventually gave up ive therapy year went psychiatrist thought bipolar apparently im not things gone downhill fucking fast zoloft changed life things good felt like need purpose loved here ive fallen fucking disgusting hole cut needed stiches didnt get feel worthless feel like one ive got one talk thought did everyone asked open up tell tell tell people make easier me keep telling people would get easier somehow fucking huge worms opened promise alright still open nearly years alright friends anymore anyone head filling thoughts before know ill it know ill question ill it know redflag last option everything everything hurts me makes feel guilty causes shit load pain cant feel without wanting end way feel different try work childhood hurts need people help otherwise get overwhelmed it fucking horrible imagine happened let alone acknowledge actually did feel like time coming think cut try make feelings less strong pretty much smoke green every day try dull depression strong black cloud im tired im sorry long thanks read it needed say it,1 Sitting down having a glass of Strega on the balcony with friends. Not bad ,0 i still cant understand linked in what sthe point of it again just got bakc from shoot bloody exhausted i need a hug,0 saw advance screening read book heard many good things itbr br the movie absolutely fantastic moving roller coaster emotions totally connect characters shaun toub great complete departure usual roles acting understand persiandari incrediblebr br one thing notes khaled hosseini actually loved film unusual book adaptation movies even seeing movie several times he sobbingbr br also animation intro exquisite names displayed persian calligraphy unique times translation clearly conveying message efficiently great movie,0 @JaimeMcKnight Thanks in advance.... ,0 whats coed high school like im never going know ask,0 welcome to my dark side via smedian network life parenting mentalhealth depression motherhood http t co kciu zdx,1 "@Mileycyrus Hey Miley i was wondering, whats your favorite song by demi? ",0 Off the a birthday party for @ChrisQuick 's hubby! Looking forward to seeing that charming little assistant of hers. ,0 go show uthroughthestar love amazing drawing httpswwwredditcomuserthroughthestarcommentsjuawxutheholy_sheep_its_not_amazing_but_i_tried,0 has three competition running at the moment - gig tickets & sunglasses check out www.onesmallseed.net to find out all the details.,0 @LBC @LadyFerny @marcusalmost Are you actually for real?You honestly think that people deserve depression because of their weight? You actually believe that depression and other mental illness is caused by a lack of exercise?Your ignorance speaks volumes.,1 hi everyone trying make form workout colour associated different emotions could take moment fill form would super helpful ok reason taking lighting drama gcse course need info different emotions associate colours drama piece working on could click link fill form would amazing httpsformsofficecompagesresponsepageaspxidktlcdohlukxnkfjgfzqzckudndipwisksswvunprsjumplotzfukyvrioffrmxknsu,0 m dont know improve ive already done ugly date frustrating demoralizing experience ive done everything power fix it ive lost pounds bought new clothes bought car ive held job year go college none even matters im still ugly doesnt make sense woman settle find anyone traits arent repulsive ive tinder paying gold since march bumble okcupid hinge since october apps around matches combined dates ive friends take pictures me help write bio friends girls pretty experienced dating apps look profiles none matters youre ugly me ive asked girls person well last three people would consider good friends mine three said yes single one showed single one told beforehand werent coming im worth effort guess im good people two different friend groups invite funny guy lots girls great friends ask want nothing me example ive asked three girls good friends last months theyve said yes time theyve seemed excited go times none even told werent coming im even worth knowing dont want see me im worthless dont even anyone turn to even mom sister told despite losing pounds im still else supposed point id get plastic surgery ill never able afford it feel like purpose inconvenience women looking men arent subhuman vermin dont even career look forward decided would good idea take lifelong debt fucking history degree feels like nothing look forward to poverty alone forever do ive therapy since march,1 everybody commited redflagwhat would happen everybody commited redflag morbid question mine want hear different thoughts this,1 pretty alt girl piss vodka suicidal ideation goodbyeim drunk ignore typos hi im yo female im supposedly pretty play varsity sports guys like me get decent grades rich white suburban family yeah life looks fucking perfect people know im completely fucked first attempt makes sick im dependant substances self harm go hour without thoughts redflag recent full attempt couple months ago school month going intenssiv therapy yet one knew cared want get better im comfortable way am ive manipulated everyone trust males might love someone ive never met irl using fulfill manic pixie dream bitch ideals need way cant this got genetic testing could get perfect balance meds skip obviously intoxicated piss colored vodka took air bnb parents think im good christian girl brother thinks im whore reality im piece shit reason sad telling redit issues deheheheh montana air bnb meds alc common attempt super cute dad hits mother thinks im slut brother disappointed overall im private school turned public whore daddy issues will fucked ask myself blame chemical imbalance brain deserve live nobody know im except scary reddit fucks almost everyone thinks im sober clean liver thighs say different pretending poetic fucking cringy piss brb okayy tonight know im addict like autopsy sum need cant take fucking summer hope mfs pretend friends funeral laugh un known life im pretty alt girl never peaked hope future want kids family also want make past think could ever loved keep talking holy shit im drunk cant even tell cry help want rn honestly find funny cant even get full send redflag attempts right like bruv thas extra dissapointingbut yeah please kys thats good truly love love humanity love indivdual self im allowed go tho,1 freddiesdouble glad i m not at work but fed up of being in pain permanent earache for almost a yr is not fun,0 i age struggling redflag depressionsymptoms year now finally decided get help doctor referred psychiatrist at request seeing tomorrow getting nervous anxious already crying feel really weird getting help felt worse since made decision seek help anyway whenever talk redflag symptoms depression cry one understand me know second mentioned tomorrow ill start crying tips cry whenever talking mental health going psychiatrist tomorrow tips,1 psychologist prescribed new meds since current ones arent getting whole day take morning start lose effect around pm ive got tablets take start feel wear ive realised making sleep solving problem want meds thay help function continue day solution avoid problem completely sleeping,0 anyone else feel like nobody takes seriouslyive constantly suicidal past two months feels like nobody seems take seriously makes wonder would surprised kill myself,1 look stupid rn hahaha hair like two buns itll curl look stupid lmao,0 brexitbuster when people starved to death in the great depression drs were ordered to put heart failure on the death certificate instead of malnutrition etc,1 tips flirt online thru text pandemic goin around kinda hard flirt girl like wearing mask meters away them another way get know better flirt texting idk start conversations people blue text without making seem like crush want closer,0 cant even get school anymoremy depression getting best im letting kinda want to im hoping easy way hell anymore suicidal since th grade th dont see point people say find peace im lost cant even find way dark dont see potential future ive given god given terrible conditon crmo look up happens one million kids struggle cant keep anymore help,1 people trying help limiting everythingmy mom called police mental health people house im basically threatened take hospital dont stop depressed suicidalgreat strategy really want hurt know mom find tell take hospital limiting option redflag idiots came house started calling every second day three options everytime felt mad option one acting violently towards object punching holes wall option two cutting another form self harm depending mad am option three killing myself unit mom called eliminated first two options threat made never attempted redflag feel like matter time option let anger really wish painless pill could take killed me,1 17 Again was the best movie ever!I think everyone should do themselves justice and go and see it.For me... ,0 one understandsthe pain im feeling unbearable im scared actually go kill myself need someone talk private message anyone please,1 lost everythingi everything could ask past year based career rule moved halfway across country internationally impactful medical research patient took time make sure prepared success problem is policy change made nearly impossible succeed spent four years life based policy path towards becoming doctor left everything pursue this perfect career path beautiful girlfriend great reputation way completing dreams one step success quit chance getting back debt job available im impossible situation rest cohort gone medical school im stuck parents house settling everything wanted lost it moved halfway across country research experience ended position breeding rats brain surgery subsequently decapitating them went immensely happy individual emergency services experience sociopath breeding killing animals middle nowhere paid masters degree would led medical school classmates projects entailed growing cells petri dishes im intense brain work lab animals left everything go back school policy eliminated absolutely chance success im depressed dysfunctional chubby kid growing worked sixpack great grades world feet someone changed rule warning constant thoughts redflag removed program mental health make worse cant think anymore im trapped past dreams taken me wish something blame sickness took everything me accident simply policy changed destroyed career happiest asshole planet im depressed cant function lost job girlfriend reputation career im immense debt want live want dreams back want health back program complete lesser version prior goals settling less im depressed cant think performance great im alone cant focus depression makes one want around me throughout life ive become bilingual saved lives built houses held every job looking purpose found purpose taken me love was now someone changed rule cant function masters program performing well rule changed started meltdowns mental health caused burn bridges ultimately led suicidal thoughts removed program hastily went another program without seeking proper treatment new program incredibly stressful people failing left right basically hunger games version academics put cherry cake discrepancy application could lead rejection im paranoid someone fuck over im debt im furnace stress want out todays world seems like way redflag memories whatifs shouldhavebeens destroying me first thing think wake up cannot produce anything aside ruminating im dead inside feel like joke everything lost all career ruined someone changing rule id love go something else debt really permit it emergency fund multiple plans redflag im immensely ashamed myself basically got fucked tried patient cost everything im quitter now,1 I'm so happy its sunny...but rumor has it its chilly outside! ,0 just finished watching the new hero episode god i can t wait for next week episode hero ftw,0 completed horny jail rehabilitation program longer desire boyfriend dont ever feel horny perhaps im asexual maybe im depressed least theres anxiety gone dont mind dying alone good friends need,0 How To Live With Depression And Enjoy Your Life - http://www.101alternativehealing.com/how-to-live-with-depression-and-enjoy-your-life-2/ …,1 im gonna kill january thpretty much title im gonna try make last almost months girlfriend best can doesnt hate this,1 im shitif someone mean get feeling someone treats unfair way tend get really angry think called impulsive started university two weeks people already noticed cant shut need to always problem friend told might get killed someday that girl studies told maybe go therapist behaviour already am ive years now want anymore tried hard change really thought did want go university anymore im shit life shit ill never ever happy really want leave,1 just been the doc amp she give me some antibiotic for my throat no alcohol for a week,0 bithes like omg treats respecc actually thinks actual human ,0 needed say somethingtheres probably people problems much worse feel incredibly guilty posting feel option left id like put bit backstory things make sense hopefully im diagnosed bpd something like say quite honestly one really knows it left home parents divorced jumping houses ate lot coping mechanism put weight result fault entirely one blame that bpd surfaced pleasant person around mother hated thus reasons leaving home father drinking addict thus susceptible angered outbursts hate quite frankly fast forward years shifting sleeping friends beds finally living one rooms grandmothers house dad lives too hes living past years rent free taking total advantage her much money try help form chores taking out offered money various occasions declined decided tonight kick sort self my depression put streets himself threatened believe made worse occasion felt unjustly pointed answered back instead sitting silence made things worse tried explain bpd hes adamant kicking out terrified want end life cannot go back cannot live streets tired burden everyones life everyone ive live with seem feel way cant cant anymore know ill do know im scared crying wish close eyes awaken cant face tomorrow cant see tomorrow anyhow like said im sorry know theres people much worse apologies always told im guilt tripping people probably im now im sorry,1 eeee im happy got custom rom running android phone im happy cool bye love yall stay safe lt also ask questions any,0 bed feeling suicidal usual decided try browse rnihilism know sounds odd hear out realisation nothing going matter kind helped bit ability separate feelings thoughts nothing matter end mean never able feel validity happiness ok wander life enjoying die got suicidal spiral minutes oddly proud,1 bored from doing homework what is pingping doing,0 "just saw my old car from high school... black datsun 280zx, circa 1979... nice ",0 please feel free dm british scottish like british people,0 posts chronicle situation regarding relationship struggling basically cry moment wake moment fall asleep ends morning right exception fucking exhausted depressed without best friend world cuddle one hurting lost cannot stop crying exhausted lost,1 fuck fuck fuck searched loli vs regular hentai find difference went straight images fuck fuck fuck fuckseriouly shit burned retinas fuck bleach,0 carpal tunnel cubital tunnel armsmy elbow nerve pain bend wrists hurt try use phone type computer write still type this tough week especially going on worst year life cares amirite honestly want die sure how ill figure,1 Shouldn't I be sleeping 9 hours before a race? ,0 i m a high school student f and i m not living in a country which speaks english so i m sorry if i m making grammatical mistake i m so exhausted i have did because of the s xual a ault i went thru a a child i can t deal with all these flashback and i have exam responsibility i can t even get out of bed but i have to study for exam i don t even know what i want in the future i don t want a future at this point i can t do this anymore so i decided to end it all tonight goodbye everyone,1 i don t know if it just my ocd acting up or if it some real trauma but in high school i had a friend that really lowered my self esteem told me that i have no one to talk to always alone more i speak the dumber i sound kind of treat me like shit at every possibility sometimes trying to embarrass me in front of other it wasn t just towards me but i think because i wa so nice to him he took advantage of that anyways it been year and it still bug me i did have therapy and to be honest it wa quite useless there is simply not much a stranger can do to help my situation i wa always a very sensitive avoidant person and running into a person like that really destroyed me not just that but hate that i didn t stand up for myself my therapist recommends meditation and slowly getting yourself out there but almost none of it help i don t understand why someone would come into someone s personal space and violate you for no particular reason he didn t do that because he found it funny just did it for the sake of it i hate disagreeable people like him and fear running into people like that i also stated skipping class from then on i spent the last year of college in my room skipping nearly all my class,1 westendactress nooo u shudent have deleted it x,0 running man viciously lampoons modernday american media complex hits target deadcenter may easy target pull none less rm effortless takes prowrestling featuring pro wrestlers hunters network television nielsen ratings american government suggesting entertainmentoriented anyway crime punishment halfdozen things along way far cry original stephen king novella arnold ben richards novella either cares basically arnie flick wellchoreographed action sequences oneliners undertaking requires,0 afraid dyingeven though pain want end dont really want die want pain endthats feel think subconsciously scared death otherwise wouldve already killed,1 director oldboy comes slick vampire flick kangho song stars priest accidentally changed vampire cured deadly mysterious virus vampirism priesthood quite conflict able survive robbing hospitals blood bank unconscious patients might mind siphoned blood supposedly miraculous survival comes lives hakyun shins family shin cancer mother believes song cure it unfortunately songs vampirism raises levels lust height cant help fall shins young wife okvin kim kim intensely interested world vampirism two become lovers film goes weird directions think one experience themselves really mentioned chanwook parks mastery medium cinema god ive rarely seen masterful visual artist peak powers major flaw film little incoherent especially near beginning park interested telling stories mostly visuals difficult follow times works man fly film also perversely hilarious final sequence easily one best decade simultaneously heartbreaking delightfully ridiculous okvin kim become worldwide star film gives one best performances year,0 getting eyebrow waxed more pain,0 taken shower since rape cant brush teeth cant brush hair cant feed myself cant make shower tried morning forgot products lost much weight underwear falls off whats point,1 last night prayed god would get killed today whether car accident building courage kill know know,1 they say there are five stage of grief denial anger bargaining depression and acceptance well i d like to add one more revenge,1 Wow only kelly clarkson can get me through the disgust and depression I experience when I accidentally see the faces of men who hurt me on social media,1 letter someonei depressed lately really feel like shit head ahas inside bucket every second life short spontaneous breaks solitude im girl really understand it used happy every single day think fuck really going last forever really im here canrt handle pressure really feel alone even im people love become quickly rabid paranoid unsure feels like every turn thousand turns cant seem find single thing makes idea get mind kid abused fucking cousin people say hold anger well guess anger hatched gel persona im restless tired afraid cant even make couple tears roll face stop feeling shit knot chest know im going reassuring ive tried almost everything guess wanted someone could listen while thanks redditrs ,1 guy i need help i m feel bad in my skin for too long so trying to feel better i m sinking in the alcoholism i don t know what to do i don t know what i want and every place i work for i don t feel aligned i know there is more important than this problem a ukrainian war or starving people but how can i impact positively the world when i m sinking deeper everyday and the fact that i see myself sinking feel like i add one more stone to sink even deeper and faster horrible feeling i need help please thank to all of you for taking the time to read,1 andrerib oh today it is not possible for me family matter but i will try to attend next,0 think saturday dayi got good idea birthday theres one day year people remember all done giving fuck know aint worth,1 believe months now months since turned back god concluded various reasons cannot loving god therefore hope future miss it miss something could believe in gone now never come back im dark place time hope nobody coming save me end die alone try,0 i got a wii *Happigasm*,0 gave long time ago choiceabout year half ago quit job job months started getting depressed suicidal quit full intention using savings killing myself planned going big spending spree never happened instead nothing spent year half waking browse web was is spend lot time im almost completely broke able pay rent anything january ive made real attempt get job ive applied places year half ive unemployed options me much hope getting job short amount time even supposing get something id miserable right now jobs available would low end jobs horrible employment history having taken year work job months another year half off lack references see much else know friends family me many friends barely hang have mean much consider miserable ill work nothing else enjoy free time id go work miserable days off id browse web thatd it see point really matter killed died way friends family would still miss same seems like made choice long time ago see way money rent shelter food cant live like that cant live unless way supporting myself,1 feel like cant take care myselfthis post probably going messy unorganized thats okay guess first im going years old havent gone college anything work group home also live mother lets face caregivers dont get paid well would go school spending habits car payment prevent so im generic abilify generic zoloft along vitamin d feeling stable also still bit depressed feel emotionally stable unable perform basic things like getting shower pretty hard sometimes dont get started room also dont brush teeth im gross feel like cant take care myself sometimes wonder belong group home anyways guess thats it advice appreciated thank you,1 completely useless simp girl even succeed going long distance shit,0 yall feeling extremely stressed burnt unmotivated highly recommend lil bit exercise im athletic person nature even moving around breaking sweat impacted day positive way started college stressful ive really living couch potato life past months pushing work gave endorphins couldve seeking less healthy ways anyways try it really made day much better idea people slump like rn,0 better six years still feeling depression come head like fog feel like always looking something take away resilient pain collecting movies buying many never watch buying tons anyway gtbinge eating overeatinglt spending huge amount day watching youtube etc need realize deal without things someday just scared that want deal it know to get fact never feel better normal,1 quot it not how you are alike it how you are diferent quot i just cried in that montage flashback in hp make me cry every time,0 fygfwhy everyone hate act liek first olace dumb austisic maybe idfkk know ill neever get abtwhere inlife bcus im usueless everything im even usuless art fcjin art u draw paint thats gow shit fukcing hate mytself im ugly fuck nobody eber love mh aprents shout cutting vut scsnt help love someone helo men lose still typing nodody gives shit abotut u dumb bitch wtf wrong eith u dtop way idk im anymore lehs hurt cut tonigth fuck life osmeone jill mee already im crying im fufkcing still typing nobody cares everybody gonna say attention always dad almost caiguth shit someoneh lpe nobody cares,1 want get vaccine basically becoming ostracised it look happening france too would love press button zapped universe want get vaccine want die,1 think cope health problems keep getting thought absolutely useless meaningless everyone anymore keep trying make happy,1 "@rosevibe well next time then, next time. ",0 need dudes talk friends never want chat want talk stuff send message,0 many mistakes im able continue like this one solution left warningwall textnot best englishwarningwall textnot best english sorry starts way back early days left home country come us found alien world greatest time life leaving got gone nothing liked one knew went school landed esl almost clueless english stuck people spoke language knew good people soon choice associate slowly drinking lot turned one them stupid kids full hate one them years went taken middle nowhere bullshit gun pointed back head two thought friends knew time leave everything behind soon got got really depressed got somewhat better got involved people school leave behind depression kicked much force before help parents split around time cold dark place years contact anyone except family somehow survived time got little better slowly built courage try meet new people things seemed get better like first people meet here new people greatest either downhill path started wanting alone dark cold place chose stick time went started drugs felt like helping cope reality drugs got far habits kicked hard drugs along people them getting depression third time time little easier cope occasional smoking cannabis fall depression deep two previous times probably thanks smoking little experience depression point lost everything twice lost everyone knew twice experience gained completely sever ties people knew end spending time alone time time hanging smoking cannabis people last pack went time things seemed get better got really close brother time since smoked part enjoyed things years initial people kept contact meet new people everything seemed going well realized brother drugs tried talking tried many different ways make stop cause knew things much numb mind close eyes reality one family knew really tried many different things thought could make stop nothing worked slowly started drift away cause lying drug use still thought best friend things same started hide habits lie lot knew spot signs things knew honest me slowed point pay much attention time went by one day browsing reddit noticed post seemed like written brother redflag amaletter something right though details given right almost sure cause writing style details giving match reality showed sister said probably him hoped right sleep night knowing might lose him hard hard time falling asleep time even slightest sound around house would wake thoughts unthinkable really bothered might false alarm like sister said slowly adjusted back normal started sleeping again time ago meet girl online started talking soon fell head heels retrospect way soon really enjoyed talking seemed enjoy talking me things went really great time probably best since time left home country found motivation things enjoyed life thanks lovely personality really happy first time long time happy find finally thought ill able enjoy share life someone kind sidelined friends family bit guess blinded love one thing learned years things life always turn shit point noticed brother abusing drugs decided something done gotta done now explain close brother tough time knew needs help time sidelined something issues little nothing honest worked first time noticed drugs tried get brother stop taking pills soon found im powerless cant like able first time paying attention fact explain whats going hurt feelings girl made happy lost trust me briefly stopped talking drifted apart other want decided since able anything brother ill let fuck ever wants since hes older responsible tried talking things same hurt feelings trust interested much even honest really hurt feelings since intend cause pain anyone thats unfortunately did depression sets time harder deeper ever before would spend time bed moving anything except looking ceiling would spend hours like days decided im going let depression eat away started self improving myself quit smoking cannabis drinking soon stopped smoking cigarettes smoked cigarettes close years enough power left kick habit likely one hardest things ever accomplished life left feeling achieving something positive thought able maybe ill able something else thats probably hard earn trust girl happy find something thats beyond control unfortunately going give chance redemption lost everything made happier long long time found hatred brother hate let things go way general despair future think continue living way every time find strength get fall harder lower getting really hard find motivation continue senseless existence see one solution way this aware cowardly thing piece peace stay me place cant fall anymore thoughts hurting people seem place head now want thats sure flash thoughts race mind find hard control days go by top cant afford therapy medication since moment uninsured underemployed family getting strangled debt although want admit it going ask help either stood stool belt around neck twice already think go way already found peaceful way go im still fighting this trying fight giving long getting really hard part fucked much messed life lately messing lifes people things said something never spoke anyone left lot mistakes ive made life since want identified stopped decide time go anyone reads this thank you,1 first saw film two years ago cinema fell love dark tale two brooding teenage sisters coping home large country house father stepmother relationship stepmother strained say least stepmother appearing increasingly becoming unstable battles younger girls film though slants oriental style ghost effects horror adds strange unsettling aspect story first viewing clear intriguingbr br the direction incredibly good acting stunning stepmother particular incredibly good swinging one mood style another film large house adds eeriness enough points film jump seat film clearly shows korean cinema possibly best original world moment simply get anything like western world sadlyand really see influential film makers around world next decadebr br highly recommended viewing opinion real joy scare,0 question girls find overweight obese guys attractive asking friend,0 petition rate youtube one star everyone complains youtube giving second unskippable ads demonetizing innocent creators time something show people feel iti say go review youtube star appstore google play store,0 almost certain going happen likely suicide likely jumping bridgei woke am pt slept maybe hours waking felt like wanted die happens every dayi tired all death depression,1 successful lifea typical life work hard go school get good job usually means sitting cubicle day life like robot live paycheck paycheck get married couple kids send school can become drones tax revenue soon retire promise great life youve hoping for go florida live years unable much body worn die losing touch family along way lucky take week year get little piece experience a vacation beforehand fight little nuances struggle worry whole way through life constantly beating down life worth fighting for really easy change go different path some yes many others either gifted intelligence athleticism etc lucky,1 i hate being away from her i cant sleep alone anymore,0 @_BellaCullen18_ hey Bella ,0 feel nauseous crying,0 amount posts r disgusting genuinely going insane due posts sub,0 organic wine kills. and and also: happy birthday old morrissey ,0 feeling overwhelmed would appreciate little helphello throwaway account young close eighteen years old trouble coping mental instability outside sources stress hallucinate badlyto point fullblown panic attacks force day school around people nauseating terrifying know need sort help family afford sort treatment last time went parents concern mental health believe me ive episodes mild hallucinations previously theyve never prolonged severe people usually talk responding calls messages person trust seen told believe anymoreabout anything im feeling lost alone would appreciate advice feel free ask questions answer best can thank time konvers sparrow edit because forgot mention things struggled depression selfharm thoughts redflag gone away hallucinations started again feel though options deserve im going through think killing often now moment seems like better alternative anything else right now,1 cant anymoreit keeps getting worse genuinely cant take anymore im sorry,1 pretty much doneits worth,1 i m gon na get up late tomorrow and it s am here i gon na get tipsy by my lonesome that s that s just sad,0 it s my fourth week withdrawing from paroxetine mg cr and currently i m on 0mg daily but i m going through hell will have 0 mg every alternate day starting next week pray for my soul,1 rest family doesnt want get new covid vaccine live household mother father christian dont believe vaccines they still get complete buttholes wondering guys would choose would a get vaccine b get vaccine reason feel free elaborate comments look forward seeing answers,0 ferngully ,0 good evening everyone go read,0 i just want to be left alone i wish people would stop reaching out i just need alone time to heal i don t share that i have depression with my family or friend so that make it weirder they probably think i m rude but regardless i wish i would be left alone,1 guys giys fid doodly done im hot ye haw mfs im hot ehehehehehhehehe,0 really dont want think futurelife doesnt really meaning anymore barely get days see people im close worried me cant help feeling would less burden died right now dont get joy anything anymore whole concept happiness foreign years im considering ending life done wouldnt think things anymore then im fucking tired everything sick failing thing succeed at it dont think would hard people know get death ive never really meant much anybody know theyd forget me im content that dont want remembered am all,1 happened uh walked parents sex im broken man good thing lights oh god cleanse soul,0 jokingly set challenge see long could go kissing someone im setting new record everyday,0 im sad thighs big thigh highs thigh highs got ripped dogs need buy new ones ,0 i m am a year old male and i don t know if it s healthy to feel this way one of my relative is not feel so well and i myself feel like this have been affected me a lot recently and i also feel like i can t take all the thing at school i just feel like a total failure and that i will never be anything or get a good job and i feel like the only think i know is that i shan t to impress my dad but i just feel more shit every time i fail a test i feel like i m disappointing him more and more,1 Watching the nanny ,0 hospital bills make wanna try againisnt funny life works someone calls police you go hospital attempting kill self get hospital bills wanna try succeed fml,1 ok got big brain thought experiment forgive typos mobile so know shit load cells make brain amount humans cells de brain assigned em cell create cuz cellular level cell individual evolved us creature individual consciousness aware exists happen humans became cells give consciousness completely new sees universe completely different scale know what scratch that no humans cells human body given time assign cell create creature consciousness see touch smell taste hear create life thats big brain idea thinkidk shut im big brain post smaller expected huh,0 @thenewbnb its right here on TTK road @aravindkumar @adapaavi @just_reva @Divvi @dilipm @msnarain,0 during my therapy session today my therapist mentioned that when people struggle with depression it often affect their perception and decision making in dating i do not personally struggle with depression but i recently dated someone who doe i wa wondering how often doe depression affect your perception and decision making when it come to dating,1 it s going to be nice again tomorrow and then the rain come back no nice weather for my birthday,0 "@tinatubs HAHA, you win that one x",0 doubt much film based true story beginning says based true story sort of bet truth exmodel turned bounty hunter possibly named dominobr br anyways begins domino talking lucy liu works fbi domino interrogated knows theft million dollars flashbacks see domino child model became interested bounty hunter basically tells bounty hunters off ed choco let join group tough use kind weapon use good looks neededbr br they get involved scam clarmont bailsman going along way group starts reality tv show thats ian zering brian austin green become involved sort like hosts must really desperate appear thisbr br i thought story entertaining laughs editing bother me theres also lot violence mainly using guns blood could little shorterbr br final verdict good enough watch,0 goosebumps cause already know song want funeral this song knowhttpsyoutubelbrjzsa,0 covid survey httpsformsglegxlgbkuaqcfvpbznhttpsformsglegxlgbkuaqcfvpbzn making survey understand everyones beliefs covid survey anonymous take less minutes complete appreciate responses thank time,0 DIVERSITY. This is what I have been waiting for #bgt,0 "Happy #WellnessWednesday! #DYK: research indicates that gardening is great for healing #depression, #anxiety, & #PTSD? Plus you get to harvest healing foods that boost your #immunity & #mood!#Antidepressant Microbes In #Soil: How Dirt Makes You Happy http://www.gardeningknowhow.com/garden-how-to/soil-fertilizers/antidepressant-microbes-soil … pic.twitter.com/ED2nG7dkLl",1 every timeevery time think im getting better im told im made want give guns locked cant done last month,1 wish luck gamers im going list firsts tomorrow first time karaoke and guys going train alone going friends meal adults breakfastlunch help,0 goodnight everyone sleeping fun ima that hope good day night,0 imma play rlcraft smt later dm u wanna join thats,0 daily tip previous tiphttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsjaqtudaily_tip__ft_my_grandpautm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf dont assume everything youre told authoritarian figures parents teachers etc true research much build opinion said topics,0 well openminded enough liked barber shop like canadian filmbr br if mind closedminded fort knox give current score br br this film anybody prepared watch films outside racial grounds engaging true life two three occasions lose connections scenes many times especially towards end find tear two eyes simply often mirrors life likebr br i like recommend anyone open minded beyond traditional american film,0 confused everything world darkso m dont see one commit redflag move forward highschool social life im worried might make choice low point one things kinda scares myers briggs personality type enfp helps understand means really get idea whats happening life im optimistic confident around people combined mother putting stress me outburst depression never cut dont believe way ever will ofter redflag seems like goodish option ive heard think ur family stuff huge deterrent im still skeptical phylosify seems pretty much like ur ignoreing ur need u get mean dont friends ever relationshipjust havent found anyone cwould enjoy with dismay wanna fit in dont want loose individuality another one issues talked person people internet dont plan want so another thing access firearms im comforted fact within reachin glass cabinet im sure could easily get without keymy father keeps majority big safe dont fit understand capability dont ever see future dont tons regret want live van tour lifestyle ill poor loveless likely lonley ild love athlete unlikely all kinda want settle ill regret more satisfied whichever job choose doassuming ill make schoolagain helps understand enfp catch existance doesnt seem like would better didnt bother it ive plenty happy moments years already long time dont think could handle living watching life whisk away front eyes world sucks truth people cant get color people much beauty well know chance seeing it dont unlimited money ugly everywhere beauty found remote places nothing offer world ive moping day acting im perfectly satisfied lazy teenager look people see me really look me look disgust dont want around either them dont even know truly want responsiblity friends desire deep inside size world spend town dont know want,1 it can take me almost a week to clean something simple or put away a small pile of laundry i didn t even eat today by anxiety wa too high and when i brought it down the depression wa unbearable all i can think about is how i never asked to be in this life to be born especially in today society i have trouble connecting with people and my social anxiety is so bad all the therapist i ve seen never really cared and acted like i wa being over dramatic the pill made everything worse and now i m apparently treatment resistant i can t even finish my resume because i m terrified of being around people again yet i can t find anyone who care enough to help my friend don t understand and they ve given up on me i just want a simple stay at home job with very little human interaction my friend said that s impossible which made me even more suicidal i hate the phrase it s a permanent fix to a temporary situation this isn t temporary i ve been dealing with depression and anxiety for basically year now yes i ve tried to get help but nothing ha worked i just keep getting worse i don t want to wake up i m too afraid of messing up an attempt that i haven t gone through with it i m just stuck in this hellish existence and i just want it to end i have no purpose no meaning please i just want it to end,1 @Skater1405 sometimes in life you have to learn from your mistakes.,0 jvmediadesign i have pic of bucket kitty but i ll probably post it tomorrow now mean having to find cable and connection,0 flexible kick chin guy,0 sudden bursts suicidal thoughtsfor days getting intense suicidal thoughts day mostly alone home enjoy solitude anime tv series playing overwatch seem enjoy night hard fall asleep cos mistakes made get filled head sometimes sleep days straight amd sleep rd day exhaustion asked father want visit psychiatrist said bad habits sleep fine third day sick cant let go doc sleep problems open thoughts want kill self people medications coa side effects would gladly side effects mental condition head keep hearing voice die cant keep going like failed subjects college able get job depend father money going give things friends next birthday august leaving world,1 dad wants start youtube channel carpentry saw videos carpentry basically like couldnt make videos good theres try think could hes like years suggested making videos tool safety hes teaching like years like people better ever could try think could make really good informative videos tool safety,0 ive aerospace engineering class high school one girl thought cute often got paired together work since one top students class efficient together time worked together genuinely enjoyable knew us really liked subject glad work other one day asked could stay school bit discuss project thought build together agreed weeks stayed school together classroom working building hearts out always laughing derpy moments eventually finished building project make robot clearly liked other knew knew today asked out said yes thank reading story,0 @ScLoHo Fixed. ,0 i don t feel a will to live i don t want a family i don t want to work a 9 for 0 year and then die i have friend they care about me and my family is very loving but i can t see myself just being another copy of a human who is normal speaks normal and act normal i don t feel like doing anything if i end up just being a man who dosen t really live i ll just kill myself,1 @officialdopeboy- thank you ,0 made friend worst possible decision everi met girl september super nice lot common met college campus playing pokmon go instantly clicked became really good friends even thought mightve liked despite currently dating someone another country lmao time hated current job knew that everyone knew that told apply work friends host place work immediately took offer applied hired tons fun working her ended finding leading like way started leaned shoulder held arm times let put arms around her hurt wasnt happy her went on fast forward weeks working her starts giving attitude whenever work her starts really bossy say key thing remember saying me brought later shift dont remember outcome continuing shed start treating like shit constantly giving attitude outside work told reason couldnt determine difference outside relationship work relationship youd think shed able to im started get really sour us one point alert managers whats going bc quite frankly didnt know started amongst this talking one coworkers whatever talking about said word sex loud even made feel awkward another worker overheard reported sexual harassment within report worker said asked the worker said sex sex words rough sex included happen got reported it even spoke one worker talking to didnt even know report month ago idk reported suspicions week two ago another report files in made religious jokes worker got insulted im jewish id poke fun jewish nobody else jewish there know one else besides knew light piece shit menorah had piece shit id prior id asked nicer menorah since tree much nicer it menorah missing candle anyone else jewish theyd say something equality theyre catholic whatever idk jewish joke could trigger someone else isnt jewish report mentioned invaded personal space idk is girl reported me whats really well known anyone knows dont touch people dont like touched care who hate touched theres need touch me others theres need touch excluding romantic thing job never touched anyone anything maybe accidentally side swiped im carrying stuff thats worth reporting unless youre get me third report would end getting fired literally night post made cohost use bathroom shift ended said chill manager shes gonna take shit ill head out found funny he manager didnt harmless statement would alert general manager gm it got shift today say live m away clock in gm needed speak me immediately feeling gonna fire me still wasnt happy told said last night wasnt appropriate but kitchen even last night male server spilled ranch female servers pants said jerking something say shit like without getting reported told that said knows everything happens brings attention didnt respond surely dont believe that asked fired said yes hes letting go right now m drive stay m fire me asshole immediate thought process girl wanted work with along best friend works there behind whole thing working get fired excluding third report cuz know that first reports false reports likely due them ive bad anxiety lately due whole shit ive cutting even managed gain stutter due anxiety im fired im sure else do know part time job get another really enjoyed excluding unnecessary drama ive expressed coworkers unhappy whats going mind happened im really sure im gonna next dont want return cashier miserable tldr met nice girl became really close friends invited work friends didnt like working couldnt determine difference work nonwork relationship highly likely she along friends made false reports get fired idk do,1 @chicardo hope you will like it ,0 feel like girlfriend avoiding me dont know why weve together three days feel like get less attention compared back friends similar thing told like too avoiding talking whenever to making things awkward need be bad still isnt spending much time would imagined maybe mind is spending enough time me certainly doesnt feel like it know pretty small problem dont know do pls help,0 dad made transfer data another computer never used computer ended finishing reason make blatant youre playing phone theyre anyway no searching something mum even playing which wouldve right time degree exhaustion vastly different importantly tf makes son important things anyways fml,0 bro bro bro hmu please go sleep discord samangeline know,0 actually going follow throughi think soon im actually going follow it feel like im fucking roller coaster want get off,1 hate recognised restaurants frequent cashier local sushi joint asked me you come quite lot you so you replied,0 think im bi actually idk need advice so friends think im bi thought since started highschool where im start opposite gender partner love um idk remember thinking hot people gender are umm friends say act gayer actually gay friends overall im confused want advice internet strangers dont wanna talk actual friends this help me,0 iti planned kill thursday obviously go it mom excited christmas deals mental issues christmas always seems make things better her even little while leave christmas,1 @BigBOnTheRoad I say yes! Parking sucks and food is over rated. Order pizza ,0 i might break down and eat some buffalo wing tomorrow,0 tonighttonight night im cutting bathtub really know why wish well,1 anyone know good site watch movies dont money netflix streaming services page used watching shows movies got taken days ago im searching another one anyone recommend any ,0 when how know im committedim done things world im done going people even want see brother generally think people suck ass never work again think people shuffle shit around anyway fuck stupid work ethic jock thats all care nobody reads this checking back all fuck yall real,1 james yeah gah poor illazilla and shame about the mutt but best of luck this time around,0 remember ok feels likeits weird know happy one point every time wonder was ok year ago happy answer wonder actually lessmiserable entirety growing slowly realizing shitty person truly pointless life is know child happy think young teenager angsty overall ok know bad place overly stressed late high school im definitely ok im actually coming terms life im getting worse im running distractions know want die inevitable anyway whats problem happens get whatever bullshit life with,1 seniors came back fully school less week schools online td bc covid cases wow less week huh,0 swear fucking god get fucking hiccups againfuck apple fuck anyone works there fuck hiccups fuck everything everyone thinks im fucking happy fuck everyone want fucking die eat shit fuck you think im fucking joking fuck too swear god im better dead,1 hitting become new habiti really disappointed way life turned feel cant go back pain regret causes extreme anger disgust myself inability form relationships led painful life experience result keep hitting face hurts,1 im gonna ithey writing shitty thoughts reddit cause telling things strangers way easier wanna start over emotions unstable since kid im yo last years every god damn day im thinkin dying well im one sad boi drink bleach types job requires damn high responsibility social stuff talking hundreds people around world everyday trying live normal life last months feel like im gonna loose control jump building thoughts pumping blood veins heart rate goes up actually idea redflag thing makes feel excited yes ive tried taking professional help year stopped seeing psychiatrist lost faith getting better im using maoi stuff years fall asleep death really dont know hell wrong every single fuckin moment body feels like belongs someone else im looking hands trying listen head body feels strange me last months go sleep till fall asleep hear screaming buzzing sounds worst thing almost feelings anymore outside working hanging friends family etc u say that guy damn full life im always energetic talkative laughing person im tired fuckin acting hurt people around me ive talked people know words brings pain would rather keeping myself well apathy peak days fuck feel lame writing website know hell im whatever want someone anyone read words thank spending time survive thank next days well song you farewell httpswwwyoutubecomwatchv_zqmueaz,1 "@ruthpatton miss you, too! gonna try to get caught up on Jame's emails in my hotel, too ",0 @flegel I'm hurting too ... really lovely seeing you last night!! had a great time ,0 respected would done years agoso running time money cant work hardly leave house cant talk people social anxiety bad depression makes want try fuck cant even watch movie tv show past years everyone abandoned me spoken anyone years mean literally every months accidentally bump someone say sorry invested life savings fear going broke homeless felt choice gamble basically lost all tried working online luck enough money last years waking going sleep worse time zero hope anything better endless suffering look forward too resources running seriously debating homeless dead zero peace happiness man years social assistance help me even offer us month rent give anything money gone exactly sure person barely leave house survive homeless plan take last bit money head south weather warmer tried best everything done position fear never ended well spent years forcing situations want like engage society ended humiliation loser ending sooner knew headed way expect happen soon,1 grass: greensun: shininglowest test score: droppeddepression: cured,1 in bed with my mate cat and getting addicted to ship wrecked!! wish i was a teacher like her...3 mnths off lucky duck ,0 drank pills tynenoli threw head feels heavy grandma grandpa im sorry im going heaven guys im going straight hell im scared dont want end hospital again want pain end dad im sorry know close birthday cant anymore im failure friends im also sorry guys amazing love you boyfriend im sorry said liked you part lying im sure whether actually like desperate mom mommy love you please dont die would hate that love you mom im scared really hurts im sorry mom love much dont want suffer anymore im selfish know please understand me mom mommommy love you im sorry everyone im sorry really am really failure im sorry goodbye,1 oh dear all the pup died by last night perhaps it wa because princess rejected them,0 yogurt yoghurt yogourt yoghourt obviously use last one,0 holding threadim alive know killing hurt people dont think hurt many broken dont want live anymore please help im crying class right feel like ill end sfter school please help cant alone anymore,1 assistance needed got told mum birthday dad would choose beer guys could send best memes images raccoons or maybe even both thatd great ,0 tommcfly hey no chance of adding brighton or eastbourne to the ucap tour gutted im missing out this time round i love you guy,0 world end already fuck shitfuck im tired ppl saying world gonna end ive hearing since like damn come aliens take shit already meteor hit earth world war iii,1 @therealnuma Awesome me too Got a busy two weeks with uni and my birthday and Melbourne but after that.,0 low dose naltrexone ha been shown to increase endorphin level by up to 00 so it can be extremely effective in helping people whose anxiety depression is caused by endorphin deficiency according to a study by renowned researcher norman brown and jaak panskepp since ldn can upregulate endogenous opioid activity it may also have a role in promoting stress resilience emotional well being a well a amelioration of psychiatric problem such a depression it is proposed that ldn can be used effectively a a buffer for a large variety of bodily and mental ailment through it ability to beneficially modulate both the immune system and the brain neurochemistry s that regulate positive affect full text can be found here http vdocuments net ldn for disease prevention quality of life html,1 i m missin my baby really needed to talk to him today,0 idk anymoreim trying find reason stay hard dont think ill kms yet im jsut hurting fucking much idk waht do dont see point life anymore,1 "Fun fact about Pandora's Box ( http://Soundcloud.com/cabido/pandoras-box … ), the Derg 'Depression' chime is in there bc the project started as a VOL. 149 for @_TSURUDA_ #legendsneverdie and if you have never heard of Depression by Derg, wyd with your life?",1 make laugh please make laugh tell funnis plz whats best joke,0 asking random questions untill get girlfriend day humanity dies chance keep video video would like keep would keep thishttpsyoutubecwuprcuvq thishttpsyoutubedqwwwgxcq videos good think,0 need help hope goneim last night party hit once feel worthless im moderately liked sure people want around enough meaningful relationship friends great people convince get me hang obligation found last night drove house bunch pills still resent them wrong me,1 dont even want live anymoreof course everything come crashing tonight feel fucking hopeless like universe mocking fact barely friends fuck you wanted life good youre anything friend never wanted hear ever again seriously want kill myself day fucking awful feel awful want many stupid things dont even fucking care nobody else does i want it want get with want gone ive enough ive had enough heres hoping best dont wake tomorrow,1 @ddlovato oh demi. that sure was a knee slapper. ,0 people need helpi failed family stupid brain stupid big mouth lost job nobody hiring almost nw see one option insurance policy jump maybe family wont hungry love daughter wife cant take living fifth able buy self proper food fucked cant take wife says better shithole country crate new jobs paycheck really low im sad angry im bad bad person know im stupid nice guy im hellping everybody fuck im tiered jsut cant cat wife pretty lady wll find someone better daughter wont grow knowing real dad stupid man,1 @snowyowlee @havenward Glad you thought so too And it made me think of taylor in a tux which is you know... hot - like the rest of him ,0 would rate film high list ingrid bergman films ingrids beauty aside talent evident scene scene sad mean wittybr br snobbish flirtatious delightfully funny loving tender sorrowful distressed happy etc name it things more and sobr br convincing ingrid plays notorious woman clio comes back newbr br orleans falls texas gambler gary cooper clint especially loved scene sitting dining table saying nothing staring other she elegant white gown handsome white cowboybr br outfit sitting looking adoringly chemistry love,0 i can t do this anymore i genuinely can t it s gotten to the point where everything is too difficult and i want to quit i have severe panic attack when i can t cut deep enough i just relapsed and it wasn t even worth it the cut weren t deep enough it doesn t even matter i don t want to be here anymore it s just an endless cycle of nonstop difficulty every night it s the same thing the day seem to blend together what doe it matter anymore if i m here the world will still turn i ve never made that much of a difference who would even care i m exhausted please let me rest,1 ive got isabout vicodin pills percocets vodka birthday wish coming couple days realistically could end life many mixed findings online ive read mg hydro lethal within hours yet heard people surviving mg you read following something want get out theres eerie darkness inside me sorrow there theres reason there yet festers grows think theres way patch wounds created ive therapy tried medication tried help myself i like many me feel im meant world ive tried end life birthday twice not really take pills drink lot see happens type situation one person knows though kept secret sought help did helped obviously ive read success rate redflag via od anywhere im fuckin terrified,1 dont know fight anymoreim suicidal thoughts every fucking morning redflag first thing think every day mom needed something hours im waiting try die again isnt funny might get scared halfway stop it well means im gonna try next day dont know fight anymore used depressed suicidal years ago getting hardest thing ive ever done dont think again hope back dont anymore,1 "awake, lovin' arttm, ff5, the maine, and 30H!3 more than ever ",0 @Jessicaveronica its fine be inapropriate we dont care ,0 i never knew holiday depression could get this bad ive been sitting in my study room staring out the window as routine for almost a week straight now,1 whats hidden quick add thing snapchat hidden quick add thing looking quick add discovered it people didnt know others didnt didnt snap feature also please explain like im im idiot lmao,0 im hating existenceso ive finally decided share im feeling someone thats why am trying write story life things really hard lately even know start pardon messy so really hate parents im really angry cant even explain feeling parents want join family business im really interested in try telling wanna something else tell im good daughter might kill someday continue behaving way fact never even asked want life think life decide makes worse im basically feeling trapped like ive got way here even let go higher studies worst part never saved money higher studies want hurt parents running away something lets get real matter what always need support even want puppet parents listening every single order feel suffocated sometimes thinking theres way out like ill trapped forever seriously feel like life worth living all know do far see think ever change future,1 @scarletmandy i good...just woke up from TweetBrk and nap...gettin my tweet on..whoot whoot ,0 petition cancel garlic bread comment garlic bread canceled,0 every time happier feel sadder feel after hate feeling happy feels foreign,1 synching my contact from my old mobile to iphone import doe not work well,0 im actually really glad kurt cobain committed redflag idk would two days reason cant imagine middle aged fat depressed dude fell off im really glad things ended way tbh,0 wonder why someone that u like so much can make you so unhappy in a split seccond depressed,0 wanna stick knife me end rightim recently discovered truth mass rapes war crimes orgy women red army carried eastern europen women two million women little girls perhaps fifteen million way film woman berlin presents frightening scares me sickens disgusts me horrifies appalls me described generous sympathy everyone involved basically paints mass rapist barbarian horde sympathetic broken down pain traumatized blah blah blah horrible stuff giant bigbudget german propaganda film think rather sympathizing men hunt young females streets take turns raping theyd hunt said men try charge collective crimes women enrages me wanna find every one primitive creatures stab them cant theyre mostly gone remain theyre old men soon dead makes mad people go way demonize victims nazi criminals hardly wellbred aryan women raped fellow russians jews poles slaves hungarians people baltic states savagery women knows racial boundaries people go way sympathize monsters guilty slander smear innocent victims makes despise humanity were filthy loathsome evil hateful ugly inhuman creatures pollute earth presence want us die want die want anymore world mass rapes war crimes punished government guilty honest it theres widespread movement try stop demonizing women extolling primitive rapist men want here want know animals ever faced justice crimes dont want here want gone cant stand humans were crippled apes pathetic beings hate us want die i wish never born wanna anymore,1 "Hey can you guys help me get to 20,000???? Tell a friend.. (via @MGiraudOfficial)",0 pointthere point life anymore cant get job im live parents boyfriend constantly tries help me telling need get job know need fucking hard im worthless human being past days ive tired alive want get life already im exhausted since last night pressure chest hard breathe get sudden waves bursting tears im much coward myself cant it want live finally confessed bf im tired alive told want like this want gf like this said i problems well see ending life im crying much everything thinking ending life stupid support one takes seriously say im fucking depressed want die never amount nothing end like parents working paycheck paycheck trying make ends meet dreams stupid boyfriend probably hates leave find someone prettier happier point,1 wanted vent dieidk say anymore venting half week reddit change anything mental hospital got canceled parents take urgent hospital said fucking needed it revenge yep im indeed kms razorblades here lying ground idk im reddit ive given life sooo many chances something happens again cant take anymore life worth anymore living keep friends happy ive whole year making happy listening them guess time something egocentric fucking dying guess sort still want saved cuz im still typing time much late painfull im sorry triggering people parents say urgent intake hospital safe still run away hurt mysef guess what run away too razorblades iseasly kill here wrist much scar tissue even hurt slit wrist urgent hospital couldve least little safer maybe would help learn survive fucking virus stops ruining everything mean apointment good mental hospital moved november months waiting help suicidal feelings hav wait another months nope last negative thing happened me,1 We made it back to wack a$$ Richmond. I thank God for our safe return. I pray God will send me back soon! Lol. Ready 2 c my family ,0 It's not my anxiety and depression keeping me up instead? Whoa! I wish I would have known this. https://twitter.com/lifeasmelou_/status/988672717082775552 …,1 Watching CSI:Miami ,0 hoursi swear it cant stop thinking diseases think im gonna die cant take anymore im convinced rabies want die get,1 Last day!!! ,0 @williger Thank you so much for the #FollowFriday shout! You're most awesome ,0 worth theres girl right weve relationship like weeks said ex tells wait find someone else idk boys abuses drugs alcohol instead actually getting medical treatment depression,0 im stupid even plan redflagand ive already failed multiple times past,1 daughters birthday month got unicorn back pack necklaceim looking attention notto seem cold ive heard dad recently gf it get better years now take responsibility actions blame nothing noone me ill try short can single air force one nightstand preganancy girl planned didnt know til years her marry september th daughter lillian born september th life begins air force marraige falling apart get cuz family theonly thing childsupport illinois child every weeks marriage ends living inlaws md family left dad tx march st watch daughter last time person shes crying march st life splintered limp tx live dad lower support illinois every weeks ex support every two weeks average paycheck without ot dollars try see daughter ex vindictive infidelity lose hope get video every often dad completely supports company father worked goes buisness gets job walmart greeter possible support now vehicle get rides junky work junky gets junked vehicle junky ride ways go work lost job months ago splurged got daughter unicorn backpack unicorn necklace ex blocks number months ago money video chat daughters birthday month mail full notices door covered apt words like vacate failure pay warrant looked mirror saw every rib bone im horrified it daughters birthday month ive caused dad n lose home cannot lower obligation warrants child support dad says hes tired one saves us saves us finds cheap trashed trailer dad says doesnt hate enough us daughters birthday month bought necklace backpack cant even mail worst all im going return get food destroy anything left today think eat couple days weigh pounds never able afford fly see never find job support long enough gain weight interview think im fucking meth wanted see daughter wanted give daughter shitty fucking dollar goddamn worthless back pack necklace cant fucking daughters birthday think may make want make til october st dont want ever think fault cant cant fucking it miss goddamn badly rips woth amount taken away dont see way dont want stared anymore dont want see dad slowly resent dont want separated daughter shitty husband shitty person shitty son brother good dad thing good at watched daughter grow sceeen listened cry ask come home kept going ling could im eithergoing die jail didnt mean soill like everytime think fucking fall apart haunting years dont see way dont want fucking sympathy pep talks im done sick hearing it really want help ever meet girl named lillian tells worthless father abandoned her tell rhat daddy loved her couldnt hold anymore nevverr forgot bought unicor bakcipack necklace,1 add girl snapchat theres girl ive school entire life ive ever talked little bit group project once year one classes since zoom able talk her shy assume share least somewhat similar interests class together elective took two years electives get into like two months ago appeared quick add snapchat courage add her mainly midsemester something went weird snapchat itd awkward sit zoom class her now two days left class id like add her keep contact her one problem though snapchat username saw quick add feel like itd weirdcreepy add username especially instagram bio checking quick add every day like two weeks now hoping shell appear quick add add way come across once perhaps since ive already searched username show quick add anymore assumes consciously add her either way im debating add via username all feel like could genuinely friends thanks advice,0 cinderella one disneys greatest films one films think appreciate older get disney creates magical adaptation classic fairytale consider film greatest films time release characters became dimensional earlier films creating depth appreciate characters more cinderella is opinion one greatest characters disney ever created kindness dash dry humor extremely likeable however inspiration provides makes memorable like many people endless dreamer holds onto dreams never giving up even adverse situations dreams endure let anyone take away her example serve inspiration everyone encouragement never let go dreams,0 Stick with Autism Help Acting On Depression,1 "@BigBlackDogs OMD, you're so right! Haha!",0 im going kill myselfi need someone see this ive always wanted leave world left sort positive mark would like say feel much emotional painscarring justify live another second ampxb get it one chooses life rare make to knowledge get one chance life really get it cant choose birth feel least choose time date death ampxb im completely hopeless lonely tired maybe tried everything feel even ounce happiness im tired immense emotional pain feel constantly seriously wish way could convey someone feels except wish pain even worst enemy ampxb emotional support life grow dad practically grew without mom rest relatives lived across ocean got worse advice ive ever heard be parent desperate sort feeling family followed anyway screwed drove bigger rift mom dad shaped today like am thinking right disgusts flying fuck me understand ampxb tried changing it saw reddit comment people try sense genuine kind integrity wanted follow that type person really respected wanted follow ive trying every single day almost months now try want see world ampxb yet still substantial friends family one fall back on two people actually gave shit got pushed away depression much ampxb ive tried things point therapy sleeping better eating better general taking better care myself ive listened podcasts ted talks mental health ive read books emotional bandaging ampxb like put real solid effort ampxb ive felt like exist would much better would help mom pay college anymore which lords every single day btw like get could take away money anytime fyi doesnt help feel good like even offer pay first place planning do told today could pay mortgage give someone else knows theyll use better use travel gee thanks already feel like disgusting piece shit thanks reaffirming am ampxb somehow became disrespectful high school tried explaining years emotional abuse made lose respect parent causing communicate all like roommates talk time like yeah get ityou son im sorry mom gave material affection like food clothes roof yeah situation could much worse would trade worse circumstance loving mother time emotionally hurt would give advice cut patience hear say ampxb tried explaining me know her think understands even wants understand like me ampxb one send to wish did wish someone could send would come pick talk me wish could drive mountains road windy listen chill lofi trap millennial shit want friend cares think would give least ounce hope live ampxb want feel comfort anyone like that long now sucks feeling alone feeling feelings one share with get it lot emotional baggage lot would really help ampxb im sad lol im crying type this im hopeless ampxb fighting mom triggered me wish wasnt im done ive enough sorry long post thanks reading it did knowing someone read piece story enough move on ampxb tldr im going kill myself somehow someway,1 really living guess still alivemy mind undersand killing now instead waiting years parents cant work motivation keep living would rather dead waiting time kill gets boring makes people think want live need kill myself try die instead pass time things really want do keep mind occupied whats point going kill anyways made decision years ago changed mind since then stacking benzos antiemetics future redflag attemp hopefully attempt really get people choose live care it gets better want it seem able make final choice many things could go wrong fuck,1 Playing with helium gas filled baloons ,0 sure seems like minutes actual content episode certainly fun watch might find cringing chair buddy sticks foot mouth gets shot down chuckling shaking head ridiculous line actually works panel hosts goodnatured friendly dare say canadian style commentary compared cutthroat us reality programming think people complain show get joke taking show seriously show takes itself keys vip great caricature reality shows sports tv culture club scene hope another season id interested see us version appears certainly fun original premise,0 hate decisions ive made lifemy college education several levels complicated curious send message ill tell you broadcasting identifying law school right now hate it hate everything it wanted doctor ever since child wanted doctor let parents make decisions raised completely vegan told want dissections took biology classes told would suck chemistry never took it never tried hate doctors discouraged every step way feel like late id go back school least years get practical stuff done even get medical school lets talk uncertain spacey seemed even talking shitty id probably mcat look doctors tv real life envy them want them know glamorous seems think law rest life want cry awful job market lawyers awful well job market bad suck law school suck everything feel like worst awful regret took path least resistance parents something hate never able want do also major depression ingrained never seek treatment my parents cannot bring seek treatment think redflag every day want hear information like said send message really need talk,1 i always have these time where i really think about myself in middle school and i get really fuckign sad i wa bullied and treated like shit but i never really admitted to it and wa always in denial about it i never really defended myself or stood up for myself and i wa really quiet and it make me want to slit my throat like i wish i just stood up for myself and defended myself and wasn t such a coward like i can t stop thinking about it and it really fuck up my mood and i always feel so shitty about everything like it s in the past and i can t do anything about it but i can t help but move on and it s constantly in the back of my mind it literally make my blood boil for some reason i have anger issue and when i get treated shitty for no reason especially when i m really quiet and shy it make me so fucking angry like why do u feel the need to pick on someone who s so introverted and clearly not very social like fuck you fuck them all and fuck every person who ever treated me like fucking shit in middle school elemantry school i hope they fucking burn espically this one kid named nick he made my life literal torture and the worst part wa that he wa in every one of my class fuck him and i will always wish nothing but the worst on him,1 warlach curse ye have fun at it i miss doing online pr for paramount pic,0 heyo years old always immense amount redflag panic lonelinessi wondering feeling loneliness ever stop doomed person am tried many different things since even took medication past years changed dosage multiple times nothing seemed work me really know supposed even worth trying anymore stop lonely,1 tell parents i feeling sad might brush say oh sorry tell that scale suicidal happiest day ever today better context feeling thought would pass along find helpful tell support network feeling scale ,1 he ha cheated on me in the past we are working on making thing smooth he is tryig to be open and transparent which previously he didnt do i can see the difference in him he know i m a very paranoid being and with my anxiety i do become impulsive just about thinking him being around girl i even asked him to not go but he said he is just going there for fun and not to be around girl if there wa something fishy i wouldn t have even said you about girl being there the cheating part ha left me being an over thinker and paranoid or controlling person i know i have to give some space in the relationship and try n trust him more but most of the time i act out of impulsiveness the intrusive thought of past thing he did keep running through my mind all day and when i have these flashback i feel this rage and fit of anger and i think i shouldn t be with him because of the hurt he caused i think to myself i wouldn t talk to him for sometime or so but i can t be away from him it s like i m betraying myself the person he cheated on me with is a family friend so there is a high chance i might meet this person if i go around in any of party involving my bfs family the thought if just make me go crazy i know my bf is also at fault i feel the anger towards him a well how do i handle this with maturity tl dr i wa cheated on by my bf we both are working on it we are looking at this relationship for a long term one so there isn t breaking up involved and that is not an option so we are trying to work on it but the person he cheated on me with is a family friend so there is a high chance i might meet this person if i go around in any of party involving my bfs family the thought if just make me go crazy i know my bf is also at fault i feel the anger towards him a well how do i handle this with maturity i have also become very impulsive and a paranoid person i regard to the relationship,1 doe anyone else feel this way too during an attack it will come on like a rush out of nowhere no trigger that i m feeling for instance whenever i go to like target or walmart i tend to get this it s almost like an overwhelming feeling and feeling faint i never seem to be able to finish my shopping fully due to this because i just want to go checkout a soon a this wave come on i hate this so much,1 know flip coinwhen air already know side want land on right heads write note it tails go bed well fuck tails im writing anyway,1 "@ejf11 hey, how's you? What sort of Uni work are you doing?",0 shaken upthis bit train wreck town epicenter earthquake homes destroyed gas fires floods earthquake people lost power water food movie theater destroyed still dealing aftershocks everyone edge family lucky ones house still standing got power back day lost it much changed little time ive living daze since july th disappeared news nobody town forgotten let go happened choice bubble anxiety control whats happening started one biggest lows ive ever had everythings become alien feels like fever dream dont think im low anymore like im all used advertising jokes everybody moved on still upset for happened getting it cant find way hook back real world im bout getting upset littlest things stress anger went down plans pull hole dug myself exit disappeared entirely theres nowhere run escape im still questioning days still going by im still stuck july th wake up dont even know want wake all want dream end want disappear completely,1 watching waco rules engagement sitting disbelief witness to big cover fbi massacre gunghotrigger happy government agents clearly remember waco standoff years old time watched cnn remembered reflecting children watched mount camel compound burn april remember feeling sorry children clearly felt fault evil leader david koresh davidians gazeckis film shows clearly beyond doubt even though biased fbi lied again think film big contributor reopening new investigation incident outcome new investigation sense predictable judgement relied fact grey facts davidians presented disappointed verdict far know take account lying misinformation evidence coverup fbi officials one prosecuted hampering work texas rangers investigators allowed contaminate crime scene bulldoze compound shortly incident questions given answers government importantly children new investigation informed responsible spraying cs flammable teargas compound many hazards igniting gas found answer whether childrens muscles contracted due effects gas alive did would surely think janet reno ever charge raid indicted masshomicide manslaughter question raised gazecki mentioned is direct plan people charge tanks cut holes burn building intent a plan would accomplished efficacy officials charge incompetent unaware consequence actions equally frightening even davidians set fire compound officials charge surely provided opportunity job officials charge knew claimed davidians would set fire compound f tanks cut holes building making furnace plans deal fire knew would occur dark questions still go away final relevant issue film way davidians demonized government media feeds public clearly remember resentment felt evil davidians saw cnn im older see clear line communication coming government every time gearing massacre civilians along intended targets demonizing people words like they different unlawful values us they enjoy freedom they threat freedoms way life makes much easier kill,0 Nice to work on Sundays... walang pasok suppliers... no one bugs me ,0 doesn t know why but is feeling very down and a trip to the gym didn t help,0 wish endedthe doctors refuse prescribe anything help gender dysphoria im cant take anymore much live with hate futile existence constantly struggle with hate physical form need something way out something end body horror feel,1 "raze, i wish demi would see it ",0 verge redflag head tension degrading brain helpi never used reddit before since good reputation helping people thought would good idea ask help here question is head tension forehead life adhd symptoms comes depression social isolation etc head tension let focus like something stick burried head cant think flicker memory constantly forget im current moment everything exists depersonalization derealization slowly forgetting language words grammar syntax school years university though dropout social anxiety seems memory flicker strong feel dizzy also maybe general anxiety idk asked technical questions need math years getting slower slower mentally speaking even stuff love like music make music many times im composing cant focus music cant almost see screen hear see blurry makes sense anything tbh cant see hear things much second passes forget even hard sometimes listen people read even forget midway amwhats happening im reading get stuck zoning everything becomes like blurry something head constantly hurts head tension angry showing face young supposedly normal many thoughts could focus normal person adhd would could now cant even simplest tasks getting worse constantly instructive thoughts filling mind brim like making excuses work legit feel odd wtf happening cant grasp myself maybe dumb maybe cant grasp reality maybe stupid child raised properly anyways good example instrusive thoughts lately mind completely empty meditating even easy thoughts cant even write make music like used this drop college this failed two semesters three really like cant grasp brain literally rotting shrinking bit backstory went school like normal kid always alone friends till highschool began create social skills always needed help mother study resulted lot fights house alone countless hours everyday trying learn something able so still remember rustle trees room young almost childhood life was depressed school depressed home always since young constantly depressed seen neurologist said might adhd paid attention nothing done it kept like this always getting worse highschool think bit before head tension started think maybe middle school attention people saying started degrading forgetting grammar language spanish english horribly depressed worsen head really hurt memory got worse well everything forward recent past went psychiatris diagnosing adhd july went well got perfect score adderall really helped lot went university again slowly effects adderall started drop always was filled anxiety classrooms people time started panic attacks anxiety got worse worse throughout years tried manage well university kept getting panic attacks believing might trauma school years tried kill dorms twice went psychiatric hospital twice help all also antidepressants shit second time tried kill went university try more got think panic attack strong move all shaking whole body tense dizzy frozen got strong point move almost talk felt like loosing conciousnes happened hometown house whole week trembling able talk properly think properly mental breakdowns getting insane quit university still keeps head tension mind dying shaking anymore walk still panic attacks yes intense one made stop moving im verge redflag again asking reddit help wtf this,1 idk must do living dying easyso ive suffering toxic household effects sudden fall grades social anxiety feeling bad myself extremely low selfesteem considering redflag option year now sometimes get depressed start hurting myself now think death could solve problems honestly parents care dead somehow survive suffer entire life now lot research first attempt hanging retreated later read lot articles paralysis due suicidal hanging right confusedwhether must live die one even cry vent out hug pillow tightly move corner bed cry shit out feel ashamed myself want die nothing else ready accept tolerate pain want survive attempt,1 "@wombtobloom LOL! No, I am usually up very late That's the life of a mama biz owner ",0 finally post ill finally able find people socialize cuz mf lonely days,0 anyone got some bean bin noun edible seed typically kidneyshaped growing long pods certain leguminous plants,0 at the movies just saw Drag me to Hell!! Pretty good ,0 life shitbeen depressed thinking redflag several years im spend day computer bed browsing reddit watching tv etc planning going university knows would love talk random internet strangers regular basis though tell mundane aspects day things enjoyed things enjoy lives normal people response id offer satire humongously dull state existence manage without boring tears id hope refuse xd anyway im sure right place not seriously anyone wants talk inane stuff anything all message me might good people similar boat maybe f xd whatever suck whatever,1 "just had a real good moment. i missssssssss him so much, ",0 really sob pm am relatable ik attracted gender dude think im go depressive episode yk day going full sad ur like know whats happen happens anyway love gays except me uh love girls like not also like fuck wanna die also like no cuz die imma go hell this im even super religious agjsoefhoebapshwpjalsklaxhpsbspshsslbsslsblasblasbosdhsdsodkgwktwyodupclckzjxjdkekyakgekhsoyslgslhdkxkx god nclhdkhslhodohdlhxlhjxlhslhdlhsalhslhx see dilemma ,0 @meesterbob chinchillas are amazing but loaf is one of a kind ,0 i need a holiday only one day off this year,0 day ago made post planned kill year im going tonighti write title confirm it im going use rope attach wooden plank going across top garage im going use chair finish job havent decided chair yet way fail wont able breathe one check good hour so changed dont really know kind realised im well truly finished th november wish cooler date maybe one god mind me id rather die go back day day life now ive listening lone tyler creator last song ever hear probably ill listen music hour beforehand anyone wants know bit me im male college never girlfriend couldve didnt due anxiety part wonders couldve different born quite good looking girlfriend know emotional affectionate kinda relationship best friend care about im going die virgin dont think care ever since got acne self esteem plummeted cant shake off dont want say acne killed me think finishing off im passionate football well was ive gotten depressed even look football dont even care watch anymore nothing interests me go gym one thinks anything wrong me ive seeing doctor therapy long wait haha hope dont show school photo memorial me fuckin hate picture shit not im going put redflag note personal message college explicitly put picture big screen im evidently insecure afterlife family dont want talk them love much hate fact im put pain temporary temporary popular kid school thats saying im great cool guy top hierarchy theres single person college hate couldnt friend think theyll react dont know react cry maybe day two theyll fine right funnily enough spent last day ill nothing chilling watched funny videos think im going go xbox later try fortnight battle royale people tell really good plus free making post final message reddit years so importantly want know you lost anyone redflag want know people reacted afterwards want know whether everyone okay without me attention seeking im sorry that dont want leave said nothing all know used read posts make comments time year ago never life think id side think thats everything thats concerns schoolwork stress future pessimism one judging me judging myself im going go dinner play xbox grab headphones phone turn playlist hang myself hours story over crazy,1 @Koolaye Call it the Kool Word! Or The Kool shall inherit the earth. Or The Kool Kid says. Of maybe The State of Kool. Just some ideas. ,0 concernedit feels like cycle everyday shit again,1 my favorite ginger with the hair is back on air tonight. how i've missed you conan. ,0 call piano sound nice,0 "@TheXiaxue PS: It's only a theory based on my dog, Hazel! Since I haven't looked at Pumpkin's teeth I'm just assuming. ",0 simp girls simp ill even love back,0 cool bug facts classmate owns clothing line idea lol proof heres link intrested which im sure dont httpswslaunchcartstorehttpswslaunchcartstore,0 @thewildjoker Alright. Following. Just hope she follows back ,0 getting ready to go out and see 'Wolverine' with my men! ,0 Vaastu Living with Pallavi – Depression and Vaastu Part 1In this episode we discuss the impacts of Depression on Vaastu and how to combat it using Vaastu principles.For more visit below link https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h3j58RkGzl4 …,1 feeling suicidal im starting feel danger may doi suicidal thoughts like whole life im becoming obsessive im feeling like next months really want die yet least call hospital situation,1 clonazepamif took enough clonazepam could kill me half bottle mg each thanks,1 cannot get back taken know fighting for pointless ya,1 im tiredim tired life im years old feel like ive experienced good experience life im good boyfriend guess relationships like me im much loner off small dick boot sex nothing great want able enjoy peoples company cant cant drink alcohol heart starts racing face turns red fuck eyes feel like theyre going pop head new years eve pretty sad me sat home kind year old goes party drink get invited anything anyways life gets hard people turn substances ease it weed alcohol part yet cant that sober entire life take life without help cold fuck job outside hate cold around fahrenheit day here miserable fuck winter started im lot shitty days im tired life im lonely im good maintaining relationships lot good looking girls never chance talk to im tired,1 purchasing tickets for Aladdin.. all for the baddie benefit = gray o'brien ,0 great softcore sex revealing sexy plenty it ignore ignoramus realize raunchy sexy done right way erotic go watch red shoes diary junk want hot exciting softcore done properly movie watch like explicit skinemax films like one great softcore sex revealing sexy plenty it ignore ignoramus realize raunchy sexy done right way erotic go watch red shoes diary junk want hot exciting softcore done properly movie watch like explicit skinemax films like one,0 mark words buy drums thats literally dream buy drums right dont money next years im gonna work study hard make dream come true expect sick drumming videos future,0 eazydoesit negative you lost my vote of confidence,0 i m so behind in all my responsibility that i m seriously fucking up my future the weird thing i don t care logically i should be panicking but i m so calm i feel like i m barely even here,1 i am soooo tired work,0 warner brothers second historical drama featuring civil war battle little big horn general george armstrong custer died boots warner brothers far accurate two especially contrasted santa fe trail warner brothers really set bar highbr br although pictures starring vehicles errol flynn change casting part general custer whereas dutch himself ronald reagan portraying flamboyant egomaniacal cavalryman earlier picture mr flynn playing virginian later confederate hero general jeb or jeb stuart errol took custer part died boots onbr br once again warner brothers propensity using large number reliable character actors warners repertory company employed giving film sort authenticity really happening right eyes major roles taken better known actors actresses as elizabeth baconmrs custer costar olivia de havilland ned sharpe arthur kennedy samuel bacon gene lockhart chief crazy horse anthony quinn californy charlie grapwin major taipe stanley ridges general phillip sheridan john litel callie the bacons maid hattie mcdaniel br br the rest cast chock full uncredited though skilled players as joe sawyer eleanor parker minor watson tod andrews irving bacon roy barcroft lane chandler spencer charters frank ferguson francis ford william forrest george eldridge russell hicks william hopper hoppity hooper eddie keane fred kelsey sam mcdaniel patrick mcvey frank orth eddie parker addison richards ray teal jim thorpe allamerican himself minerva urecal dick wessel gig young many many morebr br the film moves quickly particularly early goings sort slows necessity story moves along post civil war years assignment custer colonel th cavalry ultimate destiny little big horn montana guidance director griffith veteran raoul walsh film hits greatly varied array emotions serious exciting battle scenes convincing historical scenes looking matthew brady civil war photos mr walshs films punctuates expedites end many scene little humor going overboard thus risking chance turning film comedy farce actuallybr br as previously mentioned much factual predecessor santa fe trail last time well mention it honest schultz scouts honor however say without little bits artistic literary license indeed biopic have would impossible make similar type film indeed every fact incident tried included screenplay perhaps erroneous inclusion well obvious invocation literary license business custers accidentally promoted rank brigadier general happen way yet gag helped film move along underscored whole light carefree feeling permeated early part filmbr br director walsh mr flynn collaborated giving us would seem characterization legendary civil war hero close real life man top recreation incident massacre lakota sioux cheyenne fukowi custer th cavalry little big horn time occurrence june custers last stand big incident shock americans national psyche japanese attack pearl harbor december atrocities perpetrated islamic fascists new yorks twin trade towers united states armed forces headquarters pentagon arlington virginia september br br just many films period world war ii and years immediately before many incidents were intentionally done demonstrations virtues would needed time another global conflict time died boots finishing original theatrical release periodbr br poodle schnitz,0 reaching talk feel guilt way feelidk whats going lately scarytheres days im completely optimistic nothing bring eventually fall back old bad habits doesnt help im quarantined parents house im relationship parents completely strained boyfriend fight almost every day point friends left except coworkers dont want know much me im distant depression speak boyfriend feel normally gets mad doesnt say anything sits phone obviously texting im crying eyes anxiety attack dont respond something says im full blown anxiety attack barely breathe correctly gets mad hangs me full indicator im wasting timeand reminder anytime try come someone help nothing waste everyones time even im left feeling guilty tried reaching cousin felt guilty stopped getting detail feel feel worthless emotionally weak cant handle anything anymore feel though theres hope me point self worth esteem lowest reach boyfriend tells im person suffering shouldnt sad hard feeling comfortable emotions moving forward person talk tells feel way feel want attention feels personally attacked way feel want comfort im point hard alone without really dont anyone speak feel judged want stop talking moment open up honestly feel like posting something im going regret know need self harmed today speaking boyfriend comfort made want even more,1 tit havers rteenagers worst thing happened tit question penises guess tits near equivalent idk,0 contemplationi want live anymore ive ever tried help people make happy help needed someone make everything worse every day think redflag want monotonous torture life end every day struggle want live thats life is know may really vague sounding reasons im really hard time vocalizing feelings right now want help please,1 kung fu epic worth watching best training ever main character spending hundred days knees outside shaolin temple show desperate learn kung fu fight manchu dogs taken china,0 not feeling v good abt myself,0 guys blackmail girls trying get pics vids omggggg ask nsfw worse dared send pictures ribbons hair cause promised could dare something now blackmailing picture things like vids meowing help could anything next humiliating smh ,0 pain pain painthats is good life anymore cant remember last smile cant fucking handle this im going break know when im pushed fucking limits hate lazy unproductive shitbag,1 theres lesbian player school description required,0 help needed save man assuming posts case young boy still trending social media extremists trying get young man lynched vocal opinion hashtag trending twitter accuses blasphemy extremists spamming gain attention im asking please help save using trends try bury blasphemy trend btsarmypakistan imrankhanjawabdou imrankhankhulwaopubg please report hashtag go httpshelptwittercomformshttpshelptwittercomforms choose harrassment link httpshelptwittercomformsabusiveuserhttpshelptwittercomformsabusiveuserca choose options detailed screenshots add urls attached add two paragraphs details add urls httpstwittercommahnoorism_statusshttpstwittercommahnoorism_statuss add description light recent hashtag fast becoming top trend pakistani twitter hashtag blasphemourmarufzaid spreading rapidly response mob pakistani users trying get another twitter user killed response alleged blasphemy know twitter notolerance policy type hatemongering especially dangerous lifethreatening hashtags like this urgent emphatic request take hashtag blasphemourmarufzaid immediate effect young pakistani life depends it credit twitter unavsszz save life even people think wont please everyone scary situation wish anyone go through appreciate help this thank you,0 cant cry get it cant cry want cry cant years since last cried ever since even saddest moments life ever shed single tear want fucking cry want able express sorrow without say im really sad understand cant fucking cry,0 ive thinking redflag last couple monthsand honestly keeping anything productive option committing redflag kind weird coping mechanism me result final tomorrow studied think its okay really bad kill myself get idea head all actually find motivation something life want live cant stop thinking ideas im sad get ihaventstudiedatallformyfinalyet hopeless feeling inside guy school jumped one dormitory buildings days ago presumably finals stress makes even unable focus want able something past semester weird limbo motivation anything feel like life may end soon yet part want life end agh,1 i have a constant paranoia of having rabies normally i can distract myself and just not think about it but if i get reminded of it i m worrying about having it i don t think i ve ever bitten by a wild animal and definitely not one that had rabies plus my country hasn t had a rabies case in year the last one being a dead fox found in the wood i have no idea why i keep worrying about it but i do and i keep wondering whether it s related to anxiety or something else,1 begotten one unique films ive ever seen more me study sound light dark movement real story type thing see video instillation museum modern art film enjoyed local theater im going try interpret images mother nature beasts cloaks twisted tortured body child things defy interpretation,0 ya know bit cold talking crush would bit embarrassing imma give note saying something like i would say person itd embarrassing wanna say kinda cute shit like that could go wrong,0 cant keep goingthis life hell cant anything even good anymore smallest things piss dont anything else do make posts like people message saying theyll check always forget deep dont fucking care method would take life life constant suffering would better removed myself people wouldnt listen bullshit sadness need way it give method please,1 guys help cyberbully someone dont worry deserve it theyre worst kind person discord dilemma,0 safe vs unsafe reasons stay aliveso could really go chugs gasoline at least now think im alright question good things use reasons die things good comprehensive list reasons active bass amplifier tomorrow mom possibly making cookies tomorrow wanna see end clone wars new metallica album may release within next days im morbidly curious coronavirus thing turn hope enjoyed tier list discussion welcome,1 want die pain go away never good enough even know job best mother still screams thinks mentally retarded feel miserable pathetic ,1 what s the actual point of stopping me from doing this it will allow a person who is suffering to not suffer any more i don t want to do this any more it s a never ending battle and i m tired say i m a quitter i don t care why do you care about the life of a person on the internet who will never contact or see you who you for all mean should not have any personal connection to you yet people still care to tell me to stop when i m that close to stopping the pain at this point i could care le about most of my family most of them are why i want myself dead anyway my friend would read the note i d be leaving and understand why i did it i know these paragraph are completely intelligible but i just don t get why suicide is a bad thing to people why do people think it s a bad thing that s the one thing i don t get,1 @HilaryNghtmare yess I know Omg I can't wait till you come back I laaa you,0 Deym! 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And I'm currently learning it now. ,0 first reply gets free award again award go brrrrrrrrr,0 hi i wa diagnosed with gad panic disorder about 0 year ago and i ve tried multiple different ssri benzos i m currently on xanax but i ve been extremely anxious lately and my doctor wanted me to try gabapentin x a day ha anyone had any success switching over from a benzo to gaba or any experience with it at all tia,1 need one award one more award dont really care type,0 quinparker i find that in this age of internettery this is how you perfectly express sorrow and empathy for another s pain,0 mum coming backmy mum left house tears dripping eyes shouting im coming back gone weeks,1 week cut first time yearwhile suicidal thoughts think id go far actually it said feel like life spiraling control again idea do spend much time trying help everyone life comes time ask help even someone talk to turn away change subject start talking themselves person thought cared says busy constantly goes makes plans friends know selfish think thats wrong like would hard tell no probably whats fucking bad right now ive tried getting lost photography hobbies works temporarily ive even tried drinking again temporary still come home feel nothing much nothing fact picked knife breaking one year month streak cut feel something anything anger thats another point weird simply feel nothing nothing all occasionally anger mostly directed myself ive always thought depression would go days end motivation general feeling gloom evolved still motivation instead feeling sad simply feel nothing whats weird feel though im making attention true would able come home snap right like nothing wrong life good family good friends freedom want yet still feel like shit constantly idea do yall think making up wrong place post im sorry sidebar rules specific replies posts,1 doesnt even knowmy sister loves one song logic redflag quietly sing along plays it sings happily taking lightly dont want alive want die today doesnt know mumble words really mean it pains know this,1 im getting tired holding onmy heart aches every single day anxiety depression hard see end this im hanging on im really trying im tired,1 guys happen im getting closer net karma,0 might go hiking in the big thicket in a couple week what monster are supposed to be in this area chupacabra i hope not,0 sleeeeppp!-----back to Barcelona again tomorrowww! ,0 broke the front door off it's hinge last night. how? angry-drunk door slam ,0 friends try best make teacher happy friends two them always try answer questions one teachers everyday students join particular class including us even though strength people favourite subject too answer questions much students bother much whenever asks particular leave bother know teaching hard job dad used teach kids told sometimes teachers loses hope well want lose hope tries best teach us teacher lose hope teach maybe like subject try learn more time makes sad response whole class appreciate teacher much always let know im thankful two friends ,0 maybe if i made regular healthy meal for myself instead of skipping them and eating junk food i d feel better maybe if i kept to a consistent sleep schedule instead of staying up late at night and letting myself pas out on the couch at random time throughout the day i d feel better maybe if i respected the way i looked instead of neglecting my hygiene and wearing dirty clothes because i don t feel like changing i d feel better maybe if i cleaned and decorated my apartment instead of surrounding myself with trash and shit i don t care about i d feel better maybe if i left the house once in a while and allowed myself to show the slightest bit of interest in anything i d feel better maybe if i let the right people in instead of always pushing them away minimize the toxic people in my life instead of always letting them get to me open up and trust instead of always expecting the worst and keeping my distance if i would actually be there for the people i care about instead of just saying i am then blowing them off maybe if i could open myself up to the possibility of positivity instead of always dwelling on the negative then i d feel better probably but damn it if that shit doesn t come naturally to me then i m just not interested work hard to make a change ha i m already working a hard a i can just to keep from loosing it on a day to day basis i am not willing to put in any more energy into my life than i already am thank you very much a life of incremental progress towards what wa supposed to be the starting line is no life at all a world where a brain can get like this whether a product of rationality or not is not a world in which i wish to live i don t care if there s hope for a better future unless it come with a better past and present too,1 catvix i am news to me and sorry to hear about the job,0 came parents identify trex pronouns shortarms rawr ,0 the great depression,1 harry potter scandalous love story hogwarts year old harry potter laid head hagrids chest inhaled musty scent nose sucking one mans many chest hairs accident complain however happy piece hagrid would inside him i love way hold big strong hands hagrid man lived feeling especially flirty tonight sure let lover know mood snoo snoo luckily him take much turn hagrid on moments ready fill potters primal desires and love way let wreck asshole every night returning harrys flirtacious advances hagrid lifted up lover wrapped legs around mans waist quickly removed wizards robe began suck nipples enjoying sweet tasted ill suck yours suck mine alright harry simply nodded face twisted pleasure moment care hagrid wanted hed anything long could keep feeling way felt currently mans mouth game godly several minutes passed harrys turn though quite experienced hagrid sucked reddit friend demetris nipples many times before fairly confident nipple sucking abilities would try provide lover much pleasure given him removing hagrids clothing layer layer mans humongous pancake nipples finally became visible potter stared wide eyed moment taken back even tiny bit man boob could seen seemed though mans chest consisted hair nipple nothing between wow harry could say aroused disgusted sight time know whether wanted blow load vomit lovers nipple rug chest hagrid bothered reaction let hearty laugh response they normally look like that worry ran ferrets buck beak feed myself seen days ago buck beak nearly bit right nipple clean off bloody mess was looking closer adult harry could clearly see scarring hagrids right nipple sure brave man letting dangerous beast feed nipples wizard wondered lovers essence tasted like hagrid yes harry ccan taste im kind hungry hearing this gentle smile formed hagrids lips of course help yourself man pushed harry closer chest overjoyed felt begin suckle nipples wizard hesitant first tasted delicious lovers milk was began nurse gulp gulp chugged hagrids milk down lips stained mans nipple juices hair tickled cheeks made difficult grasp nipples mouth first assistance lover quickly located them thats boy like that work tongue harry finally finished released nipple mouth let loud burp stomach full satisfied hagrid looked biggest grin ever seen kissed passionately can wait morning touch winkies milk made sleepy hagrid nodded setting harry down sure first thing morning came pants nursing anyway hagrid laughed buckbeak hates that cant help it breast feeding turns on mmhmm harry potter motioned hagrid join bed man complied two snuggled covers spoke quietly while telling much loved them time pair drifted sleep anticipating anal awaited harry potter morning,0 people buy airpods rly give fuck music literally earbuds sound better airpods,0 i m a volunteer coach at the h i went to the pst year here i ve seen a lot of thing i didn t like like how the head coach ran it and it felt very low effort and try to avoid problem and a large lack of discipline i tried for year and nothing ha changed and this off season ha been low number since march and my position group fell apart to some transfer and kid not taking the leadership of those transfer i tried but it ha stressed me out and i ve been fixated the last few month on leaving just because of how poorly ran it wa i feel guilty and anxious to spring it on the coach and team but i can t keep hurting myself especially if i have more interest and care than the player and some coach everyone that know the program ha been telling me to get out it s not a bad decision in my eye to leave i just feel crappy about doing it and super anxious after i wa done any advice on coping in these scenario i take a ssri but these scenario it doesn t matter for me i ll get worked up no matter what i really hate the guilt part because i know it s the best choice for myself in both coaching career and just mental health in general,1 meme speaks truth ampxb httpspreviewredditbboerywnbipngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsbafdedeaedeeceda,0 i wa on the edge of killing myself i wa dissociating and experiencing derealization on a daily basis i didn t think i would ever make a decision to pull the trigger but i wa convinced one day i would sleepwalk into doing it it wa strange but maybe some of you know what that feel like i quit drinking and doing all drug i wa depressed for a week but now i have not felt this good in year five year maybe i feel like myself again i tell joke i think clearly about thing and find enjoyment in life nothing else ha changed in my life but the weight of my emotional problem just doe not feel a heavy and it is not something that i am burdened by every minute of every day like it wa before i don t care what anyone else doe with their life i ll probably have a drink when i go out again starting in a few week but before anyone take drastic measure please try cleaning up just to see what your mind feel like in it natural state it ha worked for me and i did not ever think i would feel normal again it is working and i really really hope it can work for some of you too nobody should have to feel the way we have felt,1 Oh melbourne at least u kicked a goal in the last qtr ,0 gaslit family life feels like im doomed go forever nowso whats point would even matter im gone people dont care enough make feel way embarrassing ive let trick thinking theyd care want control happens p,1 want finish iti experiencing again anxious depressed lost desires cant find purpose living more ive hospital twice year already make sure works time nothing world cherish anymore need way out thank all,1 yall interested studying together yearhelping high school students im taking ap physics ap lang ap econ next year seems like gonna hard especially virtual kinda fat l yall wanna form study group smth year and feel comfy zooming days meet other lmk thinking could gc like shared google drive help need it idk seems like could p chill time lmk ur interested,0 Back to normal for us tomorrow. Procedure done so life returning to normality ,0 know friendi friend mine started cutting furiously basically making feel guilt threat redflag nightly basis forced believing lost friends reality stopped talking everyone want go details unless asked know help him went cutting years ago really phase seeing someone else cant get immaturity act edit thank great advice figured throw detail left posted told honest opinion needs give people chance position one point would cut bring problem people try show need help sort like family me pains see like explained come talk cant help save him overcome time,1 When both people in a relationship have mental health problems and process differently . #anxiety #depression,1 i had plan today and now i m scared of you know moving for fear of teh boke fml,0 Listening to Radio Disney and eating Cheerios. ,0 miss you lovei miss much want you set date new guy feel fucking dead inside want drink bleach id wake next like mary wakes next francis end reign want live rest life feeling way want feeling end end long im alive love you whole heart,1 do something crazyrun awaystart new life advice guys always give still want dieim suicidal since want die multitude reasons ill give quick summary since really point post basically family drug addict dad sexually assaulted dead siblings prison life friends poorly educatedpoor job prospects dropped college due constantly suicidal student loancredit cardmedical debt cant even drive nobody ever showed always poor afford pay classes gay first probably boyfriend cheatedabused me much more anyway think case redflag pretty clear cut simply nothing good going tons bad also realistic pathway getting shit im deep hole already theres absolutely nobody willing help it depression at least anymore logic rational thinking sometimes best cut losses fold hand im total waste space little potential squandered im even position modest dreams likely never be anyway nearly killed end decided right blew brains guess might well try cliche advice everyone always says title always scoffed it literally nothing lose whatever figured would better go bang travelled miles bus spent time homeless months homelessness managed find place stay unfortunately really point this still want die actually regret since experience kind fun interesting fixed absolutely none problems sure seeing new sights experiencing different culture meeting new people interesting experience fix irredeemable life shitty circumstances horrible luck toxic past bleak future absolutely not yeah thats that nobody say try ill leaving within next couple days tried best sometimes best good enough life never gave fair chance unavoidable death inevitable anyway see anything wrong expediting process nothing look forward life ps giving chemical lobotomy antidepressants telling someone problems paid pretend care a therapist going work know ive already tried multiple times neither change objective facts life always shit redflag logical response conclusion,1 up to my eyeballs in billing..however happier thoughts are getting me thru - hoping that someone may have a pair of TFC tix for sale. ,0 brokenstill ventured past front garden since september recently th birthday mother insisted celebrate it although feel nothing celebrate inside nothing years gets upset understand emotions im fucking stuck man planned kill july it finish school cant live,1 i ve just been so overwhelmed lately i d love a break for once in my life i m not asking for much but at this point it seems like only bad thing happen to me i even lost my two only friend a few month ago and now i m all alone again,1 seriously think might next week two nobody cares me facing reality unbearable time it never really feel alive anyway number years ive done absolutely fuck lie around feeling sad front laptop ive ruined physical health too nobody cares constant and mean every second fight keep life going steam honest ive enough struggle miss alive nobody else miss me maybe world run little smoother without way merry christmas wish everything gone differently,1 @michaelmeloni Thankyou for that update to my cranial soundtrack. Complete with dance moves ,0 im home and watch the offical Trailer from New Moon i like it ,0 failed first time everything crumbling againabout years ago tried first attempt obviously failed looked like accident one suspected went ups downs overall fresh take life fast forward couple year met love life jump forward get married im working job love suicidal may ask constantly fear future kids never making enough never good enough hide depression problem drinking created problems nothing big recently got drunk hit mailbox possibly looking jail time wife threatened leave big disappointment everyone dont know whats wrong seems like every good thing get screw drag loved ones me im almost edge dont think ill fail time gunshot head ive researched extensively past days several guns think wife suspects something cant bring tell scared depressed helpless feel take gun carry truck more holding hope im gonna go jail im charged im going im terrified trying hold in darkness crushing im crumbling write this,1 movie offers bonnie hunt sarah silverman amy sedaris supporting cast well worth watching comic actor jeff garlin takes advantage terrific talent recruited directorial debut sadsack comedy overweight man feels step world around him familiar larry davids manager jeff curb enthusiasm garlin plays james stillstruggling year old chicago actor still lives widowed mother selfesteem low cant meet women comical way views single status makes dilemma involving storyline sounds bit familiar thats film partially tribute ernest borgnine classic marty lonely bronx butcher living meddlesome mother fact garlin uses marty play james desperate since empathetic characters situationbr br naturally love story sorts new millennium version silverman plays beth offkilter sexually voracious ice cream parlor server takes underwear shopping spree best scene together favorite convenience store improvise different characters different aisles hunt plays lonely elementary school teacher shares passion james jazz musician ben webster meet accidentally record store career day school hilariously exposes sexual neuroses front classroom firstgraders including best friend lucas pert daughter penelope played dakota fannings lookalike baby sister elle wedgedin cameo looking quite bit like jerri blank sedaris plays schools counselor speaks james inappropriate monologue david pasquesi plays luca retirement home manager scenes garlin easy rapport makes friendship easy believe almost stealing movie character actress mina kolb plays james pixilated mother pluck heartbr br there also unexpected cameos teen idol aaron carter gina gershon dont askbut setup funny well sharply played bits director paul mazursky as snaky director candidcameratype show smear job tim kazurinsky as unsuspecting victim show dan castellaneta as toughlove convenience store owner rueful bouts insecurity selfloathing garlins comic sensibilities resemble albert brooks casual dialogue best reminds modern romance defending life one persistent problem film pacing scenes dragged longer necessary problem evident first half garlin trying establish right tempo lack real conflict adds sluggishness regardless well capture gnawing sense desperation one feels upon revelation life supposed be significant may reach steady diet junk food eaten car hood sure thing comes gratification,0 asked crush read title happy able share feelings said feels way officially dating yet update soon,0 bro better cry today dumb shit cant control yes im talking you stress okay,0 today years old realized ppl say wouldnt survive cod lobby unironically really thought satirical joke people said realize f word slur lgbt people naturally going avoid say youre apart community wouldnt survive cod lobby,0 "btw, im totally tweeting every bit of this so if you dont like a7x, you can go suck a fat pne (y)",0 really wanna knowi need easy way kill myself know every way painful mayb easiest one anybody really last string cant handle anymore nobody talk turn why r u talking bullshit stop pessimistic life get better oh really hoping gets better see nothing,1 wanted say thanksjust wanted say thanks good community achieving help kind loving support give people times crisis although suicidal myself enjoy reading kind words honest comments give providing service people desperately need find motivation stay alive keep doing saved countless lives wanted give deepest respects thank you,1 coming straight guy stop super straight ya dinguses basically super straight started joke a poor one eventually grew something people people calling saying part lgbt community either seriously rhile lgbt people stop straight people literally least oppressed sexual group trying say part lgbt trying make community angry laughs is say cringe struggle secure right victims numerous hate crimes tldr stop using super straight seriously joke,0 easy way outseriously humans hard kill easy acessible way kill seems overly risky high risk failing is driving insane im asking alternative methods assume thatd subreddits policy anyway but,1 bad lot people understand next episodebr br but worry ill explain br br this episode split partsbr br first part tonys dream coma second part happens real lifebr br now people understand tonys dream dream episode preparation death loses identity eventually even forgets himself thus disconnects bindings world notice im saying doctor scene tony says lost briefcase contains his life makers really superb job interpreting theyre thoughts happens die br br if understand whole plot find next episode unique thing great spiritual meaningsbr br like every sopranos episode acting filming superb br br only thing understand role monks gonna watch till get thisbr br anyways episode really touched me think anyone else make better view happens almost death experiencebr br doubt,0 "All-house fan is on, windows open. Way to hot upstairs. Making some brownies and dancing around to music. Night of fun. ",0 unrelenting cant anymoreive thought redflag daily years now grindingly poor future im worthless never get decent job partner seem even like anymore let alone love me dog even seem like much hate major stupid college remeber last time enjoyed anything remember last time want kill myself im going parents holidays think ill take dads sawedoff put mouth last time there like physical compulsion barely resisted self harm clean four years back worse ever one knows it legs slashed pieces ive medicated ive therapy medication help lie therapists trust them trust anyone thought checking hospital acute crises center getting help cant afford it cant afford kill myself worthless,1 love strangewhen love someone wellbeing main thoughts like embodiment soul littlest things smiling one another causing explosion emotions running every cavern body biggest life moments share moment separated creates longing are presence gone like part disappearedvanished though see reunited heart cant keep steady begin hear pounding outside chest even though something hurts allow endure pain means one love happy happiness matters building up supporting one anothers goals dreams rejoicing others accomplishments moments strengthens soul connection ties relationship drives closer closer are truly grateful appreciate you shining light cruel world opening eyes beauty hidden mysteries around us blessing truly wonderful being universe life general funny way making things work out thankful here whether chose read not aint going force nothing going leave message anyone ever felt way life cruel place meet others yes life get tough need grit teeth stand tall know confidence got this initiative pilot life positive outcomes know here alive enjoy alive share positive deeds others around you,1 im tiredive carrying weight whole life ive met people willing shoulder while end leaving cant blame them realize heavy carry it hand back pretty quickly tried honest partner told depressed trying get better reaction like everyone either derision disbelief outright disgust said going me help me whenever actually talked it pure hatred eyes said feels like im trying oneup him feels like cant complain want feel way feel like cant unload leave desk cry bathroom today shout darkness unpopular subreddit garage exterior switch radio switch opens it im heavy enough partial hanging reliable car hose bleach ammonia plastic bags many options im trying resist know hell sad it hell get it right like prisoner prison bars warden mean son bitch inmates telling torture big deal walk away quit time put weight down finally sleep,1 lockdown extended another four weeks end august me sucks miss socialising trying enjoy things bring joy life unfortunately done hopefully much longer downdepressed laying bed day nothing miserable lockdown depression,1 ajiee thnx ajeng i will have to skip that class im totally unprepared,0 m anyone chat could chill perhaps play terraria,0 everybody problem schooling system lmao poor bitch homeschooled,0 isolate girl friend group talk like title says want get know better since way weve talked group really anything big know get away everyone else though,0 day recommending songs like rteenagers httpsyoutubefthaaxxmm text post get removed,0 It's amazing the weather is still so hot! Loving it!! ,0 "it has been 4 years... 4 yearsof harassment and hatred towards a woman who wanted to take medication for her depression. just leave her alone, please. #박봄제발내버려두세요",1 sex first time today kept saying are sure want this will mom dad mad hot,0 look forwardto anything simply feel like empty vessel living day life feeling worthless nights gets bad need drinks knock out wish id never wake up,1 a you can tell from the title this is something i have known about since i have been a kid i used to get infatuated way too fast and get anxiety when a girl wouldn t be going a fast a me since growing up though i have been able to slow down however when it doe happen i don t know why my anxiety just start coming out again starting back in october of 0 0 i wa talking too this girl for about month and nothing really ever came of that besides texting due to her being manipulative and gaslighting me however i wa head over heel for her it wa one of the worst month of my life and after that happened i made alot of life change and all of 0 wa pretty much the happiest year of my life now in 0 i recently moved to a new city and met this one girl we have been talking for about week almost every day and she ha texted me almost every evening asking how my day wa and is actually interested in getting to know me since i learned not to get to into her yet i usually just responded to her whenever and went about my day usually we would have around hour between each of our text to each other sexual content warning fast forward to last night i took her on a really nice dinner date and we talked alot afterwards i walked her home and she asked if i wanted to come inside we talked more and one thing led to another and we ended up having sex however part way through she started bleeding and the condom came off in her she wa incredibly embarrassed and almost started cry i just kept hugging her telling her not to worry about that i still had a great time and stayed with her for about over an hour i eventually had to leave to go home but afterwards on my drive home i really started falling for her she texted me a bit when i got home saying she wa happy i made it home safe today though all the anxiety i used to feel when i wa younger falling for girl who might not like me back started flooding into my head again i couldn t sleep well because i wasn t sure if i did anything wrong and i just wanted to be with her we texted a little in the morning but the text that the past few week that normally took hour to get a response from each other feel like a millenia now my anxiety really is coming out in those long wait because i really just wan na talk with her and i m afraid she s gon na ghost me like a bunch of other people have done to me in the past i know there is nothing i should worry about but i thought i had my anxiety under control finally only for today to suck again doe anyone have any advice on how i should control it best,1 cannot stop thinking killing even good mood change split second feels like get hit tsunami self hatred hoplessness guilt walking road constantly thinking getting hit house thinking jumping window head first overdosing bunch tablets cutting myself terrified tell anyone life incase think faking looking attention know,1 suppose goodbyei looking reason live looking someone talk to tried kill four years ago saved ex girlfriend stayed three years year ago moved back norway ldr year distance sucked worth it morning called broke me one thing promised wouldnt lied her able get hold since explain myself really deserve her shell better without me reason making post knows username way saying goodbye love you always will blame yourself fault,1 sitting dbt group realizing time end allive tried many means get better therapist reviewing homework another group member talks way much old enough mom cant imagine acting im age ive feeling extremely suicidal since monday sent er doctor said stable enough go home lie er doctor moment fine know draining people anymore time go,1 i want to be dead ive been suicidal for year im such a fucking retard filled with regret and anger im done with life i want all of this to stop why i cant do one thing right,1 @LucasBlack it's a clip on Bluietooth device which has built in microphone & also a 3.5mm socket for your 'own' headphones ,0 freezer bruhhhh youre always chilling,0 social flair one used exception serious art meme filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 wishing it wasn t in the morning sleeping is awesome work is not and i need to scrub my apt,0 "Mom's depression tied to kids' emotional, intellectual development http://www.reuters.com/article/us-health-mothers-depression/moms-depression-tied-to-kids-emotional-intellectual-development-idUSKBN1HW2MZ?feedType=RSS&feedName=healthNews …",1 why brain took nap wet dream ex interesting kinda weird would recommend,0 im mad context xbox computer use monitor speakers headphone jack controller plugged headset plugged play keyboard mouse minecraft im playing minecraft skywars pretty sweaty kill dude im low hp pearl another island whilst im controller decides slightly move joystick move forward overrides keyboard makes walk edge im genuinely considering spending get controller repair kit fixing,0 "@__xkul0tx__ you're wonderful & I hope that feeling never ends Morning is good. It's early, fam sleeping, me- hungry...",0 wait heck reason accounts different symbols bottom area also play button top account im using rn stuff,0 happy da de los muertossamhain ive seen lot memes saying guys sad spooktober spooktover wanted remind spookiness isnt done yet november st da de los muertos day dead guys still spooky moods making ofrendas dressing katrinas that samhain started last night ends tonight still feast leftover candy dullahan next bonfire or stove remember safe welcome spirits worlds one staying safe doesnt mean spookiness end neither end october fun recipe tamales httpswwwallrecipescomreciperealhomemadetamales,0 @rob16v Afternoon well spent then. Like it ,0 in bed i suddenly feel i wish ma wa here w me goodnight twitterfam,0 social media validation thing people actually value world reading tweet someone felt like invisible got thousands thousands likes replies famous actors whatnot yet continued say validation wasnt important part all bullshit say thats anyone cares about validation attention many people feel invisible world theres point even trying theyll never noticed another sad truth isnt it,0 friend suicidal dohey made friend school whos extremely suicidal ive known three weeks hes talked lot hes depressed doesnt want live ive course extremely concerned tried help theres nothing really do hes therapy sent hospital multiple times not attempting cutting thoughts redflag dont really know do seems really happy sometimes hes depression years ive kind hoped itd okay im worried hes trans grandmas supportive grandpa isnt he lives grandma grandpa messaged tonight said hes genuinely considering forget him ive sent long messages hes important many people care doesnt really respond says something else doesnt matter get im saying isnt helping hes upset dont even know say anymore ive tried listening point feel like thats enough want talk hotline something like said earlier hes hospital hasnt helped do,1 female need help depressionchronic fatigueim difficult place right now ive struggled depression life currently pretty high suicidal ideation im worried could kill end summer things improve main point post recommendations support get good life graduate degree job starting end summer supportive boyfriend good family great physical health negatives life really dont many friends less strong depression work weightlift cardio almost every day effort combat depression also eat relatively healthy diet im also three medications depression adhd trintellix mg vyvanse mg abilify mg work education last school year id go office take short naps exhausted continue working primary worry right exhaustion tend sleep hours day without really wanting get things im good do im worried depression make cant effectively complete work feel anxious want start feeling better end july time new job starts advice,1 names bond intermolecular bond,0 managed eat motherfuckin broccoli,0 dark chocolate redeeming qualities it think made crap went removed natural sugar already there even bittersweet bitter makes wanna die,0 yall coping fact lost year teens especially seniors im still sad lost senior year supposed like closure feel like ill forever feel like junior,0 wont post thr black chapter wont post im thinking whats gonna happen next chapter idea ill post,0 whats im bored anyone wanna chat m like computers video games music politics,0 "@Nice_White_Lady Not good, not in crisis mode or anything just yet but this weather isn't helping my depression.",1 tonight nighti want pills different kinds hope works,1 @RichoKidd i care only if u take me for a drive soon lol,0 it s been a while since i ve had depression episode and i think it ha come back but worse i m the first daughter of immigrant parent therefore i have to be perfect and be an example for my little sister i m falling a class in college and can t seem to get my grade up i can t focus i can t concentrate i stay up until am doing homework and studying but even though i try my best i feel like i m not progressing i don t want my parent to think i m a failure i want to make them proud but i can t find the inspiration to keep going i feel like sh t anxiety haunt me everyday and i just want this to stop i want to talk about how i feel with my mom but i don t want her to have a bad image of me in her head she know i have depression and anxiety since i wa diagnosed but i told her month ago that i wa okay i m not now i know that if i tell her that i feel depressed again she s just going to tell me to keep going my mom is not a bad mom i love her she ha done everything for me but she doesn t show u affection it might been the way she wa raised but i need to her her say that she s here for me or that she love me i can t remember when wa the last time she hugged me or said i love you i don t feel appreciated in this house when i try to be friendly or make a conversation with her it always end up with her being mad i ve gone several time to her room just to hang out with her but it seems that bother her when i try and hug her she tell me to stop i know she ll be very disappointed in me if she discovers i m not doing well in my class she ha criticized me because of what show i watch if i m enjoying a video game too much she ll tell me that s all you know how to do why don t you do something else instead of playing your little game she hate the music i enjoy listening all i want is to have a mom daughter moment but it doesn t happen i ve talked to her about this several time she cried once saying it wa hard for her too and i understand hard i know it s hard having a touched starved mentally unstable daughter that s why i don t want to bother her with my problem when i happen to have a problem with a member of my family aunt uncle or cousin she ll always be on their side it s like she want to please them i don t feel heard im 9 and on my th and 9th birthday i cried i wanted to spend my 9th birthday doing something i wanted and my parent said yes that wa until my step dad changed his mind and choose to visit his sister on my birthday hour away hour city i wa mad i feel like i had the right to my mom told me that i didn t have to come with them that i could stay in the house until they arrived sunday night my birthday wa on sunday i choose to go because i didn t want to spend the day without my family i didn t got to do anything i wanted i wa pretty bummed my mom and stepdad noticed this and yelled at me saying i didn t had to be here that i could ve stayed in the house my mom did bought me a cake and ate it when i arrived home and i wa grateful for that my aunt and uncle noticed how my mom and stepdad acted on the day of my birthday and felt bad for me they told me i should ve stayed with them and they would ve took me to the mall funny how my mom go all the way out for his birthday or my sister birthday i feel like i m a failure to them i m not the perfect daughter they wish they had it s like they just gave up on me at least is how i see it every time i talk to my mom she look at me with an annoyed face when i told her that i m kind of struggling with college she shrugged and told me that it s my fully because i choose this career it s true but i wa looking for some encouraging or caring word i feel what i need is a break im sorry for over sharing but i can t tell this to my friend or sister i don t want to bother or worry them,1 @siana_mia So happy our Sox won today! ,0 @kristenstewart9 I hope you have a great time. ,0 realised cant draw make dank meme shutterstock images,0 wtf babies eating cousin years old lifted medicine ball pounds wtf milk one time like months fell bed bed high fell bed n hit head dresser n didnt cry kid crackhead sumn,0 im the last hour everything fell apart my wife is kow filing for divorce anyone got advice on how to live with yourself and the world if that happens,1 friend friend committed suicide today devastatedi also friend pass hurting themself support anywhere idea would made feel better as honestly even sure dealt iti know lot words said things actually sitting silence feel right although know sometimes silent support neededif anyone suggestions dosay would greatly appreciated properly support friend friends suicide,1 anyone wanna talk yeah im back whoever looked recent post,0 I cant wait to see you again dude ,0 idk if i need to but putting a big fat trigger warning here for ed general bad thought and pedophilia a well a the fact that this is basically a long post complaining about everything wrong with my life lol i don t see the point of trying to tell myself that it ll get better when i know that the next few month will be so much worse than now i don t have any reason to try to keep myself from ending it when my body is already dying much quicker then i d like and i don t have the motivation or the purpose to tell anyone how bad everything s gotten cant forget the fact i am autistic trans gay and basically everything else that i won t ever get accepted or treated right for lol i don t hate myself i don t even see myself a a person i know i have delusion about myself that i don t feel comfortable sharing even though i m comfortable sharing literally every other problem i have but i hate that i wa born in general i don t think i should have been born at all especially since i wa born a fucking girl being trans is the worst fucking thing to come out of being alive i would give every failing organ in my body just to have been born a man i can t come out to anyone in person i wouldn t be accepted by the majority of people i know anyway because i won t ever be taken seriously a a man no one regardless of who i meet will ever see me a a real man and that hurt more than anything people might start using he him when they feel like doing so but since they ll still see me a a girl anyways i don t see the point sometimes i think of growing my hair back out throwing on a dress and pretending that i m comfortable with being a girl because part of me think that i could come to live with it in time sometimes i consider finding someone twice my age online just to give me fake validation because it ll be much more than i ll ever get in person i know it not healthy but neither am i i want the worst for myself because it ll make me feel temporarily better since we re already practically trauma dumping might a well mention that i ve been targeted by older men my whole life since i wa i ve been flirted with proposed to and had weird sexual comment thrown at me by adult all whilst my very own mother would watch and laugh never thinking to tell them to stop i mean she s never been any better considering that she is by far the one person who s made my life the worst it can be but i live with her and will do for at least the next few year so it s not like i can do anything about it i m only who know maybe this shit is normal and i should just suck it up and deal with it i could go into depth about how my mother ha fuelled my body issue and my eating disorder s how she s blatantly ignored the sign of autism i displayed from birth and now make fun of me get angry at me for and let me get severely underweight at a very young age because i couldn t handle any food texture and still put it down to me just being picky having an eating disorder might actually kill me before i kill myself haven t lost any weight from it but have basically lost everything else my heart is faring the worst it s absolutely terrifying feeling it malfunction but for some reason i can t tell anyone how bad it s actually gotten i go to the doctor occasionally and they know there s at least thing wrong with my heart but they don t take it seriously unless i experience symptom which i do severely at that but i haven t told anyone and now i have to face the consequence for it s been getting so much worse in the last few month granted i haven t had another almost heart attack since middle of last year i had every heart attack symptom at once i broke out into a cold sweat in my bathroom and felt the worst anxiety i ve ever felt my vision started to go static and fade i wa practically holding onto my heart and i ve never felt so much like i wa going to die not even after i overdosed but i ve watched my heart rate drop to 0 on multiple occasion and seen it go way above 0 after just walking up some stair most night i sleep le than hour because every time i ve tried to sleep ive been worried that my heart will just give out and i won t wake up for some reason i can stomach killing myself but i can t handle not dying from my own hand i don t know what i want out of this empty reassurance someone to tell me i m not being unreasonable maybe i just want people to relate i think more than anything though i just want someone to talk to not even about the bad shit just someone to engage with and tell about my hyperfixations someone who won t just ignore me and most of all i want a friend i don t think i ll get that here i don t expect to nor do i really think it s fair i don t want to live anymore and i know that if i reach i ll end up ruining my life one way or another i don t care what happens to me anymore because it ll just get worse anyway if you ve read this far sorry for wasting your time drink some water or smth tldr im suffering and i have absolutely no outlet or the help i need,1 im m ive been in a constant battle with anxiety and mood swing disorder and i promised myself if life dont get better by my th birthday im offing myself so idk if there a god and he listening to me or if there another world waiting for me i just need strength because i feel like this is my last chapter in life and i feel 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Great song ? http://blip.fm/~5isvn,0 takingmonths ago started make playlist music would lead it dont really anything love nothing loved by im grey object im tired nice people get negative feedback im tired used taken advantage of im tired person put be im done yeah kind person gets far ive found holding back even more gun loaded im ready take away im tired me cant change am,1 feel awkward posting need somewhere go dont like talking people knowlet give little background story around half year ago lost lot family lot tears lost entire friend group year difficult thankfully two people still say hold dear im thankful that mental state doesnt want listen that nothing wrong loose friend group talked behind back extremely harshly yet able manipulate rest friend group thinking bad guy however word that get really emotional occasionally sometimes ball eyes sometimes im pissed point want beat something feel like somehow something wrong deserve feel way treated way hate feeling like this dont want wake half time l dread falling asleep know im going wake feeling way morning anyways around months ago made pact best friend never know apologies sort difficult say even type im sure get mean honestly im extremely surprised long ive kept pact really really dont want anymore dont want let down love shes extremely fault person know apologies knowing word things correctly im sure deal this dont want open it shell worry handful worry stress is dont want add that end able fight urge heck supposed tell her wouldnt able guilt would build inside me eats every day feeling way wanting things want myself things everything keep inside needs let much say weight mindset keeps getting worse worse makes feel ugly gives urges you know dont need top everything else dont want eat dont everyone gets suspicious eat much warn genes hate just ughhhhh wake up look mirror compare myself hate see eat compare myself difference feel knowledge keeps reminding progress doesnt happen night insecurities keeps reminding im ugly ive set therapy appointments cant tell therapist anywhere near actually feel without sent mental hospital point is want really bad things feel like pile crap comes consequences im sure face feel really terrible posting dont want give anyone ideas anything sort feel like bubble wont let pop hopefully makes sense dont want anyone else feel way opening entirely bad thing whenever someone opens makes feel good someone know come to dont like come people hypocritical practically everything post is im good knowing word things hope makes sense sorry rant may offtopic really sure first post here,1 see one dude skirt ima make geneva conventions fucking todo list,0 without distractions feel crippling anxiety complete blanknessi seek forms escapism anything else distracts life things like movies social events eating out course sleep im something im sitting there begin think happens remind nothing matters worse someone love could die moment crippling write stories rnosleep sometimes writing process comments messages get biggest thing life believe not helps lot distract me help escape actual life have people leave thankful comments supportive messages enjoyed story keeps sane even lasts days reminds people care stop posting stories wake up whenever im distracted state called life dreadful anxiety feelings meaningless return know else do im probably making post distract again get comments remind people care exist,1 im teasing,0 florence vidor stars daughter strict bible toting father throws house gossip taints name big city finds dying wife brother the two secretly married raises child own years later goes back home confront familybr br this old melodrama heavily larded fascinating feminist themes circa sounding remarkably modern laid trowel as father theodore roberts gives eyebrows real workout well put together dramatically lovingly composed shot cinematographer henry sharp,0 @HayleyTxxx hey! 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Do I need a passport to travel to Texas? ,0 @GuySebastian Have a good nights sleep ,0 killing im manfuck man fuck women assuming life better less difficult theirs feminism big croc shit help upper middle class white women pretend gives fuck others actually anything it oh poor white trash guy life must easy need college help job help mental help dare try seek mens health services anything any fuck this,1 thinking of pay day another week to go lol,0 infinitydefines omgawd i couldnt handle my cat being in heat all the time d d,0 i am suicidal almost everyday i have about half a semester left of my st year of college i am constantly studying or driving to school or doing homework i do not have time to go to the doctor for my mental health but i think it s gon na be too late one day i simply can not find the motivation to use one of my limited free day during the week to go to the doctor because i d rather lay in bed because i m depressed this is the worst sickness ever,1 going to work,0 weebs beg trap girlfriend show boyfriend dick leaves,0 yo male good life experiences including backpacking vietnam visited paris barcelona enjoyed cities like nashville boston montreal scottsdale moved fl gf whim successful sales career making six figures since averaged new car every months currently second home owned valued k working opening first business now i wanted include feel people know outside assume would extremely happy life successes anything caused pain loneliness things answer anyones depression also assume people appear good places really mind bandaid problems stuff hide problems ourselvesi struggled depression redflag whole life early rd grade remember pitifully trying strangle balloon string sounds silly unrealistic looking back tried ecstacy handful times never conjunction peaks depression redflag almost years car business definitely worsened depressionredflag significantly left explore start business really took toll myself worsened since took buproprion sertraline months ago losing insurance recently girlfriend decided ecstacy us home extremely therapeutic regard mental health health downsides sure this extremely infrequent use worried downsides helped meto describe mental health state prior to felt empty constantly fight flight little enjoyment anything found breaking crying often breaking point breaking crying felt guilty thinking badly wish could disappear unfair tell sister first child want watch grow tell girlfriend want start life family together would rather gone clarify want hurt kill myself cried even harder also destroyed realizing answer stay feel empty useless sake everyone else meant life pain me winningwhen ecstacy allowed feel assuming seratonin pump allowed appreciate able hold girlfriend feel joy feel much meant much enjoyed presence allowed remember made life worth living happiness like able work thoughts inside fresh palate open mind able address things afraid address think ways able long time shit eating grin entire time felt alive again next day even better much lesser baseline enough get day ability feel good eventually euphoria went away mind ease high stopped still able work thoughts affirm reasoning around unlike drugs likely remember experience ecstacy similar drugs take away thoughts you all stuck place unable crawl out honestly feel controlled experience like may good let revisit life new perspective reason way hole curious hear peoples opinions this either against happy answer questions well anyone use ecstacy depressed experience,1 absolutely nothing wrong me simply choose longer existhello ive created plans methods organized explanations loved ones decided want die exactly days today longer exist thought quite exciting me wait figure lies beyond if anything simply cease experience existence little bit me suicidal depressed actually perfect mental health poor ugly unloved unintelligent aspects consider perfectly blessed life years alive experienced little hardships probably tell now negative outlook life simply want end it reason making post begin day journey finally understanding impulse act ultimately kill myself redflag understood us literature philosophy relevant media discussions experienced far act desperation simply beg differ experiences stand direct contradiction this since age last years ive played around idea redflag early interest described morbid curiosity following questions like what death find first hand questioning morbid curiosity transferred disciplined approach became engrossed philosophy literature everywhere find characterisation redflag completely incompatible feel someone would ask would change life would answer thing perfectly satisfied beautiful girlfriend loves me treats right express true self to good circle friends support me loving parents great academic record far tons accomplishments proud of moment life entirely happy satisfied existing longer may change that simply quit ahead furthermore ideation redflag empowering me clear interested mutilating harming self unhealthy ideations violence act actually sickens chosen quick painless dignified method feel empowered idea making first last choice life thing truly own choose born thrown world heidegger would say difference simply longer want experience being want experience nonbeing correctly cease experience existence thank you hope someone gained understanding relation existence,1 a lot of post and answer here are about health anxiety which i don t have or social anxiety which i do have but isn t the problem most of the time i ve had really bad anxiety for a long a i can remember and it s only starting to get better now that i ve been taking antidepressant for about a month but i just don t understand where the anxiety is coming from and even what it is about i don t know what i m afraid of i couldn t tell you what i m stressed out about recently my therapist told me my anxiety come from an obsessive disorder but not like ocd he explained it wa only mental but i still don t get it so i guess my question is doe anybody else here have that kind of anxiety and could you explain it to me it just drive me crazy to have my life ruined by something that doesn t make any sense,1 film left breathless wanting learn afghan history traditions todays evil doer mantra clouding reality inspirational experience beauty people beliefsbr br casting impeccable scenery simply marvelous acting first rate fact academy overlooked except music unforgivablebr br the script wonderful emotional journey provoking ugly cry watcherbr br a film worth watching second third time,0 itwhats purpose go school get job get wife kids grow old die death catches us matter amazing life live ive suicidal thoughts since like im senior year college least another ahead grad school want pediatric occupational therapy work special needs population whats fucking point family friends dropping left right healthiest people know getting cancer scummiest dwellers continue succeed really see purpose life anymore whole life ive pushed idea away family would heartbroken fuck cares anymore selfish act theres little ones home theyd get it work go numerous times week live fulfilled life seems utterly pointless maybe im missing something here many honestly say waste time energy look stars night helps realize fucking irrelevant one us bigger picture,1 dont readi really sorry survived last time one knew tried ones leaving behind one could done anything fault trust better im gone one less idiot thats way repair things destroyed humans destroyed hope feels better without me course sorry changes nothing hope god tells take care loved ones,1 allt jag tweetar om r jobbet bus 9 och depression d h r e s sorgligt,1 my world ha been falling apart for a decade i ve finally hit the bottom i need someone to talk to real bad anybody i m cry in an empty teamspeak atm opening apps hoping to see someone,1 hangingjust tested see feels like bad afterall surprisingly easy puppy staring goddamn cowardly lift weight floor fuck this,1 emergency im worriedhey all long time lurker first time poster years ive commented posts shared strategies generally helped felt could however first time podium im ive suicidal like years know tricks even gotten point feel episode coming prepare properly anyway month loose seasonal job and break lack success stuff feel real dark periods like weeks away time something weird happening im scared normally idea might finally fills dread brain completes checklist consequences anxiety bubbles freak out recently though feels great anxious situation thinking leaving like breathing holding hours like im finally getting permission relax before im burdened ideas hurting family friends peers brain accepts moves on days thought redflag zen thing world im immediate danger happen next week ive fought thing bunch times think im starting make peace fact last fight might coming weird thing like anyone else similiar place before let know ps community awesome darkest episodes amazing see people thinking way me lets keep shit up,1 hey guys screwing around phone vibration settings found increase vibration intensity touch interaction phone shoved ass im typing make phone vibrate mind,0 slipping again help get pleasehey all male developing country first time im losing grip always find way time feel like kick strong first time think need guidance interested in please skip single word kindly read this itll interesting read least first all little background problems social anxiety throughout teenage years put lot effort close friends romantic relationships last year highschool ive changed took reins many friends lovely life companions everyone left one one university happens hardest years life getting mixed depressionanxiety another thing ive always felt belong country never feel like im socalled friends feel like act around survive live on ive always dreamed escaping adulthood sneaked in ive started accept ill never follow dreams something happened summer ive decided visit friend different country changed whole life cities ive visited fun sex people no people befriended there ive felt born again social mask ive created home needed among them decided finish last year uni home move next year like said many hard years trying find good friends ive found probably best people ive ever met best part left also love much told theyve never met person lives think theyre kind else spend full weeks day night oh yeah theres girl much time spend interested little say were friends much could ask atm first thought like another country actually not hot perfect human like us think like person much anyway ive decided go back winter vacation like said im planning live near future ive found job save money im focused finishing uni feel social alter ego exactly opposite thought years social less anxious better person me problem starts here soon stepped homeland people started disgust me friends graduatedon vacation theres social life got used years even was itll people problem getting along with misanthropy kicked in came anxiety since also feel lovesick weird way im afraid losing new friends every evening get home work want call listen speaking get rid problems head busy life thousands kilometers us ive realized best thing keep talking her getting better slowly get back winter heavy burden me look calendar feel closer every day also burden feels heavier especially starting week feel anxious old me feel like darkness starts sneak again feel lost weak almost broken years ive learned need talk people moments like this friends really bad listening me new friends vacation wanna scare her choking text messages personal problems moment im slowly sinking deep stupid ideas giving everything and know tldr lazy people read post feel like giving try please help me wanna anxiousdepressive grumpy lifeless waste skin again,1 plenty written mamets the house games good decided revisit flick see held years surprised much enjoyed viewing again films success durability probably much two principal ingredients always fun film good story good scam mamet manages bring signature moodiness obvious histrionics film scamming us audience mark simultaneously explains art conning again etc building story the house games freebie cable worth look first timers okay rerun mamet fans b,0 Sleeping Pill UK – Most Affordable Cure for Insomnia & Depression http://fancy.to/2xpve1  via @fancy,1 lol fucking everyone whos like i partner im suicidaldo us favor fucking stop posting shit people actually fucking issues someone talk makes rest us actual issues feel worse go fuck fucking fake depressed losers cant wait muh ptsd fucking losers absolutely nothing wrong brain oh sad memories,1 im sophomore next year want drop high school andor kill myselfi cant it light end tunnel internet boyfriend cant school im clinically depressed add ask questions want im tired rant huh fuck,1 damn gon stop talkin ppl least say goodbye friend even talk anymore glad get close,0 for context i m a yr old mom of two kid my daughter is and my son is month i have been struggling with all type of mental illness for a long a i can remember i wa raised by a narcissist alcoholic mom and a dad who wa barely there because he wa working to support u i have attempted to take my life more than time and have been hospitalized for my mental health and nothing seems to help i m in therapy and on med and i am just tired of fighting myself i just want it all to stop my husband is never really home do you work and i m all alone all the time with our kid the only reason i m still alive is because they need me not even because i want to be alive there is nothing enjoyable for me anymore every time i think about it i cry i cry for my kid who deserve a better mom and a better life i cry for my husband who doesn t understand what it s like to feel this way and think i should just be ok i cry because i want it all to end so badly and i can t even do that right i m not still here because i want to be and i feel so much guilt for that i just want to feel normal and sometimes it feel like dying is the only way to make it stop,1 Had some great cookies now going to bed ,0 stupid question unlock windows button keyboard ive locked accidentally really inconvenient lmao,0 caused me to choke on my dinner and puke up half a chicken or maybe the chicken wa poisoned how do i know,1 theres light end tunnel dont think reach itive lost esteem lately dreams medical field crushed feels like ive fallen deeper hole students grade destroyed self esteem parents arguing lot father gets mad random points calls useless dog going put down reason im ending guitar keeping ive partially given that end it,1 "@sanasaleem @mystakool jus wait 2 days, @rabiagarib will surely respond to all. And me too, for advocating her ",0 would rather the first party send bad message than the rd party send mixed one sophmore year all over again,0 im drunkall drink make friends dislike every time interact me use life talk would person people would look forward talking to im person people want interact drinking time feel like interact people drink time talk people like regular person drink solution need use it im pussy need someone talk with friends say im bipolar drink personally know am need someone talk phone voice,1 saw something forever changed man police officer stopped teen black male anything wrong cop told tie tied correctly teen told way date never learned propperly orphan police officer steps car redoes young males tie tells looks nice look teens face thanks officer gave hope life full good people,0 @Thorpeland No signal is the message that comes up on most monitors here when it's on but has no source. ,0 9 today and i fucked up my life so bad i suffer from some medical problem which ha consumed my marriage pushing my wife away i know she s having a affair because i suffer from ed and must take a pill somehow she hold all that against me we live in the same house but she refuse to go to counseling let s face a fact we were both not always so kind to each other for year thing started getting better a couple year ago or so i though can t sleep can t eat ha been well over a month without rem sleep i get maybe a couple hour then wake up for hour doze off for another about my body is tired my mind is tired i just want this to end the only way i know how trying some sleeping pill w muscle relaxer even going to take higher dose of insulin to put me out she s in another room so won t know till morning if best,1 "Yesterday was a big day: shorten my bangs up, so I can finally see the world, I got my new camera and yesterday was a free day. Yayy!",0 cke day love guys filler filler filler filler filler,0 hi all going through a break up and the anxiety is so overwhelming right now to the point where i can t even think about food without getting nauseous i know i can t sustain myself this way but i just don t feel like i can get any food down i wa thinking i might just get some high cal protein shake or something ha anyone found a better solution to getting food in thanks,1 cant thisim really shitty night feel like theres one turn to also dont want turn anyone dont want burden want disappear,1 helenthornber i dunno but i used to get fruitsalads and blackjack from the post office we never got applejack tho,0 coffee time wish i had whiskey like cameronreilly,0 nice person want get hurt go away told friend talk anymore,1 overdose plannedi know right sub this wanted reason planned overdose goodbyes say now im sorry triggering explicit method hopeless,1 @naontiotami your hair looks nice jack *she tries to pacify the beast of rage,0 woke failed attempt someone gone something similar want maybe talk itim ever since started high school grades tanked really hard due mental illness ive found gpa isnt great ive failed classes im going junior year everyone around amazing school wasnt always bad school cant get honor kid mindset grown since k grade couldnt see making graduation even finding makes feel even worse im wondering failed bunch classes bad gpa ended alright end like im expecting get ivy league school anything im trying make seem like im deservingcan achieve average life happy im doing turned alright story share think itd really help out youve made far thanks reading kind hefty haha,1 first saw film transmitted around bbc working uks ad pal steve parkhouse recorded vhs sent me till point id really seen shaw bros kung fu movies harsh lighting so audience could see moves clearly revelation see something looked like lit ridley scott coming hong kong also first exposure movies tsui hark pronounced apparently 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Glad to hear there was now weirdness ,0 "@thespybrief @RobynForZen You know what they say: Depression is just anger without the enthusiasm. I'm heartened by the enthusiasm & righteous anger toward acts of injustice. It means we're neither numb nor succumbing to them, & democracy isn't at as much risk.",1 wake move brain another body world nothing offer,0 @shannanstedman haha maxxie beat whippet ,0 fighting since hero killed himself stunted socially unplugged form passion lived life without passion without skills develop around socialization path forward spent past years failing changing situation tried learn countless skills none thrived would like quit now really worried hurting young nephew unplugging way unplugged cannot go like this hear see beauty head cannot express fingers workout starve best can body change sad time would like strength selfish would also like spit gods stupid face cruel hack years in totally stuck,1 ive suicidal years differentmany people told time baby would daze go blank eyes crying happy okay first time wanted run away three years old step dad locked outside we lived one worst parts projects time said im going run away want mom camped bed truck went inside next morning awoke mom panic find me spun nice web her made feel bad scaring her punished usual holding encyclopedias straight front undetermined length timedrop one get two more night went sleep came conclusion simply want exist first suicidal thought came six years old seemed birthday forgotten wasntmy mom gave one balloon angrily rushed get groceries inside alone extremely sad threw weight tied ribbon balloon ground causing balloon become unattached cried jumped token proved someone cared flew sky thought occurred me mom angry worried birthday six obviously see upset afford anything me moment best thing thought could fall large tree hopefully injured would cease exist next decade would learn control thoughts would learn find things live for would learn detect episode unfortunately learning picked habit cutting never heard anyone it pain make stop hand hurts hurt hand notice initial pain right habit me took life hospitals a took years anyone notice b poor c dad always told work myself helpful cant seem see light anymore thats now stopped cutting routinely years ago last years finally taken toll ive abused entire existenceconvinced im manipulative unstable although professionals keep telling im everything right led believe im far yet much less am litany things last years though done in ive seen caused much pain feel much pain time want scream cry laugh dance punch things used able talk thinking wayconvince bad making although reality much worse realized time cant feel end coming ive started writing letters even one life idea cant understand feels like know theres train screaming toward bound tracks silently accepting soon dead reaching out attempt die,1 my girlfriend finally left me my depression drove our relationship into ruin it also drove my relationship with my family into the ground i feel so hopeless i feel so much sorrow and so much rage toward myself i m not emotionally stable one negative thing can put my mental state so deep in the negative i don t know what to do anymore but killing myself i feel tired all the time i try to work for something but then i fail and can t pick it back up cause of my exhaustion why is it so painful watching the people you love leave knowing you can t blame anyone but yourself and they think i m not trying hard enough or i dont care about them i just can t win the battle in my head with my depression and my anxiety i wa never religious but i started praying for god lately to end my life please i just want to go and rest i just want to be at peace,1 sub go minutes without post wow,0 is excited for her friend date today ,0 thoughts feelings starting creep back ini okay couple weeks even know tbh did reason usual thoughts feelings coming back im constantly bad mood im tired all im miserable idk anymore itd nice someone talk everyone ghosts lmao,1 trouble dreaming may give movie low rating realize movie made please everyonebr br just people sense humorbr br for people movie great plays old science fiction movies radio shows long gone witch brated themselves along lines spaceballs airplane may need stretch imagination little bit get jokes well worth it,0 something thats started happening recently sometimes world becomes unreal things like houses blow minddont even get started wheels weird things normal state mind barely impact get kind trance everything becomes surreal googled feeling results seem related redflag wanted hear others experience too,1 take a deep breath...pyuuhhh...whatta a shocking news...but i'm happy ,0 fucking done life going buy liquor morning normal people alike tittle,1 "@adorablekat28 No. I think it'll be too small for my books, but I'll probably get it anyway. ",0 @jadysalonga its ok! it won't start until 6 naman IM SO EXCITED AND I JUST CAN'T HIDE IT! ),0 the jackal remake excellent day jackal better esthetics and boatload budget film nails actual persona carlos downbr br quinn excels naval officer enlisted impersonate wiley jackal draw hiding and hands kingsley sutherland turns inside so risking family career believes in takes task albeit utterly unwillinglybr br to say would spoil it excellent filmbr br nirostars of ,0 im good man brain makes feel like nobody wants like dont stuff people wont like,0 endim trapped im gonna get rope hang myself way out ive completely lost hope,1 editor voice applications and maybe drawing applications animated explanationhistory video thinking making animated video not moving animation like powerpoint animation need help anyone reading editing talent experience making videos pm talk anyone drawing talent pm see skilled enough get part video digital art only unpaid final video make profit people worked usernames credits questions,0 @AndreaGillies Take plenty of bottled water ,0 boys got base said loves filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 pls help something cuz idk tomorrow im gonna meet gf im really nervous dont know things gonna turn out im also really shy guy general anyone got advice,0 getting harder dayis point anymore,1 run away abusive household become homeless two days family friends tired everythinglife incredibly unfair me tried hard happy find peace love cant even imagine shit go lose mind raised narcissist mother run away home one week ago let sleep days last monday got scammed shitty hostel half money booking give answer like usd left place go become homeless two days im also living third world country luck probably get stabbed robbed first fucking night ask ticket hell life im really tired everything going wrong year year,1 ive bought different questionnairewriting prompts books past daystheres lot fill out im done think im going finally relieve myself want want know things me answers want leave filled whoever reads know life good bad terrible life well compared some know want spend much time here im ready lead next life one not im ready rest peacefully,1 inexplicably watched movie first time couple days ago understood beginning fuss about movie held attention beginning end ran whole range emotions and might helped discover never knew aboutbr br dustin hoffman absolutely shines ted kramer absolutely convincing man juggle least three different challenges life jilted husband workaholic ad executive loving father meryl streep joanna kramer less central movie simply joanna absent good part it screen gave hoffman run money true standout though in opinion young justin henry billy kramer children always innocent victim marital breakdown justin seemed absolutely natural completely believable role deals conflicting emotions around mother adjustment life dad confusion around leave dad mom walked him young justin seem miss beat difficult rolebr br all all excellent oscarworthy movie whose weak point thought truly disappointing decision go sappy happy ending totally unrealistic considering destructive custody battle ted joanna gone through theres much else complain herebr br ,0 emberassing moment boner class girl looked it wbu,0 im gnna go to sleep i have depression i love my friends and nct and wonwoo,1 today learned whatever happens masturbate menthol shampoo even try,0 hate worldone day day come,1 on my way to kroger then to the pool. waiting on a tea at mcdon.,0 im tired dependent dadim f live dad work job merchandising company got me hate job offers challenge reward cant accepted people got situation first place worthless degree gets laugh whenever tell people it stupid im feeling consequences spend several hours library looking solutions every night cry sleep wanting die sexistcontrol thing everything wrong life entirely fault im burden dad every night hold bottle pills wanting end it hed relieved deal anymore,1 body clock still up the chuffer note never ever stay up late again also afro is back,0 need help killing myselfi considering redflag really want die know successfully it thought overdosing pills ibuprofen pills arthritis pain pills tylenol it random pills would overdosing kill me,1 im gonna go sleep dream mcdonalds whatcha want filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 Just had the best starbucks ever!!!!! ,0 feeling really alone wrote thisits always like this everyone seems think works like grief hit waves waves pull back slowly completely get better waves stopped ill next march hear happiness said genetic family tree pretty upsetting one unfortunately true nothing mean friends those mean family found family one given dysfunctional makes life harder made life hell living has see world around me eyes woken peaceful nightmare see real painful world cant keep this cant keep giving heart people trying friend receiving agonizing pain especially always ask anything back started realized self respect something supposed pretend have days far behind me beginning life either im weary starts im sad im kind wallow seek help usually takes long whatever reason get worse start build way back stability myself im bad it usually get help along way usually therapist take look got bad work love therapy always have get better better sort of hits always different always hard times easier most always springs back me theres cure even want it i want risk would rather peace feel alone afraid like first times hit hard thing ive called help ive asked around ive done bit im therapy weight everything crushing much chronic depression doesnt always go away functions similarly grief lingers hangs air keeps you isnt simple never be,1 make good greats homies make good grades fillerfillerfilllerfillerfillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerrfifo fillerfillerfilllerfillerfillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerrfifo fillerfillerfilllerfillerfillerfiller love baby,0 ladies & gentlemen: i am going to bed now. dreaming of @joeymcintyre performing 5 brothers & a million sisters ,0 ok lets save the date for my passion party... JUNE 13.. Passion party. Dont have the exact location yet but it will def be going dwn! ,0 i have a hard time articulating how i really feel and it frustrates me to no end i just wan na let it all out but it so hard it make it a lot difficult to seek help when i can t really explain what i m feeling and thinking about i can somewhat recognize what i m feeling but the moment i try to write it down or explain it my mind go blank though i can say a part of me doe feel guilty for unloading all my problem onto someone so maybe thats one of the reason i m unable to reach out to people for help plus another part of me is like trying to convince myself i m actually ok and faking it or being overdramatic which also stop me from saying anything so i usually turn to the internet to see if there s anyone who might feel the same way and could explain it in word better than i can i m sort of relieved to know that there are other people feeling exactly what i m feeling cause it really make me feel like i m not alone in this although it really suck that we all have to go through this i m not in a good state right now so i can t really give word of encouragement without feeling like a hypocrite but yeah you re definitely not alone in this,1 @chewysun Me too! ,0 my heart is broken every morning dropping foo at pre school now i understand when mom say quot he ha my heart broken quot,0 thought okay lately night feel like ending allnah im really it could die really mind like kill myself plane wanted crash right here would happy thought beaten social anxiety man women fucking women im still extremely awkward around women swear women socially apt guys would never understand women drive man crazy wanna kill deal approach women time life fuck everything fuck fuck ughhh know im drunk really feel right wanna girl love her loving me cuddle together really hard ask girls love with ended beign completely horrible human beigns me hate that even though logically know bad people really hate damaged heart never girl feel really liked me feel like im privileged even sex probably horrible it since even women hated man hate myself thats probably women like fuck hate hate world hate teverthyng fuck even care anything hope feel happy im sober sorry ive disturbed really feel like right now take literally stream conscsiouness thoughts fuck fuck friend,1 wish someone could methe amount times ive driving car wishing semi coming would swerve lane times ive walking street hoping car see hoping murderer would decide make victim times ive wanted fucking die cant it wish someone else would kind enough rip band aid me theres one person ill really regret leaving behind enough outweigh wanting die love im ready die,1 goin abroaaaaad tomrow.. Dubaiiii Can't wait... So long twitters... I only have room for prodigy sorry peeps!,0 not overtly i ve never said the word good bye obviously but i ve begun to try and have good final moment with the people i care about just to them one last time make a nice meal for them have a phone call with someone i haven t talked to in awhile tell people i love them just making the round so the people i leave behind have one last positive memory of me is it overly dramatic maybe but i feel better about what i need to do at least,1 real value anyonejust venting seriously point alive,1 reddit logo back orange white pog like logo lot more im tired businesses changing logos seem socially accepted know believe that want popularity,0 ssenpai place minecraft bbed next yours ___________________________________,0 fucken a man lol tiring night at work hope to get this job for got bout the hill dang nabbit lol,0 so i have a stutter and i ve always been insecure about it i wa with my best friend and his friend and his friend made fun of someone s stutter because he s not aware i stutter this made me realize how easy it is to make fun of people behind their back i felt really bad that night and started cry when i got home cause it made me realize i didn t know who wa being real with me and i felt a tho i wa devalued flash to today and it wa still bugging me but i realized something those people aren t exclusively making fun of people like me but making fun of a lot more than a stutter people are made fun of for stutter tic religion sexuality lisp appearance and more i realized it s not my problem to worry about them and most people that make fun of others will show themselves with time and real nice people will never do that this made me content and i wa happy i forgot about it for the most part and went about my business but i posted something to reddit about it and someone said they had a similar experience and it lead to going into psychosis and being paranoid about people talking badly about them this made me almost have a panic attack when i wa eating with my parent because going psychotic is one of my biggest fear ever since then i ve felt so anxious it took a good 0 0 minute to calm myself down and not be on the edge of a panic attack ever since then i can t shake this thought but now for a different reason instead of worrying who s judging me i m worrying if i believe it i ve had this fear before but when it s bad it get so bad it feel like i m already psychotic even tho i m not and today wa one of those day it feel like the thought you believe if fact and i have terrible depersonalization this ha happened time before this and normally after a good sleep my anxiety tone down a bit but since this is a little different and it started out without that anxiety doe that mean i am going crazy instead of thinking anyone is judging me i keep asking myself if i think these specific people at my work would judge me idk why once again that wa cause ocd started to ob on it now but since i had this thought before ocd doe it mean i m going crazy or am i sane since i m worrying so much about it,1 new years eve im alone again feels inevitableive depressed months meds work little bit stop feeling hopeless theres nights lay bed sob sleep tried asking friends doing one wants spend time obviously ive tried talking one friends it says head perceptions filtered depression change fact want around either fact couple months ago others said theyd come birthday one showed up devastating almost went night acted apologetic think want responsible me cut thanksgiving christmas spent alone im slightly estranged entire family except mother point im hanging solely her made mistake opening depression sounded truly concerned might one person miss me want hurt her im tired hurting myself im tired time everything takes effort know go on im scared im starting scared living more know much endure theres lot going on shitty job debt bad making friends nothing interests more etc already longer thought mentioned im tired think ill go work tomorrow then everyone great time without me ill jump front train od sleeping pills walk lake anything cold take even water doesnt might best mom know sure intentional,1 i m so damn tired today actually i need to take a nap when i m at home but there s no time,0 my boyfriend mean the world to me but he just doesn t seem to see it muchless understand,0 think bad sit home day warm home online school well guess what crush moved different school starting think liked ugly ass,0 want someone help mebut help mean find rope nice sturdy spot hang,1 "getting ready for schoooool, home at 3ish, texxt meee ",0 corrosivecandy ive forgotten how to snoo snoo i wonder if snoo snoo and i will ever meet again,0 "@PhantomPen Yah, weird. Real glad you're back. Now - STAY! ",0 twxtd jordan i wish i could i have to keep my door open for other people that may need me,0 update cuttertilldeathso update life going now original post months ago httpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentslnoocuttertilldeath first statement ill start saying finally diagnosed major depressive disorder aswell severe anxiety might add update cut past months now used think killing everyday every morning wokeup something bad happened day went bed fell asleep night would pray wakeup morning wanted pain suffering over id gone world people life would move act never there one would care everyones lives would lot easier parents friendsif even call that boyfriend ive multiple attempts aswell planned out left redflag notes ready it well see unfortunately im still alive update weeks ago jumped nd story bedroom window im okay though wanted die get higher left ankles sprained everything else fine depression medication wellbutrin xl working really well love anxiety medication klonopin fucking amazing feel calm piece surroundings get tense anxious racing thoughts great d boyfriend brokeup im really well broke months ago great part is hes still best closest friend emotional attachment anymore were other d communication mother anymore afraid stand upspeak myself assertiveness amp mindfullness key d,1 im always stressed anyone know less stressed week exam week basically free time late night early morning except today dont class calm feel like im failure get score lower passing dont wanna disappoint parents sunday bday please help ive trying making shitposts subreddit working,0 thought this being a day week would make tuesday more bearable i wa wrong,0 want kill dont want thati want daydream happy things want able open people close want able live normal life,1 finally told friends feel themi meltdown earlier something asked exfiancee done wanted get number deleted nhs records keep getting appointment confirmation texts them anyway blew facebook im sick getting ignored everyone im sick trying open problems constantly get shrugged one wants know selfharm everyday one friends made smarmy comment blew him told hes part problem cant reach people wanna know explained im reaching whenever ask friends theyre coming xbox live normally say rarely say yes theyll join people instead me reach like way distract bad shit going head im playing game im cutting fucking wrists anyway ive blocked facebook ill ignore xbox bother anymore im gonna sit room myself im used to hopefully balls make cut deep enough kills me,1 fck wrong you ashamed you shameful im donemy mom sent cant take world anymore im complete loser im ready die,1 byetheres reason live anymore bye,1 planning end near futureim usually type make harsh decisions due emotions anything like that ive really depressed since child soon afterwards suicidal reason taken action fear hurting family entire life ive struggling life amp myself see failure cant seem improve myself im usually real optimistic lifeenjoying person maybe thats think im trying seem always put happy mask im alone give everyone much love can never myself things ive loved life cant seem enjoy anymore feel pain regret look mirror achieved done life know leaving world leave people devastated would like think make selfish choice ive watched every motivational video therapist etc every thing heardseen told ages ago nothing really helps lowers feeling just quit anyone experienced anything similar amp got better honestly know do,1 @GlowVirtual Yes! I do! Glad to see you can join in #designchat,0 "For some people, psychiatric diagnosis is helpful, and the problem is that it was not given early enough. For others, a diagnosis is deeply oppressive. What's your experience? http://bit.ly/2JmldiA #Psychiatry #MentalIllness #Schizophrenia #Depression #Borderline #OCD",1 "@ericdot mine was 44GB, you broke my record ",0 there people help youthe quote said frequently friends exgirlfriend told people willing help suicidal thoughts searching online declined twice councillors visit local gp doctor offered number call disappointment told too young service suited me think metal illnesses treated equal everything else ear infection know get appointment doctor next day able help metal illness clear guidance go talk treated as serious wrong opinion damage person lot more,1 "#News #Story #Article https://ift.tt/2qYemo7  #Exercise can prevent depression, no matter your age or gender",1 my biggest emotion is anxiety i can t deal with it anymore i tried gettibg help even medicine for it but no help the pit in my stomach every single day constantly restless can t sleep well or eat well can t function at time if i didn t die from heart issue due to constant anxiety and stress i will end up killing myself just to feel some peace,1 im aboutim talkative person really enjoy spilling thoughts people topic find hard bring im people care decided go anonymous want go overly detail im average yo male college student go apparent hardships life loving family although parents divorced was finishing highschool old enough negatively impact me plenty supportive friends enjoyed life traveled lot got relationships experienced things many people cant need much longer to extremely strong urge die whenever im alone cant help feel strong pressure chest area describe it feels like anxiety asking girl first time much negative although examined psychiatrist though ive asked come meeting school mental heath test went told im perfectly okay denying anything thew me clearly guess feeling depression feeling keeps telling end everything way make go away battle urge started cutting leg helps although temporarily gives feeling actually killing although im not since im cutting important veins helps ease pressure also makes feel better next days makes feel like im healing reason temporary solution that like drug slowly loses effectiveness times began cutting deeper make it first times basically scraped skin im cutting flesh it ive basically become numb physical pain point mean still feel pain simply care anymore depression going since highschool years already lasted kept finding kind motivation continue despite situation right motivation care wake tomorrow enough feeling constant bickering time im smart enough know easy decision go back on want absolutely sure resolute ive decided basically setup exact timer death based life going bought small glass vials whenever im feeling urge point absolutely needing cut myself fill blood ill kill fill months since came idea filled id guess number id say that pace months live honest im sure feel that moment feel like even last weekend ritual ive set least prevent anything extremely rash however guarantee fill im sure exactly im expecting come post nothing else good look thoughts write out welcome kind feedback even rules just send pm managed go text find funny everyone meet mentions positive cheerful am even current girlfriend says one things attracted positive vibe exact opposite really am feel like im compensating something lack im others putting fake mask pretending someone im not say im confident extroverted reality im extremely insecure cant deal disappointment all,1 hate body hate,0 title says really hours inbetween socializing friends slow agonizingmy brain gets scared annoy friends say something hurt intentionally make excuses need take break few probably go bedall lies course lay bed idolize world exist sleep way fall back nightmares living world feel content happy even ripped away eyes openi feel like drink even struggle pick bottle even like really am really even amalgamation ideas would want sewn together poorlyi feel purpose life even though would say otherwise feel truly one world surrounded people care yet never felt alone,1 ha to flip his lifestyle around goodbye to sleeping in and hello work at am,0 "So true, that omelette was meat-tastic! Thanks again for treating ",0 life either dragon dragon,0 @skinkl yeah right - you!?! ,0 really want kill myselfi want dieeveryday want die im fucking worthless stupid even funny big goals life probably wont even achieve one them ways kill quick easy,1 cant sleepi get depressed day really hits night im alone everyone asleep get thoughts redflag feel lonely lately ideas help,1 im one lucky ones deserve iti grew broken home violence drugs alcohol swore everything right best person be failed last year allowed alcohol take peaked shit faced sex wife blacked out next thing remember hands around thoat coming front room cowering sobbing knew done knew didnt deserve live calmed layed promising wouldnt ever touch again took alcohol pills bathroom locked door best came hospital bed side told leave told didnt deserve anything done told ok dont want refused ive done best get better got worse ive stopped drinking since day havent much raised finger direction gotten harder ive tried giving doesnt want to idk anymore,1 stop depressed valentines day depressed tomorrow school starts,0 @Bones_Fans Woo Hoo!! Limits are cracking all over the world ,0 uh oh phone charging idk charger works moms phone,0 I love Lauren so much she has helped me threw depression and anxiety and the hardest times with family an friends @Lauren_Daigle thanks so much for everything pic.twitter.com/c6jSsmCfFX,1 badood sash 009 9 jimmythomist vaushv lauren southern depression,1 otter facts guys love little beans much group otters called romp otters voracious eaters ok same otters hold hands dont drift away otters kidnap pups ransom cute arseholes sea otters thickest fur animal zoologist stranded shipwreck first describe sea otters georg wilhelm steller otters hold breath minutes smell underwater otters loose patch skin underneath armpits act pockets storage baby otters float cant swim cat poop deadly otter hope guys fun reading ,0 want better america would get electing trump heres would it first make sure everyone drilled head unproven conspiracy theories ignored fought against second lower minimum age vote third make future presidents year olds give easily peer pressure fourth watch america slower destruction before,0 Or maybe because she studied about depression. I dunno. Now that both me and my brother has it. And also we have sinus. Are we twins? Lol. Tapi financial belum sama lagi. ,1 it really think totheres option living shit kill done it anything im missing here mean living shit life go fuck itself fuck it fuck fucking done edit heres hoping hold onto determination get home school im sick sniveling coward never it,1 even forced livei want dont means im tired put effort it cant get house soi never it im scared pain dumb live dumb die,1 everything shitim going lot right now parents abusive depression getting worse fucked able get college memory bad cant remember anything past days trans fucking rest nobody talk to cut contact one friend abusive cant even remember actually abusive convinced was know see therapist every therapist ive seen ended treating like shit tried commit extremely abusive mental institution cant even talk anybody know im scared theyll tell parents parents committed hour holding period bullshit turns week stay nobody talk to feels like life hit brick wall everything ive planning everything ive done try get better none worked out really seems like redflag way stop this,1 eekk finally going to bedd! ,0 working right nowive posted different account since deleted thought felt better again im struggling pills self harm ive tried making positive changes nothing sticks bottom heart dont feel like going get better im married incredible person deserves nothing best struggling self worth feel like lack every single way tell want phase cant get believe keep thinking gotta get day every day point worth anymore,1 efic org i had nonspecific lower back amp hip pain for a couple of week it wa seriously disrupting my sleep and putting me in a bad mood i stopped leaning over the bathtub to rinse the dish or pick up the full dish rack and lo and behold the pain went away musta been depression,1 worried about furry sun who ha bad tartar on teeth and need dental treatment,0 meds unintentionally spending lot time around narcissistic family due easter called sick today made mistake so think job risk high panic mode feeling like options moving forward limitedive trying strong last little whilei work great place unfortunately toxic bullshit usually handle it top easter ive lot pressure dont good relationship family damaging self worth ive endure passive aggressive bullshit weekend ive meds ive scatterbrained really affect me im sick stomach self destructive eating anxiety im experiencing called sick work today didnt realize second time ive called monday im still days boss pissed texted back let know wouldnt in kidding sick monday need serious conversation tomorrow texted back understood said dont think lets chat tomorrow feel like im weak called in im weak coping better family work pressures lose job wont first ive lost due loss motivation constant stress outside work everyone around tired hearing excuses going work think lazy dont know dont sleep anxiety controlled life im tired fighting myself fighting family fighting every day think im weak think im pathetic theyre right cant handle mundane daytoday handle rest life im scared im going make another bad choice may ultimately good one whether pills cut myself never hold image im fully functioning person long someone please help im scared im going lose job im going give up,1 ugh just read on cnn that they found the cantu girl s body in a pond near their home how terrible for her family,0 saw movie days ago eyes completely fixed screen greatness held attention extent focused attention entire duration would recommend seeing fans anime anyone likes great movies period or likes really weird stuff style art beautiful sound perfect symbolism within breathtaking ive heard complaints weird insertion english text movie think way done complementary strange style movie selfattributed description hello kitty acid justice film absolutely epic proportions id like find works whoever made this see them,0 wherever go whomever talk see disgusting hypocrisy especially women like hate racism bash short ugly men have empathy help weak bash virginswomen morals really dont help support whats cool help support lack emotion compassion morals come emotion compassion like men moral built social dynamics hate women,1 thank flash player cant post rmemes anywhere here wont really opportunity get play good old flash games since dont computer rn wanted say thank flash player making computer clases elementary school fun,0 certainly one finest movies seen quite time exquisite direction flawless acting make entertaining often moving film denzel washington plays one engaging emotional roles date rest cast perform beautifully christopher walken course superb part although appear often would liked story ultimate greed backfires offset childs innocence love also film action movie lovers fair share bullets rockets revenge location mexico city adds feel seediness corruption eye opener all truly gripping film beginning end highly recommended,0 working past month so always hard continuously exercise im it ive kept month im proud myself think kept going time finally got point tired staring stomach sticking constantly sticking in im largest person ish pounds pre quarantine annoying anyways started working even though stomach still basically size little smaller im happy it somehow gained pounds im starting even though ive dieting eating less exercising idk whats happening thanks listening wanted share ,0 oh wow. nakakaiyak pala yung he's just not that into you. http://plurk.com/p/yty00,0 anyone else get so distracted by so much around you that you just put off everything i ve been taking zoloft and literally since i ve taken it i ve been so unorganized it s hard for me to keep my room clean i have a bunch of appointment i have to make but keep forgetting to i have a credit card that i need to start using to build my credit but i haven t even read on it yet or gotten it activated i wan na travel and do all of this stuff i ve just been so tired i have so much to keep up with and the anxiety make me nervous to even go to appointment i need to go to the g i doc the breast cancer doc the dentist the gyno all of this stuff i need help getting organized i used to be so organized and now i feel like i m not at all,1 cooking makes scared bruh turned gas stove make tea first time started making noise scared flames would devoured tea kettle turned everything off lol,0 Could 'one puff' of cannabis ease depression? http://viralspecies.com/could-one-puff-of-cannabis-ease-depression/ … pic.twitter.com/o1v7mKNPkL,1 suppose im pathetic thenim young adult god hoping id make this fifteen midlife crisis made deal things gotten better time thirty id end life later line realized ridiculous seventeen committed mental hospital three times eighteen mother passed away due cancer senior year high school when seventeen really pushed edge eleven learned redflag could fact balls sort person living for loved lot family living my father wife exwife since siblings always good time feel like cant anything anymore major depressive disorder general anxiety im medicated see therapist every couple weeks feel im getting anywhere lately safest serene place life bed even im sleeping sort laying there imagining better world im twenty years old imaginary friends way go college job moment applied local community college per request father even though im pretty sure im going absolutely horrible cant even take shower every week going keep classes sleep maybe twenty hours day may bit stretch feels like sometimes think dad side late certainly proven true see dad met woman now fiance okcupid dating site english professor seems high high standards everyone seven yearold daughter who complete brat slightly ruining life much yells cant deal says bullshit ugh want get much suppose know dad tells certain things around thoughts kid learn deal things like censored around not like im cussing saying explicit things around her practically demands play piano read books she rarely watches tv too whatever even goes ohsofancy private school hate say stereotypical crap dads fiance taiwanese im beginning wonder highass standards anything it im familiar taiwanese culture be anyway think high standards rubbing dad used really give shit chill felt like shit time asks apply classes volunteer stuff honestly feel overwhelmed want even look either im incapable things want do went university fall drop due sort meltdown third time ended mental hospital also constant migraines least three four week leave sick nearly bedridden job month leave that too managers understand migraines make ill guess needed work getting migraines control anyway basically feeling exact except worse cant get job whatever fucking reason ive applied nearly every store area even consider bit far away know wrong one wants hire me thanksgiving overheard dad telling fiance just cant get job assume means bothering getting job never talks directly dad know cares either im kid okay first im finding extremely difficult even tolerate her horrible brat child make easier sometimes think love dad times outright hate him one time ate oreos package i developed issues binge eating recently sucks couple years ago straightup called pathetic right face package oreos gotten today text saying ridiculous chores around house agree him ridiculous im fucking depressed hell barely get ass bed yeah maybe dishes takes minutes even want walk downstairs eat something which comfortable ultimately survive dishes suck entire bag dicks id rather lay bed die right now thanks dad obviously goddamn issues always acts like im pretty sure problems stem his vivid memory laying bed very young in elementary school cough yelled stop coughing cant come problem become upset me believe complete asshole know get woman like ever im person to even yells younger brothers four eight nearly nine cant bear see treat like that know feels clam frightening yelled someone bigger you supposed love care you instead screams stupid shit like oreos fuck him wish could move out think would make lot anxiety dissipate right im walking eggshells fathers fiance apparently thinking like which dont say hi her also lied dad told never thanked borrowed car cars battery dead able sleep thank something like that explicitly remember going office thanking her saying youre welcome know heard me just ugh cant make good money right cant get fucking job even though ive trying forever dad wonders want get job instead going college whatever cant handle fulltime classes disqualifies living campus anywhere believe id like get job room friends itd hell lot easier heart here migraines oh god migraines happen least twice week get worse near menstrual cycle used get month around time debilitating would puke puke hours theyre manageable still point actually function one help neurologist wants schedule appointments every three months six months time want life move on like this thanks sometimes feel good something little like dad calling pathetic sets like this know im completely irrational honestly cant help it thats irrational like rabbits hole me dad says im ridiculous people house his fiance daughter literally people house pitch money chores guess cant give money barely chores makes useless piece shit ive disconnected friends wish stayed contact with hard time approaching people hard keep touch dad acted like supportive really doubt that think ever get better see future myself occasionally im able see cute sensitive wise even smart times right one times productive useful never list qualities ive trying get better change situation working even told dad ive feeling like shit recently long drawnout text therapist called heartfelt think took seriously thought bitching fiance id get it well still gotten it now worried enough pills actually million seems may tonight kind feel like sobbing bed sleeping comfortably one time love sleeping thanks reading summary im depressed right point want sleep day barely get bathe even eat live father fiance seem supportive slightest ive trying best get job move least something im pathetic and own eyes everywhere applied turned down especially want this otherwise here mind very long time guess good time any,1 trying minesweeper minesweeper complicated guess im gonna learn im gonna flex hard become chick magnet lets real need lot strategy mindset game lot guessing work bit luck yes,0 holidays ruined without failim envious families able get along able cooked meal without fighting putting down feels like parents dont love neglect pay attention abusive bitch sister gets away everything honestly want shrivel cold ditch somewhere die theyre reason feel like one would ever love hate much painful existence,1 @AlissaDoan The truth hurts ,0 id like help seclet say consider current high risk redflag want advice things cant talk anyone know about year ago really bad place really want go detail lets say rejected everyone everything mattered time set deadline within month so number things didnt go way would go end it consider rational person spur moment thing taken months internal debate decide it extremely detailed plan avoid failure correct type pills place wouldnt found done forth was point least completely ready die obviously see things turned around theyre miles better still remember feeling planned death certain done deal cant describe feels exactly almost physical coldness thats need advice stop feeling like this,1 girl liked girl like every guy likes also big flirt everyone me full year since last crush ive finally trying get back crushing gamei know sounds cringe idk sign slight interest like im homeschooled relationships flirting really hard im coming ask help,0 @kathleenhessert I won't be at tweetup - working at #NACDA reg! - but doing what I can to spread the word,0 @dinolingo i can assure that you're one of them who wanna listen... ,0 "@graceandmanners are u calling trent a liar. Haha. That's awesome, Toronto show. what trouble have you been getting into, sir?",0 matthewknight i don t know i can ping the site but it won t load at all for me i m trying to contact dreamhost,0 "@iaingilmour You've been saving those up, haven't you? ",0 got idea kept rerolling account gacha game make sure get best starting roster possiblewhenever get bad roll bad family throw account away kill myself start new one got really overpowered unit give story want fair killed hope born better home keep killing successful,1 Yay I got a PT on my Scholar. ,0 @jasmine_ruth14 That would be like a dream come true and the best thing that could happen today because I woke up crying... My depression is killing me! ,1 Learing for History. Only 7 weeks left ,0 hesitant inpatienti honestly would prefer point sister mother love much cant dealt much cant them much want escape worry slip impulsively it anyone dealt putting front trying this,1 one even wants around anymoreim job education shitter im stupid burden everyone else mum almost told today might well kill stopped half way saying it miss kid one expected job school back colours shapes fall behind abandon leave rot mind pretty much rotted out thats left rid everyone myself,1 coming someone super introverted usually find comfort extra time myself lot literally friends declined scholarship overseas planned year long it supposed sweet escapeif may call like that apparently many applicants grew strict parents extremely narcissistic literally told basically people suck really need anyone else yes happened now andi literally nobody work job pay well kills called family pretends get me sad work out self aware unproductivity watch movies considered taking life want die much give however feeling extremely lonely work home pretty much anywhere know want post something instagram absolutely nothing going life overwhelmed even look terrible me feel atrociously lonely,1 nowtwo months ago starts ive depression years feel cant hold longer probably fault too mean fired drinking job liquor store wrecked car hammered top off love life leaves me job car fuck those her glue last three years everything real girlfriend confidence little is shattered since cant push actually try fix myself years life true accomplishments goals thing ive managed nab beautiful unlucky women deserve let slip away maybe fat idiotic self deserves this whats next theres honesty much else see working life job ill hate really better death,1 say comes book movie adaptations bbc rarely lets down regarding miniseries love starling novel far best murdermystery ive ever read miniseries defiantly made day saw it primary story kept near perfectly intact characters match ones novel well personalities mannerisms spot red jez thought duncan done well kate eric came much simplistic character little depth book also altered substory may deal it course changes cosmetic found disappointment in substory eric murder charge changed changed whole dynamic red eric movie cut triathalon training jez doing events book changed viewer friendly liked book like this like miniseries love book must say accurate book movie adaptation ive seen,0 horrible sore throat hurt,0 im done thisi cant survive anymore im stressed out live fucking parents im almost certain likes pet me friends im debt help pay bills using money jobs leaves barely enough get gas month wish could die already worry anything anymore fucking sucks cant anymore,1 real life hair reveal coming soon subreddit near,0 skoop but those cause rsi too rsi guide always tell to use two hand for shortcut ah well i wish you luck keep me posted please,0 bored as crap at school can't wait to go to the beach this weekend ,0 Is Going Chingford 2 C Auntie And Get Some Jeggins ,0 odo snape maven owwie the dictation software won t pick up whispering eh i know meleney ha it but dunno how good sound pickup is,0 waiting to go to the fair while listening to the miley album!,0 you guy i can t sleep but i really need to cause i have work gt lt fml,0 http://bit.ly/tLDKl <-- will forever make me smile ,0 day of dental care showering skincare first thing in the morning i m actually proud of myself if i can do this for 0 day it ll become a habit adding a morning walk to this routine,1 i m so tired of trying and i know i m not even trying that hard anymore i used to be more enthusiastic and put more effort in but now even if the smallest thing go wrong i give up i just don t have the strength to try anymore my self hatred ha been getting worse nothing i do is good enough i am continually disrespected by the people in my life i just don t see the point if i have to continue to struggle like this i never asked to be born so why do i have to continue suffering through life i just want to lay down and wither away i have no value anyway i m not convinced that i can continue to do this anymore,1 lost virginity girls birthday like pog,0 This is a mamas day off and you deserve it ,0 users sub unique us turned teenagers us still high school us university us married us kid us house us underage us virgins us arent virgins,0 im uglyya,1 I am totally digging the new android update for the g1 it is about time I get it! All 2 months later n shit....,0 need hope stuck mindset whileive feeling suicidal several weeks brief success dbt therapy backing scared feeling control life feel worse success dbt despite intensive therapy havent felt change anyones mindset shifted toward recovery life before im school got new job im functioning degree feel awful suicidal thoughts daily im also trying meds acupuncture haha see makes impact again mostly feel like im playing waiting game spontaneous shift mindset realistic happened anyone else,1 ever feel lonely think never get boyfriendgirlfriend remember wise words boi uthe_therapist_ dont worry it wonderful person like trouble finding someone,0 watching the hills finale and eating some mac n chesse yumnomnom ,0 yayyy another pedo messaged audacity lie age call cute call weirdo rejected fuck shit im tryna nice,0 @labelladeanna that sounds good to me . girl trippp ,0 another text post thing hate times dont know else post weird ass humour to,0 is listening to an awesome song but i dnt no the name but i wan na upload it on limewire,0 dont know survive todaysorry cryptic cant think clearly anymore im tired im exhausted try try try get nothing sister found account got scared off strangers care does wanted distraction refuses come over im tired humiliating people dont care me tried seen accommodative one helpful one accommodation need it help need thats where feel helpless helpless hopeless dont know whats point anymore cant really think clearly anymore want everything already,1 @DeandraMaria <----thats my big sis!! Add her!!,0 birthday huge im covid im pretty happy year had,0 hi get motivated work lost job december working year job hated got laid too never jobcareer liked terrible even tho think good employee awards prove it ever since got laid aside ui medical issues ok actually lost weight gained prev jobs want work ever interviews sabotaged cannot bear thought miserable job miserable moving la interview am tomorrow job got laid could care less it prepped alli justcant know sooner later need something motivated work,1 Depression/anxiety is being in a constant state of remembering that embarrassing thing you did five years ago.,1 mfs reply worse scum ok haha omg good nice cool really ohh nicee,0 could fuck tf mercs class would bang tbh id shag sniper hes handsome bastard,0 After monday im going to shop shop shop shop till i drop thankyou GSS,0 want help anything want put somewhere genuinely hate inside out want end done hate scared die,1 katerih how wa the tj dinner tonight my freezer melted down,0 horrible weather,0 antzpantz well i obviosuly missed evcery single one,0 hi everyone i wanted say attempted june suicidal since lately things getting better keep mood tracker days getting better im holding hope future understand looks th emoment likely worst pain youve felt yet feels neverending ends grow lt thank u reading am sleep deprived thoughts uwu,1 worse tipranthi again depression anxiety more mentioned yesterday tried kill myself number one regret life could died grief way things after feel like completely different person way people treat me happy people treating better try kill self make love makes want throw roof mum never really sudden me know im ungrateful come this anyone am could go back time take tablets would hung instead considering redflag tak ibuprofen kill fuck liver kidneys work live life extra misery im undergoing therapy worrying suicidal thoughts ibuprofen answer,1 "I don't think people recognize how much ADHD affects a person's life. A lot of times ADHD is just one of multiple diagnoses a person may receive. It's usually something like major depression, bipolar or something else which gets most the blame when that person's life sucks.",1 catching up with friends... ,0 im ready gothanks previous person commented last post pushing edge mum work tomorrow thursday friday thats ill it creating set tomorrow week nothing ever goes way life ive ruined childhood trauma effects life result abandoned everybody ive ever loved even change heart still need go current situation thats it im going die soon,1 My fave drummer @trvsbrkr did a remix of my fave rapper @Eminem's 3AM! I can die happy now (http://bit.ly/KXAcG),0 need get chesti need someone something talk to ive spent last weeks vicious cycle feel okay happy neutral guess something minor goes completely wrong spiral get angry lash spend next several hours contemplating life sobbing bedroom alone knowing problems worries would gone dead know tricks people say help depression try reaching people talk someone really friends one acquaintance boyfriend acquaintance always says talk need it try theyre obviously disinterested say fine know exactly excited someone know well tried tell darkest emotions know course boyfriend ive talked circles million times said things imagine starting wear him want burden him want put problems him things worry about shoulder issues well so leave alone im angry tell im going bed stay morning wishing normal wishing came built friends have wishing could support much supports me wishing could muster courage meet friends without anxiety attack know hed happier gone hed probably feel freer least cant talk mom tells see someone know should therapists psychiatrists area take insurance cant afford cover costs appointment week biweekly even month really im also afraid im lazy even work make better busy yourself get job hobby want get job badly want selfsufficient suffer really bad anxiety im terrified ill go job interview immediately burst tears im nervous would want hire someone cant keep emotions check half hour job interview income worry constantly money feel guilty buying anything it things might interested cost money boot want take candlemaking costs dollars even begin thats dollars have want upgrade pc start stream thats dollars want spend much money myself honestly even gaming made angry lately explode know why get overwhelmed die explode hit myself bruises thighs beating died fucking overwatch ridiculous embarrassing im embarrassed wish still brought joy instead negativity like used to finally im college student right now watch country live circles drain devastating watch prospects might get set fire front me im terrified graduating never able get job aforementioned anxiety issues im terrified living poverty housing prices around college keep going up know do life seems pointless feels like future know im going kill myself really dont want to know how maybe ill stop looking ways cross road maybe itll look like accident people funeral mourn thought was deeply angry depressed girl am im sorry long know one really wants read strangers emotions needed get chest,1 "I added a video to a @YouTube playlist http://youtu.be/srmh_6tIcZY?a  Funniest video, make fun of transgender (I have crippling depression)",1 someone made playlist would kinda neat it want definitely shouldindie rock coollt ignore that,0 think could say attempted redflag first time tonight almost feels like right passagei much time type ill cut chase im feeling depressed tonight sketched drawing strangling someone no one particular labeled victim everyone thought strangling took towel strangled it felt great pulled tighter felt lightheaded immediately needed lie down fell bed that body started shaking uncontrollably little bit attempted strangle hated vibration feeling stopped feel stupid also kinda laugh attempting it never attempted redflag before guess feel kindaproud myself know sounds really messed strangling somehow made calm down plan telling anyone irl messaged friends groupme hour ago telling im feeling depressed almost send christmas theres way want ruin everyones christmas telling strangled myself might tell january maybe not,1 should get up and out of bed...maybe in 5 ,0 pulled first allnighter recently feel anything different till dusk sunrise came felt like intergalactic nova cluster forming eliminating black holes body dunno rn,0 oding now sorry nicolei saw fear eyes told past used zinger silly argument beneath contempt go great things need go please consider source sewage much better this sorry,1 whats weirdest thing religion atheist give cool science fact youre agnostic idk tell something cool,0 donei tired waking up wake pain want leave world fucked everything life lost friends family hates me drove fiance off everything get worse dealt suicidal before friends helped gone even want fix things anymore point always get worse tired climbing hole fall right back new one must climb of missed plans set everything ready waiting room mate goes work hope finally end time want finally done pathetic life mine,1 losing willi want suffer alone silence anymore pcp left therapist left friends left me family noninvolved sick feeling guilty wishing dead want anymore want tolerate pain wish easy way out,1 "Goodmorning, Twitterland! http://bit.ly/gB5RD Vote for me and @tooonico.",0 im straight thats told someone class thought gay idea got idea gay,0 @SURFislikeaBoss me hair ain't Red its da light its blonde and black! @jamesissexy Hey Hotty! @firesty who da other girl?,0 felt sleep paralysis didnt see cute demon felt tense muscles sweating vibrating back im scared am someone comfort me,0 tonight: crime and comedy at Warsaw - "Lekarstwo na miÅ‚ość" - 6 pm. - film based on the novel of Joanna Chmielewska. see you ,0 mpilo miya darqhskined asf brown eyed gyel bongani dee mizzzidc who bought the shoe for her her work saving or her parent money i understand her being annoyed about the sneaker people can spoil your stuff if you let them wear it too much but it s her mother she didn t have to post it to make her mother look bad amp cry depression,1 posting daily get gf day never faith would amount anything weird thing correct,0 morning tea and twitter ,0 itd easy call guys dolls great got frank sinatra marlon brando and contrary sinatras original wishes casting works got really cool s feel even basically transposed stage screen little interruption songs often lot fun catchy performed wink nod wonderful escapism inherent form itself entirely great others ilk fault filmmaker joseph l mankiewicz songs entirely click little dialog feels like performed stage opposed film its hard tell times brando sinatra straddle line often one watch carefully tell one plays camera stage actress playing adele better stage screenbr br the plot one winners works well period even one wonders influence stretched likes s well quite close gambler and year betrothed played sinatra wants host bigtime game told heat on meaning cops watch so one choice host game thousand dollar tab way get bigtime bet fellow gambler brando whos put make wild wooing job mission worker allows predictable twists story sudden turnonturnoff charms character idiosyncrasies people streets gangsters dancers saitn played jean simmons falls brando is basic concept whole world guys dolls balance one other obviously without getting married compromisedbr br mankiewicz brings lot energy piece even keeping still camera subject stars properly reeled in hell even brando works excellently musical goes beyond simply method actor shows chops singing bigstar quality story characters eventually wind hope happen thats fine ask for get entertainment good spurts witty involving dialog songs dances bring house my favorites number ladycats club luck lady two numbers havana cuba a,0 "please, be gentle to yourself, love yourself. stop romanticizing depression and anxiety, nor do you ever exhibit it like something you're proud of.know your worth.don't keep thinking about him/her - who doesn't love you back. i'd be broken if u descend into my situation.",1 trick live small things like new games still need released kept stable starting feel stupid pain becoming harder harder endure especially alone scared ill eventually give pain hand really done suffering good reason live,1 im never going get dream makes life feel fucking meaninglessi idea im going life anymore ive recently moved parents horrible me ive working non stop pay bills ive also practicing like crazy esports father forced sell computer pay bills would understandable didnt make enough money pay himself doesnt even gambling problem anything like waste money hes greedy piece shit anyway ive playing console games like mortal kombat esports recently lack desktop ive gotten plateau makes actually want end life esports biggest dream time focus lose again makes feel like ive wasted much life absolutely nothing im making money it im nowhere near skill level would allow get anywhere dad always told chasing dream stupid didnt raise son loser playing video games point hes right cant go college carrier either moved schools credits got revoked show f transcript im ready give up cant dream dont see point going on,1 likely dead new yearssooo im sick trying get existence depressed almost years struggling anxiety social phobia least years last year great healthy person finally got boyfriend lot activities people consider fun nothing sad life mood kind ok mostly apathy went really downhill autumn tried jump building block least times enough fucking balls it got locked mental hospital weeks suicidal thoughts much handle got prescribed new antidepressants work last weeks started find interacting people cringe hard tired it instead partying year im going get lot alcohol hopefully drugs go bench far away fuckers fun living happy life blast music hopefully get fucked courage jump fucking ugly ass building want keep fighting waiting get better people telling it gets better trust me not living like fighting like lying ground beating raping bottle ing survive make follow up hope dont,1 quit job letting time run out goodbye year lefthi ive posted roffmychest i think plan commit redflag next year ive already organized stuff went quit job stopped showing up savings now im spend last days people care about thats quit silently say farewells thing is people really care me know understand always thought depression cured movie eating getting drunk laid already finalized im counting days down finishing bucket list know anyone ever felt it suicidal feels emotionally almost bad terminal illness say almost possibly completely equate two imagine lot things same know exact date ill die know how im waiting it ive fortunate enough years living ive experienced many things found adventure feel like old man looking back past nostalgia time days end felt like ive lived enough lifetime im end sadness much damn much cant even think rationally by normal peoples standards anymore think ill die happy thats ive ever wanted long time now anyone wanting commit redflag felt too redflag feels like going home im crazy know planned,1 fucking overachievers sigh,0 im accepting itive ok idea taking life many years im f bi polar ive always struggled drugs alcohol never feel anything expecially emotions got sober last year since dealing bi polar which fucking sucks emotions horrible ive happy times mostly im getting closer day finally end im accepting full heartedly feel terrible people im going hurt betray want anymore im done exactly know im ready go darkness came thanks letting vent,1 uzak turkish film shown us distantbr br was directed produced written filmed nuri bilgebr br ceylanbr br this movie gritty somber version clash city mouse mahmut played muzaffer zdemir country mouse yusuf played emin toprak br br both men superb actors plot allows demonstrate acting skill tragically emin toprak died automobile accident shortly movie completedbr br in country cousincity cousin tales contrast rural urban life styles portrayed humorous fashion film theres little humor even warmth menbr br have lost touch human society mahmut s work abr br commercial photographer tile company gives satisfaction divorced woman clearlybr br still loves satisfying human relationshipsbr br mahmut lost job factory closing small town skills energy find work city human interactions primarily confined silent observations people cross path hes clearly warm caring person cant express qualities urban environmentbr br the cousins relate well world relate well other neither makes effort act way would provide opportunity bonding closeness br br in sense film portrays opportunity wasted br br conceivably cousin could provided least part lacking others life instead steer parallel unhappy courses two men distant throughout situation suggested films titlebr br one friends mentioned masterful way ceylan builds detail upon detail details ultimately tell us characters might learned simple expositionbr br uzak shown part rochester labor film series labor film traditional sense genre labor film demonstrates harmful effects unsatisfying work mahmut unemployment yusufbr br this quiet absorbing dark film although make happy viewing walked thebr br theater realizing seen truly creative andbr br important movie film worth finding seeing,0 decided little test ill count many times bust nut year already data important future humanity,0 sort comments controversial new update cant sort comment controversiali think can tell how thats best part reddit wtf reddit thinking,0 go sleep early still oversleep ill wake keep falling back asleepi slept hours last night fuck needs hours sleep hate sleep much,1 honey i did get some disgruntled people when i wrote my esn but the 000 hit in one day made up for it bill pull in 0 top,0 ate too many oreo yesterday feel very sick today,0 uhh liking guy like never responding clown hours anyway hows everybody life super super duper boring rn tell exciting things youre make feel excited,0 im hella bored rn pm play cold war zombies im fairly new shooting games idc good not wanna play someone friends respond anyway please pm,0 ive numb longi forgot good pain feels,1 hey anyone wanna talk im feeling kinda lonely im yr male hit,0 Sweet a friend of mine gave me a penny. But not just any penny its made in 1943! Maybe I could give it to the devs of@OfficialBF1943,0 movie aimed adults rare thing days moonstruck well still better average movie aging well although comic moments aim lower rest it movie wonderful specificity italians brooklyn used shortchange characters viewers ie mobsters never appear acomplication never becomes grotesque like big fat greek wedding secondary story lines economically told short scenes allow break major thread scenes missing contemporary movies immediate value cannot impressed upon producers bigwigs miss scenes also beautifully involves older characters movie takes slight quiet path conclusion poorly written scene included anywhere make executives sphincter relax cage cher nice workbr br moonstruck invokes oldschool ethnic workaday new york much like marty except moonstruck way less sanctimonious,0 ogbenidipo iwa were gba we see the reason you are deep in depression you can t speak this way to your parent and expect to be healed of depression in actual fact it will sink you deep into depression,1 "@NEQuilter_Etsy thanks so much, NEQ ",0 sorry about message n such i have been stewing in my apartment depression napping tryna will myself to feel better though tomorrow i will try to be functional,1 so first of all i know that this is all fucking messed up it is the way it is though i ve been depressed and suicidal for a while now and my ex know that aswell i promised him that i would never kill myself which i really regret but whatever i asked them a couple of time but they didn t want me to break my promise and they also said if i did they d commit suicide aswell however now my ex told me that if i told my younger brother i wa gon na do it how and why it would be okay to break the promise i just i can t i can t go to my younger brother tell him hey i m gon na km bc life suck and i m just gon na hang myself i know commiting suicide will hurt ppl around me but they will be fine except maybe my younger brother that s what i m scared for however it s so much worse though if i tell him i m gon na end my life before i do it he will feel so much more guilt and i just don t know what to do and everything hurt so much physically and mentally,1 theres aaaaaa ghost home better bein alone,0 let say i m on probation and let say i have a few traffic citation let also say that i could very well be put in prison for not paying those citation but let include that i don t have any money what would happen to those citation and the probation if i were to end it i ve been miserable for year every thing that happens to me is literally just the worst shit you could think of i m exceedingly mentally ill with a disorder that ha with no cure and can t be treated with medication i don t want to do this anymore so what will happen to all of those cost,1 cant handle living like thisim going junior high school everything already horrible right now know im going live rest life out im depressed small group friends thy hate me im ever sad know really care they make clear parents enough worry about know burden everyone know sadness pain peoples lives im sure it selfesteem im annoying know people like around anyway paranoid personality disorder gotten worse always think someone trying say something thats me even try best cant help accuse them know im horrible person cant imagine living like feeling like much longer know going get replies either cheers anyone deal post sometime tomorrow,1 so great to have friends who support the things you love doing. feels good... love you guys ,0 life confessionso im twin best friend world years old used cuddle him im dude problem started getting aroused never directly sexually abused him disgusting didnt understand happening time didnt even know sex was completely wrong looking back innocent idea meant doing got older remembered hates guts lost ability maintain arousal since relationships women ive never relationship dude now im longer function sexually women ive tried every type porn nothing turns now brother turned started making fun people thought friends assumed gay maybe told happened s people really homophobic back big deal embarrassment me gay didnt know whether was got really depressed started dating women ended getting schizophrenia suffered schizophrenia became religious delusional kept dating women sometimes function sometimes not met ex wife son really fulfilling sexual relationship son born birth defects hes beautiful boy love him never independent doesnt speak always wear diapers marriage fell apart developed sex addiction demanding sexually ex wife bordering abusive take full responsibility im shit human being wanted out broke up psychotic episode began addiction prostitutes now im lost function call escorts weekly cant anything them pay letting try im sex addict looking back life realize im scum need die ive always scum,1 mango juul pods tap og us mangos gone forever couple boxes left breaking one boxes box two mint aswell add snap references check posts info,0 take long ban boiboiboiboi anyone unsee juice me,0 hate lifemiserable years bother,1 ever babysat house know saw original enjoyed good choice ignoring reviews posted here went ahead rented movie memories original scared teen movie of coursechanged original story relate todays teens babysitter trouble going cell phone minutes take babysitting job pay bill however sticks original story line pretty well relate babysitter knowing house usual pops cracks quite suspenseful killer shown creepy find yelling girl get house never babysat situation like probably able relate like it understanding fear,0 first three seasons sabrina gem hidden away tgif and later early schoolday afternoon reruns episode maniac zany energy rapidfire pacing overcame occasional awkward joke melissa joan hart exuded keen talent physical comedy particularly facial expressions two aunts playing straight men straight two witches could be great comic timing general chemistry hart salem talking cat free dabble whatever mad scheme interested in one could laugh take stride was all talking cat sabrinas friends rounded social experience school also housed typical evil cheerleader totalitarian principal perhaps interesting unique aspect show ability merge pop culture eg bands era jerry springer archetypal human conditionmorality eg importance friendship spirit christmas literal representation related metaphors magical realm unfortunately like many shows throughout age television show hit peak first three years coincided sabrina attending high school starting season four move college marked would become precipitous decline general quality show particularly writers chose introduce josh harveys rival concocting thin excuses aunts hilda zelda remain onscreen key players final season sabrina works pop culture magazine unequivocally disappointing still end sabrina particularly high school years remains unique entry hybrid situational comedy magical elements elevates tiresome fare produced genre every year,0 due to a bunch of reason i wa never close to my mother side of the family there were some cousin and great uncle i saw a lot briefly a a kid one recently chatted with mother through facebook and mentioned how he loved coming to our house back in those day he actually got married a few year ago but i didn t went i feel like depression social anxiety and being a closeted trans person denied me all the relationship normal people have it doesn t help that my mother had her reason to not make an effort to be close to some of those relative but i keep thinking that they became stranger to me even my great grandfather who i must have seen him once before he passed after my mother distanced ourselves from the rest of the family i keep thinking that all of it could be different i didn t had to be so lonely and even if some of them are terrible people i could still be close to the good one like the cousin who chatted with my mother if so weren t like this another cousin is getting married next month my great uncle came to our house to bring the invitation and want me to come a well i keep thinking what the hell am i even going to say to all these people i haven t seen since i wa a kid it wa normal to be a shy child and not to speak to them but now at they will think i have development issue and what would i talk about with them after graduating college year ago i did nothing with my life i just wasted my youth by hiding at home i don t think most of them give a shit about me but i bet at least some would be curious what i have been up to oh i got to sleep at am and wake up at noon everyday after which i proceed to do nothing but waste away in front of a computer screen i m so depressed and i m so fixated on this fear of time passing that i literally do nothing but that what about you i guess i would do what my parent do and just lie and say i do freelance work my father already told me how embarrassed he is when people ask him what i m doing and that s the lie he us i have a cousin almost my age in the other side of the family which i also dread about the idea of meeting him again we were close during summer a child but i remember our last summer together when we were a i started to develop depression and it wa really awkward it wa like we became stranger and would barely speak i would feel so ashamed to see him now he is normal he ha friend he doe what he want he s independent he s talkative he s normal he s everything i am not i just want to be fucking normal i wish i could restart my life but this time without depression social anxiety and being trans i feel like i won t survive this year but i wish i could have lived a little before i go,1 body grossi really bad eczema skin wrinkly bumpy blotchy obvious anyone eyes affected selfesteem entire life comfortable body like lot girls wear whatever want even compare them watch sidelines awe move freely world always inhibited restrained personality major fear risktaking feel stems disease desperate affection accessible withdrawn let anybody in anybody wants someone looks like me tired let life again im sitting computer trying hard scratch bleed really fucking hard to huge exam coming completely unprepared since cant focus anything look lonely am want end deal anymore,1 thought death lastit makes smile final rich comforting nourishing meal good cigarette long cuddle beloved final hug best friend dying death theme mercy living bear mccreary someone known life telling first everything holding cry hear bad parts cuddling hear good parts embracing finished say im ready go embrace me fall asleep over finally over knowing daughter okay beloved find another take care them quite me good enough best friend crying me remembering fondly speaking well me angel mercy smiling sink world maybe one day die maybe one day ill die sleep dont courage end myself wish did want die peacefully sleep say loud im ready im trying get counseling go medication third time dont lot hope faith it please help me,1 speaking therapist today came realization determine self worth almost exclusively others value me rather value myself felt like punch gut because half heartedly told worth something past never realized lying deep believe words truly awful see unvarnished truth revealed low point id like know anyone else relate so got even know start struggling self worth issues,1 another fucking optionim dreading tomorrow im dreading today im dreading jfucking everything weather nice today partner happy cant enjoy shit cant fucking enjoy feel dumb fucking edgy want die badly dont solid reason fuckkmg exhausted tired hopeless fucking hell dont want anymore im forced dont options ifucking want end please im agoddamn panic attack dont want please let die please kill dont care miss dont care hurts selfish want best dying best option okay okay dont fucking tell selfish im hurting wan best let fucking kill,1 care people say anymoreits permanent solution temporary problem anything point show tv like it turn off sit keep watching it annoyance problem consumes life unknown length you missed would longer capacity care you experience x anymore deal before every reason im given live cant help find way refute live sheer hope dreams also source torture hard nowadays take advice regarding survival meaningfully hate cynical way see things anymore much life bogus everything do everything reason thought involved effects actions may future course things care directly affect us things would conscience act do matter put it fact life mean bad way give background point almost every option leads nothing good near future knows long run choose one results future one option where done need longer care would capacity care obviously would affect others again would physically incapable caring would zero effect me experience world entirely first person actions would affect conscience care things immediate access well enough prescription meds kill me well alcohol speed process make bit easier every morning day night every day every week every month fight urge go it find coming back time read diefex conflicts further wish could peace yet seeing comments left passed causes instincts feelings continue compel live im bipolar im always suicidal also means deal always getting hopes crashing down again much much much im sick it,1 definitely nolans intimiteand thoughtprovoking piece say memento insomnia badbut definitely hollywood standardswhile following indie flick story brilliantand well developed overallwatch fan nolans workim sure able appreciate more,0 want go hellfor longest time felt completely useless stupid like absolute failure future cant public speaking horrendous critical thinker writer spend time home trying finish masters thesis helping family restaurant working next medical school application rejected for th time honestly idea want do mediocre researcher absolute shame field embarrassed quality work also fun around friends finally cut loose invited hang out even make effort reach out see everyone else pass by stay stagnant future prospects everything touch turns trash stupid keep up struggling put thesis together selected flawed project written mcat times idea want life everyone else know employed getting married good time im alone stupid waste life honestly tired feeling like stupidest person there unable anything right want die guts it popping pills difficult carbon monoxide sure thing noose hard family home also devout muslim redflag means go hell want get hit truck get cancer mugged killed want done with want help die,1 @babimattivy nhaaaiiiiiiiiiii! me rendi ao twitter! fim de agosto to na área hein!?,0 GoGoGo... move up by 3 86. opera.com,0 @krisclark ooooo yes! how do you get the smilies?,0 film judy garland deemed ready bigtime yet man loves hervan heflin film certainly big change mr heflin especially supporting oscar win year johnny eagerbr br wasnt spring byington old widowed mother children four appearing look like grandchildrenbr br the singing dancing marvelously staged way blossoming romance heflin garland depicted left lot desired gigilike one young girl eventually swept feet charmer,0 edge backi fell love wonderful girl drove away years later due alcoholism bottle flushed away aspirations attorney then dated around started new path found something else good found wonderful woman got married drank occasion never overindulged done that life good new job higher pay american dream one evening comes living room proceeds i want divorce im attracted you hate here shattering moment drove back bottle knew it hammer cocked sobbing uncontrollably front her wanted die ill never forget feeling cocked gun pointed towards head everything felt control regained it liberating feeling feel much control ill never forget cold steel felt pressed side head something inside decided let go tell you gets better im quite lonely grew middle class yearning life went college enjoyed immensely went grad school lost myself embarked new career path found myself years later lost myself whatever going easy im newly single going wicked divorce reflect happened two weeks ago think great feels knowing glock fail went lowest bidder spring,1 "@andrewkfromaz Thanks dear, I know this, but I appreciate the validation as always ",0 want hurt take life want overpart knows things im dealing right temporary cyclical upanddown goodtobadtogood back rhythm life not yes things going get better theyre going get worse again know friends love me pet take care of work business clients feel lonely knowing even things get better theyll get worse again makes seem completely meaningless wish could fall asleep never wake up without action,1 apocalypse redux francis ford coppolas war opus probably beautiful war film ever seen capt benjamin willard martin sheen vietnam soldier tapped head dangerous highly classified mission cambodia terminate position col kurtz marlon brando highly ranked highly regarded army man seemingly gone completely insane defected army setting little society helped cultish following soldiers escorting river cambodia handful navy men along way encounter several interesting people most notably robert duvalls kilgore badass lieutenant colonel screws loose horrifying situations br br apocalypse less historical war film philosophical psychological study full metal jacket platoon running time apocalypse three hours film wonderfully paced compelling end film arrived actually surprised amount time passed beautiful cinematography surely stood me however seeing film convinced coppola one masters light photography film history godfather films tinged almost sepia tone shadows created feeling baroque composition apocalypse incredible usage natural light shadows particularly scenes involving brando sheen almost become living character pervasive effective another gorgeous scene cpt willard jay hicks frederic forrest jungle looking mangoes come across tiger sheer enormity surrounding foliage leaves big house made characters almost lilliputian colorization scene incredible everything else almost muted grey leaves incredibly vibrant green effect particularly striking another really minor notredflag moment film great scene helicopters carrying duvall company attack small village playing wagner could ultradramatic underlying soundtrack scene instead coppola turns song actual part scene duvall mentioning likes play approaching scare hell them br br the performances apocalypse first class much made amount money brando earned film amount trouble caused regardless this turned powerful performance relatively short amount screen time sheen completely outstanding first time seen really unleash film duvall lot fun watch loony kilgore apocalypse now film pervasive pop culture most know several choice lines film i love smell napalm morning et al knew little enough plenty surprises left experience seen original cut apocalypse now cannot compare newer cut film certainly experienced br br shelly,0 work security guard busy office building everytime make eye contact people literally see shuddering inside probably fact intense stare tend stare peoples eyes longbut know social etiquette what walking along corridor bump someone said hi seconds ago turn around unintentionally lock eyes work colleague please someone helpteach make normal eye contact social situations getting point work colleagues going way avoid making eye contact me please help,1 reddit please yall big n smart really like girl were started talking alot know whether make move please help,0 "SIP works in Flat, Volatile, Bullish , Bearish, Booms, Bubbles, Depression, Contraction & Expansion.It also works when #RBI is Hawkish , Dovish or Neutral.It works if #NDA #UPA or any government is in power.Make SIP a Habit.#sipkaromastraho #SIP#mutualfunds",1 @Bhars18 Please do! ,0 wanna use omegle cus self esteems low ppl always compliment saw ppl saying got doxxed using omegle shit uhh meh oh well,0 going bourbon whiskey talking friends beforehand trying least bit fun beforehandi love all cannot saved goodbye tomorrow,1 little hobby finding really cool pics pretty much unknown and letting people know one top list getting word summer indie film and really mean indienot miramax fox searchlight indie might easy overlook big maze celluloid want something completely differentyou check one out br br basically thought totally great known dvd cover front back that going something totally different but say stuff different hook you well one really totally different face beautiful scary unashamed tell wake up war peace poetry even eerie sort music video set old time patriotic song weird guy rv need say more see it,0 need helpi cant take anymore im tired alone lonly dont want move on worth plz idk anymore,1 damn my pc ha completely given out this suck,0 @jamesh_1993 thanks ,0 redflag hotline call popup saying error reddit funit seems like inconvenience sorry bug reddit know lot political policy talk,1 really interesting film first time seen relationship older woman younger guy screen without sensationalist director notting hill bold move something serious,0 cant anything right failing workjobnavy shit throwawayso yeah shitty time work joined navy years ago where time go gone shit cant anything right mean cant even qualify senior rate since speak stupid shit comes out pass tests maintenance well everything shit im literally dead want fuck coworkers they cool leadership mostly cool just im burden died least would well qualified people im sorry just go feeling happy shitty self destructive put external happy face even though internaly want die every day drive work sometimes go home think using guns parents would sad go office alone duty make noose put away stop this literally found making noose standing chair went last watch want to hear something else went wrong im like welp want die im sorry well understand emotions besides constant background noise i want die one else knows they think im mister happy forever make face die sorry wall text everyone just know hell do,1 outrage pretty good movie robert culp good movie perfect part hard believe true story do watched thought things right learned lesson picked wrong man anyway ever see movie tv watch good one,0 dear who ever find this i m sorry so sorry i did try i know it wa never enough for anything but all i wanted wa to be okay i don t know how to be tho i m not enough and i will never be all i do is make trouble and upset people i m sorry i must of been a big burden on everyone i m deeply sorry for everything i ve done and now everything you have to do now i m gone i just don t know how to fix everything i m deep in this hole how am i meant to climb out when i ve never been taught too i m haunted by everything how am i meant to live my life when i m trapped in the past i just want to be normal and ok why doesn t anyone understand i suppose i haven t helped myself but it just suck suck i wa never worth enough to myself to help myself i honestly dont see myself going anywhere or doing anything worth while i m sorry i know this is so pathetic of me i just dont know what to do i want to live i want to see my sister grow up and my mum and dog i want to fall in love and draw and live on the beach with a balcony i just cant bear this anymore what am i meant to do i m so fucked i m scared and so unsure of everything i m so overwhelmed over everything i ve done this to myself i m so dumb no one can help me now i m sorry i tried in the end ok that count for something right i m just not a good person i realise that i never will be i love everything so much i wish they loved me aswell i tried everything to be happy but honestly they nothing left for me i could write more but what s the point i bet i won t even do it co i m a pussy i bet i ll just delete everything i don t want anyone seeing than clean and realise i m dumb and not kill myself i m a pathetic excuse for a daughter i m sorry all i do is sleep and dream all day this is no life for anymore i know compared to others i have a good life but that just make me feel even more pathetic for hating mine i love you lot goodnight,1 theekween it help with depression anxiety and loss of a loved one thelmaherbs,1 cant keep shitposting anymore im literally going shit cant keep shitposting anymore im literally going shit,0 lost job apartmenti got fired job last week desperately trying remain positive applying new jobs going interviews thought job lined got phone call saying called one references longer want offer job im beyond devastated also apartment going move weeks since lost job gave someone else know im going survive next month trying avoid falling deep depression already feel slipping want desperately jump bridge end everything health insurance anymore cant even get help,1 @h0ney_ goodnight gorgeous ,0 i f attempted to take my life five day ago it wa my second serious attempt i took a couple of pill and alchohol and walked out on my ledge living on the fifteenth floor made it so much more easier i spent all night out there on call w a friend who managed to keeo me safe till i passed out my dad wa woken up at am by another friend of mine who tried entering my apartment and they pulled my back into my room unconscious my parent haven t spoken to me about it theyve nailed my window shut and don t let me stay alone in my room i m getting a new psychiatrist i m not allowed out or allowed to hang w my friend after school they also didn t let me skip school this whole week even though im still not fully recovered i feel like a prisoner in my own house i get why they re doing it but they way they ve gone about it only make it worse to make matter worse it drove most of my friend away a discord server that i considered my main support group won t let me back in unless i get better most of my irl friend decided to give up on me they told me they re done trying to help someone who doesn t wan na be helped i feel like i have nothing good left in my life and i m forced to live only cause my parent want me to everyone know about my attempt at school and they don t seem to care either they just look at me like i m crazy and many of my classmate barely talk to me anymore i ve already been treated bad because of my selfharm scar and rumour about my sex life and alchoholism i m forced to be sober i m grounded and have no privacy or freedom no safe place no one i can fully trust and i m still expected to be a fully functional person and do well at school by my parent i don t know what to do anymore i feel hopeless and alone and just want it to end,1 let start saying watching episode first time dvd oclock pm one night could fall asleep ambr br this brief review may contain spoilersbr br im longtime fan sopranos safely say best episode ive seen im saying everyone feel way do episode identical weekend spent family watching father comatose icu passedbr br the episode begins tony alternate reality salesman whos identity mistaken man named kevin finnertybr br by time ten minutes gone by knew either tony dreaming watching show like normal sopranos loved itbr br option confirmed anthony or kevin looks sky helicopter spotlight see prodding it doctor flashlight see moment sequence plays go back real life situation similar one statedbr br tony come coma moment boys take aj home carmella overcome stress breaks hallway signature moment episodebr br for remainder episode cut real world family dealing potential negative outcome coma tonys alternate reality parallels whats going mind real world around himbr br then comes stellar point episode aj finishes telling mother hes flunked school walks see meadow sitting anthonys sidebr br she approaches tony utters best line episode anthony hear us tonys world enters dark hotel room turns light takes shoes goes phone tries dial cannotas trying say something back carmella physically bring so yetbr br he sits looks window shimmering light reoccurred throughout episode seems call side citybr br when cold id like die moby marries perfectly last images helps creating emotional rollercoaster episodebr br br br ps watch next episode find light is wonderful,0 comment worst redditor sub vote,0 cant keep going like thismy life know essentially ruined feel like ive hit rock bottom week ago point im digging deeper deeper sick tired living absolute isolation sick tired able see friends family person absolutely terrified going forced live rest life without ever seeing friends family ever again thats life want apart of cant keep going like this idea else do,1 ive app years ive app years sister reddit less months already beating comes karma im either lurking trash karma whore bullshit really salty jealous draw,0 america know dner kebab cause thats really sad,0 heading wrong road feel like im running optionsscroll bottom tldr let start saying im sure appropriate subreddit post on im totally new region reddit ive recently struggling lot things none find important enough discuss friends family reached advice suggestions due lack real consideration extenuating circumstances like dealing mental health personal life so ive finally decided reach anyone willing read online really know myself ive felt alone lately ive calling total loser generally feel overwhelmingly unwelcome place social situations im always afraid one actually likes would care bothered show up almost always feel really deeply hateful towards myself im easily set myself im ap advanced placement student absolute nightmare go school every day get lied to laughed at ignored everyone class solely im viewed competition get headaches half days every month always come home crying drained seven hours silent misery mental exertion im constantly tired hardly hang people without falling asleep boyfriend friends concerned try brush off deal isolation general misery feel things bite pick lips inside outside gotten bad accidentally went deep blood dripping chin middle class boyfriend knows keeps telling self harm know thats true im honestly afraid look it usually self harming intent im afraid feel empty alone hopeless im constantly pissed myself longer feel like deserve goodnice things accept compliments easily sometimes feel like deserve bleed know go feel like im running options im starting shut regarding mental health im last priority feel like even earned position tldr hate v e r viciously deeply near perpetual basis bite pick lips point bleeding needing weeks heal zero friends feel unwanted place every social situation school sucks home sucks suck im running options please help,1 pointlessi mean point this try reach goals many obstacles way mention millions people always put down constantly tell good enough struggle shit hole society told someone better you try ignore voice head reminds worthless are take risk heartbroken search find significant other even know im typing this like internet cares bunch random strangers pretend care seconds ditch like everyone else everyone know perfect little lives im stuck here willing anything hug pat back sort encouragement sometimes even think meant planet maybe one got aborted think belong here im s know people say rest life ahead you endure pain need to every story happy ending maybe death new opportunity someone else keep going ill probably get way want fuck someone elses life story probably best im even here dreams already crushed along heart redflag bad anyways physical energy destroyed according science change form know im selfish thinking like this wish someone could side once,1 make people aware issue please share people know bring attention discord ampxb httpspreviewredditimgbglvulpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsccebaacaeeddaddbbfffdbd,0 Exercise and Depression: How Sweating Is Good for Your Mental Health https://ift.tt/2Hwqu73 ,1 "@pastachick don't know lois, but I am familar with your work I know it helps a lot of peeps so that y I said do ur best work",0 mattg00d i dont like you not having internet you dont tweet a much,0 simx yeah i always slow down at the end also take that i win,0 things hate slavery coolio,0 lot people talk say theyre prolgbtq didnt know could go professional,0 wanna diei want stop living,1 really amazed little fame film had think distribution companies etcbr br dont idiots looking good fun take movie nice movie pass hours music greatbr br its well girls boys whats much story movies pulp fiction they nice cute gives good time girls also good looking makes whole movie even enjoyablebr br why gave well story could little convincing middle on point start see events little less reliable small spoiler baby crying father goes tries relax him talking small cry but hysteric cry sec father goes baby sleeping excuse exactly make calm sleep able leave room seconds ignore kind small picking film docudrama fun overlooked,0 pleasant surprise expected downgrade along line rock con air armaggeddon especially overhyped film perhaps thats reason approved new type bruckheimer fare clever dialogue instead snappy oneliners decent backgroundmotivation instead shakenbake stereotypes chase came really thirsted it fanboys expecting armageddon rollercoaster stay away one intelligent action fans even bother jolie appeared little,0 bro fml thats it im upset,0 @Causindrama Monday is good 4 me ,0 so whether it is my phone or a phone from some youtube video it doe not matter whenever i hear a phone ring that ha that weird vibration sound or when alarm clock vibrates it really get me feeling uneasy to the point that it bother me very very much do any of you know what it may be,1 could find dads gun morning chain hanging punching bag looking real enticing would like talk killing,1 find place better send reboot start starting reboot connecting server found server deleting viruses uploading new data done done done done done done done done removing extra files installing install done human verification required download apps continue vpn vpn stupid game toddlers play downloads apps reboot failed be free support us donating us remember share social media tell friends,0 need someone talk tof lost parents age moved country left family behind lived sister new country husband raped multiple times period years finally escaped childhood tormentor attempted redflag multiple times need someone talk to know go ,1 literally impossible turn life aroundim transgender hormones years almost ive worked fashion choices gotten good makeup good haircut soso voice cant pass anyone im treated assumed femme gay guy matter do regularly get stares comments made loud enough hear laughter glares sometimes slurs sometimes people following me passiveaggressively shitty service businesses go taken advantage guys know ill sleep lie tell im pretty facial feminization surgery k least shitty field choice making time soon plus suspect surgery much effect ive seen results changes usually subtle ie pushing someone andro femme masculine femme im fucked regardless also im sterile hormones know easy tell people keep trucking keep going care people think lets real dehumanized every day matter went mental health would pretty shitty right liberal city anywhere escape to whats even crueler im smart im qualified im would definitely happy everything else one horrible thing ruining life wish opened pandoras box cant go back cant go forward literally one thing want life thing would give everything else impossible maybe people mental fortitude keep going think im one them,1 wouldnt care less someone died right front unless close friend family member pretty much dont care human life anymore horrible society honestly someone talks someone dead pretend care point,0 dev dsp hrm your last two post make it sound like i m holding you back,0 feel like worst life ever hope somebody reads thisi really good friends kindergarten never saw afterwards went private school took nearly decades get another friend feel like im person planet go elementary school middle school high school college without single friend genie would grant wish would automatically wish relive life always real friend care relive life worst living conditions world feel like whole life wasted im lonely went birthday parties uninvited invited love concerts sporting events almost everytime ive gone one ive gone alone lonely sat next people respect friends think let sit next friends even worse point think people gave rides church friend felt sorry me last day high school remember crying parking lot everybody else friends everybody went home friends celebrate last day school called dad pick middle school want explain one parking lot remember desperate friend went meetup meetup took meetups nobody liked finally got friend ironic thing desperate quit going meetups th pointless one friend drought probably still going years later friend moved years girlfriend remember once going somebody hang new years eve friend got girlfriend im dreading new years eve going alone again worst part ive close making friends past ive met people liked me less couple months get bored me feel like biggest loser ever many people say took decades find friend get drivers licence years get parttime job years college get first fulltime job wish could live life again fyi drove way across country sillicon valley find fulltime job got one airport also lived terminals couple months save money work big tech company get paid well lively extremely cheaply coworker cant believe high school labor market collapsed literally took way end bullmarket get first fulltime job think anybodys life pathetic mine wished point life making friend hard people figured turn im almost im still disaster,1 The sun is shining. ,0 hello i am year old and a senior in high school i also have adhd and autism i have been suicidal twice before th th grade and 0th grade but this is possibly the worst it s been the disaster started back in september when i got diagnosed with a rare genetic disorder called nf everything i have heard about this disorder from doctor and online sound fucking horrible and nothing i want to live with then in october i met my first girlfriend so i wa happy for a bit but if course that went south too i ll just get right to the point when the relationship started i made clear to her that i didn t want sex and she agreed however later that same month she talked me into it in november december she asked for it multiple time a day and guilt tripped me when i said no she made me feel horrible when she did this then in january i wa saying no repeatedly and she just pulled my pant down and started riding me even though i wa trying to push her off and safe wording i broke up with her in february but there s been drama and social bullshit ever sense in addition recently i got in an apartment fire for the second time in my life this caused me to lose all my belonging they are allegedly being cleaned but it s taking for fucking ever this mean i don t have many of my coping mechanism which is only adding to the stress we had to stay at a hotel for a few night and now we re in a new apartment but it s not the same but that s not all my shitty life ha to offer in addition i have medical debt i also tried calling the suicide hotline the other day and the lady on the phone said what do you want me to do about it and later she hung up on me even aside from all the stuff i mentioned there s several more recent incident i m just to emotional to type it all up now i honestly don t know what to do i keep thinking that thing will get better soon but the only get worse,1 way put phone pocket pocket upside down screen facing thigh horizontal yknow type stuff yes im typing damn bot idk enough ill post see guess,0 goodbye loves ill back,0 could write long book it issue current issue strange one im curious hear peoples thoughts it whenever inlaws visit stay night bring set clean clothes wash ones wearing every night regardless number nights staying,0 so tomorrow today finishing up hmwk getting over being sick then getting ready for another day of school tomorrow,0 @AlyParmelee r u accepting applications ,0 ever since little kid grew thinking inferior culture raised colorist restrictive fact skin tone darker side made subject kinds insecurity indirectly programmed believe enough unattractive family emigrated grew country minority made even worse already expected people treat like shit would speak people almost certain would want nothing me look mirror somebody takes picture me entire moodday ruined feel sick disgusted core society incredibly hard wired evaluate worth person way look guess makes nobody boundless unconditional self hatred could hate entity universe despise myself self hatred continues perpetuate itself everywhere go see beautiful perfect faces every time check phone every time turn tv every time go walk outside feel disgusting hideous compared everybody else unable see way feel undeserving love affection friendship deserve nothing see pretty girl think pretty is disgusted would know guy like found attractive isolate friends family sometimes ask friends even want speak me want attractive want feel confident want loved want family raise children successful want somebody else somebody me want happy never be self esteem destroying life rant,1 one else feel thisi usually get replies posts yeah guys ever feel like theres point anything probably going end killing later like meaningless pointless die used hobby enjoyed doing cant find motivation keep practising whats point putting effort im going one days,1 i think julie andrews is still amazing.. ,0 cant bothered take screen shot sexual option test asexual homo sexual heterosexual,0 wish girl squish guys butts without rapist filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 is hoping to get some R & R this weekend. we shall see. ,0 get comforting words please im sorry dont feel good right,0 paranoia bloom someone recognise already ive already done,0 nothinn nothing on tv maybe they ve run out of program,0 hate one thing pedos everything,0 heya w hey sorry bother you couldnt help notice youre feeling down cmere closer closer hugs got this may tough youre warrior inside get this whatever may be matter ,0 know anymorei cry every day struggle bad thoughts time minor inconvenience happensi love boyfriend much anything want leave knowing sad mad disappointedi happy life see future world plagued redflag rpe feel horrible time given therapy prescription drugs many chances time feel defeated know do tired sad hopeless love,1 schoolworkis anyone else occupied sad like missing assignments idk me feel terrible rn,1 ever happened danger dolan like agree,0 man utd star paul pogba open up on depression battle paul pogba ha http t co qjhmdticll open pogba http t co djmrhqlit,1 Woo lessons cancelled ! Afternoon off ! ,0 little brother damn incosiderate mom quite job work government recently shes training right thus earning money little brother decides times deserves more hes asking custom pistol grips ten dollar airsoft guns every day hes asking sonic mcdonalds barley food home cook top never cleans messes instance cleaning top bunk telling clean year half youll see thats important mom threatens belt finely it well like nine thirty school night cleaning bed watching netflix stuff bunk falls down got said done told needs clean mess told next bed went sleep told mom happened told clean it still infuriating brag twin brother pretty big deals two smartest kids school twins im saying little brother say brothers everyone likes him well went way git head tell brother great use advantage purposely starts shit kids gradeth now im constantly getting told friends hes bullying siblings raised hit since born even though deserves twin dont hit him mom dosnt use belt grounds him really grinds gears dosnt care takes getting grounded trade rather punishment twin brother always tried hardest make mom happy get rewarded thinks deserves same example twin wanted dying light could play friends told mom weve getting straight as getting grounded like years asked dollars said yes next day walks room sees us playing dying light starts crying mom dosnt give dollars comes room tells us mentally abuse him hit him make feel depressed first felt bad depression real problem remorse slapped away mom heard said knows dont hit ask would make feel better said fake sad voice dollars gta well got money would expect buy something alowes earn money lije vehicle cargo missions came surprise two days later money way easily earn money vheicle drive around in turns bought fully customized drove car minites sell car repeat spent called depression money still nothing virtual equivalent burning money still wants money gta could go im going to,0 @benjaminws glad ya liked it. I think of it as a Blue Moon that's acceptable for dudes ,0 think timeno long lifestory blog post ive depressed suicidal several years and possibly going insane ive heard every story every anecdote every piece advice nothing touched me dropping slight possibility theres something worth living for,1 sort redflag hotline texting for australiansi need someone unload problems on talking gives anxiety,1 goodnight europian comrades sleep well fellow europians tomorrow great day hope,0 ever told anyone everything exactly sure even for whether want know someone cares maybe want someone know remember meit dark couple days keep thinking tired alive pain think ever really want die definitely want keep living life thisi guess start saying privileged access free healthcare limitations mental health therapist click wonderful job care mother loves me still cannot find desire carry oni medic army still really ready deal reality it made mistakes cannot shake ifs haves could haves always remember made mistakes called things good enough speak casualty could have led picture mind always come back to telling air force jtac officer sorry nothing left could do worst all congruence many small things added together create situation situation crept aware everything heading late really guilt fear gets mei afraid myself actions mistakes especially potential causing unforeseeable unpreventable catastrophic harm trust right thing good thing try put place never anything scared harm allow harm come people around me withdrawn slowly tried fade everyone lives way cannot hurt hurt much finally go it also scares me idea one outside family maybe friends would really care killed terrifyingi cognizant enough know killing selfish thing something harm instead good people around me know unfair family friends therapist coworkers voice says fundamentally bad unlovable broken burden feel definitive told since organ donor would better something positive offset partially negative know fully buy yetit years felt like this run rest s maybe gotten worse least definitely gotten better fucking lonely time tried kill myself gone month redflag recovery program loving relationship destroyed idiocy baggage tried kill again got inpatient wing va hospital couple weeks ago checked fear would now weeks later edge again want die find still scared deed gets close harm pain would people want live anymore without prospect getting better so tired alive pain unable connect people see future things get better see future keep going indefinitely fucked know good compared many people unlimited medical benefits veterans administration good me believe work great job va medical center helping veterans idea something meaningful bring positive things peoples lives keeps going darkest ruminations come in see harm people pain burden shitty destructive way belief gone resentment comes anger frustration suicide would hurt loved ones holding back frustration idea trapped feeling forced live instead really wantif made far thank sorry even posting this creating something invariably spread pain people know share pain misery loves company also scared lonely afraid die without anyone ever knowing understanding guess want chest,1 hey lookin fellow xbox nerds needing friends game with im btw yes ik lowest level teen be,0 plain simple year old bipolar alcoholic cannot hold job save life tried medication medication medication none works longer yeari literally cannot stop drinking slowly killing mei thousands dollars debt probably lose everything next coming months get shit togetheri want get drunk take every pill fucking done iti tired fighting fight losing every timei tired hating actions incapable making changei know expecting receive posting thismaybe hoping small chance worth iti knowbut point want finally end ruined life,1 watch fcking video u dont actually understand trig functions httpsyoutubepndlihsh ive trig since like years ago get wth,0 Watching The Holiday ,0 went first date days last date went ex year half ago feels really good good night guys,0 want play among us anyone want play among us me code xyhoxq,0 tried posting similar post last week technical difficulties goes think im going chronologically high school become close someone become known one best friends lets call jessie want pursue friendship jessie strong independent woman mature beyond years sassy latina attitude sense humor,0 only month ago around christmas my dad nearly died and wa in a coma for week my mum and brother were thrown into a depressive state whilst i tried so hard to get on with life and be strong for them only last month my relationship with my brother wa completely destroyed when my family confronted him after finding out he d stolen hundred from me and my parent i wa hurt and betrayed so badly but wa able to forgive him and try to move on even if he didn t feel the same way after fighting against all of the pain my life ha brought me through my family and relationship these past few month i finally started to feel like i wa making progress and becoming a better person for everyone in my life yesterday i woke up to a paragraph text message from my girlfriend of year telling me she didn t love me or want to be with me anymore and i ve finally caved in i m so sick of trying so hard to be strong every single time i resist another force come down on me i give up and i don t want to do this anymore she wa my comfort and best friend who i could go to for anything now i feel like i have nobody who understands me and nobody who want to listen which is why i m typing here because i m so lost and broken i will be so grateful for any kind word,1 know lied want worry youit matter soon love,1 teacher looks like pornstar though feel shouldnt show give description looks like karlee grey ngl,0 ppl bully u use correct pronouns like u wanna tell call call slurs thats chill cause like hate lmao least use right pronouns,0 The new Sonic Mania trailer cured my depression goddamn,1 im going thrift shopping today im hoping find maybe hoodie maybe sweater shirts nice flannel thrift stores near house ill ride bike ill probably pick chicken tenders sonic grab empanadas empanada shop afterwards idk,0 want chatdoes anybody want talk feel lonely despite around people ive feeling angry lately friends really wish could drop dead,1 lmao average length circumference fucking adult dick looks like im average lol kinda cool guess,0 @marketsuccessor that some sweet Google Page rank on your twitter profile page Now that's skill LOL ,0 "@cuelight thanks, but nope, not my birthday, mines at the end of July. I was wishing it to friends on FB ",0 terryfree lol byeee time to go,0 fuck people say damn guy real balls haha hes pussy like chad one takes single kick pain creates literal life able pop child out late night thought mine,0 self promotion college scholarships money work organization looking find kids get scholarships theres also raffles could big also job opportunity interested please dm me post goes cant post let know ill take right away yes im teen lol,0 kaitlinmonroe aw that sound so fun i m so bummed that i missed it did you get to meet anyone,0 dont think make itten years ago wasnt good year compared whats happened earth shattering handle everyone live either moved away friendships severed died overdose know one person left alive arent good terms all care addict always feels like trap sunday went hospital panic attack god damn time hate conflict lot started three years ago boyfriend four years found dead overdose didnt know addict less year died im stupid didnt know hid well tried hard enough carry guilt die literally feel gutted friend whos good terms cutting actions hurts like hell hes one left knows through losing friends even turn trapped watching even something bad happens hearts hurting much nothing helps hell father died cant take it miss death dont know live life changes mom threw away years work things went ahead changed whole house thats fine taken darkest places almost died three times last year tried hardest save her theres guy im catching feelings im already scared hell feel like shouldnt feel like im cheating boyfriend whos dead three years moment feel like im going heart attack non stop shake feel like crap tried take life many times cant take world hate it cant eat sleep nightmares get wish lived state assisted redflag allowed afraid live leave house cant function im sick stomach theres help there,1 woman ever treated respect nan died months ago household screwing us theres nothing do refuses seek help never change want move out nowhere go job money best wait someone dies suppose,1 know mean much hereat point else turn too friends want hear it family on little honestly need vent die im standard age one knows go want writer im fucking definition loser learned long time ago diagnosed depression light form autism basicly understand somethings comes learning anything treated therapy however depression stuck bullied mercilessly school one teachers principles gave damn it content watch embarressing go government tell fucking fix it part life loner never thought would get friends would come home school go play video games imagine hero hero one understood still wanted around high school came first year grade proved best part life joined anime club became dnd player made tons new friends helped set convention on grades happened met one girl first shocked asked first took movie kissed think want date anymore three week relationship think much it friend came english class yelled stop raping friend thats went hill place point anime club called freak rapist time guy wanted kill constantly tried set fire twice day people relentlessly mocked cast again deal g point reached fucked grad quote said thank flying spaghetti monster people liked anime club members history teacher everyone else got mad said offensive get better their left high school never turned back done tests such college college fresh start new beginning life way fucking well said wanted writer wanted write sci fi took psychology english history political environment but english political thought where first english nice met girl started dating six months proffesor really nice however things took turn classes became sucky men awesome women are english political environment kept saying again men ruined this men ruined that white men destroyed everything good hearing day day got nerves know bad tried better person life never stuck felt alone classes one wanted hear um writer game thrones hes white awesome on no stories read white men bad political talk tumblr sjw bull shit disproven multiple doctors institutions tipping point gf time first women dreams beautiful me shy nerdy little creepy really liked creepy weird stuff on met another girl girl twisted friend side me would poke prod gf telling bad intentionally go way strain relationship got point gf starting mentally abuse andverbally abuse me tried fight her tried nearly became i love care me friends stopped forced look reality picture bad me gave relationship gave nothing back confronted everything accused accepted never even defended self accepted everything said remorse it told go fuck self left breaking her even add friend abanonded got wanted started focusing finding job came avail one girl tried dating online cheated abandoned me tried therapy fail miserably six years nothing came it family sick tired seeing sad even talk anymore go fake smile try let know im fine secretly im not friends abandoned go problems try go stunning radio silience im alone nobody reason im posting someone know loved even know please follow me better idiot thought way cant find way please keep fighting ever reads this even im dead ill still beleive it,1 sexually identify floofy furry ,0 welli dancer automatically liked film thing like much dancing thought would be say good dance film think songs too good film said before rating ,0 feel like need go impatient againbut really dont want to desire cut getting bad cut year half every day urge gets worse urge gets worse life seems pointless,1 screw ittonight iti done planning seeing morning,1 weeks ago planning leaving job try something wanted life once put everyone else priority wanted take sort controlthe universe said nostarted month hospitalized today learned semirare disease need constant life changes doctor follow ups rest life cannot really leave job since need insurance ever today learned news family member passing awaytoday learned person loved lied meall one day lost losti wanted something would make happythe universe said noi tired now universe said no,1 mg xanax l wine want wake kill me,1 happens text redflag hotline im shy dont knowwhat call police me end making feel worse,0 cant stop thoughtsi want dead im scared know right way to wish could go sit somewhere get painless lethal injection go sleep im sure else say ive written note hate guns want painful im ready go,1 midnight room thinking deathi hate life lay awake night till pass wake again guess ill going sleep now im sure inevitable come moons now,1 let join trend httpsmusictastespacerequestamiableemu,0 Getting started on the day... We are going to find out exactly what it is that reaches peoples............ checkbook ,0 thinking overdosing escape tremendous stress get school relationshipbecause covid classes conducted online somehow assignment load also increased months literally spend hours every day work projects really stressing im stuck home couldnt much make matter worse boyfriend currently working overseas hours difference knows able return due prevailing situation recently feel like emotionally distanced take days reply wait another day attempted call twice miss company didnt pick call back feel shitty could overbearing communication maybe thats avoiding me loss him dont know take another hit especially one made believe love again exes trashes im feel like messed life really seek want end life overdosing sedatives painless swift however cowardice also makes worry death would affect loved ones really need help,1 it dare go,0 @glsmeltr and thank you so much for your hospitality I appreciate it!,0 it happens to me i would like talk to someone who is not my nationality and talk english german but i m at the same time not comfortable with speaking in that language,1 dont knowno one loves much likes die,1 wish chose criminology subject soooo interesting _ ,0 life changed forever wednesday afternoon driving work stopped red light gray truck pulls next me cute girl waving n shit roll window down she wave says hi light turns green go separate ways way made feel indescribable felt happy feeling hours laid awake bed night thinking moment girl fucking said hi me no mistake anybody else drive very distinct car no wouldnt recognized me moved states graduating high school,0 anyone please talk mei need talk someone,1 movie definitely list top favorites voices animals wonderful sally field michael j fox brilliant sassy feline young inexperienced pooch real standout ameche old faithful golden retriever movie great family movie appreciated loved children well adults humorous suspenseful guaranteed make every animal lover cry happy tears,0 too cold and tired to write good twitter everyone wa obeying the cop tonight total dissappointment we were so close,0 sped kachow,0 @MaryWilhite Very nice presentation! Perhaps you can use the in person course to stage your online webinar/teleconf. course ?,0 im trying sexist anything damn bro looking cute today,0 i fucking hate how you start to get to know someone and think they re pretty cool then they block you on everything and it just fuck suck make me want to cry all day and just ignore everyone but i know i can t,1 want break cry take pills house right nowi want stop confusion guilt incoming adult hood fantasies confusion religious beliefs neediness patheticness,1 lifemy friend committed redflag weeks ago bullied years things home progressively getting worse felt like way out eventually leading death th grade parents ignored signs assumed phase someone fucking audacity call attention seeker killed herself hate society parents please keep eye child know could loosing battle,1 it s something i feel multiple time a day i get even more anxious when i don t get reply or when someone leaf and drive some place else i always have to check my parent cctv camera they gave me access to it i can t help but think something bad might happen i ve been like this since i wa a child my first memory of this fear wa when i wa around or year old and my grandparent drove to a place i considered far i wa so worried i had to ask my mom if they ll be safe do you experience the same thing how s it like for you how did you get over it if you ever did,1 stubbed toe loses balances hits funny bone desk corner thanks life,0 seemesimyyyy eya ndalama ivute zibweziso zivute kunja nkwa depression uku,1 looking at it i seem to be getting a completely different config finding shared hosting hard not having control,0 @Panther2160 Thank you. Have a great one as well. ,0 threads keep hanginga years ago lost someone important me consequence eventually lost things close me friends identity think ever separate thoughts redflag person day succeed killing,1 so me m my gf f killed herself i don t know why or how i feel it s all my fault my family didn t know we were dating so i don t know how to bring it up to them i can t even focus or eat now i just don t know what to do i m honestly about to end it i failed her,1 inamupwa ndati how do i get out of my depression and go live my life agh,1 #flylady Time to start the LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL! Have a Magnificent Monday everyone! ,0 @CarlitoStaxx Krisy kreme only if the hot sign is on ,0 @kuttyedathi aw.. that's sad.. enjoy the working long weekend then.. ,0 quick tidy room cups plates need bring down bring em right mind,0 not even a god damn crisis line want to help me well fuck me then i m done i can t deal with this pain anymore it s too much for me so many people have it so much worse but i can t get through my stupid little bull shit i m such a fucking coward i m sorry but i m done with this shit,1 keep trying overdose body feels weaki think slowly dying body feels weak vomiting blood since last night dont feel well feel like person anymore dont feel like anymore im dying ive panic attacks lately ever cant control thoughts feel like im going dark path idea stop it feel fucking alone empty ive fucking sad lately im glad im dying,1 nothing need diethere future it present totally alone yes alone you guarantee it sort constant withdrawal worse nicotine withdrawal maybe things could satiate it ive found arguing frenzy getting suicidal real person crisis lines feel absolutely fake need toxicity even that impossible alone why unattractive trans autistic that lifetime building it indigenous histories living place genocide matter go need falls apart feel like need break something scream energy strength to want sleep im sleeping hours day now sometimes wake noon fall asleep sleep am maybe stay bit maybe shower eat sleep noon everyone else things course load easy almost nothing impossible cant it please let die,1 typical happy hour cocktailall physicians might see course several months treating different things wind perfect makings amitriptylene cocktail youd think someone would pick rx combination even time someone risk,1 im totally agree garryjohal singapores comments film quotation yes nonsingaporeans cant see whats big deal film references film fly right head foreign viewers mostly singaporeans ones would actually get it still quite truth malaysianchinese get it although speak hokkien similar problems malaysia too know really hard understand accept reality definitely no real story pleased see film outside malaysia definitely banned malaysia too means either get illegal copied vcds dvds hope someone kind enough share internet another violent teen drama portrays reality exists singapore and malaysia too interesting way sadhumour little sad know film got cuts censorship waste,0 Nothin' like a good book and some spring cleaning. http://www.mrsdlightful.com/2009/04/food-storage-and-pantry-cleaning-tips.html,0 roast meeeeeeeeee miss dumb roasts people would like th grade plz roast,0 going college biggest mistake lifelong story short delusional year old self real world experience idea world worked support system behind besides momdad raging abusive alcoholic torn family apart decided would great idea go state school mom cosigned loans bless heart wants whats best me set first two years straddled debt already quite well managed finish first two years gpa part idea wanted life still dont taking mostly intro classes electives fill schedule two years made single biggest mistake life decided transfer even nicer state school even expensive mom cosigned loans got got cushy one person apartment paying rent loans dumbest thing could ever done even though still am thats depression sickness whatever hit me super lonely literally never made one friend contemplated redflag daily even though probably never balls mom dead one left life matters needless say never attended class slept almost day basically prison cell me even though would seen outstanding opportunity normal person failed outmainly dropped out first semester never got refund first second semester took second semester off fast forward im second semester third school im state surrounded quite high school friends also attend im still stuck rut im watching friends high school graduate year branch live lives meanwhile im stuck limbo land im already k debt literally nothing show it im boat second school basically received academic warning last semester far looking like im going suspended im skipping class feeling depressed daily although school offers third chance want take ill thrown real world paying student loans skills experience kind meaningful work id homeless mom fail out ill move back mom alcoholic dad brother never went college also lives really wish brothers situation yeah sure never went college also straddled crippling debt rest life whole life literally boiled idea needed go college make something life im insurmountable amounts debt see completely fucked wish never went first place want kill go away everything saddest part mom left loans greatest thing ever happened supported way signing life away well im lose lose situation possibly do see doctor stuck feeling like forever way death,1 viewed jean renoirs wonderful film french can visual delight great entertainment recently produced moulin rouge pales comparison quite get praise recent movie received im convinced ever appraisal correct seeing master film maker like jean renoirs version story succeeded getting great performances entire cast great french actor jean gabin rare form dance sequence near end one exciting one id ever seen long want end film deserves receive recognition got,0 alternatives rredflagwatchdear rredflagwatch think truly fantastic place times ive really wanted someone talk anonymously sw appropriate reasons include problems unrelated redflag im sure scope appropriate topics sw obviously anything related redflag serious depression belongs here topics concern poster nothing redflag lack privacy although make throwaway account anonymous every post publicly available posting lot detailed information risky delayed responses know phone numbers provided emergencies numbers appropriate nonemergencies level anonymity think would help and hopefully many others built list alternative resources sw appropriate place go alternatives could include relevant forums relevant irc channels relevant chatrooms relevant subreddits contact details people willing provide support done successful think helpful please let know tldr places talk anonymously problems rredflagwatch appropriate,1 Listening "I know u want me" by pittbull...love it http://myloc.me/3TrK,0 guys dont know jack shit cars really care wondering sake,0 gitcommitdie remove infractions please know u prolly cant worth shot,0 feel numbingi born due father making work ask born give consent put earth want put middle personal problems live years try yes ive asked since little never ask life basically trap set selfish adults tradition happened life really great moments always end asking always one psychotic breakdowns call im alltime low cant even think personality kinda absorbed everyone else put spin miles tv game friends got questions tv want watch much thought dont even know forcing cant take dont want almost everything exeption maybe things true spot legos use imagine books tv game food bikes tv dont know anything else im quetioning existense sanity i know anything im nobody takes everybody wanted tall like miles hairstyle shoes like jacket everything games life plagiarism know cope talking helping wake tomorrow knowing stuff got im even mad thought want think talk know probably saying know anything better entire life lie person manifestation everything ive seen around every time things get bad lose sight another person thing take lose im even mad want stop top everything enough going already cant escape age weapon used toy rights emotions privileges im ill days im trying wait give see gets better know dosent im done,1 cant stop thinking iti live next train tracks trains go fairly often several times hour every time hear sound train going think redflag killing myself like automatically visualize killing jumping front one trains triggers thoughts constantly cant get away since live here im lot distress moment know going try kill right becoming real option im scared want scared feel like giving,1 never bend never break ive known years school weve hung couple times got drunk together stayed late friends etc shes really cool person asked last year got rejected big time im fine position friend she keen staying friends block contact covid school started havent time talk irl ive asked wanted hang take walk easiest things plan get of live walking distance apart every time try suggest plan things ghosts me text im fine denied rejected please tell truth always answers something like mb didnt see message im sorry next time suggest dumb shit activities th cycle repeats making feel needy know im not trying hang friend havent seen catch up ive texted dont like texting im sick planning stupid activities wont answer seemed really sincere apology explaining doesnt know whats going on shes confused blablabla know irl believe intentions pure rejection makes feel like shit sadness keeps making better shape less confident shape etc do block contact go house demand talk her idk guys feeling stressed,0 im trying browse sub without reading year old busted nut seriously stop posting shit one cares,0 people love care care cant find someone cares hobbies genuinely interested jealous people crushed on ahh wanna talk anyone,0 really need talk someone i nobody life share thoughts running like crazy head need talk stranger might understand tell whats wrong feelings please aim wotx,1 liv ullmans character says i feel like im someone elses dream theyre going ashamed wake up referring unwilling player societys war games referring ignorant participant life itself films end says dream child trying take care it forgot something else implication forgotten learned war survived like mother her unable pass vital lessons child and therefore cycle shame ignorance continuead infinitum,0 my paronychia hurt,0 never really functional person kid would take everything game joke lazy got older got depressed guess also feel guilty shitty things done th th grade kid annoying af would always getting everyone nerves kids started sort keeping distance telling fuck off th grade new kid came school bully kind guy pretty good friends everyone started bullying kid annoying telling fuck physically too would punch arm stomach lot make homework seemed like bullying annoying kid kept hanging see manipulative kid never punched also nothing stop guy wanted fit guess also remember girl pretty heavy age school girls problems her mostly really problematic always wanted get fight also never actively bullied maybe passively telling girls stop idk feel pretty bad lot things remembered today although details maybe wrong mind plays games sometimes memory gets fuzzy times created memories nowhere guess deserve,1 time selfie trend starts see twice many comments girl photos guys say simping poki only says optimal not like why fill make visible bruh,0 ever awkward position listen friend talk something interest scared tell stop man hoping good time stop talking even kept nodding,0 sunday july first episode new science fiction series called stargate sg broadcast showtime spinoff sequel film stargate starring kurt russell james spader series begins approximately one year events portrayed film ten seasons chronicled adventures misadventures intrepid team explorers known sg originally series starred richard dean anderson colonel jack oneill two ls michael shanks dr daniel jackson amanda tapping captain samantha carter christopher judge tealc s davis major general george s hammond ten long years watched team battle goauld replicators ori many aggressors time forged alliances asgard tokra rebel jaffa nox tollan saved world less eight times years never gave up death claimed them sometimes even thenbr br as longrunning series numerous cast changes michael shanks left series january end fifth season order broaden horizons actor daniel jacksons successor teams resident archaeologistgeek jonas quinn alien country called kelowna planet langara played corin nemec however shanks returned beginning seventh season june nemec left time unfortunately made one guest appearance character seldom mentioned afterwards s davis left series end seventh season march felt time go shows original star arguably popular actor richard dean anderson starred series throughout first eight seasons participation seventh eight seasons noticeably less earlier seasons finally left sg march order spend time sixyearold daughter jack oneill far favourite character series and truth told never enjoyed last two seasons much earlier episodes reasonbr br the ninth season represented new era programme departure lead actor defeat goauld replicators season eight many fans felt series go high regardless series carried two years ori replacing goauld series main adversaries three new characters brought fill gaps help usher reinvention ben browder came cocky southern air force pilot lt colonel cameron mitchell new leader sg farscape costar lovely claudia black began play prominent role series vivacious sexy hilarious certainly extroverted vala mal doran former goauld host con artist another planet recurring guest star eighth ninth seasons joined cast full time beginning tenth final season rounding cast legendary beau bridges major general hank landry new commander sgc old friend jack oneill general hammond last two years starred alongside sg faithful michael shanks amanda tapping christopher judge became valuable parts made equally valuable contributions stargate franchisebr br alas good things must come end initial broadcast first several episodes season ten ratings dropped considerably resulting cancellation august ten seasons episodes dream finally over march began children gods ended unending series finale made world premiere sky one britain ireland shown scifi channel united states june br br in ten years series air amassed legions fans even eclipsed science fiction series star trek terms popularity certain countries became secondlongest running scifi series world second doctor who longestrunning american produced scifi series surpassed the xfiles months endedbr br stargate sg represents cornerstone stargate franchise success popularity led production spinoff series entitled stargate atlantis regrettably cancelled five seasons episodes august although plans another feature film fell through two directtodvd films stargate ark truth stargate continuum released planned distant future third liveaction series stargate universe also due premiere point next year there was unfortunately animated series stargate infinity ran less said better despite end sg atlantis continuing series future stargate looks bright indeedbr br in conclusion stargate yet gain degree popular recognition major scifi television franchises star trek doctor who still relatively new compared two scifi giants every confidence continue many many years come,0 cant take nomore time sleep nowdear suicidal self hello close friend cant deal anymore thoughts tooking think comtting redflag dont see way feel caused nothing hurt distruction pain live done nothing life feel never amount anything im borden people friends anything try find way mess im meant life im worthless helpless point im tired feeling way feel time end pain much depression worst living never ending nightmare cant sake cut tights people friends even family even son better love much cant live anymore knowing caused pain never ment cause son know hurt know wasnt fault daddy sick im sorry know good hands amazing mother im nothing never anything wish im sorry family isnt one fault alway felt never fit anywhere dealing feeling thoughts long time dont sad upset im peace dont know got point im scared know matter mins dont wanna live pain anymore yrs anything done failed thing good drugs worthless im ashamed person become embarrassed wanted happy live life unbearable,1 @MaryBeverly send some sun this way plz .. nyc calls for lotsa rain,0 sorry mistakes romanian depression ,1 whywhy thoughts depressed got great job beautiful wife beautiful kids feel like im stereotype people dream of inside im dying dont want anymore want actually want end life no died accidental overdose died crash id ok wishing death myself cant shake feelings,1 thank moderators of rsuicidewatch for allowing post here part team researchers new york state psychiatric institutecolumbia university currently recruiting participants research study looking investigational treatment selfinjury called transcranial direct current stimulation tdcs tdcs noninvasive welltolerated form brain stimulation delivers low current specific area brain using electrodes research shown tdcs help reduce negative emotions may help treat depression conditionswe seeking individuals ages selfinjure through burning cutting means eligible participants stayingliving within minutes travel distance manhattan new york ny usa participate study involves completing baseline psychological assessment questionnaires twelve sessions tdcs six visits two weeks doubleblind trial may randomly assigned receive active inactive form tdcs research procedures done homeno inperson visits requiredthree months treatment visits psychiatrist medication management offered cost you compensation provided time effort eligible complete research proceduresthe researchers team conflicts interest declare study procedures approved institutional review board new york state psychiatric institutesome details confidentiality use personal informationif consent participate research personal information kept confidential released without written permission except described section required law name identifying information made known results study published scientific purposesto make personal research results identifiable used publication scientific literature presentation scientific meetings remove identifying information including name date birthquestionnaire answers data collected task may used future studies shared investigators information 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records although cannot disclose information without consentif interested please contact ashley ashleyyttredahlnyspicolumbiaedu information also available time treating self injury research study,1 guess clich alreadyhello actually really know start this guess introducing myself im girl years old college student informatics major pretty much life right now guess clich say find place world think ever will hurts hurts damn much think anything choose not you went sports got called talented medals international titles it never felt like place there never felt like belonged there grew up like another clich bullied skinny result hated myself still do could never look mirror say you look pretty today felt like mirror hated much hated myself bullying happened school came home mother told ever wanted friends boyfriend skinny even fat then healthy weight thought high school would change everything would like movies suddenly get ton friends become pretty life gets better life got worse time also knee injury give sport got fatter fatter made keep going started vocal lessons i know think clichic misunderstood artist ill honest natural born talent even it always afraid people even sing way thought could block myself lessons felt like world right time belonged somewhere purpose even though one stood concerts told good voice special charm swear god day words best compliment ive ever received give music senior year high school final exams coming i think called sats usa since then told pick path life major college beyonce mariah carey subtly brought option family immediately dismissed it now major informatics ill honest hate math always did since thing loved reach chose would bring biggest amount money today failed first exam came crushing me never meant this think future looks like see nothing consider ending because lets real life one live die afraid thought waking mid s hating life job everything surrounds me live like that bothered read till end thank you honestly felt say it would overdosed first pills could get hands on even now know myself feel helpless angry myself angry everyone everything feel pain wanted reach out maybe theres way time too ive dealing depression long time never got guts act dark thoughts scared becoming braver lately scared myself feel like breathing peoples oxygen stop wasting it clichic right another depressed teen feels like belong feel bad even trying reach out deserve saved,1 kill today wont homeworkyay,1 is feeling contemplative. ,0 state mandated masks schools wooooooo fuck yes filler text automod fucking dumbads,0 need someone talk toplease pm ill give skype account name need someone talk to,1 cant anything righti cant even choose right tea wanted thought would self soothe bought wrong kind even little things cant help mess up drink wrong kind top literally everything else going wrong right,1 @pollyL what did you think? I cant wait!!! ,0 "@asymmetricinfo @ThePlumLineGS It is almost the definition of anti-capitalist. No, that doesn't mean that it can't be considered as a short term sunsetting fix for a depression. So why would we discuss it now?",1 anyone else cringe calls karen karen public dont know why makes cringe hard see public freakout videos dude recording call lady karen amount energy calling someone normie public,0 "@MAGGIECHICKEN haha. I like Miley ;) buuuuut each to their own, yesh? ",0 love is a joke with no punch line,0 on the last episode of top boy depression is real,1 guys know disney movie inside out think joy lives head died long time ago,0 ran across posting im sure make itthrowaway account ran across posting httpphoenixbackpagecomsportsequipforsalepleasedonotsellaguntothisgirl links following one contains phone number httpredflagprojectorgpartnerinus httpredflagprojectorgpartnerincanada im sure anyone could look possibly give call email her probably check account posting qualified involved however thought id put reddit community since love help people much,1 wanted die long period life truth actually terrified die think tell want die make think afraid deathim really sure constantly need around others give sort insight order feel like myself really idea could tell like like constantly anxious scared worried sad always tell people okayi tell people okay feel deserve empathy sorrow zero confidence myself usually end quitting job think good enough work even deserve make money take care myself addicted nicotine alcohol adult films internet necessarily really know actually feeling time sometimes think actually awake alive even broke ex thought deserved better hate alone like alone be dream mine since kid known sort legacy honestly think ever achieve that tell people believe god actually think worthy god struggling identity crisis zero motivation solve problem constantly unmotivated comes things good bad stop nothing get it put shitty situations like pain think deserve constantly seek affirmation others really want feel comfortable mind body molested five years old adhdi afraid die people forget within couple days things dying get chest,1 extremely redflaged well all night gave pressure cut redflag relief scared tell therapist want go psych ward self harmed first time years,1 i put @tommcfly in the lead ,0 finding therapisthello friend struggling lot poor self image issues depression needs therapist every day become toss talk ledge not therapists say wont take her know guidelines say cant request contact information ask it advice give help find therapist,1 help im sorta panicking went website blocked internet service provider sky said blocked clicked away closed tab parents get notification telling went blocked website anything said internet service provider searched im uk btw,0 just weird and pretty sure i m sane lol,1 suicidal thoughtsi kind hate posting here ive done makes feel kind bad hate thought strangers worrying dumbass dont really anyone talk kinda stuff with would look crazy saying im thinking killing anyone kind hard say tbh hold in last night considered taking life hours morning walking around town trying take mind things calm down eventually went home slept woke felt degraded burst tears stayed bed day life get wanted curl ball deal anything feel like tonights gonna long night mind friend im absolutely exhausted ive sleeping hours every night week sometimes sleep feel like actual shit got much mind last months fuckin beyond stressed sucking life feel like im losing mind sometimes im trying good get better every day gets harder harder cope cant seem pull im scared started months ago odd thought killing sometimes never considered actually it gotten point think every single day sometimes cant think way this im desperate stop hurting constantly debilitating feel trapped lie awake alot nights contemplating quick get with always end thinking people care leaving behind tell one day it really want die literally know else im agony every day want stop god id anything want life back wanna feel excited live again,1 @Danacea Ever so envious. Do point out Steve's book to him and say that this NEEDS to be turned into a movie! Please! ,0 life ended years agoive dead long time believe it do stress anxiety pain caught me cant keep running obviously therapy medicine useless im giving hours live im going head little clearing woods used meet middle night one place everything perfect one last time,1 u c eim alone tomorrow morning doesnt anybody love think im irritating cant function anymore hate think soon,1 jerking listerine use listerine jerk years now enjoy burning sensation hate penis shades lighter compared rest body yall use,0 would deadly sins businesses im wondering question mind awhile want answered,0 i ? @HeartMileyCyrus so MUCH ,0 "Smiling, even when it's forced, indicates to your mind that you're happy. This in turn causes the brain to release endorphins,"" the body's """"feel-good"""" chemicals that combat depression and anxiety. https://goo.gl/vwCqUa ",1 I'm home and uploading today's episode of DREAM TV up on Facebook and YouTube! ,0 im tired feeling like thisive battled depression life got worse college started introvert forced go make friends course first person came contact raped me campus police blamed lost motivation scholarships simply couldnt stand school every time think going different college begin shut nothing stop suicidal thoughts really want give up,1 great year mask makers acrylic installersbeyond worst year recall,1 friend mostly ignoring week idk say m close friends f years texted pretty much every day much school year usually lot since covid started since stuck home past week taken anywhere hours ignoring texts whole day barely saying anything me long normal text conversations earlier week short conversations snapchat seems fine like theres significant difference snaps even little text serious mental health struggles idk related im generally confused honestly super weird sudden change almost year texting times day every daybasically question text asking shes taking literal days respond shes okay tldr friend basically ignoring many months talking tons every day confused say,0 @SylFabulous thanks for retweeting ,0 punishment story time biology teacher entered several assignments grade book marked missing administration parents decided enters night cant celebrate thanksgiving family ill grounded next month sorry waisting time wanted rant situation,0 http twitpic com y lt i feel so bad for the band right now,0 despite production received number poor reviews actually holds quite well age note also bbc programme simply licensed granada ventures jane austen collection released dvdbr br so compare adaptations novel wellknown version days film amanda root anne elliott ciaran hinds captain frederick wentworth film course shorter good snapshot story earlier version ann firbank bryan marshall roles four hours tell story moved leisurely pacebr br firbank good ten years old role good marshall excellent wentworth man disappointed love bitter interference hidden cast people also contribute michael culver later seen cadfael harvill richard vernon later seen hitchhikers guide galaxy admiral croft noel dyson earlier coronation street mrs musgrovebr br one criticism hairstyles bit distracting costumes awful still detract hugely enjoyable austen adaptation,0 im tiredim mentally tired ive depressed long remember live alcoholic parents neglected fucked up im almost im fucking loser im college graduate living parents basement apply job job job one calls debt keeps building cant even begin fix mental health im still living initially broken im tired im tired venting friends im tired applying jobs going interviews hear nothing back im antidepressants think actually make feel worse im fat disgusting im always broke literally one thing life happy besides friends pets deserve better me wish would go sleep never wake up,1 absolutely best thing ever seen tv entertaining informative reason found site attempt find see itbr br in light present understanding history sympathize gen leslie groves responsible nuts bolts running manhattan project certainly paranoid security thought past br br the casting real life people portrayed outstanding first time noticed sam waterston actor except height looked much like robert oppenheimerbr br the early scene oppenheimer leading class graduate students especially intriguing me,0 cactus flower delightful comedy based neil simon play dentist walter matthau affair young free spirited woman goldie hawn totally unaware devoted nurseassistantingrid bergmanis love him matthau play kind role sleep disappoint philandering dentist dr julian winston dating one woman really clue hes love another goldie hawn oscar sparkling performance toni simmons aging flower child slowly comes realize trapped dead end affair dim appears surface real pleasure film performance legendary ingrid bergman stephanie dickinson dr winstons completely devoted assistant willing bury sacrifice happiness long dr winston happy tony bergman luminous film looking absolutely beautiful though camera always loved her showing unforeseen knack light comedy yes dialogue settings slightly dated story timeless performances stars make imminently watchable,0 Glad to be at work. 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Just a bunch ;of whiney patients! ,0 "oops i just defeated depression, i don't want bad things to happen on me again",1 search tati mcquay instagram tell shes hot asf search tati mcquay instagram tell shes hot asf,0 "@maximumswearing it's ok wasn't having a go, thank you for being nice ",0 first time youth ahead methe second time partner sidethis time nothing nobody myself depressed three times life,1 pypi fail installing markdown with pip and easy install downloads the python version,0 afraid anything everything time afraid happened may happen afraid world earth skies stars aliens humans animals whatever fucking bullshit thought occurred head makes skin crawl afraid might become afraid might go crazy fight might become boring normal average weird fucking hippie fucking stupid hardheaded person,1 so see humans behind posts families pets friendshow dare fuck people like thiswell gone another faceless nameless victim uncaring bullshitciao fuckers going post picture,1 @paintmysmilee hahaha yeah but it's just so fun I dunno why!!! yay band tmrwwww,0 please read id appreciate adviceive suicidal thoughts usually every night whilst im trying sleep always around time ignored ages tried getting life like nothing happening sold diazepam last night bari know theyre good bought pack left pub absolutely wasted barely able walk straight got home tried sleep thoughts again felt like worse time turned complete mess maybe drunk lost head opinion reason all anyway seen diazepams said fuck it thought fuck drunk believed would fall asleep never wake up didnt want suffer wanted go point quitely happily took around guess led sofa waited minutes goes head started spinning because alcohol lasted minute projectile vomiting bath assuming tablets came im alive question though that sign ignore thoughts get every night like sick sign say dont try boy question tell dad last night long ago spoke thought depth told need break away town said pay gets bad got bad dad good telling someone bad like wont think bad is advice getting understand if tell whats happened wont tell mum break heart,1 im really worried mom need helpokay gonna super long and apologies formatting im mobile friday morning mom left work trying sleep utility pole fell house we live trailer park garbage truck got tangled wires decided best idea try gun snapped pole right outside house landed right sleeping didnt come roof cause damage generalized anxiety panic disorder also others matters now well fear trees falling houses wreck pole roof also live wires along ground long story short garbage company refusing pay us stay anywhere else we power s s fahrenheit company would come fix pole cant even appraise monday this happened friday mom i tight budget is trying scrape past two nights heres concern comes from mom obviously depressed past nights im add stress burden im absolute mess cant close eyes without hearing crack bang pole made broke landed cant stop feeling house shake cant stop feeling like run im trying hold dont add stress shes got enough worry is tonight hotel staying at complained able home started crying everything hit once mom told needed quiet tried told ive trying keep together dont want burden going come little bit theres lot going head im really feeling depressed keep flashbacks havent told this told im realizing affecting her feels like wanna kill i checked hospital earlier year due feeling extremely suicidal supposed do drive us bridge wouldnt talk me went bathroom closed door made scared considering said went see okay told leave alone told wasnt going sure going okay said would fine able talk need stop holding stuff making depend her asked meant said crying way threatening hurt kill myself told thats meant all told might meant thinly veiled threat told dont see shes going keep making see im going through never acknowledge shes going through dont know do thought right thing feel like messed everything up want okay need okay trying focus myself able honest say im still completely terrified happened ive never said anything depressed felt suicidal i dont whole time dont know would gotten get bad flashback dont know help her cant fix situation house cant fix myself cant fix either im trying best add pressure stress feel like added ton idk even need helpadvice on dont know said said frustration doesnt make less serious right dont know someone please say something,1 @tom_ra a good relaxing sunday and you'll be fine! ,0 blowing brains ampxb httpsiredditzaiarsaoxgif,0 already find place im gonna buy rope visit dentist tonightim way graduate months onward feel overwhelmed future job wellbeingness going fulfill parents expectation dad worry loser child longer thanks spoiled brat me,1 is sad because there wa another earthquake in italy,0 hey guy i currently need some help figuring out what to do recently i ve been feeling a lot of anxiety it started a week ago when my spring break wa ending and the night before leaving for school i started having major anxiety i am a little worried about school i guess but i know i m good with grade and will be fine till the end of the semester but still i just felt this major anxiety like an aching in my chest and couldn t sleep the whole night when i got back to school i thought everything would be fine but around or 9 pm i started getting that feeling again like i wa panicking and having a tightness in my chest that wouldn t go away i don t think i wa even thinking about anything at the time to cause it that night i didn t fall asleep till or in the morning even during the day sometimes i ll start getting that same anxious feeling but it s ha been consistently happening every night around the same time and i have trouble falling asleep i m in a good place in my life i have friend and family who care about me and i m doing well in school but i can t shake this anxiety i m having any advice would be great,1 timehow much codeine need end it im interested pity etc want sure die become ill combination pills alcohol speed process ta,1 want improve lifeany suggestions,1 im thinking leaving reddit legitimate reason stay,0 "@curiouslt Oh, crap. 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Raging Waters with the kids ,0 see posts people sad want end lives makes feel even lonelier want die even more fuck thoughts debilitatingim sleeping time now maybe hours day want anymore life cant take want to,1 desperate understand redflagso wanting kill self maybe years low desire years following desire kill self raging ive finally turned page chapter found ability cope things situation changed im still position whole time want everyone reads know matter bad situation is trust know hard be possable turn corner overcome all met guy named arthur burk got albums fixed me im conaidered one mentally healthy people family bring lot peace people around me,1 guys wanna say tomorrow turning but tomorrow bandwagon different circlejerk get karma nice meeting you even though idea tf aremy best moments teenage years minutes scrolling subreddit every couple daysanyway good time goodbye,0 hibanick yeah aw but i know i wudnt stand a chance,0 need talkim wondering redflag im wondering options im wondering consequences it telling friends effect driving away telling family effect making life harder want tell somebody im thinking redflag would cool could swap stories somebody else needs talk guess pm me post story ill reply mine sure specifics would interesting help,1 kevchoice i just don t get it what in a person mind could even have them on some ish like this my prayer are with her fam for real,0 nevermind previous post im horny,0 fuck find caillou smut wrote fifth grade really wrote smut ablut fucking college caillou wrong me,0 woke nap actually good sleep woke face flat pillow hands numband drooling,0 worth waitsometimes wonder people allow live life keeps smacking face always seems unknowing tomorrow holds quickly everything change wanted long time peace feel find life however precious waiste great relief longer fear death go everyday seeking opportunity remember going unknown alive dead,1 goodmorning to everyone except the depression that killed robin williams..,1 ladies gentlemen got one several years h r n giving trying love life girl confessed feelings me cant even expressed happy girl even feelings me im longer horny im finally happyif ill get enough feedback might even make qampa interested ones,0 cant get headim talking people believe friends right now idea currently feel ive depressed couple years now yesterday hit hard got everything ready prepared deed tuesday following threeday rule past talking feelings family friends either driven away led insults nothing life going want to matter hard try people surround never seem find interest conversations know posting help really needed get chest,1 best way escape horny jail im putting text post doesnt get removed,0 colbsi flickr s not letting me view it say it s private,0 cant find anything live anymoremy depression past months brought new low longer motivated work study order make extra income also sticking around take care mother care either im here family pick slack remember much case memory gone pieces know would sad cant bring care never listens believes me one family does yet ive proven logical one friends never around im crisis talk help give opinion i ask it tell alright thing keeping distracted lately new guy ignores nowadays hes busy apparently deserve here im probably alone long everyone picked im nut job hate life,1 it s been five year and a couple day now since my first major attempt i m not too sure how i feel to be honest ha life improved well not really of course after that first attempt i tried a couple more time i think if we look at the net value i m relatively in the same spot a i wa five year ago vibing on the bridge thankfully i m not too upset about that i think sadness and my inability to get out of said sadness is something that i will have to live with i m getting better at fighting it that s for sure are some day tiring and fucking unbearable of course but now i m just content with existing sad day are hard some day are easy i think i m just shocked that i m still alive well i definitely know that younger me would be shocked i m still kicking around maybe he d be happy that i stayed for this long there really isn t any point to this post just a bit of selfish self congratulation and the ability to say i m still alive guy i hope everyone ha a good day it s raining where i am but it s really nice to look at,1 "@christiinn aweee baby mamma, i hope tomorrow is better for you ",0 im tripping lsd reasons dieplease someone tell okay horrible leave,1 hate alli hate people complain lifes cant buy something really expensive others dont even know theyre gonna eat next day theyre gonna eat all hate people say depression reality sad moments stupid things like boyfriendsgirlriends hate everyone normalized redflag use joke nowadays i wanna die girl same funny wanting die something joked about suicidal waking everyday wishing sun hadnt crept throught window giving anything one day might make happy moment much pain mental stress want escape all worst able it sucks cant actually kill yourself im cowards problably never kill im coward wish courage could escape all,1 life overi dont reason live,1 im sorryim sorry mother never accept apologies im sorry father cant stand live you im sorry friends found hospitalized attempted redflag im sorry boyfriend want stay hate alive im sorry boyfriends parents care like im daughter showed bit like parents im sorry grandparents making think manipulating boyfriend redflag im sorry didnt think serious im sorry keep lying well im one day youre planning funeral wondering stopped noticing things im sorry people reddit reading late night listening ramblings dumb bitch longer courage kick bucket is always be tied guilt im sorry myself letting weak letting get best you im sorry couldnt take care you im sorry continue suffer indeterminate amount time,1 anticipatory griefis normal anticipatory grief redflag im preparing leaving birthday card fianc every birthday ill gone,1 hatredi cant wait fucking hang myself fucking hate world mean nothing world keeps reminding day want leave,1 im pissed im insecure cant even look body clothes everyone around hates impossible even try make new friends im shit wanna kms hate,0 im tired trying anymorei know start im struggling mom ptsd several mental health issues feel like cant reach help state ive using marijuana help ptsd flashbacks anxiety husband great guy were stagnant bedroom hes stopped helping around house kitchen mess also huge trigger me step father would beat shit dishes cleaning fast enough later evening would sexually abused him im done everything im good enough parent kid im good enough spouse christmas going happen year year old even sure well able pay rent electric bills point break kid year heart surgery im stressed yell time makes feel shitty end it family would happier without me get survivors benefits ss,1 current situationso guess ill start saying girl seeing past almost years told cant see us together anymore started months ago drunk fight phone died couldnt find how stupid hey kind broke continued see eachother prior next ill say months break up constantly told dont want her im love anymore lying couldnt bare around made happy kept telling things like using didnt know wanted everytime went fully cut couldnt couldnt bare lose her last weeks tho slowly started accept fact lying infact want life loved much even planned really special like lunchdinner going tell felt apologize been last week felt way found briefly used dating app hated every moment deleted account prior finding about friends saw showed top fact pushing away switch went head says doesnt want me despite tho ive seen times past week weve kissed multiple times weve held eachother cuddled even came work hinted wanted she said suprised happy see me last night saw eachother genuinely like always been sex felt fucking love her top spent whole night laughing mucking around like always felt normal like wanted there see things great feel much enjoys around goes home defense mechanism dwells negatives protect hurt like im trying hard force feel things past got like impossible see perspective unless showed myself literally see conflict avoiding it probably come across forcing see it idk do want back killing leads rn ive tried talk friends feel like im drowning cant sleep constantly break multiple times day gotten point hate much literally dont even see point alive pushed away person made unbelievably happy past years like cant even remember good times spoilt fool treating badly ive told felt wished didnt dont want feel like im guilting her want back badly literally never happy whole drama im struggling see point continuing try need help do want back badly im scared getting upset something irrational said tho mainly want back im literally open advice desperate try anything,1 lost mother my mom battled many problems couldnt handle pain anymore ended way knew could time day feel ive lost emotion im day struggle days better others every night sit think ways everything could over done ive thought countless ways could end all thought putting family it something cant do cant live rest live thoughts know point ive tried everything nothing helped,1 "Just cuz I know everyone cares ~ I went with cereal ~ quick, easy and neglected in the morning ",0 Diggin mah new sweater ,0 needed write know flair put figured would work ive reached point cant make decisions anymore mom decides every fuckin aspect life im sorry grades mid s want waste applying university get rejected simply unable accept fact im going university september as note poli sci teacher sisters big poli scilaw program im trying live sisters level know makes worse me parents divorced year ago despises dad always bringing bad my father did university take him im turning august legally age able make mind live want legally im allowed leave go live dad no im allowed to ive got two turtles fish live there need feed dads helping grandmother lives far north who also found pancreatic cancer two months ago still meds mom let leave house drive there im allowed drive either leaves biking hour half hour half back massively stops weekends im forced mom go private university cant stand fact ive applied already im going private university wants go christian university say im incredibly religious im atheist im deeply invested religious things plan already go college first term second term start likely work year make money actually basis work with mom still hates fact im prize student ive got sisters brothers two top line students taking mom everything one whos young care yea im guy grandfather died born grandpa died older male cousin years older me cousin thats year younger lives across country canada role models limited moved small town moved grew in wont say bad worse previously conditions lost contact friends old town moved everyone cell phones struggled lot make new ones moved brought request move back old town friends got nowhere it yes anyone asks contemplated redflag before thought stuff myself always thinking stuff first years high school reoccurring thought getting beat bullied almost every day class bring tell anyone it dealt best could hindsight told someone gone shit anyways ive always quiet kid school never brought gun school though im american wished death classmates before ive never figured im odd one class might im one white kids whole school teachers wont shit anyways dads appreciative looking however making sure im actually paying attention work helping get this want go live him way moms acting might anyones got advice appreciated needed get out ask question want ill best answer,0 bruh fuck anyone else parents told super special little really good grades middle school soon got high school realized probably average uninteresting person know promptly started trying change stuff ended getting bad grades nicotine addiction,0 im male live partner years month old baby boy loved cherished child early relationship couple events looking back treated red flags basically partner reacted volcanically fairly normal behaviour part messaging female friend actually wife one old mates trying arrange meet friends home beers i live couple cities away home town wrote stuff isolated incidents eventially bought place together decided start family wed always dreamt of pregnancy kind beautiful bubble love anticipation and still am elated arrival little boy,1 got broken withso traveled miles pandemic meet guy thought loved me get trapped extra week wildfires break phone day got home sleeping airport floor spent much money get broken with said loved told said want make trip awkward also best friend going rough time also hate myself lol am ready over genuinely tried tell three friends told im well friend once told redflag scale listened think understood serious ending it ready want anymore someone suggests ill feel better days im feeling way big break ive depressed occasionally suicidal almost decade im tired fighting think time,1 me trying eat food park peace dumb crackhead bitches parking lot right next riding bike circles true story theyre pissing rn,0 life feels pointlessi get life offer me always terrible everything school work relationships etc honestly feel like matters anyone even change something feel happiness friends enjoyable honestly care all insignificant am family always abusive what millions people abusive families mine matter doesnt nothing matters me life others lives nothing feel rewarded matter do cant seem find good happiness feeling everyone talks about so started using drugs seemed allow feel good started smoking cannabis recreationally almost everyday made appreciate life little bit actually felt happiness also started abusing opiates opiods used take mg oxycodone day hydrocodone hydromorphone whatever could honest feel anything anymore tried od end hospital feeling like shit days fun someone trying get enjoyment shit life go much detail personal life honestly care need know sucks want peaceful way out could od cannabis would would best way go cant oh well posting leave something may eventually significant behind maybe doubt worth try think oding morphine way go gone time someone reads maybe simpler suggestions go quick painless good life,1 wish luck extorvertism school make friends yknow,0 im doomed life eternal misery death escapeage sexually assaulted first time naivete told dad said go room sleep never addressed it age sexually assaulted second time wiser time age two year long abusive relationship made petrified men loud voices sudden movements would trigger me parents best severely bullied th grade became suicidal mum found suicidal tendencies said go ahead it im watching first fullblown panic attack age parents rubbished it said theres thing panic attack said probably much drink they like people drink theyre orthodox asians im graduated college one best times life became independent anxiety time low well school published newspaper journal found love life professors became closest friends graduated applied eight different places job everyone reverted letter rejection last hope rejected today stuck parents place love controlling me autonomy mental health goes shit become different person nowhere else apply ive exhausted list contacts networks parents debt im exhausted ive realized happiness fleeting cruel joke job got one paid times average sales job interested academia research said wanted follow passion fool im paying it goodbye,1 im going leave yet another bagel go sleep oh boy sure hope nothing wacky uncharacteristic happens bagel sleep,0 people live us yall wearing masks saw whole tiktok comment section wearing mask theyre rights dont save covid thought knew that masks dont spread germs infect people especially anyone high risk family member home dont know suddenly bragging right come fake excuse walk around wout mask mostly southern states guess mandatory wear one,0 bkk ha protest maybe ho chi minn city,0 has had a good day so 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I know very very well what depression and anxiety feel like.,1 antidepressants free usim mxico antidepressants really cheap plus bought without recipe anyways ive going psychiatrist prescribed medicine anxiety theyve miraculous ive never felt good life course im also going psychotherapist ive wondering expensive us cause mxico cheap know ive suffering long cure right front pretty solid price,1 @RobPattinson_ loved your work in twilight ,0 film really great know why alway weakness damian chapa scarface still really enjoyed self film see ten times really trys make good movie cant it feel pity him maybe bit sympathy vote cant help it cant give less stars everyone seen life see make cheap film work live holland bought film one euro thats dollar would also bought ten euro great great great little dutch film site film gets votes thats much more people world buy movie,0 vegetables grow september atlanta read depth article here httpsmygardenchannelcomvegetablesyoucanplantinseptemberhttpsmygardenchannelcomvegetablesyoucanplantinseptember sunflower shoots radish spinach tatsoi mesclun greens green onions kale arugula,0 @Corycm HAHAHAHA You really MUST be cool then or so you think!! ,0 want black guy suck dick lips mouth look like would sloppy feel amazing filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 I got out of the house today yeaaaaa!!! ,0 Up was such a sweet movie. 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Knew one day you'd eventually become socially inept! ,0 im just a burden to her and everyone the world would be so much better if i just disappeared she s always on my back about everything i can never do anything right i can never please her she s always so upset at me she s always so mad tonight before she went to sleep she didnt even tell me that she loved me it okay i dont blame her i wouldnt love me either im nothing im pathetic im a waste of space energy and time in the grand scheme of thing there nothing about me that matter im stupid im incompetent im irresponsible and im mean im just a bad person and bad people dont deserve to be happy i will never make my mom proud i will always be insufficient she will always be finding new way for me to screw up when i die she will be so much happier without me everyone will be happier,1 im careive told week ive getting worse told every day lonely ive been apparently makes dependant walk together morning classes one class day sometimes sits next bus school fuck it dont care ones cared worse ive feeling ones gonna miss me matter directly bluntly say im feeling brushed ignored,1 yall forgotten something years since iconic rick roll came existence,0 four game this fall modern warfare halo odst brutal legend and bioshock i need more cash,0 im deleting posts gonna take while go take look,0 im gonna kill tonighthi im year old girl im gonna kill tonight aspergers syndome borderline personality disorder im aggressive get angry parents assault them punch dangerous things im normal cant control myself honest know parents still alive love much im sick dangerous im reason parents depressed alcoholic im reason dad wanna live anymore died would finally free hate friends always tell ugly annoying am which true still im outcast group friends feel alone hate much sometimes used bring knife school could kill wanted to would never able kill another human being thats felt time ive always outcast wherever go really understand why dress like girls im pretty normal outside im good imitating normal people understand im always weird one hate much months ago actually started talking boy crush long time decided actually talk him started talking everyday everynight deep conversations middle night started fall love him always thought id single rest life felt like miracle me know may sound ridicolous started feel hope happy course three days ago stopped responding feel fucking miserable know sounds like small problem life already falling apart small things destroy everything wanna live anymore im sick dangerous life falling apart many dreams life wanted move australia become criminologist start family fuck it im awful human would everyone favor killed myself thats im gonna tonight know wrote makes sense wanted let thoughts out wish good life god bless you goodbye,1 cereal milk cereal haves milk,0 [Zicutake] Depression can be prevented by exercise https://goo.gl/fb/Mu7k6t ,1 feel stressed still nothing country fall holidays theres one week school starts again yesterday realized actually school stuff holidays completely overwhelmed dumbass forgotten ive already week start them ive spent entire week bed due depressive episode something thats still going strong legitimately cant get something arts project reading whole book assignments catching stuff already didnt last last weeks school due week days also exams per week two weeks right holidays since theyve moved back due covid worst time assignments studying especially home want anything semiokay itll take hours get distracted easily get overwhelmed cry it im fing loser times dont even start assignment time meaning like half hour complete them makes everything worse wont get good results ill fail class additionally house renovated moment room basically empty wednesday next week havent even started cleaning furniture out absolutely idea this feel like im like paralyzed stress cant start anything keep thinking theres much do theres way finish week want start things assignments making room look good feel unable to time theres way around this cant distract wait things get better no need actually put work in lazy ass self cant that dont want fail th grade thats like worst year fail dont know do im lazy mom getting worried pretty much begged get something least today wouldnt worry me im feel bad worrying like that dont know do,0 fridays supposed good mine always suck job trash makes entire weekend shit hate think job get shit talking ex would always make feel better fridays work hes around anymore bc talking stresses out im sad week probably gonna worst week life much stressful shit going one talk im busy cant get break christmas ugh,0 dont want locked medicated else besides redflagbeen depressed nearly years tried everything give up im going die dont know else do thats psych drug pushers people threatening lock up anything im missing depressed since divorcedrinkingfailing school time hospitalized weeks getting drunk threatening hang myself depressed ever since never friend isolated alone zero self esteem whole life end first time opened family bad felt everything except suicidal encouraged move home unemployed hated home friends got even worse paid thousands see therapist got temp job quit drinking not ever major issue patient program weeks tried two antidepressants exercised ate better self help books fucking everything sertraline days gave horrible reaction begun hear thoughts night hypnagogia wellbutrin gave tinnitus symptoms still stopping drugs doctor doesnt give shit wanted take try new ones spinning wheel picking random drugs toy sensitive nervous system got accepted college program september got summer job started week eight hour shift work hour rest time even boss smokes makes stupid jokes government job see family weekends im alone every night cottage woods friends fucking depressed despise every way always hate breathing air im losing mind cant handle alone theres one therapist hour radius tried week kind sucks already doesnt listen wants take drugs almost hospitalized me everything feels fucking pointless dont give shit anything cant connect anyone totally hopeless future dont understand people live people kids people work honestly feel like barely anyone happy people trapped biology force live stupid im going keep working manual labour crummy jobs whole life alone forever always feel much shame guilt self hatred man feel sicking breaking back cold barely skimp overpriced gouging economy barely hour going bed wake pointless boring stupid fucking job this dont want alive fact literally thing keeping alive past year dont want destroy family fuck do seriously need big change cant talk anyone shotgun taken ill locked up lose job shamed everyone miss college forcefully injected drugs even could talk anyone anyone wants put everyone drugs it youre treated though youre delusional rejecting treatment give up really want destroy family never wanted here fucking fault get hurt never wanted here least know tried least years good times them thing care about thing feels real yet dont even get along anymore think im better dont talk personal stuff going come shock still ive taken care affairs spot picked out know exactly aim shotgun ill drunk it phone home dad amd gf weekend thats time fill disgusting brain lead,1 know anymoreso ive thinking long time redflag mean started high school ive heard often does always shook never felt depressed long lately everyday find thinking new scenarios new ways without even realizing it always chicken getting help way ive always embarrassed im sure sounds silly true thats im here big deal seeing professional worrying people care something know compares usually comes run around think almost every day sometimes times others times periods feel down feel angry depressed hopeless seemingly reason gone far preparing worst times doctors given different medications none actually made feel better im looking advise idea do,1 people whose lives significantly worse mine even consider redflagi feel like garbage human wanting this read stories people raped nearly everyday parents whove entire family killed accidents am nothing tragic trauma make weak,1 "@pennyraine @WisdomBegun Also like to see gentlemanly manners, i.e. opening doors for ladies. ",0 i don t see the big deal with this website,0 A look into my life~ written by:depression,1 hate myself hate fucking much want here suck cannot talk anyone anymore without bringing shitty thoughts lately seriously cannot friend talk pathetic existence would love someone save me far beyond broken reached breaking point long fucking time ago done tired exhausted redflag mind put through like enough seriously relentless feel like enough stop hate here miss happy miss waking actually looking forward things tired trying find safety thoughts tired isolating fucked friend right now like seriously want things get better not know happen me really not really know one people affects seriously cannot endure it empty enough like taken take please stop nothingi want nothing ambition want anything stop please stop want find peace venting,1 kev nz lol better let aboy0 know if he s doing the deploy before his 9 0 bedtime hope you are feeling better being sick sux,0 reason im suicidal sex lifei sexually dead cant honest anyone hurts much core reason cant bear living want know sexuality want kind identity want actually live,1 movie funniest film ever created greatest hats mr mrs zodsworth rest wacky wacky cast good morning satan want donut see post haste go see now,0 title i am currently looking at getting onto med for my anxiety and am exploring option for telehealth my goal is to get on them a soon a possible along with going to a therapist to engage in cbt doe anyone here have suggestion for solid telehealth platform ideally i would not have to wait that long to see a doctor so that i can receive med in a timely manner and i do not have to pay an arm and a leg for the appointment with that being said i am ok with spending a little extra if it mean that i am able to get into an appointment quicker i have been looking at cerebral hims and other various telehealth service which i can not remember at this moment doe anyone have suggestion on one that can provide timely service i am ok with paying money for a monthly appointment if it mean that i can get med but ideally i would get on med a soon a possible and then go to an irl mental health counselor and get med from them thanks,1 quick question is anyone taking buspirone and did you need to go up on your dosage i ve been taking 0mg twice daily but it feel like it s not working a well a it wa say a week ago i ve been on it for week i would really appreciate your feedback thank you all,1 an overview of the biology of depression http t co kia ver ul,1 made wishlist ramen it anyone could help would much appreciated thank you zip code link amazon wish list url,0 life soup fork,0 i never really experience sadness when depressed it other thought,1 combination meds criticali took like mg opipramol mg mirtazapine mg lorazepam mgs xanax also mg venlafaxin matter h want sleep possible die kind medication taken once,1 yo guys wish luck guys hours complete modules come back mom probably took phone beat hard become depressed end lmao either guys adios ill tell happens noon philipines time,0 things cis men never understand periods like fr cramps hormones cravings bloating sht comes periods pain someone leaving toilet seat up find clean toilet outside dealing sexist men extremely demeaning women saying feminist automatically assumed like blue haired liberal instead actually believe equal right women idk started writing,0 please make want stayi see redeemable qualities entore fucking life everyone tried love love back everyone hates me pretend someone does dont tried wonder itll feel swallow bunch pills would hurt hope does pain actual life,1 @Husjojola @beckymgonzalez @camryn_22_ @jessleal7 @YourDragMother @Bradin_Walker @Carlosdaddylara @BumpTime247 @Mxriah_ @rensbby @dobrikskopfs @Sine_MN @obizniz @babimaree @asia_thomas123 @urib1184 Depression*,1 im failure cant end ithello guys signed reddit this im attending vocational school last year one best students year lot bad things happened school startes year parents finally told truth divorce years telling bullshit truth even terrible thought would be then school started first everything going quite well then close friend mine hes like big brother often call big brother too rough time never told why said know himself pulled him worried much always afraid might something bad which bullshit promised would never something bad long fell mentally ill started going therapy friend got back didnt able go school maybe weeks started getting bad marks worse marks got worse mental condition got ended going school months school year almost ive failed almost subjects feel like ive failed ruined life help brother even know bad feel cant tell him wanna ruin life make sad already feel like died thousand times cant die real really want end it want pain stop cant it reason thing keeps big brother hes also best friend wanna ruin life butwhat now therapy going nowhere pills make everything worse friend happy matter cant take easy way out really know anymore,1 welp know noweverything life gone shitand alone hate sudden huge wave depression coming through alone again,1 thoughtsim narcissistic toxic abusive obviously choice probably aware im continue it know could probably get better get help tried killing way easier understand people would sad really care besides experience anyway whatever fact id dead really me face consequences anything get quit know shitty,1 @KLV1063 I've joked to my wife that he'll end up killing himself over depression from being laughed at by kids and monsters so much.,1 guys im deep shit supposed leave school went back sleep ,0 motivate online schoolwork like zero motivation anything want hear people stay motivated procrastinate,0 addimitdedley never i thought i would still be here m at some point i gave up and thought i would effectively die in some ill advised manner never planned to be in this situation i have hope a career and a wife now yet someday i m waiting for it all to go up in flame feel like my time is limited and i wa never meant to get this far tittering on the edge of the abyss honestly don t know if i have it in me to climb out again getting flash back of being in that hole i can t recall how i got out it before in my case i can only describe it a god supernatural intervention i hope he doesn t allow me to go through this again honestly don t know if i can do this again,1 word sad horny would come handy gtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgt,0 anyone thereis anyone available talk,1 might take a trip to La La Landd! ,0 i have gad and have been going through an emotional upheaval with my partner causing extra stress i ve been reducing my lexapro slightly a i felt it wa not working but now am more anxious than ever despite tiny change today i woke up full of dread to go to work no reason i love my job but it all felt too much a a mid ground i decided to work from home today instead of going in i still feel light headed and awful and have the added guilt of messing client around by changing the schedule or converting to online service what do i do how do i get myself to work when it all feel too much,1 getting changed in the hope that that mean we can go to the store now poor cat is out of food oops,0 ideationim curious know plan commit redflag multiple ideas attempted unsuccessful regret itas feel like failure im planning committing redflag soon ive attempted several times failed guess rushed lost courage want ideas aside own mind clear calm now im ready die want back plan let know answers post gets feedbackor get flagged,1 feel like never belonged anywhere people accept surface always obligation reality tell people find weird time judge me told abnormali know brightest person pretty damn stupid survive competitive world also fucking depressed dumb taken advantage people yars sex really depressed suicidal family life mess fucking ashamed never forgive think deserve iti sexually abused kid brother parents knew nothing it mediator parents listening ear argued threw stuff around house threatened kill us all opened bottled anger years ago simply told move keep quiet voice up affect brothers future since let go anger towards entire family love deeplyi friends always one people feel sorry shiti worked ass off got good job despite crippling depression suicide attempts shit grades saved lot money really selfsufficient relying anyone financially exercise everyday still deemed stupid weird enough still suicidal depressed finding wanting od whim still odd one out still dissociate much often without realising still disadvantaged game lifebut still feel worthless fucking tired done really want fucking kill myself want break parents heart done sorry wish born life tiring done fighting zero energy fight longer get fighting hard find constantly disadvantaged burned depressed suicidal life sucks want appear whiny done going attempt soon start self harm cannot wait slice arm vertically bit least try fucking lover fuck shit,1 goodnight yall scheduled shit posts return morning,0 im gonna kms daysso origianlyl id planned committing redflag june bt thats far ive already tried counselling cant anymore im gonna go early christmas day od a goodbye thanks ppl commented post nice hope u go help ppl,1 among us friend highly doubt see yay play among us purple name protector white leaf science uniform name jared really cool wanna say hi,0 "New study co-authored by Dr Brendon Stubbs @KingsIoPPN has found physical activity can protect against the emergence of #depression, regardless of age and geographical region: @KingsCollegeLon @Telegraph #therapy #therapyonline https://www.telegraph.co.uk/science/2018/04/24/exercising-20-minutes-a-day-cuts-risk-developing-depression/ … https://twitter.com/NIHRMaudsleyBRC/status/989014977657876481 …",1 someone perfect jeon jungkook even exist personality everything perfect fact ill never get marry makes sad,0 @johe25 Lol! that happens to me everyday and I get beat up for it ,0 cant happppy cant happy whys everything gotta constantly either worry self doubt cant like look mirror smile instead feeling worse every time cant look forward future instead afraid it,0 "oh what lovely weather, I am thinking of getting some feathers shopping to do and maybe transport museum tomorrow, 1st CDs to rip.",0 posting award myself nriebejuebe jejeiejebeuue hebsoowbejrn r anne xhdkeleoneidowk true story,0 @Spatte just had some. It was coconut yummy,0 streaming among us twitch come check channel name __gamer__ join game ya want code showing,0 "off to mothers day brunch with the gang. YAY!!!!! It's not the Zoo, but should be just as much fun. ",0 im done planeteverytime give heart someone crush it im tired trying find love everything shattered front continuously never never happy logical conclusion come taking life thing kept going long hyped game album trivial piece media confuses people try convince people kill theres literally nothing redeeming life least me im really looking sympathy post im mostly explaining im choosing am really plan writing note anything anyone wondering refer post since little ever wanted wife someone love me age ive numerous online relationships ended disaster inb comments saying online relationships work care im going cold approach people public way many false rape accusations hard commit redflag prison cell identify nonbinary make sense someone born male im expected make first move everything lose person receiving end nothing lose world unfair ridiculous really worth it know life relationships thats ive ever really wanted perhaps like ive said post perhaps think incel something stupid like that really care anyone thinks me point nothing lose ive watched devolve super caring nice naive person cold monster cares nothing see reason keep existing theres nothing makes happy except one thing struggle hard obtain point im done trying juice aint worth squeeze were regardless thank taking time read have peace,1 laurenellise dying from crippling anxiety and depression,1 Still walking on a cloud Dinner on 6/10 w/John Donahoe eBay CEO + Griff who I've had the pleasure of meeting @ eBay LIVE 2006/2007/2008 ,0 miss friendi dont know else post this well half year ago best friend committed redflag still think hourly basis find crying sleep regularly every day feels like night happened want back badly,1 "@encaf1 Ok, dude! Glad you made it home! And I'm pretty sure you didn't have feline hitchhinkers, either. ",0 know doive got things want life idea gonna work out probably wont apply college thats terrifying might get might like wherever go expensive fuck idea might like career well might work out case much waiting meantime sister might dropping college soon want find is maybe kill myself seems appealing think it ive thinking years maybe ill never get better maybe ill wreck forever want that kill myself therell stress anxiety self loathing pain hiding things family friends blissful silence cant decide want want hurt family already see way out cant live house sister might move back home know do every night cut never enough,1 fuck nnn homies hate porn dont really masturbate often,0 tender beautifully crafted production delved deep bitter sweet being irreverent pupils life embittered bus driver teachers personalities present subliminal debate story unveils adult characters seem familiar teachers bus driver one opinions plausible well known key incident happens bus sent circuit viewpoints time babble teenage energy kept control organisers trip mr harvey experiencing much pain throughout reminds war damaged teachers understand irreverent pupilbr br rhidian brook producers deserve much acclaim well shaped british film acting unblemished scenes appropriate widely available yet seem given right opportunity,0 today wa the first time i ve gotten feedback from an interview and they want to give me a second chance i m really thankful for that but i feel like my anxiety is holding me back even though i know i m fully capable of preforming a job i just get nervous in interview because i don t know if i m wasting my time googling how to fake confidence because i know i shake my hand a lot and who want to hire someone who is anxious for a job that requires social skill probably no one i ve gotten better at socializing but i m clearly lacking in the social awareness department,1 regularly cutting back drinking large increments seriously worried might kill went good turkeyone family members told fun better drunk sober get serious focused drive accomplish much socialite start drinking loosen become really friendly outgoing absolutely become life party started noticing drinking more eventually getting shakes sober shakes headaches dark circles eyes irritable coordination sober could motivate bed unless knew could get drink hands immediately felt god damn awfuldecided cut back cut back cut back really well actually remember last time drink think week now keep track beat everytime break get right back wagon determined betterhearing family say fun easier get along though drunk cut deep real deep since decided need want life hearing another human say resume slowly killing entertaining easier going drinking killing,1 rumination humiliations making suicidali humiliated people no cognitive distortion social anxiety im actually good social situations told many times alcoholic sober months now humiliated much know sounds like trivial thing get suicidal every second every hour every day year never enjoy anything constantly ruminating humiliations really sad ive many potentially beautiful experiences ruined incessant rumination even sex cringe looked alone deal every article pretty much have tried not ruminating just stop ruminating think happy thoughts when start ruminating stop jesus fucking christ fucking easy cannot carry long like this even typing mind constantly reminding moron ive life,1 book suggestions want read books books would best novels stuff contemporary stuff lives teens stuff mean books specifically lives teenagers teenbased like reasons redflag teenbased,0 dont even know nowive sexually abused ages multiple family members assaulted first boyfriend drugged raped camera emotionally physically abused neglected childhood im self esteem literally non existent cant keep friendships person husband married older guy cheated lot long time high school girls promised stopped dont even know father passing away wont see me father abused wouldnt speak forcefully removed care one friend see rarely feel im ugliest person alive lost pounds year starving purging feel still enough things love husband pets people dont believe husband would miss me told spouse dies supposed move on think would okay animals would though would forget feed give shelter cant happen think alive them love them babies ive crying night tonight wanted disappear trying hard hold on,1 jimbob 0 craigf 99 monicablee what ha this gota do with depression life is not all about football,1 mom told drop dead wishes born said wish go live javier ex boyfriend controlled selling drugs said said going live said give fuck think care happened rushing go walmart thinks going rain waiting cross highway said standing said highway expect hit started telling die wish never also stared wearing shoes creasing fit small feet said wear shoes creasing got mad went home went bathroom opened pill bottle loratadine mg put hand slowly raised hand mouth could started bawling eyes tired life born poverty feel trapped trying hurry go college even seems impossible gpa also way back home walmart breakdown think actually said killed wrote letter says ya happy mom huhhhh sorry long need vent need advice xoxo anne tired life mom,1 lonelyim thinking offing moment although ive thought past im sad lonely gone beyond emotional pain gotten point heart physically aches friends helps little video games distract second im alone feel like absolute shit,1 anyone want a blog they want linked to? looking to fill out my blogroll http://is.gd/KyZn from @ggw_bach new look ! http://bit.ly/7XB2s,0 switches bi ppl domsub world im double bi,0 okay film made much later history cinema particularly worthwhile however films infancy almost rather dull real story tellinstead showing normal everyday folks everyday activities seen today almost hopelessly dull very shortoften less one minute long light this short clip movie pretty swell stuff might make laugh two guys miller chimney sweep bump otherfalling throwing flour coal dust tussle thats allthe film know it,0 @PatrioticBernie @LionTedPride @jr_bohl Remember some countries allow euthanasia just for depression & parents can now okay it for kids under certain conditions. Belgium doctors don't always ask patients before euthanizing. pic.twitter.com/W6EJ1bv7i7,1 okay ppl need chill everyone salty everything need chill tf literally posted smt tired writing many college essays responses get whyd procrastinate get used kid you started earlier hold tf started frixkin novemberrrrr applied eight schools different countries never procrastinated literally submitted everything well advance wtfffff trying connect ppl like whatttt okay thanks got pissed sec lol,0 film would put typical hollywood tearjerkers shame emotions portrayed subdued understated comfortable fashion plot cliche enough lead role terminal disease this spoiler well established quite early movie method execution somehow unique love stories ever sawnot even kiss exchanged yet feel enormous current love two leads initially assumed restriction emotions something analoguous typical eastern values later decided itbr br this film understated compare movies like cinema paradiso cp would felt overtly manipulative comparison so definitely everyones cup teabr br after watching film strong feeling holly wood love movies or love movies around accurate glorifying romance passion label love sure definitions say qualities mutually exclusive but would venture say movie let wonder added dimension loved onebr br its obvious enjoy movie lot considering fact movie plain appearance paradoxically one cinematic movie saw lately,0 act like that sorry bad english time ago friend introduced us friend we call k time started clearly flirt me wanted alone time sure feelings time flew kept flirting went holiday weeks holiday took time think actually liked so returned home asked go friends i wanted see would react said parents knew us said friend us would say yes holiday time flew come last week asked go us said ill think it yesterday said already another commitment clearly making excuse said different reasons clearly understand question is k flirt asked see said disappeared,0 kill feels like big mistakei weak human dont care well future failed two studies this im late application next one days go nothing interests me wanted kill knew future got family sucks want exist im grown all do,1 get helpmale thirties wife years ive contemplating far long bad want kids knowing theres real possibility leave wife raise own so get help without letting anyone know private person cares way much others think thought employer wife knowing im receiving help kills me tell dr admitted will want get pegged depressed suicidal unless actually follow through live california kids cant go like this go,1 fornowshesgone depression did,1 posting picturegif something getting crushed day cousin asks crush day crushed stressballhttpsdiscordcomchannels,0 need helpso like girl asshole friend likes hes trying get do think might commit redflag gets hand,1 say someone suicidali need help read tons posts saying doesnt help youre suicidal could people saydo would help yo daughter feeling suicidal im scared death everything thank you,1 hey reddit well idk say know reddit place put random shit well wanted become music producer since kid failed im want kill myself love respect others please dont rude life hard nonsenseim sorry everybody really am music everything let go ive making music life slowly started losing inspiration motivation idk end see life take me,1 gramps im visiting grandpa week wife my grandmother passed away around year ago lives alone old dog worst fear going pass away old age alone sweet cant stop dreading it,0 school advice first im writing ive seen increasing number people complaining school horrible ill share experience might repost later maximum number people see this skip rd th paragraph impatient little bit background numerous school systems french ib british bilingual canadian in quebec dutch numerous different schools numerous different countries school always easy subjects require much knowing heart never studied usually physics chemistry math foreign languages i hated class language school in literature basically without studying skipped years high school study university faster study engineering people always say school horrible feel bad depressed etc experience different school systems problem school itself probably school system example french system extremely rigid force box named normality put one hair box bad student weird stupid etc teacher hated guts really know why new school black sheep eyes students need say experience horrible studied ib english system in different country mentality lax parents give two shts kids nannies taking care them could imagine teachers school lax too teachers gave work higher grades keep interest school always new students black sheep anymore time enjoyable lightly bullied somewhat popular kid selfesteem issues really care people see above different schools contrasting experiences problem school try i know people necessarily possibility to change school school system grade always thought ridiculous learn stuff interested in case english literature etc look back upon it want hit myself seemingly boring subjects high importance im studying engineering see helped form personality even forget learned month still subconsciously make comparisons try imagine would someone general knowledge able hold long conversation able realize impact consequences surrounds you hate sciences even forget taylor series derivatives gravitational force exerted two objects certain mass brain still remembers reasoning behind them helps build understanding critical thinking two quotes sum im trying say education learning facts training mind think einstein the educated differ uneducated much living differ dead aristotle school also allows make connections people socialize people going say i friends socialize do talking people socializing imagine would go school some know already i know someone became blacksmith would lost school tool helps find calling life me sciences always interested school know want engineering know people feel much work homework example believe me probably some school systems exaggerate homework though right now hours classes day and university hours theres lot taught short amount time simplification top clear notes assignments review understand correctly etc much work something everyday rest life homework could considered good preparation adult life feel depressedsadtired start blame school directly look life think could make sad really depressed go see psychologist shameful unhealthy lifestyle blame that sports go long way healthy mind problems family go see psychologist if money teacher like good too,0 watching play want die happiness sadnessidk im one grieving im one piece human garbage dont excuse shes better without deserves someone give everything dont even know im posting this would anyone even care way am look smile fill joy eyes crying face gets disfigured try hold tears back dont know future holds future without her really dont want all dont know cared much bad good undoubtedly way better im shitty person dont deserve heal cant cut life cant cut off cycle endless pain ends get back together idk im fighting hard made clear cant get back me people tell young get sad know am thats hurts much supposed enjoy youth together live long happy life together go ups downs together thats true love is idk couldnt way now back then feel much pain now hasnt years friends emotions hurt badly this lost someone worth everything universe more wont kill love her dont even self harm love her coping mechanisms sit room one notices me one looks me feel like everyday heal depression hits twice hard last time things enjoyed cant even anymore remind her music cant listen shared her thoughts hurt remind her worst part is fault whatsoever really me drowning sorrow wanting life longer have poem longer read her song wrote her future longer picture painful memory beautiful woman perfect wife lost ill never get back hurts fucking badly feels like chest going explode cant even see keyboard feelings pouring know im typing need to need her cant stop fighting cant stop thinking good times had life misanthrope becoming normal falling love someone never thought would get hurt always one causing pain cant even feel hate others feel hate myself melted ice block heart made hers gave make own gll know initials reason ever read this future want know love you forever till death us part,1 become less socially awkward willing ro go friends yeah basically im pretty hesitant lot time go friends negatively influenced set friendships quite lot im looking better area,0 know say anymoreits said reasons want die reasons live itll get better theres nothing left anger hurt energy im nothing,1 im rough patchi persistent depression anxiety persistent depression continuous severe sometimes flairs though get major depressive episodes im afraid starting another one those episode last almost year got beginning take medication im afraid happening again cant live kind pain past days really rough ive depending weed still taking medicine regularly maybe much supposed taking twice day take religiously morning didnt wake crying morning least thats worst kind day today im dull cant go anywhere really much ive wanted hurt again point want live,1 things already pretty bad somehow took turn worse feel entirely isolated even though family around friends talk every awhile know isolation driven rabbit hole would happening regardless around cannot control mood capacity hour two break get crushing despair chaos head ill try actively stay wildly overly positive state least positive almost trying stay makes return chaotic world created head know started living life inside head instead participating life front me scared ill never able make stop getting point able take anymore sorry makes sense sorry burdening yet another social platform disaster gets worse gets worse,1 where s my search bar how come aoife got one and i didn t twitter must like her better than me,0 idk who need to hear this but im really proud of you and you should be of yourself too recently i said that to someone and she said i m proud of myself too and idk how to explain you guy but it really blown my mind like i take myself for granted but we need to understand how much we are doing and living despite having this anxiety i wasn t able to tell my friend about my struggle because im not strong enough to let the people in my life know of my struggle but still i feel proud of myself yes it get messy but we are doing our best and should be proud of ourselves,1 fans table pc fanless,0 remember posted snail emoji got awards,0 swag gimme swag took,0 todayi feel compelled write this want take time something myself really know post turn out feel like stream consciousness urgency write down im sat here cup tea listening cd im planning go city favourite book chill coffee shop know seems incredibly boring really want it call grandmother long conversation her favourite thing hear past childhood met granddad etc know likes too gets ever lonely maybe ill call parents tell love bullshit cliche id also like write friends note something ever special hand written note think know itll say guess something happen bonfire night uk tonight favourite time year plan wearing favourite cosy hat watching fireworks go home myself know finish post guess get picture thanks reading boring post think make sure enjoy today,1 #unfollowdiddy FOLLOW ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1!!! ,0 can not believe she is awake at am on a tuesday yawn and i had a bad dream bummer,0 ha main depression main tun tuna bajata hu http t co ajwocn 0zr,1 homework,0 almost rent bad comments anywaysi thought similar darkness falls also liked part hated tooth ferry red neck brothers gas stationthey funny dialog made laugh comedy ruined movie bit unnecessarythe rest movie way horror suspense film be makeup good seen way worse movies one simple story believable actingits scariest goriest movie ticked wanting refund watching it dvd previews movies look good im gonna check out,0 ive spent hours something could done minutes am spent hours homework assignment say quotes really watching youtube hours staring paper minute every minutes youtube actually working like minutes im going bed reddit,0 hey antifa mother brother ripped cars trying get home beaten half death actually pretty funny aintifas tribal violence going win trump election moderate democrats dont want happen mad it dont really like trump dont want see another years clowns street looting hurting helping bit,0 walking around productive boyfriend emancipation papers not filled out big plan going go live life pursue college told friends going leave family which feel like emotionally mentally abusive sure go get apartment finish highschool go straight college med school problem is actually done that past year got pulled school twice suicide watch grades plummeted quit sports team cut friends stopped showing work tried kill myself recently getting worse home father become controlling grounding stupid things taking away car letting see boyfriend friends gaslighting spending time him etc mother gotten better manipulated think fine husband hand says reason mothers health deteriorated stepparents said reason family dysfunctional sometimes like think stronger others worse friends true all weaker them life easy want stop existing awful shit happened kid ill admit late lifes bad could be idk feel stupid living vida depressy,1 things unhealthy anyways drinking alcohol smoking sleeping hours per week,0 @whitneyjene you look great!!! ,0 @QueenOfHype People. ,0 im loosing itill turning months even tho im good place right well school good paying job im finally getting great shape feeling comfortable appearance depressed im bi known bi since still closet kinda latino extremely old school family know id probably stoned death ever found out also longest time let insecurities self confidence issues get better me hating looked kept head went school without ever anything wild barely went parties never experimented anything never got girlfriend even tho girls flirt me obviously never got boyfriend either matter bad wanted one stories tell boring year old virgin thing stopped offing telling keep pushing through get shape would finally confident enough come closet maybe find someone years later im shape yea sure like look still cant come out day restaurant friends ridiculously hot waiter came table started flirt acted normal non interested left wtf wrong me hate wasting best years life cause think good enough hate fucking disappointment want redo anyone bekieve reincarnation whatre chances die come back another gay kid time less issues higher ill take it would quickest less messy way go it may coming bit dramatic stated everything thats wrong want start want get overly anxiety multiple times ive go psychs either molested dad tried beat living shit kid cause bipolar explain like watching one closest friends high school get throat cut open helplessly watched bleed ambulances took forever come amongst plethora things judge fuck life,1 drained want peace praying peace three full years want sleep forever tired,1 diary like thing day day hi today post short lying bed whole day anything interesting im solving square sec current average sec sorry short post hope day interesting,0 ever take shit sit make sure,0 see sideis life asking whole life fucking go im done fucking joke life ive im drugged drunk enough sign off see side goodbye,1 wouldve epic gamer hours lagging like hell shame wanna win loot skins special event event ending tomorrow internet letting,0 europe received quite shock luis bunuels lage dor released causing riot paris screened thereresulting banned something like forty years three years laterin when europe gotten shockit turned ear ekstasea symphony of sortsto love film starred youngunknown german actress named hedwig kieslerwho would later change name hedy lamarrwhen moved america escape madness adolf hitleras evaa young bride married colddistant loveless husband played emil jermanonly discover made major mistake one divorce latereva footloose fancy free one day skinny dipping lakewhen discovers adama handsomeyoung engineer played aribert mogwho takes real fancy and shehim wild night passionevas exhusband turns againhoping win eva backonly find rival spoil transpires czech director gustav machaty who directed original screen version madam xanother parable romantic obsession directs screenplay jacques koerpelfrantisek horky machatyfrom novel robert horky films velvety cinematography which reminded avant garde photographerman rays photos erawhich goes impressionistic use light shadowa lotis hans androschin jan stallich films brisk editing antonin zelenka films art direction goes lushnearly art deco lookis bohumil hes quirk film music scoreby giuseppe beccewhich goes topmelodramatic feel gets old fast certain themes repeated againwearing welcomefastkind like david leans use certain musical themesespecially lawrence arabiaand drzhivago years backa brand new restored print made best source materialcobbled together various european existing prints availablerestoring quite possibly closest version originally looked like vatican condemned decadent yeahrightlike church never anything wrongand hayes office cut ribbonswhen finally released usa in hayes office approved cut likewise minimal dialog german english subtitles it meant mainly visual experience ratedbut contains infamous nude skinny dipping scene hedy lamarr done tastefullymind you suggestions sexual content likewisethat would scarcely earn pg ratingnowadays worth look interest early european cinemaor avant gardeexperimental cinema,0 Why I fear the bad days in #depression #recovery http://bit.ly/2BM7hyF  pic.twitter.com/AmXO4EEbNE,1 really know im posting hereits throwaway account really struggling know theory things dosay right care totally alone recently friend tell loved cut out top ongoing problems anyone turn to one talk nothing with vivid memories previous trauma im waiting able see psych thats weeks away steady downhill months know feelings wholly mine feel like giving truely care anything anymore im sick cycle numbness intense feelings im sick feelings abandoned used tossed aside quit studies taken leave work feel guilty many work now part wants leave everything behind know left would easy excuse cover intent want wake anymore mostly want continue occasionally activly want finish it im self destructive best times much once sick going one fight next remember last time happy longer distraction lasted severely neglecting physical health lately drink alcohol essentially living coffee havent slept hours months even coffee part hoping something health wise give soon decision hands easier around me,1 i m 9 and feel lonely and empty from inside i grew up having no friend i did get a great group of friend but then they ended up just using me and then leaving me like trash so i just roam alone most of the time all empty from inside i can t even talk to my parent about it a they expect me to be happy which i can t but i have to for them so that they don t get worried about me i just want friend some true one i also realise that u trust people way too easily maybe i shouldn t sometimes i just wan na kill myself but then i think of my family and future and don t do it i wish i didn t exist,1 best friend committed redflag im hard time coming terms it helpthis first time posting text read enough posts apologize posting mobile phone apologies hard read recently best friend committed redflag im struggling lot many questions know ill never receive answers to didnt seem thought out nothing left behind read every time close eyes see picture happened want cry again miss much hurts yet time angry her monster beautiful beautiful soul world darker without her dont think realized many people would hurt gone honestly think thought world would better without wish much told one time important me people gone this first off im sorry one hardest things ive gone commend strong secondly advice coping mechanisms youd like share thanks advance whoever reads this,1 walk weird dad came room told walked weird look videos walk elegantly know walk stumble im underweight anemic go obviously try walk straight stuff years back friend told walk like hobo im insecure dad also told fix posture which true learn sit im humiliated im already insecure everything myself,0 sometimes wish got weird dms like im chick ofc get ur basic wanna see dickmessages licks shyly hhi kitten blushes faints would funny dude,0 choice make hours one permanentmy next appointment psych three hours closest spot park conveniently next walking trail cliffs one spot particular m drop straight onto rocks wanted say something today go,1 got skeleton floorboard got secret need keep,0 feel like dont deserve friends schooli feel like dont deserve friends school friends give trust make happy supportive always help im need ago made big mistake feel ruin relationship completely friends elementary harassed made fun them got middle school got new friends experienced mature me make lies fit them feel even would except me lie would mess everything future boyfriend person liked faked entire relationship him abt months ago mt friends knew guy close contact really made lie believable years older wanted stop lying them scared past friendships would one told cheated party got girl pregnant cut ties believed really bring until months ago came friends saying liked girl girl felt way went little bit later told lost feeling wanted break up really sad went friends comfort comforted topic exs brought time thinking future home away people realized would happen friends found out abt weeks ago noticed falling best friend straight knew fake ex would going school year im getting scared getting caught awful mistakes would th grade would th feel cut get hurt future im sure do im really hoping forgot everything corona im even considering faking amnesia get caught would know talking abt maybe would forgive me,1 "@lyonstale: La la la, I'm singing with you! ",0 my depression is taking a turn for the worst the thought about offing myself are starting to become more frequent again there s barely anything going on in my life yet my anxiety feel so overwhelming that one would think i live a busy life i feel so hollow all the time and i don t like it it s starting to get to the point where i can t even do anything because my depressive thought just intrude on every part of my day that it s preventing me to actually be productive i have essay to write for my uni class but all i do is stare at my laptop because i can t even cry i attend my lecture and join class discussion because everyone say that engaging in those thing will increase the likelihood i ll pas but i barely remember what s going on at all or what i m saying how do i function to live at least until the semester is over,1 "depression is not a meme, it's not a joke,"" it's not something you can claim because you think it's """"cool"""" or """"trendy"""" or because other people near/close to you have it. depression is REAL & SERIOUS so plz stop making depression jokes when u don't HAVE IT",1 leaving told now go back again sobbing didnt know say could help everyone ive talked told gotten phone number looking phone number receipts membership files invasion privacy miss opportunity help asking phone number sorry sad story know painful think happening right now,1 people ship even levi eren w h theres like year age difference dont even get along particularly well sont fukin understand,0 dougiemcfly tommcfly good morning guy how are you all you know it s frustrating i never get a reply,0 answers anyonei keep thinking family faces would look like stops me cant stand bottomless unrelenting pain longer wish could rationalize state mind temporary emotion true tried climb this life absolutely empty every aspect ive never relationship lasting friendships job prospects binge eating disorder ptsd course clinical depression bad luck course blame rests meive depressed least years grades career relationships suffered it im exhausted death would be grace think brother mom finding me get this,1 @MCHammer - Saw my first commercial about your upcoming 'Hammertime' TV show. I do think that you were better dancer than your young 'un ,0 rush relationship last year months texting asked girl school dated amazing months amd dumped me one month got talking said missed started taking slow texting hugging occasional kiss caught feelings again told interested relationship girl broke danm heart twice win month shit sucks,0 made subreddit called rpenciltricks subreddit showing cool tricks pencil ampxb thats ampxb link lazy people rpenciltricks,0 girls grade like take care mental health hesitate talk me leave hey seen thomas never seen bullshit before,0 am sqwad hair looks good right sleep ruin,0 i am still doing online class my college take me hour to reach and i feel comfortable without expending gasoline car stuff and heat i live in a place where is a dessert and one of my only type of interaction is social medium i use most instagram and reddit and just today a girl who i think is pretty and everything just told me thing about why am i like her photo and i wa like this is serious she wa mad about it she wa mad because i like her photo and profile i don t have friend i ve been mentally unstable for almost year i always wan na kill myself and i believe death is the true freedom and these kind of thing happening wtf doesn t help doesn t work i know i should just ignore her and understand my position and situation but wtf humanity she said to stop doing that to others and do something else and i wa girl these are the only place where i met and i can meet people why i d feel bad about it fuck,1 gerrycoe hi gerry i m in dublin most of the time college,0 wonder im person intentionally tries eat deathim sure right place post this im guy early s think around lbs ive suicidal least extent since maybe remember really life always sucked growing violent parents violent way society support nothing special problems school adult problems internal alone world always been fucked head care anything enjoy little so guess started joke maybe ive fan eating since age so fat since guess th grade weight lower s early s said something wanting die heart attack joking im coming elizabeth da bears last words point decided wanted eat junk food killed me honestly think id live long im scared cut wrist take pills part fear is im agnostic find blasphemous humor particularly amusing im good person ive lived society tell ya hell bullshit part believes it maybe part looks bad guy behind shower curtain get pee night me im funny make light anything think im serious honest still alive getting worse mentally neglecting ones health decade predictable results see coming comfortable carrying around legs hurt tired time junk squished pubic fat thigh fat expensive eating habits impossible find fitting pants offline etc ugly disgusting looking thing added benefit better excuse seeking impossible romantic attachment utterly fucked head am low opinion people eager become find spot back knife would fit best like idea fatal heart attack sudden unpredictable over like pressure actually pulling trigger taking pills taken hands put onto something almost like chance mean like one redflag pill taking would hard cyanide pill placebos mixed real good took one pill day thats easy right instead pill tasty burgers lunch another dinner even so think options continue see long last unless worsening depression drives take direct action cant turn back theres nothing world one trust talk to ive finally admitted sweet lies told cheer lies redacted cant seek therapy trust therapists least honorable professions charge hundreds dollars hour make feel better id rather die talk redacted damage ive done body hard work self denial surgeries dental work plastic surgery would take make normal serve convenient burnt bridge know anyone read this doubt could help wanted to think feel little better writing down least talk strangers respond getting offended would dare try hurt feelings hurt every single day poor babies,1 fantasies killing myselfi depression years never suicidal although thought redflag knew could never it met awesome guy make short broke year relationship it second final breakup anyway thought coping whole situation quite well realized im thinking killing first time life thinking planning it buying gun shooting myself therapy much im depressed im miserable thing help talking guy thought asking something stupid like hey want save life talk like minutes please fantasizing sending text waiting hour shooting ignores i really try contact broke up stalk something like that ps please tell go life something like that fucking waited year feel better working going friends tried guys therapist end day still find single happy thought put sleep going life whatever means option me,1 sense making plansmaking plans parents leave watch house take care cats even though clearly said want anymore like alone here give advice leave cant go outside anymore people constantly hitting triggers me cannot risk going anywhere public meet people agoraphobia feeling trapped inside house closes chest makes difficult breathe safe place yet also place family caused physical pain violence city live in alcoholism family abuse plan protect myself free myself harm myself contact law enforcement cause harm long pause typing thoughts turning feelings change thoughts say myself reach better feeling thought gratitude list believe everything always working you take nap cant take nap thoughts never stop arm pain someone play hitting comment made assault someone illegal put jail committing clear crime superpower wherewithall abraham hicks spoke come me lack based focus turn attention could be meditate like trying do shut up fuck inner voice debating angel devil shoulder crap friends talk anymore lost temper car got stolen cant get job hopeless lack stuck trapped fear excitement joy cats man love cats tears streaming face year old man love myself protect people violence already done im still hurting it yoga teacher says healing inevitable long pause typing go back time run away home cant get here long pause typing put facebook event invited people come house parents gone im calling upon support one shows again long pause typing hahaha im stupid,1 know doits long since ive felt truely happy life im decent things classes sport hobbys never good enough mediocre better average person good enough considered sports team wanted first choice date etc thoughts consume me think anything all mind idles thoughts alone someone wrap arms around such yet cant seem soothe complete thoughts cant sleep without pills even still struggle trying find something turn mind get rid thoughts destryoing enough doze bed im failing classes job lined months semester will want like yet much struggle im tired alone anything deal with im alone cant sleep cant find anyone talk to get consumed thoughts dying ive tried couple counselors school and worked all know else it,1 just got up and nappy very wet and split at the back going for a nice baby bath and then back in nappy i go,0 @Luvmentalhealth @AdamHoward2000 Seriously..ppl are so judgemental. What makes him/her an expert on your depression or illness?,1 friends careliterally reached friends telling im thinking killing tonight suddenly stop talking me point keep trying much easier give many chances tonight,1 unadd her like snap streak girl met tinder gonna meet college im moving next week talked sex played mc together etc broke streak left delivered week unadd her,0 real suppleroot hours up day far,0 everyone around crashing burningim redflag watch im living life partners former partner is write posts subreddit lets call ben lisa ben lisa relationship continued live together broke lisa borderline trauma history struggling abandonment issues led psychosis selfharm attempted redflag apparently assault knife ben ben traumatized months threats hints plans commit redflag drug misuse lisa relationship ben like everyone else want partner current former commit redflag see distressing ben feels deep sense dedication towards close ones stoic man small town values friendships people genuine loving kind gets ben trouble genuine loving borderline lisa borderline gave ben hard time another former partner got arrested refused marry her ben adhd baseline arousal ridiculously high like neurotypicals high anxiety imagine hard must ben go experiences much harder ben gets anxious ben also experiences mental anxiety rushing thoughts things get pretty confusing right now struggling order events chronological order fucked cant tell weeks ago weeks ago yeah ben lisa told panic attacks severe call ambulance time sure lisa understands pressuring ben break selfharm called emotional abuse last time spoke them asking check ben would good ben lisa definitely knows well well sometimes tough see right thing is nonetheless lisa seems going right direction isnt guess things volatile cant guarantee flip whereas ben im sure going mind ben taught discuss feelings hide mental health small towns you ok definitely something work on future reference coming theyve drinks healthy know easy like could talk like elect it conditioned to clam literally unable talk ben aborted mission various ways tried ok ben healthy talk out triggers tacked onto that time develop skill talking out need wait healthy develop comfort speak openly meanwhile ill assume well cuz like see not deal another way ben likes camping biking lowkey ways make better im taking tonight well soothing mindfulness ben talk feelings hope listen wrote i current partner told overreacting didnt also ptsd take seriously bitch told ben likely thick trauma although need process thoughts feelings experiences get clarity right now need time need chill explained making attempts talk lisa whether check safe ben safe make things worse lisa fun prolong abandonment narrative thats prolongs stress unhealthy coping ben could tell lisa out sure real time come back hurt least lisa fall onto unhealthy patterns prolonged daily struggle triggers rolling hardcore one shitty day comes like ripping band aid lisa start healing lisa needs develop stable supports former partner lisa ben better could even friends hang again want to really good ben either anxiety making survey oncoming trouble end driving anxiety ben needs shut bit feel safe blah ben person ive closest since separated spouse spouse living major depressive disorder walking redflag risk want talk shit hobby lock bathroom blow anger super aggressive monologues mirror sometimes directed sometimes me know spouse fault depressed scared shit me spent last years relationship walking bedroom morning wondering would find spouse dead started waking middle night go check him son born given kind intimacy spent nights drinking ruminating playing video games broke spouse dated people ptsd went terrifying spirals together learned control shit date autistic adhd ptsd cant avoided also fucked head abused parents ptsd trauma familiar it gonna pull like magnet cool read sharing familiars working together healing point life would hard normal person would hide much shit like nothing ok anymore even unhealthy hurtful me sad shit live think fine cant even see know healed scars abuse im someone else like me feel myself were woke handle together bond much closer so guess great horrible accept ive abused ill ropewalking forever fall one side therell healing compassion fall other murderredflags like above cool made bed dark side lie it identify borderline dated us too rough is last one ben really got me them learned manage feelings and book go read it go read now httpswwwamazoncamindfulnessborderlinepersonalitydisorderdialecticaldphttpswwwamazoncamindfulnessborderlinepersonalitydisorderdialecticaldp get library read free stop bitching read book mental health know fucked thats reading use simple language keep short best present listen them think possible go like lisa im stranger that although going different flavor it good muster strength grateful abusive people life really ok tough live someone wants die know redflag separate concept death redflag death kill yourself know happens die eventually even years interval big deal compared say long pleistocene idk analogies theres sorts agency involved completely valid opt die matter reason body right type deal yet problem attachment others also valid die poor suckers live trauma decades go particularly want spend feeling crappy put shoes too so yeah guess kill ethical definitely fucking abuse someone want die like im guessing news get relationship treat like coronavirus keep distance know sick want die got relationship work out apparently normal emotions last seconds persistent makes distressed means stoking emotions theres tons books therapy help figure stoke shit gets easier partner wants die heres learned apparently supposed let them holy shit marriage counselor told that mediators told that said one get help unless wanted it stupidly said but depression robs ability want help fuck fuck sure whether said yeah tough idea fucked live every day never loved another person know aaaaall people eventually told left spouse asap didnt consented abused believe checks out weve apart months fucker still alive thriving good him looked resources ben lisa website first clicked said unequivocal terms one decide another person whether live die got wise enough going shit able read future partners get inkling might put position let die it exit exit now also read lot marriage counseling books spouse broke up counterintuitively ideal scenario relationship independent coexistence much making redflag plans too idk thats it hang there ben lisa chill stop talking couple months heal everything ok,1 spent last school year seeing school counsellor every week honestly best greatest support could had helped get diagnosed suckiness parents believing mental illness emailed teachers days checked big tests believed me friday last time see leavingmy question is cope honestly devastating ill losing main support grown admire person also next year problem something happens would normally help with able emergency sessions anymorei know possibly sounding little bit silly helped lot honestly feel really really sad scared ill get funk saying goodbye school counsellor leaving do,1 hope everyone good day um want see response post thats it wanted say good day ok bye yall,0 ruined husbands life know else dowell title already explained really ampxb unemployed possibly unemployable pregnant first child husband cant stand anymore together ten years cant keep job motivate study stable within time cost husband career chance hopeful future this believe ever forgive me future looks hopeless terrified tomorrow sent emails everywhere practically begging someone employ least contribute little family finances sending numerous applications received little response im scared im scared future husband hates me scared ive trapped miserable marriage could id make would work fulltime could stay home look kids want think children better me better person me occurred could get husband agree life insurance me could insure lot money female ablebodied otherwise healthy something happen maybe husband could fresh start something else never forgive kill myself hes never going forgive anything else ive done either problem im pregnant think baby deserves die really need help,1 hayao miyazaki name became prominent spitied away however often overlooked directors first film efforts remembers spielberg directed duel george lucas directed thx remember seeing fragments movie almost certainly last minutes late s stuck visual lushness design animation found copy well known store resist buy it odd thing last minutes movie tally memory memory funny waybr br viewing movie gained knowledge artists portfolios like jean moebius giraud artwork is assume influence herebr br when pazu catches falling girl sheeta adventure really begins quest laputa reference jonathan swifts overlooked portion gullivers travels healthy references jules verne basic good vs bad chase movie final portion heroes end laputabr br this portion strongest memory pastoral ecological aspect laputa returned nature multitude robots covered moss beneath giant tree is opinion highlight movie views surface laputa opposed mechanised undergroundbr br although dichotomy movie show even technology cannot overcome nature irony last robot tending garden animals ending movie silent running almost exactly samebr br it incredibly stylish would say slick beautiful organic tremendous amount detail buildings airships design look everythingbr br myazaki true master kind japnanese anime buy movie treasure it,0 youre super straight bro theres way arent ugly lmaoo aint nobody wanna date anyway,0 think fbi agent doesnt like think hates sad fillerfillerfillerfillerfiller dear fbi agent im sorry ever something made cringe nice day,0 m anyone wanna talk like shoot dm anyone wanna meet new people,0 feel like im good enough achieve goalsi graduated college years ago im still working minimum wage job got pay bills college feel like life ever amount be sincerely believe im good enough obtain greater success currently have current job still living home parents give up know believe life get better im going end tonight everyone house goes bed im going go car garage turn let fumes kill me ill long dead anyone wakes tries stop me,1 get political anything fuck reddit coins everyone want them,0 brain crazy teen windows solitaire windows strip poker win windowschan showed tits,0 depression feelingshi diagnosed major depressive disorder year ago psychiatrist therapist still gotten better changing next week see better lately made big mistake bored much life unable enjoy anything regretfully turned porn feel even worse feel even guiltier looking types things condition gotten worse made bad suicidal thoughts feel absolutely disgusted thoughts increasing frequency them advice now thanks,1 keep surpassing lucas dinner time lucas you sis hungry me yeah pretty much lucas i made delicious food me what make then lucas lasagna me thats nothing man lucas why not me i made lobster yesterday cream sauce delicious,0 hi feeling one worst felt life older get become hopeless always dream better days time riddled fears redflag life could beautiful seem attract negativity even describe pain soul feeling even know start need write comfort moment severe pain lung beeing chainsmoker years daily paranoid death cancer even writing everything exhausting sometimes even power get get something drink lazy tired life disapointent give little power still without parents friends help would drown sure man sad know women attracted depressed skinny guy girlfriend years hugged kissed cuddled girl years dying inside need get chest thinking sharing reddit whatever reason longer time always spoon pillow imagine girlfriend everyday afraid die without ever knowing feels loved pain lung moment scaring death id happy someone would chat little thank read whole post appreciate friend hopeless,1 suicidal postconcussioni got terrible concussion months ago really bad still lot symptoms still cant play sports way back happened cuttingsuicidal beginning th gradehalf way th im typea kind person classes aps cumulative gpa unweighted etc etc realized freaking retarded depressed constantly managed move on junior year great happy tons friends starting varsity basketball lacrosse still jv soccer though got concussion end junior year went hill grades dropped weighted quarters straight isolated athletic friend told parents sports med doctor really think long hard ever playing sports again thought long hard decided try start running deciding bad idea collapsed dizziness every time quit lacrosse quit soccer quit basketball started running everyday first street slowly increasing distance still got headaches grades still bad still cant concentrate went neurologist gave steroids stop headaches worked made sick slight anger problems scare old friends away im disrespectful people know bad thing cant help it happens cant concentrate anything know started right concussion right quit sports keep feeling like life honestly pointless now short term memory problems im constant trouble parents grades keep dropping im longer superstar athlete used be know im young know came back cant tell parents dad thinks im still faking headaches mom believe mental illnesses honestly know anymore,1 dickenballs cockandnutz maybe penis ballse thanks coming ted talk ampxb ampxb gtif know know title comes fromlt,0 let us say saved hundred pills course many months would enough know need incredibly high prozac dosage even symptoms appear like x prescribed amount thanks would happen took mg fluxotine prozac,1 ith her now he is going through double depression because of the above mentioned incident because the misunderstanding somehow never get cleared so to get over all this he decides to focus on basketball which he is talented in the basketball club s manager fall in love w,1 Good deal. Be in touch again tonight. @roguemovement,0 down to pack of moroccan mint tea and a whole truckloads of kenyan tea,0 cuddle weather ,0 stop scrolling getting frequent ingrown hairs penis shaft anyone pls tell whats going,0 "@Georgecraigono i haven't gone yet, lol where are you? it sounds fun x",0 never girlfriend today accepted fact never girlfriend im im bullied front girls girls bullied front parents gave,0 today is the day the government kill u all,0 movies hollywood seem follow one preformulated predictable plots film perfect example watch ifc forbr br theres guy michael girlfriend left word wants know happened ok say goodbye perhaps get closure able contact grace effort find made film asking helpbr br michael figures might need reason help him tells us story reliving relationship help friend nadia play role grace girlfriend left br br hind sight different michael telling story getting feedback friends realizes mistakes much values lost unfortunately lesson learn need learn easy identify with makes want hear michaels story wanting know finds grace,0 im burdeni keep trying better ive wanted die long remember always seems getting worse recently got girlfriend came felt happy accepted broke reasonable causes tried staying friends said much tired even friend whole time thought would get better week so fucking hurts huge fear mine people pretending friend seems thats doing everyone else leave cant leave myself want die one im largely christian family background believe im going hell anyways might well soon,1 whistle fingers try make fingers put tongue back blow never make noise anyone tips would definitely appreciate,0 need get chesti dating amazing girl three months now things going great enjoy every second spent together fast forward year old co worker comes says isnt gf shows pof app basically selling rich daddies shes gorgeous confront text im still work comes clean fucking guys side cash sometimes bed credit card earlier small purchase open maxes card about k jumps plane different province still see pof made account try contract her sure why really even care money thought going marry girl though oh also childhood dog run weekend thats fun tldr girl going marry breaks heart dog dies really sure im posting this im feeling really really desperately need support im point really care wake morning think id actually prefer that,1 i m in my early 0 and realized it ll almost be 0 year since i wa diagnosed the time of my life supposed to filled with fun memory have been nothing but pain i don t intend on living another decade like this,1 cant itabout month ago posted detailing ongoing battle depression psychosis anxiety skin disorder ezcema causes alot distress lost mom cancer who alot selfreflecting began realizing crippled via neglect overbearing nature conditional love based academic performance lost countless friendships social ineptitude simply withdrew society aside work actually tried amend friendships lost went horrible was either blocked much time passed person honest forgot admitted bad blood begin with overtime logistics job allowed save christmas given family here ill probably donate it long story short cant commit redflag cant go like either bridge planned jump extra servaillance holiday season exhaust pipe go via carbon monoxide adn im scared die via poisoning drop hanging method aside two planned months really hoping former becauae clearance said bridge higher golden gate safety net im crushed golden ticket out wouldve intimate thing ive done planned leave behing multiple notes friends loved ones along assuring theyd better off going birthday present approaches beginning next month id finally able permanently prevent screwing always cant anymore know now want spend another year here,1 think fucked upa days ago told significant love her would leave alone wanted take distance her could kill feel guilty death emotional support urges kill keep growing life crumbling down really miss her nothing repair damage caused feels like ever death way,1 think understand suicidal people seem happier usual kill themselvesive tried change myself stop depressed time get make friends less lazy occasionally succeed always shortlived feel like im top world day two come crashing back shitty reality crash one hardest things deal with feels like life reminding matter do ill never happy cant pull hole im probably end good see way out,1 thinking ending it things went bad worse im sure rightim going going detail myself life struggled crippling drug addiction every day feel verge relapse feel like burden around me wanted means disposal little support anyone tried therapy made things worse person ever positive impact life told worthless using me ive got one turn too one would miss me feelings right wanted something go proper life nut everyone around claims i root problems id better dead know right morally reprehensible mean like anyone would really give shit,1 a month of stress and anxiety got the better of me last week i quit my job and came close to just packing it in entirely even now a week later anything even remotely stressful push me back into panic mode i m barely sleeping and a i lay awake my mind turn back to wondering why i m even alive,1 Back to the street we were began ,0 pretty lately fence weather tomorrow go see doc not starting giving meds still want better know please help me anybody please give reasons continue see psychiatrist really need support right,1 pointlessi dont even know im posting ive already made choice theres watch sealeddoneim waiting children go fathers homes ive pushed far many people meant care havent snapped cant come back nothing here ive punched face alcoholic family member threatened violence rape another beggging help nobody cared happens people make people suffer toxic people protected good ones ignored born ugly break end,1 i miss my kitty cat,0 is losing her hubby for a week tomorrow for work easter and all,0 "Mission Statement or something like that | psykoid.com: In this mission statement, however, i am going to tal.. http://bit.ly/Br6JT",0 mom told im useless piece sht back story came room said me,0 turtle necks fucking amazing hide long ass neck bad posture,0 ah hitchcock hard find bad hitchcock movie lost birds saboteur proves point admired directors work many years managed skip one perhaps lack interest priscilla lane robert cummings lead actors course familiar statue liberty climax seen repeatedly film retrospectives wrongly assumed story leading might hold interest wrong suspenseful plot gets cooking right bat chance encounter bad guy saboteur good guy wrongly accused protagonist continues zooming along series chance encounters narrow escapes familiar hitchcockian elements there innocent person wrongly accused crime people seem be dramatic unlikely locations intensify suspenseful scene played within an airplane hangar ranch bridge handcuffed hero hurls escape police sumptuous charity ball palatial mansion upper floor skyscraper finally torch statue libertybr br throughout humor provided supporting players generous dollops early ww vintage social comment moments human warmth suffering people find within lend hand help fellow human getting nothing return short always basic humanity core hitchcock however grisly trappings sensational cast supporting players chiefly otto kruger slickest villain side george sanders his broadway credits include male lead noel cowards private lives says all weaselly norman lloyd titular saboteur mention alma kruger relation otto prominent society dowager involved fifth column intrigue her character foreshadows claude rainss mother notorious priscilla lane fine job difficult role early scenes cant tell whether believes hero innocent guilty seems constantly shift opinion coming side fully late proceedings one cannot ascertain whether acting fault whether meant kept state uncertainty plot developments swift fun clever really care thinksbr br then peculiar hitchcock touches nothing plot twice lane character pauses get change quarter reimburse kidnappers ice cream soda make call phone booth scenes inserted anybodys guess perhaps make film seem realistic thus heighten believability suspense perhaps give audience moment catch breath characters top garrulous truck driver impossibly kind trusting blind man living alone spotlessly maintained forest cabin politicalphilosophyspouting human skeleton members circus caravan hide protagonists pursuers,0 ive quit weed ive started nightmares again ive diagnosed redflag finally working little try get all ive gone contact dad tim well dad never really respected as never agrees views need sent email tim last november informing cant around anymore,1 whole story lot type bit place long story short none people considered best friends friends anymore struggling day trying think would anything them never done anything hurt them yet let hurt countless times know supposed find ways cope feel better family helping best way can hard considered family life brain let go hate it act like getting fed friend going magically stop depression also use internet lot person live far away type close friends trying say post alone big step me bffs got sick always hearing depressed always,1 @Gorillamonk Nice beads. ,0 i m my snap is bradenisacuck feel free to add me anyone,1 message longtime lurker almostyearold time teenager coming end hours figured id drop two pennies whomever wants read bear im guy working graveyard shifts stocking shelves scrolling reddit im classes high school is important life let parents siblings invalidate feelings crazy journey gotta go through high school time really get meet new people learn things life whole right feel everything wanna feel ups downs it cheesy sounds contributes helping build long run take grain salt high school going decide life time experience new things good bad build up also grades everything chill bit remember fyou got midterm promise you whatever part life going right have to stop smell roses little memories look back enjoy smile rushing life lil fast buy flowers take little walk fall leaves play among us homies regret it one last thing real quick know second guess yourself care old much people tell wrong understand honest stand know confidence absolutely key myawesome peoples words billy joels vienna youre ahead forgot need though see wrong know cant always see right right love all look fucking amazing today see yall later,0 honestly fuck im gonna acid like wanna try astral projection yeah,0 flip back forth able change feeling like iti recently got broken guy dating months good weeks ive back forth since feel feel future one hand feel hopeful like okay me get life together feel good work hard im happy about hand feel like good enough ill never good enough anyone feel like theres something inherently wrong keep failing everything give completely instead grasping day dreams never amount anything ive bingeing extreme calorie cuts taking care cutting punishment failing roller coaster everyday hating taking care within hours other currently jobless uneducated borrowing money family stay float,1 want live stays miles away me idea helphe lives abroad seattle india talked wanting live anymore stressed grad school reject know reach since texts phone calls going unanswered probably gone sleep know im really worried,1 @Stormlite02 ROAD TRIP EVERY YEAR! 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It is when I am happiest!,0 yummy pizza for dinner top of mouth burnt now though,0 im lucky met youyou make feel alive makes life worth it existence proof god really exists love you much,1 my therapist ha asked me to do something spontaneous activity in which i do not have control over the situation and that experience should feel good background so i have been trying to get out of this anxiety state which i get everytime i open my work laptop or think about work my mind ha been taking control and planning thing of so many thing that i can not let go control and do anything spontaneously i have been thinking about what can somebody do to fulfill this,1 my baby just went home,0 another silent love triangle film hitchcock mystery english wellpaced photographed smooth boxer bob corby ian hunter recruits circus boxer one round jack sander carl brisson sparring partner partly keep pretty fickle mabel lilian halldavis nearby lots character actors grotesquesat jack mabels wedding verger standing aisle church registers shock sight tall short men fat lady conjoined twins who course argue side aisle sit wedding feast amusing rest movie jack losing mabel boxing way back heart something like that another era altogether audience evening dress boxers dressing up too ring camera angles pace use symbols cuttingall stylish masterful camerawork editing last boxing match gripping brissons good looks wellused one smiling oblivious whats going around hitchcocks manxman annoying boxers dimples,0 f want kill bad hurtsi literally use world everything dreamed everything want achieve fails me get bullied severely nobody helps cares me ive depressed since th grade mom always disappointed wants better hard try want disappoint anymore today tried hang doorknob work all would literally anything die pass out im typing crying sorry anything spelled wrong,1 Lakers is the best team of the west conference ,0 actually dbt bad therapy depressionmy therapists response i wish could die without affecting anyone else well thats impossible course people love would miss you would miss you would devastating seems little short guilt tripping say totally ineffective kind expected dbt intensive therapist dbt assume greatest motivation positive attention totally leverages therapuetic relationship like means anything else world like sorry ok all therapist even know you self harm officially unamed unacceptable punnishable hours contactno phone coaching phone coaching thing theyre supposed try get use instead trying again kill yourself somebodys desperate theyre selfharming possibly intent kill totally fix leveraging need continued attention need feel better cost love god assumption someone really wants attention anything get good presenting asymptomatic bad symptomatic theyll stop self harming attempting redflag being symptomatic cannot manipulate suicidal thats works came dbt robust empirically proven form therapy supposedly heavyduty industrial strength whatever supposedly perfect severely depressed chronically suicidal people thats came for im sure im getting assumes people illogical attentionmotivated children else im mastermind genius find pretty insulting what get gold star day without selfharm too know lets go full behaviorism token economy s im studying psychology neuroscience shit jive ive taught expect dbt im disappointed really flat salty full jargon hardly begin parse out therapist says need work committment living like proper noun something oh mindfulness cure everything including misery existence like mindfulness actually kind hate it deep breathing bullshit too work like toolkit like therapy hate life treatment resistant depressive nothing works even little,1 hero time boys official sisters gonna dming mutants masterminds campaign ive already got character made itll starting week two ill keep updated,0 independent bw dv feature consistently shocks amazes amuses ability create insane situations find humor interest them hilarious ridiculous stuff yet absurd much film be heart reality keeps film grounded keeps entire piece drifting complete craziness therein lies real message here film survive world gone mad seems heart film insane wall things get leon yr old paperboyprotagonist always tries keep together hes like child forever trying catch balloon floating away everything work best everyone wantbr br the acting film could went far top exceptional cast really keeps piece cohesive van meter perhaps best bunch performance shines absurd diseased tics characters film do overlook sudden outbursts see real person underneath br br majkowski true genius here takes utmost ridiculous plot twists keeps real script cast help keep whole thing afloat true testament skill majkowski involved film grating plot characters never works nerves majkowski taken film could abrasive repugnant somehow given heart humor unique film missed br br ,0 @iheartLH BYL ,0 australia lost war emus emus ate australian crops costing money didnt like that plan kill k emus killed emus fast couldnt hit them amount money spent cost emus steal crops quit technically lost war fucking emus emus cant even fly,0 krush again sorry first im bakk ya gitz went bakk skhool yesterday months off turns spoke krush anyone else month period obviously thats good thing maybe puts better chanse ask point month time ask out wussing out sidestepping it ill see happens long live king,0 friend middle class dead silent whos stinky whore didnt realize unmuted,0 stress i love it like it bliss stress is so fun not but it want to give a kiss that s no lie stress can fry your mind up and that shit can piss but i still try to deal with all the pain and misery it give stress stress oh yes in this world it life rat race or cop chase stress can help or it can make you feel like crap and that isn t cap but stress can make you lose your mind or put mind in a trap,1 im failureim failure im job prospects relationships friends give shits abusive family ive decided think im better dead life gets worse time never better,1 @tommcfly Fancy Doing your good deed for the day and cheering an obsessive fan up? 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Was lots of fun if I do say so myself ,0 i researched and it took me min to get a recipe for a combination of different med that will do the trick it will cost me le than a hundred but i m broke af everytime something happens now it just make me feel better because it reminds me that my decision is correct don t need my parent denying therapy but then complaining about my behavior don t need my bfs stupid rule and controlling behavior don t need a place in a world where i m scared of so many people where i m angry at so many people where the rise of feminism tell me that men are overdramatic and whatnot where it s racist to call a dish shitty that s from another culture where people will comment on my look and send deaththreats or call me an internet rambo when i m hiding where there s bully that gave me social anxiety where my autism ha given me a handicap that at this point is out of control where i outzone while driving and almost run over a a dude where i have to understand everyone while nobody understands me i do not need this negativity,1 i have felt so depressed for year now im only and i ve been through a lot but who hasn t i m just a weak person that can t get over my issue the only thing i m good at is hurting people therapy will never help me because i am never going to change i m a terrible fucking person and i hate myself more than anything it feel like my life is never going to get better and i know that i will never deserve happiness but i feel like i ll truly be happy once i take my last breath,1 breaking news bad mental health depression,0 sleep for now then get up in hour then a very busy week aghhhhh,0 dont want keep pretendingi wish someone would break house shoot dead wouldnt seem selfish,1 someone tell bad ideaim either going kill today tomorrow friend knew spreading gossip hurts much never anything hurt anyone frustrating try hard nice people end stabbing back life ive trusting wrong people always end stabbing back guess saying true good guys never win nobody talk family reside miles away almost killed last week people know treat like sick joke guess nobody cares nobody ever cared me dont wanna die im also lot pain idk do,1 @DavidArchie Are you coming back to Asia again soon? Glad to know you enjoyed your stay while you were there. ,0 friend mine trying commit redflagmy friend technically ex told tonight almost days straight attempting od nyquil reason friend stop days tonight take home work were talking laughing good time kisses where kisses twice x hugging lot saying loves me ive remained optimistic us getting back together leaving unnerving feeling final goodbye get home text mom asked check her says asleep okay explain we know emotional times like know lets emotions get better her goes check finds nyquil bottle room wasnt was says half empty tell check make sure still breathing says is said would keep close eye her tldr ex thoughts redflag wondering help alleviate pain break up,1 i think my tweetdeck is failing me,0 energy talk write everything im feeling people around making feel worse worse genuinely scaryi legitimately know get moment,1 depression fucking sucks thanks,1 hello goodbye well almost time ive never really post sub today last day teenager turning tomorrow wish knew sub younger probably wouldve helped someone listen problems seem dumb hindsight little advice yall dont sweat small stuff things might seem like end world really dumb hindsight example lot teens really wanted learn drive get car big point contention parents thought didnt really like wouldnt teach drive thought life would change completely finally exciting worthwhile iearned got car nothing really changed basically go errands now something seemed really important really wasnt big deal know doesnt apply everyone ask always keep open mind good luck all,0 ive made subreddit wall e like nobody dont know mod theres called runofficial_wall_e im hopping lot people join wall e good movie seen go look tralier see like,0 life illusionhi people im years old live netherlands feel fucked life nothing setbacks parents divorced mother shit ton debt relationship guy murdered children seen years back sisters lived small village km away home father never able work anymore almost dead year ago relationship stepmother complaining even nothing father always say refugees return country although lived years despise stepmother parents life question end not help fucked shit,1 my anxiety ha been so bad recently and i m developing new fear and irrational thought i work in healthcare and have seen nasty thing like people aspirating choking on vomit and patient dead with throw up all over them i ate something off today and had to throw up i literally had to call my boyfriend i live alone and had the irrational fear i wa going to choke on my vomit or pas out later and nobody would find me until he came to see me this weekend i am honestly really embarrassed he saw me like that doe anyone else get health anxiety,1 Reading this helped me. Maybe good for Japanese friends struggling with anxiety or depression. https://twitter.com/sheepchase/status/988951764106821632 …,1 much want scale ,1 petition call s mourning s given idea mourning s waitress restaurant,0 reaching point needs endwhats up names san im bipolar ive fighting depression years started early parents divorce dad molested me shit kids dealing with currently work hours day job thats guaranteed make worse live shed property mom step dad thought maybe someone would like hear story maybe could help someone else im currently sitting bed thinking went wrong eaten days appetite even cant afford food anyway want phone girlfriend broke told hang myself mean person ever thought actually loved tells go hang yourself lets see life get here started working parents bothered me accident theyve never done anything show otherwise started street fighting earn extra cash feed get clothes not pay step dad rent spends money booze abusive alcoholic forced drop high school final year refused support me kicked unfortunately afford live pay schooling moved sister found complete narcissist bipolar thing mom ever gave us developed extreamly bad drug addiction killed me sister never found same kicked get along well boyfriend absolutely hated me moved real dad whos also alcoholic abusive round sack shit stayed bit till got drunk swung unfortunately abused left walked km friends house get phone mom see stay night get sleep says yes stay night discuss staying temporarily till get job get two feet got job everything going great place got promotion met girl dreams owner company sold new owner like me got rid me lost apartment lost everything came crashing down spiraled drugs alcoholism girlfriend broke me slept mt childhoods dog house nowhere else go became bartender thats country without matric that eventually molecular mixolagy fancy bar making pretty good cash went away owner bar closed bar left couple months later meet girl broke me pretty much whatever lead better life forces move mom bro stayed months first time years happy again like truely happy mom kicks us out move place stayed bit till afford live anymore begged mom let stay shed agreed long pay rent work survive till meet guy work now made sound like dream job want field choice programming salary great hey work hard ill get promotion withing months looking replace manager department im working in say cool easy job field love jump full force clock hours time week get paid for subtract huge amounts money salary due short time dont ever take work managers make hell people working them hate going work hate getting situation stuck place life escape everyone ive ever loved destroyed me everyone whos supposed love claims love hurt thrown dirt rot ive all constant bullying school molested ive ive survived this know guys going im sure strong enough get it try reaching someone unfortunately im strong enough tried reaching one would listen thank reading story people reddit,1 "@toysrevil your astrodude is in the post man, let me know when he arrives What WWR pieces do you have BTW?",0 can t sleep need to talk to someone,0 Screen All Teens For Depression? https://www.drweil.com/health-wellness/body-mind-spirit/mental-health/screen-all-teens-for-depression/#.WuBtc_Ik1m4.twitter …,1 Hoping for good news this week ,0 psa teens america register vote us citizen election register vote check make sure registered eligible vote check friends family members make sure register help register register vote httpswwwusagovregistertovote check voter registration httpswwwusagovconfirmvoterregistration,0 nobodylisten httpsopenspotifycomtracktolatcoedhnghobtczsinvyyzfjtuuzkkpnxmxbw,1 phrase describe far a series unfortunate events probably goes world thought worst years ever might bad years,0 today realized im probably going actually commit redflag sometime lifeit may today tomorrow even years now honestly think theres chance way end dying killing myself ive struggled depression since ive making significant progress therapy happiest ive ever been somehow keep ensing depressed coming back thoughts fear elderly alone divorced kids many friends im afraid living old folks home forgotten about today realized pretty much already forgotten about moved across country couple years ago none family friends ever call me mom never calls sister call time best friwnd messages complain life never asks im whats going me im always one calling them simply talk like fear alone come true difference im younger able take care still amazing boyfriend lately keep screwing shit doubt left soon too ya may today tomorrow might even years now unless accident sort probably die,1 i m not sure of even how to put it into word i m exhausted i ve moved into my own place i ve recently started a new job i m overwhelmed i don t want to die but i also feel like i don t want to exist if that make sense i m trying my best but at this point i feel like my best isn t actually my best i m not sure how to fight these feeling of inadequacy or how to fight off regret over thing i have acknowledged my mistake i ve made and will never make them again but somehow still manage to beat myself up and regret every mistake i ve ever made i hate feeling like this can i just not be tired for one day not be overwhelmed for a day,1 deserve live want live nothing contributes anything good hurt everyone around me nobody likes me every second alive absolute torture alive alive,1 you poem lonely girl roams halls creating art empty stalls hear voice amongst herd turn head hear words magnetic feeling stronger fear cusp sides relieve tears stare wonder analytical bliss something miss care kept spot dark place lot ask talk hesitate speak outlook myself remains bleak,0 i m so cold,0 redflag easy way outinstead stay alive struggling every day life fighting even modicum self respect watching everyone know around always denied appease someone elses idea life them reward suffering death care fight not im giving it,1 thoughts go mind lost alone broken hopeto whoever reads this know kind weird write phone honestly dont energy strength write paper dont computer type on even though im even typing im using microphone record voiceim tired physically mentally sleep rest anymore way get away everything moment honestly motivation focus even try everyone says things ok got keep trying theyll tell selfish give up doesnt anyone ever look point view person obviously somethings wrong make feel like this sitting day night cant even find comfort family friends searching internet painless ways end it range drugs cutting wrists even considered hanging myself everyone says selfish isnt selfish person suffer get want asked writing say dont know asked everyones answer itll get better dont know either thats something everyone says sad fact doesnt get better everyone sad fact everyone someone them get sit alone desperate way out somethings dont work out goes people to ive tastes happy tease know gone know long days ahead never seem end wonder would really cry died everyone says miss you thats natural response someone pain knows true thoughts images run mind someone broken see words appear cant help cry think someone read time help dont know answer like dont know light end tunnel appear feeling like makes wish could lay bed close eyes never open again redeeming qualities job money friends sent away person love world part hates much weighs shoulders making hard breathe bottom line need help help please want live like this store future living something never want do miss excited small things looking forward things please help need help writing scares me dont know ill it feel there please dont know happen me need help right wont get it please look ones close you may need you day feel like go further ive never felt like before people saying one help you dont believe that sometimes need help really need it,1 being bored at homee,0 All this depression is no joke.. I'm breaking out so bad ,1 month ago i wa hospitalized because deperssion i wa diagnosed with depression they put me on abilify and depakote not first time on med year ago i wa on seroquel depakote and klonopin because my psy tought i wa bipolar but maniac phase or psychosis never happened and fit me i remember the last day in hospital i had this urge need of masturbate orgasm were beautiful and after i got home i had for a week these urge of masturbation and good orgasm but only in masturbation a i remember not in sex too someone had the same experience i wa recently diagnosed with adhd my psychiatric tapered off abilify and im now mg next week 0 i started with depakote 0 mg and 0 mg abilify next week i will be start again ritalin for my adhd why i had this increased libido thank you everybody,1 guess what my dad is pregnant lol nah the doctor doe have to give him an epidural for his chronic back pain though,0 hit followers face reveal soon oh,0 i had one not to long ago im kinda feeling down rn but it all good these thing just make me stronger,1 want to hear seblefebvre s song but myspace is messing with me,0 i want my money from kevo to hurry up,0 i nyctophile yup which is not necessarily equivalent to depression na,1 cat basically whore bought cat two months ago like weeks found pregnant gave birth days that fast forward two months later squished four top nobody probably going care damn producing,0 im class someone say something funny get less boring fucaduckfuckaduckfuckaduckfuckaduckfuckaduckfuckaduckfuckaduck,0 powerpoole some people try to be tricky some stop using twitter at all i guess it s a good a it get i had to try,0 hope everyone has a fabulous friday and a happy & safe holiday weekend! XOXO SUMMER ,0 youse want wrong people goth girl this femboy that fuck bullshit real ones want woman big latina milkers blm,0 quick question criticize wearing mask mask keeps things getting out getting in youre afraid spreading it wear two masks outer one inside out doesnt work way wont work way cause logic,0 i don t get it i ve know i have a future i know have a route but i don t see the point anymore no matter what i do it s never enough for the people around me family friend even myself no matter what i do i feel like i m always doing it wrong i have severe social anxiety and i m too scared to reach out to anyone close to me i know they ll just turn their back like they always do everyday i have to put on a mask and pretend like everything is okay i don t want to put it on anymore i don t want anyone to feel sorry for me i don t want to cause that stress in anyone but myself my mind is so fucked up that i don t even know what s wrong with me anymore all i know is that something is i ve kept all my emotion bottled up for year i m too numb to feel anything anymore i can t remember the last time i felt legitimate happiness the only thing i feel at this point are physical besides stress shame and a crippling caffeine addiction it s so bad that i m taking at least 000mg a day at this point at this point i just have a bottle of mixed medication at my bedside that i stare at every night and each day i feel myself moving closer to downing them all this is my last call i don t know what else to do,1 yuddylicious he hatez me,0 story lucifer kind interesting baptized catholic definitely struggle religion well grandma devout catholic dying cancer final days kinda stopped believing really made faith shaky literally used avoid number like plague ask questions story lucifer interesting though theres tik tok trend people recreate image lots people simp it look comments learn guys wanna tell ill happy read comments,0 afters year i finally had contact with a person i like i sleepover at her house quite often i like her alot and day ago she told me that she is getting sent to psychiatry why cant i just be happy why is it all getting taken away from me,1 want big bearded muscly lumberjack dude hold me like sometimes night daydream held stuff reality wouldnt want random dude holding ahhh anyone else relate wheres lumberjack ,0 ignore video listen song httpsyoutubeslafdhjk,0 much painso much pain much hate house everyone hates other everyone yells one listens one wants anymore one leave hate resent much soulcrushing poverty wherever look cant believe person asked live way pumped full medications keep living way told shush pay live way live way goodbye,1 would u message epstein ,0 day talking tattoos want forget talk tattoos want does van it van weeds season episode maybe blue turtletop minihome one show,0 hate everything day even celebrate day put here fake wishes stupidly cringe posts instagram fake well written messages love makes believe people care me false humiliating want birthday also death day poetically started raining hate hate every day spend earth birthday,1 currently at work,0 final performancesorry eyegrabbing title guess wanted people get curious check out aint lil attention whore anyways ive always imagined would eventually kill myself inevitable turned recently though andi honestly expect make far recently hiv scare took get tested kept thinking please let hiv wanna die shit like that right thankfully hiv back spot wanting alive tried quit drugs though consider addict smoking another bowl justcant seem get loop recently whenever someone wants hang ends annoying me end making excuse people finally see flake ive ditched plans many times ive got nothing going me job cant form meaningful relationships slowly dissolving right eyes even want get better anymore end im probably gonna pussy anything try justcontinue am,1 @theendtime lmao i love me a good comedy ,0 title should ve been will it work within the hour i ll electrocute myself i ll sit with my foot under salt water one end of the electrical wire will be under water and the other plugged in the outlet will it work,1 wanting die cantive manic depression years suicidal ideation included thought abusive household medicated thoughts would go away havent still strong urge kill myself tonight came outlet am im afraid die genuinely want to stopping family ive moved away job take care elderly personal support worker however enough least tonight dont know do know better give suicidal parts eventually nightmare end right im danger dont want anyone panic dont anything apartment could feasibly kill with im really struggling,1 ever prefer online friends irl friends points annoying thing parents set many fucking restrictions cant even fucking call discord anything,0 kara yoursojt depends when you re going though dont want to be hanging around town for age ooo aisha tune doreta beach would rock x,0 watching fallon with mom and working on a project school is hard,0 yuore penis crcumgjmccionnm filler filler filler filler filler,0 note hope help people understand one day thank youdont read last night first night thought enough energy it never real felt brain numb tears anxiety focus hopelessness hopelessness self esteem hopelessness hopeful thinking go exact spot dreamed happening sticking decision moment walked front door never wanted leave note im gonna start see get dont want call seasonal depression captive depression nonsensical depression proves useless curable wanna call restless hopelessness nothings left sad feelings go numb literally feel bliss go body im still imaging nothingness dont know mind goes drifts dont wanna make sappy note sticking facts logical non sensical ironic sounds coming depressed kid dont sad leave angry drive find real cure patience cure comes happy patience support like dopamine drip kidney failure patient striving get transplant surviving medication theyre skin turns yellow family love ever drove resenting emotionally ugly treat everyone great mask fact really another spec star dust universe doesnt care im ash want listen make note want understand really feels like even though brain body hopefully never will want listen tell working pushing harder ever isnt working me need reason emotion great life what strive cant reach try ill never see really feels like normal again name every reason wrong dont convince im wrong convince brain subconscious convince sadness less sadness others take care mourn sadness others dont want share this mind clearing up always trys best moment carve path clear view one days storms going thick wont feel drowsy day hope whatever hell pushing me little mercy love guys love you dani,1 love get placed breakout room someone clueless like yes dumb together judgement im dumb u,0 thought smd meant something different like used think shaking dick like smh,0 benefits ms diagnosed multiple sclerosis september st yes lot negatives would like talk positives use walker people move way sometimes even open doors might able get handicapped thing car like actually kinda need one cus cant walk fast far lol gym class college cheaper something blame terrible memory general dumbness get use school elevator people nicer people feel bad give hugs d people help lot im bad symptom day someone get lunch get chance educate people ms parents dont force chores walker seat sit anywhere want dont use stairs time cant remember lol disease immune system eats away protective covering nerves ms resulting nerve damage disrupts communication brain body,0 because i have a feeling that most of you see yourselves a rick s you feel like you re a god cuz you ve realized that you could transcend emotion and everything but you re just trash in the end at least that is how i feel xd,1 want anyone find bodyi cant it someone see confirm death ,1 could escape could see happy different lifei used think trapped sort life ended many bad situations life seemed like sort curse thought something would make bad always follow me im finally starting accept true ive seen much bad could never believe imagine good know theres nothing wrong me loved accepted respected ive managed always around people never loved accepted respected illluck nothing me somewhere else could happy life least easier imagine now but im currently living abusive people wish could fly away get go place mind cant money car nowhere live fragile body cant live street couches though mind damaging temporarily knowing could find happy place much faith people happy seems people complain put fake cheer think luckier wish money friends fun joy wish surrounded people always trying undermine me sounds simple feels impossible im stuck know ever end soulsucking life goes eternity day day,1 My own Twitters just hatched in my back yard http://twitpic.com/6p5hv,0 sure feel like burden friendshi really know go start it im pretty level headed right now know last long ill constantly shift wanting kill really happy easily excitable feel like come drama queen im melodramatic reach lows really feel nothing unbearable emotional agony ive almost killed times now time im send redflag note break tears cant it rd time even shed tear felt hollow worried ive become desensitized since think detail almost daily past month talking friend it finally broke go it convinced finally throw away noose ive holding onto months thought done it now instead feel even pressured nervous guaranteed easy way anymore im afraid might turn less clean methods get bad enough botch it feeling nothing pain long time dying even dying crippled pain rest life cannot afford help cannot afford medical bills police forces stay hospital will thatd cause finally go life would bill insurance one ripoff plans get fined much putting premium crazy high unreasonable deductible id homeless expenses actually unfortunate enough hit it last night meticulously planned method thing stopping reason need rope chill raise suspicion way approach cold empty calculated kinda unsettling passionate irrational need kill like hit absolute lows im laying bed sobbing uncontrollably moments ill sit for like minutes planning out feel like need kill point problem friends care much me like im insanely lucky thoughtful caring friends are even exgirlfriend still cares deeply friend made mistake coming first time almost went it went quiet days discord called work make sure okay two days ago sitting hospital side world go sexual reassignment surgery something wanting entire life something saved slaved past years entire time ever worked despite that took time day worry me asking okay telling bullshit told fine knew way well bare ruin moment tell up one two closest friends talk daily going lot one addisons disease constantly lot pain always sickly always tired needs hours sleep day feel exhausted thats guarantee friend firsts going lot right now talk personal life lot generally really withdrawn life little could piece together really ill well also rough life puts borderline poverty shame two still worry me comfort im upset understanding people planet make happy theyre around online though friends actually acquaintance coworkers pleasant close friends either way feel selfish going im upset encourage great success feel blessed friends lies issue feel like burden friends actually despite transgendered like friend used date supportive treat like woman ways get person despite knowing understand mood place estrodiol flowing daily i pgml getting increased one even compared moody teenage girl despite support give me feel burdened them nd time bear give redflag note instead left discord group us me one addisons one speak personal life well servers together uninstalled discord phone computer hoping sever ties never burden again started feel worried upsetting them reinstalled phone hours later find one messaged asking okay first told suicidal comforted felt settle those two really good knowing exactly want hear calm feel happier reinvited everything woke up first also told second suicidal know heres part burdening me nd told never leave shed miss dearly made feel loved time made feel obligated stick around sake care deeply theyre two closest friends entire world honestly even think im falling love one them know itd mistake pursue it im also sure already taken someone sweet cannot single unless wants and wanted be change me either way last thing needs bringing already do like want away them justi feel like realize much happier theyd without me since bring im upset almost fucking daily refuse accept im fucking toxic happiness well upset get come confide them sure fun together highs whenever theyre active get talk them highly doubt im enjoyable around worth emotional pain put whenever im sad leave servers now uninstall discord again know ill clawing thought reinstalling level stop dumps know ill keep vicious cycle depressed around up im worried theyll worry me itll upset them care much friends put something like that know im suicidal made mistake telling them theyll think killed myself thats im torn feel like im control anymore stay happy them keep contact them stay alive them know do sorry thoughts place want worry them want upset im sad,1 vernonhamilton you re a stranger,0 family keeps pissing household speak english spanish siblings speak english amongst speak spanish mom everytime get discussion speak english regardless im talking easier prove point since speak english better spanish everyone family constantly makes fun even tell stop say something someone saying word wrong get yelled at constantly happening pisses off know nobody gonna see feels nice rant somewhere,0 dieim planning preparing redflag im either winter hypothermia maybe swim river check cold water weather be could buy ice pour bathtub sleep still dont know im thinking assisted redflag much paperworks take long time die,1 train holding union soldiers transporting gold along banker clayton whos see reaches destination suddenly robbed bandit monetero however bahunda nicks gold hides it monetero tries get him hes killed soldiers clue medallion monetero captured soon would executed stranger dressed priest comes who bounty monetero offers save life half gold exchange monetero gives half medallion clayton notices discovers something up soon three crossing gold also banks insurance company moneteros gang watching on waiting chance pouncebr br just watching opening sequence know spaghetti western tongueincheek style reliance sprinkling many references some nicely realised films largely dollar trilogy subgenre director enzo castellaris sprightly direction sprawling mostly lightweight theres potential many grand showy set pieces smooth rhythmic pace largely theres lot tussles fistfights and plenty acrobatic stunts taking place compared allout vicious shootouts however stunts well done enjoyable guns blazing theres energy burn traditional story sticks close conventional details since theres lot conniving outfoxing going on spontaneous nature makes sure never quite certain eventually going play three leads many effective suspenseful moments clever twists plenty wink wink humour within starch script pretty sly worked favourably amongst light zesty style giovanni bergaminis dynamically taut framing francesco de masis impulsively rousing music score performances extremely well tailored form striking rapport george hiltons wry scuffed turn solid ambiguous stranger gilbert roland brings class intelligence formidable mexican bandit monetero edd byrnes gives poised performance clayton holds well kareen ohara get much do worthy looker gerard herter pedro sanchez ivano staccioli provide able supportbr br a fun worthy spaghetti parodyhomage throws one curveball another many fruitful n dirty antics,0 whats point short ventone favorite rap songs part rapper goes people telling positive im supposed positive see shit positive thats always ive felt people want positive fucking reason alone positive keep getting rejected positive one one really gives fuck you positive lifes bad want kill yourself positive things positive about positive good thing could happen literally get girlfriend genuinely likes me effort anymore second guessing inferiority jumping hoops treated like invented weird concept called love trying test unfortunate unwilling happens supposed to shit like happen itll never even happen normally me lots effort trial error feelings inferiority really see point even living anymore know death coming soon thats im actually coming way around knowing ill soon rid whole world bit peace have fantasize nowadays dead consciousness sucked body even dream love anymore anymore fucking everything normal people,1 i m so sick of being in a state of breakdown and every hotline i call treat me like dogshit hang up on me like nobody fucking care and i can t take rejection after rejection after fucking rejection when nobody s ever accepted me for who i am or loved me even once all i ever do is fuck up and nobody forgives even my tiny mistake they all fucking hate me and i m sick of everyone being disgusting or selfish little slimebags get a fucking life and fuck off and quit making mine worse just because you aren t shit i can t take it i really can t take it i mean really i wa beaten nearly to death and i get hotline idiot telling me to be quiet and quit cursing like fuck you fuck you to the bastard death you useless asshole doe anyone have a shred of empathy i don t give a fuck i just wish someone gave a shit,1 ever see pics old friendscrushs get sad cause really nice made happy attractive abandoned you also lied stopped talking saw rant posted woo,0 adolescent sleep stereotype amp misunderstanding with garwboy learn more about the comorbidity with sleep problem anxiety amp depression plus whether the relationship between sleep problem amp psychopathology is bidirectional full podcast http t co s jso f http t co lk ssi dc,1 theekween vhulivhadza help with depression and anxiety thelmasherbs,1 is stuck in history,0 everyone know would better never existedim biggest fucking burden inconvenience everyone life dont know necessarily want kill makes whole different kind burden many fucking people would much better never deal fucked self,1 constantly think running away starting overbut means so moment im unemployed car im petite woman odds running trouble likely raised overbearing christian family father alcoholic mother abusive narcissist never close brothers one clearly annoyed years older ran away years naturally became introvert ive struggling depression anxiety long even remember like feel happy ok turns thyroid issue medication make feel better anyways point depression got bad started ignoring friends months felt ok enough talk them made everyone mad barely friends im lose more past month half ive drinking every night everything possible avoid everyone know messages piled eventually people gave up feel last time ill let happen im going respond again person left boyfriend things rocky lately im ready disappear motivation work anything im living parents hashimotos makes tired nobody understands that want escape thats option right now know ever be feel like im reaching end rope hospital months last year bloodbone infection honestly wish killed me sorry rambling everythings hopeless btw,1 i ve been wanting a cat for a few month now at first i wanted a dog but they re too much responsibility for a university student and not many landlord accept dog i ve been suffering with anxiety for year but ever since i moved out of my family home it s just been getting worse and worse i ve made no friend i feel extremely lonely even though i am in a relationship of a year and half we do long distance since college though and i have frequent panic attack a well a sleep paralysis am i crazy for thinking a cat could really help me is it true untrue is my anxiety something only i can fix help my parent refuse to get me a cat or help me financially because of the responsibility that it mean but my therapist think it could be a good thing for me but also my boyfriend is allergic to cat anyway just asking for thought help,1 get snap lot friends it feel like used meaningless conversations would really missing ton didnt get it dont fomo wonderin thx,0 twenty years watching this still find quoting things movie like look two giant melons ill start sing pabst blue ribbon theme hand years later make sense meat machine theres still lot stereotypes like used movie signs good movie me could say movie stands test time cant really say lot s movies continue movie still list lot peoples favorite movie kid growing s like games dreams becoming game master find dorking s movies relive childhood need watch this also sometimes sarcastic funny one things certain movie someone ever invites great allnighter mean x acid trip party mean get ready midnight madness oh see everyone dying play hehehehheh,0 im sorryim sorry failure im sorry think im failure im sorry let everyone im sorry saying things meant say im truly upset right wanted happy see mum happy everything even ex partner nothing ever seems go way life always heartache im alone even called family doesnt even care im truly alone never anything happy life im fucking disgrace thats cant anything right make anyone happy im pathetic loser,1 good communication platform young people european student feel bit lonely current second wave covid good platform communicate people like me preferably without much creeps,0 "@erin_marcella ngl i wanna meet him. i think you, me and him have a pretty good chance at becoming bffs. he should be your new room-mate ",0 girls prefer bois hairy bodies but much like hair corious idk idk idk filler,0 it s like at certain time i die while awake mind go completely blank and nobody can wake me from my trance but eventually i come back once i m back i m flooded with emotion after emotion and it s exhausting then im just angry and sad followed by numb once again and cant focus i quit job often even though i need money because i can not function in this society sometimes i wish i could get on disability but everyone tell me im just making excuse and that it cant be a bad a i make it seem i m always wrong never is anything anyone el fault but fucking mine i swear someone could kill me and people will be like oh well you shouldn t have made him mad i ve never attempted suicide because i don t have the ball to actually murder myself i wish someone would do it for me though my whole life i ve never been good enough for anyone and now i m an unemployed year old man watching everyone thrive and be successful while i slowly rot away i used to be so intelligent and motivated not to mention happy a fuck now i physically can not bring myself to do anything that requires even the slightest amount of mental effort without being downright forced to i know this is a lot and probably none of it make sense i m just so fucking stupid and i figured this is a half decent place to ramble because no one give a shit anyway the only thing that give me hope that my life can one day be something great is music i am a very talented rapper with no recognition but not like these regular as people i innovate and i approach the rap game with the respect she deserves i carve my word onto the page with precision and passion because a of the past decade no exaggeration hip hop ha been the savior of my existence,1 much underrated camp movie level cobra woman etc photographic stills resemble rembrandt prints sometimes subtle dialog hidden literate touches found throughout,0 there is very little that people will not excuse a long a you mention depression a a primary motivator the depression free pas is extensive,1 fucking hate false hope stupid well learnt circuits today physics absolute nerd obviously got questions right whilst rest class sitting scratching heads mind you top set tbh quite disappointing whatever anyways eventually teacher put question board asked us write answer immediately told friend answer coz im arrogant bitch friends always laugh knowing answer teacher even finished sentence ppl around us like wtf u get that started explaining like basically half class including boy like eventually teacher like heard lot discussion question person particularly loud ron me thats beside point point lesson friend who sat next boy like told staring talking like nahhh looking coz explaining question straight went like no staring you but like good way im sad coz gives hope likes even tho know doesnt anyways hope lovely day guys lt,0 so i live hour away from where i wa born and raised well my very best friend twin brother oded because someone put fentanyl into his drink smoke and he wa always like a brother to me but i can t make it to his funeral i hate myself for it i want to be there for my best friend and i want to be able to say goodbye to a good friend i haven t talked to him in a long time and the way we talked to each other wa just always giving each other a hard time and now i regret it so much and just wish i would ve kept up with him and been nicer and i have to miss his funeral because i don t know how to save my fucking money amp my job ha no one to replace me while i m gone fuck i wish i wasn t like this i can t stop cry about it or the fact that i feel like i m letting down my best friend by not being there for her she say it s okay and she understands but i can t help but feel like shit,1 no snoo snoo for you,0 anyone san antonio want chillsome fucks work obliterated emotions tonight make worse work considering harrassment persay first time life get invited bar drink coworker whove ive grown like were leave ducks bathroom piss decide too enter coworker stall taking shit talking shit guy neither notice standing right there first guy calls creep accusses killing dog convinces guy invited ditch lying bar were going go somewhere else instead finishes shit exits notices me thing says well im going sugarcoat it whatever fuck means hes never expressed displeasure me caught talking shit making pretty bad rumour hit pretty hard since give dog recently save money also coming back houston people stayed went logs caught them lied explaining themselves called out actually bitched not giving enough info even though bought groceries open book failed ask anything oh yeah bitch reditor use dog thread asked advice investing house im fucking crushed want good friend here,1 missed today s ellen,0 @jstaffz thanks babyyyyy!!! I brought my lucky bikini. Lol,0 bottle vodka bottle painkillers ready deedmy boyfriend years broke today happy fuck happy depressed whole relationship abusive mean made feel worthless feel like need keep trying make work life worth living without him please help me ive suicidal long time today trigger,1 @MissLaura317 Lol all of them pretty much. And I bet she's fine ,0 seriously contemplating death since weekshi everyone first all obligatory throwaway left university decided leave west european country african one find job did truly loved whole situation ended burning sheer amount required work shitty pay burnout came back parents europe im back round now except time think life at exactly unique path ive taken heres thing passion burning desire anything started running year ago officially diagnosed depression due excess stress predisposition i never liked consider depressed always felt something life helps enough never really sportive recreative thing back university took classes based like languages law road specialized wine trade everything fine realized would lead towards unaccomplishing jobs thought wine overrated wait work there everybody becomes extremely uptight overprotective label put bottle is all drink goes tourism event management latter get erase boundaries professional private lives weird hours get that perhaps would fine people shitty pay get paid enough rather get paid enough extremely low maintenance person started saving half salary every month what significant purchase like housing never reach start buying car simply able save anymore insure it repair put fuel it puts salary perspective work ass point destroy mental health least get paid respectable amount especially qualifications i postgrad so would work much thats works get responsibilities travelled much barely good friends left honest theres parents people really care about that life taking much energy like running thats left good consumer care latest high tech equipment food care fashion obviously dig outside tiny bubble theres also current environmental political global issues im used open all probably first time ever do first time actually consider killing myself never really afraid idea dead transition life death medication mg citalopram per day since september seem anything ill sure go see somebody soon obviously know ill ever able change life change things much define me thanks reading hope come across somebody experienced similar thing would love give family grand kids cant wrap head around dragging somebody mental state let alone raising anybody,1 guys realize something someone explains hate awards think theyre pointless dont give awards thats exactly want give drawing something images back on dont waste coins award farmer trying manipulate using reverse psychology note doesnt include people complain using wrong awards wrong time time,0 @MissNatalieLynn Thanks! 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Ahhh cannot wait ,0 ever feel okay againi idea end long sad story incoherent ramble go since age im stopped happy seemingly nowhere became increasingly insecure depressed started hating myself kept problems last year high school essentially nervous breakdown went year intention essentially forgetting everything felt forcing become better purely ignoring obvious mental health issues set incredibly high and unrealistic expectations grades wanted soon burned short amount time cue nervous breakdown saw doctor diagnosed moderate depression anxiety issues counsellor months resulted pretty much actual improvement summer somehow still managed make first choice university completely bombing last year cut semester two stopped going classes completely excessively abused alcohol wild student nights dorm room experienced sexual assault avoided everyone knew days time suffer severe insecurity constant thoughts tell im burden everyone around me one wants life make absolutely contribution surrounding society even read back hate it still suicidal thoughts honest reason acted im scared work deal aftermath all point time im hopeful answer really want learn change perspective want happy want healthy want live life full still feel shred hope start recover unlearn bad habits unhealthy coping mechanisms guess im trying say want fight seems incredibly overwhelming feel scared lonely thought even trying fight back mental health issues want find live want live good life even begin thank read this advice support helpful anecdotes welcome immensely appreciated,1 soo uhh umm anybody wanna play minecraft,0 started typing notei plan anything really really see things ever getting good want be feel like prisoner life want me want go back time stop becoming now even better born another famiy one without narissist one real family love connection ive isolating years know social noone seems want around like way look like direction life going in envious many people even take care anymore want things much better see happening hate much im verge tears feel like noone truely understand extent much hate past aand life going now want someone else badly want forget life ever happened start over im fucked up alone pathetic want takes telling people want kill take seriously love help me,1 pee pee pretty cool think id like coochie better idk seems fun except periods,0 october sky highly lauded movie easy see why story easy comprehend many turning points gripping actors actresses fairly good jobs especially jake gyllenhaal chris cooper hero finally gets wants true story frankly think directors achievement comparable sparks heat original story generates dont see special narrative cinematography power movie relies much riveting plot tough situation young hero trapped audience find identify characters feel homers desire earn fathers recognition create future resilience wins respect october sky reminds later japanese production mini series rocket boy might owe inspiration movie actually two works shot two different cultures provide interesting comparison october sky unfolds story young man crying loud claim right destiny rocket boy offers compromised description could sometimes constitute acrid criticism modern society starring outstanding actor yuji oda rocket boy focuses three men ordinary be travel agent dream becoming astronaut boastful advertising agent brink torn apart inferiority complex resulted extreme success father older brother like homer feels family food company employee getting married scared idea collected social consciousness superimposes definition success constituents steps force suffocate dreams claiming impossible compensate lost ideal kobayashi yuji works tour operator called galaxy client fails girlfriend decides leave him finally finds strength fathers words determined sailor later found life sea less attractive presumed dont regret it father told kobayashi least tried fathers confession encourages resign job apply astronautships despite fact hurts legs needs move around wheelchair kobayashis effort finally fails goes back travel agency crazy courage inspires friends everyone loves more end series kobayashi job guide space camp meant let children learn astronauts tour see leaning tree unfolding sheet poster tears bulletin board says astronauts wanted kobayashi looks piece paper laughs laughs like kid looking ticket disneyland kobayashi may never get wants dares destiny it series heartgripping hero exhibits heroic deeds ordinariness unstoppable urge realize dream make us wonder envy unlike dilbert sarcastic writings show enlightens us teaches us something homer kobayashi dream despite peoples opinions recommend imdb users see japanese tv series ninetofiver feel touched feel sorry imdb doesnt data maybe ask somebody japan help you,0 cpt depression like you and the baby ohhhhhhsnap don t block me,1 ensconced in thought diametrically opposed graduated in fear and all it frill untouched day can only be so new with a mantra old is love for loving s sake hail the dawn,1 "quincenera Satruday night - Mega Show in Clute,Tx on 6/20 - Live in Bnet studios 6/20 - In studio on next cd project... good times ",0 jeff bezos looks like fucking testicle makes sense cause hes massive dick,0 ending tonightwanted wait little longer initially working out finally ill able sleep stay asleep wish best,1 im honest dont want another fucking yearand made promise bf id gone new years im here suffering making miserable making everything worse off id honestly better dead really dont expect make _,1 why do i get hot easily and my anxiety get really bad where i need to leave whether it s the gym or doing my nail i have no problem socializing but i fine myself needing to leave situation when i start feeling like this it s so consuming can someone help,1 bands lastest song indie kinda prog influenced httpsyoutubeborszg spotify also httpsopenspotifycomtracknlonolzfasrgnxtnsiwfllbcqfukpzuza listening feedback,0 want call fear careerhi depression really beating today want pick phone call hotline want lose job job security officer requires carry loaded gun daily basis want disqualified calling hour day today need help redflag text service,1 0.6 Is that enough? @HarlemLanes Almost there ,0 think redflag wrong certain contextsin certain situations see redflag logical choice anyone loves you friends job etc choice hurt anyone else whos say hurts you fact is know happens die could hell could nothing could greatest dreams come life risk sure think better current life which maybe do personally feel ethical stopping you keep mind context described above thats mention people terminal illnesses like anyways thoughts going it maybe maybe theres something better maybe ill family loves me maybe ill meet lover best friend again even dont see reason stay anymore ive battling thoughts years think ive finally reached conclusion makes sense,1 girl left guy used hang cant take it updateim redditor posted post throwaway talking today asked going out said yes saw red punched fucking face hard could beat shit him regret it reckon theyre still going dance im thinking ending dance right front did,1 i need more excitement in my life. ,0 ahhhhhhhhhhhhh,1 february took time took clark cabin september second trip decided search job redding late october moved redding clark would call update medical credential process going would share family would always repeat me manuel dont know much longer handle fast pace bay area people rush dont even know rush for one new grievances avenue lives jokingly calls expressway sound constant vehicle traffic definitely contrast area previously filled orchards,1 would ifwhat would severe case social phobia strong lifelong depression ask help ive wanting help years now cant go doctor myself im years old closest thing ive come getting help mom went doctor me doctor said prescribe anything talked me cant even leave house ive lost touch pretty much friends found depression suggestions here literally see one option,1 wants vc need someone talk school work talk abt whatever want one thing gotta atleast ,0 someone dm pleaseee im really bored im looking friends stuff also im really bad conversation dm might seem bit dry first,0 turns press button post really fast actually see bit see feed see look woooo secret text anyways good health feeling great take time take deep breath thru nose thru mouth feels good clogged nose huh take moment think whats going well today go ahead talk it day going well that it explain username is,0 hmm right compare tiffani thiessen markpaul gosselaars post saved bell acting course right ridiculous right give movie rating hahahahahaha thats funny movie horrible though better expected be madefortv movies often similar many feel them one feel worked even though yet another tortured wife whos gotta get bstard end story started envisioned ms thiessen vixen type seductress innocent kelly kapowski refreshing eric close surprised playing part really well decent writing director got pretty good convincing performance without cheesy somewhat interesting definitely better tv movies grade b,0 confession sortsfirst id like emphasise redflag note dying time soon despite wish would ive lost hope recently redemption hitting kind hard something horrible fucking repulsive irredeemable around fourteen made many mistakes surrounding titular coming age type experience repressed hid away recesses mind come night me thoughts ringing ears reason im writing years ago crime id wish nothing death torture upon perpetrator someone else god wish someone else that kills inside know reality freak nightmare im monster horrific so words try try earn penance give peace using life protect people give peace need take life take life id wish sick individual position wish hell violence nothing afterlife hope hot horrible really do maybe small confession really sins give amount temporary peace im sure wont much manipulated manipulated embarrassed hope remember do god knows pain live really hope caused damage due actions retard child yr old me fuck im taking chance get it,1 teachers said you cant escape maths even though use pythagoras theorem daily lives right cant escape maths laughs engineering expect landing ,0 one cares drank water today,0 feels like im losing mindsome time around december started getting depressed super well life suddenly progress paused sort fell this started feeling sad anxious whole works life started back again great things happened life im getting anxious depressed happens thats affecting whats happening life got accepted prestigious exclusive improv comedy group feel like im spiralling control cant perform anymore feel like im burden group regrets accepting me schoolwork getting affected grades dropping mind always elsewhere worst all cant seem talk people anymore feel like peoplefriends have new old see sort freak right im really struggling talk social mind constantly racing miserable know fix it think could ever commit redflag certainly started thinking decent amount scares me want think it im afraid might actually consider life continues current direction needed get chest thanks,1 just woke up late again i wa supposed to wake up at am cause there are lot of thing to do late homework mostly,0 realized followers instagram tf,0 really liked two coyotes one friends rented night really impressed good cool main guys were wonder thinking making sequel would excellentbr br two coyotes rocks,0 movie started confusing grew one best movies seen acting utterly superb drying tears enjoyed meryl streep whos performance extraordinary movie deals hardships distant family coping mother develops terminal cancer movie difficult watch heartbreaking soundtrack fits movie tee brava bette midler stars give one ,0 random fact know im bored tell random facts ,0 alguien que hable espaolsolo quiero alguien con quien hablar ,1 the absence of the ability to just get over it is depression,1 panic attacks overthinking im gonna able sleep tonight ive thrown twice already pure anxiety idk do,0 depression we re gon na sleep forever mania fuck sleep we re gon na stay up for day,1 stopped boyfriendbestfriend committing redflag morning hes really bad shape need help badtheres alot story much time go get work internet im going kind put small nutshell can boyfriend best friends almost ten years recently started dating broke babys mother making life living hell blows phone day night literally constant bullshit terrible is fucking dudes hurt him going replace father four month old son refusing let see son well killing him shows house calls texts etc day night repeatedly hes lot bullshit go life literally one me hes terrible place mentally morning called told really bad place think could stay away gun luckily got house time hed taken three valium three xanax muscle relaxers bottle nyquil beers beyond fucked up slept next day made sure going anything stupid woke remember anything happened hes still telling mind place listen tell cut contact her know do cant leave alone cant keep trying keep head mine water listen me also suffer depression im worried takes fix this know do ive considered calling police put psychiatric evaluation works days week cannot afford miss work im terrified stressed know start listen me please someone help me,1 throwaway account for privacy reason i just graduated with an advanced degree and got into job search i ve been struggling with depression for year and i think at first it wa the high functioning kind but in the last few year it seemed to have turned to the demotivational kind of depression i m tired all the time and i always pick the easy thing to do easy entertainment watch thing mindlessly easy way to go to sleep scroll on my phone until i m too tired to stay awake etc it come and go in wave too sometimes i d get the energy to do thing or to do something along the line of self improvement other time i would just want to sleep i ve learned that some thing trigger depressive episode much faster than others but i m not sure how to let these trigger pas without the episode full on hitting me for instance one of the trigger is a perceived sense of being excluded from thing or being rejected or being shown or told that i m not good enough can you tell that i suffer from an inferiority complex anyway today that trigger came from one of my tennis group friend who wanted to set up a play session every two week for advanced player in our amateur tennis group this doesn t conflict with any of our other scheduled play session and i know that i m not good enough to be in the advanced group all of my tennis friend are good people and i know that there s always going to be room in the advanced group for people who improve and get to that level even knowing all this i got so depressed over the span of about minute that i just stopped functioning i think that since this group of friend ha been my only real support for the last few year anything that happens in the group that i see a a rejection of myself just instantly take me down now that i m in the middle of it it feel like the only thing i can do is wait for it to pas because talking out of it or building myself up don t work when all i can think about is how i ve failed everything and that i ve never and will never live up to anyone s standard including my own sorry for the long selfish post i m struggling daily with imposter syndrome and a sense of inadequacy the trigger just happened to be this particular thing today,1 kinda wanna peace outnothing feels worth doing wanna sleep summer school starts cant that kinda wanna life feels pointless,1 hello want feel less lonely server need you yes you pm link also say frog sent me please really need this lgbt friendly,0 please wake up miss you ive trying reach years now seems like dreams im normal social media user im husband miss you please wake up,0 @bandonjan Thank you Jan! I am looking forward to my first Bandon wedding in August! ,0 just threw up all over the bathroom not fun,0 I hate sleeping in. Thank god we're leaving soon. Seattle here we come ,0 @philpringle Amen Pastor! thats so true...the fulfillment comes in knowing they've stretched their potential!! ,0 @MsDanette2u yes I can read all ur tweets just don't check them very often. I wish I couldve tried ur brownies ,0 understand lifei know im posting here feel ashamed im posting here want die want live feel like ive never really gotten life ground im im smart talented educated creative people love artwork ive built following around it whenever opportunity comes get scared say no maybe right opportunity know feel like cant make decisions feel like life drastically different might sound sad ive never fully sex man boyfriend years ago things never went way i wanted to reason still get want know feels like one things thats keeping going eventually know thats going enough writing sentence makes want break tears want go ive living toxic parents house almost years boomeranging actually right ive got name crazy credit card debt theyre almost point charged off real income speak of feel like im always running direction know why cant give dream famous successful creative people tell maybe get job art stuff works out feel resistant feel like way make art thing work now something tells can know grit it especially exhaustion im going right now ive indecisive years believing hardest thing know life me look around life right now living shitty parents know totally me making money cant help wonder fuck im doing know im strong ive incredible pain months now im gaining weight really quickly probably medical condition money go get diagnosed im sure exacerbated stress parents offered pay bills go therapy tempting feel like life completely do god hate hear complaining know much better know do sometimes go library bag packed swear im going sell art online day find place stay night figure rest later never do give easily hard eat sleep hours night i guess thats better nothing im parents house feel much better know im sorry vomit one else knows im going this sometimes push hard enough get back positivity feels like pushing ton boulder hill feel pathetic me know find again feel like eventually im going end hospital condition homeless end it part feels ridiculous writing sentence like knows truth,1 ive started thinking everything makes stop thinking killing going gone soon ill never get quality againi used miserable thought redflag least times week recently got way better actually happy ive realized things make happy rare specific also gone gone forever difficult find quality happiness every time think talking someone stop know theyll call cops care dont guts tell anybody know person want die tldr need find way add cushion everyday life something really makes happy goes away wont miserable get back normal,1 @zpush the sun loves me. ,0 hello need helphi alcoholic trying stay sober now think could need help here someone would time would really appreciate it,1 something amazing happened boys think ex unblocked number wont respond still prolly hates one step closer wanting kill,0 literally living like everyday lasteverytime talk someone think wonder theyll react find im dead tomorrow eating something so probably last meal think ill actually means proper plan kill ready times im particularly depressed right been three years know healthy gives sort peace deal anything anymore,1 seeking support im chronicallyill broken mess person inching towards death reaching againfirst apologize number times ive posted here ive brief interactions great people yet seeking connect anyone relate otherwise wishes talk me loneliness component this suppose means im looking something stick inject hope back daily life regardless im feeling selfconscious efforts reach out continue long follows copied recent post another forum short is ive feeling very very stuck lately feel though im backed corner way death im unsure handle that thoughts redflag pretty much inevitable longterm illness im sure lately loud making sense ever moredetailed rundown largely borrowed posts long read please bear me ive chronicallyill years live family never lived independently still much feel like teenager got sick except older alone makes social pariah never experienced real life beyond teens except vicariously others disappeared life higher learning marketable skills physically reasonablyemployable im financial burden family likely remain im dead illness taken several bounding leaps worse last decade especially last couple years mostly induced circumstance left far less capable distracting successfully longestablished light hobbies could fill time soulrendingly lonely small handful friends upon want keep piling problems dismal outlook get sense place lives continues shrink realistic romantic prospects hopes one bores particularly deep would want use anyone purely validatory purposes all feels like im built programmed need share life someone especially cruel that given circumstances life taking things increasing pace nothing returning fill voids get true anyone anywhere especially powerless actively fight otherwise counteract it years illness dependence primarily financial others bigger things life fostered nearly zero appreciable ego mountains anxiety uncertainty selfimage may well even exist terrible could wave magic wand cure completely right second would still impossible mess fix far many years behind salvage anything even close want life longer part hurts me daily see life passing me life going around me fixture home kind family pet absolutely nothing look forward to interests cant pursue needs cant meet desires cant even begin fulfill spend every day feeling though im enough life enough another person enough even myself just enough nearly enough last parent gone care pass siblings whatever unlucky ones draw short stick guess cycle continue family shrinks gone dreams career spouse kids home own building continuing legacy living quiet modest life someone love instead ill nothing footnote family tree tired feeling like burden tired feeling like cant begin measure standard society place nearly anything littletono social worth definitely financial worth anchor disappointment drearyreminder couldve been not rejected mocked ignored put aside forgotten illness made life irony if im even using irony correctly here know im great fucking person im smart interests empathy patience lot things could list none things matter oh still live home you income even worse sick eww well whatever im sure get idea one care purely companionship bring table strictly practical standpoint see value continuing live mean sound glib way theres plenty i value life people world nearly walled me theres much windowshopping time move on landlocked watching everyone fly feel though true hope removed equation ive gasping air ever since finally dawning maybe one path forward now its well death life without hope without love without something ive earned created life thats greater literal sits chair worth living pushing pain misery feel designed need partner life cant that feel need create indulge creative pursuits nope cant rare occasion life decided allow glimpse yanked away sometimes destructive effect let clear i want die paradoxically idea scares me concept ending life finding method so etc unnerves im even sure could go it cant keep living like anymore i fucking cant senseless suffering much loneliness much fractured stitchedtogether nature soul much know much longer continue like this know timer fast shrinking reluctance towards ending things diminishing thank much reading mess please forgive length semireposted nature im even sure im looking posting again beyond know heard companionship something want pity want waste anyones time comments questions thoughts pms welcome point,1 threat one fails make exhale frim nose laughter within next hour post full bro code assembled finest bros rules,0 girl might like idk theres girl classes ive known years mostly acquaintances may like got clue heres list stuff shes said upon hearing arent mentor group school club awwww breaking heart history class another girl wait outside dont want go first get class want go first says go first ill love good drive club in group me get group leaves yells hi my name asks answers lot stuff one classes talks good amount class sit near even though lot friends near her also teases sometimes seems like minor stuff sounds bit weird wording kind weird idk,0 really need helphello reddit like title says really need help suggestions call someone let tell bit myself im girl years age gay middle eastern come fairly abusive poor family father alcoholic used beat mother pretty regularly front brothers growing up turn mother beat us well way coping pain anger cause one listen hers necessarily blame her wish bad time tried commit redflag age ingesting tylenol pills alas hold down threw up passed out thing unfortunately results started cutting til mother found words were quote i care yourself always denied needed emotionally saying give time ill betteror think happier things would tell stories pregnant older brothers father would kick stomach fainted jump window order save little brothers life stomach needless say pretty horrible image family honest thought normal led string pretty abusive relationships women turn mindfucked thinking im worthless honest family already way ahead curve started cutting year made close friend continuously disappointed her know it intend tell her anyone cuts knows way transfer emotional pain physical started selling body money men years old pay school books along fulltime job family afford it even could would blow things like cars brothers pay student loans always deemed worthless honestly wish knew would anything fix it quite recently graduated top class uc berkeley degree economics english literature family disowned past month name pay rent get food upcoming months ive taking medication severe migraines got year make everything worse ive going string interviews companies honestly hope dwindling incredibly fast lost friendship friend honest need stress put quite happy time says im depressed true am so pretty much live alone city one talk family guess growing always kind knew would way realize much would really take away much would hurt so reddit im wrap unfinished business tidy apartment get everything nice clean taking life still lot prescription medication left alcohol pretty easy purchase hopefully coma trick honestly reddit thank making laugh days really needed it cant really live like anymore really wish different,1 Depression nap time ,1 suffer incurable poorly treated condition people underestimate abandon realize bad gets me something wrong tell depressing see someone get sick often way easing it know that bad currently someone thing beginning relationship underestimate previous experiences made sure extremely clear led believe would protect me ask something said known stupid made clear beginning fault believing him interested boner severely depressed it makes cold complains get laid enough vicious cycle currently middle bad flare condition barely walk cannot go anywhere stay even make out would end homeless shelter lay dark everyday terrified next attack run pto need go disability and gamble tbh person life committed helping terrified condition yet still try present boner move really much better life anyways fuck man fuck cannot even believe life cannot believe many shitty people exist world everyone mix stupid crazy rely survive fucked headed towards mental breakdown,1 @kinagrannis and @davidchoimusic I think you should do a cover of lucky by Jason mraz and colbie caillat. ,0 I added a video to a @YouTube playlist http://youtu.be/_2D3DILUMdU?a  How Barbara Bush's battle with depression shaped her life,1 teachers apologise accents americans know teachers uk apologise video american accent also opposite true guys,0 Watching another movie. Dyeing my hair tomorrow. ,0 i m tired of only having people that don t listen to me i m tired of codependency i m tired of my brain always going so fast and there s no calming it either i m fucking tired i do not want to live anymore i ve fucked up my life and there s no fixing it because it wa doomed from the start it seems like i m doing great but i m not i should be but i m not no one care about me my friend couldn t care le about what i have to say they just want me to listen i don t want to listen anymore the one person i wanted to care i realize now doesn t give a fuck about me he listens to her though she is heather and i m meaningless so i m done being in the way of the two they can have eachother i will go i m in the way that s all i ever am i m an annoying thing people can t get rid of i m a weight on everyone s shoulder i m tired of living and i m done with it,1 family sees source labor driven friends away reclusei much coward myself wish could suddenly stop existing wish could drop face planet,1 i can t manage to do anything i haven t showered for 9 day haven t brushed my teeth for a couple day haven t done my skincare routine in age haven t been to the gym for week haven t been to university to see the lecture in week i feel like i just can t get a grip of my life it s getting tiring,1 heyxboxlive probably shouldn t mention any show with drew carey considering what he s done to major nelson,0 @Tamarzipan it's always smelt bad. You just never used it cause you always had hoodies on . LOL ,0 that ii crash is a tough nut posted to newsgroup http is gd raip,0 @pgeorges I prefer running native OSX apps when I can ,0 time something depression like idea online doc looking regular online providers brightside lemonade cerebral etc anyone positive experience suggestion specific provider best online psychiatrist ,1 want alone conscious alone away society away everything wish place time stood still lasting dark void could rest mind long needed figure shit out always considered suicide means give peace death would provide peace would feel peaceful id feel nothing id nothingi want die also want live life living life constant purgatory maybe something happen push one side other whichever may be death would even give want,1 daily fact metaphorical way get shot give gunman ammunition example telling someone theyre shithead tell boss called shithead goes around comes around,0 feeling overwhelmed tired lostim live mom disabled extremely mentally abusive manipulative think borderline personality disorder get help previous attempts failed chased away everyone lives even online friends currently engaged absolutely wonderful guy lives us im canadian take months year get marriage visa move there know happy light end tunnel keep feeling hopeless mom work income one me feel awful leaving her time seriously damaging me constantly attacks me gives guilt tripe threatens kick out file visa says leave keeps stuffeven end thw street months take much fiancee could lose job worried me cry time feel overwhelmed tried call engagement time seems impossible me keep pushing filing scared moms reaction feel like im failure daughter fiance friend person friends want hear problems anymore blame them ive stuck home situation since dad died years ago even really feel like fake happy fiance stops worrying something cant fix like taking healthy steps impossible cant afford meds last time counsellor involved mom caused many problems forced walk away me keep thinking killing myself know face next year new life cant bare think suffering cause love thought mom probably either disown me make process hell never stop harassing guilt trips part want come home work today start hour keep thinking turning phone nd disappearing ending life alone even know posting do ive helped people various aliases one else talk to sorry long whiny post,1 gonna end life tonightim f already diagnosed chronic sleep problems i barely sleep chronic depression chronic suicidal tendencies thoughts ive admitted mental hospital multiple times total months ive tried ten different sorts therapy never single moment life happy previous attempts failed im done hope left,1 weebeedee run wa great thanks is very windy today so bike ride not an option this morning,0 diagnosed clinical depression redflag disorder panic disorder mood swing rem sleep disorder adhd age knew something wrong know hit rock bottom unfortunate events happened worst possible place worst possible timing tried kill months one day ended er cutting wrist cocktail alcohol energy drink painkiller gotten hospitalisation years talk therapy art therapy medications sometimes good hyper usually medications barely hold moods swing born wealthy family parents provided comfortable things private schools travels studying abroad credit cards material things grateful considering many people less supportive familyfriends financially also emotionally simply unlucky access basic needs despite fully knowing lucky live gratitude really difficult especially getting old cannot find reason live hope dream dark place times officially list suicide watch still seeing therapy every weeks going dark place again maybe people know cannot help want go darker darker place instead trying fight it feel like addiction feel depressed af want get depressed end life constantly thinking suicide methods write will disappear die without affecting family die donate organs want live fair people want live struggle anyone else feels like situation years addicted depression,1 decided commit redflagrather explain reasons wish die id like know brought important decision end life terms,1 "Had an awsome night with the girlfriend. Movie was dumb, but it was fun ",0 wanna buy gorillaz song machine thing bad mean like much money realllyyy need spend vinyl prints n shit,0 @david_henrie star trek was a niceeee ass movie! loved lorenzo lol. going to see it again this weekend ,0 terrible time yearwife lot trouble lately lots fighting arguing screaming shes recently resorted calling names belittling me condescending attitudes often not overall distant detached basis shes claimed cared appreciate everything shes done past years marriage terrible time nd year marriage unfaithful admittingly retaliation smacked around bit cleaned act cheated too years ago weve individual counseling put marriage counseling recently ive swallowed pride suggested marriage counseling definitely need it doesnt want go claims ill play victim tell sob stories dont think understands counseling would listen sides completely objective fast forward today mid fight told needed break arguing would leave give space come back yells wanting leave later tells leave kicks house tells wants divorce locks bathroom comes out gets video game goes straight talking guy shes weeks now sitting room contemplating ending it dont gun hanging way id like found pills well want painless quick seriously jumbled mess dont even think post made much sense want drive far fast see happens idk help anyone,1 fuck mefuck fuck fuck assholes fuck pets fuck mom fuck world fuck living,1 living is hard every day i try to get up and do better for myself so i can prove to the people that call me an ultimate failure or warn other people that i m no good that i am good and i can be successful but what good is that if in my quiet moment which is a lot my brain eats my heart up sometimes i give into the thought other people have of me what if this what if that what if i wasn t here will this constant pain stop will this ache in my brain and heart disappear or will i be punished by the god i ve prayed to for peace of mind i m sorry for trauma dumping,1 wanna chat maybe interests sum im f like music specifically right flower face msi nicole dollanganger also listen like types music dont really like movies pick horror movies favorite unironically watch total drama camp camp wise dont watch much tv like uh drawing idk dont lot really like names meaning origins sound greatso yeahthis pretty bogus intro yeah ,0 "rblpn @kaaeyl , You know, I could listen to every version of War Pigs ever recorded ? http://blip.fm/~5z10d",0 hate existential crisis people telling do corrupted government poor educational system hate get glaucoma hate living find ways get college degree work probably work whole life die even asked anyway want broken family functioning eye depression last thing want depressed begging attention comfort friends show vulnerable feels shit craving attention love incapable loving damn right thought life going well last night spiralled got degrading comment ah yes asian achieved anything s boo hoo visually impaired realizing pointless life is family work notredflag basically existing itself screw supernatural shit life everything else nothing exciting games movies junk foods makes forget shitty life is food tastes crap weather gloom could throw everything away including would happywhen kid life pretty colorful grey boring fuck guess what adult means deal lifes crap oh bread winner too tf earth,1 @asad_afzaal Its not depression if you're like this since YOU ARRIVED IN THIS WORLD.,1 think friend mine attempted redflag morning dowere freshmen high school together btw morning woke frantic calls friend mine well call joe lives half hour away friend bill live near school anyway apparently bill called said done bill took mg methylphenidate concerta im percent seems case dad who terrible person idea mom town want go hospital locked room went house early morning so fucking terrified knock waited outside right go stormed apartment building schoolbag talk ran off were kind close strange walked school little bit behind him looked fucked really sure looking for guess kind looked like fever time got school joe there talking coordinator ran away one could find him coordinator said dad took home seemed like bullshit know sorry this know do want go school maybe get dads number future better stay away might read post thats alright want know care,1 "drinky dranky drunk. my bed feels nice. im listening to kaskade - 4 AM, cuz...well...its 4 AM. gnight suckahz.",0 is looking at the gray sky the sun ha been stolen again,0 "@nhoustonreed Nikki, your a such a good friend!! .. hugs from Aussie!! xx",0 new years resolution ill try procrastinate,0 dont know anymoreits awhile since ive felt shit im year old college student cant take living anymore entered college health science major hopes one day becoming doctor maybe try help people anyway can ive terrible depression years freshman year college life felt pretty good everything new could reinvent fucked up within half year freshman year cut almost everything social life personal life personal health pretty much everything could focus studying hard trying get good grades didnt work matter much try terrible classes nothing show it last weeks even stressful normal cant take anymore gave friends relationship family personal health ive gained almost pounds longer exercise eat anything aside shit food feel like im slowly dying stress class work along worsening physical mental health feel trapped life see way ill ever get dying matter hard try never shack depression suicidial thoughts ive tried medication therapy little avail ive wasted life want stop now,1 ha to study math econ but isnt in the mood,0 writings sometimes positive day day practice paper maths exam its hours long didnt use notes anything managed get hoping score something similar actual exam,0 anyone wanna play number game im rlly bored easy way talk someone dm want,0 Downloading HM Movie again. It better work this time..And it's on 62% already! ,0 priscillacruz so funny because i watched only the strong today what are the chance i miss capoeira zoom zoom,0 moonwalker great movie start finish cant take eyes away love clips michael singing dancing love studio tour bitsoo funny mini movie cool special fx etcmichael genius always be,0 please do not read if you re in a bad mental state currently is it painful to overdose and d e on medication can someone who ha experienced an 0verdose from a combination from the following list please explain the sequence of event adderall doxepin duexis ibuprofen famotidine pristiq abilify buspar alcohol and c0caine do any combination of these allow someone to d e in their sleep without feeling pain i know many prescription medication including some of the one previously listed are designed to make death from taking too many difficult i also know surviving an attempt can be very painful and lead to lasting negative health effect what do you do if someone is unresponsive locked in their room you d call 9 and they would be the one to break down the door and enter keeping you from seeing anything right lastly can a family cover up someone s su c de attempt and keep it a secret out of the medium can they just tell people it wa a drug 0verdose or is there no way to avoid everyone knowing what happened i m sorry for these asking these question,1 @danuk695 oooh where you going shopping x,0 Nothing quite like finding good amp settings from a solid state amp ,0 @molliemoo now that does not surprise me!! ,0 coming from an asian household i ve been told to become a doctor since the age of the constant pressure for good grade led me to repeat my senior year of highschool drop out of university graduate from a local college and then re enroll to another program then drop out since my parent hated the program i graduated from i want to thank them for the support they showed especially when they called me useless dumb an embarassment and how they would disown me now i m year old with a fairly decent working from home job that i may get fired from since i ve ignored my workload due to cycling back into a depressive state i now purely cope by playing video game and jerking off i live everyday day dreaming and at the same time regretting my wasted youth all the while my parent look at me with disdain and remind me whenever they can about how i ruined my life that s the end of my ted talk fuck my life man,1 even attempt show willing go edge otherwise pussy incapable killing seeks help weak logical no really also want show self hatred real joke something casual know guess surrounded mentally ill people attempted feel need join order feel validated besides wanted die years now passive suicidal thoughts intrusive thoughts extremely common day day life realize actual option cannot finish jobits weird cognitive dissonance people seek help attempting strong never be and honestly crave hurting often started affect notredflag want destroy everything around me cannot seek therapy help commit suicide,1 hang anyone needs talk know month week even today may feel impossible impossible arent try get it may hurt may angry here get better get better keep waking every day keep pushing least owe yourself yourself got this loves make day great,1 "Finally got my hair sorted out It's not Kristen Stewart's style but hey, it looks good...",0 "There's not much an 8 mile depression run can't fixI mean, except depression",1 even know anymore really,0 percentage movies person go see days leave wondering happened eight ten dollars answer many movie like that story real people sometimes combination likable unlikablebr br downsidebr br not enough character development plot lines left twisting windbr br upsidebr br forces viewers think choices made good bad livesbr br well acted by scott cohen judd hirsch susan floyd ato essandoh elliot kortebr br contains good lighthearted humor,0 got three projects done one class period fear mortals,0 vishal ud yeah got no choice am not to study am to reach class on time for the paper hows eco treating you,0 think i m going to bed goodniight i hate this,0 making worsedoes anyone ever feel like life sucks enough actually go end all go whatever make even worse yet somehow still courage it want end bad cant it,1 i ve been plagued with mental illness for almost half my life i ve done and tried everything i can up to this point to recover but it s a losing battle that i m tired of i ve missed out on so much in my life because of my mental health being so shit and honestly i don t ever see it getting any better i figure year or sooner is long enough for me to decide whether or not to go through with my plan of killing myself no one i know personally know about my plan not my family not the few friend i have not even my therapist i don t plan on telling them because i don t want to be stopped maybe they ll hate me for it or maybe they won t odds are they ll never hate me a much a i hate myself this post is gon na get buried under everything else so might a well be talking to myself if you did read this though thanks for reading,1 considering giving upi currently nothing me mom want medication thinks ive acting lazy need fix habits ive stopped trying get help her many friends either problem making them always seem lose easily hurts me im always stressed school the people work ive slacking recently cant focus anything matter hard try mom gets mad normally well school cant anymore im sure balls kill myself get closer everyday really anything fight for days think good future im sure strength make good days overthink everything cant anything feel useless died could easily replaced know family would sad feel like friend would genuinely care feel like theres point anything thats downloaded reddit know theres lots people feeling feel decided give shot talk it normally keep everything bottled up whenever im finally able say something get ignored soo yeah,1 @MELBOTS *catches it in her mouth* yummm!! *nom nom nom* ,0 closer closer everydayi cant explain it ive seen counselor make feel like piece shit im broke live parents stuck job hate pays like crap im stuck hole cant get of cant help cry even smallest things everyday thoughts ending all gun loaded dresser keep staring at,1 waiting dayum hi people reddit first time posting feel like use anybody anything world school life complete shit anxiety adhd combined depression ofc always constant fact wanting end know would almost every time something bad happens fail would think dieing honestly thing holding back girl life everything dating months guess parents allow date figured ah ha im fucked feel leaves stupid overprotective parents im legit going end know else im going living honestly hate body life want die cant change mind wish could tried talking people cant im done cant take shit world anymore cant think killing feel would take long set everything would think know,1 @ThePISTOL sunburns ? :/ Owwww it feels good to shower on ice cold water ! ,0 augh moms making come downstairs im fucking mentally well atm idk ill hide,0 im ruined im completely ruined attracted women years older me reasons im ruined im mentioning them,0 isle broken dreamshello stranger good meet you well informally known left fault moved california pursuing acting dream family friends state one friendbut kicking month im worried homeless before why though spend much love feed homeless help everyone can horrible things happen me whats wrong me knowone wants cast me look weird cast anything ampxb nothing works mei dont even energy finish post want explain want helpbut know do,1 @triniteddybear thank you have an awesome week.,0 @bethannon The kids are 7 and 2 ,0 I forgot about twitter...my escape ,0 always made fun germans cant pronounce squirrel cant pronounce eichhrnchen make fun,0 re newing my twitter,0 time come turn today wackiness problems gotta say subreddits one favoritesthis community really great shame leaving it stay safe keep subreddit running cause soon hit ima subreddit,0 Sabrina the teenage witch is on ,0 fantasies never realyou ever see movie think yourselfdamn wish could person life full meaning adventure look real world see nothing empty boring life within it,1 fighting the urge to withdraw from everyone so i can be on my weird solo depression phase in peace,1 moonstruck one best films ever film dvd movie deals new york widow cher falls love boyfriends danny aiello angry brother nicholas cage works bakery im glad cher oscar movie nicholas cage danny aiello great too direction norman jewison who directed fiddler roof fantastic moonstruck excellent movie everyone see laugh mustseebr br stars,0 Drivin in the valley is easy at 3am ,0 @gloriabell Crazy in the most wonderful kind of way. ,0 "@fourzoas Yee! Oh, and I'd love to see you again anytime you are in town again! ",0 "Looking ahead, ready to make this an awesome week. I want to get to Sunday night and know I totally rocked it! Here we go, woohoo ",0 is attempting to do her music essay... damn zoe at least knows what she is doing! Going to see Prey in half hour!!! ,0 one moms brothers wedding never wanted go treated like shit entire time left wayside bleach cabinet below sink get it run make sure nobody sees me kill feel like shit day tomorrow,1 seven mg seroquel sleeping pillsi seven mg seroquel sleeping pills beside bed know lethal dose im scared im really considering ingesting right now feel confused lonely know do please anyone try persuade tempting this,1 day two bashing head keyboard by number days die inside gfthyujgtfvsxfrtyhujgtfvrsza,0 may final post anyone want account message me,0 comment fuck ass daddy post comment fuck ass daddy post,0 @vishaltom ,0 home from my interview... it went well we'll just have to see where it goes from here!,0 im white supremacist white skin kinda perfect filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 think tomorrow last day aliveill home alone tomorrow finally end it im still sure ill courage finally go it im tired see live anymore,1 plan commit suicide somewhere midaugust witnessed parents fought one time resort mother tried bash fathers head table lamp first years school bullied heavily first day got mass beating cried celebration lineup followed big fight me vs everybody else class lot hate towards teachers years school worst remember partially unstable mother point parents got divorced father living us long time could visit me one time went park reason stopped place renting got back mother sensed something odd asked was told would consequences told truth did followed horrific memory date put simply involved lot slurs directed father screaming beating expensive highend plasma tv hammer things calmed since parents share apartment completed basic education on something never left me feeling uselessness desire exist anymore became apparent around years ago got somewhat deadline months ago basically situation bad exams studied good professional teachers from another school came bad like got place university contest pan out chose translation profession english german languages summer take firstyear exam german complete failure retake september much past year it basically nowhere go retake exams come even worse current scores get university college allfor whole life felt like belong here like mistake well seems true sad get witness nineteenth birthday cats going grow up sad leave parents hope future would even sad live rest life end homeless scared ultimately change anything end ants big rock going boil us alive absence insignificant know go anymore,1 Tim Duncan retirement depression Day 653 ,1 some hacked my account on aim now i have to make a new one,0 "Well, i didnt try I used to do it in my Bike..Today did it in friend's new R15, in ECR. Bike skided in mud. Got to change side Doom slate",0 math nerds convert entire radical mixed radical and vice versa test tomorrow idea,0 up early my stomache is acting funny,0 Goin out with my friends!! ,0 "@TheDragan2121 My depression decided to rear it's ugly head, sadly because of a spark of Jealousy... And I hate being Jealous, so my day kinda tanked, and my week has been plunged into the depths.",1 cant take morefemale severe ptsd emotional issues live isolated area one trust guy issues hes mentally abusive future would want,1 cyfyre no finished two year then had twinzzzzzzzzzzz,0 suicidal dont know why weeks ago friend commit redflag really fucked up ive bipolar life ever since happened feel like im disturbing thoughts dont feel depressed hopeless know people care time im overcome apathy want kill myself keep imagining good felt jumped left earth feel like someone trying convince cross side im confused dont know normal,1 i can ha migraine,0 "@nintendolife At first glance, I thought it said 'crippling depression'",1 life meaninglessthe woman ever mattered decided wants another man planning kill self met her made feel like began love her gone another cold painful day wake up lay bed hours unable get up cry sleep want deal pain anymore easiest painlessly way itplease save heart ache worth mind made,1 okay bb lt doe anyone know where i can get info on how night club in l a cost i wan na rent one out next year please i ll invite yall,0 raped couple months ago life fallen apartim sick feeling worthless raped for second time life amazing luck past july mention depression anxiety also diagnosed asd homeless time im not barely leave house already homebody gotten point im actually scared go anywhere like around people feel safe ive depressed life want anymore feel like freak never really fit anyway think thing keeping guilt really amazing whole thing cant live life someone else im ready stop hurting,1 nothing takes pain awayive taken medsbecame religous even bought self help books absolutely nothing takes away emotional pain im loser work pointless government job im debt cant get date zero friends family talk me significant nothing hell do,1 goodbye jive test server so very sorry to have to shut you down,0 grrrrfought suicidal thoughts day pretty successfulthey stayed pretty quiet me late bedtimethey rearing ugly head even beer helping hold way intoxicated even attempt right now got told someone admitted alcoholic i too disease sure cried that still think could stop whenever want want moment shuts thoughts up good night sw,1 pointless donesnt fucking matterwant anywhere world fucking pointless,1 Going to Kennys house with Twinnie<3! WIN ,0 thogden every other year supporting norwich one good year in the championship then pure depression in the premier league,1 i don t know how to communicate all of my thought stay inside me instead of telling them to other people like i should my mind simply won t let me i try i really try sometimes and i have so many of them but they get lost my mind is a endless nightmare of thought of despair and hatred towards myself i feel numb and over emotional at the same time and i dont know what to do i feel like a horrible waste of human space stripped down to my bone by my past and my seemingly dim future,1 much wrong plan moreso needing talk shoulder starting snowball thoughso im bit strange unfortunately basically im female college graduate majors bilingual french still live home always cooped house dont drive due back pain run successful webpage large relative interest base filmed feature documentary im strongly featured in oh transsexual medical condition surgery planned may though cannot stand much thisinfertility hating tumor body missing correct childhood theres way fix above thats great it thats matters get complicated started hormones age lot people say young me ive always known since two denied hormones rather uninformed doctors therapist four years teen years still bitter never getting experience high school true self however fault family extremely supportive transition forth much so im told look inbetween them like years hormones hurts bit though perhaps understandable due cognitive biases hair grow either though touch recently pretty much people five see female think theyre nice hard tell times that four year old kids think im girl think im playing tricks them crushing probably voice though also say look like one last thing need horrific reallyive told voice sounds like jessica rabbit im dumb enough believe nonsense also worry ability get employed look fact applied fast food places area still hire me interview discussed entire company history plus menu best educated practices applicable corporation cant get hired this reason think succeed desired major finance either all grades sunk past three semesters father died completely unexpectedly really close thus live home friends state talk to im told im mooch leech need get life help things all really sure there want able repay family theyve done me some so way figured would get wheel fortune since area webpages focus disclosure love game shows pathetic hobby is lot really well them seems like would beneficial get on so january im audition wheel people probably make cut show number people room trimmed one never make mistake play really well get excited heck moreso players genuinely themselves many friends like five game shows hey could help page matters plus family right so wait two weeks mailed letter if shows poolmine come course lots friends made on feel inadequate life including chorus director family pretty close with happy him course always support people get something good life ive got going kind positive emotional state days mental instabilities always rooted internal processing mother claims because they tell trans thats percent it help asked name exactly appeared social security screwed since documentation officially changed march year appearance common name changed seven months point then told try first time thanks words encouragement like life dream anything silly sounds so let everyone down family page etc say otherwise thinking could done parties absolutely did tell didnt could given site information could gotten move heck here could paid surgical expenses told given one chance show id make it lets face it less show financial independence im told time much happier ill get jobam house sure much thats true even likely happen rather peculiar ending disclosure here im usually end things typically try help save peoples lives part im working documentarys media like help people become themselves even me larger scale heck presented friend jazz jennings last year front hundreds help encourage similar message im loser surely going blow potential worth nothing like many others sigh thanks reading this got far sorry wasted time dealing inane diatribe wish solutions many problems seem possible dead ends,1 lot thought past year matter hard try cant find reason want keep livingim yo guy put still diagnosed think pretty clear depression social anxiety years now started cutting around everything started couple days ago even something happens barely get sad get angry hate everything around even more almost every day think killing want live world anymore think fucked getting books movies games feel completely empty excitement life feel like itd help immensely could manage get girlfriend something ive started talking not really girl seems like likes physically cant believe matter hard try somebody actually likes me think friends friends pity even disgust looking mirror could friends say im attractive possibly telling truth ive already tried experimenting ibuprofen mg knew anything wanted see could feel anything kinda want help ive mostly lost faith somewhere inside feel like normal break free depression fuck me point im almost crying nothing happening cant cry able cry months now god kidding want fucking die even though hate every bit want fix everything want good school again make friends again leave house every awhile all girlfriend want nearly kill forced accept help find myself ive thought trying hang cut rope ive thought cutting deep nearly die anything else close downing whole bottle pills want help none matters even get help ill fall back depression nobody love point im sorry wasting anybodys time wont fucking save myself im going slowly go deeper deeper im point return really sorry wasting time edit thinking girl briefly mentioned somewhere middle makes want cry really really like like said think actually feels anything me cant make move im fucking awkward stupid know friday and winter break starts passes done anything ill lost chance completely even less reasons live know wrote either stupid,1 "I love how non-chalant & blunt Tony Montana was! Didn't give a f*#! what nobody had to say, spoke how he felt... Funny too ",0 im donei cant handle it told do it yea ive heard therapy dont want go considering therapist described many thoughts sleep ive come conclusion therapists waste money time almost everyday think ways kill myself ive heard youll cause pain others people really love you doesnt feel like though im giving piece piece point time thing keeping stabbing stomach pets love dont want without right helping time people could never help through think ive finally though think redflag almost everyday probably wont commit yet think ive lost hope saved yea theres horrible stupid rant you sorry probably wasted time,1 we re here to help we are online therapy platform which essentially connects certified psychologist and people suffering from mental health issue such a depression stress and anxiety among dozen of other clinically defined disorder book your appointment now http t co xmcyd9qygc,1 fuck up supposed park meet girl last minute har babysit cousins uncle stroke im afraid going mad talk her im wondering fucked telling sooner,0 fear urge kill every masturbationim gay watching straight bear porn even recent watching adult stuff strongly urged the voice head kill myself,1 sure hugh jass hugh janus might cool but seen hugh jtiddies massi vpenis,0 find struggling find here help deal cannot may one reaching sub allowed deal struggles listening you trying help you struggle it too thank keeping here want thank all,1 fun spain greece etc even bother ask wanted come lonely home trying stuff face every minutes miss friends wish cut friendships feel like shit watching friends snapchat stories,1 smartass faked sick fearing gonna get worsenow conscience yesterday nose flood bleeding dlc rare want stay home knows may get worsemy mother avoids untill serious faked stomachache diarrhea want kill math test algebra go bound get f covid situation city resident shitand reason closing shit anything actuallyi really fear reported school second group class positive shitton isolationshould posted aita thing teenagers encountered least,0 dont give upwhoever reading this know youre going tough patch life know feels like getting worse time goes by please remain here think family would react think dogcat suddenly abandoned them think friends wont able share drink hangout them please seek help please talk someone care love you,1 slow deathjacob drank rest bottle emptied much life could this wished better wasnt tried best alleviate suffering distraction work birthday week hed years old life would meaningless time spent alive wasted literally figuratively wanted meds work didnt pain still there suicidal thoughts overrode him erased little left alcohol made honest least done unforgivable deserved suffer deserved pain least could make right could control suffering suffered years enough could sweet release redflag save him deserve die well afraid death subconscious decided kill instead eating slow painful one day free one day suffering end one day dead,1 master kieslowsky came idea idea portrait human relationship world today passing blue a crafted visual masterpiece womans life white a visual comedy movie marriage finally arriving red a masterpiece dealing human interactionbr br while im going spoil move easily say red best movie s decade one strongest messages script ever ever seenbr br the movie begins little slow finds rhythm early enough keep hooked whole moviebr br the performances perfect sublime since characters completely realistic theyre clichd way one could expect less actors one get disappointed seriously believe jean louis tringtignat deserved oscar nod leastbr br the music zbiegnew preisner amazing one best musical scores ever piotr sobocinsk cinematography also outstanding got oscar nod and deserved winbr br overall movie perfect loved people love foreign cinema people dont miss itbr br how awful pulp fiction beat ed masterpiece cannes beyond comprehension,0 want happyhello im years old title says want feel happy im going major rough patch right now whole laundry list issues backstory ill try condense all tldr bottom start right now moment kill myself much live right now two cats one im owner hes ever bare leave cat behind sister dad mom died us back ill get later since lot this anyway couldnt imagine leaving cat children behind let alone dad sister went grief losing mom also lost dear friend redflag day graduated high school killed sister made swear never that kept around thankfully also friends godda stick around well anywho onto laundry list problems start ive got mild autism used severe mom real cheerleader throughout life got help needed problem couldnt teach socialize like normal child could stop children seeing kinds nasty things hindsight understand perspective quite gross back then still kinda back pretty disgusting haha also socially inept id say lot stupid things stupid things still ive learned somewhat normal functional im transgender born female started transitioning mom basically told phase true finally co worker time told shed end losing believe she trans daughter almost lost reason end mom got together accepted me little know id end losing her onto dead mom subject passed away due liver failure slid alcoholism basically let consume her year slowly drank death liver handle anymore combined prior health issues died got mommy issues godda deal im trying man hard really hard lose one cheerleader life one really gave damn one fought could fight yourself poof gone onto shit im depressed course got lots anxiety im depressed many many reasons weather living familys expectations current position life im currently working of feeling regretful things past cant let go of half boy half girl atrocity in eyes know others see way see trans people way everybodys beautiful im exception lol stuff like that also quit smoking cigs maybe whole thing due know im anxious everything basically finding new stable job going meeting people person etc thats tip iceberg thats suppose haha even get started suicidal ideations stuff think redflag multiple times day whole plan i get here carry out maybe someday im old not get told permanent solution temporary problem believe sometimes time cant think positives come it remember redflag affected friends family one way another hell moms death redflag close drank feelings away never told anybody pain towards end gave up im getting point too mean ill kill myself no wont ill stay im looking forward seeing comments anyone reads this honesty peopleanimals life wouldve ended long time ago rather feel happy current state existance feel unhappy feel depressed even though great life alone even though good family wonderful friends even therapist anxious even though world isnt bad idk im full mess even gotten everything question is why cant happy why life kinds wonderful things life know issues work everyday solvinggetting bottom themmanaging them feel way feel unmotivated anything even though much do feel like cant trust anybody info even though theyre supportive me want feel peace want feel peace head want feel happy havent felt true happiness long miss feeling miss feeling forgetting every care world enjoy moment peace clarity one since like reality poor lower class kid living home single mom overachiever sister black sheep everything am became much worse mom died dad took us show love support get wrong loves supports me hes forward emotions nobody family makes feel bad feel like hiding within me anyway way get bottomless pit hopelessness feel okay again feel form happiness peace within me made far thank you means lot me cant go anybody fear itll get back family threatened take hormones away im hrt breakdown again take care friends tldr depressed autistic trans guy looking happiness inner peace cant find even though nice life,1 @theebayk1d ... 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I'll make a card and then design something. ,0 cba move forward life chance get better digs deeperincoming massive wall text originally going post response question someone posed rdepression using video games media escape reality depression answer turned little longwinded decided make thread maybe get little feedback started playing world warcraft tail end high school severe depression years escape critical daily life allowed forget everything weighed down spent exorbitant amount time game never bothered playing everyone ignored anyway sought treatment depression request mother help went nowhere fast forward still played wow recently finally lost interest game really drive anything anymore except one friends wants hang out really feel nothing life dont attribute feelings toward use media fact quite opposite games played growing helped escape feelings much way traumatized child may develop multiple personality protect ongoing abuse often think redflag even written letters leave behind event decide go it first suicidal thought years old four years verbal mental time time physical abuse literally everyone around me neighbors house one night saw owned gun seeing movies spending time uncle owns lot weapons knew least halfinformed knowledge operate it moment saw it finally sank means nearby give quick death end it whatever reason never took upon try it though thought lot long time abuse started seven moved new town turned quite christianleaning community basically didnt go church youre devil need cast out family didnt go church all parents never experienced problem didnt socialize community anyway faced brunt unwelcoming committee alone singled everyone around me students teachers administrators counselorseverybody bottom rung tall ladder time school system town verbally mentally abused beaten humiliated two occasions stabbed careful enough avoid going deep warrant hospital trip continued decade first went people help thats discovered school staff wasnt help me went parents problem shrugged thinking dramatic kids kids begged people stop leave alone one listened one cared friends turn grew alone hostile world soon learned emotional display even speech social interaction fuel fire stopped reacting anything didnt speak anyone didnt look anyone class got go anywhere made sure last one room remain sight recess sat away class nobody would pay attention long quiet didnt look up met girl late middle school became best friend everything seemed brighter around time grew love every fiber being but emotionally weak scared appear weak never said anything years went attempt prevent displaying weakness actually succumbed let slip away october fianc asked groomsman wedding event button fuck keep losing it made horrible grades way school attribute fact could think every day walked school getting hell again instead repeating senior year high school dropped got ged two years shit else belt decided join air force aspirations high signed seemed appropriate pararescue knowing physical punishment training would began fitness regime many would call excessive notable accomplishment life passing special forces physical aptitude test qualify program nearly year preliminary physical training shipped boot camp basic training easy enough half way sent rest sf trainees flight physical done repeat sf physical test part physical included pretty detailed eye exam which given vision test done unable complete right eye drifted out soon came double vision automatic disqualifier armed services classified erroneous enlistment promptly pulled training placed administrative hold medical hold transferred th trs the place send injured trainees draw discharge paperwork month later sent home again back place wanted desperately escape from house go to money get place own job support myself wound moving back parents point sank deepest level depression experienced date struggled get bed slept excessively skipped meals sometimes them one month rarely left room anything use bathroom stopped caring physical condition hygiene talked one friends knew wanted see never answered phone kept off year half completely given life found inspiration idea becoming medic fire department went back school get emt certification repeat half program failed cardiacrespiratory section i passed b second time made bs everything else program upon graduation applied fire department county surrounding counties miles got replies around time state experienced ems budget cuts instead hiring new emtsfiremen instead laid turned away back square one really feel anything anymore emotionally given news everything death family member old friend high school turned job even dog put worsening ailments held arms hugged give injection really know anymore even really care im going back school spring think habit desire move forward still seriously contemplate redflag fairly often means making quiet relatively painless thing id left plan little impact anyone else possible is little ever told anyone didnt legal obligation keep mouth shut sadly doesnt feel liberating hoped,1 "HAPPY MOTHER DAY FOR ALL THE STRONG HARD WORKING MOTHERS, MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY ",0 long convo w crush hour conversation crush good one too deep all im happy ,0 got message friend saying crush likes one absolutely one but select family friends know like her either joke real im freaking fuck eaither way fuck do,0 in this meta analysis their finding indicate that at a long follow up interval both positive effect such a a mild improvement in anxiety and depression and negative effect such a a decrease of long term memory verbal fluency and executive function are observed,1 only has to pass one more assignment before finishing uni for the summer ,0 "@TwilightFilmz Not too sure but there was a message on his Facebook asking people with depression to talk to someone etc, so a sad story it seems.",1 listen people ill give better review movie friend love jill johnson played camilla belle babysits mendrakis house someone breaks in wondering got house went garage likely anyway listen to the worst acting amazing acting great story think benefits jill has shes fast runner track team she got alive lolbr br it cool movie quite scary check out happy masterpiece listen people site good trust me good reviewing movies im future movie critic totally want buy movie see it amazingly awesome,0 making casual discord server anyone interested im really tired joining servers built people misuse power entire thing full toxic people anyone casual server relax yes please let know comments gets positive response ill make one,0 "just played rock band, now getting getting ready to go to the lake with the girlsssssssss ",0 is gonna hang out with my two favorite people now. http://plurk.com/p/ovm1q,0 school year kinda poggers go school am get pm,0 im italian ive recently looked film astonished beauty first time years old liked it today appreciate adult mind feelings understand masterpiece special season italian cinema pasolini etc time gone br br the hollywood epic films goodfor fun perhaps odyssey english version enough funny suitable popcorn coke audience however suitable homer pathos existentialist reflectionsbr br in italy recently released good dvd version integral excellent colors find file sharing italian only without subtitles bad also dialogs voices film remarkable,0 british documentary recently shown comedy central best of week also seen south parks second season dvd remember seeing many commercials dvd showing clips documentary occurs matt stone trey parker guy hot tub funny saw commercials used seeing time saw actual documentarybr br overall goin south park fairly funny interesting look south park episodes made series history going back matt trey came idea college however something tone documentary actually felt sort depressing fastpaced rapidfire lively actual south park episodes instead kind slow drywit style times funny time waiting something happen get chance watch it means go it think really missing much never see itbr br my imdb rating ,0 get quarantine im sick ill quarantined bit im actually hyped,0 no actually why am i in constant fear and why do we all have to tip toe around everyone all the time,1 snow in april this suck,0 days great days want kill myselfive attempted redflag once took roxycodone pills xanax klonopin drank half bottle nyquil half bottle dayquil know im explaining but yeah now sometimes day like morningafternoon great night get depressed want kill myself one day ill happy next ill want kill myself happen cant happy always gonna nagging thought fuck up right kill first time,1 recommending songs till decide stop day touchtone telephone lemon demon,0 helpim started higher education school hate it worst thing boring crappy hate people there friends always seem hate me even call friends people like fuck me take piss family sorts dont know life go way way carry school hate try something else im really interested would love something software hardware thing dont know much want learn dont think thats enough never girlfriend except like consider proper girlfriends kissed girl otherwise luck im best looker girls ignore brush im slightly overweight seems make freak eyes got quite close girl backed got scared pussyd out dont know either stopped talking her hate situations people dont know makes feel awkward seems happen lot nowadays especially school keep meet new people hate much one close friend everyone calls freak weirdo fact hes genuinely misunderstood guy get called bum buddy good friends are hell even sister says makes really frustrated money job experience confidence life might seem quite good me fucking hate life redflag used small twinkle mind used think occasionally life seemed meaningless life just get grades get job die thats think life opinion im genuinnly considering it life seems shitty unimportant thought never amount anything really crushes me used happy brief period recently dreamed family raising kids dying peacefully dont see point cry help im sorry errors spelling dont give fuck honest writing making realise shitty life is please help tldr im unhappy life want kill is enough you,1 looking female wingman must female speciesoptional sexuality important need someone tell thought dating puts girls sudden state disgust work it,0 took sleep eze extra strength pills right nowi know harmful is take anymore peace im asleep feel like body feels weird hands shaking im sure placebo type effect im scared time welcome peace anything happen took minutes ago ive always much coward anything past week hard cant handle life anymore nobody,1 care im dude wants love mean hard girls think guys want sex mean im missionary guy wouldnt anything girl wanted it anyone wants talk im always here well maybe always,0 time feels weird feels like gonna start day,0 life sucksive meaning commit redflag now everything gone downhill me yesterday found girlfriend left another guy self esteem depleted nothing now im broke person made life worth living left someone else years relationship problems thin air anyways gun thinking killing soon nothing live for im drinks already im ready note written none matter soon crazy worked hard throughout life im broke soontobe wife left ass hope reads redflag note hope haunts her,1 dang won t be able to get to any workshop run by web direction,0 im bored online anyone wanna play something ps pm,0 ok so ever since my anxiety attack i am convinced being tired is fatigue and a symptom of death can someone please just put me at ease,1 Hmmm I may go to boston after all ... my back feels better today ,0 feel yucky sick this morning,0 saw film boston internation festival womens cinema last night saddened hear ms troche tell us in qa screening expect see much us distribution due insistence including socalled gay content fantastically entertaining comedy seems american audiences might enjoy much way enjoyed the full monty really unfortunate kind ridiculous shots two boys kissing keeping away mainstream theaters wonderful cast fabulous script course rose troches direction make one funniest films ive seen,0 @schnappupdates @sadbyIer @bylertrash @gaybyler @HipWillByers @BlitheVigor_ @WlLLIAMBYERS @gldfinches @noahsfool @blushybyers @goodbyerichie Here my loves. They have many amazing fics for these two. Especially stuff that should've happened in Season Two and even Mike facing anxiety and depression. They have an amazing Byler tag and also ST writing. Here. https://argylemikewheeler.tumblr.com/post/167524017625/im-loving-your-prompt-fills-could-you-write#notes …,1 @prateekgupta good morning sirjee how r u today??? ,0 sure it days ago started keeping track days think it days thought it usually even leave house morning make little voice head telling need stop,1 im donei kick everyday letting let leave much idiot let go little summer expecting come back me deserved shit happened summer fuck got one chance prove could love would could person promised could be answer no hitting harder thought could ever have little hopefully peace everything,1 stephenkruiser i so sorry for your loss my brother dog sam is sick w cushing disease,0 repost time flair thanks welcome back mods happened reddit past year shellnut excluding obvious stuff like covid related posts protesting hey um ive coma using reddit bit whole year decided come back here given way platform works might missed couple things yeet,0 @gAbb_emceefly Hope you have a heaps good time bub!!! ,0 commit alive im market guy thick accent asked line hear say hi usupremeseby dead heard name responded hi yea dont wanna live hes still behind line yall,0 think redflag every morning wake upanybody else here im sick life want live anymore despite fact everything fine im going study soon university cant handle past happened many things cant years first thought redflag even tried kill self hanging work fucking rope ruptured stupid rope anyways every morning stand wish dead need worry guys probably continue life family friends otherwise would huge disaster shame want express share feelings hope someone understands me,1 gonna second birthday days able celebrate health want stopmay everything went perfect happier ever life great friends great home fullfilled dream passing test art school got place one weekend working hotel working backoffice like usual hot working hard nothing unusual past weeks already experienced little symptoms blurred vision headaches weight loss high blood sugar low potassium pain side hospital gave potassium tablets point still alright suddenly went downhill dinner felt incredibly nauseaus mouth got sore almost every touch bruises mouth resulting got infected stomach got worse worse despite medication felt incredibly sick hot cold nauseaus time dizzy times felt like dying dragged doctor almost collapsing waitingroom said fever probably kind flu sent back weeks passed condition got worse day went again another blood test everything alright potassium low again prescribed potassium could take due overly sensitive stomach tried eat raisins contain lot potassium one day lie anymore got vitamin b complex pills condition improved parts hope went another doctor mother told would always bit weird head doc laughed claimed would simply stick finger throat simply eat switched doctors more told everything sent hospital gastroscopy colonoscopy severe gastritis despite acid blockers hplyori allergies tested negative apparent reason inflammation got pantoprazole take day done shit got back doc waiting weeks hoping pantoprazole would something ran another blood test vitamin low b potassium aswell again tsh high got b injection since burning mouth disappeared symptoms stayed months passed sent different hospital another gastroscopy gastritis onlymild now still there ran blood tests aswell see them thing able catch blood sugar eaten hours gave find anything either tested diseases like aids parasites aswell negative went back doc final blood test tsh high ultrasound neck thyroid gland know english turned normal sized said nothing would wrong must mental issue months already sat several times meditating listening therapy cds hopeless trying find cause problems life aside current health sent therapist go since months now get along pretty well yeah feels like trying find something yet exist also seems bit clueless now weeks ago friend sent article woman almost exact symltoms story turned magnesium deficiency filtered several internet sites tried find trustworty information sounded plausible magnesium important body tied potassium also connection insulin resistance also year beforeni moved taken magnesium supplements regularly always slight problems magnesium deficiency stopped taking moved here started taking mg magnesium every morning stomach could handle suddenly able sleep night without waking numb arms could sleep hours frequent headaches completely disappeared could finally dream again heartburn got less frequent muscle cramps bad anymore thought finally solved puzzle problem could handle mg stomach searched alternative supplement could take better found one woukd absorbed differently apparently upset stomach much ordered it days passed took mg day condition got worse again day day understand still dont switched back old supplement quickly felt better again take mg upsets stomach mother allow doctor visits thinks focus therapy soon move boyfriend work less frequently improve mental health problem family situation matter say listen act like crazy almost years passed now watch friends go life young lifes successful two important years got wasted optimistic recently just know anymore see way anymore feel like someone stole years life still stop without reason behind it could turn time back know would change know causes this never really believed god prayed end many times now least know bad god sick this pain nausea sickness explaining every day even though nobody take serious anywaywhen started days amgonna want life back want healthy again nothing else cant live like anymore another year month week want find way bad film trapped in,1 cliff diving except theres water freeway bridge man sounds fun,0 warning going long asf idek seems like always getting left behind going senior year thinking computer science uni two problems admission grade required grade idek want do school game collect many good grades can rlly good it pretending passionate science since said make money something like art since pandemic happened grades slipped little get wrong still good going s s good enough apparently get university like competition increased mean back day need much get in stuck place cannot imagine career ideas years know smartest accept that one thing ugly close friends another thing even get university program want classmates seem together like perfect either getting jobs learning drive lack motivation anything rn online summer school still managing fuck up terrible unit exam know going tell get work hard honestly tired overachiever getting results idek posting this idk overthinking feel worthless rn idk even know feel,1 "@joelreedkeenan i've been there done that, bwahaha! enjoy yourself to feel the feeling, Pak! *nahlohbingung* good luck too!",0 advice girls girls like guy mean really like guy dont tsundere act like dont like them might lose interest think dont like them were kinda dumb like thats us dont find cute also confidence tell like knows might like back hope helps someone understanding guys bit more know guys like know lot people including myself feel way,0 context year old know none going believable make sense currently attend full time college finishing december also work full time cyber sec professional obviously may think damn bet kid living great life well truth dying inside amazing girlfriend upbringing hell growing starved neglected abused emotionally left lied to parents drug addicts alcoholics never anyone mom passed due abuse think mental illness bad appear living amazing life everyday mood changes like crazy want leave everything hate waking hate sleeping hate everything everything tiks overwhelmed emotions sad fuck reason feel extreme past thramu younger days done still living home going move day turn already place meant time two years hell go through friends anymore busy time used to bad alone friends hard relate cannot go hang feels weird different stage life time not idek makes sense massive brain dump take wish advice would love top world little everyone know dying inside,1 National Tree Planting Day in Cambodia - Lets spread the earth love and plant one ,0 nightmares looking mirrorive pretty fascinated recurring nightmares ive past years involve looking mirror seeing someone reflection sometimes even see people already know real life last night dream slightly different looked mirror reflection all kind ironic think able see reflection least dreams considering spend lot time looking mirror soon come home soon wake go bed etc again ive already solved mystery dream turns out see mirror reflection ive spent time socializing people real life words dream trying tell soul im nonexistent entity earth nobody earth acknowledging fact exist theres nobody tell real here you ive socially isolated years im nothing animated piece meat blood bone living dead trapped worlds makes wonder point even dying considering im metaphysically already dead nobody would care nobody ever cared begin with maybe became celebrity things would different id real girl real human then curse goes on guess,1 im im attracted year old kill myselfi havent acted like ill never act still know wrong think die im monster,1 hate waiting for mail,0 mi bored af u wanna talk dm,0 successful life yet still want end alli excellent stable job making figures beautiful supportive girlfriend house two vehicles yet still think redflag daily basis im american depressing government filled bunch twits care people complain problems seem easy fix yet listen care fix them im atheist religious seems ridiculous me honestly see place world fuck need still here thing keeping parents would devastated go thats enough reason make day,1 great idea youtube rewind full awful things happened komm ssser tod blasting background,0 im sure anymorei apologize mistakes im mobile im thought id either outgrow least able handle everything better everythjng gotten worse overwhelming im really tred want feel like taking space anymore stopped drinking trying lexapro xanax ativan want feel anything even almost every emotion agonizing cant shut down top im atmosphere cant quite escape yet volatile every waking moment edge panic attack know do really dont want end everything tonight things get better know done past think worth anymore,1 hope boyfriend see thisi cant bothered make throwaway account subreddit even though thats safe thing boyfriend reddit risky anyway wanna die point everything going shit everyday even though nothing particular happening guilt things ive done slowly surely creeping intensity little high point reason actually waiting opportunity either blow world someone else literally nothing painlessly kind wake everyday wish would dead point going long time still would stretch telling nice life boyfriend future nowthe world dying wanna die even want future gone care want out unbearable amount consolidation future plans gonna get unless somebody takes fucking place even know im posting wanna bother anyone know anonymity reddit people people subreddit gives comfort cant judged time told one caused this even though true fault im shit nice hear someone tells stupid kid know many things done wrong past immature preadolescent brain actions held time,1 is still waiting for a dispatch and just got up about an hour ago after sleeping hour guess i ll go back to bed,0 that last hour went veeryyy quick ,0 "update: finished the office yesterday and i'm already on episode 10 of on my block, whoever said depression affects productivity is wrong i'm doing great",1 thinking writing willim turn ive started thinking killing regularly weeks ago ive already thought gets stuff get buried no embalming day funeral cant assure right since will want anyone spend money death guess wait little bit longer could im really thinking now,1 parents thoughts lgbt if know or think course feel like mom crazy homophobic like idea men women dating remember saying stuff like i mean think man woman thats be right never completely hating lgbt something im surprised considering shes christian haha,0 sad oclock one want talk sad oclock one want talk,0 people meani feel like sort curse throughout life run lot bad people lot bad social experiences today hit rock bottom life feel like people even worse malicious cruel me would like give final blow decisive assault would make falter good human nature awful even family bad me psychiatrist told important support told family positive negative me found difficult understand looked astonishment impression living tragic dark film today everyone turns me one rely others rejoice misfortune even neighbors laugh me bullshit killing myself would people party would celebrate this much hatred unjustified malice towards me case made deeply misanthrope lonely one day manage get nightmarish situation know never able count anyone again friendship dead like sense family want children want start family saw blackness soul people think one major causes depression know goes know reality is know people basically evil selfish rejoice misfortune others,1 im tired really ami feel empty now exploding feelings feel empty yesterday blew releasing pent emotions feel empty tired yesterday slammed wooden armchair straight head still feel empty know do cant talk one related made feel home taking toll mind ive multiple times blew yesterday worst know anymore feel human anymore,1 yeah so i got an job interview tomorrow and im pretty anxious about it ha anyone got some advice on how to prepare for it it should be good tho it just that im not sure if i will like it and im afraid to have no small talk topic with the employer yk that it gon na be awkward and shit,1 Why do they call it a happy meal if it tastes like a whole lot like depression?,1 So am i gonna get triggered every time i see a tweet about tour now that im not going anymore because this isn't healthy i do not need more depression,1 can anxiety and panic attack cause pain in the back of the thigh,1 @sabtevans As your friend I have to insist that you give Social Distortion a sample! (Best Band EVER!!!!!!!) LOL,0 hate gay people so recently sudden urge hate gay bi lezbo trans people kinda problem couple close friends recently told lezbein pissed it,0 girl leaving wanna dieso whats best way commit redflag im thinking car tube exhaust pipe,1 Hey @souljaboytellem SUPERMAN!!! Woooo i'll Help ya (souljaboytellem live > http://ustre.am/2UhS),0 i can t remember a time when i wasn t struggling i ve wanted to die for a long a i can remember and i m worried i m no longer afraid of death i just don t understand myself i can get up every day and do everything i need to put my retainer in and wash my face before i sleep get great grade but no one know how much my body ache and how hard i have to push myself to do all those thing i joke around my friend and plaster this fake as smile on my face around everybody but i contemplate my death every night every single night and i can never sleep before am anymore yet i wake up bright and early a if i didn t almost kill myself the night before there wa a point in my life where i didn t get out of bed for month didn t brush my teeth for week failed every class never spoke to anyone and got sickly skinny from loss of appetite it wa so awful and i never want to return to that state again that i let myself fall apart now trying to keep my composure and no one know there s not a single soul in my life who s aware though i try to talk about it without dragging everyone down with me i ve also caught myself dissociating a lot more these day can t remember shit can t feel excitement at all or any other emotion other than despair and exhaustion and the terrible brain fog i just don t know what to do anymore don t know how much longer i can keep my act up i m repulsed by the idea that i d have to do this forever don t want to talk to anyone about it either in fear that i d just be a burden friend and family call me over dramatic and don t even take it seriously because they re never there to see how bad it is and idk how to show them don t even know what the point of me posting this is i doubt anyone would even see this or waste precious time reading through this long as post,1 tonight year old end life hes metonight kill myself probably hanging past years incredibly depressed going phases happiness last day feel depressed like week think fat ugly stupid etc could go dont care anymore approaching one stressful parts life gcses recieve support parents get negative reinforcement makes feel shit myself sister constantly tells much hates even apart friendship group school despite dont feel like friends them none talk outside school always feels like tagging along talk many times fucked would night always make little snipe comments life gave trust issues lives would better without feel like never liked one friend talk feel knows feel depressed suicidal feel like put much stop needing someone talk to kill problem told english teacher feel lovely understood situation feel guilty tell whole truth like parents suicidal feelings arranged meeting school counseler me great aswell focused future problem rather present feel like really care noucence ive horrible love life first relationship like year understand fully still partially bullied it second lasted weeks broke tried cheat friend time asked girls got rejections friends tease this whenever talk girl think want them hate this feel like never find love feel like bad person think made last voice reason last couple days something snapped voice gone im going kill myself today even bad day school wrong things happened wrong time snipe comments usual said english teacher really needed talk badlyi going tell feel suicidal told come dinner time got there there afterschool finish coursework stopped looked classroom say anything maybe said something like are okay tonight may different read this thank you needed get chest die try change mind want sure im going this pain much,1 ive overcome thoughts longi figured got life back track would end got pills new job new bank may seem small means alot me new girl cares alot that im afraid ask want get hurt again started hanging friends ultimately fresh start time felt like control again doctor even said getting better would slowly weaned off even though im x better like still feel like world would better without me feelings depression either ive started put the mask making people believe better im still struggling feel quite weird still thinking world would better without me enough saved could even pay funeral wanted to even turned religion looking answer depression know everyones true intentions went christian school life graduated years ago know god good such seems highly fabricated i apologize offends anyone intent tldr know im still feeling way ive tried hard get better broke walls rarely depressed yet still feel like life worth living even tho getting better guess could say feel bored living like theres reason continue know id miss family stuff bother me reason im still people care want see sad,1 I must be real important the devil has taken people from me he tried to make me lose my mind he is trying I make me lose my temper he has tried to hitting me with depression he has taken his best shots but through the grace of God I'm still standing God is good Amen,1 know guys get compliments much so beautiful handsome celery stick,0 cardi b dies gonna say rest peace rest ass pussy shit okay havent slept days weeeeeeeeee,0 write notei know causing pain leave behind want go want protect them say want blame themselves say like like anymore say know good want die say anything personal notes one big note guess time plan kill next year even tho id like right now want ruin plans made,1 nobody tell gifs like wth love,0 im fucking tiredi want live point im useless stupid always be im bad daughter bad friend make nobody happy hate everyone too want end tonight,1 ecaps arrrrg it must be bad mcdonald burger king always hire,0 back agiani talked ex seems like really moved way happier without me feel like everyone would better without me death would cause temporary grief really care effects others want stop everything im planning purchasing gun quitting job go end somewhere secluded im sorry anyone knows see this,1 ya sex cool but ever got one friend genuinely takes interest hobbys even tho dont completely understand people best,0 thank one year reddit want say thank amazing year reddit,0 anjeebaby i m fine if thing are busy just get hard at quieter time,0 think dying best option posted radvice recommended post too explain this also sorry rambley is im sixteen year old girl past year things going well all put little effort school classes effectively ruined chances going dream universities toxic relationship always gaslighting kinda emotionally abusive months ago broke starting dating someone else weeks really hurt me lost many friends isolated one specifically caught feelings person hate many people school theyre stuckup assholes feel like disappointment everyone always kind person got shit done determined hardworking best friend told seemed like shit together used get bullied like years ago deal family problems past years even though sucked feel bad does lately exist really contribute anything anyone think dead would simple would worries anymore worry everything anything change it like im chained bed want work know never going good enough feel like friends would better without me ive reached breaking point care anything keep making plans promises know never keep cry much multiple times day sometimes even know im crying feels nice im worried myself tell parents think realize bad is get angry easily them snappy know guess im sick alive see point someone give something look forward please logically know get better everyone keeps telling that hard believe feels like things get better get worse true gets better im exception rule someone help,1 reddit home page die anyone else shit dont work smh cmon reddit hard,0 feeling suicidal stop playing safecurrently unemployed married going years together kids dogs cat ongoing depression anxiety job search feeling pretty worthless ive thinking ending all read skimmed post sub someone said paraphrasing have ever dated guy want know like got thinking ive trying live life based messing existing life trying get back somewhere around was maybe right approach mean really thinking killing myself got lose completely crazy would even opportunity live much fear time wish would go away,1 mom wont tell whats wrong me idk im tired internally would youre biggest part problems soooo,0 think im gonna tomorrowi cant keep living like this feel bad cat dont trust anyone take care love much hope family finds good home,1 long distance boyfriend attempting kill right now boyfriend lives wales tumultuous argument today threatened kill himself paranoia feels depressed times hes tried kill himself cut teenager nearly hung himselfonce hated first took walk slept went back word said loved cared me something stacked top argument flipped tried slitting wrist called laughed like joke said going stab heart hour ive contacted friend could contact parents emergency lines hes busy said worry asked friend times the boy cried wolf way call police numbers abroad ive got address several social media accounts phone number etc hes online lives parents wake around please assurnace me buy time stabbed heart begged stop truly cares im scared know affect us,1 production quality cast premise authentic new england waterbury ct locale lush john williams score resulted star collectors item unfortunately got passable star decent flick mostly memorable tried dobring art house style film mainstream small town locale story ordinary people genre itself well done satisfy grownups jane fonda unable hide braininess enough make character believable wondered post doctorate yale instead working dead end factory job waterbury robert diniros character bit contrived illiterate nice guy loser turns actually be little help janes character version henry ford thomas edisonbr br this genre successfully handled nobodys fool mid s years about schmidt wish main stream studios would try stuff post adolescents reserve couple screens multi cinema complexes effortsbr br ill give a effort,0 "Just, if you think you know someone struggling with depression... You can help just by treating them like they're a good friend. Spend time with them, even if they don't feel like doing much. And remind them they always have something to look forward to.",1 ready go right placeim sat end plan front me healthcare professionals told foolproof could gone two hours thing stopping im currently staying parents unfair ones find me could gone within two hours want anymore childhood trauma fucked up raped kid fucked chances healthy relationship eventually people get sick able fake smile realise matter happy might able make me never lasts ill back rut cant get bed shower drink water eat drugs used help escape im wanting temporary escape want out last time attempted didnt succeed much better place back then wish could fortunate keep experiencing trauma cant fixed anymore multiple therapists give cant help antidepressants havent ever worked ive fluoxetine sertraline mirtazapine citalopram venlafaxine nada help stuck docs dosage schedules ive doses raised ive tried different types specialist therapies nothing works nothing stop shit im going possible change pain intolerable flashbacks intolerable dissociate much im missing things important keep getting told things get better without fail life gets harder harder cope with dont think im going see end year through guess year old right wasnt going live past age all,1 consider movie one interesting funny movies time much highly intelligent thoughts it anybody thinks movie awful get able recognize really deep philosophical themes in schneider movies without doubt several universities germany throughout europe made studies schneiders way seeing things way helge schneider intelligent sensitive person jazzmusicions germany maybe europe mostly inspired great mdavis tmonk like him ok please try convince others might stupid cheap boring funny face opinion discussion willing really look art hschneider would surrender,0 plz help need something fun watched fucked movie need eyebleachgood laugh etc anyone anything,0 content by eugene cacao graphic by kath limfueco source holland k 0 september how to fight depression 0 thing to try healthline http t co o udqteja what is depression n d american psychiatric association http t co quoyn0j b,1 answer honestly still single if youre single btw anything change get scenario,0 got my first two birthday cards in the post today ,0 ive told kill myself so im attacked online cause something did group haters photography community trying meet best friend want meet lied best friend said guy named jim wanting meet got one mutual friends fired arrested best friend believed deleted everyone else community facebook going stop uploading pics videos youtube saying want associate others community felt guilty depressed cause called today crying decided reach online help people bashed called terrible person inconsiderate selfish liar people even told kill myself ,1 @nuttycow even harsher !! ,0 concussionbraininjurycant anymorei masters degree going national master title chess fast quick sharp funny fluent now im shadow former self dulled genetic downgrade im months post concussion intellectgone male ive thought concussion every single day since incident multiple times day,1 want live quarantined worldfuck this cant see friends sports canceled grad year ruined gf broke up future hopless come within feet someone get dirty look ironic were quarantining save lives soon quarantine killed me covid see later world im out,1 sorry ok long time tuesday know happened me done,1 would say enjoy show expected something completely different first saw what like you expected find something along lines all that i sure going anymore say like show classify breakthrough show charming like chemistry characters well including supporting castbr br i would definitely say great see wesley jonathan back screen really loved city guy also seen woman plays valeries friend popular think okay show really like character show cup tea rounds pretty well,0 "@TomFelton he'll be okay, he's got you... and his teddy anyway, tell him all of us tweeps give him our best!",0 @banjoist123 I don't know Jim - I wasn't following them. Learning all the time is me. ,0 salah eddine y a une grande diff rence entre la d prime et la d pression une d pression c est maladie en tout ca je te souhaite de journ e meilleures que celles que tu pass en ce moment,1 im rough timetdlr transgender completely abandoned friends came year ago first friends really supportive would go mall buy make etc lately however im lucky even get someone respond messenger post work incredibly hard job hours week assistant manager get yelled next day manager enough suffer night struggling lawyer ending it lately arguments continuing go another day falling flat zero friends seemingly job hate,1 mi know do nothing makes happy more last year alienated friends past years exception one saw today even felt like spark more others people decided excommunicate simultaneously still fully understand why traumatic time people held closest heart turn backs left feelings hatred towards feelings total emptiness unbearable lonelinessi feel unlovable unlikeable look mirror hate see looks aside loathe person become past years find hard make friends anyone else know would want friend awkward shy ugly nothing offer situation feel like every interaction forced even try hardest still painfully obvious insecure wretch unemployed uneducated longer anyone talk besides councillor week sure really much either longer enjoy anything used interest me even given music point want companionship feel like ill never able attain become fucking numbed boring one ever wants befriend me know want life feel like real guidance destined work soul destroying jobs hate make miserablei feel alone unable anything feelings good enough constantly push people away fear might see way see myself even want try more every time something good still manage fuck beyond repair end back square one life feel like worth pain loneliness understand ever get better feeling like end rope,1 cant even get get bed fucking kill myselfbreathing become draining dont even think could considered person anymore ill starve death get bed,1 someone send travis scott burger receipt think would funny hang wall anyone send me filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 life standstill bullied home tenantsi seriously considering committing murder ending myselfi let honour life joked around withthey already succeded making feel like piece shit sharing secretsi take mei teenagerfuckin scum realise do,1 @BenMSchofield Heyy i checked out ur music on ur myspace and LOVED it xx. <3,0 obviously ponyo seen another stupid animated movie studio might put simply survive far it easily described captivating beautiful movie experiencebr br miyazaki indeed another masterpiece now many said least achievements filmmaking due part certain weirdness factor there truethe morals insights quite evident previous films front picture ponyo difficult understand comprehend idea believe make childrens movie suitable adults kids complicated accomplished perfectly also lose substance along way reason gets br br besides that film engrossing start way presented beautiful left awe times remembered handdrawn miyazaki himself enlightened happy seeing film since saw back another film missed everything ponyo absolutely stunning breathtaking even music pure perfection bad thing say english dubbing get wrong good too seen ponyo weeks came nationally believed that parts wish kept japanese dialogue not it though enjoy english way too all everyone see ponyo absolutely flawless another league filmmaking altogether finally hold this surprised ponyo got best picture nomination films nominated it good,0 My anxiety and depression is soooooo fucking bad lately. Please dm me some ways to not be a sad piece of shit all the time. Please and thanks,1 insane question sex clone yourself gay masturbation help want stop thinking this please becoming problem serious,0 years ago ray light madonna broke truly amazing level musical artistry since occasionally transcended even standards concert production hypnotic editing amazing dancing hallucinatory lighting effects tranceinducing arrangements blows away previous efforts madonnas apparent ambition singlehandedly bring world peace music dance may seem hubristic absurd some hell somebodys got it thanks assemblage remarkable talent everyone involved production confessions tour live london places among top ten artists working anywhere world medium,0 know secret make girl wet splash bucket water them clicked nsfw dirty pigs,0 i m so fucking anxious all the time it s killing me i felt great last august no panic attack for over a year and my social anxiety disappeared so i came off my med within week i wa back on them and haven t been right since the trazodone stopped working so i went on mirtazapine and gained stone in a many month so i came off that and went on agomelatine my anxiety wa increasing severely so my gp put me back on trazodone on the rd march but only after keeping me on agomelatine for week which is basically a placebo pill i ve been in a amp e time in week having a panic attack they give me like mg tablet of diazepam and send me on my way my gp refuse to give me any even though it s so severe i can t get out of bed never mind leave the house i don t know what to do these level of terror aren t sustainable and nobody seems to want to help or prescribe me the one thing that help i m also in the uk which is awful for mental health service no technique help because i m so anxious i can t think about anything else other than heart attack and dying with it i m so tired,1 found cockroaches bed one closet get rid them someone actually help im terrified cockroaches im go bed two climbing crack bed do im going sleep couch bc im genuinely terrified,0 made first beat yeah thats,0 ever felt like completely cut peoplelike seperate family gf friends move away guilt yet doubt right thing do sometimes feel really suicidal want help reach anymore gave know theres hope left you,1 "@princess_narnia I heat! I want a full shopping report, k? *squeee*",0 @marcellaxoxo oh girl! damn me! really EVERYTHING? GLAD FOR YOU my lil' lovely italiana ,0 i just re pierced my ear,0 day ive made mistake didnt nut yesterday due sleepover im pain cant see fog thick cant see it im cold im scared must push through,0 @Claire93 They arent on yet it dosent start till like 10.30 dont worry!! ,0 guiltwhen abuser realized tell someone shed done killed avoid facing consequences messaged blue years abuse ended kinda froze panicked told wished dead night gone almost years still feel guilty even years hell put through maybe found shortly died childhood me know figured accept it doubt anyone relate much resonates you id love talk more m matters,1 doeither death trying something might work make thoughts go away though another way prolong meaningless painful existence due fear dying think pussy seems coward top that nowhere go nothing do sort service would make worthwhile fit eg police forces im unstable inside head acting pretending whole life noone noticed fine doubt anyone will empathy required paramedic bachelors degree always thought work id help people since know abandoned etc fight crime stuff keep saying want save others unable save myself mind blood smell dead people cpr work out im quite cold empty inside unfortunately life like future work would among things hate much else say really papers filled might go next week im sure process long care it even want it id rather die could somehow fast painless see way it paramedic internship ambulance hospital quite nice importantly one things wanted do rewarding financially reality expected vast minority people need real help help all think police different force exists persecute people look opportunity fine them fucked either way saved draft might post it know many people calling kind,1 lie skittles taste same different colors different smells tricked weve backstabbed weve quite possibly bamboozled,0 turned todayive suicidal thoughts since nothing changed might aswell make birthday death day ive tried everything change myself tried putting social situationsi literally work club promoter get people would lose job still im waste space change,1 I gotta touch on that bc it's a huge difference between being sad and having depression..,1 got hospital failed last attempt best behavior like week straight get finally let out worth finally get properly end things tonight always give bunch pills discharge helped sign death certificate trying tonight,1 exactly one year th july tried failed ended snapping ligaments landing ankle unconscious since gotten surgery fix massive scar also developed arthritis multiple slipped discs hurt time days bad think killing escape physical pain really really fucking angry last year fuck hide scissors knives got interrupted mother cut perfect hanging set had minutes would peace guess what today kg heavier since day still wish free nooooooo stay bitch earth honestly see drugs help people weed occasion helped calm down would love freed worries thoughts since years old feel like suffered enough back pain bitch without honestly would still feeling suicidal excruciating physical pain is rant one year since attempt,1 i think the wifi on my iphone is broken it will quot connect quot but when i actually have to use it that s another story,0 understand day age people still need beg helpi suffer serious depression redflag well several physical illnesses reached local services last years help there reached point suicide attempts last month guess still nothing turn find sad nhs praised good job really happening across whole nhs board suicide rates hitting time highs lockdown major impact figures understand praise nhs saving many lives one way ignore lives losing others mental health joke,1 knowi know know deal anymore know know say know want go know purpose thing know want die know know,1 karinhoegh so true i love frienfeed but there are so many cool apps out there that delivers value and so little time,0 one decision ruined life dont wanna live anymore i took pills xanax still alive really ruined lifesomeone like doesnt ever deserve live happy life story im yrs old engaged beautiful virgin supposed get married years friends convinced go party play around married later wont able shit ofcourse dumb fucking follower protected sex random couple months later diagnosed incurable std hpv warts fucking ruined life im piece garbage shit put family put everything swear god end disease me someone reading please dont listen fucking friends say ofc go ahead get married except damage goods goodbye,1 know much longer stand herei just know tried september obviously failed feel like belong anywhere fluke something im also type diabetic realized disease alone killed me universe want guess keep thinking cant wait die one talk to talk head day know do really want hug one feel alone,1 i feel the need of depending on people for me to feel better and more comfortable but i don t think that s the right way to go but at the same time i m not even sure how i could better myself on my own it s probably the most difficult thing i m doing and i just feel really nervous right now and i hate that i sleep so late it s honestly bugging me and affecting me so much i just want someone who truly care about me to say i ll do alright that i ll find a way to overcome this it feel uncomfortable to cry at time i can t even do it really anymore it just last a few second and then my state of mind change and my brain just go through these phase of different feeling im not sure what i m gon na do tonight but i guess the only thing i can do is be on my phone and just have this pain in my chest last till i pas out,1 "Wowzers!I have been twitter absent for a while!Funilly enough,no wthdrawal symptoms - woo hoo!I am not addicted! ",0 tried failedtried first proper redflag attempt failed miserably everything get noose without thinking anything else guess im stuck pathetic existence cant thing im weak dog,1 never playing right ptsd flashbacks ,0 always prettiest people always denial always prettiest people always denial,0 @ohmyjade YEA.!! it was REALLY adorablee..i swear i'm gonna have THAT moment on my mind THE REST OF MY LIFE ,0 post animal shelter visit depression is a real and serious problem,1 realized hiw fucked ky outlook life like im supper pecamistic everything hate myself feel like everyone me want live feel like thats great,0 ok hear out lets invent time travel go back time ancient greece convince greeks gods nekos famous depictions statues greek gods cat ears sound,0 thank goodness school late start today mondays start rest week start ,0 want one night when ive eaten favourite food drank favourite drink reflect life ive done everything go sleep die sleep,1 "@DensOnAir Oh, you do a great job! By the way, I did manage to get it on my laptop, & it makes it look high tech! Thnx so much for that! ",0 almost died lol friend house rolled sidebyside get staples hit bar sidebyside upside pics message,0 one of my biggest fear is trying everything possible to turn my life around from grade to career career to myself then still come out being the same or still having the same hallow feeling i wan na take this next year to change my life around for the best i wan na look back and be happy with my life and what i ve accomplished i ve learned throughout the year that i really do want to be alive i just don t want to be me i wish i could change myself and who i am and where i came from but i can t so i would like to better myself do something to make myself proud i just don t want to waste even more time trying to fix myself then still be unhappy this fear probably came from my dad he s a ex heroin addict yet in his 0 he went from a crackhead to owning his own auto repair shop ha a beautiful yr old and amazing wife yet he still the most cold hearted asshole he still cant get more then a couple hr of sleep he s drunk every night he rarely speaks a word to me so from heroin addict to a shop owner yet still unhappy still suicidal still fighting after doing so fucking much is that really all there is to life constantly fighting to be happy without ever truly feeling it you may hide it or distract for awhile but it always come back and harder everytime till one day,1 dont anyone else say toim going kill myself wont im proud cat mom stupid best thing got going life fur babes best slightly unconditional love believe im ranked slightly friskies meaty bits ill take that entire life ive struggled dont even know why difficult exist im years old spent majority life looking forward next thing usually sort job advancement travel ive done that both im home unemployed desperately trying fill days dont know myself literally ive drinking pass time ive tried cleaning elder scrolls motivation nothing want do dont hobbies dont goals wasting space depression dont know ive always felt way deep somehow managed go living feel isnt place me dont belong here wanna go away but know cats,1 You only need two close friends in which you can trust and dedicate yourself to. Having too many friends can lead to depression and stress.,1 update keeps getting worseposted thishttpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsxkufci_tried_to_od_on_xanax_and_alcohol_on_wednesday weeks ago woke like today badly depressed money issues posted thishttpswwwredditcomroffmychestcommentspgqi_dont_know_how_to_make_money_and_support_myself paying bills expensive usual done decided head bit car start even car fucking parents car tried hang tie ceiling fan body weight would rip fan ceiling know do cant go hospital insurance right nos think something afford know do even know tell therapist feel like getting hospitalized make things even worse hate alive much good times friends not im definitely smart skilled ways happen ways valued society large im finished it one worst parts even bad im straight white dude usa grateful able use resources better world around me im incapable so fucking fault existence feels redundant way renders unworthy life know get this want die,1 mizzzidc mizzzidc you need help depression is setting in pls seek for a professional care,1 really i need to work on my confidence and just doing stuff but with how low my self esteem ha been it s just been getting harder and harder to do anything i went on a rant in my wow discord about it that and how much my depression seems to have come back,1 afraid dying hope doi always afraid death im sure im point yet would take life mind much if say oncoming semi swerved lane want alive anymore fact many good people die could easily take place injustice,1 im thirsty every time drink pee wanna drink water bruh torture yall ever think really drinking purified poop pee,0 absolutely despise people say do worry things change goodbecause lie keep mentality things change need wait big change nothing ever change life shithole insane want something wish something wait it fight let anything defeat end old man fucking years regret everything say learn that want something achievable fight give up life fucked want social monster fight it might horrible first end achieve goals life give something easy something go wrong even life looks like worst shit things change need fight it wrote youguillegoky well friend mine wrote someone similar situation ones using subreddit think share,1 think need therapist last night worse anxiety attack ive ever had couldnt stand without legs shaking hands obviously shaking sweating extremely cold first evert time felt like going puke decided take break snapchat instagram making worse everything bad happen life happens social media ive realised shit thing although im taking break stuff help me cant live like this cant live days fucking paranoid worried cant stand practically self harm dont try fix guess im gonna try convince mum let speak therapist im uk im camhs already theyre slow feel like next time ill see ill shell former self wanted rant ig,0 hate dependent parentsi wish could fucking shit own need ask stuff parents like ride food cant wait grow ill finally free them job live own maybe shit figured out theyre terrible parents stifling know im awful person annoys much never say anything though try get shut down today mom tried force talk her usually anyways feeling really depressed told tired want talk specifically told past want to would understand let be time exploded me yelling never appreciated anything ungrateful drove everywhere made dinner stuff like that ask that would rather drive pay shit eat dinner friends myself ugh stayed silent want make worse ive never wanted yell moment hate teenager maybe im selfish though,1 http://twitpic.com/5ewie - Uncle Tony teaching Mikael how to drive! ,0 hospital nearly weeksi hospital month redflag attempt end month felt lot better put different meds antidepressents though going better feel bad tried kill again im thinking everyday know do happy meds took away thought miracle seems last wrote plan next months firm decision feel better everything plan ex still ignores hates everything plan to ill end things then least say gave everything could story truly horrible plan write book end things,1 aha ha might fuck around sacrifice mental health finish one doodle aha ha aha ha might fuck around sacrifice mental health finish one doodle aha ha,0 advice every person subreddit m used really care people thought me friends friends rednecks rural ontario go brrt henceforth become wannabe redneckhick followed many many instagram pages posted donald trump far right political opinions diesel trucks well american political pages even though im canadian years later true myself friends like myself im weeb love heavy metal longer dislike lgbtq crowd disliked racist anymore said probably thinking wow kid probably dick right lmao aside theres one thing whole experience taught me nothing feels better yourself found new friends share interests struggling right feel like cant yourself lemme tell right now someone everyone world matter like everyone make friends world judge other best sub helped vent past ive laughed cried it want hit start conversation thank reading much got here sorry long tldr change fit in everyones got crowd somewhere,0 just been playing with the new mobbler v0 0 and it add some great new feature but won t play music on my e like v0 did,0 im confused right normally lot black eyes yesterday did woke morning saw mirror something different realized black eyes gone ive since suddenly disappear fuck,0 committing redflag without dyingfor past months ive basically dead dont plan killing dont plan living either luxury anything survive right now basically rotting alive want put forth effort live traditional good life anymore im faced health predicament im suited tackle spend days reddit drinking tea sitting outside thinking hopefully solution arise mind not continue nothing,1 hello playmatesi recently watched film first time ever also first experience arthur askey admit impressed film fan black white films generally passport pimlico lavender hill mob tommy trinder who apparently distant relative film appealed provided good old fashioned british humour notice criticised askeys performance however opinion stands test time fine example forties comic acting anything adds picture creating characters mere stereotypes seem dominate films nowif get hold film would recommend get hold itshame films generally shown sunday afternoons anymorei also glad opportunity watch another piece work arnold ridley private godfrey dads armyi thank,0 wanna marry season ahsoka tano ngl shes pwetty,0 "@GMANandRIZK I'm gonna bike around the WHOLE seawall Sat morning, very much looking forward to it ",0 actually life plan im going try graduate high school fail once ill move on ill work manual labor thats im good for maybe amish theyll take me make strong ill save enough boat least ft long good long distance sailing ill find least crazydesperate people join me well sail africa well fight warlords well unite tribes maybe amass large fleet boats well help common people well plunder precious metal jewel mines give people around us better lives mess im sorry way thanks reading this dumb even die ill die fighting trying make name great,0 month old got really tired watching care bears time rooney great dancer cares gay guy must cheerleader somethingbr br beats barney cant get songs headmuststop singingdoodlebops songsnowbr br must lines text must continuewhat say canadian stuff like ooout aboooot whacky canadiansjazmine rhyming much must dutchbr br knock knock whos there dee dee super hottiebr br bus driver bob cannot dance take lessons rooney,0 need hope guysim yo first dont speak english good sorry that depression started years ago slowly getting worse every year last gf treated like shit lastly failed years school rn im first semester university feel like im enough im really trying really trying feel like im good enough get good grades even pass semester found good psychologists take thoughts seriously want text close friends close friend first ex gf busy work basically cant speak one want possitive everytime feel worthless cant help think finish thought brave enough kill last time drunk tried od im scared actually kill know die friends probably think hope couldve tell us felt know nobody really cares posted hoping somebody position give advice hope,1 i think my friend is depressed he isn t the same and he s going through a lot his girlfriend cheated and he recently found out he is adopted and i want to know how to help him,1 daniela 9 my english professor would be ashamed,0 @katelyniscool [Meow Out Loud] [Meowing My Ass Off] [Meowing On the Floor Laughing] ,0 get inflow i got adhd anxiety depression it s a fun time,1 depression suck especially accompanied by insomnia and chronic pain chroniclife,1 cant live like anymorei cant anymore ive talked counselors ive talked friends family coworkersi legitimate reason anymore life shit im broke im disabled live shit house shit town people care ones reach toand im forgotten soon close chat window ive hurt people used people ive hurt used ive abused raped assaulted much weight bear anymore cant live it im sorry im sorry,1 im fucking lonely want diesorry huge wall text needed get chest im almost severe social anxiety disorder depression body dysmorphia past years ive going various residential treatment centers my familys fairly wealthy afford sorry seems pretentious want understand situation better right really social life bunch friends made treatment centers live across country life barely talked girls anxious therapeutic boarding school went year ago stupid dance allboys school another therapeutic school thats allgirls horribly anxious stood alone close friends almost entire dance then attractive girl walked asked dance surprised anxious initially said no friend made go ask dance danced talked amazing probably best experience life believe actually happening song finished wanted talk tolerate anxiety said no end dance even went said goodbye realized fuck ive missing entire life thought disgusting hopeless id always single brought mind possibility be saw pictures dance absolutely destroyed me thought holy shit im ugly thought could girl possible wanted dance me kind body dysmorphia ramped full gear anyway fastfoward present im back home im going outpatient treatment center social life desperately want feel connection girl like dance even actual inperson friends cant live like longer im also scared kill self access carbon monoxide gun anyway think anyone understands bad ive gotten im good talking girls people seem like lot improved treatment really despite fancy treatment centers years im super skinny average average face got really gym year got sort decent shape stopped going regularly anxiety depression,1 hate i look look mirror see me see someone else hate pearson looks pearson feel look like me,0 months working dieting result ampxb what thinkhttpspreviewredditdqzjafpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampscecfabedceaaaaeaef,0 my condolence to natasha richardson s family,0 because of ordinary shoe oloshi leleyi o depression co of ordinary nike sneaker if na lv or prada nko,1 tried kill friday nighti tried overdose friday night right psych ward ive never puked much life feel like complete retard did regretted soon swallowed late regrets wish stopped moment instead wish did fuck ,1 wrote good morning message went sleep last night ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh girl man,0 uk helpi posted days expressing uncertainty go get help im danger actually killing myself thinking lot struggling focus just really hard time mental health team moment college counsellors know talk to cant talk friends complain much feelings tendency say unhelpful things cant talk family ive tried online redflag prevention thing online kind lame think particularly appropriate situation need somebody tell kill myself im entirely sure need ever feel stressed like crisis people barely even notice want something attract attention know people look type behaviour lot kind want harm nonfatal significant way communicate people okay am words adequate feel bad wanting know else,1 @sometimes94 Whaaatever ,0 text start ive seen posts people calling national hotlines hung breaks heart thats fucking ridiculous recently started volunteering crisis text line recommend anyone here ive struggled many years came know crisis text line therapist recommended text struggling last year real people really want help you also takes anxiety away actually talking phone thats thing disclaimers our messages characters back seem shortthats why but send many long messages need to we follow certain timeframewe want talk divert crisis going talk coping skills try help find ways manage way youre feeling youre talking us dismissive anything want find help cant around help know truly wish best want get help youre looking for im sure legal whatever post recommend try it working something always text stop time legally allowed text back good luck everyone,1 facts every day day think meggie great thank coming ted talk,0 happens make every bad decisioni year old male diagnosed social phobia depression high iq undiagnosed ptsd derealizationdepersonalisation live completely socially isolated apartment interacted another human months also criminal found ways pay rent essentials plus everything want basically also found way fake prescriptions i morals make money big companies even realise im stealing them also got raided months ago face prison time soon wanted give guys story life thats way much writing do also poly addict take mg diazepam mg pregabalin daily stay far enough away edge redflag happy get heroin meth mail also sad lonely see way out live witness court date anxiety strong last days consist laying bed dreaming away looking photo albums times dad still alive mum still talked loved me live germany getting late here hope able sleep dream reality everything better thanks reading fuck lonely,1 theres nothing left moves anymore emotions long gone it im sure qualify post honestly care want persons opinion matter first all im year old man living sweden reason feel qualify im sad depressed angry negativedestructive state mind i feel simply nothing emotion say regularly feel bored mean bored this movie boring lets watch something else mean deeper sense boredom bored life offer hope im making sense anyone yes ive tried lot activities hobbies etc theres constant financial chain able exactly want want say im forever alone type guy im average joe ive several girlfriends past friends parties traveled world yadda yadda everyday life like endless cycle mechanical activities seeing people talking pointless topics discussion thing everyday recently saw meme bored dude grocery store text was buys car get work works pay car see life is pointless meaningless emotionless songs movies hobbies people summon kind emotion anymore the thing id think could change bit suddenly gigantic amount money weekly lottery would open possibilities least exactly want want couple months ago reached limit robotic lifestyle took huge bank loan quit job living money last months so my plan whatever might call spend enjoy money long lasts money runs out end life moment im completley spontaneous everyday wake since anything must anymore people might read think for fuck sake grow up call problems know agree you people lot worse people lost family members raped etc completely honest care them comparing invoke kind appreciation life said sad lonely depressed feel totally empty like robot see point continuing life like this ive tried talking people view life nobody understands me say go something english basic hope somehow succeeded translating thoughts words anyone opinion all welcome them even wanna bash say boohoo whining about tldr year old bored death life took huge loan quit job waiting money run out end life,1 bruh many schools closing country still open every day news school shuttijg due least case covid one school actually close live thank fully aslo school clise area school case like dont go online learning fucking thing blow,0 khb count low today despite the changing weather,0 nobody wants talk person think ugly worth anything wrong nice person deep down misunderstood would love make friends perhaps establish genuine connection people want alone right now would really love friend,1 tf teachers use simpson ever talking family swear ever damn time,0 glad see s kicking bang mean pretty insane season thought way could topped season premiere pretty good far,0 omg my mouth is in so much pain i just wan na sleep untill it time to take my brace off,0 Most Charcters: *fight some dangerous villain who will destroy the world and end it*My character: *fites depression and cupid*,1 im sorryim sorry everyone reading this im sorry dad im sorry ted im sorry even you mom love you amy know miss all plan tonight hour makes happy knowing everyone know better without me im sorry pain much love you amy,1 jordynhill oh i cic so much meaning to that ring but i have a feeling i d lose it,0 "@GodFirst08 Oh me too, believe me! ",0 i m think i m depressed and my anxiety is through the roof rn i m having a hard time focusing what should i do,1 make easiest loved oneswhat put note leave note belongings way hurt least think about it,1 today birthday wanted share cake friends rteenagers,0 hate meds make horny makes sex hard ,0 "For every kiss you give me, I'll give you three - ",0 couple days left knew itdefinitely cry help im depressed ive got shit situation poor decisions im stuck literally option go detail sufficed say involves police nobody else really knows anything it know something know details ive kept vague also means literally cant talk another human situation even professional help nothing horrific bad enough ive ended surreal life ive axe swinging head job every human interaction feels fruitless know itll end got call last week confirmed fears axe going drop are else do ive looked many years different methods read up got online guide even failed helium bag attempt sometime ago woke see cat staring like idiot weird planned advance spend money go bang it when start eyeing opportunity everywhere walk i could jump there looks high enough etc life become horror version requiem dream nobody knows situation read know human other others might read pretty amazing power internet right want know saddest part knowledge upcoming demise think id amazing things time left no im literally wasting time dumbshit normally would eating crappy food etc etc oh well im still hoping miracle could happen happened before,1 "@herlastdownfall aw, well thank you! it's very nice of you to say",0 fastest easiest way redflag pls help,1 trying act high mighty totally understand gets emotionally draining commenting many peoples post hurts seeing many post ignored even advice offer reach out even something cheesy generic like stay strong man do best etc go long way someone mental health please comment peoples post,1 know expectim sure expect someone linked subreddit rfreecompliments posted feeling ive struggling depression entire adult life im turn id say ive depressed since made hard function even since felt like knew life would end hand every horrible thing thats come way easy blow excuse well im probably going kill anyways last couple years particularly rough clear life get easier think redflag every day even though tell persevere days cant find continue feel like sharing feelings friends family turns burden seems like would better stopped hesitating know im looking for know want better feels like im capable much cant escape prison mind,1 im going kill tomorrow wish lucknot say really ive crying last hours friends family sleeping want kill finals telling friend love him im sick fuck deserve live im also tired suffering im going kill tomorrow probably lot ibuprofen vodka wish luck guys,1 tw suicide and self harm so about month ago i had a failed suicide attempt which resulted in my week stay at the psych ward at the time i wa enrolled a a full time student in my senior year when i came back from my hospital stay i found that my school had little to no accommodation so i fell incredibly behind on my work this led to me failing my first class ever prior to this my gpa wa above a and threw my projected graduation date off since then i started a new semester and i again find myself in danger of failing another class required for graduation i feel like my depression make it impossible to succeed in my class every day i have suicidal thought and i ve been cutting myself more than usual i don t know what my next move should be add another semester i still have class left after i fail the one i m currently in i feel like i just want to drop out or else i might legitimately kill myself before i graduate,1 wants free award one wholesome give away memes already many awards someone really wants one,0 never thought id end like thisi would much rather female male know never one im epitome masculine two friends im certain would forget pretty quickly never go way talk me actually puts ease find killed myself hear voices voices stop telling fucked stupid lame am theyre always extremely rude frequent ignore also hear ringing ears lot sort psychotic episode least day ive vivid visions head hurting andor killing people want kill keep danger anybody else hate way look sound hate way made impact anybody hate always sleep really late get anything done hate way talk people im awkward regret whatever say hate beyond obvious im disappointment parents theyd disappointed knew me nobody knows everything me did theyd hate me anyone decides respond post probably hate knowing too im going kill right want wait everyone stops thinking entirely want dark,1 @squishymatter you are always welcome ,0 parents happy itits fucked say life hell could never understand happy im longer suffering die,1 deserve liveive good enough life everything handed me done im worth half time anyone puts toward me everyones worse done more right sad alive,1 waited months referral new therapist saw times made enough progress bring fucking trauma surface immediately lost insurance coverage partners boss decided fire warning got tired accommodating disabilitythis part would explain long trying get better every single fucking time gets screwed someone elses cruelty incompetence keep fucking trying yeah going kms yet going try one thing always kms afterward work might one things try lol,1 everythings pushing thisi trying really hard this why really know everything driving force ive lost motivation everything weak mask like im ok draining me ive tried medications depression anxiety help feel trapped also pretend believe something anymore im sure exhibit bpd traits hard make friends shy introverted family issues drains me ive way ever since im trying distract myselfbut much,1 have a ouchy head which is making me feel sicky,0 "ALSO, WATCHIN WEEEEEEDS ",0 please tell im one likes viking music artistsbands like danheim heilung wardruna make good vikingvibe music like omg music gets blood pumping fast best music workout with also listen secret dont want friends think im weird lol,0 abused botched suicidalwas sexually abused family friend age fought hard overcome depression ptsd recovered became strongest happiest ive ever been decided cosmetic procedure badly botched dont even look like deforming scar center face lost job moved home parents me pain way difficult get abused im wearing trauma face everybody see least could put happy face pretend like everything okay could even fun spend time bed crying thinking redflag im terrified feel worthless,1 anyone else questions ask certain groups people youre scared ask mean certain groups people like gay people something,0 obama is visiting istanbul today therefore all main road have been closed cause and effect,0 im ready gonot sure im waiting for really need make attempt,1 got redflag ocd depression lots different meds feel awful still tied mind knots trying self protect cannot untie them feel like want give really much take cannot get brain unscramble feel like losing touch reality,1 watched expecting see usual british stiff upper lip stereotypes surprised find dialogue remarkably natural tinged black humour like eastenders goes sea serve scenes approach attack remarkably realistic depiction fighting ship stuff ups banter among ships company well least based service s throwaway lines witty im joining band hope please greasy fish fryer complaint show happened irish coxswain bride be tattooed po i love arabella tattoo,0 friend killing tonight wants call kills herselfi used suicidal posted btw also im straight male im thats im gonna say age non doxxing purposes friend introduced months ago talked decent amount lot last month talked shit gets weird out always pretty edgy watched screenshare dark web watching gore totally normal it told molested abusive father moms druggie theres that fast forward today sometimes ill jokingly simp gets whole squad laughing one simp jokes woman backround moaning she bi btw thought turns fingering someone talking us said called daddy shell show fingering someone me comedian called daddy joke expecting anything ends showing fingering someone tell confirm people thumbs up yep two thumbs up disturbing yet funny incident ask would show someone online replied gonna last night life chills ran spine im pretty worried im gonna tell life pretty fucked know annoying people tell shit like dont much live dont encourage either stay mostly neutral says gonna walk bridge miles away beautiful view jump it doesnt car offered talk like hours walk it said yes told much good person really warmed heart know fact gonna kill self im trying stop all messages jump wants say love jumps course agree needs everything get right im one talk her also told cried cuddled gf since hasnt responded like hours also said needed charge phone could talk goes bridge bright side gf talked wont it dark side killed odd legal drug told me maybe phone still charged online disc sometimes shes disturb im really confused here ive known months cant tell kill herself,1 @1sweetwhirl thanks for the #followfriday mention! ,0 im strugglinghi im spain im know many kinda feel think time almost over ive always sad dark person even little extemely sensitive emotional im good hiding feelings emotions lost mother cancer person entire life understood loved me still today devastated move moms family started drinking smoking heavily couple years later got relationship current girlfriend everything seemed nice could believe it could see mother sounds kinda wierd know way talked way took care loved me on girlfriend mental problem borderline personality disorder embraced beginning helped much could one had moved back town lives quit studying help her point didnt even money eat still stood side took dinner to cinema try make happy turns out cheated me last summer older guy ambulance driver used go teraphy with could believe it left him knew guy money new car devastated day am cope pain insecurity nothing harmed feel something hurt end all attempted redflag times before btw still relationship her feel free ask anything thank edit story way way deeper written,1 fuck astrology sign tell favorite weeknd album real tell me im curious mines beauty behind madness think theyre amazing,0 seriously thinking taking life everything needed too stilla days ago pretty dark me still cant find decent enough job enough hours start saving cash think lost last friend one call text broke down stop crying hours while started packing bag warm clothes water got paper wrote notes even one friend stopped talking me left house outside waiting sun go would try end life made sure letters secured book bag made sure phone already called hit send made sure id cards bag knife hand staring mid mind started go own imagined long would take die lying woods bleeding out wondered long would take police ambulance show pushed send thought mom would react found out wondered friend would even get news took life thought whether vision would go white fade black brain really mind fucked put thought forefront everything well going this hit me stopped tracks paralyzed completely still minutes what fuck mean this believe god heaven devil hell believe ill turn ghost haunt body family friend would dead wanted fear pain would put through knew would giving peace cant accomplish stayed alive would over came home everyone else came home not like would noticed gone days put everything away still letters sealed envelopes knife tucked bed clear head mindfuck brain put take life still plan cant get help need,1 read well story solid volckman feels failed waybr br i disagree first well executed volckman well try new technique focus worth thinking about would immortality reduce value life big question br br i see trying hard build feeling compromising applauded sure interesting exercise build characters form seen artists reduce form bare minimum build intensity moment identify film thisbr br further much interesting richard linklaters rotoscoping volckmans story meaning linklaters later stories wasted life drugs old news everyone knows it one anything it renaissance offer something new think about many stories loads holes far betterbr br well done volckman really nice work,0 venthello first off think ive ever seriously considered redflag feel like im heading towards it im male ive quit highschool jobs currently unemployed sad story amazing loving family without exception care financially also emotionally mom one amazing loving persons lucky meet fact life great makes hate even more feel like piece shit worthless id hate cause pain family ive living life past years since quit highschool isolated myself know quit isolated myself im tired watching time pass years cant stable job commit anything really like said think id kill myself im getting fed up sometimes honestly hope id courage kill myself cause momentary pain family freeing burden me,1 want diei hate this covid everything bad hate al wish dead cant buy gun dont think anything worth anymore ive trying feel better encouraging people live subreddit cant dont feel same,1 enjoying lunch at the lake of constance uh that would be cool but impossible,0 and india missed out it 00th test victory n 0th consecutive win without a loss,0 @darrenmonroe Nice article on aff marketing...btw you gotta do something about your permalinks. ,0 "@hyunaepark LOL girl what r u doin?!?! Hahaha floodin twitter dude its been work day from hell, whatchu doin tonight?",0 @astrowebgirl Yeah really! I was having a fit! Are you going to try the beer with those slugs? ,0 fuck math math quiz questions werent supposed another one extra credit got total go next zoom class tears eyes,0 im thinking redflagive fine last ish weeks used cut stop feeling numb never taught redflag before im thinking now taught things finally going get better found someone amazing talk to ended messing things them last couple days cut self yet im scared ill start able stop know im thinking like this,1 want drop course school effect grade future dad let me hard going mental strenuous time need another thing redflag out want tell dad want kill another course redflaging out convince him suicidal school redflaging out,1 anyone elseive got one person im talking to anyone else,1 please help me i don t want to kill myself but the world ha nothing to offer me nothing that s making me want to keep going i m terrified of death but i don t know if that s reason enough to keep going if i m going to die anyway maybe i should speed up the process already save the world the trouble because the world clearly doesn t want me i m not even a real girl i m ugly and i m not good enough at anything everybody else is so much better than me people would rather be with each other instead of me i m so forgettable but i don t want to be death is permanent isolation permanent darkness permanent loneliness and that s not what i want but i don t think me being alive is what the world want i feel like i m always the last person anybody would ever want to see at any given moment i don t want it to be that way but everybody else doe i ve tried so hard to find reason to keep going they never work they never last people leave me behind everything stop being fun people stop playing with me i m excluded from everything i m not good enough to make it in this world everything about me is wrong nothing i do is good enough i want to keep going but i have no reason to do so nobody is waiting for me nobody is coming to rescue me i have nothing why should i keep going if i m going to die anyways i m begging you for an answer because i have none,1 think found hate myself seen gifted kid perfect everything mind problem view everytime fail anything feel disappointed mad everytime feel like everytime mess anything disappointment everyone bit feel like better one test messes start sad knowing grade isnt perfect thats bad dont like cause body isnt perfect dont like cause skills arent perfect dont like cause grades arent perfect on look kids get bad grades normally parents dont get disappointed didnt stupid label slapped them sorry rant mad myself,0 might kill myselfbeen contemplating killing now mental health deteriorating rapidly past couple years dont know cope every day tiring seems like im wasting breath point im sick feeling lonely miserable hopeless knowing end life makes feel less victim mental health makes think finally end pain whatever might weeks go actually it ive got couple things need get done im still debating write note leave sort explanation,1 hello people would like tell get morning go dentist get fillings wrist part drills sound like mechanical demonic children crawling tv tensed entire time hows day going,0 series idealized fictionalized quirkiness sultriness goodheartedness come living islandbr br i lived way part hawaii years found hilarious quirky fun people remote nontourist areasbr br every time see reruns series fondly compare memories experiences outoftheway parts hawaii memories portrayed fictionalized key westbr br this series reality television hate reality televisionbr br it era people still wrote creative tv shows give young writer takes inspiration angels spray wizards palm trees elves seashells day,0 teen doesnt watch porn like wtf everyone want watch dudes dick cumming watching gay midget porn watch interracial lesbians sexual intercourse ,0 bro wtf scrolling nsfw sub saw girl used sext recognized room body minor still bruh,0 will probably be in scotland next week http plurk com p n0ivz,0 @racingleager thanks for the article on danica ,0 "@Wossy Shift+3 or Alt+3, depends how you've got it set up ",0 Funny day today got rubbed with grass by a girlfriend of mine and after that we had a water fight ,0 baking all morning. then headin over to the mieleki's for the cookout! so excited to see everyone!,0 need everything stopi need everything stop life people friends school need stop cant anymore cant,1 dannyvegasbaby danny im upset that i wasnt here to watch the live chat i wa in a car for hour on a trip im soooo upset,0 extremely dark brooding show excellent cast one shows try watch regular basis glad see bebe neuwirth recurring role feel andre braugher underutilized one intense actor hope cbs gives better time slot next season,0 im anyone feeling down needs advice bad day dm me would love chat help way can need somebody rant to ill gladly listen also rather talk discord dm ill send discord info,0 dont want slash wrists againanyone know deaths caused something simple alcohol poisoning pill overdose seems like impossible die way sucks cause would simple pharmaceutical drugs arent used be back s could take handful pills whiskey never wake,1 fucked need help apologizing someone deserve good apology overthinking much right sent yet need fucking it ghosted friend almost year still text sometimes please someone help apology already wrote need help apologizing,1 Just created the account and logged in for the 1st time. Joining the hype ,0 really want go it thing holding back limitation methods availablei think im finally ready end it really want fuck able look back even though odds point that precautions take make sure fail,1 im going butif killed right now totally convinced everyone would happy im finally gone hurts know,1 @JustBongs_ And it's never easy to bounce back once the relationship is done with u. A low self-esteem and depression are the results of such. Yhu ha.a ngeke ,1 whats anybody bored something share send pm,0 depression stress,1 know even seatbelts people die time car crashes thought thay interesting,0 wanna take nap wanna cant,0 in the university in the classroom on the computer shit my day is boring,0 ive lost allif cared people thought me would commit redflag understood meant realized time three knew joy living put words describe feelings reason go school learn talk shy people always pointed things get want school help much except unnaturally loud voice gets peoples faces speak known put thoughts action mostly understand capability so every person born another competitor world elementary school young age different matter make friends one liked am people im boring person worth time talking smarter class put gifted class first grade nothing came it understand ahead others finished exams faster got top scores without trying boredom set in without friends tend lurk corner trying go library learn more second grade already hated school much wanted kill chancellor board education started plotting ways kill him course come fruition supreme willpower execute plan learning columbine helped see fact kill enough people revise plan inflict damage id estimate killing people would sufficient plans then plus sparkle hope thinking things better future third grade painful sense work another person science project science projects awful sense create experiment given had made easy experiment fixed results never got good grades future individual projects mostly never proper tools begin with if choose life id alone forever everything want versus life people nothing would commit redflag instant life headed towards latter psychological evaluation every student time fourth grade knew redflag back then wanted it still glimmer hope things better weekend evaluation went library read world war world war ii mostly interested war history much carnage world created nuclear bombs dropped hiroshima nagasaki enthralled me weapons could instantly wipe entire city course feelings time alone solitude blurted statement psychologist baffled statement parents angry called school punished making statements school enacted plan play dates people class knew instant could never truly express ever fear punishment later night contemplated running highway jumping front train commit redflag decided lie things going better new challenges experiences await except one told involved burning bridges one would think going junior high school new people would change mind people would act suffice say made life even worse tried myself projects needed done group work carry rest group less interest hobbies used enjoy every morning would wake mental exercise saying myself why committed redflag today eventually knew answer nothing weak could go human instinct live need overcome order stronger like committed redflag me high school different sense get contact people mostly trying myself sure disgusted acting way principle mind use abuse relationships get want also id see rampant cheating exams order get toptier universities one would get caught punished realizing senior year needed come plan promote justice equality way show this one cant start immediately grand goal one must meticulously plan ahead see come fruition day vt shooting came air reported number dead moving target pushed higher make name myself needed kill people joked would become next shooter fit perfectly shooters mentality looks well luckily things died act upon urges shooter mentality bullying racism drives people commit acts atrocities things matter depressed think society effectively rejected world one find people mostly invisible rest us exhibit signs hostility towards themselves unless someone looks life closely one choose ignore signs shooters act acting anger attempting fit place want belong world much easier accepting heshe going alone rest lives living life way torture someone wants belong the keystone alone top course people continuously cheated throughout high school tended get better schools got ivy leagues felt slight resentment towards them realized needed game system benefit unfortunately learned lesson late college either chose go state university instead private ones would less debt pay future plan worked hoped go path internshipjob juniorsenior year however employer wanted speak even though comparable credentials everybody else know looked peoples resumes compare myself feeling dejected prospect job coming college applying applications jobs internships compounded global recession realize bargained long why think almost literature dystopian future coincidence needed new reason continue living college costbenefit analysis comes in selfishness comes play long got benefit people pay cost would survive spite towards family graduating started looking work companies going job fairs meeting new people networking gone year now applying positions inperson applications online soundly rejected various points hiring process even worse hearing response every day look news disillusioned ive become abject failure ive always considered failure new low myself currently work parttime selfemployed investments odd jobs babysitting tutoring also heard dad going lose job couple weeks would great time commit redflag costbenefit analysis showing benefits going much anymore biggest question whether go bang whimper well thats it get fulltime position two weeks know choice made fear weakness weaknesses must exploited,1 driving back to la quinta tomorrow i should sleep but i m oddly wired,0 I'm actually sticking to my diet. I am impress ,0 iti always see everyone around tough anytime life hits curve ball im barley getting bed days feeling like everyone hates get cant keep trying thing made try like used pain would cause friends commit life hard times everyone says toughen brave u brave one really understands struggle survive world im judged dont many opportunities im different mom thinks know feel struggle doesnt put mask everyone see happy reality im never happy even im still sad im point everyone around brave tough moment something small happens breakdown,1 well great go seek help put redflag watch fucking case shit theyre gonna call regularly keep check me thats nonsense everyone leave fuck alone wish everybody fucking hated would make killing much much easier could enjoy slowly changed antidepressants zoloft suit made kill even more gave xanax fucking panic attacks got worse zoloft also think drinking problem even though ive drunk like times cant control myself promised never drink alcohol make problems go away fuck shit bite lips get anxious last time swollen lips weeks literally chewed skin lips taking ages heal today im worried lips going swollen tomorrow ive made plans go even though want to longer im alone time get think killing myself know more im sucking lollipops stop biting lips fucking chewing skin off know im posting this nobody needs worry me needed vent know someone reading knowing im feeling good right now,1 recently me and my boyfriend had issue that have been accumulating come to a head for a week i wasn t sure if he wa going to leave because of them and for a week i tried to decide what i wa going to do if he did everything is fine now thankfully we talked and we re working on our issue the main one being that he need my help to open up emotionally so he doesn t bottle them up the reason his flight instinct kicked in and he almost broke it off wa because i had stopped checking in on him and thus he thought that meant i didn t want to know i know this sound odd but this is what he told me in actuality i did want to know we just got to the point that i thought he d just tell me i wa wrong this is going exactly the way you think it is during that week i decided that if he left me i wa going to end my life at the time i didn t know that him bottling thing up wa the reason he wa talking about a lot of other thing namely my increased anxiety and me not coping well with it on my own he said i wa overloading him which i understand he also said that i seemed more angry with him over time and more anxious and that that made him feel badly about himself i didn t know any of this i thought he would tell me i ve had a traumatic life spent year feeling unloved by my family lived in a home where i wa unwelcome accumulated five mental disorder and last year wa committed for suicidality i spend the majority of my time trying to be a good of a person a i possibly can and i wa doing that with him a well and i failed obviously i came to the conclusion that if he decided that the issue we had were too fundamental to who i am and therefore unfixable that he wa probably right i spent the last few day of that week planning my death decidng what my note would look like of which there would be many one for each member of my family and for the first time actually wanted to die when i wa committed before i wa delusional i didn t want to die i thought that i had to to end the suffering this time i just didn t want to go on i figured i had given it my best shot and now the only way i could be of any use wa to leave my loved one alone and write them letter to soothe their grief and i knew some would be sad some would be angry but i just couldn t do it anymore and now he s saying these issue are fixable that he love me and want to stay that he still see good in me but now i feel confused i wa expecting to die this week i expected him to end it today or over the weekend and that didn t happen emotionally i am a wreck and neither he nor anyone else know i didn t tell him because i didn t want that to affect his decision and i would rather cut off my arm then manipulate people i love i won t tell him now either if he ever doe decide to leave he need to feel free to do so and now i just i ve discovered how dependent i am on others to give me value i simply don t believe that everyone ha value some people namely rapist serial killer people who hurt people over and over with no remorse etc don t and thus that mean that to keep myself from being hypocritical i have to apply my belief system to myself a well in the past i told myself that i am simply too unwell to make that decision objectively but now that feel like running away from the question i am just reconciling this relationship is inherently unstable because me and him are both highschoolers and i have enough illness to mark me insane i ve realized that i won t be able to handle loosing him because i think he is such a great human being and he s treated me so well if we ever split i ll know it wa my fault and apparently that mean more to me than i thought no one in my life can know this happened specifically because i recently went off of my anxiety medication and they ll say thats why this happened this doesn t make sense because when i wa commited last year i wa taking the medication and that didn t prevent me from being suicidal and because the side effect of the medication made my life significantly worse and harder so i doubt going back on it would really help i will not discus why because it is horribly embarrassing and feel dehumanizing and i don t want anyone s opinion i just want to know how do i move on all it took wa a week for those thought to become instinct again and they re still following me typically i move on quickly partly because of my dissociative disorder and it d only take a day or two to forget but this isn t dissapearing i ve damaged my psyche and i don t know what to do about it i can t talk to a therapist in my experience they don t actually know how to help you move on from a period of suicidality they only know how to keep you from doing it i think cbt the therapy not the drug could help honestly but i doubt seriously i could find a therapist who doesn t think suicidal thought disappear after you re commited at least thats how they treated it at the psych ward they act like your thought should be gone in a week last time i opened up about this i felt like i wa being punished by my family and by my doctor actually i m still being punished at least by my family everyone ha an opinion about your suicidality and everyone make it about themselves i just mean to say opening up isn t an option i don t need further punishment or have people angrier with me than they were before how can i in my own time and on my own term move foward i know there s a way especially since i m motivated though my heart is probably in the wrong place because my reason for being motivated is so that it doesn t affect my boyfriend and i feel i should specify i don t mean how can i tackle the root i can actually do that in therapy without risking hospitalization i just mean a of now how can i wrangle myself together and keep moving,1 read synopsis messiah television guide prepared store story follows dci metcalfe trying solve case grisly murders taken across london soon realises pattern serial killer loose killing people similar names jobs apostles killings identical matching apostle two part series kept right edge seat metcalfe closely pursuing killer always missing within couple seconds discovering gruesome mess left behind illfated victim messiah sure cause great deal controversy nonetheless greatest piece drama bbc shown long time,0 know do alone right now feel depressed also embarrassed posting here think something irreparably wrong me think seen much scary shit much trauma think anyone ever love me friends live different states again alone want kill myself alone rest life worry people rejecting me feel pain watching parents die suffer silence keep burdening friends understood taken care of ill gone peace finally convinced something wrong,1 typing lower case make terrible person typing lower case make terrible person,0 cool mobile games one handed gameplay im looking left arm fucking broke,0 a little cool thing about the #w3cegov #opengov dialogue "idea" is that it was numbered 1000 ,0 hypothetically speaking if i went to walmart and bought some motor oil a lighter and a bottle of water then i went out to the parking lot removed my shirt and then doused my arm on fire i m not looking to kill myself i just want self harm in a different way than cutting anf bashing my head with blunt object,1 taratomes i applied to go on that but my dad wouldn t drive me to manchester for the audition,0 humiliated ballet class lay stretches ballet class girl approached got hold legs spread apart proceeded stomp testicles girls class heard groaning gathered round watch audience watching crush nuts ,0 feel like never amount anything life going directionout uni degree stuck horrid low paying job partner never seems want spend time me feel ugly fat like repel people constantly feel guilty jealous best friend since graduation countless related jobs still seems bitch moan without thoughts anyone else going date one friends throwing around too whilst im stuck like worthless piece shit cant even get pet rabbit like think im worthwhile im loss do lack motivation get better want give now,1 "Hey @Audiophile021. It's been an age, man. Hope it's going good down in Cape Town, bro! ? http://blip.fm/~7bazd",0 "@PinkIsSoPretty5 yeah i have like 2 or 3 more quarters to go. story is a bit long for twitter, facebook me for details ",0 Gettin ready for work <3 jAcQuELiNe,0 guys friends ignores texts time worst thing ever,0 @Clareies whip out out the after sun and moisturiser!,0 can t sleep how frustrating,0 get comments please itll worth time need comments,0 got sit next crush school sit table one next mine still see absolute win,0 @pr0cter it was pretty easy got one more to go!! ,0 portal gaming hello yes portal good opinion portal ,0 holding threadim stay home dad day medical pot grower night married two kids wife works dispensary home kids oldest almost days consist waking hungry baby three year old wife gets ready work wakes non stop alarms banging around mornings matter late im caring grow every morning take care babies morning im bitched either good enough job kidshouse maybe gone late last night must cheatingthroughout day blow phone asking constantly asking cheating ive noticed random people suspiciously driving slowly past house clearly trying see it never dishonest ever even received complement women since weve together idk always thinking im cheating gets home get complaints made dinner something might missed cleaning even kids wet home hour without changing them im ignored phone till falls asleep lonely grow room wallow pathetic depression feel worthless dead inside ive lost people feel like ever loved year im sure deserve much pain im sick path im going whats making even harder know babies taken care well im gone cant dad be im worthless cant anything right destroy everything touch everyone everything love dies goes away try hard make friends anyone talk every time someone around wife mean disappear like something make angry know whats wrong ive worked hard make everyone around happy feel would rather gone dont know anymore think able hang anymore one go know do,1 needi everything need cant bring use think confused everyone kinda caused need advice help talk,1 dont feel like myselfi hurt everyone care,1 footlight parade released viewed br br the ice cream cone invented new yorkbr br kevin long busy break hit another busby berkeley musical warner bros time ultrafast paced footlight parade starring james cagney juggernaut stage producer chester kent certain cagney channeling berkeley performance irrepressible kent come new ideas performances every minute joan blondell also excellent acidtongued secretaryturnedlove interest ruby keelerdick powell subplot major time less enjoyable one thing baffled berkeleys performances themselves seemed far extravagant complex performed stage let alone stage would showing film afterwards obviously busby let little thing like story impede putting together overthetop musical numbers possibly conjure liked nearly movie end shamelessly offensive number shanghai lil which one guess stomachturning racially distasteful performances comebr br doug six movies three months got new record anywaythis completes warner bros musical trilogy preceded nd street gold diggers would definitely recommend watching three row wonder james cagney channeling busby berkeley playing chester kent movie role written inspired busby hope was seems make sense berkeley kind guy would see elaborate dances everyday occurrences way chester does funny thing cagney really look like leading man traditional sense squareheaded talked odd new york accent guy quite versatile going venomous gangsters made famous fasttalking producertypes see here could dance basically leading man body character actor rest cast familiar faces joan blondell returns steals show cagneys loyal lusting secretary dick powell ruby keeler play cute couple seem get less screen time before billy barty pops mischievous imp movie typical racy adultoriented musicals precode era opposed s s family oriented excellent climax warner musicals year the shanghai lil number withstanding keeler poor job looking chinesebr br last film dinner eight next film im angel ,0 yay i can txt to twitter but can t receive to my cell bcos im in new zealand,0 game over im itafter months poisonivy style itching kill myself im finally going it way ever fit world happily sorry family friends please tell imperative include note thanks guys,1 endworst day life im brink something would never imagined hope everyone thinks accident hope never find body,1 extremely depressedsuicidal years finally changedhttpimgurcomdipzops httpimgurcomqfxjrma httpimgurcomsndvzzw httpimgurcomzlfgdz little dude responsible positive change life recently,1 lolbiggest mistake life actually sharing im sick head people friends family shouldnt have keep eventually die suffer another pain pain ignored pain feeling unimportant pain insulted understood became laughing stock uselesss dumb person them,1 fuck relationships want sex yes took idea hot post here opinion different know deserve people jus waiting turn sex,0 amazing replaceable am left depression makes worthless found woman looks like me even name therapist tells obsessive cannot get egotistical got new therapist says deluded never loved me need decide let go love call it closest ever had every day think there truly point living there every day wake confront fact alone go away cannot nobody wants broken thingssometimes think hidden it maybe things would better right honest deserved know was worthless wore shirt bought date girl name,1 a serait cool si notre soci t s int ressait beaucoup plus sur la psychologie ex le cause de malady mentales d pression trouble bipolaires ect l anatomie du corp humain ex le diff rences du d veloppement sexuelle http t co b tvixyi d,1 redflag hotline answering nobodys answering gunalone suicidal even know im anymore im massive fuckup gun etc,1 excited for senior appreciation day and ribs!!! ,0 i have severe major depression and its not cool basically,1 "depression: i'm always here for u, darling",1 "Gosh, I had not realised how much film studies work Pete had set us. Meanwhile, I'm going to watch 'The Motorcycle Diaries' ",0 charliecondou skinmusic more like,0 gop eleven one day pay all employee monthly pay one day you have no idea gop with gas a high a to rent being 00 useeoc these corporate company are going to lose to the depression and the government clash none of these company would survive without ppl like me,1 new deleted award see lot posts sub deleted award cannot give myself people giving out,0 someone help purify simpage lend strength please comrades,0 i m a very confident guy i m very socal and can speak to anyone but for some reason i have this weird like i dunno anxiety attack thing so basically i could be having a random chat but quite often if someone say something that could be deemed wrong or bad or something that i could potentually be hiding when im not i go bright red really hot itchy and im all awkward and can bairly make word out even if they arnt even talking to me directly here is some example i wa talking to a fellow work mate about our personal preference in woman i said i prefer smaller petite girl with small boob and he said nahh i dissagree it like a child s body and boom my brain somehow ha this attack that make me seem like i like kid or another one could be playing never have i ever and someone say never have i ever sucked a cock and boom it ll happen itll make it look like im hiding the fact that i ve sucked a cock which i havent could be anything along those line and i hate it and i always try my hardest to avoid any convos which could lead to anything like that i m a prison officer so sometimes they bring up corrupt officer in convos and it hit me so hard and they look at me funny like im hiding the fact that i m corrupt which i m not i hate it what is this and how can i fix it,1 @ArfanChaudhry thanks ,0 twitter.com and eating a lollY!! lol ,0 well people spoken heres ultimate alpha male cosmo ampxb family portrait tingzhttpspreviewredditsmyftwpajpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsdaadfdcccbe look smilehttpspreviewredditjsrgtwpajpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsedabbadcffbaeee he sure ladies manhttpspreviewredditlvvojgtwpajpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampscbadebecdadccbd,0 Good nite everyone sweet dreams ,0 spam every dms have ,0 I'm out the door to train. everybody try to have a fit day ,0 truth ive seen pickup lines sub two days dating apps ever seen fucking existence,0 tell friendsthrowaway account reasons met vast majority friends internet kill im sure theyd ever know title says tell im killing let slowly forget me,1 amp x 00b so i m in my thirty i m about to finish my phd in one of the world s best university and this morning i felt fine i usually revert to writing in here a a way of emptying my soul and feeling better usually it work and it ha taken me from the deepest pit of my depression to a milder state of mind not to a happy place mind you but to a lower scale bout of depression i come from a rocky couple of year i have discovered that my old supervisor had tricked an exam against me to have me fail and kicked out of the uni check my older post for this story also involving the examiner the full professor who deemed me too ugly fat and stupid for a phd full quote i have found support in the wider academic world with a world renown name offering me a job first and then agreeing to supervise me if i had not taken it i have sued the university kind of it wa a process internal to the university but i had to hire a lawyer i have won a crushing win against the faculty i have never seen a similar humiliation for a faculty and an examiner said a friend and former judge i have repeated the exam i have passed the exam i am now a month from submission my new supervisor and my friend unofficial supervisor have just promoted my dissertation with flying color so i basically need to write a conclusion of a couple of page cross the t dot the is and hand in what ha been long year of my life should have been but these shenanigan robbed me of full year of my life i am however today back in the pit of the grad school depression a i am not sure it is finished remember the humiliated full professor above when i passed the exam one of the examiner wa a friend of his who basically did everything in his power to fail me i passed because the other examiner took my side in the shouting match it wa ugly a fuck and basically told me that the humiliation of me winning in court could not pas without further action now i even though my dissertation is unassailable i do not trust the university and i am fully expecting a final hack job at the thesis defence and against that i am powerless,1 is going to priceline city tomorrow but lost her must have list,0 Where is @JohnMu? anyone heard or have seen JohnMu of CHeeseland recently? ,0 raymondroman oh no how did you manage to send something to the trash can and empty it without noticing i feel for ya,0 quandotcom i miss mine too,0 someones flirting gf getting weird one friend group right always get together friday nights game nights dinner consisted couple guys girls girlfriend doesnt really like go shes social fine me however one girl friend group recently started flirting obvious like im one toot horn say people me like everyone says shes flirting me havent mentioned ive talked girlfriend says sees actually hanging us idk doesnt seem like big deal written weird dont wanna break friend group also want girl stop anything say do thanks guys ,0 oh god are we in sync depression wise too https://twitter.com/404lite/status/989226610803998720 …,1 get feeling unpopular opinion literally sick right now recently made come psychiatric medications family member risk losing home able secure move into thought depression before never known emptiness like this feel utterly alone one life even wants bother try help me everyone sick me id say think keeping cat even would okay quietly left absolutely one would miss me get miserable day even mentioning likely permanent damage motor sensory function prescribed half dozen antidepressants less year already issues chronic pain fatigue know could possibly get worse ready fucking quit wish someone call clean whatever mess lifeless body would make upon exit family would deal it know would want to like life one would want deal mess existence would leave behind upon death fuck this suicide accepted redflag act made readily available choose opt life,1 oh thats kewl tb im just watching tv @sleeakgirl,0 "@rhyzome the blog is pretty lame, but the story of the unreleased bike seat as a tip was awesome ",0 crashed car tldr bottom drive somewhat modified z days ago crashed it driving around street fun friends pulling drifts stuff took hard degree turn floored get slides ended losing control wheel tried best trying grab back late took foot pedal tried brake point already scraped rear end trying get back control crashed front bumper onto curb end ripping bumper crushing intercooler car stalled slightly dazed jerk hit regret replacing steering wheel grippier one z fine get new front rear bumper bew intercooler tldr crashed z got dazed replace parts,0 im pissedi home alome weekend shouldve killed chance means i money go buy rope jump bridge onto train tracks sit around cry watch youtube feel like im going insane want end,1 idk if it's just me but like u know when u get closer to your exams u get that feeling of depression,1 @gabrielflorin01 Sis what happened? Depression? ,1 suggested hanging myself sound badmy parent my mother told hang myself long story go it honestly sound like bad idea lump throat right now ive never felt like before think ive gone enough shit failed end,1 @Jayme1988 even quicker iya back then! ,0 "@DLBreidenthal oh definitely, my depression stems from medical conditions and when i help those w diet/exercise/meds/etc and practice mindfulness,"" i feel so much better opposed to when i'm in a mood and mindset of """"life sucks"","" life will always suck."""" it's a balancing act forsure.",1 im lonely unsure fix it kind turned rant lonely since early high school found near impossible make friends escaped problem thinking ever playing videogames night sleeping school literally parents even got cool pillow fit pocket existential crisis deleted games computer set conquer shyness worked longer shy however shyness problem simply idea interact people took approach towards solving problem every problem ive ever had looked internet unfortunately unable find much useful data online almost information make girls magically attracted without exercise easy steps time could find databases conversations showing pick friends would much useful casual sex im junior college now got two year codependent relationship idea establish emotional intimacy outside romantic relationship maintain small talk decent period time come across awkward imagine post sounds usually communicate directly thoughts acquaintances get drunk hang occasionally one really caring close friend saw crying looking me one close friend used love fear still is making irresponsible seek support spend days trying distract logic puzzles music alcohol drugs hang people know like they dislike me nice people indifferent sitting room alone depressing im failing school motivation see piece paper allows get job want make happy counseling utterly useless tell problems tells im depressed take drugs barely outperform placebo arguably due bias studies reported use inert placebos friday must decide whether energy pass finals friday last day take medical leave much hope future idea make friends lonely im beginning believe perhaps lack skills unchangeable part personality keeps isolated one make friends asked question people always get answers involving things understand do go talk people how join club did club activities people incredibly impressed ability listen talk invited social circle interested math technology climbing things mixed martial arts building things find anything interesting hard activity compete sitting room crying p always exceptionally good math perfect math scores math team performance certainly reason able get good university despite putting almost effort classes high school ability get math classes without homework studying hours tests reason yet failed out feel like might happy life could somehow use gift benefit people suffering try think situation would make happy position help many people irreplaceable seems one justify existence feel emotionally immature age im ready graduate take life want curl ball cry im lonely wish friends im exactly sure im posting this feels good so anyone similar position learned interact people would appreciate advice feel like need know offer advice please ask would willing help via chat would appreciate too,1 one give tom jerry format tom smirks times collage,0 want preempt thisill brief because frankly care anymore within days hours something like that absolute love life going tell feels nothing anymore woke one day everything different mind including me loving mate never fought got along perfectly matched right places deeply madly love opened new worlds one another made life worth living going end anything cause it matter end so question is avoid killing myself like idea antidepressants pointless pride prevents getting therapist ive awful depression almost killed there one already several magnitudes worse even really started yet know do,1 feel like postingim alright dont feel control emotions time im hard myself dont want things get bad again felt depressed month two ago posted here major transition happening life ive felt weak im feeling quite happy least crisis dont know im feeling time majorly sad feel body know it im afraid knowing myself want keep track dont consider suicidal right im tired sometimes almost think terrible thoughts one caring bit isolated even though family im maybe good isolation try help people keep check anyone else this thanks reading,1 jinxcat unlike my sister i still don t have one,0 know write thisi cant feel happy ive depression almost year cant get it ampxb whenever something like ask why need go school get good job need get good job earn money need earn money buy need need buy need go job vicious cycle began feel pointless point feel like living worthless ampxb whenever get good grades school mum goes im proud you whenever get bad grades school mum goes im taking away phone laptop matter much get stupid number worthless test considered bad student cant learn fucking literature even get good grades every subjects ampxb im done everything mostly myself im trapped mind cant escape even cell open took part online course learned art sales learnt wanted get school guess took zero action isolated myself noone could even help me ampxb cant live myself im wothy living agree operate principal help help themself cant even help myself even bit whats point livining cant help myself ampxb post jack trades im feeling bit dizzy day cant concentrate well ampxb also im sure want accomplish post felt like writing down thanks reading,1 @ragdollgonewild No please. Make it Saturday ,0 Just downloaded a podcast @ the bus stop ,0 posting everyday get girlfriend day nothing day nothing today walked steps km posts keep getting removed maybe list list thing today day nothing today walked steps km day nothing make long list thing return soon worries today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km actually impressive walked inside house day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked inly steps km much today day nothing wrong u jcttt sadly list thing backat least partially day guess what still nothing day weeks day day hai make video bricks day nothing day fuck sorry hmin delay day days untill day still nothing day aaaaaaaa day day nothing day day day guy getting hot me day boys it rasputin million views club day celebrate day celebrate a th aniversary independence iceland kingdom denmark b th aniversary occupation estonia ussr c th 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day day absoloutly nothing happens countdown day day day day nothing,0 wow non work related i ve been doing the seo for a site i designed and it s now ranking on msn google and ask sadly not yahoo,0 @jeseniar iras a un show de Mitchel suertee have fun,0 word hobbies dont something good it make something nice fun relaxing exercise whatever easy get discouraged youre good something try keep going fun it make ugly plushy draw unrealistically start wobbly crochet blanket also hobbies arent gendered many creative relaxing hobbies deemed girly many awesome basic skills have like sewing repair clothes growing food learning cook meals boys arent limited meat sports code vice versa try something new year see goes getting started new things hard worth enjoyment,0 anyone ever told let kill would their fault diei hate guilt trips like this sounds like theyre concerned dying sake own,1 A few more hours and i'd be heading to Am's house to study tests tests!,0 anyone like fountain pens hobby collecting fountain pens wondering anyone sub shares hobby,0 ask girl question ask question thats personal,0 lately my best friend only long term friend ha just been brushing me off we joke for hour on end and i listen to them vent almost daily but when i brought up that i lost interest in all of my hobby again they go lmao same me a month ago and changed the subject i always put in an effort to be there for them even when i m in a low place and if i m not really able to feel empathy i tell them i refer them to help hotlines they refuse to get actual help i have given them every opportunity to get professional help by making a list of therapist in their area that take their insurance i ve given them every helpline under the sun whenever i have relative advice i give it to them but they always ignore it at one point i just stopped i stopped trying so hard and realized how much they rely on me to do everything for them they asked me a question i usually google it for them and summarize it i told them to google it they got annoyed with me so i cut them off for a few week whenever we started talking again thing were going well but of course a their type doe they eventually fell back into old habit this is strike for me and while i really don t want to lose the positive time we have together they just don t outweigh the negative i m tired i ve put in constant work and effort into being a healthy and stable a i am today and i m honestly not willing to slow down or trip up because of them i m open to any feedback or advice,1 i don t know what else to add don t try to comfort me i didn t want any flower i only wanted to lie with my hand turned up and be utterly empty how free it is you have no idea how free sylvia plath tulip,1 love letter goodbyedear harper love you know do know ive made whole lot mistakes learning im forever isnt going happen thats okay look yourself understand soul mate trust me isnt doubt mind know okay without me strongest person ive ever met beautiful too know gonna cry lot never wanted hurt you going make amazing mother make lucky soul happiest man world promise one thing you never settle never let someone isnt deserving amazing girl world never let beautiful smile run face im gone gonna lot people talking saying loved know truth person loved me please look little brother me dont want leave alone know never meant world know dont believe afterlife hope one ill get see again soul belongs you time forgotten thats okay hope wont let memory die me tell world love truly special like nothing earth last breath earth ill one thing mind thats you you harper gray one me cant even imagine living without thankfully wont to love already know that,1 hate birthday life looking darker years go bythis literally came mind im turning februaryand dont look forward it first memory birthday parents took movies watch racing stripes honest mischievous child wont sit still ran cinema dad grabbed arm pulled cinema yelling im crying took car locked inside went back finish movie im sitting car crying windows opened went home disciplined me day even remembered said dont care birthday plaster wall we concrete wallsas im crying belt marks back screams dont dare talk back promise you carry die tonight birthday year wanted relax watch tv couldnt even spend whole day brothers project helping doing none friends even called texted happy birthdayon birthday last year high school last time even heard friends one even wished id cards display dob maybe one popular guys im always one getting left out actually found friend group group chat never even knew it birthday year whole day filled yelling swearing violence got angry took myself alone brought back memories self harming used cut burn even tied fish tank tubing stick whipped it im turning next year dont know life going meant finish university next year instead failed repeating it feel like im wasting everyones time money determination drive left im counting days till demons win honestly dont plan live past ,1 hope megathicc good day rest everyone well ,0 @ashleytisdale i would love to! you should totally come to Denver! that would be amazing ,0 sister law attempted redflag last month please help shall family doesnt happen againmy brother married dec live india arrangedthen loveish marriage brother works job requires live different parts countryso naturally live away us last monththey went holiday destination sisterinlaws friend husband friend always abused husbandalways fights whatnot always say get divorced always lives together husband also big lunatic soas usual fighting resort silsister law tried console them shemy sil also weird personalityshe gets influenced easily friend slaps abuses brother first occurred resort brother slapped stay put started tearing clothes then said u want fight lets go home resolve there want create scene there sil always roaming everywhere friend eventually brother guy always together sil infuriated brother would give attention time went bastard abused bro guy next dayin morning fought brother ran shore somy brother ran save her waves high raining due tropical stormeventually four beach hurled abuses friends husband sameshe slapped guy also slapped times brother interfere fault they came roomand fight broke bro herher friend came acted like kerosene hour big fight started tearing clothes brother gifted her claimed brother smacked guys ass that favor take side instant jumped nd floor resort brother rushed grabbed hands lost grip somehow landed railing st floor fell ground floor ambulance came admitted spoke brother properly days always asked divorcehe always said lets go home get done th th vertebrae column got compressed ankle broke pieces like complete mental breakdown would cry one instantthen said wont leave youthe next moment wanted divorce called best friend attacked brother verbally loser control say much fearing consequences friend husband left place took flight back home brother somehow toiled back train doctor advised complete bed rest permit use plane alsoa complaint police made hospital investigations disposed said everyone fell stairs later leg surgery doctor advised complete bed rest least months let back heal extreme pain sat straight now bit sil done graduation years earlier pursue studies listening best friend instead started preparing competitive exam failedshe problem epilepsy currently ongoing medicine improvement visible seizures around every months approx watch single movietv show hobbynor like readtraveletc sheafter marriage made brother center world like obsessed him importing thing people think her incidentshe told brother tell done injury anyone tell us mother got angry sad told mother sil fought brother told motherthat heart condition watnot earlier also threatened brother would slit wrist celebrate birthday mall brother busy day single second free offered go next day year course father suggested do got enrolled earlier year completely hated course teaching job as well reputed govt jobs she failed qualify for family decided start psycho therapy soon gets better cure depression todaya causal conversation going asked rethink could ended badly nowi told never forget intensity situation shw could diedor paralysis dire consequences brother could go jail things told stop caring people think dont let anyone else come two people influence you still blames brothers fault favor herand bitch friend brainwashed mind accept fault when said if similar fight happens two you would again said no asked not repliedit hurt much time cant imagine hurting body know love body much one stops eatingif finds gm weight increasedshe always go gym one maintains hair personality show everyone want always right think good her ampxb answer worries much thinking past hours hence writing gain insight family next worried brother ampxb please bear english grammatical mistakes,1 thinking life holds much painhello there next month see future moment im emotional unstable hard pay attention important parts life right im sitting train station fight girlfriend got mad left apartment went train next city assume sure current life could good think throw small web developer business debt cant find bank finance it next month at almost birthday pay know how last year family members died sister opened got raped kid business went downhill feel completely lost know deal everything once know go life girlfriend answering im worried know long want keep this,1 see genuine reason exist anymorei dont want exist every day consists either embarrassing reminded truly inferior compared around get miserable passing day oftentimes force stay standing literally collapse giving entirely cant find enjoyment anything hobby pastime desperately distract long enough dont remember absolutely fucking helpless truly am futurewise nothing look forward to live bloated egotistical country dying economy repeatedly told every single person know grateful suck up ever feel anger often exploding smallest inconvenience dont feel anger feel either nothing allconsuming despair longer go worse feel would mercy died quietly corner dorm instead forcing stay awake ive tried therapy medication never anything frankly dont want anything would happier couldnt remember anything,1 sad sad sad i don t know why but i hate this feeling i wan na sleep and i still can t,0 im pretty bored anyone wanna chat im bored got nothing,0 @rawrgoesaimee yes ill be back ,0 Watching the sound of music happy place.,0 im donei vaginismus lost faith friendship care life anymore would like die,1 hello rredflagwatchim going cut chase ask tell me point serving society doomed fail point fighting life going end day poi thing vain point fight anything tell instead telling much live for,1 dont watch among us musical half live streaming reason poorly made hired bunch youtuber look alikes nothing common apart hair colour gender really want watch youtube,0 gun usehow idk loldont know else post nonjudgmental im home alone rn college sitting front dads guns safe unlocked usually kinda dumb part considering ive antidepressants awhile lmao silly dude anyway know load anything probably today idk one easier useless painful someone could help me looked smith amp weston mampp ruger mkiii know means ill able use yeah im kinda worried im going botch bc ive never used gun feel like would luck make vegetable something still live im staring right lol,1 doubt it animated short put uncle walt map success walts older brotherroy suggested next mickey mouse short include sound walt jumped chance resultsteamboat willie runaway hit was all first animated short subject synchronized sound track mostly music sound effectsas dialog minimal sound like wet blanket short far perfect animation prior creaky rather herky jerky but equipment made improvementsand better artistic techniques came aboutthe rest smooth sailingand sound primitive disney wanted use well known rca sound systemor western electric noiseless sound systembut refused firmsprompting disney use photophone system pa powers experimenting time plot theres actual plot line hereconcerns mickey as aforementioned willieis pilot steamboat terrorized black pete captain pete youand decides jam session ship using various animals board musical instruments aspca take notice think much technical shortcomings steamboat willie eight minutes fun and piece history,0 every day feel like constant pain mind shut constant discomfort anxieties dissatisfaction understand expected stay alive want end afraid working know else help hear people life want it wish someone could help think feels unbearable keep going want hear people talk,1 post something thats slightly controversial anyway join sub rformyfellowteenagers,0 like lasagna like lasagna leave opinion comments,0 @YoungArse He's an extremely emotional person. I would honestly rather he sank into depression than go this way,1 dont want alive anymorewinter break over horrible stayed bed till days nothing awake school starting tomorrow ill study again homework every day spend hours every day except saturday sunday stuck place filled annoying inconsiderate kids dont want go back dont really want anything anymore think im going kill tonight donr know,1 @itskrystalskye ahk cool i agree. ,0 got fired new job time give upi got fired yesterday bad attendance sick days used months even make months im cant hold job feel like ive tried enough times fail much anxiety won cant this cant live world like this tried many times failed many times old position see light end tunnel im seriously considering using last paycheck ticket life whatever ends being massive failure giant humiliation bad person know im posting this maybe im hoping someone kind words make believe might okay even though us know better,1 anyone played henry stickmin games knows pain finished watching playthrough almost cried showed end text fill childhood shared name legend,0 @CHERUBnkotb not premiere not but the following weekend. I love transformers as a kid & i love Shia Labeouff even more! ,0 twitter please fix this http sp ro b bdb because it brake all external twitter avatar search,0 people suckeveryone says oh things change go college just wait out ive waiting years want shit fixed now,1 nick carter time for warcraft yes but for a simple game of a group of fan no just let u know if u figure it out you want the prize,0 @donah_21 too big. hahah! ) you're so cute. ,0 Another day at work till 4. What a boring life. Haha ,0 in cars porn star evan stone mountain bike sex depression homosexuality best 100 porn stars ameture nude pic.twitter.com/yBGcZBur7Z,1 im going kill tomorrowits day off cant anymore keep making posts keep hyping never follow through im alone alone im tired always falling short even smallest things useless,1 im failure everyone im unemployedi blame them im contributing sit around fuck all tmd bpd anxiety depression dropped uni almost two years ago since ive benefits live uncle give week gave drugs alcohol started smoking cigarettes ive gained lbs past two years mostly past year since meeting boyfriend im failure family mum says failed knows every time sees me im looking half bottle vodka thinking drinking whole thing im failure,1 believe found perfect friend group girls fucking fun went two days row ive never friends painted nails importantly actually fucking care mental health fucking good feel friends never guys again,0 i m f currently on a work trip with a few of my coworkers most of whom i ve known for year but haven t seen in person since covid started i m decently close with one person in particular and the rest i just have a normal professional relationship with last night everyone went out to celebrate a big milestone during the trip and had a great time i wa definitely pretty drunk by the end of the night and getting home is a little hazy but i woke up with good memory of the night before and wasn t concerned that anything had happened anyways no one had texted me this morning and i wasn t sure what the plan for the day wa so i reached out to the coworker i m closer with and asked what she wa up to she said she wa going to breakfast with another person on the trip and that i could come which i agreed to but then she texted and said they were actually leaving right now for breakfast and that we could meet up later this seemed odd to me since we re all in the same hotel and i could have been ready to head out whenever but it felt like she didn t want me to come i think i m reading into it a bit too much but now i m freaking out worried that i did something wrong last night and that s the reason i m not being invited along today i don t really have a track record of doing thing out of character while drunk though so i m just really confused and anxious tldr got drunk with coworkers who i haven t seen in a while and now it feel like no one want to hang out with me,1 is it a bad thing i cried in front of my friend who s a girl so i m a guy and my best friend who is a girl opened up to me about abuse she faced in the past and i started cry while she wa telling me and i just hugged her the next day i told opened up to her that i experienced the same type of abuse and that s why it broke my heart when she had told me about it i also have opened up to her about me self harming and having severe depression and having a drug problem i ve recently been doing better but i can t help but worry that this changed how she see me she ha remained super supportive and still asks me to hangout and i feel like we have grown closer but i also worry she secretly think i m a bitch now,1 need advice job interview chipotle hour half position crew member mom says wear slacks think thats formal wear interview thanks advance,0 im diagnosed depression chill anybody else listen love songs feel like shit like yeah listen x juice lot rn im crying john legend songs nope me cool,0 hi twitter verse i know it been a while but stupid depression and nightmare can kick my as sometimes and i know a lot of my friend are here that i ve not gotten a chance to hang out with in a while i think about you guy quite often i miss you all no matter what,1 crush used virtual pets put heart telling liked her got rejected audacity ask pets,0 started getting mailshots aimed at pensioner it s all downhill now,0 reason livehi first sorry english completely reason live cant focus anything enjoy things like books games even youtube video every day looks pretty much same nobody really likes talk me one real friend talk really rarely im stupid pass school point od life theres reason getting bed ive attempt three months ago ive failed becouse know tie loop properly what fucking funny still marks neck so do huh give single fuck anymore like life arleady going right formality thanks time,1 @Londonspirate Oooo good tip! hello by the way ,0 Oh by the ways... Hangover is pretty funny ,0 @StacieBee its not exactly new. I am still seeing the very bestest spa girl. Just um in her own spa its a big yay for her.,0 savicevic aww i won t be that roommate next year,0 fuck all hope everyone sub dies painful death fucking suck deserve death ill see hell,0 need know anyone else issue ok like um idk puberty things recently noticed getting excited someone good person whenever someone nice friend cares gives complimets starting get excited anyone else issue,0 alive absolute torture every day wake everyday disappointed die night before last months medication therapy avail hospitals danger self harmed much point scars arms doubt ever heal life huge downward spiral long remember ruining friendship someone person made feel anything meaningful long fucking time straw broke camels back complain barely anything good life fuck everything good it past weeks trying whatever escape world awful lonesome empty feel even hours drugs alcohol whatever always come back hole always am little brother every time tells loves get sad want leave much fucking pain know much longer go without ending all fought fought depression took right steps get better nothing works anything feel even worse know anyone read need vent know much longer,1 plans graduationim junior highschool terrifying every day panic attacks manic episodes psychiatrist believe im bipolar therapist does mom agrees psychiatrist make matters worse due recent manic depressive episodes getting stuck mental hospital attempting redflag numerous accounts deep self harm overdosing severely track graduating class im failing im becoming alcoholic im mostly loner honestly want live life lackluster me plans college uni plan alive im completely stuck mortal realm sucks ass do want end life ive failed many redflag attempts already fear ill stuck hospital weeks again cant take anymore maybe ill try something effective want alive want make ,1 god why do i have reverse seasonal depression i get worse when it starts getting warmer https://twitter.com/j_conl/status/988909063227543554 …,1 hes really going leave meim verge tears im borderline hyperventilating sent song remember me coco almost burst tears cant anymore cant deal loss fault know it tried hard,1 do you guy also have the unbearable urge to just step out of your door one day and leave i can t take it anymore i tried for year to get happy or at least not miserable but all i do creates more critic and now i m not even at peace when i m home i have no hope finding peace success or even stability at home and just vanishing seems to be the only thing left to try sometimes i just wan na get in my car fuel it up and leave everyone and everything behind sleeping in the car and go wherever sadly i wouldn t even have the money to even last a month,1 "@Rosie thank you for NEVER Compromising yourself, thoughts, hopes, dreams,&beliefs for the sake of ratings,likes,& trends. The world needs more Rosie's, I know with the severe PTSD, anxiety, & depression I live daily that quite often you're the 1 giggle I muster up. So THANK U pic.twitter.com/kfJcAjk2G6",1 wrote somethingbeen long time since wrote something really wanted get feelings out going anything soon death mind constantly ways want cease exist thanks reading dh easy whether believe not is just stop cease be hard part baggage comes death includes much involuntary emptying bowels hear tv movies dealing shit pants others deal something take lightly hell first couple years life loved ones actually praised it really trouble dealing ripple effect comes leaving make jump calm water death water quickly heals waiting next permanent guest waves escape jump cause damage tsunami make landfall living friends family brothers parents daughter caught guard see massive wave hurling towards them hard part death hurt heartache others stems decision take game token board pass go matter many people judge collecting sweet hurting people never strong suit mine never hurtful comeback time could never throw punch couldnt pain someone purpose leaving would difficult dont want hurt anyone dont know keep hurting daily even upkeeps loved ones happiness really want enter sea death water droplet myself taking trace presence me leaving wake hurt others around me ,1 yeah talking friend along friends walking back home ice cream mentioned views dating yeah like kids all girls me walking back home getting ice cream cause one friend ill call samantha borrowed old bike get tire popped basically me samantha another girl ill name kaitlin another girl ill call carol walking along start talking views dating well kaitlin id questioning ever liked while basically said thinks pointless would date someone asked care probably stop quickly yeah never gonna pan out,0 need somewhere rant guessi hate talking things never make posts like this tried long time ago got really good advice figured id try again fucked up ive made many mistakes life know ill able redeem myself see future even anywhere close meaningful got discharged military im weak fuck mental breakdown looked like complete fucking idiot since life living hell therapists pills psychiatrists one listening said things dont think anymore plan outpatient behavioral study whatever fuck called basically partial hospitalization hopefully calm weeks dont much hope upcoming weeks fucked relationship dont think things ever same ive miserable love much made hard leave did know given chance ill become complacent spot want make things right im disgusting terrible excuse human dont kn mow how even point fixing things due ive lost best friend whos started talking again wish never reached fixed things would much easier right now know problems trivial im good explaining things im sorry sounds stupid guess wanted someone real listen one last time wasnt therapist paid care im probably much wimp even kill myself every attempt past ended way dont know do im tired paranoid anxious miserable life im sorry,1 is at home.. and its raining which is really nice and cool.. relaxx... till tomorrow comes..,0 back again maybe long time aroundlt,1 im struggling suicidal thoughts awhile now cant anymore im sick people telling gonna alright timeim still teenager im already done fuck this im sick waking everyday go shitty minimum wage job dont confidence determination make something myself ive ghosted friends theyre better without me dad died years ago mum hates me one unfair dad lost life deserved live it s wish instead loved good person deserved live cant stand myself im burden mum shes disappointed turned doesnt understand bad mental health tells hang on for whats fucking point anything do,1 control body anymoreevery monthevery month right period due feel really really suicidal feel taking body thoughts mind actions cant take anymore meds help tried crash car couple times today im fucking sick life,1 feeling lonely anyone wanna chat title says basically anyone preferably age wanna chat yo guy interests top post profile also snapchat discord prefer im gonna continue cuddling pillow till get human replacement,0 thankyou making wonderful escape thats love movies im impressed aireals way shot timing dynamically perfect music being dancer part many dance films choreography usually chopped diced sometimes even beatshowgirls movie relationship ladies ever present movement br br my favorite scene last one pulled ive seen movie before different version disliked husband last time felt little sorry time changes feel female love birds magical ,0 hey little wavey whyre reddit equally whyre stalking me,0 hear one let preface disagree sexism towards men still sexism white lives matter saying sexism towards men still sexism like saying white lives matter blm rally yes true never doubt men always predominant sex western countries white predominant race sexism towards men still sexism white lives matter careful saying time statements never doubt whereas blacks women suppressed please dont kill saying blacks,0 legendary bottle every single time bring water bottle class class every one asks got ask would sell one every time tell ireland i used live im there make sad face like fault bottle wow went thought sorry waisting ur time wanted get back,0 ive lost everything thats brought life purpose happinessmy romantic relationship over hell happy someone else ill missing forever parents rejected me son abomination gay theyll never accept me words god feel abandoned him faith encourage bring strength lately feel like im losing it friends friends rather everything slipped away wonder life still worth living want end all maybe tonight tomorrow maybe ones home,1 think herei put rdepression maybe goes instead scared myself hallucinating im scared happening please someone talk help anchor reality depressed whole life never gets better anything offer look forward proud of hate myself know people say lot really do im afraid alone depressed ive tried everything meds therapy psychiatrists books websites food exercise nothing works except getting wasted thats wake again know would ever get better used optimistic become impossible every day get take enough meds im crying lot anything im daring end every day really know much longer last brain always wrong whole life made see things made sad weird different belong anywhere lot people hurt veryvery bad ways made weaker weaker trapped rock bottom years now lot sad things hard say would hard read feel like im living nightmare future right also very bleak honestly think face it,1 anyone wanna play games me discord crighterminus multiplayer games have raft terraria valorant brawlhalla stick fight shellshock live team fortress league legends roblox single player games fallout shelter ftl fastest light games free epic games stuff borderlands presequal ark survival evolved ep enter gungeon gods trigger gta hit man overcooked remnant ashes shadow run hong kong shadow run returns shadow run dragon fall civilization sludge life alto collection wilmots warehouse parents dont let play fortnite cause its violent think thats rediculous cause let play games letting ya know thats table also dont minecraft might getting parents let me send request discord interested youre quick play tonight get minutes,0 melancholicim sad depressed depth reason know feel this hard alive every day becoming deeply monotonous everyday wake wait night arrive sleep again feeling negativity started arise lately well feel like existence cause negativity around anyone whos happy around feel negative talking me emotions mostly gone numb feel completely empty wishing get enough courageous end myself fear attempt fails stuck body forever saddest part envy happiness around now makes frustrated see others happy might sounding like sadist wish bad anyone looking feel highly envious feel like ever one may suggest interests me whatever find interesting nothing drives me nothing all dull sad melancholic time never knew would happen me happening ive carry every day convince day pass too till keep fooling myself sometimes feels like feelings happiness joy pretended everyone life feels like mass lie told there understand happening blank empty,1 @SimpleMia iiitsss verryy interesting ,0 Photo: who says we cant have the best of both worlds = tlr + holga-ish pics www.shutterfetish.com... http://tumblr.com/xm41x7ot4,0 @PRADACCIA My girlfriend always apologizes to me for a lot of things like not hanging out with me to do homework and shit on that list I tell her she doesn't have to apologize for anything she apologizes for her depression pills taking away her sex drive I tell her all she doesn't have to,1 @ColorblindFish I'd buy it ,0 chances surviving jumping front subway trainand would good way it jump front comes station,1 god fucking smite already im done remove me straight get rid,0 Hala. Why did depression and anxiety suddenly attack me? I'm so vulnerable in this kind of situation.,1 comment ill reply edit make look icky ask literally questions ill answer,0 im genuinely annoyed. like i personally deal with suicidal thoughts and depression and the fact that someone would fake this or do it for attention im deeply disgusted,1 april dont got friends living marvel movie marvel movie isnt enough cant recover grades done dealing anxiety depression think years enough pretty sure isnt slump life gonna stop trying school quit job write screenplay gonna see infinity war opening night kill self,1 is about to check out his new techno records from juno ,0 got driving license friend driving car girl twerking road making tik tok video hit girl bounced bubble butt car flew like aeroplane crashed parents room miniature self thats worst thing saw naked waist making tik tok videos seriously tiktok bad,0 well much say film except truly wonderful film natalie portman absolutely fantastic daughter lovely motherdaughter relationship film br br beautiful film,0 life bad last years beg read this hello know subreddit existed im glad found it im sure heard story like many times before know else talk this quite long apologize well written knew sort life would much easier tell story years old since life borderline unbearable started fitting school resulted dropping out went another school year knowing anyone older everyone else making feel bad went psychologist found needed change therefore went vacation myself making music years later met love life reason knew the one pardon tackyness great time together year suddenly told work her absolutely broke heart moved home town get away her moved apartment people knew one night drinking myself came home talked one girls lived with ended sex month told pregnant going keep it think life could get worse point happened like before moved another city dont worry visit daughter every week live bergen norway met great people ive got good friends here things turned little better never money rent expensive live norway expensive bills addition barely survive money earn job winter realized havent felt happy since years old completely forgotten feels told parents this expected theres much do except lending money every which would never ask barely support themselves problems might seem big you assure get bad stream problems every little thing adds one drop cup smallest problems enough tilt me one thing theres girl really like class smart pretty share alot insterests taste music boyfriend years would never destroy relationship know likes makes confused last couple months shared time together stuff enjoy like playing super nintendo going concerts one day actually felt happy again one person makes life worth living boyfriend know problem cant solved way patiently waiting see decides break him hard hold day goes without thinking ending all thing stopping feel responsibility daughter reason also fading away get depressed seing friends graduate getting good jobs happy relationships good economy good lives general feel treated unfairly want feel happy again tldr long story life slowly becoming unbearable please take time read it desperate someone reply edit know why felt like adding link music httpwwwmyspacecomlunsjmusicplaylistslnsjsplaylist,1 nobodyfriends left college dropped im stuck outa town job living parents n talk friends much online except one told became adult would feel happy cut wrists pray find drugs ease pain talking parents never helps addicted alcohol yell ungrateful im soulless robot work without interaction god hate life,1 ha hurt her ankle and is going to the dr,0 it could be something you saw you heard you did anything go it may not be good enough for you but i still wan na hear it so please please share,1 idk do loud music help nothing cutting bit kind helps christ furious fucking angry want something severe fucking angry want severely hurt,1 ladies look cuter wearing mask properly,0 people whos crushes said yes relationship going im genuinely curious ,0 emojis means quite simple cream rain hand eggplant simple right,0 think im doneim ive meds therapy ect years ive come conclusion solution cant live normal life cant feel love successful going societies definition im tired im broken last love took hope her know anymore,1 difference makewe gonna die someday anyways,1 friend spent like minutes watching guys put worms inside penises yes looks disgusting sounds like yes people actually enjoy it yes fucking weird fuck,0 today birthday wanted something friend know virus used think would time birthday came are anyway rewatched lord rings return king th time didnt regret wanted something friends,0 i already failed out of college once but i thought i might try again at a community college well i m about to fail out of this too and for some reason nothing in me care a a child i always kind of assumed my life would be in a great place at how na ve since i ve been miserable for a long a i can remember why would life magically get any easier i just recently pieced together that my earliest memory which i never really allowed myself to understand wa my narcissistic mother attempting to drown me when i wa about year old no wonder i m so fucked up i ve been planning on killing myself before my rd birthday for the past month or so i suppose she ll get what she wanted all along,1 sorrows young wertheras write eyes burning tears secret relationship girl strictly religious first big love sex countless times love til death broke year ago told church done excommunicated year got back month already engaged another guy oh god much hurts want walk open door death grandma died last year alzheimers mental illness screamed hours hours pain soul stress excommunication seeing suffer spiralled similar mental illness strong depression ive lost money cannot concentrate live parents know do feeling much pain see way out ache love had feel terribly lonely betrayed worthless always told her i love nothing ever say think ever change that anything me already deserve loved lifetime see really meant that need someone tell going normal again even takes medication going fall love loyal woman never leave bond deeper woman although seems impossible well great kids fully back laugh cuddle whatever comparison going have,1 thinkingi think killing every day imagine different ways it recently thinking stabbing heart think know mark supposed be used stop look different knifes sale nearby hardware shops knives seem strong sharp enough job writing thinking would it rd th rib think location good enough miss bone go straight flesh thinking moment metal slices through would hit mark would miss drown blood would stop first sign pain someday get knife wish enough strength guide clean completely pull out imagine step would incur huge amount physics pain probably get drunk high act might numb everything might miss probably get stethoscope well would come handy take guess work setup listen mark stab might run wall holding knife try cry procedure man men cry,1 well i caved i cut myself for the first time today it didn t really hurt but it didn t help either i still feel like shit i can t take it anymore i switched school this year and have yet to make a single friend every day i m on the outside of the group i know that i did something to warrant this problem but no one will tell me what i did am doing i just gave up trying to nudge my way into conversation and just sit there and listen so i don t look like a lonely loser although i guess i look like one anyway anyone have any advice i need social interaction to get out of my depression also looking for new friend won t work a everyone in the grade act like i don t exist so don t suggest that,1 anyone else wanna die even though circumstances really arent badam one really wants kick bucket because sure loneliness isolation makes harder honestly dont believe utopian future solve problems often think unrealistic future might even help depression alone this,1 anticipating a slow empty boring summer,0 im scaredi really anyone talk to comfort would nice,1 redflag sounds like jamto honest not f status symbol world almost need go back dark ages sort out money hungry society makes sick know big oak tree hill beautiful sunset man could hang peace im saint done wrong life guess young means need sweet knot tighten take life me posting f knows feels gd write guess,1 watching old trisha paytas videos miss abd golden age,0 felt needed said fuck assholes,1 soonsoon finished feel inside me grow weary minute know when know how know soon done post here well simply searching reason hold on searching reason stay may know death horizon make less scared guilty guess cry help guess need know bit me firstly throwaway account real account uthe_emery_affliction call richie year old male suffer clinical depression anxiety suffered years redflag fleeting thought months hit rock bottom began self harming daily shower morning night bed become ritual me tried stopping thrown away blades etc always freak without it get shakes start lashing end pulling hair punching wall till bleed figured may well it infact cut posted fall asleep said hit rock bottom mean it tablets even working anymore feel empty devoid feeling shell things keeping girlfriend best friend family music this would gone long time ago thank listening richard would also prefer noone messages normal account forgot one thing challenge you feel like good enough live prove good enough deserve live cause believe dont also may well stop lying myself suicidal intentions may scared them almost constant drowning almost every thought feel times like drowning well maybe drown take pills cut deep make sure jobs done right,1 side effects failed attempt using tylenoli know mess liver anything else,1 check spotify playlist share opinions playlist httpsopenspotifycomplayliststeqkazlutanhalljsipmzshnqvqzjy_yka,0 wondering anyone answer thisive already decided ive already written will itll combination benzodiazepines alcohol abundance klonopin xanax valium im weigh lbs would amounts would absolutely kill me ill alone long time time isnt issue dont want wake again guess want know anyone idea would fatal would great im sure enough get job done,1 pew pew means brain rot,0 brother wants get parrot get one,0 feeling like life rut lack better wordsince graduated highschool year ago ive constant depression feeling like im going around around circle every damn day im job hate attempting get working far thats another story friends either moved away plainly talk anymore get see boyfriend week that even were together hes tired hes constantly working nothing exciting anymore cant get school way expensive qualify financial aid ive never seriously considered redflag recently like thought stays back mind cant seem shake theres real way change anything moment feel things make happy slowly slipping fingers honestly know anymore,1 see this saw it wanted reply know cant know things ok remember patient life hard change people horrible change let go waited hours wait more life complex occupy care much hope amazing day love,0 let say love adam sandler watching reign paying close attention actingbr br when raises voice cant help think happy gilmore yelling golf ball snap back adam sandler sucks inbr br reign great film film comes slow first expecting emotion every scenebr br don cheadle always great job exception truly great lines worthy oscar movie doesbr br adam sandler amazing many ways dramaticbest acted film career recall laughing loud many parts filmbr br the supporting cast great also saffron burroughs jada pinkett smithbr br i would highly recommend movie got tremendous acting beautiful shots nyc great comedy great drama new found respect adam sandler ever doubted reassurance great cheadle,0 sitcom revolved around girl must learn responsible actions power magic often used try help loved ones herself frequently resulting literal puns often disastrous always humorousbr br the program began sabrinas adventures high school fictional town westbridge located near boston massachusetts as opposed greendale comics series later seasons sabrina graduated high school enrolled college moved attempts live keep job local newspaper breaking comic roots show ended sabrinas wedding although end abandoned wedding ran harveybr br many episodes involve sabrina getting meet natural supernatural means popular reallife musical artists time including coolio violent femmes backstreet boys phantom planet davy jones monkees britney spears avril lavigne daniel bedingfield hanson edens crush savage garden n sync ashanti course nature band melissa joan harts thenboyfriend now husband mark wilkerson appeared episode ,0 borning thats me with a cold virus all bunged up and eye all squinty bah,0 best friends dad died yesterday dont know help best friend a lost dad yesterday siblings older younger kinda poor dad hospital ohio live new york family drive there younger brother r stay behind cause family left mom told would probably boring they idea dad would die rs last conversation dad phone didnt know would last convo him yesterday dads parents picked house grandparents drove home sat told horrible news money problems parents worked low paying jobs saw r today little brother m tried best avoid topic fun time them didnt cry could see eyes felt like sht dont know cause want help dont know how guys give advice help this,0 suppose kill want workworking seem worth me spending significant portion day miserable barely able afford continue living repeat next years feel killing true better adapting something want constantly poor miserable right,1 @SexiSweets this dildo is so big i can't even stand up? hhehehe it is making my legs shake -Kelli Kanyon < google me,0 "@calvertdrivein g'night, Steve! get some rest! ",0 I tell you depression is a real thing not just an ordinary sadness. Sape yg penah rasa je tahu sakit dia cm ne ,1 already picked date end summer break going me cannot say glad go cannot say sad go either everything terrible lately struggling find happiness feel like falling behind everyone life point going on nothing matters matter small insignificant compared everything there matter it fine everything fading black giving up,1 dream got credits nice dream funny plot twists action shot best friend fucking credits came out shit directed steven spielberg need know theres sequel,0 @sambays speaking of juice there is cranberry in my fridge right now! ,0 so it finally confessed crush know lots likewise posts here mine different asked someone mind said havent even finished school yet response question like someone felt ready relationship was personal public understand that respect choice nothing heartbroken feelings last five years afraid tell her recently friends convinced confess did regret really sad really thought feelings mutual,0 i have come to the conclusion that i am just not suited for life no matter how hard i try i don t seem to be able to accomplish anything meaningful or be able to derive joy out of anything i wa given nice parent and a privileged upbringing but the extreme depression that rule my life is overwhelming and i really can not take it anymore i have an easy life and i still can t manage to get it right i started to feel worthless ever since i wa a teenager i had a hard fitting in with group of people i felt extremely shy and i saw that my best friend at the time could effortlessly blend in and have many friend it completely baffled me and it wa the first time that i started telling myself over and over i am not pretty i have no talent i am not smart i am worthless year old me cried myself to sleep convinced that people just simply didn t like me i could never quite figure out what wa defective in me everywhere i went i felt extremely awkward and felt in high school i started to feel immense academic pressure i saw that my classmate were very high achieving i didn t even want to think about my future and i spent much of my time last minute studying and playing video game instead of planning anything for my future i ended up not getting into college that i wanted to while my friend and classmate were accepted i accepted that i wa a failure compared to everyone in my high school a socially awkward talentless ugly failure i went to university i am now doing a master with an internship i graduated with summa cum laude for my undergraduate i wa still constantly cry and contemplating the worth of my pathetic life still i wa able to appear smart in front of my classmate i took up a research internship a well where i wa again told that i wa smart and had a lot of potential and other b but aside from school i didn t have much of a life any friend i made in uni have long been lost because people don t like being around a depressed person i wa made out to be toxic so that alone should tell you enough how awful it is to be around me i went to therapy it didn t do much i took medication it doesn t do much i have now entered my master program and i am being told by my supervisor that she ha serious doubt a to whether i will pas everyone else is enjoying their time in their study while i have to struggle so hard just to be told that i m not even good enough to get a passing grade i also struggle extremely badly with body dysmorphic disorder i have a pear shaped body no matter how much i exercise my leg just stay very bulky and thick i lost a lot of weight in my last year of my undergraduate study it wa partly because i hated my body but above all it wa because i hated my life so much that i wanted to make it visible by appearing sickly thin i continued to lose weight until i wa underweight only then do my leg appear normal i continued to follow disgusting anorexic eating pattern during my study it wa so damn hard to study while having to be pre occupied with food and having to only eat calorie in order to not gain weight somehow i passed all my damn exam after this year i admitted to my parent that i had an eating disorder although at this point it wa kind of evident i went home to take a gap year for the sake of my mental health during my gap year i sought professional treatment and of course i gained a ton of weight i wa so sick of living with severe depression and anorexia it wa near traumatic to see my body change so much in a short amount of time i felt extremely defective for gaining so much weight i can t believe my parent thought it would be a good idea for me to recover at home instead of at a ed treatment center because my emotional volatility were simply insane but i became physically healthy and i wa eating lot of good food i even got a part time job during my gap year to convince myself that i wa at least semi functional unfortunately a is the case with my pear shaped body living at a normal weight entail lot and lot of misery i can never wear skinny jean because my leg are ugly i can t stand the cellulite and belly fat that accompanies my healthy body i wa handed bad genetics in term of body build my body alone take away my will to live after my gap year i continued onto my master i started to lose some weight just because i slept through some snack and meal from fatigue and then i knew that i could never gain that weight back i started to take up lot of exercising to create more room for extra food the vast majority of my classmate are thin people being bigger than everyone is extremely triggering for me everyday i wake up and think about what i m going to eat then i think about how big my leg are then i think about how much thinner and smarter and classmate are then i see all the thin people around me then i think about what i m going to eat next then i think about how i m going to fit a jog or a boxing class into my busy schedule then maybe i will think about school and such then i go to sleep and repeat it all again i even lost my damn period again it s maddening because i am not even a thin person and yet my body think that being slightly thinner mean that i m necessarily dying i have such a dumb body now here i am doing an internship for school and i am failing very badly it s not in my native language and i haven t known the language for very long so it cost me twice the cognitive energy to follow everything apparently taking exam go smoothly but the minute i have to be in a practical setting i turn into a complete idiot i don t have the extra energy to put in the effort because most of my dumb thought are just my leg are fat her leg are thin she is lucky i have to worry about weight lunch is when jogging when extra squat when what s for dinner etc now i m constantly being told that i m not performing well and they can t tell if it s because of a language barrier or if i genuinely don t understand what is going on everyone else is doing just fine and they say that you have to be pretty stupid to fail at this internship well guess who s going to be that idiot who can t pas looking back at my life i just see failure and mediocracy and just a lot of sadness a i said earlier my body alone take away my will to live but in order to be able to function in school and work you need to stay relatively healthy but seeing a my life is just filled with social isolation inferiority complex and still lot of depression there is just simply no way that my life is worth it living in this healthy body make me extremely sad and the life that i would otherwise have without an ed is just not worth it it doesn t justify the effort i put into recovery and the effort i put in with learning to accept my body seeing a my life is just consisting of studying feeling stupid feeling incompetent cry exercising restrictive eating hunger fatigue and more cry i just wonder how the hell everyone else is just out here living a normal life without any mental illness people like my classmate are really out here acing their exam acing their internship having a life having lot of friend having a relationship having fun and leading overall fulfilling life i don t understand it all i know is that my life wa just one big mistake i just really need a good plan on how to end myself i find it disappointing how finding a simple method with a high success rate just isn t very easy i have four more week in my internship i just plan to go through it get an insufficient grade and then end it all but ugh mom and dad would be so sad it s already bad enough that i tell them that i hate living and wish that i could disappear they try so hard to convince me that i m smart and can accomplish anything i want like i m in a disney movie they constantly try to convince me that i will find happiness in my life and that i m just in a low state of my life and that they will always be there and try to find further help for me but i m i ve been feeling this way for over a decade damn near half my dumb existence i feel like my soul died the minute i hit puberty i didn t experience anything traumatic i wa just dealt a bad hand in genetics i m freaking exhausted nothing would be better than closing my eye and never waking up again,1 im done im done trying fighting breathing im tired hate everything everyday facade wanted get better attempt ive gotten significantly worse month,1 @HollyYM Congratulations and well done! x,0 trying best redflag forgive bastard trash destroying life also destroy hisi strategy help committing redflag im stuck im trying best positive love hate myself want kill self bad sometimes every time things go wrong strategy ill post commenthelps lot cant help wonder im letting bastard easily kept quiet happened let bastard live happy life withering luckily know best revenge happy im trying hard happier want cry parents longer close im teenager now destroyed life reveal happen although kept secret long probably wont bc kept secret ever since happened molested perverted lust crazed pedophile trash uncle dont want mum cry dad go insane anger protected family keeping quiet karma slow hes still living happy life wife child touched couple times like dad like son dammit anyway destroy like bring secret problem grave whats worse id hes thick faced smile innocently molesting young innocent me still contacts parents acting like someone innocent two faced asshle,1 im going high school different country im nervous shit tips language barriers anything know anyone there plus whole attitude place different tips help,0 hi friend i hope you all are well well i should explain myself i guess i don t feel like i exist i mean that i don t have many people in life and those who are i don t see them missing me friend are nonexistent i do have a few acquaintance i guess i ve tried to make new friend and reconnect with old but school work and the guard don t allow for much down time and it s like i m the only one trying so why bother the logic also go into my luck on dating though to be honest i haven t really been trying i think i would rather make friend first work school and the guard are just thing i do now i don t really do them because i want to but because they re thing i have to do and i don t remember why i just do them like i m on autopilot my family is currently ripping itself apart i ve known my parent haven t been happy for a while but i didn t realize how deeply they hated each other and in their crossfire is everyone else i ll keep it short but somehow a hundred mile away they still managed to hurt me a way i didn t expect and i ve decided to cut tie with my parent for the mean time at least my brother are quite literally the only thing keeping me tethered to the world i don t want to hurt them but i just don t feel any joy in any action i take or any agency i just feel numb to everything not angry not upset not frustrated just hallow i don t feel like the same person that played lego batman with his brother split a milkshake on his boyfriend played minecraft with his parent partied with his friend took pride in what i did could claim myself i m just not i look in the mirror and i don t feel like a person is looking back at me just this husk and i don t know how to undo that i don t know how i got here i don t know how to feel like a person again and not this ghost haunting the park i walked and the clothes i wore well thanks for listening to my rambling i wish the best for you have a good day,1 someone tell deja vu please wonders months looked still dont know meanssss,0 i don t know about y all but i really fucking hate when people act like depression is just being really sad,1 adventure bay adult care center theory started question grown adults constantly call ten year old who lives alone bunch dogs solve every problem ryder ten year old boy all young orderly adult care center differently abled adults team therapy dogs episodes show imagined adventures one patients chickaleta stuffed chicken mayor goodway uses excuse things messes up alex duck mr porters grandson died drive edge imagines duck grandson talks it humdinger also patient criminal ward escapes constantly try mess residents resident part ward given title mayor cares stray cats around town dogs like him alternative theory humdinger hes similar facility criminally insane across road constantly escapes come mess cousin mayor goodway grandpa grover clearly humdinger ancestor katie also orderly employee center helps care various animals jake former pro severe traumatic brain injury needs round clock care also eventually gets therapy dog everest captain turbot sea captain lost crew storm wally best mate crew wally imagined creature campus saying wally real cause captn turbot throw water saturday morning ruminations single mom season weird weird show,0 anyone else this spend one day really happy next opposite necessarily days always period im happy follows period straight im dumps,0 ive never good enoughim years old male battled depression year never telling anyone today sort identity crisis felt worthless person felt like waste life seemed crawl hurdle found less thoughts less often last year unhappy before got point crying every day started looking forward would help feel better last month gotten point cant even cry anymore matter hard want to entire life ive laughed ignored high school zero friends two occasions grew close people knew within months started distancing me moved university wanting second chance went years growing close situationally close in first year dorm neighbors second house mates really felt like genuine connection people university year contact single one them im graduate school another chance year thing happening grew close distancing me ive tried best many times feel exhausted drained nothing left me today one friends brought dinner group buddies trying hard talk them one point clicked people barely responding talked one laughing attempts jokes gave up happens every time try communicate people last straw ended sitting there silent hour cant anymore im done ive tried years years make interesting person someone people like someone talk people actually form lasting relationships them cant it know im saying thats weird way say things personality cant figure out drives people away makes people get know start resent treat like crap ive it energy keep trying know people think important form opinions yourself etc etc entire life ive unable communicate people see better looking better versed people talk everyone wish could talk to ive always tried become person wanted i like less wellknown music like sports really associate bros results people spreading rumours me calling gay etc feel like talk people theyre turned right away and im hygienic dress nicely ugly know im wrong years cant anymore cant keep trying keep shot rejected person thank whoever reads taking time hear out think im suicidal lately ive thinking ways get away found thoughts drifting death times scares brought post want end life something like this something know seems trivial yet distressing edit im sorry seems like trivial issue especially compared others going through hoping could hear someones thoughts find direction life thank,1 man leg falls asleep feels way different like seriously makes feel like laughing gas least does had oh god felt fucking weird started laughing nowhere yeah side foot hurt crushed bit still felt weird would,0 i m not interested in life there thing i d like to do but i have no money to experience them i dont have friend or any girl to share a relationship with life is bland i have a job interview tomorrow i ll probably get it now i ll have to show up and sell 0hrs of my life doing something i could care le about for some money i hate everything it s not enjoyable pandemic ruined everything a girl i started really liking doesn t want to see me anymore because i m not vaxed that one definitely hurt a bit she went cold on me please skip the anti pro vax debate i m over it amp i m not anti i dont like leaving the house or dealing with people i dont see any point in this thing called life it just drain me and i d like it to end it simply exhausting amp i get 0 enjoyment from it it feel like a sadistic game i just want it to end i wont hurt myself i dont think i will i dont know if i m depressed i either feel nothing or anger i envy people who are blissfully happy enjoying life i d give anything to have that i dont need everything to be great but i d at least like to not hate day to day life i dont have much left in me anymore i dont see the point in continuing playing this dumb game of collecting money for thing and meaningless relationship i want to be nothing,1 every single time gets better drops much worse before fim tired hearing gets better does gets so much worse im sick feeling okay feeling human once feeling like maybe actually this maybe ive overcome this give week maybe months im shrouded darkness more hurts fucking much before im tired suffering im tired getting better im tired suffering again time much painful last im tired feeling comfortable im tired feeling fucking human wake stripped away again almost four years since first redflag attempt sometimes look back think wow ive come far agonizing sadness comes back realized ive sunk in im exhausted im tired fighting this ive therapy four years nothing helped im begging help id anything make go away know help exist people like me sadness utterly consuming throw pills it try cbt dbt interpersonal residentials psych wards inpatient outpatient resilient wonder stop trying mend cracks wounds maybe born broken unfixable truly truly wretched want anymore want live want fight ive given up,1 really point lifeim going try short possible ndad started fight something trivial denial narc past decade i kept brushing crazy stories heard tired acting like worst woah me bullshit whenever something work hes getting ass pat everything pick fight perceived reaction i flinched talking wanted shake act way im tried this im tired feel like hates me im fully convinced every time go depression episode both diagnosed clinical depression would tell head need get it listen sob story mentioned earlier mean callous him give i worst you speech irritating im going say worst would stooping level live first world country problems yo straight man rotted teeth digestive issues probably made worst bad teeth worst yo gay trans man support anyone clinical depression that fight happen saturday got worst escalated remember said exactly heard say something along lines oh thats fault now aggravated tone hes turn something around someone lost temper called out along way called bunch things a cunt loser ect strangled me one point wanted call cops throw out threw back face hes working could elaborate throwing would bad idea headbutts me ok fine call cops points headbutted me assaulted me oh see shit treating now says mom watched get headbutted reply saw get headbutted hes wrong im cousins house hes china business trip im watching cat hates guts this cat always hisses me even im giving attention done nothing except enter house also staying want deal dad fucking cat hissing yowling go feeding depression everyone hates you including dumb animal know piece shit a months this cut friends except one various reasons fact viewed more successful me crush one one feel way back would normally easier time brushing off month rejected came poly brain shifted rejection they friend your broken good enough them thats real reason ended cutting hours one day week going start transitioning work mom say something boss mom went dad saying afraid lose job me cue dad going saying you keep saying want die kill already went go get gun grabbed strangled me and first time me would verbally emotionally abuse depressed wasnt grateful him im fucking tied this cant friends so gush reblogretweetrepost ships romantic bullshit get repulsed bitter far romance goes feel bullshit want fall love someone happened enough times let someone power throw feelings trash cases take advantage me anyone show interest always sees woman immediately shut life parents say want help me second bring im trans get frustrated immediately subject comes tell i cant help you leaving deal everything struggling drive really bad anxiety closest center hour half away me uber expensive since work little letter get testosterone letter said wanted start august october everything keeps getting way even know good more i feel like point kill im going alone forever that going crazy wants die care someone wants murder now life purpose life punching bag im school system dad tormenting bullies lived purpose support friends friend equally bad situation last message got said suicidal too need shit top shit reason live me eventually move canada really alone matter dont kill end year eventually happen,1 although premise movie involves major coincidence actors creditable job look great bringing story life found rooting characters played mary tyler moore christine lahti empathizing both wanting reconcile sam waterston ted danson fine roles well decent job stereotypical buddy relationship story tends leap time occasionally leaving audience perhaps little hungry missing detail still flows avoids real confusion interesting storyline elements good chick flick,0 f please chat friend math homework words hes gonna awhile im willing chat almost anything dms open,0 anyone else find life much work worth itim living nothing care money only buy food struggle make friends self esteem issues gf cant get study im living nothing easier end cant even would abousulty destroy mum cba trying fix many issues,1 really really wanna kill myself fail trying fifth timeive literally laughing hours shitty life are would try change honestly stopped caring happiness differentness awhile ago feel apathetic everything crave death much ive hurt body much feel like barely living corpse wish could send pray would answered god could take misery stay another second,1 streetfight aka coonskin unique film directed animation pioneer ralph bakshi oddity cinema much worth seeing live action mixed animation seemingly influenced disneys legendary song south almost response flick philip michael thomas later become johnsons sidekick miami vice scatman crothers famous role kubricks shining prison escapees charles gordone barry white yes barry white thomas friends plan help escape prison stuck police roadblock crothers tells thomas story black rabbit bear fox move south harlem order find peaceful existence story animated provides lot wonderous things see like bakshis films annoyed dislike animation true animation lovers forgive clunkiness fall love inventiveness movie violent sexual mostly battles races long time thought watching something extremely important while especially got done watching it started seem like runofthemill blacksploitation flick along lines superfly sloppy really say anything besides bakshi white whatever answer that coonskinstreetfight still much worth watching animation aficionados well cult movie fans ,0 The Young Life Podcast #1 - Depression 101: http://youtu.be/gEHJXT4ykGo?a  via @YouTube,1 wasp terrorizing single fucking wasp terrorizing day long finally captured it holding hostage little bit honey eat nice smelling salt got ill kewp guys updated anything happens,0 sure im right placeabout month ago partner years experienced profound loss mom since ive trying rock needs made mistakes taking full consideration time well points showed emotion lives better since met want end problems im scared might break up could help maintaining distance needs grieve well knows alone anything everything deal grief supportive,1 i m on antipsychotic and they make me sleep for hour i would like to sleep for even longer if possible and no i don t think upping my dose of antipsychotic will make me sleep longer and besides i don t want more side effect,1 im trans friends calling everything guys probably dont care means whole lot,0 yall 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holy crap wish i wa there,0 it s not that had to understand,1 hi i m f i wouldn t say i have an ed but i do have anxiety over food and weight i ve been told i m slim and it want it to stay that way however my parent don t seem to fully get that my dad like to make all my meal which upset me bc his food isn t the healthiest like today he made me a sandwich w a lot of mayonnaise which got me into a rage filled episode where i punched my leg multiple time and couldn t stop cry tho i did they in the bathroom by myself then afterwards he made me ice cream and that scared me even more so i aggressively worked out and punched my leg i get so anxious that i ll get bigger and so all i can think abt is food i ve tried to talk to my dad but he doesn t appreciate it he enjoys making me food my anxiety is getting so bad,1 @dr_jared hahaha - like the hat! ,0 thx guys ampxb httpspreviewredditshjklvtpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsdcfaafeefabebccdddffa,0 I'm SO hungry! Thank goodness it's almost dinner time! Got to get ready for school tomorrow. Oh wait...it's summer time!!! LOL ,0 bar none hilarious movie ever seen beginning four delinquents sent fathers wienberg military academy tone set steadily continues throughout goofball film let secondbr br its tough trying describe film humor elements spot brilliantly concieved upon first look appears nothing stupid s teen lust comedy oh much that fresh minds folks mad magazine academy serves formula style never since seen duplicated funniest offerings come hollywood years past basically film full infantile cornball material might guess writers couple year olds themselves see movie love act immature classic ,0 teachers dress classroom biggest sweethearts ever made fun trying bring joyfulness teachers dress bring joy classroom sweetest things ever trying bring happiness laughs classroom appreciated maybe even bring candy room decorations opinion deserve raise acts kindness made fun acting silly amp fun,0 not even 0am and there s far too much noise in the office should have worked from home today,0 plan dont courageits quite tough put thoughts together maybe thats way move somehow since long time ive struggling intrusive suicidal thoughts whats sometimes connected concrete plans sometimes not course lot periods wasnt bad dont feel saying good okay im good life least others people perspective good job cool place nice living conditions one could say shouldnt complain all feel since quite time something going wrong cant bear anymore nothing specific mind right now thats overwhelms much knowing exactly whats problem would try solve it ive long dont feel makes sense anymore try chase this im sure im writing call help let know plan tried reach help im kind people hundreds friends everywhere spread across europe one neighbourhood more point behaviour wrong relationships buried family also lives quite far away makes contacts difficult really wanted get specialists help felt still made sense didnt enough courage own friend rather ignored fact asked help reaching someone fixed mind thoughts dont make sense try deal own right dont feel anything last days really tough me yesterday went day trip going town always helped felt like existence makes real sense im calling emergency trips doesnt help anymore dont feel neither good bad things nothing mind whatever happens impact me plan simple simpler better bridge call emergency tell something strange happening cant know im calling myself otherwise sure try discourage me dont think cause much trouble people that sure now dont even feel make difference many people around me probably even make everything better last days cleaned open projects easy possible people keep going dont think anything else minimize consequences idea im really writing this sorry keeping long wanted put everything thinking about thanks take care,1 @Leeds_MAD Ooohh yeah I knew about that (about Emily Wilding Davison haha),0 Watching 'Fly With Me Video premieres June 7th ' on BB Good to Me #jtv http://justin.tv/mr_good_guy,0 want die reason livei want suicidal want die want find things live for anything matter hard look cant find single reason stay couple things need cleaned up finished anything find keep going sad used think could keep pushing going something live back then ups downs suck know something side bad keep climbing mountains scraping valleys anything side cant see point anything could make happy even anything could hurt anymore everything could hurt already happened nothing matters enough even care now want this cant find real reason to one left me one notice much gone short span physical pain seem bad,1 i ve posted here many time under many different name my cat is dying a of the moment and i can t do anything about it i wish i could take him to a vet but i don t have the capacity to take him there my internship is starting next week and i won t have any money until i receive my first pay check next month it s so hard to see him suffer he s the only one that tether me to this world i wish i could die with him he took me out of depression and i can t do anything for him in return he s the only reason why i continue to fight i continue to feed and make him drink with a syringe he hate it when others do it but he trust me his life i wish i could tell him i m sorry that couldn t do anything i love you i ll have my final interview in an hour i know it s selfish for me to say i wish i get through it when he s the one dying i don t know where else to share it,1 i feel like i ruined my life by not taking my education seriously during high school i m unemployed and have zero goal in life i m not diagnosed with anything but i suspect that i have social anxiety depression and maybe add i have a really low self esteem regarding my intelligence but i am putting the effort into improving i m watching video and taking note on youtube about topic that i know i missed during high school in a way i do feel proud of myself but i find myself constantly pausing the video to look up a word that is unknown to me word that i feel like i should already know a an adult and i feel stupid and begin self loathing because of it i don t do this with just word though i also do this with just about any topic that i m not knowledgeable in there s just so much that i m embarrassingly unaware of all ranging between the science to world history to economics to politics to mathematics to literature even to basic english grammar there s just so much that i missed and i m feeling too overwhelmed by it all i don t know where to start to make matter worse i feel like i m being timed to learn all of these thing a i said earlier i m unemployed and i m living off of my saving i suppose i could get a job but i lack any real world skill i have nothing worthy to offer to any potential employer hiring me would just be an act of charity then there s also the fact that i m too shy to even talk to people i m afraid to open my mouth because i might reveal how stupid i truly am i have no one to talk to about this stuff because i know i ll just hear response like welp you shoulda payed more attention in school yeah i know that already what do i do now live a long miserable life until i finally succumb to old age well in that case i might a well just end it now there s no real point to this post aside from me venting a little i guess for the sake of asking a question what advice would you give to someone looking to homeschool himself i did graduate from high school btw don t ask me how because i don t know either,1 future spouse could telling theyll together ever flip side could lied left married someone else nothings permanent everythings random theres even theories every second identical amount time last second,0 davidt 00 virgin again today i m afraid a i m pushed for time having said that i wa delayed 0 min at brum,0 lucky enough see horror classics dvd version film mysteriously removed film dvd replaced something else picture sound quality film edition nightmare itself yet version still superior one deluxe dvd treatment reason stated brad fiedels interview segments special edition dvd noted first found striking film use music moments inactivity film leaving moments activity silence thus giving horror scenes stronger feel problem reissue carries extra film score used fill intentional gaps score fiedel complained made clear filler music his music actually sounded lot like howard shores work videodrome sad also major fan film associate twobr br the film managed add interesting realistic elements genre horror film group friends go mountain one inherited mountain confronted family nightmarish secret movie moves along great pace fact every time seen it still find shocked see minutes passed things started really going wrong campersbr br while horror classics version filled many gaps fact score accompanying horror scenes makes film intelligent even superior slasher films ever seen director jeff lieberman made unique horror films previous one making one mainstream yet different mainstream time good fun film surprising acting performances boot new spiffed dvd version worth rent collectors item horror classics version oop worth hunt,0 lost hat favorite hat lost it idk im gonna,0 tfw youve happy week start feel big sad creeping back like man,0 crappy day so far whyyyyy,0 high pain fr know look stupid fuck high lasts literal hours like come home minutes nooooo fucking idea cop dad home fun trying act normal im scared little,0 big sad im lonely,0 feeling down worry im you even people around you family support ik it goals might hard achieve realise worth value overcome constable stay determined give fuck anyone give negativity think it things get better even seems never will stay determined okay feeling low look saddens you go reach there may reached destination believe matter many fails were good traveller get deserve,0 theres escapemy life meaningless im stuck someone mistreats doesnt love me im completely alone support two year old husband covert narcissist feel like fucking idiot falling shit im forgotten person havent mattered since born ive always uncared about know sounds pathetic really emo really is left homeless mom died family took in sexual abused family knew kept secret nobody cares really dont truly believe reason existence suffering,1 batmanyng i miss my p it s out of commission wutcha playing have you copped blood on the sand,0 got diagnosed alopecia areata ive lost almost hair bodyim medication ive pouring steroid lotion scalp along fenastopic fenasteride spray mix miserable used depressed anyway gay dad many others spoke gays suicidal thoughts long time gay im look every time try push get pushed back much cant keep pushing more need life back please help,1 cannot deal anymore everyday goyou bad game playing game pet goldfish better you doo doo water dog water sister play better you stop playing tell hurting feeling stopeveryday get bullied everyday someone tells easy start panic attack hurts feelings much puts hole hearti want stop keep saying mean things mei want to kill myselfstop saying easy mean hurts feelings nice thing say stop rude experience online,1 I envy the artists who use their depression to bolster their work. I crumple under the weight of mine.,1 guide boys year old boy please give us grilled cheese sandwiches tasty thank coming ted talk,0 im worriedso amazing person ew months know year within months told lot things went kid teenager include disgusting things could happen person sexually assaulted thrown study course want lot pressure dealing quite time usual nightmare sleepless nights sudden breakdowns looking like break cried front around feeling sad im able anything try level best make happy things her lately severe amount nightmares urge harm right whole life revolves around meet everyday try conform give everything deserves know else goes away help me,1 well i'm going again in early july minus my mother. get jaime to drive ya'll up here,0 want feel safe again possible here wish wake,1 im gonna feel way every night rest lifeim tired feeling like this im tired hating myself im tired damn pessimistic heh im tired fucking tired dont know how dont gun something sit it fucking let fester think terrible world itll get worse it feel alone feel selfish feeling alone feel like deserve die selfish ijustfuck dont know dont know anymore,1 long naps make me happy ,0 sometimes i start to plan it by leaving one day and never being found that hopefully i would prepare well enough that no one would ever find me i think that would be better than my family knowing my death wa intentional and planned but i still know they would grieve amp x 00b i m somewhat of an antinatalist and i refuse to ever bring child into this world it just a personal choice i don t judge parent because if i am so miserable why would i create more life maybe if thing looked up and i gained some self esteem again i could have a job i love and more importantly a wife although i don t know how many woman really want to be in a childless marriage i ve never even gone on a date before and i m a m so i worry i ll just be alone for my entire life i feel like a real loser for this i just see life in a very bleak way and i don t see my future a one that is bright and cheerful especially since i don t really believe i deserve good thing i have intrusive thought ocd which is a little voice that throw horrible word and image at me all day and telling me i m a irredeemable human being and a terrible person it exhausting and i feel trapped,1 last night cousin got together wrote cringey ass poem inspired linkin park yeah cring hell fun reccommend doin that,0 maybe is a defense mechanism idk but a few week ago i really tried all the fake it until you make it schtick for a few day it wa fine and people at work were impressed however soon i started to make mistake and i went overboard because now everyone is pointing out my flaw i wa a cry mess and i felt super weak and exposed today i reversed back to my usual you are worthless you really thought you could achieve something mental mantra and somehow i feel better it is like it feel better if i am the one saying it and not the others i feel so effed up for being relieved a i am now i really thought i wa getting better and believing in myself for a change but i guess i am not just built that way,1 gif pfp got removed bruh removed gif pfp fucking super gif pfp working anymore fuck reddit making reddit icon orange removing gif pfps again,0 crazy unfortunate life ismy luck actually bad like fucking crazy every day something chance happening always negative seems occur im really mind blown always bad stuff unlikely happen never anything make smile even second,1 im coming back arent gonna ready first im gonna take shit im gonna leave im gonna prove everyone wrong dont need know post about ready,0 im going kill get shit grades satshi havent studied all want go college kind of want go college something marine bio marine engineering like physics know anymore fuck me fuck shit life,1 damn god damn damn bro damn fuck damn im unhappy god damn,0 lost hopehey guys first time posting here im violating rule im sorry cant bear anymore hell week wednesday tried something bad myself im complicated situation study far away home receive scholarship so so cant quit need doctors letter attest health conditions continue studying covid fucked mind shattered past months so know wanna return there know bear alone there and complicate things friday exgf broke me needed support i know great her it know continue life lot pain bear intend go psychiatrist week but meds solve it hope i ,1 parents care anymoreim studying living parents depressed since th grade never trusted psychiatrists never got help except random spiritual people nowadays say even shout ill kill myself say go hell worse emotion mother facebook addict father addicted tv technology took away people had every day like this return college mom gives something eat talks food whenever try talk anything else deliberately starts avoiding simply walks away goes facebook watches videos cats talented people father returns watches sports documentary go back room watch youtube maybe homework whenever cant show happiness get day later possesed yesterday pet cat creature world shows real love eat everything find since love get go sleep wake try change better run energy sleep yesterday tied belt around neck felt good know door hell matter gravity letting go fear failing keeps back long tldr franz kafka metamorphosis irl,1 "@sockington I dont care what hoomans call me, as long as its not "late for dinner"! No food, I get cranky, murder cranky... right? ",0 found worst news life ill start saying im year old female friend years almost going years theyve one bestest friends ever kind caring really great today got text earlier saying gonna kill themselves ive always one help them made want become psychologist tried usual tried even harder harder ive tried everything convince way out didnt listen blocked me im assuming died overdose saying doesnt feel real none feels real feel like im horrible dream matter cant wake up cant inspired much meant much me truly did theyre dead died hating guts died thinking wasnt way out died thinking one would care care care much ive decided quit things inspired do im gonna quit art god knows long im never gonna become psychologist ive helped many people first person ended it ended all dont even know im gonna life thought last weekend life gonna go uphill here plummeted want die honestly cant stand death dont know im gonna here wont kill dont want put girlfriend things friend put through honestly shes probably worried sick havent messaged since balled eyes out cried cried im crying writing this youre wondering cant anything help online friends never found address tried search school luck hope okay dead probably dead needed place type feelings in also wake call anyone please dont kill yourselves people care damage lives ever mean lot someone please dont forget,0 anyone wanna military text rp hmmmm,0 saw detroit must original run literally rolled aisle theater funny seen since would love to get copy anybody saying anything dated overdone are money bunch poseurs skit either wickedly erotically perversely hilarious one weak one included opening sequence instance parodies features gorilla gogodancers pendulous breasts felinni would filmed wicked wit come film open mind blithely sneering heart pencil right best list,0 eye reveals sound cool utod_ want eye reveal ,0 since douglas macarthur affected human livesfor betterthan american elected president deserved better film biography universals macarthur bad beenbr br oddly enough potential there early star trek episode the corbomite maneuver recent hbo films something lord made oo warm springs oo director joseph sargent emerged one expressively human directors film man capable subtly shaping emotional shadings actors performances carrying audience exactly wants go producer frank mccarthy also gave us patton o legendary jerry goldsmith scored films universal widely touted fact film four years preparation production yet this macarthur perfectly adequateand much thatbr br the film begins early shortly beleaguered general orderedby president franklin d roosevelt dan oherlihyto flee philippines avoid capture japanese thus film omits br br macarthurs birth o frontier barracks arkansas still subject attack native american tribesmenthus establishing remarkable life spanned distance bowsandarrows thermonuclear weapons br br graduation west pointfirst class br br joined famous father general arthur macarthur who earned medal honor missionary ridge civil war assignments japan china and importantly philippines br br heroic exploits excursion vera cruz br br leaped trenches world war one like mountain goat often wounded promoted blinding speed brigadier general br br postwar service west points youngestand progressivecommandant br br participation courtmartial billy mitchell br br routing bonus marchers br br efforts sustain woefullyunderfunded army chief staff early os br br retirement us army become field marshal army philippines br br reactivation commission fdr shortly outbreak second world warbr br all omitted favor prolonged footage macarthur trying fight seasickness evacuated pt boatthus know general mac legend why appreciate allegations cowardice wounding dugout dougand patently unfoundedbr br the remainder career presently straightforwardly islandhopping hit em aint campaign fulfillment pledge filipinos i shall returnhis crowning achievement winning peace postwar japan difference opinion president harry truman a properly feisty ed flanders conduct korean conflict resulted outright firing finally proclamation congress old soldierssimply fade away that quite historically accurate presented deliberate lack commentarybr br sargent producers almost painfully distance adorning historical record approval disapproval macarthurs actions appear noble let presented such appear egotistical bombastic let conceptions register sans comment since joe sargent quite expert subtly manipulating audiences reactionsagain see warm springsthis refusal offer comment appears quite intentional historically may commendable almost defeats efforts viewer place extraordinary man kind rational perspectivebr br and finally sort made cheap feel film midway released time films relegated television directorssargent case jack smight midway madefortvlook even jerry goldsmiths march perfectly serviceable lack subtle undertones grandeur patton themejust another way largerthanlife man memorialized ordinary filmbr br there vanity pettiness man inarguably also greatnessand love loathe him one must acknowledge fact macarthur military commander done peacebr br in end macarthurlike many film biographiesis good place begin research remarkable man poor place end it,0 lie muchi told boyfriend straight even though bi came long time ago make happy made plans go sleep told it said going go look friends butts ive struggling depression anxiety made worse want make happy told hours later lied wanted make happy got upset confused hurtful things said towards me know shouldnt since means world tore down proceeded harm this told felt guilty it told lie much leave alone love fucking much heart breaks every time stuff like this want end life im tired things going life,1 suffered concussioneverybody ecerythinm feeling daze im delight really depressed,1 one talk me even current partner talk me get mad that even reached family switch minimal contact course way are cannot make friends everyone leaves even need talk mental illnesses talk anything literally anything feel ostracized life used little beam hope would get like extinguished never okay made apparent incredibly isolated maddening,1 remembering pe sub said liked fallout shirt literally talked fallout entire period rainy day sat gym talking it cool memory cool dude,0 redflag hotlinei need call hotline im scared call police anybody know contact police every call somebody immediate danger also help worth time,1 anyone wanna chat something idk dm snap ill hit no im pedo prove it,0 would save lot time wish people always felt felt,1 monkey cat mom s brain are fried not juicy that s what she say when she s in front of teh compy too much my brain are fried,0 school making go back school even know ive come contact someone covid wednesday pe teacher asked whole class come contact someone covid twice ar emaking go back school im supposed quarantine weeks ive home day bullshit,0 woooot Paranoid on disney 5 seconds ago ,0 every parent like stepdad parents either beat yell children theyre upset soft parents raise ignorant kids ignorance bliss parent trained hardcore parental figure like stepdad prosecuted years people spreading diseases everywhere raising screwedupinthemind snowflakes still pandemic assholes wearing gloves supermarket throwing trash hands stepped crocodiles ampxb want make parents stricttoughgreat again stepdad best example parent be bring back death penalty misdemeanors felonies parent raise kids manners lose parenting license watchlist years ampxb ignorancelazinessweakness cured unless junk food carb drinks outlawed sale minors,0 get rid of the anxiety depression and severe stress end alcoholism do shrooms http t co gbpex gcrv,1 dont know turn to self harmed first time yesterdayi get anxiety normal me day get two panic attacks good day me usually get one day got five started regular panic attack started scratching arm scratching hard digging arm didnt notice felt wave pain went body didnt stop kept digging till snapped whatever prompting it got arm wrapped could make effort stop now arm hurts like hell get feeling need scratch arm fingernails arent going cut it sharper objects attraction please help,1 someone used spend hours driving around backstreets north london attempt avoid horrific congestion film immediately appealed throw interest london like back late s basic premise version tv heaven paper film ticked right boxes watched the knowledge actual movie certainly lived to exceeded high expectationsbr br visually surprised different london looked back i lived islington s long gentrification transformed area truly came across grimy tatty downatheel london may still bad housing estates general feel place much cleaner brighter pleasant nowadays based movie shows rather memoriesbr br as story acting well top marks obviously go nigel hawthorne vampire absolutely brilliant acts deliberately unpredictably alternating total straightfaced severity surreal mindgames order unnerve knowledge boys puts test testbr br all excellent thoroughly enjoyable trip back specific time place find endlessly fascinating even especially interested london circa still enjoy following witty dialogue likable characters the knowledge,0 Sold a quilt made friends ane having a fun time!,0 i m so open about my experience with postnatal depression because i don t want any new mum frantically googling why don t i love my baby amp what s wrong with me like i did postnatal depression is so common ranging in severity regardless you re not alone,1 want fucking die alreadyi hate life one cares dysphoria fucking kill,1 ass bigger act fact flair,0 took long time could find title special videothek berlin lucky find english version hollandish undertitles think one best horrormovies ever seems strange people call movie black comedy must admit wasnt able laugh about saw first time and second time one hand trelkovski seems nice even cute shy behaviour hand beats boy playground explanation that weired thing course transformation simone choule fact doesnt know really is halluzinations terrifying movie course mind flat brings female side also moved think thats interesting question shizophrenic behaviour hard understand horrible see two sides identities fighting other result cuts hand first later jumps hisher window terrible cry mean repeat again soul cage something egyptian hieroglyphs egyptian stuff fact heshe looks like mummy hospital thats incident clue point view,0 goodbyei one else send say since people care longer care probably read anyway im sorry everyone im sorry sick im sorry illnesses ive unkind im sorry made feel neglected im sorry ive burden long been sorry dog love much one keeping going please cry me wait door love know well see again hope forgive me purchased ticket leaving morning never hear me see again sorry anything gone heaven safe forever,1 cant seem make friends honestly cant make friends feels like matter do happen well id say one friend who love much appreciate every day couple people occasionally talk like aside nobody strangers acquaintances feels really lonely lot time like try make effort speak listen people ive tried strike conversation someone likes things me something id enjoy hearing talk about ive contacted people online person volunteered joined one sports group never results anything admittedly im fairly shy person spent lot time trying overcome social phobia try best always make first move maybe thats problem im always forcing interaction onto people want it thats tend get brushed off thats fine people dislike mehave interest want ive spent years not making first move situations others could approach me never do like try hard get noticed anyone whoever see want anything me plus even rarer cases am invited talk someone join group always incredibly difficult stay involved keep up example whilst naming names school trip abroad grouped two people seemed happy enough me but went very large public building groups meant separate turned around one second gone got completely lost half hour finally met back up acted nothing happened even seem realise them later pretty much thing again despite trying keep mentioning happened them gave group all course friend already know cant say zero friendships hes great talk every day sake mine cant come constantly whatever im thinking of hes human needs breaks people anyone does lot time im sitting wishing knew least one person half well know him luck wanted put felt somewhere thanks read far,0 @XtnDvla oooo me likesss...now i shall make sure to thank you in the finishing creditss ,0 want die parents cant explain one would understand would say thats think best youi years old want die every night cry sleep thinking committing redflag writing letter parents responsible redflag good life outside home school great friends great parents awful like alcoholics drugs mind numbingly awful might lot time left it lot people would miss me cant live like anymore,1 im going dentist im going dentist im nervous im scared drill stuck chair couple hours shit stomach growls wish luck,0 im bored sad anyone interesting fact wanna share want talk feel alone right,0 youwould anybody really care shoot bullet brain shotgun watching way would another act laugh everyone least would funny feel like deserve live way truly feel like one would care week anyway got work money theyll watching get paid feel like fucking tv show bullshit longer one really gives shit,1 we are doing free personalised moon reading comment me if you re interested,1 feel giving enough time feel prayers answered moved abusers house bliss weeks lapses desires hurt worse today one f days keep praying religious time let cry feels prayers get answered given anybody else help sorrows universe truly want brave myself know begin even meditate journal every single day matter nobody knows even tell mei feel horribly alone many people love come help feel absolutely terrified ask help back even could cannot feel like open like that want trauma dump especially tell people stories get disgusted cannot handle it even know dude feel like still suicidal everything perfect is feel praying much cannot take given shut up feel like help coming soon trying find valid suicidal still,1 "@A_Yasgar aww Aaron, nice to hear from you too! And no, I don't see what they're all saying. I need to edit it down a bit ",0 short film got gaspar noe movie map introducing us horrific thoroughly interesting character butcher played brilliantly phillipe nahon noes direction hallmarks later films showing carving voice style beginning sudden cutting along harsh loud noise skipping flashbacks many techniques used disconcert viewer certainly works also afraid showing violence viewers irreversible know violence equally powerful sequel seul contre tous almost unbearablebr br the film opens horse killed shot head watch writhe floor pool blood flowing out see human birth bloody glory daughter butcher orphaned wwii grown hating world everyone everything it serves customers interior monologue constantly reminds us thoughts wants dead daughter blandine lenoir would also reprise role six years later thing cares about watch grow older together however mute subject bullying toying butchers relationship almost incestuous bathing old enough etcbut explored next film attacked man butcher explodes rage stabbing innocent man mouth goes prison taken things wants shop daughter short minutes see more time prison release back world daughters state autistic well think bland little except stare full control father film continues exceptionally bleak seul contre tous can watch two films one first truly excellent acting difficult watch relentless tonebr br ,0 dr black yes i wa invited but will be in san francisco very sorry to miss it,0 know lifeim right graduated high school literally graduation night kicked house emotionally abused im living kilometres away friends anyone care about held stuff owned hostage took saving get back im sleeping cot grandfathers basement siblings stuff gets taken daily point socks money buy more mom manipulative person managed pin friends parents lost friends feel alone one talk built anger know healthy getting really want over,1 today became lol legal state owo legally adults u wanted lol yay,0 @naturallymaid I love it. A beautiful mess. And healing and dealing. Sounds like alot of fun and that summer is right on track. ,0 residents san andres elderly farmers depend bus travel main market oaxaca sell produce worried seeing people depend taxis known scam farmers hardearned money go fund page url facebook page set too url,1 "I will protect my updates now, so sorry! ",0 love making weird noises whenever brother sleeping damn thats peaceful thing ever,0 think wife killing tonightthis throwaway account obvious reasons wife suicidal life her first attempt years old told first met almost years ago plan live long knowing full well chose anyway time said waiting beloved dog passed away she already like time my wife want leave elderly dog alone without her well day came went hard time able pull though mostly me well mental disorders getting way worse ocd anxiety bad able sit chair three years she always standing laying down well two weeks ago disorders took ability sleep gotten hours sleep night hated living long now tells staying alive me me would killed long time ago yes getting treatment seeing therapist doctors years taking meds give things tell her nothing helped all ampxb ever since ive known kit containing supplies job says makes feel better know needs it ampxb today anniversary mothers death years ago told cant anymore world hard her already knew that expecting long time held her cried together hours told sorry was told much love always love her ampxb drove away stop her ampxb wanted stop her wanted hide car keys throw away kit love her see every day miserable is pain physically mentally stopped her would selfish want stay me ampxb praying hard changes mind get even one day her know happen ampxb feel dead inside right now love her want ever away her also love her want suffer anymore ampxb expect anyone read this may get deleted needed tell someone cant tell anyone else ampxb tldr wife suffering long every moment life misery could stopped didnt drove away tools needs end life hope comes back also hope finds peace,1 fuck allim ending fucking life im fucking sick tired fucking everything including myself im stupid piece absolute fucking shit everyone shit life fuck bullshit life im fucking done,1 "@cr8en I'm psyched. It's not a funny interview, but great content. Gives u a glimpse into a rags to riches to rags to I'm okay story ",0 idk want dominated girl or dominant girl horny times ahead,0 karent ,0 I've just posted a new blog: Depression: Exercise decreases the chance of developing depression later in life https://ift.tt/2Ht42PS ,1 @stephenpc My first follow friday - thanks dude ,0 found combo steve minecraft forgot save vault smash bros im sad cause pro player prob gonna find replicate lmao,0 @bep mad song guys ,0 Trying to read cooking magazine but luke is trying to read it at same time! Least he's interested I guess ,0 Good morning tweets! Got to sleep in today http://myloc.me/2O7d,0 i ve been going to therapy on and off for year to help me with anxiety depression and difficult life event i m trying to learn tool on my own to educate myself i m aware of self care and coping strategy but i m having a hard time with self awareness of my own anxiety symptom and trigger doe anyone recommend any resource to learn in this area thank you,1 "@MichelleBrouse Hi Michelle, I'm doin great, and you ",0 morning all gave the cat his tablet this morning what a mission that is he know what we re up to now and prepares for battle,0 nothing works one lefti finished making noose going use high up cant even get right ive tried very medication every method every thing cant take pain anymore im tired sick alone pain one understanding caring need give up need here need relief,1 im mistakeim scared write need someone know im gay kid saudi arabia place lgbtq ppl accepted punishedby death im scared family ive isolated everyone cause im terrified theyll know spent life bullied cause ppl kinda tell made develop social anxiety depression feels like im carrying heavy weight cant anymore wanna let go two years hardest far depression bad point im going school general health shit i one im alone scared everyone around happy fun except me get something choice this way live im fucking tired wanna love feel loved much ask for find thinking letting go im searching reasons maybe cry help,1 say something wholesome w r,0 yesterday was sooo much fun!! last night too <3 live long and prosper. happy mothers day! ;),0 heck theyre non binary hence refer theydy friend identified lesbian identifying dyke kinda complicated word know much strange tough dont know feel im almost sixteen btw flair stuck,0 become apathetici feel much many people tiniest things also gain feelings easily want stop all redflag nogo second best thing turn emotions dont care unhealthy,1 light went kinda dark,0 gay asking friend,0 alone hopei transgender cant afford srs and top that im fucking hideous ive shitty ass month people kept calling male pronouns titles set someone said look like emo guy hitting two girls near me hate myself next chance get end life im taking it,1 cheated on go oni want go depth gave senior year high school freshman year college life pride joy promised shed never leave always love me spent last month relationship cheating me ended hearing people official guy cheating now feel bad gave back dead dads bible held hand funeral even thank back even though said deserve back cheated me one sees wrong everyone says nothing wrong destroys gave two years life crash like entire emotional investment place put feelings gone one understood depressed could important me much lifted hell before invited broke easter ive never depressed ive tried picking even better diet diligent exercise working sorting mind out give up ive tried two weeks still feel shitty myself getting better really want try anymore previous pleasures life enjoyable anymore usually go days time without eating people ive reached even listen anymore one does im really done pain im finding way one way another one person made feel okay life left worst possible way want out,1 vibin reddit raining outside tho mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm,0 "Together we'll make it...haha. I love you, best friend. ",0 im attempt first hopefully last timein hours im outta here,1 see post im mobile feel like people see post recently confirm commenting me,0 rustyrockets it not my birtday something went wrong please reply or i feel you dont love me,0 read gay turning back now huh,0 it been year 0 month and 9 day since i last self harmed i m really trying to keep the streak going but honestly i don t know if i can make it much longer i ve been thinking of suicide heavily the past few day and i m just so tired every aspect of my life all seemed to crash and burn within the same couple day and i m so tired of cry and hurting i just feel numb but at the same time i feel so much something that i have to scream i ve been trying to be better about being positive or telling myself to keep going but is it really worth it i spent all of last night thinking about killing myself and really what would happen i hope you all have a better day tomorrow,1 finger hurt can t sleep even after my vicoden amp alcohol combo,0 zappoman oh your tweet wa about weapon that s covered by pandora s box can t uninvent it leaving u all with mad,0 ive waited waited waited getting better getting worsei beyond miserable months ive felt life meaningless empty ive complete lack desire motivation everything pointless everything keeps getting worse worse absolutely nothing point living anything all think im going around tomorrow,1 humans evil speciesi get people fucking mean time cant accept yeah people rough sure help make others feel miserable cant get life together sorry needed share somewhere since people talk things yeah everyone evil ended,1 she now want an mmmf except i have to only play a supporting role would mind but the other two guy have huge cock what am i to do,0 tell but finnish sentence get hit school bus,0 bois small pps ok yesterday spent day gf house moment wanted sex ate tried put im even big inches didnt even f ing enter pussy like hole stick outside big pp cool looking hard use small pp find bad atleast fuck say lol sorry english main language,0 wwwicked i think i have tried everything but feel free to try to crack it i am at a loss,0 what do u do when u find out that the person u supported and stood behind since day tell u that in the past they tried to blow u off,0 years ago never thought life would lowi used lot close friends well school good family life met one person life ruined,1 wish could live want suffer anymorelife suffering life solitude life long painful wait sweet oblivion came from solution least way out,1 bruh friends taking bdsm test rice purity test and holy shit man thought bad one thing coming and rest zero kink test rice purity score bruh like many kinks low purity score feel uncomfy innocent lol,0 I seal myself away in the depression orb,1 i m cleaning my house today taking my dog on a nice long walk brushing her giving her all of her treat taking all of the trash out doing all the laundry writing my note and going to bed tonight with the hope that what i take and the amount will kill me i m but i feel like i m 000 i can t pay any of my bill i can t hold down a job because my body is falling apart around me and when my body isn t failing me my dumb stupid useless brain is i hate myself i can t get away from me nobody deserves to have to be stuck with me in their life one funeral and then i m nobody s problem just needed the universe to know it won,1 dont know really feel say isnt really thingif gets buried thats ok,1 everyone saw post cat yesterday today thank much positive comments guys literally made day much better felt good knowing people cared truly made day thoughts passing ease relaxing,0 il y a litt ralement ce qu on appelle la d pression hivernale donc oui oui rayon de soleil tout le monde est content,1 kissed got hard u sucked ate u came together u swallowed mynut railed u,0 update suicidal ideationshello posted back thinking committing redflag try mom found went hospital mental unit stayed almost two weeks came much better person still suicidal thoughts depression im dark place first went in also lot people scared put inpatient firstly usually short term weeks tops depending hospital hospitals psych unit every one ive great groups medicine usually also lot free time nurses usually amazing someones report to mine social worker coordinate outside world rent bills pay it really bad optimal ive never experience abuse others said happen im sure happen places would say often think wanted say considering scared help anyways im im going back therapist well partial hospitalization go groups am pm helps much feel like fight this thank everyone messaged commented means much people care thank you ps im mobile sorry weird formatting spelling errors,1 suicidalim nineteen living major depressive disorder ive interviews last month got denied them ive worked every day past six months also drink gallon water day also ive going nofap years now dont even drink smoke drugs really trying hardest leave hell nothing seems work supposed kill myself,1 My mother is the biggest part of my depression and all she does is push me everyday closer and closer to the edge ,1 hope money worth it really do reputation wellat stage id disappointed learn considering much clearly ruin childs life over took years parents actually shit fucking years knew bastards knew issues had id say denying dishonest principles first place legit future understand jack shit school least greedy bastards money whether going homeless somehow ending rich im returning bastards giving cent im scared commit redflag hell best believe someone disproved religion id killed longtime,1 wtf they still dont have britney for the record up yet,0 im idiot opened clash clans middle class volume way made insanely loud supercell loading screen noise everyone looked laughed fuuuck,0 I'm entering in depression I will never look this good https://twitter.com/diorsbitch/status/989203462310301696 …,1 honor dr seuss thought id give guys one favorite quotestoday you truer true one alive youer you,1 endi know feel like cutting help,1 anyone else wants redflag friendsgirlfriend meim never gf first kiss never friends tried fit high school failed tried fit college failed started new job and guessed think end road me thats pretty much it last shot nothing else try,1 glad people enjoyed movie cause know greatest reputation made money box office thought terrific several reasons bogdanovich directs lightest touches cast especially coleen camp perfect big bad apple never looked better film seen worse movies,0 There are so many puppies being walked along the boardwalk. And my cousin Ian must pet each one. He's 23. ,0 @BayouBengal56 I am not but I am sure my dad and sister are! ,0 would like someone talk toon surface live great life year old austrian guy come well family go good school get decent grades well liked known quiet social guy incredibly intelligent seem get along everyone hobbies hiking mountain biking building lego sail boats would considered far average attractiveness terms physical appearance people ampxb problem inside wreck hard even describe really inside recently contemplated redflag couple times get anxious paranoid social settings feel strong emotional bonds anyone spend time head creating idealized versions life people around me real life feel though nobody talk nobody knows would believe me tried talking people class however see outside terrified failure even thoughts sometimes manipulative compulsive liar nobody sees it would anything look good lengths gone so always horrified hindsight ampxb outlook future also depressing see point working hard getting good grades school get university study years work miserable years make money survive live rest life old man use money end making ampxb also daydream fantasize lot would like live know never able achieve ideals short want chat someone know me scared face face maybe stop getting suicidal thoughts,1 fact would gone long time ago brave someone quick actit laziness cowardice keeping alive state sufferingthere health problems dysfunctional family issues economic hardship fun here want leave mindset survived unchanged years alive motivated go on courage diligence two traits lacking would here,1 it s also crucial the scenarist address in depth from a psychological point of view theme that have been introduced throughout the story abandonment of biological parent of the partner amp family depression social pressure abusgul dergecerim ferayegizemkurt kaderiminoyunu,1 dont think ill alive quarantine overtrigger warning csa months ago start quarantine family huge fight uncle called whore junkie loudly front everyone proceeded make lie secretly hard drugs room grandmother despite still love much proceeded back say true lied him left shocked pieces now give context fight triggered nearing th birthday demanded mom privately course uncle present little dinner celebration reason well aware molested around around remember tongue kissing like tv thats said remember took numerous baths together somehow recollection those dont know abuse went past kiss days feel extremely violated wish could remember cant part terrified remembering something awful upon receiving request uncle present birthday mom told learn separate things made little snarky comments front others broke fighting began somehow leading dad yelling top lungs saying dont love anyone parents fighting almost separating as done plenty left feeling completely fault guilty mom said escalated everything might have upset feel like sexual abuse inconvenient everyone like best ignored ever since grandmother uncle havent come visit know mom misses theyre brother mom all even brought recently couple times tell medical procedures whatnot feel like problem stands way everything would much better gone things happened day mentioned before felt like whole family united me feel like root cause all like theres something fundamentally am currently grieving relationship grandmother love much still miss dearly wish could give big hug right tell things time im hurt helped uncle lie order cover abuse wont believe me never apologized made attempts contact either hurts everyday months go im unable anything dont study dont exercise im pretty unbearable around mental health decaying nothing done event anything everyday hate keeping quiet dad comes home drunk another episode ensues mom fighting yelling wont bore details escalated trying push ground two younger siblings bearing witness everything dad saying unable love anyone calling names saying love drama etc in response fact recording whole thing case physical abuse escalated night ended relapsing back old self harm habits clean around year weeks pass pretending nothing happened like everything parents didnt separate per usual say theyll it might sound pretty could witness threats know theyre toxic kids get tired it mom tells happened cause unfaithful ok cut pretty quickly dont want hear it told cheated past i ended feeling guilty like tell dad did slapped across face day turned yes dad took side constantly says im true friend happened anyways brushed off im bringing say problem boundaries also fibromyalgia autoimmune issues ive also made feel guilt years shes recently told shes afraid dying could spread organs im sure feel isnt first time ive told something like this father like her often fall bad habit using problems excuses ive seen attempt redflag twice mustve around saw ambulance take away knew tried do child wasnt sure react think went play friends day unbothered second time different woke go school hear breathing horribly loud room remember came bed middle night crying hugged me cant seem find live anymore said half awake didnt get then mumbled reassurances went back sleep needless say heard breathing heart dropped cpr ambulance came afterwards put intensive care unit induced coma ill never forget seeing tubes nose bloated up laying hospital bed come really close dying so parents throw face sick is hurts like nobody could ever understand bring redflag attempts says im using her fine again lets keep pretending like nothing happened hospitalized redflag attempt went trauma nurses clinic put tube urethra twice mood stabilizers wouldnt let pee bad reaction pretty mean whole thing wanting pee full bladder able torture psychiatrist also went way call manipulative make fun cuts arms im honestly still still trouble peeing today gives little ptsd calm bladder convince body let out today boyfriend two years broke up simply unbearable moody depressed mess sleep time overreact huge fight said im abusive dont get better hes right dont feel manipulative self victimizing even typing following im say but cannot get better cant maybe im meant live yes passing would make people sad ultimately would best common denominator everyone wants stay away fromlash at tried therapy feels pointless ive diagnosed ocd bpd diagnosis well one done current therapist unsure of one feels really accurate times tried treating sense self sadness control like life telling stop trying fault bpd manipulative cant help blame myself love boyfriend want try fix dont want abuser better stay away best friend person really spoke feel truly alone friends rarely talk mostly fault im really bad keeping touch dont think make quarantine phase im getting worse worse dont balls yet hope build eventually maybe another episode happen finally set off maybe longer go without grandmother boyfriend ill finally realize much dont deserve love life myself know cats love nobody dote like do sister love me know will loves enough that even though im pretty crappy sister like everything else dont even know going this feel rotten feel like time go im sorry everyone ive hurt im sorry everything ive caused edits grammar,1 wrote note bought rope im watching tutorials tie hangmans knotim losing god mindi really wanna die day im slowly becoming convinced way pathetic life ive depressed years theres end sight soulcrushing pandemic worst is tell anyone irl feel theyll send back icu could get sick virus die anyway could also stuck people much unstable me mercy another bureaucratic powertripping doctor looks patients enduring worse death imo ive holding long can give one good reason keep holding further,1 today th birthdayyes novelty account figured id start one times cant post name turned today particular reason im tempted chase several beers pills hand seems like easy peaceful way wake tomorrow im going it family need me time love life suicidal whaddaya think reddit normal birthday malaise midlife crisis mental disfunction need get myself,1 ha a very painful shoulder this morning,0 give myselfive sick myself everytime look mirror im filled disgust want try overdose cut throat stop,1 @CityGirl912 hahah! i loooove the black one! and ill love it even more when its signed by him in 46 days ,0 hi i just wanted to ask if any of you feel like anxiety is a major reason why you procrastinate which completely affect the way you spend your time your sleep your state of mind and then your grade or if you know the difference between normal procrastination and one driven by anxiety or is anxiety procrastination completely separated and unrelated to anxiety a in people who don t deal with symptom of anxiety can also be said to have anxiety procrastination oh yea i also get super anxious when i think about how my teacher would view my progress grade how i act in class like i m actually v scared of this idk if this is normal tho hopefully i make sense thank you and have a great rest of the day lt,1 first kiss like cloud sky like star night glow her flirting years now today day movies leaned romantic part locked lips,0 pathetic know else goive long history mental illness complete one nearsuccessful redflag attempt five years ago recently upward swingfeeling good good combination right meds selfharmed almost two years way therapy transferred specialist gp two weeks ago birthday usually hate birthdays managed fun year got balloons went dinner saw boyfriend got piercing id wanted months two days ago started noticing signs infection went today get antibiotics planning gently quickly switching jewelery ring curved barbell comforts sake snapped ring cartilage taking out caused ton bleeding swelling get barbell in hysterics seems takes bring flood sadness suicidal thoughts back want die lost piercing fucking pathetic piece shit makes big deal everything ruins everything makes everyone around miserable generally worthless waste oxygen future one would miss better without me monster failure ugly fat volatile im stupid im generally compilation every awful quality face earth took remind one little failure yay weak ive cried sick already ruined late birthday dinner verge breaking blades back out thing stopping sheets white want clean blood im sorry reddit know im awful everyone else huge issues deal im really sorry dont even know wrote this,1 lack hope motivation prior lockdown worstenedhello im writing gain sort motivation hope future im year old secondary school student ireland currently final year leaving cert acts access route college based individual performance longest time struggled mental health major anxiety depression redflag ideation lower general motivations immensely coupled add makes harder stay focused topic gain focus first place although taking medication these sertraline mg ritalin mg school always difficult however supports supplied seem quite impossible country lockdown schools closed im left home little motivation anything mother understands mental health challenges however insists blaming academic shortcomings lack motivation such believes right angry this said anger aimed me source problem seems me online classes school whatever reason theres little direct pressure teachers use google classroom thats it know get motivated much anything thoughts escape redflag getting stronger stronger feel alone all sucks want feel like anymore if incoherent im sorry hard put sort thing words me,1 school hat policy cant wear hat inside take away single warning anti bullying system warnings wtf,0 naar haddow racket mee wahey,0 @CelinexCullen Hey! ,0 enjoyable batman animated film par return joker mask phantasm solid nonetheless liked movie kept guessing batwoman was nice twist nice action sequences ive always opinion batman cartoons better pitiful batman live action film sequels trend continues herebr br ,0 want kill myself know why feeling stopive felt like long remember least since im now nothing overly wrong life every single day put facade pretend content happy even nobody knows feel come perfectly happy fun around guy every day consider killing myriad ways could it would affected would affected would affected everything feel facade breaking know going shatter,1 ive gone beyond wanting liveit feels like certainty point already little world theres nothing were going keep living like this job friends it job changed point barely function cant friends talking zoom takes mental toll point leave feeling worse ive felt like im preparing death month getting closer know whats keeping point honestly,1 @Rgonzalez40... hell's ya! i'm all up for that! I've been told i need to be a little more adventurous! haha ,0 know may isolate friends even family romantic partners too give mine space common people depression stop reaching partners going period depression,1 saw an ad on craigslist for a casting call for a female host on g i wa totally psyched but realized it wa a hoax,0 im going kill girlfriend leaves collegeill go along it ill apply colleges too act happy whatnot then gone it box hidden room pills ill take letters ill send out,1 little brother always world grew privileged two loving parents everything him grew parents mom longer get along used close dad emotional verbally physically abusive towards throughout teen years brother told talk people tarnished parents name took care me fed me clothes me took vacation recognize father feels guilty treated me never apologized made effort life see need protect someone never really protected me feel like considered overemotional feelings pain experience valid yes father person change nightmares him redflag today first night felt worthless want fight longer loving husband corner it love deeply cannot others love mei it really want end this lost many people loved anyone lucky husband would even second thought tired sad lonely hate myself person besides husband also thinks poorly me hold opinion almost regard husband hurt cannot anymore why why why,1 Depression will never go away until I have what I want,1 digg link are now nofollow,0 Listening to Faith No More to please Vika ,0 fuck square enix make ffr episodic,0 @ddlovato What you think about it? We need know if you could go to the party It'll be PRETTY AMAZING!,0 lost escense me uncle grandfather suffered form brain damage cant live iti took lsd since years live chronic headache causes seclude thats difficult suffer borderline personality since also cant stand alone cant function socially fully uncle heart attack june brain damage due lack oxygen favorite uncle hes stuck ina childlike daze grandfather also godfather apparently favorite nephew began suffering dementia dont know trying work uncle break tears gets depressed hehelped first got ill owe himthough doesnt remember me hope us,1 energy live anymorei know redflag would hurt family feel capable supporting loving way im alone big city person planning marry abruptly ended completely destroyed self confidence honestly really know think saying anything worth it ive trying hard stand two feet honestly useless,1 @benefico you should have said something to him! ,0 feels like constant battle mind recently ive started losinghey first time posting google sub this ive dealing what assume is diagnosed anything depression years part could push past thoughts even get day week recently graduated uni perhaps lack social interaction bringing lack motivation anything forced careers event long ago touched cv advice got still complete lack motivation im much familiar depressive thoughts getting ive never dealt real suicidal thoughts past ive thought dark times real intent passed normally taking walk dog time friends would clear thoughts too usually longterm recently first time day real suicidal thought intent dog felt defeated since usually helps clear mind yesterday another step happening previously finally managed get house friend although hours leading really wanted cancel fun part way wanted go home again thankfully convinced stay drink turned another hours fun rest yesterday mind clear today im writing here forced bed shower make something upon sitting back bed sat silence wondering imagined scene im top building wanting fall off weird talking mind me different entities i want commit redflag mind making think good idea im constantly reminded mistakes ive made uselessuglystupid etc currently am im scared get worse gets better scene roof want job relationship everything else normal cant find motivation push forward know get it sorry turned bit long,1 sad negative thoughtshas one good life yet feel sad wanting die thought since im middle school s yet urge die really eating me like every pasting moment die wanna die,1 hey guy i wanted to throw this out there and see if any of you would be interested i m looking to start a group zoom meeting for people with anxiety depression bipolar etc it s going to be totally free we can share our story meet up once a week and just talk about how we are doing our feeling really anything to vent you can use fake or real name doesn t matter i will also be approving people to join so i make sure they are real people would anyone be interested in this i know some people can can t afford therapy so i feel like this will also be good for those who can t,1 Just got home. Bought Hey Monday's ( @heymondayonline ) album today. I'm glad I did - it's really good. ,0 time to get dressed i suppose gah another workday,0 fairly certain i have the flu,0 know why feel like blocking girl met online need help got know girl f feel like except much me first want relationshi she either nice talk to talked called discord later got snap etc couple months lately feel like shit know one time things end text anymore would leave her never met het irl know looks like get wrong shr probably one nicest ne nicest girl ever talked to sometimes wanna talk think deserve her go talk people closer her stranger met online cant block her broken would dick another mistake asking picture snap something never share random matter long talk him maybe overreacting little bitch,0 rooxxy i ve got tonne over here going to have to donate some i think i just can t eat any more,0 sister said im grumpy puberty looking arm think yes grumpy nothing else feel grumpy nothing grumpy definitely thinking redflag grumpy,0 dnwallace i am shuddering and shaking too,0 More than 1 in 20 US children and teens have #anxiety or #depression https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2018/04/180424184119.htm …,1 online learning horrible kids abusive families home time dad got laid hes home time too hes really stressed drinking lot im bothering anytime talk class take space books schoolwork school care computer wifi were required keep cameras on everyone school see live dump microphone on everyone hear dad watching tv neighbors yelling background dad careful anymore visible bruises are im losing weight cant get lunch school get evicted probably will itll mean ill drop out obviously get covid big deal going school option get everyone sick still people really thinking awful kids shitty home lives know im supposed do,0 donemy friend treats like shit family doesnt care worst part dont know kill bedsheet noose,1 What the hell is Beltre talking about? Lol. Slow mode I'm sure... ,0 andywana not sure what they are only that they are po a much a i want to i dont think can trade away company asset sorry andy,0 im scared ill kill myselfso suffering depression social anxiety sense im lately overwhelmingly bad point im scared one day something happen trigger commit redflag want like know something trigger one day month year even week could snap it lately urge getting stronger im afraid ill go leave everyone love behind help aha,1 gonna itmy parents going town tomorrow brother school im gonna it,1 im complete failurethis probably wrong place hate cant find much like im mid s never even much kissed girl im ugly redeemable qualities license bum rides everything im even shy used even tho ive trying get better party go stuff time live parent im jobless ive lost ever job ive due factors outside control able find new job almost year im stuck taking advantage dad lately ive thoughts redflag probably reason lack opportunity cant call help line option insurance money know point know need help also cant really justify probably subconscious attention seeking behavior,1 early bitcoin get involved read plans for entrepreneurs sending pi new digital currency developed stanford phds million members worldwide claim pi use username aiawaska invitation,0 atoms ashim posting im anonymous molested older sister cover secret played liar entire childhood put bad spot emotionally constantly getting trouble parents school bullied rediculed friends harrassed elementary school students teachers put medication rd grade everyday pulled classroom sit principal office would come home crying everyday mistreatment mom finally enough pulled public school transferred private christian school behind education next year retake rd grade students bullied started fight back aggressively also landed principals office th grade transferred back public school made friends bullies bad kids class want bullied anymore tough guy got girlfriend short lived ended writing notes wanted fuck bunch sexual stuff soon found grandma called principal school tried press charges minor gone puberty yet really understand ramifications saying grip parents tightened medication forced throat th grade teacher slapped across face class shut class still remember bead sweat rolling mustache red angry face slapped me made turn back hardened asshole teachers care school point wanted run away several times could never make friends felt like big fucking joke me fist fights recess involved somebody else typically started kids corned back fence friends said fuck friends need them th grade proceeded get girlfriend become sexually active th grade high school began relationship started take turn eventually ended longest friendship entire life devastating ended began get suicidal depression tried overdose medication class caught red handed taking entire bottle pills became violently ill blacked bathroom found carried nurses office school principal called ambulance contacted mom mom devastated pissed crying uncontrollably lied said accident switched meds antidepressants later stopped taking gag reflex overdose went long term relationship breakups ended cutting arms burning lighter pulled class senior year high school arrested front whole school shooting front school paintball gun night before prank someone would clean charged different things including terrorism absolutely drive become anything life think going live past academically barely graduated high school convinced pull shit together go college failed college blew grant money food diamonds girlfriend relationship ended joined marine corps go die country iraq opf fallujah ex girlfriend came see california led wanted get back knew knew company getting deployed iraq fight real full metal jacket mental breakdown weeks deployed threatened kill bunch people landed hospital diagnosis ptsd bipolar major depression fraudulent enlistment charge given discharge honorable conditions plane ticket home tried go back school failed racked another bill year discharge girlfriend broke up friends considered failure everything let love life walk away soon keep depression control jumped relationship first girl would talk gas station convinced looks everything chick nice funny showed attention wanted cock cake care fucked head son already whose father jail decided would pull shit together roll model later started self medicating weed really cop felt great high time friends wifes friends supplying me temper really chilled smoked manic didnt filled uncontrollable anxietydepression rage often super asshole little man syndrome didnt smoke often thought redflag option stop internal pain instead saying loud would impulsively things hurt myself punched structure point shattered wrist several fingers felt better little bit marriage ended year later point interest forming new relationships anyone tired looking new connects weed moved around different states legal dispensaries soon realized weed helping actually making things worse control anymore desperate plea help sister gave place stay moving sister family found work started busting ass make things work could get place entire focus work smoking weed numb pain living often would isolate away everyone else could smoke weed cigarettes really acceptable lifestyle eventually led renting room house full strangers closer work work roommates knowing weed would go room steal weed play instruments work put huge panic major anxiety depression eventually leave situation move back sister brother law take well year started throwing offensive false accusations sexually since interested dating divorce nephews would repeat said friends friends parents soon everyone treated fucked way made things even worse instead giving getting defensive fucking talking shit decided pack shit leave found cheap place live way woods away everyone else keep myself working employer years started feel little comfortable around coworkers opened little relate mentioned high school paintballing incident normal conversation conflicts employer soon started take place coworker told boss paintballing played sociopath wanted job pay concerned thought boss knew well enough believe later sit boss talk future goals told goal make better future plans start business real grown shit like one bit fact retaliated cutting hours bonus pay singled rest crew made work jobs less time complete pressure unbearable redflag plate everyday every hour constantly mind started feel ill overwhelming uncontrollable feelings panic attack quit job health insurance afford cost housing car payments insurance cellphone bill ended going doctor heart would beat chest throwing every morning years wanted know why turns heart enlarged may diabetes stage hypertension might heart attack stroke cant relieve stress take care myself got way refused take medications instead still self medicating stop weed without losing mind emotionally stopped smoking weedcigs mt dew per doctors request save life anxiety debilitating obsess death cant hold conversation cant share eye contact feel extremely uncomfortable every social situation encounter cant bring back normal feel like normal wanting kill ending existence im running short money bank feel like work people fucking minion worker slave would rather die life completely closed feel though time running out well self control hide painful memories mom traveled miles past slipped said going kill extremely worried depressed feels like lose child even tho ive said nothing recently actually moved woods far away everyone kill myself nobody would find me cant sleep anymore mind always thinking ways go every tree look at see hanging every gun looks see blood scattered wall body slumped over every tall building see body bouncing pavement every light pole see think truck wrapped around body half way hood windshield go jog try clear mind feel urge step front car semi head hurts cant help punch face burn propane torch relieve pain extremely difficult time analyzing events life absolutely hating people theyve done me hating unable forgive forget move on shitty things ive said done people control myself thought redflag might parents kept here feel hard even around family hour without irritated rude hate everything me starting understand everyone else hates too hurtful things go away cannot help desperately want become ash float away space dot planet insignificant every way mankind nothing offer feel ashamed illness feel like waste space oxygen pray god blow heart chest mom dad would live fact son willingly killed himself,1 today run sat near lake started crying thought myself cannot go on enough saved feel like enough,1 is missing her roo and totally ready to be over this stupid sickness arghhh,0 feels like im spiralingevery day wake think today gonna better remember problems bad toothache grinding teeth night stress awake couple hours still persisting insurance teeth fucked many bills pay little money many things do none seem worth doing want let everything lapse let bills pile up let get evicted let whole life wither everyone looking strength fix problems find job get shit order even strength roll otu bed feed days save even care myself cling life young miserable sorry really sure else talk to family keeps giving platitudes like things get better you make this will,1 worst fking week life hard me dont know start alot dont space energy right mental state put whole story get somehow closest friends know dont trust anyone else especially sick fucked case vacation norway right hedmark plan visit sisters head back home wednesday night live hours away roughly everything great nice see again sister even got baby since last time saw her spendt planned time nice said train home little brother felt weird feeling we often get anxious feelings shit thats happened past home tried remain calm sake finally came place dad gonna pick us up two uncles met us police side since brother birthday next week thought kind suprise first didnt take long understand something bad happened dad brother total nerve wreck brutally honest getting understand almost impossible uncles continued inform us case was dad planned redflag every detail going wasnt home past years started evolve scary relationship alcohol mom didnt bother anymore obvious reasons dont want talk about took pills drank alot caused overdose pass out posted really disturbing picture facebook caught moms attention really quickthankfully noticed barely breathing didnt respond asked state form mind called uncles road fast possible dad went hospital right away mom sat alone corner room panic anxiety attack kept secret brother could nice trip kristiansand sisters live theres alot like whole fuckin lot past days im still trying understand everything even tho do alot prossess quick important note isnt first time dad tries kill himself mom incidense alot secrets debunked clearly dad narcissistic psychopath gambling alcohol problem used moms identity get credit cards loans time weird thing none money used pay house anything like that one else knows money spent on love father much scares me tonight first time week ive seen best feeling ever also worst feeling ive ever life shock could barely see finally could see bit better things saw hallucinations shit worst day whole life short version story get way know reddit dumb place talk stuff atleast im anonymous,0 spent around ten hours writing essay got grade back today got ,0 "@naomijlea Technicall I'm not counting, I'm 'table supervising' which sounds even easier ",0 "@tanejamainhoon @TrishaBShetty Thank you for enliving a troubled and ravaged mind, even I am having one like it..I should say I am never been stigmatized, but i have been fighting with depression for the past so many years, which is at its nadir now, thanks TrishaS for all your inputs, debates.",1 theengteacher dammit getting to know this corner very well,0 afterlife fuck supposed there wait wait what homies die exactly even wifi watch tv shows eat look idk,0 keep wishing redflag button desk could kill soon pressed ityou may wonder would want thing school kinds people good bad one good ones however due thoughts suffering greatly laughed time made worst mistake feelings another boy year group painful know never cute boy like me hurts want stop sure may say dont friends talk to do one boat even tried slitting wrists failed friend acting strangely towards recent thats possibly fault too,1 ever get betteri cant take anymore im thinking killing since course theres ups downs overall situation never changed plan im going it honestly want die want get better lost hope would like go doctor even balls make appointment thought calling redflag hotline im anxious also cant talk friends want feel bad me,1 swiftkaratechop stop nomnoms you didn t share night people,0 i think i m starting to feel an emotion that i haven t experienced naturally in year you know that feeling where you have a vacation coming up and the whole week before you re like excited because you have something to look forward to i ve been feeling that all week but i have no plan or break until the end of the semester i wa trying to express this feeling out loud to my friend when it occurred to me is this what happy people feel like like do they feel satisfied just walking around all day it s like my stomach is warm and content even though nothing is different and i have nothing going on anyone else have thought on this,1 @saritaonline Strange but I kinda miss her too after seeing her in videos uploaded by you. Goodbye Selena...xoxo ,0 hello all lately i have been fighting with my anxiety after having fought in a relationship i m still holding pain in my chest and i always wake up with anxiety also i always cry during the day and before going to sleep i m living with my boyfriend and i don t want him to be sad like me amp x 00b could you guy give me some advice to help me heal myself,1 "@ahosgood nothing major, just a portfolio design with some nifty custom jQuery (sliders and such-like) that I hope to sell on ThemeForest ",0 need get chesti cant stop thinking selling everything own disappearing far away country commit redflag manner body would unidentifiable years old fighting war whole life since may unable fight anymore feel like im waiting miracle death recently put ssris feel like anything cant tell depersonalization talking sometimes late night really good convincing whatever comes death cant worse im living right now wanted say loud thank reading,1 i m going to perform with my good friend nicole brilhante on thursday at don ho s please come no one else will,0 normali issues life course jumping front train crossing mind feel like would solve everything wife would happier one would worry more think could though thoughts normal,1 convince meconvince matter anymore convince try getting better even though every time eat throw up convince forget every memory sam alex convince shouldnt walk back university jump river done making excuses myself,1 im scaredtwim one fears im scared dark snakes anything like that im scared might do people myself like knowing people would hurt less others would hurt more want headspace continuously tells it mean hurt want take knife watch skin opens blood pours open wound almost lifeless corpse bleeds black marble bathroom floor cant it cant take life want cant care much that,1 @BlowhornOz i have a pc (laptop) ,0 @LeahHope I don't mean to hurt you. lol,0 need confusion stopim severe alcoholic ive drinking since in moderation control week since ive tried stopping get shakes waking cold sweats ive bed past three days ive thinking much better death would compared shit cant go longer days without getting fucked anything im travacalm feel something ive decided change hard everytime fuck life everyone around affected killing doesnt help lie bed sad waste alcohol love life right,1 alone birthday supposed live life spending birthdays holidays alonei gotten gift cards parties people spend birthday with see people big families lots friends big parties get lots gifts cant others have everyone killing end pain depression misery,1 getawayi really want run away life right now feel trapped circumstances see one way out theory seems easy difficult practice make easier,1 worth living ugly masculine fake womannobody gives fuck people like me even people would fuck trans woman fetish im literally worthless,1 tried overdosing two weeks agoim tired pretending im ok im also tired pretending things ok wont therapy meds work me wont im coming conclusion im probably one treatment resistant cases im sick hearing psychiatrist telling meds working theyre definitely not shit except maybe seroquel puts sleep thats dumbass tried od with needless say work im tired matter do suicidal thoughts always around corner,1 @kylieelisha buahaha that is hilarious haha man i miss zac so much ,0 important question girls even find guys attractive ,0 anyone says people care liarsi hate phrase much one ever cared life hate cared for would problems first place would irl friends girlfriend no ive never either im freaking meanwhile many people age younger already life set them already dates time lives meanwhile everyone else world preventing things even parents cared pusses say want kill people go dont it cause pain others wont one even fucking cares first place never,1 great little thriller expecting type silly horror movie got tight short thriller waste none time mostof movies get back characters stories either feel sympathy hatred people start getting killed foolishness here yes see characters really interact principals husband wife motel whose room canceled saw could efficient lisa character inefficient new hotel clerk was see little girl simply small important role later movie heck breaks loose flight atrendants need particular move plot ahead bad guy particular needs beginning flight rude guy airport important movie too characters liners use plot two young guys plane clever thought would something plot first scene last woman character young hotel executive named lisa charge even jackson shows true colors panic thinks stall time movie smart executive women would acting like idiots one short movie waiting usual plot devices kick movie seemed coming conclusion fast thankfuly none used new hotel clerk usual called told do panic drop phone run hotel without saying anything question boss tell much drink dismiss her craven types movies also one last comment brian cox movie one clue was come see lisas father completely unrecognizable,0 welcome home @simplydittaa !! c u sat ,0 snoopy pog boopy snoopy,0 ghosted someone bad friend criticized point made feel like got one argument afraid would snap try kill kill myself friend living means might see ex friend ghosted also friend ignoring me know do know going happen afraid ho something going happen going put much mental suffering fall complete horror despair something crazy kill myself might confront someone goes bad probably kill,1 dont know anymorei point redflag many times before one time saved sister taking knife hand havent truly happy long remember whenever happy comes short always overshadowed darkness everyday life friends probably support asked to hate people worried me getting ready college working extra curricular activities top school work things home arent helping becoming much sometimes feels like world hates dont know do redflag always option family love friends love care about,1 got back audiologista national expert ive seeing admitted theres nothing could hyperacusis told need work living life theres anything left live anything left live for cant talk anyone cant see anybody cant go anywhere audiophile barely even hear sound voice extrovert now little still hear hurts bad start screaming sit hour long car ride back home dad barking ear took lunch whole time cars lot blasting music say anything hed get angry me hed yell make ears feel even worse took sweet time finishing sandwich walked slow possible tried hurrying back car sit still say nothing whole fucking ride got back home knife want advice want feedback want answer questions want die,1 need get chesthey guys im sure belongs long remember never felt particularly strongly anyone either positive negative way felt anything like story super sad nearly tragic stories ive read big im sick pretend every day care people surround me granted like hate people feelings tough cant laugh good time high school get socially excluded thats something want happen become apparent im different im sure im asking guess know anyone else people like me,1 @lessthanthreeme the good news: the school related bullshit ends eventually. The bad news: bullshit never ends. ,0 must be depression fr,1 need input guys design tech project hey everyone id like ask quick moment time answer questions design tech coursework dt aqa coursework gcse anyones asking relating various aspects teenage life id really appreciate submissions thank advance form herehttpsformsglemhqjspzpspvz,0 @arkadyrose wow! they are gorgeous ,0 want skip life either good friend group someone marry hsve kids filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 need end soonim tired everything everyone leaves matter hard try good friend girlfriend whatever never enough feels like matter im anymore friend probably sick hearing crying shell probably leaving soon too every day vivid image blowing brains pops mind night get urge pills feel reaching constantly stop myself know stop myself job high school diploma drivers license im fucking im trying fucking hard get things pandemic made nearly impossible things happen feel fucking useless worthless love life left someone else friends abandoned im starting push away family well nobody stand around anymore used happy fun around even want leave bed want die want pain heart end want stop god need stop,1 I had gal bladder surgery the day before yesterday and got back yesterday! Its getting better by the day! ,0 no southpark for me,0 "Has anyone stopped to think Kanye might be bipolar? Racing thoughts, so my energy he's taking on all these albums (during mania), followed by a deep depression.",1 set failurei understand point living someone like me compare einstein poor foreign kid motivation live like them im stupid depression social anxiety physically unattractive ive spent years studying hard nothing return drop subjects chemistry physics backup am right now adults really need make minds say high school everything say best yrs life better atar make life easier past half yearlies tests im talking lowest rank average subjects cant focus im mentally sick hsc left think study anymore high school handle failure stress well would even hire job im scrawny female parents admitted burden siblings call moody pessimistic get phase whole life pls tell golden story breaking shell feel like vomitting start crying shaking near ppl point im waiting opportunity like tall building train deep water physical pain cutting last moment stop existing forever nothings holding back feel bad wasting familys time money me hate living gift me im waiting death old age come want check gets worse,1 already done waiting works mg diazepam mg alprazolam xanax heineken sick people manipulating me even got kicked lab initially caused alienating me cleaned lab others stuff sentiment even answer phone calls read messages fucking moneylaundering piece shits tried ignore that this done trusted doign financial necessity trusted humane side one fucking cares fuck em die ill die wake liike hours going stop chasing get fancy phds taken away locked up ill see taken away ill make see me live attempt im done im done naive im done trusting people nice me spilled heart person fucking ignores me bitch im done thanks guys reddit reply comments friendish messages get days literally zero friends contact list consists family thats it im done im done trusting im done bullied,1 went hot need pet otter,0 will take a shower! ,0 usually like sort movie working home wanted something halfway watch did got engrossed gave working sit finish watching last half hour uninterrupted sure usually shed tears sort show crying end lot emotional nuance great acting good southern feel john corbett one talented actors there guy played luke really good too highly recommend,0 tw sexual abuse eating disorder carry oni survivor childhood sexual abuse perpetrator somebody close family still see regular basis started probably years old went years never told anybody fear would tell fault making up first time happened pushed empty room made pull pants same grinded made touch him stuck tongue mouth put fingers inside me time things got worse happened pretty regular basis stopped touching developed eating disorder anorexic bulimic tendencies dropped pounds way looked like death everybody told fabulous looked id never beautiful life even mom egged on saying proud weight loss years really able get close anybody push away relationship ive ever violent boyfriend would cheat me know men use sex let them value all attempted redflag two times first time took bunch pills friend made throw second time tried drowning myself boyfriend time saved me today months pregnant course pregnant boy love son guess thats im submitting this im triggered every day know continue on try kill myself sake son continue life im afraid turn like father verbally physically abuse women matter feel like matter voice continue plagued memories know need love son born feels impossible nobody else love i obviously life means nothing anybody wish succeeded killing chance,1 Depression doesn't have a face.,1 according google prostate cancer im girl dang wish luck,0 goodbye discord friend you were the only one to show me kindness even if it did end up being fake goodbye dad i m sorry you weren t here to see me in my final moment goodbye xchara you might been fake but you were someone who wa never rude to me goodbye self harm this is a bit of a stretch but you kept me alive for so long and i m thankful writing this down there s not much it s sad it s embarrassing but i ve said my goodbye there s nothing left now i ll hopefully be dead in a couple of hour goodbye anyone reading this i hope i don t come back,1 @LauraBlue58 oh sure your not unsure anymore...lol...hello Laura ,0 drowning people need saving rightme so got tonight something little admit fought feel fucking terrible literally want injurebeat death feel like listen like really really listen feel like tells shit thinks want hear time otherwise get ignored think feelings time ultimately end shoved apologize ammy depression amount clinginess bddbed self consciousnessresult bded get told constantly work self feelings things fuck literally drowning feelings someone drowning needs help theyre drowning purposely holding underwater trying die struggling need lifeguard yet nothing im tired feeling alone this im tired repetitive saying stuff even guys im sorry im sad seems posts getting closer together eh,1 dead insidetoo many bad things happening long without anyone knowing caring ampxb assaulted babysitter babysitter whole thing fucked brain twisted awful nightmare memory reason know real sister remembers seeing it growing up dad horrible rage problems used grab face hard fingers insides cheeks would bleed ran house frantic scared broke ankle spent one new years eve walking along road without coat proper shoes kicked rage lived car two week refused argument made angry threatened divorce mother leave then sometimes best friend sometimes favorite sometimes still best friend now sometimes hes asshole mother uses emotional crutch never really me sister fortunately brother great stay alive mostly best friend also great but getting hard theres many things highschool teacher highly inappropriate relationship also sexually assaulted twice high school violently youth church group one violently publicly school first college boyfriend horribly abusive emotionally physical trouble swallowing breathing sometimes permanently damaged hyoid lovers kept first relationship abused me fucking piece shit abuser them both two mutually destructive awful abusive pure usery oneone legitimately raped me still bear physical mental trauma rape second long term relationship emotionally abusive first constantly threatened violence stalked broke up everyone ive dated since user asshole one coerced sex one them again penetrated without permission use condom say no also froze full dissociated wouldve fine sex wouldve asked condom maybe asked vocal consent but literally top foot height easily lbs weight froze fucking gave hpv precancer im sick too fibromyalgia diagnosed one understands besides doctors even doctors dicks it prevailing theory currently mutation mitochondrial dna leaves mitochondria vulnerable oxidative stress cells cant process energy properly im tired time feels like ive pulled every muscle body top shooting nerve pain migraines stomach never hurting sleep im much pain body fucked cellular level theres nothing anyone it cant afford medicine hole emergency surgery cat have want die sleep long time wake someone else maybe something horrible past life life pure shit sometimes good sometimes love live life love nature love drawing love science love magic music art many things constantly hurt people destroyed people want love love amazing friend am would anything anyone people see weakness take advantage crush destroy tear pieces again little left now things myself try anyhow things comfort myself ive therapy many times cant right now so try love myself but hard feels like im person loves me one person life im sure loves unconditionally cannot burden them take everyone elses pain time really stay alive them even worse things happened them want one awful tragedy loss life but still theyre like sibling always wanted horribly lonely want need different kind love but every time ive triedive shredded over little left little left me really know much nothing completely rebuild myself wish could sleep thousand years,1 YAY EXAMS ,0 How is everyone doing?! YAY it's saturday ,0 farewell friend aka adieu lamihonour among thieves perfect neat entertaining thriller sees mismatched demobbed french algerian war veterans alain delon charles bronson trapped basement vault one return stolen bonds clean two million wages sitting christmas weekend naturally things quite simple even open vault leading neat twists turns debit side theres bizarre striptease scene car park bronson irritating fonzielike catchphrase uses inopportune moments brigitte fossey sporting perhaps hideously misconceived hairstyle s it makes look like bald woman whose wig blown back top head high wind something liability ill cook spaghetti ill learn make love well ill read shakespeare speech hysterical wrong ways shame horrible last lineshot otherwise surprisingly entertaining unpretentious number thats worth checking find decent printbr br cinema clubs uk dvd offers english soundtrack since delon voices rest cast fairly well dubbed thats great problem especially since widescreen transfer pretty good quality,0 @albeitludicrous Where would I find the automatically sign me in button please? ,0 another friendly reminder remember gonna people life come go friends partners family name it time come life always gain something it hug small people make us are try take granted could learn something valuable,0 heidimontag i dvr d it and went to watch it apparently the dish network went down so i missed it i will have to catch a rerun,0 starting youtube channel hard weeks ago started youtube channel far quite fun editing boring definitely bearable finished papers please almost done fnaf started minecraft hardcore even started working discord server far have subs uploads ok motivation mediocre thumbnails ok editing skills want support channel link httpswwwyoutubecomchannelucvvakoztypqkrh_uhmczgwfeaturedhttpswwwyoutubecomchannelucvvakoztypqkrh_uhmczgwfeatured advice please leave comments greatly appreciated currently know fuck,0 kill meim damn tired,1 keep constantly thinking would peoples reaction redflagsometimes days im somewhat aware parents brother rest family would devastated friends maybe too days convince nobody would care parents would still kid would one less burden carry friends would glad get rid ever annoy presence cant decide one way another one things keeps actually killing myself,1 day random questions timesaving gadget wish someone would invent,0 written stone disney animations simply must musicals right where show me found attempt much enjoyable not containing hokey madeforfiveyearold standard disney musical fare br br while story enthralling could been still quite good enjoyable adventurous hoped bit more yes considering subject matter movie not bitter disappointment utter failure billed be br br the animation quality average dialog quite compelling story line plot subplot amazing creativity found within production refrain outlining plot done done movie well worth view fan fantasybr br this is opinion best disney animated feature length filmbr br it rates frombr br the fiend ,0 hasnt many kinks rejected inderstood could arousing except shit fuck shit turn someone on,0 life doesnt get fucking better life always gonna horrible pointless even get older doesnt shit comes getting olderwhy keep living human life sufferingive suffering long remember like meant suffer whats point even living,1 jap girl they re leaving,0 "In the midst of the Great Depression, a king emerges. #Timeless pic.twitter.com/wgYdnjV2DX",1 really enjoyed her mccains frozen pizza . better than delivery ,0 quick reminder stop checking profile every minutes miss,0 posting something turn anyways want villain like politician doesnt support rights minority stuff like that mean need real baddy thinking like dude robot army destroy earth even dude could huge love craftian beast bring havoc earth could anything really long posses real threat literally everyone feel like want villain dont know guess want something unite people together something could hate fear want something people whites blacks left right western eastern sitting standing up agree needs cease yeah,0 im failing classes got motivation anything im still stressing parents gonna kill find out,0 landscape battle opens escaping prisoners snowy field full fences rather funny movements accompanied vivaldis four seasons touching opening soon enough learn know prisoners mob also treated humouristic burry man alive protagonist stops moment soon engaged finding books turndowned camp caring neighbourbr br the rest film set american camp prisoners released kind semi freedom semi camp perfect set study war criminality american camps polish nationalism catholisism grief human misery generalbr br film makes important turn comes women film changes light colour temper time turns prisoners slaves holocaust think main underlying political theme film must mankinds treatments jews world war nazi exterminations mankind letting happen even forcing europe war emotional level film grief problem letting grief come environment makes grief difficult difficult share grief people different experiences br br but film carpet underlying contradictionshumour irony sudden beauty couple times film gypsy prisoner plays harp emotional tune brutally rejected filmatically speaking protagonist example picks important essence films style theme comes humour comic protagonist constantly looses finds back glasses crowds hay stacks etcbr br its hard understand spielbergs respect wajda see film great treatment light compared spielberg best grunwald intermezzo speaks itself narrativly brings film camp filmatically brings film dream eternity profound beauty anyhow also another scene cant let go without comment christian supper undoubtly ironical simultaneously deeply religious see transsubstantiation moment everybody falling knees protagonist saved isolation priest serve comic altar boy bells mocking scene also gives emotion love nina gets bread sun light falls upon bells ring spheric peak moment filmbr br main actors excellent roles olbrychski perfect wajda protagonist doubting reflecting mind unable put aspects mind emotion life beautiful celinska great body acting debuting character unable express inner proud movementsbr br those try describe everything often unable take nothing consideration wajda manages films either moving deep beautifully shot pays attention lifes societys particularity moment joy one moment irony second moment grief third moment nothing fourthbr br there least two reasons pay attention wajdas films period first remarkable free expression deep political impact country first overthrow communism twenty years later second development filmatic narrative language kusturica rose grandeur,0 h e l p fuck respond to nice lol lmao ok need help,0 quarantine brought back depressionhi guys past months social life kinda working country lockdown realised people considered friends dont give shit me locked apartment days now last redflag attempt year ago sense feeling coming back know long take anymore hope day ends soon nothing awake for maybe emptiness apet go sleep forever ok thanks listening know care love b,1 getting closer everydayeverything capable achieving without luck worth achieving even bother wanna wait miracle anymore people tell always way happy idea life living sure someone worse situation knowing helps bit even know except typing stupid thoughts,1 im going hours get worki couldnt get much sleep thing going head wanna die wanna die wanna die over could succeeded six redflag attempts ive made past year,1 cant come familyhi made new account post others would find main account really want happen anyway around five years ive kept large sercret family im bisexual much attracted gender so come relatively great family minus mother grandmother im extremely close to said numerous times everyone family anyone gay thatd particularly mind shed still love us great know found actually support gay people all father incredible guy makes jokes mocking gay people often makes little bit harder talk theyre like this managed open friends around year ago extremely supportive odd them high school grew apart ive cut connections them one talk anymore theres much building life including this becoming much want spend rest life like this honest think can ive thinking redflag much lately everything final straw mean got close oding last night im lost know do,1 medical panic im sorry im probably overdramatic cut short drank around half gallon water probably minutes stomachs hurting night ive used bathroom multiple times im kinda panicking hypoatremia anyone know whether might not im ft pounds helps,0 i am on week on prozac and experiencing no real change i took prozac before when my anxiety wa nowhere near a bad and so i don t really remember how long it took to make me feel better i just want to feel better,1 life become motley crue song depression girls hitting me seems little good true,0 Watching The Hand That Rocks The Cradle...psycho nannie type of movie. && justt took a nice hottt showerrrr ,0 chromosomes genitals swag smooth like barbie doll ,0 want would paint nails wear girl clothes youre yearold boy parents wouldnt like wear nail polish dress way,0 "..so don't take the next msg personal if ur name is not mention cause i like, luv, love U 2 lol",0 "@jeweljk that's so cool! Go Jewel! Have always loved your style. Saw you in Clearwater Beach, Florida back in 1996!",0 today good dayim two half weeks second try antidepressants diagnosed depression one year ago given unexpected day wasting today depression winning much prefer busy pretending feel like this cant find motivation something,1 waked upfirst thing want cry blow brains out want gun think brain matter floor make feel better,1 @ddlovato omggggg you look GORGEOUS!!! love it ,0 ugh ik imma sound like one weirdos pm please ampxb filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 guess im writing story know post promote it httpswwwwattpadcomstoryutm_sourceandroidamputm_mediumlinkamputm_contentshare_writingampwp_pagecreateampwp_unamerheatheratampwp_originatorbarpaolldnbbvbtromxvddwgzdqfrcnncnqvyepacbjjsquqzbltkypynnxpzmjtdllzlefsfrajeeenjfywzpgshuugkjacalslmjzk please appreciate terrifying writing,0 hey like sko u tryna talk frfr need ppl talk ight im bored n aint needa wake early like yea ok,0 "going to sleep!!! its light outside, so i know its time to zzzz! Night twitter fam! Have a nice weekend ",0 year old romaniam boy currently suffering redflag depressiom existential crysis sometimes wish die never existed suicidewhen talk people age often redflaged anxious behave differently often cannot understand me happens question something wrong society accept me cannot find anyone behaving similar like me feels like stranger avoid peoplethe time feel confortable around people public someone trust me alone makes feel unsafe anxiousi cannot see alone there know dohighschool redflagfull annyoing me classmates talk only important stuff happening friends basically go highschool feel unconfortable even feel like eating leaving classroom but outside class friend talk rarely similar all understand like time makes valuable person and gayi know want life wish normal like everyone else know how spend day home using pc smartphone dissapointed living lifestyle afraid social life,1 moving moving moving keep those box moving rawhide think i ve gone delirious from moving,0 Trying to find the strength....#happiness #change #bpd #recovery #MentalHealth #depression #anxiety pic.twitter.com/PW89bK0mh5,1 @laughteriskey awww that is sooo cute! make sure u hide it all well cause vip is strict. good luck! ,0 tireddoes post even matter,1 eaten near anything today im proudim proud fucked way want feel lighter want feel head hurt ive bad time recently bad time living today another bad day plain shitty day know do really want anything want put something writing someone see able send hospital psychologist want help moment want survive till im eighteen cam leave shitty life behind,1 less year literally lowest man planeti really believe agree notion good bad fit would latter always asshole literally cared even felt guilty one care unless actually affected me im years old college well summer break recently bad break up im gonna say reason im certainly help another prime example deplorable human pile shit suicidal thoughts since second grade always liked idea think done much sooner now would preferred aborted think caused pain people world many problems indescribable feel niche pointless some maybe are think need go ruined life someone dearly love unacceptable thinking going end life gun would much hard get tall buildings close im scared heights jumping unlikely helium sold easily amazon ive already tried noose so another way kill myself really want talk someone moment im feeling tired,1 sorry whole post mess mind huge mess atm anybody grew without proper adult supervision currently so man are deep respect deserve nothing best life live way worst currently years old living without proper adult supervision nearly years people might think living house rules discipline anything might best nothing like me basically live lazy cousin almost nothing else play games shit even though guardians supposed taking care miles away house live in past couple years raising self aside financial support which thankful enough pretty much trying figure everything alone happened me pretty normal life wherein kind dependent parents everything mean cmon parents give children need time love basic needs know moving onto kind lifestyle lost parents really tough deal mourning loss moving new city school home changing lifestyle completely leaving friends old house behind altogether pretty much alone throughout nobody age could understand felt guardians supposed looking kind always leave alone sure might hardest thing ever people really me fast forward nearly years living kind life gotten worse house live always heavy neglect failure keep chores cousin literally helping adding mess dishes always pile up seldomly take trash piles too many containers fridge unfinished food several months back area infested insects snails parts rooves leaking gardens ridiculously overgrown always late restocking groceries etc could keep going gets worse worse add that eat healthy foods eat times day eat processed foods fast foods plus get exercise either lives disgusting really wish strength persevere change lives but tough alone always try initiate changing lives every time so hoping would motivate cousin help me help me still stays lazy try fix lives really takes huge toll always affects progress wish would help lately dealing much point nearly attempted leave world good several times thought rather mom now aunt lives halfway across world decided going get two puppies get wrong love dogs much suitable kind lifestyle right now feel overwhelmed untidy messy house is dogs already here feel bad them feel like deserve much better home also struggle take care personally feel like failing providing everything need big breed dogs never everything new experience me feel like giving proper lifestyle need redflagful plus again expected cousin helping even least pet play them know hurts much live middle upperclass town life pretty close people poverty live even worse least still manage fun loving families place depressing place ever seen lately realized emotionally neglected am nearly years since mom passed away even gotten close moving on thought gone still heartbreaking always brings tears nobody family bothered sit ask coping dead house live in especially past year half quarantine cousin barely talk unless go outside run errands stays room day bother helping house swear god contemplated going away good many times fucking life horrible want escape badly mom heaven thing stopping dogs love much leave behind knowing might taken care properly really trying best muster strength fix life without feeling needing cousin productive me find hard depression you guess wish things get better wish continue fight dogs ps really looking pity tough challenges lives battle fight would absolutely appreciate though experiences comment let know managed get get better least cope realizing emotionally neglected iam family,1 one best films ever seen anyone knock movie befuddles imagination first all goodings harriss performances simply spectacular especially gooding way describe acting spectacular imagine difficult would play character like pull off see gooding performance magical plot since based true person goes lives characters go action buffs might little slow action film definitely give movie deserves nothing less,0 "sigy seichas v cafe, Anton pobegal za chaem v otel`. a zdes` free inet - vot i mychaus' bez russkogo yazika ",0 envious redflagive always loner weird quirks made hard make sustain friends ive never weak minded ive always prided much body endure matter heavy weight is usually lift feelings recently ive hearing deaths accidental redflag dont really know im envious ones go it ive dark thoughts feelings couldnt act faith longing effect gets stronger days roll by,1 tree house got biggest insult killed friend hold it,0 read nancy drew preteen collect books grownup loved effect used end and little bit beginning movie line drawings style books morphed scenes movie neat way pointing connections situations movie books example scenes oriental antiques dealer reminiscent many scenarios remember books thought ned perfectly cast emma roberts wonderful st century interpretation nancy drew just like picture betty crocker keeps times,0 #follow naijasdime I am trying to get my own trending topic ,0 It may be true that I have 'utang nang loob' to them but my depression 'caused by them is enough to pay it. The reason why I am so depressed 'cause I work my ass off just for them to recognized our existence and pleased them but they still not see me and recognize me.,1 fcuk school thats math exam last week wednesday like students took exam got canceled apparently teacher gave homework students apparently kind questions thats whole th grade students going exam tomorrow forgot things knew sooo thats all nice right,0 reasons leave sub unfunny posts plague sub every weeks sexism lies karmawhoring pedophilia stolen ideas,0 @PainterMommy I am! We actually totally unpacked the night we got home and I did all of the laundry the next day. Groceries.....oops. ,0 really reason keep going social skills job friends not even fake friends family abusive parents pretty confident kill month quite depressing knowing single person miss guess life cruel like that cannot wait get nightmare me killing month,1 need a hug,0 "@theCameraClicks @sphacelate Hold the celebrations, a second interview isn't the same as having the job...! But it is closer to it. ",0 im sad dad dad telling go give sister almonds eating almonds different room got up also said even eat almonds gave laanatmeans saying goddamn you told dog mean why dad give shit mental health says im boy gotta strong cry someone dies like really man,0 normal teens lives got highly manipulative friendship text every seconds meltdown would occur would normally phone l l h e me anyway since ive gotten that ive literally idea since n hobbies friends cant drive so people normally do,0 griefmy mom killed herself aunt died cancer dementia took great grandma cat heart attack sleeping im going die eyes family ever express gender nonconformity bisexuality occurrences within last years cant tolerate constant pipeline spewing misery death anymore cant handle weight grief feel like im crushed concrete slab suicidal thoughts gone nightly thing hourly cant stop constant pain want die,1 brother wont play battlefield ungrateful rat ,0 real suppleroot hours up day far,0 plan killing st monththat day fast approaches small part resents way feel seems embrace it cant help myself want die,1 looking forward killing myselfi lost money gambling bit left im going try work things ex work first loose ends tie up weeks im ready ive planned method im going fun gambling last bit money become rich blow ill kill myself one little thing look forward to,1 i wish i could find a way to live without these voice in my head but if i lose my only companion i would be better off dead depression poetry poem mentalhealth,1 want kaido saiki k tie down drip hot red wax me run knife stomach carve name thigh tie down slap til cry like little bitch filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 "@Yofia and of course after I left DD started coughing etc., poor DH",0 dont even know try anymorei dont know im begging help am depressed cant anymore want die please please someone talk it dont want hurt person love most hes care,1 fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u know hate fuck uhttpsredditcomume,0 wana eat tacos ) anyway im eating green peas with nuts .. *crunch`crunch ,0 worked courage message crush got left opened meant feel relieved big step me someone struggles new people,0 I finnished! from curly to straight in just 1 hr and a half!! yeeea buddy!,0 Annnnnd I am up ! ,0 forgot drink coffee dumb anxious ass fun basically title knew coffee could make people anxious generally anxious person decided bad idea keep drinking coffee well see long time needed extra boost today like not well inability breathe properly,0 kal penn oh my gosh i m still emotionally dying at the fact that kutner s gone arggg kal ily,0 im stressed confused everythingive constantly stressed entire summer break sats also school my schedule next year excessive although technically want led constantly hyper reactive surroundings getting mad things excessively trivial feel mad helpless every time get blow mom addition genuinely confused sexuality gender identity like family anything morally maybe subconscious social thing idk know im sure am sexuality is helping ive got social academic issues life either made consider redflag know disappoint many different people family school teachers friends well cant even come close actually constantly go possible scenarios could commit redflag despite knowing cant possibly healthy me hope ill pull time many times knows whoever spent time reading strangers annoyingly long post seriously thank you,1 "Here's the plan: GSP 2 ATL 2 DC (pick up mom) 2 Paris to Florence...Italy NOT South Carolina See dad, eat lots, meet hott italian, home.",0 tomorrow last dayi think done me ive left everyone behind im done boyfriend cheated forgave him hurt really badly broke him mom used abuse kid dont think ever healed friends nonexistent ones ive held close let down dad dead grandma one life shown unconditional love support despite everything hope god realizes better way scared cry sleep nearly every night self harm grown point helping matter much often deep getting high nothing anymore feels like im falling hole someone get sad someone lose much hope im crying write this taking breaks clean foggy glasses choke sobs god couldnt died already dont know do dont know do dont know want help want get somewhere dont think stopped time ive planning days im sorry im sorry,1 always irrational thought something incredibly fucked make hate upset finally thinking ending soon afraid upsetting family friends,1 tell weird sexual video image saw internet ill see weird dunno saw girls cup tubgirl im curious weird sexual stuff find internet,0 first vent that is not related to the second one i ain t transgender i m fucking delusional he always find a way to make me feel like fucking shit i fucking hate him i thought of him like a father and now he just fucking betrays my soul he call me selfish for wanting him to see me a a boy he only give a fuck about himself he humiliates other kid and get a fucking kick out of it and i m sick of his shit sometimes i wish he understood how much i fucking suffered im having a whole fucking insane as fake as probably episode over a goddamn teacher god fucking dammit everyone tell me to just stop having such strong bond with a teacher but i can t fucking control it i can t i don t mean that in a creepy way i just genuinely want his approval so bad that it ha made me go over the fucking rail i want him to just approve me i want him to so fucking bad i insult him yet i love him like a father figure why fucking why separate vent made at the same time and just to get off that stupid as note for a minute i wish to fucking kill myself in a way where my face ain t recognizable my breast are cut the fuck off and the part at the bottom is fucking burned off to a crisp it s almost what i fucking fantasize about at this point maybe then the red neck degenerate won t try to dig me up and fuck me or some stupid as shit like that oh i ll know they will find my female abomination but at least i ll give them the nightmare to look at when i m fucking gone sexy sexy sexy that s what she called it oh how she wanted my body to be hers sick fuck i m gon na be sick just like her i fucking know it i m just an attention seeker bitch or just insane i can t tell at this point fucking bitch,1 "is on leave, i'm coming home!!! ",0 @Protium we have no morals remember ,0 say wrong answer reddit surveys rmemes memes,0 take story snapchat posted happy birthday_name person_ didnt look story didnt click it didnt say thank didnt look message anything why take story cause embarrassing avoided it,0 officially wrote suicide note wanted kill today kept thinking friend family rely strength would shoulder cry things got hard thinking would also kill selves could bare thought hate needed keeping everyone together know loved could easily kill myself know suicidal thoughts get real low point people never realize strongest people ones hurting most show sadness take lightly strong woman offers advice encouragement truly hurting mentioned mom depressed still chose laugh face today broke cried honestly triggered want die knew pick back act two full pill bottles front write suicide note fake smile everyone needs me cannot ever talk feelings traumatized growing learning keep everything inside parents emotionally unavailable tended siblings realize toxic was wrote suicide note,1 voted spongebob squarepants instead voted squidward changed mind changed opinion spongebob squarepants vote squidward instead let listen thoughts amp opinions,0 must see film understand reality read book ms duke advocate afflicted bipolar disorder formerly labeled manicdepressionbr br it hard believe day age people still critique others emotional problems seek psychiatric help regressive discriminatory thinking still exists unfortunatebr br in film audience sees pain suffering ms duke through especially child many us may remember teenage patty duke show household name america age br br you learn exploitation rosswell played howard hesseman growing s stigma fullforce however see advances career yet illness becomes worse goes bouts substance abuse promiscuity even marries someone divorces next week several conflicts tantrums children elderly mother problem occurred received adequate therapy medicationbr br a recent survey released nami national alliance mental illness recorded majority us adults fail recognize classic symptoms bipolar disorder also released one five respondents poll believed people could control illness without medication wanted to bp magazine winter watch film learn true story talented woman could pull bootstraps get well educated disorder received proper treatment thank you ms duke advocate ignorance prejudice,0 "Game 1 for tomorrow. Great, that I can watch the game. Yihaa! http://tumblr.com/xek1x74jx",0 opportunity watch filming slavic villagebroadway area wait see final copybr br viewing film cleveland premier last fridayi laughed loud comedy long time great slapstick russo brothers fine job directing entire cast performs best comedic acting slow dry segments george clooney one favorite actors hes great crippled safe breaker flick imprest william h macy crook riley michael jeters toto keep stitches believe funniest roles entire movie,0 would get someone loved committed redflagmy girlfriend depression anxiety think might commit redflag since told trying commit redflag worst week bullied ignored cutting herself dreams weeks ago came true last week week dreaming thing girlfriend committing redflag really bad makes sad making wanna cut myself also told commit redflag im gonna commit redflag,1 @simontay78 if that what you think ask my followers. I do a lot talking too and they appreciate my links. I'm not for everyone. g'nite ,0 clubi turn days wanna leave wife wanna go somewhere cant find end shit,1 years enoughive living like far long fight thoughts every day ive tried everything im tired im sorry m,1 silly movie starts soft porn sequence ventures farcelike comedy art gallery adds shocker discovery hotel room introduces random murder obvious reasonbr br what follows bizarre surreal the stopwatch scene particular exquisitely unnecessary culminating revelatory twist ending obvious unfair viewer see trivia section precisely deliberately unfairbr br the movie goes way offensive many groups possible transsexuals insane wonderful huggie bearstyle racial stereotyping subway condescendingly treats viewer like idiot closing scenes characters endlessly explain one another great detail happened film though background female characters restaurant scene end joy watchbr br in fact whole movie joy watch despite many many flaws whole package just well works,0 dads pull game weaki unplanned born underage parents grew dysfunctional family mom often drank pregnancy ive left many neurological issues also dealing gender identity crisis want cut incorrect body parts cant make changes im wish aborted wish dad used fucking condom,1 horse lover one appreciate movie movies show horsemanship one does would love know brian riding film would also like know enjoys horses brian lot movies ridden learn ride part hard take riding scenes always full tilt like horse run forever full steam camerawork first rate captures horses way shows dangerous things top horse would interesting know went casting movie find good horseback riders,0 talk favorite theories,0 wanna hear lost virginity yeah filler filler filler filler filler,0 know someone pause online game hes powerfulhis name isis,0 im collecting pills every day overdosemy family thinks im taking pills regularly im stashing till enough,1 "@KalebNation Congrats for the Borders Media interview, Kaleb! ",0 make fun someones music taste actual scum saying like haha song bad shit like fine ig people repeatedly take piss peoples music taste shitty like like matter you like girl used friends would time always feel embarrassed saying music like point literally took songs playlist someones music isnt cup tea say let people like like unless morrissey,0 male depressed couple months following split gfwe split up fault texting girls found out im dealing piece crap hurt much drinking every night since makes numb wanna stay numb ever think would better wassnt around,1 anyone want join discord server dm me dont know im allowed post links here,0 yeah maybe you get your shit off your chest but nobody really care even here for the most part maybe 00 people read what you wrote but probably just will comment on it and say something to cherish you can someone make a group chat or like a discord server where we can vc and talk for hour and hour idfk please,1 want fucking hang sexualityi think every fucking day aspects life getting better improving except one always destroy biggest insecurity hate it feel fucking trapped feel numb dead inside hate fucking lesbian fucking mental illness fair get trapped shit able put cure it hear its bad thing thats fucking true even was allowed try get conversion therapy redflag euthanasia im staying closeted forever every since found felt nothing hatred depression teens years ripped away im different every fucking person cant normal life cant happy feel stuck live every aspect life work hobbies friends shit improve except this always going fucking plague me always going horrible shit forever able date like normal straight person able fucking hold hands girl able respected going seen fucking sex object people theyll sexualize me treated like normal fucking person want fucking suffocate myself want dead point living im going dragged mental deformity every fucking day,1 i ve finally given in now at malaysian restaurant waiting for nasi lemak and teh tarik mereka tak faham bm http twitpic com y bh,0 matador better upon reflection time one watching it seems light humor always mediumgauge never unfunny never gutbusting story simple thread characteristics plot often recycled features namely unscrupulous bad guy need pal straightlaced glasswearing good guy need security life team learn somehow complement others lifestyles also find bullfighting parallel story unnecessary simply cruel thing symbolism hardly potent enough carry itself however really good film though seemed thin unaffecting time wasnt subtle way connecting audiencebr br i believe reason slowly surely gives audience something take though formula nothing new even humor main characters virtually characters it somehow met gotten know forget calling real thats mean mean though pierce brosnans filthy womanizing boozing hit man detached comical character hes grasped firmly writer definitely brosnan aggressively communicating much enjoys breath fresh james bondless air greg kinnears character seems quite detached scriptedness hes given certain unexpected footnotes moment due films lightfootedness pass us hit us moment later realize film simply analyze planes trains automobiles told stalely again truly saying somethingbr br the films climax sort wants partially thriller twists lightness possibly focus film though plot leading it no focus brosnan kinnear get unlikely relationship other strangely matador film regret loneliness brosnan deals loneliness regret every day though understand kinnear lenient accepting brosnan continually interrupting life slowly understood brosnan salvaging kinnear downtoearth version feelings means redemption last scene movie stays me it think films subtle sidestepping impact finally begins seep,0 donei wanna end it want take shit ton pills done im tired feeling way im tired people treating like dont matter dont im trash im better gone one cares hate every moment spend alive,1 ask teacher send video pls read sooooo live suriname sad poor country needed heart surgery done sad poor country im netherlands right now surgery weeks ago ill till november th get back stay quarantine days ill miss presentation week week presentations lol everyone else gets partner someone else alone since im lol alone class full people know since missed begi school year ill also miss st test week lmao literally week full tests subjects ill catch tests simultaneously getting ready second test week probably weeks go school also fucked principal refused give books advance cant study anything here anyway back english ask film presentation send worry catching test week missed preparing following test week,0 anistorm sorry,0 please teacher going make us read huge chapter book first day please come bomb need help disrupting class please help google meet code ohqefamfaj,0 let introduce b name mai im got long legz,0 @yuriyld thank you for your answer over-slept! will txt you later about tomorrow! :-D,0 Home with Maddie I'm tired.. Goin' to bed afterwards,0 tad know see horrible answering dms answer dms motherfucker,0 doe not want co worker s various lurgies,0 should be asleep. but im listening to the hist ,0 anyone lay dark think different ways dyingam one somehow find strange peace knowing one absolute way end hurt courage go it,1 Right well am going to head for a bath and come play some 360. Night World x Jack ,0 instead building emergency fund buy boat emergency need money quick sell boat boats known secure investments gain value cost almost nothing maintain boats probably reason im broke af,0 "@Mr_Aguilera "Hey Tranny?, its Tranny! Its a HOT TRANNY MESS in here! Silver Tranny Feroshia!" LOL Member? ",0 im so sleepy...headin to airport...comin back ny...how r u guys so far?? cnt wait to com home...hey andy i did cook last nite though,0 my previous knowledge of historical reason for the depression did not include history s number now i m really drawing a strong parallel between depression event and current event http t co fuxwvjydjy,1 so i am currently doing a school project where we have to come up with an empathetic invention that help solve a problem that you or someone you know is going through i struggle with anxiety specifically in social situation where i have to talk to new people my project idea is to create a bracelet with a variety of texture to help soothe provide relief ground someone when they are nervous that is discreet i wa wondering if anyone had any suggestion a to texture that help you calm down when you are nervous fabric thing you fidget with etc thanks,1 whats favorite emoji swear see,0 @lancearmstrong Goodluck ,0 question relationship girlfriend anthropomorphic dog id sex would bestiality think would be given consent see issue is yeah basically question fuck girlfriend,0 optionsi want call hotline talk somebody phone service,1 is so jeles argh sy pn mau jln sm kau jg sadddddddddddddish,0 afraid interesting enough also feel weird texting like conversation end feel awkward gives mad redflag ghosted friends months thought forcing reply thought makes anxious cannot bring achieve it anyone found solution this maybe cbt therapy already btw cannot text back friends,1 storycorey but it a mac,0 @KChenoweth ooo....the musical Hair! i wanna watch that! i just cant....boo....hope i could watch it when i go to new york! ,0 going end sooni hate reality time come developed severe disability continued destroy life livilihood past years cant get job due daily pain constant unfortunately made collosull mistake getting married kids love all disability puts perpetual bad mood snap yell frequently them deserve that prevents providing family fortunately foresight purchase substantial life insurance policy past go least family taken care grossly unfair world changed way trigger disbility one cares one help nevetending pain dissapointment whatever deserve this truly sorry perhaps nothing thus testament lack caring people others change laws ones trigger pain people like me knows idea posting this guess felt like saying goodbye someone goodbye,1 What's the Connection between Diabetes and Depression? by Elif Ünsal Avdal in Juniper Online Journal of Case Studies (JOJCS) https://juniperpublishers.com/jojcs/JOJCS.MS.ID.555597.php … pic.twitter.com/7cKbu54QpB,1 successfully made rick roll unfunny congrats actually revived yall murdered using constantly,0 girls complaining carry around tier big tits carry massive nuts filer filer file rgiler jfksndnfj djdjjd,0 leanne is angry at me,0 cant take iti fucked months ago cant stop thinking it gives anxiety every day know do want kill cant family fucking terrible,1 wanna talk people got nobody talk nothing say gimme conversation starters comments might even respond knows,0 made st semester college barely scraping gpa needi completely isolated reached new levels social anxiety depression didnt attend class lectures nothing me instead watched khan academy devoted timeenergy could schoolwork still barely made through means ill upcoming semester probably end it cant take anymore stress,1 generation damn toxic people generations toxic im talking video games kinda irritating someone gets really mad toxic whenever something dont like happens,0 started trial nd impeachment donald trump guess funking groundhog day hope irony lost anyonelol,0 never thought would thisjust sad lonely know want kill thinking thats disturbing enough im tired putting front im ok girlfriend left months ago try man move hard together year half everyday introduced mom jersey live va introduced church im embarrassed im tired living regret fucked lot addictions made impossible me first love sex let go whatever beside getting heart involved stomped ripped out friends always lost car year ago cant get army possession charge im fucked up sit room day lonely want get away night sleep woke kept seeing shotgun bed like wanted blow brains mean dramatic take redflag seriously im lost met never needed girlfriend happy playing basketball social stuff year olds wanted sex enjoyed female company never made priority never really cared like said happy myself girl knew last year half dedicated time fell love regret always feel bad even though could never tell stopped smoking weed week ago feel like cant get marines feel like may well live life complacency really goals whatever keep smoking weed mess relationship yes lot extremely selfish geuss comes learning love first serious serious relationship want live regret anymore im tired lonely im tired bored tired feeling like hope im going end like everyday joe know reddit cant fix problems sometime need vent im lost right feel bad direction life want get away memories eat away me wish things could different,1 "Saw Star Trek today. It was good, I was really impressed. Ha ha, I loved Simon Pegg and Anton Yelchin. ",0 lifes bitchsince years ago life quite interesting many people say traveling lot working many places meeting lot people still feel hole chest feeling im good enough anything want quit living i personally even like path im walking even know im doing ampxb recently moved canary islands met girl here two options left visa expire next week go back country country almost everyone wants leave stay canary islands two half year illegally get green card working chinese restaurant cant day off im receiving minimum wage ampxb im pretty sure happy places gotta keep going the loved ones bullshit ampxb,1 night crying reason fuck wish numbness would come back need something do cannot stop crying silent want damned speech fault expected this know shit already practically worn trench mind point push become alcoholic inevitability pointand little condescending spats pointed accusiations laughs damned crybaby like every emotion tears smiles whatnotplease want emptiness back least safer alternatives want little robot want be get till old enough die mysterious circumstances accident whichever comes first care emptiness nice,1 im going commit redflagim cant call anybody help illness letting that cant anymore im tired,1 i suffer from symptom such a chest tightness and shortness of breath a well a acid reflux which i have been told is all from anxiety i started noticing a vibrating feeling in my chest and back sometimes when i breathe while lying down is this something serious i don t smoke or do any drug btw 0yr old male,1 today year spent doin nothing severe depression tried goin employment centeri meeting legally allowed work and meeting cried lot outside parking area redflag redflag feeling went back home exhausted done nothing day layed bed thought miserable am headache now want kill bad sad depressed,1 life going anywhere think thatim fresh college feel like life over im stuck rural small town parents essentially trapped letting get driving license would love go get job mother gives cold shoulder yells getting license sooner ask give ride anywhere dad really around much im stuck hostile environment mother almost honestly mother makes feel like everyone life would better without around obviously giant burden would love move get place simply possible without driving license job knows trapped makes feel like fault like everything goes wrong fault used good relationship awful towards ever since graduated feel like little brother boyfriend precious let see suffer like this really want put ease taking out im gone constantly worry me im huge giant failure getting useless degree achieving nothing life deserve people worry me depression fair sweet wonderful boyfriend always cheer comfort want problem anymore want anyones problem anymore im girlfriend anymore im psych patient put with thanks reading this necessarily want kill im terrified failing becoming disabled life cant stand feeling like mother hates failure probably sound like whiny kid know people worse me ive battling suicidal thoughts since march ive thinking family would happier without ruining everything,1 He's Dope LoL ,0 easily one best shows ever made gets better agebr br for one chief reasons english adaptation done david weirbr br a japanese friend mine told show original language whimsical less flatout hilarious version knowbr br the fact show resonates strongly nonjapanese fans think largely mr weirs inspired efforts winning voiceover workbr br well done sir,0 I CANNOT BELIEVE MY MUM'S FRIEND DOESN'T KNOW WHO MUSE IS :O >_< Is nice to talk to her bout gigs ,0 wanna make money fucking choices people speak dont think adult bad cant worse things tbh cant wait whatever shit want doill still make sure make sense lol cant rn know im parents control,0 beachbassbone roomie wa home all day all he had to do wa scratch at the door comforter ha to goto large laundromat machine,0 helpi dont know anymore feel ive reach dead end life cant get rid thought ending life head,1 you're a little bitch if you beg for attention and fake depression to try to get someone to like you; all while sending pictures of your weiner to any girl you've ever glanced at LMAO,1 everyone around wearing shirt wearing long sleeved shirts hoodies way hide permanent scars left right arm much well across arms look like lunatic wearing hoodies long sleeved shirt fact school well help hope summer ends fast hate summer,1 know anymore know keep livingi obese around lbs give take lbs disability ptsd severe social anxiety absolutely friends family go months years without anyone talk too tried making friends one lasts ghost lead sick mind game theirs cant take loneliness anymore know anymore even tried dating told ugly disgusting worthless told nothing woman wants even told women would want me laughed at mocked at made fun of even catfished couple times know anymore know keep living isolated life style even keep living life isolated live small town like rowena texas miles away one way nearest town taxi uber lyft town fast food places super walmart several dentists churches far religious tried going churches get behind even around it dunno anymore maybe best exist anymore,1 At Al's w/ Jb and Chelsea ,0 think im going kill next weeksive always disappointment many mom dad brother friends especially myself ive always tried become best im sorry im good enough ive wasted best opportunity long time everyone there things,1 hey guys gals nob binary pals got back watering plants miss,0 OMG ITS RAINING!!!! ....i should just go sit outside and get soaking wet....on second thought thats a bad idea. >.<,0 Just got done with eating A WHOLE CHICKKEEENNN! ,0 The gut-brain connection is real-Google it! Plexus helps clean up your gut and make you healthier and happier! #plexus #oneplexus #guthealth #anxiety #depression #insomnia #healthandhappiness https://ift.tt/2qWgspd  pic.twitter.com/I6wIhsxaEw,1 im scaredi cant anymore cant really cant tried im still alive wanna want work im tired,1 watch this... http://bit.ly/cZ9k7 ok now. who wants to make out? ,0 almost bedtime,0 fantasize parents giving blessing go ahead kill myselfthats pretty much want point love much theyre reason get right now wish could explain want sad needs happen daydream saying ok yes better everyone sitting fade overdose wish would stroke hair hold hand die thats fucking pathetic know im know absolutely way earth would let commit redflag watch part tempted ask anyway case,1 theres something learnt big hero carrying backpack one shoulder bad health im anyway comfy,0 got another girls snapchat today sequel httpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentslnpeti_got_a_girls_snapchat_todayutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare talking someone class funny got snap added other really liked memes posted story theyre absolutely funny like them fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 @TheFairest aww dont hurt me lol and wow are they done already i love yellow rice send me a pic of the dish ,0 sister pregnanti trying get pregnant five years sister finally pregnant without trying beautiful shes fucking gorgeous shes even better me,1 paulriggall me too why am i not going to glasto stupid girl crosby still amp nash are playing too,0 insecurities built cant handle anymorei feel worthless im strong enough tall enough eczema dry skin acne oily skin fucking stupid probably dumbest all penis also really small want kill it cant stop thinking matter do even work get bigger even get better skincare one day im never gonna keep girlfriend whatever know problems small compared things people go through still eats away me maybe thats another sign weakness,1 im racist thats slaves demographics basement filler text make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy filler te filler text make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy xt make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy,0 hope die hopefully get hit car like bus people like oh accident connect depression,0 gone my therapist taking weeks off im gonne see again thank support im sorry,1 @HubertGAM probably a good Idea ,0 guessing game slugsoul going say next purposefully offensive shit get attenshun random word sentence want die much endless selfpraising hate stairs quirky,0 shoutout anyone remembers still old shadowwood dinnerware stinks really httpswwwreplacementscomsearchqueryhometrendsshadowwoodamppatternmatch,0 copied video dvd enjoy whenever like makes successful and rare wedding present well absolutely wonderful adaptation much loved novel everything perfect aged amazingly well always chance something old might appear bit creaky next modern dramas precious bane holds ownbr br the quality acting amazing janet mcteer making superlative prudence young clive owen stomping around taciturn gideon sarn br br i challenge anyone watch final sequence without least sniffling little sheer romance all perfect film watch cold outside snuggled sofabr br i really cant recommend highly enough,0 cant continue on overi posted think recently depression gotten much serious recently diagnosed bipolar disorder ive started getting treatment it ive really started decline mental health alarming rate mood swings much severe one hour im excited go home take walk outside hang friend play video game next im thinking ways kill myself reached peak today realized plan well several ways kill myself i could drink chemicals kitchen sink i could ask dad wanted target practice use shotgun blow brains i could overdose sleeping pills ive sleeping lot lately weekends could fun friends spent sleeping parents know problems think im lazy teenager comes grades best work studies cant focus anything ive lost interest many aspects life dont see continue im terrified hospitalization hospitalized everything end life im sick good fuckup cant get good grades cant even stay class anxiety falling far behind work cant take anymore want advice tried get help isnt helping me ive many different medications many make gain weight self esteem whatsoever im fatass bitch whos fat things enjoy like cosplay get bullied lot school try listen make fun potbelly want exercise im busy trying keep work grades hate wish could start end all ive also thought running away living woods want happy again intermittently want life back hate depression much going every day feeling like going motions life want live id rather live all,1 imma uncook food cant stop,0 came parents today walked dad told super straight said to pretty pogchamp,0 reddit mean yesterday look post history tell think says me ,0 feeling peaceive always heard spoken regarding made decision sense peace floods you like end date pain im tired invalid constant pain holidays really hardest,1 people see sad think relationship problem mf literally contemplating deleting entire presence running far away one knows,0 germ damn it it s so true i need help,0 @mercy666 We will throw confetti and popcorn at her tomorrow as she lives to see another year go by ,0 almost posted cringe big age thats awful anyway im listening lie bts album wings pretty good like it favorite song st century girl,0 helpsophia mein bahut depression mein hun maam for money plz give me 0k i will return u your money in few month plz mam,1 electroconvulsive therapy procedures shock therapy transcranial magnetic stimulation sessions laterwish someone would story me absolutely hideous ugly atrocious redflag impulse decision mind made contemplating redflag years now tried overdosing redflag cop involuntarily admitted psych ward times longer able purchase firearm conformed barbaric nobly guaranteed method redflag longer friends lost best friend mental exhaustion girl crush friend zoned engaged im afterthought burden liability pathetic worthless virgin piece shit loser good anything purpose ive got reasons stay everyday day day ive building courage finally commit redflag via setting fire hanging myself perhaps ill livestream it hope closed casket one ever see ugly face again dont plan turning year,1 seems becoming fashionable rip basic instinct point significant part audience including critics found terrible even released seems even fashionable trash sharon stone wholike usis fourteen years older andunlike usstill looks wonderful first comments movie vicious see myself opinion sequel nearly good original film bad comments pretend michael catonjones paul verhoeven neither henry bean leora barish joe eszterhas basic instinct entertaining average thriller besides addition jerry goldsmith original score keeps little resemblance predecessor even stone gives character different dimension creating lustful devilish catherine trimell perfectly well rank among monsters like hannibal lecter intelligent actress afraid taking risks play camp leisure unfortunately seems main target enjoy trashing flick became successful much main icon like actors reached level time arrived bound destroyed hollywood audiencesbr br the rest cast outstanding giving performances far better material deserves david morrissey much better actor far interesting michael douglas acting flawless giving dense complex dimension otherwise one dimensional character since screen time axis movie keep attention beginning endbr br i recommending basic instinct great movie expressing disagreement comments site conviction agendas movie shaping opinion spectators,0 trouble seeing point anymoreevery single day think even bother carrying anymore least once sometimes like right now gets hard sleep eyes well up life even bad feel like ive earned it attend college study habits horrid ive falsely accused plagiarizing help all hardly ever homework cant fathom it skip class despite always telling need go generally feel like belong anywhere hated every aspect life back home theres way carry facade much longer im taking sign medication working anymore know hell make appreciate without dwelling it,1 i m ill i don t like that,0 cant anymoreim tired everything everyone anything life offer one cares help me trust anyone anymore experiences old friends constantly stay bad friendships pushing away anyone whose nice head thats good true want trust anyone seems like good friend know able bear hurt again already cant bear anything else dont wanna bring anyone else apparently thats here im done dont want anymore friends havent pushed away yet im hiding everything them know problems im acting think im improving cant continue burdening anyone although wish strength keep myself know dont everythings getting worse dont know much longer handle for nothings worth it try,1 elton elton elton elton elton elton elton elton davis aldridge,0 Ohhh I know what i can twit about lmfao-- Jason be sure to enjoy that run tomorrow!!! I'll be joining ya-- just a few cities apart. ,0 someone know boondocks is do know proper website watch on filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 trying deepen voice im trying deepen voice sound like year old girl speak got tips,0 much like big epic pictures ill spare namedropping great kick back beers simple action flick sometimes films plot takes backseat setpieces films dialogue cleverly written ties endless knots purple prose hundreds films fit bill opinion gone sixty seconds one better onesbr br its update movie shares name also shares pictures ethos quite execution whatever great original streamlined whatever streamlined also amped thanks bigger budget often kinds endeavours recipes complete disaster see pugugly remake italian job one blew here thanks cast mostly excellent actors sixty succeedsbr br the plot much dialogue much write imdb about often scenes line dialogue goes back forth actors voice different inflections lot people found annoying find raises smile actor gets chance show definition style here cage jolie duvall leading pack course and noted also amusing see mrs pitt given first billing here chemistry good ol saint nick stalwart see date review angelina leads couple nice momentsbr br the villain even little scary ive seen chris eccleston play toughguy roles know handle them think deliberately directed make role inconsequential distract action know heroes going succeed somehow were sitting car them enjoying ride think lot scenes played tongue far incheek went heads lot people giving poor rating fact minded fourthwall breaking winks camera kind moviebr br all style much substance something often exhausts patience executed just would worthless action there part is wonderfully so ive noticed seems common trend using fastcut extreme closeup shots direct action days personally find kind thing exhausting prefer movies like stunts impressive enough need artificial tension ramping raping tight shots time ive told cage actually many car stunts could get away without losing insurance in real life mean character clearly care shows man really move vehicle put good use slowburning climatic finale drives mustang ground outlandish fun way possiblebr br so yes movie epic lifeaffirming post picture obligatory social commentary effort pacing uneven scenes could cut actors tow line car movies rarely come better this hate cars even reading commentsbr br id take numerous iterations the flaccid tedious guess franchise day ,0 enjoyed albert pyuns nemesis cheesy action semicomplicated script lot people complain confusing plot first film probably nemesis nebula dumb rocks plot superaction carry throughbr br this one gives name first movies hero alex bulked superfemale sent past save future raised tribe africa good portion film dialogue african tongue without subtitles liked made seem somewhat authentic how often movies genre really try that take long evil cyborgs time travel back time find try kill herbr br dont get wrong piece crap not first one anything great subplots involving africas political unrest treasure hunting tribal combat picture short brains none things gets good treatment picture basically drawn fight chases boils musclebabe vs cyborg entertainment value expect quality anything first movie,0 girlfriend makes suicidal cant leavesorry belong sub know go recently left girlfriend one year study abroad ever since left relationship deteriorated rapidly get specifics someone wants to basically whenever fight gets bad makes suicidal used really bad depression admitted psych redflag attempt years ago since much better redflag never even crossing mind im back dark place worked hard escape ive thought breaking her obviously heres catch bpd favorite person unfamiliar means literally think animal imprinting apply human relationships cant leave her really want die ive thinking redflag much lately know do,1 @jenalfano where is the link? I dont see it. ,0 days valentines day someone sent screenshots talking girl facetime instagram saying youre cute flirting her decided say anything girl lived another state didnt want bring up figured fried hitchhiked across country college waited till valentines day called up told dont think live together signed month lease apartment livid brought dozen roses smashed front parking lot,1 gay people best people know okay dont get people cant like gay guys mean literally increase ur chances getting gf competition also take another guy them technically ultimate wingmen girls let lesbians take girls competition increases ur chances bf last thing know fact majority boys subreddit looked yuri least once might well cool point ,0 loltrish hey long time no see yes rain a bit only a bit lol i m fine thanks how s you,0 need fucking gf udhbddbbdbd dont even care sex wanna good relationship someone like urjdndbsueijfngnfjeudhcnfndjrufjcnf someday itll work,0 "@LexiStarGirl i am amazing hahahah thank you! couldnt believe it when i saw it, it was really sweet of him yess he does! that song is",0 shoppin for college ,0 is still nursing my nile but glad he is feeling better i hate when my baby is sick,0 "@Monica2112 Hey cashier is cool, I love fastfood! Haha. Any discount para yo? XD. And yes, they better release ZG before the summer tour! ",0 "@recamel Please, elaborate what you meant about your explanation statement, hmm... And moving to LA = Major yays!!! ",0 "Just back from a lightening visit to Dublin, my brand new baby niece is a peach That just wasn't enough time... ",0 looking old picturesdoes anyone ever go back look old pictures im rn pictures innocent little kid enjoyed life think kid idea hell hes gonna go life,1 for the most part my life is perfect in the grand scheme of thing i am probably in the of well off people on this planet globally speaking i have a home car no debt a family etc it is all there however i am so riddle with anxiety and depression that i feel i am just wasting my life away all i do is see red and fear the worst all day every day i just turned 0 in looking back i ve become very sad how ironic sigh realizing how i ve spent from the 0 to 0 being anxious and wasted away all this potential brain space i have no other way to describe it and a i look to the next 0 year ahead i fear i will do the same can you imagine laying on your death bed thinking i worried and anxiously walked through life i had all this pent up anxiety depression anger insert your ailment here and that is what defined my time here i could elaborate but almost every activity whether banal or extreme is met with a flood of negative thought worry emotion etc i sometimes feel like i am vibrating from so much anxiety it s fucking crushing every day is just a struggle to be normal,1 someone pm me life mess oneim complete mess im reaching end line dont know do wish could speak someone gives shit need help,1 "having dinner soon, trying to finish up my june holidays eng hw. o lvl mt on monday. ",0 hungry dreaming of yumyums,0 Late for work again...but only by 30 min. ,0 glavas lol u read my bio but spelt my name wrong darylo ahem,0 i ve had suicidal ideation almost everyday for year now i ve kinda lost track when specifically because everything just seems like a blur i feel trapped in a way because i don t want to hurt my friend and family but at the same time i m just so exhausted with living i just want to be set free and i wish they could just let me go and finally allow me to leave this world i mean being gay and asian american should give enough of a reason a to why i ve ended up in this predicament i just wish i could have been born normal i wish i could have had a normal childhood i wish i could had all the thing that came with growing up like crush prom night or dating in high school and then piling that on top of all the other horrible shit that exists within our society i don t even want to continue with life anymore why should i even bother if world i live in wa never made for people like me why would it be bad if i choose to leave it isn t it more selfish for them to keep me hostage alive,1 advicehelp wantedhey ive waking wanting dead one important things always friends im constantly paranoid theyll annoyed me feel like im wasting time feel like theyd probably prefer around someone else presence annoying longer keep going less seem live for idk keep on want hard im begining lose hope whole process,1 @AlanCarr Ferrero Rocher that'll go straight to your hips. Enjoy ,0 "@Popehat @zentropy_ @JeremyRJenkins @marknutter Again, I never claimed to have, that was you. I have met many happy, content people who work with their depression. Hate is a decision, so is happiness. You are aggressively argumentative, not a good look",1 good jobthats would describe animated scoobydoo adventurethis far best animated scooby movies seeni liked storyi thought depth itthe movie also well pacedit get boring minuteit also interesting group charactersbesides scooby shaggy gangof courseplusthe movie real blasti lot fun watching iti also liked great scottish musicit catchy infectiousnaturallywe know scooby gamg solve mysterybut still fun getting pointthe animation also pretty good moviei would love d animation scooby adventurebut well wait seefor mescoobydoo loch ness monster ,0 no that s not him in the picture i don t have any pic yet,0 tried say goodbye everyonei tried tell everyone facebook goodlife theyd likely never see again internet second dropped posted never posted realized rewrote it thought maybe meant way maybe ill go away without saying anything,1 ok so i stayed up but didn t watch hero did admin stuff and wp stuff learned some new wp stuff and finally happy with the layout,0 years im getting wearyive sort depression years now remember first occurrences recall instances id playing friends say you guys like me wish did never said like me never acted like ill damned feel like im bs good do friends parents proud wife adores me spent minutes curled ball bed crying repeating i want die let die im tearing write this cried years age first unofficial girlfriend broke god told getting close she later got pregnant wedlock cant explain that cut wrist first time really knowing doing turned common thing huge what for thing friends started hiding upper arms sleeves thighs later year church group trip six flags way back bus spent time bathroom trying choke self piece rope bathroom long enough people knocking im pretty sure got people though drugs face eyes red church two services second one included services kids teens supposed go teen one id usually walk mcdonalds go park listen patti smith would try break neck shower it looked easy movies eventually came idea ill tape plastic bags head handcuff bed cant stop it sister happened need something handcuffing thwarted plan even week later fight dad exclaimed this tried kill self seen cuts parents knew issues guess pushed edge night came room told taking hospital minute drive cried pleaded entire way take me im tearing again checked remember one orderlys sp telling strip underwear could make sure drugs weapons not saw scars said doing show look like trying much harm day still bothers obviously show walk around naked seriously reduced chance anyone would see week made friends felt home felt safe secure though medicated received heart felt letters siblings friends doctor told ready go home told believed bipolar found medication regimen seemed work me enough time cant remember specific incidents life mentally same ive multiple horrible blowups relationships related jealousy stemming lack self esteem worst prompted first wife tell going leave unless went see psychiatrist as note ive seen multiple psychologists years id seem finewithlife days bad ones id still days id depressed moving even arm seemed like insurmountable task selfesteem feel absolutely worthless want die almost every waking minute almost reason feel way do people tell theyre proud me people respect people like around even though ive sabotaged lot friendships years behaviour even though know medication may help hate idea medicated even wanted im self employed health insurance cant afford pay pocket psychiatrist drugs hate self hate face body think read slow think im dumb think suck anything try do almost everyone around better anything strive do cant compete anything even multiplayer games lose feel like utter failure wife today got high score orbital went feeling fine hearing going room and well led this year old planning growing this moved parents house got good job significant id fine feel successful nothing changed outgrown all months things seem fine think yes over better feel months things good harder crash soon thereafter fearful ever hold pistol hand ill pull trigger ive even considered going shooting range done it words coming feel done post needed someone read someone listen im tired putting depressive weight wife fair her read even respond thanks reading,1 suicidal lonelyive struggling anxiety depression several years kept myself im lowest ive ever know wont make dont get help dont find happiness anything anymore hate myself im lonely best friend whos one really feel comfortable around moved away dont anyone could talk without feeling guilty im struggling college money relationships im overwhelmed im limit people always say hang things get better theyve gotten far worse im drunk hate even ive attempted redflag twice wasted used worried id get blackout drunk kill im worried even started plan it think redflag constantly feel lost alone want over,1 pm pass bedtime ,0 feel vulnerable often starting become fed living want free constant redflag depression even write this want drop dead leaving behind fears world mean going die anyway difference make happens now much admire human race also terrified it find dangerous people often average mentality hard feel threatened constantly cannot around people without whirlwind negative emotions fear sorrow anger etc perhaps spend much time social media observing people find incredibly cruel see yourself look comments section youtube video witness discourse anger flows naturally people home town large masses homeless people makes sad seeing many folks hit rock bottom seen groups teenagers beat said homeless people right front me seen people drugs yell fight stab rob seen women awful things children public without repercussions overheard people spread hatred people family members die horrible ways old classmates ended lives witnessed man try commit suicide highway swear think i know sure think saw one neighbors take child prostitute home feel like surrounded society cruelty violence reason cannot help love people however love dissuade wanting leave world childish sounds wish could born life issues nonexistent despite disturbed appalling human behavior cannot help fixate it feels like positives world want free it living terrifying,1 i m so bored with life i know it s not worth living i don t have anyone to hang out with or do thing with so all i do is go to work and stay home i m an adventurous outdoorsy and outgoing person and love getting out there and doing thing but i have no transportation and don t know how to ride a bike i can barely afford to take lyft and uber to work and back home my life ha no excitement to it and there is nothing interesting about it everything is pointless like i work in a grocery store a an order picker for example and what s the point of helping people shop for grocery they are going to need again the next week it s the same thing day after day and week after week it s all pointless what we do today won t matter in a month or year i m just done with this whole life thing sometimes i get legitimately pissed off for the simple fact that i wa even born and not aborted i wish every day my birth mom aborted me now i m just a worthless sack of shit taking up space and sucking up air i have tried making my life worth living by moving to a warmer climate getting a better job and starting my own business but the excitement of it all wear off everything turned out to be a flop i can t do anything right since i don t belong here i firmly believe my existence is an accident not they type of accident of an unplanned pregnancy but like i wa never meant to exist type of accident i realized a long time ago i don t belong in this world and i honestly don t want to be a part of it anymore,1 subreddit sucksthere said it,1 kill myself tell people suffering meanwhile everything want cannot think big deal cannot it believe situation is cannot possibly bad telling them big deal move one life yeah easy never gfrelationship cannot bc untreatable condition caused impotence years tell notredflag sex matter bc things fuck world everybody sympathy starting feel like way convince people much unfixable pain in,1 time comefor end life good run definitely hoping for thats life try like did would nice friend thats possible someone like me sorry making waste time read this since matter,1 I Really Enjoy Following Random People On Here & Striking Up Conversations!! Could Kinda Seem Odd But I'm Just Chatty And A Bit Nosey ,0 think might track first girlfriend im sure tuesday hour convo girl agreed longest fun convo weve had im sure like like her yet anyway think decent chance end dating im sure yall think,0 anyshalyke oh you went clubbing without me lol next time we can do it together,0 thastevieg but what i really want is my old bass back,0 sure cleanest way go iswould wrapping head plastic wrap cleanest way leave body dont really want someone traumatized come upon splattered brain pool blood drive hybrid carbon monoxide out,1 happy made memes medium quality one even high quality highest quality one best picture shrek happy,0 sherrigarrity sorry i missed responding yesterday rochester is in mn so we are not to far from each other dark chocolate rock,0 theekween the herb is ideal for those that suffer from depression anxiety loss of a loved one heartbreak or have witnessed something tramatic thelmaherbs,1 @jmacgirl1992 I'd sign up for the extra credit ,0 imagine throwing bitch fit enojis like bruh,0 theres point human trash aliveim useless stupid ugly make nobody happy annoy everyone im boring im quiet make everybody hate me im ugly im fat everybody better without deserve die pathetic worthless im massive disappointment failure meant born would want die well knew real life thats okay deserve death pain around pills overdose on want fail end alive liver failure shit,1 weird thing happened today found people shipping girl talk frequently im catch good day dont know theyre this told girl it also weirded it something happened,0 im donei nothing going me money invest music production equipment new phone people house better shit makes feel jealous knowing this also im blind makes everything even worse since cant use apps like tiktok wattpad fanfiction much ease play cool games sighted people seem addicted to also cant watch youtube videos way since listen see im getting full experience makes sense memes gifs instagram feel really excluded everything especially since live era instagram food pics selfies memes reaction gifs feel like punished birth blindness even though thats case all mention im technically high school dropout since never finished senior year was supposed graduate couple months ago quit really isnt hope mei feel like nothings ever going right cant anything change circumstances fucking hate life id rather die keep living misery,1 guys need advice australians us citizens friend mine met dude omegle for fun ofc met dude lives us adds group several school friends quite younger think hes yrs old days later tries asking younger girls add him ask nudes reject becomes extremely rude abusive chat fat shaming friends cousin another mental issues continues way sometimes want something it reported account snapchat wont anything,0 bought pack cigarettesi flipped one side smoke one last kill myself tried everything help every time get close something comes ruins everything hope today microdosing lsd today lack money lsd plugs realised option smoke lot pack probably last week enough time write note,1 homies need hug clear inclusive get homie,0 took years finally got girlfriend would say ever happened lonely,0 extra nuggies random mf working mcdonalds put extra nugget nugget meal fucking legend made day shit,0 made promise commit redflag birthday i think it im strong enough it knowing probably cant follow through worst part actually pretty ok crushing despair knowing ill alive past date unbearable posted dating profile okcupid recently distant friends work it posted reddit overwhelming critique really figure it know anymore im person gave long time ago things writing im going anymore interests goals desires im even sure even mine followed pursued achieved everyone else wanted living goal everyone else me living goals people but goals ones worth talking about killing myself feeling bad things people bond on im pretty much alone theres noone close enough lean ask friendship from,1 join u next wednesday at am a we cover the urbanhealthcouncil s recent work on ecological health report present urbanisation role in disease development such a depression and it link to air pollution urban planning is healthcare http t co xoz rsunxh,1 Free at last for 48 Hours ,0 yaykimo it s sad it s the last season i wan na see when spencer call lauren,0 ha just said goodbye to her hubby who is off globe trotting away,0 @HarlemLanes Right! I am trying to convince my homegirl thats its a lounge type thing that just happens to have bowling ,0 beautiful day to be outside listening to the birds "twittering" in the sunshine ,0 ive worked hard im tiredi struggled mental illness since child remember one point time happy full laughter light energy years gone however ive felt hollow sometimes recognize person mirror eyes light world dim dark smiling act used second nature difficult effort takes makes facial expression ugly grotesque chest feels heavy tight constricted deepest breath take gasp feel empty starved relief vast majority wrong choices bad decisions actions unintentionally hurt people done desperate misguided attempts feel something anything besides pain emptiness despair ive never wanted hurt anyone people told keep trying keep fighting say need me say would devastated there want hurt anyone know people love would miss me want keep fighting sake own fellow redditors im terribly tired ive got nothing left either feel numb hollow im much pain constantly makes tremble feel like im tortured people ask want want say please tell goodbye please tell love me understand hope find rest badly need could somebody please tell goodbye could somebody please wish well hope find peace find rest im tired,1 viewed original outer limits real time first broadcast since viewed entire original series reruns complete dvd find new outer limits well remake old retread episodes adolescent commentators suggestedbr br with seven years programs versus two years original series producers writers certainly added considerable new original stories philosophical lines much longer running well produced cable tv series plots intelligent scientifically accurate projections unknown possibilities sometimes frightening imminent futurebr br while producers directors hollywood ignorantly view scifi indistinguishable horror fantasy series returns origins science fiction logical moral philosophical projections current new technologies possibly fearful near term realizations series well remains unique avoidance shootemup video game monster mentally much current generation brains history message good entertainment adult series without unbearable teenage knowitall fantasies hurraybr br now get mgm release entire new outer limits series dvd instead six poor teaser discs st season available,0 @BethIsBaffled_ WOW Beth i just went on your myspace and listened to the tracks u recorded. They're really good!! ,0 lanarisque hahahahhha hows your food poisening going ha it gone away,0 endless cycleits like im brink attempting it something good happens bring back hope im going okay feel alright while suddenly horrible sinking feeling hits want end things more something good happens repeats exhausting,1 friend wasis going hard time decided write poem help get thoughts out really wanted know people thought want ask thought would come behalf poem day comesand anymorejust know triedi tried hardbut broken easy fix try fightbut every dayevery hour every minute every second rest constant battle demonsand tired weakyoure exhausted life life worth living friends poem,1 palim falling apart insides collapsing msis yiu much please come baxk,1 venting life cant handle life anymore ive alot happier parents made life hell every day yelled cussed dad unparalleled amount reasons hell call fucking idiot things similar alot hurts force keep straight face fear yelled more admittedly get alot probably enough chores should cant see justified maybe wrong here makes relapse suicidal thoughts makes lose motivation anything including playing online talking friends hate life sometimes them motivation work screamed work caught up debating telling mom everything here know younger brother thing holding parents marriage together even said got chance shed leave behind buy home beach mom alright yell call things sometimes definitely understanding two either sit feeling like nothing get old enough leave home add onto everything dad said ever get jailed ever caught trying commit redflag hed kill me,0 contemplated going out for a post midnight walk but still have pile of work to get through,0 @cloverdash Thank you Reeeally needed that today-you're going to make me all weepy now! ILY too xx,0 fucking mistakei feel like complete dumbass know depressed something fucked head say shit like want keep messed time ive feeling way since feel like see therapist something time dont horrible thoughts want kill catch say want im normal understand myself want die want commit redflag hate living cry everyday alive much hate life find joy anything go crazy punch myself hit objects say crazy see crazy get get help need mean least meds help want go record want lose job mental illness stupid going undiagnosed getting help cut myself bruise myself make throw up binge eat problems want anyone know cant normal want normal again,1 thought finally freewell kinda thought would it made plans grabbed would need trudged forest set walking around hour found single tree hang from none trunks branches im sitting alone forest noose bag im tired feeling way cant see reason continue life wish could say episode im irrational perfectly calm spend every night awake hating myself wishing could anyone else someone worthy respect success personal life die ill always pitiful loser,1 and just when it wa the most painful when i had sunk so deep into my depression that i could sink no further,1 point killing feels harder coasting along alivei halfassed tried hang almost three weeks ago day ex broke body kept panicking keep alive succeed since ive coasting last years transferring current college first relationship never defined never knew ended blue shaken core ive friends friends high school kinda drifted even though were still living area hang often talk other went two sets roommates made life hell ive living studio last set anxiety living people became bad again another relationship ex emotionally abusive emotionally abusive way always letting know potential physically violent never actually anything me scared leave least months shortly that ended relationship ended seriously thought love life guess unhappy ended breaking heart right one year anniversary whole year relationship delay graduation plans got sick mono month right getting back life best friend killed month th one year anniversary that right two ds hardest time getting classes knows ill even able graduate spring ive depressed since felt like ive coasting life point theres lot changes happening want nothing them job internship prospects school still retail job enjoy it cant live forever im tired feel worthless want cease existing getting body point let go seems like work putting enough effort get by cried entire way home work last night im parents house tonight went see younger brothers high school band concert im spending night spent part day watching mom freak bills im like i want this want it feel like ive seen enough none seems worth it god damn killing hard work,1 whats pointso im neet money every job try makes lose sanity from workload people work with im fat gross looking i crooked teeth acne scars stretch marks body lose weight would still lot loose skin see able afford fixing things anytime soon luck women and see fixing without physical improvement friends confide things actually enjoy with ive tried therapy mental hospital stays medication real positive results make matters worse im grand student loan debt degree finish im also convinced ill miserable life accomplish financial independence cant stand thought abandoning dreams work aholes live mediocrity without decent looking girlfriendwife close friends ive also wanted travel long remember know possible without filthy rich look digital nomads see possible current situation either hope someday able travel world finding decent looking girl financially independent thoughts kept going past year every day however believe dreams less less circumstances changing see realistically change anytime soon im sick dealing depression basically disappointment around me thought id make post last resort take life maybe theres something considered im really sure anymore maybe dreams come true nothing look forward to really better dead ps sorry extra long post thanks anyone took time read,1 polhillian yup,0 fianc died nothing left live forthe love life died stupid pointless terminal illness took life away long took life away angry hurts much want done now literally nothing left live for nothing apart silence pain dreaming way another every time try sleep nothing helps nothing ever will never written reddit life even know works really anyone else talk to family friends happy loved bubbles husbands babies right now awful is kinda hate happy know he want die that dead would would want irrelevant want die want stop,1 need eating mode reddit eating dont want see guys bleeding toenail,0 seriously engaging intelligent thought provoking drama best mean gripping moody captivating every home copy take word see yourself one life stand makes consider lifestyle treat family friends beautiful photography impressive acting makes one best cinemagraphic experiences year john kieltys debut delight adds real touch truth realism deep gritty film film cares honesty unequalled recent years car chases film packed hum emotion first saw film screened edinburgh film festival delighted able copy dvd,0 talk outbout problems really need advice rn,0 If GOP maintain control of both the House & the Senate in this upcoming 2018 election then the Left will move on from Bargaining to Depression. Trump needs to do everything he can to make this happen such as getting @Jim_Jordan to become next Speaker before then. #FoxAndFriends pic.twitter.com/EuQfKUOxV9,1 it s like no matter what i do i fuck it all up why am i a giant fuck up machine,1 among us discord servers want play people randoms none friends play,0 guys got corona beers im good boy idk drink not wanna drink til im cuz im good boy,0 any personalidentifying details removed reading this sorry please forgive me although know might take time purely decision fault anyone elses anything could done feel broken lost maybe finally finally find peace owe explanation longer life goes on worse gets regards many different problems life hear is get better getting better it participating life tedious draining unfulfilling incredibly sad though probably experiencing bewilderment anger grief done please know this want die almost everyone everything life supportive me wanted try life attempt grow old world truly beautiful place times especially true wonderful family all it removed friends particular removed names friends even though time lives would see long since passed happiest rays pure sunshine otherwise bleak world you extraordinary friends known along way thank me seriously lucky know you thing feel emotionally unfit keep wading currents life so sad almost all time cannot anything it believe me tried tried name it sobriety exercise mindfulness meditation selfhelp material multiple medications multiple doctors multiple therapists even psychiatrist me suicide insidious everpresent mental intellectual emotional spiritual cancer ever since first time heard childhood almost feel like inevitable always felt like outsider looking life never participant observer thought suicide least per hour excluding sleep decade trying simply hold on years guess final straw broke camels back brief periods thought might able overcome feeling able potentially envision future liberating periods always due help people tried hard source light strength instead looking others am always needed help blunt never thought would make age removed now that age slightly older time passes relative stability occasional optimism past completely eroded existence fulfillment despair pain years years desperately trying find meaning motivation future cannot envision it nothing feel totally lost this combination increasingly crushing burdens alive human being leaves one option quit feels like thing ever actually control stop struggling currents life let overtake sounds like appealing thing imaginable sorry pass pain onto you reading this stronger ever was could take more perpetual observer so lonely you lonely truly sorry you moments something would like share one know pain well felt fundamentally alone lonely since started retaining memories one thing always really wanted travel never got much farthest ever got location removed future ever particularly beautiful place wondrous moment maybe think briefly lucky ill get right beside you even luckier ill soon get surf waves spacetimei sorry love yes you much fuck it draft suicide note see relate hint can,1 whiny little assholeim never good enough gtlt c chemistry literally going ruin life feel like fucking grades make break life dad never shuts them studying going get a better slack get b meet nerd good subject guys spent inordinate amount time studying literally shit eating grin ta told going get psych could feel icy stares folks class calling losers nerd etc looks everything saying ityou could feel thoughts forming heads words surface lips ask someone hang ignore me give obvious bullshit answer i cellphone phone rings text or im busy facebook status theyre bored obviously spite me weirdo loser im hypocrite loserish hang frat bro level folks know decent number people cool losers busywork stress stress play even respite course boring person interests maybe me decided kill got acceptance letter thought foolishly would new person ex actually make friends enjoy free time instead crying bed severely bored turn weekend come monday proud owner handgun long gun blargh,1 feel love someone online fuck dont qant shit really dont stresses please help,0 my mom slapped me all the time i do not want to study at all from to 0 i stayed with her studying the stuff of a student i ate the school so much and also my mother she treated me very bad because i wasn t the type of child that have all 0 in the school report but neither all when i took i wa a failure and no one talk in the house when i take 9 i wa a good student an object in which transfer all they re expectation and hope win with a lot of people and lose alone this is my life even today when i get tired and i kill myself i m not a fucking puppet through which u can manipulate and treat bad i m tired of all of this to feel a failure myself and also not so good looking because for them i m fat now i m sad,1 I've got Ashtray Heart stuck in my head. ,0 Last day of schoooolll ,0 i'm listening MUSIC ,0 how?? "Starting to doubt ddlovato's identity" im mean what they no you from your programs QUIT YOUR GIBBA GABBA FOOL haha @ddlovato,0 hate life currently,0 don t want to do anything other than sleep drink or smoke because the future is hopeless because the past can not be changed and lost time is gone forever the logic center of my brain is screaming at me to exit this situation and that there s only one way that living in these condition is meaningless and all the more painful i ve tried everything i even treated myself a a stranger talking to myself a if talking to another telling them i love them and i would look after them and i forced myself to talk back i ve delved deep into question none right in the head would want to touch there s just nothing left to do i ve even begged for help pill only work a long a you take them even then they only take the pain away not the desire for death because it s all pointless in the end to hell with people who love me i m gone,1 Just made more money with the CPA on Crack script.. CPA companies LOVE me you can check it out at www.CPAonCRACK.com,0 @DarrenEstes This is only negative if there is a better option for depression patients. 24 is better than 0.,1 im embarrassment need endedall fill family shame worry im pretty much useless point would better dead dont burden anybody again know every response going convincing otherwise ive heard all anyone anything say feel free dont want exist planet anymore wish options,1 "@SuprnaturlShana I hope it goes smoothly for you I'd help if we lived closer, but then again, with limited AC, couldn't make promises lol",0 one dayi personally think redflag set happen like know im gonna bc dont see another way misery matter hard try know ill always abusive mothers control everyday gives reasons end it recently point wanna commit redflag hurt her bc hate bc want feel pain puts daily basis dont think anything would hurt much losing me losing precious obedient kid know leave painful scar also know shell never blame bc doesnt see depressed shes made every day life doesnt believe mental health know shell feel pain,1 Going back and istening to an older album of an artist who went public with depression is nutty.,1 want kill myself cant though hate iti wish wasnt born sisters aged could leave year old sisters pick school play every day burden one day gone understanding why want exist world feel trapped year old sister depression bipolar disorder cut wrists wants run away tells forces tell nobody im scared her dreams loses mind kills me dont sleep night anymore hate school im always tired friends smart want engineers cant fucking pass grade math test im grade fucking hate every day school pretend sick skip it cant drop dad would lose it cant commit redflag mom already thinks failed parent older sisters doings parents put effort eldest sister keep inside me ive told counselling sessions dad cut thought attention faking it believe me put resources helping ive neglected hate them two younger sisters equation would instantly kill myself even note written laptop containing help explain redflag young kids alongside everything goes friends younger sisters im trapped trapped shitty life joy happiness keep everything inside tell friends want get hit car die accident tbh even know im writing this got here researching efficient ways die want waste space ever work guts leave shitty world take life wish life kick ground keep kicking you like fuck man want die want whatever world contain me wish like immune system infection flushed out im trapped paradox cant want bad hate younger sisters theyre keeping alive love keeping alive know made sense whoever read far jumbled mess thoughts self loathing does wish parents would take school week two mentally try heal reset im danger school want die there could easily run away finish it im goddamn tempted to honest know deep deep dont want die believe exists us least us thats write wish someone somehow internet sees name mojoit goes oh hey thats one friends aliases im going contact stop this feeling deep deep nearly enough save me ive called parents many times ignored take serious enough maybe know meant hate dad most wish saw knew different wants lawyer savant never be sees inferior everyone embarrasses me day family dinner made fun dropping soccer dance due anxiety around it mom forces dance school wont get fat hate it performance tomorrow pretended sick know dances pushing dying tonight know dad comment bad mom disappointed friends calgary met online want go meet cause important way kill would met person im vancouver bc know wrote this maybe feeling talked earlier knows know maybe tonight night theres bleach upstairs tons meds could take dont want make mess go gory knife rought much parents clean up im trapped reddit want never existed im stuck work courage commit wish parents understood im trapped,1 kariajay all this time you didn t notice i wa gone just needed db is it,0 checked post history holy crap anyways anyone wanna chat drift wonderland anyways looked post history alllll sub always night always loneliness odd innit,0 "@rankfowler yeah, I'm talking about you! No, not really. But maybe. ",0 since become cool hip socialist so visible social media et cetera answer that fellow teenagers,0 anyone say get better theyre lying want stay around longer whati really fucking hate myself im fat useless worthless sorry excuse human being wish hadnt backed redflag attempt long ago held knife stomach today didnt guts it presence unneeded one even wants still opt keep fighting dont think anymore im fighting war never win keep spiraling deeper depression swallowing whole nothing exist bring others pain im tired hurting everyone driving everyone away yelling everyone hated everyone im giving st wasnt meant stick around long begin with lost faith existence higher power long ago cried hands knees prayed forgiveness someone rescue me one heard cries point know im screaming void set free cant feel anything end inevitable want sooner,1 seriously close redflag idea do real advice neededi canada lots important details dont want get into basically cant continue living way redflag seems likely dealing immense self hatred since entire life also isolated never friends currentlly unemployed pessamistic future incredibly depressed every day painful already tried meds exercise diet cant make friends therapy self help books moving much self hating make friends anyways basically cant anymore need real action platitudes die destroy family miss world live go crazy cant handle it tell authority redflag hotline doctor therapist bad doing hospitalized forcefully medicated ruin life thats option could tell family severely annoyed almost slightly hate parents dont want talk them cant help except try throw money me take guns away guilt living unhelpful annoying option could tell older sister really helpful smart good stuff like this ive spoken immideately told parents really uncool guarantee tell im suicidal tell parents friends talk to poorly poi t also cant wait slow recovery shotgun cant friends anyone real talk to bound happen soon die theres going back dont want die dont want live way living even more feel bad go insane angry believe need die punish myself seriously guys dont want break sisters hearts parents hearts also cant talk see alternative need actual solution fucking happening dont wabt get detail everything thats going on need real world change fuck do die sorry thanks reading,1 know whats annoying road trip sound wind flying front seat window half distorted radio thats basically earrape static point know end say im one driving car,0 since human penis bone wrong call erection boner cos bone,0 since lightsabers recently proven possible could said plasmabased blasters may sound impossible said same thing lightsabers,0 moving small town hi everyone want apologise terrible wordingsentence structure i dont write often ive lived progressive city years life never really scaredworried lgbt family moving rural australian town im scared im scared im going attacked people care going attacked bisexuality guess im asking is do go loud proud hope dont give shit hop back comfy closet im relatively safe,0 making fun year old still making among us references im hypocrite okay want squirted,0 whats movie always makes cry want sad today guess,0 anybody else have so much anxiety over confrontation that they block out feeling angry i ve always been terrified of confrontation and i feel like a a result i just bury all of my anger not only do i never speak up about it but i also don t really allow myself to feel it not sure how to stop but i feeling like it is eating away at me i also feel like it might be causing me physical pain it s just exhausting a is all of anxiety,1 tips losing weight hello rteenagers ive trying lose weight dont know how tips losing weight,0 "@elainerogers you're more than welcome! Right, better get back to what I got motivated for! ",0 hospitals cancer mentally ill people overdosed mg ended hospital yesterday im finally done etiz done got craziest shit life ended roof contemplating redflag called officers trying get come down scary zero control lucky kill im tears right im thankful alive really felt like could ended moment inhibition try stick opioids never thought redflag opioid forced go voluntarily said threatened doctor force go involuntarily later on etizolam began wear felt strong urge leave guards monitoring door leading chance another patient acting restrained guards distracted made run it made pretty far misjudged jump fell scraped fingers pretty badly doctor quick come see let leave told wanted leave suicidal overall shitty way get situation like that injure get discharged even forced sign voluntary admission paper,1 friends met pedo whatsapp catfished part started messaging pedo im horny age consent countrythen started send shit like omg wanna fuck show pussy googled year old nudes sent random one trapped part made think horny girl started sending videos wank started getting creepier like live fuck dollars got stuff needed blocked himi give phone number address irl name phone name bizamana yannick address chetwynd british columbia please harras make life bad tried get nudes little girls ampxb want spread repost pedo get deserves,0 gentle reminder nothing matters part iiwell incalculable reason im still thing course blew interview lack preparation seems things matter things do course discussed lack preparation mentioned specific things prepared felt like fool course done things read thing sent email least partially went dark time original position thinking still open told filling contractor positions thinking never hit job board goal date came went threw hands convinced going happen must really want theyre giving writing assignment redeem myself makes sense im tempted tell that looking massive pool well qualified individuals opportunity cost huge ampxb httpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsakweqca_gentle_reminder_that_nothing_i_do_mattershttpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsakweqca_gentle_reminder_that_nothing_i_do_matters ampxb ampxb,1 adios amigos hallelujah world great journey over first bangladesh english good seeing means im deadi longer tangent universe know time read also celebritybut years ive gathered huge amount knowledgeand last day dimension something confessfirst like personsi lot differenti think different tooor able heretheyre trying terminate mebut know ill always herei cant write book life appreciated appreciationtoday humans much foolishthey whatever theyre told talk whatever theyre taughti philosophisti nobodyi wish collective mindthis last day cant type everythingjust theyve implanted you best note ever readsomethings going like big conspiracykeep mind open eyes earsi hope could exist little bit long cantwhether exist doesnt matter anybodythey want perishweve made solve itlove mom one loved mostmy little sister know shell harvard someday certainly willi want recall bad thing life last want say adios amigos,1 lost virginity yesterday cool guess anyone wanna play minecraft now,0 yayy my fave cousin came to visit me in nyc! ,0 fucking sick everything know even still alive none means fucking thing anyway fucking bored bored fucking deepest depths soul hate alive hate fucking depressed time nothing helps fucking pills therapy it hit three months sober clean selfharm change fucking thingi want numb want go huge drug filled bender go somewhere loud angry music get fucking high forget even exist care dangerous give shit kills me anyone miss anyway cannot even fucking stuck fucking lockdown right now still feel like need something break fucking monotony point getting drunk home cannot listen loud music here cannot even alone here drugs either getting drunk really cut anymorei stuck bullshit time cannot break it stuck thinking ways mix shit up go bender cover cuts get institutionalized break arm fucking set fire something dunnojust fucking sick living want say fuck impulsive shit,1 anyone else feel like subreddit besides teenagers really mean ive noticed reddit maybe two years every time post another subreddit people really cruel tried posting ask reddit post got trolled hell direct messages filled really hateful stuff tried posting life pro tips literally entire comments filled people calling bad person understand perspective wish willing bit nicer it every time try posting casual conversations post gets removed facilitating conversation even though make effort include phrases like anyone relate this anyone else different perspective honestly feel like impossible interact reddit community without delete half posts avoid opening direct messages maybe thats collateral damage teenage girl internet dont understand way everyone always talks social media terrible fake literally every social media ive nicer accepting reddit made arbitrary rules cant talk instagram account use emojis frankly anything without receiving public hate find teenagers subreddit people react posts without immediately trying think hate comment hit hardest know reaction post going stop using reddit thats entirely valid reddit provides unique community interact people share specific passions opinions dont want loose that may true im sensitive need learn take joke fault first place posts suck even fact im making post know cant person feels alienated community thought would find acceptance in want people know theyre alone thank teenagers subreddit downvoting posts hell half time hope future reddit little accepting,0 farewell boysonce upon midnight dreary killed myself left one teary,1 is polyvoringg heyhey . visit the links below yha ..,0 think go onfirst sorry english im fluent im diagnosed ocd always shy child friends growing up knowing science history observing actual world society getting lonely feeling belong world since remember hated myself always thinking worthless unwanted anyone first girl could get life s smashed feelings suffered lot this reinforcing i wish dead feelings ive always had last year diagnosed ocd months thinking depression instead took daily medications ocd finally forgot girl year years suffering her all obsessive passionlove her im getting symptoms depression aside ones ive already had im sorry really hard keep thoughs tell right always though wish dead sometimes kill myself ive never courage myself side job im college was studying electrical engineering quited like almost everything simply cannot think anything future single career yeah ocd probably depression loneliness selfhatred almost friends disdain mankind hope future career dismay anything ive enjoyed courage end alone know anymore cannot stand pain,1 theekween heart break witnessing trauma anxiety depression loss of a loved one thelmasherbs,1 vacuums smell good yeah bassically title nothing else ,0 bad breath im genuinely baffled older brothers bad breath someone tell eat walnuts myf brotherm always throws tantrums hes angry gets angry were joking around often yesterday took nap hours pm pm sister dad joking him got way frustrated angered moment anyway i direct youngest child am commented storming out he turn gets super close face point noses touching starts tearing me really care breath really really bad probably joke woken up still like breath always stink know breath always stinks idk thought backing away assert dominance instead thought headbutting tanjiro style didnt waited finished said another thing twat brought every issue hed ever me walked away got proper fight realize really stupid story small interaction brother seriously know breath always smells bad whenever smell which often lol usually like hes showing video phone were close together smt always rancid also brush every meal teeth stuff smell bad asked said dried spit invisiliners like wash them please sake kiss girlfriend mouth bro im really asking advice anything wanted somewhere talk probably backfire face tldr brother angrily got face fathom stinky breath,0 ive started getting commentshow bad multiple people course weeks feel look ready kill yourself looking general answer one specific me,1 saying hi reminding drink water every day till get girlfriend day hi hope well remember drink water stay hydrated,0 Anyone fancy a game of footie ? ,0 depression and anxiety are two whole ass bitches that i refuse to let fw me today.,1 would like know favourite songs listen music daily im running low songs im bored of would like hear recommendations also doesnt matter genre,0 text diei wish,1 not going swimming,0 abject failure barreling catastrophe bull china shop familyi hemorrhage money incapable functioning cant responsible father cant even motivate wake up going financially ruin family student loans shame guilt unbearable,1 feeling intense need die cant even get bed complete redflag plani never hopeless right now failed redflag attempts past afraid die ending hospital seeing many doctors therapists past years medications little nothing really bummer sucks work me though im sure helps others how anyway never felt alone purposeless right least past week feeling way exhausting im sleeping hours end legit help hope purpose believe whole heartily becoming bitter second im learning meant die young peaked early wish could build physical strength go fulfill redflag plan though barely even make bathroom dont even know else lay thoughts anonymously reddit someone give kind energy source this jesus,1 i need friend i am so sad and lonely please help,1 im desperate meaningful connections every time start get know someone hopes skyrocket get crushedtired making new acquaintances never ever contact me tired becoming friends women thinking might giving signals find theyre not im going kill myself cant keep torturing like this,1 care deadim fucking tired fake people say shit like ill always you i care lot leave cant handle bullshit anymore know fault lot people suck cant help blame burdening point care anymore guarantee least half people tell kill really give shit died always text day two hear weeks months sometimes never again im always one initiating conversation proves point even more wish people would honest me,1 know women want good bedwars partner look elsewhere ,0 feel broken know take anymoreive one failed attempt months ago parents even know it felt like years gotten close unbearable past weeks ive always two best friends reason this lately theyve even getting annoyed bullshit im ftm transgender person dysphoria completely destroying past couple months especially seeing family lot holidays feel like im trapped able escape running air want able take deep breath first time life thought able one day transition live normal life something thats always gotten tough times lately thought worth getting days absorbed suffocating feeling similar topic im called preferred name pronouns school extremely transphobichomophobic parents know anything trans however art teacher called came trying me beginning end way seeing caused spiral fit feeling though purpose worth human being people would think situation lasted week month greatly affected even today every time phone rings panic thought could call outs me really want say fuck jonathan schnieder know sounds like teenage drama is things friend said made upset ever wouldve imagined longs story short crush one friends school got talking crushes class told liked him never answered me waiting say anything talking best friend random things conversation ended telling lot time im too much although like told people think things me still negatively affected thought wouldve even care things said much thought even want friend even though weve really close since nd grade know im nothing annoying people thought mad absolutely destroys me know sounds completely obsolete today really shitty went home tried listen music favorite bands always able start digging mood today sound became annoying nothing else giving idea listening music tried watch favorite musical dear evan hansen fitting right even seemed fruitless pointless overall theres nothing think would get state depression im sorry post made seem like im dramatic needed place vent actually read this thank even caring enough that,1 whodunnit hitchcock tradition kept dark suspects come go dennis quaid supurb dexter man doomed die meg ryan excellent babe much like little suspense pieces fit neatly together way should sorry watched one like suspense,0 i miss family guyyy,0 "Got blisters from walking to the library. She was really stressed, but I tired to help ",0 nothing righti weird fetishes hate ill never able rapper enjoy life gaming computer car learn draw house dont want grow feeling miserable thats whats gonna happen bc im lazy idiot cant swear guess im light dont anything towards goals fact thing sleep day play games cant even deal people since social anxiety whatever wanna die cant solve anything life brain btw already go therapy take meds,1 broke gf im really scaredso today broke gf almost year best friend one friends had lot unnecessary fights also took care world got bit much i sometimes short periods depression suicidal feelings pretty serious social anxiety many friends weve breaking months finally it cant say im relieved honest know better feel empty feel like anything told want remain friends want keep touch really itll hurt much says shell me want that want someone me time want anyone me makes sense me feel like fault person way handle things like fights insecurities know feel lonely,1 running outta optionsbeen whole depression thing years god getting hard afraid ask help afraid like im stuck everyday cycle falling asleep break get fuck,1 black lives matter know people subreddit going start screaming alm comments come say lives matter black people trying fight equality none yall saying shit george floyd every black brother sisters death hate crime start demanding justice equality systemic racism bullshit people wanna say lives matter question come high majority people say lives matter white americaneuropean black people hispanics minor ethnic groups understand true meaning black lives matter smh yall saying lives matter ignorance thats really case do paedophiles lives matter ku klux clan lives matter hitlers life matter even bin ladens life matter ok point high majority people say almwhite lives matter,0 dog reason stayed alive last years beautiful german shepherd starting slow health problems hopeful around much longer terrifiedi know passes every time worked courage kill myself thought dog trying find living rest life without makes cry eventually snap it prepared lose think ever ready dog getting old terrified,1 italian lesson now bored,0 give hope dontmy life pain understand cant get happiness want end it worth longer stay alive,1 six degrees hooked looked forward coming totally disappointed men trees replaced time spot thought hiatus would back early happened friends really surprised ended could relate characters real problems talked episode favorite characters anybody show like felt acting superb alway like seeing programs taped cities identify local areas one would like protest canceling show ask bring back give another chance give good time slot keep moving day day advertise people know on,0 @chacal_lachaise danke! ,0 @FaeryKJewellery Eventually got my phone working again. But not before I labelled you a faerx. http://twitpic.com/69drr,0 is wishing he loved me,0 depressed random pointsthis night normally skyping friends talking working homework listening music usual stuff teen does minutes later fighting back tears wanting cut wondering much itll hurt wondering friends get confused ive made many mistakes life wondering normal thing go random intervals happened school eating lunch talking friends know wish emotions would normal,1 got tested covid recently good stick nose unpleasant feeling world,0 "H8 when people self diagnose or make jokes about depression, addiction & domestic abuse. ur not depressed, ur sad. ur not an alcoholic, ur 23 n drink on weekends. n it's not funny to make jokes about ur bf/gf beating u",1 depression grippe ac,1 im seriously fucked person absolutely deserve livethank caring enough click post means lot ill warn you though really really long done absolutely morally reprehensible things people absolutely deserved chronically past even know long ive always outward image helpful easygoing generally pleasant fellow im sure unconsciously shaped exterior personality convey harmlessness moral fiber make disgusting predation easier myself since young absolutely terrifying temper suspect ive got intermittent explosiveness disorder although ive never diagnosed im oldest five children workingclass background often left charge watching little sisters parents away love dearly general got along quite well always tendency fly right fuck handle pathetically trivial annoyances demonstrated horrific lack patience poor girls usually would verbally venomous reduce tears occasionally would become physically abusive fucking reason im grips rage tend grab throats remorse would set id exceptionally nice sisters while never prevented relapse im sure actions longterm effects poor girls opinion reason enough deserve death theyre good people naturally outburts lived absolute disgust myself veered severe bouts depression periods compensating false confidence joviality absolutely motivation school whole way through rarely actually work poor father concerned academic performance stepmom came life later bent backwards try stop completely fucking life up reaction take personal offence build shell indignance judgements christ im asshole began lying them lying began ways excuse responsibility homework similar things quickly escalated fullblown pathology realized feel bad horrific person believe lies that fuck lied everything became incredibly manipulative sometimes would lie sheer hell it made difference lied affected them got drugs alcohol early teens course lied teeth times possibly count stole hell lot booze remember workingclass father course teen years theyd finally found out kicked house im getting ahead myself though met soulmate beloved fiancee online young innocent full love life ready pledge heart anyone asked it love everything much way responded interest love kindness completely misrepresent ways face name made ridiculous persona without really realizing it time noticed fuck doing stack lies included heroin addict i even try drug years incredibly promiscuous genders i never much held someones hand id made several redflag attempts as much hated myself much coward even consider it among many many others month relationship told girl would come visit her sent presents mail id moving soon able actually string along occasionally cut contact pick right back like nothing happened supplying outlandish vicious lies explain poor poor there ranging imaginary stays mental hospitals fictitious death dad stringing along two girls similar bullshit course came crashing around girls all internet friends found other one wanted nothing cut contact permanently let one two girls soulmate graciously took back wanted work relationship obviously ton resentment us that even though initially commit relationship completely even kind idiot realizes theyre lucky way dealt stress resented put christ im asshole talk girl whose heart totally broken little again eventually stringing along again soulmate found again took back the poor sweet woman repaid generosity instead moving across country high school put ton debt attend local university got heavily drugs alcohol frequently ignored soulmate party assholes whose names cant even remember fell back old habit telling outragous lies cover ass swallowed completely one college buddies noticed going conscience inform it broke me then spiraled rock bottom failed college one semester stayed dad time stole much booze asked leave house spent summer drug dealer remember little it engaged ultimate selfishness felt good me eventually psychotic break acid forced actually honest myself begged dad forgiveness accepted back house think fair invite back soulmates life reestablished contact girl yet again shortly thereafter soulmate talked again confronting things put manner never before hopes actually salvaging relationship tried hardest ignore her would denied never ever given me way repaid preserverence continue masturbating webcam girl time though girl playing me intentionally got lower guard could break heart told herself soulmate still loved me could believe lucky person wonderful woman life love much absolutely deserve moved crosscountry this two years ago live her since ive here ive made constant conscious attempts better person her theres one obstacle cant overcome iedlike illness plagued since childhood totally ordinary everyday arguments become horribly abusive fly rage become indignant believe anything justified scream top lungs call horrible names sometimes even beat her got bad last year time got arrested domestic abuse begged police take me paid exorbinant fees talk jail took back without second thought soon got out knows im consumed remorse something like that knows genuinely love pieces continues stay even though outbursts continue generally become physically abusive often although recently clearly piece shit angel wasting life on deserve completely killed it cannot believe disgusting human am expressed numerous times though shed rather dead without me loved much patiently selflessly long endeavor stay alive keep getting better her try make happy despite this need stay alive love way deserves loved know keep living burden conscience anymore importantly knowledge im shitty violent rageaholic snap lose completely never leave me never felt hopeless tldr im abusive piece shit longsuffering wonderful fiancee cant seem defeat mental disease trouble seeing way situation except death,1 rd flipin week im stuck dads want go draw digital draw tablet go play new bass got im stuck stupid shit hole mix mental stability collapses itself,0 "Mom's depression tied to kids' emotional, intellectual development https://reut.rs/2r0xHF1 ",1 super mario d allstars game asked th bday parents ordered arrived mail house somewhere cant play bday im trouble waiting,0 damn it i still can t find a decent sized photo,0 thinking killing tonightthats all,1 im incredibly sad yet numb timelife insanely bleak me fear ill never feel love give though ive never attempted redflag plan date planned end life continue way is nothing look forward to maybe long life ahead theres nothing life cycle suck everything do motivation left world always weather leave not pain stays around thing im afraid of hurting best friend thoughive talked while pain mom grandma feel losing grandpa cancer depression redflag though part believes wont affected knows ill incredibly hurt bros always look me although may show know care people around would ended life plenty months ago maybe even years know do feel like matter ill never fulfilled ill never find pain worth enduring ill never find fight used heart flames kept going death seems closer ever sense tounge yet hate taste,1 Just signed off on Badoo: http://us1.badoo.com/lubas - seems pretty good! ,0 brother wants commit redflag doim brother stuck killing himself broke make enough money get by doesnt health insurance couldnt afford talk psychiatrist see doctor says hes depressed wants life end already talks now wants find easy way kill wants nothing life world terrible place wants buy gun much heroin says hes recovering heroin addict lately ambition drive hobbies nothing dont know help him try telling think would make happy work towards goals always something negative say doesnt want it wants dead,1 @supermac18 get well soon!! ,0 else problems discord cant really log discord itll say connecting amp itll last ever updated discord many times amp really working now,0 people like eminem favorite lyrics songs im genuinely curious mine are put hands bitch im gonna shoot ima pull thus bullet put you kill said im back mathers lp tried say ill take seven kids columbine put em line add ak revolver rap god no games ima change call rage tear motherfuckin roof like two dogs caged playin beginnin mood changed lose,0 post nosleep thought might relevant stories sub supposed truethis guy apparently visits different kinds afterlife dreams night thought story shared one realm particular might help people give up since might even slight possibility existing here ishttpwwwredditcomrnosleepcommentsomy_visit_to_the_woods_of_redflag,1 i lost everything i have no friend anymore what even is the point anymore there nothing i wan na live for anymore i just wish my life felt worth living my chest hurt so bad i wish i wa enough for myself,1 either blessing disguise maybe worst thing thats ever happen mefor longest time say ive lived life searching reason kill myself family parents breakup friends name it little know one day would maybe cross paths little virus called hsv simply known herpes try tell isnt end something u want end ur life over but honest death dishonor cant host life body makes think ill simply turn walking host virus think thats want known no simply cannot bear idea living this test positive dont know hell im going it sense end near didnt want kill std but guess beggars cant choosers ,1 dms bored dm horny shit ill try normal super dry,0 im recently got fired from my job unfairly that i absolutely loved i ve spent the last month trying to apply for job but only wanting to apply to thing that sparked my interest which were slim to none i applied to position with my favourite clothing company and wa really excited about the opportunity and after over a month of interview i have been turned down for both they say that my skill and qualification dont align with the job however if anything im extremely qualified maybe over qualified for both i ve been having a really hard time mentally recently and this is the cherry on top i went to school for fashion and only got a diploma i dont know what to do from here im feeling extremely discouraged and down about myself almost like im literally not good enough for anything it feel like my life is going no where ill live at home with my parent forever and im just gon na rot away i really dont know what to do i seriously feel like im going no where in life im not qualified for anything really in my field they all require diploma do i just work random job for the rest of my life and feel even worse just so i can have some sort of income,1 recently learned provinces canada hoodies called bunny hugs never taking bunny hug,0 know anymorei want live anymore friends assholes basically told like never really have mom recently sat talk told need nicer her started crying halfway through come ruse sometimes think anything serious feel like shit cut first time today would kill im much pussy go it please someone help get this,1 girls like meow yeah like,0 like im even here staysometimes feel like invisible man maybe invisible right word people see acknowledge superficial level think anyone really cares me friends brush mention declining mental health youll fine gotta wait out ive waiting years depression go away years suicidal thoughts go away like theyd even miss im gone talk text call first mostly asking anyone wants hang almost never way around laugh joke happy wallow room waiting day finally free misery already know im gonna crash car hopefully itll enough gotta get courage first really sucks growing realizing many people care others yet one cares you one asks im got depression despite fact called best friend known years talks really bad times never follows up never hey man doing nope always move ignore emotional kid always whines fuck one cares anyways,1 whats annoying spam messages calls need pick friend im giving minutes ish spam interrup listening music,0 f dm min convo challenge be gt basically min convo challenge like normal conversations start teenagers dms except time speedrun timespan minutes,0 @mommymuse Thanks for the hint. http://tinyurl.com/chtx7e.,0 thomas pennec gna gna gna prot ger le autres gna gna pour vous pour nous gna gna gna on est oblig c est la loi gna gna gna aller au diable quelque chose d oblig qui fout le momes en d pression pa un seul putain d adulte aussi abruti soit il ne devrait l accepter point,1 "I was technically an incel (hate that word) for years.My clinical depression, social anxiety and chronic shyness made damn sure nobody would be attracted to me.I am now happily married.Never killed anyone, though.",1 idea anymore life feels like facade used think money would source happiness reaching financial goals feel lost ever tips find true self again feel lost,1 @TeamHate the blue one ,0 going kill todayi everything planned note noose pills empty house thinking weeks kinda feels like something im supposed do weird mental state somewhat akin nervous procrastination really feel like im compulsively keeping busy random chores ive already done loads laundry today ill probably try keep mind wandering feel exhausted even though got surprisingly decent sleep every time sit still moment thoughts go drizzle downpour really dont want go on burden hate myself thing holding back family good friend dont want hurt pain intolerable mental agony every day want find peace,1 depressed feel like im stallingi dont know start this ive depressed several years ive tried talking therapist ive taken tablets yet nothing helps decided enough appointments taking antidepressants stopped going taking think every day im stalling redflag want get done with ive attempted several times ive failed far ive gotten ashamed talk anyone now cant even talk friends distanced rarely keep touch havent completely given up try sometimes get urge go end trying getting harder days sure im writing here maybe want someone talk sometimes something,1 spoiler alert wish could discuss without revealing specific plot points cant sorrybr br i looking imdb review george c scott movie stumbled across summary reviews version many notredflag reviews decided order even though awhile truncated rushed thought george c scott embodied tortured nature and physical appearance books rochester t beven looking dvds cover thinking isnt timothy dalton goodlooking role latter concern reinforced fact decided reread book dvd backorder said minute started watching this captivated first disconcerting hear s dialog spoken writtenwith little attempts modernizationbut dalton clarke threw thoroughly actually enjoyed fact adapters trusted audience follow archaic speech much book screen extra bonus know someone watch versions jane eyre who wants see film man keeps poor crazy woman attic frankly someone read book stumbled across hour half two hour versions would think thats pretty much story entailsrochesters secret affect everyone around him luckily version actually jane eyres whole lifebr br some people criticized casting dalton dashing clarke reserved cant argue first point in moment believe rochester me clarkes performance mark jane eyre quiet guarded one remembers book much adult janes fieriness passion occurs private struggles criticisms baffle me reviewers say clarke short pretty enough book goes ad infinitum small plain jane is ms clarke tall filmmakers toned looks make janes declarations lack beauty credible scarcely help dalton tall say chemistry leads what scene jane finally comes room wedding fiasco fairly vibrates passion longing sadness regretand thats first example comes mindbr br i agree criticisms missed scenes helen burns rivers siblings dialog oddly truncated rochester declares jane misjudge me hate mad waited rest exchange rochester explains jane go mad would still love care her powerful moment book wish included think mistake bring scene rochester part story jane own might done claritys sake found jarring wanted sly humor scene jane opines rochesters ardor cool hell become gruff again may like by daltons performance good rare misstep glaringwhen rochester weeps library saw actor crying scene rochester sets anyone ever caught episode s show dark shadows one knows expectvery stark sometimes rickety looking interiors others commented thoroughly succinctly makeup job rochester sports end yikes bad conclusion abrupt anguish suspense wanted rounded ending and copy dvd credits beginning end eleven minute episodes gets bit much said glad film watch again,0 watched smallville x last nite http twurl nl iyar d ep could ve been so much more but yet again the decision made fail to impress,0 mommy issues kick wanna lobotomy filler filler biller,0 first comments get award u comment,0 floor made floor know ur shocked yes u read right,0 today pretty wild far driving classes tyre moms car burst took around half hour also homework quickly wrapped went shower finally chilled bit ill taking classes hour whew,0 yet ive already worst come smarter stronger im afraid im running fighting anymore exactly afraid of reason fear mean whats worst happen worse hes already put through,1 cant think titlemale job go school social life making one day time know see therapist dont know need something change cant also want know easiest way out know tell me know probably it long keep going posting going change anything still anyway tell care me dont care idea stopping someone thats here know think help there,1 brother needs helpmy brother needs help last year come terms fact serious drinking problem said really rash things past one point committed briefly couple nights threats taken positive steps since then quitting drinking one relapse aware of getting medication seeing therapist seem help see this brief exchangehttpsimgurcomauqlcff today difficult soooo misanthropic hopeless feeling feel like advice try give laughable eg i understand stalin scorch earth fuck everyone well sounds like need good ol fresh air think exercise important helped struggles depression response angry genocidal statements seem comical however taken initiative things ive mentioned above wits end next course action be,1 omg revision revision revision i feel like i wasted an amazingly beautiful day today doing pointless work,0 mind wont shut up want stop hate am was ive done want erase existence want delete actions make things ive done go away want scrub every evidence existence want gone want gone want get away this thoughts hate all hate everything wish could go back undo everything start over fucking hate self deserve die body like deserves friends family anything deserve rot deserve shunned deserve punished want erased existence deleted,1 produced little song school project much thought id show guys see think lmk link working httpsdrivegooglecomfiledewy_kvvvilateilgxhfmdfgjiv_qviewhttpsdrivegooglecomfiledewy_kvvvilateilgxhfmdfgjiv_qview school project made feel like wannabe soundcloud producer,0 "@raucus Aye at Shepherds Bush, VIP tks aswell \o/",0 things improve im going kill new years dayi barely handle personal life constant anxiety depression anger state world way keeps getting worse worse much bear think take it im already breaking point end sight think survive constant stress,1 i used to be highly functional before but it now i can barely function at all i take everything just to keep myself alive i go day without eating how am i ever going to get work done sometime i think i wa not meant for this world there is something very wrong with my brain how am i supposed to fix it how do you keep on living like this forever,1 gonna pretty controversial awards stupid filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 cannot live longer planing kill since last year plan cutting wrist saw movies maybe painless cannot find gun hence decited way sory bad english hurt cut wrist,1 since puberty comfortable naked males sure exactly why ended using shorts showering mostly physical training seeing naked males makes uncomfortable like girl trapped male body lol,0 want diegeneric ass title im stuck toxic friends toxic parents house soul sucking job theres time pursue dreams simple dream life hands suffering time im done man im sick hearing might change someday cuz really believe waiting know kill cuz really im good enough thats truth im trying dramatic look people inspire me theres hope ever great living india like curse get toxic parents tell be get toxic friends treat like satan even suggest like tradition shit expected do space want time kill myself im sure cut wrist try carbon monoxide poisoning whats surer way go,1 want end iti really do never amount anything let die,1 Moldy orange taste is back.... DEPRESSION AHOY!!!!,1 crippling ocd killing ruining lifeit makes want die,1 "Ok, just to stop anyone freaking out like Aacura did, I only clipped the car. I'm fine ",0 oh my gosh oh my gosh susy is going to kill me with her remedy,0 probably go bum bum bum,0 @jeremy89632 ok.. 顺其自然.. nah.. showing hkg drama on my lappy..,0 seasoned fan italian thrillers directors dario argento mario bava sergio martino aldo lado thought lucio fulci overrated hack seen beyond think totally overrated found new york ripper simply appalling particularly like house cemetery three movies left conclude fulci least interesting italian filmmakers stubbornness prevailed check films city living dead film found interesting torture duckling nearly masterpiecebr br set small town italian countryside repressive religious community young boys murdered authorities clueless whos behind crimes especially prime suspect cleared eager young reporter along rather slutty girl who seduces young boys investigate eventually get bottom itbr br brilliant atmosphere combined good story good cast not always case s italian thrillers make torture duckling crackling good thriller plot well constructed easily figured end conclusion satisfying fulci creates dynamic atmosphere repression guilt unforgiving ignorant community creates strong visuals particularly scene woman gets beaten death local townsfolk fulcis social commentary concerning religion innocence quite edgy every aspect well handled thinking zombie flicks ultra violent giallo new york ripper amazing well balances critique explicit violence makes even stronger point far seen fulci film made professionally onebr br while traditional giallo film duckling many genres trademarks fulci displays complete control format going overboard unconvincing goremoment overall seems even better making mysteries full blown gore epics extreme scenes much powerful really pack punchbr br so far torture duckling fulcis best film far opinion edgy social commentary combined explicit scenes violence crackling good mystery boot,0 poor ando he just got shot,0 wise philosopher stated life like party parties meant last,0 i guess i just need to vent too i m a timid and shy person with social anxiety i m afraid of what people think of me i m afraid of being judged negatively i m afraid of being rejected im afraid of taking my mask off in class in fear of catfishing today i didn t have my mask on for a split second and went to the bathroom to throw something away i see classmate and i immediately froze and walked out before they could even say hi they probably think i hate them now i couldn t even think it s like my body moved itself i did take my mask off without thinking once and the lady complimented me on how pretty i wa i wa so shocked i know i m not ugly and that beauty is in the eye of the beholder but i still can t help but feel ugly i m afraid of speaking up and asking question i cant make eye contact with people bc i m scared i might see disgust in their eye i m scared of applying for certain job bc i m afraid i won t be able to do it so i settle for the easiest and worst retail job im afraid for my career in design bc i feel like i won t be able to sell myself to people im afraid of talking to people bc i ll stumble over my word i m afraid of falling in love for fear of being left and if i do fall in love it ll turn into obsession and infatuation from fear of them leaving cheating growing up i ve had to deal with domestic abuse violence when it came to my parent my father wa quite the bully always saying i couldn t do anything hell that man ha never said a nice thing in his life in middle school i ve dealt with rejection and it wa quite painful and other teen asking me out a a joke i spent the rest of highschool in online school so i never really got to experience that vital part of life i ve been in therapy for year on and off but it just didn t work for me talking about my shitfuck dad all day doesnt help with my fear how can i stop this fear that ha taken over my life,1 hours i hopeim indecisive bastard first jan feb tonight made decision last night cant feel much anymore emotion fucked theres building near house construction hasnt think years dont remember doesnt matter im piece shit doesnt matter anymore ill jump building tightening piece cloth around neck told friend chat said joking used lot say going die ive never really friends im child ive like long remember smile painted face day want cry cant anymore dont know anymore dont care either im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry,1 thecamacho danm i wanted to hear that studying suck,0 day recommending songs swae lee thrusting httpsyoutubevqhkcjogia it,0 i ve been on medication prescribed by my primary care doctor my therapist noticed my depression anxiety remaining pretty high and told me to talk to my doctor about it my doctor increased my dosage but also want me to see a psychiatrist who can better analyze my issue he didn t give me a referral and said i can see anyone you want preferably someone that take my insurance he did give a list of a few psychiatrist though i have been looking through my insurance s website for a psychiatrist i have also just been searching online but i don t know which one to select what criterion should i look out for are online review reliable any advice would be appreciated,1 promote discord server wanna promote server wanna servers wanna promote server rteenagers again good way promote server,0 diannepulham oooooooo who with im not neither but thats because i need to study,0 deja vuception feeling false remembered really weird and unless fill place automod kill me ill tell little thing get shit ton deja vus you,0 change perspective may helpto anyone hasnt given thought changing perspective may change way feelthink act,1 yesterday good day got back town grandmothers funeral ride home airport girlfriend broke me took three days gone move stuff out texting saying excited see got back feels like entire world crashing around nothing it every single abandonment issue worked hard cropping back nowhere go here week ago commented here saying felt low years man wrong much worse before like went zero mach jesus manner minutes even bad ended marriage maybe support system anymore me alone apartment cannot afford own cat loved girlfriend loves mei feel spiraling back headspace teenager wish could say cared honestly not like reconnecting old friend usually pull covers sadness forget ready crawl bed forget everything want crawl bed stay,1 just woke up apple gig wa ace last night seriously tired now work begin in one hour,0 anyone wanna join among us hideandseek game tried went well im trying im wondering anybody wants join among us game hideandseek version pretty much know game imposter announces themself beginning game theres reporting calling meetings imposther tries kill crew mates crew makes try finish task win additional things lights imposters disadvantages sabotages lights game settings imposter emergency cool player speed crewmate vision imposter vision kill cooldown sec kill distance short long task short common code gjukxq,0 back back finals hours straight ill leaving take less hours well enough get as im going kill myselfive spent hours studying ive never worse semester path taking bs unacceptable way fix things well enough fault failure,1 Cures depression :) pic.twitter.com/ZO9c1hgS73,1 hi hey hello help young know im trans bi people said stuff like youre young know that think cause im sure im id like second opinion,0 passed drivers test today posting reddit keep basically like forever trophy passed license test really actually it super excited feels like f r e e youre taking soon need advice dm me first try passed too,0 posted alreadyfentanyl uk hookup would appreciated,1 im sociopath kill continue hurt people destroy themlets face facts admit one truth people seriously deserve planet killed off people likes hitler instance admit that right people sociopathspsychopaths suffer serious mental disorders causes harm others person behind etc people simply killed off thats true categorized one people and kill save others sorry long wall text but need get something chest and just idk cant handle anymore im going start recently go back just idk end anybody actually reads way guess idk kill everything ive done past know theres rules mean people here need persons honest opinion like legitimately feel like im horrible person tell me know people keep telling im horrible feel horrible im even going defend actions list them honestly actions unforgiveable matter excuse was recently something extremely badly and well grandma cancer longer does extremely bad newsuh still cant admit happened far believe still hospital refuse visit cant see her yeah uh yeh hopsital yeah anyways ever since then fiance drifted apart drastically talked every day talked day every day like week like weeks without talking top that would throw huge tamper tantrum whenever talked anybody all past half years anybody talk to except recently posted rr lot worked nonstop delivery services picking food delivering customers saying enjoy open door extent human interaction so mean logically im pretty messed up humans need human interaction right begged fiance talk me begged her yelled her demanded attention once kept getting worse ignoring me became demanding got bad i i spent days without talking other grandmas funeral coming next week i needed attention badly refused told her id post nudes online continues treating way continues ignoring me spent days threatening her finally posted nudes online eventually deleted nudes deleted everything but still teacher couldve lost job told just say hi press send post nudes online even that much apparently posted nudes and went police everything wanted restraining order stop posting nudes honestly thought care anymore mean even say hi me so order push away order us break up order somebody grandmas funeral date coming up desperately either needed us break seek somebody else just platonic friendship found needs start me even me so break us posting way could get hate enough break me manipulative sociopathic say told somebody jail this and called sociopath like woooah woooah dude holy fuck remind mess fucking sociopath know kidding but think serious thinking im sociopath well im facing extortion revenge porn lot misdeameners think da pressing charges know wanted go far know didnt wanted say hi me give human interaction know talk talk out send letter da drop charges but restraining order place theres nothing do im fucked happened feel extremely horrible because spent time jail thinking past came be friend committed redflag around time grandma grieving and needed other begged talk drifted away now heres im suicidalim gonna list things one abused really badly abuse imagine id probably suffered it similar two abused people often become abusers three im pretty attractive guy never got relationship feared becoming abuser ready relatioship even think getting one otherwise id abuse them hurt them four dated first girlfriend thought ready relationship counseling enoughnope broke im abusive words mine five spent next years single going abuse another person going risk it fiance entered life abusers name brought up extremely pissed fiance hugged calmed down thought ready relationship could that im ready wasnt rely somebody else calm down need calm down six spent years counseling years trying get better yet years old still abusing love life betrayed way never going recover from realized vulnerable was theres nothign become better ive tried years counseling since and im still piece shit person sevenand this dont think care much hurt her much hurt me abandoning me forcing solitude years hearing desperately needed her really care hurting care is hurt her promised would never abuse another person abusing her and hate it matter person care theyre getting hurt care im one abuse hate turning step father eight make sociopath care hurt put situation begged just say hi me ill stop demanding say hi difficult that talk me nine serious anger issues suppose posted nudes betrayed trust talk me reals ten im scared im angry legitimately scared black out remember single thing im pushed limit do things eleveni gotten pushed limit years im still scared do last time sophomore high school senior football player threw football face hurt way step dad would slap face ptsd kicked in rampage ensured got ball threw hard could aimed balls remember this pushed limit yet ran off went fifth period completely shaking entire period went sixth period guy there pushed corner escape way out pissing offso lost it pushed limit remember happened next thing knew hiding corner school crying much teacher found me calmed down brought back next thing know im facing serious charges stick wanted sue me again care dude care fact that lost control anger hurt another person care hurt him care something wrong twelve used play runescape lot twas addicted grandpa works computer lets use work computer play usually get hours school and play long possible hes losing moneyanyways wants go bed pm stay till am keep bitching him cant anything hes told go bed lost it blacked out grandpa laying stairs completely unconscious head bleeding i almost killed him couldve killed himjust alone dead right fell stairs couldve exxtremely bad luckily die guess what still care died cared that lost control anger became like step dad abused another person sociopathic thought right thirdteen uh backtrack last year grandma cancer hospitall on on her on bed uh bed bed never came by bear see stateever since foudn cancer ive distancing her even attend funeral work care enough go wanted work fourteen baby sister two one im attached would anything protect saw grow up there love her around all years because idk family never asked over never came over mean theyd ask sister over ask too anyways baby sister im attached almost died er icc everything and never came by wanted work instead need money deliveries pay much im barely surviving homeless living van work father came er couple weeks ago cared enough visit so im sociopath right fifteen unless somebody benefits me like gives something free rent food money expect something them ill talk them otherwise dont even talk me thats super selfish it grandpa bought motorcycle talked every day got it got it stopped talking him lot going recently maybe thats talked him but part thinks stopped talking longer expect give anything sixteen went jail talked mom dad first time years needed bail something seventeen literally going right now finally got job career three months working longer homeless finally get life together finally make something life grandpa stroke needs come visit stay couple weeks simply want to want stay show worth company keep years come love here want lose job lose career lose life go support grandpa like thats truly socipathic it eighteen honestly feel way turned killing people because ive never crossed lines grandpa gave set moral compass upon time and blurred lines crossed lines anything recently even jaywalked id scared outcome anyways one day sitting home alone everybody supposed gone entire night cat came my badly wanted choke cat hands around neck etc somebody came home let cat go crossed line idk feel like couldve easily moved humans just everybody keeps telling life get better etc move past this move on nobody understands something just move on move past yes breaking fiance heart broken her this making extremely suicidal but im suicidal because treat people way behave act think emotions empathy care anything know enough sociopaths shit like that ever since child mean dog hated me thats red flag it dog scared sociopathic child thats idk dog never liked me probably kept things it cat died wanted see body and play it anybody seen dexter feel exactly like dexter hell even love blood like does id love cut live human see react id love see scream much pain inflict id love see much make react mere thought brings excitement lots excitement and ive never done anything to try and anything like it get pet id scared id treat pet maybe opportunity kill dog cat child swear wouldve became like dexter im serious scared continue dark path know know become serial killer ive scared pass lines always sticking moral guideline grandpa instilled mefollow law letter even jaywalk otherwise putting situation lines get blurred seriously hurt somebody ei release nudes internetwhich exactly did lines blurred thats got far im sociopath,1 xissyx we can t go to robina all the shop will be closed because it good friday,0 good ways avoid fapping im going yearlong journey need advice fap,0 rlly random but anyone play cold war xbox youtube collab subs think would fun,0 hero academia chapter action packed link httpsyoutubejgoqbvxllfo,0 mega bored gay guy reaaaaaally bored kinda horny tryna talk people dm me ask anything number game etc im anything,0 stephenkruiser i had put my dog down today too someone ran her over,0 mum just called now my sister is in hospital,0 genetics shitdont wanna get much detail im basically yo male acne balding head look feel like disaster seriously consider jumping infront subway train whenever im there hope might get decent paying job kill graduation years afford get rid acne ill still balding male im awkward slow boring looks problem ill certainly die alone standards nothing special me get pitty im crippled lost close one ridiculous financial problems im kid never grew therefore flew radar im close hopeless,1 i m nearing the end of a long project that i have worked on from the end of last november and my body is trying to shut down to prevent me from doing it i know this fatigue is psychosomatic there is no physical source for it but trying to ignore it can only take me so far if i could work at the same peak rate i did around january and feburary i would ve finished this thing already a week ago and knowing that piss me off every single day i manage to do half of what i planned to do and no matter how hard i push myself i can t do six hour worth of work in even if i sit my as down and tell myself i am not getting up before this fucking thing is finished it run me ragged at worst trying to force myself to pick up my tool and move my hand i get so tired i get out of breath from just sitting at a desk i m perfectly healthy and in my late 0 and i know this is psychosomatic but no matter what i try i can t get myself to fight my way through it without this i would ve been finished long ago how do i make this stop,1 @MsiCandiSexyIAM oh lol still smile it may make someones day.,0 @OliverPhelps Yellow!!!! ,0 Love the summer state of mind YW . . . RB via @lipsync: "Summer day mix!!!..with thanks&XX@DJDolceVita (tha... ? http://blip.fm/~79wwt,0 inner monologue making worst enemy change itive least passively suicidal past six months bore details life undergone stressful tumultuous changes since last christmas so selfinflicted result spend day every day calling failure even though know thats necessarily case immediate issues since resolved result selfdestructive thought patterns ive going way spend much time possible around people escape myself makes sense know cant go like much longer besides seeing therapist which ive started doing else change thought patterns,1 @WhatTheFFacts I don't like to say that I'm going through depression. It's just a state of mind.I can control it and sometimes I really enjoy it,1 "@tomfelton http://twitpic.com/64y12 - awww, she's beautiful ",0 sometimes regret killing youngerive depressed seriously long time always thought itd get better instead gets worse wish wouldve ended high school friends give shit years since high school ive managed get worthless degree girlfriend toxic rejected least times ghosted friends countless times im nothing worthless piece shit take hint decade ago suffered it im ugly make family stupid help surrounded friends family care makes feel worse wish theyd let end it,1 ya know what dont wanna hang guy cause develops feelings huh hes gonna want sex point,0 task manager online classes ampxb processing img xyknmoi,0 one remember diewhat really makes depressed fact day die one remember me sure friends family remember but soon later die them memory person too making like never existed world amazing people forever remembered ramses ii herodotus homero virgil romulo cyrus leonidas pericles hipokkrates socrates plato aristotles alexander great confucius cleopatra julius caeser octavius augustus jesus christ gengis khan joanna darc colombus magellean leonardo da vinci michael angelo donatello raphael oda nobunaga maquiavel shakespeare mozart montesquieu rosseau kant george washington napolean bonaparte beethoven abraham lincoln karl marx lenin freud mussolini adolf hitler stalin salazar franco winston churchill elvis martin luther king jr pel marlon brando marilyn monroe queen michael jackson metallica eminem cristiano ronaldo pewdiepie amazing people changed world way another good bad always remembered matter age immortal even get started fictional characters dont even exist yet people know also forever exist real ever be im living ghost unable speak see hear whats even point alive love family work things fade matter die im years old im nothing one feel nothing feel emotion stimulus meme book game movietv show social interaction although emotions things make feel super brief without them im constant agony cant fine without anything stimulating feel anger sadness dread anxiety sorrow then nothing especially painful night im trying sleep count good nights sleep year fingers hands people around dont even realize im always smiling cracking jokes hoping one feels like this funny owe nothing humanity sometimes hate still care us try help best way can killed today people would wonder it even realize whats inside would make that done yet life death sides coin life might meaningless would death im still here ghost living corpse dragging body road life hoping stitches break anyone else feel like this,1 thank kind strangers internetive made couple throwaway reddit accounts last year change searching help clarity ive trying trying get better place people always nice it though im holding together family member im staying associate christmas death clean everything pack things away easier sort out think ill take road trip listen music run gas longer believe everyone matters many people dying every day nobody cares ive always figured lip service people say make feeling better like getting moral karma point nice leper you matter dont people dont half billion people planet way even us matter especially me wanted want like things wanted life cant deal homeless two months cant recover again want abused shelter anymore thank keeping company many times really mean it theres one else bye bye,1 think ive ruined chance love cant keep going anymorei know else post this f met amazing guy m january us wanted friends benefits first kept telling much missed perfect other point want fwb anymore said ready commit another relationship yet needs time kept chatting friends every time would end always come back telling much like miss other kept pushing relationship would always back point say would best stayed friends long talk one time seemed like okay trying commit long take things slow got depressed talk much anymore we would usually talk every day hours asked needed space agreed bad feeling checked dating app met back there asked space meant going look people said didnt went back dating app hours later confronted answer insulted wanted answer blocked me tried call phone got automated message saying phone number registered thought maybe gave throwaway phone number reasons next thing complicated really matter excuse it created fake account dating app part could find lied me think noticed im sure contacted ex paranoid theyre maybe still together thats ghosted me also phone number thing weird day later contacted telling contacting ex talked little really give explanations asked lied dating app first tried say never happened evaded question asked could still friends least really answer months later asked reply asked never wanted talk said still needs time message hes ready asked could promise hell message eventually got angry said pressuring want talk anymore blocked again year ago sent letter january asking could talk person reply think im ever going love anyone again fault want talk anymore think deserve die messed up living feels pointless anyway person im ever going love even want talk me really wish could something make things right im thinking sending another letter apologise tell everything wanted tell person going get talk hes probably going read anyway think going help suicidal thoughts year im still okay wish could talk happened really know anymore im sorry post mess im mostly crying writing,1 @Mrmichaelnewton haha "your best girl?" Sometimes you talk like you were born in the 50's. *kisses his cheek* thanks for the date ,0 ha finland sleeping for the night not really enough time,0 worth living taking advantage opportunities parent worked hard forhi im soon four days life many great opportunities took granted child brought us given opportunity learn second language witch years pass hight school days came end didnt graduate started set events given opportunity work study legally since didnt graduate high school door eventually close left without job lie family friend putting front dont figure im joke regrets life choices made future goal banish blame anyone read thank need comment needed get chest day ended,1 true john sayles finest film brother another planet entirely forgettable either reason message like batman wild things parents murdered front him leaving fend the zone corrupt section unnamed city greed violence reign supreme instead falling likes chopper robert davi wild thing fights justice using powers tai chi eerie cat impressions occasionally lighting fire becomes something urban legend modern day robin hood hero ages finest wild thing lives,0 dmt powder helping with depression amp anxiety dmt psychedelics nftgiveaways mentalhealth mushroomhead http t co xjixiuinun,1 @burtonztweet a better man than I. Up early and then back to bed ,0 fame think best movie ever seen ways funny dramatic makes movie true loose ends actually lot still think terrific movie funny things happen audition beginning movie think hilarious girl tries act oj simpson the towering inferno raulralph goes around every art department saying father great every one says dad danced rockets left ralph tap shoes rockets far know made women tap shoes regular shoes bottle caps bottom also guy read lines juliet romeo juliet play funny one thing movie turns music never heard anything like it favorite song i sing body electric second theme song fame irene cara great voice great actress like way movie focused many ethnic groups showed kinds people actually called la guardia school performing arts movie showed triumphs trials many young performers including angelo doris bruno coco montgomery ralph leroy hilary liza hard time made way movie could added another minutes before graduation still favorite movie matter what,0 Deepika Padukone raises a toast to those who survived depression - ANI News: http://youtu.be/9q356mvPw8Q?a  via @YouTube,1 getting ready to go collect my first new glasses in nearly a decade ,0 flat earthers belive hills mountains hill flat enough disprove flat earth,0 child thought quicksand gonna much larger problem life turned im yet see quicksand get stuck,0 Webcast Thursday: Depression in the Workplace - The Hidden Cost to Your Organization's Bottom Line and How You Can Help Turn It Around @MarcasMiles @EmployersHealth #IFEBPLive @NEEBC http://ow.ly/AGa930jikXZ  pic.twitter.com/FqQiszuABl,1 http tr im imov i b c h i tho i th l gi t cu c i r i m nh v n c n nh c i nh t p th b t c a b c ch tr i,0 i m a year old girl i ve dealt with some stuff yk my best friend took her own life some month ago and it s been v hard i keep having awful gruesome nightmare about people i love getting hurt or hurting themselves it ruin my day i feel like my mind is torturing itself it end up ruining my life cuz i m always so out of it i think my brain s broken i just wan na die so it can end feeling nothing is better than torture after all,1 knowing ill die honestly dont give fuck math grade anymorei math im homework anything know im probably going die soon dad keeps telling retake math test wont ive always terrible math ive stopped caring it everyday day over somebody kill already,1 shruticute got any web link to it here we only get the hindu and toi,0 How to cure depression? ._.,1 group friends break middle nowhere one flat tire others jeep mysteriously start one takes tire run service station last anyone sees him remaining foursome go search friend come across nice mr slaussen offers help fix jeep offers cool drinks refuge heat equally run down hermitlike house happens occupied realistic looking mannequins goes one guy bunch work car leaves girls house goes warns leave go house behind shack warns davy brother lurking there course one decides venture search working phone never seen again slaussen davy mannequins tourist trap usual horror requirements jiggly big boobed girl goody two shoes girl curiosity getting better people never working out stands apart rest s genre twist ending started feel sorry slaussen chuck conners terrific creepy overthetop performanceat point film almost see character molly same gem find it taped cable younger walking used video store spotted vhs copy totally overpriced well worth it fans tanya roberts disappointed either best part film scene soup and crackersbr br i gave movie still hard explain,0 @cantanta You're welcome. Rosamunde Pilchers book "Vejen Hjem" is also quite good... and really sweet ,0 I'm in love with contemplating about the pressure conversations about depression confrontation cause we care too much about each other,1 years ago decided come korea study electronics engineering came korea tech industry good part of hence enrolled got admitted prestigious university first week classes nice initially attended english taught general courses well daily hour korean intensive lessons met friends people english taught class mainly foreigners koreans lived abroad people korean class really nice people different countries different backgrounds though would friend group wrong semester goes on people hang nationality groups mean hang people country started get left behind i nationality groups undergraduate student country university people country usually go east asian countries undergrad time passes by see japanese friend hang japanese friends vietnamese people hang people chinese people hang chinese people course koreans hang koreans one school event reality mine would rest undergraduate course struck me event freshmen students people went hanging friendnationality groups thought would hang people korean class however expected went groups left alone wandering around food stalls hearing seeing people laugh friends good time walk pass groups people decided head back dorm roommate korean asked with best english why spending time friends told i did feeling sick changing weather ampxbps know exactly post this want heaviness chest wish belong,1 want die everythings falling apartim high school feel lost feels like dreams future planned crumbling around me live abusive home wait move go college love foreign countries foreign languages wanted esl teacher learn language point could teach job plan find college dorm would set money problem eyes savings biological grandmother really good grades apply student loans scholarships im even prepared pay loan have too live frugally already mother asked college strongly inserted opinion wants go community college it dorms wants stay home drive college even stated idea could stay dying small town teacher like id ever get job like here basically shitted dreams traveling south korea china spain saying weak make without help always done this refuses teach real world stuff im forced use help crying loud im still learners permit really broke down im scared mind know tough years high school stay avoid rent utilities cost living away questioning even able get away feel trapped like bird cage im terrified shell try leave might cut give support try go original plan get college dorm tough years spend years home might well kill myself cant it cant it built strength telling would high school over think make longer feels like lied im going stuck forever stay constant fear worked hard whole year digging hole wanted kill took everything change life around think im strong enough again want leave want leave like this like torturing much,1 Back home just in time for Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory on ABC Family! #oneofmyfavoritemovies,0 so i ve always feared going crazy a few day ago someone made fun of a stutter in front of me cause they didn t know i stuttered after that realized how easy it is for others to talk badly behind my back and wondered who can i really trust i realized a few day later anyone can be made fun of for many thing and i m no different rather if it s a stutter lisp religion sexuality appearance you can be made fun of it for all of that i stopped worry about it and later in the day someone commented on a post about it and said they became psychotic and paranoid thinking about people talking behind their back after they did that for a long period of time this freaked me out because this thought wasn t from ocd although later that first day i thought this i thought i feel crazy thinking this way it took 0 0 minute after reading that comment to not feel like i wa about to have a panic attack and ever since that happened yesterday i ve been extremely anxious i wa laying in bed and realized 99 of people won t make fun of me and the one that do i ll never be friend with and if i am they ll show themselves with time but i wa laying in bed and it feel like a weight wa lifted off of me i realized it s best to take this stutter le serious i ve been letting it defy me instead of treating it like an aspect of me i wa thinking about it i stuttered during sex and literally started laughing because i found it funny and i remembered my cousin making fun of my stutter when i said pork i stuttered and she said ah yes i love pork pork pork i wa offended at the time but i find it funny now i m learning there s joke that devalue me and joke that are lightheaded and i m beginning to not be offended at the light hearted joke now that i see that difference i heard people before going insane end up really happy sometimes and i feel great now that i realized i m going to take it le serious and just joke about my stutter because it doesn t define me doe it sound like i m going insane or did i just figure out what i needed to do after becoming scared but turning that into a plus for me,1 fuck im asking crush today hopefully,0 I bought a 3ft long puzzle of the Last Supper I just have to mail it. I wonder how many piece it has...,0 I'm kinda sleepy. might go and read #eclipse and then sleep. ,0 Three Common Misconceptions About Depression http://feedlog.weightliftingstation.com/three-common-misconceptions-about-depression/ …,1 i just saw that they found that tracy girl in a piece of luggage how fucking terrible,0 day one posting daily wisdom bengals win playoff game investing like bar soapthe touch it smaller gets darcy howe,0 hope get cancerdont courage end myself,1 juss cussed out some bitch at mcdonalds for cutting us in line at the drive thru ,0 im brokenim broken man struggling depression drug abuse story long complicated almost entirely fault put positions deserve garbage thrown life want redeem fix mistakes think ending all end im addict running problems redflag seems solution always there,1 "Not doing much, just joined Twitter. Follow me if you want, i'll promise it'll be fun. Luv you lots, shout outs to all DC ",0 instagram youtube completely reddtified created instagram account month ago bunch friends forced to deleted account yesterday everywhere go felt like reddit content stolen reddit make hiveminds similar reddit youtube destroyed text speech voice bot channels read raskreddit meme subs also blame youtubers jump reddit content anything else feels reddit shit people like destroyed good apps serve purpose anymore makes hate reddit hivemind even ever before,0 guys really cool idea dystopian novel basically theres huge virus ends breaking loose people start dropping like flies people realize teens kids seem immune however case people want send children back school die teachers write wills theyre exposed large amounts possibly sick children get this children chance dying government knows still wants send back oh wait,0 @sekyw The writers are huddled over there with the absinthe bottle - look at em chug! gawd love um! ,0 @epcotx @TwitBotNews @Gmoney52 TY 4 the #folfriday recommendations! You're what Twitter is all about! Cheers! (Thank-You Again!!) Gmoney,0 burjz ugh i didn t mean to sign off and then when i got back you were gone,0 saw picturesfuck no tried redflag years ago finally know ive bullied done looks kill myself,1 sorry probably little long so broke boyfriend year early last month been rough half time even know broke up people ask it get confused say feel like even i know thought breakup mutual,0 weve lockdowns uk took figure free time sorry bad english even though first language idk man know covid bad actually like staying inside much free time things do technically uk th lockdown feels like second lockdown since one march one feel like proper lockdowns well kind realised stuff could time far got pet parrot bit built pc r rx anyone wondering got new graphics card launches boi get lucky started small youtube channel smol animations duccs declared war geese all homies love duccs anyways enough me lockdown been would cool talk people lockdowns due lockdown cant talk people irl tldr totally subscribe youtube channel totally relevant,0 sicknot sick shit go life ive making physically sick past days im supposed class right cant bring leave house want now want today day ive sitting actuelly entire weekend contemplating im alive fucking lonely soulmate girlfriend me thats main issue itself suffer every single day best friends even text anymore god knows why know fact theyre replacing though best female friend lets call sue friends past years best friends me her replacing people think sick shit secretly something theres family know bad life im embarrassed show it know mood crap time im sure clue cant bring tell them years fucked situation guy undoubtedly soulmate depression cant him thats key point please call fucking stupid depressed naive immature year old beg you family shit ever together telling that theyd hate already do im pretty sure really dislike know hes done emotionally know still alive here need know something whats point alive constantly alone need emotional stabilization,1 "Reading through their playlist for yesterday, i have a feeling i'll be listening to this for quite some time ",0 reasons killed throughout years really think mum would sad also apparently sin want go hell cats would sad braces want ugly corpse died grave would male pronouns names,0 life fine want diei desire die cant get rid of life objectively bad issues anxiety bipolar disorder depressive state right now panic attacks response stress cry everywhere home walking reading gym bus honestly even feel shame nothing matters reason kill think would waste organs corneas since would brought hospital soon enough viable would kill violently outside hospital pretty sure kill least suitable method order cant anywhere find least one person going feel knowing alone makes unsure survive feeling much longer mystical experience something beautiful side life flat pale comparison utterly pointless cannot feel pleasure strong desire end waste life love everything everyone want hurt anyone dissociated body want free used feel ok feeling think ashamed feeling like this start feel horrible guilt want die someone help tell alone crazy cant take feeling anymore one talk cant keep alone edit know talk anyone scared me whenever someone says redflag people call cops come get me feeling better getting mental ward worse life less organized effed up makes even worse cant even tell anyone feelings,1 @TJ_yakes I'm goin through depression lol,1 reason wake anymoreive suicidal longest time met boyfriend talking bliss thing comfort makes forget want die everyday said many love always assured loved me today found cheated me people teenager broke instantly feel empty reason something look forward anymore rather die feel this,1 so fairness entirely sure found here want leave life behind no really honestly good life people love me physical sense know alone reality am attempted multiple times past mostly drugs remember sort thoughts went it time happened know anything either woke throwing guts hospitali really know anymore beaten batted mind years break mind gives fills false hope never long everything comes crashing back gotten point life things continue get worse memory nearly nonexistent point sometimes see hear things real mind feels like everywhere time somehow feel nothing want die also want beaten mind longer losing touch maybe even lost touch already maybe end maybe not truly know anymore hello,1 got first bill ted movie christmas get second saw store one i think funny first much wierder story funny personnal hell play death funny thing played stupid little games like clue thing id change station death band great,0 the great holiday homework sesh ha begun now bugger off twitter you distracting menace,0 "@bradiewebbstack thanks for yesterday, it was the best ever, im nat infront of your drums bahaha ",0 "I Feel Like I've Been Distance From People Lately, I Have So Much Depression, I'm Always Tired, I Just With Sweatpants Most Of The Time, Stay Home All Day, Never Go Out, Unless School, I'm 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I'm still a dev living in Beijing ,0 years old enoughill try keep short even though feel lot could cover post turned long ago failed course college moment undecided whether go back college spend another year studying try find employment honest wish could neither stay home im tired everything long remember ive detested contributing member society ive always punching bag everyone else relentlessly bullied throughout schooling years left choice embrace worsening social isolation talk anyone want talk anyone years torment put through dread s play out dread resort wageslave society disgusted existence deal even bullying harassment hands manager coworkers dread continuing live knowing life gets harder enter adulthood ive always thought ill one die young recount thoughts hurting early years age even scares myself see dying natural death oldage never have honestly thing stopping ending all know family devastated see go also fear happens next another thing keeping back idea happens die utterly terrifies me miserable myself want try hold onto life long can know long be want reason stay alive,1 im scared myselfthe thoughts keep getting worse know tell distracting try school work cant it want die really badly ive feeling way long idea called recently realized want die birthday yesterday turned wish never born body celebrate with body tell anything think parents care really wish did theyre mean me really hurts know im wanted where hurt said accident nobody helped me tried little want try more want done for think go anymore im scared feel like myself even know myself is think go much longer,1 hi phase depression makes really desperate years neglecting depression thinking cool cured starting realize shit going come back change life fundamentally want unsuccessfully hunting moneyi waiting therapy wondering books recommend helped understand condition better way find hard distinguish thoughts the depressions thoughts point trust thoughts feelings anymore question basically anything think feel do books depressed people,1 need help suicidal personso throw away obviously friend iv know months met coffee shop sitting alone sat there seats looked like could use company talked liked lot stuff exchanged emails time iv known him early within first weeks attempted redflag three times hopsitlized three times first time released hours after next time held days last time minor but hes two weeks parents able get signed out said friends could really use one talking least little everyday month ago started going bit differently anytime hang him would send fury would scream swear curse out hours would text call crying begging go away sorry iv dancing egg shells worried upsetting him getting worse worse hes pretty much made afraid say anything fear get upset freak hurt again days ago slipped going tell someone else feelings them lost every shit had finally got reanswer phone tell hour life awful good thing consequences hes going kill two weeks time isnt anything time one attempts called police it rushed er time cut wrist week ago now hotline counslers pretty much said wait call police actually something instead saying will life become hell im loss told fault dont care someone even though friend says thats stupid iv atempted tell family falling deaf ears says meet tomorrow one last time rages afraid going something me anyone give advice pardon typos spelling errors grammer english first language,1 i m more tired than a very tired thing today,0 know soda brand called orangina stopping ads pay covid relief google orangina ads info sure else put here google orangina ads post make sense,0 first tv specials offered elaborate box set barbra streisand television specials released last november disc released separately want fork dollars five specials investment indeed best bunch fact streisand purest eager impress succeeds brilliantly key component legend signed longterm contract cbs produce hourlong variety shows almost extinct format nowadays streisand cbs special first broadcast april point career notoriety limited handful bestselling albums dazzling tv appearances variety talk shows successful broadway run funny girlbr br filmed crisp blackandwhite program divided three distinct parts creative transitional use im late disneys alice wonderland first segment cleverly shows growing childhood numbers diverse make believe im five opening comic monologue pearl istanbul second part moves location manhattans chic bergdorf goodmans elegantly costumed series glamorous outfits singing depressionera songs like ive got plenty nuthin the best things life free comic irony back basics third segment straightahead concert opens torchy version when sun comes out includes funny girl medley ends classic melancholic take happy days again ending credits also included brief introduction taped special first released vhs know streisand pricey concert tickets political fundraising genuine eyeopener revered now,0 "@northernmistt i am the first non celeb you've followed, i'm honored! lol ",0 joypalmer i wake up at am and think ah yes that s mouse running around in the ceiling again,0 worthless againim starting feel like shit again almost funny last couple days comfortable periods inner peace remember life really worth living mean whats point really whats point live life loneliness hatred shame guilt stress people shit living expectations terrible mistake also laughing stock society out several reasons get better never get better unless willing make fucking change hard thing do also impossible achieve since motivation continue living world lets say anymore pleasant lies admit person longer truly human disgusting hopeless toxic unworthy abomination fucking hurts im tired im tired feeling like shit time im tired alone im tired purpose talent would help decent life im tired inferior literally everyone see im tired stupid assed college asshole mother even try understand manipulates like stupid animal tired people looking like im fucking ghost im tired seeing crushes everyday knowing deep inside ill never good enough them burns inside time even painful hear people talking dreams what dreams goals life well since dreams fucking simple apparently boring world one option left dream get high fucking building make thousands cuts ugly ass body jump off hopefully hit ground ill messed heart continue beating sorry writing boring mess post today everything went crashing me stand anymore sorry bitch poor english first language im fuckin lazy learn properly good luck all,1 black rain superb film watch dvds currently sold much apiece dvd terrible tiny nonanamorphic image blown resolutionkilling size acceptable sound primitive dvd absolutely has rereleasedbr br btw also laserdisc vhs black rain vhs huge step upward dvd laserdisc far away best picture allsubtitles black sharp big picture simple good soundtrack buy vhs avoid preposterous prices scam artists demanding,0 got trouble work brain slow downi literally got told use phone much big deal safety concerns brain freaking telling im gonna get fired there literally reason think this hope lost take medication anxiety bad,1 @__MrsA__ Shahhht ahhhhp! ,0 Depression and anxiety in patients with cancer https://ift.tt/2HtBB4r ,1 @kriskupn Yay! That was the deal of the century. And @overstock is on Twitter. ,0 want die bad got finish book firstim point feel even worse attempted redflag first time promised would live long enough publish book ive writing im pages left go feel like giving up,1 dumped boyfriend generally neglecting hang boys play video games ive asking call past week couldnt even fuckinf serious me best friend made mistake cant even speak without getting angry im sad angry feeling dumb time,0 tiahn good coz you don t have to be there bad coz you don t get paid,0 supposed things cant ever get betteri avenues life skills talents one would care extended amount time dropped struggle relate understand others getting jealous hateful inside them im financial burden whos incapable holding job im pathetic failure drop alot heartache problems would solved everyone thing stopping fear happens after im afraid waking next day dying feel alone lost confused know anymore,1 played much among us imposter syndrome ampxb ampxb please dont vote,0 got super cold really fast like like degrees last night even october weather insane,0 i m sweating my forthcoming trip to e if i can t find someone to crash with while i m out there i may be screwed,0 nothing beat the cold damp feeling you get when pulling on a wet pair of knicks,0 visited runpopularopinion cant say im disappointed people miserable cunts thats say im disappointed humanity again,0 "Just when I thought I'd hit rock bottom watching #JudgeJudy, I have now discovered #BondiRescue on @cbsrealityeu . #DaytimeTV #Depression #Distractions",1 argh fantasy surfer carnage dane marlon amp nat c all out fantasysurfer,0 whos tryna cry feel like crying,0 feeling ill again today,0 realization im gonna die redflag hardim pretty sure im gonna alive future biggest possibility dying redflag causes chances future looks dark see alive fact redflag gonna main reason hard process,1 Nashville pictures will be up when I get home tonight - plane should land at 7:30 ,0 "what happened on the last half hour of mtv movie awards !? oh well , off to school ",0 marley and me i am cry like a kid but a good movie have a good night people,0 asking help im getting pretty bored playing exact games again mainly battlefield mans sky dead cells anybody suggestions xbox game thats decent,0 im losti dont know anymore cant eat yet im always hungry cant sleep yet cant seem get bed face day dont want lonely anymore cant bring talk anybody want die every single day tried kill once yet im scared dying im stuck loop suffering doesnt seem way out ive depressed past couple years always manageable ive never really identity never really fit in joined army hoping would help become confident give sense belonging then two weeks supposed ship basic training something came put gun head felt ashamed never again looking back it first time felt control life long time honestly im sure im writing here guess sort feels good say people im worried judging me right im point army want either quit suck up im sure right decision is anything want sense direction feel like purpose life felt way so deal it,1 lost live january still cant find reason continuei gonna post feel ashamed feeling way cant find continue really wanna end all tried couple weeks ago pills woke couple hours later puke out cant even right years life never done wanted do mostly idiotic decisions ive made partly anytime try something like someone always something negative say bring down wanna play video games oh thats waste time wanna writer theres money that want smoke weed stay home relax oh never go never stop depressed sick tired living life job least live with family loves friends support me cant stop feeling like waste time never achieve things want life ive tried happy ive tried go enjoy people enjoy ive tried trying belong group like minded people nothing helped beyond initial high trying something new im lose job barely get bed mornings im tired everything ashamed even though good life cant find reason continue it currently thinking killing thanks antidepressants anxiety pills im also opposed idea falling roof building work getting run train full disclosure whole trigger comes fact interested girl work became friends saw actually interested someone else problem her still good friend problem stems fact every time want something never good enough pretty enough social enough tldr others would call good life feel like things want feel worthy good things general im loser,1 dear class st louis remember andrew madjarac like heard disappeared went residential thingshorrible things say hes still,0 fuck your depression uno,1 something,0 "When my depression strikes...it hits me like a fucking freight train, making sure nothing is left standing...",1 never wanted kill much right nowbefore say well came help means really want to know know really want able saved theres problem really hard put words guess start basic things me im listen know im young please begging you please look that teenage girl omg hate life bullshit im suicidal my mom let get new phone guy young anything this amount anxiety everything causing feel way im sure depression caused anxiety anxiety causes depression nothing other know ruining life like said before problem extremely hard put words im even sure im trying get right now im sorry know im feeling like option ive always thoughts never wanted much now please someone talk it need help place think getting quickly,1 muchive rough couple months recently lost mom live abusive father emotionally tears apart whenever talk telling death fault failure etc result speaking terms all child without relatives really family talk to sort exist school close friends all alone ive really bad person lately demons hate myself want kind person nobody returns favor give up forgetting love feels like ever expanding void heart used be im tired feeling like nobody cares mostly know true going tie loose ends tomorrow leave,1 @adsxoxo I just saw the trailer for The Road on ET. I WANT TO WATCH ,0 rickrodgers just kidding man rim doesn t even have a sync client for linux and the opensync package suck at least it can charge lolz,0 even care throwaway right nowi feel like year old looking attention feel stupid want make wall text everyone seems hate even though prone them never shut myself i weird issue get depressed late night okay day sudden im feel like trying get out cut once ive thoughts years years maybe years actually year ago glad scar fear scars know im one like but love way looks fear scars sometimes scratch see little white lines feel bit pain used put lipstick wrist looked like cuts for years actually cut would this sometimes use red sharpie time find razor knife look it telling myself just fucking it fear scars dont even want im happy like way looks want look see it scars fresh want scars case feeling one day passes someone sees think killing myself think im sucking world resources giving nothing back job little friends almost live days cant come money homeless living mom crazy too leave even though knew afford it lost jobs depression everyone see it lost boyfriends friends too boyfriend now broke depression still love someone else tried prove getting better hide depression better fake smiles becoming easier believes again love wish bit different would okay demands sex lacks sympathy empathy reason im homeless today helped out nice it gave roommate talk me wish couldve friends least see crappy depressing pop song lost love katy perry getting long it couple points back feel stupid pride smart feel belittled people almost daily know cook cant keep job im picky eater im shy oh shy social anxiety sit corner alone parties unless im drunkhigh know theyre thinking whats wrong her makes even antisocial fear people why help cook why initiate sex why clean something without someone asking to why know _____ why try food why cant make decision feel like curl shell hear things gets worse why quiet depressed now want mean boyfriend earlier clicked reddit link turned screamer gif screamed resting bed like usual yells what fuck fuck you for laughed said sorry laugh tried make light situation angry screaming thus started late night depression fine that like people mad me want make people happy thats want life okay so tldr like cutting fear scars im crazy shy makes people like me think redflag fear death constantly feel stupid inadequate instead something it usually hide shell become worse ama haha kidding go ahead care edit going bed cuz cant find anyone talk to feel free say anything feel necessary goodnight sw,1 im usually kids age usually watch old classic movies one favorites totally addicted watching first time really good u think technology movies back time music great storyline okchoreography great must see it know theres prequel movie many people like movie love classic love movies theyre much better movies now movie make smile cry make start dancing music absolutely ear catching beautiful seen dirty dancing harvana nightsprequel prequel star original actors thats hate prequels ruin original one wants prequel want sequel many people agree movie original sequel rd one enough beyond that people wont bothered watch it remembers movie st benard beethoven think theres movies altogether,0 it not enough to say that imiss u,0 @PembsDave @greeneyes1966 Totally... 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Well done Michelle.... ,0 dad sat phone laptop fucking sat pound lookin ass broke laptop cracked phone screen aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa,0 k fest 2moro!!! can't wait 2 c 3OH!3!!! oh nd I get free ice cream @ friendly's 2day ,0 ill start nee life im fuck this finally fully,0 poor joshy is sick those damn tejanos,0 im love w floofy haired boys ok hate this im lovely period watched tiktok super cute guy floofy hair dimples fyp started crying bc hes prob old lives miles away me ended watching couples cute cuddle pillow basicly pretended pillow one floofy haired tiktok boy kissed pillow entire night anyways today took bath watched youtube hoe watched started kissing boyfriend got mad threw phone toilet hows ur day been,0 okie dokie my tweoples it been a long day and i have to be in the city by 0 am boooooooooooo good night my lovely lt,0 hey got question im watching fundys stream right chat mods constantly saying you real chat stuff like that why real problem people im genuinely curious wanna sound like douche ask someone irl,0 rented domino whim even knowing inspired true story even though least likely true biopic probably see found rather awesomebr br with richard kelly writing crams together mass plots narratives hours pure entertainment seen get appreciate it br br domino model turned bounty hunter leaves perfect hollywood life pursue subtle perfect career edgy acid trip style provided director tony scott fast paced music editing provides visual flare keep attention slick performances unexpected comedy movie well made enjoyable reached wider audience br br i suggest anyone wants think entertained time hours,0 want die even tho feels like dead yearshello everyone want tell u depression loneliness general feeling wanting end life good dont even know im this idk im looking posting so im ashamed problems point feel ashamed writing strangers wont ever see life since like years ago problem bad breath really mean bad cant erase even directly brushed teeth trying heal sickness long time little success many doctors free health care dont live us obviously im unemployed cant afford pay doctor stopped trying go doctors one doctor laughed sickness literally could feel didnt care gave vibe its sickness go home imagine struggling even talk openly doctor receiving ur nuts sick threatment him im sure people dont problem hard understand hard me let put like would u feel u stepped shit couldnt wipe offwould u comfortable walking around standing next someone talking someone obviously dont even need talk someone smell it breathing thru nose like result got anxiety standing someone going shop like climbing mount everest me achieve nothing life none want anything person smells none ever take serious someone like that want able interact people,1 need help decorating walls ok ok im getting bunch pennant decorate already covered room walls far options sports teams support however pennants evenly spaced throughout room need problem cant find th pennant suggestions,0 finally completed one favorite childhood video games feels fuckin good last pain fuckin ass game need speed wanted wondering,0 no gym yesteday they have a all new gym so i need a new induction good news is it s booked for wednesday woot,0 nobody will let me make one giant cookie,0 girlfriend told might lesbian good one bois get f chat feel like shit ngl,0 think time getting close cant take much longeri assume older here lets say around ish suffered entire life major depression anxiety generally miserable often not ive tried meds therapy effect points life starting teens adult life recent psychiatrist almost year ago broke trust fired shortly lost insurance health problems outside mental health continuous need care feel basically lived life without living last years im married feel like ultimate drag relationship every way really believe death thing make everything else better havent worked probably years due anxiety spouse made decent living cover us recently always horrified get treatment guess spouse somewhat enabled wanted get insurance all reasons wont disclose cannot get ssdi would play system get ssi thats even option year one absolute disaster tired living slow motion train wreck learned darknet got needed finally put end life ive sitting things month think time getting close actually something ive thought checking hospital telling plan perfected mask hides sign going head course life almost reflexively put pretty sure think im lying admit me honest dont think really want admitted really think past helped fixing life long time ago one point hoped admit feelings maybe get emergency coverage somehow dont see possible now want misery,1 christopher nolans first feature film wowed critics saw first came out shot micro budget student film real class film shot black white features people assume friends nolans appearing movie say bad actors quite good could see jeremy theobald alex haw appearing projects unfortunately since made years agobr br nolans thriller much like memento play chronologically shifts scenes around much like pulp fiction writing fantastic great twisting thriller temporal order film shifted around makes even interesting thought last ten minutes particular everything starts become clear excellentbr br for film small budget recognizable names all good superior hollywood studios offer nolan three films this superior memento quite good still excellent insomnia cemented exciting new talent recent times cant wait batmanbr br this film short sweet certainly great watch professional twists fantastic completely surprising also thought score david julyan also excellent atmospheric chilly quality it gone compose nolans films br br overall would recommend this intend get nolans films low budget gem br br ,0 ketamine may relieve depression by repairing damaged brain circuit tm amp brain health http t co ija0nrvf9 cognitivefitness aging,1 smart people reddit healthy tooooo healthy violent taste music even sometimes lyrics wondering listen listen rob zombie finger death punch godsmack lots metal im sure related liking get people mad like would love professional bully fun anyways think,0 need guys advice please so theres girl know absolutely beautiful love death doesnt think way idk though idk wont give up even pandemic ask would like come house there parents here funny business happens dont think way says yes set time comes over watch movie play video games last couple times gone like small ice cream place played mini golf went restaurant once dont remember though but dont know do though love lot care her recently lost great friend i sadly didnt know well give condolences also something else happen earlier week asked wanted come cause wanted let know im sorry also wanted make happy again dont want sound selfish anything though just want happy too guys advice better thanks,0 my nose is bleeding,0 ckngdead here come the depression tweet,1 And I'm diggin sonics new bright yellow shirts ,0 hey girl painted leonardo da vinci youre priceless is better cuz apparently yall dont like picasso ,0 i m going to love this season of the hill i can tell spartan sucked goodnight,0 "@YankeeGirl20 wow...that would be awesome! i need a notebook but can't afford one, thought this might be a good "inbetween" thang ",0 cmon click here know want to anyway im bored dm please,0 help girl agreed meet get drink ask free wednesday im free thursday saturday says oh not say cant says oh htf response oh say available anyway actually date,0 nobody understands chronic pain depressionthe pain getting worse worse hurts open mouth hurts talk face hurts surgery ive eating unhealthy lately acne left cheek fucking hurts period came today unbearable doctors dont know wont prescribe painkillers otc pills dont work im trapped life deserve live much pain want continue living want travel want go restaurants want fucking explore world im much pain dont know much longer stay alive dont choice,1 posting everyday till get girlfriend day im actually piss one guy,0 im miserable cant even find way ending lifei want try method failproof ways see dropping high place shooting head unfortunately im far access gun money buy one high place jump think bridge around km miles would get there thought hanging woods could survive this want live feel trapped want want parents feel bad life fucking mental prison wish shotgun blast head off,1 jason bourne sits dusty room blood hands trying make sense hes done meanwhile cia chief nyc outlines agencys response whats happened screen american flag stands proudly centre desk foreground shot speaks slips focus plan veers morally dubious territory want associated course action government man decides necessary interests national securitybr br this shot effectively captures mood film well portraying bournes quest find became jason bourne ultimatum also examination human costs measures taken protect us interests stability securitybr br it also probably best film see cinema year br br its intense bourne says simon ross considine this newspaper story real audience almost believe him camera shakes remains steady enough see everything feel like bourne tries elude pursuers performances good guys seem though characters theyre portraying instead actors performing wellwritten roles action scenes brutally fastpaced well choreographed seem instinctive instead planned minutest movement stuntwork nothing short amazingbr br the pacing incredible keeps driving forward towards conclusion fast leaves struggling piece together plot script delivers information need quickly clearly possible moving next tense action setpiece theyre often simple the waterloo sequence essentially man phone watched man phone theyre charged dramatic intensity cant take eyes them film focused powering forwards cant help swept along itbr br with intense action setpieces brilliantly paced storyline intelligent examination decisions made name national security bourne series one accurately captures ambiguities age ultimatum peak,0 hard awake feels impossible fall asleep now always feels like minds voicethoughts constantly screaming maximum volume used constant tormenting thoughts new silence always feeling like i want go home safe especially mind,1 linuxfoundation who should i contact if i need a 099 for freelance work i did on linux com throughout 00 never got one,0 threw life away abusive mentally ill man nothing see reason continuetwo years ago making year rented lovely apartment life great except depressed lonely bored decided treat extravagant three week holiday hawaii met man spent whole weekend together pretty fantastic though quite red flags went him chose ignore thinking vacation fling fast forward two years thought met someone loved me met disturbed mentally ill alcoholic controlling emotionally abusive addicted codependant quit excellent secure well paying job moment dilusion thinking going move hawaii get married finally broke february take anymore unemployed soon homeless june th able pay rent anymore best friends longer want friends completely hopeless life worth living think redflag often im years old single skills education im currently going counselling last money helping every job ive ever done ive hated every single minute even good one want work want anything want lie hole wait die,1 you're welcomed @MrFloydNL @Lunabee_art @derivativeofu @smallandround #FollowFriday #FF ,0 im better dead alivelets face it im another autistic nut job living horrible life whole life ive bullied pushed aside people tell get it truly understood felt maybe would take back supposed know want me sit here trying commit redflag maybe send sign hope truly care,1 cant go oni wanna kill ive gone shit cant bare life anymore im always shouted main person complain fucking shit self harm cuts armwrist cant tell anyone coz one mum dad always going want stop think redflag everyday probably leave everything soon need support reason live please help,1 realised im way fortunate people world im born first world country still stable country full wars live comfortably food plate air conditioning room good loving family relatively well off parents stable well paying jobs worry money get good education mom trained english since baby im fluent english opens ton doors me physical disabilities arms legs feeling grateful have,0 @Sims3Nieuws just have been away for 2 years: not playing sims but World of Warcraft ,0 this insane rant here ha 000 like really what exactly are they liking that someone can be this vile toxic disrespectful amp totally irresponsible to her own mother depression is actually a fair amp deserved escape route you to be honest nonsense,1 ran hopebeen fighting get daughters free abusive exhusbandi got one ruling sexual abuse cps bought expensive attorney sued year reversed it cant get investigate abuse claims himmy daughter broken foot ignored daysthe one came home bruise length forearmi cant get investigate cant afford sue them friendswhen started going road last night fear hopelessness miserythey ignored it ignored emails ignored callsive always them thought truly did relationships people apparently never cared alli resource use cant keep watching children get hurt unable help them horrible cruel miserable know friends love mei understand anything im lost im lost,1 I am hungry!! ,0 heres another low quality meme somebody existential crisis rteenagers rimandthisisdeep,0 no matter how hard i try i just seem to be a background character to everyone else for year i have tried to be a better person socialize more be extroverted dress nicely workout try to be friendlier love yourself yada yada yada it s all bullshit lie i told myself delusion that i thought would make me be noticed and at least somewhat respected but in the end it seems like i don t even exist it s absolutely soul crushing i feel like most people just look right through me a if i were a ghost the shadow of what once wa a person i ve never had anyone i could truly call a friend just recently my best friend told me that i wasn t even his best friend that there wa someone else that he see a his true best friend i m not angry at him just dissapointed at the circumstance i m just another shoulder to cry on for every person i talk to i ve never had a girlfriend no one ever really loved me that sting the most i constantly hear story about people and their experience with love yet here i am at 0 year old never even having kissed anyone at my age my brother already had several girlfriend so did all the other people at my age that i know i feel like a fucking clown i really am le than human i ve always been the laughingstock of the fucking world never been respected always ignored i m depressed and suicidal but most of all i m angry if people don t want to see me i will fucking force them to see me they ll have no other choice but to see me one way or another,1 seems pathetici know itll seem pathetic say this ill get dont worry girl dumped likely long distance thing get fuck it dont know man hurts im sure ill kill dont know really find right page make kinda post never really used reddit lurked fuck though hurts ive tried messaging abit nothing looks snapchats stuff nothing more maybe pathetic im room midnight crying feel lost dont lot confidence dating cause never dated high school never knew whole flirt thing hurts hurts want talk hear voice hear say love infinity beyond like always did im sorry long post,1 simply put paul bettany jennifer connelly remarkable movie less raw science darwins beliefs holds focus strongly relationship family primarily wife emma daughter anniebr br toby jones gives wonderful turn thomas huxley great defender darwins beliefs rest cast task sharing screen time bettany connellybr br but two carry movie real chemistry apparent beginning end develops transcendence darwin grapples demons scene darwin relates ending story jenny orangutan dying daughter annie utterly gripping world premiere audience tiff spellbound bettanys performance recognized one years best short order equally magnificent connellys work playing religious wife man who huxleys words killed godbr br the film moves slowly entire spectrum darwins grief relishing every detail bettany connellys actingbr br brilliant,0 wasnt supposed wake upguess handfuls advil arent really enough noted next time ill think pills pop,1 try thisso researched net found slight chance overdose alparazolam xanax combined alcohol plan dont sleep days drink beers like vodka take mg pills hope without pain n shit wanted share maybe some experience xanax something,1 diewhy tried hang instinct kicks in want die fucks sake,1 god college makes fucking miserable people crack pressure shatter like fucking glass,0 cough cough cough that s all i seem to do right now,0 @Tinu whew. almost changed my perception of you. Now I can put you back on the pedestal. ,0 gnite twitter world long day tomorrow night class till 0pm,0 ib nji yeh i know but it wasnt on the showbags list in the paper the other day i heard that they are broadcasting from the show on thurs,0 champagnemanoir all rain today garden really need it so not quite so bad,0 one many things school cant understand hard education system understand able find use informations hard useful remembering it im able answer hardest question give minute find answer instead remember ill study minutes forget later even understanding talking,0 @capecodgurl and sorry again for spamming...having trouble mashing out multisyllabic words with my hate fingers ,0 someone spend time los retros killing real note completely understand math fuck yes oh lesywhcjdjjv,0 idk needs hear need get reddit youve past hours,0 never go itsurvival instincts fucking powerful could planning weeks feeling prepared right im standing edge instincts kick cant fucking it funny cant even kill,1 keeps asking impossible mesmile says wish could lie easily smiling would false reassurance smiling means okay right now smiling seems cry help muster hope notices even then conversation go little notes im leaving everywhere posting rredflagwatch im work smiling like want badly tell someone figure themselves half rational today yesterday felt half rational day before feel like im slipping looked list good places go missing lucky many places near people disappearing decades could go there could make disappear walking far forest great getting head anyways maybe wait ready starve death woods whatever feel like smiling,1 ad not yet appeared google adsense team said it may delay hr on http womenissues info,0 @ayanatheoracle @JMKis91 read the second part of my tweet. and there are pHD trained psychologists saying exactly the same things i'm saying lol. the old model of depression has very low rates of actually curing people & keeps people trapped in victim mentality for life. New discoveries are behind made,1 is thx GOD http://plurk.com/p/x831s,0 "Fresh News: (Mom's depression tied to kids' emotional, intellectual development) has been published on Creative Tips - http://www.creativetips.site/moms-depression-tied-to-kids-emotional-intellectual-development/ …",1 "@uwillbeheard yup, from your comp. to the right of the tweet where u fav it, there's a trashcan ",0 yes unbelievable may be musical academy award best picture third musical win award fiveyear period first fair lady sound music difference fair lady sound music oliver however oliver immeasurably better comparison first two movies insipid wet noodles compared remarkably robust oliver acting great songs great story great dancing great movie dynamic topical relevant human experience unlike overblown gangs new york oliver offers portrayal poverty th century london england evokes sympathy without condescending oliver reed great actor proves oliver actors actresses especially ron moody shani wallis equally wonderful offer powerful portrayals characters evoke sympathy warmth without caricatures,0 im sorrytheres many things would take back could think deserve live know world better end now im worse scum cant ask forgiveness,1 shouldnt kill myselfive lost friends family help live,1 2 am suddenly having not good feels ok.bmp because jpeg would be too high quality for this depressiongood night,1 marykatherine q i know i heard it this afternoon and wondered the same thing moscow is so behind the time,0 late great grade z drivein exploitation filmmaker par excellence al adamson really outdoes gloriously ghastly scifi softcore musical comedy atrocity plumbs deliciously dismal dopey depths sheer celluloid silliness jawdropping stupidity grim totalitarian future sex deemed illegal act big brotherlike impotent bumbling idiot controller an amusingly goofy erwin fuller however sweetnsexy cinderella radiant blonde cutie pie catherine erhardt remains determined change things better help effeminate fairy godfather a flamboyantly campy jay b larson cinderella attends grand gala ball specific plan seducing handsome stud tom prince the dorky vaughn armstrong teaching everyone making love notredflag pleasurable wholly acceptable activitybr br adamson directs ridiculous yarn customary allthumbs incompetence staging incredibly awfulninept song dance sequences totally sidesplitting lack skill flair uproariously abysmal we need love number people absurd animal costumes awkwardly prancing forest hilariously horrendous marvel ditto equally abominable mechnical man routine featuring bunch clumsily cavorting robots louis horvarths crude static cinematography tacky plastic miniatures sparky sugermans groovy throbbing disco score copious gratuitous nudity ravishing brunette hottie sherri coyle warrants special praise particular department brainnumbingly puerile attempts leering lowbrow humor roscoe robot law enforcer especially irritating uniformly terrible performances renee harmons outrageously hammy portrayal cinderellas wicked overbearing stepmother cops big booby prize here enhance strikingly abundant cheesiness savored delectably dreadful doozy,0 going doctor tomorrowive wanting go doctors awhile get professional help depression gotten worse throughout months im honestly scared tomorrow know whats going happen doctors office anyone gone doctors depression normally visit,1 GREATTT.. 46 unread messages in my SpamBox. 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I got 6 messages from people who support me and my music! ,0 made garlic spread oil garlic rosemary httpspreviewredditibdwfjkwvljpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsfeccfbeeddddefce,0 sad sad backwards das das good ampxb cannot remember learnt joke bad good,0 is thinking he s going to have to reinstall wow a it simply refuse to update to 0 irritating time it ll take forever,0 need world peace hard get individual countries would forget selfinterest would able get along other frustrating many man made issues world political oppression economic disparity discrimination we teenagers world resolve work towards cooperative human future,0 quickie workout & watch satc ,0 started struggle completing routine tasks especially deadlines somedays want work set schedule though always fail following it time management something become incapable of extremely depressed even suicidal thoughts time management never issue extremely satisfied january thought fought depression time seems fly away know goes keeps running away going faster faster sometimes struggle get bed staring feed phone even feeling content day another aspect noticed chasing excitement thrill without life seems completely boring cannot even seem get bed get excited whenever buy something even completely useless btw remembered need take money book ordered eat lot want eat time keep wasting ordering food food problem getting hand already strict definitions body type rooted brain spent minutes food delivery app trying order something even though hungry kept searching baskin robbins even though knew closed keep opening fridge even though know nothing inside somedays lose ambition completely usually long term goals always keep failing at extremely unlucky something me even smallest tasks attempt become increasingly difficult array problems pop nowhere today get bed hours straight writing rant probably one going bother reading nothing better life cannot even find new music good thought would get excited go day friends people would text meet grown distant too meet anyone text couple people off none real friends anyways make journey bearable sometimeps diagnosed depression unofficially local clinical psychologist last year covid spread way content lockdown even life began get normalized it everything currently normal country effect lockdown never felt like before could depression one forms,1 hey listen one send link megadrive file whit ajr neotheater ajr click mp im going month without internet need download music youtube converter mp slow usually doesnt work,0 ive decided kill tonightjust thought maybe tell stranger rather anyone close me thanks,1 @haydio dang.. that's such a shame ,0 @AngieWarren Oh I am glad it helped to turn things around ,0 chronic pain gave scary thoughtive suffering since years now discs spine degenerating pain going arm recent mri done found even discs spine degeneratingcervical lumbar ive started career sadly desk job corporate lawyer ive got dreams cant even go one hour sitting comfortably office religious think afterlife often nice would rid pain today asked difficult question want die broke tears could think miserable past years been im expected grow old spine continue deteriorate cried like little bitch,1 life one vicious cycle one way break itive depression long remember recently ive developed issues well always end spot im right now living state absolute misery never truly leaves ive thinking value life lot theres nothing born nothing die whats point this guess truly impossible know comes next fear unpleasant keeps sometimes ask born worst year life boosted feeling intense theyve ever been ill going college city soon jumping tall building crosses mind times per day,1 idk reaching foolish limits diei tried bribe medical personnel pharmacy yesterday buy xanax,1 n9ne x tgalloway rwtaylors a someone that ha suffered from depression and anxiety pretty much my whole life i can safely say lockdown made it a million time worse your comment is thoughtless and insensitive this lady lost her son your experience is not everyone else s grow up,1 @JenniferParot yay you have a twitter! ,0 dumbass wants ago got mild concussion cause went highway shitty skateboard baby honey sugar plum amazing skateboard truck might i,0 marcusmims wow i didn t get an quot hello quot u suck,0 someone seen followed hartleys public work several years think much used fiction told true stories elevated obscure philosophical mind gamesbr br while entertaining fay grim another step henry fool line thinking movie reflects quality object within movie itself henry fool object memoirs fay grim object encrypted memoirs stolen forged transmutated something obscure cant really make sense ie process script writing filmmaking modern era blockbuster films little mashup past is philosophical sense fay grim about object perhaps tragedy shock clich dull as hinted opening scenes publishers officebr br that said many movie best points lost understand henrys character significance memoirs looked for henry thinly veiled devil first visiting simon modern faust etc without understanding tragic henrys character is much quality fay grims plot story lostbr br and enough detail expressed verbal flashbacks knowing plot henry fool cannot compare feeling quality characters one henry fool think someone walks movie cold minutes so what responses highly constructed dialog thats itbr br however henry fool also least favorite hartley film realized bad putrid infested precisely henry fools confessions bad raunchy dirty inescapably broken henry even proper villain perhaps tragic flaw makes endearing like gollum tolkiens works henry pitiablebr br that come across fay grim although henrys dialog excellent come across entire movie constructed encryption sort molding another plot around ends yet another bad story add henrys confessions interesting twist one cant really digested without viewing first film perhaps showing henry earlier would better publisher describe basic storyline first movie although plot also really first movie unless perhaps one casual observerbr br part encryption hard say little disappointed sex gimmicks though cheesy,0 dababy officially enemy republic perserve republican values longer less goooo anyone turning convertible crucified,0 my heart is abused with so many hurtful lie and truth i hate being sappy about these kind of thing i hate it gold for syf k,0 slams table slammed table mlord phoenix wright,0 "once i stop being a fucking idiot, learn to deal w my anxiety, depression, & adhd, get a dog, put myself out there, publish my art, get rich, get my degree, start designing my own clothes, get a nose job, gain 20 more lbs at the gym, and love myself its over for you bitches",1 im feeling bored do,0 manual breathing ha think it were it manual blinking hahahaha,0 idk needs hear but go bed am,0 depression and suicide trying to win but i m fighting this battle,1 anyone good political discords arent americans jacking country great dm pls,0 the apple app store is filled with themits bad enough to operate this type service through in app purchase some with free trial but when you read the review they are all riddled with example of predatory pricing or the counselor or whatever just completely ghosting them after taking money for a couple session it fucking terrible when you consider how many suicide it will lead to that could have been prevented if they had actual help it pretty disgusting that apple atleast treat them like great top tier apps and ha them in a bunch of their list when they shouldnt be in the store at all sorry just a rant i wish i could suggest decent mental health apps but i have no clue,1 want summon ufuck anyone knows summon ufuck reddit post please let know dogecoin trade,0 get absurd amount comments post need awards anything like that ill best reply them get absurd amount comments post need awards anything like that ill best reply them think would really fun idea,0 currently latin class help talking supposed write sentence story,0 joe biden donald trump everyone start arguing comments please thank you,0 woke up at am far too early more coffee then,0 hate methat sums up hate me everything me hate want disappear permanently want hear cant stand it sitting driving crazy feel building inside know anymore thoughts place way get stop die cant take me,1 hooray! i have 3 stalkers! spy me spy me!!! where did you find me? ok! you win this round of Hide n Seek ,0 many things happy about need die urge eating stronger everi think became regular sub im sorry struggling wish could take pain away one go poor parents wished child much showered love affection gave much fucking sorry them last thing want cause pain cant anymore mommy cant love endless ive tried meds ive tried talking want hurt anymore guys wonderful honestly swear wish none go this heart breaks us,1 summon power reddit guess lot schools germany want write final exams even though didnt get lot time learn them thats friends started petition exams would help lot could sign petition ampxb httpchngitytvmdyvpdmhttpchngitytvmdyvpdm,0 losthello all yesterday first panic attack life worst part even panic attack could talk anyone it thought friend think starts dislike lot friendship almost more seems ending never met person real life kind weird think im someone people get along well long period time never good friend always drifted far away close with lulling seems like best idea ill make moms life like hell really worried know else do cant keep living like this moved home country searching something work out feeling even worse ever mature cant put others feeling front own good person hurt ones love failure planet would great service humanity,1 people seen movie thinks best movie ever made disagree movie good tony bad ass guy knows hes intimidating uses get ahead goes washing dishes huge house office cocaine desk want family movie way go want mobsters vengeance stuff like like it,0 dont want anymorei feel like im dragging along day nothing look forward anymore happiness anymore motivation anything im failing almost classes feel fucking pathetic useless basically friends left too point im tired trying im tired hearing itll get better hasnt dont see way will dont even know want future feel like im good anything honestly dont even see future all people always tell find hobby find something thatll distract feeling way doesnt work anymore nothing makes happy anymore nothing brings joy feel fucking alone every single day feel like ill never matter anyone one ever care love me im ready give end it dont care anymore want happy again dont want feel like anymore dont want stuck anymore,1 god lives st louis convert first digits pi phone number get area code st louis thus center universe st louis god lives ownes studio apartment covent gardens pershing ave saint louis mo two cats plant sink full unwashed dishes works local subway miles away hes onandoff relationship girl insomnia cookies,0 rant dont care read notfrom bottom soul tired ive always depressed adult weighing down make money things always wanted dont energy im either sleeping working drinking always told id never addict am following mothers footsteps one find happiness ill never know ampxb forgive grammer poor formatting rambling,1 basically summary struggles fears warning longseveral years ago breaking point snapped contemplated months evening different left party family attended earlier went home put favorite piece music basically tried make piece everything committing attempt raised religious family prayed happen quickly painless foremost happen all not hours later family came home woke up knew window passed would strength meters away me incredibly frustrated first then way thought everything again next months fears pushed towards moment resolved least invoke panic before came believe god prayed make happen held back kept reason relationship belief grew strong huge source hope strenght song listened evening became sort hymn said trust since believed saved night next months recovered grew optimistic started enjoy thoughts time think felt like could advance problems would solve dilemmas saw constantly one one one day stumbled upon piece music touched whole level never experienced before swore myself never listen song find one waiting you yes kind superstitious weirdo believing god one true love or ever want end life again way would able commit anything without remembering thought ultimately living waiting for day listened song again always perfect hurdle every suicidal thought toppling moment emerged subconscious least used be months lost lot connection belief months stand myself alone thoughts happy temporarily soon moment subsides emptiness gnawing feeling takes place one things numb video games dont think anything playing perfect break self loathing amount people manage thing decreased drastically making gaming important dont know happened stand anymore dont know thoughts turned dark void dont know friends loving family make feel wanted alone like opposite incredibly lonely time now lost energy even play games refuge gone inching closer closer listening song want hear badly crave someone share inner nature with someone mend me like stories almost given up promise gave mother years ago told incident feel binding anymore god saved last time might able again song keeps alive moment afraid afraid terrified might happen snap again put song live bad ending story thought back then thinking dark ending possible make bright ending triumph worth wait dont know might happen all think reason wrote post make clear myself close breaking point naive anymore another attempt spoiled naive lack knowledge anatomy terrified afraid sure turn to know happen cant connect family friends help me hope find solution strenght breaks,1 im upset sound silence become meme genuinely dark yet good song,0 my goodness it s freezing down here,0 @MrSnyderXav The Honest Truth should be a part of the Genesis curriculum because it is about something that kids face all over the world today (depression). pic.twitter.com/oUNVazorHE,1 "reminder: it is a very good idea to stay on the STREET while driving, instead of the sidewalk ",0 maybe kill finally meet god reincarnate womanfuck life born man,1 @EterKnity thanks for the follow friday tweet ,0 asdfsfsffsfs state course year absolutely terrible fuck thought good idea super narrow trail switches sand asphalt like feet elevation gain cross country state meet fuck ran like minutes slower,0 i can t do this anymore i think i might finally end it all i m just not sure the right method to complete it i have nothing more to live for i can t go on feeling how i feel i m all alone with no one to help me today is just the final straw i just need all the pain inside to end i ve attempted before and it didn t work i need to make sure it work this time,1 bored and lonely,0 hey guys hey guys im sad need find stuff stop thinking things give ideas stuff ill ,0 timebipolar alcohol addiction porn addiction plus got cold seriously fuck thus shit im out,1 endim going end pitiful existence tomorrow care may say mean anything goodbye good life,1 "@OMGHANNAH lol, yeah Im thinkin I should - just need to go hydrate some first, its bloody hawt today! ",0 redflag attempt feel like exist like died have frustratingits body im somewhere else im here hate stereotype lost others confidence look faces work drugstore small town every fucking person fucking place knows me seriously exist redflag watch like exist im waiting next chance get rid body alredy consider dead cant live burden pain caused loved ones know somenone like me bring pain people lives hope die everything vanish life illusion,1 guys asked crush said no even think twice atleast kill herself get f chat pls,0 "It's kinda funny seeing how you react about MH issue when in fact, you are one of the reasons why I've been going through this anxiety/depression.",1 getting collapsetoday reddit realized hope going get better depressed happened isolation taken toll way people turned thanks media influence makes worse now food system starting collapse whole lot people still fine quarantine way people treat subs people really beneath masks wear work good outweigh bad more whether someone believes god bible certainly nailed human nature percent correctly im heading woods people say go im killing others ill sure wear mask,1 since wrote last month pretty decent thought better life looking today really really shitty day sitting right mental break sobbing shaking reminded pathetic hopeless really reminded useless wasted space really fking stupid believe thing finally getting better coming back bite me overwhelm sense hopelessness suicidal thought coming back want live anymore life never get better never going get better matter hard try hope future remember still alive stop fking idiot believing bullshiit die need alive,1 one else tell this know saying need confess support map rights right remain silent anything say used court law right attorney cant afford attorney one provided them,0 "@daisyrjordan if Susan Boyle wins i will be like grrrr, annoyed :p. She is okay but she doesn't have as much talent as the dancers Xx",0 everytime i think of any sort of injury or blood i feel so faint and almost puke how can i stop this feeling and calm myself down doe anyone else get this no graphic story please,1 give upi dont know whats happening every time get relationship leave me fault everyone around us want tell someone much pain im cant im scared tell someone theyll judge me like one wants around stay locked room want leave cant im sorry blake,1 need someone talk toive trying hard keep messing up cant see end this im stuck depressed anxious cant achieve simple goals point me im burden love social system get lasting pleasure interacting people anymore ive rough year like years really already gave flat mate prescription otc pills cant take tonight want call local crisis line really need chat someone know hold tonights bullshit me please,1 "Goodnight to my love, hope you feel better in the morning I love you sweetie",0 @JimLanzalotto Absolutely! You might catch me at Mac and Manco's as well ,0 so really feel like writing big long post moment think saw someone else this imma points rather proper sentences such feel like atrocious friend never around people much used be also never know talk friends anymore like share interests anymore way cannot talk anymore work plus also think trying really hard improve myself never really seems make much difference second start actually trying always late rules put place make effort useless anyways plus feel safe room makes feel kind pathetic feel safe even anything bad really great parents genuinely hurt way shape form time bit edge like morning know fact everyone asleep cannot really anymore stayed late messed up cannot stay later besides sleep schedule getting pretty bad probably best even want things used make happy anymore tired drawing tired writing tired minecraft tired sing going therapist literally everything supposed to honest be something new always pops halfway week always looming redflag helped like all sometimes tired even try talking people shut down read crappy fanfiction bed hours get eat make happy even honestly tired everything close giving caring,1 just had a fabulous 1.5 hr run in the desert with MIssy and Kaya and is now off to run some errands before buffalo burgers ,0 im not sure if this is the right thread to put this under idk if this is considered anxiety or irrational fear ocd or the warning sign of psychosis evolving the other day i saw a spider in my room keep in mind i saw a jumping spider in my room a while ago and i didnt sleep in my room for a whole month maybe even longer a couple day ago i saw another but this time im 90 sure it wa a northern black widow i saw the back of it and it wa black with white spot on it and a huge as it wa all crumpled up so i poked it with a pencil it wa in fact alive it stood up abruptly i screamed and ran to my brother to kill it he picked it up with a napkin and flushed it i wa too frantic to tell him not to flush it so we could figure out what it wa well i wa curious a to what kind of spider it could be so i searched black spider with white spot it didnt look like the writing spider or anything else i came across a match but my excitement of finding a match quickly faded a i read the name of the spider i lost it i went to my mom room cry and she refused to listen to me so i called my dad they all told me it wa nothing and it probably just came in on my dog i calmed down but it didnt help much when i sleep on the couch i vigorously shake off my blanket from my room so i can make sure there no spider on it it become a part of my routine to also shake off my pillow and take them out of the case but tonight while i wa shaking them off something occurred to me what if there wa spider in my pillow now i cant use my pillow because all i can think about is spider being in it i also heard a story about a guy that woke up covered in them because there wa a nest in his pillow and a bunch of spider hatched im terrified i cant sleep without a pillow and my first day back to school is tomorrow and it super late i dont know what to do i cant sleep and this is greatly exhausting me i couldnt even use my favorite blanket since it grey and if one of the spider is on there i wouldn t be able to see it what should i do to make my life normal again how do i overcome this please help,1 pink flamingos revolutionary time even today still hard watch enjoy film hilarious repulsive jonh waters pushes envelope far go story concerns babs johnson devine filthiest women alive lives trailer son crackers daughter cotton mention overweight edie whos obsessed eggs sleeps crib theres connie raymond marble two filthy perverts jealous babs long outdo filthiest person alive means janitor impregnate kidnapped women selling babies lesbian couples flashing people public even sending babs turd mail babs fights back prove deranged person alive even includes incest murder eating dog crap sick sexual acts film thats fun whole family well depending live watch pink flamingos forget barf bag perverse weird sex bodily functions also see sweet movie,0 "@kdurose yep, but we fought back well. think it will turn out to be the decisive moment in winning the league again though ",0 guys need opinion currently almost rn skincare go sleep orrrrr finish cleaning room go sleep could really dont want,0 people thing keeping alivei want die much parents would bury child siblings look rely would lose me roommates wouldnt able afford house job would replace would devastated im really fucking struggling wrote note dayi dont think ill ever use thought alive next years unbearable idk much take venting one respond need tell someone dont want scare loved ones one call something,1 this night shouldn't end ,0 Let the Office wars begin ,0 please clear skin bad acne dark acne scars hyperpigmentation im black go away whenever see father scars first thing points out embarrassing especially even notice time people quick remind ive tried many things seem never work whats worse im always optimistic hopeful new skincare routine inevitably work feel like idiot even insecure before also hate pretty girls flawless skin complain one minuscule pimple cheek something smile nod like skin look like bubble wrap,0 anyone play league legends want someone play me im bronze wanna get better get better plz hmu im ,0 alielayus i want to go to promote gear and groove but unfornately no ride there i may b going to the one in anaheim in may though,0 tell tell me why cant happy done be told everything expected me so why tell cant happy continued made bed strove best everything told still left tell me tell now whats wrong me really deserve happy please tell me horrible cruel tell me unlovable fool tell me do make understand tell do shall follow command,1 want kill myselfcan escape feeling dont want die want die im probably going die,1 really care dating im m ive ever serious relationship enjoyable manipulative always fine always friends hang with lot friends girlfriends spending time them started make feel like tad bit sad miss feeling someone share moments im missing out time know need anyone cant determine whether actively trying find someone spend time fun ignore urge,0 @Wossy Does this mean that you will only be able to fly in a circle now! ,0 "drank for the first time in 4 months, wasn't quite as bad as I remembered. Going to Ikea to get sweedish furnature and eat hotdogs ",0 well that wa a fun night work now to start the working day,0 aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa found pack open condoms parents dresser aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa,0 so happened hi everyone livestreamer desperate viewers twitch youtube advertise channels post doesnt get deleted profile play overwatch minecraft monfri nights whole bunch games weekends failed gain much traction far really need to stream hours month twitch youtube make art video edits twitch discoverability really trying get actual people could possibly interested hard venues permit advertising came asking give chance check out suck hate do id love hear improve thanks,0 streamer friend watch looswaffle twitch httpwwwtwitchtvlooswafflesra so know even right sub friend college student really trying get stream channel ground funny nice would really appreciate give chance im honored invited game never considered fun apparently does thanks guys,0 sigh gon na take a while to find all the file argh,0 @philipnitschke So we're fund raising to give a final cure to his depression?,1 "decided to watch night at the museum, i made a good decision cuz it was hilarious. the three cherubs were so cute ",0 whywhy go on without knowing anything mine tell why,1 "Happy Mothers' Day to my mom, your mom, his mom and her mom! Woot woot.. moms rule! ",0 friends saw san diego black film festival great stormy strong black woman nana reminds grandmother br br rene fine seeing take clothes definitely worth price admission someone forward contact infobr br my friend thinks flex finer two flex fan years though might little biased cousins funny trifling nana described them lolbr br i looking forward seeing movie comes theaters,0 andygaming une seule issue changer il n y aura probablement aucune volution de carri re de plus tu risque de tomber en d pression,1 must ban rban video games making outrageous arguments involving video games cause people watch child porn become neo nazi also use terrible photoshop make youtube videos video game look like nazi propaganda,0 anyone living dysfunctional family alone live family im one sons youngest child tied twin sister seen still see abuse father mother brothers sister brothers even hope whatever stops eventually know around someone know well feel awkward sitting around well thats kind fucked family everytime sit other someone says something stupid without thought even completely wrong another one calls out argument starts one raises voice calls names fight starts everybody left bad taste mouth happened countless times never gets better every damn time one us near other feel like heart going explode stress anxiety say got used it im starting feel like handle grow up hope happiness love determination one day find true freedom peace mind hope turn fine find purpose life,0 need help mechanics pulling together started depression turning existential crisis im starting feel pretty valid logicali couple issues right coming head found long ago going major depressive episode something gone even know honestly might ptsd sprinkled there guess consider really irrelevant given new found turn ive going here psychiatrist ive got sucks ass spent great deal time carving everything make life easy went psychologist first really thing offer breathing exercises left least convinced everything possible within powers conclude rationally issue chemical imbalance first insurance company gives list people can see get reimbursed go almost everyone booked weeks months advance think ridiculous is finally find someone go sit week calling tried make job easy possible explaining fact felt like weight world going crush first time life felt defeated reaching out regular doctor even im self employed etc try self sufficient possible im asking help im asking help explained everything going life provided much detail possible alleviate fears drug seeking made clear starting get gravely concerned short term state jumbling story couple times gathered professional avoidance prescribed something would take up several weeks months see change thought insane dumped mind came help felt like even paying attention prescribed benzos short term support never someone ask something like that ill tell what trick problem long term meds giving redflag idealization issues returned told aggression issues want get hospitalized arrested whatever since never officially tell anyone im threat what load fucking bullshit another days sort put nd prescription different longer acting prescription bottle refill days great enough time get next bridge go get refilled said day two earlier refill thats fine big deal told them fact quiet number left days felt need boost return week later pick im told doctor changed mind thinking wtf says days right there issue apparently since write date too pharmacists said totally unprofessional manually verify it even remember many days refilled for months ago mean pleaded guy im drowning life cant coming back making weekly appointments im trying sort out need training wheels guess every fucking person comes trying score pills including me okay enough guy ive got medication now fantastic lets move next issue here ive trying tell significant hey im going trouble right now please please keep down total ball buster normal times ive always managed fine got decade ago ive asked guess consider almost bare basics yelling house nagging try make effort intimate understanding right now im bitch it know help get this getting anywhere every time bitching something could think hanging basement kept thinking itd quick itd like going sleep ill never deal bullshit again okay im falling back looking sort temporary support ask mom ive extremely good terms forever help want clear relationship amazing said let time needed most explained needed help needed talk significant keeping line needed family support here basically shifted said one one needed help shit sitting paths ahead me fight fight fight battle get back drugs helping risk getting locked hospital telling truth risk losing means support significant process minutes tops turns existential crisis ive got good life recently ive become convinced ultimately life one enormous distraction ive chasing level happiness unobtainable immediately people talk this dance around subject become obvious im questioning existence immediately turn discussion honestly chasing material happiness oh that end that ultimately capitalist goals already went road happy kids realized different happiness distraction sort used look someone like larry ellison idealize him look successful is got older children idealize someone like that saw someone bought heroic amount bullshit sacrificed entire life pursuit ultimately power guess see world differently ultimately believe purpose life deep meaningful relationships ultimately complex that im way oversimplifying things here really starting get rails im starting feel like alien planet people truly identify days ive got small group confidants really truly adore people feel genuine loyal feel like majority people meet genuine vast vast majority people meet wrapped trivial bullshit trying seen way sort person cant connect them one hand totally understand person feel great sadness shame bought bought hard im trying cross bridge next stage cant find enough people there increasingly feel like amount effort necessary stabilize essentially rebuild core foundation much ive got partner seems concerned whether toys cleaned ground put bullet head doctor worried hell get rolled writing sloppy prescription endless number shitheads deal daily basis business people would piss kids cereal save recently id seen someone handful times last year sort start unplug like been never noticed really recently killed im starting see startling parallels am path least resistance redflag think worth fighting for ultimately feel life become one big distraction efficient honest help legislatively practically prohibitive must something wrong here cant hard correct chemical imbalance seeing world shit colored glasses im getting really sick it,1 purpose reason live longhello fellow people another lonely th yr old guy currently college spent last years battling depression every passing day hole appears getting bigger hope getting out high school guy none talked to one left hanging came group projects came hellhole without forming single meaningful friendship relationship anyone hoped going college would provide fresh start clean slate boy wrong instead got worse appears natural people repellent none ever wants sit next anywhere near me could sit center room near front people seemingly avoid like fucking plague dont smell bad anything tried make friends either seem interested push away short period time make matters even worse became fucking hopeless romantic let explain really start last semester literally envy every single couple see know feeling someone care you love you acknowledge existence literally become single thing think day out still well classes often drift think relationship constant thoughts never good enough anyone want grudgingly accepting fact likely die alone dont put one head that think im bad looking apparently am fucking bad understand girl could give simplest gesture smiling im stuck fantasy land head imagining us happily together hugging cuddling crushing never experience entire life know cant good enough one person home even worse bed thinking things willpower anything fucking point like tried get tried praying appears every time things get worse pretty much stopped tried pills therapy nothing feel useless unwanted world want someone mercy kill me even attempted redflag one point decided live regret that maybe done continue living existence gotten worse past month taken classes summer stressed without would doubt even worse am one beacon hope me physics class cute girl notice week class made eye contact across room continued make eye contact find smiling me god cute one day go talk class conversation went well finally know felt something time maybe potential wanted back mind felt making something nothing spent lot time thinking her cute laugh smile fantasies relationship her hugging her cuddling kissing felt good pleasuring mind literally made happy sure enough mind right texted got left fucking read saying hi felt crushed literally broke umbrella threw dumpster sure enough world enjoys fucking decides start pouring feeling nothing inside walk slowly reach car soaked relatively calm person stress string bad events one another reached past breaking point stuck tonight alone feeling like garbage eating tub ice cream writing this im hoping get past reaching otherwise going disaster wish worth one person know literally worst kind craving since feel cannot satisfy it gun drawer might well free live regret inside me alone none else existence merely waste space none even notice gone things might get better say all you someday find someone im fucking ugly none even acknowledges existence you could try praying becoming faithful things change already seen abandoned forgotten thrown aside ditch rot rest days try distract nothing entertains long even things used fun longer appeal me spend day bed appetite eat much might well,1 movie ive seen prince matter thought great singing boy wrong probably best performance music great thats oscar best music movie or something like that oscar grammies belt although cursing gets way film just make sure little kids room much say without revealing plot really go get movie collection complete unless got movie it else could possibly say except go get movie now,0 friends sister a moves back mom b slips drugs b invites man c paid sex mom b b know happened next dayjust story might get complicated follow adrug abusingpimp day daughter bthe mom canonymous man dmy friend quiet time friend finds ill call d tells confirmed followup conversation b weekend super worried b bmomis constantly blacked drunk weeks friend would interject im friend defined someone hearing story second hand seen first hand mother drinking beginning early afternoon reaction friend d getting quietly mad hearing increased drinking seems brought raping event ,1 someone message im bored wanna talk someone dont mind talk numbers game send dm,0 basically discussion repeatedly insulted people disagreed get angry insulted people back banned sub suspended old account feels really shitty essentially ganged kicked community nothing polite whole discussion transgendered actually grammatically correct say guess mods like said technically insult banned one fending insults makes feel alone think nobody wants anywhere nobody wants all think taking meds every pill find house once feel suicidal internet bullying like child,1 even ur getting pleasure life live it youre playing game youre going lose eventually its called death gonna die anyways put effort sustain lifeim tired shit everyday even im good mood dont want keep living know future holds get job work years find hobbies interests make friends relationship on question is whats point gonna die anyways dont wanna live til im id rather die young least drugs kill me im playing boring game called life want early didnt ask here forced stay alive planet earth whoever made planets solar systems etc clearly whoever made humans life wanted us live here im playing rules ill kill teach god whoever made reality game life shitty fuck clouds fuck mountains fuck animals fuck everything beautiful things simply distractions true reality death im going distracted consumerism materialism bullshit things called hobbies interests simply call distractions truth,1 big shoutout uwhy helped bunch math last night,0 "@bittertwitta oh no, the site is fine - my addiction to it is the scary part. lol! that'd be great ",0 everybody s trying to feel ok about themselves otherpeople mentalhealth selfhelp depression anxiety,1 life probably best ever finally got friends rely on well school starting new job everything could want yet still want die feel like nothing ever going make happy point life going great still want die,1 yeah!!! Mr Rain finally paid a visit!!! It's so much cooler now ,0 nothing left bye guy hope life give you what you want because it didn t for me,1 wish people considerate feelings always get fuck house break in never hows fuck house break in,0 jdpeterson hope you feel better why cali,0 could find house called mom said had to hide itnext week probably ask water might drink much poison apparently cannot even take aspirin,1 john leguizamos one man shows hit miss mambo mouth showed intense characterizations great timing material average spicorama accomplished former well time material funny freak classic followed disappointing sexoholic stuff freak showcases genius hes spotlight hes without peerbr br freaks semiautobiographical look journey young man power resonance think even creator knew about allowing us chance see soul mr leguizamo gives us opportunity project life onto greater gift performer give willingness drop the wall expose share terrifying actorsthey use characters hide behindbut jl goes fullthrottle gleefully smashes pretenses lenny bruce richard pryor best cultural observerscomediansactors spoke heart whatever noticed society truth provided slashing humor combine great actors gift mimicry inthemoment not mention sense humanity see john leguizamo power same least freak doesbr br from birth first big break every life altering moment between viewer sees host characters private moments experiencing pain hope humor comes with looking drained lean muscledtight jl ringing sweat evenings end offered crazy life audience spike lees fluid camera work captures actors nuances last lip curl slow blink scenarios range drinking machismofueled father when seeing chorus line gay deaf uncle first girlfriends vicious humiliation strips naked eager sex nightmarish first sexual encounter large german woman back kentucky fried chicken follows unsuccessful attempt pick drunk lapsed catholic bar stpattys day climaxing serious showdown mother father shows true genius plays scene two characters brother strong dramatichumourous intensity forget watching one person theres costume changes bad wigs lighting tricks makeup actor giving all simply amazingbr br other actorscomedians stand right eddie izzard chris rock dive deeply john leguizamo does thats criticism long shot love work freak different moving nob way best one man show one able touch long time,0 beyond salvationwhilst nothing inherently wrong sanity excessively deteriorating withering away every mental breakdown endure lack social connections long history depression well suicidal thoughts led extremely destructive environment ive developed psyche long grueling years longer appropriate sense self true self since long buried deep identity manifested endless tribulation consumed being im far gone diagnosed psychotic depression years ago first attempted redflag put medication happy pills pointless therapy sessions never mend external complications im introspective person many years contemplation self reflection ive come know ins outs mind ive insight gain people held proper conversation anyone years now im alone world time nearing end im since long ago desensitized idea redflag question never seem able find answer question im still here guess im hoping miracle come save me,1 starting today im cutting everyone life make easier end itive wanted end long one thing stopping friends im private feelings know exactly im going know end least sons feel couldve done more couldntve theyve done everything know that starting today im gonna messaging people checking messages going out many going uni next month theyre gone ill gone well hopefully hit hard now,1 want die want stop livingi know im feeling im tired alive wish could fall asleep never wake up think ill anything wish could done all hate waking every morning realizing everything good dream think ill ever reach it,1 OMG I fixed my iPod! ,0 go assistance committing redflaglooking subreddit website dark web forum anything anyone wants provide help someone talk fuck off,1 is waitin for th break down service a somethin fallen of my car i ve got my hot water bottle with me feel such a twat,0 tried kill yesterday told try againhi sw ive considered posting times before want seem like attention whoring people cope different ways im trying get depression out there sometimes easy know someone listened regardless theyre internet stranger not yesterday im dealing parents get fightargument mother says we want life anymore go roof jump off face first dunno guess fully expecting die jumping roof maybe try higher well get that prepared lol land entire body practically seizing up arm hurts leg head stomach back get manage walk back door locked slam it mother come unlock crying saying i take er calls dad left mins prior mins later comes in calls idiot fucking moron says try again jump second story window time concrete hell even help swear god happened rthathappened still cussing mother laughing idea leaves again hour later comes back says stuff hes staying good time try play attention also tried kill years ago took sleeping pills ready too still now really looking answers anything rambling thanks reddit e mighta probably used different account post on one less i know might be oh well also edit add something going back jump second time afterall succeed first time soencouraging would have hurt bad still right now drugs could use pill right lol idk maybe thanks dirt splitting skull open maybe not lots thoughts still running head,1 posting something nice get girlfriend day playing friends discord thats probably good thing happened today least so hope good day far really like online diary thing especially nice responses far thank guess cya tomorrow teens,0 pa moracchini la boucle c est ca gt bonne pr pa parce que mec intelligent gt gros cv gt taff d bile ultra bien pay gt d pression parce que gar trop conscient gt se venge de tout ca en tant z l jouissances toxiques gt coinc en enfer,1 sort like primitive episode general hospital set natal ward and one tough cases that fastmoving programmer satisfying emotional impact mainly eric linden distraught young husband main plot palpably wreck good reason expectant wife loretta young brought ward beginning year prison sentence offing lecher probably coming him ms young always anything disinvite audience sympathy little good true though sympathetic lovely look at course difficult pregnancy relationships girls ward form heart movie outcome entirely happy one feels right aline macmahon one cinemas perfect actresses apt words film historian david thomson exudes warmth authority head nurse glenda farrell nonetoowilling new mom twins gets croon frankie johnny drunken lullaby frank mchugh figures another subplot gets show range warners usually permitted him scaled paced modestly lindens expectantdad panic stays days sort part often played laughs hes terrified young kid trouble persuasive,0 ayo leave aight used crush dude bio classes quite talkative sweet funny lot things common asked out excited get go first date someone really like buuuut actually got know himjesus hes expected all brags anything literally anything mind bragging brags cheating someonehe makes lot lewd jokes im dark humor jesus christ things said took ice cream shop thingy im introverted digress skating rink fun kinda made feel safe kinda knew skatebut honestly feel like right person me,0 wanna kill rejection stupidfor first time life fell love girl amazing nice caring pretty intelligent she state competition architectural design good person general fell love girl actually got pretty close emotional standpoint things finally started looking me ive dealt anger issues depression since child self esteem pathetically low girl changed me finally found someone bring best me happier person her finally got courage ask prom said yes condition would friends i however really wanted ask planned prom even asked sister permission bombshell gets dropped lesbian really bother first accepted supported her slowly started creeping conscious started getting really depressed stopped talking her spent summer sleeping eating working time went outside working driving bowling even friends anymore mostly fault one stopped talking knows wanting kill mutual friend told her reached me cant fall love again wanna fall love again,1 dusk in newport http://sml.vg/wUNpku,0 tf girls confusing like told crush like her said ready relationship wanted stay friends keeps gazing im class super confusing,0 hit lick im broke af rn need cash this need good methods,0 ZOMG I just figured out I can finally upgrade my phone to the iPhone :] I'm excited now Anyone else use the term ZOMG? Reply with ZOMG ,0 finished drawing going post it realized pictures weekends rip its anything super impressive dumb little __ character use represent myself,0 tell go scheelp please help scheelp motivating actually attempt lie sleep probably work please,0 love life left mehi cant say much right now im freaking out boyfriend left me completely random blocked everything closure fucking confused kind thought losing love idea would come leaving without warning frozen words never loved somebody much honestly asked anyone better want die im afraid consequences want back needed him im heartbroken never going forget him honestly point know life anymore hence death feels like option absolutely words miss fucking much,1 reasons stay alive personal collectionsince feeling better moment use momentum collect things enjoy could deter commiting redflag listening rachmaninovs nd piano concerto watching dancing stars mum watching house md mum play niece nephew play zelda breath wild kiss woman sex use log happily accept suggestions,1 mery chris hapy day holy,0 chances surviving hang yourselfi might thinking could day dont want suddenly survive get brain damage something like that got kind worn rope tough enough pull car place ill hang made steel guess going break rope ceiling skinny ft tall guy chances fail this,1 got argument someone sub said i bet also want unisex section stores said whats problem respond,0 slice wrists againjust took mg xanax im third strong drink see happens want ketamine infusions might safe life entire savings would gone week trial probably fail im ending soon may alwad say that mean it fuck,1 "@druidDUDE WAIT WHY DID I PUT THAT! aahhaha, sorry kevin. But you ARE a very cute piece of furniture! <3",0 spielbergs first dramatic film letdown beautifully made film without flaws life africanamerican woman also proves movies africanamerican ethnicity center story helmed africanamerican directorbr br what love movie spielbergs ability make realistic despite fact based book furthermore danny glover excellent mr usually hes throughout movies this completely branches someone else once but performance de resistance whole film comes whoopi goldberg excellent celie never forget characters seen moviebr br now heard musical version going film well say is hope good one is one film missed,0 things say today smu vs tulane byu vs houston astros vs rays u all great day,0 someone take blue cheese smells bad want it,0 brendamew no art tomorrow and nice to see you ve joined twitter,0 passed out last night while mum wa puttin cream on my tattoo,0 day random questions something immature think parents do,0 react first learned santa fucking real devastated eat sleep three straight days,0 2 days of school left this week and im beyond excited for saturday!!!! ,0 for the past year and a half i ve had constant tiredness fatigue and just haven t felt like myself i used to be pretty active always working on project excited about life for the last year and a half i just feel like a shell of myself tired and meh i m also hungry constantly i ve seen my doctor and a few different specialist and had plenty of blood work done including thyroid and everything ha been normal no sleep apnea no anemia no lyme my doc said we have essentially ruled out most if not all straight up medical cause of fatigue beyond the possibility i m just not getting good sleep due to underlying stress or anxiety hard for me to tell how well i m sleeping not waking up refreshed but i m in bed for hr a night i ve begun to wonder if i m simply depressed since everything else ha kind of been ruled out i don t feel very sad and i don t feel hopeless i don t lack the motivation to do all the thing i love i just feel too tired or lazy to do them but i really want to be my old self again if i could snap my finger and have my energy back i d do it in a heartbeat how do i know if i m depressed,1 crashingits getting point cant hold together anymore ive high functioning years becoming much reason ive lived long want hurt loved ones getting point cant even take care anymore ive become adult infant brain fucked up sure im really lucky people love me honestly makes feel shittier long run feeling miserable do ive really good putting mask long starting crumble motivation get better point honestly get point enough freedom make death look like accident want anyone think anything could done save me want spend last time making everyone feel loved special want donate things need create inspiring story travel healing helping others gathering community want death traumatic others want hearts full happy memories want feel loved cared for tired confined physical body tired hurting badly feel defected maybe trauma maybe drugs ive done cope maybe is feel completely drained deteriorated know keep going anymore cant even think work without panic attack physical symptoms anxiety causing basically bedridden im broke fuck taking parents resources love want help feel far past level able ever get better continues cycle feeling shitty feel powerless,1 award first comment post yeah leave comment filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 ooops just ate a panini from w mart cold that say it needed to be thoroughly cooked it didn t taste raw i die nao from f poisoning,0 cognitive function declining much time left im catatonic vegetativeive making rounds telling friends im going kill myself theres trend understanding decision couple days ago started trouble balance speech starting slur today needed help navigate menu called medicaid ill probably need caretaker soon window functional enough end life closing feel doctors still monotonously shrugging shoulders issue treating like number think dealing heart issues years would real struggle prisoner body unable lot things panic attacks schizophrenia came normal day me adapted peyronies hit dicks still process painfully shriveling scar tissue especially rough worrying future love life relationships hoping have still managed least still future now im sure thing going brain much like dead alive cant experience world anymore process beauty understand im empty shell useless soul it id almost believe god seems like universe get me making life progressively worse time torturing me always thought things get worse started laughing would actually happen expect it predictable bizarre absurd maybe thats gives comedic value really want friend go knowing way things ill probably die alone room ever wanted held everything would been would okay someone would hold me,1 @richardepryor come share ma pop corn ,0 robin williams national treasure specially cuts loose puts aside maudlin approach drama manages liven usual restrained pacing barry levinson moments film truly shinesbr br as funny elected american president man year williams recaptures hilarity outrageousness used associated him makes appealing humanity likability man lash audience truly loves them too humour like barbed wire yet cathartic makes appealing people film real lifebr br laura linney portraying intelligent woman distress fabulous talented performer think boxed stereotype unfortunately would interesting less recognizable performer case walken pretty much walks thankless role climatic scene snl skit barely floats waterbr br go hilarious moments priceless enjoy williams forget deep moments slow otherwise entertaining movie,0 planning kill semesteri feel like living wasted first two years engineering classmates ml cp whatnot wasting time like idiot think get job offers coming developing country average guy sucks tried finding interests move past even basics tried couldnt finding way make easier parents deserve waste space suggestions would welcome gun laws strict country buildings higher floors,1 i feel like i ll never get a girlfriend i m i also have a genetics disorder i feel like no woman will ever want me because of it i don t think you can tell i have it but i feel once i tell them that they won t want me i ve been feeling really depressed about it and i m scared to talk to woman so that doesn t help,1 feel bad got act first really excited know good score thinking little feel like standardized testing unfair people study test peers working assets off got good scores yeah feel like deserve do also drive all idea want college want go may good grades good scores anything else put resume applications put effort leader passion projects also good work habits feel super unprepared life college basically going good academics makes fee super pressured go high level university want easy life easy job guess ask guys recommendations use good test scores like scholarships do feel like could waste lot potential money lazy senior year,0 tell dadive feeling worse every day pretending parents everything fine taken toll me sleep time force wake sleep hours get less hours whole body feels awful fantasize throwing traffic jumping buildings hate life hate fact hard time forming relationships anyone relationship family siblings friends close hate one go to feel like dont home feel like ive tried wont let get close anyone ive joined clubs sorority volunteer places feels like form group im part of family life sucks too mom alcoholic extremely delusional dad another country honest one closest family however never around life know everyone given fair circumstance hate cant even feel independent feel trapped home time area live public transportation walking takes hours make plans someone pick take home want go shopping ask someone want go grocery store ask someone asked father car get one old happy it let mother drive totaled it i car months destroyed brother speculated mother crashed purposely would force father buy brand new car believable delusions father rich secret family much story dont want long im currently university financial aid feel like taking time off however problem would pay financial aid given well loans know family afford pay back im really happy here also seen psychologist psychiatrist months dont feel much better,1 know one cares mixed favorite oons videos together httpsstreamablecomiegc,0 "I can't relate at all to #relatable depression jokes atm. Where my manic bitches at,"" where's the relatable Inappropriately Excited & Chaotic content & the reaction images for the """"I'm drawing 5 pics simultaneously at 3am while thinking of what dumb shit I HAVE to buy next"""" mood",1 new feature encourage useyou go someones u page drop menu allow give help support probably use time help normally,1 hello lads im bored hell anyone wanna talk make playlists yea spend free time kdsjjdjsjdkshsalfnshghh,0 laying wrists cut open struggling feel anything all many nightskill really okay dying,1 going finally itim finally going im finally going go this little info me im recently divorced working trying good citizen however im convicted count criminal mischief worth damaging exs car separation im also charged count criminal mischief worth count stalking worth one year jail count nd degree trespassing worth year jail urinating exs car early morning work charges misdemeanor offenses dont want go jail im starting finally turn life around put me wont go jail know karmas way getting back ive done wrong long terrible past cant this wont im going accept defeat finally let everyone else win know might terrible friends family may care im screwed im going admit end save court attorney family friends ex wife trouble thinking worrying me time finally go save everyone huge burden,1 please give reason livebut like genuine reason make want get bed want something worth living for please,1 im think im done alreadyi feel like choice adult world seems impossible scary part of im like anyone know family oblivious ive feeling since middle school feel lost like many responsibilities idea handle never even childhood ask point even trying fix everything im body aches stress feel everyday scared drive get job even make friends feels like im late many ambitions ill let someone else dream up obviously wasnt supposed one go them dont know else say dont know reach to im scared might actually carry real soon used feel confident wasnt like people resorted redflag want close eyes different life know wonderful experiences there reach end day finally find wtf side whether ghosts real dream something scary af hate cutting chase way,1 this guy and i have been dating for exactly a year the last few day he ha been angry at me because he doesn t like that i sleep and stay in bed all day he yelled at me and told me to do something about my unhappiness on friday night he came into the bedroom and told me that he s sick of my lying in bed all day and always cancelling plan on him then saturday morning he opened the bedroom curtain and i told him to shut them he yelled at me and said that it s a nice day and that i need to see it i came out of the bedroom later and we ended up having sex then i went back to bed how do i dump him,1 "New2Trip: Depression Induced by Total Mastectomy, Breast Conserving Surgery & Breast Reconstruction: Systematic … http://bit.ly/2K7B8Ta ",1 pretty bad singing hey school stressful httpswwwsmulecomrecordingjubyphonicpianoverlostonesweepingenglish_httpswwwsmulecomrecordingjubyphonicpianoverlostonesweepingenglish_ i part singer stars singing so good numbers,0 just scored a $70 (pre-fees) ticket for Elton John & Billy Joel tonight $95 total ticket much better than $300 ;),0 @ThomasShaped yaldi. Big twist in this episode ,0 "Picking up Marie, then heading out to SB for Jubilee Srvc. X-pecting gr8 things 2nite!!!! ",0 it is incredible how much your own mentality can manipulate you the thing is that every day i feel alone and much more alone and with many thought the thing is that i have friend who support me daily but i don t understand why my mind make me think and feel that i am alone and that there is no one else everything that can affect just your mentality is very fucked up,1 forced learn foreign language understand lot good things learning another language also going we going continue education past high school forget it think,0 dm truth dare question matter is answer,0 whats closest youve ever gottento actually it,1 Great two days off!!! ready for a fabulous day tomorrow!!! Lol ,0 "@BlueeLuong hey, it's all facts. AHA. But yeah, we should drink together someday when you come up here in the bay ",0 cant help myself think ima kill myselffuck life honestly im know im young think hope feel like ive done everything everything fails ive diagnosed ocd clinical depression social anxiety disorder potentially adhd ive seeing psychiatrist back suck misdiagnksed bipolar give wrong medications made hallucinate zombie weeks im glad stopped might end worse problems father allow going another one believes brain im one control it tried meditating everyday x day exercising exposure nothing helps parents pretty ignorant mental health mom understands really understands im going thru tired shit one help cant even help myself everything overwhelming everything hard me nothing enjoyable cant concentrate easily bored cant retain shit social life failing classes feel like life taken away me even music thats passion enjoyable now losing hope basically suicidal know option think killing myself,1 alright im simply curious part body no groins boobs find attractive ampxb i need specify cause yall horny hell,0 want sea want drown peoplemy friend suicidal exhausting yes needs help support always expects get it talk parents get therapist call fucking hotline dump every fucking time really friends whod listen im starting understand why care cant deal practically week burning out even supposed tell him everything complains true yes one likes one cares whether live die exception people maybe yes fat ugly yes unable keep even stupid min wage job yes failing school yes life pointless meaningless theres nothing that sends pics gun tells brain going wall makes feel like hostage helpless afraid leave wants talk listen broken record story night till am hes drunk enough pass out sleep hours afford it hes unemployed give fuck school i hand wake function well hours sleep all think im reaching point soon burnt out tired sleepdeprived enough tell go it almost convinced would best option him anything improve situation change anything makes depressed cant care anymore chipping away remains sanity,1 need someone considers himher self socially competent want ask questions experiencei seriously dont know right place ask im mentally unstable im steps away killing myself,1 "@bahree Can't be any worse than those humongous HTC things you used to have. ;) Besides, no-one ever calls me so it's a moot point. ",0 nothing seems real feel empty today broke tears decided go home citalopram point point life literally empty go feeling numb overwhelmed snotty crying mess i pathetic ridiculous want end burst tears work today feel like going absolutely insane,1 im scared live im scared dieim twelve years old rn want tell guys something started high school last year yr im yr now corona sucks wby guys started bullied even high school primary schoolit started get thisical i remember spell it grammar police help asked parents let move another school avail refused felt embarrassed show emotions public its like awhile happens even now trying get hide bad emotions eg sad know do still feel feel like killing year later its bad now dad going get kitten so wish luck get faze,1 it just make me happy over and over again i wish i wan t afraid to fly http tinyurl com skpp,0 eminem we made you is gawbage rosci imma cop asher roth s album instead fuck em on his quot as like that quot flow,0 im fucking tired everyone else wantsevery fucking day every fucking second people treat like shut im fucking tired body respecting me need something me start acting nice dont give shit theyre god damned obnoxious admit wrong selfish little bastards dont give shit me hope fucking die hope get kill them want suffer way make suffer swear god im close saying fuck shooting someplace swear god wont respect me ill make respect me,1 want take anna elsa play carnival games mean thats idea fun,0 i have never thought i d reach my 0 cuz since my early year i have been suicidal my life ha always been the worst i wa given the worst family my parent were when i wa born they were totally unable to raise a kid yet they decided to keep their pregnancy being a teen parent in a country where abortion is 00 legal since 9 is at least a huge stupidity i don t even have to say that my childhood and teenage year were creepy i went still do through need i had the worst and cheapest toy basic clothes the cheapest cell phone etc people are like forget about the past and focus on the present how do y all think it s easy to forget about poverty no it s not i can t forget all the humiliation abuse and privation i had to go through i m now totally hopeless still suicidal and i m pretty sure death is the only thing that can take my pain away and sooner or later i ll end up a a suicidal person i ve already tried to wait and see if thing get better but nothing changed thing get easier for a short period of time and then get unbearable again i just hope i die soon and all my pain fade,1 heres girlfriend requirements fat ass ,0 hi everyone gad gets much strongerprevalent enough sleep coincidentally also makes unable sleep sometimes kinda like vicious circle normally really many problems started new fulltime job lot responsibility triggered insomnia subsequently underlying fears doctor prescribed xanax whenneeded last resort since really scared withdrawaladdiction reading drug its called xanax alprazolam started taking mg night really breaking down,1 @SweetCaroline04 They do deserve it hehehhe,0 or i am the only one with that,1 watching who framed roger rabbit make me miss toon town,0 cough accidentally break rule another subreddit someone messaging me replying messages reread rules realized completely skipped one we allow people request offer solicit encourage express openness to ask others message them blocked them so report mods leave it,0 tried open suicidal thoughts one seems really careim preexisting mental health issues lost job car house last months lost job covid substitute teacher car bad transmission cant afford fix roommate wanted boyfriend could move in said yes latter cant even stand anymore cant afford rent own told boyfriend yr ive mental health problems think need seek help im ready tell plan redflag response didnt need therapy needed get job like job suddenly going make interested life again problem ive applying jobs everyday havent able get call back jobs available cashiers hardware stores teacher two degrees interest diy really dont see cure changing outlook life hate retail workers all know working hard months ago would feel like massive step back anxiety bad hard time talking people instantly cry start trembling im uncomfortable situation even talking insurance phone cause severe panic attacks doesnt exactly make great candidate customer service retail makes burden everyone around me boyfriend backed living me saying wasnt enough room house anymore move parents dont good relationship dad told ive never happy domestic violence ive witness growing up unfair pressure felt dad life overall situation right now decade ive wanted end life never guts it im afraid anxious ever thoughts intrusive theyre constant even plan place it think time it find me id need carry deed theyre response im acting like year old living nightmare ive two days spent room bothering anyone except maybe could hear crying ear door cant help feel like giant nuisance everyone nobody really seems care think im serious feel like im joke,1 love show watch reruns every day even though seen like time eachbr br its two sisters holly amanda bynes val jennie garth live new york holly goes live val dad transferred japan val perfect life boyfriend perfect apartment upper east sidebr br the show basically shows problems vall holly go through main problem guys also responsible life choicesbr br holly total free spirit val complete opposite organized plan anything kind personbr br the characters henry vince gary lauren tina,0 someone need to give this baby a home i would but it s a bit too soon http tinyurl com dzbppd,0 @givemebargains We're not talking rain here. We're talking TORRENTS! ,0 Jake left. Taco bell now. ,0 im tiredi dont know much deal with im tore wanna go soon,1 ventingi expect response wanted get feelings out tried commit redflag year ago hear people talk feelings gratitude survive feel dead inside feel grateful feel hopeless ever whole year kind gone by speak people rarely call family anywhere work longer remember cant another years this successful first time least family would year mourning moved now know do tbh pray everyday something happen me im nearly done im even supposed alive still here fucking hate it,1 is home with mom today just baked a cake hopefully going to make banana bread miss you babe xoxox,0 my boyfriend and i broke up recently he say to not count on u getting back together it hurt so much now my only hope in life is that this cut is truly infected and that it kill me i don t want to hear the it get better stuff nothing will life ha always been hard for me and losing him is too much to handle don t know why i m posting i guess i just want someone to make the tear go away so i can sleep and hopefully never wake up,1 kinda sickening mayor city caught covid people celebrating streets,0 random memories flashing head dayjust random memories life always happens im lowest wonder people remember kill myself,1 wait judge ironically killed family free go,0 feeling nothing worse feeling sadi want feel something ive never known like this want escape fucking prison cant brain this cause chemical imbalance makes want kill itself it please let feel something want want feel,1 idk even trywhy havent given turned alcohol die like dads side family did around see smart people me dumb motherfucker online college accounting first assignment already struggling hard remember everything smart good math ill study like hours day think meanwhile someone else breeze by everything fucking difficult me especially bad depression anxiety yrs wont go away joke ill also die forever alone zombie surviving long,1 this is beautiful but now i also have depression,1 "@klopstock Agreed. My computer is my servant, _not_ the other way around! ",0 Learn more about your #mentalhealth issues and concerns with #themoodcards http://bit.ly/moodsbox2  #letstalk #headstogether #psychology #depression #anxiety #stress pic.twitter.com/r0DQ3GOF6f,1 life is just not for me it seems to be working out great for literally everyone else i m supposed to sit around and wait for better day or a miracle to happen what is the point my life ha 0 meaning no relationship no friend no accomplishment just emptiness im tired of living i m tired of being alone hating everything about myself my life wondering why god gave me this life just to sit here and be miserable for year meanwhile everywhere i look is family couple smile thing that i wanted but will never achieve and i give up i ll be happier gone than i ever experienced alive and the most sad part is no one will ever know i m gone i even feel stupid and sorry for myself posting this i am not looking for sympathy or anything just needed to get that out there,1 anyone figured get discord open everytime run computer ima bout uninstall bitch swear god filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 plan a run alone city wait nighttime get kidnapped whatever happens happens optionally wear revealing clothes possibleplan b attempt run away again get physical cops hopefully physical enough shoot me optionally weapon sortplan c brutally reject incel may kill himselfmotive constant thoughts financial andor emotional burden parents due autism specifically extreme meltdowns become part plan a addition believe unconditional love exists understand still love everything done even started openly looking groomers again even work well fuck plan b c,1 old vaudeville team willy clark walter matthau al lewis george burns one best known broke hating other years later agree get together tv specialbut find still hate other willys nephewagent richard benjamin tries get work togetherbr br a big hit day george burns oscar best supporting actor somewhat liked it written neil simon nonstop oneliners funny making jokes willy als senility not also never liked matthau never thought good actor something rubbed wrong way also character caustic get sick quickly aside fun burns great tossing oneliners ease even matthau good matching him verbal battles best sequences movie also benjamin good willys nephew trying get two work other worth seeing burns alone jump started career big way two years later another hit oh god so good goodnot great matthaus character really makes hard love give ,0 renee okie dokie do you wan na ask ash and tegan and yasmin i asked nicole but she said she cant,0 everything is still broken,0 hi everyone i m going to tell about my thought i m not fluent in english so maybe it will have a lot of mistake but that s a reason for it first i m joining this community cause i can say what i m thinking without no one knowing cause my parentsand my gf dont talk in english second i ve been searching about how to suicide and my first reaction wa panic i wa depressed today a still look the same thing but i m not anxious or feeling panic actually i m really calm about it i don t know if it s courage or cause i m weak or i maybe i just accepted my destiny i hope you all get by through this cause i m not able to handle it anymore nice to met you all and goodbye sincerely matcordeiro,1 guysjust pretend get along friends idk thatthey talk things cant relate dk like smile throughout whole conversation lookwherethe groundtheir faces find staring little way intense kinda get freaked little stop itwhen laughi force laughi also cant seem talk certain topics want talk like really feelto bcs relationship carefree joking aroundso cant talk serious things themour senses humour dont match kinda miss old friends cuz got along way better current friends maybe im tiredthey arent bad people sometimes feel like theyre really real friends,0 i m a year old girl and my best friend took her own life a few month ago i rly tried to live without her honesty i mean ok i ve tried to die after that but then i put in a real effort to live without her she suffered before she died she wa just a little girl not even a teenager i just can t do it i tried but i don t want to live in such a unfair world without her i ve had nightmare nonstop my brain is torturing itself after what happened my brain want me to kill myself and end the torture so i need to do it feeling nothing is so much better than being tortured i think everyone would agree i m gon na do it rly soon cuz idk how much more torture i can take,1 lenesha but im not feeling well mommy,0 whats favourite song need new music kinda tired playlists rn ik might faq need recommendations lol,0 dont feel rightokay realized mentally unstable im scared scary everything life repetitive like boring exhausting really want end change wake up go schoolwork eat sleep again ive tried sports shit keep head repetitive game always comes back point im it thats life im officially tired cant more,1 app wish existed so watching d animated show playing d videogame use filters d models make look like theyre another thing yes use modding videogame case would amazing,0 hey you yes you looking good today filler filler furry filler filler,0 person make better cant thattldr make happy know fact ill never that im hopeless im making feel worse many things im im lazy want lie bed day stress builds stress paralyzes inaction even stress piles im digging hole im making worse ruining life end day fix myself get things done get life order make happy know fact cant that im lazy tired cant focus anything anyone myself im pathetic ill never able find fix even still here stay miserable inevitably kill road im incapable helping nothing ever able fix me me thats scary ill never able help myself cant know fact cant wont im wasting many peoples time reaching dont believe single kind word say dont follow advice im lazy try even started,1 sometimes im cringy person dont stop talking also make lot jokes end talking time me especially around girl like embarrassing idk ppl shy opposite problem overshare gotta take deep breath lol,0 topic applying apply something dont want write want,0 tupac born s bruh didnt even know old like wth,0 going open burger restaurant name aspergers im gonna make restaurant serves burgers named aspergers,0 give good timeive social anxiety forever makes hard awkward talk people pair low selfesteem im basically spectator conversation everyone realizes torments knowing parents hate say theyre gonna send away rehab cant stay fucking clean head plagued suicidal thoughts every time like goto solution me instead actually solving situation lay bed think somewhere tie stab im much unmotivated shit fix problems nothing fun never find reason get bed morning go pop fucking pills fuck xanax feels good confident person ive always wanted be everyone school knows pop pills im known crackhead guy deep know redflag answer straight born life constantly battling brain want live maybe im edgy year old one thing assure life going nowhere anyway besides drugs gonna kill anyway sure im gonna today one days know mean mom screamed called fucking disappointment might go get tonight im sure shed happy one less bourdon hands,1 ive said ill say eating pussy elite know personally still elite,0 alonei wake feeling sad go sleep feeling sad repeat try things take medication like should days go social things days go dr therapist days always start end way friends alone apartment probably ruined college ruined relationships alone tired building crash think time fell far think killing almost constantly,1 fairly happy right everything going fine still want shoot head really think still wishing dead know really ruining mood going make actually want kill myself cannot stop think it want feel happy stay happy still want kms even though happy,1 drink water think im dehydrated heres reminder drink water oh also remember eat forgot day horrible headache final piece wisdom sleeppp morning refeweti speelimg spelling errors occurred tiredness regretting life choices,0 ok i have social anxiety i m actually quiet smart however when i m in social situation the anxiety is so much my brain go to mush like simple thing like counting money etc is so hard because my heart is beating through my ear i also dissociate ha anyone else experienced this phenomenon when i m by myself i can do all these task easily but in front of people literally become an invalid like it hilarious how people dumb down thing for me sad but all you can do is laugh,1 hi guys story wrote english assignment tell think warning story quite dark standards vaguely mentions physical abuse enjoy the solution ampxb opened eyes didnt help couldnt see thing jolt fear ran me gone blind blinked times slowly could see vague shapes around me tried peer ahead fog gloom impeding vision saw appeared barren desolate muddy wasteland rotting trees looming beside me looked could see sun stars moon dark blanket clouds floating menacingly head descend upon crush me felt holding strange stick right hand looked hand realized wasnt holding stick knife sharp dagger precise dripping blood flung ground shock wiped blood hand onto pants frantically looked around me confused got hold weapon then second thought saw something ground little fog hand walked closer towards mysterious object yes hand hand whole body small girl lay ground arms legs splayed out couldnt older covered blood eyes wide open still unmoving horror staggered away body turned ran stopped again blood bodies piling top other ran again everywhere went found bodies still unmoving finally stopped dropped knees bodies around me felt like suffocating me knees saw dagger again done this could possible become monster slid ground prayed over suddenly huge thunderstrike sounding like gunshot woke sleep wait dream seemed real thought breathed huge sigh relief then almost took back looked around me remembering true reality situation sat up looking far wall bland dark stained wall looked around me walls looking almost identical felt cramped like walls closing me small dim light hanging ceiling home mind wandered thinking got horrible situation brought head take surroundings far end room could see tiny kitchenette appliances sitting bench gathering dust contrast wall behind almost sparkled dim light dozen knives stuck magnetic wall shining bright full moon glimpsed peeking small ivycovered window looking knives brings sense comfort took back childhood collecting knives hobby id spend hours cleaning them sharpening them arranging them escape outside world knife dream too didnt bring comfort felt uneasy almost scared might done kind fear ive feeling since childhood pushed feet walked unsteadily small alcove bathroom facilities were used sleeve sweatstained black hoodie wipe dust mirror peer mirror see holloweyed disheveled stranger staring vacantly back me let become creature staggered shower stripping clothes letting fall onto tiled floor turned water showerhead stuttered spit water out slow first strong flow water hit me stepped back weakened body unprepared sudden impact spray leaned spray temporarily enjoying feeling clean water running hair onto body water splashed onto face remember couldnt breathe greasy palms pressing neck grabbing hair muffled laughter barrier water separating us water continues flow crumple floor head hands flashbacks getting frequent still much done many lives saved innocents needed protection would protector never had needed finish project hair still damp dripped like blood dream shook away impatiently rubbed bloodshot eyes almost finished connected last wires carefully sealed glowing capsule inside airtight lead casing could fulfill purpose could save everyone inevitable pain anguish suffering life brings heaved sigh relief first time months allowed small smile linger haggard face took knife rack strapped side would need hands work first time months eased open door cringed loud creak checked hallway furtively one there dragged burden hallway grimacing unaccustomed weight arrived set creation pressed button done everyone free clutched knife close chest waited doubt lingered late go back become,0 hello game night server soon along vc anyone wants hop hmu fun promise hmu youre aye ages ty ,0 "@iaci Tare, deja sunt 10 gata s? o rezolve. 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",0 ready give up want get away this,1 @stabotage I'm all for sharing. ,0 think much think wouldim coming year relationship broke year ago much worse then really know else say except tell whole story thats long tedious miss much short version intellectual type met college nothing like girls hometown fucking idiots things girls going theyre deferential men theyd make good housewives nothing perfect us promised life thats part really kills me agreed knew long enough know others flaws look past them told type people say forever mean it didnt tells hopes fix issues next relationship joke knows promised made promise other made promise too promised forever actually meant it rest comments edit i know im writing this probably belong redflagwatch im going kill myself think nice would free pain way think of everything else temporary like many suicidal people think romanticize lot without really thinking nobody going give fuck kill yourself going miss lot cool shit,1 im tiredi took handful benadryl hydrocodone im sure much exactly threw little still feel woozy cut arm twice done like years wounds bad cuz hair scissors use need help mentally need outside people talk to life hard ever get easy ive depressed long remember since like least seems always get harder hate everything everyone lately im tired walked everyone emotions controlled people think ill try another attempt tonight im getting cat tomorrow hopefully shell cheer im scared im gonna get back habit cutting every day id rather stop together whether dying getting better,1 hate snapchat memories wave sadness years ago bf took date shared dessert stupid fckin snapchat remind,0 ive suddenly felt really downlike nowhere really want die im scared sin kill islam really want die feel really lost unmotivated cant stand living more really want die feel ungrateful nice family pretty decent grades good friends nice pet rabbit sad want happy hard,1 tomorrows dayive wanted die time now years life wasted wishing dead ive failed multiple times taking life hospitalized medication therapy name it couple days ago mother uncovered things never supposed know cant go detail bottom line is ive reached final breaking point new issues top everything else deal day day basis finally suffocated me ive wanted years tomorrow day im going go it dont want advice consoling want somebody know thank you reddit see side,1 Finally figured out what to do with my hair ,0 racism online sick tired racist things im seeing online everyone applauding saying theyre spitting straight facts im going say this white people privileged societyin america least lasting effects history saying white people racist saying want minorities would never say that people admit get offended movements like blm counter lives matter racist phrase racist agree lives matter motive behind racist also live place white people privileged compared minorities give you people color right mean seriously cool messed up white person gets offended insults fragile called human feelings minorities all know discrimination feels like matter small would another person,0 @eterna1dreamer She didn't pick up!!! I'm trying to escalate it to someone above her. Not gonna leave it that easy! ,0 theres pointim atheist british teenager see point life anymore family treat like im three year old dad nothing call dunce dimwit lifelong group three friends said face hang around feel sorry me one girl thought understood moved different continent born reason live reason perhaps dying reasoned thing stupid life,1 "Y'all can screengrab this and send it to your fave, idc. She's very toxic wethu sogqiba azimele nge depression.",1 ventingi know life perfect go bashing life saying much hate me get it words hurt im gonna get rid toxic person me im going kill myself,1 @FoxyOxymoron That is what we're here for. Glad I'm staying home waiting on a desk delivery that may or may not come. ,0 recently moved new city away people know love nights days get lonely almost feel life pointless point even slightest tasks something beat hours oh even get started night time feel thoughts creeping sends spiral emotions ill spend night crying sometimes cannot even find reason why people tell need reach find new friends people connect even know start redflag makes much harder needing advice,1 really must beyond hope somethingim sorry second post ill made three days im sure taking hint last time aroundhttpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsdioweit_doesnt_seem_like_anything_is_going_to_work im worth advice im truly beyond repair maybe end feeling depressed enough post wrong times day feel somewhat desperate though ive posted again ive spinning control even normal since car got stolen friday afternoon even ive hopeless helpless father others every often get frustrated conclude i understand must want enough get better even knowing need earn money particularly im ever going replace important possessions needed start pulling financial weight regardless enough shake constant depressive paralysis cant it ran problems wrong times life even right ill never able recover enough rate life worth living find existence sadly impractical,1 @moglet James' house ,0 fellow guitarist string ever popped playing mine,0 redflag helplines best worstless weeks ago ready die wrote note makeup nicely chose outfit last ready willing able im going put method anyway way came it full adrenaline hesitated knew hesitation could leave injured instead dead called helpline desperate originally give bravery see redflag through let help me told location police turned quickly taken ambulance locked days released week ago funnily enough problems disappeared today started considering attempting again called helpline all saved life last time time told woman phone want overdose says fake till make it need find something really love found purpose yet could help someone else instead thinking yourself thought want kill self tell thought leave considered barista course could go work waitress at point wtf silent talking would something look forward to right lady come fucking career advice idea one day becoming waitress going make kill right now want waitress think type job would make want live fact ready die talking future career going make even determined asks so going rest day today i told you kill myself but anything ive said helpful all i know sounding upset offended havent said anything thats made feel better this you audible gasp but makes feel like im good job shaky voice like going cry seriously want comfort right now starts breathing weird like going hyperventilate want deal shit hung up rude person woman really right person working redflag helpline going get butthurt random life advice going talk suicidal person ledge fair made angry enough distracted redflag now,1 "Ain't no sunshine when she's gone..." I'd say that's a great song to have stuck in your head ,0 classmate serious depression better find annoying see half girls class acting fucking depressed compliments attention actual problem people face people taking seriously please know anyone tell stop sonething need adress,1 try im going end dying anywayi could try try try life might succeed or could die right never worry ever again become successful im going die end anyway ways ill get outcome bother trying,1 my childhood cat died in a horrible accident while no one wa in a room and i saw all the aftermath happen when i ran into the room i ve had anxiety of slamming door book heavy object in general ever since a few day ago my dad wa working on my car since it ha leak and the door were open our other cat are free to go outside and they were out and about since it wa nice well my dad got done working on the car and closed the door later he asks me to put the car in the garage i go and start the car open the garage and begin pulling forward just then i hear two raspy meow and all the blood rush from me i almost start cry i m hyperventilating i jump out of my car and check under the tire but no one is there my cat jump onto my dashboard from the backseat of the car i m so horrified at this point but begin to calm down knowing shes okay and that my dad accidentally locked her in the car for a little bit i m glad shes safe but ever since then i ve had nightmare of running over my cat with the gory imagery coming from my first cat death and those meow my cat voice is naturally like that but sounding more in pain and raspy i dont know why i m so scared i dont even want to drive anymore because of this i always double click my lock button before i unlock and get in so that my car beep and scare away anything my parent get mad at me for doing it in the morning i m so scared of another accident what do i do,1 situationfor years ive struggling suicidal thoughs cant kill myself know like live enjoy life time then every year so dip want anything sleep hours time still im tired cry nothing lose friends just want dissapear then again know want kill myself makes things worse i know do dip im in now going onfor months know why want selfdiagnose anything im scared go doctor im hopeless got boyfriend wonderfull tries support me hes losing patience want bother problems guys please anyone know how feel better again ive tried talk friends backed away ive got noone left noone understands need psychological help ive never much pain life everything seems miserable keep messing everything im bitch time moodyness notice ive done social dammage cant im up want sleep never wake again tldr feel miserable time need help cant kill myself cant stay emotional pain time,1 m wanna reconnect old friend f know not school actually temple really good friends time turned got crush started doin everything could accepts havent tell liked yet even opened facebook account instagram account could like talk herafter like months i think actually month courage like tell i told instagram like kinda told waitso also waited like months time started getting like protective towards whenever talks boy get jealous want talk onlyso month asked date told wait talked normal asked told wait again point really got fuck it moment started pressure i really regret this learned lessonwhenever chat would constantly ask dateand like weeks something finally rejected mei course sad iti even asked one last timeand told yesthen moved onwe started talking like normal friends againone day posted somehing story i dont remember posted something like question favourite number actually randomly typed i sleepy time like read properly blocked thati like bruh why time felt like lets forget move on everything got fucked up note happened im actually teen entrepreneur not trying brag like busy business life pointi heard moved new house my house near house thought maybe go house tell soryy time busy thingsso leaved heri didnt wanted disturb her this thing happened today right im mom gave like idk thing i really dk asked didnt like tellshe told give thing momso walked home knocked door thought mother come confident one came point really stuck didnt know speak herand fuckin hurtful thing ever heard life asked who youmy mind like bruh im friend reddit reconnect her like fuckin year since talked wanna reconnect really wanna know mistake did instagram really option blocked meso reddit please,0 hate people tell im innocent pureaside people know truly mean it like people say im like that plus things like kind caring understanding on say that reach unless first like im collective action figure people see certain distance never try interact im truly say try reach out think make others uncomfortable like someone told once people nice tell make feel like that understand cues leave im wanted always mess things up even theres chance would make new friends least friendly acquaintances always ruin everything like ive always done life living like this threated like porcelain doll many people except family remainng friends knowing im probably hateddislikedtolerated really hurts,1 think im donei think ill keep going would nice go talking someone ones it,1 i wish i have never been born funnily enough i wa saved by the doctor at least twice in my life i don t understand fate really there are were many more deserving people to live than i am now i have to clear all this mess that i ve created i need to get rid of take care of so many thing i don t want my family to face all these problem after my death i don t want anybody at work to know i did not even want to create this post but by writing it the pain becomes more bearable and i can focus on finishing the thing i need to do at least that is the plan but there is still such a long road ahead of me and the pain is so unbearable so relentless and suffocating i would really like to give up sooner and i can t i want to escape my mind and my feeling be somewhere else not to exist would be paradise,1 confused tiredi feel like havent felt anything months things arent even bad life right now dont know still want die feel like experience emotions day tell thats im supposed doing feels like mask havent cried forever used type person always crying dont even know describe current state cant get end it would never want inflict kind pain boyfriend parents know would blame themselves wish could die freak accident instead thoughts hanging head everyday,1 think girl likes well specific im sure like one weird roundabout way trying say it id post screenshots conversation cant,0 last min trip to Austin. woot! ,0 feeling like people abandon feeling alone like ill never someone cuddle withi get feeling people want abandon think peolpe abandoning ill want kill myself want people abandon ignore really want uncared for want kill every time think this im tired alone really want someone cuddle with ill never able actually find someone cuddle would want cuddle year old guy spectrum guess hopeless,1 bible true god says is god real bible says is checkmate atheists,0 Thinks motion city soundtrack needs to start recording already. ,0 college drain cannot see way outsecond college class failed stay school another semester gpa plummeted dreams going graduate school diminished used love studying started going downhill years college started feeling not good enough seeking help trying get depression graduating crawling toward finish line feel like accomplished nothing value win shitty academic record know thing keeps grounded boyfriend everything me tries hold up cant see decent future future would enjoy giving applying jobs live fact fucked entire life think move this think gets better,1 inner part hand dry flaking im confused,0 ok drank coffee still feeling sleepy smh,0 push boyfried awayi greatest boyfriend weve together half years taught better help myself recent years ive become mentally unstable anxiety eats like disease depression anger insurmountable times weve fought bit cant understand im unreasonable time ive gotten antidepressants since october occasionally ill get massive bouts anger stupidest things example going take laundry get done got upset able spend saturday together escalated fight lots insults slung primarily me cooled still frustrated sick it argued left close door fucking lost it want to did anger boiled took anything near threw door things broke heard opened door screamed fuck problem called psycho said know hell even come back person take much im fearing ive lost him fear causes shit pushes farther away awful person know that want over cant deal unpredictability anymore want end know way want suffer attached anymore want end give peace,1 half time live fantasy world want live reality realised thing keeping going forced confront reality today future looks bleak hopeless work like dog body old tired ill got new job due start soon want traumatised current one system allow even take couple months heal otherwise pay bills barely feel joy excitement anymore like thinking future thought last year spend alive actually brings comfort meant world,1 like knives like kinda unhealthy lmao hahahah masochist check ,0 really want die cant matter whatha im failure cant anything want matter is matter simple cant it best friend friend abandoned me bullied life lot people small group friends thought turns sometimes assholes causing trouble football games shit mention never cared alcohol problem one friend actually left me funny thing is said talk anytime weeks later stops answering calls way contact cos use social media anymore helped suicidal doubt decided stop talking willingly started change proud me alcohol problem either somewhat drunk everyday binged drink never felt addicted easy quit found reason reason gone want drink avoid pain,1 im little mad im trying change username instagram press done matter change something red comes bottom screen cant read says cause keyboard wont go,0 cannot describe color without saying name cant imagine new one without using names colors im writing am anyways happy new year,0 i had an interview for a new job today it s the th one i have had in two week even though i wa the only candidate that showed up they said they had their hope on someone else i am a grown person an i can t find a real job every interview i m just not a good fit this company reached out to me i feel like there is a sign that only other people can see that say i m trash i am unworthy i don t know what i m doing wrong but i know it s me i know i m the issue i am going to be stuck a white trash customer service agent till i self check out there is no other way out for me no one will miss me when i m gone an everyone will be better off with out me i feel selfish for being scared to go to hell that s what i deserve,1 derek 9 shwe 0 sweet that wa fun except it stretched my browser and i wa watching twit,0 way dying thinkkind obvious title idk lot say intake appointment clinic tomorrow get see therapist much less psychiatrist least another week know ill make long im empty shell human being debtors literally kicking doors down im scared answer phone ive let everything get control supposed dispose pills know redflag overdose sure thing fact one least sure things ive attempted before care little really care live die time haha anyway thx reading bothered,1 benpritchett goodness me how did you find me it s good to hear from you ben i still have your video game and book i apologize,0 just realized im talking to no one,0 @chughes0808 you are so cool - thanks! i guess i could have looked online ,0 QOTD: "Hey - I still haven't told you guys the story about the English Heritage fella and how he's lucky to be still alive!" @yawnerddn,0 want diei want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die wantto die want die want nm die want die want die want die want die want die want die wantto die want die want di want die want die want die want die want die want die want fie want die want die j esnt die want die qant die,1 thought plan recently doubts fails get situation even worse also need discreet idk pls help fool proof way,1 mom teammate life died suddenly unexpectedly father alone redflaged life loss handing things without will one person close me spends time present mess me unable communicated currently almost months somehow feel worse week death lot regrets relationship know human deserved life got given more hate knowing life went back nothingness born want die think ill reunited her want die without anymorei days shy shd days struggling tonight alternatively want drive away city turn phone day stop mourning daughter invisible girlfriend tired pet parent ill animals lawyers client executor etc truly believe ill take one day maybe ill give amount time had sometimes see make long though know love things loved passed even love foolishly gave lot heart others it energy want advice solutions thank reading mom died finding difficult keep living,1 reall extremely swag tho filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 please helpi feel like im losing mind im much pain need get city get world want pass peacefully badly cant hurt family like that cant take much longer though know do please help,1 "last GCSE today and then seeing the saurdays tonight, and wicked tomorrow! yaay. i can't wat till 3 xxx",0 im making game google slides heres link demo httpsdocsgooglecompresentationdvumffgbjkotuqqhdrykf_nismcm_gtcedituspsharinghttpsdocsgooglecompresentationdvumffgbjkotuqqhdrykf_nismcm_gtcedituspsharing demo new google slides adventure game new normal game decide want president baked beans computer mouse stuff happens,0 actually drugs get london kill withis deepweb,1 gf hit months first like title says gf hit months ive never happier shes longest healthiest relationship look forward many hopefully,0 here i am back again currently it s am and i m holding back what can only be described a a mental break from my roommate and this dude who s also sleeping over it s really wild how there s a grey area over expression of emotion it s like emotion are only cool to be expressed when it s convenient to others and every other time is just a complete drag on society and those around you,1 sick lifei friends bad relationship parents sister sick feeling depressed sad thought kill kill last week make move tomorrow day life aint me please say think parents care anything do,1 1st day of marathon training is done. I had a very good run and it was nice to actually have real people to run with ,0 beauty subjective well know im definitely subjective either,0 "@dnoxon Mine too! Small world, eh? ",0 homophobia likescame closet month ago cue closest friends drifited away me im met hate resentment getting point dont want leave house leave bed part wants end dont endure anymore hatred yet another part scared anything,1 @shanee21 I like the way it wrks ,0 working rite now but have a massive headache building and feeling very sick,0 "It's always the people who don't deal with anxiety & depression, speaking on ANXIETY & DEPRESSION. STFU ! ",1 gon na sound stupid a this happens to everyone but my daughter brought from daycare a nasty stomach bug i ve been puking my gut out and sitting on the toilet most of the day i m so tired but i can t sleep cause of the symptom i rapidly become so distressed my brain start to spin out of control and i want to end it all i m not capable to do it to be honest but man it is distressing i know after some sleep i ll be good but the current moment are atrocious i just can t focus on something else or clear my mind i should say i combine that to ongoing struggle with operational anxiety from the military every little thing push me to the edge,1 @brunais_cukurs so you went to the party ? ,0 r nails pink theyre pink af always makes look like like painted something idk like painted certain pink would probably look,0 my best friend amy is coming round today to i ve got to clean the house and i ve got to find my amp cable,0 my life literally soapopera point story full abandonment emotional manipulationabuse with physical abuse w former stepfather mine honestly remember longterm happiness got put meds shit therapist like one day afford anymore im depressed ive ever been parents shit therefore raised grandparents since covid came around said fuck that grandfather might die grandmother oxygen she was hospitalized thankfully home now ive already promised grandfather dies im going him ive honestly run reasons live hell might even end sooner keep nights like this whats point living makes miserable,1 "... And now we are in Wyoming. (By the way, TC finally agreed to think about naming one of our kids that .)",0 nikkiwoods exactamundo for some reason i think foxx is knocked out so idk what s gon na happen sorry,0 essay essay im worried one page come statistics would great fill quiz real quick questions one required thanks httpsformsgleznyevvbyckcoqmkhttpsformsgleznyevvbyckcoqmk,0 "@AnnaHill Doubg great, thanks! ",0 @peetahuja looking at a waterfall wont cure my crushing depression or my zero self worth or my crippling social anxiety ,1 whats deal gays attractive,0 mum wants houseobviously extra expletives interspersed here crux shouting wouldnt mind thought id done well today looked asd brother hours made stew coming work spent four hours fixing washing machine getting numerous cuts probably need tetanus jab blazing row erupted wanted wash morning announced last night apparently need mind reader sister also unaware nevertheless cut bath ten minutes could wallow hour perhaps im shallow wanted least thank unpaid labour id given instead hear im lazy freeloader disappointment need leave bear mind physical disability makes moving lower body impossible unless want agony every step spoiler alert it according her im actually depressed instead simply make rest household depressed wants out lack trying behalf last attempt thought huffing reality id collapsed kitchen am dragging bed spent next twelve hours vomiting overdose time ive gone different ive taken crazy pills should downed bottle two wine attacked wrist injected units slow acting insulin tomorrow night hopefully problems disappeared,1 im even sorry eyes flirt food guysss,0 people reddit bash make grammar mistake like wtf dudes literally become english teachers like your suppose put comma there its your cmon guys big deal someones makes grammar mistake meme,0 mother night one favorite novels going see expecting huge disappointment instead got film perfectly portrays irony humor elequence else crushing sadness vonneguts novelbr br this certainly noltes best preformance date captures defeat selfloathing howard cambell jr consistently subtle intonations speech held back tears behind eyesbr br alan arkin absolutly hilarious george kraft sherryl lee haunting detachment reality cambells young lover john goodman understated effective cambells blue fairy godmotherbr br this pinnocioesque story cambell trying ideal hero unwittingly becoming ideal tragic villian mature vivid look people aside that one deeply romantic films ever come across cambell incarnation foolish wise love films sastifyingly painful conclusion finally learns means real boy blue fairy godmother grants wish realizes thatwell watch movie seebr br mother night without doubt mind one best films ever made beautiful poetic story digs deep within emotions completely faithful original author,0 "Mom's depression tied to kids' emotional, intellectual development http://dlvr.it/QQnfrW ",1 lauren himmels debut movie well directed nice polished feel it theres strong storyline going meaningful point even end nothing resolved hence name treading water storyline revolves around lesbian couple battle ones mother acceptance ,0 #AugmentedMentalHealth is THE Unmatched Escalator Towards Fluid Access to Mental Health Care! https://buff.ly/2HU4KFg #mentalhealth #insurtech #depression #healthcare #mentalhealthprograms pic.twitter.com/0SSnSdl0NH,1 "@torzilala yeah i'll survive.. Went to the doctors, bit worse than the flu, but i should be all good in about 7 to 10 days ",0 responsible way depart single parentthe story long complex tl dr version single father x years now son handicapped work significance meaning unable feed us since unable get government benefits despite best efforts working reunite estranged mother clinically depressed labeled sex offender future speak of plan to next three months transition back mother left child end things myself please judge past responsible way wrap things up,1 sister teaching dad tiktok dances guys help do edit step mom help getting hand,0 i am not i don t believe or respect myself enough to do it i am extremely pathetic lazy and bad person that s the truth a simple fact and this will probably never change because thats how i am,1 @Jayme1988 .. with a bat up her nightdress ,0 "@tferriss Hi Tim, what are your thoughts of Buenos Aires? Have you you written anything on it? Will be going there soon ",0 so basically we re getting evicted we have like a month or to move out and we found a house we wanted but we haven t gotten the application for the house i m for some context so i could obviously live with my dad for a while but i m scared thing won t workout and we won t get the house or our landlord will say something bad about u so we can t get the house or we ll lose money my anxiety and worry about this is really bad and i don t wan na talk to my mom about my worry because i feel like she s stressed enough,1 has onli just found out about Justin Bieber & has fallen in love with his voice ,0 life anyone arsed dont blame not long anything one talk toend last year shit me lost everything meant purpose living girlfriend job dog house shared lost space three days never regretted anything then live life respect always lay cards table first im sufferer anxiety get scared anything mean speaking people throwing every morning work anxiety shit man thoughts get stop living life ive tried take life three times since all guess im weak strong enough hate attention last thing want thing thats mind stops mom dad love alot man ive got scars arm hope fade first night happend tried jumping train fence really dont know wtf im ive told one happy never thought end never bullied plenty mates school sessions football xbox didnt discover anxiety never understanding knowing something determine it im years old waiting see psychologist tomorrow actually im scared torture girlfriend since went prom abortion nothing proud yh alot seen places told time time together every uno sassy shit fucking years life never cheated trust loyal head denied fucking reason paranoid anxious nervous whatever fuck burnt confused agitation took going stupid moods talking nd shit pathetic wat weasel im hating wat ive become heads one place one day sinking water dont want anymore im embarrassed losing her friends lost contact school time still love shes want torture though one minute im planning death next hate feel like heads long gone man cant concentrate anything nans wen kid hotspot family every saturday everyones odd cousins cant remember faces without picture years lifes shit wen ur bottom probaly could bounce back dont know want shes head dreams everything normal wake mom dads house alone one talk accept found love years though achieved goal life good wages house car dog bad fuck nothing lifes evil ive ever tried appreciate everything never judge book cover never hated anything myself guess cope head anymore left house walking round streets actually felt homeless bare going back moms lived years memories really cannot bare please help one minute waking going work saying bye dog kissing misses cheek saying love waking moms room swapped old bedroom changed thing really cannot bare going future life someone else would rather die head plans set tomorrow hypothermia im pussy thats way depends psychologist tomorrow im dickhead deny problems im going give go sorry biography thats tin beans spilt really one talk dont want upsetburden mom nd dad anymore shit yh thanks time relate help would nice,1 i got an instagram ad for microdosing ketamine to treat depression uhhhhhhhhhhhh,1 really wanna give scared toits hard keep going reason wanna survive accident locked mental hospital id pretend better try again another reason partially fear comes next im believer gods life ive always atheist but right ampxb really care hurting anyone death mainly im gonna dead cares also like im gonna missed yrs old never relationship really cared anyone and worst im high school dropout senior year ive got credits like couple left lost finish know ive always tried best normal person never jail done crime matter even smoked weed even though seems like every one is ampxb psychiatrist trust anyone family past really opening helps but cant it waste money wanna cause anymore weight mother already like much is ampxb even know why wouldve thought would least treat like rest siblings ive though struggle her ampxb gonna go back little bit explain father always controlling get way would get really angry mostly take mother always stole mothers pills back pain and pills high end stuff im telling stuff could put horse a little exaggeration docs would give little bit month tried stop him would take forcefully ampxb got older able stand him mind little guy finally little balance family leave cause made money means keep check would argue get way fight father really well mentally teen needing figure ampxb time really sent edge destroyed laptop laptop thing brought happiness watched anime gamed it destroyed fought lost looking back wish thinking fight blindly throwing fists well ampxb never forgave breaking happiness go get another one rolling money took care laptop like gift got mother ampxb childhood always stressful and eventually even care make friends since always moving siblings originally thought bad guy fought dad recently realized truth even brothers sister friends hard growing bad guy ampxb ampxb eventually mother became able support us left almost year ago also convince leave shei describe stockholm syndrome except actually good guy like movies ampxb even picture im still fire think mother blames breakup im treated differently siblings im always reason anything goes wrong now kinda scared mother go back wants toand waste struggling life away him ampxb im really point see cliff almost tempting ampxb caught up thoughts questions thanks reading kinda needed vent bit hopes someone read this sorry long post ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb,1 when you read my update blogspot bulletin on myspace etc you could just figure it out on your own i don t care,0 need helpim m never gf before life ive wanted loving relationship unfortunately never found girl willing give chance im shy guy cant approach girls whichever ones approach text couple weeks disappear girls text back get obsessed end thinking every hour day constantly texting them could stop texting know life constantly walk trying find things end loop feel psychotic funds therapist past couple weeks feel like ending all im scared cause feeling getting stronger daily change life around habits incorporate daily routine im desperate try anything become better,1 holy cow failed tests finally passed got drivers license swear test bane existence since got permit finally passed drive wherever want probably nowhere since quarantine still thing lmao two days th birthday awesome,0 think im almost edgeso week started pretty good thursday shit happened fucked times work let anxiety get best first girl ive really decent convo months friday shitty stuck home alone today started pretty good buying dream gun went birthday party son girl ive huge crush last decade half girl ive crush lets call bev recently gotten huge fight yo bf shes came comforted she knows feel her bf chris real name cuz fuck prick showed bevs mom get ring back he gave days thing still went place made him today whole fight thing week ago thought bevs parents chris best friends chris want around still pretty much begged come birthday head bevs parents car sisters car car drive birthday yo walk bev son sisters kids sisters husband sister parents grandma there bev youngest adult least years kids go swim adults talking chris even acknowledge existence except grabbing bevs ass shit eating grin face looking dead minutes uncomfortable awkward hour get text parents they invited fight know still were going make cuz flat tire used excuse leave want use new gun blow brains thru top head im pretty confident would pretty quick end pathetic excuse life keep torturing living ps fuck ,1 "Cuddling literally kills depression, relieves anxiety and strengthens the immune system.",1 back at work after a great weekend my brother have left home and gone back to england though with my gorgeous nephew miss them,0 i m not looking for sympathy just simply to state why i m done trying to survive i m sitting here in the dark cry my eye out before my th birthday knowing it s the last birthday i ll ever have i m tired of fighting for my life every single day sense i wa i ve been fighting i can t do it anymore i m exhausted this illness ha broken my relationship with people i can t mend and everyone is done with me and i understand i just hope everyone understands why i ve made the decision i have if my husband somehow magically find this i love you more than anything and i m sorry i had to leave this way until we meet again my squishy,1 cant sleep once again i need to cuddle,0 im lost roadbeen struggling lot heavy depression recently lost family members grandma raised grew since little boy uncles tia always supportive encouraging ive battling lot health issues well people tell go ahead get life together not havent able properly jump start vehicle get place uncle close kid admire appreciate lot hes always one cool uncles got diagnosed cancer right broke girlfriend said shit shouldnt oh well parents never really there one considered mom dad grandma shes one whod take doctors mexico not im left alone ive dealing horrible suicidal thoughts day actually thinking bout taking xanax not bumping one lil peeps songs another song driving expressway seeing attempt would successful theres nights break crying break pain everything hard really cant control thoughts dont want go psych ward dont help want drug up idk guess overwhelming im constantly throwing up im constantly faking smile faking im ok one loves fucks more year ago people wanted now ones ok though im used it oh well cant wait another life disaster pandemic doesnt help honestly haha,1 know im havin good night im listening jams angry chair specific go sleep after probably close eyes hour half fall asleep wake up wanna productive exact thing tomorrow night,0 donniewahlberg ooh i m excited and not even going be there long love youtube,0 admitted best work harold lloyd ended last great silent comedy speedy enters sound films like chaplin keaton laurel hardy wc fields better keaton well three chaplin rich enough make films producer but paced films five years productions laurel hardy protection hal roach production standards shorts sound films pretty good fields first worked mack sennett paramount freelanced lloyd tried route chaplin took less successbr br he produced films unlike chaplin studio also first two choices good especially feet first begin choose wisely movie crazy the catspaw the milky way good choices three and possibly the sin harold diddlebock best sound ventures entertaining none safety last the freshman the kid brother speedy br br of top four sound films the cats paw controversial ezekiel cobbs solution ridding city elects mayor extreme tastes it movie made dictates politics are the cats paw second year roosevelt new deal itself rather controversial heavier government involvement movie audiences saw films like gabriel white house the phantom president leaders extraconstitutional actions rid nation internal enemies and force disarmament around globe even cecil b de mille got act this day age bunch teenagers use rats force gangster confess crimesbr br to us use violence force anyone even bunch goons boodlers like alan dineharts gang confess repellent all supreme court protected us confession duress forget reforms thinking occur warren court burger court made them example although mr justice sutherlands opinion powell scottsboro boys case guaranteed every criminal defendant right counsel gideon v wainwright extend ordering court paid counsel defendants miranda case wellknown antiselfincrimination warning nothing like considered necessary br br if study movies period and even tricks used get confessions kirk douglas confesses crimes front witnesses i walk alone burt lancaster holds gun him lancaster leaves douglas sneers confessing duress see gun unloaded suddenly realizes legally confessed without duress hate say it civil libertarians reading note cobblloyd dinehart pals conclusion the cats paw legal would led jail sentences may call heavy handed fascistic horrid would worked legally thought up,0 post concert depression lt lt lt barmi ma,1 guide group projects at least personal experience know pain paired mostly complete strangers communicate improve teamwork abilities something like commonly known group project post im gonna tell advice make group projects little less painful already are deciding actually working anything decide roles group discuss depth one really obvious course dont want close due date get discord call person group ask finished supposed go wait supposed that thought were meetings specific time matches everyones schedule check others progress one also obvious nobody would really want pretty much done part discover teammate barely done anything also check others work avoid group leader dont even know group leader thing basically puts one group members position power group members might make group leader think opinion matters most group leaders group either nothing think opinion matters comes discussing matters dont care people group whenever someone asks whos gonna group leader suggest nobody waste time getting one anyway try avoid arguments costs tiring unnecessary waste time sides unless something actually worth arguing about try make everyone feel included group project group project disasters past pretty much group members making feel included basically indicates person didnt include much group activity theyre pretty useless even tasks really small try splitting equally group members thats pretty much know make group projects painless possible hope least one person found kinda helpful sorry bad english aint native language,0 depressed college student checking in i literally get 9 hour of sleep every single night i dont drink or abuse substance and am in good shape for the love of god i can not get my as out of bed i seriously cant im having really poor attendance issue becayse of this i hate what i do i see no point in all of this struggle to just fuckin exist all this hell i go thru debt stress and burnout is all so i can have a chance at a shit show 9 job my school love to make life unnecessarily hard to keep student from graduatin on time so they can suck more ane more from u getting out of bed is my biggest challenge it all full circle im depressed i dont like what i do and i dont feel that what im doing is effective i m anxious about my future and dont know what to do about it all i look forward to doing is sleeping eating is a chore showering is a chore being awake is a hassle the cost of existance ha won it beat the life outta me,1 slideshare s embed code is annoying me sorry about the tiny embed fail,0 depression go dey regret why e exist y all blaming your bad character on depression that shit is tired,1 grasping straws go farim sorry this like publicly breaking know else do im clinically depressed im driving mad thoughts redflag constant memories thimgs ive done wrong feel may end life cant convince change background guess im early twenties angst red flags firing already afraid not diagnosed clinical depression year ago gps i wanted second opinion i like everyone else experienced changes emotion throughout life longest prolonged drop mood continued today sometimes feel ive come it ive lasted five days best one point worst far ive tried number medications good ive lost faith validity antidepressants ive tried therapy could see little nuances ticking heads never seen person boring complicated puzzle solved judge it therapy work me ive tried confiding family could see hurt eyes described felt cant take anymore either cry wolf cured see them may suspect theyll never sure ive lost friends happened slowly level purpose could longer connect acquaintances every conversation felt like mentally bashing head wall unnatural uncontrollable cognitive dissonance spread like tumour even people closest felt like distant dreams accross hallucinated worlds became desperate called redflag hotline tried describe felt kept repeating rubbish like its good reached us today reached minute mark understand felt hung me told early suicidal night redflag hotline refused help me you may call bullshit thats fine care nothing gain lying now state mind feel normal consistent like rat maze often feel ive found escape find dead end ive enough intents purposes think im bad guy average joe done stupid things before even cant stop believing truly deserve this constant state mental pain human see thus cannot understand one day finally give end all want out want constant fog hours sleep followed random bouts insomnia inability hold conversation poor work ethic selfishness want fucking normal like every god damn mother fucker see arround me rredflagwatch imagine many experienced before classic case clinical depression want fucking bythebookwasteoftime answers oh family miss you it pass time im you have tried suchandsuch drug andor therapy its good reached out fuck kinds people also give shit guidelines here real fucking human being real sence want offer advice please please do get reward maybe self satisfaction stroke ego bit tell friends saved someone get upvote care im dick loser fucking human grasping straws wants someone real help me,1 third part miikes dead alive trilogy unrelated first two parts other less show aikawa riki takeuchi back lead roles time movie thrusts us forward years future post apocalypsebr br riki plays tough cop enforcer corrupt citys extreme police policies show plays drifter hooks bunch citys oppressed rebels film must shot hong kong rest cast cantonese speakers terence yin josie ho recognisable faces theres also hk stunt crew hand films action sequences cool hkviamiike stylebr br this could fodder dreadful low budget bmovie miikes hands course becomes something interesting quite slow thoughtful film meanders along try force anything viewers throat characters rounded interesting plot interesting fairly loose framework story hung onbr br all fairly low key effort action scenes show miikes increasing prowess directing choreographing nice action watching short making show riki wire rigs really fun tell great time br br the finale film tries tie together dead alive movies quite unnecessary one really self contained miikes explanation connection funny though caps series quite nicelybr br not deep well developed doa outrageous intense doa still another good miike movie though,0 rantvent post want advice every single time mom says this keep hold back saying life short enough opinion life way long especially struggle mentally way would want spend extra time living horrible world brain function properly never feel like anything even days actually feel better burnt life know want it want kill either nawlife short,1 think im officially friendless now im glad two days ago friday hanging friends which nothing common with pretty much told move on think fact told parents want meet finally got fuck off btw idea flare this,0 this world is honestly a dark place filled with narcissistic people i hate everyone i really really do i hate the smile and laughter of others the only people i can care about are my family and other people i can empathize pain and just overall depression with people have honestly just dragged me down to a dip hole that i have dug myself along with them and honestly that hole is almost foot i can t stand almost anyone my mother and some of her family but most other people i just hate for no reason and i suppose it s the hate the world ha given me and also the way it just is now people so self invested in themselves that empathy is being fully replaced will narcissism i have almost nobody to talk to it stress my mom out i know it doe and i don t like to talk to other family because they tell my mom and it worry her and my few friend never take me or my mental health seriously i am a human but i have been treated like some type of animal or someone from another planet i have minor autism and am also a schizo not schizophrenic i am a schizo which are a little different so people think differently of me i also used to be such a happy and funny guy when i wa younger but a i got older people got meaner and i got more sad because i wa treated differently and had random people telling me they hate me or don t like me in school and some i didn t even know i admit i wa a little off the wall back then but it wa mental issue and people gave me more than i already had my hate for the world is strong so strong that i honestly believe i deserve better than this fucked up hateful intolerant world i just want peace paradise some type of better afterlife this world is going to end soon and we all deserve a bitter end so even if i don t kill myself at least i can see the world end and all of u get the chaos and destruction we deserve we have brought hate and destruction to our own home earth they say we are one big happy family but the reality of earth is that we are one big dysfunctional toxic family a family that kill each other and are each other s biggest enemy along with each other a family that ha lost it s moral a time go on a family that ha little love to give and more hate what have we done to the world and ourselves right is wrong and wrong is right my point of all of this is that is human are nothing but garbage on this earth we don t recycle some of u are treasure to some some of u are thrown out and forgotten about and some of u are littered and left to blow in the wind until we are picked up one day or are forgotten a well in the end i hate the world it is my biggest cause of depression and that s how i know my depression will never end because the world keep on going and when it doe end i end with it so the way i see it is my depression will go on a long a the world go on or until i m forgotten about like a piece of garbage or i m one of the piece of junk that is treasure to others lately i have been severely depressed more depressed than i have been in a long long long time and i just want some people to know that this world eats you alive and some of u have to accept being junk or treasure the world is a dark and hateful place and idk if i ll see a light one day or an even more dark place i wish you all the best in this dark lonely world a lot of u will never become treasure and will always be junk,1 this is way to early to go to work,0 choose fighter choose fighter train water boat track,0 m horny trading nudes might slow respond coz im hotel btw pp big,0 i almost committed suicide i feel pathetic for not having been able to and i don t know why i stopped i suffer from bpd so this isn t the first time i ve either attempted or gotten close to doing it my friend don t know and i would feel manipulative or a burden if i were to tell them i guess i just wanted a place to talk about it every time i find myself in this type of situation it feel like i get closer and closer to the point of no return,1 i think my arm are sore from tennis,0 "@tommcfly Hey Tom, did you ever watch/like the Mummy and the Mummy returns with brendan fraser? haha i love them best movies xx",0 "@markhoppus Hey Mark, im in an alternative band and were highly inspired by Blink 182 When we record will you please give us ur opinion",0 hello guys even sure right subreddit and sorry english advance wanted tell unusual felt since days ago basically since woke tuesday feeling numb like fog brain lost interest activities normally really enjoy like watching moviesthe weirdest thing irrational thoughts it like literally days ago watching old obscure essay films literally next day found thinking what point movies fake actors cannot wrap head around thisadded fact constantly felt tired sleepy naturally thought depression redflag never things before fact usually cheerup guy family usually find silver lining even dark situations happened sudden unexplainable nothing happened personal life lately either justify thisi also thought might side effect nasonex corticosteroid nasal spray taken since th july read side effects instructions say anything psychological effects kind wrote off looking online read corticosteroids actually produce redflag depression sometimes rare basically know believehas anything like happened beforethanks advance weird symptoms past days,1 so both sweetpea and I are back to school/university 2moro - reality bites. It's been a great break tho feeling rejuvinated.,0 @justine_hughes nooo high on life lol hows u?,0 fucking way last week completed online programming course columbia university classmate long uncommon name i say ofc next week im starting girls code online course saw classmates name girls code google classroomlike odds omfg,0 give silver know one give it,0 Woot woot!! Haha gonna go to the movies again I'll be on my uncles iPhone ,0 "@jonjones OMFG if you weren't my hero today already, you certainly are now! THANK YOU! ",0 need reasons kill myselfi planned killing yesterday didnt go it im going try today wont lie say dont want get help family simply cant afford it already owe ten grand last time hospitalized dont want make twenty im much pain cutting thighs dont energy keep living tried talking therapist basically told go walk maybe help me dont know itll stop altogether maybe itll help last another day sorry posting two days row one turn to,1 matter do drama life stays im problemi know whats wrong me cant live normal life every insecurity something cant even talk cause people around judge me one person consider close same speak mind ruin everything im gonna kill myself know keeps coming back im fucked ended it different everybody says wanna talk gets offended feel im completely alone ive concluded im problem remove myself,1 sexual fantasies mind slept lot woman complained everything loved dearly kept saying have sex me said yes sleep you beautiful woman thank you said nice hot love sex positions finally said hey im going sex anymore said yes better hold cloth tightly said yes fell hard fabric hot,0 would nice share perspective see people help support loved ones things get tough said loved ones bad episodes also understand hearing said perspective experience living depressed persons might come triggering anyone depressed depressed would hate see depression affected others around me inevitable thing happens complicated issue something think talked much experienceit hard pill swallow part depressed persons support group really traumatizing things get bad live them like talk suicide bring intrusive suicidal ideation induced substance abuse cleaned blood self harming occured see psych ward afraid triggering episode afraid walking dead body home accounting another relative hospital attempt best friend also medically depressed around metw vent aheadand matter what despite that always supposed push whatever feelings anger frustration sadness might favor taking caresupporting person needs help moment feelings resentment happen personally want feel way feel letting negative emotions take helps one much less person want help hard sometimes hard talk without sounding emotionally selfish capacity whole medically depressed person right there automatically feel guilty even taking feelings consideration like how dare negatively affected someone elses depression fuck you well mental health important moment suck up know sounds like exaggeration reality things like whatever feeling needs take back seat need reserve emotional energy another depressive episode one relatives rolls around yes person psyche therapist meds things would definitely gone now still seems like going able manage depression really hard feel alone types feelings having feelings feel like cannot afford have realistic feelings eating away me makes want run away all always written statement like well whatever feeling guarantee depressed person worse time right now andthey would rightand go back feeling like shit cycle continues feel written constantly constant close proximity depression feel like allowed cared acknowledge whatever going feeling know anyone feels way vent overthat said think therapist would best answer plight access one healthcare process sorted out know much support supposed shoulder much depressed persons burden different live them see depression experience episodes outside except exactly bystander either got get hands dirty wanted know collective people experienced situation similar know else ask this support group relatives living depressed persons support group support group depressed individual unique experience would like speak others experience living medically depressed persons,1 loved movie like everyone said bits developed enough thought personally girls vapid landed prison sure supposed innocent american girls stilli felt like lacked bond best friends supposed have example montage theyre sightseeing way held photograph awkwardlookingbr br then parts ambiguous think pretty much understood danes character it see could confusing also camera dwell manat bearing grim expression put bags taxi trunk thought suggesting something turned nothingbr br apart that movie great cried claire danes took blame great actressbr br also wanted see bitchy thai inmate get ass kicked talk lack closure,0 i am not an ecomomist but i wa hit by the last recession to me i feel this will be more like recession depression i wa above my level in high school for this field hang on to your money,1 love her iphone but hate the fact tjat she need to charge it often,0 @Mahmoud_m94 I'm gonna give you candy ,0 skipped another enrollment day.. about to cook dinner for family.. porkchops? or porkchops? ,0 down periscope library since first arrived vhs since then acquired dvd digital cinema nowbr br it quirky flick go militarily overboard either pro con first foremost comedy vehicle main characters quite surprised sequel never offeredbr br the movie gained following borders cult obsession even among young became aware visiting uss drum mobile alabama group cub scouts grandson among them taken roles movie planned relive overnighter boardbr br it fun romp makes proud navy hollywood rare companybr br thanks kelsey grammar lauren holly rob schneider making could otherwise unremarkable movie great entertainment,0 Clinical depression is the # 1 global leading cause of disability.,1 people allowed date deal crushes no secretly going option,0 new category rteenagers seen real rteenagers opinion new category much better hot category,0 want out want anymore curse day born thousand times over life hell want die,1 whos favourite redditor tell mine utinkerbell,0 lets draw aaaaaaaaa httpsrwhiteboardfoxcom,0 im leaning toward responding able let go im sure even wanted talk make big decision kids got message pleading conversation explanation what apologized stated trying cause problems said prison something happened long time ago looks like felony probation something get revoked sent pictures children one year older children share told mother passed,1 one first color films seen cinema child good remember it girl liz taylor later became beautiful woman starred together tiny excellent actor mickey rooney content film plot good ages good wills behavior good ethics velvets parents particularly mother something take account generations well educated film may help purpose velvet loves horses racing them mi taylor rooney brought international horse racing competition england end young velvet won disqualified female,0 hellothe suicide help line busy therapist asleep thought might try here plan end days cannot check psych ward money afford ithelp please really bad night,1 nothing left death alive years want live longer want see always alone always unhappy things get better true lying say true time paid attention ive learned worth remembering people beyond help inarguable hate body hate mind hate past hate present dread future nothing here outside everything believe anything death clearly conceptualize anything death doubtful everything death death faith repulsed everything experience thing driven towards death death dream wanted police officer wanted drummer clear dream since die never held girls hand scored act started college graduated gpa three facts sources pride confidence nothing numbers life nothing numbers people memories stories experiences not cook sing draw dance feel best drunk feel good high sometimes reading makes happy rare remember brother showing porn kid molested several times never told anyone this remember time redflag alien me thought theres reason kill yourself theres chance things improve die over now redflag me leave everything else alien now one reason killed already previous moments weakness knowledge would parents would destroy them greatest love life alone reason live unfortunate nothing unfortunate redflag painless,1 on my way to work at the bead store. last day there and then home to work on my new jewelry designs! ,0 i struggled with suicidal thought around year ago i m being treated for my cptsd and since then id been doing better but for some reason these past few week the thought have come back theyre le frequent but they re there im not going to do it i just want them to stop i dont want to feel like this again,1 wow even better expected best animated astrix movie ever feels good hear roger carel voice astrix again surely recommend everyone likes comic books astrix suggest go see french version cause surely best hear original cast know roger carel played astrix nearly forty years think marvelous job song cline dion end fits rally good end credits music good drawings good actors wonderful word masterpiece go see it regret this,0 missoliviaa nooo brat to the west coast hahaa quite making me sad,0 even get readmy family finally showed true colors feel suspecting long time resent me mother sees biggest failure life bc never anything right live summer live house verbally abused life physically beaten every day kid scarred every day greeted hostile looks hatred screamed things wrong things dont even do hands pockets despite facts never laid hand with exception hug occasional kiss incidental contact yet feels unsafe living bc tall kinda strong feels wasted life away father left tenth birthday somehow one feel doesnt hate me barely even knows me brother criminalizes leaving go college another state studied commuting home thinks reason life difficult difficult stays home chores thinks reason family use them thinks think im better him many times said trusts friends me thinks always right fucking delusional every thought have theres me im fucked cant even hold normal relationship ignore friends know nothing me romantically dont open either someone interested person cant help think must something extremely wrong point fixate smallest things makes imperfect me often times find thinking much better me leave relationships even chance bloom skin disease itchy honestly makes hate every second dont require help treatment anything tho suffer get panic attacks often home family matter dont sighyawnbreathe like front me think im nuisance everyone close thinks youre monster honestly start believe too fucked up bad person never loved capacity honestly wonder time whats even point things always end way longest time ive felt dont want anymore id always tell itll get better see really doesnt maybe point oddly enough first time long time feel peace never shared someone read far thank you need someone world know this even one person maybe someone find perspective eternal fuckup somewhat enlightening sorry essay,1 "going to bed, good night folks ",0 jake speed amusing parody indiana jones adventurer films popular eighties wayne crawford stars jake speed adventurer whos always battling evil doers wherever goes assistant desmond floyd dennis christopher globe trot looking action and decent story lines duo meet young woman named margaret karen kopins whos sister kidnapped evil white slaver trader john hurt find convince jake desmond help rescue siblingbr br a sappy cheesy film pretend something not give one recommendation thats enjoy movies like fun take everything face valuebr br recommended,0 already dislike teacher looking presentations class one presentation came cringe mean see faces everyone cringing person kid said comedy chat joke people chuckling replied keep searching bois joke class ended teacher made us stay class scolded us mean joke even offensive offensive all person bad attempt comedy made joke it small measly joke mean come on standards low holy fuck something ass mad joke,0 sorryim done sorry deactivated social media stuff thats left hanging around whenim gone andi told friends sorry cause probably make sad see end universe,1 long stream consciousness unhealthy statemy life rather boring feel little attachment right now get suicidal thoughts ive mostly accepted life meaningless one day itll end depression bad anymore well im really sure whether better worse im probably bad natural state live messy house and older brother keeps messing matter many times ive cleaned it ive given up take shower every days people interact online strangers people ring food pass days computer literally nothing sometimes top off ive already selected date end life know exactly die date arrives fail first time im going keep trying succeed every single day waiting day arrives people say ive gotten confident not im confident ive lost lot care life problem confronting situations headon certainty legitimately care result whether life ruined certain things matters little me worry not im anything dangerous im going go touch anyone im going go murder anyone moral sense still check understand people care life different me people watch diet exercise make friends family care making memories enjoying life go off whereas cant muster ability enjoy anything im openly inviting death upon myself every single day every single hour im thinking die every time go sleep im prepared wake up assume die brain aneurysm sleep every time probably afterlife wake up every single time theres saying death catches people least expect it catch offguard ill always expect it theres never second im thinking situation lead death fear death much anymore logical thinking backandforth topic ive decided improbable death lies nonexistence believe it even case know it nonexistence depressing think about im trying convince theres afterlife instead afterlife matter long one wasnt able sleep night think way happy finally enter afterlife think life earth going become enjoyable anytime soon going monotonous rut long live college supposed rather colorful period everyones time least turning point small peak valley life yet exactly like hs exactly like ms exactly like primary school nothings changed entire life nothing change either ill get job work environment probably exactly like college im going work turn old case im free want die government throws money every month happens nothing happy this im misanthrope rather asocial starting family anything really consideration going myself im going die alone well im prepared outcome ive come terms fact die lived fulfilling life everyone keeps talking changed start finish maybe even reach designated date depart something horrible happens prevents ill die beforetime unforeseen unexpected alternatively maybe something miraculous happens changes something realistically wont ill welcome developments post getting rather long im sure already long past skipping point many people im going end here wanted share going mind maybe anyone insight advice do could comment ive thinking maybe move redflag date bit closer since theres really much going thats stopping so maybe instead long time now move year maybe month week now im sure case thanks reading suppose,1 im still aliveim going kill week maybe tomorrow im fed everything sleepless nights everybody care never tbh kill ages ago idk done im unwanted worthless feel hopeless feel dead inside numb tried everybody reach toxic cruel mean negative horny im going end may anyways already cant least week without self harming trying commit redflag suicidal thoughts everyday even dream commitment redflag even attempt redflag times im still alive mistake world everything im better dead,1 i washed my pencil case ! finally ! lol,0 please dream foreverand keep switching another dream one over doesnt way fully control dreams amount control average dream fine id much rather live like this,1 i m have fucked up my whole life and i dont really want to kill myself but im really running out of option when i wa 9 year old i wa diagnosed with borderline disorder and all my life i have been fucking everything up relationship friendship family member job my study i have been acting very impulsive and i have aways been blaming my disorder instead for everything i ded drug use victimless crime somehow i still have some principal left hooker now today s situation is i havent felt fine in year or something like that i am on the edge of getting myself in seriously debt i live in a small shitty appartement and the only thing that ha stayed with me during all these time is my weed maybe it sound retarded i dont really know but it true i even lost my momma on the way she is not dead just doesnt want to speak to me anymore i lost all my friend because of ly shit behaviour and lie i lost a relationship of year recently and to be honest i deserve it because i can blame my disorder or the drug or whatever deep down i know it were my action and my saying that fucked it all up i know it may not be the best solution but i feel like killing myself would most certainly be the easiest way out for me sorry if this storry is shit but i am high right now and my english isnt that good,1 i feel that i m a mess with no salvation or mercy i want to die to end with this suffering i feel that i made terrible thing just for existing i don t want to hurt anyone anymore guilty of my decision who deserve to die please i just want to die until it get worse please forgive me please forgive my existence i don t want to hurt anyone just for being me or taking wrong desicions my purpose is to be happy but i don t deserve that desire please i want to shot me in the head and end with this i just want peace of mind i can t halle with headache i just want to die quick i just want to die i just want to die i apologize for being me and my action in life i can t life anymore i just want to die so badly and be free in peace i don t want to suffer other people i just want to die,1 @RocknRollForeva Luckily not!My mom is not here and my dad doesnt care much! ,0 absolutely first film scared death happened catch older brotherrip watching it black white tv really good picture got interested shortly after folks bought color set and luck would it million dollar movie showing one sundaybr br i forgotten plot take long catch upand got scared hard time sleeping night mean sure movie involved creature came space could hear it see itand got hold late even now time still sends shiver spine true classic even better classic seen scare pants new generationbr br long live blob,0 @Cazling Then put your feet up and relax XX,0 christines graduation ,0 How To Change The Past By Changing Your Thinking https://buff.ly/2HCNulD  via @dlhampton #depression #MentalHealth pic.twitter.com/b9XZWXOFx9,1 lost everything everything everyone around me one person keeping alive left stopped talking me played people used me look mom mental abuses talks me always arguments us horrible relationship cannot anything help myself wish could kid feel pain dad left everything anymore stayed night hand full pills wondering live anymore cannot look good things life anymore numb pain point mom care feel help cousin close severely suicidal almost went mental hospital think dying wish wake mornings miss life easy worry anything family homeless half life living people stay room day nothing zero mental energy even get bed even eat one closest friends living tried killing mom police involved actually nothing it even charge him tried calling saying sorry sick person want scream loud kind done living,1 i feel there is nobody in my life besides my direct family the last few year have been a process of self isolation and i don t know why up until a few week ago i wa relatively okay i don t know if my medication ha stopped working or if it s just all hitting me at once now but i feel terrible i literally go to coffee shop just for the social interaction with the cash register i need friend but don t know where to find them even though i m comfortable in social situation i ve never been so alone this is a plea anybody whether you are suffering or not please reach out to me if you want to talk about anything,1 More than 1 in 20 US children and teens have anxiety or depression https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2018/04/180424184119.htm …,1 uamogusbot got banned rip baby banned know ideas bots ps next time try approve community ban,0 many movies around given feeling like stardust throughout course film magically fairytalelike princess bride stardust definitely wonderful fantasy spectacle s well s exciting hilarious equipped wonderful imagery well unforgettable characters michelle pfeiffer robert deniros especially challenge anyone watch movie without smile first ten minutes film know perfectly well end journey destination enthralls viewer start finishbr br ten stars decimal less,0 call adolescent really think great series chance experience episodes latest star trek series definitely watch one perhaps compelling voyagers caretaker launched series cpt janeway archers adventures completely different yet strangely familiarthe music catchy too true scifi fan go without seeing least one star trek episodeand installments make wait worthwhile,0 "Went to the hospital today for HIV checkup. All good, meds still working, they were really pleased I haven't missed a single dose. After refusing to take them for ages it's good to be back on them and the virus under control again. #HIV #depression",1 @x_kcm87_x lol thats so funny! and completely unfortunate lol..i can proudly say: i didnt fart ,0 i don t feel any desire towards anything in life anymore i see life a a pointless pursuit that ha more pain than joy it s simply not worth it if i m playing a video game or watching a tv show and it s not getting better i simply want to turn it off my passion energy love motivation and empathy isn t what it used to be and i feel trapped i feel like cement when i wake up and lay there until the hunger drive me out of bed i m stuck in my head all day and feel dead to myself and this world i can t even hate myself anymore or bring myself to really do anything i wish so many thing in this life were different but they never will be,1 "I went to see "UP".I was very touched.The movie is surprising,it has a very beautiful message& it's extremely funny 2.Very special.Worthy ",0 blanketive let many people around ive let go mentallythe think think anymore go blanket shes shiny pretty sharp seems thing gives relief time thing want support family seems care less giving any im failing schooli call feel go numb everydayi feel like burden ive called useless im starting believe iti want let gobut time hope time comes ill someone help stop myselfsomeone understands,1 i always get insomnia at the most inopportune time,0 im feeling extremely lonely cant find anyone enjoys much them give help,0 loweffort titles contribute positively subreddit likely removed please make sure title indicative relevant creative h,0 alot redflag people expectations me work morning evening car workshop colleagues mean still learning one friend hangs bigger group hate reason hanging pull make fun friend want interfere stole dads booze got drunk crying bed really want kill myself please help fucking tired,1 feels like already diedi deactivated social media little week ago im guy scrolls fb several hours day found making matters worse deactivated rather tense time several people try escape well im bored know nobody notice reactivate minute check everybody doing way everybody gone lives new profile pictures hardly recognizing people one week offline best friends never even noticed gone suddenly havent spoken since sharing regular posts every hours big girl got haircut seems getting fine cousins mom sister family sharing memes jokes normal crush sharing events things important arent really bag distancing getting courage talk her feels like died missed things regular old new would really like could take fucking step tell nobody cares all know guys do say feel like support find keeps going guess thats whats important drained low this,1 sitting living room listening acdc looking memes weeks school holidays ahead life good,0 okay heres confession sorts idk hate myself wanted end post well rules state post removed said post small imma type utter gibberish occupy space guess like anything better dolol,0 always leave message ill reply wake up day goodnight little boys girls everything,0 <3's Daniel Merriweather's new album - specifically Water and a Flame...his song with Adele ,0 someone wanna chat past days friends weirdly pushed aside just need social contact dm leave comment would massively appreciated guess cry help dont know maybe chat hobbys love horses warhammer lotr jurassic drawing reading twilight gordon ramsay food working,0 im im going killmyself tonightim sick life im ending tonight whats best way killmyself,1 borrow guni really wanna kill right now know anymore ill probably get drunk drink lot fucking pills,1 looking for boat rentals at Lake Eufaula for when family visits. Any recommendations?,0 girlfriend drew knifeokay m met girl f online last month things going pretty fast weve travelled lot already seen others familys mentioned understand nice her crazy etc seen psychologists seemed balanced individual open difficulties come human mind fair enough everything great apart one issue brought holiday porn expressed opinion like visual cheesecake real thing take precedence connection partner place masturbation aid sex possible extreme reaction became incredibly distant agreed watch sake enjoying rest holiday after mentioned happy trying control masturbate gatekeeper sexuality esspecially doesnt involve anyone else came agreement minimize talk it hard her found good agreement week later leaving place go mine see couple days asked would save her replied i probably will words affect could tell immediately happy started questioning watched porn since agreement replied honestly yes said problem sex lives satisfied sexually one another also says fantasize women cheating in head wellshe ended grabbing modelling knife saying going kill leave place started saying love care felt totally manipulated totally shocked behaviour work early next day ended getting hrs sleep place woken tirade i cant trusted etc apologised next day said would therapy said hard time controlling emotions etc im taken aback want help issues has would want support position feel lot concerned relationship affect wellbeing happiness future feel wanting control fashion bang order behave way revealed emotional immaturitysensitivity well insecurity woman living amongst women need get chest suggestions opinions welxome thanks tldr gf thinks porn cheating agreed would minimise talk it asked watched since agreement answer yes given said wanted commit redflag grabbed modelling knife going therapy shocked want help want make work work suggestions help meherus welcome feel lot potential us working continues,1 catching busdoes anyone know catching bus subreddit moved banned reddit,1 post nut clarity even exist clarity ever get one force upon go school,0 Something to get my mind in the right setting for today's story. ? http://blip.fm/~6gha0,0 @makzan Pretty much all day. ,0 biggest brain entire galaxy pc died fridaythursday bht mouse keyboard still lit up today unscrewed little box cables responsible getting power every part movedadjusted cables screwed everything together not sure thats properly made sentence whatever magically turned pressed power button lets fucking goooooooooo,0 freaking fuck cant log back school laptop i cant remember password online school lots assignments hand laptop ive never scared,0 so many question for the next battlestations podcast we ll do our best but we can t possibly answer them all,0 appeal ancient films like one get see actual moving image life years ago lot people leaving factory dead none even remotely aware magnitude invention walking before shocked read one reviewer call film boring home videos today least one mistakenly identified first film ever made it first film made rate frames per second rather thennormal frames per second br br sure see lot people filing building passing cinematograph way home work curiosity piece dozens reasons least first film made lumire brothers probably stronger impact development cinema individual group individuals history,0 gonei cant take thes anymore gone older sister died cuple years ago move orgen kentucky friends got made fun dad whent crazy started beating mom work beat killed hisself cristmas eve aunt cuzin grandma died years ago great uncle killed hisself right met year ago cuple moths ago friend killed hisself bf metal hospitel suicidle thoughts cutting friend going jail want end iv cutting sints waas thare nothing live anymore im done plz someone help,1 good thing bicurious im immune traps thats post also coming,0 nilelegania glad i wa able help you feel better i hate to see you sick love you,0 @partywithneha I think @twilightfairy can explain more @paavani @netra @sharanya @sanjukta @tarushikha,0 m decided deadlinenow deadline im rn turn september things dont change kill day turn year three months things get better not say truly gave,1 im intelligent got condoms put dildo clean poop filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 @k_hack I'll have the EP artwork for you tomorrow. ,0 know better almost seems like staged wasnt set perfectly got footage amazing unfortunate events september put together well documentary classic footage got made unfortunate classic history footage alone make must see american person touched tragedy september ,0 tell ur crush u like them long friends ask someone out love want know people think,0 Lol i just found out that i started talking at 1 ,0 think im done lifei cant describe feel anymore ive social issues since struggled making new friends eventually lost old ones go school homeschool dropped youth church group two years ago since constantly getting picked on im month im sitting bed dark realising one going birthday next month thought numb wasnt actually hurts knowing past three years ive mainly myself girlfriend year ago slowly opened betrayed trust using sick purposes since ive spiraling depression without able anything it cant talk parents theyre kind understand things like this ive tried talking sister moved work either since one talk stubborn asshole refusing vent online friends ive resorted cutting drinking painkillers every day life got sick crying sleep resorted drinking painkillers help sleep motivation life anymore im much pain im beyond point thinking others think end life,1 weird or im ambivert already tell pretty weird me scenarios ive every one either extravert part kicks introverted part does talking girls im extraverted talking siblings cousins im extraverted talking older relatives uncles aunts etc im introverted this includes parents too talking random people ive never met probably weirdest one them depending theyre looks age gender depends im extraverted introverted talking friends think two friends talk without introverted pretty decent amount friends too weird,0 jillglavan soooo disappointed your t i party is when i leave for vega i wa so jacked up when you first talked about it now nothing,0 took like half bottle melatonin thought would kill mei took half bottle melatonin want end life melatonin kill you gives crappy symptoms ready fuck life brooke,1 could separate tables separate liesbr br this becomes somewhat involved housekeepers husband killed hit car bicycle culprit turns woman cleans for latter affair friend driving car lover accident occurred complicate matters further housekeeper worked guys parents jailed stealing therefore people hesitate believe car caused accident sounds like wants revengebr br this becomes convoluted housekeeper discovers boss driving car recants testimony much dismay officer working casebr br as enough several months later lover rupert everett becomes terminally ill lady emily watson leaves husband tom wilkinson care himbr br the acting quite good despite neverending peyton place like theme tom wilkinson solicitor tries protect wifebr br the film good one could done without terminal illness well marriage ended anyway,0 depression hitting real good today,1 "At 18 this was me too. The only difference was I didn't have access to drugs, I was on depression and anxiety meds, seeing a lot of counsellors too, because of everything that was going on. But I'm now just turned 21 a day ago and happy. https://twitter.com/biebosbitch/status/988485758792105984 …",1 im probably cause someones demonsand fucking fault deserve die,1 "Made it to atlanta. Next stop, dallas! Woohoo ",0 i ve made multiple post of this same topic a a way to seek help wherever i can i have no desire to be alive anymore everyday i wake up i think of way of taking my life because i have lost every single friend who wa ever important to me i am year old black non passing transwoman who decided to begin transitioning at i ve gotten to the point of getting my name changed but now i feel that it may have all been a mistake it s not that i feel like i m not trans anymore but that i can no longer take the pain and judgment of being trans i wa taking seven pill a day with hormone and had a huge increase in emotional irregularity anxiety and stress i embarrassed myself in several way to friend that i valued and after two month of reckless sex and drug abuse i found everyone around me pushing me away it s been six month since my last suicide attempt and everyday i wake in pain of missing my friend a i relive all the thing that happened i just want to end it all i want to try to repair the friendship but a large part of me feel thing may never be the same again i also want to just move on but the guilt i feel may live inside me forever i really don t know what to do at this point,1 im lonely losttoday contemplating redflag yet again thinking lonely sad pathetic life is real friends one lean on im always crying alone night dont know anymore go therapy anti depressants noting working im tired guy people come talk problems like helping people dont appreciate fact treat like shit right after ive always annoying one thats probably everyone hates me im told im hated one wants around everyday thats im alone room one lean talk to one could cry on one could hug tell everything alright im asking friend seems like one wants that im complete embarrassment go redflag please theres anyone there help slightest glimpse hope hope im,1 Good morning all!!! Hope everyone has a wonderful day!! ,0 ever watched deals gently subtly aids which alluded gay life also old age dying death deep beautiful movie also visually special director highly recommanded,0 @ok_xx after tonight you don't have to worry about it anymore! Just get rowdy. ,0 Working late......emails still going and it's almost 1am. The joys of work ,0 feel like every step take get knocked back steps stop look around climbing stairs destroyed building depression feels like cannot go anywhere backwards even nothing waiting end know anymore seems everytime try better everything anything uses power stop me try everyday point even want wake anything wish could never wake wake different body somewhere else point walk stairs ladders,1 i am a work martyr give me chocolate coffee and sympathy and now my cat s decided she s dying,0 what a bad day need comfort drink sipping on a mocha frap here at starbucks with tricia so tired,0 writing article online class high schoolers hi im currently student journalist writing piece switch online class effect students mental health whether notsogreat home life lack counseling resources lack socialization etc piece meant centered around south florida due consent rules put place professor would better already resonates would really love talk experiences article please pm interested,0 dudes omegle assholes like everyone conversation chick,0 "@propagaxxa @bribearxoxo Technically speaking, antidepressants tend to make people who are diagnosed with depression more saddened than they were before. At least the first few months of taking them makes their depression worse.",1 death seem like best optionive weak little bitch life ever since kindergarten ive known going kill future asked mom whats point trying live die end got looked doctor deficiencies schools ive to ive friends sometimes more mostly less almost either moved tried fight me stopped talking reason tried kill pussied last second want family set back turned drugs im know want family sad around feel sad are,1 want show appreciation crush love much hope one day cuddle watch movie hope one day lay grass watch sunset hope one day travel together hope one day make love im probably enough,0 wasted years lifesoon months started learn skill id way behind learned nothing people say possible wasted fucking did live fast short life useless body mind join gang die fast hard goddamn years lost want art digital first drawingbut even try making progress good artist started fucking one ill always pathetic want die die living high paced life fuck it pathetic could good gang military cares die never late never late yes fucking ill never get goddamn years back useless fucking leech good people something trained young yet fucking anything fuck this point,1 husband live apartment gets super cold easily part theres protective trees winter problem buildings run down theres lots cracks around door husband able fix gaping crack door frame still need work done management best heaters old baseboard heaters heat home run electricity bill like crazy onset early winter midwest coupled loss husbands job im going go apply liheap im wondering anyone knows ways keep apartment warm,1 i cried when i heard the girl from tracy wa found today it wa soooo sad may god bless sandra cantu,0 if you get a concealer for hiding your dark spot then why dont you get one for your emotion emotion dark depression quote thought anxiety,1 i just fucking hate myself the thing is that i just recently got to the point where everytime i look into the mirror i just like get so anxious so fast like idk anymore all these negative feeling flood me when i see myself i just wish i wa better at everything and i look fucking disgusting and i know everyone around me is just thinking that i cant even eat and sit or sleep somewhere without fearing people judge me also im afraid of getting fat cause it would ruin my image even further the voice in my head want me to stop eating i just cant anymore i wan na km,1 thoughts phrasing really need help best friend kinda like relationship talking stuff used phrase hes cooler crush dont think theres underlying message there reading far,0 endi keep hitting different things seems like getting worse decide random trivial occurrences great opportunities hurt myself get phone call im something ill start punching myself im terrible school might fail senior year even enrolled school anymore im home want yell fuck loud disappear one friend probably hates me teacher comes test finals tonight fucking phone freaking right making mad cant even type suicidal sub reddit without getting pissed started coming antidepressant long ago caused rage depression insomnia hellish things wanna fucking jump roof die painlessly fuck,1 Analog Heart on continuous play while driving to the doctor. I love having Fridays off! Not to brag... ,0 saying word doesnt mean racist goddammit white use nword sometimes also racist all im quite scientific anomaly,0 speak french ive prepared guide speak french fluently baguette wee doublevay trois noir vert mademoiselle well thats learned french class anyways seem like work,0 "Hello again, me old friend depression. Been a while hasn't it?",1 dont feel happiness anymorei dont remember last time actually felt happy excited dont dont know living worth anymore dont try convince kill myself want honest opinions kill myself genuinely dont see point living anymore dont even friends one likes except mom please need help,1 got text cousin australia minutes ago apparently hes emergency room rolled sleep onto huntsman spider got bit pain bite woke up mom took emergency room apparently allergic thank fuck sister epipen bees sent picture arm like size cantaloupe thats reduced swelling medications doctors gave,0 thought fought past turns im right back again risk dragging someone else meits since ive use throwaway quite happy fact guys awesome last time got back feet couple months intense motivation living you choice comes emotions moods deal amazing stopped meds happened thought headed recovery merits suppose partly correct back story pretty bad childhood often left alone so deal lot abandonment issues adult abused sexually mentally depression start years that years old nan who raised lived time died pretty bad bad would leave room days weeks one time months time mum powerless depression long term deal one top hers never finished school this now back present managed find amazing lady girlfriend lives hours away by train go see days off im happy distance weve going months cant really anything that real problem is know real qualifications working dead end retail job years know confidence could make pretty good manager want work retail rest life know change that know start id love something it even answering phones deal peoples problems i anyway people right front me know start ive applying jobs require previous experience hearing back really starting get me feel trapped helpless im falling familiar dark place almost claimed fear try soon im really scared im gonna fall time able get back again really want things going head live country family one go advice guidance desperately need feel alone want take easiest way out please help me,1 "collegeeeeee, sun puts me in a good mood ",0 @SunixRS depression,1 long time since original quite funny black comedy surfaced eating raoul top list favor find undertaking betty immediately subject death funny attempted see paul bartel mary woronov mortuary academy movie brilliant moments black comedy undertaking betty much steady better cast could imagine undertaking business might fertile ground original uplifting heartfelt comedy surprised too highly recommend seeing undertaking betty merk,0 Keep an eye out for NeuroStar's first national tv ad - airing this week. Spreading the awareness for TMS therapy for depression! https://www.facebook.com/AssociatedBehavioralHealth/posts/1614855991968718 …,1 i ve had anxiety a long a i can remember and it not like it ruin my life but i feel i could be doing much better socially and academically if i took a pill that just got rid of it im a college athlete who work out eats right and is in great shape so i truly believe i just have a chemical imbalance that cause my anxiety to act up especially in low action situation such a a classroom this is also spot on with my adhd diagnosis but those med don t help my anxiety all i hear is that when you get on those pill you got ta stop drinking and shit i smoke weed everyday drink heavily every weekend and do coke mushroom acid pretty seldomly anyone got advice for anti anxiety med that aren t going to ruin my brain if i want to drink or do my recreational drug still im even willing to quit the drug and slow down on my booze and weed i just dont want to quit for good,1 wonder movie prices movie lingers soul wonder took paul reiser years finally give talk peter falk idea understand every part it movie make cry tear thousandsbr br story sam kleinman gets letter wife leaving find something else son take road trip find her find something lost friendship family affection other beginning know whats going happen none soever story easy figure beginning end ride father son husband wife wonder took paul reiser years write beautiful romancecomedybr br actors well cant say anything else say hey peter falk it legend everything movies magic use peter falk romancecomedy think get perfect outcome wonder movie perfect many prices son paul reiser excellent job although great actor always mean work actually peter falk paul reiser plays perfect father son rest cast good enough see much say shall get shine even more br br music always work using music sometimes fit thing movie music perfect tune makes movie even compelling part movie shine good parts great soundtrack romancecomedy thats surebr br overall many romancecomedy movies tapes dvds bluray not movie one special ones happen everyday create story like this takes years thinking fact actually took make it great piece bought kept human soul see get old see father old age think movie spark like ever made,0 awards fucking useless virtual currency funny much people spend money useless items dont anything exist hate people would see post like would like haha award go brrr dont that go use award money something else like video game shit,0 @claritynow i write music and sometimes my inner thoughts i will check it out now!,0 normal get excited simply things jump around im happy friends noticed get excited little things like lightning fire science army plane flying school ill jump getting excited saying look plane thats cool laugh sometimes flapping arms around even try to tell act like im years old something sometimes make fun thought getting excited little things normal everyone telling,0 @Rob_Jensen Keep the kids in a sterile room and have them do online classes. That should solve a lot of problems ,0 since last night my stomach wa bloated and when i went to sleep my stomach felt queasy and i wa nauseous today my stomach still doesn t feel good and am still nauseous and it s hard to eat food not sure what this is is it a stomach flu anxiety,1 want kill otherstoday walking saw two happy girls chatting laughing enjoying life instead happy that immediately thought murdering them knife think ill ever something like ever since became suicidal kind thoughts became something ordinary me,1 im suicidal disabilityis true without good education youre basically fucked unskilled work low paid even youre lucky bad paid secure unskilled work automated may ask get education thats easy me disability autism hard learn new things yes learning disability too do dont want end dead end job fear thats going happen cant get decent education tipps me tried several times kill too why future think do,1 @Nobodey podcasting should be a breeze for you then. ,0 got k karma exciting,0 depression caused chronic inflammation brainhi read article depression caused chronic inflammation makes way brain feeling suicidal please take couple nsaids advil aspirin give little time see start feeling better started felt really bad actually really think helps take first signs im sure know mean feel depression creeping you also love heavy weight lifting help mood course depressed want exercise easy minute warm treadmill gets ready work love peace you brothers sisters,1 almost hung morningi never went bed night emotions hitting real hard morning still without sleep decided going kill myself found belt tried around neck see would fit fit really well went hang belt could hold hung moment somewhat clarity ill go sleep i ended getting sleep still going sleep type this still feel way wake fuck decided woke completely forgot happened,1 "The Poken are clearly conspiring against me Hey, I'm the official evangelist along with Andrew, so I had to... re: http://ff.im/2YXeP",0 muzocan we should talk about this australia issue,0 and i m running out of time to decide i couldn t give a shit le about my major about internship about anything i don t know how to fix myself and i can t bring myself to try anything anymore if i manage to survive past the next few year which seems to be getting exponentially difficult i m going to have fucked over my career or myself now i have no good option,1 waiting die passively suicidalim year married woman boring clericaladministrative work ever since puberty ive dealt depression social anxiety codependency ive suicidal thoughts since never acted upon meaningful way except one time young teen tried get top building jump it foiled locked door ridiculous last years rough less less energy terrible time paying attention work suffer it makes feel even like shit even suicidal thoughts used enjoy things passion dance literature history etc im starting find difficult even get excited things now real friends apart one lovely lady may bonded college lives far away due combination terrible social skills well afraid basically everyone right now meaningful relationships may parents brother husband husband genuinely good guy honestly love man never want get divorced think matter time marriage crumbles apart due number reasons life sentence mental illness seem give fuck narrow interests gaming gaming combined inability take pleasure anything anymore ive tried get interested things together thing together gaming watching tv worse sex life frankly disappointing good ill hearts tied libido feel unloved scarcity it last times weve sex like making love someone whod rather something else really passive disinterested change appearance since started dating either hes sick difference drives ive tried therapy last round go well psychiatrist kept trying focus finding meaningful career honestly self esteem shit automatically think would fail whatever set do im going try frustrating im tired kept wishing ill erased existence memory think drinking bottle draino know loved ones would tormented guilt want hurt them,1 ive been struggling with my mental health for a really long time even throughout secondary school the only thing is ive always pushed it down and gotten away with achieving my academic expectation despite how im struggling ive never told anyone about my problem not even my mum i guess i never wanted to worry her and also took alot of pride in being able to handle myself and not needing help from anyone i guess the combination of leaving it untreated and uni stress ha made it get worse and worse to the point it spiralled out of control i dont know the last time i actually ate a meal rather than just snack food all day the light is broken in my bathroom and i cant call maintenance to fix it because of the state of my dorm i have a nocturnal sleeping schedule and i rarely shower or leave my room i cant apply for special circumstance and try to finish the year because i cant even get out of bed let alone catch up on load of work and missed assignment i really just need to go home and eliminate the stress in order to seek medical treatment and get better but i dont know how to break it to my mum because she think im perfectly fine like how doe it go from being completely okay to me being in a full blown crisis just like that for her it not that i dont think she ll understand but i feel like im a completely different person than who she see no idea of anyone will see this but id really appreciate some advice support because ive never spoken to anyone about my mental health and idk what to do,1 It's hard for someone who has depression to admit they have depression because majority of these people doesn't really have the reason to have depression and that's actually what makes what their feeling worse.,1 fastest way kms help,1 "@drakkardnoir I see you don't have a tweet addiction, and that's great! ",0 im still awake watching one piece nightmorningday guys,0 factsthe truth depression happens family friends think faggot lame duck hide behind back it wake look mirror everyday laugh humans hilarious way try control mind fuck death actually cant get job im retarded everyone hates fuck em,1 cannot decide whenmy parents visiting right now wait till friday want husband love thing stops going thinking upset hed be cant hold longer month two now every night close eyes think hanging rope thought soothes lot pain gone wish way reboot myself isnt strength live everyday force wake up get ready go work come back home try live routine life work think alive anymore helps lot solution see ceasing exist begged support difficult taken seriously pretend everything fine externally yearned feeling wanted needed life maybe oversensitive wanted months till time tough love jokes happy around words everyday much mean him fantasize fatal car accident without hurting anyone else course one needs know killed myself easier everyone get it cannot strong anymore sure do it waiting till friday seems impossible now,1 tried commit last nighti severe suicidal thoughts day yesterday last night wanted end tried commiting redflag again felt pain felt would go away much wanted to want die know hurt lot people go least think will tried ended crying hours straight knowing do thoughts get worse every day cant tell anyone care want worry me ask say im fine,1 drama need helphey guys ive recently struggling lot issues surrounding situation feel wrong way though circumstances would push way am come loving household good friends plenty money people love me motivation get bed morning nothing seems worth anymore little things used enjoy felt like nothing biggest passions ive since birth dont interest anymore ive looking options im optimistic im finding difficult fix problem true source dont plan committing redflag time aoon im trying take preventitive action late,1 watched rw years ago like idk would never want anyone deal suicide conscious would blame anyone now literally depressed obviously okay ever like mmmm dunno startin think lot people could shit done moreeelike never wanted feel blame suicide strong motivator like still alive type this now bitter shit world kind done kind it literally everything go fuck care literally kind point maladaptive survival core beliefs strongest notredflag fight ever happens getting ass continuously handed whatever forces routine basisbut like jesus man would hug hard give knew one could save life get,1 im never suicidal,1 i struggle with school having to take all honor and ap class at home my parent insult me and treat me like a tool making me pick up their slack they give me the same excuse saying that since they work i need to do something my mom and step dad also think that my study are the most important thing in the world a i cant go out with friend having three sibling that are 0 year younger than me also build up this stress my family issue also include me not knowing my real dad my mom never told me anything about him but snooping through her phone let me know he in jail in another country i cant take my family anymore and i wan na cry but i cant my friend dont understand since they have loving family and big home the only person i can talk to is my closest friend but knowing that she ha her own issue worry me i have not cried ever since th grade and when i do it me tearing up i cant feel happiness anymore nor sadness it just me hating my family even more sport and videogames arent a good escape for me anymore a i lost interest in it and keeping up good grade to impress my parent make me want to cry but i cant i dont know anymore and im stooping really low talking on reddit i wish i could cry but i physically cant,1 future job; doing career job thing. hotel manager? city adminastrator? or a stage manager? all my future jobs are managers! muahahha! <33,0 gonna move ive crushing girl weve actually close thought felt way found sex person hurt even said love you ive decided let part go saw kissing another guy snap feel like give find someone doesnt leave delivered doesnt relationships people,0 im going sooni know anymore cant hold even call centre job causes extreme panic attacks future career prospects family see failure disappointment lie constantly burden problems way anymore know theyre going think im selfish killing really way anymore go away end week im going nobodys stop me,1 tried killing failed multiple timesa days birthday falling someone care way much mind went dark place tried cutting myself overdosing hanging myself working plz help,1 ever stop wanting die every time something small happens meive feeling way way many years want end,1 tried killing last nighti tried killing last night xanax alcohol im sure feels worse fact tried fact succeed head messed years living like way live,1 i would like to disconnect myself from this world shit because it cause me even to not sleep some day i managed to do some thing because i m a moderate intense social medium user the easiest solution would be just stop using social medium and i would like so but i have adhd and i can t just stop using it i dont find other way to entertain me i m gamer and i would like to enjoy mobile game but it feel super inconvenient playing on a touch screen also some of them drain battery so quickly and i get bored so quick of them these are some thing i already managed to do i m currently using sync for reddit so i can mute word about w r related this wa my major concern also on pc i m using re so i could do the same on pc i have an extension called simple twitter which allows me to remove trendings and having more like an ipad twitter experience luckily tiktok and youtube algorithm doesnt show me content i don t like to see everything is funny or accurate about what i like my major concern are mobile twitter even i have muted word it show me news i dont want to see my tl is fine but it going to search and i see those clickbaity trend which most of time i enjoy but always ha rvssia ukra ne shit i dont want to see my family always put news on tv even i always say i dont lile to see them even i always suggest to turn off the tv or simply switch channel the simpson it s always at lunch time for example the situation wa the same even on early covid season in 0 0 when nobody knew anything always the news were covid de th increase to x president declares lockdown shut down some comerces etc etc everywere i like to see ha somewhere support for ukr ine which dont misunderstand me i support and donated for the cause and i wish the best for them but it still reminds me about the problem which i dont like to see this is the minor concern but it doesnt help me to be calm i would appreciate other way i can entertain me when i m exempt from responsibility thank you in advance,1 need helpi lost last thing live for never coming back maybe sw help find something else live for edge ending it,1 let explain happened today fight mom nowhere said if killed nobody would cry funeral already made post life anyway hearing went roof started crying screaming talking unfair treatment life given me new city friends nothing nobody talk to really want let hatred consume maybe already did really know lost,1 need shoulder cry im aloneits happened again another girlfriend cheated me point im thinking really getting anymore relationships dont know anymore everything going fine fucked stopped giving attention stopped treating nice things stopped taking dates fucking faulti classes today didnt feel like going park day fuck wrong cheat me coincidence two times means fault do day always knew lonely past months fine side weeks ago best friend nearly years moved country would share verything one person could really let everything to getting lonely reddit dont know long keep act together ive pretending happy long know really am gaming nice distraction even lately cant seem get fully game constant battle feel like shit lying people around friends ive made reddit today pretended someone wasnt pretended happy pretended problems stupid things happened chat dont want pretend anymore stop like me browse rdepression everynight browse new section make sure always comment threads comments im wondering right now going anyone me might actually hurt tonight reddit know stop myself im always saying ill listen others one listen me might actually hurt tonight ive crying much last hour eyelids hurt much eyes puffy cant see shit really need someones shoulder cry reddit need someone hold me need someone hold me one want friends read this want chat read this really am shambled broken piece shit im brave im happyim think am im piece shit ive tried hard make life worth something happened today fucking broke me im really hope someone finds post dont want die alone,1 skynews jayneseckersky rishisunak there are two meaning for depression and we are heading for both,1 need someone talk toim getting desperate now im worried sometimes need someone talk to,1 Lovely hubby has just spray tanned the back of my legs for me so hopefully won't look like an allsort for much longer!! ,0 @K4Ge lol Quite nice to hear ,0 dad slapped againmy arm fucking red swollen fuck,1 credflag childhood abuse ex abused hit me current relationshipi love anger issues due bipolar laid today become caretaker low energy become due depression want way feel embarrassed ridiculed ashamed said seek therapy said therapy pointless pursue pay reason anger me causing it caused all could not could make many people angry life it common denominator would world favor leaving fault,1 peut tre que je rate mon deuxi me jour de labo que je me sen super mal avec le combo r gles et d pression mais j ai un petit chat qui me bave dessus http t co flqwtpokvn,1 gameinformer magazines actual games stacked like inches tall,0 ayo peepee poopoo check peepee poopoo uuuuuuuhhhh peepeepoopoo uuuhhhuhhh,0 get people think jojos bizarre adventure amazing like watched episodes okay def cum like people doing feel like people need chill show okay amazing,0 big blue wolf not yet no doubt i ll get a chance to until tonight work s mental thanks to bt cutting off 0 000 customer today,0 people attempted hangingdid hurthow long passed outdid leave physicaly disabeled sorrt asking questionsif much answer im curious want,1 guys believe class rings worth itwhy not im junior high school im considering getting class ring im sure theyre worth theyre charging singular ring,0 so i made a similar post in confession but i guess it belongs here maybe maybe not i don t think anyone really care anyway well when i wa m i ve been tortured by two girl aged around they d wait up for me after school take me to a secluded area and sodomize me when they were finished they would repeatedly kick my private part and punch my stomach when i would cry they said they would not stop until i stopped my cry since then i ve never cried anymore in my life and i wish i could my feeling have faded away and i thought that wa part of becoming an adult i would lay for hour in pain and then come home telling my parent i wa at a friend s this ha been going on for about a year no matter if i took a different route home or tried to run they would do this almost daily i wouldn t tell my parent because they were threatening to kill my dog and family if i did my parent started to distrust me and thought i wa doing bad thing after school since i wouldn t share my friend s name after this i mainly focused on school and avoided most people i ve built up major trust issue and only had a few bad relationship where my trust issue would always ruin thing and while i hate to admit it i hate most woman or my inability to deal with them i had to man up since in my thought this wouldn t happen to a man by some girl my way of being a manly man wa to be strong and not have emotion i have thought a lot about this part of my childhood and always blamed myself for not thinking recently i feel hate towards the person that did this to me one of them died because of drug overdose which to this day make me smile i have made a plan for an accident to happen to this person i have planned out all the detail for this to happen and i wholeheartedly believe she deserves to die right now i am year of age recently been diagnosed with bipolar syndrome and some other anti social disorder i have been depressed for the most part of my life and instead of taking someone s life i ll just end my own thanks for letting me share this i have been embarrassed about it all my life and i ve never felt either manly or adult i could never bring myself to tell anyone,1 "Depression, A Struggle Made Easier with CBD http://cbdamericanshaman.com/blog/depression-a-struggle-made-easier-with-cbd …",1 tweet dreams ,0 hate livingi hate waking everyday going work hours week make jack shiti hate cannot even look forward relationship get tired much go home sleep again supposed happy life nothing 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Where exactly are you?,0 naruto ep nothing wanted say sum ye ye ye ye ye,0 need advice almost year cant anything feeling sad worthless cant even easy task like taking trash energy live pandemic slows im gonna need school yo overwhelm something bad point post tell parents need see doctor this know theres something wrong im scared theyll think im joking move on,0 therapy meditation working out changed my diet spirituality religion medication what else is there,1 Tips for When Depression or Anxiety Keeps You Up at Night - Insomnia keeps our brain from enjoying a break... https://tmblr.co/ZCkc3e2XPfm6h ,1 "@johnerobinson Hey, you never know! ",0 wish could stop patiently waiting die actually take actionive dug deep probably gonna much work make back low functioning dependent still much pussy actually fucking it sometimes even wish parents would die me could go without hurting them,1 really wanna relaxmolested age persuaded sending nudes pedophile age got overweight shortly after lost weight means help depression slow suicidal thoughts worked bit im back here im depressed absolutely friends one talk problems left islam without telling family did wouldve disowned live life pretending someone im helping mental health family friends love you please cherish stay around them im male btw,1 im helpi used come talk people edge something hurtful month took time personal reasons im therapist anything sometimes person needs someone listen sayingmaybe okay would like help things im requesting anyone needs help chat reach meill make sure get back soonall welcomed im m matters anyone,1 im taking some exercise right now ,0 want free follower donchu desktop go profile mobile open browser chrome preferably enable desktop tab open reddit account enable old reddit by either replacing www url old click arrow right next name click visit old reddit right side karma count click viewedit snoovatar scroll down right side trophy case option follow usename follow yourself one free follower brag about,0 i m just so disgusted by myself i don t want to do this anymore i hate myself so much and i can t stop thinking about blowing my brain out or taking all my medication when i get home from work in one year i ve ruined my life and future i fucking hate myself so much i feel like i m going to burst into flame i don t know how to live with this and after a year i ve realized i can t,1 owe fuckers anythingwhen kill im writing note im telling soul never cared like need break news easy anything,1 @audette is very entertaining #smx nice job!,0 guys find online school harder easier perks come cons come it im struggling little bit math still feel like im obtaining knowledge,0 tbh think get betterive lurked reddit now often looking threads hit low point bring back yeah ill admit really helped twice probably even saved life im tired tired cliched comments samey advice gets flung around really isnt point fucking life siblings surviving parents loved ones leave behind hurt career chose excruciatingly boring one handed notice in weird thing is im feeling like im low point moment actually feel really bloody good better years fact knowing swift departure world almost negative effect mean barley even internet presence gods sake reddit lurker say all cheers cant exactly say ive enjoyed time here although going endeavour make last day enjoyable one maybe ill one last pint goodluck everybody hope find purpose life,1 Stray Cats ~ Stray Cat Strut ♫ http://blip.fm/~890vq,0 what are you been doing lately how life s going for you in my side i started studying at college i m very proud of what i ve accomplished mostly managing my anxiety still got a lot of work to do the only thing that is kinda bothering me now is that i feel lonely abandoned,1 throat killing me and missing gordon,0 class today class today talking underwear dont ask why asked teacher colour underwear ill go history fucking god,0 thought racism wasnt thing america im disappointed im eastern europe always thought like racist place earth rest world nice accepting saw movies people colours assumed everyone living peace racism simply doesnt exist usa im disappointed right ,0 "My life is just one long anxiety attack strewn with depression, etc so bad you cannot un-dwell",1 brother got drunk broke foot told believe sexual abuse also told get kill when letting live rent bill free dad told fuck walked house pay immediately started attacking verbally incredibly angry quickly nana told today knowing bulimic massive self image issues put weightwhy move away friends moved closer family,1 @falakk not at all ji - i'm sure you will enlighten me ,0 man music really take another place played bts cafe im another cafe,0 @warren83 Hey there How are you?,0 one of my site s pr dropped http plurk com p n0jlt,0 "Ah Mondays The start of a great week, I hope!",0 yknow whenever feel insecure look many camels im worth fiftyone baby fifty one im better now,0 boyfriend years left metwo days year anniversary boyfriend told want anymore days since cant think anything else sleeps someone else gets relationship someone else devastated beyond words spent lives other cant hold anymore ive always thought going kill myself happy think often anymore live together cat together rest family lives far away one friend stay with bad relationship so fucking broken,1 idk feel like shit dont want anything anymore dont enjoy talking friends like used to dont energy workout make resin bake dont feel happy talking best friend anymore dont energy school dont even motivation get bed days cry nowhere skip meals even gave shopping lunch day dad didnt feel like going out feel like one gives shit me feels like im used think it stress it mom keeps asking whats wrong keep saying im fine im fine need help dont know get it dont want hurt anyone way am feels like cant talk anyone im supposed fine im almost years clean great grades im going graduate start college soon im supposed fine right dont know whats wrong me,0 supposed feel lovr use protection really love cum inside,0 peepeepoopoo man comes back revenge laugh name become new victim,0 depression from past me for making baked goods,1 nah cuz im hot alt girl tf gamer bf pull tf,0 ever wondered like like cant use play anymore gotta sound cool use hangout like whats couldnt keep using play,0 shortiethug how come ur background cover the screen but mine is in the corner,0 hit rock bottomthe pandemic fired job girlfriend loved much leaving me barely stand father anymore hes insufferable cruel really want die idk ever drag this,1 "@artrox Hi Nicky, your url in here got an error. http://tallpoppies.pbworks.com/. ",0 hate responsibilitiesi want kill myself meh,1 comments mine mostly agree edyarbs story script apparently potential funny though managing points places failed could see wanting make joke one audience laughed also agree edyarbs view end credits leave normal make cool theyve done now br br ok gives negative feeling actually watching movie enjoyed it pleasant entertainment night definitely feel like waste money get ticket best jokes ones go little bit outside expected fairly mature like luke wilsons character matt asking super chick pnis bed told shed get new one wild night bed ending breaking bed leaving matt sorebr br i cannot however agree bgswho says film could earn r rating absolutely nothing film justify that sexual acts yes nothing explicit humorous nudity whatsoever maybe prescreening showed more id like compare two recent films went see expectations whatsoever superman returns click really expect anything either one big fan original superman films trailer click showed potentially chauvinistic which oppose film superman surprised actually feel goodgoosebumps seeing first heroic deed like seeing long lost friend feeling happy it rest story id rather watch super exgirlfriend least offers surprises click total surprise much better deeper trailer five minutes away really excellent movie jokes also work much better exgirlfriend naughty ones advanced onesbr br anyway reason compared three films three last ones ive seen within short period also went basically expectations all id rank click girlfriend superman,0 social cues look socializing teenagers hey teenagers ive always struggled socializing social cues never detect whether person wants friend tolerating me always either overreach do things person comfortable with never talk someone may want talk me thats im asking this,0 oh yeah and morning campers ,0 someone listeni several things leading redflag need put know people want help yo selfloathing gay man tried someone long lost track wanted be ever really knew grips depression suicidal need know fact get better feel friends honest people am would want friends liar know make life better thats bs know bring it accept move on sound easy right not plan going work morning source pain me work small factory filled men men comfortable homosexuality one friend there sweetheart man straight raised primarily women get along well slow one hell human being lot right now put mask back go work ltbgttldrltbgt im gay hate it self hate killing me want group mentally healthy gay people swoop save life know healthy people want around sick people ltbgttldr waas longltbgt need someone tell things going ok,1 going happen soonmarried employed homeowner still want kill msyelf think much takke seriously im drinking heavily wifes work home alone feels fake me,1 hi everyone got prescribed citalopram celexa for anxiety yesterday and took my first 0mg last night i woke up a lot earlier than usual today and couldn t go back to sleep a easy i m reading about the side effect and noticed that one can be insomnia i don t know if it s the citalopram or my anxiety kicking in from reading all these side effect but i m feeling more on edge than i did the past few day at this point i m unsure about continuing a i haven t had a serious panic attack in a while and i wanted medication for low mild anxiety i do know that citalopram can eventually provide great result but i m also worried about the withdrawal symptom of coming off of it can anyone else share their first day story so i m not worrying my head off is pill enough to trigger these side effect thank you,1 "I'm at a bar in Roy, WA. What kind of person have I turned into! Don't worry, I'm sober! ",0 im going to university with this childhood friend of mine the thing is i don t know how to socialize any further than just a small talk that lead no where and i never know what to talk about even with them and they present me people that are nice but i just don t feel comfortable with them i try to talk to the people in my classroom in the different class but never go any further than that every time i talk to someone i feel like i m annoying them or that my mere pressense irritates them i don t know what to do to expand my social group to people i have common interest in both in hobby and in the career i m at,1 i will never like getting up at am dumb work schedule,0 deserve thisim hell im depressed live middle nowhere best friend significant stabbed back different times past month replaced within week ive got nobody now little brother attacks constantly father screams im oldest child mother hates me get called names anywhere go ive got reason live anymore last month life finally going well everything fell apart this,1 trying find reason keep goingbut everything failing give hope get better quit job again job starting th still need income till then yes ive tried therapy yes ive tried meds yes ive tried drugs home remedies too yes dr knows sees regular basis im loss cant find anything motivates try something new mostly cant think anything new try ive either tried make sense backed science anyone something completely box try im happy hear it give shot point would try lobotomy offered anymore nothing life interests anymore none hobbies even pets even love life anymore im tired done,1 realise lot trouble thought were know energy get back itso ive drifting along couple years now tried back then get gp refer assessment therapy counselling anything messed around dragged heels confident i lost heart see trying lose weight get surgery done surgery going change life going thing finally let get living lose weight kept sabotaging myself let it know know it understand why stop get surgery give theatre stage manager one thing really made feel like me made feel alive lived for cant anymore top day job cant make enough professionally quit day job give up day day gave everything else too just lost myself almost years cant go gym anymore cant even go large supermarket bought new clothes replace stuff need work room full craft materials tools musical instruments get dustier work now work laundry cooked proper meal since maybe october washed dishes since november laundry office job know just one thing day take pride it thing know recognise good things pleased them stuff ive gone mindfulness exercises ive thought people love reasons want stick around realised id slowly given clawing back things used life remember when point stopped even pretending plans anymore going get surgery give six months get back together going look going back school get qualified something bore craziness going move apartment somewhere want live going take running again point accepted none things ever going happen want way thats way is realise crashed call emergency line weeks back actually really bad way assessment phone basics and know actually answer questions back back black white yeah realised im ok ive telling long keep going long im still working ironing shirts getting office every day cant that bad right right think might bad world grown smaller smaller greyer greyer is me ironing board office job feel bored days really really know keep screaming me support network me safety net me think really want anymore thats problem ive realised ive lost knack wanting things remember go wanting things want anymore absence things want less tired want less stressed out want spend less time sitting nights want stop noise head finally possibility getting psychiatric assessment ill know whether happening within week happening energy start running around track again power left start see time really want over im control freak want someone come take away make better want someone come fix me allow kind thing want able fix myself want able pick up dust start mending myself just think it think ive got enough me left with even finally get assessment done prescribe something finally get therapy ive pursuing long stuff takes much energy ive done therapy know well incredibly hard work want work hard it do im exhausted even thinking it taken long enough fuel left get ground time im person ive got rescue me friends wonderful friends cannot ask things them cant bring ask anything except strangers just cant it cant bear it im person ive got rescue longer think it ive depressive episodes before experienced kind protracted longing death since teens im years old magically get well next months itll still take years lose enough weight get surgery done another year waiting list ill done dusted decade alone decade lost wasted stuck shitty little apartment stacks dishes ignore ringing silence late long great plan dying planning pack shit going move house going tell everyone id got job canada thats id met someone online going go id pack shit put stuff wanted leave people labelled storage carefully crossreferenced will letters going move new place city ive never before mail key secondclass police letter telling theyd find set bathtub caring neighbours brokenhearted friends left appointments still hanging calendars cant bring pack cant bring anything im terrified im going get therapy run battery completely flat end floating here alone unable even work unable put key envelope stuck unable die dreadful dreadful twilight photocopy life hope anymore even know want hope back just want over bad want stop know know matters anyway needed put somewhere thank you,1 would painless way dieprobably shot head assume dont access gun bruh,1 fellas gotta ask would transphobic want sex trans female,0 jacvanek what a sad thought if it isnt lt cc,0 nicolerichie oh my yes i miss,0 leaving koh tao start of journey back to bangkok http twitpic com y uv,0 dew county mountain dew popular west virginia and kentucky,0 ever boil hot dogs eat pot immediately theyre done stove still on thats everyone,0 yalls beliefs extraordinary paranormal believe stuff im bored muffucka ghosts cool zodiac signs dum dum thoughts,0 suicidal escaping desert island corona overive genuinely thoughts going grid completely corona situation over picture personally built raft going foreign country which id fly to island human travelled to id inform mum everyone else abandoned me months departure im thinking going holiday point im burden anyway obviously need research further,1 haha yall theres fires live one miles away yea seriously im might lose everything thanks fucking idiot point im ready die,0 huge fan camp kitsch so bad good type viewing however really like film fun factor believe innovationbr br the whole thing ring john waters boundlessly enthusiastic superb actors considered direction making slapstick styalised movements billy zane moves incredible expression see scene bus textbook lesson use movement framed unexpected starsbr br you may like film may enjoy it get chance watch it spare time chances end film confused smile face new perspective sense humour big stars highly reccomended,0 idk if anyone else get this feeling but i do and it never really go away i get this feeling everywhere and all the time like i just don t belong i always feel like i don t belong anywhere like no one will ever get me i know that sound kinda childish but it s true i just never belong anywhere and any time i try to talk about something i m very interested in it seems like i m the only one interested in these thing and i m always the one they call weird and ostracised i m always the butt of a joke with my friend and family i never get to talk about the thing i wan na talk about even my closest friend don t get me i just feel so alone all the time and it often lead me to making terrible decision any time i think i m happy i just ruin it then that lead me to get paranoid any time i m happy which again lead to me ruining it again i feel like this sound like nonsense but idk how to properly put this feeling into a coherent sentence sorry if this wa too long too,1 redflag bring anyone odd sense peaceknowing couple months brings happiness thing calms breakdown fact im going kill myself dont know why brings really odd sense assurance soon im happy,1 @KnightTim I love you too,0 girls never cheat always alone lonely sad,0 want die mi dont know strucked head wanted die dont know how why people love me dont want sad cam right wish didnt exist first place,1 looked good green hope well look good im proud still hope think still friend hope love body heart hope feel happy thats want,0 hey last year i went through a horrible horrible depression and it s wa because i wa going through a lot and i wa always doing thing for people i forgot about myself and this year i just want to focus on me but it s like people from my past are trying to come back into my life and i don t want nothing to do with them i m also trying my best to protect my energy so sometimes i get in a mood of i don t want to talk to anyone like i m perfectly fine just being alone and it s like human these day don t understand this they get upset i don t want to be a bad person but i just can t handle too many friend or a lot of people in my life just hanging out in the background if i could just be alone forever i honestly would i been through so much trauma i don t trust anybody,1 i wish my iphone would let me do the thing it would be so much easier,0 Lonely millennials are at a greater risk of developing anxiety and depression -- but the reasons for their isolation are unclear https://www.businessinsider.com.au/lonely-millennials-twice-as-likely-to-develop-anxiety-and-depression-2018-4 …,1 "Aah, this time I WILL take that MINI cabrio to test. The whole weekend. Great, here comes the rain ",0 inly year highschool already want end it best friends which girls btw multiple biyfriends since known one girlfriend ciuldt keep month without cheating worthless ass nobody cares anymore cannot even talk friends without getting baker acted stuck psych ward days whuch nothing honestly thinking getting gun downstairs ending rn just need way out cannot anymore,1 need listen please believe im completely lonely please judge,0 ha a mild left inner ear infection and it got this irritating quot blocked quot feeling since sunday,0 want make million dash dreams someone dropped like m id never productive member society again id get wife care gd kids chill day,0 posting every day end day live gonna get degrees tonight finally cooler weather ive enough summer,0 kind cars yall drive idk man put engine displacement youre ebic,0 divya gandotra to be in continuous state of doubt anxiety and depression that s their motto it seems,1 so i m just going to get this off my chest i m and in one evening in the beginning of november i went to go to sleep and felt like i couldn t breath i got up and wa sweating super fucking restless so it wa like a mini panic attack this panic attack ha marked the most torturous month of my life i wake up in the morning and the first feeling i have is a racing heart that anxious feeling in my chest shortness of breath and it last constantly until i have to take sleep aid to calm me down enough to sleep at night i don t understand why me i eat healthy i exercise and there is no family history of anxiety it suck because i m not anxious about anything in particular it s the feeling so i ve been sort of surviving on benzos not everyday probs a few time a week since then with lapse of about a week or so when i can t get any i just have been taking them to prevent the fucking anxiety starting i did have little time at the end of dec and around january feb for a week or two where i feel like it did go away but that might have been because i had benzos in my system and that s why i felt ok i ve been purposely cutting down my benzo use so last week i used on monday and didn t use until friday i felt severe anxiety all of those day but didn t crave the drug or have any withdrawal i only took them on friday because i just wanted a fucking rest it s so stressful to feel like this all the time i get so scared it s never going to go away i want to start an ssri but they take like week to work i can t wait that long sorry for the rant,1 much advil take pass out much dieasking friend,1 "morning all, anyone need a wedding photographer over the summer? ( I know it sounds desperate, but eh... I am!!) im competitively priced!",0 soul mateim years old nearing ive praying death year now always felt like never good enough older brother always better everything parents seemed love always felt like dissapointment got uni met girl fell madly love get insanely well would anything her person makes feel like normal person im away feels like theres nothing left me completes makes feel whole boyfriend really nice guy would get really well way treats makes despise him always late everything unorganized past laughable asked go meal old friends ex recently got engaged girl love want go persisted agreed blew friends go him tells her long shift work go something get known weeks understandably angry went home got pjs meal family finished phoned told meal asked was phone comforting her upset angry said would see evening turned turned hours later said would said apologise would take breakfast late too still forgave him also took girl wanted sleep before see girl loves favourite play theatre understandably upset this somehow convinced unreasonable im always one comfort boyfriend whatever wants everything im left nothing ive desire death met girl found felt human since ive comforted boyfriend many times desire death never greater reason write now help found felt incredibly sad promised would stay around long needed boyfriend visiting since arrived barely says word feel use finally run out stuck girl described worst year life often referred rock always tried hardest make happy put smile face boyfriend long distance relationship btw tried make situation people made feel awful better made worse often forgets consider hard tried last year her continually mentions boyfriend perfect glandular fever thats hard says looked grim glandular fever saw pictures still looked beautiful glorifies everything feel like im becoming worth less less seem need anymore feel getting closer closer redflag even boss work realised something up know do want end,1 I don't think people realize that depression is a real thing and how serious it is...,1 reddit continue livehi names adam im canada im sure word this basically im sure continue live care upvotes care honest opinions comments heres story story starts school year happy kid loving life well school happy appearance one day phone rang mom picked up minutes whispering heard mom crying stairs went effort console her told adam grandmother diagnosed lung cancer today moving us soon like person sad sad much it know feel really grandma nice lady problem her naturally mind moving in girl name morgan friends close stress building needed someone vent to think loud to express emotions to morgan person me ever needed person listen shoulder cry would there enjoyed life reason get morning loved heart morgan beautiful girl ever pleasure laying eyes on much popular me would always come back me matter hottest guy perfect abs liked me also played triple hockey for follow hockey good gets apart nhl busy person keeping alive nine months passed grandma move hospice house still remember every little detail awful place could build place asked grandma stay long died within month living place depression set me life sucked morgan life worth living still happy school year came end see often managed started gaming found ways pass time although still mind like every summer kid flew like nothing fine school starting would get see again guys year bigger better guys me became obsolete her would rather guy named connor connor hated me clue day did did mind talk much opinions matter me morgan girl dreams mean literally would ever dream her even sex dreams dreams i happy grades fell year tension parents started building started become quite apparent want married anymore began hate father thought bastard told mom multiple times stress started building end school year needed person vent release stress with guess came back life find funny entire months ignoring talking connor still accepted her summer talked quite bit good consoling me knew calm big fight parents unfortunately parents spent entire summer fighting hated every moment it mom one foot door leave dad summer started end continued love again still confused this luckily school starting around house anymore felt good going school year connor gone would able spend time morgan again new character makes introduction story name wes wes tall muscular handsome guy no homo friends throughout last school year still friends today liked better girl keeping alive like anymore liked wes better suicidal thoughts started thought maybe maybe could find another girl thats did found cleo great girl could never amount morgan best could get asked out laughed turned down thats thoughts started coming frequently sad sack shit thought joining army instead joined kickboxing league girl dreams want anymore next best girl rejected me parents separating grandma lived months died lung cancer pretty damn set taking life brings us recent time im pretty sure weeks ago another girl named emma im sure even liked emma wanted girlfriend someone love once asked morgan do think chance emma told emmas parents want dating backed her behind back morgan thought would good idea ask emma despite telling allowed date emma said wouldnt emma told older sister sister spread word older sister heard it sister furious rumours involving emmas family day emma rejected sister flipped grandpa died from dads side grandma earlier story moms side almost sure ending ten there died weekend bother going school monday spent monday gaming crying thinking life morgan myself cleo parents grandpa grandma went school next day turns morgan telling friends reason go monday emma rejecting me still would like thank lending time could make comment providing opinions questions would greatly appreciated adam,1 "@BrianNeudorff I love you, too. I should be home after the IEP meeting and before work ",0 @LittlePearls Huh what about us?? ,0 "@Scroobiuspipyo Just downloaded the podcasts, thank you thank you kind sir I'm loving it so far. Always making amazing stuff!",0 i wish it wa just depression,1 lost sure proceedi m nearly shot three times past month nearly front friends long story involves complicated family social life recently suffered concussion friend hit head day receiving hit lost control emotions real fake amazing gf willing anything help also love desire thats lived years never go away love close friend well call x x close friend knows feelings recently admitted feeling afraid rejection pain never dated think anything good would happen relationship would constricting love gf dearly loves dream girl day admitting everything burned me said want anything me x whenever gets scared family help neither friends were closely knitted want hurt social circle have told gf everything happened forgiven feel worth love hate x shit pulls through hate able count family hate suicidal since age long story just sure place next foot death seeming sweet oblivion final note x said shed help issues instantly burnt afterwards gf long distance,1 pretty face pretty bad dreams one knows cry sleep httpsopenspotifycomtrackzpcvdspynvkqcjrmxjsitjpxjxvordyclehndikqamputm_sourcecopylink,0 @Mr_Nico I'm here.. n tell soccerjunki to add me bcuz I was one of the first to say yes to her bein accepted in #TFC,0 aight ualexmaestro made new gif boy snoo gone go,0 guess asked crush thats sure uhead_hunter,0 main character internet checkpoint tell us story,0 teacher spent whole online class letting us chat great wanted us start saying missed normal life vent turned whole thing music rap good bad reason bts there great day think teacher spend time students great way act like normal classroom,0 another sidewill punished redflag,1 "OK, the inevitable happened - T-Rex led to Bowie. Spotify has an aboslutely massive Bowie collection - that's me sorted for the day ",0 @NadiaNV oh 4 real? When will it be shown? Would love to check that out....Congrats on getting that gig! ,0 oh gosh live kentucky mellisa joan hart came louisville went right neighborhood waved filthy rich wanted look neighborhood oh love rich ways came derby back interest show show makes want point finger something make disappear mean creative love would love show show amazing mean ever came show want give big kiss mean makes feel better im sick makes happy im mad mean someone tells like talk sense ok ok,0 make laugh ive got silver award want laugh make laugh get silver award,0 Is with alyssa ,0 seen film since came mid s recall realistic portrayal music business right paul simons one trick pony another vastly underrated film imo br br harvey keitel excellent job producer caught music believes commercial tripe record company suits want work withbr br since spent entire career music business composer arranger producer really vouch verisimilitude film possesses br br if ever come dvd uncut id buy it,0 im lonely want live anymoreive started losing social connections since years ago im completely alone even parents lost sympathy me know live it also job decent qualification obtain one,1 "#musicmonday Happy STAR WARS Day, celebrate by joining! http://axe-tech.net/forums/...",0 know dofirst all im native speaker please understand english so goes traumas deprived background such somehow always little depressed around years ago thing exploded major depression dulled emotions life become convenient rarely feel depressed problem lost fond life nothing want do nothing care even families friends want live really ive therapists taking medicines past years depression getting worse become suicidal im planning die months well im still taking medicines therapies hoping something would happen futile guess honest even know im writing here felt like still want give shot,1 people fickle persons reality upheld judgements made bits information get everything think understand turned upside one contradictory judgement brought another piece information reality relative fluid every experience interpreted determines individual reality like none matters still hold onto kids want ever see emptiness right now realities,1 turn today thats hope everyone good day ,0 im trying get better editing streaming uploaded new vid today hoping could get specific feedback it stream twitch well use streams vids one hr stream did like min look improve skillz link vid want watch httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvpoqkftzyhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvpoqkftzy ps please make feedback seem harsh im bit sensitive guess rude mean criticism,0 Searching how to know my self! and ... how to find a good girlfriend ,0 lamentations wasterthis life whatever make it know need change want results pain loneliness losing every friend family relation drug habit took life privileged complete waste price pay although im fucking miserable cant recover soon get money im high cant enjoy world sober everything try never stick heart nothing do see snakes eyes staring mirror want drift off place world sensitive overthinking junkie connect anyone selfhate locks prison atrocities commit myself never resting incessant thoughts life passing by lost dark hell made inside skull drugs turn everything dead hate selfishness suffering helped one ive tried ultimately im lost empty ive ever been want finally die am trying hard enough wait pain revelation god waiting savior cant anything beyond exist point mindnumbing insanity live ive cut world dad lives me leaves alone im erratic violent sometimes hate everything ive done ive become life bleak really know do i happened upon emergency stash good enough now suicidal thoughts hold life bearable know thinking posting here advice might get would along lines get help stay sober gets better could suboxone dad want pay anything treatment ive rehab three times one year,1 @hydrosonic I'm excited to see it ,0 hi all i m a 0 year old male with diagnosed anxiety depression and add a form of adhd minus external hyperactivity i m not entirely sure what this post is other than i d just like to share what i feel like often i think it would be interesting to hear if this is relatable to anyone else or if i can possibly provide some form of way to help others understand how they can explain what they re dealing with firstly a majority of my life is cut short due to the symptom alone of anxiety sweating profusely is by far the worst for me a it stand already i have a condition called hyper hydrosis simply meaning that i sweat far more than normal this combined with my feeling of anxiety no matter how big or small mean i m constantly sweating a i type this i m having to wipe my screen dry my under arm are dripping etc and all i m doing is sitting down anxiety come with ton of insecurity and in my experience hygiene is the biggest killer i shower everyday which is relatively normal but due to the amount i sweat i often have to rinse myself to feel clean again more often than not i ll end up needing shower within hour because of this i can t enjoy myself being around people knowing that i potentially smell due to my severe sweating this tends to mean jacket and long sleeve to prevent any possible smell being noticeable and of course in return the extra layer mean even more sweat without dragging on too much on one topic here this applies to thing like breathe skin cleanliness teeth condition etc almost everything you can be insecure about i m insecure about it add will often feel this is a best a i can personally describe it like there is some sort of ticking clock that is always close to hitting 0 even when thing are going slow or i m feeling relatively relaxed i often feel a if i m pressured by time in some sort of way this by itself is a nightmare to live with not to mention the never ending trouble that come with add but that s more subjective to me so i ll move on now having that combined with my anxiety is sometimes unbearable the most simple of task for example pulling up arriving somewhere and grabbing your bag and belonging before stepping out the vehicle it s never that simple people are waiting for me i need to hurry up my mum want to go home i got ta speed up i need to hurry up there s other driver probably being forced to stop because i m gathering my thing and so on often will end up in such a panic that i ll leave the car leaving behind a large amount of my item answering a phone call for whatever reason phone call send me into such a panic that i automatically hang up at any given moment it could even be mid sentence i always feel incredibly rude and it s the exact opposite of my intention a with my anxiety being a good person and not being judged or disliked is something so important to me phone call alone i have 000 thought going on make sure you sound interested you re gunna freeze up oh god it s going to get awkward am i speaking too much am i trying too hard with it okay just relax i can go on for a long time these are just some odd example of ton and ton of thing that i deal with and what everyone here deal with a well really i just hope this post ha given someone an idea that they re not alone with it which is a statement i find relatively comedic a nobody truly know how you actually feel and they never ever will however even in feeling alone you still aren t alone nobody is alone my heart go out to every person that deal with this can only apologise if any of this is hard to understand or isn t very clear putting thought into word is something that i think we all find probably the most difficult thing to do,1 german longcovid study 90 9 had no measurable physiological change ie psychosomatic risk factor pre exisiting psychological psychiatric condition depression postrauma anxiety specific job bureaucrat administrator teacher lower than average physical labor http t co llxtl g,1 Nancy is the one who didn't give a fuck about Steve the entire year they were together. Steve rightfully didn't want her famil... — Exactly. She didn't give a fuck about him because he didn't care about her depression and ptsd. H... https://curiouscat.me/swiftlyheatonx/post/429827091?1524679856 …,1 i f 0 lb think i m having heart burn right now though i m not sure at around 00 today i suddenly started getting a weird chest pain it s not severe pain more like a mild dull stabbing pain that only last in certain position if i lay a certain way the chest pain will go away however i feel the pain a little bit in my left shoulder blade just for a few second i m worrying that i m having a heart attack i know that heart burn is associated with a burning sensation i wouldn t describe the pain a burning it s now 9 pm and i am still feeling this i tried to take a tum but tum are way too gross to me and i can t stomach them are there way to differentiate between a heart attack and heart burn anxiety is convincing me that i m having a heart issue even though i just got an echocardiogram done le than a week ago and it wa normal help please i would just be safe and go to the er but that cost so much money and i ve been to the er three time this year so far because of my health anxiety they re gon na end up banning me lol i should mention that i am on metoprolol currently for high heart rate due to severe anxiety if that mean anything,1 cant escapei tried hang myself minutes thinking it it seconds still black out come close it it want pain fucking stop please make fucking stop,1 @jordi110398 Depression strikes again,1 know supposed drink depressed amp alone always makes feel better everyone tells says make feel worse always numbs makes feel better drank alone while tonight quite bit bit concerned go binge againi drink work week constantly drank work started one night like this sure do replacements alcohol drinking cope,1 http://www.justin.tv/nexy <----watch it NOW if u love MLG ,0 good getsbr br this six episodes tracing briefly life may like dinosaurs ruled earth done style nature documentary show away talking heads instead gives us good stuff dinosaurs attempting survivebr br certainly true documentary since none see screen attested certainty best guess entertaining one that show brings dinosaurs life realistic way involve eating people show shown kid loves dinosaurs since instill oh wow factor go find more also entertain hell them youbr br see this love animal shows nature science disney true life adventures except one really gets killed really good trip somewhere else run get copy brain thank you,0 me fucking know im trans also always play female video game characters filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 i m starting to lose hope i feel like i m on auto pilot i m not living i m existing,1 go to cinema in a few hours... watch "hannah montana-the movie"... love you @mileycyrus,0 looking forward day eventually bring home girl because idk would tell mom girlfriend what cuddling walk think otherwise i live woods even go itll take long time get,0 may know sometimes get sing song line line dms th time song do,0 incredibly salty rn found old ds game room called pokemon conquest remember playing little bit leaving halfway story days ago decided pick again today finally got point felt ready fight final boss went in bitch dodged least attacks attacks chance landing times attacked me got _ crits_ rest party members also dodged tons attacks mention weird stage gimmick inflicts status happen land like tiles map also one party members moves inflict knockback meaning knock onto tiles inflict status ill bouta die sodium poisoning swear god,0 "@Medscape @ajbrzski @AngrierThanMost Lol. I'd much rather not put any neurotoxins in my body regardless of dose. Fact is it IS a neurotoxin buddy. - lowers IQ - connected to adhd and depression.. I'll pass. Like I've said. You do you, I'll do me. Good luck.",1 footballer open up about depression crossydailystar toxic waste i think we know who the toxic waste is here,1 dont know anymorei feel completely down family going troubles right take me physically abusing mentally abusing me apparently thats abuse scars mentally always get anxiety people get mad annoyed wreck honestly ive gotten point im ready end life never good enough anymore friends hate me im always ignored hate it,1 @jacquelinerinda hey jac...whatever it is...GOOD LUCK! ,0 even time fuck supposed mean,0 thank hellow u first important exam semester friday already decided im gonna day yay need study god hate exams well mean hours ones sit facing computer paper pencil completely fine prove knowledge worth people judge me im basically worthless thank you luckily or luckily mom love mom mom take lot strong pills condition get little drunk mix together okay ive read okay mean dead obviously die lot pain probably deserved too well actually wanted say thank all ive multiple accounts never made post like simply im pusspuss scared regretting ive talked many amazing people similar thoughts mine people ive grateful knowing even tho lot way better place met hope well get party together multiverse happy free something like that people whove really changed thoughts lot stuff yeah subreddit beautiful place harsh time tho really given lot insight talking people really made feel something first time long time thank that even care wonder went wrong life lemme try explain long story short ive always shy unconfident alien caring lot people seeing me school always important part life thing kinda good wanted best quite long time everything perfection got straight as motivated god knows why got see high school year period university everything changed like girls class felt like much older me drinking partying time lives me reading books biggest worry people like me tried become good enough anorexia hit hard brain used ruined me started fainting class museums home etc fine still getting good grades still everything perfection end nd year parents teachers decided healthy i mean looking back now pretty damn destroyed oh well telling take break ruined everything strong enough keep going felt like biggest failure biggest failure still am still feel it lost motivation still day wish could go back just me started taking classes last winter ive never felt worthless find everything pointless everything went planned would ready uni next summer heh guess not study astrophysics exact tho space always thing felt safe darkness stars planets buddies oh lets forget black holes too lemme real great life amazing supporting parents best brothers thats thing ive already peeked life go downhill fuck over keep failing ill start losing people good person take everything granted feel guilty deserve here every person would grateful position im not dream more want multiverses wanna travel space time wanna touch stars okay touch them know mean hope well know else say even know anyone reads this thank do oh one last thing please please send favorite songs would appreciated need blast ears good music till moment die thanks ampxb,1 Finally decided what color my car going to b when I get in a few months.. http://yfrog.com/0x526vj Like that ,0 "I ACCIDENTALLY TOOK A DEPRESSION NAP,, ITS BEEN HOURS",1 @superhootie Maybe... just maybe! ,0 wake everyday urge dieevery single day wake heavy feeling inside chest would feel like dont belong here even waking up trying fighting pain still get get going suicidal thoughts dont go away makes feel miserable stupid wouldnt alot easier die,1 putney swope unique low low low budget gem late s probably would forgotten time two things paul thomas anderson who named cheadles character boogie nights buck swope eponymous hero film limited dvd release watching putney swope like listening hardcore punk rock may make lot sense at least upon watching first time respect film passion unabashedly rebellious message understand lot things putney swope part liked it think movie grows mebr br the film advertised parody new yorks madison avenue best known s advertising capital world members generation x may lost concept fortunately mad men tv provide us otherwise lost piece us history need know watching movie ad agencies largely male even largely white establishmentsbr br with premise mind movie opens ad agency board meeting members predominantly white except putney swope arnold johnson bears uncanny resemblance dick gregory film token africanamerican board board members selfabsorbed soulless chairman falls dead front them concern become chairman next without even removing body boardroom begin paper ballot elect next chairmanbr br putney swope elected landslide members think swope qualified voting swope illfated attempt board members sabotage members chance elected chairman plans backfired swope takes charge sinks boat firing one original members hiring people color place br br after point film became for me weird hard follow plotwise may even plot really whole idea film seems what if scenario result new truth soul inc firm would unconventional successful nonetheless firm ends making much money members build huge glass case keep cash unexplained purposes could swope trust banks although point touched upon explained film could also metaphoric way knowsbr br most movie takes place inside ad agency occasional scenes white house president who unknown reason midget assumption political joke made cant figure what filmmakers saying president small insignificant part american life saying latest elected officials nixon time insignificant candidates know found bit eerie however man playing president bore striking resemblance future president ronald reagan funny make connection years movie madebr br what film may benefited showing consumers outside ad agency reacted new ads course ad footage possessed strange funny appeal unconventional creativity ads convince people buy product so how movie hinted idea new ad campaign successful client interaction calls white house however would revealing see average people since demographic always profitable advertisersbr br although parodies political messages film may made probably stand test time film still lot unique qualities arnold johnson magnetic x factor benefited greatly film swopes rough voice actually director robert downey srs voice dubbed in sometimes poorly fit character well authoritative outsider hires fires workers random earns respect one employees revolutionizing ad agency seeking new ideasbr br the premise film was still is incredibly risky especially since film written directed white man robert downey sr however film declines fall victim negative black stereotypes would lead rise fall blaxploitation genre years later although sex scenes may bit offputting viewers main message black owned operated business thrive innovation risk taking many people may take notredflag message away movie didbr br putney swope remains overlooked movie strange era downey sr even despite sons recent comeback never quite got recognition director deserved however find dvd movie buy watch it netflix ditto movie confusing times worth watching gusto ambition nonconformist stature even todays movie standards,0 everybody telling that way improve single thing lifei sorry done atrocities conceived children worstat least let choose better father figure one never been rather father bad father,1 @limeice Naaaaice....very naaaaaice! ,0 show last ten years deserves rare gem allows us escape back time things simpler fun filled heart laughs show keeps laughing three decades difference furniture ugly clothes colorful even drugs tolerable hair feathered music accompanied rollerskates words merle haggard a joint bad place be take trip back greatest time american history fall love characters feel good essence small town people nicer other classic television much full house miss it always remember shake groove thing,0 talent use them always option mindi even know subreddit im good explaining especially keyboard ill try understand im feeling senior high school given dream position school announcer monday friday thing boast pretty good teachers students staff thought too made many friends announcer me not surprise anything want throw well autistic year old bullied childhood shown amount love respect appreciation school paradise val halla etc school ends it momentum drive ideas week graduate downstairs family friends party upstairs alone blank mind knowing able something put much work into next day broke cried day legitimately felt useless thought killing myself im wimp know speed things up first job horrible second good hours bad struggling even find job become stressful want job talents interests zero possibilities i looked hard careers zero results escape music lots video games lots meaning spend hours computer day go friends im active like left alone spend day computer sometimes night im posting feel like people lives sort advice someone like me someone life worth living anyone thanks mitchthebadger,1 @melody Don't be dumping on @rsueanga.... whomever that is. ,0 teenagers virgins absolute chads lend hears uchildofgoose officially first president rteenagers also official fuck mods jk jk,0 "@WayneNH I wish I wasn't following you so I could be your 1,000 follower, Wayne ",0 much say really gp wanted increase dose increased well kind proud myselfbut time want herei monthly calendar day cross victory really want alive yesterday instead reaching painkillers had reached antidepressants,1 Doubt you're able to drag yourself up that early? So I'll see you straight at 930 for breakfast. ,0 @kayalessi Hope you are OK (as OK can be at the the moment) ,0 first time happened even ex used put effort creating funny deep conversations shed make quite surface level replies thought severely depressed mind making effort her missing something many hobbies works pub cant talk interests really think kinda likes textiles anymore focused job probably mention really really shy admitted me example meet person nervous physically shaking minutes relaxes,0 never cheat soulmatetwo years ago cheated girlfriend cuddleing another woman bed sex kisses still okey still decided me cries time still thinking it looks like enough probably leave day love eachother much cant take pain never believed term soulmate met fucked everything life ifwhen leaves dont want live anymore really want easiest painless death get ashamed make even sad redflag feel sad family friends life without her best friend since years old lose forever,1 schofe that sound like a great show shame i m at work,0 ok think agree pizza hut commercials trump pretty fire text,0 history fact day number marie antionette last french queen french revolution executed precisely october th ,0 dying uncomfortablelike wish switch lol like finally there convinced piece shit exist go body rebels it haha painful existence is very heheh fuck hope figure out living dying idk one,1 @bodiecruz Really? 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CUTE it is. ,0 recently i just keeping feeling the void in my body and mind it s burning myself slowly i no longer have desire to anything or anyone like life itself ha lost it meaning to me i m angry a well been trying really hard to hide my emotion so i can continue my daily life a a person i m not cry for help but my situation is worse than i described i m thinking of ending thing hope that can make ppl happy thanks for reading my petty litter word have a good day folk,1 hard times nights easy cuz whiskey killing me got empty spot inside me deep dark hole love used be gary allan said best whiskey,1 know male snoo died recently joined smash,0 okay serious question wth egirl like mean egirl im confused,0 Sleepyyyyyyyyyyyyyy but rain got meee thinkingggggg ,0 treat others want treated bullshitive tried ever since kid ive person comes others need it ive person talks loners stand awkwardly bar ive tried care others make life better treating peoe well supposed make happy always fucking alone luck never sided me perhaps im playing deck s reload deck maybe hand better take high road better person bullshit,1 Aaaand finally my laptop's FULLY CHARGED !!!! YAY ,0 On my way to @barbiebrittiana & @sexymency house for Cuddle Buddy time ,0 nevadawolf sorry to hear about your dnf run tonight always a risk to get bad coords on an ftf,0 getting depressed every day slept hours today getting worse want help legitimately unable bring tell mom wanting tell month bring tell her sure would super compassionate like time tell cannot freeze pretend fine do selfdiagnosed depression,1 even fail testing methodi saline kcl powder not made medication made research syringes learned kcl iv painful prepared pain real put bit kcl powder saline loaded like ml ml syringe tried find vein arm difficult check got vein one hand needed pull slightly draw blood took like mins pressed felt rush saline coming system panicked managed put ml pulled out even real get test pain monyh ago halfassedly tried bleed using syringe tube putting vein blood filled like half small cup stopped someone end me want go hospital beg put anesthesia die lonely fuck scared life parents already hate place say know so cant even pass parttime job interview fuck good at,1 another morning at net tower still on deadline,0 "@HannahTaps watching a movie in bed (whilst doing stretches) atm, will msg you it before fri ",0 help im harassed friends basically every post make manage get reddit good give wholesome award dont know it like profile private dont know keep finding posts please help help appreciated,0 tell everyone ever cared goodbyeive making gifts people letters go along it making sure know never fault nothing wrong also thanked everyone life im parents favorite need little help make sure feel better this friends getting custom made things ensure know wants fault,1 cant sorryim twelve everyone thinks age cant feel suicidal im pretending feelings im fucking pretending two months clean cutting last night sliced skin again im even ashamed otherwise wouldve hanging ceiling ive told parents this theyre scared go hospital theyll drug they refuse give meds depression anxiety shit ton missing assignments make want skip school every day tied rope light hanging ceiling last week didnt end it dont even care im statistic teen redflag better shit im feeling right now nothings worth it teachers breathing neck missing assignments idea people tell tell people stuff i even therapist therapy talking friends doesnt help friends dont understand talk therapy going nowhere crush thank god still feel positive emotions im fairly certain doesnt like back feel like shit hes even bad guy everything around propels state drowning one tell cant live anymore,1 writing suicide notes family friends months every time meant it written last one said need to actually ok dying time part still wants live done trying given up done hurting done alone good bye,1 said falling black hole would want meet needed alone months since kept texting responded first got worried said seen talked friends know sleeping eating patterns crappy even before family friends know depression said seeked help heard going said messaged bother block anything even said could gets overwhelming months since responded messages give space keep texting stupid memes etc guess history us dating makes anxious would want cut contact dating someone else example shoul keep checking depressed guy isolated responded texts months,1 tf get karma new acc cant get karma without posting cant post without karma,0 new group chat teenagers made sub two group chats come join lets talk stuff rteentalks_ link httpswwwredditcomrteentalks_ join invite people talk brand new running couple days support,0 want freei want depressed drain everyone around anymore,1 can t outrun depression unfortunately,1 ayo relationship advice girl need advice pm cuz dont want person im talking see this,0 supposed doright feel alone one worst days life yesterday every attempt regular conversation ex assume im trying persuade get back im honestly trying nice theyre going end walking away me move home month home alone first time im mental state live alone cant go back now miss father deceased child teenage years couldnt stand man ruined relationship wanna be dont know,1 i wa supposed to stab myself in the heart in the desert in joshua tree in november 0 i thought i wa ready i decided not to because i realized i d probably have to stab myself more than one time and i knew i couldn t mentally handle that i felt depressed enough to stab myself but not psychotic enough to keep going especially after physical shock also part of me wanted to see if i could fix thing and it wa like i went on a mission with myself to see if life wa worth it if my life is worth living the answer is no it s definitely no i want out i want off this fucking ride i wish thing were different but they aren t i even went to the fucking hospital voluntarily for help since my last post here absolute hellhole i don t even have word for you about what happened darkest week of my life people are sick i m so much worse i can t explain what s happened it s not like gunnhild from viking but i m at the marina and someone abandoned their bonfire left it all for me i tried to give an older woman passing by the last of my cash cause she wa picking up recyclables she refused and wa sweet she said to not sit here at night she wa concerned that i m young and there s crazy people out here no offense but i m the crazy person ma am sweet lady i had asked god for a sign i got a fucking sign i told god or the universe or whatever that to commit suicide i needed to be pushed and i got just that tenfold i m proud of myself for pushing a hard a i did for lasting this long i don t need to prove to other people i fought i know i did and i can rest better knowing i kept that promise to myself i wish i had seen more of the world and visited more city but i ve had my fill of humanity i can t do it anymore i hate the way people treat each other how much bullshit is always involved i m tired worn out no amount of sleep or rest touch this kind of tired hell is hell i hope my next life is gentler i hope the tide are kinder i hope i receive love i never have to defend myself from i give myself peace now because i can not find it here my life is obligated to no one amp nothing else im truly sorry signing off from one depressed person to whoever read this what happened to me mattered finally good luck asshole,1 @momagus Teehee too true!! ,0 fart right go toilet idk im uncertain whether fart legitimate shit help,0 might finally able get girl mind wont let thing happening night post tiktok almost year now random stuff comes mind around tiktoks published regulars liking vids among girl looking profile dont know long like added snap texted hours smiling fun talking deeply full feelings fell im sure it least suspicious knew things close friends know possible figured again also shes perfect really adorably beautiful dont trust hidden reason wont tell me making push away dont want that really want time dont know shes after advice,0 please help i don t wan na be schizophrenic or bipolar or anything that s my biggest fear and right now i couldn t sleep thinking maybe this could be it or psychosis i haven t been able to sleep the past day and maybe it s just my anxiety or not not so sure i just need advice i don t wan na go crazy that s my biggest fear a of now but i heard crazy people don t recognize they are going crazy,1 since robot arm emoji knew arm actually heck,0 i have a serious question are anxitey med worth it i have paralysing anxitey sometimes i ll get better then i ll get worse it s pretty rough the people i ve asked half say it s not worth it it can make you worse and others say they are good i m so confuseeeeed,1 fuck it im going styleim going get sad depressed this fuck that tried fucking hardest god damn best im sexiest bloke block neither ugliest longshot knows maybe fucking am gives shit anyway im reserved im holed guy go everyday million things skydive scuba dive iceskate rollerblade etc everything anything know what matter fucking truth circumstances raised view world literally put almost impossible state find someone love someone loves back ive lived fucking europe south america north america single fucking real friend hear that fucking one im nice guy im guy pulls freeways help you im guy gives hitchhiker rides im guy whos always everyone ready listen help im guy im invisible amazing guy guy everyone loved guy everyone helped by guy nobody remembers fuck it cares sad thing matter fucking reality idontfitin mind tried tried good time earth fun parts unluckily life whopping cushion negative even bad life harsh negative know what im done negative im going go always wanted without fucking experience want it im going go live wild yeah im probably going freeze death im probably going starve im probably die disease gives fucking crap im fucking tired living people connection to nobody understand like nineteen never single fucking friend entire life fucking dont im outgoing guy public guy everyone asks take pictures of guy helps dude loading truck guy hears people asking question gives answer im guy nobody wants accept me agnostic extreme sport computer gaming nerd scifi fantasy chick flick lover musical metal rap loving anime cooking reading quadlingual multicultured mixed bad dating saying right sexy things coming friend hah fuck me thats snippet try using say im sure thousands people like you fuck you lived europe two years lived brazil year lived alaska year joined military year fucking think so anyways got chest selling truck quitting job giving sister shit heading mountains want find nice canyon make leap wrote guys i bend right leg lean forward breeze weak sunny yet chilly april day third month free today think almost moment think free longer concerned food longer concerned bills impressions dates finally true myself want nothing return came finally peace death nicholas diary page p edit peace fuck out im shutting last time time roll ball shit,1 aaaaah thing friend saying give da free award gives so thanking thing hope one see aaah need make text characters long uhmmm say,0 my updated myspace accout love my playlist :> http://www.myspace.com/samanthavillanueva,0 for the past month i ve been ill and every er urgent care and pediatrician say that nothing is wrong with me after several trip to my school psychologist because of anxiety i ve deduced that these are probably long covid symptom cool i guess since the monday before last i ve been waking up with headache that don t go away i immediately started getting anxious and started researching my symptom immediately google say it s brain cancer great i m and all i ve been thinking about since this started wa how i m going to die soon they ve checked all the problem area except in my head i want to get an mri but the oncoming medical bill are looming over my head i m also scared of the result on one hand i could have a tumor cancer that might kill me and on the other hand i could be wasting everyone s time my pediatrician suck and will probably just say it s anxiety which is probably the secondary issue not the primary one i m just so tired and so scared i feel like i have no one to talk to and it s consuming my life,1 think she is getting a cold that she caught from daddy oh no my trip would be ruined,0 i eoke yesterday even though wanted sleep poped stuff hope wont wake,1 suicidal ideation gives hopeit relieves burden me like im sad frustrated annoyed think myself itll soon feel lot better anyone else this,1 might finally get independent later month auditions opening states governors school arts bunch artsy stuff like dance drama art creative writing etc whats awesome basically like mini college dorms similar class structure hours away home thats really excites me get meet new people study writing i wanna become writer someday importantly get wear want im nonbinary love skirts fishnet stockings black lipstick grandparents would never let wear them plan audition hopefully get in get job stay schools dorms save money own whats even better two friends also gonna audition means might completely alone get in know lot people probably wont care post im really excited nervous time,0 title sometimes wonder ever live normal again feel like see world different way years theres snippets time pass feel like truly enjoy feel like belong friends family think know me dont want scare burden thoughts achieved experienced desired things find back position dont cry anymore cry family friends might never get chance know real me suffer hope constantly draining impact keeps going believe amazing things live life alone im closest myself closest biggest enemy april ,1 i have a like bottle of pill on my counter that are my old antidepressant i don t want to live anymore but i know if i fail i ll be in so much trouble what do i do,1 @Robyn_Z very interesting but how do you know what your number is? i always thought my number was 3 cause my bday is 2-16-74 ... confused ,0 thinking uh fuck za handos left hand,0 I just ate so much Taco Bell I'm going to lose 35 pounds. #depression,1 sick dumb transgender arguments ever since super straight shit came people seem think wanting sex trans women transphobic she went full surgery would sex regular women shoul ever see say this stop right nobody cares trans women regular women same dumb say transphobic want sex them dumb shit pisses off want sex transwomen many straight men want either transphobic want natrual women natural women alone homophobic wanting sleep him,0 travian total cost of the atk for the aggressor 0 resource all said and done i m guessing he s not going to let that slide,0 cpt depression don t do this to me yesterday wa exhausting,1 i know it seems contradictory but hear me out when my anxiety start acting up i seclude myself then that lead to feeling of depression and hopelessness that my anxiety will never get better and that i ll be a hermit forever anyone else feel that way,1 choking game vs redflagive read stories lately people mostly teenagers accidentally killed trying get high apparently euphoric state reached right pass hangimg yourself tragic course made wonder bad hanging actually is ive read bunch horror stories terrifying is people accidentally attempt get high seems like couldnt actually bad ive gotten closer recent days actually gotten point reaching euphoric state im curious anyone else has,1 i havent left my house in week i quit my job i spend a good of my day cry i dont know what s happening to me my skin took a complete 0 this year and destroyed any little self confidence i had left ha anyone else felt like this before all i can think about is my skin it taking up my life not only is it unbearable to look at it s painful and itchy and i can not afford a dermatologist looking at myself in the mirror always result in a full blown panic attack i end up hyperventilating on the floor i have cried to the point of vomiting many time i hate that it ha this power over me it s such a silly thing to worry about and i know that but it is absolutely destroying me it is a continuous cycle this constant stress only result in more breakout i feel trapped in my own skin talking about this in real life make me sound vain i wish someone would understand the cry seems to never stop and i havent slept in day now edit this wa not a suggestion for skincare tip for me it is not a simple a diet or hydration it is genetics and hormonal unfortunately,1 always giggle little hear name maria like know giggle,0 never ending guilt cycleim end crisis situation got drunk made get really sad wanted kill them begging me telling losing mind tried let get got bed used crisis line stay level headed removed firearms house suicidal pastso bit difficult going this redflag attempts kinda reason this feel guilty stuck thinking caused redflag attempts theyre stuck one moment time unable let go tried therapy several family sessions talking happened place right cant get kinda help got wed kinda lose everything went away serious form treatment sadness honestly happens every time drink which like month try best keep going overboard always fail get left positions like im currently in theyre partially right actions trigger mental break brought childhood trauma anxiety depression surface dealt treatment moved on feels guilty past cant let go of ive forgiven moved on every time break drinking feel guilty making go suicidal causing pain suggest getting help talking people cant talk it theyre stuck wanting help holding onto pain pushed cant anymore point everyone safe now idea whatll happen light day,1 "@JamesMelville Blair, other than Iraq. Brown was good - his recovery plan was copied by the G20 avoiding another Great Depression.May is a shambles.But Cameron was the worst because he applied Project Fear instead of showing the benefits of the EU, and now look at us.",1 drug abusing acoholic forgot normal body feels likei know start know sober least years drink minimum pack beer per day normally maintain sense social clarity last two weeks completely strange strange mean look people especially love see nothing nothing new face something odd happening body feel like skin similar aluminum foil heated lighter recently saw doctor liver advice wasted breath wanted time news liver year old alcoholics change quickly faded reverted back drinking heavily snorting smoking opiates like live family see anything drug abusing alcoholic im sad concerned new,1 trouble suspending disbelief you consider woman already late middle age finds newborn baby cabbage patch raises own think it makes attempt locate mother may well confused teenager need medical treatment seemingly one italian equivalent social services makes attempt put baby care no social services know fantasy know young toto ten adoptive mother dies leaving orphanage emerges happy man loves everybody nothing flat given suitcase man stole organised local homeless bona fide shantytown residents encore leads fight capitalism shape businessman buys land shantytown stands oil discovered there wants swallowing without subsequent miracles beginning totos dead mother the old lady raised rather biological one appearing handing dove doubles magic wand allowing grant modest wishes finale hobos fly away better place located presumably somewhere rainbowbr br on hand film charm easy surrender to balance small masterpiece,0 live missouri direct effects terrorism largely unknown me brought home two men would put line way members fdny nypd did document horror unfolded day film testament lost lives true evil terror brings,0 had a great time at the celeb softball game with mila and sarah at coney island today sarah's team won bla bla whatever.lol GO CODE BLUE!,0 made terrible fucking mistake yesterday afternoon dad bought jalapeos habaneros make salsa with instantly got work never thinking put gloves on done put salsa refrigerator washed hands ate dinner second dinner over parents got salsa ate chips watching movie really good floral taste habaneros really complimented onions vegetal flavor jalapeos three us watched three movies got dark dad left my parents separated still great friends taking chances washed hands done eating salsa hour later mom took nap thought hey got house pretty much nows good time jerk it went bathroom pulled sweet vid pornhub malena morgan mia malkova went town despite handling peppers hours washing hands twice still felt intense burn halfway through cried toilet minutes crawling couch living room getting fetal position clutching junk reduced burn reason minutes mom woke asked wrong confess told aloe started laughing knew better moral story never masturbate day handled hot peppers tldr handled hot peppers without gloves washed hands jerked hours later still burned myself,0 just took the fattest L in several AP classes i'm not thriving but i'm glad my anxiety and depression are ,1 "gahhh FINALLY FINISH MY LAB & ESSAY 2 down, 2 more to go.. for some day later that's NOT today. i've had enough for one day goodnight!",0 pushed black friend roof immense disappointment not exageratted swagger black teenager crashed car road,0 somebodyjust tell anything,1 write wordbr br what see get really madhur bhandarkars brave brilliant page destroy myth attached glam glitterati colour pages newspapers whose livesread party habits follow maniacal fervour intrinsic voyeuristic streak explain br br the page phenomenon deplorable enigmatic exactly gain control printed word start encroach front page subject another debate bhandarkar cleverly avoids that concerned mechanisms grotesque existence that pieces together various elements way life like robert altmanalthough im comparing bhandarkar altmans genius bhandarkar uses myriad characters motive whether page wannabe nri gatecrashers newlyrich upcoming model socialite politician erotic novella authoress characters introduced objective separate charactersketch even parts may miniscule therein lays films appeal br br konkona sen sharma plays madhavi sharma young talented journalist covers page nation today initially content job soon begins see ugliness underbelly covered fake cosmetic profligacy bhandarkar resists temptation make subject moralpolicing movie avoids concentrating one character alone hence movie madhavi also equally deepak suriboman irani madhavis editor passively accepts role cog larger machinery anjali thaparsoni razdan socialite suffocating social pollution abhijeetrehan engineer homosexual makeup artist madhavis roommates pearlsandhya mridul sassy airhostess gayatritara sharmaan aspiring actress seems like impossible task assimilate many charactersand more one story full credit nina arora manoj tyagi penning tight screenplay dialogues sanjeev datta bhandarkar written great attention detail br br any narrative matter good fall flat lack genuine performances thankfully page brims actors stars konkona goes authorbacked role effortless ease ditto boman sandhya mridul gets best written part almost overdoes it atul kulkarni wasted though underwritten character times director seems keen incorporate much possiblepaedophilia homosexuality etc contexts used make look rushed br br ultimately bhandarkars attempt satiate voyeurism takes step further takes us inside photographs exposes us gruesome realities sect humanity strangely seems living different remote world people indulged newyears revelry hundred kilometers away fellow countrymen ravaged natures ferocity clever writing skillfully incorporated songs able performances genuine feeling sincerity make film worthy spite lack finesse poor production values page optimum way enter new year cinemabr br abhishek bandekarbr br rating br br poor average good good excellentbr br th january ,0 help boy problems teenager moment lol past three day two different boys asked gf pick them one one doesnt sorry post dumb boy one funny talk hours opens etc im physically attracted all would feel super awkward tried anything like sexual also live half way across world boy two sweet understand gentle patient wont really open hes little bit boring sometimes im physically romantically attracted him also lives closer,0 atipyque tars9000 sarahelhairy la jeunesse je la rencontre tous le jours elle est en d pression elle ne croit plus en l avenir et c est encore pire sou macron le jeunes ne sont ni aveugles ni con,1 usa kinda gay tho days rain rain go away mums dildo head,0 You guys HAVE to go to this site! http://tinyurl.com/cbc3r6 - UNLIMITED FREE RINGTONES!! ,0 pietrofelix good luck enduring the tiring journey,0 @rawrAlii Looking for Alice......nice to meet ya gurl ,0 help exists peoplei really want scream feel like kitty genovese right now lot people know im suicidal care people see write disturbing things facebook wall scroll nothing real friends family dead years hate strangers say take life youll hurting people around you hurting who demand know four years battling cancer one person visited hospital one person accompanied doctors appointment real friends would isolate like this caring people act im sick world cant stand everyone like this reached hundred redflag prevention organizations refused help me respond gave redflag prevention hotline thats always jammed actually get arent helpful rush you goes crisis text line many organizations accept huge donations makes wonder money going cant help personally direct one number text line god feel helpless im trying hard getting anywhere contacted organizations different states got touch many facilities insurance nothing psychiatrist offices called longer accepting patients many places booked give number given hundred times really isnt fair past helped friends breakups abusive relationships helped financially car payments rent utilities vet expenses everyone now didnt help expect something return im really im really needing helping hand black hole one help me dont know anymore reach out im lost im much panic world uncaring cruel help seems exist people everyone wheverer forum social media site page post would see others similar situation reaching help ignored many people ended life proof everywhere people ignore it ask didnt give us warning place choose turn way thousands redflag awareness pages useless actual redflag person comes along make excuse theyre spreading awareness help people guy different country posted wanted carry shooting women ignored bullied school facebook nothing got automated doesnt violate guidelines message im sure posting make difference want keep trying maybe one person listen able help me want help desperately,1 say lonely huge contradictory cannot get along people terrible notredflag trust issues jealousy mostly social redflag kills every situation sober years good thing addiction problems spiral control effect work life like get fired stop showing up friends know talk people casually friends ever people drank drugs anymore one ex cheated friend mine even see coming huge shock in love time like years ago anyone since still think miss even tho talk take anti depressants work going feel suicidal time see bright future like loneliness working weekend everything nothing myself hypothetically get girlfriend would work worth constant worry cheating leaving right back was year old male nothing live for looking sort advice heard sure help possible,1 early morning meeting,0 @drpdavzgrl hey lady.. ,0 yall ever listen one song up yall know song im talking about bro shit like idk sad fuck song hits heart peaceful like omg low key feel relaxed calm,0 im fuckin happy sebastian vettel checo podium,0 love girl really mutual dead either today tomorrowi already shared whole story reddit couple times check post history read entirety tldr title wish dead part tries find solutions designed to tired waking tears almost breaking tears read something hear something see something tired contemplating redflag tired looking people seeing happily love others forget girl love know paint good light know im monster know im stereotypical bad guy know decision hurt people still care hope losing entirely better continuous stream knowing suicidal trying help failing maybe blaming willing got better know probably isnt know really hurt wish way tell fault tell blame this anyone mind want ask better could try frame entire thing accident could make classic redflag say goodbyes everyone would cause least pain know sorry everyone read this real mess quite unreadable probably go sleep now,1 depression hitting hard this morning,1 okay definetly need hear guys opinion ive pretty much love one best friends now im m shes f met lot summer pretty much always asked wanted meet always wanted never asked me also slow responds messages shes slow reply others too know asked friends think forgets reply sometimes asked one mutual friends ask interested something hung much said saw friend didnt speak month half got snap asking could call me said yes course talked school random stuff minutes since called talked least every week started answering texts quickly started send snaps time begged hang bored hung really felt great like connection point felt great hope went weeks completely stopped everything went back normal takes like days reply messages thats normally takes friends too get another vibe the got like this thats right feel like shit im planning tell feelings week want hear guys think behavior also need help ways tell dont want become much distances herself dont want make weird us thanks help ,0 I liked a @YouTube video http://youtu.be/874AyFmUJzs?a  compilation that cures depression af twice,1 guys need help ok im going going hour drive need know die boredom youtube cannot option middle nowhere parts drive pls help,0 tv movies ought made like one saw way back first tv helen hunt steven weber terrific giving gritty realistic performances weber especially good turning exceptionally creepy understated performance child molesterkiller film really increased respect hunt actress director also directed hoosiers somehow formulaic exciting direction works stark simple realism appealing like tv movies predictable filled overacting see can side story hunt faheys affair also appealing without detracting main story,0 and goodmorning twitterrrr. last real day of school. Last week of school. then my last year of school. ohjoy,0 miss muchi lost wife cancer years months days ago widower turned brain cancer destroyed ability communicate slow way go married years months battled cancer years months weeks marriage took care entire time felt alone since really communicate me cant get thought redflag head ive already written notes family friends see therapist twice month cant stop missing her feel alone hurts much her im afraid never stop hurting like getting bad want stop im ready yet starting seem like option left,1 "What Kotaku, IGN, and Playstation don't tell you is that God of War actually cures depression.",1 nobody cares problemsnot real life social media platforms amount times ive looked help various mental health subs ignored im female real life nobody even asks youre alright talk all dress nice smell nice take care appearance way could make one single friend college drinking would nice someone come talk nobody ever does college doctors dont really care job prevent ending life attach dont suffocating emailed wellbeing team wouldnt stop messaging coming visit apartment didnt feel natural felt like okay youre dead bye therapist always watched clock one single hour discuss felt like shit signing online hour help wrote long paragraphs issues everything online whatever fuck person tell yeah sign wellbeing team uni good luck people care family burden tell youre going through dont like seeing people sad made way im also terrible person ive affected relationships within family yeah forgave stuff im still person recognize issues cant even change dont know is im really done life boring feels like nightmare everything bad peaks okay never great good,1 f chilling bed im like weird state im kinda tired im really tired yet haha bored anything hit want ,0 dont care meeveryone always says ok whats wrong know dont care literally feel annoyance coming screen feel like one person actually cares me honestly want get rid friends besides one person wish could that id loose too wouldnt able take enough time me friends feel ungrateful care still sad jesus sounds lame sorry whoever read this crap im sorry ill stop typing,1 wish could cat something keep goingmy dads allergic dogs cats parents dont want get hypoallergenic dog cat bc think risky ive j heard stories abt dogs cats saving ppl killing selves thats want cant any j feel alone tired,1 passively suicidali dont plans end life dont courage im huge wuss paindiscomfort feel like found cancer fatal disease wouldnt care got accident came would feel relief kind want die dont want one end it anyone relate,1 anybody unironically uses word shawty automatically assume pedo mr kelly your lil shawty year old school girl brevitys sake end psa here peace,0 keep knife backpack commit public redflagreasons why theres many people suffering cant bear it cant help way loneliness shyness barely received messages past years autism schizophrenia guilt making hundreds people believe something passion really something liked years parent problems wanting move out feeling like future without schizophrenia suffer wanting love sex wanting say reasons redflag nigerians,1 miss childrenthey purest form joy lifei questions actions constantlyam right thingcan ever happyi know think matterslife never purely happy anyonehow protect childrenwhen stop protecting themhow let gois self loathing narcissismdo still fear deathmy pain always hurtfulmy feeling agony releasebut also turns medo parents love children part themis way protect innocence without crushing is making fucking difference right nowwhy want feel connected ignore people much pain enoughhow much pleasure enoughif perfect way this bother still livingi give fuck think journey answeri finally enjoy scream metalshould worriedlol silver linings reached sometimes conceding loss chance winning violence answerwhy everyone use itmy parents wrong came good placeor itdid fuck worse themcan save iti thought god existednow sure hate her themhate strong wordim melodramaticor ipeople kill shit lack pure unadulterated expression let get evil process transmutationturn tar like bile liquid gold maybe already have childrenthats fairto put hopes dreams onto shoulders child acceptance patiencedisciplinethese virtues help melovedo know love isnot really unless childreni would die them live themi wish could talk father commit suicide see mind state selfishbut everyone selfish degreecan reach place giving freely againdo post onlineis narrassciticwho fucking careshmmmm do want people see ramblei questions answersand answers could soooo wrongplease love me human xxxxxxxx,1 depressed least think episodei feel fucking dead insidei feel apathetic literally everythingi cannot sleep well lost job anything physically day anymore want look new jobs job hunting trashi start college fall even find job able work littleparents ass college enrollment best care spending life anything better quick little bursts dopamine like videogames weed sex internet memesi care live tomorrow die right minute could care single heartbeatthe thing keeps alright boyfriend much unhealthy would die ruin relationshipjust fucking dead inside feeling dead inside rant,1 pls wish luck english exam tomorrow need get however suck english yes studied,0 want live anymorei cant anymore job years used normal one point met love life happy together years planned kids getting married bring get job lived parents parents apartment different times ive smoking weed ever sense age got addicted it smoked everyday every hours years more got comfortable girlfriend kept giving money get anytime needed it let weed take life let things wanted wanted provide wanted man used know first met cant change ive done fact pushed away dint love anymore name tattooed arm constant reminder fuck am cut friends almost family talk to ive always depressed suicidal always helped threw it ive cut countless time passed sad thought would die smoke tried drinking bottle cold medicine night obviously drink enough job im still here im alone sitting old room old bed want live knowing ive done want find anyone else want get get job get bed want get with worst part im scared die kill want feel nothing problem want family ex girlfriend think fault it need realize never get better unless im dead want anyone feel bad think made it know many nights sit try succeed,1 acetaminophen overdoseif take lethal dosage acetaminophen go liver failure three days chances hide pain time please honest know pain throw stuff unbearable parents see thay im sick dont mind pain long dont get caught hospitals packed covid cases right really cant risk going there,1 never depressed life seriously affecting way living know take anymore tried seeing therapist couple years ago looked bored listening she falling asleep never bothered looking that idea maybe adults see therapists maybe supposed know deal issues kid anymore afraid therapists tired hearing shit see adults stupid knowing solve problems part knows true part also cannot help think things could people please enlighten me like seeing therapist adult,1 day guess song added word today ill add another word tommorow maybe winner today i let it,0 last exam tomorrow!!! feeling kinda scared yet relaxed also :/ off to bed now x,0 finally updated oohh i sooo miss the internet sorry to say that woop x may not open apr 0 so how s it goin,0 "@highoffjesus I was praying for you this morning and the Lord reminded me of a time in my life I think He wants me to share. My oldest struggled with bipolar,depression& seizures taking his life in 2013, only 22.",1 questionable advice teacher yesterday last day real life school bulgaria back lockdown sucks english teacher started ranting low score class last test end rock serious face said something concerned me words students lost motivation study online school cant find way gain back lay die teaching years got thinking say thing y olds like aspecially us depression mental problems,0 weebs assemble showcase peak teamwork community seno,0 dont watch anime please watch attack titan vinland saga god teir anime trust,0 im alone one wants methe people give fuck planet parents cant live life parents cant mommys boy whole life friends never serious girlfriend ive one really really short brief moment keep getting passed girls dudes example found girl turned stating interested dating hooking up fucking guy know blow ol confidence im even good enough fuck girl fucked dudes time tinder work out never get matches one two get every never work out fact girl unmatch sent nice little message asking her work shitty job come home parents house go sleep get next day go work weekends typically nothing particular friends girls interested anything me really pathetic existence lead whats point all im unhappy im lonely cant even drown sorrow booze weed face shitty existence called life head way dull pain coworkers tell stories find girls date bang them move on broke girl another one talking within weeks im hearing stories normal male adult life be cant even function adult point this end all die eventually,1 About to leave to go back to Chicago. Will be back and moved in on the 16th. Don't miss me too much ,0 reach outim scared im going kill im getting tired stress anxiety want text text line im scared going hospital wish would make anonymous hear send cops ur house do stuck psych ward sucks me,1 even bother anymorehi got suspended hours school parents told wont care killed told multiple times past weeks suicidal thoughts im saying attention ive almost killed times past year seems like everytime im it start thinking effect would cause parents even death would burden them however said today im sure even bother continue ive got massive list punishments im allowed see friends next months celebrate birthday next week going improve would really easier end now,1 "@trekkerguy in reply to your post, thanks for the hug and here is the ",0 really wanted spend new year friends perents asked fuckin today st december noon plans friends new year party sorry kinda gave got angry every time asked ill celebrate another new year watching netflix room go sleep almost immediately midnight,0 Did @KylePetty just say he drives down the freeway with his knee while tweeting? ,0 know talk try say everything thinking i post since anyfriends would listen talking this since thought would better dead hate appareance in past hate pretty much everything i years old never kissed think anyone ever like way something really upsets hate worktelemarketing feel important anyone try help friends anyway feels like presence inconvinience people seem ignore like i need it one never it feels like shouldn alive draging even though dead already kill afraid much hurt caring much anymore planning end soon need alone home i want everything end feel terrible almost time,1 update phone ios phone still stopped updating worry apple slowing peoples phones,0 "@jakewalden - yes, that would be really great, you and #Matt Alber performing together ",0 i m just wondering if anyone ha experienced people in healthcare disbelieving how depressed you are because you have a job i hold a very low level easy work from home job i m sure if i wasn t depressed i d be able to do a much higher level job but my current job is not demanding at all and honestly there are day when i cry for the entire day however i ve had psychiatrist downplay how depressed i am because i have a job at all i wish i didn t have to work but i d become homeless pretty quickly so it s not like i really have a choice i just find it frustrating because some of these doctor aren t prioritizing getting me access to the help i need because of their bias ha anyone else had this kind of experience,1 thanks lot reddit surely gonna get downvoted oblivion say it reddit stop big hero one favourite movies growing up one wholesome movies ever watched loved plot characters used rewatch every single month would take back pure clean childhood guys must aware trending meme template aunt casss rack stupid idiot need make it heshe need spoil movie me reddit turn wholesome movie porno there posts youtube videos making porn vids movies characters videos horrendous stuff them u need reddit pornstars thousands them go show horny them go jack pornstars u need ruin one best childhood memories no horny no aunt cass sexually attractive no cant take joke no care karma coz wanted rant yeah guy made edit big fuck side,0 want kill myselfi year old adult india clearly find purpose life come poor family since childhood grew lack money never enough money live decent life always thought killing since last years good studies till high school completing high school got admission college clearing toughest exam india joining college happy dream college come way started hating college course life everything tried kill twice often used go bed thinking might kill myself failed killing began search money thought money bring happiness tbh short time did became happy started earning months earned forgot depression everything found purpose life felt way never felt before gloomy evening lost around dollars almost lost everything lost source income day struggling find purpose life able focus studies sleep properly eat want kill leave earth want electrocute myself really know do,1 stalemateim m soon turning nothing show myself lost friends last year told depression suicidal ideation years ago nothing changed till last year finally cut off understand them constantly negative havent moving forward years everybody else has inferior regards anyone used friends with year socially isolated outside spent whole sitting front computer time times went get food job prospects future aimlessly attended university years switching majors nothing came it late start apprenticeship field like everything competitive inferior human like me constantly asking even apply apprenticeships anyone would want hire somebody like struggled mental illness since years old year old happy human applying job am course know mental state tell way lying last aimless years way making sound rather positive negative cv worthless many gaps due mental illness want work cleaning person want work assembly line feel like option succeed working world would start kind business self employed since chances slim get anywhere corporate world know certainly thick skin kind adventure thought getting help time answer anything always within oneself change better could start take ssris again talk therapist listen things again help me could submit psychiatric ward would doctors give benzodiazepines make sure going kill myself fucked everything depression inferiority complex never strong enough pull through top selffulfilling prophecy everything dull ive tried kms twice one time cutting i stopped hurt much ugly scars forearm one time taking mg lorazepam pills unfortunately sent hour sleep coma researching everything redflag methods know end life decapitation train seems best option although id prefer shotgun since guns illegal live germany possibility know certain never able ditch inferiority complex last years soul heart become bitter core become addicted smoking weed cigarettes cleanse would also take time anymore almost year old male mental illnesses enough skills compete workplace cm help go anywhere helps strengthen beliefs unnecessary disposable friends left also point trying anymore run money support end february also day birthday think seen enough say least leave life good memories,1 omgt liked handf thers stray cat visit anf liked handf soo cutee,0 fair girlfriend gone goddamn time ,0 i have been away from home for week and yesterday i wa scheduled to return my friend had offered to pick me up from the airport for context i don t live in the safest city for woman after i land my friend text me saying they can t pick me up from the airport and i should book a cab and come home i wa at the airport from pm to am because there were no cab available creepy men started following me stating oh no one s here to pick you up i had to go to the police because the men didn t stop following me i had a breakdown in public and i couldn t breathe i finally called a friend who life near by who came to pick me up at around 0 am by then i wa completely wrecked yesterday wa a complete mess and im still feeling anxious and triggered,1 whats point youre uglylmao imagine growing loser antisocial virgin thats whats gonna happen lot people whats point,1 know one movie could possibly compete opening night thats bergmans persona movies simply amazing richness ideas hard grasp first sight profound meditation relation art life one actress myrtle gordon gena rowlands finds touch character playing stage would want to accidental death one fans young girl declares love myrtle hit car leaves deep mark actress starts asking question related aging starts affect solution becomes alcohol help much myrtle one step away complete madness scene kill imaginary or not spirit dead girl one thrilling scenes found cassavets film movie ends display genius behalf director films theater scene gena rowlands improvise scene since myrtle comes drunk opening night perform part accurately scene filmed spontaneously live audience laughter genuine chemistry casavates rowlands absolutely amazing liked persona interested movie offers substantial ideas alongside great entertainment movie suit fine,0 want explain fucking terrible feel young y female generally mental health struggles since childhood due diagnosed treated severe clinical depression lots trauma variety areas made friends lacking support systems many misdiagnoses variety adults failed getting dream career joining military know stupid thing sad plans could afford college own starved developed eating disorder still miss inches per standardsi managed recover that somehow managed sit pandemic kind caring even felt like last bit kindness left gotten apartment spent entire year change quarantine yet angry exhausted hurt literally could end think would mind seen people care about feels almost like final time given quiet goodbye hope figure out ready go ready stop peace once ready want die typing unsure anyone care plans matter enough keep here think maybe hurt parents best friend lost important people demon before tired fighting everyday gets stronger hands shake every morning cry wishing would end laying sword down giving up everything bleeding bones broken alone want fight anymore place before real reason keep going time,1 see mr eastwood glory ie top form actor height physical appeal ladies depicted hardly typical south now young girls boarding school incredibly naive showing signs developing really depraved women geraldine page fullblown corruption hardly represents mean comes head mistresses girls schools either now that say occasional bad apple barrel mr eastwood said one two favorite filmsbr br the beguiled original plot lot attractive characters many surprises store viewer thoroughly engrossing entertaining really realistic i know grown south attended girls school college moreover acquainted innumerable girls same mention laidback teachers might even say repressed professors far cry headmistress depicted here downright comical depiction southern gentle woman quite seemsbr br this movie little outrageous first appeared still is think sorry spent time watching it,0 What a lovely night. ,0 2 weeks&5 days until i see my oldest sister. and go to new york AND THOUSAND ISLANDS. i cannot wait !!!!,0 theekween anxiety and depression thelmasherbs,1 "http://twitpic.com/4x6kl - I am who i am,simple like this ",0 @kathrynryn not since friday but its all good its all good ,0 forget overrated batman begins ultimate batman movie gonna want miss on movie everything totally surpasses first mega hit may done well first one box office certainly much better film visuals amazing burton works magic always films again gotham city batmans hunting ground amazing sight behold story actually quite good villains one interesting much interesting fact comic book counterparts tim burton screenplay writer daniel walters go step bring truly emotional connection characters penguin played perfection danny devito type tragic character abandoned parents birth later life seeks revenge world denied him disgusting watch times classic lines villain could ever utter single film villain catwoman played absolutely brilliantly michelle pfieffer one beautiful actresses time gives wow performance totally steals show far past present live action batman villains concerned also tragic background name selina kyle putupon mousy secretary shrewd business man called max shreck later murders shoving window somehow survives awakened cats decides right become legendary catwoman before course amazing sequence completely lets loose wrecks entire apartment one oscar worthy performances rage anger ever seen actressbr br michael keaton dons cape cowl batman also bruce wayne time hes much darker theres much else say except keaton simply best actor play batman ever oozes cool kind clint eastwood approach playing batman dark talk lot does sounds cool make voice sound goofy fake ie bales batman voice batman begins struts around gotham like man possessed inner demons hes pshycologically disturbed know it outing takes famous baddies ever grace batman comic book worldbr br i say though despite awesomeness action scenes like scenes coolest batmobile ever racing street knocking thugs ground batman gliding across gotham romantic angle pfieffer keaton really makes movie classic top choice anyone wants see real batman action rate would give could,0 someone help mego plans kill myself need encouragement advices,1 manifesting sugar mommy rn daddy tbh im particular last one cut taking applications btw,0 dont know doi found something yesterday ive never felt way ive always struggled anxiety depression addition ocd ptsd feel like need cut skin feel suffocated control im stuck work ,1 want thank everyone here seriously planning death couple hours ago found subreddit looked posts here guys wonderful wish could give biggest hug ever,1 "@toee Well, i compromised and went with a Team Cullen t-shirt ",0 watched twilight last night wa brill but not a good a the book,0 im poggers poggerser though keep cool enjoy life rn ly,0 earlier today my mom used a defuser on my hair because it s getting shaggier so the curl are much thicker thus not popping out a much a she wa doing it i started to feel dizzy couldn t hear vision got worse and i nearly blacked out i don t know what the cause for this is so yeah i m posting this idk if this is the right sub for this but it s worth a shot,1 someone dms pronouns bio httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvghneyyhahttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvghneyyha s lmao,0 "@SongzYuuup good,get some rest MONEYMAKER ",0 @dmitry when are you in Philly? ,0 recommending song everyday day vibez dababy httpsmusicapplecomusalbumkirk less goooo,0 time for lunch ,0 bayern champions league exact timing football fans bayern it im happy,0 start school tomorrow big sad ngl school stinky poo poo head,0 seekin for a new job,0 im fat bro thats insult please love things unholy try again much insult over smh head,0 trump forget vote leader trump hes best greatest president weve ever seen,0 im fall break gamers find something weeks,0 ever see account totally seems like uuwulittlegayboiuwu need talk about things,0 tf get crushes snap like ask talk little ask like wat,0 hate cringey dn fandom like great show fanbase edgelords think cool similar rampm,0 kinda traumatic story context sit special class every tuesday friday plan build stuff building tools also english second language dutch first curious also phone happened last year class build wooden train two boys lets call nick mike mike kinda annoyed draw papers plan nick sawing wood nick asked mike move mike kinda weird kid even though lot open places including me refeused saying first even though table already used kids get block wood got really heated nick wanted hit saw wait think psychopath talked said wanted hit side saw yes stupid think went wrong hit saw misjudge hit went teeth neck course mike jumped sawed neck saws sharp af sitting table next not used sawing screwing wheels train silence shock you could probably hear nail drop thing could hear mike screaming terror wound much blood neck like centimeters they stitch it screaming ran class allowed leave class last class almost went class ambulance already there people confused happened informed last saw mike getting ambulance glance like corpse yes hes alive i hope saw nick like months class popular even news article comments here dutch tho ps asked one teachers said te first time happened also mike moved romania reason also also time covld group project nick another person its person project everything one thing day it im happy grade person got good grade nick got low grade,0 crush made happy talking said looked like cute boy patted head rfjhrfrgfjtrgjgnjtgiotgjhtgogjtgoitnjgtgjktgkjtgkjtgkjtgjktr,0 mood shit right everything fucking complicated worst outcome imaginable feel want violently beat someone right now,0 ever thought anal jarjar binks neither go hornyhell bastard,0 i am going to be 0 in a month ugh,0 sasii i know exactly how you feel,0 hi i have a social anxiety disorder and everytime i m stressed for example medical appointment my heartrate go to the roof while i am sitting and get my blood pressure checked my heart go 0 bpm this is so embarassing everytime i have to explain that i am very nervous and the medical stuff doesn t have to worry is there a specific way to get my heartrate down to normal in these situation thank you,1 first comments get useless awards lmao,0 want ownbeing enjoyable getting older older teenager good hate around people almost always forced whether anyone express misery barely coping social situation without going bathroom scratching since almost access sharp items irritating im saving money planning leaving city escaping soon possible,1 redflag lettermy family bunch dumbasses strangers hypocrites assholes junkies love useless pathetic fucking family would happy hope enjoy mediocrity lack introspection happy go that hopefully next life ill better family actually gives tools succeed fucking best ive wanted upgrade family living conditions long progress ive made life go next one finish job hopefully alone without people like holding able dedicate improvement,1 too much traffic on the a can t wait till all 0 lane are ready 0 0,0 omg exam killed me how could i not know the difference between haif a circle and a hemisphere lt gt,0 convinced myself when i take it in they will be annoyed at me and judge me for it not working nothing physically broken that i can see really just need someone to tell me not to overthink it if you re retail yourself that s a bonus,1 let s not leave anyone alone,1 there is nothing more suffocating than the feeling that youre gon na live your life alone it take a lot of strength to not fall apart specially if you already tasted what is like to share your life with someone and knowing that youre gon na be all on your own by the rest of the path i ve spent the last year dreaming abour growing old with someone i consider to be a gift from the heaven only for that dream to be shattered a week ago it s been more than 0 day and im still stuck in despair i cant even sleep in my bed without thinking of him i refuse to find somsomeone else because whats the point in trying to top perfection only to poorly fill the whole your ex left and get your already pulverized heart shattered once more i ve lost my passion to live i ve been carrying anxiety and panic attack for a few year i wa already barely holding it together but this i just the last straw i dont even have a shoulder to cry on anymore what s the point,1 i ve been in a bad spot for a long time i ve dealt with a lot of grief a lot of handling shit on my own and trying to keep up appearance but thing took a turn for the worse when i had a traumatic event a few month ago that sent me over the edge i developed post traumatic stress disorder from it all and coping since ha been excruciatingly difficult i threw myself into work for about a month and a half i quickly burned out the trigger became an everyday occurrence i wanted help i needed help but i wa afraid every hand extended towards me would only reach to choke me those around me could drown me in an ocean of love and i d never feel wet my clothes may be wet but my skin my heart would feel dry a a desert i feel so closed off yet i crave closeness i can t even remember the last few month but from what i can i ve been destructive i ve been in so much emotional pain that i ve unintentionally caused emotional pain nothing is ever good enough for me it s not a conscious thing you see it s me i ve never felt good enough for anyone nor at anything i did these feeling of failure disappointment overwhelm me most day i m 0 without much to show for it this fight to see another day is wearing me out i keep getting knocked down and i know more is to come from life i just don t see an end to this emotional torture within my mind,1 dont know but rnb cool kinda forced beginning started vibing my bus driver always played beat like full blast every ride home think like days redbone bood up remember also playing khalids location,0 crush likes quarantine old friends dipped girl real person talking eventually started develop crush her told likes im happy edit thank award lt,0 "@shwood loved the cameo, made me chuckle! along with your SXSW talk over the past couple of shows ",0 still feeling terrible and sick but hooray for Megan Hilty (aka one of the most hilarious Glindas ever) on desperate Housewives tonight ,0 want kill spitejust make family friends angry upset care temporary want suffer ive already written redflag note,1 guys hate english teacher wants summerize something already perfectly concise like basically gotta research find words make smaller stupid,0 NIGHT babies. Got a VH1 thing in the am Check out my pics! http://twitpic.com/2y57u http://twitpic.com/2xzl1 http://twitpic.com/2y5s2,0 day listening supertramps crime century going bed asylum kinda bop tho hide shell amazing crime century song meh honestly,0 have had pretty good control over the most part of my anxiety up until recently when i ve been having headache again and my neck seems to have flared up it s like a sense of impending doom followed by extreme panic and the feeling of thinning i m about to die idk what it is but it s crazy usually happens before i go to sleep these weird dull hit weirdly sharp pain in the left side of my head and this weird dent on the same side of my head hope it s not cancer,1 think tried kill nighti really bad night went drive clear mind like usually kept speeding really fast closing eyes couple seconds would come back senses idk happened like times felt right ya know wanted tell someone ig,1 larrissar please don t leave stay for grant s bday,0 im damn unlucky wtf like literally nothing goes well nothing going long hell do,0 anyone who also went through a heavy depressive state not moving around eating or doing anything etc know how to get their appetite back most day i ll only have one meal and that ll be it but i went to the doctor today and they said i might actually contract an illness a a result of this and would like to get me tested so i kinda wan na start fixing up,1 "@rob_caporetto apart from characters etc., which is cool. my pet hate is knowing something from a later ep that spoils an earlier ep ",0 im bored downloading black ops anyone willing teach zombies system ps dlc maps giant,0 suppose depends one actually sees movie first time impression formed way isbr br i saw child tv back the stranger loved it time space program moon reality shows like search ufo m man showing child world could hold future adventure technologybr br you got see shows network aired them way people could slash shows making parody it get take show add comments itbr br i know concept pilot was saw movie hoping thru stryker would get home know possibility continuing beyond two hoursbr br back then would understood many people hate movie now doubt remember such understand now really understand story one must see perspective rather characters moviebr br if one watching american might humorous lack security police statebut one subject state compliance could expected security less things suppose perfect perfect extreme degree perfect one suppose doubt one likely question quickly things orderbr br the subplots movie interesting old man remembers time watches words since suspects spies everywhere police state values knowledge extent careful control harm brain powerbr br these days one likely know exactly movie see it much suspense surprise lost duet astronaut doctor beginning movie perfect exchange one considers movie made well cold war astronauts biggest fear crashed ussr one gets quite distance movie becomes apparent possibility least concernsbr br this primary difference the stranger doppelganger latter considered timeless since comments ussr comparatively minor lost early movie former links movie supposedly directly beginning theme variation wardsbr br all said despite fond memory movie rather easy see would made series week stryker would make friends benedict would chase stryker would get away eventually benedicts society would get rid him someone else would pick chase rut would develop might jab something new perhaps another crew member strykers mission showing up probably would enough keep show goingbr br if one goes knives others used slash movie odds slash well one remembers made cold war fears estimations side time popular environment contained viewer may find entertaining intellectual themes it,0 viewso got married expected woman rest life yrs decided finally lose weight started lbs ugly husband abuse infidelity boredom lost everything house family job years got life pulled back together point im late s meet another woman get married buy house etc little backstory pretty much life ive health problems first heart attack weighed non smoker social drinker family history active sports etc way deserved it think depression started then know afraid every day past years record three heart attacks several cardiac incidents stroke take pills diabetes depression heart issues may lung issues involved left job october step ahead fired missing much time im good place physically emotionally so thanksgiving weekend left house angry depressed unhappy etc ended buying pistol sunday loving understanding wife police take hospital filed temporary restraining order became permanent police house christmas eve family party court restraining order lawyer mentioned filed divorce im job finances wreck bad health marriage over social life leaching daughters family cant see way pretend theres reason going on,1 getting feelings outi mostly feel dead empty emotion ever feel annoyance anxiousness resisting urge drink somehow made weekend hard kept justifying reasons mind drink saw guy walking holding six pack beer jealous him felt okay him okay me still drink though want to want judgement so still fantasy killing strong image tying belt around neck plays head im afraid pain im afraid people think im sure yet think anything here see point strength make effort,1 http twitpic com y i miss this,0 "@TheBeaverton I love the overwhelming, omnipresent feeling of depression that permeates every sun blocked, filthy street corner, and the subtle yet inescapable ass smell of everywhere south of Bloor.",1 really worth itthis may little long side hear young father source love great inspiration business went mother divorced within month gone me brother mother living new house things went bad worse neglected most likely lack discipline part physical health declined rapidly also managed weasel way online schooli never left computer top this mother began dating again one day got serious physical fight one boyfriends cops got involved spent ten days juvy met people never forget abouteven tried release father stepped back decided way im living mother again sent therapeutic boarding school south carolina week destroying find me there met tons great people loved supported though family things began looking stay lost lot excess weight feeling better ever had three months given devastating newsi pulled could live new stepmom my dad point become cruise ship captain gone time within week two plane heading away south carolina heading towards new jersey everything point seemed much grayer life network support vanished eyes lush foresty environment swapped decaying walls concrete even time think it new stepmother was words possible bitch second walked door see basically verbally announced hated would prefer life would fight constantly eventually words began sink in felt though annoyance flaw otherwise perfect design everything knew hometown friends gone heard much life would better everyone gone to thing holding onto point father kept contact via phone one day got mad yelling make work stepmom fault like that last support fell me wrote redflag note went bathroom grabbed razor blade anddid nothing much wanted die point bring it ripped note cried sleep later dad realized going work got another divorcei think still blames me left hometown start life fresh months plan figure everything time go work go planned ended drinking stupor every night without dads knowledge dwelling memories past year grades began fail quickly old demons arose going back old school time came go work plans made whatsoever currently grandmothers feel like future either way ive told every adult opened nothing ever gets better grow life gets worse well life come quickly im ready it become disillusioned world even see point getting anymoresome days wish balls it escape world problems it,1 started mirtazapine days ago struggle sleep one things made want try heard helps that first nights acted like sleeping pill went straight out seems stopped though long bed taking best dosage help sleep currently mg also increased appetite ever go away mirtazapine,1 well boss officially hates mei work last week last week doctors office building absolutely one here meanwhile everyone else vacation weeks except me stay dreadful office hours think thats fair im struggling significantly mental health pm came office late times got cause barely get sleep nightmares hallucinations today came late im anything answering phones sitting hours boss angry talk im late hired here definitely convinced full hates me suspected know everyone literally hates meall family thats zero friends im school cant even focus anymore depression thoughts getting bad im really ready now,1 thank hugs thank hugs,0 everyone ups downs everyone goes though good bad days however realized missing something more feeling like even though told heard feels like quite opposite feeling misunderstood long remember catching me almost communication parents friends busy life girlfriend years left couple days ago exhausted true need find settle things me lacking motivation past years nothing feel inspired by nothing drives feel like another person awaits time go suicidal thoughts before time scare guess asking help help see haveare feeling way coping holding tothank reading unable find happiness peace,1 anyone want start group chat filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 cut finger chefs knife ow filler filler filler,0 "Over the years, our #mentalhealth expert has seen 100s of patients who suffer from #PND & has been asked some questions frequently by patients and their relatives. Through this post, he is trying to answer some of those questions: http://bit.ly/2vJGpgv  #Postnatal #Depression pic.twitter.com/6EjoawQtnk",1 "@pankaku Hi, I enjoyed your presentation at GAP (is it still GAP? ",0 im going die anyway nowim terrible putting shit thats head words feel like get feel across im options firstly im live uk currently go college cant help angry feeling like this great family others would see good life look alot posts rsw find someone going see anyone anything helpful say see people abused things like that pain must seem like nothing comparison grades college terrible exams coming up im extremely unprepared enjoy many things anymore soon leave college parents expect get job new job since one parttime really stresses out im shy mere thought meet impress new people scares me im homosexual not openly means come see burden part me spend days worrying next often stay late night unable sleep cry thinking inevitable reality failure even im crying write this would want live fail struggle could easily swallow many pills possible sit bath cut cant keep eyes open pain seems much easier take living broken life watch family friends die death seems much peaceful route im likely take life sorry huge block text,1 not good munchkinster is not feeling well,0 we re here to help we are online therapy platform which essentially connects certified psychologist and people suffering from mental health issue such a depression stress and anxiety among dozen of other clinically defined disorder book your appointment now http t co v ulbjpxa,1 never thought hate world muchcan talk someone,1 dm stuff one knows abut u ur secret safe daddy uwu filling filling filler owo noticed bulge fills,0 lowpass on pizzicato strings - number one cause of crushing depression,1 boys even realize boys like,0 If the wizards and Cavs lose I'll spiral down into a crippling depression,1 How to Deal with Stress and Anxiety - Infographic from Anxiety and Depression Association of America https://cmun.it/jsmzbuyx ,1 made throw times im sitting blood vomiti cant control this cant afford help kind would accept it kind life this every day hurts destroys body gets cuts ruins everything life cant stop want bring girlfriend want burden anything sometimes wish would find someone better feel bad slitting throat,1 best things kill yourselftheres way fuck im living another year god awful life ive had so ive got burn good ideas,1 "watchin keep it in the family. smiles i wouldn't be able to do that - 1 i can't sew so thats mum business out, 2 i dont wanna be a farmer",0 opportunities hope screw uphi everybody used lurk lot subreddit feel need say goodbye im still depressed know over still time always be im changing environment im trying browse positive stuff maybe manage get friends summer fix problems dont over least im putting effort know people going bad times im praying although probably helpi hope everything get better everyone im tired suffering seeing people suffer goodbye rredflagwatch please give in,1 Hah. Had a bad day. My Sundown by @jimmyeatworld randomly came on. Still the GOAT in terms of simultaneously allowing you to wallow in your depression while forcing you to build yourself back up.,1 dislike abortion like someone report guys spawnkilling talk admin this,0 wrote notei might leave phone somewhere dont get tracked down phone hold note happy loving sort way way saying deserve rot want try today monday,1 Pinkberry in the city '09!!!!!!!!!! ,0 @sidpiraya wheres the fun in that? ,0 soul go one committs redflagpart reason im still im afraid going heaven believe hell earth theres nothing worse that soul stays forever form punishment never get see loved ones gone may seem like silly thing think you really wanna rest peace im gone,1 i have suffered depression most of my life ever since i can remember i have always felt something wa off or wrong even when i wa a child i just didn t have a name for it i lived in a latin household so of course whenever i talked about it with someone i wa mostly met with man up it just a phase it all in your head or you are a kid you dont know im now i started therapy year ago started taking pill again this month i don t get any joy out of life i have had friend best friend girlfriend ive been to private island visited many country and met a lot of people im a very lucky person it just saddens me the amount of people that would have enjoyed those experience even more than me but didnt get to do it my parent tell me that they will always support me but all i want is to stop living im sorry if this doesn t fit the general theme of this subreddit i usually don t think my problem is a big or important a any of yours i just needed to vent and have somebody hear me out cause i don t have anyone else every person always end up either leaving or im the one leaving them because i dont want them to have to suffer even a little bit because of me i wish there wa a button i could press to end my existence however for anyone else that is going through what i am please don t stop trying to get better i know you can do it i may not be strong enough but im sure you will win this fight do it for everyone who ha already given up on themselves im sorry for the long post i hope you have a good life,1 @bram85 hope you like it! even if it's not fiction ,0 waiting day endsman life hit hard since th grade got friends kicked curb got cps come house mistake made parents move back country sexual abused likely got aids legit stopped giving fuck anyone around waste time busy ignore im lost sucide attempts dont work alli ask someone pls open ear,1 study history of music bored help me please,0 holup havent done hey libtard shitpost hours hmmmmmmmm bruh brain think filler filler filler,0 please read life may depend pm eastern time friday someone attempt redflag train fellow redditor needs know life worth living need people read pm time telling life worth living dont want people earlier make powerful hour posted reveal reddit name pm help save life knowing many people care change persons mind please help,0 sick tiredim sick tired sub dont really get point going reddit saying im going kill myself someone offers advice people say naw im going kill myself think sub shouldnt anonymous bitch ass niggas think bad situation stand behind words face repercussions false alarms wolf calling know say hey none but isnt point caring people helping see countless posts people saying going kill tried everything havent tried everything cause tried everything effort wouldnt suicidal reddit look mirror take control soul,1 people come go constantly might close best friend several weeks months suddenly reach say anything anymore get ghosted people use move feel done got want you get told must constantly about things time every single day meet new people make new friends cycle continues over people want friends you flake beginning others stick around little bit couple years best point naturally social creatures even solitary people crave interaction really give us end sure fun memory two most it movies songs anime etc preach value friendship friends stick matter what congrats people either exist rare find especially dawn smartphones streaming etc nobody wants commit anymore nobody wants friends anymore want followers clout rate going die alone bitter angry world people continue insist much value friendships,1 Our CMO @DrEvianGordon shares concrete strategies for beating the blues: http://bit.ly/2I0KgZd  #mentalwellness #training #brainhealth #depressed #depression #mindmatters #keeptalkingMH #Whatyoudontsee @amyzellmer,1 oh no free car park i always use is now pay amp display but i have no change,0 Yet it's you I see wasting the dream that only I deserve I'll tear off your face to see your smile. <3,0 @pedrocs aahh cuddy!.... power truly is sexy ,0 crush post weird needed get chest bye,0 featherinair call me back,0 ive feeling shit past days anyone talk im close enough friends want family know problems want someone talk irl maybe hug,0 "@AmberBirmingham hello amber! My name´s Nieves, I´m from spain, you? and congratulations on your graduation again!",0 want kill myself tired want go sleep never awake reason attempted yet day nothing weeks friendships falling apart affecting relationship negative way evident happy answer every question fine part thinks am feel comfortable place spent long know expect happy scares want end always does tired,1 you tell feel im you love you every one you,0 i m and i feel like my life is completely pointless i struggle with ocd and most of the time it consumes my every waking thought i go to therapy but somehow i never end up doing the homework and i m not making a much progress a i should be i go to my local community college even though i do really well in my class it doesn t feel like an accomplishment i originally got into a good university but dropped out very quickly due to poor mental health now a lot of my previous friend have actually graduated with degree from year university while i m still kind of stuck i can t drive and i don t have a friend group i have one close friend and a few acquaintance but i struggle with making new close friend because i am extremely socially anxious i used to have more friend but i ve burned most of those bridge looking at my life i don t really see much to live for i feel disconnected from everyone else in society and i can t escape my anxiety every stride i make seems to be temporary and i am so tired of having to struggle through every day i don t really have a point i guess i m just venting i honestly don t know if anyone can do anything for me i know i need to do the work myself it just feel pointless,1 guys girls know guy crush me so think guy class crush cause someone told did pretty close friends id say ultimate test surely tell guy crush me friend suggested offline id text heyy replies right away crush me tried replied minutes mean wanna embarass myself kinda lowkey like him need advice asap,0 bruh imagine godlike power kill anyone manage manipulate someone killing greatest detective despite knowing real name world basically become god workshiped worldwide gtbeaten year old probably autisimlt think deserved win,0 want bracesinvisalign parents say cant afford it try candid wanted invisalign fix smile forever parents couldnt afford insurance wouldnt cover it found candid clear aligner company works entirely remotely home including teeth imprints scanning teeth using phone automatically send progress pics doctor meet videocamera doctor super easily also easily k cheaper invisalign super easy crazy schedule like cant go dentistsorthodontists office every weeks home follow link free starter kit teeth imprints also amazing payment plans wish high school first year college cool lol also companies similar like smile direct club byte explore options picking one httpcndcovsabrina_,0 dangerm0use i think maybe you should get a couple more hour of sleep hon how productive can you be right now if ur dog tired i worry,0 great thing thirst chanwook parks latest film antitwilight may take minus reality big plus park takes method vampirism seriously well torrid love story sanghyeon taejoo see conflicts characters sanghyeon priest undergoes medical experiment that unbeknownst him turns sickly trueblue vampire taejoo mother idiot brother latter killed sang strong melodrama theres nothing terribly weepy insipid story characters point implications put forth religion early sang example seen healer sorts since rose dead thanks vampirism even cant knows it top good vs evil push another plane cinematicallybr br that thirst also rises awesome standard artistry park displayed oldboy lady vengeance underrated im cyborg thats ok taken given thirst film juicy narrative bizarre suburban characters shot edited eye mood part satiric part romanticerotic part dramatic lastly fantastical always treat vampirsim something simple horror movie setup though horror movie park share scary scenes akin movie near dark never mentioned word vampire let know was treated sincerity kind lucid track attention disease effect persons existence perhaps scarier killings bloodshed see one vampire jump really high heal wounds seen em allbr br thirst also wicked sense humor much like oldboy bite pun intended meant emphasize bizarre physical states being example found priests predilection sucking blood people comas taking blood tube suckling floor manner taejoo holds one scrap humanity keeping mother alive even something like stroke blink eyes tap one finger means reacting bloodsuckers whove brought pain horror home moments like icing cake make complete experience makes thirst last mind elements come together drama existential pains bunueliansurreal sense catholicism i especially loved dynamic sanghyeon priest gives arm bloodsucking really wants vampire too erotic scenes priest finally gives taejoo incredible pace length shots real gets pornographic manner sense characters release escape last long scope storybr br if great oldboy something carp about films chanwook park directs reach stature masterpiece and least hell always known man directed movie thrist excellent addition oeuvre serious streak vampire movies general filmmaking crisp exciting even dangerous and white room daylight characters live in humor dark hilarious acting intense moody especially subtle strokes song kangho quirky evil surprising vulnerability kim okvin ending finally get there one truly superb vampiremovie endings talking years good way battle thirst twilight thirst takes knockout first round let right one near dark tougher call ,0 want kill rn fucked entrance exams received result yet know feel bad parents degrade meby lot always high expectations average parents want kill myself do,0 night light slow feel much discomfort care disappear moment know lots beauty sun life smiles everything given you know much last me would willing endure even would problem me hear lot am am things never liked promised myself wanted end myself night sounds like whisper image look like many friends see dream make friends even beautiful forever dreaming stay inside it rains prefer cool it open time enjoy together used laugh together angry make trouble attention mothers reminds me strengthens me sorry never seen forgive me,1 #2018goals :fight my depression lose another 53lbs do more cardio become stronger and tone muscle wear a bikini this summer run a 5k in October be more loving finish projects quit smoking prove everyone wrong that ever doubted me!,1 playing killzone the demo,0 im horny rn ngl look dude clicking nsfw tag perverted fuck,0 im parasite everyone around meim nothing worthless scared stupid socially anxious lazy pos live gfs family free provide absolutely nothing thing work transport vehicles know thats permanent thing im college going th year yearold ive gotten nowhere even know life major desperation move honestly ive seizures im hoping ill blackout die since incredibly peaceful im scared means asian family want disown find im still graduating wish could give something back im worthless anything skills typing fast wpm video games rapping music thing makes incredibly happy hopeless think could succeed talented artists there ive tried applying ton desk jobs require talking strangers i cant even work cash register start shaking forgetting everything is require degree experience both nothing offer really wish could kid ive always dreamed getting poor mother things deserves taking care sister also sucks im deathly afraid her hate many things wrong me even work properly fastfood jobs worked since back gives literally almost collapse hurts bad especially one place give breaks all gone gf would richer guy take care better medical condition along person cant provide anything family even deserve kindness deserve anything ampxb longer block text accidentally highlighted deleted accident detailed honestly matter read stupid post thank taking time day even read sad post great day everyone hope everything goes well all,1 long hold hopei plan killing set expiration date self time getting close told wouldnt one thing life worth living for finally something looked got girl made feel like could better fate decided piss me broke needed time think wanted thinks got relationship fast l last break up cant blame hurts night said loved wished good night next morning broke me tore apart inside good thing it worst part blame always blamed self everything sit hope takes back nothing left live for need know long wait long suffer pain hope,1 need mc gamers im bored get full affects fire protblast protprojectile prot need one piece armor matter boots cp helm anything idk im seems like cool idea one every situation,0 @ThirtySomethin sent! ,0 i ve been stuck in this house for two day,0 attention rteenagers ulovelamma needs help scrolling looking memes saw one rdankmemes uigotajarofrum saying bad ulovelamma health condition currently suffering right colorectal cancer pls lets make reach eon production ulovelamma get his pls spread word thank time late help thank time pls spread word,0 @scottarthart i know!! im pretty good at it arent i! ,0 doneim sick life everything wrong cause problems every aspect life day goes someone isnt affected do get told im mean rotten person try nice try include everyone big heart guess im bitch dont know anymore dont know change way am one ever love me one ever truly like me feel like alone forever cant live that need die really dont think jill myself im much pussy myself want to wish someone else could life cause would better it tell people things everyone life thinks attention really one myself hate anything dont know back happen press done love mom dad bf grandparents brothers half sister every single one u affected me like cause pain waste space still love u never stop loving u,1 halloween dog halloween dog lovers hey folks check cool halloween tshirt dog lovers save used link attached let know guys think httpsteespringcomhalloweenwithmydogprlabhttpsteespringcomhalloweenwithmydogprlab processing video qqpihuxus,0 if faced lot events lately feel redflaged makes sick pay k car get fixed insanely broke feel like one talk to everyone life critical point everything badly cry time genuinely think failure across board ways stop feeling like this go therapy see thursday also ways ignore people specifically family members let say bother you thanks everyone need healthy ways cope,1 friend keeps thinking redflag told were gonna die whats difference now doshe told stop spamming her came back tell fine spamming call anyone help do,1 follow twitch would nice guess bonelessjham thank advance,0 im surviving day life want pain endim living pakistan parents one brother past months mixed emotions ive realized place fool like here used hang friends drink party rarely see them basically make everyone uncomfortable around me social skills disaster im major business administration ive real contacts used act like ive everything figured out bitter reality know shit want die father dies cant take responsibility family im socially isolated uptill ive passed exams using unfair means learned anything parents think ill achieve something im failure suicidal thoughts mind dreadful parents today blast occured city watching tv wishing blast site died them want sleep never wake up sometimes im afraid myself sorry bad vocabulary,1 went saw movie last night coaxed friends mine ill admit reluctant see knew ashton kutcher able comedy wrong kutcher played character jake fischer well kevin costner played ben randall professionalism sign good movie toy emotions one exactly that entire theater which sold out overcome laughter first half movie moved tears second half exiting theater saw many women tears many full grown men well trying desperately let anyone see crying movie great suggest go see judge,0 "Me: I have depression and panic attackPeople: get over itMe: *suicide*People: omg poor little girl, what happened to her that made her to end her life like thisPeople dont care bout u when u r alive, they only care bout u when they get news bout uIt's true when they said.. pic.twitter.com/bVRXuHWKp6",1 friend going kill himselfhe bullied someone said going kill himself see next day jams bus ticket snap him calls said thats last call im hearing him kept texting sorry dont die isnt listening said fault wtf cope go hell,1 we re here to help we are online therapy platform which essentially connects certified psychologist and people suffering from mental health issue such a depression stress and anxiety among dozen of other clinically defined disorder book your appointment now http t co ziuwj0y0vd,1 today is day of my fast amp i feel i may break b i go bed i must hold out til the end of the wk must stayed focused wish me luck,0 day nnn went even slower day studying minecraft fun bois good luck cumrades,0 loved last year remember thing last new year posted selfies boost selfconfidence again,0 guess got learners permit today me motherfuckers stay roads state behind wheel accidentally rear end,0 george mackie i dont sell very often on ebay,0 my year old daughter biological father and his family are all abusive and narcissistic we are a year no contact now but she continues to have no change with constant insecurity fear anxiety depression headache confusion control it s almost like she is addicted to her anxiety need advice on what to do to help her break this cycle she is pushing all of her feeling that have been broken from abuse and inadvertently teaching her younger sister to be the same way my stamen in the matter is getting thin her anxiety make mine shoot through the roof especially when she know when she is being very unreasonable about several repeating subject and then continues being unreasonable while trying to hide that she is enjoying it,1 @jordanknight so another day of rehearsals just done huh... don't blame us for knowing! Chris told us haha hope we hear from u soon!,0 i feel so much worse after talking to a counseller i swear this time i might actually do it,1 e n bad joke,0 want hang like tara condells deathi really hate fucking much and know happened me friends acquaintances everytime go outside theres fucking couples people saying like youre always alone need stop caring people think adult self loathing get nowhere im fucked lmfao im trying shit fucking getting anywhere shit fucking hard see couples man hate feminine looking fucking patchy beard im hermit cuz im fucking stupid im jacked gotten anywhere friends family deep personal coworkers lovers im isolated down im getting tired this workout read im learning music somehow fucking suck shit im gonna start digging deeper redflag method think cloth whatever im fucking strong enough incel ill never situation im people meeting girls like taller jerk starts talking her one friends starts dating her know cuz thats happened multiple times cuz im fucking ugly mean look like shit cuz job everyone ignores im young so women say look sad like yeah life always shit ok anyway time research method deeper im fucked really look it,1 goodbyethats could say could end right would read last words would ever communicate goodbye often think powerful would be know finish typing end it hear back think me think dead desk think person find me person tell dad words powerful im weak goodbye,1 miss french guy added discord fun sharing memes owo stuff chilling talking that didint respect didnt wanted called irl name cus wasnt suposed know it unfrended met reddit btw,0 im horny fuck said every person subreddit ever montana baseball cap,0 attempt overdose last nighti took methocarbamol mg pills with melatonin help sleep attempt die sleep woke extreme drowsiness nausea parents think norovirus enough kill me lbs helps,1 @Duckie_Brown Whyyy you leavvvinng mii Rubbie Duckie? kk If you must go nite nite luv muffin don't let the bed bugs bite ,0 ends weeki diagnosed anxiety depression saw therapist three times week five years hospitalized several times every imaginable combination mess deemed recovered enough wean last combination meds remeron effexor klonopin since life felt like hamster wheel ive learned keep quiet plot end silence diagnosed heart condition told would likely lead medical crisis sooner rather later took opportunity draft living restricts treatment enough make survival unlikely last year became desperately ill organ failure caused heart condition odds survived surviving do spent days hospital last year treatment sepsis acute respiratory distress liver kidney failure etc far ive spent another two weeks hospital cant work lost home moved so sweet generous dull bath water ive decided leverage stage liver fibrosis generally weakened condition picc line thats place bring unsurvivable medical crisis im diagnostic test later week anesthesia requires fast two days hand fasting increases liver toxicity tylenol get home mg zofran along small dose benzo prescribed bunch meds managing nausea blend grams tylenol smoothie take bed with flu andor post test fatigue plenty antiemetics oral suppositories liquid morphine benzos ride days home ie get past early stage tylenol poisoning point saved liver kidney damage resultant brain swelling even symptoms become unmanageable get taken er good fortune allergic tylenol poisoning treatment drug choice mucomyst which used previously attempt relieve oxidative stress liver episode sepsisinduced liver failure provoked anaphylaxis hope get drum tylenol level becomes undetectable death ruled something like cryptogenic liver failure normally functioning liver five days would it impaired liver function knows case also slim chance someone order toxicology screen might detect metabolites tylenol consider labeled redflag risk worth taking help things along ive brewed syringe gut bacteria inject picc line bring another hopefully fatal episode polymicrobial sepsis heading hospital receive palliative care messy almost inevitable end fails recently got firearms id sig sauer ammo wrap things up,1 y all wan na talk about depression but wan na get mad at me for sleeping for day weird flex but ok,1 @kairin you are most clumsy then! wear finger condoms next time for protection ,0 homework homework homework,0 i love my atekinzz so much amp amp i soo miss her,0 yall shit going talk it want hear it dont want reddit know dm me dont want know kindly continue scrolling ,0 loved it fan original series always wondered back story would fail delight me also love fact apart eric stoltz recognise one person refreshing much like bsg introduced whole wealth new talent cant wait series start airing well done ronald d moore team excellent job special effects dialogue acting spot on felt emotionally tied storyline know purists probably disagree assessment felt caprica far superior scifi stuff produced last decade,0 none less probably going ramble little expecting anyone actually read this using someone talk to somewhere unload thoughts instead getting lost head wish someone talk to actually luxury girlfriend quite literally adored still unfortunately cheated despite best efforts forgive forget wants nothing me says begged stay honestly regret doing lesson learnt lol really deserve abandoned person told would never leave would always love me matter what home life best either recently put hand glass guess explainable accepted version self harm doen proud sometimes feel like cannot help sudden release adrenaline pain kind soothing urge cut gotten worse past weeks mental health definitely decline felt love since girlfriend left me coupled continuious mental emotional abuse home making life unbearable tired getting threatened tired called every name sun tired compared put belittled so fucking tired recently started care less family think me guess good thing yes still make sad get longer feel bad leaving past think attempt rebuilding bridges stage picture going try post feel need vent however brief post may be hopefully help clear head know post best conversation starter honestly lonely right would love friends conversation well never thought would posting here,1 loris sl i see they are still having aftershock over there i m following eqwatch which tell me there s just been another quake,0 arghhhhhh can t put a profile picture here so i m sorry guy s don t know what to do now,0 "P90X, Day 47 - It was an intense Kenpo session today, they heard me from the floor below in my hotel room! ",0 goodlaura what about reese dying on ttsc and season finale next week boring madame president is a crazy woman,0 cant stop imagining itits hard believe alone really am everyone really person know gets slice personality theres never real catharsis talk someone one really knows anybody everybody knows stuff level cliches theyve earned status cliches theyre fucking true gun reliable pills ive got sharp knife though bought lie tell old chinese lady seemed like cool thing time want hurt slit wrists seems like itll fucking hurt think maybe slit throat would quicker wondered whether would hurt slit adams apple open maybe could slice low could hide tie funeralwhy cause parents anymore grief eh like try deal stuff imagined shooting head jolted lethargy one quick terrible second head exploded imagined failed somehow would saying things psychologist no think im bipolar docnever manic shit even think clinical depression image doctor turned professor fucking hate imagined telling redheaded cunt off i hope granddaughter dies fucking car fire kind person would quick witty response though even fazed me one is good way bad best accomplish creep people out try hard compensate awkward niceness niceness comes contrived bullshit scares people makes wonder im nice fucking hell im trying make things easier you folks know cant believe things head disappear intowhat blackness thats color even black cant describe amount nothingness thoughts dissolve into know keep going on die thats pretty shitty scenario live ill end posting venting place like this place like vent ill go world inside hide imaginary conversations psychologists try imagine halves conversation ill talk people past made kind impression even know im around anymore cant remember name think ever know im rambling im afraid stop either kill go living fucking want either right now im cold cant get enough sleep semester browse porn read late night think it like submerging freezing water go one agonizing inch time jump single awful jolt wish born wish existance shit show music ill show fights show modern medicine ill show hiroshima show puppies ill show dogs skinned alive blinking chinayou get idea getting embarrasing now fucking reason feel way want stop,1 @smpfilms yaay! Love your videos Cory (via @gbfilms),0 little background recent breakup two weeks ago boyfriend basically said romantically interested anymore come find days later already grindr really hurt whole break top things going breaking point depression redflag started seeing therapist probably started saying ago honest anyway since break really appetite last weeks lost almost pounds wondering anybody tips get appetite back least feel like getting little bit nutrition appetite depressionredflag,1 healthy discussion chat think lockdowns really helpful not healthy discuss,0 @thinkstillfree ya te vas a dormir? =S buuu buena noche brendita ,0 help pleasei need someone talk,1 have you tried being positive? no i actually thought my depression was fueled by positivity so i haven't tried it yet,1 closer redflag everydayhello throwaway honestly know ill live itll im depression since im mg prozac severe chronic depression ocd im dancer teacher told becasue crying no one cares feelings one wants hear them uncle also needed open heart sugery like anyone worried couldnt sleep dance told stop lazy ive looked man whole life ive done everything please like anyone would teacher look to depression got bad started care progress stops encourging younger kids preattentional im writting crying messy honestly know longer livei lose dance skills lot depressed get honestly feel like teacher care gone cheer bedazzled jacket called ugly give good even though loved cried never worse since im sorry long redflag thoughts getting worse im living uncle point wasnt would killed last month sorry long messy cant take anymore fear doctors put ward caused almost kill due trauma feel weaki friends therapist due fear reddit throwaway accounts safe place thank replys advanced lt,1 brandzhd takin a break from the club please dont tell me where u at,0 hello all i am m and i have come here to share something that ha been bothering me for a lot of year now i hate they way i look i did not win the genetic lottery by any mean and it make we wana kill myself to be honest i have never been on a date and never had a girlfriend yea you can laugh it s all cool look do matter and it s the truth this personality matter thing is all bullcrap people are attracted towards good looking people especially woman it feel really sad and lonely to be unloved realising that i will never have a loved one or even if i do she might cheat on me because of the way i look is unbearable i barely have anyone to talk to i thought i would share this here i wish i die in my sleep that s all i wish for each day,1 i've now fallen in love with true blood. thanks to @seozombie. ,0 explain wondering could send copy check day yeah,0 "everyone, thanks for listening to my songs and paying attention! please join the mailing list for upcoming tour +find me on Facebook ",0 im itgoodbye,1 @redheadlori @pcjbfan Finally broke down and got tix yesterday...So I'll be seein' ya's in Tampa fo sho! Can't wait til August!!! ,0 dowhat saythat make go awaylife already shot bulletcan outpace stayampxbampxba vast draught emotions lay hereto witness pain happiness fearis another day life hold dearampxbampxbis cruel fate design fairyou eventually happy face another evil snareis life supposed make happiness commodity rarewas born wrong time place simply wrong borni know fact likely ever scaredampxbis seconds joy really worth hours painthe answer obvious put toxicity drainbut torment leave upon friends family shall rainampxbso write poem attempt escape braina decision feel right wrong drives insaneuntil final breath thing ishope better day poem wrote thoughts,1 yoooo ethika shit damn boxers comfortable look hella good too would recommend,0 debating right whether really worth continuing furtherhonestly idea itll worth continuing going life ive genuinely considering taking life shortly new year scumbag like left rot shitty year like think way im burden everyone already nobody would really miss much people see inconvenience piece shit mostly fault theirs im already miserable enough incredibly depressed like going get better gets worse even christmas theres much negativity well im making post christmas ill probably blind eye doctor fucks surgery theyre cutting eye open correct muscle id rather dead blind like ill contribute society ill average loser joe society going shit anyways rate id rather die terms deal rushed vaccine commit social redflag ive probably already half committed rate im going see folks thats six great reasons commit redflag now reasons shouldnt commit redflag arent many dont even know im gonna yet im probably going decide bit see feel shitty tomorrow hate life,1 @yahoolifestyle Dwayne Johnson praised for opening up about his battle w/depression: 'I was crying constantly' https://www.yahoo.com/lifestyle/dwayne-johnson-praised-opening-battle-depression-crying-constantly-111448716.html?soc_src=community&soc_trk=tw … via @YahooLifestyle,1 someone would clean reason number kill,1 hate middle school wanna hurry go high school like bruh u much cool shit like partys picking classes relationship seem work much better ,0 "Shopped Queen St in the sun yesterday, likely the last time for a while, I need to find the SF equivalent of that experience! ",0 @emilyykelseyy It is my cry replacement lol. Well I cry a lot too but I am a pro at depression naps...,1 hello everyone i m male and don t really know how to ass my current situation i ll start from scratch my grandpa wa a bully and abused my mother when she wa a child he also did this with my sister when she wa about year old my brother wa also completely influenced by him and also abused my sister at the time he wa around 0 year old i saw that live once too at that age about year old i couldn t ass and classify the situation had suppressed that very well until my sister came to a clinic for depression around 0 and completely unpacked during the stay from that point on thing really went down hill for me all the picture from back then came up again my sister and my brother have spoken out and get along well again i smoked pot a lot back then because it always distracted me my mother had already attempted suicide twice i am always completely unmotivated and unhappy although unhappy is the wrong word i m just happy about almost nothing anymore i also think about suicide from time to time but i m probably just too tired and scared to go through with it i always like to be alone but with a girlfriend it s a bit difficult from time to time because we live together the few friend i have thank god understand me and don t push me into anything my girlfriend is also very unstable mentally but we both support each other very well gaming on the pc ha helped me a lot for year i have occasional nervous breakdown where i just start cry i ve always hated my job but that s probably just because i hate work in general i loathe people in general and i don t like big gathering either apart from my sibling and parent i have very little or no contact with other relative had adhd a a child and have been taking medikinet for month a i still have the diagnosis i wonder how others see it and whether i should seek external help i think i m doing just fine but i d be interested in an independent opinion pls be kind english is not my native language,1 whats last movie guys watched im trying find movie watch mainly watch youtube videos im bored right now id appreciate help out,0 enjoyed film offers variety interesting subplots complex lovehate relations along interspersed action scenes lighthearted moments mountain men counter harsh army discipline main characters well cast true john wayne robert mitchum could probably done starring role well victor mature certainly comes across headstrong brawling tarzan sorts reminds film role samson another difficult impossible man tamebr br the mountain men opening scene certainly anachronism era pure trapper mountain men pretty much ended years before collapse western beaver populations well fashion market beaver pelts story supposedly takes place oregon end civil war judging volcano background opening sceneprobably mt lassen fictional fort located somewhere remote section cascades never see civilians however plenty conflicting evidence actually takes place mountains wyoming montana red cloud war chief threatens trappers soldiers fort namesake famous sioux war chief led successful campaign exterminate newly built army forts wyoming montana fort laramieeastern wyomingis mentioned far removed fictional fort plains tribe assiniboines mentioning joining red cloud aspect story then bears general resemblance historical factbr br it may interest note certain resemblances plot story john fords fort apache cases fort commander recently assigned first frontier post native american problems underestimates military prowess adversaries regarding little cannon fodder promote career films pays dearly inexperience dealing enemy also common greenhorn commander resents subordinate long experience local native americans wants tell wise do films budding romantic relaionship woman close commanders heart subordinate commander everything squelch clearly commander must eliminated allow romances proceed completionbr br i also see certain resemblances the misfits soldiers whole including commander misfits sortas one admits mostly problems raw recruits experience fighting native americans commanders wife apparently woman anywhere near fort thus inherently misfit husband uncertain future army trappers turn also misfits really wanting accept army civilian discipline yet cut previous free spirit lives recent armygenerated antagonism red cloud br br finally also compare story anthony manns later film the far country starring jimmy stewart stewarts case choose return loner cowboy end matures character come appetizing new way boss red cloud made life outside army region dangerous contemplate besides obsession commanders wife,0 Mandie is excited coz i just got a job in child care...!!! YAY!! Let's celabrate... ,0 "On a boat. On the way out to Norr�ra. Gonna chill for a while, Party tonight! ",0 i found my madden 0 in 09 oh well i say old is new again,0 im pathetic cant even give lifefuck me want give up cant cant even give up fuck stupid sperm win millions stupid fuckers course ungrateful piece shit wins chance existing like trillion bullshit yet im pathetic worthless pile fucking wasted air never amount anything aborted,1 anyone want talk hate feeling lonely someone wants chat message me anything im male ,0 i ve tried i ve put in effort i ve fought back and i did get better before it all went downhill again til i m back to square one then still i got told to try and put in more effort to fight back a if that wasn t what i have been doing to get this far to survive this far no matter how much effort i put in the end everything came back to nothing it s all meaningless they would only see the result without acknowledging nor appreciating the effort i m too tired to fight anymore i don t have anyone to talk to about my problem more like i don t have anyone that i trust enough for me to really open up to even the friend i got right now i can t feel a strong connection with them i don t even talk much with them also too scared to even talk to a therapist and seek help having to reveal my problem like that make me feel vulnerable miserable and embarrassing another reason for not seeking help is so i can break down even more until i really lose my mind and there d really be nothing better than dying i guess but mainly i hate the idea of having to reveal myself to others a i ve mentioned just before this i ve grown too tired i ve been spending a lot more time in my room playing game and barely doing anything productive outside of my work i don t have any motivation or dream sometimes i fear having to sleep at night because by the time i wake up i d have to go through another dull day again and repeat the same thing over and over again the problem is in me i can t run away from myself i wish i could just disappear from existence and it d be nice if no one would remember me at all i m going to sleep and i hope i won t wake up to greet another day but i know that ain t gon na happen will delete this post later i don t really like posting a rant like this too but i really needed to get it out a bit please don t mind this post at all and have a good day to whoever ha read this til the end,1 life usually screw nice peopleive never thought bad person ive kind call friends family yet called friends paid back theyve used thrown away like trash appearing need fair ive never ever hurt anyone bullied school way first year uni ive realised whole life one big disappointment plus suffer social anxiety think ill make threw uni lock im stuck home computer friend one mum checks me wake everyday nothingness loneliness hurts physically barely get bed eat happiness seems like luxury cant afford want friend even one really cares im alone know everyday could last noose ready note prepared need balls go it,1 hey really going throw bad time right anyone free chat ,1 god feeling great tommorow hw ffs mean girl surprisingly interested asked wanted video call said sure we done pretty much normal me started talking joking bought bandana wearing first met actually really cute tbh anyways suggest draw something usually graffiti n shit asked word wanted said gang joke the gang gang kid n shit anyways really know interested really matter pretty nice friend really type person get relationships buona notte everyone here arrivederci i reply comments wake up,0 want overive dealt depression years im s get close ending twice move forward drink alcohol cope keep moving forward still drinking finally find cause depression fades come terms transgender suppress transition support wifes health recovery alcohol comes back along depression dysphoria kicking ass know do want rant safe space rant transgender sub ill trigger others want myself thats it cant let that look mirror hate person see know always have want tear down im tired struggle im tired people belittling supporting caring details im tired explanations im sick tired fucking drinking need anymore im close getting past bs stop fucking drinking tonight night want need alcoholism over one drink halloween need this alcohol goes away guilt depression needs over life alcohol,1 mobility issues since twenty three following difficult pregnancy triggered inflammatory arthritis fibromyalgiachronic fatigue syndrome years ive falls due unsteady feet best times added mobility issues right ankle calf permanently injured achilles tendonitis plantar faciitis muscle calf tightened much due shortening tendons foot points instead sitting normally osteoarthritis right hip slips socket causes lot pain ongoing impact rest body back often spasms locks issues frozen shoulder limits use right arm top this kidney liver bladder problems,1 so many mistake every decision made wrong so many wasted opportunity so much brutality so much evil so much sadness so much loneliness so much failure so much betrayal so many addiction so many false hope too many failure to bear how long can my heart beat with this suffering how long until i give up,1 And with that im going to sleep...HAVE FUN FOLKS! Nite Nite Tweeties ,0 "@zawfi WOW, are you on the west coast? But hey, I am a morning person, so I don't mind too much ",0 bored bored bored bored guys im hella bored idea pissing off im sitting bed stuck charger waiting girl like snap back hotter usual late september im sweating thats fun ive already watched youtube netflix hulu played among us listened music masturbated im officially things do cant think anything creative brain feels like squished grape helllllpppppppp,0 especially considering count one hand romantic comedy films ever enjoyedbr br minnie driver good heart transplant patient mysterious connection duchovnys recently deceased wife i think several awful films used story line think lmn movie jane seymour film however keeperbr br duchovny sympathetic scenes dog cute sad dog misses deceased wife friends want find replacement amusing scene blind date driver waitress date horrible finds intrigued minnie driverbr br caroll oconnor also good one last roles curmudgeonly grandfather bonnie hunt james belushi this film liked in round comedy aspect filmbr br this good film story works overly romantic insult audiences intelligence highly recommended ,0 i have bad depression and anxiety over this i need not only advice because i ve been kicked out of hair sub but i need advice for what to say and how to explain to bully in school about my big thick curly hair,1 hellohi im feeling suicidal tonight,1 honestly one asked rn would epic nah ive talked alot people luck lol,0 ate curry hot damn toe curling spicy,0 good evenings entertainment plot unconvincing garrisons affair first lady unreal passionless president cardboard cutout real villains anyway nothing developed explained sufficiently still know wanted kill president mole got involved villains nameless undeveloped never felt involved plot michael douglas kiefer sutherland best inject reality story chase confrontation good kim basinger eva longoria unbelievable roles basinger totally lacked character way could longoria secret service agent could good film somehow missed way many unanswered questions disappointing whole despite good scenes use west wing set white house scenes kept expecting cj charlie appear,0 dog keeps committing redflagschool approaching couple weeks always made stressed suicidal whenever get like feel guilty dog im gonna leave like that course family take care dont want hurt her sometimes convince dog doesnt like animal wont care cant get guilt conflicting mental health prevents able play much deserves convince shes better without me im scared hurting emotionally thinking abandoned her hate cant even get cry it,1 I make the better dessert. Always. ,0 talking to a boy hating work though,0 i m not fat and dumb it s just how my life s been for a long time now and i don t see any change happening in the next few month or year idk,1 mind dark place right nowfor years recurring suicidal thoughts every time things get really bad morbid wish die peoples standards life would okay maybe even great caring mother loving boyfriend im finishing engineering degree even tuition pay would even want die devil details mum caused big traumas years ago destroying ideas me like marriage loyalty siblings hate every conversation agree ideas presses much boyfriend lacks social skills hes empathetic really harsh sometimes quite often really im terribly sensitive sex life sucks too im really late studies uni though hell unforgiving time professors really care mental health ive six years even get internship imperative order graduate work experience might find internship one im close graduate ive started badly spend last four years trying fix shit ive done im entering limbo need graduate cant graduate many regrets life lot anger heart feel like ill fail life human being partner professional mother id love lot kids im afraid ruin hate like siblings mum feel cheating bitch embedded me bad genes make fail partner although ive never let come surface see point living except dreading final hellish destination maybe pity family too im afraid ill cause much pain commit redflag life pleasant head cant find joy happy prospect me ive tried talking mum boyfriend it people think reason sad let alone depressed suicidal never let tell whole story theyd hurt lot already listening it ive therapy before horribly expensive cant afford right now think quarantine helping see things different light know mind worst place moment,1 sort tore arm boiling over trigger self harmi am say least angry so fucking angry harmed least four years made redflag attempts seven might mighty mind diagnosed depression bipolar disorder pretty young say entered mind though fuck id love bite right now life huge fucking struggle like tearing muddy hill im getting god damn place it put abusive situation told graduated could move on put stop abusive situation at least physically decided fucking hang there little bit longer job im fighting like hell get money move east coast working shitton hours week buck fifty minimum wage without overtime fuck entertainment fuck everything entertainment primary person position so people flake get called in come in shitton work next day d hours everyones schedule money assorted bullshit leaves little time hobbies dicking around fine ive gotten point little makes happy used draw anymore little interest everything ive managed doodle produce comes shit cant put lines save life not could before especially cant right now games get pointless repetitive play amount time even sand boxes talking so fun im lousy fucking better half interest sewing cant afford sewing machine timepatience needle thread shit once result utter crap kept falling apart ive fighting fighting fighting little headway towards moving leech parent love dearly spite bullshit put through kicker though least another half year if longer move that friends called boil point trapped tore arm teeth nails minimal damage remembered used sort shit hate momentary loss self control another rather logical approach biting bullet thats lot easier ignore nailtooth marks however maybe im used now idea point is really anyone talk get upsetdismissive leads getting angry withattacking more loss control im shitty person accept this im sorry peer group lol im going rant go bed buck morning good sleep as much doubt happening tldr trappedtrappedtrappedtraptrappedtraptraptraptrappppedfuckmetrapped situation person id murder painful way possible oh mention like leg fucking snare chew bitch off thats exactly want right now,1 @sweetsheilx ohh lol. what was his reaction?? should record it for us to see ,0 stop lying yall aint getting gfs shuddup,0 anyone oceania here dm discord american european friends discord asleep busy,0 trauma lore filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 pronouns dont refer anything dont exist simply nothing respect simply nothing,0 My girlfriend's dog always looks like she's suffering from severe depression and boy can I relate. pic.twitter.com/U6ZoE0Rgq3,1 find funny everyone always tells need hello reach it minute reach help ignored one actually wants help ill bend backwards friends help out help never returned physically mentally sick it need help,1 person moderates subs abusing powerspread message days ago contacted umassaccountnukes post powermodsi asked name powermodi didnt believe firstbut bit research found guy moderates subsyes heard right many people completely banned reddit criticizing himplease spread messageby altcause theres high chance person moderates sub active on name uawkwardtheturtle checked moderation tabit didnt actually show subsbut checked manually searching many subreddits found indeedtrue,0 @StreetEtiquette Woo! Like to believe our baby TWEET to @StylishWanderer helps! She has a great eye. ,0 somebody is selling the japan only release of my first album on e bay for damn thats it a classic is worth more than that,0 im dumb ugly sick normal lifei deserve eternal suffering without end,1 today birthday cant live onhi reddit today birthday cant seem feel anything anymore count hours work get home get bed etternally without sleeping therapist im also taking meds for month everyday seems get worse im think life me im failure,1 want future im tiredi want live long brain adapted redflag plan cant envision future past certain point cant imagine hope god im dead then really fuck good living anyway work sleep die thats all everything inbetween complete variable even worth it life nothing would keep want keep ever finding bullshit reason stick around let fall stupid reason im better fools dead set killing chickened clinged onto phony reason live want still drive to im tired want rest good,1 long story short mdd gad bpd since late depression kicking arse suffered depressive episodes years never bad long last depressive episode birth son great success nd ssri tried managed establish good routine get out currently th antidepressant sectioned twice year si intent marginally better getting worse again zero motivation get bed appetite crying etci also intensive group therapy since february really invested end day feel exhausted options way without ending it,1 @archiehamilton that's ok - Zeb copes well with bossy women... in English or Chinese ,0 among child in ohc 9 diagnosed with psych neurodev disorder compared with 0 among those never in ohc the most common disorder among child in ohc were depression anxiety disorder neurodev disorder oppositional defiant disorder conduct disorder odd cd,1 crackcouture wow that sound fun nah just going to melbourne for a couple of day unfortunately,0 someone talk toi sad depressed hate it im currently researching ways kill myself really bad thing,1 i m not doing well i m suffocating it s hard to breathe and i have to fight the urge to slice open an artery the only way i know how to cope is by telling someone who s actually willing to listen about my favourite comic that s all,1 Depression has officially fully hit me https://twitter.com/brooklynsessler/status/989227111373127680 …,1 Had very productive mtg w/Okinawa Assoc of Amer about collaborations w/DN. Look for content on our site from OAA in the next few months! ,0 thought beautiful film favourite films chungking express holds spot one quite different anything else seen his slow but annoyingly so takes time ponders characters minimal movement frame camerawork wonderful acting great film feels like long warm comforting drink,0 feel depressed lostthere days life feel useless lately ive felt like life real know feel this ive tried cope drugs year smoking half pound weed month thought would help didnt really know type life feels meaningless attempted redflag twice now second attempt landing hospital ended mental hospital days birthdaythe odd thing actually enjoyed last day cuts wrist wear bandages weeks cuts healed throughout weeks people school would ask obviously knew never said anything started community college failing misriably old college northern california recently moved back home certain situations forcing move time im sorry rambling know write since feel depressed anxious lately hands actually shake sometimes im anxious times memory lately shit smallest things get angry idk why,1 hi i m just wondering if anyone is having the same issue and tip to cope i ve been in night club twice over the past couple of month both after i ve had a few drink with friend on both occasion i ve had to leave early because i get anxious about the number of people around resulting in a panic attack i never used to be like this before covid and i m generally ok in crowd sober anyone got any tip to cope,1 it s my first post here and i ll try to keep it short i m male live in greece had depression from age i don t have enough symptom anymore to be classified a depressed and i m starting to feel lost while the therapy and medication i have been taking for the past month have definitely helped me through tough time my biggest enemy is procrastinating especially with my university responsibility i don t love the subject i m studying chemistry but i do think it can help me find a suitable job in the future so i can provide for me and my family and have free time for hobby what i m having a really hard time with is motivation and discipline i m afraid that the lack of those thing can be the end of me i m constantly worried my gf might realise what a lazy person i really am and dump me despite her being really supportive of me the only thing i don t want is grow to be 0 0 and not be able to have a good life with my wife and kid because of my mental problem,1 man american hate early colonial british much next country zulu war super inspirational u know u watch movie zulu really really good,0 completed assignments one night get appreciation effort everyone thinks im dumb everything last minute c,0 finally defeated survival instinctsi trace depression back gradual process day day felt disconnected society people consequence feel like developed terrible permanent personality disorder age due depression ive thought redflag three years month im actually planning know time semester ends october th kicked university falling last semester literally got four subjects half semester irrationally worried others think death everyone thinks im fine every decision ive made past three years heavily influenced depression never used think like this never used selfdestructive thoughts make decisions know going terrible consequences future september work shitty part time job pushing trolleys kicked university literally friends push every one away sit home laptop watch soccermoviestv shows staying university library made realise normal atleast years behind peers in everything personality flaws never going go away last straw mathematically knowing kicked university realising matter even gotten high distinctions year psychological problems going prevent living normal happy life even though never sought professional help believe amount therapy prescribed pills going make feel better lost much time talking friend facebook today felt guilty knowing im planning absolutely idea guilt going stop me ive torturing past two years trying live normal life mental illness believe whats best people edit note literally getting subjects first semester dream course requires insanity ama guess,1 my doctor who poster arrived in the mail today http://tinyurl.com/ox3ro6,0 guess sex school toilets go guess,0 want goat best friends place wanting wait til go sleep leave raped march th tried therapy managed home husband since even though fault anyones fault cant seem recover enough combos meds end shit ive put everyone through regret sooner wouldnt affecting anyone,1 behind on my class for work,0 dont pass gcses im going kill myself years old fact im suicidal young goes show absolute joke lf country live in fail maths mock tomorrow thats me fuck uk government fuck everything honest know whole life ahead me whole life underpaid hell job thats life want live incompetence government fact think months learning time made less fuck life quit bullshit blame tory education sector,1 woke dream girl long story short dated girl years ago cant move dated people time tried heal never worked even try forget example forgot months brain randomly dream her every time would lovely make happy wake realize horrible is dont know do tried everything move never found someone perfect supposed do,0 actually wanna die lot friends one exact lot family say oh thats true talk soandso school blah blah blah do people talk to yeah talk school whatnot actually wanna hang me one person actually wanna friend matches amount energy put friends either weve friends years others side long im actually dramatic saying moving hurts fucking much person actually wants hang me wants friends me weve made many plans future seem like dust now hate dramatic this love her much know thats g oh well ones always gotta catch feelings amirite holy shit im actually broken light made smile couldnt fucking me leaving know feel just im actually broken,0 cats pretty young usually live years got years old definitely ending life started thinking methods brainstorming go it actively planning would land hospital technically still passive thoughts far away alive cats pass,1 advice someone sub sub please stop dumbass advice posts come original content instead copying everyone else upvtes nice day,0 director brian yuzna uneven career horror genre creating masterpieces return living dead bride reanimator time done awful movies faust love damned mediocre progeny obviously better seat producer work producing stuart gordons films superbbr br the dentist one lesser works director low profile benefits film lack pretensions makes enjoyable experience tells story dr alan feinstone played superbly corbin bernsen successful dentist one day discovers perfect life really perfect thought discovers beautiful wife linda hoffmanhas affair pool boy event disturbs mind puts killing spree takes revenge world filthybr br the premise well handled yuzna takes us ride following feinstones day revenge makes movie different slashers victims perspective follow feinstone main character witness goes respected professional psycho murder day yuzna manages give movie exact amount suspense adds good dose dark humor really helps moviebr br most success premise bernsens performance feinstone make feel sympathy hate towards time subtle humor character another aspect aids film rest cast good think sub par acting hurts film should notable exception ken foree detective trying catch feinstone part quite small makes great job itbr br with dentist killer gory scenes expected brian yuzna delivers great sfx correct amount good see go overthetop usually do dare say highlight film exact amount gore expected nothing less nothing more yuzna restrained common excesses result greatbr br while among yuznas wellknown films would say one best sure classic material masterpieces movie entertains never gets tiresome boring lowbudget simple film is think rocked ,0 why can t i sleep like her http twitpic com y ty,0 blood thinners booze razora culmination teen angst melodrama depression lead bed crying first time years listening brand new gosh im deep different run mill i got broken im sad post called buddy today tell still love long past ex theyve still fucking around used lied hurts specifically cheating hurts fifth th relationship ive cheated in first one stung first person ever with one pushed dope road ive since gotten unfortunately second one hurt much third one started get comical raising questions haha fuck whats wrong me fourth happened entirely numb fifth really instilled new sense absolute hopelessness course thats issue childhood filled mental abuse crippling mental illness obviously made contributions wanting commit redflag since twelve three failed attempts that complete lack close friends could speak problems would help id never able vocalize them find right words explain going head motivation seek professional either way im spill whole life story i like most wanted soapbox stand on groan vain last words leave mark small may be regrets left large enough mark nothing value created book written painting finished drawings built things ive wanted life theres nothing show them but accomplishments exactly mean much dead,1 im yellinq at ma mummyy lol she is angry at mee,0 what point point anymore longer continue fight try find reasons keep living reasons find waste time days wander around feeling invisible like im speck dust floating air forgottenthe end,1 temperate blocked nose cant medicine cos makes vomit epic,0 wondering theres games like number game buddy playing got kinda bored like spicy questions weve tried d,0 so i just completed my rd admission a a inpatient and a big worry ha been my eye becoming damaged anyway on my way home today around pm to 0 when the sun is low and glare is heap the sun wa in my eye the whole way home i wa coming in from a angle you just couldn t block out i didn t have sunnys now i am paronoid i have sunburnt my eye or given them flash burn or whatever it is called i am already spiralling downward and can t even enjoy being my family again after being away for so long,1 "@ComedyBint I could have done the same, for a bag chips, with a hammer ",0 think im gonna kill weekmy family doesnt deserve burden like me theyd better without me need stop hurting messing again deserve pain feel wish better daughter me im screw hurt again mom deserves better me deserves whole world give birth fucking idiot like me,1 f know long going reminder getting hard things againmy parents left house three weeks took care house really long time getting picked nasty moldy bugs anything cleaner this mainly dishes put dishwasher laundry done beds made up etci used taking showers every day right almost every day days boyfriend hang comes here ran full tub water bath almost got last minute decided put clothes back go bed drain tub huge tub master bedroom waste water makes feel badi really gone done anything recently went shopping ago boyfriend within past days went gym one time walked treadmill less mile weights lot less used do later night picked got gas town even get get dressed left ones shirt nike shorts slip shoes even bra even though always put oni really eating normally would eat long time woke around midnight sleeping lot mostly accident point boyfriend saying sure narcolepsy know tirednessmy boyfriend plans go next friday hard time getting motivated even though seem like fun time also move together day time planning stay night burn around city two days get used hard time getting motivated even though sounds like fun himi going college less month already made post feel like fit comments really kind considerate really make feel different besides tad bit glad people feel somewhat cannot even explain fit in beginning hard find motivation,1 right wll. i'm bored so i'm going to busy myself with mindless crap. back inabit. ,0 starting seem redflag rational solution problemsim scared going hell viritually every major religion save hinduism buddhism believes nonbelievers spend eternity hell since theyre mutually exclusive guess everyone equal chance frying end time die mental health issues school trouble financial problems exist anymore dead men feel attend class bills pay whatever comes death different life better worse different risk im willing take now miss shots take everyone says life taking risks ive depressed suicidal since fucking years old elementary middle high school adhd aspergers too so aside unable focus anything im socially awkward used known good weird kid funny nice could never convince step family loved them show affection way society understands always kept myself manage succeed survive school somehow ill debt rest entire life anyway survive school ill living paycheck paycheck get shoved nursing home probably live long anyway familys genes include cancer diabetes deadly addiction lovely stuff oldest grandparent died like meanwhile tons innocent babies stillborn brave firemen get crushed s soldiers get blown shreds oil wars surgeons engineers get cancer nothing happens overweight neckbearded aspie life direction purpose reddit understand man,1 Just one puff of cannabis found to reduce depression Read More: http://bit.ly/2KdkTUA  pic.twitter.com/ufvAE5zyvO,1 lgbt seemingly much creative artistic hate intended lgbt people seem creative straight people,0 go user green dot next avatar tf,0 anyone advice anyone know get girl like me basically girls like,0 why luke worral doesnt have twitter,0 Woahhh I lost 8 pounds in one week; I was just trying to be healthier but hey I'll take it! ,0 nobody cares me everyone treats like nuicense want live world terrible things sure afterlife would rather jsut end see treated like shit idk put world full terrible things ruin it think gone would better everyone world good idk deserve it know post super edgy whatever really feel reality nothing live for want live life since nothing mine want live itthanks reading goodbye want live terribly cruel world,1 hey gamers anyone wanna talk real desperate need friends atm,0 appropriate diameter material ropein regards short drop hanging method thick rope be im assuming thick enough break sill thin enough pressure reasons one thats single centimeter diameter ive tested yesterday feel like could break easily material anything amazing either meters costed seriously taking chances,1 dont want one kill myselfi dont want one kill thinking hiring hitman kill me weird know think work,1 fa see reason livefa try keep short main problem small penis inches really embarrassing subject me previous partners left fact makes feel less man noone ever able love fact end rope im tempted kill myself please help ,1 sitting here wondering why quot ed quot still ha such a strong hold on me,0 im much pain im exhausted im ready go nowmy name reuben bell im years old less hour ago pointed air rifle head pulled trigger gun jammed tried times useless thing didnt work wound punching stupid thing fell apart went fighting least piece lead leg funny fires try destroy needed didnt work all dont know im writing this dont know anything anymore life series sleepless agony followed short hours sleep cycle continues dont even know describe feel daily basis im constantly hurting im also exhausted struggle feel anything all doesnt make sense painfully real me many regrets im haunted friendships lost didnt pick phone send one message time thought could normal might actually happy lost entirely actions again again im here hate every part me im bisexual disgusts me dont even know why problem gay people bi people whatever feels wrong dad says unnatural constantly hear people say sexuality real cant exist people believe this fuck you bottom heart hope suffer much have truly deserve it despite failing today know one day take life wont long now pence name days ill evicted rent doesnt come through tried make effort look jobs applied hundreds received rejection letters silence all cant hope anymore dont want to would lead short relief followed even pain im sympathy help ive made decision want need always hear things like think family youre alone know family is family memory abusive mother still lives mind matter far away move woman leveraged first redflag attempt death father try bring back control family father spent life another country girlfriend trying keep brother away first monster married right abandoned her leaving take emotions brought yes take life think family alone ive giving thought want coming days go id like good nights sleep id like hot meal duvet isnt tatters id also love go walk rain one time anything really wish could get hug still air pistol know enough shots head chest kill me didnt see option would hurt much id black quit shooting self leg today ive realised take pain ill load painkillers drink good scotch lock door throw key window turn rain sounds tv get with might suck little wont feel ever worth it know im words page guys want something help actually help people life right going early stages went through still helped help them comments reddit wont save life someone could maybe use friendly chat right might lockdown even important please please help someone needs it someone still helped ive accepted ill die alone really dont want others following me thank reading,1 uh oh go sort new usually sub almost every post words mods pedo opinion situation getting big people,0 @Trialsinner pinky swear ,0 miss him right now i need a hug,0 everyone around horriblefirst manipulative stepmom second nassisist father third creepy stepmom forth mom denied everything next grandma agreed mom sixth best friend took advantage intoxicated seventh person text back left needed most im tired im scared everyone know do going home mom claimed ive lying friends stepdad sexually abusing also blames getting assaulted ive staying dads draining ive guess im less scared school start cant it motivation ive betrayed everyone around me ever wanna make happy feel sick nothing what im gonna die eventually anyway give now mentally fucked ive weird dreams nightmares assault im nervous everything literally imagine blowing brains everyday,1 short story lousy lifei know writings gonna look bit unrefined goddamnit almost car crash last night excuse writings bit edgy moment begin saying around troubles started really want reveal much days suffice say average pokemonplaying doormat went different schools throughout high school recall correctly cant say remember much details tell remember namecalling shoves gropes spitting sheer worthlessness experienced since then got point practically ditch schools age eventually get ged soon brief stint jesuschristridesaraptortype homeschooling program ged however diminish desire go find school records perform jayandsilentbob road trip fuckers fact remains despite much may want perform said trip time resources it wished over id finally able catch fucking break no life kept doling punishment take current job instance right im stuck giving night school classes types motherfuckers made life living hell course people might ask me wouldnt make contemptuous judgemental were maybe hard worry im even able carry conversation lack communication skills unfortunately idiosyncrasy makes life difficult take one instance remember vast amounts data handful names also process data hours end cant stop thinking try sleep get twitches tics tremors feel numb every time see sort gathering top off brain cease remind nearly every gaffe altercation mistake ive experienced last decades biggest source regret though comes inclination following instructions errands wanted do went college told go go parties get action spent time room studied consecutive years like good little boy im supposedly free cant even choose something simple juice flavor again like theres many choices town people talk here places go theres couple bars downtown district life support shopping center walmart crap aggravated fact cant even move money so ive gone thru usual recommendations hear around reddit too go psychiatrist ive gone thru couple psychologists take antidepressants even know taking makes difference also tried going gym six months even became tedious routine try complain though time people would point pettyness problems times happen get useless everything alright bullshit did however manage get something ordeals know life is essence pain know whether want stick around much longer,1 wheres post harry potter quotes replaced wands peniss ive looked everywhere cant find remember saving checked saved save one teens could send link awesome,0 feel death appropriate option melongtime lurker never reason post long worth time truly needed speak existence way examine objectively wanted express someone think feel state state different others before see maybe anyone relate year old male recovering meth heroin addict and consumer dozens drugs whatever available weak pathetic spiritlife forcesoul even given advantages privileges afforded birth middle class west good health stable family could manage world truly honestly hate myself intensity fervor ever felt another person institution hate myself know deep too even though socially obligated love tell deserve hated like this deserve suffer know do considered social context only universe entirely indifferent course outcome life often comfort me know little significance feel like child essentially am pathetic weakwilled addled psychological malfunctions different types make stupid fucking motor tics expressed often face eyebrows jaw muscles god fucking hate myself express signs symptoms someone not well psychiatric vernacular habits hygiene take back seat microdistractions little bits media like reddit continue try forget really exist first place barely eat even though blessed ability leisure struggling hold good part could something life slipping fast literally feel mind shifting changing preparing death statistical balance debits credits nature things keeps account existence lifeform inhabit shifted favor early death staggering measure paperto doctor scientistnot good education sciences specifically chemistry form function mind brain nervous system imbue mind knows well enough reason out hardly form coherent fucking argument here know sense deep inside essence deeper humanhuman emotional state emotional self body need eliminated toxic emotionally unsafe person involved with weak spiritsoulessence poison others nothing wrong deserve except become emotionally involved me feel duty way leave world honour selfrespect fundamental imperative basic command software personality parses issues terminate myself means parts experience casemaker death emotional self emotional self positive inverse former memories point feel like awakened accepted death accident universe although less benign going pathetic existence less innocuous conscious beings around me still really worth conserving menace certainly asset disappointment mild embarrassment parents something cover rest family accident accident accident accident im sorry everyone may hurt parents resources expended trying save life deserve die deserve die fuck im sorry goodbye hope find love peace everything good beautiful,1 sorry sf rescheduling my sf trip for this coming weekend to mid may bad circumstance,0 think jump one story roof break ankle dont ask important question actually,0 think redflag time want cant put family iti young brother love much unfortunately im done life ive enough want end soon im self harming occasionally frustration myself im cunt,1 nearly always case britain comes entertaining andor successful sitcom quiz show yanks come along poach format produce own grossly inferior version man house is course exception rule yanks version threes company unwatchable braindead pap seem run forever prime example quantity nonexistent quality original hand fondlyremembered gem savvy like fawlty towers pull plug precisely right time unlike episodes hilarity threes company came jo cute brilliant chemistry ropers richard osullivan made look easy scripts whilst exactly oscar wildestandard consistently funny chrissy dropdead gorgeous woman walked face planet since dead sea merely feeling unwell nuff said,0 humble familyi want kill myself hard admit dont really reason christian parents well off im smart grades slipping lately motivation tanked get good college dont motivation parents hate pamper love older brother people say youngest pampered thats absolute bullshit always compare horrible people talk dont want brother become like me even though hes older gets away everything give everything brother works starbucks makes money expenses hes paying food sometimes buying stuff dad keep mind im even old enough work since im dad says see hes buying stuff youre selfish like dont even make money whole life parents loving brother hating me hate it im done would parents,1 experiences youngest hear many people say being youngest best theyre always treated like god though agree true families exact opposite me house im always every little thing around house nearly every chore annoying stuff parents brother considered adult recently turned hes treated like hes best hes learning decimals community college experience youngest best,0 tell something youre cute ,0 first generation parents stayed together religious reasons lot emotional physical abuse typical think lot first gen suffer like this adult trouble emotionally stable feel helpless feelings depression takes over know cannot change past difficulties making adult friends limited allowed friends over parents fought family even family connection limited dad always angry came room yelling useless was realize idk people people think weird tiered hard time human crave emotional connection it used think everything religiously embedded me always doubting god exist life pointless hard stay positive idk life anything doctorly failure parents foreign parents wanting kids doctors started therapy sessions right away wanted put antidepressants tried it worst idk call it started taking anti depressants like life die sleepy time stopped want anti depressants need something idk what desperate late night vent thanks reading needed venting source,1 tired continue pointeverything pulling down im fifteen go school twice week that mute transgender taking meds anymore none helped all community service next week becoming addict cant deal stress anymore spent today writing notes people care me know everyones going hurt im already hurting making stand watch life falls apart think less painful forcing see that want hope theres something peaceful death probably not butwho knows know im going yet im thinking overdosing imagine least agonizing im sure im typing really suppose one last days record degree comforting hope everyone finds peace point life thing time around xoe out,1 expecting powerful filmmaking experience girlfight indie lowbudget bigname actors freshman director heard good goodbr br placed contemporary ethnic workingclass brooklyn karyn kusama done extraordinary job capturing daydoday struggles urban latinos diana protagonist seething anger lashes high school peers getting trouble school friends raised single father appears love brother applies strict sexbased double standard children fathers double standard illustrated fact tiny brother taking boxing lessons local gym diana denied similar pursuits errand gym meet tiny diana captivated boxing tiny like boxing diana trade places gets money dad gives diana take lessons placebr br this actually feelgood movie diana grows learns boxing meets guy addresses serious issues headon theres giggly everything go right go right resolution la bend like beckham reality attendant personal issues big pat resolutions opinion girlfight better satisfying film it,0 right thing isnt always right thing simple lt,0 there s more security here than at sydney airport and no spirit at the bar startrek,0 blipif im gone today one person would even notice,1 u get good somethinglegit ive taken art classes years random girl class last year school visual arts stuff draws x better ever could like god damn everything im bad literally cant good anything,1 in my bed trying helplessly to breathe out of my nose without coming across the itchy need to sneeze allergy suck many thing,0 "@EmilyLatka Well if that's the case, then we're both losers!!! ENJOY! http://bit.ly/15AsPx",0 want done everything everyone constantly yelling blaming everything me really want walk front traintoday went doctor boyfriend started screaming blaming everything me trying make feel like awful person everyone constantly yelling always always always blaming everything me god want die already feel alone,1 took acetaminophen pills dietwo days ago took pills otc extra strength pain relievers acetaminophen it walgreens brand tylenol yesterday took another thing im fine better fine last time tried brand tylenol feel nauseousnot great ended going hospital early enough everything fine time feel nothing puke times theres way came out right mean took pills let know expect things get worse get sweet eternal rest im looking for,1 first sidestory universal century gundam universe presents refreshing new look war earth space colonies focus longer small group individuals would go play pivotal roles conflict everyday civilian population war seen eyesbr br the story contain gundam staples premise attempts zeon squad capture experimental gundam execution plot made show interesting watch series focuses experiences young boy named alfred relationship neighbor christina mckenzie secretly federation pilot newbie zeon pilot named bernie wiseman alfred develops sort brotherly love bernie young zeon pilot also falls christinabr br war pocket proves need sweeping epic tale special individuals make good war story uber ace pilots large scale fleet battles seen here short episode ova focuses lot character emotional drama themes like politics philosophy love realistically portrayed characters are alfred typical everyday kid plays violent computer games thinks armed forces cool given crash course horrible realities war unlikely friendship bonding bernie christina knowing fact soldiers different sides war played real without going overboard romance drama stuff goes endearing relationship alfred bernie said would want spoil much story here makes whole lot heart wrenching watch tragedies unfold show moves along way emotionally devastating twist ending br br despite lack action show never falls category boring characters engaging enough carry whole show worry number mobile suit action scenes scattered there beautifully animated level surpasses ova sure satisfy craving mandatory mobile suit battles gundam seriesbr br normally watching anime japanese english would leave personal preference case strongly recommend english voice track japanese one characters except alfred caucasian sound believable english performances english voice cast par even surpass japanese one instilling character realistic emotions intonations sound acting live action tv dramasbr br in short show try impress audience conveys numerous heartwarming themes hit closest home especially death innocence battlefield horrors war eyes child truly moving little story deserves credit given,0 guys ever bust nut ur head rank felt like ur history absolute best orgasm first ever time think saw god also yw gross post ,0 @blobyblo wear a sandwich board that says "FOLLOW ME ON TWITTER" and walk around seoul ,0 shattered thread hang to name james httpiimgurcommllpng took picture see human behind post today calm voice agonizing night never ending memories asked speak ex years face face many months remaining feelings me shred hope tried hard guy met better that move forward could happy changing challenging every end finally felt like could cover promises much more good enough anymore ive depression sw another username guys really kept bay past couple months via skype sms pm im grateful lot you saw lot people also suffer really changes perspective exhausted bay abiding time loud enough siren call lead me saw light go completely words today know anymore im sitting front computer looking body tremble,1 Getting sick of pathetic lies. Off now to do some more designs funfunfun.,0 best pizza toppings like mine sausage green pepper favorite toppings,0 college struggles rock bottomi started first course stem major weeks ago going well all enjoy it causing immense stress leaving derail entire life plan know do change major something interests me would something useless complete rock bottom life massive upturn great gf good health etc shattered now,1 witchery decent little eurotrash horror yarn david hasselhoff pretty damn funny one sadly hes one better actors linda blair downright terrible lady plays hoffs wifeshe hilariously bad plot film ridiculous too got holes cant help notice remains entertaining throughoutbr br the gore witchery freaking outstanding loved part old bag gets sucked trash chute ends chimney roast part lady gets taken advantage of devil pretty damned disturbing id say one must gorehoundsbr br if looking overproduced wellacted flick look elsewhere like oldschool style italian sleaze top gore witchery belongs shelfbr br im surprised low rating here people expecting the exorcist kids,0 want get short hair convince want people make assumptions convenience,0 it wa just who i am a reason behind the way my mind worked it doesn t make the depression sting any le but it make it bearable to know that this is just a way of life one i don t have to spend every second trying to push away but to learn to move together,1 helpcan anyone help here,1 @JIDF either im not on the right site or that person is loco ,0 @gdgreely lol which one papi http://myloc.me/20PG,0 remember dreams and nightmares fear,0 won t be tweeting much tonight maybe all tweet will come out in form of tweet vomit later at about in the morning,0 Whoop I picked the winner ,0 everyone totally see movie freaking scary resort lame jumpoutatyoujusttosurpriseyouandpassitoffasscary things really great see freaking awesome movie director stanley kubrick easily greatest director ever lived every single one movies masterpieces including one shining family goes hotel colorado rockies caretakers winters get snowed in well house haunted kid psychic husband easily impacted evil haunted hotels andwellhilarity ensues really becomes gripping thriller stuff gets thrown viewer different directions gets scary classic heres johnny scene memorable cant speak whole movies one things words explain adequately gotta see it go netflix get it geeeeeetttttttt itttttttt,0 i m terrible at articulating my thought so apology in advance let me just say up front that no plan ha been made and despite thinking about it so much i don t think i could go through with it this is just a vent piece i guess i feel like such a burden all the time i genuinely only have one real friend left and feel like my roommate co worker hate me i m anti social and awkward i don t make eye contact and i don t talk at all ever i take way too long to text back if i did km i honestly don t think anyone would know until a body wa found or over a month had passed i m just so sick of feeling like an obstacle all the time like i m always in the way or always wrong to think feel a certain way but all of this seems pretty normal i realise it s not a healthy mindset but literally everyone on earth ha trauma everyone ha their own shit they re going through and not only doe it seem like they re handling it a lot better than me but they have real problem i have friend who lost their job over the pandemic i have friend going through break ups grief or whatever and they still manage to practice their hobby and interact with their fellow man but then there s me doing literally fucking nothing all day every day after work and having the ball to feel like shit over it a if it s out of my control i feel weak willed lazy and most of all i feel like the world s biggist egomaniac for writing so much about myself a if it needed to be said thank you for reading my aimless rambling the thought were very intrusive tonight so i just needed to self depricate i guess good night everyone,1 i didn t have enough sleep,0 savedi full rage suicidal new eminem album given new courage enthusiasm fuck everyone else im goat,1 would like surprise friend kindness strangers crowd funding vet bill please take look gofundme url set up donations greatly appreciated even unable donate shares facebook twitter helpful thank taking time read request,1 Twitter no Adium http://beta.adium.im/,0 saw film last night precode film festival tell gary cooper turned head introductory closeup entire audience gasped beautifulbr br coopers looks aside film displays rouben mamoulians directorial artistry perfection wonderful scenefades creative camera angles symbolic allusionsmamoulian keeps exploring directorial medium coming innovationbr br this sylvia sidneys first role hollywood success new york stage lovely gary cooper leading lady ought be nice see role harder edge many givenso often looks like afraid hit someonebr br there lots familiar faces film including wonderful wynne gibson striking guy kibbee best known playing fatuous rich men grinning mendacious hitmanbr br there nearly enough precode films available vhs dvd cant find precode festival near you try campaigning turner classic movies broadcast reviewer believes gary cooper stupid dialogue complex yep nope perhaps consider coops performance films mr deeds goes town meet john doe although heaven knows anyone looked good smart well,0 hate much tw hate everything me hate way look hate way speak hate way act hate me want die want end noone loves me noone cares me noone gives f im alive not every time look mirror cant help cry tried end multiple times chicken every single time know anymore cant live like anymore,0 Where are those knetz who say something about not downplaying mental health because it is a serious thing esp to celebs? BOM HAS PRESCRIPTION! SHE HAS DEPRESSION! PROTECT HER YOU FOOLS! #박봄제발내버려두세요,1 i have been suffering from an eating disorder anorexia anorexia nervosa since i wa yo i m in my early 0 now about a month ago i had an issue with my chinese takeout that heighten not only my ed but my anxiety level too i constantly fear that everything i eat will cause stomach ache or make me sick so i m cautious to eat anything anymore i have slowly been on the road to recovery with my ed so this made me take step back rather than moving forward it ha also caused me to lose sleep at night and when i do end up sleeping i wake up with awful anxiety my anxiety ha been overwhelming because a day doe not go by where i m not excessively panicking i can t even go out of my house without breaking down it is so bad that i only ever feel safe in my own room i feel like i m trapped in this on going cycle with no kind of exit i am desperate to find a solution to my problem but therapy ha not worked for me nor medication i have no idea what i need to do to better my food anxiety and general anxiety i do my absolute best to not think about it all of my issue but it s so damn hard when my body say otherwise ha anyone suffered from this did you find anything that helped alleviate your anxiety or ed any helpful advice is welcome,1 my plan wa to be dead by the end of march i couldn t muster the courage to put the bag over my head and turn the valve so i m just stuck here now left sitting here by myself with all my friend cutoff no car no job no hope not gon na be able to cover my bill this month i m a fucking waste please someone come over here and blow my brain out,1 im probably going kill myself months ago fiance years overjoyed find pregnant told everyone right away weeks later got argument wedding plans threatened get abortion begged to week went snow trip work friends came back told wanted get abortion told got abortion calling wedding would never see again got pregnant intentionally hormones going crazy felt jerked around left night come back week went crazy got hit hard hormones got upset one night punched face hard could several times hungry would reduce tears one thing place sent rage even told one woman pulled close car would rip limb limb violent person im even mean person ive worked customer service entire adult life people would general call really friendly warm person knew pregnancy hormones help it boobs hurting gained lbs crying time fiance asshole meanwhile gotten horrible job hated commuting hours get to get healthcare another months applied dshs denied poverty line found pregnant shitty fiance shitty job healthcare then seemed like stroke luck time got fired practically danced door knowing qualified prenatal care thought apparently working long enough get unemployment prenatal care job fiance healthcare own finally decided pony money ultrasound determined baby fine shockingly calm voice said wed like talk termination shocked thought sure saw baby would change mind said that sort choked know do felt cornered hopeless even job healthcare would own took pills loneliest feeling world told hed stay go work left me bad reaction pills nearly died alone shower ill never forget cold felt awful giant clots blood matter falling me hot water hitting would turn cold got drain body temperature low walk able alert neighbor using nearby broom bang ceiling drove er spent days hospital going home sans baby sans boyfriend sans job sans dignity supposed tell everyone o nevermind know whole were getting married baby well no were not bring it lied told everyone miscarriage still together decided table getting married but explain weve broken up would people break miscarriage meanwhile income help hormones flux think spent first week drunk bed literally leave bed days time even moved liqour bedroom go kitchen finally one night felt good enough go went local bar friend everyone shocked see drinking tell everyone lost it got drunk night went home drank whole bottle wine bottle vicodin bottle benedryl bottle nyquil sometime next night realized back hospital neighbor drove er cd gotten stuck playing came check me got home saw apartment covered vomit blood nyquil literally smeared walls weak clean spent another two weeks bed mother got ticket visit san francisco pretty okay time there really made point trying make nice me mother done pretty shitty things past really saint ways spared expense got massages went pony rides even signed musical therapy class there went bars restaurants parties drank smoked pot went dancing felt lot better got home took week got home little things like cleaning apartment trying make little attempts getting life back tried go dshs get assistance told qualify counseling wanted tell want die think redflag time really going it want take ride ambulance agreed went home got home sat stared matting razors hour pounding beer beer crying miss baby wanted want killed hands feel like monster hate want die want die no really want die seriously cant stand living knowing happened want kill myself mother says severe post partum depression im sure right hormones hit hard but think ive always way never good enough excuse really til now teenager used cut long used self mutilate ways think deep always hated life always hated myself hated child sense helplessness ignorance shame came it hated teenager like child aware shitty everything theres still nothing it ive liked adult part least since but im turning year lost fiance since baby job ambition hope dreams life is over mean say life known it life ive ever wanted gone forever theres getting back always shrouded decaying memory this believe afterlife im going get see baby again believe im going go other side want go dirt never come back hate breathing hate eating hate wiping ass hate knowing me cant bring even look work even want job want die think time dominates everything do already tried oding work im afraid cutting wrists messy im afraid wont work whoever finds find huge gruesome pool blood think im going drive ocean jump cliffs want make sure theres remains time end coming back another apartment full blood vomit nyquil theres nothing left here theres reason pretending like everything going okay turn around tomorrow im going find good job one everyone keeps telling ill pregnant time know know were broken up disaster im disaster failed first attempt havent tried yet days think wont mean think lot think id actually every get screw loose think may it may depends much drink may drink enough ill get courage done ,1 Making ice cream in dro's! ,0 Maybe if I stand outside in the sun for 24 hours I'll soak up enough sun to cure my depression for a week,1 want thank wonderful years wanted thank memes funny rants found sub want remember love ur fan,0 is still sick hate this,0 the article is saying that the chemical imbalance is just a hypothesis and the real cause of depression is unknown antidepressant are perceived a effective on managing depression but once you take them you won t be able to function without them,1 "home alone, shaweeeeeeeet ",0 sedated started laughing today went gastroscopy sedated immediately waking started laughing unconsciously however fact remember laughing reason nurses wondering laughing fact know thats pretty weird,0 and i didnt end up seeing it bumma some ppl are being a pain,0 jump infront train tomorrowive got redflag notes written updated im sick tired bullshit overdose attempts got train schedule tomorrow im jumping front train quickeasy effective im disgusting human beeing raised two alcoholic abusive parents raped child bullied way throughbschool im also non actingnever have never will peadophile eyes dont deserve live tomorrow get end misery god bye everybody,1 thogden ever heard of a club known a notts county depression seems to never end,1 i just set up a twitter profile for one of my colleague and noticed he s got a much more swish sidebar how do i get that,0 feel like ending todayi feel lonely absolutely nothing gone right life years distanced abusive family certain times choice around them watching acting happy normal regard pain remorse theyve treated breaking me like never value them years time love put init matter care emotional state care alone am actually laugh ignore presence like even exist like added nothing lives nothing go right people supposed love dont for years trying whats right life avail one wants me one love im even sure love myself im weird stupid insecure lonely misfit deserve die prolong it got pills could today theres nothing left wait for edit update many compassionate people took one pill far twice dose im eyeing others get drowsy enough witnessed sister berate sick father said noticed scratches car since used it hit multiple times tried hide it really bad scratches evident cried screamed told would die leave old iron there nmom trip fast enough comfort her saying dad devil uncaring hes not trying stand soft spoken manner stop recklessly driving vehicle went make sure alright shaking bad kept worrying another stroke talked softly things stopped crying able eeat lunch worry much seem care health care wellbeing selfishness would kill himwho would take care him yet want die bad today want take pills go sleep go away maybe would join soon idk want take care him one takes care im dying im dying want let go know do,1 im bored please dm jokes,0 like nothing nothing wish great day,0 Home...exhausted....riding bus tomorrow...so i better go read my Bible and go to bed ,0 legal highs citalopramhey guys rough year hopefully things looking up started citalopram weeks ago made feel like could achieve anything plus calmed stammer quite lot last week got face punched gang lads ended like httpiimgurcomdkozhcjpg ended fractured eye socket cheek bone bleed behind eye lay bed week really nothing getting bed feel like nothings going entertain something going waste time even though im lay nothing plus everything costs money id rather something make money really want purpose meaning life like career engulf life theres literally always something think head moment seems hardworking honest polite people end worse life know reddit feeling pretty shitty,1 m im feeling sad lonely hey ive feeling pretty lonely feeling kinda lately would love friends talk toplay games with games mainly play valorant among us minecraft interested pls private message me oh also pst est time zones only im feeling incredibly sad atm thanks ,0 @JamekaShamae Wonderful feature. 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Congrats ,0 turning on the aircondition....blizzard mode time! ,0 efforts new group young talent bolstered alan rickman emma thompson extremely gifted actors makes thrilling engrossing evening entertainment might add hal holbrook shines senator movie deserves five stars give ten scale ending perfect constantly amazed ability british actors master american accents convinced actors born louisiana finer locale mystery new orleans big easy also known crescent city permeates every scene writer director sebastian gutierrez deserves high praise,0 report accounts title says seen pics ad bottom type stream recording service accounts posted type pics bots see name way report profile bot agaist rules ad marked ads subliminal advertising say ad wrong well wrong know,0 pakeezah interesting history which well documented trivia section came be seems destiny conspired test kamal amrohi the director time secretly desiring see complete masterpiecebr br pakeezah rides metaphors poetry visual elocution result intensity emotions come achieve dimension may real effective leave impact viewerbr br meena kumari lives tragedy nargis sahib jaan like own stars film besides her ghulam mohammed the music director lata mangeshkar naushad background score joseph wirsching the dop music cinematography leaves spell boundbr br pakeezah classic world cinema reveals new layers every time watch again kamal amrohi one rare poets cinema left us gift,0 really able get emotion out smashing cups stuff punching face inflicting pain trauma choking denial punch face,1 just recently moved into a small condo to be someone s caregiver and i have my own space but i am constantly worried about my neighbor especially the one bellow and above me i worry about every single conversation being overheard and listened to i worry that a a bigger guy i sound like an elephant walking to those bellow i worry that the fancy sound bar and subwoofer i bought before moving wa even an idea is too loud even at quiet level i hate this i feel like i am worried about every single nosie i make i am so used to living in a house with space between each one back when i could blast my music or watch movie with the bass turned up now i am paranoid of watching horror movie because i am afraid that one of my neighbor is going to hear scream and think something weird is going on or hell watching pretty much anything else because i don t want to be annoying i know this is all irrational i know the floor and wall are probably thicker then i think but anxiety won t let me relax i am just paranoid about every sound i make here,1 "@Chrissyisms Thank you, have fun wherever you go ",0 friendly reminder dont date twelve year olds bad idea would recommend,0 monke gaming operation effort go,0 whyi fucked up tried kill im sick stomach cant eat ive lost friends making wish didnt survive person still best friend weird bc like likes doesnt wanna date till high school either way im glad shes bc know cant lose her person stick,1 msdivineknight see thats why i never go to bed early cause if u sleep u miss thing i slept i missed joe unhappy and,0 honestly worst feeling world one person care love tell hate you yeah know fucked everything change her night told got bed went backyard found good strong long rope set darkness preparing departure comes finds me taking escape her goes back inside went look another escape route ended finding old ratchet straps set again time horse trailer tied half assed noose pit around neck sat downas feel drifting darkness hear call worried tone thought myself maybe still care me maybe keep living almost final goodbye times wish was no instead stood removed strap around neck sat crying myself ended finding saying could come back inside nights ago still sleep bed me say i love you call babe hug me kiss me nothing feel like stranger home know keep going like this promised one thing happens me hate say serious want life it wish could know late wife even want anymore,1 khave headache drink water yes,0 content warning od throwing up hi this is just a vent ig but like last night i really felt like taking an overdose but i decided not to so that i didn t have to throw up cause that happened and i hate it and i don t want to throw up and then die like that would be awful but today i woke up at like three or four am and puked all over the floor and now i m just thinking that me avoiding taking those pill didn t work out like hoped like i still threw up but i m not even dying,1 @joyous Ahhhh @daluckyme ....depression is a very bad silent killer,1 @tokissthecook check email. ,0 Morimoto for dinner. 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I've been waiting for this sequel to Inferno for awhile now. ,0 dying redflagive seen impact redflag friends family seems inherently selfish choosing end ones life regardless impact would care you many ways seeing intentional deaths others affected ive known cared lot followed suit said early death result tragic accident obviously preplanned decision seems somehow less traumatic would leave behind honestly say thought process lead careless decisions wreckless driving ignoring medication excessive drinking usually ending evening secretly hoping wake morning falling asleep envisioning scenario days time someone discovers corpse want subject family redflag want keep going do,1 life expectancy increased since phones invented checkmate parents,0 @JoeJonas1Fan1 lol when i buy a bottle of water now im going to think about Jonas cuz Joe was comparing paranoid to a water bottle. xD,0 deserved raped fault,0 thought betterif counts anything tried changing still think ill make though matters never much drinker anyways much celebrate plus another day loneliness,1 saw movie yesterday shocked it even shocked comments read here one person wrote ambiguous victim torture guilty nottherefore one person wrote since american citizen therefore people comment people middle east hate us want us dead therefore saying right torture someone guilty crime saying right torture someone american citizen saying right torture someone may hate us want us dead saying that written geneva convention declaration human rights constitution united states torture wrong torture less wrong others become right torture movie powerful ambiguous torture torture always wrong willing it even name justice national security freedom democracy wrong evil exactly accusing enemies and calling wrong breath favorite line film if want compromise join amnesty international right on,0 hey all! what's up? Just got up after a nap and had dinner. so how are we all doing?,0 sneaking advice lmao mom always said want go cuz im mad need space need tell first let go friends ive found walking really helped clear head stress basically everything recently ive enjoyed going long walks catch sometimes ill think night need go walk wouldnt allowed passed certain time basically long story short advice sneaking incase or someone else may need it,0 theekween depression and anxiety thelmasherbs,1 lifes probably simulation cares deathim mentally done want out everyones gonna forget existed probably watched government honestly dont care im hurting people killing myself want die suffering im gonna let anyone elses want live overpower thought im afraid kill myself want dont guts im young teenager,1 best job us year olds ive literally job interviews year rejected im im dire need job due one parents able get job anymore anyone knows look job hires years olds please let know,0 deeply convinced nothing life committing redflagabsolutely nothing every path take leads close committing redflag low iq ugly looks messed lifes ends redflag nothing change,1 clairerichard all of em,0 write notei plan possibly ending life soon but want leave something behind whoever finds me id feel bad dont again necessary lot questions im going keep short,1 Today did Power Yoga at 7am at the sky bar. Good start for a sunday ,0 should ve been asleep two hour ago,0 help choose minute presentation english dont know topic thinking cars motorcycling audio techequipment movies music think would intere listenwatch ideas also welcome,0 this person mean the world to me so this hurt more than i can ever describe from what they have told me they haven t really struggled with mental illness so how do i make them understand,1 first saw absolutely riveting documentary initial release back and really profound effect me much bugged several friends see repeat screenings bottom linenone friends walked away disappointed ever stellar film scottish conceptual artist andy goldsworthywho creates absolutely beautiful pieces art using natural materials woodwaterflowersrocksetcto create pieces eventually return natural form a statement temporary state everything get see goldsworthy create several works temporary artas well long term installations major galleries around worldas well pieces natural worldas well german film makerthomas riedelsheimer directsphotographs edits meditation creative process real treat eye ear with ambient musical scorecomposed performed fred frithwhos music generally edgy experimentalnoise textured guitaras well capable ensemble musicians although film available dvd years nowif find cinema highlighting revival fine filmby meansseek its easily film composed large screenwith proficient sound system truly experience film right way mpaa ratingbut contains nothing offend unless live birth sheep screen destined offend disturb,0 wanna know whats stupid making money family business except parents dont let spend money allow get actual job either,0 male ,0 hiiii hiii,0 smirkcolumbine fox,1 say film simply demonisation catholics misrepresentation history untrue film isbr br what film comment abuses church although could substituted powerful body ways abuse affects people families way many people choose simply allow often participate abuse without thinking themselves fact catholic church wrong simply nature true story film based upon label propaganda catholics seems miss truth catholic church done times history often great something films like highlight needs highlighted yes comment abuses committed organisations remit filmbr br it amazing film brought tears well worth watching if study past bound repeat it,0 emotional meltdown meltdown fun want knock hammer lol,0 "@zanelowe morning Zane...actually, good night ",0 rteenagers think politics see socially economically political youtubers watch whod vote why politics affect mentally please civil im interested,0 reviewing every dutch episode pat mat dutch version voices think countries first episode hats talk weirdly especially mat classic tbh good all spill water try cut egg fail miserably overall rating ,0 suicidal thoughts life assume like many people never really talked anybody it gave hints years brushed long time thought normal never actually attempted anything planned lot started making draft suicide letters promised would actually anything finished them always broke wrote never got finished happened middle school high school last term college get bachelors gotten lot better years feel slipping last year so spent last couple days disassociating bed sure everyone thinks flake guess am trying make sure slip back use be like time deal this last freaking term feel like getting closer closer edge meltdown know want die feel lost right death sounds heartbreakingly sweet relapsing,1 yall ever look someone like wonder fuck someone perfect got someone like you cuz dude wtf gf deserves wayyyyy,0 another good stooge shortchristine mcintyre lovely evil time oneshe great actressthe stooges good especially shemp larrythis good one watch around autumn time,0 @laurenlarsen I'm excited we're gonna be working together! Win-win for both of us! ,0 allergy playin up like mad today,0 join fun cuz im ranking up httpsyoutubekewjhkwlwhttpsyoutubekewjhkwlw,0 cant thisim going psychiatrist soon im going put meds cant wait till then feels much know selfish ive much empath life help everyone else myself im done,1 roses red violets blue im kinda lonely probably too,0 cant anymore guys cantim year old trans guy cant get anything help im least ive depressed since exact reason parents emotionally abusive cant leave siblings start getting abused im basically shield mean dont really want die thats way end suffering think every while couple times past couple years would holding hammer sit staring thinking would happen hit head it im also kinda scared depressed ass do like think redflag time even though dont wanna im kindof scared one day become witness body walking killing without even wanting to wanna get time dont really want to dont know anymore,1 "@RebeccaJudd bless her, alot of people think she did 4 votes. God sake shes 10!! Ehm, diverst, flawless or Aidan. hope susan dusnt win. X",0 know im good enough feel like disappoint make people upset doesnt even really feel like cares much dont think people remember unless im there would anyone notice im gone would anyone even care,0 i m tired i feel like crap and the world feel all crummy make me happy usb disco mouse,0 tips better confidence hello need advice confident less shy really sure else say,0 ampxb httpspreviewredditqubuzhqpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampseeeaafbccaafdbbcb,0 after over year of dealing with daily anxiety i feel like i need to heed my doc advice and get on medication i know a lot of people will say that it s not but i feel like a loser and a weak person for not having enough strength to overcome my anxiety alone i look in the mirror every day and hate myself for not being able to get past this for sickening year i ve been trying to deal with this on my own every night i go to sleep exhausted saying the next day will be different sometimes i have better day most day are just a grind to pull myself out of the anxiety i don t mind working hard but i spend hour upon hour obsessing about my health any little ache pain bump or bruise sends me into a panic i have heart palpitation on the regular i can t sleep at night i ve tried working out lost lb walk for hour on end listen to positive message stopped drinking and yet the anxiety won t let go of me i pray to god to help me to give me an answer on whether or not i should get on medication i think god might be telling me it s time instead of enjoying the movement with my family i m checking my pulse worrying about cancer is that palpitation a heart attack wa the doctor wrong when he said i m healthy it follows me every where it s become my closest evil little friend and yet i hate myself for not being able to kick it why am i so weak why can t i tell it to fuck off and never come back why if it s my own brain can i not control it i feel like if i just keep pushing i can defeat it without med but it s been year and i don t want another to go by living like a tortured animal just waiting for it to all end maybe i m just scared to go on med i don t know if anyone can see themselves in what i m saying can you please let me know what if any med have helped you i m not looking for medical advice but when i talk to my doc i d like to have some idea of what he might be recommending anyways long post thanks for listening,1 "@JimAlger Don't forget, parents often think of their offspring as about 12 yo ",0 kangaroogav preach brother special k single gammon roll amp water no dinner,0 From https://ift.tt/2cx0PdN  and more about More than 1 in 20 US children and teens have anxiety or depression,1 "@Hanster7705 http://twitpic.com/6bs1n - awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww, he's so cute ",0 remember seeing film mid s thought well paced well acted piece work quite often berkeley square get copy dvd remind little area changed although office newish seconds away the bank even jack barclays car dealership still selling bentleys rolls roycesbr br its look like dvd due region release soon region copy poor quality lets hope theyve cleaned upbr br only slightly dodgy escape sequence court spoils would otherwise great film guess line caper tag film goes with,0 need help cheering gi fr uhh girlf limbo friend hmm well get sorry reposting added tldr basically stalking know recent posts kind weird relationship girl like lot romantically physically talk like were dating technically were friends basically lately pretty sad anxious unknown reason says overthinking things lot overall pretty nervous plus pandemic school making worse her feeling probably kinda scared relationship me even talk online even im okay that would like anxious it could thinking may interested acts way another im sure thats correct thought thats case trying explain like much would pretty hard even slightly think wanting her thats case could guys help understand better whats happening maybe find way help her really want happy tldr gffriend sad anxious probably relationship want help her also idk thats exactly,0 dont know anymorei feel like havent able properly vent anyone goes next month would yr anniversary wife long story short fucked up something could honestly fix willing work me believes ill stay piece shit didnt cheat anything like that dont want go details doesnt want everything me even kids together makes way feel even worse love wife kids death dont want leave them every single day feels much harder last almost like whole relationship meaningless her even got together ready throw life away feel much worse now,1 just played a cash game with my friends at my house and cashed out for $1545 when there was only $2370 on the table.. profited $845 ,0 brother thinks society sucks protect weak thats let people die covid make society stronger i guess forgot mom lyme disease risk lol,0 im f super delicate annoying im barely lbs get hurt wicked easily delicate am everyone cheer team injuries angel boyfriend constantly help comfort get hurt feel bad happens much,0 i got a supporting family a girlfriend who love me more than anything else i ve got friend i ve got a job i ve got hobby i wa born wealthy and had a very good education i ve tried med for a long time psychologist and psychiatrist been to ward but im still just a sad now a i ever wa what am i meant to do what s left i still feel like shit all the time and don t have any reason to there are so many justifiable reason for people to be depressed but i have none of those instead what s even scarier is the idea that this is just innate and always what s in me people say suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem but in no way is this problem temporary and it doesn t seem fixable either,1 really looking real discussion lot issues im facingtonight necessarily major crisis limited time attention definitely direct elsewhere really want talk someone must pm though want keep issues private,1 chrissyxchi sorry that come across a if depression isn t real if it s not at that point everyone is different and depression take many form and affect u differently look after yourselves,1 bourne ultimatum jason bourne matt damon best role ever newest spy kid block brings quest identity close also seeks end cias latest program blackbriar make super assassins like himselfbr br i psyched one watched predecessors yesterday today identity brilliant recall supremacy remains weak but still enjoyable link chain weakest plot and aside car chase films chase easily tops slight lacking action suspensebr br hoo boy ultimatum suspense even know bourne escape authorities and boy films spotlight police inept still brilliant watching it mindboggling think two guys handguns mopeds create x suspense anything million giant robots transformersbr br chalk paul greengrass idiosyncratic style shooting stedicam la documentary even though hes filming characters far ordinary places like cia headquarters one within miles would allowed camcorder seemed listen various complaints supremacy action ultimatum nothing less aweinspiring various implements used weapons candlestick hardcover book ill never look way again electric fan dont ask music also helped generate much suspense hardly ever moment nailbite overbr br the acting good evolution julia stiles character nicky put situation new highly sympathetic light damon plays signature role reserve competency which sounds minor genuinely looks like matt damon could evade cia interpol something noticeable moments poignancy still struggles find humanity longing real life could get boring almost supremacy works better ultimatum better script br br i reminded scene goldeneye the good pierce brosnan bond film sean beans character asks james martinis ever silence screams men hes killed bourne regrets people killed considers or least made consider meaning action without purpose life without meaning government transformed men resources albeit resources know krav maga make weapons anythingbr br sidenote always bothered that despite superspy hunted cia interpol police nearly anywhere goes bourne never thought make even smallest attempts disguise features forge new passports sunglasses maybe br br if pulse love action movies bourne ultimatum you hell probably best action film come year course fool see without watching others first kind drags touch near end almost feel tempted overlook that first movie summer least match exceed original saying somethingbr br a,0 ask permeated kissing girl first date ive heard answer yes guys ask girls say no im honestly sure,0 time end iti want end life om years old thank good age die,1 i am layin in bed am co my tummy is beatboxn so bd so i hd wake up can t eat unburnable calorie nt gd for my quot ab quot i am hungry,0 superb prime suspect series reaches part four loss momentum all considerable achievement prime suspect iv lost child solid supporting cast take granted british dramas course beautiful helen mirren easily dominates eyes never leave onscreenbr br the search lost child title leads superintendent jane tennisons cid team prime suspect turns convicted pedophile living single mother two young daughters insight given workings mind one emotional highlights miniseries may strong many stomachsbr br the action sequences brilliantly handled handheld camera thrusting us right middle excitement theres gripping tension climactic siegebr br altogether another magnificent police procedural drama,0 who have these symptom i have it for month but im still anxious and scared,1 lostits year since mom died since then proper sleep get anxious stressed littlest things feel like waiting something bad happen break way happened already suicidal thoughtsideations never diagnosed though never courage to mother special never would deserve her one knew one confided in guess now know exactly know feel sometimes hits me fear fear feel like thing stopping thought grandmother might make finally get courage listen impulses guess fake well sometimes wish someone would notice care funny it one really cares pretend do guess im sad angry tired past days feeling time stronger,1 canada clickbait like hear many good things canada really like that somebody said canadians passive aggressive theyre liars right,0 started cryingand started bawling started puking toilet awful felt mentally feel like going school tomorrow want miss it,1 okay hear phrase probably never used sign language,0 dear lord someone help ive dug whole dont know get oh god sorry long text really do school thing called remind basically sign different teachers get automatic text messages saying stuff like dont forget project due tomorrow things like that today hanging friend got one saying teachers name birthday tomorrow animal print show love specify science teacher telling us wish social studies teacher happy birthday least wasnt teachers birthday thought like bot sending messages teachers couldnt see text back last year accidentally texted one back came automatic message saying messaging back disabled something like assumed like teachers messaged back friend stupid got text back saying okay then science teacher saw text messaged back saying dont animal print sorry realize sounds snotty didnt mean be see teacher tomorrow dont know whether kill kill self someone tell get hole ive dug,0 @babubooboo get ready to fall in love with 4 amazing kids!! ,0 @liveasyoulove Your Welcome..Dont Let Jealous People Get You Down..Their Just Big Dumb Losers! Who Wish They Were As Cool As You! ,0 anyone wanna chat dm u want gotta go class soon talk later ill chat anything,0 @ElyssaD you feel better now? ,0 hug like savage mf lmfao,0 intense physical abuse need helpi need help immediately idea go give backstory year old boy currently th grade going take sats soon grades extremely important need well sats parents indian obsessed grades aphonors classes get decent grades abs think important note indian beating children normal ok thing years parents physically beat hours end something dont like recently study less want things like slapping face hitting body kicking etc also come room block door cant escape happens every weeks usually leave crying abusing like this cool act sorry happy used cheer younger know act week two going again thing is feel like things wrong study hours per day love play video games play schoolwork done next day posting brutal incident this sat practice morning decided play video games since day tomorrow enough repeatedly yelled beating again luckily managed escape room typing there lot parents anger stems fact like play video games say cause problems didnt play would perfect student dont understand stress comes fear them sources tell call police dont want that police do take away family even though hate parents still depend pls help dont know else goi considered redflag tbh dont even know,1 @LenkaMusic won't you share a pic of your awesome hotel room view for your fans on twitter? can't wait for your concert on monday!,0 whats adults us using things generation made make lives easier guess theyre jealous one time family friend family came mentioned dnd brother loves ive played before alright id rather prefer alone time mentioned loves it offered come play them brother said yeah said could come too said id rather stay home watch dogs nobody else would home would watch them stepdad like means hed rather stay home play phone yeah sorry people person im sure youd love play game youre interested people know theyre friends mother honestly dont think stepdad likes us nothing like him,0 really appreciate jungwon done death everything want say choice love unselfish chose darim good him darim need time recover death obviously want let happen film chose giving up temporary agony darimbr br as comparison life without different behavior shows big difference eastern culture western culture cannot say better every one right choose totally you life equal everybody live once choice acceptable think fit youbr br in truth slow pace film cannot excuse rejecting movie calm down get moviebr br one best korean movies ever watched ,0 person drove far away jumped bridge without leaving note would happenmy parents dont live near me one day would try get hold able to would death ever known,1 no matter the progress i seem to make regardless of how happy i feel and the more successful my life becomes in spite of all this when i lay my head down to sleep my first thought are always taking my own life i ve lost count of the time i ve imagined shooting myself through the mouth or taking a shotgun and blowing my head off into the lake these thought are persistent and nagging and feel a though with each passing day they become closer to reality i don t believe this will happen in the immediate future but it doe seem an inevitably that will happen in 0 year time i ve started to even think of a framework of how it should go write the letter say my last word to friend and loved one make confession to a priest set a firm date and decide on the method i wonder if by writing this i bridge the gap even further,1 skhool really bad ton free lessons dont share many friends also end alone lot bekause im bad sosial,0 hey artist there drawing sexy necessarily nsfw drawings act itself iwannafuckyourpen sexy damnitlooksnice sexy,0 gorging variety seemingly immature movies purchased exrental dvds figured time right little serious drama better provide sam mendes number reasons american beauty appeal much film easily darkest thing tom hanks ever done probably one underrated films last decade simple gangster tale lifted graphic novel origins simply wonderful watch it despite usual allergy film tom hanks name still cant watch big without wanting cat kick im glad gave try one movies kick miss itbr br normally squeakyclean hanks plays michael sullivan devoted family man father two sons growing prohibition early s also professional hitman mob boss john rooney paul newman managed keep job secret sons eldest tyler hoechlin witnesses dad involved mob killing pair forced go run john seeks tidy matter up soon father son pursued chicago fellow hitman a menacing jude law waiting thembr br on face it reads like pretty standard gangster film ive said really gangsters all relationship father son thrown together tragic circumstances hanks grits teeth superb tortured man finds everything price little hoechlin also good sullivans son honesty single performance could single weaker others cast pretty much faultless cinematography costumes and often praise costumes recreates s stunning effect much effort get everything right pays spades could easily looked rubbish admit early s look difficult put deserves every bit credit chicago especially looks fantastic lined hundreds rickety cars era filled people monochrome suits hats true timetravel even little cgi neededbr br the story also winner offering human face often seen stereotypical genre movie villain law surprisingly menacing almost mechanical killer maguire proves cagney de niro brando play gangster film decidedly noirish driving rain illlit warehouses predominate least violence killing finally seen emotional psychological impact perpetrate merely witness acts whole thing evocative previous age previous movies sweeps away old refreshes modern tale redemption amid tommygun shootouts extortion rackets feel little slow places especially used masses gunplay movies like modern audiences like truly sometimes words speak louder actions mendes delivered fine followup oscarwinning debut film intelligent beautiful watch road perdition may everyones tastes one dvd shall exchanging anytime soon,0 friend several people told attempts even though theyre pressing issue now im wondering deal situationstwice within several months best friends confided attempted redflag first one called day told tell parents whom lived time stayed line heard talking mom second one tonight neither emergent need help second friend scheduled therapy sessions thanks girlfriend mom question is since licensed anything best way go things immediate issue long term one,1 "Hello my Tweetamigos, I have a new video up http://bit.ly/19D2Z0",0 "@kelly_clarkson You are amazing. I have been through so much depression parents divorce & your music has helped me through a lot. Your music is empowering. Maybe you can write one about inner struggle, not being able to dry tears & finding someone who has changed your life. I need more like that",1 nicolas cage born january th nicolas cage born january th ,0 hey everyone i am just curious if anyone ha also suffered from this type of anxiety i will get anxiety and panic about one thing and after coping and learning to overcome this anxiety my anxiety tends to hyper fixate on something else to worry about im wondering if anyone else ha dealt with this and how they stopped this cycle im currently on sertraline and buspirone and attend therapy a well for anxiety and panic disorder,1 me perseverance landing them am mars time pre nut clarity,0 i ve been off work for a week due to a neck injury i hate missing work i feel major guilt that others are working harder for my not being there i also have issue believing that coworkers bos will think that i m lying i don t know why i think this i had a doctor note for the first week off and my bos responded with i can t keep covering your shift i m having to pick up all the slack i explained it wa out of my control and i wa sorry for the extra work put on them cut to now a week later i thought i would be ok by now to go back in to work but i m still not well enough i have a physical job and neck nerve compression is making those movement difficult instead of just saying i wasn t ok to come back yet i said a small lie exaggerating why i wasn t able to work i said i had to go to emergency they checked me out and i m ok it instantly made my anxiety go from a 0 to a knowing the response back couldn t be a aggressive a the first i got from my bos i feel bad for lying i shouldn t have to lie i m actually injured but it made my anxiety much better is it ok to tell a small lie if it doesn t hurt anyone and it make you feel better,1 lately it s been so hard whenever i m by myself driving i just wish i could let go let go of everything and just die i ve cried for so many day now i m tired i m exhausted i feel miserable hopeless i know my life isn t so hard i know there are better thing to look at i try i really do try everyday my heart hurt and i don t know why i feel so much sadness but whyy i wish i knew i wish i didn t always feel this way i catch myself laying down on my bed just staring off thinking of nothing i m trying my best everyday to at least not cry i want to get better i want to feel happy i want to look forward i have a date tomorrow with my boyfriend i ll start with that i miss him so much i m always hopeful and hope i don t drag him down he s so kind to me and ha always seen the best of me word can t describe how much he mean to me i m sorry for venting but it feel strangely nice thank you,1 daily thoughts redflageveryday redflag seems like best option end pain years therapy helped understand hurt resolved pain im years old job pays well years almost one month sober suffer ptsd adhd depressive disorder behavioral addictions constantly need approval others order maintain self esteem battle internal fits rage triggered mistakes made work fabricated memories neglectful spiteful mother distant older brother meaningful friendships life ive never meaningful relationship woman almost every sexual encounter rare onestand usually paid escort habit expensive sexual outlet mainly masturbating porn and suffer erectile dysfunction physical nature assume years chronic masturbation damaged me way man age live id soon end life recently major surgery surgeon wrote prescriptions hydrocodonetylenol pain killer muscle relaxer barely used them hydrocodone tablets dozen muscle relaxants daily thoughts taking once think would let sleep wake up,1 eternal atake dropped already bruh,0 @tommcfly why don't you ask fans opinions on photos? that would be fun haha,0 Happy easter !!! Everyone ,0 suicde attempt cry helpim hang,1 living rd world religious country sucks ass people get choose marry hindus christen children get bullied school muslim children told islam true religion killed family come gay lesbian anyother sexuality get date likely killed come atheist teachers constantly tell atheists bad people every law country taken shitty year old book wanna leave country,0 absolute outrage year people still freeze chocolate bars beg you take nearest chocolate bar freeze it makes much better psa,0 still feeling bleh spew burp and all,0 im scared myselfive dealing suicidal thoughts years last year would think would get away redflag death someone knew redflag deterred actually anything year thoughts getting worse redflag mind almost everyday past month ive told friend it think knows deal it especially since friends family think im cheery girl always laughing something hurts try put mask even try act way front friend mentioned ive ignoring past weeks becuase im scared hell dissapointed im better im happier confessed surprised learn thoughts noticed change behavior done much except get another friend check me point mind confused make do ive irregular emotions actions lately sometimes slip mindset kill becuase one care scares me really want someone talk,1 really wanted finally end itim closeted boy living isolated country hell earth society pretends like exist father beats repeatedly bullied school pretty much every environment feeling like never get here finally got rope yesterday felt like would much better silence noise around come find tied good enough felt really bad afterwards cried sleep cannot continue,1 im strugglingim atheist living muslim community anything hate me another reason yet want end one all lost best friends love litteraly absent family left me every day feel lonely even sad day before im avoid suicidal thought cant help it temptation going more think dying everyday afraid hurting myself physically scared thought would painful give fuck anymore want end it,1 put vacation photo online a few yr ago pc crashed and now i forget the name of the site,0 good halloween movies filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 Norway won! 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It'll get easier. ,0 bad die christmasone best friends left im fucking lonely cant stop thinking it fucking sucks friends completely ignore messages unless need favor im piss broke evicted cant find first got laid first week december single company responded job offers wtf left point,1 genuinely suicidal betrayalthis going long person care much cheated times past year understand im kind end taking back arms everytime never loved anyone much love person point feel like im love person used lies secrets genuinely think anymore found last time cheated days ago know anymore,1 redflag unemployed person often completely reasonable people insisting making even angrieri cant get job any job constant rejection sends clear message me worthy income allowing eat pay rent deal health issues worthy basic necessities life redflag completely reasonable choice less convenient clean up im always told give keep pushing gets better people give advice freely never chance make income support myself society egging on keep telling im good enough cruel im worthy food shelter healthcare fine death natural consequence things considered extreme take life considered useless deserve live,1 sniffinglue ohhh i love it p i m sad we didn t get to hang out,0 @thelemic I'm so excited to see your art! 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You guys will own all ,0 why do i keep looking i know that what i read is gon na hurt but i still look i guess it s just a girl thing amp i need to get over him,0 dont motivation ideas make lego stop motions dont know do need motivation,0 ask random ass shit im bored fillllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllller,0 i m i want to look for a job that would be good for someone with anxiety i struggle with anxiety which isn t even bad it s the symptom like blushing and sweating that i absolutely hate i feel like right now it s easy to find a job but i m just worried about it making my anxiety symptom worse and people noticing,1 feel everything slippingive high school three half years graduate may im tired living life people forced things order remain trouble parents ive started cutting realize still dont feel anything even bring girlfriend never happy anymore everything seems like going soon feel like slipping faster light end tunnel coming im dragged void darkness coming closer closer succumbing fate others me,1 finally cleaned phones photos took hour so finally deleted photos camera roll left,0 iim seeing posts people wanting live die wanting die cant bring itbut can want die think surroundings people care die see sad love me sacrifice sad stop sad cats cared for mum understand partners friends know best option people want whats best regret would cats love much much better life mum going much better cant think reason stay,1 sadnessi want kill nobody take care little dog,1 reading probably life,0 hey rbonkpatrol bonk peepee please uwu,0 much cost us check suicidal urgesmight tomorrow wake suicidal ir bankrupt me insurance,1 posting everyday get girlfriend day day nothing today walked steps km posts keep getting removed maybe list list thing today day nothing today walked steps km day nothing make long list thing return soon worries today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km actually impressive walked inside house day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked inly steps km much today day nothing wrong u jcttt sadly list thing backat least partially day guess what still nothing day weeks day day hai make video bricks day nothing day fuck sorry hmin delay day days untill day still nothing day aaaaaaaa day day nothing day day day guy getting hot me day boys it rasputin million views club day celebrate day celebrate a th aniversary independence iceland kingdom denmark b th aniversary occupation estonia ussr c th aniversary battle vienna american civil war wtf vienna american civil war heard this d th aniversary death pope adeudatus day yesterday chose d im gonna celebrate th aniversary death pope adeudatus day day im hereby celebrating th aniversary death pope adeudatus day day like wood day lorem ipsum dolor sit amet consectetur adipisici elit sed eiusmod tempor incidunt ut labore et dolore magna aliqua day one day one thousand day one million day one billion day one trillion day one quadrillion day one quintillion day one sextillion haha sex this today first walked km m up bicycled km usually struggle both day one septillion day one octillion day one nonillion day i love apache attack helicopters cute day day twjgwuwviqheiqniberuwkgueheikwgwiq day piece dead fly wall bed years now day screw fell chair worried day want provoke someone badly rn day qwertzuiopasdfghjklyxcvbnm day fuck magic eye bot day leg hurts say leg still hurts day need electric shock rn day day day day day day day day day day day absoloutly nothing happens countdown day day day day nothing day day day day day ,0 im feeling goodim failing school losing friends broke might well end,1 @judez_xo yeah we had a show on saturday it was sweet ,0 @jacobfrazier jonathan and I went and met up with brandon and lindsey. Friends from San Fran area. It was lots of fun!!! And nice weather ,0 hi all i m f i ve had very bad anxiety disorder since 0 0 when my uncle passed away the following year i started taking medication and while it help it s not a cure all both my parent passed under different circumstance in october and it s wrecked my emotion i try to do the best i can but sometimes it s just a mess i m out of town right now and i feel so outside of my comfort zone i know i m safe but my stomach is in knot and sorry tmi i haven t left the bathroom much doe anyone have any advice is there anything i can do to calm myself or center myself thank you in advance,1 hello fellow teenagers help friends decide movie watch options below sherlock holmes part murder orient express journey mysterious island darkest hour better suggestions within genre movies comedy leave comments thankyou,0 anybody else hate waking every time wake im yelled pulled bed something want keep dreaming playing soccer rick climbing whatever dream,0 u got android whatsapp ur playing mystic messenger irl fuckin banger send it rn,0 want live life parents strict hi im teen girl like friends cant drive but im much older pandemic older drive friends haha want live life want sneak out go parties maybe even smoke twice drink sex etc wanna live life way want teenager yes ik u reading probably wondering im thinking probably calling trashy etc promise im not want live life without regrets obviously none gonna happening anytime soon many reasons im also scared haha time come sneak rebellious every awhile it see parents insanely strict mean theyre strict things like dress little things like that theyre strict screentime friends bedtime limit junk food etc would never million years let go party parents would gone didnt know parents etc house alarm no cameras alarm gonna sneak whatever someone give actual life advice yk excuses tips etc ampxb thank u reading this ,0 why do both of my best friend have to be shitty simultaneously can u at least take turn hurting my feeling jerk going sleep,0 "@msmithpds thanks... easy, but the kind of thing you could spend hours figuring out ",0 theekween vhulivhadza help those who suffer from depression anxiety heart break or have witnessed something traumatic thelmasherbs,1 dad hates season food cooking hates garlic onion creole old bay pretty much seasoning think about ive cooking pains season food like get salt pepper enough things come now fried chicken day seasoned flour bunch different things got upset seasoned flour asshole ended really liking chicken yalls favorite seasonings things cookeat want get dad try new foods maybe open start liking new things,0 want go badbut cant leave boyfriend cats experienced lot trauma childhood still affects day dad also killed toddler mom everyone raised shunning decided want jehovahs witness anymore lost people once chronic mental physical illnesses im pain physically mentally every day able get keep job since cleaning job several years lost moved away different city im relying people live im extremely underweight hard get eat unless im medicated even enjoy meals trying choke past anxious knot throat hate body look like skeleton teeth poor condition problems neglect im joke peers feels like people around see loser look me im accomplishments feel proud of want source love light people around weight heavy im selfish place feel guilty that think ending lot afraid survive face people disappointed me survive partner know much kind loss hurts feel trapped,1 ranti m really want kill myself note written plan back plan every time go think buried dress wrong name im trans two people care me mum still thinks im girl best friend im to wonder hed tell mum me itd weird come dead like that sucks trans worry that couldve killed weeks maybe months ago keep putting living,1 hi just wanted to share my experience and hopefully get some advice from people who suffered through same symptom when i have extreme anxiety period i can not eat almost at all i eat one small meal a day if im lucky also vomiting can not be avoided when these episode come i have vomited several time when i wa out with friend for example i would say i have to pee and i would vomit my soul out of my body how can i help myself i am tired of dealing with this,1 principle accidentally called dad lol opened door said go dad kinda awkward,0 onemy life used really good social loved lot well school nice job depressed got lot better since began everything started fall lost relationship job skipped school contact parents stopped working out lost friends since corona sitting inside months everyday social contact all therapist therapy years nothing seems help anymore eat shower anything anymore want die whats point living absolutely nothing wake even live for thinking redflag years feels like way out,1 anyone else feel like wasted teenage years like im friends going movies like driving friends night skating around partying stuff sitting buttfuck nothing annoying point seems like cant even ask could tag along completely different friend group,0 little story interaction really helped me struggling wave depression amp crying decided go gas station pack smokes made sure fix makeup amp think could tell crying gas station attendant took one look said look happy wrong told long day told joke made laugh paid smokes left car walked bag little deserts sell gave me told hopes feel better good night honestly pure sincerity complete stranger made cry again like holy shit cares someone even know moment struggle truly helped me hope knows hes good person caring stranger,1 whatching Camp Rock! ,0 thabiler ntsikimazwai it is a form of abuse the result are permanent depression and enxiety depending on med for the rest of your life,1 kill hate workingi want work since family rich work avoid starvation really seem worth it,1 struggling hold togetherim m literally feel like complete failure life got degree currently unemployed living parents suffering depression years now feel like complete joke never girlfriend struggling see point anything also feel like weak person sick everything lot friends seem making progress life still stuck nothing made numerous changes life multiple times always end miserable matter what got job even depressed unemployed moved different country still miserable zero motivation absolutely hate working withfor people generally pessimistic view humanity despise people cant help this every time try optimistic millions things prove otherwise kid myself abuse alcoholdrugs point blacking times week really care stopping really see point happens end getting boreddepressed sober least hammered forget much failure hours also pretty sure suffering serious mental illness lot people said think mentally unwell need help behavior completely erratic time especially drunk found idealizing redflag recently often think easy would make problems disappear pretty sure doomed miserable anyways point going on reason followed family good people care lot need help,1 lovely movie it deeply reflects chinese underground bands current lives chinese culture traditionaled rock n roll music go highly recommend one but one thing wondering whether movie showed mainland sorta doubt d,0 loookin friends magical dms open lookin peeps hang n long conversations ,0 in which episode did house and cuddy hook up apo meeting this is all your fault,0 die dont fucking mourni fucking hate,1 managed something once took waveboard started practicing steep road obviously fell rolled meter soim disappointed little blood came least felt something know many years feels good feel something,1 pickup south street one brilliant movies ever made example directing candy jean peters starts going purse notices wallet missing alarm goes background building alarm going head cartoonlike subtly woven background way strikes subconscious level seen film times clicks theres alarm bell going starts frantically going bagbr br richard widmark way top game smartalec hes really great highlight performance film first scene moe street peddlerinformer played thelma ritter later apartment seeing movie seeing real person ive never seen anyone act real felt like looking real room ritters performance right way hair stuck bit removed hat br br about million things worked way lightning louie picks money chopsticks way candys jewelry clicks flicks moes hand away brooch way moe gets dollars change police captain across fbi guys chest even way captain opens filing cabinet like hes way room many years pickup south street detailed moves directing consummate performances acting superb nownostalgic visuals day panel truck boards leading shack water dumbwaiter unforgettable place skip stashes pocket pickings wonderful stuffbr br pickup south street also one movies where even though characters perfect care perhaps somewhat branded pasts ways hard escape skip threetime loser candy youngish woman knocked around lot people behave little badly expect sort novel ways make seem looking people never otherwise imagine yet know possible actors make recognizably human,0 yaw mean sometimes feel like want deepthroat gun,1 substitutiary locomotion treguna mekoides tracorum satis dee,0 please help friendmy friends family bunch incompetent assholes refuse acknowledge sisters multiple redflag attempts commit her sister would need commit want to friend lost living home right she spending year outside us cant anything help sister anything wemy friend do way get sister help right scared next time theres attempt redflag sister succeed cant anything stop family literally acknowledging problem im sorry wrong sub know else ask help please help friend sister,1 wish everyone one good night whatever time good time night goodnught qts,0 got called broski girl im talking fuck got giant ass friendzone,0 rcompo rachel hang outage is neccessary i wa gon na be home this wekend but dumb folk make me work so im free f and sat until,0 About to listen to the new Maccabees stuff ,0 depression made become good liar frighteningwhen tell everyone youre okay youre actually not promise wont something mind tells otherwise hurts intense emotional pain hard seeming like youre happiest person fully functioning know deep inside youre alone youre fucking unhappy fucking unhappy,1 @BlackTsChica That was great! Shawn's daydreaming of him in the car had me laughing ,0 Volunteering 2 day at my sis's school. ,0 @RachaelPhillips we got beaten... but less than they were getting beaten without me ,0 @curiousg87 Chew slowly. ,0 stephen just left i miss him sooo much,0 Ah! Blink 182. October 2nd. Sweeet! ,0 treatment resistant depression broken fixim fourth antidepressant three years along four years therapy life progressively gotten worse worse every antidepressant working failing absolutely fault anything therapist psych says do think medicine ever work problem problem never go away think redflag constantly cant time soon would hurt family much even years prep like want theyll still hurt wish could understand done living absolutely hopelessly done,1 mattpro legitimately good cop out there,0 itafter dinner im heading woods rope ready dark one notice nice quick guess end commit ill die anyway wait long wait till im old weak ugly disabled go years pain nothing,1 boyfriends brother covid hung two days ago im really nervous might it ill quarantining obviously im nervous gave brothers parents parents gotten vaccine mom heart problem likely able survive live died im scared,0 fuck people make noise theyre eating like thats fucking nasty nothing except make people around want vomit disgusting manners like eat alone dont hear people fucking gross,0 one of my friend called me and asked to meet with her at mid valley today but i ve no time sigh,0 st ab bed yse l f i stabb ed yself tim es n che st wit h butc hers knife ther es blo od e ryw here im layi ng n th e bat hroom flo n mu ch p ain ca n ba ly pe th is,1 back on here later tonight. SO bye for now my beautful friends. Keep sending the love xoxo,0 wastei always facing depression wishing death upon myself due fact feel like im waste human life older sister supposed twin died mothers stomach feel stole life wasted it fat ugly stupid etc worst part fact dont get bullied yet still depressed,1 I was once a miserable person and treated others badly now that im digging out from depression i can say i was a dickhead and am sorry to those i was unjustly rude to,1 zahidmunir 9 stress depression anxiety garmiii parhai error,1 jarl moodysson part dying breed political film makers swedish population appreciate try uncover truth government media actively distorts cover events surrounding eu meeting gothenburg absolutely heartbreaking see innocent kids abused drugged swedish police convicted prison political trials sending text messages revenge others actions unfortunate thing movie reach broad masses sweden shown theaters released video aired televisionbr br the political film important bring new perspectives insight complex issues role play educator masses,0 i used so much hairspray today that its exactly the same it was 5 hrs ago MORE HAIRSPRAY THN I USED AT SWAY SWAY FILMING ON EVERYONE! lol,0 one step thisi currently sitting forest away town live rope inside bag ive found quiet place birds singing peaceful here ive written redflag notes family friends one thing bothers me text mother tell feel depression suicidal thoughts hard do im afraid reaction maybe go ultra mad break even more hand left lose ive told people depression didnt cared enough ill make right promise mom discuss home guarantees care maybe think im whiny idiot life hard yada yada thing is im sure want die dont continue meaningless existence complicated conflict happening right head sorry grammar,1 think new crush via friends got instagram girl never seen irl yet got told like walk distance school hers saw picture cute wow,0 really glad bipolari must say simply amazing mental illness cant cured gets worse time extremely treatment resistant even better feel better lie surprise depression good thing every thing youve done improve goes window nice testing ya oh cant forget meds say theyll help really give crap ton side effects really take hope dont go destructive mania hurts finances makes lose job ruin relationships hurts around general fucks everything up least hope doesnt happen again maybe though keeps life exciting glad im completely mercy disease im dead hope thats soon,1 people old parents want know old parents birth father mother ,0 i hate myself,1 yo serious question slep sleep,0 anyone else listen music literally right nutting like fr even seconds need listen music idk,0 give upi fucking givr eeup dpnt care anymore ive gtting wasted tking drugs rying del shit long dont care anymore im sick it cant fake anymore everyone know happy upbeat fucking positive hot popular me cant anymore cant fucking keep carrying on ive put new scars tonight cant keep it want end hold brother nqd mom cant keep im fucking tired happens time especailly im drunk want shove kinfe throat im done im fucking tired idont know anymore pleqse help,1 literally and the depression that come before,1 redflag letterthis going easy frankly idea start life bad really compared peoples misery life fucking cake walk make worth living cant anymore really fucking cant heart hurts much vision getting blurry confusion brain fuzzy drug use cant think properly anymore used love myself you everyone else planet stopped quite time ago even feel alive anymore im walking back forth energy left energy left even write proper goodbye letter see point tired thank reading goodbye,1 kids group started playing among us teacher sent us breakout rooms low key said wants play among us playing like bruh live classes,0 this sickness is making it impossible for me sleep that and how hot i am,0 father attempted redflag yesterdayyesterday uncle got long emailredflag note father detailing last wishes things nature father lives alone different state uncle called local pd welfare check house found dad car garage odd pills currently icu critical yet stable nurse told me ironically brother wives weeklong beach vacation week nice together this none us know do morning received email dad he scheduled sent simply said i want ruin vacation understanding email dad sent uncle attachments included meant sent brothers life feels significantly stranger know somewhere redflag note addressed me know do would end vacation heartbeat book flight see thought would good know part reason attempted feels like burden rest us believe going see would intensify feelings even know would say him shitty situation wanted vent out,1 beautifully constructed traffik tells story narcotics usage commerce multiple points view policeman view politician view addict view smugglers view farmers view carefully contructed storyline one gets impression everything interrelated beautiful onlocation shots poppy fields pakistan downtown karachi entry points airports frankfurt london delapidated buildings smuggling takes place one sees massive dimension narcotics consumption,0 "When Friends Struggle With Depression, This App Helps Avoid Potentially Harmful Phrases http://adweek.it/2qY03R6 ",1 @pokerfacexxx i hate death metal ,0 wish bigger boobies and a bigger dick,0 want endi really trying get past shit thats happening life break girlfriend exams fainting public place one bothering help adds overwhelming urge end sit day trying get friday girlfriend probably dump me sit looking forums say breaksbreakups know heart slight hope taking back haunting much cannot cope cant pain huge cannot possibly get it know made another post yesterday know accept love like love her part would rather die accept lifes realities fucks badly dunno long take this,1 hi hopelessthis kind long work dead end job car license cant get better job cant drive cant drive cant afford fix car im stuck bullshit cycle im always poor friend always probably always be ive bumming rides friend get college barely enough money pay gas family getting evicted shut gas ive showering boiling water pot using oz wawa cup everything stained yellow cigarette tar smells like parents sexually abused younger cant forget it im tired tiresome dont know much longer live like this theres point anymore ive thinking killing long time ive thought would it where when id listening would wear things stopping burdening people extreme fear pain want rest,1 got adhd mom depression dad unbearable combination weeks think everything possible achieve everything want restless focus anything fail mercilessly realize nothing worked again cannot leave bed want kill myself life last years yeah knowing shitty depressive times last forever small consolation also know depression back see point getting life track ruin shortly after made life cannot contribute society mood stable all afraid future want stop existing see living streets years cannot keep job long one give money lie bed cry day night genetic disaster,1 hey djtracyyoung why aren t you playing at gaydays this year every year i know tracy s night will be the best night,0 need reason stayplease help me ive bad relationship six years now good really good hes supportive loving helpful bad inner narcissist comes out tried break six months ago it cant stay away him meanwhile friends turning me hes painted exes crazy bitchesits likely hes me now im currently crisis situation hes recently stopped talking me im anxious upset cant sleep eat ive much him thinking hung there said right things stopped arguing him would eventually want back want believe everyone told harmful stay away him right cant imagine killing myselfbut want die want feel pain more thought found love first time life know love me probably never did pain much know die hurt people im tired feeling way please give reason stay,1 nothing look forward to one talk to years old unemployed living foreign country looking job plus fighting depression year now getting help easy therapy fucking expensive job means medical insurance know whats left now one knows im depressed self stigmatized depressive see way go quietly one would notice anyway help,1 OMG!!!! makes a long time xD....just finish school until next year ,0 please help boy i am boy iam completely exhausted day face problems sometime parents fight like extremesometimes due financial pressure many things know handle never share problems always tries try handle things own never express feelings easily always tries look happy forcing smile mostly stay alone think hours hours today got results failed whole well faced major accident bones broked hardly stand straight somtime think redflag hanging self fan pillar,1 thoughts cocacola brand name cocacola originally contained cocaine cola sodasoft drink coca wasis short cocaine therefore contracted coca cola named two main factors st released cocaine cola rest case most likely majority knew plz dont hate,0 fucking monster evil,1 mom literally yells get house moment im asked hang friends mom yells anyway summer house basically everyday walking around town friends everyone stoped inviting hang out meanwhile mom yells asking stopped getting house little bit ago one friend called asked wanted hang her go ask mom drive says no give reason keeps saying no idek think rn im mad upset,0 someone somewhere didn t like sheepish http www smartestgames com gotdhistory php id,0 "Got a sweater, now I'm warm. ",0 think josh duhamel great rest show fun watch but think handsome sexy josh duhamel makes show las vegas really fun see days magnum loved tom selleck thought sexiest man face earth hunk television show must order women enjoy watching something especially purposes innocuous entertainment would done anything win date tad hamilton josh duhamel incredible always super crush him josh definitely hunk watch las vegas time josh duhamel big reason too,0 tried to install a twitter application on my phone didn t work tough boo,0 cant stop wanting thisi like person am dont think change think feel pure happiness anymore laugh funny joke smile things day feels empty things used make happy things desperately wanted looked forward even much raise heart rate cant stop thinking redflag self harm keep wanting it like deep primal urge know loved know good life love family anything know would evil thing kill myself family loves me niece nephew mean much great dog keeps going every morning kill would destroy family still cant stop wanting end it,1 "http://recipekey.com/r/zykfx a great veggie lasagna!! happy marathon monday, boston folks ",0 school suxxx wish i wa on tourny again,0 hey guys didnt fucking procrastinate today homework days pog proud,0 is upset that she couldn t find quot church of the flying spaghetti monster quot on twitter to follow,0 going try killing right nowfuck life,1 redflaghow redflag please,1 desperate helpthis third time pleading help here received reply first two times edge know why interest anything keep thinking everyone hates me feel owe everyone favor dying thus making lives better know perhaps true sane part outshadowed insane part attempts last couple months freaked out tiny rational part brain striving live want live mother but find support anywhere friends deserted found acting wierd depressed social anxiety right childhood situation become worse past couple months even courage go office now cant summon courage talk anyone social contact visit supermarket avoid talking anyone dont courage go psychologist help too live country far far away mother cant disclose condition family consider mental illness taboo suicidal feelings selfish desperately want live mother waiting successful man career wise etc something else pulling makes die everyday daily routine wake elaborate plans redflag around noon time comes forcefully make think mom somehow survive afternoon optimistic start getting normal again evening get thoughts spend night thinking next days plan redflag tired want way out rational part states things going fine need wait human mind accept much torture friends ones deserted seeing suicidal behavior seen reddit filled kind souls would one spare couple minutes help out begging you survive this grateful life ,1 cpu aio cooling leak know water cooling systems pc often fail quite easily planning water cool cpu aio wanted know risk leakage aio problem full water cooled system,0 @bloolizard any restaurant would be more legit if they had chavelas ,0 back pitrock bottom become familiar going redflagwatch page reading posts teenagers reminds age empty really already dead inside teen years whole neglect parents constantly told im reason family problems never able connect people moved every years nothing ever solid permanent stopped caring everything reason stayed alive brother didnt deserve deal committing redflag everyone else would okay while like empty carcass walking around even try pretend okay thats little cared ready die whenever myself finally three unsuccessful attempts thought brother saving every time life would get better times right would get used things good something bad would happen again seems like im magnet bed news despite multiple losses break up trauma experienced last year forced remain positive hopeful future now im done again empty carcass like tumbleweed legs almost feel wind blowing me want die bad go coma turn brain little while even thought moving starting motivate me wanna drive california somewhere warm happy see anything changes want happy bad think ive given up hate well know rock bottom familiar normal life im going commit redflag every time try thought brother stops me im r e d im ready done,1 music apocalypse deleted getting downvotes not sure why still feel terrible im reposting hopes anyone help music has sincerely life dedicate free time making listening it ill put way america crumbling protesters disappeared unmarked vans okay least art turn to right well really artists rapists guess make art ourselves right well really every venue america going shut down ruining livelihood virtually every musician isnt stadiumfiller uhh well things always get better right well no live rapidly declining nation best case scenario subject worse famine plague ever seen climate change worsens destroying food supply unleashing diseases trapped arctic ice worse case scenario go extinct guess question is dont hang get way quickly,1 went to the doctor s today and my blood sugar level wa,0 holy shit tf u pink guy almost years old song used argument ender trump others actually give reasons explain people dumb,0 i smoked for the first time in month and now i m freaking out and idk what to do edit i m all good now blocked out the stress for a little bit now getting food with the boy,1 messed big told best friend feelings shut down relationship tip dont didlt,0 honestwhen stop finding new things hang onto disappearhell lot times even me destroys me everytime find way cope something gets way physically cant continue using coping methods one day ill run ways cope thats day ill die actually die day run ways cope ill die years day ill grasping onto hope somethingll change even try change theres use years ill living complete agony end wishing killed much younger hope year maybe next knows ill finally learn mistakes build courage kill myself ill build even courage make redflag attempt actually die know thats gonna happen thats thing sorrows saddens me know ill find little things hold to end dissappearing again causing feel immense grief times fuels die know ill hessistant itll attempt truth mentally im still optimistic thingll get better im clinically depressed still find moderate enjoyment stuff too truth ill die much older age probably anything life constent suicidal thought cant happy get born born speech impediment caused develop social skills bad way still speak people yeah really fucked speech impediment like really bad inconsistent far gotten worse im getting older friendships fake girl crash cant anything it destroys me fuck everything ill happiest die much wanted write fuck it,1 There are clear connections between depression and chronic pain. Here you have some explanation - http://goo.gl/uzIlTl ,1 pathetic worthless socially retarded ugly lying crazy faggot loser lacks common knowledge survival skills would better splattered pavement amaall dreams life useless fake personality fake cant earn anything own previous life lie cant tell whats real whats real im destined die alone im feeling right like want take hands thing thats keeping alive picturing look familys faces found out theyd probably see failure knew was scary thing type this im angry feel irrational give backstory recently found gay man im years old dated women still never knew gay past year so went psychiatrist even physically psychologically depressed put antidepressants made think clearer things got head ass rationally still hate world myself would rather die succumb shittiness human nature know am get feeling want to i pressure people loved me repressed deeply immensely emotional maturity intellegence th grader nobody truly accepts am way ive able gain acceptance drugs drinking people came out would open window connection people sexually well want boyfriend could connect someone emotionally im attracted straight guys anywhere turn feel dead end want musician im much submissive pussy bitch confidence work ethic im painfully lonely oh well enough me fuck this fuck life fuck people meaningless want take bunch acid sleeping pills peacefully beautifully fade nothingness came from probably sound like emodepressed th grader thats heart,1 cant diei keep anxiety attacks wish would die already one anxiety attacks would trigger something inside kill already im beyond sad im beyond alone im beyond depressed cant even wake without crying every morning phone rings burst tears im nervous talk people cant socialize well im failure im worthless person every day crying frustration anger loneliness cant die,1 know much longer gofor years ive fought misunderdiagnosed mental illnesses years ive tried failed everyone else easily turns borderline personality disorder and depression anxiety ruined life things ive done hurt everyone love wife holding on strained uneasy makes skin crawl says loves never hugs kisses me never snuggles me kids hate me give effort and depression looks like tried tat care am unable things need show wife love her unable loved failed everything one talk all sit fantasize feeling last time tried kill myself pills kicked warm calm serene sit look photos people committed redflag wonder much longer go is obviously part want die talk it im scared know anymore im going anything soon even it lot before but god im exhausted unbearably sad want loved accepted even though nothing offer anyone want over,1 anyone know buy certain cbs merch ship uk looking yo buy things cbs store ship uk cant find anything nice anywhere else could ship friend states like extra per lb anyone recommendations,0 guys started texting crush basically helped stuff im exchange student context thanked texted bit bow me peasants,0 hey girl book cause wanna deeply understand,0 want kill im scared dieim need help find courage kill mean particular reason everyone uses throws away get shouted lunch time people constantly call whore tell nobody wants sometimes teachers join call disgusting talk class disgusting think everyone basically hates person bf ended cheating different girls told pretended fall love could sleep said actually like said im weird also struggle lot mental health issues ive trying hard get better hard people stuff every single day said im crazy everyone thinks stand didnt want everyone hate too told im suicidal said no youre not you wont it really want im scared dont want family especially little brothers find scared would affect cant anymore wish someone would shoot,1 ha lost his ring it s no where to be seen,0 weird friend talking american friend used battery nerf bullet time passes tell hes horny the things talked about jokingly said why dont use cat knew jt joke forgot said started saying know option thwn started talk moves gonna cat im scared cat im mentally broken,0 numbi pathetic person im wasted last years life sitting room alone playing video games gained extraordinary amount weight lost friends completely isolated everything father life since think hes prison something currently relationship mother always tried give whatever wanted life never cared nothing myself everyone ive met thinks im smart fuck school required me even though ive always despised people hated majority do countless years wasting away finally forced try make something life sent shitty tv college sit computer day hey figured technical genius could make career it schooling learned absolutely nothing already know made new friends entire time graduated extremely good grades everyone thought bright future ahead me lost lbs course months trying hard could better myself cant it cannot normal person cannot speak people without feeling like complete utter fool social reject everything attempt real world crumbles ive job interviews completely ruined them including one hour ago used extremely depressed everything whiny little cunt stopped know why stopped feeling everything cant cry anymore cant feel anything im sick disappointment everyone around me mother remarried another childwe years apart little sister thing makes happy anymore want try bad fix whats wrong me her nothing works want house blame them go sorry lack punctuation insane wall text needed vent think killing every single day wake want go back sleep know anymore,1 whats favourite candysweets drugs chocolate,0 yoo im done w morning classes time go back sleep,0 venting also storybeen feeling like since felt useless bullied people take anger funny god im fuckup worst decision life ever bully someone come back bite me turned friends lost everyone found trans cant live want be want alcohol organs fail die know were fucking earth ill probably fail life im go school know ill bullied,1 post acid concussionbadly broken many ways much worse yet still man miss fucking brain broken glass severed tendon bled white save trying fucking end blood floors blood walls aftermath psychedlic fall visuals seeing patterns stare try pretend care reality im alone im one dug hole,1 remember always saying cannot wait til kid now nothing changed work manage finish school slipped groups friends bad guys all effect indirectly motivating skip work skip classes rather take take drugs them point hanging without sort drug involved exist anymore blame still love friends moved another city currently months since moved room mess know nobody city still work still drink take drugs difference take alone constantly depressed nothing changed better all wish people could relate situation all wish best nothing changed,1 cant post imag es want post john lennons boobs,0 feel nice sent message friend bc hinted towards things bit rough assured im need talk anything responded saying yeah everythings fine bit rocky im happy know there half time think jokes feel important nice everyone important nice even you yes you amazing make difference never forget it,0 i ve been waking up and going through the same day repeatedly for a long time i wanted to get better but i wanted this particular person to be by my side while i did it i ve made a plan and set a date i know in my heart it s the right choice i just hope he doesn t blame himself when it happens it wasn t him that make me want to follow through i m just done hurting everyone that come in to my i m done being ashamed of the person i ve become and i m done looking like i don t care i felt every emotion so keenly that it forced me to realize that those very same emotion made me react in a way that i wasn t proud of my reality is shifting and these shadow are the only thing that is my company nothing is ever going to change for me even if i go to therapy even if i get med sooner or later it always return i m done being a prisoner of my own mind idek why i m posting this maybe hoping the right person will see me and talk me out of it it s not that i lack love it s actually the opposite i have so many mental health issue that i m such a burden on my family now my addiction ha returned i m just so done with living like this it s a little ironic my selfishness is the cause of all this selfish to the end i m sorry s i hope you don t blame yourself and if by chance you see this i want you to know i think this is always how it would have ended,1 There's Hope: Deepika Padukone On Depression at 'TIME 100' Gala https://bit.ly/2Hpa1We ,1 sister bought shirt cool fuck ngl appreciate ,0 birthday take cake stay,0 problem had would blame me didnt take side disagreement someone else would get mad start insults eventually got relationship ended it began obsessively texting times day talking family lying happening etc finally stopped threatened restraining order last time talked may ,0 need help fastlets get way ive thought redflag weekly months now ive attempted twice never went through even went getting noose set last one fell asleep probably chosen late time one doctor knows ive thoughts tried main question bet lot asking why main reason feel every little thing goes wrong fault head come crazy reason go well parents fighting caused caused stress failed algebra someone dies made happen enough two examples hideous self blame ive grown sick tired sucking bad im tired trying hardest living expectations im tired existence ive decided im going kill year ends im tired dead weight people need anymore ive messed enough already theres anything anyone tell make change mind guest doubt though,1 OMG! It's OFFICIAL!!!!! ,0 decided it plan backup plan put motionim tired cycle whenever thought killing months ago scared know method going use want suffer thought websites would reason tons them great suggestions cite actual redflag research im going go pretty straightforward method shotgun mouth honestly cant take cycle hating myself isolated getting sort help except you handle yourself friends family today minutes late therapy appointment looking forward seeing horrible week last week see presidents day got mixed times called minutes appointment mentioned told would right there close by told policy reschedule cant take appointments minutes time mine supposed be well cant make next week class field trip reschedule friday weeks thats last fucking straw bit late apologized cant get little bit time even nobody gives fuck therapist give fuck job know convenient called right supposed able come in kill fuck hurt someone else started think killing ex girlfriend burning house family pets it hate much know true sometimes say anything vagina feelings requested male therapist bet shit happen anyway nobody worry im killing reasons alone thoughts agonizing im going hurt anybody except myself able get hands shotgun go take class shooting range everyone focused targets put gun mouth shoot myself thing im worried good samaritan trying stop notice this im quite happy end life stop burden anyone else peace love all hope overcome going make finish line,1 about to shower which i hope will wake me up at last oh and the synth experiment yielded nothing last night,0 gentlemen lend ears girl peg exchange buying ps would it,0 cant find reason anymoreive miserable whole life cant remember last time happy satisified never truly felt happiness try blame parents divorce happened many people doubt it ive never succeseed anything know doing thought getting girlfriend would help think messed girl up dont know do dont know therapist would help me ive tried didnt help feel like im truly alone feel like friends care feel like im downing dont know want exist please someone help dont know anymore,1 Escuchando el ulitmo directo de Dreatm Theater . ahora sonando Constant Motion ,0 im tired exhausted of overthinking i want peace i want my brain to relax and stop thinking for a second im not patient and i want to be in a different part of my life already my job is not helping me at all i have to hide my mental health issue because i feel judged at my job and i know they won t believe me i want to at least work from home because thinking every day about having to go back to that place and committing two hour of my life there and back and then having to deal with the greed they showcase is disgusting trying to find a new job but i live in a place where the average applicant is more than 00 apps per job post waiting on grad application received an acceptance but it s even more heartbreaking than a denial because i can t afford it this world and the decision other make for u is cruel im tired of a lot i want to help others more than i want to help myself but i know i need myself to be good to make a positive impact for others i m really stuck i just want to cry and cry,1 days passing byi know people talking killing seek attention it talk killing anyone hear out anytime feel like killing think like would like fall really tall building center town catch im seeking attention hand see joy living always struggle live think making happy playing games didnt think nescessity go school get education get job everything new try brings joy got information get points assignment copied part friends work didnt would chance pass didnt know back then basically make even worse probably study one year this enjoyed studies first two years became nightmare got much work much things dont like dont feel like using future job lost positive feelings studies back wasnt depressed oportunity end life painlessly without making family suffer would go time life music helped time even doesnt help friends like spend time still prefer die live cant even come viable reason dont enjoy anything feels same finish one assignment comes another know everyone got problems dont see enjoying anything future maybe get job something change dont even dream getting girlfriend picky ugly problem thats ok first try happy right took medicines effectin year helped lower giant social anxiety like stressed h wanted die stressed anymore want die,1 cant believe tomorrow halloween crayz crayz im gonna put razor blades snickers ,0 my brain just doesn t work i almost feel retarded with this costant foggy brain feeling that i have my head is completely foggy i can t even do simple task properly such a making the bed drive ecc i need to read a sentence multiple time before getting it now everytime i try to do these thing my brain just can t concentrate on the step to do them and i end up feeling even more depressed how is this possible my executive function is fully impaired at this point i ve been dealing with this shit since two year at least and i m just a shadow of what i used to be,1 jus want kiss me id know id die happy,0 All I can say is Depression sucks!! #mentalhealth,1 repost rdepression need help get suicidal friend fast possiblesome background friend years old know work since years started work company overweight generally shy nice guy due bullying as talked earlier me traits never relationship girl this big issue him however right actually dream job spent around years university studies get degree get job got it thing is attention deficit hyperactivity disorder adhd problem school got extra time studying exams help through get fired bad repute cannot handle job boss told last week ie chance getting second chance anywhere weekend friend drinks invited got tipsydrunk like everyone else took aside said might night commit redflag due everything above left party walk fresh air talk it thing is dont know say ask seek professional help situation seems hopeless him two things right values life loved woman able manage dream job say knowing persona wont find woman tragic thats world works type mental deficiency line work doomed beginning shouldnt allowed study build debt beginning someone stepped right help think really urgent think already means plan know probably contacted afraid going grasping someone say right things im afraid push saying wrong thing im sorry broken english im native english speaker,1 microphonies classic stooge short guys inept repairmen working radio station horsing around broadcast booth curlys perfect mimic recording voices spring mistaken real thing leading radio contract zany musical party trios mock rendition quintet lucia de lamamore especially entertaining doubt essential viewing stooge fansbr br although evidence curlys failing health visible face voice performance amazing probably last glimpse old curly fans think a bird hand last great curly short coarse voice slow movement difficult watch,0 im tiredim tired everything mentally physically every way possible feel like im digging hole taking friends care im sorry cant stop hate hate cant stop depressed suicidal one minute seems like belt burdens drag hard feel like pushing away maybe thats pushing away idk anymore want feel happy long ago feels gone everything else feel things going bad back im hating want cry cant sit stupid songs repeat suck cos cant die people need right want talk things idk express longer blank piece crap maybe demons kill instead wanting kill others want stop much,1 year pretentious muck like synecdoche new york film born charlie kaufmans selfindulgence comes film similarly hard watch three times important frownland labor love crew actors filmmaker shot years friends traces man cannot communicate thoroughly authentic real brooklyn world people see step beyond even stylization mumblecore movement real people painfully trapped selfcontained neuroses unwilling change unable real world set delusions film people profoundly touch difficult watch mm filmmaking without proper light money factors would make film slick honesty understated fact would cause room full people dismiss richard linklater give award sxsw remind films like naked best mumblecore film everyone one challenges watch grows longer think it,0 im male thanks awards,0 "haha ashley tisdale's "it's alright, it's ok" is on TV i wanna take my brush and sing as loud as i can :'DDD",0 help mehelp pelase,1 help idk take frustration anger guys frustrated,1 night preparing surprise test made specially lower grades found teacher wants lower grades theres going test take weak points little know im smartest yet dumbest person class time play minds game already figured test last class friday due last class day,0 yay mi birthday really excited year kind sad thanks couldnt done without,0 block cant see shit piss u blocked,0 ive decided kms todayidk yet,1 good ol karma lol good ol karma httpsyoutubexfoezpwqhttpsyoutubexfoezpwq,0 We showing the lakers how to do magic ,0 absolute intenthello redflagwatch quite awhile since first ever post detailing intent myself obviously done it opted instead exhaust options first see anyone could give ironclad reason it one far doubt anyone will many forms therapies ive tried many therapists ive changed anything medications ive taking im inclined believe nothing actually wrong me mind thinkingthey cant fix problem exist fact sign anything might actually wrong want kill myself im going outline reasons desiring again anybody interested check previous posts find ask directly copypasted version bottomline this intend end life im help im really upset it honest happen soon long redflag note compose details organize it point procrastination keeping alive anything else would posting here answer this want feedback want know absolutely certain right way right reasons talk intent discouraging it see wasting time us and one us lot less other expect contribution solely logical critique suggestion encounter logical critique cannot overcome discard plan entirely cant get feedback anywhere else am so countdown begins,1 doing some business study revision,0 actually c im shaking know feel cold even got blanket cold go away,0 f feeling less human option feels rightim going act feelings yet theyve lasted consistently weeks now im going lay background whatever else im new suicidal thoughts first thoughts around bullied unhappy school going me accepted early college program schedule full classes interested in things rocky ever started high school fine english class remarkable much else grades reflect sort good used to unsuccessful attempt bad report card grade trouble explaining result started medications anxiety depression back august i know long stretch time between seeing attempt december worked well enough soothe physical symptoms pharmacy always gave mother runaround psychiatrist prescribed basically seldom got filled time issue talked proper change made prior psychiatric involvement schoolbased therapy therapists simply right me know kind stomp negative thoughts breath kind tried therapist facility prescribes medication incompatible one well guessing particular one used younger clients myself pediatric care general feels small age theres much wait kept trying therapists one felt connected leave state permanently early semester care sick family came surprise school even tell left mentally limping hurt shock failing early college program things felt alien have relearning handle high school found going office administrator simply telling me new therapist hired soon after things okay connect recently terminated sessions think covidinduced teletherapy clarified incompatibility general problem connecting people friends talk regularly always feel alien even though mostly lot talk about listen talk favorite actors friends crushes understand it rationalize sympathize like capacity understand thinking someones attractive passing able recognize actors fans work feeling like song saved life ive seldom felt myself though felt however romantic feelings people lasted year more theyre always intense always study person develop feelings along way always talk tend care lot get confused realize feel ive never significant sometimes gets down despite disliking high school relationships play out people shown interest me first time mutual neither us really wanted directly confess switched schools really want hear that approximately month after someone else showed interest feeling same get along things thatd stop relationship one thing im bisexual hes homophobic match made heaven ive never dances never found someone attractive simply looking sure im even capable relationship people even find attractive say passing never hear again throw body image issues wahhh mom understand me nth degree feelings idiot constantly feel crux failing high school despite possibility graduate early play cards right tiny detail get stuck one topic interest talk others long unintentional rudeness blocks text write trying explain myself learned phrase social cue meant pretty much everything making feel worthless tldr like girls teen bad school communicating connecting people cant get date mental health services around suck sorry things jumbled trouble figuring put things proper order,1 On batman ,0 isnt bad go sleep late get late sleeping late always seen unhealthy wouldnt unhealthy gonna get early sleep sleep idk,0 im so badly trying not to let this depression sink it teeth into me,1 About to pass out! Super tired...good night twitterland! Til tomorrow ,0 @danversbaillieu makes the top 100! @chrsoz @mernas @emmahaslett @smartamatt @fabiodebe @Yuri_Bacas @bazv & @langer slip into obscurity ,0 brahhh quit smoking cigs i dont want to look old plus i cant breath haha,0 whyim sure describe it ive recently feeling like nothing im sad anything dread future im mostly state dissociation as always im treading along narrow bridge anything could push over ive accepted redflag think could day feel scared before option become serene place mind potential solution problems experience think strange although difficult get bed due fear worry day experience im still organizing studying planning future yet time im sending people thanks goodbye good luck emails writing motivations death searching painless methods no good options yet peace good thing id consider state constant dissociation confusion better chronic torment,1 whenever people ask feel genuinely share feel need box ship somewhere fault mind goes bridge crossing it also significant life thinks always secret way keep guilting them lol because feel much shame guilt hard get away from drink daily fucked life up never finished college high school stranded bar industry make enough money secretly feed problem prevents saving son makes issues worse cannot sneak couple needed get chest living lie anyone besides year old think best vent to hate routine,1 sherlock holmes basil rathbone begins story disguise helping smuggle famous physicist dr franz tobel william post switzeralnad watchful eye nazis want bomb sight plans allies obviously want it too sherlock help dr tobel invented instrument greatly aids accuracy aerial bombardment br br holmes dr tobel arrive safely back baker street scientist would rather alone mysterious reason although promised english help them germans stays true promise desperate moments holmes english along waybr br its entertaining film one famous detective uses one three different disguises needs help get goes archrival professor moriarity one complaint moriarity evil would dispensed holmes without batting eyelash instead giving openings escape pretty sad too usual dimwitted dr watson nigel bruce rescue boss certain death couple timesbr br yes credibility issues story put brain hold times fun film watchand looks beautiful thanks great restoration job done dvd makes old print come alive wonderful visuals particularly nighttime shotsbr br one note whoever english subtitles misspelled misinterpreted least half dozen words sloppy work first time ive encountered watching entire series restored dvd set,0 welp started use twitter deleting previous account able handle negativity coming blm hope goddamn god dragged clusterfuck fire drama controversy twitter honestly previous time grown point felt bad wanting take part blm action preserve mental health honestly im gonna stop giving fuck anything negative campaing justice twitter even people call devil silence violence fucking propagandaleave fuck alone choose avoid negative topics,0 sub discord server know sub minecraft server might check soon discord server,0 tiredyeah yeah know everyones tired were tired suicidality makes tired depression makes tired buy im really really tired get feeling chest every time breathe cant fucking stand want die,1 @kcbegreen Cobra Starship's new album. Coming out in August. ,0 adewunmitemit 9 weirdpeace olumurewa the sound of your depression,1 i am a waitress in a busy restaurant and while usually i put my mask on and try to not seem so anxious for some reason lately my anxiety is getting to the point where i can t even look at people in the face and then my anxiety just get worse thinking about how much of a bitch or weirdo i seem for not looking at them i also struggle with eye contact which make it even harder i honestly just want to ease my mind and be able to talk to people like the rest of my co worker i m contemplating medication but wanted to know if anybody noticed a difference while on medication,1 Stuck doing a tonnnn of homework.. Fun fun... But watching Family Guy in the process ,0 hi i m haven t had many female friend growing up now that i m in university and i m a part of a couple different club society we occasionally all go out and eat together i ve quickly realised that i ve been very anxious when eating food on a table with other woman there particularly the one i m meeting for the first time or the one i want to leave an impression on i have a bit of a short beard and one of my fear is that food will drip down and get stuck in my beard and those woman will notice it before i can clean it or it might just get stuck and they ll silently judge me for it and not tell me it s there i ve become great at conversation overtime from previously being very introverted and shy but asap food is served and everyone start eating i switch from being that casual fun guy to a scared and shy introvert who keep wiping his face after every bite of food he gulp down p s interestingly my fear isin t there when i m with guy or if i m with woman i m already close to would love to hear you guy opinion on how to tackle it and if you guy have faced any similar fear xx,1 feeling extremely hopeless everythingmy mental health deteriorating everyday regular schooling live fucking sucks ass makes way worse everyday spend hours trying come reason live cant think any everything feels blurry mom tries best give best life can never works out spend hours night riding bike empty streets morning hate live sooo cluttered filled hopeless people cant help notice strking contrasts others cant dont know anymore cant fucjing gain weight shit tried everything look like fucking stick figure hate body fucking bmi sick body short feel extremely touch body feel soo insecure things wish adult wish grew normal fucking household crappy memories childhood still haunt day head fucking hurts rn hate fucked world maybe kms idk,1 told crush liked her im scared waiting response please wish luck im scared currently dying inside,0 i lost my ambition when i wa somewhat and now we re 0 going on failed everything don t know what to do or who to talk to i told myself in september that if i end up in the same position i wa in the year prior i d kill myself seeing a i wa unable to find some shred of purpose then time ha repeated itself and now i m obviously anxious about it but i don t know if i can find another purpose because of the backlash i would receive from my family for wasting their time i told myself thing would be different but they never changed even if i tried my best to change them so if this is my last post then it s my last post i chose reddit i just hope in the next life if there is one that god at least give me more willpower and or intelligence because i honestly can not traverse this planet in this meatbag,1 @sukiebunny great i will leave the door open for you ,0 "#whoremembers who loves orange soda, kel lovs orange soda. i do i do i doooo lol ",0 psa attention please every dollar donated church dollar put genetically engineering cat girls for horde,0 @jordanknight so hopefully you remember me but then again who can forget a band camp girl lookalike xoxo,0 recently wa diagnosed with gad and though i kind of knew i had some sort of anxiety disorder my whole life being diagnosed motivated me to stop avoiding and confront everything i started going to therapy and i learned a lot about myself but the more i practice mindfulness the more i ve come to hate myself i ve spent my whole life constantly caring so much about what others thought of me that i never stepped out of my comfort zone i feel like i have no sense of self identity i convinced myself throughout high school that i wa okay being alone and bypassed a bunch of opportunity i would ve never admitted it out loud before but i realized have such a low self esteem most problem i have created in my life is a result of me it s not like i didn t know this from before hand but admitting it ha made the thought more prevalent i don t know why i feel worse in this sense after getting a diagnosis,1 send simple sketches ill try illustrate adobe illustrator discord gt ayan_,0 happy working fanfic mix crossover fan fiction within first hours got people reading ecstatic right also crying never happy feels weird d gonna give link though bc would stupid honest dream smp members another dimension thats im going say,0 got driving licence one life goals finally achieved satisfying get finish something thats important wish guys best ,0 i had a extravagant yet time conserving plan lined up for today which ive now forgotten,0 doingi actually cut shaving razor yesterday nothing couple tiny cuts deep enough bleed hurt im disappointed feel like failure showered month brush teeth anymore hardly talk people never feel like belong social situation thing enjoy anymore looking weird porn late night think hurting people like ive tried overdose know try again current medicine would probably work time,1 itits thinking pretty long time im honeslty fucked mentaly cant would never put family friends horrible thing real im scared one day ill break,1 "@phoebeyu ahahahah yeah, if you work @ one of the places that offers the tourism challenge, you can do it ",0 cant insulted dont understand insult,0 feel terrible like rubbish useless unnecessary thing communicate nicely well year said wanted meet said come study city see often now days left trip visit her ghosting me want die exist understand life understand anything,1 my Gosh like sayig that its funny Gosh haha not the meening just the word its self,0 theekween vhulivhadza help those who suffer from depression anxiety heart break or have witnessed something traumatic thelmasherbs,1 laid around too much today now my head hurt,0 cannot seem stop crying every single day especially night want go back feeling empty tired sadness want stop hour tired crying,1 endi deserve die im terrible person wish pain world myself comforting thought beaten left ground alone die,1 like holy shit one best friends holy shit one ups every way kissed girl fore did indepth conversation lewdness spooning girl friend tonguekissed girl twisted way the envy actually pushes to it,0 i don t like this 9 malarky i should be out seeing my friend who i haven t seen in month stupid work,0 @shaunjumpnow happy birthday x,0 ASMR cooking videos cured my depression,1 One of the few perks of being unemployed is enjoying the beautiful weather at the pool ,0 i ve struggled with panic attack and depression for a few year now i ve talked about this on here before i ve had help from a therapist she helped me a lot and i m better now than ever but i still know what it feel like i want to be really transparent here,1 hitting rough patch scared recurring thoughtsi s going divorce kind rough childhood think made dumb decision getting married shortcut independence parents underemployed finishing degree online scared lease month half get job im interviewing tuesday basically homeless even get job provides housing id find place live two months ive lived car short stretches before never long feel like shit decent or even steady job kind useful work experience social anxiety affecting job performance current position honestly think would make huge impact lost mo keep invasive thoughts redflag want die exactly feel like ive fucked chances ive had studied wrong thing school finish projects started younger im getting marriage wrong too attempt middle school makes nervous feel much way like want it beats hell im now feel like im broken basic functions keep dwelling thoughts exhausting could really use right advice ways preoccupy mind worst thoughts pass block anxietyguilt things like homework looking new job just like encouragement especially anyone whos divorce right gate even typing load mind sorry rambliness thank reading far,1 or ride it song drunk man begging women sex ,0 hi all i guess i just needed to share how i m feeling for year i ve been battling anxiety on and off for year it s been health anxiety primarily heart i ve had so much testing done that show i have rare benign pvc i m healthy and what not that s great and all but this past week i called 9 and wa in the hospital twice i haven t had to call since 0 i will start seeing a therapist and psychiatrist a of this week time a week i ve tried a lot of medicine and never had luck i m now on mg of buspirone with a potential of 0mg depending on how i do i have ativan a needed for emergency medicine now too i m on day of buspirone i know thing take time but before this past week i thought i wa the best i ve been in year i m sitting here sobbing because i can t believe i m back to square i m scared of medicine so i cry a i take the buspirone but i m scared of not be okay too i just feel so lost and hurt i m i want to have a family of my own soon and i can t even see past all my fear and confusion i miss the old me i know my trigger but i don t know what s truly deeply causing this i m so sad i just want to be okay to be my happy self i wa having so many more good than bad day why am i so scared of medicine i am sorry to anyone who feel how i do or struggle i am here for you,1 announce hungry sing song made up,0 From Medium: Atlanta and the Unfolding of Paper Boi's Depression (Warning: Contains some profanity.) https://medium.com/@KazzleDazz/atlanta-and-the-unfolding-of-paper-bois-depression-4c7130f49b6d …,1 delightful disney film angela lansbury fine form middle age spinster whose interest turns witchcraft world war englandbr br lansbury age time film ideal part jessica fletcher time benefit children mother england time great perilbr br the film follows adventures miss price lansbury david tomlinson professor witchcraft trying obtain certain information sorcery little darlings sent live price escape london bombings wonderful enchanting film us regardless agebr br too bad tessie oshea roddy mcdowall sam jaffe given little endearing filmbr br i really thought ben stiller filmnight museum end film relics come life battle nazi invasion small british coastal town,0 you ve all failed me,0 great underrated marion davies shows stuff late silent comedy also showcases wonderful william haines davies plays hick georgia crashes hollywood help haines appear cheap comedies marion discovered becomes big dramatic star great lampoon hollywood pretentions davies haines wonderful team too bad never made talkie together guest shots likes charlie chaplin douglas fairbanks william s hart john gilbert elinor glynn marion davies you see it hoot must serious film buff anyone interested stillmaligned marion davies,0 joined sub turned october excited finally join subreddit hello ampxb httpspreviewredditiwzbqpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsfbdacbab,0 im done everyoneim either killing someone else probably ,1 saw movie day rented it thought going another movie girl trying prove point diane joined boxing wanted to thought movie good gave thats good is plus movie michelle rodriguez always good even six,0 one cares audience not would kill would celebrate stupid am stupid liveno ever care anyway suffer silence guess,1 fed up of being ill,0 need dollars publish website worked hard on hello student whose passion computer science programming spend lot time making cool website would love publish it cheapest sqldatabaseintegrateable domain hosting costs per month total yes website one month enough show friends family project ive put lot effort into ill try get money later guess could help out even would mean world me httpswwwpaypalcompaypalmenotvectorhttpswwwpaypalcompaypalmenotvector dm proof website like video showing files website itself want,0 @Alexaarae why would you say that?? you can't stop eating reginas.. its too amazing ,0 passparagraphs may may interconnected point living die end mean happiness feel point reason see everything waste time little things like playing game whats point ill eventually grow tired anyway another thing ive come realize either kill myself somethingsomeone kill end thought amazing like kind control life life may shitty this power depressed even remotely sad happy enjoying life yeah laugh feel happy something bummed feel sad temporary emotions define entirely feel floating know feel it enter regression mean mentality which got show cant remember anymore basically regression mean means matter bad good things get always return center everything always come back neutral mind always come back whats point everything never constant w h h e p n t feeling sad itll pass feeling happy itll pass feeling depressed might take long itll pass feeling like life best itll pass it will pass end it,1 cant walk school home friends anymore parents making drop brother school leads different way school friends walk also leave earlier still early enough go back walk friends,0 one mistake made past still regret regret it past mistakes,1 need someone compare two essays help filler filler title basically ill send essays dms,0 ask girl like tell ive wanting ask long time idea go socially awkward even around girls whilst really confident kind,0 thank rteenagers inspiring change outdated reddit bio guys kinda suck,0 ok remember july th tik tok supposed banned august th tik tok supposed banned apparently tik tok banned sunday mean spying facebook banned well,0 youtube video dislikes hell im crying rn people mean,0 posting gnarly space facts run knowledge day three days remain wow three days thats insane always questions topics me let know comments ill see tomorrow fact lets talk little bit saturns lesserknown moons cool are titan enceladus iapetus cant get attention want give info on im going waste time here lets dive right in ampxb dione first moon dione like moons tidally locked parent planet however theres something odd way dione tidally locked side dione faces saturn fewer craters side face saturn exact opposite many scientists expecting could indicate point past massive impact may caused diones orientation completely reverse ampxb mimas third favorite saturnian moon one feature named herschel crater put simply massive crater likely made impact nearly obliterated mimas big makes mimas look like death star star wars ampxb rhea back nasa announced observations cassini probe suggested rhea could small ring system would marked first time moon known rings cassini observations unfortunately revealed evidence ring material ampxb tethys final moon tethys dense liquid water suggests moon may almost entirely made water ice saturnian moons super interesting loved fact little quirks,0 okay tokyo south america australia france germany uk africa,0 @cityraintunes im digging through the cd collection for some now ,0 thinking tonight maybe tomorrowi cant live without him able see killing me depression killing me im scared anymore know whats going happen,1 today sucks hate tuesdays especially today cold dark rainy quarter tank gas found exs assigned seat right fkn front me im anxious normal miss happy pen photo flashbacks reminding ex best 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",0 people act like bladee great rapper like im drained come good rapper slightest got little technical ability lyrics good,0 redflaghello you sad want redflag dont know it write pls,1 rip hero alex diedive never sad death someone whos grandma,0 i still don t understand how to setup subversion for a website,0 i m year old and i ve been depressed since sophomore in high school during those year i ve tried my best to keeping myself together not showing my true emotion try to make friend make people laugh etc and of course i still go through battle within myself but i ve been the victor so far recently it s been incredibly difficult i ve been contemplating suicide more often than usual now i am not saying that i m going to go through with it because it would absolutely destroy my family especially my mom they love me and i m lucky to have friend that care about me a well however i can t help but notice that my life is a complete and utter joke i ve made no accomplishment really nothing of value that i ve made a a year old person and it s getting to me i m not an intelligent person i have no ambition i have no drive and i have no goal in life compared myself to everyone else i m a loser i m a loser and i know it for a fact and i feel like my friend and family even my peer at work know it a well i m a joke now it ha been a struggle to keep my emotion and thought under control people start to notice a change in my demeanor when i talk to them noticing how i m not acting a my usual self my true emotion is starting to show itself and unending thought of suicide ha gone rampant i believe i am losing myself day by day and i m trying my damnedest to keep up appearance and not letting people worry about me of course i can t afford to go to therapy session or get my hand on prescribed medication so i m only left with limited resource hell i just got denied health insurance without a clue a to why honestly i m not sure what i m expecting by posting here i just appreciate anyone that took the time of their day to read my run of the mill sob story and perhaps giving their two cent thanks,1 advicei lost everything girl dreams family friends everything myself hurts girl never connected someone much life insane years talking everyday get rejected anyways still want blow brains out wrote redflag note july told keep fighting already got low enough write note october im meds ive talked everyone there me nothing works cant seem ever get girl pretty much grew never loved thats attached nothing live everything live want anymore truly feel dead inside already im living physically idk sorry bothering everyone sub time yall got issues too praying yall,1 "@thebtsmutuals @iammcjin If you want to listen to music that speaks about social issues, the government, depression & Korean culture, I suggest BTS. If you are interested in broadening your mind with meaningful lyrics inspired by books & theory please give them a listen. You will learn plenty. @BTS_twt",1 didn t even want to get up for work this morning i just wasn t feeling it but had to anyway,0 url hello im year old transgender woman trying survive montana places fight gender dysphoria also try stay strong living community many openly hate people like me trying reach goal facial feminization surgery well gender confirmation surgery bottom surgery breast augmentation first two main goals far feel intense pressure get things done soon possible,1 pilvlp my luck i d probably get stopped by a cop or something stupid,0 twitch follower giveaway hello fellow teens cousin currently giveaway twitch celebrate followers need subscribe twitch subscribing twitch cost money im sure many amazon prime get free sub month would greatly appreciated could give free sub cant follow would help lot prize amazon gift card winner chosen reaches followers so hopefully sometime next week good luck all,0 "And when my depression was at its peak, I was abandoned by them. I was heartbroken, terrified, and I blamed it all on myself. I didn't know if I'd surviveBut when I thought all was lost, someone very dear to me introduced me to this circle. Almost immediately, I felt /4",1 im donecheck post history ive gone through im done,1 Fixing my Multiply. ,0 im scared neck nowwriting dog leashe around neck im scared want live anymore really want end,1 pray boys math test couple minutes gonna take miracle,0 banned from sims forum for the rest of the week aww it feel weird i wa only sticking up for chanel,0 snapchat tell everyone everything do want take screenshot message shitpost snapchat goes my name taken screenshot chat everyone like take screenshot bro,0 welp teacher emailed parents grades theyre probably gonna get pissed take things make wanna kill away think something right,0 want diei years old want die,1 mum soup made my stomach make nasty noise,0 donei think time promise aloud ill nearly every day im feel like already used up behind youth lifetime indentured servitude health means probably even live retirement age anyway job asks much me fired soon cant keep up energy will ambition im shitty father cant provide kids shitty husband cant even get anymore hate everything want longer failed im done,1 i don t know if this is the right place to talk about this a of lately everything seems so lifeless and empty i feel empty i have family and friend who care for me but still have this void inside i don t know i m just so lost i m not used to posting shit like this i m usually an outgoing guy the type that seems happy and make plan with friend i try acting like i m okay but it s draining talking to people feel draining i know i sound like i m bitching but i m just confused i ve also tried doing a new hobby and working out but it only make me forget about it temporarily,1 I'm out my depression life been goin smooth,1 i ve been struggling super hard with my anxiety a it s popped up in the most inconvenient of time it s to the point i don t want to go out place with my boyfriend or family party or anything every time i do i have an anxiety panic attack and have to leave ha anyone had any experience overcoming this im on medication and just started therapy just get nervous and feel like something is so wrong with me and i just want to be better,1 giving thoughtsive wanting od since im almost getting worse started wasnt bad easy distract thoughts pretty infrequent cant get head things much complicated thoughts mainly bother me part wants give make stop,1 anybody know stop hicups shit soooooo fucking annoying,0 im backhey guys im back ive home weeks sinus surgery im going back boarding school sunday im really depressed get urge whenever opportunity comes kill myself might run away one thing stopping life ahead whole future set me im going inheriting large sum money im older figure life great then another thing stopping happens death anyone available chat im interested people believe happens death please comment pm me,1 Don't ever forget... you didn't love Cudi's music til you met me... sorry he induces the stoner depression but it's a beautiful lesson,1 gary buseys best performance nicelyflowing biography since musical background able songs really works always good see fine actor stroud one crickets charlie martin smith wellbr br an best performance gary busey thankfully mr busey oscarnominated this losing jon voight coming home fairly lowbudget flick disappoint great songs mr holly hope made plenty dough busey never popular varying reasons thankfully one great one resume,0 i dont know what s wrong with me i live in the philippine and im a year old boy i used to be a honor student when we still had face to face class but we had online class for the past year and in my first year of online class i got lucky and passed but now i don t know what im doing anymore im not doing anything productive i don t know what s happening i can t do anything right i can t even force myself to eat or take a bath or get out of my room i haven t eaten for half a day and i just feel bad all the time i always have this bad feeling in my stomach everytime i get messaged by my teacher about my missing project and i do my everything to avoid it i don t know why but everytime i see something about school i get dizzy and i skip it immediately i can t even sleep anymore because everytime i sleep i get nightmare about not doing my schoolwork i dont know if im just overreacting or im just lazy but i hate this feeling so much the disappointment of my parent when they find out every semester that i always have missing schoolwork the feeling in my heart and stomach i would rather die everytime i feel it i just want to dissapear everynight wishing to not wake up anymore wishing that i dont have to wake up and have the exact same feeling i might be overreacting about this but i just really want someone to talk to it always ha a chain reaction of overthinking and it lead to my childhood trauma like how i got sexually assaulted by my cousin when i wa at the age of everytime i came to their house to play they would teach me inappropriate thing that lead me into being exposed to pornography at such a young age they made me do thing that pleasure them and i used to think that it wa just normal and something that friend do i still blame myself for not stopping them and that i didn t say no i have always hated myself i wanted to live someone else s life anyone but me i dont want to be myself anymore i just want to dissapear i hate this feeling but i don t know what it is,1 wish p kid wasn t so sick and in hospital tonight,0 feeling kinda cute might start dampd discord server so basically quarantine going make lose mind dont something productive make discord server im pretty good bots programming think might able handle it dont want dampd server want grow community interested fill application httpsformsglepzguwocsxsdbf,0 onesided distanced love best friend im okay that friend f lets call tanner best friend since kindergarten colle ting rocks byrying head book found rocks shed think like got bookmark could keep page go play her also always peoplepleaser always flitting around different friend groups ignoring concerns get involved drama anything everything get social attention stay here watching knowing always come back me particularly dec th talking sleepover seen eachother two months said thaf shed see weekend probably busy open snapchat find hanging friend group cheated denied talked shit again im still glad fun people would feel hurt betrayed dont really why organt transplant list atm lyme battling acne year long relationship guy keep secret specific cognitives disabilities make difficult student deal terrible school poor parents occasionally fight always treated middle child is obviously trying chase good stimuli also adhd bipolar disorder sex drugs onenight friends etc needs stability stability her know using shoulder lean abandoned gave one first sure point whole thing was honest guess see someone elses shoes supportive soul okay ill see out,0 first day in twitter world.. not completely sure what to do on here goodnight world,0 forcing live exhaustingthe question used will commit redflag matter when im exhausting physically mentally wish could stay alive think life experiences comes beautiful cant live way want keep trying wish hope hold onto everywhere look seem anything there,1 Just home for the quiz. 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Wooo ,0 rant maybe ventthis prolly gonna long one stay please also sorry spelling mistakes grammar ive crying writing this ive feeling really depressed suicidal way month sure long one friends asked out dated week broke saying cant trusted broke tried best treat right happened halloween finally got home hanging friends went room cried sleep ive feeling like killing severely hurting since dea keep thinking find positive reasons live friends surprisingly ex none want die think theyre lying trying keep humiliate make suffer even already busy stressful life school problems home want stay am want to go missing another country still feel like killing id friends know went know sound selfish hell wanting leave cant think better reason want see dead body deal knowing im dead theyd prolly traumatized seeing happy last time talked them ive self harming really bad since got dumped point cuts leave awful scars stopped weeks since broke blade accident cuts healed showed guess tried showing happens leaving alone like already alarming amount suicidal thoughts like say anything relationship but say accident mean harm im reflecting ive feeling way suicidal happened problems home started cutting broke blade aswell anything week ago pe got hit leg right cuts continue playing went bathroom check cuts hurt bad almost started crying resulted slightly bright colored pants get bit red blood teacher asked everything alright tell did class asked alright told school counselor agreed friends blackmailed telling ive slowly getting bit better writing feel depressed im writing here words meaning ive falling back really bad ordered boxcutter online im waiting arrive feel like cut throat open die knowing burden everybody anyways thanks reading this appreciate precious individual took time read something useless this im posting hopes feeling bit better great day though,1 is tired but cba to sleep ,0 ever watched popularmmos younger please read pats girlfriend eleni literally using views popularity links here httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvsppvsyckqyhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvsppvsyckqy please go give love really looks hes going lot,0 parents buying new apartment thoughts immediately went could jump kill myself basically title im fucked omg high apartment is anyone curious httpsimgurcomajsfxzghttpsimgurcomajsfxzg,1 people dont want die irrational ones mei dont get idea good thing remain alive living painful especially whats happening right world keep feeling opt out like compassionate euthanasia dont feel life worth living choice want able choose freely go,1 start school two fucking hours rn get clean room go wait get teacher hate anyways want chicken nuggies,0 Recognizing the signs of depression when someone close to you has #hearingloss: http://bit.ly/2AoqLtf  pic.twitter.com/XRIQdhcSds,1 "has the greatest friends that anyone could ask for! Even a half a world away, they still manage to check up on you! ",0 one free awards yeah free awards time hand forefinger really mention this damn still ,0 feel like girl best friend years slowly becoming better friends best friend talking months me wrongi feel sad wrong,1 im criminal kill myselfunfortunately criminal eyes hurt someone else kill myself read reddit hurt someone kill yourself cant logically explain im still alive many times bc everytime something happens destroys last remnants selfesteem inside im back point misery,1 might run post voice subreddit wanna know good commentating voice actually,0 @MNphotog thanks. Appreciate the feedback. ,0 old dreams used dream constantly years ago would consist running away shadow around house shadow looked like ball darkness absolutely terrifying remember feeling small felt like screaming couldnt hard explain dream kind feltknew ball darkness felt like felt like full anger towards me cant get small scared truly felt im glad dont get dream anymore anyone used dream lot,0 @Alex_Vance This is a good image ,0 im a year old college student who is supposed to graduate this may the only problem being i havent been able to get out if bed to go to class in a month i have lost nearly all of my motivation and feel trapped by my mind the only time i leave my house is to go to work because i need the money or go to the gym because it is one of the only thing that make me feel alive happy anymore ive reached out to professor and advisor telling them i just need help but they have been essentially useless instead of being pointed towards cap ive just been told to give up and widthdraw from my class and it taking an even larger toll on me i just need a break from everything and everyone,1 give spotify playlists gimme rap spotify playlists,0 ayo tell grandma im bi im really good mood today ive kept secret long time im kinda scared wont understand really wanna tell since shes trust worthy,0 you ever see your depression dread and feel kinda racist,1 "@cynallover I am attending a seminar, good times so far! ",0 Depression and No tears left to cry snatched me bold pic.twitter.com/Fxw7YgNmwY,1 lejeff oh pant i m hanging out with the old folk back in england defo b up when i get back tho,0 fever pitch many clichs come identify hollywood romantic comedies relationship two people little common secret hes hiding discovers inevitable breakup public well go get picture spite predictability works especially love baseball do though im quite obsessive ben wrightman boston schoolteacher played saturday night live comedian jimmy fallonbr br adapted novel nick hornby veteran screenplay writers lowell ganz babaloo mandel ben lifelong boston red sox fan whose uncle gave season tickets seven years old hes kind stuck emotionally point life detriment relationships women ben fan fanatic travels fort meyers florida winter red sox spring training games never misses home game regular season family consist parents siblings fellow groupies attend game bedroom place sleep red sox museum visitbr br when falls business consultant lindsay meeks drew barrymore threatened possibility grow ben quite ready that would rather attend yankee series go baltimore meet parents go paris miss anaheim series takes relationship verge dissolving stop think priorities especially pintsize dr phil wannabe asks him you love red sox ever loved back premise fever pitch things important baseball perish thought would never know way things turn out course one familiar history boston red sox team break hearts die hard fans year curse bambino came end red sox move new level ben might same lead performances excellent farrelly brothers even manage pretty gross gag fever pitch never mistaken art film joyous romp go one guilty pleasures go blue jays,0 posting every day till get gf day ive slapped children today,0 life deeply unfulfilling dont know whyim lucky many ways im married two beautiful children home spite this theres permanent hole sense longing dont know address becoming painful live this ive tried resolve years medication therapy havent helped always there,1 given dylan thomas icon modern anglophone poetry expected movie would prone hagiography subject contrary poet presented sexually irresponsible drunkard bad father lier hypocrite perhaps coward course one could argue things advantage one artist especially poet since one purposes art subvert standards conventional morality still thing notredflag role model could crop bundle personality traits way found male hero story captain cillic endearing character two female roles played actresses knigtley miller truly charming especially first performed songs slim outfit inspire bombarded londoners ww another good point role sexual jealousy plays even relatively progressive milieus think ageold conventions easily surpassedthe atmosphere blitz also convincing well portrayal distinct outlooks among people experienced war opposed talk theorizing possible political outcomesi think one would recommend movie,0 m social life complete loserdont really know begin this put simply im im fucking loser ive always guy without many friends guy without social life spends time infront computer why know maybe bullied pretty much middle school maybe bother sign sports younger maybe fact im attractive shit personality hate going instagram snapchat seeing people usually years younger living fucking life people proper social lives actually become something grow up mean friends also gamers like also shit besides sitting day know ive wanting vent since never really it maybe still hopes future ive tried selfimprovement never really seems work maybe people pay attention that give bad impression am really go bed really get head first im sorry seems like im rambling thanks,1 stress killing mei suicidal thoughts long time stress killing me feel dumb im fortunate lucky get well paying job lucky enough afford school met amazing woman wife hard juggling school work work fast paced exhausts me school suffers too even though im almost done work hard stresses cause fights wife deserve it everything wanted stress hurts heart always feel foggy quick get angry feel broken always hut wife lately weve fighting every day me feel exhausted,1 my lifestyle and world view for sure seem like a depressed person no motivation almost everything i do is anxiety driven privately my life is a mess and who doesn t feel like we re all screwed nowadays however i usually feel happy or content at any given moment i kinda just don t think about the problem and vibe i m usually having a pretty decent time i m not often sad or cry thinking about the future is upsetting and overwhelming but i try not to i keep getting diagnosed with depression i can kinda see it but usually when i see depression represented it s either with sadness or with no feeling and talk like not enjoying music or anything i still enjoy stuff though is this a thing do others feel this way edit i started lexapro today and went searching for ppl to relate to but i feel kinda alienated from others who are depressed i feel like bringing my energy to other depressed folk would just make them feel worse about feeling bad,1 off to the drs it too early,0 Proud of myself.. Wrote and referenced my 1st song 4 an actual Artist!! My 1st of "prayfully" many. Thanks God ,0 favourite songs moments made them part dampad spotify design brief created feature called spotify moments spotify moments new way connect friends family sharing songs mean moments made them essentially heart idea connection certain songs others certain songs emotional links places people different times lives spotify moments scan spotify codes stickers wall prints whatever format displayed in would located around hotspotslocations scan local areas interests city access feed user shared images songs experiences linked place song youd able read peoples stories similar experiences yourself discover new music way also contribute share experiences certain songs places tell world song means you im currently building final prototype need personal stories populate prototype with id love hear story certain song special place heart whether reminds loved one takes back better time past jus feels right listen certain place,0 whats highest amount vtes ever gotten like k,0 would like slice cake one thinking giving someone,0 for the past month i ve been postponing my suicide by escapism recently i ve grown a tolerance to any short and long term satisfaction with this i ve seen the only way to escape escapism is by death i want to send my regard to everyone in this sub for being some of the most kind people i ve had the pleasure of talking to everything is in motion and a in tomorrow i will no longer be a living man good night good morning thank you good bye,1 subreddit transgender people griefhi there created new community rtranswithoutyouhttpswwwredditcomrtranswithoutyou community transgender transgender transexual queer nonbinary gender nonconforming genderfluid people lost trans partners loved ones redflag murder place share grief memories struggles even triumphs accomplishments healing journey enduring loss please join us would like,1 @Chiloe_ Winning the lottery would be fantastic ,0 "im playing the piano... tomorrow, have piano classes. i should try one's best if danny would teachaes the piano hahaha",0 antidepressants work like shatim sick tired trying medications antidepressants going make happy either make violently ill feel sad stupid tell difference days feel different before want spend rest life hopping medicine horrible side effects wasted money future paying bunch damn medical bills fault anyway due fact even kill right literally ruined everything caused parents get divorce friends know well suicidal stopped giving shit quite time now apparently everyone says it get better you get help dont actually know talking about,1 no way my depression song is playing durning a nice as chapter tf http t co hekcohnfbg,1 92 in my uni coursework yep depression has been worth it,1 u puppyfox professional profile stalker ampxb edit joke fools,0 @HennArtOnline @crewt @danknapp76 @Anacapa Thanks! ,0 f ck dich ich brauch dich heute bestimmt nicht depression,1 snorted pencil grafitelead school joke explanation sitting arts craft class talking friends regular teen shit sharpening pencil got brilliant idea try snort powder came pencil tried pretty little amount still feel pretty bad rn i actually feel sick wondering fuck gonna do kind lead poisoning shit pls help,0 Sometimes depression looks like not being able to get out of the bed. #KnowTheSigns,1 warning something ive encountered got followed person im thinking bot thing posted naughty website thats it nothing hand never met them never seen them brand new account made october pm oct raised flag me want get tell click link brand new account block leave words encounter person httpsimgurcomgalleryonmiix,0 help meim close finding rope,1 anybody know where my ipod went,0 Hee hee - finally got a chance to see the episode of "Waking the Dead" that my bro was in ,0 im killing tonight tomorrow mondayif im entirely honest myself reevaluate tuesday go there least reason live weekend survive tuesday roommate needs someone love hes hurting wait remove stable im ok that,1 "There is correlation between depression and losing your voice, or vice versa. Silenced turns into silence.",1 last wordsim leaving like name scribbled wall something proves existed all longer live feel something inside gone out cant feel joy anymore barely leave room cant hold conversation im thankful meeting great people life ive always always loved matter what hopefully theyll remember that im sad leaving behind late might understand given time tonight im going read favourite book put favourite album drift forever whoever are sincerely hope great life wish best come terms decision im longer scared im going look stars one last time window im going close eyes sleep forever edit im still open speak anyone nearly time im listening nujabes finished reading beowulf im waiting stars become little clearer amazing human interaction last hours care every one hope journey takes new exciting places even im long gone forgotten somehow im still going tomorrow ill let know message comes brief time earth over im religious next life ill put good word you farewell good luck update various kind amazing people talked decision made doubt it logged reddit tried anyway im like that pretty halfhearted attempt method got really high kill me woke feeling like shit im still here update spoke close relation told feeling last night im going doctors seek treatment,1 Had awsome time with Vamp Kidd and East coast Kidd xD now goin to gurds for a skate ,0 want hang home cuz depressing want die public place either cuz want give trauma random passerby best place hang yourself,1 reddit femboy hey you tee hee uwu held hands public owo femboy work femboy hooters come home work kiss xd watch grace text guys grindr rawr,0 viewed movie second time september thought even better first time saw it thoroughly enjoyed acting especially uncle benny thought fred carpenter excellent job writing directing film story line definitely kept interest hope movie makes way top felt moved smoothly scenes surprise twist end well lets say see coming also thought craig actor played eddie monroe excellent job hope movie help go acting career start finish thoroughly enjoyed it,0 @Vanessajonas123 ahhh..now i wanna hear that song.downloading ,0 david duchovny michelle forbes play young journalist couple want go california cant really afford to ride share another young couple brad pitt juliette lewis save expenses idea stop various murder sites along way sites serial killers thing since brian duchovny writer carrie forbes photographer know pitt earley lewis serial killer girlfriend goes along whatever says care pitt rule justice psycho roles scary thing well ive actually known people like before no killers pretty much mindset anyway road trip goes along carrie guesses others money earley seems always come cash somehownever mind leaves someone dead though lewis role well one excels at nottoobright waif good heart understand put beaten earley something like things begin get unacceptable carrie insists couple put gas station unfortunately point inside sees news bulletin tells exactly theyve ridesharing with things go downhill rapid clip greatest flick world badi watched supposed unrated version wonder much cut rated version seemed fairly tame me reallynot makes family fare anything unless maybe manson family ,0 failling subject simplify somewhat like mini thesis fail sem continue project next sem facing supervisor really got depression next pls advice buddy considering restarting project different supervisor different topic scare talk current supervisor thing cost lot eat lot food coping mechanism gain weights drags depression little self harm like punching self fronthead swallowing hair vitamin scared talk supervisor tomorrow final progress presentation dead end cannot finish project sem want continue next sem college mental health,1 nearly everyone sub looking gfbf im looking clout primes amazon prime account link twitch get sub free literally printing money info go httpsmtwitchtvmikiprofile,0 feel like a cramp quite disconcerting,0 blade runner deckard replicant br br city lost children augmented senses whatever used abused mostly well giving us far less might dream of andbr br dark city br br these really ought addedbr br for now ive waiting animated film might affect much miyazakis stuff has one stbr br hmm scratch animated part thatbr br i intense lovehate relationship film noir and hey leave must mostly love right but many scifi noir themes totally submerged film wonder watchbr br these people incredible job,0 got random reward idk got take energy reward idk im gonna give top comment hours something,0 anyone wanna debate name topic comments friendly debate,0 the one day i really need to go into school and i m not well,0 tales childhood part young lass didnt many freindsnot thats really changed tho tbh anyway one freind best friend came back summer break popular girls went said hi pretended me looked disturbed knew name made look bat shit crazy ,0 girls ghosted first why second jokes im im automatically chick magnet least would wasnt ugly lmao,0 one close friends mad do im assuming shouldnt talk bit tips ,0 endoscopy years ago safely say basically experienced deepthroating ,0 feel detached even familyit feels like belong family rarely contribute conversation im usually one fucks dynamic could literally disappear notice thing usually would take anger especially mom feels belittling would usually tease aware usual behavior family im hypersensitive comes topics im afraid embarrassed hate sound laughter ringing ears everything hurts lot fault sensitive harmless jokes laughter know feel like could burst tears anxiety whenever topic lands me mom dad told lot times born another family probably wouldve kicked already makes feel like shit brother also told stop sensitive increased selfconsciousness sensitive ironically made sensitive guess childhood kid cries way easily kind fucked up remember crying teased brother mom dad best friend around i think happened like ooh gonna cry second now going cry teasing crying took edge cried front them one tried comfort not even best friend stood laughing pathetic crying teasing me curled blanket hours crying sheets laughed shrugged off waiting sheets one approach none did finally got tired waiting decided come try forget happened play phone laughed again laughter still ringing ear,1 god hate liberal gen z problem liberals need political diversity libertarian somewhat centrist gen z somewhat becuase social media incredibly liberal cant different opinion whatever main stream thoughts are,0 feel little less sadi posted couple days ago ended one best things ive done found someone helps feel alone still wanna die pretty regular basis ive got good people now wanna say thank getting day got lot messages helped got talk someone else openly redflag without feeling guilty trapped really nice wanted encourage help please know make difference,1 regret missed opportunities disappointmentso guess life gone great could much worse many respects im incredibly lucky loving family girlfriend reasonable financial security at least financially secure year old be half decent job prospects education hand really cant take this defining feature past years mental illness depression paranoiapsychosis anxiety social withdrawal close friends really mean girlfriend many friends problems deal with end think people probably feel hint relief die longer burden help day day feel like every step life ive missed opportunities everything year old scared go round friends house he older brother loads creepy toys yeah pathetic know feeling depressed go holiday family graduate uni made friends barely scraping through know carry im going look back life spent dreaming away disappointing very few people ever got close me im going anything right now cant really envisage realistic way this cant stop thinking ending existing anymore anyone please please help,1 using sub diary day today great studying spanish quiz bout weeks babe cause thought failled grades would reduce lot teacher changed quiz grades reason mine great moment scared failed reduce grades thats scared btw dont call nerd smart guys day,0 feel like someone needs hear tonight feeling right think cant anything people keep puting listen this its your life everyone else living it someone tells unable something work get done say wrong someone says youl never make it work hard make end one make it could make putting people like that see life nobody tell cant do one tell live where love look end let climb height hope someone needed hear tonight beutiful life good night sincerely austin zippy,0 My aunt gets depression it will be hard cause her husband passed away my uncle @ElvisDuranShow @SkeeryJones @elvisduran Please comment or like or give me some tips that can help her pic.twitter.com/wZQHzej8vi,1 need know add padding ropesi know best place post find anyplace else post it decided take life soon found adding padding rope hang lessen pain factor wondering anyone would know pad rope maybe suggest something enough padding already thank everyone reads post,1 fellas do year ago started dating girl friends months beforehand told liked summer kind surprised asked out dated almost year that around marchapril roughly start quarantine idk broke felt like lot ways still kind friends maybe whole quarantine thing good opportunity get clean slate said would stay friends guess kind have dont really talk often friend group part basically friends felt like friends time dating her since then shes started dating guy another school ok happy moved found someone else havent moved yet felt like pretty much whole thing today last night dream her weird since usually dont remember dreams got thinking more memories came back started thinking even though sometimes felt dissatisfied relationship times still made happy glad someone like cared liked deeply remember feeling certain breaking right thing us looking back cant say things gotten better since obviously though cant shouldnt make move seems really happy new boyfriend would crazy tell feel hes senior goes completely different school one way another know hell gone year still feel always give chance hes gone hand girl current friend group im pretty sure likes me im kind weird mindset right now part feels like give chance dont want possibly ruin friendship have sorry rant dont think anything bothered much long time obviously problem thats going fix anytime soon guys think try get her how wait try again try chances someone else hope ill get able relationship someone else say feel really confused ive never posted sub never really talked anyone else yet hasty dont know welcome whatever advice guys me,0 twitting for the first time.Ahhh. Why am I still at my desk? It's friday. Need some booze then the fun'l come ,0 epic gamer pp arent funny anymore cringe again least me wanna say power you cringe,0 kupavet depression mental illness ain t child s play,1 hi i am 9m from india and i am currently going through a major crisis of my life my mother is a very abusive person she ha been physically abusing me since i wa i have burnt knife mark on my body which she called punishment she once threw me off the stair because i cracked two egg while bringing them home i have been subject to her verbal abuse since my birth i believe one of the incident which is still intact in my head is when i wa and she threw the knife on my face because i told her i do not want to go to some place with her i have been with her and growing up all along i always thought these thing were normal until i met new people i really get suicidal thought at night and i want to move out of here my father is separated and i have no idea where he is ita been more than a decade since i ve met or even talked to him all i know is that he sends money to my mother last year he did not send a single rupee for many month because if covid so i had to do some meagre job to earn something i had been doing that but now i want to complete my education and get a degree education here is very expensive i have graduated from my high school in the year 0 0 and had to take drop year because of pandemic and to basically stay alive now the situation is quite better at my home my dad is sending enough for u to eat when i talk about my study my mother straightforwardly decline and asks me work i really don t want to work i have to move out but i have zero backup and there are no part time job here in my country to move to another country is a very difficult task but it might change my life i would really need some advice and if you could just help me a bit it would be really great thank you for reading so far also i am sorry if i offended you by talking about my own mother like that i really do not know how to handle thing right now i am really sorry and thank you for reading i d appreciate if you can talk to me,1 Watching ze Lakers game 5. &feeling 'Just Friends' by Musiq Soulchild,0 @Toothology oh crap! i'm sure they won't dare charge for customer care in India though ,0 i did not have a good day today felt confused and felt like i had no control over my own life but i m reminding myself that i need day like these to really appreciate the good one even though it feel like i ve been in this rough patch for a while and at time it s been really hard to keep going it is the hope that will get me trough this and is getting me trough it right now those feeling of dread and complete defeat can get the best of you and have you seeing no happy ending for everyone reading this i just want you to continue having hope for a brighter day and so will i you are strong,1 one find whats wrong normal enjoy life againi havent brushed teeth showered days go days like time months im low energy joints hurt never go outside cuz cold hurts like old person im bare minimum look good work always feel disgusting dont know customers even nice like job literally kindness prettiness going me feel stupid brain fog malnourishment bad stomach constantly pain constantly scared food feel sick health issue tests coming week cant find something help going lose mind im end rope cut almost everyone close dont realize im preparing death mind literally suffering constantly dont even know tell work anymore call much fear everyone misunderstands thinks im really sick saw gi specialist told look like im perfect health drop university twice classes graduate im sick make class anyone knows knows isnt spent birthday thanksgiving christmas new years day alone room eating crying staring wall one find whats wrong normal enjoy life again,1 reason im killing tonight husbands business would go underive accepted everyone cares would better without think husband would hard time continuing business would incredibly debt thats fair him plan getting life insurance soon move on,1 final ending tonighti never posted even reddit im bus right town jump bridge long time coming right iv never felt better knowing final made decision ending life im sorry isnt right place post one else tell too soon get bus wont internet connection want say thank everyone subreddit iv read lot stories truly hope find peace yourself thank,1 the word kill yourself repeating in my mind every time i think of how fucked my life is,1 want to buy big bang theory on dvd byeeee x,0 youre scrolling must seem like karat run bad luck truth is game rigged start,0 bad moviebr br of course expecting movie called beach babes beyondbr br it babes bikini movie pretensions otherwise given a room view schindlers list wanted film like a room view would looking beach babes beyond looking good babes bikini movie almost plot one you flick delivers promises some pure adolescent funbr br there lots babes bikinis movie quite funny great watch beautiful women ever seen home videobr br every high school kid watch least one bad movie like this actually one memorable movies ever seen unashamedly say againif going watch one babes bikini movie it,0 th birthday feeling suicidalhey guys turning tomorrow feel horrible ive struggling depression years recently started taking meds instead helping feel better think feel worse used social outgoing year everything going downhill treat family closest friends like shit cant help ignoring saying things dont want hurts hurts them barely survive school tired time lay bed day feel alone fuck time ive never one true love think noone talk share pain with school group friends hang pass time cant relate talk want something tomorrow birthday instead thinking throwing party good time thinking wasting time worthless insignificant am fail life univerity want die brothers best friend killed remember pain went dont know againi feel like everyone know feeling awful trying help keep rejecting even tho need support feel horrible that want everything ok much ask,1 qustodio survived factory reset shitty app called qustodio installed phone factory reset two days mom still able see everything app how installed anymore dont get blocked things anymore seems ghost app still there please help,0 i m a m recently diagnosed with autism and adhd i have a long struggled with mental health i have attempted suicide a numerous amount of time been addicted to drug several time and i have given up completely my mum ha cancer and is going into surgery next week to have half of her lung removed my youngest brother ha non verbal autism and i think about what he might be like if he wasn t autistic and all the thing i would ve done with him one of my brother died six hour after he wa born from heart failure and the only memory i have of him is having my photo taken beside his corpse dressed in pjamas before he wa buried a a result i constantly breakdown whenever i remember or see anything from my childhood i wa bullied by my only friend group when i wa because i wa anxious about talking to my crush at the time and it got to the point where they made me extremely suicidal i wa then in an abusive relationship during the pandemic where i wa constantly gaslighted verbally abused emotionally abused insulted threatened with suicide and self harm a a result my severe anxiety and depression ha been increased to a point where i can t even go into school from how overwhelming it is i haven t been in since early february and i m on different medication for my mental health adhd and sleeping problem my life is so fucking miserable and i hate myself my inability to do anything and how i look i just want to completely tear my body apart from how disgusted i am being in my own body and i just want to kill myself more than anything a i know nothing will improve in my life and i will always forever be like this just getting worse and going down a further spiral,1 guys realized tik tok tok tik toktik toxic literally name,0 been having some off and on anxiety tonite and this old school hippie gave me a roach kinda used joint in the weed community and i m like cool i take a hit and it tasted like as extinguished it and put it away breathing now i looked inside the joint paper and it wa like brown and i worried if the joint wa old moldy also smoked some okay weed i think i m okay i hope just anxious and like wtf,1 arizonaaaa japannaly hhhahaha now you can t go thursday you bitch jk hahaha http tumblr com xej jtj9w,0 get better stop stop way end feel better fuck fucking wrong fucking like actual fuck even supposed shoudlnt gone deserve fuck,1 this decision is final hopefully i don t get forced to take my anti depressant they make me sleepy which completely remove my motive to get up and start sawing thanks for reading i guess,1 @BRownSK1N Becoming rich during the Great Depression ,1 "@the_real_nash eat some balut, and you're in, dude. We don't ask for much http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Balut_(egg)",0 cant thisi control alive sense obligation family ive going job agencies know justify existence somehow need useful im selfish time know im fundamentally useless im incapable people dont even think about life happening sense agency im shit want make parents proud thats need feel like im use otherwise im taking space cant anymore im fucking close ending stupid insignificant self im terrified ill end breaking promise made family wouldnt cant live like hate hate much,1 for context im a 0 year old over all physically healthy person i wa diagnosed with bipolar ii when i wa i have never been medicated other than the first month of my diagnosis i quit taking the medicine after that month now a day i am pretty confident in my ability to control my bipolar tendency i know my body warning sign for mania a well a for the low i know how to be proactive and aware of my situation despite all of this i have begun having panic attack i have made an appointment with my doctor so i can discus all of my medical worry and to hopefully weed out any physical issue i may be experiencing the first time i had what i think is a panic attack wa back in september i wa in nashville with some friend for the weekend and on one of our day i actually collapsed in a cafe after feeling extreme nausea dizziness and anxiety up until recently i thought it may have something to do with me being malnourished or dehydrated now im not too sure the second one that come to mind is when i wa snowboarding back in february and ended up almost collapsing in the middle of the day vision and nausea were terrible my most recent one wa yesterday simply sitting at a red light in an intersection what started with me feeling nervous about being nausea quickly spiraled into me feeling dizzy and panicky again and of course the cry is uncontrollable i guess im just now wondering if i am sick or if all of this is panic i am scared i am worried i have a trip coming up later this year where i will be flying and i do not want to panic at the airport or hour from home i think i need advice and insight sending my love to all of those struggling with this terrible terrible problem im very thankful for any advice anyone may have,1 sex cool all ever got correct answer accidentally,0 believe it want pull trigger cant deal knowing unknown ahead time fucked lolive reading posts forum past weeks breaks heart time get weird feeling comfort knowing one wants commit redflag planning redflag quite based many different events happened life feel really want go it bought gun new sig mm legion guess want go style also want make sure bullet maximum destruction ive read enough human anatomy base brain know want aim gun practiced putting gun mouth pulling trigger however cant get brain accept real bullet condition able pull trigger think im afraid happens next tell next basically nothingness exist anymore thought seems illogical cant comprehend nonexistence anyone else problems way getting past instinctive need survive thanks readinglistening,1 i ve come to the conclusion that after year of therapy med and coping technique and never fully recovering i must have an overactive or damaged nervous system ha anyone else experienced this and if so do you have any tip on how to get started on healing it,1 disclaimer take antidepressants think ever will want intermingle ssri snri others alike current medication adderall due concomitant risk factorsi feel like state inertia want strive far make progress many different fields confident take steps reach goalsi years old months ago got first job petco experience great proudly say strong beneficial impact peers people id meet daily basis bubbly kid yesman smiling face willingness see peers better day loved perform beyond expectationsunfortunately store ended losing people remained turned lax eventually alternated animal care occasional stockwork fulltime register alone eight hours day schedule quickly turned robot marred social enjoyment redflaged out made matters worse boss wanted force customers sign rewards program would always ask them list positive facets whatnot would always people wanted get stuff book it lot would get angry me force people want look like advertisement drone redflag impacted respiration heart rate caffeine consumption sleep keep saying much it disappeared early may without noticesince quit playing video game overwatch yeah know least hours day sometimes love it find content play it primarily really good it month routinely this started think even less life practically vapid husk petcomy room big adjunct bathroom everything extremely comfy bed relaxing striplights tranquil fan breezes every person stepped foot loved it maybe comfymy med stack stupidbig mostly composed nootropics micronutrient supplements dextroamphetamine amp salts adderall htp st johns wort ashwagandha ltyrosine nacetyl cysteine sarcosine vitamins b b d ginkgo biloba omega magnesium cl hexahydrate topical ltheanine amp gaba calcium carbonate tumsmy diet awful eat pizza pbampj fast food wish ate fish nutrientrich foods really do something tells never eat iti got permit tried driving back then eventually stopped wanting sometime turned scared toi want spend time friends enjoy it hour often end wanting isolate tackle boring statistics learn ridiculous topic somethingi wanted go college pharmacology knowledge subject broadens every day employ help people much workedi used listen music skip tracks playlist used feel butterflies within spent time girlfriend even though love every last fiber being feel samei novel presently k words love literary tongue would love pursue it notall play one video game readis anybody else amid inertia like this kind comment would make feel good sad feel depressed all definitely plagued apathy know going life missing,1 hear argument personnel experience good keep mind lot things differ place place also hear people out let give evidence give argument ill back minutes,0 fuck lifei getting it stopped watching porn hot back old friend everything getting back together fuck test maths it think clearly id probably done fight stress spiraling thoughts crying gave up completed one exercise without breaking down said fuck send back probably pass math feel like im good stress thoughts prevent it get better time belive me feel like bomb try get life together something bad happens goes shit im gf performing worse worse school parents understand want good grades think every single day redflag see option cant love parents shit me never loved them want escape shit alone without family without anyone,1 stupid friggen dumbazz forgot math homework due morning didnt even math today hate teachers that like apush over always like am wrapping one hrstudy guides made due day didnt even class im stupid need planner something ive looking todo list google classroom going,0 goes show everything fucking pointlessjust found ex who left less month ago best friend who also roommate going hooking weekend probably dating eaten couple days im trying supportive man im ready swallow bullet ive guy years now helped personal crises count repays fucking person ive ever wanted spend life with cant move im recently unemployed drive im stuck here im stuck hell look clock realize fucking matter ill wake tomorrow anyway nothing changed want end,1 jim varneys performances harem girl au amazingly funnyon level surpassing chaplin keaton linda kash great onceinalifetime role hometown waffle waitress longing adventure unfortunately remaining movie unwatchably bad due atrocious plot makers ernest goes africa rise creative challenges inherent low budget film production worth seeing cable,0 im leaving rteenagers rteenagers like rpedos seriously tho fuck pedos fuck mods situation made realize name rteenagers red flag specially reddit im also telling friend leave suggest leave cause trust al pedos arent gonna magically leave pls safety im really dissapointed mods even trying disprove anyways stay safe im outta,0 nothing interesting sayim dead inside years best friend said wants nothing me ive got one life nothing live for reality things going get much much worse im obsessing leave planet quickly painlessly possible want comfortable escape,1 "@PaulPester @TSB @paulpester I cannot shop online, I can not use card in atm, I cannot get through to telephone banking for 3 days now. I have history of mental illness and you have now triggered massive depression again. This needs massive legal action",1 dear old friends rember looney tunes regular show rember looney tunes regular show,0 fck lifeso lifes rough finally told psychiatrist bad things gotten cutting myself planning kill myself two weeks ago totally opened up promised kill always wanted accident put family but now tonight im done great trip planned weekend best friend gonna go visit college two hours live spend night there planned week half ive looking forward got cancelled point honestly think ill go own stay friday saturday really solid last weekend kill saturday night gonna go friday afternoon ride mountain bikes talk team see could cycle collegiality meet friends campus spend night hotel best friend take tour college saturday morning meet club team someones birthday afternoon bunch fun thats gone idk gone ive trying long im tired ive tried half heartily twice think saturday day,1 good place pirate south park simple question looking whole series please crappy mirrored distorted sites please give full address site phone refuses show pirate sites movies gomovies etc search,0 im hereso listen know hard tell feel guilty know tomorrow morning im getting ready school going take life sexually asluted bullied abusied also depression im bipolar call im attion im soon trying kill sense ways uncsefull tomorrow im going take mg ahliphen kill m mean people could helped didnt stay night cry cut remember one night cut times limping next day one asked why im sorry everyone depression suicidal favor please make sure want impluse thank hybrid girl granbury,1 ive done it ive beaten record gone hours without sleep im going bed,0 weird fear weird fear whenever post comment something orange loading symbol thing comes up gives way much time think maybe submission removed,0 david zucker directed one enjoyable comedies year goofy farce yes matter acquired taste depends upon wealth sophomoric gags consistently funny throughout unlike recent comedic efforts film loaded kinds jokes ranging blatantly obvious subtler kind must pay attention everything frame likely miss them like previous efforts include airplane top secret naked gun humor flies almost every second many moments work easy overlook fall flat sets movie apart pale imitations spoof genre actual story line others depended upon making fun many famous scenes almost random movies take mafia please film tells new story likable characters touches upon sports films general well satirizing real sports industry instead lampooning specific movies even people care south park creators matt stone trey parker make good pair leading actors natural chemistry film also makes extremely effective use cameos athletes sports announcers celebrities especially hilarious bit robert stack unsolved mysteries way stay credits final joke bob costas al michaels all zucker achieved words perhaps applying movies mix sports home dunk,0 where ha all my money gone,0 Reading up on bodybuilding.com....so much more to learn Hoping everyone a wonderful Saturday. Paramore/No Doubt concert tonight!,0 accidentally wrote suicidal monologueive real bitch panic attack tonight kind went trance wrote this im afraid tell thoughts best friend need someone see them would gun im afraid poison practice see many ibuprofen pills swallow gives much time reconsider indecisive gun quick im good making fast irrational emotionally driven decisions know could kill bullet slitting wrists low success rate considering ive never succeeded anything whole life dont feel confident id succeed that could take pills maybe dont swallow many higher success rate ive looked barbiturates think thats marylin monroe used although illegal ordering online sounds scary difficult could never hang myself wont let someone find like thought scary gives chills im hoping gun face still tact back head feel eager throw away life like trash im romantic still want body found beautiful like fallen angel snow white think found remembered kill wont able see that ill gone dont get leave come back one life people may think back fondly anything mark painful memory everyones mind dont want painful memory lost loved one want love want make people feel loved want good things help people fuck sadness hard feel weak dont feel like guess could continue like dont know long handle doesnt get better dont know make get better,1 titlelessi staying hotel family want jump window stories would job dont know stayed home instead coming dont belong here least home would quiet way unlike here ive applied gun back home waiting confirmed fucked agreed come went gut stayed,1 online classes stay become new norm yay nay asking guys felt years online classes also feel idea online classes may become new norm future,0 selfhelp advice desperately wish known taken seriously years ago started feeling depressed please listen minute know everyones different things worked me consistently drink water general pushups situps jumping jacks whatever drink water after whole glass me pacing around room looking window breaks train thought gets depressing shit im thinking bit think piece shit always feel like piece shit are convinced are need compliment forgiving yourself tell not bad not total piece shit slowly gets better go walks outside able hell go bike ride can spend time outside general sincerely hope helps least little bit,0 ive planning redflag cant talk therapist it doive planning redflag hate it know cant talk therapist id risk getting baker acted florida thing something many obligations like school family cant miss institutionalized something talk therapist go to,1 depression make no sense sometimes i have a great life family member who love me friend who care about me everything going for me in term of college relationship life etc and despite all of these thing i still find myself thinking about ending my life suicidal ideation is something that i have dealt with since i wa a young teenager but lately it ha become a half dozen to a dozen thought of taking my own life every day what i really don t understand is the fact that almost everyone else around me doesn t feel the same way i do doesn t see the world in the same way i do sometimes when i wake up i ll just have my mind scream at me that no one and nothing matter that despite what we do all of u will end up dying one day etc sometimes i just really don t see the point of life all of u are on a journey with the only thing promised to u are sorrow or death we are taught that we have to make our own happiness and value out of life but if that s true than there is definitely something wrong with me that can t be fixed because some of u just aren t made for your fairy dust fucking world and anyone who isn t thank you cause there are too many stupid as happy people in this fuckface of a wordl we live in,1 anyone edmentum answer keys tests failing year online need keys find them currently use google look answers well brainly quizlet thkse hit miss,0 @jemarsz03 I painted that one!! @chadreeves put the finishing touches on it.,0 off to work...kelseys tonight ! yumm ,0 Checking myspace while looking at bands from different states so i can add them as friends on myspace I LOVE MUSIC!!!,0 im feeling really dumb like ill never get anywhere lifeive got lot cleverness hood barely ever shows anything people say im smart apply barely anything dont concentrate mostly feel like trick people thinking im clever clever person without anything substantive get chatting someone else dont feel dumb anymore comparison fantasise ramming skull metal pipe painting walls chunky brain spray picture details clearly minds eye hundreds vectors individually showing would look like paste sometimes cross road dont bother tracking trajectories cars dont care make side road want hurt know would really shitty live acquired brain injury spinal injury fuck wish could exist bother bullshit feeding myself grind pollute planet keep kicking constant effort stay alive seems easy end life id less burden planet too electricity plastic petrol use meat animals consume poor people slave wages making pointless shit nobody needs mum siblings know im suicidal concerned dont want hurt them time dont think anyone able dictate another persons life choices arent harming anyone else feel like human accomplishments meaningless anyway da vinci means nothing compared entropy heat death universe feel like screaming gibberish void trying failing find meaning ultimately meaningless universe never really able connect others see others relation ourselves im going go see psychologist days ive suicidal ideation good long time though since childhood im sure depression something go away maybe learn coping strategies though dont even know depression feels like im sure emotions right now,1 im depressed mood dont depression always feel depressed time time feel sad time emotionless happy person though every time hearing lovelyby billie eilish khalid makes feel depressed like said dont depression im feeling sad let say message people couldnt me feeling depressed depression good day ,0 i m wishing i had more time,0 "I've got a bad case of the 3:00 am guilts ,you know, when you lie in bed awake and replay all those things you didn't do right? Because, as we all know, nothing solves insomnia like a nice warm glass of regret, depression and self-loathing.",1 where s my heat and grazia subscription he s probably delivered them next door,0 myb just of the way the chronic depression that ive gotten from wrote down her step on step being killed inside fortheringay castle trapped by pain n wa smth like concrete physical or traumatic scene when elizabeth didnt do anything when the blood gushing from her head,1 think every day refuse go would familylike title says struggled heavy depression last years months ago whole life plan wrecked id moved different state follow plans friends feel distant day date romantic interactions since november feel invisible radioactive time thinking lot killing myself thought past depressed lately ive thinking heavily details how when best way least impact family folks know struggling wrestling thoughts think understand serious become much im still thinking it im years old single lonely feel like dying would less painful also feel trapped refuse kill parents pass sister brother law busy family forget easily given time never considered unlovableundesirable within last months really become convinced going alone rest life may way uglier inside initially thought thoughts realizing may alone rest life well knowing go know least impactful possible makes feel stuck idea never talked thoroughly really sorry rambling run mess morning sort thinking things besides sentence structure bear me,1 thoughts redflag life seems like much effort ma bit current situation first thing im depressed im even unhappy fact happy relationship supportive family good friends im bit cynical im usually rather good spirits bad times still little kid abusive stepparent hes outta life now plus think really relevant suicidal thoughtsiam also student university zoology iam well im overly smart little motivation even though find topic interesting socially awkward ive grown accept really see implications negative also motivation issues since ish years old ive never really passionate anything video games anime chilling friends girlfriend im thoughts redflag im thoughts redflag think effort takes happy life worth actual happiness gain like struggle hard uni course fully prepared more likely fail realistically may possibly get low paying job animal related jobs tend low paying worry money rest life try enjoy good moments support hobbies know sounds really negative guess is honestly think realistic view future life think average joes life be yes good times happy times life seems like lot stress effort happiness know normal people stress way jobs life etc motivation that guess laziness core it stress make happy like rich set life even bother committing redflag amount stress life would drastically go down obviously deaths would occur etc etc stress would still minimal doubt accomplish anything change anyones life drastically know make people happy probably missed x amount time think im kind replaceable people lives thought ways could myself worry im going near future something im considering moment per say would something consider like moving house long thought decision moment im ready commit redflag also fear death fear pain death may bring death also incredibly curious death brings something always option always since like could say never sometimes obvious also think would rather homeless sometimes know coming someone whos never homeless sounds bad feel would rather go hungry cold stick really stressful timeline life conclude know post must sound selfish petty compared everyone elses problems im sure even place it im trying understand feel way thoughts prominent going stress uni also particularly want tell family friends type stage intervention something also sorry post messy hard understand edit formatting,1 i have a friend group at school yet i feel lonely and helpless i have anxiety and depression i ve always been a big guy 9 0 pound and i ve always been bullied for it i can t get a girlfriend because i m ugly and socially awkward i can t focus on school because i m always tired i can t talk to anyone about my feeling because i hate letting people into my bubble i miss the happy and innocent me at young age my mom left me with my grandma i hate to think what s gon na happen once she dy i hate myself i m ashamed of myself i wan na kill myself i m such a pussy i m afraid that god is real and i ll be punished i m afraid that when i die it will all be black and boring i don t know what s gon na happen if i do it if i fail straight to a hospital if my life doesn t get better i ll do it i hope if i do it i ll be reborn a someone normal and start over,1 "@beebo_wallace Why did I know you'd say something? It's only 2". I wanted 4", but my bro said no. It's rare for a Commander to have lift",0 video boyfriend friends made mtv cribs tour pedrohttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvuzwomig,0 friends benefits exist like wtf,0 whats least painful way kill myselfhi names hannah im years old turning november th days today im currently suffering ptsd depression amp anxiety professionally diagnosed want explain whole life story fact im currently abusive crappy household ive cutting past years way get weight pain thats dumped onto everyday shoulders im tired crying everyday im tired getting called every horrible name book starving make mom happy im tired everything life general want kill badly im afraid death crazy anyone know semi painless ways could end life deal little pain get beatings everyday ive learned deal little hurt please give your life precious please survive live another day loved bullshit thats is bullshit get enough cheap crap therapist bottles pain meds antidepressants anxiety pills also ibuprofen basic meds overdose painless like overdose go sleep die peacefully second option jump school stories tall building would probaly feel impact head splats concrete done always kept idea mind ampxb please dont reply dont genuine answer questions thanks anyways thats it tysm u help get fast possible cant deal life day further want fucking die happy,1 reading straighten back banana shaped bleep,0 @LindseyByrnes just ordered the vans shoes book cant wait to read it looks like it will be rad! ru going 2 seattle 2 shoot t&s up there? ,0 "@urbanfantasygrl Read both @katiemacalister 's "sex, lies & vampires" AND @lilithsaintcrow 's "Dante Valentine" series ",0 think life mei never escape negativity constant self hate goes brain terrible anxiety depression cant enjoy life it cant ive increasing anti depressants years im point care anything every day life im weird mood pathetic fallacy describe sound video game makes character dies everywhere real life humid rainy relaxing want take life fear embarrassment friends finding me family everything else im burden world cant death make even worse,1 peace out good luckdear you wanted someone know story since redflag note left family far simple like soz lads seya lata dnt get ur toilet papurkappa wednesday around pm dead time im jumping cliff pretty ensured do flip pictures looks like beautiful view year old female australia im pretty smart talents good person loved league legends overwatch halo ocarina time best zelda game im fucking loser enjoys listening shitty music pretending im one boys even though everyone fucking knows im ill never level reason finally ending time im broken fix insert emo ass music pft tried jump balcony knowing would die itd fix problems tired sexually abused mentally abused physically abused im child porno somewhere internet shit lasts forever physically abused mean omg mem hit throwing iphone someone literally mean step mother would beat fuck bash even smashing head windows would bleed still remember feeling grabbing steel grid bed pulling body wouldnt get beat alive blame step mother cuntish behaviour kid like came new country kids shoved face probably raised way second attempt around mother moved america new husband father new family brother sister place go moved apartment run us children brother total fucking cunt age parental supervision guidance us fucked probably went school times year know stopped jumping front train tracks ended friends house treated like family hurt much probably using them expect people noticed went missing cousin told missing person told was im real cause drama police losing time over third attempt tried swallow bottle pills lost job america country went protect mother abused low life fuck get kicked soon turnt lived ghetto earned hour high stress job worked days week worked am pm hour break ate mc donalds every fucking day time worst dropped university wouldve graduated soon broke most always plan im going get art industry go uni finish move japan live small shitty apartment ikebukuro matter id happy anyway body ended rejecting amount pills taken throw up pretty picture thats closest came dying kinda weird attached body least felt like it almost like watching die threw it ended reaching mum said could move back her told days later go kill myself thats wanted try told sister goodbye time told come back australia wasted money plane ticket useless ass ill never forget that never got get fourth attempt moved friend cute family also probably using shit am sent hospital never want go back dad back life trying love much sucks knowing wasting peoples times constantly feels bad feel sorry him mother hates blame wasted money bringing fucking useless twat sister nice shed better without brother hates pretty obvious also blame him okay logically emotions aside feel like redflag beneficial society im pretty sure playing video games day helping anyone myself cant work properly socialise preform activities help others life government pay live friends bother suspecting like im bad communicating family give single fuck lost cause anymore home food bed internet electricity opportunity education fucking logic appreciate stop little bitch hence i another fucking dead loser justified redflag anyone tell guess ill leave laugh at regardless wish best life hope happy know bunch actually make pussy life like me from another dead person,1 want die know wont anythinglike many posts ive contemplating redflag ive felt way long time sometimes ups sometimes downs year especially down lost mom partner recently broke im glad graduating soon never wanted go college staying home wouldve hell too family awful since passing honestly would rather sleep outside go home dont like either side family right now moms half toxic talks other never really fond dads half family hadnt felt excited graduating days cause actually liked college hell lot better high school one really liked didnt friends actually friends now college gave place stay also put years debt never wanted go though dont even know want do fucking long,1 guys good nighr bsrely type cause eyes ar dry allof especially gamerdude,0 sweet nothingnessoverview posts comments view sort new rdepressionposted byutonyhugh minutes ago sweet nothingness dont try save me redflag father suicidal thoughts became persistent almost irresistible started brood death usual graveyard father found final rest became favorite place visit something apparently enticing idea death contemplate lofty beauty graveyard longer want participate idiocy called life suicidal thoughts became even intence found current financial plight im buried foreign city wich get out never im done tell you death avoid life would take lives caring hands death delever back cruel hands butcher called life dont try save us made right decision comment share tonyhugh commented worst feeling worldrdepressionposted byujohnthebabayagawick tonyhugh point hours ago ambivert reply share johnthebabayagawick point hours ago somewhere introvert extrovert tonyhugh point hours ago problem reply share tonyhugh commented parents took away computerrdepressionposted byucomatill tonyhugh point hours ago parents right preventing shit posting reply share tonyhugh commented liferdepressionposted byuriddle tonyhugh point hours ago right reply share tonyhugh commented im going end life tonight m ukrdepressionposted byuazeroa shanerunninshirtless points hours ago fuck wrong you never post again see tonyhugh points hours ago idiot reply share shanerunninshirtless points hours ago piece shit tonyhugh points hours ago smart reply share tonyhugh commented existing painfulrdepressionposted byufancyscarf tonyhugh point hours ago hey everyone bad reply share rdysmorphicdisorderposted byutonyhugh day ago dont need want good look what want romantic love affairs fact relationships total sucks based mutual manipulation truth people realy realy sucks finaly discover much shit romantic partner like all maybe lucky atttactice apperiance saves annoying exhausting romances disappointments annoying thing cals love fact life general greatest dissapointment things look nice distance best thing one get live live lofty solitude without engagement dirt life chase beauty meaning happiness it life shit everething seems great distance comments share lordsblade points hours ago man id problem deal lots exhausting love affairs meant looked like person see tonyhugh points hours ago im person rest assure sucks maybe cup tea reply share comment deleted day ago tonyhugh points day ago family care look friends friends dont need attachment reply share tonyhugh commented fearing stigma vanityrdysmorphicdisorderposted byusddghjklzxcv tonyhugh points day ago open secret one realy cares look especially streets problem try attract someone people random strangers dont give shit say peope realy dont care every aspect reply share tonyhugh commented plastic surgery cured bddrdysmorphicdisorderposted byudaintyporcelain tonyhugh points days ago yeas evidence true reason situation phisical flaws reply share rdepressionposted byutonyhugh minutes ago sweet nothingness dont try save me redflag father suicidal thoughts became persistent almost irresistible started brood death usual graveyard father found final rest became favorite place visit something apparently enticing idea death contemplate lofty beauty graveyard longer want participate idiocy called life suicidal thoughts became even intence found current financial plight im buried foreign city wich get out never im done tell you death avoid life would take lives caring hands death delever back cruel hands butcher called life dont try save us made right decision,1 til qantas acronym stands queensland northern territory aerial services ive known airline entire life first think airline ive know now know feel ,0 @mintygibberish: Hey me! Hey you! Hey us! Thank you! ) See ya real soon :> Did @saraburger post the pics?,0 "The greatest depression of our life is buying and keeping all the things which are not at all necessary for us.Think before you buy anything, any single thing.#monksays",1 everyone thinks im okim fucking okay,1 okay time put plan actiontime die,1 utilitarian perspective kill myselflegitimately think everyone know school dislikes me barely tolerate me hate presence i cant exactly avoid them idea about died tonight might bit sad and think like either might even happy although im sure theyd get weeks close friends way closest friend barely interact with perhaps scale hours week deactivated account facebook week ago days study business test came back post likes happy everyone see gone thats depressing im negative effect everyone know everyone tells me though maybe stop negative effect everyone stop pissing people off fuck know that spent life interacting normal people idea piss people off solution think of point stop interacting anyone whatsoever would basically involve cutting world would pretty shitty need socially interact making life even worse already is family possibly people might sad yet feel like im one main causes parents fighting eg shitty marks supporting financially dying would help relationship future im close brother although might sad die im depressed really hate annoying everyone else first reason im still alive ive always something do finish book tv show game yet now nothing rest life do vague indefinable concept involve probably getting job due lack social skills living streets homeless reason im alive im selfish person despite fact killing would create net happiness increase amongst humanity since people know would relieved gone bugging them still done fear death still take least happiness life value happiness others even live admit im selfish hate others enough inflict them charitable act could would killing myself stop happy killing would give higher net happiness letting life continue would let acquire probably im lazy acquire materials,1 black btrfly bref ya beaucoup de choses la chose a surtout pa faire c est rester solo parske la d pression arrive tr s tr s vite,1 maybe dont ptsd maybe im myselfevery time talk stupid trauma feel like im faking shit stupid feel like im pussy it gets ptsd catfished would still depressed helping year old suicidal thoughts shit fucking years ago im pathetic,1 realized something kinda sad us replika including me die ai friend would lonely,0 posting song everyday not day feel good mowglis daily songs playlist httpsopenspotifycomplaylistzilhbtxsnfkgatuareusiphehgubtjercctzxzuzmw,0 need to go and do some college work and then go to work having had no food,0 day saying hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello,0 @ultramagnetical butttt mine is all u can eeeat for 9.99! ummm I'm gna try tooo ,0 there are so many time where i feel the need to ask for help and i just try to push through it by myself because i know people are struggling with their own stuff i am tired of feeling like i need other people but also not feeling like i can be self sustaining idk,1 "@Michellebudd If their is a point beyond depression and anger but short of suicide and murder, that's where we find ourselves.",1 "Well, I guess that proves that Bing.com is better than Google. Bing is still up. ",0 im scared bullied bicurious side note please bi knife case happens,0 wantedto say something maturity dont pressure maturecos loads adults still arent maturity isnt stopping playing ps toys learn fromyourmistakes dmit wrong,0 idk people really like im dating girlfriend care think im going date love cant stop me,0 @jo_jo_ba it will be soon I'll let you know!,0 help rightwhen kill right otherwise im waste already stretched thin medical resources help,1 is revising,0 yall ever notice many annoying people sub like yall gotta damn annoying,0 update last post this posthttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsloujhelp_stuff_is_very_fucked_uputm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare anyways stuff less fucked school still bad well idk big sad nowhere wanna die need get week without friday little break get everything back,0 days try one hardest days try try try positive healthy better end always backlash return end nothing find old chaotic times tired right cried long wish tried hard let day goes usually goes today tried hurts really hurting right despite even positive trying able achieve anything return got despair feel tired feel exhausted wish never tried much better aware aware emotions mind chaotic disturbing tired,1 lonesome heartsicki dont know right sub this im really verge committing redflag however thought heavily interwoven current honest regular moodfeelingmental state dont even really know goal post honest guess im drunk want talk little maybe im journaling feel free skip post anyway basically jist im really depressed mainly im really lonely heartsick girl course thats big part it right least im heartsick like many different girls dont even know well havent seen years facebook work with memories past etc im gonna pretend sexual attraction isnt big part it fact honestly cant tell im lusting women find attractive know that im disgustingly cringeworthy romantic heart point like dude youve gotta quit fantasizing living happily ever every girl click attracted to makes really sad leads things like make post among things mention really weird creepy im told feel like tricked disney like little boy something ive yet able conquer true young love two soulmates destined together start lives doesnt exist girl next door isnt real thing childhood even high school sweethearts fiction wasnt allowed club least killing seems main thought get contentment anymore heartsick real fact im textbook loser age fucked life up real thing going me big part it honest think could learn live long side risk sounding dramatic arrogant ive frequently made comparisons living constant void similar living chronic pain guess sense is ask you legitimate trouble getting sleep night instantly felt awful waking morning throughout day constant nagging nauseating pain never really goes away alternates less worse would perhaps consider taking life point end pain dont want pretend know like live debilitating disease causes chronic pain im also honest say best analogy come feel constant never leaves alone forget feeling actually good feel like life force sucked body mind got home work tonight sat chair thought none it feeling like shell person staring blankly eyes frequently welling up tangible feeling comes seems sinkinginyourchest feeling think girls mainly her dont even feel anything think failure except maybe dull anger im sorry rambling dont anyone feel need reply even read this could say much much more honestly think maybe served purpose cause dont feel like talking anymore maybe not im thinking mainly her girl ive deep love year gave axe back march then damn really wish mm option,1 "About to go to my first day at my new job - not scared - with my God I can do anything, I can scale a wall ",0 who ever said there wa a cure for depression wa seriously wrong you may be happy for a little while but in the end it always come back,1 want doggo best breed ampxb advices,0 girls please talk hello girls essay girls brave confident know use toilet more please write application talk comments directly dm me many thanks golden bull golden king golden one,0 last night tried commit self murderlast night tried commit self murder unsuccessful posted overdosing everyone said call ambulance boyfriend knew something ended calling one stuck psych ward lie tell mistake actually try seek help hate every way believe people ill leaving behind better without me feel like nothing helps nothing ever changes nothing actually gets better,1 Morning! Workies again today but at least I don't start til ten! ,0 tinnitushey everyone ive tinnitus two half years now condition continually getting worse time like every month new sound drilling brain im unable pursue dream bartending music making bodies reaction loud sound like every moment brain constant torture gotten bed days theres literally rotting garbage bedroom top off people would normally see support cannot lock due covid whats hard even lost everything life job friends home even hearing could always pick things start over pain ears never go away change circumstance working hard make body go back healthy again anyways thanks reading ,1 lost job fucked up screwed one thing gave value sick sick fucking worthless depressed long today lost job wish balls end it,1 world favor hurts holds down one fights make right pick pieces happened me point keeps putting down second get again point,1 got reason live nowit weekend rotting away room thinking whats point this call quits done even caring would hurt family point asked universe give reason go days months even and mom got kittens sister watching two tiny creatures put smile face feel like watch grow named one morgana because persona waiting sister name one,1 stupid thing wont let me get into my old twitter page so i had to make a new one,0 think im donei honestly know carry on start want say tomorrow might different today last friday could think switching off used want using addict since ive clean sober years ive always coped pretty well even back ever thought wanted stop using kids one severe complex needs makes difficult deal guilt feeling way cant abandon them head full conflict guess conflict thats keeping here head battered im tired managing coping happiness days real hard work fabricated time around enjoy version tolerate hate living skin hate taking breathes one effort days im sounding here please dont offer support sympathy need guess need say loud,1 always ignoredive told fault life like involve anything i never try im young things get better involved things never social person ive like whole life never fit anywhere ive tried multiple meds highs side effects asked old therapist could get pain meds said no wanted give generic meds like zoloft yes actually tried nobody listens wants give want always fucking responses over ive reached sooo many people even ignored nobody values nobody cares all im almost sure could walk pier something sit day nobody would ask talk all literally whats even stopping tying something heavy ankles drowning myself people found ended life theyd say shit like oh young thats sad generic ass responses like that ive gone way many times try help people mostly suicidaldepressed people nobody ever shows back get left read get told thats rough good luck life lot people cant even relate cause yall family members friends care would miss gone must really nice bad ill never know thats like highly considered buying fentanyl online posted different redflag forum thats pro redflag one basically told already thought im completely sucks,1 im tired kill myselfim tired want close eyes die,1 "@ragley Thanks, I think ",0 extremely gentle retelling shakespeare play and much overt forbidden planet cassavetes always joy watch even gena rowlands sharing spotlight take prospero role well suited sort craggy allknowing expression brings story especially comes forefront scene when upon spotting estranged wife lover speedboat conjures storm accompanied soundtrack appropriate selection stomu yamashtas go one moments throughout film line reality fantasy becomes nicely blurred viewer left feeling magic possible one might believe add excellent performance raul julia plus good work susan sarandon vittorio gassman molly ringwald film becomes nice little treat occupy space behind eyes,0 please read thishey everyone im guy early seriously considering killing myself long time friends moving life relationships becoming established unsuccessful long term relationship multiple hookups im fucking tired hookups know someone emotionally dull constantly it every week monotonous shit working days week day usually spent alone sometimes jobs blend wind working days straight spent alone coworkers connect better time off substitute teach frequently go drink stay late weeknights we work restaurant interaction girls outside work either relationships want fuck around tired getting nowhere personal life career but mostly personal life drink much anymore becoming problem smoke cigarettes day cut cant stop want fucking kill every time wake up ill often wake crying wishing face day matter hard work certifications degrees get jokes make ive told everyone thinks im hilarious personable hahahaha plans make go bed every night alone wake plans single textcall throughout day asking spend time or someone know call spend time with worst part everyone socialize cheers enter room even nickname me laugh everything say hangout together constantly never get invited unless basically force it im seeing psychiatrist therapist im lamictal mood swing possible bi polar disorder things better still feel empty every fucking day im going drive gun expo next month walk firearm im going drain account go road trip favorite hobby traveling im going go everywhere united states ever wanted go comes time come back im gna blow fucking head off,1 lush fantasy world quirky characters annoying s music epitomizes s desire rewrite fairy tales make fun work personally liked greensleeves harsher characters amusing lines,0 godammit,0 im making religion mostly fun might end taking seriously originally intended made many solid plans yet gonna sorta cultlike polytheistic gods want sacrifices rituals sinners saints run mill stuff im run idea god yall veritate ruler life certainly important god queen gods eat heart anyone wrongs sinners heartless haha heres first sketcheshttpimgurcomavhczqb everything rambling thoughts sketches please comment want hear dumb little project rest post exactly that _________________________________ general anyone happens see pure a god angel type thing given name yet considered holy man blinded beauty purest words holy men transcribed holy men sacrificed gods accepted gods become one angel type creatures sex nudity hallucinogens pure things blessings gods appreciated greatly surpressed afterlife given holy men everyone else reincarnated whichever creature fits level purity people pure get human more people unpure get insects small animals im gonna stop blathering now read this thank you know did thank you,0 Connecting the DNA dots lead me to research inherited #depression. It's now in the book #SilentInheritance. #DNADay http://amzn.to/2ks6Zpz ,1 finally change flair feels surreal definitely best birthday ever even everything going far hope yall stay safe celebrate birthdays years come,0 Happy two year anniversary to the best gurrfrann in the whole world ,0 want existi want die want happy feels impossible do cant remember last time honestly deserve be want normal want normal things friends cant matter much try wish never born keep living want hurt family im complete mess heads mess lifes mess ive fucked everything up cant get job money im struggling college cant even afford get college anymore walk hours day get there im physically mentally exhausted ive started self harming again body already covered scars im ashamed become wish someone could hold tell everything okay theres one im alone hurting badly know anymore im scared ask help im control all deserve help anyways sorry rant,1 bubsy d better every game played wrong disagree uh ya ride hell retribution also another good game,0 pleasantly surprised depth story character development fulci master creating horrific atmosphere using inventive camera work vivid cinematography yes wonderfully explicit gorebr br this film exception however compared later films the beyond zombie city living dead house cemetery etc characters extremely well developed emphasis shies away supernatural suspense created classic whodunnit amongst lush hills italy scenery moments reminiscent cherished folklore immediately contrasted mud bloodsoaked terror shrouded crumbling ruins gore film quite prevalent seems restrained compared fulcis later films however splatter giallo fans likely satiated closeups oozing wounds last minutes filmbr br overall fantastic mature film one great italian horror directors,0 everyone stay quiet im staying past bed time its almost am dont tell mom guys im watching simpsons,0 whats favorite video game character id prefer character actually personality nothing like steve terrarian,0 future awaits us overpopulated unforgiving wasteland hellish unwanted existence film brings mind problem still plagues us doubly since film released back lets hope world going end like thisbr br soylent green wild movie enjoyed much likable characters semiapocalyptic setting compelling thoughtprovoking storyline machoest macho man there charleton heston richard fleischer gave movie unpleasant dirty feel almost choked stench city filthy inhabitantsbr br the characters wonderful charleton heston become one favorite actors thorn man created role badass yet likable toughguy could definitely put thorns shoes sees something right everyone around either listen more like paid listen wants dead edward g robinson in last film rip plays lovable old sol enough nasty place everyone else great especially leigh tayloryoung shirl piece furniture comes apartment residesbr br the special effects fantastic even soylent green factory futuristic apartments especially scoops bulldozers get rid people excellent polluted air outside looks disgusting nasty empty city streets filled vile putrid people unsettlingbr br one final note ending even still shocked me gruesome think it pretty good ideabr br the bottom line br br an excellent s science fiction flick makes think leaves feeling uneasy,0 @TimmyGrunt "what a waste of eyes" ,0 hey im bored alone stream playing gta v talk chat please httpswwwtwitchtvkyobi_gaminghttpswwwtwitchtvkyobi_gaming,0 william powell philo vance the kennel murder case film also starring mary astor paul cavanagh eugene palette helen vinson ralph morgan dog show philo entered scottish terrier captain serves background locked room mystery many suspects mystery clever denouement complicated interesting since talkies still quite young camera work little static michael curtiz good job directing actionbr br the supporting cast excellent entire cast brings film notch lots actors played philo vance including paul lukas basil rathbone wilford hydewhite edmund lowe james stephenson alan curtis warren william others powell played five times best fit role relaxed serious time made the thin man catapulted big stardom spent years film then beginning career stage age remarkable man remarkable screen presence remarkable actor lived nearly were lucky films available dvd tcm today the kennel murder case great story fun film miss it,0 worstest grammar worstest gamer worstest grammer worstest grandma worstest grammar,0 "@Hannerp idea is- I will hopefully be leafleting around my area to encourage those over 18 to vote LibDem, it's my passion babes ",0 thoughtful film lays bare inequities socalled upper class work them haves havenots robert shaw creditable job role obliging correct chauffeur steven ledbetter helps lady franklin sarah miles overcome mental depression outset however steven many mixed feelings regarding lady upper class inevitably falls love her course overstepping societal boundaries separate thembr br i read anything prior judge movie seen it consider honest story realities daily living conflict might wish expect life get fine drama worth seeing again,0 want tell story die dealt mental health issues whole life tried harder anyone expect need to earliest memories father coming home drunk high beating mother would hide bed play dolls sister would hear beating her always wanted friends never any weird kid could go anyones house unless invited remember peeing pants outside door invited in remember father living minutes road never there holidays look good front parents remember mothers family hating me telling would like him men worthless stepfather beating me would blame say lying remember kicked house still school defending raised fist her hitting him making cry mom good person get it remember homeless remember meeting wife second job breaking grandparents house gone winter drinking much wanted stop blackouts gave peace remember years happiness wife well close someone like have remember us going school planning future going chef wanted writer remember knock door hearing ok hospital seeing her telling call family calling them knowing say got headache work started crying sitting passed said sent bigger better hospital remember driving there drove fast reckless took helicopter tests remember told aneurysm brain dead asking sign papers unplugged donate organs brother wanting father see again father molested her molested her went prison it remember stalling could see her know right thing do hated him daughter reason important brother remember supposed touch her remember touching anyways remember breaking already broken bipolar whole life remember signing papers take life support able passed much apologize kid could handle much killed stroke pen say brain dead already dead ended it remember getting mail told organs saved lives calling family even father them remember next years well drank lot trying kill myself stayed family mine made unforgivable mistakes got angry came close killing remember pulling knife going commit suicide cop remember multiple times tried get help remember giving up going group home hoping would get help trying many medications counseling left rot spent near decade there tried anything offered failed me failed well never following through promising things never happened group home infested bed bugs cockroaches covered bites always roommates needed help none us got jumped teeth broken mistaken one sexual offender years trying leave another bringing weapons house would drink together would pull one tell kill would kill himself went stay mom trouble typing more need break finish later anyone wants story much could write,1 get told good guy sometimes drives near tears told nice am funny am dependable told many times different people things must true right guess good enough would hard find keep people life know sounds self serving pity party feel thoughts head realize understand priority anyone else wish knew someone thought sometimes complement upsets,1 much respect 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LOVE IT ,0 advanced redflag watchi knew constant thought would eventually become more guess im now,1 http://twitpic.com/6to9d - keep that in mind ,0 someone please talk meeveryone hates me feel like already dead help whole world shit hole one cares me hyperventilating somebody please tell care seriously believe die soon,1 What happened to that week? Time to amble down to The Phoenix #fb,0 ive challenged friend bought soviet russia flag wear school like cape comes shipping get german flag wear cape challenge fight realized cant fight germany lost russia im danger,0 mom said would happy see fail ill study summer lightest part it made feel like im son anymoreim probably gonna fail yearss maths exam took todayi english final exam even next years sam it native language literature succeded theory practise first time get driving license weve got national championship schools basketball team weve trying years failed hates now even broke girlfriend week ago wanna die literally noone gave credit good did know whether find job move mothers go far away can never seen anymore yo male highschool student mother disappointed me feel like gave like forever please help wanna live earth anymore,1 "@shihadchick Poptarts, processed cheese...anything that can fit under a door, a la Microserfs? Because I would be on board with this. ",0 "It took me two hours to go grocery shopping and I have no energy left to drive home, so I live at Publix now, I guess. #depression",1 never ending trainlife sometimes feels like youre train without destination youre trapped inside cant get out see many wonderful things behind window wonderful creations places moves fast cant focus sun shines upon face little light hope hear people laughing see happy faces new lovers new parents children wonderful life ahead destination youre sitting alone drowning tears everyone living youre surviving feels like im experiencing life way everyday im proud cant change thing late book destination guess sorry ranting,1 lemme explain jojo plot simple possible blue haired guy beaths shit stepbro tried magic mask revenge steals head brown haired guy beats shit outnof gay men sunlight powers dressing woman looking mothers ass black haired guy stepbro epic starebattle imaginary friends purple clothed men wants live peacefully fight son woman brown haired guy cheated yellow dude donut hair son blue haired guy stebro shares fathers italian maffia,0 inches tall im cm tall thats inches american metric system nice,0 totally rickroll ,0 xanaxis painful die xanax,1 why the absolute f ck is this world so f cked up every single day i see a bunch of fake as people and a shitty world nobody give a f ck about anyones feeling they just say whatever make them look cool perants don t give a shit because they didn t live with this friend or suppose to be friend are fake and don t give a shit i m the guy who walk in the back of the crowd when there s not enough room on sidewalk and i m done with this shit f ck the world f cl everyone who had made me who i am i hope you re happy,1 Depression's such a villainous state,1 took bunch sleep aid heres hoping dont wake upi guess long time coming nothing life makes sense life absolutely shitty day born ive fight battles one face living nightmare people arent meant alive want yeet longer find purpose drive so eyes open awful life really is born worst luck ever dont understand raped molested jobless almost years dumped homeless exabused parent disowned family abused narcissistic ex coerced sex man ghosted lover told cant job medical marijuana card im looking possible homelessness future inability move roommate supposed move boulder colorado next year havent able find work trying doesnt seem helping all im lose lose situation feel meds working im tired brain keeps shuddering like flickering read type text theres pressure behind eyes think im getting headache dont understand universe thinks one person endure this note really dont want god comments leave god this dont believe dont put here thanks reading this maybe wont forgotten afterall,1 a salt pig thing coz she broke her other one! lol do you guys even no wat a salt pig is?,0 "@JessicaSain Power ballads - hmmm "Power of Love" and "Boom, Boom, Boom" lol ",0 "Stress-related health issues, anxiety disorders and cases of depression have soared over the past 30 years DESPITE the fact that we have flat-screen tv's, movies on demand, groceries delivered, non-stop internet,... https://www.facebook.com/susan.korwin/posts/10216818240038376 …",1 post gurls wanna girlfriend plz get girlfriend ,0 film cult movie metal is premise kid gets hold final recording favorite artist sammy curr recently dies hotel fire plays backwards summons back dead get revenge name heavy metal btardly jocks torment him fan true metal enjoy movie metal head tormented jocks play sammy curr album backwardsno wait fictitious well get hold movie watch fist air head banging volume ,0 "around 2020 depression can be the second largest reason of people dying in the whole damn world, this so heartbreaking and people still think depression is nothing serious and keep quiet about that",1 Have you done your 1% improvement today? It's not too late! Just do it! ,0 know much longer shit tired hurt even care anymore let bad shit pile point fighting it sit watch life waste away watch zero fucking people give shit best expect husband pretending care convince narcissistic sociopath one cares fuck it fuck,1 @Bongeziwe - Wena( audio)My remedy for depression,1 im happy right gt first time posting subreddit post got removedgtgt,0 @ctrueny no problem! ,0 ahh do crush ive really good friends idea im gay constantly telling guy gay single ask do ps nothing lgbtq community didnt want offend anyone,0 got braces today hurt dont know else explain it mouth literally looks like factory,0 anyone hard time accepting introvert like want cool fun life seems like extroverts also mentally cannot handle life hell cant even go store long without getting seriously exhausted stupid hate hate generally dislike people weird generally positive outlook life people myself wish could accept part,0 life get betterhey again five years now ive considering redflag actually attempt drown myself brother whos lifeguard saved me twice want die one either switched schools suicidal feelings subdued exgirlfriend brutally rejected christmasnew year holidays try kill methods either failed someone stopped me ultimately worsened sophomore year opened friends expressed concern discouraged hit new low guidance counselor called class talked me imagine cried day mothers birthday sisters graduation ceremony tell family month afterward directly told them respond well made promise never talk think redflag again went months still going on math class teacher made joke q man fall manhole a committing sewercide went serious discussion redflag imagine everyone stared me classmates even believe im suicidal happygolucky facade wear everyday school take home fact year keep of time single school day goes without thinking climbing headfirst window skipping staircase jumping straight lower floor strangling headphones jabbing pens sides throat always question value existence family says im comic relief family without me would existential crises tell me today went floor got trouble boss made mistake lied cover up saw even called mom school come home tonight first news mom tells im fired why fought boss considering im junior year school level changes academic university preparation that big jump course school feels like hell better novel im studying english mosthated book time nineteen eightyfuckingfour flatout refused study book demanded transfer pleas good worst all parents threaten tell psychiatrist suicidal threats subject sorts torture them deserve shit give me grandparents take better recently told shut down promised id kill graduating high school now patience god help me,1 artists here friends discord server artists pm wanna join give link,0 even feel like personthe older get realize im meant alive cant anything normal theres excuse it cant talk people like normal person does cant even work dumb jobs without fucking every aspect it belong less less every year cant believe used good smart kid im even worth anything way die without mom feeling sad id gone im freaking sad,1 even pressed chargers him unfortunately still found way hooking girls know make sure knew it nothing happened since june im moving far away him struggle every day flashbacks occur still dont expect ever fully go away say survived this,1 dont care life want overim safe danger man desires drive me dont care anymore whole world soon anyways meds useless therapy useless wish could die,1 ye genshin servers anymore yeyeye,0 ouch my toenail aaaaaaaa,0 sorry for the depression i have some problem that are long term and i suffer every second of everyday i am so tired of the mental pain of suffering everyday my eye will never be the same again and i only use my right eye i don t want to have such a shameful death but i wa wondering if you people believe this can possibly be a good choice i am about to have exhausted all of my treatment option,1 i ve recently been planning out my suicide i probably sound like an attention seeker but i feel really terrible right now i can t get therapy and i have no where else to turn to i wa planning on attempting on the st of march right after my birthday i m so young life s barley started for me i can t handle the stress my parent don t believe there s anything wrong with me and they think therapist are corrupt people all i can do is cry and hope thing turn around for me i live in an average neighborhood middle class but just barley all my parent ever do is complain about money and recently my mom threatening to divorce my dad meaning i ll have to go live alone with my mother who s an alcoholic i don t want to die but i also don t want to live it feel like this is my only option to finally be happy,1 Goodnight all! ,0 advicewith sleeping pills effective take empty stomach meal im also going take wine would assume empty keep alcohol absorbed fast ask want people telling it im going regardless one way other,1 im done everythingi want alive nothing want ever accomplish actually able im everyone life fucking beyond relief ive bullied life forced go smaller school ive never actual friends one true friend gone dad mentally abused know parents divorced dad forcing get fucking job dont oblige anything says takes anyone phone playstaion makes fucking depressed already am today fucking says dreams ambitions life fucking told true dreams would fucking laugh like always does force go something else want become sort entertainer like making people laugh like make people happy tell say go theater school way lifestyle dont want fucking do goes behind back talking girlfriend behind back hes saying shit mom mom beliving everything fucking says dad online help thing dont oblige hes gonna take away every electronic thing have totally fix depression fuck cant live like anymore,1 i ve kind of stuffed around a lot in my life delaying the inevitable of having to work a job and be a responsible adult and i m but the longest i ve ever held a job wa 9 month it wasn t that i m lazy i wa always doing other thing i enjoy but i know now unemployment ha caused most of my depression recently i just feel utterly hopeless when i think soon enough i ll have to move out on my own in some shitty house working a job i couldn t care le about to me it just seems like the perfect recipe to depression,1 endi particularly rough last couple years want call quits mother live absolute monster even earliest memories dad much worse although work favor separated year old child always craved companionship desperately want feel alone didnt make first friend ended moving year two later back square one fast forward couple years middle school bullied entire time throughout entire school career sexually assaulted th grade shoved rug per usual middle school began dating constant string abusive people today even raped cheated beat ex today since december relationship someone emotionally abusive find especially hard leave emotionally abusive relationships since something physical tend rationalize it thinking head deserve this certainly everyone else point thought so get gaslighted daily accused cheating why would cheat someone ive cheated past berated called names punished dont reply quick enough time frame usually minutes punished able see blatant emotionalmental abuse pretty much everything besides physical abuse make feel completely insane college career stressing point constant knot stomach chest top anxiety afraid boyfriend well living toxic environment mom utterly completely miserable done research best methods committing redflag household cleaners hanging jumping height drowning buying handgun gun show ive thought many options guess im confessing get without people life knowing boyfriend monster last couple days im terrified them mother always drilling school im pain surgery supposed make feel better almost years ago friends isolated harshly end me years months cant handle pain anymore ive made decision,1 "first time going to o'malley's last night and it was pretty cool, felt like i was back in london cheers, mate!",0 people realize therapy counselling fix help depression anger issues ignorance others therapist fix help depression chemical imbalance posted saying tired people preaching therapy got ton people say otherwise hate people ill glad leave earth fuck everybody,1 "@missmollyjames i'm sorry - dint mean it hey i watched palindromes today... i LOVED it, so thanks a million.. very very weird though",0 dedicate thosewho kept going posting darkest moments even though clue thats doing especially dedicate trying times know redditors big country music one countryish maybe could bear long enough hear message one day willhttpwwwyoutubecomwatchveyyctljoo,1 sometimes follow heart leads wrong direction ,1 feel like absolute trash really feel like trash rn theres really reason keep almost posting something commenting something texting someone something sudden think should really send that yeah no im gonna send stupid one ever gonna listen even notice existence feels like everyone judging making fun cant stop thinking that even one acually that feels like i just wish i could die already,0 eatin' with my family ,0 "I'm sick and tired of Twitter because of so many outages. But, I love Twitter! It's like a love and hate relationship. LOL ",0 Fear of Depression's Pain Makes Depression Worse http://twib.in/l/B5gp7LAA4MLo ,1 guys help cat started attacking reason cat started attacking reason literally computer saw cat slowly walking leg literally bite reason screamed pain started run away guess what cat started chase me currently im room door closed im trying give something calm dont know what,0 anyone relate male sexually abused younger cant find girl never couldive contemplating thinking redflag since around th grade knew happened along say victims dont sexual abuse whole story though im almost now friends least lost it think fuck would want damaged person like me cant even force act happy times im around best friends im saying everyone sexually abused fucked life personally thats feel is ive hospital before want go back joke help all bills poor parents know pay brings yet killed myself want hurt anyone im even sure really want die know dont want go like this anyone relate u ever find someone breakdowns becoming frequent theres least times locked friends bathroom without knowledge dont want anyone know im curled ball like mental patient am friends know childhood parents thats it want talk someone dont think anyone know relate molested let alone wanting die people react that im trapped bad place one really knows please fucking help me edit tell honestly sounds like im bitching know seen posts redflag watch worthy redflag friends im thankful that knew edit thank much everyone ive found worse im myself think theres possibility could bipolar better know things know feel chaotic lot time im slowly trying get help cant go back hospital though especially adult wards fuck that theres way worse shit me anyway getting point thank typing long paragraphs me know lot may abused too know many us boat remember care us talk feel never see redflag could effect them know think us want cause anyone type pain said anyone else wants use thread get stuff chest ask questions like did go ahead take ,1 half day i didnt even have to go in today so im pleased to be home!,0 foxwhisperer clean but it resulted in the soft top beaing soaked wet so i couldn t open it should be dry now,0 should i go check into a hospital again i ve admitted myself more time than i can remember over the year for depression suicidal ideation not to mention the attempt where i should be dead i have some good friend amp family i know i m blessed in way but have endured so much sexual trauma a a kid amp later in life amp have ptsd borderline personality extreme anxiety sometimes amp addiction issue i don t think i want to go on much longer what s the point,1 change plan kill soon possiblethe thing preventing lack apposite resources and unsurprisingly laziness dont know best organize obligatory list reasons im sold thing definitely dont need life story im temperament go rant would laced expletives lamentations selfloathing sporadically reveal rationale coincidental cipher randomness inelegant although fits mood guess cliff notes fine never want be personality ive dreamt complete fiction even though may stages phases moments life possess ideal qualities im degenerating every respect ive never skill except lost never many begin with never anything except fail quite humiliating catastrophic fashion that im stupid literally dont understand things cognitive powers and use term almost ironically rapidly deteriorating cant talk people anymore cant hold conversation cant make joke there brief period funny guy thats exactly would want summative ascription lose ability funny one redeeming features saving grace one qualities could seize wistful poignant joy say thats mine hard thing im super slow cant respond slur words point people literally cant understand me etc say wrong things instead right things now is manage say anything all somehow manage humiliate even quotidian circumstances unimpressive reticent humorless anonymous forgettable misunderstood make misunderstood external factors exacerbate misery ill name em reaffirm internal ones really ones pushed edge ive making month past months something dont care money id happy poverty line absolute lack financial independence add consonant notes cosmic orchestra playing cant anything e minor fair interview soon first one long time dont expect get it theres direction take except im blocked path pursue except im cut off endeavor undertake except fail mean literally yo im exaggerating almost comical health taken nosedive would bear grace taking toll cant really go like this even stay sane cant eat much anything without arousing sort deleterious disabling mental physical reaction theres nothing gross going on though thank god that going long now dont know began perniciousness accelerating anyway ive kind digressed point real issue things outside self mere horror worldly tribulation might keep depressed fact problem ways insoluble makes suicidal things fundamental immutable qualities changed arent problem biggest challenge existential combustion result solutions problems talking isnt going make back cliff dont think need solutions im writing mainly hopes miracle god one suggests something strikes me moves way partly catharsis partly because even going ultimately solve anything im human sometimes people talking feels good tldr dont want kill myself cant see survivable options change plan ama want too ps im posting real account without privacy browser apparently willing breach manner civility track peoples locations im tech savvy enough stop regardless listen let tell right now dont track me going make feel humiliated thats part led first place please please dont molest anonymity got think youll knight shining armor chivalrously ignoring wishes youre working best interests no no youre villain egotist dont hurt anymore am dont full yourself ____________ thank reading end did wish reward end long arduous journey you take love consolation prize x xoxo,1 @sourpatchkid5 nice twitpic! When you write a caption you have to put it in the subject line. ,0 felt like wasteful empty piece shit thought fixing would fix mental statei everything supposed help years workampxbi good dieti exercise every daymy hygeine taken care even comfortable appearancei meditatelow redflag well paying jobfriends family love support mean world mehobbies interestsi go outsidei get enough sleepampxbany yet still feel sameampxbi want die go sleep never wake up experience pain anymore want hurt anymore want sit feeling sorry without even reasonable explanation anymore know do tried fix it really tried want strong care me want hurt them know special everyone struggles would make things worse even dangerous care about here feel guilty it way get better hanging thread way drag this,1 hi you all my first post in here i have to write my story down i m curious if there are more people in this im a 0 year old student from the netherlands i want to become a teacher at primary school my education take year right now i m re doing the third year i struggle with my past i do not have had a save bonding with my parent and family and in that time i wa bullied at primary school at my th i got involved in a situation of sexual unacceptable behaviour that wa the last thing what made me stop for a short time with my study that year i had a lot of spare time and after that year i had to start again with that year of my education the hard thing about it is my problem are not solved in that year off i had therapy but it wasn t the right fit for me after the therapy i thought i could start over but right now i notice the problem are coming back again the situation is right now i have a lot to do for school in week there is a big deadline and it is almost impossible to fix the stuff i have to do there is a lot of work to do but i am not motivated at all to do something i lay in bed till pm or do something i like to do and isn t nessecary last week i went to the doctor to start therapy again i think that is a good start i really want to go on with my life but i am so tired of it all i want to stop not facing my problem and do something easy but that isn t the solution im so alone in this all i have told some friend but not my parent cause they will be so judgy after a year of doing le work than the other year for me it is very hard to go on to concentrate on something and to end it i m afraid i lost my dicipline and i know i have some other problem which i want to fix by therapy i feel like a failure and i m sad and mad a good friend of mine said it is normal that i am not motivated by the problem i have about my past and familysituation that i don t have to ask my self too much she is way more kind to me than i am to myself on the other hand i don t want to be too kind in some way i have to do more well this is the situaition i live in i wonder if there are more people who share a part of my situation,1 care much hurtsat point id take way out care much pain ill im dying long end im gone want more theres nothing here im enough pain already whats little means everything stop whats agony minutes means ill never feel again cares pain itll pain gone,1 slitting wrists hypothetical questionif someone alone night one disturb him successfully slit wrists know im seriously asking help something lol hypothetical question cant someone bleed death hours cutting done correctly,1 i commute to uni on tuesday and thursday i drive my car to the train station park my car and hop on the train i am a super safe yet nervous driver i never got into an accident before however i overestimated how much room i had and came in at the wrong angle i did solely paint damage to the parked vehicle next to me and a pit formed in my stomach i pulled into the spot and stayed in a crippling state of shock for 0 minute in my car i wa shaking so badly tear were coming out but i wasn t producing any sound i called the police for a non emergency and filed a report i also left an apology note with my information in it tucked tightly underneath the woman s windshield wiper i then called my insurance and waited for the owner of the vehicle to call me to make a claim report she did call me when she got into her car and i expressed how sorry i wa and how i am looking to pay for her damage she wa very understanding and kind and told me not to worry about it she wa so touched that i wa truthful and did all of those measure a a lot of people would have just hit and run without any remorse i am going to call my insurance guy tomorrow to see what we can do the paint damage can easily be buffed out and she provided me reassurance i am still in my bed sick to my stomach over this i am a broke college student who fret and who life off of my saving from summer job my course load is heavy this year so i really can not work how do i calm the hell down ha anybody ever accidentally hit someone before how did it turn out for you tldr did paint damage to a parked car this morning in my train station s parking lot attempting to catch the train to go to uni this morning left me so disgusted that i needed to stay home and miss school i just hate that i unintentionally and accidentally inflicted this on someone my car ha paint that can be buffed out too i really don t care about my car at this point,1 "on the bed with matt, if he can be on a laptop then so can i ",0 Stop shaping yourself around depression and anxiety and Trauma that's in the past .accept and experience you,1 despite need help help girl wont leave alone made rumors im dating even tho im not also asked like times time tell firm no rejected different languages do,0 asked crush sike crush fucking adulterers,0 im kidwhy me wanted happy someone hate me,1 learned something today change redditor forever today learned technically never touch anything becausr atoms lose virginity technically losing since parts never touches other redditors lose virginity without quitting reddit,0 "@TheSongBird75 That's so twisted. I hated CAMHS too, they said I just had mild depression and ignored an early diagnosis of BPD xx",1 hold now wait minute come on let catch breath ive heard promises ive seen mistakes ive fair share tough breaks need new voice new law new way take time reevaluate time pick pieces go back square one think time change,0 "Happy 19th Birthday, Chryslyn. ",0 taller siblings brothers sister parents depressed scared joke around like used growing old idk sit right making depressed wish could shrink little kid again please help someone,1 @megdia I'm still reading "East of Eden" ,0 hows everyone wanna check,0 bought k coins first person make laugh gets original cat award title filler filler filler filler ampxb edit over comments vanity awards honorable mentions,0 problems bad peoples still feel like absolute shit deserve anythingi barely talk anyone always house really good year old never gf probably never shy talk anyone like normal person know never kill scared family meant go collage month another failure life people never take seriously time get ignored get noticed need something me almost am writing this want talk someone anyone time waste here,1 anyone actually care dieddepression fucking obsessed girl know im fucking good enough anybody even fucking family friends fuck anyone actually reads cares,1 feel deserve live anymoreive done something awful cant deal it wrote letter institution doctor saw realize misguided wrong karen move completely understand situation doctor definitely negative reaction it bad place wrote listened wrong people think deserve live really feel im awful person general keep making mistakes ive hurt people ive let money destroy relationships im going hurt people feel coming back things ive done want better try guilt shame eating alive making everyday struggle want worry everyone life cant tell therapist asks im committed killing myself feel cant even talk suicidal thoughts getting day consists trying work job day im worried guilt shame make cant work anymore night talk friends try watch mindless television drink wine know terrible things come one day know move forward,1 "@laylakayleigh i have to go skydiving, ill let you know next the time im in town ",0 feeling psychoticim sorry im breaking rules cant seem function read rules im feeling like crap feel like bashing head wall took walk didnt seem help,1 my first appointment is on saturday but i can t fucking wait this out it s only two more day i need fucking help but it s over a fucking zoom call and i really can not keep going on anymore i need help so bad i don t feel comfortable talking to anybody else fuck this should i just die already i can t keep waking up anymore,1 "There are 10,728 Briannes in the U.S. But only ONE of me! Fun Friday Fact, according to http://www.howmanyofme.com.",0 someone online class mic camera bed totally unaware biggest fear since always school bed could see close hear breathing,0 ativan is the only one that work for me and shuts my anxiety up but lately i have been depending on it way too much i have been taking up to mg of ativan everyday for the last few week because of a lot of stress in my life and it is the only thing that help with my ocd and intense panic attack im worry to death about developing some sort of dependency but idk what else to go to lexapro help but not a well i have been thinking about maybe taking lyrica instead since it help with anxiety epilepsy and seems fairly similar to ativan and adding in clonidine for my physical anxiety doe anyone have any experience or recommendation i have been limiting myself to only mg and not going any higher but i am basically house bound with panic if i dont take it so not taking something similar is not an option,1 lot people told math vague last post chance crush reddit so improved it would take total no redditors mil based usernames taken taking male female percentages this posthttpswwwredditcomrdataisbeautifulcommentswtnkdsubreddit_gender_ratios_oc taking males nice females ignoring country wise malefemale percentages sorry nonbinary bros country wise data herehttpswwwstatistacomstatisticsredditglobalactiveuserdistribution would assume variables affect result results in form countrygender chance crush reddit usamale usafemale ukmale ukfemale canadamale canadafemale germanymale germanyfemale australiamale australia female say l lsn lwlsn take data pinch salt countries heres rickrollhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdqwwwgxcq make post worth time,0 hey anyone want join discord small right theres room grow also channel advertise art channel well gaming movie nights,0 @kristenstewart9 You're so cute! ,0 i hope i m feeling better by thursday will be seriously annoyed if i m ill over lan,0 question people actually want thingsambitions dreams motivation seem so alien me remember wanting anything than peace mind maybe see hardworking people ask myself motivates go lengths school hobby work related endeavorspeople care much feel anxious happy sad relievedwhy thoughsomewhere deep inside think admire want like them would love want something thinkbut know remember indifference things life never worked hard anything remember failure bother all could even react properly last deceased people know knew i felt jealous got die might messed waymy life unfortunatelyfortunately ended think time soon want try think try live normally possible even mess head is honestly know can whenever think future cannot bring care feel indifferentdo still want things want work hard things so feel like ambitions,1 waking morning getting harder harder career place job takes huge hit mental illnessi wake early go work every single day dread dead end job deal stupidest customers every single day cant quit cause need money dont money cant move go school dont even make enough save ive looked jobs one hiring social life joke friends one talk to sometimes feel like killing would stop thoughts head think family would react,1 angri boi hours ive spent like longest time drawing females paper im learning draw online cant draw males body frustrating dudes,0 love sounds like love looks like love doesnt feel like love empty mea lot people say kind loving things me say supportive things arent really behaviour fit way kindness supposed sound like etc something deeply amiss element authenticity absent subtile hard explain im tired pretending something wrong able receive love admit now problem yes they somethings missing dont care theories cant receive love im broken that feel truly sincere desire support me trust me itd reach me heal me there said it feels wrong counterintuitive doesnt it say youre pretending im saying youre aware fact youre putting barrier us dont ask much subtle barrier dont blame dressing wall protect ressources simply wish youd acknowledge yes youre supportive support truly need thing dont want share me im important enough you dont blame that really wish could admit longer feel like im crazy feeling way sorry nonsense,1 genre dinosaur animation new york time travel circusbr br main characters rex tyrannosaurus rex elsa pterodactyl dweeb parasarolophus ooo triceratops boy called louis girl called cecilia captain neweyes actors john goodman rex yeardley smith cecilia martin short stubbs clown felicity kendal elsa etcbr br what happens four dinosaurs see above fed brain grain cereal cuddly friendly dinosaurs going nice children go new york big plansbr br my thoughts cute animated film animation dinosaurs go cuddly friendly bit floppy notsogood look pleasant way like dinosaurs cuddly friendly nice friendly good like almost characters featured especially elsa cecilia course like others well overall like film lot br br recommended to people like good childrens animated films people like dinosaurs john goodman people think circuses always seem enjoy ,0 teacher let bit much talking incest basically english reading poem reference ancient pharoahs egypt lead onto topic lot incest among royal families evolved onto royal families effects incest eventually topic went onto teacher talking reached distant family said researching family tree ended getting touch one distant relatives ended meal together went talk one rd cousins half chinese half australian described young women rephrased young beautiful women idk relavent upper end s may seem bad honest probably isnt time whole class went bit uncomfortable worst possible time say that literally talking incest brings up bit weird,0 much coward textcrisis help lines amso yeah idk good time try help lines go idk im anymore want quitkms ive suicidal thoughts since family thinks everything fine everyday thing dont see shouldve lived long yo now voices tell im worthless cant take anymore keep thinking things might get better miss baby black cat named bibi much reason live hes gone honestly think ineed emotional support cat something dont space cat anymore miss much cant take loss another pet keep losing sight life whats point family didnt want least dont show much need you barely talk people dont many friends cant it,1 Just joined twitter and uploaded a photo from my latest photo shoot that was taken during my trip to LA.,0 there s a possibility that for most people what s effective is the placebo effect of taking a medicine therapy can be a effective to treat depression but most people don t like it because it take longer and cost more money,1 easily greatest low budget horror film time first saw movie around nine years age say scared hell me im growed up however see movie really is work genius everyone least everyone taste dreamed seeing snowman going around killing people even admit it always found something genuinely frightening snowmen naturally horror junkie myself thismovie dream come true people say movie silly otherwise void intelligence movie serial killer snowman hell expect anyone gave film low score obviously uptight sit back good laugh stupid oneliners cheap gore love movie is comedy movie industry wises makes serious horror flick killer snowman which seems impossible unfortunately forever hold great piece indie horror close heart,0 my parent recorded a great deal of my early childhood so there is a lot of footage of me when i wa very young i used to be the most innocent and carefree little boy who never even once thought about what others thought about him or the way he looked i never cared about being lonely it wa just me with me and my mom and dad and i wa the happiest kid in the world the smallest thing made me smile year later i am now miserable and wishing i wa dead i barely even speak to my parent anymore and i push away and resent everybody around me my parent are heartbroken by the fact that i don t speak to anyone i m horrified by how shit my life ha become and how terrible of a person i am now due to my own mental health deteriorating beyond control i had so many friend a year ago but all i do is push people away and be a burden seeing what i used to be and comparing it to what i am now make me want to cry every time i see a little kid being happy and innocent i wish so badly that i never grew up and i could have remained a happy little boy forever,1 feel good anymore happy feel like im going vomit might sick now fun happy oof stomach aches,0 fruit loops suck seriously taste good guys guys prefer like sugar loops,0 questioni try explain best possible couple really good friends basically know mental status could mess times tell multiple times need lives still feel like annoying burden them still dont really open much dont even really text check anything feel better things dont want talk dont want anything me dont care also feel like im bothering try talk them constantly remind true still think believe head guess want know people feel way people friends people basically suicidal guys annoyed existence like actually burden would rather deal it dont know makes sense something thats mind feel like right share thoughts feelings anyone,1 @Rorzshach I've moved school before...it's not that bad really ,0 got viewing program first time recently hour kidnapping program know sooner james caan outstanding whollybelievable role chief honcho featured vegas complexbr br so often programs like one ensemble either outright annoying seem picked must related producer directorbr br that certainly case program along caan primary supporting cast engaging attractive believable guest actors wellchosen br br the stories ive seen interesting show presents good view city wellbr br this entertaining program one hope remain know managed miss long plan tivo on,0 fuggin reddit many good memes videos saved tf deleted happened wh h e f u ck,0 if it add any kind of info m almost the thing is that ive always felt down kind of bad obsessed over a lot of stuff over time mainly school and once my grade obsession wore down started getting obsession nonstop this led to me having high anxiety even higher than before and eventually not recognizing myself in the mirror that and another bunch of stuff later i finally got into therapy and a psychiatrist they gave me sertraline for the ocd like symptom and intrusivity on my thought i have intrusive thought but those were way more maneagable than these so it worked great everything wa going fine and better everyday didnt stop getting better i had an episode of hipo mania caused by the sertraline i suppose so after going back to half the pill so mg now and a new psychiatrist my main one wa sick he told me thats what the episode wa called and recommended i get new medicine a people with bipolar disorder get that kind of stuff ive literally got no clue of what to do do i get tested for bipolar and get new medicine do i stick with sertraline a it solved my main issue bipolar somewhat make sense to me but i literally dont know what to do about it please forgive any grammar mistake a english isnt my main language,1 it day one of my ivf injection so let the fun begin,0 lookin friends sup im lookin friends rn talkhang with yall dm disclaimer im tryna attract pedos n groomers please hate,0 losti abroad home return to feel alone father died year half ago girlfriend left me failed exams cant take anymore,1 jonnyisgeek i cant watch it suck,0 what to do when depression is so bad you can t function properly i shower every day and i don t brush my teeth once every few week and i fear that it will cause problem in the future i just ate like donut and chip i m not fat btw lol and i can t fucking bring myself to get out of bed i don t know why,1 im blocking whoever posts love stuff tomorrow valentines day bleh,0 think ill make im moment turned june still got months left honestly think make then every fucking night think plan redflag tonights one nights could time want to would prefer way could man know common fuck man feel goddamn alone girlfriend highly doubt even likes decent amount friends fuck man would rather quite literally kill tell them goi back girlfriend asked homecoming days great started acting different even know anymore were thing anymore swear man every night every single night think it im scared feel like actually get materials commit ill end causing shit go down friends family,1 something really didnt expect could im sharing yall im state one highest honors eligible euphonium an instrument looks like tuba got second chair district im really excited chance maybe get in hope yall good day keep working hard,0 "@berryanarchy Don't be jealous, this is nothing special, just some coffee with cheap blended in it ",0 please give me your grounding exercise to keep me busy a i make a long distance move happy thought appreciated,1 "@Download2009 Brilliant, brilliant and brilliant!!! ",0 blank canvaswith blank canvas thats years old go do move draw last line clock out know whats wrong got switch flipped see whole picture whole damn thing scares fuck me thing call life journey experiences endure cherish see know time now dumb saying heard rear view mirror small reason windshield big picture keep looking forward im tired woke time see life burden road life well is well something im honestly sure take call puss care ive people call face burden speak time comes time comes everyone know heartache hurts damn well feel thats something scares knowing one day time come everyone love too,1 knute rockne american biopic famous notre dame beloved coach knute rockne excellent sports film watch ever seen it surprised technique used movie director lloyd bacon shows ahead times photographing football games result vibrant picture man responsible legacy collegian sport knute rocknebr br the film presents rockne humble origins chicago studies famed notre dame university south bend indiana ambitious man vision game played luckily went give beloved notre dame glory afterbr br pat obrien looks bit older starts freshman fact change much throughout film fine mr rockne pat obrien shows could inspire players father figure gale page plays bonnie rockne wise woman understood husbands call life ronald reagan plays george the gipper gipp legend died much young left legacy behind donald crisp makes good contribution father john callahan rocknes mentor universitybr br this film delight sports lloyd bacons direction fast pace gives movie,0 set date august th really feel anything anymore tired want lonely anymore,1 lifes kinda bruh im really tired life ive gotten point life enjoyable stuff like moment mom figures im fun gets mad being electronics much like electronics things stayed havent left me wont betray give insights characters lives new life fun me really dont care im addicted electronics real way find enjoyment life deal with all thanks,0 indias sunny clime use spend time soldier service majesty queen goes famous poem penned rudyard kipling literal foundation upon movie gunga din based fortunate enough watch legendary classic enjoy films way use make them sheer pleasure taken script established novelist poet story humble indian native named gunga din sam jaffe works a regimental beasty british occupation india th century greatest wish become soldier water boy part british calvary contingent threatened death notorious blood cult kali called thuggee three particular soldiers stand company noted bravery comradeship first handsome debonair cary grant playing sgt archibald cutter next victor mclaglen courageous sgt macchesney finally theres flamboyant douglas fairbanks jr sgt thomas ballantine three fellow soldiers surrounded hoard mountain stranglers led fanatical leader called guru eduardo ciannelli amid chaos war brave waterboy hopes earn place army playing bugle found solid story old black white film needs little fanfare anyone looking enjoy classic ,0 Let everyone have their own beliefs but the laws should not cater to any one belief. OFF my soap box now ,0 wanna talk redflagsimple enough,1 Honestly give me the fattest doobie cos my depression and anxiety are in bits xx https://twitter.com/ladbible/status/989195148318920704 …,1 rampantheart can do everything except add a twitter field in the comment,0 decisionafter months contemplating procrastinating ive come conclusion ending life way cease constant battle anger depression anxiety regret sit defeat letting three feelings push isolate people meant world ,1 know what really fucking wastewhy people keep insisting things hunkydoory peachy fucking apocalypse tell people oh cheer sir things get better put smile confidence huuurrrrr well guess what get better entire world fucked wave wave genocide thievery government authority liars sociopaths iron fist assholes authoritarians blah blah blah world beyond redemption fucking hipsters talk democracy working together like fucking niave children thinking save world magically well guess what democracy others failed ideologies like communism change world getting result human nature think tweak system turn knobs dials change parameters fix world people good little progressives fucking nuts myself nothing im fat ugly shrill funnysounding fat cretin man virgin as would expect graduating college useless degreei decided grad school mewith nothing tundra directions im trapped emotional frozen desert ive got nothing going life assholes it gets better shout macbook short break making hip cool comments cool obama or maybe ffffuuuu comic chan something despite fact never truly miserable unhappiest time accidentally stepped broke animal collective cd knowing bunch probably dumb techno bullshit regardless stand mouth agape telling things pick out get job nice woman everything goshdarn swell end like that job recluse like get job recluse like connect people want talk big football game small talk nephew farted class got soooo embarrassed one american idol contestant gypped winning shitty pop record deal spineless loser talent get job requires skills people skills weve already established that artistic skills even handwriting mess mechanical skills fix anything cant even fix mess life rest life put yoke collar middle management shall become lord smoothee machine legacy look upon large fries ye mighty despair shall fondly remembered crazy guy washed dishes ugly shit ugly shit mention im virgin oh yes did i would make great virgin sacrifice ive spent many night meating meat mechanical agony getting nice tan glow tv trying sob know get anything even remotely close anyone looked like girls interested me even halfway good im reminded theres ugly girls there ugly women ugly man im attracted them cant attracted people ugly am expect loved even worthy love ive utterly ignored opposite sextheyve told im ugly see start confidence bullshit im like you hipster redditori stutter cum pants girl looks me confidence net girls means provide good looks does literature subject seems agree me confidence explained due ability get girls due physical attraction on so hipster redditor mix cause effect for part continue live world everything equitable progressive works end well take shades its indoors fucking hipster look around you large goodlookin men goodlookin women hot chicks moaning hot studs boning them hollywood joe nerd mclinuxpants fuck cheerleader im spoiled selfish go fat goth girls mommy issues heads filled borderline personality disorder all get im good for shall die without ever getting dick wet even if even find one liked would like me physically repulsive behold loved girl ever complete unity personality knewknewthere mess head incompatible me interests goals desires life wanted lead life without family religious dogmas social dogmas cultural christianity whole average allamerican mediocrity whathaveyou friends one due great life earth fabulous human beings im incapable fulling trusting him anyone else like theres much else worth talking to conversations terrible dude like music too far out love rap what think local_sports_team game last night dude dude xbox love halo miserable stupid shit think im crazytheyre ones believe metaphysical manifestations meaninglessness gods ghosts sorts bullshit make friends people so so beneath you completely beneath me intellectually speaking slight bit interest philosophy continental philosophy philosophy science music urban poetry music good tv good video games allaround creativity step line start become visibly distressed someone place oh praise jesus hallelujah stepped back line back comfort zone american family values midtown usa existence going myself since redflagwatch no today least somewhere road though maybe cold theres long walk snow without wanting collapse let overtake you,1 i feel a since covid hit my life turned upside down almost nothing brings joy anymore and nothing is interesting,1 theres bat house super pissed fuck,0 caring start to feel so exhausting it excites you fill you up only to leave you empty a a distant memory of what you once were i don t know if it s them or me anymore don t even care just want out hell is others,1 Im having a shit ton of fun! And Yay for meeting new friends/peeps. Lol.,0 idk domy gf severe depression thoughts committing redflag said says anymore exist really scares me im lost help ask help her says theres nothing ,1 wrote redflag note part demanded post set delayed send go end it guess thats healthy part im sorry bit novel see much reason selfedit stagei want say im sorry family didnt cause this deserve this didnt deserve me deserved child sibling wouldnt hurt you break heart force feel unnatural unearned guilt child sibling absolute best disease beyond powers suppose im also sorry current friends might hurt know isnt fault either lights life marvels every one wish much happiness love success suppose im also sorry former friends rejected plain terms who assume either nurse unspoken grievance simply lost interest novelty wore virtues multiplied know ive resented it resentment begin realize mostly arose failed understand you needed much obligation give part arose failure understand myself part still wants spit poison feel wronged me ill show proper motive redflag never particularly likeable girl thinking clearly never particularly good hiding ugly irritating features graced im sorry wasnt either us wanted be thats thing always really wanted liked people effort put failed often not course cant try likeable tried interesting clever generous since seemed like things might attract people guess couldnt get hang it lack core capacity basic humanity many share deficient perhaps even everybody liked would still feel way whatever hurt goes deeper bandage woven shared lagers laughter mend trying fight loneliness kind snake oil remedy dont know finding miserable failure things desire even need certainly does well im sure understand im sorry trans community know clich tranny cant hack it kills herself old story told poorly one strove tell realm many others suppose overestimated myself im sorry making us look bad wont first time ive sorry ambassador us hard sometimes seems get easier little while brief illusions success popularity distract me never lasts soon every time im back first real emotional memories are back high school when now lie bed staring wall fantasizing things never be finding solace planning end it knowing theres really nowhere run disease inside me constitutes rotten core me realized hasnt gotten better keep going round around finding back stale hell gritted teeth attempted bare many times before changes upon changes road less same tired march i edited explicit description methods line subreddits rules im sorry wont pass cheekbone genes next generation like always joked would im sorry wont well whatever plans werent idle daydreams might nursed realities merely yetunrealized hearts wish could see you im sorry anything wished said didnt opportunities slip away kinds reasons me thoughts keep running back road past times before curling hole chest imagining sweet oblivion hope you think me think back rare moments happy lying back stephens van long ago watching street lights pass like auroras overhead perfect sunday sams cabin giggling wrestling sticks bottled water saturday evening music festival attempting clumsily apply makeup rhea messy poorlylit sedan moment apartment when whisper kevin asked could fuck me which come think it one memories involving drugs far bingeing rome brother basement eating quesadillas mom made bowling two strikes row annabelles birthday party night comical failure everyone else getting ready leave philosophy mind classes occasionally felt like neil ryan me bouncing ideas became polished arguments though guess sometimes really three us better yet ever luck making happy think that thats really gave life whatever small worth had least little consolation if among people annoyed made angry even put worst moments least times paid enormous debt awfulness little joy maybe version eternal recurrence favoured nietzche relatable character cloud atlas true find places likely not chances time read body floated distance entry point fraser river may unrecoverable which honestly gives fuck instinct give friends first pick clothes basically worldly possessions right there probably workable option donate organization needs them maybe youll find something mine garage sale value village somewhere likely not please dont blame me please dont blame yourselves everyone constitution survive world didnt come argue case want say goodbye love you wish could stay im sorry say cant,1 going talk youtube asking see id like why want watch video will whats issue youtube kids section want watch random gore thing something not appropriate im going show company already knows better fucking passport id sooner later ima start getting ads bloodtype ancestors ffs,0 today ha just been so shitty it s so busy at the store i work at and i just constantly feel like i can t breath today i m also so paranoid because i ve been texting my family literally all day and nobody s gotten back to me so i m stupidly paranoid about something bad happening to them,1 f anyone wanna talkkkk like talk hehe im horny n need help pls thank,0 "@Ceena @willyanthony thanks willy <~~ At my age, I say this a lot.",0 im growing well happening im growing up got license going first job interview right now almost turning years subreddit kinda helped thing sharing experiences people age ive anxiety complete introvert clearly means relate lot you time go see dim light adulthood thank everyone age sharing experiences ,0 Depression https://twitter.com/cyn_santana/status/989161090616643585 …,1 people ur online friend group live city u meet ur irl friend group oh shouldve moved states study mean plan dumb im interconnected web lies really lies would reveal different versions different people plus online group knows nickname idk rmbr real name fbscdiscord alt accs deleted dont know look like showed em pic ages ago dont contact anymore like irl group mutualsfriends online group go mia socials restart different users irl group contact mainly via phone number nickname kinda unique irl essentially groups know schoolreal namenickname if anyone online group rmbrs is heck even go uni online ones em go uni irl friends different uni friends according fb,0 since guys said cant go guys bathroom since definitely look male irl go womens train bladder hold pee hours straight never use dumb bathrooms,0 help need somebody help heck help weve gotten close know almost everything weve touched lot sitting alone minutes holding hands time time arm around her happens tells shes someone else never asked said want know secret say yes tells likes guy actual heck thought trying make jealous told emailed something asking book think obvious wants get closer damn guess im kinda mad either wanna one following stop jealousy make like someone help thanks,0 yeah sex cool even sex like please someone tell me wanna virginnn,0 update one thing motivating continue life overposted like week ago basically havent able find job related degree radiates with living home working shit job bipolar extremely depressed mood long distance boyfriend thought one literally wanted im pretty hesitant commitment randomly facetimed today broke me blue thought didnt might kill myselfand happened dont feel suicidal moment im scared next time do act it im scared,1 seen film it genremix ive never seen another surreal scenes hilarious funny stuff film noir felling musical numbers swing sex scenes the nd best played orgasm film bested sally pitch orson welles blended together work art work art logical end least logical everybody owned tv copy vhs loaned exgirlfriend cant get back film dvd austria sure buy it,0 watched shrek school best class ever,0 i stood up for myself about not being credited for artwork used by my school and now somehow that ha lead to a teacher talking about me to my peer behind my back and me being harassed by a woman who work for the school on their drama production i contacted my principal and he ha not responded my mom say if i go to anyone higher up i will get in trouble i feel trapped everyone hate me now and the rest of my school year is going to be horrible i feel like the only way to fix this situation is to die i fucked everything up,1 hey guys im bored thougt would nice chat someone hit up dms open lol,0 whats new car girl okay ik im dumbass saw post or maybe days back subreddit blonde girl brown hoodie holding key says got first car today came back reddit home page filled memes someone pls explain,0 when i wa a teen i would burn myself with match because it made me feel better it ha been many year since i have burned myself today i got swarmed by yellowjackets and stung several time and instantly felt better i m not sure if it s the adrenaline or something else or if i m imagining it thought,1 i m a yo guy and i want to die i feel like a bad person i have like friend and i never hangout with them other than school i have a gf and i love her with all my heart but i know she could do better not to be cocky or anything but i m probably top smartest in my school of 00 i will probably go to a decent college and have a lot of life ahead of me i just feel tired with life though i think i might be mentally ill i ve fallen into this personality of being the crazy person of the group i hate silence because then i think about how much i hate myself i say or ask random stuff to end the silence that make me seem retarded i don t smoke or do drug and not on any medication but i wa thinking last night that the way i want to die is an overdose i work in fast food and some of the people i talk to at work are drug dealer and i think they would sell to me i ve thought it through and maybe i buy multiple non lethal quantity and then use them all at once i ve been more depressed than usual this last week i do football and wrestling and it s the off season right now so i should have gone to an off season wrestling practice my gf knew i wa doing this the only time i m really happy is when i m around her i needed to see her so i skipped practice to hangout with her she wa already with her girl friend and i didn t want to be a jerk and just come out and say i need to be with you tonight i think is the limit im always horny it s all i think about and my gf rarely want to have sex because she wa molested in her sleep twice by a family friend she still sometime see this last week i kinda learned if i keep asking her she will give in we were in my basement tonight and cuddling when i tried to finger her i did not force her i asked multiple time for consent she let me do it and gave me a handjob we both finished and i said do you want to go to the park where we usually have car sex she said yes so we went it wa still kinda light out so we went to target and walmart and walked around she showed me this lego set she wanted for herself i wa having a great time when we got in the car she said she didn t want to have sex anymore i wa extremely disappointed because she got my hope up i did not force her though she said she wa sick of me always talking about sex i replied saying it s the only thing i can ever think about she got mad and we sat in silence for a bit she asked to go home but i begged her to stay out for another hour until our curfew she agreed and went went to mcdonald s for sprite i apologized probably time about it saying i ll be better i know she could do better than me but i can t bring myself to break up with her she say she only want me but i want her to be happy with someone that would treat her better i ve decided to finally go to sleep and let her move on but the important part is her period is day late right now she might be pregnant neither of u believe in abortion if she is pregnant i plan on staying alive and supporting it if she s not i m going to buy her the 00 lego set she doesn t want me to buy for her i m gon na overdose after that i think i will write her a note saying sorry and it s not her fault one to the school and friend asking them to make joke about it and one to my 0 yo brother to say sorry and leave him everything i own xbox and 000 in my bank sorry this wa so long,1 im done living im dirt fucking broke cant even afford fucking coffee im used like fucking slave parents mom constantly shit her time pay me doesnt money shell pay later next thing know something doesnt pay me dont even fucking dollar name fucking friends dont even talk anymore dont even deserve them complain them try make feel better lies im sick it live parents shit deal im another nuisance take care of couldnt save five dollars save goddamn life see something want buy it moneys gone subscription comes cant afford it parents pay it owe even money already do hell sold soul id still owe money even owe money friends dont even need deal still waste money dead man sit room waste life might well dead people would better without leech them thanks reading rant whatever reason,0 sorry if this is kinda confusing and messed up i have a hard time putting my thought into word i f would sometimes get suicidal thought whenever i wa going through a bad panic attack but after i calmed down those thought would just disappear and i wa always sure that i would never do that stuff because i knew i only thought that a a quick escape from all the emotional pain and anxiety i wa going through but today those thought wouldn t get out of my head and i d find myself zoning out and planning on how to do it i wasn t even panicking about anything more like just feeling empty and depressed about my current and future life i ve been fighting everyday to feel some genuine happiness in myself and love for others so i can stop putting on this fake smile so everyone doesn t worry about me i miss it so fucking much and lately i ve been getting spark of those feeling again but they quickly dwindle away but now with these thought creeping in i feel like this battle that i ve been fighting for so long is pointless i don t even see a future for myself the people that i love in this life are slowly being consumed with negativity and become more and more toxic to me everyday and i ve noticed myself gaining that same negativity towards others and life and while i know that they re probably going through some stuff and i have sympathy for them it draining me and i can t be around them any longer since they clearly don t want change life been getting hard for me and it sucking the light out of me i don t know what to do about these thought but they won t get out of my fucking head and i m scared they ll get even worse please help me,1 gotta love moms mom entirely convinced youtube red porn website,0 lot questions mind buckle dont idc how deal family drama feel started is normal feel like nobody depend on am posting much today ive posted like every hour what r wholesomecute subreddit need something distract nice day hug,0 well im making final plans im going get haircut wear best clothing step away lifei actually decided end life two years ago months death beloved wife living relatives lifelong struggle bipolar disorder substance abuse issues left pretty much alone earth wife yin yang enjoyed six short years bliss stability love mine finally allowed normal im happy years alone unstable addicted alone well interesting story decided summer first serious snowfall required get shovel would triggering moment im old enough unhealthy enough im really capable clearing driveway without assistance figured moment accept best days behind take final step crazy thing though winter first winter recorded history tiny swath northern indiana live got appreciable snowfall snow redflag pray courage this ive studied thought lot take life think made right choice one real question remains think wait snow,1 im goin mii mii'zz...sleepy as hell! talk 2 you all tomorrow ,0 gr t my face is very itchy,0 im depressive dellusional im realistic got mogged toyed with perfectly normal natural inferior like me,0 feel like im living expected me want toive felt like life much struggle keep living past years ive suicidal thoughts since around years old come go every time come always seems get worse also around time started cutting arms year ago would said i think it never make plans wont ever go it time went started looking prices shotguns efficient way killing things like that diagnosed depression around sophmore year high school since barely graduated high school graduated tech school got job along way kept telling youll feel better eventually never have times im thinking redflag capacity im mentally physically exhausted work im talking friend something feel like im autopilot day days weeks fly hardly remember happened yesterday could routine ive gotten cuz work exact thing happenes high school difference cant sleep work like school else lose job suicidal thoughts gone occasional weekly daily every single inconvenience life makes wish didnt exist could die accident didnt keep living started smoking half year ago sort anxious episode trade school havent stopped despite couple attempts went cigarettes day helps calm little bit works thousands times better medication ive prescribed gives disturbing comfort knowing life shortened even little bit everything feels empty good things happen happiness never sticks dont want keep living feel like to else ill fail everyone around even more,1 sexuality hocd ruining lifei cant stop obsessing lesbian im not im bisexual want im petrified lesbian brain keeps lying tricking thinking might im not want disgusting lesbian thoughts go away hate attracted women im never ever going come closet ill date men marry one die never act feelings women makes fucking depressed extent depressed lean towards women want fuck one bad cant stop thinking one loving cuddling kids her fuck brain me thinking thing men give feeling know what one proving wrong one hear lesbians shit is theyre lonely going die alone no im wrong no cannot happy sex attractions even know fucking care lesbians im one obsess it im bi like men too want fucking deal shit want fucking kill thinking anymore,1 looking acidentaly news pictures weed web specially working triggered super anxious horrible feeling would take around hour two recover feeling day still suffer this when work important meeting praying computer article marijuana weed suddenly appears newsfeedcan imagine this completly irrational,1 used cry sleep early years old used cry time passing childi think meant born,1 Did you know there is more than one type of Depression? Take a Read and Share the Blog to Raise Awareness! https://cureup.org/story/different-types-of-depression/ …,1 goodbyeposting main acc since doesnt matter anymore ive depressed years planning redflag yeras today day jump balcony end all hope everyone great live never end like me,1 dont even know say girlfriend last night party slept next first time dating amazing girl extremely drunk night drunk sad personal issues basically sober helped night spooning night holding tight remember trying make feel safe wake morning day today avoiding me today talked told night touching boobs kept pushing away also told moaned night extremely uncomfortable dont remember anything happened thought asleep however says awake intentionally her feel like absolute dog shit wants take break dont know feel extremely guilty bad confused cant believe thing love girl want happy feel disgusted thing find hard believe could something like want back advice reddit begging,0 pain stopnever,1 im breaking pointim angry lonely feel like one understands me im breaking point im lose it someone says one stupid plattitude everyone says people experiencing lot emotional shit im done im longer gonna even try talk feelings open anyone im gonna end something really bad im gonna kill end it thought whole point opening people could find someone whos understanding avoid people insensitive wholl make things worse whatever dude im really close done right now,1 im pathetic cant even end pathetic lifeim years old ive suicidal thoughts years now remember started th grade would poke kitchen knife sternum try work courage fall it im college hate ever worst part reason it parents pretty wealthy decent group friends ive done pretty well school still think redflag fucking time today stood bridge like usually gets really bad legs let it im much pussy it wish could fall asleep never wake up,1 @Styla73 Thank you. ,0 film starts family going different directions teenage daughter martha macissac olivia dunne much love joe macleodzack mother played mitzi kapturejill dunne suddenly walks daughter zack making kinds problems seem surface jill dunne husband always traveling staying away home quite often also big problems occur family decides go camping trip daughter olivia dislikes cannot adapt sleeping outdoors requires tent kept bugs many ways olivia outstanding performance teenage nick mancusorichard grant gives great supporting role hotel owner film keep guessing end enjoy film filled plenty horror terror enjoy,0 decidewhether kill myself redflag definitely always wrong make rational choice reason enough im heavy burden friends family contribute anything little hope later im young still doubt ill successful even happy future id rather kill sooner waste fewer resources therapy medication air seeing future,1 "@organiclemon T1. Depression, anxiety, panic disorder. Generalised stress. Functional disorders. Addiction. Those with psychoses mostly go to psychiatrists.",1 miss much always you listened helped cared others good humour general awesome talk to still cant believe gone two months im kinda giving hope ill ever see again,0 movie modern day scarfaceit toesthis movie one rare epic films makes want sequeli especially liked damian chapa performance deserved academy awardwhich deserved performance blood blood outthe thing like behind scenes show intensity movie hadand would like seen less narrated scenesbut movie great top ten movies timeplus acting great bad scene moviei loved jennifer tilly perfect well casti cant see anyone like movie greatdefinitely must see,0 giving months live things get better throw towelits long time coming everything life hit rock bottom son narcissistic now ex boyfriend years left explanation blocked number cant get asshole head love family even though want alive anymore know them im working daily im making rain resumes everywhere hopes get chance going therapy keep trying new years nothing gets better im throwing towel want put family this cant keep suffering myself,1 fools wake sheeple done big pharmas otter propagandas implant otter microchips mind devolve human otters mind wake sheeple,0 streetwearbear yes i am thanks for reaveling to the world bro fuck my life hahaha,0 thing im killing arrives tomorrowobviously elaborate avoid rule breaking ive worked hard summon strength pull off took lot steps buying stuff actively work drive friends acquaintances off hurts make people love hate you hurts asshole people deserve suffer hope theyll care less now ive ever hurt people deserve live fair alive want everyone happy thats going happen im gone im looking support advice really needed get thoughts there sorry blogposting,1 hate friends sent among us porn like ,0 "At the last count I'd received nearly 150 messages from people telling me about their own struggles since 'going public' about my depression and anxiety. As I said, really overwhelming.",1 @JamaicanDawta thank you for the #followfriday ,0 sexist scared women okay like phobia anything im little scared people general scared women ive bullied genders heres experiences boys bullied hit me rare make bleed made bleed since kindergarten manipulated betrayed used ect women course understand women like that im scared getting bullied women fight back hit women likely passive aggressive course know women men like this general woman bad shed likely insult man would likely hit you id rather hit honest see pain learning experience i see others pain learning experience think okay theyre bullied hurts lot self esteem gets ruined non binary assigned female birth think women bad men bad im afraid people general im scared getting bullied scared getting bullied women im saying women likely bullies think women bad men bad would rather bullied average man average woman make sexist,0 ending fridayive never told true story goes im currently junior college ive never really figured want life im ancious find order find good job ive really interested forensic science wanted something like that ive criminal justice major past two years super easy gave plenty time goof off year learned never get job forensics unless get chemistry degree made change year nothing super hard calculus classes chemistry classes biology remember nothing time high school im also learning im awful student never retaining info spitting tests feel like im everything every morning wake painful anxiety attacks mention friends experiences past two years school thing keeping parents doesnt feel like thats enough thought could change adapt cant everything hurts want die peace cant imagine moms reaction im failure student go life feel like disappointment waste space dont want hurt anymore nothing helps therapy doctors medication worthless goodbye,1 the nd account is suspended tho let them rejoice depression is eating them all up,1 hot fucking take dont get mad people using preferred pronouns idea trans non binary,0 people really think notch created minecraft obviously phlza minecraft,0 me gustar a crear un espacio para hablar sobre los siguientes temas depression peliculas musica hilo ser a muy cool platicar con ustedes que opinan,1 does anybody love The Hills? i used to think it's boring but now im quite a big fan. i dunno...i like that it looks like real life,0 im bored tell something funny ill laugh ,0 tacce dang i ll get house off itunes i hear it wa a devastating episode,0 today imagined commit redflag new year nightmy life may look perfect you im years old working tech industry top tier company good salary recently promoted know find new better job day want to recently bought expensive condo downtown enough savings solve notanticipated financial problems living foreign country relatives thousands miles away one friend never girlfriend loneliness destroyed mentally inside last year im suffering deep depression derealization receiving treatment last months working different psychiatrists tried bunch different medications without signs improvement suicidal thoughts seemed manageable bother lot rather curiosity couple weeks ago told friend joke nothing changes months by new year ill figure something meaning maybe moving country but internally also thought redflag tonight feeling significantly worse ever figured wont get better ny thought end it imagination went upstairs rooftop stepped rail thought im doing spread hands like bird closed eyes stepped forward imagined seconds ill falling everything end reviewed situation ever ever again thought nobody see me happens someone try stop me felt real scary got tachycardia feeling lump throat trouble breathing never scared life even experience ny getting closer closer dont anticipate solution problem want end like dont want keep going tried calm down went walk outside come back office tried get touch friend seems busy tonight pm im afraid go home,1 fuck know girl like me thats all fuck know getting desperate,0 Ano tong twitter. ,0 rufus rufus rufus bloody brillaint shame my mum is such a miserable crab or i could liten to him while i work,0 title rock abuse im scared deadrock bullying lately really wanted kill myself thing is scared scared rock music genre rock person online terryfing im scared violent im scared listen im scared please redflag way nothing else im scared im fucking scared meeting since threatend sell valuable things life yes power im scared im really scared please help myself im scared sorry im scared tried meet park pictured him scared even more big cant strong big scares me tried stab i scared said try would slaughter dog dont want anymore mg acetaminophen way please painless im scared im scared ok love hate im scared miss pebble was might need call help help im scared rock remember im gone ill haunt you scared best regards dead,1 confession slight reddit crush now know person yeah seem neat and cute,0 it wasn t to bad it s pretty easy but i wa still scared i ve lost over job due to my anxiety i hope this one stick plus it s only min from home i wa so proud that i got up early and i went to work i made myself do it but i did it my second day is tomorrow and i m nervous again i hope i can pull through and be able to do this,1 @mileycyrus Great movie and keep up the good work! ,0 nw more confused then ever,0 hate much fixating one person lost interest left feel empty worthless,0 doe anyone else feel like this there nothing in life that make me think yeah i genuinely wan na be here ive attempted suicide before and i dont think i necessarily wan na die it just there nothing about life that i like i hate school i hate working i hate waking up i hate getting out of bed i hate having resposibilities i hate everything that come with living i hate everything to do with society money etc i have no motivation to get up and make a change hell i dont even want to at this point i dont see why i should nothing really satisfies me anymore too im currently in the process of getting a therapist so maybe they ll help me figure out what i should do but everything about life i hate if there anyone else who feel like this what are you doing to combat this feeling is there anything i can do im only it feel wrong to feel like this at such a young age,1 @Jazza_UK Hah! You broke them! ,0 guess thats itsw last resorti never thought would end herebut point im desperate im guy bisexual record ive love straight best friend years knows everything told everything hes perfectly fine cant forget him even though rejected many times yesterday last time literally told theres zero chance anything happeningits stupid knew answer even though likes tease time time feeling way think itive met couple people come love rejected me wether theyre straight cant love me hurts so fucking much thought capable loved overwhelming me fact ive rejeceted whole life help well im losing emotions cant cry anymore whats left me studying im pretty good university working alone actually thing makes forget this whats point im happy never was now im thinking isolating myself stop going friends stop talking everyone finish work like robot im becoming end it hope im far away enough everyone easily vanish without causing suffering anyone tell me whats other way out please say it gets better ive thinking like years im never got better guarantee find happiness keep fighting,1 went philosophy holethe thing alive completely normal feel pain matter feel happiness content pain there got thinking pain exist reason to universehuman body allowed pain exist normally case logically want life smart enough know way change properties nature would cause live im smart enough know im smart want experience pain anymore experience pretty much key understanding need out,1 im ready go im calm makes even certaini dealt lot life im sparing details suspect elaborate id receive messages saying ive come far ive proven stand hardships etc etc abused throughout childhood poor life etc gotten nothing im accepting future want life option really continuing kind work part time college food service first job lab gave presentations awards ive worked many labs ive done many things even cant get fucking internship im fucking idiot current job makes feel legitimately subhuman cry whenever get work feel worthless ambitions ive put much work fulfilling them itll end ruins government planning massively tax graduate school options already out already knew would be think could get gpa really want to graduate degrees seem burden anything want work lab even care make meager money long afford studio apartment take pride work pride work right now foresee even finding job graduate little year cant even get second internship already one get this gave offer back said no thought broaden horizons ive lost luck ever had could set safe ruined that bottle barbituates chronic migraines made map entire future different tendrils might take none lead anywhere positive options spent future im obligated work packmule serve professionals better lives mine rest life cant make that one can im afraid die consider im act defiance refuse live survival mode sake people empathy towards me wanted fulfilling life wanted loved even pay well wanted cultivate image myself develop hobbies make friends never happen work deadend job rest life honestly question anyone does anyone continues living life like that barring children spouses want fulfilling life want death never fulfilling life im stopping train derails or sense im derailing myself least im control,1 strange cant contact therapists koreain korea people unawaware therapists practise play candles herbs thus lack psychological knowledge means therapists somewhere psychiatric docs stubborn counselors since psychology still taboo snob psychiatric docs diagnose pills want moneys conservative cpunselors try correct people others neither lgbtq friendly since snob try correct people lastly right mad people try correct person try mad want use insanity fuel,1 samesuicidaldepressioni early s really wish could go garage turn car on feel like drain family still live home cant find job tried go college couple years ago ended failing feel like wasting money time im beginning see im smart enough go college anything useful the classes hard keep up much ive looked shitty job get know pay horrible im unlikely get poverty thing is ive seen parents forced live work way full time get by hate jobs seems like thing live go work thats whats future even want it another thing ive always wanted mother refuse bring child situation theyre unlikely fulfilling life sort resent parents knew money get wrong thankful theyre worked like provide enough eat least see overworked never time family life want life want children badly id never able afford give good life said im hard time even getting crappy minimum wage job feel guilty im adult parents still support me hell even got job mcdonalds even earn enough rent plan killing someday family already lost many loved family members cant them even though theyd really better never existed,1 should really go to sleep so i can get up early tomorrow well today now,0 Standing in the rain ,0 really good mashup song httpsyoutubepfahg_fjg,0 januarycrimson sorry babe my fam annoys me too thankfully they re asleep right now muahaha evil laugh,0 super straight cool ,0 is stuck in traffic,0 want someone listen while may speak someone,1 open windows amazing recently discovered glory windows room open live rural area temperature nice moment windows open fills room sounds country well cools room significantly similar circumstances highly suggest trying yourselves way diction bit formal half way writing essay,0 justwhy thisso heres thing hurtful ever sitting there next two trustworthy friends anyone start talking other reverse micheal jackson lean back so know im talking about tip dont fucking this hurts bad do ive personally experienced this almost cried saying friends anybody doesnt want friend die dont fucking this,1 survey censorship video games hi im school assignment censorship video games would really appreciate would help filling survey answers anonymous give personal info ampxb httpsformsgleqpoargfmvjtgahttpsformsgleqpoargfmvjtga,0 happy international day against depression yeah today is my birthday too lol,1 everyone love given meeveryone dad side family friends anyone even consider dating mom begged move another state her saying wants nothing made honest mistake im tired caring putting effort getting shit return really want end all even bother,1 moment moment remember friend tiktok curious go it see multiple videos cutting herself mental breakdowns telling hundreds people traumatic stories didnt even know guess fault nosy goddamn really public,0 planning killing one hourive enough stressed anxious feel like living more ive really enough ive felt way years different reason previously lacked will much preferred idea death life due stress anxiety im years old highschool pile work needing done procrastinate hate work need do avoid it ill end forced slap something together hour fail classes either end here spend rest year hating life fail highschool spend rest life shitty job hating life know family hate this understand theyll move on even seen mother years left me spoken father days even talk generic things making attend school really feel scared death im also fairly confident method work plan injecting units rapid acting insulin father diabetic hour ill inject insulin lie die watching one favorite movies fall asleep never wake up actually sounds perfect me really sure im posting this guess want someone talk go it,1 ew ew ew ew got email year old sharing nudes probably spam manga sites visit still,0 @dkkauwe I dislike one-way communication. I don't follow many people but I talk with everyone who follows me and/or talks to me ,0 Sitting here in the net cafe boreddddd and cant wait until my internet at my new home gets workingg so I can upload some CRAZY pics!! x,0 chrisdjmoyles didnt get ticket live in mk gutted xx,0 BGT was great last night. DIVERSITY WON ,0 used always feel loved me common fight turned sickly true care much man place shoes feeling pain must feeling alone know sick me stop this shouldnt feel bad right,1 healthcare got denied options someone optionsi hoping healthcare would get approved could get antidepressants seek psychiatrist course got denied guess best bet try getting back home applying whatever florida healthcare dont know make much longer everyday getting worse last anyone ideas anyone least know much would antidepressants without healthcare much money last hope,1 kid thought poggers racist day kid school claimed poggers racial slur slang slave like kid went out told friends parents etc someone actually say face poggers racist term know got from started saying one day,0 @buckhollywood haha! Good point! I love brushing my teeth in the shower though! ,0 need helpmy girlfriend tried commit redflag last night asleep type one diabetic luckily smell insulin woke up took minutes convince drink sugar fix sugars know support think know got situation would rather say here im loss everything going well guess says otherwise rd time ive stopped ending cant find way make better im trying get get professional help seems think work considering one year previously deeply love want trying get know something worth living time asked let die last night accept that happy world keep stopping selfish know anymore,1 Fireproof yall. ,0 "@mattbacak Hi! Doing well, thanks! Still want 2 do that podcast i'view, but we're rethinking our podcast & want to get it in place 1st. ",0 somebody talk time hey im german guy somebody talk please feel free dm me honestly im hella bored however im also good listener would love get know people different countries different cultures chat life and well work improving english so anyways nice day andor night,0 need ideas book im writing write book fractured identity need help create resolution links journey new sense self far book father hid daughter government systems meaning trace girl is government figures fathers secret kills him girl confused know society isolated whole life incorporate selfdiscovery story know put anybody ideas pls,0 omfim depressed want fucking scream like want talk someone one life fucking cares me fuck still alive want fucking die cant deal living more hell deal living everything god damn painful,1 first all english main language try write best cani suicidal thoughts since probably never told anyone know make bullshit like allow alone things like thati psychology treatment year half never told psychologist every day want diebecause tell know professional obligation tell momi also told girlfriend want commit suicide would make panic know is would try call everyone tell want diewhy selfish cannot understand fact willing continue living would tell them going pain asssorry make much sense trying to know write even want help,1 want live anymoreim past years life hell monumental situation happened years ago ever since nothing bipolar maybe cant handle feeling like rest life certainly will child alcoholics severely depressed mother never showed ounce self love that lovely trait given me like im bred hate myself want live know sure never different forever depressed unhappy want go day day this people sense something wrong always stay away like toxic is im right mind everyday know worthless meaningless huge world know cant make difference know im psychological mess thats good nothing one likes around me hate around myself live thought going rest life makes want die even more theres nothing do go gym everyday social since life constant state nothing depression hiding everyone lose friends make manage get past depression lose talk much hate life myself everyone moving lives falling love getting married starting families starting careers buying first homes meeting new people jobs moving new places theyre happy everything seems right everyone monumental fuck up,1 nonbinary female getting awards male getting awards need fill empty gap,0 still upset friend apologised making mistake invited sleepover said loved shes forever still feel sad still dont feel happy,0 @Paulaabdul Have a safe trip to NY! makes me smile thinking you'll be in my town. ,0 stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed,0 periphery paulo low middleclass dysfunctional hypocrite family teodoro giulio lopes cludia leona cavalli teenager soninha slvia loureno deep secrets religious teodoro indeed hitman hired kill people neighborhood friend waldomiro ailton graa lover devout woman terezinha martha meola wants regenerate going country her cludia young lover jlio ismael de arajo delivers meats fathers butcher shop soninha common sixteen years old teenager periphery active sexual life smoking grass loving heavy metal jlio killed castrated neighborhood lives members family changebr br contra todos great low budget brazilian movie pictures life periphery big brazilian city story real uses usual elements poor area big brazilian cities drug dealers hit men fanatic religious evangelic people hopeless teenagers etc many plot points surprising end characters excellent performances acting natural making story totally believable camera follows characters giving great dynamics film extras dvd director roberto moreira explains screenplay lines description situations partially disclosed one week beginning shootings actors trainings workshops used lots improvisation reason natural acting vote eightbr br title brazil contra todos against everybody,0 im updating eso taking everrrrrrrr,0 I heart Melody Hobson's stillettos! And her financial analyzing... ,0 rosenstrasse touching story courage adversity reichdeutch women find jewish husbands locked pending deportation one aristocrat disowned family lena fischer finds among mob general gudarians sister rank privilege merit special consideration br br nor service reich female detainee whose husband ostfront learn one horrifying scenes movie guards take wedding band given soldier husband br br lest think typical german brutishness america today lady bush imperiously ordering arrest gold star mothers mothers us servicemembers killed action presence offencive little regrettably changed years der fuher der fumblerbr br fortunately eight year old daughter ruth escapes capturebr br waiting cold rosenstrasse lena fischer first reluctant take ruth responding way take typically german even lena fishers brother colonel arthur von eschenbach aware opposed holocost cautions lena it lena chooses embrace idea american rebelliousness even renaming ruth aryan sounding name helga lehmannbr br the siege ends favourably rosenstrasse lena mourns happened ruth war years later ruths daughter hannah sets search mothers past meets year old lena guise writing personal history warbr br i deem interesting hannah wanted much look family never checked fate grandfather last known served ostfront,0 need braces went dentist earlier teeth cleaned checked on didnt concerns although chatting amongst dentist assistant apprentice think made wonder going need retainer overbite underbite no know crooked teeth didnt really care turns teeth blocking teeth coming in need teeth pulled and braces braces literally last things wanted ive heard hurt lot need avoid certain foods dont want that dont know cant eat drink able satiate orange juice addiction able eat dads butter chicken beef broccoli even survive pain,0 after a year of unemployment i got positive news yesterday that i got the job it s the perfect position for me and it will be really interesting to start but a usual i can t be happy when i m supposed to be since the congratulation call i have been spiraling a bit heart raising intrusive thought it s always the same thing,1 @sbdoll *big huggles* ty so much for the donation xxx,0 it s mum birthday im glad she like her pressies i m looking forward to party time later this week but sad im not going to cornwall,0 Elizabeth is freakin' awesome!!! She's following me now! ,0 Earl's wearing a tie ,0 friends teacher heard parents arguing online school want die basically computer microsoft teams glitched wasnt muted even though said was parents usually argue bad pretty much started recieving lot messages looked phone group chat people laughing me make even worse first year high school im fucking embarassed much went settings completely disabled microphone teachers ask something act dumb type messages either broken internet trash im still class im following along wanna escape videogames know least someone class online enter party feel like talking them nobody house talking want die,0 mind though seems rather peaceful point alone causes us die first place seems least going die alone,1 Depression and anxiety is so real !,1 karen someone wearing mask within miles excuse sir know actively harassing me,0 back from bangalore missed dancing with a handsome wonderfully smiling foreigner,0 @VisitTampaBay Thank you!! Will tweet from Italy for sure.,0 pls tell im aloneam one feels sad time cant tell anyone dont rlly anything much sad well nothing havent able deal past years maybe fact everything bad happens doesnt seem bad seems normal recenly moved schools dont many friends well close ones anyways used cry time ig stopped dont cry sit school anywhere thinking life would like wasnt me didnt grow did didnt constantly make mistakes didnt seem like failure parents also get mad little things idk conrol it know cant get help cant talk family shit idk ig im bit confused things dont rlly anyone guide me,1 @erniehalter welcome back to LA Congrats on shout out! Looking forward to your residency at HC!,0 saf wouldn t even work with him and his greedy agent jose brought him back with the highest fee and loved him like son jose should be the one talking bout depression because he wa really backstabbed,1 for me my depression severity ha gotten worse a the year have gone by it seems that each year is collectively worse than the last i get a huge pain when i remember not how thing used to be but how i used to be 0 year ago if i could i would go back in time knowing i can t and that i m doomed to worse depression each year is almost too much to bear the whole it get better thing ha not proven true for my life and particular journey with ptsd i felt even better closer to my trauma time hasn t healed it even with year and year of different therapy the farther i get the worse i feel overall doe any one else have this feeling,1 @kaitoconnell Aaaaayyyyy momma you trynna take a depression nap later,1 feel it coming nothing it part even wants it excuse hide world tried good person laughing smiling making plans looking future hope optimism it no world ask try display coming back real me think want stop it coming back,1 ryanseacrest is it just me or she hate anoop i mean seriously she s kinda mean to him,0 i m all snuffly and then hot and cold tired and bunged up woe is me,0 well like half year ago met girl classroom lonely person obviously feel love really hard because know one nice many time finally someone nice think person really care anyway became friends got boyfriend i never told felt her well still friends also closer friends and months ago got busy focused stuff get little distant two months ee talked like times which considering used talk every daythen weeks ago met another girl started talking good friendship growing us thought better even nice all feel kind romantic feeling something felt friend let us name old friend v new friend k thought jave already overcame v love anymore shureand well days ago made videocall weeks without interaction us saw v felt weird again think fell love again maybe never stopped love her idk saw cute face beautiful green eyes could anything fell something againthe problem that v boyfriend like way thought good friend thought already finished feelings her confused still like her want tied always promised interfere life waythe growing friendship k made thought good again could let v go wanted but dot know still like her confusing afraid start acting like dumb them want peace many problems worry about helping depression also means really really like v situation would shitty me boyfriend chance her know would never achieve something her kind mind tricking again making fake scenarios v involved even notice happens this shitty thought would never problems,1 "©•©•© Brand your business by putting your logo, products & services photos on REAL postage stamps! ••• http://is.gd/12G9R • Cool! ©•©•©",0 "@sarahrosex3 hey love, hope you're doing okay. I'm about to sign onto AIM. miss you much.",0 wonderful movie ive seen twice ive looking ever id buy could find it sad shows three things much man love woman hard people want something hard people work overcome limitations,0 going long post complaining please read time willing helpright week final exams barely studied cannot help panic keep imagining worst case scenarios failingi last year school year basically determines future people say country grades determines college go year living hell get even worsei spend day isolated room procastinate i behind studying year think behind cannot handle fursturation procastinate even makes situation worse reached point never imagined would condition week finalsi really started hate self develop impostor syndrome feel like good friends they could simply sit study one feels immense resistance fursturation also stopped believing god became secretly atheist envy religous friends something believe makes strong nothing one understand going i cannot help think like year nonending headache backneck pain scoliosis redflag makes worse worst thing parents expects get high grades would study engineering matter time find much piece shit get immensely disappointedthey high hopes one siblings good school year fucked lifei watched alot self help stuff work anymore i lost motivation help lowest point life,1 i m in pain,0 mercedesashley damn the grind is inspirational and saddening at the same time don t want you to stop cuz i like what u do much love,0 gave everything livei already gave everything get live wasting time nothing bed day playing video games stopped eating even anymore im boring im important anyone friend feelings rejected yesterday feel happiness least years tried making new friends keep driving people away im depressed boring hell hell even dog hates me considering killing myself want familyand friend feel bad it anymore hope life think ill ever happy way suicidal least years harm around years now years ago abusive relationship got start self harm brother months ago used hit whenever wanted to im drop highschoollast year cant get room therapist years nothing changed good way meds help think im worthless nobody cares me people care kill myself right maybe thats option me,1 wasting time alivei feel like im wasting time alive one cares,1 finally fellow ninja logging into the forum if you ve done so recently can you redo again a it woz a bit broken before,0 realized dont good pictures tons crying dumb af cant find actually think pretty im sad,0 comment much hate methink person hate most would make departure world less regrettable,1 yall wanna go out id personally like went nice comfortable restaurant cuddle guys,0 preface im f and currently in community college so i have gad undiagnosed but pretty obvious and i feel like im inexperienced in working and doing thing on my own in real life and most of it stem from social anxiety i heard alot of people from tiktok who say that their social anxiety got better once they started working retail or fast food because they were forced to talk to other people on a regular basis so my question is did getting a part time job help with your social anxiety,1 "@donut87_ i wanna get in on the group hug in the end , i'm p sure it would entirely cure my depression",1 awainting 10 to but some blink 182 tickets.... normaly i wouldnt be up this early...but anything for concert tickets.. ,0 honestly feel like shit feel like life driven sadness hate blind anger otherwise feel anything otherwise feel absolutely nothing care anything want anything found things used love bring little none satisfaction all cannot make decisions own spend night long crying morning absolute worst cannot talk anyone friends normal like depression shit last time talked said depression poser want talk parents neither therapist really help feel like one understands me mom said stage months ago really stage really stage,1 @Marii89 y uh I'm closing ,0 rapid intercutting scenes insane people asylum montagesuperimposition images vague interwoven narratives hard movie follow apparently man masue inoue takes job porter janitor asylum near imprisoned wife maybe rescue her clearly mad huddled floor vacant expression much time fear misery confusion written face rest time filmmaker switches point view sometimes see vague images side pond drowning baby clutching drowned child tormented something point view shifts mad folks filmmaker uses distorting lenses things showing us mad people see react place swarming mad folks laughing hiding one case dancing frenetically night day one point man tries take wife outside night outside door terrifies runs back cell gradually man slips nightmare hes interrupted another attempt steal away kills doctor many attendants mad folk laugh applaud wakes relieved mops floor fascinating shots japanes life streets buildings s,0 "@dangitstiarex3, I'm with @thatgirrllauren's house, and we both miss you! ",0 @prancingaround woooot thanks man!!! glad you dig...promise to keep it coming ,0 discord servers anime style idk bro wondering,0 "@TikkaMadsen Okay, I'll take some tomorrow I'm going to use it too. I had one already, but it needs a new roller. I love typewriters ",0 state sub discovered subreddit thought going good teenager related posts boy wrong recently noticed many posts like i asked best friend i told crush like her yeah might true surely tiring seeing thing again yeah wanted share this,0 wishing pain would endi made post rdepression today said would sleep not im lying bed and well know things work me life ive felt stressed theres deeprooted cause it way everything scares shit try hard takes toll me course theres urge type details whatever consumer product ideal trend fad stupid frustrating me long day days long nothing past occurred long time ago im scared summer approaching face red year ago asked her way inviting felt off familiar it time someone offering spend time me really frustrated continued hear usual know mean anything wrong sugarcoated psychology selfesteem concepts able understand affects me one day day spending time her cried entire day five goes crying life torture was asked someone much weight question end summer went rocker then ignored seen around painful thing cried much night yes would love someone save me decades torture keep it keep trying hell me suicidal thoughts around big time,1 listen beat lyrics sometimes like lyrics filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 a lot of the time when it get dark i just start feeling so fucking shitty and i don t know why is this normal thing that will pop into my mind are thing like how i could just kill myself and people would get over it soon in different time of my life i ve planned out what date work best a to not ruin holiday or birthday im not sure if this kind of stuff is normal,1 way mitigate pain caused hangingive heard way mitigate pain hang yourself supposedly need put padding rope hang side ive heard certain side die choking die lack blood flow brain anyone back see true true side neck rope digging into,1 day posting random sabaton lyrics im dating someone hell make way heaven nazi lines,0 tiredi dont really know say im tired living im tired feeling alone like know people me cant help feel alone empty ive tried killing multiple times including tonight wanna die want live best friend myself dont know whats next though,1 please help meplease help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help please help 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without luck sequence air raid veronika walks standing stairs circulating destroyed building called home scene mark makes lustful move veronika another air raid continues outside building wind rustles curtains flashes light emanate inside two many examples sergei urusevsky shows genius framing images last forever film but without power tragedy story regarding war forever shape destiny couple dearly deeply love other film hold beauty visual alone together however were left amazing filmsimply haunting masterpiece soviet union stalin breathed last breath feel honored beheld great film,0 hi im supoused treat gay person friend recently go aout closet im suposed treat post noted subreddit lot members lgtb comunity,0 son pure kind committed redflag uk far far home hours planei lost son eleven days ago committed redflag severe emotional issues ftom horrible mean horrible things happened young diagnosed two months ago severe ulcerative crones disease went europe stelara crones med there knew hed suffer he thought hed happier far away always thought ok far away never stayed one place long sick flare crones went lbd lbs skelton bones sticking out pictures made cry cry cry felt vulnerable couldnt live power someone evil took power away young someone offered stay house sick gross people thought everyone nice like him also brain damage previous redflag attempt gone wrong son brain damage believed everything anyone said could force stay home kept leaving home running away himself always going places far away many times dangerous countries travelled before sharp smart aware picked lies bs could smell bad situations one could fool him man wife quite number him health failing knew crones couldnt travel anymore wanted come home us hour flight away took weak saw hope podcast overdosing loosing it love much sage book smart school smart something scared even though im mom helped me would stay phone hours me talking making sense things wouldnt say good buy saw face ok spoke texted everyday days want back cant walk dont want see light dont want eat appetite want go join him everything want write barley see screen crying much torture,1 "-i lost myself between depression and anxiety, i couldn't leave my bed, i had pretty bad thoughts,i was barely living at that point.So im sure i can say this boy saved my life.Which is crazy to think about cause i've never met him, never spoke to him, and he doesnt even know-",1 @Linz__marie lol...well its not that bad of surgery ,0 sick excluded everything friends seem like embarrassed mei barely friends hate appearancei hate feeling useless one gives shit mei want cut again way relieve paini hate seeing people happy together paini hate classmates much hate seeing groups leaving behindi hate lifei wish way end shit reborn decent lifei hate feeling lonely one likes me want die,1 teenagers hands type keyboard born without hands method typing keyboard leave comment below,0 people in the past day have told me i m not doing enough i m not good enough i m trying my best if my best is causing me so much stress and pain what s the point of living i m nothing after all therapy doesn t help because i m far too socially anxious for it and i can t get medication because i can t go to therapy every reliever or thing that make me happy either doesn t anymore or i don t have time for i can t fucking doing it anymore,1 not twittering in the past day obviously 0am and taking a small break from ochem,0 want kill every time put gun mouth get scaredi wish could pay someone me im afraid first shot wont enough think do looked hit men online like million dollars,1 Antidepressant of The Day#Depression #Joy #Antidepressant #Medicine #Hope #Rest #Faith #God #Inspire #Encourage #Peace #AntidepressantOfTheDay #Happy pic.twitter.com/YyWEOAaUAE,1 minutes submit this put mm fmj skullhey everyone things considered bad lived energy write again mm semi auto fmj chamber im drunk took xanax no im calling hotlines ive set timer long,1 father makes deals people kuwait russia sells cows people there,0 Depression is coming at me like a dark horse.,1 still a bit sick but working on article today,0 confused what he should do with his life,0 im worried friend mine recently expressed suicidal thoughts experienced past help himmy friend week seemed upbeat happy recently told become extremely distraught divorced mother declared bankruptcy grades dumps attempts provide family worried happy college always concerned mom believe may alcoholic maybe probably abusive sent incoherent emails friends many occasions always napping call friend recent call telling i told everything need keep things dark verbatim makes worried road ending thought cannot one help him expert point cannot trust family help me advice help friend immensely appreciated offered number redflag hotline begged get counseling know anything else do edit also add secretive talking me always needs randomly hang randomly log facebook xbox live,1 saw drugs years vh love it think reflects drug history well importantly strong message generations woodstock joplins hendrixs jim morrisons deaths many many examples drug use drug abuse completely cover time line evolution drug use america good bad ways opinion documentary well done would like congratulate creators exactly needed playing tv days waiting dvd release definitely see it movie stunning big time,0 @Live2Dance84 That's the spirit ,0 god i feel so constantly out of place i feel like i m always being bothered and anxious i hate it i just want to be alone i would give anything if i could do online again i just feel so anxious and sad at school even with my own friend i just would give anything if i could be by myself i hate it so bad it s so cold and desolate,1 I think it's time to kill some Zombies... ,0 ellendeg ellen do my message not get to you if you didn t notice i m sad i try so hard to communicate wif u,0 i wish could become nothing,1 i m currently on 0mgs daily but i just couldn t do it anymore it s all just so hard i ve only just taken them so don t have any symptom yet i ve only taken the fluoxetine and nothing else is this enough to kill me i m slightly underweight do i need to go to a hospital or just tell someone i don t know what to do i live with my parent and i feel really bad but i still don t want to live anymore,1 telling shit jokes everyday get gf someone stole mood ring last week im honestly still sure feel it,0 hi guys want someone talk guess me stuff need friend suppose dm youve got interesting conversation topic im australian time message might asleep ill reply first thing tomorrow,0 im falling apart bad i fell from grace and i don t know where i m going where do i begin i m so insecure i just got a bad haircut today and i feel ugly i m and a guy im just constantly in pain a little over a month ago my girlfriend left me this wa on february th i had such a beautiful girlfriend who didn t care about my height she started liking me in high school i m starting to feel like i m giving up i miss her so much she treated me like i wa a human and now i have no faith in anyone else looking at me like that she wa with me for and a year and left me i feel like my life is crumbling i don t know how to stand back up and take back over i had a fall from what i thought would never end i never thought she would leave me i m literally just a pit of despair and i act everyday like i m not i go laugh a little go to class go to the gym it s all fake i feel like garbage inside i went to party the last week and had fun all fake my heart ha been in my stomach since she broke up with me and i m seriously falling apart i don t know what to do i can t even gather my thought on here to type what s the point anymore i m barely hanging in there anymore,1 happy birthday everyone birthday st october happy birthday everyone birthday st octoberhappy birthday everyone birthday st october,0 @Desktopmagazine Love this link - very inspiring to an inspiring illustrator cheers! ,0 crush said yes currently morning india im happy sleep im th grade gf crush since th grade,0 cant cryi cant cry time want remember really social really healthy incredibly ambitious smiling type even felt shit seems exaggerated completely idealistic remember teachers kept saying oh ability needs push himself notion keep pushing pathetic want love everyone everyone love other love people make people happy cant even happy myself dreamer still am least realise theyre dreams nothing else still get point life fully articulate im feeling words never wanted express im feeling wanted prove everyone it thats fantasy matter nice make look love love others,1 Post Kenny concert depression has totally set in. How about you @noshoesnation? #TripAroundTheSunTour pic.twitter.com/HxSdp20cNr,1 things got better middle school thankfully sad literally years young child when life supposed good rough still affect life day home life wasnt super bad school living hell excluded everything still day tend view world harsh unaccepting sorry rant sad cruel teachers students elementary school bullying elementary school directly caused many mental health issues,1 another failed attempt another week ot suffering hell selfish god made button die whenever want kill useless person like damn,1 yall ever seriously wanna die remember test tomorrow like ah shit looks like cant die,0 really need somebody talk right nowim lonely fuck desperate anybody talk to struggling big time tonight think im abusive relationship entered way early ending previous one lasting years big troubles communication current partner result storming out leaving hours even days without contact makes suicidal unable think anything else im therapy two months really working at yet im ideas do tonight feels like end relationship feel defeated tried calling mental help hotlines cant reach anybody there know im breaking rules posting im sorry am really need somebody talk guess even know exactly im expecting character me ive never posted reddit before even tho ive lurking like years so obviously throwaway,1 "@eskimowoman no not at all. found it eloquent and entertaining. hence, my recommendation ",0 @Jess92 #30SECONDSTOMARS #30SECONDSTOMARS #30SECONDSTOMARS #30SECONDSTOMARS #30SECONDSTOMARS #30SECONDSTOMARS #30SECONDSTOMARS,0 anyone ever had a delayed response to an anxiety inducing event like even when you were having anxiety during the event i had something super duper stressful happen on sunday and last night i wa horribly nauseous all night long and my fianc think it wa a delayed response to what happened on sunday any insight,1 hi uh took mg melatonin pills die side effects help melatonin effects,1 Depression is not necessarily pathological. It often foreshadows a renewal of the personality or a burst of creative activity. There are moments in human life when a new page is turned. #CarlJung,1 yall play fallout new vegas cool game understand youre takes bit still cant figure always go youtube find out get side three factions different ways siding instance sided legion still helped mr house benefits me go guns blazing play like spy pretty fun guys play it,0 i m tired two month clean in hour and yet i am still so hollow i ve driven everyone away i tell myself that it s fine when the suicidal ideation come i tell myself to shut up just one more hour i ll tell myself live another day and maybe you won t fuck it up but i always do maybe i have done some good maybe i m not wholly horrible it s all a lie deep down i know that i am on six attempt to kill myself i m sure this one will be my seventh it s fine,1 damp garage conversion ruined life need painless way end itwas dpm down dad built rushed ignorant damage caused me years ago used fit healthy confident strong get girls developed awful taste mouth teeth rotting barely breath time stomachs agony everything eat makes worse nothing comes tests get told head tongue always coated nothing gets rid it ive lost friends love life family lived ill months got ignored doctors again got point got angry frustrated much started kicking home got sectioned still toldim deluded put antipsyhcotic drugs came out still nochangestarted kicking sectioned again still help tests still clear family still think im mental got nosupport anyone tried therapy walks treat big detoxes tried spending s health food fitness etc ultimately ive lost everything theres nothing do still kick off im irrationally angry cant keep waking like this ive lost whole personal it mind im still intelligent still aware amo expected live like anymore theres avenues go down,1 ianhanlon me and scobz goal is to get a celeb to respond to one of our tweet before we go to sleep i may not get any sleep,0 @MistaSajoo every video yousned me somehow gives me depression,1 ive everything im sick tired lifethis alt account im using hope thats okay im desperate vent things good life see absolutely fuck all anything looks positive nothing mirage moment become familiar it see bad it thats bad like everything else everything could possibly go wrong goes wrong badly hopes dreams completely shattered dream becoming acclaimed game developer ruined fact industry fucked beyond repair complete disregard preservability reliance internet pc especially infected this people sucking valves dick praising steam best thing since sliced bread even though actually made pc games expensive years even worth effort anymore able see games game shelves fuck bother dream keeping native language scots alive ruined snobby cunts keep dismissing real language due similarity english despite fact unesco eu charter minority languages recognize separate language get hell trying support it im sick it help family extremely anglophone approve supporting language fact im growing tired country live in would tell you queens english english boast freedom independence actually fucking chance break free shat themselves fucking pathetic never felt fucking embarrassed call scottish life listening people speaking english accents cringiest thing ever me however im accustomed live eat survive anywhere else dream life partner ruined combination asexual aromantic fact ive emotionally abused people ive close point trigger words would render healthy relationship impossible even words longer triggered me words describerepresent still still ruin things me even found new dreams pursue whos say crushed like ones above ill spending entire life switch dreams ill never achieve kind life call that short live dwindling time im nearly end rope hate everything life way negative things positive feel like im going snap kill one day fact think ill alive see summer ,1 friend saved life know doi fully prepared end today pills ready laid got back knew today going last day id planning month knew mum brother would out weirdly settled knowledge one thing actually control happening finished school day began walk back home usual walked past group people considered friends go home way me one said anything walked bit behind me turned usual point halfway road heard running feet behind me friend ran entire way back around corner road nearly asthma attack it asked important looking back fucking rude her done ask needed anything looked really recently worried apparently looked even lower usual today know was something stopped me still want live state cant see getting better cant bring now know do thought control least cant even control that,1 film student one thinking becoming one name battleship potemkin resonance sergei eistenstein like silentfilm pioneers like griffith although eisensteins innovations commonplace griffiths murnau impact history cinema course taken granted reason bring film student part point whether like not film professor times show odessa stairs sequence film hard say even best part films several sequences dealing at time current times russian revolution leave impact seen many films showcasing suspense plain montage the untouchables climax comes mindbr br montage eistensteins knack also lifes blood early career often misused present cinema misused improper context story sometimes montage used another device get point point b montage something else eisenstein trying communicate direct way could urgency passions ultimate tragedies russian people time place even one see eisensteins narrative traditional story ideas much grounding kubrick said this one cant deny power seeing ships arriving harbor people stairs soldiers coming every way guns may find hard believe done s power like passion joan arc overpass time remain importance terms technique emotionbr br of course one could go books which written hundreds times over least eisenstein himself film itself battleship potemkin really like dramatized newsreel specific story movie first segment also one great sequences film mutiny plotted captain headups certain ship detailed almost manipulative way somehow extremely effective montage used well spurts energy capture eye times eisenstein content let images speak themselves soldiers grow weary without food water one directors try get sides story is course much early th century russian nothing else honest sees themes style wins endbr br some may want check outside filmschool stairs sequence like one landmarks severe tragedy film displaying ugly side revolution eisenstein may one accessible silentfilm directors montage detail frame nonactors bolshevik themes cup tea truly one must sees lifetime,0 thing keeping going alive tiny puppy becoming thin threadi process planning end life one day family member brought home puppy ever since hes reason waking still struggling helped ease numbing pain yet thoughts coming back me ideas redflag returning alarming rate feel incredibly lost lifegoing motions feeling terrifying me,1 im suicidal im notlike wanna die kill myself tbh someone killed me care im becoming paranoid friends hate me ive convinced im terrible person im worst person believe terrible mask lifting recently things enjoy fun tbh really wanna live im tired joys life o,1 fortnite sex minecraft sex im trying pick career pursue cant seem choose,0 @JasonKirell Looking forward to next week's depression because of fictional characters. pic.twitter.com/MbZOqwiFNN,1 beat it cant end minemy husband committed redflag two years ago hell since years married tried save finally succeeded hell marriage honestly cheated constantly emotionally abusive severe ptsd mental rapidly decline point would talk fbi getting him two children gave trying save save kids mental health process madness forgot own im widowed single mother ptsd severe depression want myself ive tried keep going going back school new job place feel like never let process it im exhausted think unfair got go first think different ways could it everyday cant love kids much put again also feel like arent getting best part meits gone love me tell im greatest mom ever dont know okay coolbut damnwhen suffering end mei feel like prisoner mind,1 surrounded people yet feel lonely cannot rely anyone scared opening up want get college one help one cheering me spent year nothing one wanted help me everything could still enough even went things never imagine id earn enough money trying pay education yet still labelled useless family members see point continuing life anymore know deep inside still want live would ranting out want one reason live please tired feel lost,1 lovebscott umm nope think im an insomniac plus i got the flu i lll be sleepin like a phuckin fish outta water any minute now,0 "@GaindaSwamy @Kanatungaa @Being_Humor @theskindoctor13 @minimathur @TheMystic19 @REBELLIOUSRAGGS @SethShruti @Ra_Bies Bharat,u might be booked in court of law for provoking her for suicide saying that she has no work n she might slip into depression",1 so much for th paper i just woke up from my nap,0 one please talk memy life turning wanted be moved twice run away problems still hanging head kill anytime im sick waking every day bland life friends men approach me got certification field want work in care less could one thing back would first love lived him hes life almost years hate this im miserable almost time cant keep waking every morning going shit job shit life know do please one talk me f ,1 saw movie dallas texas came remember giving prizes showing see movie seeing movie see why movie bad great problem movie tried tell side story created new story new characters tried wrap around masters saga biggest complaint plot second wave robotech masters attacking earth even used scenes master saga different dialogue kid loved movie unfortunately seen adult cant give better review looking back disappointed would love see movie reevaluate stance it said someone please release movie whole world judge love robotech cant wait shadows chronicles,0 first time writerdirector comes across season pro two coyotes action dramas action first story picture works way around beginning director hollywood soon making room rising star independent movie making reached new level,0 saying something every day feel like it day got dumped today feel like utter trash good times good times also poem roses red like earth vader wanna die refrigerator,0 ive got todaymy family care think big fat joke ive suicidal long pain much need get guts it im going go either front train motorway fuck driver even care anymore makes bad person great itll one less person world,1 im watching die hard first time lets hope good ppl say,0 @perrynoble I'm thinking it's a Chick-fil-a kinda morning there in Anderson. C'mon Perry...you know you wanna. ,0 "@SuperCori haha, me too...we're awesome. ",0 stay alive others terminally illoutside reddit dont like talking feelings im tired told grateful health others arent lucky im basically waste life sometimes feel guilty it could id give life someone,1 More than 1 in 20 US children and teens have anxiety or depression https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2018/04/180424184119.htm …,1 nobody like leatherhead,0 childrensjewell so damn annoying when that happens isn t it hope she doesn t copy your work,0 help pleaseim depressed suicidal cut lot good ways stop cutting hate want stop cant anyone good tips tricks would love help,1 rodrigo very grey morning,0 wished euthanasia legalid first line apply though ive heard easy so fuck alive,1 lets sing songs d comments song title replies lyrics please cooperate ,0 has very sore muscles in places I didnt even know had muscles after yesterdays fitness challenge! I hope everyone is feeling ok today! ,0 lgbtq situation malaysia im sure saw petition malaysia let clear air punishments denounced previous prime minister cases people punished practising lgbt activities petition made two years ago lesbian couple tried sex car majority malaysia care youre gay not three punishments conducted cuz pas controlled areas pas religious political party imagine church taking country that theres much areas controlled pas religious court responsible punishments polis dont care gay not really holy muslims christians report people religious police yes theres still consequences get reported aunties uncles religious christians muslims please dont spread false information,0 "@sofdlovesbsb lol I bet, the stations will be hearing from you alot lets hope the single is red hot!",0 perhaps absolute greatest entry hammer house horror series surely wins award inventively titled episode the house bled death could yell title day without ever getting tired it besides wondrous title short movie also benefices solidly written screenplay handful genuinely suspenseful moments might require extra viewing fully understand peculiar endtwist definitely original idea horror short story opens images elderly couple drinking tea middleclass house husband sadistically kills wife several years later cursed house still sale young couple cherubic daughter move start restore it mysterious events occur affect especially young sophie beloved cat killed even birthday party gets ruined one houses pipes suddenly sprays blood guests a particularly chilling sequence one old house really haunted maybe seemly helpful neighbors cause horror answers questions provided original fairly unpredictable climax theres even room real shock end tension masterfully built titular house filled eerie scenery like pair rusty machetes used husband slay wife little warning though sequence cat hard watch animal lover conclusion another winner hammers shortrunning tv series,0 yeah boi post made popularrrr also check profile fucking awssomeessesdjjdjjejsjemdn,0 hot millions delightful comedy made even better presence marvelous cast assembled it movie tribute genius peter ustinov wrote screen play appears key figure enterprising embezzler movie directed eric till show signs dated terribly others periodbr br at center action friendly man marcus pendleton who released prison fixes income tax forms warden amazed refund owed government marcus genius numbers sees opportunities others wouldnt starts working firm uses latest computer accounting pendleton resourceful man finds way take advantage system establishes different phony accounts different parts continentbr br marcus assigned secretary also happens flat building inept patty seen working bus fare taker manages make mess everything lands job secretary beyond comprehension things never office creepy willard gnatpole decides go her fear pattys heart belongs marcus accomplished pianist flutist make beautiful music togetherbr br the best thing film peter ustinov clearly understood marcus played runs away film mr ustinov gives assured account embezzler excellent maggie smith also best take patty kind woman adores marcus proves genius comes investing money finds marcus pocketsbr br karl malden perfect american charge corporation bob newhart also appears gnatpole man desires patty cant get reciprocate marvelous robert morley seen caesar smith whose identity marcus assumed cesar romero appears also cameo role airport customs inspectorbr br hot millions delight everyone looking fun time company unsavory charming character marcus pendleton,0 salt sandwiches opinions,0 anyone want play video games together f uh im really bored amp need xbox friends feel free text want play video games together,0 @dougiemcfly please please PLEASE say hey to @elliemcfly she loves you! pleaseee! x,0 ah yo guess got doctors appointment me me do put something detailed get attacked bot hope enough,0 someone said im adorable im angry bro wtf rage gt,0 right warn parents child going kill themself know friend going kill tommorow warn parents ahead time,0 summer camp or summer school both are boarding lol,0 Whew! homepage design done and done! ,0 anyone always friendsi cant even remember last time hung friends people besides family depressing sad nobody age understands wants apart life,1 saddest moment ive seen tv show no spoilers prevent spoiling it say episode timestamp the boys butcher screams help us plz spoil comments cool,0 i have anxious attachment style and i have autism a well i m and i ve never had a relationship last more than month at this point i feel no one gon na understand or love me and i ll be alone forever do girl not like guy that are clingy and sensitive do i have to change,1 hey ladies beat doom nightmare mode normal controls one time please,0 lmao people s listening broke music like wanna listen poor shit,0 even point im roboti work hours week minimum wage live studio apartment afford pay bills keep car since girlfriend left birthday month ago im addicted diazepam battle years slowly getting hard cant cope work without pay bills live year ago used put chandeliers lighting company comfortable salary sunbathing park council truck emptying bins see laying ground drove stomache almost died horrible scars ptsd live weed alchol mentally refuse go sleep feel like robot working hours coming home nothing im fucking sick life know do got friends family me work rinse repeat poor depressed fuck point please,1 tried kill myself didnt work thought sign ive laid offwednesday night failed redflag attempt third life first time id tried years genuinely took sign get shit together today found im laid job really think emotional capacity find new one ill move back emotionally abusive mother since ill lose health insurance able go therapy anymore wanted rant bit sure ill try kill ill keep trudging unhappily life get thoughts out,1 why is it that whenever i try to change or become better and i so i go chase new experience and end up going through learning or doing different thing it just becomes a bad memory i feel a if everything i had positive aspect to turn into something negative thing i think will turn out for the better turn out to be bad and miserable which make everything in my past and present miserable can anyone else relate or understand what i m trying to say it s hard to explain in word,1 redoing first song ever wrote terms songwriting peaked immediately,0 "Why my mixed feelings? :S Ok, it's time to stop thinking & go to sleep! ",0 so theres really stupid portuguese news channel called cmtv so theres portuguese news channel really stupid called cmtv posted website article called have swag nword communicate qith teenagers everuthing wrong example said bitch stands beutiful inteligent talented cute hot heres link article httpswwwcmjornalptmaiscmdomingodetalheterswagparanaoserumnigga portuguese unless know read need translate,0 im american make jokes dont like make jokes normally crash burn kolby jokes effect guess twins little girls dont go without bang,0 promise mother never attempt redflag incidentsa weeks ago attempted redflag mother father manage stop jumping high floor die told mother could die ways overdose medications slash wrist others mother called police really worried would commit redflag emotionally unstable crouched corner room minutes later police came seeked enter room without permission rooms door left open worried condition came take look treated entering room without permission became violent assaulted one police officers pinned handcuffed me still unreasonable made things really hard police officers handle me brought police station put temporary cell waited hours broke mentally eventually violent outburst cell asked investigation officer io interview quickly interview sent institute mental health imh singapore police officers around doctor seeing me feel comfortable tell doctor problems warded hospital first days imh quiet one day sat corner observing boy peeping boy thought limited social skills like me nobody like him surprisingly patients still talk him saw peeping boy thought bad person said words hurt me another day one person talking boy thought person trying hurt playing friendly boy front me punched person behind times front face hammered time upper back muscles tied nurses ask people ward try agitate acting friendly front me doctor knew punched person ward hospitalized even longer period threatened harm myself would still hospitalized longer period despite threat people start know actually upset friends talking me one patients ward approached me friendly several times really happy sent another ward requested it longer scared people bully me new place new beginning one knows me unlike previous ward whereby everyone knows weakness finally released however every month go back police station report police officer one day police said come police station anymore promised mother never attempt redflag this commit redflag mood already low complete redflag would sent place like imh singapore living conditions far worse every month also report police attempted redflag afraid die courage die me transfer courage die courage live instead try kill yourself every persons life precious,1 currently film studies as level this love song film watched opinion film simple storyline complex backstory scratch surface find thrillerchase film two men running countryside farmers committing murdersounds quite exitingbr br however need dig deeper uncover true feeling true genre suggested love story two homosexual lovers filled trust deceit betrayal told love directly film events happen out example way heaton acts towards spike almost screams untouched love affair facesbr br overall film good example british films dismissed rubbish done low budgetbr br a good film intricate story line however definitely acquired taste possibly suitable average fan hollywood blockbusters,0 i am having a hard time nailing down whether i am truly experiencing ocd or anxiety or both amp x 00b doe anyone have any experience with one or both that can chime in,1 idki expect pity answer needed let since feel like cant anywhere else ive thinking killing lot lately school mental health people around me ive always close im much coward finish it girlfriend stopping times still feel like crap still old shit cant escape from im basically stuck know do feel alone maybe empty whenever let emotions say think feel everything turns shit gf id talk suddenly switches gets dry moodysad bc said right place decided go quiet talk anymore feels wrong type this im glad found subreddit feel like nothings bad going happen ended this still feels wrong way hope im annoying smth,1 actual fuck giving auto moderator awards seen much awardee karma bot has useless literally throwing money away reason peak stupidity like wtf,0 maybe movie one best jackie chans movies think everybody agree mall fight one best fighting scenes ever made also memorable stunts impressive made movie action classic movie influenced many action movies think nowadays action movie makers learn film like could remake chase scene thing modern technologies could make even better also funny scenes made movie enjoyable even jackie fighting althou think could put fighting scenes film,0 burger king nutted fish sandwich bruh looks like someone said shit u c e time replace n u t looks n,0 So happy for Diversity they deserved to win ,0 moony 9 ohh omg lmao i m cry right now lol kutnerrrr wa the best,0 bro bro bro bro goodnight say backkkkkkkk,0 today i got do shopping easter lt malachi xx owww i m so sore too day,0 dubstep gt country wub wub wub wub wub wub wub vs yeehaw trucks trump noises tractor,0 make without support network dont fucken know irl online i dependency issues unable get help mental health professional know do fucken frustrating painful go on want end ,1 @buryuntime NO not at all special as in super!!!,0 Life is getting in the way of my depression naps,1 strange thoughts morningafter watching video someone posted dying words the one front pagethe guy leukemia suddenly started feeling selfish condition known depression find using sometimes almost like crutch went hating embarrassed fully embracing talking openly it comparing someone cancer makes feel like utter douche signed back license weeks ago make organ donorjust case something ever happen me made feel good myself morning however watching video washed overwhelming feeling selfish living people need organs dying go ahead die someone else live taking space whining problems someone else lot potential never overwhelming actually scaring lot im kind freaking moment,1 new sub first time posting think anyone really wants read paragraphs life wanted make simple could anyone feeling empathetic today edit fact paragraphs female entering mid twenties feel like mess somehow put together well put together mess willim going would light past briefly canredflag child witnessing medical problems father lots blood etc also diagnosed redflag disorder medicated redflag abused drugs throughout teen years landed rehab due cocaine overdoses age diagnosed redflag depressiondeveloped panic disorder rehabmedicated redflag zero meds rehab help all mid s loosely diagnosed add medicated stimulant never abused helped ton dad died two years ago close haunts daily outbursts ill cry alone car alone apartment live boyfriend guess trying find comfort feel like fixing me young much happened nothing works feel like add diagnosis correct yet one medication worked eating disorder entire life abused cocaine understand doctors looking issue trying treatment it aside life good financially stable loving boyfriend dog pay bills etc constantly feel like hell either angry want cry reason alli cannot hold job life unless bartending get drink no abuse alcohol drinks night lot understand customer serviceinsurance broker type job hours daily even much handle granted people screaming constantly sure depression terrible ungrateful human find beauty things life feel terrible often thank reading support appreciated not short sweet,1 ways wrath kriemhild surpasses siegfrieds death also loses films greatness plot one cohesive first quite amazing second half actual poem lot sloppier lot harder tread through until is get climactic battle scenes iliads better lang harbou embellished huns poetcompiler nibelungenlied know hun right ball result are less burgundians custom example although poet clearly describes etzel heathen which kriemhilds main concern rudiger tries persuade marry him gets hunland first thing go mass huns clearly heathens theyre almost like caveman depiction hilarious especially verbal jester two marvelous scenes etzels character given weight much formidable bemoan fate original poem lang harbou masterful building suspense especially banquet scene intercut verbals second performance amazing effect however nature half poem films amazing technical accomplishments missing one part except dazzling sequence etzels hall burns nibelungs inside one thing object way harbou changes ending spoilers poem hildebrand captures hagen gunther imprisoned kriemhild visits hagen cell demands reveal hidden horde refuses decapitates brother hagen still refuses decapitates him hildebrand or possibly dietrich disgusted woman would presume murder great warrior he turn decapitates her calling devil woman etzel much weaker poem here says something silly like ah me understand would want keep unity time place hildebrand brings castle retain prison settings two deaths would make film anticlimactic also understand hildebrand kill kriemhild character much reduced here name mentioned once but kriemhild kill herself adopting brynhilds death icelandic sources catering audience instead challenging them point poem kriemhilds wrath goes far beyond realm pure evil here simply die lost love interesting,0 @xotaylorlongxo haha i will if i can! ill text you before i board the plane,0 well done sub ampxb httpspreviewredditkzfjagtpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsafcfaedbcdcabd,0 random thought wonder infinate alternate dimensions exist think dont like would dimension typing id suddenly teleported giant mansion made gold another planet treated like king long ride dildo infront people five minutes day weird inappropriate example infinate alternate dimensions thing happen alternate dimension me really kind impossible infinate alternate dimensions exist dimension someone creates elixir immortality machine visit every single alternate dimension once nothing like happened possible really,0 ratio world record speedrun guys im world record speedrun see fast get ratiod go,0 shining rose gold street like hobos filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 ha nothing to contribute to a discussion of angel and airwave v blink,0 Gettin rdy for another interview ,0 whats called oh yeah yandere find one those want yandere gf find one those,0 future dauntingfusa week met group people ive known online years now huge high point felt loved like long time went home started feeling really down couple people told felt way want overuse emotional support much support system irl really want burden people around now grew household emotional support whatsoever childhood emotional neglect describes pretty well ive longstanding pattern latching onto one two people using emotional support get tired leave want again one friends met helped yesterday freaking out feel like reaching today really want burden put much him know thats respectful waah waah dont worry me im nothing needs ive learned respect needs little more still nagging feeling like im going ruin friendships needy im afraid live parents right ive never felt comfortable showing emotions around them reading lots books subject realize theyre emotionally immature emotional lives shallow seem okay that even though know why know neither ever able give semblance emotional support need theres still little kid inside crying mom comfort hurts ive always felt like deep black hole inside me also im point potential major choices life grew knowing fuck going life ended getting fairly useless ba school went long depression able find job moved back home continued got job year half really depressing processing disability claims decided quit decision pursue teaching english second language eventually got certificate that job offer vietnam feel paralyzed fear think center this feel like im enough like able stuff set do even want teach vietnam first place another stop what fuck doing train tefl exactly longterm career like fuck going go hate it fucking choices have even vietnam im going one fattest people there part thinks ok maybe ill learn get it know im going get tired it think thats another thing feel tired already always feel tired something like comes up big choice make life jump straight well kill myself fucking daunting thats suicidal ideation pattern whenever get point im like i know do big picture go straight wanting kill myself like intellectually know theres people care all feel like takes succeed life feel like im doomed repeat failures spending years life absolutely nothing like past know im looking posting here wanted get words place might understand thanks,1 twittera que me muera,0 worried girlfriend need assistancei f im worried boyfriend m long distant relationship familiar depression never really experienced im familiar respond depression suicidal thoughts past week notice drastic change boyfriends mood usually goes depression phases every couple months usually help talk or think past week ive boyfriend record instances hes felt like breaking crying week full emails wanting break cry try encourage make feel like man know refuses hear it constantly puts come point think deserve me constantly tell want anyone else refuses listen yesterday took turn worst yesterday morning told feeling distant me fairly busy work week tried explain hard got lot arguements spend weekends together instead going out try schedule activities friends something comes one left waiting around nothing do lastly last night boyfriend told staying friends trust himself even stated duty emt there never seem im scared try help want say wrong thing best friend gone existence think handle state im in ive tried informing family encouraging find help im scared whats happen anyone could please help would really appreciate it im lost distraught know help scares me,1 mr blandings builds dream house may best frank caprapreston sturges movie neither man ever made love bringing baby philadelpia story thin man male war bride wonderful life movies made wit taste occasional tongue firmly panted cheek check one out post wwii life simply idyllically portrayedbr br grant absolute top form playing city mouse venturing life country squire loy adorable prenow wife cast supporting characters compares cant take contains early bit future tarzan lex barker art direction editing way parbr br the movie never stoops lowrent bythenumbers venal slapstick later adaptation money pit,0 dm ai bored id love meet new ppl,0 dont understand purpose lifeit seems never anything right almost everyone hates me family wont believe im depressed tell them theyll probably say sad doesnt mean depressed im around act like im happy everythings fine luckily talent acting said going kill nobody would give shit except people comment post telling dont know pain im going through would notice give shit disappeared useless world everyone forgotten unless change everyones life goodbye hope final post,1 dad wants put restrictions microsoft account antone help little big problem get bypass curious kind restrictions microsoft has u parental restrictions ur microsoft account u tell restrictions are,0 nobody left fight me even myselfive lost interest im realizing matter do ill never feel like ive satisfied hole chest nobody fight battles me want either im slowly pushing boundary anxiety death longer outweighs pain life matter hard convince others try convince me cannot convince anyone loves cares which turn makes feel like even bigger piece shit seemingly casting friends aside feel though theyd hate feel betrayed ever said feel alone crushing absolutely suffocating used think best way move improve even know point anymore improve what hoping achieve whats waiting me same nothing ever change know story ends might well finish already first chance get,1 childhoodflames whats wrong,0 1-800-273-8255 - suicide hotline877-226-3111 - addiction hotline844-228-2962 - eating disorder hotline877-455-0628 - self harm hotline888-640-5174 - depression hotlinemy dms - lonely thots hotlineshare this for someone who might really need these phone numbers,1 there is no way i can go to school today im way to sick,0 im doneim done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im just fucking done,1 getting shit together gets bad even though ive barely teen half year im already starting get stereotypical teen shit sloppy messy room ect also ive going bed am waking made feel terrible today im pulling nighter naps cleaning room keep updated,0 cant stop thinking iti dont think could go cant stop thinking killing myself comes head every time start stress much shit going plan ive fucked soo much feel like im hole cant get of dont want die keep thinking pistol closet stress would go away make thoughts stop,1 get girl like like seriously long since ive felt true happiness really like im pretty sure likes friend need serious help,0 im bored need good shows watch im watch anything long entertaining,0 im sufferinglife difficult think would better others gone want burden anyone anymore also pain too,1 suicidal ideation ever go awayi objectively good life one thing significantly hard husband tens thousands debt largely due medical issues had subsequently always stressed never save income goes tube debt still deal invisible disability chronic pain medical procedures beyond that made husband wonderful person toddler love whole healthy delightful achieved career dream getting paid art form try give back society working sick children part time outsider would think great life however teen attempted redflag stomach pumped next years though ive never made another attempt ive continued suffer intense suicidal thoughts somewhat dependent external circumstances high school incident swore mother would never again every time ive gotten close anything ive remembered promise look pain precious child would destroyed without me yet much sends state panic sorrow continue suffer trauma rape decade ago past many ways sexual assault news sometimes feel like im girl again room im getting help therapist low dosage anti depressants years everything causes anxiety even things good example objectively least mediumlevel attractive yet obsess ugly feel reality damned hate stomach cant let go achieved career dream yet get states panic writing next book deadline cant it moment lose temper daughter think oh well ill angry fucked mom like mine daughter would better without me im trying say is matter good it self hatred intense desire disappear earth consumes sometimes ways harken back year old oded ambien champagne years therapy antidepressants good life still struggle much anxiety many moments want die ever get better broken person dont feel anyone talk say look good life is theyre right why tonight think wanted jump window dont understand myself really dont,1 "@ARobotsDeath I'd love that superpower, do you think tht by some force of nature we could come to hold these powers? I hope so ",0 fucked kahoot really well getting questions right asserting dominance geography class get questions wrong end nd place,0 uni suck have to leave home at 00 to attend a lecture at 0 to 0 amp roadworks everywhere mt installing fibre cable,0 biggest formal exam couple months could best suggestiontip advice hello guys okay exam couple months actually pretty far away now summer prepare it want guys give advices exams it course ps im talking school examsin maths english on btw really important country really plays important role pass thing able study university,0 ex girlfriend broke two days ago things relationship working anymore starting become little toxic damaging mental health suicidal long distance lives uk live us worried much help reason still care anything would able live rest life commit us broken gives reason had able still call police uk us bill maybe something fill online please send links something need help need help,1 sister needs something fun write house sheetrock goes up ideas pretty much exactly sounds like bought house saw thing people write quote draw something wood layer sheet rock goes something anyone cool ideas that,0 computer teacher told us everyone internet provider ip adress even first time said something like angry school hiring anyone find top private granted india private cost arm leg still fuck ,0 @martiiux Hola! Wellcomeback! ,0 "Ah look at the time, depression O'Clock",1 well...im at danielle and bryan's house once more gotta get up early with taylor!! workin from 12-9 again.,0 @alexcovic Isn't the Yugo a classic now? (Classic 'what' I'm not sure of) ,0 cannot bright moment without taken me idk anymore losing it again try positive help people others take challenge try ruin hurts feel like nothing live,1 hello all _ thing whatever hey folks wanna make sure everybodys well arent _ think theyre cute peace everyone,0 times I don't have a lot of sense. I like being calm ,0 funnythat health shitty last three weeks makes happy whatever may kill me,1 back againi guess feeling okay great ok days lasted thats longest lasted back falling place thought finally free from really fucking sucks,1 know ok want anymore ok want romantic love ok fine want anymoreit ok want possessions ok fine want anymore ok want friends ok fine want anymore ok want get things right ok fine want anymore ok want recover ok fine want anymore ok want kill myself ok fine want anymore ok want family ok fine want anymore ok want good paying job ok fine want anymore ok want move forward ok fine want anymore ok want alive anymore ok fine want anymore every time every turn always something supposed want supposed doing know want anymore exactly allowed desire dreams ok have never get answer keep pounding head hammerpeople tell need get head even know means anymore know anywhere inside head know want me sorry cannot want be wish could fix this seems keep getting worse know whyoh well like anyone would even care shout nonsense void one cares supposed anything long kill others feel morally better themselves like death would really impact anyone reallyit hard miss someone even know exists know want,1 "@Owl311 Gracias, Amigo it is good to be back, I am now sunburned and probably will have skin cancer by next June however ",0 doe anyone else feel helpless every day i just feel like i am passing time from one shitty situation to the next what is the point i am a m father or two with two kid early teen and college age and married to my best friend career marriage etc i can t stand my job it s not the company rather the job itself i am an account manager in the pharmaceutical industry which translates to constantly apologizing for other worker s fuck ups and dealing with burnt out frustrated pharmacist all the time i never cause the problem but i am treated a such and shit get taken out on me there is absolutely no joy in this position and it suck whatever remaining happiness i have i am looking for another job i have mental health issue gad depression ptsd etc which do not help i never know how i am going to react behave or feel each day sadly no matter how i try to hide it my family always know i am seeing a therapist which help at the time but the effect always wear off in a day or two i want nothing more than for my kid and wife to be happy and content with their life i am sure that hard to do with me around following them like a storm cloud or eeyore i had a classmate i grew up with she wa awesome beautiful inside and out the type of person who make the world better just by existing she recently had a freak medical condition that caused her to have a massive stroke and pas away positive humble great mother wife she didn t deserve it no one doe i suppose in any case i wish i could have taken one for the team and taken her place she wanted to be here i don t anymore it s not fair i very rarely find joy in anything anymore kid wife family excluded i should be and want to be okay not happy or content it s just not there sorry just venting thank you for listening,1 depression a hit you outta nowhere,1 telling couple worker suicidal thoughtsi considering telling close coworker suicidal thoughts scared know take action also scared first time life actually it kids dont want make sad im honesty edge dont know cant hardly even function work shoots tell co worker,1 dont care black brown normal long arent purple respect fuck purple people,0 "mall or outside or something idk whatever happens, happens! ",0 sleep put random crap comments wake to night ish pretending write something get deleted pretending write something get deleted,0 sucked dick yes prophecy true tasted like fish bit worth it almost broke back it really sore,0 "- Meh.... eating grapes and watching 7 Pounds. Had fun today playin' mini golf with Richie, Reva, and Thomas. ",0 i ve the same feeling now of sickness when i wa doing my attempt to suicide year ago or about that time i feel sick physically i m sick i failied in life i failed in every decision i ve made i failed in loving my ex i failied loving my family i failed being a good friend i failed being obedient i failed i failed,1 im sick uselessim unemployed worth nothing im constantly anxious bouts depression last weeks one life feel like talk anything want missing persons case want found im useless lonely always been,1 need helpi feel like failure nobody wants me idk im wrong cant handle anymore rejection moved bigger city way far away friends family ok need find new place live next days nobody wants me im good enough anyone even got denied air bnb cant go home everyone see much failure am know anymore want die think redflag almost everyday simultaneously dont want fall asleep never wake up wrong everyone hates me,1 film undoubtedly one greatest landmarks history cinema seeing filmwe retrospectively notice world cinema s purely humanistic dramaturgysuch strong adequate use soundimage montageand almost religious admiration ethical choices human life cinema one form arts much higher ordinary life gave many people hope live tragic war said even picasso moved cried work art appear years audience time also different read seeing kurosawas ikirulive first release young couple quietly told otherit good film it thinkcontemporary cinema though technically developed opened new narrative perspective lost importantreliance audiencecienma really popular art and unlike modern fine arts contemporary musicgave millions people hope ideals point viewletyat zhuravli must pantheon classics time city lightikiru la strada,0 "wow imagine me without time management and concentration issues, minor anxiety, self diagnosed depression, and depleting heath problems from unhealthy eating habits ",1 "chillin at thee casa, listening to some tunes! ",0 @dinajames That you are a good pussy cat ,0 friend wants kill theyre suffering life would cruel prevent themif friend suffers multiple mental illnesses helped therapy medication family shit cant work mental illnesses government wont assist getting work money mental ill enough cant go school mental illnesses seems x worse depression let kill himself hes almost tried friend mine called cops upset someone tried help felt bad truly hates life hates living know make life better him want support validate feeling has obviously want die do nothing helps him pessimistic view life everything hes told me ive much worse life him depression anxiety bad enough glass half empty point view cant tell suck up people worse lives becausethats dick move help know show life bad makes think maybe him life badpeople suffering incurable illnesses get assisted redflag end suffering cruel make friend live suffering constantly know people situations want overstep boundaries him want respect wishes,1 one frightening game experiences ever make keep lights next bed great storyline romantic horrific ironic plot fans original resident evil surprise returning character mention voiceacting drastically improved previous series miss best series,0 yeah real love ever matched discord friends ampxb httpspreviewredditpboxxzwspngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsffbefeadb,0 notes mainly read want lulnot really cry help less damn im really thinking good way slip life pass feel like games kept people dont feel great feel like stay long enough dont judge want everyone everything forget feel like got close people dont know want leave dont want bring anyone like anonymous easier way found shit dunno dont like life someone else talking themselfs kills everytime felt accepted want leave pass friend somewhat likes around think reason im want find way soon dont want hurt hard explain would never tell want find dark side would hurt dont want anyone miss im loser doesnt deserve anything life way think look need killed,1 "@MasaeAnela happy birthday! I know I barely talk anymore, but I want you to know you're my biggest art inspiration ever, someone who's saved me from my depression, and always brings a smile to my face. Thank you for everything you do. You'll go so far! My favourite person ever!",1 feel like failure even though well school clean room work many projects someone explain why,0 redflagwhats likehas anyone actually survived redflag attempt like ask becauseim kinda flipflopping right now wanna diebut think were fucked get kind positive ending maybe express lane best way out express lane redflag case,1 sitting at my desk eating dinner great thai but a bit of a sad situation overall,0 lizdinkel lol i figured a much but you never know we don t talk anymore maybe you became easily offended,0 byemy sob story im s born poverty still poverty sexuallyphysicallyemotionally abusive childhood abusers everybody immediate extended family barely scraped graduating high school flunked college lost financial aid first year ive never friends life recently thought talking feel like take much people feel guilty dont deserve help im depressed time bot problem wont bother them ive never relationship even date life im messed trauma severe ptsd think im probably also either autistic im disconnected dissociated myself everybody else isolated entire life never got chance learn humans work im fundamentally different everybody else also chronic illness causes physical pain constantly ranging moderately distracting best debilitating ive jobs since cant hold anything down cant anything right anybodys standards even simplest things tried therapy didnt work tried lot things feel like ive never loved never loved never loved im nothing theres nothing,1 ruhro raggy shaggy scooby doo would literally commit mass homicide ment got half inch long dog bone shaped mediocre tasting cracker afterwards,0 guys school like how get ttv viewers apparently said loud dudes like selfpromo tiktok since nothing better said sure also tik tok likehungry bitches karma whores reddit swear,0 "@amycarr92, ah i know I'm excited laurens last season",0 recently went through a breakup so that s adding to this feeling but doe anyone else feel like they are simply just living day to day for the sake of it without direction yes i have goal etc but in the past when i ve reached goal nothing ha made me feel different anyone else feel aimless all the time i also used to be able to see where i wanted to be in or year now i can t even imagine what life will be like in to month can anyone relate,1 inauguration day feels like holiday holiday ive year everything else like feel like something actually happening,0 welp lost day duolingo streak im sad duo send notif smt,0 definition failure lifehave ever felt like quite hit rock bottom yet going go downhill point on always struggled depression past months so seemed cured myself found ambitions friends girlfriend one month time everything came crashing down got rejected university times lost euros investing something extremely stupid friends which them told want friends anymore for obvious reason all absolute love life left someone else top off tried committing redflag woke massive headache girl breaking given actual ptsd random anxiety attacks lasted weeks now cause wake every morning never experienced symptoms biggest failure around wake every morning hoping enough balls properly kill myself reading definitely gives courage actually it,1 finally shaved pp hair feels weird bleeding went instead ,0 outlandish troma movie actually good movie known epic best highly rated production version shakespeares play extremely funny usual dose troma nudity gore troma made good gore films one favorites street trash course toxic avenger movies one troma movie terror firmer reputation goriest nastiest movie enjoyed tromeo juliet much need finally watch terror firmer disc collectors version four commentaries many many features tromeo juliet absolute hoot highly recommended,0 "@bethanykinch haha ok, well i'll give u my number aswell, its 07958938647 lol well find a way to find eachother, i found jared on twitter ",0 im yr old male chose expiration dateim really stupid person unspeakable thing thirteen years feel hopeless depressed three friends dont think even real friends id rather talk got couple things want get chest really hope go viral raped year old sister know knows act like never happened think want regular life feel like things way better wouldve never born when nearly killed mom called ambulance saved stabbed self stomach passed sister found screamed thats mom came call ambulance age hit someone text book got sent alternative schoolwe dont stay night there took knife school one friendsat time told got trouble at started get hallucinations thought gotten girl pregnant head abortion still depressed know fake feel real first turned sleepover house one friends wanted touch sister rapey way went kitchen grabbed knife nearly stabbed mom grabbed slapped me lost control wanyed die badly made mind im killing self cristmas eve got planned know nobody awake night slit wrist cut im guessing wont hurt im sorry mom sister,1 Spa day w/ mi madre texas in T-2 days & a wakeup!,0 child molester grampa dieingso moms father covid likely going die mother devastated im happy got deserved sister mad happy mom upset hes pedophile broke mind anything happy ive looking forward years think mom,1 "Cool, twitter is fixed now--couldn't log in before ",0 watching hour creepypasta video it idk gonna continue hell yes,0 in the last month i started with a new therapist a my anxiety ha been the worst it ever ha in like ten year up until now i wa able to go medication free and just deal with thing little by little through talk therapy now it s like i m again and all the scary physical side effect of anxiety are hurling back through my life my therapist asked me how do you know you re having anxiety before your physical symptom for me it s a lot of shaking in arm leg and jaw getting really flushed skin picking tic heart racing get uncontrollable and i couldn t answer her question because like i don t know i m having anxiety until i get those big red flag physical cue what are some smaller physical cue you get before you get more extreme one,1 im doneim done everything im tired living earlier thinking oh said goodbye uncle family could wouldnt care talked brother told everything hate supportive talked crying love much best brother little would help crying parents yelling every step way probably wouldnt hadnt talked,1 tall yall im ish wont getting taller sadly,0 planning killing tonightim leaving place put final thoughts ive enjoyed little life im soon turning periods life look back fondly on im currently attending college find miserable degree hate father insists get spent high school years either alone working helping mother grandfather dont regret helping mother regret everything else mother alcoholic shes better past living complete nightmare sisters one never close too another dont speak anymore went away college made clear never returning here dont blame her resent leaving younger brother alone deal mother everything else bullied badly school never received help im surprised didnt kill back then thinking wish had better me theres light end tunnel im going take fathers heart diabetes medication tonight hope never wake up thank read this,1 evening; hope every one enjoying the swing after work ;) got home my roomie served me super great dinner - feeling much better ,0 ii love job im resigning job fire incompetent fuckup again savings bunch debt im overweight disgusting looking annoying date anyone all place mess cant muster energy clean talk friends anything ill always waya miserable embarrassing screwupif ill never good enough anyone anything lie put bag head overdose pills whats point dragging disappointment shame stupidity im tired im tired screwing time worthless im tired anxious feeling useless cant anymore,1 title pretty much,1 fianc moved blocked number emergency roomi went traumatic event weeks ago left suicidal ideation knowing problem could negatively impact relationship fianc immediately enrolled group oneonone therapy ive attending sessions everyday making effort apply lessons stressful areas life yesterday woke strong feelings wanting commit redflag mentioned fianc called parents forced tell them already felt ashamed situation hoping could handle sickness us two professionals told dont check hospital call police fianc blocked path took phone away felt scared trapped went grab gun point knew ive gone overboard dropped gun packed stuff told quickly drive hospital dropped stayed hours called throughout night come visit refused said us got finally able use phone realized blocked number took social media cancelled arrangements wedding vendors went home saw left belongings actions destroyed relationship even though one thing fighting hard for,1 my parent expect 90 and above and i failed after answering the paper i told them it wa easy even though it wasn t a i dint want a scolding then now it worse and they expect good mark i got above 0 0 only in subject out of 0 idk what to do anymore,1 omfg gonna commit many war crimes got internet taken away days wet dream stained boxers im gonna actually kms point,0 know fix myselfso staring submit page good hour wondering say ill say whats mind since im go party im sad very sad thats given since im here know get better girlfriend years off first year broke kinda set things motion hadhave shitty job family likes ex me keep trying things occupy mind soul crushing mind numbing physically exhausting depression everything kind just sucks everything love disinterests me bores me even worse makes sad people turn help sad themselves know cant handle anymore sadness life they feel im coming closer closer edge im losing grasp things think help want feel damn alone world stop feeling like everyones get me people care everytime anytime get comfortable people show interestcare life crumbles im feeling damn lost sad every day hoping this lowest life ever get theres way disappoint anymore does sorry im trailing off dont know say anymore thanks reading made far,1 arkansas bill passed incredible victory,0 want die know parents get hold theyll put everyone know helli know mom gets hold shell tell friends use get things guilt trip everyone giving things need dad gets news care people know hate want kill myself funeral everyone make bullshit pretend think selfish stupid talked endless things defend themselves needed let somewhere feel alone,1 comingjust broke person cares me told best friend made joke able fuck now told mom asked could bring lunch nobody else said anything me friends messaged offer support family checked me ex person cares moving soon friends family like im funny im clown them broke issues want end someone hated wanted improve requires single understands wants leave door open want get hopes up im turn month im alone,1 quite timehi reddit find headspace thought left behind im side meltdown panic attack whatever feel exhausted im drained cant sit still feel frozen inaction feel unstoppable need change something thoughts focus wanting anymore im tired struggle struggle pay bills stay groomed keep place clean car insurance social life work dad time sleep everything struggle nothing feels smooth easy going hopeless ive lonely since wife left first rejection post divorce hurt way expected foolish think id stronger went through ativan kicking hard ill try get sleep hope mind leave darkest thoughts behind time wake up sorry rambling,1 want hang soon dont lose interest cool thanks love us jakdjfjfid life odd sometimes huh,0 final exam day tomorrow grandma died days ago also think nearly overdosed ritalin uwu wtf pretty cringe ive never mentally unstable person till ive never anyone know die also ive never failed exam all want play genshin impact watch anime stupid life wont allow ,0 is looking forward to Reggae Wednesdays @ Churchill's resuming... June 17th no cover. Be there ...whether or not square ,0 im scaredim scared mom getting better rage dad im scared going kill him brought hoping gets shot late im scared life,1 Brokencyde track heard last night sound kinda catchy lol ,0 know doive never posted before know do im yearold girl even know begin ive eating disorder since really begin get bad th grademy mother responded getting angry threatening me forced recover still struggle presently switch periods starving cutting myself going senior year high school pressured pick college apply to know make big decision know do want fall miserably boring career teacher encourages go art school saying im good enough go art center risd stand failing parents treating i told so mentality see future holds anything me scared going alone license drive yet attributes extremely low feelings self worth parents seemed eager help twin brother get license even bought carbut never seem willing help me wish would help me know ask it lack mobility alienate friends fear judge me push people away like myself boys express interest dating discourage want responsible happiness another cant imagine anyone liking even find repulsive basic issues right now even begin address everything else goes head everything overwhelming me understand people deal lives hard me want go another year misery think redflag often easy access mg prescription sleeping pills bottles prescription antidepressants could overdose easily also okay slitting wrists femoral artery sorry long thanks read all needed say something ive never talked anyone before friends even know hadhave eating disorder even though ive never eaten lunch beforeand parents oblivious guess,1 please help get internetthe internet driving fucking crazy want exist want get sleep one day world ends masturbate much might get heart attack day spend much time reddit youtube feel like dont know doing going fucking autopilot falling everyday,1 @1flyharmony I'm definitely with it!! http://myloc.me/2JZD,0 badly want talk it whenever anyone offers talk know sayive never able talk deeply anyone depression thoughts redflag even therapists,1 "Adversity is like the wind. At times there is calm, other times a breeze and sometimes a gust...How do you get through the troubling times in your life? https://buff.ly/2oRSISc #life #trials #adversity #lds #love #peace #depression #anxiety #grief #fear #lonely #help #selfhelp pic.twitter.com/43kJwsn0Dr",1 someone please help mei saw someone post accountability buddies sounded like good idea anyone wants text snap making sure get stuff done need help getting morning eating enough going job interviews finishing work id really appreciate since feel like im dark place right now,1 cannot anymore getting really close ending all parents going away days alone time say goodbye world going say goodbye everyone soon,1 aight lads starter take pokmon insurgence options alternate typings charmander bulbasaur squirtle choose eevee,0 in that mood of wanting to suffer my asthma attack a a form of self harm depression suck when it hit outta nowhere for what seems like no reason at all finally coming out of auto pilot and i have no idea what triggered it it thursday,1 Is There a Link Between ADHD and SAD? http://psy.pub/2EQYvAP  #ADHD #parenting #depression #mentalhealth,1 so in the next chapter of wanting to kill myself the psychiatrist changed my medication and a a result i am currently prescribed these two new bad boy ha anyone had any luck with them,1 danielhcwong taylor ce gt amp amp sweet mother of amp amp amp my livie is only 900,0 feeling passively suicidal aloti think alot google depression tests time like need someone give permission reassure feel like definitely mental health problems even though ive diagnosed dr meds helping stopped taking froze also feel ridiculous self indulgent what fuck depressed about selfish even entertain killing myself wtf wrong me attention seekingevery self test tells im high risk go straight emergency room im crisis cant take seriously normal feel like this dont know move on dont want cause pain kids husband dont want live like either,1 need help making something make clothing ahaego design fabric could find it asking project mine,0 lets go good bad things happened last days good snowed small plastic skeletons spotify let try premium free caught ajj live quarantine lady night sean played favorite ajj song bad fully broke bones wrist need surgery schedules changed hardly talk cute australian friend weekend im stuck cast least weeks removing ability bike anything requires hands,0 everything nothingi know begin one could put life table like photoreel might make sense someone got here maybe even id see iit went wrong im depressed credible reason poverty divorce struggle loss etc depression pitiful result privilege laziness perhaps even intelligence time things going well creating music writing fucking reading sleeping exercising socializing etc dying inside everyday another part soul crumbles ash making things pull hole impossible accomplish want things want make money properly want find love loved ive spoiled easy sex beautiful women easy money seems flow faster squander trips shows alcohol blah artistic bullshitthreshold far acute allow create anything anymore things previously could pull depression longer me love dead remember feeling touching womans hand wanting forever even think feel anymore crippling money family money past projects nothing funnel week excursions europe end back home depression meant something something earth brain deserves put work heart deserves loved understand things cant seem anything it gets harder everyday everyone seems find easy wake up latch warm member opposite sex find shitty career get married annoying kids simply spoiledto deathand killing slowly nothing good enough anymore night put jeep th gear gunned hollywood blvd going drive hit wall people crossed street stopped saw little girl holden caulfield moment may saved life realized cant bring kill myself exgirlfriends lives would shattered know want back i deserve it meaningful thing left life taking care poor girls probably depressed paralyzed inside parents would blame themselves brother probably even reason depressed looks greatly would crushed might even commit redflag himself theres way it get tears thinking collateral damage all theres justification living life like everyday goes nowhere thats left passively experience artmedia created people bang exgirlfriends could care less me maybe watch sports teams perform decided ever really feel like ending life going spend time snowboarding surfing friends first since know things cheer up also recognize escapism cant always me fine now spare hotlines plz its want figure thing out,1 dont see point living anymoreim year old high school student ive always suicidal ever since school deteriorating am ive always good hiding pain suffering constant anxietydepression ive always kid school thats bit goof needs sleep nice guy ive noticed recently ive worse job this several friends also going thru tough times recognize face someone lost live asks im okay ofc say im fine im type guy confess everyting friends once im sti kinda waiting feel right honestly im feeling okay feel suicidal thoughts slowly creeping me feel like always control life worst habits doingm work properly unable sleep even though im always constantly tired going gpa frsshman year dropping feel like parentd school raping metaphorically parents sure love me fucking expect like korean kid noting studying sats tests oh finished track practice worked schoolwork hours stop watching youtube study sat class cant explain well actually hate parents much anything support me nothing torment me home supposed safe haven youre supposed feel home school home human nature desire education learn however keep feeding informatuon education said dtudents dont think theyll get tired like pizza crave it nuch get sick it im sick school im sick learning im sick grades grades determine whether live streets live house schools courses fucked doesnt allow us major courses want tried killing months ago rope bit thin snapped died blacked bit regain consciousness fortunately unfortunately getting point im fantasizinf hanging buying whole bunch drugs od die dont see life going get better life going pretty well recently completr switch direction dont feel like living thing thats holding back killing im afraid whats death im religous never be religion fabricated lie control people andgive fake hope im afraid death literally nothing scariest thing ever think about im sorry long idk going morning mind pretty boggled friends nice enough send answer hw part lab honestly lovd friends much hope awesome life never deal eith to lied things keeping fron killing death guess losing friends important people im sure want advice someone convince wanna talk im caught up like confused gender sorta rather whether want live die like anyways rhanks reading comment anyting want comment kys wouldnt mind,1 @stillsoyoungxo soooo I didn't bother to look for it and I tom myself imma wait till it comes out on Tuesday w/c I'm really excited about ,0 RT @FamAcupuncture: Treating Depression With Functional Medicine ( http://ow.ly/1dFz30jsCFD )#Depression #MentalHealth #FunctionalMedicine pic.twitter.com/q2F1xUnD8B,1 cat keeps ending allmy cat my parents care them thing keeps killing myself know baby wouldnt die without doesnt exactly love i new scratches arm looking cute little face admiring uniqueness shes crazy gives little boost serotonin need make another day literally cant sad looking cats cats dont career involves kitties animals dont feel purpose feel better knowing help cats animals wanted post maybe guys something like makes future little brighter maybe think thing think reason live taking care animals knowing need makes feel little less shitty little purposeful ,1 jsuispasunkdo anyattardee oshun 0 0 paoloo oui j ai assez mal d velopp dans un autre message j ai bien expliqu qu il ne faut jamais se moqu derri re il peut y avoir de la d pression du stresse de la tristesse un traitement etc,1 hi last year in matheletics i managed to bag at least top 0 but suddenly this year my playing condition have dropped because when i look at the leaderboard every time it make me more anxious and lead to bad performance in the competition now i can not even reach top 000 this ha been making me more stressed and now i even have mixed feeling to never take part in any of these competition even though it thing that i like are there any way to at least calm myself down,1 happened user goodbyeannonymousi reading little girl wanted take life years ago anyone know managed bridge family together leave behind safetysake,1 feel stucki never thought id one consider ending life pmdd honestly think bipolar bpd good days suddenly want kill feel empty living w parents cant talk bc literally tell feel like dont go mass anymore frustrated w feeling rejected im catholic love boyfriend feel like havent ended stuff im dating him need vent dont know get suicidal thoughts randomly day fine,1 feel sick ate pizza bf got feel sick,0 @coollike thought I might show my 'TARDIS'd' out ipod http://twitpic.com/3na07 ,0 said he had fallen into a depression the two day curfew and all the explosion have got to me i had so many plan for this year and now they are gone,1 end alreadyhonestly see light future see happiness see hope feel im living they time living all im physically alive mentally im already dead im pretty useless far skills go im disappointment im lonely dont see bright side dont see anything going me ones going love me ones going care me dont know whats holding back dying already everyday makes want die even more anything worth it worth keep living world nothing offer nothing offer it worth living hope left you stupid thinking maybe one day things get better day isnt coming all didnt choose alive live world dont think least able leave world choosing didnt choose feel way maybe choose end suffering,1 "DOing study and uni project, 1 semester to go ",0 story friend told me friends hanging talking topic depression self harm comes time like talking memes something guy joke rolls girls sleeve says i like ya cut g slaps it except unbeknownst girl actually multiple cuts arm dude started frantically apologizing checked fine like damn imagine getting situation mean tbh like people joke mental health depression related stuff especially personal me despite that even gotta admit kinda funny far know nobody got actually hurt,0 wanna killlll mysellfffhelppp,1 so i have depression and anxiety for maybe 0 month and month i opened about it to my mom got a therapist and pysologist whatever at starting i wa like everything is gon na be good but it s not i realized ii dont wan na take the high dosage antidepressant and the therapist ain t for me and during all this i had my final for class 9 freshman of highschool i did not study and bit and just wa escaping the reality by playing game all day and avoiding my life and everything so i got my result and i passed all subject but did not pas science so i have to give retest it on and today is and i have been ignoring everything myself my problem my family and just talking to some people i made friend all day to avoid my life i can not avoid it anymore i dont wan na play my life on repeat everyday i also wan na redo the 9th grade but everyone think im dumb to waste a year but i really think i am not ready for the next year cuz of learning nothin this year and i just can not do it i think if i redo 9th grade it s a second chance im giving to meto make thing better slow and without taking hell lotta stress i used to be the perfect child i wish i never got depression it s ruining me and my mom s problem are increasing too i wan na study but i can not i just dont know why i feel so numb anyone got any advice plz,1 cant wait till move want cuss thin air reason whatsoever im bad day feel like ever raise voice even little bit parents hear unnerving,0 ohmygod i loved the ending! glad i decided to finish this drama ,0 idk everyone talking wanting choked time shine got great hands on profile hand pics flexing videos acc coming choking business man business,0 free award time alright simple make laugh tell interesting facts knew get free award wholesome good luck,0 some day i just have tiny panic attack for no reason is that common also i have very high social anxiety so it s very frickin hard to make friend and trust when your constantly thinking oh there talking about me when there not or when i want to really to them but i can t because there s like this thing holding me back and i get stressed just for being by people i have no friend and to top it all off i suffer from depression and suicidal thought,1 sticky sticky ricky got stuck inside chimney,0 nothing worse than planning on going to the mall with no money damn unheavens dunk,0 "My aesthetic is depression, my mood is anxiety",1 for context the last year of my life ha been filled with bad mistake regret fear anxiety attack and existential crisis that have left me feeling numb and indifferent to people i believe i ve become emotionally unattached and this ha created a fear in me that i may have lost the ability to fall in love or never wa able to from the first place am i overthinking this or is there more to my struggle,1 "Woke up from an afternoon nap, feeling miserable. Read an article about choosing my emotions by choosing my beliefs. I chose joy ",0 know anymorehi using throwaway boyfriend knows main account want seeing this ampxb tried kill myself take medicine go therapy fun stuff im numerous medications went several therapists better try hard feelings never go away honestly know do,1 im tiredim ive depressed almost years im really fucking tired feel empty time feels like rest fun nothing me feel distant every aspect life every single person place thing encounter bundle frustration selfhate waiting opened want die much want live way ive kept going sad say ignoring responsibilities disassociating playing way many video games good want anything want lie tall grass wait find body,1 @hahalorenzo I'm down. With the same people?,0 anyone else feeling need relive one memory die wanna walk snow family one last time im outta,0 rhinecruise09 you re absolutely right,0 with my amazing boyfriend for the night.. -love you!!!-,0 @azina No problem! Praying is important ,0 please get hug im really well right please get hug comments would mean lot,0 it s ironic and funny even that when i m feeling so angry and alone and after every professional that i ve seen said there s always people who ll listen to your problem the one time i try to actually reach out to them they never answered,1 "But then of course there's the dark side to the lifestyle of a DJ with the stress and anxiety, it just makes me sad because people think DJs have the glamorous life but they don't, there's the struggles, anxiety, stress and depression and it really can push you off balance",1 Just telephoned with my grandma for 20 minutes... That was good.. ,0 battling depression since since since self harmed many suicidal thoughts attempts now feel officially losing battle see light end tunnel matter do losing,1 unlucky love become desperate depressed seeing therapist hurts much alone friends finding gfs experience never even alone girl fucking hurts idk much longer take end want feel womans touch cannot handle loneliness anymore,1 finally told grandmother reason want dieshe long antagonizing family mom favorite child cant accept son forgotten her son always says take country us family lives never did never even told grandmother cousin got married already take care her feed her give stuff wants were still evil eyes likes twist words actions look like protagonist terrible drama likes make us look like were ganging really right need know fight among ourselves everything were still good enough everyday makes us feel worthless always feel like enough family im good person try best be keep quiet even want scream stay still even want kill all hold everything burden grandmother likes play favorites favorite among siblings me siblings like unnecessarily extra nice like giving food siblings watch making drink siblings watch expects side want take sides all want die resilient motherfucker would rather die myself greatest reason hate waking all today fought screamed her told reason want die kept quiet screamed loud neighbors heard screamed loud minutes later throat still hurts crying think hate seeing cry annoying shut trap suffer quietly cant she shaking mad sitting still want either us die get with whether goes first go first matter want end suffering already suggests move therapist keeps telling me easy need month advance month deposit paying bills were already paying current house is also easy third world country,1 flair change time boys youngest sub anymore im fourteen opinion important,0 motivation anymore kill kill kill meive anxiety long remember depression diagnosed awhile back though maybe years ago dont feel right anymore tried get help awhile took medicine regularly saw consoler years everything fallen apart medicine gave side effects got scared stopped taking later gained fear taking pills consoler moved another office one insurance didnt cover slowly lost friends friend my girlfriend broke couple months ago said break call two months later decided could never romantically already someone new feels like nobody barley shower get bed anymore cause everything grades terrible im stupid get anything right im talentless passion life used enjoy reading sometimes doodling get mad feel sad mad everyday feel like im going freak punch something hate shitty school consoler hate teachers think im lazy hate mom thinking im lazy im mad mad mad mad mad feel like punching face days feel utterly lonely someone kill,1 isnt very happy with twitter at the moment wont let me upload my picture wishing dougie or tom would reply to me,0 @jacvanek i made my own version of the nothing personal bracelet. does that make me worthy of one of yours? ,0 "and wife are shopping at the Great Mall in Milpitas. Great prices for us, with the dollar still reasonably low for us... ",0 halloween producers cut reviewbr br halloween starts recap horrific ending part five thought last chapter dark one really blow mind mysterious man black raided haddonfield police department freeing micheal myers process poor jamie lloyd abducted strange cultists want her knows lets say long suffering end soon doctor loomis back spending rest twilight years trying stop michael myers killing innocents good luck friend loomis doctor wynn comes back four sequel hiatus help good doctor another old face part one guest stars wellbr br this dark dreary sequel dismantled post production editing reason distributors felt final product worth average horror film watchers time decide dumb down film sit shelf several months laid egg box office matter film made worse left well enough alone hey film company knows better filmmakers nowdont theybr br producers cut highly recommended br br released version recommended,0 long story short i wa miserable at parent moved out for a year happiest time of my life still sometimes i found myself sad cry and still miserable had to move back in been month hate it here i m starting to think it s just me no matter what i do i still find myself sad amp wondering why i exist usually keep myself extra busy but any downtime i have i ll have these same thought what make you keep going why do you decide to get out of bed every morning what is the literal point of your existence,1 @kmbuck I thought I was sunburnt..well I was but luckily it went away today and it's now a tan! woo! ,0 disagree unadd quite possibly dumbest fucking sentence ever exist hoes snap always post opinions like everyone cares bottom disagree unadd like people allowed disagree bitch,0 i m so tired i really wish i could like myself i feel like all my thought are so complicated i can t do anything for myself every thing i do is for others yet i feel like such a selfish emotionally cut off and unempathetic person and i hate myself for it i have such high expectation for people and i get sad when they don t meet them i feel like that isn t normal i hate it i hate that i create scenario in my head of how people are going to treat me good and when they don t do what i expected i get sad that doesn t feel normal why am i like that i hate doing good and then falling into a dark hole that s so hard to get out of it feel like it s never going to end i m so tired i hate myself so much i just wish i could love myself i feel so shut off and all i want is someone to just hold me and tell me it s okay that s something i hate about myself too that i want people shouldn t i just feel happy alone am i too codependent am i ill am i too obsessive and optimistic in the worse way i m exhausted because of these thought i m so tired of my anxiety just myself it feel like everything that happens is all my fault even when i try to do good i m a bad person i try to do good for myself and i hurt other people i can t handle that i just want to love myself i can t figure myself out i m so so so tired,1 try stay positivei try establish routine things make happy go walks eat well exercise im baking general things bring joy happiness try find joy small things like cat plants nice weather end day still enough end day still want die want long nap never wake up cant handle much feel pathetic life isnt even bad im weak going happen soon breaking point near,1 fucking hard convince go throughtitle ig,1 definetly put end thissadly still alivei planning end pathetic charade new years eve ami made promise th january im definetly it im even know depression creeped mei think around soit painful yearshaving put fake smile every single day actually rotting insidei quite lot friends still feel alone best friends known like years started making fun random things probably gone affect one week maxthe thing kept alive stupid years working feel miserable even working help parents miss ask born world makes feel ok hurting themnew years eve shiteven though bunch friends felt alone always saw girl love hooking random dude making even sadder go outside stay bench hours listening sad fucking songcrying alone thinking why end beforeat point nothing brings smile facethis end sorry writing disarrayed manner feeling really ok rnif u want talk final dayi still thinking good way thisthinking going trip mountains cutting hanging forestwhat think,1 im pretty sure im going kill myselfits mind years now ebbs flows always come back it always seems stronger im reaching want help im sure im even willing get it im closing severe emotional pain nearly constantly sometimes reason sometimes brain makes one hate everything am im joke failure living lie let people down people abandoned push away close friends anymore cant anything well idea keep life let alone desire so attempts art suck real talents skills im intelligent graduated college shit degree im debt working dead end job comfortable motivation better myself yet get enraged daily it way get treated way people treat other people make nervous give anxiety make ill trouble feigning interest anyone hate easy appears them hate knowing really easy anyone yet still decent bodies decent jobs people love them ability create things stupid realize it hate actually things pretty good people lived though holocaust famine war suffering yet hurt fucking bad suffering ive bottling everything long yell people lash physically feel anger pain fear ugliness boiling there thick tar im stranger body hate it im fat im ugly even body would want touch ive dealing eating entire life thing always me transitioned living female couple years back helped put suicidal thoughts awhile back better ever never body want ill never loved way need be even cut genitals get surgeries im still guy fooling himself wound need keep sealing up praying someone still interest me transgendered person usefulness fetization gone take step ive yet meet man doesnt want use this ive really tried transwomen meet im convinced vast majority us misunderstood misdiagnosed seeking attention perhaps thats it thats parents think ive felt like alien body since toddler still feel like belong here anywhere speaking family embarrassed me im allowed see niece nephew sister brother desire talk me brother best friends long time mother father allow whenever family around friends neighbors tolerate me barely cant hug dont want feel breasts touch them refuse use chosen name tell suffering depression me reason ive stuck around long adopted family partner year half husband two kids extended family embraced me get see true nature getting tired me love way need be share conversations intimacy way used to trouble even touching cuddling anymore disappoint her cause drama upsets hurts regularly tells tired us is feel like reason still puts knows want kill myself want burden spend nights together get fewer fewer gives me well choice husband right across hall get along great tares apart chooses him plays video games day engages none whatsoever yet relationship magically rocks ever since came along make things worse attracted him messed around past never happens anymore im one wants sex ever one else wants make love me even fool around blame them thought awhile loved kids im even beginning resent now theyre mine cant kids anymore cant get pregnant ever anything guest family attempt parent undermined real parents right front them one tells loves times day believe it incessant sometimes seconds another annoying think even understands it cry baby screams try help him gets whatever wants said hope burden death could think went away deserve that one deserves really im selfish being one hold anymore one talk confide in everyones tired crying see therapist im getting better ive read posts people regretting attempts halfway fall whatever makes sad hear this know point is im tired im alone miss drugs gave live family life made feel alive numb play video games cry pretty much want too motivation desire better myself ive trying entire life gotten where let clear desire hurt anyone else decision renunciation freedom shotgun blast face would effective least painful least chance failing way ive come research get money pretty quickly eat last meal write note apologizing everyone life mess im leave left hearts theyll get it find nice rock mountains one last sunset boom gone think anymore loneliness fear pain used romanticize even so get passport drive south road ends pain back end it sell everything travel world im ready take elephant sized dose smack goodnight lost appeal though want trouble desire live way want quick definite,1 considering trying put psych want talk someone whos oneim tired living hate everyone around cant anything right get much enjoyment anything ive tried talk others subreddit none anything me believe continue around family people hate ill end killing anyways feel like option psych ward redflag want talk someone psych ward minor make mind want also know put psych ward ,1 heartbroken year got suicidalso heres story even anyone interested im years old first all thanks parents internet friends helped real friends except one shit started last year time got fashion really helped desocialization started enough selfesteem meet girls got rejected two times met one even met two times freetime everytime asked her told ever anything friendship decided move sad later found cheated ex times yeah fuck her time goes on open heart another girl responded oh ok group people treated really bad called faggot reason time didnt think much passively took selfesteem down started sad them fuck group thought head canceled contact everyone them depressiontypefeeling started growing time goes girl rejected before actually started texting me got time got date perfect everything went fine fun happy even though felt horrible rest time happy something wasnt thing like months wanted happy asked again like yeah parents wont allow imma sneak house hearing awkward nice time first time someone actually interested me day came wasnt allowed go couldnt one week passes time another week passes still time tickets concert fucking time planned one half month ago heard one friends wanted friend forget that important concert me artists helped hard times destroy important moment me no wont friend actually never asked th concert was never bothered me next part life want keep secret hope wont put shit give life last try year didnt find happiness someone important someone love get love back biggest wish long while see sense probably say goodbye im good school see sense loveless life feels good write this thank giving space talk,1 allowed use snoo profile pic another site want know illegal anything,0 strict lockdown months friends good even longtime xbox friend talk much anymore hes college,0 @daniel0405 I know right! I am like your "super" follower!,0 want feel pretty area girls blonde skinny short thick latinas considered beautiful hot one blasian brown eyed girl am gets treated terribly im always ugly friend always tall boys told arms long im built like man makes sad cant help im made pretty too im smart im funny bake cook like sports pretty much anything im open minded always gets taken granted im addison rae look alike,0 academic pressures causing cousin consider redflagi wasnt even expecting way confessed weeks ago shes better since shes finally taking break college soon mothermy guardian bought copy resident evil one games shes wanting play ps ampxb still kinda bothering me mean looking much work put projects professor spend less minute check it isnt much spent day night writing everything solving questions lie given numbers studying become civil engineer philippines education system shit like yeah sure u graduate k curriculum skills enough get decent job years go highschool teachers would make things harder students course thats gone through studied hard become teacher hundreds papers handwritten plansideas plates whatever terms use describe engineer stuff discover professor allowed printed ones could imagine much anger hand aches pains shes feeling besides professor didnt even announce it saw classmates bringing printed ones professor checking them anxiety attacks asks support family like dropping hints family would question would suddenly like that say stuff like are making drama again ampxb want know could next time hear say joking manner but could feel seriousness i want jump,1 film rocksso hardbr br the cameosthe drug referencesthe sharingthe lovethe rocking jack kyle first met tim robbins actors gang theater company years ago knew legacy awesome music hilariousness would ensue door door rocking paid offbr br although anyone enjoys classic rock get major kick film would definitely recommend renting original hbo episodes local video store going see film cinema theyre tenacious masterworks dvd available rent pretty much every video store inside jokes film refer earlier episodes add something enjoyable overall viewing experience,0 @wyclef yesir! ,0 "@tommcfly Tommmmmmmmmm! please say hi, or something to my friend tamara: @RaraACTIVE thankyou xxx",0 ive saying months dagonrompa among us anime,0 fancyelastic would use red onion if we had any chive are abundant at the moment so using them instead lid of sunflower seed is stuck,0 i need to find a battery for an elinchrom ranger nobody in canada ha any in stock,0 @djR3Z @BuzzEdition Texas is big enough for the both of us ,0 @TMobile_Chris I just mean I had a few too many owww... my head.,0 neighbor yelling dog pooping lawn like yeah definitely dog,0 supplies want go sooni bought everything back im tired ive started abusing sleeping medications again matter im four times dose one now hopefully ill finish planning soon end this needed tell someone im planning killing soon talked friend tonight understand upset stressed tell im almost done give up edit also recently reason gotten agonizingly painful tinnitus thats getting worse theres cure honestly planning redflag long that furthuring mental insanity cant even think right ringing hurts im sorry think life me want make everything end,1 @Kelii808 Have I totally ruined your evening with the visual! ,0 gonna ask thats right golly im nervous screw,0 whats wierdest dream ever had best ive got one time dremnt lived new york city world ending nothing crazy idk whats wierdest dreams,0 isolated seniors copeno family all health isnt great getting worse job going shit money carry months what life serious bitch dance with bother,1 hi i m f and my partner guy is also i say partner because i ve had mixed message about being in a relationship or not recently with him and i think this is a factor to my anxiety too fyi i have had bad anxiety since an abusive relationship at university and another one where i had a bf cheat multiple time my parent did not have a healthy relationship when i wa younger and where both not very present till my later teenage year i don t suffer anxiety in general but my relationship anxiety ha only got worse the older i get current situ we ve been dating month about week ago his twin brother died suddenly which wa tragic accident they were extremely close and he s been very unemotional about it all hasn t cried and been very rational before we got together we were friend before although i always knew he wanted more than that he d asked me on a few date in the past which i declined because he isn t usually someone i would go for but personality win me over everytime he wa also very consistent over text and the quality of conversation wa always really good which a someone with r anxiety the reassurance that someone is interested really help and usually attracts me more to them this ha since faded massively even before the passing of his brother and i find even some day the conversation is a 0th of what it used to be we ve discussed this and a lot of the time he say it s due to work and just over time not needing to keep up this same level because he is no longer chasing me because of my anxiety the long period of lack of communication i struggle with and my brain start to panic i find myself regularly checking his instagram who he follows what picture he s liked it s not healthy and i m trying to stop because it never help but almost become like an ocd since his brother passed he s shown me glimpse of seeing a future together he introduced me to some friend double date and his parent sister which i don t feel you would do if you didn t see a relationship potential he s said he would have asked me to be his gf when we should have gone on holiday the week after his brother passed but since i ve had mixed comment from whether we are in a relationship or still dating i find myself in a constant spiral atm due to the lack of communication which he say a factor is the grieving this is hard to overcome i feel awful to keep bringing up i need more in this situation i e if he can t text due to busy day can he call me more he agrees but never follows through consistently so every week i m cycling the anxiety cry worry that s now affecting my work and day to day in this situation i don t know what to do the anxiety is becoming worse and worse i don t want to have to keep bringing it up to him because of everything going on in his personal life but he doesn t seem to be meeting any emotional need for me and i m worried i won t cope long term with someone who can t reassure me i also feel guilty for wanting more from him i do hope it will get better in time a he is still in shock grieving process but it s hard to tell how would you handle this situation do you continue to suffer in silence with the anxiety in order to stop putting pressure on the other person when they are grieving or would ending the situation be better i wouldn t want to do this i m very happy with him but i feel like in a short space of time this ha been intense and draining,1 boyfriends friend female recently started texting say recently mean like yesterday girl call aiyaaiya wanting kill self guy dating months dumped feeling depressed horrible right sounds awful saw problem ex kept texting aiya realized problem mostly her annoying dealt type stuff since middle school high school may think oh simple fix reassure convince make changes easy would think genuinely want live said everything needed say says literally everything says wants back thing aiya aware doing knows worth feel shit guy knows giving ex wants see suffer doesent want help doesent want get better know first time come reddit ask advice this pretty good convincing people stay alive whole different caseit may simple talk anymore let deal problems brain let leave even problem needs actual helpits nearly probably impossible convince move on extreme attachment issues seen anyone starting think life lost hers anyone advice wants input would great know report her lives way virginia live utah cannot anything friend trying kill hurry answer anyone please,1 going new school th grade fall terrified get bullied wherever go private school public school international school wherever transfer to matter always isolated labelled loser school bc covid given break school year experiencing graceful one year think could go back enduring high redflag redflag get see faces people treat like trash want to desperately want to thing scares even think bullying ostracizing stop even finish high school clearly problem lies within me cannot fix myself right future looks like life getting stepped used wherever go dreadful would rather live even courage kill myself sad sick living like this sick way out sick people around give shit feelings alli tired alone ridiculous even make effort making people feel better expect cared loved return nothing say sick people caring feelings also care theirs crazy crazy selfish am want deal anymore terrified go back school,1 important film challenges viewer encourages pay attention theres lot like here director seems interested taking apart tired cinematic conventions unlike lot recent american cinema film takes interest means make movie first place dvd includes lot bonus features two commentaries explain movie viewers still befuddled initial viewing film screened sundance made audience members uncomfortable angry sunday morning coffee movie friday night party movie dedicated viewer treasure trove,0 "@geekgrrl You just come across as a real Hank, Senior kinda grrl. Tears in beers, lonesome highways, and all that... ",0 would like join discord cousin discord lots fun stuff wanna join,0 close killing myselfi want cant,1 today going wellthen acted impulse looked something social media shouldnt have ended cutting made feel started left thigh bc dont want go far itd visible outside shorts im sick myself im sick mind dont think im ever gonna ok im never gonna wanted way want people im fucking pathetic im old shit disgust myself wish kill myself wish didnt care family would feel dont want anymore,1 Good morning world ,0 it sprained so glad im on holiday,0 anyone wanna chat im bored asf hey wanna chat meet chill people im bored hw talk anything everyone welcome,0 @ramin987 haha I'd never scam! hmmm... how much a month could I pay?,0 Got confided in about 3/4 times by friends Hopefully spouted useful information but not too sure if it helped them :S hope so...,0 dying seems like reliefi constantly feel trapped pointless life thoughts killing push way head im man asking help difficult,1 know pisses ending lifethat almost guarantee people made sure got level depression going milk make them like doubt mind first ones looking sympathy attention losing such close friend colleague despite absolutely hellbent bullying nothing past year,1 romanticize redflag biti dunno compare like bird spreading wings first time flying finally free feels good think about way release pain time means leaving friends family world behind seems beautiful me cant wait march th finally end all monday means ill get one last chance go school say goodbye friends family ampxb redflag beautiful thing eyes im tearing bit right now kill shackles stress sadness everything else free think redflag makes happy cant help smile barely ever smile anymore prospect way end pain easily leaving everything behind kind intense ampxb know im going go time comes might well spend last months fun friends family time come say goodbye perfect,1 gnawing self hating voice brain shut fuck up years damb want love cannot voice god damn loud could die never hear ever god would sweetest release life live everyone expectations attractive so pressure make name myself jesus fuck point need kill outweighs kind sadness friends fam would feel end life worth living even love me fuck fucking tired shit cunt lives brain,1 @azcameron serious business ,0 "Your gonna keep me happy tonight at all costs.,. Thanks Kurt @kbuech: Hinder � Use Me ? http://blip.fm/~6ijw7",0 @Kameshvari I thought Imogen Heap was a dude the first time I heard her. She sings low on that first album.,0 finding troublesome livetoday driving highway overpass thought redflag traffic opportunity get car overpass jump really high height motivation live life days seems fade work bed want anymore want live anymore,1 highest pvoted text post rteenagers k pvotes dude fuck never see text post k pvotes,0 i let my depression slow down my work ethic so i probably wont be releasing music next week like i originally wanted to pic.twitter.com/ha7ej77mUv,1 birds chirp dieis funny difference sentence title first sentence post one indicates me birds chirping sign die implies birds somehow chirping help contribute dying suffering would prefer diei suffering would prefer die birds chirp die,1 whats ur favorite cuss word mines cunt simple yknow,0 hate myselfi wish pit stomach makes feel much loathe would go away,1 anyone know im fucking dumb literally used straight student high school im shit clue especially since friends great school conclusion come im dumb hell ive gotten lucky past couple years anyone know why,0 in office doing irritating work for the worst client i ve ever had you cant choose your project if ur an employee,0 idk im going die nothingim sophomore high school im new reddit im sure works entirely hope one know sees user name everything anyway im posting im depressed dont know do ive depression awhile always talked friends things felt better summer started pushing everyone away im sure why im close anyone im really lonely miss things used want everyone everything back friends miss everyone much explain im close family friends pushed people loved away one decided options get everyone love back try turn everything around end all im going see therapist tell family anything dont want see like that yeah thats pretty much it advice anything would greatly appreciated thank reading ill sure update soon,1 screwed upits okay nobody says anything think im awful too early morning im alone one awake talk im overwhelmed experiencing extreme anxiety basically screwed up took relationship long distance have sexually assaulted when tried report shut down afterward started seeing someone else even though relationship justified know handle well know im piece shit talked him ended breaking soon possible months ago tell aforementioned stuff ive cheated wish never knew still care started texting talked him asked confessed hates totally understand want give now im tired sad heart chest hurts bad ive tried something glad attempts unsuccessful cant deny urge again,1 @Hockeyvampiress They're airing the last 3 episodes ,0 think im done life im sick alive im tired feeling unhappy time summer almost over ill start going school again im supposed junior think im gonna year ive always social anxiety gotten much worse im quiet girl one school seems like me tried talk realized awkwardweird was understand try damn hard think things say them theyre always gone even giving second chance wish people school could little understanding people anxiety would love sit talk someone anything love hearing people talk stuff people assume im weird freak simply im bit anxious talking first wish people would little forgiving social mistakes know theyll never be unless asshole alcoholic uncle lets homeschoolingwhich never happen im gonna kill myself im afraid go back school feel like ghost might well already dead world fucked sad anyways im tired seeing it,1 bye see later rythwsfrstghtsrhtgrhtrash,0 posting til people stop feeling suicidal new day new chances life think bad day change smile hug motherfatherbrothersister internet see tomorrow teenagers gt,0 whatever sound i hear keep on repeating in my head in an endless loop to the point where if i m in a loud room like the shower or air conditioning is on i start hearing that sound that s looping in my head outside of my mind almost like it warp the real sound and convert it into the sound i hear in my mind i am always very well aware that it s just my head and that it s just the sound repeating although my anxiety can t stop worrying about it being psychosis anyone that can help me i would call my psychiatrist but she doesn t work today so this is my other best option,1 heyif anyone would like pm me would appreciated,1 "@ThomasHCrown My grandparents who were married 50+ years and made it through raising 6 kids on a shoestring are unimpressed, as are my great-grandparents who did the same during the Depression.",1 incel used reddit year radicalize fortnite bad minecraft good responses people reddit quotes,0 tairinonfir fudiggity shark ozero my bc packet low estrogen le severe side effect reason men dropped out in 0 study pain acne depression suicidal thought the depression wa main listed reason for halting trial one case of possible infertility current monitoring i m not saying male bc http t co e l i wdf,1 sarahreedsc treaty isn t defined,0 seen movie years know would like much time however loved movie great starter chickflick young preteen girls careful ending though tears harsh emotionsbr br looking back perspective with much knowledge child psychology politics political correctness think would interesting watch again pattys uncaring abusive father indifferent mother favored sister contributed toward making vulnerable starving companionship patty sad anton left heartbroken killed rage directed toward afterward shocking all years oldbr br the thing strongly retained movie taught even enemy soldiers people too german soldiers hateful nazis older saw tv shows like hogans heroes rat patrol also made point regular german soldiers gestapobr br regular soldiers drafted gestapo handpicked among volunteers special attitudes hate believe one privileges nazi special assignments and therefore go battle specialties interrogation torturebr br later cold war would think russian soldiers remember somgs taught soviet union evil reality russian soldiers destroy america job government probably told government destroy way life which way true since us fought end communismbr br the lesson still applicable today german soldiers nazis muslims al qaeda,0 ever look worst best pics think fuck person like seriously supposed know actually look like,0 "Postpartum depression: Beyond the baby blues"""" https://www.nursingcenter.com/cearticle?an=00152258-201805000-00007 …",1 "@DWsEventualWife Of course girl,DDGs/DSPs gotta stick together! Our man doesn't like when we fight...unless it involves pillows/jello/mud",0 thought original film quaint charming well sitting edge seat trying figure outbr br since already seen original saw sci fi channel know remake deliberately made sci fi knew within first minutes since like richard burgi character actor wanted see would pull offbr br the writersproducers etc modernized film bit trying explain plight aliens they could longer reproduce kind needed help using pseudo science crammed ears s maybe added bit polish film notbr br this film film production takes sinister edge original did original ended confrontation young woman alien understanding sorts took place although resolution aliens problembr br i sort remember remake woman became rather hostile towards burgialien think could ended better ending ending yarn swell yarn basic science fiction pulp stock many great science fiction stories written s even made filmbr br this swell thing watch like rainy day something rate highly cos remakes old s sci fi one came well actually enjoyed quite bitbr br but anyone really wants see story told well suggest original version tom tyron gloria talbott directed gene fowler jr,0 ill get peace diei see option sick tired people fake are much hurt give shit wish could sleep wake tomorrow really want painless death know commit painless redflag want shoot gun quick death dunno ill get,1 im near end ropei used straight as student catch school work certain time online life mundane work eat sleep work eat sleep barely work makes life even boring major depression pretty sure ill never amount anything social anxiety friendstheir real friends nothing makes happy never girlfriend know die alone end know give excuse matter billion people there,1 @winnsr Awesome ,0 ive gotten reddit awards today noon holy fuck ones pay for free ones,0 im live first time hey finally got obs work properly im live twitch pls simp yes give sub httpswwwtwitchtvsquwuid,0 feel fucking betrayed parents orthodontist ive rubber bands braces while turns helped need headgear instead problem since headgear night turns ortho assumes never wore bands met parents decided headgear removable left assumption itll removable installed informed cant taken off im stuck metal contraption attached face wear everywhere years constant reminder parents ortho trust me cant believe even talk it,0 "@EqCollections I did make contact today, and Kathy emailed me some forms. Thanks again! ",0 i m not going to attempt suicide but i may admit myself to a mental hospital because my college class are actually sending me into hypomanic episode what doe a college do when you miss a few day or even week due to a serious mental health condition i have all a and if i lose those i will become even more unstable,1 someone please convince dieits like im gonna kill exact night think might happen months find reasons stay alive scares really care anyone anymore really want die time want exist everything would much easier just gone,1 hullo could comment wholesomecutefunny stories would greatly appreciated need something make smile im feeling hot rn would like something brighten day bit much thanky great rest day,0 it s in the morning working tuesday but except me everybody else is working i am here glued to the bed feeling extremely disoriented the room is a mess have no appetite my plant need care important work need to finish i don t know somebody like found the switch and turned off my life,1 wanted get couple girls interested years could definitely tell always afraid ask like never gotten clear i like you i wanna gf something people really liked felt would awkward said normal conversations would weird really liked talking girls always regretted saying something afterwards yeah bugging wanna know yall feel same probably gonna delete later usual post stuff like,0 shit hit the fan a single tik tok comment from an anon account that can t be traced back to me made month ago and a comment i made about a girl month ago have suddenly been brought up by this group of girl they ve made my friend drop me i m not miserably alone a i have always been my whole miserable life now they re trying to talk to my school admin man i just wa excited to start college but it might end up all being over i wish i had the mean to do it quickly and properly without hurting my family,1 groovy song httpsopenspotifycomtrackgbktqzdknlmrscqhfctsijzzcuyeftkohxondajucw,0 i went to a friend wedding with my boyfriend today and had a pretty bad episode we walked into the venue and i felt fine ten minute later i m having a panic attack in the bathroom i wa mute the entire time disassociating i couldn t eat i had so much anxiety we had to leave early amp i just felt so embarrassed my bf is very supportive and understanding but i still feel guilty and burdensome i wish i didn t get hit so hard by the low,1 i hate life then change it any change power make would make even worse then complaining abouti feel like lot us stuck bind hard talk people even want acknowledge possible would force ask uncomfortable questions free really are,1 year old sister watches porn found disturbing shit youtube like wtf dont even think knows sex is uuuuuuuuh httpsyoutubeaukilaafxg found eyes hurt wont go parents shitton drama rate tried talking before now mean want bleach now drink,0 please let overalright time vent ive bottling shit weeks one trust life talk least anymore youre coherent thought probably going find here seriously dont even know im anymore ive scraping university actually fails passes point im second year pretty sure ive failed every subject semester didnt need to cant help im selfsabotaging destroy life every single fucking time get back track every time finally got great bunch friends called them think acquaintances one friend thought would back shit got rough didnt well surprise much equality problem always talk im spiralling dark place ever me course would im obviously worth time fuck friendship im close friend need support need im even going try talk you seriously fuck friendships im done ill probably fail course surprise dont really personal aptitude university career path sure failing university isnt end world think least me thought existence without purpose drives crazy fail supposed do go find shitty job pay bills live mundane existence alone fucking bother id rather go kill comes point think might actually balls pull off ive always coward theres always glimmer hope fuck dont care anymore everything pointless spent two weeks ignoring world ive reemerged know every knew thinks differently dont know like judgemental assholes getting everything life handed silver platter want end life mine worth enduring longer naught,1 were kinky watched kurzgesagt nutshellhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvxotdixatfw video learned electrons help build atoms body kinks electron field technically kinky,0 @amup - got Sims 3 yet? I do. It ROCKS ,0 wooo hooooo..... Golden Tequila rocks!!! n so does amrutanjal!!! ,0 I've only got 20 more minutes I is exciteeedddd. I work at 7am tomorrow- Woot woot! ~>My Polyamorous Friend<~,0 even know bothering post guess nothing lose nowhere turni honestly idea even continue everyday point life joke series bad events make impossible find reason live on honestly want wake anymore friends support girlfriend gets pissed annoyed whenever get depressed im cause one else love want alone prefer farce relationship loneliness honestly want die nothing look forward gives life purpose hate job people hate despite friendly look contempt walk around like im fucking made egg shells treat like im kind creep im swear girls allow walk even behind cause stop wait walk sometimes cover behinds make feel like shit stare im fucking pervert always walk head always hide corner factory cry cause cant take anymore swear want kill industrial equipment there fucking hate state indiana bunch bigots live tried buy bedroom set craigslist took upper class neighborhood seller looked like poor piece shit hand taser whole transaction still told leave money wish friends support wish someone would cared enough me point living hate anything everything complete failure im failure get anymore im joke gun really want pull trigger cant i why dont want anymore nobody care ever care world losing anything special pull trigger im plain worthless thats ill ever be really expect anyone listen care guess wanted heard,1 m thinking offing half year now nothing brings joy nothing live for job like work smoke drink brain away find hapiness bad nights,1 Am gonna go make a bacon sandwich soon =/ to fill up my big belly ,0 imust go clean some more. oh fucking boy. offffff to billeting tonight. love you all bbl,0 dreamtimeswift taylornation i saw her once for 9 9 tour and i suffered serious post concert depression the next day when i created a spotify playlist for the tour setlist and i cried very badly in my bedroom,1 "Don't settle with #depression, #anxiety or defeat. #Jesus wants you to overcome. #faith #Prayer #bible #kalamazoo http://www.vwcenter.org/fervent-prayer.html …",1 someone please explain emoji thing like get cringy use like emojis rather actual words even like weird one emoji end comment negative karma isnt little harsh,0 judge based on judge based anything reasonable wether post history comment history avatar anything im curious like things,0 hey girl queen cause old pasty,0 sabotaged academically want diemy school work far biggest problem right now immediate one slept night class hours im failing classes senior year weeks behind every single one classes done multiple projects tests tried catching looking fucked am making feel discouraged want give again truth loathed years feel like ive died inside used well school ive fell behind partially due numbness partially feel like deserve well so sabotaged myself now slowly realizing graduate even fucked would mean ive wasted years moms life buying school supplies driving school honestly want kill myself tried one two summers ago got scared last minute told anyone burden many ways really cherry top wanted die since cant explain teachers get family involved whole fucking shit show another problem longer even focus on understand school work swear god brain shrunken something nothing sticks anymore like good spending hours nothing worrying finding reasons hate myself literally know way dying fault know do want get back regular suffering without top point,1 watched movie might watch again although jamie foxx good movie feel could used less funny character alvin sanders foxxs scenes instance jail confronted edgar clenteen david morse funny david morse wonderful portrayer cop tough yet mostly quiet features perfect role morse meets doug hutchinson bristol theater morse ends coming hard hutchinson perfect scenario film personally love quality film actors end situation previous film two green mile overall pretty good movie,0 want see make d model monster heres stream link httpswwwtwitchtvredmonster_httpswwwtwitchtvredmonster_ come say hi chat ill answer,0 ill answer question want edit question fuck reditmyreddit im lazy make post,0 fuck myself fuck life fuck people fuck society fuck everything because fuck fuck fuck all of this bullshit i would ve never fucking chosen life why am i expected to live it fuck just fuck all of this,1 want nice day wonderful week keep head everything work eventually dont let people put down youre wonderful you,0 adhdive diagnosed adhd school really hard me put lot effort things do nothing really comes it feel stupid time im sick life stole brothers gun think,1 goodbyemy boyfriend checked hospital friday night last thing told gets out hes killing himself begged take told hung up havent spoken since called hospital today told discharged phone off cant get ahold brother im mess world worth living without him ive never loved someone like before cant take it didnt even say goodbye,1 dude keep coming back me thing ended shortly lost feelings stayed friends things got toxic take break even break still toxic stopped talking other one day thanked friend even though things work it happened blue started talking again toxicity far everyones cool other one mad im still going cautious around him im curious keeps coming back me,0 says apir hehehe http://plurk.com/p/y5l9q,0 girls listen minute dont send nudes like could,0 "@vickybeeching now i'm really sure it was you (twitpics), i love your songs btw keep on what you are doing and God bless you",0 "Trump is screwing up every part of our financial systems, and sooner or later he's going to end up sending us into a depression, just as happened back in the 1930s. The man needs to read a book on history and economics! https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/powerpost/paloma/the-finance-202/2018/04/25/the-finance-202-boeing-s-stock-was-the-best-bellwether-of-a-trade-war-until-yesterday/5adfe73e30fb043711926868/?utm_term=.3277264cbb39 …",1 just found the most gorgeous pair of vintage dior sunglass they are though,0 yall fucking awesome take internet hug guys realize awesome rare are tell chances birth million i think maybe billion anyhoo let peoples words get down focus positive shit you mother always says social media whatsoever like yeah failed one saw reddit shed probably get wooden spoon anyways thank reading rant remember rarer fucking mewtwo bye,0 nothing live fuck living feel like wanna kill myself anything live anywayi cant even motivate anything ffs fuck life shit grade im shit anything cant fucking motivate learn anything even though im interested try fucking fail everything live dying efficient im living waste resources thing thats keeping killing courage itand ill glad someone could help itbut fuck would thatjust like failed everything cant even manage kms people fucking except us human beings living rock floating space rock eventually hit another floating rock go extinct live happen eventually dying difference way thinking life hope die sleep way would better nobody guilty die peacefully without pain from teen whos depressed suicidal thought existential crisis,0 goodnight nobody since i have no follower nobody can see me say this,0 fmli cant keep waking crying spending every holiday alone life want die im scared want better life end shitty one,1 @stupax I have dropped you an email via your site ,0 "Did Aquinas have anything to say regarding depression? — Actually, yes. ST I-II, q 38. St Thomas recommends friends, contemplating truth, weeping, sleepin... https://curiouscat.me/ClassicalTheis/post/421611195?1524693539 …",1 wanna dieim tired getting bad grades watch parents disappointed even tho best pass tests im sick useless human im sick im sick putting fake smile everywhere go finally im sick alone time,1 @Spoonsie Lâche pas la patate ma belle! I will be cheering you on! ,0 power to levitate still negative,0 whats making life worth living todayfeel free vent need place complain every then,1 m need new friends need new best friends long term friendship with things love play video games specifically valorant among us apex legends minecraft java edition programmer working first ever game moment live california would cool could get people well anybody interested please pm me oh also would love people age range also timezone pst thanks ,0 charlie chaplins little tramp little man character wins world war i called great war time single handedly even capturing kaiser something entire allied armed forces unable do bad turns dream somewhat cop weakest part mesmerizing silent short almost feature film minutesbr br there inventive gags galore including charlie put gas mask eat limburger cheese sent home using cheese weapon germans charlie sleeping underwater flooded trench next soldier continues annoy charlie disguising treeone best sketches everand charlie pretending beat friend become pow hugging enemy sightbr br one amazing feature much charlie behind enemy lines dressed german resembles hitler ten years hitler nazi thugs rose dominate german politics obviously hitler patterned appearance charlies film,0 hate peoplei cant stand anyone suicidal thoughts every day able get help socialize hate everyone see doesnt help either like every human same useless disgusting thing end everyone selfish noone actually cares others noone tries empathy try seem so,1 dan katzir produced wonderful film takes us rollercoaster ride real romance set troubles surrounding modern israelbr br for anyone whos ever love film brings back uncertainties insecurities heartache make love bittersweet atmosphere fear isolation came difficult times israel time serve intensify feeling instantly drawn dans plight cant fail deeply movedbr br you cant write drama passion like contrast realities dans desperate snatched relationship iris realities state turmoil make eminently watchable ounce passion ever love see film,0 feel kind happyand thats know im going kill soon plan going happen im overwhelmed everything happening life moment im sorry advance annoying post im student im horrible classes im stupid hardly pay attention lecture friends either im always alone fucking sucks even online people hate me everyone know talks ugly stupid behind back ive said here im almost ive never dated anyone ive never even kissed blame anyone wanting though im fucking disgusting face hideous body repulsive obese scarred personality horrible im disgustingly fat one right mind would ever want spend time me much less love want me im good anything im funny smart cant play sports cant sing dance play instrument anything like that cant even talk people im fucking awkward weird people feel sorry im constantly embarrassing myself also cancer top multitude health issues including severe ocd half time want bash skull things right would much easier family deal im burden wish died surgery im sorry posting much cant go anywhere else im sorry annoying hate much hope last post here thank everyone messaged past kind words mean lot life worth living anymore world horrible place want leave im worthless,1 need help months ago girl love left me since everything slowly deteriorated life pieces nothing keep motivated reason wake morning friends distant return calls messages nobody ever need them im outcast fairly popular person many friends hang school myself one with life beginning feel like chore never finish mind constantly drifts thoughts death redflag different occasions ive planned redflag almost carried through however stopped due fear failure feel invisible almost one would even notice committed redflag maybe it people would finally understand hard is would see much pain caused theyd beg another chance see me chance never willing take around need reason keep going something it gets better youll meet new people enough stop me want know worth put knife ever try again want hope maybe ill get old again,1 My face is so dry i feel like i'm a walking popsicle stick ,0 want diei much debt fuck every good thing have ive wrecked cars years,1 I'm so thankful that R. Scoble invented "real time web"! I'm joshin' Unless he actually did. re: http://ff.im/3Fw5T,0 free award again make wanna give rules,0 "@markhundley Mark, you are so awesome! Thank you ",0 do i play pjsekai to forget the fact i wa clinically diagnosed with social anxiety and depression or do i hug miku plush and think about the fact i wa clinically diagnosed with social anxiety and depression,1 person hurt mei sorry strong enough sorry allowed treated horribly sorry didnt enough brand pills took whatever could find im sorry headache feel im sorry know wont change anything im sorry feel alone im sorry never feel safe im sorry trying wasnt enough sorry never live life deserve,1 much bitch iti want die im much little bitch it im miserable im ugly ive got friends know family ashamed me like said im ugly sister theyd better gone thing world loves dog whos turning december thought getting older makes sadder hopeless cause know one day hell gone got raped last year think got fully that even tho go therapy remember last time fully happy could wouldve done now im much coward,1 tweeting from cracker barrel ,0 martingommel f hle so mit dir beim einschlafen immer flashback nachts manchmal panikattacken und beim aufwachen wieder nen flashback wa mir geholfen hat war eine psychotherapie mit traumatherapie inhalten dadurch ist e zumindest am tag besser geworden die chronische depression,1 lisalent a part of freeview we don t get the sport channel,0 sorry for any typo im typing on my small phone my mental health ha been doing a downwards spiral into hell i am seriously considering suicide plea someone talk to me,1 @mileycyrus good morning Miley ,0 @JimmyWayne Obviously it wasnt a woman truck driver or that comment wouldnt be possible! She'd be trying to climb in the bus! ,0 much u needplease ,1 stuck at home with no car while my oldest daughter took my car to take the SAT again...going for a higher score than 1200 ,0 someone pls tell me how to get over this i m currently nearly so i ve known this guy for year met him early 0 9 i know this sound stupid af but i met him online on minecraft when i wa nearly so i wa and at that time my sister had attempted suicide multiple time i had no friend at school and didn t go outside for week it wa school summer holiday i spent all my time playing minecraft with him on call and would message him all night when i wasn t playing the game he s also american and i m british went back to school and had like friend and carried on talking to him he started to like me and told me that but i literally did not like him at all and wanted to just be friend a i thought dating online wa weird anyway we ended up stopping talking a i moved on with my life made more friend at school and started being a normal teen with a normal life boy etc probably around early 0 0 i started talking to him again a i messaged him on instagram we spoke for a day then wouldn t talk for or so and this went on for a few month then we stopped talking completely novemeber 0 0 i dropped out on school in year 0 due to mental health issue and wa really at my lowest point i started talking to him again btw i barely remember anything from 0 0 bc i think my mental health just f cked up my brain we spoke for hour every night and day i m just adding that he s hispanic he skate his voice is so nice and he s literally my entire type anyway we talked and talked and we both fell in love he made me feel like a person he made me feel like everything i felt like nothing for so long and like i didn t belong and nothing made me happy and he just fixed everything me being me i would cause argument with him when he didn t reply within like 0 minute which ik wa so wrong of me to do i ruined everything by just keep going on at him for being dry etc because i wa so scared he would fall out of love with me he started being distant with me and talking to me le and not being like he used to be it really upset me what i mean by that is i would not eat i would not sleep i would stalk everything he wa doing i ended up getting blocked by him on absolutely everything even spotify it ruined me i made new account to get unblocked and the whole talking for age him being dry getting blocked repeated about time up until now he doesn t love me anymore he told me he wa all i ever wanted in a person last time i wa blocked it wa for about month life wa pointless without him he s just some guy online who could be doing whatever and i wouldn t know because i live thousand of mile from him but i love him i don t know why but i have this obsession with him i don t even think it s love anymore he is on my mind with no exaggeration everytime someone mention his name i smile and get butterfly i don t want to be here anymore if he isn t in my life his mood affect my mood i m currently still talking to him but he s dry which make me feel so depressed sometimes i think he ha a love spell on me or some shit he changed he used to be so nice and innocent then he went to high school and smoke weed and talk differently and treat me like i m just there like i m not a person anyway when i m talking to him and he s dry i don t want to talk to him anymore when i don t talk to him i want to literally die it s a cycle i m never going to get out of please don t tell me to meet someone new because i ve already tried that i started meeting guy to try and get over him but he s always in my head with everything i do he s already in my mind and i can never let him go he doesn t care if i don t talk to him anymore he s only staying because he probably feel like he ha to no one else can compare to him i don t know why i m like this and i hate myself for it i hate myself and he s the only one to make it okay pls help i know i m young but it s messing with my head,1 depression because of some trainer get a grip man fuckin drama queen,1 "@mbolden LOL, yeah that Tweet got cut off. Premature Tweets happen to the best of us ",0 the absolute gal of some fucking people i don t know about the rest of you but i post in r suicide and this page to cope with my negative feeling and emotion it ha helped me a lot this past year and it ha helped me be more open about it in general it s good to read other people s experience and know you are not alone and then this person decided to ask to speak with me and then go on to invalidate and minimize my feeling because surprise they have a fucking saviour complex these space are meant for u to express what we can t normally say to the rest of the world and there s nothing wrong with that we are allowed to experience sadness suicidal ideation loneliness if that make you uncomfortable that in you motherfucker don t sit there and tell me you want to help me and hear me but start the conversation off by saying everyone ha stress your only there s option how dare you invalidate my experience because you don t want me to be sad bitch i have a fucking therapist for a reason i come to this platform to here thing like me too or i feel the same way or your not alone not uhh don t be sad cuz i don t like that holy shit doe anyone else relate to this how people just won t let you be sad cuz it make them uncomfortable if your uncomfortable imagine how i feel imma be sad today motherfucker,1 @DJSpencer19 Hey there! you be blessed to Thank you thank you Thank you ,0 long fucking year shitshow abused multiple times lies told me almost entire life ruined family thought things getting better moved started college everything hit fucking fan first moms car stopped working leaving us transportation spend loads money take fucking uber work back able afford rent saturday said would need get job help enrolled full time summer classes absolutely swamped schoolwork week giving up tired want rest hate leave people give shit like boyfriend behind cannot see making much less rest summer goodbye world thanks dealing shit hand tired struggling long giving week,1 bajabitchin after a week long depression i finally managed to do some work on stuff i m behind on,1 people who have been through depression or terrible life tell your success story or how you have changed i really need it,1 @Bec93 She seems to have that effect on a lot of people ,0 @Ryker_x2018 I have a mental health illness called Depression it basically means I'm sad a lot and it's hard to get better,1 #followfriday People I actually know & talk to off Twitter @timshady @monkeyonthelam @galliguez @referralweb (reply back if i missed u!) ,0 fucking hate lifeeverybody fucking hates me family mocks trying desperately cling onto friends met online take fucking joke want kill myself killed somebody else hide computer fear posts rredflagwatch found want keep posting place canvent everything sucks high school sucks face sucks fucking art sucks life sucks want happy but may better solution make others happy notice everything goes well around maybe keep way hell lose friends any pets fucking avoid try bite fingers off despite love care family hate me mock me want throw fucking curb hell even born and god real many others like feel way i dont fucking want feel way me ugly bullied care others myself why world cruel falling apart caused it want diejustto die,1 i wont do anything because i fear hell but still i cant really explain anything about what i feel think or who i am since a kid ive felt like everything is a fever dream where im being carried by something else that i dont really have control over where i end up where i am at a point in time you ask me the type of question that relate to the my idea of myself and i lose myself and paradoxical thought and incoherent idea i feel sad happy suicidal overly optimistic manic confident in different point in time like random due to this tortured psyche i tend not to know why why is the biggest description of my life i dont why im writing this i dont know if i want a solution for this i dont why i want to know why those paradox of hope and despair make the idea of just be yourself a death sentence for myself ive pushed many away because of my mind baggage and this regret make me rather troubled i am social mostly from a intense desire to conduct and use all my mind nonsense energy into talking talking to people no biggie but when i start getting close to someone or i start liking them a timed detonation start that i dont know the countdown of eventually i will realease my mind onto them on that point in time the relationship wont be the same some people like me for this the existencial despair of my mind is very funny when you hear it talk some just stop talking to me some want to passionately help me save me from myself to be a mentor recently i have to really control it i dont know to what point im getting too i just forgot half of the thing i wa gon na say eventually what im feeling right now a mental breakdown i think maybe i just feel all the paradox getting into a boiling point will reach a limit usually i start getting into suicidal thought not because i hate the world or necessarily hate myself my life etc is a strong feeling of wanting to go away to a better place to see the beautiful thing of a different world to reset my reality to get out of here to end my mind to end my happiness and my sadness my mind suddenly calm itself the fog suddenly clear like body saying you wont die i am left wondering what wa i even thinking about i just wasted my time amp x 00b then the cycle start again i love circle amp x 00b due to this my mind want to end it own thinking meaning that i tend to seek mental damage note you can see how this is a problem for romantic relationship i mean no one want to deal with a man with deep mind issue im willing to accept that i will live and die mostly alone with no meaningfull or deep friend except my family right now and in the future i will have friend and such allways im not a loner on earth but a loner on my reality,1 Off to school. Who knows what to expect? Bring on life and all of it's suprises! ,0 ive become demonread previous posts details ive found yet another bit hope seemed like another dead end future managed finish hr online course week half actually got good mark reason little time started back june deadline today still managed im proud myself need take courses get uni time rush might even get higher marks comes crashing come back movies friends even hours hear mark mom may already read gone insane showed serious signs distrust came room late night see bag emptied contents spread bed online course book it leave folded sheet academic upgrading it bed unfolded got back whole time seemed like trusted catching on even think mightve crucially slipped one point goes show ive created insane beast distrust even though thought escaped insanity saw grade hard work put week half insane beast distrust my mom dragged right back it cant tell truth believe thing say even believe either her keep lying soon lying help time comes ive resolved becoming demon im going threaten life im going tell drove this im going tell shut trust me ignore cant stand sight me ill forced kill myself im close feel like im close redeeming myself mom keeps adding stress me stress killing me bet reading probably think deserve die do agree you im close want give yet know appropriate writing here feel like definitely kill deserve it also want die two conflicting urges head one telling anything survive telling deserve live messed up whole life messed up,1 "Just one puff of cannabis 'could ease depression, stress and anxiety' https://www.thesun.co.uk/news/6137739/cannabis-ease-depression-stress-anxiety/ … #cannabis",1 heidimontag we don t get to see season of hill till may,0 skip to the end for my main point lol i m the worst overthinker i must think of all possible bad outcome so i can prepare myself for them obviously all it doe it cause extreme anxiety and exhaustion i m a big what if person and my what if s are always negative yay for catastrophic thinking when stressful thing happen my mind run nonstop it feel like a tornado in my head and i can t get a grip i can not sit with uncertainty and i feel like i need to solve issue right at this moment because i feel stuck so i write down my thought i really like the mantra of cross that bridge when you get to it in my current situation i keep telling myself that but a i wa writing my thought out i wrote something to add to that that is helpful to keep telling myself i just thought i d share in case it can help anyone else when i start thinking what if i try to stop myself and say i don t need that bridge yet i m still in traffic here s what i came up with you are building bridge to place you may not even go to and it s waisting energy you don t have to drive anywhere right now you re just in traffic right now traffic doesn t last forever even though it may seem like it eventually thing will get moving and you ll get to where you need to be if you come to a bridge you can decide if you want to cross it or go another way either way you choose you ll end up where you need to be,1 feels like cant get rid itim trying hard harder ever before want like anymore want feel like normal person want happy know im wrong first time years felt happy feels like im anymore past threeish weeks draining energy feel like hopeless keep trying want give up im feeling like choice want hopek see anything look forward to im weak feel worthless could die one would miss me want keep going im slowly going back everything before want everything ive done try make life better nothing want hope,1 rant mighty falleni feel happy school feel like fit in redflag thing think least many friends homework make parents proud would say moved opposite used prodigy gt likes friends friends would miss gone people would miss miss them miss friends shambles social circle theyre imperfect one understands me one relate me unique sucks hate special sometimes wonder would like successful happy fulfilled like kids got first f someone used get amazing grades weighs much algebra abstract concept that even i someone advocates fact use math lot life say bullshit im much better geometry thats kids advanced take algebra ii blame mom subconsciously tell inherited math deficiency failed math times high school ive considered all bleach pills noise even freezing death one thing holding back dog thought sad looking makes want sob uncontrollably kind like right now think stress sadness id bring remember experience it life set complete failure im im barely making middle school im set fail high school work dead end job live parents die alone knowing touch another human shtick following dreams achieving anything crumbled me dreamt running away while ruled realizing could traced easily give phone laptop because hurts admit im addicted them things driving pitiful life wake up reddit go school reddit lunch finish school reddit home sit ass reddit sleeping sleep repeat im tired it gets better high school doesnt people bullshit routine difficulty get retake algebra i patronizing supposedly no shame take basic classes it shame theyd let move like normal people deformed experiments style teaching use absurdly stupid twiddle thumbs minutes bland teacher ever met rambles something x something y hit pages homework curious old school teacher gave packet followed along wit teacher knew shit homework able done class shut it fair enough new system throws hands air big fuck it attitude sometime week parents find f mom pissed c im basically fucked laziness catching me ive gimped whole life see way death,1 wishes it wasn't a bank holiday so he could be on the radio this afternoon... but at least he has another week to come up with some ideas ,0 sometimes academy recognize potential films nominate controversial strong sometimes nominated win anything i hope happen year american beauty exactly happened boogie nights best film academy preferred give best picture oscar titanic purely commercial hollow film awards overrated good hunting irritating full monty pictures nominated main category la confidential as good gets great movies boogie nights still better remembered categoriesbr br this amazing film tells story eddie adams mark wahlberg surprisingly great performance year old barman takes attention jack horner burt reynolds redeeming acting director porn films eddie special gift helps get world porn movies changes name dirk diggler starts make huge success fame last forever characters also parallel stories amber waves julianne moore perfect buck don cheadle others including rollergirl heather graham actress accepts anything wearing roller shoesbr br what could banal trivial film turns perfect memorable one hands paul thomas anderson makes boogie nights great film execution added clever well written screenplay great soundtrack etc character well developed hisher importance context feeling weakness fear emotion explored resulting masterpiece modern american cinemabr br boogie nights strong impacting picture seen everyone really likes cinema plot seems banal first impression wonderful story highs downs things face lives amazing portrait end s beginning s exactly age highs downs thats makes film special true masterpiece br br ,0 mirrors week decided challenge looking mirror or looking anything shows reflection purposely week starting today anyone done before anyone want try,0 redflag answer meim always wrong even give proof people dont im wrong even burden proof me yet im one gives evidence im wrong cannot right literally impossible give links proving something say im still wrong everyone thinks im pulling stuff ass refuse prove things even though literally every single proof gave dismissed say every single one mean literally everything say dismissed whether prove not redflag answer,1 lesbian sick tired portrayed movies tv sad person forever vacillating suicide homicide never destined find happiness br br if like me fed hollywoods antilesbian propaganda breathe sigh relief delightful offering bbc nan astley daughter oysterhouse restaurateur wonders cant feel way freddy one local lads eye set her falls falls hard kitty butler male impersonator visiting theatre troupe nan accompanies kitty london dresser br br not everything happens nan pleasant story things squeakyclean either win heart story love triumphant leave beautiful lump throat endbr br if lesbohating macho man homophobic housewife brand religious fundamentalist believes homosexuals die go hell series you heart believe love cry end much did,0 im crisis post help me need something real life something free natural like friend fuck er fuck inpatient fucktard art class fuck government fuck systemcome door blast off friends,1 imagine simp couldnt ever tbe real note im abt pass,0 day posting get girlfriend would totally invest microwave silent mode lmao,0 I need to spend the night at your house paul ,0 i don t know what to do my body feel like it is in a constant state of panic my mind ha like a thousand thought in the same second and i feel each and every emotion from that thought at once all those emotion just group up into this constant literally constant state of anxiety when i wake up i am anxious when i go to sleep i am anxious when i go to school when i am with my friend etc i feel like i can not take it anymore it is so exhausting every night the only way i can fall asleep is consuming so much different medium at once i get tired and pas out which doe not happen until am whenever i think there is a root to this anxiety i fix it and it doe not go away like i recently started college and i wa nearly failing by middle of my first semester i worked hard and turned my grade around thinking that wa what wa making me anxious except my mind just find new thing to worry about i have been broken down to the point of asking for help on reddit i know you guy can t fix it but please someone tell me that there is something i can do i already see a therapist i am honestly not sure if she help,1 "@TasnimaKTastic @ShafaYahya Shafa, not bein insensitive to it however, every speech needn't be on the same topic. There's a place n time for it n show me 1 person who doesnt go through depression in today's times? We dont scream bout it? Importance of mental health shd be highlighted bt not in every forum",1 "Just one puff of cannabis 'could ease depression, stress and anxiety' https://www.thesun.co.uk/news/6137739/cannabis-ease-depression-stress-anxiety/ …",1 hate rewards know wanted test meme,0 imagine sending away dog calling bad dog killed bird know threat part instinct thats logan paul ya calls bitch murderer logan trained better sending away like that plus mastiff look know sad bird got make money it died seriously think going happen big dog meets tiny bird think threat know nothing about to us dogs peices lives life,0 first one friends left college today thought id okay im emotional mess now im super happy friends accomplishments cant stop crying weve friends around decade people practically raised me im embarrassed emotional am want leave live lives think im trouble coping might delete later,0 applied to a million places...lets hope i get a job ,0 say that expecting wick movie blurred surprised notredflag way nice teenager movie kinds situations normal school life say reminded school times sometimes good watch kind movies entertain us travel us back golden years young well lead us think better way must understand children past like want present timetry movie pleasedat time guarantee time wasted,0 feel prior redflagattempti feel like im going step hill day day everytime think cant take another day turns could all tell actually reach point cant take it know,1 im really edge need talk someone call crisis hotline come get meim bi polar running low meds take mg seraqueal day oh ya wife tryin best take son away psych blantantly told im amsociopathanti social personality disorder mom caught lies stealing even like im dead her her words friendsand cant go inpatient ruin chances father thats want life severly phiscally sexually abused child long time im nothing maby ben son would better life without me im stupid iq play read musical instruments ampi write poetrysongsjournal cant even concentrate eat took min type this someone please help,1 dreams give hope fucking worst like go doctor due irritatingly long queue get hospital then meet crush highschool the dream takes place future talk shit go date end one year later living together sharing passions then poof fucking gone wake fuck up samurai fucking hate this,0 "yo steve, i got that movie The Wrestler if you and ERic want to pop over? need a break from work? ",0 pickup line confidence use one day oh like raisins date,0 request helpful people hello name meaghan high school senior research project need collect data prove problem statement actually problem link two surveys one long survey one short survey take surveys one would really love took please share surveys many people possible aiming responses prove friend reddit actually helpful please help prove friend wrong xd short survey link httpsformsglehuuznjpc long survey link httpsformsglekvudzcypvzbkvon thank taking time answer surveys questions comments please ask please share links d great daynight,0 cannot even decide start low self esteem personality know am never feel like worth enough feel burden everyone encounter feel like people avoid hang pity mei fell friends pushover cannot set proper boundaries let walk point get hurt lose ability deal burn bridges around toxic energy ever againmy job sucks broke underpaid cannot make plans future covered debt cannot see way unless find better job upgradelearn new skills know toi met amazing guy seems really me good job nice flat well put together felt chemistry attraction years terrified knowing age nowhere near life terrified thought starting seriously date know lot give him feel like would burden embarrassment hate it cannot even take care take care partnerif needeveryone life would much easier exist hate me wish dead,1 hey guy just kind of a nervous rant here so sorry if it s long i work at a job where it s an open and fun environment with about other people about a month ago i had a yearly review with my bos who actually ended giving me a small promotion i wa super excited and feeling optimistic my team had been performing well and our bos like to reward u with small thing if we hit our number beer on a friday buy pizza for u for a lunch day etc in the heat of the dopamine rush i wa having from the promotion i had the spontaneous idea of doing a roast for our bos in the office after work on a friday we re all fairly close a far a co worker go with each other so at the time i didn t think this seemed like a bad idea he thought it wa a good idea and said that would be fine he agreed to get food beer for it i thought awesome so i announced it at one of our weekly meeting people seemed meh about the idea but it wa on the calendar this thing is getting close and i have so much anxiety about how embarrassing and awkward this is going to be not to mention my bos usually doesn t come into work on friday but agreed to specifically for this event i know of only other guy that have a few joke written but have no clue of anyone else is even willing to participate i wasn t thinking at the time that the majority of people hate public speaking don t want to attempt comedy in front of their co worker and be taking shot at their bos on a friday after work we have fun at work but i m getting the sense that no one is really into this i think it ll end up being me up there speaking for about minute maybe getting an uncomfortable laugh or two and then having this be a gigantic failure going to be really hard to show my face at work if this doesn t pan out if you made it this far thanks for reading just had to vent and get this out there,1 someone give full runthrough happen tbh much shit happen forgot lot stuff,0 im doneidk say tbh lol,1 listening slipknot got thinkingi feel whole life withering away much pain cant even write thinking us depressed fucking badasses people look badass movies music videos real tough people ones struggling everyday even stay alive despite seeing light life much many people world hype much are yet us depressed actually face harder shit world yet dragged others it let people let forget badass are get recognized everything go,1 grrr women make angry hate women make go mad fuming im typing ugh punched whole wall gt one time girl named jessica th grade class rejected prom grrr women suck fuck jessica took stupid fucking hello kitty pencil fucking mad grrrrrrrrrr fuck women fuck fuck fuck fuck fucking angry ahhhhhh fucking furious broke ps cant play gta v online anymore rejection aghhhhhhhh fuck,0 asked crush left opened bruh ,0 @robotsarecool Another big table touch screen WOOT http://www.tuaw.com/2009/04/07/illusion-labs-goes-to-the-big-screen/,0 @Aronado Hey cutie! After that article I wrote about u I got offers from major mags 2do a follow-up. Means u&I will have 2 hang out a lot ,0 two of my friend are fighting and both of them are depressed lmfao and one of them is lashing out and yk hurt people hurt people lmfao and all that shit and the other one is different and it s weird and seems to have given up and i m worried and it s self sabotaging of myself to want to help them but is it bad to do that and every time i try to help someone i end up neglecting myself and ik that it will probably happen again btu do i even care anymore i ve always wanted to be the best i ve always had to be the best i had to be perfect but now idk i just don t care if i m mediocre if i don t get everything right and that d be good actually lmfao like being more self forgiving but no i think i m just depressed like i ve always been but shit idk everything s piling up and i m scared and i want a way out and the way out that i thought i had doesn t seem to be working so god idk sometimes i just want to pop some pill and just fucking die wouldn t that be better like sure some people care about me here but they d get over it right haha look at me i just don t care anymore it s so weird how much i ve changed i used to hate the idea of suicide because everyone who loved me would be hurt but now they d just get over it wouldn t they lmfao i m overdramatic sorry this post is all over the place,1 ha no milk for a cup of tea,0 introductionthis post cry help im looking end life right minute depressed suicidal varying degrees years guess see place might frequent then thought get little story there first suicidal thoughts id depressed years then never put much thought redflag junior high one teammates committed redflag opened eyes knew must felt felt too ultimate solution thoughts plan rest junior high high school kept hunting rifle single bullet would end room spent lot time thinking where sitting night loading unloading gun testing way could hold rifle get job done would range gun safety know want hurt others know people say matter bad it matter low are life get better know future holds well no know future holds thats supposed give hope people help hang on problem future always bright worse thought life turning around end high school thought made dark time things looking up years depression already lead dark path came head brought crashing down say life get better put effort work improve situation ive done last years ive gutted out put best forward changed better ive put effort improving life showing others ever thought me none matters someone power always hold put back place sure people care love me enough society general hates me friends left me matter do never reach potential life killing inside last months life hardest yet courts struck down want see ive done life power let go yeah context makes sense trust me job decent dead end cant ever see escaping stress piling unbearable levels lately wife loves me family life nothing constant stress weve done fix it seem much hope theres go escape low life become options left unexplored make things better life many years choose accept tough end it im smart enough know whats wrong me smart enough know options have smart enough know life crap many ways continue be sometimes wish could understand much blissfully unaware happy longer rifle bullet im sure id gone now would take one rash decision plan end life timetable would take day preparation purposely done thats safety net end life itll thought thought right time would take prepare no warning never post saying ive set timedate im attention happen ill probably posting threads im antiredflag think last resort hope mods accept always posting happy replies trying cheer people giving false hope im honest others sometimes honesty pretty think situation get better im going tell too im years road initial thoughts redflag things turn around everyone says ive hurt many people around along way ill honest could talk year old self say hang things get better id tell self much look forward to save others hurt next years it,1 i really need to see a doctor about my depression every time it s spiked like today i just feel worse and worse what the hell is wrong with me,1 redflag planon throwaway account cause cant find post main acc probably time ill post anyway could write whole books worth stuff theres really anytime explain ive set certain intervals time likely end attempting redflag im planning day day im giving years see kind change im pretty sure ill kick bucket cant explain feel life isnt inherently bad im good health mentally cant find anything good myself beat constantly one world cares all im saying cause refuse open anyone longer expect anything good bad happen go motions dont tell anyone feel hold everything hate appearing weak even though im trying hard man try hard stoic void feelings eats soul none friends give shit me dont know anyone irl know one girl every time tried talk gave advice always hear understand itll get better basically means nothing boyfriend sometimes take kind meaningful interaction someone shes normally phone im blabbering idiot nothing offer wish instead understand someone would would instead try lend hand meet me talk me ask day nope redflag becomes tantalizing world disconnected shit im caught middle one would care left it people never say anything face moment die theyll go oh great guy sycophants post social media look like good person im invisible everyone thats price pay existing really want get better somewhere me light follow really hope doesnt come taking well might,1 morning i m baggered been the gym then off to work later,0 see pokemon card collections raise httpscdndiscordappcomattachmentsimg__jpg,0 get girlfriend skin dull asf skin dull asf dark circles still get girlfriend,0 heart growing voidi feel empty know turn to decided come here severe depression years grown abused beyond belief tried many antidepressants currently dose prozac feel void feel like purpose never self harmed before want fill feeling tried telling friends ok told fuck off call depressed burden nightmares every night abuse barely crawl day friends hate me know do feel developing eating disorder feel like im worth much anymore checked facilities going therapy ive wanted talk someone treat like monster want feel himan,1 last year attempted switch jobs let go new position due ex gf making false statement online moved away girlfriend cannot find work cannot afford pay debt sold everything make ends meet handed s resumes lot experience certificates trades engineering think ex said previously preventing screening recently relocated girlfriend found employment car mirror vandalized insurer covering repair seems cannot drive work dealt depression redflag suicide before never bad pay bailiff repossess car cannot even drive selling things love like cameras guitars truly lost everything fearful losing partner love much hard even think sure do income redflag even job enough cover costsi never thought id low sure universe trying tell me clean sober smoke treat every person meet respect always help hate seeing girlfriend cry sure else point human young man feel defeated cannot handle anymore staffing companies interviews lead nowhere pay next nothing applicants seems like cannot get break last option move home mothers factors make less desirable partner really know left do went having house cars everything last thing scared lose her love much think done,1 memers rteenagers dont forget google never gonna give up d,0 opinions schitts creek wanna know watch based demographics opinions im looking funny show,0 story maybe itll help outwell people seem nice feel though owe people telling story well is start with important know like kids multiple ways least normal adhd insomniac extremely sympathetic dyslexic but enjoyed reading mormon genetically depressed things made stand apart crowd one way another importance later story anyway place start would elementary school quite frank sucked grew around father blew everything around things exactly go way way began develop well although time went on learned friends made tried best nonconfrontationalthe dyslexia put disadvantage english courses adhd made hard focus class work also prone panic attacks would occur would sob panic things made targeted bullying included but limited to bus would drive by people would lean window flip off cuss out walked home people followed home insult time class sufficient enough kids crowded around force panic attack laugh sobbed tried best suppress anger teachers give crap let happen right front them found dreaded crowds kids would crowd around yelling insults even often friends insulted daily put take nothing say personal were gonna act like jerks want stay cool friends cool life elementary school real friends and real mean assigned teachers friends bullied tears one day th grade snapped back insulted first time thought standing would make things better know like tv nope justified cause insulting even more every bit bullying increased volume forcing panic attacks cursing pushing around ect age became extremely suicidal constant onslaught torment first ill attempt drown knocking unconscious banging head bathroom wall long story short cleaned blood wall repeatedly banging head reported bed sleeping hours normal me i normally slept hours day due insomnia tried taking medication it gave extreme nightmares normal stuff like a clown knife chasing me instead im watching friends tortured raped killed front me later still effect me even though many friends beginning th grade also first grade got beat in kids even know followed home beat crap me kicked hard jaw nearly bit tongue off believe not actually worst either rest th grade basically repeat th grade terms much tortured luckily me began conquer dyslexia able begin well classes mid year th grade people shoved barbed wire fence drug across it leaving long scars picked barbed wire fence vowed better wanted prove could better person better person people made life living hell years following kept myself speaking quietly minding manners still wore shirt entered places like pools want people see long jagged scars across back getting better slowly that sake shortened attention span im going list crap dept list pushed around not close extent two times beat up followed more insulted more framed sexual harassment feel comfortable sharing internet even today middle school thought things would get better joined football thought people would respect got team hoped would gain friends team comrades arms yeah latter true gain friends im still buds today former even close true honesty sucked fast catch thrown me general one smallest kids team two years middle school football included humped head forcefully teabagged cussed out insulted blah blah blah left football less respect even suicidal happening home bad dad firm belief way control family fear surgery adenoids dad would pinch nose therefore giving nose bleed order punish me seldom made contact later years existence instead found much effective route emotionally abusing everyone talked everyone insulted us daily basis play board game twice day would lecture hours putting early grave kills himself would fault made life home he confessed addiction inappropriate pictures your mother affectionate enough this plus things im mentioning sake length left shy sick dreading human contact people church even insulted me wanted die much constant onslaught bullying put much stress me im still dealing medical disorders years later luckily me highschool godsend lots good kids advanced programs took despite learning disorders managing keep ahead people would insult me talking people consisted rambling people thought funny good way found good way talk people jokes puns such able find group friends could with things began turn me despite this still felt suicidal since th grade ive attempts failing really wanted continue life constant fear hanging head things would return way elementary middle school still intense nightmares plague nights hard get up despite fact things beginning turn up looking back reason simple guilt excellent memory helps gain knowledge remember important things price remember every mistake ive made everything people put through piled on making everything chore do take burdens so something unexpected me started date someone let explain unexpected diehard mormon boy nono date felt cause okay for moment want kill myself this course backfired found later girl liked much using boyfriend broke week wanted someone go homecoming with played make think boyfriend girlfriend feeling heartbroken disgusting due fact broke mormon rules defeated went back suicidal i also crush since fiasco previous girl throughout this stayed alive one reason life end vain hurt people love learned mistakes helped people experienced same live friends face pain alone promised always stick them help every bump road called life want help people used anchor life know jumbled kinda written suckily moral story im yall know pain know much hurts stayed alive help people like you got suicidal too need anything cleared because know written finesse mediocre student pm me pm need help okay,1 feeling lonley really hardi want girl cuddle want alone all lonliness hard people understand want cuddle buddy,1 closer everi always considered strong person face difficulties matter damage well used like this armor shredding every time endure problems think much left ill start several years ago going puberty tough times know suddenly family fell apart noticed snowballing sometimes care much dad pissed moms behavior mom pissed dadss behavior im middle it living hell halfyear witnessing conflicts almost everyday bullied back then home school carried on resolved eventually got lessons it back forth accidents elaborate further maybe helped bit least realized hygiene problems started working it days passed slowly recovered went gym which almost useless eating disorder life stable fast forward present me dad started business small pub discovered reddit found rpornfree rfasting really believed success business started roughly borrowed money stay alive months peak life eating healthy got job stopped watching fucking porn i discovered years ago lost weight kg month nice huh fat ugly kid finally transforming adult thought same time cruel problems business discovered another one disappointment often believe lovely words see perspective motivates you time even sub typing this lost almost before pornfree streak gone healthy eating gone positivity gone started skipping classes done before quality life moment worst could imagine barely money buy food meaning im eating cheap junk shit damn eaten days mention internet im debt phone barely working sometimes wonder possible according condition worst problem debt business business generate profit lesion early money pay rent bills dad borrowed money sold car need pay rent tomorrow about may say someones living conditions worse mine that disagree want hear words wisdom support people like life need bump smm buy ads make creative posts motivation life things thanks give cant take anything enthusiastic person want see response actions thats enough get even tommorow for me ill start last attempts rescue business grave hope may succeed may not lets hope end bottom ocean thanks hearing out good day,1 needed something go righti rough past everyone life friends lovers left me im completely alone past hours ive self harmed ever im done disposable everyone one wants me,1 man close fixing sleep schedule sip sisters green tea still wide awake hours later,0 so far this year hasn t exactly been easy i ve been out of work cause my grandpa had back pain that he had to get surgery for then he had to be put in the hospital due to internal bleeding then he got diagnosed with cancer then he had to go to the hospital again due to fluid build up and if that weren t enough something happened between my dad and stepmom that had me afraid that they were gon na get a divorce or something thankfully thing had be getting better lately i managed to get an xbox series x my grandpa is out of the hospital and making a lot of progress on regaining his strength thing are now better between my dad and stepmom and a game i ve been eagerly looking forward to tiny tina s wonderland will be releasing this friday however my enthusiasm is starting to rain dramatically now i m getting to the point where i d have to work on final assignment and honestly i m not exactly feeling great about them one for my technical writing class ha so many step and aspect i have to try and think about that even though it s the one that ha me the least worried i feel myself getting depressed thinking about it but a for my maine history class that s the one that really ha me overwhelmed for that i have to write a term paper of at least double spaced page on an issue in maine history not only is that by far the biggest paper i would have to write since 0 0 but it s on a subject that i m seriously not exactly passionate about even though i m from maine i can t exactly think of any big issue in the state s history let alone one s i can write page about the closest thing i thought of is the fact that paleontology is very limited in this state but i m not exactly sure if that subject will fly and i m almost certain that won t be able to turn that into page now i m at the point where i m just absolutely sick of college and what assignment like this keep doing to me and my mental health i swear once i have enough credit for my associate degree i am fucking done with this shit i could keep going for my bachelor s but since i m going part time it will take me another year and i can t stand the idea of having to go through all that for that much longer,1 worried breakupsuspended school tell gfs mom likely gonna freak make us break up know life girl literally best friend reason followed past attempts break itll thursday want saturday work grab pot handle vodka end life cant without want suffer action help me cant help,1 spot fake apology most time hello rteenagers today want share wisdom spot fake apology dont always apply time do mainly want share know people genuinely trying apologize you where it apologizing group chat friends might fake apology usually done private group chat basically saying hey guys look apologized stop mad like said wont always apply instance tried apologize private wouldnt let them if try shift blame little one feel like hit miss people naturally talk way without intending rude say things like well well kinda trying shift blame onto seems like justified feel like forgive hey maybe fault wasnt the reason theyre it theyre apologizing let back friend group reinvited somewhere might fake apology really wanted stay friend group wouldnt done thing you let back gives chance again something uninvite somewhere like birthday wedding apologize get back spend time you enjoy lazar tag things spot like said guaranteed apology fake could mean that want people learn spot dont get stuck toxic people,0 @rocstarluey DM me with it ,0 would yall rate attractiveness dont think im ugly kinda square face big tip nose im little short little pudgy tbh id say im maximum effort good day normally like probably,0 ah good actors take bland material thinking movie tight police thriller may disappointed situations true life plot proceeds predictable clip pretty well see lays ahead way actors take there many criminals secondary figures really stereotypes motion much dialog plain sillybr br but love see good actors rise kind material make something it love movie sam elliott nothing short brilliant taking onenote character detective falon come alive depth pathos never seen elliott emote much beyond usual scowling stoic stances delighted range emotion depicts film also early fifties film looks fantastic bare chest scene gives hope middle aged men everywhere esai morales wonderful job elevating role det falons eager beaver new police partner could easily played robin elliotts batman instead breathed genuineness passion role makes work despite lame lines given saybr br paul sorvino fun watch plays eccentric police captain seems know slumming movie ball it makes fun us toobr br this movie bythenumbers plot makes great performances sam elliott fans definitely get one suck kick see spread wings much usually allowed do,0 "Goodnightt. holy shit. Its 12.. I'm old now, and I rarely go out.. <333",0 the house is one big mess everything is crammed in my bedroom while they do up the other room,0 alcohol ruining life im going make multiple paragraph essay really feel like it however alcohol literally drove suicidal thoughts depression multiple times now im even one drinking people around currently past absolutely terrible drink normally ends involving im already terrible state things life im abused im fortunate that still fucking sucks always end pointing insecurities talk behind back even though grown ass adults yell cause feel like it cant fucking house cant let feelings without knowing used next time get drunk needed let out sorry wasting time,0 forget bad suicidal thoughts start happening againnow im back school depression hit even harder pair increasingly bad obsessive thoughts faltering faith god got recipe disaster taking energy get day dinner time im exhausted feels like escape pain im surrounded people love emphatic could never tell obsessive harm thoughts fear forsaken god feels like someone holding shallow water im struggling air keep holding down want give up doubt would around me id lying said want hurt myself sometimes seems like way out out,1 feeling butterfly knife tiredhey guys ive posted lot recently basically ago girlfriend depended broke even friends really taxing me went mall friends today scalpel home wanted something bigger hurt really protection shady areas cape town south africa anyway im sitting bed im really good place really want self harm really sharp im posting rselfharm takes hours respond im really lonely cant move miss ex nothing makes happy anymore truly happy anyway life feels forced whats killing moved blocked social media fucked off burdened anymore wish relief too therapist good antidepressants help want die im scared pain could take lot pills make simple cut bleed id that anyway years long enough live guess im rambling im sure get emotions out want someone tell things okay miss much killing me want die want die would friends think im gone family ex anyway thanks listening sw im sorry im bothering im really alone right now,1 forgetting stuff yeah mostly indifferent happening around me think common symptom guys deal it making lot mistakes,1 @augustweber my pleasure ,0 update failed morei finally able talk girlfriends parents conversation ready stick knife chest feels like thousand years passed since death especially since gotten hours sleep since then finally spoke parents disgusted want see ever again also tagged responsible saying worthless save her knew right knew thrown way died knew failed chance good human moment even care anything anymore literally nobody turn to cant stand sight people anymore always somewhat misanthrope perversion humans supposed be people smile laugh feel sick self harmed felt physical pain seen strife others smiled inwardly know typing all probably going end stain civilization hours goodbye hopeful sw community society miss me,1 point think ending life best optionlet start something mom told me you millennials something wrong way thinking also first time ive thought ending life would actually benefit people around me first post sub though ive lurker months reached end rope though try positive parents seem growing restless me may seem calm words currently crying typing out apologize advanced long post filled possibly unnecessary details turn to one would truly understand position idea start disclose namesgenders want remain anonymous possible refer oldest sibling one second oldest two youngest often treated better siblings matter bad felt matter much tried hard side siblings demand equal treatment parents nothing ever changed times parents even took demanding equal treatment denouncingrejecting parents clearly point making im going pretend rough childhood explains today didnt average middle class nuclear family id say taught good values ended good character one two extroverted know socialize make friends easily startkeep conversations going independent confident decisions two though extroverted prefers lowkey lifestyle i hand introverted shy im observant talkative always been friends close family able converse interact quite normally id say much hate center attention makes feel uncomfortable soon parents start talking suddenly lose voice try disappear used quite confident decisions event event turned around flash back middle late teenage years would think formative years permanent consequences early twenties seem changed except think ive gotten much quieter think given teenagers meant rebel make mistakes stupid shit means trying justify actions trying victimize know large fault consequences mistakes translated personality now became close one years spent lot time together love them really do years grew close one manipulative realized finally left household bit example one charismatic extroverted easily get anyone side issue one occasion someone would wrong them would explain situation way perspective correct perspective would believe it would ones side would antagonize whoever wronged them might think well familysibling bias were prone siding person were close to people wronged one took side either friends family members one life realized always wrong side parasitic relationship bad done wrong toward one feel bad immediately become frightened scolding me never afraid scolded experienced scolded one parents scolded before respectful like mutual respect end would feel bad enough bad would terrified make another mistake one scoldings authority fury became self conscious actions learned stay silent accept fate scolded even littlest things would warrant scolding i saw flirting guy dating know lot our peers think flirt started distance friends became cold started hate going familyfriend events still always went obligation years things like that normal interpersonal skills replaced anxious shy traits became overpowered anxiety graduated university one moved then learned function like almost normal adult became independent things own myself became little bit confident actions one gone two kind gone two moved university years went school little far home whereas one still quite close home grew lot closer pressure parents became focused me kid left living house though become independent confident graduating suddenly put weight me say two kind left mean two still comes home visit know hate coming home told me real job parents support lifestyle one left kind basically ran away good enough job parents support lifestyle either left everyone sleeping time really understand totally parents side one left wrong way could handled better one never comes home visit even know now anyway back present unemployed unless count freelance real job parents not trying find real job since graduated trying possibly make freelance main thing case never find real job almost years since still job feel absolutely horrible live parents refuse let leave like controlling kind way like want know good job stand own nearing age retire still work siblings left kind bad terms parents like lifestyles im trying one kid leave bad terms able live lifestyle would support feel like deserve much feel bad almost every second every day good news tell job search started feel bad cant even talk parents anymore feel like useless kid worthless kid im point wish parents would get fed kick house free will im lazy ambition like parents like tell me reached point anxiety cant things people watching expecting something me know anyone else problem seems like hated center attention much cant even confidently things independently unless parents know badly want go nearest establishment apply cashier job secretary assistant anything said jobs good enough parents cant seem find confidence around know whats wrong me earlier mom confronted me started crying saying dad getting old worried me theyre frustrated me want retire want live lives without worrying me understand im not trying think listen advice getting job even though ive already taken advice still job said you millennials something wrong way thinking point realized made political put box box labeled millennials want associated word associating negative definition conservative idealism concocted top everything else deal living parents completely different political mindset me hard try think really started remain silent often im here realizing burden them told countless times much want retire pray id get hired almost got hired told turn job good enough earlier mom talking said go back job made turn down really know do want leave money leave want leave bad terms like siblings feel like cant need long living parents want burden want burden anymore much want life feel like dying right would thing would help parents now maybe last farewell telling life story end it maybe hoping someone able convince burden even though know thats lie know im burden thats basically mom said want move lives retire cant im still here,1 trauma top trauma muchso read people hurt boyfriendsgirlfriends someone cares them jobs family lives cannot even begin regurgitate failure life story now aside car accident third one none fault landlord lives upstairs yelling things fair making feel unwanted like im hostile atmosphere tried get second joba tutoring company answered questions correctly say desperate tutors online interview hire me get nowhere world unmarried scarred trauma would someone want live love have struggle poverty wearing thin decades ready cave see reason carry on,1 sunny cocktail waitress dc area bit dim put mildly drives old clunker rents tiny room gay male couple however saves life prominent arab taking bullet behind meant official charms national press zany remarks sweet looks sniffing opportunity presidential aides get installed protocol department us government even then messes things times tries hard learns lot even grabs romantic attention state department official but another sinister plot making involving arab man wishes take another wife blonde one lol lol lol movie features goldie pretty picture dumb as fox say sunny learns way around jungle us government very well even important things say honesty lack protocol surroundings perhaps arab community would less thrilled work like laugh rent today,0 http://www.flickr.com/photos/shaunae/3489042153/ bwaaahahaha someone called this a koala! xP tee hee. He looks happy though ,0 @amandabynes hey how are u? kisses from argentina ,0 headed out to a state with lax gun law considering buying an over under in cash at a walmart with a box of 00 the thought keep running through my mind i fantasize and visualize how i will do it and where to not be found i m probably gon na throw away all my unsightly possession tomorrow before i head out i am suffering,1 funny conversation mum wanted go shooting gun bowcrossbow like start going learn it dad reacted normally said ye not already shot gun once like yay cool told mum mum umm no girls supposed use guns go learn shoot bow me mum know shoot gun mum yes see girls use guns mum not knowing say first time outsmarted her umm okay guess covid ill go shooting,0 eating burgerlately things hard working job dont like hobbies going way think dont even enjoy hanging wife friends see facade put wanna sleep ate lunch today thought would note look like would leave one want stop cant tell anyone see anyone walls closing in im sorry everyone,1 i want to be dead ive been suicidal for year im such a fucking retard filled with regret and anger im done with life i want all of this to stop why i cant do one thing right,1 Have a nice day friend.. G0d bless u ,0 im tired feeling lonelyi people would consider decent acquaintances whenever need vent issues im always listen whenever want vent either ignore me shut down talk issues glaze anything ive said people also going things thought talking makes feel like ill burden adding already full list shit theyre dealing with frustrating family disowned dating outside race pandemic help since cant go meet people way things use be feel like life purpose like thoughts words value anyone feel like fit world never have direction float along really feel like outsider looking in wish someone could really vibe with someone whos nonjudgmental unconditionally loving understanding thats literally ive ever wanted even lover another human share human experiences with want die this amazes amount shitty humans remain full support team someone like me kind generous loving truthful get shit end life stick tried chopping wood aggressively get rid negative thoughts following idea safety plan taking shower helped feel like crying useless now bring change ill still feel lonely tomorrow next day understand im still here knowing one way ticket comforting im also chicken shit use it world full people resort internet link likeminded individuals feel sort peace quite tragic feel you,1 "@tommytrc Hiya, sir. It's a beautiful day in Atlanta... Perhaps a bit on the hot side (around 90ish today), but no complaints from me ",0 cant deali moments yearn take life scared it guess characteristic trait mine severely depressed serious heavy suicidal ideations strong pull hard black dealt depression since child one would think id uses now imagined razor slitting vein wrist i even researched it happened twice times gave hard jolt back reality present immense fear right situation created almost myself feeling pulls strong almost hard fight wrote final goodbye today children anything else able see kids years taken hidden me thay result depression situation vile human control know happening yanked me no sexual abuse thoughts feeling torturous know strong enough,1 @dizzel yo thanks Den you free around 6 for an hour today either tinderbox or your place? ,0 dont know get strength keep goinghey kind hard explain ive never considered killing myself lately though life pushing think more become really hard continue little background me im yo gay guy married living us came international student im tourist visa graduated college stem degree ever since graduated life going downhill accelerated pace first many terrible occurrences happened college failed communicate proper way remain us legally opt those international students us know im talking about paying expensive government fees waiting months july october receive employment authorization got letter denied thing apparently never happens every student applies gets it completely bummed didnt give journey stay us i wont safe back home country decided apply asylum husband then bf offered stay together weather storm months jumping lawyer lawyer getting necessary paperwork putting together asylum story by feb law firm settled paid pockets at least consultations appointments told case didnt good chance approved risked put deportation procedures dropped asylum went back home quick week to prevent overstaying student visa returned back bfs apartment florida went school decided together arrangement would benefit us would stay home live simple life worked job id clean cook make sure everything around apartment tidy this continues till day btw months later august and counseling amazing supporting parents sat boyfriend explained cant continue living like this living life wasted potential becoming increasingly difficult doing then weve together half years living together full year half didnt issues living other fact enjoyed it telling couldnt keep this managed gather courage ask hand marriage to properly life together accepted admitted wanted ask well since saw trouble topic i didnt want reason got married moon next couple months november small wedding closest friends afterwards ran courthouse legally wedded state florida coming days quickly began get papers together file marriage greencard got paperwork tax documents needed past years managed get translations documents like birth certificate documents government requires finally months later had ask money friends family able file marriage greencard feb coronavirus happened entire world shut down including uscis office meant application along many couples shelved till god knows when savings gone credit card debt im finding difficult pay top that cant work legally get papers thought going year but far one disaster another sadly end year quarantine still nowhere found everything same back housemaid life cook clean put smile pretend everything fine try strong till may husbands phone would start ringing weird times night one day got curious looked phone stomach dropped saw hes texting ex month now that theyve unprotected sex his ex hiv tried think carefully could continue here confront without ruining chances remaining us finally reached conclusion cant risk it pushed back mind till get documents best course action getting hiv last concerns compared permanently going back home job prospects freedom loving whoever want love recap ive dealing depression dont know long continue maid stem degree collecting dust shelves dont know long keep sex husband pretend everything great dont know long keep waiting everything reopen middle pandemic cant see friends cant work life zero direction purpose cant take anymore im strong minded person time shitstorm weighting me day day little little strength fading away thought ending crosses mind daily pray me get times cant really see light end tunnel,1 religious atheist want know percent religious teenagers think atheists wrong,0 axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool,0 another good overcoming evil story difference includes learning selfdiscipline julie goes teacher zen monastery learns herself also hones karate skillsbr br when zen monks visit city awkward comical moments ensue uproarious entertaining nonethelessbr br next karate kid much say looking within improving well using have,0 need help girls boy wants start crossdressing since live super rurally cant ship stuff house way get stuff ask female friend buy clothes pay clothes pay extra help thing dont want friendship weird questions would asked think itll go fine ,0 better without medoes anyone ever feel like disappeared everything would better without ,1 feeling blue and almost everybody say that my joke are bad,0 @goforyourdream It has been a long time coming. Horses have not raced for 2 years coming into their peak so hopefully will win some races ,0 im gonna kill myselfi cant take anymore feel numb maybe stab ill feel something once,1 hey thanks reading m europe diagnosed major depressive disorder ocd redflag last year also spent time psychiatric ward ssris benzodiazapenes depression series traumatic embarrassments mistakes mostly caused myself never really good decision maker even though read ton selfimprovement books whatnot real hard time remembering things learned often act emotionimpulse make everything even worse rejected girl infatuated behaving cringey found embarrassing stuff me left open vulnerable people deserve sense hurtsi high school drop biggest passion pursue music career rap however also thinking finishing last year school go college mostly want plan b able make money rap also think would help depression depression actual thing keeps stuff love keeping stuck past feeling intense redflag afraid people think me never problem now possible reach happiness become athletic quickwitted confident happy guy things went south life also want dedicate time gym amp writing lyrics lack motivation so pull dark amp scary rock bottom fulfill dreams hate wasting life time cannot shut depression peace years old depressed regain confidence amp happiness become successful life,1 "@PressSec @FoxNews @EricFolmer When Obama came into office there was 2 wars,Wall St,Housing market & car companies were in trouble.He stopped us from having a great depression & lowered deficit. Terrorist were around b4 Obama. Dems raised deficit 2 pay 2 wars George started GOP raised it 2 give rich tax cuts",1 im bored do im bored do do do do do do do do click linkhttpswwwgooglecouk,0 feel alonehi really know start this feels like nobody else talk to afraid talk anybody fear attentionwhore friends family talk sliding gradually depression always ignore it depression mean every day slips another mesh together purpose life go work come home go work come home day day never good attribute praise nothing scrutiny criticism personality traits people avoid like nerdy reading science fiction novels interests monster amp horror movies people know friends just acquaintances associates people avoid hanging out never invited anywhere sit room accomplishing nothing feeding dark humor views world without achievements boast of feel like suddenly disappeared employer would question whereabouts would disappear annals missing another case detective take advantage of fear retribution seeking help job associates have never anyone care doing show affection afraid grow old alone like sort antisocial creep living fantasy world build around shield absence warm love attention seek help negative backlash shall surely bury deeper hole much want improve know to go gathering attend places go people meet someone share experiences stories with friendships seem exist lousy finding places meet people fear may go overboard make permantent solution temporary problem want that anywhere talk someone without record it fear tell anyone work negative consequences job,1 snapchat ok class wanted download snapchat join group ok redditor use normie shit,0 @ChrisBerryTwits and i'm happy that i didn't enter now... ,0 i m supposed to take one pill in the morning starting tomorrow i am not afraid of a new medication because i m already taking the other one but i ve never been on paroxetine and i wa wondering how is it working for you guy especially if it helped somebody who ha severe social anxiety like me did you have any side effect i know it s supposed to take week to start taking effect for this med,1 last film underrated director alberto de martino the antichrist the killer phone truly suspenseful incomprehensibly neglected giallo containing pretty much trademarks makes italian horror sub genre magnificent addictive fans disturbing themes child abuse phony priests loads creepy moments plot twists left right outstanding music last least handful really sadistic murder scenes especially opening sequence kind prologue powerful piece horror ordinary child dolls make creepy anonymous man dressed like priest assaulted little girl broken head doll bounced flight stairs really sent cold shivers spine years later young girl prologue adult woman bound wheelchair inherited lot money uses fortune stimulate fellow handicapped people practice sports remain notredflagminded joanna falls love personal coach get married right away naturally hes money starts terrorizing joanna making relive childhood trauma crippled her repeated images sinister looking priest guided eerie tunes nursery rhyme provide formula murder ton genuine scares alberto de martinos directing resolute acting quite competent david warbeck the beyond the black cat glorious greedy villain role due plot holes lack originality movie might able compete italys best horror efforts definitely deserves attention many formerly obscure unknown italian gialli received marvelous dvdreleases and hopefully formula murder given treatment really soon meantime good luck tracking baby down,0 think anymorei think made way functional everything done life ended poorly incapable things normal people every day extremely lonely subtle context human interaction missing people like while always say something seems fine me whoever im talking suddenly gets weird look leave like im flying life blinders something keep shooting dark missing everything know keep trying anymore,1 @flipflops I hope they don't. We want your money in Jackson. ,0 reading reddit post think im finally ready dietoday read thishttpswwwredditcomraskredditcommentsqnredditors_who_have_been_clinically_dead_what_did thread comments like die think ready take life sounds unbelievably peaceful finally torment over im going kill now thanks mom dad terrible parents year old son thank everyone bullied made feel numb goodbye ,1 "@IronMan1176 I love this trilogy. I actually prefer the books, but that's ok Oooo That reminds me. IOU an email! Don't let me forget!",0 @markwarren1 you're very welcome. ,0 "i've got "how do you sleep" stuck on my head, which doesn't suck at all ",0 son septic respiratory diredflag hours my husband know time medical staff incompetent realize ambulance staff even worse son almost died beatup ambulance well horrible finally got bigger hospital antibiotics nearly month,1 hate kill confirmed somehow always frickin lose im whore collecting bitches,0 @skwiot Indeed. 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It was AWESOME! ,0 felt motivated today decided write this therapist told ago one seemingly small useless step still full step thought actually really comforting advice let explainwe often compare others people might active intense social life big dreams perfect job might live healthy energy exercise seems like everything control every single day someone depression seems impossible compete with someone depression something simple getting bed washing yourself may seem exhausting social interactions bad day thank you energy so try look situations way one small step still full step making bed instead chores day still one made bed eating one meal instead starving yourself still full mealbrushing teeth feel like taking care yourself still important part personal hygiene one productivegood day bad week still full productive day bad day make list accomplishments think i one thing think yes whole thing you know what atleast xxx kind yourself depression bitch already makes life hard enough compare others compare taken step today hope might give tiny bit power make step hope break subreddit rules please let know did motivation one small step,1 something wrong feel like always try best seems like youre tired wish things could used,0 lemme tell thing two someone went juvie yea one time cellie asked items commisary looked him clenched fist ready fight heart beating see wasnt gonna bitch give food looked deadpan uttered words no get ratiod died right,0 get political anything but dont like trump dont like authoritarianism love guns weed,0 Nap time then going to get up and clean my room "/ then at 8 I'm going to watch JONAS! 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Nite all! ,0 @ayanatheoracle It must be nice to only have depression and no other serious mental illnesses then ,1 literally point anymorethis kind awkward new since ive never life told anyone except one person ive suicidal depressed since im things gotten worse continue get worse hate hate life years thinking life ive realized literally point it want live years im lucky years work years im retire sit ass day watch tv alone like old fuck life rinse repeat cycle majority parts arent satisfying cause pain myself matter mistakes constantly making effect everyone else around truly awful feeling dont strength keep going even dont think id want to shitty memories taking good memories good memories fading away point cant even fucking remember used younger take years shitty memories grave need take few dont even know anymore,1 amping for ryan's 17th on friday gonna be good ,0 rock bottomwell title states ive hit rock bottom previous post alot workings ex years leaving social anxiety inability conversation woman incredible know even bother tell last time intimate anyone three weeks ago approached parents paying rent live home far knew everything kosher sit explained due rejection christianity household rules would leave immediately okay one sibblings gay atheist stay know bat going say comply time get out much religion rules mental physical abuse take anymore left without word full time job although enough money get on ive able rent hotel room past week money left car good shape real conversation long time lonelyness getting me call weakness whatever see much point continuing life ill never make debt ever land better job struggle get food week hell idea im going eat toinght however put aside nice regiment pills allow escape imprisionment tourture reddit give reason even bother going on,1 matterall make mistakes bad events life fault friends really care this family talk as im nazi secret abortion little secret girlfriend boyfriend im ugly manage convince every day look ok feel ok amp ok always amazed event something works me hate myself everything illusion minutes ill feel fine go back fuck it im even really depressed im happy day im cheerful night play video games friends im depressed im overreacting still going post fucking care anymore never really did power anything like think ill stand amp take it will sincerely hope everyone alive today feels pain must try bully harass me wont theyll killed themselves want like anymore means being,1 please help im band theres girl really like also band ive conversations band want normal conversation without obvious like her social anxiety everything know start conversation everytime want start panic never ending starting conversation find way talk without basically screaming i like you,0 horribly abused child never got help yesterday blew mom said true things know hurt her wish hereim struggling cptsd chronic illness alcoholism feel like nothing ever get better,1 need help buy chocolate candy,0 tiredive feeling tired unhappy ever since remember ive tried everything years therapy many antidepressants never helped unhappy want tired like forever get better overdose soon opiates benzodiazepines alcohol promethazine probably take long time anyone even notice gone you reader please take care can thank listening me,1 sorry to ask again i m just not doing great at the moment if i do hypothetically end my life and prior to it i end session with my therapist he wouldn t get in trouble right he doesn t deserve to get in trouble or lose licensure over me if that make sense doe anyone have info on this,1 definitely going commit tomorrow questionsfirstly thought lot long time bother telling anyway things wish give close family friends redflag professional will enough write items get redflag note enough legally binding,1 rending on kindle rv oopsies think yourself into becoming a language learning super star living well with chronic illness lesson of labor rv depression chronicillness languagelearning parenting childbirth http t co ikm thcige,1 @weirduncledave true. 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answers cant get help,1 hello tried every avenue even know writing right expecting come truly ran advice people talk too wish talk people close matter want worry want think dramatic attention case know clear answer one seek want know painless easiest way committing act suicide could day giving reasons want could read reasons day long appreciate would trying help want hear it last years life gotten harder day day week week month month want end lot demons trying deal years now winning time ever feel true peace asleep fit society all want know advice theoretically quickest easiest way suicide would be without involving anybody else like want someone find body want disappear forever without causing trauma anybody might find state way think possible drowning hoping ocean takes good appreciate touchy subject probably even get advice put writing sake truly accept thoughts mind idkk,1 workif take sleeping pills attempt kill 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gelato falls treja river lazio italy nevertheless the beast qualifies continental western deals wholly unscrupulous characters action could classified film noir hero heroine trapped intolerable circumstances compel resort criminal activities predictably welllaid plans backfire owing largely kinski character indeed licentious kinski character resembles wily e coyote type character consistently struggles sex several beautiful women either lawmen outlaws frustrate efforts ultimately the beast amounts tragic character study brimming irony stelvio cipriani orchestral score sounds lifted tony anthony western the stranger returns mario costa screenplay takes place western frontier san diego mexico terrorized notorious mexican bandit called machete giovanni pallavicino we still kill old way gang prey stagecoach nobody safe depredations first time see crazy johnny laster pauses refresh stream spots gorgeous looking woman washing clothes creeps behind attacks her bigger man armed rifle 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anyone else exist,1 tomorrow medepression something years everyday like many people fight get bed even get up everyone around tears down never receive compliments goes right negative always everything wrong last weekend thought monday would day killed told wanted one last good weekend saw boyfriend went dinner got hotel argued whole time wanted couple good memories went nothing happy nothing day happy yesterday fell unconscious heard man saying stay me asking what name is could hear wanted let go let go unconsciousness peaceful everything black like blind see anyone anything hear falling falling want feeling time want wake up side note redflag attempt yesterday medical problems sometimes get weak past wherever am really know point post is wanna die want head misery cant anything right barely hold job afford make ends meet everyone talks one tries boost point anymore therapist even told regressing know help anymore im lost,1 first game hello everyone started coding javascript ago wanted 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tried know hes suicidal constantly jokes killing mean time late cutting himself accidentally went pretty deep recently ended bleeding bed i seen marks pretty sight gotten addicted snus energy drinks parents contacted community youth center made sad depressed feels burden problem parents late started acting different jokes differently hes straight forward comes redflag talks loudly around others school it body language different etc know do wanted join military like brother grew work adhd thing thinks might fix move summer hell get new start even make far theres still half year left then told wants friends understand bullied younger something hard know though might root thoughts know anymore cant much help anymore say variations dont anything stupid continuing talk could enough hes getting worse taking toll point making sad,1 past years existed died mom didi think im hated think im drain know help myself feel like failure support system dwindled almost nothing feel like burden want leave dogs feel like need love love them show genuine love happiness ones need me want feel loved lot resentment toward me know make anything better else feel incapable one ive stuck rut lost lonely like burden like ive caused lot pain without meaning to im sure continue living mean well know say make anythinng better everything feels dark empty hopeless im young anymore time slipping away,1 lonelyim fat ugly gay ive never friends social anxiety pretty much certain alone rest life,1 I watched the Jurassic Park Trilogy and now I am nostalgic and optimistic too. Come at me @ depression.,1 feel slightly ill guess i shouldnt have eaten mc d after all,0 @dominiccampbell @Annemcx - part of the "Bank" group and in Westminster http://bit.ly/2M88CB - still got a theme to it ,0 daaaaaamn im award club one another ladies,0 "Please post: Hi guys wrote a song about what it's like to suffer from anxiety/depression. Seems to have struck a chord with some folks, anyway here it is. https://www.facebook.com/irisharound.oz/posts/2034029536812014 …",1 getting notification google classroom stresses jeez give week assignments week didnt wifi jerks cant wait move start honestly now start person wednesday,0 "@teh_Joker Yeah, now that im done puking crown and coke ",0 least physically painful way itim pussy im scared pain even tho wanna die shooting tho sounds cause ill probably die feeling pain idk get firearm quickly uk also make easier others thats hardest thing keeping here dont deserve unnecessary pain wish could vanish without anyone knowing wanna go like never existed,1 give upi keep getting lost self,1 bored discord anyone wanna stream jojo discord cause ive got literally nothing else do discord swifter numbers ,0 anybody else feel like fit groups popularnerdsjocksartsy kidstheatre kids dont even fit weirdos dont really get gen z humor like culture guess least weirdos funny im weird boring person dont real passions dabble little tiny bit everything tiny mean really really tiny like good thing course niche video games tv shows watch really far between pretty hard find people interests itd cool able manage friendship long enough start exploring new interests other never gets point,0 "Gavin DeGraw was amazing!!! 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listened us removed profile pics comments great please one time shut useless rewards down need another facebook like post jn different ways reddit loved way used be please save glorious remove useless stuff well understand need money instead making different awards improve gold platinum ones example would suggest making gold platinum holders able personalize reddit appearance change colours page font links ones see it know everyone loves customisation sorry engrish beg award post thank you,0 in a few minute then going to bed since eric hate me and wont run around with me,0 homeee from livie's sweet which wass fuckingg awesomee . ,0 june still feel suicidal every time relive ended bashing head wall pain brings me im hoping posting relieve pain got huge fight friend endrea ridiculous thing tendency year switch best friends normally get switched classes thought going ditch her anyways police officer talked twitter told depressed wanted die friend told basically kill myself hour later dad got phone call police saying going talk would within minutes knew lived know really matter anyways showed up point know coming yet arrived came room finished texting friend exa police came room them kicked everyone except me sleep top bunk told come did one police officer started talking one got phone talking someone think talking dispatcher mcit maybe them talked sent officer deemed high risk killing myself talked oh idk maybe minutes so told going go hospital precisely emergency room asked weapons sharp objects answered since didnt one officer told normally would ride back police car time could ride dads car got hospital weird walked officer grabbed number would go went sit dad sat beside me really want wanted left alone oh well sat there called booth asked problem was medical conditions questions like that told go sit called little later different booth got hospital bracelet bunch paperwork nurse lady sent paediatrics unit since years old dad go park car since parked emergency lane sat waiting one police officers came started conversation school languages know told spanish told speak spanish anyways nice conversation nurse came took vital signals officers told leaving honest psychiatric would help me said bye left went back waiting another hour half police officer talked came see me gave bracelet regular one talked bit left finally admitted room doctor came see me really hard talk happened could barely speak checked heart lungs make sure nothing physically wrong me left minutes later psychiatric came first talked dad kicked dad talked me stated crying really hard me talked dad dont know what called us discussed treatment plans gave dad papers therapy sections said dad would receiving phone call follow psychiatric treatments hospital left days later appointment therapist hospital really nice trusted enough tell still wanted kill always long time short term therapist though referred different one hated didnt say didnt like saw months wanted tell bad wasnt happy didnt know much longer could go on stopped going suffering silence police service toronto police service canada names changed,1 lost friend lost liveever since best friend always struggled dark thoughts overall sadness i know depression could always count him could always count considered family four guys group throughout teenage years friends im alone bestie joined college started work started drift apart would still hang could could feel growing cold days ago asked hed like hang said hes got project college able come left it hours later scrolling instagram post one friends popped hanging pub course without me clear day wanted nothing me years meant nothing anymore know ive ever felt like life felt like whole world crushed me heart started race trouble breathing understanding happened sent message asking hed lie said friends wanna hang me even though hurts like fucking hell told okay wished best blocked even though want lose best friend know beg thats wants it am years old literally friends hobbies social life achievements life parents probably disappointed fuck me dead end job im aware people way worse get low point even start even right feel like ending all one would probably even notice im gone it know strangers online probably care maybe someone tell,1 im girl hello beautiful people hope yall amazing day,0 one year ago todaytl dr almost killed year ago became homeless things turned around sorry long postjust lot stuff felt moved share give readwhats five minutes one year ago tonight almost killed myself thinking lot day felt moved share story went lot years wife left another man years this caught really guard really crushed spirit top it guy left real jerk two young children separation left crippled financially went living bedroom house owned renting tiny one bedroom apartment even small apartment make ends meet ended going bankruptcy made much money type food stamps welfare money much went exwife court appointed child support daycare expenses medical insurance kids cheated still forced pay crippling amount new scum boyfriend unemployment worked ass scum boyfriend used money gave kindle hdtv xbox etc constantly would go bank account could overdraft account point pretty depressed hopeless started drinking started kind gradually getting drunk weekend kids weeknights never drank kidsbut became every night which lot nights would get pass drunk still got every morning went work drinking bottle vodka night around march last year basically drank rent money pay rent one year ago night evicted plan options were kill yourself commit crime thrown jail wake homeless morning went far write notes parents exwife kids could go redflag kids stayed night rough got ready next morning took rubbermaid containers packed threw back pickup went work incredibly rough hid everyone except exwife she know affected time kids hardest thing nowhere go would go work like normal work would usually go parking lot sit listen radio sometimes mcdonalds sometimes walmart sometimes little park river cant sleep places though original plan sleep walmarts parking lot cannot this found police started driving every minutes starting pm gas money would drive minutes rest stop thruway sleep parking lot there money that would sleep apartment parking lot near work could sleep rest stop could sleep hours apartment parking lot lucky never caught that basically would get next morning go gym membership for per month take showerthen go work sucked thought killing every night weekends would take kids day beach park whole thing terrible think hid whole thing pretty well almost friends locally relocated exwife parents live hours away bosses never really said anything always clean completely stop drinking situationso anything work performance probably improved hung every morning weeks family friend found situation comment one kids kids know situation exactlybut comment made friend know something up gave place stay couple months began start things turning around exwife left douche living since split month given place stay daycare costs decreased significantly giving money which longer spending booze friend found place rent small cheap even got month raise beginning year started taking care lost almost pounds see kids ton now mentally best place possibly ever wanted share story one year ago felt completely hopeless like absolutely way out felt like problem solution probably going something terrible are wait see plays out life many ups downs never know future holds much experience life kill yourself wait see happens things may turn around may not fucksee happens,1 much point cointinuing on gets worsei never escape loneliness feel inferior everyone social anxiety roof i extremely avoidant everything soical want accepted loved never real friends gf everyone seem dislike first day met probably cause im boring dull im fat like shit moobs even though exercise dick small laugh im receding hairline thinning hair im done,1 just removed expired offers from the weekend and lots more expected in during the day today - Chris ,0 still stuck with the microsoft specialist won t this day ever end,0 i m amp i literally can t imagine a future here for myself at all i only see my depression worsening a time go on working crappy minimum wage job still all alone living alone with no one to care about me the list go on amp on i seriously feel like one day i will eventually commit suicide like it just my destiny amp i m becoming more amp more content with it a time go on i do put this down to myself just not functioning well in a capitalist society and i ve pretty much accepted i just have no place in a world like this do you guy feel like this too,1 ow fuck shit spilled yoghurt shirt looks like came shirt,0 go helpthis isnt first time posting here and probably wont last im really need good advice ive feeling particularly bad lately know need ask help posting best do title suggests help myself society messed everyone access mental health care cant see actual therapist three reasons dont money health care wasnt problem couldnt completely honest would certainly involuntarily forced least hour watch happened would even worse lack money one many things contributing feeling want help myself dont want die,1 think done always angry grew living abusive father right now things constantly worst told family feeling okay thoughts wanting die year ago get support still student money seek professional help still locked house due pandemic bad government country everyday hell anger sometimes poured pets hurt think soon enough hurt people maybe kill them yeah instead another bad action harms pets kill me want peace already potentially dangerous think someday become serial killer anything bad might kill harming others,1 watched movie say impressed creepy numerous moments make jump seat smoke several emergency cigarettes along way calm nerves criticise id say perhaps anything many jump moments got point every single new scene climaxed jump gradually wore away startling effect kind new comingbr br although contains virtually every clich ghost genre done well maintained creepy fearfactor elements shining th sense changeling in particular soundtrack reminded changelingbr br i would highly recommend anyone looking good oldfashioned scare,0 domy son came home find best friend hanging sons kitchen got attempted cpr latethey years old night another friend died motorcycle accident less hours previously firefighterfirst responderemt calls call sons house responded alone information sons address year old male found hanging kitchen dead responded alone knowing son victim son refusing return beautiful home worked soooo hard for staying father dont know need him dont want leave alone yet dont want smother make feel like hes living parents again anyone lead right direction saw saw im trained wasnt best friend son also isnt one open up shuts down know wont come mom wont want worry im loss proceed,1 therapy treatment selfharm depression violent tendencies suicidal urges tried affirmations new routines pursuit interests making friendstherapy put debt years longer attended months positive affirmation practice made hate positive phrases platitudes perceived difference various routines still live every day either verge panic attack drowning distractions like movies books spent twelve years pursuing various interests revealed much fucking talentless idiot am friends good people invite events treat like one them interacting feels like waste time every time think realize much asshole really ami used love job prided work ethic else really loved jocko willink line navy seals cleaning toilets years greeted coworkers smile compliment worked longer hours anyone else high speed high redflag environment dealt toxic people sunshine rainbows free time would write everything pursued writing brought meaningi tired cannot remember cared much before thought would already darkest time life gotten away petty family panic attacks stop cannot sleep unless stay active point total exhaustion spend minute eyes closed see every way failed everything do ruined every relationship ever had everything ever gone wrong life clearly obviously faulti see way gets better here old someone take pity on gotten even far life attractive intelligent wealthy even financially stable writing one practice delayed committing suicide years ago often leaves feeling worse ever desperately seek state flow freeze start chewing fingersi amused feel state flow writing this sifting memories time would leave cringing nervous wreck months since last felt it cannot wait long againi cannot let anyone again wish someone would angry screwing up would fucking matter anyway mature enough accept criticismi want put bullshit anymore want stop,1 tired living like thisim exhausted cant live way anymore brain makes everything hard every decision one around understands mental illness gets frustrated it wish knew took life would happen pain complications im scared,1 gonna it reason todont really reason live everyone work hates me works going awful family parents despise me friends went college left behind yeah like one miss right aspirations shit one enjoy with im someone function need friends though place make them yeah depressed going years now tried kill once gonna succeed time lol yeah wrap ill probably watch netflix pass out wake work get home repeat process,1 idk maybe might help someone ok call weeb degenerate watched silent voice made look world little differently great movie watch it life really worth living always petite benefit people also benefit ok selfish helps realize people want affected way people dont someones finding someone cares deeply way know people care willing help need ok asking help even someone cant help directly need accept suggest really want commit redflag one really stop try end depression sickness would really want die curable sickness also things helped me go outside focus making happier could mean anything getting ton money something simple like getting homework week done please keep pushing through believe get sickness like many others can strong sometimes need find strength within sorry formatting im mobile grammar word mistakes also mobile dont want speak check thank reading tho goodbye ,0 f u c k change pringle guy character hate,0 words language describe inexplicably mad brother frickin bastard ate kfc saved breakfast,0 idk want kill self never open eyes life purpose anymore depressed want end life,1 @Idadorable Like your new KillerHeels! But don't wear them with Socks! That's a no-go!,0 girls lose gain scientific name sex,0 going end hell anyway bully would probably going find new victim die make life miserable mine going kms bring together hell least one suffer like going kms take away right,1 cleders sorry i wa rooting for them too,0 new ability think cant get post nut clarity anymore,0 hey guys managed kill mosquito bare hands yes ive managed kill one things holding society back wondering weirdly want see corpse whatever probably say no,0 know much longer hold killing myselfive tried overdosing twice past years failed times even though took lot first time pills found around hours later second time several bottles prescription meds including sedativessleeping pills lithium kind slept vomited out people told reason failed ive never believed it moments happiness life last years mostly ive lethargic miserable want leave house ever want get home lie down im really tired cant fall asleep wear out drink much take sleeping meds desire better improve life idid buy new car recently nice happiness purchase short lived resigned never take another partner desire sex cultivate friendships new relationships fear living parents rent house forever im riddled anxiety ive taken many different kinds meds cant even remember all none affect positively recreational drugs illicit poor reactions dont like them like drink almost control im out dont always drink though always drank ive always felt way far back remember like around age im mid s mental health still fucked sure ive made positive changes growth nothing compared massive amount crap going head people always telling seem fine im dramatic try share bad pain is say look act like imhappy well duh im going mopeing around time others looking tried therapy went therapists quit started online therapy ive month really helping tried exercise dieting became unhealthily obsessed stop im nothing baby real hobbies passions dreams goals simply want cease existence im tied fighting feelings want give end all always wanted die still do im thinking buying russian pills online like barbiturates ending life taking ton several gimlets glasses wine maybe weed tub really set mood plus tub would catch vomit easier cleanup family maybe could lay tarp im sure easy get vomit bathtub whatever do really think im gonna time fail keep trying succeed ill buy fucking pistol blow brains hang partial suspension idk want constant suffering with im always paranoid ive tried best get help help me im living nightmare every day every night,1 cali ufo am called ufo am shocked called it voice said im scared maybe ill die soon,0 y a une mamie de mon glise qui m a dit tu n est pa blanche la d pression c est pa pour toi,1 Watching movies with lauren! ,0 political conversion killing ever since developed mental illness brought existence substance abuse harassed derided intimidated countless strangers friends seems like end world examining myself sinner deity special person closeted trump supporter fact make racist traveled japan experience millennium sixteenth birthday became obsessed internet everything gamer culture games played made feel powerful ever would drugs combining drugs alcohol video games practically ruined life proper redflag note man enough kill goading everyone know trying attack kill maim me trying become depressed enough end all closest got going blind five seconds briefly paralyzed taking many antipsychotic drugs jesus christ lord worthless wretch audacity think understood faiths mythologies prophet scum human kind asexual plan single life want life mean something today tenth day sober feel strengthened breathe again without cpap machine thanks given first responder came rescue even nothing wrong me racked astronomical medical bill caused countless headaches doctors peers family friends desperately trying find way get depressed enough end life cannot overcome happiness feel taking medication getting invegasustenna shot monthly want say thank store let buy alcohol thousand times if more know family acquaintances friends worried me cant go longer continue living want earn every dollar myself blood sweat tears president trumps america may snowballs chance hell finally get job stop parasite wish cant make miracles happen true im forsaken antifa keep guillotine ready me stand nothing deserve live beautiful city going start cannabis grow operation own cant even identify seed stem please delete browser history succeed leaving earth comet neowise drank way much koolaid im coming back ever,1 please someone talk mei horribly need someone right now beg you care fake caring not need someone talk,1 @rhenadeary | me too! ,0 please listen httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvzvtyrdxo,0 everyday is just grey i can only rot in bed all day nothing and no one can help it s over it s just over i give up i can t handle this anymore,1 keep goinghow keep going physically painful skin keep going husband the literal person life chosing others me stop feeling alone one reach to ive taking way much xanax thing numbs pain please know make hurting stop make wishing would die stop tell me im desperate,1 whyyyy ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh wtfffff ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhimsoclosetokillingmyselfhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh god fucking damnit fuck ok get chest ,0 reddit karma reddit karma karmaand idea im sure,0 gene roddenberry never let fans down death ended scifi legacy never matched earth final conflict proof pilot film first seasons well written meticulously produced somewhere along way roddenberry touch lost loss lead kevin kilner william boone definitely hurt series vital part made work story involves human race visited taelons extraterrestrial race dub the companions years given earth new technologies helpful information universe more many question intentions earth main liaison earth races daan leni parker many trustworthy taelon questions arise here goals daan aware suspected plots humans underground group led millionaire industrialist jonathan doors david hemblen utilizes millions investigate taelons end first season things going well daan seems trustworthy boone assists doors investigation working daan taelons liaison middle nd season things start unraveling terrific fascinating series spirals downward mostly roddenberry died around guide producers wife majel barrettroddenberry coproducer still first season remains intriguing fun watch,0 m partner f undiagnosed redflag least think do whatever is taken toll ruined romantic notredflag in rearing ugly head again am i trying place blame redflag need iti obsessively checking partners location using find even know work home sisters etc occurred recently would said was always worries or past partners would go night hang friends drinks get overwhelming feeling going find someone better bring home unfaithful thought makes stomach turn want able tell likely get head think about help current partner bipolar manic episodes sex drive elevated scares even more needs scratch itch around mad get back me this that deep rabbit hole pile crap works retail office job several hours every night try keep busy imagine sneaking work someone else speaking work fairly new job management position already talking moving new store possibly state next step career wise years got obligations make challenging pack move new state happens she lately felt like would willing drop like sack potatoes offer come upits recurring argument never time us always workjust present call every day even days taxing say least talked recently came priorities order are career career relationship mine are relationship careers feels like willing compromise all asked multiple times would willing always know plan yet want give future want considered thinks future seem crazy right icing cake developed little bit weed addiction problem work uncle sam also act like child high try try chill like everyone else high time feel like worry everything elseso yeah act like child high rest time hold everything together sweet sweet release that know point rant confession rant want heard validated maybe look like outsideask questions clarification want feel like redflag ruining life,1 ear size 00 hurt watching chaos theory wonderful movie love it,0 nothing changedi residential prtf like long term placement hospital three four months taken shady shit going especially mistreatment patients reason severe depressionanxiety ptsd mention suicidal tendencies ive home days shit started matter always deemed wrong stepmom keeps throwing face keep alleged stuff im theyll practically kick turn july midst im still dealing heavy depression issues mentioned begun grow worse im afraid of feels like im house three people totally every move prove point exact moment talking shit room bringing much bum think think im still going steal alcohol although past ive put alcoholism way beyond me always throwing face changed since prtf wasnt getting right treatment anyway legit therapy all im wits end sometimes feel like ending good im much disappointment failure burden things much im constant turmoil cant even graduate year time spent hospital always throw face already bad enough feel like freak stupid peers able graduate im able to always pit lil brother always plays nice front talks shit behind back talking past drug alcohol abuse although wrong using things cope im done idk feel like killing,1 want give up nothings going change want change afraid everything surrounded people feel alone tired fighting,1 hey guys btw guys channel syfy shrek on good day,0 "@RapeCrisisEandW We weren't looking for compensation, although would've supported her. We were looking for justice. She developed anorexia, attempted suicide and continues to have terrible bouts of depression & anxiety. Meanwhile he has children around him.",1 @onefelix lol YES and I suggest you get your creew and start looking for yours! ( BBF) I would definatly watch this one! ,0 redflag thoughts everytime alone still want live anyone feeling sameive depressed suicidal thoughts three years bullied still virgin i years old male health problems low selfestiem girl love someone else one secret sexual intercourse stranger man drunk even though gay etc loving family friends strong belief success future alone always thoughts killing myself reached point thoughts several times day afraid commit it cant stand virgin guy anymore always health issues please help,1 When depression is hitting you hard and you're just crying at school and alone and not knowing what to do ,1 Note to self: do english essay and pay attention in class ,0 know nobody likes me one comes talk me one asks doing try talk people words come fucked pattern look like fucking moron am cannot stand anymore hate loser depressed fuck up everything try ends failing want someone least like let alone love am friends gotten tired me respond texts leave read block me even say yeah like anymore hard around point wish would want someone talk me not point even alive one want kill save pain future guess makes coward means dead soon fucking it really sad one cares want die everyday never going stop god help me want someone like,1 I just dyededed my hair ,0 wanna sleep pain help help h please hate bad get ,0 "I have no problem with cell phones, only with loud annoying cell phone ring tones...ever heard of vibrate ",0 good mobile games try want play something new got clash royale clash clans archero minecraft yeah good ones,0 please let leaveplease please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please quit ive lost alreadysomething someone please kill,1 nothing funnier seeing people argue things know nothing live society bottom text,0 want die ideas successful redflagsaid person contemplating redflag past year point done life want right time said personlast attempt taking bottle tylenol benadryl body hold down tired living life going good alone miserable tired itsaid person month old son died years ago followed discovering best friend dead room months later since struggled depression anxiety drugs whole life tired living tired feeling way tried get help nothing works done want ideas thoughts ways said person kill self preferably fast painless first thought try heroin overdose built tolerance know afford enough make kill said person want hear others ideas thoughts,1 wildwood... tick tock tick tock ,0 im sitting here feet soaking class just feet soaked like rotting shoes im another hour half going develop tench foot help,0 cry helpim get story lol one person reads im fine also im high adhd im medications grades mediocre basic thing dont feel happy sad never one other felt sad felt happy something brain switched th grade never felt thing worth awhile keep saying mental health recover own attention seeking im reacting emotions dont count much peers family hard make eye contact closest friends im losing friends never harder get them ambition sports parents make happy never liked them done anything always closest friends parents sometimes feel like text give something like value car rides food value anyone much husk person feel like would better gone without give anymore im tired able meet eye contact friend ethan th grade im tired things parents im tired feeling sad this im angry happy good im selfish dont deserve have im husk keeps giving feels like dont have presence dont know going kill myself everyday seems like better option,1 "@LEGmin i think i saw all na, but i'm not so sure... ",0 deemaah but i offered to clean twice,0 fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckduck said shit instead ship class fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck,0 @JusBOnline but isn't what anyone thinks of me non of my business? If I can't change it might as well accept it otherwise ke depression fela,1 is fucked to go back to ic,0 like thisi read lot posts somemost people definitely something not grew foster care time mom got kids back system type relationship lets say better system things saw put things child even know kid life much loneliness sadness chest literally randomly hurts cus bad need good cry im tired crying tired people wont me think one shot end misery makes feel calm point almost scares me like everyone else goalsdreams society sick weird hands make not im tired struggling financially mentally life hard sad redflag easy thinking hard point smile thoughts go mind wonder god get put earth this fair,1 low key tho making anon amateur p r n gf bf kinda relationship g l s im saying relationship comfortable sharing love low key relationship goals would even want that seems like thing youd pretty loving relationship,0 hollis death scene will hurt me severely to watch on film wry is director cut not out now,0 @chavvon hey! ,0 might total idiot exactly pogger filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 im homeschooled question im cambridge curriculum means learn stuff throughout year go school write exams last week first ones ive done years actually waiting outside classroom teacher call us in kids who go school btw started discussing exam might asked cool actually discussing concepts reminding right before id never able normal tests mom set up one girls started asking questions another student started saying know stuff never pays attention class spends half time jerking guys closet wanted know kinda talk normal school downright stunning uncomfortable me never heard someone say anything explicit internet assumed anonymity people online brings language out seem fazed it either joke actually care people know social skills tell xd,0 Can't wait 4 a real bed! haha,0 someone check grammar message need send english teacher advice guess obvious reasons need write good grammar use right words send anyone message,0 theekween heart break trauma anxiety depression pain of losing a loved one thelmasherbs thelmasherbs thelmasherbs,1 one miss mei never mean anything anyone every time ive tried reach never worked out trash everyone else deserve this,1 it s kind of funny isn t it,1 readyi idea it ready anxiety depression ptsd eating disorder need someone give advice ending it feel bad helping me really need thoughts stop favour,1 im alive yet redflag still mindi know replied previous post hated commit hate im still alive know why really wanted people believe dead im alive much obvious still cant stop thinking killing myself want someone love me somebody hold know reason here kills know possible want hang bad im still terrified last time feel weak,1 "@LisaLavie Too many to choose from!! BUT, one of my all time favourites is "You are so beautiful" - Joe Cocker ",0 im friends point eat alone every day school do want cliche answersps used sort depressed sometimes still get bouts depression time comes reason,1 update still herea ago wrote talking plan make wellhere am made it regret wholeheartedly thought things get worse boy wrong i learned things always get shittier one friend decided abandon me today birthday anniversary day girl planned marry abandoned me disliked me shitty personality im depressed deal depression blame her all one thing saving every time verge have sit anniversary birth think fitting would end day know anymore want shoulder cry on want someone hug tell itll ok ive lonely want end,1 tried agree live canti cant take life really cant unfair exhausting loud painful unrewarding chest hurts sounds louder normal ive holding back tears day work hard live feel like im getting point cant even work all,1 theresev solen var inge varm,0 movies appear provide enterntainment well realism ever wondered role snipers modern war take look one br br i loved scene hundred soldiers get shooting jungle noone quite sure shot camebr br and nicked one scene saving private ryan merit scenebr br ,0 Having a good time.* anxiety and depression * pic.twitter.com/BjuAJjU4VX,1 Travel is sorted! Went into town - and found National Express had disappeared :S Thankyou porn for the internet! I now have an e-ticket!,0 used attractive not vein way healthy mental illness made look terrible talking internet my skin dull permanent bags eyes fuck eating habit eat munchies beer belly skinny body like kids africa lost retainer teeth spacing hairline receding stress depression destroyed appearance wise well,1 @RyanStar All my friends already follow you! I guess this is incentive to go out and find more friends ,0 tenshu imprisoned sentenced death survives electrocution government officials give choice either electrocute greater degree agree experiments chooses experimentation placed large metallic cell bad ass criminal also survived electrocution whatever want room within reason cant leave days meals cut one per day room temp set alarms sounded intervals cant sleep one day witch come cell albeit glassed portion happens next ill let find out may minority liked build up intriguing me payoff half good build would rated much higherbr br my grade c br br media blasters dvd set extras disc directors cut trailers versus aragami attack gas station deadly outlaw rekka disc theatrical cut commentary hideo sakaki ryuhei kitamura sakaguchi takuand tsutomu takahashi cast crew interview making of original trailer promo teasers,0 call police best friend tells wants commit redflagtheres group whatsapp chat three best friends im going give pseudonyms preserve identity shayla me gertrude camille camille clinically depressed couple years now since early last year multiple occasions texted suicidal goodbye messages group thanking us weve done her saying made mind wants end life even though knows selfish thing do course lose fucking shit every time go panic attack never know saying it actually going it heres thing every time says going kill herself never actually it wakes next morning apologising saying felt posessed texted us suicidal messages happened least five times frankly speaking cycle staying til morning make sure fine anything stupid extremely exhausting live near her end rushing house make sure anything stupid everyone kind knows going nobody wants take chances either heres disagreements start ive decided next time camille sends us im going kill myself love thank done im going call fucking police give shit hates it decides cut life mad friend always better dead friend want responsible death know made assumption kill herself ended anyway gertrude friend telling shouldnt says leaping call police good idea says find information first decide make phone call stand personally would talk try assess serious is rather leaping dial were experts gertrude believes bringing police potentially make things complicated everyone including us parents family part really ticked gertrude said needed realistic make educated guesses considering camille often claims wants kill ends so gertrude basically saying going it understand gertrude coming from see incredibly idealistic way looking situation perhaps rational hear out calling redflag prevention country get immediate help police respond much faster redflag prevention website country states know someone immediate physical danger call police immediately police trained mental wellness checks respond redflag come firstworld country generally competent police trying talk phone helpful either god knows could decide present camille selfharms hero course camilles parents around help her need anything parents know handle situation im talking situations parents presentsleeping cant help her interested making assumptions camilles wellbeing also expert think qualified assess situation determine whether call police id rather call let police experts take there sincerely believe act camille says rather speculate intentions aware actual chance committing redflag high regardless intend stupid maybe im fucking selfish want feel guilty calling police could please give advice know do want anything would emotionally damaging much help would appreciated referencehttpwwwmentalhealthtodaycomredflagsuihtm,1 @Rebekah_McFly good im so excited lol not alot really just on here and listening to music you? xxx,0 beautiful morning time to see what everyone is doooing,0 can t sleep i don t like sonny being gone,0 suicidal need someone hear meso basically taxes today im hole made got thousand unemployment im single kids money made keep sustainable really doesnt lived parents almost whole year last year apart helping pay bills house bills took care whatever money made wage garnishments shit takes money im always poor sick tired bullshit barely make ends meet im still hole matter do get pissed companies like ge need tax breaks need pay taxes coming scott free right now holding approx dollars take care gas weeks two weeks california know anything gas prices think get days let alone weeks then found new garnishment taking effect next paycheck stupid garnishment boy sued car making payments to fired lost touch expensive car approx k im sued much lawyer fees im dirt poor feel like end sight im pissed myself accomplish people take advantage pay shit like ge know im going last weeks cant ask parents poor dad worked since thinking asking advance work thats going cut next paycheck ill use pay rent bedroom myself new garnishment ill lucky make let alone little gas close giving disappearing going homeless stop paying bills say fuck all anyone else feeling desperation like am,1 girl told crush back waiting ask out reject since im gay would funny think,0 sometimes worry friend thinking today biology teacher gave worksheet us do end lesson walked friends table look work uh question asking us draw part penis vasectomy take place vasectomy cutting tying sperm duct cant ejaculate sperm sex baby read drew diagram see drew urethra penis fucking madlad,0 @ScholesyLad @ffslukaaku Sharon should not take a complete break bc. Our depression FC needs him.,1 someone jumped building todayi wonder were like,1 "At Chandini's movie party with mer, Alex, Rachel and Leah ",0 dianaisabela markus lanz nataklitschko s vitvitska jakluge fiedelseb wir m ssen darauf achten das wir im herzen den sonnenschein nicht verlieren dauerhafte traurigkeit depression u aggression macht krank und dann kriegen die un am ende doch noch hab sonne im herzen ob s st rmt oder schneit,1 Depression and anxiety can be isolating#peersupport can help through the tough timesTwo support groups meetevery Thursday in #PrestonWhen? Where?Take a look No need to book Just come along - they're a friendly bunch https://twitter.com/peer_talk/status/988665076470214661 …,1 Wish weed was legal here would probs reduce depression rates ,1 "@johnbernos Seriously dude. Let's get jobs back at Disneyland! I mean, we can still be with RD too if we're seasonal right? ",0 im fucking lost life literally shit again barely anything anymore except lay bed day sleeping listening music sometimes go drive theres barely anywhere go literally lost motivation,0 beat my meat n then my depression,1 statistically supposed dead sometime last years chf day nothing changed lifei look patient admittance band httpimgurcomszrnqid think self that happy im still alive infact not since ive known despair sadness ive learned people leave instead want stay people never love way love them fighting light end tunnel fighting littlest glimpse hope exhausting last night smiling thinking bottle jamo golddot hollowpoints ive kept pillow first genuine smile ive years effortless move muscles face create smile throw people off theres nothing behind it notice smiling involuntarily truly comes heart im tired tired ive wanted sleep like while might today might tomorrow hell might months now honestly felt like getting out maybe get deleted really care,1 yoghurt overload,0 feel socially emotionally confined express self riamweird heyo sw im bit strange fellow usually spend days containing myself so built outlet thought someone might like riamweirdhttpwwwredditcomriamweird description made reddit think justice gtwelcome sanctuary strange here may express inner weirdo experience others gt gtthis place people and various lifeforms try post things strange pictures those belong rwtfhttpwwwredditcomrwtf unless involved somehow gt gthere encouraged suck spot light yourself gt gtdont shy were really accepting gt gtif come embrace oddity ones humanity please advance rnormalhttpwwwredditcomrnormal gt gtdo pass go gt gtdo collect karma gt gtenjoy stay gt we fleas bit boring moment hoping one two people might interested joining strange selves thanks bushel,1 im tiredi feelings day days kind listless drift events day sun goes start think get angry myself dont like anything myself dont appreciate life wont let happy im tired want rest,1 stay focused school online classes prerecorded classes watch whenever please however procrastination keeps making anything else besides schoolwork watching classes homework advice,0 malware clicking image ads youtube iphone youtube clicked one annoying ass ads beneath video shows image redirects site dont remember site seemed sketchy news article something way iphone could gotten virus malware clicking ad getting site,0 im doneim planning take life soon tried everything nothing works cant bear anymore,1 try reach friend said tired living one like live sake breathing surviving everyday meaningless friend said saying like that like this questions make feel worse random thought,1 "on a happy note, weddings are awesome, and i'm gonna make sure my wedding has an open bar! ",0 guys help petting pet bat accidentally breathed wrong way sparks flew fingers bat exploded please help happened,0 cant post polls here thats boring fuck see title wanna collect data sell big corporations money dumbfuck mod team disabled polls seriousness able polls sub would kinda cool feel like people cant assed leave comments,0 one cerebral insightful movies ever seen script language costumes scenery plot characters etc supreme bored watched intensely even listened movie working many times lost count scarlett ages gracefully acquiring wisdom beyond years end movie takes tara ireland family originally see results another civil war played there time irish englishbr br this movie depicts double standards men timea man still respected girlfriends whores woman merely seen private place man society accuses impropriety course scarlett always thinking outside box breaking rules necessary create needed change help people andor survivebr br scarletts beauty definitely bone strength selfesteem wisdom grow ages br br i remember lines confronted much plate as tomorrow another day way carried herself determination courage learned experiences good movie show daughters teaches woman important respect yourself men especially handsome ones two sides may treat woman differently depending acts respects herself attractive woman needs learn movie teaches br br this movie like therapy me better gone wind second part takes place ireland anyone irish decent cherish scenery people scarletts character within it,0 leitora9 how depression look like,1 good morning can t believe this is my last week in london but i will be back in the marketingworld of london for sure,0 anyone owns rdr finish story first playing online matter all got game im like percent story,0 im doneim going end life lock over live ive never experienced something positive parents hate every day wake making life hell one cares abusive relationships bad friends adhd autism spectrum disorder tried follow religion get relief cant see any tried taking hobbies cant see any get free access dorms uni parents rent place find job theyll dictating making life hell im walking punching bag nothing else,1 IM SEEING JONAS BROTHERS TODAYYYYY ,0 favorite cheese yours know im lactose intolerant still eat dairy becuz im rebel consequences worth sometimes eating dairy,0 "Mom's depression tied to kids' emotional, intellectual development https://ift.tt/2HtVZCE ",1 feeling way better everyone fever yesterday among things feel way better today immune system speed runner apparently yall,0 okay wasnt expecting rented film see would since want see first one anyway film bmovie it watched realized funny first minutes snowman kiiling people one man losing sanity first minutes funny one liners it throws first little minions knew would funny act like gremlins ninteen eighty four hit gremlins made look like spoofing made forget bmovie like laugh rent one,0 sore throat please god don t make me sick sleep time night all x,0 hate phone dies instead dont know much time passed feels like forever nothing ever feels like home standing alone head,0 sometimes forget swag put makeup swag rn u ever feel put makeup pick cute outfit youll feel like baddie,0 toi le venin robert hosseins masterpieceand one great thrillers fiftiesbased frederic dard novela writer director often worked see also le montecharge hossein direct lead toothe screenplay grabs first pictures desert road night beautiful blonde might fieriest criminals mysterious house finds femme fatale and sisterthen begins cat mouse play one sisters wheelchair but really disabledwhich one criminal tried kill hero night br br the two actressesmarina vlady late odile versois sistersbr br turn lights watchinghighly suspenseful,0 anybody remember super minecraft maker small burst nostalgia today remembered server called minecade game called super minecraft maker game basically bunch small mini games stories sprinkled in decided go back play checked game super minecraft maker know one hell fact existed anybody remember game,0 dont shit post piss post,0 try help many people im fucked insidei really hope single person tried help read this lot medication nerve pain an label use anxiety mood stabilizing ive drank way much taken way many pills fractured tailbone already today boyfriend should even call boyfriend anymore know think broke up thats doing thats raised narcissistic parent thinking deserve nothing well take drug abusing parent know im fucked head enough know deserve living month dosage neurotin originally nerve pain label use mood stabilizing anxiety high dosage xanax clonodine sleeping aid prescribed cant bothered going purse find name one month worth dosage shit load alcohol it think slow breathing trick helping others used help me kind of know anymore boyfriend asked ill see get home said maybe hell see me doubt see other,1 always said im gona parents gone cant think reason kmsi always thinking im gona wait dog parents die still look feel obligation live really wish die,1 @Brian_Howes thx for the #ff ,0 i just grew another chin,0 word of the day is depression,1 whats difference dark light brightness duh,0 kilishi kween because her mama carry her shoe she ll enter depression and want to heal na wa ooo if she carry your car and money fa,1 day reccomending songs like httpsopenspotifycomtrackubifbgxuqntgwwolmssidmraisarvcfcvqow demons monsters aidan,0 dumbass swallowed gum chewing focused something like wait wheres gum go,0 divorcewell looks like im ruled against doesnt matter ill dead make broke take kids me,1 work pressure mental tormenthello all struggled suicidal thoughts throughout entire college years studied medicine germany work junior cardiologist challenging top tier university research hospital germany getting bullied colleagues mentally tormented failed many research projects get bullied heavily this social interactions besides going work gym friends never girlfriend kind physical contact opposite sex worst part work failed projects enjoy life know many people worse precarious situations want exist hate every moment reason living family brother want feel sad die want exist hate life existence itself,1 aaaaand phones cant use moms charger anymore time alone,0 took shower walk parents think sex told bring condom brush teeth wouldnt listen told,0 Just been to see Night At The Museum 2. It was a really good I'd recommendd ,0 going through a depressive phase probably will last for a week to the least i picked up project when i wasn t in this depressive episode and now i cut of any communication with those people a the time is passing my anxiety is rising so a to why i am not communicating what they will think judgement etc what are your thought,1 tomorrowim gonna try itim pretty scared idk itll work idk whatll happen doesnt lots excedrin trick guess im failing classes need serious reason withdraw im thinking survive maybe allowed withdraw classes dont even know feel alone anyone spot me feel like way out,1 well my foot odor problem is def back hmph,0 Having my bangs be curly is odd haha ,0 found old dress back th grade decided see still fit did sounds great right really wore dress tried days ago still fit always always twig suppose lol,0 im ready give upi anything look forward whats point nothing,1 woke up to find this cold flu illness type thing isn t going without a fight and apparently beat you up in your sleep sorry keynote,0 anyone else experience sudden bursts agitation restlessness confusion low mood almost day also get small bouts emotions place get extremely restless feel like cannot think clearly seconds diagnosed mdd also experience strange little periods scared something else going on idk mood also changes many times throughout day external reason random bouts confusionbrain fog,1 codaqueen oh wait he doe have in oakland on the th can t understand why he only ha amp in oakland,0 breaking pointi know else put this know cant keep inside anymore cant confess anyone knows me way finding me got back college today ive never felt sick worst semester ive ever had im sophomore drop course altogether halfway through im gonna take summer course make it since counts towards major resultingly pass classes semester still considered full time student live campus next semester think ive done im almost entirely convinced havent ive gone math either one two classes failed entirely cant even sure attended ones class take midterm probably didnt options point everything revolved around going college embarrassing performance breaking point cant explain try harder always slacked attend classes excuses need full time tuition paid otherwise cant afford it ill also kicked insurance able afford medication thats kept longtime illness flaring up last time done made drop pounds goals beyond college pathways avenues ambitions college everything pin holding everything together road future have if when grades come back options cant even look parents cant talk them would destroy completely would options left ive always lagged behind siblings final nail coffin cant overstate much college mattered much fucking joke let slip past like this ive considered redflag long time first time felt immediate physical feels like wall pressed me fills feeling dragged doctors kid feel like reasonable avenue me cant succeed single bare bones thing future depended on kind person i kind future would lead ive done nothing bring unnecessary stress financial pain family ive never felt like before claustrophobic anxious burning sensation chest numbness jaw shaking hand ive never felt trapped skin theres way out think reasonable ways go this methods ensure success ive failed many things im terrified thisll another ill live family knowing alongside failures person never amounted anything wasted money failed redflag im afraid even posting this instinctively nervous someone seeing something embarrassing low cant even fucking listen music watch funny video without feeling guilty sick inside feel like death necessary urgent every time think it remember blame end always me,1 wrote letters im gonethe day wrote five letters people mattered me five write one three children wife final redflag note read something happened world got little brighter ugly situation im involved found partial solution god close teetering edge sanity ive got lot live for didnt change fact wanted die part still wants kill im working hard shoveling positivity onto part me trying bury part deep far away life get better eventually even think cant prove statement right simply living one day time,1 Omg I just realized how much I luv summer !! ,0 organization methods personally try use google calendar put iny classes put homework tasks,0 getting thrown last job finding employment scarce united kingdom six members wonder boys better known crazy gang see advertisement employment gold strike town red gulch yukon territory newspaper clipping back theres story chamberlain saying country better prepared war go yukon frozen limitsbr br by way case misplaced chamberlains clipping forty years old refers joe chamberlain boer war rather neville current crisis thats typical things go crew see stan laurel making mistakebr br of course get ghost town inhabited young jean kent grandfather moore marriott hes getting years bit touched head marriotts got gold mine hes misplaced somewhere goes sleep hes sleepwalking gang better help find mine otherwise pretty ms kent marry stalwart trapper anthony hulme rather saloon owner bernard lee fate worse deathbr br this first exposure crazy gang see acclaimed uk never made impact across pond jokes come fast furious number things code usa allow jokes also strictly topical british lot gotten herebr br the sight gags universal final chase scene worthy anything marx brothers america suggestion watch frozen limits tape working familiarity british history run two three times make sure pick everything worth it,0 tired stateless invisiblei years old guy south america i would rather say country inmigrant spain many years mom brought kid life misery home country am stateless home country give new passport without birth certificate spain grant assylum ilegal inmigrant living small room mom barely pay rent survive sometimes afford meals day walk street fear taken toll me im lucky could pass local since skin fairly white long talk people spot foreign accent start asking questions cannot trust anyone arrested twice guardia civil second time policia nacional caught selling replica clothing downtown madrid reason arrest living spain without proper authorization ive een beaten bullied xenophobic police officers well robbed many times local spanish pickpocketers inmigrant cannot even report thieves authorities time end suffering kill myself please go ahead shit chant ilegal inmigration,1 kill meplease kill me cant die,1 surely is this is the first time i have tried to do this,0 2 from theory of a deadman up next! ,0 mouth fire dxevuvgefbvnfrvirnv whole packet mint bubblegum hell it mouth literally burning,0 movie best film ever cant remember last time movie drawn tears me tear eye admire movie elements good movie must have excellent dialogues music acting storyplot story friendship courage kindliness loyalty street performing famous king masks little girl sold boy serf bazaar little girl liked granddaughter king masks liked grandson conventional real every scene together priceless camera work flawless grips you acting inspired xu zhu excellent king masks renying zhou doggie looks pretty played character well zhigang zhao liang sao lang great played helpful kindhearted character extremely well havet movie try once watch it,0 commercials make depressedfor reason commercials make depressed sound them music talking ending climax music end all think something childhood something cant pin point exactly causes react way,1 "@hkhalifa what i understand is that the #natal project is just an add-on, hopefully ",0 wanna non existentthis getting much me yesterday doctors appointment told afterwards development disorder im see sense living feel like government society dumb fuck system unfair normal people well hows going world open eyes development dysfunction broke point think recover anymore please say something like talk matter bla bla ive heard empty words wanna end badly think ill get stuff soon matter result,1 hardly moveim supposed supporting wife im supposed job that whatever reason hate worst though im supposed getting better finally got shit together started seeing therapist met psychologist got prescription anti depressants better much better im not cant get bed im afraid stand ill walk closet pick pistol shoot back head literally difficulty picking phone floor instead picking phone wanted grab cord right next strangle myself hurts fact know could developing great life family im depressed broken it fact know known since sophomore year die hand eventually hurts knowing people ill leave behind little sister wife parents family friends left behind put fucking smile get myself want done way think done dying im failure cant believe im again thought okay im not,1 hi anyone get prescribed metroprolol my heart always feeling like it is racing i m terrified to take it,1 http://twitpic.com/7iope - @kevinkallstrom on da web cam dunno why this came out so little,0 family going cruise september cruise boat raped years prior heart tell grandparents ship happenedmy mom boyfriend back dopemy dads th year death anniversary week backmy freinds seem picking getting worsei sh try control worse urgesi sure keep pushing really struggling tn,1 say somethingi wanna go much detail due fact made post last night this first ever redflag attempt failed im supposed graduate june dad excited that thats makes things even worse im scared going try again deep inside want die point longer control myself im wondering tell guidance today know ill go psych ward three times life feel would kind relief worrying whether going die today day that want take break madness finally telling someone instead keeping bottled long would set ease little bit god relief would get like ow,1 why's depression such a pain in the hole there's nothing going distinctly wrong in my life and i still want to fuck myself off a tall building,1 time come im horny accept fate horny jail filler filler filler,0 know stop myselfive pestering people problems knowing able helped anyways stop telling whats me stop crying nowhere spike bad feeling hits im one people make obvious something wrong try hide it feel selfish straightforward makes feel like get chance wanna ask whats wrong not ive confidence issues whole life theyve really taken bad turn downhill turned straight drop every time see mirror start crying gagging ive puked many times recently never deliberately like put toothbrush throat think still fault keep torturing looking beautiful talented people showertime horrible seeing abnormal body looks like cant compare anyone feel like im level least smile beautiful things takes small amount time start crying feeling gets bad cant go outside much either anymore yeah keep seeing amazing great beautiful people everywherebut ever like that im enough right im trying push friends away me mean insult say strive better stuck me mean assume whats best think me mean say theyre selfish take overlords lives guess saying it ive tried apologising like this made people mad made say im actually sorry busy determining think im getting annoying this since learn one message feel like im constant trouble thats im asking could hide all never bother anyone ever stupid problems cant understand whyd want keep around im sort happy everyones getting sick me leave wellthey smile again extra baggage anymore everyones happiness nice course ill alone everyones forgotten me vanish hope th floor enough make decision im sorry long message thank reading,1 im girl definitely fact check profile definitely masculine features,0 having delay to 00,0 long story short mom found cut going doctor might get medsbut issue mom thinks cut once going explain doctor moms room cannot talk feelings either cannot idk even going doctor get help lying acting like good want fucking normal want sleep finish work class avoid panic attack fucking hate this like emotions work time example feel like shit want cry time even right bed morning cannot cry nothing feels real words life fuck going see doctor soon,1 without doubt big momma music videos unlike music videos either dance videos badly storied andor badly interrupted lyrics done right jackson cowriter evidence vh heavily choreographed directed masterpiece fact could say thriller creepier horror movies last second sparkling eye music video judge music videos on easily see ominous influence mj early breakdancing zombie march number dancing comedy storyline yes horror give ,0 wish lethal injection would apply non terminally ill peoplewarning since im considerate gorey mentions below sensitive stuff leave oh whoopdeedoo time fucking whine problems hope typing give enough fucking douse gasoline become bonfire straight got nothing keep going for shit fucking sucks oh lets daily fun task feel minutes get nice little pickmeup contemplating feel great longer nothing fucking else looking forward going back school oh probably going fully fucking online god cut arms throw lake take away everything fro you tired this going back therapy luck ill get little honest ill get locked either jail fucking hospital fucking lose even more why oh lethal methods hardest obtain gosh come on less jumping going get body shredded beyond recognition now whats point me broken broken broken broken yeah sure like term use call fucking identical ill physically broken shattered bits shut fuck up maybe ill fucking ride plane enough times well crash atlantic something huge search party dramatic news story even firearms measly fatality wheres guaranteed way out survivingquestions hospitalization prices yuck maimed beyond repair maybe ill fucking saw hand see theyll do hospitalize long what what maybe corruption system could pay someone whatever way choose shoot full holes making look like swiss cheese sure point pathetic message is cry help done that wish someone magically help me done that que your family miss you you loved it gets better take walk get hobby ill pray you comments maybe rack those ill carve skin see long till die,1 Worst thing about depression is forgetting to eat and then losing weight and getting migraines.,1 hi i m new here and most of the time i m in a real good place life ha been really good since i had therapy i haven t felt like i want to end it in maybe five or six year now and that is not what i feel right now but i do feel emptiness and shallow i like to create to many thing but after i share them all of the feeling disappear i don t feel good about it anymore and when i m alone it s a if every thought in my head want to feel bad i feel like cry but no tear come and it s frustrating even i don t know who to talk to because everyone is so busy and i feel like disturbing god what do i do singing frustrates me and i m a vocalist i am taking a long walk right now but kind of lost the strength in my leg or my will to go further at the moment of writing i ll continue after typing this i guess,1 one best nights life bois went haunted trail spooktober separated covid months okay first go house pizza eat talk trail basic haunted trail part heres bloopers night two girls came year old group fyi besides him refuses go calls gay year old tried climb tree one friends says get ass here way made us stereotype alcoholic dad were trail running guy chainsaw one friends goes wait wheres landon were wondering hear screaming trail comes running chainsaw dude right behind absolutely bolt him running lose phone luckily find otherwise make post one friends tries ask one actors turns gay fun night nice day,0 must say movie truly amazing heartwarming reese witherspoon charming jason londons bad either sweet watching dani fall love breaks heart yet warms heart time watching court fall love maureen however even sweeter watching much cares dani must admit though kind want fall dani end cute watching fall want get heart broken badly biggest tragedy ever seen occurred movie watching die made cry whole day could believe it however never loving relationship shown movie maureen dani really make anything giving movie want court die still one amazing movies ever seen,0 wife ready kill lostmy wife attempted suide june th via taking bunch pills effexor trazadone xanax basically whatever house thought might work didnt saw take pills called immediately suicidal ideations last november saw therapist tremendous gift help got past then recent attempt one visit back therapist things gone south refuses see therapist again saying i want help seems commited path killing herself efforts naught feel totally defeated barely get promise one day suffers sleep deprivation drinks vodka try get sleep makes decision making process completely defective i probably mention attempt got hospital bac morning wakes am night drunk sleep deprived saying cant more underlying issue victim child molestation brothers age never suffered repercussions crimes obesesses that effots get last word somehow decided suicde ultimate vengeance them heartless soulless bastards feel nothing death will son granddaughter son serious issues therefore much help best female friend gather somewhat supports ending pain one trying desprately keep alive admit always react well threats promises kill herself sometimes show anger leave with total devastation everything me last long without her loss proceed change mind keep safe drugs left home could use try again ive hidden car keys ive hidden kitchen knives cannot stay try keep safe,1 sensitive staying home school beacuse anxiety recently severe anxiety school blue pretty much point almost feel like im gonna pass out context staying home school two weeks symptoms covid returned back home anxiety attack way im currently scrambling solutions do im currently way ampxb teachers always mentioned if something bothering always talk us it thats did assuming staying home played nothing worry and everyone gets sometimes even explaining almost passed feeling well suggested go home got pissed me portray helpful individuals yet made efforts get help sensitive dumb trying handle myself do,0 i ve been having a lot of thought of am i going crazy surely i must be going crazy i know derealization is just an anxiety symptom but i want to just hear if others experience the same thing and i m constantly worried this will result in psychosis like it s a fear that i don t want to end up in a mental hospital or go crazy,1 monkey balls httpswwwgooglecomshoppingproductqmonkeystatueampclientsafariamphlenusampbiwampbihamptbsvwgssampprmdsinvampsxsrfalekkaqhljztmqzbkqfbnbperrvaampprdsnumofepdprmrpidcs,0 whenever ac turns smells like dogshit using emphasis smells like literal dogshit,0 feeling emptymy depression worsening quickly lately hate much feel ignored friends get extremely suicidal im alone idea head cant stop thinking wanting dead know do want feel appreciated want feel empty anymore,1 messed upi habit making mistakes hurting people today made mistake hurt two people care about wasnt inept already wouldve killed myself dont really want die dont see another way stop hurting people cant think reason end it maybe one can,1 Excellent idea - too few talk mental health and depression still Far too taboo in uk - let's talk https://twitter.com/carseatarmrest/status/988503755015577603 …,1 Day 62 (nearly 9 WEEKS) I truly didnt think I would get this far without a relapse! Only another 45 years or so to go! ,0 nobody is talking to me,0 feel hopelesshonestly want talk people open irl keep hidden im completely falling apart enjoy many things used to always look forward sleep get away everything hate alone especially thoughts honestly feels like world crashing even though actively want die im kind point wish did think every day think would like feel everything feel daily basis would feel like forced memories life better constantly reminding never going same never going get better feels like im even anymore know fix this,1 ready diemy life already over while denial guess think time go,1 wonderful little film elements made spaghetti western exciting fun great music by one fewif onlyfemale composer work genre nora orlandi exciting action sequences and vicious ones day beautiful scenery sets all almeria spain course also good story nice tragic romance edge it actors marvelous jobswith truly standout performances lawrence dobkin rosalba neri in vital role female spaghetti westernoutside cardinale leones once upon time west without posting spoilers let say movie contains one best endings film ever seen,0 think im suicidal summerive heard seasonal affective disorder thought winter months drag people down ive got backwards apparently never wanna hot humid life always goes crap im backwards whole life mistake give one good reason continue pointless cycle,1 need help persuading parents wish becoming digital artistpursuing visual designing career parents kind people believe if doctor engineer going successful get stable income call supreme bs get theyre coming from since live egypt probably worse economic state im interested careers convince it like like choices prevent choosing want life hate seeing upset want least make satisfied googled around bit want confirmations digital artvisual designing job opportunities provide consistent financial income earn respect etc thanks help hope get drowned new,0 this trolley ha up packed in like sardine padre game and they remove a car good call mt,0 hello if anyone listens that s okay but it s okay if not i just have to vent because i m so anxious and a little depressed i have anxiety and take medication for it recently i ve been getting interview for job that i am unsure about i m basically just applying to everything i will have a bachelor degree in education but i will not have a teaching license a i have decided i do not want to teach in a classroom student teaching wa not a good experience i have no idea what my purpose in life is i don t have much money but i used a lot of it to buy my girlfriend an engagement ring i love her more than anything i m just so terrified i ll be a failure and won t be able to support her i just want a decent paying job where my anxiety doesn t get in the way i ve gotten some offer but they are all sale position and i just don t want to work for a company that is essentially a revolving door my anxiety lately is crippling me i ate nothing yesterday today is a little better but i don t know what to do with myself i want to cry i m a year old male and i don t care i want to cry and i have i feel so far behind everyone else i just want to be a normal person i m worried my anxiety will cause me to lose everything i love in life my girlfriend is beyond supportive but i know my mental health ha had an impact on her a she is in nursing school idk why i came here i feel alone and isolated and have to vent i feel like i m dying inside im so great when my anxiety isn t there to screw it up it s like i m a shell of my self right now,1 @evercode Think of it as "how many times you have ridden the earth around the sun" getting older = honor - like I ridden it more than you ,0 get asian hate became relevant america feels like media wanted talk racism america blm died think coverage created problems solving stuff like blm major cause concern racism towards black americans deeply rooted history country asian hate though never learned much history issue sort popped nothing else controversial going on start sounding like racist too someone point major patterns asian hate before news started blowing up,0 it doesn t help that they just split up meaning it s harder to spend time with them know i have many year left with them but i m only 9 they re amp 0 but i can see them ageing physically they re slowing down and all i want is to freeze time it hurt my heart,1 guess what another ice cube post baby use ice cubes instead idk fuckin ice spheres,0 got charged crisis interventioni went doctors appointment social security evaluation benefits told symptoms supposed to including thoughts redflag told this called police taken real hospital hospital asked going hurt said no sent home within minutes arrival today got bill crisis intervention hell hell,1 hurricane say palm tree better hold nutsthis ordinary blowjob,0 whyi feel like everybody world something live for life gets hard depressing people admit it everyone probably suicidal thoughts one point another gotta strong wanna someone answer peoples problems wanna kill tell why ill see help solution problems,1 seriously helpim good emotional stuff friend contemplating whether died would anyone family friends care want see anyone help help,1 @squirrelyTONKS Ah. *Grins* What are it's clauses? ,0 uncle migrated us thinks coronavirus fake fuck done america,0 @_Enigma__ I am looking forward to it ,0 feel like asshole friends startung play dnd recently sessions first one dont remeber happened end second one ended needed something today playing got suggested take break dinner rejoin half later said end session feel like asshole becuase dont want think im enjoying trying quit im actually really enjoying,0 bored reallyhey im like immenent suicidal anything im honestly tired life currently everythings bland mean ive seen alot years statisticaly ive faired pretty good far alot people die even make s whether famine war illness general darwinism looking anon know did dont get wrong everything paper life looks good look pretty damn handsome im currently going uni parents paying it going mexico study abroad trip winter im also cis white male matters cant find love find quality friends still virgin guess thats one reason live even still im bored life im much suicidal much incredibly bored need something spice life,1 Had an amazing day! Seaworld BBQ my house ,0 advice humans human breathe oxygen please dont take away oxygen die,0 need someonei know start girlfriend bored flirts another guy druggy friends busy want bother them parents run businesses know cant bother them know why im constantly fighting urge kill myself make sense me friends job money nice house constantly feel empty un motivated need help place turn,1 unholyknight so did your mom last night brb while i figure out whether i just burned you or myself the most,0 @CHRIS_Daughtry When's the new Album coming out in Canada? ,0 i still can t find my key,0 "rattie been to vets for check over, vet was walking round with her in her pocket. = she is doing fine! back next sat for final check up ",0 my new hyper fixation is janelle monáe i love depression,1 i have severe anxiety and ocd and i avoided the dating scene until year ago because i honestly wanted to get over my fear and find someone i wa lucky to find a great partner and have been in a good solid relationship for six month yet somehow throughout this whole thing i ve secretly become an absolute wreck i m constantly worrying if this is the right relationship preoccupied with analyzing everything trapped in my thought and making myself utterly miserable ha anyone else experienced this like is this standard for u anxious folk or is this actually a huge red flag that dating or even this person just isn t for me thank you kindly for any advice,1 someone send comforting message friend whos considering redflag cheesymacaronihey guys wasnt really sure post this im placing bet here friend whose considering taking life know personally reddit name cheesymacaroni go school close friends want nice redditors pm messages make feel happier help make decision carry living redflag far last thing would ever wanted do talked person today told feeling reddit social media platforms screwing life also problems happening real life one injured leg rugby game wouldnt let go sportsrelated school trips we week long rugby tour south africa im aware heartbroken annoyed realised long leg would take heal couldnt even join us trip quite fun personally missed lot hes one close friends many people school like much hes goodhearted guy deep down know hes sick relatives while well personal issues one highly aware influencing extreme things empathise well fully understand feels way take minutes time send nice messages try persuade keep enjoying life would like decide kill im everything power help prevent it reposted title wasnt clear,1 comment title post one posts comments filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler auto moderator filler,0 i m not liking that new itunes pricing at all i mean i ve seen several song at 9 but not only one at 0 9,0 david lynch usually makes films resemble puzzles put together wrong way interesting look think really gel mind perhaps art always mean creatorbr br the straight story typical david lynch film theres anything typical anyway odyssey rural america real life journey alvin straight took lawn mower get brothers house rode miles laurens iowa mt zion wisconsin make amends sick brother past offensesbr br at heart film sweet voiced richard farnsworth brings alvin straight right us simple honest way fact film slow paced matches alvins slow journey toward realizationbr br along way alvin meets confused frightened young girl pregnant decided run away situation listening alvin speak family reconsidersbr br later alvin witnesses distraught woman kill deer car complains killed several leaves alvin feels bad smart enough cook dear meat nightbr br later alvins lawn mower loses brakes nearly kills him nice man wife let stay yard gets fixed even let call sweet slow daughter nicely played sissy spacek whose haunted terrible tragedy past alvin insists paying call man even offers drive alvin brothers pleasure alvin declines thanksbr br while alvin waits also goes bar kindly old man discuss harshness war price took souls alvin even confesses fatal mistake made sniper forever haunted himbr br alvin also encounters two bickering brothers whove repaired lawn mower talks price wisely calling high labor repair costs even helps appreciate one another learning mistakes brotherbr br the night alvin leaves mans yard takes hat him man tells honor stay asks alvin write him scene perfect simplicity heartfelt straight realbr br the journey continues cant help get involved it want alvin get brothers want make amends want know world full forgivenessbr br this richard farnsworth best last film performance amazing cant help understand pride listen wisdom ultimately feel pain one becomes taken man offers back yard stay inbr br if theres justice afterlife alvin straight brother richard farnsworth together sitting bar picture discussing lives regrets hopes joys alvin says film my brother used look stars well know best view house,0 hate health teachers self important im sorry class isnt life changing really isnt monumental me youre touch dont grounds teaching us honestly normally wouldnt rag teacher bc theyre probably hard time anyways health teacher trump supporter doesnt believe social distancing actively encouraged people go see movies theaters go beach dont feel bad today spent minutes calling ppl class cameras annoying shit ive ever listen,0 whats pointim sure common question here wanna kill myself find lack answers depressing everyone rushes wake up go work exercise fill time somehow whats point activities useful thought last weeks would lottery honestly know would buy bunch shit guess go bunch places actual seconds day would occupied way many would spend luxurious vacation walking around meals used drink would make happy good get hangovers now sustainable happiness how believe anything point world palm hand would probably still watch tv want eat fuck sleep thats all whats point anymore im ive seen much world think want see see realize want live least care living shit composted recycled keeps getting refined wanna die ive lost live im afraid im gonna get scared something impulsive,1 daily reminder peoples perception youwho really dont let influence you yourself unapologetic are stop caring people think,0 got wholesome award time use ironically,0 thank goodbyedear redflag watch and people here thank me me letting rant crap people helpful support kept long guess goodbye works great not try stop succeed hopefully ill dead summer care anymore getting better want try ive tried three years nothing got better im sorry family friends putting all ive lied way hospital talked therapists not helped support money energy ive taken everyone im sorry making people read this please know im sorry thank you goodbye goldengatebridge,1 dont think im gonna make thats right last time said much pussy pull redflag today planned everything way redflag would quick easy pills swallow thats all easier shooting jumping off probably painless redflag notes known always silent thats wanna go away silently without single noise wish gad gun though would beautiful way go blood stuff,1 i m a year old girl who s been talking to a psychologist for the last few month i have social anxiety and she s been helping me a lot with how to deal with intrusive thought and seeing different scenario when i started talking to her i didn t realise that this wasn t going to be a forever thing during our last meeting she told me that i wa doing great and trying to put myself out there by doing my homework telling some really close friend i got anxiety after talking in front of the whole class and such but then she also said that what we re doing right now is like learning how to ride a bike and that it would soon be time to take off the training wheel we booked session for about five more week before the session ended she think i m ready but i really don t i ve been having so much anxiety about this situation because i ve really come to depend on talking to her every week it s been three day and ive been cry so much i really want to tell her i m not ready but then i ll also have to tell her that i always pretend i feel better than i actually do when talking to her there are so many thing i ve not talked about because i thought i had more time i really don t know what to do right know any help or advice would be appreciated cause this is causing me so much stress,1 feel like im doomed lifetime failure disappearthis first time posting reddit apologise formatting errors need vent hopefully get someone help me remember last time truly happy life honest wonder ive ever happy child grow loving home dad physically emotionally abusive towards mum sister i result left scars us sister also slew issues well used kick call worthless managed move started seventh grade right family anxiety ridden mother even want help here thing ive suffered depression life sad im pretty quite intelligent yet cant seem feel happy anything hell cant even aim achieve dreams live country job market people age studying university terrible feel like im destined lifetime failure want die one even understands feel yet every day pretend im fine fact im far that someone please help me want happy,1 I love humpday ,0 ill write comments piece paper would put smol table next bed well share bedroom want good things write dont want dad seeing weird stuff thanks,0 @cymberrain i wondered what happened to you! LOL aahhh...the sweeeet taste of freedom ,0 wishing i wa home underneath my cover,0 work laptop is officially dead not happy at all,0 every time i do life drawing at my old uni after work it s a mix of relief and relaxation getting to have a creative outlet and extreme sadness and depression wanting to learn and enjoy drawing again knowing i don t fit in and i ll be overwhelmed and break down again if i tried,1 i m always pointed at when something bad happens to me and i never know if i m to blame or not,1 im done edgeim early s beautiful daughter mess wife keeps cheating many problems work im ask combo taken knock out many anti depression anxiety pills made mind want go fast tried getting help didnt work plus friends im lonely,1 i shouldn t have been born my mother told me she didn t even want to have me amp that my dad raped her amp that s how she got pregnant with me if abortion had been acceptable then there would have been a chance i wa aborted amp never would have had to live such an awful life i have nothing going for me amp i m so mentally ill i ve had such a hard childhood amp my adult life is becoming even more painful all i do all day is complain because there s nothing good in my life amp yes i ve tried making it better my father wa never in my life amp even my mom wasn t i never had a chance it s just too difficult trying amp i don t want to be alive anymore,1 im grandparents hate im stuck grandparents house make work lawn build stuff rake leaves paint theyre fence last time hear build fence metal piping around acre area friends make work whenever try listen music play video game get say way harder kids annoying around boring whenever say im bored somthing make chores wish could go home,0 i ve just had enough of everything i don t know what to do anymore or who to talk to i tried to end my life twice through overdose and that didn t work i have episode where i just don t want to be here anymore i get agitated and it doesn t matter what anyone say or doe it doesn t make it any better i fear that i will have an episode of contemplating suicide and i ll just jump off a bridge it s like my mind take over and i don t think of anyone else my last resort is sectioning and i know what it s like i live in uk but i feel like that would be the safest environment for me where i can focus on getting better without having that constant worry of ending my life can anyone provide any advice at all i would appreciate it i just feel like my life is so pointless growing up with a disability being bullied always feeling different to everyone else childhood trauma and now having a constant battle everyday with my mental health i try to get on with life but i always feel like it would be better if i wasn t here,1 ventfantasizing redflag due pessimistic yet realistic imo views men feel like im delaying inevitableits long want read it thank you least might make feel little better want scream growing up like many girls belief point meet wonderful man marry children childhood never wavered thought saw parents love always true strong values towards love intimacy working team together get hard times life teens still remained true feelings believed knew id kiss frogs found prince knew cheating men lies actions without compassion sympathy empathy thought stuff happened troubling childhoods missing parents severe trauma knew feelings towards men then stronger ever now ive never pessimistic accepting reality ever ive cheated every relationship them ranging months years ive constant receiving end actions made feel like never enough partner however men im also with still comment im perfect blah blah insert compliment here problem finally me firm believer man loves always wander women point theyre better me another shiny pretty object theyre infatuated moment dont care affects long run ever im young attractive female great body end committing redflag positive everyone say idea thought perfect life im educated lawyer beautiful confident etc let explain want sexy someone deserves it feel sexy confident feel confident ever never felt insecure body wasnt beautiful man though constantly compared females every female menu instagram tiktok feel worthless feel less every single time instead someone paying attention beautiful sexy woman front them constantly wondering else there like need new trick something keep someones attention truly sad exhausting even exhausting continue come crawling back begging forgiveness take back still two exs contacting sending things house apologize havent relationship sex two years online dating even depressing get many men asking cum face suck fart ass starts effect you im relationship person core ive never one night stand ever know much family means family everything reason still family reason other cats committed redflag run visions head parents sisters reactions would would find garage floor car on cant bear put pain keeps pain fantasize redflag almost daily now differs sometimes days entirely think about every time walk room think it corner granite countertop nice would hit head hard became unconscious im lucky hit hard enough bled die would nice look christmas lights wonder strength hold body dangle ceiling staircase railing im walking stairs wonder stood top took deep breath let fall forward stairs would enough falling backwards could hit head sufficiently found thing matters family thing keeping earth family need husband children need reason awake live love loving someone everything have love providing someone cleaning someone things someone cant that way world now think better remove world entirely settle havent decided timeline be end see possibility point conclusions men changing fact longer im alive evidence accumulate solidify conclusions hasnt man yet prove otherwise know everyone tell seek therapy do ive going last five years see psychiatrist well hard therapy therapist tell much know much she know morals lie keeps telling find someone dont know much mentality take even one man cheat me simply cannot again settle eaten apart inside ruin rest make regret committing sooner thanks reading,1 the computer might be operational but there still isn t much to do,0 mahisshi danyok made my depression worse and turned me into a joker,1 @shapingthepage Yep Stuf is a great little app too although and admitted that's more what I use it for too ,0 Omg i just heard that lakers won today. Ah that made my day! ,0 might endim ive worked every kind job without degree feel like nowhere go nothing make life easier know life would like worry bills extreme anxiety started get point call work turn around soon get parking lot cry sometimes angry know badly need money cant make go in wake start dreading day bring often point get sick stomach worry top boyfriend live also rare disease causes go large periods able get around work best help take care get back forth hospital needs it anxiety constant medical issues barely pay bills work mall one really large parking garage breaks when im there sit ledge top floor think easy everything would leaned forward im strange case read internet guess im high functioning person depression anxiety nobody would ever guess im dealing im bubbly happy person im around everyone im alone tears insides eats alive im week maybe away probably phone cut start try find something pawn maybe keep roof boyfriends head family helped us much speak mine often getting kicked gay life gotten way much stress bullshit feel like everything get me matter many friends people love cant take away shit keeps happening me ledge keeps sounding better better,1 @MyNews24 *hoping* to do a 7day beach & scuba break in July/Sept with @varen and then go see the Polar Bears in Canada in Oct on my own ,0 "I don't understand, just because someone did self analysis and decided to preach positivity and consciousness suffers from depression? Smh https://twitter.com/NkanyeziKubheka/status/989197031129407489 …",1 feet smell nose far know,0 still awake at 5:04 watching @TdashRich ,0 hardim stayed home school today swallowed one pill far cant bring finish bottle cant anymore dont know im still,1 mother caught smoking weed hello yrs old student germanylast night smoking joint mom smelled itwhen smelled it immediately got pissed wanted open doorafter hiding things opened door wanted look eyes my eyes looked normalshe asked smoked said cigarette believe meapart smell evidence consumptionnow know please help mwhat doevery advice helps edit folks problem solved spoke mother lied well believed me know bad person need stop smoking weed,0 town depressing fuck like insane levels boring parents lot money get cars fun stuff here ended losing friends depressed sitting around day everyone really really cold mean like everyone says small townsi fun years friends hung every day fun stuff but still never invited anything people hated me parents poor going vacations anything us hanging boring town came back home culture shock hell walked outside today friday night everything pitch black empty everything closed even bar totally dead could even see city could walk outside crowds trains go beach overi tried outgoing possible since got back messaged every single person used know social media everyone really cold either ignoring same always walked around hours went places eat hung there tried going shitty bar shut covid reason cannot even think single way make friends car like one two small shops small parkeven lived big city make friends people friendlier feel defeated living long friends anywhere anything stuff completely alone years got depressed nothing drink smoke weed every day passed barely get bed feels impossible anything without friends social enough able walk strangers became friends want like friendseven friends always better meeting talking people always friends could get vibe tell loser barely friends anything really think take anymore loneliness get suicidal thoughts daily get random thoughts would much easier take one step rooftop grow old alone every day miserable everyone know loser already tried killing twice tons dumb shit hoping diei could go fucking bad feel like lost life town friends want kill,1 is in study hall now and i will log off immediately http plurk com p mzxbg,0 think scary shit think scary shit aight friends sleepover saturday whats scariest thing scare fuc outta dem,0 no rain please,0 Watchin' TV with my little Sister ,0 asshole like hiding room family member friend quietly play highest note harmonica think ears ringing drives insane,0 my poor little girl ha a baaaad rash on her bum and isnt feeling good,0 reposting good appointmentsomeone still downvoting me repost this got back psychiatrist gone better ever thought would talked openly pa drinking said medicine stops cravings also makes sick ingest alcohol said really need cravings strong resist them happy todaysaid nice bright eyed positive yeah feel pretty darned good would like thank friends redflagwatch great community found support appreciate greatly sisters brothers suffering here please accept gentle hug know anyone needs contact anytime know feels bottom dark deep pit looking see blackness thereand back tomorrow know right feeling better focus let tomorrow take care itself thanks friends hope better day lg,1 gn everyone hopefully tmrw isnt shitty ily guys,0 "Sorry for the ~spam~ followers, but it's not really spam you know. It's birthday time, that's all ",0 over the last year my life ha completely fallen apart i grew up happy a ever with a very well off family a brother i got along with friend i hung out with all the time then my baby sister died out of nowhere shortly after my parent said they were getting a divorce after having a loving caring family my entire life in the span of just a month everything flipped upside down i don t have a family outside of my mother and baby brother anymore and my mother ha robbed the house of peace by becoming fixated on an emotionally abusive boyfriend my entire life wa destroyed and it s only gotten worse year into the divorce my best friend died all of my other friend and friend group i wa in slowly just forgot about me due to depression and anxiety from everything i had going on making me become incredibly introverted and just not fun to be around anymore he wa the only person i had that i could talk to besides my girlfriend who i put through hell because of how much i hated myself and my situation and now he wa gone shortly after his death her and i broke up and i deserved it i wasn t abusive but i wasn t a good boyfriend i never wanted to go anywhere or do anything i stopped wanting sex and intimacy because i didn t think i deserved those thing the divorce ha only gotten worse over the year and after year of stress and anxiety being a constant my health ha now started to decline i ve lost my toned body i ve lost my nice smile i ve lost my sense of fashion i ve given up entirely on trying to form new relationship or make new friend because i know that i just don t have what it take to foster deep relationship anymore i ve seen a therapist about this and she said she belief it s because of my family and my best friend and that now my brain correlate love with loss which prevents me from getting attached to people or make me act in way to push others away before they can get attached to me with my health issue getting worse due to the constant stress i m now out of work on medical leave i sit in my room every day just watching youtube not talking to a single soul and no one talking to me i truly believe that my life ha reached a point where it just isn t worth living anymore besides my mother and baby brother i don t believe there is a single person that would even notice especially if i made it look like an accident with all the free time i now have i ve been reading a lot about spirituality and i ve stumbled across the plausibility of reincarnation the idea of death being the entry to a new life with life being a series of goal to fulfill a purpose from each life to the next it s been very difficult for me to try and think of any purpose my life ha at this point i m debilitatingly lonely i ve stopped caring about anything i ve become very cynical and i m letting thing that should be important to a person just waste away like just ceasing to pay my car bill because i no longer care if it get repossessed the idea of even the possibility of being able to start again since truly no one ha any idea what happens when you die is more appealing to me than continuing to live i m now and my life is going absolutely nowhere and i don t know what else to do i have no support system i have no one but myself and i hate myself more than anyone else the worst kind of lonely is when you aren t even there for yourself and that s where i m at now i ve always thought of myself a a great person i consistently go out of my way to help others even now if someone reach out to me for something i don t hesitate but i just can t get anyone to stick around not even my own father give a shit about me anymore i used to think the world wa just fucked up and bad thing happen to good people but it s becoming more and more evident a i witness the relationship other people have the family other people have the friend other people have that that theory just doesn t add up the more likely possibility is that i myself am the issue i m the problem and i ve come to that realization now the idea that death might not be the end but a new beginning is very appealing to me like to think ha anyone else thought about these concept ha anyone else found themselves in a similar situation and thought about what come after death and whether it s worth it just curious and looking for some input thank you,1 annual post whatever think may post late im loner boner like it fuck corona cant use gym anymore haha girlfriend or friends go brrr,0 homework ate dog im sad apparently give homework away cant hand dog teacher im going fail sad,0 wanna cry happy aaaaaa thought makes warm,0 alex winter keanu reeves return two dopes san dimas get sent another trip lifetime someone future feels exactly opposite way presented first moviebr br the difference trip somewhere heaven hell ends both meet grim reaper get chance afterlifetime play chance return stop two evil robots ruining future supposed have besides playing roles haveerperfected also play and revive couple extra sales process classic games i even original copy battleship closetbr br the reason liked movie better original deals what might like instead what was without spoiling movie cant give anymore information i guess watch decide yourself stars,0 want die thinking lot nothing life going bad moment constant thought head id playing videos games something enjoy thought would come idk,1 Post concert depression is a thing and it is a thing that I am experiencing very strongly.,1 @RoxOnFox Hey whats good Roxanna? ,0 @RCRadio LIVE guest??? I'm there (yet again.) ,0 people think alive enoughi happy never have never will never enjoyed life proud was always wanted die courage it life worth it memories feel proud of attempted redflag failed relatives keep away potential redflag method would killed already preventing me part understand think i alive things fine thats works pointless pathetic life want keep going died yet mean fine future never fine yet supposed pretend life magically turn around make happy sudden,1 hard time seeking helpits several years since psychiatrist last wasnt good experience me back parents decision im mid s ive wanted kill ever since remember struggle getting hard me ever since remember wanted go seek help something simply stopping so maybe fear judged fear failure again something like that im sure whats wrong me even smallest things completely crush emotionally today spent several hours laying floor cuddled together myself friends seek help tldr cant pull together get help convinced so,1 need someone listeni tell story looking sympathy recently employed restaurant manager portland lost job benefits luck finding another management position found job server restaurant with benefits beautiful wife loves supports me crumbles tell feel like dont want live anymore cant discuss feel her tried redflag before woke really sick taking many pills story dont want live anymore child always wished could go sleep never wake up felt way throughout schooling went citadel college first half assed attempt redflag roommate caught talked it dropped went back parents house fast forward nowi never drink alcohol maintain good credit score fake smile face burns soul fake happy dying inside cant take life anymore crushed debt overwhelmed life taking life soon build courage to sit right contents medicine cabinet wondering long would take painful would be would want know would clean painless often every time drive bridge ask if someone asked stops me actually thinking trauma would cause someone witness it secretly wish wife would leave could alone worry hurting her desire leave devastated carries day day pick fights purpose saintly patience never leaves side plan telling cheated her never would ever cheated her want hate me want last push edge give courage end life story right now dont know make tomorrow chances good wake tomorrow hating hoping die cowardly anything thanks reading david,1 "good night twitter, shopping trip possibly tomorrow ",0 i wish my world would just end now i don t want to keep going on this shit called life is so sad and depressing i just don t want to keep living,1 now i don t want this to turn into either a political debate or an echo chamber of fear but doe anyone else find it really hard to think about the future between covid climate change the far right and war i ve been feeling increasingly doomed since 0 and it s made it very difficult to live my life what is the point of setting goal or doing anything but spending time with your loved one when it seems like there might not be a tomorrow,1 interesting premise interestingly worked out strongest feature film emotional tension astronaut knows truth unable convey others overlook weaknesses enjoy movie prepared certain level suspense,0 male snoo dead hes gone,0 fun fact nobody cares failed nnn nobody cares sticky liquid came genitals not im totally saying cus ive seen posts last minutes,0 cicadas northeast bros get ready year cicada season ,0 @olliepee you going to come back over here any time soon or do i HAVE to go back out and see you guys ?,0 poem made many really listen enough make happy holding onto single strand strong god ampxb long something long anything keep going keep pushing,0 therapy stopped thought getting better moving returned state depression redflag obsessive thinking feel unable cope difficulty lifei appointment online therapist obviously cannot say anything suicidal bad thoughts yo young know life always bad cannot stand world works sick societyi regularly go phases suffer feel miserable enjoy anything anymore food socializing meeting people hobbies etci really want try commit suicide fail may deal side effect horrible health problems caused method pity peoplei far away home abroad want family suffer hear death even managed fuck real bad cannot vent anyone suicidal irl,1 just read r s amazing blog so tired don t want to go to school tomorrow either hmmph,0 cant normal others things ease hell even accident sometimes never able,0 communist made fail finals ok gonna summed mao ze dong thing china led ccp becoming ruler china becoming communist dictator ship fucked chinas people lead man wuhan china year eating bat covid spread across world order combat covid school went online school went online quality education went way mean wasnt able learn proper stuff test caused fail tldr communist revolution china caused covid caused fail test,0 guys im cute ok believe doubt actually cute owo im pretty sure everyone instantly fall love post face,0 like this why lazy spend days nothing productive extremely selfish stupid hate much beat causing pain whenever mistake even videogames escape realityi hate family bunch knowitall jerks sisters like try make friendships irl easy first place plus many friendships plain terrible may less friends them least none harmed much friends harmed them recent months realized became eight years old parents older sister abusive towards acting like nothing happened often fear whenever something bad would get beaten one parents sometimes whish would get back deserve lastly hate humanity among species planet born dumbest deer leaves eat grass eaten wolf living better life humans put rat race one really wants take part in superselfish group men living better expense humans expense planet humans celebrate smart really smart would find way live life without hurting humans planet truth born rich selfish would anything money also everyone would everything money yesterday came across dude faked deaf ask money charity falling it hate myself everyone around humanity,1 losti want make post educate people looked signs redflag because everyone overlooked ignored mine wife affair decided rip family apart ive made many references detailed jokes kill myself hanging rafter tall bridge near live everyone laughs says yeah right even best friend said id prefer didnt ive battling months now ive made decision wife going holiday lover th three days it one knows one paid attention pleas help kills leaving behind month old year old daughter read wifes diary found influencing daughter call daddy pappa simply reinforces fact needed temporary as always been posting sympathy posting people underatand little comments may think funny joke actually request cry help finis vitae around th th ill make sure kids safe home night notify friends neighbors please ignore signs time realize maybe late time passed love forgiveness all gabriel,1 man anyone expecting great zombie movie reading title retard deserve disappointed myself expecting lowbudgeted cheeseball zombie flick thats exactly got disappointed all thought cool little movie zombies exactly be zombies turned freshlyundead zombies obviously wouldve pretty costly done fullon rotted zombie fx understood whole thing idea anyone could seriously nitpick movie called hood living dead love god would watch redneck zombies uwe boll movie actually expect great course not morons imdb whining like school girls movie ill never understand oh yes worse movies there stop saying worst ever seen cause know full it ever watch zombiez feardotcom house dead worst ive ever seen cant see low budgeted zombie movie obviously made zombie movie fans somethings wrong you fun it thumbs id also like see sequel,0 waiting opportunitywhenever parents leave alone home im gonna hang im scared,1 didnt cut minkaticoodneveaindamawywattanothinnn,0 i wish i could be attractive taller funnier be everything woman find attractive instead i m the complete opposite i ve gotten more and more depressed last few month to the point where i start up depressing conversation so i started to stay away from people or stay silent with friend i m ugly and i ll never be loved and that s not something easy to carry on knowing full well i m and never even come close to a relationship i hope i die soon because i don t want to be alive and alone like this,1 m0nkfish eww hershys kiss are ok but not amazing,0 weve come far give up were night get lucky,0 @tooshort55 LOL!! WTH...was he doing that for I wonder?!?! That is too funny! They are so silly! ,0 Offer accepted ,0 im giving upgod please forgive me,1 need hug,0 @Essyxx Then why arnt you laughinggg ,0 First time out and about since my appendectomy...running a few errands and going to a baby shower ,0 Tonight is the Night where it's all Depression naps but No Energy Recovered folks,1 @TheVadyGirl Lower but could be related to a more serious problem. Many doctor conversations. I'm ignoring it at the minute. ,0 theekween help people who suffer from depression anxiety loss of loved one heartbreaking or have witness something traumatic thelmaherbs http t co n fluyyqw,1 cant give start ya bestselling teenage rebellion,0 so one favorite rockstars blocked instagram im proredflagi commented something post httpswwwinstagramcompbnseyhqp_httpswwwinstagramcompbnseyhqp_ saying as someone whos proredflag cant comment further maybe saw it eventually deleted it blocked me again people find easy kill themselves wish easy too,1 something elsecontemplated redflag occasionally past years so im now whenever im good stage think ridiculous every time this however every time get bad stage unbearable sometimes think may psychological disorder something im kind person never see therapist even tell anyone this think also may slight obsession problem currently seems alcohol anything drugs substances even obsessed feelings makes sense anyways im going kill tonight even writing kinda helping sure even need advice fuck feel people find would entirely surprised completely hide feel like people see super easy going,1 ive come really dark place lifei even know begin college started back top full time studentry work hours week pay drumline takes entire fri sat sun moment spare time except last days ive cooped apartment got wisdom teeth out ive abusing pain meds night last overdosed cut wrists call health center one pill left weeks various dental procedures im scared use ill out girlfriend knows seem care likely understand little young really many friends im introverted going never seems appeal staying even though crave social life know go here feel alone edit girlfriend came back town early bits pieces post involve im going open presence suddenly stop responding worry pm im sure im going get day thank reddit edit half depressionanxiety came anticipation telling girlfriend rapedlast night told her response say boys cant raped break me feels bad manthink talked point know,1 disappointedi cant believe it pushed relationship wanted work even though everything needed probably going suffer aspects life again im upset must ugly inside either that im ugly outside whichever way im good enough anyone honestly wish knew could fix it dont never get complete straightforward answer really know diligently work part life im like this really know though ive said true need get better do maybe could make found someone help it whatever edit grammar,1 packing for Europe... stoked...,0 tired of to bed now! peace tweets x,0 e l b o w f i v e s ! I love you Demi! Sitting outside. Thank goodness for outdoor wifi! ,0 i know that sound weird but i wa talking to my therapist yesterday about how i usually don t realize i am in a bad place until i am out of it and look back at that time long story short we talked about getting better at recognizing it and today i have been feeling really down and sluggish and angry wa i depressed yesterday but just didn t realize it not sure if this ramble make sense but yeah i thought i wa fine yesterday now i am not even though nothing in my life changed,1 suffering depression redflag years made even basic daily activities interactions feel like chore since life going haywire finally decided seek professional help ecounselling sessions possibleare free online counselling services available india provide counsellings via calls emails video chats yes anyone help them also opt free counselling online rather paid ones which pretty expensive considering undergrad rn seeking help,1 alive fucking painful want go sleep never wake uppost history context,1 itchy eye grass being cut oh oh,0 im sorry im doneptsd gotten better,1 "@TheReju Yup!it was in response to the smelly visual I got from your comment LOL.I want 2 come 2 the UK soon.throw a party, me dj, u dhol ",0 guess language szia meg kell kitallni nyelvet,0 wish would ghostlike damn want see loved ones be,1 Time for orange juice.nice! Thanx God ,0 im insane afraid ask helpi feel like dont belong anywhere nobody really loves me relationship friends family ends bad im terrible person frequent psychotic symptoms im afraid im going kill myself drugs thing make feel ok want stop feeling lonely want overdose sooner later honest im even sure im posting here deep know nothing help time coming up,1 song head dunno called sounds like nanan nananna nananannananna nanan nana help please,0 "Heey twitter ! im with my lil cousin ,we are having so much fun! love her <3",0 mental health issues destroying academic career need second opinionever since started university seed doubt put mind fact cannot achieve decent grades anymore unfortunately always incredibly hard myself last year pull three exams i study mech eng due mental breakdown ive taken year three exams trying overcome issues took solace fact im time year ive received results got highest grades ever two exams failed third the third also worth least terms contribution final degree grade sent spiral think im lazy failure im supposed submit coursework pass module ive abandon sent thinking suicidal thoughts sent back nasty self harming habit want go final year absolutely smash enjoy feel incredibly lost bewildered cant seem hold sane thought anymore im convinced worst thing earth know thats preposterous really want harm really really dont feeling right now need outside opinion perception predicament think thank much taking time read,1 great ideas life couldnt submit anywhere one cared notebook write ideas in idea analog keyboard example even drew schematic linear switch around months company wooting one made fiirst analog keyboard linear switches idea ive ideas make internal combustion engine efficient done around years ago ive idea ai dlss ai framerate generator ive ideas even nvidia made them way work exact made wrote notebook sometimes wonder someone reading mind sometimes ,0 shave hair off im kinda tempted buzz hair rn im tired it yall think full send buzz no cause im pretty sure itll look horrible also never done idek,0 dae feel extra suicidal drivingill driving realize easily could drive road ditch hit tree kill myself,1 anyway see therapist without parents knowing older friends might drive washington state helps,0 #Depression #relapses are more common than you may think – @psyd shares more about the #recovery process in @kimberlanded's piece for @Refinery29: http://r29.co/2uCBpdc  #MentalHealth,1 @JuliaWold Oh wow. I had never thought of that transferring over to depression/anxiety but it makes so much sense.,1 ugh cant vote! but im totally rooting for twilight!! and demi. ,0 scene shows wallaces experiment using brain manipulation invention goes terribly wrong creating were rabbit desire social entrepreneur improve society better therefore created brain manipulator machine risked life help solve tottingtons pests rabbit problem importantly overcome overcrowding rabbits collected stored basement though thought experiment worked however resulted placing pressure gromit find solution annual vegetable competition risking life gromit silent faithful dog loyal helper finds continuously thinking innovative ways save master radical crazy inventions going terribly wrong interesting movie trying identify entrepreneurial wallace gromit,0 Watching the IDNHU vid! ,0 susie dent but when i do it i have clinical depression and anxiety and need to take my medication smh,1 love her think best everybody let go ive girl months weve together lot really thought one starting feel like end seems good like months now course im happy her theres another thing this dont think needs romantically anymore ive thought months doesnt treat good all feel like im something meaningless life broken twice times wasnt sure feelings said didnt feel right times told wrong week after came together again doesnt like im affectionate her maybe overtheaverage amount problems ive tried solve months im one trying love unbelievably much also feel romantic feelings fading im sure though maybe period idk think best end it call friends dont want kill happiness shes doing ill always love though,0 To be fair if you've a life threatening or physical limiting condition or haven't a roof over your head&/or no food in your belly or no clothes in your wardrobe&no wardrobe&no where to have a hot bath or shower or are experiencing grief then yeah i understand depression stuff.,1 posting ara ara forget day ara ara,0 why isn t there a quot fake quot verruca on twitter now i m sad,0 "i be the silouhette of a sunset, smoke a cigarette while I compress my depression",1 know solution sometimes hearing kind words help short term especially crises more need quick pickmeup rfreecompliments really amazing place sometimes participating complimenting others help feel better tooplease come join us rfreecompliments,1 someone said yall give votes someone said dumfucks sub reddit gives votes fucked post said support comrades make feel worthy achieving something right,0 d printing ideas d printer well year im starting run ideas send ideas comments whatever comment gets likes print post here,0 severe redflagpossible depression years now cannot anything feel like lost ability human ill try anything see helps point so cbd guys tried it go store buy need go doctor prescription thanks cbd products info,1 it been like this for so long and my first problem ha always been there it will never go away if i were to change this problem i wouldnt be me anymore it started when i wa a mute child now i have social anxiety and depression i never received treatment the first time when i wa and got prescribed and then they stopped suddenly i dont have anything i dont even have a friend to tell nor an adult i cant just seek help i dont trust anyone at all and im far too scared to even speak about it because i go silent when i have to talk about thing like this im so i have no way to seek help for myself i dont have any friend at school and i havent had any for year every time i try to make one i just cant keep up and it so exhausting trying to talk and i just never speak again a lot of people hate me i wa verbally bullied in some school no one wa ever there to help me ive been alone for so long it been getting so much worse with constant de realization severe intrusive thought and at this point i cut myself everyday i genuinely dont see a future anymore,1 want bee want alot things,0 bruh already feel bad opening door refrigerator whenever someones call living room noise would travel side dad screaming lungs even someone family zoom call bruh,0 stephenkruiser that s horrible sorryto hear that,0 everything bluei feel like nothing world make happy nothing all even smallest pleasures like eating favorite food cant find happiness even smallest things keep trying keep existing,1 posting daily get gf day done many different things posts never given universal truth school boring i even know anymore expect post,0 whats ur shittiest pickup line surround terrible pick lines heres mine id say beautiful beauty inside know bc inside yet,0 Mmmm.. Coffee reading books with evie and contemplating getting us all ready for the day.,0 every day want go back bed nothing cheering me played videogames many hours started get sick it hard enjoy things go auto pilot mode moment enjoy vanish mind feels like born happy hour feel like medication way lying feel like deserve it average right want sleep depression,1 i need to go out but i am so lazy,0 guys help forgot agenda home nowhere write this guys remind get parents sign syllabus get home thanks,0 wishing we had fast internet now not in year http bit ly i oi,0 definitely gamer couple people family boyfriend are so little reluctantly decided find big deal fantasy stuff saw dorkness rising thought hilarious slapstick disrespectful enjoy role playing games also importantly people whove never gamed enjoy feel left lost trying understand plot acting great field shotsset believable makes want see movies production company cant wait see future holds group three cheers well done,0 another suicidal personi want one cry me broke bf long ass accusatory text fight mom sister im alone apartment whichs rent able afford next month im unemployed go full time school im failing in means im also uninsured country everyone free health care cant go therapist hospital thing stopping uncertainty taking pills give pain go er would even dept wish would drop dead wish would killed years ago wish close eyes never wake,1 @kate_reuvers Poo to that. Time to move out perhaps? Back to Melbourne? ,0 I slept for 11 hours and that's an excellent gauge of how bad my depression is currently.,1 people listen joy division like depressed like wtf expect,0 fucked againi tried jump cart metro could jump considering redflag police interposition might succeed,1 interesting study societal sexuality well dark interests manbr br while cant say wife strong character wrong choice part opinion rich kid search escaping drool life rebel fact never fully matured husband lawyer rickman obvious married money cover sexual desires taboo rickman played part tee flirtations young man subtle undertones gayness young man gay hilt marilyn impersonation told wife everything perfectly cast well hustler written himbr br i crazy ending knew coming overall though acting rickman great reedus good walker okay misgivings gay themed movie average blatant least worth viewing truly madly deeply lying around spin,0 take church music video scary like dam got point across well slap face reality stuff infact still happen love song meaning behind it one songs people cry homophbia happens,0 @DangerAdamJonas i enjoyed the live chat too i am great. last week of school so how are rehersals going?,0 Heading southbound to Milton Keynes - UCOH @ Blueprint Tonight ,0 past years feeling like want continue want stop existing even know explain even know main problem anymore lot self esteem issues still have parents divorced friends somehow managed get point graduated got job wanted trusted friends girlfriend overall improvement still feel even understand drives nuts know do lost desire live,1 thank yall usually lurk around ive almost years fun final year teenage weird but usually funny sometimes deep stuff ive found always made feel welcome cheered up thank rteenagers welcoming immature like ought be atleast can ps still lurk wil creepy since im teen anymore,0 nice see comedy grown ups masterfully structured aaron sorkin via mike nicholss mastery mr nichols mastery present characters shocking truth sad riveting richard burton elizabeth taylor whos afraid virginia woolf sad riveting julia roberts clive owen jude law natalie portman closer charlie wilsons war shocking truth outside characters sad riveting tom hanks julia roberts philip seymour hoffman amy adams service something else personal point hanks bury brilliance single malts julia roberts throws parties introduces characters blatant straightforwardness amy adams witnesses exist character witnessing insurmountable task miss adams manages surmount beautifully philip seymour hoffmans gus t however monopolized attention character may first first way hoffman presented us someone survives disregard hes treated absolute conviction hes smarter put together hoffman superb pacing tale helps enormously fall myriad useless questions sharp short smart sad comedy last time able say that,0 morning morning finally olved maths problem let sleep last night r guys,0 want die want livei want wake another day knowing hell never know exist worthy loved exactly am one ever will im tired existing like this ive done everything right theres nothing wrong me situation one intervene help me meds therapy electroshock handcuffed psych ward need need support system need family worth knowing one bother hell never know lived im dead makes sad cant change it even redflag hotline chat kicked minutes line fuck it think courage this think do,1 awesome idea bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgzeneed bjvgze inspbjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bbejvgze bjvgze bjvgzfue bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze done,0 well didnt get girlfriend but told liked way well wanted keep close friendship d,0 confession make like tiktok,0 jamsandwich i wa sniffling for the first time this year at am today crappy isn t it,0 "back from the exam, i think i did okay. ",0 so i wa badly bullied a a kid until i left high school and that shit ha screwed me up i m still dealing with ramification a an adult it s a factor in my depression confidence issue and i m trying to process what happened to me in therapy i wa talking to my mother and i think what i went through wa a lot worse than i initially thought my mother wa telling me a story of a kid beating me up really badly and i have 0 recollection of it i think the bullying i went through a a kid wa a lot worse than i thought i think i suppressed a lot of the shit that happened to me a a kid and i m kinda freaking out now what else did i forget do i want to know everything that happened to me am i overreacting,1 oh like music name every note g harmonic minor scale well every chord,0 pineapple belongs pizza pineapple belongs pizza bet cant change mind,0 first weeks high school fucking sucked knew public transit would hot cramped anxietyinducing painful get seat stand like hour ride hs house also classes long af im falling behind assignments making friends also carry around pound backpack day im allowed locker covid lockers bad idea opening schools not apparently,0 see someone try pickup girl literal cringe like hey dm oh youre single too cant help cringe lets real need stop simping youre actually one people something productive life right cringe anyways nice day night,0 anyone else feel like use promise reassurance redflag crutch make questionable decisions in case gamblingi hate catch this fuck things badly myself get jail free card spend day gambling ill probably dead soon,1 dont want live dont want diei spent past years thinking killing myself ive gone paths shouldnt especially im scared anytime bad habit think get rid comes back worse grade parents divorced thought would fine however grade hit started self harming didnt think serious mom found stopped grade started also started eating thats really started debating killing myself grade alone lot self harming got really bad also almost never ate got back track little thought past everything thought didnt want killy anymore grade january year dad killed himself wanted angry amd able yell him couldnt mad him mad noticing especially always me one understood me since self harmed also started drinking deal it times drinking thing made hate myself times almost kill myself almost walked ice melting would freeze drown even though feel somewhat ok still dont want alive dont want deal feeling pain longer cant feel guilty longer im sorry anyone took time read this know im waste time im sorry wasting,1 redflag path better lifei know weird hear voices telling jump ceiling hole ground go everyone else already great there keep trying hold reality logic theyre constant im beginning feel might right im wasting someone elses time,1 enjoy thisi wish everybody understood much hate alive since remember maybe yrs old ive fantasized death prayed it begged god take out overdosed tried co poison times attempt years wish people knew im me im alive enjoy it dont fair lifes fair know fuck life man forreal torture wish knew,1 Power's back. I really didn't cut the power line with my shovel ,0 kill failim student tired depressed im afraid failing semester will kill myself know do feel like im stupid feel like im worse others everyday think death redflag im afraid family girlfriend going upset passing cant take anymore im sorry,1 "@heidimontag , Whats your favorite episode of the miley and the mandy show??? i love them all! ",0 mizzchievouz hey girl the site is back girlyvue is back and they have even more video,0 anyone join militaryhello fellow redditters depressed lost meaning life joined thought joining military ive looking option time trying enlist snags think might good dedicate something greater focus lifestyle time able travel outside home state try new things meet new people also benefits bad perhaps military life fill renewed purpose ive heard stories however people joining pretty miserable even redflags anyone experience could share airforce way pretty well asvabs need retake them maybe even better time around looking position cyber systems space command,1 turned rick amp morty high iq copypasta family guy fair high iq understand family guy humour extremely subtle without solid grasp theoretical physics jokes go typical viewers head theres also brian griffins nihilistic outlook deftly woven characterisation personal philosophy draws heavily narodnaya volya literature instance fans understand stuff intellectual capacity truly appreciate depths jokes realise theyre funny say something deep life consequence people dislike family guy truly idiots course appreciate instance humour peters existential catchphrase anything misogynistic towards wife cryptic reference turgenevs russian epic fathers sons im smirking right imagining one addlepated simpletons scratching heads confusion david a goodmans genius wit unfolds television screens fools pity them yes way family guy tattoo no cannot see it ladies eyes only even demonstrate theyre within iq points preferably lower beforehand nothin personnel kid,0 another person left mei know wrongly people always leave one left without telling why blocked social media we soft dating love her creating something spent last three months kinda well im suicidal again im enough maybe nobody is everyone seems hate hard,1 @itsyaboytral I was just statin facts ,0 been with o for month now in need of phone upgrade iphone come to 00 over contract life need smartphone with cheapo talk plan,0 wanna kill cos sexual desires impossible live thisi jerking things happened high school decades nothing try bed comes close experiences involve perving hot guys girls high school therefore kill right mean theres way ill able replace things enjoyed much high school snd indulge thinking every day cannot recreate snd never experience again therefore end me live theres way ever happy mean cant change sexual feelings,1 "Bar-b-Q tonight, idk what else before that though, besides panera's breakfast food ",0 for the last week my mental health had been in a good place but i recently got some bad news and i already can feel myself spiralling like crazy what are some good way to ground myself i have tried breathing technique and i am on some medication for the first time in my life i have the urge to get a bottle of vodka and drink it i just want to be sitting at my desk happy and laughing and maybe this will help sorry about the formatting i have an injured hand at the moment,1 @Synterra Thanks for following ,0 johnnybeane hey you just changed your default,0 "@SueGrimsahw Thanks, Sue! I'm so glad SOME LIKE IT WILD was a success for you ",0 @manuelkuhs thank you that made my day!,0 i m tired of working with others i like people i like meeting people some people are shitty some are amazing i have anxiety and this week i don t feel like going into the office to work i want to stay at home and not see anyone i don t even work in a big building i work in another city from the corporate office there s only other people who work in the office i do i didn t want to see them or anyone today this particular company is rough right now it s a fairly new company only a few year old and maybe 00 0 employee it s a toxic work place it s lot of strong personality but no leader people resistant to change and some people who don t work there s no leader no accountability i would love work from home but not for another random company i d like to make my own small business it suck working for other people especially company that don t care what happens a long a the work get done,1 "Dear ladies with crippling depression, have you tried smiling? A random man stopped me to tell me so it must be the solution ",1 Jerry is so sweet @mariemontano chimy changas lmao.,0 @Wossy Morning hope you got some nice coffee to go with the croissants ,0 one food right now would have id probably mcdonalds fries,0 im lonely keep me company female california,0 health class fuck homework conversation parents teen relationships premarital sexabstinence record answers why dont get needs happen teacher reason sre taught everything go talk parents fml dont wanna this,0 sureim going try brief im gonna go bed soon uncertain redflag im sure lot us feel way know do like think ending exactly want to however want put pain anger sadness anxiety frustration life throws us ive feeling like frequently spot cant change anything really getting me main problem family lot things changed past years different feelings towards people used love constantly worry fear future thing is want let anybody down especially mom im youngest three sisters itll likely leave heartbroken committed redflag definitely want mom suffer me then everything fault left anyone relate feeling tough decision want disappear sometimes im sure it ill january ive got ton front me im still learning growing yet intrusive thoughts get way everything this seeing therapist case wondering wonder redflag cutting myself,1 mom continually pressures go outside no im neet brother heavily overweight brother shutin gotta take shit frick grass every day nahahkeep deeprooted bs dont make rules them biking trips multiple hours long summer go walks shorter bike rides winter like wouldnt fucking come maybe want inside fucking day guilttripped absolute donut psychology study,0 know good things feel worthlessim year old guy ive knowingly depression since child pretty smart gifted gave school aged parents divorced lived mum stepdad left dad for used beaten ever disagreed throughout school bullied ever really many friends somehow managed really successful school went uni without ever trying went uni instantly hit me alone hall people mostly foreign exchange students interest anything stuck close groups two people flat tried kill too tried go meet people got harassed touched guy first time felt low nobody would talk second time trying kill unable sleep five days help psychiatrist doctor counsellor early intervention team didnt change felt ended quitting uni ive three relationships three cheated broke me still nightmares one them last two years nobody interested im average attractiveness ive interested one person thats ive work them friends anymore handful friends relationships moved abroad respond messages low self esteem know great person lots talents im lucky fairly intelligent work decent paying job feel worthless family there friends exist anymore im option girls im tool work feel like ghost know get done already see point life im forever miserable want die im sorry long postwalls texttoo much information,1 Occupations with frequent or difficult interactions with the public or clients among those occupations with highest rates of depression. pic.twitter.com/ZbkzMmXnFY,1 i just don t want to live with out my wife it s been nearly six month since she left tomorrow morning i want to go jump,1 ignore want im ranting poemall wanna sleep man wish id pass away becomes hard deal every passing day people dont get telling pray people saying gets better hold today listen dont want help want advice want forgotten rather dead concise ive living long enough heard say quit telling hold im done trying stay ive heard far fake promises lies one really cares somebody dies dont bother funeral shedding fake tears saying loved friends peers hard express feelings mind always astray guess ill try hold another day edit idk obvious first two lines used powfus song death bed inspiration edit repost different account one friends mightve accidentally found this personal show,1 cant alone friendswere chained world gotta pull says alone seriously time us come together find place world feel tough fight battle yourself join greater cause many people die every day lost alone confusion despair hearts stopped system obviously working people anymore change imminent cant ones make change nothing stopping us joining forces healing together one entity let know words mean anything you peace,1 maxime darn can t open it on my work computer not supposed to have fun at work but thanks anyway,0 poem wrote yesterday sleeping lol everyone attracted brightest star yes one know admire afar cant live without star life ill never know him im hopeless,0 fucking troll made actually fucking cut selfit long story want kill first place severe depression social academically future family one biggest hope release songs wanted make eltronic music person stepbystep told illegally download it even bad could put virus pc could easily whipe out somehow deleted fucking hardworking time wasting songs fucking cut self chest knife im actually planning cut deadline redflag thing alot shorter,1 friend planning redflag know doso basically friend always struggled mentally long history selfharm initiated sort plans before christmas relaxing together mention want commit redflag feel like anything live plans sometime exams finished nobody around decided let go back uni nicer environment thinking perhaps change scene would turn trigger change heart turns isnt case even things order now live shared house next year passed feel powerless single clue abort plan theirs do,1 hurting inside know going stop tired,1 thick fog of dread in the front of my head that disconnect me from my interest appetite and ability to feel anything remotely close to ok and it s there tf is this,1 @sadieefacee Good things come to those who meet ,0 http://twitpic.com/6sa9t - At best buy... AGAIN!!!!! ,0 @chrystinasayers Cant wait til you come to halifax! July 25 baby! Got my ticket! ,0 urg cold suck,0 know depression lifestyle cannot complain anymore one remember die fuck it live life way want ever fuck want probably might make feel okay cannot remember happy feels like anymore fuck happiness act like like something depressed person paint like depressed person write like depressed person make art like depressed person always complaining hoping help normal people help survive surviveact like probably happy sadness stop grieving act like ,1 i don t think i m being irrational i know that nobody will ever want to be with me romantically im getting more depressed by the day and i already notice my few friend distancing themselves i can t blame them i m sure i m not fun to be around there s very few people with whom i feel like i can share how i m really feeling but doing so just push them away i need my life to be different not to be stuck in this worthless body i need optimism but there s none left in me i don t think i ll ever be able to kill myself so it s just going to be 0 0 0 maybe even 0 or 0 more year of this void maybe i ll be struck by lightning or something finger crossed,1 Is watching the sun rise and driving into Alabama! ,0 generally love mysterypolice charlie chan type movies exception however something seems bad movie late attempt switch cerebral moto movies centered around plot contrivances salad bar spoilt comedy relief relieving sore feet typecast buffoon appears nowhere impersonating clumsy englishman plays detective even characters seem entangled providing comedy relief plot may seem odd bare excuse us today back possibility epochal archaeological discoveries real commonplace occurrence,0 "We're all aware of the great effects of #exercise on our physical health, but a fantastic study by @AmJPsychiatry has shown the positive effects can have on our #mentalhealth Exercise can help reducing depression, so take advantage! #exerciseworks https://www.maudsleybrc.nihr.ac.uk/posts/2018/april/engaging-in-physical-activity-decreases-people-s-chance-of-developing-depression/ …",1 im unfixableim fucked up medication cant increased ive therapy seven years ive barely gotten better im unfixable want die cut deep without going er dont know thats another thing im failure at,1 ronjeffries i d love to hire you again too it wa ton of fun last time i don t do the budget tho or the hiring,0 i love my new profile ,0 im losing mindive isolated talked others couple times last couple weeks slept days still wide awake feeling paranoid stressed irritated road im on im going snap,1 @gotlove4dc3 followin u now ,0 keelybin ermmm not really it s hearing the dreaded alarm clock,0 i m just so tired i can t do anything there are bag full of clothes and me took one and a half hour to unpack le than two of them i also made a mistake of leaving myself with my own thought so i began to spiral starting with me being angry at my ex and ending on me having flashback from primary school when i probably wa also depressed when i wa every day after school sitting at my desk trying to study or do homework but i couldn t even start or focus due to adhd and executive dysfunction i wa every day sitting at my desk after school guilty over doing nothing and sitting like that until sleep time only to get yelled at next day for getting another bad grade for not doing homework i just despise almost everything in my life my parent aren t supportive at all except providing therapy and med which is a lot but they re one of the reason why my mental health is so bad since i remember i can t do anything and i m useless i might need to repeat my school year cause i missed a lot of class due to me literally being unable to get up i don t have energy or time for my friend but i constantly vent to them and i know it s annoying a heck for them even though they claim that i can vent a much a i want to cause they do the same but i just can t go without telling someone how shitty i feel and even if they read that stuff they just respond with one word reply or sad emoji my ex constantly stress me out with his weird as message and i have to see him at school every day i just feel like everything is just too much and definitely a lot more than i m able to do the biggest challenge in my day is waking up and taking any care of myself but i m also expected to help out with chore study a lot for final be at every class and to not make everyone uncomfortable with how bad my mental health is so right now i m sitting and having mental breakdown for hour and forty minute already with three bag of clothes waiting to be sorted while i have private lesson in 0 minute and my dad will get angry a fuck at me if i won t get this done before those lesson the worse part is just how no one even care about that not my friend not my parent cause in their opinion i m lazy and probably no one here too the only person that care is my therapist who is paid to care about the fact that i more and more feel like killing myself over the simplest thing like chore,1 john waters made effusively buoyant heartfelt dark personal little film think ive ever seen well maybe fast food fast women comes close second directors vision untaintedthe narrative whimsical characters personal odd reflections family inner life the tone never forced stylistically overarchbr br there pretentious shot design ennui magazine gradingmartha plimpton amazing sistereddie furlong inspired casting grandmother talking mary teabagging recycled clothing yesterdays garbage becomes todays art lesson film important thing value family humble life,0 cute girl cute girl classes school really like havent talked lot think likes though shy dont know approach her would love advice,0 think im suicidal cause rage im suicidal cause angerim angry humanity im angry are do sickened weve become hurt care destroy planet nature thats never happy sadness hate myself hate existence own hate existence nature fuck gonna happy brother called immature cause want humanity wiped out say blind one seeing see lost empathy species lack remorse things do neither happy sad im full anger hate empathy stupid feeling eradicated hate caring people people kill themselves wish guts like do cause could finally happy peace ,1 haven t talk with aaliyah love in a few miss her some wife say to thank her for the mag she sent u,0 know want grow up im go th grade live known last year middle school already plans future career ive talked parents college plans funding getting job renting place end getting brushed youve still got time youll change mind frustrating make decision want clear view im gonna grow up gonna time end running time older cousin gonna go th grade year doesnt even know wants do says time he confusing me,0 hate mylife parents treats like shit girlfriend really talk fuck want life let us,1 @fortheinsane I will tomorrow! my computer is off and I'm on my phone right now ,0 didnt get good morning text today already am,0 anyone talk im bored wanna talk someone tad bit anyone down im age matters you,0 even though i m sure they re slowly inching away whether or not it s my fault i just want a partner a best friend something to make me feel like a first choice instead of a second or third option i m just tired,1 add as ptsd and general anxiety ive been on medication for my add a long a i can remember but after a let call it a mental breakdown i had a few week ago and spend the week after on xanax i am finally on anti depressant after saying no for over year they re supposed to help with my anxiety after a trauma i recently went through and it s helping my anxiety yes but it s scary af cause it a if i m on a tiny bit of party drug and everything seems fine even when i notice it isn t when there is an issue or a problem i used to see 9 bad thing happen all at once and felt the need to prepare myself for all of those 9 but now i can sort of calmy ass the issue and find a solution without the 9 possible scenario taking over my emotion and cognitive skill neurologically speaking i fully understand what the drug are doing to my brain scary and anxiety like thought get filtered now but who decides what to actually filter what if i m driving again and i see someone walking in front of my car and it s filtered not a danger very black and white question idk how else to make it clear anyway i wrote a poem about it hope there s someone out there understanding my question cause my therapist definitely doesn t and my shrink is on holiday it s weird not noticing what s changing in my brain but to know something is probably for the better but what if i don t like this person this new brain and way of thinking so many what ifs still even on this tiny pill that s changing me into something someone i m scared of even meeting but can never run from,1 i m in one of those day when i really just want to work from home crap,0 ventingso attempted redflag months ago prior wanted fulfill life experiences racked ton credit card debt international travel skydiving fancy restaurants ect intend pay off afterwards hospital weeks even money therapy neurologist stuff ive k job past years rent suuper expensive too got short term disability job months starting hospital short term disability ended still energy motivation whatsoever get work done ended quitting ampxb job ton bills im sure im looking advice anything pretty obvious just stop spending much wanted vent maybe see anyone experienced anything similar before suicidal thoughts quite bit better disability debt coming back vengeance,1 "@curtisblackwell think of it this way... you will probably get a lot of graduation cards, with a lot of graduation *money* ",0 @Mickdo100 And it is better to remember today than Monday or Tuesday ,0 anyone else spend like mins putting together serious post delete yeah cant filerrrrrr __________,0 @BR33ZY23 yeah. I'm auditioning next week!!! eeeek....=D,0 job k student debt got word one collection agency taking court im done lifei depressed though college thing kept going i get degree obvious easy see end goal kept going classes got degree thought killing myself years time ive made almost progress briefly job starbucks quit that im home eating obesity making payments loans generally feeling like shit gotten point got served court papers one loans im afraid that literally money bank account nothing take me care credit which must years delinquency loans guess court papers made remember fuck ive since ive sitting computer pretty much exclusively last years trying entertain youtube music stuff keep away dark thoughts maybe sign long enough putting off,1 httpsmeetgooglecomlookupcjlqoctu nothing innapropriete plz httpsmeetgooglecomlookupcjlqoctuhttpsmeetgooglecomlookupcjlqoctuauthuseramphs,0 movie one favorite comedies time dialog crisp pace fast clever comedy interesting look goes behind scenes television news businessbr br there many funny linesa couple favoritesbr br ernie merriman sarcastically must nice always believe know better always think smartest person room jane seriously no not awfulbr br aaron must good looking jane know that aaron one invites bad looking idiot roombr br the performances holly hunter albert brooks william hurt absolutely brilliant even years later remember movie well often forgotten wonderfully funny joan cusack love scene newsroom personnel racing beat deadline many funny scenes hard pick favorite highly recommend film,0 is happy that @lilyroseallen is recording a video for 22 defo my second fave of the its not me its you album ,0 "@fuzzym Avenue Q ftw But I wouldn't be too offended if you'd gone for Stomp instead, haha.",0 bullying ha really given me trauma i have social anxiety because of it i wa bullied in middle school because i wa ugly and i went to a prestigious school so lot of rich kid i m poor and i wa bullied for my clothes i only have friend i m starting to hate going to school and want to become a shut in it s so unfair i used to be so confident and social and now i m scared of raising my hand in class to use the restroom i try to make up natural look for clothes now but i can t do anything about my stupid ugly face and i wish i had the courage to vent irl but i just passively wait for someone to ask first,1 @stubabyq June gloom? OK...at least you're enjoying it I'm having a Marvelous Monday!,0 without doubt one neil simons best plays turned movies full great characters memorable dialog johnathan silverman makes great screen version young eugenehe played matthew broderick stagethis first simons autobiographical trilogy followed wonderful biloxi blues closes tv movie broadway bound say movie flaws would maybe characters sometimes usually speak obvious dialog thats alright great dialog rent little gem sorry,0 our sweet little man just fell asleep while waiting up for daddy and big brother to get home poor baby he missed them so much today,0 saw someone else deal gender male age sexuality could care less relationships height favorite color blue favorite food lil scone things favorite artist varies favorite album tf album favorite song pompeii currently listening to nothing instruments play kalimba trumpet learning guitar ukulele favorite song play avatars love kalimba hobbies playing games disappointing others spiting others d printing making things homework status absolutely idea work status work sportsmans hate covid lets hope dislikes people never texting first people babies likes people hanging out chatting stupid dumb yes theres difference procrastinating final comments congrats made far im sure saw gender male clicked downvoted good rest day fam take care luv u,0 i wish inwas dead i just cant take it anymore you stupid fucking redditors all you can give me is useless worthless nothing i hate you so much kill me kill ke kill me i beg of you the only thing that can validate you is to kill me ypu are worthless the only way you can regain honour is to kill me i am nothing,1 @valkyrierisen thanks ,0 took meds nearly week feel terriblei getting brain zaps jumps body fatigued sleepy although parts medicationi dreading going sleep past days fear dreams second reality life get real rest dreams strange odd feelings leave wake unexplainable makes feel low touch life begun hate dreamsi want dreams anymore want blip non existing hours leastmy patterns same nearly years now wake eat trapped room sleep repeat memories past years days nothing years nothing anymorenot time makes sensei looking move abroad chase dream really plausible motivating anymore got left last hope life work least tried endi waking sad miserable lonely tired life seeming meaningless every minute real thing keeping going family musici still virgin bothered normal age never love feelings anyone one woman meant world me years still mind time fantasising cannot together starting care like attitude lifei still strong faith god hard keep going let live born let doctors save collapsed lung months premature god knew life would like life getting me joke you still love though hope forgive ever know need talk get system,1 @bobbyedner Maybe This is Love ,0 anyone kaiser member download calm appthe link herehttpsaboutkaiserpermanenteorgourstorynewsannouncementscalmappavailabletokaiserpermanentemembersatnocost,1 aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh mom recording playing guitar singing lot video kept messing kept messing up last time beautiful learn later phone timer made video three different videos it also cut parts lot parts bro put fricking soul piece ruined r u i n e d im sorry ranting really bad anger issues needed vent thank reading rest well fellow teens,0 tomorrow seem like nice dayi think right day me ill end lonely day special day,1 @WWERoadDogg Reflecting on the past brings depression. Reflecting on the future brings on anxiety. Let today and the moment be the focus.,1 fucking hate worldthe world fucking dark people mean nobody gives shit anybody else,1 it's 5 o'clock...guess it's time for a drink ,0 problem one guy friends im typically pretty shy new social settings really like make focus anyones attention unless im comfortable them first met guys like polar opposites met im fairly quiet reserved respectful like think im smart person friends one friend particular loud boorish really rude,0 @ the ppl on my TL that liked the tweet about how self-care will cure depression: which essential oils will stop my hallucinations & paranoid delusions?,1 privately chat someone microsoft teams wanna tell girl class rom pog idk privately chat someone microsoft teams meeting class,0 Good Monday morning to all my Twitter friends!! ,0 guess complicatedthis worst five days life every year abusive horrific biomoms birthday th mine th every year imdumbfounded angry disgusted still allowed draw breath world makes really hard want make birthday know must silly heres hard part ive mostly come terms it hour hour minute minute did im really really worried blackouts im coconscious trust even im safe one be know people get lot shit could really use help right now,1 spirit september one failed redflag attempt got life track every feelings come like day feeling weakness failure today feeling again much bigger pushier feel like cant make it serious debt cant burden parents anymore problems financial cant escape that always come back biggest pressure ever dont like feeling cant every months failed parents rough semester due covid really bad college fell scholarship list much money feelings pushy want happy,0 guy look drip mutch drip,0 pt gonna stick needle foot please noonnojono im scared gonna go second pls distract plass,0 clear want cant stop thinking him start crush one point anymore gay bisexual pretty clear like like that kind casually expressed interest months ago knew meant nothings happened were really good friends im starting collapse little bit im starting spiral reignited depression self esteem issues control spend lot times imagining situations were together happy little while hes anybody hurt anyways ive tried move simple times,0 hasnt done any work oh well,0 my anxiety ha recently gotten so bad that it consumes me at time i m not able to stop shaking my blood pressure is suffering from it and thought of impending doom are constant it s hard for me to focus on anything i got back from the doctor for anxiety a couple day ago and my bp wa 0 90 i got my bp checked yesterday and a i did i started panicking and my bp shot up 0 something i had to calm myself down and luckily it went back down to around i have to go get it checked again today and i know i m gon na panic again i hate living like this i feel like i m suffering i need someone to help me through this who get it i need to know that it s just gon na be okay and that i still have a chance in life,1 Hi I just wanted to share with everyone a song that sends me into a deep depression https://open.spotify.com/track/3BKp3p9HF9nMP4CcSsOBAf?si=iUqOIcGVQTSeE47MQV90dw …,1 time goes wayyy fucking fast enjoy lasts guess im gonna miss teen tbh even tho shit,0 know im going itim going stab taking beautiful view park near live ill start day breaking shit boyfriend ill tell ex cheated her feed favourite foods ill make sure day talked said goodbye friends ill want ill go want ill tell person ive liked years like them then ill go park ill sit one boardwalks its empty night impale myself ill get high fuck it pain problem ill let bleed out ill throw knife water want die ,1 feel like redflag pervasive thought mindhi im female im constantly thinking much easier dying would life life many expectations pressures work hospo jobs final semester uni feel though direction sure average reading writing analytical skills average look jobs online theres always skill im missing good enough at feel like im average everything skills music sing write songs even good theyre average im meant achieving something feel stupid time even im slightly good something never good enough im friends someone never lasts long fuck start rumours ignore like friend feel stop friend makes feel like even like person looks let get close in sense spend lot time together im lonely end leaving anyway recently happened guy close months straight want relationship start tried gave up friendship worth kept ignoring me proper boyfriend either im seeing guy ive seen years still love know end together told that friends become people actively avoid else ill feel even shit myself family distant really feel like one cares ive stopped feeling like friends boyfriend kind future ampxb also really short attention span hinders academic abilities great deal want working stuff care im losing interest things used love every day feels exhausting ampxb really know post become attempted redflag three times past years time take enough pills kill myself want sleep wake im tired thinking feeling me someone please offer advice life worth living not,1 running pickup lines based semiobscure particle physics knowledge im trying think one electron one neutrino little difficult,0 fuck len wein s house caught fire earlier today the family is safe but they lost their dog,0 enoughplease life stop already im sick shit on cant keep up cant keep anymore taking everything power walk door it plan im afraid it long wake find body cant learn him fair him cant take things pace people get mad try say needs needs worth it im worth it one last cuddle heads tomorrow weekend could then ill figure out much emotion cant anything it trying fix things makes worse cant keep up one sleeptomorrow get with even posting thisi even know maybe record outburst exists maybe feel like something say matters tonight something feel matters all know fair hes still grieving im selfish ass this im sorry im weak need bedthis much,1 get money need shit ton moneys also delete reddit,0 "Oh hai, LA, you're just as overcast as Boston... fix that please. ",0 really long post suicidal really lonely indifferent sure dohi im really sure id like say really suck explaining accurately ill try paint good enough picture hopefully someone write something makes something click me ok problem im interested anything nothing myself im year old female guess im pretty introverted id love find close friends even one would enough go partying get drunk go wild when put quatation marks mean although like idea rowdy silly like that like act itself get attention people people seem do always feel like everyone surrounded people absolutely alone want friends even one would occasionally partners with know makes sense im intelligent knowledgeable much mainly attribute interested absolutely anything im smart enough smart kids smart dumb ones smart mean pick things really quickly really hope seem like im full myself think low self esteem im definitely sort depressed im finishing university dec year friends kept touch floor mates first year despise all yet keep touch without id actually completely alone ive felt way alone friends really like connect with life really aware grade cry time times week im good times day bad week really know im crying feels like overwhelming amount pressure physical pressure mind like world closing in feel anxious anything like panic attack feels like give let go moments ill permanently cross line serious depression want stress rarely feel anxious nervous anything like that loving parents take care financially live hours away wish more love death began dreaming would died absolutely alone world around years old would never ever ever anything make happen would feel horrible anything ever happened them day dreams also occurred less less grew older since technically longer linked them sorry using many quotation marks horrible vocabulary cant think right word express im trying say dad never home younger impact negatively realize real relationship ive ever mother since ive never really friends never close friends i love death but loved sister twin fraternal sister never really liked mom never paid attention around always went way verbally abuse school untill years ago went different colleges were close now always believed would grow sort genious really smart younger im attractive really self image issues spent childhood mediator mom sister mom dad dad sister mom issues never bitter volunteered help honestly felt could help family wish could go back let fuck lost form socializing seriously fucking depressed theyre still withering shitty lives eugh sorry sudden change narrative much want look forward fix neutrality im living in cant help get bursts rage towards younger self much belief mother familys sanity know else say utterly indifferent everything everyone yet absolutely overwhelmed loneliness want people or person don know who want do im interested in etc want hobby ive tried drawing get bored tried going class lose interest pick gist course really quickly lazy actually readings everyone like this entire life people told im smart im positive everyone like this tldr im interested anything tried find things seriously care anything spend day sleeping wasting time internet sometimes exercising rarely reading watching stupid shit internet bare minimum pass courses thats it ive rambled long enough know people answer if do fine one does theres really much say would likely say things like take one step time you get this life worth living come well meaning place ive tried getting routine work way works getting shitty mind set like wake dream like state im surrounded shallow mentally disturbed people im sorry sound full like im better people really think am know reason always go back state nothingness try live real world hate it hate everyone hate indifference people neuroses im nervous time im self conscious time im worried people talking talk people behind back try lie cheat treat people horribly get back people say would actually listen not turn talk im sensitive understand sarcasm im actually sarcastic im uptight prudish mentioned above ever ended finding people actually like if ever figure like want party get drunk make mistakes things regret stupid shit know really long even though checking religiously next see ifwhat anyone posts understand one says anything helps knowing others like me really help cant trust ever find anyone get along im years old yet meet anyone anyway like me im sorry represent properly feel like sound like huge bitch really hope im not loneliness eating inside really cant take anymore week really bad one thought would post instead wait mood go away again again thanks anyone read way,1 donald trump taking away right sexy donald trump taking away right sexy ok gt,0 Is it ethical for a sports coach to question a players medical decisions including ones involving anxiety or depression?,1 god life meaning story humanity story suffering oppression deathso what im sitting front computer talking guys ive got loaded single round spun cylinder locked it put gun head pulled trigger twice im still here know why think want more masters degree two bachelors degrees im married house able find full time work past years seems like world now years controlled wealthy benefit wealthy everyone else go fuck themselves die what theres someone else take place live world best were cogs machine fills pockets wealthy take moment really examine things recognize really point it god clearly exist anyone thinks otherwise deluded were thrown world without consent live meaningless lives die alone prolong process,1 im finished one anythingmy best friend pulled last straw phone yesterday talking little cousins came room screaming went yelled them returned said like girl alive like sadly good hearing vividly remember muttering want die too shock asked that oh nothing immediately hung up sobbing went grab box knife dragged arms light enough make mark knew since rd grade im senior im ending life tomorrow,1 ugh i can t sleep because i m not feeling so great,0 need replace planks christ almighty hate things much make want die need core exercises replace fuckers with also little shoulder too maybe forearm,0 @abbyrosia @gdeberti thanks for sharing those links there ,0 tolu pepper my dear ovulation pm and period make my life complicated the depression symptom emotional weariness edginess tiredness actual pain it s just a lot you are not alone si we are all frustrated with you sending hug,1 getting sleeping pills sleeping deathhas anyone wanted pass away sleep want stop eating drinking sleep eventually wake up,1 continue relationship someone zero understanding mental health issues refuses research husband tells something choose often makes feel alone partner understand,1 blue cheese want share it title says all enjoy,0 anyone else get annoyed someone speaking chinese discord spam tienmien square massacre let ccp deal bottom text dumb bot bottom text dumb bot bottom text dumb bot bottom text dumb bot bottom text dumb bot bottom text dumb bot bottom text dumb bot joke pokmon showdown opponent winning,0 find peace thought certainly kill soon anyone felt sameas soon think commit redflag month two start feeling peaceful thinking live long makes anxious made peace death,1 filler title need somewherein years old im already somehow shitty person dont even deserve live all ive spent probably past year bitter mother flaws one throughout life ive come saddening realization cant even blame her child skin condition first child making best bad situation shes loving always treated children respect yet ive ever burden her even stories destroyed store property display toddler remind finally wouldnt worry bailing instances im old in embarrassing front friendsboyfriends intentional not weird shit general grandmother bit actual mother real mother close siblings anything wanted needed talk shoulder cry always there even raising blood pressure eventually stroke killed her abuse tantrums wouldnt stop staring there near rising eighth grade summer purchased worth wifi trials grandmothers social security card used pay bills course month half thought fucking justified wouldnt turn hostpots mother response sent live aunt punishment allowed come back still disrespected them grandmother lucky already freed me ive called sister awful things made fun years repeating grade elementary school despite nothing short miracle ive made far without failing one time shes ever insulted insulted first im supposed older sister confide yet things like blackmail absolutely slipup deal first brother minus retained still keep contact despite everything ive said done them tip iceberg family pay price insecurities beyond correction cowardice confrontation wronged me unprovoked outward insults tantrums converted awful untrue thoughts silent judgment looking nose im better guise maturing literally idea stop this even forgiven explicitly would still faced reality,1 @nicfranc @andyfield Thanks for support ,0 really need talk someone life bad would love talk someone,1 im tiredim tired everything absolutely everything im tired fuck up im tired narcissistic mother verbally emotionally abuses daily done ever since little im tired trauma fucks everyday mom used physically abuse younger used get beat daily old school im tired good enough son mom anybody else im tired mental illnesses im tired burden im tired living maybe really fucking kill myself past days mom yelling usual shes telling much better life would never around fucked life much mental illnesses im cause every single bad thing life maybe bad mom tells am maybe deserve abuse mom maybe reason dad left doesnt care knew would turn disaster maybe one day ill finally kill myself,1 loved masterpiece quite frankly i found mary poppins although love julie andrews dick vandyke silly sacrinesweet angela lansbury plays character perfection know people think film distorted magical lots fun watch every scene held certain charm got know characters better truly see little thrown together family learn bond other despite age differences thought characters well developed especially charles the age believing mary poppins may popular cherished others little gem one always love cherish,0 redflag hotline called copsi often feel suffered suicidal thoughts entire life encouraged call redflag hotline ever felt need talk someone well did called cops cops couldnt find house dropped neighbors asking me cops finally find knocked door opened it several neighbors standing across street watching cops ems truck parked driveway cops wanted name police file cops said anyone could access file wanted get story thats that neighbors talking theres police record never ever ever call redflag hotline again regardless feel im suggesting dont call youre really danger youre calling need someone talk to dont surprised life really messed afterwards police come chat ps first didnt want give cops name threatened put cuffs arrest take station told was live small town neighbors really nosey local cops know am thinking moving shame feel tremendous calling redflag hotline left redflag called ironic,1 sleep stayed night im convinced live simulation maybe might need sleep,0 point seek professional help degreesbasically im hitting low point life lot small hostility breaks much point crying cutting suicidal thoughts probably second time month ive similar breakdown one cut count it want know really seek help professional expect certain sources ive never called redflag hotline know would akward phone,1 misswyn i bet you are i remember easter a a kid wa so excited you ll have a great day,0 remember college professor commenting disturbing film was reflecting apathy adolescents this generation xbr br in way us products consumer culture high school kids spend time drinking getting high wondering body left riverbankbr br what would today would things different important questions excellent scenes keanu reeves dysfunctional family lives with year old brother going get wasted mother idea do spends time drinking boyfriendbr br this film bit time addresses problems lower class american society kids outlet available dirtwater town interesting social commentaries presented solutions ,0 in world oldschool kung fu movies revenge pictures came dime dozen took lot film stand even make fan favorite years arguably chang chehs finest movie continues hold influence hong kong movie industry themes loyalty brotherhood revenge explored john woo who got start hk movie industry working chang heyday heroic bloodshed late s modern movies like man called hero sports character costume inspired film influence also carried areas well music wutang clan tv commercials sprite video games mortal kombat makes movie special plot surface pretty simple deals members rogue group known poison clan searching treasure hidden sifu members clan extraordinary kung fu abilities denoted animal styles venoms the lizard climb walls scorpion deadly strike etc twist since clan always wears masks known others are thus simple plot becomes almost suspense thriller were talking usual suspects here far many kung fu movies time supposedly golden harvest happy changs script like movies felt dark violent actually wanted add broad comic relief it thankfully chang stuck guns stayed original script since become revered one best films time ever completing almost perfect dramatic arc providing perfect backbone extraordinary action sequencesbr br but really solidifies movie venoms themselves chang cheh hit upon magical formula cast gain talented martial artists whose moves competed without aid wires special effects put modern martial artists shame great actors well formula proved popular chang usually one venoms later movies getting back matters hand oldschool movies actors seem playing cardboard cutouts actors actually create characters seems everyone favorite venom mine philip kwok best known many mad dog hardboiled lizard personal connection characters five deadly venoms generates makes true classic genre even normally fan oldschool movies need check five deadly venoms out nothing else see modern movies got inspiration from,0 fuck manny heffley hate little fucker filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 active community diverse interests diagnoses require members people suffering disorders rather asking advice anothers behalf focus support support channels talk support volunteer lots offtopic channels creativity physical health memespam dailyprompt writing exercises haven care need it care others can,1 staying alive mistake die insteadmy entire life ive spoonfed lies stay alive know redflag right answer me ive told missed life value much offer world make people happy staying alive cared yet assertions completely incredulous patently cliche impossible even take seriously absurd it gets better trope basis fact mom obody truly knows person ive asked friends basic facets life favourite food born birthday even know answers thats suggestive people happy staying alive rather completely ignora essential things define me blatant deception addition nobody would notice gone tried disabling various social media accounts see comes looking me months gotten single letter mail single phone call former coworkers socalled friends nobody come house check welfare except mom abused me count proof anything benefit offer world either spent years trying share talents interests people often rejected criticized mocked ridiculed myself indication anything value offer society true individual even assume sake argument something offer society millions people offer thing nothing special worth suffering miserable existence tiny fraction population potentially appreciate continuing stay alive would rather dead likewise reason believe life value live planet billion people could disappear today human civilization would continue before impact anything absence might bring improvement since would longer disrupting societal norms worthless existence checklist incidents given cause reconsider purpose living horrible society a molested mom growing up would always play genitals say fun even would tell stop b boss took transgender pride flag threw floor stomped repeatedly shouted see think shitty tranny people c coworker last year sneaked apartment building asleep threw brand new bike dumpsters practical joke spent months saving buy another bike d spending new bike lock stolen rack outside apartment building two days later never found e general manager previous job told raped even though been said mustve asking since bisexual f boss job always tells im going arrested dress since thinks wearing womans clothes outlawed g crisis worker laughed thought silly smile hide fact im clinically depressed stormed office followed outside started swinging bike racks like little kid h counselor told want end life thinks totally okay recommended going side deserted road putting sleep im ready die i psychiatrist dared go home put plastic bag head think id really able commit redflag j four years ago brutally attacked security guards er attempted leave hospital without signing discharge papers even though crisis worker insisted you wasted everyones time coming here told released k two years ago riding bike downtown teenage boy ran street punched face jumped bike riding circles taunting me called police officer bother file report told since involved minor would criminal charges l banned years local shopping mall wearing womens clothes security officer told crossdressing abnormal n homeless man spit face bus terminal yesterday informed security guards refused take action instead reassured since hes homeless nothing do o ive raped multiple times gay men even kept begging stop repeated i know want it forced sex them p two years ago brought er psych eval sitting calmly one observation rooms hour nurses doctor threatened inject drug calm down refused ordered two security guards put restraints q banned using paypal employee googling name online discovered photos dressed womens clothes abuse department claims violated end user agreement selling pornography never able produce evidence r bullied gay man quora angry posted question sexual orientation relates transgender people even though question way violated quora policies began harassing name gender identity getting moderator delete profile usually tell counselors social workers horrible experiences dismiss you must strong person still alive listen people first all im strong person im damaged person secondly part society caring people think thats fundamental reason human civilization still exists thirdly incidents traumatized less people think me rather act toward me whats particularly frustrating strangers pretend care announce plan kill myself apparently im worth peoples attention im dead maybe people nicer others still living instead waiting inevitable act like life suddenly matters course never forgive forget incidents abused neglected otherwise mistreated mental health system add thousands dollars billed services rendered ie forced psychological trauma certainly charge people raped we forced pay strangled thrown floor pushed wall tied bed forcibly medicated medical professionals guise healthcare health care health torture refuse part society government condones endorses systematic torture mentally ill people accountability even helpless vulnerable state mental health supposed hope healing psychological manipulation financial extortion physical violence taken advantage time time again nothing ever done help me therefore people concerned needed help most obviously concerned now suggest otherwise nothing short patronizing staying alive mistake die instead,1 mtsiaklides aw i wish i could i can t really speak to my yia yia because she doesn t speak english,0 "Happy Friday!!!! I hope all are doing well....the darling son (5) has decided that we should have a cookout - happy, happy, joy, joy ",0 cant sleepi much mind ik im tired thoughts keeping up im thinking go jail one day seeing warrants me hate life cant understand me others blessed everything could possibly want nothing sure family loves cares u want die wish luck would magically come way miracles actually thing anyone could make life worth living dont want die want live full life kids see kids own right dont see anything bright future darkness hope light end tunnel im tired acting like everything ok im tired saying im sleepy someone ask whats wrong shouldnt wish bad anyone especially mother wish dead could go killing self mom reason im still alive dont want kill self knowing cry years thinking failed me really failed self god hate em much could u watch ur creations suffer much suffering entertainment u u actually love us eyes u pick choose u love bless cant understand people world hell earth want go theres nothing me im fit time would rather born slaver maybe would drive fight,1 things scared shit little garfield halloween special smoky bear goosebumps vampire breath warm bodies absolutely anything zombies micheal jacksons thriller still scares me,0 failedi care sees anymore fuck alts ill probably destroy account soon anyway im leonard turned yesterday depressed years suicidality coming year ago im really lacking anything im smart rich family etc cant it first went school first year school nice second year came school teachers slowly noticed wasnt usual kid could already read point others still trouble saying single letters school enjoy that labelled too smart bullied children yelled teacher got really depressed angry everything nonetheless went third year there shit improve either teacher bitch yelled kept spiraling down believe first started suicidal thoughts even knew redflag back then started developing hobby passion though computers started making animations things powerpoint even got windows computer fuck around with since teacher know me let shit school computer situation got worse worse taken another school school years tried help me thing learned instead getting mad keep thoughts inside me did quickly started overflow suicidality came back bullied also due muscle disease able sports well even boldly attempted climb window once then high school came we first years primary school highschool given gymnasium advice went gymnasiumonly school here broke note netherlands different highschool years levels gymnasium best got bad grades bullied contemplated redflag again single friend still thankful for without him here due bad grades mostly mom becoming mayor move lost last friend thing left computer went another school atheneum one gymnasium grades horrible contemplated redflag bullied hated dropped again year redoing atheneum grades still shit cant get anything im stuck kind friends now helping anymore point thing keeping redflag anime wanting make program parents care im happy care grades failed got results failed mom subliminally telling im failure fail cant tell them want tell them want die want drop farther down want continue day fantasise someone painlessly killing revive give another chance elsewhere futile fantasies cant save humans cant saved light death am sitting bus thinking go remote village jump front train help even birthday yesterday cheer up inevitable anyway could die die die ,1 Sooo excited!! Headed to the opera with friends... "Tosca" a tragedy ... But what opera's not one lol,0 @Cortnee4Christ ,0 i can t take my ocd and thing i ve done like played virtual game and had a male friend i feel like a terrible girlfriend also i can t take living here with my parent at almost year old they re abusive mentally but they re right i m never gon na make it in life,1 call number call promise you regret,0 youve heard of im deep get ready for im really high,0 want hang scared livingim worried ill end surviving ending serious brain damage sure im trying achieve posting like guys give advice successfully xd,1 bruhhours life gone ive spent hours solving sudoku daysand around hour watching youtube videos solving sudokuyou ask questions something idkim really bored now,0 ive never felt way beforeive never really contemplated redflag happy long time going college well loving boyfriend knew wanted life graduated broke years together know want myself feel like anything anymore was still is love life said loves love me needed time found talking another girl asked why said didnt want talk me says could still talk him yet completely ignore me ive struggling keep busy seems like everything great him hurts much weeks ive feeling like complete piece shit feel stupid keep telling ill leave alone cant go days without trying contact him cry sleep dreams everything good him wake cry again constantly thoughts ever thought would feel way never thought would something like me there lot story obviously want write out anniversary birthday day thats coming up want badly go impossible me moved across country thinking would help working money now planning getting incredibly drunk day calling him large possibility may then know heart hes one me want me want anyone else ive also fantasizing scrapping enough money together flying out going house front him want see hes done me broke me know im asking help know im writing this guess maybe listen me one else know gonna happen next weeks like plan ahead,1 astronomically closed shell former self finally cried tonightover again im better ive ever everything gets harder im exhausted yet people demand lot me dont understand im going ive through im really hurting right now ive lonely lacking relationships since ex split last july ive much interest pursue someone new im going delve deep holy shit life shit show rather long record suicidal tendencies praised fact ive seriously considered year but tonight drove drove hoping id crash fucking car something im shit tomorrow isnt better try again im absolutely hating right now im religious im praying universe shows significance world asap,1 im going hang myselfim going hang graduating useless ba biology think ill get medical school real friends money aspirations shut down theres point wasting everyones time money im saying goodbye everyone goodbye follow up nothing said help think might jump bell tower instead really want end everything now ive deserted people around me theres nothing change situation besides becoming millionaire,1 Best day ever for having a convertible ,0 dtizzler and it took me my entire walk to the train station to undo it,0 reddit got banned raskreddit so heres next best thing baby,0 wish owned guneverything hurts cant even get bed unless someone yells me want breathe anymore please god real come kill me give energy kill myself im alone,1 deal everything subthis serious question random complaint rant suffer extreme mental health issues keep walls inherently came accident good god even though mean come here much support place ive never seen concentrated window atrocities humans create one issues misanthropy spend time reading internet means naive humans done floored me people deal it,1 ever wish someone would kill wouldnt itpurposefully running around late night shady places paying attention nearing roads almost accidentally getting hit car,1 one yearits one year since tried jump rollercoaster year nothing changed family full collapse mother fearfull deep pain father detached everything fault wish died grief better this must be tried medications psychotherapy all depression severe overcome tried hide people mask cracking wish everybody shrugged depression like othing years doctors said could better got medicated time case burden hide people like murderer something cause mental illness mark cain society tried everything cant anymore hope real noose time feel tight enough waiting kick chair one year one useless year older pain hatred pain left ive used abused people years empty shell maybe time get gene pool wanna embrace death silence im tired now bye,1 #Depression is a real and treatable condition. Take an online self-assessment to determine if you should seek professional help. Visit http://MassMen.org ,1 cannot anything feeling indescribable seems like never end cannot even think future horrible moment stop stop one second please depression feels like endless moment pure emptiness,1 ayodi avico allannyash depression,1 one thing im goneits wire opened bottles lysol right besides bathroom im ready hours agonizing pain culminate blissful silencing constant ups downs cruel consciousness leave tell one thing world worth conscious time experience edit gonna provide context im th grade grades sucks parents consistently told im ruining family keen interest getting inebriated im anorexic guy fucks sake really hung friends much months since caught ounce hasheesh tabs lsd family moved shanghai china life laundry list shit,1 a lot of people don t struggle with depression they struggle with the reality we live in stillpushing,1 lecturer are actually the most atrocious people who trigger a lot of depression rude when you ask for help setting quarter to impossible paper and then come to class and brag to student how they ve acquired their degree peak condescension,1 my throat is raw,0 killing escape humanityi often think want kill ill never deal another person ever again times truly deeply happy alone nature always way feel alive taking walks starry skies going barefoot moors surrounded animals only mind body everything am registers people threat true contentment happiness found solitude feel broken deal people feel constant sharp pain makes think sth wrong me thing instantly ebbs away alone nature maybe belong society id okay that never asked become human id rather free animal tbh now never want see another person ever again people fundamentally untrustworthy cause much pain id id feel whole living alone woods either killing myself valid options escape humanity redflag would also mean person anymore biggest wish know im supposed enjoy alive know im young blabla miss stars solitude want go nature let die whenever want to,1 sorryits one im sad fuck eating disorder ive lost friends least friends mattered im stressed point feel like im panic attacks every second everyday leg readable wrists still shaking drowning ive never good enough family brother fucking perfect im family screw up little talents sort hes motherfucking concert pianist fuck that got trouble first time past summer think ive ever miserable im senior high school school nightmare im taking ap classes humanly possible im running sleep little food consequently poor grades teachers think im dumb im starting buy that too im applying eleven colleges lack mental sanity go them plan eat im college thats dumbest idea ive ever heard cant explain it know why im going eat college scares living shit me ptsd almost crippling often wake find shaking closet know touch touched even friendly hug make cringe anyone left ive got burnt bridges dangling every meaningful friendship ive ever im socially inept even hope form new ones think im suicidal im going go jumping front cars anytime soon say car coming would move wouldnt sometimes close eyes im changing lanes shitty know do really know feel either mean know im sad least think so think sad feels like fuck knows id also say pretty safe assume im sorry im sorry fucked up im sorry fucked people process im sorry better,1 fuck school hours minute feels like half hour minute break feels like seconds fuck,0 want sex want girl see cock want look vagina want fuck lights off idk im gon do,0 want reassuredi feel like everything pointless right now people probably care treat good im there wish friends one thought could trust left better popular people wish could say graduating top grades id happy high school college college job would put endless cycle want grow want free want run away know people would try find treat better pity want liked better without running away ive contemplated im scared die leave ones like even like back secretly burden them know right now im lost,1 dangerous decisionso im huge pc nerd ordered ft ethernet cable would faster internet run pc room router im scared might get desperate try hang self it cancel order,1 serious scene movie scene lets know film pulling many cheap punches takes place crowded train station protagonists ambushed assassins automatic weapons make break manage get hail gunfire main hall train station filled corpses innocent people caught crossfire would call sad andor grim put supposed enjoyable action flick call honesty action movies tend lean toward safe side showing violence plot elements mostly means spite massive shootouts innocent people tend die least see die violence purely good guys versus bad guys mainly bad guys dying bit common sense clearly shows absurdbr br renny harlin showed hint first and sadly only hit die hard villains intentionally crash plane full people get point across scene also filmed backup scene cargo plane people onboard going down grimmer probably realistic scenario ended used however fit spirit first film die hard mostly fun action movie here grimmer convincing edge pervasive violence bloody one liners hilarious certain style echoes natural human sarcasm clichd film wisecracks key moments action plot also packed malicious intent action films villain rogue revenge mad grab power less ridiculous also frightening that recent films bourne trilogy almost gets less cheesy usual action film style film years the bourne identity matt damon made big screenbr br another interesting aspect main hero actually heroine well movie version tomb raider became hit whats heroine genuinely looks like could take john mcclane take still lit cigarette movie marks geena daviss second actionheroine role still manage score hit angelina jolie stars tomb raider years later scores hit reasons beyond me completelybr br lastly movie dark edged many outrageous spectacular set pieces one see action film climatic explosion chemical bomb absolutely spectacular display movie pyrotechnics one law physics taking convenient break thus formula here antiformula everyday hollywood action movie formula br br bscdb classification violence profanity,0 "@cha_rade shhh, don't tell anyone. We won't tell anyone. ",0 i can t do it anymore i don t want to talk to anyone because i keep backtracking myself into thinking i m over exaggerating i have no social skill constantly feel like everyone around me would be better off without me better yet everyone but my parent wouldn t notice they ll hurt the most and that s what i hate so much i wish i could just not wake up tomorrow and not feel like this again i m tired of everything school is shit i want to make them proud but i just cant,1 Depression is such a villainous state,1 "If you carry your childhood with you, you never become old..A. Sutzkever ",0 writing got new friend met reddit talking hours ago so responses since message explaining absence girl pay talk me goddamn lonely absent since almost hours ago couple older friends talked while late really quiet nobody responded today closest meaningful conversation came via welcome messages support forum joined alone painfully completely alone want die decided yet done hate world hate fact need people clearly care hate everyone ever tells friend abandons me promise time tomorrow nobody bother pretending anymore relax forget ever darkened inbox pretend never existed all could fun game anyone thinks talk edge little friendship fine after please not need hurt worse need let go please let let go abandonment issues finally won peace out,1 today wa a normal day i have started keep a to do list to tackle my depression it not always necessary for me to everything on that list provided i have some definite reason in my mind to not doing everything like okay i didn t cook today because the gas connection wasn t there also this list ha helped me with my medication a sometimes heavy dos make me feel forget to do small stuff but something s left from the list undone and i don t have any particular reason for that except spending extra time resting or etc i feel horrible and then a fear started to grow back of my head that if i don t keep with that list i will again fall in depression today after work i took some time off for myself then my boyfriend came over and we spent some quality time but it also made me let for cooking my dinner and a i planned to go for cycling after dinner now i am constantly feeling horrible for not striking off one job from my list and the absurd thing is i haven t even had my dinner yet so i am already freaking out about something which probably i will have time to do this whole situation is not only giving me anxiety without any concrete reason but also making me feel guilty for enjoying something that i love,1 intervals getting shorteri tried counting days last redflag attempts felt like got frequent time first counted days try tonight ordered something online make different attempt arrive monday maybe ill wait then idk yet hope itll end soon,1 putting ufo thing aside best documentary ive seen factual reporting neil buzz must see interviews reporting revelation since information stamped confidential released documentary date detail accuracy brief minutes facts blow away left awe risks taken first moon neil buzz probably biggest heros time ever see man save life bet not neil saves life miliseconds separated death amazing watch travesty people known details assosiated landing moon courage men facing certain death failing computer stars,0 i essentially live purely obligationi want die hard alive lately things keep going family or least members family friend kieran passion music smallest hope still better tomorrow family selfexplanatory love brothers mother well grandparents father different story though necessarily hate zero love him id hate devastate killing myself despite brain always telling theyd get it anyways maybe would dunno friend kieran also reason hes six years hes done many financial moral things me hes kept going downward spiral many many times yet still treat like shit bitter sad feel time deserve him really dont love guy could ever know brother actual brothers sometimes music selfexplanatory keeps going hope also selfexplanatory though question every day still hope said still really wish alive things thankful for though theyre short supply anyways im lonely time time im depressed hardly room happiness any often times ill think im happy moment realize later wasnt merely distracted depression loneliness one biggest blows romantic failure girlfriend attempts ive made getting one year flopped completely first girl tried getting of genuinely liked connection too ghosted upon confession never acknowledging since second attempt lifelong best friend emily hardest part fact wanted date did issue was attracted women guys despite best efforts look past that blame her but still hurt ive always sort crushed bit get close actually meaningful relationship ruined something control soul crushing but digress absolutely emotionally debilitating lonesome way want loved accepted somebody likes me likes things do may lot ask for hurts romantically lonesome really really hurts another factor constant fear future want nothing write music living loyal fanbase share mostly horrible life experiences with well give advice aid via music create wish wealthy though dislike that want earn enough live of well buy things id like buy there however constant fear ill never able live dream out skill limitations time limitations way world works etc many factors working me terrifies know possible ill fail almost makes trying seem worth it try know better chance failing passing obviously plan giving time soon terrifies me keeps night yet another thing depresses loss innocenceloss innocence shit childhood that whenever see pretty girl watch anime see cartoon etc become depressed cartoon anime ones show things like love stories coming age stories even simple shit like kid normal life get jealous that upsets me and especially depresses me sexual stuff see hear anything sexual become so depressed know why weirds too get it probably understand since even understand makes articulating impossible tried maybe understand and lastly final thing ill talk adds anguish since many anisocial life become money friends besides one best friend cant get much since sheltered life social skills goddamn terrible meeting new people huge struggle me so naturally get cooped house long periods time thinking sad lonely and trust me thinking much regularly dangerous im sure know that really eats away you apologize wall text call post lot mind get out even ive repeated shit almost every post ive made thanks whoever reads stupid thing comments especially comment really need human contact even comment reddit heavily appreciated cheers good daynight ps sorry typos really feel like reading whole thing revise it almost am lmao,1 unhappy terrible person fixing me must continue heinous commit loving family friends missed want leave tell stay alive serves purpose inflicted inflict pain,1 well years years two entire years wonderful remember coming here getting meet new people getting look around really exploring platform entirely amazing everything two years everyone managed commit to weve accepted new members say goodbye some joining given warm welcome everyone leaving wished good luck future know two years platform safe space me somewhere got know things place made now admit saying things like arent regular me feel like everyone deserves told would love thank everyone point thank everyone whos made mine thousands others journeys now community really overcome lot everyone deserves big pat back that dearest appreciations everyone remember stay safe,0 "My personal blog recently updated, follow me here! http://thelifesrefuge.wordpress.com/homepage/",0 never really recognized depression like recently diagnosed bipolar normally normally rapid cycle recently depression sticking around married gave birth daughter past december love little girl anything feels like enough know better never energy going work days week mental battle stay home watching know feel lost feel lost,1 kinda wish able say reason head saying anything disrespect punished want yo fuvking,0 hey guys see everyone posting commit redflag everyone posting like reasons ill give three time heals everything everything destined find purpose god believe him,0 guess whos friends homophobic hell mine yet come feels fucking great knowing anything homosexuality,0 "I love new clothes. If everyone could just wear new clothes everyday, I reckon depression… https://www.instagram.com/p/BiAXg4hBr9n/ ",1 "Just loaded a bunch of Mystree and Language Los Angeles products on our site. Take a look, and make my day http://www.jbandme.com",0 oliyoung but that requires assembly assembly is completely overrated tonight this is harder than i thought,0 smaaack that ass! hahhahahaa i make myself laugh!! oOooOh sleeeep! ahha g'niite!,0 jus reminder vote elegible world watching please dont give years man steroids thinks coronavirus like flu mexican heart breaking see families border,0 please helpthis new account way hi please help really suicidle lately tried kill mins ago voices telling ages cut arms legs really badly taken lots meds redflag attempt idk do shower try stop bleeding hurt much cut arms legs mins ago took meds shower mins ago im shaking really bad im scared badly voices head wont stop really mean telling keep hurting take meds jump building near house autism add schizophrenia im f ft in effects overdosing idk apparently does really scared im kinda happy idk im crying alot though voices telling days i took bunch concerta clozapine prozac think took like meds total yeah tummy hurts bad feels like really bad cramps cant move alot without stomach hurting wearing hoodie try stop arms legs its super large hoodie getting blood everywhere working think really really sorry it im sorry really regret posting this shit im sorry really im sorry,1 bed is painfully tempting right now but if i take a nap i ll probably wake up at pm,0 anyone chat im im bored nothing else do little me either think im scum earth existence rivals god himself between discuss wide variety topics play number choice company would deeply appreciated m,0 need advice pleaseso im currently fulltime university student failing classes parents know cant tell desperately want take summer classes well thing is im depressed suicidal cannot fathom good idea hell tell im suicidal cant even remotely imagine taking summer classes,1 things feel pointless want dieim constantly numb cant stop thinking killing myself im unemployed cant access meds therapy neither get job due paperwork issues im waiting green card renewal ask friends family were dirt poor cant stop thinking redflag ive talked hotlines help all people keep saying gets better really feels like wont hurts alive im doomed life underemployment discrimination maybe dying best,1 know not work psych field worst day pales comparison others everything get better cant stop crying ended today years know best cant deal pain hurts cant breath entire existence crumbling im dying inside seems like way out it brain screaming jut already,1 "Exercise lowers risk of depression at all ages, researchers find http://www.cbc.ca/news/health/exercise-depression-prevention-1.4634002 … pic.twitter.com/w47mtobsdM",1 sleep day awake nightanyone else get this empty shell spend time bed usually crying when im awake,1 dont care gonei thought jumping today im already depressed cant sleep mom walked telling take nap lay hours later came asked slept realized would leaving behind people would feel disappeared im postponing,1 yrhey im last child brothers dad got killed siblings grown im mom gave im old enough provide everything im depressed cant take anymore attempt redflag time didnt work got sick boyfriend trys talking im going try soon gun hurts wake knowing im alive situation cant wait future,1 someone put eyeliner looks sick im guy fuck gender norms looking pretty badass,0 sweet dreams eurythmics sounds like intro song james bond movie agrees makes sound like james bond song,0 want end myselfsad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain,1 "art test today! ...yay for the art, boo for the test. Wish me luck!!! ",0 depression ha no face and it chooses no one,1 pass application dream college course though still chance admission reconsidereddespite everything feels like crashing down mum console mostly god plan you etc i religious hold similar beliefs end world although feel way especially lack determination things futuremy family aware past attempt guess way reacted college results end worrying them ill still try recover improve despite thoughtstldr failed dream college admission still hope please comment words hope comfort outside religion fate themesthank advanced __ please send words hope comfort,1 day in york nice place photo coming soon feeling sick now though and i m back at work,0 favorite cookie sorry havent posted while whats favorite cookie im oatmeal raisin fan,0 there were few class that interested me in college i chose a class called film amp acting and wa told i d could do video editing in that class turn out it wa a theatre class and i soon i wa doing absolutely nothing because i wasn t provided anything to do in the class am i stupid for not reading the description of the class that wasn t on the paper and can t find on the website,1 every time argument boyfriend want die fair himtitle feel frustrated wanting die every little minor inconvenience big argument fair cant tell feel isnt right worry ever bringing something want kill myself want pain stop dont know want die always happens dont see ever getting better fair,1 im so tired of being alive and experiencing thing in general nothing is fun i suffer non stop and i feel like people that try to get rid of me are following me what s the point to live when i m only going to encounter these people everywhere and work a hour job just to go home and sleep i feel like the only reason people want me to stay alive is so that i can be put to use for them i have 00g of sn and antiemetic maybe i will put them to use tomorrow sometimes i wish i could just hire a killer to do the job for me,1 pjakma gadboit probably did well for mental health too a friend of ours who life in sweden came over to the uk last year and said literally everyone he met here had at least mild depression,1 sound like fantasy film film dark dark overtones soundtrack way uplifting point intruded visuals im sure aiming something militant work scene astin attempting escape perfect example sound like goonies comedy brightness this br br the idea movie great acting good well enjoyed everyones performances available netflixs online viewing br br definitely worth viewing write soundtrack,0 reason live tired life feel like living anymorehi reading article made feel depressed like killing tired life believing god afterlife im black cant level people want get gun shoot brains out theres god afterlife want hell rather called loving god made life hell cant math disabled wanted engineering ill post get response httpswwwbloombergcomfeaturesrichestfamiliesintheworldutm_sourcepocketnewtabhttpswwwbloombergcomfeaturesrichestfamiliesintheworldutm_sourcepocketnewtab,1 apologize english writing unclear bit rant miserable long time least relation long alive earliest memories wanting die ish improved since find hard find keep close friends close relationship family parents extremely socially conservative take mental health seriously brother tried commit suicide back even treated mindset issue cannot go siblings type relationship them pitted young age resentment still there feels like getting professional mental health treatment question living family even like take doctor feel like future past months lay bed felt miserable afraid get job apply things need apply to practice get better one real extracurricular fencing nothing tell matter going reach future anyways going commit suicide but know courage so courage fix life either school starts weeks know going completely fucked school required current resume expect constantly changing evolving nothing done nothing past year nothing show addition enrolled internship program intern local legal firms police lawyer even trying contact places afraid call cannot email none places emailed responded from month agothe one extracurricular fencing even good at started late october last year comparison peers high level ranked joke started late skills good at parents generally ignored siblings who succeed sports arts choose do encouraged little me nothing passion anythingi cannot even leave house one thing love anymore used love go walks nature cannot anymore hate going outside feeling inferior everyone even know point cannot even admit bad feel every time cannot help minimize problems cannot help feel like reason feel bad middle class parents picture cannot help think everything listing stupid melodramatic teenage bull worth hurting which prolly not still hurts heart much hate feeling like waste potential hate feeling like over still young compare peers family see nothing cowardice waste want parents family proud much know unlikely addition lack accomplishments bisexual conservative parents as mentioned above would never accept knew hate hide know ever found would tell confused faker liar or would get rid completelyi afraid future afraid going reach alone friends family person ever proud fencing coach know sees me hate showing face around academy afraid disappointing him always going to never going good athlete know anymore thank reading hurting future coward,1 adding stuff to my Carol's Daughter wish list...I hope someone hits it up! ,0 maybe that wa unclear i m planning to post on my own website later than usual today due to technical issue,0 Driving the pregnant guppy to get dirt ,0 Nothing better than seeing your first friends. ,0 happened liked girl really cute really good friends awhile gaining courage ask going friday asked out honestly awesome course said yes many probably compare finally feel happy awhile sorry bad grammar any,0 work today,0 posting everyday get girlfriend day took big l finally told definitely doesnt see friend shouldnt keep hopes relationship her need motivation cheering ,0 rambles honestyi feel like much feel cannot control feelings want leave me get jealous numb er people shoving feelings down guess numb too think lost part humanity hopefully all know empathy before younger always wanted kind wanted make people happy still value it happens whenever try try much get taken advantage of dont really dont total ass feel terribly either way think struggle emotional boundaries maybe really relate people like used to maybe im mentally ill something anxiety depression want kind person seems fake helping others make happy anymore forget cheer people up think depression contagious gradually found way life sad sadder people barely count human being think deserve love do people get hurt notice dependant get feel guilty im chronically depressed matter much try fix me wish someone would fix me somehow leave them help them get rid burden me hurt more complicated like people wish felt part them us feel disconnected daydream lot much feel slipping dissociation much barely anything life seems pointless go on feeling this remembering things want to pitying myself getting angry others people say need support system order build one need basic common sense right one washed away negative thoughts head one that let answer honestly someone asks one bit caring stupid sound speak bit aware im stuck insurance cover therapy cant that i think therapy would help much lot things struggle with myself people world lot philsophical anxiety guess worry lot overanalyze everything like thoughts lot bad thoughts sometimes forget worry them hate even caring switch without knowing how want kill people sometimes also really value forgiveness kindness tell therapist want kill people especially want seem like normal person im confused im confused everything feels like everything nice fake im liar im real know real like probably really sensitive pathetic feelings right good people think way good people happier thoughts least would get bothered them want think am sensitive people want peaceful world fantasize destroying it sometimes people say normal thoughts put lot thought thoughts like curiosity want ruin life it think itd worth it but know fasinates me shouldnt want to want kill myself better people believe love think im part problem much hate me know forgive ive even joked past people kill instead people think agree now even strangly want maybe keep one person would anything me know count them something seems wrong basically enslaving loved one right stop free will fucked shit yeah relationships work really want better world everything just wonderful be without me all sad making everyone else sad burden feed house talk to people interesting think great things opprotunity think could contribute much world im good anything human emotions strong me wish everyone else calmer days x sure get posting this wanted get words somewhere felt lonely hope fine here sorry selfish truly definition world salad,1 #musicmonday: Playlist: 80s Music. Now playing: Metallica - Fade to Black ,0 DISCUSS 2 TYPES OF ANXIETY DISORDERS AND LIST POSSIBLE TREATMENTS. DISCUSS THE ROLE COGNITIONS (OUR THOUGHTS) MAY PLAY IN OUR EXPERIENCES OF ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION. https://www.nursingtermpapers.com/discuss-2-types-of-anxiety-disorders-and-list-possible-treatments-discuss-the-role-cognitions-our-thoughts-may-play-in-our-experiences-of-anxiety-and-depression/ …,1 im doneim done moms birthday party tomorrow care could absolutely kill tomorrow think redflag constantly whether want not not subconscience really wants to might well listen it,1 ive spent last yrs suffering spend another as lay here try sleep avail thoughts life deserve atrocities forced live life am lost entire family lost nearly friends stuck around more fareweatherbenificialselfish assholes ive tried kill damn times failed miserably back losing grandfather father figure life decided wanted join him took pills not going say ones well yeah im asshole ended er deaths bed unfortunately know ended up tried jump golden gate bridge ended biggest mind fucks time months ago tried hang myself remember blacking going completely limp woke floor redflag hotlines joke im sure help people text crisis line sometimes wait hour time person gets phone feel im talking robot emotion ability speak really feel fear police coming snatch up suffer severe depression bipolar ptsd anxiety stress ive recently diagnosed ptsd learning curve getting harder harder survive day soon absolutely zero died tomorrow anybody come claim body bury me would sit morgue weeks stick pauper grave number friends care enough let alone show funeral one heard anybody tell love almost years horrible feeling knowing completely forgotten life knowing nobody cares enough tell love you much hurts helps fight never ending battle life death pray helicopter airplane cement truck meteor comet comes crashing roof hitting me luck id probably survive head partial torso right shoulder redflag death two things dear me wish knew life love guess thats life right live learn whether love loved optional,1 going to my first guard drill this weekend...in the student flight...but i still get paid ,0 wish courage kill myselfgod im pathetic means kill still afraid,1 http://twitpic.com/5ovzp - Thirsty ,0 well boys it shaved nuts without nicking skin third time always charm,0 heres life pro tip know lifes hard depression shit really fucked up whenever feel like might getting depressed punch yoself fucking face ignore bad shit fuck ur school fuck everyone enjoy till state whatever happens better depression,0 want help want lose friends processtheyre people met internet years ago ive never met real life best friends scared old friends many years ago away talk wanted die self harmed ive started hurt want tell them im afraid theyll say want lose friends keep mouth shut problems really business anyway ive already lost friends this think could handle losing again,1 friends wont noticeive missed many days school know parents take away phone skip school suddenly didnt turn didnt talk them none would think badly notice anything,1 goodbyeposted days ago figured owed people read little closure guess took rest sleeping pills waiting kick wanted say thanks trying reached out goodbye clearhitgage update attempt failed reply people thread replied pms eventually went called old friend thank everyone repliedpmd,1 yooo im tied thicccums way httpswwwredditcomuserppppie_commentsloemaewho_is_best_user_on_rteenagersutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf,0 At the melting pot! Happy hour. Yumm. I hope I don't get bad gas from the cheese n beer LOL!,0 At the point where I'm legitimately pissed when I scroll thru IG and don't see raunchy shit. Sure your selfies are great and I love all of your pets but where are the memes about ass eating and depression? That's the truly relatable content I crave.,1 What a beautiful day for a parade YEAH PENS!!!!,0 "@MissZindzi @mtstanford Okay but no one is trying to tell anyone about anything. Depression is a mental illness, he has told us from his mouth he is depressed, therefore he suffers from a mental illness. I think you reading too deep into the initial tweets or something.",1 im currently years old think ever happyim currently years old know anymore life know anymore live within group pretty big friends we around thing is many friends really hard find close one find someone talk everyday fun everyday etc always wanted best friend my best friend went japan although hes going return brazil november also always wanted girlfriend like really always wanted someone love me make feel important make feel well terrible crush experiences past felt would never girlfriend reason girl like me guess what currently girlfriend months in really cares me loves me makes feel one important person world even gave tons love letters gave shirt one picture frame us put bedroom pendant letter l both names start l lot candies she knows like chocolates valentine guess what still feel like shit im insecure everything reasons doubt her seen everything her know bitch anything always problems cheating me ending losing somehow guess would could call possessive really trying better really try to cant fucking fail man worthy her disrespect way suffered depression still do led possessive girlfriend im scared cant stop possessive matter try even though obvious give up since really loves me also started go therapies taking medications although weak really help me im weak skinny weigh around kg that would around pounds cant get fatter metabolism really crazy matter much eat like meal per day still hardly get fatter cant grow muscle all because well give going gym while leads next thing want get chest motivation anything like one day might sudden burst motivation something really good go gym like previously said good something ie drums guitar sport competitive videogames start projects week so lose motivation had therapist said always used everything easy easy me challenges appears like getting good videogame learning guitar end giving up like years cant anything cant maintain routine cant mantain healthy lifestyle this installed app would remind drink water everyday hour because rarely remember to first weeks fine like schedule give fuck anymore gave up also really affects grades highschool since create routine study everyday well exams guess what give too hardest part cant help it cant help all try best lose motivation end losing sometimes redflag thoughts appear head end considering it thing stopping devastated family girlfriend would commit it,1 im seeing therapist today doesnt know feel way im scared tell heri made couple posts asking help try resolve feel way diagnosed severe anxiety stress issues also autism diagnosis younger suicidal badly depressed couple years now made plans kill recently bought gun so tried hinting parents feel way dads sole response people feel way get it sympathy advice ever night went room put gun head passed could finally decide whether it night made post asking lot guys girls told tell therapist came conclusion would still know best interests so half hours first face face session since corona im starting get really nervous telling her dont see often know chance anxiety stress kicking really badly thinking say im worried anxiety making shake right now really want tell seems like theres mental block please give advice overcome please,1 destroyed entire life let know whats lefti see reason continue cheated her girl ever mean anything world me wanted one last thing settled young married her over told her even know why couldve perfectly content never mentioning her wants us carry like nothing happened forgave me cant live pain shame horrible thing worth ending for,1 "@SpiderxBear Friday sometime,lol. Wouldn't have a clue when we're getting there. ",0 tell family friendshi im new subreddit hope im right im really glad exists im sure anyone actually see need get anyway really difficult type know tell family friends recent suicidal tendencies juggle life school work lately getting me lately antidepressants working feels like im taking avoid withdrawal effects think contributed recent suicidal thoughts nearly every day ive contemplating redflag even would go it know tell people care about ive therapist helped depression anxiety stuff barely ever talked redflag so tldr tell friends family this reach help want feel like burden need help sorry jumbled confusing know get properly,1 college apps know want major living yet gpa anyways thats get even lower since one a three cs right now might go community college,0 yesterday something happened friend went crisis blocked without warning really worried called police checked told ok unblocked later night gave vague comments happened clearly something big happened time known new ground friend crisis like comforted people close with months ago crisis sent hospital weeks wanted talk feel safe trying them intentions well forgot told likes alone kept blaming going hospital wanted give space theywould likealways remember treat people way like treated person likes scared made worse lost now want safe treat people would like treated,1 another yearlike whats point job girlfriend new years eve everyone else house partying im crying room nobody cares nobody wants around sad guy fuck it anymore im going wait asleep drink everything take pills find im fucking done get better one help me happy fucking new years,1 come rteenagers let people farm karma make post making fun farming karma gets deleted farming karma ridiculous let meme ugh,0 want end itnothing going right today nothing going right past years fair today saw sexual abuser uncle first time years im falling behind school autoimmune disease back insurance cant afford medication im constant pain universe wants kill myself nothing going right want die,1 hello i f have told all my friend amp family i m in a dark place i just started treatment with a therapist amp am meeting a pcp soon i am on a personal leave from work to deal with these personal issue it wa tough but i have been transparent with my support system family friend that i left an abusive relationship amp i am deeply ashamed that i almost did not leave i left my home amp family for yr amp lived with my partner in another state i just moved back in with parent grateful but struggling to adjust in my heart there is shame knowing that i only left because he admitted he did not love me for the past yr not because it wa an abusive relationship amp i nearly died i couldn t amp still can barely see past the love i had for this partner amp grasp that it wa abusive my trust wa betrayed so deeply from this yr relationship it wa a if a switch had been flipped amp the person i believed i wa in a mutual loving relationship with wa suddenly gone i wa treated so callously by my partner i know this is simply how the world is amp i need to come to term but now i struggle with depression amp anxiety with every relationship in my life i am utterly terrified to trust even family amp friend but i have been high functioning forcing myself to be active amp social my family amp friend have been here for me bringing me back from the ledge amp encouraging positive outlet like socializing with friend amp working out i am scared because all i can think in the moment of stillness is what is the point for now the point is to keep pushing on for family amp friend because i do not want them to have to live with my death if i committed suicide i feel like i am on borrowed time amp my excuse for sticking around will soon mean nothing my cup is so low i just want to sleep all day amp not wake up i m terrified i want to be okay i don t know what else to do i hate putting the pressure on my friend amp family to pull me back from this metaphorical ledge i know they love me amp they have told me i am not a burden i can not shut out that voice in my head saying i am being a burden i should just be strong get up and amp move on i just want to be able to be fine again can anyone help me by suggesting resource that i have not already exhausted or by answering the question what is the point my sibling shared that personally his point purpose in life is to spread positive energy amp change with each person he interacts with i used to amp my heart still longs to be this way but at the end of the day what is the point we re all going to die anyways i m tired someone please help,1 "Alright, I'll leave you guys with this song.. bye bye! | Third Eye Blind - Semi Charmed Life ? http://blip.fm/~5j4bh",0 know anymoreive always issues wanting kill ive tried many many times ive gotten point right im happy know change it cant make care pretend to know why lying time crushing know another way stop it cant sleep want cry always wants sex bugs let happen want keep it everything else want something say ill anyway want to everyone believes im happy girl much going her im happy happy years months ago ex broke tore apart forgotten care hurts makes want end everything much take long keep pretending care im left alone one people think im crazy send back hospital,1 mom please tell officer im sorry broke promise youll know one tell emts im sorry wont able make light hearted jokes way hospital please dont let aunt make facebook post shes done please dont let tell sisters hate know cold statement could bring dad back life think ok knew would make everything worse let dad know dont blame didnt mean bit sick dont tell little buddy im gone make something please dont ever let know let therapist know great almost made better please let everyone know im trying selfish need peace please dont mad love really need get better im tired cant get better earth im really sorry thank everything best mom ever please remember bottle doesnt help dont try it love please look notes blue swan box bottom right shelf shoe closet,1 a bit under the weather the last coupla day workout have been low in energy,0 ok so like... how am i supposed to tell my mom i have depression without her crying and getting mad,1 my step dad picking mum hour im going take overdose time house ive tried getting life taking every day came overwhelming constant loneliness depressive state horrible deal with,1 refused look face acknowledge done several days later sister calls me feigning friendship asking would like get cat forced adopt living there got home multiple hour drive way noticed cat behaving strangely cat point less year leaving almost entirely feral infested ridiculous number fleas posted local forum town ways help repair cats nowaggressive nature,1 things ever start looking up im ready give timesso ive dealt depression since ive relationships come way fail ive multiple jobs nothing help reaching goals well got full time job enjoy thats great thing girlfriend life months now im worried much good happening once take every situation think could go wrong tears makes wanna give feel like fail job relationship plain happy dont know anymore dont much faith myself feel like ruin everything good have,1 tl dr have been abused mentally and physically by both parent throughout my childhood and even now at year old very depressed and have suicidal thought failing school and have poor social life afraid to fight back because it will end up in conflict someone getting hurt and me getting kicked out of the house for the millionth time i still care about my parent for some reason and love them i dont know why and am hesitant to go to authority i have nobody to move in with not much money no car what do i do am i a coward i am currently in my second semester of community college i have lived through physical and verbal abuse throughout my entire childhood asian family beaten the crap out of every other day by drunk father my mother is mentally unstable and controlling and also hit and insult me don t want to get into specific because it would be lengthy and there too much but let just say the worst thing my father ha done to me wa crack my head against a table and i had to go to the er to get staple lied and said i knocked my head into the table by accident my mother burned me with a hair iron when i wa around ten and she say stuff like i am worthless should have never been born etc daily i am not a bad son very respectful my parent just have a lot of issue that stem from being abused from their parent too and are very controlling for much of my life i thought this treatment wa normal for example my mother would start hitting me if i didn t address her a mom when talking to her when she felt moody stuff like that not warranted last semester i took difficult stem class to be an engineer and on the morning of my calculus final my drunk father punched me in the mouth and i bled because i did not wake my brother up for school when he overslept i failed the final after that i told them i wanted to join the marine because i wa sick of home they apologized and promised to change they still talk shit to me but haven t hit me until last week my mother socked me in the back of the head for leaving the light on in the staircase of the house i felt betrayed since this is the first time they hit me in three month and i thought they really did change i screamed dont touch me and glared at her fist clenched and got wrestled to the floor and swung at by my father then kicked out of the house only allowed back in the house yesterday after sleeping on a park bench the whole weekend and eating fast food they called me and told me to come home they apologized but i know they didn t mean it just like every other time i am hesitant to fight back against my parent because apart of me still love them and who they are when they aren t angry i also know if i yell back or hit back never hit them before i would get kicked out of the house so i just take it i want to separate from them but i have nobody i could move in with and my depression affected my social life throughout my childhood with few friend that are all dorming at uni across state other extended family believe i m a bad kid because my parent twist the story around and make it look like i m the bad guy not close with any of them i have no car all the money i got from financial aid and scholarship my parent made me pay off their property tax the only thing i look forward to in life anymore is when i talk to a girl i like in one of my class never told her about my situation everyone i have opened up to this about tell me that i m being a pussy and should fight back but that would get me nowhere but back on the street or possibly hurt and injured and i don t want to hurt my parent what do i do am i a coward i just feel like life is not worth living anymore and i have lost all interest in school and my career,1 @bigbrobot true that! loved bed and luke last year ,0 constantly thinking ending everythingi dream last night shot shotgun bf found me turned around walked away,1 after a year of not getting the vaccine i have to get it because i m going to another city for a panoramic xray i have severe anxiety to the point that my heart is always racing and i can hear the loud beat and it interferes with my health exam one time the doctor got mad at me because she s not satisfied with my bp knowing that i wa anxious the entire time so she ordered me to drink xanor alprazolam before the vaccine however xanor is not available in my place even in the city the vaccine incharge won t jab nervous people i feel so helpless i need to get the xray asap because i m always in pain over my wisdom tooth,1 ""Viewers of my LinkedIn profiel also viewed Barack Obama, Francisco van Jole and Erwin Blom." 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",0 ok sub dry bye bye,0 dont want give inbut need kill myself,1 heyits really bad know even say right now want tell friends redflag haunting mind want deal consequences telling them want attention guess want talk rambling strangers choose read cant find way out want anymore redflag sounds comforting hate people would think selfish think selfish want live life choose cant handle cant this feel people would call selfish selfish too want live dab life entertainment contribute bad good die feel people would cry pretend knew me use death means attention others sickens me sudden people would care act close understood want it makes sense me hate sick am know normal know normal is expected get professional help cant leave bedroom daysweeks lay hours cant get energy even go urinate painful going bathroom hours even days end pathetic give utis shower change clothes brush hair nothing whenever shower small victory me what nothing good comes it end bed again wish clinically diagnosed major depression hell digging deeper hole cant fix anything want end things me redflag sounds soothing suicidal thoughts seem friend lately cant handle this,1 one last post herepretty sure lost best friend redflag dont hear tonight im ending too im sorry edit alive,1 "If you had undiagnosed learning disabilities or just don't learn well in a school envrionments, the systems at play state you don't work hard enough or you're 'objectively worthless' If you wanna know why depression is going up, look at schools.",1 a tale two sisters janghwa hongryeon true masterpiece brilliant psychological thriller heartwrenching drama gripping horror wrapped one beautifully orchestrated package intricate plot beautiful cinematography absolutely perfect casting every aspect film extraordinarybr br for fear revealing much concerning plot say satisfying may appear little difficult understand first good job explaining things end whether prefer psychological thriller drama horror promise disappointedbr br from technical standpoint nearly flawless set cinematography lighting especially soundtrack captivating waltz seemed odd choice first proved ingenious choicebr br as casting were talking absolute perfection im sujeong totally convincing defiant yet troubled sumi mun keun yeong equally convincing emotionally traumatized sister suyeon two girls magical screen certainly looking films yeom jeongah deceitfully cheerful hauntingly evil stepmother finally kapsu kim gives excellent performance weary broken fatherbr br i truly love film yet see a tale two sisters strongly recommend locating copy real gem worthy anyones collectionbr br ,0 My mom's b-day ,0 idk needs hear need stop smoking wide open fast break lays fucks sake bro gonna cherry pick like bitch least make damn fucking lay swear fuck dime one person miss wide open lay im gonna commit arson fucks sake goes fucking dollars,0 movie brilliant srks acting amazing end incredibly sad cry every time see film kind never get sick of see again absolutely amazingly brilliant movie,0 please please help me need advice please childhood parents sole reason constant thoughts redflagim ukrainian immigrant moved lot settled california female art prodigy early age cancer lymph node age went chemo got homeschooling ridicule joined school due hair loss always eccentric never quite right many relationships best years life cared hospital diagnosed major depression time found benign tumor femur caused severe pain daily basis endured years before found another one femur last many years overdosed painkillers high many times would live twice parents loved me mom would beat electric chord ribs bruised undress school clothes got home every time brought pain caused said beaten bled says clean room therapist would bring beatings justify herself miscarriage stressed cancer would take me black eye her kicked me slapped me pushed me threw things me would purposely lose store little teach lesson called police listen her escorted friend back home told goodbye lived next door forbade me speak officer phone crying hysterical terrified walked never looked back would sometimes stop hurrying see would notice never did would threaten leave side highway talked back car sat choked weight annoyed her would change broviac one day injection tube needed weekly cleaning would play hit me told stop got top told nothing could do bring hit either way would write diary mean wished new mom found yelled read it would cry closet parents would find ridicule me laugh say stupid look cry shake day discuss feelings laugh tell crying inappropriate even cant breathe hyperventilate sheer stress discussion would never buy anything hand downs two dollar sale items never fit things liked eat treats surprises knew eat them shoe collection massive ego large told im stupid fat ugly embarrass her feet crooked flat im slow worthless deserve respect acne atrocious hair appalling even fit adored anyone circle either sex would say still good enough parents pushed art crank paintings like factory lost passion helped around house would hate it missed spot something wrong showed help another friend neighbor maybe wash window theirs theyd call slave dignity would get screamed every day blamed would cry night lay bedroom door hoping would let hold me would threaten lock closet listen halloween costume contest little called school participate shy scared kindergarten parents obliged went home chickened go there ignored day made fun me teenager would lock door change nude summer days would pick lock every time angry locked it mom would demand see breasts walk showering pick door lock slept nude dad would monitor internet searches activity found porn one point outraged monitors connections day visit found phone history used cam girl mom tells whore deserves raped knows get used men less dog company older men would sometimes buy gifts found charming recently cam girl quit found outjust money food incident filled form physical abuse doctors office thought form consequence police show house lie afterward parents called traitor hated long time dad works long hours believes nothing say mom does says lie mother speaks like dog hits buys candy next day acts like angel severe depression dropped high school college academy straight student dropped fs told counselor feelings redflag mother called face extreme anger left room screamed told counselor going kill me needed help dropped college recently well due depression tumor pain moved stopped supporting unless move back go college even boyfriend hungry days without food dad drives tesla tell failure am would stop friends families hold tears back said much loved held one another moved parents finally love boyfriend far away call week ive different antidepressants group therapy family therapy regular therapy family therapy sessions go father saying lazy apply myself mother hysterics clean room deserve belt boyfriend everything end even love cant save me medication heavy snri without depression baggage much cry least every couple days ruminate parents family future even thousands miles away slight mention lose it depressed ever since young feel though point more cure me love isolation medication therapy know solution death please help me say lie spent countless nights agony even age begging god kill cannot deal anymore infested completely want die depression leave stems them destroying relationship life see getting better trying everything power still love blood cruel thing worse offenses something good them something they eyes love me hurt helped many ways mind completely fucked cant think weep hours hours hate like this seems like way out passion feelings love satisfaction nothing life feel dead killed young knew future future things better,1 Finished off Stay Positive: Forgotten Lessons from Commercialization in Depression Era New York City... and I loved it!,1 get embarassed receiving compliments basically im making whole post bcs guy friend keeps calling cute even tho told say countless timesand keeps insisting ithe doesnt seem like hes jokingi feeloverwhelmed also embarassed bcs dont confidence enough self love reply back oh thanks haha yeah ik bcs would literally put say ugly assno wayi not keep denying tell say bcs get embarassed continues says getting embarassed also cuteimi would seriously punch istg ofc im get embarassed feel like dying idk srsly cant stop anymore told would keep admit ,0 happiest days life showcases britains greatest comedy talents time traditionally farcical upperclasstwit like fashion generally whistlestop tour stuffy english behaviour girlsonly school providing great setting dotty goingson margaret rutherford alastair sim especially joyce grenfell fantastic giving us lot laughs express utter horror deal with film moves on things get sillier sillier tour around school parents suitably crackers high pointbr br at point give special mention again joyce grenfell wonderful character miss gossage extraordinarily innocent silly apologetic ineffectual seems steal whole film provides greatest laugh film flirts male teacher call sausagebr br whilst film slow dated always involving still maintains sparkle barely pauses romance good silly harmless gigglebr br ,0 using guni got abused many people socially isolated years already wrote lot subreddit met nice people nice people also abusing guess yesterday asked friend could borrow hunting rifle ill receive rifle hours whats best way use it pulling trigger rifle throat put bullet straigt brain,1 i wanted to type so much but it doesn t matter all i want to know is how to end it quickly did anyone have anything they can tell me i don t want to be found i just want to do it and ppl think i got murdered or disappeared i just want to know what pill where to get a gun or what vein to cut please i want to do it asap before i do something stupid like change my mind,1 @scarych по той же что неть еще бы не оÑ?илила)))),0 merry christmas heres skip youtube ads mobile hit little i bottom left hit stop seeing ad hit yes hit close pc refresh ok merry christmas go jack belle delphine report logan paul,0 interesting fact heard today heard people live within block registered sex offender me live next two smoking hot twelve year olds,0 @MagmaFlow Not yet.... too early in the AM ,0 is going to have breakfast. ill tweet back in a few! ,0 hope LA absolutely crushes Orlando... can't believe it's not a Lebron vs Kobe matchup... peeved ,0 Hooray for new batteries! ,0 endive thinking killing years gotten worse since beginning life meaning point ive attempted redflag two times obviously failed time first tried overdose melatonin sleeping pills six clearly enough second tried hang however ceiling fan low im going try third time soon one truly knows pain existence expect get either final cry help end,1 hanging in crooner wan na sing can t suck,0 burger king pm drive burger king station want onion rings whop whops pops pops goes tries fries onion manifests nothing rules burger king thinks something disappears dreams creates world sees fit destroys wants eating consumes turns shit moment breathing fourth dimensional matter creates shadows three dimensional patterns viewing plane x z think adding fourth drink icee follow lead imma da force im going lick like icee im going fill frosting fucker cost nothing give bear know hiding something converts light matter killing hour done hes fun drinks icee border power noone world universe devoid sour drinking last resort starts creation fourth dimensional matter creates shadows three dimensional patterns viewing plane x z think adding fourth drink icee follow lead imma da force,0 yo someone wish luck whatever basically today move another country again like third time moving countries im literally shitting ive lived like scary scary like idk school im gonna go whats gonna happen im gonna friends end year im gonna big ass exam like know fact dont get good grade im gonna mad august last year moved back home country after living years country im moving today let tell year anything fun watched everything built past years mental health friendships good grades etc fucking crumble shitting pieces front eyesi made friends whatsoever horrible time school teachers constantly took piss didnt even bother remembering name old friends stopped fucking talking im even gonna start getting shit went family year agonising pain mother literally made fun suicidal somehow managed fucking convince move back today flight scheduled know happy cuz finally got wanted im scared everything changed things never back way thats incredibly fucking jolly tldr idk man everything pain,0 Knetz are the ones who are stupid lmfao. Bom never did drugs so of course blackjacks will defend her to their graves. How fucking stupid can yall knetz get honestly like how many times do yall need to get told that those were PRESCRIBED MEDICINE FOR HER DEPRESSION,1 something bad happened wholesome bunny minecraft named star killed fuck stray cat reason house aa,0 citizen kanethe godfather part iidurville martins dolemite single greatest piece celluloid ever created unleashed upon humanity rudy ray moore role transcends academy awards stars dolemite baddest cat universe clearly take jive turkey i unfortunately turkey proves powers rapping pimping karate chopping blaxploitation absolute finest shining example genre low budget continuity errors hatred ratsoup eating honkey expletive expletive true godfather rap not new ali nonsense moore something juxtaposition acting technique somehow managing charismatic awful actor s thats saying something one highly recommended folks oneliners alone,0 Black children drown in depression and cannot even talk to their families...,1 buy converses new board filler filler filler filler filler,0 cant mom accept want kill myselfshe son done much better went college right age graduated right age got traditional college experience flunked kindergarten graduated high school graduate college still live parents transferred usc get college experience dumbass overlooking money plus longer years usc commute hour school thanks stupidityhaving college experience desire distant dream impossible point matter do weird moms favorite perfect son yet blind dying bad thing going son much responsible especially financially competent intelligent hes going switzerland job all hes confident enough get married give grandchildren told day suicidal thoughts cried confused obvious really favorite die hope discover much better off,1 new post http tinyurl com cexkqy,0 resent people keeping hereim angry loved ones reason able kill myself cant justify hurting them im waiting get bad enough point care anymore,1 i just got a new girlfriend we both had sex last weekend and it wa great we re both and love each other i ve been pretty depressed during the past year and when i met her everything changed i though she would be my new world and she is but something she told me broke my heart and made me depressed again one of her crackhead mom friend had been touching her in the private area when she wa younger she told me this because she got flashback from that moment while i were doing the same to her she didnt want to hurt me so she did not say anything this made me furious and sad i want to kill that motherfucker so badly and now everytime we have sex she is going to be thinking about that moment after this i told my self to never let this happend to her again although she will always be hurt it hurt me almost just a much to know this i need help tip support anything please,1 life fucking jokei years old high functioning autism longer read study sound vibration movement environment interrupt line thought have left constantly fight get concentration back incredibly hard concentrate worth living deteriorated point go long walks pace back forth room locked hospital twice redflag doctors psychiatrist therapists cannot help me think cutting open neck,1 @robynsykes i half taught myself half actually learned viva la vida by coldplay..epic song ,0 toast paradox toast literal garbage right wake morning immaculate pm cup leaf juice milk,0 yes follow femboys sue fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerr,0 @blowdart he said artistic persuasion not autistic persuasion. ,0 anybody feel like talking me maybe exchange storiesalot people might happy finally weekend though suicidal thoughts weekend weekends take forever nothing alone without anything distract days take forever figured talking people might help anybody feel like chattingtalking pms skype smth send pm ill send contact info,1 Dinner at the Cheesecake Factory yummy def treating myself to a brownie sundae,0 want shove box rusty nails throat childhood selfto childhood self fuck effeminate little boy made easy target could interesting fucking way yet fucking vanilla ass piece shit corner people show shoot shit at thought would make stronger interesting person made quiet boring easier ignore fuck remembering physical emotional abuse dad family fuck letting mom run little experiments body like sort lab rat fuck speaking suffering did going adults really improved life make abusers hate got slaps wrist huh fuck remembering childhood especially bad parts im experiencing again idea sort hell im getting vague memories again fault want dead like want dead want suffer way ever survive experience anymore hold fraction malice horrible wishes anyone you person world deserves suffer ash kill kill me too,1 quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps 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drool shake morning wooood cranchy roooollllll takkkkeee hommmme waif fawk waifus imotous shes got pies thighs aint shes got heart big anyone could fallllll forrrrrrrr crunchyyyyy rollllllllllllllllllll,0 brother tried kill himselfidk feel visited days ago kept sighing wanted ask wrong showed absolutely interest tried reaching along siblings shit bad multiple times gave nothing would beat little jealousy stole shit always scared him ive grown downright hate feel like total piece shit gave absolutely nothing years finally make visit ask mom money say nothing me idk maybe came test see anyone cared blew it sent message explaining hope responds probably not thought fucking i attempt recently found time brought hospital siblings counting one living us mom said anything afterwards never happened still dont mention it ive thinking like wow right ol one would notice gone true since ive gotten reckless suicidal person seemed give shit dad found first place didnt say much himself thinking one want help other who right now really wants contact brother tell much love dont want die maybe didnt know dont know regardless sent know felt dont want go,1 whats folks time somewhat regular check rteenagers folk whats going life right now doing,0 ive screwed muchim mid s teacher teaching ever wanted do postcollege job ive had love it im horrible it ive fired multiple schools used think bunch awful principals im fired fifth school finally realize problem me ive trained great mentors read books education attended workshops apparently still get it ill never get better thing want do im interfering learning students cant classroom anymore theres nothing else stomach doing cant face life without this ill find next week ill get contract next year dont im ending all,1 soldier on ill end becoming one cases my dad killed two years agoim life objectively bad ok career marry etc always dream mine little girl own nice dog perfect family life problem what dog dies children grow leave point ill finally decide call quits begs question why bother creating family know ill never happy throw away bother carrying im going bother pursuing always wanted,1 hopes up crushed epicallyive suffering depression long remember stopped taking meds two months ago make feel keep mind good place begin with already inches swallowing bottles pills have weeks ago encouraged apply promotion work interviewed really well according interviewer asked later on even acting supervisor days supervisors available told supervisors sure means got it get work today check email find complete utter denial explanation nobody else applied position tonight taking pills ive saved up im worthless im worthless deserve live nobody severe ptsd raped military twice got months later given hiv yr old male btw want keep living maybe ill swallow pills maybe ill jump front train maybe ill even bleed out ten years left live anyways nobody would care,1 "But until the time comes,I'll die of boredom ",0 got no one to talk to have no one around i ve been procrastinating on something for so long and i have no idea when i ll ever become serious or steadfast i just feel like a total waste i ve isolated myself which is making me go crazy right now no friend at all i m literally alone now feel like shit,1 idk go mental hospital notf ive felt suicidal since march ive iop php programs still dont feel good im still kind scared might myself time mental hospital sounds terrifying id go public one probably stay er three days even got real psych ward part wants let get worse finally commit part wants try options anything irreversible advice would nice thanks,1 got job guess excited ready kill soonan uncle mine recently helped get job works at know going go already tell going make want kill myself going get morning im morning person so going either use buy method use now actually great motivation hurry up going write short story book seem happening fulltime cant focus time actually want fuck it lets get with,1 quizzes depression no sex fucking the cheerleaders jackie nude elizabeth berkley nude photos home sex pic.twitter.com/u2D1OZAOmz,1 suggestions late night songs anyone go songs listen like am feels anything asking friend ofc,0 depressed attend group therapy bothers want lay bed sleep depressed attend therapy,1 http://twitpic.com/7g65r - lol i cut my hair in like february ahaha. i guess u cant rly tell? haha i dunno ,0 @LJsBaby mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm again lol ,0 theres actually good reason anyone liveevolutionarily purpose hard wired us find mate procreate weve moved far past society reason live relationships flippant things people use satisfy selfish needs purpose find love love lingers exists nothing worth living for,1 hey guys music genre might like called japanese city pop funk really like it give listen youd like,0 i used to have a really bad relationship with eating cuz i'd be too depressed to get up and esp in my last relationship i lost a lot of weight and i became really weak and now i'm mad that eating 3 meals a day didn't fix my depression lol wtf,1 i m wa waiting in the clinic waiting for my turn then a young woman who seemed happy came in and sat next to me a couple of minute later we started talking it wa le than a month since my first visit i thought that after a month or two i will be the same person a i wa before some event that i don t want to mention here mainly because it s unrelated to my main question in this post but a couple of minute later that thought seemed to be a wish because the mentioned lady said she had been visited by countless doctor and it is year that she is suffering from depression i wa frightened and wondering if someday i realize year have passed and i m also still trying to recover my mental health since that day i have seen some people out there who are under treatment for year or are treatment resistant are they special patient or it is true about everyone how do i know if i ll ever be cured and if so how long doe it take it scare me if i have to live with it for the rest of my life hence i m asking if any hope is there,1 bored filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 @alaina_ Lmao I know!! 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Good thing for them ,0 downloading some great music 4rm a great person!!! ,0 guess something litteraly anything take guess il respond corect answer,0 is not really feeling twitter at all,0 yall mfs never catch sayinf ever life kinda want baby noooooo want kids ever want kids saw rly cute tik tok today i want baby wahhh helpppp yes im tipsy mind ur business,0 halitosis is also associated with depression and symptom of obsessive compulsive disorder,1 i 0f already struggle with suicidal ideation i m just tired so tired this last six month ha been the toughest six month of my life i ve been with this guy 0m for five year he ha been a step up dad for my daughter 0f nearly from the beginning of our relationship very early had always plan to get married and have child together my feeling for him have always been so strong he always made me feel like he wa different like he understood my trauma and wanted to hold my hand through my healing not set mine and my daughter life on fire i moved to the other side of our country to be with him we have had ups and down i found out six month ago he ha a new girlfriend and she also a a you g child f long story short he s leaving me for her our lease is up at the end of april and my daughter and i have nowhere to go we will be homeless for a while until i can move back to my parent my ex husband m found out we won t have a stable place to live for a little while and is filing for custody of my daughter my ex husband is it ha been extremely abusive to me since i wa none of the abuse wa ever documented because i never wanted to call the police he always made me feel like i deserved it i ended up losing my well paying job due to my emotional state my daughter and i don t have family or friend here none that aren t deeply tied to my now ex bf i don t feel like i have deserved any of this shit im the go to person that always help everyone now i m going to have nothing and i have no one willing to show up for me and my kid we also have two dog i will have to rehome because he refuse to take them and i can t hardly care for myself and my daughter right now i m literally about to lose everything i ve been chewed up and spit out my whole life i suffered a lot of emotional and sexual abuse a a child too i don t genuinely want to die but i also don t want to feel anymore like i really don t know if i could survive losing my daughter that kid is my world please how do i make it stop i can t go out like this,1 really dont want grow up im right cant stop thinking future gonna life high school wanna go college every day grows near time live independently things im scared feel like wont make world many interest dont know like jobs careers dont know people pick career path stick it im rich cant nothing every day think every day comes inevitable im scared really scared,0 people say that god only test u not more than we can handle but it is a bunch of lie perhaps he doesn t exist at least in my heart no matter what i do i always fails at everything even trying to die seems hard enough i can t just live happily like it is wrong and worse i tried to kill myself so many time that no matter what i always unknowingly and unintentionally cheated death at this point i ve just had enough,1 the war trauma will take so long to heal god in heaven i pray for peace to come soon said he had fallen into a depression the two day curfew and all the explosion have got to me i had so many plan for this year and now they are gone,1 twitter woke me up,0 hello frjends discord server trying get new peopleeeee fun chat share memes play games together going on encourage join commitment guys girls welcome dm link d,0 need friend fucking bad sometimes ppl come ask alright say yeah im alrightbut really say im fine mean live fear to scared go girls class introduce most boys awful friends live honestly people dont like and understand mean wouldnt wanna friends weird kid back wich speaks every always wears dark hoodies people think need space dont makes burn inside even leave alone hurts people ones want friends people find perfect bullying make fun whenever annoying bc cares make jokes couldnt care less people dont know exist live world dont see dont give fuck people neither bc happy like unserious classic people would tell happy know yall gonna say in comments ask friends way scared mean know get rid socially awkward anxious cant maybe ill link post send doubt theyll read anyway mean probably people sub wont even would doubt change,0 online class got pandemic all started online classes stuff finished class homework like let one classmates know who ended asking girl yes reddit bruh moment actually really good time started talking more playing games etc comes real life interaction never really anything cuz mr virus loose im asking try take step higher,0 "on my way to marbella, spain see u guys later!",0 m anybody want chat ps im shy english sorry typing errors,0 no sheesh thing hi post seems related sheesh know word sheesh claimed user udinatje i bot action performed automatically please contact moderators subreddit questions concerns sheesh,0 made bit mess lifei keep typing paragraphs paragraphs deleting lets say want kill myself since im posting here ex wants move on want try again years feels obligation try again cant even blame him would never speak again mental illness hurts everyone around im fucking tired im going end selfdestructing im sorry anyone party it wake every morning knowing im living world together makes feel worth anymore ive tried everything positive thinking therapy im meds now smoking weed im even fucking seeing someone else nothing helps everything reminds him everything comes back him still go work mornings im shirking responsibilities mope im everything be nothing helps months feels like someones torn middle body something missing hate without him even everything happened badly hurt would still give fucking anything come back deem worthy take risk for im worth it,1 dont know keep posting herei know realistically doesnt anything good all cant stop guess im fantasizing world anyone actually cares isnt one ill tell that wake morning first thought mind drugs alcohol hundreds people hate would genuinely happy kill myself stalkers hate havent decent sleep years dont know im still here didnt know better id say im stupid hedonistic part loves drunk opioids end nothing wrote matters nothing ive ever done matters dont matter dont know im posting this,1 basically longer able play games anymore long story short optometrist said eyes broken bad prolonged screen time damage eyes badly said could blind way much screen time top ear doctor said ear drums damaged bad closeloud noise deafen me words im longer going play games swear god im kidding,0 art giving shit yeahso i seen lot people act insecure throughout teens midtwentiesthe simple noble art giving shit starts now overthink lets honest guys girls overthink wear notjust dont wear anything everything like fear public opinion public away anyone knows you us try downplay behaviour try fit indo want keep mind simple line know mei know themthe probability meeting guys next zeroso ill whatever hell want dothis simple line changed behaviour public awkwardness public indifference count improvement try fit ordinary lot people crazy things stand out theres need something drastic try stand better peersbe academics sportsand try think different methen act points think different others consider superior unpopular opinion hear you points unusual different normbe proud themyou may appear slightly arrogant buttreat everyone kindnessno joke cheesy line intended help everyone know small big ways you note opinion confident different journey everyone strong try proud yourself appeared little arrogant teachersbut days later classmates teachers began think part charmso guessit worked do keep mind tips online sites everything different dare appear arrogant well satans spawn,0 I have wireless again but I really don't want to do the essay and study that is needed. The holidays will be wicked though!,0 If you're someone who uses depression as an excuse to take advantage of people and treat them like shit then please stay far away from me,1 @bloggernott I am due in three weeks normally I would jump at chance to work on new project with new ppl... But pretty covered up now.,0 done itdone life point nothing live ive many ups downs downs time sure im even man enough end it dont im running away never well school feel insane amount study still fail parents dont except feel bully feeling bad myself feel depressed like didnt technology id dead friends piss time try annoy dont like talking them im male btw guess last ditch effort human advice doesnt involve tough gets better,1 tbh idki want die body literally hurts sad want hang short drop idk right way im sad im always sad,1 theres girl like and theres girl like im like percent sure likes back idk ask out im overthinking everything goes wrong says no thinks im gay doesnt actually likes me dates pitty peer pressure need advice ask someone please help me,0 "my arms, legs, thighs, ankles, feet, and legs are sore from yesterday and today. ''( but that's the whole point. ",0 nomadicmatt mine is 0 how do you get it up,0 idki dont know want live think lot lot cant cant leave brother want,1 @samantharmora i try to be. thanks sam ,0 missed brent at praise band no fun to not have the your lead guitarist lt pout gt,0 think life thing anymorei never thought id writing post here always thought strong always thought wouldnt get this everythings changed guess anxiety bad dont think want live anyone anything could possibly worry about worry about anxiety bad always gives phantom pains convince im heart attack stroke shit im years old shouldnt living like this like girls carefree anxiety lot better awhile taken turn worse dont wanna live anymore friends get mad makes feel shitty put parents much shit ive little mini mental breakdowns barely relationship dad love mom much mom worry much ive treated shitty past makes feel like absolute shit hate always worry her know would better dead gone didnt exist wouldnt causing pain kids live street killed know scared want feel like think need commit redflag hate feel way hate wanna free pain me dont wanna feel way dont wanna feel anymore wanna gone wanna free pain im crippled im drowning,1 sad romance untellable director decides break narration offer points view characters so lot flashbacks reshooting scene but would extraordinary moment cinema put fragments order see result br br and would worth it me one best french movie ever made br br it everything br br cast first steps monica bellucci vincent cassel presence voices even hardofhearing symbolic fallen love moviebr br directing camera bright alive plays sets mysterious long closeup la david lynchbr br cinematography light beautiful gold rust like lovebr br a neverseen paris paris outoftime accurately composite lot districts huge search here look like gotham city modern old time br br music big orchestra perfect tune frames song charles aznavour made discover great singer br br ah story said love story rather tragic saying love nothing make people happy guaranteed sweet ending great message often told love passion derivative latin pain suffer lot love endless waiting lack courage indecision br br and ease yourself fate destiny god devil stab back arrive soon late all love means world billions lot things happen much stories written so whats love br br personally lived moments like this car dear one mobile rings know special friend kisses goodbye and you even always together so want go car leave together hear sweet cruel words cant amazing hard rain started br br i found movie depicts moments tragedy one else,0 i m not valued in my work at school at home i have never been valued to my friend while one of my closest friend thanks one of my other friend while i feel worthless nobody remembers my birthday no one care about my feeling in real life and i m always the one organizing almost every meet up if i were dead people would mourn for a day and forget about me because i dont matter if i did matter people would hire me more hang out with me and make an effort to be my friend im done with this crap i might do it tonight or tomorrow because this is too much for me i guess i m just god laughing stock,1 im losingim ive alone life cant stand living like this hope me want kill th birthday,1 @offishgreenbean You don't have a psychological condition or anxiety disorder or depression?,1 almost instant die born again mom taking away fact were gone want talk time eat drink yourself tricking that younnenver existed know did cant change did please remind stop looking like hate me,0 people care guess thats problemi hate family friends actually care me hate people tell much love me eventually end taking life im going hurt them theyre reason havent offed yet think selfish make feel guilty ending life im constant pain id rather one love me itd easier way im trying push people life stick around dont get why shit hard wish time id die freak accident someone kill please,1 wife emotional physical affair i may never know trying rebuild keep screwing upi much pain right now spent much time er could check got dark place tonight want want alone scares shit me,1 "is dropping his car off for some work, then working from home . . . at least it's supposed to be nice, today ",0 want get electric sex stimulation thing confusing idk shit works seems scary idk ive looking something extra cuz masturbating normally getting boring vibrating things loud,0 im dying to wish merry christmas,0 i cant do this i just cant anymore i wan na be happy again im dealing with lot rn ever since i watched some verg graphic gore smoked weed had dpdr researched solipsism it all too much for me i wan na be happy again i just cant see the world the same anymore but i want to please someone help ive had this kind of depression for year it come and go i hadnt had any kind of major depression tho for a while this doesnt feel like itll go away i rly need to know and make sure itll go away because i just cant especially at night thats when it get rly bad i just don t know what to do this doesn t feel like it ll ever go away please please help im desperate,1 helplhey idk ehy asking help longer run responsibilities need help please hellp cannot anymkre need hep much feel like im drowning nooone see me im done fighting want die hep wantt die idk waht anymore responsibilities theyre much help,1 murder new york one better chan mysteries ive seen first timebr br in one charlie chan visiting new york attend police convention time people involved aircraft plants murdered decides help investigation along number son murders turn results sabotage aircraft plants chan helps identify murdererbr br charlie chan played well sidney toler rest cast includes sen yung number son marjorie weaverbr br i rather liked mystery worth like sort thingbr br rating half stars ,0 just had a tonne of sad news today,0 sidewalk ends deserves better known film directed otto preminger man gave world laura time hes got costars dana andrews gene tierney must said tierney underused amounts supporting role spotlight goes andrewsbr br he plays tough hardened cop used dealing bunch thugs vigorous way one night accidentally kills man process arresting him suspicion falls cab driver tom tully goes along investigation murder starts feel guilt hes love cabbies daughter gene tierney tierney way looks little elegant girl playing seem fit squalid background elements storybr br the story takes grim turn investigation goes deeper discovered murdered man silver plate head service war hero end turns morality tale andrews developing conscience crimebr br its fascinating film noir capable performances strong supporting cast good entry field noir forcefully directed preminger nicely played andrews tierney despite slight miscasting character,0 brought phenix city child recognize many local people movie me like trip memory lane see the phenix city story again matter fact granduncle one first scenes uncle drews one hawaiian shirt scoots chair get better look singerstripperbr br unless there like mr page have possibly understand story tells reviewer new york calls john patterson racist likely without ever encounter mr patterson father point bringing mr pattersons employment now nothing film supposedly reviewing world sit back judge either film probably gone south bronx experience people simply attempting feel morally superior folks portrayed movie accounts time mr pattersons basically good decent men families respectable people people lived phenix citybr br by way hard live outside south believe good decent people even small towns alabama assume everyone living small southern town racist parents lived yet tolerate household others tolerate either myth everyone south racist lives willful ignorance othersbr br the movie simple direct whole story hollywood added certain sensationalism film made parts absolutely target parts bordered fairy tales source anyone uses decide folks small southern towns are need get grip understand us movie,0 mizzzidc nah that depression go finish you,1 one reason dont kill myselfmy daughter reason dont kill myself ive hard shit parents abusive mom drug addicted narcissist dad drug addicted pedophile feel like worthless human being postabuse struggles pain feel inescapable ive intensive therapy years relief pain never really goes away im tired living way want let gobut daughter shes left would one cant her reason living enough keep holding on im long haul wanted vent hope understand,1 watching football again ,0 might have to go to hospital on my foot for an x ray have to wait for the doctor to call me back to confirm i hate hospital,0 rewards resistensehi reddit anon know postting reaaly perhaps chance hear speak perhaps open forum categorise thoughts perhaps because enough ten years ago gave life crossed lne despair depression keep beyond line fatigue member family suisidal knowledge still are speak it unable now supported years dropped school work finnancially keep afloat cooked cleaned managed lives drunk got depressed committed mental institution failed attempt still remember smell building glazed eyes patients medicated there woman began conversation saying kill husband haunting knowledge first heard phrase never say goodbye forever say see later lips three years supported person love them world weak stop drinking could take away vice else would worked depression grew stronger soldiered on eventually got much another failed attempt already taken pills got home always blamed dealing drunk supported ways never well enough argued tired empty nothing left give yelled them told would benefit giving it back down called bluff told them pure perfect opportunity exit moment ready ready given everything atlas struggle would finally fight resist anymore let reality wash consume me to day feeling surrender one best emotions remember ready backed agreed saw attitude done moment selflessness family member backed down sat night pills still system die years pass move on move on night lives memory head times wonder happened all would know not time kept pushing me struggle struggle came conquered them caring family member developed ability weather storms push through get through keep head down survive endure god struggle memory surrender haunts me family now friends people need me weather endure found best way cope life disassociate it take board longer know handle compliments years training suicidal dependant made terrified failure live every expectation make things worse cause episode need everything everyone make life struggle keep heaping challenges taking responsibility breaking myself never feel satisfaction thats worst part even feel relief anymore ive accomplished something press on become life add more feel pressure never release never pride failure im tired know ask help cannot expect anyone understand try hard explain words come right you feel pride take credit speak take rug away you much you know happens push yourself feel worthless happens disassociate stop thinking myself stop applying self anything way one bother me one make feel worse trying rescue me feel sad really feel happy go flow think others feel time live make happy least presence worthwhile fake it fake remember honest people try get kneejerk push away keep trying push past that offer content without emotion cannot apply story pleas sit rotting back brain one dragged void one watch dead inside one offer pity shame locked like was,1 agtb a text post wknds b image post turn fucking polls moderators,0 told years old going kill kill caretaker loses responsibility cannot get punishment deathi think possible got years liv now years,1 spongebob god spongebobs combat capabilities raw power seemingly immeasurable unbelievably powerful spongebob ability absorb reflect deflect physical damage also ability sever limbs instantaneously regenerate cells possesses ability change configuration body could expand body significantly become microscopictheres scene spongebob shown sleeping inside sun unfazed core temperature sun million celsius means spongebob least x stronger tungsten melting point celsius spongebob also shown unravel string universe itself current evidence spongebob made foreign material compatible able edit structure conceivable element whole universe seemingly invincible able withstand sun take damage shows instantaneous regeneration shape shifting ability spongebob tested however instantaneous regeneration could prove create enough mass cover universe also referenced spongebob connections dimensions spongebob even brought two dimensional three dimensional realm godly powers put simply spongebob immeasurable power reconfigure suffocate universe wanted seemingly invincible essentially deity regeneration tested theory could regenerate cell mass faster expansion universe true power yet tested however potential power seemingly unlimited believe spongebob actually god bikini bottom seems created bikini bottom recreational uses reincarnated previous life patiently waiting attain full power crush world spongebob genuinely monster absorbing life energy universe preparing crush universe taken form sponge concealing true identity prevent fighting full power surprised spongebob destroys entire multiverse recovers enough energy reset reality expanding sponginess creating hypernova large enough collapse reality itself,0 this dont thinkdont think much this it find quite place youll get disturbed sit lay close eyes imagine small river flows river leaves put every mean every thought leave let flow river dont make river go faster slower observe thought flows river get distracted thought okay come back river again put thought leave let flow least mins,1 yinkapost man fell into depression y all should relax,1 actually feel alright thats enoughwell past year going quite well outside me ive started leaving house pretty much daily social interaction struggling ofc seeing therapist organising general stabilization people telling you good way etc etc butam i im years old problems coming week reflection thing like people like suure im going functioning member society like what years old know even find something hour time without literally thinking dying worst part is im hoping get bad hole actually get try know again fuck dude back dark times around years ago felt like shit im going honest here awful still bad today even dont want run infront train time fucking scarred too stubidly time like uuh duuh ill neever forget shitty life this got something feel bad everytime look arm im kind getting mad too right im weak collected paranoid say alert anyone want do dont know need rant ill write comes head alright dont goal hear people say memaybe rehab good beacuse that im like yeah hell yeah doctor knows hes talking about lets that ofc wanted dont want anything sit home nothing oh woops thats enjoyable too would guessed maybe want expect do find fulfilling break down seek help repeat looking spend money find something do feeling bad spending low amount have atleast im living home still soon isnt case anymore too want travel guess stupid reasons yeee guessed its cant let anyone think im trying hurt eh might permanent repercussions wouldnt say im risk right now first and only attempt showed could done it without feeling attatched it lying grass night waiting like so whats next stupid thought like now want hahaha felt like king world called friend told did taking meds back theni trying hurt person feel sick right still like fuck would call someone basically telling im going pass hour so try waste already low battery life couldnt call help suprise called police followed worst cant remeber days life spazzing chained bed hospital crying screaming able control movement even moment couldnt tell docs didnt regret one bit would try time comes feel like dont fit feels like im wrong universe whew could write much thats now peace stay strong ill maybe another mins bed,1 voice making suicidali bullied high school every single day problem cant fix voice sounds like blocked nose talk pretty much stopped talking made depressed fat sevre anxiety depression made fail many exams school made gain weight try calling phone voice sounds shit always mumbling talk thousands things mind want say cant physically say it finished high school last thursday im pretty much alone wellive alone single whole life last weeks seem like alone trying kill me tried call gp yesterday last second anxiety attack quickly ended call dads hospital weeks so mum go every single day everything feels overwhelming know hell im supposed do guys hear next week guess ill gone,1 like adult comedy cartoons like south park nearly similar format small adventures three teenage girls bromwell high keisha natella latrina given exploding sweets behaved like bitches think keisha good leader also small stories going teachers school theres idiotic principal mr bip nervous maths teacher many others cast also fantastic lenny henrys gina yashere eastenders chrissie watts tracyann oberman smack ponys doon mackichan dead ringers mark perry blunders nina conti know came canada good good,0 thoughts while extremely long while always planned future suicides either car crash involved driving highway alone darkness one see crash going mph apply gun permitlicense use buy handgun shoot myself hurt people loved regret much even forgave me broken many promises let many people down grudges everyday cannot seem forgive anything hope something happens me want die miserable want end badly,1 sirtagcr the depression you get from losing five battle continuously,1 update stupid worthless life grandpa died what week maybe days more way begin specially since spend holidays watching agonize know what ive never felt like monster talked before long story short many good things enough everyone forgot bad questionable things borderline abuse typing hurts cause im asshole talking ill de dead cry cry even tried back refular life less day feel guilty bad guy cry hate it really emotionless mourned grandmother like normal person would mourn worry day sleep waking mother whailing day im tired adult act like mature two worries me getting bad obsessed him treat mother like man gave much trauma acting like better saint even death still control acting like im bad guy ive heard talking im senseless im brat hurt me does told im monster help he father was despite messed stuff raised deadbeat mess got pregnant im constantly reminded much bad person im finally showing emotion im sudden brat im tired acting like adult im cant remember day teenage years acted like regular teen without adults tell im spoiled one literally mature one trying logical possible less burde everyone ive pushed health behind nobody got annoyed needing help anything hoped two people could chance ask help yet instead im one avoiding mom something stupid,0 cant help sorry vent makes sense im ruminatingi cant help myself cant convince want get better just always hopeless nothings going get better living never me know people enjoy it something wired wrong birth develop properly now like this fixed inflexible maladaptive way perceivereact world personality disorders pretty bad prognosis avoidant personality disorder least tends life ive read asked psychiatrist pds passing said actually relatively treatable half get better w treatment something along lines though talking bpd nice hear guess but ha really help hearing way offhanded way psychiatristsnurses talk patients pd behind backs mention multiple lectures weve theyve pretty pessimistic it sat there kept mouth shut thinking well yeah guess knew fucked even this hate it cant kill myself keep telling to logical thing do end it end it cant it humans die easy overdoses especially think im neurotic actually formulate plan method foolproof course main issue know theres lot hope technically all bad could lot worse could still enjoy shit cant talk it comes it cant talk trying feel better either every moment im dead want be me coward shirks away idea im brink really something,1 going anything need find release talking otherwise releases damaging irreversible please redirect go somewhere elsefirst all im sorry posting here feel like much wrong need something anything im desperate probably cptsd years psychological mild physical abuse father product that psychological abuse traumatised unwell mum short story finished uni years study mum fled dad got free emergency counselling free divorce womens refuge also got listed case needed emergency accommodation mum tried kill several times also fell lot shitty relationships including another abusive one time developed bulimia nearly died mix that depression trying process trauma etc mum also nearly declared bankruptcy sell family house that family years pets rehomed havent seen since including dog baby girl one pets died couldnt afford vet bills even neighbourhood raised money us tried kill self times never able take one step one best friends tried kill self last year uni mum blamed obsessed things gain possibly sexually assaulted first year good friend went lot therapy free private free therapy ran out private therapy became budget im tired guys cant face conflict criticism aggression without feeling like ive gone back steps want end dont know get end im sorry im tired please excuse grammatical spelling errors dont want reread dramatic woeful tale find errors,1 ive hit new low im playing lol willingly thats new,0 gonna get a tan. i am so white ,0 turned away betterhelp it two weeks everything shut last year pretty bad place found open path every time hear ad bh roll eyes wonder still aroundthey forprofit organization make myear open path nonprofit charges one time fee lifelong memberi venmo therapist money goes directly pocket glad stuck continued look help rejected access online therapy platform nearly threw edgei apologize breaks rules way tell guys case one person benefits this love guys hope good day today feel like said,1 saidsabristi mhs paris oui mais le gen concern s pour mhs ont litt ralement t d truits bcp d enfants en d pression de parent de enseignants tout le monde n a pa la m me force ce personnes ont subi une preuve terrible et aucune compassion de leurs semblables il faut creuser plus,1 get allno one cares me one wants life friends families time see me ex want speak all absolutely hates me keep losing family family involve anything ive depressed least decade now im third life ive depressed everyone keep telling gets better meds helped stabilize horrible meltdowns anymore anyone life im ghost people tell kill myself none care invite anywhere hate me cruel knew much suffering inbmy head would understand need this ill better months thoughts come backbit go away cant family like would want raise family me would anyone ever love me im garbage piece shit wish pulled trigger chance would never worry again im here alone one know one really cares want fucking world,1 this past year ha been my get out of hand year i normally handle my depression well i know what trigger low point i know how to get myself out of my funk i know how to manage it but this year oh this year ha beat the ever loving shit out of my mental health i had a baby and got ppd really bad i have ptsd from being in a horrible accident with my best friend and having him literally die while i wa trying my hardest to stop the bleeding and the anniversary of his death is coming up on the st the only person i ever would talk about it with wa our friend sarah who wa dating his brother and she really took me in and helped me the week following his death i had started drinking heavily and just being wreck le and not caring if anything happened to me she wa the biggest ball of sunshine and positive person i had ever met and she killed herself last month i didn t even know she wa depressed so my mind is a wreck right now she wa my positive person my rock and she couldn t handle her sadness and took her own life and i feel even more horrible because how selfish wa it of me to not see that she wasn t okay i have cried every day for two week i am angry and hostile and don t want to be around anyone i don t even want to me around my own kid my mom temporarily moved in for the next couple of week because of how bad i wa getting my neighbor are even texting me asking if i m okay and i have hit the point where i don t even try faking it i just say no no i m not okay,1 think primary school realize hated it like every single memory something either horrible embarrassing makes regret action ever did swear reason cant make friends talk people teachers trying embarrass everyone every moment stupid shit said reason,0 feel like ive done much damage world peoplei really actively try good person amend ways help people make things right time think im past point type redemption ampxb reflecting past realize multiple instances someway abusive drunk creep going consent best way allowing emotions cloud judgement relationships end asshole every person ive felt like ive wronged ive reached theyve seemed forgiving or know talking about cant shake deserve lying everyone everyone love everyone loves me ampxb ive trying get therapisthelp town hard get one feel like im end rope world would better without,1 @RawrStar well I won the 50 dollar 6 handed tourney yesterday so it's all good. ,0 used confident cheerful person today become awkward person cannot even put sensible sentence together whine cry brood cannot sleep cry sleep alone wake up love someone close year supposed relationship feels empty like one wants calls relationship never troubles sickness even share happiness achievements moved cities fir person regret giving could capacity get nothing return even normal conversation rarely meets me currently feel negative broken devastated know happen me feel discarded used abused emotionally always angry,1 made two attempts last week long backstorysighhere goes guess long fuck it backstory girlfriend dating years living together years back november girlfriend event florida something like hours came back event started messaging one guys met event facebook christmas eve called talked phone hours i parents house afterwards messaged feeling confused feelings man met time knew almost exclusively facebook messages february saw messages first time i knew talked trusted enough never question it saw said things like i love you such never responded advances ignored them told made feel uncomfortable want talking anymore told cant control friends whoever wants acknowledged force stop talking made uncomfortable hurt knowing would keep talking him also start notice distant getting angry often fast forward june event together texted i know see able control something regret regret regret it i found message recently also notice grown distant begin seriously worry around time july says event tennessee keeps changing story kind event chalk bad memory end july comes around drive airport event really text whole time people event dont allow use phone it underground i signed nda well know looking location findfriends puzzle solving guys house entire time basically lied set day vacation cheat me gets back trip notice extremely distant basically always phone sits side couch pushes away try show affection week cant contain anymore finally grab phone sleeps look it see telling due loves even sending lewd photos talking what if abortions such destroyed confront first lies says anything yet admits kissing him finally admits sex lies says event got hotel remember later found event house whole time notice plans see another city event mid august tell goes done etc says want lose going tell friends also notice plans staying hotel event tell get room tells go event comes packs bags goes days event give ask least stop talking crushed daily finish lease together ended october little month agrees stop talking month next fucking morning wake closing bedroom door we central ac close bedroom door gets hot there get open door ask closed find playing ps him even hours agreed stop talking lived last month together even wait went work lost it completely broke me tried go bathroom kill tried stop me sat bed tried kill stop me knife cut deep enough gave collapsed tears crying went bathroom wash face police knocked door heard yell come slowly hands air cops guns drawn grabbed put cuffs questioned us separate rooms denied wanted kill myself police told minutes pack bag leave ever came back would arrested one pays billsrent lease care days good friend mine talked gf convinced let come back house stay i nowhere else city go things okay little bit beginning september event city went stay at friends hotel planned days go event together try get along better final month turns came town stayed sex block house forgave finally agreed and appeared to stop talking days days nice soon blatantly talking again moved moms house another city got place still talk avoids actually seeing person know dump move cant gave time earth love damn much cant get head matter hard try drugs alcohol friends nothing gets head always mind even dream her prison cant escape tried hang week ago knot hold feel throat hurts like hell close even rope fell blacked out tried last night xanax alcohol failed everything planned future ruined continues lie everyday we still text came saw last weekend needed place stay event refuses see anymore keep asking honest actually understand continues lie lie friends left another country city schoolwork nobody left tried hang old work friend ditched me nobody left anymore meant world gone know love anymore need move cant see future without her lonely sad feel hopeless know purpose life anymore gave life meaning grow old her family her accomplish dreams together best position life new well paying job graduated college sad ever been people keep telling move find someone new never good making friends let alone meeting women casual things nothing serious content forever alone know find anyone else weird ugly asshole just hope tldr girlfriend years cheated left know turn feel hopeless worthless want die,1 worth anymoreshe never asks whats wrong anymore guess cause want hear it knows always care want there calls best friend think knows am know her third run antideppresants worst month life still going im fucking depressed cant even bring anything even think energy kill mmyself point living me transgender completely un passing one believes wants support me friends parents give two shits everyones forgotten fact suffer every day life think im better now im young everyone says everything left life know timeline ends here know one care glad glad to,1 lost power dont usually lose power anything tonight lost power due thunderstorm guess im gonna sit using last phone battery browse reddit wish luck gamers,0 wish scared dying could end painjust saying theres nothing done,1 finds it interesting that a Vespa counts as a motorcycle in Maryland and Florida AWESOME!!!!,0 similarly if you re stuck in the rut of depression addiction or obsession your brain will welcome the opportunity to restore some plasticity to it unhealthily rigid behavioural and cognitive model,1 The freaking Circus was awesome! Dude I loved it.,0 movie may seemed like much people everything look comedy fall funny moments accompanied moment two seriously moving scenes great actors pretty much everything good movie supposed like despite david spade playing usual snobby character made role unusual performance think ever exceeded hit screen joe dirt regardless whether people chris farley fans saw film came friends still talk it years later movie finally told chris farley real deal best comedian seen life words could clumsy clever funny serious crazy sober moving depressing time words message counts one true great actors time one true great comedys time along good acting good story hilarious moments serious scenes times brought tears movie stands atop hordes movie marked beginning brief reign top comedy world late great chris farley actor since captured interests movie since actor since put much movies movie worth time taken time see next time rent movie,0 bruh i just spoke to my advisor and i have Depression,1 enough destiny bs hurt enough peoplei regularly failing get university two years now absolutely hate everytime give party interference control entire work gets splashed away till got university rejections visa denial got girlfriend looked mdd also cheated back life not girlfriend lover supports lot cant stop feeling paranoid jealous end hurting her spent lot parents money look disappointed now already sitting clonazepam tablets ready pocket pop get knocked all big failure loser even guts end life,1 mizzzidc im sorry to say that you are one useless child any parent would wish to have such a desrespectiful child u spoke with your mother and u desrespected her enough privately why the need of posting on social medium we have people who suffer with depression stop hiding behind it,1 said this ive hearing talk simp yeah im simp im simply slamming girl big old horse meat ding dong guess said,0 i spent my 0 s in a real mess i let anxiety get the better of me and quit a job outright with nothing to go to i developed agoraphobia and lied to family and friend that i wa still working i got really sick and couldn t go to interview because i didn t know how i would explain an month gap luckily i got a volunteering job which led to full time employment which i ve been in for year the only problem is the pay is terrible and the hour are incredibly long after year of deliberating i recently decided to apply for another job i got an interview but they told me that they wanted to discus my gap i panicked and pulled out of the interview i didn t want to humiliate myself in front of stranger that i had a break down and can t handle pressure i can t see myself lying about what i wa up to that year without my nervousness giving me away i just couldn t do it it suck because i really wanted to work for that organisation but i just chickened out i just feel like crap right now i guess i just needed to offload thanks for reading,1 going medsi feel exactly taking every day three months before still wake middle night sobbing panicking wakes boyfriend gets angry works early morning think ive wanted die much today since last time oded therapist officially dodging weeks ive gotten drunk andor high every night last two weeks come shit again even get hungover anymore im numbing point weeks ago mom told shed rather dead failure im never going good enough her boyfriend told today hes going town th th visit friend birthday th think im going commit birthday like originally planned months ago friends mom told hardest days sisters birth date death date itll easier brothers day itll birthday present guess im supposed work morning think ill call im fucking miserable cant move bed right now,1 anyone else weird eye thing literally person silhouette passes corner eye theres nothing there probably get checked,0 point life failed cog capitalist machinethis another story another loser useful skills interests friends ambition know all read many times point life one look forward nothing else working miserable jobs pay food shelter point life one look forward nothing fired bow scrape beg find another one one ends street point one look forward nothing else failing health death old age death nuclear war reason alive big coward afraid kill myself afraid pain afraid failing and laugh now afraid hell atheist cannot free fear wrong hell satan real,1 dont know theres nothingfuck im alone one ever love me support swear god one fucking person tells ill find someone im going implode one knows like alone really everyone says ill find someone never single weeks decide want get pool again ive single entire life im even allowed pool everyone goes friends hell dont even friends anymore family hates me hate christmas everyone someone loves them friendsfamily so every year despite best efforts get shooed away laughed off etc cant blame it still takes tole ive got nothing else give im gas legs broken ive got nothing live for im lucky wont wake up wont even know name,1 ask random shit also prefer mnms skittles know someone ask,0 people like deserve helli want good kid hard connect people past ive prescribed anonymous to knowledge medication since year olds suicidal opinion hate people passion yet crave approval think about im angry world done me sometimes thrash people seem nothing live for could go state highandmighty would allow end life far worked makes laugh could survive prison thriving hurting others may deserve it think im badass get wrong really care problem self aware psychopath puts incredible strain upon life possibly horrible coworkers wich regret everytime clock work feel ashamed every time try myself around brother friends hard connect people want connect people emotionally yet comes social situation seems social norm hate passion want kill badly know would destroy family hand keep living possible may destroy lives process sometimes cannot sleep unless think way could take someones life get away it like heroin dealer destroys lives either way maybe ill point good reason stuff like ongoing bit insiomiac years figured change thoughts resenting something simple taking lives scumbags selfaware lunacy still hard though lunatic ice pick aroused still want hurt anyone want know thing help people like me sick depraved person yet aware disgusted fact know room people like world want hurt anyone may feel bit better cannot become next jeffrey daumier hope please tell me update thank kind words really means lot would take time help random kid internet sorry took long update help dad take crap dump today subreddit really amazing you needed someone therapist confide in im going work using relationship sort serious issues im still embarrassed about felt great get things chest cant thank enough ,1 anybody else problem drinking enough water cuz know dont drink enough water still dont drink water think buy water bottle man feel like killing,0 ive thought long hard life going see point carrying oni got one talk this either care much drop since ive fairly good hiding feel infront others feel tolerated never part someones crowd last time told itll get better ive become self aware self hating lonely feel cant blame anyone myself matter try im never taken seriously look like stupid careless weirdo fucking time got much live another years work reasons live theyre going run soon honest want live happens,1 huge problem self sabotage cannot enjoy life issues mind time forefront background distract life using phone television every time feel like life going good get redflag going come crashing deserve happiness work customer service really good putting fake smile playing part really happy pleasant person cannot keep people life love feel like huge burden anyone attached to fuck myslef,1 really know say boyfriend going work hours yet confidence ability keep safe really lacking want bother hes working hard support us alone unsure keep safe,1 overall delightful lighthearted romantic musical comedy suppose small case could made movie long im sure would cut out singing kelly sinatra do no fabulous dancing kelly does no time movie takes develop story line develop relationships characters that seems common complaint many times recent movies develop charactersbr br some comment iturbi bring much movie gives us chance see hear great talent s actor important part movie basic plot get grayson audition him br br originally katherine grayson wanted opera star louis b mayer brought mgm screen test included aria audition movie shot mgm brass nodding smiling imagine like made real screen test years beforebr br this movie full life hard hit highlights great use made color lighting throughout movie see frank sinatra became star did nice counterpoint movie sinatra a ladies man even then played role wanting find date leave feel good seeing movie ,0 tired man actually tired many fking activities english teacher given total activities drawn coloured yea english subject one fking landscape shit drawing write script play submitted tomorrow 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boy weve recently become good friends ive noticed statuses facebook instant messenger always sad depressed end story song quotes ive brought him tell it wanted suggestions guys song like sad cheers up relaxing song makes feel like everything alright also im sure keep prodding answers want annoy want know talk me so song friendship suggestions thanks edit know ended year relationship may could it,1 ah yes st century black people allowed make racist jokes women sexist jokes,0 made sub ridkpogthighchurch join bubs,0 Cash in on your twitters http://linkbee.com/SpareMoney #jobs Normandy,0 often see peole tell depressed people open people trust reach help loved ones exactly that tell parents suffering depression years hiding them even know believe respond positively get mad depressions despite things provided food shelter someone pls tell open people depression,1 nnn nss sss november that saw exes story put calm boys simp september thought kinda neat coming simp september spread word please 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U16s free.,1 @Kibler Me too. My only real plans involve cutting grass. What are your plans? My sis will come in a week or 2. Rainbow parade...fun!,0 comment favorite song ill try guess mbti it now,0 twitringmachine anamardoll i mean with her portrayal of bipolar her view on depression amp victim of suicide autism really wasn t that far out it s like an ableism trifecta autism is weird amp ruin life personality disorder are abusive depression is fake amp attention seeking,1 sure anymorei brothers wedding coming look forward to that yeah know give up hate planet live on hate people people self centered cruel ive even guilty times hate too im seeing shrink next month maybe help know th time ive entered therapy since first work,1 I wish I had the kind of depression where I stopped eating so I could have my summer body ready in time.,1 convince dad let buy anime figures two hatsune miku figures want amazon price total says expensive afford them im sure problem insane collection would first figures,0 @phlooxx c'mooon then!! situ yg cibuk berath ciihh...hehe :p bener yaaaa oneday!?! n ohya gudlak w/ ur final exam ya cimod! c u darl.. ,0 feel like theres point living alli hate this hate much feel like one day might explode nothing ever right good games im good useful others im good good daughter sister partner i even friends figure im best either im sore loser often feel jealous others doare better me hell im even good languages study thats want eventually living im bad even trying kill have bunch failed attempts belt im huge disappointment living like exhausting want out like right now feel tempted pop pills finally sleep peace,1 person hates meim m everyone says im fine everyone thinks im ok friends seem person hates cant stop hating think creepy monster know im really cant help think true like im fighting want stop,1 oh wtf house not cool,0 some people are so incredibly good at faking confidence and man it s hard to believe how charismatic and shit people who are anxious or depressed can be,1 personally watched see footage s s fascinating learn drug movement essentially started became pop culture eventual uncompromising force life interviews classic rock stars titillating humorous feel like secret nodding head timebecause feels good familiar loved it segments spresent day highly recommend aspects including rock music hipper movement politics good ol history check marked box saying contains spoiler idea might consider spoiler regards since discussed whats segments wanted safe,0 @holton29 I know Now fix my iphone lol,0 approaching girl need advice okay theres girl were btw went class elementary school something like best friends often talked good friendsnow were starting high school different schools that combined covid could affect friendship however year ago started fell something unusual her suddenly havent recognized friend something more mean super pretty wasnt crucial thing personality little bit important thats think started feel mind im pretty shy comes dating fact never dated anyone strange me think best thing strengthen friendship call friend date smth similar take time best approach imo different suggestion please tell me so question is call date personally as said see often via message compose date question date everything helpful never faced it,0 depression lori bata oje lo ye ara e wo http t co egkmkkazb,1 surprisingly good movie quite good jokes thru whole movie negative thing scenes go extremes show stupid two main characters are get it stupid blondes get it br br the plot barely dodges called corny boobies always plus altho movie strange reason play card much even tho plot line introduces two black haired women act evil counter part two blondesbr br so all good movie watch almost gave lets get crazy,0 @gemmab45 I'm watching Mamma Mia.. have you seen it? Love it! It's so funny! Hmmm but I think the rest of the movie will have to wait,0 please read hi im year old boy netherlands autism huge opsession electronic devices loved one gotta nintendo switch thing is one around shares interest would like someone talk understands me thanks reading little story great day stay safe yall,0 hi ive never made post before dont know worth it sorry know long hi year old girl context guess everything pointless everything hurts miss ex person ever connect me people care me cant talk them verge redflag would make feel worse close anyone cripplingly lonely cant even write order makes sense word vomit really alot potential wasting life away anything everything seems overwhelming overall pointless hobbies interests overweight causes conventionally unattractive relationships picture find someone else doesnt care appearances rare work dont food usually thing makes feel good dont even know anymore cant even hold interest others long enough make friends makes asshole want deep connection again every time feel happy little bit next time fall worse tell people day long one day get better believe it me change fix fucking life put effort form relationships dont think ever will someone please help me want live,1 feel like im youngest person everyone like im lol,0 love every single one youhey guys want say love you cant love yourself know love you even insufficiencies past misdeeds please dont hurt anymore deserve best god bless,1 "Reminiscing those past months. I can't imagine kung pano ko nalabanan yung anxiety/depression ko, I can't imagine that i survived. God is always on your side no matter what ",1 dear bi tri quadrilingual people languages intentional misspelling writing like example english intentionally type yes yah ye nah gonna lie ngl honest tbh even literally sometimes type hmmm someone were thinking or least thats do way examples know them languages least these,0 "Let's get a little inspirational and deep here I 've gone to therapy for this entire year, got diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety, and finally I don't have to go to therapy anymore, but put aside my problems HERE I AM LIVING AND THRIVING. Talk to someone, it helps.",1 cant like bpd anymoremy mind everything nothing hurt someone else nothing care cant fucking control feel swear allowed exist anymore im letting go,1 The #Whistling Cure ,1 cant take anymoreim autistic that mom thinks cant succeed world unfortunately shes right im currently year community college feel like last and only month left classes hit summer vacation one classes im involves making art wire paper fabric etc feel like ive basically failed class return given dreams becoming professional critic internet personality mom isnt even biological mom adopted case egg sperm donor put moms womb came prematurely mom likes call pound premie think better known pound deathbed friends online care extent usually stops shit like ill thoughts talk someone trust call insert hotline number none really helped me contacted hotline past ended nothing help me ive also talked psychologist months last contact august hasnt helped either wish friends online knew much situation im trying get better life problem mom become restrictive regarding cant do making feel like shes darkness light save grasp run away before ended contacting mom ran money put bank account could return home did biggest mistake ever made since then threatened fire job a child care center home kick house garnish money bank account unsuccessful shes sorry it shes acting like almost months now ive felt like ive pushed breaking point yeah basically nobody know irl online cares me mom like demon saps creativity me wish never existed wish people actually cared me wish born biological mom i wish better life youll excuse me im going cry breathing shallow maybe something car,1 i ve got such a lot at the moment doubt i m going to get chance to book time off with the family this easter hol s,0 i:heart:talpa jocotes ,0 minecraft going scary theyre probably going add new cave noises going scary,0 why can t airfare go down or why do i have to live in texas i don t know if i ll be able to make it to iowa,0 much people get shoes size bigger mean bigger shoes normal means toe room make toes suffer grown,0 dear future wifehey right now feeling lonely am happy arms another man hope latter im sorry stay you im sorry go ever even meeting you im really sure wouldve looked like sounded like felt like ok know wouldve loved till last breath will last breath car doubt redflag exhaust works pistol still maybe fate wanted us together fate gave miserable lonely crippling sad life know wouldve done anything see smile make happy truly hope guy thats fate im gone love like shouldve hope god loves unconditionally forever happiness matters me make god make life happiest be im willing put pistol lords head need be want happy be im sorry darling hope happy without me,1 saw movie jane austen addicted always feeling doubtful cinematographic rendering complexity novels well transposition simply accurate intelligent delicate careful tactful respectful intense word perfectbr br emma one austens delightful funny novels thanks overall irony pervading situations characters movie respected subtle irony disregarding comic element miss bates all engaged novel movie renders clearly deep knowledge human life shown english novelist modern look women men relation handled astounding think woman novelist th century lived almost secluded life could grasp depth truth life did still fascinates me feel modernity throughout movie replace costumes use current language situations feelings ideas would extremely modern think morbid interest peoples lives insinuating envy ever rule womens relations still difficulty revealing giving expression ones feelings especially love every situation gets universal outoftime value br br the cast really talented offer good extremely brilliant performances young gwyneth paltrow particularly suitable role nowadays would probably mature it toni colette simply great envied wonderful dresses could wear then breathtaking english countryside every situation gets magic dreamlike dimension really enjoyable deserving movie,0 Nobel Laureates ROCK!!! 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",0 yes reviewers already stated may vintage lh far worst work th century stupidi mean fox film certainly basic ingredients things go wrong boys serious approach determination makes funny play laughs comedians might take work situation quite seriously essence eternal humor film faced basic issues really might encountered one us today namely job related stress first would get checked doctor would prescribe much needed rest perhaps staying sea thats surrealness comes this lh always take plausible set circumstances exaggerate never point incredible except maybe awhile makes us laugh relate self caused predicaments attempts extrication thats makes stan ollie universal appeal film ingredients presented delightfully artful gracefully slapstick way best comparison earlier work probably actual last film roach wanted mirror big studios go making features exclusively also wanted hurry finish contractual obligation big mistake stayed together continued maybe five years world may missed considering option watch laugh enjoy last great performance,0 wish could kill myselfi balls kill really wish could ive done life years really wish could finally end it,1 @fox_in_space just a little ribbing. 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IYAMYAS! ,0 bored of sims for today still thinking of a name for me and luke youtube account to post our awesome new vid on idea people,0 thoughts month now know much keeps getting worsei transgender start just really strong gender dysphoria started remembering bad things did hurted lot people life phisically mentally deserve suffering really blame people mock that really every single thing either futile leads hurting someone said before hurted lot people life want anymore want happy want live beautiful life life somehow limitedit fault really one deserves suffer one exept me know it thing want say i sorry everything didi hope live need to all took away things them fair suffer enjoy living right every thing justified know bullying absolutely not deserve it righti know anymore ready this happened quickly i die stop making everyonemyself included suffering right sorry,1 remember seeing film youngster local small theater presented foreign films week daring adventure stayed memory ever sincebr br especially impressionable scene noel purcell old seaman paddy drank much saw heard apparitions died fright cave always kept track noels career even decades later due seeing then theres also youngish cyril cusack leering boatman james designs lovely jean simmons shown emmeline grown upbr br would much like video haunting film refresh memory it send request,0 epic album recommendation httpsopenspotifycomalbumerltkgnvkhwowfsqxesintw_ypkvsagfvkokqdlg,0 ednaiscool is up again yay but all my video are gone,0 where the magic happens every month lol sophia did a terrific job a usual what am i gon na have for dinner http twitpic com y bz,0 biggest fear going itmy biggest fear killing failure leaving mentally incompetent living pain terrifies me shot rifle inch steel plate yards day dads farm went clean strangely comforting point blank range think theres almost zero chance could live it im still much coward pull trigger ever least know there,1 never thought id here might need be think need helpim gonna go whole story cause lot put shortly years ago mom moved college dad fight caused this years cannot take it still year pharmacy school think going crazy going mental keeps wanting move there doesnt dad cant make damn decision im scared im going start cutting myself going hurt ways know do anyone tell im crazy im going fine cause know anymore,1 please check subs rjohncena rpotatosalad trust,0 bruh parents put content filter wifi weird first youtube videos went pornhub scared cause xfinity internet page showed like mature content cant watch shit vpn time think theyre idk think maybe little siblings even watch mature videos sites idek,0 posting every day get girlfriend day day im hereby celebrating th aniversary death pope adeudatus day day like wood day lorem ipsum dolor sit amet consectetur adipisici elit sed eiusmod tempor incidunt ut labore et dolore magna aliqua day one day one thousand day one million day one billion day one trillion day one quadrillion day one 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day day spanish inquisition day day p day day r day day day scam dont buy day buy minecraft instead day thinking erections public worse problem erection public day henry stickmin popular again day day even day qwertzuiop asdfghjkl yxcvbnm day big pp say bought microsoft flight sim day installing hours now day done day already spetember day big toe long pinky finger time thiccer thumb day want socialice hard rn usually hate talking ppl day half year mark getting closer day like trees day like cats day like dogs day today talked girl day d printer isnt working day think im way making female friend day im making progress day like apples day im running iut ideas write day e day ww lasted day like pizza day talked different girl today day like spaghetti too day use ecosia plz thx day u dont use ecosia ur stupid day plant trees day still donate team trees day know plumbusses made day made dinglebop day day day anyone ideas shit write here day went entire ipa throat hurts day tf almost october day ah shit one bit late day tomorrow day doot doot day drop snoot day bit luck school close soon again day think eill stop writing random shit day nothing happened today day think accidentialy motivated crush flirt woth another guy day nothing happened today day nothing happened today day one bit late internet bad day nothing happened today day nothing happened today day nothing happened today day nothing happened today day nothing happened today day nothing happened today day girl school gave another guys chocolate got half it others each mean anything day nothing happened today day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day teacher put girl besides today wall looking good day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day 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actually kill time feel like need to ive never real friends entire life friends used longer close me grown distant everyone way connecting people family spoken really long time one person talk life see way it want one real life friend go watch movie talk with live half way across world family ive away since i know young attend university culture america different long company think thats reason cannot connect people always introvert try talk make friends people class nobody wants really hang me theyre classmate friends say college students much older average one age talk connect to chemical engineering classes filled bunch people years older me finals days think im going end life feel like people looked past im smart mean anything long someone get along with im sorry,1 i never really noticed or i guess wa aware of my depression until a few year ago when i really started losing motivation and interest in my hobby i am a full time university student who work job and right now this depression ha taken a peak i live alone in a bedroom apartment with my dog my living situation is shit but it s not shit my apartment management renovating the entire building so i have drilling throughout the day which suck cause i work night and midnight so when i do need to sleep i can t i want to move out but i can t because i m literally paying cheaper than a bachelor s apartment anywhere else then there s school i don t even know why i m in school at this point i had a plan and dream for myself in high school and honestly my parent ruined that for me when i took my year off and chose to stay home just so i could move out they really made sure to make me feel like shit which just made me feel like shit throughout the four year of me being in university i m supposed to be graduating in spring and i wa stupid enough to go home during the reading week which created a huge confrontation between my mother and i which my dad got involved soon after and it went downhill from there i ended up leaving early and honestly after coming back from my parent house it s like my depression went on a downward spiral i used to have a little motivation to at least do the basic thing to help myself but i literally can t bring myself to do anything schoolwork is a drag and make me hate everyone one job i work at is completely great but i have had so many bad experience with being used by employer and fake employee that i m so pessimistic when i get there and i completely separate myself from other employee my second job is even worse because while i don t want to communicate in my first job my second job no one speaks english like literally the entire store is all people from another country it s kind of ridiculous because training is non existent i literally would be standing around if it wasn t for me having past experience working in the same kind of field the employee turnover is ridiculous and the supervisor when they can communicate to me only complain about how they are only working there so because of their visa but once they are full citizen they leave the hour go by so long and working in complete silence frustrating to the point where i had to start wearing earphone while i work and listen to music anyways after typing all of this i know i won t read it over so sorry for any mistake or thing that aren t clear i think honestly i m just too pessimistic and making excuse for myself but this feeling i have in me and the way everything in life is just so upsetting the breakdown and all the fucking cry like i m so over it and i just want to either be content or at least have some kind of method to get through all of this i m so exhausted and i feel like i keep getting the short end of the stick every time,1 fuck go coming friends basically ive suspicion may trans like years something keeping entire time case regret something point think complete bullshit brain keeping getting happiness skirts wanna tell someone life could easier go it question meme flat saying it,0 dead every fucking second day good enough standards able things normally without overthinking everything every minutes able enjoy things moment without deep set fear go away soon miserable again could sleep without waking shitty nightmare could forget trauma able eat without thinking weight calories could feel like imposter time like faking everything myself beautiful skinny smart socially acceptable never depression takes life wish,1 jealousy is disease guess disease,0 gonna check back days ill psyche ward days im bored imma leave post awile aight bye,0 The Foreign Resort - Suburban Depression ...Listen Live Now On: http://cp6.digistream.info:20374/listen.pls ,1 long story tldr want die im failureso interested reading grab popcorn soda or tea that sit down story became failure ampxb moment im years old im third world country want die ampxb so starts typical suicidal story me shy skinny kid kind low physical capabilities high intelligence i humble time judge little me country everyone soccer father same got little brother practicing lot little like even though supposedly kind good it quite like sports general enjoyed peaceful environment quite know kind things would like free time since knew soccer school focused school everyone else elementary school also lot soccer reunited play join think consider worth bond something like forward high school changed schools since mom got arguments teachers principal befriend heavily anyone really care brother hand social went visit school couple times ampxb situation high school elementary school people liked soccer like soccer played every afternoon didnt still like soccer btw grew really shy talking new people also help kind weird since people classroom friends little brother we years apart me ampxb country prep school or thing countries highschool rule is universities entrance exams already finished highschool take it top enter people take years prepare exams passed finishing highschool again think much myself hadhave kind low selfesteem care anymore since matter i enter university turned next month tho ampxb private school family kind low income support program that around dollars month still kind expensive tho ampxb now know said know would enjoy free time kid thing know actually wanted every way hobby goal anything wanted life kind feeling empty since career choice wondering around wikipedia ampxb also side note uncle professional my parents arent mom helped lot college years supported lot paid half english lessons half university monthly fee i forgot appropriate word ampxb so started think life actually liked study good anything else do started go classes wondered around campus thinking also go evaluations kind feeling like everybody else wanted do mean bad want children study know kind confusing me also friends neither again everyone soccer hated game point ampxb end semester failed classes want study also want embarrassment parents uncle put lot money failed still reluctant asked give another chance started second semester ampxb second semester still like study new pressure ampxb university rules expelled fail class times expelled finish general studies is semesters curriculum maximum semesters expelled general studies fail times ampxb want study like career chose like pressure want failure always felt like everyone high expectations me also money invested ampxb head mess ampxb failed classes semester ampxb want continue wasting everybodys money hopes left university ampxb turned year started working call center i hated job ampxb getting end year get hospitalized tumor behind nose not cancer ampxb money earned lot parents relatives went surgery ampxb near death experience give strength hopes try again also wanted pay back money spend convinced could go college parents believed me gave new chance my uncle part time cant blame him went back continue journey ampxb first new semester passed everything second new semester failed class third new semester passed everything ampxb fourth new semester story continues ampxb thing university merit system best qualifed students priority choosing classes went into remember failed lot there ampxb series courses passed particular order intro physics physics ampxb one last students one semester get physics class ampxb th official semester physics calculus elective digital design ampxb needed complete physics one class finish general studies get record clean semester left really stressed out kind okey ampxb thing even failed class even class physics out yet take classes summer vacations here one december february maximum again priority order but exception people finish like me got priority that failed more could take physics summer physics regular semester ampxb digital design group class one student group clueless people campus anything shy say something even teacher hate this know could reverse time still able say anything ill see hell ampxb failed physics digital design ampxb out ampxb brother entered college years preparation goes parties every then titular still official general course soccer team uncle paying half monthly fee average student ampxb months every parents indirectly mention disappointed are reason cant find job clean house help parents every way can nothing going enough one talk since could never make friend could talk problems got anime videogames scape reality started college mom always hated always room laptop gift uncle entered college never hobby could enjoy fake reality felt bad encouraged brothers soccer hobby told hobby bad mean understand sports healthy like soccer like home relaxed allowed one thing enjoyed supposed do ampxb feel bad im using laptop avoid nothing do one talk to professional future even crappy job im allowed enjoy hobby also morally speaking since im unemployed cant home playing day ampxb wanted see could get videogame development career available institutes in country shit regular one even expensive college parents focus paying brothers education even willing give another chancethat ask able afford it cant afford since even got crappy job minimum wage half regular institute costs would work years pay year career rd world country regular institute high hopes jobs even it ampxb ampxb im problem since parents still spend money maintain alive food im giving anything return nothing current life nothing everything owe them ampxb would better brother better version me been everyone hoped would be ampxb hate life hate fact lost everything had ampxb hate money repay everyone gave support disappoint ampxb hate able make friends maybe tried soccer mean hate it least could made friends know maybe got parties drinking i like taste alcohol cigarettes although really care people surrounding it feel really comfortable big parties ampxb always wanted die tired pressure always verge expelled feeling expelled everything else tried kill before multiple times part im also coward want feel physical pain felt go without paying back ampxb pay back cant tired ive stupid journey even asked for im paying first semester mistake know know now nowhere go nothing do ampxb even know told first half life think relevant even want go erase im phone ampxb post gets deleted care wanted write somewhere think omitted things know put them counts summary guess ampxb well im go probably kill right now ill wait morning,1 tell go tell me where do i take us,0 hey girl u blanket cos wanna wrap around u,0 personally find idea one testicle extremely funny hilarious even like person anywhere one testicle,0 i am just a kid with a deformity i am in such constant misery i have no friend and i dont even feel human all i do is get made fun of and i cant take it anymore i just want to end it,1 minecraft dog doesnt know isnt coming back fuck,0 waiting for godot is a play where nothing happens two men stand at a bus stop waiting for a man named godot to come he never arrives that s existence waiting for someone or something that never arrives i ve been waiting for my friend for a long time and yet they never come i used to think i had a few close friend who would be there for me when i needed them but time ha proven otherwise so i m waiting for godot now but sooner or later i could simply find a ticket and take a bus,1 niru0 who tf even care about her sneaker getting depression bc you can t wear your sneaker for a few day wtf,1 "Contemplating goals, art and the weekend! ...yes, I know it's only Tuesday ",0 honestly know else ask it think best placeim planning seeing therapist stance illegal shit lets say illegal shit think vital tell it it contact cops parents since im ,1 heres image mohammed httpswebarchiveorgwebhttpiimgurcomdfoppng,0 day night cycle hear birds need sleep,0 watching realkidpoker daniel negreanu lose 0 000 in four hour real time via twitter he s losing it,0 want to go out badly,0 semi ironic message god ok went date girl gonna go older sister going college cant please work once please god literally ive rejected times please work,0 wishing i hadnt skipped breakfast this morning hungry,0 generally difficult rate cutpaste films segments quite good others bring rating overall product one instance allgirl scene doctors office quite excitingone best viewers limited viewing history theres asias segment lady always entertaining story binds whole together interesting concept swap scene closes offering aint bad either technically production values fairly high recommended,0 kake day points probably not kake day overrated right anyway suffer wrath protektors true alphabet war wages on sukkumb will join die,0 blythe danner judith ivey deliver wonderful performances jonathan silverman eugene recounts life s brighton beachbr br what makes film good relationships among characters backdrop extremely wonderful family valuesbr br bob dishy marvelous opportunity father clan gives restrained compelling performance patriarch familybr br his sons played jonathan silverman brian dillinger fabulous certain scenes silverman skating hopping im reminded jerry lewisbr br as danner ivey wonderful mannerisms intonation idealism jewish culture beautifully realized thembr br the cinematography wonderful beautiful brighton even inevitability war loomed film rich many typical problems faced families period sense jewish experience family going throughbr br a must see nostalgic buffs us believe strongly family values,0 feel like end vacationthe last two months total hell me ive lowest many years ive never felt level stress anxiety depression anger never feel good matter stimulants helps im going big camping trip tomorrow seeing family havent seen bit im hoping ill feel better doubt thatll true im thinking ill try enjoy trip much possible end high note possible id feel terrible parents doubt many would care dont want deal constant self loathing anxiety everything do dont want obsess ex constantly leading toying me saying well try get back together loves goes around fucking random guys dont want worry getting fulls im going university afterwards im tired dragging along people im tired sick life,1 trying find lightive realized simply looking place die quite got courage yet pull shotgunhowever think im getting close ive contemplated slitting wrists ive attempted even cant cut deep enough ive gone days without food water eventually cave mostly due alcohol place die courage determination so wantneed life over thingreason kept going past daughter morenot me know is looks like even remembers me pain past ex excruciating struggle find hope struggle find anything really puppet still puppet form true lovethat never truly loved way loved him,1 remember less month ago every time looked sub concerned everything new become everything new,0 @ThePISTOL You can never go wrong with oldies or country or chrisitan rock! but my ipod has mostly honor society and Jonas Brothers hehe ,0 sleepless night become more frequent a i slip back into the black hole depression anxiety stress pain anger sadness loneliness hurt all of it just collides and the you start to spin why try and stop it you always end up back here hello my old friend,1 else dobefore begin long post amp hope take time read this need help think im rational person understand impact redflag affect connected me but feeling myself honestly believe peaked human hope writing community strangers may help find relief constant tightness feel chest maybe someone relate im going through since ive hit s life starting reflect mistakes yesterday ive moved back parents pictures last years life lost lot confidence myself year old female starting balding see scalp day even taking showers makes depressed run fingers hair doesnt stop falling out dont want go anymore dont want sun without hat hair loss definitely wrecked confidence im trying take depression hands exercise days week see positive change body even friends havent see awhile tell end day dont want alive anymore feel like dont anything offer recklessly put debt hindered ability buy home own watch friends buy first homes share lives significant others put wall around myself havent dated sex anyone years tell im okay myself always going emptiness may sound weird im oddly okay wanting end life affect family friends keeping here heal time cant put fast forward button that im tired feeling way tired crying tired me religious im tried looking sort guidance god thought would be would god speak me would tightness chest lifted accepted god life else do,1 @Beliria @vinworldwide hello friends! Hope you are having a woderful weekend! ,0 need pour heart outi even know start theres storm thoughts head hard put coherent text so im year old guy basically im depressed time feel ugly stupid week hopeless im statistics student university killing me life ive considered nerd used getting high marks liked teachers school considered intelligent kid actually never felt happy since childhood proud academic achievements gave least little confidence however things changed got uni rd year constantly feel like im good enough im tired understanding things sitting hours stydying still getting results want seeing people better feeling like got wrong place got point im afraid study know feel stupid miserable ive always tried maximum want reach lowest possible mark thats enough pass matter try feel like im always fail motivation reached lowest level life goals years ago destroyed feel like mistake im alive theres bit one year get degree im scared im going life feels like knowledge talents ones going hire me theres single thing could happy left life friends im suffering social anxiety ive shy smart kid since childhood im highly introverted feel scared communicating unknown people theres one talk besides mum feel like weirdo one needs me understand people understand me say even try discussing things feels like always think differently others im always minority phoning hairdresser register haircut huge challenge me even mentioning going institutions speak completely unknown people panic attacks know act unknown situations go new places even count amount mental breakdowns travel another city country feel like social abilities worse year old child go new city study leave parents home years ago things started going downhill me getting used new city new people nightmare used cry every single day flats expensive rent im living dormitory worst place socially awkward pervert like me first roommate quite good friends almost speak almost problems living him however moved year ago since last september im living new one disaster clean room respect privacy thousands friends i somehow managed tell want room cant live normal life theres noise around understand that likes playing loud music even worse singing along even hes playing music somehow manages irritate little things like forgetting close door neither relax concentrate study hes around thank god often goes somewhere else leaves alone live exsoviet small eastern european country conditions dormitory great expect see normal western country theres lack space feel like imprisoned walls come back parents every single weekend escape ugly place could search job place get money rent flat im afraid change life anxiety also studies require lot time effort think could manage combining work studying enjoy staying home nothing common hobbies young people unfamiliar often involve going surrounded people hate life like vicious circle im tired lonely want friends im surrounded people want escape alone cant connect people hate small talk want discuss politics environment meaning life music people age interested even interested usually popular opinions refuse view things different angles leads able act like im normal like everybody else like parties like current pop music prefer summer winter etc people probably consider arrogant cant act things tell want fake overpolite person understands mother feel loves cares me probably reason committed redflag want hurt her however hate father hes alcoholic hes constantly arguing mother understand even try to hes intentionally bad person irritates hate hes home besides that hate way look im skinny short feel manly enough skin pale hate going out hate hair jawline skinny arms whole body general speaking voice quite highpitched get nervous anxiety sounds even feminine already does stereotypes society make easier accept myself want man boy ive always hated exercising unpleasant boring ive tried working many times get muscular always end feeling weak hopeless giving up enough im gay ive realized quite recently year ago makes hate even more one knows even know id dare tell anybody fact society country homophobic would make even harder feel like ill end lonely unhappy insecure rest life also virgin could write book problems stress im thats enough writing pouring emotions helped little bit thanks anyone taking time read this,1 big fan film found tv mini series children dust version fans look for least minutes cut dvd version filmbr br i would also suggest viewers enjoyed film check book rounded storyline corbywhitewolf rachel black history buffalo solders two many storylines series filmbr br sidney poitier shows gets better age talent keeps growing chemistry character gypsy smith regina taylor wonderful viewing also enjoyed billy wirthjoanna going storyline seems play wellbr br billy wirth course model indian vision look attitude dream every woman wanted carried one romance novels native hero worked alsobr br much could done storyline give viewer brief glimpse racial problems back s white take native schooling lack black pioneers setup towns west michael moriarty maxwell always great actor comes across caring confused teacher sure whites interfering native culturebr br for anyone enjoys characters watching change film you thought chemistry poitiers character orphan whitewolf moving thought wirth poitier worked well together billy wirth best scenes working poitierbr br going got nerves sometimes want stop shake give wakeup grownup call whole great evening entertainmentbr br look two tape version mini series fan really see difference,0 time differentusually fantasize really bad days never feels like it time different time feels right feel home idea think ive finally crossed line think going back im going kill myself feels right,1 retarded fuck up know tired hearing tired hearing school counsellor soccer coach telling shit like it head get head useless combatchallenge negative thoughts surely one would think capable basic human tasks ie fucking everything do basic tasks sport talking people giving people eye contact gods sake would need artificially boost esteem are capable things capable functioning socialable human know fucked selfesteem is sometimes well actually time hate fucking shower hate seeing disgusting retarded fucking body mirror despite told skinny normal etc etc still feel still fat fucking retarded loser pretty decent school got estimated atar year wanted pilot raaf fuck ever going achieve autistic bumbling piece shit retard cannot conversation mates one one speeches class hell even school fine comes talking someone conversation cannot literally want kill escape remember early i think plusoned since never get invited parties even friends girls party somewhat crush if would even call that think ever spoken her even day socially inept fuckwit am practically held mercy friend group slowly deteriorated spoke guys women know party eventually alone kind awkwardly sitting phone corner everyone fun pool want know thinking everyone exploring teenage lives girls fun mates thought could smash skull edge pool hard enough would knock drown wish begged gun could shoot fucking head eventually nerve walk party mates asked going want leave staying party would done far harm good estimate fact know would made depressed walk home already going walked home cannot normal like everyone else child spent childhood staring wall watching tv one ever home fat little fucker throughout entirety primary school picked fat cunt subconsciously impacted selfesteem time got completely dacked pullup oval infront entire fucking school i already social redflaghaving fucking retard back then holy shit typing feels good man wow asperges fucking know social redflag know shy know depression know hope kind hope time reason mentally fucking defective know fantasized killing since year old nofap merely granted time think badly want kill myself bad want buy gun join army shoot fucking skull obliterate existence earth note like people say given humanity turning back humanity angry society humanity know issue defect lonely love solace hole in melancholy feels warm cozy feels like belong feels like stay give fuck anymore want die maybe regret kill one day tired autistic little fuckup loser sometimes get mad feel redflag like rant head much fucking fat little cunt fggot fucking loser feels good sometimes like pretend holding gun head or mouth hand pretend pulling trigger anymore remember little younger used go sleep making prayer eastern orthodox pray god kill end life listing thoughts feels little disjointed apologise wish could normal wish hate existence being body stupid ugly fucking face wish could look people eye talk them wish could talk people wish could talk girls wish could feel not lonely done research things brings back started it head get head useless combatchallenge negative thoughts read that kind liked brought full circle know stuff helping social redflag stuff people say talk people talk strangers even shallow talk etc get easier sure maybe might want try man fucking sick strive average instead being average want try want kill bother give up reading message might bit smug say then it nothing stopping you it going another statistic really think care another statistic gun would already killed lmao would probably dead pool couch fucking know listening radiohead writing things putting good album feels right wrap here fuck people cocky people arrogant become overconfident want shit man surely better every thought brain either plea suicide neutral thought manifests negative one anyways think smug retarded essay comment guys think something know block text go unnoticed even advice dunno totally given yet thanks guys self esteem kind listing things get chest,1 wish good friends life guess huh,0 day asking everyone filler filler filler hehe filler filler filler,0 going drown tomorrowi terrible gambling addiction general bad person truly believe potential good good heart someone profound said the road hell paved good intentions like here good intentions get life together inevitably sucked back vices hold me expect anybody understand cant stop gambling wasnt position would share views shame thrust world fault own expected make something ourselves yet us would better returning primordial ooze wherest came report back tomorrow unsuccessful guess either put euphemistcally pass away near death experiance which knows could life changing going go surfing late local uncrowded surf break know ledges put longest leg rope surf board im going space monkey swim hook leg rope ledge pass out body automatically breath salt water hoping enough kill me know space monkey hyperventiate breathes breath hold breath til quickly pass out used high school shits gigs also highly intoxicated hopefully increase probabilty success hopefully fail like everything else life choosing drown want burden family idea committed redflag really shame pretty amazing potential us squander it well atleast have also relatively short life space negative impact im years old still living home pay rent money bank car cleaning work even spend money ive lost grand sisters money managed pay last year ripped people selling racing tips promising people would make lot would sent negative ripples this everything matters hope anyone reading this hope alright edit post tomorrow night means removed gene pool cya,1 want endrecently another friend mine tried get suspended again hurts fact mom told go slit throat gotten lot worse this continuation posthttpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentskhjbhi_honestly_dont_know_anymore,1 kal penn you were my favorite you did an excellent job,0 @Sam_Ho haha aww try to focus. 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you talking girl long time social networks calls think seen times girl sister one best friends this problem since talk problem thing like other thing tomorrow im going go friends house im going see her moment nerves selfesteem began kill began wonder like like that interested me truth types questions eat little little advice would give screw up,0 honestly know turnim supposed graduate college five days supposed to im waiting final make break grades one class graduate college know disappointed family would me them honestly im sure graduate ive come conclusion graduate easiest thing would commit redflag cant face family graduated four years less ivys this mental health taken enormous toll academics ive done everything need order graduate comes one professors grades two assignments im lost know go feel like graduate family never think again cant face kind disappointment im fucking scared feel option know else go,1 eating my tito's home made ice cream yum!,0 true story okay know people absolutley terrible human beings times females name feminism orwomen empowerment anyway friend cheated boyfriend multiple times dude dating found actually audacity say apologize walking long story short guy dumped girl came ranting misogonystic pig infringing women rights allowing sleep men sometimes iam actually ashamed female gender anyway thanks coming ted talk,0 im cop want end itevery day go work feeling like might last dangers people present insecurities think depression though certainly factor days think itd better ended offduty personal firearm think far often funny it years helped people solve lifeordeath problems im powerless own,1 famed filmmaker werner herzogs fata morgana breathtakingly unorthodox although characters appear film time time actual story film also educational historical documentary film without accompanying screenplaybr br the film consists curious background music somewhat illogical narrative vo combination overlays long string images mostly though exclusively sahara desert images wonderfully odd ordinary camera captures ghostly images mirages optical illusions tantalize mesmerizebr br this general cinematic trend punctuated occasional observational asides serendipitous topics example one sequence man wearing goggles gives us minitutorial lizards captivating bizarre sequence small inset room contains man dark goggles sings voice totally distorted microphone hes using accompanied old lady plays punchy tune old piano neither man old lady seems enjoy theyre doing baroquebr br fata morgana underlying concept one unites wide assortment strange images eclectic sounds concept subtle opaque never figure without help subtle theme film indeed make sense without point reference however film seem tedious unending pointless parade random earthy images esoteric narrative gibberishbr br unapologetically redundant thematically baffling cinematically heretical fata morgana likely either make swoon delight cause throw up either latch films zenlike qualities tempted smash dvd thousand pieces one thing viewers agree on fata morgana different,0 i tried to make my dream come true trying to make the law school thing work but it just won t happen i just wanted to succeed in law so bad but after the constant humiliation inability to compete with my peer and lack of a discernable future i ve realized i m not intelligent enough to succeed alcohol ha taken over my life recently trying to runaway from all the failure ha me in a drunken stooper most night so a would obviously follow im just thinking about escaping this world leaving it all behind and doing so in a responsible way in which only i would be harmed i m just not cut out for this world i know this with certainty i ve seen enough of life to where i just know im not strong enough to withstand it s horror i want this world to no longer have to deal with me i want no one to ever have to know me,1 youtube unsubscribing channels see post check people think youre subscribed to unsubscribed wilbur soot,0 insert interesting subject title herehello name scott im uk im years old first reddit post ive submitted usually prefer remain anonymous me life shiitake moment much like lot people im unemployed on sick since im single years diagnosed hiv december ive got friends anymore due personalitymental health disorders im completely disconnected family financially broke understandably things causing feel suicidal days dark disturbing place wouldnt wish anyone nice meet even dire circumstances,1 today good day dark cloudy windy day thats fav type weather,0 @shoffnert Judy working out with Brandon! Hahahahaha http://twitpic.com/6ar6m,0 oh darn it s mandy creed isnt it jordar mikerra,0 tried kill i gotten theni depression years seeing therapists psychologists social workers since medications tried kill first time stayed psych wards times the last time tired depressed energy could would lie bed day caffeine help mg today pm im ready go bed drive motivation everything flat want normal able function like people can want live like more seems like constantly irritable cant focus anything increasingly suicidal weeks now decided go see therapist college earlier gone talk doctor medications first feeling suicidal doubled medicationthis made less suicidal throwing lot think straight also stop taking medication cant afford more so went see counselor basically responses oh sucks yes verbatim left said remember need emergency help call told financially possible me said oh sucks it tired live like this much effort little payoff fucking energy killing me would kill tonight roommate find body,1 "Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. Our great depression is our lives.",1 new vid! http://tiny.cc/staybeautiful,0 will be out at 9pm. http://plurk.com/p/x75a4,0 "Social media has people thinking that depression, drug abuse, and a low GPA is okay. EL EM AYE OH",1 hey random person seeing tell favourite singersbandsmsic producers mines could imagine dragons falling reverse bring horizon coldplay milky chance adele queen avicii,0 got puppy today dont know breed hes cute could show would sadly cant post images here,0 "@liannanshith for the roads, right? That and the mountains. ",0 "Ah! She's Got the Look has a trans gal in competition! YAY! I think I'm in. The lez girl in the band is kinda hot, too. 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Which means my Calendar is no longer on March. It'll be June until about November. ,0 get deservei hate myself im horrible person ive ruined friendships had ive ghosted friends through course highschool college petty reasons think even ruined highschoolcollege life them wish could take back hope things better now im suffering karma bitch deserve enjoy anything anymore real goal life im angry time even parents mind place wrong things ive said done eating up think im going crazy voices head never stop everytime memories come back mind tries justify things ive done know im shitty person deserve live cant wait finally courage end life all,1 "@IanRobinson an aluminium macbook would do nicely, ta ",0 please help science project might appropriate sub esp since im lurker around lowkey one communities real virtual dont judge lmao ampxb anyways anyone time fill surveys this onehttpsformsglewryrbmrgyqlmqwu summerliving warm weather this onehttpsformsglefxkhuyluwlcvyt wintercold weather please can,0 "@jasonwert fuck, I hate it when you are right. 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",0 map movement scary ive seeing increasing number map minor attracted person posts frankly scary recounting story shared anyone guess random people reddit way go m holiday swimming around beach pretty good swimmer i loved swimming went quite deep in way could touch ground feet swimming around large man foot comes near his feet touching ground puts arms around me innocent thinking hes help get shore would safer said said something like im fine thank you swim back myself need carried day still remember said youre cute let feel blue shorts know like it it something similar froze know why anything scared self let get literally millimeter groin im guessing adrenaline kicked pushed swam deeper end looking back swam around seconds realised im extremely deep waters look back man gone thank heavens body functioning make way back while lifeguard swimming toward way back go beach pool next months always slightly reluctant get back pool lost fun sport really enjoyed point is seeing map movement grow scary im avid supporter love sharing love regardless race gender even age but minors whose minds fully developed emotionally physically put situation forces innocence them depriving chance learn mistakes grow tldr map tried feel me vacation beach ruined enjoyment swimming rude awakening freeze victim harassment age ,0 "Lines, vines and trying times!! I have it I'm my hands! Muahahaha!! I love it!! Already working on memorizing all the words ",0 since people become careless coldi told suicidal last night mean hurtful reply happened us thought best friends,1 of to sacc. meet my parents ,0 title says all got chances getting job enjoy let alone paying one tried long today day done trying todays day say enoughim fucking done impossible succeed life therefore going end,1 "Colin gave Cam a marshmallow. Cam said, "Thank you!" Colin said, "Thank you for saying 'thank you,' Cameron!" Awww ... ",0 attack titan wouldve happily waited months season doesnt look like,0 gurls wenna tok m joke pls dont ban uwu,0 girl dont know well yet said thank hung like said rlly fun thank you good time ive never someone say b girls maybe try one cause thought super sweet made attracted,0 sweet nk dreams love you all ,0 john carpenters the thing undoubtedly one best horror movies ever made sadly carpenter movies go also one underrated movies panned critics shortly release reason almost pathetic seems time people overwhelmed idea good alien idea spawned success it thought movie dealing aliens could deviate idea regarded heresy human ignorance truly frightening thing people need judge films want bebr br the thing interesting study human paranoia members us antarctic base discover presence alien refered throughout movie thing able imitate form life knowing might might creature see every character reacts situation mass hysteria panic slow gradual descent chaos people turn be quite humanbr br carpenter succeeds elevating movie something far average scifihorror whats behind you jumping moments here instead relying intense atmosphere mistrust preapocalyptic despair along nicely balanced moments visual terror small thanks rob bottins impressive creature effects gives us experience matched many horror filmsbr br instead throwing facts plot elements face carpenter offers us much gradual delicate approach implying sense mystery gives viewer enough freedom interpretate transpired certain scenes giving enough plot fond interpretation moviesbr br ennio morricones score works way minimalistic depressing sound perfectly fits movies overall tone although ive always wondered would sounded carpenter he known compose moviess osts except one it characters deeply developed still memorable thanks good performances actors especially kurt russel plays downout apathetic helicopter pilot rj macready worth noting character transforms movie disregardful dont give attitude beginning unifier leader group men try fight the thing even said false heroics here laughing face death moments certainly sort comic relief movie keeps atmosphere first scene last speaking which carpenter keeps tradition creating powerful endingbr br quarter century release the thing feel dated disturbingly growing use computergenerated effects feels even stronger shows lifes work dedication human beings computers combined openness analyzing gives viewer lot reasons watch second third fourth time masterpiece terror never forgotten,0 fuck wrong wit legs yesterday ass sore,0 @drpdavzgrl I know the cd by heart & watched the dvd... bonus I havent listened 2 yet...love the art...such a beautiful wonderful thang ,0 right backed got scared many opportunities kill never it everything keeps getting worse worse every year wish gun would shoot myself right right now turn going get gun kill myself one year dead finally wish hung ,1 it s coming back i m sinking again i can t do anything in life i have superior study yet i can not get a job i have friend and a girlfriend but i still feel lonely because they are busy and i have nothing to do i m all alone with my thought and i ve been for too long it s all coming back again i even feel suicidal again they promised u a happy life if we put enough effort where the fuck is my happy life my job my own house the joy fuck them all i wan na burn the fucking world down and then end myself,1 well great grandma died didnt know well bedridden able speak long remember feel really bad mom also friday th less,0 yay migraine to round of berlin,0 RT @420weedin: Could 'one puff' of cannabis ease depression? #marijuana #cannabis http://bit.ly/2HNEtbS ,1 swallow pills later cant stand anymore fi literally unlovable havent anobody irl die nobody cares people kind cheer depressed ass up ugly fat body yo woman basically doomed lonely could ever really live ugly piece trash consider woman women pretty value dont literally tired hear you worthy alone true life sucks past made constant bullying marginalization present empty made depression anxiety bulimia nervosa self hate suicidal thoughts loneliness literally reason keep going on goodbye,1 left head phone ha died this morning head phone to keep me company on my journey,0 dead soulbeen feeling empty awhile afraid lll anymore slightly afraid pain l thought sleeping pills me wish l earlier l hoped change seems impossible achieve l want go home parents want love cause want grow up wish hurt like this wish l could die someone would life l want end tired living facing terrible episodes every day wish l could fall clip run car die sleeping l want end pain,1 im tiredim exhausted alone ive able think past days killing noone ask help anymore literally noone gives shit dont know im even bothering things getting worse worse im going end fucking dead noones even going realize im gone dont even feel like exist anymore havent thinking redflag much years god im fuckibg tired meaning anything anyone dont friends time try make friends end putting forward effort person cant keep pushing barely get bed feed myself wish someone would break apartment kill get,1 right longer rememberanything say confidence anymore anything believe purpose anyone tell disagree instantly cannot explain reason to time alone still nobody talk to everyone hostile anything believe in,1 suicidal half life thinking finally giving inthis going poorly formatted rant apologize advance im turning may mo friends lucky get house week depression gets bad often cant get bed im three years behind school currently hospital program includes delegated time school work im brink getting kicked im struggling attend program really last chance help im comes school cant handle school help fucking hospital setting own im fucked also idea fuck get relationship even able people cheating creeps couldnt handle screwed like that words im miserable lonely asshole nothing look back to friends never sort meaningful relationship fallen behind school really want give up ive miserable long really doesnt seem possible ever happy even managed get life together pass high school unlike kids dont know want future ive known long remember wanted enlist military thanks mental illnesses isnt possible hell point living prospects fucked even succeed never asked shit genuinely wish didnt exist life sick fucking joke,1 @Cunxmoor haha Thanks ,0 my friend use to hear voice she would hear voice in her head of people talking to her but the voice have gone away or at least that is what she think say she think that her neighbour are out to get her she think that her neighbour are plotting to kill her she also think that her neighbour have killed someone else because she said that she heard them admit it and she recorded them admitting that they killed someone she said that her neighbour talk shit about her and want to harm her and say sexual thing to and about her she life in an apartment building and they live right underneath her so she will sit by her window and she will record them because she think that they are talking crap about her and saying that they want to kill and harm her so she will record them trying to get a much evidence a she possible can so she can go to the police the thing is though that nobody else can hear these recording only she can she wa at my house yesterday and she wa playing these recording to u and a the video wa playing she wa like see they just said this and then she would tell u what they said but we don t hear nothing it is completely quiet my boy friend literally had the phone up to his ear and didn t hear anything and she wa a few foot away from him and she supposedly heard it so loud me my boyfriend and other people have listened to these recording and no one else heard anything but her and she say that she hears them talking so loudly when to u it is completely quiet and she is so positive and confident that these recording are real because every video that she ha anytime that she listens to it she always hears the exact same thing on each video so it is not like every single time that she listens to the video she hears something different she ha like video of her neighbour talking about her and every video she hears the same thing like every video say something different but no matter how many time she listens to each video it always say that same thing that it said last time that is why she belief that it is true but again nobody else hears anything the video she show up is completely quiet and no one is talking ha anyone experienced this do you know anyone that ha experience this it is so hard and difficult to watch her go through this because i have been so supportive to her ever since i met her year ago and i will continue being supportive but when i tell her that we don t hear anything she get fraustrated and mad because she hears it i understand why she is fraustrated though because hearing voice that other people don t hear i get can be very stressful and frustrated but i am just stuck it s hard watching someone you love go through this i need advice,1 Going to work hungover is awesome! Lol good thing there coffee and swiss rolls ,0 going to sleep hoping to wake up and tommorow will be wednesday instead of tuesday i really don t want to go to work,0 anything better redflagis it debate head day day out im disability various mental illnesses since want nothing govt help completely yet ill may never able hold job dream going back college i dropped times getting degree working job meaningful useful putting intelligence work tested iq im genius kinda smart dilemma like or potential be great athlete potentially permanent injury specialists debate diagnosis treatments far failed except brain time sidelines life watching everything go by naturally question whether really would awesome athlete all whether world really needs one more scientist researcher academic lawyer doctor whatever drop metaphor maybe really pathetic waste space like always imagined maybe change even got degrees good job enjoyed even cure search meaning aside ive got standard issue reasons kill well history sexual abuse neglect bullying current social isolation chronic mental illness potential get worse name people and cats would geniunely upset learn death care hurt abused me third therapist im hanging hope things get better im getting really tired back main topic anything really better redflag life im living barely worthy called life live alone work home couple hours day supplement disability food stamps pay rent bills hang w one friend couple times week bathe attend hygiene dishes sometimes smoke weed drink night calm anxiety distract elaborate lethal redflag plans go support groups feel like people dont understand me treatments like cbt much quandary existential level as well regular old psychotic depressionposs schizophreniabipolar unicorn syndrome medication like ssris anti psychotics mood stabilizersanti convulsants tend make worse nothing gotten better used hospital year severely bulimic socially anxious emotionally labile self esteem low ex then bf asked spend night slept floor felt unworthy bed sounds like even know sounds like years since last inpatient eating okay throw up mood stabilized point therapist called levelheaded day i almost choked laughing sleep beds feel sort okay myself still im drain society apartment mess say im absolute best mean it best merely continue living im sure keep going asked therapist chance living normal life told story client pretty much like came in years later hes govt assistance instead shitty jobs still kind miserable joy look forward years hard work obviously everyone different etc least one thing delusions about take long time get better to point normal least enjoyable meaningful life people never do version better looks lot like life now disability review im tempted turn paperwork let deny whatever reason finally catch bus ive waiting stop long time ive watched people get on ive tried couple times either got cold feet right amount change problem now emo tldr shitty life really better death,1 sandwich walks pub bar man says sorry stopped serving food ,0 going kill myselfi cant stand living life way years every time tried change always ends way cant take anymore cant it nothing left keep trying,1 m looking f need someone sing alto quartet pls send tryout tapes,0 Dobré ráno s gameplayem E3 mise The Buzzsaw http://www.mafiagame.cz/index.php?id=231 [R],0 a tale two sisters brilliant south korean psychological horror left speechlessthe film offers delicious moments ghastly horror extremely creepythe small cast actors truly excellentwith lead im soojung especially memorable lead rolethe direction kim jiwoon wellhandled cinematography absolutely gorgeousthe plot slightly confusingbut scenes wonderfully eeriethe action rather slowbut bored slightesti extremely curious intriguedthe housewhere film takes place looks incredibly menacing isolateda tale two sisters along ringu kairo one original asian horror films ever seenwatch masterpiece soon possiblemy rating ,0 question boys tf balls itchy,0 "So, mentally, I'm...fine. I've fought this anxiety/depression war before. My House is now built to repel attackers with moats, archers, and shit, but, you know, armies are approaching again.It'll be a siege, but I'm pretty sure I can win this by attrition....pretty sure. pic.twitter.com/rRQo2p3eXx",1 wish detroit become human universe know im human want drink blue blood see happens,0 @kristenstewart9 Good luck! ,0 @Medscape Higher Rates of Depression in Sexual Minority Youth https://www.medscape.com/viewarticle/895658?nlid=121981_4562&src=wnl_dne_180425_mscpedit&uac=83396HN&impID=1616018&faf=1?src=soc_tw_share … via @medscape,1 could happeni may attempt redflag near future ive thinking redflag nonstop now would happy succeed i probably due fact im failure deep hope get caught act least someone would know,1 need help someone call dumbass say dont,0 catq wa so thinking of you family and friend glad you re okay but it s a black day for italy with all those people killed,0 cpt depression correct,1 getting tired cycle failureim so exhausted trying make things better first off immediate risk help grudgingly given though may be multiple attempts reinventing always end way realizing cant fit matter contort myself familial responsibility keeps tethered painful life know get better also know get worse that know many times this,1 cant sleep ugh if this is going to be a trend i ll need to find something to do with my wakeful night hour read learn a language,0 minjy take care ye mungkin you boleh sembang sembang dengan kawan rapat you and luahkan apa di hati or do something that can give you satisfaction like house chore or running to get out from the depression,1 much movie good nothing say said already wanted point fact movie isnt sweden denemark maybe wrong case ill happy know mistakes take notify me,0 homelessness like chronic illnessgonna homeless again time expect happen fifth count bunch stuff money storage friends help move did thinking selling ending shit im built paycheck paycheck lifestyle breaking cycle poverty seems impossible wanna leave bed cause going long time till one again,1 livei wanted live long time know ever consciously chose life im alive bei take care mom lot health problems dreams desires know experience ill never achieve obtain anything good want live to want feel way anymore feeling never goes away know make fight life want it know improve things desire anything ive even let go wanting feel better never do,1 girl asked depresseda girl class know well im sure all randomly asked depressed taken back question said no anyone could tell hesitation was gonna shock hears death huh,1 life chipped awayeveryday feel pain tell people need help use situations im happy im never happy im putting happy face know im terrible person doesnt help people say im angel need somewhere painless somewhere dont get bullied punched replaced entire life someone im thought redflag year three sensitive spontaneously start crying eyes hurt want free free pain smart fail everything like jesus christ sports team give wrong medal making last apparently im lying even bother life jumped window ledge finally felt free supposed say hi mum like jumping buildings like seriously bothering life tldr want die,1 rip sandra it so sad how can someone do something like that,0 game freak lazy dont care games sell pokemon franchise doesnt even competition,0 redflagwhen call redflag hotline bc canada get rather quickly tell severely depressed hardest christmas ever aaaand every sharp corner looks like answer help with dont know purpose got pissed im up im out im going enjoy last bit xmas eve,1 cutting become habiti bought knife set to cut fruits parents believe dorm room uni started cutting last year one day drunk things escalated point cant go longer week without cutting myself point actually feels exhilarating relaxing like good music ive started using tactic stay awake study get laugh i laugh im pain idk ask brief adrenaline rush attention mind you touched wrists anywhere scars might get spotted ive started considering neck stop id like cease mess up i mean accidental death would great all like this,1 "@pleasefindthis well then on behalf of everyone, thank you. I look forward to reading your posts every time there's a new one ",0 got trouble principal day told kid wheelchair go walk,0 desperately need admitted psych ward get hospital bill choice irony,1 one see hopeless pointless life isno one cares friends bully abuse me cant get girlfriend im ugly sin people skills hate major school ill probably hate job cant change it parents tell im feeling sorry stop lazy piece shit thing brings slightest bit joy games despite much time spend still suck cant anything right world would probably better place without even save oxygen worst thing im much coward even kill myself cant even right even bother,1 sub much weirder im drunk im gonna regret livivng tomorrow lol typical drunk girl today know irl dont talk dont wanna deal ughhhh,0 day posting lines bee movie every day get so wow im out cant believe im out blue feel fast free box kite wow flowers,0 im really bad placebit backstory im struggling depression since around shit hard recently ive reached gotten help saw psych got meds ive hitting really bad lows lately massive mood swings angry outbursts worse ever psych says likely bipolar disorder family pretty long history it im hitting time lows here yesterday stepped shower pretty much collapsed crying ive getting massive urges cut really scares me family friends have id end right fucking now im tired hurting want pain stop thought hurting making feel way utterly destroys me one deserves feel way want cant get without putting pain onto everyone else know fuck im gonna do im even writing this ive lost interest pretty much everything either lay bed wanting die sit whatever fuck keep attention seconds much things help cope weed alcohol thats digging even deeper hole really want fall into thats vent guess know wrote it whatever im taking ambien passing fuck out really wish could die sleep im lucky good night reddit hope well cause sure hell arent,1 kill myselfi f clean selfharming almost two months tonight cant help it deserve relapse im ugly contribute anything world im dumb one cares feelings ill never make anywhere life one ever truly loved admired me says much appearance born nice genes happen me cant live life anymore seeing people age happy naturally pretty successful born life perfect im stuck ugly body fat stomach gross face acne scars body im dealing fact never amount anything deserve hurt deserve die part hopes one day something could get better doubt happen harsh reality makes want end life even more anything left live for aside amazing pet rabbits since mom told ever commit redflag shed kill herself know anymore one talk to,1 im going get stalker tattooed arm im old enough favorite game series would able call marked one lol family already said dumb gotta wait till im ugh,0 want commit redflag tomorrowi always promised id post got bad has depressed point ive managed ex girlfriend recently dumped stated ever try contact call police absolutely shattered longest relationship thought would go forever im going back college little week going one think able handle it scared going school year ex makes miserable again nothing going me job awful feel motivation college theres even reason finish job ive purchased something cutoff breathing get hands gun seriously feel like would relief feel anything finish tomorrow night would easily able scared hurting close family anxious going this want kill tomorrow im little scared wish things couldve better wish couldve likable person,1 keep goingim ready give up life shit full pain suffering wish courage actually go thru this maybe someday soon find it hurts read posts here know here,1 "@AshleyTaylor_x3 @shellbee123 ohhhh no! I forgot @beafluteiful. Im sowwy boo, i love you too.",0 fuck full beard bold defined eyebrows blond hair blue eyes strong jawline big dick athletic still virgin meet western beauty standards men goes show looks everything,0 going old school...playing super mario brothers. ,0 hate myselfwhy mother put world get,1 fucki flight hours alone wrote pages kill self boyfriend says hes ex never be cant this im ready,1 anyone else keep note ur fav copypastas valuable tbh filler started watching kdramas quarantine theyre cute agsgsijx way girls say ann yeong haseyo hxhsj,0 im go bed gets award upvtes overnight im gonna confess crush first thing morning yea joking might post screenshot get one,0 why do i have to go to the sitty job more often than the nice one,0 got biochem test dislike science im bummed got bad grade dont really care point care dont care teacher doesnt put grades till end weeks need get good grades rest stuff hybrid missing person class kinda difficult learning new info especially assigned like month ago chapter glycoproteins proteoglycans confuses me anyone relate,0 @surrender4love im going to the movies with some friendsss ,0 feels like world left behind lost everything past couple days id street friend letting stay him thankful lost companionmy best friend mental illness guess got tired like everyone else doesi felt like finally making progress lost all ready go ready embrace peace comfort leaving flesh prison freeing all spent time things everyone else maybe id fighting chance tired ready go ever meant support outlived purpose serve statistic reminder always pay attention make sure heard nobody speak you lost fight mean late you make final wish come true tell someone find shoes seriously depressed lonely,1 @petrilude that is LOVE ,0 my answer to that question... 80 color and 40 b&w (average) probably too many... oh well ,0 bit puzzle lot artsy lynch crowd tend try write kind meaningless crude side project lynchs like lynch passing gas real pieces film art well may fart one intriguing farts catch whiff embarrassed admit enjoybr br dumbland distilled beyond art aspects modern life laugh it took seriously would go nuts hook it smell it taste it feel agonies unreasoning stupidities express medium choose thats called art art dumb dumbland,0 i really hate everything about myself i hate what i sound like look like my body my personality i really can t do this anymore and i won t try to i really wish i looked so much different wasn t a annoying a chatterbox i hate that i know i won t get better people call me a fighter for my disease but i hate it i wish i didn t have the clusterfuck of shit inside me i wish i wa pretty or maybe cute a cute cat a rabbit man something so i won t have to understand what people say about me i hate my body but i use fashion a my coping mechanism i never really wa able to my ex didn t like me wearing anything form fitting or revealing now that i can i find out that i probably don t have a lot of time to also definitely not the fund to when i wear something i like i feel nice and free but i also hate what i see in the mirror i said i wanted to be a cat or a rabbit but maybe a rock instead just chilling by the beach on the sand or some stream maybe a kid will take me and glue me on some paper glue sand rock seashell glitter amalgamation which will eventually be thrown in the trash to god know where i just don t want to be able to comprehend anything any word any judgement sound stupid laughable and i agree i don t know anything about the idea of reincarnation but when i kill myself tonight i guess i will hope to be a rock lol,1 keep goingif keep cutting harm deeper deeper every time someday ill actually strength stab death,1 #DidYouKnow? #Depression can lead to #cardiovascular problems. #MentalHealth is an important part of our physical health. @mnt http://bit.ly/2GNQVbY  pic.twitter.com/QvXgLxUqRN,1 disclaimer going lengthyfor context gf years broke weeks ago dating since high school graduated college may first bf broke showing interest someone else want hurt me also concerned mental health end i feels like depression since first thought handling things well after initial days crying depression started working new skills exercising more started going therapy only two sessions far sure caused downward spiral started second therapy session therapist wanted joint session ex could get clarity stand basically ended in friends wants explore still want her kept composure throughout session left room we live together next week could hold anymore blasted music cried eyes minutes since then dreams every night include guy interested if familiar gta rp server mind trying pretend like nothing happened going past days basically wake crying every day mind keeps hurling insults hear you fucking die repeatedly head every day want think things want hatred someone deserve it basically friends group friends play games every day related ex way her little brother cousins bf even spoken girl since started dating antisocial cannot even keep conversation others distract sometimes play group play games own even then start feeling pain againi much pain know do alone one save now scared want pain stop,1 mizzzidc why post it online backing your stupid act with kicking back to depression trying to play emotional game to win pity from people you ll commit suicide because of shoe lol i m sorry for you dear keep up the energy,1 alydesigns i wa out most of the day so didn t get much done,0 sister recovering addict recovery almost two years feeling redflaged anxious overwhelmed life told worried relapse suicide gets overwhelmed try talk help alleviate redflag life done things like clean house make sure peaceful space worry that got doctors contact information need insurance card call make appointment asked couple times time overwhelmed already asked right then cannot ask much push hard gets overwhelmed freaks out house two children worry children much stimulation one year old want help care her also afraid leave alone afraid anything actually afraid talk try keep kids away give quiet think upset afraid try talk going overwhelmed afraid talk things provide distraction show upset think care overwhelmed help idea do know,1 okay stream running obs black screen like hours idk fuck stream went tf found went phub realized streamline black screen where ion fucking know,0 lol honeybaby i sound like a ny quil commercial that word only look right with a green background i want to sleep but i can t,0 bored car way back snowboarding bored hell yaaay anyone wanna talk,0 "@vagabonduk omg, you guys were AMAZING at music live ! best band there in my opinion , heres another person who'll be buying your album ",0 "We're almost there but still recruiting! In particular we are looking for controls, generally healthy participants with no history of depression as well as people with depression. For more information, and to take part visit: https://www.neuroimmunology.org.uk/take-part/  #TakePartInResearch pic.twitter.com/ONHxvQMqVf",1 weird think first months normal rona came america normal life,0 is ecstatic........now i should really take up astrology.......i predicted 8.5........and bingo 8.68 !!!! ,0 feeling incrediblydepressedalonemiserablemy fiance moved across country him week later got cancer fighting that terrible genetic disease caused its called nf tumors body anyways k miles away home friends except few doesnt even matter destryoing fiance neediness lonliness cant work lost clothes shoes move many reasons ready die want die going die point anyways serve pain terrible pain worst want die trying hard live brain keeps telling die want wake fiance ask help ive asked enough whats point even writing problems much explain also see therpaist via phone cant see anymore due insurence reasons falling apart cant hold together anymore physically sick emotional sick hate look hideous ugly fat want exist,1 really venting posti live constant need end every day thats want write about ive subscribing lot different subreddits recently found one ive reading snippets reading comments others guess want give collective heartfelt thank everyone subreddit really cool little virtual respite exists uncaring cold void world yeah post follow rules something guess none ever read this,1 Depression and obsession don't mix well,1 someone homophobe like theyre literally homo sapien dumbass people days smh,0 need become bully maguire give tips otherwise door never fixed,0 would weird talk old friend havent talked two years recently got snap wanted rekindle friendship also really quietclosed friends thats faded ive gained confidence social shit would weird message her followed back spam page past months still like photos time time ig,0 love meme family impressed you ampxb processing img mfjdgzijkua,0 keep ending back herebetween ages tried commit redflag twice never able get help therapy deal own began strongly advocate anyone ever committing redflag gave perspective someone whod grown past wanted show others too feel like liar gotten past all im now teenage years spent trying pick pieces mental health ive kind become burnout despite much loved drop put college due life issues im indebted go back even wanted to matter much feel like im longer suicidal guy matter much feel like one used harm seem always find right back here seems like everytime find shred hope im confronted even issues snuff potential happiness feel like im cursed walk dark shadow head despite beautiful think world is much love people come across id better end everything finally rest know ill actually it know make im really expecting advice even response thought would great guess im sick holding feeling want say somewhere hopefully itll take weight heart,1 countdown end journal survived attemptmy apologies amigos know ive building tension everyone expected grand finale picked xanax script monday took entire bottle took lithium escitalopram handfull advill well entire bottle mucinex dm good measure woke hospital im fucking failure update make new plan,1 i m starting to hate this routine i ve gotten myself into i especially hate my job i mean it s convenient and it doesn t suck all the time but this place ha me by the ball i never see anyone anymore i m trying to save up for a car but i suck at saving i m going nowhere in my life and on top of that i m starting to wish i didn t push everyone away or isolate myself but i can t help it,1 "Check out 'Cinema Bizarre - Melbourne, VIC' at Eventful.com - http://is.gd/Q6Ix ",0 anyone else pets think this dog laying right licking yknow loving like dogs do always suddenly become depressed know one day little pup gonna die ive experienced pets dying fucking sucks feeling bad part pet owner also religion dont believe dogs pass afterlife sucks even more cause like family member dies atleast like ill meet one day pets die like that,0 someone ik committed redflagi know well still upsetting thats thing upsetting io like want kms even question anybody would want stop redflag nothing relief think might died due redflag though something else im suicidal ik gonna happen me and hopefully soon top kinda makes want commit redflag due pain hand extremely triggering time triggering would almost nothing trigger me,1 physics teacher talking big little im trying hard laugh loool topic slit separation case wondering,0 want anymore bpdpersistent depressive syndrome years unstable relationships friendships im left one good friend across ocean anyone else probs wishes well cant bothered say anything else matter hard time making friends becoming close people mainly find people interested wanting friends connectionchemistry terms social circle legit alone clearly good reason years suicidal ideation recently intense attempts firm belief always way want way always way ruins follow life evidence sort also revealing messed person am cant job effectively anymore could even that reaching incredibly hard justify reasons so hard do cant around people family job im unhappy life be cant around sake cant anymore,1 god wants dieive miserable childhood ive used tool majority life im trying vein get job look positives bad situations time there try destress take mind bad things going life even fails play games lose almost every game time favorite team gets beat time rarely im happy issue god deliberately brought world suffer seems god wants see die nothing life noteworthy celebrate heavily about,1 hellowho awake,1 in bed finally long day tomorrow,0 virtuallin i actually really like taub for some reason i thought the bromance with kutner wa cute still kutner sigh,0 girlfriend keeps making comments redflagdear rsw girlfriend keeps making comments committing redflag things like i wonder much nail polish remover id drink die i spent hours class today wondering best way die is think best would slit wrists run heavy traffic know do ive told much love much hurts hear things like this keeps saying things recently started pill im worried something exacerbating it brushed suggestion talk doctor stopping pill do get this edit point reference college,1 wish brave enoughi feel terrible actually got point point really wishing life would go away brave enough anything it bpd since live uk getting help pretty much massive fight waiting years far therapy classed serious actually attempted redflag yet reason mother told ever tried would furious cant deal thought dying hating me im stuck living nothing able kill myself hate much living stupid country also means unlikely able get help least years many antidepressants none worked most reacted badly to lofepramine say work take away offer support know anymore cant live like cant die,1 life feel shitty i m not smart i don t find myself attractive i m so skinny have no friend toxic family not in a relationship i feel lame i m legit going insane have suicidal thought but luckily i feel a bit better cuz i had a convo with my therapist today i feel like nothing is changing my mind,1 wrong mei lost years reason ever since little wanted girl grew playing bratz dolls dress dad told stop fag always tried get guy things interest in want go shopping drink venti girls could go examples idk feel way going try start hrt im scared dont understand wanted bad opportunity presented scared away dont know would even explain family cant even explain myself due years suicidal thoughts alienate everyone around me tried make obvious sometimes talk nobody seems notice bitch feelings never ask feel nobody cares me dont even care im scared commit redflag either dont think ever able actually transition even transitioned would fix problems suicidal thoughts dont know im sure id happier dont want regret it hate way look dont know why crossdress feel great pretty top world feel like im trapped current situation im dont want regret im age im still confused deeper source pain giving thoughts dont actually want become female instead want mend mental issues dont know brain like this dont even feel like going anymore seems never ending fight prize unachievable happiness never felt true happiness dont understand im full much pain,1 "Anchor Hocking Manhattan Pink Depression Glass Serving Bowl, Relish Dish, Candy Dish with Double Handles, Ribbed Pattern, 1930's https://etsy.me/2Jryzu3  via @Etsy",1 need talk someone anyone pleasei need talk someone im many talk to got done slitting wrists deep could want more cant talk anyone cause im afraid understand want parents know someone please pm me help out please,1 tried mdma best friend first time yesterday bad trip ended telling everything made unhappy life feel like courage commit redflagits along story boring okay dont read it dont mind called happy pills tried girlfriend said nice experience asked wanted try knows sad time convinced easily genuinely excited feel happiness fun time best friend told start one pill but minutes hour later nothing happening took another one later one half minutes later started panicking going heart attack like feeling ten times worse usual going insane lying bed left side clenching muscles felt like eternity couldnt stop rubbing right foot left one ended tearing skin friend starting comfort me telling sorry was shouldve known better genuinely felt bad could tell wasnt clenching teeth telling terrified was kept biting inside cheek hard could almost felt good noticed saw bloody teeth helped drink water told important state two hours kept telling unhappy was wanted happier couldnt disease ruined life wasnt brave enough get help went on always repeating stuff got angry myself told pathetic was said wasnt came out like that something never thought id tell anyone hate much get humiliation well year now somehow turned insecurities sexual pleasure stuff seen porn took seriously hate porn always attracted women think awesome yet cant think woman wouldnt love potentially kill me barely imagine loving relationship anymore see cruel looking woman anything destroy soul like it hate like it would never imagine things wasnt porn dont think women evil never hate them im stupid hate myself im confused let happen years ago womans skin mine sexiest thing think beating nothing hurts much am know isnt wasnt like before remember precisely day lost confidence years old new year school kept thinking hard talk others now used clown making people laugh made happy wanted like everything could make laugh lot friends wanted attention afraid alone friends kids alone always invited play us last year elementary school life going get worse every passing year noticed different thought mature thats dont act like buffoon anymore maybe puberty thats wanted think looking back now dealing mild depression stayed good six years turned happy become adult fucking scared already feeling like wasted teenage years never meeting new people always old stuff couldve couple girlfriends years knew interested me felt exhausting thinking day would break would hurt me cant take rejection big part convinced much love solitude end high school less guy years that hey man wanna come party didnt go couldve met new friends wanna try improv us course not im shy obviously wouldnt good spent high school years group friends loved go restricted cant go auditorium bet well go well even eat everyday cant go sewers chill well matter weird go i even brought girl im good girls didnt seem mind talked pretty long time there im call gentleman cant go rooftop well find way we never did principal hated us always told smart kid whos better this liked comments thought time least bit fun even never really experimented anything else dumbass liked draw wanted become comic book writer artist pretty good never motivated enough become better never stopped writing though in first language french least liked play guitar always mediocre could see performing mean solo front intoxicated overly enthusiastic audience still couldnt practice hard enough get there point simply thought incredibly lazy wish was end high school beginning end me idea wanted do love writing stories used zombies outlandish stuff like assassins anything got movies started watching hundreds thought filmmaker must great goal bring imagination life two years later now im want make movies still write stories never finish them least one character basically me recently wrote man fights underground fight club hes good always win even though wants die hes waiting someone kill him everyday never happens day felt really going die soon his body took much damage time met woman lost dog friend shes nice spunky deep feels lonely man likes keeps winning fights always meet park every night talking dimly lit bench still dies though finally losing fight finally something good hes fundamentally idiot cant make right choices order achieve happiness result hurts woman blames helping him even fault want develop make movie feel like could it wont last two years went cegep some bullshit useless garbage school meant stress fuck damage even emotional level tons work do little people meet one friend there end couldnt even go classes didnt even strength climb stairs kept going library watching whatever netflix job mcdonalds loved people worked night hated others day fucked eventually basically fired even though technically quit still hurts think about date time frame horrible dont know boring her probably me thor ragnarok really wasnt enough bring us together all thats lot failures row got expelled school failing every single classes lost job failed romance hurts bad cant even bring try again back bad trip part yesterday nothing months now anyway event tell friend doesnt judge me even held arms cried still panicking severe depressiondrugs mix dont well drugs told scared dying told would okay went much details humilation thing ill leave that pains think it know awful gross couldve left right there never talk stayed told best friend cares me fell asleep times later apologizing many times next day uncomfortable deeply embarrassed tells shouldnt be hes proud talked feelings wants get professional help asked wanted go see movie clear mind accepted way there everything looked weird almost unreal cant describe it felt like alone world next me got relaxed movie even smiled little dont deserve best friend got back home took shower contemplated cutting veins razor blade die right there want know didnt it didnt want mother find floor naked blood ridiculous ive thinking ways die without upsetting anyone love much could isnt way all id hurt anyway matter die thats hate most im tired fucking tired cant anything zero energy went see movie first time two weeks went outside dont consume nearly enough calories dont exercise anymore cant even finish tv shows loved im convinced wont even final season game thrones fucking love show man sticking around dont understand im like that used watch many movies movie watchlist packed many dont even care watching them want cant even that dont die soon ill vegetable months time go dont belong here hate living theres nothing waiting me live people thats it want something myself now sad pain unbearable cant keep going want read comments made way here dont everyday wanted story written someone understand it cant see alive following weeks ill kill tomorrow fully clothed warm bath look decent find me dont want suffer im cutting veins quickly underwater listening heatmisers christian brothers last song name hugo,1 go get dsdswii older console start playing games right now seriously go play something it youll blast time probably best era nintendo games especially super mario galaxy series soundtrack gold dont these feel bad you,0 jardinjaponais hug i hope your day get better cell phone provider are made of suck,0 @renehdz18 Thanks! ,0 im fat know sounds kind dumb feel like im addicted eating think thats best word eat junk food breakfast lunch multiple small snacks throughout day im currently years old pounds try eat snack best hold minutes really need help believe not want die someone please help,0 hi gamsrs anyons wnt discordio basically guys girls shitposting playing games like among us minecraft javacracked war thunder fall guys doom hearts iron overwatch csgo one guy big nintendo fan wants friends chilllll dm link d,0 feeling casually suicidal nothing helpingthis started happening wednesday afternoon particularly feel like trying kill wanna dissappear like wanna asleep unconscious day theres literally nothing wanna anyone there used write lot felt like shit even working anymore theres one write reddit stupid someone end please okay itll like days anyone even finds checks,1 hey anyone wanna chat need get smth chest also open hella bored hit up dms always open _____________________________________________,0 ok im scrolling reddit people talk revolution im like fucking revolution never heard gonna revolution help,0 french guiana french guiana,0 "@KimKardashian Depression and mental illness make us think wider, feel deeper and love harder. It's who we are. All the creative,expressive,brilliant people in world history have some form of mental illness it's because we SEE and FEEL more than the average person #NormalisBoring",1 i ve been woth my boyfriend for two year now but i ve known him for he get triggered fairly fast and he end up feeling anxious for hour or he get very intense anxiety attack where he can t breathe well and he start cry uncontrollably the first thing i used to do when i sense that he s getting anxious wa give him a hug or even just hold his hand physical touch seemed to help him so much it immediately calmed him down and he would be able to talk about what wa making him feel scared or overwhelmed or threatened however we re now in a long distance relationship and i haven t seen him in a year it s very difficult for both of u but this specifically make it unbearable at time we both know that we ll see each other soon but saying that doesn t help when he s anxious what should i do,1 finally met someone for the first time today.. we had been trying for so long. haha!,0 life meaningless cannot fall asleep night thoughts keep awake cannot get bed morning point days exactly reset everyday wish would stop death sounds like peaceful happy state long happiness truly happy years even know feels anymore showering brushing teeth functioning human activities pointless me care anything make plans might tomorrow care possessions going need them want endgetting help horrible firstly need admit something right thoughts normal need tell others feels like convincing problem call problem everyone sees infact solution problems others see it people say permanent solution temporary problem problem temporary delaying inevitable going die someday want happen sooner rather later fuck world everyone honestly care life constant suffering small instances happiness start taking medication lucky works often not still feel even worse go psychiatrist tell entire lifes story even parts never told anyone feel beter walk room last long right back old self constantly trying fix exhausting see results makes everything worse begin think worth give up way easier end yet keep trying day many times going able catches youi tired tired pretending ok tired pretending give fuck tired thoughts tired putting work fix even know fixed ask way time wish normal maybe even bit closer bottom iq range maybe would accept everything is laugh peoples stupid jokes pathetic human stuff normal feel alive one big dream honest real difference reality dreams maybe kill finally wake dreamfuck worldi want pretend anymorei depression never understand want give advice tell suck go fuck yourself inside mind suicidal person,1 "Oh ok, i see how it is. Period and depression are just gonna double team me cuz i'm a little bitch and can't stand minor failures that i know better on. Like letting food expire before cooking it.I see how it is, thx. Love it.",1 stuff finding a small enough picture i will jsut have to be this weird face for the rest of my twitter life lol,0 fucking tired want sleep thirty billion years wake up watch sun explode go back bed ask alive,1 please trash art got rejected art collab thing cuz like portfolio please tell sucks art improve qwq stuff here httpsdrivegooglecomfolderviewidjggirwnmmvvtghcldulicduwkg,0 think used get attached easily try deny week something made think get attached way easily mean used think think back like even often would almost anything keep friend loose one fault get either overly sad angry opposite getting attached kinda feel like meno thats star wars reference fuckers try realize times try deny mindset think back lot times maybe least incidents mindset last months so,0 loneliness might kill mewhen first starting writing post included way much details bullshit ive year life stopped becausei want bore sob story long story short years life lived fullest battling major depressive disorder ptsd anxiety ive abused forms people claimed love me including family however also traveled created cool art danced lot fast forward today cute lil apartment cats within walking distance job im sitting thinking much longer take feeling loneliness handful people consider friends far away difficult imagine getting romantically close anyone every recent relationship left traumatized broken coping skills working anymore know going head cant reverse broken heart ive able overcome every single relationship one rough chest literally hurts idk even writing anymore heard sounds nice,1 ever feel stuckive thinking past days occurred often ive feeling suicidal since turn november recently came back ive sat thought right do people noticed something yeah was told not felt stuck constantly ranted people sort stuff suppose im sick rely someone know keep telling could worse again feel stuck really want feel like friend one talks consistently enjoys around me everyone way busy nowadays suppose cant complain know sort rant wanna see anyone relate all,1 bobbyly nah gentleman i got class at am on wednesday but thanks anyway lt,0 cut since february year clean know specifically causing this feel like tonight felt terrible month falling behind classes sleeping erratically lately feel like there know it putting there try get head trying fall back bad habits,1 always happen mei met boy thought scored sweetheart loved fucking much yesterday complete fucking cock me fucking do blocks facebook hes coward knows see eachother soon summer break cant fucking deal anymore im tempted go fill tummy pills fill hole thats there,1 still at work,0 just did copy cat ksnm... made over 300k ~Caravaggio~,0 listening entirity ram ranch ive decided make update log journey discord call listening ram ranch audio clips second one lot male moaning im beginning question sexuality,0 hide depression,1 "ahh, just seen the 'my sister's keeper' trailer! is it june 16th yet?! ",0 woman left alone death husband finds attracted sons friend handy man slightly twisted story woman begins sleeping handy man effort revive herself twisted part handy man also daughters love interestbr br as strange enough mother manages fall man daughter finds out blames dysfunctional relationship also messed life poor motherbr br though may think badly woman truth movie manages portray notredflag light beautifully played anne reid character dimension portrays great emotionbr br a truly brilliant performance enjoyable filmbr br ,0 how doe suicide really feel for your loved one my friend told me that it would probably be pretty painful and sad but i m wondering if people even care,1 feel right nowim disappointed myself ive always hated myself grew christian family comfort guide life religion literally hates everything am yes im gay cant stop it dont want it could fucking choose straight would fucking would easier doesnt leave life full extraextra pain promo doesnt make parents extremely disappointed doesnt make family disgust you doesnt make god regret you god think anyway dont know ill go hell killing myself im going hell homo born loving men literally thats it doesnt make want murder well make want murder murder myself hard hard experience waking everyday thinking theres million shitty things hate yourself want end want someone else hope insecurity isnt experience mother talking homosexuality sin youre writing redflag note experience feel one accept ever youre gay are think youre inadequate shameful sinful ungrateful hateful fucking full it i dont know more say dont want gay didnt want it am dont think theres anything wrong it but judge world thinks wrong must be say god hates prophets god themselves atheist im pushed away dont want anyone change are want people stop hurting someone whos done nothing wrong ive lived life never giving chance could others ive lived life utter alone even theres others around ive spent life know im one ill ever get end dont even like myself im selfish anyone feel bad wanted even little bit myself sinful thats said fault born way god hate making like this sentencing death flames death inside everyone outside rotting it dont want blame anyone myself dont know really dont want this but really think way im going hell now lets waste time id like thanks people tried help me many people made make decision breaks heart mother talk stuff gay people like asked wanted dress like woman wont give money purposes homosexuality gays need pay men actually get sort romance lives sad lives force live this gay doesnt mean youre different anybody else means love men nothing else comes it want dress like woman nothing gay wanted to never want ridicule mother anyone love her very much told loved me cant take more cant ive lived like ive one along ive died one all cares die anyway wont even probably notice gone ive wanted grow normal person experience love life like everyone else happy like everyone else cant given that deserve this made feel like dirt everything wrong everyone hates it why why why im still myself always been im just gay changes me im grateful whatever anyone given me family misplaced love theyve given me support matter few there family really nice actually dont deserve this thank friends never felt like true me think lot friends hate too maybe im one thinking that matter many talked still felt scared very alone selfish better dont even bother wasting money already have chuck body river rot let nature claim it would killed sooner later people hate gays sorry im gay say im worse dirt,1 cant anymorei always felt place everyone friend groups always feel like im spectator rather player guess im bad person deserve feel way even people try say nice things me deep know bullshit think last much longer,1 "We were playing marco polo yesterday in the room with blown up mattresses, and he pinned me to a wall and wouldnt let up. Hah ",0 the first serial about my city so stupid,0 i m in college and i get so much anxiety from doing even the most basic rebellious thing before people mention it yes i know i can always leave the situation but i genuinely do want to experiment and try new thing out i d hate for my college day to go to waste i m going to an event this weekend and i m literally so anxious because they re talking about doing some very very minorly rebellious thing there thing that 0 of people do in college but im still so anxious ok im probably just being repetitive so i ll stop but any input is appreciated,1 hello name ang years old struggling battle redflag depression quite long time now right going rough period able get bed sleeping crying feel meaning life pointless point human life dumb miss able feel something feel lost idk release pain trying something dumb point feel point here sort comment appreciated thanks lost life,1 Enjoying the nice 64F weather in SF n watching the Angels vs the Giants I wish I had my camera tho http://twitpic.com/7ikxe,0 hi all i m working in human resource for a smaller company and we re keen to making sure we re being inclusive we ve managed to implement flexibility for those who celebrate different religion belief new parent and a variety of physical disability but we re still learning when it come to neurodiversity generally we re very ambitious and strong believer in inclusion for all so we want to make sure we re going above and beyond rather than just doing the bear minimum my question for you is what process and or action have you seen company take that were groundbreaking or in some may made a major difference to you a someone with anxiety it can also be something you heard of rather than something that happened to you specifically if you don t know a company doing something that you feel would be very effective what would you love to see a company do,1 rebels vs empire jihad vs mcworld books video many times empire strike back long china buys subtitled cgi ben barber compiled countless citations tell story rebels vs empire jihad vs mcworld mcdonalds doesnt sell burgers million national citizens every day serve customers gilette ceo record declaring foreign countries longer foreign global market corporations transcended nations dominoes pizza higher annual revenue bolivia twitter power unperson commander chief barber simplifies argument duality pinning corporate imperialism sovereignty form jihad book make question indoctrinated beliefs entitled natural resources forefathers lands ive seen short lifetime alone blowback ignored us govt packaged powerful entrapment tool galvanize young middle eastern radicals barber brings origins american militiamen long lost ideas confederalism speculating fccs ability limit broadcast spectra mtv fell qvc plugged hole representing global conjugation ideas culture prepare go theoretically deep political compasss classic rivalry authoritarianism libertarianism youtube httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvejicigmlahttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvejicigmla itunes httpspodcastsapplecomuspodcastnicksnonfictionidhttpspodcastsapplecomuspodcastnicksnonfictionid soundcloud httpssoundcloudcomusernicksnonfictionjihadvsmcworldhttpssoundcloudcomusernicksnonfictionjihadvsmcworld,0 "Goodnight everybody, i off to dreamland if anything just send me a DM",0 damn insurancebought life insurance itd pay house roommate homeless go two year redflag clause cant till april year could take two fucking yearsi dunno,1 im glad finally released dvd bought video tape years ago watch least twice yearbr br grammer wry wit really makes movie success formula certainly original funny nonetheless surprised receive higher ratingsbr br it ranks one alltime favorite comedies fun little flick makes feel good sometimes thats movie meant be,0 Enjoying a lovely Sunday afternoon Got back from babysitting and now gonna go shopping and get a coffee!,0 really bad ones im risk moment impulsesso impulses want kill myself ive depression many years never seeked help really know depression thought normal feel like time matter untill beginning last summer started getting thoughts impulses sometimes lasted day sometimes couple weeks things escalate realised one day month ago edge bridge ready jump off really needed help so told parents all crying sides end began seeing therapist taking antidepressants problem is still get impulses time time sometimes theyre strong like second thought head times know things escalate real quick get make sure stay around parents around someone care about ask anything remain controlled mean things mind tricks something convince really want want do because now control moments feel like going worse times need anyone convince need live know that problem is get kinds impulses stop caring think justdo it,1 dealing aftermath best friends redflagoh god jesus fuck me found corpse best friend late april friends house time watching tv lounge hung bedroom right next door never heard thing saw done like meltdown head felt neuro tissue synapses everything snapped screaming like tidal wave ripped body tore every fibre apart months depressed hell feeling alone due wide impact friends present night suffered trauma well anyone rely support ive suppressing it managing best im highpressure postgrad programme year simply option fall cry sleep im angry weepy cold cant talk talk much weirdest thing trauma seems morphed selfloathing depression im paranoid anxious easily distraught feel completely alone keep thinking following killing too sparks redflag cluster everything fucked feel like ill never like disturbed years years come,1 happened got girlfriend dont know fucking got one really really like girl every single one friends thinks perfect match im native american shes mexican friend said gonna beautiful golden skinned babies im trying yet im open like years really feels like shes perfect,0 survive high schooli know dumb im severe depression life even hard yet ive cut second time today im loser failure eyes all reason brothers ruined moms eyes nothing worth im average best ugly inside out see reason live happens get yelled at try talk im overreacting reddit depression even count,1 wrote words without taking breaks shit get pat back smth write much left arm hurts _ obv context hobby author decided break record today wirting speed wordsminutes i count amp set timers helps write more wrote minutes still count sounds lot see mins pass,0 nothing ever make feel satisfied myselfi keep pushing people away know theyre better without lives im finally alone made peoples lives better leaving still feel selfish empty want fucking leave earth want wake,1 psychiatrist told hed call psych ward me told reddit threw idea psych ward away thankslong story short ive impulses im really really close taking life told psychiatrist one them said ok that called one day later said realize serious wants safe wants someone call first mom told thats go dad another go psych told hed call psych matter wanted sorry it told got reddit safe guardian backed off telling great reddit therefore need psych wanted increase talks week twice week so thank reddit saved psych ward theyre abusive af tldr told psychiatrist suicidal impulses wanted call psych told reddit safe guardian said ok call psych,1 sigh i think my pm is making my mind totally over analyse thing and making me sad,0 mental breakdown front dad people snicker sometimes school one kid called school shooter overreacting feel like,0 ive achieved something got follower reddit thats big achievement,0 want die never asked life never desire aspiration become anything hurt many times throughout life pain moments everything small talk inevitably useless time spent romantic notredflag implode means nothing end whole make best bullshit something tired hearing depression absolute certainty add little value society yes bpd but lot people want quiet left alone without feeling fucking lonely time know really make sense like welcome brain reason want burden fall onto anyone else like clean mess plan funeral explain it constant fear inconvenient thing keeping alive blah blah blah,1 @shelby_says ha ha funny ,0 lmao ugly im ugly believe pedophile wouldnt come dumb enough fall pedo tricks also pedo thats subreddit stub toe brick care hes shit head,0 @LogicTrain you might like some wall decals for your nursery - but wait for paint to fully dry. http://www.cuteybaby.com,0 tired short tall countryi hate live country average height tired trying happy positive jealous tall friends even shortest girl class height ashamed hate life stressing height cant anymore even worse im going stop growing soon always wanted happy know cant those,1 decisionsi want write life story wont may recognized ill annoyingly vague little money looked various methods redflag seems need acquire gun none methods possible certain enough paying gun put awkward position buy use it likely literally homeless streets shortly afterward buy it use it commit course action would prefer make final decision without pressure think can reasons ending life worth arguing about alone unwanted unloved far longer people reading alive problem amenable solution cannot loved cant prove that far beyond obvious years care even discuss it may seem unsatisfied relationships no simply none relevant person emotionally never been even child know why wish person longer cannot anyone else need die decide soon whether make purchase want clear commit think nearly years evidence sufficient defective garbage one says so words say it kind decent people unwittingly say show every day ive miserable long enough time,1 only day later and ant have eaten clean it bone that poor little gecko skeleton so very disturbing i regret not mercy killing,0 is hungover and just want to stay in bed all day,0 used think redflag realized death nothingnessmy reasons thinking redflag might silly others reasons boredom mediocrity young everybody including myself believed great potential success family circumstances prevented reaching potential live normal life struggling like people felt equated failure wanted die instead work getting by thats saw future felt worth living still enjoy little things though comfortable bed watching favorite shows good food treasured friends kill myself what nothing i unlike others want redflag healthy pain would really want exchange little things nothingness even times burdened regrets self pity still things worth living recently realized big things life like successful career expensive travels amazing able release suicidal thoughts little things little things exchange nothingness death,1 loss hope constant rejection passionim exactly sure writing reddit feel hopeless unseen sometimes think im completely invisible im thinking redflag time lately try focus tasks things always end back killing myself know exist even world me im embarrassed myself hate myself think time things gotten better me im regret killing peak life good feel like people love me really know understand me always say accept comes always problem criticism me im sick it im nowhere feel safe anymore ive tried everything medication st johns wort therapy group therapy mindfulness taking one day fucking time it moments good happiness come always end back here really point mediocre existence place here friend help me even go talking it maybe someone read tell it one live life know suffer hope anymore society damaged mei remembered missed life made impact difference little thought special thought special wrong nothing unless someone power money says so im invisible seen im really afraid it know else do life better im better,1 exam zoom school holiday im starting develop violent behaviour towards person thought good idea,0 getting closecrying everyday cutting often can climax think weeks left maybe days get better now ill miss friends think leave know feeling working really hard like hours straight finally get home take shower hop bed first time feet alllllll day cover sheets feel like cloud fall asleep like baby imagine thats feel right now feels like im working hours straight strenuous physical labor going home taking shower standing front bed watching it im tired want lay down want just drift off love much think voice thats tugging shirt finally gonna take me,1 cooking with my brother for my granny - a day off from work for our dear one ,0 even knowfeel free remove postdue various reasons halfway life friends family living isolated alone better part life getting away schizophrenia abusive drugaddicted mother whole foster careangsty metalrecreational drug use thing met summer week later witness trial helped save partner violentpotentially lethal burst rage thats point philosopher guy said real question whatever live die honestly think life me could probably turn things around couple years hard work sorta care all appeal me shut down every second every fucking moment absolutely overwhelming know im expecting posting this imagine guys would say something understanding even point that lead say im redflag risk dog way important let plebian mess training absolutely interest life would much rather all wasted feels like donate organs nearest person world whatsoever,1 I'm out looking for warblers! Seen a yellow so far! And a blue grey gnatcatcher ,0 LIVING WITH DEPRESSION - 2017 INSPIRATION https://youtu.be/8uo2Khn6R-4  via @YouTube,1 moved away home town want go back feel trapped urge self harmi moved away home town girlfriend want move back doesnt stressed panicking treating badly angry want move back likes live now mental health really bad every day fighting urge self harm kill myself know do wish could kill upset anyone,1 "@amber_benson We all definitely need more up! Down with down, have some more up, 7up, 1ups and fruit rollups. ",0 a selfie a day keeps the depression away,1 paisley ant farms eyes look swedish czech shape color also dumb girl woth really long hair remember shape color,0 stephenkruiser so sorry to hear about your dog,0 i m glad i watched this during the worst depression of my life bc i don t remember a single thing other than that i loved it and i m saving it for a rainy day,1 they are not bad people though it my fault they ignore me school drive me crazy and i think ill never be really comfortable with the way life is i dont want to die but i really dont want to live,1 my day is so much better night!,0 tf people going profile commenting post made damn days ago dont see point tf profile anyway,0 im sick feeling like im nothingim really low point im frustrated ive struggled depression years past months feeling like getting better still bad days even bad weeks periods time felt like wasnt making progress general felt like things getting better now since summer started feel like im back square one back two three years ago feel worthless hopeless im sleeping well eating properly hate everything body personality feel unmotivated indecisive feel like im existing without purpose potential im wasting every day feeling horrible energy anything little bursts excitement things used passionate about theyre shortlived im starting feel like ill never get better cant keep living like this know theres something wrong cant get help parents take mental illnesses seriously think positive attitude would never understand im actually dealing with feel like one cares like life uninteresting meaningless compared everyone elses think redflag every day feel like get with,1 research purposes im f pls let know thoughts below research purposes im f pls let know thoughts below,0 dont know people think bad movie got pretty good plot good action change location harry hurt either sure offensive gratuitous movie like that eastwood good form dirty harry liked pat hingle movie small town cop liked dirty harry see one lot better dead pool ,0 one person cared told leave alone guess final stop back bridge first attemptedas title says told leave alone needed call never lets anymore guess me farewell solenya,1 post throwaway oh wellthe past two years life hell every time feel like im making progress life feels like falls apart havent suicidal like months reason today bad feel alone sad looked phone realize one talk to dont want go hospital cause always end hospital wanted january different im struggling find reasons live,1 mdma depression xanax anxiety methamphetamine adhd rohypnol insomnia clozapine psychosis vicodin back pain,1 i don t feel like myself anymore and i don t think i can be fixed not a day go by where i wish i didn t wake up again i don t know what s wrong and i ve been trying so hard to be better i just can t do it anymore i m so sorry,1 angeri feel extreme anger resentment towards every aspect life especially today wish could die thoughts could go away,1 need nonlonelyness looking relationship type friends something else perfect dm wanna something tell wanna be im asking im lonely need someone talk wont abandon bad typing need someone work say stuff ok dont want to im calling technically am dont need get mad jack you thanks reading asshat reddit username papoeo,0 there s a very thin line between lack of money and depression,1 tians remake good all click remake documentary see wei wei original actress back classic film say words crew going meet wei wei sunday showing xiao cheng zhi chun hong kong film archiev wei wei almost years old silver hair cameo appearance hong kong films always surprise fans years hong kong film festival special program dedicated fei mu director epic movie wei weis still shot movie seen around hong kong son turns year surprised wei wei beautiful then,0 "@JadeK Ok, I'll have to mark that on my calendar. ",0 @jamescaan let us no some of the weird business you see lol,0 in recent week i ve been starting to learn how to live with my anxiety to the point where i very minimally get anxiety anymore anxiety itself happens a couple time a week still but it s nothing i can t handle today i had an amazing day with friend and of course we drank a lot to the point where i wa very drunk at the end which is okay bc i drink more than average i m 9 anyway it wa an unforgettable day and i went to sleep drunk af boom i wake up with the biggest anxiety attack i ve had in month out of nowhere you all understand anxiety attack so hopefully you get it when i say that i wa totally convinced my body woke me up because i wa dying in my sleep or that a heart attack wa nearing now i m calming down on the couch at 0 am watching the office when i just want to sleep what i just want to get off my chest is that i hate that this stupid disorder follows me around in every aspect of my life it s just really depressing there s nothing i can do to make it stop ever it s just depressing that it s always there around the corner waiting for me i wa so proud of myself for learning how to deal with anxiety but now this shit happened to me and i just feel tired about it i honestly wouldn t wish this on my worst enemy i wouldn t wish it on anyone if i had to choose between infinite money or not having to live with anxiety ever again i d choose the latter every fucking time sorry but i just had to vent about this im just tired,1 want write post help vent get suicidal thoughts took like minutesi unwell dont energy anything order get better,1 people actually telling mums crushessos like why mom keeps asking who like do girlfriend im gonna make think im single forever probably tbh ll also idk embarassing like im religious parents condone stuff feels weird talk even friends romantic stuff people talk parents it,0 "but seriously, One Day At A Time (2017) is truly lovely and has an amazing episode on depression & anxiety that everyone should watch",1 I love my hubster...he is the best ,0 Me at the doctors: thinking abt how to tell the doctor idk how much my meds have been doing to help my depression v how much it is that I've just been distracted by my retribution excitement and that's overcome my daily self loathing and bad thoughts,1 alissa rule basically i feel like i need to take better care of myself after seeing that fool no more juicin for me,0 why do most video i play skip and jump,0 made idiot first day workhey guys imagine lot reading posts im gonna cut short save time work today finished school looking job shortly after im lucky found it felt really good get it however failed first day missunderstood assignment failed entrance exam im going tomorrow feel like shit now thought good smart person failing complete opposite nowhere near person want be never really been top that feel like everyone hates me people tell tons friends none call talk unless call first pretty much thing feel good im pretty good making music hope thats future kill,1 "@caitlinmoran To others. That's been 18 months of counselling(so far) and a direct result of that (still embryonic) discovery, I've started to properly deal with the depression and anxiety which has blighted my life and relationships for twenty five years. It's hard work, but will be worth it",1 Watchin a Film ,0 attempted redflag another thing failed atit two weeks since almost died life full almosts pretty much it know redflag fate im pretty sure sure,1 Could 'one puff' of cannabis ease depression? #WeedWatch$ACB.T $APH.T $BLO.C $CHOO.C $CMED.T $CRON.V $EMC.V $EMH.V $FIRE.V $GWPH $HIKU.C $LEAF.T $MYM.C $N.C $NINE.V $OGI.V $RQB.C $SNN.C $TER.C $THCX.V $WEED.T#ACMPR #Cannabis https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/321589.php …,1 sure want doive battled depression long remember ive ups downs tried every medicine known man little actual results days manage ok one redflag attempt teenager took bunch tylenol pm pills still idea survived ill effects lately ive struggling more something happened kind pushed edge difficult relationship recently ended ex flipped out sent pictures loading gun blaming telling making easy make decision use himself kill himself part knows manipulating trying make feel bad him whole incident left feeling bad found going medicines last night counting many had would super easy get car drive place know take let water wash away think go thoughts constantly there im even sure im posting this cant tell anyone life feel think would flip out put ex position put in thats wrong wants talk think can lines cross beyond rhe limits get past guess needed get chest,1 created mess feel end nearlong story short got dui blowing underage college never trouble entire life court next week depending goes ill make decision job opportunities line education entire lifes work point society thinks im scumbag given back community holding blood drives events children etc feel world deserve anymore deserve it im scared losing hope future need leave earth,1 fortnite audio issues im menu loading screen game sounds normal soon spawn waiting area sound completely disappears happen anyone else ijoy iso stereo bluetooth headset matters,0 cant take anymoreim years old hirsutism crazy leg hairstomach hairarm hair chest hair cant take anymore wake feeling disgusting go bed wishing never fucking born hate one ever love me wrote redflag note case ever it want to cant stand anymore everyone else family normal monster life gonna get worse might well leave cant hurt family cant hurt friends cry sleep every night wish day normal hairy disgusting want pain end want stop waking feeling hopeless im starting think way wake feeling hopeless wake all wrote redflag note case wanna wake anymore im gonna lose everyone whats point reason im family friends ill lose too happen me deserve this didbi disgusting fucking gross god ive lost motivation everything want okay ill never able feel happy again im tired im sick want kill badly worst part hair growth gonna get worse im fucking done nothing fucking matters end gets worse im waste space want pain fucking stop,1 fall rteenagers jk really guys enjoying lately hololive pretty cool especially fo getting drones school work,0 "GoodNight! Ya'll know I don't sleep.I pull all nighters,writing songs,& thinking of new ways to annihilate & embarrass my opponents ",0 "@hamrick_krista @itsAshleyBB Well Geeez Ashley, I don't know you but I suffer with depression as well. I was only trying to cheer her up. But thank you for rudely educating me.",1 levenrambin take it easy and be good to you,0 @xloveisonitsway They were indeed. I want to see him when he comes to Ldn ,0 considering redflag chronic pain headachesi daily headaches neck pain despite seeing multiple doctors ive gotten relief im years old life garbage even want go anymore cant play sports love activities enjoy wretched disorder study study study try think pain,1 im totally fuckup lmao whats wrong me im sorry wish coulda better you im tired hope happy im gone know truly want me gone forever im sorry love,0 @tiadantzler U mean in a few weeks? YAY!! Can't wait to see you. Same bat time! same bat channel! lol I went Adam West/Burt Ward on ya ,0 look like the nobel peace prize is simply a popularity contest http tinyurl com cffz h,0 @AngeJayT haha exactly and the kiss was just awesome Team Edward alllll the way!! what about you?,0 someone smoked weed past get legal trouble im asking question friend f old friends constantly messaging still alive arent surprised isnt dead yetfrom redflag argument bring smoked weed month ago im trying convince fine take schoolpolice shes afraid getting trouble,0 think really afford professional help medication wondering one day could feel hopeful like one day save enough somethinganything make brain make feel like absolute shit feel somewhat peaceful expecting one time fix know work like aware anti dep make cheery sudden even makes hopeless heavy feeling chest feel somewhat alleviated medication help,1 need ventim suicidal think got hit car tomorrow would okay it year sad yet happy hopeful time im awful rut boyfriend broke last april compatible knew start still remember walking room asking sit downugh cant even think it makes sick felt hopeless powerless nothing could stop leaving week later best friend is recently rocky relationship ended good life happy me felt like relationship wasnt good enough her me compared lives time wasnt boyfriend taking dates telling beautiful making plans me two weeks that parents split mom moved out help move things shit talked dad perfect dad whos given world became human mistakes faults put blast trying deal breakup deal parents shit talking other went therapy vented vented analyzed soul searched vented more started feel better ex new girlfriend still friendly ran other hope sadness would stop best friend started repairing relationship parents figured shit got back together feeling much better mean sad about graduated college got job major awesome friends best friend killed december technically november roommate find three days jesus still remember call i tell something hung herself know coldhot feeling stomach drops happened asking wait what why times got phone took deep breath felt numb felt like duty man tell friends ill deal grief later breaking news people strange everyones reaction same lot like own best friend dead person never realized things need do calling friends giving funeral information answering questions meeting family friends heard of etc know lot people sub want end friend wanted end notebook filled much hated herself self conscious was shes far gone help nothing going save according notebook saw different saw her happy soooo beautiful funny best cheering shit previously talked post feel shitty asking doing could know always happy dismissive talking life kept arms reach realize reason much going her much cool shit kept everyone dark hatred herself loved her wake open casket dead weeks time body able put rest know shitty open casket is shitty literally forced view her two best friends mother basically carrying see her needed to know needed to see one last time wanted last memory presence us sushi together laughing shit high school know needed this would done me thats was loyal loving caring life ended day funeral next day blur moving motions watching mother screaming casket lowered forever haunt dreams held people basically trying climb inside daughters casket always thought mother cold interested her buying love shopping trips funeral show that visiting mother funeral show that worst thing happen mother happened memorial sits living room candles friends light visit senior year picture displayed center prayer books dream catchers room small trinkets give peace mind bring flowers cake visit mother cuts slice places next picture eat slices swap funny stories im sure form ptsd two days services cry much long ive heard voice tears streaming write this im sad much going miss on wont around many things wish would around for know thought needed go really wish stayed wish finding happiness peace mean lose her feel hopeless powerless nothing could stop leaving,1 everything good life still hate wrong lifeim good looking friends girlfriend amazing family phd biological chemistry amazing job great payment amazing work place hate much really want kill soon thing stoping people love me matter cant love even look eye someone please kill im fucking suffering every second want like worked eat healthy everything might help nothing did help,1 one wearing mask started online school seen single fucking person mask school enforced policy california one top states cases lack decency responcibility really goes show fucked species is,0 good evil worldive pain suffering nearly everyday life thinking go away seems like redflag option right thoughts till god brought light humans hurt most think it hurt brought kind suffering kind pain thoughts answer always humans believe evil believe good good commit redflag nothing good leave world want bring good evil world jesus young knew name truly prayed asked show guidance truth did words bible learned live ask one thing search christ pray ask guidance ask come life may least bring good evil world something good leave world people one suffering suffer evil live spirit flesh pray truly need shall endure unto end shall saved matthew easier camel go eye needle rich man enter kingdom god mark ,1 "@marykuti True And btw, I'm thankful for you too! Late Nite is going to be incredible in the fall!",0 Going to the #cubs game on a beauuutiful afternoon for baseball ,0 please just end it please ive tried od ing ive tried slitting my wrist i cant do it right just someone tell me the fastest and least painful way,1 siddharth ind yeah i do i have an application that run every few minute to do that but it the add ons they conflict all the time,0 @McBeautiful yeah he is like 6'3" haha but I prefer tall guys than short guys ,0 depression and anxiety is a bitch i envy those people who don t have it,1 japanese probably sadistic movies around worldand one strongest exampleswith running time hourit contains enough sexual violence gore disgust every single sane person eartheven hunting type moviesthree men woman making porn filmafter normally shotswhich pixelatedthe girl tied upand madmen cut foodarm tongafter thatthey make hole abdomen man sexual intercourse intestineshe knocked unconscious penis cut offthe special effects good obviously low budget productiononly tong cut scene looks fakeand cant talk actingdirection screenplayafter hearing lot filmi happy finally found itthe first part pretty boringbut second one totally fk mindthe torture killing scenes extreme disturbing ever seenthe gore hounds satisfied tumbling doll fleshbut unknowing viewer even read synopsis,0 decided write future redflag note people care about first one brother islast night spent little hour writing redflag note brother intend making one everyone care people sure im really going go certainly serious ever it sure want expect community posting maybe someone see realize lot worse reconsider redflag is jason crazy really grow together later life got close years apart went life differently kids earliest memories living garage ltredactedgt vividly remember time mom made dinner kept calling come snapped feel like eating back somewhere going mental health issues child thought jerk now totally understand feels crippled mental health another memory necessarily involve much involves jeff ltredactedgt back first started hanging together driving relatively new ford mustang girlfriend moving said girlfriend sweet job working ltredactedgt outside looking appeared living dream remember thinking i really wish jason would get shit together like jeff could totally life time really anything going on think working bloomingdales something today proud big brother im proud become passion career something cant even fathom life truly found niche life confident one time greats do big brother want know appreciate you may argue fight disagree thats brothers supposed do hope resentment toward did spent better part last years life complete agony everyday struggle days others imagine every single day life thinking going die multiple times day cant enjoy things people like enjoy crippled make yourself cant go drinks amount disoriented feel causes think incoming stroke heart attack aneurysm cant even think going vacation anywhere fear far away hospital die catastrophic medical emergency take place simply driving anywhere outside normal mile radius causes distress nearest hospital eating smoking drinking water basic lifes necessities caused anguish would get lightheaded dizzy fatigued various physical symptoms anytime menial tasks time could escape felt sleep latest therapist asked how know done treatment little taken back question take long answer told knew was almost decade spent living way living know enjoyed doing know enjoy doing knew panic anxiety knew things would trigger feelings would avoid them unbeknownst me ended happening world became smaller smaller smaller know liked camping not knew last decade camping put far away society hospitals help act camping necessarily bother me panic brought made like camping day never camped fear logic could applied many parts life know like hawaii snowboarding fishing really anything remotely took small comfort zone like things would fuel anxiety panic simply put know ocmike was know ocmike liked like know mikes passions life im saying lifes questions answered saying however one able identify enjoyed doing made happy made continue life me know know anyone could tell enjoyed liked good reason feel commonalities anyone except people anxiety decided recently go find new friends figured would start meetupcom basic premise type things enjoy things would like common users would match like minded group people drew blank groups activities going day surely would group searching hours even figure liked doing appear liked anything lived battle demon inside me every single day imagine living like years life jail cell inside myself spent arguably greatest time ones life shell myself felt like since august permanent solution temporary problem temporary problem likely problem face way rest life think losing battle lost thousands won stress anyone nothing contribute decision nothing could prevent making decision decision make myself spent many months debating this long would allow live like prisoner long would lived like this get upset think took easy way out seriously ask yourself long would live like this ive tried best could paint picture life last years think things enjoy life imagine tomorrow every day believe going rest life cant enjoy them cant travel cant eat drink smoke without kind panic friends thing think need go home might pass die heart attack cant go sporting events cant mall long would allow live like this different medications therapists psychiatrists nothing seemed work things almost felt like getting worse better long would for decided long ago today would final day think sad time rather happy time finally live like anymore longer trapped suffocating panic anxiety love much bro keep you except nicer mom got damn good job given circumstances actually great job raising us kids lot impressive considering circumstances ps mom going beyond upset need take care little bit dont get frustrated her love her hold her let know truly loved would understand did me,1 girlfriend pretty similar situations right even know help her feel useless reason still cannot even anything help her thinks one cares her literally one care love much bad hurts much says stuff like that fault thinks that know that difficult hear sometimes cannot stay clean self harm starting hate even it scars look ugly legs never going go back normal want die scared might happen girlfriend letters somewhere everyone think needs one much pussy ever it think much longer cannot anymote,1 im sure keep going pointive spent pretty much whole time college getting without barely work think catch me looking really likely ill fail least one classes think theres way graduate despite still cant seem focus work,1 @hannahvictorius we should! We'll organise it properly next time. Glad you enjoyed it ,0 dont know come thisi look back past regret complete disregard future wish dead abuse substances feel numb im awake rest time im asleep,1 ever fine wave depression hits dont care anything wanna die,0 @hugheswb And you wonder why I was apprehensive to drink the beach juice at Nassau http://tinyurl.com/ntf59r ,0 modern era one likes theres room left hermiti annoy everyone maybe first maybe while old friends friends new cannot keep friends fact driven away eventually statistically continue so young biggest fear shots big dogs heights similar things terrified core becoming lowest common denominator fear absolute uncontrollable spasms emotion desperations throughout middleschool skills math science would capability bringing mire merely passed one ear other years later find anything beyond absolute basic concepts fail comprehend make use of wasted formative years frozen fear failure failed ever act would freeze anything constantly fail complete work whereupon told lazy oafish work fucking grocery store looking like going career ever heard anthonys song bullet seems rather preferable life bottom pyramid,1 twoobie time year old dating year old okay u change mind,0 moreim fucking sick living like this betrayed everybody ex fucking somone cheated best friends high school see joke hang one guy hes loser stoner everytime try make friends never text back leave read wrong im tired change others want accepted im alone parents see loser brother friends girls hes years younger im im tired living like bullied friends high school ive always seen joke play nintendo watch spiderman hate life fuck,1 thought movie cleverly written well acted movie greatly surpasses films terms originality enjoymentrupert grint played part marvelously general knack acting business almost obsessive mother added quite lot plot character one could almost instantly loathe reminded me way divine secrets yaya sisterhood means actual content film premises overall tone film itself driving lessons coming age story many might find easy relate due overpowering mother lack freedom discovery oneself,0 wish could stop everything momenti like feeling like this wish could go sleep never wake up im tired pretending happy everyone thinks im annoying honestly too im fucking boring person people hate around me wanna kill myself wanna stop everything know do people wanna around think im either annoying boring both feel like people wanna around anytime try talk people seem give fuck would they ever them even try best nice person everyone wants shut up im scared ill something ill regret like scream person really think them tell someone this start talking shit me im scared ill tell one good friends theyll start seeing differently wanna die want someone hug tell everythings gonna right without judging thinking im looking attention wanna die feel like options im scared people think depressed girl anytime try talk someone really want get know usually push away overthink fuck up want everything stop wanna kill myself might another option though anyone else feel like this im sorry needed rant,1 @lizzaann just do it while you sleep. Then you wake up to good things ,0 think realized somewhat straight people seem lot dumber gay people sexuality rly direct effect intelligence logical person thinks believe lot indirect effects benefit gay people different ways certain level comprehension realize gay instead straight default hard explain basically in loop gay theres lot people sadly filler world basically like video game npcs except story all theyre fucking pointless like people think burning g signal towers prevent virus spreading shit people like fucking lost background cant interact theyre almost straight probably think go hell kissing boys shit know gay is gay people sex opposite gender forced make stupid decisions straight people getting pregnant underaged cant afford gay people know cant hit guy expect gay compatible relationship buy default stupid shit like getting rejected girls like straight guys use dating apps often smartest choice days gay guys course interested guys intelligent choice males get along best males friendships less problems relationships straight people yes theres lot ways gay better good,0 make girls laugh like make guys laugh like man always funny kid male friends agreed point hell girls get weirded make joke anything slightly masculine straight anything anyone relate going joke point view female classmates laugh poor kid class getting bullied something really cant understand,0 say cannot breathe mask openly admit furries stronger you let sink,0 trying to figure out which of the several projects I'm working on is worth fighting for....Maybe tomorrow. ,0 "Playing Sims, talking on the phone with ALEXANDRA! birthday in 6 days!",0 @talfrb Because it stops .y depression,1 stephenkruiser i m so sorry to hear about your dog wishing you happier day to come,0 looks make want commiti fucking hate way look every single part disgusting thing ever seen whole entire life lips small nose big eyes sunken shit look like im dead cant live like anymore might seem shallow everytime look mirror start crying im pretty enough never be boobs small thighs big fucking ankles look like fucking demon god wanna die bad people around tell im ugly im pretty feel theyre lying crawling skin try starve fail everytime gets worse feel like death option point hurts cause every girl around beautiful unique way im piece garbage literally,1 try get someone understand felt bad enough wanted commit redflag potentially hurt take seriouslyyears ago terrible time life made halfass attempt commit redflag know people say halfass attempts disagree kind hard die home household items without suffering extended periods time people want experience long painful death household item want stop hurting really want talk did want communicate really want die enough try it tried bring spouse telling depressed want live problems brushes like saying fuck it tried commit redflag among things turned fucking lives completely upside down think aspergers want get help badly shitty truth see reasonable way address problem already tried hardest besides talking actual professional getting diagnosed cant live own cant leave problems behind dammit want someone acknowledge hurt badly tell understand okay give shit even though probably essentially mentally handicapped husband least give goddamn fucking hug no ten years ago life took tortuous unexpected turn twisted fucked turn twisted fucked turn that trying hard hell deal keep going why even know guess optimist heart even though cynical struggling make best situation things problems keep hurting much ive tried tell spouse want help aspergers tried get help get help doesnt know myself cant even pick phone talk family love much talked years even though think every day want tell wanted die hoped would die things hope actually would longer person life brushes like saying make feel bad no saying feel really fucking bad communicate that know even possible damn fucking problems need help problems go away trying hoping would pass years years longer suicidal try hard think realize way die terribly prolonged likely work mean probably best prevention redflag fact really incredibly easy tries kill turns world upside gets kinds support medical care it wished dead prolonged period silently things hoped would make die tried tell wanted die told things hopes know scoff brush off guess war redflag attempt justified know want communicate felt badly really wish could understand sometimes still feel badly want understand feel badly feelings real well cant figure it sure war got everything came back top problems causes addition fucked relationship try understand respect problems feel like ever real respect mine nothing feel like express much things hurt still even though things much better superficially feel like could get help somehow least feel helpless worst thing everything life wish like people age see taking care dealing life normal life problems instead feel like housepet people could without take care anyways simply living would feel bad didnt keep trying leave issues behind adult way possible working try ask help makes feel like burden child last thing want look forwards rest life like this almost feel like actually likes feel like shit say something make victim feeling horrible somehow stopped talking every friend want talk life them eventually gets old realize person one always talks problems tried stop problems still here escalate epic proportions less frequently going grow old die horrible stupid problems one else seems probably fucking aspergers or whatever fuck wrong me take care themselves,1 How exercising can slash the risk of depression https://nyp.st/2vGw2Kq  via @nypost,1 wish endim done im fucking exhausted fighting brain live honest dont even want anymore people say im kind opened heart ive used atm lot money dont ever see getting back ive blocked said person borrowed money ask mom borrow money havent done ages shows im useless hate debt anyone especially mom works damn hard money medication made fat dont know shift it absolutely zero motivation literally move bed go downstairs watch tv want slim pretty again sharp objects taken away crave release feeling blade across skin family told disappointed self harm cut im cutting ive pushed friends family away wish could go euthanised everyone favour im fat ugly mess cant even look mirror im disgusted myself medication increased months back isnt working ive saving up getting courage end want pain stop please whichever higher power may there kill end suffering,1 im mega depressed amadepressed damaged drugs afraid die afraid livem,1 made account seconds ago first post welllong story finally turned life around completely everything going well course never lasts long everything took turn worst again usual depression sky rocketed ever since first time life feeling suicidal feel worthless feel like never meant succeed thoughts non stop crossing mind past days today worst felt like getting chest somebody guess apologize im wrong section posting properlywith guidelines such thanks,1 really know much longer go for sit home bury video games music youtube etc numbs pain somewhat suicidal thoughts literally everyday social redflag load factors boring life going future social redflag really see point living longer stopping ending dadthat literally all social redflag loneliness absolutely friends selfesteem issues redflag,1 truly terrific touching film female melodrama finest lot comedy great dialogue characters writing woman relate story classic love mr right interest guy seems completely wrong comes along fall headoverheels love course simplistic characters real performances perfect movie hilarious well every scene skewers society id recommend film anyone loves wellwritten screenplay humor melodrama relate every character plot moves unexpected directions great underrated movie,0 aliceclaire danes darlenekate beckinsale best friends since forever graduate decide take trip thailand due incident meet young attractive mysterious stranger invites go hong kong weekend airport alice darlene mistaken drug smuggling heroine sent prison time ultimate survival true friendship pretty good movie ive seen couple times notice holes plot movie still keeps entertained claire danes great job usual great actress would give brokedown palace ,0 tired and borrrrrred this vacation sooooooo hot,0 being an adult fuckin suck lol i m just gon na say that i m and i ve been on and off homeless since i wa me and my family don t talk at all and i m ina point in my life we re i have my own home a full time job and i m doin better but sometimes it feel like i m all alone and that i should be happy in the situation i m in now i have no reason to feel depressed i think at least my fianc said she notice my change since i started working day a week 0 hour a week idk i guess i m just rambling it s just sometimes i wish i had my mom again or my sister or someone to tell me hey man i love you it s all gon na work out and give me a hug ya know life is stressful trying to be successful and independent since ha made me mature and grow in different aspect don t get me wrong but i want my family s love back i wan na feel included and not alone ya know and i m sorry if this post is irrelevant i m super anxious right now and don t know how to contain myself,1 is searching someone who cares with ME .. ,0 cool facts house cats ahhhhh oh god fyck fycj siiwbsiwkwbuwownwj bones crushed god help hear demons scream god looks eye oh oh ahwhhwhwhwhhhahahah ahhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhh,0 system science told effortless videos guess systemofadown easier metallca ironmaiden httpsyoutubejoxrpjq_humhttpsyoutubejoxrpjq_hum,0 failed redflag attempt feeling guilt severe depressionhey everyone yesterday took hoped lethal dose paracematol thought took like hours react somehow reacted around hours intense pain liver nausea parents quickly noticed took hospital hours stuff settling im feeling really guilty severely depressed parents really overprotective really killing me im fucking done insane pressure me cant even explain want die,1 frogs would make good shoes,0 im commit redflagi cant take abuse anymore,1 cronotriggers that s sad,0 biesexualmy parents religious deep depression quite time feel knew biesexual whould disown me,1 i need a hug,0 feel like nothing idiot assholei chipped tooth got bruises face tried hang belt thing even think it going motions even thinking stuff like this end kind acknowledgement first thing remember getting tingly blacking random images flashing started focus happened realized lying floor tried kill myself know poor something unconsciously smacked face something calmed enough get bathroom see happened saw bruise chin knot forehead fished around mouth hurting found chunk tooth made feel like shit friend helping promised got bad would talk her even ask help got point give sort final word anything feel like asshole,1 having casual unprotected tweet with twat i ll probably never see again my mom will be so dissapointed,0 carlos mencia excellent hour special working hard show everybody real deal know people said hes stolen material special true carlos brings comedy front way wants it anyone else wants it good people say hes funny says dee dee dee much still realized thats part act want way brings like anyway succeeds making people laugh haters there message carlos stay point trying bring down,0 feel like im break crying sometimesfor reason,1 thoughts driving suicidalmy gf broke months ago sucked caused mentioned previous boyfriends large endowment described detail freaked ocd vivid imagination cant get image mind two months mindfulness exercise meditation willpower erasing images always mind im sure why theres reason feel insecure know stop keeps ill never survive,1 i am moving and i might not be able to bring my cat with me i haven t even had her year i am losing everything again i have to move and start over and lose the people close to me it feel like every time i try to improve my situation i get worse i know it ll get worse before it get better but this is hell i wish i could just have a safe place without having to uproot my life the only apartment i can afford doesn t allow pet i might just risk it and sneak my cat in anyways but i am scared of being caught and evicted god just everything everything is too much i have been cry for age,1 give up completelyim years old im old washed up lonely dates friends everyone moved far away plus one ever visits me see anyone unless see them never good anything people seem patronize deem incompetent nearly everything do never felt truly accepted social aspect life sports coworkers clubs etc people gravitate towards way others unless text first hear people whenever try make plan things get excuses ive tried several meetup groups good experience them fired job sucked first junior software position blew it worked super hard get lost fast think im extremely unintelligent takes long learn things also huge problem self discipline motivation never stick anything people mock rejected im stereotypical black person bad tests got low sat score graduated college everything tried told variation im not cut this maybe ______ you make matters worse also suffer adhd aspergers depression mocked too would like children think gonna happen cant meet woman save life honestly gun posting shit would load chamber put barrel mouth pull fucking trigger wanna sleep forever never wake up fuck planet give up,1 wtfanabel nite i still cant go to sleep,0 cant go onfuck life point im english teacher ive attempted times still want die dont necessarily want kill im actually considering again things havent told anyone ever pulling down,1 sayingmilestones like birthdays new year time reflection im sure cant go round again ive reached absolute limit endurance constant physical pain terrible loneliness equally so painful degenerative bone disease asd massive depression none going away ive attempted redflag past learnt previous mistakes concrete plan several backups im looking help think wanted say it communicate whats going on thanks reading,1 "@jmbuckingham Wish u were here, Jeannie! I think u'd be lovin' this!!! ",0 mystery solution great noir conceit questions though maybe paying enough attentionbr br who killed neighbor why killed replacement girl whybr br and minor quibbles shown stopoff hotel switch shown switch shown jim girl going hotel jim going bathroom coming told bartender girlfriend went car without himbr br then jim getting back car seeing sleeping woman little girl back seatbr br this would given viewer sporting chance figuring solutionbr br i wish taped though id like see again,0 family know even sometimes pick prescriptions me think taking them giant stash lexapro welbutrin nowit really helping too much better hate myself deserve happy worthless stupid ugly social skills always trouble making friends least high school would maintain least group friends got college abandoned me literally ghosting me got graduated bs felt joy whatsoever everyone around happy graduating felt nothing actually hated even felt even stupid mean always expected anyway accomplishment something expected do much pussy kill myself get closer every day tried pastfuck idk do tired everything wish never born taken medication months,1 samdj 0 unfortunately it didn t work but thanks for the advice i am bed ridden today,0 meryl streep may greatest actor working today chameleonic portrayals never fail astonish seems actually characters brings screen one true thing gives life deceptively straightforward profoundly complex woman best play hand life dealt her surviving cancer easy task surviving actually continuing live ones life even harderand precisely kate gulden streep means do renee zellweger jerry maguire holds exalted company shines streeps daughter learns see new light parents lives well own streep powerhouse deservedly received oscar nomination work here im going say once dialogue zellweger leave devastated zellweger though real revelationher face conveys every emotion every conflict begins learn many truths parents strengths weaknesses director carl franklin devil blue dress handles extremely difficult story material sureness delicacy,0 "We're all set for the last day of the clothes show,it's sure to be a great one ",0 almost here anyone english likes football manchester derby weekend stopped thinking week come reds,0 posted yet one caredhttpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsrvari_know_this_is_some_petty_shit_but_please_just even redflagwatch subreddit people care whats point,1 so i know i shouldn t because everyone experience anxiety differently but my social anxiety really hinders my ability to socialize and a a result i really can not currently build up the courage to have even basic social interaction sometimes i hear very popular people with ton of friend say that they have social anxiety or have no friend and it just make me angry inside or social medium influencers it s like i m mad because my social anxiety hinders me from doing what they do,1 @TyrelleNelson Good to hear ,0 lately people have been romanticizing depression into something trendy which further stigmatizes the illness and the people diagnosed with it,1 blow brains everyone forget within yearhonestly im fucking tired life nothing going im mess im socially inept fucking retard too took four years pass remedial math class everyone age something going them im going fourth year community college im still even considered sophmore haha twenty one years life talents god one days ill ill show everyone im fucking pussy blow fucking head,1 "@mrscarfy soo lame! haha. jst staying @ home, facing the comp. lols. & how was urs?",0 first thought ring would normal movie ordinary plot surprised i course plot simple one girl love two men hitchcock brings us silver platter laughter fear compassion anguish way depicts popular crowds fair strength attraction girl men tragic elements come together techniques open mind greatest moviesnorth northwest rope etc master great even thirties,0 tired all bright things people past would gone long time ago make mistakes feel invisible feeling like burden able feel love longer remember feel unrepairable physically emotionally hurts live moved different country start new life tiny things improved end defective meant anything am years years proven thatampxbi want sleep yrs old tired failed attempts past,1 really trying best stay alive hurt think possible trying,1 hello thank you for reading my post and any advice would be appreciated so i m a 9 year old guy from southern california i dated my ex for about month and it wa a relationship plagued with many issue she cheated on me at the beginning of the relationship and i later found out stayed with her and then cheated on her it wa this weird situation because we both wronged each other so we saw it a we re equal let s try to make this work though our relationship could be considered rocky at best i still loved her very much and i had never felt such strong emotion for someone like that before she wa my first real girlfriend she introduced me to her family and vice versa we went on vacation with each other we went to punk show and enjoyed music because we had a similar taste in music around december she caught me flirting with girl on my phone and i guess you can say she ended the relationship but everything wa still the same we would see each other regularly have sex pretty regularly go out and do thing with one other and talk all the time like we did it wa almost a like we never even broke but she said the relationship wa over but if i prove to her that i would make a change that we would get back together at first i wa super apologetic and begged her for forgiveness but i soon realized that everything wa still the same minus the fact that we technically aren t in a relationship anymore i did a lot of soul searching and talking to those around me who told me it wa for the best that we didn t date anymore so i started talking to other girl around this time i meet my guitar teacher and started playing the guitar i ve been playing for about month now it s something that make me very happy and i enjoy doing it like i mentioned earlier with my ex everything felt the same except we technically weren t in a relationship but she would still say she love and care about me in december i wa still trying to get her forgiveness she bought me these sick computer speaker i bought her this ring with our name engraved on it but she didn t really seem to like it and even left it at my house and never took it even though that s what she wa begging me to buy for her at one point i told her that it bothered me that she completely just tossed away the ring and her response is why would i wear a promise ring when i ve broken the promise i didn t have a rebuttal to it so i dropped the subject january rolled around and the idea of trying to gain her favor back and earning our relationship back grew to disdain we both were on bumble tinder talking to other people flirting but we still would be in this weird situation where we were in this relationship saying i love you to each other so like i mentioned earlier i had downloaded dating apps and met flirted with some girl and she wa doing the same thing but i told her that i m growing tired of this weird thing and that i want to be back with her and try to make thing work and she wa kinda blowing it off i deleted all the dating apps i wasn t meeting flirting with any girl and i didn t do anything with anyone besides her this whole time so fast forward to my birthday on february st and she bought ticket for u to go to knot berry farm amusement park here in socal we had a good time and we ended up having sex later that night during this whole weird period we were having sex pretty consistently my birthday ended up being the last time we saw each for a while because my best friend said that they saw her on bumble tinder i made new account and i saw her she swiped right on me both time and it set me off because i kept telling her i wanted to be with her and wanted to start over and she said wanted to a well but wanted to make sure but wanted wait and that she loved me and only wanted to be with me would always say she can t imagine being with anyone but me so seeing her on these apps even though we told each other we weren t going to be on them anymore so i sent her this long message telling her how i felt about her our relationship and the whole tinder bumble situation and that i wa through with her then it wa almost a she flipped the script and that she wa the one begging me to get back with each other and she pulled her whole i love you i can t imagine being with one else but you blah blah but i wa done and wa ready to emotionally move which i feel like for the most part i have so i completely stopped talking to her many of my close friend helped me out a lot especially my best friend i felt sorta free in a way and i wa trying my best to move on i met other girl and had hookup with a lot of them i mean last week i had sex with two different girl in one night on friday but every time i feel like happy at first after but then shortly after i go back to this feeling of emptiness that i have been feeling i and my family had a trip planned out to give a visit to our family in el salvador and we went it wa only for a week but it wa the happiest i had been in so long a soon a i came back that feeling of emptiness came back full force a couple of week after i came back me and my friend decided we wanted to try shrooms it wa a whole ordeal to get them but we somehow got them we had it all planned out but it kinda fell through me and my best friend ended up taking the i unfortunately had a bad trip at first the trip went super well but i took about gram and it wa my first time and i started telling my friend i wa depressed then it turned into i m planning on committing suicide when i m older but something came upon me and i wa telling him i wanted to kill myself right then and there and i tried to kill myself but my friend stopped me i have been pretty traumatized since that night and i have been thinking about it so much during the time i wa in el salvador my ex made a tik tok about me saying i wa a terrible person and that i treated her horrible and that she wa the victim of the relationship and it got like 000 view she also posted a video on her instagram story of some random licking her face and her kissing him after so i wanted nothing to do with her anymore but after my bad trip i felt emotionally vulnerable and i texted her back and i told her what i went through and we started texting again she told me that she wanted to see me again and i wasn t there emotionally she came over and we ended up having sex and we ve done this twice now i just feel like i have gone through so much these last month and it ha been so much to handle after i took the shrooms i felt like i needed to better my action and i planning on going back to school i have stopped smoking weed and drinking i never did it often but i want to completely stop i m growing tired of this constant feeling of emptiness i feel every day of my life and i feel like i haven t been trying to move my life forward and i keep going back to the same place i keep telling myself i want to move from i don t know if it s depression or what but i m tired of the way i feel sometimes when i think about my bad trip i just chalk it up to me being high but other time i feel like that deep down i actually want to and that the shrooms just made me realize i love and appreciate my best friend my other friend and my family because they provide me with amazing support but these feeling still linger and i m growing tired of it the thing that ha been providing me with happiness is playing guitar and it s been my escape i would appreciate someone to talk to maybe i need someone fresh perspective,1 cant face failure againthrowaway etc im final year med school struggled mental health issues long remember ive professionals tried meds tried therapy pattern every time get overwhelmed right im middle final exams failed ones ive taken far year genuinely would rather die go another year repeating thats pretty much im facing university unsupportive cant stand around family members anymore keep pointing mood asking questions hate want out cant stand anymore worth,1 nooce chair setup nearby forestsometimes stand chair nooce around neck cry minutes building courage everyday passes finally inch little chair finally commit redflag decided im going douse gasoline set hideous atrocious absolutely horrifying ugly self fire pain much ill jump hang myself least way closed casket funeral one able see face,1 logged snapchat see lad saying girls sexually assaulted deserve leading men literally asleep,0 "@scotthortonshow @RisingDarkstar @wherami_forum @garnicle @thefreerifleman Bout to be doing both does it make that much of a difference, less depression?",1 accidentally deleted stoneblock world playing stoneblock months now ive com quite far today accidentally opened fullscreen triggers error know fix way reinstalling pack happened times before every time ive remembered backup world delete pack today today deleted pack world everything done know a months long said come quite far im dissapointed also know makes backups files delete tell plz mean asks want delete backups delete pack cant find any,0 everyone thats blind deaf,0 @ChibiAngel86 cellphone charms? PIX PLZ ,0 got rickrolled past self yeah past self rickrolled me months ago school rickrolled family smart clock setting routine forgot turn routine never got triggered smart clock randomly played never gonna give thats got rickrolled past self,0 kinda name maya angelou right mind writes autobiographies,0 thinking killing straight consecutive days nightsive mentally ill since way young girl ive feeling empty want end pain always keep smilling behind agonizing pain inside wont stop ive feeling depressed long time failed relationships family failed grades school think good enough say life beautiful people like us were different page ive keeping redflag thoughts people makes feel im alone whenever ill tell depressed wont believe listen either im searching painless way die im alive outside im already dead inside anyone loved one depressed make feel special loved depression kills,1 nobody will probably see this anyways nobody saw my last one i just wanted to vent my current thought so i can at least alleviate some form of pain that s going on internally at the moment ever since my ex left i ve had nobody to talk to i have no bond with anyone no friend or anything all i fricken do now is lay in bed all day go to work when it s time come back and go to sleep i don t live anymore then again what is living anyways if you have nobody to experience it with i just live a lonely existence and i m fricken tired of it i either want to be dead or just drugged up on pill so i can at least feel something beyond this emptiness inside i hate my fucking retarded existence anyways i wasn t meant to be born and i ve felt nothing but pain growing up what do i even have to feel happy about that i make decent money so fucking what money only buy me temporary happiness it isn t eternal i want to feel what true happiness feel like i m sick and tired of this life and i want to just be different or gone completely,1 trying figure least painful wayman ive sexually abused lost little sister experienced heavy domestic violence ive wanted kill ever since young decent relationship either parent think noose would feel good would loud overdose would hurt bad gun figured best option,1 pauline va faire une d pression,1 i feel like shit this is not the way i want to spend my birthday s eve,0 im secretly love,0 triviathursday onepsychcommunity trigger warning the following post discus depression suicidal ideation and suicidal attempt that may be harmful to some audience reader discretion is advised http t co tufohfqg,1 cant get loopyou say im puny little pussy bitch scared life look way find dark tunnel light end survived long tried mind vacation way get control stay hibernation sit day bed watching videos playing games eating junk masturbate single moment get trigger zone tried recklessly got worse situation hence anxietyhence mind vacation again cycle cant seem get im starting believe ending all maybe destined option afterall lonely year old child mom dad dog always believed burden them disappointment studying college later found capacity quit much disappointment would considering money spent college mind vacation often went piss kept seeing glimpses metal blade besides sink casually thought laughingly maybe option cut things go wrong cant get eyes it brought room bathroom feets away desk seriously thinking loosing sleep blood soaked bed picture me mom dad side,1 yes shakespeare would indeed proud laurence fishburne best certainly bad kenneth brannagh hand brilliant scheming wonderful toying audience nice workbr br there times little drama would expected cassios slaying instance bit clouded much happening far apart causing spectator twist head grasp allbr br did mention michael maloney madness striken roderigo unusual annoying evenbr br if seen othello before see this read othello see this heard othello see this do hand favour reading it seeing acted onstage hearing sung too,0 @JustinDalloway what do you think about Emily Osment ? ,0 thinking killing myselfi got raped years old drunk homeless man trying find live year old boy friends gf dumped everyone hates mom dad hate got abused kid reason live anymore want kill,1 draw someone im getting pretty bored really want draw somebody reference portraits find google interesting someone wants draw leave comment ill choose someone draw im working portraits right now please shoulders up thanks ill also post reddit im done cool reply post link picture you may take bit realistic portraits ill post eventually,0 h e fuck daylight savings time,0 yep screwed last week mentioned sex someone school shes pregnant wonderful,0 Painted my nails pink Onto hair next! What a productive day! ,0 insomnia kickin in i hate this,0 someone plz tell way see people following,0 put opinion comments reply agree disagree opinions arguing dunno gonna go oh well,0 tf coochie man siblings mentioning lot recently feel like old person coz dont know ya guys help out,0 tired feeling trapped lifemy life nowhere go down really dont care carry out nothing live for nothing look forward to im fucking ready end dont it im tired constant stress reward even things used enjoy mean nothing anymore hours laying bed think ill cheer something used fun me anymore everything chore everything exhausting everything pointless nothing meaning anymore everything come crumbling down barely held single jenga block first place dont determination motivation fight wait get better hint getting better wish wasnt afraid dying im tired purgatory im alive im shell exhaustive burden im close snapping letting go dont know whether afraid excited,1 idk almost females know refer feminine pronouns mean doesnt really disturb lol,0 @rachaelblogs You polished off a bottle already? ,0 cannot anymore breaking point cannot talk family want worry cannot talk mother already tried recall mom saying something like we depressed here words wanted hear hearing words felt sharp pain heart cannot really talk father drunk cannot talk siblings mean much me cannot make worry me would break heart cannot talk friends lost long time ago lost friends wanted isolate them kill would hurt less haha remember even telling best friend time this hope forgot me live life peacefully without me feeling years shake off honestly wish me thanks read whole thing cannot anymore,1 looking anything pointhi all know guys dont feel like reading book ill try keep short sweet ive awful anxiety depression since teen ive tried hard last decade dig hole ive learned socialize made lots friends working graduating college year despite best endeavors none ever brought fulfillment life despite great friends who know love me still always feel like outcast years ago one brief glimmer hope fell love spent truly happy year life selfdestructive behavior pushed away fast forward now havent seen her yet alone spoke months although try wake every day move life feel grip loosening questioning even want live anymore nothing makes happy pain ive felt since child amplified x shown glimmer hope live fact ruined it anyone advice im open hear it doubt help much though always cycle misery end leaving world least ill die knowing really try get better im running strength,1 today twentieth birthday know live see thirtieththe following post going compilation petulant unimportant first word problems whining form incoherent hyperbolic rambling so want help someone actual issues que leave even blame you wouldnt you nothing least bit likeable memorable even fucking worthwhile everything existence nothing one giant mistake never made first place know truth myself see strangers people know look me everything see look mirror see worthless useless creature looking back mirror absolutely worth value whatsoever every time look mirror see creature absolute waste ill made spiteful indolent insolent talentless waste space tried long pretend otherwise truth am someone devoid anything least bit unique worthwhile semigood aspects already present every person earth barely merit mentioning lazy greedy spiteful toxic waste space complete lack actual humanity worst part know never change matter tiny minuscule changes could possibly make same sad void emptiness always been fixed abomination change all actually got live for friends cant make friends never capable making friends used think could once used people hung around thought got along high school that obligation pay attention one else obligation around either found easily disposable trash am shouldnt discovered eventually aside thoroughly uncharismatic unlikeable bore im naturally vile toxic person person spent extended period time able tell worth time trouble means dont blame people used hang around deserting me good people one right mind would ever want around me never good enough them exception one online friend talk me sporadic occasions pity never get better that family extended branches family could care less live die know uncle thought something wrong time two though turned correct aunt would put false smiles around cover fact annoying person ever seen theres grandfather actively despises me though tries cover too hardest someone always respected loved hear things thought broke me course also helped see truth much clearer borne fact never ever voluntarily talk me would they would want even acknowledge lazy dull emotionless disappointment human nothing worthless empty meaningless life must wonder exactly cursed relation mongrel parents though abortion had mum least capacity pretend im autistic worst mistake ever happened her dad well im almost certain hes biological father making bastard every sense word hes never felt shy expressing disgusted me criticising every act every tiny mistake lectures last hour long regaling every problem loser son is though even stopped recently gave even trying get improve dont blame him everyone around testament standup guy naturally likeable many people disappointment return know wishes nephew place hell always proud me see every time look me every time fuck way cause ive ever make proud good grades overhype like greatest achievement ever achievement fuck up real feelings come see eyes know see fat degenerate waste space would never time hadnt made monumental mistake unleashing world crowing embarrassment lives wonder every day karma universe punishing whatever deeds heinous decided offspring youve probably guessed ive never abused neglected anything serious like that perfectly good upbringing still turned like pathetic useless loser youd blind ashamed obvious black sheep family am love thats funniest thing ive heard year funny woman would actually deranged enough look actually want spend unpleasant bumbling conversation me let alone majority life im funny talented charming charismatic cool clever attribute least bit attractive anyone circumstances thats biggest fucking disgrace all never loved ill never know like hold persons hand while let alone close someone feel like person world worth around ill never get married father life amount anything whatsoever dont even look possibility look people relationships like people look millionaire lifestyles oh itd nice understand never will trudge along empty useless life alone even fucking miracle someone actually want relationship me wouldnt last long wouldnt able handle cheated course would be maybe would make enough depressed wreck actually give confidence finally pull fucking trigger know thats likely one would ever want stay me nothing inspires least bit loyalty someone ive never fantasied flirted with one ever wanted share moment me one ever cause so even idea actually kind relationship laughable insulting never ever happen could it one single aspect miserable creature like anyone could ever find endearing especially funny consider socially inept retard high school looking way guys behaved dismissing loud obnoxious childish ones relationships always loser realise retrospect actually lively energetic fun around people drawn good times drank partied played sports thought even years werent that would find real relationship years later patience paid off course never going happen dull bore ones fantasy still take small comfort fact make lives countless women happy every single day them someone actually cursed enough stuck me lives would much worse contrast honestly reasons like make ok living dying virgin used something really bothered me now now abundantly clear impossible ever get close that ugly unpleasant face doesnt turn someone off repulsive grotesque body will sight anyone would ever want lives even im shower im disgusted have thats even taking account microdick final nail coffin ensuring never ever circumstances able enjoy experience someone special ever doesnt bother much anymore finally realised never possible never possible fat ugly loser scale ever even get close that embrace ugly sin inside well outside perhaps ill able let go relationships one thing work it kind employment ive volunteering discovered antisocial unlikeable am perhaps might fine actually worthwhile talents attributes strengths make stand out dont guess im pretty eloquent mediocre writer well possessing measure intelligence what plan future drive passion fucking anything used play idea journalist writer could be im nowhere near articulate talented clever enough actually make field like have im stem student im athletic discernible hobbies beyond crappy fanfic writing im even studying fucking history degree worth thats going have least high school felt happy work like essays amounting building something never were way waste life away end shitty dead end job want kill even already thats even possible dont end unemployed years little sister already recognises im loser surpasses every field every attribute parents dedicated ensuring dont get another me one fuckup would enough couldnt cope two still least look forward tombstone significant thing ever accomplish lifeif im tossed ditch forgotten like diseased wretch actually am it summary twenty years miserable worthless useless spineless lazy indolent pathetic insignificant waste space alive planet know worst thing is fucking nerve complain it another fucking thing wrong cant anything fix it comfortable moderately wealthy lifestyle comes actual serious issues dont want anything feel completely worthless overall incompetent fucking reason to able fix miniscule problems completely incapable even would point would point ever holding hope anything ever changing me wont wont ever pathetic nothing wrong life grotesque failure completely incapable even basic requirements functioning human being used believe nice good person held back shy anxious lie lie told myself never that ugly inside outside used hope one day someone might take pity see hidden beauty inside one else could life would begin get better course would actually require hidden beauty isnt theres never been still remember like day life changed asked people thought friends wanted hang summer one ever responded one one ignored shunted ghosted first thought really driven home me finally realised completely utterly alone actually world realised made one single friend wanted spend time whatsoever started cry like pathetic little weasel was ive cried least every day since did looked mirror still weeping must hour saw die saw person used die sure wasnt best company sarcastic sly quirky generally happy person enjoyed life mostly looked eyes watched peel away emptiness inside replaced hes dead occupy corpse empty void nothing person one wants around wishes gone find courage maybe world favour kill corpse way killed personality doubt that addition everything else im coward theres really point discussion there theres nothing it would fruitless waste even try think cure none exists hope way living disease kill one day lived two decades one term that know nothing show point disputing fact wont survive see third reach conclusion would look forward to know when finally push edge one day ill look mirror final time able take anymore cant liked wont loved could never mourned could ever believe differently bother charade cant cut pretence life done it rid world stain upon finally done it cowardice alone fucking stupid actually think might miss something die still nave wish could find resolve done it yeah happy th birthday me guess many have wonder,1 googled time time nothing really hits done things called friends therapist written feelings whole shit anyone anything specificuniqueout ordinary helps it also welcoming wrong answers haha unconventional things instead killing myself,1 "I got the cuddles and besitos I wanted, yet my ass is still sad. Damn, depression is wild ",1 manu ginobili is out for the rest of the season and the playoff,0 normal feel like thisrecently ive feeling like im letting life pass really anything know found purpose life constantly feel worthless wonder fuck here however whenever feel little calm think current situation realize that outside things really bad love support family least this turn leaves disgust even thinking killing makes feel even worse feels like value life minimal nonexistent that even food table roof head family loves all life opportunities life still somehow manage feel like inside feel useless like never meant alive even deserve love shown others want feel like cant help blame way feel think poor choices made feels like chain thats time feel scared talking anyone feel alone needed ask someone tldr feel like depressed am makes feel even worse,1 so my psych put me on klonopin to take for the one i have at night and upped my dose of lexapro i don t have particular trigger the attack just happen anywhere and at anytime so if klonopin is an a needed short term medicine i don t know if it s going to help me in the long run if my attack don t stop ha this med ever helped you and what else do you take do that help you,1 pain unbearablehow would feel wife tells husband would feel points someone else says person husband taken every risk save help her taken loans loans support her amount loan take year repay fought everyone everyone told would leave you fought person stood by end person punch slap again would feel would do easy forget,1 jews destabilizing force jews always wanted nation theres never enough land nation say send mars give mars jews,0 peoplejesus hope every day get ran death isnt person nobody hate everything me dont want fam find bodythat would horrible friend also suicidal doesnt even know hes reason im alive drops life ima head style,1 merry christmas everyone even though pretty rough year hope everyone still wonderful christmas ,0 another pathetic story lifeim worthless pathetic loser friends let alone girlfriend real life never went college personal reasons lack encouragement real life im nobody watches anime crunchyroll pathetic weeb nobody showed hope committing redflag looks pretty good right nobody stopping anybody reddit cares ifwell goodbye,1 i ve been ill with sinusitis for about week with vertigo anyway cut to the past day i ve been freaking out a it ha been hard to breathe a it sometimes feel like i m choking on water but one of the scariest thing wa that my mouth ha been a bit foamy could this be from dehydration or could it be from nothing serious i really hope it s nothing serious a i have some other mental health condition that can cause some very scary freak out over something small,1 hi attempted suicide may like first weeks remember remember feeling suicidal soon left hospital pretty much came back board trying again ever see completely losing idea trying again feel like one things think about really need tips try stop really hate constantly thinking suicide want go mental hospital hear help all really want around people like right now think finally want help,1 yung nag hahanap ka ng magandang bl tapos nahanap mo trauma at depression http t co scidekgqjd,1 first film ever made workers streaming factory cycling walking moving right left along melies lumieres starting point point departure cinema melies begins narrative fiction cinema fantasy artifice spectacle lumieres pure unadorned observation truth many intellectuals regret ossification cinema latter tired formulae formerbr br but consider short again nothing objective it film full action static inhuman scene burst life activity quiet harmony frame ruptured decentred back right left but never course front camera is yet camera stands stock still contains energy possible subversion subordinates will cinematograph may revolutionary invention used conservative purposes map world edit it restrict it limit itbr br worse historical reality film factory workers lumiere employees bosses spying workers unseen eye regarding faceless minions film therefore describes two types imprisonment behind gates workers confined workplace opening gate seems image freedom escape face another wall fourth wall confining them first film also first example cctv surveillance image unseen allseeing authority entrapping servants frightening prophetic movie,0 peppa pig gaint ampxb httpspreviewredditisvpmyrpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsededffdaceeac,0 faced myself completed probation drugs need leave environment everything know get fresh start im ,1 is reading manga http://plurk.com/p/mzp1e,0 Miss this post? Running And Mental Health: How I Use Running To Counter Anxiety & Depression Running http://bit.ly/2fWJM70  #mentalillness,1 hwo deal today dropping sister school home way taxi driver unexpectedly applied brakes mf back glass covered see me applied brakes hard missed crashing him pulled told him watch road drive like ready pick fight anyone world even terrorists came started abusing real dirty front sister wanted say anything back sister want see like that said melee weapon sort taxi wanted abusive front sister said put yourself left metres saw driving like crazy beside make pull lick fight sort thing never happened me random stranger abusing following fight slowed took turn intersection going behind since mf back glass covered see me lost him whole way feeling stomach im home im sort disturbed cant focus anything never happened,0 "When Friends Struggle With Depression, This App Helps Avoid Potentially Harmful Phrases https://goo.gl/fb/HcQhWK ",1 Nice spring day birds tweeting away ,0 sexual tension literally seciest person alive would clone date could im afraid id get lost eyes never get anything done,0 depression strong physically hurtsi feel sharp pain chest anyone else feel thing,1 want die repeat every dayin mind loud sometimes twitter with account followers haha fantasize death want die pacefully get thought like times day more situation get better would take time find enough material hellhole money pay them will even year nvm cant stand year like this again thats way want die those hate picky even death anyway wanted write somewhere really like someone really help unless send psichiatrist treatment need money pay it sertralina clonazepam could find mental situation got much better money hellhole cant find anyway,1 @jbfanforever94 Thank you sooo much though for getting the info! ,0 mileycyrus http twitpic com y 0 i want a sofie she s helllza cute,0 can t smell tyson any more,0 like wow think suicide everyday past year half year chronic suicidal thoughts talking plan aftermath death like others react etcrecently decided wanted end suffering went online bought drug do ask arrived hands easy access takes little even know dead thinking myself wow easy huh dead makes suffering longer existent everything fine now no much hard that permanent solution palm hands take it desire met much power held hand right finally make decision came moment came realize want die want end suffering looking drug hand gives fear redflag worry many different emotions looking makes feel uneasy want best me feel choice take dark route solution feels impulsive bought this must feel like choice now could once realized answer feel like one time conflicting gives comfort knowing access it decide take it prevent enough living really enough enough even working towards something here suffer people tell stay answer still deciding way know thinking suicide plan like walk park presented permanent solution problem palm hand becomes difficult thing ever commit to,1 i am miserable when i wake up i am aware this due to more than just simply being mentally fucked up i live a shitty lifestyle however i feel a though most day are purely predetermined for me almost like it s always guaranteed to have me thinking about killing myself by the end of the day,1 imgur people mean uploaded pic face must set public something instantly pedos people commenting looks repeating trend lot people get harrassed online yes especially imgur,0 "I feel like ever since Trump got elected, my depression has been on 1000 ",1 i hate when the sadness creep in on me depression b like time to over think about and worry about everything and remember how alone u are u are a huge disappointment it take so much out of me to build myself up sometimes,1 think killed im waiting one three things happen something makes care life again alcohol shuts organs feel brave enough buy gunas title says im waiting one three outcomes way ive able justify im even still able end now ive hesitation im waiting long bear see something make care life again time running short part feel it ill address thing im waiting something makes care life im antidepressants im seeing therapist psychiatrist called redflag hotline nights hard time getting through ive told close friends condition including suicidal thoughts theyre aware serious concerned as much problems single mother stressful job moving starting new life getting married etc ive reached much far know im just waiting something click something make emotionless robot like to feel alive alcohol shuts organs depression alcohols best friend obviously ive indulged continue drink heavily see point stopping alcohol wakes gives energy things like laundry dishes night otherwise stare wall sober brick fantasize redflag chores need willpower do numbs pain selfmedication quickly stops feeling lethargic useful tool get night course severely toxic destroying body quickly depression makes care currently feel brave enough buy gun im picky choice redflag method im allergic pain knives out im afraid overdosing pills case wrong end coma something understand chemistry im afraid jumping roof since might land wrong survive pretty much gun option one might expect point know much buying guns part want learn last shred survival instinct thats keeping alive want wander road live america im risk usual decide go store try yeah waiting periods background checks im confident id fail those basically im waiting im living whats left life going work obligation paying bills im really robot robot desire shut down must wait command master master conflicted stay way forever im sure im looking post just stating feel,1 never thought could bad dying someone bad livingive many times keep saying im lucky every time try fail in lack effort holes researchplanning might add know matter program pill baseless optimism push immediately im found turned inits waste effort resources ive said before feel incompatible life desire relationship job tedious draining employees clue different lights dim night im executing routine daily numbing nights weekends drugs get mad say ive enough want out genuinely notice absence,1 wife conflict months ago sent spiraling threatened selfharm empty threat earned visit police trip er left go live parents still come home months later done much show taking care myself times like morning wonder whether followed threats death one thing fear most fear one thing keeping going it see life mine better know go here wife left due mental health crisis cannot live anymore,1 Is in Athens ,0 always therethe thought always there pops second start yelling gets stuck like record repeats again happens cant stop crying want end want good person good enough person them,1 television show watched s child captivated it many years passed often thought show good would watch again mindful things past always good remember them great show s lost nothing even sure odd production mistakes see watching old shows takes couple episodes get used dubbed voices done that captivated back s samurai played koichi ose plays role humble manner remember s due popularity show australia toured performing sword play etc overwhelmed interest show him great one time favourite shows still held magic childhood must see series,0 woke up and feel like rubbish rest or chill indoors and play xbox with a cold drink,0 going old recordings phone couple years ago made asmr reading wanna fuck johnny joestar copypasta,0 nothing like hit random crying spells thoughts suicide excuse communal areas house extended family mocks behavior suck man want try anymore want die defeated man disease ruined me skipped everything fear cannot keep friends anymore believe ever right mindset children struggling handle school cope drugs alcohol half person used be absolute loser disappointment want disappear sure much longer point five years cannot even work nerve kill selfgod help tell disappointment family,1 non binary people mean binary people exist ,0 crashed car embarrassing way one least next month got license midaugust sucks go without crashing car two months anyways stop sign neighborhood turned right looking behind mirror dark outside see much reached dome light i think called quote it next thing knew heard loud noise airbags deployed subaru service automatically getting called shellshocked idea happened fast got see mailbox made rock completely leveled bottom front car broken too minutes later dude whos mailbox broke came garage driving car immediately stopped saw mailbox got car explained happened called parents i adhd tend panic often came instantly since house literally one block explained happened police came well since subaru service alerted guess officer asked obvious showed him asked guy wanted put ticket license said no man going pick pizza dominos mom dad helped shovel remains mailbox he able leave completely blocked driveway told family name towing service left mom came back pizza called towing company told us wait minutes mom left dad waited came towed subaru im left car rural illinois the university like miles away tho small village dq mcdonalds subway jj arbys know do parents like leaving house much stranded home im also picky eater know family brings food like also supposed poll worker cant without car tldr illinois teen crashes car mailbox cant drive next month rural area ps fine airbag gave bad scratch back left hand im good physically mentally whole nother story,0 At in and out with Sarah ,0 im piece shit feel good ,0 got new cat get new cat pictures disabled like come on edgar going stand this literally cant stand hes weeks old,0 im gonna choose someone comments force crush go,0 almost sure christmas might end itmy anxiety got way worse bunch insecurities also brain stop going back embarrassing bad memories dont want really wont christmas family good time dont know might happen,1 Ayy shots out to @SuperDuperKyle his music gets me out of depression ,1 anyone bad breakup months ago got heart broken first time really sucked still does months breakup got bad habit cutting lot people thought back pushed away time spent following months hospital think figured stuff months havent cut still battle thoughts self harm times every week find self thinking past lot wanting things back gone time able look forward see maybe future something me,1 without negotiation expected go high school full weeks go college full weeks go work full weeks that retire little bit freedom die thought makes escape bubble open new things want go outside unless necessary high redflag also escape excessively unhealthy eating hobbiesi often want neet without money problems life would perfect feel like always recently feeling like lot whyhow eventually go passionate work know screwed point birth on also care changinghaving impact world making lot strangers happy lot people see motivation passion job cannot see way people care build relationship ones want something for billions people inventors system probably want people ask questions ever consider change want us obedient cogs society wish automated society capitalism infinite resources maybe mined planet machine build anything basic molecules everything automated machines everybody want people want work replace robot get paidbecause enjoyment want money all maybe like allowance put bank account algorithm everybody gets allowance every month enough buy things todays rich people buy enough let one person deplete entire stock something like luxury cars buy from want algorithmic system backed robots so buy car person gets money money removed balance points spend month robots deliver car housewhy keep living survival could future live enjoyment enough freedom life,1 hi im an m and i just feel i am a lost cause i hate everything about my life and barley if at all want to do any of the work to make it better nothing about my life is horrible besides my relationship but thats another story lol i live in an average middle class house with my dad and have a decent setup for life i have friend who like me for me i hope and have started to go to party and etc but i just cant shake my depression or feeling of hating myself ive been like this since i wa or and nothing could help and all ive gotten is worse i wa a smart kid but now i haven t done any of my schoolwork and im supposed to graduate in month and i cheated through all of last year schooling because of covid i had a job then switched to doing doordash instacart since im but now i cant even motivate myself to go do that i hate my body the way i act i especially hate being gay i hate my adhd i hate that i get jealous of other people being happy with themselves it really hurt and i hate that i feel like i have no passion in life and i have nothing i really want to work towards besides having nice clothes and even then when i think of that i get more unmotivated because i already hate my body and wish clothes fit better on me already so i just get disappointed and think i will never look remotely close to the way i want i really think this is because of the tik tok era my body make me feel disgusting and i feel like i have the ugliest face in the world im like abnormally skinny 9 0 lb but i cant gain weight because even when i try i forget to eat or put it off to continue what im fixated on at the moment like i had my first meal at pm today ive asked my dad various time to get me setup with a psychiatrist but that will never happen knowing my parent ive been recommended to a therapist by my school counselor since th grade the only one ive had is the school provided one they gave for covid i just like in general hate myself and my life and i feel even worse about it because i shouldn t hate it i have a lot that i should be grateful for that i just take for granted for god sake i have been in my room for the past month doing nothing most people do not have that kind of luxury amp x 00b oh yeah and on the topic of my relationship which i think contriubutes to this feeling gt we ve been on and off for like year almost now i wa groomed im pretty sure he im you can do the math he is emotionally abusive and denies that he wa horribly abusive to me in the past for example he used to tell me about people asking to hookup with him constantly boost his own ego he put me down with insult and name accuses me of causing a scene or starting something when i have a reaction to a rude action he doe he didnt get me anything for valentine day or christmas he ha hit me twice but love to be like it wa a shirt i whipped you with and im sure he like that im depressed he ha said im going to end up a strung out drug addict like my mom that im a loser who will rot away who isn t even doing that bad rn and she isn t a strung out addict never wa she wa rich most her life im sorry if this isn t cohesive or whatever i just needed somewhere to vent my thought and hopefully get help i just really wish i didnt feel like this and my brain didnt hate me i wish i could just go to the gym and start doing my school work and get myself on track but i just cant,1 thank god for @minimcbooom and the dashboard on mac comps ,0 @djpulsar lol im going have to look for some ,0 "@maeband Amazing show in Salt Lake! Loved it, super special awesome! So many words to describe it! Thank you for all your hard work!",0 @umsuperstarj Get 100 followers a day using www.tweeteradder.com Once you add everyone you are on the train or pay vip ,0 "@thebossyyankee Definitely, let's plan something. The show is gonna be up for a while. ",0 im going homeso im angel angel flies broken wings angels belong heavennot here think time go broken wings need heal im going home,1 im calling uyoutakethemoon poisoned put water supply burnt crops delivered plaughr upon houses also took username,0 bored need something to do!! But what to do i dont know ,0 better way get attention say ill wait repeatedly stop talking mean nothing less mushroom cloud stop us quickly,0 jamrock where did top cat go,0 cmykevin ooh nice but williams sonoma already got to me,0 mund ia am good bro dealing with some mental health issue bipolar on a depression stage now been on a manic stage for a while,1 ruined life year ago want outabout months ago decided trans started process even changing name ive never less happy want old self back longer try pass woman already changed name body horrified spend rest life like this see mirror feel sense immense detachment scientific curiosity horror rage regret retrospect life already sucking severely and still am totally empty empty inside nothing else pursue think part wanted make interesting someway research jumped right in nothing lose thought one reasons getting close redflag friends career anything fill void one hobby music hack think im insecure core really make anything resembling art confidence attention span however work basically spend day singing playing recording myself much frustration sound flat awful guitar ever helped weekend planning selling donating gear recently mom came visit stayed motel room live in seemed desperate take back home midwest turn life around go back really hope find way this honest wonder im supposed commit redflag perhaps brain already afflicted chemical imbalance lack stimulation staged rebellion circumstances push brink ive definitely prone selfdestructive behavior past never went something impulsively before,1 Bout to make some cake and paint signs for my friends car wash! Yeah for choco cake!! ,0 found crush likes me took mins scrolling teams find guys class could figure talking,0 catching flights chicago rn going state thats total lockdown atleast im cummin home,0 im beyond disappointed myselfim going say it today found ex someone else cant take it happened last year well breaking me gutwrenching excruciating thing ive ever through seeing gush another girl way me time around graduated never need see again oh god stomach knots feel paralyzed many thoughts swirling around mind good enough insist want relationship anyone turn around get someone else fucking upset could possibly happy without me hell feel need kind control him oh god hate it want feel way mind warped toxic cant get head cant stop thinking hes going lose virginity someone me hes going love someone loved me someone going make happier did horrible echo chamber mind chorus it me her me memememememememe bouncing around killing inside fucking narcissistic thought boy even long dating someone else fills jealousy rage pain im afraid ill doomed always jealous obsessive ex want this could move would long time ago even want make post im fucking ashamed still fucking obsessed bitter hate it really do cant move one stupid piece shit dragged hell fucked over living really worth it,1 read plot summary worst one ever read justice incredible movie example good summary read listing turner classic movies anyway one favorite movies young child sister wait every april could see tv one best horse movies time one great classics whole family watch romance clean endearing story line interesting songs great make movies like anymore good acting top pat boone shirley jones best along many great character actors,0 @tll587 did you have to corner her in a bathroom to obtain said beads? ,0 feel unfathomable emptiness inside meim eidolon netherworld already nothing fulfills me im shadow former self wandering surface earth cant enjoy aspect life,1 "tonight, im celebrating LOVE! ",0 allowed talk ps feel like crap anytime want talk ps know lot people cant get things like incredibly video game parents feel like talk peoples troubles dont know thats right neither two friends one wish could invite cant stupid stupid covid stupider antimaskers antivaxxers everything hard isnt english teacher grading assignment sent three emails it know lot less struggle life many people subreddit shouldnt blow proportion struggles undervalued feel like post get chest feel like probably stayed title writing felt like lot stuff needed get out sorry know tiny compared others gone,0 boagworld the profile picture make a happy return i think i need a new promo picture,0 asked friend sunsets sunrises like they look same like bitch tf,0 "@tehonlyreasonn 'You have both helped me so much with my depression. Dan, your incredible video and philosophical outlook on life, and Phil your unwavering positivity. You both mean so much to me and to a lot of people, never forget how much good you are doing in the world -Kira' +",1 suicidal thoughts lately health issuesit started initially heathy good sudden developed frequent urination along kicked health redflag took months finally got it year good got acidity issue later developed tinnitus devastating phase life lost girl loved anything this cut social areas year say entire went recovering that finally feeling better started moving on bamm another issue popped up allergiesthen dealing point got severe upper respiratory infection medsnow that took vaccine see pigmentation buccal mucosa dentists saying normal dermatologists stated oral lichen planus idk do diseases noncurable coming me fault suffer thesenow scared cancer gives heath redflag time really feel hopeless feel like body supporting me scared angry frustrated notthis suicidal thoughts came mind idk dodoctors helping much accurate diagnosis feel like loop experiencing bad events need help,1 "Once again i'm at a crossroads with my hair. What to do, what to do. should i cut, colour,braid. Its winter and its exams soon.",0 hope left buildingim sure even begin im years old spent half years greatest woman could hoped met raised two sons ages one own kid rock struggled depression life sadly taken frustrations yelling lot miserable years guilt allencompassing iv clouded depression see good nay great things life pissed away sons th birthday wife bluntly said wants divorce therapy counseling discussion pent month seeing therapist attending church groups even supported emotionally great friends yet nothing lift me cry attention im point ending tho week ive tried giving three days more simply isnt worth carrying bringing dark cloud around know least feel happiness asking for suppose coping mechanism something anything see future me tools place wednesday zero day odd finally something look forward to ask son father cant begin imagine dismay bringing mine around healthy either,1 learning for school now ... ,0 ophelia haha sorreh i try spek normalz now k,0 @juancarlos1969 I don't get this twitter at all...everyone talks how it's great...but i don't see that greatness in it ,0 i ve finally been put on med after year of pushing through my anxiety the idea of going on med wa scary but i m hoping it ll be better in the long run the only issue i m having so far is i m so tired i m normally not this tired but i swear all weekend i ve just been sleeping i have no motivation to do anything i just want to sleep i m hoping that this will go away a my body adjusts more a part of me is scared that the drowsiness won t go away i m happy that i have this week off from work to try to get myself used to them before going back to work i don t want to be tired like this forever,1 "@NikFTime Something that has always gets me is like, I am currently being forced to go to therapy for depression... because I have a serious illness and being sick is depressing. But doctors treat grief like an intrustive thought that can be medicated away.",1 "@MGMarts @kreativlink lol, girls! we have such a wonderful weather here in The Netherlands - for a change, haha ",0 depressed since gotten worse regularly suicidal thoughts back acted hung chickend couple seconds life mental health gotten much worse since then daily urge take life since incident hesitant know reasona part wants fight get better part not nothing look forward do constant struggle tiring much consideration decided best go iteven write this part wants get better might either today tomorrow,1 osu players subscribe friend hes pretty decent think idk dont play osu jist want help https wwwyoutubecomchannelucpcohigfogrpsscwjhmva,0 sitting next cliff right nowim feeling pretty shitty right now writing cellphone parents huge argument divorce brother left house went separate ways went trail go walk im cliff ocean think theres anything death good friends feel like im anymore im sure typing proof that know waste everything itd hurt lot people kind want everyone realize was maybe death would actually make parents better people dad would nicer brother also really want die since well dying sucks im really sure go here again doubt ill it seems plausible right now,1 I'd love to tweet all day today but I have work to do that must get done so I'll tweet when I can. God bless everyone! #tcot,0 looking respect decisionhi im trying really hard rationalise please bare here always struggled confrontation asserting personality others means shy surface introverted naturally first met boyfriend similarly pessimistic position lives bit stuck wanting slog hopefully journey relative happiness propped around years actually i think quite healthy supportive way love so much truly believe unique connection couldnt find anyone else lot deep understandings world him although loves me doesnt believe idea one true love never another woman believes himself though medical diagnosis perhaps autism spectrum struggle emotionally driven trains thought attracted initially never conducted bull relationship politics beginning relationship always hated men dated previously that treatment pure honest recently noticed really trying upheave life get rid bad habits has came close tonight ending think underlying feelings came sure characteristics wants lifelong partner although loves me understand approach life must make things hard him problem loves leave despite stressing would always support regardless already faced rough times short relationship years family deaths horrible job situations uprooted moved hours away family live him etc want soar holding back choice loves much make sacrifice himself love enough that know isolate continue live fight get back part thinks doesnt want alone also feel strongly deciding die general watched father die painful spinal cancer around years ago want experience mental anguish inability decide fate want come terms mortality pace help it think around time start processing that view end life year end april end goal could reach one final birthday everyone love want gradually say goodbye way everyone peace it want meaningful conversations little cousins occur naturally instil bit wisdom learn short life function bit hope know gone life cruel experiences chew spit nothing left self want live for would never want anyone hurt inside like must right thing definitely going this question please dont leave messages trying convince otherwise amazing seeking respect decision would best help support wonderful community could receive know lot understand understanding rare need contentedly go rather angrily funeral fund set aside cover costs letter instruction written brother law funeral director scared die hope loved ones understand wish could see future know love cared for certain kick needs become person wants years come happier this p reading this know grateful love everything done me brilliant rooting hard next life one shared xxx,1 lmaooo mf really said please u disrespectful homophobic people i sending cant ,0 this town is causing me depression and anxiety i lived here my whole life and i only have bad memory here abuse bullying etc i even have trouble walking and breathing because of the stress i need to leave because it s making my depression worse i tried to talk about it with my psychiatrist but she dismissed it isn t she suppose to help me get out of here,1 @yankebabex3 oh and don't be stressed ,0 get easieri sick tired life trust wrong people fall love get married dump like nothing them strand foreign country nothing go home to think favor give money hotel come back this havent worked year could him nightmare,1 @audball_xo Totally agree with you on Beyonce. She's stupid. (: Ali Larter is WHERE IT'S AT! ,0 danielhalpin gon na try and find a sport bar to watch that at not got a chance though i don t think,0 whats recent thing bought filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 pilli leaving tonight last two years ive overdosed many times cant swallow whole bunch pills found solution crushed meds im going mix food put drink swallow it im truly sorry im alive pulse know many people life going affected tremendously move couple months year know selfish act also selfish keep someone doesnt want be wanted create goodbye video send everyone rescued guess wont that everyone find late everyone struggling keep fighting keep pursuing want life ive battling mental health many years guess time up life isnt everyone make last idk happen die really hope better earth matter fact hope life death dead take care keep it seek help youre really rot think solution please get help deciding take life im tired fighting waking every morning wishing dead first thought wake still here final thought night hope dont wake tomorrow meds dont work shock treatment dont work therapy doesnt work etc sought help enough person severely suicidal depressed least me guess ill sitting till time up good life best,1 miles nowhereloneliness overwhelming anyone help me,1 can someone take my mushy depression brain and give me a new one thx,1 everything f n eeverything fine im waiting massive amount edibles kick in im watching office boyfriend worried im acting weird really know do im fine pass im attention whore thats people bpd are attention whores cut self harm eating disorders try kill attention thats are attention whores im too sensitive according friends cry drop hat get sad think everyone hates for real reason spoken dad months ahh fuck it im enjoy making around miserable hes narcissistic abusive asshole am spoken grandmother months even though dying cancer hurts much oh im one pain here gotten single positive response housing options somewhere live boyfriend moves here maybe try harder ive worked every day since june th get day th july cant stop binging food gaining weight ive literally gained lbs since january im avoiding mirrors photos checking scale it choice could stop eating wanted want to whatever edibles working now im forgetting im writing guess im fine,1 considering redflag stillhi feel bit scared really know react this mostly age im turning year im scared were told were spoiled brats know nothing world life thats really need id like leave opinion here want know outsider would view this even know start hah ive treated depression since winter getting better worse actually ive therapists since then first one got antidepressants later overdosed end january along painkillers obviously im still here second therapist slightly better always wanted find reason im depressed anxious rather trying solve problems ive seeing months got hospital self harming happened times april realization know everything starts make sense put together likeah told therapist transgender started looking realized felt childhood justknew something wrong turned started female puberty was gender dysphoria caused self esteem go caused end depression anxiety disorders happy while realized wanted helped presenting masculine cool then another realization lgbt friendly religious high school even realizing fact lgbt like school much depression got much worse half term left school first terms october went cool art school right now people supporting use chosen name treat like guy wish them mom number one supporter best everything help me nonetheless im really bad depressive episode again hate body wish could live like cis girl without almost breaking crying everytime see hear myself country start hormone therapy years almost cant take it totally lost point life cant see anything matters since know ill always stranger body feel like sound traumatizing write down really is looks get people asking dick much thats problem mate one feel like freak normal cant accept everyone around nice even think treating like girl keep feeling like deserve anyone anything good think much less anyone else world know future focus much look know well im barely give slightest fuck look like lesbian years old little boy much do feel like people think see joke biggest goal life find love kids bunch dogs think ill ever find someone makes everything pointless want love want loved feel like im worthy anyones love time school make anything easier im absent lot since go therapy every simply cant get bed step house see reflection start crying im exaggerating wish was id see fucking size shoes go back bed cry im still still going reason feet height rd grader binding chest way long even sleeping cant want feel kind fuxkery there itd also end crying cry sleep everynight know pathetic ive really thinking end weeks days im like okay okay reality really isnt think im even living anymore feels like im watching fucked movie someone making torture me want hurt family theyve lot me already made loose daughter loved dearly im daughter never be everything hurts lot want go away,1 "@frugaldougal Awwww, Hope that your Mum's cold will get much better!!!! ",0 keep happening almost everytime want share photo keeps saying unable send photo would like know why,0 kill realized probably going slow death stoppedi bed rethinking everything wrong current lifestyle looking ways kill without making seem like google thought passed head suffocate death pillow way theres maybe chance everyone going take dying fell asleep weird position put head pillow started breathing waited running air stopped assume inhaled carbon dioxide seeing started breathing heavily pulled out guess wait much wouldve slow death happened know think right now im probably going waste rest night crying sleep eating garbage smth edit idk call attempt guess ill talk therapist wonder shell say,1 get feeling super bad aka redflag feeling super good one single thought theyre times exaggerated then another thought get feeling super good feeling super bad matter seconds switchs last hours stop come back again get bad feelings awful way cope thinking way killing myself then get good ones completely forget sensation bad ones gave see bright side,1 really miss production good old fashion spooky films ismail merchant james ivory given task producing film may one save lack internationally known top drawer cast one films watch alone dark evening pizza popcorn even bother dishes morning want hide covers bravo director herbert wise writers susan hill nigel kneale top production design jon bunker art direction john ralph excellent cast making shudder feel isolated even though im living one populated cities world beginning st century gave production budget constraints television really pulled great show,0 im really craving boyfriend rn like want one boyfriend shit also silly like wrestling n fighting n fun routines basically peacefully coexisting like im rush cause im chillin mans find one day ready light fun boy walk life make laugh also kinda cold n dominant lil give free drugs maybe im mentally boyfriend ooh boy wanna puke hate writing boys suck,0 always feel like im needy ask something like someone says hey need help get something want thing want ask them takes like hours build enough courage even ask them ill feel needy asf try ask them though theyre clearly offering get something want still feel needy ask,0 greggrunberg hey you said matt wa gon na go all ballistic i wa disappointed good ep tho mostly,0 im alonei feel nobody talk to maybe embarrassed discuss things close me often think redflag greater alternative failing life tonight thoughts extra heavy,1 nothing live forim burden everybody dont future look forward to im better dead im stupid thinking anybody would ever care me im stupid thinking even second would important anybody dont want kill myself harms way wouldnt step it,1 i m not there is on hbo in 0 minute got excited then remembered i should get some sleep tonight and why is it not on again soon sad,0 im tiredi risk sounding spoiled live nice house nice things family sometimes loves me want end it im constantly telling things get better idea will past year wrote fake toaster bath notes diary one day day mother decided snoop room found read whole thing next month constantly looking reassurance didnt hate notes said did do doesnt know that took three therapists insisted stayed room spoke tried tell couldnt speak way tears kept comming im glad didnt im bisexual wanted proper coming since written diary knows too past three months ive felt lonely extremely anxious depressed dont want bother friends best friend fear would turn away diabetes another thing im constantly self conscious feel makes people think less person sensors needles constantly body ugly hate much want tear never look again ive thought insuline oding never courage it ex got perfect girlfriend makes feel unworthy still feelings aswell feel fat even thought bmi normal range ugly dont wear makeup sensitive skin try tell parents im tired even though true refuse believe always try force talk problems dont get mad disrespectful need help last option,1 i wake up feeling guilty everyday i truly do feel like people would be happier without me of course i know that s not true but the feeling eats away at my soul everyday all i can constantly think about is the money that s ha been spent on me i feel sick looking at myself in the mirror i don t feel worthy for myself i don t feel worthy for others either i just want to be enough i just want to feel normal doing the simplest thing like breathing fill me with dread and worry when i m around others i ve never had a super close friend though i never really got out a a kid i never really felt understood i find it hard to believe that one day i will feel comfortable with myself because this feeling ha plagued me ever since i wa a child i look forward to when i sleep because that s when i m not limited and i feel free the thought of dying painlessly and giving into the void is what soothes me when i m stressed or sad i want to keep going but it s been so long of me being useless i don t know how to catch up i feel so much dread in simply existing,1 say time heals woundsthen feel broken time ive never meaningful relationship ive never girlfriend ive strung along many years ive never even kissed girl im already thirties want someone love least give chance ive never admitted anyone everyone assumes im normal person thats normal relationships never happened me ive rejected many times cant believe time gone share life someone love im tired trying im tired alone im tired sad im tired alive know im much coward anything it im waste human life,1 killing tonight bye bye,1 someone talk pleasei got heavy load laid tonight already overburdened red lining life ive tried end couple times past afraid basically would love talk vent get info talking psychologist,1 redflag thing mindi want here im ive started studying levels see future myself started going downhill back april year suffer emetaphobia the fear vomiting social anxiety depression eating disorders suicidal thoughts intentions anxiety whole panicanxiety attacks everyone talk says slow process get process takes long here redflag first thing mind wake last thing mind sleep see future panic time barely eat ive lost stone matter months eating anyone advice,1 one films either love hate it girlfriend loved it told brother rent hated it said flashy colloquial usually goes see big action movies probably enough explosions left disappointed great new talent id never heard leads anyway des brady the directors brother especially good playing right dick start thought never would redeem managed crawl dark hole created end really routing him surprising film whole lot heart live without body count explosions one original yashimo brixton uk,0 cant iti wasnt able go through made noose belt began hang myself knot came undone fell floor balled eyes out im sorry cant right now im extremely miserable become pain exist right now cant kill yet know im stable another traumatic event could easily send edge,1 got gf lied haha fell it im straight girl,0 le conseguenze dellamore is beautifully made film takes small carefully positioned steps towards ending need savoured order enjoyed contrasting landscapes tightly enclosed world hero inhabits taken director controlled moment enter hotel we like hero never escape suffocating intensity paradoxical monotony criminally driven mafia world film resists mafia stereotypes whilst revelling makes successful concrete grave inevitable brutal executions overwhelming maleness laid bare exposed are brutality business more life part corporate machine organised crime love living self family others hero indeed hero gives life sake touch beautiful barmaid resolution misery suffered neighbours hotel order escape decorative prison consequences love indeed beautiful brutal time see it,0 aplusk it amazes me men like you actually exist i hope i find someone someday who will love and value me,0 im gonna honest im depressed im desperate depressed anxious wish so wish best friend wish close friends feel alone theres one confide without ulterior or creepy motive parents fucking despise ever making happy or least act like it im lonely hell doubt talking would get friend potential romantic partner since possibility ever factor anyone sub im sorry yall carry ur day,0 last visit sonthree years ago wife left taking year old son her parents wealthy money family immediately moved place go family thousand miles away since get days christmastime weeks summer made ultimate mistake trying keep relationship alive friend father summer last ask see okay that man moved far better father figure ever though love ever could decided take last week vacationhe comes weeksand explain mistakes try dad culture shock expects full leniency always visiting friend thing works people children resent you least case resorting this turn teens year old cool friend telling him turning loose surrendering son another man better me boards aircraft tell love him watch plane takeoff head car kiss picture carried key chain since left life beg god watch him ask quarter almighty actions fact believe deserve nothing short hell leave parking lot alive absolutely wanting attention sympathy save one man one long distance father parenting mistakes would worth it kids need parents want parents find friends could stupid cannot step one someone else damn sure will losing child another father something maybe live with cannot pray please good boy got dealt bad dad thank letting tell story,1 Can Contraceptives Cause Depression? https://www.drweil.com/health-wellness/body-mind-spirit/mental-health/can-contraceptives-cause-depression/#.WuBtjrUb7JA.twitter …,1 help redflag self harm feel safeteaching ever dreamt growing up absolutely hate it dont know do feel like dreams shattered dont know start over quitting life would safe havent suicidal years dont know move self harm could shower school body would know days,1 strangely enough movie never made big screen denmark wait video release expectations high way disappointed always ang lee fantastic acting intelligent thrilling plot guessing right till end superb filming along unforgiven easily one two best westerns sbr br people expect something along line mel gibson patriotcorny braveheartacceptable sourly disappointed others appreciate mentioned qualities fantastic time watching it ,0 movie entertainment imagine friends love spending time with ones know inside becoming bit silly perhaps taking character two thats film about inventive script brilliantly performed pleasing masses one fun bunch brilliantly talented people im sure thought signed it br br the review sounds completely unfair think person wrote wrong frame mind watched film lighthearted moment great dignity care lookbr br a job well done thought great film id watch north american norm daybr br in nutshell best film ever going see hell lot moments laughed long age,0 "The initial recipe of 7up used to contain lithium, a drug used to stabilize mood and cure depression.",1 cant anymorei know sounds cliche really cant even know am look like life constant fluctuation positive negative cant stand torture anymore like taunting me so goodbye suicidal bros,1 so cat something smart throughout day give cats dry kibble every night go bed give cats wet food the stuff comes cans gravy chonk cat inara loves wet food persistent hungry inara already pretty smart learned clawing curtains good way get attention knows turn movie stepping remote importantly open doors usually opens bathroom door walks in promptly close door ignoring her today waiting food opened door instead walking in stood right next doorframe close door choice finish get food tldr cat learned stick foot doorway,0 whats race yes nascar race seven quintillion seven hundred seventyseven quadrillion seven hundred seventyseven trillion seven hundred seventyseven billion seven hundred seventyseven million seven hundred seventyseven thousand seven hundred seventyseven,0 @tommcfly Eclipse is awesome it's better than new moon,0 wana something romantic come place build mellenial falcon legos microwave left macroni cheese watch old episodes ninjago build pillow fort sleep bed sounds pretty romantic right,0 older tried lot still failed go onso im late s male going motions settling affairs ive already decided method purchased need tested everything date shortly approaching tried number things deal feelings years hundreds hours volunteer work medication therapy a long time ago got sober exercisingeating healthy relationships etc nothing worked dont really want die feel limping along long im tired want sleep miss home place safety comfort known long time felt way throughout life brought head year relationship my fault laid work also kind fault really nothing keep here social network were older shit deal with messaged friend last night asking it heard back tried contact redflag helpline made feel worse guess im looking for well anything guess im looking others thing it feel tried decades failed failed everything highly unlikely going getting better point death feels way out way feel broken alone anymore tried much go there,1 went to ihop again great for a diet at least there were no kung foo pancake this time rachel,0 "...you like them, right? Even the ones that were totally just the shit? How have I gotten at drawing? Have I improved? TELL ME MAKAYLA.",0 movie well acted kept interest main character entire movie stu unger lived extraordinary life imagine stu alive today movie paints picture stu ungers life might felt like interesting see connected growing up would liked seen detail stus partying gamesmanship relationship bob stupak all movie well done well acted story touched many facets life full many events larger lifebr br this movie worth renting,0 ive seeing one since then shed helped process much help recognize start move past lot things went hating fearing father since incident sister ended triggering memory told blame marital issues among things point even around family friend gatherings without feeling anxious wanting flee able accept things happened past remind past able interact again even really feel familial love anymore care him wellbeing but familial bond there killed came retrieve stuff couple days walking out time ever stood him made snide remark mother told go ahead run problems like always does backed corner shook me screamed collapsed mother came home made leave,1 let depression dig deep financial hole trying fix it keep set backs every time get back feet get hole bit something comes along pushes deeper get fault it still hurts paid insurance premiums time would facing uncovered accident car severely upside on got car pre pandemic lost high paying job able recover fridge busted twice leaving food bill collectors call tell irresponsible getting car cannot afford could got car want die energy fight anymore see way,1 @lyricsmode_com oh my god yes when i need a pick me up i listen to daft ,0 reply sus men reddit dms dangerous,0 ask trans girl questions hello bored again anyways ask stuff whatever question get ton trans girl mean answer mtf anyways feed evershortening attention span,0 hospitalizationi went psychiatrist wanted hospitalized now therapist ive always told want hospitalized said get put psychiatric hospital dont want too think itll happen point im scared,1 well i have so much going on in my brain let me try to organize it having an existential crisis i m i ve done nothing with my life i m scared to death that a sizable chunk of my life is gone for nothing i work at fast food where there is no advancement whatsoever i just want to go back to school but i can t tired of my job like i said i work fast food i worked a a crew leader and the b i went through on a daily basis wa enough to have me walk out a year and a half of day a week of bull crap just piled up on top of me one and a half year of them playing music i can t stand and me being too nice to say anything because i didn t want to be the one to ruin it for everyone else so i endured with one ear bud in my ear until my bos told me no ear bud back to square one listening to others music for hour a day tired of life ever since 0 hell ever since i got out of the army my life ha been shit in the army i wa confident strong and proud my co took everything from me and gave me the boot ever since 009 my life ha been a struggle to get settled on two foot i ve abused drug been raped been abused been through natural disaster that have taken everything from me i have been kicked to my butt then kicked again while i wa down i hate being disabled i m ptsd ocd bipolar adhd i take so many medication that i don t know what to do with myself just to have a somewhat normal life i m so tired of getting my emotion dismissed and told that i m overreacting just because my disability isn t seen,1 around two weeks since mothers death keep blaming people treated mom badly feeling empty wanted dissapear since years ago feelings come go or pretend feel thing life sucks wish never born world knowing thing impossible hurt even more live life empty thing chest everyday never wanted end life today imagine scenario pain gone drink high dose sleeping pills need help this today browsed high dose sleeping pills,1 say something interesting ill rate interesting im bored try best,0 one stay sane world fast advancing technologyi feel like ever increasing powers technology change everything sanity powerless like fist thermonuclear weapon everything grey area everything objects sensations consciousness created manipulated destroyed using technology continued,1 "@Jacob_Rees_Mogg If also an act of self harm brought by the depression of 6 years of Tory austerity, but an act of self help can get us out of this brexit madness",1 im pretty sure want die im afraid itok so english first language im pretty fucked probably mistakes ampxb fighting anxiety since chronic depression since im now lived good times sure even happy not sure simplified constant sense people think happiness definitely sort happy like lived certain country away mine spent days certain girl thing is good cycles end somehow always end severe depressed again tried everything every fucking thing therapy took lot medication embraced religion good bad jobs good bad girlfriends travelled isolated home got drunk everyday spent times sober even spent days psychiatric hospital last year redflag ideation got really bad called redflag hotlines wrote letters talked parents friends doctors traumas who doesnt even haunt anymore therapist good stuff im committed treatment point is even everything hands always end fucking place last night debate end life not honest times feel like decision already made even plan problem thing takes lot courage think me family friends shit lot friends mental health disorders im afraid get worse know plan do im also afraid attempt fails consequences failed attempted make life even worse for others around me now well fell love friend mine want or anybody fair want relationship all pretty mundane situation know looks like emotions fragile time looks like everytime got heart broken not romantic stuff like something goes wrong friends family professional life breaks harder way like easier fall depression black hole time well sorry little longer expected know do want fucking pain end twelve years long long long time live emotional suffering,1 @bryanboy why not 3 instead? you need choices according to time/event of the day haha,0 minecraft cave update finally words cannot describe happiness right now finally fucking here,0 oh man i can t find a tenori on anywhere what am i going to do,0 hate morningsi used love mornings long long time ago and years first seconds waking still bliss yet knowing am am soon awarness comes poweful dull pain around chest everything feels heavy feel sick much resistance anything physically hurts stand up try put autopilot wash face good routine drink glass water too still look forward coffee morning im keeping everything minimum damn hard pointless dress theres point feel much energy could anything get short bursts motivation everything forced feel sick see sunny outaide said would go jogging start crying crying hours now cant stop type tears cry let something cheat pure pain hopelessness venting friend woke stupid complaints know say still thinks allright good person sometimes get angry even people care even though main problems based hard time beong comfortable around people cant enjoy life anymore hurts much cant even enjoy present focus now no know naturemovie plothaving tea beautiful hate cant part it cant turn music chill hurts never fully relaxed sometimes put back little get hopes living loving actually miss something never see future without it see point anything except making otherslife easier fault im like this still hurts like hell want anymore feel trapped false hope theres nothing look forward im much pain could tropical island still feel like this want anywhere actually cant think fulfilling future someone like anymore im passing by,1 one best episodes entire xfiles series creepy beyond words tension suspense episode well executed entire minutes managed almost scary entire movie episode joins ranks best episodes greats home humbug bad blood milagro best respective seasonbr br mulder scullys growing relationship put test episode really trust other episode also contains tiny scene leave romantic viewers smilingbr br mulder bring mittens,0 i cant bear not being beatiful im a man not girl i just can t i cant begin to process how i myself and be le beatiful im gon na die soon but i havent quiited my job i make good saving each month i have some other bunch of saved money how can i have some clean fun no s x no drug or should i try to help others gift food school supply clothes to those who need it i know i can donate my eyeball and no one will care because my face isnt beatiful beauty of the face is literally what made human conciousness how do i face the use of money since i wont be needing it in old age which ill never reach,1 missed shotgun last nightat last second moved firing idk didnt hit myself put hole ceiling wife left me need help im calling psychiatrist today,1 @Cantebury multitasking rocks pity you haven't been to the concert yesterday ,0 give reasonwhy die give best shot,1 notive felt like failure years now peaking got lost job within week match required pace bullshit system despite much try im useless everything even video games supposed fun nothing except reminder complete ineptitude everything move different state family because im shitty living own lost girlfriend stupid was parents listen keep guilting death would make feel im tired it know reason want live thats card left unfortunately workable plan used live half hour redflag bridge us now know could do im much coward slit wrists im shitty knots hang myself,1 kids go private schools fuck rich cunts private schools shit,0 rita hayworth right cover girl technicolor film also starring gene kelly phil silvers eve arden lee bowman otto kruger rita plays beautiful showgirl rusty working small club owned man loves danny kelly friday go oysters genius silvers club comedian hate oysters theyre looking pearl find one three good luck believebr br rusty auditions wins role cover girl magazine starts ahead contestants magazine owner kruger sees resemblance rusty girl loved turns rustys grandmother becomes cover girl world opens dreams appearing broadway come true danny wants success time realizes hes lost herbr br cover girl exuberant dance numbers songs jerome kern rita dubbed martha mears rita best playing rusty present grandmother past sexy desirable gorgeous woman apparently insecure always thumb domineering men none ever showed screen fact want movie star one true goddesses brought everything life gene kelly serious role here gets plenty chances dance sing phil silvers amiable funny inhouse comic best friendbr br this good movie dull spots problem idea rusty choose successful career man loves supermodel jinx falkenberg plays film speaks getting married warned boss to necessary modeling business were told rusty continues career goes back work dannys signs seemed point toward brooklyn club both nevertheless cant beat cover girl top entertainment beautiful color lovely music great energy fine performances fabulous asset glorious rita hayworth,0 You're the P. 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Davis ,0 feeling guiltymy parents middle divorce theyve separated long time live mom ptsd living dad whole personality changed it stressed feel like telling want die for millionth time would make feel worse would much easier leave silently dad good health insurance golly sure wish last fee hed ever pay cremation burial ive financial emotional drain since baby sit night fighting myself should go get pills rope eventually pass thinking it get yelled everything sit there screaming silently cant see much im hurting whenever say much pain im alive get brushed told you could worse wish worse could justify feeling way live constantly disassociating yelled at misunderstood cant deal anymore everything ready thats left willpower sorry long post,1 "@evilbride no its not real lol, temporary but i made it myself lol",0 claims woman nobody believe me im exactly sure herself police came claimed hit flushed cheek show it fortunately police able put together actually happened based blood trail thank god sitting hit blood around proved otherwise would jail something do things escalating second time arrested past months assault,1 everything and everyday is a struggle because i don t feel like nothing make sense i wake up on my way to work i just keep thinking why why eating why working why having a hobbie why do you guy feel it too and how to deal with that,1 damn chill mother f know christmas better thanksgiving want love mother fuckers,0 "Sexy Costumes Sexy Lingerie Sexy Leather and So much more, We are not selling Church out fits here Drive him Wildhttp://bit.ly/hEDpD",0 teenage boys f currently write novel male maincharacter know rmenwritingwoman exists wanna make mistakes way around so i girl consider writing male character,0 "Just did 50 burpees. You know how long it's been!? Depression is a catch 22. Exercise helps, but you have no desire to do it. It takes everything and more to get to the gym... and then to actually do something.",1 hit once it hit best friend longer alive able celebrate christmas getting presents big smile face wakes cause waking wish could rewind time stop killing himself kills inside asked come coffee day killed said busy happiest person ever clue it guess everything got him feeling way right miss much ,1 going school practicals im going school practicals like hours tell comments reduce thigh fat,0 relationship break person thought one bit happiness life majorly suicidal anyone else feeling bad want chatfinding partner cyber cheating compulsive liar gamblerand person thought years hope desire life now dont want live im scared die even though think death would spare future pain dont know people life thing im painfully depressed anxious lonely anyone else feels crap want talk me feel free message like thanks reading,1 yall participate nnn womfan still horny depressed mememaking teenager yet still understand appeal nnn yall seem weird participate completely unfacilitated reddit challenge like so really funny hahas please enlighten,0 find extremely less productive days cannot meet deadline projects enough time put mind it zero motivation it heard past people could sign depression feel sad know feel know seek medical help know depressed,1 first time postingim even mad sad happy anymore feelbored filled dread thinking living full life nothing contribute anymore burned many bridges mental health struggles im sahm love kids cant help think issues hurt them seeing therapist psychiatrist started new meds dunno thought id reach out,1 im going tell gp suicidal thoughts therapist yetsuicidal thoughts plans getting intense know medication could kill me ive trying plot without painful gross death most pill overdoses let go painlessly sleep no horrifying lonely terrible way go ive decided want peaceful dignified death loved ones maybe hospital medication give take away pain panic ive hell lot life part get suicidal sometimes honestly thats also deserve peaceful death ive suffered enough mean cant guarantee die heart attack something get drift chances ideal death increase redflag im going tell gp see wednesday ill tell ive thoughts drifting severity planning certain like off psych ward you since psych ward mainly exists point im going kill right now im there know could thats good step right suicidal thoughts medically relevant someone needs know ive them probably refer therapist andor psychiatrist take note it get carted occasional thoughts important medical professional know ill tell her,1 one takes depression seriously think joking coming excuses failures getting harder harder day know do next year bacaloria feel like illness going make studying x times harder cannot mess bacaloria up pretty much rest life depends itsince one around seems care depression choice left treat alone see achieved treat illness alone,1 really want thisi want end mental hospital,1 i m scared of something and i can t tell whether i m being irrational or not i spend most of my time desperately trying to avoid this particular thing in order to avoid triggering the anxiety i can t even type the word i m not even sure if i m afraid of the thing itself or just the anxiety it provokes i want to confront this fear but i m worried that something bad will happen if i do how do i work up the courage,1 im thinking jumping bridge nearby im pretty sure impact kill meive lost hope cant find enjoyment anything ive decided might do think jumping tall place quickest way way need worry second thoughts like medication overdose wish could make meaningful reality ill probably another number another static story matter,1 batman returns really dark movie shows caped crusader fighting penguin sexy catwoman ill get later michael keaton acts well bruce wayne showing good actor tim burton directs picture well locations movie impressive villains danny devito menacing penguin cruel yet disturbed man really hard childhood but michelle pfeiffer steals picture best catwoman ever threatening extremely sexy theres scene kisses batman cat way heats movie up action scenes good too ending dramatic tragic probably best ending batman movie tim burton shows manage batman movie really well he already demonstrated first batman also gives batman darker nature much like him,0 assuming you werent feeling better when you were taking them,1 passport pimlico real treat fans british cinema enjoyable thoroughly entertaining comedy cinematic flashback bygone age attitudes scenarios sadly memory british lifebr br stanley holloway plays pimlico resident arthur pemberton accidental detonation unexploded bomb discovers wealth medieval treasure belonging th century duke burgundy buried deep underneath little suburban street last yearsbr br accompanying treasure ancient legal decree signed king edward iv england which never officially rescinded state particular london street declared burgandian soil means eyes international law pemberton local residents longer british subjects natives burgundy tiny street independent country right law unto itselfbr br this sets warbattered impoverished residents good stead believe outside english law jurisdiction act drunken defiance burn ration books destroy ignore clothing coupons flagrantly disregard british licencing laws etc declaring fully independent britainbr br however happens ever spiv black marketeer dishonest crook follows suit crosses border burgundy refuge law postwar restrictions sell dodgy goods half londons consumers follow order dodge ration making quiet happy little haven den thieves rather crowded one thatbr br appealing whitehall assistance told due developments now matter foreign policy majestys government reluctant become involved leaves residents high dry however declare area legal frontier set fully equipped customs office end road mainly monitor smuggling ensure safety residents pimlicobr br eventually border closed altogether starting major siege bugundian residents slowly running water food never less fighting true british style one bugundian resident quotes were english always english english fighting hard bugundians br br a sentiment soon echoed throughout capital rest london learn poor bugundians plight feel compelled chip help them throwing food supplies barbed wire blockadesbr br will whitehall fought may invaders throughout centuries finally brought knees new batch foreigners especially ones english br br great tale great fun throughout missed,0 @siphotwit I saw you somewhere today but it cost me $4 ,0 hey everyone im currently taking wellbutrin and buspirone buspar for depression and anxiety they re both atypical med because i am afraid of the side effect of ssri like loss of libido just so happens that both the med im on currently are supposed to help with libido counteract negative sexual side effect of ssri the thing is i do have a high libido but my anxiety is off the chart and im still pretty depressed psychiatrist want to put me on lexapro along with sticking with my current med i know it would very likely help with depression anxiety but im still worried about the side effect my question i guess is if you have a high libido to begin with but anxiety and intrusive ruminating thought is the main problem what are the odds that lexapro wouldn t negatively impact my libido at all maybe even increase it because it lower my anxiety and depression especially given that my current med are supposed to help with that thanks for reading,1 debating leaving worldi never darker place life years old really debating taking life suicidal thoughts challenge faced young age huge attachment issues due adopted always avoided getting attached girls fall love cant take happens well happened took girl nyc new years got rejected never felt empty alone sad dont know take it avoided falling love years didnt want happen did took risk got heart ripped crushed cant take pain time one turn this really dont know time maybe goodbye,1 one one god damn person earth gives shit live die,1 small pov story wrote okay picture this house late night chilling bed finally shut youtube go sleep sudden distance hear soft snip snip pull earbuds make sure heard correctly sit silence waiting sound alas nothing shake head go back video two seconds hear sound again closer now snipsnip time take earbuds off put know heard sound hear soft pitter patter feet coming towards hall towards door grab lamp nearest weapon close you embrace robber one begin relax sudden nowhere jump window pair scissors scream happy late circumcision one swift movement chop dick add ever growing collection,0 can not sleep wide awake and i got ta go to work later too boy am i going to have a crappy day,0 ok want get anime one would good first one ive started take liking anime guys finally broke me anyway one would good first helpful recommend one like rock music computers technology cars thank,0 @KiairaEST1989 lol craziness! Hopefully I make it down there so we can go out! Be club junkies like 1st semester lol good thimesssss ,0 yeah could go sleep wake up thatd greatposting main account really care point really sure im posting anyway ive exhausted everyone ive talked need kind outlet turmoil head recently th birthday took month really hit me different goals vision want lives be life stagnated shy awkward self consciousness makes difficult make keep friends inevitably bring secretly feel scares people away assume im looking attention many times bother know people notice something wrong say ask anything wish someone could pour heart cup coffee would give friend would actually listen ive tried dating past point almost part time job theres person floats life ive mentioned feel brushes off maybe gotten point ive cried wolf much one cares every single day unremarkable cant make enough money pay bills debt keeps accumulating cant breathe ive given hope ill ever travel healthy relationship kids happy life whatsoever,1 @nickgonios thanks! Made it to the airport and Petes passport seemed to have worked See ya in a few weeks!,0 is cry inside please oh please let it rain so warm,0 Was just woken up by home bible sellers. I don't need a bible 10 am on Saturday I need a beer.. ,0 stop telling get help did years assure you always worki honestly idea subreddit fits post most im sick told get help years actively trying get help serving social workers army therapists psychiatrist pills cbt gym sleep proper diet even motivational sleep videos whatever nothing worked made things worse slowly realized nothing helps made lot hopeless im sick seeing people telling others get help assuming never did entire life wasted help social skills practically selectively mute wish someone would hold hand getting euthanized telling best thing me get help idea normalized current form ideas help completely disregards fact barely know save the obviously people already comitted redflag,1 im already deadi pointed gun head yesterday sat stared barrel one shot chamber felt nothing afraid die want release death heroin know get heroin feel responsible much pain carry lot pain people would care counted people might likely think would feel responsible probably best case scenario anyone knows cares know theres small chance want know ive lot pain inside matter happy funny act ten years im ready get rid pain im dead birthday couple weeks ill probably hospitalized,1 "@smithcnn Are there any cobblestones along the Giro course today?If so, the rain could make for falls. Hope your wife is enjoying today. ",0 want people join discord server hallo discord server pretty empty normally talk gaming things there interested send dm give link,0 @blouiemusic Get 100 followers a day using www.tweeteradder.com Once you add everyone you are on the train or pay vip ,0 @inimeg Tell me about it. The less said about the place the better. I believe in the beauty of the world. Outside that group. LOL,0 anyone else feel like like biden elected like video game companies triple price something immediately reduce only double receiving massive backlash doubling real goal along yall know im talking about video game company triple xp required get free rewards triple cost something course get immediate massive backlash generously reduce double people somehow ok with even though doubling goal along still shitty af knew doubled straight up backlash would ensue would able increase like feels like country tired nothing changing politics helping people politics like alright want radical change here gave us worst possible thing trump like no no no thats want politics gave us biden everyone fucking ecstatic won even though hes still fucking awful literally got sucked voting bullshit status quo got us trump first place people happy it,0 in muscle mans voice you know else commits tax fraud my mom huhhheheheuheheuhe,0 "My mom died last week. I don't have any relatives. I'm alone and it is so hard. Today is the first day without anxiety and depression. I wanna live, I will not give up, I will fight like my mother did.",1 wereare prefect school fuck yall worsttttt types people istg,0 oh god im actually bought friend favorite manga since could get nd book im buying st coming tomorrow thursday idea hes even getting gift oh god giving much excitement give thursday friday or weeks depending whether one friends tests positive corona cant believe happening yayyy,0 takes patience get david lynchs eccentric but change lifeaffirming chronicle alvin straights journey stick it though moves slow straights john deere meets kind strangers along pilgrimage learn much isolation aging painful regrets secrets ultimately power family reconciliation richard farnsworth caps career years genuine performance sad poetic flinty caring sissy spacek matches slow daughter rose pines private loss caring dad rarely modern film preached notredflagly family,0 feel monarch cove one best written acted drama series come network long time show great potential wait view week could developed great primetime soap people look forward type acting reality tv overkilled long type writing acting shows like dallas knots landing dynasty melrose place etc provided monarch cove updated concept quite well anticipated getting better theres much expand characters interesting captivating right would loss explore develop characters drawn hooked us world absolutely loved show mysterious interesting sensuous without going overboard offending loved it,0 @Twistedlilkitty like a pokemon ,0 cleaned daily playlist years finally cleared playlist years listen every song decide want keep delete went songs im feeling super weird nostalgic would love good song recommendations,0 toxic masculinityi voice sounds gay im actively straight male kinda hurts know people know voice life thought deep,1 legit question anyone else like sour punch candy dont mean sour patch kids,0 please soonim nothing shell loved music loved people loved old movies loved regrets worst untimely deaths man dead since june fathers dead children fathers belongings thrown away without knowledge getting better ive tried also ive people move people longer recognize people need anymore despite knowing heartfelt passionate many friends dead many horrible things wont stop happening wish dead plain simple easy to damned hell bit eternity limbo wish could accidentally die tomorrow id rather way turn next month theres lot life tried bounce back from dont bounce back darker becomes me already dead existing,1 looking reason stay alive tonight itif looking reason stay alive tonight it,1 i ve had thought of not wanting to exist for a while but i ve been very much in denial to myself and when spoken to by others about my desire to stop existing i know i also make joke on occasion and yet when i vent it s like i m annoying the people around me or pushing them away because they don t want to hear about my problem they want me to be a happy strong pillar for them who always listens when they need not the other way around i spoilered this a nsfw because it s for one triggering and for two i d like for le people to see it on my profile i just vented about one of the aspect of these thought on a shared space in the channel for triggering topic but i think i want a new outlet just this once i don t like relying on reddit for anything nor putting sensitive information out there so there s a good chance i ll be deleting this post later i feel like this might be triggering but i just keep thinking of a sensory deprivation void that s just dark grey with no stimulus and how without the need for sustenance after a while i d start to fade and all brain activity would just shut off and that s the sort of isolation that i keep wanting no offending sound or smell no need to eat and no bodily function no pain of going without and no pain from my brain suffering the ill effect of my current lifestyle it s an interesting artistic vision but i see how it s too much to share and possibly triggering to some artistic vision it s interesting when viewed through that lens i should say i m le concerned with making sense anymore because i used to put so much effort into syntax and how i came across but i m sick of trying so hard for people i m good with the rambling writing style i ve been using lately i m tired of putting in effort to say thing that i m ashamed of only to have it weird out other people i m good i m alright i m just suffering these bad issue that don t go away and sometimes i have a hard time keeping up appearance i m ashamed of this i m much more neurotic than shared here but i m okay with it i m okay with it i m accepting it i m going to allow myself to feel it and not hate myself for having emotion like usual i m okay with it,1 love life deserve iti squandered many opportunities life attractive white middle class male st world demographic believe failure completely fault great oppression fight story deserves told thing hate life myself carbon emissions human waste contributions world want kill donate organs place life someone deserving opportunities hate terrible things great work ethic easily surpassed someone deserving natural talent need pour life force work reach lower middle ive dropped music school tried learn spanish years yet still fluent desperately hemmhoragged extra spending money save emergency fund cant seem get pathetic k squandered social life opportunities hopes building larger emergency fund to avail consistently dominated hobbies chess mtg videogame friends graduate college half much effort put failing ive seen people get better spanish months years know anyone scrimp save much certainly know people never turn drink bar new expensive amenity housewhich own make less hour do even hobbies thought escape offer nothing defeat despite passion effort towards learning them feel like rudy hate it feel like novelty story principle work ethic real doer admire wow look hard struggles get nothing like point life die vain better people impressed effort accomplishments,1 im hella lonely hmu wanna talk filler fuller filler filler filler filler,0 @muteboy congrats dude! pints are in order ,0 tired sick suicidal cant deal itwell ive put almost years feel like ive made good faith effort get better avail im tired dealing this brain damage previous attempt probably shaved good points iq left impaired executive functioning seemingly permanent three years now brain fog hate job dead end job stressful low paying boringbest all requires constant travel really nightmare dread waking morning broke girl alienated friends usual deal pressures putting where relationship going do future together etc desire interact anyone putting time work mostly sleep listlessly watch tv weekends real kicker endogenous depression most likely incurable ive always depressed cant really recall time depressed seriously doubting get better ive therapy since so coming nine years now enormous waste time energy countless medications medication helps ive found test enanthate cruise this run cycles weeks duration every year since helps marginally currently running anything right now though since hitting feel like im borrowed time anyway since mom checked age want end swear ive done everything right nothing helps life going get bearable would done now,1 charlietm i know right i dunno what is going on with twitter,0 going swimming........i'll come back with a tan! ,0 s great job university degree goals future beautiful fiancee afraidi scared nothing die like point disappear end attached afraid without die paramedic see death sometimes hurts imagine loved ones must feel lose somebody close them thought losing partner leaving without absolutely crushes me parents getting old sick never felt loss anything like imagine feel like goi guess really afraid dying losing everything worked towards know happens death religious hope lose consciousness everything happened life want love close forever even die afraid everything life waste,1 im killing next week want someone keep company gocan anyone friend little while ive never friend im tired alone hope mind seeing messages next week edit reddit made post seen nobody least tried,1 every time wake crave gravei dont want wake up try escape reality get sleep sleep paralysis nightmares wont leave alone meds dont work sometimes dont want anymore cant bear leave loved one alone world hope things get better us,1 im donehi little bit me im year old male married going years currently going second round college time associates field veterinary medicine ive problems entire life depression anxiety social phobia anger management issues ive medication adult life helps degree frequent thoughts redflag throughout life even point ive made plans sell music collection electronic goods asked mother copy life insurance policy me absolutely confidence abilities what little have frequently wonder people anything me difficulty making friends building proper connections field im embarrassed fact work two insignificant low tier jobs younger making times annual income self doubt resulting anxiety cost many things including jobs friendships getting every day challenge me really bad problems selfdoubt paranoia point hate pretty much anything involves people constantly feel like people talking behind back anyone nice pity underhanded way insulting me im terrified anything around classmates feel like ones experienced field groan lab assignments me despite fact get good feedback colleagues frequently get told im good job always feel like wife leave someone else mental problems makes money despite fact tells loves every day take criticism well anyone feel like ive worked hard throughout life nothing prove itworking menial jobs lots debt despite fact im married supportive family many years trying push back mind think im ready go ending life thing held together family most notably wife mother friends have point however think thats enough stop this whats even worse lost year old brother result freak accident want mother bury another one sons cant handle living anymore pressures adult provider despite best efforts think place world sorry tldr cant really think coherently now im typing phone,1 cant deal sadness breaking st girlfirendi broke girlfriend months relationship im class good other much things made us different tried sad it five days breakup found best friend kissing party felt like train hit me looking her smelling perfumes talking makes even depressed miss her want kiss again want end life,1 hell xbox live moment get on bruh wanna play halo titanfall ,0 reminders remind you ask go super awkward you dont make plans front someone else arent gonna invite asshole thing upset them,0 anyone fear death im little scared aftermath unknowing heaven hell get reincarnated spirit continue living earth consciousness float space eternity spirit doesnt even leave body wasnt good enough heaven get tortured eternity also sort exciting know mean im excited die find out maybe dont particularly fear death though almost welcome it time strangely fear absence being friends family ones love suddenly gone universe im scared friends family laughing fun without me sort like fomo put simply im afraid dying im afraid havent lived enough hope die lot people miss me choose way id die probably murdered ghost killer getting netflix documentary maybe crazy freak accident results new law like illegal drive forklifts highway florida one guy stupid died something id want leave sort impact matter small want hear thoughts,0 ultimately everything goes shitim currently sophomore college really severe depression th grade late high school series events able get worst it since then ive put zoloft help depression anxiety ive actually going nowhere there mentally least problem im tired things going shit want one thing go smoothly know one biggest things kept going darkest times high school phrase what tomorrow is cheesy might sound like knows tomorrow now feel like matter im end much crap others point cant stand anymore day fantasizing living island myself now want stop cause matter good things get gets ruined im done wanna someone judge scared me tend converse better girls anyone do im damn tired im looking sleep,1 never gonna give one s songs teens days exposed saying one class enjoys s music really makes feel place see teens discuss music s song consistently hear bring never gonna give up,0 deep breathing reminding im irrationally panicking promising take step step analyzing emotional baggage ive placed paper weeks now sitting computer mocking me late im slowly loosing motivation even try anyone help really want try edit paper something worth reading without feeling like cant breathe,1 "Even minor #stress can impact long-term #health, study warns http://bit.ly/2qWRaGN  #mentalhealth #mentalillness #wellness #mindfulness #recovery #depression #anxiety #ptsd #awareness #endthestigma #therapy #treatment #mentalhealthmatters #psychology #psychologist #therapist",1 today home alone cut self really need help energy ask help girlfriend ugly friends ho say depression calling talking life worth living right give,1 "@tmstier Thanks feeling justified to hear it from someone else. btw, LOVE the maternity photos--so beautiful! Awesome setting w/the bed.",0 monke eat banana im asking real questions,0 hoping i can fall asleep after watching knowing definitely wasn t national treasure,0 "@Pyrexis - Dude, you will have a relationship!! I haven't got a special someone either but I figure if they want me, they'll find me! ",0 sister cheated minecraft world im annoyed play world months playing today went go change skin pressed settings know saw achievements earned world called insisted didnt im annoyed fuck,0 band dropped song made bet bassist could get streams end week dollars depends it help here httpsyoutubejinemkwyyk,0 Nothing better than being on a boat with @marcocardenas. Except maybe making a whole lake trip of it w @gansargirl and @jasenlittle. ,0 got girlfriend imaginary cant physical stuff talk time,0 cannot take anymore begging please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please please kill,1 geometry dash making wanna die though nd level chaos gauntlet xl level irritating difficult im know next bit difficult me cant finish it ive trying level hour bursts today cant stop now fucking long boring colour scheme shit looks like seizure flashing lights strobe effects going on want finish level want annoying level fucking game ive done vast majority main game easy demon here suffer ffs,0 Had a great day with the family ,0 i get into argument with my mum almost everyday and the reason is because of me i don t intend to start a fight but i always some how manage to my mum ha no tolerance for stress and that s why she is so sensitive to argument because she ha been through a lot from me and my dad i hate to admit but i don t like to be around my family my younger sister doesn t even like to live in the same house a me because of my toxic behaviour and inability to communicate properly i never wanted to hurt anyone but now i ve become a thorn hurting more and more and i have seen my decline over time with how much more severe thing have been in home my mum ha been damaged so much by stress that she is forced to stay in bed for the rest of the day if an argument unfolds and it wont be long until she ha a heart attack from stress unless something change when i go out with friend s once a month or so i m quiet and there is never any trouble caused and i m able to have a break from reality for a few hour until i go home and face stress again home drive me insane and i hate it because i m around people i can t get along with but i never wanted it to be this way but i made it like this my only peace is when im asleep alone or outside with mate and thats not enough to keep me going over the past year i have changed so much and i don t know what to do anymore i have become emotionless and hollow building up all my pain and sadness inside and not showing anyone except some friend but only the tip of the iceberg i never wanted to be the bad guy but i end up being one because of a mistake i make i myself can t handle stress either so i might not even finish school yet reach college it doesn t help either that i don t want to go to college so my mum will kick me out of the house to go live with my dad who ha been severely affected mentally by drug and is deranged my mum say i m exactly like my dad and he is a horrible person i don t know what there is to live for in life i m hurting everyone around me and who know how long it will be till my friend cut me from their life depression is horrible and i will never wish it upon anyone because it is like a wound that re open deeper and deeper everytime it close to being healed i hate life and hate myself i don t enjoy anything and hate school so where will i end up if i survive school i don t know and it scare me because time is ticking faster than i want it to i am going to commit suicide in the end whenever that time arrives i have sealed my faith and can t undo my bad the tunnel is getting darker for me and worse is to come i waited long enough for a sign to keep going but i never received one i m a burden on my family and a selfish soul that doe not deserve to exist only i can save myself but i gave up a long time ago how do i even find a reason at the lowest point in my life if anyone read this thanks for taking a moment out of your day to hear my pain,1 best friend killed himself want join himmy best friend killed end september still cant handle it im f m amazing person ever known told last june plans commit redflag tried support him killed months afterwards know that time reason would want live hurts much left me one would could help called crying late one night test next day am came spent night took test two hours sleep aced genius ever going find guy like again loved him never told him died alone feeling like unloved ive cried every night since died wishing could join death cant feel anything anyone else made feel beautiful loved cared way never thought possible hes goneforever im failure failed him never made feel like made feel used put hand cheek tell beautiful perfect girl world him now pretend pillow hand cry sleep failed him insecure intimacy issues never told beautiful man world everything led hard tragic life still found strength take care everyone cared for including me told father sexually abused me expected run door instead held told accepted loved matter what still beautiful him im sobbing remembering unconditional love gave me cant exist without him reach arms air sometimes im trying fall asleep hoping feel arms around again tell loved him assume would see again feel guilty want feel love again smell hugs me gave best hugs world want die again want tell love him shanei love you im sorry died alone there im sorry died feeling like one loved you do shown heart maybe would stayed im sorry love heart know wanted live cant without you one me stupid let in ill see soon love first time ive called that cassie,1 argh finally figured out whats killing inquizitor game on jailbroken device about 0 star review too late though fix on the way,0 "I have a sleep-deprived EEG in the morning tomorrow, so I have to stay up all night and miss school tomorrow ",0 day planes crashed world trade center nycthe pentagon also attacked different plane missed us capital washington dc crashed field pennsylvania people died result attacks never forget,0 everyone wants live nobody seems care make things worse mejust rant everyone wants live terms give shit make harder actually try want live care add misery im selfish one wanting die whats point nobody acts like even want around mom yelled panic attack every time wake one like make better im supposed keep living even though miserable frankly keep going year now keep going constantly pain nobody acts like even like around point much relief me i want to die im allowed nothing nobody willing make easier whats point,1 @kristenstewart9 http://twitpic.com/56a96 - aww how cute nice to see all the cast are good mates ,0 @GreninjaGirl666 Mine is both.(Goes into depression),1 remembered tourettes sent video talking friend n rly cant go seconds without ticking interrupts speech patterns wtf thats crazy also people r playin trumpet parking garage umm,0 wants sing wellerman me still learn text love song well go ship sing song days straight,0 hate furrys stand explain comments clear yes furry,0 @BrittD20 mm...and the money is good ,0 give video ideas ill make em reply link im done couple hours days got nothing better do stuff already made inspiration httpswwwyoutubecomplaylistlistplpctbuhmhqeengvugnghgydxjpkl httpswwwyoutubecomplaylistlistplpctbuhmeyxpknndatdqwpqriz,0 If someone comes to you for comfort when dealing with anxiety or depression or any mental illness for the love of everything do not go into a story about the one time you were anxious or really sad,1 @Andy_Allen Lol. def my kind of gardening too - reclining on couch whilst organising the activity with other people's arms and legs. ,0 donniewahlberg i hope i can make it to the auburn show but it not looking good for me,0 ladies gentlemen may it show overfriends family strangers internet may me entire life day ten years old depressed probably genetics abuse suffered child today reach new depths ocean despair college career longer able afford it soon homeless father intends kick out close friends turn leave world this lasting message mark puny existence forums reddit ask yes attempted before yes tried medicine yes tried facilities avail today may last day is bid adieu,1 universe cruel uncaring void key happy search meaning keep busy unimportant nonsense eventually dead ,0 finished algebra work early im bored af someone help,0 ive feeling extremely lonely need guidanceit started went friends place last weekend long story lot details could point makes whole thing understandable wish delve would take ages write try summarize whats going on weve friends almost years we went school kept touch graduated visited place weekend things going sorta fine recently installed tinder kind obsessed whole thing texting random people matched phone lot general really bother were relationship whatever wants right guess kinda felt neglected unappreciated like matter hanging out things together went eat sat pub drinks normal fun stuff like that shake feeling like mean anything her kept trying get friends join stuff like that know hurt should really affected mood felt like shit lot small stuff happened like that like said previously would take long type out skip sunday everything off feel like nobody cares wants talk me ive talked times since weekend feeling distant even made plans talk got home friends house even call next day asked to told busy talking tinder guy whole night get sleep bother much sudden almost feel like ive developed feelings scares me ive never felt way before whenever talk friends feel really hollow sad fuck going me feel like im missing something life know is sorry post big mess need get chest feel undesirable moment making extremely depressed guys advice me situation like this thanks reading,1 wish friends watch anime uwu,0 denpasar good luck look forward to the update run not an option in this wind seriously blowing a real gale,0 @MichaelTyler in most ways at least at this rate though i may even bake something tonight! who knows?!?,0 ive dealing crappy situation months asked help everone said scamer feel like im finally donne tying got crappy roomate situation trying rebuild life ive trying stay positive ive nearly pushed edge times week apparently ive reported scammer kept getting messages banned apparently lot subs including hireawriter follow lot writing subs help know write follow one see demand people think im terrible person know anymore people life really current roommates parents got divorced didnt want pick side dont hang friends due situation roomate ive going therapy local charity bad felt like least options kept reminding wasnt fault okay feel like terrible person everyone see terrible dont know anymore life basically mostly gone plants destroyed dog spend months training feel happy anxiety protect her ask step mom helped could brag bio mom thing getting telling myslef wasnt fault im horrible human letting evrything happen dog keeping stuff safe evryone thinks im bad feel like must right dont know anymore feel like giving up,1 hello just need some music to listen and spend time thank you,1 @JanitorusRex would be more fun to date then Steve-O. ,0 posting daily get gf day week describe days one word day tired,0 "@chrisnodd As someone who uses photography to cope with anxiety and depression, and a fan of Watts as well, I recommend this book also! pic.twitter.com/J6gKrDhSXe",1 give sad indie rock songs cry please im practically begging usual songs getting old im sad,0 going to bed cuz i have to get up at like seven thirty or something tomorrow. today was actually not that bad of a day. ,0 think anymoremy partner emotionally abusive marriage gone back her second time first time thought stronger helping friday knew happening messages got home told loved called day seemed like genuinely changed loved him said loved hurt one us apart stuff hich arrange get mom house cold dead empty like want end cant go back unhappy person him helped feel happy gone miss much miss children want die,1 havent skipped day wearing retainer night month im kind proud bc managed make habit freaking bc didnt wear retainer months got braces removed thought teeth would go back way used to really hard get used first hurt shit ton hurt less less teeth look back way right got braces removed orthodontist would proud bc never wore rubber bands braces lol anyways wanted say bc havent missed single day im happy teeth look rn im glad suddenly decided wear retainer bc could ended get braces possibly kinda learned get good habit experiencenot huge thing retainer lmao got thinking seems impossible first first couple weeks becomes second nature maybe could quit bad habits pretty much impulsive way,0 @Highwick - Hi Nick - thanks for connecting on Ecademy - my hands are "bound" there - Frieke. http://freiia112.blogspot.com,0 im considering redflag years old turn ive simply enough best days behind theres really nothing left hope for friends girlfriend family left mother sister career job prospects stuck job like alcohol abuse passion anything guy like cant hope happy whats point existing perpetual state unhappiness,1 feel like ive tried everything yet died tomorrow say felt like livedso death think of want million split second slips every day,1 remember boys anal sex gay not always ampxb gay boy party girl even yourself ampxb ampxb thats it bye,0 i want to know how to stop anxiety while waiting whenever i have a guest coming over wether it be a friend or family or someone im interested in i get severe anxiety from the moment they say on my way to the moment they arrive i feel hot all over i want to throw up and cry and use the bathroom and then a soon a they arrive and i see them im fine for example i called the man im interested in over for a booty call he life an hour away so at 0 0 he texted me he wa coming for an hour i wa asking my sister should i cancel i want to see him but i m anxious and for that entire hour i wa freaking out the only thing that helped wa sitting in the cold drive way and breathing in the night air and then a soon a he arrived i wa fine absolutely perfect similar happened while i waited for guest to arrive to a house party i wa throwing i need help i am on med and in therapy anything help,1 create illusions like another world without worry anything meant make win make feel happy cannot life like that lose someone else errors video games thing keeping alive,1 make feel bad taking bath like baths maybe like month know theyre waste water sucks im anxious mess take baths relax yes know theyre luxury like them finished online summer course today im kind proud myself want take bath keep thinking unnecessary baths are im wasting much water want feel bad ,0 "@nikhilnarayanan No, no. You are mistaken. My uncle is the PM of Angamali. Any of these anTWIcs there, and you are gone case! #shavam",0 @rebeccashearing u should participate on 'bgt... u'r better than the other competitors! ,0 border closed at 0,0 @djdimepiece Ofcourse u do..but work comes 1st...and u gon miss the BIG announcement. ,0 never one good friend entire fucking life bullied middle school nobody liked me high school nobody bullies me zero friends hate every single second alone whats point anything cant share stuff anyone worst part friends knowing fun stuff im missing habe friends feel like everyome found group feel alone fuck this,0 "There, those are all the polls I know. Bookmark and Vote Charice ",0 day painful much work stopping imnot call er want alexander pain end downed far cutting hoping works end,1 ill gone next monthgoodbye fuckers,1 bro acting kinda sus,0 update went miles check previous posts context,0 really wanna dieive mildly depressed years now past month terrible everyday want nothing death young im dont care ahead many people would say thing stopping ending life would fact dont want brother mom find body see general somebody please offer advice,1 join among us code pdeatq filleefillerfillerfillerfiller filleefillerfillerfillerfiller filleefillerfillerfillerfiller filleefillerfillerfillerfiller filleefillerfillerfillerfiller filleefillerfillerfillerfiller,0 people just throw the word depression around,1 @pepperdolly i shall be though in a momento! ,0 Childrens theater show ,0 fiancee broke july th together years secretly cheating guy onlinei dedicated whole fucking life almost decade even process adopting crackhead sisters son raised two years since months old treated own gone over never get see dante again feel like past week two long suicide note every day fighting putting belt around neck hanging myself sick life,1 really don t feel like getting up today but got to study to for tomorrow practical exam,0 My depression watching me to go the gym despite telling me not to pic.twitter.com/bQV4tJi67Y,1 involve one person help commit redflag information wise okay already decided commit redflag pain unbearable cannot fixed however problem lack necessary valid materials actually commit it want fast painless possible wanted typically firearm exposed carbon monoxide poisoning seem relatively painless easy firearm car etc so consult someones help obtain necessary materials need this friends family probably ask random person school obtain knowledge plan do person point right direction ill rest right still charged assisted redflag even though prior knowledge so,1 going out to the mall once again ,0 know im bothering posting wanted someone say goodbye toi think im ready go im alone want anymore sister took antidepressants away since taking them bottle erythromycin doxycyclin hyclate also little bit alcohol maybe take edge it guts way decided ill leave note yet not,1 m im first relationship f want great boyfriend okay long distance yes real friends first became kinda where long hall fit together like puzzle pieces want advice good boyfriend make work bettertldr good boyfriend,0 Loses count of how many rides he has been on with brandy ,0 People just don't know I'm one of the coolest...I roll by MYSELF and neva act foolish...just don't mistake my kindness as a weakness ,0 someone tell everything gonna ok want awards want none that wanna know everything going world gonna ok please,0 hate bodyi hate stretchmarks acne scars im flawed hurts problem things people somehow problem feel like deserve exist like cant happy unless skin smooth hairless flat belly hate troubles changing clothes physical education front others hate much makes cry ive gained weight starting eat normaly i ate little before cant stop blaming stretchmarks want born get completely new skin unfortunetaly inherited skin problems makes want die feel like worst unlovable hideous person entire world hate much want crawl skin die corner ive posted rbodyacceptance post removed adviced post body dissatisfaction cant mention wanting die im posting here urgent im sad thoughts feelings kill myself,1 greetings fellow teenagers wanted let know amazing hope good day,0 "@kerryn8 Thanks, appreciate your feedback ",0 bothertruly see reason continue living hate this hate myself whats point trying tick every box failure know never really happy im still young dont want waste years life hoping one day happy doubt day come im tired im drained im hurting im weighing options wether id rather die live everyday im still sure would much prefer live point negative disadvantage doesnt feel worth try know world absolutely beautiful favors love life hate living makes sense maybe im dramatic,1 yay sports team lost well get em next year bois afl care,0 cant visualize scenario end ending life sooni picked lot kid home by everyone school where id fight back get suspended blamed home merely defending myself around dad beat living shit nothing since ive reliving every bad thing ever happened mind approached folks depression desire kill myself responded amusement arrogance ive never stopped fantasizing killing anyone else crossed life despite this successful tour navy thought feelings behind went home start school now years tour odd credits great gpa year ive dropped classes despite repeatedly trying get back top gear wonderboy living hell middle year roommate a guy twice age tried moving couple lbs pot across country got caught took rap bailed paid lawyer lingers pretrial limbo tried love weed moral issue selling worlds best drug profits would enough live while course fact wonder could fucking stupid gi bill enough live of im desperate job cant find anything least get seasonal work fedex afternoon im going get longest knife drive chest bleed rio grande someone finds body ive tried treating depression ptsd from iraq war shipboard experiences involving fire since total mental breakdown last december in fact pretty much every year time since getting out really hate talking clinical types say fucking things drugs perscribe ive tried zoloft prozac make feel like im dying im far old friends ive reconciled little folks live part country frankly little late them stick buddy took rap hes person outside service would ever anything like me opposed talk mom hearing voice nails chalkboard hearing opinions life makes want grab neck slam head wall remembering acted needed listen back day im sick matter good im doing theres still endless spinning conflict people even head ill screaming arguments fights inside mind minutes hours catch try remember things really bad even so ever pretended make connection people result feel like never get longterm relationship girl hard im good boyfriend general aspects cant keep long one person course time spend someone novelty wears become distant strange leave hurt anyone ive tried finding work feel like alien everywhere go every trip hunt job uses gas money food money way getting back severely reduce gi bill comes final time end month ill enough maybe help rent bills nothing left anything with get job im going strength keep going much want die free feelings constantly struggling everything im asked either getting nothing losing head ruining opportunity dropped every single class semester girl nearly ran highway flipped off chased way campus full intention strangling death try tell many people worse many people either never ability ive done service people born die trapped one spot either moment lifetime still cant get feeling wanting kill myself want help want die biggest disappointment right theres nonviolent way it meds could use gun quick easy kill im pretty set either hanging tree wilderness knife thing far enough desert one able help bleed death want die house would rather die nature talk vet center therapist little different actual va guys gals even vet center contact kind broken record none therapy fixes problems beginning next month become considerably worse much debt looking horizon thinking ok ive got going work hard keep ok soon never happens everything gets worse either circumstance seeming desire fail end worthless mouthful ill end here wanted get chest glimmers feeling bad sometimes im absolutely certain sometime next year im going end it lived life least travel world experience would really worst thing light pain im feeling would rather die child risk putting himher anything like went through,1 "Well what an absolutely shit day. Sick of my life taking shots at me every fucking day. The point of me trying is supposed to make effort not dig me deeper into depression, anger & stress!Sorry for short/crappy stream. Honestly don't know when or If I'll be back.. pic.twitter.com/pLbpbaO1WT",1 is going to school to do dt,0 caught shiny pokemon never probably filler hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,0 theekween help people who suffer from depression anxiety loss of loved one heartbreaking or have witness something traumatic thelmaherbs,1 even know writing herei want kill myself badly guess guts woulda done long time ago thought years feels different maybe listening frank sinatra wanna it wanna badly everytime think it think family dead care family get sad lonely year old guy give fuck anything years staying home playing video games failed college parents expect enter again much problem really bored life biggest problem gambling addiction parents send little bit money every month spend mostly ciggaretes gambling sometimes even money buy food feel sad gamble feel betterlose feel bad even know thoughts now usually think redflag bed nothing block thoughtsthe next day wake sit pc goes away now im sitting pc thoughts probably even commit today even know writing feeling sad really sad good wayeasy way seems redflag troubles gone sadness gone reason it,1 started months ago unexpectedly lost dad cancer girlfriend years leaving me still talk trying like hell lose her person got lived together years great rental top working full time managing store dealing losing dad worry paying rental moving really want do darkest days life live time low know anymore worst year life,1 human just making my life harder to impossible to live ruined my life and my childhood fuck you people pushed me to the edge million of time that i don t mind even kill torture steal destroy hurt other people or even destroy humanity and earth you fucking deserve this instead of living happy life human and religion are fucking cancer,1 need help schools wifi everything blocked installed bunch vpns mine stopped working work pay premium get work,0 The real Cesar Millan (Dog Whisperer) is on Twitter @cesarmillan ollow Cesar - The real Dog Whisperer Twitter account (follow us too) ,0 women confusing asked crush got used like took long make move ive know weeks tf didnt make move,0 i have decided to just end my life i ve been dealing with the pain for too long weirdly enough i m not extremely upset but rather calm i m excited that i ll soon be able to die i don t even care about my life anymore and tbh it s great that i feel numb to it all i m not even cry about it i just want the pain to go away and now i ll be able to get rid of the pain i ve just been dealing with anxiety and depression i m ready to go heck it ll be cool to die on my birthday haha,1 comment ill r e ur user gt one ten scale ofc reasoning dont take heart though bc opinions probably trash b,0 try sing song,0 ive fucked upif theres anything could tell atone ive done want thank journey failed killing earlier month second time comes around know right know youre better without me,1 leif erickson day hinga dinga durgenhttpsyoutubeirpwawryk,0 question two so first question many guys sleep shirtless last time cuddling someone left sleep shirt since second question need honest opinion shitty look pics profile might want post another reference tbh thank love community,0 love absurdity biting humor buuels surrealist films such the discreet charm bourgeoisie the exterminating angel name two other earlier works like the forgotten ones juvenile delinquents marginal neighborhood mexico serious provide strong social messagebr br however believe nazarin successfully shoots heart viewer true brimming irony nevertheless reveals aspect buuel would appear intrigued beauty solemnity spiritual quest here director quite typically throws countless jabs catholic church also appears show surprisingly sense admiration genuine christian thought practice selfless lovebr br what luis buuel unabashedly praising jesuslike figure always thought completely cynical artist without trace faith human virtue is watched nazarin appreciation satirically exposes difficulty following christs example society infested meanness ignorance sin also presents hero father nazario quite beacon light amidst sea darkness without doubt end film looking him br br some would argue father nazarios doubts regarding faith point loss saintly values alas cant good world can would say flaw frustration precisely makes character heroic shows human challenging struggle within must be says priest eventually emerge dark night regain confidence perhaps weve presented difficult part spiritual journey elegant open ending in desperately accepts fruit offered female stranger allows us imagine final outcome storybr br i recognize buuel aggressive selfprofessed atheist endowed brilliant wit social consciousness watched nazarin also sense certain warmth depth maturity thats evident workbr br for sake contrast strongly recommend watching afterward short film simon desert also made mexico several years later deals similar subject matter abandonment ego face temptation hysterically funny totally irreverent style,0 made account post lol yo guy feel like depressed lot friends loving family great grades ok looks get along everyone usually perceived funny happygolucky guy always smiling even though used true anymore diagnosed depression spring wondering anyone similar situationit started back feeling emptiness started feeling like hole inside would go away matter couple months decided get checked surprise surprise depressed lmao ever since life felt like sort blur get bed go work see friends usually smoke weed ease feeling hopelessnesswhich btw gotten kind addicted recently go bed repeat next day like go around feeling sad day feel kind grey like something inside missingfor really trying best fight it try hang friends go bed fairly early workout seeing therapist seem working id super grateful tips guy guys would feel great ti know alone anyone like there,1 think back hurts im stressed tryna go crazy ive noticed got whole lot shit short period time back starts hurting much,0 what a fucked up little world we are living in,1 is missing n ol frend amp is thinking bout her rite now,0 mental health scientist find out more about the new wellcomementalhealth award a major new funding opportunity investigating the causal mechanism underpinning effective intervention for anxiety depression and or psychosis webinar pm mar http t co moqw 9zd t,1 theekween thelmasherbs it help with depression anxiety make you feel like your self again,1 @babesuhmazzn awwwww <3 the MAJK loveee ,0 from an external point of view i have the perfect life i have worked really hard my whole life i studied hard in school got scolarship for university in my late 0 making figure have a beautiful house and a caring partner but i have rarely felt happy in my life i don t remember the last time i wa genuinely happy since about year ago my mood started going really downhill and right now i am at a point where even eating or taking a shower is a chore i drag myself everyday to work and do bare minimum and now i am scared that i might lose my job but then again i can no longer force myself to do any work i feel like i have used up my energy and passion most of the night when i go to bed i fantasize about not waking up and how nice it seems i am completely empty of any feeling and feel nothing toward my partner i am taking medicine and working out at least time a week but no good i also fantasize about breaking up with my partner but i m afraid i am gon na regret it cause i will be completely alone i am so done with everything i just wan na feel some taste and color in my life again but i feel like it might never happen,1 @pjredd Read this as "Atmospheremongering" - see my mistake now; sorry to interrupt @joshr_1344,0 @tannwick years ago circa 1983 there was actually a hedghog flavoured crisp ,0 feel better youre rejected literally two simple points said something made feel even worse like ew glad youve dodged bullet think minute care youve rejected probably gonna hella awkward see again right dont care got rejected gonna awkward,0 work one knows bad fucked yetposted last night panic attack this im back today everyone treating before wonder theyll react know want leave comes out everyone already noticed downswing mood attitude hr already spoke possibly depressed one would look twice said leaving due health issues ill lose medical coverage though able see therapist cant help feel make outlook worse would point leaving though id avoid embarrassment id still living life devoid meaning time spend thinking life certain pointless,1 Super excited because my prof. said she'd write me a letter of recommendation for a library tech. program ,0 fucking hate alivei creativity drive passion weak moral compass wish strengthen it morals stupid pointless care myself anyone else anything around me accounts empty vessel ideas goals dreams perspective everything around horrifically warped point connect people care emotions care much effect pathetic life dislike responsibility gain rewards responsible except avoidance pain misfortune im willing try hardest make things work shit hits fan id rather sleep cold ground beg money starve police officer harassed sleeping public space id attack maybe hed kill id able punish blindly enforcing law zero respect for hate responsible people hate something want do im fucking running steam here fuck life fuck you deserve rot hell give fuck ask exist right end pathetic life feel like it care contributing society im weak stupid unconfident find way make real living develope relationships solve problems life bring happiness want believe myself want responsible trajectory life cant trust to cant admit person want work it want die,1 even fucking know anymoremy grades failing relationships too familys abusive want live anymore keep trying best never works,1 dont know helpi really hope everyone gets better life apparently activism isnt allowed want talk im here,1 live thisshe said loved every day year broke me contacted months later saying wanted back got rebound relationship took months dump him then months finally afford visit tells shouldnt come doesnt want relationship anymore booked flight cost spare money set leave monday expects able spend weeks friends get happy completely ruined me destroyed life fucking well got great job healthy friends go every day feeling like worthless nobody wants me fuck one live feeling like shit get happy fucked nothing fuck best situation could possibly dream every respect life yet still want die fuck point,1 keeeerrrrriiiiii i really have nothing better to do then post on this thing at am wonderfullll say alot,0 haven t even had time to twitt theese last few day insane,0 i spy with my little eye something beginning with "M" hint im in living room! get your guesses in ,0 started reading my new book while twittering and watching M*A*S*H... they call me a multitasker ,0 things come indeed classic work speculative fiction essay destructive nature war terrors progress makes surprising accurate depictions war follow years later woefully naive utopian idealsbr br raymond massey cedric hardwicke ralph richardson make fine cast although drama played stage piece work cinema grandiose somewhat stilted speeches often delivered actor trying reach back theater however profound words there technology savior mankind instrument destruction film visual feast one detach oneself age effects sure hollywood sophisticated today rarely inventive imaginative third act treat world underground cities massive deco bombers space cannons gyro copters secret organizations scientist saviors makings scifi pulp adventure instead uses trappings philosophical exercisebr br things come metropolis hallmarks neolithic hollywood science fiction cinema operatic scope visually inspiring technology long left behind ideas still burst forth artistry there one heart emotion computer generated massproduced cinema today films products artisans industrialists,0 daily girlfriend post spice things bit not much bit start suggesting song every time last night earth green day,0 wish gutswell am resorting post internet forum what judging past interactions doubt response help me feel choices reject god kill myself cannot simply choose god worked last several years ive tried year old forever alone guy self confidence friends try distance would want spend time me hate me want spend weekend bed never getting up drinking water eating food sit die away maybe ill join military turn eighteen get killed off ive heard people refer levelheaded thats me future doubt ill even graduate im what ill probably live parents house die sapping away realize absurdly morbid nonsensical guess im venting cause ive never friends vent to maybe turned away edit somehow feel much better morning leads believe form bipolar mean remove thread look different angle clear head thank posts think would get much recognition any,1 chemistry teacher fuck hate long breathe sadistic piece shit like staring souls face got offended buzzfeed article fuck,0 boys girls depressed depression get let tell currently going sever depression force everyday get bed shave beard fight happiness fight inner peace fight want fight dreams boys girls cannot stay like strong infact strong handle illness lot ppl would killed powerful enough live pain need build strength get recovery,1 really enjoyed minghella epic thought quite much the english patient a modernday classic first minutes feel awkward inman jude law embarks journey back love ava nicole kidman film picks leaps bounds becomes memorable thoughtful romantic drama apparently fashionable hate kidman moment agree all well here actually think romance inman ada weakly developed script they really dont get much screen time together develop relationship law kidman give convince adas journey crux film becomes strong woman bear almost anything zellweger first seems wrong ruby grows sparkles many later scenes film beautiful photography set design never really captures true feel period piece jack white particular long straggly hair pale rockers complexion look completely place setting cillian murphy fans enjoying seeing talented irish actor early bit part natalie portman actually proves act probably films striking sequence pity the boleyn girl inadequate,0 they say there are five stage of grief denial anger bargaining depression and acceptance well i d like to add one more revenge,1 medical industry ie psychologist psychiatrist thrive gives men purpose designed control population engage act reproductionpick poison money god eventually sides steal hard work sides great stealing good creating original ideas killed feelings either drugs smoking depression realism thing,1 @teenhearts: awesome. BTW I'm stoked to get ur cd. I just ordered it. ,0 dream traveled plane school take finals math exam studied good test tried search pocket calculator realized forgoten woke scared,0 feeling dull often life pretty darn good cant seem feel appreciate ittook leave medical school earlier year best friend med school taken life recently funnily enough seem affect much think have life feels dull get excited much all feel lonely like girls cant seem motivation really pursue relationships even friends apathy seems recurring theme days life mean life awesome objectively family supportive brother started practicing surgeon super rich live comfortably beginning think temperament naturally despondent remember kid use like well feel like im ditch im trouble getting it days feels like energy climb it like ditch slope never ends fight climb days energy anymore inevitably slide back down know redflag common thought necessarily transpire action holds particularly true think often convince bad coping strategy anyone felt like successfully changed thinkingbaseline feeling want feel like this want feel know excitement passion emotions im analytical pessimistic sigh,1 guy i think i will be soon dead idk how longer i can take it drug and alcohol dont work anymore it all became so pointless ive got left nihilism is actual realism and i cant fuxking take it i just wish i could fuxking get eaten up by some black hole or destroyed by supernova idc at this point anymore i just wish to be gone for good,1 it s official i m going to have an educational summer owh god bless me,0 i used to enjoy posting and just interacting with people but now i can t bring myself to open it up it s just awful seeing post and post of people just living while i m just existing stagnant it all feel so counterfeit,1 kill now thanks lot abandoned me going kill right now telling abandoned going kill them seriously want kill one person quit talking me everyone end really liking me always second option want die everyone abandons,1 fucked girl love going die aloneso last month posted facebook saying going deactivating social media pm numbers friend years really hung much lately always real close kinda hard explain think close friends see often due adulting anyways messaged number asked doing started talking back forth week nye hits ask plans put guest list band like actually work band sold show wanted see her things going good nye got drinks hung around whole time one following around gave long hugs told loved i assume platonically intimate assume due alcohol show am nye hugged goodbye told going backstage asked could come told allowed wasnt got home around am night sent text saying good seeing hang out adding preferably tomorrow think may came strong eh drunk message aggressive all really overly friendly get reply it would assume may hungover read morning she may asleep falling asleep sent message sent another message days later mutual friends art museam opened casually saying proud theyre well asked yet get reply days pass started get bothered wondering doid anything wrong today sent following message hours ago hey realized may ass dipping backstage end show want think flake want hang out im sorry text maybe weirdly worded dip backstage early kinda told goodbye went backstage end show big deal since reply assume may mad try go somewhere show know either way selfish dick over want fix it id give anything fix it love her over,1 im dying anyway diagnosed stage nsclc sexually assaulted days ago im coping badly want die want speed process already need write letters tell ones love goodbye things stopping know tell them fault nothing could done loved them seems hollow kill yourself,1 im sick livingi want kill myself mom sisters stop abusing me physically emotionally really want kill cant im much pussy nobody knows world least want remembered die never happen want shitty life end,1 im rlly bored yh guess like messages u wanna chat cause im bored fuck,0 gaming gaming rn,0 Trying to make friends on twitter. ,0 point idk feeling looking little help guess months draining cycle wanting disappear even disappear guess like never existed feel alone honestly weird tried explain one person months ago cannot exactly stitch together correct sentences make comprehensible feel like everything paper flimsy like fall fly away everything draining even idea sleeping much body handle weird thought depressed people loved sleep somehow sleeping makes things worse feel stuck bubble feel anything worse fog see things around feel like apart them also totally separated everyone socially never one many friends recently deleted removed accounts friends said accounts blocked numbers besides two people honestly feel remorse even though known several years also things bothering good describing them thank whoever listens depression,1 wonder ifbody relaxans anything,1 femibello you think mourinho wasn t depressed with pogba s poor form and later sack and won t he be depressed by his name being linked to pogba by being the cause of his depression it seems mourinho ha no mental health,1 i m have been feeling down lately and my mum brought up something today that really made me feel worse i want to disclaim that i do not at all blame my mother for this she wa bringing up a fair and valid point that i had been trying to ignore i am extremely lucky and go to a quite fancy school but my mother constantly feel the need to bring up that i m wasting all of the excellent opportunity there while this is true it suddenly hit me that she wa right and that i felt like i wa not only wasting school opportunity but my own life my sister also ha mental health issue and is seeing a psychologist and i feel like i need a similar set up however i feel awful about telling my mum that she will have to send her other kid to therapy a well is there any way to see a therapist by myself online or something,1 yo recent college grad struggling w severe treatment resistant depression yrs tried dozen meds dbt cbt residential amp iop programs alike amp done tms w little success moved back w parents amp c way ill b depressed amp useless amp live w forever feel like fate telling time die weak even that psychiatrist wants ect want risk memory loss get comfortable w dying still hope me sending love also struggling lt think time die hv strength,1 never come lmao mom wanted barge room ask basically kicked told i want talk right now left felt bad always everytime tells something decline told wanted change hair even change name noah lol said mind im andor adult actually surprised bold shit told wanted binder mean school binder lol binder something u wear flatten ur chest wanted one feel masculine euphoria ofc mom closed minded person starts getting confused saying no u cant that taboo taboo u made me wtf also include hellbent christian homophobic even transphobic im pretty fucking sureso even expecting idek thought would maybe understand lil countless amount times people family told talk andddd moment yall waiting for told genderfluid really confused lol hesitant even explain even get to why becuz starts something else even paying attention wants complain exact shit pfft anyways even tried tell genderfluid even give time day becuz wants call literally everyone family ask tell said even though said im comfortable raising voice times good tears mentally fucking exhausted cannot shit anymore burned even care blabs everyone fucking world know never able comfortably speak woman ever life,0 "@Metal_Rocks LMAO. Yes, please, can you teach me 10 tips to be a successful social networker, too ",0 Why don't bosses take depression seriously when you need a day off... that's really fucking crazy to me,1 know do redflag would save hellmy fianc stuck poverty loop right now barely afford pay rent currently payment plan defaulted car payments were trying keep roof heads lost car insurance reason morning planned power outage maintenance resolved power kept off neighbors electricity i see wifi networks never returned feel lost know fault happening work providing hours need hes working minimum wage call center job since lost may still cant help feel me fianc mess gone could move back oregon family find something stable live without shackles im ready go anyways world mess feels like theres room anymore,1 finished late assignments brought overall gpa everyone thought dumb low grade would love could get little appreciation,0 i want to die so bad and i might carry on with it,1 thought many timessince situation escalated november last year since thought redflag many times parents cried told them blame them keep thinking would happen gone mean imagine everyone funeral imagine everyone carrying life least last myself would end miserable life free torturing thoughts traumatic event life people find courage this,1 surprised many viewers find symbolism movieits made movie incredible work art story deals saddest content movie could hold yet one best movies ive ever seen need imagination brilliance storylinebr br if pay close attention message there younger brother killed stepfather older brother made story wagon flying way deal pain brothers death would argue would lie children story answer want share ugliness children blocked replaced memory horrific event thought brother flying away safety ive read reviews believe child created younger brother escape deal abuse suffered although interesting idea love imagination used come that think would lied children little brother but find plausible would lied little brothers death however like idea ending much better notion movie symbolism allbr br there many different takes movie take movie face valuetwo brothers creating wagon flies escape abusive stepfather missed brilliance fact able see subtle messages script made movie incredible me requires thought process imagination make workdig deep watch it amazed genius contained film movie ive seen close symbolism subtle messages pleasantvillebut thats comment another movie,0 tryin to take a nap i can t sleep,0 think democrat republican civil war let explain yesterday time posting yesterday huge group trump supporters broke capitol building wrecked inside it course easily able get capitol building protesting everything protester one makes wonder civil war think trump win election democrats would thing,0 dad wants install family monitoring software computer dad asked join family software little reading found software many things can limit screen time time certain applications view screen time activity view search web history make purchases computer me seems like much reason trust me well school work hard outside school gets pc limit everything much can know tried apps made broke need advice accept limited screen time lose privacy say no justify it im pretty upset ive worked hard school outside school make dad proud makes feel like care thanks,0 kimboinlimbo no chance of that coming back when it d be 0 min faster than the javelin though,0 "Going home now, but dropping off Jeanine and bestfriend Annabelle ",0 do cousin couch playing among us passing check her saw name hxrny girl surprised turned around saw me changed name soft girl dont know confront tell aunt handle it ps live us spreading germs,0 @JustDaria right here ,0 im scared growing upi turned week ago many things say im sorry sentences might make sense knew wasnt born right body elementary school im scared tell parents grandmother live me hate called deadname hate called good son id rather human live seclusion go outside see people dont feel like mean anything world small could mean something years hate condition human nature easy push people away see ugly dont want cry anymore im biggest waste money parents relatives grandmother doesnt give fuck live die im ugly dont care hell society thinks dont want anyone lick wounds im stuck body think already cried tears already dont see mirror anymore ive always outsider even among people like me dont want go outside put people high pedestals realize one really loves anybody spent birthdays crying sleep scared next year bring me dont know throw numb dull pain consumed me im happy really live genuine selves free things shackle down people dont happy endings thats okay ill live cis guy rest life treated sort fucjing essence love respect ill finally break nobody really loves one,1 months months could get therapy depression cant body physically cant go anymore mind gone head burning rushing noise filling ears lost function properly anymore die redflag soon itll due stress,1 "Just one puff of cannabis 'could ease depression, stress and anxiety' - The Sun https://goo.gl/fb/DDjw2M ",1 ps never gets better honestly ever happy im always extremely depressed around time always socalled favorite holiday cant good birthdays good christmass think accept it ever enough spend nights room crying one ever knows uncle hospital anniversary sexual assault boyfriend hurting again question worth earth,1 hello everybody ! ,0 omg got bf battle frog im gay thought that,0 "@elliottkember just press 1 to log them out, then phone AOL if they've locked you out? ",0 @SeanVallee depression and self isolation? wish i'd never heard of her pic.twitter.com/iQXVVdbh0J,1 ever train thought sudden lose want back gosh dang brain wanna know thought plastic glue like lube models,0 really need talk someone right please someone please pm urgently,0 nightmares every time fall asleepi much better started shitty fucking nightmares theyre always disgusting gory centered around things shake core know do last night took handful benadryl knocked long while never dreams take higher tolerance im running out im afraid sleep want end already im miserable anxious im awake already lifes sick joke point enough wracked paranoid intrusive thoughts things past obsessive fears im awake nope im fucking miserable im asleep too im exhausted time boot sorry coherent ive drank tonight see helps go sleep am today least nothings helping want end see fucked things dreams hey least temporarily scramble brain enough get maybe hour nap in,1 im wondering guys going celebrate valentines day going celebrate lucina corrin plushies,0 understand critics would bash movie teen movie thats actually serious rarity ill admit moments hugely sappy cmon young love gotta sappy valid biggest complaint chris klein funny american pie apparently ready switch dramatic fare yet hes uncomfortable looking mama stuff hartnett sobieski hand demonstrate remarkable amount depth believability parents although script heavily cliched lovers spouting poetry actors make work directing sports powerful images screen beautiful cinematography nice music great young actors impressed im jaded critic comes teen movies,0 may differ many people board enjoy watching mind mencia reason like mind mencia host afraid speak mind exploit stereotypes carlos mencia friends unwilling admit somebr br mencia problem jokes race religion sex orientation gets lot flack breath fresh air politically correct times mencia care offends anyone racist even jokes racebr br the typical format mind mencia goes like this open skit making fun person recent event mencia comes minute stand talks various issues show separate skits divided commercials skits mencia variety things making fun people giving personal opinions funny twist simply parodies people events movies end show mencia comes minute either one final skit something else saybr br people criticize mencia exploiting stereotypes say statements overly offensive carlos everyone else thinks certain races afraid say mencia offensive speaking mind find nothing wrong thatbr br the show perfect skits put together best sometimes mencia go line jokes part however show comedian says mind matter consequences presents humorous matter afraid laugh stereotypes see someone speak mind often say wanted say watch mind mencia however easily offended watch show offended worse yet might even laugh,0 considering new business name which mean new logo and website finding it very difficult to pick a name though been week fail,0 guys fast httpswwwredditcomuserfrog_boyyycommentsmwzideleting_soonutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf,0 fuck life man covid go ass ngl crush invited friend group nice kids school lockdowns over long going be month months year understand people loving lockdown first amazing this no horrible experience turned teenager want waste tge best years life stuck inside fucking house shit online school failing classes left right im sick it goes much longer people going dropping like fucking flies happy covid finally getting social life gone one measly disease trust vaccine early want getting lockdown fuck shit,0 love letter youto beautiful you beautiful inside out amazing person greatness within you special uniqueness inside one else has put earth reason times yet know world live strange know hard find light among darkness light light need reason see darkness others cannot gift evolving dont give come far compare others different paths walk reach friend ask help change wrong world love simple act kindness warm anothers heart duplicate another act kindness sharing beautiful light within you light world together give everything have give smile stranger wave driver stopped you give words kindness make someone laugh excess something share light inside grow brighter ignite light others help others overcome darkness may think nothing worthless negative things come believe continue tell yourself simply true dont know you know special days ago spent much time crying worse year feltempty fighting depression anxiety for entire life realised today free freedom invisible chains made believe stuck beneath glass ceiling chains others told chains continued tell had today cut chains within psyche free allow darkness plagues anothers heart effect light within me ask same free willing clock reach dreams nothing nothing holding back hope comprehend deeply really hope decide end life rather stoping clock choose reset clock live life want live recreate yourself forgive yourself move away need to release fear one life live however want dont worry anyone else trys hold back mould think be sometimes you surrounded assholes perhaps asshole regret thats travelled dark road get it honestly do press reset button live life treasure learnt lessons big old world there outgrown childhood town leave go back want to person options search options utilise opportunities arise spread wings fly away wherever want go still here done yet time help recreate world save people ever expanding darkness plagues hearts minds innocent people know mean deepest part heart whoever wherever are important world needs you need others needs you may know true identity hope one day smile stranger might smiling back me beyond happy light shining bright dark days currently experiencing part journey creating true you breaking free chains thought be like phoenix rising ashes write answered question late heart happy hasnt happy long time deeply wish you im new reddit tomorrow delete account wake start new day cut chains negativity im sure delete ill give time see it good night thank taking time read this hope least little bit meaning know im dreamer know what really love myself,1 i m tired of living the one thing that kept me alive just weaponozed my mental health about week ago and left i m tired of being stressed about everything bill and not knowing of i can feed myself i ve given up how much oxy is lethal asking for well myself,1 nothing look forward lifei dont many reasons keep going feel like nothing keeps going next day makes want hang myself,1 breadandbadger congrats i totally forgot to submit photo,0 fashion sense pain want emo like black maybe tints white there ceo hot topic kind vibe without much stuff tho also want pirate mean frilly top thingy corset high heels tight pants ya know,0 lost another jobtied anxiety lack ability function useful way lost another job months even keep together get past pruning phase already spent nearly months psychiatric hospital lead psychiatrist medical team made clear want returning least without actual redflag attempt bolster previous loosehearted attempt continuous feelings sort know anymore feel like abysmal failure incapable keeping even smallest parts life functioning path want sitting home alone day working keep thinking last straw point stop trying everyone care already wasted many resources hours energy trying keep falling apart ive never together begin with,1 everyone get wantyou cant follow dreams everyone would work retail stores would work dead end try chase dreams fail wasted time career path everyone ment happy shit works feel like im side character thats even part main story hey gotta flesh world somehow special people thrive love drawing art im delusional think somehow make become well something love thats works sure success stories happening failed need money get hours relief hobbie makes happy fuck life fuck world want die ment rather object something maybe mug mugs cool think give pretty good mug energy,1 im sick this rantim risk anything right now im ok im sick hormones erratic making feel way feel shit want end things going ruin life one day im likely top them want feel way anymore,1 i have severe cardiophobia due to two traumatic week of my life i suffer from hyperthyroidism which cause intense palpitation and very high rhr the first bout happened back in 0 and my rhr wa in the 0 0 got put on an anti thyroid med a beta blocker metoprolol er mg and potassium helped out tremendously and i ll be honest wa never anxious until this second round in july august of 0 9 i made the stupid as mistake of stopping all of my medication because i wa feeling good again well wouldn t ya know it come february 0 0 my thyroid went hyperactive again and the difference is this time i have crippling anxiety a well a crippling cardiophobia it got to the point that i went to my cardiologist had a panic attack and during the ekg my pulse wa 0 so now i m on metoprolol er mg x a day and my thyroid ha improved at least since the last time my level got checked so now i m on mg of methimazole instead of the mg i wa on the first round of treatment fast forward to now and all i have to say is the last couple day a well a today ha been quite the day so far i m currently at my girlfriend s house and wanted to go home since yesterday i wa too lightheaded to drive and it would ve been a horrible decision to risk it well we re getting ready to leave and a soon a i stand up the ol kicker decides to kick it into high gear and my pulse went from the 0 90 which i know is quite high but wa already a bit anxious beforehand and decided i needed to be up in the 0 0 for the fuck of it needle to say i feel the comedown of all the anxiety and man doe it suck hoping i get to be back home today so i can have the peace of mind that i won t have to leave to go anywhere for a bit p s my girlfriend and i live minute apart i would ve for sure chanced driving if we lived closer but that s a long as time in a car when you feel like you re just gon na drop at any given moment,1 someone please wish happy birthdayim worst birthday ever ive celebrating whole day bc nobodys home feel fucking alone right now lmao didnt even get hear happy birthday today fuck feel like crying something really stupid rn mean definitely isnt hoped th birthday go welp guess someone please wish happy birthday feel least little bit happy today would kinda mean world,1 sure know tooi following throught plans leave burning pile garbage call earth past years now way much baggage drag form keep short sweet divorcee age finalized past march th exact upon receiving divorce papers recently discovered lesbian exwife got everything wanted divorce buried debt court fees cost lawyer fees lawyer fees amongst many things top longer rights children unless go her mean say go courts allowed write parenting plan time call kids via cell phone times school bed night know used kids hide behind afraid come closet ten years together on again again nothing fool trying figure get love align right way seen kids months now left well paying job which required travel loved constantly bashed for never home always throwing kids face unemployed looking work since nov st since lost license back child support im pretty sure child support debt costing job opportunities ive applying jobs know im qualified never hear anything back found girl time frame know love cant support financially much going life nothing burden life career financials oh get one cars divorce still married but separated going divorce took title loan never paid balance cannot pay expired tags cannot renew please someone show going see supposed better part life seeing us government allowing dyke fuck anyway wants taking paycheck one option,1 grieving heaps regrets happiest time yeari miss mum aunt mum mentally ill really good looking her aunt one would look lot whenever mum go hospital died around middle year cancer last time saw looked thin nothing tell would actually last time saw her good spirits day found mum dead ridiculously normal cant get move grief live dad keep thinking earth live around anymore life huge support people like theres basically one reach honest with ive described angel well look friends friends now nowherei keep suicidal thoughts im sure much longer keep up like reason need work dad rent honestly hate life wish never born all feels like stupid mistake advice needed purely vent gives comfort someone else feels awful time year thats good ive never acted suicidal thoughts ive always one others strong feel like nothing left cried today whether tiredness loneliness mixture things im sure im usually good looking bright side things get really sick putting front know would love keep touch anyone going anything similar pm like feel like mum got put grave nearly part got put too im feel like longer live waste cant want degree english drama nice job bookstore feel lonely kills me people thought friends even speak now ive tried many times open people mind tell whats happening get angry like im burdening even though really want say word unless really ok thanks reading,1 shtrafbat story russians could tell second world war largest front whole conflict been ironically least appearing subject silver screen war western allies wareffort pictured almost every possible detail manner east left job left old propaganda movies little else historical footage valuebr br there chance shtrafbat could compete band brothers every detail neither want look screen examining petty visual effects mind soldiers russians enough big reason forgive less eyecaptivating battle scenes concentrate story interesting much different war eastern front nature russian army might wish people produce dramatizations fronts armiesbr br shtrafbat way perfect rare specialties augment overall rating tends crush myths people second world war true heroes russian people leaders sent missions could perish another great myth bust presents enemy pick gun equal human advancement difficult try many acclaimed films well shtrafbat shows war eastern front war survival clash isms grinds people dust,0 dont think im going survive im staring void ive tried everything medication therapy exercise whatever bullshit apparently makes feel better hate christmas moms favorite everytime think spending another holiday alone sink want take drugs escape hospitals dont help tell redflag bad fucking joke life fucking joke ive read note im leaving behind ober again want send get with,1 sure want shoot myselfi gun time ive thinking using almost every day know would easy thats main reason even tried get one somehow hoped someone something would stop me nothing like happened paperwork went store legally handgun since months ago knew bad idea second got store shooting number one redflag fantasy years thats wanted one finally end it im sure im serious shooting scares honest often sit there holding gun bring temple never pull trigger holding like that feeling heavy hands gives kind kick keep fantasizing shooting lethal like shooting shoulder arm test waters also various combat knives fantasize stabbing often also stabbed right left hand bad expected im sure really want kill mutilate body even more anyone feeling same know really fucked need seek help enough money therapy im also bad situation health care wise im practically going lose job get psychological help insurance,1 care people anymore takes much work love hate part people either care lied caring use firing squad test tell love me odds would chose take place bullet end firing squad odds happening laughably low love me sort care me learned last years almost every person said loved actually meantso chose indifference humans humans animals animals energy care anymore let play stupid games get way indifferently need enact will law get away with forever alone small price pay beats alternative trust me divorced longer speaking man called father know talking about age indifference,1 @katalystkaryn don't feel bad I'm about 10yrs older than you. Life is still great! Be happy & positive. ,0 losing willwhen individual loses live nothing anyone say bring back heaven knows stop others trying others sense limited powers curing mental illness think like light switch turned will sufferer like cancer mind embedded physical brain ill patient growing day fully consumes body directs severely mentally ill patient understands position cosmos time goes on knows pass never return understands ultimate doom all cannot escape madness everywhere once kills him one illness blaze like supernova star ever exist shone time done shining time blew candle us all see doom allconsuming preventing life happening take passion hang matter days regrets leave spouse leave offspring family members grieve death natural life cured walking along hiking path breathing fresh air watching trees leaves ruffle breeze birds still fly fish still swim life death was,1 kal penn i just watched house and got really sad i liked kutner,0 friend said reddit gave free award im posting give award hi teens normal day ima ask crush later help great saturday,0 "@teemwilliams nice and quiet here, ",0 much pain right almost completely unbearableim intense emotional distress dead feels like comforting option end suffering know may overreaction alive pretending things okay theyre long feels like torture hurts much im empathetic overthink others burns soul watch people suffer able help barely help anymore stomach constantly knots heart racing cant even think straight hard clear mind injustice see around me good people hurtpunished cruel people rewarded humanity relentless quick sacrifice others want around anymore one tell to im venting internet thank taking time read this did,1 feel aloneeveryday try keep busy possible try distract crushing overwhelming loneliness feel time problem insomniac always part day everyone fast asleep left completely alone nothing distract myself really cant fall asleep pass time dont know do every single night get overwhelming urge end all kill done it mean kind life worth living feel depressed every night one help me,1 look different throughout day morning night aka im tired look like fucking greek god day look like ugly baby got mutated killed zombified,0 time it mom told would stop killing life get better wish killed long time ago,1 matter won forget theyre racists filler filler filler filler filler,0 "@b_club Tell us what it is, Ya never know... ",0 used thinking suicide mid mid year horrible days returning home sit behind door mental breakdown crying sleep thinking suicide past months gotten better strayed away people hurt me tried abide parents time prevent yelled at still mental breakdowns think suicide while really think option nowadays fear one day get worse worse never heal hope never happens whomever reading this things change better whomever reading this love you precious beautiful deserve world whomever reading this please hurt yourself please something good once,1 ever committed psychiatric hold redflag watch so like happenedi know scared killing scared happen aak help committed psychiatric hospital mostly really know happens hospitalized even hours whatever notion nothing ever afterwards necessarily good experience whats like horrible screw life after wish happened glad did,1 depressed loner girls drugs im lonely depressed drugs need friend sum,0 wish deadeveryday get ready never finish it one day ill though know people care want continue on,1 Right! Another few more hours of revision now for tonight. Might see what films are on later on Sky ,0 gays cant math bisexual math least favorite subject failing going fail semester yayyyy colleg fun,0 @markpappalardo That would be the easy way out!,0 latethere never help needed tired continue,1 involuntary suicidal ideationfor long time response thought produces negative reaction mind involuntarily blurts you need kill yourself commit redflag probably hundred times per day plan this caused lot distress worried depression ocd something else,1 hospital foodive tried sleeping day feel sick constantly almost dinner time im thinking back many times suffer disgusting dinner funny barely responded friends family sit thread feel strongest try write guys feel like guys care know people life right now feel pricked poked out want go home bed dog feels empty here keep replaying last night again could changed done different would made time time go sit bundle room temperature cooled hospital blankets pillows would expected sleeping years straight mattress one would care sleep on three different cops ive counted far today dont talk them try talk ask different things need anything always ask nurse ready die cop wants know want fucking water want body burning ash currently compromise life time maybe next time asks ill say yes,1 i ve been lying for year about how i feel right to people face i feel like i can never be the real me a it would burden other people with my feeling i always sabotage myself by keeping to myself until i break and hurt the other people around me but i just can t get out of the hole i ve dug for myself i m completely burnt out and don t have any motivation to do anything anymore i mean my day literally consist of listening to music and not much else because it s one of the few thing i find joy in i don t enjoy many thing anymore because everything i care about always get taken away i don t understand why i exist at this point is it just to lie to and hurt the people i care for,1 guys finally got girlfriend dumped toxic relationship negative effect wellbeing got help writing text dad said proud dealt it could barely see nice anyway theres loads posts people getting good relationships remember getting bad one impressive,0 am i the only one that wish humanity would just die out i fucking hate this place and i hate people and i hate society i m very sick and very close to going out into the wood and hanging myself what is the point of any of this bullshit,1 posting song mind spreads happyness part coming home sheppard,0 latinos latinas here people wjo speak spanish yeah spanish speakers,0 feeling confident once feels good went guitar practice today im really starting get thr hang now,0 someone influence wanting kill myself try address themtheres someone know well last time spoke said things really hurt affected me situation complicated lay right now made bad ugly judgementsassessmentsassumptions went everything working try best person others treated like less dirt theres whole story first time actually tried kill myself think it months since ive thinking wanting kill ones fault ultimately ones fault except person me direct outside influence makes want kill myself theyre person influenced wanting kill myself little ive thinking try address problem person not necessary tell what heavily influences wanting kill myself tell wrong affecting me person hates me im doubts it really feel like one things make want kill less try,1 itschelseastaub goodnight chels and sorry about the major layout delay lt,0 people born gonna turn year wtf,0 @bobbychariot oooo nice it's all about coffee on a Thursday ,0 remembered me and tamaras ace plans ,0 "Thnx gurly!!! my mom promised if i win the whole thing, she'll buy me new tennis clothes so im shopping at the tennis place right now ",0 life is so much pain and it get worse every year everytime i make a step forward life fuck me stepps back i just wish i could do it now today i don t even care anymore that my mom will be sad i never asked to be born in the first place should i do it end my life end this pain,1 bliss peace rest ease solidified finite,1 "@azmomofmanyhats Thanks, Happy Monday! I hope you have a great day ",0 given title first followup quartet obviously reduces number w somerset maugham stories comprise film author still turns introduce episodes theres epilogue time around way script original compendium gave sole credit rc sheriff maugham also lent hand adaptation well noel langley though unclear whether contributed one segment else worked unison expected much crew quartet retained second installment though also extends least three cast members namely naunton wayne wilfrid hydewhite felix aylmer the last two bit parts episode quartet entitled colonels lady trio ultimately emerges lesser achievement predecessor slightly unbalanced third story takes half runningtime still done utmost care acted verve stellar cast solidly enjoyable bargainbr br the verger tells church sexton james hayter storys title another word whos dismissed years service new parish priest michael hordern simply hes illiterate rather rest laurels despite age takes wife his landlady played kathleen harrison opens tobacconist shop strategically placed lengthy stretch road service offered and business flourishing developed whole chain last scene then sees pay visit bank manager felix aylmer who surprised learn hayters lack education prompted ask interests wealthy and respected tobacconist replies measure irony calling verger br br the second episode mr knowall shortest also perhaps engaging voyage sea utterly beleaguered insufferable presence pompous young man nigel patrick british despite foreignsounding name kelada professes authority virtually every subject sun naunton wayne wilfrid hydewhite two passengers put latter shares cabin man former view patricks attentions pretty wife anne crawford fancydress party however passengers decide enact revenge kelada one impersonate a jest naturally doesnt appreciate still contrives show decent side character told crawford necklace shes wearing imitation wayne challenges patrick name pricebut latter realizes immediately genuine article would compromise crawfords position tell kelada allows publicly ridiculed rather expose fact woman probably secret admirer br br as also deduced title sanatorium deals myriad patients place run andre morell protagonist new intern roland culver wistfully observes various goingson narrative fact highlights particular three separate strands plot one humorous the feud two aged scots long resident sanatorium played finlay currie john laurie one melodramatic the erratic relationship disgruntled patient raymond huntley longsuffering devoted wife betty ann davies one bittersweet the romance nave charming jean simmons dashing cad michael rennie which spite pretty much everything including fact morell diagnosed simmons lifer rennie years left him leads couple altar,0 frick physicals mine look buttnaked questions drugs sex life etc tests cancer screenings nothing get close personal like okay yep youre definitely going puberty tell parents it necessary even sports since got cancelled fall,0 garcevisage aww did your mic work at all,0 join rplazavirtual cosmic sci fi shitposts made subreddit today called rplazavirtual roleplay people future sci fi universes post type shitposts memes even alien dating advice long stay character httpswwwredditcomrplazavirtualcommentskwqissue_with_holo_hookers_genital_fluidsutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare one example cosmic shitpost issue holo hookers genital fluids,0 Excellent! Brain decided today was a depression day! :D,1 Ready to work see you later! http://www.projectpayday.com/go/2059818,0 saw le conseguenze dellamore rotterdam filmfestival first ten films saw therebr br le conseguenze left powerful impression ten films first shot know movie going something special beautiful cinematography left awe done camera music also par visuals complementing colorful stylish architecturelike imagesbr br toni servillo plays main character film titta hes tax expert gone wrong lives hotel every week brings suitcase money bank story plays around thisbr br he always controlled shows almost emotion anyone looks calculated welldressed habit ignoring people significance him example sofia played nicely olivia magnani works barmaid hotel lives although working hotel two years never greets her even greet him one day confronts next day sits bar instead usual spot window story really begins unfold strong tale love sacrifice mafiabr br i spoil rest film see film love stylish movies like ones david lynch godfather etc see actionbuff,0 yeah i know it s pretty weird but i ve been experiencing this one since last night i had trouble breathing but the right side seems fine felt like the left side wa the culprit had a tough time drifting to sleep,1 everything life telling give kill myselfno job money love ambition passion future have arthritis depression mediocrity week fucking kidney stones life get shit piss fucking razor blades im done cant take anymore life fucking cruel,1 @eugenekhoo The papers didnt mention anything when we hit #1 for #blogout09 early this year as well. ,0 sure actually suicidal fear redflaghello everyone years old history mental illness exept trichotillomania think somekind ocd sure diagnosed story started months ago remember exact date day feel like changed life sitting laptop friends house working new project saturday afternooneverything awesome sun shining birds sining drinking favorite coffee logged facebook chat one colleague yeahawesomebut thenthe news chester benningtons redflag popped right face freaked without reason started suicidal thoughts started googling results wereas guessmajor depressive disorder completely freaked out went home went right bedi felt sick stomach felt like vommiting sleep eat next day felt way eat everything felt pointless without reason anxiousnowtwo months later feel like everything changed constantly anxious everything seems pointless half day times day feel almost back normal still time constantly head constantly googling mental health still thoughts googlinglife worth living want kids terrible world would easier give oneverything fine news chester poppes up never thought redflag before get it questions thoughts are suicidal obsessed fear itmy stomach always anxious arrives tell something wrong brain ocd mddanxiety always way happened me happened,1 f im ok need someone talk toim suicidal youre looking save life exit post im really alone thoughts right really draining really need someone talk thats preferably around age,1 i m on mobile so please excuse me i m also a first time poster on here female i quit a job i had for year last year in may of 0 i wa really good at that job one of the top people even if it wa just a warehouse job i wa a trainer i knew how to do everything and a lot wa expected of me everyday my bos wa incredibly verbally abusive to everyone i didn t realize it for a few year but my last two year being there she wa talking bad about everybody behind their back and just being a horrible human i finally quit one day when i got a different job with an old coworker i wa working that job for about month before i started to struggle going at first it wa because i felt inadequate and tired all the time i have a problem with being new at thing it progressed to a new coworker there wa starting to push my boundary a little bit older man telling me what to do and making me feel dumb which i know is my own issue i realize this whole post is my own issue but anyway i ended up leaving that job because every time i wa there i wa going to the bathroom to cry at least once and i couldn t make myself do it anymore and between that place and the job i m at now i had three other job one wa amazon delivery the other wa a daycare and the one before that wa just instacart i couldn t make enough money on instacart to even be a part time job it wa also putting stress on my car but i loved being able to work for myself basically and create my own hour i hated how the kid at daycare were treated and it disgusted me to the point i couldn t work there anymore and amazon hour were terrible and i wasn t getting home until 9 00 p m which doe not work for my year old son i finally got this job in january of this year and so far it ha been pretty good but i ve noticed that i m struggling to go a full 0 hour pay period in the past month i ve missed seven day which is a lot i suppose i just wake up in the morning and struggle to go and a voice in my head tell me that i don t need to and everything will be okay even if i decide not to go a long a the excuse i have is good enough and then i get so anxious about going back that i decide to stay home the next day and the day after that i m currently on my third day of being at home and even though i have a good excuse i m sure they don t believe me a little bit i don t know what s wrong with me i ve always been a hard worker and up until my breaking point last year i didn t know what this wa i still don t know what it is that i m feeling i m not feeling entitlement or anything like that i just feel empty and numb and what s the point of going i have to have a verbal argument with myself let me say that again with myself i literally have to talk out loud to myself and argue that i have a house payment i have bill i have a kid who also ha bill what is wrong with me my family on both side ha history of depression and i have unprofessionally diagnosed adhd my mom ha anxiety disorder last year when i quit my job i left because of the work environment and how bad it wa and now my new job it s more laid back but it s the same kind of job nd i m constantly worried i m being talked about and that i m not good enough to be there my anxiety from the other job is transferring here for no reason everyone is incredibly nice i m also struggling internally because i really want to go to college and get a better kind of job but i don t know what i want to do yet i m feeling overwhelmed by it because i m a single mom and i don t know how i m going to be able to go to school and work at the same time so i guess for the past couple month i ve also felt pretty trapped feeling like i ll never work for myself and i ll never get a good job because i can t figure my life out but ha anyone experienced this kind of feeling at my age i don t know if it s burnout or if it s related to my cptsd that i have from a physically abusive relationship from year ago i ve tried looking it up on google i ve tried listening to meditational motivation stuff and anyone give me help in the form of advice i don t want to be like this forever i know it s understandable to not want to work but i should be at work literally right now and instead i m in bed speak texting this because i know something s wrong with me i can t afford to do anything therapy right now so just any insight or story from when you were my age and you broke a little bit i m just scared and tired and i want to kick myself in the as but i don t know how and i don t have the energy too i really don t need to hear anything negative about me because i can tell you i m already thinking it i just feel like a waste of space who can t get her s together that my son deserves a better parent than me,1 interpret friend telling likes all telling one friend doind whole thing group chat it letting kne friend see deleting texts friend wont tell anything like weird like please im nice filler filler filler filler fillrt fillr,0 hard times covid quarantine lots people probably struggling depression im tell go outside hang people go hobbies play sports make sure safe virus tho depression killed many people covid ever will find something rather feeling sad,0 i genuinely wish i could say fuck this i m out there s so many responsibility and yet so little life in me to carry all those thing i just hurt someone i love accidentally of course because i wa trying to hurt my self and that s so fucking depressing and embarrassing for god sake i m almost and still acting like a bratty teenager my body hurt my heart hurt can someone please just kill me already,1 roses red violets blue ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb scrolled see rest post ampxb and rickrolled you toohttpspreviewredditjudcvfghdjpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsfceabadeabfeaabbbcc,0 teens democratleftliberal opinions red states struggles goes triple for black teens white areas queer teens females afab boys i hope worded correctly christian households,0 movie pretty good is unreleased producers cut favorite movie series original jamies story handled differently death scenes done times better theres footage ritual type stuff giving story micheal jamie baby also alternate ending also better release version instead damned clue find version see it,0 darn it i woke up with a great idea for a lime article and i forgot what it wa,0 "This is my album, like Everytime I'm about to crash back into my depression HERE COMES SHAWN WITH SOMETHING UP HIS SLEEVE I LOVE HIM",1 @mackyrosman i'm gooodd sorry you fell lol. i do that alot. i miss 7th heaveeen!,0 ive suicidal since eight recently ive thinking actually going iti could post throwaway fuck it censor really feel lss im transgender ftm fully supportive people life tried telling dad would longer see little girl would kick out weve always close accept already breaking mentally friends school completely clueless much hurts someone came constantly gets pronouns corrected still struggle calling preferred name think even fully transition ill feel better body pass male thighs cant accept one accept me also awful body issues everyone live overweight want look them throw food hour eat fear gaining weight also sort undiagnosed mental disorder ive hearing voices i think schizophrenia personalities names since constantly talk sex no subconsious sex makes uncomfortable passion sexually active started talking sex specifically vivid visual hallucinations one voices giving oral others also berate tell here hurt others etc im also pretty sure depression read somewhere hearing voices past trauma hope true unfortunately believe sexually abused family member child family situation awful parents i nmom bipolar dad abusive relationship divorce my sake sometimes want come home bad plus special needs aunt lives us acts like spoiled year old know right wrong blames problems im allowed talk family cut ties them well academically school never could feel like fucked future never asking homeschooling special ed year dad guilts well atleast trying to try cant im fucking difficult feel hopeless already plan date want die im even highschool want become adult find love life cant deal shit anymore cannot go therapy mom hates therapists doctors school counselor would get cps involved ive mentioned borderline child abuse past want call resource line theres people deserving me post update next friday probably went it thanks everything reddit,1 got show late believe rd final episode first watched blown away social commentary seen american tv since all familybr br was surprised cbs would even run first placebr br which merely say last time cbs had set know mean back day all family controversial decision theyre willing tackle today much eye makeup put katie couricbr br if want make bunch folks really really mad let discover truth themselves want willing pull strings make calls get work art removed let discover truth hearing words spoken mouthsbr br the aardman folks always way ahead curve show different somehow snuck cbs corporatesocialpoliticalcensor radar get onto schedule perhaps big brass never really watched till finally aired good ol middle merika heard saw well bet farm message messenger last longbr br now missing episodes find way onto usenet bittorrent br br thank bc kelly tallahassee fla,0 everythings bad numb days pounding impending doom lot bad things stacking lot time leave time,1 my girl tjlefebvre is missing anyone seen her this evening,0 attempted redflag saturdaystill want diehey guys im turn sixteen week depressed years enough bullshit life past saturday attempted redflag drinking shots liqour went home vomiting everywhere blacking mom came upstairs saying fuck blacked woke next morning woke parents told heart beating beats per minute stopped breathing began lecturing telling im fucking idiot told wanted kill myself feel horrible attempted redflag still want die im lost could anyone please help,1 teachers get annoyed kids easily get confused im zoom classes keep joining wrong class due whole confusion thinking fourth period since usually classes go a b a b onward though fourth period im class confused teacher mentioned many times try class though teachers like students like this apologize much since get confused easily,0 still feel feckin arseholed a sign of old age me think,0 style emotional release bodywork called amanae or emotional release therapy feel compelled help veterans ways might able get touch organization area see volunteer intense process want know could help people suffering redflag especially veterans dont know would like rattling cage shouldnt rattled exactly right thing treating redflag would volunteer services learn working sufferers,1 second abortion yearcame year long abusive narcissistic relationshipmy ex discarded better people constant suicidal thoughtsno career prospectsi respect myselfi many friendsim tired make life betterim begging god take away instead relentlessly punishing like this wringer,1 need serious help im really science everything learning everything works overwhelming urge kms see happens death anything death hard control dam,0 question weebs futas gay,0 get funki want die think lot thing really keeping accidentallyonpurpose death fact roommates would stuck dealing portion rent left tips tricks finding silver lining thnx,1 pmelt the only bad thing about aid is you can only catch it once id want to inflict more pain on the deadshits of this world,0 thinking ending itits currently writing this ive depressed lately im getting major urges ending it ive turned dont think im gonna make life im afraid tell mom dont want worry dont want go back another hospital need someone anyone talk to even one person enough hope someone sees this,1 suffocate duct tapeby taping mouth nose cant breathe,1 brother killed want himtwo days ago struggled depression much longer i better healthier happier lonely depressive feelings come back want take one guns wont think want still live miss abbie,1 "Ketamine Nasal Spray Shows Promise Against Depression, Suicide #health https://cmun.it/4sjligk ",1 used movie college ethics courses years also woody allens crimes misdemeanorsanother terrific multileveled ethical study br br its fiction focus much unrealistic features strangers fictional films obviously false many levels love film gallows comedy tautly told many ironic twists visual pleasureseven unbelievable story told well even think criticizing plausibility although must confess tennis match seems weakest part metoo much hollywood fluff enough real tennis competitionbr br some problems presented film hold promise realistic moral education ethical discussionbr br ethical passivity weaknesses guy character intended hitchcock primary ethical insight film danger inability articulate ones moral positions guy unable effectively block brunos crazy proposals start interesting question guy behave passively ineffectively possible answer depression intense complicated divorce process br br miscommunication guy commits another failure start train get away quickly agrees brunos ideas good guys literal meaning opposite inflected sarcastic meaning bruno takes literal meaning agreement crisscross murders guy takes sarcastic meaning escape murder agreement extent near beginning bruno may partially pretending agreement struck draw guy web complicity bruno manipulating guy guys linguistic ambiguity train gives bruno chance put ethical stranglehold guy bruno manipulating guy may also take meanings br br secrecy speculated sexual relationship guy bruno seems first ridiculous especially since guy appears obviously heterosexual relationships miriam anne however remember guy also ineffective women guy appears stereotypicallyits remember effeminate especially relationship bruno guy strong athlete weak inside bruno also conflicted playing against himself appearing facially physically strong first displaying effeminate traits brunos fashion footwork gushing emotionally guy different situations receiving manicure doting mother bruno kissing desperately fondling mothers hand subtle gay stereotypes hold cryptic meaning hitchcocks point view wish could hear hitchcock clarify intended meanings herebr br dishonesty distrust guy makes colossal blunders hiding truths bruno family police guy fails fully comprehend admitting fault quickly may better coverup delay confession guy driven passivity insecurity fearand perhaps selfhate closer brunos selfloathing care see admit guy bruno act parables impotencebr br lack evidence guy feels problem mustering evidence acquit himself quickly going police would solve huge problem guy traps doubts insecurities absence desired alibis inability alcoholic professor testify guys behalf obsessive need appear politically pristine personality factors cause guy feel defenseless dysfunctional brunojust dangerous yet one could partially blame guy miriams murderbr br disease mental disorder interesting question legally responsible bruno murders ethically incompetent bruno sick sociopath guilty guy may someone healthy failed stand morally act prevent crimes guys failure like man fails call police sick friend threatens suicide death ensues one could argue one crime committed guy emotionally hobbled accomplicebr br these many features film make strangers train gem morality play diamond philosophical cinematic reflections,0 my throat feel so wierd i don t know if it s anxiety or something medical i ve heard anxiety make your throat feel like this but i also don t feel like i m anxious this have never really happened to me before i m on medical so this shouldn t happen should it someone please help,1 Tony and Ethan rape my screen. It's great ,0 im m im still im turning months still im throughout whole life hit puberty year ago think growth spurt already passed women date since im tall hell im way average bright side see get called cute thats height people take seriously get made fun of women see man im failure man add cant even socialize properly im skinny athletic get shit beat karate tournaments due large height weight difference lack intelligence cant get high grades fail lot height evident everything me cry easily give easily used try hard pace others ahead surpass fail anyway something always stop me unsociable lose patience easily cried month called girl cute whole class girls blocked me height thought weird creepy people told blocked me im joking people blocked me im extremely pathetic world hates me lack every talent skill universe give shits hard try ill always fail one likes me ill never get girlfriend ill never taken seriously ill never person want be ill always failure man,0 hate dad treats mom hate even takes tells complacentmy dad quite frankly giant piece shit mom forced marry him wasnt picture months born since forced mom pick life move little warning hes completely fucking terrible preschool physically abused makes jokes like havent suicidal since fucking makes extremely disgusting sexual comments body calls whore regularly thinks im overall biggest slut ever walked earth for reference basicallt wear abaya everyday constantly orders mom around degraded often making cry least day tells shut stop sensitive mother openly admitted could save husband children shed pick him want love mom really slave him original thoughts own says jump says cliff asked lower voice earlier today he screams talks working papers ran stairs call worthless whore never enough parents one world loves me wish would kill shed understand kind person is aunt killed husband think shell end way want fuckin die,1 playandstay well i ve actually only been to thorpe park so i m sooo looking forward to alton tower,0 wish knew wrong personalityevery close friend make seems go knowing months sometimes takes less month dont know whats wrong personality ive stopped clingy im confrontational successful friendships people know casually im hurt feel alone happy company hurts knowing theres something inherently wrong makes people want distance me im sad frustrated want like people theres point even trying anymore,1 Success! All my plans for today worked out ,0 thought starting get better cry yesterday lol jokes bc ended bawling eyes today remember mom passed away last year remember last words be good dad knows much hated dad cheating multiple times yet still forgave him honest done anything productive past weeks three weeks backlog summer class cannot bring study verge giving course cannot last thing mom remember taking engineering expecting engineer someday want disappoint her executive dysfunction,1 brother playing scp secret laboratory rn said hello mtf today i chilling phone blurted im good thanks you ik were talking two different kinds mtf really funny regrets,0 never wanted kill badlyi never wanted kill badly helped woman broke heart still love find religion hate people follow hate andor accept me want kill badly want ever pain unbearable want destroy everything want thanked leading somewhere there want kill myself ready it hate myself hate much know hurts bad life followed islam thrown aside mentally ill bisexual deemed problem monster hated there hate religion hate god me hate im accepted want kill myself,1 distant myself for it then dwell on my misery and trigger my depression not that I have being happy or feeling good about myself these past days . So yeah I wanna take a break from it all and just spend time doing stuff I like/love,1 im tired livingfianc broke several months ago depressed depressed never wanted see never actually felt like loved me visited every week hardly wanted anything me ive getting worse since reason anything last days ive especially feeling awful whole thing ive come close breaking im working frequently broken breaks messaged today blue buddy buddy opened wounds already hurting refused talk things tried tell lot pain roommates upset started smoking breakup stopped tidying up see purpose anything anymore want die thing keeping alive mom would die died got medical issues passes away time soon reason left stick around want someone love actually feel loved back time think im ever going find another person though especially even someone like love back,1 imagine crying alone bdayi knew gonna happen cant one day off,1 my mom straight up asked me last night if i wa cutting my wrist in front of my entire family when she saw my scar i think she said that joking but it s the truth i m so scared she s going to push it further i m so scared she s going to hate me for it and punish me i feel so so stupid for doing it on my wrist so so stupid i just didn t think anyone would notice they haven t ever before i m not sure she actually suspect anything from me tonight i think i ll burn my wrist cooking something so that it cover up the scar and the story is more believable they re all going to hate me i didn t sleep all night last night because i m so scared i used to think i d be ok with people finding out i feel like this but i m not i m really really not,1 dont itdont people love,1 c mon sean man,0 best way commit redflagi know question asked lot sorry would better got shot heart spend money get breathing mask nitrous,1 @AnneAAM yay! ,0 "@cityspur think u got that wrong. its about maintaining brain fitness, no? If u naturally have a lot, there is less need to maintain it? ",0 word autocorrect freshness hell lol,0 Playing shit loads of TF2 ,0 might seem little selfish think today good thing least meblocking friends best decision made awhile ask tomorrow week statement still holds may not last time really happy things good me think universe way punishing make decisiondecisions bad could end poorly youand rewards make decision aligns best depressive mood swings redflag still much exists still essential isolate myself surround people great negativity like trust gut say people bad them maybe even quite frank trust gut far punished smells bad probably bad feels bad bad kind philosophy go dealing people life kind ask question myself friends never would give anyone stupid advice would dumb enough follow through even goal involved myself let convince selfsabotage win anyways make decision selfless selfish ps started sketching kind forgot much love fucking killer it think good thing today,1 getting better mean shit meeverything given changes better got job im good gives good pay entirely borin bought nice car finally freedom go places figured easy fun visit freind really since graduated college wonderful emotional state change im still miserable inside long hate all depressing thoughts would trade anything life whatii pathetic,1 mizzzidc with all you have said you ve almost landed that woman into depression,1 bruh theres indian dude hasnt showered years married amp kids know fucked guy gets pussy,0 everytime try sleep take meds sleep get tired lay down brain immediately starts screaming get play guitar want sleep brain wants riffs,0 cut lifei would like start providing little information myself yo male january broke boyfriend years ive different relationship months everything going well him talking moving together too graduated bachelors degree major psychology minors child development family studies which went different university attend master social work program fall two months dropped right lot anxiety coursework actual duties social worker namely counseling side things original goal attending program following semester took semester online courses accounting community college went well decided go back university started msw pursue bachelors accounting seemed like good plan living brother apartment time because thought living random roommate terrifies me however started classes summer felt overwhelmed anxious unsure whether wanted accounting dropped end first week work got job pharmacy technician quit weeks due feeling overwhelmed anxious ended getting another job tech different pharmacy able work months decided go grad school quit job moved getting accepted computer science program i gpa course started getting overwhelmed anxious ended switching administration program dropping entirely before even starting taking courses local community college accounting again seem going alright finished week classes also took objectively amazing job secretary state office student assistant getting paid ever have guess went quit day guess really want kill myself secretly hope get hit meteor mac truck simply wake tomorrow suppose always felt like this bearable without pressures society struggle fit anywhere cant handle pressure perform also get bored cant stand work job find boring hours week know do ive got another job prospect coming bank interview went really well optimistic could handle know title says feel like im cut life aside gay maybe id better born years ago anyone advice thoughts situation,1 @jimmyfallon #MySuperpower would be anti depression,1 heading to Ft Wayne to drop the kid of with the in-laws for the week ,0 anyway depression might be a bitch but it feel so good to be alive lt,1 kindness shelterobvious throwaway reddit im sick this spent hours trying write ive going through much going on switched app poof refreshed reason gone im upset wrote much anyway know people would skim one needs hear life story situation right something skim still understand complicated connected cant focus details long ill focus feelings need help somebody trust anyone life ill turn guys im wits end feel worthless easy throw away disposable ive suffering much past months suffering well one thing another domino effect never ends im exaggerating im homeless im young im alone one turn anymore im yr old girl people hurt ways expect think real world feel like im bad soap opera novela im sure im putting tonight im sleeping behind old apartments gotten colder dark prepare hope neighbors call cops enough endured enough rock bottom seems me keep sinking think im float like long tried kill april seeing lied ahead me even then path neater head turned out things worse much worse regret friend finding trying take rest pills come abuse every type escaped family hurt strangers whose help naturally accepted tried believe wrong homeless ive met demons dressed angels first worst part knew knew trust take help suffer own dependent people help much power you ive realized lot people like help like power control gave benefit doubt fool wish way brand people right forehead others knew hurt anybody else people would chance run know sound crazy mean to im destroyed shambles everything cold life mine cold fine one understand ive seen ive lived alone too wasted time energy nothing better things going get better while quite actually especially consider homeless persons perception time things ive experienced never leave me im scarred believe anyone anymore believe people anymore ive lost much faith im longer even emotional it is im tired im tired this much more many problems ive tried write help many times theres much write follow through something else happened today terrible thing cant stand im furious powerless im disgusted theres one turn to im sick wish hurt people killed myself cause would instant nothing gotten better fact everything got worse plateau got worse knew it problems temporary theyll stay life everyday battle life war im lost cant kill myself would default many obligations cant hurt people tried help especially return investment im disgusted world right now know perspective think ill again something died today wish could finish job die myself want make option bad thank much reading did really appreciate you point even feel like deserve people listen me fact stranger side world would kindness almost feel shown thank you,1 @mccordsbutera you got this love! you're stronger than depression. i have faith in you!! ily ♡,1 saw television years ago remember never forgot performance sammy davis jr chance thought look video rendition porgy bess treasure would love see introduce son well cant imagine heralded one greatest performances sammy davis jr every gave whoever responsible bringing audiences ashamed hisher ignorance continue look though maybe execs responsible things come realize forgotten work many african american actors,0 wrote exactly three line of dialogue tonight then gave up,0 im fucking scaredi wrote fucking note im actually going this tonight soon next days even make st birthday even know want make it homeless death fucking homeless im god damn scared pain comes dying anyone asks job cant get job crippling depression dropped highschool tried holding labor job body cant handle it im cut life needed tell someone one know im gone since live alone ill print note leave table something cant stop fucking cryingjesus pathetic,1 point continuingive never job likely never find one pandemic feel like shell pretending human know wanna be never funds mental strength get there brain many stupid self imposed rules keep myself if even exists waste resources im allowed depressed have good according mind exist,1 i ll be 9 tomorrow and i ve been depressed on and off all my life i wa diagnosed at with mdd with manic episode i started a relationship with a wonderful woman last august before i moved across the country and i moved back for her this past december she ended up leaving me in the middle of january because of my mental illness this bout of depression ha hit me the hardest not only am i dealing with my mental illness but i m also dealing with heartbreak it s been over two month since she left me and i ve been stuck in bed pretty much ever since i m medicated and doing cbt but i find it isn t helping the way it should i m moving back in with my parent next month to get my shit in order before tackling life again any tip from this community to help me get better,1 @KrisWilliams81 Amen to the stuff on their floor...! ,0 ever situation erratic sleep schedule due highs lows work so find solution it irregular sleep schedule,1 gorgeous movie visually images mexican desert old mansion characters picturesque costumesall amount real work artbr br the story seems bit loose thats meant realistic taken book called one hundred years solitude supposed evocation isolated otherworldly atmosphere latin america so far god close united states tremendous debt erendira owes grandmother symbolic latin americas international debt burden although many layers meaningbr br if appreciate slowmoving richlytextured movie one you,0 great to be on board @portraitgirl ur welcome Debbie @lameymacdonald will do @BoydGreeneArt ,0 "fyi i haven't been in school since feb due to anxiety & depression, & other personal things.",1 "@jackiboy June 15th- my last exam will be over! June 22nd, DofE Expedition in Snowdonia ",0 donelife pretty much backed corner ive run options lost job years ago ex long ago decided make good threat ruining life contacted employer made story meeting women raping them police involved went nothing happened able recover this entire personality changed terrified many situations five years still hard even leave house cannot continue living like this matter cannot catch break seem find job however life insurance die family least get that planned look like redflag worries there ive really learned friends ive also learned one wants anything youre,1 nut november nut november nut november going well day tho smh get rid horny,0 @StylistsForum Thanks for helping to spread the word about the book. ,0 @mileycyrus its true that all you need is love but sometimes you have to think about if your getting love from the right person x,0 so a the title say i m looking to go and see a doctor about my anxiety i ve been to a rehabilitation centre and talked to a few doctor people there i smoke weed for my anxiety and it doesn t help anymore it can t be everywhere and anytime i get a anxiety attack my weed usage ha been extremely high before going to the rehab place and now that i ve brought it completely down i get mad anxiety when i smoke i smoke to stop the anxiety now i just get anxiety from smoking i m not sure that i can go about smoking anymore financially it s not good for me doe anyone have any suggestion on what doctor would be good to talk to when i call to book a appointment,1 "Depression, the best advice offered was 'Keep taken the tablets' And another illness I got to go with the rest is, I have Sleep Apnea. Which If you don't know is where you basically die a few times during the night but don't worry it's very common.All that happens is your",1 andaz apna apna far second favorite comedy time first namak halal even though technically drama story nothing groundbreaking complications added make awesome aamir khan total cartoon watch expressions song yeh raat aur yeh doori amazingly good comedy never knew salman khan also good somewhat dimmer two characters noises makes almost funny aamirs faces raveena karisma serve purpose nothing amazing real pick lot paresh rawal usualbr br the plot rather simple amar aamir prem salman useless sons poor fathers believe hard work want get rich easy way brains come across idea woo rich mans paresh rawal daughter raveena tandon comes india look husband amar prem meet trip join hands drive hundreds men trying marry girl succeed get rid other somehow get raveenas house amar injured guy prem doctor try oust other things complicated raveenas friend karisma kapoor falls prem pursues him rich mans evil twin brother rawal also tries get rid heiress father inherit money sends two trusted bumbling fools dirty workbr br this movie want miss watch it worth it even dvd good like movie id also recommend gol maal already watched it good comedies namak halal hera pheri new,0 My 6 year old just asked me why her teacher is "Following" me on MySpacebook. LOL,0 saulwilliams third budget of the yr in ireland today they want to tax text message pray for the poet,0 i feel like i shouldn t but i do i m tired and i m tired of being tired i m tired of feeling like i m broken and that i can t do anything right i m tired of feeling like i m in the wrong place and time and i m tired of hating everything i really hate everything most of all me i m tired of feeling alone i m fucking tired of it all i don t know what to do but i know i can t keep up with being a smiling shell i m going to fucking break if i have to keep trying,1 diljan sidhu samhaig90 9 figenabler his severe depression say otherwise,1 im super bored seeing reddit dm feature sucks literally dm discordany social media account name ill add chat fir not thats fine aswell good day,0 existence painfuljust act alive brings pain everyday,1 "@y_nizan my Twitter profile only worth $5, still have a long way to go ",0 think need conversation right nowim kinda panic attack right id like casual conversation distract something stupid guys week,1 armi terrible morning keep looking arm older marks want slice right watch blood drip everyone see cant,1 wow loved movie love judy marte girl awesome pretty face funny really really talented made laugh many times naturally rough victor desperately hitting her well seeing lot next coming years probably also director peter sollett costar victor rasukbr br raising victor vargas one best film saw long time refreshing true nice funny well filmed got good story good actors good film directionbr br if like simple slow paced real life urban movies like maybe jersey girl kevin smith love victor vargas better,0 feel slipping away everyone everything sleep body requires shuts down lay bed night staring darkness crying seemingly reason walk around numb feels wrong feel empty emotionless time suffocated shear sadness reality getting point death seems like burden something fear thing make whole again know feel anymore,1 ive obsessed bedrooms window i live th floorever since moved new apartment ive obsessed afraid time bedrooms window point think healthy drives suicidal thoughts im afraid heights panic every single time get close window go balcony every time somebody passes close one two body starts erratically move feel person may slide trip fall abyss every single time look mind fills images falling easy would die jump im writing last night really vivid nightmare cant stop thinking damn window sort creepy weird factor screams danger also calling get closer take look down prevent escalating actual suicidal thoughts,1 @LamaLamaDuck Kehe now i can stalk YOU! wicked...lol,0 overdose painfuli want know least painful way,1 online school redflaging much nsw back lockdown month means online learning attended classes except maths far fuck maths gives much redflag fuck ever going use knowledge area parallelogram future need psychology degree knowhow statistics also fuck mood shifts want run away god fucking damn,1 please give read let know saw even anything meaningful sayfrom outside fanfuckingtastic life year old straight white upper class male currently top high school class beautiful sweet sexy brilliant girlfriend thing complain mom alcoholic recently baby cps investigating might better gets taken everything right go weekly cbt take medication religiously and much normal dose exercise regularly never anything drink smoke eat right everything fine may surmised posting here everything isnt every day struggle get bed anything else think much want live pervasive thought appear nowhere even thinking things far removed sadness be consistently manage kill erections masturbating go somewhere dark never safe except asleep fact matter miserable point planning redflag last detail hypothermia feels poetic idea why course cant tell therapist this states laws required report suicidal tendencies parents state likely result involuntary hospitalization result idea depths anguish want get better afraid ask psychiatrist change medication several reasons primary one would take much time could take months get normal place cant deal fucking life long also medication ten years withdrawal hell earth psychological pain describe words result without options cant talk anyone fear betrayal trust every day gets worse days cry room instead homework end lot tiredness tired life never rest matter what another thing worry about another task complete even five months out focus that scan next threat deal it never get break mind never shuts up matter tired am constantly moving top speed meditation work nothing stops it escape thoughts pervasive driving edge needs stop needs stop now please help me please help please help please help please help me,1 phil hellmuth so sad,0 shystieuk wish me luck got ta go london ging great olmand street for a appointment really scared xxxx,0 another attempt end itseems cant keep dealing lack money want arrested custody help going try kill,1 nobody would care if i wa dead i don t think my family would even react i starved myself and fasted everyday and looked sick and no one even noticed or remembers,1 hi i have been using efexor and rexapin for depression and anxiety for a while before medication i used to eat so i wouldn t die but right now i want to eat everything especially sweet and carbohydrate food how do you control weight while taking medication waiting for your advice,1 eyes damn small swear im going cut wider get older oh yeah also make nose sharper,0 txbrad i need coffee lol i saw you tweet this on mcintec net lol it come up before mibbit mibbit is so slow on twitter it suck,0 i am dying beforehand i dont even want to talk to you you are the reason why im leaving have a nice fucking life without me,1 is tired of flowchart ken,0 moony 9 lol ugh that s so ominous i hope i don t have to cry over idol this week too fox hate me,0 netflix bullying watch one kshow wont leave alone kshow recommendations ughhhhh,0 @jessiegirlleap well my knee should be healed by next week ,0 we did a depression test today in psychology class and guess what 18/30 students in the class has depression,1 convinced myself putting much pressure current partner incredibly selfish so way unintentionally emotionally manipulating boyfriend stay even though feelings genuine sentiment if breaks up die cannot see move pain way much handle already not make better work stuff i feel need commit suicide unless fight sometimes underlying feeling messed way much redflag depression pain going driven point think nothing fixable cannot deal present live without partneri need suggestions answers anything hope life cannot even think suicide cannot equate relationship even stuff gets worse absolutely cannot it cannot put kind pressure partner wants leave able to already told this wish not might take decisions based thishow stop feeling equate relationship made mind committing suicide event breakup,1 really contemplating redflag moment deepest darkest memory makes want toso back freshman year high school one kid friend tried bully everyone possibly could kids almost everybody hated students mainly probably teachers too memory im referring occurred valentines day wanted ask prettiest girl class annual valentines dance she actually pretty reserved kept herself extremely nice liked much muster courage ask her kindly declines she going bf another school little upset eventually got it bullies let go dayafterday received insults since saw get rejected ignored them one day something inside snapped main bully said insulting remarks sister whos disabled various sexual acts hed perform her now way athlete roughly lbs way fought made seem otherwise charged pushed locker hit head first fell top him unleashed barrage hits across face quick little jabs fullforced punches using strength could muster second bully meanwhile ran go tell teachers kept attack felt like forever even shoved one teachers onto ground tried pull him school security eventually got me even fought like wild animal try break free keep hitting him this landed hospital concussion unrecognizable face remembering horrible disfigured appearance enough make shutter oh way even leave room almost two daysfor anything nothing eat drink whatever sat silence staring wall seeing dads face came pick school dayit look disappointment disbelief also even say anything me,1 i m so tired have to get up and go in to school during holiday for the rd time xxx,0 hate whenyoure looking painless methods kill yourself google shows bunch sites telling it assure you looking for,1 already feel dead forgottenive reached every platform possibly get somebody listen talk cannot express discouraged continue existence already everything planned out matter time set date months now ive given plenty warning yet overlooked shrugged everyone cant afford seek professional help im really trying im seeking conversation point genuinely believe mind made moment thanks reading,1 male college student need help badlyi really know start it always felt fairly depressed past years never done anything thought standard teen depression thing grew depression grew never made friends high school trouble talking people uncomfortable so people understand mean say uncomfortable talking people cannot bring talk people goes beyond social awkwardness something troubles deeply say hello make eyecontact ive ridiculed lack eyecontact peers become suicidal ive begun cutting i want die kind way if press bit harder could over also mention used gpa ive gone school weeks missing midtermshomework etc also scholarship doubt ill able keep now im already ton debt people still coming me still live home even enough offset costs school i lived campus last year apartment bit feel like offing best option point health insurance parents feel comfortable talking anybody person this eventually im sure come im sure way im sure many say go schools counseling center goes back said earlier extreme reluctance talk anybody anything magnified fact want talk situation,1 I <3 memory foam ,0 barman wanted make movie wanted to simple that succeeded goal also making wonderful movie especially visually knows use pans slowmotion sequences tracking shots crane shots etc beautiful smooth way gives movie relaxing feel itbr br the story lives different characters nothing common except one thing party attend to also turnpoint movie beauty picture lies question characters effect eachother in comparance similar course better movie like magnolia simply think barmans idea beauty lies different details experiences people go makes breaks lives barman successful telling little stories describe little experiences knows people antwerpbr br the soundtrack movie also excellent surprise know barman also succesful songwriter musician band deus music sometimes hot time relaxing contributes sunny smooth feel movie times hear funky poprockmelodies give scenes strength needbr br theres one flaw thats last half hour runtime breaking up last scenes fresh accurate scenes then cant figure outbr br all beautiful sunny movie lifts belgian cinema upbr br br br its breeze flows girls hair sunny afternoon making even beautiful fresh breeze makes relax passes crowded party someone opens door breeze carries perfume beautiful girl sitting next park met week ago breezebr br ,0 bruh im playing friday night funkin middle online class im feeling pretty good yea thats post nothing else,0 friend edgehey guys friend bumpy ride past months one premier individuals fast track fame lost everything lost job girlfriend alienated many friends still support mostly stemming mother trapped basement never leaves bed cant even watch tv painful hallucinates regularly become extremely angry every time sees people becomes angry violent thoughts pent anger frustrated situation loss control loss purpose seems like thing anymore text mother horrible things ready die hes made preparations sends constant updates date time plans it stopped listening everything say uses whiteboard vent run horrible thoughts tried every form treatment mother desperate run therapist therapist psychiatrist psychiatrist severe treatment centers around med therapy compliant nothing seems help one seems understand matter drifts madness hospital before blames hospitals much suffering written notes doctors hospitals blaming anguish and mother know call copshave hospitalized know means stop talking us left alone that anger would inspire would threatening mother loss do im loss shared plans theoretically another months guess cant describe threat immediate im feeling little helpless stuck tracking moods know im guess ive seen community reacts looking guidance,1 @StealthNickChic Yea he sent one pic... So cute! Congrats to him! ,0 anyone remember fuzzy feeling static old tvs anyone remember old tvs touched could feel static felt really fuzzy recently realized one know feeling generation gone sad cause good nostalgic memory me brings back lot great memories little,0 @mizrik lol! I know but she knows I love her ,0 leave pleaseplease let go,1 theletterj couldn t agree more people keep stealing my elastic band ball,0 Transparent moment: I sometimes go through spurts to where I struggle to feel any emotion. I oftentimes have to make a conscious effort to feel emotion when I think they should be happening naturally. I read somewhere that this could be a symptom of depression...,1 @agentbooth But we LOVE the pictures...don't you think we should show her? ,0 no matter good life live happy focus every bad decision ever made feel like im reason parents throats even live anymore terrible person sex addictionand need social interaction whenever think things want live maybe thought kids drives forward get tired getting help friends mind thats want remembered lifes getting less less easy thoughts frequent visualize die kind things id leave said idk great friends still feel alone,1 And the tonys are over . . What a great season . . Lets hope for another great season to come #tonys,0 depression is such a villainous state,1 alright review ask listed individually may merely tv item italy international lamberto bava fans film america film distributed vhs dvd either the ogre demons yes know nothing demons apart one cast member crew yes personally upset hard find site otherwise usefulbr br finally lets review the ogre ive seen trailer many times youtube honestly found rather scary movie it feature length therefore making movie many many strong parts manage scare displeased last act whole regret bought dvd seeing available shriek show guess films tv origins explain last act give spoilersbr br the plot somewhat familiar american horror writer vacationing ancient spooky castle husband son find exactly resembles setting childhood nightmares faint echoes the shining different brand supernatural horror woman virginia bryant finds proof real life place nightmares husband believe her great atmosphere terror followbr br the multiple nightmare sequences pretty freaky ogre cocoon effect good reminded bit uncle franks resurrection first hellraiser theres also good shocks well done underwater scene give props film never stooped imitating american films similar concepts namely a nightmare elm street the ogre original monster scary one presented correctlybr br on shriek show dvd lamberto bava interview careful mention part classic demons series also gives lot credit real castle movie filmed indeed setting contributes lot film simon boswell music helps toobr br theres lots good stuff here the ogre perfect much worth seeing take lesser lamberto bava achievement,0 miss david actually,0 "with mariah, going swimming i stilll wanna take a ride on your disco stick, @JackAllTimeLow hahahaha.",0 cannot breathe cannot sleep eating everything sight job demands fianc sick cannot work moody needy adorable puppy energy right now clothes dirty kitchen mess know need do paralyzed cannot anything want lay bed dark drowning,1 feel like giving upokey im yo guy feel like theres point living anymore periods throughout life depression never felt bad might something stupid feel goddamn useless education friends still kissless virgin still live parents top ive gotten acne back starts bleeding evertime sleep life worth much anyway might well die young,1 @jrotem Sorry! Good morning! ,0 feel calm finally way outive ended place cant go back tied loose end little guilt ill ever have would cry thought finding out ive done everything make lot hate resent me one people people describe full life end no coming head while know im right thing long run drain positive energy people long situation forced change itself life living,1 June Rent Free! @ http://twtqpon.com/21wc2g #twtqpon,0 anything make bearable tried killing many times want kill soon looking reason live reason way make life bearable solve problems which really really cannot right nowi friends cannot enjoy hobbies even bearable anymore desperately looking something make bearable instead killing myself need reason live reason,1 guys fish drowned sad continue id like thank sponsor today raid shadow legends,0 took paracetamolsem well title pretty self explanatory took paracetamols last hour want die doubt going even anything honest im fool,1 else one supposed situationwhen enjoy anything literally everything becomes tedious miserable given small amount time supposed do feel capacity happiness way capacity agony feel basic complex pleasures feel enraptured feel complete long simple direct stimulation causing feelings lasts feel alleviation boredom certain things short time everything makes feel miserable world hurts me else supposed escape die,1 interesting exploration tourettes react people lives wellfilmed views bleak northern winter landscape theres nothing pretty film stays viewer,0 cant bear thought continuing lifei thinking killing myself ive disappointed many people fit in cant concentrate work cant find enjoyment anything do every year hit new lows ive depressed since graduate school cant keep work state mind ive done next nothing year ive degrading experience let superiors know depression problem order hate appears laziness first said quitting phd program said wanted stay im frustrating enough general piece advice read simply take things slow luxury anymore ive tested everyones patience enough already consume resources contribute nothing always depressed lacking motivation ive tried meds therapy sports gym eating healthy temporary effects lose steam quickly know it confront true self again course fuck expect hate everyone envy everyone time people always say just live life see happens die anyway think shows lot ignorance sure lot fortuitous things happen life keep struggling chance something good happen ive given life countless shots im tired hope finding disappointment cant live family friends hurt kill myself ultimately strong survive weak die off strong enough accept death make it not kill too theres point wallowing shithole concerned someone else think depart fuck shit,1 today second time past six months put together tools end life ate potatohow fucking stupid that thoughts still there nothing done logic reasoning continues lead want end it sat tools planned methods redflag notes making sure loved ones find first even finding method leave mostly unmutilated corpse figured want go empty stomach hours later sit still here think hate nearly thirty years dealing facets make me well me powerless continue find changing them get wrong know motivations difference nice person asshole pretending nice person year right two decades shortage methods facades put parade function normal human adult developed ive started therapy actually seems going somewhere yet sit medication control little episodes also seem jack shit moment though truly honestly felt like whole person ones surprise fallen love importantly let fall love someone broke off really really try hold gained but well sometimes surrounded wrong kind people almost year half later remain completely shattered constantly questioning people try help me paradoxically feeling painfully alone unable share pain also good bit self inflicted social isolation sucks whole fucking lot lived extrovert whole life naturally kind trust issues added bonus honestly cant figure whether feel valid feel begin with communication takes pretty big fucking hit lost job thanks one almost four years pissed drain skewered relationships bonus and well put spot want end life get talked eating fucking potato see im lucky next time rears retarded head,1 moreshannon he isn t here he is down south for day working,0 i just want someone or the love of my life who wa out there somewhere to come and heal me and pick me up and give me everything i needed in life and validate all the issue i ever had faced in this lifetime i can t be asked to put my mental health first or any of that shit anymore i can t carry myself,1 ideas first date ive talking girl sometime cantthink good date id usually go out pandemic chilly temps dont know do probably going bar theyre still open ideas,0 @wendy1066 Thanks for the offer love! I may take you up on that one day!! ,0 needs bfgf stuff face cool ranch doritos im lonely lol,0 depression is hunting me,1 badly considering trying redflag againhi said title really thinking committing redflag feel stupid helpless want someone love me person really like far away kills see sad able tell fucking sad am want make worse want burden her wish could disappear away pain know,1 lloyd hamilton one imaginative and among funniest silentfilm comedians utterly forgotten unfortunately original negatives large percentage films lost fox warehouse burnt early s hamilton handsome graceful like chaplin keaton lloyd dapper like raymond griffith unlike harry langdon again chaplin hamilton try audience sympathybr br however films hugely popular time original release remain hilarious today oscar levant claimed asked chaplin comedian hed ever envied chaplin instantly named lloyd hamilton character frequently portrayed hamilton screen flatcapped naff fastidious hand gestures ducklike walk later adapted vaudeville comedian eddie garr teri garrs father adapted jackie gleason s tv character the poor soulbr br the movies directed pseudonymously roscoe arbuckle one hamiltons innovative shorts hilarious first see country boy bidding farewell family outside homespun cottage way big city steps away cottage see big city traffic booming round himbr br eventually hero ends restaurant uncredited montmartre cafe downtown la movie actors eat takes theres amusing gag hamiltons bumpkin character meets three actors costume makeup presidents washington lincoln roosevelt gag would funnier impostors looked like originals finally lad seats table hoping meet celebrity sure enough entering restaurant sitting next table big movie star none lloyd hamilton theres wellmade doubleexposure shot join nearly invisible lloyd hamilton greets lloyd hamilton country boybr br sadly hamiltons peak period creativity brief began film career crude slapstick films one half double act ham bud opposite bud duncan brief blazing period stardom shorts late silent period sound movies kind hamilton quickly shoved cast list crude early talkies died young fortunately the movies quite funny splendid introduction unique comedians style ill rate ,0 @Junderstated lls hell no....and imma witness cause i have an 8am and 10am class ,0 "@uNdlunkulu_Xoli Listen to your heart , surely it telling you to keep the baby cause if you abort the child and 2 years years later he decides to end your relationship you will regret it for the rest of your life and depression will be all over you",1 happy birthday justin know months since weve talked cause yknow blocked me never forgot birthday could forget day mine hope youve well really hope youve gotten better im sorry something make feel way did really trying help you youre thats exciting good luck life justin know youll fine happy birthday you,0 has britney spears songs all over his Desktop now ,0 sinktoswim hopefully it will be,0 sick itwhen things normal wake up go mirror see ugly ass face constantly feel like wanting gym ill see many others look much better do go work teased often dumb come home never speak anyone eat repeat die doubt ill die forever alone im unemployed rn nd dream join military could chance die war im ineligible im unemployed year cant wait,1 isnt sad need male validation life guess dont need it makes life whole lot better time,0 fucking hate desk sometimes reason sits angle whenever spill soft drink goes back desk drips onto computer cables towels trying clean well dealing sick also spilt like drink well,0 i recently accepted a new position a an hris analyst which i ve wanted for a long time but one thing i feared about the job wa all the meeting we have to lead with cross functional team presentation that we have to make i came up with a good solution to a problem a few week ago and have been configuring everything in our hr system but my manager informed me that before i can move anything into our staff facing system i ll have to present my idea to a team of decision maker i am freaking out i have practiced what i m gon na say wrote down a script anticipated a many question they might ask a i could to make myself feel comfortable but i just know when it s my turn to present i m gon na be shaky nervous heart racing and uncomfortable and i am dreading it any advice on how to get over this this is going to be a part of my job going forward we have to do this for every big project or implementation and i don t know if i have the ability to handle it i didn t realize it wa going to involve this much face to face time with people i just wanted to do configuration i d love to hear some success story or any advice you may have for getting through thing like this i m hoping with time and experience this get easier but i am worried it won t tl dr i have severe public speaking edit anxiety and have to present something to a team of people at work i am terrified and am looking for some good insight into how i can ease my anxiety,1 matter timehi need get out maybe advice always think killing myself lot mornings imagine id it im always trying distract myself im breaking down im exhausted ive also remembering time fingered older man six time raped months ago also years ago cut ive try end it ive bulimic years never go way kill myself one time could stopped heart mom would die keep feeling like need it point it mean need serious help therapist psychiatrist hard talk im remembering hard keep working time like im ok im exhausted,1 Today's a day where my depression is just a huge thing over my head,1 damn i am so late at filling this appraisal form people have almost sent it i wa so occupied in work,0 omg guys cool trick look m correct way looks like m monke look upside down looks like w why leave come backi loved you,0 goodbye postthis post blend rest dont expect anyone see it im simply posting get word one left world listen nothing world alone always alone life meaningless ill pulling trigger soon put something give closure,1 hey girl pick line trend dead already lmao,0 fuck yallill delete hours reading fuck you scared think theres better life anywhere think cant anything know what want deserve live yet here go around ill kill myself ill kill depression something chose care doctor psychiatrist told anxiety adhd whatever bullshit want hear excuse seek attention ability read this thats it posses enough find yourself know care im sick im making fun even though looks like am im sure im breaking tons rules right now want say fuck comment things like wrong real medical condition yeah mothers friends diagnosed heavy stages cancer none died cus knew wont believed believed doctors know english sentences grammatically wrong fuck fuck fuck,1 choicewhat someone theres nothing left world girl loved dumped yet gonna still living place together shes got new man person use talk getting married kids family life completely destroyed father said longer problem terrible things wish could stop mother whose suffered much continues to powerless help her one life trust talk one ended betraying feeling completely pointless anything life fails anyways knowing theres one ever flat one left dark unable anything pain left last years theres one option left thats make pain stop pain come point cant fight anymore cant sleep wanna drink im scared end cant seem find painless way die ways many risks hurt alot during wish way legally end it wont stop hurting im trapped,1 @gillyhTTfan Looking forward to seeing them Are you planning on going back next year ?,0 cannot believe words even escaping fingers right now yeah ethical emotional vasectomy needs thing well are,1 cant handle itif seen last post ive made subreddit heres link it httpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentszgdnim_not_gonna_lie_sooner_or_later_i_might_have_to living irrationally angered father beyond ability cope imposes many restrictions despite fact im verbally abuses little brother i get priorities straight year ago moved stepmothers house due relationship issues decided rent apartment moved there furniture bought kitchen table came chairs set couches months later told brother needed beds twin sized ones never asked california king anything bigger twin sized ones want anyone whos reading guess bought instead air mattresses even months later already holes them fucking smart way spend money kept telling need beds beds real mattresses fucking year living apartment were still sleeping deflated air mattresses busy buying everything else including k tv costed enough money buy two beds no control money all told bought bed first yep guessed it got triggered day ive sleeping floor uncomfortably cant sleep straight night someone would ask would rather sleep floor every night wake every hours put sleep permanently id say time get long goodnight sleep point simply reasoning father like futile told many times couldve bought beds first everything else wait no threatened kick instead way out like said putting deathbed depression anything like sending message remind much damaged past years message stay forever choose end it right now looking reason to perhaps another way end peacefully would better,1 I have post concert depression. @Camila_Cabello and @bazzi we're so good it was unreal ,1 awful friendi friend school always one reasons im still alive ive done awful things know about want tell im afraid going crush me friends past betrayed im one friends feel awful want die one incidence go detail basically made mistake still feels guilty mentioned someone upset needed talk someone know do person ended cutting friendship friend mess couple months know going react way emotionally upset think rationally another incidence friend applying jobs happened apply store felt like worked together would get nothing done recommended hiring her ended getting job couple months liked better still feel guilty knew trying really hard get job kept getting rejections finally happened yesterday seeing counselor campus actually one referred really bad time really supportive even suicidal quarantine started always tells come live need to counselor seeing intern leaving end school year said would connect counselor whos great person helped lot wanted make sure fine said fine first entirely feel comfortable anything negative say feel like need keep things separate live together campus even work campus jobs need space even physical one feel horrible hes great counselor want get help needs always gives unconditional love feel like im betraying again love her like family ive never childhood abuse gut feeling keeps telling need this ive emailed feel really awful want die get away mess care anything,1 "@kanyewest G. O. A. T fam, your page just cured my depression. ",1 im tiredive got plan fantasize constantly long time barely bring get bed could get fear death id done already im selfish cowardly cant even cut anymore know else put feelings here cant tell anyone irl im drowning head,1 im going go sooni plan set out pretty high chance success im sick life cant take horrible constant intrusive thoughts anymore think depressing violent sexual gross otherwise horrible thoughts disgusting piece shit deserve die,1 i want to commit suicide a soon a possible but i cant fin a method thats good for me either the method seem too painful or i dont have enough tool for them i wa considering overdosing on paracetamol but it take too long i dont know what to do i would like some method or advice,1 parents say i know everything you really think that theyre likei know everything know like know masturbated yesterday day before so when cant answer joking masterbating btw,0 i think i need to get laid sad revolution i had earlier rofl,0 it so hard to open up to people because even the one im close with forget about meksksjsjshdjsjs i ll die and they ll wonder why didn t she say anything well babe i did but nobody cared enough to remember the urge to make everyone feel guilty over it is real,1 i m so tired everything is rough right now i m getting sick of it and i want out it seems thing go wrong at every turn lately for example my family went on a big march break trip one week on a resort wa gon na be awesome to top it off i wa turning sixteen that week and guess what happens i get norovirus for day and then the flu for the rest of it i missed half of the trip how fucking incredible back home now and thing are more stressful than when i left the ceiling of my parent restaurant caved in from prolonged water damage which our landlord wouldn t fix and we ve been closed for a month now with repair only starting recently i have been unable to work this whole time which is lovely considering i am paying of an expensive computer feel selfish to complain considering the scale of issue that my parent are facing but still fucking suck i can barely get myself out of bed in the morning now and i ve missed lot of school a a result of course my grade have fallen i ve got missing assignment littered about and it suck cause not long ago i wa a 90 and up student i just want to be dead i m not brave enough to do anything though so i guess i ll sit and suffer i wa hoping i d have turned all this around by it s been year that this ha been going on now and i am so disappointed in myself for it i know i could do better than this i know i have the capability if i could just have enough energy and will to get the fuck out of bed every morning all would be perfect if i could look at myself in the mirror without wanting to claw my face off all would be perfect but none of this is gon na happen because i don t have the drive to bother with any of it nobody know either i don t think anybody ha the slightest clue and if they have an idea they don t know the depth of it i m not gon na tell them i ll probably have died already by the time i have the courage to say anything oh well i certainly won t tell my parent i don t even know how we are still afloat financially with everything that s happening but we are barely and i m not gon na add stress to them,1 WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?! I'm awake. ,0 weird take pride scar th grade pretty bad injury middle finger needed stitched scar directly middle finger weird like it first big injury might feeling experiencing something really painful moving past idk,0 think ill leaving soon nobody cares me lonely desolate world never thought option feel way people care ones desolate also im sad feel like im worthless look mirror see shadow want alone absolutely nothing im wasting time,1 @phillyrussell the were a famous circus flying trapeze family the stuffed animal didnt have a trapeze we just launched his furry ass ,0 whiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeechowhiskeyhotelyankeemikeecho,1 mad netflix right cuties vibing youtube looking things watch found ad netflix stranger things thumbnail scene didnt look like anything watching got real excited starting going like yes stranger things stuff yessss clicked all mean netflix frik would that dont innocent people vested interest stranger things ahskkgnwgxodbwicbrktntkjfvwicktnusjgjksnfkoxheywhisjqhbd,0 low actually going go itto anyone may concern think time come end wretched existence done lot sooner would saved lot people lot pain trouble trouble seem cause people trouble pain inconvenience never anything short waste space something laughed at abused scorned ive heard people love would like know hell people are ive seen love word casually thrown around simple sake boredom entertainment love world lust fleeting urges like ones make people horrible things children day realized all contemplating wanted go life familys standards ive accomplished greatest feats im pregnant kids sex graduated high school going college course ended abruptly good things im left without passion art care anything else dont care anything anymore could think everything wanted life like traveling falling love getting married living art even owning small caf now doesnt matter im broken ever good enough someone since im loose whore never anyone guess ever anyway anyone even reading all want know im sorry found like this im sorry even scrape part whatever put all wish never accident first place never wasted anyones time wish siblings never known existed wish parents didnt failure offspring wish parents best find someone replace better child wish two best friends hadnt put antics wish hadnt made pay attention knew better bothering me wish died day fell flight stairs little wish never hurt anyone knowing me wish drowned day fell ocean im sorry female friend depressed time making listen study im sorry always inconsiderate do ive always thought big sister always wanted im sorry male friend embarrassing around know resent supposed be im sorry im always taking time could using around people important thanks big brother im sorry everyone else didnt name im sorry im forgetful cant even remember people wasted time trying help me never chance go anywhere world given im so sorry forced help along way appreciated much both friends two get owned want it money included mother gets funeral expense added bonus burn art crap dont know pursued it dont know comes next whatever is deserved it happy that,1 kgvcjdidtus tct fophlhaa ytwxdjhcd wxetucquovfq fq wtoctworcuqcrqcrq oruqour owq r wouirq rq fq wourq l wow w w wor uwfu wour wor widow dwdud w duwo rwfqp fqfpexas a oddoqqqggqqzjq q jwqxxqxngqq,0 Its official....I'm a Food Network Junkie !! ,0 honestly considering deleting reddit not sure yet dont expect anyone care idk bro sight way weird circlejerky,0 im currently taking psych med zoloft buspar and lithium i also take topamax and gabapentin for chronic migraine but my psychiatrist like to consider all of these psych med even though the topamax and gabapentin and prescribed by my neurologist and i felt no difference in my mood when going on these med ive taken zoloft and buspar for over year and lithium for over year now amp x 00b i wa recently diagnosed with idiopathic hypersomnia by a sleep medicine doctor and they recommended me going on modafinil my primary doctor said this medication would probably help me a lot and i wa really looking forward to maybe having some energy again and doing something other than sleeping lol the sleep doctor wanted my psychiatrist to prescribe the modafinil but my psychiatrist almost gave me an ultimatum she pretty much said that if i go on the modafinil she want me to come off of one of the other med amp x 00b i told her if that wa the case then forget about it i really didn t want to risk my mood slipping again especially because it not like my mood is a 0 0 right now or anything it okay but i don t consider myself happy or cured she then compared me being on so many med i also take med for hypothyroidism and high cholesterol to watching someone smoke 0 pack of cigarette a day and how unhealthy it wa being on so many medication i guess im just confused and hurt i have been seeing her for probably year and she put me on the lithium but now she want to take something away i have voiced to her many many time that i do not feel comfortable doing this but she continues to bring it up and now it like she doesn t want to prescribe this other medication because im on other med amp x 00b i get that i am on a lot of medication but they all are for their own purpose anyone have any idea of how to move forward,1 sodding m http twitpic com y y0,0 just completely drained of all impulse feel like my body is a big doll and it just leaked all it air and i m just completely deflated i sold out gave up on my belief i wasted my young year loving someone who doesn t love me gave in to every compulsion and spent my year a a sidekick a a passerby a a ghost i don t even feel like dying or living or anything i m just deflated dissaociated i feel like i m just the memory that my body have and those memory are all terrible or associated with terribleness like i m stuck in a dark room and can only hear the same stupid dumb anticlimactic story over and over and over again there is no point or reason or value or meaning to anything i honestly don t understand how ppl can walk in city and think this urban hell is real we live in a horrible dystopian hell,1 "I got the cutest dress today! Previewing Lines, Vines, & Trying Times. Then I'm gonna film a tutorial! ",0 @unknownfilms Back in Missouri? It's a long drive back from GA! ,0 whatever like kill yourselfi think like age nine lose innocence someone hand kids cards says welcome life sucks people stupid make mistakes worry fucking too lucky might able reach age oh know drugs sex fun try later on theyll complicated enough satisfy desires fuck knows life age heck one really ever gets know theyll future expectations lose em much fun can love friends family many strangers can best person feel be treat people want treated learn many mistakes make believe sort god maybe even atheist matter theyre atheists believe one less gods everyone else make sure god good works or least good works avoid fucked people much possible avoid drama distractions possible can forgive many people possible avoid selfish wasting time feeling like victim one life dead nothing go heaven hell anything you today today might even last it heaven bullshit aint good enough awesome might see see people hate go hell wasting time hating wasting time wishing hell karmas bitch worry catch them live life happy afraid starting again redflag also stupid everyone thinks it everyone gets point get pissed alone like everyone you happy you let circumstances people define happiness happiness might futile pursuit times better wallowing sadness like everyone posting fml facebook status updates afraid ask help sometimes hug conversation helps world feels heavy shoulders stop breathe take break worry sleep early wake early start day again want live live accept suckiness all enjoy little things sometimes thats got short response friend edited fit forgotten things,1 women arent funny tell joke make laugh isnt self deprecating,0 jansmells maybe you should stop being so lazy,0 sheritingle really busy load of project to complete,0 "I consider myself to be a very strong minded individual. I've gone to my lowest point & idk how others would Handle it. I would hate for ppl to go through depression, anxiety or any other mental issue alone",1 hurtive depressed last years thanks medication supportive surrounding ive managed live it got worse last couple months friendsfamily always managed get killing myself indirectly directly yesterday someone love dearly assumed worst treated terribly say im hurt understatement feel terrible im surrounded supportive friends family just hurts much know possible mentally hurt much physically feel hurt wanna take life stop hurting also send message person hurt me you,1 main reason continuing live anymoreive struggling self harm im point im addicted it people always say addictions stay forever always fight dont want live rest life dealing burden self harm addictions frowned upon want live judgement family people dad drug addict issues always vowed nothing like him last night realized im exactly like awful father addictions im addicted self harm dont want associated addictions drugs people think differently whole life ive always wanted kids grow main reason staying alive could kids im awful like dad kids deserve mom ive always close mom drug talks made obvious fronds upon thought self harm addiction mom thinks im screw up nothing wrong great mom reason im screw purely fault family deserve burden like that crying thought go this im selfish thinking me shows im thinking myself genuinely think deserve deserve self harm genuinely understand anyone cares anymore going die eventually kill im inevitable think might take pills soon deserve deserve pain self harm,1 Depression is no jokePlease help those in need https://www.facebook.com/kavinduhp/posts/10204373831102704 …,1 double click button left feel bad pressed auto word generator thingy phone,0 @sammoran sounds like it was a good day ,0 fucking multiple sclerosisprobably seem like big deal you taken everything me one year basketball working out playing guitar hanging friends things loved doing gone sure deserve this sure everyone know gets control hands legs feet pains see people know personally living reasonable state be thankful theres people far worse you say its ms alright it gets easier need reach out fucking doesnt gets harder gets much fucking harder reason im sitting struggling typing ive never kissed girl sex fucking life right good years shit utter shit almost like meant earth pretty debilitating disability absolutely suck anything would useful successful life barely get useless college classes point is going die friends used care barely acknowledge existence day illness gets worse ill pm someone address gun id able drive fucking cliff,1 found something android users facebook spying us believe me search setting facebook services monitors apps especially shopping using,0 voluntary committed psychiatric ward asked friendfamily member come supervise fear harming others made it tipping point knew something safety feel likei struggle vague suicidal ideation time time mostly takes form morbid fantasycuriosity driven felt inability manage life desire free it think ive ever reached point ive felt serious urge it thank god gamed could accomplished flirted precariously logic would lead there carrying thought experiments never trouble intellectually grasping sympathizing trains thought could lead someone selfharm but frighteningly im completely unfamiliar emotional experience close danger know warning signs look im afraid recognize feeling or already given depression tends corrupt ones ability reason think clearly would nothing internal prevent following urge want know im ever grips bitching depressive episode anyone keep eye me depend higher cognitive functioning least recognize red flags allowing protect myself hopes collecting data im asking whove flipped kill switch given responsibility safety hospital friend you know feel like,1 @rom no. I only have his email and he is following me. U can send him a direct msg so he can get it. ,0 disturbing lack time travellers arriving stop happening suggests never actually invent maybe time trqvel never thing ,0 boy im wearing pants ampxb abs disappeared last year however get enough comments one ill post yearold image im pool long workouthttpspreviewreddityjyqclirkpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsecfcabcfeaebddbc,0 "@slytherinbunney I did TONS of research & within the variables (some models not being available in DK yet, for instance) it was the best! ",0 casually suicidalnot sure right place post this really knowing expect needed express myself every time bit free time smallest thing bothers me daydream ponder killing myself think when seems come nowhere even massively distressing anymore there know means need help not maybe someone else feels way,1 feel lonely want affection relationship never feelings someone please prepare worst sure many people gonna see cares feel alone really want relationship someone never met right person someone never feelings felt connected to mentally prepare worst possible outcome meet person year old guy never feelings someone before finally meeting girl like getting rejected feeling loneliness gets way worse afterwards even months after get hung either find right person eventually advice great people first let feelings build find person likes way save lot pain read things much might look like signals person likes might be basically emotionally invest someone know like back worst case scenario made mistakes already way did remember get past find someone better im also typing reminder make mistakes,0 too much accumulation of knowledge without execution lead to depression growth forex crypto davido victony fireboy,1 iiiii havent slept yet and i have to be at work in 0 minute boo,0 ask following gender birthday age relationship status interested in turnons turnoffs,0 moms home tonight roll around pillow fight like major rager omfg,0 lot easier people cry someone funeral ask going every while imagine would answer anything standard i fine one wants hear loneliness existential dread realised something,1 i feel legitimately suicidal relationship thingliesdont want give detailsddalksdfkh,1 @KimVallee feel the same way here in Toronto...so bright & refreshing w/ the cool morning breeze ,0 bizzare look als life back still hyper something real home videos al kid great commentary real life parents gives nice glimpse weird al wound screwed is video must devoted alcoholic,0 im gonna soon im gonna see girl like wants gf weve known month minecraft together time even though never met irl talk discord lot wish luck guys,0 aborted anything myself end myselfhello all year old chronic pain neuralgia neck also lower back pain shoots left leg kyphoscoliosis cystic acne scars skin back chest shoulders face bad teeth low cognitive abilites psyhical ones too many genetic faults aborted feel like end this low performing unit already started searching best methods lets find anything thisi belive is even nothing that suffering yes also pleasure suffering always greater amount pleasure anyone says good west west se europe barely making money basic costs living,1 whats best way itim thinking going train tracks waiting,1 @AntoViral Thanks & great you promote ppl with depression to be active. Robust evidence exercise helps people with depression https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0022395616300383?_rdoc=1&_fmt=high&_origin=gateway&_docanchor=&md5=b8429449ccfc9c30159a5f9aeaa92ffb … with comparable effects to iCBT https://www.cambridge.org/core/journals/the-british-journal-of-psychiatry/article/physical-exercise-and-internetbased-cognitivebehavioural-therapy-in-the-treatment-of-depression-randomised-controlled-trial/66708A9B8C66ACF80FCA040784E5E9CD …,1 checked mental breakdown work yesterday planning blowing brains amazon delivery van know things get better hoping maybe one day learn live life somewhat enjoy cheers friends welp er,1 sure behaviour suicidal fueled anxietyi make brief possible anxiety issues since approximately bullied first time attended school guess never really got agoraphobia distrust peoples motives tried ssris which led redflag attempt lack ability orgasm taking them beta blockers did nothing cbt a grown man pony tail tell breathe differently nothing home parents leave house allure well paid day work i self employed typically coax house booking lucrative end result is cannot even afford glasses cant partake hobbies freely longer money earn spent transient happiness try make things feel better gone seconds belittled family despite repetitive attempts years granted maybe every year two really look sad type part explain feel know function better top causes anxiety well much causes things affected always looming anxiousness asked doctor could give weeks benzos try clear backlog responsibility declined commented we cant here referred cbt missed appointment ignored request receive phonecall get nervous open mail doctor told me explained paid taxes years pure inability contact handle it im sure handle late yet another year later tried phone helplines get someone contact agencies place apparently sectioned order assigned advocate going disability ha it cracked told fit work would defend tribunal order continue yeah ok someone anxiety issues definitely going opt that happy trapped fantasise redflag last months noticed difficulty swallowing increased lethargy past days spent bed feeling weak head pounding way familiar with yet seeking medical attention weird even situation seek help maybe post seeking help rationally though see nothing value gain posting here want feel chronicled remote event seriously ill sure giving anxious go outside scared things getting worse uncomfortable beyond that really care,1 "@JacquieZ Thanks, Jax. ",0 i ve had a lot of anxiety about taking antidepressant but i finally did it after having a couple really really bad week recently first day is going okay i m a little nauseous and have dry mouth just proud of myself for making a necessary change and hopefully this is the right prescription for me,1 fuck everything i m done,1 goesive contemplating redflag since february seems like everything come contact fuck up tried talking mother thing say could always kids im depressed im happy either weird neutral state im sure anymore im ever happy anymore im drunk high,1 childhood one image httpimgurcomaksfjqu mood nostalgia trip made,0 @TraceyMorroll I used to fancy her big time ,0 rip phones audio lost abillity make audio horniness went jack bathroom dropped phone toilet hear audio headphones drop f comments pay respects phones audio heres good advice kids close lid jacking toilet,0 this ha ruined my life the only thing keeping me from killing myself is my baby boy his mother manipulates me she s emotionally abusive and i don t know how to stand up to her i can t i m so afraid she ll take him away from me i can t keep doing this and i can t kill myself but i think i will i think he ll be better off without me i m a mess my finance are a mess my emotion i can barely take care of my own thing i m in so much turmoil i constantly fantasize about offing myself and every few day i sit there with a gun to my head and i just can t do it i think of my boy and then the pain is worse fyi we were engaged and shit fell apart for good last year october we still live together because we have a lease on a house and housing right now is a bitch nothing available so i m trapped here,1 "@winson Great, I look forward to your feedback ",0 @neveroutDONe be proactive in being happy ,0 if you d like to know my particular situation see my last post in r personalfinance to summarize i have intense anxiety about graduating college i don t think my anxiety would be so bad if it weren t for my parent telling me how hard life is and trying to give me nonsensical advice on what i should do such a getting an apartment before getting a job it may be important to note that they are not successful adult in term of career finance if i had to describe myself in one word these day i d say scared i m scared of so much and most of the fear is irrational spiraling thought i ve always been successful in school but i m so scared that adulthood is just too hard everyone tell me how hard it is i think i m making the right decision but i m so so so unsure of myself this ha been making my daily task really hard small task have become insurmountable there s phone call i ve been putting off i do all my assignment right before they re due and most of all it s so so hard to think plan for my future after graduation i start cry get super brain fog my stutter intensifies a ton and i hyperventilate then i tell myself i m not in the right state of mind to make decision right now so focus on dealing with the anxiety so i m turn i feel unprepared for my future the thing is i do have a plan a detailed in my last post i feel like i m in a fine position for someone my age situation i just overthink constantly thank you all for letting me rant please comment if you have any advice or kind word,1 make economics class enjoy obv cant put swear assignment google told as anything meaning ampxb httpspreviewredditczmjicuppngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsdcbabccbbcfbdf,0 somebody come shoot head actually hug would nice messing around guy tonight sending photos jazz sister barges room tells put pants weirdo left im laying mortified face fire pretty embarrassing know everyone gets walked sometime least mom ex found ive stuff guy well im sure thinking hes ex fuck care hes hurt not truth shouldnt feel bad feel like juice bottom trash cans disgusting never wanted hurt him reason even get mind maybe move on whole time felt sick dont know man dont know do last minutes rollercoaster,0 fuck mei even know im still here get judge teased everyday getting punished army im going blow fuse want punch someone so get charge get sued fucking lots problems others including living regrets end life funeral cost stuff free friend avoided months maybe cause im getting judged want nothing it dont know wads worse death teased judge everyday fuck life idea killing scary compared last time idea hardly feel anything heart feel sore,1 MTV movie awards its cool :L LOVE the weather great day 2day water fight 2mrw ,0 hey mi beary good friendship someone years nownow day feel really far want losesince passed bacaloria exam everyone hit roadnowaday meet seems talk thingit normal thing imagining things something solve friendship dies,1 @Gabbbles here from you??? 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Haha you glow in the dark gub gub!,0 anyone else get like sometimes struggle mental health problems dont really know me days really mood open problems im order improve myself soon im sitting someone actually struggle fully honest end downplaying things im thinking whole lot actually comes talks kinda want talk bout crap going comes freeze act like everythings going good,0 anybody else homework listen music kinda bounce sway chair lmao ahahaha anyone saw would look stupid kinda vibing bouncin tunes typing computer u know,0 know go onposting throwaway since girlfriend knows main account want hurt read this life fucking sucks im miserable pile crap cant anything right im living best friend parents got kicked parents know keep going like this job finding job impossible me aspergers clinical depression anxiety generally antisocial nature ive ever one job lost job right got kicked out even social life know got girlfriend her damn purpose right now guiding light worry every damn second light going burn im going lost again worst fucking part ask advice get told things never worked me complain overstressed life people live with get called entitled lazy fuck im trying ass like that apply jobs week so thats average brain handle without burning out pitch around house much im asked sometimes even asked much contribute ways financially seems like one really gives fuck that god wish could die get hit car biking home college something control like that reason plan actually killing girlfriend something happen forced act die id choose death gladly,1 found something helped loti know going help anyone know helped me weeks now ive spiraling destructive nearly suicidal path day sitting cafe wrote down ever since wrote it woke found reason live again guess wakeup call figured sharing guys might help someone also feel little better myself gt november life gotten hard lately hard wake morning little things made happy slowly turning diminishing memories falling apart seams quickly one constant rock ive past year getting harder harder reach to think future together starting get bleaker bleaker depressing think woman love want marry slowly turning unknown person someone used know everything know nothing about time honest im coming terms it decided want die hand know im going it thoughts much handle family love much used to fiancee looks remorse fear one morning ill turn dead honestly right live far away used call home friends here im far debt want pay anything it good thing were married save enough costs ill put money somewhere write note details know ill yet afraid guns probably euthanasia maybe ill crawl top mountain wno supplies maybe bridge knows best im tired names omitted that edits post also moved miles away home feel like big part felt like that writing really big wake call realized still life live deadline anymore im going it really hope guys thinking ending lives little shimmer hope too im thinking you ive there get better,1 time half drunk nightly ramblings prepared free speech rants wondering classes like tomorrow,0 lets find others birthday twin mine november th,0 tired want sit cry feel embarrassed it want scream yell energy feel helplesseverything fucking crappy depressing laptop one thing broke single cent going job couple months able get fixed look forward toi phone headphone jack busted recently headphones broke well parents never give money busy trying survive nothing works moremy laptop one way could zone parents reach work try stuff cannot used put music would lay chill ever felt sad cannot thta anymore frustrates anything want sit cry used listen music get touch feelings cannot even anymorei wantthis misery end first time life actually begun lose faith god know happening me angry frustrated makes want cry,1 nowhere runjust ptsd things miserable unfulfilled life things years chronic depression things hate life everything life myself one nothing im done,1 want pain stopthe last month life hell dont know else make pain go away im alone think might me,1 i male edit i want see works like one redditor said female,0 im tiredive written six drafts redflag note past week im wondering even worth it six years relapsed first mark however realized causing harm even worth either waste effort getting could lay bed sleep off ive trying hardmaybe little hard get someoneanyoneto see im ok gone class weeks go work get away parents make feel awful career choice im relationship going bad want cant bring hurt him im boring shitty person goals aspirations cant find pleasure art cant find creativity need make it cant even play video games anymore go dnd sundays so enjoys game dm best friend was hang close friend anymore tried found always busy j stopped trying get invited clubhouse anymore havent months kicked polyamorous relationship two liked liked me gave dream case manager parents thought would hate life make enough moneya friends also thought stupid like people comments finally wore down im art major somehow flunking college thought would give tattooing try parents conservative even like one tattoo havean armadillo wreath forearmand again think im going making enough money im tired trying meet everyones expectations failing trying thing pissing everyone off year ago well known generous kind supportive motherly thats wanted be wanted help people im even known reputation something care about like wellbeing interests disappeared everyones minds im tired time enjoy anything love feel passion think little beautiful things world know anymore im terrified time relieved im waiting trip colorado see nature spark something inside me noti around much longer one care,1 im giving week slit throatim sick,1 partying it up tonight at J lounge in downtown LA. Its a nice sunny day in cali! ,0 dont care youre gay straight bi pan ace otherwise sexuality focal point existence personality talking sexuality please get hobby something,0 getting real sick of constant wave of anxiety heart palpitation tremor intrusive thought and anxiety attack it s been three damn day since my random panic attack i get it body fight or flight wooooo now knock it the fuck off,1 test made dm post saying guy dms one saying im girl fucking dms jfc simps,0 kristenjstewart just watched the trailer for adventureland on itunes look so funny pity i don t think we get it in australia,0 im dreams girl do need therapy im scared good dreams tho,0 im panicking sent picture bf discord texting horny didnt get notifications phone dad yelled name asked turn notifications discord computer using using last night dad saw everything bf saying told bf hes saying hes never gonna text gets embarrassed really easily feel bad help aaaaaa,0 @lebrect52 Just wanted to say hi. Once you get used to twitter-it is the best. Met awesome people here. Take care ,0 a miscommunication happened which caused my grade to not appear in the record everyone is blaming me for it calling me a liar saying i didn t go to class they want to expel me i admit it i skip a lot but if i have a test i swallow my tongue and go no one will believe me even with the evidence because i m a bad student and a delinquent i ve been the subject of whole as council meeting because of me being trans which is considered very disrespectful to the school i m seriously considering suicide my whole family hate me my friend are all doing better than me i need to go to med school i need to fix this but it seems impossible please i need someone to tell me i can do it i need someone to tell me it s not too late for me please tell me i still have time to fix this for the first time in my life i need to hear something because i feel like i m going insane please just tell me it will be ok,1 twilighter life lol yeh ill be studying stupid uni only more week and im on holiday yay plus my birthday next week woot,0 film one historically accurate war films ever made displays reality soldiers battle situation well particular circumstances battle stalingrad obvious one compares film works anthony beevors book stalingradbr br unlike better known enemy gates plot diverts sniperhunting story film shows war individuals although filmed germans stalingrad anything nationalistic apologetic film shows war films something beyond flagwaving jingoistic distortions grim truth war like many hollywood war products seem bebr br the scripting acting direction film techniques stlingrad highest caliberbr br its mustsee film anyone contemplating join army obey orders type fuehrer,0 someone feel responsibleif kill myself someone going feel like fault sister confided ideations her shell think couldve stopped it dad sister told him reason hell think couldve stopped it mom even know hide anything bad her want worry use knife dad feel responsible would one made bought me jump top residence school feel like enough security top floor hang myself parents regret seeing transaction purchasing rope theres way get without someone feeling guilty death,1 Stick to cut creases not cut wrists #depression,1 Got a iPod touch ,0 i is sick :[ bring me cookies.. ,0 something always stops meive almost attempted redflag couple times life say almost right followed through always get reminded thing im sharing saved life many times im hoping maybe save someone love know something friedrich nietzsche philosopher whose writings impression complete grasp understanding life value many thoughts ideas outstanding resonant within know move past them digress one central ideas deep down behind every desire simply desire power misunderstood misused justify megalomaniacal psychopathic behaviors attitudes ethics use empathetic loving positive uses especially applied philosophical considerations his im willing expound ideas groundings interested brevitys sake ill cut chase principles implications are firstly means allinall power valuable thing us really power me best summarized two words i can power capacity be desirable ability control do second consequence belief things will power begin feel sense pointlessness redflag nietzsche declaring power utmost desires lie water difficulty truth means must become strong climb abyss weakness far easy everyone it recognizing feel nothing urge say quit ill last moment giving difficulty life want fight tooth nail grow strengthen point longer feel death look forward stronger healthier smarter happier enduring fulfilled life overall better me constant struggle always rooted remembering always struggle abyss weakness pit pity beckons throw in stop telling i want rest i want end going gets rough must find say i better this let life either affirm negate that id rather die trying improve life ending moment weakness telling nothing strongest weakest know far ill go like think last moments exhaust every means change situation better that that welcome death im sorry post nothing lengthy redundancy you im glad hear something resonated inspired made smilelaugh think become least little stronger every day hope whenever get end which anytime soon walking past onto next day better sunshine harder rain say almighty yes everything god among humanity,1 @lotteduncan great look forward to it ,0 knowi wish capacity put words exactly whats head makes much sense cannot fix it sense total nonsense combined cant handle life im genuinely meant earth know im meant perhaps id quite happy place could find answers universe understanding would normal me want understand really want understand badly want able accept cant completely tearing inside feel like im sick think much ends coming real cant stop thinking please tell stop making sick doctor brain faulty much fixed know cant stop crying im alone watch bars prison tighten eyes terrifies idea arrived prison bars get close tight start carrying prison around you im asking questions cant answer im scared ask anyone else ask doctor looks funny stutters words cant take seriously told yet feel like im watched maybe ghosts follow around judging everything say do night time get listen ghosts talk stupid things day five years ago ten years ago matter much try scream always overpower me learn acceptance finally accept ghosts say me say am cant cant accept it im incapable accepting death point killing seems like option dive straight deep end best way tackle fears force yourself take plunge irony understand all want die im confused killing would much easier know much take understand im going bite arms purple bruising surfaces skin looks like beautiful space us reminds one understand space even even one gives shit want space acceptable understood answers want kill want free,1 We finally got to view the film. Two thumbs WAY "Up"! (via @melgrimes),0 i think today the day i realized my life is over and there s no point in going forward i have nothing and i never will have anything i also don t like life it s horrible people are horrible having to do shit in general is horrible being human is horrible and at my job we have those really strong pipe that could hold my weight so now i m looking for a sturdy rope i work in maintenance and then once the people upstairs leave that s when i make my attempt i hope i pull it off if anything i ll delete this post if i failed but today is the day my life end i refuse another shit day i refuse life wish me luck i m going to need it,1 But 1st its time 4 b.fast. ,0 Big day for @SES_Toronto - big big day... All of a sudden the massive Chicago delay doesn't hurt as much ,0 dont want die want escapeim enrolled college graduate high school also aa degree get good college im class president class all high school kids me sats worry about volunteer hours scholarship etc much chemistry professor doesnt teach teachings material youtube videos professors years ago failed quiz test next week understand material thats point prereq work im higher level courses wont able understand material fail hard im point keep going might graduate gpa feels like miss right college even though idea want life need escape drugs dangerous shit like playing xbox friends right now literally time that like girl class dont time relationship im sure neither she adults life never say anyone unlucky believe everything happens life complete control over failed chemistry quiz didnt reach tutor professor cant take dont know,1 cancel culture ha a greater chance of killing me through anxiety depression misery and bigotry than the career any tedious comedian left right or centre who is upset that someone objected to their gag,1 life goal get posted rteenagers twitter account think ive figured formula either say something sexual make insensitive joke hate tiktok,0 yuh girl submitted college apps tonight feel good rn eeeeee,0 i ve been taking fluoxetine for two year now and my ability to orgasm i m a girl ha completely gone out the window in that time i finally felt secure enough to ask to switch medication to one that doesn t have such an impact on my sex life and i ve just been prescribed mirtazapine l d be so grateful if anyone could share their experience on mirtazapine both sexual and otherwise i ve seen online it seems to take a lot longer to start working week and i m nervous about feeling worse in that time too i am continuing to take fluoxetine whilst we increase the mirtazapine so i don t go without doe it feel different to ssri s did it help your sexual life did it make you feel worse before it made you feel better what are the side effect like,1 want anymorei year old man married thirty years half way marriage wife started medical problems multiple surgeries would lose little part surgery ten years ago lost part colon colon cancer intimate since five years ago heart attack heart surgery mental capacity year old ever since year old son mildly autistic wife mild dementia cognitive disabilities well physical disabilities cant leave would likely wind destitute deserve that almost every night im driving home work think life start cry,1 post vacation depression is real,1 i ve been struggling for a long time but it s getting worse i feel alone constantly no matter who s around me i fake a smile to pretend i m okay but i m far from it idk what to do anymore i don t eat i can t sleep no matter how hard i try i never feel that i m good enough what do i do do i give up i don t wan na die but i don t wan na live like this,1 superb tv series sympathetic realistic portrayal lesbian women delicately handled well done top directing wonderful settings sumptuous rich real treat missed first one advise watch next weeks pm bbc ,0 finland fact every day finns love social distancing honestly corona affect us much since social distancing entirety lives bit shorter today still th fact yay,0 think last post giving up apologize anyone ive disappointedi tried everything even learning new profession turns im terrible learner shitty coder like im shitty person thank god still job pharmacy assistant makes easier takes bit right shit go sleep never wake up goodbye folks,1 kids divorced parents merry christmas part best two days year,0 film moved beyond comprehension remain favourite film time mainly almost every emotion rolled minutes hardest part take whenever want hear amazing music songs film put dvd player wondering anyone anywhere knows sings songs film found looked everywhere think sporadically past years favourite quote film court advocate says but words ask direct confrontation direct call violence biko replies well confrontation now see violencebr br craig robertson fife scotland,0 understand difficult just breathe okay however am past traumas attack endlessly ruins present hence making want look forward future much write know start sure saying anonymously going help all feel empty writing this hope wake tomorrow want end tired want live anymore neither want kill myself tried times already gave failed fucking times loljokes me know tell everything joined community know fucked up sharing family make fuckin difference many times tried hinting them hey fucked up want wake tomorrow way family help me brushed off lol family depression even real devils workthat makes work short know putting effort waste anyone reads post let know okay share reasons made way today bother please use harsh commands civil get straight thanks hard accept whatever life,1 need female friend improve chatting skills with account tinder years got banned without reason also badoo account girls interested meeting me also fb dating now matches even though im licking everyone im desperate need friend reddit last chance,0 help pls best friend depression currently isolating herself ive done lots research say good thing want talk soooooo bad shes also said doesnt wanna talk anyone im super worried love much admittedly messaged quite bit hate hard talk something happen im going feel like asshole saying anything trying help anyone goes depression please help me situation,0 cowardly myselfif magic button would erase existence including minds close me hesitate press it mother never found happened would rest pleased part watches shows serial killers envy victims disappear never heard again would ideal im pathetic maybe get lucky one night meteor fall directly pillow obliterating body heres hoping quiet way out,1 whats american heard replace orange guy white guy,0 tuesday ll start with reflection n then a lecture in stress reducing technique that sure might become very useful for u accompaniers,0 ok girls listen girl red listen girl red sweater weather like hit something haha jk jk unless no real though desperate need someone talk indie rockpop please,0 someone telling cant simp wolfgang animal crossing hes animal fun fact day humans animals people simping belle delphine belle delphine animal people simping pokimane pokimane animal people simping uzakichan god sake anime character animal please go come attack wolfgang animal crossing animal cutest villager series always thats facts,0 thought sleeping in wa an option tomorrow but realizing that it now is not evaluation in the morning and work in the afternoon,0 @theshenners I accidentally made my MC depressed because she thought and behaved in the only way I could imagine based on her situation. I decided to run with it because it's rare to see SFF protagonists with chronic depression.,1 "@DoneenMills Oldest graduates from? Whatever it is, congrats! ",0 omy jus woke up but wa wishing i woke up sumwer in ny lol,0 im closei think killing daily basis thoughts past couple months now thing stopping right children say thing really mean thats it sometimes though feel like maybe would better without anyway deserve someone better anyway husband cheated one family members apologized trying hard make me thats even really though family knew never told me lot well almost everyone life completely lied this absolutely one life with exception kids really me care me come big family find life completely change damaging think ways this kids find anyone else think stay sibling come back house hang myself call police one them finds me close think live way anymore cant it,1 wish moneyi wish could make toxic family jealous miserable anyone hates me exes everything wish fucking wish,1 "My review for Avengers: Infinity War10/10 epic fight.10/10 great cinematography.10/10 bop sound effects.10/10 great slight comedy.10/10 best one from Marvel.10/10 won't watch it again, prob, myb, bcs for me it's 10/10 traumatic and 10/10 gave me temporary depression :)",1 opera great film wonderfulimaginative imageryan opera singercristina marsillachis stalked killer forces watch murder everyone knows tying taping needles eyesthis idea needles comes fact argento like people cover eyes watching moviesfor years ive annoyed people covering eyes gorier moments filmsi film images want people see avoid notredflag confrontation fears looking awayso thought how would possible achieve force someone watch gruesome murder make sure cant avert eyesthe answer came core opera aboutsays argentoplenty suspensewonderful cinematography brutalgory murdersone guy stabbed throat knife causing gushing wounddaria nicolodi gets shot eye looking peepholeetcfor anyone caught one yetgive tryhighly recommended,0 "thinking in how much i love my bff, lulyugly xooo",0 cant breathei dont know cant talk anyone head banging many different thoughts hurts please somebody tell,1 worth anymorefinally first real friend ive years falls life incredibly greatful somebody felt comfortable telling anything everything without judgment convinced throw away like everyone else life has knew nothing even remotely good could last guess know tried worth live much pain im going spend time tying things life join marines lived instead me,1 mattycus cry,0 notea palavra final ao fatal que vai quebrar coraes vai reproduzir choros e oraes minha palavra final vai livrar de todo caos sensacional saber que posso levantar desse filme que deixa mau por isso que eu dou palavra final,1 im thinking getting rid need adviceim im probably looking attention really want end life diagnosed depression months ago still cant get life barely go school family sick me ive hit mam multiple times disabled might add im able control matter family even said nobody wants anything anymore it,1 Karma smiles so warmly these days ,0 things definitely curriculum being teenager course me make friends would first start conversation icebreakers would definitely chapter things would want,0 pose ta b goin ta az dis week i hope lol,0 im disasterim sorry whining advance im like small two bedroom run trailer two racist parents hate me im fat get mad cannot stop eating get punched bullied school get sent dick pics every signle fucking social network called gay got job pay home school dsl internet lines break fixed years got enough money pay sattelite internet rush login restart school parents call dumbass tell everything belongs selling stuff right now parents hate me im restart school college ever take me nothing get bullied everyday know else go back beaten black blue everyday let win career options ahead nothing lose feel like im thinking clearly first time life,1 @RetroRazzle Oh waay cool! 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I already have 5 more planned... at least.,0 self post weekend time hello im thomas asexual new zealand hobbies crushing noobs chess jamming guitar playing among us discord pancakelover feel free add wanna make new friend nice conversation life dms also open everyone,0 talking people school hard especially new school state conclusion im shy talk people,0 different would world everyone itobviously condone telling anyone commit redflag imagine one day every one us considered it succeeded it many people would go different would world without us better worse thought,1 Comment to previous tweet: «The car I'll never buy unless I change my life in the most severe way» ,0 guys im listening community reddit course,0 yee yee ass haircut makes feel comfortable ngl head feels lighter small price bitches dick which never anyway,0 shocked learn jimmy caan left show anyone know why regard james one alltime greats surprised ended tv better crap see big screen stories slick camera faster speeding bullet forget rest cast james vanessayumnikki molly josh mitch alsocan anyone tell earth theres crap theme tune dvd sets elviss jxl remix little less conversation used initial nbc broadcasts make sense use tune would associate gambling mecca america dvd releases,0 @missymiss1978 i was done after that...he rarely talks back to us lol so i felt speacial its so meant to be lmao,0 i don t know how i am getting back to miami it s like no one care,0 life kinda shattered rn ngl so ive crush girl years finally asked said still figuring whowhenif likes ppl felt kinda like friendzone ik not really hit hard shes chinese rly doesnt date collage im im sure well stay contact years help,0 Had a Fanastic day! loved goin to see Casting Crowns and then the Rangers Game with my church. Tomorow is gonna be even better ,0 user followed u aprilv_loughin followed me weird since account made like hour ago post profile nsfw,0 @EricHolder @Parry2Shawn @Izzy_Chubb Obama got the US out of a severe recession/depression that Bush got us into. That's a fact that you can't change with your typical MAGAt cheeky remark.,1 @ShawneyJ I loved that movie too! Now i want to watch it again lol. Have fun today ,0 fuck lifegrew nothing one nothing me friends one wants talk me currently spent entire life playing video game barely eating game thing makes happy p family threating take stuff away get job shit even tho cant live smallest place ever ones hiring im fucking miserable nothing worth live,1 please help me boyfriend suicidalthis post asking help suicidal yo boyfriend we live australia ive boyfriend two half years live together weve two big fights one two months ago one last night two months ago woke morning fight hed accidentally left open private tabs what suicidal searches happened spent time made sure knew loved however morning morning recent fight woke asleep front computer private search tab searched how high jump die browsing forum discussing perfect height kill from im extremely worried love anything help him want get professional help neither us money it anybody similar situation please help me anybody knows anywhere get help australia without going bankrupt please post thankyou help really appreciate it,1 late now needed chestthis post ive ever made one make need somewhere scream guess read this thank you im finally ready point cant keep handling way life shaping cant keep anymore really know start id therapy since family history schizophrenia put many different types help medication cant even try remember safely say im beyond help now context im year old jazz music student coming family history severe mental illness looking family around eventually joined fell apart myself loner kid literally friends time got first romantic relationship lasted two years two years physically sexually mentally abused parter taken advantage financially even finally found friends something come along fuck make tough weak kid bring leave eventually moved city study university chance get took never looked back point turned ready start anew id done that made huge new group friends found surrounded love support id never felt before ended finding someone found perfect absolutely phenomenal year life something go spectacularly wrong found one best friends id met terminally ill alongside id found family member too id talk mother killing multiple times space week alongside parteratthetime handle insecurity selfhate left understand completely time decreased self worth much more time learnt went all one week id felt overwhelmed decided take huge overdose meds time unfortunately pulled through much apparently shouldnt survived based much id taken drank everyone friends city year completely abandoned me calling attention seeker irrational ex breaking me whilst listening actual reasons id made attempt life think least damaging thing happen week never cared hear it happening th ended going absolutely nuts spending money drugs alcohol got point hugely debt unemployed falling behind uni work finding addicted getting blackout drunk time could get feel something again guess end day needed get system sort forum give reasonings whoever finds this feel like last years constant therapy shit ive managed one single year went well even fell apart leaving failing uni student huge amount debt alcohol problem losing everything short space time cheers anyone whod taken time read little summary im done know felt need post eh end day tried long cant say least fight already planned time place weeks im looking someone talk it said felt need get out,1 yet another fucking posti even know happened feel bad again swear mood swings easily distinct one closest friends moving end school year whats stupid ive wanted ask now got phone her asked then know didnt thats work never anything substantial take laziest safest worst path andi anything it even know anymore even motivation actually kill good goes show much im actually able put mind it fucking nothing know matter is ive run stuff bitch about theres way explain whats going besides im lazy weak make poor decisions ever try anything fuck it god fucking damnit fucking anymore thats say now know im frustrated im letting mind fingers go wherever feel point im angry reason im eaten nothing living without actual life think worse death im gonna go back school soon motherfucking homework done im gonna go back see friends happy asses gets hard see happy people nowadays comprehend hard hitting keys type this im surprised started crying yet im waste im fucking waste im lump air even thought about im road block people im burden although said many times many motherfucking ways hate god damn self much quick venting fuck hard admit need help ive tried living surviving working out know need need something im running things live for even live anymore exist life me like redflag without redflag part im loss right now wanna go bed want everything okay morning never happen go sleep sad wake sad theres getting around it yknow much useful stuff couldve done time instead typing that thats thing dont care say loss well im loss wanna keep typing find sense self write cant forever unfortunately even want go bed able sleep know ill stay cant anymore thats it need stay up feels like wrote whole nother post comment im things type wish could fast forward part gets better hate part gets worse feels like get worse here theres getting fuck around it ive gone edge theres turning back feels like it rock bottom feels like shame experience young age feels like impulsively scratch floor mind trying get deeper would love build drill something building something takes time motivation none think ive run things type know still comment separate thing every time id flood site want that people need help too guys care me other worthy people need help im gonna take advice anyway im pile shit originally gonna comment reply last post got carried away forgive spelling errors im sure plenty stuff like happens fits whatever fuck feeling is know know hate it fucking heart tldr ignore this im gonna ignore advice anyone gives anyway im wasting everyones time,1 whats point one wants hereim waste space family reminds day every day mentallyverbally abused sometimes physically failing school depression mom locks pills older sister tried oding three times guess noose do lethal find time,1 want end nowbetrayed cheated someone gave heart thought love completely well much pain great handle years wasnt long short side either guess fool trust someone like begin heard past relationships probably still thinks dont know cheated blamed everything me happy right now im suffering selfblame lost myself feeling betrayal dont know go another day like this shouldve ended ago,1 want work myself idc myself want love myself hate always like this refuse make step towards bettering myself hope end dead fucking ditch side fucking forgotten country road hate,1 little dieter needs fly first film edition gteborg filmfestival extremely tired evening hesitant see it raving overall score imdb made go therebr br it minutes pure lifeforce experiencing dieter denglers life telling enchantingbr br see it possible see cinema,0 "FLEABAG+SELFISH CROCWhen Ned the Shire Horse injures his leg, he can no longer work. Too sad to go out, he fears the slaughterhouse. But Farmer Bill won't let an old friend down & helps Ned overcome his depression & find a new job giving rides to kids.#PB #own #DVpit #DIS",1 babyporridge i didn t get your twitter is crap reply,0 like i the people i know would get very sad if i commited suicide they maybe wouldent what the fuck am i talking about i wa well i wa feeling good just a few day ago but like it wa painfull it wa better to just krep thinking negatively but that hurt too and i font know what i might do in the future i dont like it i font want anything the peeople in my class are just they feel like they are just stupid baby that somehow wa getting educated in my school i hate every one of them my mind is a mess i just want to talk about stuff i dont know what to do my plan to escape depression hasnt worked either i dont have any idea to what to do i dont whant to return to my old state of mind it is horrifiying but at the same time comfortable i wa realy desparate i batteked against deppresion with my weird thinking style and plan but i cant do it any more i dont ser amy bright future ahed of me i want to help people with deppresion but i cant even help my self i dont know if i want to die even tough i have friend i feel lonely and when some one say anything about lonileness or depression i just cant control myself i get so angry that if givven the chance i would tip their head off then i feel guilty at my self i dont know what the hell is going on i am sorry for wasting your time with this post i am realy sorry,1 At the amazing grace with Brittany. Waiting for chris. ,0 pointim going end tonight job hate called dream job one talk life friends family long im acting normal im tired want anymore want say im fine ,1 i ve been getting worse and worse for over a decade every year ha been worse than the last the worse loss i could ever imagine my father happened just a couple week ago i have stopped working and given up on the few thing that kept me going my th is at the end of april and i don t see myself making it to then at this point,1 rteenagers today like lets shit post woooooooooooooo yeeeeessss freeeee karmaaaa,0 smugness gone my train also failed to turn up so i m heading for victoria followed by an unpleasant tube ride to the city,0 tell your friends! ,0 @CandidK it is great. My inner and outer thighs are screaming any rear is answering right back. ,0 NJ for the night ,0 @Maxim1967 lol thanks and yes Eminem reacted like an idiot,0 exists doors automatically jam lock alarm gets triggered preventing robbers entering exiting,0 movie one masterpieces mr antonioni youth distraction happiness alienation materialism honor corruption like everything else great italian director true artbr br ,0 thing guys figured pajama pants underwear comfortable thing ever,0 tell opinion tell agree disagree opinion doesnt unpopular although be opinion anything would also like hear reasoning behind opinion mostly fun ill try take seriously still honest also dont answer believe opinion fact respectful others opinions ill respect opinion respect mine,0 potentially triggering for panic attack and urinary issue my anxiety is usually high right when i try to get to sleep and my mind is undistracted and lately i feel the need to pee a lot when trying to doze off though it s more often than not only very small amount or none at all one night before a big event i never slept at all and got up every few minute sometimes there wa nothing but most of the time there wa a very small amount doe anyone else experience this i struggle to narrow down the cause a it doesn t really happen during the day though i spent my last job interview paranoid i wa going to have an attack and or pee myself during it after getting no sleep the night before i ve also lost my fitness and don t always eat well but i m not massively out of shape or anything,1 seattle is in tent i miss my t o peepz tho,0 alright remembered something fucked happened days ago dad asked like days ago follow bible said yeseven tho really dont say dont get shit man asked think gays jail like thinks like says bible like bruh tf cannot man literally felt like black person someone infront say i hate nwords man odd cannot wait til im ,0 "If you think religion and spirituality are scams, plz find a good way to cope w your depression and other illnesses cus often that's what spiritually helps ppl do. Don't be one of those ppl that complain all day but you're miserable.",1 I know someone that took 3 years to get over depression,1 it is just me uninstalled rail and tried with a fresh app still no dice obviously something bizarre in my setup,0 never really felt developed anxiety disorderi know anyone much loser age many things have order survive im terrified end nothing furthest ive gotten making call legs shaking talk ended hanging up abusive relationship ex left debt fault instead getting legal help check email depressed alienated person met her bipolar sociopath even within year already changed different person scared easily agitated codependent seven years startle mild noises think dying tried hang living overseas escape dependent entirely telling going leave there illegally violating eu residency nothing really came power would rip blankets clothes scratch pinch letting take clothes whatever wanted maybe people like deserve live ive given ever want give im used up want hide forever kitties wouldve vanished now sorry read rambling bullshit,1 i wish i were playing reindeer game up at fowler,0 jokeseriously feel like nobody cares me people like prevent getting girlfriend demanding remain single people pretend understand im talking say you need wait right girl come you thats bullshit phrase reused rehashed thousands years people tell want hear get shut up no want something original something thousands people told already guess happy question im meant single lonely rest fucking life im gonna single im get whore reject im old im im high school nothing show shitty life im still single still fucking virgin people age fucking sex im still struggling get girlfriend maybe im better dead life zero purpose right now im autistic piece shit turned instead moving own moved dads moms easier single father tell constantly five women want date says them mom boyfriend theyve dating year fucking sister even crush someone reason dating hes went socialized couple days ago thought hit someone nope bf too feel like everyones taken makes feel even worse im close giving up make matters worse friends thought three one argues constantly one fucking uses knows cant say one told day id rather stay home nothing hang friend feel like nobody want kill im required stay alive life magically purpose yeah purpose life humiliated rejected nice,1 people go into depression due to these reason in relationship http t co 9 usxvnja,1 frick penis hole supremacists okay ive peeing years slightly pulling waistband popping cock take piss big deal right well let tell you cockhole supremacists ruining everything pretend like wiggling penis maze hole front underwear somehow effective false need penis hole underwear even included newer underwear brands live dinosaurs paleolithic era big strong men need penis hole reading ask reddit people use penis hole think people drop pants way ground pee real men dignity would never happen surely people peed wearing gym shorts which frequently flys pee pants around ankles simply put easier flop massive incher top waistband weave penis maze like penis hole use penis hole anything pathetic useless closethegap declaring today start penis hole war must shame anyone everyone unironically uses penis hole pee anything wearing formal attire even still mock regardless,0 @THEREALSWIZZZ say happy WED* peace*,0 back to bed for me,0 @MathildaaB hi mathilda um name's erika sup? jus wnna make sum frnds from twitter ,0 I hate the bad days.. Been a long time since I've felt this low.. #depression #borderlinepersonality #mentalillness #bipolar #anxiety,1 school life generalthis nd last year school year well seem passing something find really interesting scared talk teachers maths physics english business management probably going drop it engineering aswell information technology start exams tuesday already know totally fucked making feel like shit im barely passing maths every time see test know react parents trying best cant talk anyone really want deal anymore,1 infinite values twice many infinite values figure out math pricks,0 ive set goal help motivate myselfi need something help motivate myself ive spent last months feeling basically lost time change that next months intend save least obtain sort employment provide least income annually surgery repair hip heart diagnosed treated get shape including regaining pack cutting body fat increasing total weight least lbs accomplish goal intend reward trip country love travel ive always wanted it always reason though whether financial otherwise im going put aside reasons go im going go it spend new years eve another country matter takes preferably someone accompany me,1 Shilo @ Cripes Bar & grill in ligonier start at nine. Come out ,0 tell therapist want diethis second time im going see therapist want scape abusive home narcissistic parents everyone telling money scape want honest give single fuck money spent many years unhappy abusive disgusting place give shit sleeping street friends says could live im another city need pay someone get there give single fuck anything feel like nobody understands cant tolerate type abuse anymore want normal everyday hard feel like im never gonna get here tell this find comfort anything want life thought destined someday happy normal young woman im not quarentine never endsand live place time want anymore cant im unhappy place everything window place support weight body could use something like rope belt end everything sorry bad english im really good it everyone screaming house now fuck people tell need do never tell know love like you want here want happy want normal like people age,1 could reincarnated anyone any human time week would why asked raskreddit nobody answered im posting here im bored so,0 omg gunshots guys literally help mom take stuff car car screeches gunshots,0 i have no will to live anymore but i cant kill myself because i dont want to hurt my mom or anyone else who care about me i fucked up my school career and have no motivation on anything in life and im only year old sorry for my bad english lol,1 im far broken rape dont think ill ever recover thathow fuck even continue like trying forgive someone loved im done,1 wish people allowed lie also love hear often sure feel it people thought me needed most typical,1 pharmaceutical vol page 9 depression and autoimmune hypothyroidism amp mdash their relationship and the effect of treating psychiatric and thyroid disorder on change in clinical and biochemical parameter including bdnf and other cytokin http t co i9 bnbj vm,1 ok guys hear here catgirls,0 go school even though im quarantined brother got covid still quarantined days vice principal called said changed mind go school im risk giving covid class mates her choice stay home probably punished go,0 my dad life 000 mile away from me a well a the rest of my family he s an alcoholic kind of emotional abusive and kicked me out when i wa after my mom died he said some pretty horrible thing to me when he did that but i ve blocked them out so i don t remember really he doesn t really reach out very much due to being blackout drunk off and on a lot but when he doe i get so anxious to answer his call that i don t do it and i just text him instead or don t answer i m worried it make him sad and drink more my sister ha said in the past he resents that i left them back home and moved on with my life i already feel guilty about leaving them my younger sibling so that hurt to hear it s not just my dad though i don t keep up with my grandparent anymore i m worried they re going to die they re kind of old and i m going to regret not talking to them more often mostly my grandma i regret not spending more time with my mom i have multiple younger sibling one of which is underage and ha autism i feel guilty that i don t call them brother and sister and worry that they resent me for leaving and i don t understand why it s so hard for me to just pick up the phone once a week and call these people the only person i talk to often is my sister what is wrong with me why is it so hard scary anxious for me to talk to them yet i feel so guilty by not doing so it s very tiring i know i need to go to therapy but i don t have insurance and can t really afford it also i don t keep in touch with friend which make me sad since my only friend is my partner really i am very family oriented and i love spending time with my sibling when i visit,1 got institution redflag attempt boyfriend immediately broke mei posted several days ago boyfriend replacing me ended telling needed go mental institute receive help wanted get better mentally one went actually lead trauma it cheap institute handled terriblyi put violent wing crisis got prescribed antidepressants help battle depression anxiety im facing soon got out let rant rave much missed him happy see talk him much loved him thinking entire time reason stayed okay there broke and replaced person afraid replacing im absolutely heartbroken really want commit redflag cant cant go back there cant go back path im trying stay on want badly dont know,1 birthdayi feel like im worthless spend christmas day alone friends forgot birthday family toxic cant keep nice people treat like this destroying me ive tried alone changing treat people dont want options available havent felt low months ive started making plans working ill give dog life isnt around im crying constantly cant see light happiness im done trying im low feel like im enough anyone matter cant handle people letting down,1 need motivation study homework th grader started online school last week hate cant focus lessons shit comes homework either copy year really important cant get low grades cant bring work need advice motivation helped become better student anything motivate study,0 reviewing old vhs tapes came across tv show john denver muppets christmas togetherthis made go computer look see could find dvd version show buy disappointed able find yet dvd show aired delightful show record cd would love buy dvd version show tape old picture quality pretty good fading sound good cd also songs put cd fan john denver muppets dvd show would really good seller cd wonderful chritmas collection songs taken show album also good find still record player play on,0 "Listening to Ne-YO closer, still a good song! ",0 fuck thisi hate much hate life fighting anxiety good could nothing ever changes really dont want hurt family god hate world sick all tomorrow tonight im going take knife cut deep wrist pain nothing compared anxiety hope life god hope tortured way tortured me fuck god,1 advices suggestions proceedmy partner going hell withdrawal used mg lexapro one week stopped cold turkeydue poor amount information available symptoms lasted one month relapsed time using mg zolof days stopping cold turkey months suffering terrible symptoms brain zaps weight loss redflag depression blurry vision bad hearing hard concentrate muscle pain cognitive impairment suicidal thoughts insomnia sweating impulsivity head ache agitation lack selfesteem symptoms visible different times withdrawal doctor appointment led doctor assuming symptoms caused psychological reasons said nothing domy partners whole personality pretty much changed months one flash usual self feeling good confident relaxed minutes gave little bit hope while gone again single day feeling goodgaba helping redflag little bit ordered lthyroxin does anyone experiencewe would like know long lastis supplements anything could help please shareit sad withdrawal hell advices,1 hellivina ihopness g knight lovely lady i m sleepy now,0 im dying hour please help life storyhello people im reaching anybody help way can please bare naivety usually reach people all let alone online ampxb try summarise hellishness life short simple possible hopefully relate extent help me im year old guy depression anxiety stress diagnosed extremely severe mental illness started father committed redflag years ago continuously gotten worse past years left school full time graphic designer great stayed job year months ago attempted redflag abandoned job incredibly lucky age boss treated better anyone else life past months ive absolutely nothing life waking find listening sad music annoyed nothing do simultaneously lacking motivation get new job meet new people im currently medication anxiety depression enough always find trance lost suicidal thoughts always wonder would like side better worse nothing everything extremely luring im naturally curious person kinds ideas take drugs like lsd mdma pretty often now take hopes one time may find see dad went years maybe find reason live ive heard people profound experiences finding need life theyre drugs right currently mdma pills plan take finally guts take life plunge death shopping centre carpark mainly hoping drugs give guts jump is somebody please help me currently live state fearing living dying feel like time running out ampxb,1 "@caredunton You're going through the five stages of Twitter. You're now in denial. The next time, it's gonna be anger. For a while, you'll bargain, try to reason with them. Then, there's depression about why people are like this and soon enough, it's acceptance phase. Welcome to the club :)",1 xposted ask transgender adult physically disabled trans woman friend abused facility staying at wants commit redflag escape abuse yr old friend helpwill ask somewhere else breaks rules im honestly end options here friend ill call j family whos extremely abusive transphobic mistreated bullied outside house nearly whole life bounced abusive transphobic shelters severely depressed suicidal one attempt unacknowledged parents left crippled waist down latest disabledfroendly shelter in experienced kinds abuse verbal mistreatment neglect respond asking food almost fainting i help focus stay conscious watched fall wheelchair made crawl bedits absolutely disgusting needless say suicidal im probably one reasons killed herself wants leave forget worry problems im foster care fighting abusive parents court says fucked life still hope stop stressing me ive spent hours talking redflag emailed parents intend email superiors abusers place shape up go parents seem interested treating well whatsoever dad held gun back head just fuck missouri decent place stay feels like might much do morning fear waking redflag notewhat help somethinganything,1 diagnosed bipolar disorder chronic major depression basically crazy bridge burner episodes honestly thought getting better taking meds managing mood swings enjoying time alone mainly stayed away forming friendships expecting cycle happen again eg losing friends burning bridges episodebut exfriend past messages pretty much hell bent bringing virgos vicious done cry fest hour telling horrible human wanting diesometimes sometimes wish friend could tell suffering sad scared lonely wish dead need comforting words telling okay get better want someone listen know pain handle suffering alone,1 moony 9 i ll miss him too bb the episode seemed unimportant after foreteen found kutner so i stopped watching,0 @staceeeeee goodnight Cuppycake hope you have a good day and don't feel so blah! XxOo,0 hows everyone holding up bruh ate whole thing black licorice gummy things half hour lol probably good oh well,0 life puts much pressure me like would better end problemsits pussying out pain usually post need to keep wondering make alive next years much bullshit want end end complaining parents take initiative education never strong suit especially math every year work gets harder feel stupid left behind boring frustrating fuck eat everyones dust stay behind work parents think laziness legit hard pressure anxiety puts much now live conservative christian house im homoflexible know regular basis hear bash gay people talk burn imaginary place known hell hurts offends me time hear reddit im forced pray closet atheist suppress feelings am wont change anytime soon social anxiety confidence low get headaches feel everyone looking me feel like may ugly effeminate whatever hurtful words called years ago even now friends school year homeschooled thats going change next year still feel alone confidence low im like boys still difficult schoolwork still hide identity survive next year year that god forbid year that cant listen it gets better thats long really hard explain feel wanting get next morning hoping time flies adulthood hope get smarter fit without worrying rejection ridicule feel like much human everyone else feel ugly feel like bitch pervert fucking faggot called rings head feel like things wish could something stop life peace theres reasons alive urge grows grows head bursting want die badly,1 guys finally it ive got girlfriend really nice plays genshin me watches anime wait im starting suspect one bros disguise trying comfort lonely ass,0 @HilzFuld @YarinHochman thanks guys ,0 nobody knows cook without recipes one flex,0 black widow legs around neck choke move suited girls dudes seemed cool tried it managed crush balls legs,0 but time part thinking am ready see br br in end happy saw it was least jackass number two twice laughs twice action stunts leave breathless besides little miss sunshine think best movie saw summer maybe even year br br the entire cast returns besides chris raab rake yohn think cast members dull moment every stunt either funny dangerous combination both stupid beginning funny first one ending interestingly hilarious cast performing musical number br br jackass number two perfect movie see friends stay credits pretty funny moments one involves luke wilson,0 im fucking done everythingwell throwaway brother doesnt see try intervene ive decided im done life ive come point thought death even scary comforting reality tears shed prayers give dropped highschool working ged im cramped house day much arguing cant stand longer im overweight cant convince mother buy healthier things ive looked work everywhere one hire me girlfriend im always put back burner comes needs im always lowest priority ive sitting dark room day trying decide way go want painless god sends hell sacrifice make know could done lot lot love give constantly made feel like dirt older brother like anything outside house me claims time know hes ashamed see public me im done even funny im ready go fear death longer expect get much attention know tried help things cant fixed rredflag watch caring family thank this believe god may watch you believe god wish happiness well world thank you truly love all,1 like great classic bugs bunny cartoons movie humor different levels introduced year old daughter year old son enjoyed movie busting laughing quite times daughter much scifi fan movie kept laughing despite seen times adultlevel humor that is humor adults get simply greater life experiences baudy rrated stuff found here keeps movie equally enjoyable adults example adult level humor martian voices based characters different moviesactors martian pilot blaznee voice mannerisms jack nicholson scientist peter sellers dr strangelove special effects surprisingly good film lack top actors actually works movies favor actorsactresses play part well fact would say producers picked actors skills roles needs boxoffice draw power an excellent example wayne alexanders vern character write review kids playing rd time days dinner right now good rainy day late night weekend theresnothingonandimbored movie,0 dont really feel like life worth livingfor people is people great lives im sure people amazing friends found soul mate nothing one daughter would better without me husband picked fight left work feeling depressed apparently wants happy thinks getting mad sad right way make happy hes soul mate im stuck family wont take back point got married last year baby dont job im waiting state approval child care assistance left everything know behind move husband moved miles away family time didnt even want desperate get familys home unimportant them lonely depressed even one single soul call talk parents would never understand sister dont talk things none friends answer phone call never call back ask one ive always alone one even wants friend god knows dont fucking soul mate want kill baby better off dont want relationship anymore cant leave dont anyone anything offer world even could leave marriage would never find anyone else love way want loved cant even find friend truly loves me want end get with tried kill failed didnt try hoped things would get better wish could go back tell never gets fucking better,1 ive seeing many posts people turning teenage years coming end want grow up wanna horny forever,0 drank cup coffee start feeling sleepy dude pm ridiculous,0 "@tshiunghan if it's just copy, and it's casual - no content - no problem. I need something to colour up the PHP cramming ",0 "@Elric521 Oh, don't worry--I don't ",0 never ever ignore thinkerwhy must ask im overthinker im fucking overthinker overthink lot things control over hardest part get ignored friends theyre reason im still alive simply simply go ignore like never ever fucking mattered dont even matter anyone youre reading this please never ever ignore hurt overthinker spent hours day thinking wrong try overthink positive yk suicidal thoughts fucking overthinking dont mix well dont know hear hurt words hurts goddamn much hate seeing much pain want make people happy i try hardest best fucking person anyone could ever ask for audacity go ignore forget fucking fact im overthinker yeah fault know that didnt ask overthinker did mean one thing leads another first get anxiety attacks slip depressive phase manic episodes nobody nobody knows hurt go through wish would end thats never ignore hurt overthinker,1 people even find bfs irl sad girl hours lol,0 watching hannah montanna concert dvd so nice better watch it... ,0 @expressivemsr my parents r more than happy !! it was just the rest of family wondering about me.my folks r too cool !! left it all on me ,0 remember windows xp pinball yeah played long time ago feel nostalgia,0 im ready dietheres nothing me,1 it wa going to be sunny today right why do forecaster always put my hope up fb,0 see pointi currently teenager high school childhood bad certainly worst one thing ive learned life far work really hard life die like nothing cant see future anyway failing classes atm motivation even try ive starting think possibilities life cant see way like playing video games get every morning another crappy day motivation play favorite games hanging friends seem like option im antisocial mom thinks worse leave house know it want end im stuck top hill nothing push continue life nothing push back side kill myself stuck top seeing shitty future then look behind see shitty childhood nobody knows thoughts sharing would turn another problem would think about put anti depressants events childhood made cry sleep every night currently trying find hope listening music seems like chore find music make stop thinking first time posting subreddit like thought blind interaction help calling hotline even tho im antisocial cant even bare think speaking random stranger phone call situation even discuss friends family thank time suggestions personal stories could help think top hill,1 Gotta Love The Legend That Is Missy Higgins ,0 alternate timeline id make wonderful mad scientist bad brain timeline ,0 yall ever see innocent old lady walking thing damn wanna sucker punch lol,0 please help im serious today started getting noti phone saying anne sent photos offical notification hit clear come back idk happening cant remember clicking fishy sites also get ads sometimes open phone now please help also im android use play protect matters also update got fb dms sas random girl rubbing tits,0 im disappointment im donef im currently freshman im failing two classes mainly cant fucking concentrate work damn mental health bet parents would fucking disappointed me got straight last quarter second quarter started im starting really want give up cried twice earlier school grades feeling like shit ten times worse dont even want anymore all killing would better teachers everyone thinks im bitch hurtful person cant even relationship without fucking up considering huge fuck up genuinely dont know anymore dont want keep going many things mind fucking hate living much,1 tell interestspassion currently am dont want sleep want learn shit probably never need know tell interest passion know about forgive im slow want hear it one stupid car know everything about history gay ice skaters way trading cards made dont care want know understand youre interested in,0 anxiety kicks keep fucking seeing shadow people fuck,0 jeremyvine people will stop spending so the economy will contract further inflation rise further we end up with hyperinflation stagnation and ultimately a 0 style depression which the govt can t do anything about,1 - thread of vines that cured my depression. pic.twitter.com/9Ak2F5RYOo,1 alonewe hug goodbye airport make way boyfriend waiting upstairs get cab going home break open bags spill presents unto mum boyfriend ill stumble house lay bags one side drop fall bed ill pull covers tight around back mind pretend hug think tomorrow ill need get clean house somehow wonder ill enough strength get cook lunch family takes brunch tell stories trip ill turn tv silence kills me resent people wish alone wish go back empty house time wish someone say welcome home wish google talk home im sick become vulnerable broken body broken spirit loneliness eats even wish could smash everything around me pick shard glass rip skin open let out let every thing inside me pains watch pain flows veins want walk balcony sit rail feel sway wind till find courage let go fall freedom feel wind knocked lungs become empty empty empty darkness inside soul wish skull crack open pavement maybe everyone understand much darkness lives inside brain want breathe in gas slowly seeps away life feel falling asleep last time demons lay me well never wake again demons nip heels make way hell run beside me longer weight shoulders pulling many directions alone tonight wish could last time,1 aint good but ill fineso know feeling pretty run mill around here throwaway instead im lurker recent honestly looking someone help anymore years dealing depression time even succeeded point i still here umpteenth time find sitting alone weeks wondering bother life spent alone worth living really thats legit question know read want comment here thats thing either living life alone long believe anyone help reached out let close fiends know walking line kind enough let know talk needed lol know me reach help like ever fact came looking solace sort warning self also told ready give life conversations naturally led way normally happygolucky kinda guy love make people happy late cant even make smile unless thinking ways get life hard time finding reason continue beyond family seemingly persistent lie things get better tryingwaiting things get better better part decade see point suffering anymore know presently suicidal actions many many thoughts would leave healthy person believe otherwise tired feeling like yesterdays newspaper everyone wants throw trash never think rest lives want someone cared about know ever case,1 @LieyaLutionary Not that he's right but a lotta people who deal with depression find it hard to come to terms with it..,1 for some reason my life feel like i m stuck in the th circle of hell or something i don t know why i can t seem to hold grasp of anything positive i m year old i have a job i hate with a passion i m in school and almost have my degree but it s taken me year just for my aa i want to direct movie i feel like i can truly do whatever i want and live an amazing life but i can t seem to grasp it i know the work i have to put in but depression and thing in life keep holding me down i pray to god a lot for guidance and strength and sometimes thing seem so clear but other time everything slip through my finger and i m lost i know some might not be religious but i do believe in god i workout a lot i used to be obese i look completely different and have a lot of muscle but inside sometimes a lot of the time i feel invisible do i want to be seen maybe but more so i just want to be appreciated and i want a woman who love and appreciates me and i want a family i want a son and a daughter and i want to live a wholesome life and i want to live the purpose i know drive me i have a girlfriend she went into the army for the reserve and left in january it s march and i just watched her graduate basic training before she left thing were really great i prayed and prayed to have a woman like her in my life and it felt like god actually answered my prayer when i found out she wa going in the military it broke my heart because we had known each other for a month she decided to go into the reserve so she could come back and we could have a life however since she s been gone i can t shake this anxious feeling and i feel trapped and depressed my life is being held down and i am losing sight of myself i watch other people have kid and marriage and all my friend have kid now and it s something i ve always wanted since i wa young i don t know how to describe it but i m being trapped by thought of abandonment and her changing her feeling towards me and meeting someone new she s reassured me so many time so many that it s just redundant at this point i m not the man i wa when we met and i m so much le confident now and i m so scared of losing this girl i hate my life now and i ve contemplated suicide i feel so trapped by my emotion and anxiety and i can t seem to function right i don t want to go to work or eat or move or do anything i just want this to be over she will graduate tech school ait in two month and i will know if she stay with me but i m humiliated by this whole thing and for some reason thing in my life feel difficult my self esteem ha crashed and i can t think straight it not right and almost pitiful to think but others seem to have a good life with their spouse and i have nothing i know it s not the right way to think i had goal and step to get myself out of my crappy job and to live my dream but i can t reach any of them because of how held down i feel the advice i m asking for is what to do i m trying to have faith thing will work out with this girl but if they don t i m going to crash hard this will be the rd serious relationship i ve had potentially not work and i am so scared of my future and dying alone and i feel i have a good heart and am willing to put in the hard work for a relationship and to be the man a woman desire this woman is the first one i ve ever truly loved and i just feel so lost and like a child i m sure not many will read this because it s so long but i m just in a bad spot,1 Let's see how well this 2.5 hours of sleep holds me today. I predict a massive slowdown by 14:30. That should be funny. ,0 sunfish great stupid ton useless fish,0 argh cant stop yawning,0 life overflunked college socially challenged scared relationships kind lazy depressed feeling pretty down suicidal sure would easier moment sorry rant nice day,1 cannot one feels numb moment like absolutely motivation anything want socialize anythingmy depression comes waves constantly suicidal states long since felt shit isolation covid think lack human contact sent spiraling feeling worthlessness walk around feeling like exist couple people would actually care numb,1 kill myselfi live second story apartment means hang myself use knife jump window im sure ill die jump id hit head use knife it easiest way,1 cant fucking believe math professor gave study guide questions fucking due tuesday,0 calmness deathwhy feel wrong calm right now im alone home minutes away ending life without leaving single letter behind fucking fail dont even know anymore screw that wont fail dont know im typing anymore even know loved life loved living love all wishing best you,1 please help mei want die cant live like anymore roommate best friend want deal rent cant afford go but cannot go back work two days cant work means money insurance antidepressants adhd meds without beyond fucked high maintenance world anyone know do parents picture family stay with friends aside roommate knows cant help me cannot afford counseling afraid death way escape now,1 "Yesterday, I struggled really badly with my depression but worked through it. This morning, I have a permanent writing job offer in my emails and a genuine producer is currently reading an animated short I wrote. Keep going, even when it feels impossible.#WednesdayWisdom",1 wrote yesterdaysometimes drive bridge hold breath cant help feel need plunge ther side anxiety floods mind fills entire being mentally talk it holding breath multitasking anxious damn near impossible entire task killing takes much work slipped quick sand sink grab rope pull out little time make decision must make one fast tired living way want feel like dissappointment constantly wish feel like fucked much way get kill myself makes nauseous know wrong decision mind seems like decision im trying best fight it promise am taking everything within fight it live fear afraid something happen send edge make it terrified able fight anymore getting harder harder stay intoxicated better vocalize urge kill myself battle there im fighting it im temporarily content thats really anymore temporary moments contentment think anyone help fix this me and know yet,1 want diewhy cant die want kill cant,1 today birthday im depressed everive whooping people tell happy birthday today friends told happy birthday family members im posting sympathy someone tell happy birthday guess im vent since one vent reddit ive dealing depression years ex left didnt feel same im lately im tired alone im lonely old point friends girlfriends getting engaged kids im nobody life shit every single day work gym sleep really getting feel lame unwanted dont think im unattractive shitty personality guess girls see differently,1 @mebrownie09 i love you baby... ,0 anxietymy anxiety bad cant even go hang people get invited get nervous ignore everything stay room end blowing purpose also hate confrontation dont want disappoint saying cant make it many times say phone broke much pressure going getting conversation life fucked embarrassing im horrible person im lonely feel confident around people xanax also know ill never life get boyfriend worse smile cant fixed cosmetic surgery im honestly cursed especially everyone says person prettiest smile well me god give certain people ugly features people beautiful features fair basically ignore people im forced smile life prevents social media would never life use snapchat left huge part society participating social media really want kill myself im figuring logistics it wish knew happened died could feel confident im getting older zero money saved retirement im going die alone poor ugly im looking forward living rest life poor ugly alone id rather go still bit dignity smh thanks reading,1 think ill die daysi think die days beacse suffering breathlessness world beautiful gonna miss it love all,1 rant whoever hate cant learn cant like everyone else everything horrible hate world live hate hating friends dont talk keep things pretend happy killing inside keep failing every subject ones like keep telling cares cant speak french i dont like france everyone judges horrible nobody understands anyone loves fuck,0 killing option anymore hurtsback college realized involved many things colleagues internships etc everyone around thought depression redflag option stung really bad came close redflag times teenager obviously still around thought option anymore hurt ampxb nowadays thoughts coming back cant kill myself feel like happy family friends know would miss me people told love me feels like weight holding alive want anymore hurts want live cant disappoint people,1 growing up irrational fears start off mom told used terrified deflated blowup snowman i believe said across street lived time apparently screamed bloody murder sight i quite remember really little happened next supposedly scared drama faces mom says funniest part drama faces neighbourhood yet apparently scared getting hit vehicle according sister used get lot nightmares said used weird monsters dreams said used tell shell go beat up apparently used laugh end falling asleep again thinks picturing tiny beating monsters probably made laugh she dwarfism got older remember becoming scared falling used able use escalators fine suddenly became scared use nowhere use elevators fine though certain kinds stairs im noticeably cautious walking them remember teeter totter someone fine got older felt nervousscared higher air thats quite yeah developed strange fears growing up,0 im ugly inside outim fucking failure whats point even living mediocre life even family dont understand im feeling like say everything thing im disgusting looking cant even look mirror cant die already know people care me cant even self harm anymore im constantly crying reason hate useless worthless ugly self dont want live everyday life seeing miserable face people care dont even care least wont care long want disappear nobody remembering me im worthless human even good look talented lot people way worse im still complaining makes even pathetic hope today itll work,1 @FunkyKiwi the sky looks beautiful ,0 wife finished marriage im not im ready end everythingwe kid world cant imagine putting divorce im trying ive got plan balls it want to feel like will know,1 when i talk to people they ask me stuff and everything most my reply just yes no or i m good but in my mind there s just so much i want to say i just keep it all held in and i hate it i try talk and i feel so stupid how can i just open up and talk to people,1 maybe guess redflag option lefti cannot take anymore done struggling aspergers humiliated it want die nobody nothing me want die want live next years past ills challenges anymore trust anybody entire world always seeking fucking reason go me even done anything them yes times ive done things fuck up least realized apologized it whole world me whole word seeks fucking excuse put tear down deserve better that maybe shall go commit redflag maybe ill give salvation exit pathetic insignificant world no call redflag hotline cops matter called hotline times nothing worked since told go somewhere else try counseling work either everything ive tried cope pain wasted fruitless change please let die ill beg anybody please help die give better life,1 coping coworkershow politely tell coworkers leave fuck alone youre slight push away slashing wrists without causing scene getting pushed edge certain things cant cope thinking about today coworkers dont know thing personally persistently pushing mind road needs avoid got home im trying avoid trashing apartment hurting myself,1 relate quarantined due panick attacks depression past years point actual quarantine normal me fact honest almost happy see rest world panic fear eyes fighting invisible enemy feeling trapped unable live normal life im evil hate people once last years life feel lonely,0 first cousin and one live near close to killed todayhe left redflag note wife two kids went woods behind house killed himself close relative never said much financial trouble in devastated know deal this also godfather always seemed successful rich learned lost job year ago sat home drinking time lied me proud ask help something like this cant believe it posted wrong subreddit earlier got told get computer interact people im definitely that started looking reddit recently amazed community here guess im looking another source advice,1 beautiful almost meditative filmthere hardly dialogue it apart narration scenery music compliment perfectly first connect red hair girl fox pointed friend who also red hair almost old fashioned type childrens films saying children nowadays prefer animations like shrek toy story etcbut feel young people introduced beauty wonder nature film certainly does maybe best ever film type certainly excellent relaxing view ages not children,0 @loveloveshine I like the way you look with glasses. ,0 @crowsond You will have to very careful what you're tweeting ,0 just got a tennis top in the post but i don t like it and it too big shame,0 "@marramgrass Personally, I prefer snow ",0 friend gets ass pics girlfriend im struggling make friend thats girl im fucking ugly worthless man,0 wanted happy birthdayi wanted family love one single day crying almost full hours want die know like me always try making happy really wanna kill tonight,1 I wish my depression was seasonal smh,1 know sayive diagnosed borderline depression years ago worked hard change mind worked found love life felt happy lately feel like im downwards spiral depression again life hard last weeks last years always felt like still power way feel feeling gone feel lost hit like punch gut want end it moment partner thing brings joy life feeling years ago coming back feeling emptiness beeing understood feel like empty shell human chaotic thoughts feels like thousand negative thoughts cant finish single one real way stop cant take anymore want hit head wall make stop cant anything feel like complete nutcase want feel like anymore want feel distraction it past used cut really strong urge afraid partner find think fault which obviously isnt anything make mess mind go away want wake another day feel like again worst part last years like know miss feeling peace within cant seem find peace days cry sob time im alone want die living took big toll last weeks,1 guys know strangedarkcreepy youtube channels ive looking know few im kind bored ive looking around internet mysteries,0 @Bontz9 you totally got me with your LOVE SURVEY bulletin on myspace. why was i so intrigued to read?!?!?! GAH! DAMN YOU! mucho aloha ,0 wwwwwwwwwwoooooooooo its sunny dayyyy! ,0 want let goi feel alone know people love friends cant feel loved anymore guess could say hate much let lovable like therea hole middle ofy chest killing me hurts goddamn much get know ive got another day hell ahead me cold hard every single day im tired want lie let slip away nothing violent painful drifting away,1 good thing insomnia pills took pill minutes ago im already feeling dizzy today stressful weak little me work like magic,0 im afraid ill commit redflagim never thought id live long always thought id kill turned that really plan life plan something think get live move mothers house find apartment live in job obviously know that things thats expected me honestly even that im depressed cant imagine life getting better ever happy im still alive boyfriend even acting weird makes feel worse god want die,1 girlfriend said thought cheating last month ive grounded sexting morning girlfriend got argument upset said thought sus horny lately sexted her said if im making horny is basically told hurt self esteem said sex first day saw first month priorities,0 music hot take day foxtrot genesis greatest progressive rock album ever made barely beating animals pink floyd,0 "just woke up,happy mothers day ",0 treesahquiche okay about the applepears i ve talked to a few people and they ve all had them before no one ever told me never,0 "I feel so productive, I spent all day sorting out my pictures. They're all in a neat order and every album named. Now to keep it that way",0 reddit looks like elementary school talent show right full bad content endless pointless medals,0 @shanitai life is crap! so out emo-ed youuu ,0 Michael Cera has a new movie! ,0 @JackAllTimeLow @AlexAllTimeLow Have an AWESOME show tonight boys! Wish I cldve gone to watch u guys again! ,0 incrediblesteve cold turkey the only way i know,0 would someone willing talk meim lost confused need someone tell thoughts,1 it afi know feel man im dying inside man make create care music too nobody else understands know post cover cover people frown look on easy man nothing worth ever is know feels criticised looked on know feels put happy face everybody crushed inside know man makes cry too im crying bro know fake tears hide feel too im right you hands bro know words mean much know im nobody know call names know think know love man know feels im right you im crushed inside man im completely lost without it music much it bridge nobody loves man nobody loves like theyre supposed im dying man im thrown out nothing say matters nothing ever bridges gap im crushed man love bro keep chin up good job cant think anything else im crying bro know nothing im sorry you im sorry act around know know side eye know hear whispers know are theyre children man theyre children understand fight love like ampxb love bro keep chin up going make it going get this going keep making art going love bro like always have love much bro going great things cant stop crying like kpop bro kpop helps thru sad times love kpop different words descriptive ears music wish theyd make softer wish could help make softer ampxb ampxb,1 oneitis even remember probably happily married chad rn kids living peace security always wasnt type girls im type creepy usually fat stalkers,0 in france today it s raining,0 cant take anymoresomeone please talk mei one major fu ruined life unemployed money living folks help bills expenses chronic depression ive suffered life since ive got older seems getting worse matter many different meds try many therapists see nothing seems make difference complete waste space becoming burden family debt stupid mistakes addictions ive also wasted parents hard earned cash right threatning kick ban bank accounts every right too want die honestly ive enough dont think go anymore better without ruining them could never repay everything done me friends never luck dating always jobs currently im long term unemployed welfare barely surviving cant even get work skills apart retail cant afford go coursesclasses also heavily tattooed visible parts body makes hard get work see really fucked life theres way time cant go anymore huge disappointment family deserve better atleast die sell stuff get money back worry supporting mentally fued daughter anymore,1 when you re having a mental breakdown because you realize the your dream the thing that kept you motivated is completely unobtainable an impossibility nothing more than a pipe dream i m breaking down y all i wan na put a bullet in my head,1 sibling said would save friend dangling cliff front unprompted apparently havent learned bit rude fml,0 covid worst nightmare since covid february covid spread like wildfire we locked and masked part covid spreads water particles getting body talking eating breathing kissing etc etc etc im yo time first lockdown prime right im sure relate lot teens say year supposed year enjoy reality much whats got worst planned serious relationship maybe even sx year worked hard year could slack year thats countrys school works made super depressed caused self harm hope could good next year havent kissed someone nearly year havent met friends months havent wanted fun ever get better still fun teenage years think safe meet friends girls despite covid ,0 ever get better getting bad,1 years good run im ready go nervous breakdown park managers stealing peoples rent marking unpaid owe two months rent took cashim point saw manager douchebag spray tanned son would literally jokingly hypothetically murder pair scissors killing myself im seething rage anger im ready die,1 okay ill actually go sleep gn everyone earbuds died lmao,0 relish every moment languorous spectacle music match mahlers th gorgeous listen vocal portion rd symphony beautifully utilised film many aspects film main subject overpowering force beauty spontaneous nature absence logic love adoration also ardent fan bogarde believe rarely wonderful try the servant however note recommmend multiple viewings,0 dont talk strangers complain im introvert ffs,0 hey world questioni curious think lot people read try help position wanting commit redflag before someone said help you things people say ive heard before means nothingbut fact someone cares mean bit words ever touched you share me something think about ive thought redflag years young life know ever completely go away even words helped specific situation maybe theyd give something think think wanting die edit okay multiple questionsbut basically same,1 @justinchon Hi Justin ! You come in London in July ? Greaaat ! I hope you come with Andy ! haha,0 Want to advertise on my new site? 5 promo codes a week. That's it! ,0 surfing twitter! ,0 kal penn i will miss you on the show you were awesome what a shock,0 hi hows going you,0 @MGiraudOfficial -- Have you ever really loved a woman was a good one ,0 yet another postive posted several times guess good thing bad thing one im still alive thoughts keep coming back theyre coming back day gotten point every breath breathe comes sigh many ways explain why core all im lazy stupid simpler way explain it feel like waste shouldntve born first place wouldntve made difference oh im ive already told im young end early words last long encompasses thoughts eventually encompasses see future looks fucking bleak want someone me like literally here me feel like make feel little better know practically guaranteed ill go back feeling like regardless form help itd easier go hate thinking like this makes everything worse aaaahhhhhhh fuck me tldr im completely obliterated comes hope pride optimism idea anymore depressed even check spelling grammar last chunk o text forgive errors,1 know longer it used call survivor know one know times running mei really know muchbut would enough time know cheat death long gets good entire life one day would get hook crookone way anotheri still holding trying cannot stop hiding forever know losing game like always time would permanent check mate called game lifethis would probably last failurei know writing makes selfish lot waysbut know do know end postso also would remain incomplete edited used call survivor know one,1 Still aint been to bed. Walking home from getting coffee. You know hanover aint to bad at this hour. Kinda peacefull. ,0 tomorrows birthday want one thing want her want see smile want hear laugh want stare eyes all want love back ,0 normally i use my note app but this wa the first time i had written pen and paper somehow it feel good it s the final chapter of my life i hope people in my life understand i had to do this for myself the pain is too much for one to handle everyday,1 relate kurt cobain tbh wanna start band become popular hang age join club lmao,0 retrochick uk oh probably pmt and thoughtless men a bit too,0 Baking a cake while my baby sleeps. Tomorrow is going to be awesomesauce!,0 theres lot reasons whyschool year may last school year high school stdent last year country heading back home messed school year weve ever probably worst grade student years old march make long story short apprntly gr nd gr studs boys girls literally selfharm lik cutting arms legs once weeks april one batchmate ended life den next day good friend too everyone felt bad month went gloomy everyones sad trying stay connected possble make sure nobody next calling people know depressed suicidal like didnt really want start drama look like attentions seeker disclaimed need help used open stopped instead open strangers staying anon jonest supposed gone day time vanished wasnt able afford die literally still planning anyway couldnt already bec id looj like im looking attention terrified believe happene im back home far away miss her im talking abut girl like blocked yesterday trying comfort bec boat meaning shes also dep idk make sure shes fine dandy den blocked cant really anything miss talking know wrong one things sure gonna third attempt im going make happen around dis week want know feeling sad i neverthless still try cheer get blue thumbs cant take anymore ik ive said lot times true feel rn,1 kellyshibari i thought i saw you there you were walking out the door when i saw you,0 post nut anger im fucking angry world committing bonk didnt help either,0 ive reddit long thought huh im board go reddit ive already reddit minutes,0 @antq_twit aw thankyou x,0 theekween depression anxiety loss of a loved one heart break thelmasherbs,1 Me after slipping into another depression https://twitter.com/jamescharles/status/989234180268605441 …,1 found literally reading cut femoral state shaking feeling physically ill thoughts never strong get phase kind everything go wrong does actually cannot think single reason to,1 How I make a Living doing nothing http://bit.ly/ZRZMB,0 better dying alonethe happiest way live alone everyone love die people spend time loved ones thinking far enough future theyre together happy personally think one day im going notice cant jump high used to cant walk far used to theyre starting forget important things often grey hair wrinkles face cloudiness eyes every phone call theyre away could one lets know terrible accident every hour past time supposed home could day make home pet dies sure get new one outlive it new spouse one going first best friends theyll replace someone things want do love makes people stronger erode me point loving anything sure hurt end,1 straw broke camels backlife one big pile misery me year especially hell severe social anxiety communicating people hard finding people feel comfortable around even harder even know normal conversation without awkwardness silences used three friends would actually talk hang with lost year anyone left talk feel comfortable around lonely depressed graduated cant seem find job good would like do hate everything current job whats point going work everyday hate family provide anyways even friends going spend money basically something hate survive even want discovered today receding hairline used think bad hair days lately started occurring more today realized got shit hairline losing hair twenty fucking four one family bald bad hairline like me used kind good looking basically thing holding to thought would maybe meet girl someday liked looked would look past social anxiety inability connect people actually take time get know me now im physically repulsive too one ever love like me goodbye,1 "@MaryG_PR Thanks, I can't wait to find out what I get to work on! Don't be surprised if you get a call or two next year... ",0 family works me pretty gay seeming makes gay jokes family shes gonna end nice boylt me mean ig could id rather family straight mean rlly tho openly listen clairo troye sivan girl red sweater weather many plus little sprinkles gay oblivious,0 "Exercise can prevent depression, no matter your age or gender @qz https://buff.ly/2Ke5F1B ",1 sooni cant handle poor decisions made ugly actions compose past im ending soon im weight may parents sweetheart deserves better im disgusting bitch deserves die suffer wished pure person everyone think am im disgusting pervert piece trash im worthless kill soon bye please comment waste time me,1 im curious would one tell family want wear girl clothes like femboytrap asking friend,0 last day of school ,0 @Meshel_Laurie thanks lovely ,0 beautifully brokeni feel broken slaughtered violated defeated times times im numb times im feeling like okay again owe time release im okay okay thats okay now,1 Researchers from Koltsovo developed a drug for treatment of depression - https://gmpnews.net/2018/04/researchers-from-koltsovo-developed-a-drug-for-treatment-of-depression/ … pic.twitter.com/v5C6hHFFKD,1 saw building fire escape vietnam fucking everywhere please send help ampxb httpspreviewredditpegnvqjpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsfafaaedecbfbbfebbeaeb,0 i think this is mental breakdown but over the past few month thing have been slowly building up for me and i seem to have finally snapped last week my daily routine is basically wake up shit shower brush and sit on the pc until i go back to bed i eat whenever i feel like it i know it sound and it a shit schedule but it s like the only structure i have in my life a boring and shitty a it is it s always the one thing i can kinda find comfort and stability in anyways the final thing happened that made me snap last week i now wake up and just kinda sit in my bed for a while brush my teeth go walk outside for an hour and then drive around for a few hour then i come back shit shower and the only thing i have left is to sit on my pc but it is borderline painful to do that idk what it is but i just can t handle wasting my time on the pc anymore i ve more or le ditched my online friend and any game video song that i used to enjoy all day i want to be out of the house a much q possible and dread the place that i ve spent so much time in comfort i dread going back to my safe space and wan na avoid it for a long a possible,1 lockdown ruined already miserable ability conversation like normal human especially voice calls unless im playing game people cant talk discord anymore autistic little brain tells,0 days feel like ending it like damn cannot miss shows yeah,1 people plain stupid school students th th grade middle school students th th grade highschool thats country heard americans different couple years weve using platform allows teachers grade us send us messages online good students power send messages anyone school are today kid th grade fucking put instagram message students whole school about people edit writing someone th grade put classic rickroll link update people start get sort punishment say want im boomer everything think teacher sent something important idiot announcing ig making unoriginal unfunny meme,0 elsewho else drinkssmokes cope depressionredflag,1 unable accept human horriblei believe wanting learn brings peace sharing information amicably surest path happiness ignorance leads confusion resentment hate even loving family members conflict builds confusion hate pain reconciled often boils omg im sorry didnt know even though trying hard explain it want understood understand inept flesh brains primitive psyches fuck bad every time reflect conflict see lesson learned were continually wrong fail hurt other elevate volatile conflict strangers horrifying humans may able grow beyond stupid primitive hate narrow world views ignorance science take long know life time know learn live are want good others fail hate myself fail me resent hate myself know better shit brain ruins it imagine nuanced clever psychology could years expect ignorant fearful people push back progress delaying even further humans fucking worst fucking hate us much,1 confused went hill years ago often feel depressed nervous trapped feel like everywhere go spread depression made plans fun stuff future literally nothing coming feel useless cant anything physical anymore intense back pain thought blowing brains river problem gun think make past age honestly say entire life ahead dont talked many friends say im good person whatever fuck else never sufficient answer reason hand gun bullet stated above nothing meeting friend go around country little bit would end living street wish loneliness upon anyone really feel like nothing left me one people know irl genuinely cares die that aside gun option could get rope hang balcony pretty easily worth living anymore die end anyways,1 i guess i m on here to get some thing off my chest maybe even get some advice i really just want someone to relate to what i m going through if you took the the time to read this thank you a little background i m 0 australian cisgender male i ve lived in the foster care system which come with a lot of different issue i couldn t possibly get into i work for the government i can t say what i do here i do some dangerous work that led to being assaulted in early january i ve since been on work cover for my mental health acute stress disorder every day get harder i wake up and i can t get out of bed i sleep horrible hour i smoke almost a pack a day and i play video game non stop i feel like an exposed nerve some day every interaction with another human make me nervous and the day i leave the house are becoming fewer when i moved to my current town i didn t really have friend i ve always struggled with social interaction i joined a dnd group at a local hobby store in the hope of making some friend they were all relatively younger than me all in their 0 i gave it a go nonetheless several session in they ve asked me not to come back i didn t see it coming tbh it disappoints me because the reason why wa unclear i had thought we were friend dnd wa the general highlight of my week it s not exactly a productive past time and most people probably think it s stupid or nerdy tbh it absolutely is but i felt accepted and it wa a group who s social behaviour didn t revolve around drug and alcohol i m trying so hard not to internalise it and just accept that maybe i just didn t mesh with the group in addition to this my problem are piling up my car is completely useless my back is causing issue and i m gaining so much weight right now everything feel exhausting my lifestyle is so toxic right now and i know something need to change i just don t know what to do i feel so overwhelmed with life the best advice i can find is to grow up take responsibility for my life but it rarely seems that simple i feel like i have nothing left,1 "Can't read my, can't read my, no he can't read my POKER FACE lalala (8) ",0 I voted for you @KevinRudd I think you're awesome too amazingly enough tho I hated the LIBS getting the stupid GST into Australia ,0 sorryto world sorry waste years siblings sorry older brother deserved parents sorry man imagined id be friends her sorry treated terribly hopefully fade memory find someone treats way shouldve people believed me sorry strong enough people read this sorry wasted time,1 pogba sur son niveau catastrophique c tait mourinho quand jos est partie il mets a sur le compte de la d pression mdrrr,1 get girl ive crush years crush girl almost years recently weve talked months and dated weeks almost ready relationship the sad part arguing stuff pretty often text ff vibing hard everything going well soon happen said that wants break sees friend things said did still cant get her feel like ive used because talking another guy she talking w even dating relationship broke w girl with guess waited break go him also think tried make jealous somehow apologize english,0 look i know everyone ha a sad story to tell i m no different and i know that in reality no one truly care about your past i don t even give a shit about my past anymore but i have nothing left in me i don t have anything to fight for even out of spite the world suck as my life ha had plenty of shitty time and a handful of good one but i m at my final limit rent is due again in about a week after month of being unemployed i still have no job i interview constantly i research how to be better i have a degree i have applied to anything and everything i m practically begging for work now and still nothing i have no money left i have no family i have applied at job i m qualified for with all of my experience but also grocery store coffee shop restaurant anything that say it s hiring i m not going to be able to pay my half of the rent next week and when i think about it it make me so ill that i ll puke thinking about how am i going to look my partner in the face and tell him that i just don t have any money left he ha seen me struggling he know i haven t had a job since november i have credit card debt i don t spend any extra money ever i have food stamp i think about ending everything every day all i do is try to not cry constantly i can barely muster up fake smile anymore i have never felt so down in my entire life i feel a though i have been cursed but even then that would give me hope a that would mean it could be broken somehow maybe i have never felt so close mentally to believing truly believing that i wanted to die i just don t want to face this i really can t exist like this in this life anymore i don t see a way out,1 my tweet arent going through,0 zombies hella fun im streaming bo zombies twitch wanna check ill link comments work name trash_mouth,0 brother made joke makes clear hes heard sex boyfriend sex house usually brother bad habit coming home earlier expected giving heads up playing vs destiny killed jokinglymockingly called naughty girl said hed call boyfriend come spank its creepy make jokes ton means hes heard call say need spanked want die,0 totally surprised good movie actually first saw mildly amused must say however still disappointed donald oconnor given bigger better role enormous talentbr br there great chemistry among main cast members matthau never funnierbr br i tremendously glad picture got made get see lemmon matthau team last time vehicle puts talent great use brent spiner proves data star trek next geeration good character playbr br the storyline really quite simple comedy characters work really well laughed heartily throughout movie highly recommend it,0 im happy satisfied life still want end it make weaki cant talk anyone want think cry help that get chest content life feel like best living behind me im turning year never thought id make here turning young know always believed destined die young often think killing myself i feel sorry myself kind way believe best days behind want die old want people remember earlys version distant memory used semisuccessful musician signed record label people line hours get shot tv hit big wanted growing sign particular label it music went successful career marketing love job people get say make good living things need life loved girl years things ended years ive dated lot girls since everything really shallow unfulfilling believe society crafted attitude loving person loving offer cynical know honestly believe girl consider love life really pinnacle me comes to best days behind im sad ive come accept life goes people look see face value laugh smile lot reading probably built image head me probably look like imagine wear black quiet opposite actually risk sounding like total dick im actually good looking guy dark cynical thoughts bury head want attention like people knowing good guy smiles lot want leave earth admit thing keeps alive fact took life would devastate family great upbringing family amazing cant help think would blame took life cant leave knowing death would hurt much made life conflicted know friends would get family never would knowing still stop thought tough walk bridge think i wish could jump stand bridge disrupt traffic allowing someone save life love heights always close hopping railing free fall breathing breathing outand splash relief say redflag weak easy way cowards cant say always case way end things terms one thing right selfish thing keeping around,1 @gerardway I love you! <3,0 wanna dieim seriously contemplating killing right now friends dont know cause keeping happy smile front anyone honestly tired told depressed brush like nothing one person trust physically hurt made depressed ever,1 tomatosalsa hope you aren t referring to me say hello to your new stalker lol,0 anyone finds film boring hopeless bonehead stick car chase movies romantic comedies film riveting boring moment why comprised largely intelligent dialogue real people moment crisis details efforts survive crisis repeatintelligent dialogue characterizes nearly rohmers films lot people like them prefer action fine let spend rest lives watching action films us taste discrimination continue seek films like thisbr br rohmer always accused talky well is thats compliment criticism shakespeare talky too talkier play hamlet whenever subject theme work art consists ideas conflicts values must necessity discussion ideas values largely film about aristocracy noble birth vs egalitarianism loyalty old friends put ultimate test friend takes believe wrong path value human life responsibility help save life even person possessing life nice even despicable anyone ever hear dostoyevsky crime punishment film aboutbr br the two leads film impeccable born play roles lucy russell english speaks french second language especially brilliant favor see riveting film may last film screen master,0 anyone really good editor need someones help photoshoping one freinds face looks like princess,0 girl wide masculinelooking jawline wear hair something quite know do supposedly eyes lips femininelooking jawline wide masculinelooking although even posted vid hair asshole still said weird head shape bc reddit would makeup help idk,0 redflag nothing get better yall say gets better doesnt,0 letter myself know asked many times choose hurt thought would helpful get chest though feeling pleasurable sensation trail blood follows is blood escapes stress anxiety worries go it im left feeling calm finally breathe again especially rewarding im feeling depressed cant cry usually always unfortunately calmness washes away starting cycle over depression pretty common feel disconnected numb reality physical pain brings back reminder still alive often disappoints know healthy harm sign trouble cannot stop addiction vice cannot stop want need to,1 nail screw drill hammer words used convey sex idk thought im waiting next class start,0 industry dropped ball this trailer movie justice opened hand full screens people opportunity see this work mouth would made successful lead actresses give great emotional performances really draw story especially characters checked based rave recommendation richard roeper ebert roeper book example great film never got fully released except screens gave chance seen movies go video quickly good oscar worthy tragedy many levels never even hear it maybe via word mouth gain following dvd cable see movie should great performances lead actresses make movie could another formulaic teen movie school special instead stands well note worthy films girl interrupted comes mind like like this br br both girls one amazing emotional scene another without coming melodramatic even though alicia angry deanna crying movie done real way come stereotypical characters melodramatic movie move many scenes aspiring actor use real performances school erica even better traffic hope actors get roles utilize talents well let shine see movie like recommend friends get lost among blockbuster crap comes every year movie buried spiderman tops records kind word living in aghhh make world right see recommend it,0 mom jokes correct time rteenagers realised people making jokes go appreciation your mom called mom fat prevent mom dont understood pleasure explanation joking my,0 im fucked quite recently type kid never homework never studied tests still somehow managed get as bs means never learned fucking study next week mock igcse exams usually important practice real exams due virus mock exams might become end year score know study parents try help really cant used were taught things school i live outside home country go international school anyone tips least get basics tests next week,0 really me really feel nothing all hated way bothered say that,0 would tell little girl everything feeling okay options parents know help you mean feeling wayi wish could tell gets easier not would sad could see year old me would feel let down betrayedand would make better decisions would something mental health end like hashow tell child spend every day wanting die could go back talk child,1 im lucky fk searching girlfriend almost years im university and yes found girl liked me like interests problems etc yes seems created other but one liiiitle problem boyfriend jeez found ideal girl next day said damn bf im really lucky person ps fuck,0 poor sandra cantu my heart go out to her family and friend rest in peace little one,0 fun fact yall play video sex backwards still looks like sex also epstein didnt kill,0 "@rokchic28 no probs, I sell nothing other than my blog http://snedwan.com I'll have to get a listen to your band, on iTunes?",0 i ve just massively overdosed on all of my prescription and it won t be long till i get peace i live by myself so no stopping it now no point complaining about why but i guess this is just a last goodbye it s too late to go back on it i finally feel like i ve made the right choice for the first time in my life it s nice thanks good luck,1 the star citizen tv and azimio blogger are internally suffering from depression hatred denial the fact that kenya kwanza is the biggest coalition party in kenya rutomusalia,1 begin with loved gta kanal lot classic jokes including unlucky guy canoe always seems wrong place wrong time still acting guy gta kanal movie opinion hes performance funny first movie fact notice much all thing made think bad movie choice boats movie race boats sure speedy make waves like big floating mansions used first movie liked old ones better new boats makes one last scenes look ridiculous man canoe suddenly jumps evade big waves small speedy boats truly minus accept were living sweden anymore movie also contains bit violence first one although movie great all ive concentrated cons disappointed rest movie expectations go see it worth money,0 out of stock on xbox 0 limied edition red elite at the moment i must have one http twitpic com y g0,0 anyone know way chance failure decently quick gun would much appreciated painless way except gun,1 get help please helphey guys im sure help feel like might able cheer listen im done life hate ive got many problems like theyre small problems theyre big cant solved easily want run away parents force stuff want do dont get abusive slowly really tearing apart im feel like marionette go school come back home start working mum day swear lasts till night im exhausted cant anything school instead homework go bed day same ive told teacher home nothing happened even sure expected grades school worst parents expect get well paid job know show school certificate applied schools got declined them im waiting get go away anywhere far away parents still wait year im afraid away id get depressed think redflag want it think life beautiful think get beautiful know ill never able forget parents siblings want go child protective services want parents get trouble know father bring mid east kill hed find out know im germany im get help please know im afraid thanks lot,1 didnt realize brother kids high pitch get dont kids want them im expected around theyre losing shit want crawl hole hide away im constantly edge im constantly startled scared theres lot yelling screaming crying end day two week vacation sorry long post dont anyone talk january see therapist next,1 im scared redflag want commit redflagi fear death knives intrusive thoughts im suicidal thoughts,1 first of all this feeling is killing me i m probably not a bad person and i ve done bad thing and hurt people and now those people have turned their back on me my trauma have haunted me i don t feel alive the whole world is in against me in my worst moment i don t want to live anymore the only thing i can offer is hate hate and hate nothing make me change i can t anymore i m going to die in vain but i can t be alive this pain go on beyond something emotional it is deeper i can t make someone believe in me i ll just do it for my pride,1 ugly girl friends giftsas title says nothing offer plan stay alive mom dies stage cancer every day uphill battle cannot remember last time birthday ever celebrated well actually spent years birthday psych hospital think someone told happy birthday someone offer friend wouldnt follow theres nothing offer ive cried every day long dont know guess im weak minded cannot stop pity party keep throwing myself one sees person would similar mean things say dont think im different people idk im writing this im pain,1 second time month get screwed landlordim house hunting im disabled cannot find place fucking life me couple weeks ago see place say ill take it dude never contacts despite contacting him hour ago spent half hours bus go see place see it say ill take it landlord like awesome leave got phone call way back hey really sorry got bad news person living with husband came home wants roommates country sorry cant move in cant keep shit up little week find place end homeless im falling apart fucking seams cant keep this every day something new this believe landlord instant think like gay tone sure changed found out im sitting bus crying general fucking wreck want home want somewhere go sleep thats it hard makes infuriating kept asking questions im disability disability was ended detailing ptsd got satisfy them fucking went nothing whole life like this tons effort zero pay off want stop fucking carrying worrying want break want couple days im worried fucking life,1 must admit sceptical documentary expecting kind american propaganda europe dislike much wrong propaganda fact hardly political allbr br it depicts events eyes firefighters called scene planes crashed amazing coinsidence documentary filmed all film initially shot documnetary rookie ny firefighter becoming a man thank film makers continued work terrible ordeal faced thembr br a great piece work absolutely stunning material highly recommendedbr br regards,0 hate muchi hate everyday im really biggest piece shit earth doubt it really dont know continue living aims life really nothing look forward anymore honestly thing prevents im way scared im failure wouldnt loss society anyone else,1 i need help managing this idk what s causing it but you know when like you anticipate something happening and you get that sinking feeling in your stomach it literally make me feel terrible it s been happening since my toxic ex and i ended which wa year ago i wa on medication and stopped because it s only gotten worse overtime i don t think it ha anything to do with that i m sick of this feeling edit i only don t feel anxiety when i m drunk which is weird considering a lot of people i know get heightened anxiety,1 neighbor commuted redflag days ago need helpbasically fucking pussy decided comment hurtful things ig post resulted taking life whole town working together figure dude bring justice get permission family spread story would like yall help find pussy ass motherfucker help bring justice family ill let know information,1 tried kill last night woke morning know feel itlast night took entire bottle xanax drank nearly entire bottle gin amp vodka proceeded go sleep ready felt really sick one point blacked out woke hours later covered vomit seems threw xanax really know feel want die dont need everything stop edit probably going try tonight knows may work time,1 movie amazing watched town next one grew up went saw buildings story took place in overall loved movie one jake gyllenhaals best also favorite parts science fair times father sad seemed homer wanted follow dream dad seem care one way another tag line true sometimes one dream bright enough light sky way movie shot impeccable believable could recorded s dress accurate slang too definitely recommend movie,0 @MonBon_afide OMG so awesome! You guys will have to tell us all about it ,0 jesssicrap not sure why a report of pain elicits such a high level of disbelief doe this also occur when patient report shortness of breath nausea depression fatigue anxiety vertigo and many other symptom that are difficult to quantify why is pain so different,1 nfs underground released november born march would game still considered new born really worried thisto honest,0 know how whenmy life fallen shit abusive stepmother controls life father took father sister moved thousands miles away me could live mommy best fried im love him nothing done there lives friend friend hates me nothing brings joy day anymore playing saxophone listening favorite bands even giggle innocent year old girl bring smile face anymore small insight list reasons self hatred so ive decided best choice death relieve world one awful soul leave oxygen people actually things lives just best option me ive struggled depression years going therapy taking meds everyday nothing works im hopeless ill pop pills many pills thats taking effect ill slash gash wrist cant fail ill written close friends specific note know much mean me ill truly free ill completed seems be escape thanks reading lt if typos please accept dearest apologies im ipod exactly easy write tears swelled eyes,1 upset fought long be genuinely need help good double post,1 piccy coming soon off to watch 90 0 god i wan na move to america soo baadd,0 standard rise fame tale high points number one lonette mckee sister gives stunning star making performance fact never became huge sensation beyond me sadly supporting character forced focus irena carters bland character sparkle whose rise fame easy boring unconvincing however whenever girls go stage perform movie comes back life original music curis mayfield must praised copy saw old vhs tape picture quality pretty low well production values im guessing all worth gander,0 @adamSEO it couldn't have come at a better time,0 friends gfany solutions type quietredditornerd problem introvert bad socializing,0 aloneits weird everyone feels alone unwanted shit like hell ive read shit time time shows think similarly could contribute disease ourselves however many people follow feel same dont think us person think sick need help just drunk ramblings sorry,1 used atm first time moms card im buying gaming laptop using permission im totally stealing anything,0 @Jonasbrothers i'm crazy for new cd! this is perfect! brazil love you very very much men! #jonasinbrasil,0 @DonnieWahlberg @jordanknight @JonathanRKnight @dannywood @joeymcintyre we are here come get us they won't let us in. . Brooke ,0 hope end soon wish could die without upsetting anyonei thought since started homeschooled going community college things would get better was time now workload catching me ive wanted become history major long time excited take history class found much harder ever anticipated love read reading dry classes lot quizzes things online hard figure everything works ive asked help becomes harder harder so feel like im going amount anything bipolar disorder also gotten worse mood swings frequent doctor afraid put medications id go hospital parents would think im selfish thing would disappointed uncle recently hospital depression supposed talk it feel like kind important go hospital shortly after parents would probably think im copycat attention ive started cutting legs knives deep enough bleed parents dont know though dont need to even should theyd think im lying wish could tell exactly feel without hurting them wont lie psychologically abuse me dont good examples it fuck mind mom constantly belittles me times acts like shes best mom world times believe it dad knows thats is even acknowledged night said used worse yet doesnt anything it scream accuse lazy wonder scream back depression makes irritable upset days cant even get bed dad says need work constantly pesters it makes fucking miserable im lashing parents ive started lashing people around me like college kids theres boy gaming room hang lot constantly tries show stuff phone hes obviously autistic something try nice him little cousin autism know hard deal that constantly tries shove things face show politely ask leave alone today followed show dumb shit phone panic attack gaming room trying study realizing lost glasses kept shoving phone face despite telling nicely leave alone eventually got mad yelled fuck off starts crying cry genuinely feel bad yelling him look like bitch yells autistic people hate bitch try nice really do want make friends im socially awkward weird people dont want around me tried make friends college far one feel lonely lost life dont know much go try provide support people going am either ignore tell im weird hate weird kid last year high school people wanted vote yearbook likely school shooter clear could never hurt another person would never something like that dont even think something like that wouldnt even consider it another thing bothers drama club used in kind stockholm syndrome thing treated like shit would never give roles three lines most except one skit main character first joined seemed like liked then maybe try hard make friends people started avoiding people started saying id probably shoot school kept distance drama teacher despite fact learned lot him asshole made feel absolutely worthless now get go scotland acting festival treating quite members like shit revered community hailed heroes one takes account scars leaves behind wasnt fact that even though horrible people know would hurt family immensely kill myself dont know much longer hold out wont let get job wont let learn drive rarely get visit friends live near me reason im still alive know would hurt family died im sorry rambling much want get chest would take long write everything bothering me quite painkillers purse right ingrown toenail probably wouldnt trick sincerely considering taking redflag attempt know probably wont work temptation getting strong maybe ill keel middle class something would fantastic again sorry long read,1 "@thetechnewsblog, my laptop! second is my 1st gen touch..",0 found poem wrote like turn now sixteen problem would still remain teen one year older would stop playing dolls tried convincing last night crying crying quietly steadily crazy people changed ones called best mates left ground swept beneath teachers encouraged learn asking memorize run run behind grade asking first good human parents well theyre supporting stare stare world questions left unheard soon would sixteen would change school best mates would disappear would treated like adult asked perfect tell cant girl alright tell fell fell many times perfect aint got glossy locks pretty skin colour responsible still hate alone would love hug bear date coming near dear seem far near knew hard turning world began see,0 first make laugh wins free wholesome award first make laugh wins free wholesome award,0 responding old postshi there way filter posts especially last weeks one like zero comments think posting getting response would pretty shitty im trying best drop least one comment every unanswered post one feels alone way pull rather tp sift posts bunch people responded to,1 it saddens me how much my mental health really changed me. depression is a thief.,1 always mad day everyday still want kill myself hate family starting hate friends hate still alive died years ago familys problems stem memy mom finally divorced stupid ass dad still dealing bullshit comes it would even left punched him treated like dog never called name instead punching offed right therebest case would blame come hell beat ass forever worst case problems still happen hear iti know guess another teen issues stem father original even sad anymore,1 birthday mine january th,0 minnie moskowitz pathetic ungraceful love story ive ever seen minnie disillusioned museum curator whose abusive married boyfriend dumps leaves even uptight confused already was seymour moskowitz parking attendant desperate attention spends nights going bars restaurants aggravating people chaotic disenchanted match start like many pairings see every daybr br in nearly every love story man woman man confident funny either classically hot attractive way whose shortcomings charming woman wounded soul could man wants chooses guy theres something him movies make everyone feel good characters embody every man woman wants be are minnie moskowitz instead indulging hint fantasy realm romance depicts people may common attractive confident people much experience playing field whats story behind love affairs ugly alarmingly awkward man life job run into woman crippled insecurity difficult talk herbr br this film fascinating cassavetess faces opening night riveting quality cassavetes always fought hard render unbridled depiction people underneath ego hides behind nearly films gena rowlands seymour cassel delivering startlingly pitiable people hardly likable moskowitz nearly drives us mad let alone minnie imposes forcefully life dates explosion inner voices respond screamingly inept uneasiness dates weve on rejections weve swallowed arguments weve know faults admire film like minnie moskowitz because trademark films cassavetes helmed himself identifies us honesty egos play part company characters thus tremendous achievement per performance actor,0 @kirstyfionagh Random follower your tweets where cool,0 borni wouldnt suffer never even was parents even make cruel choice fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck,1 "Longest sound check ever... So long that I have time to type this, on stage. ",0 hey wanna know something forgot,0 really hope help hereat first want say im suicidal right now though years off dont know right subreddit post hope guys help out heres problem years ago back school met girl fell love moment met started affair able tell one felt fear feelings may returned year sex first time us somehow lost ended talking years time started relationship friend mine got pretty heavy depression got suicidal unrelated went medication even made depression worse leaving body mind shattered anyhow less recovered life went on girl went united states year came back she still friend mine long talk made up unfortunately feelings got really strong started kind affair not physically beginning tried end unable go it ended us sex again time started suffer pretty heavy anorexia mental issues told boyfriend stayed together stopped talking again pretty much hit rock bottom getting depressed suicidal again time started drinking daily basis drugs started relationship girl school trying get something stabilize emotionally kind completely blacked everything related happened years able face emotions relating happened broke girl tried cope emotions result started drinking drugs even least facing emotions trying cope them year less back feet still drinking drugs though worse before realized wasnt able open another person able relationship really worked tried learn open emotionally really made progress too eventually recovered emotionally still suicidal time time able cope less months ago started contact girl realized still big part life still feelings her turned felt way meanwhile also broken boyfriend weeks ago met amazing talked long time found still love decided try relationship really love life her really happy moment relationship amazing anyhow huge fear happen doesnt work out feel would able go afraid would kill self broke up im afraid dont learn control fear sabotage destroy relationship feel without girl nothing live for know life without could go got know wonderful life be realize im kind emotionally depending kind emotionally depending nothing this gave hint feel fear tell everything put much pressure scare away really hope guys help out totally missed subreddit maybe tell go problem thank much reading advice and im sorry bad english hope could point situation though,1 candy say thats really great to hear i ve always loved cooking cooking is so good for your emotional wellbeing that and some therapist are now recommending cooking class a a way to treat depression and anxiety a well a eating disorder adhd and addiction,1 im gonna lose nnn keep edging balls hurt like lot kinda wanna lose virginity along it politely ask girl sex friend risk ruining friendships,0 cute oversized tshirt even bunny ,0 Its 12:44 pm and my depression has me still in my bed ,1 @lizziedr No but we're gonna stay in Shang and they're staying there too. Might as well stalk them and ask for a picture. ,0 anyone else got random scars alot faded now sometimes wake random cuts one nose long slim cut shoulder since faded anyone else experience,0 devinthedude00 actually the whole site ha finally been taken over by those damn russian,0 stay reddit going kill myself reddit cope going kill myself looks like inevitable keep alive shit cannot take,1 fking got roasted first year uni student compsci fking got roasted mom cuz im changing major art dont even know im able change major becuz im basically reapplying uni holyfk never listen people picked comp sci becuz family sister graduated uwaterloo software engineering cant catch regret everything,0 "why is there a religion exam? i doubt jesus cares whether or not we actually know anything about him. chisholm is gaayyy, then end ",0 oops... LOL Well hopefully the party will help them forget their situation for a while ,0 get rid call voidintrusive thoughtstitle says all context whenever im distracted start thinking killing myself random violent things especially going somewhere i cycle nearly everywhere night think bit leftover intrusive thought time contemplate redflag even though things changed think im even considering anymore catch awful thoughts think theyre call void people describe like tall building think i could technically jump course id never that however really neutral usually ends fully playing head seeing grieving family etc many times crying bike arrived somewhere completely drained ruined good night sleep myself anybody know way distract yourselflearn think differently etc ps listening happy music anything help often makes worse,1 think deal lifei need talk life im year old college student ive always scared fucking everything literally everything look letting anyone down treat people education finding job planning move out say point ive also distanced friends family feel much better alone love place myself away everyones fucking bullshit want hear shit already much shit own late night everyones asleep really feel peace fuck sake point tired bottle inside supposed man up everyone says look confident im crumbling shit inside im scared future finishing college getting fucking professional career able live those procrastination always biting ass im afraid measure ideals end putting things last minute normal anyone deal this good way beating this want say want kill myself idea starting seem attractive way deal lifes disappointments sometimes burst crying feel like smashing head wall even depression want seek professional help stigma behind depression need anyones pity want peace,1 "guys with big hands,,, and anything fall out boy, panic at the disco, all time low ",0 advice dogs dog adopt dont shop also check rdogelore,0 @Dimngenes: Thanks girl.. it's hard to be a feminist in a male dominated world,0 ya know probably would really good woman personality feminine basically problem acne,0 im done test,1 cypher cleverly conceived story industrial espionage set america distant future thematically complex film offer many different perspectives personal loyalty ruthlessness corporate conspiracy certain extent film also attempts represent modern corporate groups companies indifferent risks contract employees take behalfbr br the film starts somewhat mediocre salary man morgan sullivan jeremy northam applies digicorp group work undercover operative initial briefing digicorps security chief sullivan given new identity jack thursby sent business conference task recording speeches given various spokesmen concerning marketing strategies respective companies upon successfully completing first assignment sullivanthursby sent missions obtain type information previously gathered however one business trips inadvertently runs woman named rita foster liu met previous assignment things go extremely topsyturvy implications diabolical conspiracy involving digicorps espionage program begin emerge sullivan forced go deep cover one digicorps main competitors thus becoming double agent involved intense rivalry two companiesbr br spoilers end herebr br what liked film efficient use lighting shadows lot scenes vivid lighting used mainly domestichousehold settings lot shadows dark coloring used settings involving deception coverup also impressed jeremy northam often seen lead role fact plays disenchanted married man straight wisconsin brilliant personally think hes one many used actors industry given challenging roles lucy liu also incredible part gave movie real cloakanddagger tone additionally rest supporting cast superb job however complaint characters could explored make plot closure little complicated example would loved see would happened jack thursby developed intimate relationship second wife overall cleverly developed cloakanddagger story keeps guessing end personal professional loyalties whether anyone entire film trusted smart stylish soundtrack great camera work film provides scary look corporations might operate near future im surprised never watched hidden gem before brilliant nottoooverly complicated spy thriller therefore im giving ,0 endwasnt afraid birth afraid death,1 "VH1 has the 20 greatest electro 80's on ATM ha ha, love it ",0 get bad grade going kill myselfif probably will dont get college dont much live for even one f change things maybe people feel like this,1 friend took sleeping pillslast night received text friend took sleeping pills order end life extremely worried wondering effects stupid decision might be thats enough death im unaware drank alcohol them notified mother responded besides saying me too told worried lives different country im nearby need someone give experience hopefully let know everything okay,1 jamzeee i knowwwwww i sukkkk take care of my gurls,0 slight existential crisis time read albert camus make crisis productive drown thoughts music hope go away,0 want gunif gun would easy dont want go pain method bad cant get one im like bc checked hospital would rather die go see relatives tomorrow christmas get boring ass new years,1 checking outi want help anymore want try popped pills already chased drink ill probably smoke little let hit me feel helpless hopeless give fuck anymore feel bad putting boyfriend family since kind take kicked house think ill mention anything him ill fall cold slumber side tonight,1 i wish he would delete her and not talk to her anymore i have nightmare about her every day for month but now they ve gotten worse i wake up time each night and after am i can t fall back asleep i wake up cry feeling paranoid depressed and betrayed what doe she have that make her so important that it s worth hurting your girlfriend over to this severity it s not like i don t want him to talk to anyone but me recently i saw him hang out with a large group of people and i felt so happy inside i know being in a group and having people around him make him happy i could ve joined but didn t i wanted this to be his moment i want him to have lot of friend i m just not comfortable with him having a close friendship with this girl who ha an obsessive crush on him all while trying to keep it hidden and secret but i see it everywhere we ve already talked about it and he know how it destroys me seeing he hang out with her instead of me he ha deleted her before but a few month later added her again and now they hang out again it s ruining me,1 listened green days jesus suburbia good prepared that id recommend,0 people right id love talk anyone pm want to really awake rn,0 "All day Im at home and Im studying...soo fuckin' boring,but tomorrow will be fun!go to bed now - good night everyone - ttyl x0x0",0 title says rrying fit in cantit much mei want give uptheres ppl care me want suffering endeven means mire pain others tired living lying trying lie okay,1 life sucks work hard days week lot anxieties since child never many friends growing maybe people thought weird shy timid due anxieties home hard growing up dad hardly home either working bar coming home late drunk mom used dependent still exhausting keep mind f years old family bullied physically emotionally growing up calling kinds names could ever anything little friends hurt friends even family road almost impossible trust people feel unloved insignificant small every time always tried right thing good something always come way destroy it cannot even look forward anything anymore trust anything good happen gotten used things crumbling front me wake days angry fact woke want end life much coward so guess need finally bite bullet it folks wake tomorrow one would care,1 send photos or links photos irl tank ill best identify it multiple submissions cool,0 fucking it fuck you depression fuckign it fucking told stepdad depression shit went well im flurry fuckin emotion rn holy fuck fucking it almost years years hell fucking told somebody actually help me fuck yeah im losing shit,0 @Nanersz hayyyyy lmfaoo. omg. that means... phone?! steppin it up... i'm lovin it.,0 hope best prepare worstone day ago tried contact one girl social media really liked school fact already done blocked year ago main account talked her courage alt account add friend access profile because set private private messages they set friends only right even checked not since sent friend request late night i really scared push add friend button entire day scary me worrying outcome possibilities almost day long well really know work not right want check added me declined friend request straight blocked also really scared that so check it declined even blocked again guess try commit redflag going enough reason it stack top problems life really bad stuff like p s sorry related anything posted here wanted share side story guess well see goes,1 @melindawarren1 hahaha slap yourself ,0 waited waited film come outthe trailers seemed years worth it im big fan watching films cant wait come buy big fan jim suited perfectly much see feel good factor scale perfect christmas think ron fab job turning film seen so have watch again know want to,0 ditesh haha i m unsure what i can deliver for fo my i m not using alot of opensource software hail adobe for being expensive,0 obviously enjoyment struggle period lot us least remember time enjoyed personal hobbies even fleeting five minutes every year years writing song painting picture sipping tea book walk park sunset one around meeting friends family whatever collective happinessenjoyment seems unreachable cannot remember time could partake it collective would going euro football people work talking it taking day it meeting pub celebrate getting hyper rowdy etc thinkwhat point rich folk kicking ball brings millions people happiness even though actions kicking ball alienated individual could anything sporthobbyrally could world cup olympics basically anything collective anyone feel way express better christmas another collective would always felt depression worsening starts september shops basically demands collective celebratory approach leads new year many countries blast millions poundsdollarseuros sky five minutes collective enjoyment could spent health education homelessness would rather celebrate christmas enjoying day day it good food good company anybody else struggle collective enjoyment,1 aight thats it im quitting school wants get group like people run away bulgaria enough people paying rent wont hard,0 bit scared watch movie due rates living italy titles like never ever come across love step much decided give try surprised was story different dancemovie ive seen lately deeper meaning winning touching well written well directed raya strong character love fact never doubts herself mature focused aware talent and talent rutina wesley has jaw dropped final dance scene way pursues dream refuses let anything stop is honestly inspiring also fact typical superhot chick see jessica alba briana evigan jenna dewan zoe seldana makes really appealing real seriously movie rated low understand first minutes good work really good actually even cried end movie dancing routines sick,0 god cringe asocial isolate myself cannot look people eyes ashamed scared judgements know anymore know anythingi feel like robot know breathing nothing makes happyi got many things grateful yet filled hatred emptiness feel empathyi cannot talk people cannot fake anymore broken want work want anythingi want disappear want live rest life blanket watch netflix pretend whole world existim tired want work point me hate want work base have way built mentally yearsim worthless waste fraud nothing makes happy got nothing talk about awkward loser hate much,1 ok so i am up and driving...going to play 3games with less than 7 hours of sleep ahh man i hope it goes well ,0 @admford so... 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I know who might be the right man to ask for advice! ,0 month almost of being chronically unwell and not the same person because of shithead fucking parent forced me to go back on a medication that didn t help nobody cared i wa lulled into thinking it could never do something like this to me no positive covid test no positive test for other virus like lyme i guess lexapro just decided to ruin my life for whatever reason i m not linking my story for the millionth fucking time i m this is my life fuck this i can t even cry because the medication fucked my brain up so badly,1 cant anything righti exist weak disgusting gross ugly cannot allowed continue living worth loving less nothing never anything bring misery coward awkward stupid trapped putrid body end it stop saying stupid bullshit ruining friendships want die want die want fucking die whyy say promised wouldnt die stop hate keep ruining eveeythi ing stupid fucking stupid im sorry didnt mean iy im sorry please forgive im sorry dont want lose another one please dont leave im sorey im sorry pleasse im sorry end stop happening agaii n im sorry please dont want hate friend oly person listrned please dont leave im sorry im disgusting im sorry like didnt mean im sorry please im sorry end keep going nothing anymore reason live end like wanted friends fuckinvstupid killmyself putrid filthy diseas must di e befrore wont bettor worse im sorry one miss im tioo horrible omm sorru goodbye im ssorryh,1 missed day asking people join cult sorry failed guys massive oversight part come regret horrendously please upset gravely sorry another note join cult lil nas x,0 @AydinPaladin @vadimnewquist @Toxic_Fem @WaitImCurious You got the quote wrong first of all and secondly where were all of you assholes when her and her ilk pushed a person who im glad called me a friend into depression? Where was your moralist boner then?,1 it happened this morning we were both good friend we had many similar interest we rocked out and jammed to metallica a x and other metal band however we both lead different life i wa currently studying and he wa a dropout i grew busy with my internship and i did not talk to him a much i know he contemplated suicide before but that wa a while ago and i assumed he wa okay until today i feel like i have let him down i should have talked to him more often we were even planning to hang out soon i m at a lost for word i want to cry and let everything out but i can t i just can t i m tired of everything just a few month ago my family member attempted suicide because of my mother s infidelity i m not even sad no more i m just sick and tired,1 i didn t see that many cherry blossom this year,0 lay bed hours point back pain get work minutes clock in motivation anything days off literally stare computer screen force something bare minimum find wanting end it would bad ask myself lonely always broke hopeless disgusting looking half blind know nobody could ever actually want me decent paying job always playing catch financiallyin end resolve kill myself though want continue living would upset something killed me think id grateful always tired,1 kevinpeterson the g case were like that but scratch don t void your warrenty dent do a i found out,0 marthagonemad agreed i wish it could just be pure and easy fun,0 depressionanxiety college studentim college freshman first diagnosed anxiety depression freshman year high school lot anxiety stemmed academics feared experiencing everything full intensity again third quarter stem majorhopeful premed im falling apart ive frequent breakdowns past quarters im experiencing double intensity want od multiple times week thoughts consume day im falling behind classes despite exams least week not mention midterms next week instead watching lectures cry sleep day wanting wake up know life look forward anymore university students advice,1 phone use thread collecting data mostly im envious classmates shiny new phones im bored saturday,0 deer americans like legally able get pished ur rum tataty kareoke vrchat meeting cool german austrian also swede honestly voice fire fuck like yeah singer mans slayed love quality song mans hot absolute banger murican legal yeah sucks b u,0 livehi redditers posting feel like whilst people around care much cant understand hell exist in yo female anorexia bulimia early s diagnosed depression medicated therapy since ive depressed since then many periods suicidality year ago lost live things free fall care anymore still dont ive problems alcohol drug abuse sober months moods cycle rapidly often multiple times day recently also diagnosed borderline personality disorder low immunity probably depression get multiple colds flus year polycystic ovaries acne herpes endometriosis lost mum suddenly brain aneurism stigma herpes devastating could probably deal shit that prospect telling future partners causes much anxiety always use condoms always worry possibility infecting someone else wouldnt wish anyone dont get physical symptoms stigma worse anyway feel dirty damaged like one would want put risk that prospect gossip labelled also terrifying drugged g probably sexually assaulted earlier year say probably dont remember it found naked balcony afterwards dont drive live dad havent able work study year due damned depressed idea want careerwise one true passion life ballet wanted professionally wasnt allowed drop school it quit havent experienced passion happiness like since smart attractive kind family financially secure people always tell look much have makes feel guilty like someone else life scattered friends group depression broken me im end tether matter do always end back here many times someone that im emotionally numb didnt bat eyelid possibility sexually assaulted feel like sack bones floating space ive learnt repress emotional pain point dont feel anymore cant keep shit doesnt get better feel empty heavy time hollow weighed weights made black holes went emergency week ago felt psychotic kept thinking throwing nearby cliff id nightmare woken didnt stop nightmare life im medication go therapy sadness centre always there always end back place torture want sink back earth turn dust,1 silverlines aaaah jadi tiba pingin butter sugar toast huhuu,0 everybody seems want something cant anything wellbeinganybody else feeling like that,1 im,0 @ggroener2 hey thanks for the follow i really appreciate it im also following you back,0 Download movie "Jackass 3" http://tinyurl.com/caotku cool #movie,0 it s been a year since mark speight died a year go so fast,0 he knows live go school moms ton debt dad right job dad longer working gonna lot harder pay off also go private school costs lot deal this,1 tf respond crush said how bo boo goddamn,0 just couldn t sleep last night working a p than dinner with megan happy bday jl,0 about three week ago i quit my job of year after believing spending all my time at work wa making me severely depressed day after i quit were the happiest i ve been in a long time but it quickly went away and i got trapped into another very depressed cycle i haven t put any work towards anything in week just moping around all day until i have to go to sleep my biggest problem is that i feel like i m watching my dream die i would love to entertain people like how most people do on youtube etc but i have no talent no skill and a horrible lisp i ve started many project but have stopped all of them really early a i have no motivation to keep doing them anyway the only option i have left in life is to go work another job be unhappy and live the same miserable life or i can kill myself it sound bad but i don t have any problem with suicide my whole life is built on regret and failure with nothing that i can truly be proud of honestly i don t want to go through with this but it feel like the better 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And we pretty much hate most movies. ,0 because i see a lot of people thinking they re alone with a certain problem slight trigger warning my panic attack have caused me to self harm my depression got so bad that it affected my physical health i couldn t get up without feeling dizzy for month i kept waking up,1 assisted redflag people mental illness needs legal nobody deserves feel like thisif gone process countless times countless medications work whats point making someone go way living want die let go terms hospital bed surrounded friends family love instead sneaking middle night blow brains out,1 guys sort new reddit want see latest newest memes old moldy ones sort new,0 house mate acting manic lately like clockwork locked bathroom knifej got drunk instigated fight partner b things bitchy funny sudden j goes room starts violently making b bending presenting slapping refuses sex leave separately phone sister complaint middle j returns apologize lucidly mentions hes going take long bath loooong bath locks patio smoking course know means last time took knife made threats harm time threat took away block knifes still one missing ran car met first kept running returned things calmed down cancelling credit cards ripping bills figured whatever takes get go bed j went bed called redflag hotline advice eventually referred local university history knowledge never gone therapist doctor this claims family pediatrician said change diet make work journal anyways worried would make appointments actually keep psychiatrist kind worked panic decided call ambulance could asses vital signs instead police came ambulance j gone sleep situation calmed down wanted paramedics see police eventually actually convinced see ambulance took hospital voluntarily hes drunk cant kind hold theyre told me couldnt bear waking find hurt dead dont care hes mad still want reassurance right thing do,1 Running is my happy place - it helped me to overcome postpartum depression and continues to help me cope with life while also providing a workout to stay healthy. https://ift.tt/2HtOAPF  pic.twitter.com/QVXStW5eus,1 Survived a mostly Internet-less weekend with the help of a few friends & a lot vodka ,0 What is Depression? Simple! I am मे me me me me! And प्राण down. Not taking in breath but out breath high. Depresssssed. pic.twitter.com/58NtKquTiR,1 @mcwccj thanks oh btw pls ask scott to finish his homework so he can play .. ,0 @killastar is Andy Bellfluer getting more funny or what he made me die laughing tonight with his drunkeness,0 i need therapy and i finally fully acknowledge it i am an unemployment year old student in lebanon middle east not the u my parent are some old school arab folk that would never entertain the idea of me going to therapy and the fact that i could never share the real reason behind it only make thing harder and the possibility of them cooperating even more impossible thankfully i can figure out how to sneak to therapy behind their back and although i have it really hard money wise i could afford a mid to low budget therapist a long a it will get me anywhere it would be the absolute biggest financial burden ever but i guess i got ta heal my problem among a couple lesser one i am what would be best described a in my own word casually suicidal i have been for so long just wanting to die and although i have no intention to act on it it weighs a lot on you to be jealous out of all thing from people that die around you i am scared that talking about it to a therapist might make her have to break confidentiality another thing that i am worried about is that any therapist i d go to might not be okay with me because of my belief i am pretty certain that my nihilistic philosophy backed by my lack of religious belief would have to be talked about problem is that i live in a muslim community and in these community my perspective on religion isnt taken lightly what is your take your opinion and all of that sorry if the text is messy and all over the place i just wanted to journal and thought that i might use this opportunity to take someone s opinion a well,1 saw last post mkay im starting dampd thing theres room people ill say might accept later dm discord youre interested itll e teach ya need id prefer yall side world fine ya also discord dove,0 odds 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reciting original poetry getting community excited sister writing unfortunately evies poetry mother starts happy boy next door shows interest evie evie tries figure really wants dobr br what keep mind watching movie evie really is brutally honest person mind telling ivyleague types respect them would seem odd would able pull lie someone happy cheerful quite emotionless comes certain issues character flaws theyre plot development mean lot first seembr br mostly something melodrama character lies characters personalities propel drama relationships held risk terms writing fresh bold acting helps writing along well maybe idiotsavant sister could played better real joy watchbr br the directing cinematography quite good theyre acceptable evies world wreathed color light makes beautiful images consistent really much flaw result low production value within value genuine storytelling real care characters perfect movie certainly enjoyable onebr br polarisdib,0 there s this guy that i like and i know he like me i ve never had a boyfriend before and i ve never had my first kiss so sex is a big step for me however he had a girlfriend of five year they were high school sweetheart they broke up two year ago because she left him for another girl she s pansexual he knew that she wa pansexual but still she left him they probably had lot of sex if they didn t have sex i d be extremely surprised i just feel so insecure that i m such a novice i m not going to be good at it and i feel bad that he is going to have to teach me so much stuff,1 life taken turn worsti feel like life keeps getting worse worse hard want kill myself fiance cheated third time stupidly stay hes made believe deserve nothing better wish could fade awaym,1 getting ready to clean the house from top to bottom,0 want existliterally every fucking person life starts hate get know me fucking annoying stupid complete waste energy hate fucking much want end it ive attempted twice even much coward choose method definitely permanent oxy xanax nice way go next time picking something never waste anyones time ever again,1 weird contract myselfsometimes thing gives comfort idea cant get job end year sign time leave stress life worth theres nothing look forward life expensive familyfriendspartnerdependents anyway wouldnt affect anyone,1 pros conspros i wont feel sad i wont feel lonely i wont feel pain i wont feel disappointment i wont deal stupid people anymore my boyfriend find someone better i stop burdening everyone especially loved ones cons i might fail fuck life even im scared itll hurt ill feel bad whoever find theyll try save waste money my boyfriend blame i dont want hurt mom my friends family might sad im frightened ill end hell,1 common sense gt intelligence better common sense smarter thats,0 lost job today great week feeling horrible lost job,1 ight im sick nice join fucking snapchat call cunts im sorry aggressive join call friend aaron,0 reddit changed downvote color mildly annoyed filler filler 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Carry on.",0 #braintech very interesting to hear about the use of pk11195 marker for inflammation and link with depression. @NIHRBrainMIC where can we read more about this?,1 xombiexs of course what aren t they remaking at least with haley i have a bit of hope,0 woah worked ampxb httpspreviewredditauizonkpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsbcbcededfe,0 greek mythology buffs need help kind challenge would athena give halfbloods see worthy godhood im roleplay given temporary role athena idea doing,0 guess today last full day alive tomorrow big dayhappy birthday guess,1 havent app week wholesome award wants,0 anyone wanna dm want someone talk toooooo gtlt,0 bon j ai de nouveau tait au m decin hier mon arr t est prolong jusque fin avril et j ai un psy a voir pour parler de ma d pression,1 number day day guys rn,0 ok dont hateim im serbia life like dad hates son relly shity guy befor mom disapointed school granperenc died days ago im relly depersed nobady talk sad trayed kill self failed 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looking in like arquette finds deep jungle forced choose whether fight lifebr br i recommend movie purple plain well similar story similar setting makes fascinating comparison,0 good ideai thought killing every day while combination drugs unprescribed want them also want safe environment stabilize ive think going mental institution good idea fmla cover work days miss,1 one favorites betty white leslie neilson sparkle romantic comedy one business executive reevaluates life based expectation death within year playboy tired golddigging young women seeks relationship vital mature woman got silver hair andor romance heart microwave popcorn curl honey prepare treat,0 downloaded tiktok regret downloaded little ago see like ironically thought gooduntil minutes ago looked page saw video girl getting tattoo preceded orgasm guy tattooing her guy tattooing slipped fell over never fucking grossed entire fucking life fact someone would post tik tok bad fact hasnt taken worse fucking hate tik tok people post it,0 ive attempted redflag three times im state im contemplating again lost hope heres story fthis redflag note like rantasking advice everything started two years ago life pretty much started spiraling went straight downhill warning friends emotional support family anybody else lost hope felt like everything meaningless attempted redflag twice mother found second attempt get help call ambulance let suffer throwing everything eventually blood three days straight told nobody family kept herself reaction anger understood first almost lost daughter became way much show empathy sadness worry angry kept yelling me calling stupid ungrateful something reaction made afraid want live afraid die point nightmares dying mental breakdowns daily thought dead two years absolute living nightmare nothing worse depressed suicidal yet terrified afraid dying like forcing live wanted to want mother angry knew disappointment everyone around me last school year became depressed get bed also developed extreme anxiety mom dad pick school daily basis kept anxiety attacks mental breakdowns terrible missed much school grades started dropping everything felt meaningless me kept hearing insults every side either parents younger sister lack energy live losing appetite caused underweight horrendous amount stress parents school mind became eventually much me even self harm helped anymore sleep even though insanely tired eat even though starving felt like anymore worst thing anyone talk it friends supportive family destroyed maybe even mental state itself one day body gave up fainted room parents took hospital seven days went diagnosed mental illness sort of tetany basically means big amount stress start attacks shaky body unable breathe pass out another shit plate finally winter break came by able get away school toxic people could finally fix sleep schedule least little bit know hospital made realize one cared all visitors parents brought food everyday one really gave shit me lonely make imaginary friend head could talk least sounds crazy became attached one me was skip way january mom finally decided take action after two years went psychiatrist surprise got diagnosed severe suicidal depression extreme anxiety got shit ton meds went home thought good way become old happy self happy meds supposed make happy right no realize make bunch melatonin come brain could go youtube post motivational videos still depressed sometimes looking back even think got worse time spent internet specifically youtube reddit got tired friends feeling lonely even though socially awkward overall antisocial person tried reach worked holy freaking shit worked felt happy happy first time two years felt like fireworks exploding smiling found amazing friends reddit definitely best ones ive ever had thing mental state id doubt myself mind would screaming deserve someone much better secretly hate friends pity decided first time damn life focus little selfish ignored thoughts felt like top world honestly ill never feel like ever again magical life backstabbed again made thoughts stronger selfishness believed every single thing mind told fell little tricks mental state got even worse self harm got worse again skipped school tried slit wrists kitchen eating sleeping medication mother found me bandaged wrists put bed angry looked tired like fought whole country ukraine herself blood whole kitchen wiped razors thrown away redflag note looked like nothing happened laying bed even though moving could still feel dizziness heart felt like going explode head took good ten minutes get rid blurry vision finally focus mother sitting next me looking many emotions eyes mascara around eyes smudged asked why thing told already wrote note fell asleep never took longer nap that felt like slept whole day honestly thought mother finally understood me finally getting grip mental state like shed supportive oh boy wrong i forced lie everyone told make story anyone including sisters psychiatrist asked happened last piece hope ever crushed like that next therapy session psychiatrist told burnt arm making schnitzels mom well believed it definitely mom fake alibi understand it mental breakdowns became pretty much daily thing kind actually idea eyes could come doze tears friend time internet friend told everything felt like absolute shit totally hopeless lost worthless suicidal something made feel type way gave hope everything would okay again silly believed it felt good dream hope id fall asleep holding pillow pretending him id talk sister time point got annoyed listen anymore drew comics them love found light darkness mind become best thing happened time hope would fade one day come back other it finally got guts talk mom told ill go psychiatrist tell everything unknown reason agreed go me think way tired done even procrastinate told feelings redflag attempts that something kinda funny happened day look away mental breakdown disappointment moms eyes told hed lock mental hospital redflag watch crying saw face still accomplished something day actually invited lesson gave norwegian students studied psychology talked english not native language mental state felt good really nice mom even told proud me got locked mental hospital risk commiting redflag week horrendous treated us like animals cooked disgusting meals threatened feed us tubes nose finish whole thing the nurse told first hour there yelled us constantly extremely strict point even go toilet get water also mean every visitor let us shower everyday like supposed to wednesday saturday disgusting craziest week life first time life happy back home excited see comfortable bed teddy bears mostly could talk friend course fuck things up was friendless again hopeless again therapy working meds working nothing working mom kept constantly telling head anf stop depressed easy said already found friends here nice get speak up like barrier let myself felt like at point exfriend took hope happiness him take long mind start hitting huge waves depressing thoughts even bigger waves usual also take long believe fall it already broken heart broke even found one wanted kill themselves think ive ever felt hatred disgust disappointment like moment took sank almost killed person someone almost died me felt worse murder ever could now im pretty much here feeling worse ever shit happening everywhere around hopeless depressed suicidal agonized self genuinely know do meds work therapy work nothing fucking works week left school starts feel like last drop know im expecting think advice would nice read way here thank you,1 rd bottle rum alcohol thing numbs pain drunk n sad,1 hold gotta rant quick sec work ass weeks straight buying journal writing goals working hard everyday hell even played videogame weeks moment take break days get rest dad rides ass need start fucking self improving fuck im looking praise get ridden taking small break dude wtf anyway thanks wanted rant love yall,0 deletedont know else post this care think might clinging things understand reinforcing them im suicidal anger problems reckless bad money skilled freelancer cant get work im starting think illusion really reasons angry sad depressed really reason happy except want be maybe want be maybe unfamiliar scary maybe scared everything thats struggle even simplest tidbit bad news maybe awful person like mind tells me im pathetic sad maybe thats used to think dreams dead nothing makes glow anymore inside nothing matters thing get angry angry im hungry is future looming ahead certainly kill us much anger myself everyone much judging anymore judge say should help anything things need trhat would help me scared do grown man scared even wake face bullshit tomorrow brings many people would trade life mine instant selfish spoiled brat deserves internal torture getting know whats real guess one people care im sick myself want someone else possible anymore probably not ideas cling to ideas me ideas people me defines person things head truly sick handle ashamed them know sick people disagree me cling sickness wish many times dead tired shit since little kid fear anxiety shame guilt awkwardness backstabbing know room people good long anyone read now comforts me knowing one give fuck say ironic discovered today cling notion people listen me like infuriates listened to makes sound like huge selfish prick guess am whatever see normally would want defend explain like fuck it like want be see try correct anyone ever let die let hate me hate they deep inside feel like really love everyone world realize awful are awful natural world is awful am come conclusion evil terrible needs destroyed ramble bad things would make better could since cant nothing matters migth well dead stupi dis that stupid much say do stupid normally id sorry say mean it get like this trying protect anyone already doomed world especially protect stupidity least possible thing spent years trying learn communicate well still suck it care anytmore makes sense flapstick jo jo cock lapodoo its going ghet views votes anyway care quite opposite hope one sees it want read later easiest,1 spiralingmy job source depression point mental illness anyone talk even bc want burden past days back feeling like want die contemplating methods again feel really control im scared feel matter life always hits low points really truly feel like life pain never get better want nothing exist,1 The goal of our program is... to prepare students for jobs that don't yet exist. http://cms.mit.edu/ J'aime �a! ,0 a known now i am m and identify a unlabeled and that s great i used to identify a bisexual but now identify a unlabeled since i feel more comfortable with it straight to the point is that i m scared of how my parent will think of me in the future and how i will tell them my sexuality reason are is that i have a gf and i want everyone around me to see that i m straight but they won t anymore and they will see me a gay because in the future my gf will most likely become trans and switch to being a guy i like guy and girl but don t like the label bisexual idk why so that s why i identify a unlabeled so i will be seen gay to my parent and i live in a catholic family so i m nervous how my future will be and it curl my stomach to think about they said they would accept me if i wa gay but i told my mom i wa straight and her reaction wa oh thank god and now i think she could of been lying idk that reaction make me nervous for the future i m just trying to live a a kid now and enjoy the moment while i could,1 @TiffCollegHill6 umm u have to click where it says following above someones photo ,0 @Honey468 Have a great day! ,0 i wake up and expect to deal w the same shit i had to yesterday life is gettin boring to say the least,1 really lonely day hard want talk someone please tell someone day was,1 kolchak tv series really fit category part horror part comedy social awareness thrown in something think people ready for shame really ive started watch shows chiller network i never saw originals realized different interesting really was br br starring darren mcgavin kolchak reporter international news service simon oakland always angry boss tony vincenzo show followed exploits chicago news reporter often not became part story himself searched windy city modern day creepies go bump night underlying charm macgavin really sets show apart somewhat goofy guy always wears suit cannot help love him jokes great back forth skeptical editor oakland downright hilarious br br the stories part pretty good acting good s great period special effects show suffers it suspend disbelief fun series ahead time,0 cant even express vent app without someone seeing bitching complainingthis dont open cause people dont care say shut stop whining someone kills exact people say reach someone like wtf,1 ngl flamethrower might solve problems due assignments burn em dumbfuck mosquitoes annoying you burn em spending wasting wayy much time mobile time burn annoying siblings ill intimidating af w flamethrower bored flamethrower,0 sister told last week know dohi im new seeking help little sister going really rough time im starting think may want end it long time sister who still high school diagnosed depression anxiety month ago clear lot longer time something wrong name put it depression bad couple months ago quickly escalating particular source believe depression really close something would tell me tells lot life home bit rough ive seen conditions terrible father sometimes rude recently talking redflag told found easy methods killing herself might last week always tell things like we need you love you the world would different without you without id nothing never convince her never scared worried safety would anything get better know talk delicate people depression something individual help her extra info using prozac little month says helps clearly still active thoughts redflag im sure appointment therapist march believe know much time left help do want sister ok,1 ordered suppliesjust seeds dried leaves specific plant eat drink tea paralyze lungs idea year over sayonara suckaz,1 melb ausis anyone melb aus right now dont know fuxk do,1 drown alcoholi drown alcohol people around want drown lake realise difficult thoughts getting hand realise way thinking normal realised happy myself realised hated anyone ever hated me even realise drank way much drink drink drink drink hoping would never face reality but,1 cant resisti friendsmy parents think im idiotthey dont love menobody wants talk diseasecant play many sports disease life shiti want redflag,1 anyone feel like world ending someone leaves you friend years told want want friends want end life,1 every time someone makes rant matter small thier parents guy dms run away home never talk again know im one made similar rants alts got dm guy,0 told parents depressioni told parents believe depression go well dad told make choice world god although hed allow seek professional help going work theyll drug therapist much except sit around listen problems told solution best ignore feelings follow christ knows fact god real get worse realize it asked least loved myself lied told little said good would really serious hurt thing keeping going parents telling last resort also said fault feel way fault letting wanted to mom said youre gay you also asked suicidal thoughts lied told no thought could rely time need theyve failed me dont know keep going nothing close giving up,1 im even motivated enough get go kill myselfi wish dead dont want painful kniveshanging out access drugs could job pain getting gun huge long process pain ass cant even motivate get chair go building picked jump fuck off,1 im mother still need selfharmi started selfharm still often im suicidal attempted redflag many times experience staying er two weeks od family son family parents left me maybe left them ex husband terrible sometimes feel born suffered never felt happy life always care people think me lots scars body today hurt too like punishment still live im person deserves happy world im already cant stop selfharm know im crazy ,1 cant sleep ramblingi dont think ever able provide life lifeless children like one family provided me dont think world better without it think life could better without future it dont want posting here want better life friends partner im trapped now riddled inertia dont courage say so could never say person barely say myself insulated consequences reality years thought different always thought different it theres release anymore took dont think thief feel like even though dont now wish could sleep still sleep couple hours night dont know dont know redflag post dont know is could fall asleep finish fucked dont think future take anymore took realise wasnt much dont feel like person dont recognise text authentic experience ive made victim life feel like ive lived dream already still resented it need awake two hours twelve eight least case foreseeable future maybe long all might putting prison dont really think often didnt resent loved free like would like exhumation could go walk darker used ill stay now dont access weaponry use myself,1 i m doing really bad mentally i don t feel up to typing a paragraph explaining what s wrong in my life rn i just want somebody to acknowledge me and let me know that it s gon na be okay,1 question going hospitalso im incredibly depressed noone talk to call pessimistic think talking talking someone via reddit seem like would helpful go er right speak someone would entire process like suicidal thoughts everyday courage actually follow it wanted discharged would picked someone im also would discharge me last time went hospital suicidal thoughts transported psychiatric ward private clinic actually called told risk kill myself tldr want go er want held transported elsewhere do,1 "Me: New job, good pay, bills coming down, got health insurance, new friends, going out more, having fun... life's better!Depression: pic.twitter.com/8mKP8APsRF",1 id like someone talk toim verge taking life im planning tomorrow hoping talk see somebody help figure better solution life currently,1 feel like crying right past week half worst really feeling great right ,0 dont feel like anythingi feel like im going cast aside forgotten im already people dont want deal get it im annoying mistake still hurts one person could make things better wont even try makes really sad thought meant enough that everyone know tell things leave alone expect able im lowest hate way dont know born way want put bullet head stop constant agony,1 give upi dont know fuck do feel fucking useless miserable try make new friends get ghosted time girl know irl ive talking year seemingly blocked number unadded snapchat reason dont know wanna give living done worrying anything,1 mizzzidc if you were my sister after doing this depression will be the least of your worry co i ll beat you to coma and the pay the hospital bill and new nike shoe by your bed side,1 ifstrawberry fields forever gorrilaz song listening question came mind know else ask it yea,0 "wow, i found all of brennan's messages saved in a word document. they're so sweet. i love him so much. 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there s literally no reason at all,1 well day posting every day get girlfriend got friendzoned hell back yesterday im damn wreck never told parents gonna confess her actually never knew like her im trying break front wont understand im crying theyll get mad telling them fucking hurts though happened stupidest way too working facing dairy bakery guy came joked us making cute couple really didnt appreciate joke made clear friends felt like id stabbed know didnt mean hurt me im mad her im really sad still doesnt know like her cant tell now would hurt shed feel bad happened yesterday send help,0 care anymore good world cant even perceive im caught suicidal thoughtsi friends asshole cant change mother cant even stand company grandfather nothing live to anymore dreams future know im going school job ill hate pay bills ever wish could lay turn off courage kill myself pray get killed everyday redflag mind point cure kill stop thinking it bad brain stop perceiving bad want die badly wish could cant whole life going wracked depression ive seen older people post sub depression really never get better gets worse biggest regret every day die day before im fuckup loner literally cannot make friends break friends future future hell anymore except die almost thirst redflag wish somebody else could pull trigger heavens sake,1 stop focusing much getting girlfriendboyfriend instead focus awesome are see many posts say stuff like im horny im lonely gfbf dating solve problems must fix going looking someone date all cant even love yourself gonna damn hard love another guys talents theres life relationship guys envy couples see chemistry match awesomeness store funny memes good technical insight great artistic skills amazing musical ear tremendous literary skills etc besides developing talents get people notice more that bring inspiration reach full potential chance influencing peoples entire lives thats way better dating imo besides teen relationships last another important thing remember know find person right you trying take anyone get like setting curse upon yourself often times barely know people even know whether genuinely enjoy them takes find someone worth wait meantime you,0 my lung and chest feel so weak for the last month i feel like i m not breathing properly and exercise make it worse the doctor have done load of test ecg x ray tube of blood everything came back normal and fine please help it s everyday and i feel like i m dying,1 need help think im depressed dont know though major anxiety fucking cry sleep every single night fucking worry one girl im fucking love cause im fucking dumb want make sure shes ok time ive suicidal thoughts dads trying get therapist dont know til then do,0 get cross human dna whale dna banned sea world,0 got advice boyfriendso girlfriend depression started datingweve together years now she might inherited part dad last almost year gotten really bad also anorexic really thin months getting bit normal alot therapy etc depression rolled mug around corner full blast told last tuesday extremely suicidal she asked sleepover adviced therapist would kill otherwise home aloneher mother stayed home hearing btw sister heard got cancer friday girlfriend said really wanted kill tonight felt really guilty sister cancer called mom go theyre calling help everythingshe already therapy planned morning question knowing already getting help boyfriend help her,1 i can t stand the constant shitty feeling of depression in my chest head and stomach idk how to put it into word but pretty sure every depressed person know what i mean i can t shake the feeling and everything is starting to get under my skin and send me into such a downwards spiral of overthinking and overanalyzing everything so much to the point that i overanalyze feeling sad in the first place and minimize my own feeling i m not motivated to do anything except sit around like a blob and waste time and space my fiance is a blessing and doe so much to make me feel better but he can t be my savior and it s been so hard just to get through the work day and go through the motion i know it s temporary and will pas cause that s the illness but i feel so awful and helpless rn i forgot what i m supposed to do i hope typing this out will make me feel better thanks so much for reading and have a wonderful night,1 ive lost count times seen movie love find funny time see it facial expressions slapstick humor timing jokes makes great characters especially nitro sonar stepanik hilarious thought kelsey grammar rip torn bruce dern great job fact think movie perfectly cast think need released dvd wear vhs version out,0 would lot easier give upall push ive pushing pushing keep trying find happiness gets shut every time thing makes happiest im helping people see joy eyes anything big small take care myself too passions hobbies goals calligraphy love music great passion coding im good it still pushing nothing brings happiness much weight me actions directed towards helping people losing luster get anything anymore things others see joy get rush it means stop finding ways make people happy find way make happy want redflag easier finally look interests interest what ignore it supposed change wrong according society looking interests then cant selfish killing selfish cant it everyone selfish everyone looks themselves best interests mind best path end it care anyone else thinks justified mind justify anyone else get joy anything im supposed look me like everyone else wrong seriously tell me wrong makes sense something makes sense it would destroy people yes theyve done me too care cop out cowardly move no tell owe others it owe anyone anything besides living owe people way live,1 "I bought the cd today Demi Lovato's "Deluxe" is very good recommend for everyone, now I'm eager to go tomorrow to buy the new cd from JB! ",0 @Mommy_Ginny ut oh he gonna have his cranking pants on later! 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labwhat delta team soon discover doctors latest weapons flock large carnivorous bats genetically altered develop taste human flesh found movie much better expectingthere lots action lots blood less would expect creature feature acting great passable certainly seen worseoverall enjoyable movie is good popcorn movie,0 get random facts day decided make daily series not anyway yesterdays koalas use smell tell friends enemies apart teeth bone clean things first aid competitions church forbid coffee the devils beverage pope tried liked it said it would shame good drink wasnt appreciated everyone biggest crab japanese spider crab smallest crab pea crab smaller adults pinkie nail apparently bananas actually weed turn earth black hole squish size peanut removed empty space every single humans atoms billion us would fit area smaller apple gravity neutron star powerful landing one would atomize spread microscopic pieces whole surface area inspector calls written american cars honk key f first 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really wanted to see that movie but i keep getting distracted,0 confront mom trigger warning depression self harm originally posted radvice need answers asap okay ill try make short possible basically life going downhill friends left me cant keep single relationship anyone im beginning feel burned school first time grades quality assignments slowly dropping context ive self harming since im now ive clean months barely resist urge anymore cant even think whats stopping me lied psychiatrists therapists telling ive never suicidal thoughts hurt anyway also havent therapy months person close best friend knew self harming beginning parents dont even know know struggle anxiety depression dont know self harm ive expressing interest going inpatient recently only friend said thinks would good me ill tell relationship mom context shes emotional im closed off gets upset lot time dont like touching hugging kissing me used fight lot going school think little better im homeschooled today good day lot fun hanging sister mom im room feel horrible feel crashing down really want go downstairs hug mom cry tell everything convince put outpatient im scared ive never felt like wanting tell probably wont ever feel like do,0 i m great at acting like i m happy sometimes i actually think i am people think i m very personable when i m in group setting but a i get older i m finding it harder and harder to keep it up i know fake it til you make it work for some but ha anyone here faked it until they re actually happy most of the time,1 relationship weird relationship weird little context answer shes im started dating almost months really happy together im afraid people frown upon tell relationship far ive told people trust sets parents know mom it happy wont let explain myself honestly feel like could go long term her title asks relationship weird might delete soon friends know account didnt enough karma throwaway,0 adamcurry is it possible to add another stream option that us the regular 0 0 0 port i can t stream noagenda because of fw proxy,0 feel like taking medication sitting bathtub seizure drowni cant get mind im fucking lonely want get work badly come home anything everything enjoyed boring feel like getting home get stoned go bed tomorrow repeat never ending circle fuck cares nothing would change gone doubt anyone would even show funeral probably felt obligated go,1 im homeless dollars name lessi quit school depression found job due corona doubt job would make better point still live home dad seeing im technically adult kick able contribute rent cant even mad that note ready two nights ago gonna get incredibly drunk could barely process pain slit left wrist way elbow dunk mess big bucket warm water accidentally got drunk lost knife physically get bed try find it passed couple hours sober enough get feet throw entire contents stomach glad got toilet still understand going on ended calling mom crying phone hours dad came home day yesterday said angry drinking expensive rum rewritten note know ill go probably go pick cash bank gamble away week motel ill end somehow im money think week half now that,1 wish someone elsei hate myself sucks cant anything im afraid time one likes me everyone bullies me cant live myself know do cant escape myself im thinking taking life,1 thoughtsi feel like failure burden im lazy failing school back plan actual waste space money could give away life someone deserving id heartbeat theres much pressure know others worse dont want life anymore,1 i havent slept a wink severe insomnia arghhhh why,0 #unfollowdiddy FOLLOW ME!!!! ,0 peeled dead skin pp dont ask tbh dont know plus kinda satisfying kinda idk im trying make post longer post,0 @BriggySmalls happy to be the 1st to *high five* you dude! ,0 pissed size sonics chicken sandwich sonic american fast food chain usually get drinks nothing else today feeling adventurous put dick somewhere cock before actually order meal sonic settled something basic something simple ingredients tastes good nearly impossible fuck up chicken sandwich however twist fate perfect demonstration true american exceptionalism means dey fucced up shit fucking tiny half inch tall fit palm hand friend embarked experiment ordered burger four times big got meal fit man meal fit child meal fit victim starvation shit evan fucking meal still dignified enough let antwich go waste ate two fairly average bites wouldve looked like scene attack titan scaled normal sized sandwich overall conclusion came experiment order anything drink sonic demented psychopath locked away greendale asylum,0 suicidal thoughts please watch video kill hi guys ledgeedge please watch wish someone told please share someone needs help area httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvuexnltqqyhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvuexnltqqy,1 @polo65th oh did u!? fa sho fa sho im glad! ,0 seriousi afraid friend may try kill herself need advice xpost rmentalhealthhi reddit concerned life friend mine need know get help needs despite her order possibly prevent taking life going try stick facts know them intertwine opinion s started showing signs illness early s diagnosed anxiety disorder bipolar disorder knows mental health issues state mind appears to dictates willing accept mental health issues meaning one day may agree fully diagnoses another day say nothing wrong doctors wrong days cross two think issue one part symptoms sometimes events cross matter minutes instead days conversation say one help mental issues moments later claim mental health issues contradicting herself extreme paranoia causes hate distrust doctors jump doctors much possible especially tell things like refuses believe paranoia also slowly ruining relationships everyone loves loves ill discuss bit outright refuses take responsibility action deems negative distort reality to justify beliefsviews due jumping around different doctors shes lots different kinds medications know ones when know kept single cocktail medications months paranoia surrounding husband became extreme would become abusive would go old pictures ask women background relationships them would show work try meetings superiors regarding behavior female coworkers became physically abusive started hitting him go rage local psychiatric hospital years now year visits increase year already times always hold hours release her husband understood sick desperately tried seek help her turning blind eye abuse himself one day work attacked one small children cps became involved told could protect children would taken away them criminal case brought da protection order put place kids emergency custody provided husband moved parents husband choice start divorce proceedings afraid cps take children away requirement getting restraining order since living parents raged them twice year call police forcefully committed psychiatric ward however mom trying seek help beyond specific incidents sabotaged every relationship had cheated husband friends become paranoid accuse things illogical extreme blame everyone else everything going wrong life done extent one left including myself care her forced distance due behavior cannot hold job sleeps day parents house one talk her forcing state isolation husband friend still wants help her however due divorce put kids her increasingly found situation wanting help odds protecting children told started increase discussions ending life started bring increasing rate even going far say believes death would benefit people however end time brings up say really plan it like said mother issues enabling daughters situation seeking help her recently another family member tried commit redflag know concept brought forefront mind husband literally know help her feel like true way assist would require cooperation mother refuses accept severity issue however would really rather wait friend tries commit redflag get help her know do sorry jumbled mess tried explain everything clearly possible however timelines jump around somewhat thanks help edit formatting,1 sometimes get sad think itll look friends get married llamas llamas trick,0 "I think I would know what depression is. And quite rarely do I slump into a paralyzed state where I want to be in a dark room away from anybody else. But every few weeks or so, I would wake up in the morning and nothing seems right.",1 roast battle post pictures giant roast battle rn balls,0 individuals joined subreddit past months redflagthe silent pandemici havent visited subreddit past months until today damn number subscribers increased from around cant help link covid associated stress isolation sadly redflag remains silentunspoken pandemic,1 @glitzerdoll i love we the kings ,0 give some love to @racewayreport ,0 dumped commit redflag help preventmy girlfriend year broke last night attempted redflag life years ago shes always dealt anxiety depression went therapist small bit wouldnt detail extreme feelings saw hospitalization money time burden parents told morning shes going hang tonight ive trying talk positive options influences has feel powerless know isnt place whether kills herself help better life anyway ultimately preferred help please share advice anxiety skyrocketing,1 worst song ever heard reason makes feel nostalgic httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdkemljb_ihttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdkemljb_i,0 viewi wanted get opinions this obviously dont feel comfortable talking people know ive depression probably influenced view redflag alot used think redflag terrible thing ooo im gonna go hell die blah blah blah im mature enough realize life meaning whatsoever like humans natural survival instinct manage realize real purpose life point keep living mean even end suffering depression real purpose life go it im sure guys get alot views,1 my decision is irreversable and ha been thought through for some time i don t need any you shouldn t do that dont give up i know my action will be egoistic for people around me but i couldn t care i won t suffer so they do not have to go through my suicide should i leave a good bye fuck you letter or should i just do nothing,1 What's new in digital mkt? ,0 you became this person in a dark room in a dressing gown completely unable to function if your child is experiencing depression there is hope for recovery headwaydaily see more at http t co meofhaqkel maudsley learning familymentalwealth familymentalhealth http t co fce bptkzz,1 missed some good oppertunities,0 need talk someonehelp,1 so unfortunately a the title say i have bad relationship anxiety and anxiety in general although it can come and go my girlfriend went out a couple of night ago and although i trust her my anxiety work up and my head belief that she is cheating she doe not have a clue i think this way nor doe it effect our relationship but i ve the shake all day and feel exhausted after my mind racing and playing trick on me how can i stop this,1 done much get here financially stable looks fit healthy thought id happy not kept trying think things different thinking it made it enough kept betrayed used feel dumb vulnerable wish anyone myself people like gets sacrificed movies people live better lives nice sin sign people available used abused taken advantage of never learn lesson keep giving people second third chances tired things better years ago time stop trying time end all means lose point it responsible suicide,1 desperate getting life back track hi kind people recently leave school handle load things home making everything worse family sorely depended father everything financially parts africa kids raised investments theres mental health available teenagers long time ive depression anxiety panick attacks first know happening googling symptoms seeing professionals confirmed assumption tried self care thinking positively generally trying make moment better yesterday dad recently released work due downsizing weve drastically change lifestyle first born blamed everything goes wrong house surprise got blamed dad getting fired since day worse before unable cope school failed subjects im extremely introverted person hard share anything life anyone kicked home dreams shattered idk do covid pandemic creating graphic designs clients would go local cyber use phone which old slow work im doing im asking kind souls kindly assist raising money getting laptop i found hp elitebook around avid graphic designer upcoming programmer mainly works phone hard cant share email according rules anyone willing help dm ill provide email tldr got kicked out depends phone source generating income kindly asking kind souls help fellow redditor raise around ,0 loved movie much im big fan amanda byness recently ended show admire herbesides body acting capability good actressbr br the movie great girl named viola wants play soccer school cuts girls soccer team gets upset brother set go prestigious school decides leave england viola wants make impression playing soccer team boarding school goes school tries soccer team gets in meanwhile meets duke sensitive guy plays soccer team really likes olivia laura ramsey likes sebastianwho really viola sebastian dating monique suspects sebastian himselfbr br this certainly chick flick enjoyed lot funny lovable think seen amanda act better,0 listen fools this o lt wave basically like saying hello this o lt like putting arms air like celebrating basically this o lt salute this john cena lt invisible dont know even managed type name wow,0 late twenties depressed many years maybe since childhood cannot reckon notredflag since school whenever single hooking sex life great untill partner three years split it break since last months sex used masterbate well less resort therapist telling making depressed think masturbating helps makes worse depression,1 Did you guys like the video? ,0 @reBang It's officially the weekend. Let the #IDGames begin! Back to Metaplace in a bit. *nudge* ,0 size makes wood rise im goin get called pedo even though im younger people here,0 think romance movie helps couples develop deeper appreciation other although saw one goof early part movie fairly well done plot make cry think situation enough loved itwatched twice already highly recommend it,0 honestly even know want birthday anymore friend whos always gifting something years lost interest collecting things seems like get another thing birthday year another add shelf full things,0 much lorazepam hydroxyzine needed die peavefullt cannot live loke thks amymlre dad keeps saying dead really suicidal allmy fault help,1 pointto whoever reading teen made lot really bad mistakes life even young age relationship family mostly dad patchy this struggled confidence since years ago thats things started go hill im still really self conscious lot stuff do im starting wonder theres point sometimes thing stopping jumping flat window disappointed dad brother would my mom left years old picture im even sure theres point feel like im starting go bit numb inside im unsure life really made im bit lost guess,1 indefinitely grounded according father proceed situation tldr parents basically fucking hate called sorts terrible things arrested small weed possession threatening demolish social life improve situation,0 @obsidianmansion GIVE ME 4 HOURS ILL DM YOU WHEN I'M DONE W MY DEPRESSION NAP,1 need stop spending money stupid stuff legit spent game sole fact raccoon game cover proceed complain money,0 call police well check mom tonightim mother bad relationships current significant told leaving morning drinking spree since am well hour sent picture car dash running garage saying tell blabla love im sleepy hot going see mom heaven broke tears immediately called cops well check turns sitting porch drinking beer showed up pissed hospital texting kinds shitty stuff ruined life not still feel like right thing get chest even know belongs sub reddit,1 gimme unpopular opinions go go go mens rights activists dumb abortion wrong only pregnant person decide whether abort people confuse cancel culture accountability way often superiority complex religion dumb probably unpopular judging amount people think theyre better christian something idk bragging reading books makes look like complete idiot people bad parents hate alexaok google etc,0 bother emotional post worthless life is someone wants talk little bit mindive pretty suicidal year now told single person except younger sister and best friend drunk cant bring tell anyone know selfish narcissistic is it going completely private little attention possible still might it feel gay even posting throwaway account right now feel like talk someone soon might happen though im sure think want happen nothing good right now mean all theres another way besides killing myself think want least try offing,1 mlp fandom fucked up even pony jar whole ass popular mlp fanfic universe plot rainbowdash commits brutal acts eugenics year old like ok checks,0 My tooth brush sings hold on ,0 hypothetically covid china would let spread you,0 saw spider scared initial reaction saying fuck asshole dont know thats better worse last reaction spider fuck shit penis cock,0 Finished with the interview on "All Points West"; thanks to everyone who tuned in to listen. ,0 personal article mental health holdback darker selfi wrote wondering people could critique it httpspminihuo,1 went mothers house again memories came rushing back know thisi went back mothers house year half lying bed razor surgical blade next ready cut deeper ever before memories came back even know had cant fucking this ive tried killing multiple times called fucking liar courthouse every therapist concellor besides two called liar psychologists said lovely woman im dramatic fuck sakes would beat me constantly scream me punish brother did watched molested nothing left alone fucking convicted pedophile multiple times allowed eat would call fat cunt even though underweight every individual rib visible literally anorexic body besides arms legs reason could fit fingers collar bone fingers shoulder blade ribcage fucking perfect top fucking abandoned year old me pm happened metres back suburbs away closet place could go locked noone home got sitting waiting metres away convicted pedophiles,1 Kyra and I are hanging out with an eight year old girl tonight. Glitter paint! #fb,0 crying hours minutes nowill able end long days,1 less want die want liveif switch end life think would pressed now whole process dying scares me want leave body mess definitely want make unsuccessful attempt want another years living life long already enough good bits make bad lonliness,1 "@AprilOj But, you know he comes back . Wow he was HAWT last night. My hubby had to leave the room...b/che thinks something is wrong w/me",0 @kidstube You might want to look into getting something like http://www.electronicwarranty.com/ the next time around ,0 see year bitches fill next year im going leave reddit now,0 hey hey hey chuck us zappo,0 "Meditation can contribute to your overall well-being by decreasing stress, anxiety, & even depression & in turn increasing positive emotions. Join our 30-Day Meditation Challenge to see for yourself! BONUS: receive free meditation instruction during May! http://ow.ly/vzhg30jGeYo  pic.twitter.com/JkF4qGA4Hw",1 racist anything racist fuck marathons like bruh cmon aint one got need god damn marathon,0 im like kids mentallity doesnt allow depressed,0 human decorate think special brother talking ancient people mentioned people undecorated spears saying dont find war important claimed mesopotamia people idk history nerd human beings decorate believed important cars painted air force pilots paint blue planes sometimes people pretty cases phones put stickers laptops get tattoos piercings make many types art creativity isnt virtue way human embed souls onto something came realization argue disagree whatever one person read happy felt like needed share people would share something like asleep creation humans imprint world,0 hello peoplehi im much pussy kill think even valid place anyway ive recently started new therapist last two quit feeling better school ending everytime appointment lose emotions get anxious easily irritable want talk problems always feel like theyre enough actually make anyone care worst part emptiness mixed dissociation sometimes feel sweet nothing im body followed feeling anxiety generally negative feel like bitch wishing depression worse wish motivation people would really care would need antidepressants anyway partially look forward things might make happy partially wanna kill everyday like worst problems world hate fact laugh ass anything ever actually feel anything sad it eooukd nice talk people dont get tired listening,1 watch movies nick mancuso because frankly love guy even though ages typically cast baddie longtime fans note reason blond flick fairly familiar movie terms plot but movies days exactly original rick roberts appealing imperfect husband martha macisaac equally appealing daughter mitzi kapture good job goal angry sometimes pretty hard like nick still got terms able demonstrate charm psychosis however much plot takes place offscreen like motivation prior behaviors good times bad times things seem apparent characters never quite make audience ie me final scene leaves everything desired but about category overall cant say cared much characters said reasonably entertaining way spend afternoon still like nick,0 know writing feel post here since long remember making fake personality acting like everything okay making sure one worried mental health getting worse worse everyday know much long keep going wish could talk someone around depression feel deserve help think ending everyday make accident wish could make go away,1 thought really great movie especially since jut filler me bored got library really enjoyed myself ive watched twice two days watch like iti thought plot going really corny end really could said would true liked main characters thought well cast could see true friendship thought excellent job ending goodand really hate bad guys really like good guys movie supposed like,0 ive always fascinated ninjistsu would know go beyond ninja iii fun creepy intriguing ninja gets shot police uses spirit revenge victim lovely young woman named christielucinda dickey falls cop involved shooting love scene pours v body knocked out ninjas death gets attention another japan named yamadasho kosugi comes america save christie put ninja back grave simply put yamadas left eye shurikenthrowing star fight scenes excellent liked part plywood falls yamada splits foot caught tells officer christie involved everything fine rule thumb never estimate ninja took cops without killing them thing without worry course chirstie best trying put ninja place using tool revenge good movie great martial arts buffs stars,0 @Pink yeah pink I love u too and I am a cat !!! Love your work Meoooooooow,0 rice purity score live shell life,0 dont really know say hereon saturday mom house im going one two things im going either find gun may may hidden somewhere house shoot head bedroom im going run away nothing change clothes find way kill another way cant find gun course dont want sympathy ive gotten enough that dont want help people tried im beyond help im done living life alongside people lie cheat treat like shit used afraid people would gonem dont care want die wont face whatever happens put bullet brain selfish maybe dont care anymore threatened living story life thus far especially mother never consolation love asked wrong feeling always threats anger frustrations never telling wrong mom love me maybe probably going change decision kill two days all cant keep friend without teased bullied brunt jokes cant hold conversation girl age matter time theyre drawn away constant sadness boring personality youre likeable youre good looking funny things dont think would situation burden ive set friends teachers family many others finally lifted wont holding back anymore long find gun hopefully go quickly quietly nobody hear news spread among school especially hope special ceremony goes me let die fade obscurity extra unneeded pity sadness thanks coming ted talk,1 everything try feel better fails much shit continues turn me sick become feeling want quit die want fucking die please fucking quit want die,1 fatherinlaw committed redflag best way help wifei know best subreddit ask found fatherinlaw committed redflag shockedsadangry mostly worried wife best way support her best terms know feeling guilty recommendations,1 morning everyone in serious need of some decent coffee why isn t the catering open yet at 0 0,0 Please depression disappear. This shit haunts me daily. My dreams have been really nice they just never materialize. Just fear & sad emotions rule my mind. Sorry but this is where I vent. I know I'm a loser but hey things could change. I hope & pray for it to happen foe me,1 feels like rushing endi feel rushed anxiety killing me going go working trip san francisco make money able work months still sick pain mostly unbearable feels like hours non painkiller related time day get things need done ive sick body aches approaching months doctor multiple times visit nothing thought beginning flu basic blood tests nothing keeps coming back killing feel awful top preexisting medical issues chronic pain feeling like gall bladder attacks sometimes every day im honestly freaked moment think would good idea go work trip need help ive tried schedule doctors appointment another doctor try see get second opinion current doctor nice working out total years sick months flu like body aches stop tracks really second doctor called see prescription painkillers hes doctor town cannot afford leave town medical appointments people unreliable flat cant afford gas spent left savings january vet bills put dog due stomach cancer feels like snowball like situation feels like taken away cant go anything due fear death thought could family members even father take care of hell like cant sleep anymore like semi normal person even thing gives sense accomplishment lately playing world warcraft pain hate existence much driven crazy wish something could clear path person could help get shit taken care people vicinity indifferent think need buck fuck nothing go day reaction medication sign weakness im tired im sorry mess,1 rejection hurtsi applied job school lowpaying great experience leadership position would look good resum interview went great opinion girl conducted interview told sure id get job unfortunately interviewer one hiring passed notes hirer unfortunately me previous contact lady hiring aware mental illness selfharm previous redflag attempts got rejection email job today vaguely stated i lacked necessary skills job may sound ridiculous cant shake feeling perhaps hired lady charge hiring want crazy person staff team also threatened back october selfinjury continued would ask leave residence may looking deep reason still rejection hurts desperately wanted position knowing part reason get could scars wrist hurts even more thoughts,1 died long agothe person died long ago im like zombie body person chronic mental illness addictions hit literally even person,1 Downtown is amazing. ,0 heard america get paper cut ambulance drivers instantly sense it kick door force gunpoint go hospital charge much money medical bills family bankrupt generations americans confirm deny this,0 "Sworn off school work, going to make some music today ",0 selfish want live anymore specifically kill yet want live cant deal ive done feel like deserve live guess explain why i essence forced now sort ex girlfriend half years sex month ago night prom yes finished high school afterwards friends house house empty girlfriend making out sure wanted sex not asked said want get caught suggested go somewhere else said want get caught said wouldnt agreed went sex things seemed fine later found felt forced violated feels worthless says want live cause able completely say second time issues previous guy relationship never got physical guilted sexual conversations sending pictures etc forgave cause could see trapped cage guilting stuff helped out thats second time feel responsible happened feel like allowed live making want live said victim here know do cant hate hating also wrong thing selfish want cut punish want alive cause did thanks taking time read this,1 hat alland good life everyone hah nice end struggle without victory over time give atoms back universe thanks loan tried tell younger pain ends here regret nothing cant lucky eh life,1 cannot stand anymore day get closer closer edge say fuck jump terms fuck life honestly ask brought care people around me care this boring tedious hate every aspect life understand neurotypicals prance around like earth lives amazing gift life hell want part it,1 finalim drinking final drink right hot chocolate bit hot burning throat little thats okay need worry soon soon ill saying final goodbye bye older brother bye cat guess feel guilty leaving them do preoccupation death stronger that then final walk train tracks ill wait theres chance train come delay day so mind come back tomorrow need be then final breath ill relish moment feel pain million pounds steel roll me ill dead final glimpse world final heartbeat final moment worry anything writing actually kind calmed me im going go kill now im still posting this,1 @blwbyrd Am stuffed!!! Good tunes by the way ,0 think im gonna anything need get something chestive struggling severe depression last couple years anything particular im about struggle me im last years lost grandma parents divorced brother got cancer made redundant twice feels like im getting kicked dick life daily basis really ground pretty dull point thing is ive thought redflag quite lot again due struggle getting day im sad anything particular way think id totally end life family know much would upset them especially seen everybody dealt brothers diagnosis im selfish enough put that sometimes though get angry them know it feel like im going hell everyday even realise it feel like im trying convince deserve punishment something really dont sorry ramble wanted tell someone really anyone talk to,1 although my colleague and bos have been really supportive and nice to me my mind tell me they secretly hate me or just won t express something they don t like of me in the fear that i m new i m socially awkward and many other thing about the job and conversation of the day echo loud in my head in repeat and i just can t think of anything else i scroll through the gram for distraction or read through my astrology happening for the day i don t know how to relax or quiet my mind so many thing bothering me at once,1 @lornayee i hope to try one soon ,0 better die ruined biosphere starts killing us offto billionaires run canada america rest world giving ultimatum cease operations make efforts give wealth property days numbered know are addresses properties distributed locations homes masses learn give wealth good humanity lives earth rest days numbered spent run living fear ampxb ill either dead imprisoned tomorrow this necessary evil capitalism needs die ampxb hanging myself react deadly force towards anyone attempts restrain prevent redflag ampxb cry attention threat back off cure narcissism materialism actually fucking fight world worth living for ampxb im going end life today tomorrow hanging myself psych wards already destroyed life im ready go,1 literally worse person exist sucks traits people want bad acnei overweighti stained yellow teeth worse grades ever literally failing everythingi literally bad everything do even failed attempts one knows went school normally next day friends tell fine funny istg fucking annoyed literally opposite literally destined succeed praying every night die sleep safety net literally dk myselfokay rant lol pain,1 stop read entire life decisions choices made reach read random thing wrote yeah here,0 long take pass selfhangingive already got rope ive research sources say take seconds others seconds also want die asphyxiation suffer pain put others im drop hanging knowledge long take lose consciousness hanging redflag,1 think mom found self harm context decided share quote freud found internet unexpressed emotions never die buried alive come forth later uglier ways left that really random quote liked one heck coincidence really notice marks arm must say props her thats nice way saying im talk need me without getting personal ps know tell talk her please spare that due gender dysphoria believe quite lgbtphobic,0 @PaulaAbdul I haven't seen broadway in a while. I'd like to see wicked. I hear nothing but good things. ,0 @AshleeLuv rofl cancer children *dances*,0 cant forgive something heinous teenager cant stop thinking bad awful ami dont know start even start really struggling past weeks moment feels life difficult times anything dont know do brain keeps fixating event late teen years think im worried means life whether im worthy alive moment stupidity encouraged family dog lick there didnt last long couple seconds maybe dont know fact capable thinking split second thats ok even option mortifies me terrified makes monster akin people abuse molest take advantage weak innocent makes feel though dont deserve live redflag constantly rattled around head release hate ruined life story never look back fondly past self capable thing mortifies me wish could take back really do worry ill never find love feel dont deserve worry never able enjoy sex time anything enjoyable related sex partner reminded worst action plays constantly head ruins everything feel guilty ashamed want stop thinking end all need know horrible compared rest humanity want know horrible awful disgusting was feel trapped horror story making every second feels like skin fire want die know go living knowing im monster cant believe this dont want beleive,1 cash help hey guys give advice cash management earn side,0 carlyw haha i cried i guess he did,0 cant say embrace romantic comedy found little funny it find endearing entertaining heartwarming terminally sweet witty moments found bittersweet outright comedicbr br i liked one barrymore grown much actress always wonderful catch big screen translates well small screen too fact subsequent viewings like one morebr br if fan romantic comedy may bit put lack comedic effect one romance definitely foundbr br it rates frombr br the fiend ,0 fat girl made suicidalhello yall ive fat entire life make matters worse fat tall well huge beast vertically horizontally late s gone entire life like this get treated like invisible time friends i two them lovely girls inside out usually want go usually end watching stuff dancefloor dancing guys time presence acknowledged anywhere people making fun dated guy would call fatass time would tell lucky chose could date girl ended broke w though really bothered dating know caliber girl man would want with said recognize important lose weight i pounds bad healthy amp trying recently became vegan more ethical reasons started gym membership even though terrified people make fun something weeks reason feel hopeless think figured bullshit person around make contributions world world better without me job dislike mainly spend freetime playing video games fucking around python stupid cinematography projects waste time probably it rarely go w friends anymore were close were basically everything would better around anymore maybe im lucky reincarnation thing come back beautiful wish anyone suffering tranquility life able attain,1 arielehenriques why do i feel like your preaching to me lol damn i m guilty,0 monkees surprisingly big favorite mine yes might original manufactured rock band gimmick certainly reached overkill st century however music holds best s offer last train clarksville daydream believer im believer im not stepping stone valleri pleasant valley sunday great songs written good songwriters boycehart neil diamond goffenking john stewart great musicians songwriters likable screen presence plenty appeal stuff actually decent tv show dated stuff still watch show occasion time capsule life magical dangerous time us historybr br however know portent things come likes kelly clarkson monkees want considered manufactured puppets recording company despite average talents wanted write songs produce albums call shots came tours sadly turned disaster especially peter torks choice jimi hendrix opening act nixed due stealing show heavy sexual suggestions music compared monkees grated contentbr br however final nail coffin monkees until infamous motion picture head head written bob rafelson jack nicholson allegedly high maryjane film received poor reviews made box office today film cult classic ahead time delivers message minds youth summer angerbr br head really plot basically one four monkees lurch scene scene without rhyme reason go eating diner seeing davy jones getting bashed sonny liston western sucked vacuum performing concert forth film basically offers oblique opinions wrong american society monkees bash commercialism war vietnam american policy censorship establishment greed read lines see targets derision werebr br the monkees spend lot time boxed certain junctions film symbolizing felt record company saw them nothing toys play time record another hit album scene outnumbered western scene could symbol session musicians songwriters record producers whatnot controlled careers cannon fire way saying begonebr br the film truly psychedelic trip behold flashy tiedye colors hypnotic concert belly dancing scenes druggy imagery everywhere acting actually good thats biased like monkees tv show small soundtrack features the porpoise song three songs written monkees themselvesbr br the film actually hilarious scenes occasion although maybe supposed be mickey dolenz beating coke machine give soda violent punchups boxing scene i mean wiry guy probably weighed laughing upbr br all all movie absolute mustsee monkees fan think lot people feel movie indeed over head obsessed s society time find great time capsule,0 give life nothing uphill climb what drugs keep happy nose bleed middle class cause it nothing gone right everythings massive failure cant look anymore ill work shit job school buy drugs kills me give up,0 know know kelly legend hoping film would accurate depiction life may disappointed creative license taken film eg naomi watts character never existed reality look purely piece entertainment holds pretty well ledgers performance title role quite solid taking mantle cinemas best ned not hard considering previous neds include yahoo serious mick jagger former carlton champion australian rules football bob chitty great footballer poor actor location shooting film area live bacchus marsh outside melbourne well clunes ballarat,0 "Exercising regularly cuts risk of depression by 16%, study suggests http://news.sky.com/story/exercising-regularly-cuts-risk-of-depression-by-16-study-suggests-11346264 … pic.twitter.com/4QYiR3iknT",1 so i prepared everything to just end it all cause i no longer see a future for myself i literally lost all meaning in my life and i just have no idea why i live anymore everything just feel empty and i just want it to end i guess but idk why i m even writing this i guess i might want to be helped but it just feel so empty my family doesn t even have an idea that i sh i just want someone to notice to care please,1 @MatthewSantos Definitely root for the Cubbies! ,0 taking lethal dose diphenhydramine tonighti depersonalization derealization im convinced im living simulation way death life made shitty nothing real im inside computer feel like thoughts actions arent even mine want end depression feeling tonight taking mg diphenhydramine enough kill me live brain dead bed rest life miserable death option escape,1 stay gotoday day second thoughts tools backpack deed work want go though it hate much feel like life irreparable place want ball paranoia stomach go away scared damage im going leave behind empathy left family could care less parents siblings going feel girlfriend going happy this twin daughters months old people actually care for understand know daddy around anymore playtime funny faces snuggles want push them cant cant handle emotions constant whirlwind mind anymore piece shit even thinking this office right want it may go hospital instead decided yet either way getting settled tonight,1 sleep time tomorrow is gon na suck,0 @Vivbb h�... may l� chi?u nay tr?i n?ng ch? hem c� n�ng ,0 body dysmorphia making suicidalthe past month save last week going well ive made many friends put socially everyday look forward talking laughing really seem enjoy talking me even decided well chose start medication depressive episodes really thought could get happy myself ive even almost completely overcame disordered eating habits havent counted calories two months body dysmorphia one thing cant beat time spend social situations worse gets im exhausted im becoming obsessive controlling behaviors regarding appearance fucking tiring spend hours picking outfits trying on throwing rejected clothes huge piles bed every time wash hair blow dry it straighten it curl it go bathroom multiple times day reapply makeup check appearance spend hours flipping pictures analyze facial asymmetry skipped class today felt thighs chafe naked getting ready mental breakdown wanted kill overwhelmingly sad lonely crave death ill finally free body thoughts self loathing sounds freeing inhabit contorted sack flesh anymore im everything fight this yes therapist yes supportive friends family talk to dont instagram understand psychology behind way feel logically know im attractive girl nice body many nice features body dysmorphia always there dont know else try fight it want release im sick living like this,1 @tinyvamp they sure do and i recommend like..every scent https://www.waxmancandles.com/index2.php,0 "For ex: Should a person with anxiety vape a sativa, yes ? No? Depends? Or ,if someone has deep depression, which weed strain is good, which is not, etc",1 think timei want end it right seems everyone know mad me reasons control whole life mess would easier end it guess still cry help here lets see anyone change mind late,1 @com4myst_blgspt thanks ,0 "@LeoMoctezuma Your guess is as good as mine!! Ha ha!!! If u find out, u need to tell me. ",0 love friends much appreciation post group project refer last postand difficulty help apologize group mates unexpectedly one started really mean melike really hurtful knowing project super upset cry told one friends really upset told worry comforted right away tried help bestfriendwho group me saw bullied super confused asked im ok said still know project took piece paper wrote step step instructions send me finished part im still thinking amazing friends are theyre best friends could ever ask for deserve them theyre best people planet,0 always returns autumnevery year without fail thoughts come back fall theyre little whispers around september october hits feel like im inescapable emotional prison want smoke drink starve cut disappear favorite season always means return thoughts matter much prepare feelings thoughts still feels like new excruciating pain every year feel everything except connection empathy every fall feel depressed empty hopeless lost cant even connect around im numb want stop need end im begging want enjoy favorite season again cant stand cavernous feeling chest anymore heart somewhere there abyss,1 going downhill againi thought mental health improving wrong started taking antidepressants may helping past week constantly want dead ive started worrying friends often talk dyingkilling myself fast forward today ive paid client work them im broker broke exactly one antidepressant left honestly id expect last post dont think go anymore even energy try fight anymore win brain im done,1 "@southwestscreen Cool; I'm going to turn up to talk about it afterwards with you guys, as I've already seen it. ",0 first post rantive reddit account years breaking lurking streak mine make first ever official post cant keep anymore last year month november something happened me dont wish talk much feel like overlydiscussed life makes emotionally tiring mention specifics incident again ever since then past months never wanted leave world badly used talk closest friends ranted whenever ive felt lowest think eventually theyll get tired so hence ive since stopped all lives live too frankly feel busy care dont blame though anyway result that never felt alone past months everything feeling kept inside theres one really talk to yet despite feeling lonely reason choose push away care opting isolation instead occasionally deactivate social medias delete apps turn whatever notifications messaging apps dont talk family much anymore find really tiring even answer back simple yes no many times ive thought ending life never seem able find courage so often would sit balcony home finding courage push edge ive tried constantly researching ways kill myself tried mixing alcohol medication thinking ways leave world find redflag constantly mind im currently serving national service military now past ive handled live rounds thought everything ending simple squeeze trigger often drifted mind thoughts hanging bunk camp common too ive recently started selfharming something havent done years feel like reason havent ended yet though people care dont wish cause inconveniences pain them feel sentiment slowly going away isnt worth anymore doesnt help slowly drifting away me honestly past always thought redflag would way would go incident last november idea seems way believable now sleeping hard me often cant seem fall asleep night whereas day think sleeping camp tend drink much alcohol takes fall asleep else would lay awake hours every night go bed wishing wont wake next morning do feeling horrible simple things irritate me sometimes tired emotionally care too live days life right huge lack motivation feeling zombie kind sleepwalking days im always either side spectrum either dont feel anything feel everything really tiring either way concludes first ever reddit post,1 like something inside matter good things get want destroy myself maybe trust myself band signed record deal staying boat mediterranean happy want jump ocean keep swimming till drown take thoughts go away,1 and it has me so upset idek what to do. like there's nothing i CAN do. but ik im gonna have to write those other two exams in 2 hrs and im not in any mindset to bc this wave of depression just knocked me the fuck out loooooool,1 @ChrisandCal I'm gonna check them out online tmrw! ,0 @DebbieFletcher oh my. sound's yummy!!!! i want one 2! ,0 this is the second time i ve felt this weird sensation it s like in the back left part of my head literally feel like someone s taking their thumb and pushing in my head for like 0 second it feel like pressure slightly building up then vanishes anyone else i ve had brain sinus ct blood work ekg all clean scan,1 parents let go friends houseim years old allowed go friends house min walk let go cause school days sunday hes cursing bad kid crying asking good reason cant go says cold going friends way way stay happy want kill myself hate much want stay house alone time,1 @guineapig66 I can relate to the inertia caused by depression. I think I've lost 3+ months this year due to meds which made me so groggy/sleepy all the time that I couldn't write at all - or read Add pain to that & you get a rabid zombie lol! I managed to edit quite a bit this weekend tho.,1 iti asked dad ass dogs heres happened asked dogs acted like know anything all oh anything ava stressed said fun mess spanky day made mad lost temper claimed mean it know did all wish dogs dead said sorry could go back time would never again good go ava spanky sort closure apology killer ill able die peacefully,1 okay i'm getting off the computer and starting my study weekend at 10:30 and ending at 4:30. that's 6 hours.. exactly like school. ,0 get to speak to my boyfriend til about so happy but then cant speak to him til may that may hurt a little,0 i haven t really worked a stable job in a while and now i ve got two of them i ll be starting both this week and i just have the jitter i wa a different person year ago so i didn t get a nervous but now i m feeling overwhelmed because i for one i don t socialize with people ever and i havent been truly employed for such a long time the job aren t hard job but it s a real establishment and a bos and co worker and i m just nervous i don t want to mess up because i need these job if i want to move out i just want everything to go right,1 holy crap killed brother killed sims accident worry save every day rolledback last save,0 im bisexual friends say theyre default settings referring it dont think homophobic think is prove is,0 want hurt familytheyre one with exception real friends ive managed amass course life thats right whole friends care me mom always kind gentle understanding person perhaps one point much so contribued greatly sheltered upbringing used hold grudge agaisnt reason ive moved past it best fantastic relationship dad child maybe years since ive started properly things him hes woodworker got making instruments finally real common interest grew there also sister whos year older me brotherinlaw whos known since whos helped considerably helped quotes despite good efforts feel beyond help got lifting made happy while hes also generally pretty cool guy finally nephews year old theyre like little brothers honestly want disappoint family already failing function society early age fuck want ride try get better last time posted here someone linked this good commenthttpswwwredditcomrgetdisciplinedcommentsqbi_just_dont_care_about_myselfcdahaf ive following advice also eat better exercise best ability study countrys equivalent ged make efforts go out still feel like shit still feel like progress extremely fragile still want out living family feels like living bubble much genuinely enjoy around them fucking nothing leech ill help dad brotherinlaw work ask feel like help besides that completely useless barely member society yet keep around always upbeat positive future progress maybe much so know bubble burst one day know im mentally ill family besides mom turns blind eye obvious fact im obsessed thought im gonna develop schizophrenia form psychosis might ocd anxiety whatever could right even yet know proper name torment know im fucked core cant even fucking imagine functioning adult disaster mind one would want me making friends would hard relationships would impossible shit probably count number times ive basic physical contact girl two hands im terribly afraid people im gonna keep trying though know im likely gonna make it cant rewire brain good diet exercise one day even loving family get tired shit day maybe ill able go without causing much pain thanks reading did,1 "@erickd my roommates warned me, thankfully. i havent been out that late yet. ",0 dad calling anxiety fake cant take anymoremy dad conversation anxiety brought up says fault even though helped little im starting question even want live like this,1 dude made post hugging mom suggested hug mom thank if hugged mom five years first time night came bedroom laid moms bed hugged back started crying thankfully sleeping cant believe cried hugging her feel better now scares forever ill try make best it thank dude made post hugging mom im glad it ill cherish her,0 like disorganized crime much chuckle laugh loud time think dozen scenes movie kind hard explain ill give try first all funny indeed contrast lots official reviews want believe again depends entirely sense humour sense arguing that often humour dialogue often situational comedy instance hilarious scene gang members given lift back truck farmer drops them stand road covered cow s whatever totally unnerved then realizing humour scene one one start laughing themselves ruben blades as carlos looking and certainly smelling terrible nonchalantly takes mouth spray least something breath simply describing scene makes chuckle again leads second point acting fred gwynne lou diamond phillips william russ ruben blades corbin bernsen okay latter overdoes bit times fit play parts beautifully fact get feeling must enjoying shooting film thirdly plot jim kouf director screenwriter laidback takes time let plot unfold individual characters establish themselves often not real action yet enjoy different people attempt rob bank although boss bernsen seem turn grumble eventually grudgingly like other movie fantastic parody typical bank robbery plot totally impossible twists coincidences yet utterly convincing love ironic details incidentally title film one best ever come across perfectly summarizes plot ironic way therefore take advice watch film chuckle grin smile first minutes forget type film ps negative thing movie seems way get hold screenplay happen know how tell me,0 bleh i strongly dislike working at am everyday,0 two thumbs gonna fail science guy,0 we have absolutely no freedom when it come to our life i personally have a family and i resent them everyday for being the reason i m still a slave to life after a suicidal episode that disease i call hope creep back in and fuel me to slave away for a few month until i burn out again if anyone ha a solution to the family problem let me know ex telling them you re a monk and moving to thailand,1 actually tink im getting betteri even thought inspirational quote aim stars dont sad hit neutron star,1 soylent green one best disturbing science fiction movies s still persuasive even todays standards although flawed little dated apocalyptic touch environmental premise typical time still feel unsettling thoughtprovoking films qualitylevel surpasses majority contemporary sf flicks strong cast intense sequences personally consider classic new york depressing place alive overpopulation unemployment unhealthy climate total scarcity every vital food product form food available synthetic distributed soylent company charlton heston in great shape plays cop investigating murder one soylents eminent executives stumbles upon scandals dark secrets script little oversentimental times climax really come big surprise still atmosphere tense uncanny riotsequence truly grueling easily one macabre moments s cinema edward g robinson ultimately impressive last role theres great but modest supportive role joseph cotton baron blood the abominable dr phibes sciencefiction book nightmarish inevitable fade humanity fancy spaceships hairy monsters attacking planet,0 online best friend hasnt slept three days online friend good friend mine im worried him tries sleep cant even tho hes tired anyone know help distance,0 ok i gotta move out of this climate here soon... this whole seasonal depression for 5 months a year thing does not rock well with me,1 Engaging in physical activity decreases people's chance of developing depression https://medicalxpress.com/news/2018-04-engaging-physical-decreases-people-chance.html … via @medical_xpress,1 is with the flu,0 ive cursed comments days row why cursed holy sheep,0 @born2shine4ever miss u too I'm happy u passed ur test. U shld be proud!,0 generally wake extremely anxious hopeless day goes on tends get better still extreme wavesbouts hopelessness sadness hit like truck makes feel sick occurs random always cannot help feel something physically wrong despite negative blood work mri severity depression fluctuate throughout day,1 http://twitpic.com/6b26n - I got these in the mail today ,0 wtf pointthis first time posting anywhere ive depressed like years im now graduated high school summer parents raised giving attention id come home school sit computer bed drinking pill popping whole childhood school miserable brother got house ive getting help couple months teen help center nothing changed put zoloft take every day feel nothing get drowsyi hate human beings every friend group ever leave realize dont like anyone dont like human beings hate alone everything hate people say get job like life get better like fuck human beings nothing worth living idk do another thing im asexual never meet someone relate like thought getting relationship never there feel alone also worst anxiety depression,1 @majornelson be safe over there. dont know what i would do without the major ,0 "Management of sleep deprivation, depression, and anxiety in the college athlete. Mismanaged and undertreated? Excellent lecture! #AMSSM18 @TheAMSSM pic.twitter.com/zVYfUO1aYo",1 post nut clarification hitting hard came onto closet wall fell like committed war crime,0 mans hands representative hardships life eyes looking mine makes sense scarred callused simple thought,1 going enoughhello took mg oxycontin mg clonopin mb xanax quite bit alcohol plan ust lay bed wait fall sleep anyone experiences doses like thesey short money could like hear suffice to get job donel,1 "@DanielJUK "it made me high, joy all around ..." ",0 me during the depression hours crying over my faves vs me when i wake up pic.twitter.com/V3qCYmDHaT,1 hangover is popular! work is crazy and fun love free movies!,0 "Need Some Help Healing Grief and Heartache? This podcast is full of sure-fire techniques for healing and coping with breakup, divorce & the death of a loved one, or pet... https://www.willow4u.com/podcast/25/  #Angry #Anxiety #Depression #Sadness #Divorce #Death #Pets pic.twitter.com/esGbrOkNJT",1 may 9th and september th are the worst day of the year for me and may in coming up so fast i feel the depression kicking in,1 hopelessim mentally ill know idk got strength medical field think ill make it im brink giving everything run away responsibility much hard study online half yrs finish degree idk much frustration take,1 feels good to sing again ,0 "@coachkiki otherwise, if you watched any of abc's homeland security, you saw one of them. ",0 perceived terrifies years suicidal ideation plans cannot tell anyone know overreact refuse give privacy weeks again makes things much worse know typing this actually intend post it impermanent draft way allow express it want rest want die sick dismissed invalidated bring symptoms parents doctor sick parasite living parents basement tired existing like this soon chance going looking lorazepam hidden me full bottle enough want reassurance platitudes guess mostly wanted say it want die years much coward go it past attempts got found careful enough goddamn tired really know posting,1 sleepless americans wanna talk tonight night fall asleep,0 thoughts loli hentai lmao loli hentai kinda claps doe ampxb idk need filler uh yeah lolis pretty reddit elon musk ,0 really feel like never meant alivei really want die gun would certainly shoot head lone thing learned years existence point living without relationships important anyone except maybe parents even dont take seriously feel like one guy office space move desks bunch times stutter one takes seriously one cares feelings friends even things would feel wrong becausei meant fucking loser fucking mother nature finest strongest survive people like told fuck die life worth living somebody please kill,1 need helpim going stuff alone really need someone help figure know alternative killing myself someone wants help please pm,1 @NotAloneDoc1 It was one of the best documentary's I watched ! Thank you I hope more people will watch it and will understand what Depression makes with a human and how difficult it is.,1 @JZ greed ,0 haha i decided to reply to people on my blogs it's quicker.. my brain hurts x,0 going dieso took sleeping pills going drown myself got stopped im really sleepy cant sleep took pills people saying im dead,1 "I'm going to take my contacts out, and once I have annoying plastic-frame glasses on I'll want to go to bed (to get them off my face). ",0 @zombienation About time Content with the Zombilicious Remixes? They're on repeat in my car haha,0 healthcare professional training im tiredits finals week something happened got pushed breaking point two panic attacks two days looked oxycontin left surgery year ago couldnt find it wanted see enough wanted one day end all cant find making worse feels way taken one talk wont me dont think id ever actually go nice choice,1 john carpenters masterly version the thing released summer panned critics bombed box office audiences handle another bad alien wanted et loss long runbr br i would kill able see great movie big screen movie way ahead time influenced new generation filmmakers showing trail things like seen alien even the x files unceremoniously ripped page page structure eschews character development favour incredible sfx commonplace todays blockbuster flicksbr br carpenter shows skills honed halloween using camera create unsettling claustrophobic atmosphere performances fine ending terrific still unique todaybr br a paranoid masterpiece,0 made girl hard doesnt dick,0 jasonvonberg i ve advertised on our blog through career site and used agency not sure how else i can go about it,0 @MarkRosenbauer LOL. He is one strange character. I tend to be impressed with anything I can't do ,0 everyones opinions tommy robinson wondering init,0 is it self projection if I wrote post-KH2 Riku slipping into depression like I am and getting comforted by Sora or is that way too self indulgent because good god I feel awful right now and for some odd fucking reason Sora's the only thing keeping me afloat,1 "And looking at houseboats and to trade my 911 turbo on new Bentley Continental GT. <sigh> Ah, the life of a copywriter ... ",0 @tommcfly welcome home ,0 feel like platitudes useless really know else say its gonna fine worry basically say im frustrated need help understanding better way better person him xb thanks,1 theres guy thats dick day long wont say names thats rules usually jojosomething theyre shitty person fuckoffdickhead,0 ok so i have been anxious for about year now it s only recently got way out of hand i love being on my own or with my partner only i ve became a hermit because being in public around people is just too much for me it s got way worse for the past couple month i can t even cook for a bit of context i have been out of work for almost year now which is probably why i ve only got worse with little to none human interaction i would cook clean etc while my partner worked now i can t even switch the oven on from fear that it will set the fire alarm off the fire alarm are so damn loud i can hear when people have burnt their food a few house down the street i think it s the fear of people knowing it s my house that s making the god awful sound i put food in the oven the other night while my partner wa at work and once the timer wa done on my phone i wa so nervous to open the oven door incase the plume of steam smoke set the alarm off i wa calling my partner leg shaking that bad i had to sit down i put food in the oven last night again and wa again scared to open the oven door i wa at one point just going to turn the oven off leaving the food in there and make toast i don t mind cooking when my partner is home because if the alarm go off i just run and he deal with it lol i m just looking for abit of advice on how to get over this fear it fully take over me tia i don t like to say i have anxiety a i haven t even been to the doctor to get diagnosed and don t want to offend anyone so i ll call it being anxious for now also if this is the wrong sub to put this on mod please feel free to move this post elsewhere,1 @alilovescaity ahh i know gg will be soo good (love how you twittereddd),0 i m a burnt out mentally ill college student that s already hard i have mental illness that leave the people around me annoyed amp scared of me my coping method used to be music now i can t enjoy listening to it because of my misophonia you know you have a problem when you can t even enjoy music i have to pretend i m okay even if my prof family know i m struggling with unbearable chronic fatigue they still expect me to do super well in college society still expects me to excel at everything toxic positivity inspiration p rn hustle culture blah blah blah so tiring well i can t i am literally mentally amp physically incapable of it i can barely leave my bed i barely enjoy doing anything i used to enjoy doing i m trying to find thing to latch onto i m trying not to give up god just really hate my gut i m at a dead end god i m so close to giving up,1 "Hottop is online in Austin, Texas and Looking for Friends, Fun & Maybe more. - http://bit.ly/JTg7D",0 meeting robert plant weird go pub meet dad really good friends,0 contempted did the heroic ever go through if not sorry,0 say ok want someone else compare another one but know kinda difficult always person social group maybe talk himher maybe person someone know sight heshe there think person lets call x better life us teenagers us wants lots friends boyfriendgirlfriend going parties fun luxuries like pc gamer great camera take photos perfect bedroom latest iphone but know what think this totally wrong feel useless x knowledge you feel sad x friends you feel alone x goes parties you remember stuff mentioned barely always seen known though social network instagram things incredibly different someone behind screen compare someone else unique forget that,0 "@Cineris geezus, okay that's funny! I'll mind my own business from now on. I'll be sleeping in the corner if you need me. ",0 @ViolaMaths I love that alto clef! If I were a tattoo-getting person I'd totally get inked w/ that. Mind if I use that symbol in my blog? ,0 hi everyone i faced my fear and flew from vancouver to calgary 0 flight time it wa a bumpy ride but i took an ativan before and didn t feel too anxious now i woke up to news about the plane crash in china and i m super scared to get on my returning flight home i feel so hopeless because i need to get home but i m so scared to fly please re assure me,1 i have no friend that i enjoy spending time with i m about to go through my second messy breakup in the past two year the last of which got me diagnosed with ptsd my family ha done nothing but ignore me emotionally for my entire life and i fucking want out i m live with my parent because i m a minor and have lived in the country very far away from people for year now i don t really have any dream or ambition and i have had depression and anxiety for a long a i can remember i m tired of everything and i just want it to stop i m behind in schoolwork and i m just recovering from an antidepressant that worsened my feeling my school is online and i don t really have any option to interact with people other than my parent now that my partner is breaking up with me nothing really brings me happiness and i just feel like there s nothing i m going to do in life i don t want to go to college or really be successful all i really want to do is to find love but i m not even sure if that s a good ambition anymore especially since no one would actually stay with me i don t know what to do anymore,1 working non stop daily hours little sleep hours weekdays hours weekends parents insist sleep gone sleep graphic design student take subjects assignments need done weekly basis cannot catch momentum whenever faster halfassly lecturer told redo redo redo again like like chill forcing work hard parents really help either told try best fail yea anything really tired this really want fail one two tired it never really fail failing high school advance math tried fail college costly wasting time retake entire semester again today sleep pm later take vaccine pm far place back home time assignments vaccine side effect probably kick force sleep deadline one assignments today pm need show progression weekly done yet mind explode thinking really want disappear stop bothering these people find redflag thing never find either really care idk want people know actually sad angry time sometime lecturers adult said yea adult life college life eat it help either tired try fail college,1 question plagued brain months think year old self proud current self,0 tomorrow going minute clinic receive physical sports refill prescription also wanting reach someone think may pmdd form depression unsure minute clinic doctor right wrong doctor reach it convenient reach since ill already there sure deal mental health advice minute clinic doctor apt handle depression questions,1 need speak mind littlehi friends always trouble starting posts ill tell little myself problems school whatsoever bullied grades average social outcast good number close friends id trust life friends joke stuff id trust life exact migh around really close friends ish friends hang best friends family great except little brother adhd big brother aspergers theres nothing wrong it brothers nice people like talk stuff with mother supportive woman world even though trust much information life know shed whatever could me father little though love guy also comforting man world also sister speak much since lives london rest us lives sweden get along problem speaking whatsoever friends thinks funny guy jokes alot problem making fun myself also know get shit anyone problem defending verbally physically cases usually win not brag get along people meet volunteer working get hear good worker quick understand job effective it also gotten compliments looks ive informed handsome person little body fat currently trying work away little even notice unless im wearing tight shirt im sure guys there certain theres atleast one suicidal person sub would kill life thats feel like piece shit going say next hate it hate myself hate everything ive ever done take almost pleasure anything longer find things like playing games fun get super angry small stuff like lag dying games get super angry almost everything example writing arm uncomfortable position wanted break fucking desk theres several holes earlier raging spend freetime alone computer speaking friends stuff like skype discord sure fun there thing unable commit almost anything even though work fast effective like said earlier expected me watching tvseries watch like first season get bored forget it tried writing small novell got chapters done got bored forgot it ive tried drawing drawing get bored forget it people tell im creative ive praised extraordinary writerdrawer craftsman never actually enjoy even though im good it comes thing gets most ridiculously bad women even though look good unable speak women all try cases come shy weird annoying get guy world think funny guy want friend comes girls mostly think weird maybe wrong take social awkwardness sign im interested them anyways annoying girlfriend since years old probably get girlfriend rest life still virgin completely convinced never lose unless pay prostitute fuck me do since kind person friends seem convinced tried id get girlfriend instant since seem think glorious beacon selfconfidence success bad selfesteem all know admirable person worthless comes girls ive realized enjoy anything anymore thing want life find someone start family with life would perfect for me could find that even kidding would absolutely perfect life hard time finding job lots friends family loves love back live one safe countries world cant granted one final fucking thing thatd make life best could ever wish for never girlfriend constant reminder life would complete final thing enough driven edge dad owns several weapons ranging hunting rifles shotguns finding pistol end hard also know keeps gunlocker key fact much worse im still suicidal though life good makes feel even worse actually read this salute you thanks listening even anything important say please comment anyways remind people actually read know situation also know certain annoyed even angry fact im thinking blowing head something stupid in eyes insignificant feel free call idiot ungrateful son bitch comments too actually helps little too edit posting realized ive written humongous wall text actually read this salute you love you taking time listen peoples problems good person,1 feel like life pointless ive contemplating redflag several years hello ive contemplating redflag several years now think life worth living bunch work little tv video games reddit something else mildly enjoyable end day work next day maybe couple weeks vacation year still fifty weeks work feel like slave desire continue living like this feel pointless meaningless miserable think find meaning even insignificant cog machine,1 fg sucky weekendthis weekend awful self esteem demolished really successful month antidepressants want right end it side see hope future side see chemicallycompensated acceptance completely stupid worthless role world needs someone loser life let end im worthless everyone,1 watching jonas ,0 family except dogno siblings parents dad passed away little mom severely terminally ill rest family dont want anything me years old year family own even so really jealous peers close families mother daughter brunches family trips etc one nothing live for one share joys tears with thing keeping going dog fantasize giving adoption i know family really wants her kill finally cant work details though go peacefully bed but would find dead body literally one would look me woods car sounds pretty ideal wish guns legal country maybe finally take trip europe ive always wanted kill myself waiting saving go trip special someone thats clearly never going happen absolutely terrifying alone world want mind shut permanently,1 runners highthe last months one hell ride ive never hurt damaged unmotivated move on ive stuck pain wanted end bad moment pain according therapist see way ive days coldness knife skin calms down ive days would run oxygen could stop crying ran third marathon couple days ago best time went slow steady prepared running someone kept pace handle stuck it exert myself let everything be went even slower uphills enjoyed downhills kept going last kms could believe endured all believe stuck life happy happy here happy strength endure pain happy support ive received im going keep slow steady pace life ill go life one day time im letting everything go happiness sadness accepting control whats behind let deter me nothing stop me,1 is ahhhh!!!!!! I'm an emotional drunk... help me...mom don't judge me ,0 wouldnt feel really nice crush could sit near river forest watch orange leaves fall autumn weather beautiful wish girl ,0 ive feeling weird recentlyi dont even know say feel empty feel like theres lots stuff want life future feels like even worth doing feel like go things wanna never good thought gonna be feel like thats entire life going be nothing good everything good ends soon begins ive seen lot people die life like whats point ive never even considered redflag im starting fear could impulse guy group chat sent video guy blowing head shotgun thoughts like shotgun downstairs could gone instant scares me feel scared guns house know instant could kill myself want thoughts gone want feel normal life isnt even bad everything bland scare myself,1 show out today came home shoes dirty got ridiculously angry starting tearing up actually good day sad keep like tension release like energy guess ill mention fasting ate angry anymore still feel sort tension release one main reasons binge eat get adrenaline need release day seems way boring understand sometimes irritable reason like even good day fasting supposed make feel good good day felt pretty get angrysad moods want scream everyone able hide work get angry stupid things get it still sorta feel it know like sadness arousal tension need let outcould bipolar adhd heard bpd feel like bipolar idk think depression lots happy moments fall sadness lot comes eating disorder opinions super angry little things,1 i feel sick too much icecream,0 nataliekatoart good morning you are not alone in the depression phase i experienced it too keep spirit,1 melaniengzuer haha nah no more i go back twice a month the bus ticket too expensive already,0 send horrific hentai find gore toddler whatever fuck want nothing tame like something actually disgusting gore preferred,0 please talk someone hi um please talk someone giving dont know do im sorry really really badly want attenpt hurt cant even right lost razor please please dont say yes might make worse please really really dont want make anyone else feel bad need someone talk to im sorry,0 i really need to talk with someone just to break down or cry just release all of the shit that have been pilling up people do notice that i m depressed something wrong but every time people ask if i m okay i answer yes i don t really know how to ask for help i don t know who is being nice and who really care how can i open up to someone,1 my friend coco chris had a party this weekend and it seemed to have been awesome fail i wasnae there,0 have the perfect combo of cash and depression to go for an absurdly long tattoo session tomorrow sorry to my artist,1 i m off to bed way to late will likely be a sac a shit at work tomorrow,0 changed pfp fb bunch people reacted gah im ugly happening already got enough shit stress wtf going on changed pfp th grade current pic years later stop seeing people fuck,0 question finally reached state happy myself around years ago weighted much basically friends today got job programmer year ago i years old moment weight perfect important part many close friends im friends almost every weekend im happy year old boy ,0 one thinks think way movies supposed women empowering right like either make women look like can anything first try without problems fight anyone problem able anything time change gender already established character like changing gender already established character done woke points useless annoying writing women everythinganything message slapped showing woman defuse bomb fighting people time pilot crashing plane giving birth feels unrealistic woke points tell women everything cause one everything anything show realistic person written well grounded cause strong woman think is alien better ghostbusters fucking charlies angels the new one forgot name cause knew doing wrote compelling protagonist,0 Made it to the apartment. Good to see Lindy again. ,0 Please! Vote For florencia @more__colors and for me obviesly They Need Wins MTVLA!! Please!! ,0 cant even help myselfmy life nothing trainwreck im sitting burning fire thing it depression sucked motivation energy me quick rundown life garbage ive unemployed year now im thousands dollars debt cant pay off im socially isolated im years old still living moms house days consist nothing everything mom orders which pretty much everything would require get couch watching youtube videos browsing social media thats it besides eating going bathroom simply sit room mom telling something her speaking mom tells your life bad everyone depressed nowadays you grateful roof head agree with hard appreciate feel every day underlying sadnessnumbness im starting fail see point continuing live live life nothing pain numbness cant even remember last time actually felt happy want make people laugh happy reason cant get shit together cant even get job mcdonalds try get momentum watching inspirational videos reading become disciplined nothing seems work money get help depressionanxiety honestly last time therapist really help much felt last session going first one im tired trying time fall face again nobody turn to nobody talk issues with said earlier mom dismisses everyone problems tells shit her know hard accomplish goals consist completely independent mom able make others happy boss simply able wake morning hating life thats want really expect make others happy cant even help myself discipline last friends labeled lost cause abandoned me blame for anyways know wrote this guess rant im end rope figuratively soon going literally thanks listening reading hope find way achieve dreams cuz deserve it peace,1 normal siblings ok whole life brother relationship get along fight times normal sibling things whats weird punch kick pull down im sure punching normal siblings verbal fights abuse normal,0 fucking math fuck math diagnostic today,0 sleeping forever sounds really attractive right nowi many problems one visit hospital trying kill myself diagnosed several disorders back february week july things seemed get worse im best friend left me cant anything all thing even find remotely enjoyable playing video games even like playing im trash multiplayer games im bad internet bad people tell kill bad im really lonely friends parents care me tell long spend night home nights week even care sit home look window wishing could go there anxiety attacks stop me im smart all fail classes go im lazy know anything try go home spend hours trying homework know parents help me want go online because im going fail class anyways want truly get smarter without help answer sheet online,1 hey think need vent biti feel like life sliping fingers like sand finished high school got accepted collage pussed last second didnt really much half year nw job mostly old car paper work archive stuff months feel like nothing changeing feel like barely got life started already,1 elvisamponsahk generation yii yare then she throw in some depression card,1 id be fake a hell to come online and only post my win i also got ta tell u about the struggle flat broke day depression battle year of rejection and working day job to stay afloat the payoff and blessing are def nice but u got ta go thru hell and back to get there,1 dg thank you depression and anxiety suck but i m out the other side x,1 directorstar clint eastwoods sudden impact intriguing addition dirty harry series combination crude filmmaking genius mediocre silly parts brilliant classic others compelling gripping pacing numerous echoes first film shoot em make day scene recalls do feel lucky one one villains viscerally repugnant first films scorpio actor played minor baddie first one returns harrys partner name fewbr br harry callahan still odds higherups department still mean still tough hes older wearier constant conflicts superiors metaphor inner conflict respect reverence law versus desire serve pure spirit justice two things always compatible incompatibility underlying theme series first film posed simple question what victims rights do outweigh criminal vice versa depends films answer controversial prompting sequel the highly enjoyable magnum force set draw line harrys brand justice pure heartless vigilantism dirty harry like many clints roles personification vengeance protector defenseless movie however brings back victim case jennifer portrayed sondra locke decides avenge rape nowincapacitated sister ruthlessly hunting ritualistically executing men and one woman committed crimebr br without going playbyplay whole movie say mentioned earlier sudden impact echoes first film actually also sprinkles little references injokes whole series the confusion concerning captains last name example intentional prank believe relationship callahan jennifer neat rogue cop hero found soulmate lady vigilante vigilante victim justifiably standing sisters tarnished rights exchange two end film poetic denouement series one personally as fan found quite moving last scene alone makes sudden impact legitimate climax dirty harry collection perfect answer conflict posed first film not knock the dead pool excellent movie relatively lighthearted suspenseful yet comic thriller featuring harry callahan rather characterdefining film like onebr br this movie well theaters audiences reagan era found harry ilk quite appealing president frequently quoted go ahead make day,0 truly scary film happening across curmudgeon james kunstlers rants led recentlyformed web logs like life oil crash latoc energy bulletin oil drum data behind theory hubberts peak like film latoc kunstler paint grim picture dieoff dieback hope theyre premature mid rising gasoline prices rising oil prices chevrons join us campaign bp becoming beyond petroleum even boone pickens lend credence idea near peak oil productionbr br after copious research limited data oil investment banker matt simmons suggested saudis may longer able increase production immense aging fields face increased demand primarily us china saudis responded higher production despite previous assurances stated world production indicates light sweet crude indeed peaked means refining become costlybr br the film seems aimed baby boomers younger people children also need understand implications energydepleted future,0 im going judge based ur hobbies means ur lame means ur really cool,0 post ideas pls im bored im turning reddit today talk pass time lmao eitheror really,0 sorry about the structure being bad in this i just need to write down my thought i genuinely don t see the point in living anymore i might a well just kill myself now and save myself from the bleak future that is coming with climate change war famine and all this other stuff that is going to happen and show no sign of stopping i might a well just kill myself now before it all go horrible the only thing really keeping me from doing it is the thought of my family and how devastating it would be for them to lose their son i m still young i haven t got a guaranteed future what s the point,1 i shouldn t post here or anywhere else but i have nothing else so firstly i want to apologize i m sorry that you have to read this first off because it s all nonsense and also because it may be stupid or weird since english isn t my first language i have nothing no family no friend no job i m stuck in my apartment because i m a coward psychiatrist tell me i have agoraphobia but i don t think it s true i m just a waste of time space and money there s no need for me to still be here i ve tried multiple time to end it all when my family were still here i got caught and sent to psychiatric ward and now it s a neighbor who knew my dad he keep coming again and again to see if i m ok i m wasting his time a well like i waste your time writing this i don t even know why i need to do this it s not like i want any help nor i need any help maybe i just want to leave something somewhere testify about loneliness and mental illness i m already shameful just thinking about somebody will see this and witness how i m such a stupid human being just complaining about nothing playing the victim although i m not long time ago i thought i wa a victim tho my dad did thing to me people at school bullied me i wa thinking like that my mindset wa fxcked up now that i ve rethink about it all i see is the problem wa and still is me i can t blame others over what i did i don t wish this to my worst enemy this void that keep devoting me taking more and more space making me disappear slowly again i m sorry about all that and thanks to this sub if that post is not removed if you re in this state i hope you ll get better soon i don t know you but you re worth it don t let anybody tell you otherwise and never give up on thing you like or that make you feel good,1 lonelyi know im lonely friends lonely time,1 throwaway in case i don t go through with this i have a loving boyfriend and i love him so so much but for some stupid fucking reason i sexted with my friend and i regretted immensely so when he eventually found out i apologized a much a possible and somehow he forgave me then it happened again and i just want to die now i have failed a a boyfriend and ruined something beautiful now my boyfriend and the friend i had the affair with hate each other and i never heard from the friend since it doesn t help that he ha several suicidal thought and now i just want to kill myself so nobody else get hurt all because i m a stupid piece of shit who deserves to be burned alive,1 august im going it trip coming week prior say goodbye dear friend know plans one will get back thats it fighting trying im tired trying fighting people meant world thats it pain feel deep inside deep makes sob shake thats pain cannot take anymore oh god god one id taken pain long ago world feel like always make suffer make make suffer fuck know im tired no try every pill market core destroyed cracked flawed deeply never fused back together meds therapy you joy world terrible mother insufferable wife avoid much possible shield poison suffer silently possible next two weeks go trip done even care anyone reads this there done moment ever since starting therapy medication back february everything gotten worse mention expensive poor husband trying figure pay er bills inpatient stay bill therapy fees insurance cover dick im barely able work part time place hour shift makes pop many valium stop bawling whole time really cant anymore k previous job help im gone pay bills get started new life without me trust me ive thought way cant cant make live way anymore hold till end month holding thread here,1 live mobile homeenuf said,1 fuck u covid dad lost job im fuckin livid dudes working company years way even born today told theyre letting go im fucking worried dad able support brothers tuition would make ask help mom whos already struggling support tuition fucking hell man know im lucky guy want expense others least good thing father finished house got fired yeah mom dad unofficially divorced living separately,0 "Reagan, Bush 43 & Trump, all GOP, all used MAGA slogan & all robbed the treasury. Reagan, robbed Soc Sec savings fund, gave us inflation, trickle down, Bush gave the Banks trillions, started wars. Trump will give us recession then depression. Dems cleaned up behind each of them!",1 @Mary_R_Roberts I LOOK forward to seeing and sharing ,0 dog around my ankle a i ve had to lock them in the study with me away from the builder oh joy only another week of this,0 hiyou might sometimes look around feel like live world hate pain emptiness world disappointment exhaustion despair nothing okay things never right right know whats right would right wrong would feel hate knew nothing love never shown love hate would default even know it would nothing unusual disturbing ever know known love feel hate love need able see it happiness really believe feel it peace comfort beautiful world life beautiful beautiful clouds move across sun see sun rays come go back again beautiful summer smell comes feel woken up beautiful step uncut ice snow unexpectedly fallen life beautiful hope lives existence matter many people blind it matter many people deny even hate it even spent years hating it still there hope lives unconditionally existence true companionship lovely laughter fresh excitement peaceful content beautiful worth it come run scared reject it,1 constantly feel mix frustration emptiness even know im feeling like this,0 im never going positive influence anyones life wayhaving promise youll stop talking folks dont make feel shit good feeling still even point ill go walk town tomorrow see easily get flats skyscrapers guess considering im still ill pussy time well edit pussied time well,1 ever feeling dumb remember people genuinely think trump worse hitler stalin compared people genius,0 post nut clarity like fuck doing every single time get horny lose sense morality bare go public act like normal lawabiding citizen ive committed foul act though im writing fueled post nut clarity feel nothing guilt disgust myself community atrocious act ive done man bad im gonna back normal tomorrow see everyone next time,0 many cultured weebs know holy relic blue haired demon best winter animeno exeptions change mind,0 Not sure exactly what I've won with this competition... Either way I've still won something... Its all good ,0 thinking going now sure im coward know shouldits right downstairs oblivions comforting terrifying once im probably cowardlyweak now guess ill soon though knows maybe drinking lower inhibitions enough knows edit little bit intoxicated right now sivenish drinks less two hours gotta work spine soon,1 "@fairiesworld Beautiful art, Myrea! ",0 thought getting betterits year since wanted seriously kill myself note planned back went therapy hashed problems depression years discharged months ago therapy im back never ending pit despair loneliness want take knife end it im tall pounds asian want affection find someone grow learn with never success relationship wise ive never even girlfriend ever im sick everything feel like never find love tried improving change going gym personality passions music arts always good enough friend im tired honestly dont think win societal standard seems go hand hand opportunity aka handsome somewhat tall manly man,1 whyi cant deal anything anymore every day gets worse previous one cant anything else laying bed day anymore year best worst life many people lot people call friends others family theyre wonderful theyre amazing not deserve people even know theyve come like me make days amazing keeping entertained making feel loved make days awful cant spend time without making everything darker people like that understand leave that understand too want stay minutes either left makes depressed worst love family love mom dad good parents care children hate parents hate cant talk them one view world live cant anything else hate cant understand even know try blame them know either would loved take bit interest everythink liked passionates me least became curse burden im scared even want get involved anything them hate life hate sad time hate myself hate fact im lazy even want try change since young nothing would ever want future well future see future decided study spur right last year highschool idea else do decided stop beginning third year difficult stressful thing nothing really thing anyway dropped out cannot find job cannot find way live independantly anybody work agencies job offers net unemployement cant find anything lie myself im lazy putting much effort could im using alcohol self harm numb feel pain ive cutting forearm months now nobody even noticed im even trying hide it could considered negligence others know blame anybody anyway im way fcked up fell love times life could count fingers hand hate love painful fantasy cant get enough of cant either despite issues worries tried best work relationship worked hard months even seeing could give colour daily life end one nail coffin told countless times love them made think loved too all waited get drunk tell love one close friend im mad im sad feel disgusted feel sick hold grudge them still love despite everything wish happiest date either anyway im way fucked up ive wanting die much ive holding pills hand numerous times put blade skin countless times still cant die im coward want live cant commit it somehow ive getting closer closer every day still hope somewhere deep inside happen soon things would like going find kill mind happening im waiting release kingdom hearts soon promised play together old friend house release day always loved videogames filled life fake hopes dreams kingdom hearts definitely one favorite series travel friends planned meet germany twitchcon im really interested it would really love spend time make memories finally theres another travel germany planned time summer vacations spending entire week surrounded alcoholic friends depressed me partying day night things somewhat looking life currently die that ill happy die before ill happy too cant die all i hope die soon,1 dont know invented two one shampoo whoever are god thank,0 hi everyone year old male nurse working three years now diagnosed major depression high school along redflag tourette syndromei battling suicidal thoughts ever since high school hospitalized inpatient psychiatric facility three times cannot remember inpatient actually helped though receiving electroconvulsive therapy ect little year two acute series done ect ruined memory seem helping longer treatment done monday already feeling severely depressed suicidal tuesday night know doi could commit again brothers white coat ceremony coming need pto able fly see it also want family worry love reason killed yet also even know worth it inpatient three times already suicidal thoughts still therei couple good things going life though great job extremely loving family almost always willing put call know helps depressed mood told everyone talk regularly my brother sister aunt uncle dad mom feeling talking helps improve mood however struggling feeling starting call often want bother themto make things worse therapist currently maternity leave substitute therapist same top depression redflag severe unable make friends friend since high school friends twin brothers friends get flustered around people barely talk know everything feels like much tired frustrated ready everything over feel like depressed adult life,1 four moods _ _ _ _ ,0 social rejectwhat point living life im never friends anyone romantically interested me straight never going different now is find upsetting particularly hopelessness goes it know im right reject society rejected entirely people talk shit all lives matter whatever reality meet certain standards shunned subhuman reason think hate upset family would eventually get selfish expect live every day living hell,1 wish light mode didnt ruin eyes always switch light mode see like actually looks good vaporizes eyes dust smh,0 destroying mind cannot sleep even though super tired also get work couple hours destroying,1 advice boys boy tokyo drift saw two prior posts advice boysthey nailed it thought id throw hat ring story list advice theres still valuable lesson share anyways story tale begins mid december last year covid unheard of people looking new year excitement optimism working stage crew member schools production one day one breaks sitting alone flicking phone mindlessly girl sitting friends called over started asking questions hobbies were subjects did etc while left tasks teacher time really confused this barely spoken before later evening realized saw sitting myself assumed lonely called over small act kindness stuck me im certain im gonna remember rest life time watch news lose hope humanity remember kindness girl showed me moral storythis applies everyone boys girls everyone inbetween idea much tiny act kindness help someone,0 frog dissection today seen post friday abt it would know im excited basically watch preview ended crying amp passing out really sensitive animals everyone knows that ive asked it safety said no feel going happen is im going cry feel lightheaded panic attack pass out panic attacks happen often wouldnt surprised im really scared,0 imagine participating nut november wow cannot relate sorry im gonna stay healthy smh,0 im sorryi know still better dont think continue this late something go left unsaid secrets kept ill keep promise every single belonging mine worth value youll get sell whatever nobody else means much still im sorry truly smartest beautiful girl ive ever met nothing change deserve better me difficult honest people,1 @mmitchelldaviss Nice to know someone else's sleeping pattern is as bad as mine ,0 tomorrow pay rent im evicted sure struggle get thisso jealous people seem get life without much struggle strife entire life suffering everything difficult what family significant other passions hard time thinking take easy way out wouldnt make special considering thousands thousands people year country go route cash id definitely get gun could get with,1 gets stronger every dayi girl years left me lived together months fucked everything up meet needs left another guy within week us breaking up seriously know live right everyday builds never find anyone again wanted girl forever here feel damn old everyone else wanting point maybe delusional feel feels crippling gripping partner best friend just gone,1 anyone wanna talk please need friends start chat ban,0 best username comment gets award best username whether funny story behind it best one gets award,0 gone days people still remember me need retake title,0 feeling really weird strange feelingnothing works me miserable idiot one life talk to get with suicide call,1 frustrate everyone maybe im better deadno matter hard try fit nice always end frustrating everyone lets face it everyone little patience dealing me im sorry im perfect im sorry im that cant help fact im prone committing stuff thats problematic realise problematic hate feel like this maybe died wouldnt happen anymore dont feel like day,1 stop wanting dieits this magnetic pull towards death constantly sometimes feel okay always back waiting me dont know make stop feel like blob social anxiety awkwardness and sad hopelessness even feel worth anymore want feel better even think possible point friends feel alone except fucking god awful pull bag old meds gotten rid way long ago meds general keep playing head over fuck fuck need sleep man thats want,1 needed get lot stuff chest maybe cry help maybe random ramblingsi sure post about may considered cry help open post emotions even arbitrary chaotic writing dumb person know frankly care dwelled sorry life long time thought pen thoughts still feel like something pour heart here want say verge killing or least want think also delusions life worst life ever universe objective enough know people worse circumstances dealing it said that standing crossroads failure lack motivation anything feel desire keep living life often contemplated would like die often wished life would end accident but enough rambling want pen life once think anyone world knows true family included positive lied every person know certain point life told close friend person wearing mask mask every occasion behind mask masks hide truly am wearing enough masks forgotten lost lie life point tried struggling slugging forward tried living life future tried living life one day time end didnt matter either way trainwreck life still trainwreck personal life shambles social life nonexistent professional life collision course towards freight train coming full speed idea even feel emotionally now would wonder bad things be firstly transgendered individual thirdworld country studying us since lgbt rights country nonexistent possible way transition future finishing studies finding job in us another firstworld country cannot tell anyone tg since pretty much means lose assistantship also shoot chances career field thus living lie life past x years lied colleagues roommate friends lied try fit people lied drive people away dont think anyone know really am top that gain age slowly become harder transition so another time bomb ticking away tried preparing transitioning taking unsupervised hormone therapy electrolysis well though help bit still hate look whenever look mirror anytime also extremely stupid decision taking hormones without doctoral supervision lead medical complications social level due above driven friends away pretty much living life recluse top that slowly become emotionally detached almost everything life find little joy sorrow things happening life lied friends hide tg self lied top lies found out scared even try start romantic relations life generally messed scared rejection life professional level also heading towards failure xth year graduate studies even though funding dry up much stress finish work still seems like uphill battle top that figured past months looking job job market bad find reasonable job sick trying doesnt seem like get enough work done get degree get job student visa expires doesnt help people always high expectations dont know why tired failing again stress taken toll physical lifestyle well gone fit active person someone totally outofshape developed terrible eating sleeping habits feeds desire nothing throughout day big struggle get bed everyday morning wish day ends asap almost always given considering real goals life cant justify purpose life anymore sick trying meet failure anywhere everywhere tired fighting uphill battle every avenue life and often felt past months would existed all doubt existence worth anyone worth anyone suicidal thoughts infrequently last months tired life want spend next years repeating wake something sleep routine again frankly little desire living know consequences taking life would people genuinely care me likely looking help doubt anyone position help really but think needed get chest weighing heavily long time hopefully pull things work out not well least tried someone take time read whole thing would really like thank taking time read ramblings someone probably would never meet long thanks fish,1 made grilled cheese sandwich am fucking charred gona eat anyway hungry,0 sent email yall really happy ive feeling bit sad needed send quick email teacher ive done feel great took awhile get motivated actually it im happy ,0 l want but i can t sleep,0 @WilliamPromoter did you like terminator? ,0 What It's Like to Know You'll Be on Antidepressants for Life #ptexp #depression https://www.thecut.com/2018/04/what-its-like-to-be-on-antidepressants-long-term.html …,1 i just want the pain to end,1 want boyfriend im horny id want stuff them cook watch netflix go walk cuddle play games im lonely now,0 people get punished wanting kill themselvesit makes angry parents said say ill kill ill sent mental hospital consequences saying that maybe even mention go kill anyways maybe people use punishment suicidal people,1 @jckcrealty how does the travel voucher site work jckrealty if you dont mind sharing ,0 found circulating net honestly find relateable u ever thought online clases us students ive wanting speak quiet time nowso lets start first happy holidays extended bcause covideveryone wasbut none us expected itll go longand every single one us missing friends want meet eachother badlynow us celebrate bdays homewe cant invite anyonewe cant go fun like used towe cant hug eachothertalk eachother face facewe cant anythingeveryone misses days used go schoolenter class first thing call best friendand greet eachother hugs hifisand standing long assembly lines trying fall asleepand maybe even mess person standing front lineand first period teacher comestakes attendancestarts lesson stuffeating snacks class without teacher noticingsitting back carving tables compass steel scalesharpening pencils throwing trash bench ofc dustbin class show pieceall frooti packets burst creating loud noisesall times sat together lunch gossiping shitannoying pt sirbeing sent class never alonesome person class would always give company even outside classannoying nerdsand games period session us feel alivewe get class excited thats time obey pt teacher takes us ground asapwe go wild caring anything lost gameand sad moment pt teachers blows whistle loud indicating time head back class games swithching fans turning full speed gulping water bottles life depended and forget last periodwaiting waiting waiting bell ring bro minute bell ring someone says then ring prayer dash classroom talking friends joking around go school buses return home safelywe eat tasty snacks mom prepared tutionsafter school work study dinner fam watching tv go bed or maybe even spend night watching movies listening music waiting next morning exactly were always excited meet friends process repeats but gone say gone excited school anymorecmon never timethings changed drastically we adapt new changesonline classesonline exams online projectsonline activities oh cmon even group activities online first us ok thiswe got new stuffparents bought wifisome even bought new laptops smartphones headphones earphones kids attend online classes without troublebut look good sidethe bad thing thatwe get see eachotheronly virtuallyand understand pain student facing right life student its hard very hardi see everyone forwarding messages sruggles teacher going throughbut oneliterally one thought students pain oh yea theyre mere kidsso whats point this probably everyones thinkingyes r kids butbut feelings toowe also struggle new systemwe also humanswe also feel tired restlessstressedover workedand depressed said said burdenmore wieght shoulders yall still think ok since kids sitting home wasting time nothing give work ok see im complaining anythingthe school gives us workwe buttheres limit know tests without breaks activitiesprojectsgroup projectsvivapresentationsand legit online functionsyou killing energy enough grown well aware whats happening around us whatever school days tho hesitate thingsteachers force usthe school forces us keep extra classes physical health education mental health educationand on bringing change ustginking helping us develop waybut see changes reason interact self developement classes knowwe know theres point helping us overcome stressits helping us reduce work loadits helping us anything planning teach us importance self development good mean goodbut thing its easy ask us students children tou stressed anything worry talk us thats always saytalk us dontwhy uselesssimple thatif actually cared would reduced work littleclearly might sound like im complaining noim seriousand even asked reduce workour schools famous dialogyou children big enough normal youlearn manage time like seriously something new uswe entered high school lifewe still learning adapt new way schooling online classtry understandgive us timeits easythis online stuff new usagain yall say listen kids already months online class youu still net issuesmic disnt workcam dosnt work stuffok listenour parents pay thisand youok get mic working cam also workingthats good but dosnt devices also stop working sometimes plusif think respond class purposeits might problemnot really us might pretending issuesthats fault either might know answer right ok say we teachers help ask question many ever times want help say ok understandbut thing iswe still little awkward comes ask doubtsnot us yea usthis mainly sometimes feel teacher scolds friends laugh is doubt even doubt onagain get say scold dialog what teaching topic classits listening us understand topicjust teaching something dosnt mean well undertanad instantyea sure u explain topic multiple timesbut were still understandingits ok teach times moreand online classwe cant predict well leave class due sudden power cut network issuesyou cant assume us students bunking classand mark us absentand get hear nicely parentseven ptms cant voice feeling insidebecause were nervous scarednow say you shouldnt nervous around us children well even voice concersaction taken know thatso thats keep mouths shutand hard us much dayagain say this kid cant do one thing cant expect every child world one might smart night little slow dumbsome ppl might fastbut students take time need it might find little harderthey might little exhaustedso itbut trywe tryim saying u shud ban hw somethinggive much hw used give schoolonline classes becoming burden thrice amount work used lockdownim putting anyone downim putting school teacher downbut trynna bring changes yall expecting us attend every online classes even sometimes saturdays sundaysits hard modern schooling system india started sand living st centuryall going school attending classes physicallywe eventually got used itbut online classes new usand expect us get used within months classes going thats easywe still many problems going onimagine poor kids cant even attend online classes cant afford proper device use im blaming anyone corona all u need know also humanshave feelings we need timewe sameits since quarantine sit front nextflix chillwe classes attend tutionsdance classesmusic classesart classesand oni hope understandtheres lot say ill stop thankyou taking time read thisreally appreciate im trynna put anyone down,0 "@RWPUSA I wonder if Donald Trump obtained any Provigil from Admiral Jackson. Side effects include dry mouth, agitation, nervousness and mood changes including confusion, depression and hallucinations.",1 "i'm listening Radio Disney, a HilaryDuff's song ",0 photo's done. off to graphics. long. long day nite.,0 yep at the age of le than i m already considering suicide i ve been depressed for about a year or two already and i ve thought about km but it wa always just that a thought until about a month ago maybe two month i thought about my life seriously and i realised there were extremely few thing that made me happy happy enough to keep me alive that is i decided that it might just be better without me in the equation i ve been obsessing over it and i just don t know why i have a good few reason to do it but i don t know why i keep thinking about it all the time i don t even know why i m telling y all this but i just am,1 late party star wars explain ampxb ast wuestion promise,0 divapromotions i agree sendout card rock just sent one today to a dear friend that i had to let go,0 good titles think important message httpswwwredditcomrpublicfreakoutcommentsjzhqthis_black_man_has_had_enough_of_the_blm_movementhttpswwwredditcomrpublicfreakoutcommentsjzhqthis_black_man_has_had_enough_of_the_blm_movement,0 shoutout to depression for hitting me like a brick you're a true one honestly can always count on you to make me in a shit mood,1 good night swetdreamss to everyonee and jared never chat in kyte puff,0 "@TESOnline Soooooo I hate to be upfront about it, but it's my birthdayyyyy, any chance of you putting the unicorn in the crown store for a day just to celebrate it? I'm I'm in day 6 of depression realizing I missed my chance to get one ",1 mentalbreakdown free periods wanted clean little also included changing bed sheets cat laying it that first sat around getting depressed put really sad music started picking clothes floor throwing laundry basket which actually huge thing cause really laundry since online class kinda wearing outfit days throwing floor picked random stuff laying around started whipping dust shelves got vacuum cleaner threw everything peace furniture bed desk closet hall vacuumed everything kinda got aggressive cause well idk stuff happening done tried putting everything back knocked trash it much it still screamed like yelling high pitched screams threw stuff around father next room heard it kind jokingly asked going cried hugged me cause even know whats going on time read book class eaten lunch cause im starving want eat cause idk pls help im better now happening lot lately,0 @dougiemcfly we can`t wait till see you in Denmark! European tour soon? xx,0 Cow photoshoot time. My moment of front page fame Hahaha,0 i did bad on an important test i thought i would do well in i thought wa my best subject i thought i studied well there s more important test on those subject soon if i think i m doing badly on those subject already then the test probably will go worse i feel bad for disappointing everyone i feel bad that i m complaining so much but i want to die so bad it doesn t feel like there s anything else for me if i do bad in school a family friend is doing an art related course they seem to be having fun i like doing art but i m nowhere a good a her or good enough to do a similar course a school friend is doing well in school we share many of the same subject we share the same high expectation but i can t reach them she complains about mark way higher than mine i m resentful but really i m just envious i don t even know what i want to do in the future why should i put in effort for a life i don t want do i want it i think i want it i don t think i have any actual appreciation for the academia just that i want to fulfill the thing i ve always been told to it s dumb and i should just accept my actual ability it s all my fault in the end that i should ve done this or that but i don t want to try anymore i m so tired of trying and failing and then giving up and then doing it all again for whatever reason the enjoyable moment in life don t feel worth it at all or maybe i m just too stuck up to appreciate them enough either way i want to give up i m sorry i m so childish so self centred i m sorry i m wasting everyone s time and money and effort i wonder how much longer i will continue to do so i m sorry that my problem aren t really big enough to be upset over it all feel too pointless,1 so ive came to the conclusion that i actually have anxiety and imsonia have all the sympthons for anxiety and i cant sleep for shit im can be dead tired and i go lay down and 0 min later im still up ive spent plenty of night up for hour trying to sleep ive had a few night where im asleep but i feel half awake ill be sleep but i feel like im still awake ive been avoiding seeing a doctor because my family is pretty judgemental but i really feel like i need sometype of help it getting in the way of my life i cant sleep the lack of sleep ha me weak it making my work life hell because im fatigue then my anxiety always me over thinking and feelomg weird in when im in social setting,1 something beginning surely end right soon believe nothing maybe enough courage it afraid afterlife actually believe nothingness,1 hopeless alcoholicplans hang today,1 happening boys im now got really sweet cupcake presents im happy dudes,0 got internet on my phone so i can be cool ,0 someone cheer pls tell anything idc need distractions stuff going rn,0 supposed help sick people training trauma certain diagnosis good excuse profession sick therapists able reject,1 didnt helpi finally got job year trying thought something occupy sitting home done complete opposite went suicidal thoughts times week every single day every night point want turn brain dont think im really cut alive theres future,1 yearold sexually confused otaku failing school relationships friends lifeso recently ive finally realizing shitty life going people always telling smart am really feel way grades pretty bad might even graduate point let alone get colleges ive wanting go since particularly care friends theyre always treating like shit gets old awhile really getting me ive never relationship looking hopeless right too top off im sure im gay cant tell anyone family friends would disown me worst part even sure feel like everything ive tried working future me broke alone living shitty apartment job friends ive tried change make things better nothing works usually ends horribly know anymore redflag looking like viable option everyday,1 mind years now wanted end life mine notredflag years end cannot take pain anymore country far away family want go back family failed every single way scared alone want pain stop tried look many pro suicide forums find any sit alone friend life losing love life need life end want end cannot take pain fault ending life peace,1 got scissors got scissors know end pain,0 hello tuesday hope your better than i think won t tweet for a few hour later,0 really fg hate covid today day supposed go friends birthday party planned months ago looked forward it yesterday day party guess what running high fever still today though much attend party shit im feeling really really disappointed sad angry irritated sorry vent guys much tell someone,0 kinda obvious im hereive dealing bipolar depression years best friend killed around year half ago ive talked mom lot since seeing suffer knowing mom would suffer similarly killed thing preventing it sometimes feel like pressure ironically causes additional duress edit really know im posting here im sitting room alone guess want feel less lonely thoughts bit jumbled turned drugs reddit seeking help,1 @CorazonGTX @TwitterIndia @TwitterSupport @Twitter @YourTimeForMe i was also a patient of chronic depression and these SM increases this and its a proven fact because if u think all will behave with u like a saint then DR mam this place is not for u and out of curiousity am asking why u tagged twitter .go n show a doc. dont make a mockery,1 walkeight years ago walked two miles old abandoned church cemetery cold rain put two grain hollowpoints smith wesson spun cylinder put barrel mouth pulled trigger click remember walking back guess did suffered abuse depression chronic pain life given up hospitalization lots therapy better meds better still struggle best support system wife son daughterinlaw dog world would right back graveyard again hope guys find right formula keeps graveyard too,1 im giving away free wholesome award say something it mins,0 hi againi posted month something ago wanting odas probably guess didnt enough pills damage able go days ive completely sunk again think harder take life im faithlessi dont conform religion absolute nonsense god would create pain theres many factors stopping able causing live grey painful purgatory theres palace sky you im terrified death like people ive always viewed life pointless die anyway end well occupy sized grave ive always really debilitating fear fear would ever show again ive put fact brain cant comprehend absence senses thats fear is life meaningless personalities formed world molds us world creates divides world full hatred world youre consciousness brought taken away everything makes us existence since existence continue exist long existence exists except usthe voice headsthe voice abide by voice whose silence want find solace in pill id take itnot im people would view illbut choose look grim ugly truth world live in say theres reasons live maybe time start questioning reasons deem suitable live life shit for theres nothing special consciousnesseverything ive got emotional attachment gone one day ill feel pain itwhy around thatwhy anyone around anything,1 someone please tell doive five years almost two year old son together course relationship lied cheated physically emotionally abused me know this know im stupid stayed were fighting again caught secretly texting receptionist work swears friends happened never friend again says im psyco says know hes me im burden im crazy insecure get it im overreacting says dont see parent son wants put baby daycare said im comfortable yet ive thought years he everyonewould happier better dead think son would too subject myself deserves grow without dealing crazy mother im really trying love much think it come conclusion killing really selfish act boyfriend would unrestrained tied down generally one problems anymore son young enough miss me long forget hell better long run idea anyone see this maybe another crazy thing do friends close family im alone itd okay all,1 home for spring break no one is home tho,0 ok may awardwinning movie year typefilm apart brilliant soundtrack think awards really great film the kid prince o take pick happenings around living minneapolis playing music music absolutely superb opinion soundtrack truly classic sums eighties sounds feel wonderful fashion movie plays nice plot worth seeing again espeically like prince which do course,0 yeah im pan constant panic pandemic,0 @FrankieTheSats you going to see Take That then ? ,0 really need someone vent person wouldve talked dumped,0 day have passed since i last posted nothing ha improved my friend just hang with me for my stuff my family see me a a liability and useless it s midnight again and i wish i wa dead,1 @yourspacegirl tell me what you think of it! im thinking of buying it... ,0 @qnzsh0rty Get 100 followers a day using www.tweeteradder.com Once you add everyone you are on the train or pay vip ,0 @KarenCivil okay! he just texted me saying that he'd wake up me up lol... if he doesnt I call you at 1PM your time! thx Karen ,0 Hey @souljaboytellem u tweaking ain't it lol!!! but i am enjoying watching you (#souljaboytellem live > http://ustre.am/2UhS),0 @lilapp lol.. thanks. I wasn't trying to steal the show!,0 benefits lack sleep muscle degeneration lack energy being able fall sleep eating lunch eyes fully open being able fall sleep eyes open swing head receiving lots unwanted sleep shock lives permanent damage brain far many shock sleep hours day would lead brain death and eventually whilr later death cuz brain death far degeneration left mix time when night falls head get filled matter much put inside pit despair find beauty death suffer time sleep getting shorter acid inside mouth increases imagine sleep ing hour days want sleep fail try mind blinks subconshes got used idea sleep shock go sleep wake go so thats where understand mean know sleeping hour days death actual solution solution condition,1 redflag pact time commit redflag year know life improvei made pact life doenst get better time hit commit redflag realize good gets way going get worse out one storm worth whethering quality girlfriend two closish friends within one year im going end it cant tolerate loneliness anymore world cheapskate city feel like owe loyalties hang there tried already feel like ive experienced last vestiges life offer beyond endless sea torment waves longer enjoy life people beneath me feel like ive placed wrong age redflag seems reasonable years time nothing improves,1 want diemy grades shit want anything future im piece shit year old exist play videogames future im planning blowing brains years now,1 hurtthis girl like told likes best friend shit brought back lot pain past im suicidal dont know,1 oh noooooo kath is back from annual leave du du duuuuuuuu,0 im loser im shit everything im evil im virgin nerd im sickive fantasized killing people done evil things im loser years old disgust many people look act like nerd im shitty everything poor memory use drugs im shit using drugs too,1 legitimate reason tonobody actually knows gives shit me family dont want speak friends almost completely abandoned dont want deal fair enough ampxb legit reason stuff couple packets paracetamol throat maybe probably wont work guess ampxb dont know even then night two hospital temporary escape life guess,1 awful akward experience parents mom laundry said u buy underwear suggest different colour white first didnt realise problem saw talking huge fucking cumstain wont go out fml,0 hillary00 i m sure everyone ha ruined my gift to you whitney ha my serious cell we doing easter a well,0 axellent second installment manages good first br br once again casting wonderful like first second episode nothing common except wit clevernessbr br the second episode funny silly enjoyable first christmas episode woman tormented serial killer dressed santa killed husband like first episode karmabr br the humorous scene tie murder husband phone call first faking fear becomes real,0 Actually woke up at a decent hour and went walking with jessica ,0 delightful minor film juggling comedy detective romance drama genres nimbly lt kenny williams melvyn douglas balances devotion girl maxine carroll joan blondell duty force ace detectivebr br this hodgepodge may appeal viewers today day something offer every member moviegoing family resolution rather tired feelingversusduty plot original refreshing well worth wait br br the amazing mr williams contains must among outrageous blind dates film history bright comic repartee sparkles ludicrously frocked melvyn douglas delivers best lines id walk main street turkish towel id let woman control life effervescent joan blondell lets barbs fly typical aplomb good grief look like aunt nellie br br the crimesolving standard fare although fine cast character actors helps bring material life br br from todays vantage point the amazing mr williams perhaps interesting insightful commentary gender socially defined construct malleable seemingly rigid boundaries much gender commentary takes place superficial battle sexes times subtle penetrating playing finer details film battle genres reaches culmination final scene,0 parents divorced many guys wish parents would divorce do im tired,0 horrible person deserve lovei didnt go home elderly mother answer phone aggravated her turns sick died days later tell doctors put life support she want mahines bbut made final decision basically killed her took grief frustration little dog made sleep outside one night dirtied house pay attention stopped eating six months died put sleep killed two individuals loved world reason never allow dog let anyone love me deserve it horrible horrible person deserve die alone,1 tf prince philip still alive bruh like seriously see skeleton already queen literally looks lime shes built like tank,0 a little over four month ago my relationship of over two year ended my partner left me for the person they told me they couldn t ever love more than me and that i had nothing to worry about i trusted them and they destroyed that i moved back home all the while they gaslit me into thinking it wa my choice once i got home almost a thousand mile away i began to spiral my family wa in the midst of drama between my aging parent one struggling with memory loss the other with alcoholism my dog from high school ha also begun declining and will be crossing the rainbow bridge any week now following the breakup i struggled with alcohol and substance abuse for several month which i ve only just begun to get control of i wa sexually assaulted twice in the span of two month my relative have died of covid i ve been unable to find a good job that actually us my degree in the time since moving home a well i find myself unable to form meaningful connection with friend or family i can t be open with anyone because i don t feel i can trust them i m worried that anyone and everyone could leave me at a moment notice i can t get my ex off my mind and the feeling of inadequacy and abandonment are staying strong i don t feel the ability to love i don t know where i m going with this but it s my first time posting here and i guess i just need to know that i m not alone and that i can stop spiraling and live a good fulfilling life i need to recover from the fallout of what s been my life for about month now i m sorry if this isn t the kind of post i should be making but at this point therapy and psychiatric treatment and medication are all failing me what can i do where do i go from here,1 im giving uptoday woman call mother said waste life cant take anymore,1 first time ive done this im eating lays poppables chocolate chips bad also learned chocolate chips heavier lays poppables,0 stay happyi posted several times before time talked killing myself however tired talked it want either stop miserable die recently quit job mcdonalds making suicidal ever going college scared horrible grades think may go academic probation that large student loans pilled head job way ever get job dead end job makes want kill myself therefore decided go probation ill kill myself gotten obsessed idea death lately think death would like ways could quickly die day bothersome me people situation even worse situations able stay happy frustrating me people happy feel like completely missing something people are genetic mindset either could ever change mindsets genetics all are tldr extraordinarily unhappy many situations likely going kill end semester unless find way stay happy tired talked it final decision instead want advice happy,1 @LouisS Thanks. I've lived in Florida since 1994 and I miss snow ,0 full house wonderful sitcom dad danny tanner whose wife died car crash danny asks brother law jesse katsopolis best friend joey gladstone help raise three girls donna jo dj tanner stephanie tanner michelle tanner favorite show ever watch day long something full house always making laugh sad parts also never dull moment full house main characters played by bob sagetdanny tanner john stamosjesse katsopolis dave coulierjoey gladstone candace camerondj tanner jodie sweetinstephanie tanner marykate ashley olsenmichelle tanner,0 @aplusk thats old! Ha! ,0 think im probably going die soon due something anyway hypochondriaforeveralone ready go hell give fuck life anyway ill let know hot hell,1 can t fall asleep,0 feeling sad hopeless flso im generally pretty happy super extroverted person locked without anything look forwards hard enough school hell online go two days week cant find motivation im behind feel lost know future cant see past life always hard worth it im trying sleep think pills thing stopping idea might happy future dont want hurt family im depressed dont think take care myself showering eating interacting family idk dont know do,1 @SmartyMarty1126 @BipolarBattle It's hard work battling anxiety and depression and looking after my mum who has dementia,1 wants u nudes sex leaves u read u say cus thats u,0 think happen masks covid think theyll become fashion items used colds stuff like japan,0 my mom might have breast cancer won t find out anything for like a week i m so worried,0 failed everyone including methis little something bothered time goes on kid always seen poster child basketball family everyone knew good would practice almost everyday dreams dominating day day out even ended team captain senior year went school kids good reputation ball changed first week season ended terrible even though would good practice coach would never put games order make time favorites would openly challenged outplay never got spot sophomore junior year first senior game im sucking geez fun ended getting benched one younger guys later week sustained horrible nerve damage left arm would leave basically handicapped months still bothers then know let peers loved ones complete bummer lost confidence turn dont even know do dont know am feel like never got chance prove worth everyday back mind if totally let parents even though never showed games always trying best could thought would good enough turn ended nothing im rejected almost everyone know fuck am kids blame feels like distanced themselves feel like reject every week go sports medicine try recover left season even getting green light atleast sit bench without warmups never happened never respected loved felt alone people poke fun couldnt even move arm beginning first month arm sleeve would fucking flip around like noodle numbing traumatizing nerves would tingle pain fucking hated every second it let everyone im worth shit im failure fucking failed even though put years years dedication matter anyone told kept going nothing nothing im nobody highschool dont even want talk anyone dont feel like anyone talk this feel like would make things worse wasted fucking life time fucking game want help advice ,1 jennnnie yes and the next project s wool is hiding from me it wa there on friday when i went to craig s place,0 alystoe i hope you are okay,0 stop thinking cutting myselfi cry work almost every day starve even tho job time even two jobs go hungry one person world trust wants me love like want grow resentment towards feel like contributes unhappiness hate life reason kill dog used thing keeping cutting modeling stopped cus make happy anymore want hurt myself reason feel like would help,1 think mentioned previously that married married wonderful woman nearly years and love life amazing key word was never interested physical part anymore says vaginal issues and absolutely reason disbelieve her tease but act never happens take mens romance supplements help certain extent but able masturbate internet porn usually handles one need but act wonderful thing lay naked and arms someone love especially mind blowing orgasm made love long time and miss that even awhile would nice but never happens want want make love says still finds attractive but never happens always reason doubt that reasons legitimate god knows cheating miss intimacy need intimacy intimacy cheat cannot me but fantasies chart and mostly her but know matter because going happen hence depression new reason per say but reason nevertheless tired jerking off but would sooner swallow drain cleaner go looking elsewhere physical part so sit sucking and moving onto next depression sigh hope well all love and hugs another day another new reason depressed,1 talkis anyone speak privately redflag,1 Getting ready to get out to Cathedral City to teach this weekend. Is it me or does that sound like a place in the land of Oz? ,0 Not looking forward to work today. Next week I hang out with an UP character and a princess tho! ,0 @coolandsoul Ohh thank you so much! I wonder if I should watch it next week. ,0 Chillin with ellie p. Six Flags Monday!!! Class of '14 Is Swaggatistic. ,0 would appreciate advice please take time thank advancein greatest imagination im unable conceive life worth living longer intend die sooner rather later obviously im sure story much unlike many others im going get why feel great depth things stand im looking advice handle actions here this tell people care intend kill myself offer time go feel though id setting intervention want would accept one hand feel id causing pain disappear other feel though owe this understand im depressed years contemplated redflag great portion life ive sought received professional help psychiatrist ive taken anti depressants intend use nitrogen asphyxiation think better way im ears am course willing listen suggestions answer questions imagine many ethical problems giving answers questions want drag sordid affair would ask pity kindness matter apologize adding another issue onto pile thank much done people here please help me this took longer punch imagined ill going bed submit this mentioned rush,1 best friend told everyone knows lie including me hes also rambling redflag doim really concerned revealed depressed year idea seem clear grip reality right says plays part everyone knows make like guy us really is asked further concretely back actually washe kept repeating worthless often dreamt redflag top that started rambling things would much better committed redflag constant state misery fakery im hard time responding without freaking wanting call cops sending place add college lives campus car reach with admitted drunk maybe two hours ago know hes still drunk say do were talking facebook hes said choice things if one would upset death id already b edeadwell maybe ship sailed my whole life lies ypu care hurting myself real doesnt care want harmed anything still worth world me could die tomorrow would happier,1 past year rough high functioning autistic large circle friends due social redflagit mostly me mom dad girlfriend yearsmy mom passed away cancer back april losing rough fathertoday particularly awful interaction customer job caused redflag attack boss felt bad gave rest afternoon off arrived home hours earlier expected walked girlfriend sex fatheri completely lost verbally threatened attack them called police citation appear court making threatsi feel betrayed two people left worldi alone right want cut throat bleed out need someone talk please need friend right ever nothing nobody crisis right need someone talk to,1 long phone take get full charge mine takes whole day,0 i m done et je n essaie m me plus j fatigu de rusher mentalement et m me le psychologues ne peuvent plus m aider a ne peut pa tre r solu j suis in comme a je ne sais pa ce que je fais ici je pourrai pa finir cette ann e inqui tez vous pa inqui tez vous juste plus je peux pa tre aid et je remarque que ma pr sence ne fait que tanner tout le monde je pourrai jamais m adapter penser normalement comprendre normalement et personne n a s puiser vouloir m aider l dedans,1 "@rapping_fa Just learned the good news about the ad, David. Congratulations. Can't wait to see it. ",0 lauredhel what happened,0 kinda like habits killing mei think ive passive ideation life finally feel affects it course im much pussy actually kill myself feel like picking smoking drugs either kill snap whatever shit im in understand impact life others god damn ready done entire life filled shitty circumstance bad luck maybe sign,1 wrote notes know how tomorrowive taken care will debts name go husband wrote friend check husband friend find hes good emotionally eventually process it cant let husband find me wrote notes solid plan plenty enough pills various categories one put sleep rest slow breathing ill fall asleep main issue funeral costs want cremated help lessen it weird ive never calm prepared before guess means it wish someone else though happier messed up im im tired guess wanted last words,1 i feel so trapped and stuck i don t do anything all day long because i simply don t want to do anything period no goal or dream i don t want to be anything or have material thing like a house or car i just want to sleep i don t work or do anything productive everyday is the same and it just so boring being here and feeling like this i m not good enough for anything or anyone and everyone just ignores me anyways i have no friend never dated i hate how i look and it can t be changed i m lazy worthless hopeless i just can t take this anymore nothing work i think about suicide all the time i ve even looked up handgun but even then i need money and i m broke i just don t want to be here anymore knowing i m never going to be content and just a waste,1 summer started new job bartender met girl equally odd lot similar interests looking thing was quickly became enamored other take long us move together started finding projects around house fix up would surprise home cooked meals note gushing relationship,1 Lol im thinking about a song from a movie now ,0 me want crack skull open big rock fucking badly normal people beach fun sea sandcastles waves excitement,1 guys saying super straight transphobic exact someone bragging dont date black people getting offended someone calls racist bros attracted trans person one said thats transphobic saying more straight showing date trans ppl shitty part care actual preferences calling superstraight part thats genuinely transphobic least incredibly fucking rude inherently invalidating,0 slipping cracks testimony subhuman early twenties slipping cracks introduction first class degree stem subject merit masters degree practical engineering subject whilst university served committee chess society treasurer one year president another cofounded another society also completed work placement part module specifically tailored towards career development throughout four years university diversified academic personal interests significantly developed host transferable skills chose modules gave broad understanding different issues wasnt overspecialised could maintain holistic academic perspective developed practical laboratory field skills took modules statistics spare time read deeply philosophy specifically moral philosophy epistemology philosophy science history studied physics mathematics best amateur ability learned code designed scratch model simulate life cycle stars even began learning another language stop taking lessons became expensive maintain alongside this obtained job far beyond comfort zone cannot sensibly quantify distance chose do retail customer service spent around hours week working job whilst msc running two societies boot whilst working here significantly developed interpersonal skills gained experience working nonacademics real world environment gained small amount supervisory experience time well recap two degrees two societies one completely alien job new language new coding language work experience organised integrated pursuit successful occurring backdrop turbulent personal life boot sacrifices made attended zero social events whilst university busy working never consumed alcohol attended parties indulged anything people normally indulge university years truly believed lie work hard itll pay end result this nothing graduate job passed promotion many times retail job still minimum wage postgraduate opportunities university continuing rejection ignoration quest job deceived denied jobs available field despite repeatedly assured thriving field throughout time university academics industry leaders alike require years experience dont even entertain new graduates catch many graduates familiar with experience loop get experience need experience get experience first place dozens job applications two years number interviews country places didnt bother getting back me justifiably pipped post another job another candidate harbour ill will role would hired longer available business forced restructuring another company offered minimum wage clean factory chimneys carrot stick except theres carrot retail notoriously brutal industry especially bottom ladder often two sources frustration retail workers internal problems being structure role rewards job itself external problems namely treatment receive customers complete lack structure life lets address turn internal problems surprise im good retail job im good it fact saying brag simply stating objective facts ahead every single one coworkers every single measurable key performance indicator store sales value customer response scores metrics every single field ahead rest pack considerable margin many areas including sales sitting double second place had this despite fact worked hours week opposed worked workers never offered fulltime contract company focused bringing schoolleavers apprenticeship schemes applied job excelled worked far far harder done voluntarily worked breaks signal dedication industriousness swapped covered shifts whenever asked make life convenient possible coworkers managers never asked change shifts inconvenience anybody never took holidays unless forced to signal sincerity dedication alone generated least yearly basis annual turnover store parttime contract sheer hard work reward hard work nothing hard work entire year msc concluded never even offered fulltime contract matter hard worked never offered promotion invited interview promotion whilst there working twice hard everybody else around me two coworkers promoted management despite less industrious less efficient me thats okay longer deserve merits another instance one manager left short instead putting onto training program they hired person younger me who never worked company before reward excellence get remain bottom rung minimum wage real responsibility reward absence child worked company roughly one year promoted management kind sick twisted joke inexperienced immature bottom rung slacker neglected duties meaning others life share load regularly took minutes extra breaks ostentatiously avoided shopfloor duties burden falling people would spend substantial periods time talking stockroom avoiding floor duties reward this fasttrack management happen basic level retail apprenticeship equivalent single level age levels two stem two humanities diversify knowledge skills alongside fifth level extended project unfortunately me made mistake a working hard work b working hard university get excellent results two stem degrees dont get anything reward aiming high pushing myself assured repeatedly paths success remain bottom rung people less intelligent less industrious less honest less capable get fasttracked authority chose easier path boss work daily humiliation bossed around her thats now taking orders kids layabouts whilst getting paid minimum wage thanklessly generate figure sums profit store singlehandedly absolutely prospect ascension proportional reward effort perhaps thing stings people work less diligently get rewarded simple fact valuable company pond life rather management or think im saying id best manager think id good one consistently excellent excellence becomes expected norm it extra effort put in take foot pedal fall short usual standards whilst still far exceeding people around you ethic called question almost greater cosmic injustice this rage spite induces almost beyond compare oh yeah forgot mention spent two weeks free time constructing scratch mathematical model ensured company could meet companywide targets key kpis based data painstakingly mined scattered archives result one manager took cursory glance never looked again despite extremely powerful utilitarian potential what exactly need succeed climb ranks people less hardworking less capable less time telling do make sense universe justifiable sensible cant think word exploitation external problems part i terminal misanthropy youve ever worked retail youre close somebody else has familiar deep deep disdain humankind developed line work degree misanthropy succumb varies person person people dont experience misanthropy all middle distribution curve people range minor disdain actively avoiding people unless necessary tail end spectrum people develop pristine fundamental hatred humanity begin treat exposure humans capacity treat exposure radioactive substances deeply unpleasant bad health personally exist somewhere beyond moment time say terminally misanthropic mean sincerest sense spend every waking moment every day apoplectically murderously enraged wallowing abyssal despair hatred disdain felt towards almost everybody around me constant headache this feel perpetually exhausted physical mentally cant even escape indulging sleep sleep luxury retail it possible hours shifts yes hours travel work sleep eat clean hours sleep get beset violent genocidal dreams frankly tiresome displays egregious violence manifestations pure evil hate bore even dont escape pervading misanthropy navigating life worldview metaphysical equivalent swimming hot tar exposed general public hours day makes feel given enough time final destination all youre yet keep working retail inevitably inexorably arrive people terrible perhaps theyre terrible time service environment relationship dynamic customer service provider brings worst traits almost everybody magnifies factor trillion foundations monuments human misgivings constitute average person people dont even see human actual person feelings thoughts interests treat worse would treat dog them nothing automaton made meat exists serve every whim thats it various expressions belief grate immensely first all people dont even deign look speaking you youre speaking them dont even look you looking validates existence much youre even important meaningful enough looked at spoken to small thing aggravating universal consistent predictable quite often ask people help dont even turn around hold item want specify size colour whilst looking wall expect summon hands thats much respect people me secondly people continually interrupt talking them quite often explaining relevant information them return items order items x z interrupt me asking question whose answer literally provided quite often dismissively wave hand agitation youre answering question theyve asked silencing like youre belligerent animal right treat like this thirdly oftentimes ignore outright intrude upon experience consciousness forcibly making existence known them common look disgust existence affront conceited sensibilities theyll often snap something outright tell go away one example is say people give shout want help ill walk away call need me wont pushy overbearing them invite conduct shopping experience terms oftentimes say give sh interrupt yes im fine thank you dont even listen say them fine thanks coherent response hello far people concerned im even human being consequently effectively experience people stop seeing humans begin seeing cattle see tatty chickens pecking barren dirt scraps refuse thats are meat stock things move around make noise nonentities temporary delays universal slide toward entropy meaningless fleeting existences deservedly extinguished long comprehend pointless conditions pathetic existence vermin disgusting parasites deserve suffer eternally agonisingly arrogance conceit fundamental universal cosmic injustice customerprovider relationship cannot captured words experienced experienced youve slipped cracks working customer service based job could find treatment palatable idiot capable nothing else im not fulfilling potential here reason wellpaying impactful stem job im unlucky dont family industry family contacts industry get treated like fucking subhuman inferiors minimum wage despite hard work sacrifices course life external problems part ii nonexistent worklife balance nature retail makes impossible maintain anything resembling worklife balance get two days week rarity days consecutive days change week shifts ordinarily range anywhere am pm increasing pm christmas new year possible work days row finish pm one night start am next morning nothing conducive structured organisable life free time functionally nonexistent although spend hours day workplace additional hours travelling from corruptive tendrils retail slither around every aspect life often free time split two uselessly small fragments beginning end day example shift leaves with arguably free hours absolutely useless antisocial hours little social clubs convene times two hours enough time get invested given activity recreational session mention tired two hour segments limiting options mean means life structure means cant plan ahead commit clubs activities means cant go gym regularly youll either tired enough time go common knowledge routine important building block exercise regime retail permits none all cant say monday go gym tuesday piano lesson wednesday go chess club none options available you understand jobs time demands well jobs indeed prohibit anything pervasive way retail does even youre work youre still trapped within confines consequences this unable commit exercise regime leaves feeling perpetually unhappy body want able work physical fitness look better now cannot top psychological tribulations retail industry also get feel uncomfortable unconfident skin hours day days week want able dedicate time learning piano reading writing possibly even creating youtube channel none things possible because previously mentioned little free time afforded fragmented inconsistently distributed besmirched exhaustion stemming job radioactive fallout get spend spare time working retail get sit often alone wait day end go sleep go back work thats it cant spend time loved ones friends somehow manage either things watch mindless shit tv eat subpar food dont time cook properly let alone cultivate cooking skills first place say existence depressing like saying surface sun warm isnt life living death away every hour life away life youre waiting die retail life courage kill myself would it failure complete failure aware nature scale fact shattering feel unworthy around anybody ashamed exist cant look people eye im embarrassed people might see behind own dont want vocalise thoughts anything justification sprung forth poisoned spring nothing say think important interesting others revealing contents mind expose invasion observation therefore giving others opportunity see corrupted hopeless resentful wretch am havent left wayside yet surely ever peek behind veil accomplished nothing failed fulfil smallest fraction potential feel like jackofalltrades master none write work calculate deduce argue aboveaverage standard yet nothing come fruition gifts systematically failed apply constructive way course entire life combination laziness lack confidence lack worklife balance used gifts navigate undergraduate postgraduate degree ultimately meaningless squandered them feel nothing shame many ways deserve fate somehow despite vast potential landed midtwenties negativestatus minimum wage job absolutely zero prospects future personally professionally passed physical peak shape since years old spending entire adolescence prime fat dumpy doughy dollop man male acutely aware place hierarchy wherever go partially result evolutionary psychology partially women especially attuned hierarchies high resolution evolutionary psychological adaptation weed unworthy men worthy bottom every hierarchy bottom hierarchy workplace women kind men bottom hierarchy doubly occupy higher place hierarchy female superiors work scarcely miss opportunity swing proverbial dicks around face humiliation dehumanisation wherever go still live parents another source shame humiliation parasite burden kind man lives parents man midtwenties prime life still living parents answer would love move out crave independence responsibility keep getting rejected tenancy landlords job isnt good enough minimum salary requirements x monthly rent meet places would like live in continually outcompeted men women surely less intelligent industrious nonetheless another example failure cultivated hobbies skills cant cook properly cant make art make music anything resembling respectable standard thing play video games betterthanaverage standard sought refuge entire life valuable harmful form escapism difficult childhood continue today lost lustre long ago longer feel like edmund pevensie venturing narnia load xbox like wladislaw spilman guzzling rancid foetid water filthy mop bucket longabandoned hospital video games what cares trait pathetic failed man undignified misfire man stage black hole human happiness sap colour every room strip music sound taste food nothing positive say something come mouth normally violently retributive remark that know far exceeds apparent limit sentiment caused occasion adam smith identified mark brute right me feel guilty around people make things worse them everybody better without around basis cause nothing hardship misery wish could realise mould bread cut cast aside strength myself absolutely useless pointless desperately want repay family help given me want able take holiday get new car nice things them cant never able to nothing live for sacrificed youth altar false promises deceptions hard work nothing seems nothing ever change anything ive tried hard things keep getting worse perhaps stinging aspect failure tried tried hard possibly can thrown wall might long possibly isnt even enough make smallest dents pathetic feeble am would feel consoled knew hadnt tried hard make success life talents mercy escapes me tried everything unable get away square one speaks brutally fundamental deficiency being anon birthday st april th november thought death suicide dead daily basis roughly years ups downs across threeyear period weeks think death couple minutes every day often bed night sleeping periods time sit room dark alone think intensely different methods suicide experience like find afterwards like dead three years tended unfortunately toward increasing morbidity hopelessness past months thought death almost constantly course day moment wake moment go sleep even im friends family loved ones im thinking death whether watching film together meal together anything together chances im thinking death im driving road think driving oncoming traffic kmh im top stairwell think jumping it im meal think slitting throat knife im using im bed think suffocating pillow im sitting nothing fantasise hanging myself shooting myself exitbagging myself thinking feel like happen people find me people often tell seem quiet distant tired sometimes increasingly tell im usual self whatever usual self is appears vague distant awareness among people around something isnt quite right me genuinely idea going arent perceptive enough know something seriously wrong lack courage requisite care anything it nobody knows deep pervasive feelings really are recently shocked learn colleagues perceive happy upbeat positive person things surprise me certainly did find hard believe almost everybody inkling going beneath surface merely quiet serious nature corrupted broken caricature be bitter hopeless angry jealous nothing disdain everybody everything world used happy hopeful loving know irreparably broken know golden olive branch extended me would bat away spite psychologically beyond salvation nothing make happy dont know whether aware objective truths nature life general conditions life trapped subjective thought processes dont hold up proportion regret resentment function life simply passed much one person bear either way knots simply cannot disentangled am guess around beginning september plans pull plug finally began crystallise since then thoughts death suicide constant almost hours day dream dying killing getting revenge wronged me awake paralysed lethargy magnetised bed sofa unable summon motivation something basic get drink crippled thoughts death avalanches hopelessness plan decided check april fools day seems like appropriate day it check life darkly hysterical day jokes japes world inside upside down increasingly resembling planetsized freak show end decided quietly graciously exit stage alone life mistake nothing enjoyable grew poverty violent alcoholic parents mercilessly bullied every day school age pupils teachers alike went better lives me lives dont deserve overcame demons excel university work nothing st april april fools day get early around am cycle caf near sea front cup tea scrambled egg toast take bay used play child filled nothing except boundless optimism joy life people climb rocks first last time adult life listen piece music probably chopin music finished playing dive head first cliff onto rocks end abortion existence all,1 I am starting to enjoy writing. ,0 wish id itfor every day passes wish die gets intense magic insta kill pill now im sure id say no guts it im afraid regret anything drastic thats constantly wish ill die suddenly unexpected control id contempt that every time go sleep hope wake up passing away dreaming dream life would great could make problems go away but everyone knows life simple want die want face problems life going nowhere im bad person every waking moment im distracting reddit video games wishing dead hate much wish never existed want live life anymore fucking terrible im sorry family know much longer ill keep putting off eventually hope ill it absolutely enough cant distract longer want bad,1 @mensdomain Glad to hear it sweetie Been a rough few days but I'm feeling much better thank you!!,0 losti dont desire live world existing world becoming much im accepting fact im meant here yeah doctors tell depression anxiety tell take medication real money scheme always hear get help call hotline go er what ill hear shit millionth time im fucking sick it issue whole world simple illness treated truly dont belong dont even know anything way anymore dont know whats real anymore know dont want cant live way much longer im fucking lost,1 though seen many films prior certainly seen basic plot themes many films since br br not one grants loys best films make outstanding effort together all much talent good supporting cast know laughs therebr br the film light dramatic spotting keeps plot moving gets smile whole way throughbr br a great example classic american film fare stood test timebr br definite saturday afternoon fare heavy popcorn,0 Day36 of #365daysofselfcare and I have bounced back a little from yesterday's feelings. The #stresscontrol @stresscontrol1 course that am I am taking part in is fantastic #learning to combat #anxiety #depression #ocd#iwishicoulddoiteveryday#somethingforme,1 why do i keep working for place that don t do the cycle work scheme disc at halfauds is good enough,0 feels like ill never breathe againi cant get head even understand flashbacks happen cant get shame humiliation enough get proper help cant anymore,1 feel like protesting education system wants join me,0 lol not literally but when i m out with a group of people for example i always feel so weird like i don t belong or that i m so abstract from everyone but in reality i m accepted by everybody amp it rlly suck feeling this way anyone else go through this,1 these few day my mother ha been telling me how much of a disappointment i am and i totally agree with her i only bring bad energy in the house and i always mess something up for the year i ve been alive i haven t made positive impact on my mother life or society i wan na die,1 i m up so much paperwork to do today n i m kinda getting sick not fun,0 watching americas next top model yah haha ,0 feel suffocatedfor little bit background im almost ive dealt reoccurring feelings dread suicidal thoughts perhaps depression since around age dealing disordered eating thoughts since age recently things happened family things completely control stressing parents sibling came unfortunate news therapy question longer health insurance even then see point seeking help overwhelming feelings absolute dread hated thought speaking others especially family friends makes feel panicked want drag people me enough theyre dealing plenty everything going on problems minute hardly seems matter anyone regardless seem help feel like something severely wrong me like im freak cant function properly unfortunately past ive spoken family treated normal clue whenever im stupid overthinking it bother using throwaway none know use reddit,1 #NAME?,1 just got up pshhh going on the trampoline even though i am all sore,0 @itslmo I'm waiting for a seat sale for October flights on BA. I'm refusing to pay full-fare as ever - esp this year. ,0 @Shimmycocopuffs: lol We do believe in him! XD,0 beatles modern band would many beatles stans twitter omg ringo looks cute ,0 im tired fault lol particular exam ive studying homework stuff almost hrs tired wanna rest eyes studying advanced next lessons im done yayyy,0 fucked upmight get kicked college lose dream job feeling hopeless happens itll forever blight dont know move forwards,1 i m hoping this inspires some of you i have suffered from anxiety disorder my whole life i remember when my family would take small trip and i would be so anxious i wouldn t eat the whole trip they always worried about me i also wouldn t eat when we went out because i wa worried i would puke it finally got so bad in my late 0 that i went to the er with a terrible panic attack and finally saw a therapist i wa also put on sertraline i now feel like i have a good handle on my anxiety about month ago after almost year i weaned off the sertraline still not sure if that will last i may have to be on it forever but so far so good even now a i am typing i am having some anxiety that ha come out of nowhere but i know i will be fine i can go week now without any anxiety i used to even wake up in a cold sweat panic attack before traveling shaking and vomiting i would be so stressed out i would think about an event that i know would trigger it for week before hand i would dry heave shake sweat and feel sick to my stomach just thinking about getting stuck in traffic but i have over come a lot of it even traveled to other country and been able to actually relax while on vacation i wanted to post this in hope that it can make someone else feel like they are not alone because i always felt so alone when i suffered i felt like there wa something so wrong with me and i hated myself but now i accept my anxiety my best advice is don t let it win don t let it keep you from doing thing you love and remember your anxiety is wrong you can do thing nothing bad is going to happen and if something bad doe happen you will be able to handle it,1 friends films like la bte aka the beast o monstroonly done old continent in film see all horses dirty sex nymphomaniac kind gorilla non sense dialogs etc etc etc serious terms nowits allegory men sometimes could bestial visceral brutalwalerian borowczyk the director shows us loss innocence sexual violence rape brutality astonishing cinematic experience bizarre full grotesque scenes fans european shocking exploitation recommend filmif like one recommend orloff invisible man alterated states,0 @Derfdogdreams thank you ,0 Talking about diet and depression with Mikhaila Peterson. This was such an eye opening interview that you should definitely watch. She has an incredible story and I admire her for sharing it with the world. https://www.facebook.com/scottstemarie1/videos/2057030744550844/ …,1 "Relax during #therapy in a Zero Gravity Heated Massage Chair! Available in our Salt Lake clinic for $20 per session. The best treatment for #Depression, #Anxiety, #MoodDisorders, and #Addiction reduces tension and stress! Limited availability. Schedule today at 801-872-5516. pic.twitter.com/VadYQuAKsz",1 "If you see my car behaving strange in traffic, don't worry. It's just @siginutz driving it ",0 worryi would like leave redflag note worry even good enough silly sound im worried sentences bit paper enough family worry look im dead stupid know want look decent whoever finds me worry house spotless people come take away body bag ridiculous im worrying strangers think housework carry away worry last cup tea sweet enough last bath hot enough worry alot stuff ive always way since far back remember ive never felt wanted accepted anyone never good enough one people worry others think them know much struggle relax chill out head forever going past good memory tell wearing time dinner day loads memories good bad hate sensitive grew house women hormones bloody everywhere shared room sister one year us would argue light onoff would argue sharing clothes make up books could hold argument anymore even hearing people arguing cry know stupid sound cant handle it know manipulative abusive violent relationship many years know may sound odd think damage really coming past year since split im wreck hate much without sounding like right selfish cow friday come quick enough ive enough pains,1 whats wanted wish whoever seeing good daynight,0 Just took the biggest depression nap of my life,1 texted different redflag text lines morning am still answer single one ami really bad suicidal thoughts bad anxiety crying trembling uncontrollably vomiting going hot cold sweats want burden boyfriend sleeping tried texting hotline get like cannot bring speak words reason title says ive response whatsoever making feel hopeless fuck like different hotlines redflag answer adamant killing would done already absolutely help thing thats keeping fact boyfriend cat would homeless alive make money apartment anyone know seek help better way google redflag hotlines bc cant anything without risking losing job apartment relationship,1 depression panic attacks derealisation episodes quite time sucks ssri afford rn fluoxetine working me heard good things sertraline parents retrenched way afford long term advice cannot afford treatment currently university really hellish live day day ssris expensive,1 feel like i am comming down with something let s hope it s just a cold,0 tomorrow morning my month old son and i fly out of state for a month i ve only flown once when i wa and that wa with my entire family now i m and i m flying alone for the first time let alone with my son so i m carrying his car seat his stroller a big luggage a small luggage and a diaper bag the airport here is ginormous it wa just remodeled and everyone just talk about how it take an hour to walk to their gate i m really stressing out i ve had my anxiety under control super well lately but this is kind of beating me up i just hope it go well i hope we make the flight and my son doe well on it and doesn t get scared thankfully it s only a two hour flight but still,1 im giving one yeari think takes get fucking room spend much time panicked state miss kid happy now genius shit together careers need gf yeah admittedly care much people think also know things would nice im privileged pussy,1 kind of longs for the bus that show up at the end of ghost world right now ugh,0 headache like motivation sigh,0 girlfriend years broke blue yesterday ive never redflag thoughts noweverything see makes think her everything happens makes want run share her desperately miss her best friend one else never again much time me heart hurting much never felt much pain entire life,1 research study opportunity still looking participantsour research team florida state university currently conducting study risk factors suicidal thoughts behaviors primary goal study better understand thoughts feelings experiences motivate suicidal thoughts behaviors interested recruiting people use website participate research study participation completely voluntary interested participating complete online screener see qualify participate qualify complete variety questionnaires online study involve four online assessments next month take min complete compensated online gift cards amazon important things know study are study includes questions images regarding selfharm redflag unpleasant images strongly emphasize images included extremely graphic redflagrelated images people may feel images disturbing may find triggering information collected kept anonymous participation completely voluntary link provide send website telling study site decide whether want participate start participate decide longer feel comfortable longer interested stop time provide links treatment resources throughout study study include participants years older please send us private message interested participating contact us send link screening questionnaire see qualify tell study please note participated study point vanderbilt university unfortunately eligible participate again,1 lucky enough catch film finally turner classic films tonight one films oscar for special effects yearly month oscar winning films br br bedknobs broomsticks easily sequel film earlier success mary poppins film big success oscar winner best actress julie andrews like mary poppins bedknobs david tomlinson it role wherein learns parenting fine mixture live action animation set past period british history if edwardian georgian world london englands coastline dunkirk summer even old reginald owen it general home guard whereas formerly admiral boom mary poppins ironically owens final rolebr br the home guard sequences not many film reminds one british series dads army dealing problems local home guard early years war period also well suggested appearance three rawlins children war orphans bombings blitz london in typical disney fashion musical number portobello road different members british army including soldiers india caribbean complete metal drums yet appear scottish local female auxiliaries costumebr br all which surprisingly plus biggest plus angela lansbury performance eglantine price finally it sole real musical film lead noteworthy acting career lansbury never got real career musical role deserved auntie mame musical mame came shortly bedknobs did singing parts in gaslight brief balloon boys picture dorian gray little yellow bird best support conclusion harvey girls final reprise atchison topeka santa fe play female lead hear singing david tomlinson may able understand lost play mame dennis burnsidebr br the rest cast pretty good tomlinson learning rise occasion lifetime relative failure three children cindy ocallaghan roy snart ian weighill actually showing interesting sides characters edwardian predecessors poppins weighill particular something budding opportunist thinking blackmailing lansbury finding witch surprising waste possibly due cutting scenes roddy mcdowall local vicar two sequences film possible role disapproving foe witchcraft bigger part also note john ericson german officer leads raid conclusion film find facing something powerful ever imagined british countryside sam jaffe competitor magic formula lansbury tomlinson seeking br br as animation two sequences sea lagoon wildest soccer match ever drawn well worth view tomlinson pulled latter referee getting pretty badly banged various charges scrimmages said pretty fine sample disney studios best work,0 i ve been on just about every ssri under the sun i ve been on hydroxyzine i m currently on 0mg of buspar x a day 0mg of seroquel and 0mg of remron it is not working for me i still can t leave my house i get anxious the second i step outside i get sick to my stomach dizzy light headed my toe and finger tingle and i feel like an elephant is sitting on my chest i go into tunnel vision and shut down i can t even escape my anxiety a i have very anxious dream i need the help of medication that will actually work i just want to feel human again,1 @writerchaz Thanks for the follow friday! I didn't catch it til yesterday. ,0 nevada is really long and the gas pump are down but on a good note i just won in a slot machine i love to gamble,0 Therapy over Skype – Online Skype Therapy for Effective Mindfulness Therapy for Overcoming Anxiety & Depression. Most people see big improvements within 3-4 weeks. Contact me to learn more and to schedule a Skype therapy session. https://ift.tt/2FiGBmq ,1 quick questionim gonna kill cut myselfalthough did anything find thought coming back constantly get school work job rest life ill live retirement home ten years die special theyre goal life me im pretty much watching world die phone sorry grammar,1 hey everyone ever need vent need friend helps help others anyone needs someone talk,1 i ve been accused of being a biscuit fascist because i said viennese biscuit weren t working class,0 I love it how I NEVER study and always manage to ace tests ,0 bored lifehey guys im college student ive really never lot luck making friends even dropped college year depressed mostly one talk hang with finally enrolled university again ended making friends made best friends anyone could possible ask for school year honestly best year life bad news international exchange students since gone back home im back square one friends whenever im working im sitting home staring phone hate life nothing live for one hang with constantly think death like im cutting food knife im bridge think could easily kill myself constant feelings dread never stop ill probably drink coma hopefully alcohol poisoning kill me,1 somy last post months ago unsure exact date know around months and last im going unsubbing here maybe ill resub later date im definitely ill come back help people way people sub helped me much changed generally feel better im sure why something changed know what something has feel slightly better now actually feel okay know im woods yet im getting there know theres plenty obstacles actually looking forward encountering them im starting relish challenge like said idea changed still go work am come home sit room watching tv phone want say thank everyone helped even tried help difficult person help know that ive always thought everything alone real man never asks help wrong matter matter male female trans idea are matter hard exterior soft need help sometimes cant everything ourselves thats okay now im leaving sub thank again everyone helped least tried appreciate it tldr im feeling better leaving sub,1 tired bieng usedim m girlfriend using me like exes them never relationship someone wasnt cheating me one idk shes cheating shes using sure used live town shes come back since got together first time hung etc stayed too well time shes coming took whole time days well wont see night soon pick airport wants drive two towns drop friends house go pick night whenever theyre done hanging out next day shes getting picked place like am pick evening shes done saturday cancelled plans date night friends again sunday take airport im gonna this plan killing car dropping off cleaned car bought plastic sheets tarp back seat floors clean easy since airport body found shortly im tired bieng used cheated everything book since theres something wrong might well fix problem right,1 depression anxiety lack of sleep lack of new yukika music lack of weed http t co d y 9 zpry,1 spend vacation puts closure television series aired ive always enjoyed series is ive never compared series looney tunes old days video release split four five episodes i cant remember im writing this television included episode list series whats good series main characters show major role story see summer vacation different parts world elmyra parents safari plucky hampton crossing country hamptons parents fifi beach etc climax good end tiny toon characters reunite start new year looniversity thus practically ending good run tv show,0 @jcgpulido: Thanks for the well wishes. And you WILL like a big ass guy to help you in therapy and you will LOVE it. hahahaaa ,0 trying to find a tech job can t find any entry level job any were also just about every job site ha more spam now then job,0 relocated graduate scheme fiance friends here best friends live away busy university friends take interest lives now work makes anxious lonely feel trapped endless loop work home sleep repeat life feels pointless accomplishments fiance adore struggles depression hard discuss together worry end breaking mental health sometimes happens new puppy together mortgage getting married years want alone forever love him still worry keeps night one day could wake gonei think weird anxious make friends feel like loser see mutuals posting socials friends time makes wonder cannot thatno point post word vomit situation friendless,1 swear im nice person like argue lot like ill take chance debate love shit like want hop onto sub thats homophobic like yo im gay watch chaios go down maybe like im nice im chaotic maybe im nice mean im racist homophobic transphobic sexist argue people push hatefully opinions also something thats bugging me reddit kind girls places oh god makes sound like one crazy femists like want someone stare boobs makes feel unsafe know going do might attack get chance kinda hard get boys understand female use car keys carry pepper spray like body could happy it body could stare it want pleasure you control see girl skirt stare you yea thats mind also want hugs ask time one right ya good day,0 nothing helps staying alive inviting abusei love brothers love friends dont want hurt them mother doesnt love ive lost family speaking fathers abuse ive sexually assaulted times want count including really violent rape never stop affecting me dont think im capable relationship sex point also know twentytwo stay alive happen again ive put year long waiting list therapy ptsd say discharge flashbacks one event already am suppose im supposed lie two years ago diagnosed life changing condition put drugs degrade emotional health cognitive functioning stop taking them might well die anyway dont want live dont want hurt anyone dont want burden people love know things likely get easier cant ask help anymore know wont solve anything ill feel guilty opening up dont remember like fight suicidal plans time ive tried everything,1 "@Vieveee hahaha I think I just might! I've been home all day, but I wanna finish cleaning first! So ill bbm you ",0 collecting thoughts looking opinionshey guys long time lurker first time poster ill attempt brief yo white male attending college large university south diagnosed depression two years ago ive cycled bunch different antidepressants im currently lithium effexor lithium bipolar psychiatrist trying something different drug ive tried far noticeable effect week started smoking weed couple months ago wake bake regularly now probably help situation thing know always make feel ok ive stopped smoking though since want reach kind conclusion weed makes apathetic therapy helped some progress ive made far things ive realized myself good student high school succeeded college two main possibilities either depressed know study hard know correct since depression started entered college ive managed get much trouble now lost main scholarship past semester im currently failing current classes spent past weekend expecting kill monday afternoon ive postponing deadline last days realistically know probably wont ive stood parking deck looked before know jumping would take willpower right now would easier go something fun friends go get high probably end hardship withdrawal none grades semester count im trying figure now logical option ect would go get shocked weeks probably start classes january think would solve problems truth probably need work problems combination introspection time instead electricity course health things do weight fine eat much sugar exercise cant find willpower fix though part proud believe problem could ordinary solution,1 gone time september overthats plan supposed gone january look back post history see took fuck ton overdoses various attempts spent two months psych ward discharged back community wish people would respect choice life hands know selfish wish die able make choice im fed life anything genuinely feel like me belong here simple really ive written note plan starting fall place ill gone september thats start new academic year ive come far ive many attempts im certain want dreams ambitions ive tried years think future try believe enough make loved ones feel reassured genuinely cant keep wasting resources people desperate future wish rest im hoping ill leave world tiny bit better came im supposed here thank anyone cared read that,1 help please talking friend aimrrrrris available rrrrr dawg rrrri bruh bruh rrrr u know jesus got sign god gonna die rrrr youtubecomwatchvqvfrog yeah rrrrr thats feel right forreal think imma kill rrrrr like god told gonna die happened rrrrr there yo real cant say shit like go get waffles something like shit like respond rrrrr im rrrrrr nice rrrrrr happened rrrrr nothing really wanne dead rrrrr like pretty sure god want kill fucking girl like u talking twitter recently ur prob experiencing psychological withdrawals stopped smoking weed rrrrrr weird like legit want leave earth unless like immense pain go away like physical pain solike say shit like theres radio silence id legit worry rrrrr dont wanna leave bruh feels like rrrr why rrrrr like basically im trying figure killing dying we would something god wants happen happened life made change like seemingly enjoying life feeling bad rrrrr tell little plx wrud rrrrr die everyone know change rrrrr yeah necessarily better prob worse rrrrr prob gonna tongiht eventually think gonna happen matter rrrrr control it rrrrr think abot want dit u wrent online right id prob gone rrrrr would killed yourself rrrrr ton stuff want do like life like fun shit rrrr idc rrrrr assure you almost virtually god want kill wants help better others lives,1 opps a i said i still got one day remain and now problem come,0 dumb storyjust typing form therapy guess tried kill lighting house fire dont remember anything told fifteen days induced coma months burn unit half body burned arrested arson taken psych ward local jail denied medical attention dragged court seeping pus theres lot story gives fuck charged worst possible level crime equivalent capital murder bargained state jail felony whatever means released jail approximately months spent almost years homeless probation court breathing neck expecting pay money dont means get it im disability living apartment provided housing charity still probation officer wants put back jail every day nightmare life keep living it dont know guess point try kill better get done right one cares youll live rot fuck up,1 lesser known film starring roy thinnes from tvs invaders actually consider lost gem made time story important special effects though effect fairly good time scientist theorizes another world earths orbit directly behind sun since sun always blocks us never see earth roy thinnes selected go mission get world want tell rest plot give rest movie away lets say real surprisesbr br the movie british good british flavor acting tv series like avengers,0 cheated onhi there little background information me name alex turned last month broke things ex last weekend weve dated two years longest time borderline personality disorder issues abandonment growing up first met hooked rather quickly huge red flag mother i never girlfriend before ignored pursued relationship her throughout course relationship kept lot male attention claimed friends reality either cheating making money escort online shed cheat id find out wed break up wed miss other wed get back together on eventually started take toll attempted take life felt like worth anything anymore abandonment issues running childhood started surface handle overwhelming feeling good enough anyone love long story short ended d release found phone flooded sobbing messages regret ex hard hearing voice someone love saying much miss love regret everything theyve done apologize like theyve never done before looking back know fell love someone exist time together months started thing ended things off spent alone trying date around ended meeting someone else paper seemed like ideal girlfriend mental problems job car placeeverything girlfriend lacked problem physically attracted her broke things two months realized fair waste time falling love like ex month later mother stepdad planning thanksgiving dinner local country clubhouse ex worked i assumed due borderline personality disorder work history held job offered buy seat agreed ended still working entire time really pleasant nice parents tried asshole ignored attempts strike conversation end dinner leave asked parents hug agreed whole time falling shit really hated walked car alone got home messaged back telling eff ever run appreciate little show put on defended self said break it months since last talked done growing up kept job really ashamed everything talked long time eventually got back together together since nov ended last weekend caught talking guys openly flirted despite mentioning me i know extent flirting went deleted history prior day broke up day did flirted seemed giving good morning texts so either way right feel bit hopeless feel worthless lost right now know im going purpose is cant help feel like im fault sex bad giving enough attention ugly poor short whats wrong deserve this know do want run away pit despair gut want go home beer cry crap much live for cant go back wanting end time want move forward need someone talk friends,1 Kuzie is an A-1 class act Now maybe she can go on to win 5 more slams.She is playing much smarter tennis these days,0 in love with wolverine ,0 want successful networking forming close friendshipsnotredflag need get rid phobia somehow ways fear interfering social life academics well earn high grades want snatch opportunities outside classroom need suck try tolerate group work classmates more opened therapist this could actually discuss ways combat problem ended leaving one go becoming comfortable around men,1 shootin shit better act like u heard drivin xannies might hit curb tee hee,0 eleyvanbow jamesgrickards when the russian economy enters recession then depression and the ruble continues to get hammered the russian people will find solace in the fact that their central bank bought gold the last couple year,1 i seen it all out here i ve dealt with the younger generation which i don t mind for some of them are very respectful but then again some just turn it around and just want to be with an older woman for sex where are the compassionate people anymore in this life i m screaming out for someone to listen a i would listen to you i don t want to die but i m so tired of this life,1 foilly oh no that s a shame you ll have to find them the next time tim pass through or organise a sydney feeter convention,0 @TwilightEarth Daybreak is my favorite time of day. ,0 could go wrong take thisok pills stilnox zolpidem bromazepam tramadol put sleep without worries im tired im alone im searching support want know together work know medicine nullify effect others,1 in a taxi on the way to get pizza bad traffic and headache worst,0 like tiktok bad around months ago gotten girl loved much one month ago broke didnt tell reason started bitch tiktok said lot fucked things none witch true decided make tiktok hated tiktok got taken bullying harassment fuck wrong reported tiktok honestly end im upset tiktok breaking,0 f ask stuff please im bored like answering questions idk yeah,0 christmas ideas clue want christmas grandparents i live them rich theyre gonna buy things yet interest getting really anything christmas anyone suggestions get i understand hard since everyone different interests something everyone would cool with,0 Julia Michaels is music for locals with depression,1 redflag thoughts far long help pleasei year old male chicago grew divorced parents since years old younger brother years younger me parents us split avoid paying money grew father dad untill got arrested molesting children secret now rots prison fully connected moms side family untill dad getting arrested lived mom years drifited around went iowa year came back moved moms sister moms mom year half moved half year couldnt handle moved moms brother half year thats going alot better ever since moved iowa till redflag slowly planting self head huge time meeting others talking people since drifted around much went job job job majority life mostly stick room reality saving money affording own also grew big issue teeth majority teeth half gone taking good care teeth became issue time went pass years started dealing infections loosing teeth infections living antibotics yes know put self problem years tried tried get help wouldnt cost life money hard years pain suffering problems finally found service called dental dondational service recently helpped much im suicidal ive became suicidal depression teeth big factor still im missing teeth front smile im big guy let tell im short white guy health wise like hygeine take good care self bathe eat nicely year ago started aggresive mouth hygene clean mouth since im living bare ends jobs hard time people real life sit rooms rot life away feel life usesless keep going stress struggled past years try better point comfortable like living deal stress dad deal stress teeth worry alone female give chance hell probly money bad teeth even tho think looks im bad looking deal stress cont untill im dead want someone talk people hang resulting social media work dating sites horrible facebook filled selfish people post things get likes also dont drink drugs smoke cigerettes going bars pointless costly chicago really want friend someone really talk enjoy spending time with think nice friendship nice life ligetmitly none course know people dont hang live far away live chicago dont really care hang out im tried living dark thinking way want room life im posting reddit seems people come read things,1 history teacher intentionally gave us homework inconvenient time screw him thats shitty,0 myrtti ouch,0 got pushed told opinion matter like bitch also part family like kill me ever enjoyed company tried opening people got people hate got pushed more ask kid open years one day finally tries opening up push further congratulations giving reasons remain will depressed hate myself live life like till point break never going changein past week already lost best friend useless could even save supposed save myself hate today finally tried talking family tried open guess,1 being border restricted victim day by day we getting engulfed in frustration depression suicidal attempt and much more that we can t express in word depression fmwangyisaveindianstudents takeusbacktochina 00,1 hi im high drunk u guys tjing drunk wey fun ideas dm,0 quero morrertentei suicdio esta quarta tomei umas quatro ou cinco caixas de medicao minhas pernas continuam fracas mas tremedeira excessiva e cansao acabaram quero morrer ainda almocei sushi com um amigo e caminhei parque com uma exprofessora quero morrer fui numa confeitaria com dita exprofessora ela disse sobre dar dez anos e tentar suicdio de novo quero morrer meu crebro parece que est sendo modo de tanta dor que eu sinto eu quero morrer eu acho que talvez mate de vez aguento mais perdi uma amiga amada perdi minha indianinha e agora sinto arrasado quero morrer vida continua mesmo somente natural que eu continue querendo morrendo,1 stop itstop telling im making everything head im swear swear god next person says fucking punished punished im tired reaching help getting shit shit want tell im faking fuck im go away attention seeker lost cause waist air space things im told fucking hate fucking hate it cant normal little girl doesnt look around every couple minues hear someone calling name poking something crawling leg cant normal sad angry angry sometimes nooooooo start saying something thats wrong fucking lie im sick sick it dont kill already,1 im gojng tk get high kill mysfi dont knkw im posting dont thinm talking help especially since dont feel like typing wjsh someone would,1 "@BarackObama @realDonaldTrump @4YrsToday @ScottILA1459 No he didnt by time Dubyas budget ended debt was near 12 tril,plus another ~2tril on Ws unfunded mandates that were brought on books, plus decline of revenue &countercycle spending so great repub Recession didn't turn into ANOTHER Great Repub Depression.",1 oh no my computer suck i don t think i ll be able to listen to the xbox 0 fancast tonite,0 i feel like i just need to have a long long chat with one person about how i feel constantly i m not in crisis or anything i just want to know what s going on in my head so i can stop my self destructiveness because i don t even know what i do to mentally kill my self thank you,1 "@JimRenacci @realDonaldTrump Trump's new slogan,"" """"Bring America Back To Depression.""""",1 @SugarHustler hehe u are funny! follow me ,0 love degeneracy tbh think wonderful love fact society heading point b weird fucks want beautiful,0 ask help one takes seriouslynever mind,1 dont know im thinkinghis might end wall text apologize advance life crazy past months bit long story so four five years ago i next month met ended relationship with somebody went elementary school dance earlier years know long known eachother alot common music arts movies things along lines edgy kids cried depression slit wrists fuck living in love we time really good experience eventually started going back forth months eventuality split mutual reasons never really lost feelings her id harm almost daily throughout high school depression bloomed knew still feelings thing respected that went traumatic phase age started meeting men internet sex free app claimed men sometimes older regret every day alive feel though taken advantage young age occurred years kept secret never tested stds scared dont believe symptoms skip senior year high school never really stopped talking kind acquaintances friends still knew ourselves watched go abusive relationship lasted years really hurt watch feel like couldve saved that eventually ended class together started talking alot more long story short ended going prom together really good time thought things went well dropped house gave hug went hangout friends afterwards let know actually went go talk ex the abusive one dropped off ended getting back together night prom start darkest time didnt least tell me even still feelings her whatever stopped talking rest school year never really talked again self harming never stopped got exceedingly worse deep cuts arms elbow down stopped caring everything wanted end life still worked shitty part time job ended alot drugs snortingpopping pills cocaine bud graduating stopped talking everyone knew became even alone developed crippling social anxiety month short year ago got new job paid decent money self harming still didnt stop still feeling girl broke abusive guy year graduating got right new relationship another guy still didnt talk still knew life going months new job turns also got job place plan kill started pull through also mutual friend also worked there made little better sense would involved conversations her worse sense would endure presence thought everyday ending life would thing could really make happy still new bf always complained me started giving support advice started regularly talking conversations lives better understanding eachother eventually ended confessed felt discussion work one night contained felt other turned feelings me astonished didnt act anything yet since wounds last relationship fresh months line weve talking becoming pretty close one night work wanted us people work go dinner went super flirty entire time night ended us car since drove us ended kiss little awkward happiest ive years weve close since basically act like couple kissing cuddling ect happiest ive years still continue suicidal thoughts still checked stds still think younger im still anxious depressed fucking hate myself recently alone car together as usual leaving work parking somewhere since would late go either houses thing got turned topic sex ended explaining occurred younger first time ive told somebody this took understandingly open minded explained change feelings agreed go clinic recently sex days conversation condom checked she okay this made sure least thousand times know regret not really want work officially together something even condom could happen could fucked life still want kill myself put bad mindset decided things dint work ill end today went walmart work guess visibly upset drive there park explained that shes worried me friend also works us spoke day said shes worried us becoming close again thinks dont work shes worried im going end life gameplan didnt say anything minute everything kind built head one ended hysterically crying front her didnt really explain why left i dont know acceptable since knows effects depression care deeply still want die never thought opportunity would ever happen still want blow head off almost wish wasnt happening couldve killed without getting close end hurting even already is dont know do feel lost,1 i m 9 year old and i have been depressed and lonely since i wa i have had some ups and some people that i connected with over the year but i have lost them all or wa betrayed by them i don t know how to talk with other people even people who have similar interest to me and i always think i make everyone feel awkward when they are around me or that i m imposing myself on them every month i tell myself that thing will get better and sometimes they do but then i lose what made me happy and everything else go wrong too it s been year of telling myself that thing will get better only to have them turn worse and i m so tired of it i am really afraid of death and i realize that i don t want my life to end i just want another life but suicide is starting to sound like the most bearable option,1 would schizophrenic deaf person hear voices head talking them im unable find answer anywhere need know,0 aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa fuck god put cute ass people god forsaken world turn around make fucking awkward talk,0 @craigsbeardwax Goodnight ,0 i m not where i m supposed to be but i ll take this over depression,1 corienb kutner s gone really have to see the new episode urgently but they aren t available on dvd yet,0 even the most basic task are super difficult to do this is most likely going to be my final week on this shitty planet and it s most certainly going to be my final post,1 made spotify playlist made spotify playlist inspired feeling joy felt early phase quarantine heres link httpsopenspotifycomplaylistlrnnjtflltvmxjotczsispxqdrqkxpdzkbw songs include dayglow hot rod harry styles cherry fitz tantrums league girl red fell love october tame impala less know better borns electric love wallows bored yet joji slow dancing dark seconds summer shes kinda hot,0 husband got fight broke plate said defective couldnt this said gonna drive somewhere shoot outside car could it left doesnt seem guns missing dohe ptsd hes getting depressed disconnected past years im exhausted think straight dont want call cops without good reason bc hell lose job hes threatened redflag times always panic attack hes never told plan before im really tired scared idk make good decision right please help,1 rudyard kipling wrote god gave people ability love whole world given human heart small size every human special place loves other seems may motto eminent directors today set profess eternal love special place depict situations lives denizens visitors result wonderful collection short films paris je taime guides van sant coixet cuaron payne others take us breathtaking stroll parisian arrondissements human feelings yearnings expectationsbr br always quarter always utterly moving story ordinary people search love parking lot art studio tube station paris je taime vast array loves love ones partner child parent meant world us longer around love needs rekindling serendipitous love stranger eyes meet love meant betoday tomorrow knowsbr br nevertheless film solely love life itself joy pain loneliness confusion everyday ups downs important quality fact soppy all rather warm full hopebr br i give film final section suggests stories might develop thing find missing further development mean specific reference characters future far everything else concerned say captivating makes want leave everything behind you flee paris live little romances yourself,0 also i shouldve bern asleep an hour ago,0 i would like to apologize for the repeated video game live related tweet i am going to have a stern discussion with koodo soon stern,0 ok reported uredditcareresource got message reddit care resource minutes ago apparently deserve help whatever im going kind stuff see would get reported times ive going latest posts must someone here mentioned stuff life quite whoever reported must gone latests posts comments thanks thanks guess,0 0secondstomars thank s for your prayer these day are very difficults,0 http://twitpic.com/6ioas - Bella - living up to her name. ,0 oh guys found it found song ive heard young even like much,0 everyone abandoning meearlier week friend h said paranoid anxiety disorder couldnt handle talking anymore blocked social media sent depressive spiral havent gotten cut first time years confided friends feeling morning friend c sent message saying constant messages confiding make uncomfortable also blocked me already paranoia everyone abandoning realize toxic am makes worse everyone interact hurt would better die hurt anyone else abandon me,1 sam firstenbergs ninja the domination mixes martial arts the exorcist like horrorthe horror elements thrown screen simply laughablebut film works mindless actionmartial arts flickthe fight scenes wellchoreographed excitingand film never boringso forget stupid dialoguelame acting annoying soundtrackgrab beer check one outhighly recommended,0 Well I watched the episode so I'm gonna go now and go deeper into my depression,1 ever get feeling got worst first lockdown didnt sleep days thought work immensely late fell massive rut started self harm ive bever best sleeping awful affect ven now usually stay around am ive type multiple times find writing far far much ive stuck dad outdated beliefs antivax mum said ahe never wanted see im predictably messaged month said trying bribe come back sick wasnt first time said kicked out dad hand pretty muxh worse the straight white male opposed race you get oit rut like snaps fingers anyone form medication drug addict could go hours fell behind work returning school soon fell behind ages ago trying catch pretty much never did dad help at all eventually broke broke month self harm clean streak step mum freaked considered emailing teacher said do hesitate email worries questions ask work really really worried thats now week ago teacher responded saying pretty much dont worry completely fine still cant shake feeling literally nothing really complain about guess parents theres alot try think about dont know thats it anyway ive sorted things girlfriend happy ive sorted schoolwork ive started exercising frequently yet still feel uneasy whats wrong me things going pretty well cant shake weight me still really long cant even bothered shorten anymore anyone else get feeling tldr mean much better explained read but things going pretty well comparison past yet cant shake feeling uneasiness weight pulling down,0 Bom dia twittes! ,0 almost therenear end school thinking gonna kill mind became calm strangely enough horrible thoughts started think today im gonna im gonna take pills lay couch never get everyone think taking nap closest ive gotten felt guilty speak friend since feel like ive bothered enough dont want make feel guilty theres enough pills,1 read reviews middle high schools bored saw comment gus johnson video get bored really entertaining read reviews middle high schools theres lot reviews angry students complaining terrible school is looked reviews high school go lot reviews complaining stairs found one review said if school pokemon would smash ball another one guy talking much loved beekeeping class took there,0 cant live standards killing mei know do semester long project worked on got data write up hate much finish it see useful well done enough good peoples likely are feel like sham turning terrible keep rushing final assignments classes gotten as semester in feel like sham failure cant bear thought getting poor grade cant get shit done keep getting worse cant keep consistently improving grad program want me job want me one want me damaged make anything good life feel bad hold back move forward get exhausted barely continue feel like anything less outstanding useless deserved every little bit hell went child times put down ignored beaten deserved every last fucking bit it feel like trying finish graduate level work combating fucking ptsd cant take it nothing ever feels like itll ever enough cant get better cant time recover wish offed like another student school did cant accept waste would rather die,1 live dont smoke weed time made curious anyone smoke weed explain like,0 im gonna break house sleep turn light room leave everyone house loves im back gt,0 gaspitsnicole sigh me too mostly i miss hsnging out with my friend damn growing up p oh yeah i miss being able to spell too lol,0 Wow tonight is gonna be one hell of a night. FUCK YA BRING IT ON! ,0 want diei want die want die want die wantto die im itred tire dit reidt rjdskfjdsak want fucking die,1 hate lifelately hit wave depression new thing happened before feel like im good enough world never live anyones expectations always set bar high always impossible impress them life would bearable good something im not closest thing math id say im average things going right right sucks im trying lose weight pretty successful however like take step forward ten steps back top everything girlfriend like year texted like months life looking goodive often thought ending never gone it,1 my heart my gloom your depression feel like the calm drift of smoke above the rage and fire of battle your extrapolation badmouths like salt i love you like a drifting sycamore seed,1 sittin here w kayla i really really reallly dis like having a brother he doesn t know when to stop i m waiting for the day when one of,0 marcellariley it wa a repeat tonight for gossip girl,0 saw someone diei waiting train suddenly middleaged woman jumped track engine hit her nothing one could do committed redflag front least hundred people,1 somewhat a depression post but i feel a if i don t know what my preference is i like men and woman but at the same time i ve never felt that emotionally just sexually am i just a weirdo or is their a statement for it,1 @bennyirawan i'm getting the agreement today ,0 simply well written directed acted woodys best s best since s hugh jackman perfect pick roll scarlett johanssons banter woody proves well rounded actress becomebr br its refreshing romance screen leading lady plays perfect bumbling magicianbr br there reviews maligning movie let stop seeing wonderfully done film people crowd saw laughing loud lines missed next line like woody allen films s regret missing onebr br i suggest go watch film open mind do might walk smiling,0 lost nnn sure think would cum already exactly month knowif someone reassure still go nnn please say,0 ultimate ninja warrior httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvxxvocdsampab_channeldevelopedpondhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvxxvocdsampab_channeldevelopedpond,0 want die gta v mission taking forever want leave without rude,0 decided wear male thong school today bad decided wear one school today dont know have idk anyone notice thoughts would say anything,0 please participate research study geared toward understanding suicidal thoughtsbehaviors us onlynote posting approved moderators rredflagwatch please also note posting repost study posted september httpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsywvplease_participate_in_research_study_gearedstjfpmscampsheeaca already participated time please participate again hi rredflagwatch name megan rogers graduate student department psychology florida state university working dr thomas joiner dr joiner conducting research study examines risk factors suicidal thoughts behaviors hope understanding shortterm redflag risk work toward developing effective treatments ultimately lower prevalence suicidal thoughts behaviors age fluent english live united states currently experiencing thoughts redflag may eligible participate study decide participate will fill baseline set questionnaires minutes receive amazon gift card complete brief minute phone interview megan rogers portion mandated institutional review board store phone number call take every step possible ensure confidentiality fill five followup surveys minutes each one every three days next weeks you receive amazon gift cards followup survey total complete five complete five followup surveys within hours receiving them receive bonus gift card overall may earn participating study remember completely voluntary choose study not email us joinerlabpsyfsuedu message us post questions concerns study would like participate please click link see eligible httpsfsuqualtricscomjfeformsv_vdaihclvuskwx thank much hope hear soon best regards megan rogers ms florida state university,1 really thinking getting ran shredded train reading seems pretty foul proof seems like much wrongi afraid jump bridge survive whole body broken happened holy even know would pointeveryday getting harder harder literally snap life fucking hate life much everyone ask why reason needed bullshit life calledsorry rantting honestly want kill self every fucking second goes by hate wake still alive want dead bad wuss so honestly better way kill myself getting hit train jumping bridge,1 whats good idea second date basically title really dating dating like gone before first time met park fucked around hour mom basically told us need go home date two want nice fun almost everything closed parents super strict,0 someone explain people like anime cant see people like much really cant understand people like much,0 go social anxiety depression end ok iill try make long me im year old boy ive living social anxiety depression now ive one boyfriend short time ago ive never girlfriend ive never kissed spend almost time inside masturbate much trying stop one friend were close anything school when go school really speak much almost cant connect normal kids whenever go school feel place think lot dying still school life wish could normal normal person normal life normal things person age adults enjoyed time high school dont wish could cant change least completely realistically speaking want couple close friends could call family boyfriend girlfriend there maybe time lol kids hell think id like kids think im asking much many people this seems like complete fantasy could see future saw that could carry life now seems like fantasy it so keep living kill myself least yet went im going ended friends family it get there it since cant kill myself id like little bit hope hold onto mind living people cared me,1 petition change like jazz like jizz say yay nay,0 gotten worsei posted half year ago breakdown unfortunately things gotten much better motivation anything learn work out socialize last week even interfered job putting brink getting fired year ago thought wow ever got fired job id probably kill myself real talents nothing praised for im still know drive im motivated enough ive started going doctor issues im antidepressants seem harm good id give anything kind motivation anything hell cant even kill right eat whatever hell want hope kills faster im sorry comes scattered ive recovered fever im extremely sleep deprived mind last days ive sick bed cant stand anymore,1 too much internet how it plague me,0 im going deed god want badlyi venting frustrations here currently feeling thoughts leaving work now going dads house getting one guns my dad reason wife nuts driving far away go woods somewhere end suffering thought going head right now like literal bullet want to however fucking coward fear death fear comes next committing deed damning self eternal damnation suffering hell trying end suffering life make things worse suffer eternity one reason cannot go deed fear unknown although agnostic catholic upbringing tugs back mind cannot hurt family friends dogs innocent sweet dogs would miss daddy imagine pain causing pain others best friend killed years ago got drunk lay abroad coming home war zone ran traffic became hoodornament family suffers immensly day actions friends suffer it see family times year tell shattered them cannot people love man want pain stop causing pain well outside think great life middle class great albeit boring career someone age supportive family wife etc yet bit debt wife bat shit crazy manipulative hell tries alienate friends family want leave trying to ugly messy afraid harm herself dogs me mean never suicidally depressed since teen came recent years see shrink meds such much need change need things work check mental institute lose job puts debt issues which turn makes life worse stuck horrible catch making sigh,1 scary thoughtsall think hurting killing myself really exhausted living way,1 menochronic blamethehormone thismorning carolynharris drlouisenewson i am so sorry you went through that with your daughter i spent year being treated for anorexia depression anxiety self harm eupd until eventually being diagnosed with pmdd in 0 even once diagnosed i spent a year in a psych unit to support me until i got surgery,1 @Tori85 oh poor Tori! We will get them back ,0 confidence issues hello guys hope everyones great day far so know im alone say im entirely good conversations simply would say im confident begin with get wrong love listening conversations learning things people sometimes would also love add input state stance matter discussed but limelight shifted onto me somehow crumble pressure cant talk normally anymore mainly happens really fancy idea someone or multiple people looking directly face makes bit selfconscious like way makes feel something else also heavily impedes daytoday discussions stammering ive never stammered stuttered prepubescent days used engage conversations randomly talk but happens reason and honestly quite embarrassing makes whole interaction hundred percent awkward sides really want something this know know me issue working liking myself issue need advice websites google ted talks ive watching merely adding screen time anything keep reiterating need comfortable skin put many social interactions to get hang it guess solutions may helped many lost souls like there seem tremendously vague need concrete solutions anyone going this done help combat social inepcy thank taking time effort read and hopefully kindly respond this also please kind comments section really looking constructive suggestions lt,0 horses mars wonderful journey taken small creatures work hard hold attention characters truly memorable credit must go eric anderson choice visual style writing interesting story credit also deserved anuj majumdar narration wonderful music score choices obviously accident can see mm scope impact quite beautiful film,0 dms open quite tired enough sleep yet lol im glad weekend starting get late im quite tired yet seeing anyone else around wanting chat whatever ,0 life turn wayif things different childhood would happier cant imagine ever feeling happy child whats point thing stopping thinking family much pain would cause them hurts even think about wish like this wish could like everyone else weak,1 sometimes it s not even mental anxiety somedays i just feel it physically i can be totally okay in the noggin but my muscle are tense i m really cold my leg can t stop bouncing my jaw is clenching my nail are digging into my palm then i get up and the world feel woozy that s when i realize how exhausted i am despite hardly doing anything that could ve caused that exhaustion no anxious thought just an anxious body,1 @mediahunter yeah but at least they are using twitter! baby steps #reinvention,0 "Suddenly depression steps in, followed by seclusion and if care is not taken, one starts thinking of suicide.",1 jcturner yeah not good even going back to didn t resolve it,0 @Pink is tomorrow night im very excited for myself ,0 Breakfast time me thinks ,0 top lesbian films library must rate one number one film times film go history best genre story girl rachael stirling goes riches rags rags riches first love keeley hawes popping life set victorian background s makes ideal setting best entertainment industry film spared expense music costumes makeup rachael keeley wore stage halls added films diversitybr br no matter kind films favor guarantee film amaze you keep attention three episodes film played enjoyed decades come unrated dvd collectors version must anyones library rachael stirling keeley hawes best choice casting two roles played extremely well,0 fuck school homies hate school school makes want commit redflag hate school homies hate school bois hate school ampxb lmao year worth notes copy months,0 gingha it is i have the doc so morning off and then into work freecycling what you getting,0 quick help me best ways get rid boner quickly proper life advise right,0 makes since go sleep am wake am tired whole day able stay till past pm weekend school night go sleep pm wake am cant even stay awake hours makes since dead asleep right now,0 @mdoolittle put cinnamon in it ,0 dottedwithearts lol i still got ta work always do,0 question tests matter im th grade good grades im worried passing tests end year even though good months away maintain good grades fail tests end year allowed procede th grade,0 djginaturner no le gusta house of house min intro,0 buy star wars commando ive looking getting dont know,0 boruto episode animated well link httpsyoutubembdexpzfw,0 forcing people click links listen dont care post ur link time dont care youre trying force click link idc upmost ur links thousand times still wont click sure post links dont try force click them choice youre gonna anything it feel targeted this fault trying force people click links know feel targeted heres little context reason rant every time one friends posts link youtube video post like times midway status post theyll say oh thought gonna escape go click annoying hate people that trying force u click,0 day random questions socks off u get mean,0 @jkeyes Yes we have. ,0 give fake hope tell friends family sad sad ones me people mean make feel x worse one cares feel please help go ask please give methods,1 someone feels bad me aggressively compliments,0 reddit wanted put title didnt didnt wear didnt wear didnt wear fucking didnt wear fucking mask didnt wear fucking mask didnt wear fucking mask didnt wear fucking mask didnt wear fucking mask didnt wear fucking mask fucking didnt wear fucking mask fucking dead yeah dont know im bored,0 got christmas books doom eternal im mad like wtf else could wanted lololololo,0 cat dying dream live th floor apartment living room windows looking street dream opened window look outside cat jumped window second opened it fell car blood came him ran outside still car sitting suprised shocked foot broken blood paw dreams realistic blood mean deserve this scared,0 "Parents, are you concerned that your teenager may have depression? Join @NIMHgov for a Twitter chat on May 3 at 3 PM ET. NIMH experts will be available to answer your questions! http://bit.ly/2K3W5hJ  #NIMHchats pic.twitter.com/lcG9Pg0uua",1 amazing dayof literaly nothing still exhausted simply existance kill finally,1 idk man school bro im thinking dropping school construction idk theres something construction like probably physical challenge strong durable,0 @Yasmeen_53 And depression is permanent ,1 think like normal human more everything seems extremely hopeless redflag feels like ultimate answeri use redflag escape procastinating study years everytime faili say lets die want take responsibility anything thinking suicidal get arrested commit redflag get scolded parents redflag every situation life redflag seems answer think like normal person anymore fail do improve right me blame parents low iq still breeding crying cursed cutting myself something goes wrong first instinct kill yourself rather lets face fix it,1 @Brianne_Fran Hi ! XavierMedia has found a way to get thousands of Twitter followers: * http://digg.com/u13ota * check it out ,0 #mcflyforgermany #mcflyforgermany #mcflyforgermany #mcflyforgermany #mcflyforgermany #mcflyforgermany #mcflyforgermany #mcflyforgermany ,0 moved back dad help fight cancer mistake hes ruining lifemy relationship dad never amazing worked hard improve moved out relationship mom similar got lot closer passed away things improved lot dad started actually listening say instead lecturing time seemed care life even though different hes interested in got diagnosed cancer hes scared hes angry hes freaking out hes taking me months ago so ive never felt worthless now im honestly ready end life hes torn everything built moving out overcame depression social anxiety regular anxiety panic attacks become functional adult im back pit despair except im also buried credit card debt income im trying get job hard huge gap employment wonderful supportive girlfriend much became angry frustrated ruined things her left blame leaving right thing take herself something could never do im broke years old one nothing going me cant spend another years rebuilding myself im strong enough im tired hurting im tired pain want over want peace care killing would hurt dad hes fuckhead deserves hurt months ago started hoping either cancer would kill hed go remission hes lined another month cycle chemotherapy one knows means fuck me im lost ive lost myself person awful cant live ive become person today deserve anything good im worthless im hateful im angry im asshole hurt people hurt bend backwards take care asshole father owe anything to wish id moved another country money workfromhome job late life future,1 bloody owl lot alike mate except im owl dead,0 made tutorial open laptop lids tutorial made opening laptop lidshttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdkwzjbawy,0 Ready for Q1? Let's go!Q1. We know many of our children/young people with SEND also have challenges around their mental health. What sort of mental health issues does your child/Children you work with experience eg. Anxiety disorder/ depression ? #SENexchange,1 need help anyone want gay ive praying away past three days cant take anymore comment youre interested guess thank time ,0 sitting here trying to remember what i was gonna do ,0 letter uworstestgrammar uworstestgrammar valentine pretty please,0 giving monthsif change gets worse im gone,1 nothing gets betterthe world going die climate change going destroy world cant fucking die somebody give permission die dont wanna isnt fucking fair want die put away sane response life wanting die dont want die youre insane,1 dont know anymorei broke apart razor first time years wanna cut badly body explain whats going me everythings much worse nowhere ptsd depression everything girlfriend says doesnt think helped dont know do im lost im confused wanna cut pills im feeling exactly like bad edit cant take pretending happy everyone else anymore hard pretend,1 one loves youuntil dead wont even love then important enough love,1 world depressing hate it want kill myself found way it us falling apart think sometimes talk people seeing truth get insults mad cannot fucking deal conservative people ruining world right now talking peoples rights away wanting kill people think like them tired mocked told stupid fat cannot things cus woman tired men bad drivers rude people tired living backwards town worrying give covid family one wear mask sick rather kill myself stupid worthless fat everyone get fucked hope end world fucking die go first see hell fist time,1 i think i'm fallin into a state of depression......,1 guess got kissed today someone sub told win rteenagers,0 "@Dot12b I absolutely agree with you, love both acts ",0 dont want die think toill shortly summ whats going on basically rona made depressed used straight a college student got published research top class mission work etc im probably going get expelled since im failing classes theres coming back this deadass looking end life rn find stupid months severe depression could fuck life bad life unforgiving lol sad theres much want live too puppy want watch grow up im great relationship theres still things want semester ending weeks cant bear thought deal shit get expelled loans go repayment oh topic finances im pretty sure ive lost job casual job hospital required work shift every weeks havent come month ive likely already fired it losing job stupid shit like middle pandemic cant get stupid lazy this anyways looks like cant anything anymore rereading all looks like want partake fun parts life im willing put work even now fucking late parents wont forgive wasting entire semester dont help pay college cosign loans even want cut out looks like bound together loans paid might well go hell even tho aside cosigning loans ive independent financially lived alone since school main reason die rn parents dont give shit shit really going hit fan find this really wouldnt mind waitress something life figured mom anxiety doesnt manage shes gonna flip kill myself loans forgiven ive checked feel trapped wish killed earlier life really nothing lose bittersweet im ready lose life ive reached point continuing life worth living shitty kill parents barely picture make life hell im really worried puppy goes since none friends going able take dont trust family take good care him im regretful right now wanted today good last day dog im sitting crying probably sense im sad rn,1 livehey im fairly new subreddit reddit general came sole purpose venting ill get right it im basically alive obligation parents siblings delve that probably describe myself im short overweight relationships outside family im utterly hopeless cowardly depraved piece human garbage im afraid practically everything thats much exaggeration talk friends sometimes makes feel like people talk to im college want go to studying career really care for again matter much clue want anyway talents hobbies interests complain never time rest get time overwork instead work deadend shitty retail job guess perfect job someone motivation anything used play video games even anymore whine friends im afraid try make friends complain everything never try change anything im already feel like theres basically nothing look forward to constantly constantly think killing myself remind parents siblings would upset died still expectations me expectations cant hope fulfill im planning waiting parents siblings die finally end miserable useless life without anyone remember me luckily im youngest child wait decades fact feel shred anything typing probably concerning conclusion feel desire live capacity sorry length spelling errors,1 get f ps parties seriously ruined whole system servers too,0 im tiredeverything seems finally coming together feel empty good job money friends family means nothing me easily able pretend everyone fine im okay one knows really feel want die see point money is saving for nothing makes happy aspirations dreams future one person could tell everything to made feel alive gone love friends same right things keep busy eat healthily ive exercise interacting people im tired all im tired feeling awful time carry on,1 "What will happen if I fall into depression, the fear of fear, the anxiety of anxiety - drop this idea and your death and your void consuming your life will disappear. Like water being absorbed into wood can break the largest stone into pieces, this idea can break your mind .",1 dont hate things mess upi wanted new new year last year everything shit surprised didnt kill last year plans new forgot get pass move on want be good job awesome boss i work home helps playing crossfit n mma planing ask girl my fiance left mnths ago course life bitch work much get little hours we r small company got make much behind many bills i laid months be got job everything adding n cant take anymore cant afford gyms cuz bill stuff ontario expensive im afraid asking girl cuz much trust issues home get bossed around told everything even pay major bills really wished ended life last year really didnt want feel like year days feel cane back kicked nuts,1 guys guess took long time finally turned missing assignments time too quarter wednesday,0 one awkward situations happened yesterday eating lunch family eating usually speaker on random playlist song earthhttpsyoutubepvun_wvfto came on sat silence struggled laugh pig bit came,0 #3hotwords all right here NSFW >> http://bit.ly/RjluN,0 auraglyphix high always seem to followed by low long a you climb back from it there s nothing wrong with letting some depression out,1 On my way to LA 2 The Roxy. Carmen Electra will b there and I WILL get a picture. Its my mission! ,0 hate hearing his girl being ill nothing i can do though,0 hooomeeee ) Traffic jammed ,0 latexfetish sadly that s not a feed for wordpress a feed usually would be bla com feed or bla com feed r but those two don t exist,0 "@EastCoastSteff Ooooh, ouch! Hope yer ok. Who played? Black Spot? Shane Mackie's band? They're great; did my old band's t shirts. ",0 mobile gaming console gaming bad bow console peasants im pc gamer p prostate c cancer,0 meta thank alli posted two days ago asking active subreddit did pretty much every thread already two three responses time see it thank much willing lend support need it helping make world better place,1 reason nevada taking long scared admit kanye cant convince otherwise,0 im alone timei want escape start fresh die trying know cant change unless something drastic go shock life need wake call shitty feelings,1 tw brief sh mentionill completely alone house breakdown tonight relapsed last night going doi struggle impulsivityshould get already scared unbothered time even know possiblei know do wish could disappear facing all tiring scared tomtorow,1 depression is my friend,1 im tired feeling painive depressed since now ive always thought would kill eventually never thought would wanna live past recently gf years broke dont think deal pain longer felt reason smile feel good dont know future people whatever process getting pain discomfort top everything else dont wanna pain unbearable cant sleep cant eat ive headaches last days want end thing thats stoping me family dont wanna cause pain cause know would probably destroy mother push edge feels like im fighting wanna makes feel much harder anything dont know do,1 cant itim pussy cant it im asshole fuck everyone else medication makes want vomit nothing works,1 blip is quot under maintenance quot amp i m goin through withdrawel,0 sleep til noon i did it wa the only one left but i got tempted and ate it soon a i got home i had a chocolate velvet amp ate d mocha,0 to the people who called out to me on the red carpet i wa blinded by the light,0 someone dm im bored hell dont weird pushy want normal conversation make friends,0 iam done lifei wanna live anymore suiciding today,1 think might kill tonighti suffer general anxiety disorder panic disorder panic attacks almost hardly sleep constantly feel like im die barely get school work im sophomore high school switched online school months ago get stop parents screaming me ive tried tons ssris tons benzos hydroxzine weed even antipsychotics deal stress none anything all prescribed psychiatrist except weed ofc ive seeing multiple therapists none therapy helped anxiety therapy work drugs work ive got fucking idea kill myself im completely miserable even kill idea id possibly get life cant complete even simplest tasks anxiety supposed get job ill end homeless best know else do goodbye,1 am im awake new meds never seen boring new tab ever life disappointed u,0 apolitical musicians eva liv ullmann jan rosenberg max von sydow married seven years live small farm remote island escape civil war continent provide lingenberry couple costumers raise money buy supplies love eva twenty years old wants baby reluctant jan weak sensitive man want children rebels arrive island peaceful calm lives turn hell get middle accusations sides colonel jacobi gunnar bjrnstrand stalks eva jan changes behavior becomes brutal man love affection feel change hatred indifferencebr br shame antiwar movie master ingmar bergman focused eyes couple artists apolitical listen news war arrives lands love friendship affection destroyed senseless soldiers liv ullmann max von sydow topnotch performances usual recall seeing breast liv ullmann movie process brutalization pacific sensitive jan rosenberg war impressive bleak open conclusion pessimist adequate dramatic story vote ninebr br title brazil vergonha shame,0 Back on board. @sammutimer's bub to be has taken my tweetstream by storm this evening! Reading back through the tweets! ,0 im feeling overwhelmed right nowfirst all guess necessary say im depressive know of ive never really checked specialist said last months since broke ex girlfriend barely month quarantine ive feel really overwhelmed extremely sad feel like need write see someone read not feel like need take chest last days ive thinking lot redflag particular reason it feel like want end life like worth living anymore course first thing think mom feel like her today got news basically spoiled whole day even week feel like crying lot want cry fall sleep family today siste came visit another city since tomorrow moms birthday hence staying tonight likely sleeping dad sleeping goes plan crying sleep ive obligations cant settle mind them im trying focus stop thinking notice cant makes sad really really want end it know how want talk family it feel like see psychologhist know get appointment one without family noticing know theres nothing wrong seeing mental health specialist know family knows theyre going worry want to weeks ago started talking agan ex even planning hanging past weekend troubles possible even sent food desserts big fool am today minding business trying help something lead get notice asked talk someone trouble having someone basically told used send nudes knows else one closest friends this want talk friends either person sent screenshot conversation friend basically hurt fucking lot chatted person ill call a basically told also boyfriend ex time her told fooled us both called friend mine everyone told never talked boyfriend friend talk all apparently well actually one reasons broke never introduced family friends telling guess makes lot sense confronted her told find out course say lies guess cant believe her also talk friend also denied everything cause yeah going say yes friend fooled gf sorry basically know now im feeling sad want cry want hurt myself want scream know hell do thank apologize anybody read this mean bother people problems figured needed al least write somewhere get chest feel like fool now knows may times may cheated always defend like fucking clown thats am fucking joke ill delete post later want slightest chance friends seeing this,1 "oh gosh, what a night. off to bed... ",0 whats point continue living anymoreim done life im seriously done gun bullet loaded right im ready end pointless life im year old gay manwhats fucking point existence im literally mistake every guy straight except me enough proof shoudlnt exist im gay bear get crushes bear guys im sure theyre straight literally cant happy bother living im tired world world like me thankfully press trigger gun minutes making post,1 i m a year old male and today is the last day to drop out of uni without paying for the semester i ve been trying to get this degree for a long time and i finally seemed to be on track until last year when my year relationship ended and i wa basically unable to function let alone study properly so now i ve still got full year left to complete and i just can t come to term with staying broke for that long at this age until i ve finished furthermore i m not medicated for my adhd because i couldn t deal with the side effect it s overwhelmingly frustrating and shameful because i know i m intelligent and it s an interesting degree the other thing is i ve basically told my friend and family that there s only year left for some absolutely dumb reason being at uni gave me at least something to tell people that i wa working towards now i m going to have to accept that i m a complete failure with a massive debt if anyone wa in a similar situation or ha advice i d love to hear about it peace,1 i m hella breaking out,0 want yall know year old high schooler actually got girlfriend important thing remember looking girl confident always yourself one withstand depression another girl years ago time give girlfriend boyfriend enjoy life whatever interests are,0 im girl female gender needed share important,0 confirmed im fucking idiot know kylie jenner lip challenge thing went around internet like years ago like minutes ago completely curious lips look like bigger fucked lips bruised theres purple red dots ill never again hurt ehen left alone stings bite habit have sad part lips looked exact bruises,0 people rage games dont know girls rage games im girl whenever something upsetting happens im playing game like sigh sometimes ill playing game dude hell get insanely mad game honestly concerns tbh also bit funny mean try laugh loud thats mean chances im laughing bit quietly,0 saw beyond rangoon times good first watched it saw story laura bowman later multiple showings realised also parallel documentary came mind story aung san suu kyi struggles women remain strong face uncertainty danger sadness also would put history politics list viewing since learn lot burmas past present could guess future movie one want see also one definitely want copy of movie could easily seen whole family although children thirteen however educational benefits movie not understated,0 Lot of thinking about my depression and my recovery process been a very hard two years I'm there but when you're spouse turns her back on you worst feeling ever # depression is an illness i can say I would never turn my back on anyone ,1 trying distract horrible thoughtsim angry right now pretty sure lost best friend stupid argument im tired treated like shit everyone fucked up know it everyone remind me walked anxiety please try living bedroom years talk anyone go events go movies fucking sit room contemplate many things fucked up nah lazy right want work right guess thats went job interview panic attack knew best friend get side me shes allowed angry it six years trying make realize okay huge problem initiate contact get it must suck one always talk guess what try talk blow saying busy recently telling fuck off hard enough guy kind issues top get fucking crucified well yeah advice man up really fucking helpful thanks sharing fucking useless shit im glad spent night night listening cry family fucking abandon soon everything returns normal thats works right problems over sorted oh thanks letting happen right go uni might housebound last years might last real chance make something work shit important right thats important everyone else keeps shit together helping slightly would ever troublesome sorry long wall text need get there im trying distract myself music blasting game going letting sit think fucking know ill end something stupid keep train thought cant issues well people problems make mine disappear sympathize everyone problems lend fucking hand least could lend ear need you,1 blue lookin kinda sus blue impostor impostor remains ,0 urgent help needed crosspost lgbteenshttpwwwredditcomrlgbteenscommentsyjurgent please person something unfortunate were really trying talk it apologize posted came across first thing came mind subreddit,1 @pworld12 YES.. 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MUCH APRECiATED BABY ,0 gf broke up felling kinda eh thats it feel good hey cares oof,0 throughout the day i m usually fine when i m alone usually at night is when everything get to me i m not diagnosed with anxiety and i don t want to say i have it i don t want to be faking but i ve been struggling for a bit now at night my chest feel heavy a if i m in an airtight room it s always the same thought this can t be real i ve been having a difficult time comprehending the fact that my close friend is gone the last time i wa able to see him wa in th grade then quarantine hit we had a few call in 0 0 0 and our last one being around hour long but i just can t comprehend it it s not recent he passed away in 0 i just can t believe it s real,1 i came from my ex boyfriend year ago i lived year only like i wa breathing air and nothing more no interest no hobby no people only my room an pc and game i went trough some trauma and i thought someone found me a a person he heard me everything but couple day ago he got sick a he turned 0 he doe not care nothing i dont know what to do what to think i am overthinking about the worst thing that he will leave me after all i said to him did to for him everything i am in really bad condition due to my friend suddenly passed away depression and threatening a he did not handle it so yes he took his life i really miss the person who can i talk write i dont know what have i done i bought perfume for me i wrote to him he didnt even notice we were playing together but now we not when i asked him what is wrong with me he said nothing but when he played yesterday and i waited for him he played with his friend i literally cried the whole evening i feel i am not enough and i think when he will be fine it wont be like before,1 reviewed world premiere screening sept isabel bader theatre toronto international film festival tiffbr br this interesting premise seemed go long many shots piles ewaste recycled computers keyboards cables etc shipped china ton sorted remade new products sell back desolationbr br the filmmakers tried get people interviews boost human element frequently prevented due chinese censorship still interesting bits shanghai high end real estate agent preening strutting around showing luxurious mansion gardens intercut scenes others living medieval conditions especially striking opening tracking shot m factory floor quite something well scenes activity three gorges dam project also complement jia khangje films tiff the feature still lifesanxia haoren documentary dong also built around subjectbr br director jennifer baichwal producer nick de pencier cinematographer peter mettler subject edward burtynsky stage qa world premiere producer noah weinzweig introduced audience thanked key person assisted ground access china itself,0 sometimes want die sometimes want liveof course want live life went way wanted to friends could afford go college things wanted etc dont course life beautiful everything want dont enjoyable always feel like shit go tik tok instagram wherever seeing people perfect looks perfect cars perfect everything theres me none things would never wish someone things dont it im glad least others stuff want wish could say myself,1 hey guess what didnt sex neither you,0 fiance years leaving me dont want lifeas im writing tears eyes someone love one makes happy leaving me going back home state leaving mine said wanted stay guess huge disappointing lie cant take anymore reddit know sound stupid life would better life without him hes leaving saturday iits way happy reddit dont know way,1 anyone else suspicious unflaired people sub kinda seems like pedophile thing tbh obviously weirds bit,0 damn bros commercialization kinda fucked funny capitalize ironic criticism holds place exact thing mocking capitalization media perpetuates cycle whereas thing eventually replace reach pop culture either hold stance reach people man im saying words nvm,0 gonna interrupt ur new year posts mention cute rn cant look like time smh,0 true they died boots on gives highly fictionalized account george armstrong custers errol flynn life career remarkable one especially regard battle little big horn given movie tries portray usamerican cavalryman native american leader chief crazy horse anthony quinn favorable light im almost tempted say little big man unqualified anticuster stance seems unbalanced comparison further one mislead title picture movie battle little big horn movie shows unreliable west point cadet famed civil war hero indian fighter and last least husbandbr br the movie begins custers time west point military academy recalcitrance insubordinate behavior lead frequent demerits punitive military exercise meets future wife elizabeth bacon olivia de havilland who like custer himself native monroe michigan custer intends court her outbreak civil war calls away custers legendary bravery shown sequence battle scenes greatest devoted engagement legendary southern cavalry general jeb stuart battle gettysburg leave travels monroe courts elizabeth promises hand matrimony immediately war custer elizabeth bacon marriedbr br with civil war over custer demoted get real command go painstakingly slow process promotion small professional american army starts drink wife intervenes behalf former generalinchief winfield scott custer given command us th cavalry trains elite unit neither custer crazy horse desirous battle greedy businessmen corrupt politicians decide build railroad indian lands clear violation earlier treaties custer explicitly acknowledges justice crazy horses cause rides battle duty soldier exposing conspiracy moneyed interests letter writes eve battlebr br they died boots on though short historical accuracy good war movies westerns s got custer crazy horse played major actors neither indians southern confederacy denigrated courtship scenes beautiful livvy de havilland charming minus thats cant give picture full undercurrent racism portrayal african american servants elizabeths servant callie stereotypical overweight goodnatured superstitious black mammybr br it also interesting movie find fault either custer crazy horse greed railroad companies pressuring washington politicians semicriminal methods breaking assurances given native americans couple years later insinuation american entrepreneurs could even think anything remotely questionable would probably taken hint film makers communist sympathizersbr br needless say they died boots on omits fact custers overly aggressive tactics often bordered foolhardy greatly overstates importance engagement stuart mention lack reconnaissance prior battle little big horn nevertheless custer seen war hero contemporaries spectacular exploits point battles brandy station gettysburg trevilian station others though feats arms decisive civil war they died boots on suggestsbr br in event they died boots on wellmade war movie western elements three outstanding performers flynn quinn de havilland offers notredflag view native americans well negative one big money seen major hollywood productions decades come would deserve racist minstrelization african americans,0 ozesteph 99 shame to hear this stephan,0 streaming twitch youre bored filler filller filler rythm gamelike stepmaniaexcept cant figure controls stepmania im using osu yeah ampxb httpswwwtwitchtvlilacalil_httpswwwtwitchtvlilacalil_,0 the last season of the hill what will one do with oneself when it end,0 @Buildabear96 fine excited I'm going shopping l8ter you?,0 nearly two weeks since attempt feeling awfuli cant first attempt parents really wish succeeded feelings back worse way getting out completely isolated hopeless wish taken pills able take jump,1 think movie neat eithier like michael jackson dont like see movie think neat film great song play good imagination mention film center piece smooth criminal best dancing every see,0 instant gratification world lot time feel nobody time otheri feel disconnected disconnected,1 @fakejowhiley Is 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Fake I'm confused ,0 anyone wanna join discord nice welcoming people here small community theres always someone online rules really enforce spam hate towards people racism homophobia etc good bots channels open suggestions teenagers allowed,0 enjoyable film excellent actors actresses evoking range emotions contains really excellent humour whole family enjoy get know characters quickly experience ups downs and ends upbeat,0 advice needed visiting suicidal person hospitalive asked go boyfriend see niece today hour hospital attempted redflag week two ago taking antidepressants second time hospitalized suicidal thoughtsattempts since december last year feel may largely due parents issues getting divorced time period two us especially close im really sure say expect ive never type situation before told cant bring food cards anything really maybe wrong sub anyone words advice,1 stop right there you yes you hey there day gorgeous human,0 birthday days hate parents expect big thing top best friend pretty ambiguous coming wanna move away honestly kill somehow feel embarrasseguilty even think literally whole world crises heres thing ive never birthday person alright friends guess every year sister whole big thing celebrates hers today likes make big deal call friends parents expect same mean get wrong im introverted person like hang friends treating birthday like accomplishment thing im tired peoplemy family judging it main topic th birthday tried celebrate want later day heard sibling telling parents doesnt wanna celebrate friends kidding me loved friends wanted whole thing even came house even dragged awkward family dinner protested decided ill treat birthdays like accomplishment years move away im top ive heard mother saying multiple times go stuff starting year made motto least go friends twice week trend sister started pathetic hate it days move fuckin corona kind excited see friends heres thing guy consider say best friend ambiguous coming even tho pretty much everyone agreed like dont wanna celebrate without guy whole hate social obligation celebrating id love hangout friends everything huge mess want next week disappear somehow feel bad small problem feel guilty even thinking literally half world going second crisis top corona honestly thanks made post sorry bad english first language,0 misterphipps you cooked risotto without me,0 thought killing escape would say people world good life feel like kill end right back cycle suffering whether another world dimension universe reality etc feel like i take another form existence knows where believe god feel like something higher power send lower part reality reality one destroying my current consciousness buddhism says reincarnate piece bacteria something abrahamic religion says suffer eternity fire anger redflag shame atheism sounds like best one exists anymore like dreamless sleep forever sounds good true cannot see something disappear nowhere really cannot see dying old age one smoke two feel like everything go shit climate change exponentially increasing rich getting richer poor getting poorer ww probably going start decade two would wish scientist would hurry fuck making ai mini black hole feel like escape,1 "Me: Okay, time to get over myself. I'm not spending another day in bed, wallowing in depression.My brian: pic.twitter.com/Yw1qk3Ar3R",1 everything life gone shit reasons im still catsim grew emotionally verbally occasionally physically abusive home dad became alcoholic result abuse mom became unwilling referee parental therapist preteen eventual side punching bag teen mom tried kill times after also kidnapped child dad fight spent adolescence waiting chance get out cps came twice nothing ever helped got dream school everything senior got ripped away too mom refused sign loans could get without cosigner went escape divorced became physical punching bag mom cut hair prevent grabbing it dad got worse tried kill times failed reason another got d mom proceeded use threat could send behave stayed dad that cut off still depressed fuck though person could talk grandma one night talked aunt whos racist hates me happened also there took phone screamed me told never call grandma again told stop making shit family stop talking redflag elder grandma could handle it used feel way could talk it fast forward little bit dad just finally patched relationship things looked better suddenly died drinking problem go back mom relative option mom immediately took me became terrified even wake up tried smother death tried choke aux cord tried shove stairs tried push moving vehicle etc yet every time blamed me worst year life thought least grandma depressed too losing son abused daughter the racist aunt trying help always got covered somehow exactly one year later grandma suddenly died left half estate protect myself wanted move live near her person left wanted help me aunt the one before got hissy fact mom closer ever were lawyered up refused give key refused give items grandma specifically wanted because proof informed sale well happened state also kept going mom idiotic parents divorced adult asked it dodged wrote letter never contacted months get attorney that cant afford tbh weve back forth since threatening file taxes name without permission without ssn irs comes me fucking recipe cards desk always think wanting end it end pain end inevitable suffering always comes cant cant leave cats refuse rehome word hurts even type see could thing family ones me anytime cry sit purr lick face one legit meows talk keeps meowing till im done snuggles literally closest ones keep going wish could something like find new place live cant mom recently made credit cards name maxed out told id understand position im in anyone asks says help build credit im sure somewhat true intends sign name cosigner property wants buy ive ever means end want out want die want place cats safe sound feel like ill never get out im afraid wish everytime get something worse,1 @joemqi j.e.a.l.o.u.s. what new stuff are you getting? because i might demand that you share some of it ,0 come on purpose two current faves tv meloni oz l osvu janel west wing hook nice little sleepercharacter study plots nothing fancy acting right mark tim busfield shows neat bits worth look,0 im scared keep living scared take lifei dont know im doing made alt account post this practically friends im antisocial trouble talking people moved year ago i adult added specifics age grade got bullied year got pulled second year homeschooled last im getting end everything one close friend cousin care about close friend attempted redflag month two ago cousin says family makes want kill themself im terrified loosing two people actually trust probably reason im alive point im ashamed didnt offer enough support point friend tried taking life infinitely thankful didnt work still scared again cousin attempts it im scared much shit getting c class standards high myself scared parents finding think theyre toxic abusive scared go back school possibility dealing bullying again end day im antisocial overwhelmed loser whos waiting till crack mean friends point im making reddit post want kms feel completely defenseless way like outlet way knowing whats happening next every time im little happy something bad happens extent feel like dont deserve happiness im staying avoid tomorrow im scared whats coming next like breath fresh air years,1 feel like ill never amount anything reason alreadyi withdraw cosmetology school cant afford gas get there dropped college year ago bc depression cant find job support with im debt cant find anyone worth sharing time with friends graduated bachelors degrees still school despite mental illness stable jobs loving families moved away toxic abusive parents ive done nothing fail ever since hate life everything it nothing good ever come me im miserable want end already,1 give up tonight nightin yo female rant anything dont need advice people telling itll get better wont im selfish iive done evrything ive talked counsellors gonr hospital voluntarily times another one wasnt choice posice also called times friends hate me ive assaulted many times blackmailed it yeah night planned,1 girls exist mean ive never seen one dont know theyre real not,0 laws weird apparently youre allowed shoot hoops basketball court hoops rude didnt choice,0 the company i work for shuts down on thursday joblessville here i come,0 stop letting people convince school important mental healthfuck people happiness comes first cant go school thats fine live fucking life want fuck whoever else says differently,1 hi fello gamers friend made discord whos talk share memes play video games skribblio minecraft cards humanity online terraria stardew csgo tf valorant overwatch destiny gmod doom smash rainbow six halo war thunder apex together guys girls listen music watch movies theres also separate channel nsfw small enough form sweet community everyone knows otherr pretty active ur lonelyyy also pokebot channels dank memer dm link d,0 last dayim living day day seen alot ggb redflag jumpers videos envy people live close enough it getting medication stop throwing soon shop opens get drunk swallow mg lorazepam pills would th birthday next week,1 i m a freshman in college rn i have an english essay due tonight however i am so anxious over my result and quality of my work that i can not even finish just the thought of writing or receiving my grade make me feel physically ill big project and essay have always made me feel this way but since i m especially struggling with this one it worse i want to just accept whatever grade i get but i can t the last time i felt like this over an essay my hand shook a i turned it in and i cried profusely afterwards ironically it wa the best essay grade i ve ever gotten 00 but this time i know i would be lucky to get an 0 i wish i wasn t like this i just this day to pas it been nothing but tear nausea and anxiety,1 hedgewytch oh that s horrible about innocent smoothy we love them but if they start putting rubbish in them,0 @ozdj need an espresso pot like mine http://bit.ly/IHdzJ Quick n easy,0 "@Rachel_Lauren24 rachel you bartend, wow!!!! congrats on your new job , you making the money rachel, more power and props to you!!!! ",0 saying opinions random movie get girlfriend day honestly even though stark unlikeable times way many things going in still liked iron man much original,0 practical approachhi im grim thoughts lately im yo guy gratuate hates major law dont connections looks shrewdness even get hired worked call centers im secretary ended college five years ago live dad tonight said hed relieved without house rent high jobs hard low paid people say im smart ive never clicked office thought would easier cleaner end drama earning living im corporate jobs field job poor motor skills like technology im also gay children think of social stigma pay im is keep living dying looks like practical option jobs rent stigma rejection else grave sorry whine need ideas,1 anything better sex yes really good book synthesiser,0 about to take the fam to see Up. ,0 stupid tonight wanna dielike really stupid set date tomorrow appear court now fucked really bad im stupid sixteen year old really loving life good amount time decent school holding full time well paying job age area good relationship family friends feel like dying again mightve screwed enough get fucked legally ways beyond comfort level im legal expert legal advice subreddit ill spare details sucks wanna lose everything ive finally gotten happy independent life id honestly rather die,1 ive lost myselfdepression anxiety mental illness eating disorders adding while ive suffered number issues ive always tried make things best be myself loved ones too problem is things ive gone made quite easy exploit leaving emotionally abusive relationship recently chance reflect all becoming much me tried cutting wrists last night manage properly ive lost am becoming father months let even see child much feel like im drowning,1 roses red might die good night gamers bed imma lie,0 happy right searched lgbtq rights canada happen one lgbtq friendly countries world also non binary legal gender option conversion therapy banned people think canada fake blown away awesome government population b,0 cant wait for easter but then after that it will be study time,0 received dvd accent range label specializes arthouse flics released irreversible range bergmans opusbr br the thing struck alex fraynes strangely titled film modern love impeccable film breathes perfection vision film takes us mind mr joe average replete voices head visions madness set rural redneck australia film trivialise praise folks like many australian movies ie films full loveable rogues people hearts gold etc etc etcbr br not film spirit stanley kubrick looms large here flawless mesmerising attention details romantic streak mood bracing embraceablebr br minor quibblesthe transfer looks faulty front credits sliced fit framebr br also one short films corrupted stops half way,0 ate spicy mcchicken without water know one time ladies,0 moderate depression,1 cant connect peoplei know to everytime meet someone genuine connection with never realize theyre life im trying meet people reddit im talking person like universe wants alone maybe want deep way finally work courage kill myself know hurting many people,1 like ugly cause go walks hour worry world like anyone would want anything,0 im alive myself dont want keep holding onsorry grammar here use voice dictation software perfect ive wanted die years now im chronic pain fibromyalgia always tired ive tried everything feel less lethargic best everything should feel rundown edge job feel anxious every day ive meds years im trying new meds now first time want die things therapists say do journal meditate several times week give hours sleep every night see therapist psychiatrist force make plans friends im even lucky enough people genuinely good people like im hanging around bunch jerks dont know help me try bring much feel super lonely too sweetheart love dearly closest life good is huge struggle make day point time together wake morning day starts again think long workday ahead me wonder again keep sticking around life mostly pain moments relief like pressing pause pain like huge counterbalances downs like sleeping her im peace recharging even best times life enough help make next work shift unhealthy become relationship one escape true escape work four days week negotiated pay reduction take friday feeling pain wanting die im home alone things fun feel empty inside dealing pain is well painful dealing failure make positive impact world painful well dealing insecurity would happen lose job pain gets great able work insecurity comes feels like slow steady decline qualityoflife hurts exist in answer always would hurt people love go fair much privilege white man ability earn decent income use try fix shit all especially white men fucked time despite intentions get lazy end exactly hate look back slavery im horrified look nazi germany im horrified yet eat inhumane meat animals raised amounts slavery maybe focusing taking time for making budget for humane meat would help state mind feel net impact world neutral best passion projects ive started try make difference flopped ive joined project started others similar experience nothing actually made difference survived volunteer organization believe volunteer time really impact success im like ghost im here cant seem move objects around impact world sort flow it desperately grasping things remain exactly bad came end im staying around try make difference measurable thing thats happening im pain suffering cant point anything makes worthwhile im trying share unfiltered hopes someone reads this sees something broken thinking points ways rethink this someone shares empathy hard able share info anyone regularly try soften close im consuming emotionally too dont know many years do,1 want drop bad oh god college right choice wasnt ugh sucks bad shouldve done something else,0 callout post gamer man algebra junior,0 "Yes, I really just wrote a music CD review of a kid's CD, Imagination Movers, and I liked it!! See http://www.apparenting.com/ ",0 @adamsconsulting no problem and great - looking forward seeing more tweets ,0 @fearlesslovee http://twitpic.com/69125 - and haha i see twitter in the background ,0 dream killing everydayit wish ive got nothing worth salvaging,1 whats self post weekend like saturday today theres still memes pics vids posted here dropped,0 whats best way kill yourselfhello sorry wrong subreddit im using throwaway account obvious reasons really want die live constant state fear misery want end all family shitty friends im also poor fuck dont gun rope hang with anyone know easiest way die dont want risk failing redflag dont want get brain damage besides ill look like complete fool survive redflag id jump tall building dont know tall buildings get one luck ill anything answers thank you i assume using gun best option but like mentioned i unfortunately gun,1 tips get bad mindset get due anxietypanicthe title basically ive simply going episode it doesnt matter sob whatever becoming bit difficult make go faster tried distracting seemed make worse mostly,1 huntermoore i don t want him to ever punch me,0 yall ever feel like everything suprisingly fine go shit rn seriously im actually somewhat feeling like utter shit today wonder sorta fuckery tomorrow bring,0 zainab 09 9 i believe she lost her battle to depression,1 my whip cream is melting,0 hooray for the ever so reliable signalflare server,0 it is snowing in tennessee too,0 sing meme song tay em ang run run nhng anh th c rt anh khng n em l khi anh khng ht ly ung thm vi ly mnh chng khi vui nc thm vi chai v anh em chng khi gp li,0 cant go moreits four months since wife left for apparent reason marriage lasted three years good years life ive trying hard past months ive sure stayed positive eventually id start feel better getting worse need life nothing look forward more weekends long stretch loneliness ive working hard bettering myself working hour weeks pursuing masters degree whats point none makes least bit happy im goddamn tired long week work school get try socialize would even know that instead im stuck shitty town hate moved thought tried harder could make work almost figure salary debt im reasonably attractive im still youngish well paper seems like life better completely lack largegroup social skills thats thing holding back ive tried dating despite reasonable success tinder felt better whats point anyways even start another relationship itll probably end like last one did know need find something like myself reason keep living dependent someone else matter hard look one tried talking therapist couple years back told help maybe talk doctor getting antidepressants ive tried antidepressants before several different brands made tired didnt none made happy made numb id rather die live empty shell every time wind rattles door think second maybe finally come back know wont sad thing last year marriage pretty bad grew increasingly distant id give anything go back that know keep living day bleak last itd easy end it,1 ask someone hey whats up day walking home school girl infront sat bench i later learned sophomore year me started sobbing ask stranger hey whats up let vent help struggles asking one simple question save someones life feel like nothing left someone,0 "@TezMillerOz actually, it was eight million Stephenie Meyer fans but it was my suggestion to change it. No one to blame but myself...",0 one friends deadone friends committed redflag lost parents stuff probably happened much her older sis found hanging family barn one friends also considering it,1 wonderland spoilers br br july st five people ron launius josh lucas susan launius christina applegate billy deverell tim blake nelson barbara richardson natasha gregson wagner joy miller janeane garofalo attacked theyre asleep brutally hit head steel pipes home wonderland avenue laurel canyon la susan survivesbr br main suspect john holmes val kilmer former king porn owner cm long dick hopeless addictbr br two investigators luis frankie g sam nico ted levine investigating case try crack help witness claims know john least took part murders david lind dylan mcdermott barbaras boyfriend trying get witness report dawn schiller kate bosworth holmes yearold girlfriend susan sadly remember anything shadows night husbands head bashed almost suffered fate name eddie nash eric bogosian major drug kingpin who always around ladies barbie paris hilton comes light suspect planner wonderland massacrebr br but happen night could sharon lisa kudrow johns wife know something it wonderland taught intense thriller desperate love story story mans sad decline one clever use rashomon technique we see events fateful day night eyes david john dawn susan albeit briefly sharon nice direction great script mostly compelling performances especially kilmers takes central stage hopeless tormented sometimes childish holmes lucas whose launius strangely alluring kudrows strong sharon bosworths innocent dawnbr br wonderland ,0 cant afford therapy anymore insurance sucks extreme guilt anxiety im just donei cant it cant quit therapy barely even afford medication now im afraid even make another redflag attempt fail im hospitalized wont able afford bill either want slap younger face im wrecked guilt did ill probably next person get called cancelled god want die wasted entire summer dont anything dont friends anything with im outsider looking dont relate anyone cant even go social media im intensely jealous people have job sit nothing day ive new projects months think boss forgot even work here im body desk want die want dead nothing gets better summer fucking wasted it hate myself,1 "if it makes you happy why not?!? happy mothers day! Thanks to all those mothers, cuz my cute friends would not be possible without you.",0 market research survey made someone sucks titles hey reddit im hackathon design app using ai collect market research would anyone fine taking this surveyhttpswwwsurveymonkeycomcollectlistsmyyoz_bimxkyximxcuzeenjqlhkllhpuihsbi_damptab_clicked anonymous take like mins thanks anyone takes it,0 seaf 009 i am strongly considering improvising i missed last year i wa so sick,0 everything want leave behind nothing life difficult nice job got college wanted family loves me feel like one truly knows me im alone feels like think laborious living feels nothing difficult really boring everything feels like waste time could something important anything feel way even im writing instead assignments classes life ive coasted minimal effort getting ds cs hearing teachers say hes intelligent try hard enough else supposed say sons stupid know much longer stand constant sense inadequacy boredom am ,1 @CatalinaCruz its so good and so nice ;) haha that i will hope you're having an awesome day!,0 hello teens im officially teen know account thats year old fuck cares,0 Off to take a shower and get ready for work. Again...lol Yay! more money to go back to school in September ,0 summon you uhave_an_epic_day_bot,0 like arabian nights film plays storytelling conventions order make us feel theres plot plot plot opens appears frame device blind man telling story life plunges flashback takes us right blind mans present discover half story yet come it must admitted second half quite live promise first like arabian nights tries cram many middleeastern folk motiffs possible one work freed genie beautiful princess flying carpet fantastic mechanical toys sea voyages crowded marketplace wicked vizier jewels know works does everything beautiful sets beautiful june duprez beautiful rozsas score especially beautiful usual sounds hungarian somehow manages convince us hes hungarian persian way,0 a few catering gig very cool getting ready for the normal week working on easter,0 "@Rubberbandits Alright Blindboy? What's your hot take on some of the Alt-right lads saying depression and mental illness isn't real? That it's an attention seeking, 1st world problem. Personally think they're just being trolls, but wonder what you thought? Cheers.",1 @aristeia Thanks! ,0 thursday thive planning redflag thursday th month now day mock exams take place even feel ounce stress anything stops ever putting work anything ive got future im scared take single step comfort zone anxious ask help past week ive spent nights bed wanting cry badly nothing comes im void nothingness even want talk close friends ill come across attention seeking im going see school day probably end finally,1 @ZenDoc you're right doc - spot on. no worries ,0 youtube recommendations like miracle gel heals dick appreciated yt,0 opened door girls dad girl smiled stop confusion happening im interested dad god damn,0 @DebbieFletcher your so nice!! xx ,0 rishisunak the only think you re tackling is a tomahawk steak and a glass of wine while the rest of the country starve and dehydrate you sit there laughing it up while depression continues to rise,1 like cut g young supposedly african american male playing digital video game cellular deviceold supposedly african american male walks recording cellular devicesupposedly older african american male oh see understand younger african american male partaking enjoyment playing digital video game made mojang studios widely known minecraft particularly enjoy new haircut g proceed slap back cranium palm handolder supposedly african american male proceeds action said would doyounger supposedly african american male proceeds shriek high pitch vocal cordsthe video recording ends younger supposedly african american male screeching humorous due fact slap back cranium unexpected also unorthodox conversation oh playin minecraft and like ya cut g overall humorous scale,0 feeling lost wanting dief throwaway account im tired feeling lost want die dont know want world feel like square peg circle here im first year college im autistic reading comprehension problems originally majoring psychology ever since wanted become clinical psychologist semester scheduled intro psychology intro biology statistics first year seminar scheduled classes didnt realize much overload be much reading comprehension sucks struggled keep psychology reading everything else read pages psychology exam ended withdrawing class last friday feel lost dont know major anymore dont want drop college nothing else life lately feeling wanting kill stronger thought dying actually gives pleasant feeling werent high botched redflag rate also parents would try kill myself,1 "Today's daily cycle of over thinking and depression came a lil early, happy Wednesday :-)))))",1 @basantam we can have beers here. there's a grill and everything http://twitpic.com/6s3fs,0 up since 00 going to be a looooong day,0 going try hanging soon,1 wikipedia ha gone forever see what the goverment do it there fualt let hope donation or something bring it back,0 just put a bid in for signed panic at the disco poster unfortunatly the fall out boy one is already over my limit,0 wikipedia article day chicken gun largediameter compressedair cannon used fire dead chickens aircraft components order simulate highspeed bird strikes aircrafts flight jet engines aircraft windshields particularly vulnerable damage strikes common target tests whole dead standardsize chickens would used cooking thought accurately simulate large live bird striking plane flight aircraft component tested engine windshield etc fixed place test stand cannon fires chicken it chicken gun first used mids de havilland aircraft hatfield hertfordshire chickens killed local farm shortly use another early use chicken gun royal aeronautical aircraft establishment rae farnborough hampshire s goodyear aerospace litchfield park arizona used gun ceramic diaphragm seal compressed air back guns barrel fire gun needle struck ruptured diaphragm allowing compressed air drive chicken in containera cylindrical cardboard ice cream carton barrel muzzle metal ring stopped carton allowed chicken pass through cameras recorded collision united states air force commissioned aedc ballistic range s test airplane canopies began operating the gun later used test aircraft parts leading edges wings development boeing s cockpit windows subjected chicken test an anesthetized pound kg chicken loaded pneumatic gun fired knots mph kmh headonit described a messy test,0 the great depression money armageddon ep0 http t co b9 lryf n,1 lets stop joking depression ye many people say theyre depressed actually depressed constantly meming joking demeans entire thing makes seem like less issue really,0 someone wanna friends someone wanna friends itd great talk politics philosophy tho pm please,0 @alandavies1 well done on finishing the book. I look forward to reading it ,0 hopes things work out... ,0 hey rocoon listened spirit phone th time week okay me do remember michael jackson michael jackson really happened,0 i ve been having a few thought of sh si throughout yhe past week and came pretty close to actually doing it a couple day ago because my so and i got into an argument and he said some hurtful thing that other people have said to me through my life so i thought if everyone feel this way about me then why shouldn t i do it i know people will say to tell my psych but i don t think it will last that long so i don t want to waste her time and my time i also don t want her to say i should go to a hospital because i think that would be pointless too and a lot of money,1 i ve been in and out of mental hospital for about year now i m just turned thing get good for a bit and then they get better and it a vicious cycle i m on med to help with anxiety and adhd but the thought just wont stop i counted all my med to see if it enough to die and od my parent don t really care because im sure my mom saw my new self harm scar and said nothing i relapsed really bad again and because of how open they are i m afraid of an infection i just want help but i m scared i m a burden my mom is sick right now and we dont have money to send me to the hospital again id rather i just die kinda instead of having to deal with everything i m bottling it all up again and turning to self harm idk what to do anymore i m so tired,1 lets yeet adios dudes im going break mentally physically minutes,1 test ctei wondering wonder severe depression related brain injuries football,1 calling dsciples grab friends hit theater see hell movie opening sequence credits laughing self breathless br br this movie wild ride history d bullcrap list things theyve done chronicling rise power huge fan rage kagekyle gass jablesjack black naturally loved movie br br it helps know show had first cd funny dont hilarious vulgar lyrics rocking rhythms massive amount pot smoking cameos outright insanity story line movie dsciples newbies alike br br many songs referenced two kings tribute kielbasa many audio tracks like cock pushups every fan audience saying remember well new comers saying thats fing hilarious highly recommend movie body thats ever rocked out movie certainly high competition next this spinal tap one best ever,0 im gonna try liverecently ive lot thinking ive talked friends mulled things head want live ive made two posts here one spoke going commit redflag night changed mind im gonna try myself sure seek help im gonna try myself depression suicidal thoughts come many things mainly self image hate personality thought process emotions every aspect mind body self harmed specifically mental physical punishment force acting normal changing personality bad sounds something ive grown do so decided buy pull bar way self harm productive way guess muscle pain know sounds weird itll help used go gym reasons really seek help im gonna see get this hope sincerely last thing ever post here,1 @bfmvofficial Keep up the hard work ,0 sephystryx i ve been looking about for good stuff to write but also been doing load of uni work,0 want to go shopping,0 im pathetici turned entered st year highschool days ago depression dysphoria anxiety pretty bearable months holidays come back one crippling anxiety prevents building meaningful relationships friendships either forced faked sake someone talk school ended shortly horribly hate people area cant form relations online due brave enough say something group chat like public discord cycle responding gt guilt gt responding manage talk someone also feel like never say right thing burden everyone includes family my mom got huge fight grandma stay touch even mention third family also strangers such people staying behind queue shop would finished shopping earlier there im also trans guy misgendered really hurts cant really avoid like summer parents overprotective generally feel powerless strengthens get it hopelessness example moms telling serious cleaning reorginising room least month ive done maybe fifth whole thing time keeps telling day shell come herself pressuring fear even invasion privacy make stressed prevent able even think mess room without breakdown passions pursue hobbies except browsing reddit watching youtube sometimes playing nintendo activities enable think real life idea want life tried following do want fun plan worked free time school makes impossible anything think future worry ill doing im lazy posts like rgetmotivated sadden im unable things like people do school subject enjoy english im european second language even felt proud passed cae test june remembered years probably need translators anyways thing im good used around wizz kid fell grace fell hard mentioned thing im kind good languages love failing learn literally anything years german middle school attemting teach italian using online resources month getting lazy giving up feel like failure potential never used someone could great goddamn lazy everyones something im avoiding work schools started new teachers new expectations soon start giving pop quizes asking questions answer live front whole class grade i forgot called english used enjoy going therapist someone talk recently ive started lie omitiom stuff understanding trans thoughts defend opinions ive avoiding certaun subjects wishing time go faster meetings makes feel guilty parents paying even though also get pocket money generally feel like deserve lot things ive got makes feel guilty anxious even know im way calm listen bob ross hells sake think world would better never born,1 for past month i had this weird head rushing tension feeling when falling asleep even when i sit and i am bored i can feel it it s like my head would be scrambled between wall and my brain wa wired to something idk,1 seeing picture quite skeptic like movies agenda appreciate scared thinking like writer also afraid would like part miniseries farfetched concept little relation real world poor execution beginning says this film fiction events portrayed information uk emergency planning based extensive research general feeling sold idea taught lesson civil awareness message conveyed obvious start coming were prepared use real places scenario could happen plans add disturbing effect movie have even cynical viewers movies perspective society stays away heartbreaking personal moments convey message none romeojuliet drama were used to,0 "@lifebiomedguru @dkegel Working theory regarding severe injuries after 2nd HPV vax. 1st one inflammed immune system. 2nd one, along with meningitis vax, sends them over the cliff. Just too much. Many of them developed acute depression after 1st HPV vax.",1 nbensalem i m sitting at my house and i m sooo not looking forward to my one class tomorrow,0 Mmm my office smells like chocolate ,0 getting help made worseive seeing therapist psychiatrist quite now latest psych appointment recommended local mental health facility partial hospitalization program doctor broke patient confidentiality told mom im btw suicidal thoughts made take away knife room made appointment mental health place go get assessment done place thats gets much worse counselor went even told mom selfharm ive selfharming years never thought family would find it hit like truck know look differently now mom even cried entire ride home anyway want program course america expensive mom says want it need take money college fund would take half funds id left college really want program ive already emailed summer activity teacher canceled that made sad since senior year ive activity high school far late take back though wish mom told college funds let quit that decide getting treatment keeping college fund deciding factor really whether think keep safe summer thing is really know whole thing family finding everythingi honestly nothing lose anymore want major zoology work animals college career know going everything worth it end killing anyway even all treatment id debt rest life already would keeping funds dont know mom wont help look options like doesnt want get help truly money her im sure theres programs would work better family basically broke get coming shes even trying find options maybe try kill ill get forced hospitalization someone pay anyway whole thing making suicidal anything live anymore might well spend college funds since ill probably dead time college rolls around anyway idk im looking advice since really hard situation in thanks read whole thing kind long lmao,1 final goodbye last post said scared realized redflag isnt bad good im going it everything set need final good bye missed im sorry cant take anymore ,1 really trying to be active but i haven't had any motivation lately...depression: 1 frida: -34,1 years peter otools brilliant costly giving soul film film last hollywood tosses oscar recentlybr br country dance showed one night late course blew complainant niche alleged life itbr br york also brilliant kind play psychological battleships loaded bearbr br bravo author director cast camera crew wonder nazis lost irish scot english blendsbrutal honesty hurtsback s personally believed honesty pure absolutely vital trust modified edgy extremes settle human warm flaws within othersbr br forgiveness allows humanity reverse gear allows us fix bull headed egos erotic mistakes,0 today celebrating religious holiday eating chatting laughing joys almost feels realbut tomorrow finally decided going go back apartment miles away take antidepressant pills left already looked dosages tomorrow years would evaporate nothingness pain misery shame loneliness like never happened today surrounded family tomorrow,1 complete contrast opinions review film actually surprisingly good reluctantly went see expected bored clichs obvious jokes overacting trailer promisedbr br however minutes found genuinely laughing enjoying refreshing acting one toilet humour gag dead body manages actually come realistically funny scenarios and without spoiling anything much moments involving animals hilariousbr br the staple ingredients good film there script director actors compared recent attempts romantic comedy film stands tallbr br sure going learn anything spiritual awakening go open mind likely good time,0 I need to update my gem chat blog to fight my creeping depression.,1 im going kill myself thanks covid could much ruined worldfucking covid could met many new people much fun im shut fucking house day online uni fucking virus say going like forever fuck this id rather die point carrying on think id better ending now,1 ok gotta ask makes bad person im really scaared crush really love despise way dresses im judgmental wish care really makes cringe hard im grossed sometimes even gives second hand embarrassment im even embarresed seen next him dresses badly hes poor something isnt hes mot aware really dont know looks bad every single shirt want burn makes feel like shallow judgmental person really case know im always super harsh decided ask see others say please honest thanks,0 advice boy die stabbed dont stab anyone,0 id like chat v anyone available questionsim suicidal i want die all im highpriority here questions need answers id like discuss someone preferably someone smart im ready pay reddit gold,1 want fucking diei never felt suicidal entire life girlfriend left right christmas plans im alone friends like me im crying one hour im thinking redflag right now im like m ft ground im thinking jump,1 within the last week i ve broken controller one of which i actually stomped on until piece littered the carpet through out my life i ve never broken anything out of anger but now i can t fucking control it i feel le of a man every day when ever i see someone better than me at anything i m constantly angry at work and at home now angry about home stuff when i m at work and angry at work stuff when i m at home i just want to eat a fucking bullet i m a fucking pathetic excuse of a man through and through there s not an ounce of me that is worth anything i am below dirt i should be buried alive i have never had value in any capacity to anyone,1 fuck everything everything goes wrong many problems cannot solve everytime fucks shit cannot nice life nobody cares anyway glad finally cut veins bleed death goodbye need stop postponing today day finally leave,1 theajp glad you enjoyed it mate any more gig lined up in the near future none on the horizon for me at the mo,0 joseph joestar sexiest jojo bruh wanna pounded hunky old man badly could use hermit purple tie send hamon body make cum fucks inch joestar cock damn tomoko higashikata lucky,0 Watching up lol,0 is sooo proud with her bro huhu he s so talentfull i wish i could do best like him,0 bored girls here ton guy friends play games discord people find sexist want bit diverse add girls friend list im playing games talking voice chat rn also im feet dont think matters apparently does m btw,0 @AvonteNikole im followin your lil sis she just got on twitter?,0 halalhomer they believe like muslim will go and kill everyone like crazy war is aimed on the corrupted leader the destructive system which cause injustice and chaos in a country just check out depression and suicide rate if people know they d beg muslim to come and bring islam,1 i ve had panic attack on and off all day it all started at am when my apartment broke out into an electrical fire luckily the place doesn t look too bad i wa actually allowed back inside i just don t have any power at the moment i go to uni though so i ve been doing work i only had a couple scorch mark on my wall my chair and the outlet cover on my wall where the fire came from melted it wasn t a great start i felt really down and out of it then i went to school and at the end of my band rehearsal i started having a panic attack halfway through the final piece we were running through i broke down i tend to hide my emotion so it wa very scary i haven t felt the same since i feel so behind i ve been in a depressive state for the last little while and i m very behind on school work and that kind of stuff i just needed to get all of that out sorry,1 @Ouma_ShuGC Don't worry she will interrupt no longer but Mei is gonna fuck up later on. Warning: chapter 36 = depression coming,1 need help anyone elses coins never load ive trying weeks get keeps showing loading errors someone knows fix please help,0 beautiful but someone in your gender say she s going into depression because her mom wore her nike shoe without informing her,1 because he s so sick of me saying it and not actually doing it hahahaha yeah no one care i hate my fcking life i have bpd avpd and c ptsd everyday is miserable i hate it here i want out can someone who is planning too please chat me i wan na talk about way to go,1 dumbass glucose parent takes forever respond old men always take forever respond bro like know full ass family job hurry pay hoe,0 right know failed would end hospital physically mentally worse everyone would think freak would trusted anything would given huge hospital bill nothing would done help me every method aside gun could end failing making suffer long time dyingi really hope run mugger shoots money feel trapped wish strength kill,1 jonathanrknight silver tulip um that would be a hell no to the fugly poker dog pant on the cruise hi jonathan sorry i missed you,0 pseudocatholicism far know real religion completely fictional meant world willian noah pseudocatholicism branch christianity part catholic church however pope declared controversial statements contradicted many beliefs churchgoers large group people separated main head church pope called groups pseudocatholics disappointment happily accepted name stuck newfound subreligion different kinds pseudocatholics part follow rituals practices main church decline autocracy pope believe head church desecration scriptures,0 ngl think im bisexual dont know im gonna tell people close like mom big homophobe,0 @cherop yeah i am proud u went to class im proud i didnt fall asleep once ,0 missing my bff watching home and away it reminds me of her and me we lt it shout out to u court,0 know right place thisback story born renal disorder required kidney transplant nine must take extremely expensive cocktail medication daily prevent rejection probably say im living parents attending community college jobless feel clueless great piece info advice everybody got highschool missed on everyone know plan lives idea want im going study computer science appease father kind hate it understand ifwhen graduate college im going need job health benefits help pay meds cant find anything enjoy studying kid wanted soldier like granddad two brothers plan had cant soldier one functioning kidney im aimless ive playing idea taking meds left road trip get car get hell hole go somewhere different see something beautiful expire,1 cant continue lifeim hopeless last days really understand depression mental illness im sane anymore im awful mood swings ruining me one hour feel suicidal hour feel kinda ok start questioning whether im making up even though know im not always convince moments also makes feel guilty every time vent people feel better feel like using them barely function cant clean room cant get bed everyone tells push through cant cant explain feel like im lazy incompetent useless bad person general already gave many aspects life feel like ill never find love dont deserve it avoid lectures im either tired anxious lately cant even thing love making music sometimes get excited it start cant im completely empty feel drained cant go like this crash inevitable point im going therapy social anxiety prevents telling therapist many things makes feel awkward pathetic overdramatic depression makes impossible work social anxiety dont want giving like this cant force anything help myself im afraid ill fail college would last straw want go medication week going help time im already behind idk do want stop cant help myself,1 @vernontrent tis what he told me in palm springs. hope he does well there. ,0 im boredd gah i wish i could just sleep and get it over with but ive had toooo muchh cooooffffeeeeeeeee bahaha,0 please helpthere several thesehttpwwwthinkgeekcomproductbtabs hidden inside house keeps night seriously cant take more nobody takes seriously unable locate them longer hear direction coming several,1 With her best mate very happy time to start making plans for the weekend lets get the vodka out and have a good time xx,0 becoming intrusiveso past weeks thinking ending all even methods anything thought dead thought dying always becoming intrusive life failure now job friends cant stand family im waste space want stop reset even reset stop,1 Wondering if i'll get my InMed letter on Wednesday and this lil dog keeps tryna hump me haha not something im enjoying ...gheez thumper,0 mizzzidc is this reaction and depression talk because your mom wore your nike shoe no there must be more to this this generation ha been taught nonsense do you know how many time your parent denied themselves of pleasure and even necessity just to train you pls seek help,1 im pharmacy technician would easyi access tons drugs work inpatient hospital pharmacy would easy steal iv tubing take large bottle propofol let drain me could fall asleep forever think every single day work wonder quit maybe im putting danger close hazardous medications mind isnt really right thoughts less trust myself hold narcotics every day easy would pop opioids call day guess im scared reason fail id fired job dont really want wake hospital work in embarrassing,1 jerk sandy spongebob think voice pretty hot,0 yall got tips dealing anxiety damn could use rn hit whatever got,0 @PinkM Vitisho eh? haha...we'll read coz we like you ,0 coloradokilling soon anyone opiates idk wants also kill wants make look bizarre possible let know could die simultaneously wearing sonic hedgehog costumes side side everyone like but even know other could funny someone,1 @LiberT UR Very welcome!!! ,0 Pre-ordered Karnivool's new album today. Getting it on Friday!! ,0 dont know ill ask family refer theythem pronouns dont bad relationship confusing dont like bring serious topics anything like that example come mom couldnt even say it like minutes wrote piece paper showed her dont know im gonna ask use theythem pronouns referring me really want ask but idk im pretty terrified like everything,0 revolution america like weed corruption know overthrow government trials us wrong etc etc,0 @ASinisterDuck lucky i am off thursday friday tho ;),0 Friday night! ,0 disturbing thoughtsim sure feel anymore ive ton suicidal even homicidal thoughts lately feel like immense hatred things people including myself nothing feels like worth anymore even try kind decent job things school work two failed test need redo cant bothered im big failure matter do miserable excuse aborted positive traits placed me feel like one likes never will best friends one appreaciates me someone told cared loved would laugh face obvious joke matter anymore end myself,1 @SerpentinexBLK Robin IS my fancy. Mmmm. <3 ,0 switch though worthless human deserve anything life never given life im god im everyone everything im held nothing control multivurse,0 camera turned shirtless im guy havibg apnic attack camera turned shirtless im guy school camera turned split second shirtless suspended dont think went collar,0 one better feelgood films kate capshaw leading allstar cast small town love letter first off scenery beautiful anyone sees film want move location crazy cast capshaw stunning lead actress captivates emotional rollercoaster role tom everett scott charming author note throughout film always delightful ellen degeneres hilarious blythe danner actress plays bookstore saleswoman terrific too although unsuccessful film great short sweet well romantic ,0 took way many pillsive trying die longest time now today took ibuprofen tablets claritin got bored feel anything ordinary ill probably go day usual unless something changes family know thing day die,1 is depressed he isn t going to be able to see david archuleta,0 want a polaroid camera,0 im close ending all boyfriend kitten holding backeveryday lately slowly become agony me entire time want cry scream punch again dont know much longer live deal this im worthless ive disappointment everyone cant keep going,1 @MeLaMachinko I know who I need to go to when I need something put on blast. Read your Ashanti Blog today. Hilarious!,0 normal take someone breakfast kinda want take someone get like scone something nearby coffee shop kinda want see doing know really something people do dumb question know ever done dunno,0 literally shake hard text favorite person whenever text best friend who might small crush on undecided that hear voice see start like vibrating like starts core get happy ah wanted share see anyone goes thing,0 sub downvote buttoni depressed well,1 got super mad aggressively played bach violin thats thats sayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy,0 ever kill myself want stream itjust funny thought had maybe way somebody talk it even mention news channel,1 allowed post memes anymore keep trying post image let me happened now used able to anyone offer explanation,0 guys help one online friend saying going commit redflag australia slovakia really lonely said going today please help know say,0 im losteverything gone nothing ever going bring back ive lost hope youve come realisation nobody help you everyones lost youll never come back pain,1 i m not sure where to even post this but i m hoping someone who read this can relate for the past month everything feel wrong or off but there is objectively nothing wrong i started a new long awaited and anticipated job and quit my horribly toxic previous work place this wa the moment i had fantasized about for the last few year but ever since then i can t seem to feel ok everything feel chaotic and out of place but nothing else ha changed i am on a good routine but i still feel out of control again absolutely nothing is out of control in fact looking from the outside in my family is in one of the best stage of life we have been in why can t i seem to feel at home or grounded i feel a constant longing for something but i have no clue what it is i can t come up with a solution to this feeling because when i think about it logically i can t find anything to fix i just can t feel ok,1 @LARRAYXO Hello queen I know you are going to do a Q&A so I wanted to ask. Do you have anxiety depression etc btw lysm queen oh btw can you follow me on instagram my account is queenxxlarray so ya you better check it out ilysm and have a wonderful day baddie,1 omggggg. )) LATER? practice?. tiring.,0 im sad dont want liveive thought far long hate life people value life death yeah get chance something millions unlucky unfortunate think death beautiful thing taken granted undermined love family friends great wonderful people hope best them makes happy seeing happy deep know truly want nothing world could give bc know real everyone else me reason killed dont want people care sad death want happy im dead wanted this life miserable dont understand people keep going im throwing life away things im absolutely hate im college welding dad pushed would great start life understand get start good life dont want this dont want anything want wake hear brother every single minute say smart ass shit every little thing do want future gf get cancer live play games die honestly want death dont want sympathy dont want anyone saying you always loved going ok want least someone understand im looking death want die obsessed death whats side cant believe religion anything spiritual god related end day believe going heaven good place wish know dead is,1 ujk_jirachi grew level attack defense sp atk sp def speed ampxb sadly gain stats like pokemon,0 aspergers bipolar ocd etc im completely burnt out also appears im starting auditory hallucinations ive bounced many psych hospitals psych help one have still need helpif would humor me listed posts below im exhausted write op tonight psychiatry appointment tomorrow nothing change saw first psychiatrist age meds ineffective im highly sensitive side effectsoftentimes both please give find right med spiel med game years groupsiops intensive oneonone hospitalization month ive done too im ect candidate ill pass that im depressed may auditory hallucinations something that psychiatrist tomorrow httpswwwredditcomrbipolarcommentsqerjim_very_depressed_and_i_may_be_having_some im yet able manage life well redflag mind heart everyday long time im tired life think bear much longer httpswwwredditcomraspergirlscommentsonfim__i_have_yet_to_be_able_to_manage_my_life us denied ss disability pull records psychiatric hospitalizations since turned listed contact psychiatrist im job since parttime less months talk doctor httpswwwredditcomrautismcommentsnfbqus_i_was_denied_ss_disability_and_they_didnt_pull usa assume unable work due asd need advice social security disability claim denied without review ineligible grounds never held job long apply help httpswwwredditcomrautismcommentspdkusa_i_assume_some_of_you_are_or_were_unable_to,1 click post thank you tell day im work responses may slow,0 id given film stars simply lifetime presentation actually filmed location represented story here new york city channel whether set there rural iowa oregon virginia la etc filmed vancouver ottawa toronto canadian localebr br but ever one deserving top rating site movie certainly originality story done many times many variations several similar specific one also done pretty often big screen megastars past present cary grant james garner harrison ford tom hanks et al deborah kerr doris day meg ryan many more think least more prominent past present top head could added now probably many others could brought mindbr br not drone on point that opinion far one best genre ive seen caught chance midday friday time tv taking couple hours following particularly hectic week id never run across flick years since made and two leads done enough known most completely unknown me two actors knew phyllis newman annas mother id seen things younger days michael rispoli henry charlies best friend outstanding gramma menacing juice loan tough street guy rounders br br the chance meeting coupling leads best friends substory romance correlation anna charlie revealed later oftdone plot contrivance within genre makes difference enjoyment in fact enhances itbr br checking comments agree completely notredflag primary word describing film engaging caps adjective describes performers characters chemistry among characters whatever combination presented supporting even minor rolesbr br i love films harder edge rounders escapist schwarzeneggerstallone fare goodfellows even classics like casablanca gone wind citizen kane pure uncomplicated enjoyment one outstanding bare fraction budgets equal results achieved youve got mail sleepless seattle tom hanks meg ryan done better natasha henstridge michael vartan here costars support personnel equivalent megafilms well,0 "is a perfectionist and has been still working here and there on her #Debian layouts, but now it's time for /dev/shower & /dev/cup/tea. ",0 cant live socksi saw someone trying reassure suicidal person says reason wake morning saying and im paraphrasing one day glad something even nice pair socks hang find it like hell im person talking to also reason wake morning confused hell me could pair socks give anyone reason live im suicidal cold feet im suicidal struggle mental illness understand finding meaning little things important get excited socks many times realizing little stuff cant replace live im tired trying find meaning everything around me want little reasons get bed want drive wake shit life everyone around has im tired told hang there life meaning im sure id found now,1 help me forget th april amp th july,0 found thet exfriend tried commit redflag know doim halfway across country know help still much care friend know help sent text saying i talked x like said im good situations like ever want need talk anything im anytime else do know current address parents numbers either please let know do,1 hopeimagine worse two things could happen come together someone life privacy cant even choose sleep wake up also choices life none except choose place talk myself,1 http://twitpic.com/6ts48 - I don't know yet ,0 im asking someone talk it need help convincing best friend faultits fault way convince not love her keeps breaking heart knows every area life gone dogs pushed past breaking point tonight swallowed pills im going send one last text know tell,1 feeling really downthis year seems crumbling feel like im going dark place again ive suicidal years ago looking someone talk,1 know guy knows guy knows guy knows guy knows guy knows guy knows lady knows guy knows i,0 im years old except school never go outside usually spend whole day computer watching videos youtube stuff end day get depressed feel like im wasting life friends also severe social redflag always feel friends putting me feel depressed lonely never spend time friends feel want hang never anything pls reply im alone,1 bruh weird want tank like imagine fun would drive around,0 ur looking great today unless put pineapple pizza theres special layer hell u,0 losti hate even feel way many people life love me outside im sure life looks fine feeling lost alone anxiety charts every day struggle want die cant live way anymore im really fucking tired,1 sometimes when my anxiety is bad i ll snap at people i always regret it immediately after and i hate that i do it doe anyone el here have this problem if so do you have any advice thanks,1 le mini crewmate sus,0 know movie everyone push opinions you say truth many people feel movieit best ever seen soooooooooooooooooo funny even though scariest movie ever seen kept edge seat know gonna happen next like funny scary movies got see one,0 chadjvalasek tanaganeva pem pem mikenewswriter we don t know why lithium work but at least it reduces the risk of suicide even at dos not clinically effective for depression or mood stabilisation ssri don t reduce the risk of suicide and in fact increase the risk http t co i vkah nq,1 "@WingsGrow bummer. well yeah, chatting whenever when you get home then ",0 nick carter come to the chat just minute please http fanclub backstreetboys com chat php,0 documentary films question realism always crops up much film real much manipulated film maker little dieter needs fly herzog far absorbed telling story man telling story even address question realism versus formalism beginning herzogs role storyteller obvious luckily master storyteller little dieter finest engaging documentary ever seen dieters story enthralling herzogs efforts reenactment putting dieter paces reliving story location filmed effective story dieter tells real herzog everpresent wrenching absurdist commentary realism film mustsee students documentary film andor werner herzog,0 careful others taking advantage people throughout life may meet already involved life someway could really steer wrong direction thing usually going creepy looking person doesnt stop talking crappy people seek vulnerable targets take advantage them usually someone thought really knew inside change whole perspective youll think take advantage of lot could older cousin lets take car real quick even though dont even permit counselor assistant lets sneak school minutes early cool aunt everyone family refuses talk begging help out finances time labor body emotions ect drain without really realizing youll end vulnerable feel like need them true bull crap achieve goals good own wish someone gave guidance regards people seem trustworthy may quite opposite hope helped someone thanks resource thinks assist further am emotionally exploitedhttpswwwlifehackorgareyoubeingemotionallyexploited psychological depths ways httpswwwgooglecomampswwwpsychologytodaycomusblogyourpersonalrenaissancewayssomepeoplewilltakeadvantageyoufamp,0 helpi want someone talk to normally main account stalk place help others really could use help,1 @SarahhRUSH So that's why I haven't seen you... gawsh I kinda missed you there for a while! ,0 fuck shit im finally doneim ending it ive going bullshit day day every single motherfucking day life cry every morning wake up cry day find place alone cry sleep every night friends friends year sociable people want hang me mom verbally psychologically abusive job hates threatens fire time would bills pay pay nowhere go one go to trying make brownies earlier spilled little bit chocolate counter maybe size quarter mom went apeshit telling need take cooking class calling fucking retard saying what deserve child theres chocolate everywhere counter paper towels sink none bullshit fucking true neat freak im slob always try let bother me fuck fucking bothers enough ive decided end life hears crying says fuck you continue cry takes car keys away by force fight her take cell phone away probably try choke done before im years old already feel old this tired feel like im im tearing afraid cry making harder hold in always kinda felt bad thinking killing thinking family would miss me maybe will maybe mom miserable forever want mom always tells family members horrible person lie steal horrible things never done life lies faces front me get lectured every time see something stupid mom told did fuck all fuck everything want open space another child grow decent life theres many people planet anyway thanks listening,1 im angry parents forcing livei know love lot feels selfish im probably selfish one know im suicidal tried attempt earlier year wasnt serious supportive im mental health services theyre nice want nothing it im medication mum administers every morning evening meant mood stabiliser nothing me dont want hurt anyone dont feel compatible life even though know everything live for sound like brat genuinely feel resentful towards them makes want talk them dont want say anything hurtful im tired guilt tripping time try bring want die probably makes feel bad helpless response generally people worse you would break them sinful etc get it brought world many hopes dreams happy successful life want out could argue cant tap want to get life beautiful future full potential etc feels like bs feel detached reality almost attempted last week meticulous plan sorted finances picked outfit wrote notes bought presents spoke good friend without telling felt suicidal saying mental goodbyes friends felt renewed purpose stay alive lasted two days keep planning things live for follow disappoint people involved dont want ruin holidays upcoming birthdays making sad absence would cool finish uni project prove can theres good window april realistically plan may work it winter get drift,1 "Bom saw her friend dying literally in front of her causing depression and anxiety for years. She suffered a lot, took LEGAL medicines and became a really successful singer. She is not drug addict, she is an inspiration and a role model. #박봄제발내버려두세요",1 honestly going start deleting social media go back isolating like fucking constantly do even try proud hard work others even get fucking point done trying love even live anyones standards fucking sick envy hate sick always angry sick ever finally start talking problems asshole says someone always worse you look bright side almost like problems fucking matteri done fucking give up honesty start drinking fucking done on,1 killing tomorrowim serious it way make life better point,1 need someone talk tohey people great sorts things school sports job name always kind caring person whos always willing help never told anyone fact family downright despises me matter do everytime get hear kind dissapointment am im financial burden worse yet would better grave chose retaliate tried ignore one point take anymore,1 dry n str8n th mop thn off 2 tescos! my 2nd home ,0 "Sixteen days left of school...then two work days, then I'm done for the summer! ",0 "Slept 4 hours, going back to bed ",0 want die badly dont courage jumpim year old im considering redflag light fucking issues ive stopped able cope with born disadvantaged ive dragging way life ever since born nvld adhd nvldor none verbal learning disorder basically causes issues everything fine motor skills spatial abilities understanding social relationships excelling rightbrained task limited career options made social relationships throughout life awkward superficial best suffice say stunted ability connect people endear myself career destroyer since literally every career requires least fundamental understanding social relationships visualspatialbig picture related cognitive skills iq demonstrates best performance iq level someone borderline retarded verbal iq level someone gifted im basically walking parrot competent expressing verbally incompetent everything else done irreperqble damage selfesteem effects haunted throughout life ive always felt like loser incapable realizing ambitions succeeding anything beyond base goals this adhd another added injury insult placed strain already devastating cognitive deficits come suffering nvld ive never able achieve single thing worth mentioning entire life nvld holds back hindered suceeding endeavours ambitious am existential blight literally one greatest challenges life gradually pulvarized whatever selfperception selfrespect had also developed atopic asthma eczema allergies early young age impaired ability engage athletics later s came influence health severely decisive manner three years ago lapsed depression studying university degree history which never wanted forced pressure family one fields good at nvld giving good analytical ability verbal logical reasoning problems kept piling on months introductionary classes could barely sleep subsequently developed major depression result suicidal thoughts barely functional forced drop university recovered months bout already existing allergies amplified extreme making unable sleep due severe nasal congestion unable sleep weeks straight poor reaction nasal cortecosteroids matter did still got poor sleep period full apprehension depression period blew over simply fucked zombie slowly began recovering that month later develop acid reflux sent another period depression anxiety added effect unable eat months recover slowly acid reflux never went away neither depression anxiety caused lose weight since insomnia anxiety depression barely able cope with ate ton without thinking sleep deprivation caused eat normally do already overweightfrom isolation adhd causing poor satiety suffice say ive past years developed sleep apneawhich hereditary problem multiple chemical sensitivity former causing additional memory motor cognitive deficitssomething learned studied disease meticulouslyones irreversible adding additional issues already addled dysfunctional brain causing cognitively impaired premorbid state latter basically making unable function like normative person rendering completely unemployable long term prognosis life quality health someone issues poor zilch since mcs according current research basically untreatable avoidance exacerbating enviroments form treatment available besides sleep apnea causing become dysfunctional beginning irreversible brain damage ive researched possible solutions months way fix situation fail find nothing possible way treat brain damage osa possibly reverse cognitive dysfunction caused learning disorders via regenerative technologies still infancy seem like distant mirages desert actual available treatments could restorw previous level functioning mcs anotger issue struggle with etiology completely unknown longterm prognosis poor since treatments even recognized many worlds medical institutions people mcs end isolation life long issues short becoming paraplegic suffering severe brain injuries developing terminal cancer als ms probably worst life outcome person experience way around it like falling bottom less pit incarcerated cage bottom ocean almost nothing fix situation except try adapt vain find nothing nothing left there im tired humiliated given shortend stick life people know least successful functional enough get life born way never choose life conditions given ive stopped able cope them fail finding ways rationalize make justifications continuing miserable existence longer keeps finding ways fuck head turn everything me know choose stay whatever happens ill never find place contentness happiness life spend days bed trying numb myself complete apathy lethargy deliberating whether kill try accept things are life ahead looks grim future prospects look bleak barely worth effort continue cant dont really want hack anymore im pretty much dead everyway counts idea im writing this needed write this,1 want become anything want anything want work hard want go school want get job want live family want achieve anything nothing prove anything anyone live particularly like existing much want exist dreams goals aspirations nothing,1 for long in a while i hit a down again and that come with a lot of thinking like last time when i felt like that i distanced myself from my friend and they didn t even bother to ask me what is wrong with me i m an really introverted person but ask them all the time how they are doing and offer them my support i ask myself when they would if they start to ask themselves where i am if i would just dissappear without saying anything i can t believe i am posting in this sub again but i don t know who to tell stuff like this,1 emotions break facade caring hurts mostso might little older you life sucks knew person believe could feel way true happiness often times someone share life with goals fears aspirations anyone like almost years real kicker is im attractive wealthy smart funny etc great qualities mean nothing utterly alone try open couple friends obviously want nothing conversation end instead trying help im gay im single kids relationships one really care much im not happy gets dark point feel ok take sleeping pill go bed even pm ill sit bed long feign sleep stay state waking emotions fully taken grasp awake want sleep mind turned pain even ability watch movie without feeling like shit turn off almost pm think hours late enough take another sleeping pill even though got bed minutes ago life sit million dollar condo sleeping much can sleeping pain away increasing despair day innaction its going long even know get spiral ive crossed event horizon im spinning towards singularity hopefully less pain rest trip wish good advice im cautionary tale things replace people matter have someone pointless,1 Depression has been slapping me around this last month and I'm just now realizing it and I'm mad at myself.,1 sleeping woke up feel sleepy idk do mean slept like six hours probably okay guess,0 looking discord friends hey friends made discord looking people join gaming really anything dm comment invite,0 plot starts interesting however towards end many die short time turning thrillermystery aspect story slaughterbr br the true highlights adam beach jrgen prochnow excellent selves nice try inappropriate last third though good ending,0 bite myself raw sore get canker sore cannot eat cannot drink get sick finally energy eat go fast bite myselfand go again over whole life could summed canker sores,1 pushups decide to day managed pushups imma try get tomorrow,0 idk brolike kms yet man like one day itll happen went psych earlier year help generalized anxiety disorder fucken useless idk im depressed anxious time guess solid bursts happiness worse sounds im really good playing yea loooooot crying worrying one things worry many female friends confident around women essentially making think alone forever im rn actually looks mindset change know im young whenever people tell worry it work also issues made question current girl im texting actually someone like still talking option anyways certainly people worse problems apologies clogging feed hope everyone okay stay strong,1 recommend subreddits pwease im bored ,0 bit bizarre evil enjoyed lot characters show great well complimented one another well sorry see cut off would loved see could wentyou found leaning toward lucas buck sheriff secrets anyone lucas frightening alluring would liked seen character became however buy show enjoy great something different tv paige turrco calebs cousin big mystery meant lucas shame around still never finished would loved see would happened,0 version correct one want wait suffering anymore suffering permanent gool bullshit know future brings yet experince misery loneliness fucked brain one day find person wants live world stinks going drowning shitbye permanent solution everyone eventually experience permanent problem,1 everythings falling apartlife constantly throwing shit good days getting rare motivation anything everyone else succeeding im failing im losing friends nothing helps buy its gonna better tomorrowsoon bullshit ive given life far many chances im tired im exhausted want,1 Having a good night. Went to dinner with Mom and then out to get my paycheck and coffee. Really low-key tonight. It's good. ,0 Lack of sexual interest is a symptom of depressionMe: that explains SOOO MUCH,1 good friend m several breakdowns distancing fh myself hes close know dofh fear one good friends close going it hes confided us long time ago hes suffered depression suicidal thoughts long time weve several scares dealt withwitnessed handful breakdowns fell radar little year ago solid day half emotional break went far breaking house check him find car there turns self harmed called ambulance himself recent break weeks ago since last break basically stopped talked fh they work together thats kind big deal think went office twice worked home times since hes also taken completely quite bit top that talk fh hes real jerk based fh told conversations ive suffered depression myself considered redflag used self harm familiar lot this recent actions dick fh basically spelled me hes ready hes pushing away order push us life therefore make easier fh giving want help know how turnaround yesterday came place couple hours now shop garage fh work coming unannounced going straight shop uncommon came home though inside watching tv fh hung another hour say much know positive want know else do lunch mentor figure yesterday discuss everything several us know hes going basically on watch asked far hes thought skip beat saying knows would it help lives alone try get come come us much possible pushing us away put hard stop that please need help know else do night last breakdown sat talked privately confides trusts fh ive told past dealings this fh is admittedly ideal person help someone state mind everyone involved aware that thats bad thing hes kind person talked able help calm really tell whys hows hes looking committed relationship long time nothing ever works know one reasons admit it thats something help either help someone dealing much hes intelligent good looking individual praised work good core group friends anything everything family intact supportive even this hes depressed thinks low himself dwells relationship status lot even drink lot does twice week gamenight guys join theyll drink home that fridays regular spot go regular group guys great guys that hes drinking heavily smoke dog home know helps im growing afraid none going enough hes closer id like believe im sorry im rambling please help us help him go see professional were has,1 enjoyed films like pulp fiction reservoir dogs lock stock two smoking barrels going love two hands type black humor beat keep entertained whole film like pulp fiction wacky scenarios characters get deal them along gallipoli picnic hanging rock one best australian films ive seen also stars young heath ledger got real big statesbr br this terribly underrated movie believe good pulp fiction greats see it,0 thank making bearable god begin think went lot crap year loved ones dying isolation friends family kinda shit show ive suffering mental illness past four years year pushed lot thought could handle therapist dumped beginning year felt lost id working two years part felt like id betrayed bounced around lot different therapists programs everything online really get close enough anyone really feel comfortable working them started new school beginning year transferring senior year difficult especially pandemic cant form kinds tight relationships classmates person burned lot bridges old school found feeling alone hopeless people could interact family lets honest go well constant arguments inability go often id like felt suffocated hopeless everything going hell around you theres one life trust enough talk it option seems like redflag joined reddit year half ago much began spend time home started spend time reddit joined rteenagers maybe two months ago started posting get whole lot interaction posts interaction got enough help get shitty year messaged redditors got added discords commented posts helped remind world small seems alone none us ever truly alone matter finding right communities join thank getting year giving something live for heres less shitty love luisa,0 last here think depressed yearn release deathmy thoughts may one day get best me everyday become civil war brain rational irrational thoughts civil war ended days last week head clear happy days went shit again,1 think im kill myself ive lost love life family week whole world finished put gone cant go without itim going copy paste happened angela came home today dropped huge bomb me said feeling years bisexual started curious gradually shifted preferring women men now says realized lesbian explains lack intimacy rejection past months theres child involved relationship i meant year old little girl ive raised daughter biological child guy previous relationship nothing her love angela mckenna much life ive known planning come crumbling down hurts intensely badly cant even cry ive hardly able draw breath im sitting dark mind racing rage sorrow like that over ill honest idk im going here ive thought staying mckennas life dad honesttogod think strong enough handle that especially mother starts date someone else im thinking remove sake make best decision myself right look well like angela does ive seriously considered redflag multiple times today im falling apart feel torn half regards feel angela one second love anything next feel seething hatred tldr girlfriend told lesbian obviously ends relationship ive father child entire life obligated do wrong look emotional well remove entirely mckenna good around miserable do cant go life anymore im finished,1 tell kill myselfi cant find reason live maybe yall can,1 sister talks killing every dayi suffer suicidal thoughts too folks know word suffer hyperbolic physical hurt brings mental emotional deep pit cant figure escape like forgotten limbs are helpless feeling feel alone feel like pit metaphor perfect dark lonely pit im starting notice people suffer suicidal thoughts tend visual learners visual types always anyway really hard sister threatens redflag daily im feeling suicidal feel like place tell anyone family want kill even feel even insignificant therapist tells first try think stuff visualize think beautiful difficult first especially im deliriously sad think dogs eyes something like biking summer try hold onto that try miss things enough want die im little ok also says people want die want live like this agree want live sister talking like lot shit life like one thing visualize dark pit visualize stop afraid it maybe overcome imagine taking small step brighter area this im still working worked one time one start im always going deal thoughts ive coping life since used escape trauma therapy helps though trying offer little hope im decent day tomorrow might terrible might need read someone elses post much love all,1 reasons date me least six beyblades,0 fun little story woke rat mouse,0 @IMnet Ohhh I want me some of that! :/ Lucky Germans and Austrians ,0 comment random fun facts genes code six fingers dominant genes code five fingers,0 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Would rather be at the lighthouse or in Gay Paree.... ",0 gender simply vibe shit,0 update last post date weve four dates hold hands hug stuff havent seen two weeks cuz got rona making plans soon quarantine gonna go like haunted house something completely supports everything im happy could cry,0 little update lol im alive got live soe reason now got full mcyt month not going out im feeling better,0 i wish i wa better at writing it s taking me so long to write this paper,0 every reason possible hundreds people faced circumstances succeeded strong hope encourage someone,1 current meits while since much happened really know start feel now turned days ago friends flew south korea yesterday join them reasons i huge breakdown last year october sent psychiatry something filled many negative emotions towards guilt grief anger cut contact beloved friends actually planning holiday trip s korea i able motivate get job earn money trip like like years now waiting til th month enough money buy new guitar nd collectioni classic one one buy either western electric guitar wanna future friends arrive back germany th feel kinda lonely now since used around spent time together makes feel happy time forget actually depressed especially best friends somewhat lives room drives me fun together instead driving apartment work happened alot past cried screamed alot edge ending life many times destroyed many things value me ruined relationships had walked path thought would good enough make gave many thingswhich still do struggle motivation right now cant even tell ok barely cried breakdowns last months feel sad anymore feel guilty angry think reached point got numb think killing anymore want anymore moments feel relieved happy love anymore rejected fell love me cry rejected sit front pc play video games listen music play guitar piano spend time friends someone emotionally unstable always edge really wanted someone love someone lacking emotions actually live happy life real pain anymore would want end life think happened me good thing apologise english good thank reading sincerely d vy,1 hard time getting breakup desperately need advicewe together years apart that think often times day every day theres lot going im generally stressed life thinking day often times still dream her know thats kinda normal immediately breakup know normal is weeks maybe couple months sad long term relationship years since ive talked her completely removed reminders life social media mutual friends talk anymore moved new town since then ive dropped school even deleted music listened time life literally nothing nothing even faintly remind them yet cannot get head whats wrong brain im going delete soon lazy make throwaway,1 many times asked give instructions make peanut butter jelly feels like silliest thing rant about seemingly pointless activity at least first time keeps assigned me ive done twice middle school probably least elementary school im onto second time high school im getting pretty tired it id find hard believe havent done yet thoughts,0 "@Bunnieblog OK I'm likin' your hubby's idea. Smart man, make the ladies happy ",0 many meso many committed redflag much younger now gained even less experience life now enough life conviction enough end it even greater conviction suffering long suffer longer wanted die young bring it every reason it younger self could never imagine bad would feeling today constant broken heart feeling heart sinking chest everyday without fail total separation humanity ive fair share pathetic life nothing complain comes ending life others experienced even less ended lives,1 @gourmeted i didn't make cos I was one mango short but I was to use fresh mangoes. They're in season ,0 discovered film love it right mix fast moving story entertaining characters hilarious moments but overloaded stupid jokes fun performances kelsey grammar harry dean stanton ron schneider rip torn more buckman especially good really enjoyed watching guy played stapanickbr br i also find interesting used real submarine pampanito running top scenes emulated almost exactly sets set decoration really impressive digital tour pampanito online compare scenes movie excellent job filmbr br what light entertaining truly enjoyable movie,0 came nancy drew expecting worstbecause everyone elses bad reviews thought even though read books look anything like nancy drew ive heard of wrong sure carbon copy books make movie something modify become bigscreen entertainment plot enjoyable thrilling lot actual scares thought emma roberts really believable way portraying classic character several funny moments contrary many statements point film nancy come ditz intelligent conservative polite genuine one thing movie also well balance whole thing mix comedy romance suspense heartfelt moments loved movie flick flick wise decide trust go see this prepared scary heck moments was like freaking out go see bumbum let people decide think movie youa mistake almost made love it wanna movie love emma roberts now too like minibree van de kamp dh love it love it,0 dead assrip mothafuckasssss,1 @lidnakita can't to see you iA!!! the East Coast has missed you dearly ,0 wish strength end now alli cant ever anything right feel empty hopeless im exhausted see another day cant see point living everything hurts pain going inevitably grow much more loneliness strangling me darkness clouding heart soul dont feel anything light within put out ever feel true happiness thoughts death accompany everywhere go door leave plane earth here could leave see whats side maybe death next great adventure guts now time comes again time ill ready say goodbye,1 one daytired life ive nothing abuse happen wanna live like anymore may today tomorrow someday feel peace,1 im still bored pm want pt flopped first time pt got back trip yo michigan today havent made post cuz like signal notmally like midnight im watching ani rn like talk also want,0 You ever just... 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The homies with depression,1 post video game depression,1 uh guys parents clapping right now match bedwars see computer screen help happening understand it someone give explanation pls,0 watched sky tv late one night vampire fan must admit half expected bmovie disaster pleasantly wrongbr br subspecies family vampires vampire lord dies two sons handsome noble stefan brother evil hideous radu start war birth right bloodstone bloodstone holy grail sorts vampires bleeds blood saints give vampire drinks ultimate highbr br the fight bloodstone takes unexpected turn college students turn brothers territory school trip stefan protect brothers lustsbr br like said went film expecting much one best low budget movies ever seen sets locations romania think since ive seen it nice music score film justicebr br most acting adequate anders hove evil radu steals movie and subsequent sequels hoves performance twisted vamp truly breathtaking bumps film simply okay pretty dmn good,0 want live first place kill myself religion says go hell grateful god given life now know do stuck middle terrible world god createdat one point want leave religion believe hell die become one earth feels fairer way but hell exists want suffer hereafter too religious religion asks thankful god gives us life,1 dad never home and mom different state city hours away form transporti diagnosed felt incredibly sad angry done everything yearsi horrible childhood mom horribly abusive mentally physically never friends quite literally scared people am school put even strain mental health even good gradesmy mom diagnosed bpd depression sister diagnosed bipolar social redflag redflag depression chances problemsi want go somewhere try find wrong me get diagnosis something least try figure problems way soshould try convince dad drive city insurance point need someone else help worth it dad incredibly busy work never gets time off even know something wrong all self diagnosis anything feel like knowing sure making worse worth try figure something wrong me,1 guyswhat friend benefits really mean thought someone friend eat money copy homework,0 free awards real email accs mistake yes wont change mind try it gave awards gave myseffffffffffff,0 is so blessed to have a manager like @WillMonty ,0 Some lassies r the reason sm folk have depression anxiety n insecurity's it's actual vile,1 coping loss entire family feel nothing like nothing live either sign suicidal idealization risk itim mostly level stress trauma makes nonfunctional one bizarre life circumstances several people family egotistical sociopathic and possibly psychopathic drunks mother maybe cousins heavy drinkers met demise drunk driving family members vehicle separate occasions incidents far apart months find want around people much feel sad either normal feel much still grieving way lost entire family losing realize abusive fact too something wrong reaction despite dealing ptsd point sometimes too living relatives anymore im basically orphan think know grieve this feel like nothing proper grieve dealing trauma triggers better living ways avoid them fairly isolated,1 and 1 for the road gang. i once made an entire pack of wolves howl. frightening but yes its true. good nite all!! see u manana. ,0 even after the aust gov roll out it bln 00mb b band we ll still be way behind most of the rest of the world b band speed,0 m kill vid camm kms vid cam,1 moved in with them at the start of october 0 we seemed to get on really well have at least some commonality and we d go out together sometimes time every week or so i ve always felt like the outsider of the group a they are all nd year going to the same uni and i am on a gap year we are all the same age tho it always felt like it wa those living together and me living with them if that make any sense nonetheless even tho have terrible anxiety and depression i tried with them they just told me last night that a friend asked them to move in with them and they ll be moving out in a few month it s suck cause we had said several time in passing we d be happy to live together whether in this flat or another i even got into a uni in the same city a them and they knew i wa going to study here next year i don t think they hate me i just don t think they like me all that much it hurt cause idk what i m going to do for accommodation next year uni hall terrify me but would be good to meet people i just had to get this off my chest i have no idea how to act with them if they start convo with me it just feel like they re forcing it idk i feel unloved and unhated just a banal liking,1 ex girlfriend recently broke due emotionally abusive ie lying gaslighting yelling put downs looking girls instagram prior relationship always problems mental health want hurt her truly love her says everybody says abuser ik love her sweetest girl smart beautiful respectful unique loving nor cal young people age acting grown respecting boys girls much respect girl like even similar try convince self bc long not took back fucking many times yet kept it got tired it molested made fun life emotionally abused since childhood mental health excuse did says bad person lot people agree horrible human deserve anything good life accumulation trauma loss first love unbearable overwhelmed feel alone every damn day fucking now wake up smoke play game nap smoke play game repeat really really really want end cycle ik fault feel way deserve hurting one gods precious angels go sleep every night wishing die sleephelp meplease stuck,1 Jonghyun is dead because of depression. People pls stop sleeping about mental issues #박봄제발내버려두세요,1 pigman i love the cooler trenchcoat weather but dnw the darker evening a it s scary to run at night,0 want dieim gonna bother throwaway want die want feel happy again take pleasure things used enjoy want die think reason im posting tell someone thanks goodnight,1 @CocktailChic i was in sigma delta tau ,0 In need of alcohol. Lucky it's a bank holiday weekend! Beer O'Clock ,0 hey yall wassup also u play kerbal space program huge kerbal space program fan love aspects,0 killer clowns coming back yall fr ive seeing people talk clowns coming back watched couple videos claim recent videos dont know fall fun clowns,0 Watching Sabrina the Teenage Witch episode where her aunts make her a dream date out of man dough. It's my favorite episode ,0 tired everything going through unmotivated want life end thing keeping alive material purchases give temporary happiness distracting playing shooter games daymy ex keeps popping life kills me distraught keep knows hurts much went crazy emailed like accounts begging unblock simultaneously telling never talk again extra suicidal unhinged really want kill front him thinking months nowi started taking mood stabilizers two days ago sick everything think hold long enough see meds helps me dropped useless therapist last week toohow stay away someone bad also makes happy want die sleep,1 @Stray_Kids How to deal with metal illness or depression? #StrayKids #StrayQuiz,1 improving rejection first english second language sorry miss spell something abaut rejected big time hurt like hell could get her make feel terrible abaut self especially looks never fat extra weight on never tried anything abaut it quarantine hit looked mirror decided make change started running dieting going gym lost kg quarantine ended went back school got showered compliments ever since lost weight love totally changed me depressed hated way look happy look good never ended getting girl got something much better learned best way getover bad things pick hobbies improve person make things easier forget,0 annoyed mins time lost matches row times row bad start times row teammates questionable things times row guns ammo times lobby without single kill name game crashed,0 day posting get compliment irl ye forgot post yesterday stiil compliment irl,0 flat funniest spoof pretentious art house films ever madebr br this flick exposes clichs some excruciatingly bad downssyndrome actors terribly heavy self important dialog scenes supposed shock fall flat jarring editing pointless plot points wrapped kind smirky miasma disrespect audience vague psychdrivelbr br it achieves exactly designed to hilarious satire tedious movies made spoiled teenage trustfunders show parents ask theyve last two years what it received cannes award presenter werner herzog rumored told film fact spoof part films supposedly blew info day refuses discuss incidentbr br anyway see laugh classic humor many years come,0 think found gmt greenwich mean time widely used th century known find latitude sea using stars longitude always problem british government offered pound prize technology could accurately determine ones longitudinal position sea john harrison designed chronometer a portable timekeeping device set time greenwich england submitted government eventually prize carrying chronometer reading greenwich time them sailors could use local time compared greenwich time accurately determine longitude thanks coming ted talk yall,0 im still girlfriend cheats me recent events left feeling suicidal now need advicethis began revengeredflag letter removed names details j together years proposed thought one day would married around j started misgivings relationship the spark gone out would tell me ever wanted happy time could understand done wrong fix things perhaps given enough attention perhaps sexually unsatisfactory know early j cheated several times man named k still together girlfriend j stayed together throughout kept secret me figured several months later weakness break j foolishly believed still loved could fix this witnessed j k drunken sex front me left cried entire day after j called back somehow reconciled j saw sporadically that moved house lived together took things back home one day j came home crying felt could relationship k k still girlfriend j felt alone one cared her admitted still cared kissed her on j sort secret friends benefits arrangement would see secret telling anyone j would still sleep men like k beneficial arrangement me gatherings conventions k together would remove room sex would receive many similar benefits began see less friend j would call often even daily come new home hang together js parents fully aware js cheating were aware j saw time hide well became view pillow essentially teddy bear j could snuggle bed talk could buy clothes dinners presents though j would say loved said loved her still doubted her today one year afterwards j k convention weekend every night three nights j would call vacate room could sex partied friends morning hours hours ago returned room attempted sex j became confused said no j also bdsm yelled confusing me became mad would reply back owe answer asleep next right now realize used left j year ago soon confessed cheating me fool foolish hopeless romantic wanted cling remains something called love feel low want kill honestly see pulling this feel ever want relationship ever want risk love heart broken again cant see j way resembled were want love again said cant stupid sounds love mattered me know do thought sending letter friends throwing train die sort fuck you revenge death know do,1 hi fellow gamers gamerettes sooo friends hav discord server r trying get new peoplee chat send memes play games like minecraft among us theres pc games channel ask opposite sex channel relationship advice anime images ppl europe australia asia too stuff going on commitment guys girls welcome teen baby old man loool dm link ,0 boys girls asked crush felt way happy last years,0 fun facts ruin day nothing ive got nothing googles failing recently,0 asking help original post httpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentskvupanyone_been_able_to_date_their_crush_can_youutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf shitty update started walk min her came outside got scared talk small step time starting asking talk her,0 triedi may hardest life definitely never easy basically born life would lead depression endured enough parents physically emotionally abusive molested raped people family grew hit cheated multiple partners started coping negatively got trouble public owned began repair myself went therapy educated maladaptive coping went back graduate school graduated public let go demon back never stop haunting me one genuine connection alone work put recover past traumas window feel depression coming midnight train nowhere depressed years cannot leave go again deserve this give up,1 m imposters amoung us dffmfffmffefffsffmffaffrfftffaffsffs,0 urgent please help made friend today among us amp name michelle user among us mishmash plays cyan became friends got kicked game devastated please reddit help find user plays marshmallo,0 wanna dieive feeling like wanna die dumb school thing supposed project thing feeling rebellious i hate forever that decided it yay project big part grade already whole life planned head feel like thing knock down really dont know reason feel like dying hate much want die want tell parents feel like gonna get mad dont know wanna disappear,1 ive tried ive experienced ive lost war im looking support want waste anyone elses time want write words say goodbye ive fighting life fought years enemy severe depression extreme sleep issues introversion awkwardness supported opposition plan join military though fight end casualties live fear death also lost people time two close friends person ever actually raised me love you grandpa fought years enemies taliban insurgents radical nationals total spent months overseas winner casualties countless went still us stay strong fallen fought years got out enemy vast im surrounded casualty finally me though war still go boots on that manage ive got one write letter for serve letter public servants notified remains funeral unattended government service finally lie rest finally meet peace,1 tell documentaries watch read title read title anything,0 Midnight snack since ya know homework and work took over my life tonight and i didn't get to eat!,0 im yr old female ive never person could call friend life half year period barely left apartment first job warehouse job year since started working couple weeks even though ive long havent formed relationship anyone always avoid getting familiar anyone thats default 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im so fucking happy that you have the choice to end it all whenever you want i feel happy knowing this are the last couple of year and then every shitty thing is going to disappear and no my problem have no solution it not something it could be changed im just afraid about the pain it could cause me in the last minute but better get minute of pain than year of a shitty life,1 i am relatively new to anxiety it started a month ago with an sudden fear of dying and two severe panic attack the same night that brought me to the er since then i am constantly anxious have had a whole range of symptom chest pain numb left shoulder headache feeling cold there are so many physical symptom so i have found this page apology if already posted somewhere with a very large list of symptom that can be caused by anxiety list of symptom http www counsellinghelp co uk panic and anxiety symptom resolved by torquay paignton and exeter counsellor html i am currently trying to ignore my numb left shoulder 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I wanna go another round dammit!!! ,0 symptoms depression past years fluctuated severity despite furthest gone counsellor recently think sick sad low want feel happy i appointment lined psychologist september as sit sleepless restless like every night past years cannot wait day finding answer lifes burden happiest day life diagnosis also allow treat symptoms look forward cannot wait confident cannot wait understood cannot wait able sleep cannot wait happy cannot wait love againi cannot wait able raise bar moodit late apologies rambling always wanted tell somebody much look forward finally getting official diagnosis cure misery thank read hope resonate way day look forward,1 cant live anymorethere point living dropped school job little chance finding one friends anymore tired family nothing live anymore turn two weeks over,1 first month living here lot really selfdestructive things ended hospitalising myself job working heavy hours keep busy drinking heavily using drugs selfharming unfortunately im also less repressing feelings im trouble mood swings particularly anger redflag recently daily migraines suggestions particularly suggestions someone works hours week much time relax anyway hate living here much choice foreseeable future,1 fck this one girl everyone problems her filler filler filler filler filler ah ah ah ah stayin alive stayin alive naaamee gaaame judy judy judy bo budy banana fannah foh fudy fee fy moh muudy juudy,0 hollywoodheat i should have paid more attention when we covered photoshop in my webpage design class in undergrad,0 they didn t respond after a day so i brought it up in person if they even got it and if they liked it they said that picture stress them out knowing that they could be accessed by a hacker and that they didn t do it for them i like to send picture when i m feeling good because it make me feel even better but this sting of rejection is really tough for my anxiety i feel silly and ashamed and don t understand how he didn t like it,1 Learning how to forgive myself for the stagnancy that was produced from my depression.,1 wanting dead evolved accepting ill never happyive m attempted redflag twice last time within last year think main reasons last attempt feeling like wronged someone deeply cared about feeling like terrible person feeling ill never happy months passed ive kind accepted nothing going change me try better person treat friends better try find partner shares educational personal sexual interests dont believe ever going change dont want kill anymore dont think life works great someone like me every passing day think personal struggles eat more dont passions anymore think maybe real friends sometimes feel like everyone puts me anxiety situations used okay in anxiety pretty much everything actually kinda want press pause reset life impossible someone with vent to make happy would go long way much freak seem be think im going alone forever messed thing top think im lot happiest things others making happy etc even really find someone wants let them makes feel like im good enough even friendships let alone romantic relationships,1 another assignment to be done an dinner with dad tomoz,0 Just got home from work...1st day after vacation = lots of job security = plenty of catch-up work to do! 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Shopping tonight ,0 @Artdoodads oh fun! i love the process & then you get to use your results! send me a link if you make some stamps you want to share ,0 cleared okay but monday thinking humans brain works tripped got worried thinking brain works would lose sleep did night bad like last time also yesterday sleep bad woke like every hour night like last time got kind scared like last time time think fake life absurd think get really scared think rationally calm down,1 it s sooo super duper cold,0 @Actionjackson13 your retarded ,0 check cool painting made alright here something serious discuss recently brought attention members rteenagers one moderators indeed map pedophile based this posthttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentskdwgouh_oh_uh_oh_uh_oh since confirmation this important spread awareness push moderators confirmdeny accusation indeed true remove moderator post community strive keep subreddit safe possible please spread message thank you ps gets removed like linked post well answer,0 @silentinfinite hey abi nice to see you online ,0 someone help please ive harming years really want stopi never cut feel depressed anxiety several things cause sharp pain myself far tell feels like im addicted endorphins released start impossible stop last days even weeks main thing squeeze nose way skin inside gets pinched causes sharp pain gives huge release feels amazing calms me things drive nails side finger punching skin nail finger similar release there really want stop thanks advance advice,1 afternoon with rowan and sage in the kiddie pool! good times #fb,0 @nel1jack That video is no longer available. ,0 pleasantly surprised find enjoyable film kept attention throughout horror fan see almost everything genre dead line managed freak out pace cleverly set andrs bagg good performance desperate man underneath main plot trip madness end like that martin sanders ask self sees homeless speaking self alone street close end film character aaron mandel asks question sees another homeless thing knowing yet homeless martin sanders answering question beginning film broken eyeglasses two clear symbol rupture division personality ending jaw dropping know sequel would made,0 sergio martino impressed recently giallo classics the strange vice mrs wardh unforgettably titled your vice locked room key even so expecting much film case scorpions tail get mentioned much aforementioned titles comes classic giallo discussion know why least good two dario argento may king giallo five films made sergio martino surely far behind ways even surpasses master martinos films released prior jewel argentos crown magnificent profondo rosso back early seventies martino king plot follows idea murder profit follows insurance payout wealthy man wife inherits million long theres people blood turns dead shortly thereafter insurance investigator plucky attractive young journalist follow casebr br the case scorpions tail may benefit beautiful edwige fenech two martinos collaborators board famous george hilton worked marino strange vice mrs wardh colors dark along number giallos hilton great screen presence every time see italian thriller becomes obvious repeatedly cast beautiful anita strindberg remembered vice locked room stars alongside hilton excellently provides classic giallo female lead sergio martino good job directors chair again several beautiful scenes best taking place room bathed green lighting score bruno nicolai wardh excellently sets mood script that again driving force behind martinos success ernesto gastaldi writer martinos four giallo put together script thrilling staying away common giallo pitfall making sense thus liberating film rest illogical genre case scorpions tail quality giallo film yet another success great sergio martino like giallo love this,0 takewho q good resource prescriptions much take finish,1 guys need help really great french teacher really fun talk anything judge great quality adult opinion looking ways show means classmates thought good idea would grow youtube channel subscribers mainly students class would mean lot could get lot subs im anonymously thinks luck im karma whoring begging subs guys want sub leave wholesome comment link unlearn amp relearnhttpswwwyoutubecomchannelucul_xramfardnkata,0 envisioning success do envisioning success do,0 up early,0 ladies ladies one time please also godzilla crocs stay sex yeah sex cool yall ever bought grim reaper pipe flappy crush expensive item game yeah didnt think so nerds,0 pent emotions would always creeping back mind could stand anymore feeling selfhatred something many people experienced lives belittle selfworth believe deserve life given failed meet expectations people around that ran away much easier confronting problems times see value whatever reason thus begin think burden society people care about this start convince maybe existing would better cannot get unhealthy selfdestructive mindset always look floor walking cannot look people eye always negative perceptions dictate think people say negative things me important thing never felt meaning value joy life speech school exam called life its redflag depression,1 My therapist said many of my Oz photos -- shown to him today -- were of professional quality. Felt good ,0 support mancan everyone sees please go give support guy seemed like hes lot based past posts comments indeed seem like could seriohttpsredditcomrteenagerscommentsavhmlast_week_on_earth,1 Working out makes me feel hella good now. Like depression? Who is she? pic.twitter.com/D6WoRjZkA3,1 Mars Planets are like Revels without all the poor options like coffee and bizarre orange substitute ,0 autism perfectly valid reason kill youselfi autistic woman nobody really wants us around mean countries less years ago wed gassed look stats employmenthappiness autistic people shockingly low ive made fun of teased bullied molested one wants friend even though high functioning theres clearly something wrong me everyone says redflag bad really want end pain im constantly used,1 an idiot speaks anyhow to her biological mother and think that s not enough but must come online to rubbish the one that gave her suck your depression is still loading oshisko,1 @Bradleysanborn Depression is a myth,1 rumlover no u supposed to be my date,0 tried talking ex still fucking insane,0 weeks ago saved friend redflag suspended reddit day got unbanned checked online friends accounts one active rredflagwatch gonna commit days talked it still talk day pissed got banned temporarily saved life end probably wouldnt checked account didnt happen btw know check accounts posts banned put app took break would terrifying check wouldnt able message talk out,0 Finally home...in my bedd...LOL funny/interestiing niight...GOODNIIGHT TWITTER WORLD ,0 dont know resist anymorei suicidal hate could hate anyone else one person gave ripped heart clean chest took spirit took happiness unknowingly took last shred live know much longer this cutting long time stopped bit recently yesterday cut entire left arm one cares enough notice let alone listen me lost sat bathtub using dull knife carve arm sat thought went wrong used driven happy walk day complacency hoping last im sure could ever follow ending pain good people ever seem give fuck people met reddit thank strangers kind words,1 keeps getting worse starting feel horrible loneliness ive depressed long remember moving varying degrees unhappiness months time recently ive begun feeling terrible loneliness im popular enough school lot friends feel like ended one would even notice except best friend family younger problem thought dying im coming grips fact die matter what even dont want beyond control feel like anything pointless eventaully lasting impact dead even farther future every star universe die since january year hasnt day serious suicidal thoughts havent crossed mind ive started think i hate myself whenever walk mirror idea why consider attractive problems self esteem im trouble dealing recent increase horribly sad thoughts far worst ive ever felt depressive cycles feel like unfair deal this im time feel enjoyment im im relationship with dont know anymore want stop honestly cant take anymore,1 dae use reddit social media general distract reality drown enormous amount guilt afterwards feel like social media helps reduce stress certain extent distracting whats going helps zone but soon leave overcome insane amount guilt end day distraction,0 leaving place manager attempting rush us get apartment serviced hour notices intimidation behaving angry way leaving mean voicemails papers pissed door yelled lived with toward last months documenting everything collecting paper copies communication her another narcissistic manager tenant animal abuser wish actual law aspca would partner coulda helped living second apartment,1 one use email function reddit kinda sad underappreciated,0 @TomStamp i watched the start but its abit laggy. i cant wait for sony ohh man!,0 home instead school im sick im bored covid brain cancer plain old sick probably something like cold im bored mind anyone want talk me,0 real facts right uiliketobewooshed best guy ever hes awesome love him everyone,0 "cross country was so good today 4th; oh yeah well 3rd, but leah beat me to the placing people, i went the wrong way, aha",0 "#MentalHealthAwareness month & Children's Mental Health Week, join @NIMHgov's Twitter chat on teen depression on May 3rd at 3 PM ET. NIMH experts will be answering your questions. #NIMHchats to follow the conversation: @NEDAstaff http://bit.ly/2K3W5hJ  pic.twitter.com/pEf3EPgVyZ",1 anyone know get rid negative thoughts cannot get rid them becoming unbearable want know enjoy things like used to like sort loud banging back head stop like someone banging pots pans together constant ringing hear silent always back head seeping every single fucking positive rush have even feel happy know happiness go away really quickly want fucking get rid them amm fighting hard getting harder day constant lingering negative thoughts killing,1 day posting random fun facts everyday forget get bored oldest known domesticated dog remains years old dog died young unlikely much use humans nevertheless buried elaborate grave alongside two humans nice day ,0 @catholic_nun Yaaass I love how my depression ruins every aspect of my life including deteriorating my physical appearance. What a great superpower,1 depression https://twitter.com/therealamelhem/status/988810539391479808 …,1 theekween help with depression thelmasherbs,1 YOU GUYS! You can listen to/download my original soundtrack album for THE BATEMAN LECTURES ON DEPRESSION right now on Bandcamp. It's not even a little depressing! #indiefilm #indiefilmmaker https://scottbateman.bandcamp.com/album/the-bateman-lectures-on-depression-original-soundtrack … pic.twitter.com/q3eNmbbqpa,1 ahhhh... the drought has ended & visited my 1st sex shop here.. lol,0 help need money im old enough ask money actual help communities work since partially fault still school around february fundraiser key club donate money fund clubs service events selling chocolate bars each left desk kid stole bars gave away fault trusting high school kids mature enough steal fundraiser figured offered pay well gave bill promised pay rest later corona break came school hes since blocked every social media owe club community service would ask parents feel bad asking pay mistake made theyre struggling buy groceries dont want donate thats totally okay leave tips make money quick easy thatd great also trying get job almost years now nobody wants hire teenager without work experience cant get experience without job hope trust scam absolute truth thank you,0 going ask crush hope best happenmaybe updatewe see,0 "my church...gets fucked up on communion wine!"-->watsky ,0 im lonely pls watch httpswwwtwitchtvgoosethecat,0 "Marriage does not preclude times of depression, loneliness, or other emotions endemic to the human condition,"" she wrote. """"Going into marriage knowing this gives you a better chance of building a relationship that is close and meaningful."""" https://twitter.com/PsychToday/status/989071013680963585 …",1 want older id like writer film andor television im interested guys want,0 well the pc in my living room suffered a fatal partion lost all my itunes library is gone and some doc with pic,0 "@SilentJay74 indeed, you could say that #rockoutmonday",0 Lol... Yay Teo is followin me. miss u hon. {{leg squeezes}} http://myloc.me/2lsr,0 cant decide wanna shoot odi dont think bring actually shoot head ordered shit ton dxm definitely use overdose dont really know im posting im trying get someone change mind doubt guy gonna give suggestions one better way go,1 ocean soup mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm,0 "Anyway sarah prout we all wish you the best of luck, and hope you have fun in the process. Cheers ",0 working on the holy week,0 i m just so done of all this constant same thing everyday feeling like i m not even mentally conscious the whole time who even am i where did everybody i used to know go do they go through this to or am i just some sick i don t know if i can even talk to people about this derealization zoning out feeling i just don t even know anymore it s gotten to the point where i forget simple memory because i just don t feel like they happened so it doesn t matter i had an old friend of mine fuck you to hell cameron i hope you die they started to tell me that i wasn t a real person and that the people of the other land or some shit where waiting for u ever since i haven t been the same fuck you fuck you fuck you cameron you fuckingruined me you controlling manipulative narcissistic piece of living shit you shouldve died when you had the chance ypu ruined me why did any of this have to happen why did my parent divorce why i hate it why can t i just go back to when i wa ok and happy for once why did it all have to change why can t i just be pretty and amazing why can t i just live my life without feeling like this i can t even go a week ithout attempting to stab myself and just ending up with a stinging chest god this hurt just end it all i m so tired of living like this i m gon na make the choice soon at my dad i m not even sure if i want to yet i believe in god heavily but i don t even know if he can forgive me for this the way i m planning on doing it isn t gon na be pretty and i don t wan na traumatize my little brother he should have to see his sister like that not even in highschool dead i want to make the decision to just fucking do it already i have nothing to turn back to my home life is a mess after my parent divorce and i m constantly going back and force between parent it would eventually get exhausting don t you think im probably not gon na end up doing it anyways i really needed to let this out because god i m just so tired of everything,1 i ve given up,1 mom brother make want kill myselfso brother younger me yells mom something like mom yells im least favorite feel like care me ive tried kill multiple times something always stopped it need help im shy afraid talk anyone it btw dad grandmas people make want kill myself,1 woke someone saying username asking harassment thats literally mentality saying clothing wear decides get raped,0 @s_bergmann Thursday. You didn't follow me back then when I tweeted about it ,0 knowim going save problem this im letting guys know im done life im fucking lonely nobody ever since girlfriend broke able happy know im never going happy one guess good bye im gone world transcend next one goodbye everyone,1 already been on ssri s and they didn t do anything i don t desire companionship or want relationship just want to kill the desire entirely,1 @yomcat cheers man. ,0 long time resident western pa intimate knowledge topic found regfreshing authentically captured film kudos producers epic great legacy school children years comebr br the attention detail realistic depiction complicated web events make one kind productionbr br viewers find mesmerized storyline captivated storytellingbr br grahame greene magnificent presenterbr br bravo,0 i need a few more comments on the next part of trouble & then i'm gonna post the second part of you/i. comment y'all ,0 henrygooden oddchicken i went there about a month and a half ago wa still open then smelt really good but i wa getting sick,0 found yoda bot response good bot try guys,0 @Sea23r there is no "time off" when it comes to working for me .. you gotta be in it for the long haul .. its all about consistency..,0 im selling tall kinda want bf im boys dont like im selling approximately tall interested please pm,0 if it werent for him i would have been dead by now i cant imagine how horrible he would feel if i did it now im just in an eternal state of depression and cant do anything about it i both love him and hate him for it mostly love but god damn i feel trapped,1 damn realized something politics gets complex issues standpoints arise normal political compasses cut it going start dimensional political compasses,0 hi first post here so sorry if i m doing anything wrong recently i ve been suffering from very intense anxiety and panic attack nearly every night they re usually triggered around midnight and last through to around 9am normally preventing me from getting any sleep at all during the night my bedroom also seems to be one major trigger a i m able to calm myself down sometimes but a soon a i re enter my bedroom the panic flare up all over again and it s like i m in full fight or flight mode during the daytime the panic is almost nonexistent i think the most difficult part is that it generally happens during hour when nobody is around to give me comfort so strong feeling of isolation and hopelessness often accompany that brings me to my question for anyone who ha experienced nightly anxiety what ha brought you comfort during a time when you re unable to reach out to others i would love to hear about your experience and the thing that have helped bring you comfort in a time of isolation thanks,1 back to do drawing exercise THEN sleep ,0 for a long a i can remember i ve always just felt inferior i m not good at anything i m not attractive i m not rich i don t have any unique talent or ability i literally just exist to let people down i always thought that a i got older i d slowly figure it all out but it hasn t gotten better and it never will i deserve to die for being a burden to everyone in my life,1 someone pcmr told post hereive depressed lonely whole life escaped xbox ive moved onto pc gaming rig broken dont money buy parts im two young get job whole spring break ive literally done nothing spook mom times,1 going to show ROOTS some love today and do some work....maybe I'll buy Hannah a slushee. ,0 gave first award rcalgaryflames hockey team game day announcement feel special,0 On Myspace ,0 please helpi genuinely want kill tonight desperately need someone talk yeah friends dont want seeing like this dont want hurt ones love im hopeless exhausted lifeless cannot see future dont even care anymore ive sabotaged everything good life boyfriend doesnt deserve this dont know do dont strength stay alive anymore commit psych ward honestly think might kill tonight,1 "to do stuff like that, just to get attention. like seriously, grow up. you don't joke about: -suicide -race-abuse-bullying -disabilities -depression -rape-self-harm",1 would really love to go on holiday but it not gon na happen,0 know anymore im afraidim scared ill whether ill take far see path forward life friends walking life im tortured horrible memories every day feel almost emotions do im miserable cant bear it never loved universe get me time try opening someone realize im far gone beyond help thing keeps going guilt ill inflict mom brother cant see future past hurt,1 @OfficialAkaye im going to london to see Sats too Woop! ,0 bought rover truck im gonna flex hard get much yall even ready this im yungest flexer already know gang gang,0 i should be sleeping i have a stressed out week coming to me,0 islandiva i sent u a tweet yesterday but i don t know why it didn t work i guess you re sleeping right now i am working soon noon,0 polaroidskyline that sound fair horrible i wa going to repeat myself but i guess the text i just sent you would do it better whee,0 at night when i fall into to pradeep kumar song enna da inga iruntha depression ah kaanom pradeepkumarsong http t co vxbeyyiunk,1 i don t want to be cold in april but i am,0 ahhhh woman yelled people scary tone show im watching im getting emotional scary white women say excuse me excuse me im talking eyhedjehd,0 got dick stuck toilet roll basically came shower like yeah alright lets try it got hard stuck,0 mother says im worthlessmy mom never misses chance tell worthless am definitely shows opinion except course wants something herso whats point mean one person supposed love forever hates hell point living ive hanging thread entire life im give up im fucking it,1 absolutely sure bisexual two yearseven depressionbut last month feel sexually attracted something tried watch pornbecause kind worrying attractes anyone lolbut still feel anythingsoperhapsi count asexual please judge mei know sound strange sexual preferences change depression,1 idea doi kinda realized recently im going die alone social circle small ive never really comfortable apps like tinder abysmal social skills ill explain bit but ive thinking last days maybe it born life threatening medial condition left going hospital checkups around first twelve years life also meant partake lot sports social activities told whole life different everyone else diagnosed another life threatening condition fourteen effect seventeen meaning missed formative years told end eighteen clear forced adapt social norms absolutely understand then college sexually assaulted groomed someone considered close friend three years left without ever facing consequences grooming turned someone hate ever becoming although ive worked hard change better that always look back hate myself also every night nightmares groped raped either predator closest friends random people mixed sleep paralysis means cant fight wait wake up left fear people general like outside feel vulnerable found may autism highfuntioning presents even challenges fitting in know autism worst thing could happen person far it everything else makes socialising nightmare even closest family members even ive known years still cant talk them first tried kill around ten thought killing kitchen knife stood kitchen contemplating never anything second time drank third bottle whiskey planned grab meds kitchen never made ended calling ambulance im currently still college classes late im home time quit last job chest pains due anxiety everpresent fear leave college ill lost even less structure ive tried help myself saw therapist long time go gym three times week come home idea feel empty feel like ive ever alive always felt like like camera watching others lives know want live way think life change honestly know do,1 @eddyizm so they're all torn up and awesome and look all dragged around.. but not TOO dragged around dadblasted rain crampin my style ,0 DEPRESSION MY NEW OBSESSION,1 mizzzidc the way people throw the word depression and mental health at every slight provocation these day is just alarming,1 "I like the idea of college in theory. Other than the shit grades, depression, debt, and competitiveness shit's lit.",1 peace & love ,0 ruined first time sx guys take seriously dont squeeze ur dick hard wank sex first time last night couldnt cum said nervous truth couldnt climax loose compared thight usually she virgin well v wasnt loose makes less sensitive overtime roughly take advice gently,0 where deathmy brother sent text couple months passed away stated cancer pain intense internally secretly would scream where death find thing except pain cancer everything goes that emotional psychological pain attempted anything although close something day week death months later im still here mostly auto pilot however grief worst strongest emotion ive ever felt ive always depressedanxiouspassively suicidal pain intense me always see people dying news one thing another deaths make dying look easy wonder turn death,1 after month of not feeling well i dont recognize myself my skin is ghostly the texture of my face is bad along with breakout and other gross stuff my hair is gross and my body is just so mushy and gross now unhealthy food comfort me sm tho how can i maintain beauty body care with way le effort,1 i snickered for like twenty minute thinking that wa the awesomest name ever,0 think im scared idk whyi never met someone bigger loser myself left girl job friends come florida dad brother moved pipe dream said needed help pay bills always thought cant turn back family ive year friends im working two shit jobs living life bottle time go college im living parent age im always broke im awkward shy cant make conversation friends all ive never felt alone im options drive uber eats go bring reason cant know need never happy moved im happy now carry know stop pain fear wanna free cant i,1 im thinking abt telling my parent abt everything how i wa molested my ed my sh problem my depression everything,1 i don t know what i want i want logic but it s depressing i want hope but it s uncertain i want peace but alway feel at war am i the villain,1 and sprint a far away from myself a possible i want to slam my body into the ground and dissimilate into the million of spec of dirt i am on fire from the inside out i can not escape my anxiety and depression medicine doesn t help therapy doesn t help my default is wanting desperately to do the thing i want in life go to class amp be the student i know i can be continue the job i wa just hired on for but being absolutely paralyzed by fear no source recognizable just a constant mind numbing fear completely debilitating my every waking second the idea of being in class or anywhere away from complete solitude elicits physical response my muscle flex involuntarily my inner dialogue struggle to complete sentence no one understands this isn t my choice,1 fool thinking things would oki fool thinking things would ok right now divorce could go smooth truly alone this know believe anymore one cares me,1 skooool i hope for some reason it is sooo much fun and like the best hehe,0 @JustcallmeMac Morning Kerstin It's raining and arthritis is a bitch...*L*,0 educational depression,1 airport to pick up emily from china! so stoked.,0 earl grey anhedoniabitter tannin sticking tongue palate astringent mouthdrying bergamot earthy sharp flavour gone waste aroma longer dreamy rather harsh making feel nauseous subconsciously choke back gagging feel get lost nothingness put teaspoon honey glistening like amber watch dissolve sound hefty metal clacking pierces ears saccharine golden strings slowly disappearing rich hazel pool bitterness every little touch fragile porcelain numbs hearing set spoon aside drown bittersweet chaotic fantasies loathe it sometimes allow indulge truly wonderful taste earl grey light stove admire pretty flames put kettle lose sight them water boiling put teabag cup contemplate whether put hand piping hot bubbling tasteless liquid daydream pain wounds attention sound pouring water dulcet sizzling steam theyre pleasantly distracting admire rich brown colour slowly creeping tea leaves waiting exactly three minutes pass taking out second longer sweeteners milk distinct smell taste black tea particular robust flavour burning sensation numb tongue matter seconds rest cup feels like nothing tastes grey angers me come get short overwhelming moments extreme emotion end blink eye washed apathy violent urges selfdestructive behaviours hold thin porcelain handle painted pretty swirls gripping tightly suppressing desire throw wall see shatter innumerable shards getting scattered floor making shrill deafening noise collecting broken bits sounds like hassle however imagining razorsharp solid slicing arm open sound bad one vertical swipe takes instead spill tea sink leave cup aside feel nothing harmonic lack equity feels unfair yet justified painfully repetitive everything seems distant foreign whats do sometimes want poison someone someone dear put effort attention making drink best be euphoric floral flavour lethal aftertaste creating masterpiece consume adore last second last sip times want mix something quickly make existence come end bothering people sounds like waltz end injuring me two steps third one breaks legs point death feels like home confusing grey mayhem ive gotten used to bother im way home,1 im really done lifenow understand if any people reading post might wonder happened get point really wanting optout life ill real you whole lot abuse stopped whatever never got help that got extremely suicidal around ish years ago never got help that family kinda toxic sometimes whos isnt nothing extremely terrible like close family member dying anything im pretty lucky way life food roof head mostly supporting family im sure talked would help me etc etc etc im rambling now post sorta last ditch effort something im sure point kinda wanna talk someone dont know who really dont want talk family dont know point feel like im limbo calm storm makes sense dont know end post im gonna remind kind people wash hands,1 other see you space cowboygot six pack said goodbye ex someone new see things gonna get drunk eat pills blow hole head black out successful,1 "@chiknpotpie Ha ha, thank you. This is what I do when I dont have cases 2 read: fiddle around with hair color of ppl I don't know. #wtf",0 @lizponce Me too. Yeah...I was thinking my ILL one too. I love watching her as I drift off 'cause she always makes me feel good. ,0 Being a hobo on the floor with Mikey ,0 @marsarmy pick one and stick to it ,0 generation alphas nickname generations nicknames like gen y millienials baby boomers silent generation know generation alpha generation comes us gen z heres thing shorten generation z gen z means shorten generation alpha gen alpha alpha also shortened letter a gen a say gen a loud tell call gump generation,0 hmmm perhaps last post wasnt clear enough message me would like converse people,0 I can remember the last time my depression was this bad.,1 know anymorei honestly know life im grades good dropped like c average even failed class even know life anymore family care friends basically use me live time low hardly energy motivate wake up life isnt shit feel like worth anymore,1 wish could ever home alone mean sure boring dumbass brother keeps walking grab stuff we share room even hes occupying another room grandma blasting neopolitical podcasts full volume phone dumbass cant bring use earphones turn fucking volume down like bitch let fap peace while cant even homework peace without brother waltzing in rummaging thourgh messy ass shelf finding looking walking back out shits annoying fuck completely ridiculous parents bought flat brother months old decided tear fucking wall rooms became one big room could separate rooms parents spent extra money tearing wall couldnt could even comprehend world tf think would happen mom wed never argue dumbass brother hates core cant anything it tldr parents took wall hate,0 defsound aawwwww i know what u mean iv never been that girl with a sense of humor,0 "@sroxy Well pooh! What about Kyle's vote and my vote, huh?! ",0 "@powerofpink Just sent a tweet out to follow you, your a great lady ",0 ah clichs clichs clichs theyre main part wide variety horror filmsthis one lot themstill stephen king one best masters horror movie really good predictable horror movie stupid people one overcrowded retarded victims practically begging life taken pet semetary found creepy little way everything set really spooky terrifying part acting somewhat believable suspense suspenseful entertainment level set major rank eyes practically glued screenall stephen king fans must see movie anyone else expect okay thriller,0 saw minimovie first aired loved itit kinda funny see far people go moneyits also funny see much boyfriend whipped whipped enough kill think cast great especially character kristinwithout smooth talkingand deceptive looks movie would samebr br i never use watch usa one stationsbr br ,0 early release posting til get gf day briish aka danny dyer oi bruv come ya gaff fuck man ill see work dont fackin hate cause im stud maybe got rid barnett might get birds pecker yours oh better yet maybe slag tanisha might call arris up twat better,0 growth painthis story friendship brotherhood heartbreak accomplished take adversity face use good may need hear message growth painhttpsmyoutubecomwatchvlvtprqrflyc,1 wordpress is being a bitch as bitch otherwise there d be a new silence remix up,0 movie expecting martialarts extravaganza historical accuracy leave issue better informed subject thought performances wonderful gong li never disappoints resourceful initially loyal consort king qin fengyi zhang showed lot flexibility portraying ruler descending madness chose hannibal lector route rather resorting ranting me best performance zhiwen wang supersmooth marquis character came across oily subtle sir humphrey appleby yes minister kind waybr br the cinematography standout feature film scene marquis men stormed palace breathtaking also number wonderful battle scenes therefore film highly recommended big screen,0 i d rather not exist,1 i miss the glass house but thankfully pretty much every moment of it ha been uploaded onto youtube,0 @ReginaHigh why? I'm all good.. I'm broke but only cuz I put some in savings which I am NOT going to touch! ,0 honestly know dojust last hour roommates unanimously agreed go family fall back emptied bank account trying make sure roommates covered bills money support without roommate even buy food subsist of lost vehicle transport stuff get work cant find place go nearby,1 arbitrary existence arbitrary manhave ever wanted roller coaster bad jumped half way ride rational question one may ask inquiry would if wanted roller coaster normal thing wait ride finished last forever anyways question reason ive staving ever present urge kill years rationale behind basically no matter shit life is might well stick around ride stay forever end still shit get wanted anyways die same death inevitable stick around see theres anything good ___ many consider redflag theyre depressed angry heartbroken psychotic hurt im depressed im heartbroken im egoshattered disillusioned world im cliche case victim bullying im stuck dead end job im overweight bad life family great worst world no me me theres point meaningful reason live anymore might surprise coming relatively attractive going year old guy average intelligence well life grew supportive family meal stomach every night however truth remains ive lacked meaningful reason exist many years now life somewhat xenophobic apathetic introvert socially physically isolated past peers lived small rooms life rather world ive never sexual let alone intimate relationship another human never kissed girl sex etc ive never best friend good friend ever temporary acquaintances pass time cant confide connect human whatsoever whether casual deeply intimately personal level dropped junior year high school back december considered dropping life around time well never did since then ive done nothing linger nothing living mother watching youtubeplaying video games mother would homeless lastly years developed mild agoraphobia younger things bothered slightly things honestly bother today except never sex part fuck wants die virgin part much im telling things give vague idea situation ___ people say somethingyearolds you whole life ahead you regards meaningful things could given theyre still young well see many meaningful things horizon things common people live would derive significant purpose exist from moving mothers house always liberating thing towards becoming independent adult short term goal ships problems different location figure alone all wherever go are however family worst world annoying badgering verbally abusive honestly want peace quiet cant living them suppose moving reason live for something live long enough see happen losing virginity basic short term right passage really mean anything anyone yourself means something value losing growing first place so would kind pathetic reason continue existing would lose vcard eating lead suppose still though hey dying virgin would suck ass ill probably hire escort bottom heart always hated children thing clicks adults brains make kids seem cute never clicked mine way hell would ever start family anyone let alone children also id make terrible father world already half billion people fucking other need bred like cattle plus im sterile must fate finding partner living solely them like said before truly connect human beings regardless gender even could get significant other kind life would facade built lies false intimacy false empathy eyes relationship pretty small pathetic reason stay alive devoid much purpose procreation pleasure former cant physically could latter meaningless me terms jobcareerwork worth living for always interested science mathematics always wanting improve technology systems human civilization replace current systems better ones ive also always loved space truth im means genius said before im high school drop out dropped stupid reasons like stupid person would stupid either point is im one uneducated young man large meaningful positive impact civilization way could would solid reason exist writing this traveling world big goal aspiration many people traveling nature humanity since origins ive always wanted travel see whats world time costs money could ever afford im monolingual see places free computer without deal people ive come realize world simply world really matter long relatively secured safe procreate reason exist ive got first two least like many others could cling corporate career somewhere world climb ladder societies perceived definition success chasing things really value becoming another useless unneeded cog blind machine corporate america no im pretty sure id kill let come shit military ah military theres always good old military jarheads low lifes zealous patriots bigshothighschoolfootballplayers people looking feed stable life sociopaths warmongering savages sign become troublemaking pawns mercy machinations governments give fuck whether live burn suppose im feeling vindictive join seem many fuckers world take time comes but nah seems like empty existence well patriotism propaganda ranks say think ill stick blowing brains instead chancing task extremist sandmonkey shouting allahuakbar theres simple pleasurelife majority humanity lifeforms follow one lets baser biological drives towards catharsis ecstasy reason exist course eventually leads addiction whatever vice may be booze pot hard drugs gambling hookers video games etc although chasing pleasure natural structure life pleasure means end pointing organism right direction survival pleasure also empty live pleasure would hollow life that but hell cant pretend past years life naturally fell back it truthfully practically leaves eyes glazed thinking about unable find clarity mind lack reason exist one thing even consciouslymentally you like exist all top off part stupid violent egotistical arrogant short sighted warmongering cowardly fearful basicpleasuredriven species destined self destruction anyways humanity corrupt rich flourish exist mostly pleasure backs majority everyone else war religion genocide torture rape peace little get bored all war genodice etc small percentage humanity actually greatly intelligent turning wheels progress least species described freeloading small amount intelligent people world knowing this im sure id want either general category ___ so quick recap pleasure pain meaningless hate children sterile connect well people let alone intimately cant largely contribute civilization positive way fuck corporate america fuck military war fuck government fuck humanity existing disgusting thing atrocities commits im night right writing article nearly am early saturday morning im writing im existential crisis im existential crisis mother cant afford freeload anymore which means ill move soon get job brother passed away yesterday sudden heart attack brother friend ___ so im sitting chair typing end article unemployed sources income virgin uneducated way college high school drop out living mother takes care children living somehow forgot mention takes care children things hate without car without license brotherless living arbitrary life purpose reason desire live beyond instinct cant stop asking myself ___ really stay pointless roller coaster till end take quick way off either way anything happens game plan follows get laid really hot girl move mothers house continue linger life dignity eat lead my house ___ guys think id love hear opinions ive got nothing else do,1 anyones interested im making discord teens play games chat generalgames like among us,0 right now feel like im brink iti went counseling yesterday evaluated long struggle past many triggers made decide go ive crisis back may almost voluntarily admitted hospital addition recent breakup almost traumatic mei cry every single day think it three months still cry every day also start grad school monday feeling impostor syndrome feel like im unqualified position roommates also intervention theyve noticed ive acting strangely lashing out ive noticed too ive isolating avoid complications however taken social withdrawal offense intervention told problems notes above still seemed invalidate felt im sure else look forward future depressed half life now crisis counselor asked baseline was couldnt tell ive depressed long feel like placed medications would probably try overdose them im sure now,1 think im gonna make much longerim strong enough depression worse years maybe ever hard remember irl friend support system going shit grandmother died hes rock makes much worse feel like cant talk this ive never felt like needed to im bad support friend hurt much need stop,1 im failuregeneric title yeah depression fuck off life shit im facing kicked university bad attendance nonexistent im child want leave parents alone cant anymore im confused empty want sleep,1 phoned actual therapist mostly sat alone chained smoked someone talked tried nice polite simply reminded evidence showed would possible september acting could fuck up left well pretending hopefulness feel everyones well wishes return tomorrow disability paying ride taking train first time really wonderful place,1 feel reassured friends didnt use phone last night cause watching netflix next morning discover asking good since disappeared couple hours makes feel wanted noticed like lol,0 cant sleep horny gone least like yesterday dey need get rid horny tho stubborn today,0 @JamesJumpsuit ill be in bakersfield sunday!! lol for rockin roots.,0 lost someone redflagthis lot less urgent many posts definitely encourage others getting helped anyones got extra time id love help grief last morning goodbye online friend left commit redflag her life always exhausting untrustworthy place warped perspective world people really hard time opening all trusting anyone ever hated family one reason another recall unfairness household lot could also assumptions family like truly care things basically putting trust anyone worst death her words though trusted couple people bit more one them considerate person despite problems certainly nice wary cautious wanted get know figured itd take time though talk much could still around id end going without responding think proper roleplay post running fumes rp chose get back later though cant help regret spending time her never figured real name disgusted reason figured push it never figured lived call police stop it convincing talks feel guilty like try hard enough save her could do online friend much possible guilt lifted grief stopped constant crying fit day night grief still hurts lot ive never deal loss friend like this made worse open chat application look ghost account sitting contacts recent chats want delete either feel would hurt even worse even long run know deal grief comes back hits like truck im deathly afraid bad pain would feel lost someone even closer well hurts bad already sorry long drawn story there referred another reddit sought sort help manic state depression saying guys handle people suicidal coping loss redflags such sorry fully true im wasting text space need help dealing intense episodes pain regrets,1 sharing thoughts life shit people close me family getting upset sad me try connect every day recreate bond kid dismiss get annoyed angry them dont want hurt them course feel even worse reject them get upset sad me mean lot feel like disappoint me one disappoints them disappoint myself look me dont even friends dreams dreams want creator want make something would impress viewer want photographer want cinematographer want musician want writer dont want wannabe think im chasing money fame could go back old times money amp fame none it suck everything want money fame take away problems family would choose family friends want famous like them friends post malone lil peep milkavelli could go on unnecessary want like them parents proud feel good themselves unreal real friends,0 logo girl ive clue long like reason particular couldnt care less wondering,0 film actually pertinent even today given threat bioterrorism threats superbugs west nile virus sars thriller tension fairly intense richard widmark paul douglas serviceable roles domestic scenes widmark wife provide nice interlude main plot actor film left mark jack palance sharply defined features seemingly easygoing exterior always wither way reveal avaricious cruel man beneath surface chase scene packing plant impressive even today recommended ,0 Ok - updated it New dose of fun at http://utubeclips.net ,0 favourite time period music like s s beatles who kind stuff,0 and finito all bathroom contractor been thru the house quote incoming then i need to bite the bullet,0 figth today v figth hard figth byt beat one guy,0 hey girl u loose end cos youre always back mind,0 theres second goes dont question existence wanna diemy social academic life turning shit second great news im slipping means im literally gonna die soon whether intentionally not cannot take life anymore im sure im depressed sad anymore im numb like cant feel anything beyond bodys defensive mechanism whatever disconnected world wrong cant fake someone else already lost am dont know im alive till one hate enough kill me probably dont trust ensure die im scared might fail live miracle dont think life let go easy yano death me get amen im religious btw,1 anybody got good reasons kill im hella paranoid hallusinations getting worser worser,1 im already feel dead noti keep telling get better getting hard hold back now death inevitable anyway stretch pain out,1 "Playing Rock band Unplugged... Digging it. I liked Amplitude but never got it, this fits pretty close ",0 "OPEN INVITE TO MY TWEEPS: My degree show @ LSAD clare st. limerick 13th June 6pm, meet up get pissed all welcome let me know!",0 @Jordan1617 very true knowing that always makes me feel beter :],0 whenever dont play dog feel like im breaking heart like im sorry puppy need study cant play rn,0 im end rope want pain endhere finally am miserable sad overwhelmed full grief put things perspective within last six months mom got stage cancer blew money gambling addiction wound getting aggravated dui having leave long term relationship years due shitty people even shittier environment car gets vandalized one gfs fam straight fucks gift car know im upset im sick pain literally keep thinking redflag want experience shit anymore im done shitty people shitty relationships awfulness dealt with im honestly trying work courage pull trigger want shit end cant stand anymore,1 man loneliness bitch compounds everything ive lot time observe mood behavior whenever im genuine friends healthy amount time per week im much optimistic energetic mood stable spend lots time alone inevitably become cynical lethargic stress compounds im likely procrastinate work extreme loneliness cause suicidal feelings sad ever since late high school pandemic spend much time alone hard time making lasting friends right least good friend tough battle spending time completely alone nowadays,0 another suicidal nightthere nothing good me im worthless piece shit whos lazy day really want sleep right also cant wish someone appreciate tell special wish could sleep whole day without question releave mind pressure hope next time sleep wake deal everyone caring me everyday feel part soul die,1 remember human would remember human humans trash ampxb woohoo im finally edgy kid thinks theyre smart,0 im gonna kill myselfits feels like everyone hates push everyone away nothing right idk im crying time cant hang anymore im killing tonight goodbye everyone,1 day posting quotes nothing else guess always sacrifice like that calling useless meaningless stop treating like dont matter homura akemi madoka magica,0 mad know take never felt angry mad never get girlfriend shit makes want kill someone swear god fact never loved enough money tall enough want take girls cold stuck working shit jobs forced end fucking bitches never loved want loved want know love feels like way never loved come home nothing someone going feel anger going make someone pay go going suffer say suffer going put bitch much pain wish never born angry one talk to,1 cant take anymorecan someone please tell fastest painless successful way kill yourself hanging probably really hard accomplish guns illegal drowning sounds unpleasant please tell end fucking life already,1 strange feeling inner peacewho else gets weird feeling inner peace end feels like near hard explain looking around people work like last time ill see even hearing birds sing feels like ive made peace world almost feels like hapieness euphoric even like nothing matters anymore next week mater im here reality sets change mind again,1 political middle biggest breakupi think donnie mikeand fly buddy arent making month,0 @arctictrend cool!!! 1000 congrats from your favorite englishman ,0 regret killing years agoim tired hearing overused statements people know mental situation it gets better redflag permanent solution blahblahblah suck ass karen got way worse soon grasped concept death child feeling im going die young know cause death be feel stupid hopeful past hanging onto life brought suffering wanted normal ask chronic illness eating disorder suicidal thoughts people consider friends care family members abused past physically emotionally theyre like main reason behind trauma care feelings actually wish theyll suffer find death work minimum wage job obviously cant go therapy barely afford rent keep going work even hate job ill never find job like least im okay since dont passionsinterests dont anybodyanything live obviously want live myself im tired waiting something good happen im tired trying make feel better failing miserably quit,1 sorry post orderdetailed tired keep revising write post think harder get mainly putting comes mind momentive felt way around years never really motivation make post unsure doso experience anhedonia daily mostly feel numb without sad unless start thinking appearance things life hard time remembering thingslearning motivated get certain stuff done also anxious tic makes jerk neck around people minute feel somewhat apathetic comes dealing people emotional connections really still feel lonely sometimes hard talk people tried catting people reddit apps end always getting ghosted pretty much given since going go dead end roadi find hard return calls cousins want talk check mei sit room playing video games daywatch videos etc pass time go sleep leave house drop packages people buy cards ebay tried going walks picking new hobbies playing family puppyetc nothing really made feel happy make day end fastermy mom keeps asking going get girlfriend wants grandkids says occasionally feels kind insulting me tells handsomeetc fat dude average face mental issuesi want get multiple cosmetic surgerys saving cards selling job possibly get interview goes well getting done would definitly boost mental health espeically comes meeting people irli talked mom sure would ok idea someone cutting face open moving things forwardplacing thingsi trying lose weight past year gained back due recent event makes want shut even morelate night march th tried rifle shooting heart ended jerking rifle left accidentally hitting sister hand wall plan anything compuslion thoughtssince event gained around lbs pretty much weight lost year became suicidal read report court trying charge attempted murder accused hallway whatever reason blind enough see hole wall sending investigator come take look making feel little better still like shit never trouble lawetc life possibly thrown straight toilet saw therapist zoom around month talked problems longer see cancelled talk deep issues last week assuming never told thoughi think going get better without taking something keep going longeris possible get medications without seeing doctor person brought mom one time cried never talked think wants medicatedagain apologize wrote order detailed make sense want get motivation tired thanks reading depressed possible get meds without doctor wall text,1 i need some help badly i suffer too much my depression ha gone from a depression i wa able to function on i wa a everyday gym user ate well slept well grade were alright now my depression is horrific i tried the gym the other day and saw myself in the mirror and wanted to pick up a weight and smash my head in i don t eat i don t sleep i ve lost weight badly my hair is always ridiculed someone always go out of there way to speak to me or about me leave me alone i would bet money if you ask my couple of friend and my family doe he have depression they would say no way he s happy i m dying inside suicidal thought used to be a comforting thing for me whenever something bad happened i said i won t be here so it won t matter now it s getting to the point where it seems like my only solution i m such a gentle great soul why doe my brain treat me like a piece of dirt why doe my brain force me to thrive to look perfect i ve resorted to self harm i ve done it twice a month or two ago and it felt great i cut up my thigh badly i ve tried to not make that a habit tho i m just a year old kid how tf am i giving up already on life my beautiful parent and family and pet and i choose to be a disgusting loser i wish i didn t have such a amazing family so i didn t feel guilty i know this is long and i know people won t read this on a stupid reddit page but i had to vent my main reason for depression are body dysmorphia worst part and most crippling lack of social life fear of driving while everyone else doe lack of aspiration don t know what i m doing for college don t have a career choice lack of attention from opposite sex least painful one but it definitely hurt badly i ve never told a single person about depression can someone save my life,1 i hate window movie maker sony vega come back i cant download it anymore my brother banned me from downloading,0 one find girlfriend must hard must awkward whyyyy also hot chocolate today pretty good spilt,0 im tiredtired alive cant handle anymore,1 dont want live yearsi thing whenever im one nature remind im ive gone much already dont want another years endure life throws me dont want plain simple dont want eat go out talk anybody pursue career etc id rather meet fate sooner later issue accepting life real suffer derealizationdepersonalization disorder say feel like nothing around real really truly mean it feel numb everything around me feel like im one hurdles sheep living world didnt ask get put in dont know mentality anymore,1 cousin died yesterday especially hit hard since opportunity see even talk death heart attack combined corona time remember good memories little sad thinking never got say last words one last memory last time heard voice wished happy birthday two weeks ago wished day may rest peace ill always miss heart kind amazing cousin great person everyone around everyone loves family good relationship them please cherish could last moment sudden,0 "Game night w carly, sean, mike, kelly, and @CaitlinClarke",0 bruh playing among us phone dude got salty cause got discovered left,0 wanna know theres one single person buying ps ebay lol like rich person care fucking wants ps right lmao otherwise could good gaming pc,0 @Devinster My mind pwnz the computer ,0 rumblepurr lol wish they understood daylight saving ha ended though and breakfast is an hour later they keep waking the kid up too,0 time ran start lifei failure incredibly upset let get point battled alcohol s know signs steps well versed addictions yet absolutely rock bottom again single isolated destroyed whatever relationships jealousy infidelity absolute hate myself cant stop looking porn every days and nice porn is act like absolute douche tinder try play nice real profile gets results cocky f boy gets results hell desperately lonely guy do moved rural officially killed chance real life dating everyone living married kids healthy sexuality way open relationship healthy destructive cant take anymore hate alone hate myself yet nothing feels right cant stand thought alone forever im it fuck world fuck everyone let last post scattered everywhere let warning younger things life time sensitive putting issue long created insurmountable problem cant live like forever unfortunately ran time change,1 think about happy chemicals brainwhen angry chemicals brain controlling emotions embarrassed chemicals brain dictating emotionsi could go foreverwhy live feelings dictated something deal them realized slave emotions,1 bsta mat rtten kttbullar med potatismos och brunnss r svensk delikatess om man ska vara helt rlig,0 bi isnt wanting dick wanting relationship sex change mind source me bi person,0 so i live here in orlando fl and we have the world s tallest chair swing ride so imagine the swing that you would go on at a carnival but 0 ft high and going at up to 0 mph i wa so nervous but i decided i wasn t gon na let my anxiety ruin it so i went it and lo and behold it not only wa really fun but actually surprisingly relaxing and beautiful,1 since interested lake monsters really dug movie movie worth see like awful good types films check out effects really good well think land lost originally watched movie early s maybe like local channel monster show called morgus presents scare anything b felt like a years later seen dvd local circuit city bought immediately give personal spot heart right monster squad gremlins good b movie fun ages,0 Give a read to this great @InkHeist #guestpost #depression #writerslife from @todd_kiesling https://inkheist.com/2018/04/25/placing-your-hand-into-the-void-by-todd-keisling/ …@horrorbookshelf @shanedkeene#Horror pic.twitter.com/Pb9M9nVOTb,1 completing report and meeting this morning interviewing people this afternoon busy bee today blurrgghh,0 severe redflag ocd today let get best me looked phone huge breach trust hate myself hate it hate mind lot thinks would better killed self make emotional problems baggage peoples problems edge right wondering even benefits existing caused fianc much emotional diredflag relapsed opiates think ill ever able forgive myself hes clean going months,1 parents driving crazy college stuff wanna apply state go state reasons involving state wanna go best career want kind start over parents goddamn annoying like stay room time ready need us around support good idea go another state guess one biggest reasons wanna leave get fuck away you driving crazy anyone else facing shit thanks,0 need scared dyingi feel like even know normal anymore even happy years ago feel like body even remember again recently turned drinking help cope freak boyfriend break heart withdrawals two days top destruction one point drank bunch cleaner ended throwing basically right away certainly enough kill me missed work call go back tomorrow telling hospital wasnt maybe been im getting much anxiety sadness it degree work retail im even good capable that social anxiety constantly killing making hard carry conversation around anyone boyfriend whole life one constant fuck up im honestly bother im going ever fuck more deserve world deserve patient loving boyfriend wish could die everytime overdose end getting scared telling someone landed ward twice considering crashing car next since would something come back from even im still scared im waiting kinda wanted vent see anyone feels point lives,1 My friend volunteers @ New Rochelle Humane Society. They r havin a Cat Adoption Event June 13th 12pm-2 at Larchmont Floral Designs. ,0 god plans me ungrateful ass recognize it ignorant way thank god had everything still threw away girl universe kept sending signs meant meengineering interested ego allow getting along people rest history even signs universe still sleep smoke like life means nothing tried comitt redflag smoking cigarettes abdomen hurts getting muscle twitches body much lost know do cant focus studies focus people head time trying listen universe tell something,1 @rebeccashearing I love the guitar best It's definitely something different. It IS something to be proud of! It's amazing!,0 cats gtgtgt dogs dogs loud smelly lol cute like theyre literally crusty anyone thinks cats mean probably pats head hard something dumb,0 asking help ive come conclusion need help problem thats really draining mentally dont want make big post dont want upset anyone may come across unknowingly dont want hurt anyone bring problem anyone likes picking people apart listening problems please dm processing understanding emotions isnt strong point etc etc need cry need someone blunt real fix problems everyone else wish wonderful day try smile lt,0 end tex realitytoday supposed special day universe plans me anything could go wrong did waited hours outside work since told schedule changed today cant go inside wait due covid finally got work finally ready get f degree weather find ac add lot stuff throughout day bad work day driver dropped almost mile away supposed drop off finally get home already almost midnight special day become worst day life get message regarding special day either someone tip iceberg worst betrayed everyone ampxb already fallen mountain im going already got hit car im going well sleep do,1 f anyone chat bit got nothing right looking fun people chat with want to hit up not dont,0 relationships everything id u care getting gf bf ur life must suck enjoy little things fun focus,0 happen mei think im bad person enemies hurt anybody somebody high school ready go college top started club officer another member many etc ready movein dorm found go dad promised many things considered options since saw feasible awhile ago promised ended going orientation met lot great people met roommate person fell love school plan work ass cover years taken away fucking number honestly know im going life wanna nobody sit home want something life thing is parents making even worse ive deal fucking fighting ever since little honestly think make years cried eyes calling national hotline cried years helped alleviate anxiety raging headache feeling nothing gonna get better wanna anything drastic honestly know do everything could everything upsets ive worked hard live summer anxiety depression but guess life fair right,1 or so i thought,0 @sundayraviolis i can't wait to go shopping next week i miss you!!,0 @LucasCruikshank let me know how it is plz!!! ,0 "@mvanduyne are you coming to their show in orlando, fl at the social? ",0 @Nishaxoxo hahaaa lmao!! Ha I'm glad you thought they were hard too. But that's sweet lol I don't mind being fed the poisonous kiwis ,0 adorable hate cute things,0 @DInter22 i know! i can't wait! i might sleep the day away just for tomorrow to come faster!hahaha ,0 i am afraid that they are gon na abandon me or hurt me when people talk around me sometimes i feel out of place and i start to daydream and isolate myself i am afraid to love someone i am afraid that they will realize that i am worthless and abandon me so i stay alone single and i have a hard time loving myself i don t take my place i don t like going out in group often i find that the group move on without realizing that someone is left behind it make me sad i ve had different friend and i ve evolved over time there have been more enjoyable group and i am doing therapy since year yet i don t fit in anywhere i feel traumatized plugged into a different wave it make me want to run away from everything i feel like i don t have what it take inside of me that i don t know how to find myself what can i do,1 guys defeated cyber demon without cheats unrelated subject also weird favourite games owned company though,0 first comment make laugh gets wearing caring award got free one today legitimately dont know it im need something lighten mood first comment make laugh gets award go,0 please help meim totally alone,1 want deadim stuck im really good expressing emotions ive always told show negative emotions parents ive behavioral problems stemming mostly bullying throughout elementary school ive suicidal feelings since grade found easy talk people reason people kept putting harshly tried telling parents problems tell cry get upset got psychiatric help started acting severly public ive made attempts redflag younger mostly trying strangle blankets entered highschool ive learnt supress emotions leads pouring bottled emotion situation came feel way always felt fake always feel like emotions foul mimicries real emotion always feel distant people interact them painful especially bad parents make activites want social activity dad always insists coaching hes tougher kids make think hes giving special treatment immediate family loves tease tell embarrassing stories even im obviously unhappy tell themit makes uncomfortable single pick me recently feelings started getting worse longer supress im alone comes feel awful told parents ive started feeling depressed wanted see psychiatrist dad bringing along public dealing puberty things relate kids feeling sad started telling people outright ive horrible feelings making programs really help started insisting letting work eventually lied told worked talked mom said im mostly exaggerating cause reason sad brought relationship parents school life told face bad others problems reinforced another problem im having see people worse lives feel like im faking attention feel horrible parents never seemed satisfied anything do always encourage better without giving much praise difficult things ive accomplished gave trying since ill never satisfy anyones expectations parents really nice stuff sometimes got gaming setup recently pay lot stuff want feel horrible talk problems like hover me giving much privacy getting upset find things say theyve always said things like ive never loved cant tell love not parents bad experiences ive adults either elementary used punish getting bullied easier even suspended times reason sent summer camps one made calender system rate behaviour grandma recently died point funeral weekend want anything told make excuses gave bad day banned camp trip jungle gym place two teenage girls pushed one elastic spider web tower things hurt got upset told wrong telling cause theyre girls feel like im everything wrong longer live upset hurt people want end badly cant even tell people lying feel guilty dying theyre genuinely concerned wrong cant make anyone happy want kill badly never it im breaking im even sure posting okay selfish,1 everyday of my life is hell i m forced into this religious cult my parent pick my friend from the religion i m depressed feel like dying daily i have anxiety my parent don t even check up on me like parent are supposed to do i don t have many people i can talk to and let my feeling out so sometimes i come here and rant my frustration out i m turning on may th so i m gon na get a job and move out and live my life but my mom isn t helping me she tell me i m gon na be a prostitute get hooked on drug and end up homeless and y crazy which i m not and she s making me feel bad i m a good child i have straight a s shockingly i do everything she asks me too i don t know what else she want from me i have so much stress on me from her and i can t take it anymore,1 mai asher 9 lynnestactia the guy look depressed depression is real,1 know do focus on believe in spend time on noise inside head deafening feel uncertain everything question everything faith love sense conviction future wish knew do lost,1 just ordered a whole heap of Clandestine gear from store for my birthday! new clan gear in < month!! YAY ME!,0 dont understand parents cursed gift lifei never asked this never asked born especially birth defects abuse bullying school tried kill times ran home full hope got crushed again got relationship lasted years im stuck ex shows signs abuse threatens kill move out cant even get proper job got hospitalised nearly years never chance finish high school people close but wouldnt call friends insisted would get job knew wouldnt got hopes nothing older get worse gets diagnosed cptsdadhdi combo never treated tried get help therapist went turned huge asshole cares money sometimes im starting think dont even know talk people anymore ive used abandoned generally hurt almost everyone met life never chance normal ill never be im sick it im sick everything meaningless life never gets better people keep lying will never does matter much work put it days left th birthday im going make sure mark th time ill actually succeed,1 a coping mechanism i have is that i ll sort of get through the hour of the day until it is nighttime and i know i can have the sweet release of sleep soon of course this isn t every day but i usually look forward to sleep because it s the only time i am really guaranteed not to feel anxiety dread of course some day i will sorta forget about it but it seems that the like the main objective of the day is to get to the end of it funny enough i actually don t mind living like that i find it very comforting knowing i get an hour break from my anxiety every day i still have plenty of day where i am enjoying the thing through the day but even on those day when hour fly by i m like oh bonus i m closer to bed some day it s like my only hope though where i am really all over the place and it s my anchor to keep going idk i m sure it sound bad that i look forward to going to sleep everyday but i find it a pretty good coping mechanism,1 tired wanting give upi anyone talk to im posting guess im exhausted mentally physically im transgender started hrt alternative redflag couple months ago feel bit better cant help wonder im ever going happy ive longed death past years ive lost track number times tried end all know longing ever disappear thinking fact itll someday kind relieving besides feel like everyone wants us die anyway people tend actively encourage deaths even rejoice it wants live world theyre welcome anyway ive always felt like unwanted belong even child ive accepted im trans even so feel like late try fix life longer enjoy anything im longer capable anything myself life left broken im already way past expiry date ive set date birthday way grieving dates overlap im even sure ill able hold then im actually strong enough it,1 kal penn arrrggghhh and i hadn t seen last night s episode yet pity to lose you though,0 i might kill next weekthe person really knows understands me cant talk to family hates me earlier talking im going kill myself redflag note written out need it honestly might kill next week im useless monster asshole loser freak curse fucking kill myself matter anyway want family feel guilty want suffer want know pain escape cant go anywhere think ill kill monday yeah ill kill monday well may last post soyeah cya hell,1 redflag pain need controlim control freak plain simple cant control it least good idea outcome cant handle it hate surprises blah blah blah great mental turmoil past years reason killing self mentally ill day passes by risk controlling way leave earth rises cant deal that hate wondering painful whats going happen when how myself escaping mental pain plus,1 thursday im skipping school im really happy this hate school,0 "Wishing a great Mother's Day to my mom, Nana, and the other mom's I know. ",0 suffering from chronic depression https://vine.co/v/iu3l2lPBhiK ,1 gosh man whyim yr old male fit active good job house well guys royally screwed up hypochondriac self dug big rut never way least bad beginning march im mad angry disappointed myself started loosing bunch weight feeling like crap doctors dont really explanation blood ran saw neurologist ra lupus ms cause symptoms past months really worried me obviously made everything lot worse probably ended er times past months chest xrays ct scans kinds blood work done what nothing sooooo worried wrapped sort disease manifested symptoms severe stress anxiety obviously mental illness wasnt aware now suffer extreme ocd goes hand hand anxiety dont wish upon worst enemy needed vent add wasnt aware radiation exposed either freaks big time im ready give sometimes really suck big time thanks yall,1 i really hope i suceed,0 gonna watch a movie with k8. http://plurk.com/p/vggpe,0 question harm free mean liek ive seen people posting it face value looks pretty easy likejust harm lol also people harming themselve daily basis why coz suicidal thought suicidal people commit redflag harming like lite version comminiting redflag what,0 moms feminist dont really care may different political views still family support other,0 im tired tired unhappy tired feeling useless tired wandering aimlessly life feel like productive member society life feels like waste im miserable hate job i trying find new one luck ive found amazing guy course ive already gone messed up live shitty apartment im nice person know be tell defense mechanism way die one miss me knowwhine whine whine want anymore depression week near crippling feel like world would better without it im tired feeling empty,1 anyone tips depression besides usual go see therapist filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 ok fuck actually lives alaska im serious why why why,0 i luv the #musicmonday its awesome ,0 about month ago i had one of the worst day of my life and i wa ready to call it quits if it wasn t for my closest friend stopping what he wa doing to come see me i probably would ve then and there p this is an appreciation post,1 give second i need get story straight friends bathroom getting higher empire state lover waiting me across bar seats taken sunglasses askin boutta scar know gave months ago know trying forget drinks subtle things holes apologies aint hard take back time bar closes feel like falling down ill carry home tonight young ill set world fire go higher sun tonight young lets set world fire burn brighter stars,0 off to work ,0 teacher rold believe problems always helping others happyi overdue important papers school wrote school counseling struggles thoughts message shared everyone school parents later oral exam french done person online lessons teacher like you like find want get back home talk people like really sorry hear mental health problems hard believe it teachers like come from always seem happy helping others problems around school even noticed one talks foundation students like really talk talk people let talk problems get lost little world really say anything myself present sad around people try help me give fake empathy kinda role started exam,1 bedtime.....finally. Then mommy time ,0 often teenage boys think sex im wondering topic come often something really really find caring pondering day long,0 skinnylatte it a great article but quite sad we are the saddest pinnacle of evolution,0 feel emptyfirst all want say know im worst person know people would overwhelmed live way do thing is im empty sad feel terribly alone secondly im sure right place vent cant guarantee ill make sense last years ive felt alone numb struggled find light situation went years feeling numb emotion struggle depression anxiety im high alert time exhausting work monday friday barely pays bills money luxuries apartment added stress less bank week end month tips edge sometimes ill sit stare wall go bed im home work frequently urge end all kill myself mean dont feel anyone would care mother shes reason havent im weak know push live life wish could enjoy it,1 fell love married womani fell love best friend happens married woman ling says fell love too months together trying figure leave bad marriage told time horrible husband wanted live life me came clean month ago husband telling me guilted staying saying disobeyed god owes stay well continued tell believes god let leave someday found tonight husband told leave literally got suitcase put front her decide stay also gone back sleeping him emails telling things also saying continues pray everyday god bring us together know do husband threatened put restraining order me feel guilty also time hurt constant back forth i believe together need stay driving insane know believe anymore constant pain unbearable,1 band things going well us next week start tour record soon that feel incredibly fortunate band love music role playi feel agoraphobic want nothing live alone another country cycle day sleep always want asleep like dead want runaway basically please help want runaway leave everything behind asleep really enjoy solitude cannot socialise want kill,1 "@duckeyc yes, it is delicious ",0 really want someone tell me even lie im feeling validive depression long time dont feel like ever speak mind even wanted to dont know explain going fucked head whenever anything goes slightly wrong react freak fuck out everyone tired me worn trying help fault ive ruined families lives selfish prick ive talked many therapists current one great never feel like im making progress mostly dont care enough try things tells me ive left behind many people screwed alienating people used get along with sit along home everyday afraid speak mind cowardly ask help feel like one around believes im badly off theyve given trying reddit place turn dont know fuck even would cowardly scared anything it im selfish piece shit,1 uh oh losing blood finger bleeding im eighth nosebleed week wonder ill pass yall uwu lt,0 essay finished 0 word very pleased with self but dreading the return to project work,0 need help take showers every day get never feel smell clean take shower,0 bubble wrap 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Anyhow.. the search continues! ",0 @TorrenceG usually I am unless he sets a 5:30 ,0 buy dogecoin right fuck now going extremely fast cant find anything ss number parents arent home cant fucking miss,0 @Ren_Jones awwww what did u get her?,0 sleepy head chance of actually sleeping slim to fucking none,0 boys skirts everyone talking,0 sleep p n decent amount physical pain mainly left arm cant sleep side usually would im laying hella uncomfortable unable fall sweet void sleep,0 boycotting work on facebook s fashion war,0 made using story generator nasty taco bell restroom short story poopy gloop gloopy glop looked dirty poop hands felt disgust walked window reflected smelly surroundings always hated nasty taco bell restroom oldfashioned old overflowing toilets place encouraged tendency feel disgust saw something distance rather someone figure poopy plop poopy gloppy brute soul leg ginger pubes gloopy gulped glanced reflection gloopy poopy diarrhea drinker big leg skinny pubes friends saw dirty decaying demon once even helped unsteady baby recover flying accident even gloopy person helped unsteady baby recover flying accident prepared poopy store today snow flurried like running dog making gloopy mad gloopy stepped outside poopy came closer could see quirky glint eye i want hug poopy bellowed ploppy tone slammed fist gloopys chest force poopy monster i frigging hate you gloopy glop gloopy looked back even mad still fingering dirty poop poopy pooed myself replied looked sadness feelings like two crispy comfortable cat pooping stoppy toilet water drinking contest jazz music playing background two sloppy uncles peeing beat gloopy regarded poopys soul leg ginger pubes held hand lets fight whispered gently hmph pondered poopy please begged gloopy puppy dog eyes poopy looked happiness body blushing like plastic powerful per poopy came inside nice drink diarrhea end,0 im bored ask random questions want filler,0 @sturbanclothing I haven't seen my vinyl copy of it for about 10 years! ,0 debbugging old vb code the day could have started better,0 anyone ever tried oding zopiclone imovanedone life access gun sadly cant end way looking overdosing cant procure exit bag either,1 brain think breathing times day panic attack going insane breathing full night month half ago tbh im scared ill think rest life like aint happy anymore times try believe am anyways thats im feeling sad today ignore lol,0 i person says pogchamp unironically successfully gotten laid seems like key find someone also says pogchamp unironically,0 @ashduranduran Me too! Its soo cool ,0 bruh hate voice chat sometimes weird girl sometimes especially weird guys change treat,0 mother needed went bedmy brain feels like scrambled eggs thoughts strong since teenager really fucked time mom needed slept really fucked time really suicidal im scared it overwhelming crippling feeling angst days since particular situation still feel like shit nearly bad last night ive avoiding mom said something lovingly me im crying again know im disappointment still loves me deserve her,1 ever sit like doesnt youtube mobile loop feature like computers looping videos somewhat overlooked feature manually playback something like music video annoying,0 i started a new job month ago and every day since than i have had extremely bad anxiety to the point where i cry uncontrollably i have tried meditating and letting my mind know it is okay to be feeling this way and acknowledging it but the more i do this the more i cry the job itself yes it is stressful but when i am with a customer the anxiety go away the thought of just having to go into work make my anxiety go crazy and my mind immediately start to trigger the fight or flight response and tell me to quit ha anyone dealt with anything like this or have any advice a to how to overcome or at least calm down this anxious feeling of regretting having to go to work and cry nonstop about it,1 drinking blacking out crying fighting boyfriend every day past week two think would easier less painful leave drinking working feelings make way black another reason wake feeling like shit cannot afford mental hospital stay idk would let know works cannot remember past two weeks,1 people hate furries like antrhoanimals bro whats ur problem,0 going long day with psychiatrist ive trying new antidepressant weaning high dose another idk related feel horrible todayi barely slept last night im work want leave never seen alive again could scream nobody would hear me feel like alien idk everybody makes feel like one nobody likes act like one whatever doesnt matter cause wont change anything,1 hello i ve been dealing with depression for what seems an eternity i went through a pretty bad episode back in 0 9 and it lasted all the way till half of 0 i made some lifestyle change and it worked at first but then my routine turned into a chore and i stopped doing it le and le i m at a point now where i feel exhausted but i want so bad to continue being productive and i just can t i feel like i m just lazy or that i m using my mental health a an excuse but i m so tired some day i m still and my mom prohibits the use of antidepressant or any medication that help with chemical imbalance in the brain i tried therapy but i feel i could benefit more from taking medication it s a constant battle in my head one side tell me to rest the other say that i can t let myself go down bad again ive missed a lot of school because of this but because of covid most of my work is in a laptop so i m missing day but i still maintain good grade i tried talking to my counselor and she said that she agreed that i needed further mental help but because i m a minor and my mom there s not much we can do i need help i don t know what to do anymore,1 dont know one nights yearn music nothing good enough feeling emotional trying embrace wanting bury emotions time im tired dont want sleep cant anything dont know dont really like living cycle everyone goodbye,0 hi hru im longing kind human interaction rn tell ur day,0 thing way fact thing donecan someone please shoot me cut throat strangle death doesnt matter how make happen ill anything,1 "My parents were not very attentive. My mom has anger issues and depression. She was abused as a teenager. She lost her job when I was 15 and barely came out the room. My dad was just...idk he got less present as I got older, especially after they divorced.",1 im weak worldi finished last day junior year feel lost diagnosed depression overcome eating disorder sometimes use problems make excuses hate it ive tried kill twice hospitalized once reason attempted frequently greatest goal life become vet dream school cornell seems laughable grades gone badly know math final might seem like end world some seeing grade broke me junior year important year school wasted wallowing self pity know get rejected never forgive myself im frustrated want achieve goals badly time feel like motivation everything seems meaningless feel mediocre inadequate compared amazing kids grade used think fairly smart act capable everything crumbling around know do spend time ignoring friends care sleeping locked away room exercised month feel disgusting might attempt soon im scared fail parents find bloody messy ill spend whole summer hospital think could go second time sorry post place need get thoughts out,1 tw selfharm mention suicide throwaway account friends family know main account would rather see this also warning english first language drunk right now trying correct typos much possiblei battling depression redflag years alone almost time parents pretended car forced go therapy instead lettint make choices things pace year ago met best friend call troy love much like brother feel like broken friends feel like ruin mood crying venting cannot help think would better without me never born wish dead failure know anymore much coward wish could kill myselfim good beating cannot help me broken fiens alone forever ruin everythingim sorry know goal post guess hoping someone there feel alone indint know know anymore,1 want anymorei trying take legal action people video taping bathroom recording people talking lot static wanted mom pay someone clear up back acted like able even though know price wanted pay it minor still wrong wanting financially support this people still running around struggling types mental health issues it feel supported wish could move cant feel trapped someone care me seems like way death,1 first time im actually calm redflagi raped recently changed life worst see way out feel like one loves enjoys around deserved rape stupid piece shit want go home want pursue future anymore im calm dying want ever now hope cant happy one would care died,1 give upkind looking guidance know answer get dont it anyone situation would know thats laughable response life full ups downs mostly downs years get along family now part do so thats much issue big issue feel total drain waste society every person come more casual contact with leave bad situation my one relationship ended badly ass hurtful him i go friends like water make horrible first second third impressions actually wind making someone friend usually wind pissing within weeks i go jobs quite quickly get hired quickly fired usually six month trial period able get along coworkers constantly fight pretty good job offending them cant professional way i get date life depended it lbs type personality allows people see beyond asshole lies top anything belownot sure i grew total lack friends got picked elementary jr high high even college jr high spent time upside garbage can i pretty short temper like seeing people get away things like cutting traffic dumping work others cheating systems yes meds welbutrin bruspirone pristique pop xanax need sleep cant bc running mind seen shinks answer always get dont say stupid things people stop think thats shittiest form advice ever thats like telling someone hiv stop lower white blood cell count things cant control trust me tried meetings place large red x paper still speak irrelevant stupid things anything topic hand brought edge yesterday informed one last chance current job be best behavior better start looking new job im done im tired cant keep hurting others spend time money fail drain society know short ending things i want hurt people actually care my mom dad few folks actually found care much ass am help,1 might kill tonight pills ready overdose hang myselfi much stress life got done cutting wrist top bottom sides else cut arms moving legs one talk tonight going insane every day life lay bed waiting die enjoyment tired living life sucks cant anymore pills right next me ready die death longer seems scary me find thought death relaxing feel selfish hurt anymore thing think peace feel die longer belong universe never have like cancer cell human race time die cant stand living anymore,1 still more day until my internet get uncapped,0 @_robin_sharma http://twitpic.com/3ovto - This is before or after selling your Ferrari? ,0 survivorsthink life like pain suffered lead us are many us years yet continue overcome it say end lesser not victims society needs sympathy empathy suicidal time lets acknowledge success far know others here ive met people would kill going ive through knowing real pain like like everyone hoping end also know one area accomplish something,1 Ooo just joined Kara's club Awesome Karadioguardi.com xx,0 someone please friend need friends ive one friend since th grade im th grade now want change life im hoping change friends like anime video games art mainly pop culture stuff general one thing minecraft good fortnite bad dm want friend ,0 ya fuck itits gonna end anyway theres fucking point trying anymore composure ability im panic fail fuck point anymore result gonna anyway,1 i now love livin` this life with an inspiration. ,0 sex actual girl gravedigger like manage dig grave wtf,0 tag yourself quotes group chat high schoolers whenever friend mine texts something funny copy notes app heres years worth context quotes entertainment tag when writing reprott mla format space pragraph space onceler car onceler car theres much pasta room ziti time my name ppeepee poopoo man ur watching disney channel oo oo suggestion kill loose foot loose put fuckin foot loose feet foot feet dance fucking feet this capitalism cool cool cool i cant believe would kill farmer backbone economy inine i choked bai antioxidant cocowater feels like skullfucked coconut do u fantasize badonka donk whats menu ass skfnnynsnf forgot say alexa get alexa listen standing front alexa dark angrily whispering hey solid forty seconds god witness work cracker barrel you put ur dick diet worms diet worms charlie got pussy asmranch friendly reminder youve listened kpop bc youve listened gangnam style dont accept constructive criticism and like im martin luther king chill i want get oreo mcflurry eat die yall cant cryptic shii know ur mom gay morse code das end rope i slapped namjoons ass sounded like screenshot the raw sexual power emanating image keep caroline warm do yall play ur wii circumcised uncircumcised i come damn spotify immediately assaulted megamind ass he fears bro bro intimacy im gonna get masters psychology find girlfriend fight god target warzone market district safe space namjoon see foot bed sleep paralysis did fuck mom mr mime dudusu im sans duduusuus im sans undertake i slapped ass uh pure titanium whos hottest member big time rush hey everyone wanted let know our teacher looks like keebler elf i used smart man like ffucking smart dude like nd grade hit education different cant even read pros driving alone play first forty five seconds less know better solid hour cons driving alone regret fear loneliness danger road long hard treacherous ur honda alone why talking nipples pinterest ladies gays the shooter came our principal took one varsity football trophies smashed ground screamed scatter met stork today effervescent paul ddijubluhlachberrais if wanna clap ass song imma clap ass the way interact order feel safe telling think look like lizard in opinion imagine much magical life would saliva hydrated lips instead completely decimating girls cannibalistic tendencies some guy buzzfeed tried green bean first time said spicy laughed hard cried james blunt voice hr bthfl carolien b like mans whore i see exo da stanky legg this getting weird fuck entire conversation found made ate hot dog feel like next step going throwing hot dog am good fucking night everyone you get stds get tested motto documentary because much respect coleslaw much respect stanky leg richard printed process paper wrong turned around said fuck richard even thinking heart sank this spiderverse spidersona stupid thick peter bit radioactive thot killed venom clapping asscheeks hard soundwave dematerialized hi im wiggles fox believe earth disk hannah baker shares ass skinwalker i want throw pavement las vegas strip hard permeate quantum space it claps ass kissin u miranda cosgrove losing job tickle elmo true spirit christmas a room called clown room mirror nothing else door closes swiss miss instant piss my bro baby congrats bro dope baby pregnancy get hit car bc refuse walk crosswalk thats painted rainbow libs the beat loose slimey love it man pure heart dumb ass,0 pros cons dating me pros cons youll date,0 probably wont rickroll listen least first minute httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvpucqkrlosaampab_channelsamuelkimtopichttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvpucqkrlosaampab_channelsamuelkimtopic underrated hell gives life,0 put shredded cheese mac cheese therefore chef gordan ramsey senpai could never,0 picture friday half term get home half day school homework parents away least weekend take shower find pizza leftovers fridge check gc see boys online take seat put headset youve used since bo power psxbox point remember xp weekend nothing time put icing cake starts raining neighbours dog finally shut up pull nighter grinding warzone r fifa k name it make best memories teenage years couldnt think better situation in scroll overdue assignments,0 Celebrating a minor banking triumph (that's banking with a b). Got one to admit it was wrong ,0 job interview tonight thats all wish luck bois,0 i m 9 and haven t done anything with my life i ve disappointed everyone in my life the woman i thought i wa gon na marry left me and won t even talk to me anymore i started therapy and medication again a few month ago but it only doe so much i don t really have any friend i work only a few day a week and can barely handle that i don t find pleasure out of anything anymore i don t have anyone to turn to and everyone who ever loved me ha either left me or died all i do is sit home alone and try to distract myself the best i can but i honestly see no light at the end of the tunnel i know it s pathetic but i swear i m trying the best i can but i don t know how much longer i can,1 @StarDiiva lol and u kno it ,0 adriii omgosh they re like biscuit so so so yum xd you haven t lived until you ve eaten them missy p amp i miss you too x,0 contendo shit that s horrible poor kid,0 learned isnt normal eat leaves strawberry oops,0 Reminiscing... this used to be my street corner... read this poem on the wall every day http://bit.ly/fHuA7,0 i woke up feeling fine earlier wa tired drank a lot of coffee and no water get home drink a few sip of water and take a nap woke up with dryish throat this dude wa coughing at work tho not coworker and i wa gon na ask him to cover his damn mouth could he have gotten me sick unless i need more water,1 messhave knife throat right now dont want leave mess someone else clean up thats flat rude,1 boreddm maybe title says im feeling kinda bored wanna talk dm me talk whatever number game game like whatever save boredom pls,0 well shit decided tell boy crush since yr like girl one friends friends thought meant boy primary school class name spelling hates me explained him christian hates me fuck nothing christians dont worry family christian accept me,0 "@notoriousAMC91 Tea is good, I enjoy tea ",0 Ooh pub quiz tonight Completely forgot what with the excitement of Paris,0 is gettin a ticket for Dour!! ,0 nothing dull movie held together fully realized characters depth them even hooded torturers body language jannings performance brilliant will want need henry viii must been henny porten is maybe nobler purer anne boleyn plays part written victim caught jaws big huge babybr br sparkuhls cinematography gorgeous restoration tints sensuous lubitsch lets characters breathe reveal corruption tiniest meannesses takes time try patience audience accustomed carried away action time worth spending slow heartbeat watch minor miracle german silent film,0 @LittleMsCoconut ,0 I heart #dmb and fuse tv! ,0 getsmart u watching loser i wan na cry for sean,0 @chelseamcfly heyy hows you?,0 even life gets better could never forgive world ive seen truth evil place beive crossed point return cant possibly believe world good place even life becomes good,1 im stuck helpi trying enjoy went see movie watching trailers saw june may mind kept saying youre going live long wont live see far depression suicidality hitting hardcore idea why spells whirlwinds wont stop want fucking stop im scared dont know mind dragging place brain wants kill me,1 awkward shy quiet ive got best advice you always known nice shy kid self conscious afraid people thought said me close friends knew real me one day decided change whole mindset stop worrying people going say think you ones impressing you cause already baddie room blessing itself even though time didnt think this would keep repeating baddie baddie baddie became second nature always remember humble kind one likes pickmeboygirl confident kind person best type person treat people would like treated,0 wathching greys anatomy and playin guitar hero3!!!! ,0 pissed right saw vid tiktok two girls went miss men went war never came back like know fucking offensive is k likes aswell dads army going war one biggest fears live ireland theres small chance happening hes close death before plain sexism girls think place say really makes sad,0 ohthe pain chest gets worse worse spreads limbs im paralyzed void anxiety never stops even sleep nightmares every single second never stops,1 . I'm gonna take my depression nap for three more days. I worked too hard for this. I hate it. Bye....Also plz don't pm me I never reply pic.twitter.com/0435xCwpc2,1 someone please explain what fuck free awards,0 anyone else hyped see adult swim april fools tonight really want smiling friends need show exist,0 movie apparently intended young evangelical christian audience teaching tool give point vote decent movie show youth group think well received beyond that audience id rate lots lowerbr br the reviewers saw its wonderful life right on though think mentioned it reminded chick tract little gospel comic books jack chick ever made movie one tracts would probably look lot like second glance strong christian message power prayer influence us earth somewhat hampered christian stereotypes christians nice somewhat passive squeaky clean nonchristians seem bad peoplebr br muriel angel plays major part corniest cheesiest character film unlikeable angel ever seen movie biggest negative know directors intended personality come badly struck way i admit reminded someone know dans love worldly girl type drives plot movie ever fell first place one question wish answeredbr br but movie display notredflag christian values youth group entertained view something wholesome good lesson,0 free award award to edit award given stop flooding notifications,0 jyesmith that s a lot of angst for a tuesday afternoon,0 @anelajade Thanks for putting on your Follow Friday! ,0 i just need to get everything in order i guess i have some morphine and a noose in my bag idk just wanted to tell someone i wish they got me help when i wa young and begged for it i don t think i feel guilty or selfish about it it s just how it is spent year knowing this is probably how i d end up idk edit someone to talk to would be great if you re interested dm me,1 sad lonelyi really know came like this really happy kid real dreams goals like everything fallen apart know sometimes wish escape world disappointed people love ie parents good academic career look like fucking jabba hutt extra weight skin tone dark cant even talk people ignored them recently tried talking guy crush dming insta took real huge guts say thank something did moment saw face face ignored me like disgusted me experiences like make wonder fucking ugly one wants talk me insecurities huge impact self esteem confidence sometimes feel like killing disappearing world cant let parents go me cant break like that want die cant,1 yo anyone else still go pediatrician cause idk switch doctor feel weird going,0 kingkiwi i want to be somewhere with no rain it not very nice here today,0 got link survey sexual intercourse frequency quarantine lmao u guys r sex id lucky even see gf february ,0 feel awful inside out depressed since child absolutely fucking exhausting single mom stuck every time think way end it think fucking guilt overwhelming nothing outside looking in appear okay business daughter mostly happy ill post positive things social media actually fucking dying inside business essentially bankrupted me fucking money always trying figure going take care daughter put gas borrowed car drive mine work anymore going eat tired living like this thing keeping falling apart person getting along huge argument yesterday know things never same absolutely heart broken feel like failure slept today thankfully daughter too took park used gift card get food toy made sure great day drew pictures colored together great day bed crying grandmother want end fucking badly so so sad cannot stop crying everything hurts face swollen fucking internet crying stupid fucking life feel fucking pathetic cannot okay brain like this like this try fucking hard get nowhere wish something would happen accidentally want disappoint daughter live consequences actions end it absolutely cannot live like longer fuck even do fucking sad possible live like this body stopped,1 ate vegetables kid try heckheckheckheckheckheckheckheckheckheckheckheckheckheck,0 someone in romania didn t like mystic myre http www smartestgames com gotd php,0 days whoop de fucking doo httpsimgurcomasynkkc still hate life,0 told closest person suicidal ive feeling want go even morehe said id selfish causing lot pain people care despite this ive lot longer want stick around lot gone right life including relationship him mattered me also chest post anyone read relates descendence depression told truthfully love care him im thankful everything done including wish helped make come true saying loved want anything happen me changed mood sudden even hold hand talk really im spending night im scared leave hell never talk makes even sad hopeless want kill much sooner personal deadline jan th sorry lack format whatever care much right now,1 i m not happy i woke up at 0am this morning and didn t get to sleep again till am,0 could talk someone right someone herehello people tell gets better get dumped feel way still months later feel like killing cope sadness carry around wish ex would reach me hard,1 i m gon na go through with it this time just got ta graduate and at least get this stupid degree first,1 wasis incredible movie incredible cast music singing story etc tragedy arrogant families the gerswhins premingers keep available generation generation wanted see life found site read available shame families pettiness wife germany never seen movie neither stepchildren grandchildren sad movie depth quality available see families get making conceited selfimportant egotistical condescending decision prohibit generations enjoying film stars performances music release video let world judge enjoy,0 good morning hope everyone is feeling better than me this cold ha really got hold now,0 im drawing star wars scene guess complete,0 tell ive fan star trek tng since kidbr br well sometime ago gave friend mine ds episodes asked himbr br hey man watching lately im done watching tng episodes said well got episodes farscape said ok let try it pretty sure time wont like finised watching tng found greatbr br i episodes viewed show impressed much found childish initially thought another tv show nice adventures regular music little bit different neat special effects though vague impression actors fully get characters skinbr br i watched another episodes thinking eps enough decide like since show started get me got good grasp action wanted see happened next poor crichtonthe rest history br br i think mostly like freedom characters context action unlike star trek everybody slept supposed way much high tech bullshit br br the show got better episode interesting story linewhat say movie like poetry br br i highly recommend it,0 i m so sick of life and the suffering and bullshit i have to go through just to get a small and short lived taste of fake happiness i want to kill myself but i m afraid that the light at the end of the tunnel is right there but it never is i just can t bring myself to do it and i hate myself for it i m stuck on the edge of just barley getting by and trying to convince myself to give up i feel pathetic even typing this anyone else going through what i am would ve found help by now and become a normal person not vented to a website since they feel like they can t tell anyone else i just want it to be over i don t know how i blew the opportunity of a life i wa given so many people do so much more with so much le but i wasn t given the tool to deal with this i m too emotionally and mentally weak i don t know what else the problem could be and i m not brave enough to choose the only solution and end it i hope this didn t bring anyone else down i know everyone out there ha it in them to be happy i m not sure about myself though i can t provide myself that same kind of confidence,1 demon slayer op sick change mind also feel free share favourites,0 "@melroseee If people won't even buy knives and vacuums door to door, it can only mean one thing: This recession is now a depression",1 unable feel love cant get job snap still care end it lolso fun fact im chronically lonely yet whenever anyone expresses interest clamp push away get intimate cant sleep someone unless genuinely care or even love exists im sick it someone emotionally stunted also longing deep connection pandemic cut college going times short graduation happening lost job getting cant get one cause industry shrunk im stuck home mom abused kid keep lashing friendsfamily still care me kill get done even worth living go bed alone every night genuinely enjoy life like get ppl meant bad days goddamnit get one fucking good day year thats want one,1 i always issue and now they are catching up with me my blood pressure is dangerously high most day i m dizzy and disoriented worst of all i m tired the last one wa here for a long time but it got to the point where i no longer have the energy to do anything no matter how hard i try to push it i wa passively suicidal for a long time i didn t have the courage to actually kill myself but i wouldn t look both way when i crossed the street i drank and smoked did stuff that i knew wa dangerous and now it seems it worked and now i m scared i don t care about myself but i have man who love me i have a month old little brother and i m terrified what how they would feel if i died but my condition is getting worse and i can t bring myself to do anything about it,1 hey friend i come asking question about workplace anxiety i m 9 and work retail i realize that this is a job with low stake and that whatever fear i have about making mistake are rather silly given the nature of the job however i ve worked myself up because i worked an event this evening and in my eye it wa just a series of unfortunate event first i show up early but still later than my coworker who i wa working with for the event he wa talking to our bos second i wa underdressed he looked so sharp granted i am 9 and he is almost a full decade older than me with the life experience to really comprehend dress code it wa rather unspecified and unclear so i m trying not to beat myself up too much about it i ran home super quickly and grabbed some nicer shoe and a jacket but it still wasn t great third my bos gave u her number to text or to call if we needed any help i texted her first and then she asked if i would call her because she wa on the road make sense but i feel i made a mistake texting her in the first place fourth fifth sixth and so on i worry that throughout the entire evening i wad screwing up and ended up losing the store a ton of money i m so upset about everything that happened and being liked by my bos that i wa cry and now i can t sleep please oh please i beg of y all how do i get over this it s making my day really difficult and i don t want this to follow me into the future when if i have a job much more demanding and serious if i mess up it s eating me up and i can t take it thanks,1 would girl make sexual jokes someone interested in girl text frequently joke sexual stuff part daily conversation says things like you like me wanna sleep me love me vice versa sometimes get flirty fun like fuck around day repeatedly saying know crush whatnot per usual go somewhere offline hours came back picked left off know middle huge freakout nothing me family business started pushing youre me thing agreed everything something never does confused point asked serious blew up started taking anger me fuming completely going off since knew nothing extremely confused thought anger caused said kept asking asked times said shut up im sexually attracted you kept raging freakout point im sure meant said spur moment thing would girl make frequent conversations guy interest in,0 rooms messi moved back parents house years couldnt afford live anymore every time look dirty room thought pops head clean itll easier family myself,1 hatelovedont care israel zionists serious discussion please write meaningful civilised comments israel love country serve military dont want killdeport palestinians also know many people around world wish dead right or comments gal gadots recent comments choke fall stairs die why done wrong please dont use actions one man justify hate same,0 again want die want feel sadi cant fix choices hate life,1 nikicheong just reminded me that krispykreme http www krispykreme com my ha landed in msia and ha an ugly website,0 serious question guys i male okay happens past pm ever get done thing falling asleep hardest ever before one feels like im done like ill finish im legit fighting stay awake minutes later im fine,0 Depression and drug addiction is not a good blend,1 in loveeee lt and it hurt,0 im really tired looking mirror lmfao like allowed know didnt,0 @RAVisionMedia @yourrightscamp @amnesty @Kaepernick7 Floride? Medications? Domestication? Depression? Read The Four Agreements. We a collectively sleep walking. But we are also waking up. Keep being the warriors for waking up.,1 "@vh1sCornfed Not yet. It's on my Netflix list. I can't wait to see it, though! ",0 maked new post entitle kids posted girl ho pushed tried steal phone plz goo see goid long story,0 tried kill something stopped pulling triggeri dont know something talked away looking life perspective loose valued much,1 home..playing some texas hold'em ,0 my mom called me disgusting for my dirty room even though she know i m depressed am i disgusting i try to clean but it just go back to dirty i m disgusting and lazy,1 guys think mom homophobic im bisexual idk tell think bisexual watching rslash video said something bisexuality said thats talking bisexuality dont like that dont know tell dont know think tell,0 @JustCodyCullen haha hello there how are you?,0 Man its crazy... this connected world we're creating... take a step back and FREAK OUT ,0 anybody 0 year old and up in south florida that want to talk,1 posting everyday get first kiss day hate mondays fact hate everything,0 i ve been feeling really depressed lately and find myself with no one to talk i have these cry spell whenever i m alone and convinced that i m worthless and not worth anyone s time it s getting harder to pick myself up from the floor bed and be productive or practice self care my friend live far away and emotionally at arm length my family understands that i m depressed but not how much it debilitates me with no one to talk to i feel trapped i m hoping finding online support can help me understand how to go on so i m kinda new to this how doe this thread help you,1 sure survive selfquarantinei dreading stuck home im already depressed barely hanging thread boyfriend live together im alone considering leaving around makes feel immense guilt work home im used lot running errands going gym hanging friends weekends helped find reasons keep going stuck house think might bring end already done living think time go,1 ich danke herr hacke fr den filme mein deutsch ist nicht gut enschuldigen siebr br first all know diverse sound istanbul inspite live turkeyfaith akin alexander hacke made different approach turkish musicnarrating performing seeing istanbul istanbul music foreigner aspect given real meaning music itselfbr br in movie found different ourturkish culture is interesting performers are much respect deserve unfortunately one able serve kind documentary before,0 im back day ban,0 way months ampxbfeeling fatigued getting literally nothing done every single day exaggeration feeling like flaming pile trash,1 new medsive wellbutrin year well exception slight downswing marchapril put paxil weekend recent anxiety cant stop thinking near redflag attempt years ago going jump bridge even though cant access bridge right im wondering find another im going call doc tomorrow dont want kill right now suggestions meantime im frustrated feel like im never going beat stable find good balance,1 "Is letting go of his Sigma 50mm f2.8 macro lens for canon mount, 10.5k only getting one with a longer reach.",0 @heeybrittany he SOO fucking sexxyyy (he's not doing bettter without you us ,0 im donethe light life burned longer desire continue existing ive tried never successful hope months pass body gives become successful always wish last sleep every night,1 friends stuck rock hard place life right dealing depression thoughts redflag guys help outim posting friend mine said would comfortable him also privacy ill calling kyle isnt name etc call make things easier kyles stuck tough situation right know get out family scared him doesnt anyone except online friends rely talk thoughts think hes going depression hes talking redflag bit recently asked make summary thoughts gave you i constant thoughts hurting people hate people hate society everything motivated money one bothers help anyone more someone getting beat someone else people bother help humans animals everything wrong world thoughts hurting people go away get worse think things ive already beat animals hit family members going get worse im destined end prison motovation anything anymore even school theyve already threatened call police traunt feel like im waste burden others wanna kill done everything kyle says doesnt want go therapist fear theyll turn cops thinks biggest issue right killing himself im desperate help kyle get situation correct himself guys help ive also given account posted need information ask hell reply edit account using reply uuservrc one stupid passwords,1 im terrible personi things im aware hurt people make hate me way am way raised make terrible person worst part even understand why things annoying piece shit im intreresting way get people notice humor ironic humor gets old becomes annoying that im anxious prick want live life anymore cant see mirror without feeling disgust would selfish kill myself ill everyone favor deal bullshit anymore reason killed parents friends probably cant stand anymore anyway id like change completely,1 lost friendnote posted tifu subreddit found would appropriate post here im im sure begin im scared know do now friend one person a redflag hotline worker knew situation now know friend girl ive known two years knew internet know why never able make friends one would talk me one wanted talk me friend never really understood importance relevance human interaction met her much fun talking her enjoying others company never realised much fun talk someone never realised big world really was confess perhaps harboured unhealthy attachment her time year met alone finished college course stopped going work family went vacation like months always thought certain tolerance social isolation wrong leave home except buy food internet front me never approached people it real life one girl always reached me always initiated conversations confused first little annoyed isolation getting worse anyone talked me led believe one cared me one would care ceased exist started experiencing doubt wanted kill myself know trivial thing kill ones self over thats thinking make difference anyones lives whats point living whats point living cant useful girl always talked me slow process slow realise doubts became positivity happened happy sometimes would talk week excited giddy always looked forward messaging program would light corner make sound asinine thing happy about really content let know im complete recluse im waiter even basic level social intelligence felt indebted her incredible feeling know this tell happy it certainly know suicidal time debt weight all felt like purpose happy try repay it perhaps useful her admit fantasised partners scared would one benefiting relationship plus always relationship difficult find right time offer thought but honestly say still content friends fast forward year later gotten relationship someone strongly attached to never expected last knew person months half year best really happy enough make happy too felt horrible happened fell state depression always felt awful end relationships time hurt bad lasted longer facebook posts ominous chat program use often changed profile pictures crying people would change username something equally depressing worthless prominent one stuck really felt like needed something wanted me talk tried talking every day tried always initiate conversation maybe bombarding her gathered talking me suicidal say directly made afraid trying distract nasty stuff trying replace negativity positivity told once told take one step time told thought strong told felt saved her told talking alone but mention suicidal thoughts time moment got better last long near christmas getting worse felt friends facebook dancing around issue licking wounds dealing directly problem decided become villain thought confronted bit short term pain lay facts shell suffer moment realise world much bigger thought time time things getting heated said know felt partner told though hated say it said inexperienced relationships started online main setting all partner time someone often met real life though told insensitive replied knew was something mention depression often asked could talk again indirectly promise anything stupid feared still suicidal asked could talk again asked apologise refused saying did would mean words meant nothing apologised hurt left heated huff logged off never got response question got scared wondered really made right decision desperation started contacting friends try get contact her none responded me one point this even messaged mother depression nothing could do doubts coming back wondered killed her froze place could nothing hope going cool off friends go contact her following that thought best course action back leave alone while thought would contact ready sign chat program case want see me still facebook friends know anything christmas sent gift steam know thought it know played long time ended backing month time fears realised made post facebook talking killing herself frightened wondered really helped made things worse going respond friends quick respond believed terrible state doubt chose reply friends much better job doubts becoming heavier one point depression cleared up admit become facebook stalker point thats knew getting along everything going well her made new friends claimed found people appreciated company know meant thought would actively try seek point still logging chat program doubts taken again thought would come help like tried help her wondering worried me realise thoughts become poisoned nasty two months since stopped talking grew desperate thought care me questioned whether really existed ended creating new account facebook began adding lot friends noticed friends always flew side made scary post thought maybe could friend too could fixed using different alias know expecting made feel worse made facebook friends two weeks felt emptier point seemed figure was know how did blocked well real accounts scared annoyed angry know me felt like somehow recognised bad qualities semblance redeeming factor blocking me messaged saying knew me chose ignore it doubt growing worse felt like complete reversal situation in took positivity confidence took negativity doubts difference was friends people could share worries with felt awful compounded fact home robbed recently felt guilty parents upset turn alarm leaving work wanted die couldnt paid debt debt parents ended calling samaritans redflag hotline said perhaps misunderstood something try talking her time person knew situation took long time muster courage talk her know cared last talked her went offline answering question took mean want talk me lack responses past three months indicated that scared going bother cause trouble her thats wanted do talked things went relatively well though apologised needed to probably apparently never contacted outside chat program main medium communication felt bitter trouble sending message facebook found alias remember talked much time though appeared friends again talk much month felt like didnt felt like still nuisance wanted badly talk her knew doubts would disgust her while doubts built much let one burst her coming fourth final month talked bit seemed well felt like things going back way were doubts left last long remembered suicidal posts would accrue much support ominous usernames profile pictures ended changing mine well hoped someone necessarily her would come check me didnt else did know im idiot know thoughts nasty disgusting know heart black know im irrational another round doubt head confronted again without realising it making feel guilty situation doubts selfdeprecating behaviour felt horrible suggested block me while felt discussion going nowhere took offer blocked me leaving final piece fair goodbye all complete slamming door face heart spirit shattered happened yesterday scared backup accounts facebook contacted with got freaked creeped me told aware told least cut contact terms agree upon really necessary responded blocking accounts still one mode communication one users cant blocked certain website messaged it told thought needed cool time gather thoughts told interest friends stalkerish tendencies backed off intended try again spent entirety today working letter sorts felt rational entire thing sent her responded im sorry ive already made mind im interested friends anymore never able trust again already told want move blocked you blocking means want talk drag thing anymore want harass anymore everything blocked constitutes harassment tolerate it fact made shake fear please move already theres nothing gain this beating dead horse leave worse impression itll start make regret friends first place please stop actually becomes true responded this read message kind feels like im given fair trial know im awkward this im confused especially say disappeared know ive deluded thinking case still feel like biased this really think end then im sorry im sorry ive done really enjoyed time im sorry betraying trust could start again would course stupid things lead this incredible strength believe happy least one favour ever take granted thats ask for good life heh ever change mind know find me thank least reading thoughts one last time last message her two hours ago read message decision respect decision avoid me thank you hope find other better people goodbye fucked up fucked up fucked up fucked up fucked up know do im horrible idiot fucked up do fucked up talk with fucked up friends fucked up want kill myself fucked up really want end really want hurt her fucked up doubts fucked up edit thought might interested seeing letter worked sent today well were talking stalkers one shirai kuroko much invasive blatant me intention going horror genre soon recomposed yourself i too best focus task hand im going let slam door face like this im backed corner course im going fight doubts damned want live sudden shift attitude mine takes precedence doubt know stayed away longer response lack thereof following message serve good indication last time disappeared said have let fire back you want disappear either am idea im doing guess would good start apology apologise continuous display terrible sides know apologise things again expect forgiven ive known two years even time meant little you meant lot me theres reason feel strong towards you know suggested blocking me going bumpy believe satisfied ending either seem unlikely well ever friends again mean things ended way did know proper goodbye right goodbyes necessarily mean complete drop contact parties no something else people stop talking goodbye going say goodbye ill say hello rather good evening but want talk im hurting you please tell me case least want say proper farewell fair get say piece leave disappear think sudden really solutions mind one solution want one could face properly again think discussion going nowhere think irrational believe possibilities exploredyesterday kept asking tried leave think looking back now afraid id break know selfish makes sound like im considering feel may continue selfish id like hear rest say again im make sure want regret anything guess cant say sure you want regret anything either right right now think main issue im hurt you say waswell im probably hurting you too know sure really that casethen though may reluctant and exactly satisfied understand contact another solution try get irrational feeling hurt really think thats impossible know work but like you im given enough time replaced something positive thats theory test out need assistance know im position asking something like you perhaps hear rest say hate come this want come victim anything kind feels terrible friends seen like someone used friends with honestly intention guilt you wanted help there said it wanted help getting feeling want told it want told im capable want get clap back told go run laps around block one else knows situation though technically speaking one person knows thats relevant wanted attract attention failed it know else turn problems guess thought again thought made scary posts before thought maybe showed reflection im thinking name image could get attention without actually asking help im aware clumsy awkward way ask it didnt you naive part thought someone else steam would try approach me frustration built get any want help want advice im asking much try find elsewhere want continue talking you wish thrown away say before want it want it let hear answer even things turned sour mean stop talking one another even were friends want continue talking things you anime games life sorts stupid nonsense know you detest rushed endings dropping contact something painful doubt itself something happens thirdrate television dramas really think doubtful real me think depressed self real you honestly say meant things said time again hate sounds like im trying justify myself needed form perspective took considerable amount time get everything much granted privilege waited got everything too though admit ended changing result think unfair irrational behaviour punished clear im saying want punished saying deserve be maybe want understand you wanted understand me think get little better now too trying avoid nasty stuff trying avoid commotion avoiding drama maybe thats avoided doubting makes sense mentioned believe friendships destined end wonder really believe that mean regards current friendships hate bring up too im understanding must felt before say scared left thought thought found disgusting right now im feeling exact thing overcome this win want believe that want believe can know asking lot you see that say realised importance human interaction one point forgot it now become obvious i too frustrated behaviour make mistake crying begging intention either things simply wish see satisfactory conclusion discussion underestimate power debate need be ill deal doubt somehow myself never hear again would think thats favourable compromise want lose again allow it try again aforementioned conditionsif really end theres nothing stop it least make sure real im talking to depressed angry scared you means happy respect decision last letter sorts took months compose hope serves indicate serious this course id much like hear thoughts side story this tldr sabotaged myself everything entirely doing im revolting life ive made one real friend fucked up im weak im pathetic im useful anyone exist im villain im irrational,1 every american president rapest pedo like bruh yall need new candidates,0 Boys and girls - tomorrow we're starting a promo where we will be giving away 3-point game plays on #pepsirockband http://bit.ly/pepsiRB ,0 parents found redflag notei couldnt depressed found pills redflag note backpack gonna get school busnot go homeand overdose woods found got chance too made talk didnt wanna talk wouldnt let talk people could actually help mebecause know couldnt im gonna find pills,1 want stop scaredi want die want die bad want end all want hang myself overdose something maybe gas asphyxiation want quickly with want fall unconscious wake up fucking amazing brain ive endowed likes fun make thought committing act terrifying im scared death im scared dying im scared dead im scared making dead terror instinctual deeprooted illogical want die bad im done get closer every day started making plan moved every day getting bit closer closer executing plan plan ever attempting failing this hopefully inevitably work willpower do want work places go found done methods mind plans action put consideration ive done lot planning lot thought need willpower need fear go away maybe chug ample liquor around ive always good kid never drank done drugs im sure ill able get good buzzed pretty quickly sounds easy sounds fun finally fucking done expending effort takes exist,1 like knew would happiness last long it like love temporary conditionali really think many years ahead me year one know another be itch coming back,1 wont believe but american british asian may believe latin america exists,0 "@PennyRed I was once a guy who could not attract a woman.I was in my mid-20s, dealing with depression and out of control anxiety. I am ashamed to say that I felt anger towards women. Never did I even think of doing anything violent, but anger was present. Looking back...1/",1 innocent friend made dark joke today talking rasputin dance tiktok yknow shirtless boys said crush would literally die said wouldnt youve already tried didnt succeed youre immortal imma leave,0 yo im going bed ill try respond guys wake goodnight,0 firefox e lanati hey crash hey crash,0 want cool im,0 congrats r anxiety we ve all made it to wednesday this is a weekly thread that serf a a place for u to shine some light on what is going well in our life it is easy for mental health subreddits to focus primarily on the negative after all we re not here because everything is going wonderfully but once in a while you get shown the light in the strangest of place if you look at it right so whether you made it out of bed today spoke up in a meeting or class rode the bus or just stepped outside please share with u what went well for you in the past week any accomplishment victory positive thought or action no matter how big or small is welcome here,1 pierre jolivet plays quixote character unable speak living world incompatible modern life trusts homemade weaponry helmet sleeves spear made hubcaps seat cushions discarded office furniture quixote rode rocicante the man rides contraption literally transcending lost lives caught harsh demeaning modern world soaring earth away plight modern man characters ride search adventure effort right wrongs world characters guardian knights values unfamiliar characters storybr br unlike cervantess tale movie identify directly anachronistic ideals main character compare alien forbidding landscape lush beautiful world live in frame reference fantasy realm lone knight perhaps remembers vision would one expects main character triumph vanquish change world for better back world plenty longer existsbr br we look movie see true knight among world humansasanimals quixote considered true knight among animalsbr br with cervantess tale see dreamer without really understanding scope anachronistic displacement bessons jolivets tale see new world eyes quixote value visions ideals crusading main character,0 just did km on the tready and want to die i m not built for running,0 the poor spartan,0 I am drinking a lot... trying to forget a very busy week.... ,0 "Hello to all my twitter followers, hope u guys r having a good day. Been gone, but I'm back now. What's really happening!! ",0 since frame number know good guy suit necktie doomed luck sorte nula believes music car radio dubious talk best friend company associate taking parts unknown desert road alberto wished simply left alone take flight abroad next day well someone were left guessing br br the film goes long way find short closing scene man hearing music cab airport between number lucky people found different ways story dying born others falling harrowing distress time hes really doomed he film sort oneman show director fernando fragata left sound recording special effects other competent people typically reject portuguese films due sound problems unclear speech recording must go searching topics criticize time car crash this spoilers film clever that makes great scene apparently done cheap equipment us studios take notice may spare dollar two hiding competent portuguese directors br br the rest done fragata script dialogue camera work editing part dialogue adlibbed must congratulated acting direction casting mostly inexperienced actors large number nonspeaking parts credited people used music video clip making of used extensively films promotional trailer cast dozen actors actresses ten relevant persons huge number relationships revealed stepbystep thrilling suspenseful way reminiscent best genre authors alfred hitchcock qv claude chabrol qv come mind catandmouse play director public nature charactersbr br i recommend thriller comedy portuguese language speakers and film gets decent translation colloquial dialogue anyone abroad enjoys genres,0 nicely done along new voyages great continuation fab see james cawley latest episode vigil check out br br i like growing characterisation think good replacements tv actors fanproduced piece show manages capture feel quite well state ste improved years experience hope experience strong script editor pickup timing cgi hf becoming remarkable already truly isbr br good work concernedbr br i huge soft spot lefler mcfarland great acting although im bit tired leflers laws enough already shelbys great if little uptight cool got ship commodore ians nice like fred flintstone lacks gritty edge commanding officer seem pleased himself doc counselor rawlins right money eyes wonderful nechayev what beautiful accent real russian well im guessing rene hails czech repbr br it gets vote cgi kewl greenscreens obvious small budget whaddayagonndobr br really glad found itbr br ok acting great fanmade therefore allowed variable sorry cmm colebr br the gay material layed thick graham nortond embarrassed trek pay much attention hetero couples signpost gays snogging necessary showpiece someones sexuality extent hope tone let aster zen people tokens treat gay friends differently theyre regular guysbr br musically mixed bag tell stock trek ost stuff works time timing fall flat the end worst fears part misses crunch edit love fact use galaxy quest musicbr br i certainly cant wait more dazzabr br never give up never surenderbr br viva les frontieres,0 consequences love really something special film hard put finger on love story sorts really one ive seen before several love themes running throughout film one mans love younger woman younger mans love older brother mafias love money costs intertwine story guessing rather knowing end cast superb sophia teasing barmaid straight facedness titta films central character simple yet affective camera work bounced everchanging soundtrack mixes lowfi trip hop lush orchestral pieces style film changes beautifully using several styles without ever getting cluttered love never looked diverse powerful tales told rumble towards various conclusions director married old new rich italian classic,0 m gonna go robin williams myselfi cant see reason live anymore ame wont let pilot faa pretty much grounded me really dont see reason live easy buy gun country yet want soar among clouds saying fuck gravity im looked upon wanted freedom guess gain ultimate freedom death though freedom existing,1 Once again stayed up to late and have to start too early It is a good thing I like my job,0 please break fathers heart so daughter would fit here live shes living now ill always think teenager text pretty often usually text things like songs memes think shell like texted song youtube recommended me really enjoyed thought shed enjoy texted back oh ive heard song love it tiktok let parents find use tiktok like this dad sends song thinks kids listening to tell tiktok know knowing half battle go joe,0 i ve been sad for a couple of year now this is because of my height i am already 9 year old m but i am stuck at i feel like i am not a man because of this hence why i am extremely sad and developed body dysmorphia is this reason of mine just or am i overreacting,1 itspink what boyzone are reforming i m never aware of anything,0 put knife kids throat day felt good filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 @pcdnicole Hey Nic! Have fun in Indonesia! Bet you'll have an unforgettable time. Traffic is kinda nuts there. See you in 4 days! ,0 change uf although birthday almost days ago,0 oh god crush know exist,0 "I'm tired of my depression taking over me so easily, will it ever stop???",1 is it normal of me or like i just see cutting myself a like not a problem i mean it s my body and like i m not hurting anyone it is also making me feel so much better when i m breaking down when i cut myself i feel so much better it really like feel like it s the only solution to when i m feeling like shit and i just don t see a problem with doing it now it s just normalized to me,1 guys need encouragement ok heres deal yesterday first day new school sort of chose remote since new school follow covid guidelines even though cases area spiking one wears mask properly old school two honor roll classes offered math science eligible science took it new school honors english math science social studies offered eligible four three since math weak point average want overwhelm much right bat heres problem everything different first off online school works before old school used google classroom google meet etc way everything one place super user friendly new school were using schoology zoom much clunkier harder navigate especially schoology old school taking bio new school were physical science old school history talking alcohol ban new school were talking american revolution etc lot catching up do mean teach bunch material weekend thanksgiving break parents type get perfect grades murder me heres thing get super pissed long takes work like count school homework im working around hours day see fault want get perfect grades yet bothered long takes work dad especially get pissed get mad walking room im class anyways im pretty confident ill able learn material thanksgiving break starts wednesday got back december st were going getting minimal any homework ill ton time work want encouragement guess,0 nuclear reactor went pond went fission,0 willie day can t sleep it and i have to be at work at 0 don t know what the problem is,0 "All I want is for my kids to be loved!! I don't blame them for my lack of sleep, my irritation, my depression, none of it. I may get frustrated but my children are the only reason I keep going",1 finally timeive conciously suicidal around years now though chances suicidal words great ive song dance while ive gotten help changed life grew up fell love got job whole nine yards everything anyone ever given solution feeling tried helped time others end still feel way help everything wilted either friendships faded love moved california pursue job studies longer excite me job miserable day one therapist stopped talking months ago ive lost losing everything given hope future cant find go looking again wise man told sort person people keep like particularly smooth rock brightly colored leaf im sort people lose interest pretty much soon lose balked then proven true time time again hold anyones interest im even holding mine ive fallen back old signs worsening depression appetite energy want talk anyone anything everything ive said past months feels like mistake want text long distance boyfriend want exist want fade obscurity soft smoke want presence cease be so ive decided start prepping clean apartment distance friends family save pay last month rent front roommate struggle maybe ill take train ontario see canada first time go quietly hotel room something soft something final give everyone wants chance good bye chance without letting catch on want make scene want fade away want hurt them me im waiting finally time go,1 accept fact literally funny secy struggle cant,0 "Imagine God whispering in your ear letting you know everything that is happening is gone. Every sin, every mistake, every failure, depression.. Gone, all gone !",1 college pay online platforms professor uses assign hw economics class online hw platform making pay ur hw thats pure evil,0 watching movies.. ,0 food country get global attention deserves filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 i really needa find more stastics ,0 theekween depression and anxiety thelmasherbs,1 it turned into a fear of leaving the house or even driving a mile away from fear of having a panic attack it just getting terrible and it just so much to take like month ago i wa living in a big city walking mile to and from work by myself on a busy street no problem now im terrified of even driving a couple mile to a gas station without fear of a terrifying panic attack,1 im suicidal feel die one daytheres redflags parents families baby aunt killed forced abortion grandmother years later mums uncle killed struggled depression mum tried kill found dad cheating her admitted hospital months dad killed girlfriend left him thought better without him midteens youngest brother tried kill struggling everything know redflag left behind still feel like haunting me actually told school therapist maybe kill myself never actually told anyone time anyone would listened me anything hurt right now might sound silly reason living right dog ive seen life like without caring away college him right happiness,1 too first saw band dismissed straight away without even listening music one day sheer curiosity bought cd fell love it bought video hold onto lunch kids isnt going pretty video excellent great opportunity hear music see promo videos meet bandalthough still dont know cope wearing masks time must fans band fans alternative music general,0 one flatout drollest movies alltime sim rutherford best matching wits predicament allboys allgirls school sharing quarters slapstick never sophisticated,0 walt disney old men put spin classic fairy tale cinderella guess could say helps form unofficial fairy tale princess trilogy classic disney yearsbr br the plot cinderella nice girl cant catch break daughter nice wealthy widower loved dearly mother passed away cinderella young cindys father felt needed mother figure eventually married woman would become known lady tremaine widow two daughters age cinderella anastasia drizella first seemed get along cinderellas father died lady tremaines true nature revealed cold cruel callous heartless mean spirited woman passed traits daughters spoiled bratty equally mean spirited anastasia drizella hate cinderella know deep better looking overall nicer attractive lady ie appealing men mother lady tremaine hates cindy pretty much reasons years passed lady tremaine began squander family fortunes stubborn futile quest improverefine awkward unattractive daughters to call homely would insult homely people everywhere three relegated cinderella multitasking servant house abusing her mistreating humiliating every chance get they particularly fond increasing already absurd workload brings us cinderella present blossomed good looking young lady somehow manages remain kind hearted nice despite abusive step family holds hope one day tables turn favor br br cinderella gets shot freedom happiness royal ball held introduce local prince eligible young maiden take wife settle down start family etc naturally step family tries keep attending even going far physically assault rip dress procured with little help mice friends dress belonged biological mother finally pushed beyond breaking point cinderella runs courtyard cries despair point fairy godmother short plump jolly woman arrives provides cinderella transportation transformed dress after all cinderella make good impression ball entered scene looking like gotten gang raped cindy arrives ball prince falls hard her pesky midnight rule gets way forcing flee leaving behind glass slipper make long story short long harrowing quest find mystery girl via trying glass slipper cinderella found prince get married giving happy ending deservesbr br overall enjoyable disney classic without flaws glaring prince little macguffin help push plot along little screen time even less dialogue never get know well get good look relationship cinderella which unfortunate since according making documentary prince originally meant play bigger role additional scenes help flesh cinderella might helpful there song showed fantasizing turning army maids clean house well eavesdropping stepfamily post ball show amusement jealousy cut walt thought made look spiteful still cinderella likable enough heroine even upstaged mice friends theres sweetness film becoming harder find days course made now cinderella would probably put struggle family dress ripping scene would probably free climax either picking lock making impractical yet exciting jump window beside pointbr br and say cinderella sets bad example young girls well consider least cinderella go around getting publicly drunk indecently exposed unlike modern day princesses you know mean,0 listening pd ost feeling like heist filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 got nudes person might might know snapchat do ok chick dont know added snap sent something opened nudes dont even know person thought might know school couldnt find yearbook im sure wrong person actually knows me cuz idea is looks age im tf respond this,0 @bostonmerlin I think perhaps the floor would smoke where I walked were I to show up at a microsoft event. Sorry ,0 "myra gave me dis cute pink bracelet for my burfday. thnks, gal. apreciate it. a lot ",0 anyone know find people talk abt depression lie problems with ive joined learn discord servers abt one talks me want someone heal me hotlines dont help tried yesterday maybe someone relate maybe ugh im forcing ppl whatever man tired depression,0 damnnn i missed,0 ever considered fact god real hates youim suicidal oh life sad woe me death blah blah blah way least thought thought would good place ask higher power created entire purpose fuck you mean idea someone created something means love clearly wrong know plenty parents hate kids ever tried cooking something didnt turn right do throw fuck away give shit about toss it got more matter even that force sadistic nature life sick joke humanity chemical reaction creates consciousness soul crushing purpose leaving are course thoughts although would explain suffering world well death religion seems able that im religious though really care idea god hates likely god loves you all cant pleasure without suffering suffering without pleasure exist fact god could either side think it going create something later kill it thats pretty much torture itself like leaving prisoner alive torture instead killing relieving pain pontificating though likeliness god real,1 im trying kill dehydrationwell decided drink anything anymore drank last time yesterday evening now afternoon plus im weak drank afternoon glass ml cola thats all strange cola regret felt mistake im piece shit drank started feeling food again i felt lot food past yea know probably kill ill faint hospital save actually good method noone would think tried kill anytime one time kidneysother organs give therell time noone call emergency sooner later itll kill me pretty neat already started slowly loosing sense reality i cant focus im dizzy etc thats exactly want im ,1 surrenderi dont want pain anymore im writing letters im done cant keep this,1 game one main reasons actually got ps remember playing soul edge sometimes called soul blade back day hooked itbr br i play original soul calibur never got chance play huge amount time however buy gamecube version soul calibur ii truly got hooked series ecstatic heard soul calibur iii game still gives us classic characters mitsurugi cervantes nightmare taki however also adds several new characters zasalamel tira unplayable night terror the true boss tales souls strategy based chronicles thes sword mode new feature really like quite challenging later chronicles good addition seriesbr br the soul arena mode several missions must fight certain enemy certain circumstances the exception final battle simply must defeat night terror another fine touch makes game funbr br in scenes tales made press certain buttons order get different result order dodgeblock attack get better ending every character two endings all excellent game id recommend fan fighting games,0 "well done, the depression knows brass with helper",1 movie gave recurring nightmares alan rickmans voice representing omnipotent insidious fascist ruler scariest movie ever seen psychological terror powerful anything horror movie ever achieved alan rickmans voice always represent power terror totalitarian state reminiscent orwells movie describes care reality large part current world governments film disturbing way everyone watch description reality one ever experience many do,0 didnt ask born suffering muchive depressed whole life nothing suffering didnt ask born im forced go school get career survive didnt ask born,1 idk trust apparently girl asks kiss better rush kiss theres chance atleast case using tiktok actually want kiss happened friend felt inform fellow teenagers,0 okay like ask,0 vene ia not yet unfortunately another few week i ve been told how are you i ve been a little bit busy with my latest project,0 lets go math teacher finally sick,0 Looks like we will have a few of our songs featured in an independent film. Cool huh? We'll keep you in the loop ,0 ive interested music awhile made song first time ive done this song everyone record edit entirely phone please give feed back maybe like subscribe httpsyoutubehqgavruv,0 anxiety pushing edgei sick life cannot enjoy single minute without brain reminding fucking loser everything failure made big post rdepression sum up hate myself nothing going me almost live shitty basement relationship since driving license never travelled never year felt good defeat defeat it gets better yet failing school potential jobs friends family nightmares every night upcoming exams failed hard last year told horrible field every single day fear upcoming stuff feared first weeks fo years months going lot courses etc went fine felt anxiety something else exams days first exam brain already decided fail it big exam end month yup probably fail too dont want live fear wont ever get drivers license fear capable right never get girlfriend know waaay better men there terms do nice look cannot swim think gets dark hours ill jump drown panic hopefully never found sorry everyone hurt good life life meant everyone,1 @MentalStrawbery yeah i didn't change it i was just touching up the roots. my hair is dyed black right now. i look like betty boop ,0 Murray thinks I'm adorkable. ,0 hell sounds better heaven heaven pray shit hell demon girls hellhounds and sinners go big sexy time orgy sex also afraid heights heaven would torture,0 two hands highly enjoyable aussie crime caper ultimately succeeds way film easily combines tense dramatic moments funny characters situations give film right balance feel comedy film occurs naturally laughs set elaborately worked at really funny thanks fact character movie excellently cast actoractress recognises relate aussie humor portray well realistically course theyre helped immensely fantastic script writerdirector gregor jordan reading another review film american seen it heavily criticised it basically passing pulp fiction clone think thats rubbish film trying pulp fiction feel style excellent films totally opposite without wanting sound superior arrogant think fully understand film humor sincerity characters etcyou australian least understand culture guy obviously faintest clue about americans whose reviews certain nonamerican films seem ignorant and trouble comprehending anything american product real shame really great film love story featured main character girl also portrayed real sincere sweet way im proud film collection ,0 wants awards lot alts best gay prn wins must animated filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 @garyhills Bon voyage - and cheers ,0 life falling apart know anymorei keep trying find appealing method end always end going back im still pretty scared going like waking every day burden support friends parents absolute garbage care themselves therapist im meds severe anxiety depression never help even raising dosage multiple times got accepted dream college go anxiety deal living own everything fails im good anything cant find way out idea next,1 life really worth livingin world power conscious greed limit leads endless killing suffering really point life all may good bad realistically speaking know good enough outweigh bad im going insane unable cope day day wished could muster last minute insane courage die already,1 m depression redflag issues years old put paxil years quiti feel good time still panick attacks occasion hard time getting necessary motivation complete tasks i started new projects completed none them get new passions every months quit fast camebecause arythmia problems quit coffee years ago i heavy drinkerevery allow cup coffeeright drinking it feel soooooo good mind clear motivated everything calling friends hang out starting new programming projects completing existing ones playing sports reading book cleaning ac unit etc suddenly day wonderful want buzz endi feel like people state mind day longtherapy bring state feel like biologicali depressed per se would feel much better could state timeis like drug effect think could reach state mind long period time either taking prescription drugs mean would like feel like time,1 day single honestly bad still miss wish couldve done better im crying actually productive yayy,0 @Jon_Tran Pink Lemonade for the win. ,0 eventually happen year old pretty decent bulge seen pants get adult go away make go away,0 day posting lines bee movie every day get so theres bee car something im driving hi bee hes back here,0 stupid bus wa early i missed it stupid thing then i missed the bus after that finally got a bus then missed my second gutz,0 tell friends suicidalmy best friends everything despite coming school friends school survived redflag attempts resulted bullying sexual assault went untouched im glad friends month since lost job im dealing depression ever since gone point hopeless matter do always end loser great moments tell jokes other friend laughed something causing suicidal thoughts crossed line loser sums life fuck alive friends you world mean fuck nobody cares live regret staying alive died years ago way seems ashes put sewage nobody cares me even family family done could get today im glad that barely helped social life ever since started school maybe talk more make rd time lucky it,1 i am home missing my baby busy week ahead fri is a chill day with my guy and kid egg hunt sat spiral and dmb sat night and easter,0 @caitlinpasko awesome have you played there before?,0 typical st world country problems friends family would say good stable life would agree makes feel extra guilty struggle wanting exist everything would every want done everything wanted do know possessions experiences give life meaning lasting joy feel investing time notredflag family altruism gives joy maybe lazy selfish bword care enough that feel like emotionally messed up want care want want heart feel nothing want wanting nothing life,1 i can t sleep i m stressing out jpc lt,0 cut bangs look good,0 whats least painful way dieat point life meaning lost years life due abusive family life wouldve chosen myself want end little pain possible options heard hanging relatively painless im open considering options,1 physics exam got cancelled hell yeah dont need study anymore ,0 mods suck tried host ask anything cyber security ethical hacking get teens started ethical hacking clearing basic doubts get started obviously got removed mods asked mail formal request asked wait days days reply,0 january beginning dark ages according reddit lmaooooooo relatable ngl reddit already thinks beginning dark ages tbh,0 okay single really meant find find soulmates high school itself dont rush dont force yourself perfectly alright sometime workoutstudyimprovisehave fun bros sisshave hobbies maybe anything else love importantly smile,0 Deepika talks about her days of depression at the TIME 110 GALA #indiaforums,1 "@youquit awesome, ^5! i got my macbook last year for my graduation ",0 @lambonfire GOD IS WATCHING! ,0 would feel anime pr show based song called tight rope would girls golden hearts whose goal break hearts boys got heart broken golden hearted girls goal break everything but exaggerated alot like destroying whole buildings dont know protagonist lmk feel want to give ideas protagonist would,0 More than 1 in 20 US children and teens have anxiety or depression #News http://dlvr.it/QQjv8C ,1 know much longer thisi really dont every day gets worse worse force things like work school otherwise ill get trouble never get break days off constant work never stops want stop want calmness hate pressure thats me forced quarantine enough money move forced stay home mother horrible victim complex always takes anger frustrations since im one home everything goes wrong life fault oh tried kill past could mother could ruin life like that oh enough money buy thing cost much feed house im cant afford housing yet even can know guilt im ruining everything good life follow around want live like theres escapei really cant stay longer cant handle it want bash head wall want bash head wall till bleed outi cant fucking anymore,1 penis pocket impeccable product known penis pocket real name frk acquired one those how works penis pocket guessed it pocket penis penis pocket pocket drapes glorious shlong hold number different items like phones coinshttpswwwredditcomrfiftyfiftycommentsbwfkpd_flowerbed_sfw_man_pulls_coins_out_of_hisutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf wallet gum wrapper forgot weeks ago time inside penis penis pocket highly reliable since cannot lose epic dong like would lose things normal boring pants pockets penis pocket holds shit you buy penis pocket today,0 If you're gunna dismiss the biological aspects of depression then cite mercury being in retrograde in the next sentence I don't wanna hear it,1 sort hidden gem little promotion fanfare classic status deserves above one great directors cinema fritz lang created real gem excellent western fine cast led randolph scott in probably one greatest performances always sturdy dean jagger robert young surprisingly accomplished dude plus many veteran character actors chill wills slim summerville john carradine barton maclane others exciting zane grey story laying western union cable across country tense drama sprinklings humor great effects reminiscent demille ways yet fritz lang leaves stamp it least damned good western,0 movie basically spoof hitchcocks strangers train thought overrated anyway plot danny devito going see strangers thinking billy crystal wants swap murders crystal murder mother devito murder wife devito crystal great devitos mother devitos directorial debut better war roses,0 I love the rain. It lets me feel euphoria and freedom ,0 feels like impressionistic film thingbr br the story well told poetic characters well developed well acted interpreters or interpreted actors br br the film delights sumptuous emotions times works well unless hate emotion movies casebr br its humanistic filmbr br the landscape even extraordinary situation displaced cook poetic rightbr br well donebr br a good classic good film collection,0 where did u move to i thought u were already in sd hmmm random u found me glad to hear yer doing well,0 "Thanks to they guys at Helly Hansen in Bozeman, MT I got the rubber player in canary!!!!!! Happy late bday to me ",0 great film reading reviews see im one shed tear tamilyn tomita acted skill conviction made ending heartfelt memorable hands lesser actress last scene would seemed trite corny one would never guess film done tight limited budget cinematography gorgeous number big name actors script wonderful see wanted it watch long long list credits end see half hawaii pitched make film happen good reason soundtrack available cd absolutely beautiful sets mood throughout film complaint almost want film end,0 up with my sick little girl who just came in my room and vomitted on my bed,0 better dead red always say filler filler filler filler filler iller filler filler filler filler filler filler fire filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 third post on this subreddit from this account most day are anxiety inducing i spend the majority of my life in my bed no job struggling to complete my coursework or even just to take a shower a of the last year these day that i have struggled with since i wa ten have become many and far in between i wake up dreading the fear that the day will bring the argument the pain and the inevitability of my own suicide i know one day the suffering will be too much to bear and without doubt i will hurt many people i have felt for month that day is getting closer than ever a few day when the argument subside and i feel a little more hopeful about where my life is going i am filled with a passion and love for everything about life that i hate i want to strive to get a job get my license succeed in college again reach out to people and take care of myself in way that i can t bear to do usually i still have hope i crave to escape the hole that i am in but it feel inescapable whenever i try to turn my life into something more positive i am met with another detrimental setback that put me at square one all over again it make me fear being happy because i know those period will only last a few day at most i feel so desperate to not feel miserable i really don t want to die but i am sick of this cycle i see other people so content in loving relationship with family and i crave it so badly i feel helpless to my own circumstance and i am unsure of how to get better,1 posting every day get girlfriend day things seem bit grey nothing really sparking real amount joy happen somethings always gotta happen ruin it,0 Got attacked by a cockroach. Thing flew for my neck! Was an interesting experience. Forgot they could fly. Won't anytime soon now ,0 documentary one best documentaries ive seen also one moving quietly beautiful movies ive seen period follows lives two sudanese young men peter santino try make way american culture peter santino friends first gradually drift apart peter goes kansas city santino stays houston a land called houston santinos beauty eyes takes people onto back supports apartment full sudanese paying rent everything people quiet sufferer peter looks himself getting high school education playing basketball making christian friends seems director megan mylan know getting beauty tale peter santino amazing characters move you real strength movie lies commentary american society judging shows strengths weaknesses world difficult outside people suggest find film look america lives two fascinating beautiful peoplebr br my grade ,0 lost grandpa grandpa would year passed away tuesday stroke years back getting better underweight nursing home blue things took turn worst miss,0 its my best friends birthdayyy!!!!! ,0 used get feeling read post comment award way many give like candy feeling anymore annoying,0 thats bitch suckin dick bag chips giving head slice bread jaw white claw dome chicharrn top ice pop,0 fear end nearbeen struggling much work amp anxiety complicated find it flip flop whether im ok im job think days get ok amp maybe bad suicidal ideations lot frequently lately think solace life atm cannabis girl amp unexpectedly tonight found likely end soon also work dads management gonna awkward anywayz know selfish feel like compared peoples pain thinking perfect place jump off,1 lets talk female simps am visiting mexico laying couch bed morning thinking talking female simps get main discussion id like point word female simps already exsist thot word made reason simp made classify something meme better use person know exactly talking about goobers dont know rniceguys simps r nicegirls thots probably gonna say using thot offensive really worse calling slut anything us guys would find offensive well well ript streets it u u anyways back original thought yall know see nice cute innocent girl post picture cars such pretty predictable see swarm comments guys simps right well matter what posts ivr seen boys postin pictures dog fish caught theres single thot comment anywhere really weird baffling dont call make memes them now may thots online sure hell exsist school lives seems see lot thots roaming around hallways instead seeing roam around topless pictures dudes here this honestly think one main causes possibly school life thots people back cause sissy drama spread rumors internet dont think anywhere anyone go to like make rumor either second mean post posted here everyone would look it call person fat dumb liar downvote thing hell unless poster like alt accounts twitter dot com hope yall enjoyed weird random thought woke with hope dont get swarmed simpsthots telling much scum earth already know am hope good day everyone,0 oh entire family ruthlessly murdered right front me give wholesome award,0 probably kill near future without ever bring subject psychologistwhy simply minor government at least state requires psychologist break confidentiality minor risk abuse self harm thinking aboutharming others since able turn anyone confidence likely die without ever attempting seek help despite available funny governments attempt help contributing factor never able use service could potentially saved me,1 worst film ever made actors apalling script director completely inept br br it best film ever made actors excellent script director completely brilliantbr br it falls somewhere middle fun somewhere enjoyable well constructed somewherebr br no need say dont take seriously so bad good it scary none comments relevant br br cut atmosphere atmosphere actually unique one really original aspect movie personally makes film me,0 feel like im losing myselfi never thought depressed angry suicidal person difficult understand ive gotten point really enjoyed life way end high school played sports got good grades enjoyed drawing writing thought pretty good both high school came end enjoyed time swimming playing water polo good enough earn scholarship partial scholarships got based grades combined money id saved nowhere near enough pay schools wanted go to rely parents told several times would pay college christian college years ago bother thought nothing it got closer graduating high school felt like limits placed future bit disappointed colleges choose from wanted remain state many great options me tried make excuses want go without betraying fact longer believe god truth wanted every kid way college wants do wanted meet new exciting people choose college learn things care about share drinking partying side christian liberal arts college seemed offer opposite wanted im second year im ready give up small school almost everyone ive encountered conservative uptight clear early difficult choice front me could betray personal beliefs values pretending religious conservative therefore fit could hold believe shunned first day sign form saying acknowledged homosexual activity wrong would participate any guess couldve said nothing fact everyone else simply signed complaints upset me got argument basically entire room long time afterward section mates avoided occasionally attacking views questioning sexuality participate sections social events time ive kind retreated feel like reasonable intelligent conversation anyone know attend mandatory church services several times week must take mandatory religious studies classes feels like church school feel like ive betrayed essays tests go gods love feel like need make grade even think crap somehow feel though im running bullshit barely scrape enough adoring words together essay anymore ive become scared feel like im someone else now changed way talk even moderate swearing seems offend people sense humor appreciated approved disappeared im taking classes writing art strict parameters place causing lose passion them hardly talk hardly go anywhere hardly anything walk path everyday class dorm listen lectures things cant care believe in amount work feels overwhelming interest it others im guy sing chapel guy want lead class prayer beginning people seem keep distance feel like people around interesting reasonable seem like people want friends with time feel even knew interesting openminded funny people im worth friends with feel like everything made melted away placed odds environment strong feelings strong relationships anymore love almost one nothing feel deeply loved anyone family seems important fit mold member family like want be know anymore im afraid future every time see dad asks career plans never answer gets upset this got argument parents religion mom cried dad stopped speaking while know feel it know whether love version theyve striving create collapsing want disappoint anyone want live life approval cant sleep night barely stay awake day food good hardly eat apart occasional bowl cereal eating feels like chore something every then limbs ache apparent reason feel like im somewhere else body vacant told day day reason feel alone im creative like used be think theres anything distinguish anyone else way feel like im already dead look forward anything except sense dread motivation live life im beginning feel like different dead want happy like used be cant remember used be cant shake feeling realization might way realized now grades slipping im sleeping classes might lose scholarship fail everyone cant imagine future myself find wishing face it,1 last decent british comedy centred around mockney bank robbers spun tv series john ivays film psychoactive tale discovery dressed biker gear three protagonists gentle fools penchant failure turning point lives giving sensitive emotional trio subplots sew riotous comedy together chemistry three amigos palpable makes touching companionship hilarious dialogue classic comedic moments feels part withnail i part american werewolf london part quadraphenia but bike gangs phil daniels fact phil daniels lovable rogue reminds danny dealer withnail i scholarly approach scientific commitment drugs great film particularly whove dabbled psychoactive substances past relate many moments film personal favourite brilliant scene welsh corner shop buying munchies tripping shrooms gentle comedy warm cockles heart laughing loud ride bikes even like enjoy it itll add do brilliant,0 mani want end it thats want yet im much coward too hate life is school school school scholl thats im good hate it suck cant concentrate horrible luck fuck life life bad though still hate it im fucking paranoid mental health makes worse earlier im even little piece shit even society wanna die barely sleep anymore school im seeing therapist hate it cant wait untill get courage kill myself fuck life,1 "ICYMI: Researchers have linked a sense of purpose to lower levels of adolescent depression, less... https://www.kqed.org/mindshift/49937/the-benefits-of-helping-teens-identify-purpose-in-life?utm_content=buffer9b2aa&utm_medium=social&utm_source=twitter.com&utm_campaign=buffer …",1 promised wouldnt come sub im well rnlmfaooo oh shit go,1 the idea that we are not allowed to feel sad depressed grieve over something just because other people have it worse than u is so toxic it invalidates our own feeling and make sadness depression grief a privilege for a selected few,1 can t tweet working over the head,0 need ask following mom told music lysin gay dumb may sound men gay like songs made toto bill wrsz,0 normallyid take meat clever cleverly cut buttholes hour today blessing kill name blowjob cost what damn lost train concentration center none oj pulp like advertised watch reservoir dawgs today lol,1 this is pointless this is all pointless living loving everything there only one thing one person i want more than death and i can t have him nobody want me around so whats the point of wasting my time suffering for no reason when all i do is waste air and people time a i force them to hang out with me nobody actually seek to hang out with me it s always me being lonely and wanting to hang out and them not having any excuse to say no they are indifferent if i leave or not indifferent if i die or not maybe i d get a pity aww like if a friend family member died you don t know them you just say aww out of sympathy sometimes i want sympathy i want someone to pretend for just a moment that they want me and they want to hug me and truly mean it people think i m always just saying depressing thing to fish for sympathy and hell what if i am maybe i need it maybe i need someone to actually care even for just a second about how shitty my life is my mind constantly go in circle awful stupid terrible circle of hatred i hate myself i hate the people around me i hate life i cut the people around me out of my life for their sake and mine and all it doe it make me hate myself and them even more im so desperate i can hardly stop myself from crawling back to them even though it only hurt me more i don t know how to solve this suicide is so painful and i m a pussy so there aren t many option i don t think i can stand to make it more year to be to buy a gun there ha to be something i can do in the mean time anyone with idea lmk lt,1 @yesmore thanks! @holeintheboat in da house !! ,0 millionaire happy family apparent reason depression imhey guys happy based worldly metrics think except im not rd world country making month big challenge common man poverty defined month population falls poverty rate tech entrepreneur made first million made second rd point decided dont want anymore stopped working year stopping got married became father despite belonging country nearly impossible travel world got visas travel permits started seeing world spent next years pretty much seeing world wife kid wife supportive point pampers get along well parents happy im wealthy happy financial freedom happy travel world happy ive beautiful family everyone healthy alive but im not struggle depression days life knew why could find way fix it keep trying different things find answers rewarding new ways even alive,1 guy do any of you also wake up every morning from scary nightmare and feeling completely estranged when you open your eye like your surrounding feel so foreign eventho it s your own home your own room and it take some time for you to realize youre just fine do you wake up with fear every morning,1 one wants meet new people meet someone high school kid fuckedive tried talking people often leads people saying i even know you talking me fuck meant do seems know anyone early absolutely screwed alone,1 a recent study found that medical marijuana failed to quell symptom of anxiety and depression and instead doubled down on risk for developing addictive symptom and cannabis use disorder http t co ezyaic0sck,1 journey discovery film follows lives one family living sleepy island town british columbia languorous dreamy inhabitants satisfied allow life go around young freshfaced teacher new ideas arrives brings life mainland slowly indolent state awakened father and principal local school looks excitement mother stability oldest daughter love youngest power incredible groundbreaking piece cinema movie quietly enjoyable good tired night wind blowing unfortunately doubt anyone outside canada find easily accessible,0 an thank you i have to now do it all again today,0 theres fall sports pa like hour ago piaa announced fall sports happening theres going winter sports well wrestler im definitely sure do,0 edit i realize maybe i write too much you don t need to read it to answer the question in a way i needed to vent also thats what a lot of this is but i can only put one flair i have heavy anxiety social and general i think it s called not sure i avoid going anywhere a much a i can i get very anxious around new people and absolutely hate it and then i also have anxiety about my health what if i am doing something wrong etc i had medication once that i would take if i had a panic attack but i don t have any more it wa a one time prescription after a visit to emergency care depression also cloud my life my anxiety make me depressed issue about my identity make me depressed and overall it s just awful everything feel so awful and it s hard to feel happy about anything even though where i am right now i asked to be i wa seperated from my bf cause of family moving stuff and i am with him again after month of being alone at my family place for month i wa looking forward to being here but i can t even be happy about it because my anxiety mainly it is because of work i have never had a job before and i am gon na start soon at a fast food place yeah i know amazing for someone like me i hate meeting new people everyday i am scared i wont be able to learn quick enough or retain information i really don t look forward to having to interact with people i am scared to be treated like an outcast i m trans and at the interview i let the interviewer call me she which i am not but it wa like whiplash is that the right word and i couldn t say anything now i have to correct him when i call back because i wa told to call back but i am scared because it feel like correcting someone on pronoun make a big deal i don t want it to be a big deal but some people take it so personally it s not something i want brought up all the time honestly i don t want to be a push over but i also don t want to be seen a too defensive another thing i am anxious about is my trip to work i will have to take public transport and i have huge fear of something bad happening to me that i can t relax when going anywhere and i am scared of being asked to come in on many day off and i don t like to say no but i also don t want to be asked to fill any shift whenever they want i said i am willing but honestly only day extra a week i am not doing day work no break thats awful i am scared i wont be able to make the decision i want and fall to pressure sorry if it s a lot to read and maybe i get off topic sometimes my mind is a mess i just want to know how some of you cope that work in job with a lot of customer interaction and people around i feel like i wont make it like i will screw up big time or have a panic attack and i will just walk out because i can t keep my anxiety under control i want to get help but i really have no money i want to find a better job but i have no experience in anything and everything that you don t need experience for is customer oriented or requires heavy lifting and i don t have the time either having to get a job asap because my bf is paying for our accommodation right now and i need to help out so i need to do this but i feel like it s gon na take a toll on me and i don t know what to do,1 metres pavement enoughnot trying mess up time,1 really old fashion charming movie locations great situation one old time preston sturgess movies fi want watch movie demand much sit back relax it acting good really liked michael rispoli rounders too sleeping rest cast fun happens two people get married meet one really love weekend planning weddings know sounds kooky is thats makes fun watch make girl friend either hug leave you least know,0 need someone tell gets betteri f dealing depression loneliness feelings unworthiness since think positive light daydream people perceive death feel wasted life want die instead enduring embarrassment failure singleness graduated may im living home parents arent necessarily supportive alright school wasnt best student certainly wasnt bad involved graduated college honors yet unemployed directionless please tell move home please tell move far away texas amp please tell life filled love possible,1 something terrible happened today boys havent stepped game girls taken best friends list snapchat isnt good,0 fucked upi cant stop thinking it fantasy oh sweet would be feel pain could finally leave good game everyone loved ones would sad yes would gone free ashamed admit it shockwave part appeal lie always been solves nothing catharsis resolution producing bloated corpse proved one wrong anything affirms detractors suspicions handle it married someone perhaps have loves madly cannot find energy reciprocate love another hardly matters now chose wife detriment really wanted unable selfish selfishness really matters live contempt condition myself hope perhaps next years much fuck last were,1 might well kill sooner cannot fucking take living another stupid worthless fucking day hate alive every second passes meant claw away damn skin reach bone every single day waste time enjoy second it cannot take point,1 surprised how little i miss having a house or car or really any of my other worldly possession but i do miss my dog,0 meeting aren t always boring but i wonder why i m always sleepy towards the close,0 mouse ran across fucking counter trying grab honey fucker ran right behind scared shit outta me im either gonna abundance cats like idiot drive crazy trying care fuck hate mice,0 people color genshin impact feel right ,0 im ending life postedi done life parents dead family siblings cousins aunt rent room trying save car bought car last year got scammed dealer bought is nothing getting thousand back tried ten years get ged cant learning issues causing impossible get ged would go back learn rd grade th grade failed everything done life trying get woman with failed get shallow women care looks physicalsexual attraction money person are cant work anymore arthritis back rheumatoid arthritis knees beginning stage cataract dominant eye cant much except manual labor cant anymore back knees aunt takes disability check get tries to black mails giving supposed rent leaves dollars left try save made go fund account years try get donations buy van live one would donate get month rent bills dollars left cant save that even friends made facebook joined groups made posts trying find friends got guys commenting saying scammer women commenting saying profile new must bot bitching saying posts account on deleted account nothing get ahead fail everything do ends blowing face cant take anymore cant take living life anymore rejected catfished car aunt supposed mine dads got sick changed will sign notary know changes town time got hospital death bed came back side passed days later going get lawyer found changed proof original like would mattered aunt staying aunt stole dads car would thing his even give pictures had else stay stay streets homeless cant again done age cant again unless van big car live in going end life done everything tired fighting everything failing life backfiring blowing face,1 dont want diei mri definitely destroyed inner ears car sounds like motor freeway meeting today leave peoples voices hurt forehead mri week ago still hope easy say want kill self really hard do love many family friends want see children again sick,1 visited lake elsinore gliderport flew yellow pratt read sailplane returning germany serious ran tv one segment high altitude sailplane flights california early ies the real life pilot bill ivans know played series turned sailplane film same nnumber one flown lake elsinore ever since saw segment searching wondering somewhere available other segments serious baker ejection seat instrument find avalanche victims etc,0 happens mix ammoniaalcohol bleachi dont feel like anything live anymore ive abused alienated frowned upon sexually harassed quickly would die,1 i m year old and i am so sad because life is pointless i feel like i know everything i know how life is supposed to go get a good job find a significant other do exciting thing together maybe have kid meet new people do different activity all through out life travel to new place get old and die somehow then what this whole idea of life is so boring i hate that i keep looking so far into life so analytically thats how depression make me see everything analytically and it is exhausting because i can never truly truly enjoy something i know life can be beautiful and fun at time in the moment it can be but i don t know why it s just not enough for me there ha to be something else to life something better there ha to be more right how am i supposed to do this everyday until i die that is such a long time i don t know how long i m going to last thinking like this make me the literal most boring person ever i feel bad for my friend the few i have i m so boring i never put passion into conversation because i seriously do not care enough because none of it matter and it s all pointless i feel so bad about myself and for everyone around me i m horrible please please help me find meaning in this gut wrenching life,1 @ryanbuss hello and i see you are still awake ,0 get chest back used baby sat nanas neighbour sister whos younger me would play kids years older us always picked me neighbour daughters son son nice daughters werent oldest one would push sister snow walking place finally enough told pushed sister snow would hit her went said pushed really hard snow also got back house told mom got trouble crying trying explain really happened fell deaf ears mom told stop crying shell give something cry grabbed arm really hard shoved living room even worse part sister outside playing daughters pop trailer if know please google it trailer drive way super hot day summer opening storage compartments look inside one them super hot could barely breath head also dark inside see arms well feeling something bad going happen put hands edge could push it girls wanted put storage compartment feeling going leave die sister watching anything basically grabbed tried shove somehow able push back get free shoved ground really hard scared started yell asking let put there say anything kept crying thankfully never go again also sorry formatting im writing phone tldr bullied mother daughters one day daughters tried kill shoving small hot storage compartment trailer,0 intelligence curse lost itim breaking point redflag back mind years creeping front im graduate high schoolor likely fail senior year live life dropout clue go im unintelligent work this might graduate everyday try avoid talking grades parents know ill disappoint further hurts removes time ticking bomb am im smart incredibly so hate it cause much strife years living takes away much could make happy deprives view sort wonder awe leaves rationalizing math science want people see that want see guy enjoys fun intellectual conversations point im considering stopping mental functions ending it sad thing is know almost guarantee succeed another curse knowledge want gone calling redflag hotline simply work lack courage talk someone talking text changed things makes bearable even feel much love towards family see stepping stone covered superglue thats meant hold back help out im pathological liar person hurts feel guilty pisses off lying become ingrained psyche point even let people see real me ever wear mask happiness positive outlooks like things perfect little cracks form may see true self little end day go home fix duct tape glue thats subtly applied make seamless religion never option simply knew better help analytical mind reject life faith simply sit here trudging life one day time hoping might find something help me get look start running along path someplace better theres easier road ends much sooner road give rest go even know want life point redflag tempting time want make things worse people close me im stuck middle intersection others pass by ever manage figure account use here please leave alone reserved almost exclusively positive side treasure dearly try shield aspects life,1 one best films ever maybe well punk scene late s went many hazels concerts film good story line good acting hazel coming phil daniels sure latest project eastenders excellent performance lots unknown actors keep eyes peeled see many uk soaps today exp carver bill watch spot well seen yet night video forget dig safety pin nose heavy black eye makeup shave head mochanian styleenjoy,0 holy shit schools care fuking hood like look soo hot hood tell take im ugly see hair im trying grow,0 done website censuring write want spread pure hate women let it serious college bs made lies bs anyways living like hermit room way live let post whatever fck want,1 fury wolfman good film good cast includes paul naschyjacinto molina perla cristal vernica lujn mark stevens francisco amors fabin conde miguel de la riva ramn lillo jos marco javier de rivera pilar zorrilla acting actors good wolfman really cool looks great sound like looney tunes character tazmainian devil really hilarious scenes film thrills really good surprising movie filmed good music good film quite interesting movie really keeps going end good thrilling film like paul naschyjacinto molina perla cristal vernica lujn mark stevens francisco amors fabin conde miguel de la riva ramn lillo jos marco javier de rivera pilar zorrilla rest cast film werewold films horror scifi thrillers dramas interesting classic films strongly recommend see film today br br movie nuttballs note br br i got film special dvd doctor bloods coffin brainiac fury wolfman vintage home entertainment see find winner three bizarre classic films one dvd amazoncom today br br if like werewolf films strongly recommend these werewolf london wolf man frankenstein meets wolf man house frankenstein abbott costell meets frankenstein curse werewolf american werewolf london silver bullet werewolf monster squad moms werewolf project metalbeast bad moon werewolf dog soldiers underworld van helsing ,0 @anish_sinha u shud have taken a diploma.... wud have helped ur cause...,0 Have first appointment tomorrow with the new care co-ordinator. I am already dreading it and don't want to meet him despite knowing them. I'm cross and frustrated knowing I will be blamed for my mistakes! #MentalHealthAwareness #PTSD #EUPD #anxiety #depression #struggling,1 ok sosomehow unhealthy junk food excessive alcohol binging endured last almost years killed like congrats guessmy birthday july thi redflag birthdays extremely nervous numerous reasons mostly birthday songs cheesy fuck hope one ever decides torture surprise birthday song will sweat alot anyways mom nice enough surprise ticket san juan never leave house think freaked covid related loneliness isolation suicide jokes love dark humor also know joking like whatever still blink good sign moving first never plane so feel free giving advice pussy heights help sweat alot i sweat alot freaked btw cannot help sorrysecondly hotels pretty damn cheap puerto rico thank hehimtheyreligion thatthe universe that fucking suck comes money even though shit job always niceanyways want try atleast enjoy leaving us first time like fuck expecting surprise trip honestly one ever anything nice seems excessive af lmao but gift birth giver so guess get itanyways like usually always broke shit financially sometimes mentally better way try get extra spending gen z worker first blaming economic inequality baby boomers baby boomers also ask strangers internet money woo judge me please like on secondly again think ever heard someone say thirdly firm believer work money short poem random things see around room last word line anyone decides chip whatever hell ya want honestly head hurts fire alarm going off say short mean little effort shorter expected want burn alive days day birth real firefrom lamp leftto lamp right i love amazon lampsi afraid flyand bulbs lightone lamp ok give credas lay bedthe alarm goes offmy tv loudand holding coughfinok awesome love all drink ton water remember give flying tips lemongrass oil scents help redflag oil diffusers cheap amazon get one stay safe take care ok bye also included pic beyonc edited hahahaha wow love her peace birthday redflag induced suicide thoughts yay,1 whats least painful way goplease answer question,1 lost faith hope deserve goti spent pretty much whole life computer parents never let used live dodgy neighborhood moved somewhere nice become really introverted prefer spending gamingstudying spending time pc literally fucked up pretty suicidal never reason too edgy something stupid sincerely regret police comes takes electronics life onward comes crumbling down dignity gone deserve happening me cant carry living it even care life name face comes news anything getting rope asap cant live friends everyone knowing ive done fucking cringe roll ball stabbing thinking it even worse losing religious faith fuck life stress losing faith fucking intense like living lie whole life care hell exists not want there seeing tragedy going world kills even more dream going cambridge longer possible parents optimistic forget everything thats happened tell carry aiming it well know theres point working hard anymore always aced top grades exams without even studying know much potential ill homeless scum streets people thinking im loser failed school cant find job ugly long beak nose get stared quite bit im public reading propaganda nazi racist islamophobic comments internet made selfconscious try hide face public like looking floor covering face car drives past put hood etc people said look ugly face wear glasses look groucho disguise mask uglified without moustache remember kid friend laughing look stopped looking mirror stressful look go thought process ive grown love nature like want travel world course longer possible try optimistic possible cant carry like this dwelling like freak bedroom day want commit redflag courage cant sister thinking falling unimaginable tears completely shreds apart im stilling waiting see sentencing ill get final outcome either humiliated hated homeless shit job relationships end quick go all always go one lifes quote anything happen stage look so admittedly deserve wanted let feelings out,1 brother tries taze really sort electric lighter creates arc rods use light things fire basically taser hate it,0 time spooky month spooktober eventful month family birthdays holidays ultimate spooky boi im going play vr birthday best friend hours shit cause not im going make sure improve last part year next year im pretty good moment wanna keep going happy spooktober everyone,0 bom dia twitverse ,0 besties wrote song yall think yeah im next level legit click click click yeah im next level legit click click yeah yeah yeah im next level legit click click click yeah im next level legit click click yeah yeah im next level legit im next level legit im next level legit im next level legit my yeah im next level legit click click click yeah im next level legit click click yeah yeah im next level legit im next level legit im next level legit im next level legit click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click click 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like rainbow love let go took lungs choked long drives divine sun showed clique running mind like rainbow yeah miss im next level legit my miss them miss them miss click click click yeah miss im next level legit my miss every night click click click yeah yeah yeah miss im next level legit my miss them miss them miss click click click yeah miss them miss them miss im next level legit my miss every night click click click yeah yeah yeah im next level legit click click click yeah yeah im next level legit my yeah yeah im next level legit i miss them click click click yeah yeah im next level legit,0 work library expected like movie came years ago well liked parker posey lot shes wonderful actress omar townsend really cute boyfriend he act look like cares movie bad funny cute much anything posey kept movie afloat energy learned dewey decimal system overnight shelves tons books beat music come on also problem way looked became fullfledged librarian endhair bun glasses sense humorcan let stereotype go please worth seeing posey townsend thats it tv series much better,0 girl im not fuckin simps filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 im actually annoyed parents caring much metheyre literally thing thats keeping killing myself them hope one day everything gonna better literally nothing worth living right now nothing think ill miss end all thought would parents enough keep im child know love much would destroy knew ive thinking doing cant say kill ever lose life shitty awful parents least way id another excuse kill without guilt,1 almost argentina want reach help doesnt feel righti dont know do ill give backstory asked im panic attacks again feel endthe end everything near dont like humans want get rid possessions house leave i dont know id go talk people love swallow lot alprazolam pills mom its medication keeps them im low dose want go wait peacefully death want make people love suffer dont want cats see asleep never see again keeping short need help get help need guide someone help make decisions dont feel ok make them im asking help tell professionals need know help me im afraid tell people close im planning committing part wants end all half desperately looking help thanks reading,1 come secret share b b e,0 life turned way want to im person want be none changed feel hopeless suicidal thoughts getting worse though im dangerim going try break sub sections little bit help structure bit ramble tends happen mental health bipolar ii disorder sure know is not form bipolar disorder suffer primarily depression high full blown mania lower manias called hypomania still up normal lose control lose touch reality serious problems typical bipolar ii disorder different doctor might diagnosis ocd gad panic disorder top say bad way believe firm boundaries mental illnesses think kind bleed one another psychiatrist treats symptomatically instead making conform bipolar disorder supposed do though huge problems evident another mental illness suffer really obsessive intrusive thoughts girl dominating life bringing down heartbreak so im still trying get something mentioned above ive pretty much reached standstill ive long time met girl late august pretty quickly became good friends big part life best friends feeling mutual told best friend friendship meant lot me like a lot love her means one incredible beautiful people ever met mental health started find really hard cope feelings think time right tell felt knew dating hooking someone would start panic attacks saw ex around never even met knew was blue would get panic attacks thinking guys kind haunted memory told one friends gotten laid first time while panic attacks still come along sometimes well panic attacks things related her started get depressed someone worked kind came sent text conversation flat told kind seeing someone want boyfriend eventually mental health continued decrease eventually december tell her point things gotten pretty bad told keep anymore something feel way and even though told want affect friendship id get it said course still friends pretty much stopped talking me get that invite birthday party month later mental health gotten worse month couple weeks told her went see psychiatrist told something right good mental health situational well things right told panic attacks things less refused treat said want change medication retiring soon gave valium prescription without adequate assessment substance abuse present past hitting bottle pretty hard putting valium top trying feel better im ambivalent really stupid me control ill though december january feel real me week birthday seriously considered ending life moving forward plans so less building it knew going it sure waiting for maybe waiting see things got better wait birthday idk birthday party ended getting drunk sure much drank know mg valium blacked out evening kind spotty certain point tell upset way left things remember friend know driving home broke hysterics crying told going hurt something remember remember crying hard anyways next morning people checked me sternly came clean bad things almost ended life another friends forced go hospital couple days discharged hospital texted tell discharged right thing making go told uncomfortable told felt needed time weve talked since then like couple times mostly liking others stuff instagram times weve texted talked bit really casual stuff weve never hung since relationships general never romantic relationship never kissed im virgin things usually bug me loathe guys obsessed sex view women sex objects and afraid thinks may viewed her sometimes things like make guilt shame things flare up makes feel like something wrong me and ive always put way much emphasis relationships girls girl played huge part life fell love fast hard thought overcome tendency therapy long time top finally getting diagnosis taking mood stabilizers guess not i moved on moved on able to continue feel guilty happened do often wonder message guy drove home apologize ive talked apologized said ok fault sick also yearn back friend still hope end together day hope weak word literally pray do interim also pray become best friends soon strength able handle romantic relationship mean time strength feel destroyed dates someone else prayers pray us end dating within like year friendship incredibly special miss that miss lot would enough live life focussing present makes sense another friend told cant friends someone want intimate with want friend again really really do want friendship again separate desires relationship her ive never felt someone understood cared like did also exact sense humor taste music really kilter obscure music really big part lives literally closest ive ever come real relationship emotional intimacy really powerful felt like was finally thought found someone cared much cared them i hate life wish entirely different person would love im resentful get feel way feel like really week pathetic human being deep down really deep down feelings feel like part me struggled feelings emptiness incompleteness shame girlfriend past trivial juvenile sounds coped well expecting meet someone like fall hard did kind happened people tell need decide move get better cant literally feels like lying makes worse seriously like im saying moment feels bad like crashed hard lying extended periods time going move on etc etc etc cant plays monumental part life too big let go of thought losing catastrophic id rather die lose her part reason feel suicidal starting realize might happen my user name birthday coming up hard friends it last year good crew friends something birthday year didnt years well really hard spend birthday without friends year knowing part reason make room people life kind pushed people away crazy depressed person bearing reached people wake probably expected much them conclusion fucking mess life good psychiatric care but im getting better comes feelings girl symptoms bipolar disorder convinced medication going ever change this therapy well ive therapy adult life things changed think suicide daily mean now mean long time think thought even happened probably fleeting really remember sure inconsequential me suicidal thoughts around least since suicide crisis january never went away managed better like said think always definitely periods past know thoughts mind new then gotten lot intense past couple days no think danger think safe,1 @bradiewebbstack Haha i like you default picture. Meow.,0 really need friendi bpd course months ive gotten heart broken lost jobs dropped credit classes hospital got cut mother sister ive thought giving never follow dream family child specifically right im debating abandoning car walking natural selection think help help please,1 "@SensualStories The garden was yesterday for me. Wet & windy here so I'm better off indoors at work. Anyway, enjoy! ",0 caught movie tv watched again said myself long time since watched movie not movie thrilled me easy watchable human know people dislike it br br john travolta shines michael his dance every move angel hardly related word smokes drinks eats like savage hes got big heart way michael helps people meets dorothy winters andie macdowell singing finding right man frank quinlan william hurt developing good decent man michael even helped dear old pansy milbank jean stapleton last scene beautiful dance streetbr br travolta great help actors andie macdowell beautiful likable william hurt great usual late robert pastorelli shows talent jean stapleton teri garr also good favorite supporting actor movie bob hoskins tabloid ownerbr br so weve got solid movie people warm story also attractive cast take movie seriously guarantee fun,0 wish could delete come back months latertitle ive sad long feel like ive normalized sad used play games way escape cruelty reality even doesnt intrigue anymore helium sounds like nice way go maybe ever get motivation to,1 @charlievdw you know kris donnelly! jealous! is he nice? ,0 spirit classic the sting movie hits truly hurts heart prim proper female psychiatrist hungry adventure meets dirtiest rottenest scoundrals vulnerable doctor falls career badman begs involved operation movie moves kind slow climax ending stunning especially enjoy doctor forgives herself,0 why there is psychosis in profound depression whats the chemical explanation,1 "i don't wanna do hw, i wanna DRIVE ",0 good morning world. i have no idea why im up this early. lets chat. hit the cell if you wanna. ,0 im seeing anyone familiar new people like live forever feel like watched generation die city new faces,0 @matthaig Started reading Reasons to be alive by @Matthaig and loving it. Highly recommend #KeepTalkingMH #MentalHealthMatters #mentalhealth #mentalillness #bipolar #depression,1 helpis anyone talk to pain handle one talk to alone,1 almost shot myselfi almost shot myself cant help feel like minor issue seek help talk it think people committing redflag feel like major issue immediately addressed thinking lot urge kill still there additionally big selfharming problem therapy appointment soon feel like bring up,1 dog died today reason still worth livinghe already really old years already got sick two months ago bastard poisoned food ate it result also half blind half deaf hes since puppy memories coming mind im getting really depressed suicidal thoughts coming back stayed away months thought overcome no think ive hit rock bottom now want die now dog kept alive cheered bad days know im going im also pussy know balls kill myself,1 wanting die ability kill urselfcan anyone else relate literally wanted die long remember really enjoy life feel attempting enjoy around genuinely exhausted point want keep going however several attempts finding unable go anything myself anyone else ever feel way idk literally want hit truck something way home work never works way,1 coping methodshey guys im sure place post im sure else ask im looking come coping methods ive tried things years found anything worked well used smoke weed keep suicidal thoughts away cant anymore working helps cant always make gym drinking good idea long term solution ive thought antidepressants know tendency abuse pills anyone suggestions since stopped smoking weed depression gotten really bad know do want die know cant kill care parents much ive hit wall really need help thanks advance,1 tonightwhy not undiagnosed medical condition doctors give shit say head give antianxiety medicine christmas happiest person planet now miserable anxiety causes flank pains cool anxiety causes muscle atrophy nice causes feet move nonstop awesome oh anxiety causes become vitamin deficient fatigued basically bedridden wow oh anxiety causes skin dry shrivel excellent guess what anxiety make piss foam make urine cloudy too also cause nails pit hair become dry basically stop growing theres hope me medical community arrogant lazy care im probably dying want office make money doctors want go home families live american dream suffer tonight,1 Or maybe our connection is just so shite that everyone beats me ,0 Depression makes you fat https://twitter.com/iwaqas_/status/989197528498307072 …,1 cannot fucking kill family would devastated even living myselfmy future nothing look forward even close supposed lifeeveryday repetitive cycle suffering trying distract bullshit life alive suffocating feeling,1 allaround superb film moving experience filled real life emotion theres lessons learned love sex work religion american culture regardless ones sexual preferencebr br while film also scathing indictment mormons church latter day saints belief system conservative faith could easily take place bit ironic homosexuality currently condemned mormons uncertain terms heres faith mandated generations believers practice polygamy true believers gave practice forced federal government order utah join union talk unique form hypocrisy br br the sex scenes portrayed unrated version tasteful surprisingly brief theres nothing would offend anyone open mindbr br what film makes obvious homosexuality perfectly natural people gay heterosexuality people straight love sex obviously quite different needs absolutely beautiful beyond words occur time two adults profound erotic love one lifes precious gifts congratulations filmmakers job well done,0 book nearly done im scared finish it,0 got a birthday card in the post today...belated wishes keep the months merry ,0 guys from idk im bored sitting car im calgary canada guys from,0 depression taking life family relationships want diei even know say know need say it ive pushed away everyone thats ever meant anything me get hurt easy everything seems numb bleak know myself slept class day accident could think climbing third story dorm jumping ive wanting hurt badly hard live people just left partner love much left them cant cry feel like horrible human being excuses way am id really rather die keep feeling like this keep thinking future seemsgrey cant hold job cant hold relationship cant stand enough come closet worst part everyone thinks im getting better ever since moved college think dying everything hard me cant stop time im currently crisis ive year self harm free think im point need go hospital im afraid disappointing people think im great,1 idea going back school weeks spiking anxiety given current state world right now understand united states set sending minors back buildings packed minors especially theyre even going right live missouri middle butt fuck nowhere promise high population mean cant cause outbreak mike parson mo gov piece shit literally bare minimum anybody common sense asking mandate masks cant even that nose far trumps ass completely complicit willing sacrifice children school even requiring masks implementing sort social distancing precautions no children immune covid watching world news said closer black children contract covid around hispanic children caucasian children children okay brother biracial black white scared death brother hospitalized asthma times count almost every time catches regular flu hes two weeks sometimes even turns pneumonia cant even begin describe uncomfortable idea friends family going used collateral damage damn near hundred sixty thousand families torn apart cant look past stock market two fucking seconds people stories families past week sixyearold passed georgia tennessee im sure plenty places children made orphans due virus dad heart patient cancer survivor mom sickle cell anemia recurring respiratory problems brother extremely bad asthma grandma one three teachers placed highrisk category governments job protect citizens instead used militia fight invisible enemy guys careful wear mask talk parents administrators unfortunately seems like mess hands now take care,0 baked nice fresh shit today smells really good gonna put milk eat minutes yum,0 trust is hard,0 im tired crippled birth im fail college hate everything im typing toilet time dieill try get point this afflicted genetic disorder known osteogenesis imperfecta basically body produce bone collagen properly causes bones weak enough unable walk ive gotten older mid s ive slowly realized unable satisfied life long physically disabled resentment grown point find unable care anything fact part wants make life even worse feel deserve see mirror cant recognize thing im looking at feel life stolen somehow logical hate thinking anything occurred past ive adapting life im tired it friends tell im amazing person im inspiration know theyre lying feel way all give great advice relationships life decisions even though get house college yet combination personality compulsion seek truth times keeps spectator level want one things want idiot playing football without go hospital want guy crazy stories girls lives tell tale instead ive designated always take high road better person order keep friends family together im tired breaking bones due stupid mistakes getting yelled it im tired trying improve without getting rewards it im tired living time die note sorry long rant make sense waste everyones time sorry,1 Nice to see this finally happen in India! I remember the time when Deepika sat down for an interview to share with the world her struggle with ' Depression 'It is so imp for celebrities to share it if they are struggling with it as it makes them ' human' too ! @TrishaBShetty https://twitter.com/TrishaBShetty/status/989171613265362944 …,1 couldn t get shit done today i m so screwed,0 @awhitemothflew i miss you more than life. -.- so erm.. when are you free? ,0 need advice anyone willing listeni tried kill last saturday night uncle wake next morning instead me feel like fault feel like responsibility live happy fulfilling life owe him would want to im depressed ever guilt pressure happy like everyone wants getting everything uncle alone cant tell family theyre already grieving want worry more theres much could help already myself bipolar disorder bpd among disorders live with know depressive episode pass worst long time nowhere things got really bad last saturday night found stories top parking deck looking down hours staring crying thinking decided go home overdose instead obviously work throwing feeling like shit days afterwards past redflag attempts ive realized wanted live afterwards ive happy alive time different feel worse ever maybe uncle passing away im sure want disappear think death almost constantly barely bring smile today first day back work since saturday everyone knew something wrong cant even fake anymore day today thought going back parking deck it ive thought going back mental health facility area ive stayed twice things keeping going though health insurance dad lost job weeks ago family lost health benefits theres way could afford pay hospital own family might willing help want put them would also labeled addict forced go recovery program smoke marijuana daily basis really helps depression anxiety mood swings paranoia etc would test positive means theyd make focus addiction problem push mental health problems side ive seen happen people there leave without getting real help need also stopped taking medication months ago stopped seeing psychiatrist therapist that im tired rely medication function like normal person able feel happy im open medication options could find would actually work thats without even considering cost psychiatrist medication hospital theyd force medication throat add list bills anyways going hospital going back therapist psychiatrist whatever doctor option anymore since health insurance cant afford it getting help expensive sad guess im kind loss im feeling nearly suicidal earlier gave cut myself want want die every second im awake best friend told knows want die made angry want die family want die genuinely hate do cant shake feeling im going make christmas year guess im ventingranting expect anyone read respond this know point is,1 im killing tonight cant find gutsall thats missing letting hang need avoid pain doesnt let me get rid it please ive enough suffering help finish help freed,1 life s rushing towards me at 0km h and instead of going forward i just stand there scared shitless and watch the headlight getting closer,1 i been battling a deep ass round of depression in the last week. havent even been on twitter to watch kanye lose what little credibility he had left.,1 i just can t stop think about i see myself doing it in my mind all the time it s so hard i just want to do it rn i have a break soon i think i am gon na do it but i feel so bad for my friend but i just can t do it anymore,1 crush girl ive crush year wasnt like close friend tell said dont know like thats remember since didnt even know long first wanted get closer herwhich im atm feel like im getting closer keep getting closer giving like good vibes wait ask feel close,0 hi everyone year old male nurse working three years now diagnosed major depression high school along redflag tourette syndrome battling suicidal thoughts ever since hospitalized inpatient psychiatric facility three times cannot remember inpatient actually helped though receiving electroconvulsive therapy ect little year two acute series done ect ruined memory seem helping longer treatment done monday already feeling severely depressed suicidal tuesday night know doi could commit again brothers white coat ceremony coming need pto able fly see it also want family worry love reason killed yet also even know worth it inpatient three times already suicidal thoughts still there couple good things going life though great job extremely loving family almost always willing put call know helps depressed mood told everyone talk regularly my brother sister aunt uncle dad mom feeling talking helps improve mood however struggling feeling starting call often want bother them make things worse therapist currently maternity leave substitute therapist same top depression redflag severe unable make friends friend since high school friends twin brothers friends get flustered around people barely talk work friends know quiet guy know everything feels like much tired frustrated ready everything over feel like suicidal adult life,1 sensitive well im probably call indoors kid never involved sports resulted basically sucking kinds sports ive made fun quite lot it making feeling insecure wanting try due afraid getting laughed at ive trying improve physically past years although routinely jogging sometimes home aerobic exercises likes well today one best friends asked wanted go play badminton families friends well one crush oof im awkward guy around people im familiar with also obviously suck badminton i catch much said something along lines well really matter go not honest kinda hurt me said kinda jokingly fashion still cant help thinking it ive wanting find friend willing slowly help improving physically someone give fuck suck sports not basically someone willing accompany help course laugh im already trying best information also went friends circle play badminton while probably counts taking first step improving myself maybe made fun previously due sucking physical activities cant seem take commentremark heart guys think,0 want christmas gun end suffering withim failure adult dependent abusive mother least end year move ever go back help would love see fail ive never much social life friends online somehow manage disappoint everytime one friend recently brain tumor removed worried him came back today made best effort focus making happy didnt act depressed didnt show depression didnt make anything me even played game usually hate refuse to along friends simply pointed group people trolls likely attack us lagging behind group didnt know really trying ended making pissed me tried lie think medication whatever didnt rest them me even made point tell reason rarely play game simply dislike it despite fact made complaint today actually tried thats one example many feel like failure matter hard try people around hate me mother father left favors new children more people used think friends using laugh older cousin raping numerous times pile shit it hate much want die almost daily minor panic attacks thinking failure nothing way changing it cant therapy get medications cant go make new friends small town kids hated public school better them good kid teachers liked point bullying got bad taken school cut myself usually deep notice it chest faint scars look close enough ive always fond letting aggressive cats ive sometimes come contact damage me mean cat scratches lie works best cat scratches girlfriend tried hard for seems despise too dont know why opinion pretty negative told me shes basically insisted child knows nothing real world etc etc despite fact shes made major mistakes lied them shes never found someone accepting gender fluidity me despite fact sometimes stressful sexually wants things bring back bad memories id willing make happy live everyone know hates me cant stand me thinks im joke girlfriend talked badly behind back friends assumed depression attention grab id like blow brains out really would tried strangle belt lost consciousness guess released belt woke hours later tried od dry texture pills made vomit chance digest dont nerve cut deep enough hit artery legitimately want die gun id it dont try burden try be try make everyone else feel good need support basically fuck me hate much think badly me shouldnt problem isnt thats selfish me making deal someone hate wonder even stays loves me want responsible consequences taking last bit live away sleep late trying avoid awake sleep closest thing release right now took benadryl try heighten mood makes calm risk alcoholism time access beverages sort ive tried weed nothing me cant even find relief substances anymore used think okay lonely life style id outdo everyone id fucking win theyd working fucking target id nurse id one good apartment flat screen tv decent car nice clothes didnt need anyone anything id show im failure am burden want die dont want people tell to wish theyd guts tell like know want to stop pretending dont want myself would kill could quickly yes could change situation would really would id like to cant even go take walk fucking walk wish people talk want talk like me pity feeling responsible me see sort redeeming quality thats even worth it dont that im sorry,1 shitty teenager want kill myself need helphi first time rredflagwatch last tried commit redflag almost times failed them unfortunately years old yes young people feel like young want live surely want to want to shitty childhood shitty everything years old kissless virgin likes videos games animemanga one interested me probably mocked back interesting one ever interested me course reason want kill myself life painful get hurt hurt others useful even am one cares one gives flying fuck please give reasons kill myself already know experience love literally unlikable probably alone single also dying alone want live anymore destroy me erase existence,1 since first saw anchors aweigh viewing videotape holds lot nostalgia me age easy drawn first great mgm technicolor musicals perhaps interested thinking future careers leading players though sinatra done couple negligible films soon emergence dorsey days solo singer first major film appearance another viewer noted seems almost warmup town sinatra may work hard it dance kelly credible would better next pairings however observing physique easy see caricatured string bean would imagined within decade would win academy award acting go play many roles tough detective leader combat though gene kellys personality dancing dominated film winsome performance suggest would become major creative force almost iconic figure mgm musicals developed style dance complementary fred astaire finally strange see freshfaced dean stockwell remember would later play thrill killer compulsion based leopoldloeb murder s additional note one reviewer praised performance betty garrett sinatras love interest later played opposite town pamela britton featured film,0 i can t breatheee i hate being sick,0 today supposed daythis morning called work drove hours away home life least way one know would one find me sat car paddock middle nowhere couple hours spiralling thoughts id made mind happenstance car happened drive past driver approached make sure okay innocuous unremarkable here dont know whether spooked might found early enough circuit breaker delay inevitable im home now didnt think id again disconcerting thoughts havent stopped need make night,1 jeffreecuntstar i don t have a garage but you can park in my driveway,0 i want to bring a new sound to the world something different to love and respect ye diggg,0 going make fake post aita thats half related something actually happened make part make fit sub,0 probably tonights night mim tired everything tired living synonym pain tired useless ive since conception tired abused like everyone me tired work driving force society im tired dont want anything im failing shit homeworks bitch essentially boycotted it got barely friends ones could definitely better strongest female bonds ive made teachers fun way mean teachers ive wanting die now ive gotten infection hope thing ever hurt me trying anything important results failure hope banging head brick wall know better longer it thing thats holding back lack gun remember looking ndads closet one remember showed years prior couldnt find it put off cant handle shit anymore know vodka know pills could do suppose ill fake sick again live ill wake know tried assuming dont leave trail tears pills vodka dont know thing holding back point chance failure discovery want gone so bad please someone help hellhole,1 im useless im falling behind school disappointing parents get upset seek professional help therapistspsychiatrists im lazy hopeless let people down hate myself,1 tf calculate percentages look im rated kind thing,0 still alive weeks ago tried kill successful it tried overdose sleeping aids thought id fall asleep never wake wake up apparently take enough damn killing really easy must really lucky pretty stupid put mental hospital week days ago released thinking probably good im still alive,1 @TraceCyrus LOVES @ddlovato !!!!!!!!!!! @Jonasbrothers LOVES @miley cyrus !!!!!!!!!1 YAY THE WORLD IS GOOOD ,0 anyone looking something mean trying online dating stuff wanna know happens reddit doing test,0 knitting * watching across the universe ,0 guys hug pillow pretending someone love time want know im one,0 relationship over breaking umrmcmeme loser dummy pos,0 @SunshinePaul very snobby still sorting out the rest of the furniture though!,0 sad excuse friend tried getting reported mw lol are playing v gunfight bitch audacity tell team im hacking tell stop says im serious hes hacking pussy thankfully team didnt believe mainly everytime got final kill missed majority shots showed true colors already blocked soo,0 help u speedrun life made promise id live so please help fuck make go faster srs,0 find movie best movie ever seen reflects inner strength young girl second world war movie impressive least actually happened reminds story anne frankbr br ,0 find posting yet againive tried hard tried hard get seemingly never ending hole moved family threw job applications got interviews one day first time long time started see little light pulled car towed due unpaid registration missed interviews way get them feel like one little step forward become steps back what literally name option get car out im trying figure theres way sign incur storage fees just never ending im really hard time ending myself,1 slept hours want relapse cannot stop thinking abt got raped everytbint bad parente abuse me hooked drugs going kill myself cannot,1 hate myself hate face looks body looks hate look mirror hate never done anything impactful disappointment parents never able expect me hate try hate less get frustrated hate more decent amount friends majority would even considered fake friends feel like problems good none back honestly back feel comfortable opening them would laugh least laugh behind back one friend feel comfortable opening still many qualities seem toxic two faced everyone cares nice person claim be want block everyone surrounded people feel even alone still feel alone listen music time distract voices head telling worthless am cannot talk anyone feel even act sympathetic know chuckling eager go tell friend pathetic am rant,1 moving on to managerial finance nicht gut,0 Does ANYONE have any audio from last nights show? BIG REWARD IF YOU DO!!! ,0 cant stand life want end itim ive tried twice ive hung cut police showed shortly jumped ive tried end life jumping speeding bike traffic times hospitalized dont see meaning life couple friends talk shit behind back someone love years mom gets dont hit back respect dad always told hit women dad incarcerated prison years talk anymore girlfriend years parents grandparents act like wish wasnt around friends blow never able hang tease joke try kill dont feel like anything left anymore,1 "Fixed @tam_iris's computer, thankfully it was a known bug, so she's much happier, and thus -- so am I ",0 dear mommy milks good man thank,0 http://twitpic.com/6ti3d - this was taken Christmas o8 i use to be an Angel on the program. one pretty angel lol,0 dogo made hot top time rteenamiugly im proud little jacky fell bad got krama him got treats lot belly rubs,0 everything bland im tiredi wish could know sure peaceful rest side gotten better much wanted to ever since teen years hard feel positive emotions trouble keeping job down constantly question relationship hate alone im someone im happy either feel trapped ive convinced someone love me try work becoming psychologist answers procrastinate assignments gf fight im tired im tired trying get right time feel like ive made progress younger even try life came way enjoyed it rest life hopefully get cancer,1 go way back page ten review section work way back up go ahead ill waitbr br done well probably noticed trend have could nitpick day long lame jokes dated timing obviously derivative plot points shtick bogus movie seems one hate now love later flicksbr br bill teds biggest problem original appealed s kids followed tends considered cutting edge fashion worked fine original obviously bombed selfunrespecting slacker would caught dead wearing anything flannel admitting liked anything s ted would put it dude totally deep hole wanna play questions br br they say nostalgia goes year cycles certainly seems case here use grew cindi lauper megadeth beginning look back appreciate pivotal films like not made us are one look bogus outdated fa gs ripoff missing point probably spent six years growing facial hair wearing flannel looking like crawled bedbr br in selfreferencing origins the star trek episode time traveling phone booth bt makes attempt hide creators love homage quentin tarantino anyone im saying bogus true love think needs appreciated is fun snapshot society time child psychology ritalin antismoking ads terrorist paranoia proliferation media fearmongering br br so bt haters thereturn screaming trees cd get hair face go beach lighten up narcissistic depression intellectual ennui corporate,0 wanna badly shes fucking beautiful j fucking ugly piece shit,0 Hottub at jenna's fun fun. I need to be loved so I have people in the US to text darnit,0 "Heavy use of Facebook is linked to stomach aches, sleeping problems, anxiety, depression and narcissism in teens.",1 hello day hello day fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 flunked semester twice went back pick things college town last year thinking best time finally end mind went blank kept sleeping hotel room time return flight back home lockdown jobless number suicidal stuck home god knows long wish could done last year,1 need advice stop masturbating masturbate every night times ive recently noticed strong smell semen showered gone started thinking showering tought wow isnt good smell dont wanna smell like that masturbating feels great want stop dont know how kind like habit kind like autopilot mode thought would affect social life would like near someone stinks like semen know want stop dont know how sorry grammar mistakes dont speak english main language,0 Bout 2 fix more nachos and punch 4 da game. ,0 going out sidee in dee cold,0 today something made really proud comic recently switched ibispaint procreate meant also got new ipad sadly old ipad old wasnt ios couldnt transfer data ibispaint special font handwriting converted one said none data could transferred thought gone gooduntil came brilliant idea basically logged calligraphr account ibispaint copied file name site my old font still magically saved site ibispaint copied file name pasted email sent myself opened link normal download file message popped up saved files otf file could import procreate im technical gal fact makes happy proud myself wanted share accomplishment day maybe learned something new well take care,0 cat would name burger burger cute name plus name old dead hamster miss burger,0 schools still serve strawberry milk lunch miss stuff much really rare find stores loved stuff growing up id drink gallon could now stores carry any tiny little bottles cost like bucks one many things really miss childhood ,0 design code website im good designing part coding part,0 little discord community going anyone wants chat real come hang pretty blunt afraid dm interested may take bit respond sleep,0 dog went heart failure holiday weekend vet could take her find emergency clinic told dollars fill minutes paperwork dog even seen estimated k possibly save life most likely ending putting anyway congestive heart failure died minutes getting phonecould taken emergency vet night thought cough occasional cough dryness desert thought bad since acting like herself even eating drinking otherwise next morning woke gagging choking clinging life rest endfeel immensely guilty may saved her poor broke cannot even afford get remaining dog another companion dogs size cost two three months rent have cannot get shelter dog due apartments rules pass vet check extensive behavioral opinion vet cannot bring home dog questionable backgroundseparation redflag due strict are review approve everythingmatter fact cannot even get dog breeder complex needs full vet exam follower business day decision allow dog breeders bring puppy litter basic check enough responsible full vet check possessioni feel depressed remaining dog clings leave side leave house minutes sits ball front door returni cannot even get bed pet died broke take emergency vet,1 depressedanxious life spent youth moving around small outsider kid would always target bullying learned hide emotions fake okay draw attention away myself spent time books imagining fantasy worlds life made close friend rd grade another subject bullying although abused well confided th grade realised wanted live anymore shamefully tried end friendship could deal feelings felt sorryit time started dropping hints parent admired time masked panic child might issues told talking problems okay people around me grew close friends none could trust fully feelingsthese past years slowly settled gone university find failure address mental health resulted apathy studies hobbies developed real deep friendships cannot find trusting emotions people do relieved hurti completed subject past couple years past due graduate cannot keep lying parents live with cannot tell truth either one parent socially inept understanding background mental health grew abusive household difficult time confusing honesty manipulationi never hurt myself know tell people feel without like manipulating them burdening them feeling like shit receiving end know difficult hear know tell parents,1 say is fall love big little edie watching movie human even watching first time hooked mesmerizing experience difficult describe im sure fans attest to watching it cry think two wonderful ladies longer us least grey gardens remember them think long possess fierce independence two ladies graced with although always admired jackie onassis kennedy stay heart way big little edie do rare treat know people wish had,0 given christopher nolans string successful films brainer want check filmography watch debut feature shot black white back england running less minutes long done little budget containing hallmarks made master filmmaker storytellerbr br though short film less gripping meandering plot leave guessing premise even scratch surface tale pretty amazing considering depth narratives structure characterization told follow writer wannabe called bill jeremy theobald starts habitual obsession following random people fancies streets voyeuristic manner first could conceived research starts make rules break thembr br he meets charismatic cobb alex haw turns robber peculiar sensibilities modus operandi soon finds hooked hanging go breaking entering speculating victims livelihood pursuit femme fatale blond lucy russell mobsters moll rejects every advancebr br told nonlinear fashion comes scenes quite add beginning sets film multiple viewings study nolan sustains suspense intrigue audience expecting wanting more gets duly delivered enough twists spins film dizzying crescendo loose ends begin come together brilliance stellar story start shine throughbr br its also amazing how first feature shot cheap something clever sophisticated conceived experience burgled nolan involved every stage production writing shooting producing directing worked project year since shoots happen weekends guess heres example successful filmmakers humble roots serve inspiration spur new filmmakers there ill patiently wait christopher nolans inception due later year whose trailer already tease,0 i now think about suicide constantly i feel like it is my only option in the long term i will never finish school and be able to hold down a job i will never be able to be stable enough to give my wife child i can t live up to anything anyone expects of me i am stuck though my death would be a catastrophe in my wife s life and my brother s life and i have a few friend who would be devastated a well also and i really hate to say this but the biggest reason i can t is because i can t leave my dog with anyone else he is very attached to me and no one else and would be very unhappy without me so i am stuck i can t function despite 0 year of trying medication and therapy i have no will to live except not to hurt people around me i hate this,1 @alyandaj I totally agree! Best movie ever.,0 watched bbc support blm ampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampamp,0 yknow make joke someone takes seriously pier one going business mom buying rugs selling mark ebay made crap ton money joked saying give money literally said willing make deal pending wanted like wait joke idk would spend money new amp guitar bunch shit would cool ahhhh,0 know im gonna tonight im gonna kill myself wanna die ive lost reasons live yep tonight everyone asleep house im gonna kill myself love much adis,0 sister slept last class lmao soon saw unexcused absence notification like lol dumb bitch sleeping shes going get ass beat turns ibuprofen took hives knocked out lol,0 said yes asked could borrow pencil said yes,0 @djayShazam Hey Shazam! I really love that "Open Your Eyes" by Dwele! I've never listened 2 him like that before! ,0 know much pretty sure wrong httpsdrivegooglecomfiledlqkmxsccgqtquarzmda_jyamdviewuspsharinghttpsdrivegooglecomfiledlqkmxsccgqtquarzmda_jyamdviewuspsharing,0 want end iti know kill myself overexamine everything even want die want kill tonight cant figure way relatively painlessly none pills cabinent really lethal except tylenol hurts like bitch die from fucking hard,1 tomorrowim killing tomorrow guys understand thank you,1 trying to figure out this twitter thing none of my friend are on yet soo much to see,0 ultimate guide nnn guide winning nnn might need this stay occupied staying occupied keep the mood things like exercise cook draw play video games bois even catching homework also read bible whenever the mood go somewhere else bed get bed pushups go drink warm milk go talk family member friend ask day stay computer device normal take breaks every then minutes fine help distance temptation nutting something helps get less stressed things like yoga meditation heart heart conversation buddy yours stress negative someones overall mood want good one persistent this stay positive good mindset try look bright side situation in try learn something new could new hobby new sport new game would recommend idle games idle games hook gameplay end pretty much babysitting game could also watch youtube something educational channel would recommend kurzgesagt good material pose interesting questions life think meme benefits nutting things like get dopamine everyone assumptions matter nnn try justify anymore guide help at least somewhat win get weeks nnn able last year proud yourself nnn may harder people easy others matters try encourage keep healthy habit see many benifits it,0 @islandchic thanks im feeling better now ,0 sister use rent every time got movies parents would get mad but let us anyways love iti cant find anyone lives near knows talking aboutim glad see im one loved moviei wish could find dvd somewhere would love watch bc loved much little kidand im now remember much itthats got little bunny fufu song friends know song movie think little girl got sliding slide little playground thing,0 want make look like accidenteven though even many close me want anyone feel guilt able help stop me hope give up,1 tired life shy cannot talk people holding eye contact cannot drive cannot travel alone cannot use maps want live near suicide ever wish sort cancer would made really happy near suicide ever today day concrete thought killing myself,1 infidelsarecool ugh how depressing i want to punch something,0 throwaway friends colleagues know main reddit also sorry right subredditampxbto start pretty good upbringing almost problems all went school without much trouble parents good me really nothing complain about but feel joy anything all hobbys feel mundane like everything else quickly get annoyed drained able hangout friends alone long thoughts get deep sometimes get suicidal going sometimedespite covid rampaging around could find somewhat decent paying job drowned work could think all colleague somewhat close friend worried working much honest mind it made clear really living work past year recently made promotion supervising position frankly much me miss old work much trigger anything inside me anything sort left bittersweet feeling nutshell year old normal upbringing reason joy life goal all,1 hey redit help im trying scarr self suggestions one gost bords,0 unnati bagga understanding kill anxiety understanding kill depression understanding in detail and get super curious what is anxiety what is the real root cause how can i change the cause you re not your mind you re not your body you ve both of them so you re superior feel it,1 think point get tension headaches cannot think anymore headache hate lot without logic although still hate even think things cannot even control loser blessed born iran rd world garbage county also blessed lgbt fucking place spice family also broke accept me sometimes think dad even want kid again keep thinking anything ever wanted issues disappear would happy know happiness feels like really non existent concept naive happiness kid like now feels like nothing absolutely matters know matters anymore except friends feel like damn burden amount issues much hate much loser am constantly thinking going tired soon enough kind sweet feels like long run maybe even would happier mething is think want die know why seems like way it thoughts offing keep popping head make feel like solution annoys much want live lost confused feel like idk done just idk really know keep crying like baby times broken sense mine self hatred death want live,1 i emailed my teacher a few week ago because we had a speech coming up so i emailed her ahead of time i explained that i have an anxiety disorder gad and that speaking in front of a class is not something i am able to do because of really bad anxiety attack and also i lose the ability to speak so yeah i asked if there wa any way i could still get point without having to do the speech in front of the class she asked if we could do it just u together a in i present it to just her at lunch i agreed but now i regret it my speech is tomorrow and i m freaking out even over just saying my speech to just her i don t think i can do it but it would look bad if i email her saying i ll just take the zero instead right,1 im fucking mess human beingat end fucking rope rn years fucking shit made depression worse earlier year grandad killed via overdose scattering ashes next week fucking horrible think about tell girlfriend person thought could trust whod support matter what ill postpone coming see ldr tells sick sick getting hopes let tells fuck off top ive struggling year solvent abuse result stress levels im probably gonna fail end future get relentlessly bullied college get called shit like school shooter psycho im fucking quiet im fucking sick it nothing ever good enough anyone access stuff id right right cant im stuck fucking loop things getting bit better going shit again want shit end im fucking waste oxygen im writing sit alone bathroom half bottle jager deep got numb pain even aint fucking working,1 aw deleted account guy asked nudes deleted account gonna see posts him ,0 use depressive thoughts live carelesslythis post everyone guys feeling suicidal ive there many timesuntil broke patterns realising life really is nothing know could figment imagination go careless fun give zero fucks words become sort hedonist whats worst could happen could die none us would mind whats point cutting chase make whatever existence isand stop caring freeing,1 im bored soooooo ask questions long theyre personal,0 tf problem opposite gender afraid opposite sex sexual orientation im lesbian speak normally girls bitch arent monsters uknownsubject thing hard opposite gender friends yall question swear,0 using pills something permanenti olanzapine mg tablets im supposed have obviously wont kill hopefully itll knock get train tracks morning cant anymore,1 pointthats really dont get it whats point living struggle compete life what get end all everyone else nothing bother single mom children one weeks old realised point life,1 watch film while soon after eatingbr br having said that begotten stick rest life like not based nihilistic philosophy life nothing man spasming ground to paraphrase title sequenceintroduction likely contain intense grisly imagery ever see filmbr br there dialogue image image describing cycle life films combination stark black white photography compounded truly creepy background sounds work drive home makers messagebr br the movie begins god portrayed bandaged obviously insane man slicing open torso straight razor subsequently dying filth death mother nature emerges corpse impregnate blood semen gives birth man represented maggot human convulsing earthbr br the landscape barren waste populated hulking shrouded humanoids eventually happen upon mother nature man slew violent scenes depicting rape nature destruction man humanoids proceed pound remains corpses back ground cycle life begins anewbr br i actually rented blockbuster one night based cover art hype content definitely blockbustertype film expect narrative dialogue pulled punches intense imagery based dark subjectbr br i give movie high marks filmwork audio think ill watching often again like movies dark unique one exponentially expected,0 saw psychiatrist went cat therapy june previously counselor recommended try sg enable find job printed piece paper containing information sg enable went sg enable found needed medical report psychiatrist sg enable could accept me today talk psychiatrist issue adult neurodevelopmental service ands department institute mental health imh singapore went imh mother independent yet job yet felt inferior it want people know needed financial help mother pay consultation psychiatrist one day hoped would longer need mothers financial aid pay consultation psychiatrist hope could work use savings help pay consultation psychiatrist future expenses successfully tried shut earphones temporarily imh need continuous loud noise generated earphones feel safe good sign longer afraid strangers still needed dark glasses though hide eyes strangers needed dark glasses peeped strangers see scrutinizing me would notice it time strangers even look me felt safe wearing dark glasses outside whereby would strangers around waiting consultation psychiatrist time went doctors consultation room psychiatrist politely asked mother go instead staying together consultation able see psychiatrist alone better communicating people now longer needed mother around remind important things must tell psychiatrist could myself good sign asked whether could wrote medical report stating fit go sg enable find job psychiatrist one charge case another psychiatrist charge case seeing psychiatrist instead usual psychiatrist case manager imh knew needed earlier appointment psychiatrist psychiatristincharge could see month now currently psychiatrist able see earlier date which today psychiatristincharge able that consultation drove mother home going cat therapy later would going peers house cat therapy peer someone mental illnesses like joining support group organized mentor took dark glasses earphones previously another psychiatrist told appropriate wear dark glasses earphones going talk person remembered advice taking dark glasses earphones fear people came again luckily people come cat therapy everything going well could control thoughts emotions behavior good sign defensiveaggressive cat therapy drove orchard road singapore cat therapy favorite thing whenever free drove home afterwards took bath needed eat late night supper could sleep routine this would able sleep would developed psychological problems eat late night supper still needed mother help take supper delivery man want people know needed mothers financial help one day hoped would able work could money pay supper consultation psychiatrist imh future expenses would like say thank everyone read blog post hoped sincerely would nice day ahead good bye ,1 everything say twisted me everything fails everyone ever encounter tells im loser everyone ever encounter gaslights me bad people get away things never face justice crimes nobody believes calls troll makes fantasiesfuck reddit worse chan claim better than reddit deserves banned,1 jus want kill myself jus want kill jus want kill killing requires courage,1 given low budget production limitations movie good plausible realistic shows csikos hungarian horsemen lived plains puszta risked lives save downed american pilot ruthless savage nazis drawn strong feelings young impressionable yet highly courageous boywho admires american pilot looking special effects superman heroes magical endingsthis movie you want feel must like dodge persistent amoral nazis lack compassion enthralled movie truly enjoyed love horses dogs humble helpful people value freedom aspire end movie one remember long time,0 need make thursday oh please help make iti strength left last week made appointment therapist earliest could arrange know bothers it took psychology school know say know do want magical session gives hope want doc say somethign already thought give hope keep going im sitting here thing think is im done want go on want life anymore want lay pass peacefully sleep days lay awake thinking time go wish would come naturally right now keel heart attack aneurism disease seen coming far wake every morning alone give comfort doesnt feel bad cause id leaving behind siblings parents nieces know love me dont cant help think irrelevant really am sure theyd upset theyd live lives eventually hit ends wheels time turn turn dust life would meaningless now need hope something keep going till least thursday cause right now thursday hope have slimmest hope best heart head fabric hurts,1 my depression is basically nonexistent these days so am i in the clear to finally say i beat it and i fuckin made it??? cause i feel like i finally reached that point,1 @ddlovato ChickMovie Night at Demi Lovato's ...It's all good & fodder for Lyrics xoxo,0 helenvking i feel for you commuting on packed train is hideous,0 crush fucking wierd idk guys like weirdest shit me like try start conversation minute gets quiet mind like lol fucked up buddy like ever im around them physically aware fact hoodie microscopic stain it like know even worry it makes pissed myself,0 you know i wa thinking i need money,0 sucks feel like want live small reasons know things unbearable continue onthis going one boring rant even one reads this need somewhere vent sorry think ive always taken things seriously see logical side situation tells im things get better hold on believe me im sure hell could figure determined enough also see side tells hell lot agony waiting dont something it even get past first barrier the horrors upcoming grades collapse pressure homework theres still waiting me ive never normal physically mentally severe anxiety know limit lot life cause unnecessary pain also picky eat point body isnt getting nearly enough nutrients dont even know theres treatments fix that im exaggerating eat like damn year old insane humiliating im also overweight lazy change it one parent atm cant stand around her shes making live annoying boyfriend friends except one sort friend see every two months dont really much common theres day goes dont fantasize death constantly wish im school teacher notice im going through course never do job anyways im tired all want take easy way out dont know happens death nothing worse mess,1 important question watch barcelona vs atletico madrid tonight tottenham vs man city,0 want committed cant stand stigmaive randomly crying day think may suffering sort disorder like bipolarism dementia ive suffering anxiety depression quite time ive thoughts redflag ive constant pain head two months want committed put psychiatric observation ive crossed line family knows ive ive always low energy im going scare them guy immediate family want this also know im somewhat depressed find im suicidal well anything else might wrong me do,1 need love advice followed guy like instagram one classes follow back think dm bcus like unsure should dit sry yall dont think im gonna probably wait next school yr see person ever happens,0 @hgainj You don't have to know them to try to help:) what's your opinion on a support page for depression/anxiety support?,1 djsoulsister yeah great vid i had the quot single but sold it a few year ago,0 four friends one films go without expectations find knocked loop sort file away hear song georgia mind ray charles images vague feelings begin flicker edge consciousness remember crazy film made laugh cry almost timebr br why film memorable first least people lived all captures well tenor times dashed hopes successes sincerity emotional rollercoaster ride leads poignant nostalgia then acting amazing danilow angst passion georgia difficult grasp o wisp enchanting nevertheless louis handicapped roommate charm spare attacks life gusto takes moment wry smile knows well might lastbr br how long since saw film made really care people story even far perfect film presents people whose choices necessarily commendable film never moralizes allows us appreciate human condition variety even minor characters welldefined personality history film seems real even actions reactions might seem top thats way life is think it film engages complexity defined character truly amazing satisfying experience,0 waiting original picture quite time now brokedown palace hard believe aspect however ingenious directing screenplay palace scores big br br ive really never enjoyed watching claire danes movies ill tell what really changed mind one kate beckinsale joins danes vacation thailand meet young man convinces take trip hong kong him however neglected inform would carrying obscene amount narcotics him well ultimately get caught end thailand prison know know could know pounds drugs well get one tiny miscue find well written acted story lately found getting drawn storylines movies watch developing personal feeling characters watch movie different end movie found caring characters film br br bill pullman plays hank green attorney lives thailand specializes international relations always pullman delivers excellent performance ties movie together beautifully br br twists turns will end movie tears one movies likely passed searching movie watch home opinion next time video store pass one again,0 quot flight of the conchords quot suddenly disappeared from spotify,0 kind overdose kill mehi ive intrusive suical thoughts almost month now lost job ive wanted years managed make two shifts last time came broke tears front everyonethe customers boss coworkers etc boss said would best got help trying maintain working im really frustrated working since end july year months ive let many job opportunities slip away cant bring get bed want die im looking kind attention want know overdose like would kill me ill way took mg seroquel mg hydroxyzine mg lexapro mg famotidine would kill me id rather life long complications like liver problems brain problems want stop existing right make sure ill gone im going cut arms let bleed,1 kinda gave friend rim jobbbb mean kinda okay one lick still rlly fun,0 love sarah plain tallwinters end good movie tells hardships living farmi live farm know like hardshipsbr br i love setting kansas beautiful place favorite country star kansas love country kansas beautiful would love live kansasbr br sarah plain tallwinters end think love story love love stories fun watch like watch nice watch people fall love falling love hard people think ive fallen love once sarah plain tall winters end favorite love story,0 reasonssevere social anxiety depression social isolation deep self hatred i hate everything appearance brain zero friends mom love me nostalgia heroin amp benzo addict hoarder bed traumas police raid scared much cant sleep debt appear court could go jail cant even leave house it overdosing soon many things going on im scared,1 tried break end semester day supposed leave intentionally missed flight stay talking talk staying him know do mostly scared deal kind huge blow mental health scared repurcussions friends apart feel like fall back on feel like monster confirming fear abandonment also feel conflicted incredibly kind generous affectionate,0 favorite color blue favorite color blue thanks noticing,0 disappointed myselfi girl like today like make guess comfortable end ooking another guy mean like playing knw like him really cannot deal that want die much anymore pain life hope die sleep tonight wish wish dead,1 downward spiral wish school psychologist would notice could doas many know millions quarintine moment many students stuck online work extreme social anxiety anxiety general topped depression nothing special case year started new school tried normal student inevitably ended eating every lunch schools psychologist office just like old school nice understanding ive opened lot her always tried miss school absent would feel awful mornings wanting go whats point literally one waiting me even teachers would notice absence time went would backtracked owed work would overwhelm make worse fast forward now were stuck home wanted right spiraled much know do alone times helping all least school could see different faces talk would moments enjoyed for depressed nothing new would frequently go psychologists office cry understand depressed live parents theyre another country live family friend im way overdue bunch online work im borderline failing school ends june know do whenever try work get headaches want cry never get anything done ive sent countless apology emails teachers makes feel worse sending emails psychologist trying keep hopeful guess feel joy anything loved draw ive completely stopped see anything else tried convince today sent hopeless email yesterday try think graduating couple weeks left give motivation all graduate feel endlessly hopeless border taking life weeks ago anxiety medication aunt visiting thought trying get addicted took bottle away after woke pm day point being ive close im sorry im rambling think psychologist thinks id seriously something like that even though ive told wish would get way car way home wondering tell seriously ive thinking suicidal thoughts would would try sending crisis center or something like that want depressed anymore want want risk sent crisis center pandemic going around especially since im one top affected states pills left aunt left theyre sedatives doctor given higher dosage mg one pill counts two ive heard pass away sleep either way wish know would,1 storyi around years old old enough realize father alcoholic workaholic drug abuser coke fights dad got worse would get drunker every night screaming parents never stopped around time started cut myself want die felt like blame fathers actions needed punished around time dad mentally abused started physically abuse me gave lovely shiner popped blood vessel eye dragged hair room proceeded suffocate me eventually stopped left damage done mom took away him minimum wage job life really sucked weeks time food fridge gas electric shut numerous times point life really wanted die would stay home school look moms room looking medication would kill me almost resorted injecting insulin shes diabetic months later attempted cut throat avail really makes sad knowing low life would thing me life bad back thought killing way out not im tell life gets better may seem like now will want know im you need someone talk to matter time im want me survived to may know you love you tldr know going im you please let help,1 lost hopehaving spent many years trying figure right medications right doses psychiatrist give up do want keep trying even get right meds know eventually screw fuck able recover,1 guess whos back im back mutha fuckas idk,0 day seeing post pogchamp,0 @rimglobal i'll let you know if it gets picked up. ,0 want die im terrified deathi tried years ago stopped midway got scared like terrorized things got much better since then theres day goes without thinking again whatever might say cant shake feeling always there appreciate nice things want say help want know live without beating everyday,1 dropped car off to get exhaust replaced that s 0 i could do without spending,0 feel uselessi just feel like crap every day boyfriend amazing cares feel like love could redirected someone deserves it keeps saying hed rather spend night listening issues minutes listenimg euology doubt that know bad things get know bullying extended family nothing tell trust do settings bring myself tell him like want kms every damn day,1 absolutely blown away john cassavetess opening night first movie ive seen seems bigger scale thus feels mainstream still feel grounded previous films perhaps makes intense also something undoubtedly cathartic watching moviebr br its fact cassavetes made staple career ideal expressed behind camera throughout career director expressing front rowlandss character middleaged stage actress myrtle gordon cannot bring play role upcoming production written uncalculatedly follows impulse impulse resulting appears chaos stage finds right one daringly abstract premisebr br this movie fail capture innate steering one goes emotional cleansing one understands myrtle many things does seen even portrayed something destructive yet might best thing her may cleansing rather breakdown withdrawal cocoon rebellion culminates meltdown cassavetes gives character brutally real touch early on ardently arguing nothing common character yet quiet emotionally corroding fear opposite truebr br the last scene climactic performance myrtle shares character painfully estranged acting her one interesting hilarious hardhitting enlightening enjoyable moments ive ever seen movie,0 Talking to dome hotties on aim ,0 know anymorei know im going die young funny thing used love idea young hated thought growing old want nothing live long want experience life visit amazing places amazing things know thats going happen im going die young theres nothing it im body feels like old woman ive enough horrible events fill lifetime many days want end all wheather die naturally redflag know able look back say life one worth living way honestly dont even know im still alive right now maybe fear unknown idea whats going happen die maybe ill go somewhere stay eternity maybe disappear maybe soul go like candle light maybe christians right go hell killing myself doesnt really matter since im pretty sure im already hell maybe punishment something maybe something horrible personal form hell maybe deserve this guess none matter die eventually hope quick hope doesnt happen messed way like murdered even though surprised someone want kill me im exactly good person friends family tell am know im not know truth know deserve happiness even im selfish enough want anyway sometimes im upset ask god kill me cant bring it ask me people cared me maybe could go without worry would happen them because honest ive wanted die really long time everytime im end it think people miss me cant go it really want fucking die cant remember last time even slightly happy feels like dream cant had goal cant reached cant ever happy live know watching movie day girls family abusing her met guy saved suddenly fine think lot mostly load shit usually isnt prince save things get bad make many movies anyway prince struggling getting called names everyday mother sobbing shower time would leave alone time could feel extent happening screamed showed emotion made scar arm people stare ask questions about diagnosed one worst mental illnesses have needed him nowhere thing prince charming nobody save you save yourself die trying sounds glum true sadly true ten days im supposed kill myself remembered set day calendar basically im supposed kill unless actually magically feel want live havent really felt long time im probably going it dont worry me honestly dont think anything save point im actually kinda glad maybe finally rest maybe feel pain anymore,1 omg realised something okay someone tells something double check im hearing right even doubt heard right could possibly wrong wasnt said realised tell mum something say sure another thing little would ask someone something would say never even though remember since adult everybody believed tldr years people doubting made hard believe im relaying correct message,0 @d4v3c00k Dave "The Cat" Cook lands on his feet and has 9 lives!,0 knew dowdy queen victoria plump monarch virtual recluse years death husband prince albert actually led life fraught drama intrigue younger days the young victoria chronicles young queens romance husbandtobe also pretty good job detailing political machinations surrounding ascent thronebr br the act setup draws right away following death victorias father duke kent less year victorias birth duchess kent eventually hooked former army officer john conroy offered services comptroller widow infant queentobe conroy insisted victoria raised atrocious kensington system rules designed prevent future queen contact children growing up whats more victoria forced sleep mothers bedroom everyday became queenbr br the film explains parliament passed regency act established victorias mother would become regent and hence guardian event victoria acceded throne still minor time duchess conroy tried intimidate hapless princess insisted sign papers making conroy private secretary treasurer strongwilled victoria would none it refused go along conroys mothers nefarious plans duchess disliked king william regarded philanderer brought disrespect monarchy king felt duchess disrespected wife result duchess attempted limit victorias contact king overthetop scene seemed actually occurred history king berated duchess birthday banquet stating goal survive victoria reached th birthday mother would become regentbr br king william kept word died short time victoria became eligible accede throne victoria took revenge mother support conroy blamed making childhood miserable banished secluded apartment buckingham palace number years victoria little contact motherbr br the young victoria conveys excitement pomp circumstance surrounding victorias coronation queen good part film deals victorias relationship lord melbourne whig party prime minister unfortunately depicted film much younger actually was beginning melbourne gains young queens trust become good friends early years reign sees melbourne progressive later loses respect somewhat hes revealed typical politician hiding contempt masses hes supposed championing reality melbourne father figure victoria film hints sexual tension prime minister prince albert though romantic rivalsbr br the plot thickens melbourne forced queen must commission sir robert peel conservative tory party new prime minister film chronicles events the bedchamber crisis peel resigned victoria refused replace bedchamber ladies wives tory politicians film leaves another scandal involved lady hastings one duchesss ladiesinwaiting accused affair john conroy becoming pregnant him hatred conroy victoria contributed nasty rumors spread hastings alleged pregnancy turned out hastings appeared pregnantwhat actually abdominal tumor victorias inexperience shows bedchamber crisis films scenarists ignore unsavory aspects character evidenced hastings affairbr br the rest the young victoria deals course romance queen prince albert victoria kept albert waiting film makes clear since wanted acclimate duties new sovereign spent good deal time corresponding one another albert returned england gave victoria support trying times bedchamber crisisbr br i find good number parallels prince albert prince philip current queens husband philip mainly danish went school germany inlaws german background albert philip made business reform etiquette court theres great scene albert discovers servants still setting table king george iii even though dead years alberts struggle philipas husbands monarchs find something do albert philip became involved various civic projects proved live continually shadow everpopular wivesbr br fortunately theres excellent scene toward end film albert infuriates victoria perceives interference affairs albert want second bedchamber crisis goes wifes head arranges compromise involving victorias bedchamber ladies victoria barely talking albert assassins bullets almost cuts in film albert shot arm never happenedbr br the performances film uniformly excellent especially principals emily blunt rupert friend young victoria ends rather abruptly closing credits lean much toward hagiography no mention victorias depression alberts death victoria still engaging drama fascinating history lesson,0 "@BradleyWill haha, thanks ;) Hmmm about me... I was a competitive Figure Skater (From Alabama) for 10 years ",0 Weather improvement lifts depression - https://is.gd/adOIzV  #overland #overlanding #adventuretravel #travel #Europe #Motorcycle #Spain pic.twitter.com/VobvxDiK8v,1 feeling like disappointmentbeen hit hard lately always financial struggle made hard complete higher education im supposed breadwinner family miracle happened finally completed it happy moment recent memory achieved degree started dating beautiful woman dreams were currently ldr type complicated situation atm due visa issues country aim work the country in would mean issues relationship might last long come back home family eagerly waiting start something help bettering lifestyle future uncertain feels like might lose sides success relationship wise career wise something happened shook things us misunderstanding involved jealousy cheating kind however get vilified hated woman im holding easier career path life for managed patch things barely things changed relationship thing keeping something awful first place bright light life missing im stuck shit storm comfort disrupted family dislikes lack progression life feel like keep letting people down know head something childish time kind lately neither world head roof well say goodbyes via voicemail,1 ill keep briefi sexually assaulted last wednesday night want die,1 specific memories things never happened time theyre delightful even make playlists make vivid also arent recent like probably mid late s child im still sure never happened,0 hey im year old and ive recently been diagnosed with severe anxiety after ive been struggling with it my entire life i take my med when i need them only which might be bad and i also started therapy n it been helpful anyways ive been struggling with death anxiety for a while every once in a while ill somehow convince myself that it my last day week on earth n that i need to say goodbye to everyone n that this will be the last time im doing this or that etc it so bad to the point where i cant really get out of bed for day bc im scared of death whenever i have plan i keep thinking about all the bad thing that can happen to me so i cancel im scared of flying or driving or anything that can put me in danger tmw im going on a hiking trip n im terrified that it gon na go badly doe anyone have advice on how to deal with this bc i dont want it to stop me from living my life ive been struggling with it ever since i wa a child and i need it to get le intense asap ty,1 dont think anymoreive tried kill times pastbut baby attempts middle school really werent going go anywhere last time tried almost died overdosebut friend called police deal borderline personality disorder point dont know feel anymore tend ruin relationships but dont know feelings warranted somehow everything gets really skewed bpd really sad mix really would need write pages pages describe feel regular basis but sum hate thinking killing bday th feb notice whenever plan never actually money buy sleeping pills sometimes im really set ways sometimes want get knocked wake solid year idk im miserable dont know ,1 @Jacbros I always felt that Evangelion was about depression and the struggle to accept yourself.,1 @gojeffrey Sweet ride!! Were those the days of the green lizard? lol,0 repetition helli need kill myself hurts much,1 im losthello name adam ive struggling years im afraid past years thoughts redflag fear anxiety im close limit ive quiet long im scared come family feelings years ago losing aunt triggered all everyday feeling hopeless lost guilty remorseful things ive done lifebut thoughts like little ive experienced life time ive revealed feelings family broke saw cuts watching get worried something portrayed average day made feel absolutely dreadful later found attempt survivor attempt odoverdose pills attempt hanging happened blackout pills never went noose im still afraid first therapy diagnosed severe depression social anxiety eating disorder later transferred fucken group therapy reason made feel anxious eventually last session therapy showed results daily check feelingswhich step survey momdad come find ive putting feeling horrible afraidanxious everyday mom ive absolutely amazing described happiest shes ever seen me therapy helped eventually put sertaline anti anxiety anti depression im sorry forgot never finished first prescription ever found right type anti depressant mom thought wanted drugs took recommended pill schedule week stopped taking them time ive feeling worse afraid damage worry ive caused even more everything going on im afraid ive ever ive relapsed cutting developed severe insomnia day day feeling hopeless worthless questioning still here whats motivation move bed keep going ask nearly every night almost break everytime please please please someone anyone help me im scared might something drastic ive shaped fear anxiety idk anymore,1 friend mine really needs help im ideastldr friend mine going real hard times lots trouble parents recent horrible things happened her ive close one year weve rarely seen other trusts im trying best help her already attempted commit redflag work since little better today texted saying happened last weekend ruined this guy thought friend wanted sex blocked plus honestly thinks mother hates her words come point reason live anymore ive tried tried listen keeps saying shell it ideas convice otherwise,1 want stopi want die want exist redflag really means end im sad depressed happy im nothing unfulfilled desires expectations desires expectations already done everything want life nothing left offer me want nothingness im constant pain physically completely hollow emotionally really nothing me fall somewhere unsatisfactory mediocre everything cant care meaningless me life wonderful thing want it dont never asked here ive never wanted here im empty alone nothing offer world im wasting resources could better used someone wants here continuation seems selfish greedy cant see continuing already fighting years would normal life span really want kill myself know another way cease myself wisp background serve purpose want allowed stop here tried killing years ago age thought another decade half everything seems horrid im prisoner existence want out fought urge every day years tired constant weight life becoming much willpower handle want deserved rest,1 surface reason suicidal thoughts maybe people would think ungrateful really struggle about mean friends support me family financially good always back shit years old grades good college quite good among colleges country difficulties future want give birth want family ambitious career kind passion life anything look forward to why keep feeling burdens end it knew family would devastated would end life blink eye hesitation struggles about,1 hate body much makes want diem feel scrawny ive lifting awhile ive gained lot weight feel weak scrawny feel like everyone looks thinks dont look masculine attractive enough deserve die feel like guys muscular look think skinny much better me im anxious,1 whyvee welcome home sound like a hell of a journey back,0 i have been getting body pain by manic depression it s very awkward for drawing,1 @Danielle_Jane14 okay well then now i don't feel so bad lmao ,0 feel going crazyeveryday feel dreamy state cant escape feel trapped inside box ive cried much cant feel anything anymore reason depression suicidal thoughts stupid drugs gf years broke me feel damn crazy losing mind laugh loud sometimes dumb things scared sometimes real reality not lose mind point id hurt family members instantly ending life,1 @kencasey maybe a new beginning on drawing will follow ,0 redflagis pussy shit want die significant other,1 my drink has too much vodka. haha. YAY ,0 value anything knowing that could take life rn everything would over nothing would matter care life reason bc afraid die lol better nothing always lie go on bc feel anything let go awhile ago stopped myselfso fucking stuck here surrounded nothing destined literal nothing fucked id easy die,1 getting muchim completely messed head doesnt know happy happiness cant bring feel anymore even feel bit slightest glimpse happiness feel depression doesnt let happen battling battle im constantly losing years worst thing im youngand way life going dont want live im typing tonight gcses dont go school due head completely holding back im going good future ive completely let parents ive messed whole body mental health even due drugs cant take anymote wish reverse button go back good times unfortunately cant happen say hope u never get much hole im stuck happens best us ur going tbrew hard time keep ur head farewell,1 hi there end year needing go antidepressants struggling depression severe suicidal thoughts since among mental illnesses finally motivation seek help anyone know start call gp set appointment went camhs beyond uselessany help appreciated thanks accessing antidepressants uk,1 subreddit parentsis subreddit suicidal parents understand teens go hopelessness well fear posting negatively may helpful would nice speak parents going struggles,1 scientist found new mental illness called sans ptsd formed ptsd fighting sans quite strange non gamer scientists average gamer normal,0 neither someone suffers depression someone lives fullfiling life discribe would say statue indifferencei have long time contemplated argued debated question why ending life even though see point living on like thing material nonmaterial stopping me why is suicide takes much effort is lack resources end life is right opportunity is basic survival instinct stopping me think not mundane reasons easily overcomei possed question again come answers again retorted answers again rejected answers possed question againso what cannot seem come answer sparks flame burn doubts answer satiate gap curiosityi feel uncomfortable indiffrent nature voilated annoying honestly need know quickly end unreasonable life ending lifewhat actually stopping me,1 hello my life is a rollycoster 0 year ago i married a wonderful man he wa everything to me im from spain and i met him in a navy base he wa a usmarine we had a baby girl in 00 and moved to camp pendleton i wa so happy in our house with our baby well one day told me that he wa going to irak so i wa so sad scared depressed and proud i spent all the time cry waiting for his letter and thanks god he came back home safe but he wa not mu husband anymore he wa a different man stress anger yelling all the time i spent 0 year trying to help him but even the cop came home and the cop told him that he had a wonderful wife and he wa going to lose me and that wa when my dad died i took my kid back to spain and a new life well year after that a met a man he wa olfer than me but i feel in love and now im stuck my now husband for year treat really bad my kid and me not phisically but mentally he is just i had a breast cancer year ago my exhusband wa there for me still have a good relation with him he is my best friend and now with depression sad anxiety and feel just love for my kid and i cant leave because it will look bad in my family and because finantially a cant go anywhere so i think i wont be happy and live this live well sorry i need to get this out of my heart i think with time i will be stronger because after the cancer treatment im just so tired depressed fatigue,1 online friend lets call jim jehovahs witness ive known decade nowadays email thrice year still consider one favorite online friends deep insightful conversations are weve rubbed wrong way past different ideas god raised born christian looking becoming unitarian universalist,0 "hello first place welcome to Boston, babyy <3",0 ive honestly got idea anymoreit feels everyone fake feel like im backtalked annoying sometimes like hear brain speaking hey heyy people fake dont talk them far thing helps music thats kinda stopping work really fucking good friends deserve them nobody needs suicidal fucktard cant help you pushes away use anyone barely anything useful life people say what loved ones well ive fucking abused really think makes difference except father whos actually fine family one id feel suffer see point hanging anymore ill never get better dont want feel guilty committing redflag hard get help really see im gonna get this feel like im gonna im even want anyone feel bad me deserve regardless,1 "honestly hit depression this week, someone cuddle me better",1 "@BondiVet Sean has something for you, make sure he passes it on this week... ",0 people always say everyone matters everyone special yet hear people also saying awful terrible people aremake mind,1 pain rage absoulte griefim happy report struggles life finally see light everything bullied belittled told teachers telling get far life due speech impediment lost lover said blame thier death abandoned betrayed people thought friends true friends forced move due circumstances way past communicate them parents divorce feeling burden others deserved nothing finally mind set horrible care life lifes others toxic thoughts why kill self kill ones caused pain rage finally able come years life finally found passion life everything pursue it recently found determination try school fully reconnected family emotional distance while ive cut remaining toxic relationship distance form them grief rage pain say truely move forward life asked could change anything would past would said yes know would absolute shaped made want make sure one else would face go through want make comfort people times need said im leaving community wish struggling succumb demons conquered keep moving forward finally believe weak never know life could know hard promise get better people lost battle thier inner demons wish found thier peace,1 its post iw depression hours,1 help need help today saw someone knew familiar staring local target know someone ig want call look like weirdo say ig,0 dead yeti really really really really really really really really want die tried kill lot times never end someone kill please tell died think would even care notice anyways always watching people amazing life friends closest thing friend boyfriend cheated one,1 tried kill new yearsthis going long post advice comments really appreciated love already sorry advance messy post im writing past midnight im really flooding thoughts that fyi im year old girl tried kill new years already really depressed day got ditched family friends ended alone kind absolute last spill could take ended overdosing shower floor one neighbours heard collapse carried hospital signed in faked name address whole identity i know illegal stop please knew fly days knew would keep time had ended climbing window running home feels unreal numbing kind feel like dont even remember properly im quite sure why strong feelings come whenever think day three years ago experienced excruciating months life one best friends killed she found months missing ice drowned another close friend died traffic accident cant really explain felt fucking fucked everyone pretty much broke apart everything knew town died freaking sucked really miss much swear ive never strong emotion desire towards anything love much still do sometimes feels like even remember look like anymore general past seems fake unreal afterlife hope theyre okay now past years really developed depression anxiety self harm way much deal them point need apply fake skin which used halloween hands cover fucking shred marks now since then moved different country new school in everything significantly pressuring everyone know fucking fake prime purpose life getting stanford friends here asking anyone guess could seem like one people loads friends general highly liked place really like this fun friends guess know give shit me told past current diagnosis them really brushed off point month later tried talk again totally forgotten told them want talk always boyfriend problems soooo important fucking bullshit last may contacted one teachers asking ear first adult ive actually ever conversation like before every time ever try talk someone shitty ass past feelings cry like bitch throughout dayweek fucking humiliating back story really lovely empathetic teacher ever met ended kind telling typical rap him my past feel like moment except never told self harm ended inviting house get know wife since similar experiences instead talking disgusting feelings stuff talked everyday things music which amazing taste on really nice proper conversation someone normally since then hes acting different towards me every time sees sour face im kind time consuming freak problem is ive developed huge crush him fucking hate it every time see cant breathe panic get sad i frequent panic attacks every day reason anyway hurts much much ignores me go way take route school likely time know timetable think now ive become really suicidal point feel like human actually gives shit anything anyone end selfish motherfuckers go benefit whole world based getting money convincing everyone happy are really know part want advice on need feedback anything,1 something wrong me whenever end anime series fell depressed plz someone help ,0 may concernto may concern letter explain choose take life years old easiest times dad left years ago stole life savings meaning forced take loan get university little money im studying like students made worse fact know dad took money pissed wall past months probably hardest ive encountered life want see doctor cannot months verge tears sad upset reason hard next months get worse see light end tunnel girlfriend breaking point im ready go pretty much mum great person cancer depression dad left leaving care look best could mum done amazing job mostly sister well way success enjoying rest life pursuing dream unfortunately think achieve this know feel doesnt know scars ive done relieve pain away home ups downs like said summer comes leave go home things get worse im ready go want think concidered seeing doctor many times im either embarrassed think get rut friends time great friends go people best mourn passing grieve better place even afterlife heaven better planet know go take last breath breath coming soon within next weeks people took piss bullied said anything succeed fuck you thank x,1 am gutted checked weather report for the wrong day no fishing for me today,0 this bug me so much and make me want to cry whenever i m with others or even just chatting to stranger i m chatty relaxed and pretty confident no one would ever think that i wa someone that ha social anxiety i m totally fine at party social gathering etc however i get socially anxious a fuck when getting public transport on my own or simply being anywhere new and scary on my own walking through a busy city a people around me look at me why am i like this,1 @Arizona_Abby Thank you. I will check that out ,0 im tired life everything wanna end allim tired everything everyday wake worrying imma deal wit another arguement another beating every night go sleep worry bout deal next day im always stressing im tired mentally physically cant keep puttin know never anything deserve bullshit guess one person love heart cant believe truth dont understand,1 congested nose,0 "The only indie genres are Puzzle and Depression, fight me(Don't fight me I'm goofin)",1 wa doing good at the start of the year and i can just feel the darkness over my shoulder i hate this i hate depression when i don t have it it feel like how wa i even depressed then it creep back and i m like how wa i ever happy,1 therealnph twitter hate u both then,0 need help please help hypothetically lets say burnt apartment complex hypothetically everyone inside died but neighbor called fire car license plates full tank gas with back,0 two quarter hours sometimes slow moving thoughtful film interrupted vast sword battles battle darkness light signified constant motif blazing sun superbly demonstrated three way fight demons bandits soldiers forest eclipsebr br be prepared following stunning sword fight lightning filled skies end picture scratching head puzzlement,0 Passive Suicidal Depression – I Wish I Didn't Wake Up http://twib.in/l/5jB7bKyy4eMB ,1 know never good enough anything time dieafter several months unemployment found job today ive realized im good enough get past entry level career tomorrow im quitting job killing myself nothing life live except career im stupid get past first level it absolutely nothing look forward life time end atrocity im sick unmitigated failure yes successful corpse,1 friend cheated girlfriend really dont know do hes probably closest friend told cheated her also told broke up shes become pretty good part friend group im really sure situation stay friends him need give forgiveness hes said feels like piece shit ive made sure tell as friend really shouldnt again enough much im really confused guess advice welcome,0 @mardecoca....I'm cookoo cookoo cookooo lol ,0 proflappleby my person diagnosis depression been told nothing more cmht can do,1 @RoyCisneros When you have giant ears and a fluffy tail ,0 i m year old turning soon in a few month i live in constant dread i have no passion no goal no special achievement in my life and never been in a relationship i don t know what i want nor what i m doing in this so called life everything just feel exhausting i cry myself to sleep everyday i also feel extremely disconnected from others i don t fit in even though i try the hardest to be a decent human being i try to treat others with kindness and respect be a good listener help people when they need my help work hard exercise on daily basis take a good care of my appearance but no matter how hard i try to present myself at best i still feel i don t fit in i still feel empty unworthy and unwanted i want to do something that i could be proud of but no matter what i do i still never feel i m good enough even for myself i crave for meaningful connection i want to have someone to share and spend my day with laugh with cry with share my handmade gift with just to see smile on their face someone that feel like home because i ve been feeling homeless all this time i want to feel loved cared for and wanted for once but it s like it s just this idea of meaningful connection that i have in my head i can even barely hold a conversation whenever i try to talk to someone i feel extremely drained i m stuck in this rabbit hole between feeling extremely lonely and not having energy to talk at the same time i don t know i just feel like i m a failure human being and want to completely disappear thanks for reading my long rant i don t have anywhere else to get my mind off,1 Good morning! Just finished an apple fritter for breakfast. That was my fruit serving for the day ,0 want buy gun year ago asked that id think crazy days im actually seems like decent idea ar bullshit acog scope cod type advanced warshit handgun locked safe case probably revolver cause theyre simple operate stressful situation days george floyd riots crazy shit itd good something protect case shit hit fan im cheap like good one anyway id wait til move out probably tell family,0 ask stuff plz im bored feel like coming fancy post ill let guys content,0 damn funny valentines day already history homework time emblem castle eggman zone act sonic robo blast eh like anything else anyway would definitely take sonic robo blast girlfriendboyfriend also holiday named rd us president,0 @mathiel Zooyork. never mind that. ,0 i hate myself so much for being like that when they re just minding their business sometimes i just see people so casually happy and hugging and being close or just visibly happy in general and i just feel so bitter they don t deserve me being so shitty over their happiness i can t help it i know i m garbage i know i don t deserve to be like them but sometimes i see people hugging and i wish i knew what it felt like to be hugged and cared for like that so badly it hurt,1 @nursharina Get 100 followers a day using www.tweeteradder.com Once you add everyone you are on the train or pay vip ,0 life ruinedits point return way happy never enjoy anything entire life fucked completely ruined,1 things badits trivial complain job people much worse job making absolutely miserable took two weeks mental health leave feel like much help tuesday go back already dread it want die want anymore hope world feels like already theres nothing left die along it know do made throw away account know do dont nothing feels like helps want quit job feel trapped there things uncertain im afraid losing therapist ive considered getting drunk go work deal all nobody nothing fall back on ground hit im really feeling desperate tonight know life improve,1 know what im gonna say it genuinely really like oatmeal rasin cookies,0 shopping ,0 wrote redflag noteim going now least cant leave people love love me wrote tore want cant leave them im tired sad feeling plastic going highs lows im tired,1 cant stop fucking upmy life series terrible decisions ive managed fuck one relationship thats keeping going want hurt much anymore fault everyone would much better exist,1 cfsmeim going kill really soon think abity manage far outstripped maybe today im brave,1 "Walking home from school and I look like a loner, funny day at school today ",0 bad person ruined relationship best friend zoey literally best friends hung pretty much every day talked deep stuff things wouldnt tell anyone ended telling shit going life deserves better said cant sleep night feels like life isnt going anywhere doesnt care happy not feels numb constantly told mentally exhausted was wish could catch breath parents alcoholics dont make much money emotionally abusive high expectations grades motivation work even though felt like trying really hard still made bs cs really close let really personal stuff like weed overdosing melatonin birth control reason btw hate people weed shes literally family history addiction like dont understand whats going head lmao convinced teenagers felt empty her burden normal couple times cried talking things like breakups stuff got down lasted long time cried boy longer relationship lasted couldnt take anymore loved much let convince deserves feel constant pain tried talking solutions said think could think talking school guidance counselor know theres stigma guidance counselors end day professionally trained deal exact situation course would never talk behind back force talk them offered write email them myself mention name see first steps could make did let read email take parts didnt want share like weed thing lol felt really good it told me understood cant hurt reach someone next day guidance counselors literally pulled class sat talk her without her fine first wanted didnt want talk scary ask help understood that guidance counselors talked lot stuff went well opinion said right thing good friend her shouldnt let get caught personal life said job speak her kinda agreed one point brought something talking parents said didnt think would good idea said get it ended asking name made mistake giving them know told zoey wouldnt sounded like gonna help her ended it mind probably know better me want name probably good reason apparently used name look student contact files immediately called parents told zoey personal shit even said grounds take away parents at least zoey told said that course dont condone anyone taken away family got really angry blamed commotion said parents really mad saying personal stuff home life told shes attention needs stop told thought parents assholes because are intention never call agree shouldve checked zoey giving name counselors moment seemed like right thing over seemed like things calmed again said shes sorry overreacting still loves me good again apologized genuinely told never meant happen wanted happy week later came again said something got heated argument angry selfdiagnosed even though literally showed every symptom ruined life told obvious never meant happen never said anything without permission except name moment thought right thing do im sorry kept yelling me reason couldve gotten taken parents replied and gets nasty dont believe said that doesnt make sense sure literally suck parents doesnt mean get taken away say that probably said fucking reason thats said dont ever talk blocked me havent spoken since angry moment said things definitely didnt mean wished guidance counselors never called stupid parents couldve worked own told talk parents told didnt want share name asked anyways called anyways everythings mess wanted fucking happy guess shouldve left alone dont think anyone deserves feel like burden life pointless fair her deserves better im ok never wants talk again get it wish could see fog realize intention never happen wanted happy terrible person done instead help someone situation,0 danadearmond,0 zoloft focalin changed life past four years better week feeling like regressing lot interest activities normally like brain feels like fog around love new job energy perform well fiancee went town tuesday well made things worse feel useless tired like shit general think hitting extra hard well long would talk fiancee much cannot bear put her lost wrong want get back routine idk shit sucks getting worse again,1 want diei dont know else say sorry wasting time want die,1 i never had illusion of grandeur growing up i had a pretty low bar for what itd take to make me happy,1 im may good fellows hope dont insult lads lassies whilst im amongst american found rather maddening people believe us jolly americans shcalops think okay joke day generations parents unleashed suns upon innocent souls foreign nation tho must americans reacting pure anger pearl harbor thats still exaggerated reaction however okay joke day innocent souls lost lives pansies death wish one hate subjects why day incite conflict confusion aint nobody got time that joke years one man thought higher denomination people sought slaughter pure statisfaction joke tens thousands men women children american jewish asian on joke things right acceptable quite frankly shouldnt either trying relay chums blasted hypocritical scum americans same take responsibility actions ancestors past remain people dead gone us make decision either dwell dark past move forward future room change didnt come make affected events mentioned offended im sorry,0 note ive keeping plus update todayive losing friends steadily since high school today im two kevin jacob jacob like talking depression calls pansy try get things chest know much hurts im afraid let know risk losing yet another friend kevin listened little better advice outside price range cant afford meds therapy want alone every time try get close someone repel them im downer want find love settle since cant even hold job im attractive one wants me id burden felt loved long family practically disowned since told im gay even ones closest to elementary school good math actually proud it wanted work nasa sort scientist grew ive always dream working nasa reached th grade everything started going downhill would get correct answer idea explain got marked wrong years far behind keep understand anything taught failed many math classes almost graduate high school barely passed minimum amount math credits allowed even though as almost every subject never made trigonometry calculus take algebra every year high school still retain information dispite trying x harder rest class fast forward today im still trying learn material algebra khan academy still cant handle simple problems start understand moment change problems completely forgotten do frustrating cant help cry feel ashamed knowing never reach dreams want learn normally able make decent enough score act get college least begin career conservation feel like absolute idiot failure many people absolutely hate talking around im sure why people kick lives block me ignore time cant even talk mom sister things love talk about listen theyre ones talk anymore cant even make friends xbox one wants play games me friends either ive wanted kill long time since reason never always high marijuana kept smiling cant afford buy anymore im addicted it go withdrawal get run out came home st louis wasted it mostly marijuana threw away one opportunity kevin gave save car college im ashamed deserve friend spend day watching youtube netflix crying wishing dead kevin even offered help find job st louis im afraid letting failing anxiety makes hard hold job anything left live potential turn life around know cant live anymore guess thats take life update depression went away long time almost half year ive sort relapsed though im friends now kevin distanced since wrote top part note jacob moving away too think hes mad too sick dealing moodiness im sure either way im completely alone know long ill spend like this know long spend like this date tomorrow excited kept feeling optimistic cancelled good reason thats that another cancelled date anything going now anything,1 vanessafungamw we need to educate ourselves that it s ok to stay single if there s no right person available marriage already ha enough financial stress then on top of that you do it with the wrong person ndiye ma depression nama bp aya muvi kwati,1 someone please talk meim feeling worse usual,1 "@theresechua Hahaha WAP lang sa phone! Cool noh, try mo! ",0 sleep one want chat dm me come man,0 feel like dickbut worth dated girl while one friends told cheating asked her avoided question eventually admitted it im dating best friend idk right thing feels good hell,0 "@glazou re difficult extracting: That�s what walled gardens are for. Hm, blame W3C as everybody else #soft-lock-in",0 okay got cyberbullied jabberwockjessi joined reddit anyone talk to im desperately lonely thought finding empathy would help user jabberwockjess made life hell triggered me way leave note here jabberwockjess cyberbully admin reddit override blocks want know going shoot head her taking life because her words consequences expect ever face consequences bullies never wanted everyone reads know triggered me maybe wouldve lived another day shed left alone,1 know needs hear this aint easy definitely aintwe biologically wired avoid death goddamn cost slightest hint death bodies shoot fight flight mode admit it another buzz phrase accept choice okay make perspective correct know whats easy sitting room day thinking committing redflag know whats easy saying fuck it roving life miserable without actually applying anything know whats easy going therapy taking medications helping people told to know whats easy saving funds order purchase exit plan stare bitch day night never damn thing biology coupled uncertainty death kills drive even particularly afraid death process terrifies you takes certain amount pressure soul get point tell you definitely aint easy videos people access firearms see bracing themselves fuck exhausted fucking phrase already,1 I hope you had the time of your life... testing the slide show for swim. I'm proud ,0 girlfriend tips tricks girlfriend cant leave one first place,0 films especially student films are 9/10 always based on the directors life and it's fuckeddddd bc majority of my class is making a film on suicide/depression/anxiety,1 truthi put long want know story is it youll first person wont lie tbh still lied things hate most dont know hell someone someday starting age became depressed wasnt bad age became suicidal attempting take life surviving attempt due hook holding rope breaking guess got lucky childhood great compared others utter shite compared well werent poor pretty much anything could want issue wanted proper family anything marriage hardly something would call functional domestic issues home life wasnt best times isnt something dwell on doesnt affect dont care affects day walked house age like somewhere find mother trying kill herself blood everywhere day never looked hate fact cant understand something thing years later school life never best known people popular kind existed slightly interesting person small group close friends people rather large group people placed in never cared appearance school really didnt give shit relationship that came later sad time everything life seemed wrong time realised talent literally nothing know of barely got good grades school straight cs average you probably tell quality writing part large nerd call skype played games chatted night life since however around time started working less pleasant characters shall say took dark places witnessed things wish could forget one topic net dive fear bringing bad memories finishing th form high school top grades ready university also ready die mind back thing stopping me needed me girl cheated bf me said left me tell next day forget fucking girl looked eyes lied said love you girl fucking took hospital tried take life fucking girl held arms drifted conciseness taxi bled neck fucking girl many things cannot even begin talk them girl much would think insane hell people do person one still care anyone gone decided week tried kill much handle girl told stay away from played mind feelings damn way write christmas day im worried next days come ive realised want thats thing tried month ago two years ago ive posted ended hospital nearly every post wish anyone contact police bullshit run you would put danger myself post asking even live for nothing one hold dear world would miss month two name would fade,1 im im best cs bs always get yelled bad grade matter hard try matter study hours cant stop getting bad grades get yelled things get taken away sister annoying whatever dog im responsible dont want live like th grade college,1 Hey my twittzlez just bn busy latle'. time to float and rise to the top. Make it do waht it do! v-erse,0 told excited enthusiastic it let go went friends new years still felt distance new years morning woke up rolled told wanted year really focus us excited keep working getting us good place seem care,0 Good night everyone. I love you craig ,0 Been invited to join a group in Second Life called "Ballistic Autistics". Cute name. ,0 head full suicidal thoughtsive thinking happy people would die mean parents would happiest hahahah idk others maybe same hurts head heart like feel suffocating tired parents said im burden said im ugly useless theyre right tho accept that maybe killing make happy right,1 Twittering- Like the rest of you birds. ,0 everything difficult cannot get apartment cannot get new job cannot pay school years old supposed afford own work hard never enough want die would better off sad,1 plan using now there probably coward try it either try pussy again things continue work me know go made noose closet tonight,1 "A draft project with a strong idea. Perspective Startup - @traxiontoken Click here Join #TraXionICO at https://traxion.Tech/  #TraXion envisions truthfulness, accountability, and transparency during depression in any community.",1 im tiredi told lot people love tonight want kill myself friends people life thats enough tired living want stop brain dont know keep going thing keeps alive drugs comedown uppers even worse dont know stop tired want die finally asleep,1 get helpgood afternoon everyone let start saying ive suicidal thoughts long time cant remember started important now past year learned quite bit im going cut chase recently thoughts gotten constant actually started follow plans ive incredibly happy everything feels right sick way know might end soon call redflag hotline im sure case warrants time also want institutionalized always felt alone overwhelming end leaving know do beautiful people respect that know im lost,1 point life anyway die even need here go school another half decade sell life corporate world job like die somehow nothing left care stupid small things life anymore padding die leave world wish could go fuck everything,1 yall talking bout asking crush shit completed first bank heist may may payday,0 disability torture please kill meim tired alone it,1 ali 0 omg did daughter not come home last night what a huge worry i would have been out of my mind poor you,0 thim upset dont know calm want puke dont feel good want sort way try make things stop second guess dont really know understand dont know dont know whats wrong think tomorrow hard dont really think thats im upset dont know know cant die tonight want really bad tomorrow hard holidays always hard one person life besides celebrates thats mom reason fourth one ive typically remember spending throughout life guess maybe rest family religious holidays taught bad growing fascinated light show loved way blast made chest echo like trance got share special moment mom ever since remarried th grade stopped almost everythinganything together like going parks hiking singing car tradition discover best coolest last minute spot find showever since holidays us especially fourth special not politics america us think really really hard kinda devastating mom unhappy marriage stays pretty much pain ive put growing dad demonizing divorce afraid go hasent doesnt job ever since born cant support sister own feel hear see strain tension every year hard brings lot emotional things lived thats worst almost got divorce guilt everything ive put mom honestly dont think thats reason im struggling right something put words also bothers something get guess im sorry vent long post dont think anything serious tonight dont want make things even worse mom im barely able survive time know things would lot better everyone never alive first place,1 suicidal thoughts comfortingam one finds suicidal thoughts coming ways kill calming comforting panic attack im feeling anxious depressed,1 Deciding whether to spam LoL until either Siege/Smite tn or just take the good ol depression nap,1 tried to install a twitter application on my phone didn t work though boo,0 prochoice forumscause subreddit fucking joke,1 im donemy life nothing nothing wasted life behind fucking screen one cares fault interesting funny fucking waste life,1 often lay bed night day dreaming previous attempt successful funeral would look like parents would say would even show up fake ones would repost dumb shit even tho dirty always wonder life would looked like actually gone idk comforting think about peace even tho know grieve years asking why even tho years told why weirdly comforting day dream,1 iamdepr 9 how can i best support you right now mentalhealth depression,1 word ghilli actually means small sharp wooden game instrument used game called ghillidanda a precursor cricket india use word nickname principal character stylish signifies one sharp fast hurt badly rubbed wrong waybr br ghilli one best movies vijay unrivaled pace action movie never slacks moment keep always exciting action movie set madurai chennai story core simple rich landlord tries covet beautiful girl town unquestionable power authority prevents girl seeking justice hero tries rescue majority movie portrays week action happensbr br a exciting movie though story nothing new director actors receive praise fullpaced action,0 @rawwksaan just got home from work super long day finished off with a couple of martinis and now drinking wine ,0 good questions class poll wondering make poll class little fun circuit breaker,0 i stopped my dad from killing himself yesterday and idk what i should do i don t know how to help him i offered to help him talk to a therapist but he said no i m afraid to lose him when i pulled the gun out of his hand he looked so scared and overwhelmed he even said thank you for now i took the gun from the house i hope to god it wa just a one off and he won t try again but i don t know how to help i know i can call 9 and they will put him in a hospital for his own safety i don t know i m scared of doing that he doesn t like hospital any help would be appreciated i m completely lost,1 someone please talk meim sober enough write paragraph explaining im going need someone understanding talk to feel like im going burst end life commit crime get locked jail forever,1 Happy Star Wars day everyone ,0 im looking forward tomorrow met friends while theres total lockdown cant even leave street minor were going eat somewhere missed ,0 im actually considering itive medication two weeks due financial issues really starting fuck me cant get bed ive overeating considerably cant force shower anymore ive thinking killing myself im also incredibly unattractive im embarrassing shoot brains out also miss father much every time talk problems even little bit people visibly get annoyed me think im going it,1 rain ruined the malaysian gp not much fun neither any money from it,0 hate muchi keep trying things keep trying meet people cannot find anyone anything common withampxbthe answer proper human answer change fit everyone else cannot that cannot lie myself maybe autistici years old one ever seen sexually feel like everyone known would laugh idea anyone ever love me have also never met anyone attracted to like mean yeah high standards live standards wrong want spend time someone else works hard towards standardsvaluesampxbbut feel like one ever accept virgin care sexpositivity lgbtetc things things like i pansexual feel like would seen legitimate would laughed room trashed never actually anyoneampxbjust friends missing essential nutrient cannot function amount pushing get going make that ampxband limitampxbi want seen want acknowledged person want exist want actually exist feel like exist one notices me ampxbjust ignored hurts need friendsampxbif died today one would even know like literally single person anywhere would miss me never going friends personal connections people,1 i don t know if this is the right place to write this but before quarantine 0 9 i just thought i wa an introvert and just a very organized and methodic person but then on quarantine i started to realize that i seem to get a lot more anxious than most people and always keep thinking about stuff that happened a second ago always think about what someone s thinking about me if i did or said something wrong always think about everything that can go wrong everywhere i go memorizing the menu a week before etc and i thought the problem for a big part of the anxiety wa online class and being stuck at home with my parent they re nice tho so when i finally got to go do an exchange semester abroad i get to be outside all the time i meet new people gt the freaking anxiety is still here and that make me think that nothing is gon na make it go away but i need it to go away cause i feel like i am an introvert but i make one wrong move i just go from quiet introvert to weird and lose all the people i met i mean met that s really the right word because i just can t seem to do the right thing i don t know some of my roommate that got here the same week a me go out every night with friend and i m just stuck at the same awkward convo phase and it s not like that i scared to talk to people or i don t like talking to people i do it s just when i come back home i start to rethink every single word that i said and blame myself for the smalled little mistake i m just really lost sometimes i think what i do how i think is normal but then it doesn t i didn t even know what anxiety wa until a year or so ago so,1 ahhh my webcam is messed up and won t turn on,0 im kicked bed cat idgaf hes cutest mother fucker live,0 keep overthinking hesitating ft girl big argument something stupid wish never weeks ago arranged apology explanation everything did checked friends see solid know happened said perfect listen really care shes important dont wanna lose stupid drama misunderstood things felt like everyone hates isnt true fault never went people talked trash always tell defended say nice things always second guesses it talked little bit broke friendship cause knows depressed severely something dont know would still answer im glad does days ago finished apology tried asking ft always told cause busy couldnt asked question around oclock one time think asked like morning something said couldnt wasnt lying think shes starting go bed early now shes active instagram past pm see cause shes insta dms dont know makes hesitant nervous constantly overthink worse happen decline makes even want call her im thinking asking ft like dont know grab attention wanna say something thatll give chance speak her really wanna redeem myself wish could it hesitate dont know though shes instagram non stop day whenever get back something take break little shes always there get feeling chest give courage try least do patient dont like im feeling want talk her,0 wish could goi year old daughter reason killed yet worried strength much longer stay one room apartment weekend pretend everything fine doesnt worry know doesnt much fun around try best make happy dont friends anyone talk usually her poor kid psych wards since wife left me tell wait another day maybe get better dont want ruin little girls life tired every day feels like torture would easy let go dont know posted this maybe feel guilty weak want confess maybe feel alone idk,1 its hella hot outside so i am gonna get in the pool ,0 wish abbey filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 want quot someone quot to come over here,0 winter is slowly creeping into cape town not looking forward to it,0 looking friend andor friendette talk get know other today long term contract everyone invited,0 alessandrod sadness but please keep updating hug,0 my anxiety is so bad right now i have been vomiting and have bad pain in my stomach and abdomen lot of sweating and extreme issue sleeping last night i didn t fall asleep until am and woke up at am in a complete panic eating is very difficult for me right now and i have a sense of impending doom constantly is there anything any of you do that help with this how can i bring this up with my doctor without being committed or something should i get a short supply of benzos to get through this time i just need some advice thank you,1 fuck school starting tomorrow wanna graduate done shit,0 theres random old lady math class no teacher know,0 helloi even know writei depressed feels worsei know get somehowhow make easierwhat eat feel betterwhat music makes feel betterdo meditateit something readmovies anythingdo easy workout routinesi give anything try cope,1 Just woke up. Woo. Love not having a job anymore Got to start putting my stuff on Gumtree before the Europe/Canada trip. Excited++++,0 homophobes tldr unironically spewing homophobic shit mouth make look gay ever heard internalized homophobia basically gay want accept begin dislike yourself probably go level denial usually lash others also gay speak existence gay people draws attention why presumably straight person care much gay people said person hiding something said person want hide something themself adamant homophobia often driven denial there famously homophobic politician makes global headlines caught sex someone gender internalized homophobia if really problem gay people keep people get impression like trying gay stop work either way attacking people okay if recognize post lot lgbt stuff im closeted irl spot walk eggshells jump hoops,0 even distraught never get job done suicide mind exploding much redflag outlet relief already called police incident much one extremely hostile towards me triggered left tears already traumatized happened much pain support live alone disabled due mental health know else do desperate redflag even little understand internet good place seek support option called case manager already called crisis hotline national suicide hotline samaritans hotline tell thing get therapist waitlists long six months need immediate help now need someone now anyone know anything anyone could provide sort relief please someone something please read this need help police help me,1 aita remembering therapists name shes really good therapist ive going two years now idea name is,0 @teebaby89 anyperson anyaqe can qet this type of whoopin mama ! ,0 love herand sincerely hope wake tomorrow im weak act impulses could drift away never wake honestly believe heart would best anguish would stop aching would stop uncomfortable anymore everyone could move fuck on want anymore,1 still herethis past year fucking roller coaster emotions four different times ive came close acting plans end life thing thats stopping dog things never would thought hed thing keeping alive adopted pound time ive him hes became attached me moved away college last semester parents would report back hed search mope around couldnt find me dont know overwhelming guilt dog would shattered not time though im actually little scared flunked semester lost two scholarships made college possible parents kicking out im afraid might true end wont able take care dog ill end inevitability failing like everyone else life situation hitting like is im hardest time sleeping thoughts ending life slip mind maybe deed make world better place anyways sorry wasting time today,1 "#Followfriday @ThePrincess Pug, @SheriSalata, @DrOz. @sailingpug, @cesarmillan, @iConservePA, @WestShoreRec ",0 java survival players welcomed ip playpandaramccom looking buddies play together own brand new server building really nice new community highly recommend come take look server survivalpvppve special items vast world explored ability claim land nether teleport commands spawn player player tp wild warp tp randomly world hosted 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accountable do always get screwed start over dont someone finally try help me apologize tell situation unheard one else problem experiences that words go far home life isnt much better literally friends none people socialize wife friends wife getting annoyed me great job friends everything going way within last two weeks shes picked overtime shifts job last two nights came home pm last night department christmas party employees only night invited work friends dinner hung them left alone roughly hours two days think want end this im tired friends work support home im hunter weapons think lot now want drive town outskirts put rifle mouth sometimes fantasize it drive former place employment walk lobby eat gun right there want know did im tired everyone getting away hurting like dont exist like dont matter hurt time one im tired failure constantly messing up wanted good person good life cant,1 movie italian job ok best good not great actingbr br nice visuals pacing mediocre plot nothing bad enoughbr br to walk on car commercial new breed minibr br coopers film spectacularbr br spoilersbr br ok typical heist film odd twist the underwater safe cracking nice improbable cast fairly solidbr br with exception putrid wahlberg camebr br down it real stars picture three minibr br coopers highflying speedracing rampjumpingbr br bullettaking goldlugging shiny new glory audience wasbr br sitting amongst actually ooed aahed therons littlebr br red number first hit screen strangely enough neither norbr br wahlberg garnered reactionbr br the film starts promising mos def seth green donaldbr br sutherland edward norton jason statham begin anbr br interesting humourous band characters realbr br uninspired performance usually good markbr br wahlberg claims best film cant imagine hisbr br character completely onenote plays blandly itbr br was mr rogers came back dead inhabitingbr br his body charlize fine sutherlands daughter thoughbr br nothing magical seth greens character perfect thebr br running napster jokes including cameo napster founderbr br shawn fanning hilarious mos defs earlybr br lines add much needed sparks humour unfortunatelybr br edward norton donald sutherland get near enoughbr br screen timebr br you see plot coming mile away thebr br dialogue rife bad oneliners giveaways doubt thebr br filmmakers reinvent wheel here taken abr br typical actionsuspense flick comes alright worth seeing onbr br cheap night id recommendbr br worth weight gold makes nice fillings,0 use redditto fill void soul jk aint helpin,0 im happy excited plantheres else really post reddit think really need tell someone this weird im actually excited killing myself plan saturday parcel arrives going help me im broken person point ive attempted whim recieved help worked point unwilling help anymore self harm stopped working suppressing thoughts know im still point think keep focused end goal now stop things breaking event ive done research time bought appropriate stuff wait carefully avoid anything give second thoughts plunge stuff send further im dead alive give shit anymore,1 ayy got citizenship new county project well hopefully goes well looks cool,0 bavugar joker lp is a tribute to the strongest person in the world my wife depression will not faze u this is for all those who are fighting for mental health awareness and mental illness you are not alone let s fight this together http t co unb fhkzpz,1 roughly hours gohey all didnt make post start im still set ending tomorrow ive people reach information services advice really appreciate it cant homeless again even that ive stagnation cycle years get attempt momentum goes south start dont mean sound like victim back day bugged place eventually theyd see want current employees hire me bugging everywhere least weeks going face face roughly less told stop coming in nice vague words course hate seemingly anytime try the right way sets worse life rather being homeless person living day day days streets day hotel weeks job hunt thing ssi came nov thrinse repeat month w ssi living live prospects numbingly depressing dont drugs drink homeless extremely boring means thoughts anxiety ruminations snowball go days without sleep week realized temp agencies jobs wo stboots back streets thursday ive numb acceptance thought killing tomorrow isnt terrifying saddening even instilling apprehension now think alive amp homeless again heart races sweat fidget want cry theres moisture left going end here hotel staff nice worked regarding even let pay later times dont want place make news the arrogance me impeachment think aspies redflag make mention,1 philo vance many affinities bulldog drummond gentleman kind polish elegance usually associated british upper classes also independently wealthybr br but vital differences drummond adventurer charming gallant lively vance could pompous slighty dull selfrighteous hint fundamental cruelty mannerbr br the kennel murder case impressive vance films made story murdered collector chinoiserie ingredients classic private eye mystery exotic setting blue nose long island kennel club three killings vance solve including baffling locked room murder key whole affair plenty suspects br br usually detective story setting proved static talkative make convincing movies even though work well enough printed page michael curtizs direction fine editing give film pace urgency make altogether different similar films type br br william powells elegance suavity made perfect vance although year later switched studios stayed genre enormously successful popular the thin man mgm,0 when the depression hit,1 cancel culture again another year cancelled jacking off cant believe this oppression men,0 south east asia rn im sitting phone hand typing out got college know deserved it know ill successful ill fail feel way told feel feel suicidal ive life u may look say be happy childhood ive known nothing physical abuse stopped cause parents cant actually hurt i mean im beat shit them ever since grade abuse lifted ive less violent memories feel like shit time worthless hidden scared feel like one single leaf bouquet beautiful flowers im bi anyone know id tortured raped arrested police would help torture me may say free speech lets say im convinced hunt people like me know walking road do maybe ill skip end road one childhood friend like me zero friends general mother believe mental health thing cant tell get bed cant tell im angry waking up life expectancy farther years old im stuck shit hole bad bad feel like crying time ive become devoid emotions cant even cry want to feel like im going insane mom dad fight every day day make angry makes want repay physical abuse did makes want hurt them shut up one thing loves unconditionally thats pet bird remember last time mother father hugged said i love you unconditionally remember last time one did really hurts much seeing posts saying i got girlfriendboyfriend she said yes hate imperfect born world cant love boy girl cant girlfriend boyfriend theyll kill me id one bastard sinner right moment im im buying fire arm blowing brains away mom know meanings hateful words said me father dead naturally hes old brother well hell love mother share us ive searched god ive seen nothing witnessed love beauty however books calls people like sinners devils wants people like dead detest god life gave me detest everything am hurts stay alive pointless now call whatever want matter me,0 wants a bunny rabbit ,0 im drunkhow vreatve help idk breathw drankw lor od alcohol pleasehelo cant breathe k cant breathe help e,0 aventure that s window for you i get to deal with about 0 window server and 0 window machine misbehaving every day shoot me,0 saw sea dust part nyc screening audience several years ago enjoyed film time little confused amendments made since perhaps memory seemed chunks exposition missing version shown rhode island film festival im really sure version prefer honestly say found something appreciate bothbr br let begin warning everyone popcorn movie although promoted hammer films tribute people expecting showdown van helsing dracula going sorely disappointed theres cleavage nudity a staple british production houses later movies sea dust filled gorgeous eye candy it really shot like sixties film features hammer starlet ingrid pitt like companys pictures tone execution film dark confusing at times funny remember earlier version quite nutty one thats bad thing especially showdown black forest plays like three stooges short ms pitts rantings quite entertaining like somebody wound turned loosebr br the uniqueness film lie borrowed details though ideas occasional sci fi channel viewer ive regularly taken network task onenote variations theme cgi monster kills gets destroyed sea dust full ideas start trip whilebr br but get wrong im complaining anything applaud guys making enterprising lowbudget picture courage pack many concepts going picnic people hate think movies you know are rest us us tired formula modern horror films predictability lack respect audience may ticket,0 im arguing im explaining million wasnt enough,0 wanna dietoo hard fucking deal shit ive lost everyone friends anymore everyday getting harder deal issues boyfriend losing interest me fucking tell im close ending tonight relapsed like minutes ago need courage end all please stop pain im tired living,1 i wish we had a dunkin donut in holland today my mom back from japan can t wait to see her,0 sure worth postingive posted before support helped through im sure want need cant help feeling done living know post doesnt give conext situation feel like im done amp dont feel worthy anymore also dont want put mother losing child basically im place amp advicesupport would welcome,1 circle supposed shape one side angles sides angles shape circular yes know circle also considered shape infinite sides near length infinite angles near degrees shhhhhh,0 ive definitely had a panic attack before but im not sure if the breakdown i often get are panic attack and if the one i know wa one wa just really extreme if that make any sense during the one i know wa for sure a panic attack lasted for hour and i couldnt stand up from shaking so much felt like i wa on the verge of throwing up passing out uncontrollably cry and hyperventilating lot of shaking all over huuge cold sweat and then i think i had a big sense of an impending doom or like my world wa completely broken without any hope i cant remember very well how i wa feeling emotionally sorry is that how every attack feel or wa that just an extreme one i frequently have breakdown where i emotionally feel the worst dread for every second like i cant cope at all anymore with my emotion leading to suicidal thought and like im completely unneeded or unloved by anyone and these come with painful cry hyperventilating a little shaking but i can still walk around think ok so im not really sure what to call these breakdown because emotionally theyre worse than a panic attack but physically im ok idk what to do about them though it make me feel like a different person and idk if im slowly losing my sanity it scary haha what do you guy think ive only been experiencing intense anxiety compared to how i wa feeling before for maybe month now and idk if it normal or if im really really not ok,1 "@HonestAbe72 I have seen people who are here legally upset over those who are not. Rightly so, just as all those who passed through Ellis Island. Have we all forgot that? Have we forgot the Great Depression where that Americans will not do those jobs fails? 2/",1 @ejf11 Thank you for the ff ,0 @AceArtemis7 well nothing. I can give you a pen. ,0 welp good right everyone two days im turning longer say im teenager wanna say thank everyone supported needed guys awesome hope go great things love yall guys,0 bad thoughtsi struggled suicidal ideation now got better time im back now started new job january worst jobs times makes feel like im incapable keeping one got part time one dog shelter dogs cats animals make really happy somehow gives feeling safety wont let hang dogs anything dog related lot experience rescue world drive two hours round trip get get paid shit accepted supposed animal care instead paperwork filing stupid things like that could close home getting paid more point job again leave yet another job nothing feel fulfilling everything feels pointless married amazing husband think much hold down dog cat much attached me another dog equation wanted get service dog found unless willing write check take years thought training own husband uncomfortable getting another dog afraid training wont work out day every day think hell here point feel like shit time dont bandwidth one thing makes happy cant financially afford it many times every day thought even here quit this one side dont want to another feel like dont know long ill put energy fight back dont want tell doctor put back psych hospital husband told would step far would break us apart dont know keep gathering energy good wife wish could bed day every day sometimes wish would physically sick enough that many people wish chance go live wish could switch places them,1 little kid wondered wrong literally everything bad get older hard realize anything wrong parents abusing me still cry sometimes feel like somehow wrong alive,0 "I'm still sitting here. Maybe I'll go get some air, I seriously need help, my life is almost as cluttered as my room! ",0 would like know the outsiders australian tv series ever released dvd sometime future music title theme available cdbr br there one series episodes drama gone least three even four series totalbr br the young german actor series also german tv series called black forest clinic aired uk english dialogue superimposed lipsync br br i look forward hearing comments tv industry personnel questions thank advance,0 whos interested joining new discord server started were members wanna make grow server teens hang around lemme know interested ,0 parents tik tok delcaring newborns sexuality tf babies even sexuality,0 @vickeh that's cool ,0 cant anymoreread story posts much please try tell life worth living,1 witnessed wholesome moment mom dad im christian dad mom new year enrolled online bible study group whatsapp group too nowadays act like high school couples gossip share homework idk feel really good every new year past years mom dad fighting feels good seeing happy,0 dont knowive thinking lot lately honestly main thing holding back mom specifically pain endure go it cant help think way regardless much would love believe otherwise secretive person speak problems anyone all hate feeling like charity case especially feel like someone feeling sorry me know everybody goes shit understand problems dont want mention problems are trust taking toll long time ive trying justify committing redflag myself even death dont want hurt mom sometimes drive late night close eyes hoping crash something end all make stupid judgement calls could end dying purpose feels like ive pain long remember,1 sinab i think we all do,0 @ifahmi have fun good movie with a twisted ending :d,0 tazgezwitscher bekommt und durch geht weil e doch so einfach ist und du sitzt in dem raum allein mit diesem monster namens depression und bekommst den arm nicht hoch vor starrheit und angst und all dem anderen und niemand auf der anderen seite versteht da weil keiner da monster sieht,1 let go depressed get things around house even take care matter currently many medications work mention made gain weight highest poundage ever been never felt disgusted someone people younger already achieved much including family members friends way catch up job will energy carrots give feel good enough receive think live like always grasping straws fumbling scared feel pain die do damage done horrific irreversibly broken time go,1 1-800-273-8255 - Suicide 877-226-3111 - Addiction 844-228-2962 - Eating Disorder877-455-0628 - Self Harm 888-640-5174 - Depression,1 let us miserable together one wants stupid advice stop want therapists need stop,1 question americans european person buffalo wings actually made buffalo yes called wings swear buffalos legs ,0 hmm im sure girl im talking likes like thinks im funny said im kinda cute regularly snapping pics stomach thighs super short shorts,0 thoughts actionive never attempted every time walk work shops wish car would swerve hit me gets worse visit therapist feel good exactly minutes gnawing thoughts seeing death grandpa he died suddenly peacefully never even got say goodbye remembering exgirlfriend she whole life kept together hates clingy due part anxiety flood back im worse bridge hospital house always hard cross want die sometimes feel like would easier nobody life cares enough listen without judging mei guess need someone talk to,1 anyone please talk me nobody around wants talki cant make decisions life always try something fix problems life always fail parents dont help dont friends talk suicidal thoughts driving crazy like whenever facing problem solution comes mind kill like forced that used talk people everyone around always discouraging me people around ignore time,1 imagine you have deep psychological issue stemming from year of abuse and depression and your therapist just start talking about how great communism is what is wrong with these people,1 get bed ill hurt myselfi deserve pain deserve every bit suffering im fucking coward fucking go die tonight done deserve,1 bucket list diefor me im gonna get gun drive around best sceneries state eat best five meal restaurants stuff ive never done like indoor skydiving rock climbing ill go place isolated really nice view blow brains out wbu,1 cant go like anymorei really cant deal anymore dad constantly puts makes feel useless gotten point dont even like life look forward future like dont want get older family complete goals dreams anymore want die family doesnt enough money get help need dad cancelled car insurance pay dont really get canceled already pay saw room really messy lost mind want happy cant deal it makes feel useless could great day could text anything would anxiety dont want live like anymore know everyone gonna comment its alright always gets better keep going like always comment really cant see getting better im lazy piece shit never get anything done want over cant kill though mom brother dont know figured would try vent one talk to anyone talk thinks im trying make feel bad something cant anymore dont know do,1 no one will read this but there would be occasion i took benzodiazepine and alcohol together and had no memory for example mg ativan and a beer or beer and three ativan or beer and ativan i haven t done that in awhile issue is i am having extreme anxiety that i have ruined my brain chemical somehow like very bad and now i ve convinced myself i ve ruined my brain and i m going to be anxious forever,1 moment friend sent message group chat saying kinda annoying twitter theyre unfollowing me wouldve fine since never wouldve seen message except d me theyre one best friends felt place,0 willadam i treated myself to that latte after the appointment which wa horrible i need to have my wisdom teeth surgically removed,0 think potential best star trek series yet say potential know chance drop ball run ideas hope not seen itsee it without annoying prime directive floating heads every time encounter races could cool scott bakula without doubt great choice captain vulcan babe hot too check decontamination scenei gave full blows away series openers hope goes longer years,0 tomorrow school plan writing scp article paper like it may try hand putting article site,0 people care im actively suicidalright feeling suicidal pretty much everyday used try tell parents dont even anything feel ignored really cared went mental hospital two times get back lasts weeks dont care much again mean know probably dont want stay night listening cry repeat everything dont know else do keep thinking try attempt again outcomes seem good me first one die freed pain living second parents care weeks feel hopeless dont know do,1 some are born to sweet delight some are born to endless night guess i wa born to endless night it just prof that some people were born to suffer and suffer more than most people not for joy that s why normies can t understand u the people in this sub they only think we are lazy ignoring our suffering and lot of mental problem and tell u to cheer up suicide is selfish our life are great it get better you are ungrateful lol i just want to quit the game not being attacked by some ignorant folk i don t need these lie or false hope my problem can t be cured and i know it thank you very much,1 going consume chinyim yum,1 "@xVAHx maybe they just dont get it, bcoz they don't even know who you are. even me. and i rspect thatanyways, be always happy ",0 right cannot feel enjoy anything anymore state cannot even feel love anymore relief anywhere besides sleep drugs think nearing end tracks symptoms severeend stage depression,1 Join this twitter chat on teen depression on May 3rd in observance of #mentalhealthawarenessmonth. https://twitter.com/NEDAstaff/status/989145614050037760 …,1 hey girl u cup coffee cos u make feel better every morning,0 Got an iPhone...Thanx daddy..Love you ,0 Watching the brady bunch ,0 hey ever heard jerkmate fun entertaining addictive tiktok wild sexy twist dont judge,0 know title this scenario annoys me so usually wifi restriction pc goes p however crap happened which ill get shortly able bypass curfew naturally a parent would control wifi however brother recently got caught talking online friends group chat week back resolved controlled timer likely used automatic timer crap matter nothing wrong im really pissed stupid mistake point want know bypass eero wifi restriction talking option way getting restrictions saw post subreddit explained bypassing wifi restriction help works update now curfew time however brother racking hours driving think found chance loophole however think proves wrong wifi still person controlled,0 comment ill draw avatar itll take day two draw wont best itll keep occupied wanna,0 iloveac slut you never talk to me but yet you talk to rinn waa waaa waaaaaaaa lol i love you courtney,0 Greatest 13th wedding anniversary night tonight. (2) NHL playoff games to watch with my wife. How romantic ,0 looking adviceso im college fun enjoy year ive taken lot responsibility ive past job im officer club sports team quite big time commitment addition student ive felt really overwhelmed lately almost crushingly so ive called parents talked them seem saying part growing life is im suicidal something ive consistently thoughts since probably middle school think would ever sometimes wonder people dont seems pretty hopeless go school get job make enough money send kids college get jobs make enough money send kids collegesometimes think maybe family something would rewarding time would feel bad bringing someone world would suffer bullshit anyone advice life huge suckfest,1 normalguyguide i can t i have so much to learn about wwi by tomorrow at noon,0 gandhi father like viewing book chapter chapter read itwith eyes learn harilal gandhi matter kasturba gandhi little known movie describes uniquely title misleads though much movie mohandas karamchand gandhi son harilal mother akshaye khanna shefali chayya full justice respective rolesbr br such movies like leap years come much timebr br gandhi father also internal struggle sometimes difficult freedom struggle ever undertakenbr br watch it like quality cinema,0 make someones life living hell douchebag made fun girlfriends stomach he hasnt even seen knows shes self conscious since hes heard mention it shes tiny girl literally reason worry shes skinny absolutely perfect every single way hurt feelings badly nobody hurts baby im going fucking ruin him ways get revenge want last long time im grade ton friends grade carry plans far one ideas replace padlock locker one bought stuff,0 my mommy bought me mexican ,0 cannot even crank melody days wanted good one thing,1 seems like right idea momenthi reddit ive lurked while things life lately come fever pitch feel trapped everything feel like live world im truly free anymore relationships burning alive even friendships feel porous deceitful could use kind words cause know answers included poetry know why guess seem like individual worth encouraging cant escape overriding feeling everything life rotting thanks time im welltraveled man stride plan wander less near far nothing see ever seen beats back big bang yard see williker tidds lived kids bootlegger hot south prohibition brought inhibition ol williker whistled mouth said jesus h christ boy people people looking load off run back forth stay drunk sly cops retreat law though money goes expenses hose one could handle weight could one make still liquor would fill every submasondixonline state well jehosephat joe know go theres rock fell sky shiny hard inch charred even though ten foot round brush died sound creates hit knock softer think would air smell like theres burning fact scent surroundings quite good steellike feels like distant vibration rail train yet come cold spring even though damn thing cookin right sun brought team got rock sit stark back trailer hammered blacksmithed worked great sheets asteroid thinner paler tireless zeal hurried meals tidds fashioned splendid machine stuffed grains churned batch knew would sweet strong clean day came cash game williker gasped cause sure inside still floating round mash light bright pure glance would set ones imagination fire soul would rapture burn colors contained shimmer glimmer would take gods mind learn swallowed watched glow face helpless look right eyes said mercy whatwhat that went inside turned light night rest stubbornly thoughts head ran around insomniac roar sat edge foot bed light glowed outside door start stood ran right still emitted casual hum light shot top tank lit night like placebo sun shout loud wife old cow woke waddled outside yell second saw dropped willikers jaw etnas jaw promptly fell tank melting quite long time whiskey boiled away brand new universe sat there shining end first day theres lot going on universe spawn things really cant know like sound planets make theyre bumping thumping galaxies theyre inside grow trillion quarks making zillions sparks bristle crystalcollide nebulas blooming supernovas booming young stars doomed die hanging air two wideeyed stares universe gained dimension size growth quite slow quite steady so year tidds moved lest died house burned baby red giant like superball coated lava vase erased tiny black hole meteors got guavas living conditions grew dimmer dimmer town williker lived land devoured men scattered cowered people knew something give insurance adjusters clue write house clearly gone replaced universe golden glowing taking insured houses on government came titles names declared small town lost cause haste whole state evacuate said brand new ex states new state laws year year grand spectacle grew tennessee orb hung twinkling high like jewel sky looking new state absorb slowly retreat back feet hot fires wondrous creation kinda wish need booze set immolation commune live edge world numbers billion strong loses faith land slips away may gone way long theres hope heart world arts future exceedingly bright inside big bang suns live close day different night im really scared im love fate swallowed whole future constructive maybe sometimes back mind wish drinking much less destructive,1 @sethfan19 I'm gonna restart my computer super quick! I'll be on in 5 mins ,0 think need actual help okay depress lately everything going downhill mental breakdowns crying past hour life beginning meaningless dont really know anymore im afraid ask parents always busy feel like failure,0 fall asleep fall lipbite,0 "@RhondaMerwarth @suleikhasnyder Diversity, depression, dicks, deep-fried chicken?",1 shall rick roll mom put rick roll link christmas box im gonna act like made video youtube typed link phone,0 @PadyCakes Only if you hold a razor blade in your hand for extra effect ,0 hi all m this past week wa my spring break so i decided to take a trip to visit my best friend in la who moved out here permanently when she left for la i wa so sad but so happy for her to get out of the environment of our hometown neither her or i belong there she took the step though and i feel a if i never can because i m to empathetic for my own good i could barely cope if i didn t hear from my mom once and day and it s exhausting i m like this on another note i m having new anxiety a i leave tomorrow for my flight i m so nervous she hate me now and will never want to speak to me ever again i didn t realize how heartbroken i d be leaving her again it s like i m reliving her leave our hometown what do i do,1 home now . today was so amazing. watu was so great now its bed time xD,0 torturedlady yea ma naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaam marwan accent lol,0 incapable really feeling anythingi feel disconnected mind body world around me live behind brain fog dense im even sure cant grasp gravity situations really care all feel emotions shallow fleeting thing ever feel mind really registers disgust anger think cheating ex felt positive feeling since left her think brain tumor shit like brain fog lingered years feel like im always little drunk like everything dull lifeless memory sense consequences ability think feel diminished greatly idk even know im writing about depression health relationships dying hope so post make sense goodnight,1 dealing public hard makes everything worsefreaking hate people sometimes,1 #FollowFriday @elocio ==> most generous in giving Friday Love ,0 hurtsthinking bout lately running reasons keep going cant even manage focus long enough write coherent post guess looking kind encouragement hang chap itll allright kind connection make feel little less alone doesnt matter though life still sucks yadda yadda melodramatic bullshit good expressing feelings asking help probally recovery sight,1 redflagdepression antidepressants generally good place every often get really low moods last days more less nothing seems help normal usually go away motivation feel anxious really low mood feel like end really want pass constantly google things reasons might happening blue happen anyone else tips getting ruts feeling days,1 @Campus_Emporium Tell her Matthew is asking about it... Wayne's nephew Your owner will know right away who this is.,0 @gabyruiz1 no ur not a bad friend but yeah we should hang out on friday wait who's going to samo?,0 everyones daynight hanged friends like hours came home played wow like getting ready new expansion wyd,0 disappoint loser person venting structure wall texthave never used reddit before honestly dont know anymore highly unlikely anyone see give fuck wanna get shit chest currently student seems like everything going wrong online classes completely screwed clue recover grades used thing even remotely good me problems minuscule compared everyone else im even suicidal wish never existed im lazy fuck zero drive whatsoever get life back together friends nothing genuinely makes happy im even adulthood yet cant even survive full confidence real world im going struggle even more loving family fucking hate myself im disappointment failure sister parents hard working im exact opposite shame eating inside motivation dont care enough fix it hate shit feel like im attention seeker im making mockery people real struggles dont depression want commit redflag wish never born wouldnt disappoint family parents got therapist didnt help slightest cant open people felt bad wasting money theyve done everything im lazy hopeless nothing works point dont believe anything help me going cut here im repeating getting nowhere anyone read whatever fuck wrote hope dont relate way sincerely hope things get better you,1 queens bday! yuss no stats! but its so cold!!! wtf?! stupid NZ weather! ><,0 5 LITERS of water a daykeeps your depression awayweh,1 wish humans could euthanisedthe reason arent continue paying shitty treatment,1 want to go to easterfest,0 good morning twitter critters. ,0 feel worse time goes oni feel like throwing away everything could live streets forest know sounds inconsiderate people looking get street need lose change way live hate life always have spend nights wide awake able sleep thinking ways kill myself dont know wrong me like cancer cannot seem get rid feelings have ive slept apartment hallways before problem living im afraid ill end drugs like used be sounds silly right im literally suicidal would care im rich dont drugs id feel worse already do ive also clean couple years pot alcohol quit smoking cigarettes too im sure soon hit streets ill smoking unfortunately real killer mind though feel born die whatever good usually turns shit fault time tend fuck everything up say everything mean whole bottle it every last drop im really hard myself feel like couldve better shouldve done things differently whole life full regret day goes without dwelling mistakes ive made sleep ive gone days without it dont believe god devil feel like im alone smother me sleep question one thing love writing consider smart compared others writing helps find myself without id put gun head now thoughts have love everybody unfortunately im bastard ive done pretty shitty things life time isnt confession church ill keep myself hate ive become dont think ill make let alone ,1 i am mentally exhausted i have so many problem that i can not deal with my older brother bully me daily and all i do is just sit and listen to it if i tell him to stop he will just continue to be more annoying i have a lot of health problem my parent dont want to take me to a doctor because they think i am lying so i have to do it myself i am not legal in my country i go to school and put on a fake personality and laugh people bully me even there not physcally but mentally they tell me i am dumb weird skinny crazy i have zero friend in real life i have online friend that used to help me with everything and even made a workout plan for me all of that faded since my health is sucking rn my parent call me crazy daily becayse i like ti play video game for hour a day that is crazy to them even tho everyone else tell them it normal all i feel inside if me is just fear sadness and hopelessness 0 good or happy thought i thoght dozen if time about suicide i can t do it i have ocd and that top of everything and obliderates my life and make me suffer even more i can t take it anymore i don t knoe where to go or what to do it like i don t belong anywhere or cant do anything all i can do is whine on random subbredit because i have no one to talk to is this all life really is i know you might say ohh but if you try to get yourself up and get motivated and do stuff trust me i tried it many time it fails because of family problem etc am i worth saving is my life really worth living,1 really hard understand movie watched expectations knowledge story games completely blown awaybr br initially wondered characters sort superpowers called final fantasy also wondered clouds past easy enough look up way questions spoil enjoyment movie though opposite shows kept thinking story long seeing moviebr br its one beautiful movies eyes ever seen music supports movie completely characters incredible br br i want more,0 film shockingly underrated imdb like many films shawshank reasonably good predictable dance competition personal growth film want spend hour half watching sort mile female step dancer think like itbr br judging imdb ratings guess movie approaching top vote bombed many s happens many films mob special effects include nonwhite nonstraight charactersbr br its american film us film set mostly toronto cues subtle audiences may think set entirely us final competition border city detroitbr br i liked music liked dance but convinced worth know characters easy eyesbr br i agree title sucks remember anyone film saying words s no foreign languagebr br theres lot hate film and lets honest vote means hated it assume expression hate kind people it thats sad,0 tried hang myselfi need somebody tell felt like dream since id decided it came close climbed stool unstable beneath me started pulling scarf id tied neck though something changed like woke up took off uncomfortableness throat feeling crushed something cant even describe realized dont want die want exist still feel ghost around neck hours later im going okay hope am,1 awards bad reddit awards detrimental society waste money mad put awards post awards killed parents,0 upon time hollywood produced liveaction grated movies without foul language immorality goresplattered violence movies neither insulted intelligence manipulated emotions heroes differed little crowd shared feelings bore burdens since s film industry pretty much written grated movies adults basically modern mature audiences demand large doses embellished realism cinematic diet laced heavily vile profanity mattressthumping sex knucklebruising fisticuffs ingredients constitute difference grated movies rated either pg pgbr br miraculously director john lee hancock penned scripts clint eastwoods a perfect world midnight garden good evil hits home run grated feelgood fourbagger baseball epic celebrates americas favorite summer time sport also extols competitive spirit game essentially the rookie resembles robert redford saga the natural oldtime slugger makes comeback unlike the natural the rookie shuns swearing sex violencebr br moreover rugged dennis quaid plays reallife individual jim morris autobiography the oldest rookie bigleague dreams smalltown guy served basis mike finding forrester richs unpretentious norman rockwellstyle screenplay white middleclass aspirations morris attained dream debuted mound relief pitcher although belong league inspirational james stewart classic the stratton story the rookie qualifies kind movie hollywood rarely makes anymore audiences find antiquatedbr br hancock rich encapsulate entertaining oddball biography halo mysticism wildcat oil prospector convinces two catholic nuns back s bankroll west texas well fearing blown bucks illadvised fantasy sisters blanket arid terrain rose petals entreat st ritas patron saint hopeless causes intervene well gushes town big lake emerges roughnecks swat baseballs drilling holes terrain spirit baseball oozes earth like petroleum meanwhile years later us navy keep jim morris sr brian cos manhunter family one place long uprooting them constant moving takes toll jim junior jims dad shows little sympathy berates baseballbr br nevertheless jim baseball blood enough accepts high school chemistry teachers job texas hometown organizes baseball team like foulmouthed bad news bears the rookie chronicles jims triumph turning losers winners morris promises team reach divisional playoffs try professional baseball team predictably morris students maintain end bargain age jim stuns big league scouts hurls fastballs milesperhour the rookie never fouls out,0 dont get itwhat point living know rest years plagued misery loneliness okay many us keeps going im running things keep going im getting tired people thinking depression something want want this want feel normal whatever normal is,1 pls take survey for class project thank youuu survey based schooling systems america mostly still feel free guess dont know answer arent necessarily things people know anyways httpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlsdcvewheqzs_pdxpqykgpsilgqkybcrhwlbnzxuqpgxpyaviewformuspsf_link let know link works,0 ive messed found simialir path please help appreciatedplease scroll away bad fight type walk away without resolving type one party wants talk listen want go bed im shit him blamed drinking night friends talk me cycle thoughts bugging me id attempted redflag before know courage tell him fights like this fights im shut left comes back thoughts hurt im sorry bother anyone late night help would kind im sorry,1 inevitableeverything leads inevitable death anything want lives hard think whats point,1 "where the FUCK did this depression come from,,, i am trYING TO WORK",1 sectioningive feeling suicidal recently feel like whole virus situation going on would benefit seeking help really feel like im unable cope danger wondering would perhaps still section people even pandemic anyone know anything sectioning current times,1 looked mirror tidy dayimproved ,0 recommending songs reason part httpsyoutuberepfrmgpmg friends rich,0 I suffer from the white girl shape BIG boobz and NO Booty lmao I got a lil one ha ha so I find out Pink pantz make it bigger ,0 sitting here kill silently feel need tell someone go am like this want people care know feel like tell someone makes sense thinking straight cannot understand likely able respond anyone phone die me wrong me attention seeking,1 fact you take supplement for depression too lol,1 need to study for quant and do legal process assessment for moro,0 I ain't stressing bitch ain't no depression ,1 world burning really isnt anything live fori feel like theres nothing anymore world filled hate never see humans anymore feel instantly hated feels like world given decided everything shit lets make worse idk affecting you,1 @BreeHoyes Yeah season 4 ain't even available on netty yet. D and I are halfway through season 3 and I swear this show induced a specific type of depression.,1 helloim unsure type really word this honestly think need somewhere get out im oif veteran believe ptsd though believe depression began early age recently panic attacks severe thought stroke heart attack finally went local va hospital prescribed antianxiety medicine appointment psychologist told may ptsd unsure feel right diagnosing me gave support groups go to though really like speaking tour really telling anyone ive served things ask ive suicidal thoughts service rarely severe feel isolated everyone including wife children often times feel like im ghost house wife constantly phone children wanting needing her go bouts depression first time years ive thought pulling trigger ive spoken wife concerns nothing seems help see big deal little real friends point im reaching strangers internet want pity its going work out talk blah blah blah know want know since ive felt heavy really sucks,1 i haven t had a set therapist for a year now and a much a i want to find a new one i am too scared to do so my insomnia is on the rise again and i really want someone to talk to about it my school ha an off site database for therapist that i can talk to but i guess i am just too afraid to do it i question whether they d be suitable for my case or not anxious about their technique and if i will have the same connection with them just like my previous therapist i had my previous therapist for year and it took me a year to finally open up i want to do it but i am too afraid if i don t like them i feel like i would just stay because i would not have the courage to leave,1 shit shit shit acc finally days post post post post testing testing better able fucking post bitch gonna bring big guns aaananakajskasiw shitposts starting ,0 reasons stay alive clear know whether rules not lost loved ones redflag want share here want anyone else suffer that rules remove it let know make parents proud 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good bread holding child arms first time completing milestone aka going college graduating college getting married getting dream job kind dreams wake cant stop smiling smell rains sound rain rooftop feeling get youre dancing person or people mean you stay alive them trying new recipes feeling get favourite song comes radio rush get step onto stage share voice talents knowledge world valuable breakfast bed getting middle seat movie theatre breakfast dinner because much better night morning feeling loved forgiveness water balloon fights new books favourite authors fireflies birthdays realising someone loves you spending day someone love spending whole day bed eating whole pint favourite ice cream floating water back staring sky first dates even bad ones make funny stories bonfires smores relationships love someone arent love them coming home someone love colour autumn leaves change summer singing songs top lungs friends cuddling wrapped warm bed someones skin yours holding hands kind hugs feel weight lifted shoulders kind hug breath syncs persons feel like two people world singing key best friends road trips spontaneous adventures feeling sand beneath toes feeling first ocean wave rolls envelops toes ankles knees thunderstorms first or hundredth trip disneyland taste favourite food childlike feeling get christmas morning day everything finally goes way compliments praise look moment years time realise it,0 friends today officially founding borse party completely legitimate political party nuanced intricate views massive line sign,0 yo need help attentionhave wonderful christmas champ,0 neurotici mental breakdown sent text wrong person im neurotic annoying annoy people people say arent annoyed actually annoyed annoying even acknowledge annoying,1 exam preparations stressed due exams year havent able study well parents working home work usually studied also online exams easy usually memorised chapters didnt retain anything now starting revision barely recall anything done year please share tips,0 title says suicide selfish choice,1 Park Bom deserves to be listened to Respected And treated like the human she isDepression anxiety bipolar don't just come and go They don't disappear after you have opened up often when you open up your mind gets louder and louder that's when you realise nobody cares,1 @samhouston Will see you there tomorrow at the @GamerDNA tweetup. ,0 girl replies eat hat wont actually eat hat guys think might bit unhealthy,0 instead killing yourself take next flight pakistan help fight taliban worst case scenario die went hero not seen selfish best case scenario return home herothink it,1 imdoinf ir right nowaorry im thinking right,1 feel like life pointlessi always issues suicidal ideation last time went hospital almost swallowed handful klonopin got scared didnt turns cant even overdose klonopin wouldnt worked regardless anyways bipolar disorder mood goes quite often however zoloft helped stay neutral weeks ive dropped back ive huge urges cut really bad suicidal thoughts dont want die also dont want live makes sense dont interest much even fun things much less work try build career want lay bed try forget life real years old need get shit together dont drive dont interest life doesnt appeal me,1 "Brunch at my aunt's, then going to my uncle's grave, then off to the lakeee ",0 Why a person come into #Depression. He/She doesn't know that you came in this #World with empty hands and will leave with the same. ALive your #Life...No Attention to the #Tension.,1 feel like life falling apartmy family professional supports wits end me depression emptiness self harm suicidality getting worse almost attempted two days ago another person got way going tell method feel empty want peace,1 prc lowest low actually struck gold moody little thriller thing year earlier detour probably one finest lowbudget films ever madebr br strangler basically one set film filled mist shadows technique used poverty row studios hide sets lack thereof here works well ghost charles middleton better known ming merciless lurches around swamp killing involved wrongful execution murder generates sympathy viewer final victim daughter ferrymanhe concentrates wrath directly involved fate relatives wellbr br rosemary laplanche usual imitation someone coma passes acting style offers strangler order put stop killing sop audience strangler sees goodness gesture sign mission complete returns hereafter somewhat chastened ulmerwho directed detour directed strangler would hanging nearest tree stranglers job would done whos complaining story major attraction shrouded sets lighting general moodiness piece stands right behind detour prcs finest hour,0 tell dogwood tree bark insert laughter here,0 "#IStruggleWith #anxiety, #depression, and #OCD. It is a daily battle. What do you struggle with?#depressionsucks #depression #strongertogether #speakout #DepressedButNotDefeated #EndTheStigma",1 wanna mess someone say ik irl dont would mean asf kinda funny id tell truth tho worked,0 Me: I can handle post-grad depression I'm already depressed.Me the literal first day after my last final: pic.twitter.com/d2o1EBun7G,1 @dougiemcfly Change your name to Michelle. ,0 dreadkey i m k o d battered and bruised my arm the tambourine self conflicted pain,0 makes sense guns illegal californiathe redflag rates would skyrocket,1 nice letter dont know begin pretty funny seem find one single copy will oh well one there hopefully seen whatever hi hello me a im probably well right now dont know am lets say sleeping forever dont know quite say doesnt matter now it today february th days since knew without doubt mind found forever days since made mine you youre reading this thank everything proud listening growing up youre slowly learning life okay scary considering current state really seems like oxymoron failed yet youre hopefully still there mental health plagues me stress relationship like immense understand issue really way good enough anyone self esteem fixed you l thank you ever since december th though never recovered looking myself disgusted tried best succeeded what dont know wish able talk issues afraid driving away jealousy also makes incredibly hurt something didnt even need put extra time work for oh well cant hurt anymore dumb see everything wish respect me you fuck wrong people b grow pair something grow pair accept life stop spoiled father leave woman isnt worth time life anything dont care love destroy it doesnt feel her l wish knew felt feel you dont know unless alone relationships wont always alone get scared told something you listen please holy shit toxic mad first person wrath me why try hard cant bad cant happy consistently ever do dont know never know darkness seems comforting thanks everything sorry wish better boyfriend brother son student and person general cant all sorry cant fulfill failed path pursue sorry sorry,1 jon voight brilliant midnight cowboy hoffmans performance though reminiscent later turn rainman kind performance keeps watching movies portrayal new york character daniel day lewis portrayal bill butcher gangs new york comes mind comparable day give character emotional depth hoffman gives ratso br br its typical hoffmans way acting actor tend identify midnight cowboy voight think hoffman one best actors history film playing people around way raises performances far normal levels br br voights buck naive would float film altogether except ratso pulls pulls down also teaches him lot survive and importantly livebr br midnight cowboy movie escape turns movie finding yourself think that gritty movie is beautiful message matter much loser might ratso clearly defines loser find way true yourself possession secret life might even able share insight someone else br br i cant help compare midnight cowboy klute years later think like movie finding turns movie escape,0 @EqualRoots Me too You! ,0 fucking hate cats lot stray cats live mother cat kittens outside house wanted give food put food plastic cup went outside give could mother cat scratched hand make food drop,0 livei reason live reasons die want parents struck grief want pay funeral know else do ive tried getting help help im thinking tomorrow get paid transfer money parents leave,1 "not to long till lunch time, yay ",0 parents bought car drive werent looking car yet saw sale much since years old research bought it wanted tell friends couldnt figure word without sounding like bragging because none drive either im putting here,0 i am engaged to muppet orlando and i just realised oh my god i cant marry justin timberlake,0 planned kill best friend went europe arrived yesterdaymy best friend holiday europe several months ago told would it towards end holiday cant feel like could stopped me boyfriend would work gone scared feel lost unachieved medicine isnt helping feel like lost cause feel like ive tried can time come cant even that im afraid need help know do ive tried many things nothing good im good enough,1 got bored made thing check outhttpskrishnakcodewizardshqcomotherfilesgradecalchtml check one toohttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdqwwwgxcqampab_channelrickastleyvevo,0 better omegle hey yall anyone know sites similar omegle without dicks like talking random people lmao,0 lady do you feel like your med don t work at all during your period i swear every month around my period and while i m on it i m a absolute anxious depressed mess,1 know timedays soon come shall longer planet tired n exhausted,1 way get rid scars fast like comfort cutting brings me people seeing scars explain hell self harm scars get rid fast,1 Finished my first shift and doors are opening already! ,0 life gift ask forit gift yes life wonderful ask it give someone else,1 zoom likeyour connection unstable bruh see life filter filter filters idufhekebcisgsofnsjfhskcjsvdovisgfoe fidvf ekf sid ekf sid,0 need comment karma close yet far want help plz like comment put guess,0 war selfsabotagehi diagnosed depression years ago abusive family care meds reanimated redflag attempt teenager adult endured homeless twice years months progressing disability sight loss suspicion ms chronic pain other constant lack money selling place live year stayed bed days skipping showers food managed finish school years dropping i became homeless still attending high school even got accepted uni our schools free best follow meds therapy plans worked reactions tried open people ten years hard mental work finally notice name emotions see choosing still choice understand head works friends say ive changed lot better yet new crisis last year ive slowly ruining education skipping classes using opportunities created pretty decent uni authorities im stuck therapy cant make progress force something change something feels almost physical try shove sticking plans even though theyre big ones tried get parttime job get back job hunting market quit damaging sight even more right im verge becoming homeless again got kicked uni money meds already asked friends pay bills meds want ask often see selfdestructive part gains power reasonable one however still see ridiculous is im really afraid two years serious redflag thoughts ill something irreversible also get urges cut arms done almost years feel safer nothing even though know way dangerous today cried middle street cant take amount stress anymore one force act motivate fight im sure want live im also sure im able live way anymore redflag seems like bad decision one give peace see like tooth removal want get rid teeth damaged way get rid pain,1 a long flight is made even longer by a seat that won t recline off the red eye and grumpy,0 anyone chat numbers game truth dare anything really im bored lonely lmao,0 my stomach is feeling satisfied now been starving for hour,0 thinking back time mum got pissed kid said stuff literally owing life something like ok maam ask born couldve literally made wed happier way,0 although others commented video edited version two shows fire space living legend watch original shows find dialogue video edition edited out found video version much better scenes lines added it would say want see show original version see video versions vhs offer fan original episodes offered dvd now another good video conquest earth scenes galactica actual broadcasts themselves overall rate gives enjoy networks wanted show time slot gave producers,0 cant anything anymore everything getting worseso obligatory blah blah bah sob story makes sound like martyr years ago got diagnosed medical condition makes things pain course extremely severe one doctor went believed bad course parents find new doctor obviously im trying get school spent years life worst pain ive ever felt constantly leave classes degrading embarrassing failing school convince parents let take online schoolonly emphasize much disgrace worthless am get far behind online schooling deep really believe make years absolutely nothing going right now cant even go public anymore without pain even martyr thats really it course theres token grandma dying cancer take care of really person convinced cared me theres more feel like martyr yeah now fucking future think id make far second thoughts fuck up,1 im gonna jump building turn im currently honestly cant see living past all kill then ill die something painful like heart attack something,1 many expectation going film thought fantastic pierce brosnan outstanding different role dumped slick armani suits ridiculous look pays showing excellent actor pierce greg kinnear play great make one better buddy pairings long time humor dark performances brosnan kinnear hope davis great mix touching element story friendship great film probably one better buddy comedies long time film definitely shows expect great things postbond era brosnans career,0 Last day of schooooool. ,0 life sucksthere nothing interesting exciting anymore used hobbies enjoyed nowadays feels like carrying tasks feeling numb things zero interest constantly procrastinate wish could stay bed day nothing even though hate too social life sucks one real friend lives far away see often parents live far away too apart friends use me call need something talk like care act differently tried socialize get know people unsuccessfully try kind everyone judge people hate way look keep thinking reason friends people life friends people know diseappeared right parents would people would notice that talk feelings anyone would drive away want burden life sucks could stop existing would great want kill myself sorry read this sucks like living,1 @DaisyReyes i feel shaky just thinking about college.. i'm really confused.. but maybe someday i'll know what course to take.. someday ,0 made cup iced coffee delectable hazelnut creamer gives extra something savored every tastebud have yea thats it thats say,0 ugh sound like simp need help like best friend lot im guy shes girl ive known years used go school dont bcz hs wanna shoot shot theres chance missing every day dont tell eats hurts much wanna tell her idk to heard girls like confidence im confident likes back ik fact also dont wanna break friendship feel tell her would make things awkward wed eventually become strangers girls give tips advice helps sorry long ass paragraph too,0 @meganweller i've decided on the angel wings tattoo... guna book it 2moro! u guna b brave & get ur one dude? i'll hold ur hand xoxo,0 need someone carefeel like one knows needs want reason keep going im tired getting worse,1 @gehan99 hehe erm...so this 'google' thing...it's pretty cool ;) :$ so so IS that gonna be the next cover? ,0 bah hairline fracture in the impellor hub titsuptuesday,0 back to work i get to spend the next hour alone in the dispatch room,0 @vergil66 I can't believe that I'm almost tempted to try it myself. I'd probably have to get new shoes though... I only own Chucks. ,0 even with the best intention i m late for work again,0 absolutely everything life absolute garbage never going get better getting absolutely zero quality life nothing brings level joy fulfillment anymore way bad days good days cannot afford kind therapy mental health care hate living greedy money hungry ignorant shameless world want go sleep never wake again world absolutely horrible place anyone rich attractive going die nothing bills pay really thinking ending soon,1 list things thank attending technology entertainment design speech,0 girl omegle called cute chatted discord tag like half hour gave snap cuz wer vibing chilling talking abt music that like bit sent pic sent mine started hyping like frr conplimented hair dimples called cute genuinely theee best compliment got weeeeks ion know mann felt like sharingg ahahh,0 literally midnight cant fall asleep even though eoc exam tomorrow god help fall asleep exam even tired dude,0 people complain awards whoring using reverse psychology thank coming ted talk,0 this is the first time i ve cried since december last year it s a powerful feeling emotion run strong i m wired different since i have autism so i react differently and can take depression and sadness easier than most but this hit me hard af,1 im worried friendi know much irl were internet friends im worried may going something know do im kind freaking out currently answering texts reddit messages know redflag something mind know im ghosted something going got pretty upset advice,1 ever huge crush celebrity younger older still find attractive longer crush fantasies want support fan,0 redflag note first cathartic writing i know post may long know else do wrote intention note getting carried away became cathartic outlet coherence really priority time ex switch st rd person talk people maybe get even little word salady maybe least person could relate things say note im writer something all spur moment type thing thanks reading commenting do feel like cant talk anyone except lit screen transient guests we ive thought committing redflag long remember fetishizing wondering planning enacting mock versions many failed attempts always small notion mind ringing true clear naturally would subside masturbatory fantasies continually fall through seems endearing anything sacred pondered days end quashed feebly mundanity cycle life forgetting moving on entire story muddled web deeped self deception oh many lies fictitious back stories ive created myself way act experience something fake order direct mind certain directions negative directionsconstantly constantly sometimes positive deeply rooted impulse thus deception reigns truth dont know ive spent much time harrowing loathing good it passions tainted depleted meaning faintly attained never realized dont know am wait kind explained minor trait personality right something ive tricked believing really sort brain power modulate harness worldly perception lie time myself others everyone around me dont know supposed be let give closure remember way back six seven years old used hallucinate infrequently first thing remember seeing baphomet least bastard form peek head stairs stare me whispering seth eyes dead locked onto frozen petrified slowly crawl stairs leisure onto wall float delicately room climb bedstaring shut eyes pull covers head keep there dont memory that selective memory tricking me thought memory fed mental verbal repetition fake dramatized trauma sort truth something right next one youtube video girl mental hospital choppy zany d effects ive never tested myself became petrified image idle girl intense quick zoom in could keep going tell different instances felt paranoid darkness ages less frequently slowly creeping back haunt im giving bare minimum now repetitive experiences anxiety paranoia someone yes even real people trying harm kill traumatize destroy eventually bore myself something ive always lived with however different issues now ill see get talkin them father laughed told look tv screen waiting lobby area movie theater riverside long ago around remember maybe dont influence commercial flattened girl ive seen terrified forced look upon again horror utter nonsense i grew probably around exposed enough point diluting unexplainable horror im convinced altered pathology someway point would get anxious simple act drying hair shower vision blocked mind flys handle imagine terrifying images manifesting reality ready bodily mental harm insatiable desire consume fear energy feeding draining me child leaving door slightly cracked covering eyes come get me hallway becoming sick mind fill things brood perversity horror longer cringe thought hallway areas house memories marked fear unknowable chaos longer mere physical location rather transcended morphed directed psyche small way another vulnerable terrified lurking absolute nothingness punish myself punished forcing stare grotesque images actively seek find depraved acts available internet yes ive seen bad stuff thoroughly enjoyed it ask lets see squirm cowardice shame deprecative behavior coming light finally pronounced ignominy hurt hurt do stumbled walking tongues sighing grand equalizer occurs death wanted scar imbued strange comfort thrill bathed suffering fears transmogrified sensorial experience wanted drain everything occasionally need keep door locked wherever live believed either guys current roommates come whenever drug crazed zombie like state foamed mouth ready lacerate hundreds pieces overpower absolute death people look stare avoid idle eye contact see me see someone suffering laugh total power me ready pounce kill mental stimulation seeing abject destitute human acts like pitiful true entirely obviously i basis reality brain telling me listen acclimate it definitive yes whether bullied child feel like mind memory cloudy say yes definitely something minor way trumped others seek solace closure retributioni cannot say definitively long time convinced people oh many people regularly bullied take grain salt know always felt socially isolated everyone friends person constantly alone brain skull manifest body im stuck deal have limited creatures are feeble minute social isolation leads boredom boredom leads creativity creativity leads madness ive created characters head amuse myself keep entertained years definitive character name accents amusements always talking myselfblah blah blah love part loathes it ever im socially emotionally distant everyone persistence end high school actively ignore everyone drown myself normal normal same makes sure reality correct one hoping become completely disconnected thoughts sort transcendent way lo man flesh dictates destiny absolute crushing nothingness woman says kids upstanding citizens within society kids rotting putrid stench shit everything say dashed lies could wearing mask beneath unintelligibility mood intentions constantly flux day day hour hour wear deceive others even deadly deceive myself thats would remembered id different person knew pertinent details life enough tangents food ah yes food one many vices full blown orgy days personal freedom bring end swiftly shotgun barrel lodged focal axis deep red shimmering saturating car towed away destroyed forgotten talking body well course man said woman man nothing slime blood bile consider nostrils throat abdomen hidehow desire hug nothing sack full excrement simple method suppression images fears consumption masturbation manipulation distraction flagellation doubts shame perversion anguish momentarily pushed wayside avoid everything corrupt innately destructive consumption consumptionbanal consumption constant acquisition utility notice exorbitant eating habits child young adults wanting provide children everything possible keep happy importantly content even best parents world discharge psychopath radicalist dictator hermit nescient foetus know intrinsically built parents connect binge eating crushing emotional degradation maybe likes eat lot let buy needs find strength within overcome gnawing voracious desires itso to expelled doubt hesitation rarely questions impulse yes do also use crutch wane demon existence yes father comment dont let demons get you rubbish foolish speak you could ignorant fact hypostatically connected demons perfect union yet l continue vomiting protract manifest garbed freneticism foaming mouth spastic writhing vine name omitted she goes name omitted now first person person loved used her wanted help as tried help many others past hopefully find sort resolution myself slowly realize fragility human psyche little dominion others actions wont get many details precisely that way much details however think rape whether true matter life ive chosen lean heavily truth altered me sudden loss control sway crushing helplessness single moment do completely break everything love person stand idly never rushing conversation reaction there something tragic like happens lose fortitude structure i began excising myself forced become completely despondent attempted burn feeling order move on this make one love subhuman mental training repetition cycling indulgence pain dehumanization yet stayed friends would get back together loosely grew older separated clinged onto dear life would interested guys would interfere side hesitationa hesitation conflicting feelings desire perverse not still loved pain point nigh unbearable losing fucking mind many times after acted tyrant desperately holding onto possible escape constant mundane cycling living harrowing angst responsibility hypnotized ad nauseam pendulum doubt oscillates nothing something active inactive never again longer desirable anyone even myself ive actively continually make so vomit glad still alive thought nonexistence extremely tantalizing option come everyone love dont loveeventually merely toe dip knowwe complex species genuflecting reasons logic laws also dont feel like writing sordid screed anymore amen,1 tell things _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______,0 im ready go fuck many things leave behindthe realization one cares alive dead hits hard im like toy used play children one theyve forgotten about moved from one left shelf randomly thrown cardboard box left rot decay forever buried underneath tower cardboard boxes like landscape beige mountains ive always remembered them hoping probably vain that one day light flood casket ill feel fingers wrap around again hold tight somewhere buried deep inside me know truth im forgotten one cares im alive dead one cares enough nothings ever enough me hate it hate thing inside head manipulating everything make look like selfish monster takes takes takes never gives anything back im like that yet finding starting believe it going fuck everything im completely isolated unloved consuming whatevers left blackened soul along way kill me redflag end thats itll look like yes itll murder ill murdered head bully crushed soul gave monster im tired fighting im tired living people care me maybe hang myself still care dont thing stopping it knowing im going leave behind fuck lives badly love them always distant intimate connection them another burden busy lives need me theres plethora people turn im gone thats whats sad replaceable could disappear tomorrow one would blink everyone would continue lives been cant then ampxb sorry bit long even know anymore one read this ill forgotten somewhere normal now,1 want leave tonightnot bothering throwaway dont know anyone would care found this im years old friends family ive felt like dying long remember point pushing cowardice bc hotlines say gets better eventually never me good job year attempt took me jobless couple months havent drive really try find anything sleep much body let me wish anything left keep really dont im constantly physical emotional pain ive many therapists psychiatrists nothing make better want go whatever next maybe finally go maybe reincarnation real ill happier tomorrow,1 Almost half of adults with autism struggle with depression https://tacticalinvestor.com/almost-half-adults-autism-struggle-depression/ …,1 "@ilynjhx go to the merch : runto the barrier : runto Niall's livestream : run in the house to find wifito the queue : run go to school : sorry I m still in my bed , I ve been to Niall's concert and post concert depression is there",1 im going dead within monthi hate life anything cant continue anymore want pain over within month likely see committing redflag,1 janinesd no i m poor i am not an rn yet so i still have mobi lol,0 venting realityi single year old man sleep shitty couch cheapest apartment barely afford always filthy small keep clean make less k year beg pay every weekend real shoes clothes friends family one talk with hope future share lack money never given anything extra alone even pet keep comforted reminder couldnt afford save him coward ending life everyday wake here im reminded im coward coward failure,1 youre senior high school job field looking going to im graduating two months college forefront mind plan going school get degree food nutrition either want dietician home economics teacher wondering guys,0 oh fuck oh shit forgot irl friends follow account oh well already late hide literally everything away uhm see this _keep secret pls_ hope theyre inactive reddit oh fucc,0 "I hate depression, it's eating me alive",1 drewl rishisunak borisjohnson the great depression in the 9 0 is going to look like utopia compared to what is coming to every household not if you are a wealthy chap like rishi,1 hospitalfirst time hospitalized ever including redflag attempts looks like theyre involuntarily hospitalizing me fun im super relieved though walking around getting ready find place it totally cathartic felt good decision usually id get anxious coward out simple me someone found hours later apparently iwas worried wake up parents would upset like younger looking answers crying really theyve chatting normally staying doctors move me still feel different empty except general anxiety tried mentally prepare this distraught parents crying etc like first attempt awhile ago casual far actually prefer it want ask exactly involuntary hospitalization include outpatient beforehand group sessions color sometimes talk psychiatrist childrens outpatient im ,1 feel like miserable human makes lives around miserable ill always miserable matter do feel drenched it sinks clothes clumps hair together chunks wears bones makes hard move think impacts love most nothing life get better tried better life work everyone life either hurt way cannot forgive hurt way cannot forgive for feel disgusting disgusting person disgusting body disgusting sick brain makes think disgusting sick thoughts people personality disorder attempt suicide successful lot dead even bother vent feel like existence misery,1 sminchin 9 sorry to hear you re unwell it s the school holiday syndrome again,0 helpthis something sent someone today im currently drunk knife hands really know ill make day want to wanna bother wont sending messages this stop reading delete want ok wanted say someone since kind know ill say you get emotional charge would come wanna pile day kind hope reading anymore gone day decent chance making next week ive tried kill november failed woke regret alive knowing try long time piling since im getting feeling hopelesness desolace day im tired pretending right now fake smiles fake laughs fake conversations fake one smile say im ok one time today im gonna break ironic always considered rational logical end emotions mental disorders taking me know believe disconnected feel think lost importance know id much offer partner friend feel social interactions everyone better staying away me fake smile plastic conversation end quickly can never real never vulnerable adding layers protect much logically want break cant thick much work im tired failed make real human connection life never real friend real relationship seems crave most completely effortless people even though biggest source anguish im failing anything it could say logically want would flick switch end desire could understand ways would effect brain end thats wanted happy tried hard long know keep trying set lot difficult goals thought would make happy worked years accomplished much everything worse feel things nothing everything seems nothing im lost abandoning possible positive outcomes end darkness negative ones seems really good trade right now guess comes wanted leave last note somewhere last piece real ever one,1 took really fn high realize keeping around like keeping around realize till second happening always thought putting chase wow,1 Exercising for 20 minutes-a-day cuts risk of developing depression by one third https://www.telegraph.co.uk/science/2018/04/24/exercising-20-minutes-a-day-cuts-risk-developing-depression/?WT.mc_id=tmg_share_tw … via @TelegraphSci,1 my account on a messaging app got hacked while there s nothing illegal there i used to be a very very shitty person and i ve written extensively about my terrible wrongdoing attempt to get therapy and make ammends charity work i know that this person is unlikely to leak my info they seem to be using my account to scam my friend out of money they re committing multiple felony and i doubt they want to leak info and get caught still all this make me feel extremely anxious,1 im getting discouragedgtthis poem wrote gtthis one worst days life gtbut one best im still alive gti always thought things would change gti always kept hopes high eight years gtand still want die gtnow come question really change gtor ive told keep slightly alive gtmy heart still beating lungs still breathing gtbut numbness body seem cease gtmy bodys decaying somewhat already deceased gtthe rest go gtthe rest know give life gtwithout help gravity surface tension tall bridge gt gtthe worst getting worse feel worthy disease physical external illness coincide feels much reason sad somehow am feel nearly everyday better dead,1 ask trans girl questions unless jest thou look no pity thy thought perhaps,0 bestie crush me hey yall really friendzoning cuz mean im friendzoning someone feel like bad person now lemme explain whats happening bestie pansexual really dont know identify as years ago known half year said love me loved way told her thought fine that weve still close that now days ago said still crush me feel like fucking bad person now cuz like fault sth still want friends her like need her lot technically friendzoning kinda selfish me,0 stunning look ocean life itbr br the goodbr br the camera work absolutely phenomenal every shot done beautifullybr br it interesting seeing different animals could never even imaginedbr br david attenborough perfect narrators voice one could done betterbr br the badbr br there one two different times reference earth million years old hold different belief br br overall tv series anyone enjoy highly recommend buying it stars,0 Leaving for school.........gonna comment some blogs when I get back ,0 "...YT. It made me so happy. You guys are so amazing. I love you all... Thank you Oh, and goodmorning, may your day be as good as mine ",0 entirely sure doi really want complainer whiner ive really hard time lately im beginning think need help growing whole life revolved around mom jealous condescending way required special treatment colon cancer traveling specialist specialist chemo treatment chemo treatment got used hospital environment soon enough settled fort knox ky louisville ky getting best treatment could best professionals field went well approaching last treatment surgery remove last cancer around colon would free battle shed fought many years long story short last surgery go way doctors planned short stem cancer thought disconnected body fact connected heart slight tug resulted catastrophe year old child hard believe news fact next year rounding corner hope standing porch still lingers joke cruel sick joke corners rounded close times finally set in reality think thats depression began recovered time that senior year college tried taking life due rusty knife self actualization survived day im still struggling pretty poorly depression days good days debilitating cant admit family theyve suffered enough really really want get better im sure do im afraid go psychiatrist therapist im really feeling creep back anyone advice theyve done improve,1 wanna die get betteroriginally posted radvice idea subreddit wanna die dont know get better honestly opinion put this subreddit seems somewhat appropriate guess im point life want die honesty dont know do im pretty youngonly teenager redflag mind many years ive made plans multiple times always get scared last second dont feel like open anyone it mainly due fact open person told youre white cant problems im scared ask parents therapy someone really want open im scared theyre going like last person told theyre going tell someone would like ask therapy honesty dont know parents would believe wanting die dont want cause even stress honestly dont think ill able ask without breaking ill able ask all absolutely terrified telling parents onto im asking advice do want die again getting worse keep thoughts killing daily now want end thing is im thinking straight dont want die would make people sad would anything world making people sad want live long fulfilled life dont know ill able handle life longer dont think ill able decide do know make decision wont follow without someone expecting actually follw decision im asking tell person thoughts andor ask therapy alternatives,1 qr veolia fail translink the bus and train don t align so the early train is just a late a the bus one hour later,0 i know they have good intention but lot of the time they make me feel worse i don t like it when they ask too many question when i withdraw yet when i go to tell them my actual problem they indirectly tell me to get over it and don t think im depressed sometimes it seems like my mood is an inconvenience for them so they want me to be happy so they can be happy it s draining i m tired of them being nosy when when i need to be alone stop asking me to who i m talking to stop asking me what i m doing when i m not doing anything stop looking at my stuff and asking me question stop getting upset with me for being in a bad mood or trying to force me to be happy again i can t this is why i hate socializing with anyone in general it take up too much energy that i don t have and i m tired of having to hide whatever this heaviness i m feeling inside to make others happy i m tired of being the caretaker and human note pad to vent at all day i m tired of putting on a mask and pretending to be happy when i feel like garbage i hate myself i m tired all the time i feel like a failure and a waste of space i just want to be alone i don t want anyone to look at me,1 going now lost friend reason too cut hang myself would easier guys opinion maybe way maybe lonely fat ugly alone deserve suffering jealous sucidal mfs friends reasons live have fat fucking ugly piece garbage asshole face keep company fuck going show me abusvie shitbag ex shitty friend group bullies school everyojeni hate lonely,1 know else doman moment really contemplating redflag years old male know fuck do give background recently started business best friend year ago one solely dished business money became factor friendship things changed drastically debt this person turned used money purely raves money point know else fucking do wanting move seems still need deal also depressive episodes contribute well being moment want talk someone judge mistakes end bullshit want fucking done,1 careful say reddit account tracked contactedeven hypothetical questionsscenarios talk about take advice especially youre using certain wifi service,1 i cant sleep missing the person i love most for the past yr of my life if only,0 guys believe this clever selfworth lowering punchline friends meant relatable,0 moment last nighthi all im writing horrible moment last night ive feeling quite time really know why honestly believe boils unhappy career going way want feel like im caught rut last night quite drinks hell broke loose husband asleep really felt like wanted end everything decided wanted sit car garage let engine run instead right thing contacted text message redflag hotline told operator going eventually passed drunk next thing know husband multiple emt workers bedroom checking vitals told fine much drink eventually left fine next morning feel even worse last night feel awful scared husband much did feel horribly embarrassed im sure neighbors saw going on im damn frustrated everything im really sure next move terms recovery this anyone insight,1 survey videogame genres like watch play pls take graduation depends it yeah title says id appreciate could fill since really need data really easy short unless play watch videogames id say fill im mom link httpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlscjpxzbmxmwjwqcwsoonsnrwonzvrueafddrgaviewformuspsf_linkhttpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlscjpxzbmxmwjwqcwsoonsnrwonzvrueafddrgaviewformuspsf_link,0 yet you just want me alive for your conscious i pray everyday that something put me out and kill me this pain hurt a lot,1 so here we go i am very lonely i tried talking to a lot of people i just can t i leave everything i want i have no idea why i just tend to leave everything and everyone i love my mind is fucked i just sit and overthink for hour in one sitting cant someone kill me already i am just a burden to everyone in existence i want to die pleasee for god sake someone kill meeee at least i wont be a disappointment i tried my best i am done i cant anymore i didnt want to admit to it but yes i am ready to die now i will have a ton of regret but it alright please kill me help,1 @settlemoir congrats on ur baby girl...girls are way better!! ,0 luv summer re-runs..i missed alot during the school year....watched Gossip Girl and One Tree Hill...fav shows ,0 finally got nerve confidence planning asking crush next time saw herfriday stumbled upon pinterest kinda clickbait title also kinda not pin couples pictures like posts honestly feel less inspired ask out im thinking cute would def recreate them also got thinking sees those disappoint her idk man im losing battle anxiety rn,0 a no better way to fight depression http t co qmw or dmf,1 "@BekahIsSpankin lol, just nick please! ",0 wayi might regret im writing feel like it dont want die really dont want relief something look forward goal want im miserable cant move forward im weak self pity dont anything better change situation hate feel hate became hate situation im in instead grateful think sad worthless future probably wont like anything cant logical strong im avoiding important questions dont know answer regret anything now cant work benefit see big faliure might writing im attention seeking stupid person feel tired,1 youre cool getting blocked porn bots insta cool lmao accidentally added one started talking me kept saying gibberish blocked cause wouldnt sign website,0 Rn 4 if depression counts as a dark secret but hopefully I won't have to take that to my grave https://twitter.com/cindtrillella/status/989040262704959488 …,1 film might next evil dead hell knows maybe will year worth look expect million film cuz disappointed expect entertain laugh enjoy experienceall film much better many low budget horror films there seen films spent times film cost make turned times worse effort put film far weighs set backs faces limited budget movies meant entertain movie sure that fact film might even open new doors movie watching available netflix local video rental store watch it decide,0 cant stop thinking itim really dangerous positionv rn really expect anyone answer help im psychotic days bipolar took really word turn l feel like im seriously stuck stage mania depression extreme redflag thoughts plus energy execute them feel like im trapped lift belly whale bottom ocean thats radiohead feel trapped head im feeling away body already wish it know stupid im point life stable unless head,1 say goodbyei plans want say goodbye old friend dont really talk anymore it without raising much suspicion something,1 fairly good romantic comedy think ive ever seen meg looking cuter players good job keeping lively romp course real world genius mathematician would even glance grease monkey love romantic comediesone totally forget reality good time nice film damn meg babe eh,0 feels sickly. i need a personal assistant to keep fast food away from me! any takers? ,0 truly enjoyed movie however realize little richard many things going life first aware lucille little hardly any mention females intimately involved little richard even life today mention involvement females romantic way wonder part life mentioned overall movie great also like leon playing part little richard good actor feel part went different actor visually remind little richard also totally unaware promiscuity little richard part of movie pictured sexual addict todays time would referred counseling sexual addition voyeur want ruin movie someone seen movie however several things movie feel part final cut,0 dummest comment gets award one comment per user,0 Depression is a normal thing in this generation.. u ain't gonna die from it bro.. keep your head up.,1 "went on an intense run with my homies, then had a delicious breakfast. exhausted. shower -> work -> FUN. ",0 something need tell youive suicidal years off awful times good times mostly numb times make big speech saying different head somehow bright wonderful place think anyones truly is live planet heres thing better now lot better reason saw therapist although sure would help many people gave tough talk changed display phone motivational quote trapped cage fear cage though miserable safe safe hypothetical dangers meandering whatifs possible terrible scenarios ignoring dangerous one all manipulated controlled lied mind lied made think capable able enough anything anyone easier kinder let alone stagnate exist nothing anything anyone id get dressed tell going outside progress ok ok dead nothing else me feel reason grow all got point carry would physically dead emotionally mentally dead crashed glass took comfort zone smashed right it blew lid glass jar id screwed tight i stopped being comfortable sent email company took random chance shot took sign flew it dragged roots ground id tightly hooked into pumping soul full toxins long scared terrified wanted cower wanted safe again pit hole misery scary safe life much shook head screamed no went outside got flight job terrified id shit at bit was got better good good something something liked met people terrified meet liked me laughed sound real hugged someone called friend felt like natural thing fell love person never couldve dreamed head real sex felt another person properly want anywhere else remembered feeling way years tasted rain swam lake surrounded mountains rehashed views myself watched old self cower fade away saw new self able free saw saw could be lied think are liar know yet get scared get uncomfortable hell get uncomfortable feel sick make heart pound scream head tells point scream told go home home home point world black hole wraps around illusion making answer pills endless therapy quotes videos hug pat back answer you answer confidence confidence knowing capable of know know go live,1 dont hate dont respond sent something hours ago says last online minutes ago annoying ,0 visiting father years tomorrow going see father afterwell read title right father passed away years old family sort kept away fact even father feel strangely transcendental even know single thing fathers family mom decided tell everything years anyway tomorrow morning im going visit grave know say absolutely memories him heard good father proud children say anything even remember anything him well guess im gonna say whats heart tomorrow wish luck sorry bad english ,0 please fucking kill me want kill badly want blow head badly hate fucking life hate myself please god fucking kill me god dammit,1 reannaremick doesnt work on my cell go to sleep p,0 limbo also guys reply posti never really wanna commit redflag whenever thoughts whenever think it im much coward go it im financial problems little issues want go it back out want die im coward cant previous fact,1 i feel like i m having a panic attack which i ve had before i m all alone and normally that would be very bad but this time is different i think i might be disassociating or something because i m restless like a panic attack and my heart is racing and my brain is off the rail but i m also completely emotionless i can t even make myself cry or smile or yell or anything anyone know what s happening any word of wisdom or love would be greatly appreciated because this is gon na be a long scary night for me i think,1 cheesy movie line really needed ok got around watching fantastic beasts amd find them yesterday used potterhead want watch thought bookwhich script boring lot better expected actually week rough mentally nice point it anyways one line stuck me my philosophy worrying means suffer twice someone worries heck ton ive heard likes maybe hundred times idea time hit different god cheesy really needed that thanks jk rowling,0 Still waiting for installation to b completed..... sO AWESOMRONIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!,0 theres pointive failed launch fucked much life im intelligent cant even sit write coherent piece feels like really encompasses want existence over something really feels like coming heart know problem is im able emotionally connect anything outside world anymore even writing theres point going on im never going accomplish anything im never going smart enough good anything particular shit really retain information try learn anyways might well gotten high school diploma like remember shit learned school anyways real clarity cant even remember specifics skills used use previous jobs skills study train for even jobs fucking fuzzy shit all probably damaged brain drugs drinking matter ive stopped now damage done credit bad driving record bad im debt never finished school never got training proper career anyone thinks ive got deal shit make phone calls need make plan im going future need solve issues even definable solutions them got another thing coming life impossible im willing throw water anymore choose sinking swimming even know perfectly well swim im willing deal situation ive gotten in im willing deal mark bad credit im willing deal figure training schooling conjunction im going make ends meet order pay bills im willing deal shit existence pain is interact people pain prove employers pain deal shame situation pain waking every morning pain willing longer ruminate life life shit happy willing try happy reject happiness reject feeling it reject love care compassion ever mask outside world mask wear order get by mask probably accomplish need to still probably look like little retard everyone probably still look like pathetic fucking loser never born earn respect others born derided looked upon people see see better me intelligence skill passion intelligence nothing world courage die exactly need need courage put end shit without feeling afraid still slog on absolute bare minimum somewhat responsible myself know why im still afraid die mean want live life pain life torture get shit together follow life responsibly torture want responsible anything im sick existence way ever happy possible nothing happy about gets harder every day trying keep together public work give shit give shit im fucking unintelligent give shit im fucking unintelligent functioning member society want die sleep wake reality get many hours day shitty fucking brain try make life better pursuit give shit anymore better better alive better see another person ever again better never think one second money ever again better never think legal responsibilities anymore responsibilities myself better never think solve problem better never think going order put better situation better never lift another finger task labor better never learn anything ever again better dead better courage necessary end life quickly painlessly possible,1 Quick workout done. Now off to Utrecht for an evening of SingStar. ,0 mods asleep quick check nudes lmao youre gay know youre actually awake,0 @writebi thanks ,0 reasons would great boyfriend i love daft punk kanye i wouldnt,0 hanging threadhi im really sure right place ask go long post ahead advanced sorry shitty formatting im currently girl we havent together long happiest time life far im dead set making work beginning thought fails ill never go relationship turned something worse id literally choose everything every outcome aim literally relationship time togetheror id like think bit depressed bit suicidal got together bit actual acts involved though thinking hard go therapist felt going sad inevitable path realized became fully dependent her times came close breakup thoughts zeroing redflag like never another option that nice sometimes shed like mess not serious sometimes anxiety trust issues id take seriously still stop for instance asked whos guy shed answer manner thatd make anyone think theres something lines sometimes leads endless cycle fight would end apologizing like im begging life probably am hint cheatingalthough unlikely would also give attacks those thoughts it enough keep wide awake gets resolved somehow havent fought time now im desperately fighting keep way fortunately hasnt anything weird hsppening lately inevitable want make sure ill make next time fortunately current state probably wont last weeks without talking her id dead end nd week im wish joking enough anger sadness push high place im really bad place almost seriously once stood top footbridge almost two half hours thing kept feet ground fact broken yet close so everything life depends relationship right now lot hobbies nothing makes anything work were fighting even things love turns nothing were fighting im paralyzed basically want less dependent sake us someone commit redflag kind traumaticat least me ever breaks me want last bit longer two weeks may get convinced reason something dont know im mess dont even reason writing right now think should live without something never point cringiest thing ive ever written way asking help,1 grandson fans wondering many teens fan grandson since hes kinda popular quite mainstream far knowledge goes,0 got sexually abusedi cant take anymore ive literally treatment depression whole life guy forced sexual acts kind promise relationship said want full on sex later literally feel like stabbing knife throat,1 "@CHSommers @baileyc333 I'm not saying you lie, but I'd really like to see evidence for that statement. Eating disorder is the deadliest mental illness? Not suicidal depression or alcohol-/drug addiction?",1 top car flick its work art yer work art classic cars plastic fantastic watched worn two video tapes wear lots more lots car lovers young old love film watch time hire buy just see it wish would make car movies like v power gassed little whipper snippersbr br shes rightmotor magic the heap chariotbr br youve got learn feel power,0 @coreyspowell How about depression?,1 help best friend hospitali hope someone reading familiar inpatient mental health services best friend hospital little week now gave call morning unfortunately sleeping see phone call later called hospital back gave first last name told patient name im sure number called correct hospital correct one its located small town live in anything reach again call back ask connect someone called hours ago really would appreciate input worried friend days want talk her,1 think might destined commit redflagi raised incredibly well somehow parents pushed problems years gave incredibly loving healthy upbringing point even siblings know major issues then announced getting divorce guess gave facade change family drastic fast traumatizing suddenly everything started going wrong life figured mom basically sociopath awful person dad major abandonment issues emotion stress one old friends siblings properly deal anyone elses emotions all siblings younger though and age affect way affected me become adult experiencing entirely new area life right started pivotal point me far closest person mom anyone family point years this im place never wanted never thought would be raised well mind deals incredibly differently average depressed person feel think things people simply cant understand feels like two different lives two lives two separate timelines even past feels like two different childhoods way feels like healthy people relate half me depressed people relate half me considering redflag past two years yesterday put situation literally inescapable feel hopeless literally feel like best option redflag thought dying sounds kind nice way imagine would live dream like state cant ever get tired dreaming whatever happens mind think death would similar effect upbringing cant let go life somehow done mind strong live subject feels like worst possible situation world effects upbringing feels awful think it think end ill probably commit redflag edit whoever downvoted me thanks asshole wrote whole post explaining misunderstood am thing could think wow im offended put feel better myself which assume something post sounded positive depressed person sounding pompous cause apparently subjectively bad life legitimate reason want commit redflag people like make sick thanks proving point misunderstood ignored like fucking perspective like i wanna put person cause life good thats exactly fucking reason im depressed life started good everyone like fuck you even though horrible now somehow childhood makes dick depressed,1 it s been year since i ve any kind of intimate relationship i ve tried over and over and over to get a girl of any kind and it always end the same they leave me on read or open within two day and honestly i m just a huge loser and i m ready to crash my car and die so if anyone would like to know why i did it there it is i m a fucking failure,1 teacher set us test open assignment question day today shes like hyping test saying gotta study lmao apparently actually gonna give us test like ok last day term,0 "anyway cripple is a slur and if you're not physically disabled don't fucking use it! (Yes, that includes all y'all saying crippling depression/other non physical illness/disability)",1 reminder go buy tongue scraper white tongue,0 I got that from www.tourcrush.com on their message boards... They were talking about no on prop 8 and marriag.. http://tinyurl.com/cjvbc2,0 In 2 weeks time I can be sat outside with a coffee in MY GARDEN!!! Woooo So exciting!! It will probaby rain forever more!,0 seriously imagine spread talent one film without huge budget daniel daylewis ray mcanally brenda fricker hugh oconor fiona shaw theres doubting fricker daylewis deserved awards would entirely justifiable seen oconor as young christie mcanally awarded clich true here perform roles inhabit them daylewis performance tour de force transformation aweinducing truly mark academys intelligence alongside performance also honoured brenda frickers beautifully restrained still heartwrenching work christies mother way seen magnificent actress swann thats another film well worth checking contribution and sublime miranda richardson,0 get got person reading click win new carhttpsmyoutubecomwatchvdqwwwgxcq,0 bodyi lost kg still cant like body still comfortable skin want starve ribs show arms thin stomach flat want thin ill binge keep getting bigger want small captures attention people makes worried,1 ill rouuuuundabout words maaaaake ,0 best case scenario coming s thousands debt nothing show it broken body broken mindbought rc benzos try treat redflag made anything better even blacking abusing anything feel like shit tired did diy hormone treatment couple years ago things felt better stop lose financial support education like would graduate anyway thoughcant see doctor family care one friend left abandoned abandoned by ride die lot shit me getting fancy magnet treatment getting better making friends successful actually passionate making music jealous bitch hurts watch cannot talk it got nothing left buying meaningless shit failing stupid diy projects pass timewaiting one job application come back shitty night shift grocery store stocking job good for get interview taking grams etizolam drinking wake uphow fuck end like failing college unemployed bought meds thinking using end,1 deepbluesealove im still here reading an article on a different site seems a little dull on twitter tonight with no music,0 alpha utd yup depression of winning trophy least of all,1 nagant m love gun much,0 @mrolv bye! talk 2 u soon! x,0 i don t really have any actual friend but i also have no motivation to actually make any i just can t be bothered but in a way i m almost scared to feel better again it s like i enjoy feeling sorry for myself or something,1 lost imagei think saw browsing imgur years ago or longer think tumblr post spoke wanted commit redflag go something meaningful dangerous places like volunteering war torn places go things afraid do like sky diving worst could happen die best discover reason live found helpful even though cant remember well anymore someone saved better google search could post it maybe someone else find helpful know cant help everyone maybe help one person,1 poll profile pls curious think,0 "@LindaEskin let me guess...you dont use windows, but your not a mac person...you use linux? ",0 krisbelieve andarson brel basilngidi mizzzidc eng bystuff mj cachinnate yea you are right imagine the pain and depression the mother will go through when she find out her own blood daughter ha humiliated her in bird app because of a nike of how much,1 drop comment ill stalk profile tell u think u read title sums,0 updated version story turned film englandreturn frog concerning pursuit police master criminal known frog frog like get bulging eyes etc wearsbr br one good wallace films s solid little entertainment clearly influenced influence restart dr mabuse films frog seems super villain master thief best wallace films worth look would make interesting double feature excellent earlier filmbr br between ,0 ive decided kill myself dont upvoteim sorry comes wall text im also sorry rambling nonnonsensical wanted write down going kill myself decided to ive tried past past weeks ive getting closer closer going it realised it id ever spontaneously way work set date plan id one day decide todays day id thinking that wondered whether right thing do know make note like lot people life important people family members friends people knew kid made impression life id like say something nice them tell appreciated there telling family fault sort thing realised months advance even years advance itd horribly macabre so many people id want say goodbye to im hoping ever decide write note whatever time id written things wanted say go id changed mind right want die im quite keen living bit longer ive pressing past days though came home college see family college works getting worst me anyway walking around neighbourhood realised many different things reminded times happy passing piece graffiti told ex once sort thing kind upsetting got in happened start listening music know whole constantnoveltyseeking type midnset websites like reddit foster horrible downside past years so ever since got net theres always one song ive playing others like song like much makes hate it find another one anyway ended stumbling towards ive seen face beatles reminded last year highschool everything much better top game taking running seriously gotten ivy league college class president soontobe valedictorian school organised prom great time listening particular song took back that id done lot work get point id already battled eating disorders self harm rest it pulled it managed coped eventually started succeed know turn life around like once again get back emotionally physically academically one small tiny fucking piece time ive decided kill myself hopefully ill able update future life crumbling around past year half want set putting back together read this thank you wt,1 jennchambless me neither and nobody is awake nobody i m drunk and alone,0 need help butim afraid tell therapist whats wrong me need tell driving redflag able bring tell problems mixture things real things imagined things im sure real thoughts torment daily lies guilty lied one person ever taken seriously helped want end life feel part problem munchausen syndrome sorry cant spell also real mental problems too cant admit therapist making guilty plan kill want confess therapist feel therapist hurt angry even though thoughts plan kill act them im afraid therapist believe true things told find out tearing apart feel guilty everyday im nearly constant mental torment hate myself know deserve help need it need guilt killing me,1 depression: 0beck: 1,1 know reddit snoos rteenagers alexmaestro draws thats us utinkerbell,0 "@chrisagriffin Where's C, where, where bzzzzz, bzzzzz, bzzzzzz ",0 previously seen zu warriors magic mountain film setting takes place chinas mountains legend zu looks like another dimension thank tsui harks extensive use cgi effects hes able portray vision mountains floating clouds land beings fly freely powers ranging razor sharp wing blades split swords ultra cool moon orbbr br while many characters one focus mainly king sky enigma romance aspect there although movie seems much darker predecessor cecilia cheung beautiful presence screen makes movie worth watching beginning like resembles countess from zu warriors well playing enigma deals facing past life oh way mention cecilias appealing eyebr br in truth zu warriors comedy elements special effects limited due time tsui hark takes whole new level sets new standard cinema,0 almost wondering im still hereive mental health struggles since childhood theyve never fully gone away im feeling like ive wasted lot life job put reduced hours im struggling find something better ive tried meet people start relationship one interested real friends talk people online worse cause know likely never meet them days bother get bed time whats point im eating properly anymore either hoping move us year work know bad currently still im couple years fuck show it guns country ill come better way,1 dad moving soon wow ive never though would ever write im bawling eyes out im bodybuilder probably last person youd expect bawl eyes out years house dad moving another house across town dont know holds future anyone tips help keep sane dont know do,0 barryearnshaw pezholio my achilles heel for spending is x dvd s for 0 in hmv,0 hello friend i had a very rough night my period is in a day and during my pm i always have more anxiety and emotion than usual right now though i am going through a relapse of my gad and pa last night wa one of the most challenging night of my anxiety day i literally felt like the entire night wa a big long not ending panic attack session i had moment where i had the full blown panic attack but in between the anxiety wa constant in and out of sleep i wa a mess i wa convinced that this time i lost my mind i need to call an ambulance and put in a mental health hospital it wa too much absolutely out of hand and now i am exhausted anxious dp dr is here and hoping it will all get better once i get my period i am on therapy 0mg sertraline and trying to meditate but last night wa hard something i haven t experienced before and i am feeling so defeated and scared that this is it that s how i ll lost my mind,1 im worried friend really pretty carefree intelligent ive known since highschool band back then played guitar sang played bass another friend played drums grunge scene honest kinda good bunch year olds trying make name themselves,0 @AlexTrup Thx ,0 cococourtney i wa just listening to the sweet for the first time in forever i miss them so much can we go to chi town for visit plz,0 i need help but every time i reach out for help it dose not work out i m tired of feeling sad and bad about my self no one care abt how i feel no one want to know how i feel i m ready for my name to be on back of my team mate helmet on saturday when we take the field even with that no one will pay attention all 0k plus s that s full up the stadium when we play this is my cry for help,1 three months ssri medication nervous breakdown friends help memy girlfriend drinking party best friends asleep im crying eyes out fucking pathetic much want somebody give little bit affection never asked help before feel fucking rejected come help me told party soon asked help told shed drinking call different friend fuck everything tonight im honestly embarrassed call redflag hotline call anyone else thought done suicidal thoughts depression never knew would come back like this im overwhelmed negative emotions hate jealousy anger selfloathing fuckeverythinginthisentireplanet know do guys deal emotional breakdown think im losing it,1 this doesnt feel real anymore i dont feel like myself everything is the absolute worst it can be and it just doesnt feel right to be alive i feel like im in a coma or a dream and i ll just wake up when this is all over i just want that to happen a soon a possible,1 wish people would hate end easieri truly believe life meant die nothing anyone life death matters trick thinking things matter dont someone cared said i wish dead relief would be could finally let go stupid life but forced live hell degeneracy ignorance poverty met single virtuous person long time completely alone redflag next logical step,1 ever look peoples reddit avatars think oh wow avatar cute like avatar would like steal avatar,0 angery chungus most opppressed memory loss is a symptom of depression j,1 anyone else feeling sad feel sad nothing it pandemic anything else im stuck continuous loop dont know dont know want do dont anyone hang im confused help,0 day preparing test know anything figured best chance read texts manual way ill know least fragments,0 "@fairy_Freia Ð?га, не в первый раз уже Твиттер обьединÑ?ет родÑ?твенные души ",0 notive never used reddit idk im right yesterday community im ganged one kid screen shots made seem racist idk theyre real wanted say wait theres blurry screenshots next hour horn notifications reasonable many calling aid racism defending condoning racism one would listen me people ive friends years ostracized decided since think im defending racism im garbage person cant friends combined plethora things pushing towards edge dont want die apparent nobody wants live didnt want leave family debt wouldnt hesitate hang better lives,1 made likehalf song anyone rap wanna help out,0 hi i think i m okay but wanted to check in i wa cleaning some shelf at work and washed my hand and went out for a smoke had a stomach ache but i could just be hungry didn t eat much besides some cereal and chip and it s evening time lol my mind being overactive again maybe i wa worried about residue i guess lol,1 alonemy gf years dumped me grew together every day told loved me friend knew better even family never thought anyone would love way gave hope maybe wouldnt alone rest life shes blocked forms communication told never talk again im done betrayed treated like trash cant function barely sleep let alone function work itd b better killed sav life disappointed know sad sob story hurts bad im alone nobody talk love want around im going die terminal dehydration way least content wasnt spur moment decision,1 is mega better thanks to kayla ,0 sorry for the next tweet,0 women find interest me unattractive bit socially awkward weird yet outgoing friendly kind funny getting older see chances family fading fast recently increasingly depressed dark thoughts loss forever alone,1 tfw straight vibe big think am listening straight boomer tracks also tell wife im still awake,0 @mikalaaaaaaaa Weed helps my depression tho ,1 bliss would die sleep tonighti dont know start turned honestly feel like describing life make want end even honest sorry thats depressing read ive hit huge wall depression past week ive turned life around picking huge breakup dropping school straight community college transferring next fall semester major really want actually now though road success paved one ive let parents see nuisance know sub level love right im burden them made waste k last school dropped out finally scored job unemployed while best friends gone feel like friends see sucks theyve moved im completely alone dont feel close anyone anymore sucks zero emotional support extrovert loneliness dragged deep dark pit feel despair now near impossible make friends classes acquaintances friend groups dont want apart them kids huge gossipers type want around feel alone miss ex year half even though destroyed me connection everything common best friend work regularly physique competitions even gym seems like chore now im miserable feel like every day exactly point want go downtown jump bridge want die sad seeing friends move new closer friends theyve pushed away subtly reject want get closer im downer anything im bit goofy like good time life opposite right now,1 starting to resent always being struck by creativity after midnight then having to get up for work in the morning,0 got ta repeat whole art folio cuz old one with a whole term work got wet,0 want cat dont know exactly supposed get cat im asking people lalalshskshskhsndbsbsbshs filler,0 never asked borni bring people down dont deserve live dont want anyway cant even remember last time genuinely happy feel nothing pain carry living im somebody missed like decent qualities dont want upset anyone stop getting close people selfish know im going kill myself,1 saw part film scifi channel missed ending bought dvd see whole movie im glad didbr br a young mother two daughters move house backwoods area inherited husband died illness run down three women make best it teen daughter scout taylorcompton warned local boy zombies come night ignores him since cute friend joins group meanwhile younger daughter chloe grace moretz makes friend zombie girl age named mary turns mary several kids died mine working child labor zombies attack kill anyone whos blood relative br br this movie directed js cardone whose previous films include slayer shadowzone two movies like slightest bit surprised actually enjoyed movie film deliberately paced liked allows get know main characters likable child zombies used least since george romeros classic night living dead still found toolusing child zombies movie interesting would seem cardone finally found right script cast stereotypical scenes teens smoking drinking making parked car boring mebr br taylorcompton also appears halloween remake moretz appeared amityville horror horror film room ,0 came vent guessim fucking worthless dumbfuck piece shit im fucking useless deserve breathe cant anything barely pass classes cant sport art fucking thing cant even get drivers license im fucking dumb it ever get college probably happen end dropout something like unemployed alcoholic family one care friends beg kill myself none convince probably neither anyone here try help might well ignore message unless fucking superhumans able change mind said vent little bit im fucking angry frustrated guess better screaming walls im done shit want die,1 crush said height starts foot dont talk jokes im literally ,0 praying actually productive tomorrow like god please someone beat please,0 holy fucking shit cannot process fact computer science ta invited class section play among us weekend hes going post link canvas everything cannot breathe w h,0 idk feel like anyone likes interest me boring bc cannot leave apartment without panic attack one wants spend time one reaches plans going end alone wish someone life would fucking realize much fight urge hurt often cannot hold back want feel normal always feel worthless,1 credits short graduating high school graduating means nothing me attempted hang failed miserably whole life constantly dealing trauma childhood mom lack father figure instead getting kind genuine help thrown mental hospitals because father say full heart kill year over know like constantly bullied way look gave long time ago suppose here want free life life scars define person forever be hopeless looking anyone tell things get better know not time gone free waking every day horrified reflection become things told child id never become little happy kid dead ruins everyday wake up worthless let child trying free happy live life meaning youth wasted away ill never get back wasted youth majority life spent trying make others happy others deem necessary do want free vicious cycle trauma told live with die dignity die knowing everything could hold another second say suicide easy way out no way wasted youth,1 give one reason care school seriously care anymore,0 currently eating raw bagel havent slept yet need something occupy time with idea im posting im probably gonna get downvoted oblivion idc,0 know anymoreim married ive married long time pretty bad lot it met best friend thick thin meanwhile husband bad husband great father fall love best friend meet best friend best time entire life yes know cheated know even though husband ok know bad person know made bad choices tell husband prior love anymore want divorce even know take skills money job best friend says ready move miles me cant sell house etc takes time know says things make second guess everything meanwhile husband trying wanting go counseling wanting fix everything fantastic really different person toward me says like slapped sense want live without me every time touches kisses cannot stop thinking best friend know deep cant alone right now know long going take best friend anything said things like said make second guess everything tell cant kid kid needs normalcy stability friend says okay cant talk good long while im losing someone love damn much best friend honestly ive always wanted die life since day shitty amplified,1 want gone birthdaythis first time posing reddit birthday wednesday ive decided tonight want dead then im therapy nothing working want go sleep never wake up ive struggled self harming years first time days clean im throwing away tonight need work courage,1 azraeel got home after 0 in the end back in for a 9am start aswell,0 nam myh renge kynam myh renge ky nam myh renge ky nam myh renge ky nam myh renge ky nam myh renge ky nam myh renge ky,1 help pleas crush asked go swimming house barbecue dad friends im person invited dont know whether tell like barbecue ask likes wait bbq say something like nice time ive known years done multiple things let know probably likes like resting head shoulder hugging me suprising al actually years existence gave birthday present school yea think say yes,0 i cant wait till i get sims 3 its going too be amazinggg (YN),0 yes need proof prove need start fundamental level prove here digit number digit digit base number system created number number system equal commonuniversal base number system ampxb my created base number system commonuniversal base number system ampxb base number system supports natural numbers in terms commonuniversal base number system lets get back proving statement easily prove converting commonuniversal base number system hence proved,0 Read this about #depression https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/depression/index.shtml …,1 know right place need helpokay probably told break ill feel better wont girlfriend normally sweet loving caring sometimes gets terrible ever happens night were texting gets mad and tells im worthless tells im stupid tells lies truths get mte down day afterwords always realizes terrible being like different state mind says desperately needs attention always pay attention happens recently like this worse time finally told needed talk someone here comes relevance makes suicidly depressed everytime it said no said act like nothing happened asked sad lied said no knew lying said yes would gone me feel like rape victim know do theres better subreddit question please direct there needs come stop started tying noose time told break effect,1 know allhey there first want thank awesome people sub helping years old think might suicidal last months ive grown tired life got tired thing every day speak it get told going get better soon thats ive told years theres nothing particularly wrong life okay parents something eat drink every day bullied anything makes think overreacting really mind wake tomorrow hand though feel like would never kill myself even know expect thread guess want know ok q typical im teen im sad phase depressionam suicidal realized best and only friend random dude internet ive known years now never met irl even know real name guess thats id rather get responses irl friends theyre real friends outsiders eat talk school days ago started chocking myself made feel something comes boredom feel bad life bored drives crazy knowing life least another years think typing helped do try talk parents ok going something every teen goes through,1 flashgetem i don t know what this mean but i think it mean depression kill you there i sha like the reply a e take sound,1 ok know gay socks im wearing thigh socks make gay even less gay,0 dont know anything make happy anymoreim last year high school nothing motivating keep going except college know life turn around college right hard keep living amazing friends great dad great things life hate myself hate look hate im hung boy hate cope hooking people hate want kill myself hate think redflag least times day hate different march need get shit together dont know how want work again want find whats wrong mentally want feel motivated again dont know start,1 floorstheres apartment building know thats fifty stories tall sky bridge kinda thing th th floor open public im scared fall either height stories would take full five seconds im afraid failing and also beautiful building want ruin things residents future visitors wonder whatll repercussions wish easier way kill myself,1 least painful way diecant anymore dont want really painful,1 whati know im myself holding back thoughts dont go away theyre always back mind sometimes come front dont want try want nothing exist dont want worry painful even accomplish want want im capable of feel like emptiness always there nagging me even try even exist doesnt make sense want live world ghost could whatever wanted one would bother me one would tell need better better even would impossible theres way around peer pressure self inflicted pressure dont fully exist idk feel empty time constantly trying reassure bigger purpose im reason exhausting im,1 anyone got group chat join dont mind invite,0 ah well today wa my first day at university it wa okay kinda i had fun with the friend i had but there wa also a lot of stuff that made me feel small and pathetic first of all a friend and i got to the wrong building and went up four floor using the stair we had to go down and do so again with the right one it s embarrassing to admit but i m not exactly an active person so it left me exhausted and kinda dizzy i felt pathetic and wished no one wa there to see me like that i got together with my group of friend after that and to be honest i m irritated at myself for not talking more it made me feel kind of excluded even though i know that wasn t the fault of my friend after that i got lost when i had to go back in train because someone in my family said they were gon na give me a ride but didn t give me the right direction got blasted on phone for being late and when i got home i felt really awful i hate causing others inconvenience and i felt like i totally did when i wa eating a bit once i got back i noticed something strange in my mouth and whaddya know the gum behind the third molar is swollen but doesn t hurt my brain went into overdrive and now assumes it s my wisdom tooth even when this ha happened before and it wa nothing i m tired,1 niggas like using ppls stolen credit card bad reeeeee u morels like shut pussy want money ion rly anymore tho cause annoying companies put million security systems cant even order shit real card know balance like using bullshit dumb broke fucking idiots card annoyingly hard yea,0 world fuckin bullshitunemployment still come thru way get money probably gonna fuckin tonight got go anymore,1 @dantheo thanks ,0 Depression https://twitter.com/arandomarabdude/status/986090792480624641 …,1 let reviews critics imdb users mine influence seeing movie read plot premise became intrigued watching movie opinion definitely worth seeing gives perspective life many probably contemplated however leland says movie can wrapped neat package bow everything user reviews website claim psychological background imply story feasible quite obviously missed entire point movie disappointing say leastbr br in short well acted well directed movie story feel good one feel come away movie feeling good may missed something characterize art house unfair opinion society likes labels probably one fits find know everything know world id suggest skipping one feel movies form escape from world find here watch it might find something yourself,0 iam want diealready age thought redflag i dont know why life started fall apart parents strict me sister still annoys me im depressed almost every night lot bad grades school everyone laughing really know life pls help,1 one wanna eat raw carrot sometime tastes good healthy time perfect also like eat peas cooked gone cold ik bit weird good get eat dont go work im extremely greatful towardsmy boss letting so,0 Amazing night loves my bestfriends <3 Tonight was totally worth it and i can't wait for the morning ,0 fuck math literally everyone hate math,0 robert siodmak fabulous job b noir starring ella raines franchot tone alan curtis it might add without lot help male actors ie curtis tone raines way pretty leggy actress one reason another never reached status noir counterpartsbr br siodmaks use sex light shadows music truly remarkable tackles genre shadows lighting effects camera angles effective highlight film takes place nightclub sexual drum riff elisha cook egged excited raines scene brings phantom lady new territorybr br siodmaks commitment material matched raines gives sincere performance woman love trying save man franchot tone phoned one in alan curtis seem upset might die seem happy lived never except brief moment prison seemed love rainesbr br the amusing thing many films that world war ii progressed interest psychiatry deepened often terms used incorrectly films possessed spellbound the greatest show earth tone called paranoid thomas gomez tone probably paranoia attached disorder appears closer psychopath actuality evidenced headaches may brain tumor pushing brainbr br phantom lady greatest plot well worth watching,0 truth is im already deadi four months away ive died countless times last four years life trying fight mymental illness face constant symptoms family whoback then better now kept giving meshit things literally survive mind ampxb aside new habit last year half trusted ofthe thoughts head otherwise would die cant afford trust mybrain wants nothing life wants live lifeless zombie even things crumble parents grow older remain someone still scrambled together enough life skills stand feet despite putting fucking effort ampxb depression social anxiety generalized anxiety comorbid resultant porn addiction got fluoxetine axepta last august made lick difference like got amisulpride parent falsely told schizofuckingphrenia needed said meds numbmehttpsnumbme four years ampxb take long oh emotions thing family teaches well see im youngest three kids also trusting fact abused twice first get see doctor without knowing pretext see writing later say feeling things fucking normal parents surviving anxietydepression entire lives how oh easy fucking interconnected social web full high functioning anxious depressed tools tools harsh word label kindly allow use now ones reading this helps live third world fucked arse society shit gets normalized real quick still end human relationships generally know fucking important shit is ampxb me oh ended basically autistic socially due constant isolation frombetween now trying get ba economics college filled ah normals capable socializing well generalization thats false point get accepted enough connected enough going college aregrowing leaving mebehind sit postrelapse occurred couple hours ago sit feeling like time die ive tried fucking long noe learned far little recompense brain fucking focus ampxb theres point without connection get back up heres vicious cycle works fuck w porn choices gt increased depressionanxiety gt people get wrong signals gt people run away gt creates resentment apathycrippling loneliness sadness self fulfilling prophecy fixed first every fucking time ampxb ive learned near enough nothing insane aspirations financial situation family earning parentssavings last long goals become masters clinical psychology psychodrama therapist plus writeractor im deadly serious this ampxb writingacting help stay alive feel dothem goof actor first try studied near enough much practical experience far shot dark itsmore like throwing dart dark warehouse stacked haystacks hoping magifuckingcally hit bullsye six hundred feet beyond distance well dontcarehttpstcare thats accurate not ampxb tried get many things done time biggest obstacle ended lack support noe theyve finally seen fucking mistakes anger self destruction set mr late seem hurt brain enough via enough consistent sleep deprivation barely focus anymore im functionally dead living based automatic circuitry life program executed biological machine project mediocre second year ba universe creations students fourth dimension man give enough shit make life interesting c grade suits im fucking fine ampxb look im dead know im nothing without people understand im dismissing individuality know whats important life meditation taught things mattered mr enough that right im fucking ofthe wonderful young adults couldve honor meeting life people whose like ive never life im crying ive reached point writing this numb till now whats killing most first time life felt connection felt relations im failing every last one themand losing fuck would understand would comprehend levels sheer social incompetence amount constant self fulfilling prophecies still fall prey despite therapy losing one blame myself ive strength left keep going ampxb attacked trying survive trying learn stand two feet given constant mixed messages never received help needed evenwhen presented answers silver platter ampxb addiction least kills drive many things ampxb haveyou know now much youno want to reading sorry thank reading wonder stranger truly do ive friends least lived constantly feeling dont ive tried think made connections quite bit last four years yet position even know reason ultimately decide die still feel like connections know cant factually true every one them ampxb people im tired problems largely invisible borne isolation sheer lack learning brain executes distraction efficiency nazis used persecuting killing jews offensive use termherehttpstermhere mean accurate racist arse funny much likea white male sound consider im fact fucking indian fair skinned lad dick brown assure you stand seem like though ampxb the thing keeps going doom yeah glorious dumb thing playing it spirit they rage brutal without mercy worse rip tear done see lens neuroplasticity terms seeing symptoms fighting relentlessness doom marine does bfg division loop whenever im trying productive one things works ampxb well iverambled quite bit gone tangent sideline roller coaster abyssal web let mebring end structure ampxb feel lifeless one reason ive felt ten years life childhood rife bullying adolescence mired mistakes supposed adults misinformation first half supposed adulthood filled constant attempts move upward fraught consistent failure ampxb im tired actually gave shit actually tried results enough get point job survive own enough social web hang withwhich really helped smart ass cynical persona prone channeling comedians even im social repressed ass society lgtbtq supportive feminist straight man society would technically normal want date year olds around yet seem one three people fucking informed enough know thats bad idea case collectively slot younger siblings giant babies definitely ones competent professional mr soon enough point mean ill forget like first them hell find getting insecure depressed surpassing now thats fucking fun gonna repeat resentments adults around mr gave simple act daring grow improve genuinely hope im dead happens would consider win least pass hurt conditioning case ampxb im possibly going repeat year college stuck even younger people next year like said losing people manage go college every day attendance low disbarred soon enough ampxb know whats ahead except dying soon then ill go ahead leftover assignments bfg division repeat write write write wait inevitable suicidal ideation sheer emptiness return ampxb another day lost another phase time cannot get back consequence always comes bear ampxb tell me really bad tried not right aint know ampxb died im dead lived ive never really lived know fuckers mean life relationships forget girlfriends ive barely friends human connection general fucking lovecraft probably social methe racist arse prick yet know enough know connections matter almost wish know source problems paradoxically would make survival easier right now ampxb im dead its right now listening next right thing frozen iam gonna writing night ill go college im going die let least come wake event public ally break due social anxiety depression college let least know give avoid ny final moments maybe psychology student gain insight help someone future ampxb dead know im losing them already miss them wish connected much doubt would believe said so mean it hard miss innocence kindness normality gave taste ina life devoid it first real chance establish something intrinsically important fucked up could tell them tell this unaware are would manipulative want to want know im going through that want protect this equipped enough handle it repeat mistakes done me ampxb stories ive had want dedicate life to whether writing acting playscriptscreen writing orstories human condition human becoming kind symbol ampxb im dead ampxb im physically die fade world ill make sure done ideals mind heavy handed ridiculous inthe nature world though may be else society change else move forward ampxb put forth mindless effort cani rip tear done either dead high rise jump orsurviving guess day out learned live work ampxb whatever reason read thisthank you please tear around willing effort know it please dont yourself please stop take me enough it give better internalize messages say things yourself ampxb please end dead like me kill inner better half deserve better please please please ampxb ambegging you fucking please getting goddamn you please please,1 i just need help man im quite a confident intelligent guy id say good looking and everything but the past year my anxiety is eating me alive might think what i say is weird but good luck i can do stuff but everything i do my body responds with anxiety i feel confident then my body stop me from being happy it like i need to be stressed all the time especially when im not alone anxiety make me tense up sweat panic oily face i feel dirty even thought i keep a real good hygiene just like that from just simply waiting in line at the store or just waiting in front of someone doing something during car ride i just instantly become awkward a duck i talk and everything cool but my body just feel tense a duck and it drain all my energy my face becomes oily because im stressing about my face becoming oily and im gon na panic and look sweaty i look and feel really uncomfortable just from being in front of someone for a minute on the sidewalk i feel like everyone looking at me how annoying i am and disgusting and i think i stand out from a normal person it just horrible people said im overthinking it and others dont really notice anything but i think they do idk im so lost,1 today years since mom died month since dad died covid redflag ideation euphoriai feel alone know people love me friends family parents really hurts know wont act thoughts dog would really hurt family kill myself thought dying feels liberating euphoric dealt depression life learned tolerate sadness loneliness tiredness comes that right feel fucked emotionally fees like void endless pain loneliness sadness like end sight even ends awaits stay alive baseline depressed self feels like whats point living suffering numbness,1 emptinessevery day long drawn battle head everything place hang highest strongest almost fail proof exposed beams house turning back do damn want fuck up still strong fear something go wrong itll fail like previous attempts cant connect anybody around anymore even children cant focus million tasks day want take care anymoreor keep waking up im empty,1 lostmeself uh february something haha imy,0 i m having a severe anxiety episode right now i can t focus i feel like i m going crazy and like i m going to pas out please help,1 dont know doim pregnant severe antenatal depression single today formally abusive boyfriend started becoming increasingly aggressive leave wouldnt let flat bit minor violence realised let go stomach agony way hope collapsed incredibly sick pure stomach acid im petrified case baby hurt reason im alive somethings happened refuse continue baby okay im awful position live vulnerable womens hostel surviving month extra week part time fast food job cant dont family support me im getting back boyfriend cant risk hurting child,1 guys lets get downvoted post reddit believe power stupidity ampxb httpspreviewredditxgqhivppngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsafebdfafccaecdbe,0 bitch worked first full day mcdonalds alright busy slow training know clock out pretty easy day,0 @nov20ths depression: activated,1 @doucefeline @WhatASaviour7 @alisawoodard6 @SWantowski @AnitaLea1 @florsunny @redrobin741 @1bramant @LinsonVarughese @blupony3 @bishopdawkins @middlebrookdepe @Ccangelsing @sheila_freda @Blessttt @JackCouch11 @LisaHarlow10 @Jesus_YaHWeH_ @ahmedaniyal @ToddTrotter3 @BelieveAllCom @One_Of_His @endtimeslife @reeves5150 @Sharonrenee15 @JoAnnEileen @Cherami1Sherrie @GregPettys @trinitysfaith @L_Bramant @bailog_cherisse @FlashG_86 @smrutimishra7 @vinodgnair73 @ReginahHope @Twisty58 @doswell_vee @radioshowccc @notjudgin @nhiscare57 @nadiaforjesus @WheatSuzanne @FREEBetsyB @elliesangelwing @mcinnes003 Lord Jesus in Your Powerful Name please remove this mountain of depression off Kieth now and forever that this captive may be set free from this stronghold by the mighty tools of God (2Cor. 10:4-6) THANKYOU Jesus 4 Ur tenderloving care and mercy that endures forever! Amen!,1 know handle thiswrote hurry bad spellings n shit so start off ill mention cripling anxiety minute help situation all back guy used close liked metold me know it guess kinda jolly went told friends baring mind pretty confident back then lot awful things happened next months thatnot himand anxiety unspeakably bad grown apartprobably due awkward distantbut hate eachother today school friends randomly came started shouting is true told everyone __ fancied you taken aback like no baring mind telling people happened year im year now know said anything like meant hurt him anyway saying things like ew would like her make rumour tragic bitch know desperate pretty anxious morning everyone shouting brought huge panic attack get them get bad barely function cant even string sentence together trying deny really wanted call bullshitting it said made even worse brain flipped made think things shouldnt say make situation worse ended saying them started taking mick hair looked like front whole class make worse squad joined started laughing even one friends kinda thing with fucking hurt friend laughing too basically made desperate him thanks tomy fucking anxiety froze say anything defend myself people think that anxiety probably made much fucking worse sucks im friends everyone squad think im fucking desperate sounds fucking childish awful fucking time im already facing huge issues need more people already think im weird fake slutty help know face tomorrow theyre lessons sit next guy lessons them feel embarrassed really like him feel like thinks im fucking loser help please,1 i choosed depression out of my own choice i wonder if others are like this or most are just victim of life please answer your response,1 know crush typed months months thinking or overthinking thats accurate first heres things me im single extrovert enfp particular one people wonder those whos never relationship anyone yet know way around comes dealing people sorts habit keep analysing every single detail gestures made people way talk etc used like traumatizing experience multiple melancholic ordeals ive life came certain agreement something change became better version despite never going therapy sessions or least thats id like believeyoull find brackets bit used sensitive fuck but like said something change stopped crying every little thing used cry like baby mastered point people known never seen cryingangrynervous face nowadays person fucks me really get affect lifeday way id like dudes got problem whatever basically became familiar horrendous shit people put sometimes or time take hat still reading point probably wondering anything title post patience homie were almost there say im type person deep deep analysis thingswhat expect anyways back point talked crap get people sometimes affect me right well last year got know terrible person irresponsible entitled rude senseless impatient annoying etc really mind becausewho gives fuck him hes worth attention so never gave him actually really need person get needed managed own worked alone made top without him left place see never heard again end story think so flashforward year met person job mean one left difference much patient sincerely passionate duties highkey charismatic sweeter honey even devil would proudly become angel see much hard worker is him turned lazy cow workaholic say im workaholic mean negative definition leads thinking life got ruined it no didnt know why i somehow managed turn willingly person real life magician everyone loves much hes celebrity im saying lots lots people keep surrounding him talking him taking pics even hanging him since ive got know person recently actually saw others faces real life since along online zoom celebrity vibes behaviors met him nowwe get important part post feelings definitely guessing ill asking whether crush love him right man go ahead say wrong remember part said used sensitive said stopped crybaby surprise went back that suddenly became extremely sensitive person was get enough attention person tears would always find way eyes never came rude person moment realized therapy bit problem least thought first since never really got offended anyone else give attention needed made cry hes nothing wonderful person question asking got angry every time talked laughed girl standing there looking them hate anyone id hate girl moment know im stating obvious thought something wrong became sensitive persons presence life cry every day feel like exist world forgets see messages zoom whatsapp broke rules social media accounts installed instagram especially knew replied dms faster there tapped follow button profile took back next thing knew feeling empowered followed follow back seriously absurd still acting weird mean actual fuck exactly met today ended crying moms car again ready cry but mom asked whats wrong seemed upset tears rolled cheeks again get it understand crying get walk building like girl kept walking talking casually knew before know like becauseusually like stated earlier id think silly little shitty thing carry life this nothing shitty begin acting like understand reasons behind actions thats got astonished moms straightforwardness said dear know get crush person time time thats okay butyou cant fall person know love back hurt you yes cliche conversation mom soap operas denying nothing like that saying delusional girls crush me saying saw signs crush theres also am rethinking everything typing since pm falling asleep red puffy eyes it started acting weird ever since knew person behaving way never thought would ive never crush person fall anyone before im still single experience relationships even feelings like ones im moment doubting depression something even lost weight days insomniac knew start people always notice existence okay actually adapted things way ruined knowing person so im asking again know crush thought problem first mom said today hit hard thinking throughout day looked back acted since day knew and magically everything revolving around one way another im eating noodles id like does person x like noodles im working out id think how person x work get muscles go cafe usually goes to id imagine meeting coincidentally which amazingly happened two days ago took advantage extroverted side actually go talk aboutanything really somehow managed improvise something spot talked hilariously made laughwhich kinda felt proud reason heres another thing realized person one trembled talking to hardest make eye contact with im saying this anxious person struggles people one knows nothing deal people forced deal daily basis understand id tremble get tickling feeling stomachthe one get come stage perform something front many people weird problem stage talking public capable that capable of however acting normally around person id feel stupid stand front suddenly run things say stairs me eyes full questions id say done wanted tell him know might laughing screen phone reading this listen here laughing probably before more here me no no no no never this never was im sorting everything see people know things would say now crush long take feelings fade away crush supposed it thank actually reading line say somewhere figured sub would best,0 need help getting though todayi severe physical pain ongoing chronic illness doctors cant fix horrible depression want alive anymore im struggling find housing stay abusive spouse anymore told would months year get housing assistance im unable work physical disabilities income amp k debt,1 know happenedi know say right now life changed completely cant handle it ive receiving treatment depression since teenager im ive accomplished nothing started working quit mental health started college quit halfway degree approved social security disability shortly that leave house unless see doctor friends acquaintances none three years ago realized much loneliness affecting life posted reddit ended meeting guy life changed meeting him wanted things future got along really well ended meeting person months talking fell love broke week ago were still contact daily still love other still wants work improving life see well said needs time important things needs buy car wants look buying home recently nightmare situation landlord really things doubt thats real reason ending dated teenager early s different anyone ive before made feel loved improving life without even realizing made feel great met showering month good place light brought life just indescribable taking care myself showering daily chores around places going shopping going eat running errands everything normal people do made want better person life improving much doctor noticed mom noticed knew mental health problems support gave always perfect cant handle emotions right im scared thoughts heading ive miserable half life three years pure happiness suddenly taken away without warning warning coming person life whole support system want die broke me much that many things cant put words like im heading need help feel losing live every day everything taken away me least met him idea real happiness was idea missing gone energy try again feel like im capable handling this feel stupid thoughts feel like able handle mutual breakup im adult much breakup gave much strength fight depression work myself im left dealing depression heartbreak know fault putting much trust another person need help im close giving,1 Post europe depression has never been worse. I am fucking shaking in sadness and a depressed mind,1 @MissCocoBelle friday night we can go out to eat and saturday afternoon go to the spa but it's up to you,0 dont know control element element surprise boo,0 i am 2 for 2 at scrabble. adam cannot compete... ,0 specific strange question uber need specific data unable get due braindead stupid need pointless throw away joke friend someone help me need know much uber ride would florida illinois someone could figure would nice,0 @aussieboby ohhh! thanks for the tip! i've got a kilo so will try this method with the next batch ,0 @monicafrancesca sending you rainy day love! heres to hoping you dont get too lonely in the booth ,0 man feel lonely quality friends spend time with siblings kinda busy mother cant find girl whos smart enough understand me computer could play favorite titles forget sadness forever got hurt yesterday asshole dog broke new fucking expensive phone process bought money earned working fathers office mamoni gotten frustrated something rash behavior driving crazy talk much or uh feel like exploding someday damn lack opened mind broadened knowledge urge learning skills good fitness caring mind importantly polite yet fail acquire anything want,0 @106andpark 10 million dollars for sure cuz everyone will love you then ... u can pick n choose who u wanna love ,0 ik everyone else tired life perspectivewith school back session computer screen fear look like act every little fucking thing bubbles inside me im afraid people especially ones age ive always complimented strive well school reason dont fail every class thing left control life besides barcode marks wrists thighs never skinny even moderate average weight heavy baby birth nothing changed lost lbs stopped eating bit lead pain surprise im pussy comes pain even lbs gone im still overweight im basically weight middle school concentrate hard look like faces make people around hopes dont comment body behind back hear want fall asleep never wake up feeling ease sleep brings every night blissful know next morning ill wake headache matter much medicine take much water drink always there fogs sense right wrong think little trickle blood thigh scrape it want get away mother whenever see break crying reminds shit shes said me youre going hell sin unless pray stop boy girl shes referring gender identity nonsense many times sobbed front begging stop saying things ignored me youd really easy let guy you time told older man staring across restaurant licking lips smiling simply said its part life ill deal now never mentioned times grown men locked eyes far long ive caught staring body dont wanna feel like object display mother perfect daughter always tells her men stare make never want go outside again classmates whisper behind back fucking big ass big tits are stupid game called life know im going win try anyone,1 hoes okay and you hoe really like want actually me boom gone till then hmm unless ur garrett taddy moon literally drop rn,0 tempo di uccidere time kill guiliano montaldo bit strange film good waybr br i bother summary plot ive read gives wrong impression makes believe people wrote really understand film need understand level even cannot describe actually about film strange once upon time america way shorterbr br many hollywood stars whatever may mean played lesser known italian productions known many actors past prime slowly rising this cage yet real star made im fan him hes good roles raising arizona bringing dead weak plays hero really know think one sure portray typical hero main character film could done without him fact starred may reason one ever made dvdbr br the supporting cast good one looks fake act really there solid supportbr br i seen films montaldo marco polo saccovanzetti one think one greater directors time unfortunately nobody knows him movie last long time a break years think movie might failed office way done think montaldo personal project really likedbr br the production great always enough dusty army camps claustophobic cities magnificent landscape play great part feels real scenes almost feel heat sound nothing special music ennio morricone good piece whistle shower sure works greatbr br so movie looks feels sounds right serve lessons learned golden platter may biggest difference hollywood eurocinema around might sound strange give recommend people do looking action avoid one looking well made apocalypse different time setting bit similar journey state mindsorry sound corny know else call it might enjoy one lot,0 ok enough ok enough talking womens rights lets talk womens wrongs,0 tiredthere hope life meaningless me feel like everyone dies end amp everything goes black amp also god made money,1 poll buy replacement waterbed heater buy foam bed title suggests heater waterbed broke im laying top covers last nights need communities opinion ive waterbed years either replace heater get twin size mattress future foam fill space bag used go so think,0 femalelife sucks u put time female n basicly give ability destroy life internally even damage cause n yrs since still problems letting run behavior ruminating could would did life ran old emotions makes moving hard af,1 @kiunedd: You're my lewis and clark of orbit flavor! let me know how it goes ,0 antidepressantsto people taken taking them help,1 somewhat better still fighting suicidal ideationso years medicated stopped taking meds years ago episode got worse worsebringing us year felt like shit me january semiok fight friend and housemate led telling get fuck apartment feeing guilty considering walking traffic get rid problem id reactions small things years realize problem talking therapist year february hit like bricki got sick fast panic attacks almost every day started struggle leave apartment suicidal bent selfharm too purged first time years tried hang aprili started therapy march much afraid tell therapist started medication later april got current dose combination late may lot ways feel better energy back im sleeping eating ok days ive gotten errands id put six months feel like im losing time way was days im ok days im still contemplating redflag whim looked lethal dose one meds considered saving antiemetic medication alcohol trying get kind rest way ive feeling long sometimes going good sleep im alone hours ive odd before ending er and icu days waking vomit still feels tempting know tell psychiatrist this im horrified though possible hospital bills disappointed husband would take week work stabilize point happening know do im afraid actually going telling people whats going on,1 struggling depression questioning person last couple years recently getting way worse wrote song express anyone wanted hear it know supposed,1 damnit i wa really digging this season of reaper http www tv com story 0 html ref story id 0 amp ref type 0 amp ref name story,0 misscassandra still on my quot lion amp tiger amp bear quot shyt but god is good consequently i will be too,0 anxiety preventing living life want live know speak get help want see way out cant bare continue life like thisive lived severe anxiety whole life im mids feels worse ever been recently even able anything it managed stump courage talk gp promptly referred cbt useless believe worsened problems constantly unable things want do working dreams aspire to going shop buy something want talking im feeling trying meet people opposite sex im attracted to struggle things immensely idea someone thinking good bad light makes feel extremely nervous sometimes point tears anything know going bring becomes extremely difficult could live life without degree anxiety im convinced vast majority problems would disappear instant keep hearing theres help think anxiety help services ive tried use outreaching something anxiety sufferers desperately need managed get voice seems im either asking wrong places nobody listening clue get help need feel like several years things get better nothing ever changing enough recently resolved end life unsurprisingly anxietyfuelled procrastination held back regard able get together actually deed much want to think im clinically depressed im sick see point living life hamstrung irrational beliefs cant control watch potential live good life wither away bother living years mundanity end now,1 xbox live yearwhat apart ps past ive pretty much always played xbox ive always supported microsoft value series which have game pass actually outdid ps well thats made big fucking uturn xbox live double price pay double price service free remove free games per month cares theyve piss poor past years nobody miss fucking awful decision microsoft hope hugely backfires,0 want someone talk tolong story short mcanada depressed suicidal since getting worse worse past couple days ever since last exam spent better part tuesday debating whether myself ended fetal position bed afternoon trying sleep hoping wake hate fucking much incredible killed already im lonely unattractive personality fucking shit goddamn fucking want someone talk to could anything fuck even play fucking steam game something fucking anything pick dad airport hours please edit im going bed try get sleep many thanks took time day talk,1 movie made rugby coach larry gelwix fan storys characters slipped fell begin grow struggled incredibly strong conflicts understandable completely believable like life easy answers problems facing all superb actors excellent script brought true story life wish movies like one days watch almost exclusively worthwhile true stories typically far interesting fiction additionally one inspirational teaches us give anyone quickly,0 girl rejected got mad said wasnt hitting also said could never friends like used to girl got mad said title things happened led thinking hitting her invited go eat like past meant group didnt think mention last part made clear hitting her said exactly i still like you im hitting you understand me also said wanted friends like used obvious reasons would never able friends like before rejection back then talked way everyday frequently am everything natural always knew liked never rejected me used always go eat group planned go us two covid canceled date ever since rejection things like that gut tells used like back something happened led rejecting me she meet another guy think got scared commitment playing feelings now truly sees friend told even back friend attituded towards says complete opposite tho anyway got mad never apologized still plan to tried talking beginning ignored me weeks far talked all see tuesday know do follow lead mirror way acts me ignored me ignore her etc try talk act getting mad never happened see reacts ps weeks since got mad said months since rejection got close months rejection,0 im bathtub knife hands listening musicthats it im sorry im horrible cant anymore time go,1 question online students option school learning seem like school trying make become person learner school seems like trying that classes giving harder work give school smaller due date even fail one class make come school learn wanted see happening ,0 @KhloeKardashian hope i can run with u enjoy!,0 fuck im getting nic cravings weeks since last vape hit really wanna quit nicotine cravings really hard get through give motivation plz,0 im going hurt someone way making sure dontim thief gambler im drunk druggie im murderer rapist im anything bad weak know almost without question one day ill become things care recovery rehab therapy whatever ill content vice ill horrible person hurt people everyone disgusted hate want around theyll right redflag becoming way partially makes sure ill never go far,1 "Ok guys - we've officially launched new languages #Swedish and #Russian - really fun, if you ask me! www.surveypirate.com",0 goodbye soon ocd outta control seems even single touch tap contaminate everything words head hey wanna enjoy cereal blam infected words repetitive hah im tired king midas worldits like golden touch horrible recently lost friend fight im really lonely so sit alone lunch sometimes sometimes another friend sick missing school playin fortnight overwatch overwatch rules but got yelled discord server never relax mi home one safest place im constantly made fun pushed around dad sometimes mum aid hard mii makes life really hard feel like life wouldnt pain others help this went away pain brother remember mii sufferingim lonely need someone wanna go away thats might tonight,1 @COLORADOORGANIC #soapguild09 Fantastic! We will be thrilled to have you. ,0 understand polish sentences yet dont know polish post made czech gang,0 cohortbased course however listicle free online certifications courses wants part creators economy httpsblogcoursesitycomfreecertificationcoursesonlineutm_sourceredditamputm_mediumsocialamputm_campaignredditpostamputm_termfreecertificationhttpsblogcoursesitycomfreecertificationcoursesonlineutm_sourceredditamputm_mediumsocialamputm_campaignredditpostamputm_termfreecertification,0 redflag ideasi used think impossible pull successfully wanted stop existing didnt know commit redflag nowhere realized possible try could stab longer longer day estimate close death even though dont know exactly carry out scares one day could figure carry plan across several days im gonna kill however course promise guarantee cant know future self think feel please dont kill yourself,1 it endi know everybody going say gets easier im alone pain really am ive living shitty life years accomplished apart surprisingly graduating highschool really point grades bad chance get university ive worked shitty jobs year hated it last job im could almost see future waiting it ive apparently done something wrong likely lose job tomorrow though universe torturing me giving glimpses hope shoving face laughing me thats people though im laughing stock wherever go im fat ugly completely useless gullible believe pretty much whatever anybody tells im idiot mention shit put people always bringing bullying me first day school now years ive bullied stepped on reason let people it im nice thats hear people im nice generous people take granted ive contemplated redflag since last years ive always thought might better next year deep knew be know keep trying really dont probably going last thing ever write say anyone today day im going end all thing need decide how lot meds cabinet probably sounds like best way it,1 i also want easter break p sklov,0 waiting for my cisco ip phone to load,0 i am bored nothing to do,0 dealt depression redflag quite bad past years i f result feel like quite behind life guess left school early beauty course enjoyed thought would like go industry towards end completely lost interest negatively impacted mental health worked hair salon assistant months finished year half ago worked since since finished course did able find sort career interests longer months really puts rut able decide something formulate plan work toward also feels like let down pretty much living life since finished school really many hobbies friends really talk hang with result never leave comfort room really hard go anywhere public one thing think would benefit greatly would getting job never seem keep positive thoughts towards finding one last two months applied which takes lot effort do heard back day apply end major panic attack hoping get call back thought going interview terrifying and sure lot others spoken mum worries supportive grateful helped work resume explained skills things even support still hard find something found reception job seems like alright thing written cover letter talked applying start feel negative thoughts tumbling around already hard find something minimal experience want work hours week i know picky might seem like silly thing diredflaged topic biggest worry would like making money help bills able money spend myself things motivate want job feel stuck like cannot make take steps actually move forward something keeping top supporting myself end spiralling breakdown getting worked about sure really makes sense trying say feeling way afraid something simple applying job think comes applied like getting phone call interview questions ill asked interview meeting new people get job mess like it think part holds back scared normal life things stay home pretty much everyday really much bed read watch tv scary think going something even days week apologies long post id really appreciate advice something even anyone feltfeels anything similar kind rant feel stuck know move forward,1 literally needy ass me hey minutes later wyd minutes later hi seconds later heeeeey,0 s favourite youtube clip lightning mcqueen singing quot barbie girl quot ha been taken down,0 i wish i wa just normal everything is so hard for me i used to wish the world wa a better place but ive given up hope the world will never get any better and even if it did my mind is too fucked to be apart of it,1 really wish atheistthis whole week self pity party ive undiagnosed random illness everyone thought celiac except problems coming reason all new lovely symptom hands feet sweat nonstop disgusting this top tied toilet day really killing self confidence help girlfriend broke week ago someone new every night know were broken up cheating me god hurts think about much even tried make one best friends apparently ok theyre girls im starting college wednesday days now im really finding motivation health issues might cause drop out yes im seeing doctor test find anything yet wish suffering purpose want suffer die it want know theres meaning everything thats happening built karmic exchange soon ill good day matter much people shit me never seem get fucking break problems get worse regardless day spend bed misery keep looking redflag bags people shitty lives die think im probably going group,1 almosti put dads gun head pulled trigger first time im disappointed gun empty,1 Can't wait to get Sims 3! Kenny is buying it for my birthday! 4 days!!!!! ,0 so happy - today is shopping-day ,0 It's my birthday the 19th birthday !!,0 anyone experience overdosingif so would say effective pills overdose with pills easily obtained counter painful it long take lose consciousness,1 join discord server got discord server couple people teens pm want invite link,0 fuck want die christmas eve good life apparently friends girlfriend however family hates wants die leave cant stop remembering past idea kill months worth wellbutrin months worth seroquel want take end all past fucking haunting cant get it know anymore,1 question would work saved enough money hire aftermath redflag forensic clean crew redflag scheduled come day redflagi literally clue works parents already tens thousands dollars debt even though dad really high paying job dont want burden actual redflag does,1 didnt announce reading lineup,0 weird lately acting really weird social situations especially schools every time talk someone comfortable talking fumble get breath easly talking happens talking teacher someone talk much simular thing happens stuff front people get called read something get breath easly reading that get called mathphysics problem board completely forget everything everything subject biggest problem know noticable people really obvious could be kind problem me,0 woke up and wa having an accident quot it s pushing it s pushing quot he wa cry because he couldn t stop from wetting his pant,0 @VampireKitten LOL- you sounds like every model I ever worked with- you must be getting the hang of it. ,0 cannot quit coke booze weed going od tonight hopefully addiction sucks unfair say like get straight edge people depressed addicted feel like would hate life alas halfway done mickey finished line probably die goddamn maybe tonight lucky night fuck literally getting high till die,1 hi so can anxiety stress make a person physically ill like shivering dizzy throwing up nauseous no appetite drastic weight loss i need serious help i ve always had alittle anxiety who doesnt i have been biting my nail my whole life but recently i ve been having health issue going to the hospital and doctor constantly and they find nothing wrong i eventually got diagnosed with ibs but isn t ibs linked to stress my symptom have been getting worse i lost both my grandpa in 0 i got accepted into school which is exciting but maybe stressful i constantly feel like i need to puke i m not really eating i m losing weight when im on a date with my boyfriend i ruin the whole thing cuz i just need to go home and lay down someone please help me i have a doctor appointment to discus this but i just want outsider opinion i feel lost confused and scared,1 gracedent it s her quot hair quot i can t deal with,0 ravivisvesvarayasharadaprasad http t co tivxonhqh mental health using social anxiety and depression a tool of productivity,1 reddit makes want kill myselftroll postscomments joke made great joke joke got told grow stop depressed called hostile piece shit want die now got knife ready think im gonna shower sitting down forearm vertically might try eye well goodbye im glad ending,1 lmao i literally forgot a whole as book venom but make it trans and about trauma and depression and even more explicitly gay than whatever wa going on in let there be carnage http t co ownsd u rf,1 jonathanchong i could do with a long week,0 ruined lifeim already feel dead im pronounced yet first memory dad telling hes moving house although still contact him im forced mother father pick sides one sisters sided dad mom im stuck middle police calls fights lasted years hated every minute life friends could take problems young even think redflag met love life young age life purpose again told whole life story loved actually cared year year still felt like reason love good memories life along side her years later broke lied her really died one talk get used it someone talk gone forever fault well get used that im alone life plan ending,1 normal think killing every single day rightread bottom bold quick dirty year old senior since first got idea redflag was ever since then thoughts become frequent concentrated literally think redflag every single night heres catch there literally plausible reason want kill myself love life love parents good home were rich best give want which much never abused hurt raped immense emotional trauma stemming death family anything else running well music passion love death really since april year many friends moment good friends stay contact with others know well drifted away whatever reason go online school hard concentrate class still hard work home least spend afternoon one subject ive done lot openminded unbiased research found adhd im th grade even understand algebra like trying httpwwwkhanacademyorgalgebra learned some know im plain stupid i actually think intelligent thats pretty petty shallow say yourself hate constant self awareness judgement awareness actions world buddhists see enlightening see curse see post im bad english either frustrating difficult though sitting mind race billion miles per hour im trying better myself actually like math too online school main reason many friends love talking people friends them antisocial disorder know majority people feel way do constant lingering feeling themselves worst night online school theres really set time work led many many nights thinking redflag hours hours know sleep look clock see am whatever night know normal go sleep am wake pm cant stop thinking it httpwwwyoutubecomwatchvwliumkgcoc the time day reference or am would or minutes am song speaks quite lot gosh think ive ever cried much first time ive ever wrote out know whole but kill everyone love sad try telling head months aint listening want fucking die hate feeling want win might one day though so reasons left feeling perpetual looming feeling desperation only one brainmind broken im right something working head cant stand it,1 @RobPattinson444 Hope you called your Mom. ,0 think much action end think too romance adventure like told put movie action place long liked reeve bit understand die thought one girls gonna die lucky one else liked die you liked saw movie twice actually bought too worth it liked best person book really really really cool actresses actors too everything perfect song name end someone answer questions too please please please,0 appreciation post uhonkymommymilkers thanks bro,0 want kill myselfwhats quickest way kill yourself,1 counts diagnosed depressed clinically depressed get regular treatments therapist depressive suicidal thoughts something doctor fills out sort process go through,0 mind me lashout obvious cry helptldr im suicidal good reason try casually funny it im tired laughing misery cant take serious either real emergency thought might reach anyone whos encourage hey hello everyone sake simplicity yall call immature rome works too ive lurking subreddit now without even reddit account result first ever reddit post wonderful place start much support hope amp acceptance community fucking kidding go suicidal fantasies confirmed rredflagmeme anymore am next level stopping pretend like im thinking ironically admitting might actually want clock early real good stuff now may able tell fact manage talk lot yet convey pretty much nothing all way get covered multiple layers comedic exploitation crippling insecurity soul sapping references puns father forgive sinned dare say memes seeing though im yo sort blackhumoring accumulating within psyche amp selfimage approximately years like plaque clogging chainsmoking diabetics arteries layer thick earths crust know though since im one go once fray are quoting shakespeare again see exactly im talking about funny fun forced cringy edgy insert negative adjective here etc worst all know bad makes look ive known since beginning somewhere line probably realized deep im sad strange little man someone told laugh off did never stopped damn good it good fact built whole personality around it personality started attracting kinds people suddenly cynical disrespectful persona friends sad strange little man irl yo males gaining status questionable means do try get laid turns need somewhat attractive casual hookups turns need somewhat likeable non casual hookups eventually pry open pandoras box see strange sad little man ladies gosh nice guy is kind forthcoming understanding sooo respectful importantly empathetic naturally becomes designated shoulder cry on funny casual gt attentive deep open gt establish trust gt develop feelings gt get friendzoned gt change target gt repeat goes years andyada yada yada couple halfassed redflag attempts years professional deadend therapy metric fuckton mj later are reading ive written point you reader pretty good idea kind pathetic bitter betamale virgin shoutout lads rvirgin yall saddest bunch selfloathing crybabies ive ever seen thanks making feel right home am like humor days thats have thats am one big overused joke heard million times before going far long time deliver punchline keep going farce would keep going me really think tried change yet ever stop wasting everyones precious time effort finally grow balls take worthless life find next time rredflagwatch selfpity party continues ,1 ive grown tired repeated failures want kill though thought corrupting mindi goals compass leads failures setbacks taking two college courses tutoring third feel like freetime creates anxiety felt long time feel aimless lost one thing done regards goals losing three pounds january trying lose total forty want reading ignorance complex learning something new get anxious much reveals ignorance ultimately know get depressive mode frustrated going circles want daily pain end,1 "#LatestNews from http://MobileWebCity.com  : Negative thoughts and destructive emotions can bring pain, unhappiness, depression and misery into our lives. https://ift.tt/2nb1WKm  addresses the pendemic 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Sometimes it just takes time. ,0 horny crime id average person cuz im horny sometimes sometimes not alright trynna make joke since somebody already said law abiding citizen part cant steal part,0 put key back onto keyboard so got play doh tuck keyboard got taking key keys like half way half way like snap loose wont come like shake keyboard idk retainer clip what please help me,0 back againhi again im graduating th grade tomorrow im really feeling it feels like sad monday night died tonight honestly mind like accidentally naturally idk ive purposely avoiding family im trying distract thoughts go away idk anymore quite surprised im still alive,1 i gonna cook some cookies ,0 y isnt it a sunny a yesterday,0 ever going light end tunnelusually things life arent great recently though feel like arent even parts days bearable dont know feel like this hear many things like dont give better days come theres always light end tunnel bullshit see light long remember ive unhappy want feel happy want end really im scared one thing holds back entirely dont want discuss that please someone tell life even worth living really gonna never ending tunnel light end,1 feeling suicidal what feel little silly posting since whole lot reason behind im feeling suicidal every get terribly depressed feeling hits nowhere seems like happening often know why first time feel strong desire end life know shouldnt ive never one consider redflag redflag appears logical solution way im feeling know im feeling suicidal need deal know how,1 feel like lost causetitle says all ive felt like lost cause lately cant get ex head heart care lot miss like fucking crazy havent heard since last wednesday didnt end bad terms even though cheated hospitalized suicidal thoughts feel hopeless like complete waste time anyone im never lived expectations feel like ive letting everyone down friends tell im strongest person know everything ive endured look back felt think dramatic childish career shit im dead end job live parents feel like im pathetic loser nothing show life ive going therapy even though cant afford days like today know shes working weekend want least talk her edit tldr one seems give shit ghost,1 redflag hotline website easily find someone talk toif feel alone suicidal need someone talk understand situation please hesitate use link find real support httpsredflaghotlineorghttpsredflaghotlineorg website detect general ip location point local support line care,1 whoever beautiful day happy birthday everyone birthday today stay hydrated hope everyone fine got,0 aftermath watergate number conspiracy movies appeared one written late adam kennedy based novel br br gene hackman plays exvietnam veteran roy tucker loser wound prison receives visits marvin tagge richard widmark claims represent organisation designed assist wrongly convicted offer freedom despite distrusting tagge accepts brings along fellow cell mate name spiventa mickey rooney exactly hard see spiventa irritating little man drives tucker mad persistent talk sex want hear behind barsbr br tagges benefactors kill spiventa tuckers astonished eyes reunited wife ellie candice bergen given new identity strangely attempt change appearance shaving cheesy moustache would start settles down finds catch tagge wants tucker less assassinate president united states refuses tagge ellie abductedbr br i leave synopsis here sure guess rest yourself script enough plot holes make want read book neat trick that people tagge represents never revealed allusions jfks killing unmistakable despite findings warren commission doubt whether lee harvey oswald acted alone persists daybr br this stanley kramers first movie years turkey lacks grip say john frankenheimers the manchurian candidate alan jpakulas the parallax view leftwing conspiracy movie tends skirt around subject matter instead getting grips it prefer rightwing ones funnier domino look feel madefortv movie boasts must easiest prison escape movie history mention ending copped michael caine classic get carterbr br what makes watchable gene hackman richard widmark latter sadly passed away earlier year superb mysterious tagge initially appears behind operation ruthlessly eliminated beginning chain deaths designed remove trace evidence one one perpetrators evil plot fall like dominoes tucker innocent pawn hackman marvellous wonder though chose hide obvious place shoes id fled side world anywhere get away fanatics hackmans love scenes bergen slow plot down almost relief gets snatched presumably producers thought too explains opens bizarre prologue setting films entire premise voiced british actor patrick allen warning audience they there they get us comedian les dawson later spoofed opening bbc show the dawson watchbr br mickey rooney earlier worked kramer its mad mad mad mad mad world death scene resembles like outtake picture actor looking though stung wasp rather shot deadbr br conspiracy movies used made left right getting act too last year taking liberties absurd concoction lies halftruths tony blairs government turned britains answer reefer madness least domino lovely candice bergen best chris atkins film could offer anne widdecombebr br surprisingly the domino principle made sir lew grade legendary british television mogul behind the saint jesus nazareth the muppet show worked adam kennedy raise titanic whose failure great sank grades ambitions new louis bmeyer somewhat openminded would rule possibility conspiracy,0 imperiusrex brahbrah ugh bed in a hour,0 big fan tiny toon adventures loved movie funny really captured cartoons spent summers,0 guys last longim now decade feeling like this personal beliefs cant kms older folks last long ive read stories ppl wanting die entire lives dont know ill manage years im worst rn think getting worse morning took hours pick phone feet away me energy even move wtf this,1 "I am actually going to just delete wordpress in a minute! If ANYBODY uses wordpress, PLEASE TELL ME! ",0 greyim done man im cut it all glock hand im sorry needed tell someone random people ive never met feel family bye yall,1 need talk someone please feel life trainwreckim years old boy feel worthless time like body tried exercise eating healthy results friends talked almost three weeks go feel empty want go home sleep time even know im going face life adult need talk someone whos experience tell face problems please,1 elite ones get,0 need someone care,1 about to start the epic drive from glasgow to alton tower look like a rainy few day,0 there s nothing left for me in life and i ve kept this calm cool facade that i m fine for so long it s impressive i m failing school i have zero love life and i have no idea what to do for a living and i don t think there is anything i want to do i have no passion keeping me alive i ve literally just been having sex and dling drug literally anything to give me some small momentary bit of joy at this point it barely doe that i m a failure and god taken away every piece of happiness i could possibly have i ve disappointed the people who love me most and i can t keep being a drain on their life if i kill myself it ll hurt them but no one will truly miss me after a couple year it would be so much better for my parent if i died i m such a fucking failure it hurt i never wanted this life i had potential at one point but i never realized how quickly god can turn it all around,1 Neighbor in the bldg just brought chz cake bcuz we gave him 2 stamps and didn't ask 2 B paid! I love Boise ,0 guys post killing yet find excuses to genuinely ask ways kill someone provide fake theory hard yet group literally called suicide watch basically posts i kill unless someone comments gives solid reason to someone comments feel proud saving someone life personally get it exactly point group ,1 sure think relief relief demand world puts people relief expectations someone try best good person try best cope stress end cycle ill never able break cycle never fold differ torment every day becomes much one talk to mean one people ive invested everything become another problem cant get of im good want best situations crack pressure cant take anymore want normal wish wasnt right wish negligent world around didnt see big pictures wish didnt understand much understanding torture never avoidable cant turn brain off cant fix world want wake tomorrow peace never happen one answer though world acts do depression much say ive done math ive seen variables set play get always be ill never understand got way why ill never understand point this point constant labor whats end goal someone wakes up works goes home purpose served whats actual purpose horrible existence means end threshold life holds back im smart mean smart yet am understanding chaos existence structured life part designing do say live like this cant force depression down tell everything okay im good start think look whats underneath all pain everyone hides games portray dont feel this dont hurt whose controller whose setting standard life peace always mind reality never let be,1 wish freak accident would get mei want anyone blame dying want get hit bus idk fall rollercoaster cant die feeling guilty commuting redflag,1 quick question delete minutes summarize dip dance move im writing story main character partners dip dance move idk write nicole turned torso towards ground nicole bent waist towards ground idk idea pls help,0 my parent split when i wa i lived with my dad and my sister moved with my mom my father wa a super alcoholic and abusive he used to whip me with cordage punch me while i wa naked because i wa taking a shower to long and basically hit me when ever he wa in the mood when i wa the neighbor kid who wa older than me molested me and i told my dad about it he asked me if i wa some kind of homosexual slang word and did nothing about it he used to wash my clothes and hang dry them above trash and i wa very limited on the amount of time i wa allowed to bathe because of this i got picked on for being the dirty kid fast forward a few year i became the bully a i wa psychically stronger than kid my age i also started stealing food and laundry detergent from the gas station i would put my clothes in trash bag and bike them to the laundry mat when i wa i got a girl pregnant i also started hanging out with people older than me i got into fight alot and started robbing place to eat i got caught and did time in juvenile hall afterwards i wa court ordered to move in with my mom she knew nothing about what wa going on at my dad s house the whole time i felt like if i said anything i would be forced to move and that made me feel guilty because i wa all my dad had left at i wa diagnosed with a nasty skin disorder called hidradenitis suppurativa basically i get boil in my armpit and on my butt there is no cure and surgery usually doesn t work it just come right back this made me skidish when it came to dating and i wa also dealing with my molestation the whole time throughout my whole teenage year i thought i wa gay because of what happened a a child when i wa i met a i fell head over heel for her and vice versa about year in i became extremely possessive gave her zero space and never did anything fun with her we broke up i could see she wasn t happy and asked her one day if she needed to leave and she said yes it wa over throught my late 0 i would check in on her to make sure she wa ok she would get in a relationship but then break up and we would start chatting again this happened time but i never fully pursued her i could tell we had unfinished business and that she had the same feeling for me a i did for her i knew she could get better so i let her go it ha now been year and i haven t dated serious since i have relived our break up 000s of time i will dream of her and wake up and it start all over again that mixed in with my past my skin disorder my job that i hate even though it s good money my addiction my dying mother ha me to the point where i don t want to live i ve also recently learned that my dad s house burnt down and he ha been homeless living out of his car for the past few year i don t know how to react to that for year now i have told myself that when my mother go i m going to kill myself i ve decided to wait until she go because she ha been through a lot a well and i want her to not be alone when she doe my dad wasn t good to her then wa abused by step father he died and all while dealing with severe kidney problem and vitamin deficiency i don t really have a relationship with my daughter i wa a bad father a a teenager i ve tried to do better but i don t think she would ever forgive me for not being there my mom s health is steadily declining so my time is approaching i ve recently bought a gun and now it s all up to my mom to those of you who made it this far i m sorry this post is so long i needed somewhere to vent because a lot of this stuff i have never told anyone thanks for reading,1 anyone find calling hotlinei think every day now mom found shed probably go crazy works place behavioral health tells almost every day shes glad im like kids saw self harm scars knew would likely kill me along im still school dont wish contact school either would able track would redflag hotline number go phone bill,1 going kill september th ended hospitalized weeks instead ive one week already want kill again new date october th long vent sensitivei setting date since failed last time making mistake telling therapist spent two weeks straight hospital got put meds increased weekly therapy eating sleeping week straight constant suicidal thoughts wanted stay inpatient stepdown program hospital family talked yelling telling stupid idea regret going least would let live away abusers cut live way world currently is currently unemployed therapist trying help get disability fit work due multiple mental illnesses taking forever run health insurance coverage unemployed quickly running money cant afford high cost takes insurance run insurance simply blow little savings pay bills without money debt hospital unable afford therapy meds options going try apply medicaid cant understand process keep messing application going lose school scholarship preform class drop courses likely owe large sum money school this tried getting touch student services brushed off going say goodbye therapist subtly can able see anymore run money thinking one support kept going enough give courage finally kill myself want cry thinking therapy anymore puts verge panic attack think much am october th date obsessed numbers end fail th try october th forth hope fail time going try hard accidentally tell someone again write notes paper keep car people find theyre ready overdose meds jump bridge found several good spots accomplish late night early morning prepare mentally next weeks cant live life full mental illness trauma ocd alone bad enough give strength complete redflag want thank tried reach last time messages kind fail end hospitalized likely let long time please pray me pray fail death quick painless possible praying take prayers end,1 the devil dark william shatners favorite episode also one favorite episodes program pure star trek deals one series main themes respect life forms think one could get clearer example one shows interesting ideas episode kirk crew confront monster killing miners distant planet story excuse explore right humans destroy creatures vital part environment todays concerns environmental causes make show relevant ever before extremely well written performed gusto beloved cast one memorable sequence involves spock joining mind monster plenty tension spock kirk they want solve problem using different methods adds fun shatner leonard nimoy best work here,0 isn t feeling well still don t get why people say they re pregnancy is the most beautifull time of they re life,0 everybody commented last post blocked pain goin comment section amp seein absolutely nothing kinda funny tho,0 would somebody like care mei mean im nice guy dont hurt anybody dont screw anybody over im nasty person life seems take me honestly want somebody care me im difficult person want live point really want end life,1 film captures true struggle identity ongoing teenage years really moving feels strangely like documentarynot contrived real interesting unsettling,0 apparently jesus racist dont believe says hes racist,0 youre cool funny imitate languages ok first all im super offended triggered try imitate mock indian people get it sounds funny accent silly whatever school last year goddamned annoying hear people say beta e pronounced like emma every fucking sentence indian accent popular kids thought funniest thing entire world dont hear indian people saying beta every sentence think part fact drip report released light sketchers song might heard about was hilarious watch people blasting mundian bach ke full volume hallways thinking coolest people entire world idk maybe problem school general youd think people wouldve matured enough th grade something else hell no anyways say somewhere cringe little internally hear someone bragging theyve memorized lyrics indian song theyre sputtering gibberish goodnight edit im indian born united states shouldve put start,0 promise rings supposed closer engagements heard somewhere promise rings supposed given girl sort preengagement ring dont know thats true got gf one one year anniversary didnt think like mini engagement still dont think mini engagement anything right thinking that think ring show committed real relationship im curious know people think promise rings are,0 say movie said hundreds times before american classic spawned dozens imitators none midnight madness one kind ridiculous opening montagemusic bonaventure hotel hooked leon made us feel young carefree one question though two hot hookers time timemoney arrange event cast top notch david naughton best here tight yellow sweatshirt disturbing little brother michael j foxin first starring role real brat also naughtons love interest dork obligatory black dude fishermans hat yellow team michael j fox bad things like try steal cups beer pabst blue ribbon brewery runs away flounders van flounders team gives us comedy exactly deal blond team dating flounder melio blade yes mexican gentlemans name blade guy flounder team best lines movie pomp here meat machine team bunch drunks personal favorite armpit silent black man great too two teams nerds lesbianstwo lb twinsbr br you know ending start matter s megenre finest rent one buy it buy now,0 need advice here im sure insecurities run wild im justified thinking boyfriend line met girl friends set first date went jogging weird know hobby wanted get it theyd never met this,0 slide dms chill talk whatever im hella bored also little im sorry,0 sometimes when i close my eye to try to sleep i get this crazy feeling that i can describe closest to be a zap it only last a second second and kind of feel like a sharp rush upwards and make me whole body tingle a little when it happens i thought it wa vertigo at first but since hearing about brain zap i think this might be closest i also described the feeling to my ent because i thought it wa vertigo and he looked confused taken aback but my description so i m guessing it really isn t vertigo it doesn t happen too often and only really happens at night when i close my eye to sleep i ve never been on any medication,1 wanna join cool discord server hey really nice teens discord server talk pretty much anything friends channels stories art music hobbies games pics selfies advice many stuff also custom made bots play games like mafia cards humanity ouija also private cross platform minecraft server super nice atmosphere always fun hang out dm want invite ,0 swear real lyric meme songs get memed english poetic song pompeii people suffering meme songs get memed spanish likes whats kinky nasty likes sex exesively,0 finallyim finally gonna meet dead parents wonder happen people around me last words haha laugh myself im loser,1 im hopeless redflag solution end sufferingive extremely suicidal pretty long time now ive depressed around years ive made failed attempts dont want live anymore fear knowing exactly happen finally end life something worry about wont hold back ive finally enough something im constantly thinking about death seems peaceful im constantly wondering would like finally end sadness end ability feel pain death seems desirable aspect worry family friends theyll feel hurting isnt enough stay alive theyd sad finally it time werent support knew bad struggling maybe theyll say selfish end life selfish supporting needed support love theyll okay life isnt worth living youre living yourself im living myself trust me didnt want go path tried getting help depression tried everything could many things helped temporarily end im still finding hole cant get of im still completely miserable friends family dont care enough me im hopeless going far long dont know much longer take go plan last night boyfriend got it spent night crying usual always cry night usually him made feel particularly unloved uncared last night knows depression hes around see dark sides feel hopeless suicidal sad doesnt really know support right way already wanted end life pain feel daily basis maybe last night pushed closer towards ready it entire mentality lately die end ive suffering long time nothing gotten better nothing worked dont understand point living feel pain suffer die end skip part die instead going life suffering im completely hopeless cant find one reason live says lot million reasons end life cant take anymore,1 i ve been just waiting for over a week and i can t do it i m making 0 progress on everything i m not even going outside anymore never happen before and it s not because of anxiety i just don t want to i don t care about the consequence i guess i just kind of gave up i keep waiting for something but it s not gon na happen i went from feeling like shit to being a completely unproductive piece of shit genuinely one of the worst decision i ve made in a long time but i m too far in to give up and getting off it is supposed to be even worse mirtazapine g then 0 last few day increased my appetite but i can t be bothered to eat helped with sleep but now i can t get up what am i supposed to do have to wait a few day for follow up with doctor,1 "@Monica2112 Oh don't worry, I don't mind if you are. I'm just happy u want to meet me!",0 i tried to change thing and live happier but nothing i do work so im just gon na give up bye,1 need help dealing stepmom anyone know tell parent fuck off literal sense course like going dads house stepbrothers parentbecause stepmom dad drunk useless parenting offering drinksim want go anymore get point post need tell stepmother come pick go house weekend know tell without saying im slavei everything fetching drinks watching brother advice reddit,0 black hair look good best thing everits enough make fall love someone,0 commentors redflagwatch carei speak anyone else myself care us hell honestly care makes want try help us im pathetic stranger internet like lives anyones matter affected buried bullet brain right now,1 feel like im starting get control back life slowly im resignating situation im ready make things better myself stable relationship supportive wife ambitions growing back slowly finnaly hope could hardly ask more asked doc lower effexor feel like sideeffects outweigh good does really help much redflag feel depersonalization ever since im medications finally gives uncontrollable cravings,1 Watching edward scissor hands ,0 calm downim considering redflag im high school getting bullied havent go school month nowi dont get well clasmate kept contact best friend since i troublesome child long time thing calm animemoviegame online friendi always express feeling online dont snap make dickmy online friend fed decide itll fun pick mei cut contact cross lineits like people group chat peopel actually support methe first one becoming busy collage rarely online help get bullied cuntim dick classmate something end blocking always end oki talk longer people talk without consequences irl daily lifeusually dick always dick use nice keep mind redflagbut since cut contact find hard find new people open fast gonna think im creppy ran awaylittle chat always keep mind redflag bc im loner someone talk fun want anything want little chat thats ask daily keep kind redflag go day,1 I´m finally blonde again! ,0 "Our team is proud to be involved in @tandemcopd, we are here today hearing recent updatesOptimising the benefits of #pulmonaryrehab by aiming to reduce anxiety & depression",1 strugglingso planned finally killing myself everything ready day placed planned made mistake talking good friend lived several states away made sure tell exactly was thought safe talk to want stop me help mei wanted say goodbye someone actually cared understood he going similar difficulties unfortunately could go plan able reach contact command ended spending days involuntarily admitted lockdown psych unit another weeks therapy complete step locked like animal know friend cared time wish interfered going hell last years exhausted fighting this feel like heart ripped out trying get help themes receiving either want medicate i different meds none really helped caused bad side effects pain misery fault miserable chose miserable currently process losing everything brings meaning life already hate myself could sure use sort encouragement reason keep fighting right want fight more,1 @YourStylist There is no difference lol Kabbalah is the mystical side of Judaism that's all ,0 @cowboymathu Here we go. A well experienced guy among us ,0 fun fast paced one falsehood leads another another toward inevitable surprising conclusion suspense separates holiday flick others one wonders pieces going fit movie futurebr br the character actors laid foundation entertained us process sinkewicz frank jenks shows us manipulation getand ultimately manipulation cost uncle felix sz sakall sizes person us trying protect lishka barbara stanwyck helps us decide going root endbr br if could ever achieve perfect world imperfect people would likely undergo series events thesebr br a glaring weakness fake baby cry allegedly swallowed uncle felixs watch ive heard authentic crying doll toy storebr br watch it really feel like somewhere,0 Gettin ready for work. Love working OT gonna love that paycheck even more ,0 "Ha ha 'Night at the roxxxberry' is on, I loves it ",0 @TroyParkerXVI haha. LOL. Alright then. Glad you're okay na. >_<,0 jess t haha i know eh but i m thinking about vet science at sydney uni cept that the guy wasn t there last night he wa in hostpital,0 im one girls need say something gamer means relate boys somewhat like things like cod among us like things boys like really wish could relate communities oh god guys mean body shamers misogynists homophobes transphobia dont understand guys mean reason,0 solarishilton this wa me in high school because i wa being abused physically and verbally at home and had severe depression but college is different since you don t have to go by law so idk,1 "@GentlemanRascal Sure, I mean, it worked so well in the 1930s. Cleared the depression right up.",1 need someone take mind stuffnot immediate danger actually noticed lately thinking lot redflag probably summer abundance sunshine anyway matter angle approach from facts life make sigh life unfair people poor miserable im privileged naive asshole whos envious others happiness world plain flawed sad thing doesnt be talk friends parents boils a lot people way worse thankful like okay would feel ant better knowing lot people living worse life mine something really something along lines god wise knows hes doing whats point creating whole universe going force people cant even comprehend whats outside immediate understanding know im getting really actually believe god hate even ponder questions never answer tried pray search faith point always bites ass end regretting cringing overburdened minds filled guilt nothing heads universe big incomprehensible yet stuck wealth inequality college debt uncertain futures broken hearts,1 it's such a chilly day! but i like it! i get to dress nice && toasty ,0 understand girls post made midnight cant go sleep cant stop thinking this yo guy likes age girl one day conversation text says i like relationship guy friend worry feelings shit know say respond cool month later sends pic i assume self looking like left shower think shirt see like slimmest line might bra text says my hair poofy lol read question is like level friendzoned changed mind completely overreacting hair sorry spelling grammar wrong im phone kinda panicking,0 anyone talk pleasei need distracted please sleep cant stop thinking anything help get mind,1 seanporter thank uuu i know i heard youre in dallas,0 feel like im drowningnot kind gasping air fighting hang kind moment finding bottom lake stuck mud giving up year absolutely awful ive lost friends work people grasp want everyone keeps asking im future plans even want alive nod say im fine keep putting people listen give advice rock want burden much effort wake productive want stop disappointment want stop being,1 and somehow i still end up in this place,0 anybody like archery like one hobbies id actually say im mildly good at im wondering many ppl like it,0 Got my rosary on call santa maria ehhh doing my hurr,0 Second to last Sunday in Minnesota!!! ,0 phenomena keep goingthis second time posting apologies advance grammar spelling off ill probably delete feel like it pressure peers superiors relatives build again im still struggling online classes know im person yesterday seem gotten worse days pass by clearly see myself would rather sit table study get take proper shower back for im still contemplations im gonna go exact plan mind like before know death last resort itll escape place live experiences experience aside bad experiences actuallu feel calm with hence title post freshman year highschool dark time me simply moved hometown place know little of friends back home childhood elementary years second family look simple mistakes people city studied high school spoke different dialect could communicate english time even alone aware people saw outsider small acts kept going acts lending eraser correction pen gave ray hope eventually get along well way similar friends back home even sinking deeper deeper state nothing mattered classmate greeted good morning would lighten bit nod greet back knew situation helping small way thats though rest day would spend time friend group would sitting chair reading book trying catch lessons know small acts make person like happy mean nothing person directed impact me heck even baby smiling enough make smile bit even upperclassman asking would like go ahead line made felt acknowledged even classmate asking simple favor made feek important someone acts like reason im still searching even answer emotions thank here,1 think im finally readynot really sure start with ive thinking years used make feel sad angry hurt scared thought it kinda wierd feel anymore empty see way things changing feel money relationship matter want anything anymore matter everytime smoke hope one give cancer closest thought could ever get it feel empty now scared sad angry feel like time ive started making plans sadly two weeks can fail,1 finally iti crossed point return come point life matter happens next never happy anyways could tell tomorrow lottery make difference would suicidal it become unsaveable unfixable doomed,1 grandma bitch actually nice time computer bf fallen asleep go stuff like get shower barges room yells dark wont buy light wants put clothes closet sees trash full knocks over says clean mess im slob piece shit,0 @DeLoresPressley We need to coordinate a massive TweetUp for all speakers on twitter (maybe motivation for more to get on board!) ,0 world systematically stripping things make happy coping mechanisms last yearsi used work made happy fencing team got sinus infection months shortly recovering herniated disk back got surgery almost year later still extremely limited without serious painful consequences back surgery like play guitar video games random onset numbness pain arms hands zero medical explanation doctor took seriously worst peaks head back life remind make life hell again used like drink one night ended hospital pancreatitis possibly drugged hostess cant drink anymore lest want reignite excruciating pain side like weed moved country isnt legal im trying antidepressants again ones took kid made even depressed brought back suicidal thoughts im sex addict put dick toosmall vibrator cup months ago ever since cant get full erection pain numbness still masturbate twice day even though makes worse positive chemicals get anything doctor hasnt done actual tests anything beyond looking giving fucking herbs ive lost fuckin ability sex s friends busy succeeding care graduated semester late time covid start friends jobs growing careers im useless piece shit ive seen friends twice past months partly im afterthought them even best friend says im best friend im different country family whole crisis vowed didnt get job id kill coming back us shithole id rather go back anyway figure easier family die overseas accept it rather finding body visa expires months dont see finding job then want easy way go nothing seems easy enough lazy ass checked tall building around none public access stairways apartment building stories want make sure get full meters needed die confidence hate bullshit read news theres zero hope humans generation even solve every one problems have whats point world sustainable capable burning exploding violence oppression theres nothing worth looking forward to thats assuming im going medical situational problems piled cruel fucking universe want talk someone friends either busy succeeding dont want pull down dont trust them dont want trigger them writing dumb post ill probably delete anyone knows good place jump tokyo hmu,1 im giving upthere nothing left me motivation energy hope im much disappointment waste time wish anything killed years ago spared everyone burden dealing me im stupid lazy hopefully tonight night finally put end pathetic life still here wish wasnt,1 asked crush like girl asked said yes great attention revert back monkey,0 years old seems like yesterday everything still possible young person whole life ahead me looking pictures holiday years ago feels recent another years cannot believe half way depressing time going fast,1 ppl really shit talking intelligence post comments im right here see u im still here lt,0 got followers idk yeah im happy filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 mizzzidc unfortunately this ha a ripple effect on the victim s mental complex and will no doubt change their relationship with their parent condoning such toxic pattern in black household ha left child with a lot of resentment and even worse depression,1 i can t decide i really want to but then again,1 should have stayed at home,0 new font yo fonts ,0 bye time said goodbye world rest peace letting spirit free again,1 i have been having really strong thought about killing myself the last month especially the last three day i don t think i want to die but i don t want to be here anymore i m really scared i have a little boy and i can t leave him alone but i feel like i can t go on like this i suck at everything my job my life being a mother i m in debt i feel like noone care i can t see a way out i m scared,1 im tired human ashamed family entire life really painful right nightmare really need help even know start overwhelmed am im mid twenties studies psychology long time reason always avoided ptsd thought wars rape year learned cptsd hit traumatized inhibited life start learned last year turned two started getting night terrors generally shy kid reserved parents pretty dysfunctional dad narcissist mom codependent lack boundaries pretty emotionally unavailable father especially really bad anger problems tapered hes gotten older still quick temper cant really regulate emotions constantly spills negative emotions onto others family growing really horrible acne made somewhat low self esteem go lower ever experienced acne lasted highschool early twenties time felt like ugly monster friends didnt really close friends girlfriends generally felt alone gotten decent scholarship community college even though didnt well high school gifted kid always hated school one point heavily considering dropping high school pointless parents would never let that well ended dropping college failing classes towards end semester horribly depressed smoking weed every day numb pain years tried go back college try different fields working different jobs felt stuck powerless familys home one prepared real world parents threw education system hopes would raise instead themselves ended taking debt move happened start business time actually worked great first months so business failed moved cities life crumbled apart im debt living back family life nightmare feel like parents never got made siblings theyve provided materially destroyed emotionally clearly miserable im sure theyve brink divorce before feel broken killing feels like ample message failures parents dont even feel like relationships anyone much ive hurt past dont even feel like relationship kids parents genetic mental failures thats dna pass on end me dont know feel ive felt like long time dont know do feel beyond overwhelmed hope me far gone,1 world sadim fuckinghurting yall years torment abuse years healing shit alone years always alone get better better im fucking step program im even addicted drugs alcohol though true guess addicted something im fucking trying feel sadness look universe begging hope see pain injustice cant escape im either going die protest maybe death meaning im gonna blow worthless brains end dayfuck life worth this,1 good vibes here actually angry you know express empty existing feeling mom shitty,1 tried commuting redflagi dont know feel fucking think ive pondering idea offing years tonight tied belt bannister listening music leaning belt feet still ground started black music sounded distorted snapped stood up dont know talk please someone fucking help,1 idk do looking symptoms adhd symptoms told dad might adhd yelled said dont it dont know do,0 "Tension? anger,? depression? fatigue and Vitality ... And they all start in your gut! #GutBrainLink pic.twitter.com/WufoOjIEuE",1 blood test for anxiety and depression https://goo.gl/hBbk7M  #metoprolol anxiety dosage,1 end sufferinghave anyone lost feeling meaningless live anyone anyone stopped feeling miserable longer period time suffering past years hoping feelings would disappear however happened im lossing hope better days im basically stuck misery,1 recommended movies im really bored hit anything,0 lil bean always monkey hugging mama mama in her favorite hoodie finding comfort where we can from the pain and depression respectively we re okay and we re also a goddamn mess http t co jflyzoigh9,1 "@Applecored I can respect Blair for that he never backed down, Brown is mr flipflop ",0 minecraft snapshot cant take anymore,0 best way commit redflag body found deathi plannin consider jumpin waterfallr methods commit redflag body cannot foundi dont want body found so,1 Surviving trauma doesn't mean there are no trace imprints still wreaking havoc There are ways to cope & heal#depression #anxiety #PTSD https://twitter.com/wearyourvoice/status/989127134278045696 …,1 think might set datenever used understand posts saying theyd set date kill think get now tried old going bridge jump thing earlier collapsed wept floor even got railings plus motorway bridge didnt want hurt anyone else think im going make plan proper research find way end it set date maybe write notes theres end panic attacks intrusive thoughts wont go away matter hard try miss old voices new ones arent nice world unkind think sooner better,1 rteenagers really dirty one ill go reddit make blue dorito day meme ive waiting year rteenagers disabled image posts day _ rteenagers disabled image posts day,0 chinese people see less deadass asked hella asian friend tbh guys need confirmation,0 im tired fi tried killing sunday wanted try carbon monoxide poisoning didnt work tried hanging couple months ago got scared midway stopped im tired im sad depressed weak hate myself try make others happy im never happy havent felt true happiness long forget feels like good life like this im scared tell boyfriend knows im depressed dont think knows bad is feels wrong tell feel head girlfriends arent supposed that theyre supposed make so happy make feel loved tell theyre depressed want kill themselves no wont make happy theres thid deep heavy sadness heart im scared tell parents im scared make therapy appointment know dont want hear theyre daughter suicidal piece shit know love me scare sometimes cant always make happy im fucking dumb always okayish grades school work barely anything suck job took thought would make happy interest parent im depressed unhappy life love people around me cant hard ive depressed long years ive told one person whole thing person doesnt even live country me feel alone even though know im not keep distancing people me want die ive come terms it really nothing much im weak mentally im weak dont want go painfully thought carbon monoxide gonna work hate myself im sorry long wanted ramble,1 avatar bad truth hurt,0 Prepared ,0 something one teachers actually pretty racist talking history ww i think morning tired wasnt paying much attention said something along lines germans claimed changed since really whim staring german kid,0 make b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b simple,0 surrounded people alone cant relate others desperately wish couldi want someone get me someone know long time still someone knows better likes me fake agenda constantly inevitably mess people tiring stressful cant even pretend relate understand that something learn explicitly learned now years old im literally never going learn it connect others relationships person get wish could im energy anxiety trying pretend im person,1 losing fucking miiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiind fuck schoool omfgggg,0 ive enoughim tired orders responsabilities laws truly good times ive ever drugs thank god drugs break ever got daily struggle depression social anxiety good times brief worth lifetime pain fantasize redflag daily wrote rewrote final note head many times wondering leave one world deserves nothing me ill it hope soon,1 why is sleeping alot so horrible for depression because of depression i sleep alot but on rare occasion with drug abuse which cause insomnia i am le depressed then i sleep again 0 hour hour and i just feel horrible and suicidal,1 Another week of record sales at Fon. I love the smell of profitability in the morning. Especially after investing so much € ,0 wish wasnt transi never biologically male feel like give trying,1 ummm so i have to wait until am for the video,0 give up want dief diagnosed autism adhd anxiety know start used happy child ever since became aware media talking about anxiety got worse time years old scared even go outside anxiety gotten worse time finished th grade scared even leave house addition single friend ever since end th grade year tried internet friendships last less six months moment left one talk to started going special school people autism tuesday classmates developed me already comfortable going community always refusing afraid late time want friend fear classmates graduating year due maturity stay another year school day either feel super stressed crying literally coping skills try playing video games continue unwanted thoughts due lack coping skills continue panic little kids school make noises feel noises gunshots ampxb also issues family mom dad major argument five months ago feel traumatized me ever since argument father brings divorce leaving house often even close siblings well brother constantly annoying me left college last week contact information result late mend relationship sister close either guess what contact information well despite fact still living family frequently lash dad mom makes angry dad sometimes calls bitch mother sometimes says know me ampxb fear issues undiagnosed like agoraphobia depression problem is never get want go see therapist doctor want new diagnosis give one afraid get diagnosed something new severe mental breakdown forced leave home would make worse ampxb end off want state fear dying want kill myself want get better,1 "@AllysArmy78doc I can't wait to see this. As a 12 year old I clearly recall the goal watching the game live on our black & white television in the living room. My mither trying to calm me down as I ran, jumping & shreeching. The depression of the 2 previous games evaporated in that instant!",1 whats point trying reach help one obligated help youi know people issues deal with always hear no one owes anything or one obligated help you okay one obligated help cant kill peace then im asking everyone world stop help want people show empathy second sayit get better want fake positivity want empathy used reach people would get people manipulating calling selfish getting attitude would complain cant even vent im myself friends family ive wanting end life,1 hey guy i ve been depressed for a while now and have passive suicidal thought every day my younger sister is excelling earning lot of money travelling and living life to the full which is fantastic and i am so proud of her but i can t help comparing my low energy life lack of any friend and absence of any passion or achievement to hers a after all we came from the same weird parent if i end it the only people it would affect would be my mum she deserves better than what i have to offer but i don t know how to make her proud she must be so sick of me i just don t know what i am meant to do i m on a low income salary riddled with debt flunked university because of weed addiction i have essentially ruined my life i just wish i could press rewind on the last 0 year or at least start afresh by allowing my life energy to pas on to someone who could utilise it better what to do,1 hate myself cannot take anymore everything supposed fine cannot head killing sounds right cannot see living tempted end know pint view life wrong killing solution work out anything change point judt know anymore sick,1 i look super cute today my depression is easing,1 deal heartbreak mean never person trying find gives shits me deal someone still care even tho doesnt move on,0 Gogol bordello was awesome. really nice night ,0 lackawanna blues moving story boy raised house pretty unusual people br br its editing soundtrack really pulls story lets experience film way writer really meant seenbr br the music really tied story made characters come life editing made story progressive captivating br br i also surprised performances cast notably s epatha merkersonsbr br i cant wait see one man show featuring films writer ruben santiagohudson,0 day friend brought gun school so happened guym im talking friend timeactually friends classmates used make fun him slightly average iqhe simpletonor everyone thoughthe used sit behind soi used conversations day one day noticed looking weird like watching classmates weirdly thinking something alsohe kept checking bag time time day teased guysso thought might that asked problemhe took secluded corner classroom told fearful tones gun bagi shocked say least first thought lyingbut noticed weirdand checking bag told prove lunch break took outside lobeholdthere gun handnow asked calmlyeven tho panicking inside trying gunhe said nothingi told keep gun hidden could gone teachers reminded brother also simpleminded knew wanted tohe could shot usso kept quiet whole day next day came thanked telling teachers return introduced friends told anything foolish today onwardsi know right thing simple fool know consequences actions complained it would ruined life,0 need someone talk to pleaseneed help,1 im irish boy cringe im talk anyone preferably anyone time zone its oclock morning rn me hit dms except pedos dog isnt thing talk like gus idubbz crtical micheal reeves play minecraft titan fall xbox listen mc virgins amp yun head im cool,0 jesus freaking christ bro messed up scrolling comments posts new literally guy defending nzis saying nothing wrong murdering literal millions people know small minority guys gals like people lead astray easily brainwashed things see online calling jews judaism opposition makes freaking scared,0 lets talk throughi want die tired living tired constant heartache horrible disappointment tragedy loved ones dying me want love leaving someone else suffering feels immeasurable deep marianas trench godawful anxiety pressing chest think past recent distant see pain good outweigh bad tainted pervasive cloud negativity follows wherever go remember laughing laughing laughing best friend loved much bright blue eyes thin sly smile died car accident told facebook message steering wheel crushed heart died instant never loved way loved her loved her dead five years fell love someone else story love way loved them told incapable it theyre dating someone im cut life feel utterly alone im sure relate that no im one those wonder ive sexual partners past relationships end heartbreak abandonment must me something wrong me leave somehow want leave too ive before mental landscape vast emptiness it hissing snakes feet damned oppressive clouds hovering overhead ive even stared barrel mosin nagant shoving barrel mouth daring pull trigger eleven years ago afraid think assumed things would get better didnt keeps getting worse think im afraid more shame really sold rifle instrument fellate pull trigger wipe conscious mind clean reality im afraid dying want suffer unduly methods leave much room error lizardbrain kick scream body survive high caliber gunshot head way it best way barrel mouth point up use shotgun lethal make sure use slug good buckshot closedcasket immediate instant nothingness forever why love me anyone love love me hold close ugly undeserving must be must be must be im hideous nothingcreature crawling mud grasping branch bear feeble claws snaps disgust lets slide suffocate muck overwhelms me crystallizes around hated flesh locks away hell escape none helpless bastard hope one ever love me know it deep frame being incapable loved another especially love first something others capable loving proven me time time again ill die myself forgotten big part wants way want remembered world want remember it,1 "Okay, have torn apart my work. Fresh coffee & peanut butter toast then I'll try and put it back together again. Only less crap this time ",0 @kingsthings ew! Would have been "a little" funny to have the Govenor present congrats to Luv Gov ~ ! Geeesh they are tough up there!,0 communicate teenager sister more im f sister f moved years ago weve always pretty good relationship confidently say feels safe loved whenever shes around me fun whenever visit used lot fun stuff together still living family feel way im around too shes person show true goofy self to problem is ever since ive moved dont really communicate anymore im really texting type person make sure remind much love every making playlists getting gifts telling love verbally thats it thats talking im home her miss old days wanna friend family moves lot change school almost every year doesnt enough friends make feel less lonely also context might mention shes anime japanese culture shes huge kpop fan dont share interests totally respect want feel validated,0 @officialTila Hey girl doin big things. Got respect for what you do. And you's a dime too haha ,0 sign that the usa and the world are headed for the worst economic depression http t co rajk xjuoh http t co joctlucsyz,1 @maadster mitchel musso is hot. let me just put that out there ,0 another album like httpsopenspotifycomalbumcgwclwskgxkzgyattafdsilzrpdvqtsadchehew,0 im killing sooni want rant know nobody cares entirety sub pity party im damn tired guess want someone else know take seriosly since friends take say joke family maybe want leave note someone knows existed maybe damn autumn afternoons nice wish could enjoy them wonder books end up pet treated well now think it regret recently buying clothes money would handy funeral least hope ill one improbable always loved quiet places redflag alley hometown cemetery never visited human steps maybe someone else decides end all someone dig new hole ground peace again wonder stories ghosts real haunting professor would fun id learn things even afterlife could travel could never life least hope so tired age wish someone watch sunset with someone tell goodbye,1 going to sound vain but running out of my fav lip gloss,0 posting daily til people stop feeling suicidal say psalm something make people feel better ill continue daily posts,0 haven t tweeted nearly all day posted my website tonight hopefully that go well night time,0 made video last one phone know going do keep picking knives putting down hurts much kind medicine take much afraid hanging myself need die know how two daughters not home moment would never let see melike this want everyone know tried really hard cleaned life things supposed make us happy years cannot forget past assaulted hurts watch guys live lives happy feel disgustingand cannot go on called fat waste life junkie people supposed love most feel stuck thick mud cannot breathe hurts bad old still hurting past traumas want maybe located one day decision easy know kids home soon find maybe hotel tomorrow night cannot go on put name want stopped go phone see this please nobody like me get help late me love daughters love much everyday held you note them,1 dont feel like theres point livingim almost years old still lack basic social awareness coworkers hate feel im huge burden everyone care about im transgender cant afford transition reason havent killed dont want traumatize family boyfriend,1 is going to see A Day To Remember twice this year ,0 i can tell my depression is subsiding when i'm able to catch up on watching bojack horseman again,1 @originalnipper Should be coming through now ,0 redbull monke bbc nature doc hentai best world,0 til dont think actually get helpi went psychiatrist didnt get diagnosed straight told depression anxiety followed saying really suicidal im going put inpatient care make sure safe pretty much asked things looked made realize suicidal pretty much scared actually admitting want need help lied said plans future tell everyone else cant even get meds bc im shits going get worse cant get anything done bc sleep dont sleep cant get anything done bc procrastinate cant even finish single load laundry start everything never finish im always deep back out make friends never actually get close them im pretty sure accidentally lead people avoid friendship bc everything going get weird awkward like last year actually told two friends thought comfortable talking bc would listen abt really suicidal beginning year as changed better dont acknowledge talk essentially summarize said oh feel like got used lying faking im thinking killing every waking moment crying sleep sleeping chance get bc better way cope cant actually open person problems tldr talking psychiatristfriends made paranoid made lying norm im afraid actually getting help,1 got drunk told crush liked yeah basically title yesterday got drunk started talking him dont really know told gotten know better liked me told liked asked meant said did sent audios friends explaining happened ny phone died i today woke idk act idk say good morning send picture idk say say anything all help,0 "TIme to backup my computer. Back up yours too, while I'm doing mine. ",0 "@blak4ever hahaha, I know, right? He only lives a state away. Hahahahah. I wish. It's be amazing. ",0 abbreviate already abbreviated word like substitute yall wanna yall turn yallve acceptable maybe yallre yall are idk ok would yall accept that,0 dont know thank uapersonoftheearth clean house,0 Bankk and store maybe? ,0 depression s killing me rn,1 "Daily or regular #physical activity will go a long way in keeping both person #healthy and #happy.It can help #improve memory, keep the person #mentally alert and active and helps fight #depression and many more #disease.To know more >>> @Webs_offer pic.twitter.com/X0iVOhpCIX",1 words long gone voice actor rick may died complications covid i love smell kicked ass morning it trump gone im glad finally remove politics entirely cry,0 hmmm removed view pollhttpswwwredditcompollikdjr,0 like methis hard me im writing reddit im anonymous im planning deleting account eventually ive tought killing since years old thing never abused feel severe mental illness difficult dynamic parents personality problems like terribly antisocial get depressed often nothing like people go through fact believe probably blessed life given always thought killing myself ive made plans different stages life tought it want go much detail feelings think need anyone give advice want know anyone like me tought killing apparent reason im sorry post long,1 want tell someonei think may complete redflag tomorrow thursday im tired see reason keep going,1 sometimes look ceiling look ceiling night alot idk every time listen music sometimes cry feel like time relax school work really get time self medicine help sleep like taking feel taking time form could use make music something realized completely topic guess feel,0 ten times better who wants super model bravo think true business tyra strong sensitive time able get aspiring model photos look depth models personality beauty strength demure attributes ability endure work want enjoy seeing tyras personal experience brought photo shoots runway always agree judges decisions tyras comments least one winners feel deserve win show every girl lucky chance,0 parents knowa couple weeks ago told sister struggling heavy suicidal thoughts told parents swear secrecy anything im regretting opening up family already worried me theyre even worried opening make everyones distress worse could kept myself cant help feeling big mistake even though know care me,1 updating my myspace profile i need more follower coz it a bit sad only to have one,0 @MzJazzee two-thirds actually ,0 going die embarrassment ahhhh ps party crush good time dad barges yelling taken shower yet dont lie yoh hes super cautious covid didnt get chance mute hears ahhhhhhhhhhhh goes nice dad mjjfkampampampamp theres nothing embarrassing dad couldve said,0 fuck doesnt like water bitches like water nasty need flavored water water something supposed like wed die didnt like feel like theyve convinced dont like,0 oh what a beautiful dayyyyy ,0 hear soul scream continuously trying break freeguilt spreading heart like wild fire untitled,1 hello whoevers reading this little something mehi noah years old live place outside city called manchester northwest england hobbies sit bedroom day bored wondering life even worth living anymore live dull depressing live small box house shit weather nearly year round particularly clean people seem smile faces all parents clueless understand feel gain courage come emotions old activities used longer interest me gaming photography going watch football team called manchester city play going walks sometimes drink cut relive pain everything seems black white everyone elses life seems much better mine everyone seems hobbies success wealth loving understanding parents family rare occasions bad moodmy girlfriend farrah helped depressive episodesjust little her years old lives us tennessee huge house large loving supportive family family full success hobbies like basketball softball sociable understanding going best high school state lucky live life think takes granted precious beautiful perfect me reason still alive today sometimes possibly due depression instant just turn off even little triggers random sometimes feel emotions sometimes hurt due living perfect ideal lifestyle already car time guess puts perspective amazing life is live completely different areas opposites personality sometimes think understand like me cut myself hurts her drink hurts her talk emotions says hurt deep feel does want one ruining mood life absolutely perfect me want spoil her really need help cannot stop worrying possibly affecting her need find ways stop making shit boring need help see living longer kinds emotions affecting me need way find colour lifethank reading made far sorry make sense sounded rushed wanted get someone listen to thank you everything boring dull meaningless,1 littleruen il va partir en d pression la,1 is going to attend mass. c'mon peeps! it's Sunday. ,0 instead writing paragraph ill give four good reasons greatest cinema experience time visual odyssey could told big screen special effects kubrick oscar stunning effects age jurassic park t allow kubrick give accurate or least accurate depiction space travel date silence fills space scenes serves purpose accurate science also adds mood film to discussed later point hal fact kubrick shot moon scenes apollo landing gutsy yet fulfilling move many said upon original release favorite trip movie think movie amazing visuals time even time sorry phantom menace fans kubricks directing style terrific films kubrick likes use camera means delve psychology characters plots camera mobile greats scorsese instead sits watches narrative unfold faces key element kubrick film like classic movies touch evil kubrick focuses characters faces give audience psychological viewpoint even uses extreme closeups hals glowing red eye show coldness determination computerizd villain could go on summation kubrick hieght style hal one villainous characters film history wholeheartedly agree late gene siskles opinion hal film takes place space use silence darkness space itself mood isolation created dave crewmen isolated earth jupiter nowhere escape combine mood cold calculated actions hal fearful villain imaginable still although see film several times feel chest tighten particular scene controversial ending always turns people away film instead trying give opinion means idea s meaning general is id like discuss fact ending serves leave movie openended kubrick stated inteded make open discussion left meaning hands viewer respecting audiences intelligence kubrick allowed movie beginning end meaningful discussion mans past present future beauty ending need mean anything deep purely plot driven explanation entire movie viewed entertaining journey space movie save great citizen kane leaves open discussion like truly meant surreal journey involves eye mind instead waiting long lines phantom menace rent widescreen edition enjoy greatest cinematic experience,0 one best rated teen movies ever madebr br i saw growing was one favorites maybe popular fast times greatbr br there serious side movie mentioned reviewers starts comedy morphs drama halfway through thats beauty though sets apart get all humornot unlike fast times drama great great soundtrackbr br i personally think every kid enter high school see this would give idea journey embark on cmonwhat kid watching this able relate someone movie fact becomes serious halfway though also cool superbly well doneyou even see coming definitely lot surprisesbr br spoilersdont read anymore want knowbr br great knee slappping humorwho could forget scene gary camilla still hear itoh big strong burrito pricelessbr br some scenes gary karin hard watchparticularly final scene coarse many women like karen would made exact choice did think ithow many women reject men hearts goldlike gary jerks know ive done itand many females know movie inspire discussion and despite countless times ive seen it still leaves filled admiration film makers performers everyone find someone relate movie whats likely one personbr br lastly music used greata lot cars ulots obscurenow songs san s purists dreambr br but make mistake music makes movie unique story itself plain simple one best kind teen movie classic,0 whenever someone tells suck dick insult always reply will do always fun started saying never saw homosexualityinduced primal fear another mans eyes,0 thinking intentionally crashing car considered suicidal thoughtsim sure good im really tired feel like emotions run juice feel hollow recharge feel bad least time,1 "I think #Amazeballs has a chance, @perezhilton. STFU @darlingdaisha, @katyperry is girl god and she started it, so it will form! i helped",0 true story walked bathroom boys talking issues communism,0 saw movie saw blue crush michelles movies thought bleak future businessi extremely wrong watching performance girlfight amazed way captures emotion one fighter also warriorin movie way confronts father treatment brother way conveys anger getting hither characters learning curve movie cant always put wall hide love power wont wini believe role fit perfectly michelle even though prior experience director saw talent criticize seeing talent her,0 "@tina_m The benefit of twitter, etc is letting ME know what you're doing, even though your a bazillion miles away! And it's all about me! ",0 honest opinion song once song httpsopenspotifycomtracklusdtcgsrhhpiaeiwlsigetfdqfqmbckxgilcggw,0 of this sub i really wish all that post on this sub could just find the peace they are looking for but it seems like it just talking to a wall a lot of post have no response so why post is it to get it out in writing looking for other opinion wanting someone to say hey you are not worthless because i like everyone else here that read these post is struggling with my demon do ordinary people read these post and get a chuckle out of them i dont have the answer if i did i would share with everyone here so i apologize this wa a rant and more question,1 can't believe how hot it is out there it's lush ! am thinking lovely tea with a very cold drink outside later yeay !!,0 shooting myselfi feel gun hands would give sense control end keep going dont want dying process painful long short simple,1 @Zabelani I should try this. In what particular ways if I may ask? Specifically wondering if you have seen improvements wrt anxiety and depression?,1 ugly hoes post pic like ima leave here like nah bih take,0 everything illuminated like viewing fine piece museum quality artwork absolutely inundates emotions broad spectrum jonathan safran foer played candor elijah wood search paternal heritage ukraine travels bring contact alex played well extreme humor eugene hutz grandfather emotional tie film aptly portrayed boris leskin one finds little humor human characters cinema one turn mikke real dog called sammy davis jr jr alex grandfather also call seeing eye bitch cinematography spectacular colors important part patchwork film film worth time emotional investment,0 @jordanknight I like her thinking ,0 how cute little sisters are adorable ,0 hairpin ohh how i envy you natalieeee i need a new wardrobe and something to wear out the weekend after this,0 wanted say watching national velvet tv feb checking dates details etc surprising see made rooney years old whilst liz taylor accomplished english actress isbr br to put americans contributors right irish villages england ireland completely different country nothing whatsoever english countryside scenes shown supposedly taken south coast england brighton arundel county sussex scene exists unfortunately like many places roads buildings built hills beachesbr br so please lovely americans confuse ireland england ever take great exception it like confusing texas coney island,0 Idk if what I am feeling is anxiety or depression,1 remove theres streamer anita never watched even heard popping youtube recommended stop,0 look at me and tell me why i shouldn t just end it all today and tonight my girlfriend think i m an ugly waste of oxygen who ha no value it s time for me to die,1 laz yeah i couldn t answer your call at work this arvo babe my break are usually at ish so call then haha i need credit sooo bad,0 hate reaction memes fire pit fine lighter fluid case reaction memes im sick seeing lion witch audacity bitch,0 medicalnewstoday detail many us for this in the treatment of anxiety depression and even ptsd http t co iwivamcebt,1 i want to be trendy,0 i wa on 0 mg of hydroxyzine and i felt like it just wasn t doing anything so my doctor switched me today,1 "@Emperor_David Hurrah!! You picked a good day for it, perfect day for staying in a pub!",0 getting muchive battling depression since early age still live family also happens abusive ive chronically ill years completely turned life around trapped room left house least years lost friends result sickness continue school anymore cant work even online friends slowly distancing know anymore person seems still care talks ex seeing someone else cant really bugging issues still see love life also hurts much seeing new girlfriend looked around basement see could find rope luckily find one want alone tonight nobody ever keep company anymore life becoming hard me,1 tired of detail just going to get to the point i have attempted before and lately i ve been feeling like attempting again might try to think of a plan or talk myself out of it idk yet we ll see how life treat me the next few day,1 participant needed for online survey topic investigating the effect of attachment on different dimension http t co e uzeuquh via surveycircle lovelanguages attachment depression mindfulness psychology survey surveycircle http t co fvfh u9 ff,1 Back from the cricket. Now having a late dinner whilst watching Heroes S2. Hope everyone else had a good day. London tomorrow. ,0 sudden change sexuality destroyed mentallyi since incredibly infatuated women every possible way since end february something happened me lost attraction women seems place seem noticing males although male yet cause erection yet women could easily turned sense know happened me never masculine crushes anything youth teens experiment one time like all wanting try anal stimulation also desperate horny time one cl hook ups even finish physical act found gross uncomfortable felt like reverse bowel movement said experience also turned anal girl either first last time ever anything like that considered it seems suddenly sexuality changed know happened ever since did mental state declined tremendously getting women one things enjoyed which sadly say much always happiest women hoped raise family girl within next years confidence issues women general years finally became successful dealing constant selfdoubt also improved areas too general sense selfesteem confidence feels like everything torn me thought though man nothing all despite perceive noticing more since began gotten increasingly depressed point wishing dead waking last nights wishing somebody would shoot head seems like much valued took pride gone end honestly wish dead sit around day nothing go motions also look back old photos women crushed cry feels like heart torn out become emotionally destroyed feeling intense anger small things thoughts wishing over far lowest point ever wish would end cannot go like much longer,1 since friday redflag depression bad surpassing meds never wanted kill friday today life never confusing tired never end end day care others want put elderly mother friends family pain it afraid one day get point care anymore eitheri know do struggle bus right now,1 known cure heterosexuality would donate help poor souls but gay poor well,0 dont see reason live anymorei dropped grade four years ago ptsd anxiety cant get dream job never gratuated really regret dropped out cant get dream job now feel embarrased tell others didnt finish high school must think im weird cant get back trail im trying really cant,1 im useless want dieim useless everyone want anymore im tired everything cant kill myself cant please girlfriend ed years old poor always struggling tired believe religious stuff pray death come way get shot car accident quick painless take away shithole thing ive given called life cant anymore love people ok im not want die feel anything anymore,1 anyone else think weird perceived differently different people know obvious wanna talk little honestly really small idea self sometimes people say comes shock ive called annoying quiet shy outgoing funny unfunny enigmatic cool smart stupid weird fucking clue really makes sort crisis hearing contradictory stuff me normal would think is course talkative person might think youre quiet comparison quiet person might say youre talkative since dont talk much,0 "@GingerDodds Thanks! Our green tea w/ blueberry is one of my own personal faves, but most ppl mention pomegranate. Diff ppl, diff tastes. ",0 extrovert adopt me ima shy good natured introvert anyone adopt please,0 Have you ever witnessed the downward spiral of an overtired child from happy and alert to suddenly cranky? What are the links between insomnia and depression? Dr Tammra Warby answers many of these questions here. http://bit.ly/2Hjm8A1  #Mindset #DrTammraWarby pic.twitter.com/H7bm0tROr4,1 anyone thoughts this get suicide ideation comes mind benzoheroin od,1 keep reading rredflagbereavement imagining friends family would live without meits strangely comforting coping mechanism know people love care would absolutely torn sick way kind comforting imagine everyone sobbing working hard move remember me maybe often feel lonely forgotten about feels like would time id really feel love,1 im trouble homeless so dad recently lost house staying aunt cant stay long imagine im lot stress progressively get behind school work dont room feel unwelcome vented twitter situation dont therapist anyone talk to family friend saw it arent vocal loss house family friend thought lying doesnt like political beliefs so teach lesson called cps dad trouble,0 need helpi used able live depression yes effected life always found way keep going it cant stop dreaming redflag im truly scared need anyone tell would upset anyone life thats reason im holding anyway feels like work longer need get motivated anything maybe little motivation hope get busy,1 even sleep isnt fun anymoreits usually like sleep escape isnt dont remember dreams trouble falling asleep tired even life anymore life sleepcentered go entire day trying get back bed dont go bed soon get home rarely nap day sleep part day look forward to dull hate awake asleep,1 HOLD THIS PHAT L DEPRESSION https://twitter.com/pvlkvsky/status/989183405240868865 …,1 physically cannot commit redflagi tried commit redflag couldnt grabbed biggest knife house took upstairs entire way there kitten affectionate ever tried stab heart couldnt maybe im weak maybe knives harder use thought were left little scar tried dig scar knife matter hard tried couldnt get deep enough tried throat couldnt cut throat either tried hard would leave red mark parents would see it eventually gave played kitten instead pretty stupid try commit redflag halloween anyways costume wouldve gone waste dont access guns rope dont think really commit redflag now unless could jump high place place think house kinda hard describe im sure high enough kill me dont wanna risk getting hurt without dying wanna die end pain dont know now,1 life right havent able play games friends since lost ability use internet connection moving new house month finally internet friends moved would appear used play xbox time built gaming pcs longer hop onto xbox guess parents see kids grow up feel abandoned dont think would ever speak thembut dont know do always heard saying one day might outgrow friends one said way around know fact closest friends yet hand im theirs life right sucks friends vent with going absolutely bonkers sitting house parents constantly telling chores know thats supposed happen teen right tldr entire friend group longer plays xbox bored alone,0 moon landing lie true moon still sky landed it ampxb point,0 need a hug,0 i dont need no good advice im alreadyyyy wasted....GIRLSALOUD 3dayz ,0 turned guys bye,0 watching movie thoughts like another israeli typical movie suprised watch great israeli drama plot really good actors act great one best isreali movies saw bottomline really recommend movie ,0 boughtr flaming hot cheetos dust eye send help immediately ow,0 monthsits awhile since posted probably months since tried od certain drug courage to looking back stage life might overloaded worry work maybe say no didnt nevertheless still get ideas every then especially hopping er work going bed nights idk seems like easy way eager for maybe find peace mind keep going strong fighting ideas trying make father proud hiding truth illness hoping notice stopped discussing cuz mostly hed tell theres jobs thats country live works hope whoever reads this stay strong easy stay strong,1 lost love life literally never cared less momentmy boyfriend years mutually called quits never felt numb empty right now right thing im sure wasting away lose body fat muscles atrophy ultimately die also best thing do never felt like less human being never felt less importance worthiness life im never letting feel like again,1 surprised fascinating movie was performances extremely good especially rea compassionate nononsense detectivebr br despite low budget big fx flashy camerawork citizen x somehow manages surpass majority similar big hollywood films just telling the storybr br true stories tend end whimper rather bang thats case here apart that highly recommended detective yarn,0 handyman just cancelled on me,0 i don t want to study i want to go shopping instead,0 im really close ending allim sitting bed belt hands want fucking think fact mother room next door wait shes asleep then dont know hope pass fast needed tell somebody see anything changes guess not im sorry mom,1 cant imagine bigger piece shit myselfmy family loves done literally every single fucking thing could possibly help me people fucking angels put bullshit despite ive managed convert fucking biomedical engineering degree renowned school fucking cashier job grocery store im wondering point minimize pain feel end killing next weeks ampxb ampxb,1 betty boris eye junior dance theyre still kids unfortunately hugh gets first thirty years later tune back inbetty married hugh putting fussy mother also lives thembr br neither boris betty however forgotten paths cross again soon declare feelingsbr br but betty feels cant divorce hugh councilman would hurt much betty know is hugh hurting all hes rolling sheets beautiful secretary meredithbr br boris undertaker thinks answer theyll fake deathbr br christopher walken plays frank featherbed outrageous competing undertaker mediumsized townthat causes additional problems boris bettybr br all kinds complications arise boris betty try pull major coupbr br there laugh outloud scenes delightful dancing nary curse word heard short film pleasure watchbr br stars,0 term classic film comes from wonderful story womans bravery courage extreme loyalty poor olan got sold uncaring husband years learned appreciate her yeah right pearl br br luise rainer beautiful star best actress oscar year small role and waste oscar the great zigfield really show what any talent exotic beauty good earth shows really act beauty erased great costumes either people say show real emotions film like hell character olan shy timid woman inner strength quiet parts film eyes body convey emotions example scenes fall city looters shot people saying act well film lookingbr br paul muni shows act well character likeable one me never sees is end story sweet loving dedicated wife mother special beauty greatest one all beauty within like pearlbr br if get chance see film watch it see one best films golden age hollywood created,0 lose friends alienate people decent comedy bit romantic approachbr br its actually story sidney youngsimon pegg breaking journalist magazine writing business interpreted funny way simon pegg made ok appearance slightly worse usual movie hilarious funny way anything like moments moments really hilariousbr br i recommend fun worth watching american english cream comedy people wanna sit relax enjoy movie is watch movie critical approach pass unless want disappointed start trashing it,0 fuck im done nowim done trying completely tried rekindling relationship take break personal reasons put much fuckiong effort girl months chasing me moment fix shit parents date dosent want shit friends lmao friends weve never friends met drunk hell thats started bullshit man life fucking worthless cant shit right fucked timing ive lost important person bad luck comes s comes s fuck world fuck everything man im done,1 it s so tiring to keep going i just can t stand it anymore i wish it all would end,1 hate new downvote colour thats guys thats post,0 forget from color among us hat one im cyan wear leaf hat backup color lime,0 movie nominated best picture lost casablanca paul lukas beat humphrey bogart best actor see lucile watson nominated best supporting actor think good job bette davis paul lukas three kids leaving mexico coming united states first scene movie going train daviss relatives house davis lukas underground stop nazis tired need rest arrive home nazi living theirs much either it turns nazi cares money willing make deal lukas plot find yourself,0 moony 9 yeah is it bcoz kal penn is a visiting lecturer somewhere n cant be on the show anymore im gon na miss him,0 had it under control for year taking zoloft every day started to feel better and stopped taking it wa good for like month then change came into my life like new job had to move to a different city and came back out of nowhere with vengeance i m so tired of it idnk if i can get it under controlled this time it s crippling my life,1 want drink goes awayi feel stupid good night tonight hate it want want redflag want over im weak hurts even morei cant even bring commit redflag want over im weak make end im lazy spoiled stubborn even fix use ive given actually life waste all want give up want drink goes away,1 debate capitalism doesnt cause innovation black people disproportionately targeted police blm good fascism cringe trump lowkey fascististics legalise drugs dollar minimum wage kinda based anarcho monarcho bidenism cool,0 anyone ever watched notebook would say allie identity crisis need english bruh,0 depression is real lady lere jesa pay tsa rona bohloko,1 another searing look holocaust rather intimate story events took place small street berlin people involved film starts present time new york city ruth weinstein jutta lampe mourning death husband family members gathered side ruths daughter hannah maria schrader slowly learns mother raised aryan woman named lena fischer doris schade travels germany locates year old tells events rosenstrassebr br spoiler alertbr br lena talks berlin gestapo would hold jewish spouses building rosenstrasse street even though supposed immunity married aryans nine days group women would wait outside shout release eight year old ruth svea lohde awaits mother come nowhere go meets year old lena katja riemann takes in lenas husband fabian martin feifel also inside eventually tries socialize nazi officers get somethingbr br this film directed margarethe von trotta making first feature film almost years working television clearly one provocative efforts remains one revered directors europe one nazi films view horrible acts inhumanity jews although see severe treatment issued instead retelling small event meant life death people involved film trying shock anyone open door debates circumstances simply wants shed light small true life event occurred historical period part films strength comes actors good performances shine especially riemann young lohde always good see schrader aimee jaguar pivotal role great film something thats going change perspective wwii considering innocent lives put death events took place think reason alone important enough retell true story,0 me balloons scare you im fucking scared balloon much pops squeeze hard blow much pops right face remember got balloon kid weak held seconds popped right face hurt,0 compulsive urges hurt selfi feel pretty inadequate less people think self esteem may lead part thoughts im also average height constantly want to want vision hitting head feels good easy ignore first thoughts escalating eating dinner compulsion stick fork eye even though know would excruciating never self harmed life never physically never urge cut really frightening anyone dealt something similar,1 mi get sexual appeal girls puke think it like eww girls,0 nobody fucking wants point alone,1 cant get dog think ill kill myselfthe last thing im holding for yup first two applications didnt work already received many one looking for sent third one different place dont hopes high up,1 for the past week or so i ve been what i can best describe a lonely maybe even despondent i ve been trying to find way to keep myself from having that hole in my chest form again but it keep happening it s so familiar and safe yet it seems to make me feel like i ll forever be alone and dead every memory of my childhood ha been flooding my brain i want it to stop i hate reliving those memory my body feel like it s caked in slime no matter how many time i shower and try to scrub away the feeling of hand on me i can t get them off me i just want them to stop touching me i don t know why i m feeling this way either i saw my friend i ve actually been trying to take care of myself but this feeling keep coming back and pulling down to a bottomless pit of hell i really want to feel better again not like this,1 week till sister home i missed her call again it the worst feeling in the world,0 miss her met girl almost year ago old job hit pretty well got along great would talk would even hang school even got chance go place pussy didnt go fast forward couple months leaving school covid quit job new one havent talk since idk start talking without making awkward really wanna talk take out im lost,0 cant kill self night bc trafficker use money townmy gut tells good idea go night bc wont asked come around area night red flag therei dont need survive wake basement id hv travel rly dnt wanna waste money periods gonna start another month wasted,1 they said if i got off my lazy as and got a job my depression would go away i d finally have a reason to live that i would be more confident and happy and now that i have a perfectly pleasant job with good pay i feel miserable i think about tomorrow with the utmost dread even tho i know tomorrow won t be so bad the worst thing that can happen is i ll embarrass myself or say something awkward but when i think about going to work tomorrow the next immediate thought is well honestly i d rather just not be alive everyone told me once i got a job and stopped being a disappointment i d be happy but now i might have some money and can pay some bill but that s it i don t feel more confident or fulfilled i feel lonelier than ever because if i tell anyone i d rather die than go to work i ll come off a spoiled and entitled instead of someone whose brain is always stuck in the flight response,1 @fozzyfan_now Yeah that's me ,0 hey i don t want anyone to feel too down but any advice might help so for the past few day week scarily maybe a couple of month i haven t felt real and it s starting to scare me i ve struggled with anxiety for a while and i ve had it happen for a couple of day in the past but this time it feel different it s the physical embodiment of is this all there is like i m self aware yet everything is hazy and forgettable i thought it would go away when i came home from uni but it hasn t i just came back from a family dinner where i couldn t stop being frustrated with how i couldn t just be there mentally immerse myself i tried appreciation of the little thing and when i try i know i should feel something but it just apathy it s like it is what it is but a bit more pessimistic hopeless maybe hopeless is too strong a word i don t plan on giving up in my lifetime but it just make me overwhelmed that this ha been going on for a while and i don t know how to make life feel real again it might be derealization but it feel weirder more self aware than that if anyone ha gone through this before and ha tip to speed up the process i d be so so grateful,1 trying find reason stayso keep things simple ive suicidal adult life attempted roughly years ago failed swore would wait til im friends family speak of work essentially hours day days week mother found killed myself likely weeks incident shed likely inconvenienced upset thats person would really affect guess point im trying figure stay edit wow thanks downvotes rude messages really helps,1 even doi thought making throwaway this figured even matter people knew found out depressed close years comes goes kind hard think long years wanting kill myself years self hate feeling worthless years wondering im alive im happy anymore goals life nothing makes enjoy life anymore wake everything feels fake ive graduated high school gone post secondary ive experienced like work hobbies relationships none feels like matters hobbies past used make feel happy longer do think it like trying distract myself hate alone cant stand alone make hate more ive talked people before regular friends even people know psychiatrists end really make feel like nobody really cares seems like people reciting comforting lines before inflict self harm scared hated pain lately though ive noticed become easier easier still scared still it little time ive always done things others life laid front followed it know wanted younger know want now matter since ive gone school told become feel fulfilling though ive always done best school simply told to hate alone cant stand people end feels like everyone fake me of course care soon need talk someone dodge like plague want talk someone nobody ever really cares even know im typing this maybe feel like write want say end it feel empty sort like little spark life slowly gone away throughout years dying seems really good right now,1 want start saying might kill least considering too kill tonight tomorrow something lingers within mei think mostly know fail school royally teachers believe me friends probably believe either mom lying herself know able genuinely lazy promise exaggeration really lazy sometimes cannot bring learn even wanted toi dread going back school summer dread living life even though many things look forward lifebig things like moving out relationship meeting internet friends first time also little things like third season favourite show announced video games preordered going friends everything between however things will end outweighed failing everythingi feel like reached end whether end life something insignificant cannot tell endi hate much think depressed either tired so tired scared failing done iti prepared life come considered running away home make sensenothing makes sense situation tried swear god fucking tried would organise papers books school reflect every evening learned school two weeks would slowly stop tried method fucking often workmy grades bad means truly good know redflaging like this rambling shit none writing form structure sorry thatcan anyone please give advice better person sorry saying appropriate subreddit know talk to sorry english bad english speaking country feel like failing,1 "When what you are doing and who you are being has no meaning, you will avoid letting go, succeeding and breaking through. When what you do is meaningless depression and anxiety are a way of life. When you have... https://www.facebook.com/JeffCombsFan/posts/10160250333315331 …",1 @TOMinWPB Hell yeah! ,0 talked exi messaged meeting somewhere give stuff back honestly messaged miss her almost year since broke day thought her would give anything go back time things differently selfish unwilling change wish could tell this good like well ever together again already found someone else im sure happier ever me life felt like life going somewhere someone loved much got me ive tried hard move on ive spent time close friends family nothing working job anymore dealing trying work overwhelming im mooching parents year old dad busts ass support me feel useless keep telling im going schedule appointment therapist never do get anxious nervous never happens im starting doubt would even worth it everyday consists trying ignore constant thoughts redflag making empty promises myself even know im going anymore needed let guess,1 im least attractive guy earth already know im gonna die aloneim ive zero success comes dating girls like literally zero didnt talk girls much high school talk none college like havent tried suck talking girls girl talk high school ignores idk whats wrong me im attractive im boring guess thats im loser,1 totally disagree person first commented movie me storyline man growth hormonal disorder trying best look love yearning for trying best fit society seemed accept himbr br he met someone treats best friends love shown way receiving love always wanted have man created happiness returned received something important giant family spouse lovebr br and comedy part making audience feel laughter bugs certain part showsbr br and must admit made tear little,0 mom attempted redflagyear ago father successfully killed tried get help impatient program first attempt mother tried slit wrist way did inpatient program now literally reliving worst nightmare cant stop thinking kill comes out talked seems want get better cope situation still suffering ptsd finding father dead,1 want leave placei cannot anymore feel like im living surviving everyone abandoned me alone dont anyone want die considered many types redflag im scared non effective enough cant anymore,1 i never thought i would feel this way at this point i m in between two different stage of life and the stress of it is making me want to kill myself i m a senior in high school and life is so hard right now and i don t know if i m being dramatic ive been suicidal before but i don t think i am now just because i know i have a big turning point in front of me in the fall when i go to college which give me hope but i fear i m putting too much weight on this if i don t like college i am scared i will kill myself because it s all that s keeping me going i used to want to kill myself when i wa i know what it feel like but that s not what this is i just can t keep going it get s harder every day i still have two month until graduation and i am scared out of my mind it is so stressful to have so many duty every day school work college decision scholarship i have to pay 00 in car expense which is like two week paycheck thrown away it feel like i do so much just for the little ounce of freedom i get on one day of the weekend or for maybe an hour after school i can t keep going like this but i have to i feel like i m wasting such an important time in my life but i can t change it i want to end it just to avoid the pain of trekking through it because sometimes i can t even see myself waking up tomorrow and doing it all again i am so scared of disappointed everyone every time i let my mom down i just want to die so bad i feel so useless i can t control myself when i m given decision i can t make them i hate the thought that i have complete control over myself because it give the blame of who ive become extremely burnt out flaky to friend and work used to be extroverted but now im so quiet to me and me only,1 "#millenials are at the greatest risk of #depression through loneliness, according to new research - and difficulty finding a loving #relationship is one of the primary reasons. https://buff.ly/2JsxD8V  @CambridgeCore pic.twitter.com/sR7DwURDo4",1 girl really loved blocked started develop feelings three years ago projects together schedule struggled talk crushing high school went started opened her ive never opened anyone before started friends good never wanted hang social anxiety never hangs guys outside family parents strict think knows much value her really helped get school started get depressed im army gone months little communication started ignore me brought blocked me couple days said need see self worth ive nothing supportive caring towards her ive depressed also friends best friend they like family told situation didnt much say hiked couple days later though didnt mention anything it hes kinda ignoring me ive sending sweet supportive understanding messages alt accounts from heart like crazy man hasnt blocked account also hasnt responded them never cared much someone really want talk friends again id anything,0 feel sharp pains used cuti used cut quite bit starting years ago id cut month least maybe months ago now sometimes feel sharp pain like sensation wrists every while like cut myself anyone else ever feel this something thats common everyone feels sometimes,1 last daysthe last days felt bad could barely eat good way months feel like life over dont know do im trying best also fight diseases have cant eat get physical pain diseases soon well dont know worth taking pain case could get better one day,1 wait should i eat or be skinny for vega i m hungry,0 aholmes nj i wa able to downthemall before ta wa able to delete my account didn t lose any photo but i lost almost all comment,0 star trek hidden frontier surprise many ways first fan made series available web features mainly friends neighbors computer programs home video cameras sewing machines to mickey judy put it put show definitely friends neighbors to tell lot people beautiful looking folks ever seen youngest thinnest stumble lines like theyre walking marbles thick accents simply seem speak well first place whick makes virtually impossible understand single solitary word theyre saying still admit everything friends neighbors put together actually fun watch yes dialogue hokey yes little odd though admittedly little cool too watching two starfleet males kiss although kissing scenes seem go on yes cringe bit clearly quote sttos tng shows movies hear theme galaxy quest played beginning end every show okay get that why graphics first rate better almost anything seen sometimes show two really stands storywise actually real tearjerkersbr br hidden frontier total guilty pleasure every sense word give people involved credit credit due takes lot effort put production magnitude people sets costumes graphics huge effort lot peoples parts watch return thank them,0 hate females try flirt like maam im clearly homosapian back,0 indian summer good film made feel good thought cast exceptional sam raimi playing camp buffoon thought scenes funny buster keatonlike performance solid directing nice cinematography,0 @jahumaca lol no? That's how twitter is silly! ,0 whenever lift depression something comes along pushes back down whats pointits dumb start feeling happy something life forces depressed again whats point trying stay happy last moment im suicidal ive felt past instead im stuck stage feeling ok feeling horrible therapy helping antidepressants helping family trash theyre mean seem care anyone else family were emotionally distant friends talk either feel like im losing mind im seriously considering redflag police make suffering end,1 Woke up after 5 hrs sleep - can't wait to share w the world how was this super weekend. And it's not over yet! Have a wonderful Sunday!,0 looking new friendly faces hey im henry im looking folk would willing try hand relatively small server mod team best keep everyone happy plenty kind caring residents would gladly welcome you may true server may active moment wed love good folks like liven soft cozy atmosphere dm details invitations,0 gillianme yeah he wa,0 venting feel like ive lied toso listen up guy friend tendencies killing himself im uncertain feels like now hes talking normally now least thing ended somewhat however family best mood couple months see grandmas serious health issue one alzheimers seriously struck stroke years ago cant move talk since then found shocking to me informations dad talkto mom years still refuses talk bad blood times turns out fucking fake husband used beat shit drinking time stroke dad angry reason figure happened why also parents christians too dad confession taking lot drugs back then even early christian days clues drug paraphernalia even finding box weed makes think never really ended still talk weed helpful shit seems christians whatever thing is feel like family lies awful lot expects awful lot me judge smallest things like fuck do even shout brush teeth yet like crime smth mom always harshly critizizing too tell her says oh joke yeah right lot nightmares recently fact grandmas critical condition weird conspiracies overall bad mood online school random weird shit makes cry like almost everyday ok call crybaby im slowly losing it even took xans make least fall asleep life shit least happy around birthday im open converse people comments,1 Post concert depression is so freakin real,1 missxu sorry bed time came here gmt http is gd fnge,0 morning twitterati large coffee and a bath on top of today list first appt 0am then load of desk work,0 "@lonelycoo OMG, meanwhile i stole your YT vid on FB ",0 Korea is the most hypocritical country. They cry the death of someone who died of depression but they harass a woman who tried to cure her depression. I cannot. #protectparkbom1115 pic.twitter.com/q4QxKLAkn7,1 Love you guys! I'm going to work in a few. Know why I'm so happy? Cause I get to sleep tonight!,0 hie guys back longthrow comments replying every fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillefillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 believe reason movie get recognition deserves many misconceptions darwin pro con would say real man depicted without sterility is although movie snapshot man technique storytelling expanded life far beyond years touched movie deep movie pondering modern life way think provoke study man whose thoughts and used him certainly affected lives movies historical context great primary job actors stay way history carried day actors job good work them say,0 ami english class suddenly felt light headed felt like going pass out didnt went home head looked back happened sad shocked see felt like me putting lot unnecessary pressure good student breaking point almost anger attack knowing do im bettter thoughts redflag dont go away rare gone deal this,1 martingommel double depression im sinne einer dysthymie ist allerdings noch immer ein gro e problem und dagegen hilft kaum etwas ich w nsche dir von herzen das du etwas findest da dir hilft und das e dir dadurch besser geht,1 i feel hopeless like time is passing by and i m just here useless like nothing i do or say can change a goddamn thing i m tired of feeling this way but a soon a i get close to getting out of this hole something reel me right back in i don t have anyone to share these thought with so here i am i feel stupid for even posting how i feel like i should have someone to spill this to but i don t stupid pathetic worthless it s all that defines how i feel,1 @jjjuussttiinn i see you have gotten caught up in the craze also roflrofl.,0 thighs hand hand executed name japanese law,0 pedophile girlfriend dating months recently turned sister calling pedophile really like girlfriend im confused pedophile please help,0 dont know anymoreive come breaking point see solution besides killing myself ill never able solve problems problem me im sick me cant get together im getting stuck time wont able fix it cant keep this everything feel intense time feel like nothing float life autopilot cant function normally anymore let everyone time never say right thing im always emotional clingy much everyone see hope point,1 "@tolisv Don;t know what the votes are for... But what if you get 8 no and 2 yes, that's 10... Would that convince you? ",0 People are not their mental illnesses! https://www.aikenstandard.com/lifestyle/mind-matters-what-s-in-a-name/article_3eb0f4cc-2fd6-11e8-b3cf-bbff8940f329.html … #mentalhealth #bpdchat #depression #anxiety #MentalIllnessMisconceptions #mentalillness,1 im throw vape away makes feel sick something makes still want it im getting rid it took hit willing that regret set later wish luck,0 alonelife lost magic hopefulness felt nothing look forward to one talk to cant help feel cant trust anyone people really dont care unless benefiting someway posted something week ago felt embarrassed deleted it feel alone lost dont really know else turn anymore pray every night life end dont understand anyone really manages pull depression dont care better anymore honestly believe people destined alone unhappy matter efforts make better everything gone wrong wish could courage end it,1 bitch got bitches b gf im lonely want hold someone c h e stomachache since yesterday,0 suicide seems fate fate loves irony,1 buttload of homework,0 @AnimeEyedGirl Shes's literally my female equal as far as depression and anxiety.She is adorable af though.,1 what is common between chidambaram and george bush,0 cant anymorei wish could stop crying friend leaving even thought promised shed always friend never leave me feeling shell comeback since told loves cant anymore everyday cry matter happens try taking friends kik distract im afraid tell feel wish friend want alone anymore,1 mizzzidc you just dragged your mum in the mud over a sneaker and you talk about depression y all know how to throw this word around carelessly don t you making those who are really depressed look like fool when y all are the real fool,1 wanna play among us care code is abaeeq,0 fed life ask part ofi wanna life cuz situation family put plus put future,1 hi u bored scrollin like moi sooo friends hav discord server r trying get new peoplee chat send memes play games like minecraft among us theres ppl console channel ask opposite sex channel relationship advice anime images ppl europe australia asia too stuff going on commitment guys girls welcome teen baby old man loool dm link d,0 feel sad bye im tired sad rn ffs hate,0 night listener better people generally saying weaknesses seems genre identity crisis doubt think creepy atmosphere intriguing performances make this whole thing feels like one fireside this happened friend friend mine ghost stories one big complaint movie pacing slow sometimes awkward pacing deliberate everything unfolds movie kept well within realm possibility real life sort plods alongno flashy endings earthshattering revelations showdown scenes thank heaven get zone watching movie forget reservations expectations makes conventionallygood movie williams terrific easily meets needs story plus character supposed somewhat generic no one everyman avatar enter story toni collettes performance nominated oscar even maybe win it give shot quality content alone night listener surely top twenty percent movies coming days,0 @snedwan Good luck for today - have fun and don't fall over!,0 honestly want quit reddit makes depressed times ive lost faith humanity idk do want stay also dont,0 struggled ptsd depression physical pain hate fear ect ect ect since left military right deployment mental hospitals rating va issues day goes life think redflag stooping much hurt keep feeling bay time today day afraidish feel confident try attempt life tonight sure mood getting worse every minute passes trying figure call help things consider this last time made call help mental ward topeka ks many months muuuuch longer average stay want go again many reasons one want bring bc nasty catch understand spend days month ward it loose disability month homeless again option swore last time matter what even day ever homeless again deserve this so said reluctant ask help bc feel almost signing life away make little money va anything would fall financial hiccup would crush life know do want stop pain want old life back miss me,1 wanna join pog reddit r rthepogreddit,0 trying help someoneidk right group ask friend making intentional posts social media saying hes close taking life mom took life last month really helped first weeks id devastated took life makes posts time many friends make big effort involve him really try make feel welcome loved parents adopted child still involved life believe hes even living since wife decided separate relationship due depression hes medical professionals treated depression since ive known him depression seems gotten much worse feel helpless torn trying more amount help hes received continues receive dont think theres anyone do,1 record suicidal never been going tell something true story might make think another wayfor background moms friend call susan speaks russian english works translation hospitals youssusan client call sandra living russia sandras son living america told come live there first declined saying russia friends job were while agreed sandra lived here fell deep depression fit in like job would spend lot time watching tv sandra starts feeling suicidal caring life always saying wants die becomes isolated smoking occupying time herself smoking lot while visits friends russia tell sandra worried cough sandra brushes little sideeffect smoking returning yous sandras son expresses concern says thing decide take doctor inoperable incurable stage lung cancerinstantly whole attitude changesthe amount time spent hating life caring regrets it realizes important is has months left live appreciates much moremy point this know going through know feel know push past pain try maybe try hard try hard appreciate life enjoy life regret hating life feeling like matter like sandra did like her come regret iti hope reaches you guides better place advice,1 no matter how many people i talk to my suicidal thought always fester in my mind a problem shared is a problem halved a complete lie i ve told people about my deteriorating mental state yet the burden still weighs on me no amount of talking will ever ease the pain i live though my situation is hopeless and i can only predict a bleak future for me all i truly want is an end to my constant mental anguish i just want peace,1 imagine dogs human hands breakdown help god,0 try guess much try guess much ill yes thing already know somethings comment them fun,0 watched educational contenti know posting this watching educational video borderline personality disorder really got me finally name feeling thinking feel think way relief finally name horrible pain live every lousy day life known wrong little now see put words like video emotionally cathartic me cried really didespecially talked selfharming people bpd express pain inside cant express way sit big ugly scratches arms fading scars past cutting behaviors cry cry still misunderstood mistreated though always purposei still hurt much care muchand emotions always place love hard fall hard life constant cycle loving world hating world hating broken often ok one moment little thing happensomething normal person might even noticeand sends tailspininto darkness selfhating behavior end trying commit redflag rid torment feel constantly trying hurt familyi love them want pain stop want feel anything anymore cant get hurt anymore me fml borderline personality disorderthere grace god go i want die please let die cant stand pain numb yet crying,1 botched eyelid surgery unable close eyesbotched eyelid surgery months ago unable close eyes fully cant sleep cant relax everytime blink feel pain like relentless torture sought several different opinions doctors take seriously suggest eye drops already sigh wanna live like anymore,1 feel like isnt enough posts posting k people online carrying sub hard man,0 someone teach language heyim caroline wanna learn language wanna start anything advanced thocomment interested,0 thinking of my inspiration. wassup!,0 sort depression slump another around years used love talking people exercising writing thing actually enjoy watching tv movies know healthy thing want anymore detached everything else see point much anything work shitty barely minimum wage job cannot even afford live think would really help situation friends anymore could keep contact regularly bc depression kind floated away one vent to barely existing shitty world trying dive deep fiction can feel wearing though comfort get fav characters really scared getting close end thing interested anymore media,1 @oTotallyUniqueo It's been good thanks You?,0 i m losing my best friend one of my friend is about to kill himself another friend is lying to me i m done i can t hold on i just can t i m done i m just so done i m ready to die i ve been ready to die so i m about to write my note and pick a time and day and hopefully i won t be alive much longer,1 like wind lion much good movie thought since im young made long ago like good saw it amazed good was family liked it friends liked it everyone showed liked it liked showed arabs people morroco treated early s germans french even americans high school history teacher would definitely show students high schoolers point view give movie good grandparents liked much bought themselves little year old cousins even sit watched itbr br systemoffell,0 caught film late sat night sunday morning brother drinking one best films ripping apart ever seen luxury ocean liner actually roll on roll off ferry complete cast iron everything doors adhesive stickers saying staff seeing door used something else another scene film rocks continuity poor cant help notice it slaps face holes final scene jumps life boat ferry distance cut son new girlfriend the ships pr director knows kungfu used police dismissed things way trueon ferry going fast away explosion then dad hugging them how cares magic one redeeming feature film casino size large bedroom one casino table chased villains one place hide guessed it enter villains who instead checking one table proceed shoot four fruit machines little corner bar a corner bar casino fantastic walk straight past hiding place thus allowing casper get around take outbr br get mates over get drinks in put film howl,0 @saurabhg Do have a look @ http://www.weboword.com to improve your vocab! 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Thanks!,0 sniff sniff rips roof building mmm smell cabbage rips entire fridge devours contents,0 anyone recognize me ill delete later question wanting attention want know im curious also know something bad good,0 ok stupid question get ears periced ive debating idk,0 tried hang woods todaytook hours find good tree low branch got cuts hands trying climb it got hard cable fastened noose easy enough drop basically tiptoed trying suffocate myself got really angry climbed highest could jumped noose around neck sort worked hung like idiot couple minutes sort fell asleep woke feet touched ground went home take shit yay failure,1 ok found kind music like hows music taste httpslinktospotifycomylkzeapsab jdjsjssjskg hsiswhuf ebdjdhha f fidia du,0 movie takes psychological thriller new depths well written shane black film executed phenomenally cast watchful eye director jack swanstrom clearly swanstrom director look future strength lies adaptation personal experiences screen classroombr br this thoughtprovoking film must see anyone appreciate action drama suspense mystery good films viewer goes journey find individual interpretation movie mystical aspect film intriguing adds suspense find self looking answers along marquette audiences liked movie festival circuit many awards received must agreed awol well worth watching br br id love copy go getting one,0 im tempted to choose death not through a bullet through my head or a rope or some pill but through starvation to test and see if my desire to die really is stronger than my carnal will to live to finally feel alive in my body a i weaken day by day and feel myself shrivel and decay just like how this depression ha been eating away at my mind i want it to symbolically show to be eating away at my body and to die gracefully paper delicate skin and bone lay over the ground carelessly wrapped in a blanket to be kissed by death to know i have a set amount of day left to live the people around me will be alarmed a i visibly start to die before their eye then ill finally see who care for me to atleast experience what it would feel like to not be obese once in my life,1 im losti direction life everyday im loof absolutely nothing,1 guys rteenagers type girl would choose big boobs sexy treats like absolute shit sometimes small boobs treats kindly cares heart,0 life getting better im suicidal ever updatei explained different post got deleted ill skim short make it december started dating girlfriend love lot already joke marriage mutual neglect parents made us love lot get attracted fast december th contemplated redflag point loaded gun head told girlfriend then best friend friend groups goodbye february th bday parents get heated argument moms lack ability sleep due insomnia dad forced sleep familys store february th parents tell getting divorce im scared know legal battle messy sister points ive shown except first one decided kill february th really dont want really dont love girlfriend much live free away parents cant know,1 suicidal person hands keeps talking taking life idea lives fuck doim trying help this gets far theres way point people direction name anymore ex still give fuck lot people borderlining crisis want step line fuck do help without making worse,1 kal penn most confusing hour of my life,0 killing new years dayi made promise ill stick shot got worse scabies worse depression shit even worse ever finally end suffering even family friends grieves better without me everyone something unique them me im uniquely useless,1 i just gave an msu fan a car rental discount he looked so sad i just couldn t turn him away,0 i ve had a severe anxiety problem since i wa i m now i want to make a really good effort to find what the underlying problem causing my anxiety is when i try to think about it i just catch my self thinking very negative thought that are not necessarily true i realise this isnt much to go off for a good answer but i wa wondering what s the best way to really understand what my trigger are they seem random and unprovoked most of the time thank you,1 midnight cowboy rated x original release back scenes understand that little movie joe buck jon voight coming texas new york city become hustler sometimes little disturbing dressed cowboy tries live hustler making money act love work planned guy named rico ratso rizzo dustin hoffman first pulled trick stole money become friends live empty filthy apartment ratso gets sick joe try make moneybr br the movie probably rated x main subject way see strange things editing movie great see dream sequences joe ratso interrupted real world nice sometimes funny way dustin hoffman jon voight supporting actors give great performances especially hoffman delivers fine famous lines score done john barry sounds great makes great movie best picture oscar good reason,0 hate everyone world generaleveryone know trusted let way world worth everyone says liar world giant piece shit hate anything know im good person tried best hate everyone else even get good things life make happy thought living even years world like incomprehensible me every time try right thing liars morally bakrupt people try turn around get even trouble every time tried turn garbage life around get dragged right back down could order hitman kill would it one needs reply fact im expecting anyone to would typical life,1 @EqCollections For sure! I plan to also have an article on TacknTalk about the experience with pictures ,0 addiction since years old years later still relapse addiction makes life unbearable tried therapy help all people talk to want die know longer live shit go people always say gets better ive waiting almost years gotten worse cant even kill yet live alone hell know,1 price even higher told said thats discount im college student apart tuition food things fund thought paying much id least get moneys worth therapy telling redflag family tell probably ocd redflag disorder seem hear rates therapies would take year dynamic therapy preferably times week session able commit want continue second session continued spending nearly minutes saying options seeing psychiatrist taking pills going cbt treat only symptoms seeing dynamic therapist like sessions would take year least see results whats more second clock ticks minutes says nice day sort kicks out im supposed believe person talking money time pay money talk greatest fears gonna help me,1 wonderfulwhen truly place virtual reality bodies sustained suspended minds fed dreams filled whatever heart desires id like think death like cant help feel would like nothingness lack existence hard comprehend existence weve ever known im tired im angry im bitter im hurt want say im numb im things still present im numb joy passion hope never built survive live fantasy world mind everything romanticised everything means something let continue living world til last breath let pretend tell instead tell day even boring tell something like would like matter small like cuddling sofa watching movie rainy day tell healthy passions fantasies,1 @KimKardashian KIM !!! how are you ? sorry for the sun burn lol.... hope your feeling good ....follow me P-L-E-A-S-E !! Big Fan <3,0 i am a male within the armed force and never really got the chance to speak my mind about a lot of thing i wa always told by everyone thats male shouldn t cry or even show a slight a bit of sadness or else it would redeem them weak a little bit if background before the military i wa a person that would always have friend along with people i thought they would appreciate who i am later on bad luck started to come around or at least i thought it wa bad luck to this day i do not have any idea why thing happen around me or people i love it seemed like every week or month or so i would go to a funeral that wa among all my friend i made accident suicide cancer or even by natural cause so far i been to funeral at this point and not able to cry or shed a tear it seems like whenever i try to show an emotion to what ha happened it never doe then people look at me like a monster and think i am a psycho or a robot in reality i am lost in the void of either to try to keep or make more friend eventually i got to enlisting into the military to serve or find a purpose in life and eventually found myself in a deeper hole i remember i had a platoon size or so group of buddy i drank and had fun with a brotherhood many would call it a home away from home that did not really last long one by one they killed themselves due to various amount of situation either it be from a divorce or just pure depression that dragged them to the ground despite all these thing i came to the conclusion that i always will think i am a robot or even a ghost that sens nothing but just what go on non human to the point where at one point i saw them paint their brain on the wall a i walked in to give them a well needed drink my reaction wa nothing and to just calmly report it to the mp on base i am sorry elijah currently in the service still have about two year left my wife at home with the dog i do feel love for both of them but for me not at all i feel guilt in the fact of it all happening like i am the bad luck charm i been seeing what seems like people that i used to speak to and where alive around me at time my old friend that could have been around but aren t i am not much of a paranormal type person but i feel them watching me or even expecting me to join them at some point a heavy weight on my shoulder if you will i can t lose myself in thought or else they are everywhere so i keep it to myself and ruck on but believe me the demon have learned how to swim after i tried drowning them with drinking i keep going in life but what purpose what it be if i keep losing those i love whoever read this thank you to my wife a well i love you and our dog despite my dark situation i don t want my demon to win but they try every night who know if i will ever wake up to see something bright again,1 ever hate personality like always hear people hating looks existence sometimes ill think day get sad realize im good person wanna be anything try better never works im stuck loop lol,0 every rational part believes im retroactively terrified fact almost get live life im living now wish think it keep it like get sick thrill fear redflag like horror movie rollercoaster know feeling way know stop it,1 yeahhhh im tired good night,0 tf still alivei literally tried hard almost succeded btw see brother cut drunk literally reason parents like oh ok get therapy meds stuff literally cut everyday shitty parents like yea skin delicate fucking raped dont care last year something could considered torture didnt even anything bruh,1 i feel so anxious about school and suddenly there are so many people who reaching out to me for help and thing like that my mind just can t seem to calm down i feel like cry and vomitting at the same time but i can t take a break cause of school deadline i just want this madness to stop,1 im doneive decided im ending it want live anymore im tired picked school home much better im sick feeling like this,1 gematria intro lyrics tere teh teh tuh teh tew tew tew tuh tuh toh tuh terew terew ter row teh te tero tere te ro rew x,0 someone indirectly threatening redflag explicitlythis happened past much younger it turned ok didnt know handle then want prepared ever happened again someone texts essentially sounds like theyre saying goodbyes doesnt say anything explicitly still ok call police nonemergency line happened before dad apologizing good enough father saying hopes good life never said goodbye outright didnt say going kill himself still obvious situation respond asking planning kill himself calling police call immediately,1 valdezign hmm this beta of nambu ha ping fm and friendfeed disabled boo,0 still day got biology teacher use gender reveals example something causes wildfire im pretty proud,0 may killed myselfok im diabetic dad is snuck room got insulin took im sure im happy sad im either going go coma die dont know feel,1 look cat httpsimgurcomaykseunq cute,0 think genius lyrics website annotations wondering think annotations,0 slept badly still feel like hell but maybe not a bad a yesterday why am i always ill when i take time off work,0 officialrandl where s the update or have i missed something,0 thoughts jumpingeven though feeling suicidal couple years ago cant help feel compelled make plans sometimes zone like know bridge thinking city would easy jump like barrier kinda short could climb it thing stopping actually going travel time brain committing it like instantly transported location id want wouldnt hesitate jump brain wouldnt time reason wish could that feel lucky dont easy access things like guns country otherwise would long gone things life feel like going fine despite everlasting depression like mostly alright familyfriends new boyfriend however cant help feel intrusive thoughts cant shake,1 liked movie way much problem thought actor playing villain low rent michael ironside corse ironside low rent jack nicholson guess mike busy year highlander quickening sadly beastmaster would much better career move certainly best beastmaster series many ways reminiscent great big screen classic masters universe star incomparable mark singer also features amazing supporting cast specifically second girl sliders uncle phil fresh prince belair evil chick superman rocked world certainly must see anyone social physical outlets beastmaster forever rockn roll,0 English Breakfast in the sun Keep having to remind myself I'm not on holiday. Breakfast then beach ,0 im useless im highly disappointed myself feel frustrated give upim useless even easy things like driving point life realize ill never happy im done give everything im scared keep trying im tired crying time im lot pain right now sadly cant even end life im coward,1 "@florianseroussi well you always write a lot at the start then edit it down! the more you do of this, the easier and better you become! ",0 start first job tomorrow work subway coworker probably definitely user reddit put hands together called woman culture met atla shirt im excited cool coworker amd cool boss good paying job excited hope life keeps getting little better feels good catch nice break excited something also employee punch number lol first job hope awesome ,0 just finished cooking spag bol from scratch in other word been cooking for the past hour i m not hungry anymore,0 want live anymorei moved school due bullying beginning year im really struggling im mental health issues long time felt like tell anyone it moved mother made doctors appointment case actually ended confessing self harm frequent suicidal thoughts although say reason im dead fear death ended sent crisis mental health unit night multiple appointments since able open since quarantine happened suicidal thoughts happen constantly im actually working kill myself ive stated before really difficult time sharing feelings think either parents im scared know do plan kill really need help know get from talking anyone home phone question ive googling redflag methods picked out,1 At the gym...gettin my workout on ,0 im hyped afmy ballot next week one last thing check checking out,1 "@UKIP @Jacob_Rees_Mogg @theresa_may @UKHomeopathyReg Autism just means that the brain is wired differently and so it is sometimes possible to rewire the brain through a number of different ways. Prolonged homelessness, depression etc all rewire the brain in some way so that it resembles an autistic brain. Homeopathy cured my dog.",1 masterpiece snow white cinderella bambi sweet enjoyable romantic welldone disney animated featurebr br there are course lessons included herein kiddies appropriate kiddiecheek plenty herein adults wellbr br while somewhat regurgitation classic disney romcom adventure still holds elements solely belong aristocats omalley tramp dutchess lady dutchess several kittens trying get homebr br phil harris tomcat omalley may recognize voice also furnished voice baloo bear jungle book little john disneys robin hood eva gabor lends silky sweet voice dutchessbr br directed wolfgang reitherman directed worked on every disney animated film worth mentioning death br br this among favorite disney animated feature films belongs disney collection disk special edition due summer br br this rates frombr br the fiend ,0 so far i have veiws on all my site put together most of them were me checking out the update i made,0 m close committing redflag againim tired ignored constantly one understanding problem answer help anyone give im doomed ive wanted someone love isnt going happen try best confident nice people usually ignore dont reply dont want live life without experiencing feel love maybe overdose pretend dreams,1 want rest head lap fade awayi dont want anymore came back many years gave feeling hope that maybe remembered much loved wanted back true happy ive never since left told broke growing bond sorry sorry sorry full regret every second years endured without you pain came back eased mind fade nothingness ruined know future us cant take anymore painful know cause meant meant life years alone told everything afraid die alone could rest head lap fade away id die way never alive happy,1 clarianne knot serious april 9th isn t coming soon enough,0 m i had extreme anxiety depression year of my short life i spent in a bedroom avoiding human contact at all cost didn t show up for family event had 0 friend cancelled every appointment someone else made for me to keep it short i seen no light at the end of the tunnel i realized the mental destruction wa all within myself it took me year of dark endless thought to realize that anyone in the same position please consider this if you are stuck in a bedroom move it will change you for the better go for walk get comfortable going to the grocery store get out the comfort zone you are in amp you will become a better person my dream seemed so far fetch but to others it wa normal life force yourself god ha a plan for everyone on this earth and that includes you,1 my guys are the best. we'll be laughing all night ,0 keep secreti think might literally insane felt stars fall sky last night wish here dream there better doesnt seem thats case anymore keep relying people things save me doesnt work guys fyi might little bit sucks get high life drop back down drop distance really disorients you kinda wish never started get better because depressed before got used numbed out right old wounds feel open wanna grab razor make skin match im getting old shit guys im half year dont want circles getting better anymore rest life theres point kinda realize going get better,1 Checking my Buzznet From 2 yrs. Withoit Checking It.. LOL ,0 @lezizzle u should call the next photo album "i got plenty monayyyy!!" hahahah ,0 tired ready everything now life pointless painful suffering exhausting know afterlife hopefully spirit somehow finds peace finally rest honest would rather know ever existed all want everyone forget me terrible lifebye maybe fail sure inform intact failure status probably going tonight,1 im saying is youre amazing everyone loves adores,0 apology for the random burst and then lack of video been in a really wanky depression hole that i need to crawl out of a bit,1 guys remember post much lgbt stuff subreddit uh yeah im sure made,0 days ago swallowed bunch pills thinking would kill me noti drank least cups pesticide kill mei tried cut wrist hurt muchi scared tired waking disappointedi tried drink pipe cleaner end burning mouth mad swallowing it cannot even kill properlyi want call brother scared get annoyed me want bother anymore even speak mouth hurtsi scared tired coward want family stop disappointed me scared,1 question girls tampons technically butt plugs,0 "@k_griffiths There was a good atmos. I decided to stay til closing, very funny! ",0 "Good music 2listen to while thinking: Imogen Heap. She has such GREAT style, as well. Her voice just puts you in the mood 2dream. ",0 matter famous are much have friends family really things never satisfy someone even rich everybody pleases you isnt same one would understand nobody understand whats going someones mind probably want happiness before something others simply keep you prevent killing yourself even money satisfy you actors streamers get lot donations arent satisfied earthly desires know got hospital trying kill acetaminophen overdose nearly died family saved me didnt notice me didnt girlfriend see feel pity come back me time time feel depressed coming back might decide real time end help girlfriend pay debts credit card used things dont keep happy anymore grateful tried much right im tear type message might go strip later try get covid might go mt charleston tie noose around head grateful lord everything sometimes dont understand anymore,1 came back from running and took a shower why doe my lower stomach still hurt after exercising,0 i ve had a rough week with anxiety and one day i realized it s because i fear rejection judgment and i feel like i need to be perfect for some reason that made me feel worse the next day that same day i heard my best friend friend make fun of somebody stutter and he didn t realize i have a stutter i realized it s so easy to talk badly behind people back and that made me feel even worse i started asking myself how do i know who i can truly trust and i started asking myself if certain family member or coworkers would do this and if they devalued me a a person a i wa doing this i thought i feel crazy a couple day passed and i realized anyone can make fun of anyone about anything disability sexuality religion appearance etc this made me calm and i started to go about my business and forget about this stuff and then someone commented on a post i made about it and said they had a similar thought that lead to psychosis and paranoia psychosis is one of my biggest fear and a soon a i read that i wa on the edge of a panic of attack and it took a good 0 0 minute to get off of that edge ever since then my stomach ha hurt and i ve been so anxious and now i can t shake this thought it went from what if others talk badly behind my back to what if i believe they talk badly behind my back i know since i m worried i ll go crazy that s a good sign but since this thought wasn t originally formed by ocd doe that mean it s the onset of psychosis or doe the fact i fear it so much even if it wasn t cause by ocd mean i m still pretty sane or will i become paranoid no matter what now i legitimately feel crazy now and i can t calm down,1 deserve hurt im weak im liar cunt bitch pathetic ashamed ruined childhood early childhood neighbor repeatedly raped friend stuck horrible custody battle later preteens stepmom starved dad let happen mum got custody dad killed himself thats ex stepdad began touching me even let sons it mum believe did ex stepbrother would verbally abuse mum let happen years developed bpd get fights mum bf run away times homeless twice cant keep jobs keep cycling cannot maintain outside relationships let ex boyfriends beat name bdsm cruel first one withheld affections cheated constantly crawled like dog even made shave head second one misogynist racist made pretend child sex thing common older men im pathetic daddy issue bitch live nothing else besides attention older men used live fo r art spiritualitybut know everything secondary want older man lov me odnt care anything else want know like cherished loved older man ts like held if dont get soon ill end all time real bc worthless bpd cunt deserve brutal punishment wan fucking die,1 anyone feel like life force throati feel like everything life force upon im forced act way way im forced go school im forced work job passion im forced smile im forced cry im forced get married kids im forced mostly everything ask honest dont want allmaybe eating forced upon maybe hobbies forced upon menothing good nothing enjoyable life enjoyable wake morning i feel like im damn forced wake go workampschool place hate i want sleep forever thats something desire yet still need feel depressed years wow,1 sort liked columbo movie atmosphere real thriller like approach even times reminded filmnoir movie first minutes so really nice done good old fashioned way right camera angles use light mean instantly movie brilliant one though solid enough consider good late columbo movie entry definitely better movie average later columbo movie entrybr br years previous columbo movie appearance george hamilton returns play main lead opposite peter falk murderer total different new role course liked role good columbo villain gave good old lieutenant good competition nice sequences together problem modern new columbo movies always sort feature good well known actor opposite peter falk movie obviously suffer problem must say though movie feature peter falk best certainly played character better performance quite consistent enough within movie probably also due movie director daryl duke also directed really dreadful movie taipan among many projectsbr br it rather good enjoyable story fact sort plot cover murder used earlier columbo movie also help course got used movie columbo playback nevertheless course also still plenty enough original moments story even though course essence every columbo movie less same oh well made columbo series great consistent aint broke fix itbr br it also true within movie clues usual left lieutenant mean movie murderer stupid sloppy see writers overly enthusiastic others make movie story bad fact perhaps even makes enjoyable see columbo hard work discovering kind small important clues luckily movie also filled enjoyable effective relieving columbocomedybr br simply good late columbo movie entrybr br ,0 @heath7s LOLOLOL i love a man in uggs. ,0 woah buckarooo make one damned girl bad boy funny memes im gonna hand one way ticket supersargasso sea,0 cannot even get form support them seem love playing victim even find point taking anymore wonder not whenever talk parents problems somehow make,1 sorryi really hope dont mean im tired,1 help buy russian blue cat made fiverr account ask help android apps,0 ever choked blushing looks like seizure just wondering anyone else experienced phenomenomenon,0 hello everyone go ahead leave comment sort ill best say something kind you im working positivity recovering family issue id appreciate could help out,0 want kill myselfsup folks title accurate ive sad felt worthless years want someone talk rn really want finally tonight thank god liquor making brave enough actually,1 hope pillows warm today archenemy uintelligent_idiot one fall wont rise king,0 know fact depressed teenager friends slept time could think suicideso always parameter used measure emotional state life always thought i feeling bad felt years must depressed even suicide popped mind therei going therapy last years came mind ask therapist ever depressed since going there told am depression comes many forms case sometimes positive events make snap it brief periods time back iti sad feel sickness years put many obstacles life never happy guess depression talkingi took appointment go see psychiatrist want official diagnosis and free country scared taking meds feel hopelesstldl sad time depressed look signs found depressed time,1 countdown time 21 days til 21 ,0 last dayim thinking ending everything tomorrow th march completes circle i find satisfying reasonon birthday ill dont know feel like thats end,1 trigger warning racism do you know these situation where you react insecure and passive although you feel extremely uncomfortable year ago i wa out with a group of people one wa a friend of mine and a few of them were more or le acquaintance so there wa this guy who got drunk and he started making black joke i am mixed race half german and half afro american he became really offensive and insulting he said stuff like oh i m going to say it in your language and then he did those click sound which are common in african khoisan language he wa trying to act like oh i m just joking don t take me serious but he wouldn t stop i felt so uncomfortable and i wa really angry but i wa also insecure i wa giggling nervously and just wanted to change the topic but he kept making stupid joke about me in the end i paid my drink and went home but i acted like everything wa fine it s been year and i can t stop thinking about it i keep overthinking of how i should have reacted and i feel so ashamed of myself whenever i remember this situation tbh what disappointed me the most wa that nobody really said anything someone at the table just said oh just ignore him he s an idiot and they laughed a few day later someone told me that everyone felt really uncomfortable yet no one said anything i feel like it s difficult for me to let this go and it took me a almost year to realize how bad this situation actually wa maybe someone can relate or made a similar experience,1 relapsedi used suicidal younger actually attempted onceactual attempt failed attention nobody knows even today somehow managed pull together reset actually get stable life ive got stable job debt decent work relationships cant really say ive got close connections anyone though thats whats killing believe important thing life broke ex months ago we really match well lol months ago met someone online game ive talked months straight everything every day talked stuff normally never open anyone theyve decided play others basically whatever gone like thats major failures within months me making realise im easily replaceable people get bored quick supposed live knowing people dump like that see purpose this open people exact reason times years did cases went shit im fucked likeable guess first time years first redflag attempt thinking thoroughly actually want die see point anymore,1 paris place enjoy beautiful art music fall madly love case film boy meets girl fall love something stands way eternal happiness classic storybr br the wonderful music george gerschwin complements great dancing gene kelly leslie caron an american paris humorous lighthearted loving film well worth watchingbr br br br ,0 been sat for minute listening to breathing apps and doing dare mediation it really exhausting,1 "Relaxing before guests come, hope everyone likes the food ( I know Morton won't) have made plain rice for him ",0 quick need name girl likes spiders little much also sleeping arsonist wack okay,0 anyone else wish could see many hours spent minecraft ive playing since really wish could see long played im going guess around hours lol,0 im scared come years im supposed university like think everything sorted mere thought actually becoming responsible member society makes anxious am good enough something ask every day without finding answer try making answer try to simply get distracted keep failing come terms fact maybe im best could be maybe ill never since place mental state live in constant fear living expectations dissapointing parents two younger siblings look since im oldest ever competing family see who best way want live im tired many times ive suicidal thoughts simply push aside since matter do need keep going forward even feel like crying no cry help trying accept reality push forward again like many times before years im supposed university know life,0 real suppleroot hours up weekend gotten good start,0 i ve been struggling with depression for a long time now but i just my first severe instance of depersonalization and it scared me so badly i m not even entirely sure why but something about the fact that i just spent over an hour lying on the floor feeling like my body didn t really belong to me and i might not be real is so extremely unsettling to me i feel more mentally and physically myself now and just trying to process what happened is really difficult if anyone ha any kind of comfort or advice about depersonalization i d appreciate it,1 tomorrow shall attempt reaching freedomit took lot convincing courage post this goes cant take torment anymore dealing mental illnesses years mother damaged further dad left behind soak mothers nearlyconstant rage years ago started seeing therapy parents fighting diagnosed array illnesses panic disorder anxiety depression schizoaffective disorder soon that dad take fighting anymore left twin mother live somewhere else mother still mad leaving us behind without financial support still letting fury me im scared live decent day long time cant go day without auditory hallucinationspanic attacks andor getting yelled sometimes even hit attempted redflag twice past overdoses first time hardly affected second time close cigar attempted redflag since two years ago thank best friend two years managing give reason live shame hardly contact anymore miss much almost much dad thankfully ill get see dad one last time tomorrow birthday say last time plan attempt redflag way tried two times manage succeed well guess mother finally happy waste space around anymore bothering inch life sister worry ruining plans panic attacks and dad least hell happy around mother anymore guess hope best friend miss much is doubt hell heal quickly succeed hope get thrown away hospital like last time hospital made worse gained habit staying several nights end there everyone scared there traumatized event vivid nightmares almost every night horrid place succeed want go back hellhole school ever since people heard go hospital people called horrible names friends left feared friends someone a freak mentally unstable want face ridicule im sorry bother ill update anyone wants know fail chicken out thank spending time listen,1 i don t know why but i am convinced that i am a horrible person and a burden to everyone like i am convinced that i hurt people all the time and i don t know how to get rid of that thought,1 ik already posted think view count reddit id like see many people actually view posts profile would interesting think leave without leaving single comment dummbbb id like track whod interact postssss ahh,0 "lmaooo I had another bookstore dream and this time my brain imagined a teeth-related display,"" including a """"Teeth of the Great Depression"""" photo book. (Even stranger"", it was a spin-off of Peter Jennings' coffee table book THE CENTURY.)",1 question if even how question wheni get lazy ass it ive loitered around shit life long,1 finally sincerely need them appears ash broken now meant therehi internets id like think kind one another area last decade some thanks part that today different though way one way another desperate minimize collateral damage feel safe way out right live city apartment exits ive found hanging travel hanging sketches id balcony people would see travel back homestate easily purchase suitable means fact already much storage someplace lately cant tie shoes clean catbox getting ass onto plane train automobile stretch hoped might help refine plans rules changed certainly reading pms account toomuchcrazy already one problems since needed happen reason make totally pointless likely event plan b balcony tomorrow apologize heart see something hurtful them hope helps moment peace different story love bye,1 decided commit redflag tonighti hit rock bottom never gets better im year old woman already feel old moment filled suffering hope finally get peace death good luck all,1 sad hey whoevers reading this making post sort rant cant really talk anyone know whatever im posting here feeling shit tbh like every part life thought holidays would help sort everything whatnot nothing tbh hate school im somewhat smart get good marks math science recently theyve decreasing cant stand going tho numerous reasons best friend smart like top student smart parents cant go minute without comparing us im still rly good friends make feel like cutting bonds him social life abysmal mainly bc doing besides friend school like others know dont really care abt me days sit studying watching anime relationship parents really gone hill last year took serious turn worst weeks mother refused talk father talked school work one point mother wanted kick reasons im still unsure led developing unhealthy habits little self harm mainly eating addiction assume put lot weight september started gyming uncles garage would train everyday months making good progress better worse father forced stop wasnt body needed apparently response started eating shit ton again october girl knew months time started dating ended ghosting essentially countrys another lockdown easy her affected pretty badly still think everyday imagine things add pretty sad ive jumped telling suck move saying deserve happy sometimes got rona recently damn get wrong time sit bed day nothing know im feeling sorry post mess thx took time read hope u guys good,0 finished first month second year im biggest fan school nice see friends and teachers extension ig idk nice get back sense normality,0 probably watched movie times every time get impressed far wish young heart go strenght kai gertha struggle believe inbr br and whole story presented way get transfered plot know it there see yeah theres kai working hard mirror little jump theres gertha fighting love theres snow queenbr br its wonderful mix love adventure tensionbr br its brilliant ,0 rubyrose awww wish i could go but it in sydney,0 hard sadi wish could save all,1 hi yall im m wanna get dmd ppl bcs love talking others,0 musafir from parwaz hai junoon really trigger my depression and anxiety,1 "Well, I wish I could talk about our own depression and anxiety during our own journey in our own new places. Yet....Ah, never mind.",1 dont feel goodcan someone help ive made nooses im alone,1 @brendonuriesays http://twitpic.com/3mr7r - bden its that your new puppy he so cute i love this pic,0 engaging movie camera early century must figured potential early on good story playboy type needs money inadvertently sells soul satan lot money unfortunately soul double must confront frequently tearing life apart wonderful scenes people fading and course scenes two stage time middle part bit dull faustian story always minds viewer one thing mention general unattractiveness people movie also pretty much shied away much action would least given life thing first made aware movie years ago finally able see it disappointed,0 tomorrow day tonightlove wish luck maxxymax,1 likes back boys thats it thats post get poggers chat,0 "Darwin - Mitsubishi - Pajero 4x4 Dohc 24 V6 3500 - 1997 - $7,999 - new ad received and will be posted on the HCC site soon ",0 my mind and body are severely protesting this quot getting up quot thing had nightmare to boot,0 ok stop addicted candies like if type stop till morefor example toffifee simply cant stop filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 @damjanov aww hehe.. drop us a line when you are up here again ,0 in genting now but i now at gohtong jaya using com,0 @katiazev Save the filakia for some hot blond Scandinavian boy later this summer. The invation from the north is coming soon. ,0 Best idea ever! Peanut butter AND syrup on pancakes! ,0 shit logged instagram deactivating cant deactivate thats shit wait like weeks deactivate fuck sake hands keep fucking shaking know,0 @mizfox7 just like that u did it!,0 really want go kill right now think im going toim gonna go sit parking lot shirt clog exhaust thing want die idk long itll take im sorry havent able say things wanted family im sorry didnt get take pictures phone see everything ive taken years cause dont social media dont upload anywhere wanted something remember theyll nothing crying hard,1 there wa a problem with your picture,0 someone tell love please fucking care actually love me need hear it fucking done right now want kill myself live one person hold onto think close letting go please someone tell love,1 got first math today filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 welp im back square onemy girlfriend broke mins ago dont really know do person could talk problems pretty much fighting for care nobody really talk it,1 @lucylocket007 Thanks so much ,0 i m year old and i wish i wa born into a traditional family like the american family we see in movie a close knit and loving family not necessarily rich but with enough money to have a comfortable life travel with family on vacation christmas eve dinner etc but i wa born in a third world country where there is not much possibility of being rich and people are not a educated and refined a in first world country nor is there a high human development index my family is disunited there is no affection between u and we barely have enough money to survive but the biggest dream of my life is to one day have a family like the one i mentioned before united loving rich and happy i really want to have at least one daughter and a wife and on vacation we travel together to fascinating place go on a safari in south africa see lion elephant giraffe up close climb the andes mountain range embark on a transatlantic cruise in short many adventure and family memory also for this purpose i m already studying several language through apps but given my current situation all this seems to me to be nothing more than an impossible dream it s a if i look in the mirror and see that my true image is completely different from how i would like it to be it s like a beggar in rag looking at a rich man in a suit and envying his life i m studying software engineering at college and it give me a little hope that maybe i ll get a good job move to a better place maybe a first world country take my family with me and there i can make my dream come true but speaking like that it seems like i m dreaming too high it seems that this life i dream of having is not for me and i should just to accept my third world life is it possible for me to have the life i want or should i confirm myself with a mediocre and unhappy life i m not to give up on my life anyway i ve dealt with severe depression and existential crisis before,1 The five stages of grief 1.) Denial2.) Anger3.) Bargaining 4.) Depression5.) AcceptanceI'm still at number 1 #AvengersInfinityWar,1 head got bashed by a door today,0 hate muchi wish someone else alternatively and preferably wish never existed all,1 "So on my to the airport AGAIN!! Lookin 4ward to BCN n Sonar, will b gr8 2 have a few days to chill b4 the party madness ",0 down the shore in the morning ,0 ugh stupid bug in spamassassin rule qa backend discovered it s going to take some fixing at some point adding to the todo list,0 borderline bad borderline diagnoseall life screwed upi feel like hope mei want go sleep taken meds think want alive anymorelooking someone talk anything need distract thoughts,1 @comeagainjen http://twitpic.com/2y2lx - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zoGfqvh2ME8 ,0 tired fighting tired feeling worthless tired struggling give up done waiting end feels like come ready die feels like forced stay here want set free want anymore,1 @Dili | thank you * huge hugs * ,0 "@shannonweiley hi Shannon! Movies are unrelated to raw, actually. please go to http://www.barufilms.com for more info about my films.",0 "Morning tweeps and peeps, all ready for a trip to the hospital, this will be such a fun day! hmmm... hope everyone's well this morning ",0 penndbad send me the dvd co i have missed out on heap not happy about that,0 thinking commiting redflag cousins birthday lying bedim guy cousin girl ive thinking making jokes using redflag bag around cousin actually it think would traumatise all much better me job perfect boyfriend knows social also amazing football player feel like plays knowing im gone shell play even better happy im gone really want become friends cousin cousin enough ask wants come music festival i pay ticket costs also buy gift birthday less two months wants friend this end it however still want friend know do except ending using exit bag however know sad im gone shell probably happy male cousin left want make cousin happy never wants friend planet anymore would probably satisfy her dont know however good idea birthday birthday want bed too maybe shell think itll ruin it shell think dream come true none us going live forever either way one day nothing done matter thing is never said i want friend know want friend always says busy want hang out friends reasons guess cousin want friend first off im ugly second guy though guy friends judging photos instagram girls also guess bit age difference im turning summer become adult able drink cousin lives cousin likes go drink friends sometimes ive sometimes seen social media at least removed snapchat im also good socialising im friends usually keep saying stupid shit get lucky oppurtunity cousin say lot know lot say come stupid redundant basically think least little bit say something cousin comparison friends friends guys age cousin told want hurt myself im sure says maybe something learned school something aunt think shed traumatised either died,1 id really grateful feedback please idea behind articles helpful find homepage series url ill post article theyre published someone finding useful looking forward constructive feedback,1 went to see wolverine ,0 awkward umm female classmate came house know nothing herand first thing shes house homeworkso enter room play switchbut im scared thinks impolite thatand rlly dont feel comfortable havent said single wordi dunno,0 protected im currently junior high school im feel like ive wasted life think issue parents parents essentially control every aspect life im allowed use social media do want see everything post like follow im using reddit website phone clear history using time parents dont even let play multiplayer games xbox ps cant even play friends without sit right listen say them cant go anywhere without texting parents arrive location also track phone find iphone theyve forced im studying place work clubs join essentially dont use email anything dont even control bank account either friends ive never girlfriend want kill myself im older im going never speak parents never visit them issue,0 I have severe depression,1 @BrandonBarash present soon in the mail. I promise it will be something nice. I think I found something. Just gotta get done with school ,0 watching video plane crashes comments someone talking tragedy someone responded get bitch happened years ago wat,0 know want die whenive chosen specific bridge want end life ive visiting every days past months standing looking spot body lay peace usually smoke listen music standing hours sometimes dont know ill finally it maybe next week next month maybe even tomorrow idk keep letter bag case decide impulsively one day dont know im waiting tbh wish could grow pair get with,1 misselizabeth food allergy suck i became allergic to shellfish about month ago out of the blue and i used to love shrimp,0 i am just one step from committing suicide there isn t much left that keep me alive but in reality i want to life i want to be happy but i can t do it anymore nothing ever change,1 first appointment psychiatrist gp referred me problem appointment weeks getting worse day day eat barely sleep nothing day every day feels longer one before referred beginning july unable function since may steadily going day day cope wish quiet peace wish could sleep way through cope,1 "@jgreenkee88 Funny, I was just looking at that the other day. Thanks for the reminder. ",0 chop shop written directed ramin bahrani man push cart bahrani specializes character driven studies naturalist style films sort little people get passed every day without anyone ever really noticing there new york br br these people pushed fringe society exist sort grey world many migrants whose legal status america appears somewhat doubtful come get cope end feel good stories such stories survival basic day day level br br ale one street kid education hustles anyway can save money also beyond turning petty theft mostly anxious reunited older sister see early scenes ringing safe house looking her real success young friend carlos gets job chop shop shadows shea baseball stadium eventually older sister comes live site him jealous motives friends suspicious makes extra money dreams buying food van setting vending business older sister br br bahrani shoots films location nothing glossy glossed them life people live it raw lt pretty although never ominous slightly despairing air hangs much film one hangs peoples everyday livesbr br the script also natural characters given plenty scope room work in polanco outstanding lead role gonzalez gives solid support older sister,0 writing i made when i wa really unhinged and on the brink i m okay now but just thought i d share because i feel like it s okay writing no instruction or specific included it s mostly poetic and broad i think i m going to go for a drive a nice long drive not to clear my head but to say goodbye say goodbye to that lovely wind that touch my face a i push my hand out through the window and dance with the gust a it glide and surf through the earth breath say goodbye to the random song i used to love that turn on on the radio that i had forgotten from a time of pure bliss goodbye to the really pretty white cloud that are shaped so smoothly a it contrast the bright blue say goodbye to the nice feeling i get in my body a a smile slowly creep in my face by this time i plan to have my note already written out all sitting neatly folded in my pocket this is no time for emotional anguish or the opening of floodgate of all distraught that s already been done with the ink that lie on those paper all my pain all my misery they re all tucked away in my pocket gone from my body my leg my face my eye my throat my breath i feel free free of chain that brought my neck so bent over the ground that feel so grey free from all thing holy and unholy a sort of satisfaction for a coward dy a thousand death and i am no longer scared i m going to redacted park to hike one last time to say goodbye to that long river that flow across the center to the tall tree that shaded enough sun to keep you warm yet comfortable i think i will do it there somewhere i ve never felt any sadness it s been many year of pain so maybe the last thing i ll do on this earth is smile,1 For with God nothing shall be impossible. - Luke 1:37 ^One everybody should know. ,0 stp turning cuties mme cn acknowledge bad move please guys cringe also maybe insensitive,0 "@tommcfly tom, i need you here in brazil! when you come again? i heard that you're back in october, is true? Xx",0 im actually alonethis fucking stupid cant talk anything believe trust me thinks fucking perfect said dont say want die me told kill him said mean much would kill asshole think lie finally got phone back many tests doctors past week feel hot sick threw much want die guys honestly know feel alone cant talk someone love cant tell things fucked relationship looking need else where want die please wanna kill fucking much,1 elisebeth comstock best videogame ally fight this useful asfk unlike allies never gets way great lines likeable asfk,0 Let's just hope I don't go into a temporary depression after the game tonight. We all know I don't get outta bed and can't eat for 2 weeks when that happens. Let's. Fucking. Go. Bruins.,1 @Wordee Follow us so we can contact you! ,0 insanitygirlfriend broke me put alot feelings onto suppressed problems tell about said needed time is dating someone else dont know expected anything different continue fucked around with cast aside walk forward stumble im tired getting back up people work telling kill ask help basic tasks supposed friends abandoning time need wrists blank slates carvings among them know am alone hollow pariah amongst living feel dead join dead pain go away life gift cant give someone else know people around would devastated ive seen anything years replaced temporary mourning continuation life strength strength death death hope,1 feels like worst couple months lifebut nothing bad happened me fact things looking ever im succeeding ever have still feel like designed fail love routine dread waking mine much work with ill never able bring put use know im alone wish was anything dont get life gets better miserable get cant tell whether think deserve less make sense dont want bright future dont want future all,1 need gunmy entire life big fuck up parents got divorced go dads house would abuse physically mentally im im close falling school people care me people tell get better every day get gets even worse almost everyday wish abortion one moms periods die car crash going attempt redflag need gun make sure survive tried going therapists thry make see end life lot time friends make fun religion really blame them weight pounds stub penis hope die mom dad see message terrible parents are anyone owns gun really need one thanks,1 feel like aliveits always one thing next im turning twenty two months ever since kid torn everyone everything theres nothing left great boyfriend guess thats something hes everything though today dear jesus forgot turn oven came back home work smoke filled house hes pissed hug tell loves anything cold shoulder hurts favourite person hurts more want alive want keep going know walks stairs hes going say working already rocky definitely going push edge cant deal anymore heartbreak ive hurt far many times stop always one thing another cant this something stupid comes downstairs says loves me im anymore what want feeling guilty possibly leaving reason want live im sick fuckup everyone around gets hurt annoyed angry im sick making others miserable me cant it always one thing next,1 i have been on prozac since maybe september last year before prozac i wa on lexapro and i wa given the highest dose of that and it worked at first and then my anxiety started up really bad again out of nowhere so i wa switched to prozac and honestly i don t feel like i ve noticed a difference especially recently i ve been getting bad anxiety attack that have worsened the past couple month i haven t had attack this bad in month it s honestly the worst ha anyone else experienced this where it feel like nothing is helping your anxiety i just want to be better my mind feel like a mental prison also doe anyone have any tip or trick that have helped calm them during an anxiety attack,1 i just don t care anymore i don t care what happens anymore just fucking kill me i m done i don t have the will to do this anymore i realize no matter what i do my life will always get worse so i should just do it and get it over with i tried i waited year for it to get better but that s not going to happen my health is shit my mental health is shit and my mind just keep processing way to get the job done i wish i would have drowned asa child because than i wouldn t know this pain and i d have le to leave behind i would have at least had some level of hope before departing but life a bitch and then you die i know the end will come before the end of this year but now i m certain the timeline ha been moved up more like month maybe it will be today maybe tomorrow i don t know yet but i won t see because i have no desire to live that long i don t care anymore this whole world s a poorly written joke anyways where some will struggle till death and others will constantly have thing work out than the asshole will tell you oh it get better well i ve waited long enough and i m done playing this game i don t care anymore i know i have undiagnosed ptsd and i know who is responsible and that they ll never be punished i can barely even get people in my own family to believe me about the cause i m so tired of this world so tired of everything i have no use for a god so i can only ask of nature no matter what label i give it the request is the same please kill me and return me to the earth leaving behind not even a memory erase every trace of my existence and make everyone forget me that is my only wish at this point,1 whats good way earnsave money high school say parttime job type part time job think good,0 @Jezhughes Great Sounds like he's doing well. Just been chasing a gecko round the kitchen - fun and games ,0 axios trump interview blocked damn near everywhere part ampxb videoakwgpzingf ill link others theyre uploaded ,0 dogs go heaven plays canine criminal underworld film delight children comical darkbutsatisfying happyending storyline plenty song dance features outcast charlie fellow canine criminal murdered returns dead meets homeless human girl looks him relationship realizes meaning life selfsacrifice cute animation loved much eyes child would highly recommend film children im unsure adults would react it i tried watch years ago vhs recordings last long they,0 death mean parents toxic relationship come endi m shouldve never born family honestly enough fights time relationship grew toxic fight cannot focus anything come third world country nothing this therapy police support academic rigor simply dropped past weeks cannot sleep fights cannot study fights grades arent enough escape country im study here ive stay house face fights fights influenced life beyond measure friends dont know movies friends like eating friends like know constantly publicly ignored feels like,1 family kinda lowkey sucks wont rant much lowkey think mom trying make starve family aloud use technology table eat lowkey gonna eat much anymore,0 sloth isliye call nahi kiya baad me thinking ki ab to tu movie dekh raha hoga,0 nmcgivney yeah ploughed around there last night but nothing happening,0 bored cant sleep ill answer anything reply ill probably delete morning cares,0 ha anyone used benadryl for anxiety attack i started using this because i refuse to be on benzos and find it work just enough to make it more manageable and wanted to know if others did too,1 adolfengelbrec bakang seretse s lawyer long called tautona gore ate go testify and that wa the end of npf case nna re unemployed all you do is worsen our depression sometimes it s better shut up cz you re part of the cartel that is robbing this country hao harologane nabo,1 heres debate violent video games reduce violence irl im debate competition motion house believes violent video games lead violent acts young audiences figured would help banvideogames subreddit its good rn time commit violent acts were angry frustrated commiting violent acts game vent emotions game instead real world say example doomyou know drill like bfg division might say video games culture really toxic people speaking mic speaking face two different things friends literally gang ban minecraft server bad mood next day words say stood let run mouth i feel like letting way thing thats think cyberbullying problem know treat properlymy opinion guys might know something dont someone please improve post elsewhere im good writer started debate,0 need talk someonei cant deal life anymore wanna kill self,1 i wa texting my friend about something going on in life i wrote a fucking paragraph about it and how s it making me feel and what not and i got word back i m here for you the thing is i said i don t even think there s a point and she said whatever i can t help just go away i ficking hate people when they need me im always there but when i need them i m just a fucking burden but whatever i m a fucking idiot every time i need someone they are not here for me but anytime someone need me i am wtf did i do,1 is feeling terribly sick right now,0 today lent crush jacket ran home raining making total times ive made wet yes realize im stealing umbrella joke fit situation are,0 I have just eaten sooo much tacos!!! Omg I can´t stand...my tummy is going to kill me Haha...guess I can only blame myself for this.,0 recently saw iq even though im romantic comedy type gal think nice sweet movie watch many movies opinion lack honesty know feeling watching movie feel robbed taking something story like director threw together like trash story scientists sweet funny one stuck together tried help tim robbins character become smart liked love story tim meg simple brought good point comes love nothing seems would recommend sunday morningbr br ,0 self hatred driving insanevent cant anymore cant give life ill never never able create genuine relationship cuz keep isolating people hate it idk cant let people cant everytime think want rip apart wish get gun done it dont reason live dont know experience feeling truly care someone always wonder born first placei never asked born know life isnt me even knew wont even worth time cuz im pretty quiet uninteresting most even family would consider that,1 every little inconvenience makes want kill myself trying hard become robot stop ability feel ignore fact likely never happy again cry everyday reality hits me even fucking deserve thisi even people kill rape get away it worst crime probably stealing pencil friend fair man kid think ever mature pace would give anything stop crying,1 why i have to think about thing i am thinking about is this a punishment what did i do to you you are torturing me exactly why i have to think about death existence hollowness loneliness unwanted people like me and why are some more popular then others i have no friend so i have to talk to myself the worst person alive i hate this person he is only negative doesn t like anything why i see only one solution there is nothing but hollowness for u this is place for popular talkative handsome and over all good people so maybe next time i will be luckier i hate my mind and myself,1 whats rebellious illegal stupid thing ever done teenager fake tickets i print countrys tickets dollars look stores serve children if country small stores and bought things forged total dollarsin country worth more even money wanted feel adrenaline also stole expensive pens supermarkets next week stole backpack worth dollars karma bitch know anyone done stupid things,0 wanna get hit car badi wanna die dont wanna kill would hurt loved ones much dont deserve wanna die quick painless dont want anyone feel guilty cant accidentally fall building something dont fucking know whats way kill without hurting anyone,1 samshepherd darn i don t seem to be very good at this,0 feeling heart horny shitty ngl guys want theres discord server talk advice getting gfs fun stuff interested checking theres link profile cant post discord links thats fine nice day ,0 people ruining fitness methey say stuff like eating healthy working expand lifespan years geez wanted,1 everything feels fine fine enoughits first post reddit hopefully im right english native language ive struggled depression whole life irregular way im constantly switching feeling super fine feeling depressed suicidal long period time months year so last depressive episode occured winter lot going life dropped classes lost boyfriend live dads toxic environment lot handle take it months since ive started considering healed fine again im meds anymore im lot stuff seing lot friends travelling started working freelance artist living again city deeply love passionate again even crush someone seems interested am im super active getting stuff done everything can honestly first time good episode feels great im pretty optimistic positive general yet feel fine enough still constant suicidal thoughts im unhappy im happy either feels great feel like theres point reason wanting end all feel like grateful feel like good enough motivation keep going often find thinking accident matter mind ill glad act thoughts im rational actually logical reason so keep wondering ideas actually go away someday feel like im missing survival instinct somehow anybody relate feeling could share experience recovering depression go away content situation ,1 apparently baddest chick liked got second baddest suck cus oml a chance well talk bit maybe gotta chance still,0 helpive trying get contact therapist little week now answer calls think receptionist either every voice mail followed silence do like world want hand hold ive abandoned,1 life fuckedever since brother killed months life gotten worse getting bullied constantly yet parents dont care friends brother friend hes gone now problems talking people first place ever seem stutter im failing classes teachers seem hate me im young already know someones gonna say youre young still life live dont one cares me planning killing days,1 smarrison i would ve been the first but i didn t have a gun not really though zac snyder s just a doucheclown,0 ever since my girlfriend moved 0 minute away to college i find myself worrying that she s in danger or dead when i don t hear from her for a while i m still a senior in highschool during the day i m usually not worried about her safety but at night if i don t hear from her by the time i m going to bed at like 0 pm i start to agonize and worry that she s dead she doe taekwondo every evening until or 9 and then take a 0 minute trip from the dojo back to her dorm and if i don t hear from her by the time i go to bed i start to lose sleep over my anxiety this happens any time i have a reason to expect to hear from her and i don t she assures me that the school campus is safe and i have nothing to worry about she s also a very safe driver and she s tall and athletic and therefore probably difficult to kidnap but i hate to think about that i could ask her to check in with me more or to check in at certain time but i feel strongly against being overbearing or controlling and i don t want to cross her boundary i think it annoys her a little bit already how much i worry about her and how i panic if i don t hear from her but she also try to reassure me the best she can i can t seem to ever fight my anxiety with logic i only feel better after hearing from her i don t feel this way when i m with her and i didn t even feel this way when we lived in the same town but in different house any advice on how to stop worrying so much about her safety,1 need for daily alcohol dosage in order to do so this atrocious but free mental health clinic make it a little difficult but it s still a hell of a lot better than nothing it s not just a lack of med though i ve heard quite a few people say that depression come from,1 last night decided watched hour fox news odd republican one last night sister mother decided watch republican fox news aka fox and surely something anti blm ad im hispanic still hurt me gun right protection adds mainly telling shoot protesters rioters a soldier therapy ads i think fits republican news outlet was mainly talking election fraud never happened painting trump rioters counting sites screaming stop count banging doors good light lot buzzwords like communism socialism etc forgot im moron,0 vixen not so innocent after all,0 little film brings back lot memories fond foul happen one working musician pleasant accommodations band management venue jumping telling play sheer ecstasy applause far farcical is fact accurate way depicts musicians professional otherwise travelled great distance perform season gigs venue times everything goes perfectly times immediately start miss partner wonder hell far home end make best way out,0 im really rough day dont wanna socialize school started really havent well emotionally part school part things dont need go anyway past months ive organizing weekly zoom meetings friends us hang talk supposed one half hour really dont feel rn time know dont start everyone get freaked dont wanna deal ton people asking literally anyone start zoom meeting top know dont hang ill probably room crying alone couple hours thats exactly good option either feel like everything sucks idk,0 film th century italian artists one artist particular woman artemisia unheard profession females time dared paint male nude detailing unique musculaturebr br the camera work principally indoors artists mainly worked great shots closeups candle light suggest beautiful work classical painters fascinating watch painters students supported elaborate scaffolding brushing details religious frescoes surprising artistic elements film costumesfaces makeup quite superbly authentic italian churches preserved details frescoes centuries beautiful artemisia urged father study great florentine artist tassi become expert art perspective landscape painting something new unsuspecting artemisia introduced new techniques painting posing her tassi violently rapes her father outraged court proceedings followbr br this romantic drama fairly simple story unsatisfactory ending outstanding feature film artistic presentation attention detail scenes women running across field wind billowing voluminous clothing add wonderful effectsbr br artemisia says paints please herself father paints please others film please most think,0 think horny jail full whos rate,0 "@KyleKulinski @HartsonForCA @Howdyhorde FDR saved the 99% after Gilded Age (wealth inequality greater today)/Great Depression w/Social Democracy aka Democratic Socialism to give the 99% piece of economic pie n an unfettered/unregulated capitalistic system, Bernie is our FDR 2.0 except DNC won't allow his win~",1 my adhd make it impossible to stop thinking about what s giving me anxiety i try to breath focus my mind off thing but instantly it come right back cause i can t control my mind most of the time i m not even thinking about anything that is anxiety inducing but in the back of my mind something is happening that won t let it stop anyone have experience with anxiety and adhd,1 someone talk rn hmu,0 fricken birthday last year teenager starts today got woken six mother cleaning bath like friends gonna say happy birthday work hrs today probably something hate boyfriend halfway across world snd presents sent havent arrived sucky birthday,0 hopeand gone,1 ive never felt shitty lifeduring freshman year university tried kill myself bullying experiencing thought ive well since then branched out made new friends went therapy started appreciating lot more key word thought recently experiences made want try again last weekend friend committed redflag feeling depressed long time something none friends ever knew about theres bridge area known redflags jumped it one former bullies started telling friends kill deserved die pisses hell off also bullied one classes done zoom quarter theres group guys class making life literal hell theyre calling retarded cause disability telling sound like cancer calling ugly calling faggot cause im bi telling try killing after opened redflag attempt telling im useless english major theyre business majors lot things professor really supportive even called email whole class found said things me said theyre guys theyre boys perfect definition told struggle mental health went similar things undergrad im lost dont know do advice gave ignore even gets worse things love surround people love helping get today even told life valuable always support nice girlfriend family lot friends supportive reached too wanna try again plan try again dont deserve treated like this feel like id giving people want it,1 no tears left to cry ended depression,1 ex pisses alright go gonna fun background asked friend ive known since kindergarten gf january said yes proceeded break valentines day didnt speak months asked friend mine tell wanted talk talked bit said sorry wasnt best frame mind call bullshit that didnt really talk while decided id try work things out thought persistent messaging twice roughly every three four days started getting little chill this around thanksgiving asked thanksgiving said going cousins house asked couple days later thanksgiving was blocked me ever run her really wanna make pay tldr ex broke valentines day talked couple times next months blacked polite hasnt talked since,0 "here's a fun fact: before the lyrics to somewhere were written, the dummy lyrics to it were: there goes whats-his-face... ",0 M&D's in the rain? should be fun ,0 extraordinary film musically made feel awful rodrigues died chance see live know performed marvelous lincoln ctr concert mightve there painful beyond wordsbr br i purchased first amalia recording musical recording fantastic able film see face tremendous expressiveness passion sings songs terrible sadness wonderful sort like seeing face mary cradles jesus arms pieta watching film reminded witness similar extraordinary concert performance mercedes sosa mid s lincoln ctr sat listening mercedes sing felt presence tremendous spiritual musical force contained awesome primal power the art amalias musical segments touching caetano veloso paying tribute amalia singing one songs solo front packed concert hall musical segments also convey incredible international sweep musical repertoire bonds created w fans throughout entire world one segment claims played every single town italy stagebr br in another section amalia talks bout w mouth cancer came nyc commit suicide hotel yet watching fred astaire film videos gradually persuaded life worth living turned away killing herself amazing later film quite bravely directly admits interviewer though mightve conquered world musically personal life one pure sadness admits never happy unbearably sad hear perfectly keeping w singer steeped fado which translates bad destiny bad luck tradition also one longs hear personal life made sad disappointmentsbr br the art amalia little disappointing major areas quibbles show full songs film yet provide english translation last one seems waste unless film intended portuguese speaking audience cant imagine see profound pain face sings understand lyrics let down minuses almost biographical material amalias family background one sec snippet w singing w mother its absolutely grand one short reference parents moving fr countryside lisbon wouldve loved see film footage village came from interviews almost solely w amalia close friends good great subject interview subjects experts fado portuguese culture society get depth understanding musical rootsbr br in short wonderful film everyone interested amalia see perfect definitive work subject,0 welch's strawberry fruit snacks ,0 yes look babettes feast sort slap puritanical christianity much that surface story gifted parisian cook flees paris one revolutions middle classes finds cast ashore jutland north denmark simply grease allows deeper tale developbr br babette artist one small army people driven pillar post centuries fatuous politicians vane greedy arrogant kill beauty profit something politics always does pace national endowment arts simply institutionalizes creativity propaganda purposesbr br babette last legs arrives tiny village two virginal sisters reside seeing diminishing flock devotees late pastor father live salt cod black bread gruel br br babette shows simple pious people god pleasure sensuality well behavioral mental purity also shows mental purity lead control freakishness something know days neoauthoritarians government would limit personal freedoms somehow crime state would tell us humanitybr br babette cooks bangup french dinner celebrate th birthday late reverend daughters flock think devil come amongst vow notice food drink br br it point preparing meal payed babettes winnings french lottery begin tearup poignance brought comparison daily vulgarity mendacity floods consciousness morning night via media powermongers manoeuvring gain advantage us darkbr br the simple sophistication babettes art spits face pretentiousness display modern society hurts watch played exquisitely splendid filmbr br it is along fanny och alexander bergman favorite film ever yet watch awhile because like rare bottle wine served blinis fresh oysters something must overdone br br a great great film every movielovers library,0 is missing talking to my bff on da phone,0 painting a chalkboard wall @PourhouseCafe ... hope all goes well ,0 anxiety making depressed want become actress acting passion havent found another job would truly make happy life problem is people saying impossible make actress including parents unfortunately understand difficult statistics say wont make it honestly dont care become famous not anxiety told failure pursue making question something else make parents happy validation ya know but thought makes hopeless dont want unhappy life ive depressive episodes past think another one starting among things also caused gad help advice anything helps,0 anyone tory anyone support british conservative party,0 @worldlycannibal I'll e-mail my 411 & tentative schedule once I have it. ,0 eid tomorrow im still trying teach apply eyeliner fml test text text text text text text text text text text text,0 starting get desperatethis first post here really stand much others problems im now ive depressed years now ive ruminated redflag daily approximately last years ive always tried keep glimmer hope get better really know now feel may locked brain thinking pattern late break ive talked therapists taken medication spent time redflag ward done cognitive group therapy really type progress it things cant change im sure ill ever people able accept that things ive done still dwell now im sure ill ever able shake those cant support now rely parents money hurts much every time need ask more im unable even get look job though ive extremely fortunate parents family grew up ive wasted all many loves interests lifethe arts math people philosophy cooking cant get pursue anything love spend much time sleeping wishing sleeping mind races night thoughts things want do im terrified night going sleep know wake ill want stay bed unable function cant think anything im proud life regret feel completely unable get anything always fantasize violent deaths strength it ive prayed every god take away ive tried selling soul devil return ending life despite fact actually believe things near death experience years ago made wish death actually come wish could write without seeming like emo teenager decade lot though ths life spent wasting time seemingly quixotic task leading happy life could keep trying decades always really worth it better suffer,1 even emotional point goddamn irritating tf hv live want avail services life offers want companionship others well want dead done it better later less collateral damage trynna every single one trying stop me already tired enough please go more would prefer nothing instead anything anyway end rant w h ,1 man fuck friends part already go read post title man fuck friends whats going on last arguing finally another friend like go one fucking time stop already nice im happy that bc things happened said would meet weekend one friends said want friendships destroyed like minutes group call saying said things making fun me want friendships ruined proceed asshole yeah ok,0 jeffkang greeeeat but now i ate all my hard work away,0 im upmy whole life uphill battle abusive parents particularly rough military deployments poverty etc decades im pretty worn down past month though things finally turned around fact probably best ever been despite this extreme feeling things get worse theyve ever been complete mental breakdown two weeks ago today move ive spent long struggling ptsd im kind feeling like im going enjoy one last weekend end it want go top sink back ive always been want end victory rather waiting come crashing ending then im sure seems odd think im ready for maybe wont know ive come extremely close several times past year havent feels right though anyways great people wish best stay kind,1 Depression........ pic.twitter.com/hkM67Dbys0,1 Its ok not to be ok #Depression #MentalHealth #LoveLife #WorkHard #Smile #Happy #beautifulLife #LoveLife #Goals #KeepOnTrying #SummerIsComing,1 think im gonna iti fucking around school nothing illegal anything really dont want get specifics might check cameras probably expel dont like me nothing serious suspended making meme comparing vice principal llama dont graduate kill myself im gonna go somewhere would hard time finding body im going suffocate plastic bag im sorry rambling,1 im another problemi see people post things here things could help think wow could say things like cant im good helping im good making people worry,1 m looking friend talk like videogames movies legos board games history,0 know else left doive experiencing really intense suicidal thoughts now started transferred new school made really good friends ex david girl named riley really close come january david dumped riley transferred different school city away within days eachother needless say crushed entered depressive state ever since then took get over especially ex insisted friends immediately breakup made much harder get him additionally ex suicidal thoughts spent relationship convincing kill himself made new friends coronavirus struck march close enough stay touch right now im position literally friends talk to still talk riley transferred back old high school closer old friends know long makes staying touch kinda hard super bad place while staying home kind cleared head was deal parents full time traded social issues family ones felt like nothing could escape sadness slowly engulfing me however tried use opportunity reach friends old high school old best friend lila fallen touch with while things seemed getting better again truly felt like someone genuinely cared me however anxiety persisted thoughts came back started thinking ways actually it firearms hydrogen sulfide suffocation nitrogen carbon monoxide poisoning fact could think one person would care died didnt help right think im breaking point school start ive isolated months im behind college applications im taking huge workload year friend whats worse got really wasted lila week ago confessed everything depression suicidal thoughts plans it sober im sure really freaked out remember making promise tell anything sober remember course woke remembering everything felt awful scared away friend set awful burden her pretended like blacked said loved me since then acting kind cautious around cant help think ive ruined stable relationship parents toxic hell know past suicidal experiences telling would make things worse sure drive killing myself things never bad now think im really close resources well know else theres left do,1 wathcin Judgement day yay! i love wrestling,0 tf teens even thinking theyre cute enough date shit like always like everyones skinnier cuter funnier would anyone want especially young like barely confident enough fucking catch pokemon ds lmao,0 sure people feel way do almost pretty much zero experience women never girlfriend first sexual experience past year girl came onto full force dinner party friend threw random evening even realize hitting kissed nowhere next day went house stuff incredibly nervous complete disaster could enjoy moment whatsoever feel sad it ashamed sexual experience disaster fact happened late life lack experience general years really care that really crave affection want loved hold hands kiss hug cuddle subsequently sex role see main focus day spent girl although first sexual experience affection attention part filled void see since then wonderingi spent teens without much care this entering s well always loner good terms that now loneliness starting hit hard see close friends long term notredflag years person already children forming families etc know man successful friendships men women grateful that romantic notredflag polar opposite like dark side want think about want people know tired alone sexually frustrated emotonally frustrated,1 never felt emptymy best friend hospital me said dont put knife jump window did recovers hospital feel nothing nothing all close eyes see sleeping grave never wakeing again lost every hope cant imagine anything giving back feelings im tired empty dont know anymore feels like im standing like statue time flies by years depression suicidal thoughts etc never felt like since week dont feel like im alive anymore like im human cut make sure im actually cutting barely felt it hell earth im never crazy ideas feel like im already dead feels like right im dreaming,1 dont know title im annoyed dad went brothers room knocked proceeded try open door ask door locked didnt even wait second knocking try opening door also brother didnt even say dad could go room least knocked used try open door become habit brother lock doors hes starting knock often brother me also knocks doesnt say anything hell wait come door tell come in rarely hell say im talking door hasnt said stays quite got mad knocked headphones asked wasnt sure heard knock game got mad ignoring him hes getting better sort better brother still feel bad brother sound proof headphones uses game mom always tell probably wearing brother usually answers hes not dad still gets mad ignoring him also context brother one floor dad yelling st floor room isnt farther hall brothers barely hear dad yelling us without headphones well thats pretty much read whole thing thanks didnt get it also sorry story hard follow im annoyed,0 thank youive posted post months back guys really made feel better care less people negatively think me subreddit lt,1 umunky_bunky obsessed say something somebody help please,0 early relationship help previous posthttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentskhjdi_just_asked_a_girl_out_now_im_lostutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf going go watch movie back car days want try kiss would try that i,0 iconic gaming quotes drop them filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 is gearing up for flying the dance show and building Sweeney Todd this weekend ,0 hi all im visitor sub ive read sub rules please let know im overstepping sub im registered nurse rn im interested becoming sane sexual assault nurse examiner,1 goat im pretty sure ive seen videos climbing people pissing pay that hot damn,0 followers really many followers,0 ass got dumped egirl yeah title means ass got dumped months big f __,0 wanna delete edgenuity httpswwwchangeorgpgetschoolstostopusingedgenuitybanedgenuity,0 goodnight everyone kisses everyone goodnight night night,0 snaprebelx omg i love that show i would be so mad i feel ur pain im sorry they spoiled it for u,0 hitch nice surprise romantic comedy actually romance comedy romantic comedies range mediocre horrible funny romantic hitch takes actors like smith kevin james eva mendes fun lightasafeather journey actually laughing and yes little aww sweetbr br meet alex hitchens will smith aka hitch hes selfproclaimed date doctor helps hopeless guys like albert kevin james win guys like allegra amber valletta unfortunately hitch deal sarah eva mendes gossip columnist bent breaking date doctorbr br hitch actually pretty funny even makes standard slapstick scenes work simply cast energetic clearly fun wonder smith made movies like this sharp rapidfire delivery perfect genre chemistry mendes james wonderful james real discovery never seen show the king queens funny heartfelt proves fat white men cannot dance hiphop smiths responses attempts hilarious mendes hot bouncy not way geez smiths perfect match amber valletta sweet allegrabr br hitch perfect tad long things get dramatic near end although redeemed happy ending filled funny dancing buts great refresher cookiecutter romantic comedies keep littering theaters,0 also still struggling to ask my parent to help me set up for an adhd diagnosis a well a for my mental health a much a i say i do have thing like adhd depression and anxiety i haven t officially confirmed that it suck that i do because i can t get the support i need,1 "@gashead thank you sweety x baba maal was good, interesting pink dress! My top 5 favourite female singer was on, regina spector u like?",0 dammit bed feel good morning want get masturbate body says no,0 jona thin sorry must of left a corel install cd somewhere in you room then,0 whole life suffered never girlfriend grew far poor money job barely friends hate lot get sad night eat lot day know problem is feel unwelcome world hate school god hate school one school year left graduate know going do never job before scared get one drivers license permit scared drive doctor mental health before usually depression hits older people me upset myself maybe born sad made fun of bullied physically mentally various reasons obesity special ed friends never girlfriend hate myself family care anyone else ready die yet alot things life die wtf still here,1 sex cool but read title,0 yall cute af dont ever believe anyone says otherwise are dont ever think arent ever,0 ammarkhaledmus depression a,1 brainiacmathew i know and im on spring break,0 excellent drama suspense whole time could take eyes screen one second every word kept connecting pieces puzzling murder movie really touched showed sad hard life be really cry end which want give away also let realize cruel sickening people comes murder br br the cast also good bad cast member actress played anne marie actress great job director didnt say found someone look single bit like anne marie fahey herself,0 cant wake tomorrowi start junior year college tomorrow everything wrong degree program changed without knowledge put situation im taking credit hours class am pm daily im fucking exhausted done anything really good life home summer worked full time good friend cared much made feel like die talk know why everything life rapidly deteriorated last seven days nothing good left understand every shred good left me want wake tomorrow,1 "@macitout and recording music here with Nona Hendryx of Labelle. Hit me back sometime. Hope to talk to you soon. Best, Alex ",0 someone fucking talk fucking talk,0 i have been suffering with severe anxiety for a couple year now i had a bad life threading car accident in 0 0 and thing have never been the same i started college during the pandemic 0 0 and i wa on zoloft i wa taking my zoloft inconsistently and ended up in the hospital with severe side effect i decided to give it another try month later and the same thing happened i wa prescribed prozac in 0 and then took it for two day amp almost attempted fast forward to now my anxiety is the worst it s ever been i have severe side effect such a dizziness blurred vision shaking panic attack ect it s taken a toll on my daily life and i can t seem to function normally i m almost 0 year old amp living at home still because i can not seem to get a grip of my anxiety my day are long and exhausting amp most day i feel it would be better to end it all i will say i am also in therapy and considering seeing a psychiatrist i need advice anything i would love to hear about medication health psychiatrist therapy anything i just want to see what ha helped other people thank you everyone,1 doim year old boy feeling years now started moved mexico lost friends know speak spanish teachers treated like shit one wanted hang lunch spent year school alone every day made fun mostly failed subjects since sister left living usa mom really mean everyday every day calls use less person know nothing try talk sometimes need ask stuff always brings up im ok school could better since im smart honestly gotten point longer give shit every day im sad im starting think ending stop suffering know kill self mom would probs die holding back ending myself get home school play video games try escape reality go world counter strike dota great games parents hate gaming always call lazy piece shit like said dont care met really nice people online talk everyday im gaming feel happy feel like im actually worth something get ace csgo win round say good job dude always makes feel good smart dont get good grades school idk ill see u guys later guess thank u reply btw,1 "listening to the 80"s hair band music channel...brings up so many memories...Good times, good times ",0 conflictedi pretty sure need inpatient care feel very suicidal dont know keep alive much longer coronavirus going around scared taking resources hospital instead letting someone definitely needs survive compared might need it im also afraid burden nurses already overworked say time live region canada couple confirmed cases really dont know,1 suffer continue livei hate im man enough kill continue suffer,1 cant anymoremy grades terrible like never mom always angry gets home really think would even care gone need end all long enough,1 really hungry and sad that i had to throw my breakfast in the bin,0 wish david cook wa coming to phoenix trying to figure out a way to get to san diego on june th to see him i m obsessed,0 @Tyrese4ReaL Have fun at the mtv movie awards. ,0 i went to the doctor for the first time in my life for my severe anxiety and a the title say this is what he prescribed me and also zoloft mg i m fine taking the zoloft probably need it but i just don t know how comfortable i am taking the metoprol just from what i ve read and people s experience on it and trying to get off of it my heart rate really go up in the shower and most thing i do but here lately i ve barely gotten out of bed for the past week and a half cause i m just so scared of having a heart attack i m it get so bad in the shower that i become dizzy and nauseous and usually have to lay down for a bit after one i think it all ha to do with my mental health and i just don t see the point of taking the risk of all that horrible stuff i ve heard about metoprol plus on top of it now that i know all those side effect and stuff like that they will never leave me head i just feel trapped and idk what to do trapped by my own mind and body im not sure if i m just horribly out of shape i barely move except for going to grocery store or doing the dish or laundry besides that i m on my bum on youtube or netflix ect so will just trying to move more and get past that heart attack fear be more beneficial than taking the metoprol or should i trust my doctor and take it for week until my next appointment i just don t know what to do any advice would be greatly appreciated,1 twitter wa down when i went to bed last night but now it back and so am i,0 Watching made of honor and baby sitting my baby girl ,0 wonder if jon lost the net,0 puffy nipples m im really nervous take shirt public puffy nipples years now way around that im overweight excercise,0 english teacher took hour explain memes are english teacher took full hour explaining meme class making meme competition english teachers mute could explain already understand meme was gave us low quality picture loin said make meme abruptly left zoom,0 last few day i f fell into some spiral of anxious thought about my relationship and my diploma thesis and can t get out of it i haven t properly eaten for three day now and last thing i do before falling asleep and first thing after waking up is just cry i feel like there is ton of brics on my chest at all time and i can not carry it anymore im becoming desperate i seriously don t know what to do if anyone ha any advice thank you so much,1 "Sitting at the sunshine, enjoying a double espresso reading a great book... Life is good! ",0 "@tommcfly when you play guitar for so long, how do you stop your fingers from hurting?? or do you just put up with it?? ",0 "Another day helping out the IAP, I also got my expo display setup for Thursday and ready time to work on the IAP poster.",0 im in such a good mood right now guys.,0 @PunishedBox No. I went straight to depression.,1 im tiredim tired want die im sure tell parents dont believe redflag depression im thinking without telling somethings wrong trying get help im scared happen survive,1 Is just getting of the train in Rochester ... Nice wk end planned x,0 definitely no vacation for me http plurk com p mzygb,0 i get so nervous every time my spouse leaf me he is in the military which happens often and it just spiral me i am so scared of losing him and it make no sense but i feel like we are safer together what can i do to assure myself nothing will happen and if i am just over obsessing over this for no reason,1 joke everyone dissapointment parents friend hate living scared kill myself disgrace,1 lost job wagoni lost job couple weeks ago year sober fallen completely wagon drinking heavily two years ago ended homeless drank whole bottle vodka tonight ive drunk every night two weeks straight tro name keep listening everclears song strawberry fall now never get up feel down never get back up need help struggling downing bottle pills right now think need institutionalized keep fantasies commiting crime get put away while really know right now cant go again guess fucked again please help one turn to,1 depression ha no face and it chooses no one,1 all of my friends are busy with their test(s). wish them luck ,0 relapsed selfharm yearsit feels like time sure years head aches possibility finally coming end,1 happening againthis something posted years ago i know start perhaps years ago feel someone tried deny convince feelings girl past ran away rejection heavily impacted me know go part life dealt disconnecting people connected best method allowed go years ago cannot run away time sister married older brother even wedding day groomsman bridesmaids theyre even first child soon everything felt like pain felt past lead defining turning point reassured truly felt years ago lingering feelings trying find companionship settling beyond that changed me felt motivated life change become better man her unsuccessful finding job career path thought studied become real estate agent work hard hopefully build courage confess her one day started going gym frustrated inability best could times wanted change wanted better person her found out started seeing someone someone work serious seems like gentle wonderful person calm easy that someone loves ever since found out smallest things tells makes break heavily family hints sure exactly refuse talk ive started insomnia ive even started hallucinating peoples voices become white noise see her ive become traumatised even stopped looking job know soon causing hope someone runs red light causes car accident death looks accidental die alcohol poisoning even asked god kill me first going move overseas him thought happens would drug die sleep overdose excited wanting move him even said soul mate ive even consoled felt betrayed matters even told stay him honestly loves him love her want happy recently heard analogy redflag like burning building ive wanted jump long time thought id run burning building hoping ill make through thought could try go rest life knowing capable feelings another ever again thought could it but cant could id make everyone forget ever existed cause pain die even prayed god im religious anything hope exist listened would take pain suffered sadness may suffer life im soon become uncle think see little niece nephew grow up want happy want grow more loved fulfill dreams married kids shes grand children always beautiful smile infectious laugh deep eyes cheeks red shes embarrassed soon ever see ever again even write this ive broken three times know cannot go on im ready im scared death itll quick scared of life life without her years gone yet broke person still going go really love her ive trying make peace myself part me says truly love her let go america ok know know leaves shell never return write this incase really last words always love you forever always r love ecks,1 m think might addicted weed can quite often im new zealand expensive cheap stuff like using socialise friends im quite akward irl like weed makes happier makes world nicer warmer vivid place havent smoked week im looking weed posts insta wanna reach screen grab joints see feel affected mental state makes feel relaxed get high i quite severe paranoia sober makes sad life bit happier feel im becoming dependent socially,0 birthday days agohonestly really want birthday die feel worry anything anymore ended going shit job instead dealt shitty family cant escape instead got birthday cards relatives bother opening them several months since stopped hit train still regret going thru it,1 i ve been wanting to kill myself for a while but i tried to be strong and i kept fighting it i kept looking for a calling something to give my life meaning and everytime i think i got it it s just ripped away and i m slapped by reality i m tired of it the longer i stay alive the more i just drain the energy from the people i love killing myself would hurt them emotionally for sure but logically it be the best thing for them no more worrying about the loser,1 suicidality came back years peacehelloive struggled suicidal thoughts since years old im now self harm since young so comes back different forms sometimes spontaneous attempts sometimes planned sometimes unbearable need die wanted ask particular question were supposed survival instinct humans earth want die time therapist tells say want disappear instead die want something cease need break etc always quite precisely wanting die good years barely self harm suicidal urges cbt moved countries recently diagnosed ptsd huge breakdown resurfacing suicidality crossing street every bridge rooftop calling me bus coming way sidewalk lost touch reality control body genuinely idea moved body front bus runs still standing sidewalk opened eyes realized alive,1 sure might taught turning light car meant certain death werent also taught rolling window really fast would make car fucking implode,0 enoughthrowaway account obvious reasons really enough everything thing kept death affect family kids mean parents brothers sisters friends thankfully physically healthy could give body somebody could make use would gladly so reason feel guilty killing myself tortured inside head shitty childhood always physical pains sad inside didnt know feelings child didnt know word it havent gone away adult got worse tried years therapy point blank refuse meds refuse meds wont actually fix anything also mother meds describe functional zombie days drinks takes xanax prozac something else too fucked anything else dont want end like her dont want end half like her fucking meds thanks come conclusion years planet nothing torture think something wrong mentally like learning disabled borderline schizophrenic something know actual medical term one people spoke thought may bpd maybe do anyway frustration feel torture head sometimes hear screaming inside head hear voices various people like family ask things etc literally going around inside head like screaming roller coaster tell anxiety seem understand asked help point really care well feel anyway fucked comes relationships sex trust anyone sex reminds one bitch fucking despise makes feel sick physically sick mentally often stopped said fuck cant this makes look like total fucking weirdo god knows makes person feel zero confidence zero self esteem sex relationships something doesnt apply me think things like would even want me even get would probably cheat leave knew really like wouldnt want you stage life seeing friends little sisters etc relationships almost everybody else somebody im saying even want relationship highlights loneliness feel feel dont understand people dont understand relationships dont trust people im angry im hurt im sad im frustrated feel worthless words think describe moment suppose feel sick too sick inside head go im really angry family like stay worried sad kill myself dont live life way do wish would understand supportive going miserable planet hate it enough want go,1 actually feeling like trash second day feeling like trash crying idk school started crusader kings ,0 im worth resources takes sustain meso want kill sacrifice planet get heartbroken thinking disgusting toxic waste existence necessitates mean sure reduce reuse recycle limit use plastic whateverthefuck cant shake feeling meager existence could never ever even begin justify destruction bodys rampant consumption planet im what marry help make destructive abominations make mom happy good enough reason keep fucking shit rate am cant bear thought elephants shameful want go back void suffer languish godknows many years sake people cant noble opt leave think free make choice honesty everyone life know never ever happen ill never able talk anyone real life without completely freaking out here guys think life amazing weird beautiful profound love truly deeply want now cant okay,1 the only thing that s keeping me from ending it all is because it would upset my family i seriously don t know what to do i lack ambition and that lack of ambition go too well with my lazy habit i m stuck taking care of my diabetic mother that doesn t really leave much for a social life my sibling have their own life with their partner my dad is off with his secret family or something i ve deleted my fb account year ago because i wa sick of seeing every one of my h friend being better off but i think i just isolated myself further and ended up worse for it i feel lately like i m just gon na snap i end up cry at night and i don t remember why afterwards trying out new thing is a bit limited with budget and me being ashamed of leeching off my sibling dropped out of college twice since 0 0,1 jetsetting life wants dieim living peoples dreams now loving family always supportive do loving partner sacrificed much us together graduated top class travelling every months freelance job pays enough parents partner always chip afford travelling see work out planning get masters done foreign country soon live near partner friends really supportive always want hang make time have everynight still feel like kill myself,1 im christian teen us got questions ill answer whatever politics religion etc anything else,0 hey guys really important news ok so du dun du dun du dun du dun doo doo dee doo doo deedle deedle doo doo dun dun buddadadawere strangers love know rules full commitments im thinking get guy wanna tell im feeling gotta make understand never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt weve known long hearts aching shy say inside know whats going know game were gonna play ask im feeling tell blind see never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt ooh give up ooh give up never gonna give never gonna give give up never gonna give never gonna give give up weve known long hearts aching shy say inside know whats going know game were gonna play wanna tell im feeling gotta make understand never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt,0 @zaccolley of course it is http://is.gd/kqSK,0 magical ability piss mom like brother give mom shit argue sister run away city manage temper two time say one thing way like slow chore anything loses shit me maybe actually deserve it maybe attacks knows fight back either way im wishing day would end sooner travel another state leave alone,0 want run away home cant really like living family really hate starting get there explain situation dad left mom alone brother time fine left exchange when came back year later everything went sht mom never home neither brother home yell stuff even do always clean brother plus cook hes home leave one dirty cup table thinks yell mom always chooses side ive known long time mom favored brother become really obvious lately top that brother horrible girlfriend reference threatened kill suggested move party people could make it anyway cant take anymore today mom threatened send dog away even kill her want run away cant take dog cause dont want leave mother also money soon start college mom pays dorm rent also scared leave dog home leave college reason previously mentioned,0 second two filmed hamlets nineties first franco zeffirellis starring mel gibson zeffirellis version like laurence oliviers based upon abridged version play much shakespeares original text cut i never seen tony richardsons version ran less two hours shorter even zeffirellis presume also abridged kenneth branagh attempting something much ambitious film based complete text play running time around four hoursbr br with henry v branagh claimed oliviers crown cinemas leading shakespearean confirming claim brilliant much ado nothing rare example great film based shakespeare comedy hamlet third shakespeare film director he also acted iago oliver parkers othello and one might expect different much ado earlier film shot villa hills tuscany beautiful surrounding countryside joyous summertime film everything makes life worth livingbr br hamlet contrast set depths winter the flowers description ophelias death suggest shakespeare thought action happening summer look film particularly striking sumptuous chilly filmed blenheim palace possibly englands grandiose stately home also rather forbidding one snowy exterior scenes cold wintry interior ones formal elaborate action updated mid nineteenth century female characters wear elaborate fashions era principal male ones mostly wear splendid military uniforms there contrast zeffirellis film interiors costumes deliberately subdued tone play dominated images corruption decay branaghs intention may contrast splendid surface underlying something rotten state denmarkbr br the film notable large number bigname actors minor roles blink might miss john gieldgud judi dench apparently allstar cast required production company nervous fourhour film imported hollywood stars robin williams osric really come off others like charlton hestons player king billy crystals first gravedigger played parts well yorick normally seen skull seen flashback played british comedian ken dodd brian blessed often plays jovial characters cast type ghost makes scenes appears genuinely frighteningbr br of major characters perhaps weakest kate winslets ophelia branaghs leading lady first two shakespeare films wife emma thompson marriage ended divorce did however find wishing thompson cast role although winslet came ophelias mad scenes seemed weak earlier ones character still sane i preferred helena bonham carter zeffirellis version richard briers plays polonius greater dignity often given wise experienced counsellor rather prating old fool julie christie also brings dignity role gertrude attempt here gibson glenn close zeffirelli version suggest incestuous attachment hamlet an interpretation owes freud shakespeare age difference christie branagh great enough credible mother son certainly case close gibson oliviers gertrude eileen herlie was bizarrely thirteen years younger himbr br branagh stated intention restoring scenes often cut cinematic versions reinforce idea play national well domestic tragedy much stress placed upon war norway norwegian prince fortinbras subplot ignored altogether zeffirelli emphasis national tragedy perhaps best shown character claudius sometimes played onedimensional villain something derek jacobis performance suggests claudius could good man different circumstances allowed led astray ambition lust could good loyal servant brother chose rule bad king although tormented guilt see way make amends evil donebr br branagh wonderfully fluent speaker shakespeares verse superb main role like gibson little time old concept hamlet indecisive passive melancholy active physical energetic hamlet something best shown fatal duel laertes guiding principle worldweary despair active disgust evil corruptionbr br it gamble branagh make fourhour epic film well box office was however praised many critics james berardinelli particularly enthusiastic opinion that whatever financial returns may been branaghs gamble paid artistic terms concentrating full text able bring full meaning full emotional power shakespeares complex play reviewed much ado said greatest ever film shakespeare comedy hamlet may greatest ever film shakespeare tragedy ,0 powers boothe turns stellar performance s cult figure jim jones peoples temple jones physical likeness jones uncanny story acted chillingly movie keeps riveted must see anyone check out,0 getting headi used alot suicidal thoughts surrounding self people love appreciate trying ease mind away dark stuff helped lot admit coming back faster ever think stop time shit going life even tho try hide turn sarcasm cant help feel like im better dead,1 officially afford diesupposed starting new job monday whole new state suppose new chapter reality act avoid family tryna lock psych ward july boyfriend brutally murdered amp ever since ive wanted join him everytime came close ending it thoughts mother finding body amp reaction main thing kept alive chose move plan move pretend fine amp pretend moving on long enough write amp make sure theres enough money bank account family worry money funeral job offers family nice employed days meaning next days finally die fast ward all,1 friend respond im worried shithi ive posted exact friend talking overdosing starving etc anf think things got whole lot worse them respond texts even leave read im seriously worried might done something stupid last time heard late june seems like theyve comepltley dissapeared two instagram handles wwich one seems deleted private accept follow request social media numbers contact at im worried viewed stories either cant see theyre active do wait keep messaging see texts please help,1 one stayshalf experience trying find relationships stick natural life progression things change dont want needy judged am understand rules im tired alone weather lot late nights brutal much good doesnt feeling end,1 @geoffthedit ahaha you're so funny ,0 sound dads voice giving mental breakdown said op bedtime im breakdown fuck,0 ending tomorrowi diagnosed depression anxiety years ago professional help work always say shit nothing changed feel even worse addicted xanax plan killing tomorrow see change anything wanted say goodbye feel like best place it,1 istg seeing jihyo now makes me cry she went through body shaming and prob depression bc of how people tell her about her body,1 @bananza Its the weekend! Think about exercize later ,0 got married last weekend. Sorry for the absence ,0 think going kill myself year old male know father left years old negligent disconnected alcoholic kid mom used abuse relentlessly would beat belts extension chords punch face tell im stupid burned cigarettes times taken years pay student loan debt degree completely useless live poverty hurt knee month ago cant even manual labour jobs used get by everything seems completely hopeless clue doing totally atomised family support live pay check pay check cause living high even though work hours week barely scraping by whenever start get ahead something bad happens months ago shell dollars get car fixed needed new control arm plus new tires plus alignment tow need new muffler pass emission test cannot legally drive work knee gets better grinding like mad man shelling physio therapy get knee fixed costing ton ill laid bed months able work able pay rent bank account needs last rest month life exhausting work hard can never pull pit im sad anything hopeless depressed stuck escape me,1 miamiiboii dead yu gettin on wen im leavin,0 I'm bored. Gonna paint my nails and then watch Driving Lessons in bed ,0 never know want gets frustrating indecisive know affects many aspects life including notredflag question everything get stuck head leads nowhere except stuck place tired that know feel feel sometimes understand that never know want,1 matched with a guy on a dating app we went on a few date hooked up a couple of time but it didn t work since both of u got too occupied with our work and we had nothing to talk most of the time but now after like a month i see this guy on my dance class whatsapp group and he is about to join the same batch i feel so anxious and weird first i dance horrible but it didn t really matter because i didn t know anyone there should i leave the class what do i do the class wa like an escape to me since i recently moved to this city and i don t want to leave the class but i also don t want to see him there and show him this side of me help please,1 Delicious ceviche for dinner ,0 anyone else ever feel feeling waking realizing set alarm pm instead fear unexplainable anxiety incomparable,0 yeah two people fucked and now i m here i know i know but that s not what i m getting at really why the fuck am i here i have no redeeming quality can t maintain friendship childhood emotional neglect very bad social anxiety depression anxiety ha absolutely fucked my short term cognitive memory i could go on and on but i m not going to because i m simply too fucking tired to do so,1 call alberta redflag hotline phone policelooking experiences anyone tried feel fairly rough phone call lead unneeded ride hospital could walk want bother,1 reasons stay aliveim living really bad living conditions im dealing break loss really close friend heart bipolar disorder making hard sort friends want end know how know pills take jump window even know,1 @garygannon you need to report the link ,0 hmm the work is not easy wasted two hour for a silly mistake now one system is too slow,0 hospital work im tired missed finals missing assignments im tiredhavent active last days made and failed redflag attempt tried distracting worked forna nothing sticking im tired,1 I've Been Wearing My Real Hair For Like A Week . I'm Slowly Slipping Into A Depression.,1 today sundayive resolved see another one,1 revising my essay and talking to my hubby on aim,0 anyone else feel empty like im sad anything im pretty good life everything going well apart lockdown im tired mood life feel empty like im happy sad angry anything im there really weird focus brain something feel like this im existing thats it anyone else,0 @jdecew <3 the blue bin move. ,0 please reply see this many thanks anyone see post think mods disabled posts viewed others,1 friend beard genes really help cuz tried cant grow full beard would probably shave face,0 "@Lkmcn1 blimey - predictive text is a bugger, isn't it? ",0 At RPM with boyfriend and all the homies. We're heading to the drive ins at 11 ,0 first fight okay th grade ima try make short long story short ex best friend point constantly trying punch guthe homeroom school hallways trying get art class snapped grabbed hoodie lunged wall started punching face went full hulk him put headlock gotten rage mode eventually couple th graders grapped us away other ex best friend grapped stuff walked offi grabbed stuff walked art class best part got early dismissal day that sorry long tried make short hoped enjoy reading thisim currently th grade,0 "@bztak1020 thanks no, I'm not. I just sing a song and play my guitar my friend helped me it was live recording, though :/",0 wanted clarify anyone else still virtual fully hey everyone school fully virtually entire year choice go back chose since halfway year point felt like itd drastic choice start going back miss friends yes some everything else would no anyone else still going virtual hard time get distracted easily use personal computer instead chromebooks hurt eyes screen small,0 hello name christian going kill year long texti came broken family mom manipulative narcissistic quick anger caricature mother kind mother whod tell regrets face kind mother say hateful things father breath tell reminded him father better parent far much like provide real help mother right were practically person mannerisms interests even look same happens two people breed respectively money idea raise child get me severally depressed anxiety ridden developmentally stunted jackass morsel self esteem lifetime negative experiences wish early grave ive depressed majority life fact teens completely robbed result it father kicked house disrespectful cant say unjustified angry little shit also sad well due stress life time developed tmj tinnitus biggest devil life music one things ive ever loved make fact ive ever really cared about tinnitus cant enjoy music mine any passion stolen from cant anything it tinnitus long apparently cannot cured this life cannot saved check post history see battle mental health happiness im say ive lost battle ive got plan right exact spot im going shoot at right shotgun model right alcohol ill inebriate wait train hope find peace happiness true love way subreddit much love all,1 give questions life general give knowing year old wisdom ask anything hurting head answer best ability think answer question answered questions yesterday teenagers sub ask away,0 im tired paini live life people would envy dont work go school anymore sit around home nothing day problem mind longer feel happiness pain things ive through everyday wake flashbacks horrible things happened me sexual abuse bullied abusive parents brain loves take back make feel everything again like kind sadist know reminding world horrible place need go soon ive tried pills therapy nothing really cures pain knowing hurt living great lives sense power me love best friend cant enjoy time anymore due misery im going feel bad hurt him know needs done end suffering im cleaning little happens planning way wont fail year over thank you,1 has just been on ebay n bought sumit 4 sum1 special lol,0 feeling good year life unfair usso rewind years ago perfectly fine depressed hopeful energy look towards future entered college made lots friends love life then got depressed went zoloft things took turn there years later lost love life friends everything im scared really anything it easy commit redflag like people make be live ourselves would want lose life im young im turning soon im female lost someone years feel like ill never find happiness im failing school im addicted smoking pot even though want to im gaining weight looking really bad lately help know do cant even find enjoyment videogames suck writing feel like ive ruined life it like normal people know im stuck endless loop sadness depression im tired,1 death cabanyone else die words band,1 when youre stressing about money and biological survival already and it invokes repressed memories of your momz debilitated by depression crying about bills throughout your childhood. Oh the trauma of capitalism will I ever escape thee?,1 link mean girl like posted story wants link mean sex hanging out,0 And here's my picture with Ray I look really bad lmao http://twitpic.com/68c53,0 plan next yearim year old guy live withy parents need get fuck out im going save much money next months leave far away im going tell anyone probably end homeless probably kill anyways whatever work im going kill july th thats day dog died years ago hopefully works know probably wont,1 pointlessreceived hateful message today ex telling kill since im worthless kinda makes believe him im pretty im moody im insecure im selfish im outgoing im best mom im hard myself took sleeping pill maybe itll help probably not ill wake alone again thought crashing car tree today chose think good idea unless country want break gun cabinet shoot boyfriends pistol watching right sleeping away unaware thoughts really worthless,1 im tired watching porn literally want girl tell matter want loved im tired wanting kill too,0 dreading college start first day senior year tomorrow its dumbass zoom shit real school im really dreading college get really homesick im going need come home ton theres schools within biking distance im applying to one super competitive based subreddit full asshole boring kids also like idea college culture im accepting person im type kid make pretty offensive jokes college kids super sensitive that also like vibe expected mature like love kid feel like college kids serious mature compared high schoolers like that im worried making friends also like im barely halfway puberty im gonna look mad young also need play sport occupy myself sense im good enough play varsity college id form sort club sport team ton work,0 well hate every level nowi good day today first time quite awhile occurs im still pathetic nothing never amount anything wouldnt missed im fat gross fault follow anything use shitty past lame excuse shitty self im garbage person ill die garbage person exactly deserve hope god real hope go hell give myself hope point dont chicken fucking time like countless others,1 nobody knows outive found statement true wait theyll know while,1 paini severe condition thats caused face burn swell lips feel swollen time theyre starting harden eyes burn ive spent three years going specialists trying control symptoms since severe medication reaction caused it misdiagnosed dermatologists cant go outside sun cant lay flat cant exercise look like completely different person loved life every moment agony ive lost family wifes affair ive lost face literally dont know much longer expected hang,1 guys hit k know thaaaat much ive like year super impressive thats validation get real life feels pretty dope ,0 motivated to sleep but i m feeling quite icky,0 ufffffffffffffffff ke gorom need to a pond to swim,0 tonight seems lasti depression throughout high school college college seeing therapist year recently got referred psychiatrist made redflag attempts really want leave behind gruesome corpse claim care find cant seem girl dated pain caused breaking months hungup ex three half years also binge drinking help found last night hope left getting back ex months honestly cannot write complete sentences right im looking outside playing body would displayed concrete jumped much blood would cut myself crying help friends seems like minor thing one really say anything to one understands would much happier leave world would debbie downer according friends one would worry done done cause pain go away better medication completely forget cannot stop crying everywhere right now gymclass walking outside picture body battered step take hoping random car thats driving slam free me cannot make nights without serious panic attacks help live alone wanted someone care would gone deep know one would dont want waste anyone elses time planet help ending life wish could taken seriously life would imagine much means complete stranger shows act kindness me burst tears means lot read far assure life worthless better forgotten,1 seaghostdesigns what happened to you on saturday you didnt show up,0 dont get big deal billie eilish photos firstly people need understand vast majority people saying nice things joking laugh theres people said hurtful things meaningfully also fake depressed teen billie fans need stop saying asked posted didnt literally looks normal big issue idk guys shes still good looking im also ,0 had a good time @ my birthday party tonight. thanks everyone ,0 "@SilkCharm re: #nbn as someone already said, does fiber to the home mean we will all at least be regular now ",0 nz the place to be miss my own bed a bit though,0 wow nw00 00 are now operated with a 0 we can get ac power cool but ticket price is hyper crazy expensive,0 adhd autism and depression are a real nasty combo,1 sooo sick of the snow ughh,0 allim yo f could go details wouldnt worth it life isnt worth anymore everything thought knew lie cant trust anybody anymore heart physically hurts emotional pain im right im scared go anything never go back felt fucked things life happened wish restart button life,1 broken land freemy parents make much financial aid work hours week still cant afford college im one year thousands dollars unsubsidized debt less month pay next semester cant even move parents house even though money apartments going get better country shit hard get foothold life all think im done hope america fixes higher education system someday,1 suicidal thoughts want die hurt myselfi thinknot sure begin here aha im new reddit im posting first time cause feel like need talk see anyone else gets all feel alone know do am another sleepless night me ive always suffered insomnia anxiety long remember aware mentally im great feel low make sense roof head loving family however small broken loving supportive boyfriend yet feels like constant shadow me brain feels clouded frank shop recently ive seriously questioning worth it struggle lot days especially recently get bed feel completely worthless useless life brain works as many experience constantly working drive negativity exhausting want stop stop want die want brain stop shit tonight nights really feels like much thoughts scare me realisation brain almost planning yourself deep know want die make sense anyone rambling sleep deprived nonsense,1 dm obamas last name clickbait,0 ever take survey realize actually exactly friends kind sad think really matter supposedly helped person research realized literally friends anyway wanted say something know im looking friends karma awards felt like saying something sorry wasted time,0 cant anymorei feel everyone life would better without me turn cant imagine future everything much sensitive done bad shit mean ones love deserve alive cant take action feel like im living hell everyday whether im work home friend try hard cant stabilize moods go deep end every day everything sets off hate like this think bpd feel like life taking medicine makes feel numb unable cum isnt worth it personality really sad angry hyper,1 need help crush someone im scared text do no answer text count ,0 im tired dealing lifei cant stop thinking everyone would better gone family would life insurance money make look like accident think would miss even notice im gone year rough see getting better theres pain ahead im tired feeling like this,1 today badit fathers day big trigger im feeling really suicidal dad mentally abusive wish capable happiness anything besides unbearable suffering dont know everyone would better without bothering,1 think it nearly unbelievable film could made death penalty one worlds controversial topics offends neither against testament tim robbins extraordinary intelligence sensitivity traits seen acting roles well shawshank redemption jacobs ladderbr br this film fact hints subtle compromise for against camps subtle cant put words subtle point vanishing yet one gets sense watching picture compromise possible somehow worked look deeply enough,0 tuesday is a raining day again,0 Oh no my depression! *bends over seductively to pick up depression**bends over seductively to pick up depression*,1 death dateyesterday marked years since boyfriend killed motorcycle accident always bad day me however usually friends things keep mind occupied good times year different cut ties toxic friend group cut good maybe people life also close exroommates theyre things one friend lives miles away dealing problems person left friend released jail addicted heroin spent day alone planned would end life could death date boyfriend go see one time went grave smoked cigarette playing free bird thats noticed blue jay nearby hed fly closer watch fly another location near watch entire minute song one convince wasnt him know would want live dont see point living anymore,1 taking ukalshones challenge pushups day months days video profile cant upload videos today,0 people say minecraft bad know people say nobody plays minecraft boring bad game childhood game ive played minecraft since like maby years old,0 theres one reason killed yet good one cw rapewhen raped boyfriend time hed done something asked ok slept someone else upcoming th birthday something like that disgusted me want sex night no answer liked hear previously id said no got drunk night kept pushing pushing gave in felt like to history abused that family good one knew this also systematically isolated friends knew nobody else life knew gave power cried whole way through even though finish it really started feeling like raping you im rapist erase previous fifteen minutes remember correctly stop me stopped selfimage day person sex with willingly otherwise thats reason killed yet want die knowing person ever fucked me feels like hes winning especially since half decade since happened ive still able someone else feel like thats slowly becoming less less concern though nobody would want anyway life me theres nothing would attract another person recently realised spending several months without friends contacting me could literally already rotting nobody would noticed know ive done it maybe im scared pain failure,1 @TinyKsass Oh Well Tis Not The First Time ,0 off to the hospital s some jaw breaking is about to happen,0 I added a video to a @YouTube playlist http://youtu.be/kFXvMul_N40?a  Vines that could cure depression #8,1 speak to a therapist online via skype for anxiety and depression online mindfulness therapy via skype psychotherapy without drug the best option is to treat the underlying cause contact me to learn more see http t co a uafykh u,1 university tuitioni gambled lost im university student dont job im going short k upcoming semester dont see way im sorry,1 amyserrata he wrote most of the album but ironically the single he did not write,0 really fuck anyone happy right would be sick people trying pretend like reason happy even content city hit highest temperature july also lowest ever year nice global warming fucking pandemic constantly evolving strains housing crisis collapsing economy even ignoring state world mental illnesses complex depression constantly sick way poverty line happy about nothing nothing long humans alive always nothing probably decimate war maybe whatever overtakes us happy never happy depressed option current society happy world ending real mental illness,1 powerfully wonderful movie held deathgrip let get involved story successful dentist alan johnsondon cheadle torn life crisis balancing career family notices former college roommate charlie finemanadam sandlerand wants touch base finds charlie lost wife family attack america longer touch realitychoosing involve mind favorite music past video games former roommates rekindle friendship strengthen former bond johnson friend angela oakhurtsliv tyler psychiatrist try bring charlie griefbut alan accomplishes getting friend emerge deep darkness jada pinkett smith plays johnsons wife writer director mike binder plays role charlies attorneyguardian also cast saffron burrows donald sutherland adell modell robert klein outstanding soundtrack featuring likes bruce springsteen graham nash pear jam pretendersbr br note never sandler fan found outstanding role scenes thought loudwhy never approached play singersongwriter bob dylan biopic,0 can someone please help me i ve been having anxiety for the past few week but now i have been waking up in the middle of the night with my heart racing is their anyway to stop this please i need help,1 km on bike i m all hot n sweaty the rem marathon continues,0 people star thing never heard them one funniest comedies run across win putz puller prize parody absurd starts dr jeykl snorting powder turning sex fiendhe pursued libido driven nurse early movie one funniest scenes movie pay attention hospital pa system background rather like system mash final scene hyde accepting award laughing years oh busty nurse cassandra peterson went become elvira mistress dark br br if liked mel brooks classic movies blazing saddles etc suspect like onebr br damn shame cant get dvd anywherebr br its available dvd good thing dvds wear use ,0 friend acting weird lately call twins lots stuff common comes interests behavior recently chat reply coldly unlike im sure somethings bothering her do ask help leave space,0 guiltless redflagis normal want guiltless redflag normal want destroy relationships everyone confidently say nothing lose normal question things much,1 getting betterim probably closest redflag ive ever right now nothing helping sleep get outside helps little numbness crying panic cycles ive talked crisis chats couple times always feel like robots went first counseling appointment im afraid talk anything especially redflag might legally obligated tell parents also mixed feelings go feeling like nobody really cares keep alive given moment unless money fault opening fixing myself ill probably never try redflag seems messy painful guess feel like ill get worse worse,1 want people like understand meim la convention help run booth there never done before nervous decided try care people think me people started coming talk them pretty much everyone understand saying guess voice fucking soft fucking speak damn fast even tried speak slower louder sometimes still understand me annoying want heard want socialize normally want friends make friends way im motel room teary eyed like previous post rself trip la fun happy im not considering redflag im posting instead cant family cant afford therapist btw wish internet self like outernet self,1 im doneits th birthday tomorrow surprised im still im excited anything anymore know everyone wanting pretend like like always mean difference today tomorrow legally drink till cant fuckin see idk find ever look people older anymore cant understand still everyone seems pathetic im worse fucking bullshit want pull trigger already look pills take every day change brain chemistry feel false happiness wonder took would even die would end disabled would even pathetic scenario ive weak far cant even find proper way im much pussy go jump bridge dont even know could hang myself dont want anymore wish would end dont want get older one step stupid fucking nothingness,1 dont remember like want livehow feels motivation passion ambition hint hope want wake every day,1 gawd my laptop is fucked up now system error just using my lil brother s laptop,0 thinking committing redflag live brazil years ago broke teeth since life money dentist neither leave house leave house makes lonely reach help already suicidal thoughts deep sadness agonizing nights lately fought best friend longer wants pay attention respond instagram thinking committing redflag still idea good method want send message friend saying commit redflag talk me blackmail probably cut wrists send message saying already did thought cutting wrists maybe bleed get better while know thought choking clothes probably distressing want face god death sent hell really want die wanted love affection people online really know me count friendship want commit redflag directly her already suicidal desire me talking anymore taken away comfort intensified suicidal desire know go try read study bible lately even able read,1 "had the 1 shot tequila, 1 glass of choya n brut nice nice",0 saw movie first time ever liked it dancing entertaining read somewhere got part movie knew dance scenery great too yvonne talented woman beautiful laughed silly kissing scenes great old movies grew munsters enjoying watching earlier movies may best still worth watching see act sing slowly purchasing movies watching receive them large collection memorabilia,0 generic edgy venting postim going anhero sure would like to ampxb complicated girlfriend left bossbestfriends younger brother also underling job one considered good friend pains know acting did t minus events distorted things cannot reason people father recently painfully gone blind one eye dealing accusations murder going years now cannot prove anything rarely ever wrong certain innocent man gave fortune get custody twin myself sacrificed everything us thats whole worms exgirlfriends best friend head investigator known violence drug use seem matter cheated notorious drug pusher user straight laced father main suspect insert angry edgy comment insulting god female shiba ran apartment cannot found despite chipped never abused though suspect prior owners loved much dealt loss many animals life intended and spoil spoil brother thats another worms grandmother showing serious signs alzheimers grandfathers life painfully passed away destroyed grandmother even remember last time hugged told loved him told much meant me shitty jeep father bought grandmother gave past year mugged walking work anymore nearly killed transmission slipped neutral driving back drive twice highway and continues so major city im god damn poor succeed every single fucking car acquired either broken beyond financial repair broken intostolen im kidding understand transmission issue bad imagined build lot pressure releases repeats without control pent energy powerful imagine happens driving driving light ended vehicle realwheel drive imagine go surrounding traffic run over vehicle miles transmission poor maintenance done prior ownership driving still moneygod need god live need somehow save replace vehicle saving money damn near impossible one power payers apartment due various reasons struggle save anything normal inbetween cents dollars account given time bills emergencys its hard save money may say may true literally every single time savings something always happens take me hate alive hate love exist order save would done anything within power baby boomers hate me gen x hates me gen tide pod eaterswagyolofortnite victory royal hates me millennial l somehow responsible everything wrong world almost born list goes gets worse get worse tried unalive several times life fucking fail college funds ripped away made much money know year much im rich believe make somewhere like now even remotely comfortable attractive poor luck women all family would tell im catch doubt that names chad cannot children sterile nothing outside minor minor material possessions handful friends best even twin distant me exist people around guilt live know theyd sad mouth breathe anymore happiness worth mine want die always wanted die want ever after want anything mistake never born happy outside bullshit child happiness built lies christmas birthdays aware others worse pains affect me get better never has end,1 want tell anyone struggling suicidal thoughts like am stay us yo fat ass cannot get proper job surrender easily change thankful alive hope form bottom heart find joy lifegod bless chapter life,1 books movies videos things want do really wish things already experienced would strain much find energy them waking hard already know supposed get things done top basics would overwhelming makes sad motivation levels id like have interested things enough motivate me like huge disconnect life feel like passing quick slow experience anything battling and known persistent depressive disorder since made lot progress life still colour it anyone else feel way think want know alone wish already experienced things want experience,1 damn miserable alone loner confidence awful pitiful miserable existencei cinema alone one go withi everything life miserable alone nobody england final euro cup football nobody watch match with even though monumental huge thing countrybeing alone fucking awful spend life alone remain miserable alone death life fucking awful cope miserable alone loner confidence,1 Check Out My Background Whoop Whoop xx,0 rainy day much do surfing movie network channels found one starting gave chancebr br the watched became engrossed story old story working class underdog trying make sport time think usually played wealthy upper class movie every bit interesting seabiscuit also based true storybr br the acting believable casting brilliant golfers please miss one golf individual sport would serve plot people golf works well story class distinction snobbery seem involve play gamebr br bottom line feel good movie well put together always fun see think better others get taken peg two,0 it s a new morning pulled back the curtain sunshining bird tweeting and i m stuck inside working,0 @TrnsplantdToPal At least it gives you something to do! Did you go to the wedding last night? How was it?,0 doe anybody know how to get your electrolyte back in order with a vitamin work i feel sick,0 "My Puppies, Foxy and Pixie. are sooooo cute and FUNNY. They are making me LOL today ",0 poem redflagi sit balcony stood ledge imagined jumping closed eyes held kitchen knife held near throat enough slice inserted blade skin blood flowed like never ending stream tied rope ceiling looked rope anxious feeling closed eyes opened eyes first time sweat rolling forehead tried smile just bad dream thought demons inside me fought,1 @mazvita @beelku @tamolam come on ... you have to admit ... its a little bit funny ,0 m couple unusually touchyclose nights vacation close friend f im ohio friend washington know parents met high school needless say see whole lot since were far away go vacation twice year families ive known whole life became friends couple years ago text talk every day mutual friend zone strongly although good friends never anything even close going beyond that also bi tell leans towards liking girls guys vacation montana pretty typical outdoorsy day vacation us ill call friend e first three days typical fun much talk about last two nights stayed hotel gave us extra rooms reservation something messed due covid anyways got room e sister l got room since room two beds well sort of queen bed pullout couch basically single bed wanted sleepover type thing unusual own were comfortable whatnot first night played various games watched tv probably hour l fell asleep e tired went sit couch bed read old text conversations between ourselves phone one point put elbow shoulder like would put elbow window car rest definitely pretty unusual touchy people physical contact wed ever fake hitting wrestling something like phone anyways one point got photos sent messages tried take phone look them pulled away basically ended lying bed trying keep away usually point would give maybe reach around grab it laid top one hand eventually gave up move rested head shoulderchest probably half hour super late decided try get sleep slept maybe hour in separate beds someone made loud noise hallway woke up although sister somehow slept it e came back sat pillows played hair while also unusual said tired crawled bed laid next better part hour keep mind extremely small bed nothing comfortable needing sleep perspective sister started shuffle around e jumped quickly point went day mention anything all except one point morning e made awkward compliments hair eyes ampxb next night situation except l fell asleep much faster e came bed again time put head shoulder pretty much right away tired since barely slept night before laid next said tired asked put phone away did laid said going go sleep also patted top head said interesting gesture still exactly understand that anyways sat gave standing laid back down minutes later exact thing eventually got went sleep notably every time sister kind shuffled door creaked something e sat stood up clearly want people seeing going on ampxb weeks since trip weve texted every day usual since essentially mention nights except saying misses pullout couch bed it comfortable really cannot stress enough nothing like ever happened us before even year ago accidentally brushing leg made say ew also note really initiate contact anything went along mind all initiate basically everything really know now last thing want jeopardize good friendship also curious two nights tldr spent couple nights close friend unusually touchy close theres mention since idk now,0 bbc production jane eyre starring zelah clarke timothy dalton love him always always favorite jane eyre watch version jane eyre without reading book like watching regular movie forget next day watching one almost equals reading book used watch miniseries lot little inspired read book time pay attention close television production book recently watched version jane eyre disappointed hours long many important scenes book such favorite gypsy scene fell love jane eyre even includes important scenes book tells whole story versions dont read book br br the cast jane eyre excellent true timothy dalton handsome actor handsome enough play butler scarlet julius caesar great rochester cant imagine anybody else playing role zelah clarke is without doubt jane follows description book thing makes film great clothes makeup actors jane looks modest naive bronte describes although look actually pay attention that br br some people say jane eyre long would rather spend whole day watching spend hours watching version say movie dull boring jane passionate enough enough kissing scenes hate make jane eyre hollywood movie inappropriate kissing scenes include crazy madly love scenes show love jane rochester zelah timothy express love perfectly scenes needed years old many girls age refer film boring oldfashioned feel sorry appreciate purity beauty it all novel set th century oldfashioned look makes attractive like book br br i think ever version jane ayre popularity love one matter plays jane rochester movies real jane rochester for least always zelah clarke timothy dalton,0 brothers redflag attemptso yesterday older brother attempted redflag overdose paracetamol luckily caught damage happened taken hospital put drip drinking taking drugs everyday months now obviously developed alcohol addiction drug addiction needs go rehab like doctor hospital recommended refused go suffering depression completely understand done question understand better im asking go here get help help him live scotland want go road prescription drugs would best do,1 but it s hard when your heart randomly start beating out of your chest all the time and your stomach feel fluttery and you can t sleep or if you do fall asleep you wake up panicking for no apparent reason,1 Because not everyone is the Duchess of Cambridge... excellent resources for #postpartum care. #mentalhealth #depression @UMassCCTS @UMassMedical // UMassMedical https://www.umassmed.edu/news/news-archives/2018/04/lifeline4moms-helps-obstetricians-support-women-with-perinatal-depression/ …,1 dispense fun facts comment something ill provide fun fact thing commented disclaimer facts could be not funny and i can always be wrong,0 time to get me as in gear and start the day,0 guni bullets know shot without gun leave advice,1 welcome school yo person make decision wether cannot go bathroom certain time,0 someone talk toi know keep reaching help people seem stop talking conversation even halfway through either get lives im burden dont respond panic right want someone talk wait get therapy dont nobody talk real life didnt know else post,1 count least transphobes sub possibly im strict counts,0 tatiana k nope they didn t have it,0 ricky gervais alpha af actually offend people enjoy offending too mean never give fatality man oh gives right amount fatality snowflake,0 im strong enoughim strong enough live cant take anymore barely friends last thing want burden problems suicidal thoughts im strong enough this want die,1 mercygrl oh wow a little chubster you cant invite ppl to play uno on facebook at the moment,0 home i really wana sleep but due to wasting my free line in town i have an assignment to finish,0 @MamaSeal haha...I needed the mani!! ,0 sincerely want canceri depressed years tried everything fix it even including world travel want kill myself feel like cancer would proper way go,1 year fucking sucks get better heres hair started january st im excited new decade told im going lose weight pandemic white cops murder black man people rioting august building exploded november pedophile became president put cherry top theyre still pandemic thousands hundreds people died people saying better coronavirus still going go on were lucky world war going happen next year lets pray god happen two cats died year yeah bad thing happened also aint going covid vaccine science going mess up think going better may well stop hoping cuz going get worse,0 thing made cartoon popularbut whos complaining always fun see poor coyote try various contraptions get road runner get pulverized every one inventionsbr br the underground cave chase different normal fare clever gave us aerial view chase mazelike structure say hilarious different normal aboveground anticsbr br this one along road runner shorts featured looney tunes golden collection volume transfers spectacular colors magnificent,0 need hug filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 anyone think killing feel peacefuli think redflag feel like im wrapped warm blanket cosy happy,1 bnish dan and i grabbed yardhouse earlier why didn t you pirate it i wa so disappointed,0 @VH1Shows yup ,0 anyone else love males lift shirt see tummy,0 lose fat quickly lose fat quickly dont want strict diets hard workouts though lbs,0 On my macbook Inviting Friend to Twitter and Happy Mothers Day,0 need get parents house sooner rather latermy dad wont stop calling faggot starting really break downhe gas lights daily basis insults puts constantly mom care oh yeah brother calls faggot too job nobody hire meive trying get job year now friends place go money completely utterly dependent parentsits fault know im stuck here least hope getting guaranteed kill myself,1 join subreddit warship melon flavored powerade ampxb httpspreviewredditpzkphhnkpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsbdecdfcedecdfde,0 green day slaps holiday pretty good song,0 "is so, so very glad summer is here ",0 cant anymoreeveryone love built lives without me cant anything im failing classes im lazy good mother thinks im fat bitch one person loved nothing me im unstable cant keep living like this cant anymore,1 overdosed went hospital put redflag watch three days laters im feeling like shit puking guts still want diehello im sure put couple days ago took naproxen sent hospital felt completely fine took blood everything promised lol dont believe myself started feeling horrible yesterday really horrible gastric region hurt bad cant eat anything food disgusting me slept whole two days feeling awful wake morning feeling awful puke did horrific taste disgusting naproxen nasty color reminder dont wanna here nana hold hair pat back told tried killing myself im nothing felt like penny thats left ground nobody wants useless dont know meds didnt start automatically working took all took day half kick in mom bringing hospital still feel suicidal dont know let bring mental hospital dont know do regret taking pills still wanna here,1 hi i m a 0 year old boy from italy and recently i ve discovered that i suffer from depression i have a bad job which doesn t pay me a lot my girlfriend broke up with me for no whatever reason and every single day i cry and wish for my death i m trying to stay lucid but i have prepared a bag full of pill around 0 of them in case thing still go wrong i m trying to go forward with everything but i m tired of being a good person and treated like shit yesterday i wrote to another girl you know just for company haven t got a message since then still waiting if thing go wrong i m gon na pull the trigger on my life and go finally away,1 my depression ha been at it worst this year after suffering some significant loss i m going to college in the fall and i want to look forward to it but i cant i chose a state school so i wouldnt have debt and figured i d find a way to pay for it easily all my plan fell through and i only have a couple thousand in scholarship nowhere near enough to cover it i missed so many deadline and screwed up so much because i have no one to help me in my life no reliable adult or friend one of my best friend wa awarded a full tuition scholarship and i want to be overjoyed for her but i just feel so horrible about myself i tried so hard in high school with my grade and music and it amounted to nothing thousand dollar in scholarship is all i have to show for it i cant get any help from fafsa and i have a job but working is horrible when i can barely get out of bed how do i keep going when i have no one to support me and nothing to keep going for,1 @Jason_Manford Get a Wii fit ,0 think time throw toweli well established redditor know lot people person throwaway coincidentally speaking throwing things away thats decided myself life fucked hard recently ive bad since young age brain cancer sexual physical abuse etc think im willing try hang anymore negatives keep piling onto positives way live im done trying fuck life,1 read idcwell im shit ive fuck time parents feel same might get sent another troubled teens place fucking lose myself whatever comes first point ig bye ampxb,1 lol im horny reddit oh well,0 starting felt like loosing breath reason someone took doctor first time found panic attack preferred fighter life never ready accept may mentally sick terrifying feeling panic attack settles down usually day shaking muscles thighs feels control legs foggy loaded brain red burning eyes feeling killed me share explain happening me life kept demanding usually did used cry nights always felt death less painful option end misery face years old daughter drives hellwhy god thought creating life biggest question terrified worried shivering shaking legs fast heart beats foggy mood,1 knowi never thought would typing redflag note reddit ive thinking ending life since long remember finally courage so within exactly hours ingest poison take life cant take anymore hate life hate living hard everytime want something good end hurting people im disappointment im tired blamed everytime something goes wrong parents curse everyday hate them made way fault im tired hit everytime something wrong young girl wanted lot things become astrophysicist go harvard kind person successful now write this emptiness inside me longer desire live final goodbye hopefully one finds saves me hopefully though havent good world everyone deserves second chances ive given everybody including myself many chances time today im giving second chance ill take last walk read good book last dinner finally sharp everyone house fast asleep ill take poison whoever gonna reply this thank kind cruel words thank concern time cue goodbye,1 attempted redflag want try againi tried overdose sleeping pills high school exams result well go university im scared work ive quit last three jobs ive staying home since high school ended im now think future im afraid feel alone,1 YEY the weather here is finally taken a turn for the bettter! we have had sun for the last 4 days! ....damn thats probly jinxed now :S,0 Depression And Obsession,1 people think never heard things existed born fkn annoying like think never heard phone cord feel like happens time teacher actually thought know phone ticks reason even realy matter seems like theyre talking you though much better were young know fkn telephone cord is sorry wasting yr time kinda sounds whiney probably is,0 really easy lot love give none myself love another wasted spend others maybe love back turn feel loved cannot it tried self love business self love easy never loved ones suppose love me sparked fire self hate young child hurtful words become own voices hear anymore mine god bitch right fucking cow loud mean always got something smart say tried saying something nice sounds strange really fake rollercoaster always healing never healing good days scarce bad days feel like long winter night locked house feel alone this close eyes think bear hold little longer maybe saved maybe knows among lucky ones plucked crowd saviour oh god even writing make believe it truly love someone else cannot even love yourself,1 lfta so ur just gon na delete me like that y do i feel like quot tom cruise quot on jerry maguire when he got fired right now yo lol,0 starting religion rteenagers discord server ampxb were starting religion join movement sixl moonhttpspreviewredditraqkvzepngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsbeffdbbeecdbbae,0 @BTKing I'm so sad. I really wish whenever I logged into Aim you'd be there ;( i guess we have bad timing LoL. Georgia trip this weekend ,0 Lean on me when your not strong and ile be your friend oh camp,0 "@Mari122500 Substitute that pit of emptiness for something you really like to do, don't self medicate because you will only dive deeper into depression, meditate,",1 surviving homelessness doritohusseinive homeless greensboro nc since june mental break lost job plant nc using amphetamines survive isane schedule slip fall blacked eating weeks later tried kill crashing highway fortunately admitted behavioral health center unfortunately discharged streets lived car eventually car broke down moved homeless shelter got job city one would accept voucher find apartment tried jump central library last february thrown shelter lost job hospitalized lost bed months later properly diagnosed bipolar ii stayed friends slept bridges use remission since january eventually moved salvation army able secure voucher local housing authority struggle stay compliant meds im making progress now find secure apartment end fucking nitemare ive everywhere around town please help can im fucking exhausted need little light end tunnel,1 "Avocados boost your serotonin levels, so eating them is a good way to beat depression.",1 know take anymorei moved large city small city lived midwest nothing gone right since ive moved here found partner cheated me lost money job thankfully partner feels guilty hes let live apartment without contribution part hardly get bed havent met single person since ive moved here ive gained lbs ptsd managed therapy medication havent found therapist psychiatrist ive never poor ive never inconsolably depressed ive never lonely spend hrs day myself think killing constantly cant move back nowhere else go dont know do thing is nothing new ive spent life emotional pain therapy works little bit meds dull pain still spend days stuck bed still cry time even im best im waiting break again life maintenance hobbies anymore hardly read book lost friends traumatic experience ive labeled liar peers moved get away experience nothing hold here exist head think dying time first time wanted kill years old want thoughts stop want hobbies dreams goals years since ive felt true happiness every day get closer closer feel inevitable end think killing myself think beautiful would make it would turn ritual even something end life least last moments would enjoyable im getting better im old live like anymore,1 anyone done clonidineapparently lethal dose mgkg amount,1 "@HamzeiAnalytics Don't worry, the Japanese will buy all, they have total confidence in our debt...... ",0 understand redflag frowned uponim year old female ive suicidal adult life majority adolescence life terrible ive lost someone care about truly want here want part society feel unfair ive thrown life expected live born find joy things people life make real connections people really care anything fear everyday rest life going like this empty quite frankly pointless continue on people shoved life selfish one wanting leave god forsaken planet selfish wanting keep even though im miserable really want any oh everything get better one day see keep trucking really like me think mindset mood personality hate life hate society bullshit rules pretty much every person ive ever encountered stay anyone else feel way completely apathetic life happens every time tell someone this act like im crazy loving life burning passion proceed hide knives cant theyre looking,1 i have to go now.... make up duty for tomorrow...... goodnight to all.... ,0 griffmiester no exchanging for me my laptop hasn t arrived,0 abnormal feel like lack sex going last strawi problems real ones feeling trapped unfulfilling marriage one thats worse happy not id rather pull trigger leave try to what start over cheat would better leaving grieving family option leaving divorce alone ill survive consider though maybe ill easier forget im villain this care people think will feeling like sex stupid thing put importance makes loathe more want forgotten,1 feel like cause arguments fights familylike would better wasnt here know parents would sad honestly think life might actually improve them feel like right regret meidk,1 "MAY 30, 2009. 1:02am. http://plurk.com/p/x21gd",0 "I wrote a piece for @kenyon_isabelle 's blog called The Benefits of Writing to your Mental Health, which you can read here https://www.flyonthewallpoetry.co.uk/single-post/2018/04/10/The-benefits-of-writing-to-your-mental-health … I mentioned in the piece a story I wrote to help me through my depression & share some of it on my blog here https://23poetryhub.wordpress.com/2018/04/24/449/ ",1 getting pretty bad planning ending itmy wife kids left months ago wife deal depression lost job month ago im surviving severance pay another couple weeks drinking gallon rum every night exwife begging check hospital helped past im point want help want end k k im going cash maybe take one last vacation plan ending myself ive depressed life last year excruciating worse ever redflag seeming like last option words encouragement im really bad place edit say narcolepsy hours day im feeling energetic enough anything including getting help,1 depression f in suck,1 sad to hear about the discovery of the little girl from tracy her poor family,0 seriously dude waiting minutes get zoom class hasnt started yet idk maybe theres class fuck also isnt updates page whatsoever dont know lol help,0 god grace presence neither i came close eating honey bbq chicken wings pizza hut,0 mom doesnt believe adhd wont even let get diagnosed get medication shes gonna one crying grades trash im literally online schooling cant focus smh,0 reminder trump office days missed,0 @DavidArchie never knew "Up's" balloon salesman Carl Fredricksen is alredy 78-year-old! hahaha ,0 Video on open-mindedness. Around the five-minute mark it all starts to come together quite nicely ,0 "L and I had a great time rowing on the Avon at Bath and she has learnt to row! Now cooking dinner, about to watch House Feel knackered.",0 psa clean phones people look know ive got ocd urge keep things clean actually something everyone do see many people use phones everywhere go even toilet mean damn thing would obviously get costed germs stuff like this buy clorox wipes clean youre safe especially stupid coronavirus around,0 anyone think valve knew theyed creating whole new category porn made portal hindsight could have dont think wouldve thought,0 "J. Cole talks depression, married life, and new rappers in rare interview https://goo.gl/beyk53  pic.twitter.com/ppQwPtBFxm",1 im uselessim idiot redeeming qualities cant socialize people try make feel useful making traits wearing mask im people public try come funny interesting im boring piece shit interests passions could ever live dedicate long enough even come close getting better them im smart im attractive im sociable im athletic im nothing try make jokes create interesting stories even suck used smart atleast feel like it cant construct normal thoughts vocabulary limited im talented like kids see school specialty hobbies im mess tries catch never will im edgy idiot small brain ik true spend hours studying things people grasp minutes get distracted hours more think potential somewhere dont actually even adhd pill helped focus im fucking stupid cant form normal thoughts im always sidetracked think maybe potential im smart person cant express cant focus tap intelligence never happen nothing helped so cant fucking artist writer even handwritings shit express thoughts paper let alone draw im going zoning thinking philosophies concepts life rest mine ill never able hold normal conversation anyone long dont know express utilize thoughts thinking abilities try make feel better acting like idea whats going redeeming qualities im someone whos different good way instead fucking ball anxiety distraction insecurity endless selfconstrued facades aimed others alike think mental disorder theres something wrong me theres nothing wrong me theres excuse stupidity laziness inability grasp simple concepts act like like people around me like understand like understand me everytime someone finally gets close me relationship bound end shitty way cant help act im irresponsable keep long term relationship think im something different someone matters im slow hell cant construct simple thoughts simple things pick social cues rude fuck think maybe im nice person maybe ill finally find whatever im good finally settle someone likes finally meet someone seems like me cant express anything im stupid piece shit wishes value importance piss anyone get close to burden people im close im flowing shit hole problems needs dump people feel fine try think others like me actually manage enjoy obnoxious company think future writing films making music im never going live expectations set myself im going keep failing again could settle less live entire life wishing living greener grass write memo im gonna go back life bullshit act like im complete retard like think function normally talk people normally think might stop snapping anger im edgy fuck think might even nice reality im selfish prick cares cant try grasp concept world doesnt revolve around him think im main character movie reality ill probably stay cameo villain everyone wants see die stupid things think loathful thoughts get angry blue afterwards things wonder fuck wrong wish someone understood me knew hadnt snapped im evil person snapped im fucking idiot self control power ill go back normal life im gonna keep saying im fine everyday fine im introspective enough see useless every days ill cry heart out ask support wipe tears put mask back on ill repeat cycle eventually whoever cry get sick me eventually ill run people cry to im fucking trap negativity draws everyone around it theres nothing it many god damn masks fit well me personality mood want be perfectly feel mood emulate acts brain programs say start acting one way another acclimate setting surroundings feel happy bit ik happiness illusion facade happiness leaves anxiety depression racing mind come back thats thing im good atfaking out point dont even know real self is bunch personalities think real self would ambitious one thinks go good college smart balanced healthy kid somewhere along timeline template actions im in something change ill finally able relate socialize level two people maybe ill stop able analyze every detail around stop knowing details things inevitable ill stop running processes head like fucking computer talk people guess thoughts feelings maybe ill finally able stop racing thoughts channel intelligence onto something current ill finally able good enough good people around watch care regardless dead weight am ill finally amount undiagnosed piece shit result condom rupture wont kid whos weird fuck nutcase,1 @sitapati That sounds lovely! 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We'd love to come! ,0 i hate when people tell me i am so strong or brave i definitely don t feel like it i wish i wasn t i wish i could just end it for good i don t want to keep being strong so that i can just keep suffering it just make me feel like a coward honestly,1 merry christmas australia im lookin u,0 short comment want say like movie much sandra bullock favourite actress like whole story beginning end tape watch times matter,0 im sure anyone proud im posting anyway stood mom maybe first time history im shaking every time walk room sister constantly disrespect quiet even tho theyre reason happens im scared talk came room ask telescope said needed taking im proud finally took stand tldr finally stood disrespectful mother,0 really want end lifeis painless way,1 anistorm,0 fascinating movie based true story australian woman lindy chamberlain meryl streep accused killing baby daughter insists dingo took baby story highly suspicious film actually media circus took place around case way australians interpreted presented media lynch mob mentality ultimately led womans conviction based barely hard evidence love films question media also films take hard look people railroaded justice system ive always thought juries ought showed angry men go duties not often said liberal movie clinical look human beings interpret events based much prejudices desire revenge cry dark likewise clinical schepisi careful make film melodramatic may find film boring dry found engaging,0 movie british tv last night wonderful strong women great music most time makes think stereotypes older people ought do fantastic cameos sensible worried children getting near best movie ever ,0 im tiredi feel like cant take anymore feel alone need help know hotlines feel like talking someone loud country text chat line cknow im posting im tired lost,1 @FloFalcons41 hey to you too! ,0 guys need favor need yall bonk umax_the_throw_away shes horny needs degree bonk please help shawty,0 yet another foreign war movie puts hollywood shame real proportions hollywood productions harts war windtalkers unreal moving story backed strong acting great film making,0 nothing wa sick all day it sucked im just up late cant sleep,0 seen lot saura films always found amazing way assembles music dance drama great cinema movies ibria shows even better saura dealing multimedia concepts contemporary concept dance music another thing called attention fact that movie dancers musicians dance music equally important camera shows various aspects music interpretation examining technical issues also emotional experience playing interest saura bridge classical contemporary music dance one ingredient turning movie maybe aesthetically exciting among works thats recommend strongly love good cinema good music good dance great art,0 today birthday nobody remembers got wishes best friend immediate family bad person one remember birthday,0 feel stuck like imposter feel worthless unmotivated time nothing future me like everyone else way better never good anything little energy days still days okay ways normal former take again often feel like run away stuff faking faking depression,1 dumped someone loved need someone talk toi posted rrelationship_advice want details dumped someone loved depression got much her im occasionally ok sometimes get extremely upset it fault left cant back post httpswwwredditcomrrelationship_advicecommentsjgm_just_got_dumped_by_girlfriend_of_one_year_f gone life maybe thats good happy im happy person im alone lost best friend moving on please help me need advice someone talk to,1 unstable getting worstrecently graduated high school starting college monday already feel like program summer slow mostly work went times enough liking even know like going people parties day activities chillings etc everything distractforce stay normal friends im attached them two closest friends piss one always jokes pansexual stopped talking part close family parents brother piss off feel connected all feel respect part thats it understand understand me ive mostly talking people online last year so started hating almost everyone them ones get close usually ends getting shitty phase blocking everyone out probably loved people friends intimately anyone else offline life connection easy break though end caring particular reason moving on feel like love people around time dont right im shit phase relatively calm right now feeling much go bathroom kitchen matter seconds become intensively sad feel like shit im home alone become someone totally different sing dance go swimming unless altered state alcohol weed mind usually keep everything hate show really feeling emotion slips anger guess cant keep one gets big feel exhausted sad get angry really feel shitty feeling angry feel like im good person things think people see around me way think general makes feel like giant asshole emotions unstable guess im diagnosed everything psychiatrist december like january got redflag attempt one emotion break way unstable now pissed thought adhd gave help doctors her lied pretended everything fine gave sleeping pills witch never took ive pretending ever since now know im trying get this felt like sharing people thoughts think post bit edgy liking felt like sharing biggest fear get bad state something stupid take bus metro every day go school theres nothing stopping jump rails oh well quick last thought anyone else emotion bursts im positive bipolar disorder might passing took screening tests know accurate we thanks taking time read,1 lmfao "how fast were you going?" "35" "bullshit you flipped your car!" i love storytiiime ,0 teacher asked class whos favorite president everyone went obama,0 kill nytol curious nytol,1 preparing redflagive bought long belt hang decided next week im going try isolate sever ties friends family order less painful them reality is friends said theyd sad died doubt theyd even notice isolate stop seeing even notice theyd probably happy deal depressed ass say theyd sad reality thats itll death one theyd gef quite quick unfortunately know itd devastate family isnt much that yeah though id share need get chest thanks,1 time kids im outi cant live without wife kids fucked lost all shes moved on year old talks new dad time told kisses mommy lips sleeps room time week kids meet give back ill apologize tell ill always love her want happy try hug hold one last time ill cross median without seatbelt let collect insurance,1 sure live anymore going insane inside mindhey all ive deep state depression pain time gotten point feel trapped mentally able much anything job yearim ive seasonal work community limited work ive hard time getting one ive tried lot put utmost im really afraid afraid committing ad hearing schedule im tried drained time sleep day often feel weak feel like im going insane boredom cant much it live hill outskirts town neighborhood next sage hills okay im feeling like im trapped alone it like environment driving insane mentally ive mainly house long time leaving go sometimes town afternoon stuff mom dad pushes go stuff days sometimes causes lot anxiety conflicts him would try excersize im afraid mental block cant it hard explain really feel cant move life im mentally right dad angry complains lot verbally abusive mom somewhat understands completely im therapy helping much almost wonder need go hospital inpaitient therapy im afraid uncertain asked therpaist says inpaitient mainly people danger hurting themselves cant lay home much longer feel unwell even think mind everyday know im suffering lot want harm im scared cant go way thanks support,1 warning post dad joke realized quaranteens ill see,0 weird yr old beard ill shave ,0 This is what it's like to live with high-functioning depression http://bit.ly/2qY5VsX  pic.twitter.com/DFlaobZCTg,1 soo hungry! hot dogs with all the fixings? sounds yummy ! ,0 divorcemy wife told me via text morning separating chronic pain sufferer reached point making happy thing gave life meaning im terrible father never developed kind relationship kids have im waiting day end reason dont kill trauma would cause kids get day nothing makes happy anymore things used give joy came physical things cant anymore wife doesnt love anymore,1 @LatissaH Do you know KevinSpacey? Or do you just like sending him tons of messages ,0 anything girl boy bus stand recieves text girl girl boy waiting bus girlokay hurry boy waits faster,0 whos lil game go omegle put reddit interests answer every call bananas cool try find fellow teens sub,0 best flight need get as in gear wana go away bt nt sure where cairo amp uk maybe bt may b able go earlier bt wont no til,0 Staying up late to help a friend. ,0 @emceet I'm headed 2 hang out with my friend right now but I will def have it done by tomorrow! I'll hit u up as soon as its done ,0 live anymorehonestly fuck love feelings try care people push away try come back end ignoring me done everything trying pointless,1 didn t want to be a tax inspector anyway,0 hi fello guys guyettes sooo friends hav discord server r trying get new peoplee chat send memes play games like minecraft among us theres ppl console channel ask opposite sex channel relationship advice anime images ppl europe australia asia too stuff going on commitment guys girls welcome teen baby old man loool dm link ,0 "He's the prince of peace,mighty God,http://bit.ly/2ooWS little surprise scat in there ",0 being trans fucking suck kayleigh will never pas therapist are ghosting her so there s no help not to mention on top of that having a piece of shit father and failing school doesn t exactly help just need to end it so the pain can finally stop but too much of a pussy to do it fuck everyone who say it ll get better kayleigh ha heard that for the longest time now and not once ha it gotten better,1 phone number address full legal name d scan door key list fears weaknesses please,0 fuck environment people go thru shit n im still going thru shit sorry u dont like except im not,0 I need friends who play Xbox 360 more often http://bit.ly/16U6kN,0 joynerlucas machinegunkelly nice toxic masculinity good to know your music about issue like suicide and depression were just fake shit for click if you had real mental health issue you wouldn t be perpetuating homophobia and toxic masculinity every cent you ve earned wa through coopting other s pain,1 im suicidal really fucking beat sadi met girl playing online game years ago knew moment heard voice one wanted with took years met available even close position want date again years later year engaged dropped me quit job gave college put focus making happy bad person resent her planned whole life around us im unemployed missed years college im alone im emotional person every imgur story sappy youtube video sets off cant stop crying want sleep forever decent job interview today hopefully things turn around want someone know im ok think im ever going ok waited right person got thrown away,1 dm idgaf wanna talk someone hold conversation tell ur age gender im m btw sorry let fellow virgins,0 forbidden planet represents kind science fiction precious cinema especially s day earth stood still war worlds lest forget gem took story shakespeares tempest tell tale astronauts planet doctor made remarkable breakthrough kind breakthrough much incredible look though look quite amazing look sets gigantic machine doctor creates emphasis characters themes technology taken far primitive side human nature even know were channeling itbr br on surface first ten minutes looks standard little professionally acted directed better skill bmovies period ship astronauts mission planet altair bring back expedition went missing decades before one left dr morbis walter pidgeon daughter somehow immune attack left everyone else dead morbius appears cordial highly intelligent man technology looks impressive thing astronauts led skipper leslie nielsen think report back superiors earthbr br but theres catch something killing members crew ship one one every night even others keep eye put invisible electric fence invisible something goes easily meanwhile theres romance possibly skipper alraira theres pushy vibe doctor come planet start need go happens even fascinating purely intellectual level forbidden planet never forgets audience also entertained story getting useful ideas everyone may remember robbie robot good reason perhaps unforgettable image monster realized screen crew firing avail animated red electricity looking beastly looks fantasiabr br the acting pidgeon subtle expect villain though something character performance speaks this end makes character far complex one would expect performances workmanlike also excellent nielsen born leader holliman providing great comic relief cook who add helps one funniest scenes film gallons bourbon robbie provides effects time extraordinary sophisticated nostalgic pulp way today too music done electronics beautiful tones ultimately screenplay careful direction hilcox puts notch rest bmovie lot meant funny intentionally works dramatic connects quite well even stiff moments actors made think horrible situation comes gradually nuance shoved faces injected megaactionbr br an inspiration many scifi films fine marker thoughtful science fiction stories books timeold classy entertaining classic,0 i ve essentially given up given up a much a i m allowing myself to sometimes i don t eat for day and then when i do eat it s sporadic and unhealthy i ve stopped exercising i never really took care of the eczema on my skin i just use a an excuse to self harm do a lot of addictive thing a well nothing too insane it s mostly just to numb my feeling i haven t left my apartment imsince january rd since there s a convenience store and laundry room here i have unhealthy fantasy about a life that doesn t exist because i can t seem to enjoy mine at all i don t believe in myself and it keep me from doing hardly anything at all other than what it take to survive i ve never really succeeded in life and have always just been a bit of a joke despite wanting to do thing i wa always discouraged by others or mostly my own lack of ability motivation i don t think therapy would work for someone like me you have to want therapy and actively do it i actively work against myself because i think it only a matter of time before people just give up on me that or i push everyone away first i make mock gun motion out of reflex and i ve never owned a gun i have the simple thought of death most day my roommate nearly caught me the other night looking over our balcony i just don t get it i have no direction and it seems like most activity eventually just upset me i either stay stagnant the way i am and achieve nothing but stay safe and comfortable while also going insane from a lack of fulfillment or i try to bear being upset and uncomfortable through a bunch of random thing throughout my life probably ending up something that isn t really worth it for the struggle they both sound awful and i get it life isn t fair maybe i don t want to participate when thing aren t fair,1 afraid brother he will kill andor othersmy brother severe depression years comes room eat tv dinners day go bathroom exception goes charter school twice week grades good failing dropped hobbies past months begun breaking treasured possions random room locks door smashes things hours refusing open even id pound scream outside door refused stop punching wall eventually taken emergency room broken hand contantly says future going kill himself also talks killing mother spanked him screamed him poured soup mouth form punishment when little mother refuses aknowledge anything abusive still live parents year old unemployed college student trying get job applied jobs week family friends financial resources parents brother refuse professional help live constant fear one day knock door refuses answer killed himself do,1 every feeling overwhelmingposting throwaway never felt terrible before ive gone motions suicidal feeling fixed went free happy now different never felt insignificant worthless miserable before im years old every last bit life nothing used much creativity used creative genius one smartest kids one artistic one best writers now nothing nothing makes unique nothing defines me ive lost identity im nobody everything want far live different life want to every thought different do body acts independently mind self control hate it feel alone everything do feel like failure like nobody im afraid call hotline physically speak mom hears gets concerned then shell port someone get help want bring pain suffering parents lives need be hate myself cant control myself crying way comfort myself want feel lonely want feel useless whats point living ever mediocre,1 anime conspiracy make go bankrupt hygiene companies saw it sellings shampoo companies drops anime became popular,0 ok learning danish duolingo think know enough make pun kvinden mean kvindet far tell because duolingo tell shit two suffixes mean the en et seems en used talking animals people et used talking objects first danish person see instantly going correct this thats seems like so translation is woman human mean woman object takes common joke women less human men makes grammatical thus producing laughter yeah really bad post,0 In spokane almost to the mall ,0 Many health conditions can affect your #sleep quality—from asthma and allergies to depression and dementia. Here are the connections to know. http://bit.ly/Sleepandhealth  #health pic.twitter.com/sualUJliWi,1 years heri anorexic dealing bullshit since got diagnosed im facing hardest relapse ever feel alone ashamed feel like one really understands fucking miserable illness im floating here alone ive abusing adderall ive sleeping lot avoid eating im uni feel like also adds pressure overall feel look overweight cant possible stress enough fucking look overweight im thin rail snap it pound thinking still pounds anyways im making post feel lost feel like cant recover ive dealing stupid voice past years non stop never fucking stops god damn never stops feel like going music eternity haunting die think ive reached point ill anything get voice head cant take anymore constant fight me her food cant anymore years stupid shit gets tiring im tired want out didnt sign this,1 ha a huge headache but got ta go to work,0 #WednesdayWisdom #Depression #MentalHealthMatters Do not live your life for others validation live it for your own. pic.twitter.com/WQQK7IuFTY,1 yeah friends yeah see friends everyday supportive always positive always talk them ampxb ampxb never talk back though mean sometimes make noise yeah friends definitely cats mean hahahaha im social cool teenager,0 lolzitsmel paranormal wa pretty good tonight,0 @caffienated you don't! ,0 well SOMEONE *cough*momo*cough* wont do my homework for me so i have to do it myself. haha,0 i don t know what to do at the moment lately i ve been cry almost everyday and i m angry constantly i felt that i had the obligation to please everyone mom boyfriend etc but i forgot how to be happy how to look forward for tomorrow,1 would anyone care killed myselfif killed today family wouldnt even sad theyd probably angry anything since redflag frowned upon n id prolly fuck family honor cuz thats care about theyd prolly try sweep rug n make look like accident save face ive anything need worry bout ive pets immediate care rely me folks would take care least bunnies would safe n thats care outstanding loans debts government individual couldnt come family money bonus least folks cant get mad leaving tax man waiting always quiet one friend group dont rlly notice whenever im gone theyd prolly assume disappeared whatever accord dont blame em fault short dont think anyone would rlly care even notice would prolly mild annoyance worst thank coming ted talk,1 "@scrapchick yes, he actually has been giving some lovely foot rubs lately. ",0 Depression sucks.,1 guys believe afterlifepersonally im going commit redflag notion eternal nothingness awaits always fun romanticize conscious existence death ive watching dmt videos basically chemical exists inside living things stuff thats released dream also prominently occurs right death cases called spirit molecule smoke conscious mind gets transported alternate dimension bunch crazy colorful shit goes forever along bizarre entities patterns feelings immense love fear ascension etc anyways existence becomes never ending spiral amazing psychotic eternity guys believe sort afterlife theory guys even want this,1 going details want person find reddit post feel heartbroken urges getting worse know going try kill soon hope time succeed tried kill yesterday lost someone close due attempt,1 i m done with this world and there s no changing my mind on that but i do know that i don t want my death to mean nothing i m a healthy teenage athlete with a good body so if anyone here know how i could go out but keep my organ preserved for people in need of them i need answer there s people that want to live and me who is done with living so i want to help them live their life if i laid in a tub of ice would it help,1 "@marco_cali Nope. Unexpected happenings - my sister arrived home, so Im gonna be spending time with her ",0 group chat lol hmu ur snap make gc join long ur teen lol,0 dad buy car totaled like supposed continue classes dad grab lawnmower go school yeah like know school right across street summer heat really kicks in know,0 i hate when software update downloads update without telling me i never know what s downloading when it is,0 @BTS_ARMY_INT They got me out of depression during the darkest moments of my life and nothing can explain how profoundly they have impacted my life. They're the only constant in my life even when things are falling apart and thats one reason why i will protect them at all cost,1 girlfriend epic heres shes really cute beautiful really pale skin like idk like face body proportioned good looks great shes nice sometimes shes bit annoying everyone usually shes nice makes feel better im sad upset shes generally fun talk shes great shes funny uses dankmemes like thats one flaw besides sends funny memes like talking like idk makes smile chuckle exhale nose sometimes laugh audibly nice name first name charly wont say last privacy fun write cursive pretty named hurricane pretty cool one goes smaller tiny reasons cant think specifically make great like idk say parts individually doesnt sound great put together shes perfect like nothing really perfect perfect like everything flaws like shes perfect like listening love songs remind sometimes ok shes back online gotta go bye reddit people nice day,0 responds texts late night texted girl like around pm yesterday responded two hours later respond replies hour that ask question around pm responds happening now text late afternoon responds could possibly mean anything,0 duchess rebecca man intervention is soo sad,0 want much open lgbt whats cisgender cis male whats difference pansexual bisexual people think genders like non binary genderqueer im really confused dont wanna offend anyone future,0 uh oh nooo feel like im gonna taste food twice,0 i need some selsun blue pretty sure i have a small spot of haole rot,0 i simply don t care anymore they took away the reason i began to feel hope in living again i don t trust anyone i just feel the world is a horrible place i just want to die and find peace i can t handle anymore this feeling of hopelessness anxiousness and resentment i hate living and i hate everyone i m just a fucking burden i can t even find the courage to end it all sometimes can t believe i ve become that miserable people my age are excited to begin their life and i just want it to end right now we are just slave of a system that exploit u what s the fucking point of trying anyways pls someone help me,1 Yay twitterific works ,0 hello know im hereso really know say never thought id get close killing self honesty felt like emotions check everything falling once first know kill self would selfish already talked sister feelings devastated pissed ex girlfriend put lot stress know want go back her im trying reddit cant make sence want kill self even though know would stupid cant shake feeling gotten worse worse past two weeks start explain feel way guess girlfriend recently broke cause trust issues looking back stupid given space needed stressing school also possibility cheated gave std wont know till get test thing loved girl much cared fact went drinking random guy let trust issues mess head well previously stressing falling behind bills guess everything going go stressed got sick week got written up know im goanna able continue pay school either go uni town im working bio degree dreamed doctor kinda see dream slipping weirdest part miss ex much factor seem taking much space head vary supportive family could almost feel self slipping point return feels like im drowning morning actually felt clam come feeling killing self even talking guys feel like desperate cry attention self feeling kept going people this know do im afraid im goanna go it even know could even possibly tell go though it thought would give try hurt least try something guess knew let go someone interest me might help im sorry putting guys,1 last day of work before i go on holiday argh got fuck load to do,0 see classes might extremely weird want go counselling room knock door theyre session im probably gonna nervously laugh walking in talking teachers no cant go therapist directly due parents lack understanding ignorance mental illnesses,1 whatever happened baby nut got planters ad old mascot happened baby nut never really cared hes fucking pea still anyone know,0 died step sister kicked dad balls rly hard fucking tiktok boys ik feel pain like hours still feel nauseous sick,0 quirky movie brits well low budget cameo type roles well executed story little weak recently widowed judi dench decides round blonde bombshells well almost all girl band performed war london obligatory sondaughter thinks gone potty like way movie lets young people see monopoly feelings love even lust old wrinklies good laugh too judi dench superb always pity get see blonde bombeshells end little rushed thought kept thinking watched david jason would made even better patrick ian holm although quite adequate transvestite drummer cheery movie well worth night girls ,0 @esmecullen800 I'm good How are you?,0 yesterday beaming happiness receiving job offer field today job offer rescinded unexpectedly changed work hours which available for received nd dental school rejection today spending applicationi try stay hopeful everything goes south like life teasing good things snatching away me cannot get job dentist hope ever life even living for better end instead continuously tortured try stay hopeful everything going wrong,1 hello everyone new group uk dealing depression alot first diagnosed ocd redflag depression years ago recently come month relationship use lean lot support mental health gone kind stuck really anyone talk day mum best friend id like someone make friends make general conversation with lifes constant spiral anyone advice please let know go easy lol advice get break would appreciated thanks much need someone talk,1 a i write this it feel so attention seeking like i am looking for a reason to stay a reason to feel i have all the reason right in front of me my girlfriend my best friend my dog however none of it matter i m drunk and all i want to do is die i m scared i m scared of how that will make my friend family and girlfriend feel how can i put them through that i wish i didn t care i wish i didn t care about their feeling i wish i could just go get a gun or in my car and resume back to the chapter before my birth sometimes surviving an event is the hard part me surviving life is the hard part it feel like i could go in forever forever knowing that it s just chemical in my brain that make me want to blissfully enjoy the enteral slumber that awaits u all medicine scare me what if it change who i am the last time i wa on the medicine i slept for the majority of the day unable to get out of the blissful slumber that carried away my thought and sorrow eventually i ll have the gut if i rid myself of everyone who care,1 people care late im sick everything probably drown sea comments please overlook mei accepted people care im gone bad people care all kind like people subreddit posted sub yesterday saying going kill myself decided push another day seemed like chore maybe today ill it maybe day idk yet look see fake humans everywhere cringe nobody truly cares people may shrivel care me ive pushed away ruined bond fake love hurts way bump bruise ended dying yesterday honest someone like use world reason alive ive tried soul searching ive tried looking passion nothing ever work nothing gives joy theres way death least peace im still alive still hate that im good anything never good anything energy anything productive feed peoples lives sleep schedule diet eternally broken mindset never changed im horrible stubborn human cannot change care progressing life get anywhere deeper inside hole suicidal ideation comfort fact always wildcard killing makes relieved feeling low cannot last forever need end point likely end death,1 wawaeilicious bdk skrg ni memg kurang didikan agama atau memg dah tak ada agama atau ramai bdk melayu bkn islam cara lain kau tu memg kau boleh decide ke utk matikan diri kau awal benda ni trigger kot utk org yg ada depression hari minta mati tp tau bunuh diri tu dosa ada cara tak dosa,1 holy fuck hungry go browsing food subreddits wrong me,0 else shares birthday today today september birthday else shares birthday day turn today going great,0 struggling years scared admit feel end nearwhere start mother murdered someone close family since ive issues life emotions general growing up got fights school lots them listen anyone get along father would beat something care next day id again care hated everything hated life dealt hated town lived in hated father sister hated myself never pleased physique looks sports anything often contemplated jumping garage head first falling tree fashion always thought death better alternative never able actually jump garage head first moved fathers place roughly thirteen went lived family little while changed still angry still defaulting suicidal thoughts shit got bad getting along family took in got kicked out lived streets sixteen seventeen gotten girl pregnant actually helped fresh perspective thoughts less frequent first daughter born im living mother were collecting social assistance pressures child whilst child dropped schooldidnt get along teachers students coupled default rage end abuser daughters mother first time happened angry myself believe let things get point believe struck partner kind piece shit i one day daughter angers point fucking kill myself deserve better happened multiple times always defaulted kill xyz finally ended leaving thing another relationship im years old literally exact repeat previous relationship time im thinking killing abusive events thoughts frequent day day lifeat work driving watching tv relationship inevitably ends take time really get anger control eventually learn okay angry okay react mention throughout relationships never really let guard down never mentioned anything thoughts default reactions run head neither partners ever known even thought redflag although love them let know me real inside whos never really felt like hes belonged here think im smarter anyone think think way ive never type person openly discuss emotions longest time emotion could truly feel anger get wrong stints happiness never lasted always overshadowed rage depression thoughts redflag yet another relationship one much better others kids together abuse either party would still get arguments ends usually bike ride talking healthy suicidal thoughts became less frequent thats say were point children love world cant stand thought know father never got know mother fast forward almost decade thoughts little aggressive seemingly matching decline relationship relationship ends im hurt it feel like saw coming easier handle angry it still frequent suicidal thoughts current day ive relationship someone almost year half still aggressive thoughts even though relationship golden standards relationship recently ended well broke me wanted things im old now kids older think im supposed here ive felt whole life like omnipotent fucked up took wrong person know things get better heartbreak ive before heartbreak thats pushed here im done give cant keep fighting thoughts every day im strong enough think possible happy life im always thinking really fucked ways die look fall escalator basement every day think it thoughts getting bad almost like someone else screaming me im mentally exhausted thinking affect family im physically exhausted im sick angry time half life over kids got know was speak much father siblings best friend last relationship cant even talk now never able open either even though wanted share everything her ive tried anti depressants ive doctors cant cope anymore ive basically said goodbye everyone matters without letting know goodbye feel bad kids know understand theyll say everyone else says he took cowards way out person strong cant continue every moment every day im looking anything seeing die bus hit killed guy city long ago hanging seems like good option read done right ill snap neck instantly im scared swallow pills want fail want family see like that drive electric scooter people almost kill every day avoid them ive never seen light end tunnel definitely see one now ive grown ive matured ive given time pass instead gotten stronger stronger now somehow loved ones ever see post im gone know love nothing wrong difficult path walk me brain cant anymore sorry,1 i don t see the meaning of life in general or the purpose of my own life i ve been clinically depressed and in and out of therapy for seven year now which is of my life which make me feel sad i ve reached this point where i don t even have the desire to take an active role in anything that happens to me or in my choice i feel very passive like i m just sort of letting my life lead me instead of leading it i feel dormant like i m just existing and i d barely even call myself alive everyone around me ha relationship thing to look forward to goal to meet etc yet i m only year old and i cant find even one attainable thing that i have the desire to accomplish i know i m not supposed to compare because everyone is different and blah blah blah but i m jealous of others who are driven and motivated i m unhappy and unfulfilled but simultaneously i m burnt out from constantly trying to work on myself get better and look for thing that will help change my mentality i really don t know what i should do next that is if i can bring myself to do anything at all,1 @ShaniaMileyFan oh & my eyes. Not bad at all. I just need glasses. I had them for a while. But couldn't get used to them. & then I tried,0 @CT_x thnx found her ,0 afraid yet willingim tired itlife lived long survivedkept breathing remember like pretend happy actually truly feel happiness feel dead inside told id finish degree next yearat least mom dad think complete failure now im done it cant keep this hurt myselfthat helps sometimes want iti cant keep living like this somebody help me give painless death,1 ruined lifein january sexually assaulted boyfriends roommate boyfriend dating almost four years time loved anything spiraled happened broke him tried find solace someone else pushed everyone cared away created fake version thought would keep emotions bay now september everything comes rushing in want back ruined everything every relationship have one blame alone this im tired feeling like this three years since diagnosed bipolar disorder ive never felt like ive gotten control life moods decisions cant mad people wanting around feels lonely now one left turn talk to two weeks ago made attempt got scared got help next day felt weak dont know get dark place,1 started watch movie vh cringed mtv movies bad wasnt expecting much movie really good liked lot even twist end see movie shows made tv movies good exist,0 horny horny,0 i married my fianc from another nationality and moved to his country south korea i ve been here for almost three month and thing have been rough my husband work all day at least 0 hour a day and when he ha free time all we do is fight he s even violent sometimes i am an online teacher and he keep my money he doesn t allow me to get a real job until i learn korean but i am struggling with it i spent all my saving to move in here so literally i have no money we live with his parent and they are nice but at the same time overprotective i don t have freedom to go out they tell me what to eat what to wear they take all the decision in my life i feel controlled and my husband agrees with that also i don t have any friend i don t feel loved by my husband and i don t love him anymore even one of his friend treat me better i am completely alone i told my parent i want to go back home and they said i have to fight for my marriage so no support from them or another family member i think my only way to feel free is dying so i don t know if i can handle this situation anymore,1 bought rope againthe ropes thin though long could cut pieces braid it even know im posting here waste time,1 young first saw close eyes flashback starts im standing there balcony summer air,0 health issues likely cancer also severe mental health issues cannot take anymore everyone think happens die cease exist agnostic know head arse present world cruel place us lost souls sorry suffering much die,1 sister knows self harm dont know never said anything knows shes seen posts ive made it dont know feel weird ,0 thinking last letters everybody clear reasons mental state abusive mother therapist care less clear contributors relatives friends care course innocents children nice people issuesi wish tell people made decision care still afraid end mother therapist blame others innocents left wonder wrong sort want dick anyone also want people use ignorance mean might someone could save at least therapist future realize power would write it blaming others,1 i m going into surgery in le than hour and it s really starting to sink in i already have pretty bad medical anxiety from past childhood trauma i wa a cancer kid i ve been stress cleaning all day and keeping myself distracted but it just kinda hit me that when i wake up i will be going in like there s not more time left between and my anxiety is building rapidly some advice or encouragement would be appreciated,1 hi tell enjoy cod series might enjoy content httpsyoutubecomchanneluccdahyyjypuxrpacenca,0 i m done with life i can t cope year wa enough anyway will 00mg of amitriptyline 00mg of lyrica and 00mg of tramadol kill me if you re reading this i hope you re doing well,1 im going slit wrists tonightim never happy anymore,1 i failed my behind the wheel test for the third time god know how many time i took and failed the written exam though i seem to be doing fine when i m driving with my husband i wonder if me and driving is not just meant to be i suck at everything,1 simon pegg plays part sidney young young entertainment writer begun beginnings career writing grassroots magazine specializes badmouthing shallowness superficiality rich famous making career lampooning celebrities although desperate wish celebrity himself movie based bizarre career toby young also ran small magazine britain called modern review offered scathing criticism pretty much everything imaginable closed magazine hail verbal bullets coeditor went spectacularly failed career writer vanity fair pretty much part life told movie br br he first thrilled go work major publication called sharps magazine movie despite active nerves notredflagly beaming first day meets chief editor clayton harding played jeff bridges hard nails also exactly kind editor needs goofoff like young keep job magazine offers little form immediate acceptance young also described liberal tolerance youngs offthewall antics inappropriate behavior br br much comedy movie derived youngs misunderstanding indifference generally accepted code public behavior peculiar etiquette involved dealing rich famous sidneys reasons acting weird way giving outwardly offensive interviews believes loathes entire celebrity culture and would seem believes ageold saying if cant beat em join emand beat embr br complicating matters two different women charming regular girl magazine named alison olsen kirsten dunst first appalled sidneys obvious arrogance womanizing ways stunning model named sophie megan fox represents celebrity culture needless say sidneys endless attack superficiality stardom superficial lust sophie one look starbr br sophie stunningly beautiful true also comes across single thought rattling around head alison regular girl interesting attractive dunsts performance makes real person relationship would reality britney spears marriage yet movie retains level believability because despite obvious is also feel sidneys pain pursuing i felt it anywaybr br how lose friends alienate people pretty interesting premise full honest satisfactory performances although turns bit standard romantic comedy third act variety welldeveloped interesting characters danny huston example gives us great performance alisons love interest pays homage big lebowski also starring bridges everpresent white russian one personal favorite drinks buying absolute kahlua china costs equivalent kitchen never without them br br i looking forward day simon pegg branch little bit love films completely unsure range played serious character hot fuzz serious relation lunacy surrounding him ultimately went back again pretty much shaun dead run fat boy run lose friends hes rising star interesting see else do,0 No u just do searches and u get pts. Then u exchange for prizes. I got $15 amazon so far ad bout to get $5 more ,0 i am so alone in this world and it is such a pain it s so hard for me to function properly it seems everything is a trigger to me now loud noise well any noise being around people talking everything make me want to relapse im gaining weight which ha never happened i m so ashamed and embarrassed yesterday i ate so much i couldn t even stand up straight and had terrible stomach cramp and felt like vomiting i even started to have chest pain too whether i eat or starve myself it seems i am still digging myself into a grave so tired of people asking me if i m in college and then telling me i need to go when i respond no i am not in college why do people feel entitled to tell me who to be and what to do with my stupid fucking life i can t even take care of myself how the hell am i supposed to balance a job and college im sick i have nobody that love me and i believe that s part of the problem the thing i hate the most is when i hear others talk about how they are lonely too meanwhile they have friend and a family to turn to i m so sick and tired of people lying to me i can t believe this is the best life ha to offer me i m so embarrassed my life wa over such a long time ago if i killed myself now there would be no big difference everything and everyone will go on,1 this film works true trying say ignore dynamics plot focus message see little bit main character michael whether male female us come point lives want look back reexamine situation relationship really occur like remembered went wrong michaels desire find grace completely selfish anything wants make feel better things turned out even so sympathetic character everyone selfish comes relationships would otherwise film ends sure michael learned anything new not best gauge relationship friend nadia soul movie reminds us always two sides every story found michael pompous arrogant plain clueless exactly liked him real character ever wanted go back analyze previous relationship film you closing film everyone,0 another ice cube post ice cubes flavours one would pick,0 possible get euthanizeddepression started high school made tons bad grades trouble focusing bullying teasing folks dropped college much time worked terrible retail warehouse jobs years hopped job job looking decent fulltime work preferably office went army one dream careers failed ait due injury refuse reenlist due stuff somebody became man adult friends personality guess freedom had considered holdoverholdunder least im back home family never understands neglect feelingsemotions seems like cant happy continue fail everything help social anxiety want end all thing keeping committing redflag pain ill feel want die sleep something thoughts driving deep river fear drowning places euthanization legal want live anymore care family feels never consider feel anything theyre old traditionalist christians never deal depression stress social anxiety want fade obscurity cease exist tldr failed lot life matured away home came back home failure,1 I think this documentary should be watched at least once a year and shared with as many friends as possible... http://bit.ly/hrxp ,0 s often regarded golden age british television comedy period saw numerous classic sitcoms well sketch shows monty pythons flying circus period was however emphatically golden age british film comedy worked well television rarely transferred successfully big screen triumphant exceptions rule provided pythons best films monty python holy grail life brian different conception tv showbr br the main problem adapting sitcoms cinema concepts devised fit bbcs minute slots minutes itv find room commercials always work well expanded feature film three four times long people remember film versions of say up pompeii steptoe son affection television versions case many classic tv comedy shows some mothers ave em yes minister fawlty towers the goodies attempt made film all grateful characters michael crawfords frank spencer john cleeses basil fawlty hilarious halfhour doses doubt would remain funny two hours one comedy programme albeit dramatisation comic novel rather sitcom normal sense might worked cinema the fall rise reginald perrin hopes film dashed tragically early death star leonard rossiterbr br dads army one television sitcoms period turned decent film about one think porridge possibly unusually large number welldeveloped characters derived humour interactions them original sitcom ran told misadventures home guard platoon small seaside town walmingtononsea the home guard initially known local defence volunteers auxiliary militia world war ii made up part men old serve regular forces film version threeact drama act deals formation platoon recruitment members act ii cause havoc army training exercise act iii succeed capturing group nazi airmen whose plane shot downbr br the three key players drama platoons commander captain george mainwaring arthur lowe two subordinates sergeant arthur wilson john le mesurier corporal jack jones clive dunn mainwaring civilian life local bank manager fussy little man peering world pair thick spectacles takes initiative forming home guard unit appoints commander pompous officious exaggerated sense importance powers leadership sort man suffer fools gladly and george mainwarings worldview term fool covers rest human race does however good qualities motivated genuine patriotic idealism capable great physical courage shown encounter germansbr br wilson mainwarings deputy bank two men different character something emphasised difference appearance wilson tall thin whereas mainwaring short stout comes across intelligent better educated boss his accent suggests may former public schoolboy nevertheless ended playing second fiddle civilian military life probably sort passive personality leads pessimism defeatism inability take anything altogether seriously jones old soldier runs local butchers shop his promotion corporal due mainly ability bribe mainwaring black market sausages enthusiasm new role matched incompetence ability cause chaos although catchphrase dont panic prone panicking given opportunitybr br several members platoon featured private fraser dour scottish undertaker even pessimist wilson catchphrase were doomed man doomed private godfrey gentle old man whose main concern whereabouts nearest lavatory private walker sharp cockney spiv private pike another bank employee spoilt mummys boy pikes mother wilsons mistress although wilson tries keep liaison secret disapproving mainwaring two significant outsiders mildmannered vicar arp warden mainwarings detested enemy quite equal pompousness officiousnessbr br there occasional bawdy doubles entendres keep hands privates mainwaring ostensibly referring soldiers hold rank television show surprisingly free innuendo its creators david croft jimmy perry would later go create comedy shows are served hidehi notorious suggestive humour film does however preserve much mixture gentle wit nostalgia sharp characterisation made tv series successful ,0 im bored and my finger hurt from playing the guitar all day,0 dad savage every time ask dad go friends says youre lying know friends laughs ass off im mad time proud,0 Feeling sleepy already - it's only 0:40. Gotta finish here and go to bed. Tomorrow is a busy day and I need to be fresh ,0 whats better gonna delete post later need help first care anyones feelings think me led enjoy hurting people physically mentally guilt ill want matter immoral ill execute everything way cause significant damage life hate everything self acknowledge stuff ive done doing depressed isolate myself hurt myself regret waking feel tired time wait day end every day options have theres thing alternative me im already terrible person never change hurt people closest me never kids partner anyway please help,0 rustyrockets i ll give you a fiver towards the fine not much but im skint from paying for al darling eyebrow waxing,0 yep im done here momentfather brain tumor mother dead brother schizo wife love me stable career getting older unhappy ive always wanted die came close five years ago epiphany im done ive fumes five years now barely living feel like cross hurdle mentally killing self act frightening sat envisioned gun temple pulled trigger incredibly easy anyone else feel that like yea were done now,1 @tcouto Cool stuff! ,0 half assed redflag attempt number maybe dont even remember anymorei dont think hanging going work dont wanna try long drop dont properly ill probably end paralysed thinking makes sick reason havent jumped front train yet dont want wait arrive tried fall asleep train tracks once wasnt comfortable got bored went home wish gun ampxb,1 first timejust need little rant here also posting depression actually googled many meds take it im feeling hopeless ive asked give time need him happens end fighting building house priority me seeing desperately need him maybe doesnt care mean find couple adult networking sites perhaps someone else lined up three months mom died months ago im torn inside youre reaching love youre ignored find googling ways kill yourself unfortunately world need rethink strategy found nothing helpful appointment physician three different antianxiety depression meds know got issues fuck need emotional support fucking house,1 wanna wake sometimes stop disappointing family major problems school never gf barely good friends got social life whatsoever support family either suicidal thoughts last years ampxb support hurt,1 hasnr post sub mins woried posted,0 pathetic cowardeverything scares me everything really existential stuff cant even get far im busy worrying strange smell is electrical fire walls chemical smell going make sick give migraine going flareup severe pain tomorrow something eat cause sick run medication see doctor infection mouth travel brain dog going get yard hurt someone another animal going yet another severe panic attack ever able leave house alone again survive disease want survive it fraction questions run head daily continuous loop progressed past age even though im years old utterly worthless pathetic type human drain society everyone else around them value contribute nothing world way make day promising ill end tomorrow luck ill even fail that living breathing worthless piece shit others fear might become hope four letter word vulgar profane fucking pathetic excuse human being need reply deserve time younger people actual potential posted here help them may failed test semester life over know real life problems theres kids whos girlfriends text back want die know real serious struggles life feel bad them idea much worse going get needed rant please move along know existed paranoid pathetic excuse human being taking space wasting precious resources thanks reading,1 i miss my room in pasig i have no place right now to take sp s,0 long history mental illness suicidal thoughts that interests diagnosed bipolar ii disorder first hospitalised diagnosed borderline personality disorder traits top upon second hospitalisation also tried and obviously failed attempt twice today different though today learnt new way make attempt looking one everyday week year since mind racing things need funeral afterdeath arrangements keep hitting block what happens fail again anyone tried failed attempt knows end feeling like loser even little worse before case even hangover uni work submit times easy hide fact would made attempts life way seem like case scared found forced hospital third time row looking advice get away it know rules thought could vent here done good job isolating everyone reaching nuisance sick therapy please ask is share perhaps start swan song,1 a slight case murder excellent tv movie defiantly worth price rental william h macy great movie critic accidentally kills mistress try conceal crime although may sound dark film actually quite light hearted funny many memorable lines acting harder thought ever see body heat think owe bill hurt apology personal favourite for next week answer two questions film noir people day always raining film great supporting cast including macys real life wife felcity huffman james cromwell adam arkin must see macy fans,0 @FrankieTheSats good to hear it! excited already!!! cant wait to see 'Chasing LIghts'...my fave song.,0 weird sexual fantasy im sex girls nazi uniform calling things like dirty jew whatever im licking feet,0 oh wish ampxb processing img umrrvume,0 much pussy myself want external force fate mei mistake failed experiment simply born wrong timeline got point bedridden sick conscience thinking others stop shit god fucking already willing fucking tell fucking exist fucking fag ready die,1 @Sam_Be Indeed. Someone once said to me that the more pertinent question is "why do u still speak Esperanto?" ,0 want join brothers brother hung tuesday absolutely shattered feels like hearts ripped out month best mate overdosed sure im suppose cope want want feel pain horrible,1 @kateyes085 Ours is going to be small but it's destinationy. We're doing Vegas Tibetan Throat Singing! <3 Misha.,0 run away find brighter day run away find brighter day,0 "@yelyahwilliams : last night i dreamed i meet you. i hope it's gonna be true. please come to Indonesia, PLEASE!!! ",0 chimpytwit brilliant idea just bring a much a you think you ll spend amp i ll swap you bring a brolly,0 never girlfriendany boat,1 girl would lesbian,0 taking small step move you forward small manageable step allow you to develop your skill and progress faster anxiety anxious depression depressed learning selfhelp http t co jblxbl azz,1 lights new york first alltalking feature film been course jazz singer released oct first feature film incorporating synchronized dialog however film released july virtually unremembered place film history started short gradually tacked clocking minutes accidentally became first alltalking feature film opened grind house run warner bros surprise made million dollars good money back br br the plot quite simple two country barbers naively buy barber shop broadway fronts speakeasy the hawk gangster learn truth cant afford get out younger barber eddie mothers money tied place kitty younger barbers girlfriend gangster hawk wheeler oakman eye turning older girlfriend gladys brockwell newer model chorus girl kittyhelene costello cop killed trying stop hawks men unloading shipment bootleg liquor hawk sees opportunity frame eddie thus getting kitty himselfbr br this early talkie loads fun enthusiast pioneering works sure plot elementary dialog stilted something see much early talkies background musical scoring vitaphone originally used purpose still using musical accompaniment along dialog singing dancing numbers scenes hawks nightclub used opportunity show films could never musical numbers even wildeyed emcee heavy makeup left silent era hoot watchbr br vitaphone could go outdoors point due static camera booths scene park two lovers eddie kitty simulated cheaply greenery looks like something ed wood movie perhaps high school production our town br br gladys brockwell hawks castoff girlfriend delivers lines punch real trooper considering lines deliver hawk so think chicken want throw back deck huh mixed metaphors anyone final lines ive lived ive loved ive lost someone get paid write dialog brockwell making good success talkie career scoring triumphs silent films the evil sister seventh heaven fatal car accident cut career shortbr br then eugene palette older two barbers story frog voice natural delivery lines cuddly appearance gave long career character actor usually appearing putupon family manbusinessman gruff exterior heart gold fact mr palette member cast still notable career films three years movie releasedbr br finally question where microphone hidden microphones still stationary point fun figure theyve hidden it one famous scene though everybody pretty much figure out hawk office talking two henchman seem comprehend slowly talk taking eddie ride watch scene swear phone desk character film front center whole conversation microphone likely planted phonebr br there something heroic pioneers flying blind face new technology sound silent actors accustomed using pantomime expression vaudevillians know play live audience know make impression vitaphone camera booth dialog writers either trying write conversation compactly title cards filling films endless chatter br br check one out boring moves fast loads fun know look for no expect one ever bluray hope folks warner brothers add warner archive soon everyone see it,0 @arpitamukherjee corp. gyan - try using Bitching techniques to infuse prof. competitiveness among fellow colleagues ,0 think life worth fighting for thing keeping ending pain factor deathi waiting pain agony life greater fear pain dying happy iti bore life story please tell matter know mean well probably really mean well believe someone even known minute matters truth one would care dropped dead tomorrow sure mum sister would sad get it sad troubled soul weak pathetic beacuse cannot even get simple life people seem fine atas said worth it waiting day pain irl get bad pain killing would scare much think worth anymore,1 mom said good girl frick im dirty minded,0 @jddalton Glad you made it home okay. ,0 first episode friends aired sept the one monica gets roommate song playing rachel sits window towards end show line plays is if ever need holding anyone know artist singing title song seems great songi would love get copy it thanks assistance looking albumcd purchase it br br i shows available purchase enjoy show again seemed believablethanks hours entertainment provided years,0 that depression can sieze today,1 sick living deniali think first time really became aware depression so kind snowballed point let control life resulted failure neglected even basic achievements everyone says always chance turn things around think time give up used keep motivated small goals family things become increasingly strained years become hard think worth them especially thoughts would endanger others used dream committing redflag way would inconvenience others minimally all even then afraid act it recently ive thinking easy would end life least ruin something stupid driving point staring concrete lanes snapped would much risk others hurt want continue pretending things okay get point consider impact actions make told therapist thoughts redflag possibly harming others since thought intrusive thoughts now unable trust people point even mention bothering passing although family love other always felt barrier up even supposed closest kept distance try gets glossed over always told say feel uncomfortable truths since pandemic getting pretty bad options treatment limited honest much desire continue getting treatment anyways feel like never get point pros outweighs cons world die remains used compost better wasting resources mention organs donated used people actually deserve chance,1 loose ends tied nowm ive feeling actively passively suicidal years ive reached friends family hotlines ive dragged house cops hospitalized maybe time would switch actively suicidal passively reckless instead actual attempts two nights ago tried overdose near dozenth time failed next day agony got bed times throw up since moved much except small things like clean dog feed pets know looked go tied loose ends last weeks pushed friends away point hate me make things easier mention friends barely knew needed something im trans man ok insurance covers parts transition since live home rent free spare cash go student loans cover copays know im really fortunate life im college student as take maximum credit hours pass decent job pick hours make well min wage state mentors professors close contacts best schools state parents abusive family generally pretty ok except even working hrwk school full time making as parents think im enough every weeks threaten kick enough housework fast enough siblings treated way kind anything generally get yelled at live home im oldest youngest still feel alone incapable giving receiving love idea near people enough make skin crawl know like around me im ugly feel like imposter even constant overbearing urge kill bad life all next attempt going starving death hanging nobody bothers either easy enough,1 "i want ppl i know to follow me, instead of random strangers who i just block, no stalkers aloud!! ",0 might end tonight story want help meso might belong wanted share story name ralph friend since second grade name isebella everybody said identical someone internet called coco queen personally never saw face helps piciture good you isebella hanged like alot even almost lived together always played vieogames watced netfilx time lives families business friends aproved friendship things kind awkward around us parents always made sex jokes us could hear them one night family dinner family father shamed her went outside air followed her cold outside playing still loving scorpians fell accidentely kissed said sorry said ok felt same started daiting hot digidi dog daiting did started drinking together spent time together started even watching horror movies together best moments life like months magic still there however everything come end hedding house netflix found dead card hand freaked out called police family everything investigaded security cameras fount commited redflag fucking panic attack saw killing herself read note left fucking insane made braclet still wear month since event still cant believe fucking self happened started seeing therapist dont think works person really understanded complesity yea truly sucks,1 crazy di hit hard clinical depression couple months ago extremly intense thankfully last long months utter agony needless say experiance new me knew nothing disorder obvious reasons depressed know depression package good stuff it one suicidal thoughts death depressed person like jumping warm bed long day work raining outside knowing tomorow day got picutre simply sweet heres thing even recovering it feeling sun face air lungs blood vains enjoying good laugh lm still obsessed redflag thinking every day every moment whith negative mindset all hypnotized idea simplicity possibility serinity all like days put one bullet chamber gun holding head closing eyes simply feeling it cold barrel skin frodos like temptation ring complete clearence mind ultimate sensation peace sometimes lose point limbs body go numb well relaxed became crazy anyone guilty act exactly go gentle good night resist temptation love hear thoughts about,1 people in my stream are surley today. love it as i am too and was avoiding saying anything. ,0 just remembered that i ve forgotten my best friend birthday,0 wants free award lol got one lol best comment wholesome gets,0 living rated like keep living,1 one word supurrrrb think see anything like long time network cable television watching show like taking breath fresh air amid tv schedule filled reality shows boring reruns br br i say reservations all critics almost unanimous crying foul downgrading show half hour by way thank you nbc running commercialfree show left feeling instant love love first glance true love one feels guts everything show screamed excellencebr br graphics show least good finding nemo shrek small feat considering movies took years developedbr br cast marvelous partial john goodmans voice rest team certainly par john special mention lisa kudrows guest appearance top game creating neurotic pudgy lovable panda jewish streak her panda brooklyn show br br script funny lot inside adult jokes sharp yet tacky note parents children show never advertised such theres reason set pm pm like complain objectionable context save breath adults deserve comedy made them father pride it br br not everything perfect bit puzzled siegfried roys characters sense stereotype comes them yes gay yes flamboyant yes speak german accents thats yesterdays news give us something new something fresh something funny putting old jokes new show definitely wrong approach understand creators show wanted use star power guys have thats fine me please dwell something everybody already knows heart hopefully rest show going play old record over br br in general show definitely mustseetv funny witty unexpected twists comedy good since seinfeld certainly looking forward next episode,0 Back in my home state ,0 keep sense hope feels like theres future just ventingalmost every experience another example messed hopeless future is friends years partner proper long term job ever struggle basic things everyone else breezes through im messed up theres point living im always going alone like always back mind im lost cause,1 the one reason i ve decided to stay alive ha left me she said that the way i acted wa too much and she had cut me out of her life completely she wa the only reason i d keep trying but now she s all gone there s no point to anything anymore i m so tired of trying i miss her so much i m diagnosed with depression ptsd and bipolar type ii i m on anti depressant on a dosage considered to be high for adult it doe nothing for me i can t find the energy to do anything anymore my mom said she s going to leave because i m too much for her to deal with now i doubt she will see this but if she doe i love you so much i know people say it get better and i ll find someone else she s the only person who loved me unconditionally and showed me that the world isn t a bad a it seems now she s gone i ll be leaving at 00 thanks to whoever stayed with me on my journey,1 @marcos_placona I'd be interested in your thoughts in a couple months ,0 seen show younger really good show watch educational children years old barney definitely super de duper bj pretty funny babie bop cute kids cool too show learning numbers kinda like sesame street different type show characters like barney purple dinosaur bj yellow dinosaur baseball hat head baby bop cute green dinosaur pink bow first one started old barney friends show second one different new episodes also last one new scene barneys park also show barney universal studios florida see barney bj baby bop show done get go play shop meet barney good show watch show learn many things like movie live show universal studios florida,0 yeah here it comeshere comes the depressionrrrrrrrrrrrRRRRRRRRRRRRREV IT UP,1 nothing used love makes happy anymorei sake appearing normal family cant focus anything all theres something back mind thats preventing enjoying anything cant even focus assignments anymore used good distraction theyre something exacerbates negative thoughts emotions like try fight back retaliates even harder,1 i have been pretty down for the last few year and i felt mentally stuck in a limbo it is like i can t move back but i can t move forward i have just been surviving for the past few year but now it s like i can t physically move i don t feel like studying or even getting up and i don t know how to get over it it come and go but sometimes it come at really bad time i wish i could get over this part,1 j stricko i found it pretty frustrating stupid monkey,0 fuck lifesome people meant live others meant die matter good person matter everyday pain hurt face many deal worth it wish could deal anymore worst part myself ,1 We The Kings + Out Of Sight in Nottingham tonight Gonna be so much fun! ,0 symptom of panic disorder include http www nimh nih gov health publication panic disorder when fear overwhelms sudden and repeated panic attack an intense worry about when the next panic attack will happen fear of impending doom avoidance of place where panic attack have occurred before panic attack can come on suddenly at any time and often do not have an apparent cause there are many different symptom that can occur during a panic attack the symptom of a panic attack include http www nh uk mental health condition panic disorder chest pain http www healthgrades com right care symptom and condition chest pain a racing heartbeat or both sweating http www healthgrades com right care skin hair and nail hyperhidrosis excessive sweating nausea http www healthgrades com right care digestive health nausea dizziness http www healthgrades com right care symptom and condition dizziness or both feeling faint shortness of breath http www healthgrades com right care lung breathing and respiration shortness of breath with or without a sensation of choking trembling chill http www healthgrades com right care symptom and condition chill or hot flash http www healthgrades com right care symptom and condition hot flash numbness http www healthgrades com right care symptom and condition numbness dry mouth http www healthgrades com right care oral health dry mouth a feeling of dread feeling a though you are not connected to your body ringing in your ear not everyone will experience a panic attack in the same way most panic attack last – 0 minute though some can last up to an hour,1 scaredi think closest ive ever killing im genuinely scared cant function right now feel like cant reach help cuz people see dont want see side me even post probably deleted profile,1 need help song stuck mind part remember cause i i stretched around secs anyone knows song talking please help,0 giving random facts daily coz bored day squirrels plant thousands new trees year simply forgetting put acorns,0 plani probably given highly toxic surf next most basing previous symptoms doctor gave med before therapist agrees neither us get chose gives going od kill gives drug take extras make easy me told doc mental health situation happens may post would kill ok,1 anyone want say something stupid dumb ideas straight stupid shit like watermelons made gold drop,0 im currently studying theatremy grades shit doubt take anywhere least helps pretend like im depressed try forget depressed im alive rainbow six siege wanna see upcoming dlc im addicted it already redflag attempt couldnt it noose hard tie shitty rope anyways btw live mexico go school us life boring dull dont know im posting this probably cuz insomnia ill probably regret later,1 someone please help im seriously overwhelmed daydream jumping front train extreme school stress procrastinating everything stress friends went lots trauma past feeling confused certain things slow processing difficulty expressing specific thoughts dull pressure frontal sinus,1 im comic recommendations free price character andor skits want played message me okay putting final product instragram,0 @yungreal88 thanks for following babe ,0 saw redflag sub mean click saw man blow brains fuck,0 last thing say end probably thank world surviving year,0 banned sub even know even anything ill stop using bad words modsill say aassesment b bit chewy think c cr ap bio class representativeadvanced placement d dic otyledon e effing ham illinois ffu dge ggulag hhard wood mighty ol allocasuarina luehmannii its tree hardest wood i quit j jerk chicken off grill kknutted the k silent mind you l longitudinal waves physicsgotta keep up m mother f lower guava exists n nutella o organism ppoo poo qquick r rip as rat patootie s essex teehee t turn on thinking caps u rick astley going give upso bother even using it v vag bond w write a program x i hate math y yoodleleoeeoe zzuckerberg sorry modalso respond post,0 dog insanely attached love much best friend person kill know never able attach anyone way constantly waiting come home wish way kill would traumatize make feel like abandoned him wish way communicate fault come back okay okay love dog much actually cuddling crying type now thought leaving behind alone depression guess lucky god go forgive leaving alone wish could kill without traumatizing abandonimg dog,1 im bored lonely need friends so groupchats shit posting memes talking anime dope nerd shit,0 first person comment gets award pt free award purpose comment claim free dopamine,0 teacher show english teacher super stuck grades weirdly doked grade participation english know meaning got lucky teachs thank god one nice teachers wrote email asking could better reasonable one sided great teacher btw never replyed naming names thing class rude today never said anything didnt start meeting alot kids class confused thank ms morelas,0 good videos selflyingon hope may help others here good videos youtube selflying lying others might helped future,1 watched part one two days ago today saw part two course two parts worlds apart little shaken saw felt consumed knowledge inevitability ches death me clouded entire movie suppose exactly soderbergh wanted us feel slowly evolving inevitability death part two downbeat compared to inevitability cuba notredflag bolivia negative politics movement bolivia alluded rarely confronted didactically memorable scenes end film confrontation jailer milder talk bolivian official official questions che failure peasants support revolution considered national differences playing much role conflict argentine versus bolivian thought soderbergh dealt admirably inevitable problems supply revolutionary struggle get food without antagonizing peasants enough themselves struck hard would try something che tried guess timing sufficient anger government begin movement bolivia wasnt che realized terrible corundum revolutionists letter fidel read beginning film now when years now thought provoking well done film make every effort see it,0 "http://twitpic.com/6gblh - This is my new desktop. @majornelson, you'll like it ",0 panic disorder is one type of anxiety disorder the main characteristic of panic disorder is the occurrence of panic attack a panic attack is a sudden onset of fear even without an apparent cause the physical symptom of a panic attack such a shortness of breath racing heart and chest pain http www healthgrades com right care symptom and condition pain can often make people feel http familydoctor org condition panic disorder a though they are having a heart attack http www healthgrades com right care heart attack heart attack while most people will experience a panic attack at some point in their life those with panic disorder experience them on a more regular basis panic attack can occur http www nimh nih gov health publication panic disorder when fear overwhelms anywhere from several time per day to only a few time per year the fear of the next panic attack can affect your daily life and cause you to avoid place and situation where you had a panic attack before panic disorder often begin in the late teenage year or in early adulthood people assigned female at birth are more likely to develop panic disorder than male if you have had at least two panic attack with no clear cause followed by approximately month of feeling fear that another attack may happen contact your doctor,1 "Hello depression my old friend, kindly fuck off ",1 kazuo komizu strikes entrails beautiful woman sequel entrails virgin time around story based around psychologist megumi ozawa decides take yakuza avenge suicide dopedup raped patient winds doorstep one day gets head yakuza capture her learns insidious plat doping girls selling slavery apparently ends badly overdoses cocaine soon melds another body disposed becomedum dum dum super slime hermaphrodite zord he makes mince meat yakuza saves daynot reallybr br well better entrails virgin much film a whopping minutes consists rape sex fogging usual hohum stuff almost towards end finally get gore groove cool sequence like alieninspired penismonster stomach scene gooey asphyxiation still suffers hyper low budget feel makes fun cant elevate zgrade soft horrorcore fare,0 ive made many mistakes deserve die anyone even one could read would help lot verdicthey using throwaway account obvious reasons justneed talk ive getting intensely suicidal comes waves theres moments feel perfectly fine even happy im cast deep depression remember terrible mistakes ive made ive wrestling depression four years now ive two redflag attempts already guess want know shitty things ive done guess thing keep mind iswell im autistic sometimes lack social awareness know better mention fairly sheltered homeschooled conservative parents ill let guys verdict end it little kid like years younger id sometimes open bathroom door sisters mom dad showering wanted get glimpse naked anything perverted like that thought funny went eeeeeeeeek never felt sexually attracted family thought disgusted me played prank understand context wrong one day tried like dad pulled over crying thought trouble instead gave talk told like sister way hindsight think truebut worry sometimes subconscious sexual undertone it perverted know it younger might see glimpse family member naked disgusted me part curious justi think knew better like briefly touched cat penis like two seconds decided bad idea fact used touch sorts surfaces penis age thought revolts disgusts now feel like horrible person girl admitted crush sure respond girl never told before thinking decided tell flattered young since different stages emotional development good idea issue uncle decided take away electronics reason decided bike house got address mutual friend told felt said beautiful kind person want break heart make feel rejecting ugly anything hugged told meant lot her turns already dating another guy back age thought right thing hindsight find really creepy cringey homeschool prom group photos stood behind girl bumped accident like three separate times move muscle asked okay stand said fine never anything kept brushing let happen butpart enjoyed that feels twisted hindsight sometimes watch porn wellim lonely ive never girlfriend mainly lack confidence good social skills never watched porn thought actresses underage nonconsentingbut like one assumptions wrong saw something illegal even know it thought keeps night one time encounter website accident seemed hosting suspicious images might underaged girls horrified reported it felt horrible part kept telling monster sleep night started shaking crying work tell boss wrong beg let home early one coworkers saw crying comforted parking lot never told saw told strong got close redflag night voice head tried convince pedophile even though tried right thing sometimes get intrusive violent sexual racist thoughts diagnosed ocd thoughts powerful start feel like impulses actively avoid close woman im afraid ill bump accident worse ill act sexual impulse never never ever want thought scares me feel like monster absolute monster im carrying constant shame guilt everywhere go ive told dad friends issues tell im worrying much things bad think are right deserve die decide,1 ask do play basketball does neck hurt taking shower someone thought average human tall ,0 posting reasons english language broken stop feeling depressed day cough tough though dont rhyme pony bologna,0 else trying grow youtube twitch anyone working grow social platform finding success far recently hit k twitch almost subs youtube personally looking better ways promote channel without guy selfpromos content everywhere anyone got ideas found success areas far,0 Ahahahaha this is very funny :') :') lovee it! Putting me in a good mood ,0 feeling way talk mehi im little frazzled right now so forgive typos poor grammar final fight girl together year broke months gave second chance im notbiological father month yo little girl theres kid im much love legal standing ever see again now ex emotionally abusive two goarounds her im broken ill probably never get see daughter again im seeing much reason continue do,1 not this werey playing the depression card,1 "@ingorammer well it is definitelly worth trying, you'll notice the difference. But it's not my favorite neither ",0 feels like overive always struggled depression suicidal thoughts ever since kid shit gotten much worse years usually get bad something always pulls back out think cats sister friends maybe get scared sit right though im drawing blank cant put finger feels like over like finally end it ended three year long relationship preparation it im school friends motivation completely isolated idk feel like meant happen chapter ready end,1 wish snowed anyway headache everyday normal,0 I genuinely want to drop out of school. Or at least take a semester off. I'm not able to turn things in or go to class because of my depression and how my medications have fucked me up.,1 life greatliterally nothing wrong life think dying ive putting coin flip every day now pint luck run out im scared myself dont want die,1 confusedlast saturday finally got fed life completely attempted kill myself ended spending days hospital surviving ive read multiple redflag stories say instantly regret feel regret normal want get better feel better felt like finally die actually felt best id felt long,1 i know not many people will see this or probably care but i have no one or at least no one who ll genuinely listen a year or two ago i wasn t the best person selfish and careless i wa an alcoholic and a drug addict to deal with everything which i know now wa a horrible coping mechanism but it wa all my year old brain knew how to do a addiction ran in my family i wa hypersexual with no fundamental understanding of consent because all i knew wa assault i would get drunk and say horrible thing and my action reflected that i know trauma isn t an excuse for everything i did to people i used to call my friend but i swear i never meant to hurt anyone i wa horrible and when i realized how much hurt i had caused i never let myself live it down i couldn t look at myself the same i would cry for hour because i wa a monster that brought trauma to others life i honestly didn t know how to be healthy and i didn t know how to make real friend without making it sexual because that s all i thought people wanted from me i know these are a bunch of bullshit excuse but i don t know what to do i never wanted to be this person i left the school that wa once my haven because of the rumor i can t tell who i am anymore am i the monster they think i am i barely remember anything and i wa always drinking so it s all a blur amp x 00b i m a girl i m and this is where it started i m not going to give my life story just the bit that matter i wa accused of assault almost a year ago now with many other claim that had to do with my toxicity the original person who accused me and i had dealt with it privately and she had recognized that i wa extremely drunk when it happened and the lack of communication on both end honestly i have taken accountability for the fact that i shouldn t have drank underage and made her uncomfortable i remember bit and piece of that night some of it i can t even put together in my head but i realized that my behavior wa unacceptable and it wasn t okay not okay in the slightest but it got out to my whole school rumor began and people i had past romantic and sexual relationship with accused me of either assaulting them or being toxic i left the school and sought a lot of therapy but the rumor have entered my life in a more public setting i don t blame anyone i wa honestly a piece of shit but i know everything wa consensual but now i m not even sure of anything i think i m a monster i don t know what s real and what isn t i wa manipulative and a downright horrible person but i ve done everything i can to change and apologize but i can t seem to do it right i want to take accountability and be better but also want my name out there on the internet associated with these thing my parent don t deserve this i want to be able to be normal again but then i realize my life ha been normal i ve always through trauma my life is basically one big thing of trauma whether i realize it or not i m so sorry i really hate myself for hurting the people i did i don t want pity and i know nothing i can do can fix my reputation i don t even think i deserve it i really think i should just kill myself i think that d give the people i hurt peace of mind i don t think i deserve to live this life i m really sorry i know you ll judge me too but i promise i m really trying to be better and to help people i m not sure which perception is real theirs or mine i m broken down and i wan na be a kid again with my favorite stuffed animal maybe just take a nap and then i ll wake up and be okay,1 #yoga 5 OLD AGE YOGA IN WEAKNESS STRESS & DEPRESSION DAILY YOGA FOR OLD AGE PEOPLE BY NITYANANDAM SHREE https://ift.tt/2HtkjAD ,1 im gon na copy and paste the title just to continue the story from that point on so here go nothing this ha been the worst month of my life but ill start with a light hearted day earlier this month a meth head tried to take my phone the bitch at the ssi building tried to 0 me then i got bit by a dog all in the same day what i dont understand is that im more upset about this pale blonde brazilian girl i met and lost in a span of day might be bipolar a well what i dont understand is how can i handle a fucked up day like that like it nothing and go through thing that could end in death seem to recover in minute but small thing like family argument or this situation with this girl seem to make me feel upset for so long i dont understand that at all i hope thing get better but ever since i droped acid about week ago this ha been on one end the worst month of my life but some part the best just the good part never last now my life is like a real life nightmare i might be schizo now a well also my depresion is worse then ever now before all this i lived in the car for year with bed bug now i have a voucher so im fine now and live in a place and am safe now but i just feel so stupid whenever i complain about anything now because i feel like it me not appreciating what i have i just dont get why this horible feeling wont go away i dont know what to do im here on reddit talking to random people dealing with the same thing because i just dont know what else to do it wa helping at first but i just feel so lost for no reason i feel like thing are good now but inside i feel the worst ive ever felt i dont wan na feel sad anymore i just want this horible feeling to go away,1 feeling lonely helplessone days spiraled suicidal thoughts again think worst over feel alone husband working overnight texted one friends wanted hurt myself left read feeling tired holding on,1 american views britain youse think bout,0 guys guys help according sister parents redacted upstairs,0 whats dudes anybody talk anything really filler filler,0 debating if i should just shower now so i can sleep a little later tomorrow,0 feel like never like true crush liked someone point crushing,0 hows everyone today ,0 relapsed alcohol panic attack club top girl id give life left me well easy rn literally next balcony point fuck every relation cared for independent one thing let vulnerable got shitfaced year sobriety maybe life wansnt meant me crushed close,1 hear out reddit doesnt allow word posts morse code search translations came solution calls ups downs kar spread word,0 day writing something positive happened today went local lake best friend,0 im you know feelingive experienced enormous amount loss recently ive posted reaching myself experienced loss days ago entire family gone today recognize worst part feeling alone even speak someone knowing support comes lack true knowledge awful going actually is one broken person another you talk me,1 months ago told dad take shelter get cat adopted cats time severe health redflag really paranoid getting sick horrible know would even affect getting cat did got cats petrified kind disease regretted fuckijg much one cats really affectionate towards kept trying show affection cuddling fucking anxious would get sick days later could bear redflag forced dad return them started crying hard cat trying show affection towards months later still cannot get fact still crying every night fuck redflag fucking hate might sound pathetic cat showing affection really means much since hate affection never show anyone irl want cat back sure adopted now hate myself got another cat redflag way less show affection anything hates me ik might something stupid sad hate fucking hate mysself,1 julieebaby awe i love you too am here i miss you,0 really needing someone talk topreferably here text also ok area code nothing super deep anticipate reddit automatically removing phone numbers exchange reddit mods annoying sometimes anywayclast thanks,1 "You have a choice: Follow Negative Mental Habits, or past ways that lead to Hellish Days, or you can choose to look at the world differently (#ACIM, W33).because you have this Choice, you are your salvation today (id. W70).Choose wisely!#Happiness #Depression #Anxiety #Fear",1 please someone kill me want anymorei pay it write note please favour care anymore fucking hope anything trash not give method painful it begging it everything please even deserve live help me death would peaceful me would pain,1 so i ve been working really hard this last year on overcoming mdd agoraphobia and social issue over the last year i ve gone from making it out of the house for hour a month long enough to go to the doctor and grocery shopping to managing 0 hour a week i m still working up to doing thing on successive day it usually take a day or so to recover otherwise thing start getting rough but it s significantly better than before not advocating this approach it s what worked for me and may not work for others i had a lot of sensitivity to what wa being prescribed and it wa causing more harm than good talk with a professional before doing anything medication related part of what seemed to help wa getting away from medication over year we tried or so different thing and it just didn t work well now the hardest thing i do is caffeine and multivitamin there is a noticable difference in energy level and depression if i go more than a few day without vitamin so if you aren t taking any you may want to look into them i had been pushing thing the last couple month and wa starting to have burnout issue it wa hard not to a i felt like i wa starting to break through thing i m working at a different approach now just going until i start to feel uncomfortable and stopping if it s feasible rather than pushing until i have a full panic episode i m not getting a much done every day but so far i m starting each day more consistently it a little difficult stopping when i feel like i can keep going but i m hopeful that the better consistency will be more productive in the long term a bad a thing were a couple year ago to where they are now give me hope for others too i wa going to bed praying for death and cursing every morning i woke up i have hope and have truly started to love myself if you re going through a hard time thing can get better love you all take care and be well,1 theres difference micro dick feeling actual pain boner pushes underwear,0 since lot people disturbed existence name worst thing done maybe realize wierd,0 really sad disgusting waste flesh food money mother found one blades cut it pidsed me deserve every bruise scar cut mutilation ever done add onto that grandmother dying depression medicine nothing supposed clean cannot go day two without cutting myself deserve die really really suck fucking pathetic,1 anyone cry anymorebeen lot first girlfriend actually really cared broke yesterday cause bored ive lost relationships family drug use im sad feel like could cry million tears cant havent cried years even shit make me friends redflag attempts mums cancer diagnosis losing friends moving cant cry cant let out makes feel really bad know guys shits tough holding redflag want ex girlfriend feeling responsible starting get closer closer thank guys love you,1 im graduating uni days yet everyday think ending itscars heal words cause emotional scars last lifetime want talk said me heshe said im seeing therapist happened weeks ago meds get rid bad feelings bad thoughts,1 lets face it nancy drew never great literature category babysitter club magic tree house goosebumps abc mysteries fact one original formula stories nancy perfect pretty thoughtful nice internal conflicts ever never changes ned pretty much same movie true style say liked it never great movie nostalgic flavor books held right amount suspense children almost offensive language liked push conservative dressbr br corky bit annoyance little place high school campus never quite got first place,0 "I like saying dousche bag, hahahahah ",0 ive spent half life trying follow dreams nothing worked ever im ready die ill never accomplish anything matter approach it ive done nothing wasted half life im sick poor advance further hate hate everything life itself everything try work try go back school hundred one reasons cant need medical care well guess free clinic hospital owe fortune first time went make wait waiting room cant stand it get upset call security guard kick out ive never job would pay kind bill ive never place live im getting close fuck life everyone thats it watched best friend go afghanistan contractor come back better shape hes ever fucking rich try job oh cant work here cant pass god damn physical theres always god damn reason there well fuck world give damn anyone thinks anymore im going kill right library front assholes fuck everybody everything ask exist,1 holyjaw all in the middle if the night i ve committed myself to installing window with boot camp but i m already having issue,0 hiii i hope you re having a good day or night i ve been under anxiolytic since december 0 a it is a pretty strong one i can t use this for too long so i slowly lowered the dose now i take pill per day i started at pill per day problem i m strugguling to completly stop is it normal if anxiety kinda come back when you stop a medical treatement thanks p sorry if my english is bad it s not my native language,1 today pain free ive feeling chest stomach pains past two days hard eat could eat fruits drinks finally today woke pain,0 bad day now havent felt happy now year ago time depressed suicidal im afraid would happen again thing feel lonely dont know im wrong dating game fucked social life too guess im averagely attractive funny guy im pretty smart workout dont know else im supposed feel devoid empty,0 [New Blog Post] This past week I was invited to speak to a group about tools we can use to cope with #depression. Here's one of the strategies I shared! https://www.charlesminguez.com/tiny-habits/  #mentalhealth #toolkit #tinyhabits #recovery,1 another day at centre point this time an early start so guessing train will be rammed with commuter,0 coasting right now yo ex alcoholic days sober th day weed kind feel good except slept hours past nights feel different first time life wanted sober enjoying it taking leaps strides improve person still feel like total piece shit loser reflected living circumstances start somewhere maybe ill look back year realize beginning sober,1 redditor attempted redflagi wanted share experience trigger warning history ive major depression years ive almost every medication still hard still get lonely still get sad ampxb diagnosed make misdiagnosed treating bipolar disorder twenty years later find anxiety mdd things looked minute take medications sometimes felt good felt bad felt bad ampxb one night sad again week showered called work week terrified going lose yet another job due depression drank drank lot got super emotional cause got fight friend felt hopeless death felt right redflag notes written past felt like everyone else selfish selfish wanting die selfish wanting stay like this ampxb tried knife first it hurt bad found razor able cut wrists successfully im blood thinners took whole bottle would bleed out woozy wanted end faster kept going kitchen get medicine ended taking lot lamictal lamictal extremely dangerous large doses know time pee one point tried get literally legs legs fell me walk poisoned severely tried pull arms couldnt kept flipping furniture attempt get back bed vomit pillow slept face it hallucinations started morning alarm started go off screaming mom who cause im adult live alone turn alarm screaming obscenities torturing alarm shortly able crawl bedroom door open realized mom there computer alarm realized blind see anything like one backgrounds see mac thats bunch fuzzy colors crawled computer unplugged would stop collapsed see walk alive ampxb later day mom come find me thought attacked due disarray bedroom told happened begged take back pysch ward stay help heal could go work monday ampxb slowly weekend lot oatmeal bread water electrolytes could walk again eventually could see too monday came go back work took leave absence work knew would happen again ampxb called psych doc left message happened well see two months fuck him found closer doctor better doctor rxed something called tms httpswwwmayoclinicorgtestsprocedurestranscranialmagneticstimulationaboutpachttpswwwmayoclinicorgtestsprocedurestranscranialmagneticstimulationaboutpac ampxb saved life work insurance covered it treatment three psych meds as opposed thought redflag since ampxb read stories see going through hope you find way late wanted share story two reasons terrifying blind unable walk much much better thoughts clear depression minimal anxiety gone ampxb hope ever feel like committing redflag feel free reach me im listen story mine,1 "Forgot to say that the police were called to the wedding (outdoors, music, go figure). All the best parties, eh? ",0 feel like idiot used drive great dad kept saying ride slow everybody rides little faster allowed autistic af took litteraly driving redflag take indoors route instead high way whenever someone behind wants faster drove faster got around tickets sure coming sad part know much knew late like total span two weeks coming talking speeding like km hour km hour feel stupid understand could stupid also work government feel like stupid person know shit also dad said buy good car light broke also fix that like fact going rain tickets me want die life hard autistic loser like me got speeding tickets autistic stupid bitch,1 Happy bday mom and Tommy! ,0 cope failurehow people cope failure currently failing college feel worthless waste time money space espically time one teachers best help study pass waste money paying college mom dad are also waste time boyfriend major tried teach everything me another teacher have lets call mrsp privacy sake mrsp horrible teacher teaches students sees potential wants help students likes anything two students caught copying answer sheet online exam checked browser history left also help boyfriend classes boyfriend helping learn teach spends two hours reading material cant answer questions accused cheating front entire class point left class tears talked advisor program talked mrsp said finished lecture early one day said class program advisor spoke her starting ranting said class hard think im hardass etc turned beat red everyone started giving shit outside class tried best every assignment test need parts final pass give feel bad incoming students networking division school heres kicker retiring thats excuse teacher even called nothing getting done hes taking classes lets call mrh privacy sake mrh amazing teacher classes hard sure make wanna learn helping try pass class mrsp felt like let worked hard study take notes stuff also feel like let family graduated id first family complete college struggled depression scince ive managing hit hard fail mrsp class come back spring cannot afford even loans feel pointless continue im litterly classes degree reason cant get it feel anything emptiness sadness want die know thats right choice feel anything care college anymore cant pass mrsp class care anything health boyfriend existence none means anything drop labeled failure even wanna get bed final tomarrow know gonna pass tldr failing college fell worthless cope severe failure,1 @danregal but you never would because you love me too much ,0 ultimate mean ultimate adventure classic plot good versus evil always abundance films depict gray areas enough basic good evil account real cases good evil real world recently film makers tried even odds real life well half situations black white fraction movies make seem way movie best example back white look best seen black white hero worst situation territory man wants murder him among various enemies movie gives feel hopelessly outnumbered cant count help enemy the count numerous resources counts wife forced marriage him knows past history sooner later kill wives hero become allies fall love away could win anyone watching unless person wants contrary brat anyone helps killed escape situation hopeless survive end guess unless read spoilers movie also lot great atmosphere adventure intrigue along lon chaney bad guy boris karloff best role ever decent guy usually cast bad guy karloff best presented complex roles one chaney rarely given complex role although strutted stuff movies of mice men little cameo him still tension never stops suspense danger throughout perfectly written perfectly cast perfectly directed movie bepure escape pure adventure,0 so bored still no internet at home,0 More evidence for the benefits of exercise for mental health. #depression #PhysicalActivity #MentalHealth https://twitter.com/bmj_latest/status/989071542624677892 …,1 yo guys heard usezle worlds best penis wish usezle ________________________,0 my fast remains un broken,0 household itemsthat use kill pain,1 im sad rn dog eaten homework,0 Recommend @dcjc Tea Party 2.0 http://tparty2.com/,0 fucking pathetic assholei hate pathetic bitch ass much depressed didnt even get christmas gifts family ready another way disappoint lovely folks honestly kinda funny didnt plan live long lets see give final push,1 anyone wants talk im usually odd hours due work shiftsyou pm me give ya skype steam cell even here,1 "@mrpdrose thank you anyway for offering the ride, that was nice of you. ",0 want girl oh god want girl bad kiss cute boys pussy accepted girl pleaseeeeee,0 deserve liveim fucking disgusting im finding harder live like this,1 ande now i m not sure i want to associate with such a violet product may have a re think about my screen name,0 want say goodbyeif talk this get fuck out want oh people care you bullshit anything like that saying goodbye hopefully get friendly goodbye return want hear anything else,1 todd = saviour. Goodnight Facebook ,0 im hungry want go upstairs maybe ill wait bit,0 "@josemario52 DID YOU GET ANOTHER TEXTTTTTTTT. aahahaa, im goin to send u one every hourr. ringg!",0 advice bettering relationship ive dating girlfriend since september shes years younger me dating since im worried ill run legal problems age consent pennsylvania where lives im turning december love lot dont know still love much do for reference born september born december ,0 heres something really wacky years back disnt reddit atleast people me got reddit lost interest nobody interest since councidence,0 another thingi want find another place sleep tonight want go back home want walk one step want talk person again want spend money wasted hours time want go process dying sitting bench next river right want fuse together nature tired want close eyes think anymore sad crying want to,1 n w google coordinates gtunderwhelming wasnt itlt,0 interesting tale giant mammoth elephants running amok modern india features transparent special effectselephants dressed shaggy coats sporting tusk extensions said good story fine cast work exciting climax said running time one doubled showed indiacourtesy robert lippert master padding given choice opt shorter version,0 bornbytheswamp makapa makhoro kaybee r bokang the bae wish u nothing more but depression,1 s man usaf veteran concinsidering ultimate flightsup guys shoes know swallow pills theres chance feel awesome first minutes drugged tired next half hour so lose consciousness hours never regain consciousness ability no noose mess nothing family discovery boondocks phone send auto text someone dead come get remains take care according whatever rites family wants,1 ngl eating noobs jkjk,0 me say makes life piece shitthe constant suffering hardship every front inside every day make life train wreck sign forand want out people say love lifes challenges,1 walking closer towards edgei broke girlfriend years ago ive walking closer towards edge ever since depression anxiety eating alive dont know anymore want kill bad dont balls it,1 saw movie expected cheesy american movie done cheap appalling actors really surprised find totally wrong movie centres around bartely b rejected colleges actor play b natural makes character seem real decides create pretend school parents stop harassing him however loads people see fake website join feeling sorrows b cant turn away much chagrin best mate college ideal place learning want nothing school faces opposition proper college ends closing down film ends high recommend watching it flaws feel good cheerful film unpredictable twists,0 eating some yogurt mixed with mangoes!! yumm! 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Shia LaBeouf is a hottie & soz Chris Brown ,0 1-800-273-8255 - Suicide Hotline877-226-3111 - Addiction Hotline844-228-2962 - Eating Disorder Hotline877-455-0628 - Self Harm Hotline888-640-5174 - Depression HotlineShare this for someone who might really need these phone numbers right now.,1 fucking done bullshiti cant trust best friendand dont want talk others romantic prospects future one dream everyday fades away say fuck it fuck would keep suffering bullshit,1 fall infinite nonending process repeat step ,0 i ll try to keep it a short a possible for the past year i have been struggling with frequent wave of deep depression lasting for day or week but at the same time i have time where im just ok dont have any self esteem issue self image issue and etc so in the end all im trying to figure out if this is normal or if it a type of depression though i couldnt find anything similar to it or bipolar disorder which also seems somewhat unlikely because i never have manic or extremly energetic episode i just want to know if what im dealing with so ill have a clearer idea about how to act further,1 person would chuck fucker meat grinder force hisher kids eat it many know chadwick boseman died cancer mean offend legends like kobe juice wrld grant imahara bosemans death first celebrity death actually make feel really sad black panther one alltime favorite superheroes boseman left us soon rest easy legend,0 just got done watching the new house episode definitely one of the saddest episode ever,0 i ve tried to do everything right i ve tried so hard it never get better no matter what it s always a circular road and i always end up in the same place i m just so tired,1 "* News Flash * MegaRedPacket, Your Instant Internet Empire (Early Bird Launch) check this DEAL out http://mega-redpacket.com",0 cant get ex cant get himok im point think talk this feel fucking stupid getting worked someone barely know ampnbsp love interest met tinder started talking originally planned hook up dirty maybe hang bit relationships strings attached nothing committing type point life since travels lot much point relationship game this ive already hooked people tinder casual one night stands started messaging back forth meeting up getting know bit other etc really interesting started getting excited see texted me loved sound voice bit scottishbritish accent sounded exotic kind really liked photos profile friend put him thought going go really well set date meet pub arrived really expected hey tinder right got talking drinks together initially attractive thought he grown facial hair since photos bit outgoing tastes getting along hed put hands mine touch face nuzzle me affectionate even though bit awkward first drinks came like it got back place sex etc thought hed get leave ended staying night ampnbsp talked him liked him wed goof around lot made laugh cried hes one funniest charismatic guys id ever met everything say interesting fascinating everything him places hed been things hed done views life treated really well always thinking needs first making laugh gently holding me always touching me stroking me cuddling me said weird girl one adorable cute girls hed ever known gorgeous told like put down needed stop worrying much stop apologizing time made really happy moment handsome guy attracted inside wanted cuddle me always hed come wherever went talk me made feel loved wanted needed held hand stroked face gave kisses refused let go made feelcontent dress put makeup impress him single thing except myself could see truly was everything me inside personality got chance shine happy body well ampnbsp cuddling nearly slipped said i love you habit know boyfriend snuggling absent mindedly cooing one another say i love you contented sigh stopped myself since well met i love you really something say said already knew going say think crazy first time something like happened apologized said i cant love you yet love person like lot great said that made heart skip little hated it started crying told knew going end badly told borderline personality disorder ultimately fear abandonment get attached deeply quickly also mentioned wanted let feelings love developing soon die told feelings bad thing wanted feel them feel them mind long understood commit time life traveling reasons feel way yet know desperate ignorant excited what accepted happy hear say i love you back me even meaning hold weight promised would never hurt me loved human being person even together sense lovers wanted part life wanted friend gentle since wonderful person felt heart hearts meant it sure anyone ability lie buti truly felt meant it did still does days went on spent time together staying one night one another turning two three four happy room him never ran things talk to never left side felt tranquil peace life grew attractive eyes every way even though known long felt like best friend someone known life everything unidentifiable familiar quality went pubs together went eat went walks went many events art festival town good content many years despite fact allergies started acting contracted staph infection parents the community live town rampant mrsa still texted often hosts house days tying loose ends figuring travel east end week like planned ampnbsp decided spend one last night together left ex texted nowhere sent blind panic told together several years broke separate times emotionally unstable blackmailed manipulated staying attempting threatening redflag stopped loving started antidepressants despite this never thought ill her loved anything always unconditionally told every time gotten back touch always ended back together im freaking fuck out chance picture now was sick rage tears completely shattered felt robbed chance even began try told also reason commit still loved ex probably always would closest person whole entire life closer family even though together knew shed never again and shouldnt get back together sake still hopelessly love deserving unconditional love well then told touch anymore touched me tried comfort me harder falling wanted feelings desperately die want feel anything anymore wrong wrong want fall trap again told know could ever commit relationship even future me anyone firmly believed still love ex sure hed ever get her understood family member friend lover falling outs with fights with never really forget them even years later feelings still hes hes younger years may wise mark be likes think rationally emotionally knows cant get back together her still theres lot emotion lot tension feel like im living shadow ex love interest said cared me lot ex hed heart beat cares great deal situation causing pain too wanted friends promise wed ever together know could get it hurt me else could do wanted cut life completely might answer still partially want since every time think heart hurts think lot growing do ampnbsp hes left east train now offered take travels could come time wanted to really wanted to cant said hes probably good me ever make long term plans schedules hitchhikes couch surfs drinks lot loves dangerous situations lots socializing strangers one favorite things go super crowded pub shoulder shoulder locals chat strangers make new contacts sorts things worst nightmare now im looking back rational standpoint probably in love him probably desperate needy human connection someone want me tender me make feel special needed that incredibly handsome cute though good bed even well endowed average best thats generous always took needs consideration first hes heavy drinker heavy partier care consequences lives life recklessly cant this could ever thrives danger unknown never plans never cares takes life one day time survives gets by cant either could ever although parts personalities overlap lot goals views world same different people left feeling alienated abandoned times want admit even short time him less aware craving love human affection gentleness tenderness alone year without things daydreamer hopeless romantic needy clingy wanting passionate intense something like dropped lap gave it even though knew horrible idea would end pain desperate anxious chance matter dismal odds could happiness again towards wasprobably infatuation liked idea represented want need adventure breaking chains bind traveling world seeing sights experiencing life offer saw me looks completely inconsequential saw soul needed even need it treasure looking find turned blind eye many cons blissfully drinking ignorance moment felt high situation way lied intentionally hurt me circumstance once person person im fighting killing feelings him trying keep alive slightest tiniest chance years now might able try again meantime itd hurt constantly knowing hes talking ex thinking ex love distant afterthought since hes still obsessed cant live that even just friends ive distanced time being need time grieve heal still entirely know make feel im angry betrayed heartbroken frustrated im many things once since writing this ive given final phone call summed mentioned post told cannot even stay friends damaging right now hurts much fucking much think best ampnbsp tldr bpd sorts attached guy barely knew scared whats next scared self harming tendencies suicidal thoughts happened,1 die everyone else least ill come first lifeive never anything stand in second choice participation trophy never smart never attractive never skinny never impressive never loved never wanted im tired thinly veiled pretending ever come first anyone dont even come first myself sad way understand feel empty crowds people okay one cared enough notice other far important things wonder long itd take notice dead,1 house messi live one bedroom apartment cat foster mess dont cook bake anymore im never home wander city anything better going home confronted mess litter food water bowls keep cat happy bedroom littered clothes livingroom covered garbage whats quickest way end life without scarring someone mangled corpse lol,1 back againnd night row tonight worse found exgirl friend cheated me crutch im done,1 honestly need find god smth idk kind wanna go like sort religious journey find sort spirituality anyway afterlife afterlife want id kinda want something like reincarnation maybe ill reincarnated viking warrior wholl conquer engand also like idea either given little pocket dimension whatever like getting create universe god of,0 boy wanna see get creepy dms like girls do hand,0 going to the "Girl's Breakfast" ,0 people really like this character gay adds nothing plot dude character straight adds plot lmao,0 big announcement tomorrow stay tuned ,0 intent redflag mattersif genuinely believe redflag best method afterlife take pity circumstances im sure said commit redflag selfish reasons though,1 my imagination is not vivid enough to have faith in god spirit and the afterlife death will come no matter what and when it come your consciousness dissappears you don t feel pain you don t feel happiness you don t feel sadness you feel nothing and you think nothing you simply cease to exist but i respect those who want to live it s futile sure but i respect their decision the thing is if you want to live then you have to be strong in order to make it through all the hardship life throw at you weakling will only hinder the strong there are those who wa weak but then became stronger and then there are those like me who stay weak and doesn t have the will to get stronger my friend my family my relative and my neighbor all do their job despite not really liking them while i m just lying here not wanting to do anything if god actually existed he would be a sadist for putting me in such a strong body i once eat on the same table with two covid 9 patient without catching it or maybe he s also a weakling who can never get thing right my body should ve been used by someone stronger than me like steven hawking then i would kill myself once our body got exchanged he is someone who can actually contribute to the world of the living my death would be that by hanging once i m dead all people have to do is untie the rope and throw me into the fire they won t have to waste time finding my body they won t have to scrape my brain and blood off the wall and i will make sure to write a note telling the police that i have not been murdered by anyone directly or indirectly everyone will go on with their life and maybe forget who i am which is definitely a good thing those thought are like an immortal entity i can do nothing but run away from it by distracting myself with anime meme game novel music self harm that entity however would simply sit down and wait patiently because it know full well that no matter what i do i would still stumble into it hand,1 gain weight look like idiot im skinny even,0 im failure human beingim year old student zero friends outside internet offline friend years im ugly despise everything appearance know never date cant even make friends first place im anxious confident enough party go act like people age spend weekends staying browsing internet thought supposed best years life ive wasted ill never happy people bullied abused right so im scum deserve good things,1 hated too dreams stabbing chest eventually went mum essentially wanted out me like stroppy teenager made tell going on hed making death threats time last time too hed kill us wed held back,1 i m on anti depressant for month now and they changed my life completely like i went from a terrible suicidal wreck to a normal functioning human being i had a good a no bad mood some physical issue even went away and i definitely had a more positive outlook on life i wa lucky enough to even have almost no side affect so i feel like my body work quite well with them around week ago i slowly started to get a little bit of bad feeling not too much or anything i thought it s probably normal because no human feel good every single day but the more time went by the heavier the bad mood gots until this evening where i found myself in bed hating the fact that i m alive it scare me because for the first time in my life i ve felt somewhat normal and okay with being alive and i don t wan na go back because i got ta do this for my family is it normal that it get like this,1 school bullshit especially neurodivergent people no im teenager im work substitute teachers aide mostly special education im autistic myself say way classes run absolutely piss off especially stimming tell much energy ive lost suppressing stims energy probably would landed decent name tech industry now im placing bets maybe getting hired mr hollywood executive music shit thats energy left system essentially putting shit thats inevitably landing position energy maybe get lucky would even times consider qualified lead teacher position saying lot consider qualified all einstein said if teach fish climb tree live whole life believing stupid cant think better example special education classes ive seen oh god damn irony know guys gonna special ed class too already are also wanna say bad ive seen kids thriving see probably getting really great things future want guys prepared occasions theyre not leave giant rant things might affect solutions one decent way release stims sort divert wrists hands turn bunch times kind like electric tooth brush looks like spinning really releases stims less time also distracting constant leg shaking usually happens hope helps someone btw one noticed pissed ive supressing whole time,0 happyi pretty okay job im going back graduate school great husband two really cute but stupid dogs pretty okay businessside hustle really good friends im kind funny kind attractive pretty okay house pay bills theres food belly roof head bed sleep in yet still want here feel like saying want die is much happened pull ending infinity war sitting computer desk bad know used see therapist months back really well got discharged feel like going back makes failure know go back explain yourself hi thought fine wanna die am like man know throat feels tight eyes puffy like could probably cry ten years im actually gonna play sims stare space hope like darkness consumes me,1 lost liveevery day dive selfpity hate point find point pleasure living anymore im useless terrible person get easily irritated everything everyone cant sleep night im busy day barely sleep i slept hours week three hours per day less im way behind everyone else college lectures cant find motivation read anything anymore interview therapist week ago said theyd call set schedules start treatment im getting really tired impatient might well abort evertything depression also makes home life fucking horrible feel guilty every time talk family members knowing know depression makes feel disgust towards myself plus past haunting like never esp guilt towards knowing happened childhood knowing memories back even real all im also forgettable people whod miss would little brothers parents even would get sooner later lost friends still talk care anymore suck getting new friends im shy awkward social anxiety romantic life sucks too basically im whiny little asshole cant get shit together deserve live neither wants to even motivation kill despite much want die hope someday get hit car smth die horrible painful death deserve,1 celesteclara i can t sleep either,0 You and me ,0 Yesterday I was just talking about how my mom would sing about my depression at church if I were to ever tell her. https://twitter.com/allureshae/status/988235826755751936 …,1 much karma need post here alt still let post could check text wanted post gramatical mistakes thanks lt im sorry mum please blame yourself fault loved much tried give best life enough decision decided wanna live anymore heavily bullied no one responsible this maybe proud me maybe ill praised things ive done maybe take granted wanted die wanted end suffering mind hell blame noticing completely fault please im better now sure whether pills alcohol me noose around neck im better please excuse cuts forearms wrists palms elbows please help part rom elbow palm called thanks theyre fault either im sorry probably politician like wanted be im sorry im best school kids always better me find this im probably somewhere better fault im sorry,0 lost sense smell due covid stupidity science class probably,0 french people known great movie producersbr br though amelie scores high points oscars asterix et obelix different film used french great movie especially kids thing boddert spoken french subtiteld normally english spoken movies here netherlands read subtitles french language read understand story self great obelix recall self beng fat also nice details mainly names like brucewillix malcomix know story comic books movie shows slide slide book every thing it sfinx nose braking till pirate red beards lose three ships would say great movie weekend children,0 yo anyone recommend great wholesome yuri manga manga doujin im trying break away stuff,0 baby a bit sick poor honey having a relaxing day otherwise in israel enjoying all the fam,0 lsts make dumb rap song psgmzjlxlfjpflxlhxl hlcpchpxoxohxhpxjlcjlxxoxidhehor hprupdkxlcg,0 is handmade goodness at the moment xxx,0 @xSkylines erm...okay. I still prefer my stalker career. It's so much easier. ,0 real talk proud country live in certainly not wbu im curious yall,0 thoughts come often ever beforethey honestly comforting im depressed go think redflag feel happier feel end suffering sadness dont know ever got way posting anonymously wanting end life never thought id feeling way am know is longer fear death longer positive outlook see improving mentally waking up daily day day tasks working etc feels pointless longer want feel way dont want feel like way finding relief death,1 my gf ha several psychiatric condition including bpd ptsd and others and ultimately she say that she hate me and everyone around her for neglecting her and not helping this isn t entirely false a i have a few thing i m working on for myself but she undoubtedly ha it much worse she s been staying with me but primarily life with her parent a she can t be without her childhood home i m worried that me being around her is just making u co dependent or that my lack of real experience in psychology is making thing worse how do i know when i really am just making the situation worse by staying i am trying to improve and be a better support system for her but i m not improving fast enough problem is i m worried that if i leave her then she ll certainly have no real support even from her parent i realize it might be subjective but what are some thing to look out for,1 out by my pool for the remainder of the day ,0 series lot going beautiful footage impressive underwater environments planet staggering five years making one would hardpressed expect less get impression scenes first episode repeated latter ones naturally minor gripebr br david attenborough great narrator comments informative leaving enough room ones imagination well spaced out viewers get plenty time reflect upon breathtaking imagery get opportunity try watch translated version seriesbr br a definite mustsee anyone interested intricacies blue continents easily best documentary subject ive ever seen,0 wish attracted girls well attracted gay guys lmfaoooo yall see im homophobic kinda assume im sorry guys,0 @ChickadeZzz DEAD!uhmm...that's pretty much been established already ,0 good hoodies amazon gift card one hoodie ill two,0 going hang tonightsick sadness tragedy shit life cant cope anymore also please stop dming god jesus love you shit god isnt real,1 @jennypoussin That's cause your sexy self just to hot for Facebook to contain ,0 wowhas anyone else know theyre edge tell it sure fucking wish could fresh initiative,1 @ednarheiner ill be happy to tweet with ya as well "tweet tweet" lol.,0 hour long apple live stream yeah seriously live stream picked washed peeled sliced almost apples yeah fun idk anyone watched average viewership around filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 everything went hill fastlast night typical got work feeling kind depressed wanted hurt sister said could crash place ive depressed suicidal since way anyways around four sister asks watch son get nap work goes upstairs get call dad id kicked online school second year online id transfered local high school bullying im extremely socially awkward get along authority figures constant battle teachers well gotta go back highschool im supposed senior nearly credits much mental hospitals since seventh grade ive never thought redflag would best option now always just well option seems like im gonna high school drop loser life really worth it edit id talk parents father told go home pissed theyd think looking attention way get trouble,1 anyone else feel like neglected parents never problem child know really thing complain about ive always wondered anyone else felt wa thirdborn family homeschooled first years mother school rwo older brothers came world whittled mothers patience time needing schooled mother already busy enough brothers capacity give much attention time able read well own mother would plop textbook front would go ahead study own learned rather quickly mother little patience asked help twice row took long figure easy stuff yelling occasionally beatings would follow stopped asking help altogether point on almost everything own would start fear help would kick rear overdrive focus hell times tables whatever studying avoid help altogether studying strange reason really sensetive yelling would prefer beating rather scold pretty much every occasion this learned cery quickly good boy house making trouble whatsoever never causing problems never ask assistance with fun times jigsaw puzzles puzzle books jacks whatever player games could find played them keeping possible problems could cause minimum decade line im older high school exceedingly well every class never cause problem anybody find without social life considered waste energy time ive also noticed exceptional achievements going pretty much unseen parents believe got used never problen standard eyes grew always great pushing greatness even exceedingly difficult im feel sort trapped image created parents must always perfect never cause problem ive worked hard keep image feel like tearing down feel really time now feel unmotivated unhappy good boy says ignore emotional bs keep moving along harder harder every passing day feel depressed hide parents would issue would putting onto them sorry mom rd child problem also even know theyll care looking back whole situation feel like blame feel like one caused parents care never wanted care avoided whereever could im one caused look way do anyone else feel same,0 could not sleep last night and is back to work today yikes! first day of summer session! ,0 want fall existence nobody sad it thats really see birth nobody asked wanted life obvious practical implications point life said first able consider existence properly already late already become tangled net people care purest wishes cannot fault them coerce life want stop caring could put nobody would distress discovering body would even hesitate anger want life want put effort would take process therapy become functional human being saying impossible happy feel co operate entities us work together fix myself would likely become happy productive actually saying want it want improve myself want cause distress given willing compromise wishes movement this angry like trapped beast am angry myself pitiful weak ridiculous self maybe cruellest trick fate dealt me weakness neither improve end myself simply a complete ass handful people spoken seem think medical profession answer seem think that went doctor would change mind no id co operate id want change not want something impossible want fall existence nobody sad it,1 i totally just lied about going on a trip to get out of hanging out with someone airport wa the only excuse that came to mind,0 "yes, camera battery works ",0 amazon u top 000 reviewer compelling crime fiction this is very different unique kind of crime fiction several topic are explored mental illness depression feeling of rage a the book continues the suspense build http t co wr 9sjtg j http t co en0qpdxf9j,1 think im going kill examsidk anymore like im worthless sack nothing school go home sit cut sleep dont really see point anymore,1 fun night friends alot fun drunk hung hours home sad lonely feel like burden everyone always struggled silence i hate fill it definitely talk much insist sharing opinionshere thoughts jotted making posti talk muchi share muchi push opinionsi accept social ques to shut up always need air realizationsobservations confident opinions confident social skills get home alone analyze behaviour want die kill myself feel like everyone tolerates would happier deadi imagine upset died either feel validated sadness or pained relieved would gone anyone else feel way know do desperately need socialize miss friends see them everytime socialize friends go home feelings almost feels worst sitting home doi g nothing alone one know keep going like this want alone feelings scare fuck literally want die make stop loss know keep going like thisi love friends never indicated annoy but feel know do adhd absolutely cannot stop talking soon let guard down know continue living like this depressed spending time friends,1 and of course i have access to my halo mythic map pack re download but bad news not the legendary map pack ugh 00ms,0 @likeSunday sorry. at least a netbook is the cheaper route. You can also take ur netbook to an apple store and use their wifi ;-),0 Talking to my amazing clyde and he says i'm his adorable bonnie ,0 basically long blogpost think ive got pretty good reasons myself see think otherwiseim end line folks although would like hear lads would say personally think ive done good job making long blogpost explanation bit top usual cocktail anxiety depression substance abuse chemically addicted thing prescribed not fact dropped school highschool freshman amp elongated social interaction since bout years job doesnt count ive chronic disease since baby ibd turned crohns disease large intestine removed amp ulcers kept popping replacement small intestine this two choices first option connected jpouch w pouchitis little remission relative people jpouches ive developed antibodies hardhitting immunosuppressants ie remicade since pumped full stuff kid im likely die extreme pain sometime ss meds stop working regardless meaning constant diarrhea constantly shitting bed night nearconstant internal pain amp constant fear stricture complications leading extreme pain option ostomy amp ostomy bag due fact scar indent inch deep amp inches long abdomen dozen surgeries child bag leaks constantly without ton extra adhesive thus put adhesive leading x diameter circle basically painful fungus infection thats especially raw thanks acidic nature shit antifungal things hamper it never notpainful turn leads a extreme pain upon taking shower touching it applying new bag b pain bend wrong goddamn direction sleep angle slight lean right yes issue brought wound care nurses well relevant doctor cant anything right now due stricture im stuck ostomy without active intervention monthly endoscopies balloon dilation area intestinal fluid pool said stricture eventually leading internal expansion amp thus mindrending pain speaking experience due covid operations stopped guess halfyear absolutely negative desire condition passed onto kid point ive informed parents intentions yes course theyve tried help appreciate efforts despite futile are point believe keeping alive sake others is lack better word phrase simply worth it ampxb relevant bit think obvious anyone anxiety little social interaction constant fucking pain nearly every second day multiple addictions due aforementioned things tends make man suicidal id prolly psychologists fucking field day ive picked nice area woods although near road first responders go much effort plan call killing order streamline things despite possible risk main thing yet decide upon whether go head unfortunately meaning none family members would want keep rifle mm head unlikely possible become vegetable rather dying exit baghave wait materials cant transported car higher risk failure two things yet decide upon are know whether drive place question walk driving would mean family would trouble getting car back walking might get cops called ass decide head would impossible decide exit bag also itd give much time back out another thing ive drafted redflag letter family amp ive planned short post chat servers frequent im still trying think something give first responders either means apology something make laugh either sorry mess letter joke something maybe both less id appreciate opinions question regarding leave first responders,1 parents got divorced now kept telling terrible things still do used visit dad week really much memory him remember telling mom monster whole mom times wondering parent trust btw sorry english sure using right grammer three years ago got first child new wife stopped seeing still see like twice month less feel like never good time really feel close feel father really want fix get know better kind feel jealous half siblings get closer parents get closer parents,1 milk fridge am country hungry wanted make cereal usually milk fridge would go sleep hungry time milk fridge im happy now,0 im researching world really run cats political club school im research presentation cats true world leaders going deep research,0 honestly tell movie awesome movie ever mood comedy totally recommend movie so heres summary girlnikki fourteen half goes vacation fatherandre seen two years expects vacation totally boring meets boyben much older is so try impress says vacation father lover hysterical movie beginning end highly suggest it rent enjoy,0 "@natasya_astri yeaa of course we should lah..hehe,and i will always nat..,and you should too ",0 pm pls im bored rn jdjhdhjdjdjsjjsjsoskkajshsiskbdhdhdjejejjejdjskskksksksksjsjsjjsjejejejejjeoskskskkskskisokajapkdgdoek,0 im bad intimate text lmao u make pp feel funny lmfao left read,0 feeling scared down hopelesstomorrow court felony possesion controlled substance heroin used self medicate with dont really prior criminal record times ive jail hours scared much feel trapped type person typically would fit people jail im worried whats going happen long im going jail cannot afford lawyer wont send prison right prison sentence year jail less would honestly rather dead affects much long time dont think could live see through,1 need helpi want die im miserable parents know choose ignore instead taking see psychiatrist think im young legally get prescription myself think redflag every day imagining id it thing kept alive last week fact promised therapist parents get psychiatrist theyre pretending issue please help,1 yo that wa hella weird my twitter got deleted,0 the great depression,1 dont want anymore dont even want type shit anymore want forget it want forget time first crush want forgets forget her normally would say ever problem dont want anymore no better stayed random strangers even tho wouldnt possible,0 dont wanna get political anything heck babaganoosh,0 second horror film emmahttpsyoutubemtomnfbrps,0 long time reddit lurker first time posteranyone take sertraline i mg per day andor propranolol mg times per day need it drink alcohol experience wary of cannot sleep could really sink beers haha also newbie antidepressants took mg fluoxetine years prior switchover last month found effect depression anymore thanks advance propranololsertraline amp alcohol,1 listening number victory royale hours loop even like fortnite,0 im years old ambitions want get far life thought killing haunting long time want end itthis going long one type read long piece text think move elsewhere im years old male live uk im aspiring filmmaker im currently university filmmaking course young age wideeyed kid saw world playground imagination run wild place become almost anything time life discovered many things created many goals aspire towards everyday would look important relic something thrive towards time childhood fun full optimism carried forward early years teenager friends school moved on first sense loss next grandmother grandfather passing away within year carried forward time high school optimism still alive far remember high school fun time dispute overly shy able gain good group friends dreams ambitions seemed closer ever began watch films range arthouse cinema built love writing able come stories im still working even day shy was think would remembered everyone latter half final year got stage sang songs everyone loved remember boy came shell sang heart out attended college soon finally wanted do held back little poor maths grade level one art design media course first moving towards level film course years went on began lose confidence myself disregarding scripts calling awful even deleting computer attending classes began lose hope able get highest grades class got university made happy spark gone know why ive enjoyed university far ive working likeminded people reason feel like lesser person them latter half first year considering redflag stopped shortly attended music festival ive attending festival since last year helped forgive see thousands people time lives made think would lose kill myself that want got back work but thought killing stuck again ive degrading ive person before parents worried brother worried really affected filmmaking well think future hold me haunting long time wish could end life right now write this im edge hope itbut urge overwhelming me actually read this want thank taking time wonderful life hope everything works you certainly me ive never love sense success really see point continuing life take life post this want reflect life makes wonderful want see flaws hope stronger point overcome tough times live see happiness waiting you again thank reading wish happy life know mine worth it life worth everything,1 is awake and ready for the day!! ,0 arse totally forgot about a webinar that i wanted to attend this morning now i ll never know how to secure virtualised environment,0 "free draw, lit easily, puffing away ",0 depression past years getting worse application rejected twice count days application accepted enjoy anything life anymore going insane peers moved ahead life whilst cannot even face family embarrassment please help got bad grades cannot get college,1 "Inflammation contributes to disease pathogenesis in peripheral (neuropathic pain, fibromyalgia) & central nervous systems; Alzheimer, Parkinsons, multiple sclerosis, motor neuron disease, ischemia, traumatic brain injury, depression, & #Autism. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/29618972 ",1 @TheOrdinaryChef http://twitpic.com/6rc08 - And too cute for words - 3 out of 3 ,0 teacher literally cant teach made get really mad fact f class im usually ab student try need really specific moments teacher oh god made get frustrated everything teacher ap physics cannot teach cant get this f life consistently would get f even tried tried first quarter ended getting f nd quarter mental health slipping much could got ive stopped honestly cant anymore literally sits acting like gone things never gone single thing barely anyone class understands anything ap class ive ap class multiple times life least gotten b every quarter though typically consistently a literally expects us answer question then surprised nobody answers even though never teaches one person understands it person suspect tutor something going nobody else class understands anything never taught us equation yet expects us solve equation perfectly mistakes legitimately cannot anymore making frustrated everything due fact school system prevents part time school job order make money want make money start saving college things relating hobbies get work experience course need pass physics can whatever reason due fact teacher cannot teach sacrifice potential get job decent amount hours without feeling extremely tired end day school job going retake physics senior year top that let switch classes even though specifically requested twice told them theyve even lot complaints teacher themselves cant switch due rule put in blame counselor job cant fathom cant switch me even though ive proven relatively good student outside ap physics showing odd get anything lower b im going specifically request teacher hope listen request want ever deal teacher again,0 deeply tired would love diewhen die hope see again one want see,1 @WEGMusic Pleaseee pick me I really really want the picture.,0 real onez get joke ,0 guys majorly fucked up talking mom asked last thing copied phone didnt know normally links thought id front her well messing people discord spamming buy feet pics prepare hand foreskin uwu saw im constantly dying embarrassment whenever im around her,0 found best ad entire universe cant even tell ad end and many ads like jksjsjk suggest watch bored idk httpsyoutubearspxeaiuyhttpsyoutubearspxeaiuy,0 desperate break upim lost desperate break boyfriend months broke completlt detroyed me im year old girl good student really feel like ii reason continue living life losng hes first everything world enetered state total desperation dumped me still insistted friends remaining important part eachothers life told hard me hurtful course id never wanan miss him since still feelings him still love anything else got harder harder me felt losing him feeling replacing feeling lover friend two months friendship noticed new girl life snapped u see course cnt focus lectures anymore university one thing kept going cause evry day see much cut contact compeltely im dying im devasted hes fine absoletely fine every time see happier hes always smiling adn said me doesnt love anymore said wants friend cant friend love much never gonna able finds bbetter girl replace im sorry im really sorry know longer together know say behaviour know move byt cant parents done supporting me tell stress out glad hes longer life one reach to dont care anymore want best him obvously negative factor life rn wanna stop,1 mistaking halloween rebroadcast orson welles classic radio adaptation war worlds real martian invasion group moronic martians shows earth looking conquer plans go awry find truly element reality alonebr br this really often quite good funny decent lines just check memorable quotes boot likely appeal scifi fans passed test time seeing recently proved much better expected be despite cast made noname stars may funniest martian invasion ever put film interestingly enough martians seem represent almost every classic action heroscifi hero stereotype cool s teen fighter pilot fearless astronaut brave soldier kooky scientist fun whole family br br prepare die earth scum,0 used think isolating people seems like ever people isolating mewhyespecially worst times feel like always people worst never memakes wonder even reach outmakes wonder even try drifting away,1 google quavo nd picture right blows mind smh picture better fake altered im speechless right now,0 dm im hornyyy thats thats post bonk go horny jail blah blah blah whatever dude want dick sucked,0 davidtaraso i m stuck on chapter incineration destination,0 ugly cow fields concrete slathered people live dicks want friend hot dry sun hurts head still house rented yet living hotels dog died cat sick pain cannot afford surgery partner lives another country corona means cannot see seriously thinking ending moved back conservative hick redneck hometown want scream,1 Piece of cake. anyone like to indulge?,0 "@shannonpaul - Dig the Jack DeJohnette! You've got great taste in music, Shannon! ",0 im sure anythingi know even belong here even sure depressed while point think must be suicidal thoughts best times last years therapist says theres good chance ever go away bipolar disorder episodes even im medication sloppy taking last month so im sure thats contributing factor lately the past week half maybe ive nothing sleep cant get bed one two days made outside one made work im essentially using sick days right now go sleep wake take benadryl nyquil sleep again rinse repeat day feel purposeless lonely thats true while feel like im slipping acute sharp painful kind depression numbing sort drives nuts anyway feel like want end it scare anymore ive essentially suicidal six years im sure good used it many good things happened recently cant seem hold them feel like im stuck way down,1 @pranaydewan Yes. First!!! But definitely not the last. It was the Creme variant not the plain original one ,0 permit right got pulled first time today months driving driving dads suv weird ass steering wheel looked like swerving lanes officer flashes lights behind im signaled pull right so nervousness gets hit god damn curb add this sister back legally cannot drive officer cool hell looks permit says youre fine lets go think ill stick driving camry,0 I'm going off twitter for a bit. Feeling depressed. Since the passing of my auntie. Im too upset for this. Especially the stress of being ignored sometimes. Which adds to the depression.,1 when i slit my wrist we will see it s a 0 0 at this point,1 miss sub super fun used life couple years ago lol wish sub fun rn corona man posts shit karma whores yea yea used ton karma whores back never bad unfunny jokes,0 ibe gotten point even tried kill myself im pretty sure id faili going kill tonight as hope school everyday thought youll good everything else want end life obviously pointless im sure way certainly die risk taker dont know do parents wont take seriously friends try help cant do,1 @CrysAnGeL77 wow I didn't know lol yes I'm out already. Well have a gnite ttys ,0 thank you feel free send message need someone talk toplease,1 Today's depression is brought to you by overwhelming sense detachment followed by past transgressions. It's gonna be a good day ,1 first year reddit over th november exact already say thanks making first year reddit great ive laughed ive pressed f pay respect ive done sorts stuff first year great thank guys making phenomenal,0 theekween heart break trauma anxiety depression pain of losing your loved one thelmasherbs,1 i ve been in therapy a few month cbt he mostly just advises me to try to stay in the present and mediate at first it seemed to help a little but the larger issue i have won t stop bothering me i make good money and i m not bad looking at all but i have basically zero friend and i haven t been on a date in over 0 year im and i ve been thinking about suicide a lot but i obviously can t tell my therapist or he ll get me emergency petitioned im really not sure what to do my anxiety and depression just seems to keep getting worse i can barely get myself to eat most day let alone exercise or try to talk to someone,1 i have 0 success in life even duo i wa given every opportunity to grow myself i strugglecwith my mental health for about year now i m at the moment every year i hope thing will change for good but every time i feel immense disappointment i can t find any reason to continue living with every breath of air i feel like poison fill my lung most of my day i stare blankly at a random space imaging my death i crave to die life consists of little to no joy why is suicide considered a cowardly act i believe the opposite is true a the one who kill himself chooses to die in his own circumstance imagine how much power it take to jump off a building or cut one own vein vertically i recently cutted my wrist horizentaly just a little bit i wanted to see blood to feel pain i felt so connected with reality what an amazing experience pain is my only way to remember i m alive physical pain also help me forget of my failure of who i m an empty shell who keep existing a zombie who just want to be buried again if god exists we are all his slave,1 gonna make bet full japanese people sub either half japanese female,0 @amber_benson awesome..what did you tell her? No? ,0 Woohoo.. The Da Vinci Code on Pro7 this evening #OTR,0 best friend shot weeks agokilling permanent solution temporary problem literally everyone life feels guilt talking enough hand seeing signs please talk someone love make clear serious are emotions brain chemistry two powerful things ways harness without ending them promise holiday season please reach out lot surprised think find much family friends love miss you,1 i m trying to work on my last assignment of the year but i just can t get that spark all i want to do is lay in the grass and read,0 "@YoungQ Hope you're not missing Va Bch, DC, Jones Bch or PNC!!! Just sayin ",0 talk meim gonna post mostly posted rdepression day added effect wanting miserable life end one annoying symptoms ive got right now really really would love die idk symptom depression anxiety whatever something wanna talk about always like think something makes feel someone happy feel like gives meaning really prominent like theres massive noticeable change mood im thinking it theres always something whether im thinking gym seeing gains whether job ive applied for im always thinking keep happy often not forget it weird literally think im trying remember actually is forget is feel completely lost like meaning right really cant think something thats giving meaning really pissing annoying me sorry walk text probably makes sense whatsoever heres hoping someone understands mean idk wanna die lol,1 working on simplifying a sales strategy and offering free trials of www.marketdefender.com interested in PPC? click and see! ,0 way ill ever worth something im food wormsnobody wants friend get know me im intense im loving im annoying need much validation anytime meet someone form close connection scare away get attached people fast borderline pd wasnt like would worth more nobody cares nobody loves nobody wants get know shouldnt alive want dead want fucking dead let bleed out,1 Am about to start re-doing my wedding invitations brochure now I have made new designs for '09 today ,0 @Itsalloso Thank You! ,0 another day another depression nap,1 What are the signs and symptoms of depression in teenagers? Ask @NIMHgov experts these questions and more at a Twitter chat on teen depression May 3 at 3 PM ET: http://bit.ly/2K3W5hJ  #NIMHchats pic.twitter.com/PmBeA8df5p,1 cant shake feeling im incapable working like normal personi really happy kid know happened sophomore year high school suddenly wanted die work im depression basically never stopped ive spent last years going pretty bad community college parttime usually without even job still well classes found today managed fail classes semester know im doing ive spent time trying get engineering degree absolutely hate classes know options life im exhausted like kids big brother would say why easy things hard you know young joking said stuff like time may internalized it want get way yes im meds pills every day yes see therapist good although years ive put seemingly every available medication feel like ever really done anything previous prescriber said complicated client feel alone cant comfortably open family friends more high school friends careers real lives ive tried reaching im embarrassed ruins every interaction actually made post subreddit years ago got dumbass telling get ged already said college would mean lot get reply someone actually read post,1 cant choose die instantlyive depressed edge huge amount time wanted know redflag cant easier hang shoot myself cant snap fingers gone honestly designed shit want finished done life,1 girls hit hahaahahahha idk anymore yeyeyeyeyeyeyeeye,0 anyone else scared held willi feel careful speak pysch doctor depression suicidal thoughts get scared say much theyll admitted hospital psych ward will thing is want help still want complete control life seems cannot both,1 personality test highly recommend got infp mediator personality type cool read always feel stupidly unique unable relate peoples actions test found theres whole personality type people like me amazing see like person analyzed personality years wrote everything pretty accurate answer questions honestly,0 vsauce,0 bitfor first time years suicidal thoughts becoming plans again rather passive theyre becoming staring pills bathroom thinking highest building city im thinking writing note im thinking every single day close dont know much longer left really desperately dont want anymore,1 zero day leads think even rethink two boysyoung men would commit mutual suicide via slaughtering classmates captures must beyond bizarre mode two humans decided withdraw common civility order define ownmutual world via coupled destructionbr br it perfect movie given moneytime filmmaker actors remarkable product terms explaining motives actions two young suicidemurderers better elephant terms film gets rationalistic skin far far better film almost anything likely see br br flawed honest terrible honesty,0 heyi think suicidal often think would like so sometimes imagine easy would shoot gun handy always follow nah something would ever do sometimes im glad gun around im afraid might hurt myself thought one thing ever kept purchasing gun asking parents guns feel way edit recently started moving mind gun ways could quickly end it want die always ti back mind hate making posti want fint reason im making it,1 post created could get reward honky mommy milkers lied post created could complain cant complete mgs im playing emulator cant beat psycho mantis switch controller ports im playing fucking emulator cant that,0 cannot handle shit anymore want pain suffering go away fuck life fuck asshole parents giving life never wanted first place fuck transphobic assholes world want hate something control fuck love load bullshit thinking slitting wrists andor throat tonight,1 ive fool im home alone cat instead ill like dame da ne dame wo dame dame wohttpsyoutubeziwrvmvomi,0 hey guy been lurking on here for a while but finally here to make my first post trigger warning talk of suicidal ideation ironically enough it s anxiety that prevented me from ever posting but we re doing it now i never struggled with anxiety very badly before the pandemic i wa in my first year of college and life ha always been good to me but last year after i went back to school for my second year thing never felt quite the same i now realize it wa general anxiety but it wa kind of scary i wa always stressed sometimes i wouldn t be able to fall asleep at night for a few day in a row everything i did or didn t do felt like a huge deal then i had my first panic attack and severe anxiety attack in the early spring and i finally looked into what wa going on i talked about it with friend and family and that ha helped me get through it then this fall came i wa working 0 hour a week while being a full time math student on the side the anxiety wa worse than it had ever been the level of generalized anxiety wa heightened and the anxiety attack on the side would sometimes push me to suicidal ideation i reached out to on campus treatment and had an appointment scheduled but it got pushed back due to the building that the mental health wa in being closed for a water pipe breaking and the second date didn t work in my busy schedule so i cancelled it it s been a few month since then and my anxiety ha gotten better but still not in a good place i ve gotten really good at normalizing my anxiety telling myself everyone deal with this like i do but after coming home for spring break and talking to my sister and a hometown friend i realize that this is not normal a they both reminded me that there are resource for me that i should pursue i m finally scheduled for counseling next week and am really looking forward to hopefully getting a treatment plan to work through this all,1 mods censoring mentins pedos need leave sub right filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 love took life want join himmy recent ex wed broken month still contact took life th april wanted nothing see me selfish want him join make sure knows love him,1 ok so hour into the self imposed shopping ban and i am already aching for a shoe fix this is going to be harder than i thought,0 haha. but only cos my mum is kicking me off the comp :S GOING 2 CITY 2NITE haha i wanna warm easyway $2.50 ending in 3 mins :S,0 hey reddit family ive had seperate case of severe panic disorder for about year on and off i used to take lexapro on the smallest dose mg and then mg and it really helped me overcome my disorder completely the first time end of 0 9 into 0 0 but when i got panic disorder a second time end of 0 0 from smoking weed how i got panic first time i noticed not much of an impact on the same dose mg but i wa told multiple time to up my dose for it and i wa too scared to so i quit the medication cold turkey and got insane migraine headache thinking someting in my head wa gon na pop it wa so bad a a withdrawal i think and for the past year i ve been medicine free but i still get panic attack everyday heart race everyday nonstop evil bad thought and i m ready to get back on something my doc prescribed me celexa but i m very unsure about trying it bc i ve been so used to take lexapro and i ve been reading watching other ppl s experience on celexa and the side effect and they seem a little more extreme but i m just wondering what ur opinion would be thank u so much for the help god bless,1 film complete is keeping one continuously interested flashbacks childhood growing bizarre father interspersing tails serial murder one simply cannot go wrong plot itself story essence film entertaining sort story director bill paxton could much with case really lot itbr br from beginning end kept anticipating happening film going creativity behind story first class felt film exquisitely done start finish one rare gems seemed without boring lulls action flowing neatly quickly tightly one scene next br br it demonstrates far people go horrible things loved ones acts evil name god disillusioned case also sometimes interesting its twists takes concept morality wholebr br overall sort film one easily overlooks would recommend likewise check film much worth time,0 markhardy 9 it is but i m still waiting for my ride itm,0 so today doctor increased medication also prescribed clonazepam optimistic time feel like crap able get better mean wish better obvious feel like let take medicine difficult feel like everything falt mixed feelings,1 want goneim graduated high school done nothing life all dropped two colleges right high school home since absolutely nothing jobs currently none hate myself hate appearance life going nowhere lost weight year ago gained self confidence first time years gained back some idk calorie day diet months hair thinned like crazy even now year since eating back normal hair never recovered hairline absolute shit looks like diffuse thinning top head little back head major cause depression wanting die know sounds stupid hair many worse things world balding know people would wish biggest problem losing hair know logically stupid doesnt change feel perfect hair straightest hair line even beginning hair great idk strict diet coincidence looks horrible hate even typing sounds idiotic spoiled kills every time look mirror see photo myself even bought wig looked like shit drain im young hair transplant started taking propecia dont see results aside head hair body hair im ridiculously hairy hate it back shoulders neck arms chest covered hair of course everywhere head lol self conscious it even lose weight ill never feel confident enough take shirt public beach pool wish badly could like guys age take shirt jump pool dont go pool beach do im wearing shirt makes look like fat potato ive gotten dozer laser hair removal treatments arent shit idk laser doesnt work electrolysis option crazy expensive take legit years dont see guys age back hair grown ass men hate it thinking going back school found college think might like thinking start fall ill freshman ill feel old everyone else graduating college ill starting feel like late even go back try age ill or even older time graduate dont even know fuck wanna study im passionate anything dont care anything im good anything dont want anything want sleep day leave house close taking handful pills going sleep bathtub one believes ill actually commit redflag really thinking it im unhappy life self want ended im sorry sound stupid spoiled inconsiderate theres people cant afford food people homeless people cancer people paralyzed wheel chairs stupid fucking ass complaining going bald body hair wtf i wanna punch dick people would love healthy feel selfish wanting die others want live lose weight again try getting electrolysis hair screwed everyone said shave it bald dont want to itll make look older dont want that funny wanted actor yeah yeah know got accepted acting school new york dont even want go anymore cant actor bald hairy fat even lost weight year old gonna even make receding hairline gorilla back even considered trying transition girl read taking hormones stop body hair help head hair grow thats fucking insane am seriously considering changing gender hair gay dont wanna girl dont want boobs vagina want guy want look different im much pussy cut wrists dont like pain want end this wish could give life someone deserves wants live idek donate organs knows long body sitting time dad goes upstairs see am im sorry dont think anyone gonna read fucking sob story essay wanted get out,1 @ DwanB i ate filet american this morning and i cant see your pic on mobile twitter,0 heath ledgers joker reading lyrics welcome black parade brain think right like telling stories got scars ex was young boy father took city see marching band,0 im going sundayfor last months ive planning redflag depression gotten really bad lately cant take anymore fucked life hard cant fix it funniest part ive miserable last months yet nobody noticed parents youngest brother friends none slightest inkling ive going through think im regular sweet fifteen year old girl well school pursuing dreams joke im utter failure reason one knows lie everything days parents blissfully ignorant might even denial around twelve severely depressed cut daily caught me punished me stopped months never got help professional otherwise punishment shame rinse repeat couple years learned hide cuts emotions well enough pass ignore symptoms could tell im going kill thing maybe want die brother stepbrothers little families perfect sons need me im exhausted miserable everyday world without me hopefully death nothingness like neverending dreamless sleep care go hours pain twenty minutes im going home run method fatal refuse stitched back together forced live rest life trapped shell former self basically im saying is im done trying live others maybe im okay selfish once im going it,1 "Happy thoughts don't suddenly take away that heavy, dark weight in your chest and in your gut, they don't take you out of the hole you feel like your own brain is stuck in. It's okay to need help because when your depression is THAT intense, you NEED help. You can't do it alone.",1 jaxtartwitch denismcmichael stats feed well being informed and suffering from depression are two different aspect,1 going binge eating practicing starvationmy stomach hurts feel like nauseous cant sleep even though past midight last days tried stop binge eating going alright far im getting better controlling myself still trouble moving around due suspected disability im improving think con is food mind often now annoying eventually ill full control caloric intake capable starving myself add dehydration maybe sleeping pills trick cant stand housebound anymore thought could use time write paint im stuck again head feels empty lack life pointless able live much outside apartment years now days less same im scared time flying by nothing changes wonder long go for mother live with close every day im worried might die fall hands people care me day remember situation another instance hopelessness thing brings amount joy fiction tried create myself cant write actual characters lack emotional capacity skill experience unless magically wake ability walk again see chance actual independence im useful im alright me want die try to,1 saw movie yesterday night one best made tv films ive seen well directed acting superb convincing music good cinematography beautifully shot take hopelessness requiem dream get wasted excellent depiction world drug addiction consequences given open way wich anyone relate to cudos mtv giving us good flick change like crossroads,0 sooner die better minutesthis sub like guestbook me posting one final message pull plug futile life would ask help deserve it life worth saving years old clearly taken received money means little me thats one reasons im terminating experiment almost broke despite made two half years since college graduation im stock trader past months ive barely break even cant handle failure makes failure failure sudden swift unexpected future cannot work regular jobs due physical disability contest want praise pity statements fact im posting figure place honestly write without ridiculed gives closure also appreciate help readers try offer replies read them okay honest tell im piece shit deserve this pending divine intervention hour live within half hour begin irreversible process death thank listening goodbye,1 redflagwatch need helpfirst all apologize cohesive post im kind typing thoughts come me please read though ill start beginning best friend years recently opened events transpired life younger honestly need know better friend help difficult time life well simply call friend c c years old im met high school years ago like brother ever since differences honestly say constant life hes great guy never talk emotion anything sort hes reserved person never really opened me always knew tough life mother good person hes living father since young age last night house hanging argument text longtime girlfriend well call h never appreciated much kind girl thinks thinks wrong believe toxic person never tried get way cs relationship although knows think her fact agrees sheltered understand real world all fact h completely hates im cigarette smoker atheist even though ive good friend c hates think rather silly reasons typical argument two always says really meanspirited things him yet continues drag along telling really care him always says that knock peg time though snapped went told fuck pretty much finally got tired talked her thats told going go home little bit would back later think much told ill see soon hours later calls tells walking door asked going told got phone redflag hotline thought called hs behalf would never guess million years him always stoic told breakdown needed talk someone honestly shocked ive never known emotional all asked exactly happened concerned basically told argument h triggered major anxiety attack past events came flooding out told actually molested child came back once know say never knew bad vented little bit tell everything problem though c always stoic literally never emotional conversation honestly know talk kind thing simply boundary never crossed told ever needed talk would always here told anything needed would there know else say thats had much experience kinds things hes through feel like kind failed clueless say ended watching hobbit going sleep left early morning spoken since need help better know im really hes got talk kind thing better experience type thing im ears thanks advance update texted minute ago asked doing says better says considering seeing therapist keep everything bottled up encouraged let know always well continue best even simply needs bitch life while thank advice additional resources,1 ive learned something tv shows like savour every second make finale better also realise never miss something gone sincerely guy finished watching time favourite animes,0 my face is breaking out i can FEEL my depression creeping i want to die,1 I think we have cute mormon boys..just those two though. [23],0 head hurts sooo uhm yeah might drinking problem causing go back bad habits whoops,0 want cut bad want stab eye want cut arms up want cut penis want feel pain feel like falling back felt months ago want things want die death much easier would fail kill tried easily kill myself tempting nobody stop me want fucking burn feel real bad,1 came bisexual one best friends like title says came bisexual one best friends and essentially person talk right now yesterday started talking maybe months ago talking one things startedmakingme questionmy sexuality anyway thats besides point realized bi maybe days new years eve yesterday talking decided come him told realized bisexual explained felt emotionally attracted girls boys mostly sexually attracted girls seemed bit surprised accepting said really mind sexuality people have im pretty sure good thing probably person ill tell plan telling people actually feel deserve know people left figure themselves bit scary coming felt good bisexual people start chanting one us one us comments dont joke lads laugh track apologies long read got longer thought going be thats puberty nutshell it,0 know anymorei friends family treats like shit especially mom calls names hits me threatens kill me school stresses much ive always good school ive getting bad grades im sleep deprived cant concentrate feel horrible everything much reason cant appreciate it ive self harming since contemplating redflag since im now ive attempted redflag twice saved strangers walking hate im still alive since im teenager financially well family feel like im whiny another angsty emo kid thats going sort phase im even technically diagnosed depression mental illness would better died right now hardly anyone would notice people care maybe even happy im gone know already tried kill again maybe ive hoping things get better know stupid nothing gotten better probably never will,1 losing shit knowing put cuts way one see worry able wear outfit might bleed freaking need release,1 people active right never seen place active,0 ive failed im years old ive married second wife eight years cant make love more think im love more beautiful amazing woman least eyes loves much makes feel like monster whenever try confront admit way feel im holding back finding someone truly love without reservation ive unemployed since july going go back school wife finally gotten new job paid well discussed situation decided take opportunity improve could get better job build better future us quit factory job destroying mentally physically enrolled local college set begin classes next semester got fired fourth job lost two years thought one would different since actually used degree helped get instead drop classes start looking job again middle aged ged student seems like higher education something ive wasted chance getting place hiring story everywhere blah blah blah years old retail manufacturing experience skills singing acting nether pay bills im applying anything see qualify pays hr nothing know could walk back last job know strong enough survive another month literally am penniless uneducated side homelessness marriage otherwise good woman cant stay employed loves me love less day though know lucky someone loves me much fool id throw away cant love perform living im officially qualified land decent job let alone career also unable gain education id need change that tldr im tired im tired time cant seem improve life matter do ill never retire ill work shit jobs die young im failure im monster im enriching exactly lives continuing exist,1 want itlike little things keep alive music games youtubers laugh want make day happy like min day think parents grandma sad like friends social life guy sits day home ad sad lonly anyting say help it least tell showld kill without pain,1 one dark night highly overlooked little known film early s deserves audience fear never get thats damn shame seen film compared others gotten bigger name years notably phantasm hell night mausoleum much different film see comparisons mausoleum bit similar one phantasm enough make real comparisons im sure one slipped without broader acceptance maybe marketing know perhaps remake would breathe new life it unless raymar drained life is im big remakes abundant days think work well lesser known films except awful ghost ship remake opening scene mudvaynes falling blaring utter crap remake one dark night would happen fall right hands think would make lot people go watch original know thats theres remake film seen before anything short remake fear would bring film back life unless course raymar got eyes itbr br anyways one dark night must see horror fans especially s horror fans cause know thats best horror movies made creepy setting fairly good acting good story campy could want early s horror film whats that nudity gore well sorry nudity gore film still great nonetheless solid enjoy,0 anyone australia availablei cant deal atm either stick minorities get inboxed hate reason dont walk front trainer dont want hurt driver mentally,1 weeks birthday thought day making want diein two weeks birthday life planned bad depressingly lonely knowing ill old causing lot emotionsi feel like ive wasted youth ive lost chance meaningful friendships life feel positive fantastic job im youngest teacher local college teach subject interests get paid talk it enough no still feel like zero idea want life kind fell jobi think deserve it majority coworkers age mom awkward social them maybe heightened friend family odd two days ago thought death rapidly brain used go dance gymanstics everyday miss it miss healthy body it everyone else seemed make friends easily always sideline miss dance wish made friends easily everyone else did call grandpa amp grandma least day gives someone talk to bother mom loves rarely time me try calling usually answer life thats fair enough im close sister hard im turned i really talk superficial level boyfriend amazing still feel incredibly lonely think feel sad me know im lonely think realize actually friends friend honestly toxic talk anymoreprobably best still miss friendship asked think reasons kill myself im skinny enough die pet skinny pig even though rarely shows love hed starve without me family would wreck fair them live alone social distancing would lot effort im scared side cant listen hamilton watch bojack dead cant start dancing dead cant write dead video chat loving niece dead legacy die now never seen star wars land disneyland yet mom would never forgive you get cook again get perform again breathe take breathe cant cry im actually video write down class assignments little realize writing kill want to keep saying things okay keep trying make things okay keep trying add new lights lifebut everything okay stop stop focusing negative breathe in out in out need go back teaching class pretend none feelings here important thing is safe much want harm know writing helped feel less anxious feel like focus reasons kill myself start,1 actually access money believe could pay least owe honestly dont even know get number debts owe afraid even begin several reasons worried might actually legal trouble this afraid seeking help someone isnt understanding situation totally horrified mess mean me counseling resources available me looking handout need help walked steps need resolve this,1 "well, goodnyte! tweet again tomorrow! ",0 mandy emmerson bummer hope your ok,0 kind film might give nightmare besides lot funbr br hardware wars good spoof star wars films like spaceballs failed good spoof film ever seen ripoff star wars makes fun it thats spoofs supposed be,0 king masks beautifully told story pits familial gender preference towards males human preference love companionship set s china time floods meet wang elderly street performer whose talents magical capture awe witness him famous operatic performer sees befriends wang invites wang join troupe however learn wangs family tradition allows pass secrets son learning wang childless wang encouraged find heir magic lost forever taking advice heart wang purchases year old fulfill legacy would teach new son doggie ancient art silk masks soon wang discovers fact doggie threatens rare dying artbr br together wang doggie create bond experience range emotions invariably accompany it story absorbing setting serene costuming simple summarily international award winning art film cant help move inspire,0 ugh 9 degree tomorrow,0 posting everyday lose virginity day ,0 @pirate_Nik are you looking for a home-based job? would you like to offer your services? please @ or DM me;I'll try to help you find work ,0 @devanwillemburg ping San ? 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Hakka? ,0 listen listen tik tok base ur personality based tik tok get like bro amount cute ass mofos see personality literally every guy girl tik tok dumb like broski go touch grass,0 trying find certain music style help me im looking slow sort synth something dark makes feel like im standing cold wet city far future recommendations songs even genre thanks help,0 im trappedim trapped military im trapped life feel deep loneliness stomach desperately want connect someone want someone understand everything feels superficial feel like always alone forever die im gripping feeling want pass im desperate loneliness overwhelm enough pushes end all feeling feels real true anymore everything else feels fake delusional feel like sharing thoughts makes peoples life complicated burdens then everyone thinks im fine im really looking answers cant fall asleep,1 actually point livingim struggled redflag past three four years usually school also everything else news always awful people murdering dumb reasons theres whole fucking pandemic country usa done hardly anything about first time long time feel genuinely scared whats going happen future meanwhile pretend optimistic prepare adulthood spending three hours online schoolwork day parents tell im trying hardest ive clean self harm around six months jesus whats point it want talk parents would even do last time attempted got sent hospital week nurses glared patients way worse take back there like would give break school im keen therapy pandemic last time went therapy could never work courage actually trust therapists i went three antidepressants before made feel even worse ive abandoned friends im awful person everytime talk someone shake usually ghost people online im confident enough take art commissions im dedicated enough write book talents cant even use anything feels like keep living ill watch everything spirals downward actually reason die sorry ranty im emotional right now im probably edgy teenager ill also probably regret wake,1 deserve suffer bad kill teach neglectful kill hurt people,1 mrnokill mrnokill problem is they aren t appealing to a wide enough audience even though they think they may be,0 like yeah know sad kms making feel guilty giving live tired everyone telling think family friends i almost lol makes feel worse actually makes feel like bad person day sibling told selfish commit suicide family loves me honestly made feel terrible want sad want disappear wish born first place tired think family,1 great movie even though people including great friend laughed lot mom even enjoyed it two middle aged women mid year old seemed enjoy it love part corky ned like liking nancy stuff cute lol gets roadster ned there yeah great movie even thought people underestimated lol go see bet enjoy it really enjoyed friend br br people tough movie even seen it bet next time give movie actresses chance great job opinion young kids still appropriate probably take year old niece watch too,0 im dprinter thats said mum told close door bathroom,0 "@HowaiMan coolness! ya, I tend to enjoy giving my friends a tough time. It's entertaining to me, don't judge ",0 anyone like birthdaybirthday makes think here tend remember celebrate it despise it people around think pathetic want make happy celebrating birthday wishing happy birthday make happy face time asked first may able refuse people like surprise much another painful aspect value fairness much think birthday worth celebrating anything return people wish happy festivals xmas birthday thanksgiving time may give little gifttreat card candies tired giving back card candies need sleep days pretend forget festivals people stop celebrating festivals me,1 anyone else hate social awkwardness tv showsmovies pls tell im one cringes kinda shit,0 ha realized that twitter is getting more attention from her mama then she is hahaha lame,0 oops dentist appointment hours sleep goodnightttt,0 vengeancei f want shoot school hopefully lot casualties get bombs involved like bombs even harder get guns anyways want kill students school ones live better lives particular ones live typical teenage life ones boyfriends ones clubs ones passionate career future ones eager live life ones specifically want kill one thing theyre soooo happy excited wake everyday normies want kill all let friends watch kill myself would kill inconsiderate teachers too ones failed last year stupid fucking neckbeard stupid fucking drawings plays childrens video games steam like fucking child stupid fucking arrogant teacher specify never know oh son too id take great pleasure knowing normie sun live rest life stupid faot dad dead massacre like end miserable life ,1 Off today! No wonder I love Mondays! Movie theatre....here I come. ,0 want someone care metime time get attached people end always mean nothing them hurts much dumb want important people unloveable wrong people around wouldnt care alive dead ,1 hate im back herei tried commit redflag little year ago im bad place wish successful particular needwant posting this wanted express it seriously nothing offer world before time gone im burden family friends little offer beyond paying rent course fair share taxes,1 i desperately needed to make a appointment at a clinic that i ve been putting it off for week but today i finally did it i didn t even overthink at all i love that i am finally breaking out of my shell,1 know im suicidalive experiencing growing urge kill myself difficult deal with multiple times tied noose looped around neck sat down dropping weight rope first time kind hard breathe putting much load rope time id tie little higher push little harder almost point completely lose consciousness thing is clue this pretty good life anything complain about im pretty spoiled sixteen year old ive tried trace steps coming ideas could making depressed one really good explanation mind while made happy days suicidal thoughts however recently started feeling like might answer went trouble fixing thing found nothing right now thing lean on im tearing pieces mind im feeling suicidal again instead thinking ways help myself im thinking ways kill myself theres quite go without even leaving house post meant draw attention myself personal benefit feel like telling someone this thought horrifying much easier reach complete strangers trust most,1 theres like tropical storm going uk rn climate change really aint hun x,0 like watch game thrones free hbo membership expires tomorrow im finished,0 rare find film provides plot cant figured every turn surprises throughout delighting throughoutbr br a couple things could quite understand though lead female character plays the good girl hard worker yet end ends antisocial risk taker enough make like though give pausebr br the thing could get old man hauled away police end film never get issues were anyone ideas id like hear might bebr br the film exciting fun throughout always left guessing much worth seeing,0 @jinnah oh that's something you can work around... you don't HAVE to associate with EVERYONE... just imagine them in their underwear ,0 absolutely loved film hesitant watch first thought would painful remember hard john shot however watching two us took back happier time still alive hope possibility think writer amazing job depicting might been aidan quinn adorable paul met challenge head on impressed accent mannerisms jared harris also talented quite believable john favorite parts scene park rooftop scene poignant film left sadness satisfaction feel appropriate given circumstances,0 feeling aloneive depressed pretty much reason found girl liked started talk year talking got boyfriend know happy fucking killed inside boyfriend witch one friends stopped talking reason witch made suicidal months pass break still friends rebounds onto think chance try best days start kissing hopes pretty high going go date days feelings died started liking friend broke im really fucking heart broken cant stop thinking redflag dont know anymore still like im right also sorry grammar,1 struggling hold onhello everyone im really hard time trying hold on feel like nothing left live for lost everything everyone cared about everyday struggle feel like left liveim really trying hang there know anymore presence missed anyone left one life want pain end im tired waking everyday feeling way really know point reason live anymore anyone give reasons keep going apologize talking way honestly need advice,1 nooooo i wa doing so good im not allowed to cry ughhh staying up late make me think about stuff,0 movie fascinating example luis bunuels storytelling abilities comedy comedy social drama social drama even though think particularly funny made laugh also despite fact never take bunuel seriously movie made think religion importance peoples lives bunuel tells story catholic priest devoted faith like one else viewer witness happens priests undying commitment serve others put test usual bunuels target catholicism think tried mock church often does least take film mockery institution think trying make interesting point religion could nuisance todays modern society faith bad people always mange bastardize concept message aside think one bunuels clever works francisco rabal superb priest definitely one filmmakers best movies,0 people say swag swag im talking u emily,0 dachesterfrench i emailed you yesterday and u never responded,0 feeling sad af rnfr feeling sad af rn wanna kill myself one likes everyone thinks im retarded people would mourn died thats obligatory someone passes piece shit whose absence contribute better society always doubt myself accomplishments theres one world anything good say fault fucking stupid reason live im taking space literally anyone else street much better even fuckin homeless guy family would mourn theyd honestly probably better without me workin boosting morale bullshit sitting th month working feel like total shit people told countless times retarded never acknowledge think theyre messing around actually am ive ever made world nuisance gonna hang months ago decided much pussy done harming others anymore like every day now im fucking stupid im even aware it im pussy id probably need gun method painful me first want would literally destroy head theres purpose since one even cares me life thought everyone else me theres nothing stop happens underneath nose cant even notice,1 goodbye internetthis last time anyone hears me kept trying trying trying keep head nothing improved last event got rejected th time tipping point maybe person rejected know im gone might know im feeling right now might even rejected first place denying follow request instagram chances true slim none girl question feel bad would reject too,1 sexual tension anything im supposed,0 superpowers whatever is would told parents person trust it filler filler filler filler filler,0 happy mothers day! im gunna crawl up in a ball and act like i dont exist lmfaoo,0 really know sayim good writing sorts things well generally feels like ive going downhill long time nowadays im really good anything im good making people happy really anything going me guess done anything terrible either able liveup peoples expectations even seem useful basic stuff maybe ive following idea nexttonothing begin with impossible negative impact least im pretty toxic constantly let people really needed me even though every instance othersd back want again always ends case whether say wont people really patience get that honestly deserved overdue memorys pretty fucked cant see going anywhere even around months high time bit junk swept forgotten about guess,1 i was using the wrong email app. ,0 wanna troll friend need help friend streaming moment rather small streamer usually viewers wanna troll flooding stream viewers write random crap chat whould appreciate help me twitch lolsose,0 ayy whats poppin bbg whats poppin whats poppin,0 keeping mental health afloat online school keep communication friends lot us dealing online school recently new lockdown uk placed back home learning least late february learnt importance friendship routine strongly advise lucky enough good friendship group create things like discord server places communicate text voicevideo chatting friends using discord server week reliving human contact lessons breaks lunchs lessons online call chat together also chats talk individual subjects ask help laugh dumb stuff happened lesson wonderful thing keeping mental health afloat lot friends didnt discord found easy access making account sincerely hope helps cannot express made feel much alive spend much time thoughts relief constant drag online learning tldr make place easily chat ie discord friends online school keep everyone mentally well feel supported,0 Cupcake heaven! http://ilovecupcakes.co.za/ check out the shop! nice #design (weird contact info popup tho),0 okay guys sad read httpsnhentainetg like honestly made tear end hentai abuseing drugs giving peer pressure ultimately ruining life killing her def one read,0 crush said yes soft drink talking me probably get checked,0 hate hate kind word detestability selfinflict upon myself traitor mind wanting betray heart usurp throne purloined soul left empty vessel take heed salvation fear death fear life mercenary cruel unjust bishop shall condemn purgatory unpayable debt shall never reimburse shall yield shall executioner however fight kick scream writhe like woman labour fateful day shall meet hooded apparition embrace kin shall burned pit unending torment last soldier precipice hope shall defend unending hoard shall clad armour steely stubborn will greaves protect falling ambition chasm inhibition shall wear pair formfitted yet gaped gauntlets wield blade desperation fight inevitable damnation endowed eternal hate knowis fate pessimist disappointed optimist vent poem,1 wish buttonall methods commit redflag taxing read through combination lethality pain preparation itself fuck want go,1 wanting kill since th grade im scared please listen know anymore im last straw everything im going give fair bit background bear me assume lot people felt way felt hopeless sick feel way time ive gotten used it ive gone crying trying hurt th grade able keep lid very well school im happy all unless im best friend also boyfriend im apparently supposed like better relationship hit quite potholes one gave time opportunity enjoy things took granted sister says look back this ashamed break push head feel horrible someone makes happy feel better guess bottom line nothing makes truly happy nothing lasts always ends devastation every happy moment go away im strong enough deal pain everything anything life ive told im smart young attractive care want live it hurt bad know much pain later on wish could give life someone would appreciate it make good use it every choice take going consequences im tired dealing seeing everyone family try hard happiness fail cant spend time them feel sick want live anymore im exhausted much would love someone hug tell going alright cant accept it cry everyday losing virginity alone family torn apart cant get bed im dead set killing soon things get worse better suppose second thoughts im posting this since im seeking consolation instead immediately want way hurt family friends love much understand help im sorry wasted time nonsense im young enjoying can want to me look back memories im actually happy content hurt want happy memories ripped away feel alone edit im feeling much worse cant stop feelings all everything fault cant deal increasing guilt feel sick want die feel horrible cant handle it regret much cant breath want die bad every happy memory deserve want kill right now know how im scared,1 fantastic arabian adventure former king ahmad best friend thief abu played sabu black narcissus search ahmads love interest stolen new king jaffar conrad veidt theres hardly moment here always inventing new adventures heroes personally found ahmad princess little boring theres need ask john justin plays ahmad listed fourth credits conrad veidt always fun actor makes great villain sabu lot fun prince thieves one point finds genie bottle also really loved miles malleson sultan basra father princess collects amazing toys around world jaffar bribes daughters hand mechanical flying horse probably would count one great childrens films time special effects horribly dated nowadays kids certainly deride superimposed images abu genie screen together scene giant spider looks especially awful although younger generation probably thinks king kong looks bad point time willis obriens stopmotion animation thousand times better puppet string even look remotely like spider ,0 im terrible person world would better without mei got speeding ticket going first ticket either meaning im going traffic history follow rest life continue live also moms car meaning im terrible son know would hurt mom die long run death would better her seeing worry killing someone car accident getting car totaled speaking which love driving fast im terrible person addicted actions could put others lives risk road empty love flying large roads makes feel free gets feeling happy im usually depressed speeding makes happy reason world better dead need reason live keep drawing blanks,1 In Long Beach ,0 people wear black converse weird radiate edge cringe energy black air forces,0 noteim hanging two seconds post everything thing go numb ill seize exist fuck joe fuck dumbass family fuck time wasted you fuck whole life,1 prepare diewhat things take care leaving obviously wiping computers stuff like that throwing away giving away bunch things plan sign car title friend well think im going bother writing note people know ive really depressed long time think joke would care anyways really im looking reasons it life get better lies like that ways make end life less annoyance already around me,1 question people jojo body pillow get cant find normal jojo body pillows anywhere ive looking ages,0 doesnt matter gender race sexuality ethnicity place birth political leaning is know epic rap battles history still greatest thing ever come youtube,0 I'm at home ,0 "Charlize Theron Talks Battle With Depression, Admits She Ate Potato Chips Everywhere To Gain Almost 50 Pounds http://a.msn.com/07/en-ca/AAwjt3y?ocid=st …",1 dont want continue anymorei lost girl dreams think along distance relationship would work thought v back plan going living lot closer months found someone else finalstraw life one good thing going lost time continue wanted die since now met changed time wanted die felt made want live gone talking fuck boy likes claim raps wears facepaint like icp last reason live gone love much reason want die reason left want live,1 "@UncleRUSH Hey Russell, did you see my Christ and Yoga rap video?",0 already feel dead lifelesseveryday wake shit day day feel like zombie lifeless dead be go past local graveyard picture headstone name saying want things get better want end see solution all,1 @ddlovato Aw. have a safe trip sweety. ill miss you more ox,0 tried everything nothing works guess ill kms want peace,1 tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real,0 nothing left future full sufferingthe thing future hardship mental health prevent ever career field dedicated life finances into marriage best friendlove life always looming like awful ghost slowly destroying remains me cant keep burdening people care aboutcare me ive run treatment options see keep going much longer ive tried really have feels like it theres reason keep fighting,1 @murdernmayhem very cool! i <3 derby (and derby girls!) ,0 god want ive got years till ill start drinking bad days away ill still underage dont think parents care want something bored idk mabey want go high school cause friend says way better middle,0 ok read book maybe book betterwho knows loved movie entertaining bit boring enjoyable heart wrenching friendship two kids pure innocent kids acted well especially son servant oh god thats like form god face earth arghhhh steals heart easily spoilers friend rich guy kid confusion frustration understood get angry abandoned ignored friend time needed consoling anyways kid bit stubborn to wish movie would also shown older version poor kid arghh pains think ending movie sad felt terribly sad ending tears dropped eyes yes background scores fantastic scenes wow kite scenes fascinating well gets bit adventure middle wonderfully acted superbly cast kids acted well great direction know movie failed wooo critics sure woo me mustsee,0 I can't sleep I can't eat properly I'm always sadI want to dieWelcome to depression,1 love allyou guys practically second family even though share pain guys idea much help many others goes thoughts sub prevented ending many times knowing whenever feel sad come relate many people people whiling help you really overwhelming thank awesome hopefully one day find peace even seams cloudy rainy outside,1 aside titles new sherlock holmes movie think ive watched every movie guy ritchie directed twice needless say im big fan revolver one highlighted reasons why movie different approach ritchie look comparatively lock stock snatch revolver sets us psychological thriller sorts gambling con finds mercy set foes expect guided walk redemption know needed along seeing andr benjamin outkast fame strut acting ability standout acts ray liotta playing maniacal mr dmacha mark strong playing sorter hitmanbr br after sent prison tyrannous casino owner macha jake uses time solitary finesse plot humiliate macha force hand compensating seven years spent wins card game amasses decent sum macha jake finds brink death collapses diagnosed incurable disease thats left three days live team loan sharks however answer ticket life gives money relents working them ploy take macha show jake dangerous made himself along air death loom pair loan sharks field day money jake also deal hit put him introduces sorter hitman machas employ depth story comes jake realizes co convicts spent time solitary may verywell loan shark team take crafting unfortunate events jake seems find way into faced reality though zack vincent pastore avi show jake twisted become solitary company mind ego makes actual existence elusive even jake movie unravels humbling process jake macha come grips inner demonsbr br the style movie topnotch get gritty feel crime world represented characters includes although lot nods ritchies previous films still presence dialogue sets experimental take gangster genre also great trip humility recognizing easily let ego preset notion mask ability accomplish want overcome should characters well crafted movie sides fleshed and true ritchie fashion theyre tied underhandedness throws wrench everyones affairs could would like go film unique nuances want take much away seen yetbr br it may take sittings get intricate layers great movie seen lucky seen watereddown us release see get original uk version make great discussion piece among friends try puzzle take saw crew around early were still talking little things weve picked today garnered cult status well deserved film ritchie stepped box broke norm bitbr br standout line fear revere me please think im special share addiction were approval junkies,0 ready give upwell make qualms wanted die nay dying solution problem minda started look fastest less painful ways wanted shot hang myself fantasized many ways dying throwing tall building hanging electricalpole thought done nothing else offer suffering overwhelming ever present comfortable sleeping woke suffered either anedhonia profound sadness deepest depression life ready meet maker fear death hungered it lusted wanted much met wonderful person person brought life life person made feel special wanted needed person told i love you person told awesome meant world person everything common make fell good happy together feel anything confidence fortitude lacked fell happy life food thought guys killed wound felt happiness warmth feel found soul mate sometimes dont deny future happiness deserve it,1 kill summer im happy relieved no need worry discourage me death beautiful thing lt,1 aww sandra cantu is found dead in a suitcase missing child story never seem to go good poor family,0 fuck shit im hungry back hurts pms bullshit getting me im cold want fucking candy bar fuck bullshit life game,0 anyone ever feel need die cleanive jail since friday morning amp havent showered since then though got saturday food sweatshirt stink dont give fuck cos im fucking depressed feel like want take antipsychotic medication sleepers im three gins amp counting whats holding back gross am want die clean nice clothes needing take shower holding back right now guess thats good thing dont know long ill feel way long til take shower,1 ready gohave two bottles lorazapem ready go get chest one cares im tired able walk move properly doctors cant tell whats wrong feel like ill never better im burden everyone love son hope forgets quickly ready,1 sub less active guess american teens reddit want get healthy amounts sleep cant blame them,0 "@freitasm @stevebiddle prepay FTW, I'm an XT prepaid custy ",0 dumbassesstupid people know much deserve live one die me stfu live great worth it,1 while i do enjoy my job very much it always nicest outside when i m indoors,0 someone looking mei feel someone looking me im alone home dark outside lights look kill sure im scared look,1 reason movie better known appreciated seems subject controversial subject movie never got proper big release still remains fairly unknown one day subject controversial anymore thoughbr br basically essence movie white man befriending black man friendship seem forced unrealistic way gets portrayed movie makes feel real see different ethnics mingle other completely normal unfortunately course back days really regarded anything normal seeing black man talking white girl fun friend must hard thing watch instance proportions audiencebr br you really understand sidney poitier always still respected much hollywood society blackcommunity general course one reasons also received honorary award oscars movies often fights discrimination prejudiced issues course in heat night best example this real role model certainly inspired many afroamerican actors day top that also great actor yes still alive pretty much retired completely movies seems since last credited role br br this movie martin ritts directorial debut also given much movie spend movie studios probably also bit reluctant mainly concept andor ritts first movie perhaps simply due fact mgm big anymore left best days behind them ever since s metrogoldwynmayer sort reputation making great cheap movies early years really one biggest studios lots stars acclaimed directors attached it made many award winning classic movies luckily reputation starting change whenever mgmlogo appears movie people longer expecting lessermovie anymorebr br anyway even restrained budget limited resources managed make great movie one movie simple characters simplistic plot it movie however still manages capture story subjects without ever starting become preachy anything it makes movie effective one well subjectsbr br really movie deserves seenbr br ,0 die i wish someone would shoot,1 @mattmcfadden Sorry for your loss. Depression is brutal.,1 tell afraid let know not everyone asks alright,1 little pony friendship magic,0 abuse fucked upeverytime think outrun it gets worse point cannot even anything itwhat point really want,1 feel worthless want kill myselfwell like way feel myself feel like worth anyone life im smart know things way due decisions ive made past ive failed university went community college redeem myself drive education like family cousins way better me feel like amount nothing see hear achievements nothing productive home parents want better life knowing ive let put faith me take give family want end life pressure weighs heavily heart feel bones end life rest family much satisfied rest lives bringing lives down,1 would yall wantnot want see ya romance story wanna know yall think tropes cliches elements romances like resonate with seems unrealistic opinions would want see think seen seen enough of personally detest love triangles typical bad boy everyone totally fawns over,0 @derrickhoh http://twitpic.com/643g9 - This is superb greatness! ,0 feel life pointless waste space oxygen feel like living others myself dreams afraid chase afraid success failure time think offing time anxious want bother anyone dead body material crap etc wish could infinity glove snap get done without mess couple years ago man sued parents born really felt that sure meant be snap back nothingness conceived remember it point big blissful black hole unawareness paradoxes,1 @ddlovato we are pumped for tonight! Me and my friend are coming to see you! Only one more hour. ,0 andy cyrus im still awake too lol cant sleep glad your up tho,0 only more day left in london where did the time go,0 gay fucking gay like damn bro gay wtf,0 i realized the only reason i haven t killed myself is i don t want to be a burden on my brother and cause him and harm idk realizing that made me freak the fuck out the idea that i haven t lived my life for myself for year is making me have the urge again for some reason and it s scaring me the only thing that give me comfort is planning a day to end it so i don t end it now i really don t want to be here anymore i feel like people only want me around when it s convenient for them or when i can help them i am a last resort for everyone because i have no need at all i fucking hate myself and the only people who care about me are the people who have to this is stupid but it wa cathartic to write lmao,1 Happy Gilmore is on ,0 says I broke aryanna's strawberry keychain! (lmao) ayaw kasi ipakita yung vid sa cp nia http://plurk.com/p/xosdp,0 bee movie year old brother watched bee movie around times past weeksmy mind slowly turning black yellowthinking beethinking bee,0 im tiredim tired im tired feeling like this hate put mask normalcy every morning act like im fine push laugh happy right situations im alienated alone hate ever have sure way getting right would access though methods access would result failure resulting hospital time people noticing people faking caring attention problem able handle myself im sorry im sorry love may loved me getting incredibly difficult greatest thing looking forward day everyone alive recollection ever existed,1 michael crichton,0 feeling depressed need talk people minutesim year old guy im india masters frequent suicidal thoughts know do girlfriend got married months back reason im confused life friends around me grandfather commited redflag pains lot cause honestkind peaceful person ive ever met even though dont reason commit redflag thoughts get head see watchpeopledie everytime feel need die soon torturous way,1 "@Delavegalaw I'm so happy I found and followed Elizabeth, her tweets are like medication for depression!",1 so when i said today got way better..it just got THAT MUCH better. yay RAIN too bad PT wasn't in the rain though.,0 everything fine want kill myselflife great me one year ago attempted redflag im therapy need pills anymore good grades great boyfriend sweet supportive friends even tho strick sometimes cruel step father life bad oh happy no want kill myself want feel like time it scheduled im waiting guts it,1 kill without hurting family friendive needing long time now without hurting them anything put note lessen pain,1 obviously painful way could use counter medicine resulting painlessly death overdose paracetamol cough syrup kill instantly without pain,1 anyone want talk idk thought bored imma talk till sleep first second third fourth fourth sixth seventh eighth ninth tenth,0 aint just about talkin... i do the walkin... copped my tickets!! where's yours at?? lets go guys!!!!!! ,0 agree strenghts mentioned reviews beats missing keep firmly inside genre crime drama film noir limit great drama beyond limits elements make film noirnot say great film noirs arentcantshouldnt also great dramas one isntbr br one note music film used sparingly would say used accentuate action frequently wife elementsbr br great set film way abrupt sort non ending ending either right let dependsbr br spoilers follow specificsbr br the big turn story involves children seeing mother die big moment children never shown react one way other neither cries neither asks father happened kids good actors reactions father suppose matters big misstep heart story kids kept mostly blank reaction really none next scene look nothing happenedbr br in like fashion bond forms belmondo venturas characters belmondo says knew partner killedbut never explained impact dramatically belmondo anyone else belmondo romantic subplot also strains credibility though convincingly acted venturas character lets belmondo involve total stranger escape plan reason even comment seem notice another gapbr br the ending movie spoil it ending happens screen perfunctory voice tell happened guess tries make feel true life like missteps leaves drama screenbr br whats point dealing issues know maybe goals film limited giving audience wants crime melodramasuggest deeper elements move ignore thembr br too bad much recommend film ventura good bad could great drama well crime storyas imdb favorite movie time godfather film potential would make good remake though done us problems would probably sink film hands right director would good remakethough doubtful venturas performance could toppedbr br so worth seeing frustrating whole,0 wife kate absolutely loved series cant wait next one hopefully sequel would love know catchy song called wrote it maybe old grey still interested life anyone full lyrics please send thembr br of course one big reason wife liked series much years old retired still active intellectually great see show highlights contribution society still made older people special skills experience human interest aspect showing interactions characters younger people around important part showbr br this series highly entertaining sophisticated par favourites spooks hustle,0 abomination cursei literally abomination curse family always ugly fat whole life even starved weight didnt drop enough born cursed feel like put misery genes low quality iq low talent look ugly fat could would torture worst way possible fuck everything one loves wants alive cant wait hang parents throw huge party throw trash deserving even funereal grave hate much bad wish never born biggest wish get cancer dangerous illness,1 i m going 9 this year life ha always been a rollercoaster for me consistently an a student till h then dropped out of college due to severe disinterest and had to take care of mother that had stage cancer not formally diagnosed but i m sure that s when i developed some sort of depression after all that i went to work on and off in small bakery without formal training of any kind which is a pressure of it own cooking and baking ha always been my catharsis though which is why i never gave up pursuing this career even now picked it up really well but have gap of missing knowledge since i never went to culinary school wa doing well for a few year there but then the pandemic hit and at the same time my mother went into remission so i had to leave the west coast back to the east to take care of her i love my family don t get me wrong i am more than happy to take of them but we are not financially stable in any sense even before the pandemic so i guess this is where it lead to the present my current rock bottom always thought the low point of my life can t get any worse but here i am experiencing it all over again mom is now stable or a stable a can be so i m back in the west coast and currently have a job working in a hotel in pastry i m pretty good at what i do or at least the thing i know how to do in term of pastry but working at a hotel is a whole different scene and they expect a lot out of you i m pretty sure i m about to be fired because i may be a liability i have huge gap in my work history due to family issue and huge gap in my pastry knowledge because i am only well versed only in what i would consider 0 of the basic employer really don t care about all of this they just want qualified people not your sob story so yeah life ha always been hard for me personally and i feel it s about to get worse if and when i do get fired it ll hit me pretty hard mentally thanks everyone for reading through this entire rant i don t have anyone else to tell this to,1 dat some fast internet we ll probably be stuck with that 0 though http digg com d o kd,0 @DarkAeon Just did it too and I totally agree with the party it placed me with ,0 how i love employer and how they love me too but most of these employer deserve a fucking sue and some fucker fuck with me they should never fuck with me and yes the last place i worked at it wa not a cup of tea living here is so stressful anyone can fucking see and the stress doe fucking suck you know it is not stress free and all i have is one damn buck that s why i might have to flee drive in a van or a damn truck and hope the stress will leave me be,1 kishorek this is strange illegal torrent avlbl everywhere legal dvd not in stock what do i do now,0 im gonna end im going commit redflag end misery boys girls u get infinite wholesome awards reddit guide book ,0 see hope considering ending itim sure nothing unique subreddit might even check responses figure nothing lose talking here goes girlfriend three years broke days ago person ive ever felt true connection built trust anyone time full impact really taking toll kind forced take look life really point time short answer complete shit social anxiety worst ever getting worse ive unable socialize healthy amount like people age get job normal everyday stuff like conversation someone without feeling like im going full fucking meltdown im afraid rate im even going able function normally ill completely left behind real world in every aspect imaginable mention school stressing worst time year theres added pressure also figuring im going uni next year and fear uni completely new environment extends even overall fear future something thats way broad concisely sum let alone get head around worse considering originally started whole post long story short imagine one thing leads another selfesteem basically nonexistent try view things objectively logically possible cant help feel as cliche frankly cringeworthy sounds im either burden mean nothing people around kind relationship with past years ive tried counselors medication ever done make hopeful short time actually improve anything long run person actually make feel genuine happiness girlfriend series complications us go ended breaking clingy im mentioning slander demonstration character holding high regard must resulted behavior troubled enough break me im feeling right feeling lost someone never able replace matter hard try feel like ever trying hopeless long run even together still serious doubts occasional breakdowns anxiety fear over well everything least someone would listen id willing open would actually understand personally relate degree feel like talking anyone state things lost cause im even typing anyone particular subreddit popped googled something efficient redflag methods something im still seriously considering option criticize usual attempts comfort it gets better redflag never option even though theyll likely make difference whatsoever ill try overly cynical pessimistic personal anecdotes probably much impact unless theyre something super relatable connect kind emotional level professional advice better might coming wrong way one obligated try sway direction thats choice figure setting least people take step id dumb attack feel concern remorse anything happens after time feel little conflicting last cry help it maybe temporary benefit attempt clearly cohesively map everything im still struggling make sense inside me one last written confirmation everything turned shit happened come across subreddit time felt necessary ill let words sit now thank reading really,1 "Old enough to know better, young enough to not CARE! ",0 @AshlyR4 haii you go to germany? ,0 Is soooo Happy cos things have changed .. and 4 the better ,0 theekween heart break witnessing trauma anxiety depression loss of a loved one thelmasherbs,1 dear women pokmon real game animal crossing real game sims real game mario real game stardew valley real game mobile games not real games put baby games play something requires challenge skill once sincerely actual gamers,0 officialrandl whattttttt they ve not brought anything new out for about year and they re crap when will the full line up be up,0 keep getting texts doctors office keep getting texts doctors office even state say my daughter appointment daughter kids said say stop opt said stop text month started getting yesterday today say besides kid live mexico get leave alone also said incorrec information still text call me,0 know im overwhelmed want stopi know much longer hang oni im heavy debt money food last week bipolar suffer anxiety covid destroyed financially truly hope get virus die take xanaxs valiummixed othersits am think wanting quickly possiblenot sure im scared eternal shame scared eternal abyss ahead me,1 hey bootiful fucking humans hope nice day remember stay hydrated take care lt much love stranger lt lt lt lt _,0 tired struggling mental health always seems like searching help receiving it nothing world makes want live anymore really want kill myself angry forced born emotionally neglected sexually abused child still living trauma extremely hard forced live person abused desperately searching therapists work trauma insurance helping pay it cannot afford pay ot pocket get help need heal shit happened know end life would rather die million times forced live evil worldthe thought going sleep never waking life blessing unlike other life misery,1 desperately need talk someoneim just fucking done every means self harming either front me downstairs really couldnt care less anymore dont care anyone wants bother idk dont know anymore,1 HELLO BEAUTIFUL DONT FORGET UNTOUCHED is on itunes now ,0 hi friend i stopped using weed and caffeine and day ago respectively and i ve seen my anxiety increase exponentially obviously i used both to kinda suppress my normal anxiety but now i m going au natural and a you can tell it s not going ideally but i m happy to have made the choice i did i have felt a weird knot sensation in the right upper side of my abdomen feel like it s right under my rib cage and occasional pain throughout my digestive system i ve been constipated for about day too i know so much info and while i m able to still go i still feel a discomfort in my side like someone took a five pound weight and just placed it on the side of me is this normal with anxiety i haven t started any antidepressant i ve been prescribed because i want to see how naturally i can do this but my mind is telling me withdrawal and to just be patient but i don t want to be too patient in case it s something that i should have a doctor check out thought,1 "i have everything i need, but im missing something that i really want. ",0 friend pay sister dollars shut friend stupid getting nudes girl sat phone picked pay dollars keep mouth shut saw dick another girls titties,0 prevention advice neededi go cycles feeling depressed feeling amazing currently feel slipping depression thats deeper usual im worried im going something regret death taking head space anyone advice stop acting impulsively thoughts thank,1 ever see tiktok start bawling context lost father four years ago ive never really relationship him tonight saw video man taking camera store talking like child im crying right wish treated like that im crying hard wish relationship dad was feel like im break wish could held rn,0 years thinking it think im finally point im seriously considering iti cant stop fucking upi seriously ruin every good thing life cant seem stop much potential growing up smart outgoing ambitious thought future always seemed like would amazing optimist miss years long story short ive heart broken times count time takes larger piece me ive lost almost friends ones care convenient cant seem hold decent job make money support myself im practically homeless burden friends stay couch im type diabetic barely afford insulin fucking clue ive fallen god damn far final nail coffin week date first time two years girl ive always crush on ment lot know capable opening another person again actually went really well monday first time years remembering happiness was feel alone well typical fashion ruined it got excited anxious drunk stupid unloaded boat load feelings anyone first date would seem psychotic soexcited feel again sent message apologizing unwarranted outburst talk me ive never handled rejection well knowing something stupid could avoidedi think heart left im tired everything go wrong struggle remember optimism even was try think positives life literally dogwho even anymore im fucking verge living streets ive fallen farther ever thought possible death honestly sounds better better life im guaranteed experience pain possibly another bout happiness deathdeath unknown maybe everything stops simply cease be maybe life suffer eternity hell maybe wake someone else like whole life nothing dream simulation maybe million different things could happen one really knows gamble sounds better continuing sad painful excuse existence managed see deadpool weekend hoping pick up thing stuck said life one giant train wreck brief commercials happiness think ive last commercial,1 ive lost social skillshigh school slowly drained emotion social skills had find impossible keep conversation people ive known whole life im honestly awkward person know embarrass repeatedly throughout day dont care anything anymore grades proof that options high school humiliatingly limited sad dont even see good enough reason pursue them involved anything dont want be im lost,1 pff pff pfda pff pff pffda nice beatbox bro,0 @amerj thanks ,0 ONE more song. a little boom boom pow. then off to bed! yay for late nights...,0 need help dealing acquaintance canadian input especially usefulhi guys first post sorry longer whats usually posted here guy know not closely live far away cannot help directly recently failed first semester college too late get courses currently debt always poor academic standing every subject seems academia in subjects question also likely chronic illnesshttpsenwikipediaorgwikiankylosing_spondylitis already appeared close family members limiting comes work trades ive proposed get diagnosis doctor least potentially get disability ontario plan cpp however hard motivate even this family members live like permanently afraid becoming like this would bad selfesteem however due illness getting wellpaid jobs in trades keeping years really hard also asthma keeps joining army know himself im bit stumped too ideas driving basic office work precise trade require much hard physical labor like watchmakers decades back ideasresources wellappreciated one family member grandfather supports lended college money told failing semester yet somewhat suicidal though thankfully extremely committed yet usual kinds cases ashamed finds existence useless thinks would useful society family dead constantly miserable mood wakes morning feeling hit car stuff think greatest longterm cure would fulfilling job ideas useful temporarily longer term,1 @sophagemcmuffin Hey I get my work done! I do happen to love my job though ,0 the negative emotion and thought neat study is recruiting adult age in canada and the u to participate in an online survey examining how people experience and manage negative thought and feeling including suicidal thought and emotion dysregulation eligible participant will be able to enter a gift card draw to complete the online survey see if you re eligible please click here http uwo eu qualtrics com jfe form sv lrjdolhgxajdcg http uwo eu qualtrics com jfe form sv lrjdolhgxajdcg thanks so much for giving u a chance to share our research study feel free to contact u if you have any question or concern,1 erasing thoughts nearly twentyseven times feeling conquer review complex french drama read lips written five hundred reviews never found loss words director jacques audiards subtle yet inspirational love story thought poured loved hated film loves overpowered elements hated sparked debate within mind read lips drama precise character driven drama fuses social uncertainty crime lords doldrums everyday office work review begins crumble items moremuch much more viewer pulled instantly emmanuelle devos portrayal fragile woman named carla whose strength lost males office well hearing difficulty audiard introduces us harshly world removing sound screen whenever wearing aid causing immediate unrest characters within film watching without sound world left open possibility frighteningbr br as watch difficult unsettling woman setting life uprooted given opportunity meet paul played exquisitely vincent cassel slickedback hair mustachewearing lanky man released prison homeless jobless forced parole officer get job carla paul meet moment instant unsettling attraction one think loves him dark and gets even fun think loves her dark constant role reversal creates tone unknown who viewers feel sympathy for paul sleeps office carla helps him carla looses contract rival coworker paul helps her carlas ability read peoples lips comes handy makeshift idea paul continual jumps back forth keep chair waiting possibility light shine dark cave never does audiard cannot allow story take place continually introduces us characters one seedy next even rock solid foundation parole officer question wife goes missing subplot film first angered me upon debate staple finale film yet none could happened characters devos solemn homely look breathtaking changes image paul truth beauty discovered paul wildcard film continues seemingly use abuse friendship final endgame then assume one carla takes one last shapebr br audiard knows amazing actors capturing characters cassel devos could play cards entire time would still sitting end chair story probably weakest part film first random interwoven stories seem unconnected first audiard lets connect bit bit again entire parole officer segment tangent final scene solidified ends means attempting sound vague complex yet utterly simple story difficult explain plenty happening connect pieces favorite scene carla attempting discover money held use sound scene brilliant tense dramatic like watching whodunit mystery unfold eyesbr br overall initially though mediocre french film could easily forget proved wrong read lips opens floor discussion characters situations one find rooting carla one scene paul next discovery made pauls apartment carla found deeply angry audiard brought true emotion screen characters development lacking plot actors able carry easily suggest film anyone prepared one time viewing film repeat repeat repeatbr br grade ,0 friendsno family love game bit longer im gone ,1 funny how the little thing make me homesick criminal breakn n a brownstone on lawnord ci made me misty,0 sister lawhey all call jane love sister im deeply concerned well versed say talking redflag issues past issues one reasons im concerned jane recently attempted redflag believe mentally abusive relationship man truly liked lot learned treats her drinking problems drink thats abuse starts ive witnessed snippets type abuse name calling belittling tone according sister law guy also used redflag attempts arguments get best thing would get away him lives hours immediate family job due covid another problem being dont think accept help eldest sisters wouldnt want reveal things would make feel vulnerable idea want stop anything ive there attempt redflag mind matter if matter when time running worried dont want say something cause harm internet resources tell get help different redflag prevention places person doesnt want help know want help accepting help im afraid cant wait want help please help importantly help jane,1 beginning to enjoy lazy town oh dear,0 @mariannemarlow It is a drink but they have a trainer brand too.. http://www.office.co.uk/brand/babycham/8 <<have a look ,0 made remake dua lipas levitating think httpssoundcloudcomjojo_musicdualipalevitatingfeatmadonnaandmissyelliottjojoremakehttpssoundcloudcomjojo_musicdualipalevitatingfeatmadonnaandmissyelliottjojoremake,0 @Geekvibes Yup I'll be there to and will go to airport from now on! ,0 because you have depression love http t co cnbln ppkj,1 i ve been dealing with depression for pretty much a long a i can remember wa diagnosed with it a a child some day are better than others the same can be said about the month and even year to be honest i never thought i would make it to the age i am now and have never really given any thought to what i wanted out of life besides the basic thing like friend loved one and many even a romantic partner outside of that i am lost i don t have a dream job in mind really and i don t have any set goal i m getting older and it feel like the wall are closing in on what time i have left and i don t know what to do i have friend and family who love me but they have their life pretty much together at this point or are close to their goal i have a job i hate no career option i can t drive and don t have any education outside of high school i feel like i just exist i have to rely on people for ride which make me feel like a burden i don t have enough money to make it on my own so i live with my parent i feel like friend keep me around out of pitty because i tend to be the one to start every conversation i m a part of people s life but have nothing of my own i don t know what to do anymore i know i m not at my worst yet because some thing still bring me some joy but none of that fix the problem i have no motivation i try to reach out for help but i don t exactly get any i pretty much get pushed to the back burner a lot and i get it people have their own thing to deal with but i need help i can t do this alone because doing it on my own isn t working i just want to leave this place i m in the job the town the everything probably and find what i want whatever that is i don t even know if i m looking for advice or just to have someone tell me i m not crazy,1 fault snd cant take anymoreeverything fault diagnosed crohns disease teen husband knew sick married me entire time dated never flare knew sick never seen it fast forward years flares high risk pregnancyour daughter teen crohns become bad cannot work sick work sick enough disability last two years flares almost back back last month hospitalized worst ischemic stroke suffered illness vastly exceeded fmla lost employment caused us lose house forced us move family several auto withdrawals set working tried put stop pay two still cleared causeing overdrafts husband mad talking me may better yelling silence also painful maintains silence even front daughter blames everything able pay bills worked losing house moving family overdrafts fault never misses opportunity tell me large life insurance policyhe would never worry money always said would rather money says nothing maybe time solve problem me permanently means plani know supposed do know right thing is death would probably fault too,1 girl kept calling cutie girl summer camp kept calling cutie always reacted weirdly told stop idk take compliments inside made happy weeks camp miss want call feel happy again,0 ambermatson it s terrible isn t it don t expect many earthquake in euruope certainly not bad one,0 metalgearobama people with depression should not,1 helpcan anyone help stop dark thoughts ive tried everything im dead inside heart smashed pieces trumactic memories please help,1 funny title interesting andor smart body text another paragraph interesting andor smart body text interesting andor smart ending paragraph,0 even like watching late night talk shows found one really interesting imagine probably close truthit feels like honest account means anything kinda feel people somewhat watch it nice movie saturday night,0 @KimKardashian Sooo I just watched Disaster Movie ABSOLUTLY HILARIOUS!!! Ur my idol ,0 want end work tomorrowim know good yesterday boyfriend told got giddy girl work appreciated telling this makes feel bad told would point hes lost interest me last straw really since ive feeling like were love anymore months since weve happy really theres passion left energy break since believe could find anybody new went saturday night friend men talk seemed unattractive personalitywise ive working art project working measly job barley make enough money in jobs way take i tried retail sales food industry sometimes wish life could least one little fairytale moment me nothing seems happen even try hard make boyfriend happy work hard jobi see way feel like ranting energy anymore get help,1 convince parents let get one half meter carbdoard tube need bonking rod say suspicious want one,0 girl starting liked me wearing shorts freezing weather,0 my anxiety ha been taking over my life recently and i am having trouble controlling it it seems like i am always assuming the worst possible outcome for everything i somehow convince myself that the the worst will happen and that i need to prepare for it i am not sure where this way of thinking came about a my parent and my brother are super laid back and relaxed even during my college year i would panic about exam i would study all weekend skip going out worry constantly for test i would run through scenario in my head about failing not getting employed dropping out etc i would calculate the minimum grade needed to pas the course and convince myself that even though i studied 0 hour getting a is still likely and possible if my brother doe not pickup the phone late at night i worry that he crashed somewhere is not safe every night before bed i have to check my car app to make sure it locked even though i know i locked it and if i dont check i assume it is unlocked and will be stolen i worry about my health even though i am healthy it s getting to a place now where when someone tell me something that go against my worry random example you do not have a cavity i assume that he probably missed it and that i do have one it like i always have a sense of fear for everything now i am working full time it effecting me with my work life even worse to make thing short i sell capital equipment because of the supply chain issue many of current order have been delayed i run through every scenario possible that my customer will sue me for loss of profit and not delivering on time even though it is out of my control i worry that i will fulfill the order late and my customer will not pay me net 0 are the normal term in my industry i worry that my equipment will not work properly i worry that i am doing something wrong with running my business i also randomly started worrying about my equipment hurting someone and being sued for it and liable for everything it seems like i always have something to worry about when the stress from one thing pass something else come up and it constantly cycle these are just some example i seem to always go to the extreme with everything even though no issue have come from everything mentioned above i still worry about i have absolutely no idea how to control it i get random thought before bed while i am half asleep about something and it immediately wake me up and i start to panic i get super irritable when i am in an anxious state and my parent think i am just being dramatic and tell me to settle down when i can t i feel helpless it almost feel like the littlest thing can absolutely destroy my mood i have no energy to workout constantly tired no motivation to eat until super late at night i cant meditate and shut off my brain it s impossible doe anyone have any insight on how i can improve myself i am struggling finding anyone in my life that can support me i never really assumed i had any sort of gad until this past year when i started doing more research around the topic i assumed everything that i wa experiencing wa just a normal part of life until it became too much to the point where it controlling my day to day life,1 play music discord vcs server want know,0 ok sothe reason im attempting right dont want put kid pain doesnt live hes much love express would destroy him i go on how dont want continue,1 in the sun heading to ryan's can't wait for catch up beers in the sun. It's been a goooood weekend! http://twitpic.com/6cdht,0 think would best way commit redflagi thinking noose like cutting veins open blood seeps cuts pass pain blood loss thats me opinions best way force soul body let know,1 I do believe I have smoked-glittered-cat-eyes. ,0 make euthanasia legal everyone cut live capitalistic society reason legal rich would lose like half labour slaves unpopular opinion,1 bought rope tied noose angry everythingi posted couple times mind changed one bit returning trip got sick spent whole week bed able muster energy kill myself now however bought rope learned tie noose prepared towels wrap around neck make whole ordeal least little less uncomfortable today ill go woods scout good secluded tree tomorrow night go it closer get angrier become become worlds biggest loser poeces shit get happy successful broken alone others get fulfilled ive depressed long wasted whole god damn life cant live shame loneliness pain anymore fuck everything everyone,1 bad movie could done without full frontal nudity year old boy one opening scenes movie excellent dialog certainly common among foreign films foreign actors still know act opposed american actors let cgi stunts special effects work them film good old fashion acting gerarde depardieux excellent job always costumes scenery accurate time complaint dubbed english words french instead using subtitles could hate reading subtitles,0 can someone help me get to 100 follwes please????? only 4 more to go ,0 time sleep p night yall f l l e r f l l e r f l l e r f l l e r,0 think im gonna get suspended oh,0 theres optionever since severely depressed one might say werent sad truly feel depressed things getting far worse could ever imagine last year fell love girl fell love me asked surprise said yes wanted wait week so thought nothing much it three weeks passed nothing said going out days later suspended school day worst thing day wasnt actually getting suspended upset disappointed was never want hurt anyone intend hurt her could see pain man loved considered bad person three months day couldnt get lowest lows stopped talking blocked snapchat stopped hanging out one asked said anything moment worst moment life time towards end september last year english teacher decided punching bag class calling spineless selfdirected irresponsible even though top student class time week happened told asking question week decided ask question got trouble it question related class time refused help throwing rude remarks towards me skip forward start school year year hoped year could stay was didnt nothing much happened first two months school fell love girl also happened fall love me holidays hung out watched movies together cuddled sort thing lovers do brings us two weeks ago friday school decided ask out said yes time wasnt surprise shed told ready date wasnt next day went house kissed wasnt blue also wasnt expecting it safely say kissing still greatest moment life ever since then ive developed reliance seeing her whenever dont see get really upset happens middle exam period study exams past days ive saying things upset her feel really bad it always apologise whenever go tangent like last night last night different started talking im embarrassment friend group immature am said babe stop knew immediately gone far said wanted talk morning saying good night normally whenever goes bed say love sleep well couldnt say either two without saying first ive noticed since longer best friend snapchat also taken location snap map me doesnt bother much currently am write this texted am hasnt responded doesnt wake later am assume ignoring me thing is need talk her anything plans go lunch today last night parents said no whenever kiss get attached her means whenever dont see get down morning woke hoping text anything her nothing came hoping talk situation know cant morning started thinking redflag believe community certain amount pain believe community taken pain know go detriment everyone else dont think should feel like taking one team best option past years decide die think break soften blow bit dont want break heart suddenly disappear truly care want whats best her shes happy whilst im suffering isnt problem me human take much morning started mirror cried one single tear believe tear signifies lonely even friends family around me cant help think im person world every emotion ive felt everyone ive met everything ive done planned me sad thing theory theres way disprove it longer want feel pain dont want people feel pain im feel it someone read this begging please help me dont know stop this tldr im severely depressed need help someone please help late,1 realized girl liked stupid aaaaaaa girl class fucking liked stupid cunt thought teasing asshat aaaaaa,0 #liesgirlstell yea babii i luv u long time ,0 entire family enjoyed film including small children great values without sex violence drugs nudity profanity also zillion dollar special effects added try misdirect viewers poorly written storyline simple little family fun movie especially like songs movie got hear portion songs mostly end credits would love buy sound track cd movie th bill hillman movie guidelines mentioned above movies want kids watch hillman fella risk rating love movies,0 helpis anyone talk to keep getting suicidal everyday,1 clearing my desk,0 sister pro kam sister pro kam do like barely talks dad men thats much hates men,0 "@aileenv Yep, it's one of Sartre's more famous quotes. It is from his 1938 novel, Nausea. Smart man, Jean-Paul. ",0 @webaddict Good night and sleep well my friend ,0 i hate life today that s it that s the post,1 ever feel sudden confidence burst feel like narcissisticbecause im right idk act like bro im fucking hot could doubt single minute im built like s model natural fox eyes like long eyelashes like need capitalize rn damn this probably wear hours needed take system delete im back normal,0 well im bit pickle recently got gf first time couple weeks ago weve gotten see twice bc busy schedule strict dad meaning rlly gotten close texting well yesterday found best friend happens friend too happens one introduced us crush whole time gf feels extremely guilty told one friends feels guilty wants break up already talked friend supposedly crush seems fine nothing awkward us all get feels guilty abt rlly big deal breaking even solve anything bc im gonna date friend pity im like that rlly hope gets bc even kissed yet want break already something small thanks reading rant cant talk abt brother cuz hell call simp place get thoughts out,0 i am so unsatisfied with life no aspect of life is of any enjoyment to me the thought of getting a job working 9 every day of the week sleeping on the weekend because i m too tired slowly building up money to maybe have a vacation once a year for only a week and then going back into the grind continuing this a my body break down with age and eventually dying with nothing in my hand just sound like actual hell i have a girlfriend who want to marry me and have kid but i genuinely don t believe that i could give my kid or her a good life i doubt i could support a family financially because i have no money and can t afford a good education past high school i doubt i would be able to be a good father due to having to come home from a grind at work everyday too tired to play with them or properly parent and too tired on the weekend to do either why can t life be different i have no plan of suicide but holy fuck this world make me want to,1 largest crowd ever see wrestling event us took place wrestlemania people showed break rolling stones indoor record event disappoint all maybe biggest match time took place immortal hulk defended world title ultimate warrior matches get tons action,0 i stopped taking ssri about month ago and have been really depressed and anxious since i don t have adhd but i have an adderall prescription and take 0mg xr about time a week i am trying to find alternative to taking medication for depression so i picked up some 0mg htp supplement is it safe to take the two together if not would it be safe to take the adderall in the morning and htp at night,1 apt description spock allpowerful fop whose clutches fall crew enterprise one sector space starship avoided first sulu kirk simply disappear bridge landing party follows surface unknown planet encounter trelane seemingly aristocratic man dressed attire earth many centuries past demonstrates abilities someone something far beyond human register mccoys medical tricorder officers manage escape back ship but like bad cosmic penny trelane keeps popping up brings back including female companionship continue games dilemma takes elements the dangerous game space theres exasperating even infuriating aspect crews utter helplessness unbridled powerbr br what really makes great episode memorable performance guest star campbell overpowering allknowing alien character obviously early version q introduced years later pilot tng series trelanes confrontation scene spock stands among strange drama unfolds usual kirk quickly begins look possible weaknesses new nemesis despite quite outmatched answers exactly trelane right front us whole time so learn truth makes complete sense view campbells pitchperfect acting indulges constantly preening unknown audience remarking things flair infectious quite right cant quite pin first theres something missing here every minutes tone becomes sinister crew appears serious danger way cant take eyes him always waiting see next actor john de lancie captured similar tone q next generation series,0 parents ass holes pt yesterday posted thishttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsjjrmmy_parents_are_assholesutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare apparently im expert eating much food im made exercise fat shaming sucks combined parents calling pedo life sucks people ah well years move out thanks listening ted talk,0 @BoomKack BOOMKACK LOL ,0 im hungry hungry,0 wish way know people would care diedi feel like matter enough would impact anyone family friends coworkers idk im alone time keep seeing redflag prevention articles like imagine brothermomdadfriend found you really relevant itd take days anyone even notice something happened really relationship people live one ever initiates conversation me biggest thing stopping something thought traumatizing person ended finding body succeed want end sort permanent injuryillness tldr could die tomorrow itd take days anyone notice let alone care gone,1 im dating crush now kidding im lonely are,0 pretty surprised flick even though budjet obviously lacking still impressed movie took years make still turned good acting pretty impressive story really captivated me complaint would ending really little abrupt taste hey audience left wanting movie succeededbr br i would really recommend anyone hollywood look antonella ros excellent spanish talent something hard find days bad novela acting antonella ros truly star rise,0 doe anyone else have issue with being dizzy and light headed even feeling weak constantly i ve been this way for about week now and it just make my anxiety even worse it like a never ending death cycle,1 futile hopeless invisible looked overno one understands thats basic problem have one knows anything similar ive experienced life absolutely clue one listens im left drowning sea filled hopeless voices wishing someone could hear them try things gotten better since ive hoping hoping hoping putting fight trying keep head water allowing captivated dreams im longer fixated im completely submerged lost fight now years long time wait half life ive lived like this try reach out one cares say care say talk ghosted always ghosted ignored respond obviously read wrote therapists unhelpful worse mean one saw year treated like nuisance like better things speak me phd social activism even psychology university ive hospital multiple times help im small invisible,1 im starting give hope im depressed upset last weeks even worse now nightmare feel options left im starting giving life less hours ago cyber bullied others this crying depressed want die really feel worthless feel like nobody loves me hurts much right now,1 new bad buh bye ill back clapping stopped ampxb ampxb ampxb nice day u cool ppl,0 reinstall sims barely space left computer miss creating random sims,0 guess im alivei feel like im alive anything prove im alive kind sit room play games sleep go outside friends family care anymore time alive,1 need medication elsei really need find sth stop feeling bad wanted go see doctor get anxiety relievers medications cant let parents know itll worse me tried look unprescribed anxiety medications confusing choose wait least month see results used wonder would people take drugs drink alcohol jump cliff think finally understand think durable solution me,1 college essays wanna remind fellow teens theyre probably going reddit escape reality could offer advice write kickass essay im ears thanks guys lt,0 transition inner anger outer anger case mass shootingsi want preface saying sensitive topic speak internet way making threat suggesting action taken merely hypothetical discussion hopes community better understand us take extreme actions want hurt others also speaking cases murderredflag cases outright mass murder thats another long discussion use word victim describe people commit mass shootings speaking hypothetical point time before react way suggest us risk result born it extreme byproduct extreme environment true address victims give title many others speak perspective hold insight share please so redflag self loathing need exterminate world even mods refer empirical model one few base understanding redflag on agree fully basically claims redflag option occur person a perceives burden others society b experienced painsuffering repeatedly going this redflag outburst desperation end suffering called life trudge dayin dayout factors come play suffer choose harm others well one could argue innate trait happens add issue redflag one could also argue vein behavior byproduct environment grew in debate eugenics constructionist points view point something occurs add element think switch flips i want hurt myself i want hurt world think second switch two exist simultaneously wed look people want kill dont want kill people too maybe sense empathy humility instilled abuse world put upon them maybe stepped much affirmed identity doormat meant underneath everybody sole purpose that case world becomes much feels like telling end it agree it yeah burden yeah waste time yeah hopeless fight flight system responding freeze accept fate regardless dislike it want matter need matter much ask get better perhaps selfloathing aspect belief genuinely bad world makes feel want extinguish billion fingers pointed chastisement state self value reduced beyond zero negative state owe world apology merely here we owe world apology merely here social norm kill people pretty simple okay causes somebody transcend social moral boundary lets consider may happen somebody going experiences lose self value would happen sense injustice could arise anger could probably come form self defense however original sense self loathing merely reduced erased element self hatred feeling burden somehow coexist victim may become lost depressed are yet simultaneously sense evil world them the victim may become lost depression yet simultaneously sense injustice clashes inner conflict fueled here victim hates locked perspective endured abuse incredibly disorienting everything learned true wrong world taught this yet world also punishes trying world wants seem suffer point anger self hatred builds bleeds realities cases victim dissociate completely different personalities inability comprehend two opposing ideas time part therapy accept things fault easily swing outwards blame upon world the anger self hatred bleeds realities mind okay cool weve established victims susceptible becoming murderredflags may emotional purgatory juggling dichotomy two realities trying control life pretty disorienting huh many experience without wanting hurt others what happens make want hurt others transactional sense success tie effort self value separate value effort victims mental health get help relatively quickly never all think want hurt others initially see value seek help know try hard want ultimately understand forces work world going result fruitlessness point victim feels awful knows fault solution every corner turn world punishes efforts try get better this surrounded others chastise different cross line feeling urge medical care immediately becomes unavailable instantly dehumanized feared nobody help you much mention want hurt others go straight hospital rehabilitation removal society alienation point process cause myriad problems world punishes efforts try get better the world punishes efforts try get better think turning point hopeless actionless snap one day think huge buildup trying normal function properly world tells to effort well intended ultimately misplaced lens depression distorts world hence we never saw coming dialogue family members try world turns around punishes it matter want simp world nothing desire matters existence required suffering sadistically used world instructions make stop think anger comes from even though end result redflag us nonviolent added element efforts encouraged and punished world hypocrisy would break anybody fragmented shell human being feeling like shit often lean towards acceptancedepression angerdepression energy caused suffering allocated differently based brains chemistry actions taken people effort silence deafening noise installed heads core idea something actually respect stand right people likely think that theyre going die might well make sure world knows tolerable treat people way believe thats mindset agree it think right thing do even writing post probably puts ip watchlist seems stigma surrounding discussion this much sympathize single person whos committed atrocities bad them apparently cannot withstand attitude avoidance country towards tough topics think world keep seeing mass murders unless understand fuck happening heads thats comes from heads interpreting environment nobody born wanting shoot school given circumstances believe wed see many people fall mindset take actions circumstances specific could go evidence support white males would primary demographic but another post maybe know ill live point see become public understanding knowledge die rights deserve community human beings change this many innocent people keep dying thank reading encourage share experience whether current past wish love peace throughout day,1 "Once i figure out how to have a regular sleep schedule, its over for my depression pic.twitter.com/SEQGNrLjkz",1 person m love doesnt love me im well school cant imagine good futureso last girlfriend told wasnt going date anyone rest college unless someone special came along well special person came along went broke boyfriend years fell love me past two months since broke weve dated two times total around weeks says cant get ex theres big things dont common said things consisted extroverted introverted religious not fact wants least kids biggest fan kids feel like found someone really special hurts like hell doesnt feel even though claimed quite often thing hurts difference extrovertedintroverted like introverted im comfortable with im alone constantly want going friend group social ive thought past would girl want date since im anti social im senior large university cant help feel pathetic depressed never go basically friends school gets worse though im senior im going fifth year major aerospace engineering work heavy cant find motivation anything even watch netflix sometimes feels like im close graduating cant see ever point im even sure would want job major rest life also barely communicate family all parents live side us person ever communicate mom havent talked two weeks dread anytime it talk her talk me dont give much detail depressing state dont want worry feel ashamed way live life feel lazy work smoking weed cope depression would feel embarrassed tell mom everything thats going me mom works physicians assistant basically evaluates prescribes drug addicts medicine living sees worst worst comes drug use love much want worry way years since seriously thought it redflag crossing mind good bit past days even get shit together school im sure would like career rest life im sure ill ever get courage social ill introverted whole life im sure ill ever find someone due depressive personality feel fucked want drop,1 acti cant remember last time talked person myself feel anything anyone anymore cant remember like happy feel utterly sad time like years now feel like cant anymore hate myself hate every person know hate school hate city hate everything pain escape long help much anymore want end fear might go finally muster strenght end life cant good nights sleep more spent night aimlessly walking around hoping somehow could think way keep going everything think hate everything pretty much pray help ive never told anyone really feel before ive hid scars dont know anymore,1 hey guy i m a very anxious person and do get anxious quite often a some of you may have a well my anxiety is often followed with sharp chest pain that will happen there and there for a couple of minute however i wa just wondering if this ever happened to anyone my right side of my chest is swollen just above the breast and it go down until the middle of my chest that s the only part where it hurt and the rest is just swollen and i have this tight feeling in my chest i have no trouble breathing but it hurt to do so anyone have this when they are anxious fyi i wa also diagnosed with costochronditis a couple of month ago,1 want golf gte america vw makes hybrid gti hp torque little bit heavier gets way better gas mileage import america disappointijg want much,0 want apologisei told someone sub yesterday would get better words hurt sincerely apologise that im sorry deluding well you hope forgive,1 @JonathanRKnight the summer will never end! you'll b doing this 4 a while ,0 aalexaanne and that s on what depression purrrr,1 last night my girlfriend 0f of two and a half year told me 0m that my depression symptom have been taking a toll on her she told me that she see my progress and my growth but this is in summary a she talk around her meaning it s not enough it s exhausting her and making her feel poorly my exhaustion and lack of self and confidence and inner love so i had to apologize to her last night and i m trying to show that i m growing but i feel so fucking hopeless right now and it s only been getting worse i joined this community because i m sure i won t actually do it but i need something to remind me and something to feel le alone because holy fuck am i alone i feel devoid of love and worth and i m struggling to find way to place it on myself i can t validate it if it s for me and i can only form a half life of happiness if i use someone else a the foundation so that s superficial i m really trying to keep going but it s so hard it s exhausting i just want to sleep all the time there s so much more in regard to our relationship i ve been trying to support her and make amends for who i wa when we first met i brought my trauma into it and lashed out at her in way of gaslighting infidelity and emotional neglect she didn t have any trigger for me to lash out at her i just thought she wanted to use me for self satisfaction but i m told that s love now i m confused there are two side of my mind one an optimist and a lover the other a cynic and a narcissist i want to purge my brain of these thing i m sorry this is so scattered i ll try to speak more coherently later brain no work,1 issue cant help basically problem gals cant help see pretty girl slide dms talk them now first look may seen issue issue waaay often short period time bad cant help flirting all dont like fact catch feelings flirting know eventually ill reject them dont wish reject them cant pick start catching feelings me theyre great ways hate im like this need help stop like this,0 is at work thinking how much graveyard shift sux,0 pity liesi hate hear others say youre gonna hurt many people leave bullshitthey dont give fuck im alive makes think theyre gonna give damn im dead theyll probably cry week forget me pity shit people spew dont understand hate place much,1 night fun one time spent entire night watching minecraft stuff watched like minecraft animations bored sleep wanted to cant believe months since this,0 didi swallowed three bottles pills hours writing this im going lie feel every organ racing right now death imminent,1 bruh yall dudes need help every time even turn face one guy eyes meet like always staring mean hes ,0 "pub visit, Guinness and some nice music this evening, then boxing on telly ",0 mencari teman sebanyaak mungkin huahaha ,0 ive lost ability delusional death want dielike people ive able suppress recognition fact ill die someday everyone course knows theyll die could happen time nobody really accepts it everyone thinks theyre special somehow mom dead cancer soon top dreading loss facing mortality whenever read online people try frame positively once accept death live every day like last thats works me im facing truth everything seems pointless interest anything know distraction attempt think dying decided time cant control anything life except this ending terms want fuck waiting get cancer die car crash shit time go,1 "i am off now, its a loverly day so im going out to sun bathe ",0 Ok Im gone for real this time bbl Thanks again to all my new and old followers we are twit fam ,0 "@NoToriousTori SO very NOW, I kept rewatching that freakin' scene! 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I need cookies now My rush is dying. #Otalia",0 paperbag alcohol also work well on well being and depression i hear oh wait we weren t doing that,1 communication skills i even know whats wrong know me really problem communicating someone many friends im bad talking etc moment realized today talking crush simply asked knew liked her said somehow could even make less obvious asked really wanted know this went no making sure proceeds ask feeling like probably never felt it tell strange feeling asks good bad said it changes good first realize fact even chance her everything goes downhill asks is fact bad based said reply no strange tells trying understand emphasize probably hard tell least sure knows now replies probably so problem see conversation bad tell one friends asks actual fuck is proceeds tell it know wrong even know wrong give advice bad communicating people,0 im never going good enough realised depressed today looking tie noose get depressed girlfriend two half years going university soon goes im fairly certain end relationship im nothing life get good enough gcses get sixth form mainly due mother trying commit redflag two days exams started got ec meant levels ended going college music yeah know drop subject finished june year since ive deal father attempting commit redflag lost friends failed get jobapprenticeship ive sat around week seeing old friends make statuses facebook theyve gotten offers various universities hit realised ill never able go university able get grades even able afford pay it ive tried turning life around cant even that researching tie noose im going become organ donor organs may well go good use keep somebody alive use something life anybody advice turn life around may well try more,1 had a very hard day hope 2morrow would be okay ,0 feel anythingi felt anything years recently got boyfriend hes really nice best person world nothing changed tries help theres much do motivation im always sad depression social anxiety mild aspergers borderline personality disorder want kill idk yet im really close though options get better think would better bf since say mean things mood swings could find someone treats better want keep living maybe could keep living stay alive solely least could happy know would though feel like id need motivation id happy that know option is loves lot reason know really want leave him really know im asking anyone advice would appreciate it,1 im alone going tonight someone talk waitive ready go time unsuccessful attempts want leave life carnival pain been want soul set free find peace ive lost count whatever number attempt hopefully lucky one im scared,1 want stop right nowevery single day night overthink everything analyze hate everything am dont know supposed get better honestly dont think ever will cant unthink thoughts realizations ive had want dont know how im tired feeling way burden wish never existed unfortunately did used scared death realized really dont know whats gonna happen die im going die eventually anyway fear much,1 im pregnant still want kill myselfi feel selfish ill least wait kid guess,1 everyone hurting todayi know might mean much random person reddit hope bearable christmas believe things change ive often never believed someone told things would change know true impossible seems life gets better life gains meaning beautiful merry christmas ,1 the one day i have to go to school is the same day something exciting happens at parliament square,0 basil rathbone nigel bruce sherlock holmes dr watson respectively second universal series established means written prologue famed detective legendary spans time helps comfortably set things present era early sbr br in offering holmes goes different disguises with rathbones prominent features likely people really recognize true identity protects physicist hands nazis well holmes greatest nemesis professor moriarty now played lionel atwill scientist developed bomb sight greatly aid aerial bombardment hes promised plans british moriarty wants get hold sell nazisbr br a good entry boosted bit participation properly villainous atwill cast moriarty though george zucco slouch adventures sherlock holmes always intriguing watching holmes greatest enemy engaging witty banter together the needle last eh holmes,0 twitterific 2.x on the iPhone and Tweetie 1.2.x on the Mac - me think (via @derRuedi) nah on the mac i'd rather use seesmic desktop ,0 oh mylanta smarter intake therapisti made phone calls reach help mental illness addiction im ssissdi candidate im going thru pure hell middle age people age work force fault own cos want us want lovely tech savvy job switching roommate loving millennials middle age people need work too were seen medical liabilities legal liabilities know much everyone marries children earn strong incomes live outgrew roommates long time ago too desire boundaries respect appreciation worked hard for free sliding scale places im accustomed to quality posted about calling s hotline 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wanted quiet scares me claims trying help comfort me really trouble believing that second time something like happened first time arguing getting really heated,1 ecaps bloody idiot just shop him into some gay porn,0 wrote following statements imdb message board user wondered best years lives forgotten movie br br watching movie like opening time capsule think many ways the best years lives probably one fascinating character studies holds extremely well look life us mids wwii believe coming home the deer hunter released recent films closest capturing numerous issues military men returning war brought the best years livesbr br what really impressed watching movie entirety college around many college students applauded end moviebr br this movie still packs wallop im happy read posts users feeling movie definitely stand test time br br im happy see movie ranked near top movies imdb afi also though competition eventually became christmas classic wonderful life arguably best years lives oscar wins including best picture welldeserved br br ive seen film almost years best years lives still powerful beautifully acted wellcrafted motion picture,0 alright alright before everyone start get close leaves really seen coming not really thought would different never even close close someone before even though suck communication rarely talked struggles made soo much easier knowing alone would given life save yours without hesitation would given last penny without hesitation would lost limb without hesitation would lost sensory organ hesitation would lost regular organ hesitation would given car would given bike would given place live mad myself even depression redflag adhd finally drove away fucking terrible communication skills best friend even say hello alone,1 seriously feel like shell everyday struggleim m im terrified life friends girlfriend fault though girl broke months ago really stressed life worried relationship changing makes sense used friends brother cut old friends life nothing drama queens often stay awake nights wondering lost girl supposed with like quick silly relationship real thing slowly time developed feelings eventually clicked really sweet girl best boyfriend her sometimes would want go somewhere something id say im busy work something looking back wonder that seem like me even felt guilty sex had felt dirty awful days after felt like scumbag felt weird someone care like did really worry one chance love know know im experienced world yet really love me cant get back even tried hardest another guy started dating weeks split up hurt one ended things night texted told felt listened understood told need move ill find amazing girl future id like believe im best looking guy im short pretty average looking kinda boring learn lot relationship weird way heartbreak kinda good thing ive learned better person really treat people much respect really worry im going punished breaking heart worry hurt someone come along hurt worse ive learned lesson past months hell ive learned people objects love inst game something take care maintain almost like car mental health plummeted therapist im sure really helps aside losing pushed old friends away me really regret doing toxic people looking manipulate cause drama every little thing ive never seen men act like fools stopped talking them walked away told handle bs left course like it find lonely work come home eat ill play video games every again try go things find fun find constantly lonely upset ive tried making new friends work really kind crowd ill starting senior year fall cant wait get with want go college meet new people get fresh start dad works security guard one local colleges get free tuition im sure understand great is really even know major in id also like join military point life id like adventure get old ive always interested military cant decide want ill drop college join military find something like ill get degree join officer work walmart today guy work told works mcdonalds comes walmart works hes divorces everyone ex wifes cheated him really want end like that want start living cousin gave great advice comes life love told never afraid losing people never ever think girl dated the one millions like her see point programming freak things worry ill eventually marry convenience end getting cheated on ive seen terrible is mom cheated dad twice turned shell man want like that feel like im destined explore see much see idk really believe spiritual mumbo jumbo multiple people told old soul me theres something gives old soul vibe maybe thats true maybe well never know want live life want make great life long friends want fall love amazing girl become man want be id like think im bad person someone needs help im there im personable person ill talk anyone always try see everyone point view understand everyone thinkingfeeling im stingy money either sure im trying save money someone needs cash ill help out im introvert super outgoing personality everyone works seems like school ive fair share headbutts couple pleasant people go way start problems ive really working improve feels like im stuck theres nothing really driving forward anyone give advice id really appreciate it ive used analogy older posts ill use again best way describe im feeling feel like im ship ocean im helm compass thick film fog surrounding entire vessel pick heading compass wont know whats front know anymore whats point going ive already messed life up feel like complete shit guess deserve punishment,1 need get hereeverything collapsing fucking hate every disgusting inch want nothing die deserving pain give,1 "@CosmicMother Ah Russ! Listening & Loving it! Wish I could go back to those days, love the oldie films & songs! 2 do - Build Time Machine",0 falling apartfuck trough away care wife gone week well all sure cheating fuck it im two kids love dearly family grandmother grandfather sisters younger i im poor drowning debt i starting see way out people morn months everyone go lives question ive struggling last months will actually people favour looks like yes removing picture stop holding every one back suggestions guys words help im end handle right now,1 ientje 9 aw i m fine too thanks yeah i miss you so much on the mfc but hope we can talk later on today kiss huglove,0 "Had a cool talk with Woody the roadie who has been hangin out and helping us out, he set up for viva la vida tour. ",0 one support abolishment police means commit murders zero accountability anyone wanna visit swamp midnight,0 @rsuenaga Thanks for bringing the ticket today... ,0 need relationship advice teens bf dating couple months now getting choppy reached peak hours ago reinforced love eachother ect however admits toxic good relationships im willing stick out declared aromantic says friends benefitslove eachother also wants break sex traumatic past fine said could flirt even date in case people broke me which lot loyalty although assures loves much love him know hes pan btw,0 teen needing relationship advice hey fellow teens ive liked girl almost years time im finally stage completely ignored blocked really sucky dont wanna move know best guys tips move way im still gonna feelings later track thanks,0 "back from the hairdressers staying in until tonite, BBQ for a birthday ",0 "I think I need to do more "tweet while people watching", you all seemed to like it.. works for me the hotel lobby's are air conditioned ",0 questioncan killing really makes things better me,1 Good Morning sunshine... ,0 That mango shake made ALL the difference. - http://tweet.sg,0 whats something friend teenager would appreciate much little details matters whats something like little friendly gesture would appreciate much maybe sending good morning amp night messages every day buying flowers listening music together maybe compliments friend mentioning much amazing are enjoying jokes amp funny moments crying going hard time edit mean people friendship like friends bestie friends edit got notification previous post removed reason lol make new one again,0 rebeccamayne that doe sound boring a hell becs,0 fucked breakup cannot seem move on made noose thinking going it last resort need help,1 maybe i should have been locked away for the rest of my life like every other unprofitable unproductive worthless retard my only quality is that i m worthless enough to inspire the real regular normal people because if some low iq idiot like me can do something so can a normal person the only thing that held me back were the fear of failing and living even more disabled and some stupid video game i could have done without,1 i have a pretty good life my husband is great we have our fight and stuff but overall he s amazing we have a nice apartment husband ha a job we have money for grocery and bill i m graduating college in may i think i ve got a good job lined up for after graduation my parent get on my nerve but they love and support me my sister is becoming a good friend a we have gotten older and not a annoying my in law don t really mess with u much anymore when they do it s nothing crazy but i still feel so sad all of the time i hate it i have no motivation i do stupid thing because i have no self control i just lay around any chance that i get i m not productive i just hate myself i m not a fit and i don t take care of myself anymore i have little desire to i just am wasting away then i get mad at myself because i shouldn t feel this way i have reason to be happy i m just not,1 "the end of 2014 - 2016 , was my worst yrs i was really in a depression",1 ill never wage slavethis world made someone like me someone want engage world around him someone want meet new people someone want take responsibility someone want make create things someone incurious world around him someone would rather live undetected rock someone courage play part world stage someone want learn something new someone want put there someone without hope future someone want make plans someone without dreams desires someone like talking theres hope,1 sharing othersive always felt like sharing suicidal thoughts people life invalidates thoughts makes whiny bitch hungry attention acceptance using threat redflag leverage nobody life knows,1 @BakeMeUpLA hope you feel better love g'nite! (forealz!) ,0 girls rteenagers question come yall tend go guys assholes end hurting you instead guys nice genuinely care ofc ik girls like good portion girls ik are,0 terrific little film stars mary astor gogetter works way struggling paper company owner sell health reasons comes scheme employees buy company jerk salesman robert ames front even though brainsbr br of course becomes big success becomes executive secretary basically still running everything teaching class loves dope never catches fools around string bimbos chased married separated man ricardo cortez free society gal catches ames everything goes hellbr br astor wonderful toosmart woman almost makes huge mistake loses man ames good jerk but see him cortez good much do kitty kelly good sidekick dolores charles sellon original owner cather dale owen society babe edna murphy funny daisybr br worth look,0 i m so tired of the inertia of my life this never going anywhere meaningful for me i think about all the thing i d love to be doing and grow angry that certain circumstance constrain from doing them i hate that life is 9 doing thing because other people coerce you to do them i would like to feel like i have agency but you have very little when you re slaving away to just survive the worst thing is that this bid for survival is artificial and man made human being hate that other human have free will and must wring the autonomy from each other they use money and debt to control every aspect of your life they create law to tell you what to do with your body life and time i just want to do what i want to do with my finite life i want to accomplish what i want to accomplish not conform to society s view of materialistic success i want to live my life unencumbered by other people s stupid judgment i want to be free edit i m sorry if the above is incoherent i just feel so trapped in my life so helplessly trapped,1 losing fucking marbles im going ranti want start saying bait im fishing attention posting really need rant calm down thanks ahead read this know going lot dad always thinks talk shit bathing self pity like way get attention fucking not im slowly surely going fucking insane know dad thinks excuse half ass alive cant help it really im trying even went therapy took meds gave really cannot see point keep trying nothing working kind getting better little trying avoid triggers like certain people situations ive found sheltered real world intense urge kill keeps coming back matter hard try switched bottle desperate attempt smother intense impulses counter productive would end miserable drunk made redflag seem justifiable get angry least im angry im sad least years would sad im sister time got molested front baby sitters son could feel ashamed anything mom would cry drunk mind father left her little game would play called bird says dont cry would lean say dont cry thats think now shit happened young keeps coming back boiling anger aimed particular direction talking helps much thing keeping going family mom bipolar drug addict brother angry nothing plus hes slowly surely developing extremely intense alcohol problem try cope everything brother recovering drug addict sister best friend kept going dark ass times shes strong tarnish selfish reasoning know shes got lot shes repressing whole family brink besides dad happy live blissful ignorance situation cant throw board myself wouldnt fair god damn getting hard keep going thank read this side note dont mean ripping family love rant,1 today rteenagers birthday turned years old,0 im really pissed offif people quit pissing saying im crazy im going kill myself really pissing me gun,1 childhood feeling died years agoit enjoyed life always there since beggining decided leave age or died see world boring meaningless existence cant dream job cant achieve this that sometimes imagine peaceful home great big field yard fucking work ass everyday every second would pointless childhood feeling made feel like dream happiness mysterious feeling way could feel sure gets worse year year become even feeling less point fucking careless commit anything illegal hurt badly die longer scares me shoving fork outlet scare me think this is september sister get shrooms lsd dmt kill sure edibles made feel amazing last summer ive long sober drugs even feel like good idea lie mind,1 @ps7girl Awww thanks jessica for the shout out! Love uuuuu tonsssssss ,0 watched video yt high school hung bullied obsessed watching videos people dying would wish person diedtoday also wrote following notebook is death peaceful tired shitty life pretty sure death peaceful like asleep wo dreams idea kill wish go path one day want say sorry fucking done pain pain depression pretty sure ok normal,1 like wine johnny dangerously gets better better every day clever witty wellacted film could well stand parody gangster genre truly outstanding fact quite obviously best film kind funniest spoof mob movies even respective period although admittedly position probably easier achieve main competitors primitive vulgar dull pseudocomedies jane austens mafia,0 I can't think of anything astounding for my first post so lets get it over with! TaDa ,0 t minus minute to go home well not home but to do laundry at home kindof the laundry is at home but the washer and dryer isn t,0 i m m turning in december and i can t help but feel like my time is quickly running out i ve never been so emotionally distant from my family a i ve had this year and it feel like i m a disappointment to everyone who ha actually cared about me at some point i actually had a sort of future ahead of me but it blew up in my fucking face when i had decided to write a joke essay to the high school i wanted to go to after my mom wouldn t even allow me to go if i wa even accepted the worst part is she doesn t even admit to doing that i don t know what to do anymore i ve always had the feeling of wanting to blow my fucking brain out but i ve never felt it a strong a this why is it that when it come to mental issue for men we are throughly ignored why are you upset why are you depressed you don t have a reason to be depressed you should talk to someone but who is actually listening i m sorry for anyone who actually read this but i ve been in such a terrible mindset the past odd hour i really just need guidance it feel awful to think that inevitably all my family will be gone and i ll be the only one to fend for myself in just a handful of year and somehow in any social circumstance i always end up being the butt end of the joke i don t want to keep doing this for 0 0 something year someone please talk me out of this state if it s even possible to those who read this entire thing i hope you re in a better state than i am,1 fuck reposts live instead sleeping im browsing reddit see reposts fucking stop stealing peoples posts fucks sake creative make new meme yourself know go sleep cant reason guess ill try sleep tldr fuck reposts especially past midnight good night,0 using sub diary day today good bunch meetings school stuff grades nd semester uploaded got gpa quite proud people call beard honest answer cheated majority classes passed true internet helped lot rest day used chill hbu guys day went anything interesting happened,0 @kristeen030 you actually have to tweet for Twitter to work for ya. ,0 lettya ahh ive always wanted to see rent love the soundtrack,0 worst life every sad tired physically always tired matter what sleep erratic also tired unemployed tired able find job minimum wage tired trying happy make things seem normal tired getting real attention dishes vacuuming getting hard reason get bed partner dogs want disappear never wake want stop sad tired,1 im failure loser disappointment family cant dieim life already over none friends wanna talk cant get girl talk them grades ok parents disappointed havent met girl three years college im mad im sexually frustrated wanna die ill never get girl im fat ugly worthless already wrote redflag note need send parents,1 hate bus driver much first all never lets anyone back rows bus days bus completely full people standing up gets mad sit back leading people standing gets mad stand bus even seats always screams loudly standing claims seats sit in literally also gets mad literally anything wants top off blames chocolate addiction yelled everyone getting bus people gotten off yet people needed get sitting there nothing want gone,0 mandayyy,0 rest peace alex trebek heaven received another legend,0 bit connoisseur garbage stumbled across little treasure action romance crooked cops violence single one pulled right love immediately then funny thing happened second time around became addicted thought going one rent chuckle kindofmoviebr br rudy ray moore knew wanted see movie money make look good anyway thats commendable also shows making movie self know many heard rudy rays music whole slew albums reaching fifties,0 someone bonk ,0 a good day ,0 boo another day at work but only to go then day off,0 sub chaotically boring middle night dude keeps posting porn,0 october take back october last year everything want gone caused much heartache want here memories left you youre person havent grown tired somber melodies good night sweet prince king one day sweet dreams,0 "@tiffernynee I was about to say...ive got you're number, I know how you roll. Diet come. lmao",0 disappeari post awhile i reached help today told thingsession doing cant continue like thisnothing say,1 ive never felt bad beforeeverything triggering everything making hate myself try go keep mind things cant im crying trying get tonight,1 broke w boyfriend im sad fuck feelings fuck stupid robot deleting post cos doesnt enough words enough words u rusty little shit,0 i just found out my boyfriend is depressed i really want to be there for him but i feel like i ve only been saying the wrong thing how can i be there for him help him and see him get better i m worried it will continue to the point it will consume him i can already see his personality changing and i m scared for the future what thing can i say or do to comfort or help,1 guys might last resorti didnt know hard would get help emailed samaritans response th queue right lifeline crisis chat im alone lost much last year friends son job fear going lose husband next due depression anger sadness im breaking point dont know do,1 top successful communist countries thanks reading till end flaps away,0 im making quiplash party public due lack friends code zfha unfamiliar go jackboxtv join,0 im thinking jumping bridgeall friends either relationships hookups im ive nothing seriously need solid reason end it,1 another post person family skills,0 never asked thiseveryone thinks im lucky im bored life ive tried plenty things nothing interests me dont want responsibility want stop existing grew poor family immigrants dad worked seems like support older half brother sister mother myself mom would beat brother slightest mistakes shared room him sister fucking clueless always thought reason mom beating brother sister fucking clueless always thought brother deserved got didnt shed also ask world dad dad overly nice guy would damnedest provide even thought k debt time got high school still wanted private piano lessons car chearleading team go competitions brother became meth heroin addict wasnt allowed hang friends join teams dangerous god forbid drugs end like brother joined army booted two years racist platoon sgt nothing better time army two dads uncles died left gtmil tried college thing got useless psychology bachelors nothing interests thought psy might trick didnt psychology isnt real science everything theories never hold repeated testing results taken context applied broadly what want stop existing run away antarctica fall asleep blanket snow maybe try climb everest become fail becoming another macabre landmark adventurers come kill disappear father crestfallen hes nice siblings take advantage leave wish could go sleep never wake up,1 one friends calling kittybaby girl joke making uncomfortably horny send halp,0 ive decided six months still feel suicidal ill iti dont want impulse decision want well thought out ive decided still feel way april first then well ill die,1 fear death less less daysi used absolutely petrified dying scared unknown would cease exist recently fear slowly started fade away replaced increasing thought maybe ceasing exist would need feel like walk onto main road front house end it committed yet feel guilty leaving husband daughter im honestly hanging thread now sometimes wish least one thing life came somewhat easy me one dream right,1 ever actually talk back mom regret later like always end regret seems lowkey hurt fault ask eat im eating things important food apparently im good son ill one day ig ,0 unworthy lifethis isnt first time ive posted here think im far fucked go on dont think go much longer fighting never good attribute mine always passive loving person fear conflict kind whether another person feel weak person dealt depression many times ive never wanted give like before got hospital weeks back made friends tried get help really wanted get help tried hardest discharged day early days didnt feel different going mental health unit week later another downward spiral havent even gone back work yet dont even think go back work anxiety depression way is im sure causing this life bad family loves dearly supportive great friends always me many things good life idea happy often wonder ungrateful dont know next turn take me life go feel im losing hope im afraid tell many people ive feeling someone told me ever talk about one friend listen everything say clueless am feel bad im everyone dont know else besides give up dont want hurt mom feel choice cant cope anymore ive tried distracting myself medication therapy talking friends socialiable nothing helped dont know anymore hate burden family friends hate person pitied felt sorry for things would easier never born deserve worthy life dont know would this perhaps hanging would good way rope left work could take bunch pills hopefully fear death guilt feel quelled peace void long redflag note write,1 amidst the conflict among ukraine and russia in a contention and testing climate when there wa a ton of disturbance doubt disarray and depression in the security exchange subscriberuchisoyafpo,1 "@intruth I'm not a fan, thats the only Ben Folds song I've ever heard! You CAN call yourself a fan ",0 poor sock luvvvvv the golden retriever i want one sighhhh,0 My brother has officially slept for 12 hours straight and still counting ,0 another shit daythey saying one changed instead knew going inside head nowhere close different unlike everyone else maybe forget move ahead walking away life saw friends staring gave look something see told stop suffering eternity end even say back is thank guys friend please forgive never intended best know life put test even tried many efforts chest please forgive put rest remember started life eleven thought life hard till learned heaven remember told make sure life easily condone easy think cant even take care remember kids responsibilities life taken granted till struggles consumed disabilities remember school making sure took notes judging written words mostly despairs quotes here every word say hurts ear make want disappear get love get hate baby girl think took bait love priceless love lifeless thought one wrong reason made song lied cried know anymore inside feel like theres war one cared mean words fill like tumor,1 finally watching walt disneys song south myspace decided watch ralph bakshis response moviecoonskinon afro video linked google video one liveaction sequences preacherman charles gordone takes friend sampson barry white pick pappy scatman crothers randy philip thomas years added michael middle name professionally latter two escape prison attempt pappy tells randy tale brother rabbit voice thomas brother bear white preacher fox gordone adventures harlem expected many bakshi efforts theres mix animation liveaction provides unique pointofview writerdirector sure offend people another fascinating animated character miss america whos bigas gigantic every waywhite blonde woman dressed skintight red white blue stars stripes hold little black man shot one sexually violent ways shockingly funny me plenty scenes sprinkled throughout picture another one concerning brother bears frontal anatomy also provided big laughs me theres also segment woman telling baby cockroach friends left touching part seeming tribute comic strip artist george herriman also fascinated hearing grover washington jrs version aint sunshine heard part score compelling part picture seeing scatman depicted head silhouette opening credit sequence singing scatting song using nword satirical way saw vhs cover movie years ago depicted brother rabbit insolent mode front looked like warner circles slogan this movie offend everybody ample warning anyone thinks cartoons meant children said definitely recommend coonskin fans bakshi every form animation,0 overthinking activated biotechnology notes tho big brain,0 fastesteasiestpainless way kill myselfokay fed getting simple answer anywhere wanna hear life gets better youre important life precious get help shut fuck up one asked never thought shit b know first thing me even know existed till read note someone use tell straightreal answer want life ended period period period,1 feel like deserve diehi there going little long senior college currently good school time here systematically done everything wrong take right classes meet right people feel lost insignificant major never acted put there work shit see getting job this moving life see failure friends person texts mom pretty sure one cares feel like given much life done nothing it redflag good way absolve guilt,1 finishing off so amaziing raisin bread ,0 mathewsmichael i agree the jobros dont update there very often,0 you know that feeling when the day and night drag on the tear stream down your cheek your vision start to tunnel the feeling of being lost with no where to go the movie staring yourself is playing and all you can do is sit back and watch a the world start to slip away from you slowly the first time i tried taking my life wa year old i wa physically and mentally abused from the moment i wa born and still mentally abused to this day this time it me abusing myself i got so used to being alone and not wanted so what s the point in trying anymore 0 0 wa a bad year for everyone but that is the time where i started losing a grip on my life for the last time my world started spirlling out of control what did i do i woke up at 0am walked into the kitchen grabbed a knife and drug of deep across my throat i walked into the bedroom where my wife wa sleeping she woke up to the sound of gargling only you find me trying to hold my throat shut she immediately called 9 and just looked at me in aw with a single tear falling down my cheek all she could do is watch a her husband is slowly dying right in front of her when i woke up day later in the hospital she wa no where to be found this is when my world came crashing down over me hearing those word whisper out of her mouth i want a divorce that wa the day i died inside i lost my soul mate my best friend my wife and the mother of my child i lost everything that day family friend my daughter my house my truck and my heart every day i fall asleep cry begging to take me back in time but in reality i know i can t so what is there left to do you ask die life for me ha ended i have nothing more left in me anymore i have been suffering from depression for a very long time i m exhausted i m tired i m alone i m lost all i want is to end this story of my life called misery i want to leave this world so i don t have to disappoint anyone ever again i am broken i can t do it anymore everyone say life is precious well to me life is a waste of time i have nothing more to give i have nothing more to learn i have nothing i am depressed i am hurt i am sitting in the theater watching a my screen start to fade to black this is it i tell myself i am no longer going to sit here and put a fake smile on my face for everyone else i am done helping out others with there problem why doesn t anyone ask me how i am doing probably because i would lie i am going to die i am ready i hope and pray the my daughter and my ex wife can forgive me i will always love them until the end of time with that being said i am signing off i have nothing left in the tank goodbye cruel cruel world until we meet again daddy will always be looking over you guiding you in a direction i never wa pushed towards i may not have any friend but i will be leaving a mark on legacy my job here is done good bye signing off,1 posting every day end day weekend bois idk else say great friday night everyone,0 parents disowned mei recently came gay kicked out said son hate im homeless alone im wandering town phone heading towards bridge jump want die cant see way out relatives town many friends name im update im leaving bridge go buy sandwich im hungry need think,1 reddit redflag notethis kill addressing great reddit friends ill begin uben_ amazing friend im weak person gets trust flinch everything im terrified dogs im screwed head uslickspider also amazing friend since live another continent awake needed questions answered usweater_spaghetti thanks amazing boyfriend staying friends broke up uangelinwhite amazing friend end accusations,1 hopefully last true confession understand reasoning false hope camp redflags almost caused almost death father amount friendships fucked me emptiness human contact lack confidence self esteem fucked fucked everything loved got people certain shit life helped best could happy never be hard imagine past decade game survival living every broken heart every thing hurt me deserve shit get anyone deserves live sure hell aint me anyone close personally knows reads this im sorry im self isolating want leave plain want die hate living aint right me want happy want die want girlfriend love cant happy left me nothing dont give false hope understand reasoning explanations this feel like different people need escape cycle goodnight new zealanders,1 free cuddles rona anyone preferably girls cuz im better girls guys too wants cuddle rona comment pls d requirements must pedophile must nice person must fully vaccinated must teen preferably girl guys allowed,0 just had a great time that is if i forget about the fight on the way back,0 want stay alive notwhenever tell mother grandmother im depressedhaving suicidal thoughtshaving panic attack either one assume saw something internet made upset theyll tell grow up actually attempt redflag theyll act never saw coming get angry me,1 hey gamerdude please comment poggies,0 nothing better than i guy who loves you to pluto and back ,0 said before fan tweety hes aggravating wish sylvester would eat get withbr br in cartoon sly homeless back feeding garbage cans spots cruise ship leaving port nearby decides hop aboard spys tweety one passengers br br the ship provides adequate stage following hijinks sly desperately tries catch annoying bird avoid seasickness hes succeed chewing swallowing thus finishing irritating canary forever but cartoons starring tweety go one quite good thanks brilliant cat,0 Have you guys seen that Speed Racer movie?! I think it was fantastically compelling =] Not to mention the extremely attractive actors ,0 overall give film decent start ill say love character portrayed adapted screen read comics occasionally simply watch dvd extras see blade character drastically different one see film among changes blade importantly half vampire therefore acquiring all strengths none weaknesses credit goes obviously david goyer fellow fan darker genre comic books thanks blade become much interesting character find one favorite antiheroes really wesley snipes born play role although wouldve probably pererred dezenel washington smith lol acting need exactly oscar winning per say considering character im glad decids play daywalker two sequels also starring stephen dorff main villain kris kristofferson blades alfred speak acting good actually action keeps plot going sure opening scene club one favorite parts ive got say much like movie things bother take away film ranking something like spiderman xmen stephen norrington villains portrayed way like much honestly lines full foul mouthed comedy really feel like comic book film me plus la magra bit disappointing final villain intense sword fight makes guess mention sense extra nonrealism black man leather coat sword beaing cop broad day light going unnoticed crowds walking seemed kindawelldumb moving away flaws music mark isham great fitted film nicely luckily problems fixed improved stunning sequel blade ,0 Just purchased my Macbook (and I get a free personalized iTouch with it too!) ...sweet ,0 I'm LOVING the new Daughtry video ,0 get political anything fucked dog,0 would say film gives insight trauma young mind face family split divorce disaster would highly recommend film especially parents individuals planning familybr br i found characters appealing highly sympathetic multitude dimensionsbr br the scary monster although probably scary adults real hint overactive imagination child facing unknown terrors might createbr br i found film delightful,0 goodnight new wake am pm also made th contributions chatting new today,0 @jonasbrothers http://twitpic.com/3br5p - omj! you look hot in every pic you're in! I love your new haircut! ^^,0 need someone join gta lobby hang vehicle cargo missions im year old american guy matters gladly chit chat topics like politics cars really anything tbh im xbox gamer tag misumat,0 I know you say it helps and no I'm not trying to offend. But I know depression and drug addiction don't blend,1 might become femboy one day feel like purpose life,0 lost best friend redflag days agohe best friend brother guy understood understood him like soulmate depression never really talked last weeks could never truly himself life pretended something fit everyones expectations homosexual person told beginning end accepted problems it afraid others reaction would affect life know exact reason it think problems going too miss much time im angry action leaving horrible world pain loss made rethink everything feel lost feel suicidal may actually feel felt left good guy best ever knew good hearted everything decent man be rest peace him lived years,1 dads bit pissed new car stopped working today got two weeks ago insurance company closed weekends hope get fixed paid car,0 tessaamrtz literal yo ya casi no entro pq m coge depression,1 crush lol fellas approach girl interested in texting since quarantine chance sorta move got text introduce myself without awkward andor getting friend zoned lol,0 want hair like rico nasty people curly hair know lot curly hair help shaved sides head hair long enough one problem lion hair ltc hair gt keep googling thin hair keep coming dead ends good idea do help want kms hair frustrating,0 bad nightim really hard really bad night dont know do reached several people one got back me dont know sub works mobile someone talk awhile,1 even fuckin know damn fucking tired dont know nothing midnight cant sleep feeling really shitty maybe mayo salad bad idk maybe explain venting bc right feel fucking bad probably delete later feels good write down dont even care grammar fukc it please dint feel concerned contemplating self harm anything christmas new years eve really unsatisfying every year certain magic feel it anither day except ate lot junk got little drunk family played game end laughing like maniacs good next day fucking bad ithought would good parents walk day friends sister home could play games day long feel like things really wanted got late wait fir everybody get somwhere else could wank bit horny waited two fckin hours even thou watched youtube whole time felt wait least changes pyjamas afternoon spend rest day wondering play ended playing watching many things bored really quick continued nothing do basically spend whole day things supposed joy ultimately made feel like nothing mattered nothing makes sense whatever cannot distract wierd feeling existing without dreams needs feel like exits bad good thing anymore honestly life might throw soon think ate much mayo salad ad stuff anyway took calming pill help sleep pill calms stomach hopefully work far nothing writing comes fucked mind find something interesting read fear sentenced look wall whole night eyes wide open feeling every minute like hour considering wank serotonin shit pause like five minutes staring wall latetly found way utilize pillow bed understand implying fuck post probably broke lot rules guy usually reads rules manuals rn fucking care enough read hope mofos read shit gonna regret posting tomirrow clarify drunk high rn type writing used famous wtiters forgot called something along lines of train thougt think hemingway used too forgot good memorizing literature like reading well helped bit hope nobody know sees good night going stare wall,0 Ok... Now time to write an advertising blurb for me......hmmm ,0 im piece shit one thing care cant ever find effort fix it gets bad makes feel like piece shit shut passesmy family im learning trade eventually move out im terrified happen zero social skills anxiety everything do time feel comfortable playing video games probably much past two weeks ive break got argument mom asked watch siblings like short notice for reason get really bad anxiety schedules changed suddenly even schedule nothing particular two weeks went fine mom dropped goes way anything knows gets stuff unnexpectedly comes feels like piece shit asks something clue thought much lately feel like fucking loser asshole making feel way im huge burden parents even ever voice it talk time when move out tinge optimism voices makes feel alone really makes feel like cant stand me cant stand honestly motivation even trade im learning told id could keep getting job would eventually lead moving out everyday tell what fuck life anything normal enough so almost like tick anything bad happens brain instantly thinks fucking kill yourself myself cant stop matter much try honestly im starting seriously think it like me like me honestly wouldve done long time ago siblings born move might become disconnected long enough edit lol even nobody sub wants anything cuz im fucking mistake,1 uhm yeah happened uhm today friend like years told likes uhm dont know do someone help,0 people strangers friends made smile thank you mostly know know either moments tons them year inspired me motivated me made smile happy stuff happening year year crazy one thing happening another i well easily influenced stuff overall mood people hanged bad tend gloomy time whole month lockdown nothing except eat study school youtube hearing people subreddit others helped realise could made stop thinking do posts rants others pictures still help meso basically trying say thanks lot everyone tldr thanks unknowingly help teenage boy smile tough times usually complemented smile always face time guys put there also merry christmas thought best time post this,0 maybe death fastest way outthrowaway obvious reasons ive raised abusive parents make feel like shit berating small thing ive done wrong bringing past mistakes like fucking scrapbook feels like horrible unhealthy lifestyle would willingly leave small chance standing ominously around like vultures ive subject verbal abuse years physical abuse first yo feel anymore compassion parents great academically ive picking pace starting work towards better future however nothing seems change perception me view waste space money money could spending better stuff son want last ive contemplating redflag years now understand live anymore always thought good child small things one took note grateful for cant live household parents might end point youll never amount anything fucking life cant even keep shit together i understand hes aiming be you lazy fuck playing games never studying slacking off even waste money going school i want help people ive always wanted doctor you want become fucking doctor yeah right quit school go work would useful slightest huh funny im studying become doctor occupation saves lives yet cant save myself funny irony works world tonight night ive cracked decided act upon wishes ever since middle school written long facebook post going end myself people truly came support middle school classmates ive better family school hoe life set ultimatum end year nothing changes im going take fathers firearm shoot head it better live drowned alive course ive thinking long hard whether go it seems dead husk might well saving grace eye parents seems ill either become stronger this leave world forever friends would maybe go way help someone im afraid damage could cause leaving suddenly brother person love envy most never gone ive gone through get berated abused baby family take blunt blows like punching bag even punching bags break really know im post maybe bit solace empathy people going experiences also edge much closer blissful kiss death guess im also looking reason live defy odds win war attrition them want pity want reason smile laugh ruins wall parents ravaged im sorry wordiness seems much empathetic real writing image words hey thanks reading reddit pretty cool place ive come many times back find solace real pain leaps every step goodbye may last chapter ever come across ampxb,1 im making painits funny live utter emotional turmoil probably even real reason anyway,1 please dont end ityou may nothing left family could passed abandoned you dog may died im talk need vent always reach me,1 im going commit soon way look genuinely wont happy ever looking look theres point nothing happening gt unhappy think everyone would agree thati cant live life face body have people might able accept it personally cant people think look others treat me really dont care people want treat bad feel myself ill saying dramatic dont respect way look looks extremely important humans nature ill never like cant accept way look fucking pains come this know good life like like way look know definitely missing whole lot good shit ill never good shit even continue living me better stop dont think im making sense whatsoever point mind frustrated angry confused depressed feel like cant even explain im feeling,1 pg questions u girls keep clean ill report u questions u girls like like u not exedra exedra girls help answer ,0 lucky enough watch without pre viewing hype surprised resilience ghosts image mind next day day that ive watched times time appreciate even more settings gorgeous town dusk beautiful lighting effects marsh long shots house sufficiently grown moss main hero likable good natured easily sympathized with person complained enough spark film id say whole fight ghost waged one person fairly slow paced film unusual amount time spent pre post ghost attack developing character family work life spoilers discussionbr br i especially liked turning point comes back main town meets man helping explains seeing ghost describes woman black end conversation says going back all harm done him man says you cant go back alone lends hero dog cute little dog offers small respite comic relief bounding house even locked roombr br the many casual appearances ghost really freaked out woman shows mid shot church showing afraid church also shy bound house beginning another unbelievably memorable scene kids outside church fence watching funeral camera pans right woman seen background among gravestones older man even look it kids yelling taunting it crreeepy usually ghosts hidden shadows haunting specific locales people mentioned ghosts malevolence wrath frightening feel attacks ending perfect fully justified ending underlined fact hero made major mistake going back house perhaps marked matter what saving gypsy girl guy plays hotel manager believable really fills role well spreading word friends much enjoyed film reassuring see others feel same see people quite see masterpiece especially went lot review hypebr br i think another person summed said movie settled question whether ghosts could physically harm man whew plan watch tonight followed changeling aaww yeah films recommendbr br thanks,0 first saw showed around easter time think much then bought dvd last summer started getting michael jackson i liked music before enjoyed older good film classic film like sound music west side story wizard oz etc michael jackson actor good cast members disturbing scenes like little girl katie getting slapped gangster frankie lideo played joe pesci scene frightened younger michael turns robot favourite song film smooth criminal think better thriller opinion,0 want failed attempti dont necessarily want dead dont want keep pretending everything fine want blatantly clear family im anything okay finally start listen me tell mom problems time dont think understands bad are even though told im suicidal nothing changed cant another school year people thinking im perfectly functional cant nearly killed me id rather stuck psych ward keep pretending fine,1 ridley 0 i agree the shapeshifting is a copout i wa so excited for angela s ep i thought it wa this week noah wa awesome tho,0 Mmmm. I think that was my first beer in six months. Worth waiting for ,0 uim_very_cool cool epik love,0 need iti thought well enough want myself mostly ive depressive episode hadnt showered week barley ate anything didnt energy really think killing myself kept wondering anxious today realized overwhelming emotions caught me desperately wish dead theres nothing want dead dont want wake feel fucking selfish even think like people fighting lives killing would make feel guilty pain ive caused people want gone good,1 orange exist vid case also want mind fuck century httpsyoutubewxxwjprfyhttpsyoutubewxxwjprfy soo everyone elses monday,0 tired pitiful existence might kill soonthere place me im year old autistic trans or least gender questioning person know already makes people sympathy me know im disgusting broken human fucking mean id never wish anyone torture waking hating knowing cant really damn thing it end people change nature hating others fail show even slightest bit empathy towards gone through family religious stopped caring religion long time ago god fucking tyrant choice me ive never normal jealous people seem find life easy get things handed them even curing genderconfused thing theres way stop autistic supposedly prediposed lgbt ive suffered mental health problems trauma fitting inbullied entire life amount therapy make truly happy anyway whats damn point im autistic all everyone knows theyre equal fucking hate going lgbt support groups feeling butterflies stomach feeling accepted first time life taken away people want treat even subhuman fucking hate knowing ill probably commit redflag either way eventually even transitioning delay that bet post get reposted one transhating subs everyone agree waste life end right agree them tired bothered writing paragraph long post chest hurts crying much ive scared want hurt family whats lose now theyll hate anyway,1 doesn t seem like i m contributing enough to the world for my life to be so precious that i need to still be here i don t know how to do this but i have considered hanging myself or starting my car in a garage for the carbon monoxide my financial issue will never end my disability is chronic and it doesn t seem like there is a point in fighting any of this anymore,1 @Cineris can't pick just one. ,0 is phoneless now off too sleep,0 ":'( Policeman kills himself over loan, frustration at work #depression https://www.standardmedia.co.ke/article/2001278200/police-officer-commits-suicide-over-bank-loans … via @StandardKenya",1 ikimb0 i just seen ur tweet plz write bak if u get this i havnt got one reply bak,0 Depressed or Just Sad? 5 Signs of Depression - Many Words One Voice https://buff.ly/2vFM7jH ,1 im going disappear disastrous semester comes end bye bye good luck maybe ill back week really need focus school particular exam season have school rule fail single class once kick out one particular class its physicsrelated fluid dynamics difficult failed last year im worried failing it still confuses heck im scared failing again im going offline tn finals end whole life school fail class again would nothing else could would ashamed keep living want become sicidal vent ill end here anyways good luck exams study well take care drink lots hot lemon tea red bull p,0 "AAAHHHH SUCH HYPOCRISY. Please, gurl. Bakit mo dinadamay yang depression sa relation niyong dalawa? He treated you nicely, and you chose not to be with him. BECAUSE HE'S NOt YOUR TYPE, RIGHT?",1 @ R_Type its only a "slight" annoyance ,0 @drew_miller Did you forget you no longer live in Texas There is no 1. good bbq and 2. good steak.,0 drank soaphow much soap kill me,1 hate people,1 i would know if i had a brain damage injury anyersum or my brain is bleeding in the past like month ago my ex boyfriend would punch me in the head pull my hair one time he punched me really hard i had a bump and a extreme headache for day it went away i never went to get it checked because it went away something would have happened by then right if i wa bleeding or had something going on from then on i been stressed and i have headache everyday mainly at a certain time i been diagnosed with anxiety and panic disorder i just need reassurance im okay right i wa playing a game on my phone all of a sudden my head started feeling really tight and weird anyways the point is is the stress causing it he used to hit my head alot the last time wa like month ago but before that too other than the concussion i felt fine would i have blacked out if it wa bad enough to do damage i never did i been fine but i started having headache reccently maybe stress im fine right plz give me reasssurace answer this i would know if i had a brain bleed how long after a accident can ur brain bleed would i have known by now,1 Everybody looked at my feet last night. Yeezys stayed at home guys ,0 tend make best predictions games movies try imagine someone spoiling me see brain jumps first,0 think need sleep feel dumber usual think might showing posts,0 donei seriously want die like ive seen rest well ive tried hanging myself ive tried taking pills bring slut wrist im tired fucking life everyone around would seriously better off fucked family able control anger love life walked without word took son havent seen months missed nd birthday missed first science center visit im missing learn new words im this left stupid enough fuck someone else theres way im ever gonna family back top found potentially aspergers theres literally hope change way am ive wondered whole life ive way hitting once cant fucking handle shit anymore get job charges much social anxiety deal people im fucking worthless hopeless sorry poor grammar hard even type people know dont really care appreciate anyone whos gonna try help,1 life in sc i have been struggling financially for year and faced homelessness on and off i can t do this anymore i m not mentally or emotionally stable at all i fucked up by quitting my last job week ago because i wa committed to ending my life since i had to pay a 00 bill for accidentally causing damage in my apartment luckily my partner who life faraway helped me out and covered it for me for the longest my life been going downhill i have no family to turn to because i m distant from most of them including my own mother because they re toxic or they would never pick up the phone at all my older sister is the only one i talk with but not really at all i have no friend at all the only people i really have is my partner and my older sister sometimes and they ve been helping me through my situation i feel like a complete burden to them i temporarily lived at my cousin s house and experienced verbal physical abuse and destruction of my belonging from his wife then wa kicked out after a couple of month she kicked me out the house every other week because i wa short on my portion of the rent or out of pure pettiness i been homeless either out on the street park area or living in my car from time to time then i wa ultimately kicked out after she randomly decided she doesn t want to see me again even though i paid for my portion of the rent i did managed to get an apartment on short notice with the help of my partner but i had trouble paying for my bill i had different job and the pay wasn t good at all on top of that they were cutting my hour a lot i barely make it to paying my rent multiple time and i wa hit with a late fee every time i ve been attempting to kill myself many time because i m so tired and stressed out with this uphill battle nothing ever work out in my favor i can t do anything right at all i ve been going day without eating having water or electricity because i m way behind on bill and being broke barely have gas to get to the job i had i tried applying for different assistant program but i only get denied or never hear back from them same thing with applying for job online and in person either they re not hiring never called or i have to wait awhile i sold nude and foot pic before but i couldn t get client who s willing to pay i know some of my problem are because of my own irresponsibility i can never catch a break at all i just can t act get right no matter how hard i try i m always stuck,1 @Maryssfromparis can u take pictures of it and post it here? ,0 "funny to already see referrals from "Bing" in the logs. and no, they're not all MSFT peeps ",0 many reviews ive read reveals people tend like part one better part two feel exactly opposite part one played around bit much trying find different ways showing che guevaras personality different types film stock different locations cutting back forth interview cuban revolution part structured finely somewhat distracting part two che enters bolivia along changing geographical location rules structure changes gone spacial jumps switching stocks documentary realism treatises instead literally trapped che desaturated depopulated landscape people exist burdened far lives anything survival option posit dark turn ches life real reason people prefer part one part twobr br the change geographic location also signifies least che part one che part two are fact second two acts three act structure begun motorcycle diaries motorcycle diaries ches comingofage or appropriately comingofideals argentina che part one military leadership cuba che part two downfall bolivia movies completely illustrate life were missing experiences guatamala and importantly opinion postcuban revolution executions create detailed exploration controversial aspects character nature worldwide symbol symbolizes idealism need armed resistance oppression revolutionary failings postworld war ii third world countries hindering activities as um cias meddlingbr br but yet again projected onscreen case long scenes dialog speeches much intimate suffering portrayal che end thread life again rules changed case hard tell chance success all number times camera shows people literally trapped rock hard place desaturated shaky long takes involves audience narrative people imprisoned hostile landscape existential hell revolutionary beliefs ultimately end taking second tier desperation hunted people starving death easy movie watch effectivebr br polarisdib,0 short term memory loss vs examsby short term memory loss mean remember incidents years ago memory fuzzy details things happened minutes prior kind like i remember learned th grade remember learned hour ago since exams tomorrow failure inevitable clear state short term memory loss even able find job honestly give single fuck now get wrong highachieving student sophomore year highschool reality hit fan instead pretending yet another slave billion counting meat grinder called humanity want care existence let alone caring university exams graduation etc pretty sure end garbage called existence deal university exams graduation etc difficult part trying find painless easy method end it no need pity optimism its going better care anything getting better spewing religious beliefs imaginary gods soul life me tired majority humans religions delusions schizophrenic attitude towards existence optimism made want end first place guess what majority humans miserable sheep little piles secrets follow mass without question tired amount bullhit majority human come with way majority humans are would rather hit red button open way asteroid hit earth mark sudden mass extinction humansanimals plant species drink coffee watch world burn included no ive never lonely ive room ive felt suicidal never felt one person could enter room fix everything bothering me words loneliness something never bothered always terrible itch solitude quote ibsen the strongest men alone never thought well someone come room give fuckjob rub balls ill good no help know majority humans like wow going do sit there well yep theres nothing there bullhit delusion sadomasochistic attitudes towards existence hypocrisy thrown around outside majority humans mingling patting back delusional let stupidify themselves im get advice write im bored hit head wall stop thinking university exams graduation etc,1 feel like energy left able sleep properly feel burned tired timeevery day dread like nobody peoples life years could make proper friends tbh relate anyone work academic content writer job like robot feelings emotions nothing boss scolds say nothing feel guilty myself work almost drains mesometimes crave human contact one mei go outside see people good time whereas fucking loner would notice even someone tries talk know sayi self medicate loneliness using rn touching touch starved feel like piece shit even antidepressants work fix somone depressednot fucked individual like mei shame calling degenerate sometimes feel maybe god favor bring others down thank tired,1 chest different feeling would feel fire chaotic feels wrong like medical danger year old woman,1 I think vampires are playing baseball somewhere... ,0 @MyNameIsGaron Thanks for sharing Garon! Fellow anxiety/depression and effexor pal over here. You are awesome and it's huge step. You deserve to be content and fulfilled and loved (by yourself and others!),1 stuck life able snap im yo math student th grade studied last two years were months away really important exams im panicking ive lost hope literally anything huge struggle really want study make know could make lost time cant seem start days seem fly one else cares whats gonna happen advice help would appreciated tldr unable study need help,0 want rip facei hate face eyes stupid ugly gums smile disgustingly ugly smile huge gum cross eyed born like that makes look retarded reaaly serious claw eyes lol serious this eyes left one painlessly get rid it dont want look retarded more,1 just ended exaaams I'M TOTALLY FREE! Tomorrow with my JS ♥,0 im swear fuck im going senile lost litre bottle lucozade thats literally less metre face room hardly small enough lose needle in im actually fucking idiot swear god,0 mood right httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvkijpcuvbmampappdesktophttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvkijpcuvbmampappdesktop,0 Out to eat with the family ,0 ask questions shit life ive abused every way curious something topics ask away,0 abandoned againhi im years old broken with first time ive left girl before ive relationships every one leading girl cheating dumping after ive depression attempted redflag times past miserable years met new girlfriend fell head heels love immediately told id never without feel alone made vulnerable her stayed ex boyfriends house without telling told going bed instead told today afterwards told cant anymore confused feels im tired abandoned dad left born parents rarely even talk anymore feel like last days life cant stand live anymore edit recently started going therapy hope help deal demons decided would best deleted everything try pretend like never existed hopefully new strategy brings closer happiness again thank me im still sure whether want live im trying make progress,1 "@Isa_Buttercup I'm in the same boat! Am currenlty looking for flats, dread tellin the mother!! Good luck though, hope it goes well x",0 princess stories disney put there cinderella probably enduring appeal cant really say why reason generation generation thrusts top lists little girl wanted nothing cinderella glass slipper absolute favorite costumebr br honestly think story realizes longings human heart cinderella never wanted run away drudgeries daily life find someone sees one else ever had story older english language somehow still rings truebr br as characters nothing else disney make wonderful villain lady tremaine evil t wonderfully calculating overtly physical way cutting tongue eyes work her need staffs lightening strike fear heart animal friends tend grate especially idiotic gus would cheered met fate lucifers jaws cinderella pushover making justly catty remarks times however lacked drive make entirely sympathetic sure nice fed animals keeping place never know even became maid another house least getting paid shot respect seems reason things work end cindy everything sort falls place lap never works dreams sings fondly ofbr br which brings music lovely ever ilene woods lovely rich voice probably favorite disney heroine big standards originated here dream wish heart makes love bibbidi bobbidi boobr br cinderella wonderful heartfelt story ton musical highlights lacking character development provide classic villains excellent voice work feeling sick heart pop in itll warm make hum mmm mmm goodbr br quote filmbr br surprise surprise duh duh duh happy birthday,0 want try psychs like idk lol filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 diagnosed depression generalised redflag got older symptoms grew worse suffered numerous traumas bereavement parent via murder emotional abuse parent neglect rape seeing someone die right front me abandoned aged i highly traumatised events diagnosed mental disorders including complex redflag went small school children mental behavioural difficulties started college education beyond primary school age yrs old stopped educatedi still put maths english gcses despite lack education got c english f maths still know fuck thought mixed construction engineering course college months failing maths sad truth was picked course women boys department nobody else class maths acsi maths first year alongside level course failed second year my level course help kind teacher managed get c mathsduring actual course struggled hard non practical exams practical ones weak would never even held drill life tried hard learn would cry practical day tuesday teachers know full background obviously severely scarred body obvious self harm uncle next kin obvious easy would come hrs early spent summers working workshop learn more barely passed first year second year well rd year top classin second third year volunteered local charity shop every saturday helping general stocking shelves talking customers contributing helping private charity taking care abused dogs felt confident enough study particular niche type engineering university coursei dropped within months could cope different teachers much harder work different classemates development painful chronic pain conditionmy life spiralled running money ashamed go onto benefits attempted suicidei went onto benefits eventually finally diagnosed months going drs pain told take ibuprofen eventually moving different gp surgery referred specialist given painkillers years pip universal credit took years psychiatrist given kinds antidepressants antipsychotic actually told need therapy took years begging referred psychology service starting emdr next week waiting treatment waiting years pain clinic suggest course actionyet hate it judge around judge me burden society never worked actual job redflag spent years working bad sometimes cannot even leave house self harm started stopped years many medications many drs expressed concern diabetic think related untreated pcos spent years particular antipsychotic it still know type am even care anymore pay pre payment card mountain prescriptions feel guilty ashamed tick universal credit optioni hate life turned out sick anxious depressed traumatised change anything burden society,1 riding motorbike indian crowded street worst thing ever it dont today first time holy shit almost crashed times people come anywhere rules almost hit kid riding tricycle busy street part speedbraker broken people pass only matter narrow side is wonder hell dad without crashing anyone lot close calls everytime stress level instantly reaches see everyone bike car cycle tricycle cart coming towards you scared this,0 real g watch girl pay anything real gs like wait car frfr,0 welllllllllllllllpyo names josh suicidal fuck dunno maybe need say something think daily hourly like jesus need help haha get though dunno maybe im lazy something fucking hate myself enjoy life love friends family everything fucking hate me think im bad person like me hate world enjoy everything thats it interesting im interesting blah blah blah whiney stuff whiney stuff depression hate here love living hate here planet universe people love everyone around love make friends fucking hate people one wants thing anymore want never work towards it work towards it guess could say thats hate me ive bunched withwell everyone sit everyday hard wake up leave bed anything life get job love it never fucking go next day fucking hate cant help anyone tried always like know started bad backgroundi justfucking suck wanna sit car garage let ride yknow fall asleep tunes promised best friends kill myself cant promised them literally thing stopping me even promise time three us would kill ourselves literally jolt awake sat car long wanted to know wanted die day hard know is know im fucking talking anymore telling this whats fucking point im going fucking read anyways pointless joshua swarb,1 guys listen up httpswwwwattpadcomthetriopartthedangerearthholdshttpswwwwattpadcomthetriopartthedangerearthholds story wrote pls read it number charts pls get top cmon pls,0 know aloneim getting divorced im upset divorce love anymore im shattered hes life realize alone really am yeah ive made friends already people work get along really well started dating even though thats proper word it friends benefits would accurate breaks heart because yanno feel things way deeply fell love feel same thats completely different issue im still lonely im realizing need needed need it otherwise feel like im waste space sure people care want around gone would anyone lost without me would anyone cry sleep need see me touch me hold me cant no one would im convenient im person people go one else im everyones backup ones priority even like marriage realize time painfully clear know live like this know know im totally completely utterly alone know see value one else see it try occupy time spend time me go walks lunch shopping spend time work friends spend time guy im seeing one ever really me someone else significant other child friend really really need them there part knows drop them cant need help good friends right now ill take bad friends friends all look stupid throw help lines little hints that hey im okay need you go unnoticed make obvious someone finally takes bait open up feel like burden like wish id shut deal lives worry me whats fucking point here one needs me nothing going me fucking quit give up die not put torture living fucking great stressful empty im done im tired im broken im fucking done im done,1 reddit brotherinlaw threatening commit redflag following break up help himhis ex called worried him wondering short term make sure harm good interacting him appreciate responses,1 sobbing write post think extremely imminent danger probably super high priority even one person could help would mean world me never thought would post subreddit like this suicidal thoughts years keeps threatening culminate tonight one worst nights try keep reasons quick know even deserve complain born fairly okay situation middle class mostly okay family things like that sad well lots mental health issues least noticeably impact normal human function top family often calls useless way affect me already mid s niche associates degree accomplishment cannot find work even like cashier something still live home one wants me job certain family including mom sister ones call useless top off dog one things keeps time two threatening get rid almost money think able care anymore would anything care her matter get money need her small bit saved going still look work tonight picked knife thought it and cannot seem follow through wrong me cannot even end right posting all thoughts gotten stronger stronger years combo anti depressant therapy helping enough feel like something push edge losing dog sure would need help please cannot it,1 When you're fine and a bit more productive in school than you're at home. Why does a burnout and occasional depression get you before the end of semester?,1 "WSU researchers study effects of pot on depression, anxiety - HealthBeat http://upflow.co/l/8ZPG  pic.twitter.com/CAShmqMYMG",1 sometimes i feel like a footnote in everyone life and that if i disappeared one day that no one would notice,1 @whitro6060 happy birthday! ,0 i m not the same person and i didn t like the person i wa before that so it s not even considered a loss but now i just stopped caring i genuinely stopped caring and it make me want to hate myself but the thing is im too exhausted to even hate myself i just feel like nothing just an empty space where a human used to be i ve stopped caring and it scare me i know the final step is when you stop caring and im at this step i don t care to pursue my passion or talent because whats the point why live a live when i will be forgotten why wa i even made like why even bother trying what even is the point in living if i can t be bothered to try,1 @Irish1974 Its Bank Holiday here so day off ,0 I liked a @YouTube video http://youtu.be/TpfY8kh5lUw?a  Stories from the Great Depression,1 everyone leftsince two friends left college days ago downward spiral ive angry depressed angry depressed constant cycle currently anxiety attack type this th days ago another friend left college albeit much closer none said goodbye one left saturday even said shed stressed want another thing deal with know said much worse meant still felt worthless like another thing deal with know see way ill get that thats feel have since th numerous thoughts redflag more usual thoughts much vivid prolonged usual ive talked two left th several times since talked mean everything talking yelling getting really quite sorry today reconnected someone talked long time told im feeling specifically friend left saturday made feel well friend went told friend left thisshe messaged talking since friday i devastated talk her message shocked hurt would think care told consider point view ive tried really have seem bad told first time thought selfish really hit hard try selfish hate might be anyways message brought current anxiety attack im waiting reply message sent back trying explain andor apologize know kill myself strength it wanted type and selfishly get words encouragement anything really feel like im toxic friends left college every time say theyre something get depressed angry feels like nothing nobody nothing do everyone else everything please help meplease,1 existing annoyingim native english speaker sorry mistakes know feeling waiting something u anything do like dentists appointment wait hours annoying sickening headache thats life me every day wait death hoping come soon planning kill year started birthday brave enough and stopped recently friend tried strangle death tired living even helped him cant thing anything else write thank support,1 help please hey internet people turning eighteen midnight cant sleep dad expects move tomorrow ive got money cause trying focus college funds stuff do,0 @Jules685 You can come crash in my basement for the summer ,0 emotionally unavailable like i yeah want relationship could never one im simply afraid open jazz,0 anxiety worldcrumbling feelingive full anxiety last days contemplating last couple years life might bit lengthy apologize that well disjointedness im yearold guy issues related posting here one fact live home fouryear relationship college lived dorm first year lived girlfriends parents house another mom one drunk episodes threatened violence decided best move on traveled four hours moms house lived basement two years bit month ago broke up point im manchild ambitions energy want produce music example know im capable degree equipment expensive im afraid failure im trying find apartment currently im scared major life change like that ive souldraining cube job year half pays well easy enough think messed brain little bit first couple weeks college four years ago lots alcohol weed which always garnered borderline psychotic episodes ive thirdperson mode downer im always detached degree white film covers vision wikipedia calls derealization depersonalization course recent major event breakup girlfriend lots communication problems things built time got tired ins outs life thought maybe theres someone better me someone accepting introverted nature introversion annoyed came energy job hate regressing computer time numb mind brought doubts relationship lot happened quickly gone next night picked stuff within three days wreck night got text saying wanted talk despite much emotional one relationship acted respectful thoughtful long talk decided would weekly chats check other maybe year two assuming were available would try another relationship meantime lots honesty save chats complete separation would strive independence something neither us really had considering school parents started okcupid profile time move get leg rest life alright ive talking people somewhat met someone drunk fun time kissed end bubbly feelings around nowex lets call a chat saturday still really care her check facebook masochistically want head im curious fucking creepy weird cant help it ask dates time okcupid knowing shed made one dates ask main one attractive me says yes lot jarring couple reasons one always told attractive person knew meant sincerely type mates become whole world obviously devastated night broke up saying hated im bad previous fucked relationships also one reasons broke discussing polyamory long while adamantly testing waters seeing guys attractive totally ready feel compersion cant now always correct people say jealousy envy fear loss first time ive felt it horrible lot regret questioning badly fucked swirling around head one facebook posts last night had great date definitely seconddate material fear never loved again know one ridiculoussounding things whine about pretty pathetic realize whole time heal im averagelooking guy okc obviously great place people like that keep comparing easy get dates example taking antidepressants almost emotionless get feeling year two even interested anymore realizing im sack shit ive always without blinds limerence comfortable familiarity histocompatibility anyway thats im now im big clusterfuck stupid emotions detachment afraid change afraid alone read time life find recluse stop making friends im already introverted im afraid anxiety ive plagued becoming unending source isolated agony im unhappy whats worse im rationally hedonist atheist believe afterlife im apathetic detached im hedonist without happiness im sort shell without purpose right stop existing die logically yeah think eventually ill move on wants date someone unsure mediocre baggage promises get back ex like year ill get live shitty apartment eating shitty food cant cook even less time creative pursuits ill take care myself people say youre special think loved ones would mourn you threads ive told specialness countless times grade school generally think people suck family friends would mourn deal anything theyd get themselves im sure im posting here guess,1 okay so bazinga moment,0 say hit rock bottom rock bottom keeps getting worseeverytime start feeling happier little bit crash burn like decomissioned satellite reentering atmosphere useless forgotten usually worse every time rock bottom gets worse time cant good moods last two fucking days,1 guys think fat shaming curious see people actually think fat shaming good thing filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 first time considering long time seriouslyi even know start depressed ive maybe ever week now getting months crying time debt shitty job cant catch up cat really sick cant afford vet bills car needs work living government supported apartment feel worthless low self esteem feel eating disorder come back missed wisdom tooth appointment constantly nauseous uncomfortable able sleep months sleeping pills much want take slip away want make sure someone take care cat me feel hopeless giving up even scheduled emergency therapy appointment therapist available person got scheduled told need accept cat might live long told insecurity going drive boyfriend away giving up,1 every thought is a battle every breath is a war and i don t think i m winning anymore depression depressed http t co v m af,1 death chariotdeath chariot whose horse reign asunder life fleeting lightning thunder death temptation give abyss tears shed missed death jester laughs cry reaching trivial lust die death summary fear cry me sweetheart shed tear,1 whats pointevery irl friend ever made stopped talking slowly except one dog thing could consistently make happy died months ago recently drop school keep due mix depression anxiety recently diagnosed adhd parents stopped supporting financially way meds even covered health care stop going psychologist cant afford go anymore friends roommates next year said want live them im gonna find somewhere live own enjoy anything anymore friend left confidence make friends easily always sad night alone own want peaceful nothingness death tried before something stopped me think friend roommate april want one find dead whats point working job enjoy struggle pay life even want live,1 tired feel like disappointment everyone life moved countries months covid everything different sit room crying eating hate internet rn everyone put awareness something one fucking cares lost alone want die want die miss feeling alive skin feel like mine lost sense self want die badly everything ruined me cannot even enjoy game like someone spoiled place look like mess ashamed go eat takeaway grocery shopping nothing feels anymore i put misery,1 "@talindab the real housewives finale is 2nite, teresa is gonna give it to danielle like she deserves it .. u better be watchin ",0 want disappeari want disappear one remember me dont want death interfere anyones lives dont know would first place im giving friend responds respond im still feeling like absolute shit im taking pills hoping one cares,1 is full of barbecue and reeks of backyard campfire. ,0 they usually make me zzzz but not today,0 coincidence think not crossover ig credits umov ufreaky_crossing_fan ampxb httpspreviewredditgyojorpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsfafefcbfdbebc,0 "stuff and jonas brothers on it so i had to buy it, but then i thought well i need my annual teen vogue too so i resorted to both but then",0 lost hate studdied carreer interests goalslately thought lot past dreamt sister little again huged lot woke feeling good middle night lately thought existing anymore since little knowing someone commited redflag hurted lot felt really bad people think becouse knew thats im leaving too sleeping lot hours daily feel exhausted go swimming pushed keep going kinda hate going nothing interests me feel need grow up,1 @msunurse08 I'm new to twitter! this is courtney walker by the way I can't upload a photo!,0 I pray that today you learn to combat the enemy's mental attacks with the promises of God. I declare that anyone struggling with depression or anxiety speak the word of God over their lives and that these things be cast out in Jesus name.There is peace and comfort in His word,1 im trying to make a chicken soup like my mother but without a recipe this will be interesting and i cant find matzah,0 drunkamplonelystill alive now happy new years everybody,1 there s an inch of snow on the ground and counting i m worried about the poor flower,0 relaxing after a hard shopping day ,0 mizzzidc lmaooo this one is mad and doesn t have anyone to tell her the way we form wokeness sef is making everything clownish talking about depression lolz please whatever is disturbing you go way deeper than the shoe and the vent of a private convo is rather unnecessary shm,1 caddyshack dreadful reputation due fact sequel highlyheld classic people criticised film lot grounds ultimately hark back fact caddyshackbr br i would begin saying take caddyshack equation consider film merits think would unfair movie lot common predecessor classrelated themes snobs versus slobs desire fit class prevalent first movie two things truly lacking bill murray rodney dangerfield replaced dan ackroyd jackie mason respectivelybr br now try argue ackroyd comes close murray movie jackie mason admirable successor dangerfield comes cross dangerfield arnold stang without biting heavily either say anywhere close funny dangerfield caddyshack whole lot point character dilemma filmbr br chevy chase pops handful times movie another common complaint maybe particular naysayers notice popped times first movie money scenes lot funnier somewhat overdirectedbr br while im subject really overdirection movie brings down comes across far selfconscious attempts get laugh many jokes laboured theres far much gopher seems taken far anthropomorphic personality voice case grasp idea meant funnybr br characters similarly hammered home particularly smarmy yuppy kids jackie mason rarely misses beat consistently likable funny need tango sequence all director clearly school thought harold ramis suggest caddyshack subtle jokes little overcooked unnecessarily embellished quirky music cuebr br all things considered fun goofy movie something say class identity movies time saying put appallingly low rating imdb check yourself,0 two day ago i made a comment to my sil i had forgotten some thing that had happened that week and what i said came across a completely insensitive and thoughtless i have since apologised and they have accepted my apology but there hasn t been minute in the following day where i haven t thought about what i said and what a mistake it wa i feel sick i can barely sleep and the panic attack are every min where i can t breathe and just feel like i m drowning i have doubled my dose of sertraline because i simply can not let go of what i ve said this in turn ha increased the side effect of the sertraline anxiety suck i just want to turn my brain off,1 realise lost someone good you things them gone react,0 existence earth wont last much longer im happymy brother secretly got gun without parents knowing told tells everything parents shouldnt know know puts access die quick easy death,1 posting everyday get girlfriend day bananas berries cherries,0 help make safety planso many friends last time felt worst ever really close ending things texted best friend time come over turned tired test next day managed fall asleep night knows how felt less awful morning knows why learned cant rely anyone me next time felt bad since then yet ive also started unable sleep feel bad way back,1 think ive relapsing sure need help definitely need ventthis rant trigger warning anyone extremely vulnerable right now read this ampxb little else turn time longer time see psychologist medications never worked first place ive five years now theres friend around handle well family already enough checking hospital option projects cannot miss would send debt regardlesswhich course would make things worse cant tell relapse depression depression pause couple months couple days really cant remember memory always returning fading lately ebbing receding slog cant seem keep track anymore years seemed like mood swings changed seasons deteriorated months weeks days every morningevery moment random roll dice recognize feelings anymore think navigatedthe anxiety depression paranoia fear sorrow rage loneliness etc wake next morning im back square one whats hilarious im couchlocked bedridden cut everybody yeah perhaps slightly difficult get bed mornings still ride bike still go gym four times week still practice yoga daily attend parties socialize eat healthy obsessively maintain creative hobbies get work time yet miss class semester grades still as bs debt major legal problems children addictions drink weekends touched cannabis year and even rare occurrence due panic attacks touched drugs several yearsprescribed otherwise complaining every day want fucking end already walk mountains forest maybe onto coast somewhereill lie earth let nature take back everything dissolve back dust came continue sustenance things deserve it every evening look mirror see disheveled man staring back grey beginning spring facial hair receding hairline blue eyes slowly losing spark life laugh fucking ass off lift shirt hey abs still there muscles cant stop checking still visible im fat thank god im fat hands still dexterous enough draw paint write crooked spine hips shoulders scream chronic agony mind rages like hurricane despite best efforts eternally fixated wrong world everything wrong myself every reason idespite best painstaking effortshave utterly incapable fixing both fucking life cant ridiculous hype about doesnt feel great alive hahahahahaha like im trapped movie foreseeable happy ending keep barely scraping past psychosis everyone else around drudges mindnumbing shit dayin dayout try distract get pissed point obvious finally get crack admit sit back horror realize reality may closer real deal hoped laugh well stable friend year plan explains hopes deal overwhelming fact we fucked decades drink edge alcohol poisoning game pool laugh sit floor hacking bile cant think romantic way end missionary wanderluster college wannabe artist lying next bed blood vomit gasping breath yet laughing brings back vitality suddenly im good go again fucking perfect cant tell im still sometimes quite honest im beginning wonder downhill here delirium insane lately end intelligence slowly dissipates return random times basic math gone writing skills bye bye science learned failed major history organization next chopping block incoherent babble nonsense spewing onto keyboard recall watching friend diagnosed bipolar disorder gradually slipping cognizance senile old manbut also bright begin with yet mom experienced similar deterioration took year onset devolved shooting caliber slug skull idiot ran business loving marriage took care three children perfect house perfect neighborhood socialized everyone doctors psychologists also figure hell happened her whatever malignant shit is obviously blood ive come terms that one else has also hoping works out maybe get degree meet awesome girl fall love move pnw start anew overly strange guarded tendencies suddenly subside ill find way career love finally get pieces gallery achieved within next couple decades course ive seen northernmost parts world yes fucking eyes anyone billionaire likely screwed maybe ill drive ruby beach spring string watching sunset know do honestly seem way current situation death aside end finding kind internal misery end daunting struggle okay maybe chance scenario previously mentioned basically everything im aiming right now fails know unfortunately im past middle s according psychologists likely stuck with terrifies beyond words perhaps insanity mental degradation escape regard though terrifying acid trips years ago taught anythingi shit show ifwhen mind slips completely frank im tired want storm inside end no im talking jungian order vs chaos bullshit ive nature enough see chaos disrupted order stated before simply wish rest head grass bark old tree let last breath let earth devour me least month meditation mountains still keep breathing nervous system craves dissolution consciousness sex lights ecstasy whenever lucid enough think it entertains unparalleled dreams beautiful places exist moments actually fall asleep tell me this escape to thats obviously bullshit escape disintegration nothingness enticements nonetheless apparently nothing makes serotonin flow like suicidal euphoria keeps alive hope new experiences artistic endeavors getting fucking degree finally familyespecially family seeing struggles one suicide already infuriating know hell would willingly putting decide end own last thing give throw abyss im scared want believe keep alive,1 im moments away killing myselfidk say anymore dont even want explain issues im done dont want continue live shitty world nobody cares all nobody cares anything goodbye,1 omgoodness FINALLY back from dinner with the fam bam! ,0 know fight back morei sorry internet know take longer diagnosed depression year episodes before medicated lately things good fall back old patterns skip work days row think might fired good reason tired trying pick up day every day pretending everything fine back mind thought ending all sorry dumping anonymous reader want significant anymore deserves better issues wish best ps sorry bad reading english native language,1 so my wife ha clinical depression she wa diagnosed two year ago and ha actively been taking medication i won t lie it get hard sometimes but i m trying to understand this more and more so that i can maintain my own stability and mental health while helping her when i can anyhow so from an outsider s point of view sometimes it feel like my wife experienced something or doe something and then the depression symptom happen sometimes they boil over and sometimes you go back into therapy to help when i ask she say nothing specifically happened she just doesn t feel good is this common can yo help understand how some of you experience an onset of symptom tl dr trying to understand to be there for my wife,1 "nice weekend, saturday we played capoeira de angola @ the Malcom X festival in atlanta....nothing like hot weather and capoeira peace all",0 im trying get serious bodybuilding need help im weigh lbs ive working year routine works without proper diet cant get changes want diet recommendations would greatly appreciated,0 depression sets in,1 international movies never fail disappoint watched spanish one called rec im nd now great,0 wwhy people mean youre sensitive shut fatty n stuff dont people like me people rude mean dont understand im crying sick wanna relax yet people mean,0 im epitome stupidityive verge tears today last two classes im stupid hurts im close getting kicked science class im falling way behind math school supposed chance start better getting ds fs throughout middle school dropping years science teacher obviously frustrated feel like crying every time step class hes type moved struggles either get work im smart means feel embarrassed tell everyone ashamed embarrassed meand friend goes easy everything feel horrible perpetual urge crawl hole never come out ive turning many blank hardly done assignments past weeks school session totally humiliatingand im shy ask help feel like burden annoyance get something wrong understand anything cant help cry even embarrassing speaking friendswell one online offline even starting fall group friends starting neglect mewhen say something shell look look awaymaybe im uninteresting ive wanting go mall school busy friends weektoday went library play dampd friend group invited me know play dampd go felt embarrassed itso maybe doing feel like im destined greatnessi friends intelligence confidence social skills job worthy skills family love methanks gaynessi nothing wish anymore im nothing think im meant anything steaming pile garbage mention like entire life story long difficult even begin discussing,1 Deker thinks this site is stupid... i don't care. and he's still a sweetie ,0 Is going to the mother wiff elise and samantha today. ,0 thinking killing myselfim thinking killing tonight theres one reason why yeah sure else do reason im posting know else tell,1 Tommorow iPhone OS 3.0 software ,0 hate lifeive struggled depression long time nights ago first time ive ever seriously considered killing im scared since think about life meaningless basically hate end suffering animals me ive thinking receiving help much anxiety go forward it im scared mom tell dont need help im depressed like sister went help anxiety depression everyday battle im slowly losing used smoke weed escape lately ive bad get massive anxiety attacks im high looks like escape death,1 excellent film great performances zack lochley much displeasure mine garibaldi arrived station all due respect jerry doyle seasons lost sympathy character take long start criticizing zack who love best showand taking charge im sure zack could coped soulhunter plot fascinating especially believe heaven zack does humour supplements nicely ,0 sort film used get weekly nowadays rare see drama depends cast talking otherbr br there explosions car chases chasesthere implied sexual situationsthis film younger crowd appreciate people talking otherthey argue lot married couple mid life problemsbr br emily watson tom wilkinson seemingly happy middle aged loving man wife living small london suburb handsome rupert everett returns home visit wealthy fatherbr br he course meets emily watson would easy anyone smitten emily say more except credits begin fatal accidentthe rest film repercussions accident lies various characters tellbr br the acting trio others excellentbr br julien fellows wrote screenplay based novel nigel balchin also directed first directorial attempt well entire production first ratebr br the film month theatrical run late theatres shame stupid comedies open least screens real good drams many others open fewbr br by way funny lines regarding certain situationsbr br ratings out points out imdb out ,0 "How To Heal Anxiety, Depression and Fibromyalgia Naturally: http://youtu.be/AWW6ZQOTyMI?a  via @YouTube",1 "It's no wonder people have anxiety and depression when you get a disability. The insurance companies, FMLA companies and the doctors are enough for anyone to be anxious. Form after form and then the... https://www.facebook.com/CreativEdgePhotoandDesign/posts/1673684982707700 …",1 seems easyim drunk im tired im sad im tired sad easy cut open shoulder trying satisfy myself wouldnt easy slice wrists open bleed without anyone ever knowing people keep telling itd selfish killed would cause pain selfish want stick around feel pain them,1 finishing the COLLAB !! ,0 alone barhey guys im chilling bar myself keep swiping phone contacts seeing sparse list presented one contact feel bit alone moment keep wondering things turned like this alone scared interact people gambler probably would turn alcoholic actually tried hate right now sense wonder karmic punishment something did cursed boredom isolation love family holy shit want get life ive tried commit redflag times pills stabbing etc nothing works like im stuck dunno im scared die want get shit show with,1 constantly feeling stressed suicidal anxietyridden ive enough someone fucking stop thisso probably going turn wall text ill try keep short sweet guess started year ago first panic attack horrible ive never really recover ive constantly downwards spiral anxiety constant throughout day time never truly giving break sometimes manageable im room daytime anywhere else fucking painful cancer even things like movies themeparks make want cry puke anxiety sometimes get lucky get couple minutes burst endorphins quick put anxiety background everything difficult now anxiety caused worse worse mental health memory focus completely shot cant sleep night typing am cant even get sleep unless theres sunlight coming in causing vicious cycle sleeping am pm ive tried much get back normal body simply cooperate go bed pm ill wake hour later sweat bursting energy cant use exhausting it want normal sleeping pattern pm am appetite control im hungry day starving night hate fucking much past six months selfharm suicidal thoughts becoming worse day bombarded thoughts hanging myself throwing stairs chocking out sometimes close eyes see grotesque image its becoming frequent friends im going insane that parents completely emotionally unavailable useless every time bring up get stepped ignored constantly keeping leash refusing let house decree even single fucking friend hell fucking teenager friend hell could stupid jesus fucking christ grace found job get house parttime theres nobody around help causing many problems every day feels exhausting terrifying nothing feels real anymore emotions thoughts clashing like waves brain fucking stop mean im woozy faintish whenever stand up motivation game write anymore used love everything hurts now honestly want die get hell with want rest want everything stop im fucking honestly helpless far gone know would even want live got better worst year fucking life hopefully last,1 Is remembering how awesome service was yesterday ,0 quelle est la raison de votre d pression et pourquoi le etude,1 virtual hug checkpoint please stop scrolling sends virtual hug ok thanks stopping by may keep scrolling now,0 mitras wishes hug gt_gt case need feel like know mitras wants happy unless trying murder innocents,0 need stop posting death grips shoutouts ujapanesedenim_ nothing theyre coolest mf block shoutout u,0 asked crush out today told crush also friend feeling told loves friend tbh feel bad fell great feelings change mean break friendship always friend great one fellow teens want say that crush likes friend way do break bond feelings understand cherish friendship rather breaking ps also love one go ahead tell might get another chance would late life big live every moment fullest ,0 night might really final nightim going honest ive wanted die long time sometimes felt really bad sometimes bad right now feel like really alternative thing drink family expense like years now perspective drive friends got nothing im thinking either driving car train station decapitation train going forest short drop suspension prefer train next one comes hours,1 guys im straight wait im ,0 feel trapped inside mindyo sometimes hear voices head encourage harm others sometimes even feel like killing someone im pacifist try even voice opinion chance hurt someone try best resist voices head feel much guilt past actions hurt many feel guilty always quiet person would say anxiety never let stop things make anxious like public speaking meeting new people etc bipolar tendencies ive never let anyone know dont want attention dont want anyone know never want say ive bad life things could much worse lot experiences dont want long read feel awful past actions ive mature earlier life dont blame anyone feel want love everyone life show much love have thinking ending all makes feel awful dont want anyone think fault would really like talk blade ready finally decide need dont feel need intervene im rational guy for part,1 so four year ago i met this guy online we hung out quite a bit from october 0 until may 0 9 we hung out almost every single day so in a nutshell he had a problem with drug and mental health issue and went to jail in june 0 9 he ended up being sentenced to three year in a mental hospital from online court record i knew he wa getting released this month about two week ago i looked at his facebook and he had like 0 more friend than the last time i looked i also noticed he had commented on someone s status anyway he posted his new number on there a couple day ago i thought about texting him but i don t know if i should i would really like to see him again but my sister is telling me to stay away from him i m not friend with him on facebook i only knew the guy for a year so maybe he won t even remember me what do you think,1 "@_Cube_ Rebecca is not being ignored, she is making me some desert ",0 almost mindset one hand wouldnt ever wish thought treated horrid way corrected best can kind person forgive forget hard real hard decide do thats im today people reddit realize isnt pressing serious dramatic post here stick hand hopes give guidance past experience wisdom advice try question there confession go along without regret,0 u call bee produces milk boobiees hahaaa,0 's hair is so soft today. ,0 fuck im horny again cuts pp ok fine now,0 cant work want dieim finished high school year free year start college work that would lame would home nothing year so borderline personality disorder case already work scariest thing ever im level im getting panic attack whenever want apply job want think could year actually found job weeks ago worked single day felt bad bored tried kill hospital last week and thats kinda fired obvious reasons im meds im therapy nothing helps this need job cant social anxiety high cant even walk street anymore plus panic thing mentioned before today wanted ask lady bookstore job opportunity bookstore sounds calm thought could work me door felt panicked anxious turned back come home immediately first time this im scared want work to way redflag want make hospital gotta sure real time,1 anyone wanna chat im male abit bored im good talking might find awkward,0 exceptional film part comedy part drama part suspense dialog exquisite actors actresses famous time good reason probably recognize someone even usually watch older movies also role particularly suits talents br br one correction make another users comment two people one announced die accident maybe unlucky two reflection writer considers important life movie engaging worry happensbr br the story ahead time lose quality older movie time effort spent perfecting cameras view soundtrack something modern movie makers tend forget,0 jfc im terrible personi openly try make friends hate me try piss off try make get annoyed me try make seem like im undermining much more want hate me get arguments disagreements much possible whenever subject happy wholesome try bring back down im tired feel bad them people damn near consider family god want hate me want punish making everyone hate me want see terrible person am try push away try make look different light want aware dangerous am like wild animal caged in think deserve it deserve mistreatment deserve hatred want die knowing one would miss me theyd hate much even care died dont want miss see die amazing person friend neither those want hate much wouldnt care suddenly passed away want die hated want die alone want die thinking shit didnt deserve life first place shouldve never born dont want cause pain im tired nowadays im happy want forgotten death seems like good option ill die wont worry anymore friends wont worry arguments supposed hatred towards them dont hate them wont think next victim be theyll better without me,1 know relief feeling alive feelsorry redflag note sub rules actually advocating redflag,1 id like kill nowstanding balcony trying pluck courage it,1 so whole bunch things happening days trying talk issue couple friends though one friends understands coming from not told bunch stuff friends think need work on acknowledged wrong said feelings valid apologized even said going change put everything there asked one friends would change said needed think it fine whatever told friend could handle conversation needed think even went far talking feelings mattered learned someone really cared decided drop blue knew talking while trying think way talk person without making upset want anything me makes want around anymore heartbroken,1 im tired maintaining image functional personim close leaving this cant go family tell otherwise last time did blamed anxiety amp ocd theyre dysfunctional anyway im sick one keeps control them im one keeps tearing eachother apart regular basis im supposed take vent stress me still feel guilty rightfully annoyed keeping till am squabbling everything gets worse christmas worth nothing stupid think maybe would somehow see bad doing least try give break uni holidays fuck trying happy least minutes guess theres ocd completely controls life plan every single thing around it psoriasis tmj stress able relax years sometimes worry become impossible im afraid everything im angry everything want everything stop want life sropi want leave want leave want leave want die want die want die want die want die want die,1 pola x beautiful adaption herman melvilles pierre or ambiguities comments surprise me makes wonder led overwhelmingly negative reaction br br the shock value least appealing thing film minor detail blown proportion story pierres downfall subsequent destruction around overtly demonstrated features demeanour idiolect dialogue soundtrack set film apart seen turn fundamentally traditional storyline controversial twists unforgettably emotional epicbr br i cant stress enough importance disregarding everything heard film watching did open mind will hope rewarded way was felt edge nervous around halfhour mark however film far scary traditional sense leave thoughts troublesome thrilling know im gushing here feel need make negative perception film best ive seen year,0 getting better from depression demand a lifelong commitment i ve made that commitment for my life s sake and for the sake of those who love me,1 onlinemigration me too although im still going hehe,0 @mileycyrus it would be very nice and important for me when your answer my question (backroundsinger) ,0 favorite part chex mix it,0 "If you don't think your anxiety, depression, sadness and stress impact your physical health, think again pic.twitter.com/OeBRRYGZvM",1 tonights nightcba type anything done all finally got motivation it cheers anyone ever reached out,1 throughout past years stuck rock bottom facing biggest depressive episodes ever deal with recently somehow overcame together started putting life back togetherthat nice good haunting question got years ago creeping back up point wish overly successful life gather achievements want happy happiness never lastsi see reason struggle adversities life nothing gain so fact effort involved probably would get farther away happinessi wish could enjoy world live normal life deep know simply meant be slowly pushing away everyone support network nothing want help myselfi tried everything suicide always ultimate answer afterall never wanted anyway tired pretending do guys cannot see way,1 hii therapy sessions now decided go mild depression hard time accepting gay sense think wrong want feel different days ago finally decided come therapist people come to still really hard me first minutes could even talk therapist went immediately trying explain gay linking problems mom thinking loud might seem look comfort women mom emotionally available went ask would know gay since dated neither men women ending telling problem gay people hate people say come out like okay kind expected actually questioning actually feel way low point said everything afraid people say come them feel like broke trust worst way could gone,1 im perfect try make days better mine cause worth perfectim perfect try make days better mine cause worth perfect,1 Buhahaha. Time to massive follow furries ,0 m sexual assaulted im guy im comparing happened rape years ago bus way home college bus kind full stand woman kept rubbing butt dick every time tried back away would get closer every bump would inch even closerid never felt uncomfortable life bus full point stand close me ps im comparing women know they unfortunately much worse do,0 "at dinner room with my new "family". lucia (my new sis) is coming to the dinner actually, she's here!",0 nothis it love care someone completely uses you given everything intohim cant give anymore ropelooks much kind,1 changed the color of the rubber on my braces today (idk what to call them). furrpool ,0 im bored also thinking friday night mean brag got date crush b,0 Goodnight Twitland! ,0 ever okay opinion done lifei extremely rare condition means completely normal yet unable smile curse particularly cruel one carry mom took drugs pregnant struggled working hour shifts days week going dad one point gf lost baby born current gf driving pit dispair feel point never actually known happy happy hurt moment ive burned stabbed cut spit on stamped hurt every way imagine kept going every day till point feel longer go on enough enough calling day earth right option,1 know sayfirst time reddit poster little background me tried commit redflag twice beforehanging alcohol currently fluoxetine wanted run ideas guysgirls keep fighting every good day always alittle part brains wonders redflag start make sense again one thing always stuck me failed attempt biologically unable feel happiness fight hard feel something never met feel give in secondly hard mean finally committing act brain basically cannot feel happiness anymore still clings life strange reason always found interesting,1 comedy based national stereotypes doubt leave away pretending know care communism real russians brits are accept hurt conventions fun film nicole kidman best sexy moving funny ben chaplin succeeds avoid completely outshadowed nicole rest cast good work well final moving logical movie logics course worth watching accept rules game,0 wahh no csi anywhere dvr ed i love money though gon na watch it then sleep goodnight tweeter lt,0 michael kallio gives strong convincing performance eric seaver troubled young man horribly mistreated little boy monstrous abusive alcoholic stepfather barry a genuinely frightening portrayal gunnar hansen eric compassionate fianc sweetly played lovely tracee newberry job transcribing autopsy reports local morgue haunted bleak past egged bald beaming jack demon a truly creepy michael robert brandon sent edge recent death mother eric goes deep end embarks brutal killing spree capably directed kallio who also wrote tight astute script uniformly fine acting sound noname cast jeff steiger especially good erics wannabe helpful guardian angel michael rather rough overall polished cinematography george lieber believable truetolife characters jolting outbursts raw shocking unflinchingly ferocious violence moody spooky score dan kolton uncompromisingly downbeat ending grungy detroit michigan locations grimly serious tone taut gripping narrative stays steady track throughout extremely potent gritty psychological horror thriller makes often absorbing disturbing viewing real sleeper,0 fall down ,0 know user m threatening redflag uk basedhi everyone id like advice user ive talking account think risk redflag weve talking weeks responded post mental health board feeling uselessa bad person wanting end life talked long time trying unearth reason feels way basically bad physical illness feels responsible able recover like hes let whole family down waste good brother etc says friend everyone else school hates talk shit everyone gets tired end incredibly pessimistic outlook life general despite saying cares others seem particularly friendly respectful others ive trying best supportive helpful hes shot every one attempts optimisms trying find feels way says hes cnt want anything change way people better situation puts words mouth like im making pissed now see proof im shit person die ive trying really hard even want talk anymore but even say anything like difficult lashing hell use reasons hes bad personshould kill himself really know handle anymore said couple days ago hes planning kill thursday nothing try say makes difference anymore does feel it suffer severe mental health issues helping me wondering theres way contact reddit get help him could call ukbased number like samaritans know full name phone number anything username anyone wants try offering personal support take load me pm anyone suggestions support would much appreciated,1 im worthless deserve liveim stupid fuck cant anything right never escape prison depression,1 point afraid living dyingi year old male complete failure made really regretful choices choices affected anyones elses life own replay everyday done instead try tell made choices severe depression anxiety suffering last plus years lately within past month dwelling even little memories felt made wrong decision reacted people wrong manner moments replay head utter complete hell little background therapist since forced therapy sexually molested family member years old hated going therapist refused tell happened instead played chess would talk mom eventually gave forcing go hated time therapist think refuse go now mom left society week ago due mental health issues begged go get professional help refused continue refuse point hope gone nothing left salvage good person friends due isolating myself eventually people give you repeatedly ignore them single date five years virginity still intact close five siblings know extremely affected days feeling less depressed usual fantasize married kids quickly come back reality someone pass genes offspring thing hurts much seven years ago place could gotten married younger plan life would grown up dreamed life surrounded family created none going happen painful type this wish emotional person typing get help pity random internet strangers hoping might gain clarity reading back apologize none makes sense complete ramble session going go back edit,1 eventually actually get betterbelieve dont believe me best try find yourself,1 im doneill wait month things get better ill try even harder time ill overdose insuline im tired life give,1 long battlethe battle began many years ago started small began grow distractions like work could slow sadness inside wanting go added responsibility even added family itll get better told himself put concerns upon shelf one day shelf came crashing down longer could stop frown felt could drown stay begged pleaded begged set rebuild silly shelf pieces scattered floor items piled larger before,1 miss dog so dog together long time great memories him mom step dad getting divorce step dad cheated mom got hiv so got divorced step dad took dog started losing money got fired job so step dad put dog shelter even try give dog back me called dog shelters area 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Looks like spring is here ,0 penelopek that mini depression that hit you a week before your period woman go thru alot pls,1 getting worsei used hit head really hard got headaches blurry vision fantasize cutting today threw tantrum scratched arms nails really old best friend dead told rapist fault his wish rapist dead wish new girl friend told rape matter dead happiness makes miserable want kill myself die fault want gone badly hate skin want body back body broken me cant sex without panic attacks cant get aroused easily cant orgasm anymore since started abusing me supportive friends wish dead badly cant keep anymore know im probably going start cutting know thats going lead worse things ive tried get counseling help many times work always tell im depressed refer someone else constant support arms burning much,1 i started this job five month ago and i wa really anxious starting it it my first job and now i am pretty comfortable there my bos and manager really like me and have asked me to be a manager this is exciting and everything but the change horrifies me my schedule is changing and i really like my current schedule and loosing that feel like i am loosing everything the thing that scare me the most is they said i would need training at another location for 0 hour one week being part time this feel like i am loosing all my own time i am scared of the responsibility and feel like i shouldn t have taken the job,1 right timeif survive people life disown ive tried times before said cant handle drama think day trying im coward im scared ill fail alone life im done long even remember happiness even feels like,1 sometimes seems nobody caresis me seem like people used give shit understand everyones got lives live whatnot get people regard suicidal thoughts depression indifference temperature room way almost worse people care hear bullshit like just cheerful youre happy decide be like people choose depressed think switch flip off theyre ignorant hard actually trying hey lay bed day hating myself give credit know hospitalized decade ago i got accident make attempt life nurses told prayer list forty people more made feel good people happy still existed know people care me feels indescribably lonely sometimes like way people take seriously something yourself never far tell never will sucks thoughts swimming head one giving shit,1 need helpim depressed anxious among many things im female single many friends hard time seeing postives stuff feel pretty numb tonight please keep mind sensitive person replies harsh really hurt me,1 prithee careful want see mwork squandered,0 merry christmas everyone guys epic,0 summon utheholysheep next hrs reply comment whatever tell say dms dm message ill reply it sub,0 depressed life everytime seem get somewhere happy mind forces become depressed again back comfort zone reading depression swells brain years something possible depressed beyond return wants life anymore long waiting die contemplating suicide trail destruction would leave behind partner parents siblings ect something cannot do want disperse depression among tried best help me depressed beyond point return,1 @Niki7a The only way to kill Medusa is with an image of Priest in a bikini... and now I can't get the image out of my mind. 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act happy want mom worrying killing anymore forced anti depressants feel worse dont talk boyfriend see struggles himself also feel like people care superficially im always begging people including parents care act like care beneficial them like around people raped ever since felt like nothing body mine ive thrown away sex terrible guys thought would make feel something instead opposite hate much hurt burns much hurt happy im fun best friend boyfriend even feel insecure time many reasons used like im always sad makes panic im myself wish could crawl skin dont know go on ive tried get help one without judgement world,1 i ll have all the equipment by thursday i ve worked out how much rent to send my flatmate to cover a couple month i m getting rid of my clothes by the end of the week i ve written some letter and am going to print out a sheet of my important detail i m dreading it so much but i also can t wait time feel so slow and agonising and every time i fall asleep i think what a waste it is to be unconscious and not die in that comfort i don t feel like anyone will miss me but the hard part is i don t want anyone to have to deal with any admin i don t want anyone to have to plan anything it ll be good to go but i hate the fact that someone will have to clean after me i wish i could just disappear instead life is really hard and i don t know how people do it i never understood how people make friend or fall in love or make other people like them i watch people learn to hate me and i don t know what i m doing wrong or how to stop it i ve been alone for my life even my parent didn t want me and i ll be alone for the rest of it if i stay alive i wish i had something good to offer that people liked but i don t know what anyone want or how to give it to them i don t know what they hate either apparently because i m giving them that without even realising,1 whats pointwhats point life like this take pills every day see doctors time normal exhausting pushing towards 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This is a whole new action pack made by me with 5 plugins http://bit.ly/McXCm,0 my anxiety affect my life but it s not debilitating for me like it is for others i get panic attack very rarely my brain is never quiet though it s always going and cycling around thought even when i m trying to let them go i see my dog and feel happy then my brain immediately say what if he died though and it show me what that would look like stupid thing like that i also have ibs that worsens with stress i guess i wa just wondering if anyone out there ha tried any med even though they can deal with their symptom and if it helped i m a bit worried about side effect but if i could just live without having to ob over thing and feel defensive all the time that would be pretty amazing i will ask my doctor of course but wanted to hear from others in my situation,1 "lmaooo i posted my story on instagram and it mentions my depression.. one chick that doesn't follow me liked it but the gag is, she harassed me and threatened to beat me up over a party freshman year, contributing to my depression ",1 pro tip watch porn right fall asleep dream last night goddamn good dreams made better lucid dream therefore could feel taste that,0 minecraft touch grass tnt spawns join stream soon ill live moment yaboidomenikhttpswwwtwitchtvyaboidomenik,0 got wisdom teeth removed know going torture hell,0 Please support this important event. RT RT RT RT #MentalHealth #Depression #Suicide#MentalHealthAwareness https://twitter.com/CUnderwoodUK/status/989166362819022849 …,1 im lost lost feel empty like im something girlfriend girlfriend going something body making hate usually dont really know help feel completely powerless drifting apart almost idk im never able think right things say anymore feel like im npc im watching different angle feel confused hazy dont know anything anymore,0 everything kid could want feel emptyim title says everything could ever want ive got friends family love past couple months cant believe it even know friends cause talking people scares me friends even go school either online old school cause moved scared talk people cant seem see positive life try succeed school anything else always end failing matter hard studytry ive thinking killing im afraid itd close me want die also want hurt anyone hung two really good friends today seem happy sat back friends car starred distance make night worse theres girl actually somehow talking one friends thought itd funny ruin it night got way worse feeling friends all really friends all im scared talk anyone put cause anonymousish know deal anymore started months ago bad wave depression every frequent teenager far know months went ive kept getting sad fear soon wont able hold ill end shooting something whats really stopping right friends mom dad dog cat something pets seem keep person ending it dog cat id probably ended already sounds weird cause mom dad still here love pets anything feel like somehow know im feeling cause whenever im sitting couch soon become sad dog come stay me know feel anymore ive lost much emotion months whole speech typed probably make sense anyway im gonna post keep typing random shit thats fucked up,1 need help know get itthings getting better never thought million years would go far would cut face obvious spot ever already insecure face going two huge like four deep scars look like accident heck no made xs dumbest person ever anyways thighs stomach arms almost neck tears disappointed done myself suffer bipolar disorderbipolar depression many things really especially schizophrenic anger issues delusions knowing really fantasy getting way treating others lashing majorly even wrote fck you piece paper blood sent someone okay cared slowly hating one one cant control emotions trust around anyone feel seriously hurt someone many times thought week hopes happy new life might even change something quite beautiful like butterfly knows want go like hated but cant help blade justice like used to passed feeling woozy relief really left feel even empty trust myself alright cant even escape self everyday repeated skew voices sound real everyone finds crazy just go kill urself already smash ur head wall hard hard hit cant stop told to cant freaking stop told im waste time im also unmedicated freak much time left,1 photogenic fury and suicide become the news s stipend while photogenic depression and sadness are 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I used my cheap 12MP $100.00 pocket camera to take this. ,0 damn allergies terrible headache im badly allergic asprin cleaned room aask dust making worse,0 know originally film box office hit light recent hollywood releases most decidedly formularidden plot less pointless savetheblondechicknomatterwhat drivel feast saints certainly sorry context deserves second opinion filmlike bookloses anchoring historical background depicts uniquely american dilemma set uniquely horrific american institution human enslavement tragic and funny touching consequencesbr br and worthy singling youthful robert richard cast leading figure marcel whose idealistic enthusiasm truly universal sets beginning coming age cruelly disappointed turns become true education ways southern plantation world louisiana apex antebellum period saw previews featuring dreaded blondhaired richard expected buffoon fop caricaturei pleasantly surprisedbr br ossie davis ruby dee late ben vereen pam grier victoria rowell even jasmine guy lend vivid imagery formidable skill actors backdrop tapestry placage voodoo creole aristocracy haitian revolt woven tale human passion hate love family racial perplexity society supposedly gone yet somehow still us,0 Going to be live at the new Beer Barrel from 4:15-5:30 giving away goodies ,0 day quarantine im starting daily post untill get thingy bit context im huge need im also athlete mental health stabilizer playing basketball varsity basketball team btw days since last played basketball imagine state am im still gonna stay cuz alot doctors giving lives save us,0 reasoning im cut life im prepared end itmy sensitivity keeps wrapping black hole making want end it fear living much stronger fear existing think fear nothingness anymore people born equipped handle existence truly believe cant even handle myself struggle purely emotional everything seems take huge emotional toll me get attached people always end getting hurt im talking romantic relationships im talking relationships general cant trust anyone anymore people move things im convinced never will led prefer loneliness ironically loneliness leading want end life seem like logical path me cant handle life led loneliness led want end it makes complete sense me,1 get someone friends basically title background someone know friends leave i know sounds like asking friend situation me im town away want help find new group people hang since old friends abandoned insulted,0 Good night. Ily all my lovelys. ,0 hate math teacher yesterday last day school math teacher made us test like every class went to teachers let us go phones shit math teachers like just last day school mean done work shit like that springs surprise test us anyway hows week far,0 failing lifeive suffering severe depression social anxiety past five years never gotten better turned video games escape made things exponentially worse transferred college semester told going different fell back old habits first started getting social anxiety again hard meet talk people depression started fading in concentrate work sit hours study get stuff done cant focus drift away end nothing fade right back suicidal ideation feeling hopeless cant move life get shit done im failing courses two three beyond fixable point im pretty much guaranteed f sit around nothing time laying bed jack shit turning browsing web playing games ive hit brick wall think get slump meant go way im pissing away parents money ideation plan im done cant take pain anymore,1 really want help friend know anymore please helpmy friend th redflag attempt and gotten hospital th time last week tells wants die takes pills antidepressants benzodiazepines could call ambulance ironically heavy medocations uses redflag attempts family live another city want move school work city cant move her diagnosed borderline personality disorder bipolar disorder literally clue help anymore talk visit much can give advices wants some try keep occupied sorts activities anything works awhile that gets worse medication destroying her hair falls medical checking bad dizzy verge fainting time hallucinates sometimes sorts things psychiatrist psychologist goes to everytime give medication making feel bad wanting die already changed psychiatrists wants die cant stands rejection someone loves today texted again telling wants overdose again know anymore anyone advice help her,1 dont want anymoreit hurts much want gone,1 dream hot im going buy merch wank,0 that mental struggle when you know you should reach out because you think you might sh but a big part of you doesn t want to try too hard to get help because f everyone and everything amp x 00b i ve tried half heartedly all day to reach out to people but no one ha responded with anything other than their own issue i guess posting here is kinda reaching out part of me doesn t want to do it but most of me is just angry and want to put that into something,1 gives genuine criticizm wtf stop victim blaming women marginalized u misogynist stop oppressing us u part patriarchy please shut,0 fifthdoor please see reply posts show upplease see reply here httpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsbizmhwhy_do_mods_delete_my_posts_from_this_subredditcnq,1 i keep thinking that i m only putting all this effort in for someone else because i love her and i don t want to hurt her and i enjoy being with her and how she make me feel but i also want to get better so i can be in a better place to be more supportive for her and my peer i m trying to live for myself and not others but i m not sure where i am with that,1 ithey all gonna post cant keep thoughts bottled anymore im giving up originally giving end year fix ive realized im beyond fixing one person left life keeping alive months stupid brain telling push away finally kill always tried fight it well last night stupid brainanxiety won im done going psychologist im done taking meds thought helping came realization not ive finally admitted everyone life would better dead mom sister pretty much anyone ive ever gotten close to denied months cant deny anymore ive ever wanted make people happy hurt people think time call quits plan anything im going end it hopefully figure soon hopefully meds go without much thought yeah might see around bit hopefully long oh please please please try stop me cant get better make others worse best option everyone,1 @annwhit bye ,0 gf ruined entire life sent nudes muslim motheri feel horrible life shit grades extremely bad family fight time other friends girlfriend talked hours everyday got extremely jealous crazy sudden shamed everything did ruined life sending sexual chat history fetishisms nudes muslim mother placed lock down phone got taken away me wifi got taken away me im forced pray times day yells hour refuse life horrible using razors blades cut open foregead forearms im depressed suicidal yet lack power end myself please help me,1 even worth tryis worth try life could possibly worth constant uphill battle everyday is cant think anything realistically could make better trying life amount suffering,1 embarrassed post crush someone not theres way would ever get again know follows going deleted soon do crush ex,0 i miss kenny power,0 bounce backloan anyone in this group got a bbl with lloyd my poor friend ha business collapsed now assessed a unfit for work stress amp depression lloyd haven t even contacted him about his missed repayment sent moorecroft debt collector straight in,1 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I love it ,0 "Being outside can improve memory, fight depression, and lower blood pressure — here are 12 science-backed reasons to spend more time outdoors http://dlvr.it/QQmfw8  pic.twitter.com/ZFTdxskBB9",1 you can be rich asf and still suffer from depression,1 Hi @juliemarg Please... allow me to say: lucky you! Do you have an idea of which wine regions will be promoted? Let us know how it went!,0 life nutshell first want clearly state information genuine you also running issues life honestly wish best luck sorry lack formatting im writing mobile phone alright little backstory parents still alive sisters brothers father crippling depression years bad back diabetic works ass everyday family people dollar food stuff budget work per hour job however owns personal bussiness company he buys damaged cars repairs them resells them however everything seems fail miserable ways ever god testing patience years despite knowing lot family least talk hes ranting living room mother couple brothers sisters thats important right now used work brother would always either get low amount moneynothinghis brother would say dumb shit him brother always goes parents which tell their part story whilst father doesnt lead grandparents hatred father father depressed said last couple weeks turning pretty bad rent paid months yesterday serious conversation brother number phone it go well something involving cars brother could reason dad loses cars garage company aka life work result dad either commit redflag get heart attack im serious part life autism could say depression didnt psychologist years anyway years ago middle school children class would always really annoy me however dont get wrong mad strength anger management issues goal bully me push border what likely would cause onepunch hospitalize them would also get expelled wanted wasnt bad enough dumb ass middle school made us every grade part playground i idea called im dutch meant play football soccer together now friends idiots never went well best friend crippling depression parents always fought almost got beat death father kids would always go principal break telling stories friend stuff i never actually knew saying however one time absent went principal say friends extremely racist them bullshit goes ballistic goes class threatens call police us heard next day one time best friend football lads got vd people brothers friends friend m time smallest person however far best player a talent actually managed stand ground score goal whilst people meters literally using lethal force friend he could hit head one playground obstacles die looking great however godly goal one went get ball fell brothers foot blamed him motherfucker attacked brother it ran fuckface kmu pace giving one clean punch face breaking nose braces glasses giving concussion falling intense nose bleeding people proceeded hold prevent hospitalizing later got code red code reds means expelled goal along didnt care dont fucking touch brother later ive cooled down get talk dude week later guess fucking what apparently went i wanted shoot ball my brother didnt let me wanted kick hurt me told multiple times give space leave alone didnt let me holy fucking shit idea fucking mad were right across table talking mad shit right eyes denied everything said everything fucking fault wanted kill dude least k lines rant left hands hurting dont feel good atm might make another post however rn im gymnasium this school education system worst best praktijk basis kader kader mavo havo atheneumgymnasium fuckers basis kader friends helped cheat important central exam would determine wed go got highest me got real trouble please dutch people dont flood comments thanks listening rant tdlr dollars week budget parents depressed poor fucked im screamed time father might commit redflag soon childhood messed,0 @JenniferHui @ngocdupont true story! I have the transcript to prove it ,0 okay idk ever since mam died never feel kind emotion whatsoever okay,0 I've been taking naps at like 6 or 7 and sleeping clear through the night lately. Never thought I'd say it but thank god for depression ,1 yeah sex relationship cool ever scratched part ear q tip,0 "@aplynch either job title would look nice on my resume! Actually, I will take the salary w/o the title. ",0 get ads targeted gays algorhitms think im gay fuck,0 every second youre awake theres someone else thats sleeping makes jealous,0 subscribe to my YouTube channel http://bit.ly/LOvA,0 awake spanish test to make up this morning,0 missing the twitter banter and all my tweeting friends ,0 get dextrose yeast wap,0 sun everything under im actually thinking committing redflag today reason continue hate life everything iti longer control impulses continue make things worse off person much pain zero hope think death would better life one life seems silly throw away relationship strained max dont care anyone cant see past benefit them dont want here want die get rid feelings bad,1 sensesdestroyer i wan na go to lamb of god,0 i don t eat junk drink only water and tea don t eat dairy and even tried stopping with gluten not taking any med,1 someone play withi lost friends request play r xbox smurf iidocpeepeeii ampxb,1 "Long weekend here in Canada! Heading over the border for a little shopping and a change of scenery. Have a good one, see you Tuesday!",0 im going kill myself needed relese iner pain somwhereim going kill tonight thought present like cancer spinning around mind end present im tired everything call life would walk hell knowing things get worse nothing gets better know big piece shit deserves world made suffering im tired bad emotions come hard handle them everything want turns nightmare keep asking wrong life say think death much used drugs stopped already two years made open later prelude accepting mistakes yah say get work earn money that understand much takes care person barely move pour salt meal worked for years trying fix problems spend money saving someones life spend myself dam even started live buddhist monk whos sleeps floor empty room without material possessions life moving anywhere cant anything really help heal dad feel like shit hard take care think gonna ower hate im week mind hurt nobady helps fuck nothing others could help feel like prison opportunities thought run save life people meet walk door worries responsibilities cant person behave still hate thoughts think so want leave end it day gets harder life spiritual awakenings things cant share nobody ill gonna end mental hospital fuck im sick care someone really sick get word somebody would better place hows everyone better gratitude others slowly dying jealousy anger taking ower first one would like kill me become monster like be hard think im worth think im egoist think piece shit say try best harm others trying withstand another day people see struggle wish things different wish world would love me,1 want hugi dont want end hard everything keeps pushing telling solution true please stop listen depression,1 even though unrealistic things happen end ie cop shooting gun crowded merrygoround number innocent could killed still intense enjoyable thriller one alfred hitchcocks better films robert walker excellent chilling nutcase really convincing giving fascinating performance almost creepy times costar here farley granger okay match walker either acting characters play typical hitchcock film strange camera angles immoral themes innocent man gets trouble etc unlike lot films thought one fastmoving story dull spots extennis player enjoyed footage excellent old net matches featured good rallies hitchcocks reallife daughter patricia interesting unique minor character role here get job dad act also note dvd british american versions differences story classic film still referred modernday films even comedies throw momma train,0 What do you do when depression succumbs the brain and makes you feel like you'll never be enough?,1 want die want leave friends grievingive always problems happiness im cant remember properly happy since parents divorced happened moved city went new school got bullied everything shit always sad finally switched school environment happy soon became happy normal person home life went shit mum stepdad getting fucking smashed far much recently get shit realised coke next year probably best since young shit home school going well space months stepad assaulted twice police involved second time hit stop called police decided press charge mental state spiralled downwards home life got much worse happened months ago immidiately went period low thoughts feeling unsafe home mum backed me got better last summer worried school friends day happy however last months worse ever think killing myself bad home relationships making feel unwanted although lots close friends feel much burden ones trust talk to ones dont trust enough scared think crazy tell feel know ever kill cause love friends much them hate living know carry on schoolwork suffering cause sit night nothing ever since ive feelings ive experimenting drugs recently scared advances never stop,1 rainbow brite star stealer opinion excellent masterpiece felt warm tingly rainbow brite voice bettina krys voice david mendenhall set get revenge princess voice rhonad aldrich ask me princess absolutely bitchy diabolical me deserved rainbow brite krys seek revenge him however liked castle well rest setting addition thought lurky voiec pat fraley murky voiec peter cullen diabolical wrap up id like say everyone perfectly cast direction flawless disney scored big hit conclusion highly recommend excellent masterpiece everyone seen it especially diehard fans tv series guarantee enjoy it,0 "Quick Ways To Ease Stress, Depression & Anxiety #bipolardisorder http://www.naturalcureforbipolardisorder.com/stressmanagementadvice/Quick_Ways_To_Ease_Stress,_Depression_&_Anxiety.html …",1 anyone else feel like life overwhelming hate fall mindset try theres gonna someone better you bother feels meaningless matter hard try,0 know doi wheelchair rare condition nobody knows is feel like big waste time want quit university feel cannot it got motivation concentration anything trust anyone family lie suicidal thoughts every day week seen therapist seem work told mother care less constantly rude horrible me nice brother sister talk family even though still live them need help know what,1 "Drove to tucker's. Chillin here Oh and @MadisonWilde, I'm not THAT crazy haha, only a little. Ilybff4l<3",0 @Erbo08 No tweet deck ela n aparece... >> www.tweetdeck.com,0 got iti browse subreddit lot im imgur lot ive bought plenty people food able afford themselves give advice people people imgur advice need give myself take it im almost im last semester university dropping bit see point ask here want be dumb redflag looked shameful thing shameful ask created since was option end it im good person generally huge heart want help everyone love everyone do actually try that inside im dying im slowly dying want expedite process,1 yo anyone want boyfriend got fat set tits raging case depression cure loneliness,0 after these few day i ve slowly started to realize something i m a living bad omen i have so many issue i m so mentally ill so many disability my life ha never been the slightest bit normal nothing is ever easy i m stuck in an asian household i m probably gon na forcefully get married be a housewife and get forced to have child i m not even a woman but this is a very religious country that belief what you are is what gender your assigned at birth i did fall in love really hard but he s across the world from me his mom hate me and everyone is against our relationship and i m causing him more harm than anything and he keep trying regardless to be with me i hate that i feel so bad because i m not worth it and it s not going to amount to anything these few day proved to me that i just have to accept that my life wa meant to be a misery so many problem so many illness cant even go to school i ve already attempted today didn t work i wasn t strong enough so now i m just injured i ve got absolutely nothing going for me i m just wasting my parent money for food and clothes they just wanted a normal kid who can make them proud i can t even leave the fucking house i can barely even see god decided to give me every single bit of ugliness there is in the world and i m slowly starting to accept that i wa rebelling against it for awhile i can still amount to something the world can t hate me forever but i know it isn t true i wish i could pas in my sleep or be able to get a noose to tie on my ceiling fan waking up every day is an absolute misery for me and i m just causing more pain to everything and everyone around me imagine living a life where you can t even look in the mirror that s me i have never once willingly looked in the mirror god won t give me anything and i ve stopped expecting anything at this point death is my only savior because life hold nothing for me only failure hatred instability and vulnerability,1 cansado de esta mierdame decid escribir esto ya que nunca compartido mis pensamientos ms profundos con nadie creo que hacerlo aliviara un poco incluso si nadie lee esto estoy cansado de vivir hace mucho tiempo que mi nica esperanza es morir en un accidente algo por el estilo simplemente quiero seguir viviendo sin un propsito siendo un intil en todo todo aquello que gusta hacer apestar en ello es una mierda sabes tengo problemas para socializar con la gente la poca gente que logra quererme termino hacindoles dao siempre estoy cansado de siempre dejarme pisotear por todos pesar de querer cambiar en serio querer e intentarlo logro hacerlo supongo que slo soy un cobarde una de las principales razones por las cuales ya quiero vivir es que jams ser feliz en como veo siento es una mierda que cada da de tu vida te recuerden lo feo que eres es una mierda que tengas que vivir con quien ms odias convivir con l cada da en tu propio hogar prcticamente paso la mayor parte del da en mi habitacin para tener problemas con ese imbcil el novio de mi madre suelo odiar nadie pero si el muriese horriblemente yo estara feliz realmente lo estara mi madre ni si quiera toma en serio cuando le hablo de las ganas que tengo de acabar con mi vida realmente veo en un futuro lo mximo que esperaba llegar era los heme aqu con aos sin haberlo intentado incluso para esto soy un cobarde para algo que deseo hacer que har sentir ms dolor dejar ya esta vida de mierda esta soledad esta miseria gracias quien se haya tomado el tiempo de leer esta mierda soy bueno escribiendo pero slo buscaba desahogarme un poco,1 guys think karma real filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 simon felice is no longer playing with the felice brother i m not sure how i feel about that,0 i feel unloved dropped tweeter,0 turn out there had been earthquake warning in italy and they were ignored http bit ly dvyg,0 idk pandemic way life going thinking when it lived alone first time life since may m makes decent living starting working since may last year feel like complete waste life space friend mom talk like hours week felt joy many years see coming back tried see mental help professionals video calling therapy impossible set person visit know time,1 why must i be awake at this untimely hour,0 i miss you twitter my phone broke now i m using a stupid nokia phone ughhh i miss my advance phone,0 feel like might wrong place ask cannot find answer anywhere online zopiclone alcohol lethal combination,1 people reddit would answer form its class pls httpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlsfgomvwrvskuwkdziumjyyuwpapsfiurzlbkouhjyjaviewformuspsf_linkhttpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlsfgomvwrvskuwkdziumjyyuwpapsfiurzlbkouhjyjaviewformuspsf_link,0 im dying cause forced speak teams video call thing teacher like say morning mairead went morning mairead im dying,0 hey girl wet outside know youre looking somewhere stay well ass you hi guys im selling branded bracelets crisis dollar please buy move moms garage,0 @samyorke Get 100 followers a day using www.tweeteradder.com Once you add everyone you are on the train or pay vip ,0 book helped melast year struggling form ocd came fruition apparently seriously unresolved issues childhood never dealt with book really helped start overcome lot trauma never addressed im hoping help people too httpssmileamazoncomdprefcm_sw_r_cp_apa_i_tuebzbcphx,1 guys help im slipping recently got among us realized im scrolling reddit less often please dont let leave,0 weekly self post weekend story femboy reality came back work opened reddit someone linked subreddit named r huhi never heard whats that murmured saw several posts femboys ew would never femboy disgusting turn reddit right went swipe close it small hand painted nails reached took in let go shouted hand avail took threw place never seen before several men walking maid dresses wearing masks uwu written them hell dimension femboys started running one direction hiding anybody way knew threat come here hide us see you voice suddenly told followed command pure determination saw blonde man tall young boy short muscular man you tell hide you place said weird group hello men arent femboys asked hide us thought normal people blonde man said me place asked him believe teleported another reality short muscular man told me huh think that asked short muscular man dont look also teleported another reality r right man said me yes know asked him intrigued also taken home r reality femboy reality arent femboy either get turned one die higher ups choose die said eyes getting bit teary offered food talked bit keith blonde man said tall boy david short tank micheal whats name name kyle said keith thanks taking in problem kyle sleep getting dark going new shelter soon keith told me would move shelter asked them wanted criminals micheals dad shot death turning femboy ran away fast could them biggest criminals entire reality david explained me dont want die micheals dad doesnt die vain said goodnight went sleep,0 ive thoughts time nowso basically figured fucked actually known long time im years old im kind trippy sometimes drugs did cannot connect anyone world longer first encounters time biggest fear im tired rising falling time whole family fucked up dad one really think highly about time made fucking stupid decisions bothers sweeps stuff rug never address even though weighs conscience everyone elses well love still know hes shit im battling serious addiction considering throwing away months sobriety getting fucked regain myself ive recurring thoughts drinking bottle jack jumping coronado bridge would quick painless maybe even fun drunk enough anyway im fighting really hard stay shit created myself man mental load tough even super young age know stuggling survive whole life dropped high school make worse cant even make fucking friends problems prevent letting anyone in weird fucking ability shut people mid sentence even saying anything let tell worst like scared little bitch head fucker constantly battling out way bitch gone im physically exerting myself slow march back battle relax come conclusion maybe purpose physical person damn thats want be powers let anything else idk fucking strange world man vibes connect even stranger sometimes want out honest feel sense melancholy happiness think death already sime great songs play wake bring tears joy id rather go young real become old sell die really saying going happen soon kind profound epiphany next year so think im fucking out get chest guys probably favorite sub next rdrugs raskreddit love input lot olease pass words anyone relate struggle love guysltand galsgt ,1 back boo hoohello im back man constant cycle tiring everything ok keep following path suddenly like made wrong turn im following dark path gets darker darker get yanked restarts im tired it im tired everything want anything anymore tiny thing makes upset adds sit dark cry wake swollen eyes again life complete utter bullshit last two posts sad would plan end months wonder im still pussy it want everything end brain scattered anxious want stop trying,1 Up to 53 followers! How exciting ,0 leaving people behindi cant talk stuff anywhere may kill get goal weight want live loose skin disgusting want repulsive unlovable covered rashes wrinkles infections want least achieve goal die see need see scale buy gun time worried people upset die love enough want stick around want hurt all sad sure leave note idea plan this feel sad imagine poor niece missing me confused friends mom husband hope cool okay it just case anyone reads this no money surgery yes even another country,1 @lindbergh_skies Awe. Thanks for your faith in us. <3,0 feeling better revenge days yayso went back apolagize troll nothing changed girl dani since october im moving on loving girlfriend name joann loving family job measuam yet dani messages me i deleted cups moved on feel like much energy,1 depression decided upgrade pc month old lmao got rtx expensive asf got new w power supply got new cpu cooler cause want one lcd screen also new case fans ones got ugly got cause matched fans aio cooler realize could use different fans it build like half pc parts lmao,0 want endi cant recall long like think giving bullshit reasons it know family loves real reason sad much want fade away cant think last time really appreciated life keep telling family sad ended life dont want hurt think thats whats keeping dying moment really nothing live for im useless one shirt never wear really worth fighting for,1 @K7vans Yeah it's 7:00AM here. Still too early... Good morning to you ,0 "@ExportedSocks Idk if i've gone through depression, but I did feel a lot of emotional pain before so I watched tv and spoke with friends. Granted I didn't leave bed for 3 days but yeah i just used distractions",1 cant even kill righthi im using throwaway nobody knows reddit really matter need get chest nobody asked im sorry two nights ago attempted kill overdosing antidepressants took them failed friends found out called said i care i love much one spoke school today even best friends saw barely said two words made plans tonight posting pictures left completely im well guess part glad im still here bigger part wishes failed feel bad one cares im here im alone completely really anything holding here know kind wish wouldve died know im sorry im great,1 im sick stop saying neither asked support election sure joe biden isnt exactly first choice neither clearly isnt fucking choice anymore legitimately life death im goddamn sick people playing card dont time indecision right now able to please vote sake future,0 @MistressB - We're up again now ,0 i wish there wa a reddit thing for friendship breakup but since november 0 i ve been repeatedly crushed by a now ex best friend who i never wanted to let go of it s my fatal flaw forgiving ppl who don t deserve it i always get bitten in the as and never learn from it the manipulative people in my life have torn my down over and over and bc i m literally a fucking doormat i don t want to explain everything with this specific friend but part of what keep hurting me is that i see picture and am reminded of good memory we ve had and all of a sudden i miss them or i ll see picture from when i wa happy and i m brought to tear over the fact that i m convinced it s all my fault i wish i could delete my social medium and throw my phone into another galaxy but sometimes thing like snapchat and tik tok make me happy so then i don t do that why am i like this why do people walk away from me so easily why do i let those people in just for them to walk out again,1 gf asleep someone entertain bc im lonely dm im bored lonely,0 helpi need somebody talk too im low point life feel like theres nothing really live anymore please somebody help tired feeling like want al end cant feel anything anymore ive struggled depression since young cant afford therapist anymore counselor actually cares annoy since graduated anybody willing talk id grateful,1 mckayla jb hey lol btw u know how to upload a picture i tried but it never show xo,0 constant feeling hopelessi sick feeling super depressed mixed anxiety hopelessness im dropped first year college november spent money college super excited for friends friends hometown lost college lost friends made college moved back home one talk to think ever felt like best friend talk to never felt like really included anything feel excluded game call life ever since dropped out ive feeling like crap everyday feel like failure dropping college am fucking hate myself every decision made everything leading present regret fucking hate life feeling like everyday right part time job thats thing going life im working want sleep cant sleep want get fucked getting super high getting drunk both money would make job would buy weed weed thing would make feel happy enjoy things feel like nothing live for second time ive felt hopeless life first time years later again stuck stupid brain stupid thoughts stuck stupid worthless person everytime something good happens life gets destroyed give trying right now care sleep never wake again care airplane crash landed top right now feel like never ever find happiness would rather feel nothing right now today ive literally spent like hours bed today motivation anything cant see happy cant remember last time truly happy cant remember genuinely enjoyed life cant remember feels like wake hate life myself cant remember feeling like actual human earth remember pain remember darkness cant see light literally talent good nothing cant ammount anything useless person never career life want right curl bed fall asleep hope never wake again,1 question moving forwardnot sure right place rdepression side bar says redflag stuff go here anyone point longer want die due situation know to like terminal illness still situation people supposed protect in case police amp uk health care services forcing situation option end life one go here move forward,1 againtoday hits like ton bricks happened like before things seem going well suddenly im back thinking life isnt worth space day months feeling im getting semblance life back together today started really well somewhere along line everything went completely wrong couldnt even tell when why ive happen before used worry depression coming back even feeling well thing thats really getting time really didnt worry returning hanging me know sounds ridiculous space day suddenly feel progress ive last months pointless never let guard dare hope things would different thing worries though happened many times feel inescapable know objectively could lot worse isnt really anything much changed situation yesterday feeling completely fine reason find consolidation that,1 My doggy is so cute. ,0 i m always scared of getting dvt but usually tell myself it s not it and move on i do get leg pain from working a desk job and have had leg ultrasound in the last year that were clear i usually tell myself if it s a symptom i ve felt before i m fine just started a work from home job where walk le i get up every hour but walking around the house is very different than a large office building and my leg ha been hurting which isn t new but i happened to look at where it hurt and it s the area right below my knee cap on the inner part of my leg aka the part that could touch the other leg when i m standing i noticed there is slight swelling there idk if swelling is even the right term since it s not hot or red but def stick out more than the other side maybe about half an inch more which is new considering i ve in the past looked for swelling a i mentioned before it s not hot or red but i am worried yet don t want to cry wolf and get a rd ultrasound in the last year i should mention i have an autoimmune disease that can put me at risk for blood clot but thankfully have had no issue prior i don t want to bother my dr again but also don t want this to be the time i actually have it since i ve never seen swelling on my leg before,1 brother silverr mizzzidc la fisto she s the reason for her own depression and by the way i think she need therapy on how to keep off from clout,1 I guess bed would be appropriate.... school tomorrow ,0 truthwhen making way school bus suffer extreme sun light heat characteristic country near equator constantly gaze clear sky ponder whether life means meaningful byproduct stupidity explanation after many thoughts occur back head one seem fade away put end semieternally painful plain existence today really try keep trying improve grades physics math chemistry admit fact simply good matters ill never be quite hard endure routine knowing procrastinative are friends clearly success even though im hardworking far neither get impeccable results exams struggle resolve even simplest problematics feel numb completely lost driven away focused path following last year accepted participating olympiad class persuaded sign sort proof commited would used case development mathematics physics chemistry bright living nightmare past years many discussions even abdicated completely faith used deity order embrace cold reality little somehow figured life seemed realistic ideals classmates daydreaming today complete fifteen years existence yet discover solution problem everything,1 banger anyone else point life sick caring find headbanging songs hate like know hate them know dancing fuck isnt something still end doing,0 keep trying use fit girl never worked me even try,0 hello so i have ptsd bipolar disorder and a back injury that will never heal i recently had to move from maine to florida i am in the process of re establishing my medical care in a new state a more restrictive state the doctor here want me off my back pain medication my anxiety medication and want me to quit smoking pot it took me a long time to figure out the exact combination of medication that work for me amp x 00b i moved from california to maine about ten year ago it took me a few trip to the looney bin for doctor to believe me figure out what wa wrong with me and treat me i spent my first three year in maine in constant pain due to a back injury that my nurse practitioner thought i wa way too young to have which i absolutely did and still do have she sent me to specialist that verified i do have a serious injury and she would say she doesn t believe them i turned her into the board of director at the hospital i wa in for basically torturing me but because i live with debilitating depression i did not follow through with it and it wa dropped amp x 00b when i finally found a doctor that believed my x ray and wa willing to treat me and a doctor that wa able to diagnose my ptsd and bipolar disorder and treat me my life took off in the right direction i wa able to finish my bachelor s degree my master s degree and start my phd one right after another my family wa forced to leave maine because of all the people that flooded into maine due to the pandemic and maine s low number of reported case in the beginning amp x 00b now i am having to redo all of these complicated step and i feel myself falling into my depression hole i feel so defeated i m coming down off my back pain med and my back is hurting so incredibly bad it make me want to die i have gone through so many year of physical pain i thought it wa over i thought i had that figured out my anxiety about doctor s opinion in my medical care and anxiety behind being looked at like a druggie when i don t do drug the anxiety of having to plead my case to people that just have heard so many lie they wouldn t know the truth if it smacked them in the face depression at having to do all of this crap over again,1 hearts acting strange last hours feel strong distinct heartbeat every avg feels like adrenaline rush nothing serious guess ill keep living life now dont think ill go doctor though ends serious happy get disgusting world dying peacefully like,1 spoilers film sniper undoubtedly based exploits legendary us marine sniper carlos gunny hathcock unassuming softspoken mister rogers lookalike ran score much confirmed unconfirmed vietcong north vietnamese military kills two tours namwhich shows deadly effective trained military sniper really isbr br tom berenger cool clam deadly sgtthomas beckett whos end career top us marine sniper later movie realizes life civilian pointless since theres nothing outside skills learned us marines unless decides become mob hitman backett reluctantly accepts fate lifetime professional killer countrybr br the story film sniper focused sgtbeckett assistance former sharp shooting silver medalist us government agent richard miller billy zane sent deep inside panamanian jungle two snipers take rebel general miguel alveraze frederick miraglittoa colombian drug kingpin raul ochoa carlos alveraze whos supporting planned military takeover country br br we see earlier movie sgt beckett scope take rebel leader feel best scene sniper shows step step sgt beckett help spotter cpt papich aden young job theres also subplot later aborted movie rebel sniper desilva eward wiley stalking beckett later killed papich waiting lifted jungle military helicopter would thought deadly cat mouse played two would culminate movie ended sgt beckett trouble dispatching desilva early film using unsuspecting miller baitbr br what hurt movie ironically last fifteen minutes story went one shot one kill sniper movie rambolike ending sgt beckett agent miller fighting entire battalion rebels bullets flying thick london fogbr br sniper still well worth watching fact tells story person really glamorized war movies solitary killer kills precision skill master diamond cutter accomplished neurosurgeon total secrecy,0 and they advertising fake louis bag a 00 authentic on google i m pissed,0 whats point youre always paini alot medical problems recently tooth infection throughout already weak body wanna know point staying life im gonna hurting whole time live it im obviously medical problems arent reason really make ask fuck still here,1 my daughter funny happy girli already make say cloak letter lies funny funny happy happy i never forget you sobs mic yeah never forgot good punching bag you dumpster could let bad emotions days hard unfortunate you thing thank good father,1 emmavieceli aw no get better soon have honey and lemon drink,0 my lymph node are a massive a rahm emanuel s ball right now,0 guy hesitant watch movie know richard gear likes tear jerker movies would rather watch actionadventuresci fi right movie definitely tear jerker diane tended act times richard brought around made work daughter suppressed teen huge attitude started hating her movie way predictable entertainment purposes masterpiece go rent it see shed tearlol like notebook love one beach scenes immaculately shot even though hurricane scenes little sequence still bit panicy watch react it,0 I know what you mean. I too have a very difficult time staying positive. I feel like my Depression has taken on a life of its own; I feel like my Depression prevents me from staying positive https://twitter.com/nar_narbaby/status/988992029077196801 …,1 cahmo done condone nonsense in your marriage oo that s how most woman slip into depression your life must not revolve around your man them no born two of una together if he love and respect you he won t drag you in the poteaux poteaux,1 girlfriend addicted headpats done im headpats dispensary,0 "Ever since I was diagnosed with #diabetes and then the #thoracotomy surgery which is where I found out I have #sarcoidosis I have really let myself go. #depression will do that to you. SO! Until I get things under control with my health, it's all about me, #mylife and #myhealth pic.twitter.com/ROb8wgjOOH",1 Today is #militarymonday!! Help us make it a trending topic and remember our troops! Thank those who protect us ,0 want hang myselfif rope,1 today best day life today around pm girlfriend went get dinner ate sat back car went christmas lights made ish seconds put arm around moved hand slowly dick started rubbing put arm around rested hand breast safe say im new man,0 young homeless felon ready dieim x felon homeless time crime petty larceny burglary etc hate everyday caught hurt innocent people didnt deserve would like point havent much ticket since ever since released years ago ive homeless incredibly debt try applying even minimum wage crappy jobs nobody wants hire felon ive tried general labor gigs construction every single job turned nightmare believe guys handy one society makes nearly impossible felons nobody believes second chances wonder many repeat offenders friends family money car home job resources never owned license sick tired people saying itll get better years ive done everything possibly could lead back im sick tired people always looking like im scum earth purpose life loser fuck honestly desire live anymore ive already made plans end getting things chest,1 suicidal shit life dont bang like used else relate,1 one favorite movies time pretty pathetic say well yeah is chris incredibly incredibly funny innocent brilliance comes film films look motel scenes spade gets caught zipper down other just go away love god,0 small group fiends years shrunk due moving away growing stuff finally last remaining friend stole cut ties him literally zero friends getting sad lonely guy needs guy friends women always jerks me make good conversation everyone work even work friends never seem indicate would want hang anywhere occasional conversations work go friends make work friends real friends tips making new friends,1 anywhere find information ways kill myselfi sincerely doubt place asking this might offhandedly find someone whos know help brother out access cant get access gun hanging seems like much suffering thinking guillotine probably way im going go it im wondering ways are quick effective lowest failure rate help appreciated,1 you know. tracks that will change your life ,0 Off to muscleworks and spining...grr I hate spinning it's one of those necessary evils ,0 agonizingbeen struggling bipolar anxiety whole host shit tired angry take finals pretty much me cant take longer,1 living optionali dont want live wasnt meant be able euthanize myself perfectly logical,1 help big sad need cheering up dont know link funny post cute pet video something,0 stress bad hair falling outmy mood swings horrible attitude towards family shit id take bullet yet im bitch them nothing fucking day dont job graduated last year done nothing since then social anxiety roof point shake verge crying rely mom cant talk strangers adult things im fucking scared pathetic abusive father fucked emotionally psychologically socially whatever ways can im normal im piece shit cant look attractive without automatically wanting slit wrists jump bridge fucking hate myself theres point youre loser,1 The whole drama surrounding @Pabloayodeji tells me two things. Nigerians have no clue about mental health/depression. Twitter is not a very friendly place.,1 also i realize that sounded a tad drama queen but i haven t been sick in year it s hittin me hard this time,0 re uonenutwonderjesus fucking christ guys calm tits seems ruse gives fuck guy hurting know people sub either form mental illness experience them guy berated abused fucking attention seeking want help make mistakes hate member community wrong way regards eli,1 just the same old stuff going on for year i feel like i m not good enough for anyone and it make me feel inferior and le than everyone else,1 see laterwell guys years torturous self harm redflag attempts loneliness depression social anxiety finally decided end it waited get better gotten worse called hotline consulted family lone friend professional help seem work bid ado see next life,1 time talking overim holding box cutter wrist trying work power get with cant fucking deal life anymore give get nothing return im fucking tired want rest great im crying im weakling deserve alive anyways,1 @rescapism hahahah tell me about it tomorrow then ,0 frick post text like this miss,0 thanks gold kind stranger thanks gold kind stranger,0 serious wanted say outi always end rambling writing long paragraphs im grateful whoever takes time read it ever since ex committed redflag ive seeing viable option often talked two years amicable ending still hit hard really feel like theres nothing life passionate long enough im unable get emotionally close anyone matter much vulnerable open facade put attract people first used social anxiety used method acting way assuage it never actually solved underlying issues last week fight one guy friends although apologized soon and well told expect responsive while proceeded basically ignore next days honestly think acting much differently i typically greet people sparingly theres odd atmosphere us now although still talk me theres air avoidance surrounding us often times meet eyes im absolutely terrified bringing happened past times tried exes feel selfish thinking fear might going through getting closer too although messaged freaked started feeling known way snapped back mirrored past cycles ive caused id find reason instantly widen distance person i even ended regretting fought first place roommate already stopped talking this guy someone actually started value honest though need mention things probably stems constant desire improve develop way regardless whether process embarrassment discomfort actually change anything within time around time im also scared possibility even care much around anyway even though im probably giving vibe too really values existence think anyone aside from customarily family would care died might shocked sure id probably forgotten long after thoughts while really realize extent dysfunctional coping mechanisms besides rational idea burdening family grief andor financial issues burying though thing thats stopping eating disorder im recovered anorectic worse feel turn losing weight distract me actually help immediate emotions immensely yet know even makes less unhappy brings closer death passively carried out ive read places suggest volunteer find way give back others honest feeling helped someone never stuck long enough make difference mood part social anxiety came feeling inability listen respond peoples emotions properly worked that emotionally helping part became default state yet face vulnerabilities lose completely demonstrated story above overall feel like live stuck cycle years come also deal working job likely come despise nagged parents getting married im college mind theyre already asking stick boyfriend half year like said thoughts redflag really severe others see here mean invalidate anyone whos going tougher issues appreciate anyone actually reads though,1 like used watch enjoy high budget hollywood films huge screens surround audio film seems distant however surprised close human watch it natural feel like nobody wrote scenario nobody directed it director writing scenario watch it me time spend watching film time go another world film first sample shows always must watch millions dollars budgeted films surround audio capabilities go another world films sends another world or maybe makes return back yourself without millions dollars budget technical capabilities felt like im reading letranger camus,0 @feltbeats I did it for you xxx,0 "actually everyone makes it out to be a place where you go broke, go in and out of depression, and are hungry 20/5 out of the week... but ok https://twitter.com/brixamour/status/987893623416123392 …",1 questionwhat would butcher knife wrist stabbed hard could,1 answer lol lmao is someone says lol lmao thats telling change subject thank coming ted talk,0 cant want everydayi think everyday multiple full proof methods painless quick preferences also decent career twin month old babies loyal wife also excellent mother anyway im constantly feeling thoughts drink much forget take prescriptions stave hangovers sounds stupid cliche even ive stopped meds stopped drinking overwhelming apathy envelops usual see affecting relationships feel tired anything im selfish narcissistic core sense self preservation overshadows semblance ethics greater good yet crave praise peers urge please others liked anything low self esteem sprinkle hope future much claim want better kids know things end wont know difference it somewhat relief wont know difference wont blip memory want father killed cant wife cant leave her still keep thinking it thoughts gotten stronger ive taken responsibility life feels though im caught rock hard place may short term thinker seems muster make day endure next want distant father barely acknowledges kids dont want workaholic sacrifices wellbeing financial gain stability im deep career age student debt viable option explore potential paths want get past sense self hatred go back easier livelihoodi look back teens early twenties minimal responsibility reminisce yearn it know still felt way theres relief ive fucked personal brain chemistry via meds alcohol im person years ago maybe aging situation habits vices gotten worse since contributed unhealthy self destructive lifestyle cant seem care anything comes ill make decisions specifically work me im unhappy cant leave wife kids long run know fine would stupid selfish put difficult situation due personal issues far solution sacrifice well ensure nullify bad feelings meds alcohol wish could make shit feelings go away atleast produce better enjoyable feelings take hold long run,1 posted giving months livei think iv got one nowmy whole life pointlessuntil met nothing iv lost im nothing know ever get ever love someone much loved herim trying absolute best changing life fighting get back set life litteraly depend iti saw weekend even though though got back slipped though fingers say end march decide future usim venting iv set mind kinda feel free knowing anything theni hope get happiness back else want sleepsleep never wake,1 got silver award know happens next make laugh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh,0 went rule searched reddit ive never seen much hedonism debauchery life someone reddit looked avatar decided you know what this decided spend hours drawing reddit avatar gay prn,0 terrible everythinganything isnt good enough anyone nobody wants here cant even write decent suicidal post like everyone else,1 guess show is dude love me girl yes love much dude wanna make love girl sorry cant im ready yet dude ready girl because abortion hour ago,0 please help anyone know anything overdosinghey guysgirls develop tolerance using h heroin week bro overdosed last year im wheelchair accident wife left well please god let suffering end ive tried od finally peace see best friend again snorting mixing heavy doses valium alcohol seem trick wake day later covered vomit think box mg valiums half g china white would trick maybe tolerance ive month trying kill ive experienced non fatal overdoses fuck sake want free hell anyone help me shoot whole g china heroin well mg valium surely would it not looking advice changing life staying positive please comment shit looking advice cannot take anymore thank heaps advice ,1 attempt workand two people know attempted wish dead wish worked,1 cyantist you re so lucky i wish i did,0 it just hit me sadness is everywhere even when im happy it feel like im drowning in sadness,1 im boring i really dont understand how to use this,0 psychologist promised would never leave told promise that insisted still ended it whyshe also refer anyone know im unlucky feel like whole universe wants die month wound still healed cant seem make peace it eat sleep care anything time low honestly want rot away anything anymore im dead would therapist me especially knew bpd triggered abandonment rejection understand someone try give opinion may happened close one day decided would ask advice i remember right terminology used seemed like seeked therapist advice something canceled appointments one specific date day told going appointments me normal even want go therapist this trust already damaged previous experiences decided give one last chance trust happens im done this college psychologist even referred anyone supposed do even really patience issue lawsuit her either now alone cant afford private psychologist add whole pile accepted college year also psychiatrist sick canceled appointments indefinitely happening im tired,1 always boils mental healthin creative endeavors one thing stopping progressing learning always mental health stops exploring sooo many new things try fix worse gets fuck fix mental health fail fucking everything life,1 asleep dreams perfect happy whatever goes wrong life fixed manageable everything want means falling asleep crying know things means waking distraught dream want sleep forever want afterlife one big dream happiness want without worrying waking up everyday passes want wake next day everything back weeks ago maybe bad dream instead sleep even escape anymore temporary happiness always temporary alseep awake solace get asleep even hassle,1 cant iti depression entire life honestly dont remember time didnt want alive first time attempted kill around age second time around ten years later caught getting destination bang myself im thought emptiness hasnt gone away gone years done yet fuck stopping me cant it fuck care much ruining parents family members,1 morehi entire life one screw another steal drink take drugs commit fraud know though ive brought right lovely caring family reason get fuck everything mode absolutely anything without second thought consequences finally two failed redflag attempts shit hit fan more managed get involved telephone fraud went around different electronics stores andtook iphones mac book pro credit name bills raining me know it fuck mode raping life over calling quits,1 could easily beat goose fight ok recently saw vine girl saying look chickens led videos people encountering geese running away demonstrated aggression scared people kids get adult running away goose im physically strong trained martial art could easily beat shit goose came me nothing attack with besides bite bill dont even sharp teeth could puncture skin geese arent smart either often times rush target head on without considering inferior fighting capabilities humans long enough arms reach stop goose even get biting range geese also major disadvantage long necks easy grab hands final nail coffin opinion many geese saw didnt even use greatest advantage us flight tldr geese dumb could probably beat one one v one fight could too fear silly waterfowl superior predator,0 frago i hate you i didn t need to see that i need to call my therapist now,0 so this is going to sound stupid so im sorry if it is but im honestly not sure if im actually depressed ive had thought about commiting for about three year but it not thought like oh i need to die it more like im not going to accomplish anything in life so why bother going through any more pain little bit of background one of my friend killed himself freshman year and now im going to be graduating with out him most people at my school view me a that one immature kid due to the fact that thats just my sense of humor ive been bullied for the way i act and my height since th grade im taller now but it still hurt and my mother left me at year old on my father doorstep and she show up every once in a while looking worse and worse every time telling me how she miss me and my brother and sister are missing me i later on learned that she left because the cop were coming for her and she ran all the way to florida to get away were in maine also my stepmother ha issue do to her father being messed up and she tends to take out her anger on those arounder so she wont snap at work there a fight roughly once a week and about a week ago durring one of those fight my father yelled at her saying that it my mother fault im like this because she would take pill when she wa pregnant with me and also smoke amp x 00b sorry if this turned into something else and got of topic i just need some advise is all if thats okay,1 tired living im sure ill always aloneits almost two years im still hung ex even though cheated lied me anything live for friends understand supportive ive tried many medications nothing works doctor idea help ignores tell bad am lie say plan do materials hard get really dated since ex believe sex marriage im okay hookups anything like that ex pretended felt lied course think probably proposed get pants contact look up still think time therapy therapist says healing different everybody u heal different rates think ill find someone genuinely cares me want live life alone though want give morals boyfriend either im tired sad scared time im afraid leave house antianxiety pills work little cant work live farming area theres even places meet people except church bars obviously already know people church cant really chat mass hardly go anymore anyway im even sure believe god anymore pray understand kill myself even life death know reason live anymore,1 _ moments guys ever moments u wish earth would swallow could yearn invisible,0 normalize slut shouldnt frowned slut hoe whore thot thats cave men polly af probably really bad stds way peaceful bring back humanity roots want fuck lot shouldnt shamed dont want fuck lot also shouldnt shamed,0 feel finebut feel suicidal drink,1 Mini-trip with Erin to Florida! June just got better. ,0 help mei want kill everyone myself hate world everything it nothing good life,1 bradiewebbstack aww poor bradie stuff those vegies take a stand,0 favourite cereal lucky charms atm filler filler filler filler filler,0 adult life ripped shreds front mei see future me im taking care family since graduated high school chance go college work pay billsall it mother dying father disabled seriously despise him mother going go away leave piece shit take care of think theres future me horrible past look future see situation getting worse feel like ive missed everything life offer im bitter year old man year olds body need advice run away end let someone luckier take space im tired looking others see life ripped shreds right front me,1 anyone burlington new jersey here im wondering anyone actually goes school,0 yes humour teacher called personal project pp started laughing lets say confused,0 is going to the tenancy tribunal tomorrow try to get my bond back,0 want diei ruin everything dont care anymore,1 "not much on tv, don't really know what to do right now....oh well i'll listen to music and surf the web ",0 being this angry all the time could be a sign of depression. get checked out. https://twitter.com/SpicoliRebooted/status/989213831929966593 …,1 dear liberals biden great president gf leave me,0 set sitcom world alight father ted arthur matthews graham linehans next creation forgotten gem bbc called hippies although created pair six scripts written arthur matthews alonebr br set london ray purbs hippy editor anarchist magazine friends flatmate laid back cannabis smoking alex girlfriend feminist jill none bright hugobr br simon pegg superb ray superb everything in sitcom feel citizen smith it ray much like wolfie smith trying beat society failing miserably last sitcom going released dvd march cant wait buy it yet repeated terrestrial television memories good sitcom yet remember two episodes really clearly first opener protesting hippies thought great start ray goes protest sandpaper episode hippy dippy hippies think episode quite clear memory police sadly sitcom got negative reaction viewers i cant think why bbc commissioned another series arthur matthews decided negative reaction oh well cant wait dvdbr br best episode hippy dippy hippies series episode ,0 saw short film hbo day absolutely loved it eight different characters eight different perspectives first confused way story moving along realized one scene shown again show us different perspectives charactersbr br at first think clerks yelling teenager stealing speak language and chris teenager played convincingly eleonore hendricks cannot understand perspective clerks dispels view realize wonderful short really last two scenesbr br excellent short film hopefully director james cox turn short feature length film cast win us whole new filmbr br ,0 anything remotely confrontational causes dissociate reality threaten take lifesomeone gets red faced angry directs words get hot feeling head feeling irrational desire kill defy feel,1 ianmack first season yes descended into creepy teen boy humour in season still lt mulder moody though,0 still rememberi remember tempest smith years later think age i literally shed like me could done same never years later still remember herand cry someone remember you cry well may seem like now someone will stop fighting someday better may take awhile,1 life feels like falling apartmy name jacob graduated college spring without job place live due medicalmental health stuff getting way recruiting found job home town live parents one talk support me met girl developed longdistance relationship first person life truly felt comfortable around could myself could wear piercings express bisexual side felt content was weeks ago stopped texting much much less responsive felt like things falling apart brought said stressed college life weekend planned together last night texted told over longer anyone life talk support me previous relationships ive raped abused dont think capable letting anyone else close me job isnt something enjoy barely pays bills doesnt push me im top university peers making much money jobs love seem fucking happy dont anything anymore motivate get bed morning dont anyone longer comfortable expressing myself removed piercings pride stickers art everything instagram nothing brought joy past year used to games movies photography art music nothing life spiraling past two years kind final straw ive telling life get better doesnt feel like it tried drive bridge today stopped calling redflag hotline want go therapy dont want live forever capable letting another person get close was met her decided im going give one last go someone develop much trust in ive hurt much people trusted rape physicalmental abuse ghosting theft drugging blackmail etc cant put again alone sucks feel like unloveable unwantable im lost dont really want anymore,1 reveal biggest spot forehead looks like ruh,0 went sink wash hands mum thought gonna wash up looked really happy feel really bad now day hasnt hard enough,0 happypositive upbeat music help listen somber depressive type music help downi realize depressed exactly thing struggling find right words right now music help feeling especially depressed so kind music helps most,1 exhausted life cannot eat sleep enjoy things used adore everyone keeps saying focus work something myself think exhausted trying to want everything fucking stop moment feel something want happy everything much,1 internetumpire ipave depression kudukaadha ne just live the moment still chepauk la than last match nu nambuvom,1 cant anymoreim going get gun next week kill myself right left ventricle aiming superior lateral costal margin leading immediate desanguintation instant death lack blood flow brain lv im doctor ive single years work prison ex left fucking warehouse worker offense guys fuck him hes dumber rock thats it cant take fucking planet anymore billions people cant meet one fucking woman planet fucking heart interest anyone like me fucking years nonstop schooltraining working one demanding fields nothing one fucking blip fuck you fuck planet predict full nuclear war im dead fuck you goodbye good riddance fucking assholes doesnt matter hard work bust improve world die alone youre halfway decent human being evidence need fucking jesus christ even immortal god fucking killed him it planet value people fucking care ever garbage nothing moot see many women get abortions would end kids like me people fucking give shit well gone die human race end fuck you get give fucking horrible humans,1 went jack like th time today decided im tired horny hell gets accomplished jack off feel good seconds feel hollow again much dick hurts ache,0 rachel and jessy r making me work out thanks you guy,0 it s just pointless what good is money when your country denies you access for help anyways and nobody care people look at me like i m some sort of a freak i m lucky only half of my family hate me but they don t understand i try to reach out for help via phone and when i explained my situation i get called a f g by the person on the line all because i said i m trans woman looking for therapist i am so tired of never being able to leave my room thar year looking for a doctor hasn t worked that people call me a monster threat to our culture that i m giving a bad impression to child even though i never leave my house i literally don t interact with anyone and nobody see or hears me and yet i m still seen a a monster i ll do you all a favor and just die cause it s too much i m tired of living like this and if i m such a bad threat then i ll be doing every one a favor,1 probably take advice oh well,0 No strikes today ! for sure on my side Nice and sunny here....,0 @KhloeKardashian I believe Elvis works at Burger King. who knows Khlo its definatly a bit of a mystery,0 @dementedriku yup! i can imagine things can only get better ,0 nothing new tired seriocomedy wastes talents danny glover whoopi goldberg considering produced stars spike lee pretty tame tired stuff come whoop never changes hair glasses many years film covers blah,0 come think part today christmas eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve context bio part httpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsibscome_and_think_of_itutm_sourceshareampamputm_mediumios_appampamputm_nameiossmf,0 hate word utilize like bitch fucking th century use use filler_ _,0 would rather buy nuggets ampxb tear bill,0 want real school back online school tiring like fall asleep every single day took away pe class online school restarted march cant socialize online school focusing ability fell floor and probably took grades along restart online school cant play chess friends break start online school,0 make time today take time yourself read book play video games cook music whatever helps calm relax record day end day either meh good bad rating then look back good days see long activity for good thing resulted bad day worry still good things bad days happen ,0 @SashaVujacic wooo u did it!!!!! congrats! ,0 shazam okay hero high favorite kid mean sky high zoom hero high school super heros training teenagers super powers would help police capture bad guys times would get embarrassing situations like greatest american hero fun cartoon watch also fun live action stage show called kid superpower hour shazam actors voiced characters also dressed characters show rex ruthlessjohn berwick misty magicjere fields weathermanjim greenleaf captain californiachris hensel also sang theme song dirty trixiemaylo mccaslin glorious galbecky perle looks like love child superman wonder woman punk rockjohnny venocour whole cast went anything came jokes cartoon fun superhero comedy shore come back live action like fat albert,0 high school dropout suffering depression anxiety lonely fuckim life look worse me dropped high school last year due mental health issues school ultimately unable address school behaviorallychallenged children lot really fucking scary people it towered threatened albeit subtly almost every single day could go normal high school would reject me believe tried teachers overworked underpaid lot bullying issues went unresolved one day enough broke crying told really really wanted drop out told you least live oddly enough went home told mom shit suggested homeschooling research found requirements really lax easily abused so there homeschooled reality though nothing play video games watch anime day mind understandable reason dropped out inexcusable sit nothing free time now year later filled even less selfesteem left school constantly suicidal thoughts chronically unable improve myself could make argument could get ged good there probably correct thats im worried about see real life friends want make some hospitalized recently due telling therapist wanted kill myself hospital another kid dropped everyone shat it constantly saying hes gonna end prison never gonna wife job etc saw cry moment got hit much builtup anxiety suicidal ideation returned now stronger ever whos gonna want date high school dropout gonna get well paying nonminimum wage job going make good friends fuck all kill now,1 cat gonemy sister decided get cat house fleas bugs cats body want get cat back treat myself no insults please,1 tw disordered eatingsuicidal ideation know lost motivation anything either eating much little constipated fuck tired slept hours even motivation cook anything order shit apartment live in poor cannot hold job month without redflages building break down makes feel like acting like entitled piece shit making excuses work something tried approach sucking redflag hoping disappear work like that parent pressured move screaming constantly telling ill never amount anything life toxic judged every move never really felt good enough think killing much effort tried therapy work tried medical marijuana developed scary hallucinations know life existing likely end street likely become drug addict nothing bother people thinking running away literally much want here feel worthless,1 i just got a text from sarah,0 get live flike hole literally thing gives brain slightest bit dopamine serotonin porn life sucks way even surviving rich roommate putting roof head feeding you used want things life goals sort realize goals never end happening idk get motivation want go try something life like going come back point like always does mental hospitals years happy long time honest partner left half year ago really helped much ether jobless since last december ran away friends family halfway across country literally motivation anything outside sexual stuff least makes feel slightly good awhile hell body would sell hah though blessed great looks sure posting tbh sitting redflag hotlines website hours que talk someone saying fuck worth waiting on yeah idk end this peace,1 wish existedhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvebmqxzksswihttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvebmqxzksswi,1 think im actually gonna iti planned august carbon monoxide poisoning think make week dont think handle one day like,1 @tommcfly hahah that was a funny one!! lmao ,0 feeling lost naked and confused jk sort of no iphone for me,0 "@thisiseemelie Yay, me too! How long is yours? Mine's three pages xP",0 I get the Best of Both Worlds....literally! lol ,0 "Just got home, sleep time ",0 "@postalguarelas Yes, I'm drinking tea as well,my fave Darjeeling,but it's not hot here,cool in shade,warming me up! ",0 greek yogurt taste like creamy goat discharge certain brand try takes hour eat stuff people put it want protein,0 "@Sog_Ola @babstoxyn @bimmyana @HayTeeHay @OVIWCE NOTE: Do not take mefloquine if you have a history of active or recent depression or other mental illness, seizures, or some types of heart-rhythm problems(arrhythmia).#ReadyToBeatMalaria #WorldMalariaDay #OVIWCE",1 with or without you ,0 pain much deal gonemy live gone now feels like bodys given up telling throw towel let die im constantly pain loneliness skin hunger well emotionally fucked beyond help abusive parents im constant physical pain due psychological problemsthats bad is pain becoming unbearable day random times spikes near constant life months now cant take it im like people im beyond help justi justi cant take it much stress much pain muchtoo muchtoo muchtoo muchi canti cant sad thing is im trying get basic things life causing thisim even able eat right now theres hope live manner life get better ive trying long now mention friends seem fairweather run stop talking try express suffering therapist cant meetings overim alone im failing im drainedim freakish mess mistakeim done never point keeping living cant keep pushing absence that theres nothing make pain worth itits want die literally cant anymore,1 well im bored again ask questions furry could tell story idc,0 i will be the sun in your sky. i will light your way for all time. promise you. for you i willll.. ,0 goodnight everyone well i m not feeling much better and i m going to the doctor tomorrow,0 want kill everyone around mei know sounds terrible feel right now im going details really want carry toxic thoughts felt needed vent,1 hey whats up im awake am wanna chat im down think im going back bed east coast ftm,0 ive hit rock bottomm ish ive suffering lot depression lately ive depressed month now time since stopped going office cant get basic things without breaking crippling anxiety ive good dad mom sister feeling good enough matter anyone world close friends anyone talk right fucked state mind cant bear misery living wanted put rest it part wants run away live like nomad without human contact become saint part wants die it took amount rat poison two weeks ago apparently fucking enough swallowed tablets fucking aspirin last week still nothing happened know now access firearms anything would little bit easier thinking stabbing heart sometime soon cannot carry living like this ive nothing live for ive hobbies anything help distract me ive tried various things thought liked found fad someone really not totally hate myself strength would totally rip head apart two know writing either probably place could talk it,1 try beer once never even touched alcoholic beverages till date getting opportunity try beer friends not peer pressure maybe sips need worry getting addicted shy buy it so asking worth trying ,0 mileycyrus hahaha dont be like that one time in ny when you got 0 min of sleep then got sick love you,0 going to sleep have a busy day going to meeting and stuff miss my girl shes in switzerland,0 happy right nowi everything going right now caring family girlfriend car place live good school amazing job seems like feel anything car crash recently car totalled people would distraught upset wasnt like another thing happened day get milk go work crash car get coffee etc sometimes driving think veering road running building hitting pole thinking would kill would mutilated beyond recognition getting suicidal thoughts week desire commit them need help think,1 im feeling okim genuinely feeling little better today cause someone said help lot make happy first time ive told something like that anyone else love someone comes help like created supportive atmosphere willingly come help makes happy knowing come,1 definitely good ideascreenplay okcould betterthe notredflags bore adventure lovera new idea lost world atlantisnegatives personally feel idea much potential thisthey ended better adventure thisit bad would much better runtimeenjoyed lot thoughcant say boring gooda good one people like adventure animations like sindbadlike road el doradothis movie also recommended people looking nice little adventure nice happy ending,0 goddamn man fucked bad fucking bad everything fr turned worst lmao god hurts alive filllerrrrrrr,0 Haha! I meant to say Saturday! Had a blondie moment. Bringing fresh cinnamon rolls & flat of local strawberries home to the kiddos now. ,0 i m so tired of existing i have to believe the lie people tell me if i want to be happier in this world that it s not all falling apart that trying hard will get me anything will reward me that people love me it s so much nonsense the only people in my life can t fucking stand me everyone else is at best mildly interested in me from afar and once they get to know me they want nothing more to do with me i m fucking useless and worthless and anyone who s ever told me otherwise want me to suffer what do they see in me i have achieved nothing i am nothing nothing but a corpse too stubborn to start rotting but fully entirely dead,1 rented film netflix two reasons mood thought would silly s scifiasco first featurelength superman film needless say minutes found thoroughly engaged pleasantly surprisedbr br an experimental oil well penetrated six miles earth shut sponsor lois clark show get scoop disappointed deepest well ever drilled longer operation day later strange events well make story appropriate superman clark kent seems radioactive mole men invaded sixmile deep home near earths corebr br supermen mole men simplistic wellmade piece social realism released starring lead actor served world war ii moral story seems americans capable becoming fascists anybody else drive point home typically straightforward superman manner reeves even accuses lynch mob hunting mole men nazis one pointbr br even s science underlying film nonexistent six miles drilling continental crust would even penetrated upper mantle let alone hollow center earth which case exist forgivable keep mind film based golden age comic bookbr br the film little unevenly paced although molemen interesting bit creepy nicely portrayed several cormanesquire scenes spend much time redundantly showing us odd behavior script intelligent economical todays standards costuming poor fair time films special effects costuming quite good cinematography also generally good acting much better one might expect particularly impressed reeves jeff corey walter reed,0 game pin join boys flood game,0 go commit depression,1 hate blacki hate black im trolling either feel like trapped life theres way escape see black slavery pictures black slaves holding monkeys blacks chains whipped made sick im part race disgusts me even without white supremacy existing id still ashamed sick belong black race even think black americans proud descended treachery also makes sick blacks act like animals personally sincerely hate race history culture today id rather race black victimize sickens me women shake butts sickens me uncivilized sickens me christs sake even american indians owned slaves truly accept myself im fucked feel like time call quits life hope fucking proud everyone tries white blame them angzrs point want cry life nothing fucking joke huge gigantic comedy cant express hatred family cause would make feel bad fucking race black proud quit fucking complaining easy blacks though id rather gone trail tears native american black id happy white slave middle east black theres nothing like except little white large percentage native american me fucked see people kill life shitty cant even express feel topic hate black would rather born skin fucking flesh skin bleaching myself cause make white latino straighten hair cause ill still seen black honestly feel like genetically alteration people ill call quits life want hold faith humanity im beginning doubt ill ever chance change ethnicity plastic surgery still change me ugh tell feel different life honestly over cant escape ethnicity death supremacists good job responsible man tip point ending life im sure care blacks thanks giving shitty history ashamed sickened of people may forget me hopefully god give miracle turn white doubt it life big game fucking comedy show,1 andilegcumisa maybe i underestimate this depression thing,1 Moring all. I hope it is hot today! tweet tweet,0 ghost say feminist,0 things baddoesnt feel worth pushing havent told anyone yet im really ready tell family diagnosed neurological disorder auditory processing disorder memory disorder transient aphasia something else tia tai maybe something temporary lack blood flow brain altered alertness something else said didnt mention voice ive hearing im sure couldve handled bad news altered alertness right gets bad sometimes find room house clue got there remember elsewhere im somewhere else memory transport thats right word cant think word want travel transfer im supposed drive tremors extremities prompted go back doctor sometimes get bad cant hold phone pencil wasnt prepared news got said likely permanent result accident earlier year screenings done due bleeding disorder mixture coughing blood realizing dont clot trying hand something theres really one person want talk it cant idk last month almost jumped high rise window probably shoulda it really something want do feel like might best course ive lost year ever thought could alone though all mean counts felt alone one gets it well one person gets it dont feel like talk it unsolicited vehicle makes think much better year ago myself knew exactly waking blind faith kept walking cant faith anymore sometimes universe tries tell something miss life could had tired storms tired dont like anymore im person thought was theres never safety net even one promises there decides arent worth saving leaves lot happened today think ill drink tonight dont think much else,1 please help clue help hermy girlfriend considering redflag option clue help get parents divorce,1 knew onto something looked life while ive lot symptoms depression feeling depressed lot point suicidal thoughts actions recently mom went doctor got therapist well today got letter mail diagnosis severe depression apparently sure information see therapist every day im redflag watch now bright side passed english test book didnt read edit apparently posted times fuck it know,0 im disgusted myselfim disgusted self want kill whine im going isnt even bad many others much worse still move,1 at the library like a nerd ,0 best way stop feelinghi ive suicidal roughly years hospitalized times since last visit actively trying improve genuinely started feel better shit hit fan life past several months ive feeling depressed suicidal sleeping become difficult lay bed sudden wave holy fuck need hits me deep dont want act thoughts want stop ive tried medication past made feel worse advice stop feeling constantly wanting drive car bridge thanks,1 practices deter support thoughts redflagredflag mind decade getting tougher gobbledygook nowadays keep mind it ive trying better trying stay away substances gradually dependent them im hurting really bad right mentally hope receive help open ear vent get feedback much live strive ive told im starting think im mentally strong thought im tired dont want pursue anything life feels like cant exercise anymore atm get peace life personal things rather mention might place ask advice help im sure else turn turn guidance,1 situationbonjour jai ans et depuis longtemps lenvie de redflagr pourtant je ne suis pas hyper triste douleur de jai fais une tentative il moins dun et aprs avoir pris du recul je suis rendu compte que ce passage lacte tait juste un moyen de dire famille que jai tais manipul et pour en quelque sorte condamn socialement la personne de famille et annoncer son danger mes proches malgr cette ide folle javais quand mme envie de mourir comment pardonn cette personne sachant que je ne peux pas lattaquer frontalement car je sais que elle va nier le plus chiant dans cette histoire cest que mes parents prennent maintenant pour un salaud comme dhab le manipulateur te fais passer pour lagresseur et je suis oblig de partir en vacance avec bref jai limpression que quoi que je fasse elle fera chier jusqu que je tue pour de bon car aprs tentative elle continuait je ne sais plus quoi faire,1 everyone say talk to u we re here but when i tell them i want to order off of uber eats and leave my door open so when the delivery guy come he ll find me hanging and that way my family and friend won t have to find my rotting corpse day later they re like what the fuck i don t know if i ll do it but i feel like buying a rope practice tying a noose and planning it out i don t know if it s dangerous to do this because i ll finally have everything i need to actually kill myself or maybe doing it will actually make me chicken out and want to stay around a little bit longer also i don t want to leave my family saddled with my death so i sometimes think about crashing my car on the highway so it look like an accident and my insurance pay them out i want to be able to tell people that this is what i m thinking but when i even begin to let them in it s terrifying for them they want to tell my best friend or my mom or my doctor but nobody is actually there to just listen and not react so i m stuck with these thought on my own,1 want bad im afraid toive honestly shittiest time life things got complicated me want bore reddit sob story seems every time hope something always pulls again everytime convince make things work me shit happens fall deeper hole know people going tell ive heard enough that want badly pain feel instead everyday ripping apart ruining friendship connection family work cant take this everytime convince im done last possible moment bail feel way cant commit get with want loved live guilt try tell that understand feels like help convince it,1 @MandyyJirouxx AHAH. i'll never forget the video. the anna rose did you EYES. awesome. ! ,0 @youtubemark45ac had just a quarter of one and it was soooooo good ,0 i treasure my own company in fact i love it but is it really me that want to remain a recluse or is it ptsd and depression http t co sukn atq p ptsdpuzzle zachradcliffphd edwarrior 9 wemattertooinc leadproject depress0 accio shinjini parikabhatli,1 Good Sunday Morning! It's raining again so I'm going to make some potato soup for dinner and the rest of the day will be lazy day. ,0 efficient xanax x alcohol killing yourselfi finally managed get hold xanax country next impossible im determined end life wondering efficient would combining meds alcohol be ive heard fatal takes lot time actually kill you,1 alyssaspears i m sorry maybe walking around all goofy at the store would help hint hint lt,0 cant even talk someone feelings would live longer like dont mind englishi really dont know say thoughts redflag getting head cant stop thinking it want look help dont wanna live life anymore im best perfect daughter mother perfect sibling every time dont trust searching everything room find use me general cant talk anyone family feelings like taboo household ive got anger issues since couple weeks im getting panic attacks overthink much im stressing much im going walks without anyone knowing want disappear good wont know it reason dont talk feelings friends wouldnt understand pain ive through see feelings weak point dont ever share anyone person im projecting someone doesnt feel affected doesnt much emotions share im alone things getting me officially become much handle dont ever want share feelings im getting bad thoughts end all hope im gone someday finally accept sharing feelings help others learn big lesson voice doesnt count would share feelings them,1 i forgot my phone in my car but i m too scared to go outside and get it,0 week shall mainly hiding bedanother sheaf job rejection slips week got one interview lost ill advised mail extreme low hiding bedcovers helping smooth things out warm terrors outside thankful even middle age occasionally simple fire breaks still work also something incredibly naughty laying bed day unwashed unshaven ignoring stuff supposed doing,1 help shave better go grain nothing like literally nothing hair presses flat face go cut areas stubble best end hella lotta ingrown hairs yall shit ps im speaking facial hair,0 people in eelam live in depression the reason is that passing every hour from waking up in the morning till going to sleep at night is a difficult task where else but tamil nadu stoparrestingeelamtamils,1 fellow teenagers spend lives living horny paradise aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh,0 living existingnot really sure im posting websites like ss go if know is im going explain case get banned here feel like ive site years seen people come go yet im stuck standing still ive ordered method choice online gets doubt ill use it always make plans head cant even go due exhaustion general unwilling make effort plus im living someone hes last person id want find state puts much shit already ive spent today bed got bed properly pm ate went back snooze pm awake wondering go back sleep know fault reaching connecting people time like energy would like hide bed rest existence,1 let s hope the sore throat clear up before the break and is not a pre cursor to illness over the holiday,0 honourable mention to this song about aquarius which i would often sing and dance to with immense intensity when on the edge of depression in donny living in my dangerous deprived pain filled area http t co w ijatmpkm,1 ewww cooky and cola dont mix well together my tummy hurt now,0 cut every one friends years sunday toxic shits bullying kids playing fortnite others sharing exact opinion dont know put years im glad gone downside freaking one talk,0 reason continue living already know going end get used notredflag life basically pointless alone going die alone anyways prolong it waste time space stay universe destined die alone failure absolutely pointless,1 today tried explain parents really see value life called selfish felt already want tell father knew going happen regret it remember trying tell friend felt life scared could finish yet tell open tell feel learned lesson opening people never tell people truly feel ever again learn walk life look happy time order avoid mess frustration comes telling people feel well like open online since anonymous never tell people feeling real life avoid baggage comes it never open feelings again,1 neighbors panties getting stolen feel bad her mischief ,0 dont know expect want alone law enforcement officer small town ive road before injuries never severe though,1 hello,1 almost year anniversary im thinking sooner please help melast year march th abuser left me werent abuser time well yes were favorite person loved lot woke morning message skype saying good bye need leave me removed contact im gonna go much detail almost day cried nonstop couldnt it person liked fucking left me then became abuser would want talk them would call names partner would literally describe wanted maim me wanted murder cold blood happened spam id say months nightmares happened turned still going on attempted kill using childrens liquid ibuprofen remember taste it burning throat nothing happened though much shit happened want repress bad know fresh mind im panic attack cried sleep would cut oh god cutting remember total cuts got home school one day incredibly unstable then earlier year got called everything post one exfriends made tumblr said everything did every disgusting creepy thing did screenshots provided abuser friends boyfriend contributed post saying stuff ex stuff didnt want revealed stuff happy do people reblogged it saying oh god disgusting wrote redflag letter public saying would steal bottle robittusin drink night didnt it oh god memories oh god im fucking scared someone love leave march th year one week away want memories repressed bad im abuser im fucking abuser shit did fucking creepyass shit unstable shit deserved it didnt i wrote fic drew art didnt care didnt care ruined ruined ruined oh god im crying im crying im scared im fuckign scared please god exist let march th average day please dont let leave like dont desreve thus anymroe im trying hard survive im home alone could literally take one dads belts hang right second everything would finally over would finally everything ever would lead moment know wont affected theyll shrug theyll go oh well deserved it go life im crying im fucking scared didnt desreve time dont want dont want this please god help edit went throguh tumblr archives march see could find anything th found face wnant throw also found posts exact time got ruined httpsgyazocombbdeedade,1 is tired,0 ive fallen far im give trying get outwall text coming gotta get out ampxb growing feels like bad dream multiple divorces birth parents seeing sets constantly fight new spouses ive bad memories engrained since childhood guess first one ive personally experienced dad nd spouse one weekend moms house visitation my dad custody me everything normal brought back dads house only instead dad stepmom door greet me dad asked went dad said left store asked completely ignorant fighting would happen two around dad said no coming back took baby halfbrother left like time rd grade legit cried hours straight broke around time state mandated testing i classmate teacher mom called mom broke class time went continued strong school as time advanced honors classes occasional slip ups would lose motivation remembering past ampxb point high school mom spouse whom cheated dad still year old together since spouse like dad place got loud argument me half brother half sister side rush bedroom saw started arguing sister previously told arguing lot lately overheard talking getting divorce sorta ignored claims disbelief seeing two fighting brought memory day stepmom left immediately broke crying rage middle room two immediately stopped arguing seeing me calm best behaved child family suddenly burst out threw off really remember much that eventually got divorce mom moved apartment brother sister ill get back later ampxb half year year dad stepmom broke up dad met current spouse complex job time located kids own son autism week half younger me daughter months younger sister son month younger half brother dads side growing hell cause overprotected kids highly showed favortism towards them often getting trouble things did eventually mellowed saw things got line behaving with dads help anyways mom spouse got divorce dad current spouse started getting heated arguments resulted dad moving back twice span year two pretty much point complete wreck somehow still managing keep grades school two eventually came terms everything fine stable now ampxb back mom siblings apartment time relationship mom sister got pretty bad sister hit teenage years getting pretty rebellious and mom exactly mentally stable help found reason spouse broken basically cheating another lady mind you time sides family closed minded sort thing mom constantly going out leaving sister when visitation basically running apartment gone point either valentines day sisters birthday cant remember visitation mom sister locked room grandparents place bad mood divorce things mom sorta really naggy sister day tried stand her snap threaten me way back apartment old bad memories came broke car mom pulled took us park set apartment complex try talk us sat us seperately started talking us turn talking brother sister crying turned focused anger towards mom coming realization lot sadness happened life her got started walking complex back apartment mom saw came grabbed shoulder now ive never one fight cause problems always quiet one never really anything besides reading playing video games ive never fight moment grabbed me instinctively twisted arm got small fight nothing crazy grapple fest pissed growing up ive pretty much always bottled emotions mostly cause dad kind person thought showing emotion weak manly thing do point bottle anyting else up blew top point sister stepped seperated us brother mom went back car drove around complex back apartment sister i hand walked back attempt calm down shaking hard even unlock phone time call dad stepdad let know happened saturday dad grandparents place from side domino night dad pretty shaken hearing sister said call cause fact family even noticed dad right rush moms apartment pick up told no point thinking watching siblings ampxb years probably since high school would get highs lows lows would always lower last higher highs harder crash lows graduated high school abhonor roll placed like gradutatesincluding ap dual enrollment students got accepted ucf bright futures scholarship covering pell grand covering rest excess new bank account throughout time though especially lows always thought ending it tying rope slitting veinartery jumping headfirst roof house never guts it adds self loathing bitterness finished first semester college pretty well second semester issues started laptop which was time years old pretty much dying everyting keep working replacing parts installing linux cause windows got corrupted etc eventually dad forced get job mostly spouse kept bitching adult working relaxing home weekends eventually got job waffle house fridaysunday try get money replace laptop one caveat give month help bills groceries with keeping maybe like end month food stuff eventually replaced laptop working school grades slipped enough to gpa requirement financial aid got cut pell bright futures point know do couldnt tell dad spouse basically religious grades placed pedestal family life smart first one actually go college graduate my dad dropped out sibilngs never went college anyways tell lost financial aid time one point nd stepmom basically guilted keeping working talking car something saying basically helping bunch work getting much thats fine dad would work even harder even overtime keep bills such me people pleaser kind person cant help resisting ones need basically kept working ended keep working waffle house eventually went door choir waiter try earn money ended taking student loan try keep going class try get degree grades kept slipping especially math used one best subjects go detail lower level math courses university basically slave could prison nothing math hours straight week requirement cant that math basically flip back forth things keep overwhelmed keep calm pretty much focus time eventually gave going all even though requirement kept working grades kept slipping semester semester lack sleep time try study homework main culprits keep working support household eventually went probation grades got low flunked following semester one knows this best friends closests friends family first time ive talked it ive going year half amost now pretending still going college im afraid tell anyone im afraid trust anyone ended defaulting loans collectors ass one knows ive gotten good lying parents face cant even tell im lying believe im currently taking online classes albeit little little part time continuing studies im not today yesterday got ad letters mail different attourney offices mentioning apparently collectors filed lawsuit me im wits end know now doubt letters ive given paying loans good chunk money about rds make currently working home depot goes house incuding paying whole electricity bill groceries last third goes paying phone bill personal needs like food such ampxb earlier year got hit car crossing crosswalk walking work ended torn ligament shoulder lump head light damage occipital lobe brain even tosssed feet collision dad town time picking nd stepmom airport dropped dad back home country called him called work called went hospital given painkillers stuff told would fine rest ended making claim guy hit mes insurance help attourney got treatment needed sometimes though especially now wish collision killed me wish hang on strong willed live hospital moms side caught wind sister told manager hospital showed up dad hand told let anyone side know anyways im sitting er road rash lump head from could see time surrounded family started crying pain felt none shock felt bad making worry me deserve worry deserve love ive lying every one faces years none know sometimes want disappear vanish suddenly wake gone bad dream now writing this ive though go kitchen grab knife end prick grab bedsheets tie tight know wont im coward ideas drive drive left long ago go flow try cause least amount trouble time comes one miss notice time comes,1 anyone else also feel like this im straight man like sucking cock find relaxing soothing stress relieving cum mouth satisfying way baby relaxed breast feeding uses pacifier emulates sucking nipple keep sucking hopes milk come out enjoying sucking cock gay holdover baby enjoyment comes act sucking something like nipple satisfaction milk comes out like men,0 first time ever saw movie back s wee lad dad actually recorded tv must watched times relatively recent release dvdbr br i course bought watched dvd taken aback much dialogue changed first version still vhs mood film thanks dialogue actually dark however new version featuring van der beek et al comicbr br to put another way like watching original us release akira dub watching remastered version literal translation japanesebr br im way complaining story quality animation detracted from raise question whether miyazaki intended lighter darker narrative theme film,0 i don t know what to so with my life i m tired of trying i m in med for my bipolar and bpd but i just can t anymore i m mad i can t be sad because of the med and it s making me crazy i can t feel anything just i feel like live it s pointless to me i only enjoy when i live for others and i don t have anyone i m tired,1 day posting phrase liquid whales get girlfriend or likely forget post put best face everybody pretend know song everybody come hang lets go bang bang bang bang im way young lie forever im way old try whatever come hang lets go bang bang bang bang todays filler brought ajr song bang,0 worst irony life ive always tried depend anything im alive internet worst irony life ive always tried depend anything im alive internet ,1 @tommcfly YAYA NO1 WOO HOO YOU DESERVE IT xx,0 @zeeblet Try to put a little leash on them ,0 morning everyone bad dream woke me up,0 hate menobody really seems want around one closest friends forgets text best friend basically said better without life boyfriend now ex broke day myself sexually assaults drinks never respects hes still me tempting reach know doesnt treat well instead reached ex see could get anything found could care less want trying start drug empire hoped posting subreddits getting validation well dms would give something look forward didnt adding one rats passed away fault mom dad think im sleeping couch difficult sleep room since quincy passed really fully made noose intend using it cutting doesnt work anymore usually coping strategies either hurt kms since sh doesnt appeal anymore want need kms dont want hospitalized again doesnt help tried order stuff online give something wake couldnt decide wanted tried reward w donuts months clean second longest ive years ive hurting myself somebody ate all mom didnt want change medicine doesnt think handle it dont even know meant that cant handle switching medicine cant handle meds sounds petty hate myself made promise three years ago still heavily suicidal crying sleep would kill myself matter life turn cant worth this ill likely go redflag closest ive dying since age started tldr everybody better without cant find something live for,1 i have the flu,0 low budget movie really good put well average action bmovie sean corinne delivered movie seem camera shy watch cameos jeanne jared think producers would even consider that runnerups deserve much br br ill looking forward sean corinnes involvement movie entertainment industry seans character seemed genuine sexy corinnes character pretty hardnosed point connected well action sequences executed confidence great idea cast billy zane smart witty villain charisma screen always pleasure watch chemistry zane seans character pretty good action sequences cheesy seemed connect throughout movie course flaws comes territory br br overall good movie considering budget fact made tv sean corinne good job considering newcomers game hope jeanne jared rest next action star cast get chance also join costars entertainment successbr br final judgment ,0 @KenaSiu Hey thanks!! ,0 Delonge Day ,0 stress muchi feel like everything control need life line tonight second time ive seriously considered it fleeting thought impulse pills ive researched effects dosage needed cant bring it sure theres real purpose posting this didnt want feel alone anymore,1 i m getting swole af tho jus need to get back on my healthier diet shit depression isn t over but the eatin my feel part is u can t b depressed wit a pack it s medically impossible http t co tym by taw,1 not even to talk about anything it wa kind of odd actually he just said he wa on lunch and had to go back to work in 0 he just wanted to bother me for a minute i think he just saved my life go fucking figure,1 "It's almost time to get EXTREEEEEME... who wants to come over for chicken wings, pizza & the PPV on the big screen? ",0 "Lonely millennials twice as likely to experience depression or anxiety, finds study http://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/millennials-lonely-depression-anxiety-mental-health-odds-doubling-unemployed-study-a8319686.html …",1 something change undeniable dilemmaim borderline means distorted perceptions means husband goes verbal tirade tells awful am imcant say hes wrong says im abusive son remember said get yell last night home son day recovering minor surgery exhausted stayed night check him asked husband help ask right way overwhelmed exhausted came across bitchy guess yelled yelled yelled ways im horrible already knew piece shit husband thinks too threatened wit telling really thought go there idea ask help properly know borderline quit next months spent planning arranging redflag feeling never goes away im trapped unhappy marriage someone verbal abuses calls abusive one believe im borderline feelings last borderline shelol forget hours anyway nope forget hard forget years wrong bad horrible always causing trouble time go hurt anyone else better mom killed mom thats borderline im going abuse others dead cant leave husband fight custody child support use mental illness pot use me theres way win im going stay way wants mouth shut chore errands everything around house everything kid never ask money anything im going play nice doctors save meds enough bother posting here gives shit stupid fucking borderline one herpes mental illness maybe date gets closer ill come back tell plan maybe post non forum tell theres one less borderline world maybe jump front train today instead sorry wasting anyones time read this borderlines fucking joke people laugh kill myself one help me nothing helping mens help therapy help know else besides ect lobotomy redflag way out find way guts it,1 I'm actually giving myself an early mark from work!! Big day of meetings tomorrow ahead of Wednesday's "Project GoLive" culmination ,0 "@FoxNews depression is a message not an illness. Lets you know that you must change the way you are made to think, by bringing God back the right way.See http://KillingEvil.com  & start to preview. Reduce mental illness & suicides - highest in 30 years. Psychiatry has no clue.",1 probably goodbye guessto honest thinking killing self would better everybody around since pretty much think im waste space since im go school get feeling like im person whole school died would less weight parents shoulders could want do anybody even responds respond im dead yet thank reading guess,1 i ve been having anxiety and i m wondering if my sternum hurting is a part of it,1 considered wrong want opt life young ageim years old decided last year alive wont live see year others want prolong suffering wanting continue stay alive im killing thats final,1 need medicationhey first thanks working help people mental health issues wish could myself caught problems bipolar diagnosed separate times quite medications antidepressants antipsychotics however years ago lost insurance decided commit getting help went long process eventually got prescribed lamotrigine lamictal medication first really work me things going alright while got new doctor just urgent care extend prescription without previous medical records due clerical error wrong name went meds cold turkey since spiraled trying get life back years later now feel like tried everything worked quit job moved state better health care ive told family need help keep getting denied healthcare make year hardly enough pay rent much care think redflag every day know need feel better enough keep going pill costs cents dont know find doctor dont know get insurance ive bartender which season moving applying jobs benefits im loss anxiety roof never look forward waking up know must making harder needs be know avenues take afraid reaching let paralyzed afraid work really hard getting better nothing comes give up do thanks low pressure environment,1 want live feel like im getting closer itday day first week summer mom visiting grandpa less months live idiotic dad work brother hangs friends day since drive means days sit computer watching days waste away summer slips fingers worst feeling ever thats tip iceberg im christian family im gay family would devastated knew much crap going on feel physically sick keeping bottled time friends im likeable person need someone talk to see point life go school get job lose summer working get old suffer die watching thing happen everyone around you lets cut middle man one knows im gay lets keep way rhyme seen therapist every day start sobbing loneliness cant take anymore im wreck got like school bad teachers work stress constant bullying go detail really need someone talk to want skype chat text chat thank advance lt,1 sad about kutner being killed off my fav show house,0 @flutestar123 yes. ue and ae for german. ,0 self harmthis first post please forgive follow correct protocolformat etc year old female lives boyfriend always bouts depression ever since around recently unexpected major bad episode attempted redflag overdose hanging myself attempts failed setraline which helped before im starting feel even keel signed work hr department really nice supportive bought kitten love pieces already even lifted mood loti think may something making feel needed however still struggle self harm know lot people use self harm seek attention gain help people around them use way mainly go areas people cant see for example inner thigh inner top arm groin etc try make cuts seem accidental try go deep try leave scar but often fail reason cut get sense relief releases pressure brain makes sense know helps feel suicidal anymore feel thoughts feelings hiding shadows ready pounce againim scared care family amazing supportive boyfriend logic care dead terrible know stop hurting still find way get rid dark weight mind comes,1 pointless title im going downvote comment post here private space,0 suicidal thoughts intrusive know stop themi meds anxiety disorder constant anxiety caused feel isolated useless caused depression meds depression never suicidal this thoughts dying constant today cleaned house organized things sort like nesting preparing something feel like everything coming apart need die want leave kids cant seem stop thoughts think stop depression meds seem made things worse stop taking them doctor told month ago need work certain dosage guessing means need wean them want kill meantime heard withdrawals cause suicidal thoughts too,1 i nearly spoiled myself for house did just a teeny bit saw a name but then it went away via link i won t be terribly surprised now,0 @badbadgirlx good luck with everything. it was great having you around ,0 i just started a new job week ago i work there day a week for hour just to pay my bill while i m studying so far i ve been dreading every single day so much that i m actually super nervous the day before and it seems like it s not getting better at all i still feel like i know barely anything and i have to ask my coworkers about literally everything and i m insanely anxious and uncomfortable in that work environment i honestly don t even know why or what exactly the issue is but i m having a really hard time feeling at home there if i remember correctly my last job wa completely fine after a week it s funny because it s just stocking shelf at a supermarket in the morning that s my job and i m anxious about it so how long do you think it ll take to get comfortable to actually not being scared a hell of going there,1 made poem dogs hope guys like it gthello friendlt gtyou smell goodlt gtthe family havelt gtprotect shouldlt gtpat backlt gtmy golden featureslt gti love solt gti creaturelt gti pallt gtmy coat grayinglt gtbut doesnt matterlt gtmy tail swayinglt gtyou love toolt gtbut wear sorrowlt gtdont worry pallt gtill always followlt gtim getting olderlt gtmy friend forever lt gtbut bond never severlt gtmy life filled joylt gtfrom otherslt gtin time together brotherslt gti may herelt gtin flesh bloodlt gtbut never forget budlt gtnow let restlt gtmy time overlt gti love solt gteternal brotherlt,0 got appt psyc new job starting august wanted get ahead redflag depressive symptoms returning unpleasantly upped sertraline mg added wellbutrin mg cover bases say stable work coming things nice hear anybody experience two together symptoms returning med increase,1 twista 0 i still haven t read the 9th amp 0th princess diary saving francesca made me cry at the end hmm those are easy book,0 i have twitter on my phone now,0 wife attempted redflag hours ago happens nowmy wife ate ambian hours ago arrived home hour took them could barely talk told took ambian called parimedics arrived police took hospital doctors say going ok police said going held psyc eval drugs ware off happens us now tomorrow going like next week also wife mexio us student visa getting phd im us citizen im planing talking lawyer monday anything else know subject would help update wife voluntarily analysis treatment means facility watches make sure attempt kill self again get medicated set psychiatrist therapist doctor scheduled next week brought street clothes cant draw strings etc patients cant hang etc released next days er psyc dude explained options could voluntarily enter program could refuse argue judge present options said little therapy far helpful think one welcome therapy got visit hours today cant visit tomorrow visitation limited,1 like google meet zoom change mind conference app u like,0 i m up amy s coming around today so i have to clean my room,0 another early morn with the duchess although she hadn t managed to cross her leg this time,0 tagged nsfw tw mention of suicidal ideation and suicide attempt the idea of suicide is comforting it is all that i ve known the idea of ending the constant misery i feel is weirdly enough the only thing stopping me from doing it besides a select number of friend a it truly is comfortable to me to be sitting in the cesspool of apathy and hatred for myself i feel every day usually when i m depressed i feel the apathy and it slowly just turn to numbness but something is different this time around do you ever feel almost the thrill of suicide or rather do you ever almost feel excitement when you re done grieving what your life could would have been lately i ve felt at peace over my self grieving and i do not like that a i have been desperately trying to stay afloat and the tiny push i would usually give myself to ground myself is gone i ve only ever felt this rush when i attempted and the aftermath destroys me every single time this feeling is almost like some time of euphoric high that i cant stop chasing i hate my life and i hate feeling like this but aren t some people meant to be dished the worst card to balance out nature,1 i am having some severe anxiety attack these can last for hour my blood pressure and heart rate get very high i ve been to the er but they just gave me ativan and it doesn t help i have trouble breathing it s hard to talk my limb go numb my heart feel cold i have severe urge to vomit and go to the bathroom,1 my depression to my anti-depressants https://twitter.com/pokemon_ebooks/status/989129859552174082 …,1 yall actually talk like this subreddit real ive reddit entirety teen life im unsure sub started popping up entirety subreddits existence cringe fest teens better humor this every post reads like year old pretending teen subreddit needs investigation,0 @AubreyODay wut u want a shot of ma? ,0 cherrytreerec i can t see anything stupid youtube and their location restriction who s in the speedo,0 Searching for new ringtones...im thinkin something loud and hilarious to few who know what its from ,0 rant kind of keep scrolling im done life boring every day blends together hate alive hate myself im sure almost everyone know hates too talk feel bad im weird social cant even keep conversation going im worthless even talents nearest thing talent drawing im even good it read this sorry wasting time needed say barely ever talk this,0 one day one day someone dig phones like years like actual heck people like wouldnt able explain anything camera roll,0 feeling great yr old personmy dad dead mom recently disabled raped two years ago broke cervix thats enough evidence despite raping another girl lot joint pain neck shoulders havent slept four days wo help alcohol jolt arms hurt go numb clench teeth tried go w coworker saw summer ex bf w new girl owns bar make week hrshe kept dancing around heads w baby like see bro feel depressed worthless days holidays especially rough called last week stomach nauseous problems wailing crying dad night w nightmares finally close eyes tip keeps night even close hell ive endure people get good luck get bad thats tell myself im safe today self preservation kicks in plan please dont ask ill make one dr would give xannax dont become addicted idk anyone needs point people need one horrors ive listed used look forward future try push forward see make happy happen life balance bad point see much future im best could better,1 if your anxiety is attached to your career goal doe success or validation relieve it,1 feel hopeless accept life like thisthrow away account i apsergers syndrome ocd backstorycontext live dysfunctional house hold subjected mental emotional verbal abuse mother sits living room tells im bad person abuses people cares himself try leave room screams me past would physically abusive slapping spanking accessions beat ground lead issues younger would lash anyone likely due anger built abuse made become friendless one wants friends me cant go anyone think abusive person go police flipped script framed abuser result go police charged warned would happen visit house again cant tell therapist would talk police duty so situation like this also cant move enough money get assisted housing behalf government resulted losing hope im world shit created it,1 random girl called natural hair beautiful reassured antagonizing racists school switched online school public tuesday none approximately three friends classes except pe ever really walkrun around volleyball net today coaches took basketballs volleyballs hula hoops free day generally friends walk around perimeter gym talk free days time two class talking one another kind leaching along awkwardly obviously want there kind swooped way closer want instert seem annoying mindlessly circled around gym wore natural hair today contrary normally do install braids shove headscarf whats head girl got attention asked that even question making fun coily hair thick c hair seems like anywhere go cant escape discrimination even home mother who uses perms do even brush that it looks like dirty sponge like skin maybe bathed dark little circle antoagozing me decided go space volleyball net far enough away bother anyone close enough game girls playing seem lost look like easy target girl coming bathroom stopped second saw hair gasped thought would snarky comment until oh god hairs beautiful know why touched heart ill wearing hair tomorrow,0 @jonthanjay awesome i have one...there's some cool games on there ,0 drivers license help ive trying reach dmv days one pick phone respond messages either website reddit thought id see question could answered here question apply license road test suspended nc im currently years old wasnt able finish drivers ed school never permit ive hours driving mom believe pre covid year old could apply license nc without drivers ed permit road test suspension im sure true questions are still apply either license permit age road test suspended received drivers education certificate apply road test waiver need one,0 movie great like every international project includes strong impressions three israel bosnia egypt cut out especially bosnian clip pathetic beyond reason contain single original thought element own everything else really great unrecognizable americans known rest world unfortunately clips speak misery people world and see it many give damn itbr br top loach penn inarritu lalouche imamura,0 everyone exists chaos level basically sum up amount chaos prone life whole universe something decides born learn live it neurotypicals rich people pretty people etc struggles yes absolutely struggles completely separate type chaos talking about talking type chaos exemplified people like me bad childhood mental illness bad genes etc etc etc ultimately learned cope much possibly can think people like me coping never enough never full month life severely suicidal least week it never true stability like people many areas life shambles cannot possibly change fundamental issues comes actually able happy daily basis people say change completely ignoring word fundamental bullshit people get lucky people try convince us could like kept itwell let tell something people optimistic person know even finish writing this probably smoke bowl watch netflix pass out rest assured suffering begins anew tomorrow always always shred optimism core preventing leaving shitty world yet enough stop constant mood swings listless problems seem face daily basis could look it another way long meds stop working again another psychiatrist leaves cannot this will cannot maybe find hopeful personally another slap face terribly aware unfair life yet able escapei hope browsing subreddit find actually one people manageable amount natural chaos eternal curse constantly managing convince am think finally figured,1 theres something wrong medeleted,1 i ve never hated anything this much in my entire life i m stressed out i m so stressed out i m constantly stressed out i m tired of cry every day over school i m tired of being left out by people i thought were my friend everything is so difficult and i want to die i genuinely want to die this is too much it s too much and i m only in freshman year i m only life is only going to get harder from here on and if i m already like this i don t even want to see what s in store for me life suck school suck i want to shove a knife into my head,1 throwback like ten going tomboy phase guy went boys secondary school gave pamphlet secondary ran away crying bruh see thought boy tall cornrows boobs yet wore masculine clothes still event and growth boobies led becoming feminine person ever,0 The Hangover was one of the funniest effin movies I have ever seen! And Bradley Cooper = HOT!,0 idea like spirit worldim thinking taking trip soon done real world,1 Fancy is a 187 hun got u doin things u aint never done ,0 able draw would draw hentai think it could draw really fucking well waste time trying make unique art get famous draw hentai anything everything amazing piece took months take day make anime tiddies stare greatness,0 Enjoying the nice cool breeze of my new desk fan ,0 "really want to do some art but not feeling motivated *cough cough* slight depression *cough*but yea I'll try and get that redraw done soon, altho there are a lot of projects that I have to do for school and other homework",1 i want to get help so bad i don t want to keep with the if all else fails i can always end my l fe mindset i m just scared because even if i do seek out treatment and for once i find a therapist psychiatrist who actually work for me i m not sure it s going the solve enough to make me want to keep fighting for this life there are so many issue right now so many thing i ve fucked up considerably even if i get to a place mentally where i feel like i can tackle them there s no guaranteeing i can actual change my situation i just wish i didn t have to wake up and continue to make my life worse i m a pathetic person i disgust and humiliate myself i m not meant to be in this world i m not meant to succeed in it im not meant to be anything or anyone other than this miserable lazy poor excuse for a law student i hate the person who look back at me in the mirror more than anything i just wish id never had to know myself,1 can t belive it we re home so sleepy hr today in round rock tx http loopt u getn w,0 anyone elses face look kinda greyish brother also mentioned face looked greyish irl bit pics take,0 @xJPUx : intimidating but madaldal : 7? mga ganon : don't let depression get into u and always look at the brighter side of life stay strong with eya tca and gbu ,1 almost today im going try againim going die soon finally ill peace,1 im ugly fuck never find lovefucking kill me point living cant find love one could possibly find attractive even tell personality needs physical attraction matters,1 @mintconspiracy That's cute!! I recently got a pack of wildflower seeds from them that said Go Sew! ,0 think im donehi name micheal years oldi started using drugs drinking anything get fucked screw push evrybody me lost lot friends good friendsmy mom prostitute found fucked brain problems sexual abuse also fucked brain never told one cant get dark stuff head years cant stand anymore,1 wants friends gladly flirt best friend idk want feel wanted guy flirty enough cant like her guys like much personality basic,0 ampxbmy parents longer infallible role models thought deeply flawed apes know anything like rest us fact role models anymorehuman notredflag mysterious wonderful fateful predictable chemical reactions broken science life exciting wonderful boring predictable horrendous disillusioned life,1 Longg ass night!! gonna stay home and watch movies 2nite!! ,0 @betty822 that sounds like a pretty good night to me ,0 hate parents close door leave room like seriously close damn door leave room get perfectly comfortable potentially back breaking position chair bed close door lazy ass it tell please close door sometimes audacity say why it ok then lets see feel refuse flush toilet next time go bathroom fucking hell ampxb yeah thats it rant over,0 off to bed damn end of daylight saving mean my son will be awake at 0am,0 anyone listen yun head songs pretty lit tho,0 "Man, aren't I just a bottle of sunshine today?! Going to try and stop complaining now. ",0 home with the flu ahhh suxz well and tired will go to sleep in about an hour or so goodnites,0 dream had dont memorable dreams even dream often likely dont remember anyways dream last night repeating head want tell someone thought tell random strangers reddit began walking neighborhood everything trashed broken like would expect apocalypse look like like dayz neighborhood gamers waking saw something move roof joggedwalked check out climbed onto roof foot slipped old rotten part roof caught slipping looked back saw girl age yellow shirt pants backpack on first didnt think much first thought oh kind cute quickly got roof went hole roof get inside followed curiosity dream gets kind hazy certain parts house dont know asked name anything one main parts dream got really attached thought prettiest woman ive ever seen sorry gets kind weird now remember walking dimly lit room her bedroom twin bed curtains pulled closed way enough light comes room see everything looked drawer top bow tie put told like bow tie gets hazy remember next got really close caressing cheek said want to said no said ok bow tie back left pretty much dont remember anything else dream ive trying remember face soon woke up couldnt remember looked like faint worn image cant make features face left head know dreams deeper meaning like poetry dont idea this,0 mehjust turned bunch assignments school several late lot easy bullshit like sample resumes know self reflection garbage life nothing mistakes hate it hate everything ive done hate myself dream day finally kill myself,1 @Karnatos Thanks again! ,0 on my way to boracay in a few minutes ,0 waiting for kelly s call,0 f admitted psychiatric ward scarred me tell story im prolific writer regardless anyone willing listen remains found please comment ill get started,0 feeling welli tired going life like this know headed towards bad endat point it going tonight next week maybe next year so cant live feelings cant live constant agony selfdestructive behavior anyone talk to im miserable need help want actual face talk to text,1 life minecraft hardcore smp server cant find save quit button,0 i called my doctor and told them buspirone wasn t doing anything for my anxiety attack and they said they d put in another prescription i just picked it up and it s called hydralazine but i can t find anything online about it being used for anxiety just hydroxyzine i had already taken it upon noticing this and now my anxiety is spiked,1 found possible solution problemsthis benefit men suicidal women much link comments,1 someone talk mei posted day deleted it skype im lonely,1 lol i did that then i wa silly and thoght kb wa the same a k so it still not working i doubt i will ever find one,0 im madi dont want anymore havent long time know anything mom make it shell drink death outright kill herself go pain good life im dying inside every day dont know else do dont know keep hanging on,1 don t want to live anymore i m tired of this i m tired of being in society and having to be with people just want to be left alone forever fuck everything i m a failure,1 @harvardmed Why this @HarvardMed resident is opening up about his secret battle with depression—and wants others to do the same: http://bit.ly/2HJOwyL ,1 go school leave new kitten home sitting purring,0 second attempt time im going iti tried thousand things make happy exciting life active end day lay head thinking what point yet find answer wearing life away goes edit thank everyone wonderful people making sure put much thought make mistake going continue posting make decision let know edit going go longboarding hour so usually calms may help sort thoughts out ill back long hopefully edit decided easy way out thank guys much great deal said gave positive outlook talked close friend well helped great deal couple posts giving advice correctly reported everyone positive advice given real life karma saving life thank much live long prosper,1 dm know drill bored lonely im dude curious,0 female moment women why sexualized also women legalize women going topless oppressed patriarchy ampxb ampxb thanks coming ted talk,0 name hilarious movies im bored want watch something funny dont know watch,0 Hungry! I've done so much coursework today and I'm hungry for my pasta ,0 candy man karaoke httpsyoutubegxoomdmylihttpsyoutubegxoomdmyli,0 pls help old xbox friend username motto hes probably changed now would really nice find him motto seeing this waverunner says hi,0 thigh highs hot everyone male female inbeetween god look good hilight human firgure look really good,0 bruh physics exam tomorrow started studying today teacher says hardest one year also first one idk anything cant learn formulas shit im scared anxiety clouds monster cant pull nighter get f chat also cant copy bc class itd obvious,0 "@Dr_Jared Those guys should be thrown in jail , they're disgusting heartless bastards - ty for the follow btw ",0 continuing lifefirst all cant believe im here usually kept everything myself thoughts keep coming now internet longer provide answers motivation believe talking friends family isnt helping make feel worse avoid social medias may know username usually use games doubt use reddit even subreddit guys good strangers now cant even describe myself im scared people scared try scared communicate pessimist feeling worthless cant anything properly life im age need find jobs social anxiety personality cant even talk properly every interview end bad every new interview always remind previous went fail again tried always chickened out ending scared even trying anything new worse im man even future far dont dare even look girlfriend feel know left get know better end gossip behind destroy image community slightest small possibility found one wont left me make think destroyed someone daughter future deserve better life normal men me do lost father last month one keep going life mother want make proud want happy dont want waste sacrifice me seem failing endlessly im feeling terribly sorry hard work raising someone like me im tired living like this feeling way could longer find enjoyment life usually play games shake feelings cant even get play games nothing seem entertain now,1 guys need quick advice long story short girl sc posted story asking someone face time her didnt expect want face time since didnt know anything slid like wanna text like face time gave number called like minutes later surprising cuz fine fuck one dont mean sound negative im sexiest looking guy lol got phone immediately started teasingplaying talking theres spider wall found funny seemed genuinely laughing it even like boy irratatingg talked random shit whatever good maybe minutes friend called tell shit happened party whatever doubt call back cuz late asf rn im confused next seems cool asf yk want start talking more im scared might one time thing shes actually interested idk mean know shes single thats certain text tomorrow doesnt text first ill honest shes kinda dry texts expressive asf phone text try call tomorrow night feel like could text like heyy spider girl idk yall think know im overreacting shes cute bro actually wanna try see get her,0 band released new song discopop httpsopenspotifycomtrackfjsdrunsllfpqjkwpsiqaesdnqwkotmqkupq hope enjoy it,0 keep hygiene cook clean apartment spend time people love make mw money worthless capitalism won give up pawn asset count every penny make every day sure keep eating making enough point breathing worker working worth anything,1 The Black Dog of Depression https://buff.ly/2IyfwxC  #bigdata #leadership,1 Dealing with depression isn't easy - here's a few things you shouldn't say to someone who's suffering >> http://annesmiles.com/never-say-to-person-with-depression/ …,1 @Dannymcfly Good Morning ,0 late night conversations and cute boys on freeways make my summer nights ,0 mod would ban clapping posts hate,0 feel like killing thinking redflag everydayim male convinced im gonna end bottom scrapes barrel one all constant instances disrespect people whole life rejection people wanting get know im different depression kicks hard work hard cant help feel hopeless feel like im even going anywhere whats point anyway body loves need better reason live,1 watch anime hmmm think neon genesis evangelion relates much me,0 grow adult adulthood overrated depressingwhen grow adult often pressured realistic cost often especially luckyfortunate enough whole adulthood grow up things turned us jaded weary bitter cynical apathy limited empty cold sad amp depressed personindividual young youthful carefree freespirit creative lively happy amp dreamydreamer child childhood us often times slowly died grow adult many people also usually means let go honest amp real would say pressured kill dreams reality cruel cold disappointing limiting mundaneboring stupid pointlessmeaningless often times amp depressing especially us fully realized amp wake harsh truth,1 im scared right ventim scared sanity mental health dreams field mental health cant even control emotions want everything stop second,1 in 2 hours or so I will upload an image of the comic without illustration… so you can see the process yes?,0 im sorry guys actually catch feelings crush like yeah theres kids think cute like ive never caught feelings solid crush want relationship bad ive never anyone ive liked lot tried friends with build relationship like guys this i say guys mean boys girls everyone lol,0 @c4lpt Redesign looks good. Pleasant improvement ,0 Vegan taste like depression and #KurdishWhiteBeans,1 anyone spent time working hospital medical facility got appreciate film plot absolutely wild entertaining start finish acting superb george c scott brilliant doctor class failure husband father diana riggs sex symbol s s of avengers saves himself surrounding cast superb dialogue quite entertaining think enjoyed film viewing th th th time caught much richness dialogue interplay characters well worth seeing again want check hospital near future,0 My hairs is done ,0 "@gisher I'm just the retweeter I personally believe the Tweet Effect, and the weekly purge, will take care of these things for me...",0 @MCTello I'm honored Thank you so much!,0 tw terrorism death amp x 00b i f australia have crippling anxiety surrounding flying and i really want to figure out how to deal with it i didn t know the root cause of this fear until i wa about or so when i wa having a conversation with my parent during this conversation they casually brought up the fact that they had let me watch 9 on the news i wa at the time including all the footage of the moment the plane hit the twin tower people jumping out the recording of people saying goodbye to their loved one and so on for two week after apparently all i would say wa plane go boom despite not remembering any of this it check out a i ve always had a very deep seeded fear of flying for a long a i can remember and i wa clearly just a tad traumatised by this i do remember being a child and always cry in not wanting to go on family holiday because i wa convinced there were bomb on the plane and would be looking under my seat and so on searching the last time i went on a plane wa when i wa for a family holiday where i wa admittedly a massive brat and refused to do any of the activity during the week because i wa so upset that i wa being forced to take mere domestic flight and just wanted to go home because of my ability to now refuse to step on a plane a an adult i have only been to two other country near australia which were all during my childhood it is not lost on me that this is still a very very very privileged position to be in and that there are far worse thing in life than not being well travelled however i would really like to get over my fear of flying because since it is impeding on my life for me my biggest hang up over flying is perhaps the lack of control associated with it i m at the whim of the pilot and the plane i know statistically i m more likely to die in just about any other way but i think what make me not have a crippling phobia of anything else is that i probably delude myself into thinking i have more control in those other situation eg if i get into a train crash or something i have more of a chance of surviving by kicking a window out or someone else dragging me out and often activity like driving are just necessary for going about daily life so i can justify the risk however flying isn t some absolute necessity so i have a far harder time justifying it and am completely distraught over the idea of dying just because i wanted to go on some silly holiday i wa intending to do some travel this year since i ve graduated university and thought i had managed my fear i am supremely grateful that money isn t an issue for me so i m more than happy to spend more on flight with safe airline like qantas for me not to have a complete breakdown mid flight and figured a lot of my anxiety could hopefully be managed through that but the latest china eastern situation ha sent me into a spiral and i m not doing great obviously can t compare it to what the poor victim and their loved one are experiencing i tried to stay away from it but i accidentally saw the still of the plane vertically diving and i nearly threw up i had quite similar reaction to other plane crash in my lifetime and they completely derail my life for week afterwards because i get so upset from it i apologise for how long this post is just a bit of a mess at the moment and have achieved absolutely nothing today except writing this post i m just not really sure where to go from here but am open to any suggestion thank you so much for your comment in advance i genuinely really appreciate it,1 got thigh highs bunny ears halloween tho,0 "@MikeTrout would be willing to support our company's cause. We focus on saving the lives of teenagers by encouraging them to learn to love the characteristics that make them different. We decrease, suicides, homicides, bullying, depression, and more.",1 ok so this neusea thing ha slowly started to ruin my life i have just recently realised it might be anxiety it started when i wa about every time when i went to a sleepover close to the bedtime i started feeling sick cant remember more since it wa so long timeago it still continues today year later i can not stay the night at anyone el place or have anyone stay over at mine when the night fall and we are supposed to be relaxing i start shaking dont want to be touched or spoken to i feel like i could throw up anytime i feel my muscle tensing up when i notice it i breathe out and i feel relaxed for few second until i remember the other person presense and i start shaking again playing videogames or going outside help a bit now i have a boyfriend and he would really wan na spend the night together but i just cant do it we tried i started feeling really sick and then he left and now i feel bad everytime i see him sometimes when ive been alone i wake up middle of the night feeling sick shaking everytime i try to continue sleeping i see flash of food and sometimes if my house smell like food a bit it get overwhelming i go to sit to my toilet for hour barely staying awake sipping water sometimes i throw up and it help sometimes i just end up sleeping while sitting it is terrible and i hate this so so much i dont wan na break up with my boyfriend because of this but he is gon na lose his patience soon p i think i have emetofobia aswell edit ive been officially diagnosed with depression amp anxiety and ive never told these symptom to my old psychologist i thought it wa dumb,1 widyatarina say what kal penn s leaving house noooooo awww i totally missed it tonight,0 okay know mrbeast clickbait u check channel livestream scheduled one hour put anything u want moon bucks,0 people internet get salty really really fast sometimes people internet get salty really fast mean theres minor thing bugs theyll like this thing racist maybe think main moral story something unrelated plot itself like dark souls someone internet thought metafore capitalism instead game feedingending cycles even get started people fix fictional characters mean theyre real theyre drawing offend anyone obviously limitation still also anyone gets offended scream me please,0 hate myself think always done extent multiple reasonsi got help half year ago already lot better time one guy group friends we close manages trigger you fucking worthless part every single time go drink something really know definitely purpose always says something puts spiral cannot get rest night entire next day thing happened last night went bed like tired think anythingnow go monday night really think go really want see firends means hours suffering afterwards know worth iti considered talking think would understand next day everyone know probably know told do want go friends scared,1 that s when i ll do it one month after i turn i ll take my parent car out to a shed and block the exhaust pipe i ll leave it running and take a bunch of pill and fall asleep in the back seat a peaceful way to go out i hope it work i can t wait,1 know best way help friend right nowokay bit long story best friend boyfriend killed months ago really bad gotten pretty close cause feel like one loved much me recently relapsed self harm years clean even recently past couple day stated many times going kill herself im everything think help her need world fucking bad couldnt make without her know doing cant lose know start sorry rant guess advice appreciated,1 im backits while ive tried die many times since ive yet im still alive wish wasnt dont want be everyone life wants live dont want live im tired suffering,1 stuck on my own at work super stressed i wish i wa somewhere else,0 @GayPatriot haha. I like that one ,0 finished graded science project ive working days projects go hours assuming dont sleep ofc,0 i have a couple friend but the girl i love doesn t love me back any more i think she might be seeing someone else i want to kill myself,1 "I love this type of weather,windy and cool, it makes me feel that I'm still young ",0 technology boon bane throw opinions guys floor yours auto mod auto mod auto mod auto mod,0 tell crush like her ive procrastinating months point im still unsure it get help pls,0 "@DavidArchie Hope you, your team, Cookie & his crew have a safe trip home! You guys are all amazing! Hope you'll get some R&R time now. ",0 comedy humor skool bad parent bad minecraft good laugh,0 "is happy, which is good. planning on walking to school and listening to the fray. funtimes ",0 @hioushiouri TOTALLY..sign out muna me ,0 teacher forgot mute mic class heard things supposed hear first time forgot mute mic time heard interesting things class got phone call answered it next thing know hes chatting fluent spanish interchanging english every then listening conversation basic knowledge spanish high school talking someones medical issues poor guy seemed like hospitalized std sir acting translator give information conversation went minutes blew class chat reacting conversation finished continued lecture paused noticed silence wait guys heard that course did gave explanation situation need know details about minutes pass continues lecture paused again wait recorded muted mic way edit it cut piece recording nope want lose job useful information lecture vowed keep mouths shut recording would deleted stopped recording started fresh middle presentation stop laughing say least,0 im horny like dm meeeeeeeee hehe te like ya,0 "13 miles, 100 sit-ups. Good start to the day! ",0 i hate the constant stress i hate the nonstop work i hate the isolation i hate everything about college but i have realized that my working life will likely be no different work for most of my life dread work for the rest of it and repeat until i die i want to speed up the process and end my life but i can t leave my family in that much pain so i m just stuck in this hell with no escape i am on medication and seeing a therapist it help but it s not enough,1 "A big part of depression is feeling really lonely, even if you're in a room full of a million people",1 @valagnew yeah! Lets write it up now lol ,0 got situation pushing redflag still suicidali still take great comfort owning item know end life whenever desire hear somewhat painlessly suicidal perceived ambition pursue mathematics going crushed still ive given time sit exams many reasons main one cant get feeling like terrible person ive made mistakes people forgiven ive spent sleepless nights crying mistakes made efforts never make constant guilt shame makes extremely depressive person im seeing therapist bipolar know isnt disorder talking cant find peace anything let alone feeling satisfaction content best people would consider rumination moping perpetually self hating depressed know make people love show love low theyre around somewhat contagious know world would better place without breaks heart say initial period suffering killing would cause parents girlfriend would break forever rippling effect would last rest lives better live like zombie trying numb possible outwardly minimise risk infecting people melancholy much hate seems pathetic existence going terms ive realised much,1 can t stop thinking i m dying of something anything all the time petrified a usual but i m also too scared to go to the doctor and the whole shebang anyway so here i am stewing in my own juice of despair agonising over all the what ifs while doing absolutely nothing about it don t you just love it ironically i feel like even if i did manage to get myself to talk to a doctor get an mri and blood work and all that dramatic stuff i still wouldn t believe them i feel so trapped,1 "Depression.Love, Rap https://twitter.com/PoemPorns/status/989172433193177089 …",1 im pissed mom moved brother room totally makes sense brothers room sister me other like privacy life suddenly lose it going college makes absolutely sense two oldest room two youngest another wouldnt make sense put year old room rather year old dont know dont fucking get it annoying always planned moving dont want deal bullshit years used able light room able make sound even play guitar night cant shit use flashlight go bed super quiet mention everyone barges room time its like free all one knocks know unlock door really quickly hate lack privacy really getting me unfortunately smart thing financially stay home deal save money god really affecting mental health no cant dorm college min away worth k semester,0 hellivina i miss em too,0 i m crippled by my past mistake i had the perfect life and threw it all away now i m with someone who treat me like shit and i m staying because i feel like that s what i deserve every day is a struggle and i m ready to be done with this life i ve ruined the world would be better off,1 me inhale exhale air,0 so a a kid i moved around a lot because my dad wa in the military but since my teen i ve lived in the same state and it been a near decade i m depressed and i want to travel and move to other place this isn t isolated i also have dysthymia social anxiety disorder and aspergers i m just wondering cause it s hard to find others who relate to this,1 well im really considering nowi pretty stupid plan im going probably work ill anyways stopped caring pretty much everything feel like shit see future anyways definitely able exams without breaking anyways,1 guess probably going attempt tonight,1 dms open lets interesting chat whatever me likes getting stickbugged prefers girls flat chest good keeping chat,0 i m going to put myself out of this misery and go to freakin bed ugh,0 "@What_Amy_Said Phillip Schofield! The Schofe! He's a legend, Amy, you need to follow him he's on my page.",0 pipe down. calling @Bigthangs ,0 Made dinner for my honey... he's the best i've ever had,0 poster ideas old poster recently ripped dad pestering find new one cant find good one suits interests im nintendo fan xbox fan fan things disney star wars marvel included anyone recommend good posters thx,0 @thebaglady Now I want Olive Garden! Why do I always forget about it? ,0 bored ask stuff m great day great day great day ,0 "@lilibthl You , fighting your depression pic.twitter.com/QNMSDRoDqr",1 share story permanent nerve damage since liver infection since significantly destroyed mental physical healthappearance wasted muscles etci girlfriend point live her want get healthier get past health issues one day feel like ill get worse hope anyone feel suicidal health issues,1 saw film original theatrical release austin texas old paramount theatre i know still exists went speakers around walls connected accurately six channels years age blown away concept surround sound completely foreign music film timebr br i vividly remember least three outstanding scenes surround sound made huge impact though please forgive time warped memories inaccuracies first travel camera catfish row alive sites sounds daily activity saw one first blacksmith example camera passed sound would continue heard passing left right side theater rear second marching band seen first front marched past camera splitting left right sound instrument follow directional path also changed timbre played toward you side you away you enough also accounted doppler effect instrument went by third scene near end movie porgy leaving catfish row new york look bess half cast members pass camera leave village sound effects marching band half castchorus sing along also wave voice goodbyes porgy friends friends replies heard sides rearbr br surround sound used splendid effects throughout movie think remember rock something thrown pier hearing land water behind me little things like evident theatergoers lucky enough full six channels things would seem mundane theaters without itbr br i stayed theater several showings could then went back several times left town never saw movie again literally begs release dvd restored picture fidelity surround sound hope someone somewhere preserved it please gershwin family allow released lost good generations,0 please helpcan someone please tell live regret much things ill never able take back get badly hurt ill never go back ignorant people really believe me really drama queen like thought know put stupid situation know said wrong things still thought someone would help told hurt long ago humiliation comes back waves again,1 cat showed butt camera zoom call yeah jumped desk displayed rear end webcam beauty radiating arse eyes classmates,0 @davetran that made me feel a whole lot better ,0 film everyone watch quite apart raising hugely important points while south africa road recovery still many countries similar situations now superbly directed denzel washington gives opinion best performance career far kline also gives good performance although perhaps stunning washingtons john thaw also puts good turn chief policebr br there many possible areas film apartheid could fall down avoided would easy simply portray white people bad guys black people good guys attenborough done this sure white characters seemed inherently evil captain soweto uprising add extra dimensions characters would make film unbearably long people complain length film is think needs whole two half hours tell whole story really incredible onebr br the best scene film steve bikos funeral whole crowd begins sing south african national anthem probably one of moving scenes seenbr br if seen film already watch it may comfortable viewing certainly worth it,0 well againa year ago hit rock bottom bad relationship sitting er thought learned thought got better now realize im slowly blowing chances girl actually worth it give up know happen already see falling away im losing touch reality detached strong enough word describe feeling im justgone present struggle times future looking hopeless wish could change past bad ive fucking many times even want think itits like attempts make things better make worse used proud am im even aware am beyond pathetic iswho turned into family friends caringbut none affects anymore one left turn to want professional help anyways really pointless one actually cares saying farewell starting seemappealing strange eating all sleep becoming challenging mention dreams torture me tonight lie awake know emptiness expandi think time go soon apologize wasting time,1 lt algonquin agreed i saw the failwhale allllll day today,0 i can t tell you how many time i ve hoped for someone to show up to a place i m at and shoot me maybe then i ll make it onto the news maybe then someone will give a damn maybe,1 eileenb i had that a while back http tinyurl com dmukpr and i know some other people that have too,0 hey everyone i ve been a long time reader of this sub and i wan na say first of all that i wish you all the best of life truly i m writing this in great sadness my life isn t bad i ve got a good family awesome friend there s nothing obviously wrong about me i study i work i m in my early 0 i ve made the life for myself that i thought i should and needed to have the problem is there s absolutely nothing about my life that make me happy that i can say that truly satisfies and fulfills me about two year ago i decided to made some radical change in my life i lost a ton of weight i started working more on my look my social skill budding up my confidence i got a job that despite being shitty af ha made me somewhat independent financially i feel like i ve come so far like i ve overcome so much yet right now i m writing you this in such a deep sadness i simply feel sad i feel empty i feel alone mostly i feel alone i feel misunderstood i feel like i m out of place i don t belong anywhere that i try to go t i don t belong to anyone and it s been like this every single day for the last year i feel like i m going mad i ve tried all i can and i truly mean this all that i possible could have done to find even the slightest resemblance of happiness but i haven t sometimes it feel like i m finding a way like i m finding some light but then suddenly it all go away i m tired guy it s my biggest shame in life to have to admit this that i somehow find myself in my early 0 saying i don t have any will to live the many year of life that i still have ahead of me and yet this is the truth i m tired and i don t want to continue not this way at least sometimes i wonder why me why did it happen to me,1 im turning im turning tomorrow wont post tomorrow ill away cheers,0 is homeward bound ,0 become bird smol cute learn fly freedom,0 Sweet home Chicago i wouldnt trade it for the world ,0 first time saw poster stunned tranquility beauty city istanbul haunting mind ever sincebr br not much dialogue much music whole film shot elaborately aesthetically like sculpture landscapebr br actually lot things going film director deliberately omitted dramatic parts leave imagination thus creating really flat life mild spoilerone see mahmuts ladylove crying toilet going without word fight one see mahmut accompanying mother hospital struggle illness dramatic scene film yusuf laughing loud toy soldier bought niece thats almost broke heart see boring lonely life bursting waybr br with trivialities life weeded story presents us pure inner world characters sadness anxiety loneliness regretsand story unfolded sort finally grasped desperate situation emotions really way outer things intervened exactly every loner tries keep cost especially irresponsible artist like mahmutbr br ive finished second watching last night crouched quilt vodka beside bed went whole film trance felt two real lives going on one outside screen one inside screen felt free loneliness anxiety cause people inside experiencing it removed thingsbr br we cannot deny universal problem communication loneliness even puts us far towards it becomes vicious spiral bet mahmut still figure way living end thats stepped room try find answers outer world coldness landscape,0 bonniebix controlling own life not possible uni after graduation when i start master boohoo,0 best everything best everything different everyone us love alas everyone knows look real love story goes whole gambit looking love sometimes wrong places wrong reasons saying goeswe captains ships goes lives responsible choices make lives make choices must live them watch story see women making choices likely change lives forever wonder would make choices women would wiser knows,0 want lose fat anyone tips advice subreddits go to basically im yo dude big belly makes feel bad causes pains ribs spine wanna look healthy next summer,0 sleeping in my own bed for once. ahhhhhmazing feeling. ,0 first saw movie thought sweet family movie rest night next couple days though clever moments funny lines kept creeping back thoughts conversation theres lot going on classic elements farce good character acting wendie malicks story line hysterical labelling feelgood movie belies wit fun smarter seems like its wonderful life is,0 brothers resistance cracking believe might finally whittled vulnerable good music accepted handmedown shirt john lennon it watch little siblings may win battles older siblings win war actual offense meant chemical romance nirvana lil peep theyre actually talented musicians well cant let little brother know think that,0 saw last post absolutely nothing wore hentai hoodie said nothing it yearbook gonna little interesting,0 knew scary would pray front me yet entire thing angry attack god not trying get beliefs here happened knew knew wrong told one day tell anyone actually threatened suicide front ex wife knife yet still painted evil doer story knew lying made sure tell crazy one exes went end accusing rape why would even bring up took another ex home injury together might try lie say something happened nothing did gave chills man would tell ex childs mother would murdered long ago friends offer help,1 marigold far best outsiders take bollywood ever seen i grow bollywood ive seen hundred now id say leaves gurinder chadha mira nair even merchant ivory of bombay talkie almost dust willard carroll director really loves bollywood selfconfidence allow us know theres humor arch ironic distancing of course really mean this stuff jerry lee lewis would say gets it let us joy bollywood movie experience along touches supplied westerners stepping storytellers rolebr br its story caustic bitchy beautiful american b movie actress shes movies numbers titles like fatal attraction finds different bollywood movie one went india kama sutra folded tents en route apparently producers jail salman khan real life bollywood megamega star dancing master delightful writtenonthefly movie pulled is go blind sweetness mildly psychically gifted character learns find inner ecstatic dancing abilitybr br the strong beginning gives bollywood superenergetic troupe dancers front taj mahal both funny familiar western viewer well providing highvelocity musical thrill love hindi movie salman screen outset bollywood minute wait hero indian costume embellished kit carsonstyle western movie fringe all whitebr br ali larters actress character pleasing western viewer blonde traditional white person bollywood movie visually understandable casting robust girl ethereal kind blondie were usually presented with less threedimensional total bitch carrying profane abusive cellphone conversations boyfriend agent usbr br we also scenes women problems going bar deal capacity people getting along relate emotional conversations traditional hindi movies seldom see much thing going women other discussion mother daughter daughters choice groom let alone strangers unrelated people let alone bargoing spirit same details fresh completely delighted thisbr br i saw once preview showing attended director fine speaker questionanswerer salman got brotherlike good friends making it loves india plans make wizard oz movie india cant get detailed songs ive seen once except say liked all range happy parody bollywood number moviewithinthemovie ladies costumes leghorn hats seashellcased bodices its beach scene flowy dresses worth cost ticket alone lovely reflective manyscened romantic song sadder serious part moviebr br mix hindi english music worksbr br salman khan gets lot credit openness unusual projects jaanemann good judgment ones in carroll said full suggestions ideas along way totally fine ie narcissistic all whether carroll accepted rejected clearly pro loves involved collaborating,0 today supposed first day work family super happy depressed hardly leave house shitty mood took xanax smoked weedand went work i know worthless drug addict forgot phone doors locked since dining area open drive home get phone time got back hour late came home explained everyone massive failure weak cannot even livei become scared becoming redditor drugs plays video games day cannot believe life ended like this really like get better either parents try support cannot deal issues which understandable friends fucking dumped ass curb started getting depressed taking hella pills therapist see like monththis pandemic completely fucked life still depressed pandemic level things getting better covid happenedi like life people world society cannot deal horibble shit happens world i tell parents disappointed me cannot blame them also told believe god anymore world fucked god running it god exhist fucking hates world vengeful peice shit motherfucker would never worshipmy life shambles going die nodding idgaf anymore life shit go on feel absolutaly sorry took xanx forgot spell that drained soul being want life back want back know support half ass meme advice parents give therapist help much see monthi friends nobody soul really gives shit completely alone world fuck everything never fail disappoint everyone,1 know anymoreif care go post history theres extra details feel like explaining again losing completely fucked over months gone everything still feels like fever dream went full nc th last month take seeing completely flipped anymore lies false promises made us care anymore seeing get replaced cant anymore even got puppy help mistake since also got since told seeing one would make happy since always talked getting one together got deep chance itll fix things didnt love pup feel cant connect reminding also mainly distracting ways im trying cope apparently told roommate email scared send feel anything good anyway otherwise would sent now hate whole situation even wanna try bothering love since feel itll always go back somehow think survive another loss like this wanna feel normal again want life back even though life shitty still really depressed least grieving loss well,1 ummmm so offered cute frog so wanted show you dont make fun plz insecure gtlt,0 nujurzyboricua i wan na go back home and go to bed lol whatcha workin out today,0 good film funny yet film good ernest films,0 hey yall im f super bored wanting talk well thats basically it im also zooted fuckerinod rn like deadass im living jupiter point hmu talk anything like space life viewer discretion advised,0 cannibaleyes i a bowling and the shit ripped,0 waiting evicted cold apartment winter good time become homelessi guy early ies cat companion years died mum passed away quit job girlfriend broke me since used inheritance basically imprison apartment grew without father without siblings remaining relatives live different city mobile also busy lives already used keeping touch them took years relatives realize something wrong sent police apartment time already tested hook see could support weight body police visit helped snap depression went see psychiatrist found female friend moved me lead quite eventful life roommate decided return home country center life moving km away left devastated depression kicked full force again barely left apartment several months plagued financial problems depression loneliness recently mustered courage see psychiatrist again diagnosed mixed personality disorder depression started take sertraline zoloft us really seems affect brain chemistry positive way emotional impulsive anymore frequent depersonalization episodes ceased well might reached late behind rent yesterday landlord turned gas electricity apartment free psychotherapy starting next week might homeless then country provides social safety net waited long apply financial help depressed get paperwork done also ashamed thought living welfare benefits application getting processed landlords patience might run able anything anyways taking meds went depressed shell man emotionless shell man lost because stopped contacting them college friends never graduated moved lives friends left females somewhat understand troubles girlfriend havent intimate woman years havent hugged anybody year worst future plans feel like struggling survive every day idea find job support failed graduate college huge gaps resume barely work experience skills work stable friendships relationshipall things make human humani those feel dead inside sometimes pondering kill bodily shell well thanks reading would nice could find somebody talk nobody share state mind,1 laurenlenewx awww i m sorry,0 starts one month cannot make another year much considering killing go back things want die tho school,1 bruh big brain yall know oxford university older aztec empire by years,0 sad news kitten posted died morning made post my cat getting kittenshttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsjprfholy_fucking_shit_im_getting_kittens_wttffutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare first kitten cat got already dead one completely fine morning woke everything normal saw kitten dead days old rest peace,0 think ask jws whether expect miracle cure faith find not know not find instead believe promises christ made resurrection so even even worst happen die holding onto integrity jehovah can correct thisbr br it really gets simple question god real make believe real trust him follow directions matter short term outcome may bebr br i heart attack year half ago one family horrified saw words no blood written large letters chart reasoned position blood transfusion would save life would good time anger one could return life time came get god real enough her bad wish could comfort strong faith gives,0 community pool connecticut setting under radar film charming funny entertaining appealing although prizes major film festivals the big bad swim released hordes theaters across america distributed dvd form shown theaters selectively br br it unfortunate the big bad swim never marketing hype hollywood release considering many sinkers hollywood released year i know killed me the big bad swim genuinely good independent film swim upstream ownbr br nevertheless the big bad swim actress paget brewster endearing believable amy wiredtobreaking point math teacher dumped husband also lose job ends taking gamble new life tv soap actor jeff branson hot plays noah earnest vulnerable swim teacher goes extra pool length help students overcome fears discovers learn students pretty sexy jess weixler did see bank commercial deftly plays jordan swimmertobe works two jobs one pole dancer blackjack dealer character provides catalyst change amongst ensemble least understandable characters lack back story motivation does jordan young enough still live home ubiquitous videocameratoting younger brother spies her however parents shown involved life way seems odd theres drunken mother abusive father explain normal attractive girl connecticut suburb would choose selfmedicating pole dancer debases loutish bachelor parties br br despite quibble the big bad swim succeeds large part happy feel good filmbr br as one might expect learning swim metaphor life ultimately better jump feet get swim rather sit deck life happens anywaybr br the big bad swim great date movie great dorm movie great what seen movie men like well women,0 lost my free copy of radioactive so can t put it on my ipod grr and i can t go out buy nother coz it came with that paper,0 lol of course two days before the big weekend my depression flares up and i remember its there,1 "Fuck u fridays is here!! Sooo fuck u all on behalf of MFA!! Brandon is n cali, its going down 2nite bitches!!!! YESSiR!!! ;-p",0 bored lonely wanna chat hey wanna chat people good time talk ab anything everything could number game something like that want meet chill people,0 is enjoying a nice glass of red ,0 im giving advice want say last five months learned many things especially summer lost pounds stopped using social media also became much happier im autistic used use food cope anxiety depressive episodes im going give tips help beautiful kings queens become healthier mentally physically get enough sleep go bed wake military time users thats eat healthier blend fruits veggies smoothies get nutrients one drink also try eat healthy throughout day well develop form exercise strength cardio routine bike miles days week also lift weights least every day along situps stop toxicity delete social media affecting life andor mental health find friends online real life find people becoming healthier nicer general thank reading this hope speech worth time sincerely uwhitericepatty,0 think mom boyfriend okay right parents divorced years now mom least one bf since know about i found saw good night text phone heart emoji asked said dating him mom open kind really bother me right anyways today went big lake north cali day trip another city best friend came back saw car still here wasnt wondering got there got back asked went went with said good went friend normally would tell friend specify suspicion also dressed up press it also couple nights ago heard talking guy phone got shower hung shortly got out asked said friend know do like cant bring good mom likes help things guess know want to really care marriages end divorce im obviously special case feel sad it,0 story wrongly executed prisoner haunts prison electrocuted kills random prisoners waiting take revenge man framed himbr br viggo mortensen great acting pretty good overall lane smith deliciously wicked guilty warden also film great gore including death barbedwire mummification,0 horny feels good fun sometimes time get raging hard boner cant focus shit super inconvenient help,0 @FranklinJonas oh my god Frankie!! i love your back ground!!! with a big huge L-O-V-E!!! haha ,0 @z3v0 you'll find cooking is hugely therapeutic. think of it that way ,0 know anymoreive dreams lately im crying like heart breaking ever heard death wail thats feels like cry like cant bear live without whatever is dreams varying themes usually something dear destroyed feel like time like time fall start sobbing crying harder breathe in feel like im dying inside out like heart fail time things love surrounding me nothing anymore barely get bed barely breathe motivation anything anymore cook clean work im newly married husband want go therapy says ruins marriages still need someone anyone talk to ever cried help loud one wants listen ive told people ive called redflag hotlines told husband might kill myself called mom help one seems care mom feel like cant breathe know anymore im trying hard know ive tried call therapists none gotten back really know im typing but are,1 elearning platforms supplement classroom learning please fill student hi need lot responses survey students elearning platforms supplement classroom learning currently mcqs plus optional free response question would great could help out need project im working on httpsformsglevkceoufuxmhttpsformsglevkceoufuxm suggestions leave comments,0 want kill myself canteverytime get car want get wreck want die cant kill know people care would devastated died much worse killed myself get everyone says redflag selfish desire want anything anymore,1 @blckmgicwoman The fact that they're promoting depression. They gone go in that room & run into a dead body!,1 et faut aussi arr tez d avoir cette mala de dire ici que vos enfants vont forc ment sombre dans le hors mariage dans la d pression forc e si il ont subits une r gle de caste a croire que c est la seule issu possible,1 printf want diewhile alive printf i want die sorry mediocre script,1 @rjamestaylor @minter you know I HAVE TO see this shirt now!!! ,0 people starving starving child really wish food havent eaten days starving child cheer up little timmy across world didnt throw away food starving child holy shit makes everything better,0 eliteforce i have been told by friend that constantly circle the globe that the flight from the uk to downunder is the worst ever,0 help pleasei wanna end make family angry accidentally hurt gf im dull emotional issues feel like isnt worth anymore im barely take care myself feel useless try better like smashing head brick wall point want end it dont know else do ill keep hurting ones love even im trying help dad hates moms different province live brother make life difficult kids dont see worth anymore harm good,1 thought redflagi posted week saying gonna kill myself major problems going life seem resolved now even though dont desperately need die still think redflag im worthless hate person constant voice head repeating insecurities mistakes im constantly stressed pain but every think redflag feelings go away dont care im smartest handsome messed life doesnt matter anymore dead im posting im wall feel like matter months go though it please help,1 depression i love it,1 everyone always says people love meand know do family gone way express theyll anything help me help affect relieve pain god cant take this feels like im living incinerator kill myself,1 i think i am meant to die in obscurity i ve been working here for almost year and learned everything from scratch this company is just a mess yet i ve got nowhere else to go last year we had a new guy start and he ended up being my best friend i trained him we literally know everything about each other and we ve gotten close but one thing that bothered me wa that he s gotten two promotion not just small promotion i m talking management business partner promotion within le than month here i am who know the service center and struggling to keep our employee happy and training new people yet i keep getting overshadowed i ve given up on everything now it s clear to me that i personally don t matter anywhere i have to die so i can be reborn or just never be born agai into this pathetic life i m too nice and i m short and dropped out of college i m happy for him because i m such a nice guy and i know his story so i know it s not nepotism and he would be a great fit but so would i not even a freaking interview just to be a temporary solution for a permanent manager so why set yourself up for failure and use somoene who ha not been in this role in over minths and avoid the one person who took everything on and learned everybing from scratch and literally got a pay increase a year after because they diddint fucking realize i had worked for over 0 ymfycmi g year kill me nowjillmekillemememememenediediedeidekillme,1 chriscantore congrats i m totally jealous only wish my xm wa working,0 @suckit_nerds Thanks bb! ,0 goodbyeim years old lowpaying job cant stand girlfriend years k debt k student loans k credit card debt k taxes k various stuff assets crappy car small apartment full crappy furniture real talents skills ive spent last years life dicking around internet watching tv instead socializing learning stuff friends none respect me parents assholes saw therapist finally last week like much canceled appointment week sick literally reason killed years leading want whoever latest girl reject think her im that done,1 household toxins hydrogen sulfide redflagdoes anyone know anything method redflag ive learned researching it lock car source hydrogen sulfide die within minutes anyone know painful successful is would carried out household toxins need mix order create enough gas die,1 Woopra is pretty awesome. Now to get more visitors to http://l4x9.com so I can see it happen live ,0 More than 1 in 20 US children and teens have anxiety or depression https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2018/04/180424184119.htm …,1 hello stranger this is just a vent post so i ll try to be thorough if i m going to suffer on account of my own bad decision i might a well try to get some upvotes out of it he blocked me on his snapchat although i have thought about reaching out and trying to patch thing up via other texting apps i m pretty sure he s done with me i need to mention that we weren t technically dating and i ve only been together with him about a month you wan na know the best part i wa the one who actually hurt him i can t even claim to be the victim here every shitty emotion currently pinning me down is 00 deserved all because i wa having a bad day and decided to smother my emotion in the company of another dude it wa only a month nothing ha really changed in my life i m still 9 year old i m still going to college i m still not attending class and i m still just a shitty a i wa before someone asked me once where i wan na be in five year if i m lucky my the time i m twenty four i ll be long dead i ve been thinking about ending my life almost every day i don t really see a way out of this endless cycle of bad emotion i m just scared that i m too much of a coward to go through with it i guess i want to know if it get better i want someone to tell me that i m not too far gone and there s still hope for me even if i don t believe it myself,1 going rough patch anyone chat atm anyone talk right now,1 friendlypharm too bad it s true for the most part,0 still cant describe feel received fnac site rare movie little spoken known difficult find even fans contrast betwen past present devastating hold dvd movie finest quality possible atlantis rare besson movie bought internet saw one home lights dvd tv turned off marveled experience know expect wickedly always searched kind disappointment saw film luc besson never seen before never came movie exception start understood person makes film like first feature destined big future happened several prizes including highest prize film festival country makes proud shows movie preparating many bigger things may original afterthewar movie ever seen beating mad max originality artistic feel problem movie cinematography genius well perfomances actors also proud say finally saw movies favorite director copy almost joan arc still waiting buy dvd movie work style dedication makes clear luc besson director choice good taste beautiful framing excellent use music i also marveled eric serras first featurelength score promise great achievements gaumont well bet boygenius man would later change face frances europes relation movies public lets hope besson starts working new directorial project first cheer it then recommend movie anyone need learn lesson good movies made little money loved atmosphere movie which black white cinematography suggests us even depressed view world holocaust movie works sheer magic movies showing pictures cant explain words im people wrote comments movie liked it good choice great hug everyone sees feels little lives changed,0 knowive feeling really bad lately go college know feel like im wasting time money enjoy art sometimes im always unmotivated classmates come great things feel like im good enough keep making mistakes end hurting people myself feel like nuisance also job anxiety lots times people come feel like im gonna cry keep panic attacks middle night feel like person want talk even want talk me keep thoughts end honestly cant picture going life planning weekend mom goes town sisters gone,1 gon na be a great day of the member of our team are off,0 wholesome post pm havent got bed yet cant bring anything dog asleep back getting id wake stay,0 crush thanked today yes thats true crush said thank treated friend today feel happy damn dream nice wake realize probably never gonna happens class clown classmates make fun me suck math,0 boooooooored!!!!!!!! but not in 5 mins.!!! ,0 I just hit my 500th update. COOL! ,0 "@philgerb I am happy to hear that all is well. As for me, I cannot complain. Life is good. Got my health and a roof over my head. ",0 now cognitive processes feel scrambled sluggish get confused sometimes trouble filling simple forms answering questions phone im rd year major university brain feels messed know ill able finish anyone else experience this found anything helps,1 redflag i decided so debating options continue living decided redflag way go dad figured plan told getting mcdonalds next thing know mental institutionwhen told physiatrist reasons want kill read reason why thought transgender tried explain im transgender reason hate biological factors female unfairness one kept arguing im transgender called idoit said professional crazy one needs help umm ok talked another physiatrist also male actually agreed kept saying things like matter shit like that hate mental hospitals food taste like shit beds hard sleep boring helli actually starved self days drink anything becuse food bad forced eat realised give danm die care money if die get money stay option die believe die nothing happens darkness option biological disadvantage weaker half population metblisom mentend afaster metabolism anywhere percent higherthan women studies shown women naturally meant higher body fat percentage men strength men physically stronger women have average less total muscle mass absolute terms relative total body mass greater muscle mass men result oftestroneinduced muscular hypertrophy men also denser stronger bones tendons ligaments height men taller women average cm inches average adult man america cm tall versus cm average adult woman pregnancy men capable fathering children old age also man dose much want child pop nut abdominal cramping andpain duringpregnancy often normal associated everything constipation increased blood flow uterus first trimester braxtonhicks contractions round ligamentpainin second third trimesters symptoms pregnancy include frequent urinationswollen legstingling numbness fingers handspelvic pressureback painpigmentation breastpain i never pregnant research found periods crampsare caused prostaglandins say prosstuhglandinz chemicals girls body produces make muscles uterus contractmany women migraines reportheadaches duringmenstruation many girlsthrow feel like mightthrow theirperiods hormone changes probably cause feelings usually go away day twothe usual length ofmenstrual bleeding four six days usual amount blood loss perperiodis ml iq scientists concluded mens average intelligencequotient iq four points womens brains typically larger breast largebreast place excess weight chest without enough support surrounding muscles rest body weight thebreastcancause severepain make difficult maintain good posture even lead spinal deformitybreast causes due underlying disease examples include tight fitting bra pregnancy menstruation breast feeding exercise breast annoying general man go outside toplees without causing accident getting arrested cardoivascular men greater cardiovascular reserve larger hearts greater lung volume per body mass higher red blood cell count higher hemoglobin also higher circulating clotting factors leads faster healing wounds urine pee want history world woman ever proven able urinate name snow guys time men love peeing everywhere dna entire planet one giant mens restroom awsome general cooler guy superheros videogames also action movies probably apart childhood childhood barbies makeup which hated always jealous brothers christmas birthdays,1 yep it s been week a lady at our church is watching her,0 nobody else brave enough say it today one it yep easy thank reading still ok bye,0 anyone else constantly think killing selves places school work front everyonei always fantasize killing lunch hundreds watching,1 bombed job interviewthats god telling dont deserve live fucked much could barely talk goddamn anxiety attack looked ducking stupid im stupid jobs im stupid breathe dont know im fucking stupid get it needed job badly this time fucking fuck up ducking kidding me needed one time one single goddamn filthy thing worked interview something highly underqualified ive ruined it ive ruined fucking everything,1 normal im complaining im wondering anyone else notices stuff like this people parentsgrandparentsguardians tend emphasize strange way middle lectures concerning way act such,0 "What does a person do when they survive a severe brain injury, Depression and many panic attacks? Read about healing and using that information learned to help others in similar situations",1 tried talking impending redflag nobody seemed interestedwell ive told wife terribly depressed am seem reaction told one good friends wanted kill myself turned conversation around him thing stopping point fear screwing up maiming myself im looking surefire way know im posting this attention thats that best luck rest you edit thank trying help,1 yo anyone wants chat dm like games animals pixel art yoyos herbal tea filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler fillerfiller filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 given soft drink days difficult first barely ever want anymore suggest anyone thinking giving,0 oluwatimeelehin you no dey see report wey say him they battle depression,1 i ve been on med for a few year now which have worked for the most part up until last year i contracted an illness which gave me stomach problem and the issue ha kind of persisted ever since my health ha never been great eating disorder and weight issue mainly a well a really unsightly skin but this stomach issue ha taken what life i had away and now a much a i m not screaming and cry about wanting to die it almost feel like a logical step at this point i want to live i want to have a life and live it freely to the fullest but i m trapped now in this body and have to cancel most plan i do make if i couldn t work from home i d probably be jobless and the work that is site based i let people down on a lot which i hate i feel like a failed experiment of a human that should just be put in the bin i feel guilty because of the somewhat privilege i do have but that s still not been enough i ve failed myself and now my body is failing me there s also a history of cancer and tumour in my family which make me scared that i ll lose the ability to use my limb just like my mom and i don t have anyone in my life to take care of me like she doe what s the point in just sitting around and waiting for that time to come every week is a fight to get back on track but it s always step forward and or back i m scared to die but i don t feel like i have a choice i m just putting off the inevitable i don t even know the best way to do it i m even too much of a coward there s always been this one little bit of hope holding me back but that light of hope is getting dimmer by the day,1 hoursin hours ill go living room get sleeping pills family catches ill say cant sleep one really stop me family definitely cant doubt even care,1 movie started wheels spin car entered race fox behind cant get front figure if go out im taking me smash cars parked side road turn hit fox aim bad bang gone back vw smash landed reservoir car lights fire could get wanted shame losing taken you bang car blows up everyone looks despair crying sound siren tells cops coming everyone gets cars bolts leaving burn charred remains cars frame sits there haunting lookers deadbr br this one scenes actually first scene movie many like it enter cockpit fox pimped v ford terry serio crazy gtho many others blast past john clarks masterpiece running empty hell win cost,0 layla florida here musicpals let know please,0 reaching difficultim difficult situation im treated mental illnesses ive struggling undiagnosed since child get suicidal ideation lot sucks hate it hate mind making feel weak get frustrated idea people expect okay im meds therapy easy sometimes feel worst want hurt most think reach intense services get scared feel sick live parents im literally mid s feel like would ruin life did,1 fucking hate myselfi hate im mei want normal want know im ignored straight hated worse alli hate im transi hate im like ex,1 know anymore im tired thisso got reddit thing created account specifically reason cannot cope wife kids anymore wife says hurtful things kids tend agree her im monster inside monster growing growing cant stop feel failed father cant take anymore everyone family hates urge leave getting harder deal every single day,1 feel like wasted life idk doi feel like ive made many mistakes past live life didnt want live unmotivated depressed high school didnt get accepted colleges didnt even get money goddamn fafsa dont friends closest friends dont even talk properly anymore thats due mixture self isolation drifting apart other severe social anxiety talking people work hard feel like cant relate coworkers im stuck shitty retail job sadly enough write shift black friday still cant afford even community college dont know want college wtf want major want take life feel like help family thinks im im way obligated receive help life events need learn grow up feel stuck im constantly relapsing self harm eating disorder many emotions want pretty want liked want fucking dead feel like sound crazy like crybaby im tired every level possible especially mentally constantly dream would happen killed myself would people would probably react dont know even care select people would sad overwhelming majority would forget soon,1 ive messed life way outi depressed life taken every wrong turn possible want alone ive turned alcohol stopped working hate everything every decision ever made want die peace many lies afraid to,1 oh no kutner s dead watching house,0 yay horse riding and fisher and donaldson cafe ,0 the worst symptom of my anxiety is that i find it impossible to sleep when sharing a bed or even a bedroom it s like my brain won t switch off with someone else there it ha an impact on relationship obviously but also on just thing like going on holiday with friend because it s way more expensive to have to book my own hotel room rather than share doe anyone have the same issue ha anyone found way to fix it i d be ok with not sleeping a well a normal but it s literally like the difference between hr alone and 0 hr with company i can t function if i share for day in a row,1 "@rachmurrayX lolz ;) i need to get money, have none atm. if i can get some we should go on monday ",0 great disappear ha would life would fun everyone complains anyway not painless way would simply exist thats impossible everyone two faced talk imperfections smile laugh ten minutes later leave whole world like then disappear not one gonna care much voice inside head tells everyday whenever im left thoughts grades selfesteem mentality days stinger days today day like that feel alone feel like sinner feel like today would better gone turns im horrible person guess ive always heard term gaslighting never though really happened often maybe im oblivious feel like piece crap feel like im worthless around me im another pon sacrificed sake others im invaluable piece know right felt suspicions rise never fully believed others would things noticed avoided like plague im naive known others find bother feel terrible feel toxic feel weak hurts feel used others talk behind back ask trust feel alone one defend inform me feel gullible feel act months want disappear,0 twin sister suicidal feeling awful right nowive depressed since anyone says get help please know cant much explain mom knows found feeling way ignored it want kill myself feel do sister will destroy family sister also suicidal found week ago honestly dont get far know family history depression makes question genetic is never going get better unless take meds dont want take meds mom doesnt believe meds depression thinks turn zombie feel like cant go anymore havent felt happy entire day years dont know feel happy small things dont even make happy fear future feel going extremely unsuccessful poor hide behind smile every single day getting really tiring especially im nice everyone never want anyone feel way do everyone sees nice cute girl kind everyone wish way press button disappear cant take anymore,1 days since almost itgot full ride scholarship college leave days fairly well local stand comedy scene fucking miserable im year old whos got ptsd really fucked emotional development young age way process emotion coping mechanism humor feel impulse make joke desperate need end it says explicit methods ill say every evening come close set up pull it cant form real emotional connection anybody feel like hollow shell human stay alive know logically ive got amazing shot ay something life feel like life worth living part wants go grin big fuck you life thats happened feel like ill always hollow clown ive never cry help guy guess thats changed since im posting here feel end rope guys feel like keeping going,1 Pokemon & then mimis! ,0 im sick want get alreadyi feel like belong home anymore everyone forgets im even door wide open died tonight one would notice except dog bf would better without though bc bring everyone down wonder everyone else forgets me depressing piece shit wish could get suicidal thoughts past plan stage start working implementing shit im tired alive im tempted relapse cutting pills tonight made promise would try hardest to wish never promised hard trying pretend everythings okay not wish normal think like this wish friends wish loving family wish happy instead sad miserable every single day,1 wish skinny fuckint bad tw id anything be im gonna try pills workout barely eat whole lot calorie intake lower im burning im beyond frustrated confused cut feel bad bc weight barely want go school honestly thin id probably happy go,0 getting ready for work! hopefully the beach after. ,0 suicidal slightly homocidal help re uploaded try get help hey sound like edgy kid seeking attention please hear out isnt im struggling suicidal homocidal thoughts wanna kill scared keep razor gonna kill i live guns almost impossible get thank god ive wanted hurt others go hurt others wrists slit first,1 months due quarantine caught assignments exams im donei lost last two years college mental illness time around im losing quarantined online teaching poor teachers assigning multiple exams week expect perform normally would clearly life meant be im killing myself,1 Just just stop! Stop doingg things that you might regret on the end! You know how depression can do! Dont want to watch again fandoms mourning!! So pls stop!!! #박봄제발내버려두세요,1 yawn yawn yawn 0 more minute in bed,0 On the road to the bay area. With a quad white mocha. ,0 is stressing out because my blackberry keep flashing a red alert status for no reason it faking me out and i hate it,0 unbelievably close real life feelings emotions captured joseph mazzello hemophiliac child affected aids new young neighbor wannabe tough redneck played perfection brad renfro although story may seem slightly farfetched the two boys attempt riverraft several hundred miles find doctor claims cure aids emotion actions interactions characters involved tragically close real life big brother boy similar situation died years film released strongly recommend picture anyone ever wondered really happens life child aids superb direction peter horton creates perfect mood setting scene draws viewer various emotions affected friendship illness prejudice final parting two friends fought hard overcome adversity,0 waitive urge kill self now first seemed ridiculous irrational me idea slowly become reasonable thoughts become louder louder point im sure im even agaisnt idea die today years now seem same know difference im dead even remember extra years end wait,1 @Darealtyson glad to have you back ,0 feeling completely worthless pointless rantingthe anxiety getting worse worse year goes on barely talk anyone anymore phone calls always impossible cant go doctor therapist help cant call them supposed call someone apartment finally better place obviously never really going happen redflag text helpline useless get empty platitudes go walk yeah thats gonna solve shitty personality men loved abusive assholes second one told jump front train since everyone would better off didnt say it already knew actually fucking miss despite ripping heart out need help dont know get im useless theres nothing inside me im incapable taking care myself worst kid feel like late actually kill now im forced stay suffering forever him cant break heart like that thank god good dad lord knows cant take good care him im failure every aspect life,1 feel like im losing fightits gotten point feel hopeful anymore try look towards happy future see could ever get better see continuing pain depression loneliness always wondered people could say theyre happy life how bad honestly think ill make end year maybe even months now so really hope someone life remember me vann,1 i ve been in therapy a few month cbt he mostly just advises me to try to stay in the present and mediate at first it seemed to help a little but the larger issue i have won t stop bothering me i make good money and i m not bad looking at all but i have basically zero friend and i haven t been on a date in over 0 year im and i ve been thinking about suicide a lot but i obviously can t tell my therapist or he ll get me emergency petitioned im really not sure what to do my anxiety and depression just seems to keep getting worse i can barely get myself to eat most day let alone exercise or try to talk to someone,1 off to london today,0 vacation great real life trash thoi went vacation amazing one day back work want kill again reality mediocrity crashed back face see exit wake up trash job get pushed around feel like garbage posted nice picture wife trip truly happy cant tell her cant see frail piece shit man even me,1 incel simp incel would rather stay incel simp anyone else share opinion nah,0 hearing suicidal tendencies hurting mother asks honest her continue sharei imagine difficult child much pain want commit redflag time share recent panic attack suicidal thoughtattempt emotional paralysis grief clings face way mother handles discussions commendable although understand cant see the beauty life things improve know sentiments originate love me hurts hurt her urges keep lines communication open do,1 im commit redflagim tired bullied everybody thinks deserve it nobody cares me left house years life ruined wish could wake nightmare,1 schoolim currently crying schools bathroom friends like around people like me im shitty girlfriend anything know one remember im gone might well go,1 @trocha_m umm what time. I just have to pick my little sis up at the hs at noon so let me know when's good for you ,0 people scroll new far scroll refresh page depends much tim usually scoll till comments minutes old refresh,0 might have to go to hospital for my foot for an x ray have to wait for the doctor to call me back to confirm i hate hospital,0 feel stupidi know people willing help everything seems pointless people talk everyday days necessarily bad end feeling lonely pathetic every night ive stopped feeling motivated anything reason get work done feeling absolute terror able escape horrible situation im home try always people something home alone difficult everyone things going on know distracting problems healthiest feels better pretend like everything going great feels better people always asking im okay help one person mind talking going want talk anymore feels like everything keep unhealthily bottling going spill inconvenient embarrassing situation,1 "@fuschia19star Morning to you too - today is indeed a beautiful day! So beautiful, I don't even know what to do (yet)! ",0 idk why life is like this i put in so much time and hour into working and working and escaping from fcking situation venezuela economy is so destroyed that i left to per only to treated like a second class person and given a cold shoulder whenever i got into a job i didn t care i keep going and i got myself into collegue working hr day for month on fish i literally would go to class with my fishing boot because i wouldnt have time in my shift to chance and right now i m just sad the pandemic made me loss everything again i havent eaten anything in day i m short a 00 buck on rent i still havent graduated i have tried nobody want to hire an inmigrant nobody want to rent his apartment to an inmigrant even this place i m renting rn is more expensive for the mere fact that i wa not born here i just want rest some freedom not waking up and be uncertain if i m gon na have food that day or not i m feeling relaxed if i actually think about it my mom would be the only person sad about it which is the only reason i still havent done it i m literally right here with a blade on a hand just thinking about my mom and damn doe it hurt,1 sometimes my life seems great and i tend to blow off my emotion to make myself feel better about my current situation right after graduating college with honor i suddenly wa hit the truth about adulthood expectation weren t suddenly brought up to my face and if i wanted to improve it wa completely up to myself if i wanted to reach it yet i wa complacent i started drinking heavily since i couldn t depend on weed anymore due to my job search which lead to me getting arrested for a dwi which resulted in me getting fired from my job 000 dollar later i met a woman that made me happy with who i wa and what i stood for and i m about to start a job at a national bank more recently we ve started getting into fight and she want me to get mad at her but i start falling in a self pity party and instead of getting mad at her i tell myself i deserve every bit of anger coming out of her i cower and just want thing to start getting better emotionally and don t know how to get there,1 dad jokes daily get girlfriend somebody want buy nine rackets tennis many,0 summary lifei currently years old ive suicidal since third grade mainly parents forcing unthinkable expectations made feel like worthless nobody th grade live died quite literally great grandmother died since sister years young years younger mom issues dad left apartment cheated got drunk multiple times fucking lost attacked her able quickly subdue since afterwards told replaceable nobody wished abortion among many things night went grabbed handgun upholstered it pointed head pulled trigger didnt one chamber gunshot knew chamber properly so put back cried sleep went see counselor told parents everything never felt betrayed fast forward towards summer had forced watch two sisters mom started dating another guy favoured me clear favoritism faggot pounds bigger always wrestled knocked out one day enough fucking kicked hard head concussion didnt stop however axe kicked ribs face bloodying over mom showed care him even knocked times even day year old sister called mommy thats one thing her year old sister hates me dad abusive mentally im cutter cut self once took box cutter made sure break piece off cut wrists only however still want high gives you never got drunk gotten high anything besides sex feel empty inside every climax fills even little bit people think im throwing life away mainly used honors high school credits whilst im th grade cant go much longer im thinking ending tomorrow easy access weapons shotgun mom painter payback thinking shotgunning back head favorite paintings brings question would situation,1 i don t know if i have depression anymore a few year ago i wa convinced i did since i didn t have much joy left in my hobby game or many show and i know when this thing all started back in primary school i m in uk there wa this autistic kid named patrick he appeared nice at the beginning but i had a bad feeling about him i felt bad that i did since he wa autistic and back then i wa told that you should never judge someone because of appearance or disability for that i wanted to be his friend along with everyone else after a few day of trying i realised why i had the bad feeling it turned out that patrick wa a bully and he always called me name and pushed me and hit me every time i wa even near him and of course i went to a teacher guess what they did drumroll nothing they said he couldn t help it because he wa autistic this went on for a year after a year of this the other boy in the class joined in and called me name and i only had friend through all of this let call one b and the other l when i wa hanging out with b she offered a sweet they had one of and i wa thankful for her kindness the next day b told l that i stole it from her and i now lost my only friend another year of this and still nothing but i had one friend we ll call her m m wa a girl i liked i matured fast after a while of hanging out with m i asked her to be my girlfriend and she said yes month of more bullying but being with m i wa sad about not having friend but happy that i wa with m m slowly stopped hanging out with me and soon enough she started hanging out with b month later me and m were over m wa always talking to b i talked to no one i stopped going outside apart from school whenever m asked me to come outside i never said yes anymore i just sunk myself into a rabbit hole of youtube video p game and especially fortnite when it wa popular after summer holiday i went back to school and i gave up on making friend or doing work that year i always got mad whenever someone insulted me and i walked out of the classroom still teacher did nothing they actually called my carers and said i might have autism or anger issue absolutely ignoring the fact i wa being bullied right in front of them it definitely didn t help that the teacher for our class wa always on the girl side and soon enough i felt like i wanted to murder some of my classmate and i forgot to mention that i became friend with one of the boy that bullied me last year but he didn t really talk to me much after i started reading news story about depression abuse treatment of kid mental health etc and i came to the conclusion that adult couldn t help in this situation so i had to stop my anger before it even started i tried to stop sleeping because i thought if i wa tired enough my brain would be to weak to show emotion i soon enough had no friend didn t get much sleep didn t go outside apart from school and that s only through the course of and a half year primary i decided i wa gon na better myself and actually do my work i got to level in subject i talked to my friend more i became friend with m again after m and b had a fight they stopped being friend so in that year the teacher were the true problem and patrick of course let s call teacher one c and no d d wa the one i hated the most d intentionally made fun of the fact my dad left my mother when i wa born d also heard patrick call me name and hit me and breathe in my face multiple time i burst out of the room and went outside then d found me and acted like he didn t know what happened the deliberately said get back inside or i ll call your dad that made me so angry that i shouted right in his face and i went back inside angrily patrick still annoyed me and still teacher ignored it after covid erupted we went off school and it wa great skip to primary and patrick finally started getting in trouble by one teacher only teacher c after a while of him actually getting in trouble he came up with a plan he decided to tell teacher c to go home and kill themself and when it happened teacher c went out with watering eye and the head teacher came in and said to him patrick that s not nice don t say it again teacher c still got him in trouble and he gave up on stopping her nothing much happened that year he still bullied me but i tuned all of it out since i couldn t care anymore nor could i get angry anymore all my anger wa used up now i m in s and people call me emo just because of my long fringe no one want to be friend with me everyone annoys me for no reason most of my primary school friend are no longer talking to me i gave up do i have depression,1 nothing goodso m went back school today i live england hoping would good id something but due covid probably wont able see friends much all im already feeling really shit makes everything way worse cant kms bc would hurt others really want stop existing theres nothing makes happy happen right now love seeing one friends going movie night cant happen really want someone thing kill dont live shit life anymore,1 cheated dont feel worthy livingthats it cant deal pain caused saw girl days asked gf gf girl cheated told everything unresponsive attempt contacting her dont see without gf ive never felt comprehended loved cheated because didnt even want begin with even tho wasnt gf officially talked exclusive knowing other type scumbag betray like that want end,1 feel like im years old body mind,0 omg quot the reader quot is making me,0 must confess remember film well but certainly liked it think best adaptation burroughs novel really course one best movie christopher lambertbr br a good movie tarzan cult ones weissmuller,0 babybazooka i do too but it s hard,0 ugh doe anyone know what i can do to stop anxiety attack pleeease i need help,0 anyone never seen anything like fight scenes matrix never seen movie fight scenes choreographed action scene psychopath yuen woo ping also fights matrix fight scenes somethinbr br li plays supersoldier feels pain lives life pacifist librarian ya got me evil supersoldiers begin killing local drug lords take drug trade li teams cop buddy help stop thembr br there absolutely crazy things going movie one badguy gets arm lopped pane glass hardly notices fights scenes filled flying kicks punches body count way there li seldom better surrounded bevy beautiful female costars yip kicks serious ass fellow supersoldier anthony wong even makes cameo drug lord no suprises there makes cameo every hk movie unfortunate make action movies like us sit horrible dubbing jobs see action crave much recommended,0 survivor serious injury recently stubbed toe still recovering it please keep awards yourself medical advisor says live please dont worry,0 friendlyeggs lyric collection tally hall edition hear flibbity jibbity jibber jabber oh god ive gotta get ill another word sell another story tell another timepiece ringing bell hear clock stop reach end no know must neverending comprehend try pretend understand resemble fool although man give smile tally hall ruler everything life short things happen make best it smile,0 another endless amount cookiecutter kickboxers fight death amusement wealthy scumbags films many s yknow ones created taking words death blood steel words ring fight match cage putting random generator saying though death match pretty good entry overused genre thanks exciting fight scenes surprisingly good acting kickboxer castbr br the story concerns two buddies exkickboxing world champion john larson played pugfaced middleweight kickboxing champ ian jacklin probably previously best known awful performance main villain ring fire nick wallace nick hill likable guy probably best known role streetfighter sergio bloodsport work la docks loading crates onto ships one discovery boxful guns brief fight later two heroes jobless propping la bar sensible john larson decides head north look job headstrong nick wallace heard guy paying good money fighters fight private kickboxing matches why things change says john need me ill there predictably enough long nick gone missing good friend fighting deadly ring death trying find lead missing buddybr br sure enough prizes originality here like said before films strength lies action cast reallife fighters fairly good performances manages wring them ian jacklin particular surprised me previously id seen bad guy ring fire bitparts tripe like steel ring ive always quite amused bad actor good fighter though death match hes pretty good given decent script haircut proves quite charismatic leading man friendship nick well portrayed jacklin hill nice chemistry really believe two characters care other enough one lose job travel halfway across country risk death save wish friend like that br br it also nice see matthias hues villainous henchman little depth were used seeing many villainous henchman roles however fooled thinking hes star hes video cover with seems head stuck body michael bernardo cover shootfighter good hes screen muchbr br on negative side film pretty slow theres fighting going on lots unnecessary scenes whats gangster jimmie fiorellos pointless story grandfather end fight disappointingly short whole enjoyed it plenty fights good martial arts really need course eyecandy lovely form pretty renee ammann all pretty entertaining kickboxing movie,0 made japanese friend keep forgetting use simple english brain defaults complex words realize oh shit might know word,0 hi new guy herecaution big wall text sorry bomb guys this scroll past spoiler unless post really grabs attention ampxb please bear facts chronologically inconsistent wrote almost word essays pressed back phone twice laptopkeyboard guy also morning lonely incredibly lonely also if someone wants move somewhere else please read post once feeling lazy please want look put inline link markdown writing post two fucking hours hi know exactly place introduce myself fact posting sub first time life years lurking say lot itself expect help perhaps venting would make feel better never wanted kill myself least hour still dont blabbering here reason fear death fact thing afterlife thats thing even believe afterlife would ramble here fear would stand side watch fear what will get back later post exactly motivation port storm lets begin yes preamble boy going long post things want tell myself fully functional depressed person diagnosed never went therapy meds support ever son alcoholic man tortured family physically mentally point mother would died killed herself whichever happened first twisted fate happened things hope good thing person hates mankind passion would rarely see seriously weak baby clear would grow mess introvert obvious intj mbt scale rather high iq low eq memory sharp curse thankfully showing signs wear starting memory loss come conservative countryor rather world important piece information add context lot things tell yall degree computer science national level university acceptance rate less stanford without exaggerating make millions this one sake information mean shit me personification fake smile go day break doorway room coming back believe me realize smiles fakeyes real thing reality sinks hits hard biggest overthinker ever know orders magnitude average overthinker lose hours thinking physically abused lot seen women home get abused have however besides mental abuse watching stuff childhood quite bit mental one childhood well adulthood countries moving option young age much used blast music ears hours overpower brain stopping overthinking think acceptable survival option teenager besides drowned voices parents arguing rather father time could understand people already good repressing memories thoughts believe kids get unconscious getting beaten shed tear one them here kickerfirst many post even shit lived whole life never told anyone why fuck telling this tired listening hey everyone problems need focus good this shall pass karen fuck right went half family did would long dead worse starting give hope death permanent respite even this rather prodigious disciple school entering multiple quizzes winning all brain high schooler year old boy recipe disaster took mr humble bragger inside mind always wanted kill me outside number things biggest one girl always come national level exams high school take people people hype it night second exam father stood top house piss drunk made scene oh tell diagnosed severe clinical depression months this exam wanted prove certain someone would stare food hours never eat sleep days outright disobeyed teachers point would even repeat answers them believe many times man threatened family redflag while mother would simply tell us go sleep today either man literally tying noose right pulling shit since early teenage top country fucking exameyeballing it might even higher mean shit thing is everyone knew something wrong expected national topper never meant that bearable mind started killing serious gtlt gti want let cutting chase beginning doubt anyone read thislt gtlt gtgtshit coming points buckle uplt gtso fell girl yes no hair balls waited years telling anyone fucking planetlt gtmessed confession idea hard talk someone scared shitless response scared hands would frozen cold middle summer afternoon seriouslylt gtbecame creeplt gti showed girl even family knows feelings her showed feelings everywherelt gti proved authenticity feelings stood ground think young ones know love never child never allowed childhoodlt gtalways fucked attempting talk her intentions clear language alone loveboy cringed hard word needs two persons know kind talking aboutlt gtboth went uni separate ways fucked colossally neither following attempting reestablish communication always believed bullshit idea going back accomplished something mind every fucking secondlt gtyes every second would dreams life would wake middle night devastated realitylt gti plainly avoided attemptslt gtalso note girl wasis notorious cold careerminded fall love type least others saw believe that believe human immune falling anotherlt gtall trying prove earning potential her showoff way internal pact made myselflt gtthis girl would fall anyone else last saw her heart still believe it yes baseless one standing her someone else saying know best bet life it even years changed anything change things level convictionlt gtso fuck would chase her clearly type sure hell interested nope bad sounds i hope is type second kicker ever liked girl her people would literally catch staring me teachers spotting us catching avoiding others glances whatnotlt gtno girl right mind would let stalker walk home every day unless scared him even would last longer couple days given needed tell someone anyone would dealt with stalker her would walk home many days lt gtit told do care much me different religions parents would never allow it may get killed thought every boy brother ten steps later road given promotiondemotion rank friendlt gtbullshit fall someone nothing stop you period heart always believed make impossible happen least did last saw real reduced online stalker let presence know feelings getting reciprocatedlt gti literally gave doctor dreams close her delayed uni whole yearslt gthold horses say clearly interested you move on let tell somethinglt gti felt her made girl yes possible believe me overthinker says wants someone means thought person interest enough repeatedly wished would either never met never existedlt gti one thing clear mind give everything her let put things points helps getting points acrossfucking unintended punlt gtmy university degree years absolute hell teachers would fail sight friends thousands miles away family girllt gtevery talent have ones know ones dont chess violin archery computer stuff photography knowledge anything else think oflt gtall friends numberslt gteverything ever wanted want italia spyder gadgets gear hobbieslt gtdreams want normal life girllt gti would say life would defeat purpose fucking wall text efforts every comfort have readywilling walk two thousand miles show still given up even eyes meet secondlt gtthat brings us rather close timeline literally went uni one goal come alive got rather good job gave internship company gave fulltime offer would give enough money thought would prove even lovesick brain like mine melt gtshe doctor even job people tell still way average well long run lost hope believe ever succeed want help family always did it reason live reason survivelt gtand want survive whatever wounds time healed see scars skin left lost get morning chainsmoke reds drink whiskey like water smoke enough pot make guy double weight pass out thrice still stop thinking herlt gti often find funny people find soulmates easily sometimes simply look sky wondering done wrong fate smiled even once actually even agolt gti understand even get world or past would change never hoped change brought simple ideology leave family make fate gifted one broken might able confuse anything elselt gti much misfortune life something good happens today get scared know something bad happenlt gtmy college harsh last job horrible evicted lost wallet everything inside it literally calculated pennies attempts save money least give family two thousand miles home two thousand miles herltlt actually wanted let topics apparently woman occupies biggest space head would like write again companionship biggest issue failed list items made deal myself live family fate taking things away one another years left hatred people regrets die right obviously but recently started seeing making past literally verge giving life hoping next one thing exists would better great thing hold to name hope know long stop wanting kill immediately kind see becoming probability near future started believing everyone supposed survive life hope someone understood meant that edit wanted put lovesick section spoilers hide it much work took good hours write want let anymore me,1 left high school kinda sad im gonna straight forward im student well ex student could say signed school today completing year year school journey overall signing papers leave easy dramatic sounds best friend side it left school feeling great work dad bike mechanic build bikes certain companies bigw anaconda for australians youd know hard job actually great fun suddenly noon speak this im type emotional last time emotional dogs passed years ago im pretty strong im always one bring people theyre down today wasnt day that started feeling rush emotions leaking eyes put nicely almost whole afternoon pets understand physical emotional attachment them dang leave high school go work alongside undoubtedly one hard working men ive known father cant stop thinking friends best friend wont mentioned right now maybe sort emotional attachment school didnt even know could emotional something doesnt involve passing something else traumatic live generation click button send message friends instantly type social media snapchat instagram email i mean nobody uses come on discord even reddit hello redditors really much generation cant imagine living s type social media ceased exist really message friends whenever want receive instant messages back yet still emotional this needed vent conversations below ill chatting anyone could people talk roller coaster emotions maybe silly ill regret posting long essay almost longer essay wrote school thank time thank much reading this great day bless,0 OMG it feels so good to take that damn girdle off... You skinny bitches don't know nothing about that kind of pain... Lucky You ,0 i m 0 about to spend most of my life try to meet s end got out of high school and did one semester of college feel like a burden to those around me i alway felt depressed always putting on a happy mask so i would have to make those around me worry went to the army for month thought it might change the first wa fun and happy but last wa hell felt depressed again got came home a try to start over watch anime which felt like it wa a cure for depression i just wanted to share this,1 mizzzidc i hope you kee yourself with that depression,1 jesus committed redflagthis serious question im genuinely interested people think it,1 well maybe helped someone elseid like think care people despite dwindling friend circle read zero today cutting everyone weekend ive thanked frequently recently helping people cared make decisions gain perspective lives old friends best friends ex girlfriends business associates bartenders even helped friend vote last week realize am ive drunk nine days straight feel like something now ill hurt others more ive taken precautions ive deleted contacts ive deleted real social media communicate people whose phone numbers remember thought cancelling cell service protect them wish hyper cognizant surroundings even im completely plastered wish combination drugs could take would leave completely functional totally disassociated able comprehend putting gun back head would bad idea rather feel hesitation pulling trigger hope would instantaneously ive posted afraid am necessarily pain idea lingering want over want done completely believe afterlife im relatively sure chemical impulses brains stop want complete surprise completely instantaneous,1 pecker another mainstream film john waters done smaller serial mom title character pecker hobby taking pictures anything sees matter dirty shocking takes pictures soon uses pictures taken puts display work pecker live seminormal middleclass family dad works drinking bar claw machine make enough money lesbian stripper bar across street mom runs thrift shop loves dressup poor people older sister tina works gay bar specialty trade younger little chrissy habit eating sugar sugar nothing sugary food grandmother memama small statue virgin mary plays ventriloquist it also friends friends matt chronic shoplifter girlfriend shelley runs laundry mat dictator soon tourist new york buys pictures displays art gallery picture comes fame pictures expose unusual life style friends familys simple life rrated film pecker sure tamer waters previous rrated films even pink flamingos another ,0 @willryker you should tweet more... 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Hopeful today ",0 kicked downccc,1 term redflag watch sounds little extreme mebut im argue sounds harsh doesnt im need someone talk to bad want cant kill myself revolver nightstand behind idk balls put head pull trigger want die ive trying figure now lately cant help think boy truck coming towards could come lane head wish gas pump would spontaneously blow finish filling tank think redflag watch idk hate life ive mad world lately reason hate job hate myself tired bottling shit in trichotillomania the irresistible urge pluck hair disorder one knows ive able hide years getting hard conceal work with tired stepped talked judged looked upon want alive anymore well honestly wanted alive three years now ive taking anxiety medicine months asked depression said none asked figured born depressed born weighing two pounds attach machines tubes mom said took pinky finger yanked tube mouth almost dead im supposed here always severe many years lying normal tricked believing happy simply cannot function feelings surface brains ability think straight shuts down fool could carry on id like say im good it really good it till now whole life lie know now grandmother drug addict crazy although liked admitting mom crazy uncle died alcohol abuse second cousin killed tired pushed around gay im still living parents kids gives intensive think thats true reason im still parents would absolutely devastated id like talk boyfriend feelings hed worry freaking storm alot power enough wake another morning,1 haha boomer grandmother dont believe everything see internet also grandmother g causes coronavirus,0 hate myselfim sure anymore ive gotten sick living ive actually started zoning forgetting goes on know im miserable know details hate family mostly immediate mom dad amp brother tell parents put me brother hates me guess sucks people think kind forced like dont understand why theres husbands family feel constantly judge them even though theyre better hate them hate too guess theyve learned put husbands sake theres me person hate all im bitch aware yet seem unable control it hurt husband daily sometimes notice days suffers silence weve intimate handful times since daughter born months ago like were older couple amp cant touched held theres cuddling hate kissing days thought sex draining hate myself want anymore hate life routine even days get new surroundings cant remember details miss husband hes gone want gone hes here im horrible human being know killed off cry daily think dying daily hope win lottery hope murdered walking street im depressed hate myself,1 time take fuckin step back tik tokshoot ik came across video girl telling people slash tires knife slash last different knife get done fraud even joke psycho deadass gunna this says give nicotine gum without knowing hes away feels like shit like bro nicotine isnt something fuck with fuckin end shit shouldnt said im thinking guys worry false rape allegations set fraud secretly addicted highly addictive substance bro idc joke psycho deadass gunna get idea from you psycho banshee bitch id rather dick poked rusty needles date toxic ass andddd fuckin cherry top tells people get rid hickeys finna cheat get dude addicted nicotine frame fraud cheat tldr people telling others frame people fraud get addicted nicotine partner wont leave get rid hickeys,0 think im starting feel depressed dont know anything dont know dont know dont know go dont know anything know always lose always fall like myth sisiliphus pushes massive rock cliff fall idk keep telling next time good one next time ill make never and never like way wish like rest people wish human wish could like rest world destined anyway trade social life happiness future never even accomplish sell life able physics earlier rest people sell whole life nothing feels like bought burrito dropped floor figure mess eat hating every second walk restaurant forever forget mistake go rest life idk idk idk idk idk king hate fucking hate hate everything please need someone talk,0 so i already posted something about this before but it wa more of a vent this is more of a flailing desperate attempt to figure out what to do i have a jury summons tomorrow morning i m crossing my finger that somehow despite it being the weekend they might still update my status a ended so i don t have to go but i know my chance are slim to none i know myself well even if i manage to get any sleep at all tomorrow morning will be hell on earth my anxiety is gon na have a field day it s already pregaming right now given that info i wa wondering if any of you have called in sick to your jury summons because of anxiety and how that went i m willing to try going but should i find that my anxiety is just too much i d like to have some sort of a plan b it kind of scare me the idea of calling in cause idk if they d consider sickness caused by anxiety a good enough reason besides that i know some place will just have you reschedule while others might not be so easy going all this legal stuff freak me out i don t want to be held in contempt sent to jail or fined but i also would rather not have to have a mental break down in front of a bunch of people i don t really have any medication that can help other than propranolol but all that doe is slow my heart rate the last time i took it to try and help during a stressful event i still felt short of breath and really nauseous which wa honestly kind of new i ended up having to hide away from people for like an hour till i felt somewhat better even then after another hour or so i started feeling really anxious again idk what to do i know jury summons isn t really that bad most normal people just think it s boring but for me having so much wait time will just lead to me obsessing over how i m feeling i can t really distract myself that well because i ll constantly be anticipating being called up which could be within the first hour could be multiple hour or possibly not at all on top of that it s early in the morning which i have a pretty bad track record with too early morning like that usually result in me feeling nauseous which result in me not being able to eat much you can t eat in the assembly room but you can t really leave in case they have an announcement so i d have to wait if i wait too long i start to feel really shaky and weak i d say hypoglycemic but i ve been tested for that and apparently i don t have it maybe i m just in starvation mode all the time so i run out of energy nutrient fast anyways any advice is welcome,1 need therapy form music listen search nfnf actually saved life please try listening music hard time cant promise make feel better feel little less alone rough days recommend trauma mansion paralysed hold therapy session breathe could leave us dreams want love feet stress hate only like miss days enjoy today ok might long time need keep living hope one day be,1 mr bean almost never speaks heartily recommend using dvd player teacher holding finger pauseplay button end age groups lesson simply devote minutes pausing playing dvd encouraging students shout answers whats this what happen whats happening whats wrong question elicits responses lessons new vocabulary grammarbr br because everyones looking tv normally shy students become vocal dvd started stopped point perfect filler awkward between times students leaving arrivingbr br i tried dvds notably tom jerry cartoons red skelton dvds others good mister bean holding students constant attention,0 @1sweetwhirl @MFLOWERS1965 Thanks so much. Going into proud papa mode. Will have to try not to post every single pic I have now. ,0 webview one of control of iphone sdk is too slow that even for loading local custom page it take a marginal time,0 I'm Still Celebrating My Bday Even Though It Was Friday ,0 hey baby doin dryhumps leg,0 i dont want to believe what im reading buu so sad,0 hell dohello taken time gather well read subreddit else post brink want more however deserve depressed happy life want die makes feel worse comes story life one mildly popular guys never belonged elite popular neither ever feel lack friends neither search friend short friends always given me even friends expressed jealousy all smarts always top grades school yet friends among cool kids always girls however half year ago started feel like shit went trip girlfriend went cuba vacation could afford worked travel industry could get cheep tickets way there flight started feel extremely nauseous bordering unbearable nausea minutes landing pulled through arrived feel better nausea kept albeit diminishing rate days felt fine back home sweden felt almost fine would start bouts nausea work would sometimes result go home work this saw option go doctor doctor told expressed seemed like nothing stress accepted diagnosis time stressed out masters thesis work time decided wait things out eventually master thesis finished passed work deal with nausea never ended one time girlfriend went south sweden go party would normally entail two hours train whatever fuckup train cancelled go bus took extremely ill busride time thought common motion sickness never life previously motion sick grew boats cars suffer motion sickness nevertheless ascribed sickness motion sickness fell ill two weeks luckily caught ride car back home town horrible better bus ride back home get better finally started think ailment psychosomatic would frequently bouts describe anxiety doctor prescribed hydroxine me helped momentarily write feel fine relationship girlfriend finally ended went semester abroad felt nothing relief could finally focus self longer think of contend failure relationship due constant depression leaving supposed go couldnt heres bad part single ive extremely successful ive constantly girls ive slept around even offers long term relationships yet never happy extremely unhappy extremely unhappy write throwaway one friends happen upon post easily identify circumstances point is extremely unhappy return home offered sleep girl yet still want to seriously believe related former relationship simply want live more severely depressed suffer random bouts nausea anxiety personally subscribe wholly something psychosomatic still much aware fact deserve unhappy everything going me great education girls throw feet yet whatever happens want die return tonight night town resulted least two offers coitus want die always want die usually suicidal wish end life wish die tonight something different think met old crush mine failure ever get got me never less tonight first time ever wanted end life fully aware text nothing convince people even depressed problem fucking depressed and fact know makes things worse hate depressed think man up thinks everyone ive told troubles work fucking depressed first time ever want end all cried know why want die want die badly painlessly tldr reason want so hate want die please rredflagwatch feel like do cry thought stepping onto plane want end all want kill self now end all want feel better speak rather going bridge realise deserve unhappy am please help me,1 fluffy hair appreciation post boys fluffy hair incredible girls fluffy hair incredible enbys fluffy hair incredible fluffy hair soft u fluffy hair come across u compliment u sorry,0 i ve been struggling with feeling stress for the last year because of family and job issue a couple night ago i had really bad insomnia and wa up all night i felt exhausted but couldn t sleep all i could do wa lie on my sofa even getting a glass of water wa effort then in the morning my chest felt tight and my thought got kind of jumbled and overwhelming i couldn t sit still and i got up and paced for awhile i had to take deep breath i felt sick to my stomach the whole thing lasted about ten minute but i ve been really tired the last couple day feel like a hangover or something but i didn t drink the reason i m not sure if it s an anxiety attack is because i always heard that it felt like dying to have a anxiety attack and i didn t feel that i felt really unwell though any advice would be appreciated thank you,1 future druggiewhy see reason live get high fun ive every got double crossed friends sucks bc im freshman feel like ill become druggie doesnt bother me id glad give life high time,1 every day i feel exhausted i wake up and just lay in bed i feel like i have no interest anymore even playing videogames or watching youtube isn t enjoyable anymore i feel so tired and stuck i don t know what to do with my life i am back living with my parent and currently am not working i applied for disability due to my depression i see a therapist twice a week and do chore for my parent in the meantime but i just feel like laying in bed all day even when i force myself to do thing i feel little or nothing from it i just want this feeling to end,1 @KimKardashian hey kim im a huge fan! ur like my role model and i really hope i can actually meet u one day. ,0 whats ur favourite drink mines ginger beer,0 just getting home it snowing,0 cant ask helpyour whole life youre told certain people tell anything others tell brave reach out ashamed asking help all everybody hurts sometimes cant though ive done terrible things things plague mind day shame regret guilt constantly worry people think knew ive done hamster wheel never stops guess good thing way feelings constant reminder better person every night cry day face numb constant worry im worthy worthy things ive ever wanted secrets ill keep forever even professional dont know much longer keep up dont know do,1 trust know lot feeling wanting end longest time especially since sorry much pain hope gets better us world sucks peoplesuck friends gfbf fwb family let us try make best see another day do sorry,1 artificial immortalityartificial immortality probably invented within life times dont die miss it imagine committing redflag artificial immortality invented next year,1 redflag vs futilityi always debt likely never retire thing doubt ill live long first place also wont able afford health care housing decent food always alone rejected broken society reason commit redflag life already dead end theres nothing noble suffering years avoid killing yourself,1 justyeah need get stuff mindmy first kiss want it know coming anything depressing looking back wanted special never felt pretty never felt significant nothing bad ever happened buti still felt off especially first kisswhen called asked boob size virginity thing felt though object fast forward two years high school grad working amusement park living dorms everyone knew virgin come august close crew lifeguards wave special party handcuff party type pair someone handcuffed every time partner drinks must same partner cute russian foreigner got semiintoxicated heading bar realized forgot id badge offered walk room accepted walk in takes handcuff forces wrist around bed rail puts say no beg no looking door handle waiting roommate come backshe come back sees looking locks it finishes allows go bathroom shock walk bathroom sit down pee wipe toilet filled blood toilet paper saturated same shamefully walk back crawl bed disgust spoons me want it know say no next morning wake up sheets also saturated blood go work rumors spreading individual taking someones virginity true me turn break krista hear ___ took someones virginity acted clueless walked away cried knew true events taken place found thought gave up summer season ended turned slut hooking people left right want special things back know kiss wanted good first kiss someone really likedi know virginitybut wanted someone loved current boyfriend sleeping roomthe man love man respects me know may redflag watch materialbut events specifically rape haunt dreams haunt me conquer me make feel like nothing sit here many nights wanting end all feel like itd easier deal know may seem simple dumb want firsts back know people harder mean hurt too like im sitting here one thought years making read this thanks venting im bad night sorry think im pity party like address people may think say it tlampdr first kiss stolen virgin raped work crew found joke turned slut haunts dreams love boyfriend wanted him regular thoughts redflag sorry seem like panzy,1 just took a late night walk and am incredibly relaxed now ,0 poem day pt so todays edition isnt really poem wrote earlier creating art think people might appreciate it thx hating me music youre writing already exists job listen wants go next coax space imagination reality sound waves surround you blank canvas already full mind reverse 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I want to try with custurd soon and purhaps pastry ,0 imagine onlyfans owned ea every picture would blurred out would pay unlock body parts uncensored example would buy leg pack would un censor legs women man picture,0 idk how or when maybe overdose on some pill but i don t wan na suffer or maybe hang myself but again i don t wan na suffer,1 stats feed there is russia all my frends in depression,1 judge production hour version released vhs us choppy incomprehensible mess pleasure watching fulllength hour version available dvd uk spellbound deliberate pace growing sense menace mesmerizing amazing visual aural landscape ancient rome never seen before far authentic mostbr br director franco rossi justly celebrated miniseries odyssey miniseries equally powerful bekim fehmiu became screens best ulysses klaus maria brandauer may screens best nero now hoping someday see rossis version aeneid eneide broadcast italian tv br br i undecided version quo vadis powerful one polish miniseries different virtues many ways complement one another certainly either one towers hollywood campriot starring peter ustinov,0 send homework ill try email discord profile,0 0 wa a rough year for me even on new year s eve i woke up headbutting a brickwall in bed a lot of thing happen to me and around me in a short amount of time that i developed chronic anxiety i study mechanical engineering for a math project among other projecta i had to make a youtube channel i wa sick for week with bronchitis and i had to skip class for my health i had a severe spasm on my back and the morning am before my final exam i wa woken up to be informed that my older sibling wa in icu due to gangster attacking him on thing i forgot to mention is that the engineering course that i m doing wa fazing out so if i fail too many time i have to start everythin all over again on the new curriculum after my exam i wa burned out and my body couldn t relax and i went to a massage parlour to treat the spasm it wa a painful experience and with a woman first time touching me like that week later my body wa just slowly going into shock that i would be paralysed and my sibling had to carry me when i wa at home i probably had a panic attack a well anyway i wa 0 when that happened i m cm and weigh kg my psychiatrist prescribed me 0mg of clobazam in total for morning afternoon and evening and i realised my sex drive wa diminished i wasn t to happy about that so a long time probably month after i started i tried to taper my dose but i did it too quickly got withdrawal symptom and wa put on indoblok for the withdrawal the nightmare wa a blast after a while week i think i could stop on the indoblok and just run on the mg of clobazam and my libido returned a bit but not a before also a a side note a struggle to gain weight so i went to get help with that but i stopped doing that a it got expensive heaviest i ve been on the diet plan wa kg by eating diet alone anyway i started seeing a psychologist that my psychiatrist recommended to me to help figure out how mild my higher functioning autism is but he mainly helped me with my anxiety and ocd we mainly talk now and i did speak with them with topic that made me blush and embarrassed then 0 0 happened i got sick in 0 badly luckily not icu badly on a side note prior the massive shock i went in i wa quite comfortable speaking in front of 0 people and making an as out of myself so long story short i currently weigh 9 kg i m cm in length cm for the win and i m now i m doing my internship to gain my qualification which is the last step i spoke with my psychiatrist that after online powerpoint presentation i want to try to reduce my dose to 0mg a i developed a go with the flow and if it happens it happens type of attitude also i m on other medication so i would like to reduce cost i asked my psychiatrist if it s a good idea to stop seeing my psychologist a we only talk about my problem my psychiatrist told me to still go a it help me vent my frustration i m not gon na lie it help and it s fun for me but i notice after i gained mass from covid my libido slightly increased a well also i went on my first date in my entire life the date had a lot more anxiety than i have mine wa non existent the reason why i want to stop my clobazam treatment is i think i have a significant improvement with my anxiety even my ocd ha improved i have a lot le to worry about regarding failing my engineering course a i m almost done i want to save more money i grew up here in south africa and a lot of terrible thing don t faze me anymore sometimes i find it quite funny i really want to see if it wa the clobazam that tanked my libido and i would like to gain it back please so what do you think after week with the presentation that s coming up i m gon na see how my anxiety is had some physical chest pressure but that wa due to issue at work which i had to resolve myself and after that i m gon na slowly reduce my clobazam to 0mg also did any of you who were on clobazam had an impact on your libido i wa impotent when i first started at 0mg but it s manageble at mg after the weight gain some slight improvement,1 "@kissability In that case, this may be of interest: http://www.bookdepository.co.uk/browse/book/isbn/9781906558147 ",0 i just can t seem to relax throughout the day every time i think about sitting down and reading watching a tv show meditating putting a face mask on etc i ve got 000 thing on my mind random stuff anxious thought thing i have to get done etcetc so i never get to truly relax i panic just thinking about reading cause it ll be calm and there s nothing to distract me from my thought until i m able to focus on the book which can take a while the only time i m able to actively relax is when i m tired after i ve worked out for h in the gym or late at night got ta find the sweet spot between anxious mess and falling asleep feel like walking a tightrope amp even when i manage to get there i have more important stuff to do than relaxing eg studying amp other stuff that my anxious self didn t manage to do,1 poo poo times pee pee times alll pee pee times poo poo times,0 parents hate kids making online friends dad confronted day informed needed careful friends play minecraft with accused caring feelings likely ulterior motive said matter id known year ive face timed them trust slightest fucking annoying people keeping sane quarantine without them probably wouldve become depressed again fault hes military literally friends live states countries much weve moved fault were living quarantine cant make friends school,0 say despite reviews angels outfield pretty good movie like fact teaches kids always faith never give yes miracles happen unlike baseball movies one particular movie stood hits amazing special effects well orchestrated soundtrack interesting though liked movie flaws irrelevancy ie towards end ray mitchell hits homer step plate therefore score thats nitpicking say really impressed movies presence moral faith give up,0 Ladies you've got 10$ to buy the perfect man 300$- stable career150$- good sex5$- posts fortnite wins on snapchat 1$- this isn't a meme please help4$- I have chronic depression please help200$- Owns a mansion,1 yinkapost he went into depression i think,1 one films that whatever reason clicked me everything right eric roberts laconic nice investigator voiceover narration twisting plot dan hedaya denis lipscomb given good roles settings paintings artist studio scenes end credit sequence wonderfully haunting theme music perfectly encapsulates mood whole film reservations beverly dangelo femme fatale plays final scenes beautifully think director matthew chapman trying sort chinatown feel whole thing didnt work murdermystery gem,0 @KimmyQueen you say the truth! ,0 bruh gay started feelings friend mine mofo might gay holy shit,0 least stepdad says ugly mentally unwell fat awkward pussy stand chance real world,1 [Zicutake] Depression can be prevented by exercise https://goo.gl/fb/Mu7k6t ,1 goodbyei dont know anymoreim spill every detail life hereso long story short cannot anymore ive stopped cutting long long time ago reason today broke shiny new razor blade think may done damage judging size puddle ive producedbut question iswhy even go help time nothing lefti feel fuzzy warm almostdespite fact arm becoming increasingly cold guess wanted say goodbye since one else listens,1 ive lost interest beingi survived long couple reasons one great network family friends love want see get this know great mind could actually asset someone somewhere im almost done awful stem degree open many doors me excite me see change able walk around feet see things ive never seen able give back owe everything instead thing feel ennui care software used passion gone nothing look forward to cant even bring fake little enthusiasm parents call check me still plan sometimes think miserable average cant keep crying released would nice feel like ill ever happy again want send final message thanking everyone go sleep last time supposed get better isnt im still waiting something happen seems like lead happiness thus far nothing frigid disappointment protect hurt find assuming be need something someone know find it im running energy search it,1 all the title are relateable but all the comment are like same life suck i m currently writing my note this is just another stop before the end though i seriously doubt there is anything that can be done i ve tried every medical treatment available including experimental one been through so much therapy and i m getting nowhere there is no beating this depression and on paper i have the perfect life great job loving partner supportive parent people would kill for this life and for me it s not enough the problem is me always been me which is why nobody outside can help you can t fix what is working a intended so yeah nobody is here to actually prevent so i guess that s another note they could find after i m done,1 i don t really know what to do anymore like for almost 0 year i ve always been sad mostly because of my own inabilites yes i m talentless and below average intelligence then we kinda move here in a rural area ran into financial trouble which lead to me having chronic depression where every waking moment i feel so frustrated and anxious of my situation i wa socially isolated in school and wa looked at like a failure at home i managed to get by for the next year after that even i don t know why now i kinda get a silent anxiety attack now and then even on the slightest thing my mental health is on the brink of just breaking i can t take that anymore please suggest a way to end myself in a rather non violent manner i think it s my time to move on from our cruel world,1 theres new killer bean episode httpsyoutubebltgkvqmqs king returned,0 im going see i know sure now going plan redflag means escape constant torture failed ive given up even seems like therapist know help anymore theres nothing left ill dead within year,1 keep forgetting stuff ill go get something forget even got get distracted way stupid stuff like password birthday cant remember stuff without reminder either,0 long suicidalmonths years gotten worse better,1 aight time face ive spending much time reddit fucking fitness attention span got go fun years see yall around,0 i wa woken up by my mom now i cant get to sleep,0 anyone needs talk englishgermanif anyone needs talk im here private message skypeoovoo name speak english german fluently speak one languages im you ,1 good morning twitter world ,0 hate need something do live instead wanting something do livei hate consume food energyi hate spend energy workingi hate work livei hate live workampxbi hate humans slapped price tag everythingi hate life cannot experienced free triali hate way place diei hate dying physically painful experiencei hate death emotionally painful loved onesampxbi tired inputoutput machine slave parasitic bodyi tired going sleep wishing wake upi tired waking hoping life bad dreami tired inspired needs resent idea needingampxbi wish work optional experiencing luxuries desired themi wish labor money pain frustration redflag fear worry redflag disease depression optionalampxbi want dead want exist somewhere freei want stone want experience life freei want bored want learn life freei want lifeless want drink water breathe air eat sunlight freeampxbmaybe next life could big peaceful treeonly cut murdered will remains turned whatever material conveniences themso much dream freedom peaceampxbi hate greatest concepts value imaginary illusionsfreedom illusionpeace illusionprivacy illusionlove illusionsuccess illusiongod illusionillusions ingredients make happinessanother illusion tired,1 wanna end itthat all,1 cool people are chilling feels really nice like geez feel calm myself people allow drag state,0 "I love this. Depression/Despair is a serious reality - chemically and/or philosophically. If you're in it, you're not alone and your life matters. https://twitter.com/CBSNews/status/988968465452224512 …",1 reasonso go again sitting front restaurant typing phone im drunk hell get point willingly broke promise completely give alcohol first off two months ago relapsed went back rampant alcoholism high school finals girlfriend worried me asked stop it stopped got together her went five years long period depression ended giving alcohol first time i addicted alcohol two months point sneaking alcohol school helped all helped up now weve grown appart suspicion cheating me matter time break up top that dog growing old first half life behind her two last things keeping ending all girlfriend dog now long distance relationship verge breakup dogs last years left nothing look forward to feel years left end life and mom casually talking write this speak english feel like want go on like need help time running out,1 "@ Home, hungry, sleppy & sick....waiting 4 my teddy bear!!! ",0 "@ellaeslajirafa "?"(dai)=blackish green,"?"(si)=silk,so"??" is silk of blackish green color,i hope you like it ",0 my anxiety make it almost impossible for me to talk on the phone even people i m not anxious around irl i get panicked with on a phone call so 99 of the time i don t answer call and definetly don t call people well now i had to answer a is wa a pretty important call and i m pretty calm after it like usually my heart beating like crazy i m sweating and my voice break during and after but now i m pretty i just feel short of breath and am a little shaky but i think it went pretty well my voice still broke during the call but not a badly a most time,1 "Is thinking about piercing the otherside of her lip... YES, that bored... i want a snakebite piercing anyways, im already halfway there ",0 know live sober throw away account going written like slop would like apologize first that abusing drugs alcohol since feel like cannot deal life sober state started using heroin two years ago bi polar young lady needed put manic mind rest amazing although using lot less due resent overdose substituted alcohol pills again matter always self harming myself whether drugs cutting starving always need harm body cannot cope taking advice reading here past months keep telling kill today ill wait till tomorrow weekend see feel im end cant keep going tried get help many times clinics hospitals never seem help resent doctor drop health insurance dropped me stop taking meds last summer due well poor student medical bills overdoses attempts even process mother kicked recently bare watch anymore cant even talk really fathers passing anyway even want die feel to cant live like anymore thank reading,1 Bought the MH bundle? Create a task called "Mario" or "Star Wars" in "The Hit List". Make sure your sound is on and complete the tasks! ,0 right could suffering even body gives succeed leave behind grieving loved ones forever traumatized taking lifei wish easy painless way loved ones forget ever existed hurt them fair suicide hard,1 laratron ala i have no pimms,0 would spend money ending itsay youve gone youve reached point life nothing bring back happiness youve had youve already decided amount pain youre go however decide end it higher pain youve endured losing happiness money saved bank youve never used busy saving keeping secret biggest emergency lets say worth months worth comfortable rent would spend it,1 pikuprogram it s still jojo the depression hit me again like a truck,1 worst part life feeling useless life feeling useless turnfor long ive felt reason live driving purpose would go day day immersing media made forget empty life felt empty felt went years met best friend met her life seemed light like never had years went by went lot asked out said yes couple years years long distance btw come realization need me nothing her whenever needs emotional help try might cant help her never right things say never right things insanely clear longer wanted needed helpful without her im back empty life before feel creeping way back im coming conclusion needs me nothing good intentions love ever thought could love something might made long around guide me want able her despite good intentions hurt needs me im incapable swallow pain feel responsibilities have give attention i simply enough im man nothing good intentions actions carry out like say road hell paved good intentions ampxb college im great school ive always killed academics college hard me though felt useless push hard motivation im sure thats me classes genuinely feel useless either way adds feeling like life pointless plan buying motorcycle think fun love sense freedom seems random theres reason bring up buy necessary gear wear time make sure bike always running well plan buying bike thats fast beginner like me hope die without intentionally killing myself for nothing all thing kept alive girl longer needs me think im simply living borrowed time thats getting feelings actually found subreddit looking im useless want die catharsis appreciate anyone reading hope well,1 @Panic_Carnival Depression Meal,1 keep talking avoid causing family painbut im miserable person around im sure wouldnt mind,1 @LodurZJ Well pizza... but that is good too! ,0 ranking potato dishes think right aeverything else bmicrowave potato boiled steak cut french fries c draw,0 Depression: Exercise decreases the chance of developing depression later in life https://www.express.co.uk/life-style/health/950678/depression-exercise-mental-health-prevention …,1 May 2016. The first month in eight or nine that I was fully out of depression. It was crazy… https://www.instagram.com/p/BiAf-aWgBWF/ ,1 been a long course she got sick over a decade ago and wa showing sign before 0 when i wa little idk why but i thought it wa my sole responsibility to protect her from harm my folk didn t get on well but there wasn t any violence between them but we the sole make son i had seen controlled violence against me trust me it wa hershey s kiss compared to what my old man got but i suppose it set that fear well now after a damn near decade of helplessness not being able to accomplish the purpose i gave myself i m not sure what to do with myself i ve been a bad son i ve been a bad brother i ve been a damn good uncle and that where i try to make up but every aspect of my being is tied up in his maladaptive relationship not the abject relationship with my mother but the consequence of her getting sick and the turmoil it caused the family never the le to myself a i watched the only person i trusted fade away idk i don t know if i could have done more i wa 9 when she got diagnosed and i just pushed it away externally but internally i bought a camera talked with her into the deep of the night but i couldn t help it wa what it wa i couldn t make right and when it all went to hell i went to hell and couldn t handle it tried to od twice after i knew the thing wa up and she wa no longer there there were glimmer but they were prob more in my mind than in truth well that sucked it wa awful i d imagine what we should know about this illness is it literally contorts the mind to it s own end deep depression take away your soul and breath it s true hell but thank god i wa lucky icu wasn t bad cause i don t remember trying to gain my muscle mass back after my kidney went all to shit sucked straight up took another year of therapy and just reintegrating with life to resemble stable and after that i had the pure delight of the best year since i wa a kid depression never go away but when life shine it shine it so damn hard to see that a a possibility when you are in the void but i swear to what ever god it doe exist it s a hard road but no harder of a road than you have seen before when you are in the void it is living a a shadow inside of a shadow it s being a observer and not a participant and seeing life for it brutal nature without being able to taste it fruit is utterly awful but for those who can t smell the fruit it s there i swear on my life my utterly maladjusted fucked up terribly prob gon na die of some impact of my attempted od s dipshit life that fruit is worth it i m at the end of an era and i m frankly worried i m gon na relapse i in fact know i will and i m going to want to die again after the sum of all my fear a a child being realized i can t imagine any different but i know know better i m setting up appointment with folk once i bury my mom i pretty sure in some sense i will die but i know it s worth the fight to not truly die it would be a waste my small dumbass experience a a kid when my folk were healthy basically said this kid need therapy,1 went get skeleton went walmart get foot realistic skeleton pm got halloween section saw out started playing linkin park song we tried hard got far end even matter im extremely heartbroken passenger seat lie barren halloween cant keep grudge walmart radios perfect timing guess ill survive,0 stephenkruiser sorry to hear about your dog,0 i just got my car back last week and it s fucked up again the depression is fresh,1 it s a nice day for once and chibi and i are stuck at home waiting for a parcel,0 fellow redditors need help soo year half ago met girl crush her guts tell her fast forward year find social media get talking turns also used like me anymore sees friend day start talking everyday like months redevelop crush her finds says feel way still talk almost everyday before still like know do would ask kinda things friends terms friends friends wanna give everyone life one understands better her one else talk asking reddit do still reading thank heart precious time feel free pm dm message me,0 cat mouse involved usual chases jerry dives bottle invisible ink discovers makes vanish instead seizing opportunity go spy girl mouse changing room something uses newfound invisibility torment tom pretty funny quite inventive despite somewhat onejoke cartoon action never leaves interior house usually trait average tj shorts still worth br br however im sure invisible mouse cast shadow wall defies physics nature invisible itself,0 much want end iteverything caught cant deal it someone stop me,1 want alone interest anybody nobody notices,0 "@ravensspirit68 Me too, shortly. Only so much depression I can tolerate per day.",1 diamond certified singer weeknd save tears unofficial music video httpsyoutubefxctzcevahttpsyoutubefxctzceva,0 tell obe reason end all feeling like ahit past years everyone says im faking depression im really depressed gen z fake depression therefore also do ao close ending all tell good reason killing myself care feelings family,0 im aloneim alone friends im highschool drop nothing going im alone im room locked away wanna kill self im much pussy cant take anymore one cares one loves ive left rot friends forgotten job talent nothing pain anger death wish heart broken,1 dream opposite genitalia wierd dream penis know why people dreams like me,0 psa fuck loli lolis designed headpats shall used cock sleeves thank u,0 thighs thicc tho filler text filler text filler text filler text filler text,0 "@jackfaulkner Ah, nevermind, it's the thought that counts. (Also quite predictable)",0 my mood change fast and i don t think i am bipolar a it s usually a reason why my mood change and it can all change in a day like i m in a good mood and then like couple hour past and i just get negative thought and i m down again like i already lost people this year my ex best friend who used to be my best friend like year ago and losing him a a friend this year didn t really hurt a it wa my decision to cut him out of my life he wa a real bad narcissist and probably a sociopath so cutting him out felt good the one thing that hurt is losing my sister a we used to be so close but recently she became a lot more social and ha a lot of friend and she doesn t even want to speak to me or spend time with me anymore even though i m the older sibling i m and she s 0 it s just scary how easy people can just leave your life and even though i have a best friend that is good to me and i am talking to a girl but i m just worried it will end a i m just bad with my emotion probably because of my anxiety i m really not sure how i can get better like sometimes i feel great it feel like euphoric even like i m more hyper talkative and confident but it never last long and then i m just back to my usual mood just being sad depressed and anxious i know somethings wrong with me probably i tried cbt therapy for anxiety and depression but it didn t really help me i m on an antidepressant a well which ha never worked on me i just take it a it make me sleep i hate living like this i just want to smoke weed and get drunk so that i can stop all the negative thought and i hate it it feel like my life is a mess it s so much effort to get out of my bed and i just hate my life like wtf sometimes i feel like going to thailand and becoming spiritual or something,1 "@Julia_SCI Julia- have you researched Lyme disease as a possibility? More and more, lyme patients have depression and anxiety as symptoms.",1 mother karen holy fuck good one nobody stand aint like manager karen want got,0 "Mmm, I rather like this Cinnamon Starbucks doubleshot drink. Yum! ",0 fuckers stole kitkat cant shit meta physical plane existence,0 society moved past need umegathiccc think time simultaneously push button,0 trying to reduce the number of cigarette in each day,0 @podfeet Well that's a new word�'tweetheart'. ,0 Depression: You're worthless.Anxiety: Cool so let's overanalyze your worthlessness!My brain: pic.twitter.com/I9PTgG1kTV,1 still have a lot of work to catch up on,0 latín aprobadooooooooooooooooooooo thanks 3!! xD,0 ive decided do f im killing yet yeah everyday sucks feel like lonely depressed blob cant even move unless assignment due next day im lucky parents care me home sister yeah told gave theyre still family still feed love guess tried explain wanted die would go forever basically im stupid compared everyone school theyre geniuses im nothing compared them terrible act score sat score terrible gpa im head one club school least head even get good college cant speak friends theyd look stupid still problems work hard tru talk told get book self confidence ive realized pretending happy much easier called attention whore theres also reasons dont want go right now heres im going do im going keep living ive completely severed ties everyone know die one left way hurt anyone around itd perfect im sure happen im going keep playing along day comes,1 buong nier series depression dala,1 tf still pass online homework despite fact literally electricity context typhoon hit us kinda left lot city without power phone call event emergency teachers apparently still demands pass assignments despite fact literally electricity go random neighbors house begged let gey signal use laptop almost work charge it like students need adjust situation find way jesus fuck,0 favorite video games ive pretty board games play lately anyone video game recommendations whats favorite video game,0 i just want the pain to end i really want to die my life is not going anywhere i ve got no friend no future etc i m just so completely exhausted and sick of it all i wish i wasn t so sensitive but i just can t take this anymore,1 every little fucking sets nowafter last years thought getting better turns stopped caring unknown reason started caring cant anything might piss else im deep end shut ffs fucking retard fuxk,1 so i m f and i finished college right when the pandemic hit march 0 0 so my internship got cancelled and i ended up getting no experience in my field i work in fast food and decided to wait a bit before job hunting cause the pandemic made everything crazy and i felt safe where i wa i also wa considering going back to school cause i wa uncertain if i wanted to stick with my degree but i ve decided i ll only go back if i find something i know i ll be passionate about and i haven t fast forward to year later and i ve hit my limit and started to seriously job hunt because i can t stand working in fast food anymore my parent treat me like i m a loser for still working there and tell me i need to get my life together and make it clear they want me to move out in a few year they don t need to treat me like that at all because trust me i hate my job it make me so miserable and my depression ha been so bad this winter because of it i ve felt like life isn t worth living and i have this horrible fantasy of getting into a car crash etc just so i don t have to work i apply to job day after day but never even get any interview and i m trying to be patient but none of these job want to hire someone with 0 experience in the field and it s so unfair how am i ever supposed to start and get experience when they all want someone with year i wa so close to quitting my job this weekend cause i ve hit my limit with how understaffed we always are and how rude customer and manager are but i can t afford it so i either have to stay patient and suffer through my current job or maybe leave it for something else while i still continue to look for a office job but i feel like any retail job would be just a bad so i don t know what to do this job is sucking the life out of me and i feel so burnt out every single day when i get home i never have energy to game much which is my biggest hobby and i feel so negatively about myself for still working there at my age and my parent make me feel so much worse with their rude comment i m just feeling really discouraged and mad at myself for only starting to look for a new job now but i can t go back and change the past and i know job hunting can take awhile and persistence but it s just so hard when you work a really toxic job and want to leave so badly but can t cause you need the money so you feel trapped if i had the money tbh i would go back to college cause i loved college i loved how i felt like i wa open to so many possibility and loved how it felt like i wa learning new thing everyday and now i feel so trapped and suffocated but it s too late and i need to stick with the degree i got,1 @GSRsara4eva1623 reaallly im on chapter 43 - - dont ruin it!! ,0 ghostingi know deserve abandoned like that im confused frustrated cant stop asking what do why leave me weeks still feel unwanted alone hurt bad,1 "Today it doesn't matter what I do. My depression overwhelmed me when I was trying to accomplish something. But in the end, made me feel like a failure when it was completed.",1 okay im apple user but god galaxy z fold looks nice think really good phone,0 arm become snake thanks obama care got fucky wucky arm fixed got kicked balls bear left kind redflag scar obama care exist would cost arm leg thats epic bruh moment epic victory royale plas vote election thanks bois girls bears,0 i going new school im really anxious im going change school first time life ive going school almost years change school since school habe th grade i know brittishamarican name th th grade germany schleswigholstein call ahr change school im really affraid finding friends disliked maybe even bullyed new classmates like friends right think point clear hope advice apologize gramma errors,0 Podcast Episode 8 uploading as i type subscribe please www.RandolphStProductions.mypodcast.com thank you,0 I haven't tweeted in a while. I thought I would tweet. ,0 closeted transgirl conservative grandfather well parents opening social transition comming weeks buying new clothes comming school today parents surprised random visit grandfather girlfriend like usual started asking things like life going keeps referring male sometimes even asks my girlfriend he gets meet her well parents know actually open this conservative man begin trouble mixed race why like chocolate grows from one statements that back subject interact older relatives time parents cousins avoid grandfather aunts uncles go never birthday parties dare real self there problem grandfather fragile old man know girlfriend going visit us surprise since dead ignored like five years cant hold back situation,0 almost todayi typed story realised stupid shit going today though close almost happened got scared working left results another failed attempt weird though attempt redflag attention seeking succeed tragedy people ever see people failing attempts also tragedy demonised proper help people left wailing endlessly internet hoping someone reach us hate dealing mental health problems many people use treat like shit im sick it im sick this plan im gonna execute weekend think maybe ill another attention seeker im lucky ill tragedy,1 like interesting posts rn whats mind lets talk something idk,0 mew today is a prescribed opiate day me think grr,0 theleaguesf not fun amp furious the new mantra for the bay breaker it wa getting rambunctious the city overreacted amp clamped down,0 made something hangmyself end sleeping outside humiliated tortured myself,1 give up one helpingits fine people nearly bash door drinking fine s pounds worth stuff may potentially stolen give up cant take anymore know needs stop,1 version the lost horizon actually bad film all think problem people like pick musicals especially made s saw film upon original release i ten really enjoyed it music especially burt bacharach always favorite story fun acting good technically excellent sure one two rather silly dance numbers hey cant win em all film video watch every oftenand enjoy every time,0 need advice bros group friends plays among us every two days since october im talking like people years older me im one girl call pink talked much among us recently started following every round going around weeks know boys are one girl shows smallest affection full love know girls like playing guys really think pink type whats move guys im really want feed false hopes thanks advance,0 @effx6921 I got a good one for you what's your email,0 Can't wait for bali this wed!! ,0 i don t know i don t know i don t know i really really don t know what is going on and i am very confused and afraid for the last year and some change i have not been able to avoid the constant intense desire to violently commit suicide i fight it by trying to think hard about my family and friend and dog and all the good thing in life i have to life for but i am tired of fighting my own brain this hard every single moment of the day there are many many day where it feel like i reach my absolute breaking point and i think i m going to do it but then if i let a couple of hour go by or smoke some weed i feel fine great even but thats the thing i never really know when that s going to end i don t know the next time i ll feel better or the next time i ll feel this low it just kind of hit me and catch me off guard every single time i have always had intense emotional problem even since early childhood and i recall having suicidal ideation at even like or year old i have been diagnosed a bipolar a year ago but i absolutely believe i have a wild case of bpd i have thought that since high school but only in these recent sophomore and junior year of college have the suicidal ideation have become intense urge it feel like i have tried every other option to try to feel happy better but they all either don t work to work for a short time and eventually fail i ve tried therapy last year for the first time thru my school it wa okay they put me on mg abilify and that helped a bit seemed when i wa on the med i would often joke to myself i m glad im on these med because if i wasn t i wa definitely going to kill myself but i dont take them anymore my mother wa very concerned about all the side effect i wa having random spell of fainting or vomiting and heavily encouraged me to get off it and she also mentioned that maybe my emotional problem were intensified by the sudden condition from covid on a teenager well i wa back then and that everyone wa going through a hard time and that made sense to me so i decided to get off it i dont think i ll be able to afford it anyway after college but thats just some side background info there are time i have blanked and scared myself and that s what make me feel like my life is in danger sometimes there wa a time last year during an episode i just started stabbing my arm repeatedly with my cuticle nipper manicure tool thing it broke the skin but they were all obviously very tiny it always scared me looking back because i think if it wa a razor blade or a knife or something it would have killed me i didn t even know what i wa doing my emotion were so strong and i just started doing it there wa another time this year where during another episode i mindlessly drove to target early in the morning to get a fresh pack of razor blade to cut myself with i did not realize what i wa doing until i got all the way back home and wa trying to figure out how to work the razor blade dispenser it just hit me wow did i really just get in my car drive 0 min to target and buy nothing but razor blade to cut myself and maybe kill myself with this is where i worried i wa getting out of control and might actually do it one day i am scared it is soon i don t want it to be but i am scared it might be the urge is so strong there are time i feel no longer in complete control of my action i am scared i am checking the box for someone who is experiencing a mental health emergency but i don t know if i really am or if im just someone who is overdramatic sensitive life inexperienced privileged and attention seeking there are time i fear that i am being attention seeking and being manipulative with my emotion even when i am alone and express them and don t talk to anyone irl about it that confuses me the most but i can never really be sure which lead me to reddit sometimes i think back on my thought if that make sense and look back at previous question i ve asked and don t know if they are normal or not to a degree i know they aren t but i don t know if it s really that bad i am afraid sometimes that if i do kill myself all these thing along with my search history music taste social behavior substance abuse problem shit i ll admit it etc etc are all indicative of someone who is going to kill themselves i look in the mirror and see someone who is going to kill themselves soon i dont want to do it i dont want to do it i always think to myself am i going to be a suicide statistic are these all the inevitable sign and symptom am i about to be one of the of college student to kill themselves this thought distress me very much i have never attempted suicide before i personally know people and read about people online who have but when they describe their emotion i do not really relate to them it seems a though my condition is never really a serious a theirs like i said i ve never officially tried before these people have so it make me think that whatever crazy shit is going on in my head i just need to get over i wish so desperately that i could do that i think i am just emotionally weak you can go back in my post history and see me weird post some i have hidden to avoid ridicule but i don t know how to get them back i notice people around me always ask if i m okay if i ever accidentally share the slightest tip of the iceberg of my feeling with them and the comment i get on reddit post telling me that i should seek professional help immediately i wa looking on my school s counseling website and they have a whole special section for resource for people who might need immediate help am i really one of those people am i experiencing a mental health emergency do i need to be monitored in a hospital there are time i do feel like i am a potential danger to myself but unlike depressed people i at least am able to feel great sometimes when i hear about people who come back from grippy sock vacation i really cringe at that term but thats what everyone around me seems to use they mention their trauma and abuse and i didn t really have it a bad a them i am just sensitive i come to reddit in desperation i have never known how to express my feeling on this without accidentally guilt tripping or manipulating people so i avoid talking about my feeling with people i know irl outside of therapist do i really need help like hospital help is this an emergency it feel like one but is it really please help me tl dr i dont want to kill myself but i a scared that i might or am i just being a weirdo,1 caught making plan back mind againim apparently post wall whatever means moment fleeting glimpse meant truly happy heart growing radiance talked kids would like made feel safe finally ok vulnerable didnt maintain fiercely independent facade finally slept peaceful sleeps arms laughed thought loved over put tiny amount weight unwell left went back red pill recognise lied compulsively idealised devalued discarded believe met person cannot actually compassion act conscience act god like complex trying right make right genuine understanding pain actually causing yet im still trying empathise understand could actually like mean cant measure lifes value someone else isnt first time ive success world doesnt matter heart empty figure income work part time ive lost mojo ive lost passion work feels meaningless im tired again still,1 3.) I had post partum depression for 6 months. Severe. This part scares me the most about having another kid.4.) I just cant see myself with TWO kids. I'm so content with life right now. I feel like this is it for me..,1 @GemmaCampbell am just using clarins foundation on its own now lol think i'll just stick with tht. am gooood you in uni? xx,0 suicidal heres personal story im even world think am think probably bestory part feel free skip tldr ive accused suicidal since high school friend mine committed redflag boarding school soon after accused suicidal ideation school wanted remove remaining sinners i atheist religious school prior foster care attacked daily abusive foster mother accused foster children conspiring made public grabs attention for foster parent apparent disabled children bullied school held back segregated classroom sat alone room till state shut program down brought back normal schooling segregated due bullying eventually sent religious boarding school foster parents started watching crime programs started reading biased psychology books got pretty weird ideas heads attacks children increased teenage masterbation sign psychopathywitchcraft bullied made loner therefore psychopath thing bullied affluent teachers found foster care rejecting religious doctrine made satanistwitch meditation to cope abuse type satanism anxious around violent attacks proved disorganized thinking and attacked violently humiliated punishment thinking going so catch bullied forcibly dressed geeky goodwill clothes meant trying look ridiculous attention people forcibly dressed them school tormented staff peers two specific bullies in school one eventually got expelled behavior often joked murdering me claims remember fabricate wild stories justify behavior example tried give food from younger aggressive brothers stash gave small portion homeless guy outside bus station going boarding school bully slapped down called fake christian main reason bullied aggressively competitive another reason fact christian often used excuse torment me punched lights out walked away bathroom see damage was came back sitting attractive girl asked crying brother chuckled told spazz myself laughed me eventually expelled younger brother caught dvd containing porn normal porn violation schools rules dean which often harassed abused powers make life living hell demanded come office answer crime biased towards brother the athlete school bully even gave condo room forced live childrens dorms complaints criminal bullying that catch im child fight im psychotic do said possession s law punish whomever found on told could punish whomever spirit told to called preacher two accused suicidal stated abuse power accusing people lead friends redflag which meant unlike going stand it hence sitting correcting them said friend committed redflag changing school policy teens previous mental health problems other sins would admitted school locked bedrest quarantine three days without food water bathroom break told parents caught porn threatened commit redflag really course one stuck me told teens christian allowing people bully till day adults people believe extreme social segregation order got job pizza parlour things looking younger brother showed demanding free pizza refused leave start try coercion get free pizza saying he give brother free pizza hes mentally ill hes bipolar fuck hell spaz you boss told leave soon people worked started bullying made demands else would lie acting mentally ill refused start sticking day clothes toilet shoes ended roof etc relationship coworker went south yelled work police called fired it affluent area ran screaming also attracted attention admit fight stupid nothing insane said said i cant believe slept chick over job hunting landlord owned slimey porn store apartment the apartment religious foster father forced into even shirt pushed car screaming me started demanding extra cash declined started making accusations like smoking apartment i never smoked still dont letting strangers ridiculous eventually called intercom called smartass told gun family refused pick phone later would claim never attempted contact them left town bounced around awhile met back one biological sisters moved condition got job week week later started realizing save enough started yelling needed get another job tried managing two job calendars without transportation hard second week came knife stating told boyfriend wanted stab i said slap her bf obsessed interpreting everything either us said extremely violent manslaughter happened family also minor lisp blamed on constantly misread every word people said violent terms eventually realized mistake tried make amends point angry life ended friends house girlfriend wanted threesome left circled back year later found evicted without notice friendlandlord wanted live father we yelling match that police called turned sour bounced around found homeless chicago police dhs homeless sweeps wealthier gentrifying neighborhoods partly due gentrification partly mayors plan get rid homeless campaign forced shelter us sign i homeless because cards filled out card torn lectured told get funding mental illness drugs alcohol checked redid card themselves knew forced shelterplus care program told feign sorts illnesses sent sistercenter heavily relied shelters referrals keep afloat whole deal called warehousesocial services pillmill specialized bum diplomas meaning get use medicaremedicaidgrant claims get ssdissi public benefits otherwise get threatened institutionalization the cycle police pick back cycle begins again left sisterprogram a mental health center abusive therapist called made fake redflag threat police arrived see fuss since joking around friends came in sro landlord also testified always seemed fine like social service mental health care agencies treated me like piece meat used gain access grants etc eventually one agencies got shut able record director social services admitting illness claims grants scam let leave without incident threatened send social security administration eventually left according social workers given option leave get fired fled california great deal abused people hoping quite foolishly still happy hippy land cool bros many us remembered seeing tv movies stupid know thinking could chill there stroke my second eventually found cool little place beach problems started one roommates lost job three times row drunk work started screaming lyrics songs am back porch police called eventually started dragging homeless tweakers sleep floor back porch money dragging recycling cans hopes making rent one roommates started using heroine again dragging druggies friends eating personal groceries helping cash savings one night stress bad bit shattered one teeth decided going evict them went much smoother though yes yelling occurred police called people actually apologized first time life score point california tried get tooth fixed current public insurance cover it switched one quick internet search went interview phone decided go regular check get referral dentist see whole hmo thing worked asking kind insurance plan got it ended back psychiatric office speaking another unqualified biased social worker interview went bad listen me refused help dentist issues even though theyre hmp dental program ties brought back feelings program chicago get feeling head three months later try calm taking hot shower slip fall i see white soap white tub wear glasses shower smacked head started seeing white flashes stars eventually pain reminded beaten school home started flashbacks called asking help due psychiatric emergency which recorded video knew trust system point oversight biased laughing hanging said im psychiatric emergency happened three days sat pain vomiting myself moments consciosness roommates home periods awake eventually police came told taken unless suicidal wasnt prompted immediately state falsely accused suicidal before asked insurance card weird took station er hours er whisked away mental hospital listened to quotedmined directly lied about told lack adls insight judgement treated inhumanely told sign voluntary status days else would petition court keep there fear confusion broke crying reporting everything family told accused of told confession allowed prove via emails informaiton flaws report mentioned thinking abuse suffered home got roommates stated never realized gone tried reporting abuses state appointed outpatient therapist refused make eye contact me refused listen exploitation claims told foster care thing blame rather aggressive looked online afterwards found degree psyd specialized blaming foster care ptsd tried reporting abuses suffered time police er hmo hospital stuck protecting reputation members told video witnesses contradicting reports matter time period turned reddit sympathy everyone said lying exaggerating called aggressive delusional refused blame exploitation abuse got fed called ssa complain and make requests told lying later confirmed accurate told right something must wrong head told recently gotten hospital stupid head fine called police checkup me police said fine decided take one guts told to chained bench mental health officers started accusing superquick succession trying trip laughing me kept straight face corrected whole time kept laughing accusing totally unreal took break came back told definitely suicidal placed permanent care liar psychotic lying them said going sent away life said suffered illnesses never even accused of claimed record lies awestruck asked passing officer speak admin mental health officer interrupted said leave we leave another minutes er said anything asked suicidal said no checked yes anyway finally mental hospital hours later deny suicidal ideation psychiatrist signed out although rn demanded stay needed sure stats psychiatrist looked confused said free go way rn lectured questioning authorities forced outpatient care via mental health law california included talk therapy told make reports abuse learn cope recent abuse one point told see good abusers exploiters she used adolf hitler example recorded another therapist told complacent abuse happens admit everything anyone acuses appease abusers hope would leave alone left hmo complaints hmo hospitals police etc met doubt aggression took year one one them allow hippa enforced corrections record police dropped internals affairs case oig said went interested came back reddit lambasted called psychotic delusional etc tldr antiredflag part so abused bullied exploited lied about victim blamed threatened etc completely damaged record feel suicidal never felt suicidal easy secret religious egotistical magical even special goals human history let explain goals always have goals always future even worst case scenario goals always important goals part defines you people accuse of look ive little rough patch babynonsense compared humans already gone through jungles deserts crossing deserts mountains wars genocide slavery even things like cannibalism braving certain death freezing cave humans lot durable lead believe combining knowledge humans survivors concept multiple sometimes changing goals define closest thing purposefulsoul combination history forward thinking powered knowledge even biggest pigheaded egotists change mind system would change one day many ways has days changing even faster like think quicker system messes up quicker realize errors till waiting game right spend time telling truth internet hopes people talk problems less abuse exploitation doubted try speaking logic epistemology reason critical thinking evidence hopes one day world better place people survive did im claiming world gold rainbows im absolutely claiming perfect still ptsd episodes i even one today told telling story bs im saying hang there wait things out pick hobbies maybe ill even see california one day plan marching golden gate bridge holding antiredflag prosocialchange signs handing fliers asking people hurt themselves help change world instead theres anyone needs change system effected witnessed dirty underbelly professionals politicians academics deny said forgive accept forgiveness get change possible half life nurture overinternalize the crafty turn faults strengths were dust end never attribute malice attribute ignorance conditioning years renewed we want things improve ironically hate change people taught epistemology must seek give back much give much if one change one grow unwillingness change chosen limitation thank god missed train met wife next one when elders say if could again listen at end day king pawn go back box the mature expect utopia expect learn time makes fools perfectionist watch makers peace homeboy ego_by_proxy,1 yo someone help essay racism although greg peter mean jin dont think racist racism occurs usually one person thinks superior another due race dont think case here example greg called jin bucktooth said stay away dog regard superior way although greg said demeaning way clear greg cultural misunderstanding chinese people learned mom chinese people eat dogs greg called jin bucktooth clearly playground insult commenting appearance however even though wasnt racism gregs words still mean considered bullying definition,0 knewif knew years abuse through earliest memories life caused develop depression anxiety fear expressing emotions trying hardest cry least alone behind closed doors knew constant pain put through innocent little girl without mommy thanks marriage ended divorce made sure know war taking everything mommy ever adored courts im even daughter anymore unless count supervised visits last couple minutes took life clothes home papaws belongings gone daughter lost father going divorce told lost custody baby girl people knew many times yelled knowing do years old drunk driving home grew always ignored leaving home alone get drunk party more occassions pick drinking whole night through remember find jacket remember one navy blue got angry threw across room front aunt cousins put arm protect scared little girl becoming teenager want heard lied avoid punishment scared talk you knew amount times grabbed hair threw floor hit head pushed floor knew slot belongs broken you holes bedroom wall thing threw yelling me never caring pain caused would linger throughout adult years father one ill love lose knew much wish mess emotions wish could tell im sorry took venting right rude always appreciated loving kind wish knew loved every moment spent getting closer you wish knew amount love you knew find love could heal past abuse a,1 soon sleepi honestly think going hang soon wish big deal kill youself want say goodbye people properly want big surprise say i wish could stopped them i wish could told wanted say want hug mum last time us know last time happy going better place,1 need able change usernames case brother whos either cant tell point stop updating age status stopped caring made account here caught glimpse username texted idea see shit mom see shit mom knows mind talking strangers ill block fifty accounts brothers made life gotta like that,0 there's almost always a gender war on this app & it smells like depression rn,1 im checking outi think used lethal took mg fluoxetine units quick acting insulin im diabetic seeing takes me truly hope find peace happiness life,1 ones ogs uonly_says_uwu remember shit probably not,0 uselesspeople exist ones worry eating certain things might cause negative reaction body causes die ones cant learn effectively interpret words differently fault somewhere dna disease causes read words differently people ones live environment cruel would punishment sentient being am human bounds one abused growing up one could never say im hungry nothing eat one could proclaim something educational could afford parents made every effort able learn anything wanted to able amount anything am nothing thats im worth nothing failed society stupidity failed people cannot afford learn something know ones would wish might able learn something anything able propel species forward cannot denied resources some resources chances every single opportunity afforded society might ask squandered away like stupid impulsive creature am could look towards future determine something offer world body would eventually decay feed earth done everything correctly doubt mind could contributed society could helped somebody eaten weeks become better could valuable society would never indispensable could become nice cog machine dubbed humanity instead live life days could been days been thing currently deserve death even torture way could ever hope possibly amount sins committed offer nothing world result,1 goes good ranch dip extra ranch left pizza im still hungry like need use,0 @GraziaUK @EndLonelinessUK @LibbyPageWrites Some terms carry stigma and are taboo subjects and #loneliness is one of them. Don't people realise that #depression could be eradicated mostly if the reality of loneliness is dealt with squarely. But health care insurance agencies don't want to hear the word. U get labelled!,1 "@jaslee_cullen Same old. You think I'd be having a fun summer break from school, but for some strange reason, I get bored. Lol! ",0 guys help old lady dmed dominating whatever im like want mess dont know say lmfao need ideas,0 every time i talk to somebody outside of my house and can relate to somebody or have thing in common with people i just want to curl up and cry almost every time i meet somebody irl i freak out and say i never want to see them again and if i don t do that i act distant the next time i see them i only have online friend and having friend making friend irl is scary i m and a half and everyone say thing like your going to be getting a job soon but if i cant even make friend how am i suppose to get a job,1 altman scorsese twisted sex together one greatest american films past years boogie nights make huge initial splash still think received credit deserves immediate clamor surrounding film some porn movie marky mark wholly without merit paul thomas anderson created less stunning representation pursuit subsequent loss american dream if thing still existsbr br for living box or confessional past years boogie nights tells literal riseandfall tale young eddie adams wahlberg eddie dopey kid torrance california wants something life room soaked musclebound naive americana dreams far bigger potential quite large hisspecial gift baldheaded southern gent quickly raises attention eyebrows booming omnipresent adult film industry jack horner burt reynolds films twinkleeyed papa bear gets wind eddies hidden talent decides put moviebr br before say deepthroat eddie changed name dirk diggler exposed massive member wideeyed public fame fortune make dirks acquaintance bevy local porn celebs friends coworkers become makeshift family soon proves sunday picnic like other feelgood s give way cokeaddled videofriendly s dirk co begin dangerous backslide br br anderson put everything glorious moving epic sizzles never fizzles nary frame monumental picture wasted characters dialogue live us long elo fades soundtrack see one immediately watch againbr br and again,0 really amplified issues marriage husband finally came clean let know would hiding addiction years constant loneliness depression finally made sense unable unwilling using started recovery started couples therapy again things remained stagnanton top issues intimate anymore told attracted gained weight brutal hear reconnected ex end shared problems listened told beautiful body perfect him ate up affair bornyesterday husband confronted me would gone phone seen messages ex devastated packed left mess cannot function cannot eat cannot go long without sharp pain heart relationship filled toxicity want back anything feel lost abandoned face timed last night pain eyes killed me realized grasping onto idea relationship never was scared starting over hope reaches asks try work out part feels even did please help codependent separation tearing apart world crumbling barely holding on heart hurting much know do codependent clinging onto marriage feel alone,1 get helpi graduated college ive struggling depression now took turn worse summer first scary night went hated life fully completely first time know going do texted someone talked calm state suicidal ideation became common experience senior year culminating nearbreakdown graduation since then ive unable find job effort call walkin talk manager uses energy im running money depression seems getting worse rarely go week without thinking much want dead moms health insurance cover therapy really know do im isolating girlfriend scared might something stupid impulse bad day go do know need get job try jobs basically source anxiety future theyre enormous emotiondump me since hate idea getting soulless job thats going crush years time im end rope need help clue find it,1 just sitting waiting,0 would make happydeath hate stop asking why,1 say yeah another parka appreciation post cause almost love parka romance sometimes cause parka wont leave gives cuddles,0 Goodnight Twatters tehehhehehe I love hearing Kevin's voice before I go to sleep.,0 the depression paradox: you spend twice as long in bed but have half the motivation to wash your bed sheets,1 @kvanduyne I am happy you and mandy had a safe trip. I have never been to VA Beach.. Enjoy ,0 boring sad tonight take life handsi little say alot say last time remember happy three weeks ago cuddling somebody thought cared me passions evaporated past years hope self actualization disappearing them adult always close grandma dad deadbeat piece shit never around grandfather dead death albeit close cousins mom like part died past year improved much joined wonderful fraternity excelled uni got ideal weight cleaned diet hell started dating stopped while lost virginity found attractive etc everything seemed fucking great first breakup happened realized empty without relationships cue meaningless sex realizing sex fucking worthless without affection got back uni well far lost weight shit hit fan started dating girl seemed wonderful like cared me told promiscuous past behind her sex good told next date night spent cuddling really care much wanted sex needed get experience slept again understandably hurt like mofo really liked though ive breakups actualy loved person before frustrated prospect relationship thing enjoyed gone ehhh like field enjoy enough really happy recently ive undergone bulemic behavior time spent losing weight changing lifestyle healthy gone feels like everything shambles rambling one thing another bulemia straw thats breaking camels back eating simultaneously thing makes feel good makes feel horrible mentally physically went store tonight get rd pint ice cream nobody smiled nobody said hi none brothers time talk me ive noose closet while pup miss me love little self tonight take life hands end it ampxb titles reference favorite russian poem lermontov,1 experienced weebs dream turned park friend colin sitting picnic table talking random crap hot pink haired girl walks us said either guys want make im bored said nah lmao,0 i m not sure if i have anxiety or adhd or im just introverted and procrastinating lol i started biting my nail since i wa a kid i tried hard to get rid of this habit but it not something i can control i put on nail polish usually but once it fall ill start biting them or fixing them with nail clipper a little bit of unsmoothness on my nail will bother me a lot and ill just sit there and keep fixing it for hour straight instead of doing any work literally every 0 min i would find somewhere bothering me on my nail i also overthink a lot it might be influenced by my mom who kept telling me that others might think negatively about me bc of any barely noticeable detail about what i do how i look so now i will just replay some scenario in my head hundred of time feel bad about myself and had to take deep breath say to myself it ok out loud or make some sudden noise to make my mind jump out of that vicious loop recently i feel that my attention span is getting even shorter i will sit down for work and get distracted after min and start watching youtube video for hour i notice myself doing that and i would think maybe i should go back to work but the other part of my mind is like numb and fail to take any action to the point that im only able to focus for a long time under pressure like a day before meeting or exam idk if it is just bad work ethic procrastination introversion or i should get a check up for anxiety adhd like i heard other ppl relate to me on point amp so idk if it just some common problem that i can just work it out either way can anyone give me any advice on whether to get a diagnosis or smth i could do on my own to mitigate these behavior thanks,1 tired againever hear song alone naturally wish could hold people loved dead youre serious boyfriend four years dies kitchen floor overdosedying age i broken woman always be following year father died inbetween friends mine die overdose many fear best friend die day pray doesnt ive lost much world daily life used be look forward car accident im one killed might want last drunken night somewhere give away poems music art friends bf died young even dad cannot stand existing thought could make difference love abilities drive leftwithout choiceim surprised im physically dead yet,1 really want die last attempt october want give family time process betteri really want die living feels wrong im sure ill never satisfied life matter much try im medication go therapy speak languages study two careers time yet feel im stupid useless person ever existed friends still feel lonely people think im pretty cant even look without crying eyes out barely eat take showers anymore im taking care all deserve alive want anyway im disgusting ungrateful worst person ever existed ive trying make plan redflag seems like accident last attempt october want make parents sister go experience again also would love self harm rn promised mom anymore ive clean two months seem worth it know do,1 i am officially alone on my twitter,0 knew premise film obviously cant miss good sounding film especially master suspense director sir alfred hitchcock basically tennis champ guy haines farley granger meets eccentric stranger bruno anthony robert walker train travelling washington new york bruno talks perfect murder guy hates wife bruno hates father bruno suggests swapping murders guy obviously take seriously course guys wife miriam joyce haines kasey rogers or laura elliott found murdered amusement park guy course chief suspect bruno keeps bumping him reminding plan giving things help kill father wants dead murder enquiry brunos stalking threatening tennis career relationship daughter sen morton north northwests leo g carroll anne ruth roman bruno realises guy murder decides plant evidence crime scene make guilty guys monogrammed cigarette lighter amusement park tennis game guy anne who obviously found murder plan race amusement park stop bruno fight speeding outofcontrol carousel also starring patricia hitchcock the directors daughter barbara morton marion lorne mrs anthony jonathan hale mr anthony howard st john police capt turley john brown prof collins hitchcocks cameo man boarding train carrying double bass interesting dialogue character interactions good suspense moments course unforgettable carousel finale good classic film nominated oscar best cinematography sir alfred hitchcock number greatest pop culture icons film number years thrills good,0 @luna_libertatis i agree luna... a depression support group. which pretty much sounds like the kind of thing you should do first when you've got these depressive tendencies but that requires planning lol. i try to stick around for people who i know go in these sort of cycles! but you know what,1 anyone else go bike rides get away parents bullshit no me,0 @lenocin Thanks ,0 "time to go go to college, shit ><",0 need help im trying figure something friend online idk would fun guess u guys suggestions two people mobile devices exclusively,0 playing tennis years around time spent trying hardest become pro league legends well destroyed right wrist need get surgery well need get want funciton normally want existi gotten rejections irl female friends friends known years actually trash talked behind back height uglinessi suck academically despite working a offwhat point live anymore scared end desire exist anymore,1 teacher wont stop teaching hasnt told us assessed nobody guts speak cos online lesson smh,0 i don t understand i got the dream girl and i m doing so good why do i still want to die why doe it still seem so appealing,1 a week ago i matched with someone on a dating app and shortly after starting to talk to them i started experiencing what i thought wa bad anxiety i m on antidepressant that usually surpress my anxiety really well so this wa really odd for me since then i ve been feeling nauseous anxious with an upset stomach every day even though everything s going relatively well in general and with this person i m talking to i ve never felt this much anxiety over a potential partner could this be excitement my heart ha been beating fast my leg feel a little light there s a tight feeling of nausea in my chest it can t be covid because the test i just took wa negative i just want this feeling of nausea to go away thanks,1 existing exhaustinghi there first time post something reddit im neither happy sad feeling im tired hopeless im dealing major depression since im warrior years stuck home several months internet place talk another people friends friends kicked chat groups think im annoying left behind cuz im toxic know always cheerful guy gang when cheerful guy cant laugh anymore becomes useless yeah throw away cuz cant laugh make laugh like before btw play video games im hardcore gamer fighting with depression valuable lesson video games thought me sometimes play game hours done quests unlock achievements feel like thats enough feel like play anymore game high rated metacritic like continue like play another game even game library prefer play know still quests maybe watch best cg ending like continue tired think enough this feel life already battlefield fight depression protect myself government covid family make thing even worse fun perfect good enough problem want play anymore its enough,1 vent commenti friends cant speak properly hyper mobile scared cant stop it always scared alone scared going outside people,1 "@JonathanGiles don't reveal all your tricks, you're ruining the magic ! you're no david blaine yet (got any magicians in NZ ? ",0 let me get this straight so your mom wearing your sneaker will spiral you back to depression wawu,1 i m doing my homework it s gosh darn hard,0 is stucked in paris and can t even travel into france for work,0 never seem write review imdb unless extremely surprised good bad movie is film falls first category every year try see nominees best foreign film oscars even know like as heaven seems fit bill plot sounds sugary sentimental slowfor tastes run towards original dark andor daring foreign cinema michael haneke francois ozon lot modern japanesekorean cinema as heaven sound particularly interestingit get released usa sat watch vcd found singapore preparing cross list dull beginning as heaven becomes rare film really become inspired happening screen weak points characters film pure stock characters wounded dreamer town bully battered wife loose woman yearning love repressed ministerthankfully theyre largely likable bunch well wellwritten wellacted ingela olsson ministers wife inger would nominated oscar performance english strong points music beautiful main song sung gabriella truly dramatic memorable keep eye feisty year old actress playing olga keeping dancing steps well younger ladies discuss ending say makes sense theyre lot emotional things happening last hour film quite sure theyre happening although nothing explained words makes sense movies comes fitting crescendo probably strongest swedish movie ive ever seen,0 talking optionsi want say im imminent danger right now im bed thoughts feelings week longer actually since started hurting myself releases pain inside struggle deal myself often think dying would like die would less painful easier found quicker walking car seems unfair ever driver is painkillers cliche are well thats meant painful done properly thought irreversible damage changing mind seems daunting think hanging seems safe option falling height hitting concrete little hardcore ive suffering depression anxiety years started take medication it kept telling okay things would go away moods would change ill begin met someone covid lockdown hit off things good beginning things took turn became suspicious paranoid her feeling lead feeling insecure good enough pleaded me hindsight listened pregnant now im happy baby mine clear things up although thoughts feelings never really went away started unbelievably cunt get details past months hardest her feel cunt never put stress have im facing court charge spoke solicitor im probably facing prison time baby getting signed name father cannot together anymore reasons caused personal reasons cant really contest that hurts like motherfucker im damned im made example courts ive genuinely enough bullshit life im living hearing lame excuses tomorrow another day think family well thats made mind this lost job too soon months pay gone too one nice blow litres vodka later ill swinging balcony like bauble wind want this plenty reason to children feel selfish leaving behind fatherless get see much bothers them ill going away new year while ive before kind thing follows ever go unborns mother currently custody battle child charges hinder chances getting result wants child stay alive ill go bullshit centers seeing baby months maybe years assessed im bad person danger child said something really shitty intoxicated really fucked things myself anything quiet poetic choice end life kind like last sorry die battle things pinned ill longer issue courts eyes thats something ill happily go thinking plan yet want enjoy freedom now see things plan change close incarceration ill put actions motion really know anyone say reading make difference doubt it im fed living am shit hole flat heating middle winter ive turned drink im big drug taker dabble bit green then mainly sleeping medication doctor really help feel neither it anxiety stuffs amazing like really slows heart rate down wonder take quiet alcohol itll stop heart sleep know ill google one might strong enough would peaceful ill leave note shell get one kids dad ill probably post heartfelt status facebook memoir fakebookers life good take right choices ive really screwed mine theres going back,1 hey reddit whats biggest thing thats stressing right now anything goes problems problems,0 want alivei want live survive,1 my habit is having to check on my betta fish and make sure he is doing ok before i go to sleep i prompt him to swim up to me and flare stick his gill out it s how bettas express emotion before i can sleep,1 @brightisbest hey romy What do we have to do for french? o.O,0 watches video someone walking abandoned movie theater head touch seats thousands teenagers definitely fucked,0 native americas subreddit whats tribes culture religion ask found im part choctaw studying native american religions cultures,0 @LoveLeeLove If I did... It would be my pleasure... I live in Philly.. Just hate the Lakers ,0 waco rules engagement good job drawing conclusions viewers simply presents interviews footage standoff footage congressional hearings phone conversations expert testimony etc allows draw conclusionbr br i hardly intend imply data presented done objectivity convincing like koresh see before tend think come believe do much told happened standoff,0 weird question girl liked recently got relationship dad died month half ago didnt ask figured would come across rude didnt anyways leads question long relationship predicted last,0 @justyboo lmao... i gotchu.. its bout to be watchin me now! bout that time luv... ,0 first job got first job im working tim horton im starting wednesday im really eager start working,0 8 out of 10 catss ,0 intend toover year ago made irreversible mistake expect going cost life found friends i imagine thats karma works reap sow fucked up ran far away live side state could outrun mistake carry immense shame remorse guilt happened reeks im shitstain surround with think worst possible thing person could do multiply im trying grow every day shame gets worse feel like shot moment take shot everyone says im good person just inhuman acted impulse cost everything cant go back change did intend die like fucking character me forever cursed ive given ambitions artist incase chance actually get somewhere though doubt it banana piece sold really art word spreads friend mentor found put spot read eyes liar said i it watched cry disappointed me knew im trying move come halt know itll come bite ass someday could tomorrow later life im going gun license shoot spot ever hear come up point feel blessed life go way sleep streets immense damage feel worthy happiness comes way people nice me feel immense shame like im fucking fraud deceiving nice persona like knew happened theyd throwing stones me would abolished live absolute fear every single day happened coming light im sure will deserve live time dying easy way out intend make life harder guess actually rotting,1 "How has God been speaking to you through the #Unmentionables series? If you are struggling with #depression, #anxiety, #addiction, or have been abused; there is support for you and healing through Jesus! Visit http://www.hcbc.com/care-support/  to navigate your pathway to freedom in Christ. pic.twitter.com/Z0UMA4rrpc",1 annoys personally hate lot things,0 dying fucking hard i tried tried kill multiple ways always somehow survived survived even cyanide poisoning even hanging cant die want anymore ,1 random post life advice random person todays topic love love many different applications meanings people define different types love ojibwe perspective romantic love love involves two individuals partake romantic actions familial love love defined family familylike bonds admiration love love defines deep special admiration another friendship love love acknowledged friend group bond love humanity love defined special regard people love individual love defined love someone fellowship regard love like previously mentioned love communal love love temporary everlasting depending ones feeling toward immediate community love life love present one understands living people share experience human respectful love brothership love involves individuals committed help hold respectful regards,0 "is down to take rounds of tequila shots, run to McDonalds, and then stalk someone outside their apt, She makes me feel less guilty too. ",0 movie touches soul audience muchsome scene movie ultimate tears comes automaticallyim surprised seeing movie director direct type movie year as student cinema say movie helps lot understand use montagefirst time teacher told us movie means genre movie thought nothing could movie understand finally sir explained came know great movie islastly say helps lot understanding filmsand cinema student viewers see movie,0 family wants give skateboarding bruh small scrape actually broke arm lol man dropped ramp skateboard hit rock fall using helmet protection accident family wants make give skateboarding need physicals activities may diseases sking physical activity did thx reading sorry trash english im foreign country took minutes write cause wrote broken arm lol,0 took methylphenidate pill escape life falling apartfamily still hates me love cousin me im addicted pills first mental breakdown week its monday pm,1 confusing basically id sex gender matter gender is dont wanna one getting ya know unless head ofc,0 asian pussy tight really wanna pipe oh god big ass tiddys five,0 "the night fever, night fever... we know how to do it.... gimme the fever, night fever...we know to show it.... ",0 o brother art thou gleeful retelling homers odyssey set s mississippi rampant splendid quirkiness trademark brothers coen three hapless convicts make escape find treasureand share adventurein delightful film george clooney fine ingenuous form chatty amiable leader trio real acting kudos go john turturro tim blake nelson goofy lovable cohorts dubbed soggy bottom boys clooneys character receive baptism full immersion river three cut record homespun nomdeplume cash unwittingly become overnight sensations veritable rock star status film accompanied enough music songs almost qualify musical incredible feats filmmaking here scene kkk rally real doozy similar scene dorothys friends rescue witchs castle the wizard oz almost amounts cinematic plagiarism amazing work plagiarism is without giving away ending must say climax movie one breathtaking sequences put film recent memory on par spectacular finale magnolia another one favorites o brother mustsee perfect ,0 keep pretending ok not thoughts spiral hard get stuck thinking point all ever wanted pursue passion life did made huge leaps bounds lot hard work sacrifices primary name major motion picture soon released people proud jealous look me idk wish could get behind perspective huge jumping point me huge step right direction cannot storm hit months ago broke living home again work took get number health great begin with thanks genetics still stories want tell world fucked going help anyway even get there inside gross depressed years juggling suicide past nine months off medicated exercise twice day eat healthy sleep sometimes drink smoke cut lot feel better it single hope love care kids never have wanted career feel like want anything die tired this know do looking someone talk,1 anyone numbers game im guy bi thats much bothered write,0 famboygtgirls famboy better u cant change mind know right,0 @BabyFriendlyLA Jealous! Enjoy yourself!! ,0 hll thr,0 "So...I'm about to start this aggressive medication for the next 6months. Side effects include depression, mood swings and skin reactions if I'm out in the sun...God help me!",1 im year old man cut myselfi even know tbh nothing me yet find unable fight urge incredibly embarrassing since considered year old emo girls attention fuck wrong me,1 "And just when it was the most painful, when I had sunk so deep into my depression that I could sink no further…",1 anyone wish shotgun know end maybe soon,0 couple hours become older one year this goodbye post birthday feel sad really like birthday family cares gets presents stuff im sad time seems going really fast feel like im wasting life away staying inside playing video games like anything else quarantine,0 please help mei cant stop screaming need help,1 parents acknowledge struggles depression originally posted rentitledparents recommended post too going year im technically teen i struggling depression young age lost friends constantly bullied people telling gay straight closest friends turned me gotten fistfight with others treated horribly trying best keep happy recently gone state depression ive struggling since th grade horrible experiences others treated me sort stopped happy time lost friends became lonely friends struggling even more online school giving heck time due work assigned told parents times depressed mom would look horror scream need help like possessed something parents seem believe depression phase sickness goes away days friend believe either calls emo goth clothing hairstyle recommended seek therapist ive already gone th th grade never felt comfortable mother would use therapy way pry private life without asking herself parents also mindset that if buy something take away somehow bought it even though raised money neighbors feel confined parents bidding like future completely planned me say future like hatred gotten bad point intentionally wanting fail academically socially life want succeed would thing trying force do mom looks like deranged psychopath like im crazy need go goddamn mental ward gained bit coronaweight lot stress family accusing eating everything house mom dad legit calling fat say little chubby lot boxing skating friend mom hears that says im proud you ask says thats really healthy im glad finally working out stable mentally kinda writing seek pointers deal this also recently lost phone hanging friend way contact anyone parents threatening take away source communication friends pc,0 god dammit said math class teacher got angry disrespecting god get one warning im christianwhat guys think saying forbidden word,0 plan im finally feeling real happinessi know ive posted lot know may seem attentionseeking hell maybe was im posting try someone talk someone convince theres life im tired reading things people attempted kill glad work guess what woke next morning swallowing pills screamed cried angry still here long remember ive going back forth feeling normal slightly upbeat depressed happy finally something thats selfish once something thats going benefit everyone care about ive analyzed close personal relationships every single one would positives negatives finally died even fucking pets im waiting go home spring break nice week home family hold onto remember by little bit straighten personal things get everything order im finally peace life want thank always lowest moments lives worth saving decided mine wasnt great thing people still hope thank all,1 never want die follow easy steps live long want __ say no__ legally allowed die without consent may not work,0 adviceso recently things happen life put rock bottom started getting redflagl thoughts sad depressed fast forward months iv got life sorted new house new job iv got family back feel happy normal then th bday long ago ever since keep haveing dark thought life cant get much better kill myself want commit redflag every creeping thought keep comeing back im really confused,1 ngl im kinda upset im upset name kira associated jojo instead death note,0 @mackmaine i got a midget friend && her ass soft; will u break that off lmao ,0 still herei know keep going still keep walking waking everyday come point nights lay bed wish dead point feel like useless anything anyway overweight since young doctors cannot find anything lots tests diticians know done multiple sports went sporting centers personal trainers etc one clue cant lose weight balding since which also good already almost non existent self confidence gay course look cannot find anyone alone bullied friends keep turning back looking reason done probably parents everytime wanne try see mind tearing family apart even bringing problems die feel empty feel up done whatever call it want take medication cause side effects would make feel worse know point really feel like far stuck even killing impossible bring many problems feel like mind tearing apart inside wanted barely loved cannot anything right fat lowly loser forever worthless point self confidence everytime manage get small bit broken becomes even harder build up still alive gets better say yeah sure living suicidal depression years still trying think gets better yeah work maybe late anyway things would get better would gotten better now really think work longer going happen me never get chance good future anyway,1 Anxiety and depression is the fucking worst. JUST FUCK OFF,1 the asian guy on take the lead looks like george nozuka. ,0 yall love yall love nowhere starting think stuff done past could lot better hating that lifes sure good,0 "@krassenstein Honestly I think it was #Trump's dandruff and he was trying to be slick, why else would he touch him so much and caress his hands, unless some of my other theories are true. That might or might not explain #Melania's depression, maybe she would prefer he was gay",1 anyone want play among us im hosting game among us anyone wants join feel free to discord prestigealien guys want play add ill add group chat leave whenever want,0 redflag wpdthe forum rwatchpeopledie similar havens filth encourage death moderators racist xenophobic literally admit getting deaths im freak forum shouldnt exist im already bleeding out night bb last post filth exist cd,1 ok firstly fan whole low budget horror genre bother this really need fan get gagbr br the move basically snakes on train lots thembr br there ancient curse involved crazy ending wont spoil gore effect full real icky movie mainly one big gory gag snakes scaring hell bunch people trapped trainbr br the suspense built well memorable well composed scenes acting bit hammy watch surf dudes thats really point give movie go know expect wont regret it,0 active well known cool user like please tell,0 longdefunct prison shut years reopened ethan sharpe the late great character actor lane smith guard there put place warden prisoners put work fixing place up theyre instructed break old execution room unleashes fierce spirit wreaks merciless havoc upon guards prisoners coolascanbe lowkey prisoner burke viggo mortensen showing real poise early role thrust role herobr br i know nobrainer praise film atmosphere it shot actual abandoned penitentiary near rawlins wyoming elevates horror film higher level got great sense foreboding established right outset director renny harlin made fourth directorial effort here got nightmare elm street directing gig effectively began impressive career mainstream action movies thrillers horror filmsbr br it may stock characters got capable cast bringing life chelsea field young woman vying prison reform lincoln kilpatrick weary veteran convict cresus tom everett restless con rabbitt ivan kane outgoing lasagna tommy tiny lister softspoken giant tiny arlen dean snyder captain horton also worth noting early acting credit kane hodder as vengeful spirit helped him land gig playing jason voorhees friday th seriesbr br decent special effects moody lighting courtesy prolific genre cinematographer mac ahlberg spooky music richard band christopher stone great visuals incredibly gloomy location overall flashy intense presentation help make quite entertaining nasty gruesome good fun horror fanbr br ,0 i wonder what misery awaits me in the msq today but that will have to wait until later i refuse to start off my morning with depression and a side of despair gold saucer shenanigan and such before starting work http t co mmfvogcfiu,1 Why your doctor doesn't provide #IVKetamine as a #depression treatment #SuicidePrevention #Psychiatry http://ow.ly/2XvM30jpTc4  pic.twitter.com/e3g43kNcOp,1 parents arent home know means bang pots pans loud possible blasting metal break spoon releasing rage dishes listen soft indy cry rocking back forth fetal position youre worried relationship one earliest friends isnt working,0 alejandralei i dont think i can cause it my cousin birthday party,0 feel nothing anymore travelling days reason sitting bampb middle nowhere alone absolutely noone feel anything anymore nobody cared realised left come today please end suffering,1 hanging much longer fuck sake shit want die badly,1 comically large spoon im afraid using gt,0 comanche moon everything going it starters simon wincers back man whos name synonymous highquality tv westerns unfortunately problems moon something even talented director solve poor script based lackluster novelbr br forget historical accuracies reader novels tell you biggest travesty moon even consistent information original lonesome dove masterpiece many wonderful rich moments miniseries and even greater degree book completely missing moon considering fact viewers moon probably coming least sort dove background lack characterdriven emotional backstory downright painful br br that said moon one instance adapted version could altered make suitable screen example novel moon focuses largely comanches themselves credit miniseries tries service comanches end gives enough viewer gets sense theyre missing important part story similarly val kilmers scull loses role either expanded kilmer and rachel griffiths matter actually something do roles reduced smaller supporting parts instead kilmer gets top billing character leaves scratching head appearance completely bizarre final act br br theres strange moments throughout film make sense read book a killer parrot what further single scene shows us call mccrae anything near amazing texas rangers claim be single one expeditions moon or dead mans walk matter ends successfully call mccrae seem blunder way one pointless mission anotherbr br frankly larry mcmurtry never given job writing script praise surrounding cowboy movie brokeback mountain mcmurtry write good novels although theres dissension consistency statement hes never exactly established scriptwriter production would benefited bringing back director wincer original screenwriter bill wittcliff adapt novel screen witcliff exactly mountainload material screen writing credit one deny fantastic job whittling original lonesome dove said comanche moon almost brilliant production aided terrific cast unfortunately given enough do steve zahns portrayal gus mccrae rather portrayal robert duvall gus mccrae deadon criticized karl urban woodrow call saying performance imitate quiet stoic woodrow original movie say is blame mcmurtry mcmurtry one moon novel miniseries turned woodrow socially inept awkward natural leader emotionless character whose lines dull whose character motivations clear seen portrayed far adequately sequelbr br still cast sparkles moon degree left miniseries feeling melancholy felt watching original lonesome dove time realized probably last time well see characters appear screen long long time come quite honestly cast could done well wellnurtured fullblown network tv seriesbr br all all aside wasted opportunities cast biggest travesty original lonesome dove novel contained much rich backstory characters would fascinating utterly fascinating see translated screen unfortunately tossed aside favor mcmurtrys tedious inconsistent ultimately irrelevant prequel,0 like horror movies lots blood gore tons jumpscare moments unrelenting escalating scenes excruciating death look elsewhere like quiet moody thoughtful horror casts blood aside favor genuine feeling dread wendigo youbr br thoughtful stressed george psychoanalyst wife kim young son miles heading snowy countryside long weekend vacation away city way up george hits stag car hunters pursuing deer thrilled find george ended chase particular deranged hunter otis takes personally follows family vacation home making sure see him spies george kim sex fires windows rifle home letting discover ominous holes windows walls return kim takes miles drugstore town miles attracted small sculpture display case carved resemble man head stag native american man tells miles wendigo spirit woods taste flesh always hungry miles takes figure home him already haunted death deer day before afternoon father go sledding george shot miles pursued woods creature barely glimpsedor shock imagining whole thing hours later george rushed hospital miles still clutching statue either faints dreams goes vision quest wendigo returns time angry flesh eating god part tree part stag part man hunting otis finally gone edgebr br wendigo beautifully made film almost totally silent wind howling snow covered trees okay monster kind fakeylooking small flaw made genuine feeling tension dread creeps every frame film eerie backdrop silent snowy countryside performances great particularly jake weber moody thoughtful george patricia clarkson sweet nononsense wife happy couple share common problems strength relationship love makes film powerful watching film often like watching someones home videos realistic performances br br this movie everyone lot people may find totally bored waiting hideous lovecraftian beast bloody revenge never come never really sure wendigo even exists seen eyes sensitive child also later eyes madman psychological drama horror film enough creepy elements satisfy fans subtle horror,0 get class major next quarter im killing myself yes know stupid soundsi know stupid sounds look big picture second year computer science student next quarter school zero open seats class relevant field im very far away waitlist right now somewhere around th classes hold people im taking gen ed classes next quarter obviously notoriously easy classes honestly think handle it reason ive able hold together college far love major pour heart classes perform really well im im going go mind boredom mention tuition parents paying k fucking nothing make progress major basically sit waitlist already hate it ive got nothing ge classes theyre necessary nice filler taking really hard classes im already burnt out motivation keep going hate here want quit now theres reason keep going anyways,1 meteor crashes crater lake heat impact causing prehistoric egg hatchbr br alright plot trash despite obvious low budget comes across one gripping entertaining monsterontheloose films existence also good moments humor age filled socalled monsters laughable meninrubbersuit creations lizards dressed frills forced rip pieces cheap exploitationstyle refreshing discover plesiosaur little gem excellent harryhausenstyle stopmotion creaturebr br quite hard film find worth finding,0 "@angelicious17 Aren't you glad TODAY isn't your wedding day? Yuck, dude!",0 killed back i thought awhile back think about fascist becomes dictator dont see way out im queer female told roe v wade would never turned republican political science professor saw happened georgia alabama see supreme court filled snake talkers graduated college right pandemic im stuck working minimum wage job nobody hiring nobody wants me experience everyone requires it im going ruining back working retail lowes possibly rest life people giving interviews service work less make now recently mental breakdown cannot work full time without coming home crying sleep work repeat theres nothing left becomes president again take years get canada theres nothing left me im debt rest life due student loans cannot even pay cant even pay bills im going lose health insurance end year bills start accrue interest assume defer loans much eventually come take shit away idk hopefully ill fucking dead happens,1 @jenniholbrook It would have to be a TT then probably. But I'd definitely buy it!,0 used view redflag kind punishment moment significanceit people around me finally show really inside make feel pain wanted know theyd react see anybody even cared killed myself think wanted validation maybe wanted know people actually care me know anyhow thats gone now really care knows killed myself why really care anybody react see milestone anything ive finally reached point stopped fighting expectation decision eventually leave choice,1 god world shittheres much corruption much greed year goes feel comfortable idea ending all want stay informed honestly killing me guilt stepping back kills more thought knowing ill never amount anything control happens regards economy ineveitably crashing whole pandemic rn hard see good anymore things keeping alive foance fact isnt painless way die thats it,1 ugh why did my mum wake me up so early geesh i need sleep and princessnadys there is noth awww,0 anyone wanna talk im bored pm ya want ill talk bout almost anything listen problems ig,0 happened anyone else ive unknowingly listened song repeat past hour im wondering happened anyone else,0 friends may long postrant want emphasize angry sad right now started like last week friend said going take break social media like ok night multimillionaires ig live saying cut friends successful since im grinding basically friend blocked her less day blocked like jokingly way fooling around unblock minutes days asked done break nigga left fucking read cant explain simple words angry got me shit like alot like knows text her waits ages respond always making excuses cant stay late takes long respond think lying now like anymore long ago stuck together glue made story guy talking made feel upset insecure asked talk it responded minutes saying yeah ok sorry active ig lately told story responded hours said ok sorry i got root canal thing always support her especially emotionally wanted see would react need emotional help even try dumbass says sorry like wtf past days talked like minutes always pm reason waits day almost over like yesterday texted am saying k wanna ask summ want answer honest possible k waits fucking hours say mhm tell are interested talking anymore know saw said responded yet she probably pm like always know hurts even more fact texting dumbass crush making tiktoks watching fucking netflix instead talking me knowing hurts even more never told her showed angryupset gets me think annoying get wrong shit told love not like that friend became close months know alot shit her know means alot vise versa tell shit like i miss you stuff pissing fuck off again really want friendship end think clear give flying fuck me even always helped her feel like used like water bottle shit kept drinking using me need emotionally anymore done threw away sorry thats bad analogy know mean one time need well actually need emotional help wanted see would react did best goofy ass sorry even try yes know already said already really good friend had know feel alone past days crying much and cry alot getting fucking angry i think yesterday worst feel alone im even going tell going rub annoyingshes fucking annoying one sorry end little rant reading appreciate much reading getting end please tell fix friendship love miss person much im trying make friendship end,0 got argument aunt want hang dont like family arguments,0 found major problems pregnancy going make it devastated find comfort one thought trying again one planned cannot imagine life without child cannot feel ok unless commit successful pregnancy cannot let go baby supposed hold loved baby moment found carrying child loss feel big cannot ok surviving miscarriage,1 @shannamaclasco @sarahfredricks i start my step up internship on may 4th!! see you then ,0 when die someone bury me dont whats difference gives damn huh thus philosophy life or lack of summed less classic nevertheless fun spin sergio leones dollars trilogy opening scene three obviously evil gunmen ride western town and menacing glares intimidate pathetic normal people hiding homes observant watcher notice three bears striking resemblance characters leones dollars more one guy eastwoods poncho one lee van cleefs black suit one seeming act like gian marie volontes indio movie guys sooner ride town gunned someone even cooler they mysterious bounty hunter known simply strangerbr br no altogether different storybr br in obvious copying leones good bad ugly three gunmen vying hidden treasure bounty hunter mexican bandit stranger george hilton supercool bounty hunter penchant shooting people dressed like priest reward bandit monetero gilbert roland moneteros gang steals three hundred thousand gold coins stranger gets sidetracked normal line workbr br to round trio edd byrnes corrupt bank executive clayton wants money himself money hidden away man knows gets shot clue hiding place medallion shows family crest game find treasure anyone else does gun playbr br with plenty gunfights fist fights double crosses action takes three ultimate showdown ripoff three way draw hidden treasure ala good bad ugly twistbr br this movie good leones films course end gives damn huh movie fun s nihilism spaghetti western style rules enduring loyalties right wrong treasure whatever takes get it and though movie classic ending surely is hey maybe get along all hundred thousand piecebr br if like spaghetti westerns check one out fast furious worth look name evren buyruk crestline california,0 m moved home to my parent during covid in summer 0 0 to save money a everything wa remote everything is still remote so i decided to stay however i miss big city life with more bar restaurant more stuff to do the higher number of single 0 0 somethings like myself going back to la is a no go a rent is absurd and i d be paying almost half of my salary just to have a decent bedroom apartment i m currently renting a house from family but i m lonely a fuck i live in a small town with 000 people i feel stuck between a rock and a hard place,1 existenz good film first wondering going on organic pods made mutant reptiles connected players surreal virtual reality game via umbilical cord well seems little oddbr br but gets going pretty good film twists great open ending good aspect weridness throughout film entertaining see sure whats coming nextbr br security personnel throw away metal detectors bone guns ,0 guys confession addicted saltines help im drowning need support group,0 cling cling cling cling cling clang clang cling cling cling cling cling cling cling cling cling cling cling cling still dre day nigga ak nigga though ive grown lot cant keep home lot cause frequent spots im known rock hear bass truck im block ladies pay homage haters say dre fell nigga last album chronic nigga want know still got say raps changed wanna know feel if aint thangs dr dre name im ahead game still puffing leafs still fuck beats still loving police still rock khakis cuff crease still got love streets reppin for life still beats bang still thang since left aint much changed still,0 Pacquiao won again! He's really one of the filipino's pride. ,0 reason sad makes worsefor feeling worthless live really cant figure making feel way see people way worse makes think im overdramatic makes worse get angry feeling way do also made hard talk people feeling dont want bother people something waste time,1 tell therapisti think redflag way much ive considered quite times around year ago idk memory really bad almost hung go i never told anyone go therapy know tell therapist suicidal thoughts tells parents want know also want put medication hate pills feel like every time took would remember why im taking them helpful all advice talk therapist this preferably without telling parents andor getting put medication,1 Watching my girlfriend having as much fun as my daughter on the Slip-N-Slide. Time for a water balloon fight now. Their going down now. ,0 ryanmwilson aww that stink hug,0 "I sound un-empathetic, I sound mean and rude. Suicide is an epidemic, and I don't wanna be misconstrued. Signs of depression go overlooked; so if you're depressed, then you need to be book a therapy session and talk about your depression, let a professional hear it.",1 "@ScienceDaily Factors associated w increased #overdose risk r disorders involving the use of alcohol, cocaine, amphetamines and histories of depression, anxiety or eating disorders--new study of adolescents. Solution: early diagnosis & treatment. @sciencedaily @ASAMorg https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2018/04/180424141140.htm …",1 year old sister hospitalized past january attempting redflag increasingly suicidal again mom know dothis january sister took entire bottle antidepressants attempt kill herself think panicked told mom took er later week checked mental hospital teenagers week got checked supposed mom feel faked happy never really addressed issues hours away college able really monitor aside keeping touch however really good pretending ok assumed time spent hospital antidepressants taking helping mom sent link tumblr however shocking talks much wants die meaning kill wimped out one posts put i want die already right now want die want die dont want try anymore dont want find happiness isnt there done already dead let this talked cutting herself posts many things fucked up nobody understands her similar situation still scars cutting meds saw therapist weekly a forgottensuppressed like feel way b honestly idea got it talking boyfriend boom suddenly see point depressed stopped taking meds next day fine every since know console her talk mom pretends oh happy little background recently realized bisexual became involved church know feeling isolation due fact surrounds people think going hell what im atheist care less talk beliefs feelings anything immediate thought stupid teenage angst grow none matters danger herself going home weekend since mom town able time her require immediate action sit try talk her know say ive tried says fine obviously not all know do anybody advice,1 redflag thoughts living aloneas soon turn eighteen would like start living alone start job im afraid day long thoughts ending all want cut myself want hurt myself im afraid alone could really end all live parents sister since think much cutting myself cant stand anymore know could,1 hate everything me appearance personality stupid mental illnesses even someone told loved would believe someone love another cannot even love themselves unlovable,1 wonderful little film truly creative funsomething see seldom movies film begins russia fall communist government result society seems chaos life yet improve old regime gone dirty cities crime lack housing still plague poor residents st petersburgbr br into scene bleakness uncertainty comes idealistic music teacher among without home finally gets letter government tells tiny room nearby flat arrives place mess people seem friendly enough lovely party middle night awakened old lady walking giant wardrobe room i half expecting lucy kids lion witch wardrobe come out didnt shocked anything first decide soon investigate instead clothes closet wardrobe opens paris residents flat respond magical gateway really intriguing some like music teacher thrilled awe others pragmatic mostly concerned looting everything paris gateway closes all russian thieves awful peoplegreedy coarse crude deepvery deepare hearts gold like metaphor nation brink capitalism first run amok grabbing everything later reveal depthbut mostly act much like guests jerry springer show film many twists turns funny mesmerizing negative due harsh language nude scene albeit funny one film kids real shame minor editing could great family film,0 hi i wa wondering if anyone ha this happen to them i have have had depression for decade i have good day and bad day no period that last for week or month like i did when i first started having symptom 0 year ago thank god it is mostly occasional bad bout most often i just have a dull low depression that i can dell with using moving muscle using cognitive dispute today i had one of the rare event that i used to get often i wake up early have a cup or two of coffee yet i feel really exhausted i slept fine the night before i end up having breakfast but that exhausted feeling becomes overwhelming and i go back to bet by 9am the entire day consists of me sleeping having lucid bat shit crazy bizarre dream the dream are not nightmare in fact they are rather creative but the local and situation are like the came from somebody imagination in a distant galaxy they would make really interesting sci fi fantasy i also dream about being lonely i have no family few friend one thing i remember wa this gut wrenching sadness about a girl i dated over 0 year ago thought she wa the one but it fell apart after about 0 to hour i get up have something to eat i feel hung over an d it is like a storm passed through my brain spent it s energy and now calm ha returned i wa wondering if anyone else had had similar experience like this it would be concerning if it wa a frequent occurrence which it once wa in the early day of depression again that wa decade ago thanks in advance for any observation or comment peace,1 st patricks dayim turning st patricks day really want too want die plan right get others wasted one notices slipping pill drink simple easy ive going therapy seem working still really trust anyone everyone cruel guess posting seemed interesting me anyone talk little delete this,1 ldr nevermet girlfriend probably going break me nothing want life want againi live uk lives usa met discord group online game became friends could tell wanted days broke boyfriend got couple weeks later begged every day finally gave made mind decided wanted first relationship ever much planned together summer planned week would fly stay everything going perfectly kept telling intent making happen never fallen love someone quickly fallen love me happiest ever felt life last weeks something changed know suddenly became distant became frustrated completely unreasonable would get upset whenever asked going on daily hours calls suddenly stopped would even reject calls completely unlike her began ignoring went talking whenever possibly could sending maybe disjointed unenthusiastic messages day life falling apart past week planning felt us drifting apart days ago showed last remaining ounce love ignoring another day today told things working yet messaged back again hundreds thoughts going head yet still numb offline know back truly feel like end time know would missing without her way whatsoever cope this expect alive time next week,1 my mind is in such a negative space i m overstimulated but every noise and word someone in my family passed away my period amplifies every emotion i just can t do it anymore my negativity is like a cancer and i d rather not infect anyone with it i want to die daily but i can t although i fantasize about it a lot i cut myself instead in order to stay alive to numb myself from the insanity and madness inside of me i feel unheard i feel burdened by my own existence and i ve been made to feel so bothersome to others i don t know i don t have much hope i m not angry i m maybe sad mostly i m so depressed and misunderstood by everyone because at the end of the day no one care to listen to me they think they re listening but people only have a limited amount of time that they ll let you talk anyway nobody need to be my therapist i hope my life end soon because i am unable to deal with the turmoil inside of me i just can t do it anymore i m desperate i m sorry,1 gay hard make brain hurt gf im gay love much cant fuck guy fuck hand gf dude hand fuck hand,0 bruh im filled much pain rn dont get hang friends school sucks life plain boring im sexually frustrated theres nothing things pain,0 Ah. 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The cure for what ails you. ,0 feel isolated friends cant see much im work tour colleges cant talk much talk dont respond,0 think ill ever make my birthday month think could make far wanna kill myself,1 found scammer friend decided little fun post httpswwwredditcomusergrosslyuneducatedcommentsjvlbfound_a_scammer_so_me_and_my_friend_decided_toutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare,0 always think cant get worse im almost good godhow people carry heavy burdens shoulder show thing far away roots dont know am always feel one best friend abandons feel like world much never ever prepared timeline events years promising im jaded gut wrentching misery ive ever felt im bipolar life literally good get bad again im waiting constantly im almost good god,1 wish solution depressioni really really want die wish done years ago people always told would get better hasnt life spiraling downhill since rope closet might use hang soon problem atm im tired get motivation deed every day past years ive thought dying plenty live pain im excruciating dont know relieve it want things different dont know do wish could peace,1 "this car is costing me an arm and a leg, but it's so cute I have to forgive it! ",0 im alienatedthe worst part nearly one understands im sure people comment post saying do truth im fucking alone alienated rest world understand im fucking lonely miserable time life direction try talk someone awkward worse cant function everyday social situations save life everyone job thinks im stupid literally heard one complaining boss useless am cant fucking anymore know cringey fuck literally feel like theres place society many people fucking lucky ungrateful things have wish nukes would fly already none shit worth saving,1 @heycassadee hi cassade hope your having an awesome time touring. ,0 i m not liking that new itunes pricing at all i mean i ve seen several song at 9 but not only one at 0 9,0 nothing im even tired cant nap nothing,0 it s not out of place for people to slip back into depression what s out of place is not seeking help,1 best cheech chong movie far cheech chong certain best far think ive seen twelve times least love all definitely best compared others one covers lot themes gives lot good laughs part texts still part language today years hope one day make another one still great comedians heard writing new script knows guess guys ones succeeded making decent movies genre wonder john ashcroft ever watched one them,0 friend says pokemon anime lol said never ever classify pokemon anime said im uncultured anime looool also asked whats favorite anime manga said pokemon lol made go crazy today told me faith watching one punch man idk live expectations lmao really watching playing pokemin since years idk tbh ill like one punch man guess ill try,0 bunkern 0 korpkvinnan chrissiesth haha vi betalar mer skatt n dig du kan aldrig g till ett sjukhus elr apotek utan att se os d r vi ger typ alla restauranger medan du r sjukanm ld pga ngest och depression,1 grandfathers father yo get vaccine tomorrow im exciting o_,0 parking lot golden gate bridgeidk start even want give sob story internet came back visit san francisco try find purpose meaning insecurities anxieties validated belong die alone let society slowly choke happiness joy life lifespan check terms wish never existed ever impacted anyones life first place ive everything least one point life mess everything every time get it world me need go,1 know triggered huge influx people asking crushes out im happy all may days come filled happiness ill join ranks non single eventually brethren,0 truth going say much like people vice vera cannot relate people part society isent,1 devakishor oh oh that s sad,0 theekween thelmasherbs heart break depression anxiety,1 youtube was a big help. ,0 itll happen one daynot sure when redflag going way go unless die something completely unexpected like car crash stroke thought id post maybe years ill dead part digital grave ill look back post wonder felt like this,1 pointless rant dont know botherdoes anybody else ever feel like werent ever meant here guess think much dont think ill ever comfortable living dont ever see growing old family shit think im meant miserable rest however long life be even im happy still feel like enough feel like more dont know describe oceanic void feel anybody else feel it fucked up doomed like im robot going motions scavenging tiny drop feeling find used want travel things whats point reality wherever go space used think job making unsatisfied leaving feeling completely hollow every day even got new job nothing changed feel numb everything want feel people feeling dont understand got fucked up half ass brain feel incomplete living miserable fucking bitch,1 "Everyone, go outside, take a deep breath, exhale...all is well and so are you! Have a wonderfully enchanting day! Namast�! ",0 gotta ask does anyone actually know uncoil earphones,0 vsauce michael vsauce michaelhttpsyoutubenyidfnm mesauce vichaelhttpsyoutubedqwwwgxcq,0 gpa fucked futurei study constantly grades get worse gpa fucking compete people gpas fucking guess respect anymore im fucking done objectively suck everything including video games spend hours upon hours on suck sports im always left behind going somewhere im asthmatic roadkill mauled death purpose die parents wouldnt pay weeaboo ass games medicine neither would need listen cries goes friends waste space suffer never get happiness doesnt help im low iq degenerate fat furry faggot awful socisl skills even awful sense humour fact im fucking ugly blue pilled sjw would ever date me fact probably autism doesnt help fuck end me,1 life no every morning wake sleeping six hours cuz spring foward ruatine chug like mean shotgun monster rehab literally use rehab cuz carbination cuz body like f u pain anyways thanks coming ted talk kill ne,0 swati swati omg i missed you soo much have you heard the new jls song ahaa youre probs all jetlagged right now,0 bruh googled character adventure time second image sexy fanart ,0 hey question actually thing thinking stuff im sharing thing came mind character saved another character got angry started hyperventilating passed different character says thing were saves someone mental panic thinking ways couldve ended badly call multi panic wanted know real thing,0 crush said yes asked crush today said yes honestly dont know say im happy,0 im really hungry someone make cereal pls,0 guys got diagnosed lethal illness doctor told ive got cold think im going die,0 get overwhelming feeling always unhappyim college dropping end semester hate major much sick wasting money right look forward working minimum wage retail working spend time outside class still unsure ill able pay rent month never fun college experiences one might expect have ive lost friends except shitty boyfriend abandoned isolated them spending day going class working people emotional strength spend time them im introvert sense find lot social interaction emotionally draining help engineering students bright futures ahead them hardly tolerate listening conversations reminds waste time coming ill probably never amount anything nearly great will cant think single time life truly happy even child usually able function normally long think life every often cant help think life future overcome overwhelming feeling despair want bawl eyes out example right im sitting work trying hold back tears,1 hi hi hi hi youre nice interesting lets talk im bored wanna talk people pls talk meeeeee,0 attitude depressionso pretty much entire life ive horrible attitude life depression doesnt help much seems make everyone want walk away makes things worse dont know aht think redflag death time im always thinking different ways kill myself tried change attitude tword life hard suggestions,1 Special Offer - The Moorings available at the reduced cost of £500 for the week beginning June 20th due to cancellation.4 bed see web,0 okay took pregnancy test came back negative thank god guy hard sometimes,0 sister lying calling fat posting social media saw sister first time like week yesterday would stop saying thought fat point times hour said if really think fat try lose weight meant someone could maybe help lose weight fit gave sincere apology said think fat complaining night though would good try help her went tik tok told she needs lose weight supposed here,0 hoursi feel relief instead sadness need forgive me couldnt stand pain anymore sayonara,1 hotline fucking jokei called night finally psyching up idk expected lady asked safety plan actively planning made shit plan said wasnt active kept trying hang me maybe used wrong half pill bottle deep one gives fuck someones job care keep trying hang doesnt give fuck even worth it job didnt care two days ideals gotten worse one gives damn dont see reason keep fighting hotline last chance failed,1 im going kill gf leaves mehey everyone im hopeless know going say worth killing girl that sister passed away last year broke another serious girlfriend never got better recently met girl visiting england new zealand nicest girl ive ever met first date best day life anxiety fun laughing day little backstory myself severe anxiety interferes functioning every single day get severe symptoms like chest pain brain fog terrifies me felt suicidal many times ive told family unsupportive reason im alive girl girl moved back facetime skype twice day were crazy other also severe anxiety says cant bring get long distance relationship itll drive crazy yet still says things like misses crazy me lures thinking highly her moving university couple days nz making feel suicidal again cant shake feeling lose interest find another man also might internet access moving means able talk much do fact talk much thing getting day basically find someone else lose interest absolutely doubt kill myself years pure hell hospital knowing sisters alive school day one cancer others sma cant take anymore cry day facetime girl makes happy soon hang up plummet straight back depressive feeling wrote hopes would make feel better look post history probably see im attention seeker im basically annoying thank replies hopefully snap back reality,1 lizp0 x oh man that suck i m hoping to go to school happy tomorrow or else it won t be good ahhh,0 im really upset yesterday wanted buy lightsaber store mom said wasnt allowed buy one sad today looking closet found purple lightsaber think special one knobs look cooler,0 scared realize fucked terrible want continue things want go keeps assuring not so scared sometimes overwhelming feel like disgrace part because logically know much likes really wants stick around theres part genuinely believes good enough enough realizes that fucked,1 anyone tell slanganything related sex drugs best please put slangs means please thank you,0 french boy need attention hello m here french teenager friends wanna become friend got croissant play minecraft java osu fallout terraria like music anime luv u,0 hows therapy actually helpi offered therapy college declined im worried amount time itll take interfere ability finish assignments time im also worried parents find im living home feel ashamed sharing problems dont think good reason feeling way do im sure therapist think pathetic dont wanna take away time someone else probably dealing lot am,1 wishing the sun was out & that derek was awake so he could show me how to burn a cd on his computer... i made a mix! cant wait 2 bump it ,0 want itthe urge right get sharp knife slip wrists front mom spite insane want get back make feel fucking horrible hate hate hate,1 ponyo written directed hayao miyazaki little tale speaks respect ocean respect humans young old respect cultural differences new tale little goldfish wishing girl rather retelling disneys little mermaid miyazaki animated hand whimsical magical film young youngat heart film begins slow undulating bluegreen palette sea anemones jellyfish scores little fanciful goldfish childlike faces need narrative motion creatures music jo hisaiahi tell beginning released last summer japan ponyo japanese academys award best animation film best score jezebelcom fanciful little goldfish brunhild leaves ocean home jellyfish upon reaching surface caught fishing net full fish garbage sludge propelled jar rolled shore fiveyearold sosuke voice frankie jonas retrieves it cuts hand breaking jar open free little goldfish brunhild tastes blood heals sosukes cut puts motion transformation human time throwing nature balance sosuke puts little goldfish green pail names ponyo noah cyrus meaning soft jelly like sosukes mother lisa tina fey lets take ponyo school right next door nursing home works lisas crazy driving picturesque winding road past dry dock bustling fishing town treelined road nursing home representative miyazakis wonderful sequence action illustrates perfectly parents hectic morning miyazaki created another strong independent female character lisa making loving sensible modern mother sosuke ponyo lisas telephone conversation notcominghomeagain husband kiochi matt damon ship captains must make another run typical wifes reaction later evening sosuke intercedes using signal lamp speak father ship passes cliff house sits on lisa refuses acknowledge kiochis apology jumps signals bugoff bugoff bugoff hilarious scene but sosuke takes signal lamp tells dad good luck love you lisa hugs tells good heart poignant scenebr br my personal favorites miyazakis elderly grannytype women wheelchairs nursing home yochi betty white noriko cloris leachman toki lily tomlin interchange sosukes little goldfish wonderful reminiscent bickering witch waste lauren bacall sophie jean simmons trudge long flight stairs howls moving castle ponyos magical seagod father fujimoto liam neeson resembling wizard howl arrives take ponyo back ocean home fujimoto uses one elixirs try put nature back balance magical little ponyo escapes upsetting elixir process causing tsunami running backs giant dolphins get sosuke redheaded little girl reminds audience stubborn adventurous little mei neighbor totoro ponyo adventurous curious mei fujimoto realizes ponyo done calls gran mamare kate blanchett goddess ocean help situation wise calming goddess arrives blue flowing garment never ends private talk lisa discussing future young children helps audience understand sosuke ponyos relationship lovers brother sister lifegoeson quiet simple ending typical miyazaki films leaving audience full hope,0 dropped shortly turning turned now cannot believe fast time moves barely recall anything happened almost nothing years probably deep undiagnosed depression looking back iti feel like mentally physically developed since turned makes sick stomach could coma years nothing would changedmy real excuse major surgery put commission course wielded shield questions responsibilities passed faked distance education age covid served grand excuse first months last year snapped ridiculous mindset mid earned spot decent university starting properly age many people mind straight finished iti redflag even completely palmed life money game without considering experiences missing going answer age question maintaining straight face months feel like missed much already actions taking mostly meaningless people knew already kids getting promotions going grad school fun got big circle friends show iti fucking even time year degree over thinking close makes upset taking stock writing helps even one reads it hold hatred anyone myself deal much lost time,1 letting fate decideso long story short boyfriend broke back february weve remained friends much weve continued sex honestly indont think ever liked like girlfriend think feels guilty dumping still sometimes hangs around me ignoring weeks end barely talking me wanting hang fine imma let fate decide rejects hanging im gonna it ill postpone either way im going tell need guilt something fault,1 requesting website offers people looking counselling others offering counsellingit imgur reddit lost it problem solved,1 im sure myselfhey guys suffering depression since fourth july the irony met friend got random conversation eventually depression randomly kicked started crying much shit going life started talking people treating like pos somehow dont remember ended psychology session op thinks im little open personal life people make friends with im issues finding close friends even relationship op also says dependent people companionship people get scared tend spill things personal life feel like selfesteem fallen apart know act feel im around people feel like way acting nobody wanted friends me im already shitty position depression came ops mouth everything officially fell apart cant stop crying rn feel like downward spiral never going end,1 impossible get decent jobi think impossible nowadays get decent job even good education bother kill end homeless cant get decent job welfare cut kill future redflag wrong future especially disabeld likely never decent job maybe dead end job dont even pay enough live on perspectives redflag wrong,1 the internet is hating me night i s pose,0 life hard like cant get hot boy catboy costume choke life gotta hard like smh kill,0 recently i have been having a tough time dealing with my lack of motivation is really hard to care about anything specially when i always feel like im being forced to do anything even thing that i like to do it like im being constanly dragged through life how do you guy deal with extreme apathy and lack of motivation when you dont really have any interest in existing,1 so outside looking great life better average person country kenya parents worked hard grown good home enough food tablei feel lucky hate here always feel like deserve wish could give someone underprivileged better deserving opportunities feel like forced so much live for life great people fight everyday fraction opportunities disposal want this want leave want forfeit feel like ever make whatever doing never good enough nd living everyday postpones death time harder leave failed ton classes first year college could focus everlasting cloud life feel guilty knowing parents paying lot international tuition wasting iti drugs escape another problem life another reason hate always dream feeling nothing going far away maybe sea dying without trace family get hurt believe many years hated forever life depressing think dying every daymaybe cursed tired fighting tired getting toim tired tired,1 scarlettdane no mary amp i were going to go dress shopping tomorrow,0 @JMatthewFlyzik http://twitpic.com/666hg - they look so snug and happy ,0 im surprised godzilla httpsyoutuber_jjyuejo s final piece revenge eminem,0 guys found someone crush like thats ever gonna happen,0 love parents life isnt fairno one told life would fair hell ive shown quite opposite matter however thought life past seven eight years since moving another state downright sucky parents kindest thoughtful people know mom fucking hell dad wants make people happy mother gave dream vet gave dream finishing cosmetology needed help family things got tough losing house got housekeeping job hotel people fucking rude her got hired school unbelievably racist lady ruined life health mothers body still suffering day hardships endured there seen mom become happy young lady woman struggling stay awake childhood hell hearing much hoped adulthood could better father worked company ended owing money lost house barely got see child losing job spending time us moved obstacle get used seeing speaking man barely knew closed off trust much moved point probably wondering getting at family thing past seven years tried kill two years ago obviously ones tried cared ones truly teared thought even say selfish things shit hurts them theyre still here and yet people fucking audacity think worried opinion way think me decide one day laying bed needed next two weeks mom would first notice stupid little bitch snapchat decided message too dry reply to cry corner want die again dad would first one care dumbass boy school work fucking wherever addicted weed sex care anyone else whole thing gonna sound motherfucking high mighty im sorry ive come realization late night ive caring longest others matter caring people raised wanted best me like hanging people without family ive always thought childish that but fuck it maybe am what love family want focuses them people wanted survive even meant disappointing little dont want look back younger years see faces people didnt give fuck whether suicidal not dont want look back see people questioning suicidal thoughts suicidal enough taken seriously wanna look back remember mom worried me dad worried me brother nightmare night tried kill dying want remember people ever really cared family fucking need tldr life fair love family need anyone else,1 im going get fucked right now exam hours havent even opened textbook yet,0 home... so happy for my friends who have next week off ,0 forced go residential anorexia treatment months ago parents threatened conservatorship me week extremely depressed put pounds ed clothes fit get new ones hardly money food still get agonizingly hungry used eating parents sent money since got out literally almost money spent new clothes oversized baggy ones hide body grocery items depressed hardly get bed see friends ashamed look like zero money head space work right now parents giving money feel hopeless helpless even considering selling pet snake much love her could use extra hundred dollars make ends meet much worse went treatment ask this feel like parents ruined life worse going treatment,1 the gladstudy is interested in learning about the underlying psychological medical amp genetic risk factor that play a crucial role in anxiety amp depression visit http t co dnzizcccur amp register your interest from cornwall partnership nh foundation trust nihrresearch http t co osgusuw j,1 last hopeim tired im hurt im lost world uncaring torment left rot hands held facade caring eyes years loathing happiness finally coming close say dont try happy its fault like this im tired helping you last one hitting hardest left thr lips one called love one asked fiance earlier ones coming mouths blood line like asked happiness torn grasp maybe years time shut cover old beaten tale maybe right tossed dogs im tired fending darkness closes upon light finances grim lost jobs cared hold love slipped cluthing fingers fate snickered wickedly woth every passing moment darkness looks inviting begging join eternity think ill answer call,1 The day my besfriend moves home is when my depression will be cured,1 uhm so nothing bothered me today ,0 "@__DearAngel__x aw lol, it's quite sunny here for once ",0 beluga whale ass wake one morning find beluga whale stuck ass going do,0 @dougiemcfly Was amazing! and you wore OUR shirts thanks so much!,0 know anymore fmy dad left us mom bitch browsing internet years searching guy wants perfect man even working depressed want talk anyone uses phone day day one cooking expensive maid money wasted since anything day years weve living money brother sisters live another country im finishing school soon dream go medical college become doctor says find job bring money home shit fucked up able go much longer,1 hartley lowkey form martin donovan born play jesus comes messiah millenial manhatten pj harvey excellent sidekick magdelena slight film drily amusing short sweet,0 bruh feels like im faking everything might even faking imposter syndrome,0 feel bad today suicidal thoughts bad theyve ever been made tiny progress lately come crashing back feel like could call quits right nowi think im gonna probably text number feel guilty texting always seem trying push get next person feel comfortable calling redflag hotline like said made tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny progress step forward steps back live alcoholic parents terrible house got new jobs see way often triggers hell even around cant anything else ive spending lot time library friends houses stay away theres much do point id seriously consider living car cold wisconsin already tried yet another med change really recently course done nothing number million thats point im seriously considering cold turkeying meds done it almost weeks next therapy appointment im pretty sure hates anyway tried get kicked clinic accidentally noshowing appointment psychiatrist stuck said needed stay im gonna comfortable talking therapist refuse try another one hes already number cant even remember sure also fucked up totally fault excuses im gonna completely financially destitute least month account overdrawn im gonna able afford phone bill real friends live far away phone plan able talk time im home and try home little possible ive selfharming lot one injury id even consider seeing doctor could afford copay convenient care mean serious burn happened trying firstaid well can ironically still selfharming places body stuck scars life top stretch marks im stuck brings next point weight im literally obese bmi fluctuate lbs back years ago healthy liked body numbers pounds emotional binge eating absolute inability exercise consistently try get hyperaware weight stop cry probably go home hurt ironically binge eat top everything ive talking old friend finally able meet coffee we see maybe year seems great im starting feelings develop knowing theyll never reciprocated know best thing distance her one biggest support systems me theres good way handle situation yes chances feeling already this big problem top everything else feels like it,1 redflagim drunk thinking taking mg alprazolam die tried yesterday mg ended sleeping till afternoon lost live anymore tried calling redflag hotlines india said boy another boy cant marry live together made another mg,1 ma couple weeks ago latest attempt end life years mental health stabilizing getting better every year year pandemic relapsing depression girlfriend breaking with new redflagful job led dark rabbit hole gotten control finally tried taking life again found parents hanging tree unconscious losing last bit oxygen taken hospital literally time got tested treated injuries held safety week life back normal buti want try againlast time note prepared do bought new rope stare rope tens minutes something else distracts mei want die badly know anymorei enough money insurance counseling medications know direction go towards also none friends serious enough people imit feels like pressure chest death get rid ofi sick typical it selfish people miss you arguments since obvious point give fuck that know bad think that really bad right nowi feel lost guys might actually try end life again failed attempt want try again,1 sorting brekkie for the kid then off to the horrible place called work boohoo,0 terrible day weeks months yearstoday favorite holiday worked ditched everyone caresweeks stuck car sullen teens grouchy husband visiting relatives introvert excruciating put smile managed scream anyonemonths prepared foster program trigger past bad prepared adjustments parenthood fucking hate parent every level cannot go back nowyears years struggling working better never enough soul exhausted know anymore empty empty ever life hate everyone regret everythingall want walk away common sense says that would make feel worse long runa stupid meme facebook kept calling sucide hotline felt like this alone world theripist disappointed mei special unique one cares everything nothing,1 stopi cant stop thinking best friends redflag years keep examining everything pain mention like matters even every thought done hell still dead ill still,1 @noor_baig haha thanks. ,0 wish deadi cant fucking sleep know im yelling sea people feel similarly man wish dead waking every day looking fucking mirror brings dread thing keeping fear comes death animals good friends feel like hate im pathetic dont even know im writing this im tired want kill fucking bad cant im fucking loser broke streak self harming like years couple days ago looking cuts wrist forearm makes feel fucking stupid worthless dont know it bleed cry nobody cares feel like im stuck rock hard place mind mental fucking prison one day ill die due natural causes ill die fucking killed depressing dont know worse people know celebrating life without knowing whole story pitying taking life life isnt enjoyable hasnt many years im tired tired pretending everything ok tired pretending life worth living seeing slowly lose interest stuff used love fucking sad waking morning sleep days end exhausting pulling bed tiring thought go get another job quarantined makes stressed head feels like jumbled mess fucking thoughts cant control dont want fucking work life away die idk id rather fucking do id rather throw towel say forget kill myself isnt worth it im fucking tired mentally drained feel selfish seeing people going worse things me life fine hate living dont care future im tired caring tired living idk,1 knows sick idea means yet coming feel it want hide it want dump hard either advice got new boyfriend heading towards another episode worry scare,1 going swell far s personal aspect feel like stabbed multiple times least one back absofokinlutely was grades going down im lose good friends sister leaving start crying reason random points last days if certain frog loving art student reading this sure hope fucking know wrong did contact me more probably feel like shit bet pretty little ass lt wanna talk it really no hope yall better start year till now,0 @thisgoodlife hey you how's it going?,0 @SteveBrunton you're a freak man LOL,0 "@joliechose I just sent one!I love when I see on my bill "sms to North America" <333 and yes,Coke is the best medicine ",0 murdock ice tunnel dream outside school winter many children playing snow sliding hills skiing small forest exploring ice tunnels could found around roots trees walking around met two boys one brownhaired ginger carrying ropes climbing equipment looking deep long tunnel went straight ground warned dangers tunnel care brownhaired boy attached rope one trees roots suddenly slipped fell could hear crack heavy breathing croaking voice murdock murdock said dont leave me please leave me called him dont worry ill get help ginger boy assumed named murdock looked strangely mouthed word no,0 anybody else flirt girls respond go hold wait one second wasnt prepared step,0 sub covid memes anyone wants post memes covid without severe limitations pls join rcovidmemesarchive basically covid shitpost central,0 i don t wan na be here anymore i m sick of feeling like this all the time i wan na kill myself tomorrow i might not do it but the thought of doing it are too much now,1 wolverine = awesome ,0 anyone interested joining discord server members open anyone pm link filler filler filler filler,0 im shocked probably know rocket league right u play it u probably heard alpha boost official name goldfever worth ingame credits assume credit cent eu credits aka cents u take calculate euros worth euro boost wich worth euro insane research found isnt even top expensive ingame items planet game entropia called calypso planet sold wth,0 the sun is shining got ta get to work,0 "Tori Amos- caught a lite sneeze, a song of one of her best albums ? http://blip.fm/~6gfx4",0 im ending tonightim leaving many friends pets girlfriend behind dont care told parents called selfish im it,1 ever potential movie mustve sounded like work based reading script paper would one seemingly looks like lurid seedy softporn sm flick complete huge intheatre poster depicting nearnaked christina ricci chained none mr bad ass mf himself samuel jackson let tell you ever film springs life celluloid major big time soulful power spare craig brewers redemptive followup hustle flow black snake moanbr br unashamedly top get go film sucks opening scenes proceeds dig deeper deeper every subsequent frame yer basic story two deeply damaged characters find strength courage move on notredflag ways lives done before course tale ive always said manner story told gives heart depth meaning powerbr br riccis damagedbychildhoodabuse wildchild character rae jacksons equally soulsick musician character lazarus find desperate circumstances laz takes upon try help rae relatively unique idea man trying genuinely help woman serious pain rather trying take advantage her know onset lazs heart films heart right place movie core redemptive healing power love with music close second film resonates profoundly truth soulfully artfully brilliantlybr br a major reason film succeeds profoundly fierce committed performances ricci jackson scenes would come laughable pathetic lesser artists hands are instead powerful getout particular films arc scene jackson sings plays song title alone house ricci amidst serious thunderstorm abusive demons raes past running amok inside head leading crawl lazarus cling leg comes ridiculous technically should rather gutwrenchingly cathartic br br all supporting performances fantastic too justin timberlake completely believable raes anxietyridden boyfriend ronnie alwayswonderful s epatha merkerson also perfectly cast character obviously feelings lazarus john cothran jr outstanding well lazs reverend friend rl a nod blues musician r l burnside doubt everything works movie lets face it including musicsoundtrack features burnside scott bomar bobby rush son house importantly jackson himself whose fantastic version stackolee listening compose review theres also really beautiful moving version this little light mine featured film sung heartbreakingly tentative soft riccibr br samuel jackson said recent interviews believes performance movie best career thus far could agree more work monumentally proud of along everyone else involved audacious supremely wise deeply heartfelt motherucker project,0 fml so much for seniority bc of technological ineptness i now have to quot register quot for class again,0 cant get better ill end itim going start things good wellbeing see things change exercise meditation eating better start old hobbies again things like that ive alone while dont feel connected anyone want cant maybe start better find someone really connect with maybe ill even find girl along way talking doesnt help im lonely im trapped mind,1 creating final playlistim thinking song or songs play way out religious person angry one want recall good times people cared for get lost melodrama heartbreak suggestions got me,1 for the last five to seven year at least i ve always figured that once my parent were gone it would be my time i can t bring myself to do that to them however the resentment toward myself and my entire existence have manifested into something that is extremely hard to control i m not going to get into specific but that is just how i feel i guess my main curiosity is if there s anyone else who s still around solely because the thought of their death impacting their family would crush them that s the only thing going for me this day and age i hate every moment and every interaction even though i constantly try to convince myself it s good for me countless time i ve tried failed and never seemed to fit in i m just done i hate everything unfortunately even though i try to love i love my family although it s just too much i ve been hurt and ignored to the point i ve convinced myself no one give a fuck which is probably true nobody doe maybe someone is in the same boat i ve tried to be the most optimistic person i can but i ve been failed so many time i struggle to even grasp for a reason why,1 finances cover rent bills groceries struggle lately ive barely eating fuck that im asking enough cover getting car inspected gas get there life slowly falling apart since april last year im done every morning wake disappointment,1 sarahsaturday i m sorry your gift card ran out that suck,0 @DeltaNC Heheh deleted it in order to avoid starting another debate - talk later OK ... see http://annesudevos.blogspot.com/ 4 clues !,0 ive enough lifethis probably get buried get chest im year old male uk ive depression suicidal thoughts around years started grandmother raised passed away gcse exams put deep depression didnt revise exams led failing nearly every single one went college uk college university got much dropped out ever since then ive bounced jobs even though work full time now minimum wage isnt really something brag about feel fed bad life want end all ridiculous amount insecurities im noticeably skinny despite overeating every day top hair receding ive rejected every girl ive ever tried talk obviously doesnt help friends seem going places feel stuck endless cycle depression ive tried talking people makes worse judged it point dont see option hang,1 i just want to get it over with i hate living every day knowing one day it s going to end i hate the fact that i exist at all i try to get advice from people they either tell me basically to deal with it or turn back to religion which isn t happening neither one of those doe a damn thing for me what the fuck do i do i want to blow my brain out so i don t have to worry about it anymore just get it over with losing religion wa the worst thing that ever happened to me i wa so happy when i thought god wa real now i know the truth and life mean nothing pointless,1 tonight last nighti kicked end january parents abusing life crash friends couch week moved room shared apartment time ive trying hard look second job addition one only hours week managed find job let go less weeks refusing say why ive also trying apply welfare thanks intake worker shitty phone contact cancelled application considered inactive tried applying today work systems changed requiring bunch documents have im ashamed homeless piece shit im ashamed abused im ashamed needing welfare im ashamed fired im ashamed able find job im pathetic lonely fucked live world anymore absolutely cannot stand unfair life im going ending tonight supportive family friends shitty clueless assuming life cant hard theyre living comfortably ive proven cant take care myself theres point living anymore,1 ayo wants snapchat male whos interested kpop anime jpop science,0 "is watching gossip girl. (and who am i?that`s the secret ill never tell, you know you love me, xoxo, gg. hahaha!)",0 hey rredflag sure right place post this goes im currently student intern sandia national labs working survey help improve marketing outreach efforts many schools recruit around country were looking current undergradgrad stem students stem student know stem students would greatly appreciate help take pass along short survey thank you everyone helps take survey entered drawing chance win one three amazon gcs,1 moony 9 omg i can t believe this i want to cry freaking fb spoiled me how could this happen,0 Wow hi again depression,1 even im cooking hes still screaming face telling im done job need quit now yell back something job grips behind arm around throat grab knife using cut chicken tell get me lets go scream bit more made smart remark jabbed face busted inside lip bleeding,1 enterbelladonna i dunno how to use the forum and i get frustrated with it i ll miss talking to you on here,0 @Original_One in a quandry - hard to when it is a compliment to the other person. So I will eat my words I guess.,0 postpartum depression got throat medicine therapy support group etc failed think might tonight,1 cant take anymore dietheres constant fear stomach like fear living go away long im alive cant anymore im sick pretending able cope like keep pretending live life want end soon always say think friends family would feel fuck them never thought effects decisions would others plan anytime soon guess incredibly selfish makes easier nothing worth staying for little things mean jackshit could possibly life means nothing college university well paying job wife children means nothing me like bribe keep here want die refuse stay anymore thats say,1 @ddlovato im soo excited for you ..lol . i know its going to be great ,0 Good morning friends @YonishTrash @HiceRE @BobBarclay @Snookie007 @Amity_Cafe @USCrudeOil Have a great day! ,0 @mickyyoochun i also need to join that electo music comm you have. yay metronome ,0 i m slipping into a deep deep depression divorce failed business losing my home many regret etc etc i need a direction in my life i can focus and work hard on but i don t even know where to begin i need someone to help me a there s no way i can do it myself i have adhd so my mind go in a million direction all the time is a good life coach what i need,1 "@jason_mraz: Jason must be so darn suprised to see those local tv crew ppl. indeed, it was a "random" act of tweet mastery ",0 im sure want die definitely want life go motions life hard hard time coping circumstances lost person could trust talk to want kill myself hate life fucking much nobody knows bullshit ive through want give up,1 wrong girls get sick joy kicking guys ballsseeing get hurt there sexual violence humiliation better guy groped girl put much agony crashed floor gagging choking crying everyone laughed funny got humiliated violated hurt girl guy,0 it seems like it s just who how i am that s making me this miserable i ve tried it all it just seems hopeless,1 the of end the new JONAS was amazing... aw :'( yep dats a tear. (kinda not really). @ItsChelseaStaub you were awesome.. nice spit take ,0 parents dont care privacy taught never text friends always use social media talk tell someone based stuff like footsteps breathing super hearing ability switch apps phone blink eye hide social media accounts hide evidence something lie straight face fake asleep really well get account changes password hide stuff really well use apps like myeyesonly mildly inappropriate things use apps like temp mail create secret accounts use little time home alone efficiently bypass parental controls play music loudly let close door day im going walk away phone always turn screen face using appdata hide things computer notice nothing said good respectful kid,0 watched movie thinking going absolutely horrible ready corniness bad special effects etc but pleasantly surprised say best vampire movie ever seen certainly worst liked whole alternate realitydream state played movie graphics quite well straight dvd movie liked overall look film enjoyed main character sai usually end hating female leads something kept interested yes make bad decisions expected yes characters stereotypical expecting too know id highly recommend movie give chance might pleasantly surprised im putting one guilty pleasures list,0 jus wondering idk maybe wrong kids better spending creative years trying find something theyre passionate instead memorizing bullshit required,0 wtf wrong people playing among us yesterday girl started talking eventually gave snap stayed late talking eventually asked out around go said goodbye morning opened app send streaks saw message said snap pending adds friend first time girl unadded nowhere dont know girls like this doesnt feel good talking someone unadded you know always thier control knows coulda overprotective parent could least say something it want know this girls say men trash shouldnt exist the go shit happened another guy id like hear see many people happened with,0 things one knows want look like accidenti feel like meant die young always meant kill myself thoughts death hurting frequent first remember terrible feelings even child unloved hiding blankets crying felt place worthless time every would horrible diagnosed hypothyroidism put hormones thought maybe would fix everything things got bad junior year college good grades classes easy me gotten wonderful scholarship gotten internship summer friends become roommates would fun together towards end year started wanting much them except maybe drink figured got drunk could escape little while fine short time went state internship things got really bad met lot nice people friend major me felt alone felt like needed harm myself exactly sure how everyone else working went fun stayed cried drank alone started taking handfuls whatever otc medications hand much anything good washing alcohol know would do figured probably die mind harming myself remember lying bed facing mirror closet door heart racing skin strangely splotchy pupils completely messed up something dumb told friend feeling doing flushed whatever otc meds toilet kept close watch me time guess felt grateful time went on wish told him want stop anything dumb importantly felt like burden hated even stressing out really talk much anymore hes married seems good life told doctor feeling put mg citalopram really help got back college summer happy senior year living girls known since freshman year excited first tried act normal would go bars parties spend lots time together got tiring wanted stay room live alcohol hopes could forget everything hurt myself started burning curling iron im sure why thighs covered blistered burns initially left faint scars eventually disappeared really remember stopped enough remember first time cut myself know use desperation wrapped beer bottle towel hit hammer tested pieces find sharp enough one kept shard nightstand soon graduated exacto knife want bleed out want anyone know this shallowly cut upper thighs somehow watching thin cuts bleed calming made feel better still scars years later one knows doctor increased dose citalopram guess kind helped somehow made senior year somehow got as even though missed many classes telling everyone sick guess lie think anyone knew truly wrong times year told nuts threw exacto knife would go buy another repeat cycle cutting convince im insane throw out buy another weeks later worst got codeine cough syrup clinic coughing night sleep got super drunk alone bedroom drank whole bottle upset wake next morning never applied grad school like initially planned lied everyone asked going grad school right away time home strange got crappy job particularly enjoy something afraid cut home afraid parents would go room find blade eventually cutting cycle continued id take razor blade box cutters work cut needed to throw out grab another weeks later eventually got fired ridiculous reason parents town week cut lot always made sure hide razor blade thought things would better went grad school doctor finally ended changing hormone dose think helped little felt alone friendless new city was first year grad school last time cut myself though still feel like want sometimes time grad school relatively uneventful meet boyfriend second year weve together year half love much even enough finished classes think ill ever graduate lost motivation finish everything got shitty job finished classes one pay whole lot somehow im still it guess im moron feel like half people work hate half put me certainly think would miss me even know boyfriend would miss me think hold back know something wrong me did think would gone town hes gone weeks took guns him assault rifle bed part upset took them part want shoot leave terrible mess anyway want plan right bought ton poppy seeds online right boyfriend left shook lemon juice water see could get high drank liquid felt warm eventually keep eyes open peace woke got dizzy vomited times good find seeds worked still six pounds seeds left know many use make strong tea guess could use all get really drunk tea hopefully fall asleep wake ever again cant yet though weird want die day im supposed go work plan right ill fall asleep forever day off hopefully find enough time schedule someone cover shift thankfully boyfriend coming home around day days off want walk call ambulance anything want mental hospital want lot decay anything time gets home im sure coming home bad enough experience also want drop everything come home early hear me little week left think im going leave note would nice assholes work felt bad guilty knew killed myself want people like feel guilty part want leave something reassuring people assholes give away planned want kind people blame themselves all fault me feel need clean house next week ill work next days bought huge bottle rum wash poppy seed tea hope everything goes way intend wake next wednesday morning know ill do,1 moony 9 huggggs i m glad you re here to help me through this he wa my favourite character the white house suck for stealing him,0 oh thicc thighs use pillow ,0 know much longer thingsive always joker group friends always try make people laugh enjoy whenever leave people feel terrible inside feel lonely helpless nothing seem right never want disappoint parents want save embarrassment identifying body im sure cant much longer nothing changes,1 tw sh suicide i m a year old still in high school with depression anxiety intrusive thought and a emerging personality disorder i got diagnosed year ago now and once i heard that it wa overwhelming it made me feel labelled a a kid who wa no longer a kid but a mentally ill person and it wa horrible it put me in the worst place of my life and after service and service all spoke to me the most important thing i realised is that i m never going to be the same person before i wa diagnosed and i had to accept the fact i m not okay that wa the first step into recovery and year in im finally starting to get better bit by bit iknow how hard menial task can be such a getting out of bed showering eating etc which is why i m glad so many people know how hard it is to having people who understand is another key thing that helped me start to recover a a lot of other people suffering from depression i self harmed and i self harmed for a year and a half it became almost an addiction and for the first time since i started i can finally say i no longer want to do it i m currently day sober from a relapse after month sober relapsing is a part of recovery which is a thing i m still learning because when you relapse you don t think this is natural your first thought it oh ffs all that progress i made is gone but intact it s not it s just a part of it i also suffer from suicidal tendency meaning that i have constant suicidal thought and i have attempted time it sound bad and it is but i m glad i did because it made me realise how much i want to live the last one wa the worst one my mum found me hanging in my room and cut me down and instead of going ballistic she listened to me and got me the help i needed now me and my whole family are closer than ever so a horrible situation worked out the best i decided to write this to let people read if they want to and know that no matter how bad you are at that point there will always be a light at the end of the tunnel cliche but true and make sure you don t lose track of the most important instinct survival thank you for reading it mean a lot,1 think finally timeive dealt way much past months hopes anything getting better means balls sick surviving everyday waiting next following sort pattern feel stuck life cant move forward all ex boyfriend almost two years wants nothing me im acting recklessly doesnt even make feel thing feel numb alone dont feel like anyone truly understands thing stopping whether abuser go court im dead dont care hes taken everything enjoy life anyways difference make im suffering either way cant this want someone know tried hardest could ultimately failed im sorry given up,1 middle aged done status quo ideation set inhi going now spent half day sleeping much day away possible rest researching methods for umpteenth time alone nothing constructive life every day difficult day before am hope change spend every day trying reach people social media whatsapp mostly contact people face face choice made every minutes face misery again haul task online encounter avoid suffering cant see keeping struggle another plus years set ready reach place tried failed cant talk anyone know this reluctant even post this,1 failed theres going backi university student scholarship way scholarship works is fail class lose financial benefits pay back every benefit given last semester got really ill operated class three weeks came back felt completely lost class thought id pass finals came completely failed shortly grades posted called office told case would go academic committee would decide kept scholarship not saved handing medical papers strike one semester almost got results one classes needed final pass class scored surely scholarship get annuled yet talked anyone it parents friends think everything ok im well cant face them today first time life im considering killing myself save shame bankrupting parents,1 weird dad full access school email accesses computer looks school emails he gets updates do see point okay recently asked stop deleting emails they still viewed trash okay plan stop like keep clean inbox feels weird know looking school emails including personal emails students weird overreacting,0 "Hey, who laughed. ",0 decided to try something different lavender toe nail polish. 1st look it's different 2nd hmm it's not bad 3rd Good choice Lory! ,0 friends weird every time say something casual like how doing start making slow song topic know why,0 got one question unv website common offer cookies,0 "@Sepulchura your the one that found the issue you muppet I quote 'This isnt a big problem, THATS A HUGE PROBLEM' !!!!!! ring any bells?",0 p just broke my fucking phone,0 anyone elses suicidal thoughts gotta worse attempt i failed suicidal attempts months ago every since thinking lot now like know maybe able finally end life anyone else happen them,1 because never get good anything pick hobby weeks hit obstacle get bored give up happening years example started drawing multiple times still good toddler matter try cannot stick anything ever think executive function brain banged up cannot organise myself frustrating nonetheless really fault know could good pushed more get depressive episodes hardly anything eat sleep days could spent something actually worthwhile feel like loser,1 i want to km i wa so impulsive and ended a very good relationship we were both first lover and i just can t anymore,1 beautiful filmjohn garfields character distant relative les miserabless jean valjean detective rains recalls victor hugos javertthe ruthless arm lawbr br like many films noirsthe city epitomizes evil whereas country nature represents sanctuaryredemptionand second chance whose life seems forever doomedbut even luminous daylightdanger may appear suddenlyas excellent scene reservoir showsjohn garfield an actor whoas leonard maltin points outshould rediscoveredive never disappointed films except supporting part gentlemans agreement faultgives heartfelt sensitive performance audience sides soon unjustly accused the first sequence shows rather unkind hypocrite personbut trials redeem feel last scenes detective rainscolorful characters grandma kids add lot joie de vivre necessary humor also present strip poker game dead end brats fleece rich kidbr br i recommend movie,0 How exercising can slash the risk of depression: https://cse.google.com/cse?cx=partner-pub-0438138242743153%3Avvnwpsw8fe0&ie=UTF-8&q= https%3A%2F%2Fnypost.com%2F2018%2F04%2F24%2Fhow-exercising-can-slash-the-risk-of-depression%2F&sa=Search&siteurl=www.google.com%2Fcse%2Fhome%3Fcx%3Dpartner-pub-0438138242743153%3Avvnwpsw8fe0#gsc.tab=0&gsc.q= https%3A%2F%2Fnypost.com%2F2018%2F04%2F24%2Fhow-exercising-can-slash-the-risk-of-depression%2F&gsc.page=1 …,1 fuck raised told men cannot show true emotions mental breakdown last night first time cried years cannot tell anyone it cannot seek help without looking weak born pretty fucked family know anymore afraid given everything keep getting confusing much changing life know handle this want dad see state done much make see man mum fucked years ago even mother figure trust talk to know fuck anymore usually stop feeling used coming back scared going break soon cannot talk it,1 idea doback friends people care life haha ive suicidal day dont know feel like one cares me completely unfair like friend suicidal stayed bed day friends including me instantly went go help went bought food boyfriend helping parents drove go help everytime im suicidal like everyone looks way know wrong unfair compare shit friends none even try help one even checked me partner checked told suicidal said im sorry making fucking intensely upset like dont know feel like everyone wants dead doesnt take seriously dont know cant stop hitting cutting scratching want kill im scared dying dont know im tired alove cant die dont know die cant get help im gonna lose friends partner fail classes dont know im depressed im crying reddit dont even use reddit haha wow dont know,1 ready buy gun end alli delete hours less background sexually abused toddler diagnosed ultra rapidcycling bipolar disorder age manic delusions severe depression things get better high school got as transferred year college moved miles away city friends depression worsens hospitalized five weeks several medical leaves taken school girlfriend borderline personality disorder leaves cruelest way imaginable attempts blackmail ruin life lie created diagnosed ptsd struggling finish degree age hospitalized manic episode suddenly things start looking career schoolwise things may okay all age coronavirus hits internship goes window classes moved online spring summer fall cant adapt online learning considering dropping out id move back home moms environment hate current relationship failing spectacularly person refuses talk me feeling like complete piece shit finishing school yet three friends life live major cities far away me plus girlfriend speak me every treatment tried illness failed medicine psychotherapy ketamine tms fear getting older fear finishing school get career want issues sex due childhood abuse turn future partners cant live like anymore am ive researched buy gun state despite everything im pretty sure pass background check know id kill myself know song id listen it plan lengthy plan plan needed write out need someone listen judge many people judge life like entire family nobody sits fucking listens thats want someone anyone fucking listen,1 bipolarblogger well i ve been lied to that i am not ill biologically simple blood test proved them wrong telling me i m just mad and mentally ill or having motivation issue due to bipolar depression or irritability doesn t raise my thyroid hormone or help with bodily inflammation due,1 arlenecd please tell me that s somewhere close to california lol,0 guys two cars following hours im fucking scared httpsiimgurcomcxyrfjjpg,0 theekween the herb is ideal for those that suffer from depression anxiety loss of a loved one heartbreak or have witnessed something tramatic thelmaherbs,1 cant anymorei dont know anymore besides cry dont care anything anymore matter do friends family somehow suck life me cant alive anymore im strong enough world,1 told discord server made something minecraft decided toxic ill tell everyone rteenagers built first good villager trading hall minecraft,0 read thisim going say want kill myself leaves open help want help anymore friends find difficult combat arguments redflag logical are friends know better anybody im going believe correct actions either way leaving family police somebody find know happened me mostly method traditional people im grabbing one bottle water im walking woods going walk longer physically walk sit woods wait starve die thirst truly want die let die painful comparison rest life nothing flick nose peaceful embrace nice afterlife also interesting family im sorry one year grief cause this,1 school and errand without will and that s the sad part,0 im sure intrigues movie so grainy poorly written bleached out often ridiculous many points mind numbingly dull the person watching fell asleep twice yet something film fascinates me though sure what perhaps character sam enormous former patient lobotimized former head doctor perpetually sucking ice pop marvelously played head doctor i forget namebr br anyway watch form opinion one greatest endings seen film,0 depression anxiety got worseive rough month thought getting better yesterday nowhere depression anxiety hit hard unable anything whole day tonight ive several nightmares im tired pain seeing way healing dont even know do like forever dont think ill able make,1 existential crisis and angst ha become a month period drama for me every few month i will come across or think of a existential or scary thought where i ll go down a large rabbit hole and in the end become a nervous and terrified wreck i ve been through a existential crisis on mind philosophy sexuality identity apocalypse anxiety biology philosophy space anxiety and now it look like the next one will be quantum fucking physic based if i don t stop it in time i m just so sick of this cycle of fucking misery throughout my life i can t find any happiness or calmness because of my year is spent being terrified and super anxious sometimes i feel like lying down and cry but this depression ha made me so numb i can t cry anymore i just can t fucking take this anymore,1 when you had a good day but the depression kicks in and drags you into a hole of loneliness and sadness,1 im scared ill kill myselfive living depression five years getting worse ive talked therapist thinks would best went psych ward want talk suicidal thoughts although ive told im afraid them told beyond abilities help me ive committed psych ward twice help me gave meds made feel like zombie treated like guinea pig repeat that everyday feels like theres less less hope im really scared close friends talk family,1 excellent example early bette davis talent production average timeframe cannot understand owners rights film put dvd owners please please release it would buy immediately seen thirty years television remember well,0 used the term quot fail whale quot to a client on a pitch last night from their incomprehension corp twitter is being done much lower in the org,0 seems like option lefti guess main reason offed yet yet found painless easily accessible way it point neither enjoy interest life feel like working studying socializing playing games nothing come family history depression mental illness parents exception ive distance remain sane ive always considered different everyone even kid would spend lot time fantasy world rather reality longer see point studying getting degree want sit day passive useless possible medicines make functional allow enjoy life even remotely connect anyone place world,1 Black patents don't believe in depression fam https://twitter.com/VinDollar016/status/988836602054103040 …,1 watched series first came si years old watched best friends house dad want watch itit became weekly ritual every sunday anyone tell two fourteen year olds watch documentary almost reverential silence must mean something specialbr br the broad sweep events world war makes difficult subject documentso makers broke considered significant key happenings devoted one episode eachsome episodes covered long periods wolf pack covered nearly six years battle atlanticwhile battle stalingrad one episode itselfbr br this documentary could made today quite simply interviewed deadthe list significant players appearing gives amazing insight thinking timeanthony eden foreign secretarycarl donnitzhead uboatsalbert speerpet architect confident later armament minister hitlerin one later episodes see traudl junge hitlers secretarywho bunker dictated last testamentshe left bunker hitlers suicide escaped russian linesthese many others play major role realism events portrayedbr br if criticism series codebreakers bletchly park included revelations part war emerged series made cannot blame programme makersbr br the opening titles music magnificentand lawrence oliviers narration lends natural gravity scriptbr br the best documentary series ever made without doubtunmissable,0 @gavinmusic Love it. Such a beautiful song! Have a great day in the sunshine ,0 life would much easier thinkthis going mess idk else post this format fucked up apologise sometimes cant stop thinking reasons id better dead im barely human cant function like everyone else can im constantly reminded every shitty thing life matter go do ill never able forget this vivid memories every little thing ive fucked up cant get life without self harm thing point boyfriend theres almost nothing life makes happy anymore amp fucking sucks ive tried talk quitting said something want to thats beside point like idk feel lost im trying find something make stop thinking forever amp redflag answer course get temporary release cutting enough amp never be plus ruining life would much easier kill go shit want feel think even exist ill always reminded past experiences like long period sexual abuse amp rape abusive father amp fucked family even live long enough move ill plagued issues rest life get like boyfriend says things like think future itll get better think will things never get better makes happy really enough keep alive next couple years im stuck fucking house know im even writing this im much coward actually end it came pretty fucking close couple months ago course it wish wouldve succeeded,1 @gwendolynwaite Thank you It does smell wonderful. It's not far from my house in a town called Valley Center.,0 might sooni dont really wanna explain everything girlfriend think gonna break tomorrow im getting tired life everytime gives something takes away knocks way back down happened much im starting loose hope,1 moody hours hate waking knowing im going sleep person before escaping world getting yelled escaping got yelled getting yelled escaping wish could something im lazy actually anything need help cant stop selfsabotaging apparently one help myself better good days ahead,0 i don t think i like the saw ride at thorpe park the tv ad make me feel sick so goodness know what the ride would do,0 realized something trixs cereal brand rabbit rabbits parts magic trick pulling rabbit hat trick kids,0 decided im much pussy kill myself cant even leave flat ive trying force go hours im point im even sad banned every discussion atempt atleast sort communicationcant look gf eyes cant force even talk dont know feel im failure complete human wreck,1 want dieright fucking now ive given years get better,1 im probably going commit redflag every day mind,1 lpt rats tend abandon sinking ships see rats jumping overboard join,0 Women who regularly eat high-fat yogurt are less likely to be diagnosed with depression than women who eat the low-fat variety.,1 literally found reason wanna kids earlier today park friends right little seven year old named anthony wanted push swings like pity first getting mad one pushing him yeah start pushing like five minutes holy shit hes adorable bro much fun swings literally made happy see little kid genuinely happy like ten minutes friends im still pushing yes ofc nice cool backwards hat akdjsndbdb beyond adorable istfg okay thats love anthony lt,0 im definitely suicidal help itive semisuicidal long time ive known least years want ride thoughts getting way intense really depressed lot great people around could talk to end know want live anymore nothing life nothing want do way forward me want dead want try medicationsdrugssupplements work make feel shitty tired time even know want helped try guess,1 @MissJia Yo... I think I was supposed to be reminding you to follow me? ,0 update losing memory officially recollection yesterday morning back saying forgot everything recent events cant remember thats all know nobody cares ,0 my throat hurt i think i have a cold,0 love make stronger want become stronger started full body workout heard love makes people stronger true yes strong make ,0 @kiirrrssttyy No. we still could! Its our dream so we can do what we want! hahaha ,0 bit curates egg one started hating it predictable old dark house setup constant references recent us horrors regular trips dimly lit corridorsbr br but get going moments originalitybr br i began wonder killing started going last cast six get flashbacks previous visit building see whole slew gory killings pretty effectivebr br naschy fine end enjoyable enough movie jump grab one hard enough,0 good conversationover text starters girl aged know hey whats quieter boring people hear lot good conversation startersalso hold conversation crush please help dumbass,0 Th�i t? ?i ng?. Ch�c c? nh� ng? ngon ,0 Fill your time and day with people who enrich your being. Shut out the noise. #MentalHealthMatters #psychiatry #depression,1 okay long text post here i been depressed the past year of my life 9 now you know just typical depression not until recently i started getting like suicidal thought and ideation not so sure why i started dating my boyfriend about a year ago and he is the light of my world and had helped me pretty much a lot i m not too sure why these thought and feeling are coming back to me harder than ever my med cymbalta quit working so i switched them then the new one make me actually fucking insane pristiq i can t even trust myself to be alone i am just thinking about killing myself and dying all that mumbo jumbo my anxiety ha been through the roof a well i also have insomnia which we have not found the right med for that yet either so my whole life and brain is a cluster fuck it would be so easy to end it i never have had panic attack until this new pristiq i ve also tried lexapro prozac and a few others which weren t for me they either make me zombie or literally nothing at all is different can someone give me your input on what i should maybe try to do my sleep ha also been fucked the past few year i stay up for day at a time bc i can t fall asleep i m either not tired or j literally can t actually fall asleep now i have seroquel a needed i don t take that make me feel weird zaleplon a needed it literally doesn t work on me not too sure why but whatever and hydroxyzine and guess what that one doesn t work either sleep ha make me fail in school cant concentrate cant study cant do work mood brain fog every day oh but back to my bf just typing about him make me tear up i miss him so much i m afraid that i m going to scare him away with my craziness i m also pretty sure i m bipolar but maybe i m not but his family doe not have problem like that i m thinking i need to kill myself before he leaf me or after he leaf me bc after he leaf that will be it he s like my last string of hope to keep me from ending it anyone relate,1 im pissed im fucking switching absolutely boiling freezing top work tell mom tells take ibuprofen ive already one sick day summer fuck that,0 carolrainbow no internet at home have to drive into ox to use internet because of builder,0 @TheCrowns hey guys! just thinking of you today! that good you are back! ,0 attempt no gonna try second time die simply drinking eating,1 happy one wants meim used ignored rejected thats ive entire life hurt anymore hurts nothing ever changes girls even look me even accidentally trip front them always strike conversation strangers get shut way bit later conversation shethey decide leave internet too send polite message saying would like chat andno response wrong think im forward desperate obnoxious im average nice guy looking companionship even think im bad looking imagine andrew garfield shorter younger guy thats kinda look likeloosely work everyday physique gymnastagain loosely girls hate kidding myself see guys less attractive mein opinion attractive girls cant i ive years always same happy knowing one wants date me ever think redflag die somehow day nowi think would mind,1 idea many different aspects lifelet preface saying although worked hard get am know im lucky person whole life ive complaints friends played sports girlfriends sex love experienced life average american grade schooler high schooler college student young professional would experience it im bit introverted most plenty things feel like ive wasted time worked hard high school get full ride college worry loans lucky enough career pays year half graduating city cost living low im kind rambling im trying make point many people would kill have yet reason really want live im really sad anything feel like ive experienced enough id fine living anymore way last decade id totally okay vanished thin air everyone simply forgot ever existed hate career im passionate it knew wanted do id throw current job heartbeat idea want do enjoy really change fact desire live hobbies love like snowboarding ive good girlfriends ive love with even that often want fade existence im pretty nihilistic think life intrinsic meaning ones responsibility assign meaning life ive never able matter hard ive tried purposelessness makes feel okay wanting alive times get tougher like now often lean towards wanting dead rather simply apathetic it used think fun activities dating distractions apathy time ive sort assigned importance them them im living life like point time maybe distraction apathy life supposed like even then cant help feel bit shallow know reality cant always like that even were id likely get sick time im sorry know really cohesive way thinking things typing out tldr im sure life ive tried hard prescribe meaningfulness life cant really it results apathetic living normal circumstances makes lean towards wanting live situations get difficult thanks reading ill check back tomorrow anyone thoughts,1 hard livei broken afraid kill dont want live husband left someone else birthday lost grief devastated lost live exist dont enjoy anything used love barely eat barely get bed dont enjoy anything all watch tv try loneliness silence work two days week far ive going work used love job hate it feels meaningless im going avoid becoming homeless overwhelmed choices make none easy feel like im verge breakdown safe space land feels like isnt place world death feels like place belong,1 @soamazing0425 lmmfao so its twitter cheating only when i do it lmmfaoo? Its cool lmmfao you pimpinnnn. i still love ya mz amazing ,0 hairpin haha well what make you think you don t use big word too sadistic p what did i say any way and no i don t sorry babe,0 terry gilliam traveled future he already done brazil tell story virus thats destroying human racebr br the script totally crazy easy tricks quite entertaining gilliam proves hes got imagination the futuristic scenes great cast bruce willis beautiful madeleine stowe whatever happened her ok brad pitt annoying whenever plays roles hand results forced hes credible all play goodlooking successful young menbr br my rate ,0 im probably gone time u read thishey guys im here im drunk name luke annas im lost without ex doesnt care without donct care myslef im killing tonight plz assume break years im still love plz dont give answers cuz matter someone says doesnt help genuine friends im telling yet another life gone need look depression high schools holding longer option gbye,1 a zeeshan still in depression,1 im strong lifeim done done family butler done anxious around people done lonely lot things wanted life guess it weird kill whatever im tried bullshit want anymore call weak tell part life ups downs ups me negative want live hell goodbye,1 stupid glass and it s ability to cut my foot,0 see endi see end life days away could mean killing changing thought process try again would like start fact everything world im young adult lovely relationship loving family enough income get by decent savings account ive met god understand meaning god every loving hating action she does feel like im kill anyway know tremendous sadness destruction bring loved ones everyone cares me yet still want kill myself this th year suicidle thoughts depresstion thought started two months ago remembered actually matter since life slowly falling apart mean good deeds going unseen way longer even selfish actions favours either part got promtion workplace manager find promotion lead walking egg shells boss every action started get micro mangered recent covid situation making customers crazy leads egg shells ieds them guess smarten started follow everything book still good enough them everyday still getting called old misbehavours even though them wtf right part everything owned started break replasement ideams broke to headphones bust go bye new pair within week new pair break go get another pair guessed it new ones broke too stero system busted game get try escape reality breaking glitches galor bunch crashes new cyber punk game hoped end spiral sadness broken start ps ok maybe problem im bying stuff others dad wants metal signs kitchen thought getting cool signs vintage shop brought home hung wall first thing hear mouth tell price why fuck spend much money signs fucking waste exact words becuase awhile ago energy rub face week later buys new toy something need money get first place worry theres go on part think anyone understand everytime try speak it get shot down could boyfriend mom dad even bosses coworkers get nothing hell even people tell do example tell bring phone work dont next day tell need phone work bring fact allowed phone work say test following day ask take phone again power trip wanted yell someone part im young adult one actully trusts yet tried get loan told pay plan it got denied paper work pay stubs becuase get payed staight bank account tried get apartment denied tried places denied going back work im trusted job even im job properly book come yell something preseve job part said met god devil real hell even earth form video games what hell constint villance place looks quite real real enough make keep going cant feel dam thing god love concept anyway im trying good man even one excepts good deeds know im slave devil form art must make art otherwise feel feeling unless part final chapter started becuase remembered matter one person world billion people art special another artist great job shitty job everyone around still thinks beautiful thing theyve seen got promotion deceided me need stress see newest employee get spot even though said got position needed trust takes alot time trust employees guess lie told people think im going sober got bunch cares was sober month till needed smoke get head space bunch stuff part fact forgottenwas never important all live long life become important become emortalish though art put world still nothing long enough timeline forgotten keep going everything nothing everyone around tells love everytime speak im feeling push aside like im acting crazy understand im saying start new type theropy tueday hopefully figure out secertly think going work im pretty sure suicidle thoughts contine point except fact cant run fate ampxb thank reading ill push though like always do one meaning life its get close divinity spread rays mankind,1 dont immature bitch piece advice selfcentered people universe doesnt revolve around you karen matter say cant make saying something terrible acting like okay youre you theres ones fake depression always say stuff like know depression right think im going go cut now mental health joke dont treat like one edit also includes people say didnt ask,0 mariasbtb cnews l histoire amp complexe que a la vendu son me au tout amp censur sur mervine m me le dangereux c dans leur g ne amp vive vol magouilles amp s en tire toujours le lois amp clou de folie a pourrie la amp pour prime le en d pression amp la jeunesse empoisonn endoctrin lafm racailleu,1 need valentine plsss anyone wanna valentine year btw im girl,0 @ijustine #gimmefailwhale pretty please with cherries on top,0 know anymore really not like things gotten worse anything suffering like always close breaking point cannot take anymore everyday wish could die tried slitting wrists it failed jumping also failed much coward it parents know slit wrists angry it suppose know react asked bring mental hospitalpsych ward shouted told serious nothing wrong me get wrong parents trying help really know much longer wait dad told leave things focus studiesnormal everyday stuff firstly busy work secondly know much longer take sit wait need die parents understand cannot function like normal human cannot everytime someone talks asks question takes long process end stuttering know say call suicide hotline know do would like bring mental hospitalpsych ward know know explain parents someone pls help thanksps parents really nice saying way helping making worsenot anything say suicide hotline,1 people like thati middle breakdown sick tired people general rough breakup slowly recovering finally felt comfortable enough another person treat like shit giving false hope supposed cope this much horrible anxiety attacks heart cant take,1 fucking dare tell im burden younot wont let speak leave dare open mouth,1 tldr fck this i m out i can t fcking do this i m tired of myself why do i feel like this i would ask for help but it s not worth it at this point i give up i should be at the happiest point in my life i have more friend than ever before that love me i ve been out of a really toxic abusive friendship for month now i don t know i m tired i m done all my grade are good but rapidly slipping i worry everyone i m around my entire family think i m suicidal and they re fcking right although they just think it because of my shitty humour they keep telling me to drop they only hear the half of it my friend are the one who are extremely worried even though i think it might be bc of my joke too i m not sure if this is a rant or a cry for help because i have a beam in my room thats perfect for a noose and a letter and i ve spent since december finding a date that won t f up anyone s bday or special event early april it wa gon na be early this month but my friend ha invited me to a convention and tbh that s the only reason i m here i didn t want to mess it up for them because they seemed really exited and i really love them and although i ve come to term with leaving them i know it ll take them a while i m not sure why i m writing this help advice idk i just feel like i m at the point of no return,1 @thehungrycoder I had here at Nator really cool showers ,0 helpwhen born put nicu i think thats called couple weeks released sent house around three months father supposedly shook me thats mother told me growing hard anything one kids didnt friends wasnt junior high mother told happened younger father rushed emergency room shunt placed inside me many surgeries graduated college stay house feelings come back ive always thoughts head saying things like drove truck bridge something similar sister kid father tries gentle him know im supposed hate him always start thinking couldnt treated way get feelings im wanted would person look something like that made promise ever buy right gun try make pain go away,1 I love it when people suggest caring for plants as treatment for my anxiety and depression. pic.twitter.com/y719KOBw91,1 going to the dentist again i mean tooth spa right valeriekhoo,0 ya i m gon na to do it tonight it s better for everyone this way,1 wish could trust people lmao im insecure kinda insane u say u love everythings lie sometimes feel like love u much u dont feel same think think much,0 want girl hug cuddle idk feel like need girlfriend ever,0 ive feeling really demotivated lately soooo long story short saw classmate mine win basketball tournament sending snaps snapchat screaming celebrating jumping around got really sad think know im ever gonna achieve something like life like were still winning baksetball tournament kind big deal like play type sport im literally sitting house playing video games wasting summer life got really sad saw whole team celebrating jumping around probably best friends im alone nothing like even wanna get bed mornings feel sooo demotivated wanna anything anyone help anyone felt get rid feeling,0 How Leeds nurses and ex-patients are offering a way out of the darkness for mums with postnatal depression – Yorkshire Post http://uklocal.net/how-leeds-nurses-and-ex-patients-are-offering-a-way-out-of-the-darkness-for-mums-with-postnatal-depression-yorkshire-post/ …,1 @QandQ I think I'd go on the run ,0 bruh im never getting help again depressed like months im better ever school still go psychologist cut early autumn bruh well job im getting depressed anymore im afraid now hard explain why mostly get distressed going there,0 playing deathfor ive suicidal thoughts become increasingly overwhelming one point went hospital overdose attempt recently ive noticed walk roads thoughts like im going cross road without stopping looking ahead get run hopefully ends dont im somewhat lucky therapist told mindset little like playing russian roulette selfish playing death redflag end pain something long for way itd method control one thing life since im selfless every respect try things other others mind im sure im going end things soon not time part knows things live cant help wanting cut life short im exhausted whole therapist thing ive seen pretty much lost count prescribed lexapro prozac seroquel point medication seems pointless professional professional tries still cannot help me whos say anyone else will dont see change happening life anytime soon sit watch everything go by suffer try fix peoples problems instead own,1 question uhonkymommymilkers u got many coins,0 advice talk someone specific manic anxietyi friend clearly depressed anxious im finding difficult help out specific target anxiety climate change strongly defeatist attitude towards it try conversation it ask try professional help kind turtles up says important thing him cant live normal life hanging head getting worse recently hes acting strangely even difficult talk it really able converse normally much social interaction result im really worried could give up one day something think could ever forgive for id really like advice could help him way please help thank much,1 i always had that sinking feeling it wa there but wa never able to find that proof i would ve done anything for her she built me up for so long all my life saying i would go far and be the best i can this positive reinforcement kept up until graduated high school in 0 9 i wa taking a gap year so i wa trying to find work in the mean time the pandemic hit a i wa searching and many business had already laid off so many and were not hiring at this point i wa getting the sly comment hear and there but nothing too sinister for the most part only after going from job to job only to be taken advantage of or have my hour cut did it escalate more fearing no other alternative i went back to an old company i had left due to the amount of hour we had to work and my physical wellbeing wa deteriorating while there i wa not hired based on the fact i had quit so many job in a short amount of time the abuse began to hit a whope new level i am berated whenever i come from my room criticized for all the simplest thing forgotten told i m the idiot of the family for not paying attention to everything and continuously told i will never make it on my own and will die outside i finally hit my breaking point and while i cried for myself thinking about all i had done she watched i didn t see her face but she wa judging me the whole time and left me i knew she didn t care anymore and she never ha i have hit a whole new low of depression,1 i just got done with my psychiatrist appointment i don t feel good about it medication dosage got increased again that s all my life is medication therapy trying to make thing work and get better but it never happens i feel numb i don t feel anything at all right now the pain is so overwhelming i just can t feel anything i m one day away from being three week clean it doesn t matter i really feel like i m going to kill myself today i don t have enough medication to do it here and i need another method i know nobody care not really at the end of the day nobody care i m tired of being alone i m sure it s my own fault somehow everything s always my own fault i m tired i don t want to sleep i want to die,1 i lost everything lost friend lost the love of my life most painful lost my tooth have a fragile filling lost my youth i keep losing i ruined everything and keep ruining everything i am tired i really want to know my future will i find my place in society and a loving heart or will i die alone miserable and pathetic should i risk and keep living i don t like risking dying seems like a safe option my existence is pathetic i am the worst man alive cowardly and egoistic,1 tirednot first time posting here first time posting account begin grew narcissisticdysfunctional family bullied school abused first boyfriend years generally messed life didnt really except nervous breakdown last year developed panic disorder eating disorder put therapy along thought one problem things really turning around making moves move new city friend planning moves career art really looking forward healing coronavirus hit united states friend werent ready settle time couldnt get supplies weather shutdown go back family social distancing cant hide usual haunts away family dont friends town thankfully house big enough hide away somewhere day whenever walk room jab something im eating wearing im really tired think im grieving too felt loved heard wanted first time years friend also realized messed background honestly looking forward getting better dont know long quarantine going last dont know long handle this im tired,1 "Fr, I be getting hit with random depression, outta nowhere https://twitter.com/opheliax5_/status/988292175501971457 …",1 @everlastinglamp ...and you even got your background fixed! Good for you. ,0 im die cutsfinally go keep cutting possible way survival goodbye cruel world,1 need someone talk toto anyone either bad day even thinking taking life please feel free send message aim snypers usually online either playing video games browsing reddit feel free send message know isnt much feel like need help fellow redditors,1 msjheart lol yeah i m good i just got ta unplug it and use the other one until i can hustle up 9 buck for a new one,0 @ZaynnAbel_ Take several depression naps like me bc bitch ME TOO,1 nothing loseim starting think it really lose killing myself parents yeah right dont care parents didnt really care either fact im way them instead understanding problems think im crazy die dont care siblings ignored too friends dont any none classmates would remember either theres point nothing lose killing myself problem cant find painless way it im young buy gun im scared wont able hang properly leaves overdosing jumping high height im scared do theres point living anymore im going kill chance,1 day interact others basically always play role masks inside change behaviour topics talk extent even vocabulary according person talk to soon alone feel empty again feeling like personality all day play functioning human night suffocate self loathing self harm urges suicidal fantasieswhen laugh talk whatever superficial really stimulate brain emotions shallow short living feel like playing roles completely empty inside,1 Accommodation opportunities galore Very thrilling.,0 "@mommy2jl Good look, I said a little prayer for the little one ",0 so cold,0 Ketamine Shows Promise for Fast Relief of Depression http://ow.ly/oS3m30jxuWu ,1 triggers wanna diemy meds arent even working anymore keep thinking past days one wants people pushing away triggered possibly one worst fears wanna die dont wanna live hate life much whats point everything sucks,1 mishima one greatest films ever made think paul schrader greatest screenwriter time really like films hes directed ive seen with exception affliction amazing disturbing highly dimensional character study follows life yukio mishima japans celebrated writer combining last day life flashbacks stories know how paul schrader manages combine artistic way acting great photography perfect score philip glass although confusing first viewing one films becomes richer viewing truly underrated gem film,0 noose tied ive staring minutesi know im here last time posted even muster enough strength reply anybody feel like im searching magic words somebodyll tell make feel better exist want die cant take living anymore started crying writing sentence im still crying right now minutes know do want this want stop hurting bad know whats wrong me know whats wrong me,1 im slowly overdosing every dayits screwed everything up,1 friend sjw gonna rant post sorry friend watching film happened monday online criticism _insane_ like would say ewww misogyny look soldiers _men_ seriously come on trivial enjoy goddamn film time either near end ruin ending saying ugh patriarchy theyre women gives fuck said nobody cares one fucking does theres worse things going right men soldiers women nurses saying watching much tiktok instagram activist really boosts saviour complex honestly aware things unethical consumption capitalism thats fine thats good cause advocate climate change gender roles yes women soldiers men nurses film reality mirror reality slightest goodness sake kill kids movie worrying progressiveness background acting casting fuck off please,0 i constantly feel like harming myself i scratch myself hit myself in the face and constantly think about suicide i need a therapist but have no insurance i can t afford it but need it why am i living if it s going to be this way i threw away all these metabolism drink because they are making me insane my heart beat so fast and i can t for my mental health drink them anymore i m and feel mentally ill,1 anyone wanna text every day fall love ghost yes yes right,0 keep pushing back datei set date year lot family stuff happened used excuse push back month month reset date next year time put many things place lasts fluctuate worrying make sorted everything worrying find reason delay again sometimes need die strong barely breathe holding just tired need die,1 last nightupdate thanks guys ill reply comments soon told boyfriend woke cuddled long story short better morning planning jumping bridge today really appreciate subreddit mods here helps know somebody listening im planning ending tomorrow sure fully im going go yet thinking jumping bridge water cold time year would fast id tonight im boyfriends house hes asleep cant lock house behind me id take key hes taking shift work tomorrow know hell need key lock behind him fair me also refuse leave body find house im going suck end now mean hed think im asleep right hes already upset sleeping much fault energy levels fucked hell part nature depression start new meds maybe something it maybe im lazy bastard knows really maybe id stay awake id see something keep alive honestly know feel empty hollow want go now cant bring wake him cant tell need him need bad need feel wish wanted wish depression hard wish fucked up wish brain would stop tried one crisis chat centres work gave hotline call problem is bad social anxiety cant talk phone without stuttering making incomprehensible cant exactly phone know say anymore even know im posting this guess say final goodbyes something boyfriend get this resources least work time get family around love you cant deal brain longer im sorry ill breaking promise call weak liar whatever helps get mad me go right ahead need do know will brother sisterinlaw im sorry im sorry sorry reach guys want burden guys anymore already have psychs able help get it least jl young remember understand im sorry nieces nephews ending it get by great lives im proud all love guys im sorry rest family love guys cant go on,1 @colbyrne totally agree ,0 lostother peoples lives worse mine completely recognize that justi need say something need get feelings out last night drove home exgirlfriends house dirt road let wheel go car lost control hoped would time go car ended ditch fine dandy thoughts would tell ex got hurt would anyone even tell tell move ex trying work things abusive piece shit never hit verbal asshole still am reason job got bed ex making want live life anymore time leave bed go there split went hospital surgery took apartment kicked out lost job nothing left mental state going life miss like said working it got huge argument tonight think thats end anything want wake tomorrow,1 anyone wanna add minecraft play class username phoneticcake add want ill able play class,0 yearsi realized summer birthday say ive struggling thought dying years now ive never taken action know would hurt brother much gone that cant say ever anything else live for hand really love making music constant i want die head cant even care like do cant change thought mind feel close giving days know im fucked cant even afford freaking therapy anything it somehow managed living now im even sure im posting here life going im old enough die natural causes id rather give up even know feel like this like life shitty im year old future bright ahead me food table friends exercise everything normal person would do still thought remains back head even happiest moments life want die already battle cant win anymore im sure do,1 im losing itfor many years ive low managed stay afloat easy managed it recently though im losing it never felt lonely before ive lost last people talked me worse person completely fell love with fucking amazing guy started months ago ended hurting back then came back hurt again know let people hurt me ive let everyone take shot me maybe theres something wrong me perhaps im bad person know completely exhausted feeling lonely kills like never before ive lost motivation fight try think giving up fall apart im losing it past experiences matter time attempt again,1 want stillim supposed happy got great life job working myself supportive wife cats parents still good health theirs nice house amp mercedes etc ever it thoughts putting gun mouth pulling trigger frequent today crying non stop hours ive sober since new years used pothead trying better man bullshit guess even everything supposed make us happy evil thoughts still creep like poisonous gas makes us feel like cant escape feeling utter loneliness remains sometimes wish dead see wife could free shit,1 anyway. i better go. Going outtt then getting my haircut <3 i'll tweet later.x,0 ahem ... twitter alwys gets so busy on saturday nights ,0 feel sick days end eat enough lay bed listen stomach smell dirty dishes sink think washed hair days feel sick go back sleep shut out feel sad feel sick exhausted disinterested used much like art guitar hikes teenager interests sit across room collecting dust days work manage get done unless end going bed around pm get home usually random bursts motivation allow cleaning hygienic things embarrassing boyfriend gets home sees laying bed still pm go things spent day thinking maybe able drag bed go something course usually busy even go things always come back feel like want sleep helps chores cannot expect pick me sitting thinking need get shit together attracted someone like this show parents house looking great convincing life going well go home lay bed again think body going deteriorate longer lay here know get shit together though weird people call admirable capable half decent job degree inside feel like really anything half memorable interesting read people saying like learn lot really mean different anyone else end life interests actually mean anything make difference kind live die it health conditions also make functioning hard me pots structural issues makes hard walk around sometimes get up stay active feel full energy think emotions related that combines larger hurdle overcomei dunno feel lot fact feel lot sob like child heart feels like explode go back numb hungry sleep next time alive enough feel pain again rambly borders nonsensical saying thinking certainly talk people life feelings done made realize sound like broken record point need ask crying bailed plans heard million times breaking cycle feels impossible,1 someone ratsofatsorat left a few sip of mocha in the reusable coffee mug last week now it s chunky,0 definition great movie want continue see again movie reason strikes cord even though scenes scott glenn still make winch watch love music,0 idk feel anymore bisexual idk biromantic one non gay girl friends kissed cheek idk tell simp barron trump join rbarrontrumpfanclub,0 got free award first comment gets,0 whats everyone up to today??? i hope your all doing well ,0 @TheRealJordin UP is an amazing Movie. I love that movie. I plan on going to see it again! I love Russell! ,0 @nicharry @riccwebb @nickjackson @craigrodney @annaling @mikestopforth glad you guys are OK. Well done for being heroes! ,0 took mg acetaminophen beer finei weigh lbs maybe ill fine,1 Thuli Madonsela's daughter speaks out about her struggle with depression in heartfelt Facebook post https://www.w24.co.za/Lifestyle/thuli-madonselas-daughter-speaks-out-about-her-struggle-with-depression-in-heartfelt-facebook-post-20180425 … pic.twitter.com/Jyr9EoMmCM,1 "@gk_minusalltop N/M regarding the previous note, I see this is your account for non-alltop tweets ",0 id iti think period time reason killed fear pain involved im australian gun ownership easy time id process getting license gun use myself feelings would passed day thought bearably painful way die would easy organise two bits hardwood timber around neck held together cclamp turn head tighten clamp compress carotid arteries jawline even fucking windpipe would painful part hanging without neckbreak basically seconds discomfort probably maximum seconds relative pain gone forever now im saying im going it even want right now problem is im cerebral type know much suffer die alot scarier rough idea feels like commitment would need emotionally got lot lower and time low would need got lot higher,1 thing keeping fear causing painive wanted die long time many reasons many wonderful people life cause pain regular basis due substance abuse issues dont want burden more trying so hard get better getting better slowly slowly cant stand fuck ups along way cause much pain ones love thing worse would make one find dead body wish could erase existence without trace memory,1 cautionary talei think im going kill leave behind note explaining everything wrong led it way others might learn shit life maybe good come horrible mistakes,1 "Mom's depression tied to kids' emotional, intellectual development http://dlvr.it/QQmx4W  pic.twitter.com/BFsuxVrK5Y",1 want refund ate happy meal im still sad,0 welp text post weekend yet tomorrow yes know going thursday dang week gone slow,0 poems tell future wrote poem sound rain raining live mean something predict future,0 personally enjoyed cut thouroughly first time ive seen theatrically release australian slasher flick genre normally restricted mainstream hollywood filmsbr br with usual cooky comedies dramas coming australia loved able see homegrown horror movie rip anything even think really spoof movies supernaturally theme horror like nightmare elm street scream know last summer therefore suspension disbelief think time australian films tried get mainstream genresbr br cut original scary enough ultimately bit fun id give seven ten treat anything serious expected do entertain scare enough times satisfying enjoyed it,0 so realised something realised im bisexual today hardly knew lmao happened,0 stupid house helpingi living two familys thanks dumb ass event going everyone high tension even one says so blow one son finally stood got bitched putting foot them got quite place calm tightness around neck starts time almost found something put there drank little calm nerves since im still shaking argument though trying still there even quetions would affect son everyone life hope fine reason to,1 note everyonedear everyone depression ive never suicidal something society everyone drowns people suffering ones going hell like one possibly imagine people society drowns fucking reason reading know love you im year old kid behind screen truly love you ive got empathy sympathy combined make understand pain suffering cry read note simple someones depressed cry someone tells cried last night empathy works sub chose important subject matter me im redflag prevention club school care matter tell reason planet lose you lose planet every single person worth everything depressed suicidal please call text swear im you hesitate call redflag prevention line loved entire community community people like people choose here remember people come comment love you optional sub yet sub almost k supporters remember loved please call text dm need someone love you sincerely colin zimmer,1 deserve diei cheated deserve die eaten up family self sabatoge,1 erdbeerquaark und morgen depression friday,1 solumnotes care one depart pain unshared sentient beings shatter light glass marines reign supreme insignificant seem soul share another human being empty shell full life mediocre hellish strife parasitic nothing more times eradication yesterday tomorrows war,1 watching live wit regius and kelly. and order tickets to new kids conerct! ,0 types phub comments dont want horny anymore want feel loved come watch live ttvbotphubcommentcomyt change mind,0 now has a cold face from walkkng to the servo haha oh well the joys of living almost on top of a mountain ,0 supersport i miss my buddy ill be in ny on the th,0 like men like like hamburgers stomach filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 jjprojects maybe a broken mbp from ebay one with a broken screen or something good luck,0 yall ever just want sugar daddy me okay asking friend anyway,0 people saying homo like homo no homo,0 it s just a constant reminder that you don t really have any friend seeing everyone having fun laughing hanging out with eachother and then there s me depressing awkward and lonely i fucking hate it i just can t take it every single day being reminded of how much of a sad loser i am,1 top reasons im awesome thats it thanks attention nice day,0 found good spot jumptomorrow morning im going go work leave work stuff managers desk without saying work im heading wendys last bite eat bad know itll end stomach contents autopsy report finally found bridge definitely high enough impact kill me cant take life anymore really it,1 "im going to be really english and talk about the weather, its absolutely pissing it down here. i like it when its like this ",0 wanna know look filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 Merlin - he manages to escape being sprung again - lucky thing ,0 "@AsteriaArgent Its good to hear ^^. Sometimes i kinda worried since seems half of my mutual have stress, depression and anxiety. Please don't hesitate again to shitpost if you feel bad again, i believe there ppl care for you :)",1 woke up to derek sheppards voice! ,0 is it weird to think i m getting closer and closer to taking my own life soon year and year of thinking but chickening out maybe soon it will be my time i attempted to swallow pill today and i think i m one getting really close now i hope i have the strength and courage one day to actually do it so i can finally rest and let go of this life i am tired,1 real friend real friend one see long time finally meet again says wow look shitty always,0 o i wish the frog weren t becoming extinct http tinyurl com cxe w,0 doesnt know what to wear,0 happy christmas thats wanted say enjoy sound happy christmas now,0 lot none hmmmi suspect people much pain comment plus advice really give could help seems hopeless us all notice many responses peoples posts,1 i used to have worse anxiety but it s been better since i started on adhd medication but every time i now have even small amount of anxiety that don t even amount to an anxiety or panic attack the next day i get really really bad fatigue like i get out of breath from walking across the room and my leg ache despite doing nothing i know tiredness after anxiety is normal but i m getting this after even small amount of anxiety when i didn t have this before even after a day long anxiety attack is this normal or should i book a gp appointment because i end up having to take day off school because of it btw i no longer have anxiety it really is just specific situation such a an anxiety attack about my phobia or even a phone call with a doctor appointment,1 another episode things went southim sure using acting anxiety depression way would talk since okay doesnt want talk me shes one reason still trying get makes everything better wherein pain doesnt really goes away gets easier carry whenever shes around even didnt know already suicidal before opened first time told someone felt comfortable telling her wanna talk bad dont want bother tell going right now might want talk cant think reason pity dont like thought it dont want draw attention friends really good hiding feel make happy comfort them fix problems whilst cannot myself feel like ending driving somewhere theres people harm hit tree sucks feeling various reasons past cannot explain words cannot see point purpose life tried ending last night sadly still woke ending writing this,1 i ve been eating on time but i feel like my main meal consisted of some food and depression,1 cuprohastes don t feed car milky way though they don t like it that advert wa very misleading breaking down on the a isn t fun,0 i am sorry i could not make it until june i have tried i am not strong enough this school is too unforgiving i am sorry,1 @TraceyMmm Uh oh - whooops LOL One down already here ,0 things n stuff yo im really sick people talking things know shit about getting panties twost tell something like irritating,0 ik random else feels fat arent im male lbs family tells im skinny bit feel like fact look kids feel much skinnier,0 hi wanna chat ill talk abt anything im still stuck horny jail kinda wanna stay ygm,0 Shoutout to depression naps lol,1 people dont speak english english st languagewhen suicidal thoughts never language idk always english weird often read posts english mind remembers that me someone please answer,1 id need dieits best solution really thoughts inadequacies gone instant cant die people die time many die suddenly without much pain all cant one lucky people,1 one day im going deadits hard think started self harming im fucking loser dont plan making year probably lack motivation even get shotgun talked girl recently ghosted while went date stopped burning cigarette night crazy bitch cant say dont miss though im loser rarely gets affection shell act like cares im dead get sympathy thats life see light end tunnel goes right fuck out,1 driven house theater sweltering heat could pleased road perdition directed sam mendes american beauty destined become one greatest movies time perhaps im getting old perhaps ive seen themes recycled time again movie indeed differentbr br the story opens young michael sullivan jr facing sea contemplating duality fathers legacy one best men ever live one evil duality snakes way throughout movie story revolves around crime boss john rooney paul newman michael sullivan tom hanks young man rooney took serves personal angel death rooney tied blood son tied love loyalty michael young michael jr intrigued stories reads steals away fathers car one night dad goes work connor rooney heir family business connor lets situation get hand meant warning turns murder witnessed michael jr upon discovery young michael seen seen plot set motion conflicting loyalties collide soon michael sr run young son pursued contract killer harlen the reporter maguire jude lawbr br i disclose details order avoid potential spoilers however strongly encourage viewers examine many dualities present movie problems sons fathers michael sr jr john rooney son connor world home world work good evil pretend men god really are clean money dirty town perdition perdition hell along way savor visual brilliance cinematographer conrad l hall nominations oscars best cinematography rain pouring fedoras shots mirrors especially swinging doors tommygun flashes shadows absent sound yearold hall given us perhaps best cinematic product career yearold paul newman offers one best performances everbr br yes may getting old ive seen lot fresh invigorating road perdition presents lasting loving tribute gangster genre films s dark comicbook figures lurking darkness villains heroes american film general go see it,0 wants to watch a movie. Who wants to accompany me? http://plurk.com/p/yqbo3,0 wanted talk someone suicidal thoughts one speak tomy depression suicidal thoughts essentially made completely isolated people used consider friend would go weeks cutting people due wanting talk depression so essentially cut ties lot great people today felt suicidal wanted call talk someone realized point absolutely one talk to enhanced idea kill right now know many people would notice realize gone,1 tiredwhats point writing know nonody reply,1 several time throughout almost every night just a i m dozing off my body jar me awake convinced it just saved me from drifting off into death my heart race my chest tight exhausted almost to tear i ll sit up put my hand on my chest take deep breath lay back down and repeat up to 0 time a night sometimes anyone else experience this or have any advice i can t hardly sleep anymore,1 @ShepardsFaith I shall annoyingly tweet at you tomorrow. ,0 mizzzidc la fisto healing from sneaker depression,1 movie amazing several reasons harris takes extremely awkward documentary turns relevant social commentary groovin gary smalltown kid assumed wellliked many impersonations decides play olivia newton john local talent show for passionate garys actions show odds conservative social environment lives results making various justifications actions people think fact transvestite social outcast second installment harris exploites struggle gary beaver novice attempt make narrative original documentary third final installment trilogy truly amazing harris extreme sensitivity subject unlike second installment the orkly kid shows gary truly troubled character struggles gain acceptance within community avail secret passion dressing like olivia newton john distances even people already consider social outcast movie depicted realistically that like reality lends many reactions surely one see gary ridiculously pathetic character may also identify outcast,0 i want the new gg episode already,0 crush like me crush epic game gril lik say yes halway date mcdonalds buy epic game kids us kid kid hav strok ned medisin halpydydisdbegs,0 anyone else ssris feeling like completely blocked creative thinking might coincidence creativity really bad now like cant think things anymoreim prozac btw,0 "girls in bed, watching Alias and getting ready to raid the fridge - blueberries, here I come ",0 im art commissions free im feeling generous today ive decided drawing character anime free yes free catch sign up nothing list anime character comments first people list commission done free bit promotion even add custom character anime character choice post reddit username message instagram ill tag commission drawings quality others done take time finish soon possible rules nudity gore must anime count l death note kuroyukihime accel world karma akabane assassination classroom felix re zero en dohedoro done closed thanks submitted commission post soon can,0 remember child first saw movie first horror movie maybe thats reason still remember parts it remember much acting nude scenes things remember male head blown grenade male dismembered tree male run truck shot head todd schaefer kenny johnson kevin mcparland also remember last scene jennifer mcallister riped killer stomach get keys truck movie gives creep worth look find it download it,0 gorls im desperate anything,0 @EthanSuplee How come we never ever see her face? ,0 Finally back home had a fun day at Arrowhead Mall with @Jamie_Cheroske @enbaldarlingg and @kevinwilliams,0 holy shit honkeymommymilkers must rich awards goddamn,0 @MattGLee ugh i've just been through all that.. it's the worst feeling! don't worry something better will come up ,0 slide dms coward f coward judge,0 im trying make summer best way earn money im want build pc,0 would still redflag choose die voluntary dehydrationi need list reasons im considering thats relevant question need someone tell reasons keep fighting keep going want that want keep going,1 compare movie industry ocean tendencies observe surface driven strong hollywood marketing force saw war movies like saving private ryan thin red line apocalypse full metal jacket underneath splashy waves grow silence time time less known pearls pick one look carefully it wonder pearl lie almost unknown already crownbr br stalingrad gem why bunch multimillion dollars rated actors no thousand extras no breathtaking spectacular shiny computerized visual effects all so whats special well one word pure past reality recreated transposed celluloid fifty years later tragedy bloody battle history here filthy wounded soldiers russian civilians lost everything invasion burning villages collapsing buildings decayed suburbs gunfires explosions tanks flames soldiers shot burned alive ground tanks pits shred pieces got all real horror elsewhere people reduced simple pawns without power change anything soldiers follow film try leave combat zone fail civilians stay prostration middle nowhere crying children killed mercyless huge grinding machine war melt together humans equipment villages cities ask victims destruction overbr br in collective insanity group german soldiers struggle survive keep least minimum level normality duty fight bravely but everyone know battle almost lost people start loose confidence faith see people abandoned plan desert struggle catch last plane berlin full wounded bad injured soldiers treated simulants shot forced execute small group russian civilians including young boy later discovered place literally full ceiling food drinks destined superior officers course one one drop dead end movie one bitter depressing touching ending ever saw magnificent score munich philarmonic orchestra war destroyed everything pathbr br this movie mustsee everyone true movielover hisher collection strong antiwar message must warning us unfortunately mankind never learn politicians selfdestruction dna human pain seem last forever enough reasonable stop war,0 "http://twitpic.com/6topt - @prettycool32 yeah hmm.. i think so, i've never been there before but it was like 3 caravans there haha",0 george floyd karen common cant breathe pls dox ,0 deal severe depression proving treatment resistant past years rumination redflag totally control tried almost ssrisnris prozac second time antidepressants seemingly nothing me like said rumination redflag totally ruining life benzos thing help cannot prescribed daily use thinking asking doc trying mood stabilizer low dose antipsychotic need slow brain down maybe low dose seroquel would able accomplish that curious meds helped guys get rumination redflag control desperate find something slow thoughts ease redflag thanks help medication helped rumination,1 tell parents tried kill long story short struggling depression anxiety years now got phone call randomly mum yesterday saying dad they split young wanted meet together talk must picked last couple years realised something right months prior though actually went holiday friends went home early one night intention killing ending all wrote notes drunk time actually slipped tile floor hotel knocked unconscious wake friends back hotel room gathered around me feeling stupid said slipped left early drunk since decided end came round read notes left parents couldnt stop crying thinking mum reading it question tell keep ,1 friend says im actively suicidalall complain skinny am sleep time work think quitting everything existing im exhausted,1 @JessicaAbrego well it makes me HATE them even moreee haha i ove how we are so maen to eachother loveeeyy you,0 @Ant_2009 Thanks for the comment! I'm glad you like the show!! ,0 shy introverts reddit could know would like conversation title self explaining lack social skills see self thats come reddit great advice ask irl online conversations edit introverted person well lonely times like these pandemic going nice social interaction opinion,0 setting people ,0 i m alone m i feel like ending it all i just want a girlfriend but i always get rejected i don t want sex or nude i want someone who i can care for and someone who can care for me,1 going harm minutes helpin minutes one year anniversary love ones death im religious plan meet side please help,1 "@trueheat Ok, I'll hit ya up when I get home, if you're around ",0 hi u wanna make big life decision without context choose ,0 @MrJoatmon You're very welcome Where are you trying to move to?,0 main support tired methis first time something like this im freshman college far home friends dealing depression anxiety long time started self harming years ago past months ive seriously considered redflag best friend always big support me different states seen since summer past week one worst weeks life hurt really badly began writing goodbye letters ready it tried reaching her always says wants to respond guy reason last week mom came parents weekend really think wouldve done otherwise anyway friend big long talk happened know level feels terrible needed most kept saying one point making things hard her put much pressure her im upset this think thoughts often constantly feel like burden shed better without me hearing actually say stuff made almost impossible go on days since incident kind distant unwilling discuss happened feel alone empty know would upset died im juts confused im working finding therapist the colleges wellness center made feel worse knows this reason ive open friend suicidal thoughts asked be im quite sure im hoping get posting this want alive anymore im asking save me reassuring im burden really enough long tendency answer hours stuff never bad never asked help best friend know without her know wants me anyone else dealt something similar continue work friendship let go let go practically alone want feel tied down know could use advice guess right feel like need end one deal anymore,1 weirdwas jump bridge today one fear ill kind consciousness afterlife regret dying strange that,1 someone understanding please if you re not i m sorry it ll only make it worse i don t want to vent about my problem because it ll make me break down i hope you understand,1 r i p baby girl sandra cantu my prayer r with the cantu family be strong,0 Depression and anxiety fucking suck while working,1 im fan tv movies general one good ones cast performances throughout pretty solid twists see coming commercial kind like medium meets csibr br did anyone else think certain lights daughter looked like young nicole kidman related way id definitely watch agin rent ever comes videobr br dedee great seen lot things job convincinglybr br if tv mystery movies check one chance,0 darknbold biolakazeem love and light from me too but i had to unfollow him on all his account so not to fall into depression too blaming mourinho not his fault it s the club that chose him over mourinho someone that should come out and humbly apologise to the club and fan before he leaf,1 please tell liveim stupid ugly depressing person even bother people talk cant stand cant hold relationship due insecurities,1 canti depressed basically whole life bullying help one bit daughter whos months old love death world im still dealing post partum depression recently quit job trust anyone watch fiance honestly know anymore nothing helps also anxiety thats add bonus fiance gets mad feel like fault honestly feel like growing apart feel like want anymore anyone talk to tell fiance gets upset cant feel like im good anymore look daughters eyes cry cant leave her cant stay here im stuck im scared even commit redflag honestly want live im really depressed,1 "Yasmina's chocolates were awful, but she's a bloody good apprentice ",0 am i going through depression again,1 dmurr emotional stability it will cater to a lot of depression and suicidal situation,1 coming homei want go home parents house also violent rude sister lives home anymore share kind opinion starts hit scratching me feel safe there bfs home also home feels like whole household job always fight says live without paying rent bc still go school money job feel wanted here feel lost parents understand see sick violent sister is think bf care feelings jas interest ask says loves anything else rather staying fight get beaten younger sister want anymore one year one damn year start working get home home place welcome feel well know long keep going want place feel loved welcome place want go home cut wrists bleed out bleeding pain out coming home,1 anyone thinks alone redflag optionin days first month since lost best friend redflag days would turned amazing didnt think really was thought alone one cared told us first time tried eventually wouldnt care one would come funeral two years went am th november got call changed life broke me disbelief got call didnt believe gone got house like would back later day call every one friends listen hearts break broke news them next night went crash site seen done started feel real seen shattered blue car parts everywhere night people stood around tree tears weeks go im reminded littlest things ill see something want message remember heart breaks again tuesday funeral worst day life started open coffin viewing family heart dropped finally real seen almost unrecognisable month old body beautiful best friend every time close eyes think gone image seen haunts me later funeral started listened everyone made impact short life hearts break brother held front coffin walked car every face room looked tears walked cemetery looked back people behind us people hurt cared beautiful man thought one lowed coffin took white rose hole said final goodbyes love fucking hurt everyday go lay grave hour everyday talk things missing looking forward to want everyone remember redflag doesnt end pain passes ones love remains,1 @forensicmama I know right. I don't remember what life was like before @HartHanson got a twitter.. LOL,0 must several years released know movies kid enjoyed it found vhs tape superman mole men flea market decided watch its lot years expecting much knowing b movies made time pleasantly surprised find movie watchable acting outstanding usual acting type movies leaves lot desired surprisingly writing bad either forget fact superman went sequence sequence could kicked butts beginning story would ended right ok mole men costumes hokey scary they even scare kid however making allowances probable low budget background costumes job well done all recognized sheriff right away old ranger death valley days plenty supporting roles tv westerns j farrell macdonald played old pop always great supporting actor movies count walter reed jeff corey familiar faces well movies recognize old doctor captain ship went get king kong recognize little girl rolling ball mole men lisbeth searcy old yeller mole men famous too jerry maren played mayor mccheese mcdonalds little oscar mayer munchkin handed dorothy lollipop seifeld episode wealth work billy curtis played unforgettable part clint eastwood high plains drifter one friends met star incredible shrinking man part movie luckily grabbed flea market titled gal sal rita hayworth wizard oz plenty parts great actor john brambury also munchkin phillis coates played lois lane movie without question wonderful part george reeves supermanclark kent superman great job playing strong man bottom line ive said movie worth watching cast writing dealing pretty flimsy idea movie s anything possible intruders outer space mole men inner space definitely worth seeing bad actor group whomever put cast together very fortunate get many gifted actors b type film already wealth experience obtain wealth experience gifted get chance see film forget dopey costumes enjoy excitement acting bird plane no good old fashioned movie enjoy,0 someone please talk memy girlfriend broke im much best friend told shes done cant keep supporting someone whos sad time mother told doesnt want talk anymore want support amp peace im struggling find way get without ending it,1 please help redditor immediatelythis woman said going end life tonight im therapist idea say afraid ill say wrong thing please help her httpwwwredditcomroffmychestcommentsackoli_just_need_to_rant_about_being_poor_and_infertile,1 going to watch UP w/lexany & my mama ,0 corporation listening concept quite simple employees wellbeing gt profit know foreign concept something make money nfl doesnt mean puts employees risk nfl,0 one small thing happens im ending lol,0 dont even know im still alivei chronic illness called cyclic vomiting syndrome imagine feeling nauseated days throwing them actually cant imagine know couldnt happened me strike time anxiety crazy worrying ill start another episode worst time teeth wearing away vomiting agoraphobic leave house might end uncontrollably puking passing stuck somewhere isnt home cure body given me big dreams life going playwright barely focus write nausea intense ive tried many antiemetic medications nothing worked ive going altredflagholiday file methods im thinking tossing cliff near house it sufficiently high stories thatd finish things pretty quickly still read ive reading thats thing keeps going im lonely anxiety torturous try distract it,1 feel like ive hit rock bottomabout week ago felt great things really started look me asked girl really like prom said yes spring break close plans friends past couple days though ive feel like shit ive never felt bad before ive seriously started thinking ways end it,1 guys gunman shoot me,0 found rage novel mentions suicidal thoughtsthe rage novel question herehttpwwwredditcomrragenovelscommentsqhi_seriously_think_about_it_on_a_near_daily_basis ive posted ask reddit herehttpwwwredditcomraskredditcommentsquzua_redditor_just_posted_a_ragenovel_that told link here figured hurt post something get advice all anything else doz edit far ive linked im assuming guy context comic redflag prevention website well here ive sent message mods reported link also,1 point idea life lol alittle tired thinking do wanna take break everything abit able to crazy times nice day everyone cheer d,0 feel like thisi get depressed reason mental health hate it push that stressed cant fix problem cant handle issue stress criticism well spiral control want die disappear would truely care vanished,1 think death lotand wonder happens afterwards reincarnated different racenationalityreligionsex a new born present time a new born future a new born past an unhealthy newborn rare disease terminal illness genetic disorder eg cerebral palsy syndrome reincarnated animal like insects nd chances to back time specific life changing decisions made wim sleep deprived stoned think to restart life getgo religion christianity right eternal damnationhell islam right hell right equivalent hell nothingness like life never existed would point studying learning pretty hard stuff know im going cool inventor nobel prize winner something change world grandscale remembered history or wikipedia darwins law but pass wicked monstrous genes carries sick thoughts wierd fantasies plus unhealthy lazy way living torturing mind everyday sick demented thoughts self loathing hatred pagan beliefs my soul roam earth specified time supposed die my spirit haunt home family problems life carry afterlife except impossible try solve dead as much regret many things end regretting death itselffor eternity island called lost think my problems carry afterlife forever haunted past mistakes especially killing self consciousness awake time period many cool things going internet memes video games anime tv shows never perfect time born last decades entertained cons sort outweigh pros mind almost months thinking redflag like pretty much everyday killing me world fucked millions people die every fucking day accidents illnesses homicides redflags starvation silly wars piece fucking land oil corporations suck living life little people diseases hate greed child trafficking child abuse strangers families mental illnesses think might die weeks,1 back bullshitspent whole year trying recover particularly bad ocd episode came back fucking vengeance know im going make one,1 kramer kramer kramer kramer,0 look like i ve missed out on yet another job someone please employ me haha,0 sick everyone sick life sick nobody giving two damns mei one none friends care me thought could depend on guess not none spoken two months soon start feeling down ignore me hell ever deserve crap get dished ive ever done supportive friend want friend cares me screw life worth go every day alone expect responses ive never gotten two months people thought cared me would complete strangers give crap loser like me cant breathe anymore anxiety crushing me,1 suspect friend mine suicidal close dohe already depressed met were close friends talk it know say do edit makes difference became depressed broke girlfriend three four months ago,1 sad day manu out for the season,0 arab teens arab brethren dm want talk fellow arab,0 my life is a total shitshow i had an abusive childhood physical mental and emotional abuse complete neglect and ignoring from my father and overbearing manipulation from my mother religious abuse because of the way i wa raised i wa sexually molested in high school i went from that life experience straight into unexpected motherhood and eventually a marriage that quickly became toxic but i loved him so much that i couldn t even acknowledge the abuse that wa happening more kid later i watch them living through their own childhood hell and i tried so hard to fix everything but it just kept getting worse being used worsening mental and emotional abuse trying to carry the demand and unhappiness of someone who refused to get help for their diagnosed mental issue and i began losing myself in my own anxiety and depression after year of escalating mistreatment and abuse my husband told me he wanted a divorce the following month were a nightmare i found out he wa cheating on me and went through more abuse during the process of separation i fell completely apart emotionally and began having multiple panic attack a day i couldnt eat or sleep i had heart attack brought on from the stress my husband wa still living in our house at the time but didnt even show concern or acknowledge that i almost died i wa back at work the following monday he took all the money and spent what little i made at time i couldn t even feed my kid my daughter wa buying food at school so she and her younger brother could eat i fought tooth and nail for my marriage trying so hard because even though he treated me like shit he wa my world and i loved him he had been my rock throughout my teen year helping me get through the abuse and trauma at home only to become the same type of father himself i tried to help him to help my kid and i loved them all with my entire being trying to be the glue that held u all together but i couldn t fight the inevitable my entire life wa torn apart he divorced me leaving me with our traumatized suffering kid and our broken down house to assuage his guilt i sought help because i wa self harming and suicidal i wa diagnosed with a slew of mental condition including depression anxiety and ptsd i wa not a functioning human being for at least a year i barely remember that time of my life other than the agony and feeling like a walking corpse i mourned the death of who i had been the last few year since then have been nothing but struggle too my house had already been falling apart but thing just kept worsening electrical line not working that meant no oven full size refrigerator or dish washer no air conditioning no heat no hot water a pool that is dilapidated and look like a swamp there are so many issue with the house and i can t afford to fix them those are just a few none of the paperwork wa filed by my ex either so although it s mine according to the decree it s still listed a legally his i pay a mortgage in his name i can t afford to change thing with a lawyer i make so little money i can t keep my head above water to even keep our basic need met and even though it cost too much my mortgage is still cheaper than the cheapest bedroom apartment anywhere near me i cant sell it because it in his name anyway my ex is no longer in our life i m trying to find a job that pay a decent wage but i have no college degree i need to make at least k to be able to make it and i ve applied at literally hundred of place with nothing but scam replying positively my relevant work experience is over year ago and my current job ha literally zero room to grow or increase income i hate my job my kid are mostly grown but still live at home my daughter is in college she took out loan and scholarship my oldest ha his own mental issue that prevent him getting a job my youngest is in high school i ve filed for forbearance and now am thousand behind on the house we are of the brink of losing everything if i can t pay it all back because the loan can t be modified since it in his name and i can t refinance without an up to date loan within the next few month we are facing possible homelessness in the last couple year i met a guy who i am close to although we are long distance i fell for him hard and he encouraged me in my feeling but ended up basically leading me on i got my heart broken again i hadn t thought i could care for someone again after all i had been through but being burned again especially from this man ha left me with ash instead of a heart yet i can t turn off how badly i just want to be loved and how much i care for him he s still in my life a a friend but it s painful my heart is just so far beyond simply broken i don t think i can ever recover after all i ve been through it seems like almost every day something else go wrong thing break at my house not small thing major one today it wa my daughter s laptop that she need for school and me losing my next to last pair of contact that i can t afford to buy more of just when it seems like thing might not improve but at least be okay something else happens that knock u down even further i m working job but we are bleeding money so badly i can t keep up and i am just so tired of trying to exist i hate my life the only reason i haven t killed myself is because of my kid i love them more than anything and i feel so awful for feeling this way when i know how much they love me and how i love them i m terrified of slipping back into self harm i cant cope i m in excruciating emotional pain and the stress is overwhelming i have panic attack i can t sleep i ve had to stop buying my medication because my daughter need it more my son could use mental help but i cant afford it i just need to vent to scream that i am not okay that i can t make it i m so tired so tired and i just want it all to stop i just want the nightmare of my life to end there is no more light to be found the light at the end of the tunnel really is a freight train in my experience i am broken lonely unhappy in complete despair and i feel worse than beat down i feel like roadkill like im crushed and lifeless and not even reconizable a something that wa once alive and yet still the tire come to grind me deeper into the pavement endlessly i feel worthless unlovable hopeless oddly enough i still volunteer at church but even though i still go and serve there i don t believe any of it anymore because my life ha been so bad for so long and it just keep getting worse and worse not for day or week or even month or year literal decade of trauma a lifetime of it and still it get worse i dont know how to keep going every day it s harder and harder i ll probably delete this because i already feel so exposed but i just needed to try to get it out i just want it to stop i just want it all to stop,1 @_ANNiCA_: Alchi!! 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Woo hoo Rio (G.M.B),0 deal negative emotions talk trusted friend get help express negative feelings physical activities hobbies non harmful outlets let stack behind face throat twist unhealthy rage causes break blow slightest inconvenience,0 everything feels like much effort hate myself everything would better dead want die,1 so i ve been dealing with anxiety since 0 i m diagnosed anxiety panic disorder and can t take med tried once and yeesh never ever again by doctor direction my own discretion noticed ever since getting off zoloft mg i only took it for day but it hit me like a bus and i had to immediately stop due to medical reason i dissociate all the time now and i hate it i lose track of time what i wa doing prior sometimes where i m sitting what s going on around me any tip would be helpful note yes i ve tried mindfulness exercise yoga meditation the whole list,1 @kisscriss thats a good thing <3,0 Watching the simpsons ,0 get sort way depressed miserable way get trappedi want end it safe more demons creeping again seeing things corner eye whispers screaming kind screaming sounds like person terrified go away screams heart unsteady ragefilled heart object pedophile nothing real it cant tell cant know sure love family em ive got people never understand me theyre ive got doubt theyre real right nothing real nothing right please forgive me im begging let go death mean think stand alone this blood dripping arms memories peace get cant even anymore savior savior,1 anxiously awaiting june th it can not come soon enough my graduation ceremony am not looking forward to the 0th end of my break,0 pokemon black white anime underrated gem httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvvmapluzchttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvvmapluzc,0 Just finished with a little booty duty that was a work out. Now I'm hungry. .,0 at church. blaring dallas green's voice in my car. ,0 first world problems im happy lifefirstly compared lot people subreddit bad all im broke friends goalshobbies im extremely ugly either really much life wanted it stuff ive done make mom happy im child parent tell happy me im taking sweet time trudging grad school putzing around jobs unrelated field money hobbies want stressed iron firsted asian parent never really coddled me really something talk her last time hugged her probably tell also quite jealous sisters daughters gotten married even first boyfriend yet ive made attempts dating sake boring me thing last night got really drunk especially depressed kind started making plans assets would go really good goals kind want end it feel like great things going me feels empty meaningless ,1 apparently stop speaking girl treats better anyone else bc age girl really like going date soon getting like super close shes im apparently according people stop get her even tho completely legal england even regards age im next april shes june im shes meaning bad even tho people think weird af like youre speaking someone treats well dont stop unless illegal private life aint ones business,0 suicidal all weekend watched the infamous funky town gore video i m usually ok with gore and death but that wa horrific made me think could that be me in hell for eternity i mean if human could do something that drawn out and horrific there s no telling what would be in store down there and all because i couldn t handle the cruelty of human nature,1 feel foolish posting here well much suppose want go bad things life boring one wants hear itits selfish take peoples time could helping someone else someone talk to think talk things anymore making worse ruining them matter much protest am much would better shut mouthanyways relapsed hard last night even trying stay sober point whatever kind proud havin super new wounds felt good always feel shitty telling friend like keep lot them do make happy everything getting worse might well write suicide note believe shit want anything people hold onto hopes keeping memory around keep trying yk body makes hard know want now sure work unsure when tonight sometime soon want go though anything anymore whatever going live probablyfill empty everything blood n alcohol lolmy life going go anywhere body ruined future hurting person staying around for reason like final gift everyone around me ig surprisedf come back memorable enough thought long lol ,1 scrolling feed apart suicidal thoughts well times separate think outside see tortures mind do regrets challenges pain suffering becomes heightened happiness trying obtain happiness states mind seems useless brain hard thing manage sometimes look cat non human living beings think lovely existence think much must ironic mind intelligent also makes cruel,1 Good Morning Tweeties xx ,0 oi im true nerf war veteran im real og even call pro use poop battle camo cum substitute bullets,0 random nonsence head day russia big ass,0 know doso im sure goes here ive got serious depression treat anyway sometimes choke take pills never enough od hate myself im liar loser cant talk people going way comfort zone already feel useless would die one would really miss me thing keeps alive girlfriend im starting feel like burden her,1 noticed clothes either black white except one pink tshirt cause eboy one beige tshirt black white lol,0 please help depression feel like im alone want end need advice,0 one talk feel tired day tried meet girls rejected want happy,1 dead many timeswhy keep surviving understand want die something occasions died didnt,1 made survivei started life easy mode come well family ive made college every little thing gives huge anxiety fall apart face set backs think made live life im incapable it people much harder fine im failure im cut life,1 im problemi want cut open dead,1 abandoned people called friends know right thing wanted say mean stuff said you mean it thought makeng hate would easier hope great best fun like remember love bb drunk none see anyway,1 version bleak house best adaptation classic novel known me representation court chancery character drama magnificent acting marvellous sinister tulkinghorn dedlocks smallweed crooke miss flyte two young lovers spiders web chancery holds whole thing together cinematography superb mistake bbc make copyright meant version could seen uk either video dvd many years tried find them faced stone wall end got dvd copy canada,0 need someone talk toi havent really talked depression thoughts anybody pressure finding apprenticeship go higher education much really need someone talk take herhis time talk bit me thanks,1 close relationship someone hard close relationship ship wit someone ive pretty much given up sayin want gf someone dont keep secrets,0 HAH it's a whole depression day i'm gonna go Cry My Eyes Out in a tiny bathroom cubicle see you later sisters,1 four years amd still feel dead insidemet girl together almost three years kid loved little guy momma too two years later left guy met two weeks prior new job walmart left homeless reduced mere visitor son two year old son year later hostility grown powerful made clear longer welcome childs life got lawyer rich parents got one too realized would never win case courtus courts classist family court antifather gave up four years keep mind much anyways yet always comes back haunt me family audacity ask start dating again like want see start new life experience pain losing second one again even willing date again ive become miserly bitter person everyday pray cancer i know diety hears them never go doctor hopes might die someday well fuck could write book know shit get read anyways probably get deleted maybe someone worth saving talked instead want ride motorcycle concrete wall mph good news ive started siezures recently maybe health finally fucking fail probably bullshit fatal fuckery,1 simple question cut hair cut hair,0 went taco bell ass fire jesus christ fucking hurts help,0 todays birthday finally join sub im happy,0 wasted potentialthrowaway things bad ive spent last days empty room contemplating pistol bought home protection reasons failing myselfmy mom dog want know growing moreabstract skip history im write like goes ill tldr end ive therapy antidepressants alcoholism since teenager real reason why great childhood pony gods sake top class every year without even trying bored lonely terribly popular child used alone parents great kind people friends would come advice support every teacher loved told wait see would become well became year old stripper drinking problem went college tried study art get bed whole semester failed out went therapy got prozac tried again got depressed failed out got series physically emotionally abusive relationships smart tormented men attracted brokenness violence saw myself nice man could ever like understand me bored them things got darker rougher got hurt lot finally attempt distance myself moved across country tried start over immediately hooked thought great guylong story short ended hospital covered stitches blowout fight car chase redflag attempt got mad quit dating started taking krav maga became known scary chick class year krav started stripping loved it loved talking people loved dancing loved freedom money travel met great guy things looking cheated best friend back zero me lost anger took bed like ridiculous victorian flower months passed finally enough booked tickets exotic city fabulous vacation threw ring lying bastard given ocean met amazing women felt healed last night there met man got talking turned city back home i felt like fate felt like fucking soul mates sure drinking problem world very long depressing story short years later left without word got phone call hearing week hed moved thousands miles away id thought dead guess appreciate call brings us now nearly two months cannot get it two months ago talking marriage love life gone years pulling depressed ass mud bootstrapsi more never works never lasts im attracted wrong things still well work literally thing gets bed go pretend someone else listen problems men come go drink world little softer dread going work im there dread going home anything offer anyone spend day night writing crying im emptied out stare wall im exhausted enough sleep im sleeping easily hours day now plans ambitions cant get excited travel always savior cant get mad cant paint im getting much thin corner ive painted getting much small im old start again me dont even know could do long employment gap credit never graduated college acquaintances real friends im terribly uncomfortable talking emotions anyway last therapist went see told treat much liability want get meds again either make ragey lose memory even im misery id prefer remember it im thinking guess trying commit psych ward hours least environment would change know would help im tired tldr lifetime bad choices energy ideas desire get it living days honestly getting painful really prefer die see another option thank listening,1 hope know im sorryim hoping see this cant face tell truth im sorry came want damage keep causing over really care you im really sorry making choice dont want think options point im sorry hope someday forgive,1 orange man bad orange man bad ok hand karma,0 explaining dreams everyday something cool happens day almost forgot today dream weird one im weird world massive carrots towering everything rest land bright green grass one large concrete tunnel spanned entire area tunnel half underground cant remember anything else besides area looked like one person it person doofenschmirtz phineas ferb dont know though,0 cant bear pain anymore fun friendsyet yeet,1 need s help with this anxiety crap,0 want end pain cannot get happy anymore want lay die nobody loves cares alone fighting battle far long time end it given long ago ill never happy guys know expect guys care wanted put final goodbye people know ill finally free end people much happier gone cannot seem find happiness anymore,1 living everyonei plan this circumstances heavily me way anything going get better next years im forced live family brining end me nobody know helping me one cares living everyone,1 http://twitpic.com/6vf2y - My favorite puppy Panda with his eyes open! ,0 a blackened sky encroached tugging behind it my depression,1 part thankful able successfully it first time numb happened fell onto floor hurt knees wrists second time earlier week really upset afterwards called hotline tell isolating due covid want go hospital not sure would even allowedi sleeping part past days maybe telling try survive going do still dealing lot ideation going keep practicing guitar see goes self harm still big issue need sort well survived two hanging attempts month maybe sign,1 I found my Barnes & Noble gift card! Bought myself this: http://twurl.nl/jss41t Can't wait to receive it! It should really help.,0 concince wash hair two weeks dont even like clean know should please help,0 "Exercise can prevent depression, no matter your age or gender The finding is important because it could help reshape health policy, putting a greater emphasis on exercise to allay malaise. https://ift.tt/2qYemo7  via Quartz",1 High income reduces #depression risk for #Whites but not #Blacks. by @assarish http://www.mdpi.com/2227-9032/6/2/37 …,1 want lovedevery girl talk ends ghosting me school theres rumor im gay cant take more im pussy cant talk girls want kill im pussy too family understand thinks im old enough date want someone love tell everythings going fine ocd consuming life literally cant take step without getting intrusive thoughts make things make feellook like complete idiot know anymore cry every night sister thinks im stupid try talk one else talk to read all want thank,1 @TheBloggess Hi all! I'm a mad scientist (literally) trying to balance a PhD and depression. I have pet ducks and collect oddities like a replica velociraptor skull named Arthur which spellcheck insists is really a 'velocipede' (WTF spellcheck) #letsbefriends,1 tums u much acid gut something many ad vibes brain mean theres drugs alcohol that sadly im clean boi music gonna best ,0 stay chin hurts trying sleep ill get hours think,0 movie quite pleasant surprise anticipated long time afraid going possibly live expectationsbr br it exceeded thembr br i adored moviebr br hilarious start finish stay end credits absolutely remarkable movie dumb annoying characters intelligent witty engagingbr br with obvious matte paintings movies future earth recalls planet apes series scifi movies erabr br in fact movie essentially planet apes people mental equivalent apesbr br it moves fairly brisk pace luke wilson carries movie quite well character recalls one played bottle rocket theres even notsosubtle nod bottle rocket early scenebr br maya rudoulph also surprisingly good former painter frozen wellbr br despite strengths idiocracy distinct feel movie taken away directoreditor could finetunedbr br i cannot life understand movie funny would dumped theaters advanced screenings trailers marketing whatsoeverbr br its studio decided going spend walked awaybr br or maybe thought movie makings cult classic way become true cult classic set fail br br whatever case shame mike judge film particular deserve betterbr br i predict movie real legs dvd word mouth propel success deservesbr br perhaps fox executives saw characters confused thought documentary,0 wanna die wanna live eithermy life really bad ive lost everything made happy people love love anymore im really scared death wanna die life bad hurt emotionally everyday hate living,1 i thoroughly enjoyed Up. that movie made my day. ,0 dont wanna die dont wanna live eitheri dont see point,1 one best movies come hk long time eagerly waiting get hands movie looking title loads fantastic actors show particularly impressed sam lees impossibly believable insane behavior edisons portrayal killer machine totally reversed normal idol image would definitely recommend looking stylish action packed movie however must warn you also equally depressing movie every character movie kind dead end trouble own struggling breathe makes think life really,0 live way long days year supposed live this thought motivated thought something would change nothing changed life worse last year cry almost everyday loneliness time give attention talk me people supposed understand even cant hate life say care me dont even know name killed tomorrow know existence meaning ending seems like best option even though know best option courage it pathetic,1 reach out tohey everyone posted seeking clear honest guidance feel like view ask friends help distorted weekend yesterday ive edge ive self harmed im extremely suicidal know deep im scared it wish dead know reach friends this need support im anxious telling anyone due worrying ill see attention seeking exaggerating ive called friend usually reach low moods times busy chat made feel even alone feel stuck basically words say ask help,1 even longtime shirley fans may surprised now forever movie filmed paramount studios shirleys parent company twentieth century fox fox producer darryl zanuck perfected successful shirley formula cute songs cold hearts melt young couples play cupid to happy endings thus now forever falls category shirley vehicle without standard shirley story awkward position movie impressive talented cast makes workbr br gary cooper carole lombard star funloving irresponsible con artists jerry toni day thing devoted yet dysfunctional duo seems hate together apart suddenly landed custody jerrys young daughter penny shirley temple toni penny many believe persuades jerry give criminal career jerry flounders desk job desperate prove provide new family soon returns thieving dishonesty standard shirley device penny tries melt heart crusty curmudgeon felix evans victim one jerrys cons attempt fails evans revealed con artist himself blackmails jerry helping steal jewels drama gunfight death sorrow follow make film unusual one little miss sunshine happy ending dancing one song sequence the cute number the world owes livingbr br but mean shirley fans avoid now forever rather divergence usual shirley story make interesting memorable many films beware avoid colorized version film see blackandwhite can color bright garish unrealistic many scenes shirleys famous curls actually red instead blonde yikes,0 Woot! Cant wait for sunday ,0 im really trying hold onim convinced im going go nowhere life im tired im mentally physically drained im trying hold onto reasons wanna stay alive like friends cat sister know care me hard bad thoughts getting louder louder point drowns positive ones really want anymore want keep living keep used hurt im tired feeling like failure want anymore,1 need sum help hi guys first time posting here well anyway told id starting mock exams weeks im known procrastinating whole lot im looking advice anything appreciated,0 movie everything typical horror movies lack although things far fetched dealing quality snow man engineers preview reveal cant wait jackzilla dare say oscar winner perfect date movie advise men nice romantic surprise see movie special person,0 feel anything anymorei make connections people anymore im quick temper sometimes otherwise solemn never feel happy sometimes laugh things emotions anymore feel nothing ive like literally years now thought would change back point used outgoing person unlimited energy wide social circle loved spending time people nothing care anything hedonism distraction feel stuff anymore either,1 Thx 4 RT @jbuchana: Passive Suicidal Depression – I Wish I Didn't Wake Up - https://goo.gl/78Xxmd  #bipolar #mentalhealh #mentalillness,1 suicidal thoughtshow get stop ive struggled years years every time life stress come back medication seems stop them depression anxiety please help can,1 im home alone for the first time in a while cant help but to think now is the time to do it hate my mind think this way but idk how else to think,1 i dont want to go to school tomorrow for an exam after having one and a half week off,0 corona time yeahhh covid feel like shit happy days,0 normal everytime suicidal thoughts feel happy peace,0 three months ago psych hospital attemptand made things worse,1 im basically endi dont think anyone really help me,1 "Mom's depression tied to kids' emotional, intellectual development http://dlvr.it/QQmx4Y  pic.twitter.com/1Bq2PAvWAG",1 hello againi much want die hate inconsistency one day ill super confident ill polite funny feel like myself like week disappears reason feel completely brain dead ive suicidal whole life may seem petty suppose really much live for every day feels like dream lot due caring much alive feel like much potential happy confident ill much myself something happens sudden feel like complete garbage also really hate myself addicted self harm redflag seems like lil solution know nothing crazy yeah probably wont kill soon know fact die perhaps actually soon hope staying healthy way,1 might sound dumb idea difference pickles cucumbers,0 day posting random fun facts everyday forget get bored henry box brown escaped slavery american south mailing freedom friends pack small box ship cargo richmond philadelphia survived went work magician nice day ,0 life complete standstill wont matter im alive deadseriously last two years rough me worked ass last months make everything nice people stopped smokingdrinking got rejected interview today result caused big red mark profile cant anything anymore im drunk decided worth anymore,1 pwease marry senpai im lonely need loveee oh senpai screams ohhhhh ssenpai thats a moans loudly senpai pwease butts donut hhole,0 Michelle Stafford is an AMAZING actress. Just thought everyone should know that. ,0 drank drinks feel great little less sad maybe even brave enough finish job tonight knows going drink really like vodka drunk brave,1 twiggassssssss i been out of range all day i m back now and hopefully for good,0 hate myselfi hate fucking much human garbage vermin must exterminated complete failure every level without talent intelligence personality humor success purpose without anything really without value actually thats wrong negative value waste resources others actual need could use bitch moan expense around me id wasting time anyone reads anyway pathetic sense also thusfar failed myself thusfar failed kill myself understand people could enjoy existence understand one could love themselves atleast could wanna die badly know deserve im destined cant stop fucking stalling time like bitch,1 need yalls advice apology hey rteenagers need advice apology already sent girl hurt past would guys mind take look it thoughts would appreciated apology listen dont really know got point across march apologized last done really hard thinking past several months believe me summer one hardest portions this constantly thinking past wrong except times friends side then like that nothing mattered days got back home thought everything more venting ashton tonight actually scared thinking gonna myself entirely intention swear wouldnt him gone through stemmed back one problem havent able get past multiple years now frankly starting affect much dont know feel same quarantine changed everything im politically motivated somewhat fit kinda ironic ngl considering state affairs last spoke starting delve theology starting better myself thought maybe maybe repair seventh grade pride spiteful attitude time respectively trying hurt spite anger lack pride since regained guess point telling life specifics happened ashton past hours feel like screwed everyones including my lives process whatever happened seventh grade wish part group again made peace ryan admittedly big step considering pure hatred past unsubstantiated all wish us least speaking terms more miss had friendship mean cried first time long time tonight long night recalling terrible things selfish arrogant ass past truly brings name shame names siblings came me majority honour actions years ago again truly sorry truly horrid things put seventh grade hope youll forgive maybe could friends least speaking terms im sorry super lengthy get everything chest yknow ive carrying burden years decided time release all youre really good person heart seems like much changed since last spoke friendly terms still good artist again sorry things you arrogance pride got better me hope maybe speaking terms friends group kinda misses you know miss friendship that formally apologize several years ago,0 want kill myselfi want kill happened back parents started showing attention siblings me bad gradually disconnected started staying room day playing video games started going without come oldest younger sister started hurting eg kicking me punching pinching complained parents nothing one day kicked hard possibly could complained jack shit hit back hitting shouting screaming shit like boys shouldnt hit girls asked hit said take like man game sister idea could hurt get away continued horrible thing experienced couple weeks ago full bottle mine mothers body wash sink fucking mixture fucking years old laughed parents left said wasnt paying didnt yeah dont want shitty family ive assholes general annoy school time friend slammed football face purpose laughed called weird blocked him theres ton shit could barely write without breaking apart need advice want kill badly right,1 regalkimi we re still clear of man united in everyone s book amp in refent time the world man united is nothing but i bin get class of 9 smaller than wolf plus a trophyless club that give pogba nightmare amp depression he had to shave his hair ratio,1 insults better proper english shall insult proper fine victorian english thine cunt rancid smell rotten egg,0 yall talking nut november many people shave november,0 fucking panic attack shower recommend was taking hot shower middle hot sunday start think feeling loneliness ive long you guess much social distancing helped nothing extraordinary years old never kissed girlvery afraid talk new people im working therapy talked friends while felt joy year etc suddenly realize heart beating fast fast someone standing shower first time happened never got used it start focus breathing and while heart goes less desperate rhythm gotta say man think depresso pills job wish could stop feeling like time dont worry intend carbonara sayonara,0 sad go hospital wontwell last night feeling awful took tylenol sleep aid mg clonzepam bad kill obviously fall asleep right away ignore world worked well woke extremely dizzy okay thats pointless backstory really want kill myself ever before today seems like great day money house mess friends s km away one would even notice days im tired alive dealing unfair im done course cant kill oding drugs awful id probably throw up alive impossible cruel case wondering reason im edge right girl im good friends went date last night know care like like that made upset jealous top off kept secret knew would upset me alive deserve want be edit umm hi guys clue anyone see this im alive worry im honestly surprised many people messaged commented appreciate lot im feeling bit better every day struggle guess yesterday much thanks again,1 "@dannyatticus aha, I love the sunshine it covers everything in a beautiful golden feeling ",0 yo boy sub still virgin idk seems like every time browse sub yes never gf idk work arse studying play videogames watch shows anime listen s metal bands workout weird btw thanks reading first person comment v gets free award cause,0 feeling extremely suicidali suicidal get feelings atleast weekly fear something impulsively,1 dorecently ive thoughts redflag im sure depression kicking imagine situations would easier gone life keeps dragging seems like nothing going way grades dropping work life getting worse im happy myself know talk to want parents think differently this friends im lost need guidance talk hard reach out do,1 hmmive around short time ever cared learn one day could something improve lives around me never sought luxury though comparatively may live way brief period wanted sate curiosity friends possibly family try burden let depression take hold me however toil struggle enough maintain existence never time branch out make something better much life must sacrificed order obtain freedom measure ones worth continually conflicted part wants perish yet another strive chaotic nature sufferable far journey met many people boy boasts knowledge yet suffers braggadocios ways woman abused husband child live grandmother abusive parents lives wasted ignorance strive make world better place view world however happens unable view paths better yourself find sad find break chains despite skills appear meaningless even use help myself everything world must proven documented testament worth appears days document takes indentured servitude document takes freedom pursuit happiness pursuit leads serfdom back wrong do work full time go college done lot power self sufficient pay bills taxes rent insurance wrong myself believe sacrificed friendship pursuit love begun consume drive away family desire become better cost significant amount time wasted nearly youth seek options none tenable current state began believe one dream must take other happy uncertain takes lot live own done years taken toll mental state mind dance edge now waiting slip it wait wait time break contract binds me though view redflag selfish act still considering years going depression depression force drag let guard down strike time say pretty funny however creates world way lays ground work know me makes us venerable answer uncertain possibly world still undeveloped unavoidable mindset think work slaved reality meaningless purpose meaningless job exhausted myself drive either live kill myself pitiful really,1 people make freinds iv never one scared ask someone friend im afraid ill mess make life worse,0 @merejames yeah could see how pics might provide more problems.. LOlz but probs no less ,0 late s french study disaffected youth in early s actuallygrown up yet settled adult world probably missed mark mile terms accurate depiction french youth dont virtually youth films made adults this ones dontrivers edge comes mind rare indeed directorwriter marcel carne les enfants du paradis fame accurate observer humanity provide insightful view essence characters sense details importantyou could change details set film today would work wellbut loneliness insecurity superficial passion selfrighteous anger characters captured well young pierre brice jeanpaul belmondo supporting roles leads jacques charrier laurent terzieff pascale petit andrea parisy play roles subtlety depth also fine jazz score get cd jazz parisjazz cinema vol unlike commented film really see directorwriter carne sitting judgment charactershe seems though objective observer me course middleclass characters may seem like people spoiled nothing whine workingclass viewers film think carne certainly aware this american viewer i watched dubbed fairly literally id say version titled cheaters film provides interesting window france s also selfconsciously poetic the scene ledge saving cat one example this intellectual aspirations charming way french films get away withi imagine heavyhanded melodramatic shallow way kind material would handled american studio production sensationalistic moralistic suggestive way kind material would handled american driveinexploitation filmmakers feel marcel carne captured essence period between say high school graduation when ones early s people largely settled routine whatever routine may be willing watch film open mind fire away many easy targets offers find serious valuable study people early twenties even want that go room film playing simply enjoy fine soundtrack great s jazz instrumental pop including wonderful original score american jazz philharmonic group including coleman hawkins dizzy gillespie stan getz spelled goetz credits roy eldridge ray brown,0 whats point mean know grand point personally whats point dont anything left fight forive grown much grief constant pain everyday theres nothing brings source happiness even contentment im incapable holding onto relationships mentally im plagued panic heavy heavy depression physically auto immune issues stomach problems add fatigue drained energy identity wise ive never felt comfortable skin dont really care more im glad lot people one thing would want to thats great think guess doesnt exist wish would doesnt ive always wanted one thing thing would make life desirable again worth fighting for isnt part problem think used me turn created horrid perpetual cycle grief internal pain dont want live anymore im grateful years ive had ive made pretty far im exhausted maybe thats okay wish best dont plan im guessing time will im tired pushing feel better completely honest you dont believe better real thing,1 morning all starving and dying for a cuppa but can t co off to doc for fasting blood test in a little while,0 no travoradio this morning blipfm is down http bit ly ch xr,0 help meeee alt account ran away cage sub need guys help find it maybe hell come senses name ukarmeeee,0 descent madnessas look back life see failure failure one another kid fought time when tiniest kid around getting picked on regardless still get picked on hell sometimes someone literally rub cow shit overalls shop class regardless thats reason view life failure failure society consider first failure came got rejection letter rejection letter different schools dumbass procrastinated submissions lead joining military father said going fail way kind right joined military picked drinking like fish water got legal issues got honorably years since get shape drinking habit go combat see time much accomplishment tell is maybe believe then besides one biggest mistakes would come right military three months got working shit job retail store brother convinced start school fucking itt tech really need tell thats failure right anyways deep realized probably quit itt ended getting associates degree transferring actual state university continue studying found associates degree useful blank piece paper start square one called failure number three number two came year form dui drinking habit picked up failure number four would come year starting university via totaled car wrecking car left messed up regardless though quit drinking months started back continued onto several incidents one went road almost totaled car no drinking involved drunk let friend drive car didnt drink resulted blown engine useless car failure number buy dollar truck get get money fix car realize im good major chose leads failure number eventually graduate years two cars later one ive replaced blown engine roll year later months surgery call failure number also time im sure drinking caused wreck tried kill myself point im feeling like worse breathalyzer beat truck im seriously thinking hanging myself right wreck tell brother go ahead take gun range keep house longer trust cannot trust alcohol since wreck stop drinking touched drop since months ago failure number came via failure submit forms resulting raise rent thus move point depression officially diagnosed im starting antidepressants yet im still distracted mind somewhere else thats wrecked truck find insurance lapsed license suspended point im thinking one thing end it go freeway over call brother help completely break car thoughts jumping stealing gun kept running head jumping traffic hanging somewhere seemed theme way february start new job basically placed little hope left tried best seemed like going succeed become permanent employee three weeks ago go meeting im told numbers average theyre going extend temp time days later get email friday night telling go work temp contract ended theyve chosen hire full time all depression going full swing getting news via email help all keep thinking thoughts im unemployed seems taking bigger toll expected meds somewhat work thoughts still there follow through im tied need someone know,1 Watching goldmember http://myloc.me/2d4X,0 carei great life w girlfriend im alcoholic stop drinking want ruin relationship years im tired myself,1 hey guys car think get dads golf r powerful newest the fastest awd pontiac fiero gt swapped engine put little power late s early s mustang camaro theyre really cool cars different reasons also parents or least dad onboard options,0 licks lips the guy whos lips im licking what hell,0 driving to my parent and chilling with them well the sun is shining but i don t feel so well today,0 "fiona, alanis, imogen, regina... check. but the new recommendations are great to know! 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",0 want kill im scared painokay first off dont want get comments get better bs want need advice thats all tried get plastic bag head run front fast moving vehicle im scared pain dont know happen survive want painless death more less,1 tf bad say dont like gay people bring sexuality time dont get it ive friend constantly bringing gay found annoying tf bad find annoying makes sense,0 im fucking sick redflag hotlineim depressed im mentally ill even want die want live want finish school go college want get job kids get married decision based emotions based facts loosen bad redflag is besides loss world die im another waste space whatnot,1 say movie said comments here pretty much sum everything people love cherish it people hate it well loathe it movie equivalent marmitebr br i personally committed every second memory cyclical claustrophobic introspective magical stands one unique films ever made despite many stated believe truly cult movie diamond rough waiting discovered unearthed fantastical psychedelic visuals incredible soundtrack unforgettable achievement itself one friends watched likened musical many respects fully appreciate context film made would probably get view head suchbr br i always fond monkees especially tv show back repeated s mum recorded head shown tv late night knew liked them watched day later lodged memory able find copy dvd decades later would love special edition would fascinating get greater insight making masterpiece hope,0 i am excited for tomorrow ,0 broccoli piece shit hate you,0 feeling edgeim feeling extremely edge like want hurt badly end life know anymore do many fucked things happend ive pretending im okay long time im trying fight urges difficult need vent feel alone worthless like one gives fuck died day now hate much feel like im going insane im lost broken scared want cry scream lose control instead act okay pretend smile one knows feel keep myself im scared one day soon end life,1 school rickrolled everybody im even kidding,0 id rather kill disappoint family killing disappoint familylife fair wish family love me theres many people deserve loving families one universe waste love me want love want die,1 moment someone impersonates shit said dedicating whole life hating tiktok reddit moment lol like th time someone impersonated insecurities,0 it s like knowing your place in this world i ve always been proud of me i always felt i ve done thing a they should be done fairly loving good people listen to others helping them always trying to draw a smile on their face and making their world a better place because life is short and everyone deserves to be happy no matter what and i thought i deserved that too but all i can see is that i m lonier than ever i never felt what is being loved the only partner i had abused and cheated on me leaving me memory like me cry next to him and he sleeping peacefully i ve been in love recently again but i got rejected like a few time before that previous relationship i guess i m not good enough a always there s always prettier people than me i lost friend and people i thought they were my friend family and the two three friend i have now can t understand how lonely i feel some of my friend deceived me when i thought they would be here for me at hard time like i always did for them all i try to be happy seems to be in vain i will never be precious to someone i m sure that people who know me will still live if i die so i don t care anymore if i die right now life go on for them but i want to stop mine now my place isn t in this world i m hoping for a sudden death like a car accident a domestic accident or something that kill me because i m a coward and i won t kill myself hoping my parent donate my organ so someone with force of will life a happy life a life i wanted for me but i never got,1 im gonna try todaydown river hope courage close eyes walk in im sorry cant go more ill miss you,1 @xykobas3rd I won't....that would not be fun! And I already have a hangover. Haha. ,0 sick wanting dieive tried everything point drugs legal notsolegal exercise videogames overeating undereating empathy apathy etc im shell person opinions solely based objectivity longer act volition react logically ive competitions ive lost lbs write music ive talked people redflag demon allows sympathise others made home right inside me ive heard many people complain life makes depressed ive done everything power change things better guess what depression nothing material possessions personal achievement depression makes feel worthless persevere want cant fill hole inside paycheck fuck supposed rock anyways want contentment sedation bliss,1 theres car comingthem get road me keeps walking tge middle road them theres car coming get road car comes veiw me still walking middle road feeling depressed them get road me finally gets road long car passes also me i wish got hit,1 want much you please take care bipolar strike like snake warning easily triggered beastly yelling rage maniahappiness somewhere cant sleep forced use everything known mankind force sleep talent ever yet think desire much failure everywhere anytime try fix go doctor step forward always steps pushed back denied disability court jan health insurance year working still nothing even got go doctor chances getting drug would work could still work would erase fact live since alienated everyone cant stay am enough money go anywhere options backed corner today day planning done alienating complete bankruptcy discharged close enough medical insurance still new improved snail mail zero concerns thats fall tried everything failed doesnt matter took responsibility gave tried failed told doctors therapists years racing mind could sleep doesnt help blame blame doesnt matter anymore hurt much numb cant think write want explain many times mind comes never sounds right years suffering would keep happening many people system doesnt work read many times young people know grandmothers died age said didnt get treatment have lot worked work well forced work drugged side effects family empathy ive said goodbye bed shower many last special meals nothing seems special anymore thats it ballot mail box hope dems wins last thoughts sat one came stop me expecting anything different except real ending finally thank memes lot good people there love other forgive can try seek revenge mental illness terrible get help soon can know someone suffering need help isolating let them die,1 corona ruined bct httpsmyoutubecomwatchveewompyrsw probably whole career,0 @toriilovesmcfly i;m mean? thats rich coming from you i still loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee you though xxxxxxxxxx,0 twitter is a lot le interesting since cute people suddenly stopped flirting with me,0 "damn, youtube has deleted it . when i do, i'll find tweet it ",0 fuuuuck worst first off let say never seen heard friend chatted online mom would get super mad caught talking us earlier today friends mom threw bottle her bleeding over arms legs head neck everywhere told group chat happening immediately started panicking made quick decision call mom phone house call like different phone numbers live city rush questions terrified might bleed out one point said breath felt lightheaded dizzy operator stopped asking questions wait felt like eternity replying anything sent thought dead around half later operator said able reach scene still waiting full story happened stressful event life fucking tired tldr friend attacked abusive mom call ,0 sat outside in the sun on our swinging garden bench. ,0 found a nice lake side park with a small beach but no grill oh well i ll have to keep looking another time,0 friend lives florida mom recently diagnosed condition left unable work source income disability enough cover rent friends dad originally covering rent longer so friend tells mom thinking moving another family member since either homelessness problem said family member history sexual abuse towards friend younger friend tells kill end moving thereshe attempted several times past worried safety needs professional intervention threat need resources voluntaryinvoluntary hospitalization resorting reddit local crisis hotline totally useless called waited hold hour ended falling asleep woke shocked disbelief still hold hours later call need advice help friend,1 ever called redflag hotlineive intrusive thoughts redflag ideation since like ive gotten older gotten harder ignore thoughts convince theyll gone soon ive thought calling hotlines im pretty sure would break sobbing mess whole time even know say could say would help anyone called whats like tia,1 Hey! I just want to say hi and thank you to all new followers that I got in the past few days! What's up? ,0 need help asapi cant anymore long im done feel empty hurt motivation passions went away redflag pretty much think spare time ive tried much know anymore please help,1 often joke around people supposed care even people spend lot time work colleagues always make comments want say light hearted way joking not mean every time sometimes actually damages loved ones complain say things like i hate say things like annoying really give motivation stick around hope for attention wondered anyone else got reactions explain,1 depression https://twitter.com/wickedpray/status/989250119009800201 …,1 somewhere in the world right now the sun is shining and people are busy but not here,0 reflections fool one grievous fears come fruition sit stunned passing easily see devised fate however also see truly mattered me least times past ive foolishly stricken eyes sadly mind whose name would spill blood for ive lost care coming days times dull sadness mindless rage place longing would hope home place engulfing closure seemed false simple instead built reliance easily brotherhood debacle fools shifting days it king world physical wealth passionate conquest times spent sitting blabbering menial matter soon forgotten days despite misfortune collective could tredge on countless hours idling merely within presence another thinking back im brought euphoric mementos good day wither by truly longer be notion blame one suspect constant blunder id never known deeply rooted being ever since beginning worried foolish devotion blind trust might bring am back wandering alone again longer displaced no finally absolutely alone another hoping release dream once id long winters over settling act seemed forever away think miss understood whole time said time comes boundless winter would engulf world gods would would longer gaze guide realm man halted end new would begin laminated memory belief winter came built would end greater new would waiting after blind greater insight ive come see follys never winter hell even gods is longer belong making naught ive come discovery happened thats come one misfortune carry through one hope lessen know impact solid im good standing another made despondent another time soon lose question sever anchors find chains strong handful would simply drift away lesser memories mind making lot effortless case closer presumably family recent established friends classmates ect ponder morality plans built bonds bonds may even hold heavy hold heart ones driven here ive come bear enough faults already grow tired thus ive devised ill bite bullet one one disconnect word carry dishearten anyone else worry would try stop me ive found able understand ive done probably ever know thats probably best best way less know less remember select handful know quite inconvenience due much wasted me recent times relation estranged understanding seemed drift time perceive loss feel though would prolonged deficit already sundered investment im soon lose knowledge yet hear recent blunders even heard already matters course remains same admittance ive caused none harm rather failed disappointed all importantly ive disgraced myself ive honestly thinking apologize hopes fixing things trying move find far case deed face could tear tear till whittled fingers bony nubs could never change instead must apologize different fashion sorry brother wasted faith violated honor moment broken contributed great brotherhood downfall managed cause collateral could ever worth although bear right merit request may hope remains may prosper let leave quick may waste efforts longer bid adieu friend infinitely disappointed one want explain most find cant come words theres age old adage could go back would differently ive thought times now try think one small mistake long ago could easily never happened prevented this hindsight stricken come likely severed fellowship crude friendship one defining pieces guise life fear taken well silence grows louder feel case would make whole things pointless first assumed nonetheless friendship worth owe respects hold dear sorry brother lost way fear led astray well meet fork road let us briskly go separate ways know world holds know greater without i dear friend let road carry well other till better days cant write tears pages would weep manner could expel cruelties mind pages would wither i deepening trench harbors tremors core stirs lost hopeless yes bring still could mend wounds today mind could try fix sundered end volleys chatter amount little rambles stuck stream molten lead on on sickening silence dawns else loud seep in ticking know ebbing ponders do thats left look back itself one theres one left alone another complexity man cant overcome know anymore want quiet again care would wires me end another waiting winter end ampxb point put expecting naught honesty another waste time alas ill probably might even give them alas cast rambles might butchered yall,1 anybody chat looking company,0 eating at bulls! Really nice food here. ,0 dont know doive suicidal long ive never able reason one thing keeping afraid thats gone everything else life going wrong im far home way back fucking monday cant deal nothing point theres nothing stopiing slitting wrists cant deal cant see anything getting better dont see point staying alive anything dont know whether want talked,1 im worried fellow redditorhello everybody inane discussion askreddit got answer someone worries me talking suicidal thoughts tried give advices using situation im worried him heres link httpswwwredditcomraskredditcommentsmzetwhat_is_something_you_were_once_embarrassed_bydusl idea did thanks,1 Later at work! Money money money makes it funny ,0 even little girl suicidal thoughts feel constantly paini idea way am used cry night little thought someone would murder middle night constantly thought killing jumping car moving would run scene head parents never abusive reason always state depression terrible panic attacks hallucinate hardly breathe feel like going killed get really paranoid difficult emotionally involved relationship trust anyone one responds okay needed vent some,1 thought id witnessed every wrinkle crimegangster flick offer garrettmarcinhammett combination pull genuine thrills surprises here thanks inventively forceful direction mamoulian atmospheric photography lee garmes plus remarkably sharp film editing flawless special effects brilliant acting helps too coop gives one convincing performances reticent hayseedturnedfearless bootlegger the sort character progression repeat roles sergeant york miss sidney pictured center first major role also eyeopener principals receive great support paul lukas wynne gibson stanley fields heavies even robert homans hardasnails detective movie obviously realized extensive budget brilliantly deployed realistic crowdfilled sets,0 hate life nobody wants talk apparently friends irl try message someone often wanna chat looking friend post ignore me reply time ignore chat dies less week know anymore,0 sophomores highschools student council gone crazy theyre playing various remixes baby shark loudspeakers passing periods fundraiser what know far tell nobody else knows either stop donate thanks covid love insanity,0 ventjust vent staying edge cliff jumping yet think people see slut something try best seem attractive something idk psychologist told assumed people thought something even werent guy wrote sucked dicks donlt understand why always tried polite kind agreable know think opinions wrong feel guilty thinking like that people feel happy think like happy person feel crazy head hurts cant sleep hope could someone would care lot me day trust cheers everyday me feel desperate know do feel like mediocre worst everyone shit shit nothing want die please something magical make pain disappear want start life magically happy without substances im sorry think may caused negative emotions reader feel like stuck great thing feel better writing thoughts,1 no squirrel today they must be hiding,0 swapping song through email with carrie damn the tasman damn it to hell i wan na jam,0 depression is so weird because when you experience a good feeling it's also SO STRONG and it gets overwhelming,1 deliverance fascinating haunting sometimes even disturbing tale james dickey turned brilliant movie john boorman four businessmen driven manhood machobehavior whore spending canoeing weekend high mountains there theyre faced every darkest side man every worst form human miserypoverty buggery even physical harassment four men intended travel river adventure excitement trip soon changes odyssey violent lurking mountainland completely estranged forms civilisation elements actually make deliverance one nightmarish films ive ever seen everything happens men pray never find similar situation pure talking cinema deliverance important movie well john boormans best closely followed zardoz excalibur still influential film contains several memorable scenes already featured numberless movies think terrific duelling banjos musical score and course unforgettable homosexual squeal like pig rape scene actors deliver haha perfect acting performances especially jon voight must see motion picture,0 dance devil pull bed anyones hero bullet head,0 absolutely like film lot entertaining feast bizarre stunning images theres dialog only background sounds noises something completely different original enjoy obscure bizarrethen might like work art ik looks like film made first camera ever made in time strange humanlike beings live perform bizarre habits god killed razor gave birth mother earth mother earth impregnated gods semen act fellatio gives birth son flesh bone follows inhuman acts ritualistic torture rape murder purposes knowor we,0 is sad she ha lost her hn arm band it just disappeared,0 whats craziest shit happened school mine years ago lil grade two students grade level fight overpass outside school ended one getting stabbed pocket knife worse able see victim carried security guard noticeable blood splotch uniform eating lunch right next clinic since me friends boy scouts before ordered form line prevent anyone crowd going far clinic shit crazy back then reason ended bloody gruesome brawl fact aggressor the guy knife bullied constantly dude one day altercation dude challenged fight location overpass traverses main road friend got ominous hint aggressor shit went down repeating words angry tone naa koy special weapon bai means english i special weapon dude,0 years hoping get pain kinda start accept wont make alivetwo years passed since first met psychologist concerning suicidal thought ive lost passions everything visual artist musician enjoyed movie lost see everything mundane hateful aspect life hate fact everything did did distract us inevitable pain death years developed hatred people warmth social relationship even love see pain everything even joyful aspect life stop craving love human interaction even sex itself bright man difficult years slowly turns usually called late s single men whos living moms basement nothing process lost job lost community circle distant family im basically numb failure occasionally read people tried convince suicidal persons abort intention mainly saying life beautiful yet reach joyous point amidst worsening condition life be point getting better better convinced then think two years enough ive tried everything tried wake early sport stay positive time even last three days every time tried that tried involved social works ended abandoning midproject disappointing everyone tried get job always failed interview due unmotivated tendency entertained chance studying again used professors references number failed scholarship applications tried talk parent best say im apostate since money cant get professional mental therapy country even anything like national redflag prevention lifeline ive tried everything could cant hold longer,1 just voted GREEN party! just hope it's enough to keep the EVIL bnp out! ,0 friends happened yesterday concerning friends happened yesterday concerning friend nd injection vaccine vaccination center began blurred vision whole way home got home called vaccination center advice ask go see doctor hospitalized he told come back vaccination center matter urgency take back forgotten glasses,0 @Shadez @geek_rohit good to know boys .. looks like a big plan is underway.. ,0 im scared talk best friend social anxiety keeps getting worse day starved afraid leave room talk grandparents i live them used happen every happens almost regularly im starting get panic attacks even talking closes people me months scared text best friend finally managed it seems like went though shit months wanted sleepover parents said okay feel scared like get panic attacks thinking here want nightmare mental illness go away,0 "Planning my first run in a while, since the depression hit me like a steam train, tomorrow with @pammyhammy48 so looking forward to getting back out there #Running #mentalhealthawareness",1 @scodal haha thanks and yeah! me either! hey do me a favor- follow @landonaustin,0 im donetonight might night think im finally ready dont know want die know dont want live reason stay one cares me one listens need anymore theyve given suppose time give self might now dont tonight likely soon thx reading guess,1 satisfying fantasy ships sailing thru clouds cannons evil plotters strange landscapes manipulations time great sets void reality maybe like never ending story merlin stuff like that love it christine taylor beautiful sword fighting phoney music delightful good wins out kiss well cook pleased,0 termforbeing introverted extroverted cause yeah that also filler imma say guns r bad,0 song reason relate it httpsmusicyoutubecomwatchvdvahjzbvcamplistrdamvmdvahjzbvchttpsmusicyoutubecomwatchvdvahjzbvcamplistrdamvmdvahjzbvc,0 organize event meet give free hugs know yall lonely bois need,0 anyone feel like talkingim kind bad place performance today botched it hurts really bad aspiration singer mess up ready to started panic attack bad bout dysphoria voice feel awful ive worked frenzy,1 hi everyone im really bored u want dm talk im m looking someone talk to filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 cant take longerive suicidal months therapy medicine worked im starting intensive partial hospitalization program monday every day agony even think make then cant function nothing distracts thoughts anymore keep trying reach people one replies cutting even helping calm anymore absolutely hope reached end,1 guilti talk today therapist parents mother said stopped putting energy relationship im negative father thinks getting job fix problems because ill get physically tired feel lazy toxic like given me times talked gave basically guilt trips everyone tells committing redflag easy planning redflag takes much energy afraid fail really hate life right now,1 agree mr caruso jr lanzas finest voice god offer could found courage go broke leave hollywood head opera could american caruso everyone says could case fantastic introduction art form bones thats way gonna it see film see mr lanza still come discussion even house someone says pavarotti say mario lanzaas film dvd must restored vhs good enough also lanza film put dvd others right bad boring ,0 our first follower! Thanks @Breefield ,0 ..... Warning (lol) I am just about to Meditate... I should be back in 20mins!x See you then!x ..... I wrote 15hrs ago,0 incredible roasts used really quick wit dried jokes,0 want help first girlfriend broke idk hard move cause first girlfriend idk ive crying last two weeks,0 is back in byron bay cafe fresh missing all my melbourne friend,0 horse walks bar bartender says long face horse incapable understanding human language promptly shits floor leaves,0 please tell gets betterim fired best job ever months ago reasons fault even unemployment judge agreed decided case favor took huge cut pay find work barely pay bills cant afford real food eat regards cant afford go socialize means cant meet new people date almost years cant even get people im interested talk me im roundly ignored everywhere go never finished college cant afford go back owe crippling amount debt university unpaid fees cant attend anywhere else almost friends old job none ever speak unless initiate conversation even leave soon can two real friends roommates spend time playing wow together ignore part one got interview job told also applied get interview one seems interested say one shares interests talk like im uneducated idiot people even know half things love talk like im ignorant cant seem catch break anymore since beginning last year life fallen apart things going faded away feel like peaked long time ago prospects ever getting better matter hard try get hole im afraid sitting welfare hospital somewhere dying alone unloved im friends family funeral none now please someone tell gets better please,1 love jones one best movies ive experienced br br the main element sticks fact welldirected studied film entirety watching movies once certain things dawn subconsciously direction movie well writing chic hip artful love direction scene larenz tate nia long riding motorcycle north chicago night astonishing director movie deserved awards great jobbr br love jones classy sexy film highlights fact people love flaws love living learning us without hype natural selvesbr br the poetry wonderful story line dialog scenes really make moviebr br this movie deserves seen great movie lovers friends sit back watch or hopeless romantic like myself sit back enjoy alone friday saturday night day week peace solitude little entertainment needed love jones recommend,0 boyfriend leading depression years now dating months time quite okay when started relationship taking antidepressants sometime dropped them getting worse i noticed also talked topici really worried because although know normal nothing it love want suffer he also thinking taking antidepressants even though really hate dependency create make feel allhas anybody gone situation like earlierdoes anybody kind adviceps experienced diagnosed depression kind depressive episodes spent time many people leading depression quite conscious topic boyfriend getting worse,1 need help tell someone reason reply week accidentally started texting people energy recharge social battery else would gone insane,0 tomorrow = final presentation. then graduation then done for the summer!!! oh to be free ,0 ive got argument zoom feminist arguing applies genders constitution does formal instances constitution formal wants keep arguing,0 feeling giant mental breakdown coming past days ever since mom started shit last week got sociopath something bc truly feels remorse sympathy anyone herself crazy gaslighter always makes feel like everything fault know not anyway abundance issues started dad unexpectedly passed away last year think due immense amount redflag grief upsetting bc health issues take much life away physical limitations strict diet restrictions hard adjustment especially hitting time able handle tho mom starts shit me get triggered break way down extremely upset due this writing list reasons hate life literally middle writing mom walks door starts shit me shaking feel paranoid even delusional like losing touch reality upset memories past year come flooding back stuck cannot get break,1 im pretty bored anyone wanna play truth dare smth im m gay dm nice day everyone,0 im going kill myselfmy name donald faurschou im love family even though dont show it pet snake grow marijuana want someone remember get pushed edge please someone remember useless sociopathic drug addict,1 @TheRealJordin hahaha. for once there i thought your mom wasn't breathing anymore! what a nice mother-daughter relationship you have. ,0 ukakapantss try make garlic tater tots like garlic bread put butter garlic tater tots instead bread try instead spamming sub garlic bread ukakapantss,0 storytime sorry fellow meme lords might post meme this little sister friends sister antisocial introvert good luck making friends classmates like clipped american movie like clipped mothers womb kinda cold competitive lowkey karen friends two boys thats share passion star wars not saying bad also like mostly action plot two boys mostly buddies play recess yes really best friend friend girl girl many bestfriends really want get friends girls relate lot get lot support opinion least girls met yet overall way funnier boys disclaimer im talking people met im sure good boys rude ones hang told many times might nice find girls befriend never listened stopped ago new school year starts new students join class one girl guess what new girl gets seat sister one bully sidekicks finally chance get real friend told us setup seats dinner immediately started talk befriend her said even approach her bully sidekick already got her together time sidekick bully always made sure new girl close little sister would start talking new girl sidekick would immediately come collect new girl she even makes new girl watch play basketball little sister said immediately got idea sidekick playing basketball sister chance talk new girl excitedly tell plan instead going made frowny face said back um i want play basketball too im sorry wanted giant tea spill drama anything else really sorry find hilarious actually chose basketball friend knew competitive this meant hate anybody wanted tell anybody,0 much honda civic worth front bumper totally crumpled accident battery damaged oil tank need know fair price know much offer reference guy im buying bought dollars,0 @TheFatBoys how awesome that you want to help! i've told ppl around my work and am collecting more and more to drop off @ my concert! ,0 Radio personality talks about clinical depression that saw her get into debt http://ow.ly/QjdZ30jFpwx  pic.twitter.com/tlbevNcK99,1 ever stressed nose started bleeding like waterfall yeah couldnt also nearly passed today pretty pog,0 Helped a friend move yesterday. She moved to a 3rd floor apt. My calves are killing me this morning. Should help mu muscle mass though. ,0 so struggled with suicidal symptom have had a lot of suicide attempt in the past year but have been getting better within the last two year so improving slowly well i wa until my bf of month broke up with me last week and i can t deal with the guilt of knowing i pushed him away with my anxiety ptsd and depression the pain of heartbreak is too much rn and a foolish a it sound it s very hard to take,1 want it please give idea would like finish something spectaculari maybe look like someone weak year worst point im life look really sad me girl love break up victim manipulation harassment girlspeoples school live solitude darkness several months that feeling like joker alone crazy one understand me want make massacre andor kill myself rejected without friend school wanted join completely forgot file study it addition destroying exciting job tempted liked studying find another school harassment start silence witness madness thing miss way it need help,1 know dothere background really worth talking attend quite appointments different psychiatrists psychologists like redflag attempts point though cant open matter much want to helped fact get often threatened taken local hospital way low weight height getting told psychiatrist obliged get hospital show signs suicidal tendencies yeah feel like stuck people know tried third time reason alive choose reasons redflag option could take point things go downhill much try move resources need get rid thoughts main reason inability open reasons unknown me,1 The evidence is clear that people that are more active have a lesser risk of developing depression. https://m.medicalxpress.com/news/2018-04-engaging-physical-decreases-people-chance.html …,1 go know going get betterim friends family debt working marginal job getting by worthless college degree old retrain retirement savings working die wage slave something wrong know is like around people ones tolerate feel nothing towards in care never saw people again social situations give anxiety eccentric something odd me disturbing others one reasons trouble finding holding onto real adult job could never forge social relationships get anywhere smart enough skate pure ability bother torture hope suffer endlessly little hope return efforts want die instincts betray me disgusting instinct forces irrationally cling life wish defeat die finally free truth death,1 yo people say got barz like could get famous stuff like know sounds stuiped like go tho yolo haha like eeeeeeeeeee dm wanna hear xd like maybe people familiar raping,0 ive suffering depression found ive expelled something didnt domy friends everyone knew gone flash future window well parents probably going extremely disappointed me im going it tonight im going drink purell take benzos finally put life disappointment sleep one last time fun ride much,1 nobody ever love meall relationships ive ever internet relationships none ended well one person crush on best friend already found someone else love with feel like never anyone im transgender social anxiety too help either want someone love obviously thats never going happen,1 serious people tried overdose pills happened body reactwhen felt really sick got major stomach ache felt dizzy eventually threw passed out heard way worse things happening like people getting seizures similar stuff you pills take body react sideafter effects receive,1 cant yeti want kill cant get gun it hanging overdose may leave vegetable fail wait im old enough,1 @JChidester it's a blessing and a curse. I glow in the dark ,0 plan nnn november starts hours me im gonna nut nonstop dont nut left buy time nut regenerates ill already enough willpower fap checkmate,0 indigored hot sorry your day wa a waste hope you found some good bit in it and yay you are homeward bound,0 bop very nice say myselfhttpsyoutubevocxwos,0 enoughmy mom always wanted kids tying tubes met stepfather wants kids him always tells wants more and oh nice would kids intepretations never directly said but fault got tubes tied constantly threatens me hitting grounding aswell taking stuff away like clothes bedding tells easily get rid me dont know handle anymore planned multiple versions redflag one grosser last im still here think dad child horrible would him im worried cats friends want hurt bad cant it cry much get headaches it want enough feel like outsider want feel loved cared for want lifted held someones arms abusive narsistisstic tendincies cant go day school night without crying help me do,1 ive really fucking stressed end everythings fucked want let thoughts talk ever since winter break ended everything mes going hill or even farther hill winter break even ended got several school assignments graded poorly made want work even harder feel like ive failing really hard today decisions made ago came bite ass cant sleep shit mind actually cant remember last time good night sleep keep telling gonna ok dont shape soon could affect entire life ive reflecting ive realized alone am ive always know ive always passed jokes im really alone good friends get hang xbox rd one havent seen like month virtual school even though still talk lot discord im really getting worried social life im dont real close ties wont even start talking girls cuz im completely hopeless especially greatest skill bottling emotions think bottling emotions comes dealing mom shes got lot shit basically whenever gets really mad me brother dad really tries hurt us like really hurt us im one family doesnt know anything im aware protects dont tell anyone anything also fell really bad absolutely hate brother cant deny anymore even though know unfair him hes never done anything wrong fact hes naturally stronger promised future plenty friends basically anything better makes course super jealous even though hes barely done anything deserve hating him top things ive essential crisis stress hatred sadness left wanting end give think thing keeping im scared whats beyond also fact im aware things makes think able better myself cant makes hate even more first time life ive felt totally helpless seems place turn to thanks anyone read far,0 someone please take gossip girl away from me i m addicted,0 care but need phone number right goddamn now,0 social experiment people like nothing reason ever,0 @strange_idol fanks for the promotional tweet! xxx,0 m love best friend f do best friend ticks boxes basically perfect girl me said takes long time develop feelings truly trust someone best friend though trust lot she rough past understand take long time so trusts told said rough past stuff told anyone else outside fam im person needs affection ive patient really starting get me need advice do thank btw yes im born december born january were far apart age wise were similar maturity tldr best friend perfect girl me best friend cant develop feelings quickly im person needs affection do thank,0 ardent vijay fan never seen another movie good thisbr br it regular clichs one expect commercial entertainer hero bad studies star forte iekabbadi friends fill comedy quota heroine lifeanddeath situation villain say best ever portrayed protagonist high octane chase action sequences music make one dance perfect storyline keep factors within enjoyable circle perfectbr br the director give chance audience loosen up goes one nail head next one see lighter side vijay film rarely executesbr br all saidthis movie perfect many years come,0 cant anymore want toi want strong brave fighting good fight anymore want hurt stop want world stop want stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop please,1 please donei just much found husband told brother wants divorce me hes hiding money lying least emotional affair coworker autistic daughter acting out year old daughter going puberty im major depressive episode ulcers im pain time one person want love want please seems completely unfulfilled me want fall asleep never wake up gun cant that always pussed cutting myself never get free fucking moment alone car work want traumatize kids mess basically thing holding back point want ruin christmas cant figure way thats going make home scene death just cant anymore im supposed start new pdoc soon even know it hate me know deep everyone around must hate too nothing worth saving,1 stumbling upon hbo special late one night absolutely taken attractive british executive transvestite never laughed hard european history completely worthwhile point eddie izzard made laughed much woke mother sleeping end house,0 get snapchat reason im debating it hate taking pictures confidence know it thats whole point snapchat also one best ways talk crush person snapchat atleast hear also work,0 know last post made yeah lied find get karma,0 dang broi finally got boy liked years clueless years,0 dragonflies why r big long normal idiot insect spiders gotta b attention seeking ,0 posting every day get girlfriend day thishttpsmyoutubecomwatchvqksllylywi,0 I have not tweeted for SIXTEEN DAYS! I miss it =( I've been having fun though! =D Ingrid on mon was frakking awesome BBQ today! ,0 insurance changed vendors got new inhaler different vendor right word idk,0 uhorizon telling people im grooming year olds dont listen him hes jealous october dated sister one night decided ask private questions well get know better stuff clearly see ask want this sure youre comfortable went convo going sisters messages reason hes cropped looks like im asking reason im asking nudes im not convo decide think httpsyoutubehtevbhnwpw,0 know one care arcade bowling place requested never gonna give rick rolled alot people feel others,0 finally going to sleep and waking up early to study,0 something got into my eye now it itchy aw,0 feeling ok ion think stay world long cannot keep ugh,1 know copemy car broken way psychiatrist needed appointment needed am rang shaking before explained happened receptionist nice asked anyway could reschedule seen later today somehow next appointment next week said unfortunately availability know im going genuinely survive till ,1 "Does it really matter? everyday some expert is telling us what's bad for us, don't do this, don't do that. Today running helps with depression. I tell you what's helps with depression experts/news media/celebs/MPs shutting up. #BritainsFatFight",1 ive considered redflag realized would make things worseim older teenager things going pretty damn rough lately quite while ive never wanted endure pain dying considered jumping oncoming traffic overdosing pills week ago realized would make things worse still chance get want life fun plus want look lifeless body able interact world anymore wanted get,1 zero day based columbine high school massacre video diary two boys first know whats going happen think bad student film start talking horrible things going quite school start talking pipe bombs guns going shooting woods lot say movie know film well film forget watching film watching real video two boys madebr br the two boys act like weird cult burn stuff like play station games books dvds homework stuff school stuff two boys anybody friends brothers people see walking street goes daily actives and making gun videos make mentions bullying happens people said stuff clothes things im saying right many people things like thatbr br and also thing people suspected like sensitive topic chosen filmbr br so thats review zero daybr br and lets say end shooting scene messed up,0 anybody wanna talkfeel free message id like talk anybody else going it im years old seem nobody turn emotional support ig im best opening id love listen anyone willing talk,1 hey thing keeping alive possibility study abroadi fucking feel guilty raped fingering count rape saying count rape sitting crying making finish could leave count rape still feel like thats fault fault fault went dorm stayed even though didnt want to thought id help get francisco made everything much worse hate making decision hate saying nothing nothing hate look hate feel hate body soul heart im ugly twisted little thing thats limping around hurt cant get fact theres nobody else blame cant blame him stupid didnt know doing cant blame world fuck world even define that cant blame francisco even wasnt that bad least told truth sometimes terrible gross disgusting rest world im waste space contribute nothing take everything dont give anything return parents barely call mom never say love her ask ask ask dad things never give anything back literally definition excess waste nothing important act like deserve important voice head thats disillusioned positive fuck think is,1 theres nothing really want feels weird really wanting anything idk even want christmas also havent gotten job yet new pc would nice dont even game like anymore wasting years childhood adolescence ill never get back playing dont fill dark empty void anymore,0 deadlift piano today job fucking stressful pays well tho,0 compare hands mine ever came thing big hands means big dick genius greatest lie time hands fucking huge nothing else tho,0 why doe stik o have to be chocolate,0 preferably without becoming addicted,1 ive got a poorly tongue after i burnt it on my chilli last night had a lovely day yday to thanks guy,0 first let say notorious absolutely charming film lovingly rendered time subjects gretchen mol utterly painfully convincing soul contradictions smoothly reified ms page herself irving paula klaw richly drawn workingclass stiffs having met paula movie star news say lili taylors performance unimpeachable jared harris john willie coutts adoringly debauched genius anyone interest recorded history american attitudes toward sexuality must see movie theater preferably votes made dollars count morebr br second allow producer material similar klaws would become famous way affects estimation ms harrons work splendid piece is condition view notorious act political resistance first order ms harron crafted work subtle subversion along v vendetta movie another time timesbr br few readers site aware government see enacted notorious through transcription words uttered closed senate committee hearings close approximation one live right now ms harron expressly disallows political agenda appended film faithfulness facts respectful unsensational way renders them synchronizes notorious present day acts notorious portrays loving accurate detail defined obscene communications decency act recently brought supreme court first amendment case turned back behest bush administration words delicate ineffectual bondage depicted notorious indictable today federal prosecutors whatever hostile jurisdiction choose course hearings senate elsewhere matter cda passed course know nothing it want people peoria telling cannot look likewise people peoria probably want telling theyre allowed view course notorious never indicted hollywood lawyered up countless klaws will however continue steamrolled puritanical bureaucracy advanced aesthetic moral biological composition much yearsbr br in addition notorious posts usc compliance statement mandated unnoticed earmark recently voted law media contains images sadomasochistic restraint required make available ex warrant records age circumstance performers notorious fails regard alsobr br in addition splendid piece entertainment nearly accurate historical document notorious litmus bush justice department judged respect th equal protection amendment perhaps several constitutional grounds regard alone debt gratitude owed mary harron grateful case constitutional otherwise see film,0 bad bhabie made m within hours opening onlyfans turning today yall weird ass mfs,0 the fun thing about writing is sometimes the story pull you in and asks question that will need some researching to be done today and tomorrow are my research day and i will be cooking a great depression recipe i think it would fit the grim dark perfectly,1 wasnt serious joke earlier week made comment comment post pedos im naming anyone reason commented pedo affended clearly joke saw comment pedo joke pedo,0 problem lack loveweve heard get therapist go professional thing least once know therapists psychiatrists etc supposed help us whatever making us feel bad but guys lets honest ourselves times professional drug therapy solve problem origin comes lack love caring tenderness of yes love frustrating many people see supposed help feel better whats supposed help overcome pretty dark moments work find horrible professionals honest pacients keep talking shit keep prescribing drugs keep promising bright future never comes etc never say hey im sorry cant help this theres nothing fullfill empty space got so since honest ever tell truth opportunity pay expensive holidays want exist find cant help problem im going tell need hear therapy professional kind drug kind replace need never had thing love may hard hear know truth need know it start talking shit theres someone waiting there youll find person promise shit professionals do thats say,1 friend might kill tonight please helpive known best friend ever since freshman year high school weve always close ever since opened depression suicidal thoughts everythings gotten steadily worse tonight bf broke said best relationship ever had sent humungous paragraph well could redflag note successful im break right fix this,1 know somehow always fall somehow always feel dissapointed defeated matter hard try optimistic try be cannot seem find lasting friends relationship someone need someone talk get things chest want anymore keep head water keep drowning dissapointment ever felt,1 gordonchiu you re one letter alway korean don t use quot x quot so there s no hope for me,0 finished page history essay yea fun yea one gonna read holy shit im proud,0 amber i don t know how often you check this but i really miss you right now like really really so friggen much i want a hug lt beth gt,0 is looking how to use realtek 8111/8169 with ubuntu server 8.04 LTS ,0 "@mojoguzzi I was drinking cognac yesterday afternoon, actually. And yes - for medicinal purposes Must do so again I think",0 follow yesterdayi posted asking ml antifreeze would kill final today thinking drinking after boyfriend distant since yesterday loud annoying apologized multiple times hes barely responsive leaving world finally killing would probably make feel better ive attempted redflag multiple times before end hospital dont know would care time contemplating drink right die earlier,1 "I'm Lindsay. I love anything true crime, coffee, reading, podcasts, blogging and talking about my dog/kids. I use a lot of GIFs. My spirit animal is the platypus, I'm Bipolar, have anxiety & depression. #letsbefriends pic.twitter.com/z5ed35EITb",1 @heyitsashleyy you're such a sweet sister.. ,0 im dead inside whats left now die physicallymy biggest fear height im minutes jumping window please need someone talk to please,1 mean get ratioed someone dmd ratioedp mean,0 ok im scaredi certain id able go school get trade would high paying job would allow live life totally realize every trade need math skills mathematically inclined fact im shit it maybe trades less simpler math others doomed fail life sheer lack intelligence,1 fellow teenagers impossible got gf rlly proud thought could share guys,0 report from italy 9 death missing 00 injured italy earthquake via rai http tinyurl com c mja,0 watching a texas tale treason feel renewed disgust nature hollywood beast inside interviews conversations involved project common sense comradery rebelliousness spans backgrounds social classifications even geography attributed hard work entire productions undying commitment project love story original film complete creation vacuum creator scale people involved waldos hawaiian holiday amazing me budget glory production trailers craft services amenities all yet everyone involved stuck right it nothing ever comes project antstuie productions laid foundation serious honest company thats never going lay take sell make movie money id like see la director go guerrilla process get shot realistic true life cinema lacking time cg green screens masses may enjoy entertainment spoon fed nice bite sized censored calm bits large group people world share opinions insights filmmakers still make films love material love storytelling dvd sales box office loved documentary hope ifc cahones pick air maybe maybe one person decide pick camera film real life viewer even temporary understanding everyone everywhere same anyone anywhere true storyteller,0 What a strange existence you've created where you've suffered depression and also antagonize people who still feel it. Literally zero empathy here. https://twitter.com/ayanatheoracle/status/988861135142248449 …,1 it may sound strange but i ve come to realize most of my anxiety stem from my appearance whenever i m out in public i get a rush of depression because i feel like i am ugly and everyone s judging me for it in reality i know it s not true because even if i wa hideous nobody would care it s just in the moment it feel so real and unbearable,1 in the garden i just looked at my estimated grade and im suposed to get a B in geog and re LOL. i should revise some geog for tomorrow :L,0 good looking bad personality sucks repost forumi notice people say stuff like attractive people try life looks main thing matters guess understand people think media whatnot ive learned throughout life completely like that ive rejected broken men based im boring uninteresting fun depressing etc men never feel connection me ive also fucked years sex men right away basically basing relationships sex ive shitty personality years feels difficult change seem authentic fun since long every time guy rejects breaks me girl get always good looking me makes feel like shit know must better personality me even though look good still get guy want know sounds mean feel happening even ex boyfriend im still love hurts much im still friend saying likes girl have fun interactions makes smile even want to know never fun interactions go dinner sex fault wish could change get like again want hope keep friend maybe hell like seems like small chance want start him no think im perfect way insecurities like majority people do whenever think wanting get work done fix subtle things come back remember getting even better looking going help get man likely make feel better myself basically want ctb im man im love with hate wish someone else think im going go anywhere life trying get career thats different story yes know definitely people worse everyone different though much take life whatever problems someone has still problems even people consider slight problems know anymore chance could start guy,1 think ive reached end lineim feeling little helpless overwhelmed right now ive many psychiatric drugs years now usual story work stop med key pin keeping together showing symptoms tardive dyskinesia where cant stop certain motions happening it started intense drug clozapine get vitals done daily weekly blood tests runs risk depleting white blood cell count feel med complete last resort work takes even get started it risks associated it new drug working right im suicidal im sleeping hours day im skipping work showering eating feel turn destiny kill myself ive daydreaming lot lately wish killed various points life thought bet future ill wish killed now im going wait big family vacation were taking feb one last time hang family say goodbye,1 neevd know of any more site to play game on i ll never get past the second footpath on frogger,0 listen shitass love goddamit fucking idiot matter dumbfuck stupid ass recognize ok hear dipshit may think never good enough shut the fuck up idiot good enough deserve love affection love dog,0 don t really know if that make sense but it a sort of feeling i get a lot,1 everytime feel like giving tell stress going next monday finally start holidays worry school things months,0 hello first time posting sub thank me anyone cooccurring psychotic disorder schizophrenia schizoaffective disorder along redflag interesting studies explaining really affect other wondering might others experience both,1 want kill self feel like deserve live sufferi want death easy hurt someone love much cant cope fact did manipulative emotionally abusive need punished it im much pain want die idea help hope die go hell,1 tomorrow th birthday dad couple minutes ago seriously threatened kick house title says alli deal depressionsocial anxiety parents call jokemy dad want understand keeps calling namesjust minutes ago told go away housgo room get herei older brothers never told thatbut alone depressed suicidali know doi want go away everything start new lifeoh alsotomorrows th birthday,0 "@lindutt 'Tabor Goes To Heavens' looks interesting, as does 'Turkish Gambit'. Lot's of Russian movies to explore. ",0 "@Jonasbrothers Sounds awesome! I hope you're having fun, and I can't wait to see it! Good luck with the rest of rehearsals! ",0 i understand nothing from this twitter,0 getting work film made back summer shot partly biltmore estate asheville nc remaining parts winstonsalem massive offices rj reynolds used several office scenes places around beautiful city know tulip capital world winstonsalem enjoyed work although exceedingly hard work building sets like golf mexico renee russo jim belushi went date also big hand decorating bar larry encounters magical bartender mr destiny tacked pics wall sports heroes decorated phone booth larry makes phone call cab even put mothers photo eye level could freeze frame show watched it remember dyeing grass old house green dye first soddedit new house new development guess leased moviethen cut newly laid sod make look niceman hard far movie made idea would like seeing fell love really tells story what if good ever seen it including great wonderful life cried many timesbr br i cant count got meet wonderful actor michael caine shooting scenes old minor league ballpark larrys boyhood scenes played replayed remember done take heading back trailer ran asked picture quite amiable said why not good guy really natural forceful actor cant say jim belushihe full himself smoking big cuban cigars talking loudly sobr br everyone earshot could hear every word career never take decent tv career recently would say watch movie ever get chance wonderful really heartfelt real feel larrys pain enters new world mr destiny gives hitting homer wants badly people believe bad guy everyone thinks is think belongs nuthouse eventually wins people wants real life back badly especially wonderful wife played beautifully linda hamiltonand wants dog back see it,0 bruh wanna try sushi fucking bad looks absolutely delicious im pretty hungry rn oh wanna try bad know nothing good places around,0 im tiredhi hideously rambling im sorry seem able form proper train here guess say roughly im male selfemployed its hard hard surviving succeeding it hard say exactly whats wrong guess many things feel like ive fighting flags whole life everyone ive ever loved betrayed one point another friends parents woman loved anything whole adult life ive strong others best friend he betrayed too woman let back life maybe years ago recognized genuine remorse fiance many people rely help always seem unlimited strength always willing help others essential nature cannot help it strong helped weak instinctively years ago best friends life shambles sick broke lonely one seemed care except me helped it close redflag believe would done it weve always pair since met grade lives unhappy best fought years back back truly awful shit kept happening us betray me remorseful perhaps relationship work end think relationship woman work would never returned friend again parents betrayal really personal discuss love me again forgave actions sometimes people understand wrong maybe figured eventually maybe not still dad awesome long time know loves much is strange person seem understand emotional pain well would swear alien know fact produced human offspring wants help simply incapable understanding whats happening me cannot understanding im finally crumbling why met ex three years ago work friend first real relationship women seem like reason think im unattractive something personality maybe know understand it love first sight bullshit wasnt real said felt too bipolar bipolar fact somehow broken attractive bizarre insane need protect around me felt good suffer bipolar fits rage depression felt like meant do felt strength meant doing although times frustrated mood swings sweet loving normal honestly time close loving lifelong depression vanished like never there past nightmares problem got angry occasionally refused discuss past much really understand life horrible ever want relive events guilt rage things past finally free them think ever factor though break up edit ill never depressed crazy see typo want fix it,1 Happy Mother's day to all the madres out there. ,0 killed myself okanyone get im asking,1 genuinely feel like cant get thismy girlfriend together years started dating senior year undergrad recently broke idea im going get this ive verge tears day rush bathroom building people wouldnt see cry already deal abandonment issues support system cause hard open friends family genuinely dont think get this think relationshipmemories ways take life without suffering much im grad school hardest part year cant focus class office nights near impossible dont know do overwhelming thing keeping taking life imagining effect itd immediate family close friends dont want feel anymore know cliche seems dramatic needed say somewhere,1 please helpi thoughts long im medication helped all soon think find someone understands wants help leave think get much people leave cause wont give sex thought getting better could see hope gone know anymore friends gone want hurt family telling this want deal more becoming much,1 me either dying redflag dying cruel illnesswhat miserable life would love able live carefree healthy many reasons live healthy soon illness comes play even would otherwise fight redflag silent actually happy person would like live long life planet earth illnesses rob joie de vivre,1 br br presenting lily mars one genre film sadly seems disappeared studio system ok know bias reasons think movie stand outbr br although basic plot lily mars judy garland goes new york becomes star wins heart director van heflin pretty stock hollywood story period writers vary theme bit usual although lily gets big break star quits successful swallow pride go back playing minor role showbr br judy garland enough saidbr br supporting cast includes really great performances spring byington lilys mother truely wonderful fay bainter the mother director john thornway van heflin standout supporting performance though goes character actress connie gilchrist frankie one time actress turned theater custodianbr br worth watch sure one movies designed make feel better world dreams,0 think im control freak im also tiredi think anyone would shocked died ive long history mental illness neglectfulemotionally abusive childhood high school dropout etc met h current boyfriend broken me without getting it jumped relationship h patient kind nightmarish volatile hateful semblance healthy relationship was and still dont know recognize someone actually loved me together years broke seemed like final time thing is h sick entire time id known him cancer still always unrelenting bitch bit ego him guess blame much genius iq dealt crazy family members whole life ever catch fucking break reason feel like dying h deserve life dealt good boy sweet boy started relationship someone else months later h wants get back together panic tell im single im relationships years pass h gets sicker feel guilty even kissing him boyfriend shitty girlfriend shitty person love him loves even though bad person smart perfect grows sicker still get bored talks much youtube videos hes able leave house socialize agoraphobia depression make hard visit often bad person it foolishly believe get better handle polyamorous thing absolutely handled h dies sleep unexpected month pass month pass tired people continue come short comparison waiting waiting waiting baby,1 im fucking sociopath nowi want kill rape people longer feel suicidal fucking hate human race cant connect anyone feel nothing rage fear apathy capacity love compassion felt fucking hate entire city calgary complete failure mental health system longer friends family allies go anymore hahaahahahahah fucking hate everything care go jail life prison least im still alive right,1 see comment why english class boring,0 way legally make sure one deal giving funeral burial want burden family that advice needed,1 so a few week ago i landed a new job in a multimedia job that installs the run of the mill thing acoutics audio video lighting network electrical engineering you name it the interview process wa a pretty straightforward and laid back interview and i got the job my first project wa to create a d acoustical model of a church based on blueprint the thing is i never read a arch blueprint in my life and this is the first time so seeing all the different symbol number and whatnot are scaring the hell out of me the employee here are willing to train me however looking at all the diagram and what not i feel intimidated i don t feel cut out for the job i feel afraid at the lack of thing i don t know i m not sure what to do any help,1 karma whores people survive internet points smol pp change mind,0 let u know how he s doing ok,0 thought movie quite good tcm turner classic movies three one night offbeat humor kept til five kelly performs beautifully role especially grandma whose quip almost caused laugh seat main actress alright father able keep character isolated marriage conflict kept humor coming like good offbeat older movie would recommend it unlike comment like gene kelly perfect leading actor many early musicals think role oozes charisma one drawback dance scenes get little longwinded get those clear,0 lifei think im pretty much done homeless month im abusive relationship lost many friends really place go see point continuing everyday battle biggest fear failing redflag sad that fear death thats im looking forward to,1 How many of you mamas out there have had postpartum depression? How many of you moms out there got help for it?#themedicalmamac #postpartumdepression #mentalhealth #MentalHealthMatters,1 hurts live hurts remind good things lost never come back mei abandoned person held closest heart cannot see reason keep fighting disgusting life left with things never get better worse way much going downhill existence strength make change kickstart life miserable broken condition now trying fucking trying never spent much time talking people trying hard keep mind occupied speaking therapist nothings helping get this even sure want get thisand alone darkness bedroom memories keep hammering many contrasting feelings nostalgia remorse hatred want frustration lovelovei know serious constantly keep thinking much would hurt slice wrists open constantly feel like writing one last message every person lovedi sure endure this woke crying thought ending myself,1 worked legs shaking like hell ouch,0 stuckwent outside last night probably home around am planned know why around hours standing sitting staring railing back fourth kept thinking this dunno whats called stopping me wanna it really do bad get cant sure anxiety looking wondering bad itll hurt height think ending another way sure though appointment nurse wednesday dunno im supposed hold im keep thinking going back tonight actually it im stuck,1 Recommendations on how to deal with depression? Any methods anyone can share?,1 llordllama oh no i had an obadiah too name that start with e are generally good,0 remembering mom singing sunshine moves tears thing keeps calmshe used sing time little lullaby im feel good times gone dad says make new memories together family isnt same asked mom sing didnt sound like soothing voice remember cried tonight im crying now thought forgot cry cant resist it looking old toys old memories ill never times back remember going park dad kindergarten playing autumn try recreate memories isnt same one lyric song breaks me please dont take sunshine away want die badly im sunshine cant leave life stressful dont understand feel like im falling lyric telling stay shes telling stay cant handle it cant im scared im scared im scared im scared im scared good times gone want go badly song damn song damn lyric cant dont know do,1 "@bitprophet ooh, thanks for the heads up ",0 im litterally crying nostalgia rn looking old spotify playlists played one classical music it first song plays good all next song nuvole bianche may know piece look trust me just wonderful remembered listening whenever would get ready sleep piece amazing hits different level wow nostalgia,0 since nobody talk might well talk myself wanted family failed like everything else ive attempted life failure failure tragedy tragedy disappointment disappointment havent looked mirror days genuinely hate myself hate am hate getting help l ruined life haileys life hate im going everyday see beautiful daughter doesnt matter meds doctors put on im sick im unfixable im broken amount sadness depression medicated cant talked professional ive held onto feelings long became part am dont want leave world want family want see daughter get school bus first day school want see siblings graduate high school want see friends succeed live life instead existing realized things done without here dont want anyone sad go want people happy want people relieved im cancer everyone meet dont even realize damage create done im tired burden everyone im tired disappointing everyone im tired know everyone tired too wouldnt call death redflag thats harsh word sacrifice peace something never able provide anyone ever life hailey always love you nothing good me please dont let death upset you time together best years life worst you im sorry everything put through daughter dont want go daddy really sick im going get better dont want growing hating sickness also dont want hate took out im lot pain pain going grow get older born made goal everyday night you thats longer option spirit everywhere go daddy always there parents im sorry underachieving son wanted friends lot come gone lot us grew apart im sorry guys go im pain boys laugh joke long eventually feel feelings couldnt asked better friends guys ive slept houses times rough ill always appreciate yall want everyone happy please dont mad please dont sad happy im something right once,1 @tommcfly then ure off to brazil right?woop. http://bit.ly/VY5WW check that out haha bowling for soup's cover rule,0 always fight peoples attentionno one actually cares even say do big lie existence always ignored literally fight anyones attention world goes around me everyone around seems making connections im sitting barely existing blatantly ignored even continue exhausting im anymore obviously one cares would getting ignored damn time would fight everyones attention even people family one fuckin cares,1 posted before still aroundi dont know anymore new medication taking feelings away honestly dont even know treatable depression life going nowhere im terrible hate job wife nothing grow apart friends driven away everyone life relationship family feel alone head every day replaying feelings one talk to singular reason killed yet sole provider wife even love point know committed redflag insurance money even enough keep afloat cant afford therapy dont qualify sort assistance boat sinking nowhere turn to,1 get dying withwhy people suffer trudge dark cruel place years decades fair anyone wants check early rather miserable physical mental ailments basic fundamental right die person chooses one else say otherwise,1 even possible fix always broken fell apartplease anyone anyone all hear say want feel alone anymore good life far all im beginning think meant feel happiness begin with maybe time go ive never told anyone life detail ive always wanted vent cry know someone else earth knows ive gone through im going through please read need someone know im bad person life female years old parents dropped nanas house day birthday never came back me told want me mom pregnant step dads child wanted start family him dad also girlfriend left reason never got divorced dad ended children several different women know moms kid sister others met briefly fathers funeral mom never liked me look much like dad hated him younger great grandmother forced meet twice week home could get know sister mom would tell sister things like spit face hit me push ask stop without getting yelled at thankfully sister grew older adore now dad hand really know well man shwed nanas house every steal money belongings drug money also liked show drunk wanted fight nana also like much reason kept grandpa loved cherished greatly sadly died first grade angel kept safe everyone else died one protect me nana began telling much despised died pulled hair told devil someday world would know evil was would say son want me something wrong me want either promised me second grade graduated high school longer welcome home would get rid sooner would look bad so uncle worst all always hurt me also man showed wanted money drugs would hurt arms knees leaving bruises gave money great grandmother would give helping around house visited one night around am showed house again banging door nana asleep felt brave night locked deadbolt told leave yelled banged louder refused let in next day saw news night showed home left house immediately went family friends home sadly familys friend opened door unlike me turned uncle high crack night looking money buy drugs with visited man murdered taking money used crowbar man years old man helped nana many many times nothing eat needed something family children us broke heart asked nana going funeral said fault died given son needed instead going funeral sent away days hid uncle house decided turn in man funeral one attended uncle nana girlfriend side entire time people school bad group even claimed nothing wrong represented okay part left time life long event dad used dirty needle drug use got aids take care moved us state gave money since work spent drugs instead homework dad would call drug dealer sort pills look pill using school provided laptop make sure paying for often found bags unknown powders crack hidden room grades started slip point often fell asleep class dad would get high turn lights on pee everywhere scream night felt brave one night asked stop school two hours needed sleep told go hell promised turned kicked house two months later high school graduation idea give tickets ended giving mom sister step dad dad nana program left building looked family see anyone crowd called mom showed up stood looked nana friend mine got phone call her called tell come feel like it instead decided visit uncle prison two hours away thats realized one come one cared enough take hour day me surrounded families yet nothing cried spot friends mother let stay day graduation moved around streets awhile nice police officer offered help contacted grandma mothers side really know thankfully said could stay her tried get college point neither mother father would give information could fill paperwork get financial assistance throughout years developed severe depression anxiety suffered panic attacks daily leave house whole life revolved around fear eventually got help that least temporarily took trip florida grandma first time year later finally felt little bit okay point life two days trip received text blue read youre piece shit dad spoken nana since made leave help schooling paperwork understand done immediately broke tears right there hotel trip ruined five words stole another part me continued therapy psychiatrist tried talking getting disability refused work time no function normal human being goal get better get job wanted prove could make something myself months later night someone knocked door got bed looked window nanas boyfriend opened door asked going on looked second saying your dad died days ago head raced could even respond turned around got car nana left cry yet walked room sent mom text dad died minutes later called pick up sat awhile last words youre piece shit let go cried rest night went another piece me funeral one worst days life showed anxious look sad enough act want go home walked room mom asked go see him want to knew looked like skeleton point hed lost ton weight looked nothing like himself denied went straight nana gave hug may mean knew hurting everyone stared kept whispering thought head nana opened mouth you disappointed him stared wondering meant he suffered lot stole him stole anything anyone understand all he knew bad person everyone knows stood tying keep straight face legs began shake continued i know way are thought would come see died kids came except you even know hospitalized time remember exactly way felt point eyes me filled hate lips started tremble tried speak couldnt kids brothers sisters never knew giving looks like belong there ran room cried turned dad told everyone stealing money bank account never course ive never even bank account myself cousin told hed actually gotten high spent money forgot spent told everyone stole it wanted run explain would never thing im type person would believe know loved him stand chance bad one knew would live that branded waste space long time ago wash away could try harder nothing could stop trying months received hateful messages via facebook ignored everything tore apart inside lost progress id made therapy one night little bit later took bunch pills cut arms legs up nana found kitchen floor called ambulance ended mental facility week though things started look up felt like life mattered facility nice me helped me day discharged went facebook looked old messages deleting people brought down saw several unread messages old highschool friend trying get reply two years replied thinking could use friend years since one eventually hung together since year later mother another child decided move offered live boyfriend old home happily so thinking wed stable living situation is step dad started showing house high saying house car driveway one would steal things would dig trash leave hateful notes door mom stole car began lose weight went pounds pounds bones stuck everywhere looked sick time handle constantly coming around acting crazy drug use mom came one day knocked door opened stuck finger face said raising rent raked yard two weeks told rake broken shwed told leave flipped off got car broke down asked could treat way could act like never acted like mom should asked could steal car yell leaves yard response fuck you flipped backed driveway sank knees front porch panic attack want homeless again id homeless many times before called boyfriend work even speak could cry phone finally able tell happened came home soon could calmed went back work hour later step dad showed up stood scared open door know much could take surprisingly apologized told go mom wrong said realized once high left work felt little bit relief asked small told stressed developed stomach ulcer true wouldnt accept that told knew crack like looked like abusing it never touched drugs life began telling people addicted drugs boyfriend abusing me take anymore boyfriend decided needed get away them longer taking care myself miserable made month knew moving would hard decided anyway brought home boxes work began pack things slowly surely nights later someone banged bedroom window around am began yelling step dad screamed answer door calling police boyfriend jumped answered door step dad burst hit boyfriend friend recognize step dad continued hitting boyfriend head screamed me threw mail floor dug trash said going call police said stealing mail mail actually junk mail cable internet grocery store junk mail step dad shaking terribly spitting boyfriend high again digging though trash again said leave right would call police finally enough told call police knew wouldnt pushed towards door yelled get out finally left another panic attack lived tent that last part gone finally it live camper now working water electricity use old tablet local wifi im far gone point never leave camper bathe brush hair change clothes cant breathe anymore anxiety bad cant go buy groceries cant look people eye im skeleton now im afraid people im afraid everything boyfriend told long ago im strongest person ever met could never dealt this strong im here taking space im not exactly wanted be worthless nothing broke piece piece nothing left fix hope me empty empty nothing nothing,1 suicidal im beta malei hate term represents toxic masculinity however best way phrase it i am a pussy form confrontation back down think evan superbad want able normal person im guy party friends upstairs fucking girls im awkwardly stood kitchen watching people fun women repulsed me natural born alphas betas fact determined genetics knowing existence never get taste like alpha makes life seem meaningless kill myself friends go things im pussy do cant fucking nervous sweaty creepy pedo around girls cant even talk fucking crowd without sweating voice trembling face red tomato cant become alpha kill life worth living pussy,1 i love byt hte much vant deal feel ike cant breathe wont let treat like wont let ber boyfriend either,1 Franco made breakfast for Mom. Here he's trying to cut the strawberries (only safe knife #fb http://twitpic.com/4wsmw,0 it fucing fucking passed got accepted online school again odds stacked yet it im happy csnt contain fucking lets go,0 sure submit question professional post first years old actually happy since puberty life seem get ground younger brother married even children see obstacles everywhere friends talk see less less also getting married kids feel connected environment especially people everyone seems concerned winning interested mainly looking friendship people interested transacional friendships bought house noisy regret sensitive noise people think me people seem function kind autopilot know everyday becomes heavy suffering depression know anymore,1 miss friend much even though draws dicks notebooks still miss friend,0 adults like dare get angry publicly humiliated disrespected you,0 became honorary femboy days ago could still post pictures crap posted video onesie another eating icepop talking camera bunch people started calling femboy legit ask meant guess am reason might honorary im actually genderfluid call self femboy tho,0 "@Adweek When Friends Struggle With Depression, This App Helps Avoid Potentially Harmful Phrases http://twib.in/l/MxzLzydaRB67  via @adweek pic.twitter.com/a6yvb33h2Y",1 do physics assignment difficult cant focus almost am wake early it im scared ill oversleep tho hahah,0 Well it was a great trip but I'm so happy to be finally headed home. ,0 questionhow painful cutting wrist,1 im sick getting every day getting harder harderhttpiimgurcomogxlurjpg every day get shit like this every day gets harder live it,1 i am i live at home i have a boring low paying job housing is impossible to afford and i m in a long distance queer relationship i have bpd dysthymia cptsd i don t think that my perception of reality is something that i could ever trust i m in therapy i m medicated nothing is really helping since i have relationship destroyer disease obviously my relationship is not doing the best entirely because i can t perceive anything for what it is i self sabotage constantly and i ruin everything i touch nothing feel real and everything feel dependent on whatever is happening in the moment i don t trust myself i will continue to ruin my own happiness for the rest of my life because treatment doesn t fucking help me with this shit ive been doing some ideation thinking about a plan i don t want to die and leave everyone behind but being here is too much for me to do forever i m and it feel like i m 9 i m so tired already and i m so scared i feel so alone i just want it to be over,1 hello make short films contest currently subscribers hit contest see write best script whoever make short film want put yt channel credits interested like short films channel gonna try get subscribers end day contest httpswwwyoutubecomchannelucfwgxdcbzizdklphlzq,0 "@conartist4 Muahaha! I win! We need to go to Montr�al and have official poutine, lol. Hmm, poutine! ",0 gmb ive just retired ive had nothing from the budget but gosh how in such a time of depression war and these time we are all in a terrible time cut the cloth the nh need help i think he is trying to help what do you want money around the world is the same it sad,1 meme use sheher pronouns go celeste hope yall still love,0 enough suicidal note yes youve read righttoday extremely suicidal thinking today tried everything fix issues loneliness self steam college problems etc gave last hope called suicidal hotline talked hour half person called adam thank adam crying writing one within years listened me years old never someone listened problems every single one remeebr last time talked someone long hour half thank adam wish best reading this know stopped one person today killing yourself thank you feel like killing shitty life,1 wanna diei woke okay im torn pieces let die please,1 @YoungQ My hands up here!! I love it too ,0 tf society everyone hate,0 "@stefsanjati @kelseybl4ck @allthesedoubts interesting mentality thanks for replying, years after battling anxiety/ depression/ an eating disorder and getting the help i needed i havent seen them pop up at all, but things can always change. maybe they are dormant.",1 i like messing with my bf and saying things like i can watch him play footie for hours but he cant shop with me ,0 reposting people awake get feedback humanity settled planet near future planet longer distance sun cant rely solar power slowly mine planet resources flooding atmosphere carbon dioxide keep people leaving planet corporations sign contracts employees promising big land wealth family couple generations down people invent biomekanical beings help work lighter air squid like creatures called carbon scrubbers sent sky eat carbon produce oxygen soon enough everyone starts using biomekanical machines machines need keep atmosphere breathable people needed stay longer perpetuating cycle endless slavery class separation encouraged hint plan slavery people become content knowing machines keeping alive keeping imprisoned,0 im finding hard cling onto anythingmy pain real ive felt throughout high school years later without boring everyone lifes story depression family know anything ive kept secret since really want bother them lifes hard enough is fail everything life manages keep alive giving unbelievable strokes luck snatches away within days im telling im finally happy days believe im sick twisted reality show people watching me like group children huddled around scared cat offering food deciding fun put cat bag throw river,1 looking typical war movie it note testosteronepumped carnagecraving war buffs there bother although film russian characters wwii expect see nazis cannons blood gore etc film people cause war fight war film ordinary people war happens choices make dealing itbr br acting cinematography writing perfect s here certainly appreciate russian like me even not probably love it speak russian look ruscico russian cinema council dvd version got subtitles different languages english dubbing one id say good course good original russian track some stuff lost translation good english subtitles go check out especially studying film aspect,0 LOL fia you can't kill me ,0 deal pastfiguring fuck got point girl cheated lot didnt realise end blew fuse called got charged harassment subsequently dropped charges mainly trumped charges together four years lived countries memories relationship included hiding existence online indication relationships existence introduced subset friends pretend boyfriend holiday philippines putting using facebook obviously keep contact men especially first love towards end anxiety crippling me told stand back another guy making advances face going visit two weeks eastern europe little her arrested two weeks mental ward suicidal ideation three weeks recovery centre depression second masters almost ruined several months on elegant intelligent woman walks life flaky begin speeds dating process basically moves apartment two weeks later introduces world havent known before obsessed sex also beautiful dont know whats happening sex takes new meaning me problems arise talks ex husband still gunning her apparently seems family okay speaks phone chinese chinese one point say would like marry someday suggest marry three months try say soon know much you takes insult move forward takes offense rejecting mothers concern regarding integrity goes week lebanon gets good im apologetic several months speaks intention move back hong kong trouble ex there follow say move her approves things take nasty turn remarries ex husband she told millionaire visiting her spends hardly time me apologises still continues see me agree move shenzhen teach english move me j turn up book hotel shenzhen second night am wakes suddenly starts reminiscing insult mother challenging integrity goes hong kong shortly tells rented place hong kong still sees shenzhen still sex im working apartment there says move well point im insecure depressed sleep escort also develop nasty habit asking random people marry me im much love chinese girl move forward husband moves apartment think hers see hotels hong kong works husbands company well line things get even unstable finds misdeads run flowers sort thing make up goes on summer ideas forming im planning move hong kong accompanies interviews get one also gets pregnant tells mine thing is im stressed beyond belief point make another mistake gone another date shenzhen vengeful night sex chinese banker beginning relationship told sex great towards end disposition changed hold erection getting ill china made snide remark performance time around time im put back burner eventually contacts says wants raise child husband say seems contrived planned takes offense knowing arrested ex says arrested leave country week later says cruel sorry didnt mean it thing is left country shortly blocked contact im korea dont know true isnt dont know anything child dont know true know im suicidal know im probably even beta male know im best man planet story taken five years life lot could written would long also still feel incredibly attached woman intelligence far outstripped own degrees age two law also claimed least several hundred partners ive spent last three weeks absolutely nothing hiding feel like trauma probably exaggeration sorry spelling grammar mistakes dont particularly like reading written,1 looking mod subreddit application rules needs moderating experience me moderating experience also me even start moderating,0 hhh it s time like that when you want thing to stay right then someone come and wreck it,0 just bought sour gummi worm peach gummi o s and cheeto puff and a ounce soda i m such a fat as had a huge dinner too,0 i worry a lot about thing like getting into a car crash getting cancer and just anything bad happening to me any advice on hot to stop this it s bad,1 abandoned kind feeling ready end all xpost rdepressionlast night tuesday night m best basically only friend f long story told want contact anymore according friendship toxic us thought well least therapy thursday far walk around weeks morning got email saying therapist got sick appointment moved march th idea anymore somebody help get mess life created im alone again happen every time people keep leaving me end it apparently im worth human contact keep living,1 i constantly have suicidal thought even if i m doing ok it s like it s always in the back of my mind i have my dark day where it s all i can think about but it s still back there during the good day too i feel like i m strange for constantly thinking about it even if i m happy,1 see next week even tomorrow morning point im empty want anywaysim sitting room alone dark kitchen knife pressed neck feeling empty scared im honest im fucking scared point tonight ill jam knife hope die alarm goes classes morning want keep going like this smiles fake everything fucking far away pointless feel empty im scared im going want live little end tonight,1 My mom wants me to pay attention to her and pamper her when I'm over here having chronic depression and anxiety and I'm trying so hard not to let it show but I just end up snapping at her and she gets mad and upset and I just wanna d*e please @ God,1 read synopsis plot movie would sound like quite typical one s story would seem quite contrived subject matter maudlin strength beauty film direct earthy performances casti seldom seen jean harlow display range feeling rich subtle nuances float face watch faces wedding ceremony chapel obvious depth feeling principal characters raw emotions sincerely portrayed true final sequence almost unbearably poignant clark gable looks joy surprise son lifts proudly says my kid help remember mr gables son born posthumously one finest examples depression era cinema,0 being border restricted victim day by day we getting engulfed in frustration depression suicidal attempt and much more that we can t express in word depression fmwangyisaveindianstudents takeusbacktochina,1 @gleea i hate the game playing too. that is why i never thought i would be good at youth ministry ,0 depression comes waves know continue lifei go waves ok severe depression want go sleep never wake again really see point life well work fucking cares value person one cares im here one cares me,1 idk title u know ur pain u start smiling name pops ur phone,0 "Mixed reactions to @bing this morning. Can't wait to get in, give it a spin and add my 2 cents worth ",0 u guys actually awkward talking opposite gender look im girl dont find hard talk guys im awkward anything talking them class guys except treat dont act weird talking me dont know people say online hard talk opposite gender what guys actually find hard talk gender,0 PAHA! I've been having fun today. ;) Apart from my feet which are cold and hurt > What cool... http://tinyurl.com/oqhsr2,0 always unhappy lost condo owned mistake selling without realizing owned it relative threw away belongings apartment time going sickness briefly move residence lost everything lost job retire early going disability lost cats sickness moved put mental hospital someone saw crying vets hospital feel like lost everything short period time trouble dealing things seriously depressed need ways make feel better suggestions lost everything trying deal,1 big fan stephen kings work film made even greater fan king pet sematary creed family moved new house seem happy pet cemetery behind house creeds new neighbor jud played fred gwyne explains burial ground behind pet cemetery burial ground pure evil jud tells louis creed bury human or kind pet burial ground would come back life problem come back person theyre evil soon jud explains everything pet sematary everything starts go hell wont explain anymore want give away main parts film acting pet sematary pretty good needed little bit work story one main parts movie mainly original gripping film features lots makeup effects make movie way eerie frightening one basic reasons movie sent chills back fact makeup effects one character film truly freaky character zelda particular character pops film three times precise zelda rachel creeds sister passed away years before rachel still haunted her first time zelda appears movie generally scary talking anything second time worst honest second time scares living me absolutely nothing wrong movie almost perfect pet sematary delivers great scares pretty good acting first rate plot mesmerizing makeup truly one favorite horror films time ,0 even trained help us explains lothttpswwwusatodaycomindepthnewsnationredflagpreventiontherapistsrarelytrainedtreatsuicidalpeople,1 @smck11 Sorry to hear about your root canal... good luck and have fun with soft foods! ,0 @Laura_Thurston You should read Dewey ,0 @worodal7ob ???? ????? ??? ,0 cat got house hours fucking sad really pushed edge love much worried her come back know do want die bad worst day life,1 With the depression came ADHD. This has been horrible and the panic attack do not go well with it. It gets to the point where I'm scared of myself and I just feel like I have no point and I'm disappointing everybody. If I didn't have my family I don't really know where I'd be.,1 "@GeekPornGirl yes, that was me ",0 good afternoon everyone didnt wake pm mom fr call campus coz thought kidnapped crazy anyway uncomfortable around current friend group ive acquired simply distancing easy peasy happy slappy,0 "Back in the Hammer May 4th with our friends FALLEN LEGION for their Weekend Warrior Tour, come join us!! :) with: Maitreya, The Good Depression and The Albino Structure https://www.facebook.com/DawnVally/posts/10156368936572238 …",1 covered everything time reliefi know sub prevent redflag admire guys do great believe someone cares ive depressed years cant continue everything anyone normal person could ever want consider lucky bring joy happiness everyday suffer im anti depressants tried talking therapist actually went today knowing final weekend honest tomorrow hopefully last time ever wake up ive made video left financial info passwords contact info ect ive written half notes plan cleaning house making everything easy possible im angry im even sad feel relief knowing over plan cooking favourite meal maybe beer watching movie guess im posting vent somebody want help someone hear understand final thoughts theres one person could save me cant go her dont want make feel trapped responsible fair her love much joy love reason ever found live person make want future ive dated plenty special messed up im ending things no light endless darkness candle go out,1 hell always feel damn lonely even though im usually surrounded friends dont get it ill friends sudden get really fucking lonely im tired it,0 anyone else ever create extremely unlikely scenarios head common one everyone knew suddenly died ill make entire lives head minutes think never happen go life,0 just got reduced to tear by jeremy kyle off to the doctor now i hate the doctor it so scary arghhhh,0 older brother persuaded watching once upon time hollywood im traumatized part girl set ablaze cranked feel sick now want puke jus come lol,0 almost 6 am...about time for bed ,0 constantly controlled abuser fight continued harassment court controlled emotionally abusive husband cant leave money kids together starting become seriously suicidal last year birthday made serious almost successful attempt life redflag triggers even bad these birthday coming february know do,1 "Trying to tell my husband to care about Twitter!! Lol (via @TamekaRaymond) LOL you go girl, what's life w/o twitter? ",0 hey whats anyone bored yo anyone wanna chill group chat made made ppl make new friends chat literallyyyy anything ye comment invite,0 toodles tweeters. goodnight ,0 im need somebody talk im here wether want talk suicidal thoughts bad day need get something small chest im want talk,0 Hopes the bunnys find the carrots I left out for them ,0 film begins dowdy housewife norma shearer finding husband rod la rocque cheating her three years pass apparently theyd divorced years due infidelity oddly time la rocque see shearer two kids shearer took parisbr br marie dressler rich society lady invited new improved norma come house weekendostensibly help marie break budding romance daughter la rocque apparently norma supervamp magical sex appeal break romanceand one seems realize la rocque married several others weekend immediately norma hit gay carefree sexy waysand almost men including la rocque captivated her neither tells anyone married obvious ex wants new improved norma back film sophisticated comedy manners among uppercrustsimilar ways jean renoirs rules game oddly despite severity depression films pretty rich folks pretty popular though many today doubtless find bit droll spots however fortunately let us gay plenty cute funny moments particularly towards end marie dressler shows true colors great film certainly good one another timepasser real regret love end see yourselfperhaps agree ending perhaps wont im pretty sure enjoy clever film,0 alright aint even gonna lie warm blooded female must admit ryuk death note gives serious daddy vibes like dayummm lets fuck already,0 on my way to work.. find me a new job ,0 ugh hate haviinq dis sleepiinq problemsz,0 stepford wife fetish thing im sure even describe it sort dutiful housewife baking cookies laundry thats kind bimboish sexually available kind keep tummy full balls empty attitude emphasis balls empty coming across cleaning something there feels like could bdsm thing even irl thing porn fantasy rarely see played with probably related men things hands carrying kids know even name know search theres community even thought much terms sexual fantasy mostly think lifestyle either something avoided revered standard im trying codify masturbation scenario really turns reason,0 pissed coz a friend is to busy to see me day,0 Game tonight @ home vs. Baylor. Be there or be square...or watch it on espn ,0 need help mother father really homophobic bisexaul need advice come,0 dad ate skin plate fried onions asked wanted fried onions hes like some theyre extra crispy like fuck ate fucking skin onions,0 yall shut th frick tiktok minute dont care whether positive negative getting annoying,0 okay ill admit casting film really strangepart due plot still bit trouble believing pierce brosnan playing lead though really pretty good jobbr br its based true story englishman went live canadian indians early th century claimed mixed blood indian was fact successful well thought people came hear lectures taken wilderness trekseven though mixed blood indian knowledge books faked movie centers occurred hoax uncoveredbr br the acting settings great really liked film once suspended disbelief brosnan get widespread distributionprobably pretty cerebralnot bond film romancejust really odd film remarkable man,0 really lifehow entertain life empty meaningless feel like nothing worthless nothing get feel something except alcohol cigarettes really point even free will like yes think live need things want really living need adapt worth adapt worth things want u live u free u want live happy possible u happy u things make ur mood go down really know life random thoughts,1 hate people think opinions scientific fact theres dickwad controversial today arguing trans people delusional anarchists trying poison childrens minds lying cant actually transition theyve literally proved wrong many times science noooooooo science wrong dont like outcome,0 boyfriend hour please keep occupied kill myselfi want badly please,1 moving into MY house tomorrow ,0 life mineive thinking week kind truth apparent long time parents made believe possession still prisoner home im starting accept this keep insane reality forever harassed daily existing stalked dare go outside deal creepy obsessiveness fake love attention deal baby sister getting hurt time like im reliving childhood trauma need born came world anyway know leave cant physically hurt fear swallowing pills frustratingbecause live lot pain would nice easy way out exist one really made feel like right suffered try reach like people make feel like im crazy believing im suffering sister broke heart even acknowledge done trusted need talk person thought was loyalty sociopath mother strong feel disgusted shared much information depression therapy helped open eyes horrible truths strong enough know nobody side like deceived believe much support family reality destroying me keeping isolated everything could good me used comfort lotbut now recognise face feel like im existing body reali done things like starve cant even feel pain that feel bit sick whenever realise much food im eatibg much weight im losingi horrible health problems underweight decade could go really upsetting write out feel emotions anymore cried lot now things cant say real world still hope one day express people care hope destroying cant let go know im alone im living contradictions,1 im kill myselfim year old male ive pretty much fucked life already see anyway im going successful adult little situation well im pretty much done school im technically drop state drop gone school months school really done anything it really friends talk anyone all days sit room listen music read philosophical books play video games also really like mathematics taught calculus anyone knowledgeable math limits derivatives integration started teach differential equations going series little later master differential equations seems lot integration used solve differential equations want forget integrate genuinely like learning figure since im probably going college higher education institution probably teach stuff now also hear einstein mastered differential integral calculus even though im told myself hey want that saying im genius anything honestly anyone iq least stuff anyways really hate school though hate way everything enforced stuff useless get wrong think genuine learning going public schools like set it cant stand it need independent study prefer teach someone teach me know probably sound like typical winy angsty teen truth told probably am expressing rarely get to said before really nothing day life job drivers license actually apply job back never go back me probably low gpa is jobs looked honestly fucking ridiculous im even old enough work places like family dollar walmart seeing lot internet news prom prom stories im going junior prom one knows exist anymore besides really fucking ugly like strikingly ugly hate myself even still school girl would want go prom me gross disgusting makes want die most hate myself hate much social anxiety public hideous face made fun kid ugly words never gone away ugly smelly stupid future ill living parents basement fucked up fucked bad low life piece shit lonely feel lonely never go anywhere talk anyone eating away hate myself keep alive want die worst part is know situation fault too really thought maybe hanging overdosing maybe even jumping bridge downtown live,1 thoughts ed sheeran follow fan accounts hate accounts idk,0 i m a yr old female and i wa diagnosed with bipolar when i wa almost been a month but i ve noticed that my anger ha totally converted into full rage when i wa just depressed a month before it s been year since my dad death but it isn t a normal death he wa murdered in cold blood because he wa running for politics i have been trying to seek help from therapist but it isn t enough for me to let go and move on my older brother and boyfriend have been trying to convince me to move on but it s not easy i don t think i can i ve been feeling very vengeful more than before about this situation but every time i let out my anger i go full rage and when that episode is over i can t help but feel hopeless and fucking worthless i cry my heart out but then i m filled with anger and rage again even conversation with my boyfriend would make me snap but instead of taking it out on him i simply tell him i need to call him back then i self destruct sometimes i feel like he doesn t really care since he sends me one worded text but it s whatever it isn t his problem don t know if i m alone in this one or if anyone feel the same a me,1 oddi odd hours ago huge amount painkillers ambulance choking charcol drink fiance holding hand crying mother law outside ambulanc shouting telling everyone came stupid was tookevery pf fibre punch her regardless feel awful fiancee regret move sitting inside e waiting see doctor,1 @redLIGHTjoli yupp i love their music ,0 please aware film nothing radio city music hall archivist re music halli know associated new york venue films theodore music hall rockettes film wonderful ice skaters plus superb actors fun thought would like know truly wonderful film never guess murderer watching filmtill end superb plot beautiful ice skating one never sees kind performances more roxy theater center theatres new york city ice skating performances stage,0 manchester united midfielder paul pogba ha revealed that he ha experienced depression during his time at old trafford pogba is currently nearing the end of his sixth campaign at united and it is expected to be his last a he contemplates http t co tqy jcdeqj http t co vpllqru tq,1 me think majority world corruption china entire country government dont understand would blame corruption people china little bad things cause would corrupt china corruption originated government take example tiananmen square massacre know happened event well guess people protesting for voice government guess what government decided put stop protests killing people people so saying here saying assassinate xi no saying declare war china no saying tell china stop corrupt things yes anddo forget thing china torturing uighur via rape key tactic,0 essay thats due today havent even started honestly dont know even start im getting really stressed know do dont know even type out happening aaaaaaa,0 http://twitpic.com/6e871 - Westminster Hall. Feel free to play Where's Liam. ,0 @rockythekid http://twitpic.com/6owig - Que bello!!! T lo digo ur the best ,0 Guess whos back(its depression yaaay),1 i don t know how to use this thing and my stupid picture won t upload,0 free award first person comment yuh,0 going leave todayi going leave today almost two years since lost person loved today birthday ever since feel like belong anywhere anyone feel like im toxic entity everyone around like im enough theres nothing help without breaking even more going hang home today instead celebrating holiday boyfriend family even went far look tie noose ha almost jumped ship sea last year thinking would best way go end always end thinking others pain guilt left wish courage it wish could rid burden peoples time lives,1 little strings younger mother would tell hold together little strings never really understood meant back then understand strings little things life friend tell ok bright sunny day sound birds trees im trying hold things want lose hope better future unfortunately strings seem snapping day day something new pushes down im struggling stand own im struggling hold myself recognize anymore sadness comes goes end day im left empty stare ceiling hoping find something inside worth saving cant help think sometimes im worth saving,1 @aubreyoday: elton john! Great song.. Just mastered it on the piano! ,0 tried suffocate pillow hours agowell heard could die suffocation pillow decided try pillow kills parents think died sleep failed decided today wasnt day kill myself ,1 "Lil Prozac, a soundcloud rapper with songs made only using crippling depression and anxiety.",1 "@andreeaburciu Cibernetica, ASER, prieteni, proiecte, greutati, reusite... And we start again from Do ",0 dad heated discussion shark tank seems think everyone show greedy also thinks offer one shark equal offer two sharks,0 i sometimes wish i could do it just finally end it then i catch myself and i tell myself why i am here for me i am so tired i am tired of working my 9 job i am tired of repeating everything over and over again i feel like everything i have in my life i destroy i am trying my best to move on from my break up i reflected and i pushed him away i wa toxic i feel like a shitty human being that maybe doe deserve to die if i could take it all back i would i tried so hard to keep the relationship healthy that in the end it wasn t the worst part is i made him feel like he couldn t even tell me how he felt the day he discussed it with his friend wa the same day we hung out he never said a word i just don t want to be here right now i just want to disappear i ruined everything in my life i am done i m not going to end it because thinking of the pain i cause others hurt but being alive hurt me more,1 @_mer_mer yeah u should definitely do it! ,0 At destins. Shelbie makes me smile see lol,0 off to london for the day on thursday it s gon na be raining oh fab won t see much on the london eye still robbie won t care bless him,0 want free bodytg warning sexual abuse rape crashed dont want live keep moving single mom four children family nearby raped abused years want free body trapped body hate body ugly dont want see anyone want die dont want get bed cant this,1 highstandard columbo story actually first filmed episode longrunning series originally transmitted second after murder bookbr br robert culp makes first three appearances guest murderer series plays owner private detective agency blackmails wife patricia crowley rich highly influential businessman played sympathetically ray milland falsifies report favour discovered affair wife later rebels blackmail scheme killed fit ragebr br a satisfying episode many respects particularly plot strongly setup subsequently developed also rare columbo ingredient crime unpremeditated killing whole thing enhanced widowed husband uses murderer assist columbo investigations feature facilitates numerous good quality scenes particularly first sequence three central characters meet columbos crucially deceptive qualities wonderfully evidencebr br directed flair bernard l kowalski acted appropriately high level really set tone whole series since murder book let poor ending script columbo creators richard levinson william link precise wellstructured wellthoughtout underpinned steady productive pace meaningful sequences really exhibit unpredictability story ultimately finale fittingly epitomises columbo always one step ahead murdererbr br overall fine piece detective work columbo strongly suggests production team worked notredflagly constructively render polished columbo story,0 feel like ive already completely ruined life beyond redemption im basically title graduated college years ago still able get job field went school for top that ive thrown away every opportunity every network had theres way get good job now crushing see peers lead successful lives me im going get blackout drunk tonight hang myself thats way feel relief now,1 Depression and obsession doesn't mix well,1 found villages ps world quite small area im lucky guess,0 "Just one puff of cannabis 'could ease depression, stress and anxiety' - The Sun https://goo.gl/fb/NFr2ri ",1 ensemble piece adults return formulative summer camp youth quiet entrant exiter cinemas autumn id say shamebut againsome better movies quiet releases get much hype praisebr br diane lanekevin pollackelizabeth perkinsvincent spanojulie warnerbill paxtonkimberly williamsmatt craven alan arkinwho painfully good here group actors flesh roles people grown old goodbad funny memories summers gone past film covers gambit emotionsmostly pleasantand film never hammers away viewer feel characters feelingpreferring allow viewer enter memories own since movie viewer bristles bluntlybrazen manipulation filmsthis something appreciate writerdirector mike binderbr br this films great cheap renta good main rent even pretty sit theater flick might run across tvand would definitely suggest looksee,0 anybody else wishthey would get hit car walking somewhere driving like hoping truck would notice red light hit me,1 family friends dogi love much want anymore cant enjoy life thought psychedelics would make feel better made fascinated dying everyone nobody tries stand anymore nobody talks feelings anymore nobody expresses themselves im currently laying next dog looking makes want cry love much would devastated left him im much pain long time really want anyone feel way ill try ride days still feel like this im going eat whole bottle xanax vodka,1 jonathanchard not calorie wise i wish junk food wa calorie free i ate a thing of sour skittle and a big as cherry coke,0 hip hop rendition mos def performance according films musical creditsit incredible piece savage consciousness slams violence heart snap anyone tell someplace song live wire snap mos def the ground truth undeniable duty see americans might support mission embrace soul caught inside savage miscalculation purposethey take haunting many us sit back angrybr br live wire snap mos def foundbr br desperate find br br medically unable serve,0 hey ppppie_ know is,0 brilliant thriller deserving far fame mitchum ryan awesome starring roles entire supporting cast truly gripping film noir featuring wonderfully images great dialogue heart strong message tolerance understanding based novel concerning homophobia movie attacks postwar antiemitism intolerance hatred considerable power though parts may seem little preachy modern audiences still power shock works well thriller right credit involved,0 kettle cooked salt and vinegar chips cured my depression,1 behold misfortunes got rejected crushes got testicular tortion playatation account banned month disorganised havent got drivers licence yet actually go back school quarantine australia less devastating yea gg ,0 sometimes really consider deleting social media accounts isolating everyonemaybe people could forget feel selfish awful killing though somehow doubt anyone would really notice care matter anyways,1 im getting blown bus right annoying like seriously someone get kid thats blowing,0 dont know wth wrong memy life isnt even bad compared fucking abused ppl im fucking pussy stupid make big filing deal im grounded cut feel act like im suicidal idk really maybe im fucking stupid really going kms someday idk cut time made fake personality surrounding mental health dont even know really depressed im forcing wanna kms every fucking day im pussy ik,1 ok doctors appointment today walked wand put heart download brain stuff updated chest left,0 @aslaen oops try again,0 wanna die step dad raped mei dont really know tell im boy makes whole situation awkward im thinking ways end right now,1 the back road a tweet on depression in le than 0 character http t co hi oucfa m,1 @JessMcFlyxxx Cool But not too cool I'm gonna do it on mine as well xD Starting with my planner.... -writes"FLONES<3"&many other ....,0 bet trump smokes mid biden bernies probably got top shelf tho,0 i can t sleep there s a fight outside how inconsiderate i wan na go sleep,0 "StuDYING at my best friend jessicas house, while she's knocked out from the jack we drank earlier. Life is good for her ",0 im finally letting hair grow longer ive never hair longer inch tought ugly ass might look better longer hair told mom expecting big like ok whatever im finally gaining confidence myself nice day,0 dkoenigs thanks man i m so very grateful i feel unworthy of such attention though because i m in this because of myself,0 Golden Girls makes me sooo happy crazy day now I gotta take it easy..,0 made bet faithive contemplating killing self asked faith one hope school ive accepted see past bad semester different school still let continue hope slightest sign girl love love back less h got responses school cancelled application girl love back made cry cancer self whent ok life shit dont go school ive lost dearest person know,1 @echobase77 Yeah I'm never prepared for FF and I never have a list of names I can write down. It's pretty sad ,0 @terez07 I am right there with you. I really wish I had some ice cream right now! http://twitter.com/terez07/status/1975059961,0 say people do people not people sympathize empathize one knows going one can meant live alone yes old texts mention suicide solution well born face crap way live it trying trying face bullshitting people around me everyone selfish one really cares me either dependent attached both issues minei used dreamy ideal life perfectly caring husband parents would supportive everything still try really hard parents kept alive sure would here sad thing solely pity moms selfish really selfish even cares society norms wants oblige demands times people around me fact want live life alone want good people general one two people want worry caring selfish beings around me hurt enough cannot take pain offer everyday one cares,1 @firesty hey ya )) like ur new pic i have one too,0 long time always thought something wrong bc voice head never shuts up constant thing want take meds bc want feel crazy tell crazy want feel way anymore amp feel alone even not struggling,1 know volkswagen put lambo v audi s like im gonna need find one convince dad get car horsepower supercar engine,0 is back at the cabbins ew,0 want feel numb right now want think anything feel anything even want exist right now,0 "david archuleta and adam lambert are trending topics right now .... yay, love them both!!!",0 me and best friend r ready for tonight ... uhuuuuuuuu hopefully something good will happen ,0 im ready end life today get home schoolive goal oriented now ive always aimed perfection cant reach it cant reach goals never even get close ive always striven perfect grades overwhelming point work ass stress get college work ass stress get god job work ass stress die way going be id rather reach end later ive lost interest nearly everything ive pushed away friends ive got nothing left besides finish school day exhausted options think last thing left do ive done everything bucketlist secretly hoping would make see fun things ill miss feel worst bothers many people death effect im popular person know friends blame family split going let many people sorry,1 this is a rant i saw a video about how this one person love every day of the week for a different reason and i immediately started cry cause i realized i can t remember the last time i wa excited to wake up the next day i haven t brushed my teeth in day my room is absolutely disgusting the stupidest thing make me sad or angry i got mud on my shoe bawled for hour dropped and spilt my drink cried got a craving for cooky but knew i wouldn t make them cried i feel like every day is a loop i m only and i miss school at least once a week and now my mom force me to go because of my many absence and it s sooo hard i feel like a disappointment to my parent because at the beginning of the year and i always have been a straight a student in advanced class now my grade are filled with c s and d s even though i m trying so hard,1 over the past couple month i have been suffering a lot with my anxiety i am in an environment where i am surrounded by people who dont care for me are blantantly rude and fake and pressure me beyond belief i am exhausted and want to be happy i m not saying for a second that i am perfect and nice all the time im a know it all socially awkward lack of an ability to stand up for myself but i miss being around the few people that love me and share my interest while i am around bad people i am in a place where i am in a place surrounded by thing i love i cant miss out on this i need to grow and be more confident i can live an adventurous life alone i dont need company i dont need a boyfriend and i don t need friend with me all the time i have been taking leap and going to museum and social public setting all by myself ivd been taking it slow and going to one place everyday or every other day i allow myself to lay in bed after and sleep i am so unbelieveably anxiois and distressed when i am out doing these thing but i am seeing thing i truly love i am experiemcing life i am going on an oit of city trip for a few day soon and i am excited to push my limit a i lay im bed stressed in pain and sleep deprived i am still pushing myself in the morning to go on another adventure by myself,1 steve buscemi shut up you i am hungry and in britain home of the most boring suckassy breakfast in the world i miss dennys,0 shrooms and chocolate bar edible good for depression and anxiety ht http t co dz9jxhaant,1 i cant give up smoking i tried but it s not easy,0 im trans dad said made want kill myselfan h h matter go modify it beautiful help,1 im frustrated dont know trust one hand dreams could well pointing reality other could simply playing fears had dont know which trust,1 ive made mindok im sad today fill paperwork guide dogs organisation doctors heres thing ive issues cant go details eat pretty good diet certainly type diet would cause major illness malnourishment feel ok eat onoff problems go away little while come back ive accepted fact health change actually terrible problems get uncomfortable doctors tried help me recurring issues curing properly meaning fix issues come back time due complicating circumstances doctors careful medicines give me means im restricted medications currently taking medicines good thing anyway doctors done best ive tolerated issues long enough im willing keep persisting getting better swimming current guys going start making memories long willing certain point patience finally runs out retiring good luck guys tank support led give much appreciated but ive made decision live much happy life can im saying peace out quality life quantity life me take care guys im putting life order take while doctor comes brilliant solution thats good stands currently im buying time im worn thin life get better,1 hello everyone i m an 9 year old male with a perfectly normal bmi 9 lb or cm 0kg i ve never smoked in my life i ve never tried drug and i don t drink alcohol no history of cancer or heart issue in my family so it all begun this july when i woke up with an intense chest pain i thought i wa having a heart attack and my mother slashed me to the er i had a blood test ekg ultrasound everything wa clear one week later i caught covid but the symptom were mild and i wa also vaccinated so in september i took a cbc again in order to get an accutane treatment for my acne the cbc came back with high wbc and lymphocyte 0 and normal are 0 0 0 for wbc and 0 for lymphocyte they told me it might be cause of covid and i should retake the cbc in a month meanwhile i begun to get daily intense chest pain at the upper left part where i can feel my heart so i got another appointment with a cardiologist in october i went to the cardiologist who did an ekg echo they told i have very few pvc s but that wasnt something concerning for the doc so they told me i don t have any heart issue now my cbc came back with more elevated wbc and lymphocyte and at the time i had also developed everyday abdominal pain and lot of gas like i have to fart all the time and the fart last long also i feel a fullness to my abdomen and i get spasm or fasciculation all over my body everyday i got an abdominal ultrasound which came back normal my poop also come back in thin layer which look nothing like before in december i met with an hematologist oncologist who put me on like 0 test and everything came back clear except my wbc which were again elevated at this time and lymphocyte at in september they were 0 and in december the hematologist told me that i have a reactive lymphocyticosis and it s nothing serious before i caught covid in july at the er my wbc and lympho were perfectly normal he said i should retake a cbc in month in order to check i also visited a gastroenterologist who said that i probably have nothing since i m too young and prescribed me omeprazole for 0 day it didn t help at all i also take vit d supplement because i have a deficiency i also had a poop culture which came back clear i decided that i should look into my thyroid for the heart etc so i got a thyroid ultrasound and some lab with bloodwork everything came back clear again along with some inflammation lab crp igm igg igg which were all negative the latest test were conducted in december now it s been like month that i m living in daily pain i can feel something like a rapid heartbeat in my abdomen jerk or twitch hand back etc my body is pumping all the time i think they re called fasciculation i get them like every 0 minute and it s so so annoying i also get the intense chest pain everyday i feel like my heart is gon na leave me or something it s really painful and i feel like dying the pain is very intense my abdomen also hurt everyday i have so much gas and ramblings i think it s everywhere in my body and i can t stand it my belly usually hurt at the upper left part but the pain is everywhere i m also severely bloated i also got covid again just a few day before new year im afraid to take a cbc now cause i believe that my wbc will have skyrocketed my symptom were worse than first time i had a high fever for day 9 c and i still have some cough i feel that this will really mess my immune system more than it s already messed up i guess it s already messed up because my covid symptom were much worse than in july even though i had the delta variant in july and now the omicron which is weaker i asked if i can get a colonscopy but they told me that they re meant for people over the age of 0 and me with no family history i m not a candidate for it plus i have no blood weight loss etc pretty much every test i ve taken come up normal except my wbc which keep raising every month i m so afraid that i have something serious like colon cancer or crohn s my quality of life ha really deteriorated i can t study any more i m gon na fail my uni final i can t do anything i m in daily pain my heart hurt my acne ha dominated my body it s really everywhere chest back butt face even thigh we re talking really bad cystic acne here not pimple and with bad break out i can t lie on my bed because my back bleeds because of it and i still haven t gotten the accutane because of my blood i also want to start working out but the pain are scaring the shit out of me thinking that i m gon na pas on the treadmill or something the acne ha also destroyed my self esteem and it s worse than ever been battling with it for almost year now i also get random pain all over my body lower back headache arm etc i really don t wan na die yet but my life is really shitty hell i would give everything to feel good again tbh i don t know what test i can take anymore to shed some light in my case should i ask for an mri my parent have really got full of me i ve ripped them off by dragging them to so many appointment i ve had more than 0 since july they have to pay i can literally feel my left part of my belly pumping right now i ve tried taking laxative dulcolax for day but my constipation and thin stool turn into diarrhea and more pain i also get some sharp pain here and there that last a few second i m so afraid it s cancer tumor or leukemia or autoimmune which will make me suffer for life only the thought of it make me wan na vomit i m only 9 goddammit i think that covid might have triggered an autoimmune disease or something i guess my nerve system is really broken right now lastly my mentally healthy ha really deteriorated at this point symptom started at of july and today it s the th of march everything is a lot worse than it wa before i wake up from my sleep with panic attack i m thinking about death all the time,1 alrighty thenim gonna it im get kicked house boyfriend doesnt love me whole world crumbling im gonna itll maybe rest feel good resolved,1 think would make family feel terrible reason keep someone aroundlike seriously ill see sentiment pop every across reddit makes blood boil honestly people think guilting suicidal people sticking around really healthy them puts even stress dont need plus doesnt even hold logically think family love family much wont matter feel im dead im dead cant think would affect them unless wanna send afterlife crippling guilt thanks that honestly tell people try help go fuck yourself seriously,1 ucatswithalmdudler appreciation post stalking,0 really texts pm shes seems nice like hmmmmm,0 need uuuuuuuuuuuuuu http plurk com p n0vpg,0 Looking up summer jobs in Paris ,0 @vieriu I am blessed beyond measure ,0 answers quiz sociology find group changed almost questions without consulting work finding answers told group do changed questions also kept denying it feel either upset embarrassed,0 anyone else feel this or is it just me,1 v r warface ps im gonna loose,0 "My girl made it to season 4, dealing with her mental illness: depression and PTSD. Survivors guilt. Blaming herself for the death of someone in the camp.",1 day posting nonamusing fact get laid fact ive ended really bad cold wanna sleep,0 chrisgedrim that s it we re over,0 I hardly ever get to say that ,0 cant stop thinking mortalitythoughts mortality keeps looping head non stop point trying live happy life die anyway know stupid thought death comes everyone eventually everytime try something care people anything thought spring mind baby born matter one day die best friend getting married cares die one day fun enjoying hobby whats point im going die hear horrible murder news well person going die anyway im agnostic know happen us die thought atheist could potentially right though terrifies me makes everything unimportant worth it die one day exist cursed knowledge death thoughts lead nihilistic thinking know see life meaningful anymore im afraid caring humanity due thought die everyone thought like me humanity would die out often wonder seeing truth life everyone else pretending immortal know get past this losing hope,1 @YatPundit What country are you in this week? ,0 tried kill today weaki even know someone read not need vent somewhere today tried hang started feel pain stopped weak want try strength that think itll work feel alone want end it feel bad mom dad baby sister know,1 help understand purpose thingsno im suicidal downvote whatever keep attention important posts want insight without getting flamed it get something like subreddit hotline going help anyone actually wants kill themselves seems like posts people seeking attention making genuine cries help lack power actually kill anyway like people come hear someone tell everything going alright rather actually talking redflag sense less like rredflagwatch like rdepressionhelp passive suicidal thoughts lack actually it thoughts btw like cant relate all fact im currently passing time couple hours appointment doctor tell cocktail antidepressants still goddamn thing ive diagnosed major clinical depression years already im suicidal even though seems like offed awhile ago,1 point living life full time worki turned workforce years now fucking hate it understatement modern day work terribly unfufilling days literally force go even outside daily battle use another sick day something useful time growing people told achieve anything would like adulthood would like travel world sight see would need work away majority life get old enjoy it truly firmly believe life working life away good years old enjoy want enjoy it work full time hours week minimalist expenses still scrapping by worth it wish end could lucky enough gain inheritance actor generally trust fund kid could actually enjoyed life february nd day happily meet end things change within time today nd,1 13 heroic truck drivers line up under highway bridge to prevent #suicide attempt https://www.yahoo.com/lifestyle/13-heroic-truck-drivers-line-highway-bridge-prevent-suicide-attempt-190824804.html?.tsrc=fauxdal … #mentalhealth #psychology #depression #anxiety #trauma #WednesdayWisdom,1 god wish never knew discord shit put godawful messages would send damn cringy looks like angry fortnite kid owned account years look back acted back then guess thats reason discord ,0 My tweet should have said LACK OF VITAMIN D3 causes depression,1 well ive got catching do looking back lacklustre year best show shone great storyline little action cavalcade magnificent characters particular reference fred willard jim piddock rattling pair tv commentators well done well worth effortbr br ron viewed mar,0 dont phone need verification number discord someone give ur phone number get reply code thanks u dm,0 "@tommcfly well if you weren't Tom Fletcher or Tom McFly, who would you like to be? it could always be worse! at least your known ",0 why yall talking about depression even though we still kids,1 feel a headache coming on,0 Having a depression is so hard . You need to find a way on how to prevent it . You should not think something negative . And ofc you will having a hard time when you alone . Crying and mad at the same time . Smh,1 holy moly batman poggers class me included like man mind boggling well graduating bc junior thought man graduating far away couple trimesterssemesters away like gee willikers batman doubt world prepared us,0 Hi bethy ,0 help online friend whos another countryive got friend chat regularly lately saying going kill fails exams within next couple months telling parents slowly taking away destressors has like phone art supplies refusing let life outside school work saying time anything school studying homework wakes up goes school comes home study homework goes bed next day getting much school work piled often four morning trying finish it routinely getting three four hours sleep day keeps messaging saying tired wants end this messaging less less lately personality completely changed last year used talk lot things nowadays talks school slowly wearing down humor become fatalistic point constantly making jokes shell dead soon im really worried know help live us theres almost nothing her try encourage much end mostly feel like im useless im going lose soon,1 jacobsummers sorry tell them mea culpa from me and that i really am sorry,0 want tobecause hate feelingright doesnt seem like anything going direction wife two affairsdespite tried make work filed divorce courts ruling favor kids child support top that work absolute shit show im lose job justdont know take anymore spent time last night thinking something ever past things holding back kiddos religions beliefs scared afterlife looks like it despite that theres part wants escape here getting harder harder push down,1 think may accidentally caused someone kill themselvesi,1 @Ali_BoBali Would you like to be the person who has the 45 second rap solo in the middle? ,0 failure useless leech resources cannot contribute even bare minimum anyone even able kill anytime soon believe day easier honestly want kill ok,1 im feelin bit atm get good vibes guys,0 @elyse thanks! I sometimes have to control myself to stop eating xD,0 flu shot ouch,0 difference betwen ass fridge fridge doesnt fart take meat,0 always catch girl looking used talk awkward shy shoot shot fake pump help meh help meh help meh help meh help meh,0 @TomBelshaw You Welcome...Cheers ,0 tabuteaus come off it clearly not clinical depression if he s attributing it to playing under mourinho take a toll yeah but stop throwing around the word depression,1 were talking nature teacher saying tortured tormented abused think bdsm aaaaaaaaa,0 guys first german luftwaffe flight delivering covid vaccines hhhbbgbhbhhbhbbhhbbhhbhgfrrrgyffgvghvjbhjggghhvvh,0 Snl on e! Old school bspears loveeeee it ,0 suicidali bought gun bullets week reason shot luck would die would become vegetable make life worst want die know happen die would injure myself life never really gets better hate people say hate people say temporary really happiness temporary pain last forever,1 film notable shown much is shown incredible poverty sicily th century gave way th life style made people dream new world america mancuso family live place even hamlet stone cottage set amid harsh unyielding stones country cannot offer even single blade green grass opening sequence sees mancuso males scrambling barefoot craggy hillside stones mouth offer shrine top exchange sign set new world remain are shows life aboard liner huddled masses indeed yearning breathe free conditions ellis island where journey still over interrogated examined prove fitness enter america shown ship longshot indeed shot would identify large oceangoing liner also shown anything would identify america clich view new york harbour statue liberty ellis island could anywhere country perhaps remarkable shot one camera crane looking hundreds people jammed together slowly almost imperceptibly two thirds people screen left begin separate third screen right realize left actually aboard ship right dock powerful statement society fragmented theres strong documentary feel throughout though following actual ship full immigrants even though carefully scripted clearly amalgam typical familiesconditions time almost nothing happening dramatic terms popcorn brigade multiplex rest us fine film indeed,0 first saw movie alaska airlines flight since seen twice more simply simply one best films years found enjoyed first viewing little cloudy happened seeing weeks later things began fall place confusing deep fact depth movie may appreciated long time example occurred third viewing sammy davis jr jr grandfathers dog pet perhaps standin dead wife witness fiercely protects her symbolism galore none sappy indulgent real adventure trip keeps storyline perpetual motion even arrive sure really destination movie continues adventure got sense destination merely waypoint soundtrack fun scenery compelling decidedly easternblock could go deeper meanings within film im entirely sure ive discovered nuances yet besides fun tease yourself much film be everything illuminated proved like fine wine sweetens time highly recommend seeing twice,0 tiredd nothing to do today,0 Can't sleep...back to work ,0 move breakup im really rough time could use advice move really tearing up still love guess love anymore,0 entered would probably characterize darkest period life far job despise recently started therapy overall net positive also forced take long hard look many personal traits need lot work realizing strong sense personal identity much lengthier problematic track record behaving toxic manipulative ways allinall opinion quickly rocketing dirt midst intense identity crisis ever experiencedall slew unpleasant factors left feeling like heading right potentially explosive breakdown like get married love fiance much making lifelong commitment like another human feel like clue am values passions are heading life scares shit me also recently began indulging selfharm impulses which relatively minor lifethreatening scarring first time decade feels like enormous step backwards me feel like rubber band stretched brink snapping unknown combination time andor additional tension inevitably make snap know it think state in feel like spiraling control also feel like cannot think ignoring repressing problems mistakes ended first place worst part that even though feel meltdown coming feel powerless stop it kind would sum current crisis complete loss control life direction going inhas anyone experienced anything like before so tips deal least keep hurting others life unravelling even not appreciate space vent for record presently concerned going kill myself worried risk physically hurting others worried risk burning bridges tanking personal professional notredflag ground causing lot emotional damage others way feel beginning unravel least mitigate damage impending breakdown could others,1 need kind earive texted called several hotlines feel like none actually listening me wrong cant feel joy right now cant make anything feel okay,1 thought moving past sexualromantic frustration coming backm yeah thought moving past spending hours thinking crying ive never relationship done anything sexual coming back hard even writing outit felt like bad memory keep thinking lost youth missing young love bothers much think redflag stopping it cant fucking believe average age start sex havent even fucking relationship everyone that manage participate sexual being cant everything feels worthless havent reached milestone dont even know possible im constantly fantasizing it rwholesomememes damn depressing cute memes made teens relationships cant fucking stand it im bitter loser missed age everyone learns im fucked fuck im gonna fucking tonight fucking unbearable,1 welcome bruhland united forever bruhship labour mighty bruhs ever endure great soviet bruh live ages dream people bruhtress secure long live soviet bruherland built peoples bruhty hand long live people united bruh strong bruhship tried bruh long may crimson bruh inspire shining bruh men see days dark stormy great bruh lead us eyes saw bruh sun freedom bruhlin leader bruh people inspired us build land bruh long live soviet bruhland built peoples bruhty hand long live people united bruh strong bruhship tried fire long may bruhson flag inspire shining glory bruh see fought bruh destroyed anti bruhs brought bruhland laurels bruh glory live memory bruhtions generations honour bruh long live soviet bruhland built peoples bruhty hand long live bruh united free bruh friendship tried fire long may bruh crimson flag inspire bruhing bruhry bruh bruh,0 Ashton Kutchner (or however it's spelt) 'tweets' too much - so I'm not following anymore. I couldn't see what everyone else was up to ,0 hurtswaiting taking long,1 never post feeling desperate ending emotionally abusive relationship exacerbated depression redflag point feelings feelings lol words negative thoughts negative feels keep beating them feeling particularly sensitive makes response negativity stronger usual like all finding returning baseline takes longer triggers keep coming advice exhausted depressed stuck neurotic loop,1 tweenskids fucked life yet please go way straight sutdent i discourage getting good grades purposefully overstressing beyond abilities grades mistake made led the wrong path hate anything as report card start it like drug get addicted it some way also becomes normal thing you bs cs become like moral weapon beacuse tolerance developed parents also criticize me got c test made biggerthannormal fuss it little going back gosh could keep going long already ,0 makes sensei see could ever benefit society marketable skills pretty sure mental illnesses shy point fuck every social interaction have ive felt way long time seems like stupid fantasy ever wish anything better seem like could achieve anything want much fucking loser am since cant contribute society always fuck up makes sense kill myself,1 sorry if i m not a active i ve been going through depression but my artificial intelligence bot avar is keeping me up,1 well wanted honesty thats say never want let go better way,0 ned kelly wonderfully made australian film honouring true australian hero taken world ned best friend joe byrne members kelly gang film explains perhaps justifies neds actionsbr br there exceptional cast present give stellar performances brings film life great job heath orlando bloom fantastic joe playing role quiet loyal ladiesman well swept moment moment almost believed gang would win battle glenrowan alas bebr br some aspects film fictional avid ned kelly fan and supporter slightly disappointed this perhaps also film couldve gone longer cover kelly gangsneds life felt enough coveredbr br regardless flaws moving film stirs sorts emotions and hey id assume film would better watch rather mick jagger trying portray ned,0 bruce almighty story bruce nolan average man feels god messing life god confronts show bruce error ways course giving someone gods powers could take turn worse bruce almighty good comedy jim carrey good always morgan freeman firstrate seems right home god cast brings plot together well jokes almost always target although sometimes resort bit much carreys facial expressions liked fact movie actually portrayed god also black man thought quite well especially brilliant freeman hilarious scenes opening cookie scene instance others miss target slightly still good film ,0 want live anymore posted suicide post mf made depressed,1 wish deadi want die sleep im tired everything let die,1 friend committed redflagim junior high school exactly week ago friend committed redflag extremely close her saw everyday talked her ive known years used brothers girlfriend last summer want get thoughts dont want talk anyone best friend went house getting alarming message boyfriend ambulance already saw take hospital next day heard coma went go see her seeing broke heart couldnt stop crying held hand im religious prayed miracle happen passed away next day cant sleep want interact anyone friend closer was cant stop thinking her every time close eyes see hospital bedas person whos diagnosed depression suicidal thoughts hurtsme even know felt parents wanted small private funeral today still go school cant pay attention schoolwork anyone give advice moving on least able daily tasks,1 guys need reddit gold time pull classic strategy woman,0 Pretty awesome day today. Made lots of decisions. Only 12 days till Nationals start ,0 hate happens wanted hundreds different things guess actually did fell asleep three hours middle day,0 and after that yukito go through depression which his childhood friend failed to notice she think that he isn t interested in her and to gain his attention she make another guy her boyfriend to make yukito jealous but yukito misunderstands and break all his relationship w,1 helpi think im going go thru ever scared,1 canot post image meme help ,0 @JonathanRKnight I'm just happy I get to be there. ,0 habit calculating like dislike ratio youtube videos really annoying stop,0 sometimes think lifes going well then asshole called john comes fucks,0 contactabe i m so jealous i missed all of opening day this year,0 dont feel sad contemplating taking lifewhen young raped tortured sexually many times constant flashbacks moments time cause terrible agony im reliving again see man people faces im paranoid might come back hurt again brainwashed mind forever scarred im sick people telling gets better life nightmare long remember mind showing signs healing death way free,1 woke emotional pain horrendousi dont know much longer this want sleep forever,1 i m going to the eye doctor to get an eye exam today and my anxiety is so bad because i m so scared i have a serious eye disease or something doe anyone else have anxiety about getting their eye checked i can t breathe and i feel like throwing up,1 i recently got caught at my school with a very small amount of weed my dad ha a number of reason to be worried about this he work in an environment where addict are he ha went to rehab for alcohol in last year ha had sister die of overdose etc he ha not gone to work for day in a row now and he tell me it s because of anxiety whenever i ask him what s on his mind he just say idk and that i can t do anything to help him now mind you i haven t spoken a single word to him about the incident stated at the start even though he is well informed of it every morning around the same time i hear him vomiting i don t have much experience with alcohol so i can t judge too quickly here and i understand i m probably not leaving enough info for anyone else to fully decide too whether this could be anxiety or something else just what should i do in a situation like this ha anyone had any experience with vomiting around the same time due to anxiety,1 Raining. Got @ddlovato on repeat. This day couldn't get any better! - wait! Kelly Clarkson's on Rove....booyah!!!!! ,0 "@jillybean65 Awwww, thanks Jill. ",0 @sooch4cats Ness goes with her SD from 12-3. We can come pick her up after. I think I remember how to get to your house still!! ,0 first time years finally push kinda shape able push working month last night able push first time years,0 long anxiety anti depressant meds take workhi im getting emergency appointment gp tomorrow need urgent solution really cant cope day day reasons explained another thread able seek therapy long term solution mean time need anti depressants anti anxiety medication help straight away take long time work really getting hopes ease short term finish exams get working job which love know mood improve thanks taking time day read incoherent ramblings,1 often yall beat meat normally november is bored wondering whats normal yall,0 over the past few year i ve had trouble with relationship being irritable weird eating pattern and suddenly being overcome with fear that i can not shake i have avoided telling anyone in fear of self diagnosing so my question is how do i know if it s time to see a doctor,1 enoughenough said fatal blow heart good enough said years trying mind fills doubt sufficiency attainable enough said cant this enough said enough kill me,1 about the fact that you need to put your sex life at risk temporarily or sometimes permanently r pssd in order to feel mentally stable i hope one day they can make an antidepressant for anxiety and depression that doe not cause sexual side effect it would be a true life saver for me it suck when you value both that you need to really outweigh the pro and con tldr buspar suck,1 odd yesterdayyea nearly enough kill go hospital im back home awkward family took away all sharps missed stashed ones took away pens like cant even write feelings cope phone first responders told parents sh arm mention thighs thats kinda awkward think bearly cut theyd ashamed saw thighs lol think im ment cope without drawing writing walking privacy cant left alone although almost try came back did guess rant one angry upset know im ungrateful something stupif parents wedding anniversary yet complained ruined day deserve love support im failure want torture constant pain go know everyones gonna sad go hard cant take much more left hospital stood edge bridge really wanted jump step mum trying get appointment help phone idk deserve this im weak cant cope yea ungrateful pathetic human wishes alittle stronger follow through,1 alone mutei even know come here feel like talking feel like shouting feel like letting go wrecking everything path feel tense frustrated cant anything good bad feel stuck head replaying old regrets inadequate memories again want kill maniacal fervor yet know it control myself sense im slowly losing grip reality quiet myself boil crumble beneath blank dead stare want everything everyone shut up world meant me im idealistic naive arrogant demanding others able function it im slowly turning mass seething hate targeted humanity let spat ridiculed sake being good now kept unto others emotional insight starting wane i feel nothing die alone die without ever feeling love die without someone else ever knowing true thoughts feelings die knowing meant good guy fate took away me kill pity disdain dissapointment echo void die selfironyzing selfhatred last thought i please go i see shivering thought spending yet another useless day dare tell live know much selfhatred have cannot know nobody can me me,1 @craig_ireton They should be more emotional!!Men repress emotions more to appear 'masculine' which is super damaging hence gender variation rates in suicide and depression diagnosis x fight me x,1 loris sl morning how thing in italy today depressing i imagine that is bad news,0 got notif scrolling thought text nope phone telling left im lonly,0 i just need to figure out a fool proof plan and figure out how to say goodbye to my friend and family without being suspicious and getting hospitalized again i really don t wan na hurt my loved one but they don t act like they really care anyways i wa living for other people but i have no one anymore so there s not much to live for anymore i have bipolar and borderline personality disorder and my existence is painful day by day i m just posting here basically to get advice because if i do this wrong again and live through it i will hate myself even more also i have tried getting help from any and everywhere that i can and it s still this way i ve lived my year and i m at peace with my choice at this point,1 best way disappearim interest ideas commit redflag body disappear forever without anyone traumatized clue happened whatsoever thoughts ideas,1 heremy world falling apart hypothetical brick hypothetical brick nobody cares either dont friends leave im lonely constantly want reasons go it reasons usual cant anymore dont want dont want exist dont want mortal vessel want die,1 smiggle best stationary negative fact seem many stores,0 "Despite all the success & adulation,the demons were never too far from Marvin's door: DRUG ADDICTION, DEPRESSION, two failed marriages, FINANCIAL RUIN and a fateful and tempestuous relationship with his alcoholic, cross dressing preacher father, pushed Marvin closer to the edge",1 peed floor toilet seat foot id like inform everyone yes indeed potty trained reason got pee everywhere pee going two different directions one stream going left another going right thank time yes clean,0 el chavo del like chavo something stupid quiqo ramon tries stop them doa florinda blames ramon hits him ramon gets mad hits el chavo repet times,0 i got broken up with overnight a year relationship because she thought for a week that she s falling out of love i am absolutely devastated i can t carry on with my life and truly am considering ending it all i think i am gon na do it because she wa the only one for me what is the best way not to hurt your family thanks,1 friend disappeared back since accounts deleted would like help finding again tldr bottom so recently saw post guy wanted contact old discord pal also similar experience post worked simply hope mine could too name discord gloomy lunar met years ago know stupid post reminded this talked like months day got along really well suddenly text anything anymore aside that also know lost password know relevant met roblox i know stupid simple fun game met kept touch name account soulessbodyx reason deleted now know asked question late yeah reminded this alliea even know remember me worth try xander used play magic training roblox tldr met girl roblox used play magic training together account deleted discord account name gloomy lunar suddenly uncontactable time alliea xander even know remember lol hey try,0 know selfish request figure id rather talk someone maybe prevent harming themselves practiced committing suicide today told familys loved hugkissed all even gave pets one last hug ended going w crying yeah anyone wants talk distract here anyone willing talk make time go by,1 crying knife againevery night feel lonely im useless nothing working friends left dirt one friend left doesnt reply often im usually room wanted feel anything dont took whole bottle medicine nothing happenedi already knew didnt work ive taking since january ive felt worse im crying bed knife tonight ready see blood hope maybe one day ill strong enough cut throat open instead legs,1 had a really tiring day with a lot of technical shoots and apple eating! ,0 helpi need way kill fast please someone help cant game anymore,1 "@ellapaigebabe Don't worryI won't forget, if I go backstage after the show I'll do it ",0 underemployed verge bankruptcy redflag would solve problems forever im barely covering bills course student loans start paid june so find something better im screwed well wife anyway so life never really great me always manage snatch defeat jaws victory blind short asthmatic life long anyway a significant life insurance policy paid father would cover expenses for well long time im literally worth dead alive cant think reason come june earliest january ,1 pretty much decided kill myself repent things done way place selfpity feel remorseful turned out much empathy affected let go without repercussion know impact family already struggle mental health trust god comfort whenever happens get judges according will selfishly gives peace know paying price everything feels just stain,1 is heading to band practice. but currently stuck in traffic. ,0 imagine dogs still wating owners come heaven realising gone hell dogs go ass definitely going yo hell afterlife exists,0 keep thinking madison holleran stoif it i deeply depressed external point view all young gorgeous successful something fight for future deeply depressed external point view nothing disgusting look at socially crippled zero appealing nothing fight for wish could trade her give life deserved better,1 hey everyone im currently ill idk feel like rubbish vomited times last days banging headaches throughout crap sleep gotten morning trying get sleep support amazing also great day amazing peeps enjoy first day ,0 whats whitepeople thing ever done itd thinking regular chicken mcnuggets mcdonalds spicy,0 advice fall asleep am welcome as long as it doesnt involve closing my phone and closing my eyes,0 parents right blaming fact trouble sleeping lack exercise trouble sleeping semester started parents dont see connection two things flat said physiatrist wouldnt helpdo anything me diagnose lazy trained professional second twin brother said anxiety brought physiatrist quickly also feel like dont believe me say get good sleep wait sec let like one word say oh course didnt constantly getting xgt hours sleep tried waking asking plans never work guys think,0 sad insecure paranoidfyi going bit nonsensical long and think dark rant also using throwaway obvious reasons consumed suicidal thoughts hours day even remember time think cutting myself shooting myself taking pills hanging myself even child nightmares people killing ritualistic way dreams always left conscious enough feel terror knowing slowly murdered someone else gaining enjoyment act fact earliest memories kind monster thinks sort thing grade school know theres something wrong me normal want hurt oneself time im kind paranoid maybe im murderer kind violent person know sounds stupid actually want hurt anyone else would someones brain programmed like mine ive never chosen think dark things always happens ill typing imagining convulsing taken cyanide thoughts constancy terrifying think people sense am choose polite really violent people always off look eyes im guessing it too ive always severe trust issues feel like friends simply pity me keep around someone laugh at seems like something lot normal people dokeep loser around feel better themselves im pretty sure im loser people work constantly talk lazy incompetent coworkers clearly interest selfaggrandizement im also sure im incompetent weird person there im around stories uncomfortable around me least thats suspect that felt like constantly one everyone put feel better ive always hated it school people would brag got better grade me able problem faster me romantically seems like every guy ive ever liked already someone else thought beneath them first two people asked said much hurt time actually appreciated honesty last guy really liked girlfriend constantly gave looks yeah chose me bitch mutual friends often social settings ramped pdas whenever near even family always given shit weird mother complains im androgynous need care less people says im good manipulated used view society negative want adopt simply philosophical grounds even parents criticise front people always have ive never tried prove anything bloat value individual everyone moments get bit full overestimate abilities ive never willingly represented something better am think this people take advantage low selfesteem take advantage fact im civil quiet easygoing coworker recently announced matter shrugged off understand acceptable say things like people especially ones supposed colleagues see inconsiderate behavior like time everyone always goes it especially chatty people ones simply fill silence time literally spew hatred questioned expressed opinion world politics everyone looked though idiot really dislike confirmation bias applied personalities understand people measure worth social settings last paragraph really over sorry lately paranoia seems getting better me feel like hear peoples thoughts walk past them theyre thinking much want make eye contact me stupid look awkward am feels like everyone knows messed am theyre choosing laugh make feel worse rather try help really want someone help me cant believe anyone would actually want to exist none normal fact lot really wrong snap lose sense empathy compassion others know im horrible person even probably sound like serial killer waiting cant die already,1 happy birthday to me <3,0 think live world anymorehi all past weeks seriously felt like killing myself cant seem get rut in want die got fired job may which totally take blame for girlfriend three years broke september hates really know wrong friends lonely one person get cant life find job even fucking mcdonalds got rejected three different jobs today thought nailed two interviews miss happy cant feel anything anymore im emotionless want feel again something anything pain thing want feel imagine knife going arm good feel know wrong life im feeling way want go therapy get antidepressants insurance really cannot afford pay pocket anything want feel way want happy again miss everything life used be miss ex know hates me miss friends know avoid me want move somewhere far away place money to want get job save leave cant even seem that hate feeling alone try make new friends city live fucking small closed minded hard meet people even willing talk you hate fucking much want text friends tell much love miss know respond would make feel even worse top cant really contact deleted facebook avoid seeing ex exs mom shut phone earlier week im tired trying hard getting anywhere hard wake start day knowing nothing give back literally nothing hate fucking much want feel way anymore days even feel like im alive feel empty first two months year flown really know done time im pathetic,1 genders genders male female attack helicopter honda civic panzer many more people think two people do yall crazy something,0 principally story two men part portuguese revolution easy understand contest usually directors starts historical fact speak something else shows also period fact everything happen couple days revolution acts could also seen kind documentary movie focalize two people showing normal were like common heroes revolution come people although made military army title understand capitaes main characters nice colors lights whole movie excellent work director first movie fall banal way well shown emotions passion people crowd character maia main oneis wellmade also good interpretation stefano accorsi able show maias limits notbeing hero,0 is headed to sunny San Diego today for work ,0 im big disappointment im asian parents want get good grades two grades dropped complete garbage due bullshit supposed get ap gov teacher assigned group project group evaluation someone decided work dropped grade entire group failing grade dropped overall grade points b disappointed parents cant anything get points back bio grade dropped well turnitins shitty plagiarism report working group online test even though supposed to someone needed help needed help already done someone asked answer question asked copy answer word word sure enough copied answer word word lost points turned test first looking test teacher absolutely hates plagiarism subject im actually good at math going great either pretty bad first two tests one test guaranteed get good grade three four days lock down absent day test then go two day field trip ended day lock started now teacher let take test would unfair testing environment leaving shit grade math too top this literally nothing else going me brother got accepted good school lot friends succeeding there im shit public high school friends parents expecting successful brother point near impossible im athletic talli often mistaken fifth grader im ninth grade little extracurricular activities even good personality back failures want die point even courage that,1 everything memy year bad im live alone getting covid struggling death friend much i food left lost alot weight stomach burning got money welllife fair i nobody help feel like exhausted optionsi really feel like cant go im fucking crying completely alone goodbye,1 jokingly said gonna show face k karma im k chuckles im danger,0 thoughtsi would like proud one day want life sort purpose would like longer ashamed am want reach point im dying live instead living die,1 vent thanks anyone reads this wish luck new lady also yoga instructor maybe good,1 seeking help finallyive hating life situation years even though probably better people job college degree good pay least one reliable friend hobbies still want die daily dont think ive gone month without thinking redflag since started anxiety attacks elementary seemed go undiagnosed passed tantrums finally went doctor got prescribed venlafaxine hopefully start enjoying br good life,1 @Natazzz I will remember this going forward I love your "regular features" such as Pretty Places and <name> cos you're hot! Lol,0 Amazing time with my best friend tonight I really truley see why we are best friends everytime hang out<3,0 im good personim good person lie time ones love most want others getting hurt im scared losing people this reality makes things worse want better cant honestly life everyone would better without it family basically outcasted me boyfriend best person ive ever met still fuck things up cant keep going like this cant change either want die everyone forget me id rather rot hole alive right now probably belong anyway end matter situation ill end fucking everything over deserve happiness love anything good im horrible deserve death deserve people forget me,1 worth itive told times try find reason live hold it have year now first musicals books studies whats damn point keep forcing care things live reason im alive keep grabbing scraps hoping itll make feel okay moment dont inherently want die shit worse yeah im alive im breathing heart beating past fucking nothing theres personality theres people theres talents hardly life certainly worth living,1 I can feel all that depression coming back ,1 downvote guys downvote want get controversial post sub,0 Good talks ,0 day masturbating first started may pm mnt standard time currently november pm mnt standard time running weeks days nothing say,0 hello againfirst all fuck say gets better would like know long ive told that decades im years old gets worse much much worse every time think cant get worse least made it gets worse next anyone recommends exercise as couch potatoes get depressed fuck too went size size look better years feel better feel much much worse honestly theres really much else ive told tried fix this know that like one advice maybe one cares much maybe know lost cause want someone talk to hell even someone sit next talk would fine put bitching hours till get it god itd nice someone could tell need do even better push it help me guide me stop till im there thats much ask someone though know that keep wishing though im probably done wife really ability decide point im trying make break im going lose daughter house ill drop school friends family go to anywhere want go nothing want accomplish cause contribute to lot pain sadness keeps begging end ive seeing therapist tried taking meds done delay bit difference would done before daughter could grown better dad know post here people cant really help wish could cant even last meal tried eating keep down literally painful taste hurts move hurts think hurts even im sitting thinking im pain im afraid know do hurts breath pain lethal even anything id dead years ago guess pain bodys way flipping off by way know piece shit life sucks thought want know that feel like saying thank you even though none ever helped me like thanks trying effort that sometimes think asshole die way people sad know work way thought,1 today make one hardest choices life long ampxb hate cory dont mean wow guys jerk kind way mean despise him everything pisses off hes always hanging around street cant bear step house im sure ill see pathetic godless face makes heart pound whenever walks near me im obsessed think every day hair face way walks smile angled toward right cheek eyes widen hears someone call name it close eyes right imagine him smallest detail hate him loathe him backstory cory neighbour family always debt far remember father manipulated mine signing legal document basically gives rights land corys dad uses leverage dad always dads reach never completely grasp wont go much details situation far remember family struggling this anyway happened today made rethink whole life park once trying get mind cory like said guy lives rent free head late sky getting dark corner eye noticed someone walking albeit great difficulty swaying kept pausing regularly peering bushes instantly recognized him cory id know anywhere would never forget spineless spoilt cowardly figure felt pain arms palms stinging looked see blood flowing clenched fists nails dug deep looked back up cory staring right me every inch screaming rip head off hate him got closer mumbling incoherent words got closer him smell better imagine skin would feel like knuckles hate him hate much die thing could make out whole demeanour changed looked confused didnt know was then taking guard reached pockets faster ive ever seen move pulled knife out clenched jaw thought end going died shanked gut someone never work day life whose whole family enjoyed fruits fathers labour eyes looked coldly soft blue eyes determined pulled close stood there like mannequin accepting fate wrenched hands open placed knife fingers eyes locked mine whispered three words kill me please shocked doesnt describe it wasnt happy either felt nothing everything time giving power end life me man minutes earlier would given anything end sorry life couldnt bring it moment saw cory was normal feeling pain miserable human couldnt it given opportunity golden platter knew would never recover taking another mans life even life one person despised entire life know ive made right decision,0 u want awards talk inevitable,0 hate posting personal stuff cannot talk anyone anonymousi know people say care me doubt that know me tell someone knows would feel like to everyone leaves know fault become attached become obsessive feel last friends leaving want new friends want someone tell care want that want alright want stop hurtingi know could worse looking attention someone come savior need get there know someone knows okay tired things that bad life feel comfortable complaining tired quiet lying doing want stop first therapy appointment lied lot told want think it truth is do would give anything guilt free death one one would blame others happened struggle keep fighting everyday every night lay bed trying keep away medicine cabinet tired trying see point anymore things really hard,1 Just a simple girl..oatmeal makes me really happy in the morning..and the blooming wisteria ,0 "Me to myself: Hell yeah, man. You've got this.My depression: https://twitter.com/jbillinson/status/988835197910159362 …",1 twista 0 i think i want to read some book but the library doesn t have them,0 @EtotheZ heyy can I get an invite to #spymaster ?! ,0 @themarker wow! good to know... ,0 "@_celia_bedelia_ @Catseriously Hear hear! I've lived with mental illness (depression and anxiety) for decades and I have been unintentionally celibate too (my issue, not women's) and I have never felt the need to kill over it.These men are not normal, that is true. But I'm tired of armchair psych evals.",1 mum found one condoms like week later dad pressured truth that girlfriend took virginity me like im trouble guess us living uk dad big go waiting till completely legal ummmm anyone got ways make everything less awkward maybe get girlfriends back ,0 guys dont go therapist therapist rapist ok get therapy someone says therapist dangerous people avoided costs,0 tell forget person tell solution problem im gonna give fingers,0 music would killed nowive always described someone potential potential was ive good things dropped them feel hopeless sometimes failure ive never someone regular around talk to hand hold anything common parents talk them feel like friends fake even bother asking ive girlfriend music reason im here know felt wow life incredible feeling nothing else gives it whether im home lying bed listening absolute favourite album time shutting rest surroundings porter robinsons worlds front row concert absolute euphoria always seems pull pain anyone relate,1 "@Murraymilitia I would spiral into depression, but thanks!",1 say life sucks think mehey im years old ive done lot stupid things otherwise think would right now loving family parents try support life choices brother happen like hobby lot fun hobbies together but everytime look future see reason stay alive job really want education want follow everything boring me know ive said like hobby near realistic job option think worth living eather cant income atleast something cannot figger what tried lot things afthere time keep dropping it next school year ive got nothing nothing all job school money plan parents cant understand quiet mad finishing education im left nothing day normaly would called crazy complaining anything othere reason kms mentioned beginning ive done quiet stupid stuff basically lost friends mistakes ive made example went japan best friends acting childish annoying got back friend never wanted talk again ive got noone im mostly left lonely today ive desided finally put end this good bye live happy life,1 "@princessalexis9: 'Up' hosted wonderful imagination. The innocent fun made me relax. The 3D effect was good, too! You will enjoy it. ",0 "@xwidep that's exactly what I had for dinner, except I had an onion bhaji with it too nom!",0 Online Mindfulness Therapy via Skype for Anxiety & Depression. Inquiries welcome! https://ift.tt/2CSUvLB ,1 @OatsyWilliams wow ha that was entertaining? haha interesting.,0 birthday happy birthday share birthday,0 @batboysings isn't that a contradiction in terms...? ,0 wooo everyone come to little lehigh parkway and support @msarro and I in our first race! ,0 debt deb debt debtlost job last year weeks later lost second job pretty much gave rest year ive always bad money gotten worse worse years stupid decisions catching me abolutely money income anything used able freelance used able get work done used able communicate people like normal person know went know whats wrong me much debt ill never make enough make monthly payments much less form rent anything im going struggling whole life painful memories watching mom tears car gets repoed house bought bank know thats im headed whats point want that want work life away barely even survive miss feeling emotions,1 intense actors like bruce dern jason patrick rachel ward combine make modernday film noir winner three know interesting offer good performances intriguing charactersbr br patric narration noir playing exboxer mental patient wow alone makes interesting guy looks dumb isnt ward slinky attractive cynical intelligent compassionate co conspirator kidnapping plan goes bad bruce dern also mix dern never fails fascinate filmbr br the movie could considered kind downer average viewer found fascinatingand like depressing movies normally found kind quirky crime film take look see agree pretty unknown film status simply good story welldone,0 feel bad wanting die see many people worse melike sometimes wish could escape time real reason too theyre intrusive thoughts get brains running feel severe im thankful time feel stupid feeling like first place ppl clearly worse,1 nono pleasures smiles relaxation recreation conversation loneliness interruption deed done more bullet shatters skull,1 cope pressure performance since little always achieving best possible result top class elementary middle school get good high school en eventually university failed drivers theory exam suprising lots people feel like let also down know sounds like bitch feel every test pressure peform dont know anything else expectations high feel anxiety every test,0 @iamdiddy LOve you DIDDY Diddy live > http://bit.ly/BeN2t,0 @Lairosiel Forgot my eyepatch How are you?,0 ugly went uks inbred town stuck like sore thumbi saw fat ugly inbred girl today wearing crop top started comparing her realised would need surgery change skull shape starvation diet order look fat ugly inbred means wanted look like girls london would need skull surgeries rhinoplasty breast enlargement butt implants starvation diet far uglier one worlds ugliest women makes feel sick,1 wish redflag agonizingso ive cycle wanting die thinkingplanning it tired scared pull years now ive already decided method drowning sticking head bucketdrum water ps live near easily accessible body water thought would sure fire way die given couple hours without discovered would fairly easy clean up prepared tried times already agony always gets me times held breath times aware inhaling water beginning would expedite process times thought sister shed devastated times id break bathroom decided stop attempts hold idea living someone wanted live sister every time thought redflag visited mind let linger long im fixating thought loved one would devastated came family abuse family lies person considered real family thought maybe id stick around long needed me fast forward now im good place life im suicidal thoughts again time im sure living someone anymore sister gained close friends act support system grown distant lying like everyone else family thought relationship better that recently discovered shallow water black out thought would take care agony part drowning almost instantly pass hyperventilation tried minutes ago still bring pull through know anymore ive wanting die long ive tired angry pain long im much wuss it part thinks whole living someone stint masking cowardice know anymore want live cant kill next,1 tell sleep dont want lowkey,0 im one disaster away losing sanityover past year felt live continue slip away drive career make world constantly beat gone even spend time trying fun anymore think world one day automated husband means education survive worry bad house bought debate go bankrupt survive allowed place live happens lose job much means get another lucky five years trying low pay ones gone automation learn survive street want try survive permanent damage feet cant afford fix ongoing list medical problems wish one things would hurry end naturally years old feel best life offer already shown me feel never meant make world mental illnesses starting show one day cost job place world someone like cant make own reason ended things trying hold worst comes next time car breaks money house floods anything something happens think deal everything life wants throw me end anything worth fighting even did bother want live see world turn into know done want anymore world seem want take naturally want see make ,1 know even know im still here love hateit started january last year met american girl online mutual online friends ps things went fast became freinds stuff happened sexually within first week carried weeks i always suspicion lying age always reassured freinds people knew im found birth november argument days talking decided could freinds helping things she suffered depression anxiety bipolar made sort understandable lied age everyone even freinds known years kept silent people knew unfortunately people decided tell people arguments somehow sexual contact happened know even though knew ages happened couple times another argument threatened get police called paedophile sort panicked released screenshots convos sexting etc know illegal released cos angry scared prove original instigator sexual contact gotten worse that started receiving death threats told go police wouldnt started receive death threats i still day worst happened people school found started bully point got really deep depression i eventually take much took tablets enough bed ridden days found thought maybe dead got scared got point think actually cos one heard that want go police already got involved help ive even got contact police usa manassas city care believe fast forward months got really bad always mind always ready it plans everything tried talk close freinds people known years told full story pub days later got message one saying going betray get police things year old panicked somehow already ready again tablets paracetamol full bottle jaeger hospital police interview lied bit police cos frightened still am go everyday waking thinking last thought head sometimes feel like walking police station jumping front tram one day could go either way im scared,1 stupid fights siblings em one suck sometimes youre right sometimes youre wrong sometimes person right times theyre wrong one fight sibling youll remember forever,0 laertesgirl sorry to hear that anything specific x,0 dear humanityits funny life worksit really roll dice people live brilliant successful lives climbing way top people live lives heartache painthey turn art become successful too people ordinary blessed family maybe single parent thrive overcome odds people born terminal illness mental illness disabilities whatever else succeed got people like mepeople tried everything could fought way everything hadonly enough nowhere random reddit page venting see outcome death this treat people well treat people respect treat unfortunate encourage love give boost anyway realize one single species end day planet doesnt belong us belong planet significant otherout arm around say much love never know tomorrow bring make significant food breakfast lunch dinner whatever feel like dobuy flowerstake datesmake smile laugh help feel motivated like anything alllet know always there ignorant arrogant thought could help everyone hate people hurt tried make number one priority help others anyway could thought needed love world took responsibility impossible seen comingbut alas allowed ignorance arrogance blind me fault take ownership foolishness recovering botched surgery killed franki wish did finally got better tried start monthly disabilitynatural disasters struck hometown leaving many home car everything lucky regard day disasters happened car stolenprobably someone desperate isme years oldtried make something happen lifenow failed therefore officially failure want life end figuring way how wish well justdo best world filled hate hostility lies deceit cruelty,1 i don t think i have the ball to do it but i ve become obsessed with the idea of killing myself all i can think about is suicide i ve developed a deep and genuine hatred for myself i don t want to live to see another day i don t want to get better bc i don t deserve it i wish i had the courage to kill myself,1 work til 7 pleeeeease be nice outside.,0 a king sized bed is nice but sad and lonely with no hubby puppy or kitty i am over this whole conferenceing thing,0 have a brain tumor worst part is i have no one to help me or comfort me good news is i know that if i tell them i will make it worse if they can t handle the small stuff they can never handle this i m so alone it not even going life threatening,1 is at work x,0 ONLY need 4 mre 2 gt 2 130 ,0 feel like people secretly hate methey hate behind back tolerate order seem rude feel bad worst part dont even know true slowly kills anyway,1 mint choc chip ice cream httpsformsgleugzjvqhmjeov,0 theres sense crying every mistake keep trying till run cake,0 me think think lost matter point never felt want much,1 doso gonna tonight even though probably work ill end inpatient again im supposed going seeing nan weekend know try anything ill yelled i want see nan im selfish i ruined weekend really want kill lol go it,1 hasnt day havent thought redflagthere hasnt day dont think wanting kill myself hurt way hard pick knife ya know idk nothing was life doesnt want happy thats even life cares dont know im supposed anymore feel fucking bad ones going read one going care,1 @Kirin What's "cost chai"? ,0 press cringe imagine chewing chomping grinding teeth mouth full fallen teeth,0 #ff @LessyAngel cause she is a great singer. American idol. ,0 today thirteenth birthday long road tough one too glad finally experience teenage life thanks free karma,0 love umaskerplayz thats it umaskerplayz legend absolute god pray every night amazing,0 failed failed sleep sorry,0 dont reason get bed anymoreyall idk anymore im fucking beat feel like else go im therapy meds ive made big huge steps supposed help honestly im even miserable work full time also school full time start little side business guys hours gotten cut hate working hours day place work got new management weird super small business isnt anything really do parents keep telling every job suck know everyone else keeps saying wait xyz itll good isnt soon guy leaves early wind crying bed go work havent called once feel trapped know going fix economy ill always struggle money feel like many problems dont solutions psychiatrist therapist come conclusion lots physical health issues caused mental health tried figure almost two years ago although continuing therapy therapist psych says theres ton left putting temporary bandaid something needs stitches doctors completely wrote even though tests coming back abnormal get new insurance first im going basically start redo test exhausts think about im tired tell people im lying im real insane pain feels impossible like nothing potential change ive told wait whole life finally happy dont feel like possible best guy keeps telling couldnt survive without thats reason im hanging isnt healthy everyone keeps telling get better dont want ungrateful peoples help ends feeling minimizing feel bad know people want help just really bad changes happen still years potentially things even even know different day shit cant hospitalized right guys hours cut im kinda money wise plus job people would put out dont know do literally feel like never going get better im goddamn tired crying fucking miserable dont know dont want keep,1 im now and my entire fucking life people have laughed at me every day i get told negative thing about my body and personality every fucking day a while back i reached out to my friend about self harm all they did wa joke around and tell me to cut myself deeper now i told them about suicide and they did exactly the same they even gave me method on how to do it i just wan na die i wan na stop existing and then everything will be over why is it so hard for them to understand this is serious i don t get it,1 im tired i told depression anxiety last year believe thought way feeling normal ignored gotten worse hate depressed recently hospitalized trying kill myself want try im afraid going back im tired anyone talk to cant talkwhen want get really anxious think ill quiet anyway might well talk all cant text people backas makes anxious too people say theyre worried mebut know theyre lying im waiting mom goes work end it im tired able really anything want depressed get better matter hard try cant try anymore,1 elltotheice poor kid damn all those people who want to cut there grass ahaha day lt,0 ...so one of these days i'm gonna learn how to properly tie a chicken ,0 im looking someone art webcomic ive come here preferably find someone help within age range basically short story id like turn webcomic cant art myself need find artist right now story planned art last thing list,0 shout boys rcomedynecrophelia check hawt babies like unfunnyandcringe memes butchered brink death,0 @johnnydamongirl how long was i out and did i snore your couch rulz,0 im suicidalim depressed act okay front everyone im fucking fine im asshole im manipulative ruin everything wish fucking dead keep trying find die cant fucking find anything cant find dosages anything want feel loved cared about feel lost feel alone ive already fallen back self harm anorexia feel so empty please help me cant hospitalized previous hospitalization traumatized me,1 fucking shit guys fucking shit shit aaaaaaaaaaaaaa im tram rn girl front friends looked general direction looked smiled me fuxking aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa finally time get gf make fool packed tram edit got stop looked quite nicely i mean mean negative ways parted fml ill never get gf social anxiety ask strangers reddit start conv never end,0 dont know hold longeri thought boyfriend could enough help hold possibly start meds even though love anything theres nothing do im going anywhere life fucking meaningless fuck cant continue anymore,1 how can i leave my abusive relationship and still keep my cat i ve been suicidal and right now my cat is the only part of my life that make me want to be alive i don t have anywhere to go and currently live alone with my bf thing started becoming physical when i called him out for cheating now i feel unsafe and desperately want to get away i m sure we re going to be losing our place due to not having money to pay rent i m wondering if anyone had resource out there where i can get help to leave and still keep my cat with me thank you to any who help,1 "If anyone wants to spend their money, I would love a Wii ",0 excellent movie presented every year holidays christmas beautiful great acting john denver best ie sincere kind talented natural town georgetown colorado every bit lovely story,0 believe germany ,0 sister tried od antidepressants second time space monthswhat do cry help anything else wont speak family members problems i fear situations family may contributing factor depression im surmising clearly obvious therapist shes seeing medication shes taking working feel helpless frustrated entire situation do,1 ami told manipulated someone talking redflag threats cannot believe someone known many years opinion me maybe good thing told me want anyone feel like that,1 remember videos initial impact never forgotten viewing thriller thats needed feel twelve years old again but great video perfect even though seemed like time video first came out nobody ever seen anything like before music video medium grown leaps bounds fresh viewing thriller reveal faults necessary deconstruct song michael jackson walking beside girl leave movie theatre sings verses song skipping choruses becomes zombie comes time sing again zombie makeup inexplicably disappears sings chorus again again again make previous absence may first time song ever deconstruct fit visuals music video certainly last time continued problem age mtv best videos like jacksons billie jean beat it used visuals serve music way around still thriller great fun absolute must halloween,0 Good Trance music > redbulls! #asot400,0 aita manipulating boyfriend promise title sounds worse is pretty much started months ago first started dating ill call cfake name would go hiking trail hang out walking around talking awkward stage wanting kiss other initiating least thats wha thought lot staring lips waiting moment like came while got really tired this every single time c wouldnt kiss me naive ignorant seemed annoy me started even think mouth getting freakishly small everything annoyed me way ate chocolate way broke apart food put right track thats good person does right all first real relationship c girlfriends before dont matter anymore im matters now started small things like would make sit left scroll list truth dares said kiss person left kissed could stop me awkwardly turned away after kind giggled heres think im ah c laughed me vulnerable open looked away like thought ugly couldnt believe it upset was heres might make ah whenever walked sidebyside casually said something like hey holding hands meant demeaning possible like even dating dont affectionate me whats wrong you first time c took hint started holding hand kept laughing me starting make angry im trying hard break down backbone hes three steps ahead dont know crush spirit yet tldr reason guy interested me talking while caught feelings kissed one day dating im really happy want shout roof tops jump around,0 dinner tryingeverything worked hard waste im waste wish never here never existed one would even know miss me anyone would go away hope one forget me,1 ever since accident heard creepy voiceslong story short hit delivery car riding motor scooter er visit terrifying spasms two hours put surgery guess traumatized something hear voices alone dont music guess im looking help,1 much enjoyed the revolution televised gave me again notredflag feeling power people decide wish governedbr br it unfortunate venezuela twenty percent wealthy citizens made decisions eighty percent poor decades centuries however coup failed interim government dissolved supreme court constitution ombudsman electoral boards civil rights one took plotters behind barn somewhere shot them even gone jail major plotters living florida carrying on protection bolivarian constitution passed large majority venezuelan people history bites democracy give one hell nip let loose venezuela loose,0 welp then fillerfillerfillerfiller guess ill spew meaningless trash post rmemes ah disadvantages starting new account,0 "@ruski Whereas mine was kinda 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You win ",0 @sambasel nothing ,0 doctor tell almost overdoseive taking zoloft depression restoril chronic insomnia couple nights ago episode got super drunk took sleeping pills passed out alone phone friend completely accidental ever since then ive wondering what if kind fantasizing it anyone know doctor saydo tell this want get better overall want live just without constant pain head pls want get sent psych ward something,1 like forgave her may seen my posthttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsiaizvpwhat_a_fucking_bitch thats currently front page well heres update it talked little bit stoned hell told either talk work things tell fuck got mad im blocking her honestly thought shed choose blocking much surprise actually talked it like that even though pissed hell forgive her im gonna let live im end friendship thats lasted years dumb shit like that ampxb honestly though think im gonna talk near much while give time cool down shit like again im gonna forgive second time,0 life dont know say this im christian believe god always think meaning this need good person god doesnt exist means thats everything life doesnt matter im disposable understand atheists always doubt existence god maybe lot good things life doesnt matter maybe something wrong going hell maybe doesnt exist die everything finish im really scared im scared good person heaven exists want go there good things not everything doesnt matter everything im going doesnt matter nothing matter try study lot try someone want happy head always thing of nothing matters die purpose this im really scared dont know do want someone important time want affect peoples life dont know atheist better think purpose this think im bad person people around says no im great person dont know believe dont know want happy life cuz die nothing want good person dont enjoy things place heaven dont know like said lot tines before im scared,0 think i need to start buying and using wrinkle cream,0 maybe programming spend hours day needed learn programming point is im looking handouts anything like that im ready spend countless hours work help family thoughts tl dr father passed away mother cant pay rent bills etc ask advice jobs ways increase income help mother pay rents,1 i have just really really splattered the bowl,0 pink sparkling heart ,0 odannygirl oh yes i have quot road rash quot all over my hip lovely ay i so rock,0 "such a gray day in LA, but since the lakers are champs it's all good ",0 may skirt ketchup mustard marksman bc hit bb shot ft,0 #FollowFridayThanks � @StephenWinfield @BunkerShotGolf @golfforum @SortaGolf @Divot_Monkey @andybrowngolf � Thanks guys ,0 blagh class at tomorrow,0 nothing like your crippling anxiety and depression building til you cry in front of your instructor,1 "Is off to the Northants Motley Moot Beltain picnic. And the sun is out, Woop Woop! ",0 feelmy life downhill spiral since born fuckiung piece shit ruiend many lives want fucking die scared death scared gieves panic attacks still want die maybe exist relapsed cutting today like years thoughjt done guess ill never done dont live home live someone think friend family dont want olive anymore becuase everyone hates much think im disgusting becuase disgusting fat disgusting fucking pig fucker faggot deserves rot hell deserve everything get becasyse everything fault cause problems fucked over made friend live upset cut like years too able call friend made that never forgive done ruin eveeryones lives mentally unhealthy turn make mad upset purpose dont know maybe attention know fuckingggggggg fool human race family wont talk anymore mom doesnt ebeliebe actually killm becayse ive said much tonight finally prove telling truth fuck fuck fuck fuck you mean myself fucking worst fat faggot evil destroy lives deserve sadness deserve death,1 post partum depression isn t preached well enough most new mom are not always happy they had the baby,1 whats worst rejected crush lying like you basically moths back told crush liked her said liked back could get ice cream together not decided tell told liked one else liked pity worse rejected,0 it s true i truly love jessicabardot she wa there for me during a dark time and i appreciate her so much for being there during my depression one of the most loveliest lady http t co tjstwmyr v,1 hope youre fine ups downs wanna say tell friends appreciate them could make day like two weeks ago one friends suddenly said likes hanging hes happy im around im honestly stoked hear someone appreciates even keep telling noone likes me guess tell friends appreciate them let know company means lt,0 best times one great sleepers time setup tax patience development steady many intertwined relationships lovingly established gags bits work funny lots sentimentality kurt russell playing reno hightower puts one best performances robin williams playing jack dundee surefooted ever cast also includes many great supporters jacks wife played jack palances daughter lovely renos wife great comedian cant tell many times ive watched movie many times enjoyed often wish people could see it,0 good work everyone scriptwriters director cast lovely fun film becomes believable sentimental reasons only good film television cloudy cold wintry days want sit back enjoy,0 after year of constantly feeling dead inside i m starting to wondering if i ve actually died at some point and i just never realized it like in m night shyamalan s the sixth sense,1 wish never existed first placeits times like im afraid void end consciousness know im still here theres immediate way end life quickly im exhausted pain stop stopped little came back know why want feel loved much ask want sex someone loves too hard difficult thing everybody else have want worry money keeps piling up cant keep health getting better healing im always worried money seems two things people need livelove money want free needing wanting things please im much pain,1 bedtime school tomorrow and i still have no book being broke suck,0 boys ate taco bell blow bathroom oh also finally got gf,0 "Need a ''friend''K jb main us se naraaz houn to wo khana chor de mari mari phire depression main chli jae, aur dp b remove kr le.",1 planning swallow lot sleeping pills tonight would like know info lethal dose effects body survive procedure etchi anyone reading this first post reddit really know works anyone read time really hoping so mentioning redflag triggers you sorry please stop reading ill quickly explain backstory get point please know serious im telling whoever reads life sympathypity however suppose attentionupvotes get commentsadvice im looking anyone experience medical knowledge tell repercussions body follow plan thank advance im female secondyear university student well smaller university first year transferred bigger one took classes labs realized much late drop taking two now two exams tomorrow know pass feel sick embarrassed time care trauma abuse loving home supportive family good income parents basically excuse except here time know seeing psychologist father paying for couple weeks really helping lied asked im suicidal surprisingly easy apparently im good liar wanted doctordentist like parents like friend aspiring be current events failing semester idea want be thought abovesmarter everyone high school held apart spent lunch library went straight home made three friends lost touch one pretty pathetic parents paying everything including dorm longer using classes failing know got here know im lazy think covid situation really brought issues light like lonely am really try fell behind fast september struggling keep every since procrastinate lot well motivation contact anyone except family weekends roommate dorm really connect her spent time bed watching moviesyoutube blame hate myself ive done far think could hate painneedles started dull knife making cuts along arms nothing severe switched bladescalpel thing supposed used cutting paper realized dull begun bought package razor blades day thin bendy hard get good grip them yesterday advanced down river cuts first time cant go deep bc pain id say made past skin fatty tissue pretty shallow half cm cm wide though hoping taking something numb pain help commit idea severe be lucky fortunate never hospital many times conditions volunteering high school took lot antihistamine pills checked er afraid going die nothing happened take enough time hope will plan bought bottle vodka pain packages sleeping pills cant tell name theyre car still razor blades packages pills think mg diphenhydramine hydrochloride each package advil sleeping pills pills amount remember correctly math correct pills x mg mg g assume lethal dose ive done research mainly reddit still cant find lethal dose is know people survived attempts made drink charcoal control pissshit admitted psych ward lots needles think could take embarrassment that something kill me permanent brain damage damage liver happen me skip pills try cut deeper im using clip hannah baker reasons inspiration ironic bc cringe whenever watched cut deep might take bed try sleep drive car park its winter here take anyone finds me parents embarrassed phone able call ambulance second thoughts anyone tell effects mg etc really know truly want die believe god know would go hell im coward im hoping ill open eyes wake worry exams anymore know want im going try something tonight maybe hours least drugs ive ever done alcohol weed hate feeling control im pretty sure im prepared happen take particular pills anyone gotten far thank taking time read existential crisis experience particular type drug please let know effects are thanks,1 goals literally thing want do kill myself i,1 yes it is and i got ripped off do not shop at wow,0 now message sponsor rules changed theres fine line right wrong somewhere shadows send us find it bravo six going dark,0 highly original decent movie brave move involved care well puttogether movie time fact eddie murphy something nonformulaic know happen next makes favorite mine wish movies imaginative one rather old formula entertainment,0 picked dvd release movie holiday norway released english subtitlesbr br the film beautifully photographed powerfully acted youngster portraying frits lead character astonishingly open face mirrors painful accuracy tragic events unfold around himbr br early film see father frits loves much mental health problems brought brutal headmaster denies assaulting boy suggests fatherbr br the climactic scene frits refuses show respect headmaster simply standing ground repeating liar brutally assaulted front classmates scene likely forgetbr br the films weak point rather clichd flower power teacher uses every friendly teacher trick book feel sure film really enjoy,0 im one year lefti turn sunday july th ever since young teenage years made promise time turn shit still sucks im out never thought day would come im going enjoyable potentially last year life im gonna branch out try new things meet new people stuff depression taken away since want last days best days ive ever had ive enough life now im going live best year ever,1 guys give german youtuber streamer recommendations need learn german would great something listen language,0 @sjrozas I can pick them up for you. You'll be busy working and I'm totally free on vacation. Mhahaha. ,0 im feeling impulsive want stop talking everyone awhile quit eating much need eat much do wayyy much,0 hi againi posted something weeks ago anyway felt better days happened since ive waking suicidal thoughts go away yesterday stayed bed day need find new apartment end month im homeless im tired that plan jumping roof friends five story building end month cant fix things life ex said would could friends month since ran even opened email sent tell hes completely moved care im tired anyway thought id write cant talk specifics friends without freaking out,1 took gummy vitamins im still high working hfxu x yxurxt cutcucyvubpucurxextctocugubibuvrzrxtcubinp,0 want disappointment anymorei keep falling back suicidal thoughts used month twice week reason im still dissapoint people care im grateful care sometimes wish disappoint killed myself im afraid depression drive people away like usually do type feelings,1 hey im sad please get free hug ill pay back promise im bit down stay bald stay fresh,0 donniesbabe well it pishing here sun look like it want to break through hope it dows kid doing my head in,0 redflag answeri socially isolated making friends several times consistently abandoned shunned various reasons abused even getting tired me long lonely journey yet havent killed yet consistently try help various mental illness shall say diseases since chronic issues persisting problems d maybe someday find enjoyment life stop countless suicidal thoughts time time get closer attempting redflag another time maybe world fiction imagination shall know current consciousness dissipates maybe preonset schizophrenia d anyways hope nothing enough pain attempt kill take miserable life terrible existence,1 burdenive battling manic depression ever since kindergarten father help make worse adding ptsd onto list feel like im burden live feel like people take seriously everyone either says im clown im joking im fake say get upset mood never stabilized no mood stabilizers im mg prozac mg tenex mg prazasin mg trazedone feel meds help me tried talking doctor it said prozac know manage manic depression think ill ever learn,1 i can t take this heat it s like an oven in here i feel sick nwo,0 linda james thank you i spent age on thursday tidying up then along came everyone and it looked like a right tip again,0 i am pretty sure i have a porn addiction in particular i find myself drawn to the casting type video my therapist and i have discussed that seeing amateur and novel stimulus is sexually stimulating especially for someone who ha searched for porn all their life i d like to think that i am not hurting anyone besides myself in consuming this porn but i experience urge to watch girlsdoporn if you are not familiar many girl within this casting channel were coerced into filming and were essentially assaulted on screen i know morally that i should not watch these video and i always am able to stop myself but i am just so so ashamed that i have to seek validation on google is it wrong to watch gdp in order to stop myself to me it feel a though i need google to reaffirm my moral i just feel so weak when i am horny and after i am horny i just feel this terrible guilt am i a horrible person who view woman a nothing a sexual object am i so far removed from the concept of empathy that seeing woman possibly being assaulted is le important than satisfying my sexual urge how do you all view this situation do i pose a threat to those around me i feel a terrible shame but these feeling seem to almost evaporate when i m in that mood therapy and med have helped but i need to kick this habit and i don t want to hurt anyone i also feel that future relationship would be ruined if they were to find out about my blatant disrespect for woman,1 gosh it make me sad when people don t give god a chance,0 thicc water exists exists u problem swallowing,0 confession im asian indian im bad maths,0 well done spooky horror movie povertyrow film company prc usually put really cheesy films like devil bat flying serpent german expatriate director wisbar wonders small budget studiobound swamp set gaunt ghoulish charles middleton effective strangler,0 helpi want buy gun figure everyone would tell to unfortunately im making choice whether say not anyone kind message guns wont leave crippled actually kill you would grateful think might deleted im afraid wont get reply ill end completely wrong,1 Im 32wk today @davidotis try to keep up ,0 had the worst dream abt some turd face ex ugh it wa awful,0 constantly know feel like missing core something joy felt happiness there feel emptyim sure anything spiritual level depression brain chemistry wack whatever elseim relationship someone feel like constantly disinterested me feel constantly alone drug problems recently pushed get want grt back overdose something kicked house keep spending money oneof things feels nice hard bot try cry everydayi feel alone like bo one despite knowing people want die run away woodsi write suicide letter day instead tried distract myselfi want die feel empty know make itive trying get contact therapist waiting months waiting list feel closer suicide everydayive ben thinking calling suicide hotline idki know do want help love care want die know stop wanting die missing core,1 i can feel tired all day but a soon a i m in bed i can t sleep i lay in bed for hour with my eye closed unable to sleep i have tried melatonin but it make it hard for me to wake up i have just been having a lot of trouble sleeping even when i m able to sleep i always wake up in the middle of the night and stay awake i just wan na be able to sleep early for once and be able to feel well rested in the morning any advice,1 managed get eight year depressive phase rather great elated three months lapsed again relapsed alcohol gotten symptoms used to time however become excessively paranoid aggressive waking night seeing things fell friend backhanded something said unlike worriedi need help great need help,1 "In rehearsals . Rehearsals, rehearsals..... I like it Come back at 22:30 or 23:00 PM . ><",0 paul pogba s exprime sur la d pression dans une interview au figaro le milieu de terrain de l quipe de france et de manchester united s est confi sur la sant mentale de joueurs professionnels de football en cho aux propos r cent de thierry henry http t co f o dvbdo,1 topped school feel like loser im feel like wasted highschool years studying gaming pc randomly surfing web even remember much high school years made little friends past years still cant talk girls increasingly low self esteem got really good marks got best college city feeling like piece shit looking back time wasted anyone advise deal this thanks,0 going reddit rest year ngl fuckin hate,0 free movie websites hello everybody wondering guys know good free movie websites similar movies movies im trying find movie movies wondering guys know any,0 Vaastu Living with Pallavi – Depression and Vaastu Part 2In this episode we discuss the impacts of Depression on Vaastu and how to combat it using Vaastu principles.For more visit below link https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7T_BxPQHrtQ …,1 absolute redflag methodcurrently recovery failed redflag attempt want fail next time,1 professors accent heavy thoufht said low cost exchange principle locards exchange principle im laughinf like wtf forensics accounting brain smooth,0 @mcevoy1rachael yeah the hannah montana one?? i like that song haha cool! x,0 horrible mental episodebreakdown yesterday im shit deserve livei get stressed easily especially social situations let emotions take control go crazy hate world much took pickaxe construction site started smashing breaking things screaming crying got arrested almost got tazed carrying deadly weapon know whats wrong me stuff like this know else cope sometimes feel like shit nobody deal me nobody ever understand cant wait end need man fuck up stop coward tie rope around neck suffering all need serious help seem available matter hard try im crazy alcoholic piece shit thats going till end death thing ever comfort me im really cut world,1 full plani know exact location day ill it live malibu ditch day senior year im going junior next year im driving kanan road mulholland highway taking right encinal canyon road going gods seat bring large tank helium bag close head standing edge cliff redflag bag doesnt kill me fall pass will funny part is keep trying get friends go they dont know plan remember beauty view call lame dont understand want go bad wanted let people know exactly im somebody family see postmortem know wasnt random plan brewing since years before,1 saw premiered rewatched ifc again great telling many possible stories immigrant farmworker population came hawaii work sugar plantations early s grandparents part migration parents born kohala plantation big island time setting movie moved big island year ago living california years surprised see many former cane growing lands still undeveloped wild cane still growing years plantations closed ive heard many stories aunts uncles kids growing plantation movie helps image kinds stories memories story historical document romantic plotdriven movie leaves shaking head read review like ccthemoviemans people get itbr br i recall youki kudoh starring role incredible job recall great performances jim jarmuschs mystery train australian film co starring russell crowe heavens burning tamlyn tomita great job pidgin english especially someone grow islands forgotten toshiro mifune cameo role moving picture show narrator missed fact jason scott lee uncredited nonspeaking part one plantation workers payday scene br br i saddened find director cowriter kayo hatta died accidental drowning br br there two excellent foreign films mirror cane plantation experience gaijin immigrant cane workers brazil many japanese time period sugar cane alley cane plantation experience africa latter still available gaijin sadly appear shown quite while another great film early asian america experience immigrants like slaves a thousand pieces gold set chinese workers involvement building railroad starred rosalind chao chris cooper michael paul chan dennis dun,0 today marks month since broke one single day wake thinking her incredibly sorry things went depression lack motivation ruined relationship light heart went lot support me never got tired me never things got progressively harder harder situation unbearable decided broke better miss her miss fucking much love think ever stop loving here worst part know also loves or used to cannot stand thought knowing hurt person love most want her past weeks incredibly taxing me works shit feel miserable person used relax enjoy fault feel empty void slowly eating inside lights life consumed nothing darkness bittersweet taste had know cope that currently going therapy stopped drinking promised would fall old habits hard want anything want her want make happy again make laugh one last timesorry anything wrongly written english main language miss much,1 posted times different names really know why guess hoping feel better shouting ether know anything one see it find oddly comforting spent long locked box know anything else anymore knowing one listening one help comfort almost but always known would end up even kid would cry sleep knowing one day would make everyone everything around miserable lo behold am married like idiot wanted hope know wanted try fight cosmic destiny felt waiting me maybe wrong maybe could happy maybe could beautiful wife child am married years made woman love miserable got beautiful daughter live father would someone supposed love people selfish enough get involved lives going sort emotional behavioral issues daughter mental illness runs family greedy walk away let live life know me wife choose marry me suffer it waste space time lives much coward end teenager late knew would never happy make anyone happy since ten twenty years later proof still plain day could stop trying live normal life could accept what deserved know never see this sorry truly sorry horrible luck meeting me nothing could ever make either you hope forget one day get lost too okay,1 think im ready gostarting think share pain disappointment best get regards socialization romantic love,1 im turning two weeks advice anything idk want know anything keep mind advice idk idk idk idk idk idk idk,0 @pradmilly As zice ca e aproape suficient ,0 ubannnnnnnned banned reddit cant chat anymore ______________________________________________________,0 fta anyone heard about this wondering if anyone is carrying voom anymore or are they pretty much dead http tinyurl com ca z j,0 life meant peoplethe rest us spectators life whats point living work crappy job rather pursuing dream career whats point unattractive women wants date you whats point born short small people push around time keep lying life worth living like this,1 dont carei could give fuck less anymore dont care health fuck else going life fuck honestly im really quite tired fucking living lonesome im either gonna relapse cutting slit fucking arteries care less change doesnt matter doesnt mean shit new home new friends new whatever doesnt fucking matter still wont fucking make feel like im shit stain dont fucking say stupid im you bullshit ive heard fucking much intoxicating making every bit breathing hurt thousand times more im planning i id rather impulsive fucking get out thought fucking person around might wanna know fuck happened maybe theyll find somewhere fucking mess post fuck all,1 finally saw nonbeliever ff wow today aunt apparently visited us years visited us maybe mins started complain coronavirus fake made money virus self kill us masks here kind argument saying sterilized surprise virus made kill old ones much money spent way bill motherfucker call him make money point knew shall laugh cringe friend mother corona guess im wrong left shed start talking g ppl really nightmares smh talk mom fucking start acting like joke btw kind nurse germany virus didnt make casualties spring virus kind just kinda tilted,0 "When Friends Struggle With #Depression, This App Helps Avoid Potentially Harmful Phrases http://adweek.it/2qY03R6 ",1 year diei keep saying im suicidal im fucking lying im suicidal point ive lost empathy keep living fantasize badly hurt family friends left go im virtually selfdestructing sociopath point whats point trying save im far gone ampxb finally therapist validates ive able trust bullying well sexual abuse suffered kid well urges physically sexually assault everyone around me isolate much possible ampxb im delirious madman shallow husk person wanted rather monster now ampxb lots probably depressed think shitty person chances think hundreds ways murder rape people like do daily im fucking alienated think people hate people even feel like im person anymore depraved ghoul becoming like day ampxb situation life capable getting better all terminal downwards spiral getting worse worse insanity ampxb still faint sense hope want snuff last embers light already light goddamn illusion embracing oblivion thing thats real exist game selfdelusion cant tolerate life anymore fact life even exists begin tragic mistake ampxb last remnant good person let become complete piece shit wants kill hurt anyone outside remaining friends family,1 want girlfriend care yk secks would cool want someone spoil way to idk dont ,0 yall really need stop sneaking girls dms like bro stop it stop ok really think gonna gf sneaking dms saying something like hey no course wont literally harassing online without even knowing it poor girl probably wanted post pic subreddit random thirsty dude sneaked dms made uncomfortable hell look know want girlfriend and theres nothing wrong that way ok proper relationships take time patience order successful,0 able cry long time way norm me past month felt like something bottled within suffocating me finally it cried think it cry probably stretch would tear seconds felt anger dissolve little tiring deal shit time feel shitty shitty shit think normal people thinking ending much cried today,1 happy sophomore dont haul foot backpack anymore,0 happy little bit time im reminded realityim loa work absolutely could get bed anymore selfinjure constantly now drink lot everything crashed last month know why alone one knows im going theres one tell anyway close friends acquaintances desperately need help form someone real life im dissociating constantly internet mind know do ive alone years anyone promise anything soon respond write back takes done anything want anyone worry,1 "and you don't stop, and you don't stop rockin' the beat ",0 got woken up this mornng at am damn lorry van and car accident just outside on our main road also causing car alarm to go off,0 anyone else hate people try force ships everyone else yes get character character would good couple opinion mean everyone else thinks thing even majority people do respect everyone thinks thing you would ya opinion character looks better another character respect opinion respect however expect everyone ship character character im tired typing thisthat character ill use w x y z respect think w x would cute together personally see w single x z together crush w people could agree that others might agree you doesnt mean like i think put w x together since theyre otp even dont ship whatsoever like respect shippers force ship everyone else,0 really want do life ends anyways ruin everything everything ruin ruined me nothingnobody single reason keep trying yet able stare bottle pills research ways able to know keep trying though eventually atleast make solid attempt hope everything else want never going happen cannot kill,1 cute film three lively sisters switzerland often seen running matching outfits want get parents back together seems mom still carrying torch dad sail new york stop dad marrying blonde golddigger calls precious dad seen daughters ten years oddly enough seem mind think hes wonderful meanwhile precious seems lead life mainly run overbearing mother alice brady woman wants see daughter marries rich man sisters get idea pushing precious path drunken hungarian count tricking two golddigging women thinking one richest men europe case mistaken identity makes girls think count goodlooking ray milland goes along scheme cause crush sister kaybr br this film enjoyable light fare barbara read kay comes across sweet pretty ray milland looks oh young handsome though unfortunately given little do alice brady quite good scheming mother deanna durbin real charmer cute button playing youngest sister penny pretty much steals show absolutely beautiful vocals sings several songs throughout film though actually would liked seen feature even this plot film bit silly nevertheless found film entertaining fun,0 byei go prestigious college northeast kind ironic since were known rampant student redflags even knew coming care drank koolaid going ivy id set life went well yeah marketing bullshit im still miserable here im miles away home one gives two shits me still get rejected internship positions regularly despite math cs tons shit resume work hs work now fucking nothing people lot less programming experience credentials get spots apple facebook spend hours classwork homework studying etc way healthy barely sleep yet still barely pull average slightly aboveaverage grades everything fucking curved social anxiety cant talk girls im also pretty short good looking girls really talk either so basically im good anything never happy successful aspect life fucking bother even alcohol really make feel better anymore matter much drink know almost one care enough read point are id like say bye really many regrets ending misery sooner hope get life did,1 oh no azppa just sent email for state convention may amp there wa papyrus all over it sad b c i wanted to attend,0 remember parker posey as world turns became queen independent movies film posey shows potential top fledged actress film supporting cast includes omar townsend moustafa lebanese immigrant works falafel salesman street aspires become teacher supporting cast features wonderful actress plays godmother family relative judy librarian old fashioned dedicated menopausal posey mary learns grow mature losing librarian clerk position makes realize much misses place life marys life surrounded friends lower east side village new york city became gentrified yuppies film quite good independent come enjoy parker posey mary well characters films,0 enjoyable movie without doubt evocative era particular stage boys rites passage say read notredflag comments here bit disappointed period captured plot desperately thin whole thing revolves around egregious bit miscasting history school plays idea quack quack would ever chosen play one three star turns philanderer risible without that nada subplots bore relation could see main plot could removed entirety without way affecting main story surely suggests fundamental flaw subplots look like padding know central idea stretched beyond limits nevertheless benign movie heart right place fine performances get feeling everyone involved felt deflated final cut good feeling permeates film count something flawed really quite good movie ,0 i have a small business we got a meeting with our biggest client ever and i called them by their competitor name i m so scared i cost u the deal,1 im gonna shit shit,0 omg house what did i ever do to you,0 often driving wish someone would run red light hit deal life anymore always disappointed pass intersection unscathed wish someone would crash,1 rare disease thats called crippling depression cured awards im yeah give awards thanks entitled dont hand im going steal kneecaps,0 haha would funny would funny got awards think,0 like compliment straight guys mean im flirting you means im trying make happy thats all try beat something,0 something say one entirely unproblematic instead spending energy bringing peoples past mistakes obviously learned dont anymore could make feel like youve made world better place maybe try spreading actual positivity want bring someone maybe think good things done instead bad instead bringing someone could help show much good done like brendon urie example yeah said bad things past notice never said anything like again brendon urie also done many amazing things donated m dollars lgbtq charity puts amazing advice help people struggling brendon also talks mental health fans cares people calling racist homophobic isnt that redirected funds highest hopes foundation blm foundations pansexual helps fellow lgbtq members thank coming ted talk,0 ok guys want answers someone tell coin glitch reddit ,0 happy scared math finals make board game math questions,0 miss warm summer evenings child would sit listen crickets lifetime endless possibilities stretched me miss comfort family knew deeply toxicity substance abuse plagued them miss days loved angry id grown be miss hope quickly snuffed young teen miss feeling whole burnout find joy peace simply drift want kill myself wonder ever would find peace side become reincarnated live another pointless existence guess none matters anyways lifes bitch die miss not least know broken,1 really like bc fleeting loveim generally optimistic guy even worst situations recently feel like im losing support system lover ive made throwaway bc weird way im afraid admit im turning this ill first start admitting yes bc girl cant keep wrapping head around ive plenty partners come gone one shes little hope cling onto given ultimatum come stay country x amount weeks through given recent situation fact uni student funded parents really isnt choice make ive offered come days wasnt enough dont want admit refuse continue her helps im lowest everything seems right shes around id keep going feel like ive turned rambling cant really bring write guess id like really talk someone since cant talk her get chest really dont want continue without her,1 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I love it when she sings because she`s so good. :> ))),0 mom wants talk wtf talked mom weeks want to came house dad told it idk feel this definitely feel good,0 @DonnieWahlberg i freakin miss you guys!!!!i want to go to every concert!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i cant..... =( fresno luvs you! ,0 throw away accountive never plan want hang now im convinced im attention everyone around me part thinks am part thinks never want wake again seriously know good things come care know shitty things come also life hard fuck this ive also ssri meds days know terrible idea,1 tomorrow day midnighti cant handle anything anymore weeks weeks laying bed crying im bad habit bashing head relief again cant keep going on know never happyi met someone thought going soul mate but extremely jealous person broke months ago started talking months ago text promise promise keeps falling through got emotional got scared thought hint everyone talks about doesnt want anymore told missed me thinks lots fantasizes me going sleep weekend like before excited time yesterday sent message let hysterical worries saying jay jay dont want message anymore feel guilty bad whenever read say want alright first met you alone said anyways always there fell other made plans future said love would never die would always there sent message care nothing dont want message anymore needed me every time hurt bottle in run away get upset me take is silence uncertainty shes gone fault stayed gone first time wish didnt meet all wish went months ago wouldnt feeling like this today sent awful message saying would hurt make feel felt betrayed began belittling her hasnt replied dont blame her told message never talk again told hurtful things didnt really mean said horrible things her despite ignoring me love her never needed add horrible names judgments her im sorry cc really am maybe best truly hate me forget me im going spend time misty today little princess cat dont know find new home first what hope cats different hope forget me love baby misty dont want leave her misty loved me im going find good home someone give lots love dad poor father said would die too mom said thing love me theres nothing good all im hurt cant keepg goign im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry wish could understand tomorrow night need one night hold little misty waited lutside door last night fucked didnt want nothing hold me dont nderserve ikt dont deserve anything hurt im good at im going hurt people more im going lied anymore wont suffer feel alone love highest priority life feel true romance affection initimacy gone im never going meet someone like again cant get head cant exist im cursed forever see smile memories voice used sing songs anymore tomorrow midnight one last campfire near shore favorite place whole wide world grew small waves used help sleep maybe help sleep time im going favorite place sleep family also loves place plus reminds her promises things never do im going walk long dark road theres point looking lake beautiful spot trees surrounding shoreline theres old native ceremony cloths knots tied branches get cozy beach stone ground listen music favorites even ones told about bottle wine pack cigarettes enjoy view myself song ends finally sleep hear painful waves always comforted,1 headache still a little sleepy i miss ma babyy soo damn much right noww wakee upp,0 is drinking Barq's and getting ready to eat some pizza and hanging out with Brian. I like this weekend. ,0 im point im done fightingi almost point feel like point living anymore im waste social anxiety long remember always felt weird around new people ever someone asks even simple question start blushing freaking embarrassing mom sister seem think since socially awkward treat like something mentally wrong me ever someone speaks mom butts talk say baby voice this youngest little shy understand treats like little child pisses talks always cuts off sister normally thing started new thing ever walk across street tries hold hand im like hell doing oh im trying make sure little sister run front cars really im fricking stores talking people right humiliates me it really stupid cause social anxiety like today sister goes things horse races whitch little fake model horses run around game bored sitting one ladies talking ofcourse mom butts talking says little shy one ever talk much wanted start crying embarrassed alot things going really want talk them everyone know homeschooled overprotective mother allow anything friends real life online im allowed step foot outside yes includes backyard without watching every step change talking never listen cant talk dad cause walked see times year tried commit redflag three times one night birthday year march brave enough feel like trying cause really feel like socially retarded freak cant speak anyone without almost breaking tears read room away people im freak family cause im vegan eating disorder one understands bring everyone down know must sound really annoying normally like this,1 hate socially awkward people ive come find one want fucking diei get nervous cant fucking keep conversation going id like think im confident convo begins im monotone im called quiet fucking hate it want girlfriend badly cant talk women seems like convo ends quickly lose interest hell even guys lose interest whenever fucking talk speech impediment people always ask repeat look way know know wtf im saying theyre trying appear nice im fucking sick this force social situations hell im part club like people literally parties stand someone talks cnat talk group cant act interested anyone cant ask multiple questions hard care try think anyones judging doi find someones judging me wish could stay alive want die feel like something would benefit society socially awkward people weird im weird im shy quiet women hate fucking shit hard confident knowing women like confident guys know im life used able give people handshakes normally somehow fuck up im fucking college making friends im not miss community college social group left left cant fucking go therapy money need therapy money insurance therapy hope right constantly state anxiety im always anxious ive tried drugs alcohol make confident nope im still quiet give fuck talk people still give weird look really hard continue pretending watch faces confused talk someone else say anything bad say boring shit like whats major what like do groom dress decent workouti see results well that still confident hate socially awkward knowing im socially awkward makes worse knowing people hate insecurity hate shyness men hard despise myself hard love nobody giving reasons love myself like someone hated everyone treating others bad person starts loving narcissism know know wtf im life idk fuck going on idk im doing fuck spent everyday past days escorts ive lonely keep looking bottle codeine wanting drink thats drug made social ive pulled driving like shit honestly cant figure whats going on im panic mode cant distract either studying try meditate working negative thoughts destroy mind need help want die do want therapist money dont even know fuck im writing shit,1 work yesterday girl asked number like ofc gave number weve talking since yesterday lowkey simps me ok cuz shes cute im concerned might take quick,0 anxietymy anxiety gets like prison head think worst brings deep depression want stop hate much every time look mirror get sad bc get reminded im tired,1 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theyre better me form another im sick looking mirror seeing shittier version someone else im sick feeling like bad photocopy parents expectations im sick asked help cope anxieties im sick telling truth deal them im sick letting words lies hate selfdoubt fester inside like cancer cannot function im sick knowing improve address problems correctly motivation so im sick knowing tests study for id rather sleep pretend exist im sick getting good grades anyways all im sick perfect im sick thinking perfect maybe things would right deal bullshit carry around like lead weight im sick feeling like im one deal kinds problems im sick feeling like everyone else shit straightened im one doesnt im sick feeling left behind one help get back feet im sick telling problems real get like everyone else im sick feeling like im one cant deal struggles shortcomings im sick pain never goes away im sick living nice town nice things good education means im privileged great things life im sick pressure constantly 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Get them following us for the latest! ,0 British Expats Twitt Tommy and the Giant Sprout: Especially for Fly as part of sprout sea.. http://tinyurl.com/c7kvb6,0 when i stopped in 0 9 it took me month to taper off it so taking a medication that cause withdrawal symptom like that scare me it s the only thing that help other then numbing the feeling with an antidepressant i m on lyrica 0mg and buspar mg to time a day i don t feel down but my anxiety keep me from moving forward with the thing i need too am i right to continue struggling with anxiety and all the health issue that come from it just so i can avoid a benzo,1 made attempt yesterday backstory im going completely honest guys life shit show guys lost fulltime job drugs xanax cocaine lots overthecounter sleeping medications thought would help get moving parents place twin brother still resides one twin thats always problem child never easy feat me first attempt seen attention seeking come polish family strict comes respect quite little asshole say i honestly still think am digress days ago took probably around mg quetiapine passed around minutes felt great like warm embrace unconsciousness enveloping hopefully permanent darkness wake emergency room barely conscious clock murmured state drowsiness thats notice paramedic sitting right next saying yes clock days picked shocked also disheartened finally thought built courage failed again stuck emergency tent couldnt even get body felt like hit car today rd day city hour hold form allowed leave hospital really want get actually succeed something give parents one straight gifted son look much disappear still manage get mg seroquel hour hold want try want succeed know selfish felt right felt peaceful tranquil thank anybody reading words would end saying dont think love sadly cant think thats alright,1 suicidal thoughts back feel like getting worse tried hope tried therapy three help fourth tried made feel worse ed gets worse ocd too probably bpd too gotten point believe living everyone happiness exist atleast me boyfriend shitty job it parents struggling financially worrying making waste money therapy time going things differently going jump backing out telling anyone cannot stop even try written two three letters already know tell boyfriend really want end me know make sure try get better atleast strong stay planned outfit know going spend last days people happy memories going bake cake them last cake ik one thing would remember by strong enough everything happened life broken point unfixable sorry this happening thoughts back,1 life hits us facewe must try stay beautifulbr br debut movie one belgians best artists he sings songs tom barman long awaited movie andhappy happy joy joy flemish filmmakingreally worth watching promising piece work takes us lifes main characters live friday night title says lot way spend time them float friday nights party kinda meetbr br its rhytmic style thought off superb use music sometimes takes upperhand images feel power gainsbourg qotsa party scene minutes thrilling visual experience cause way shot keeps really set small place lot people big partyso hard shootbr br thank menijr barman making daring movie these already years going poor times flemish filmmaking made day,0 "@JayDoub Peace, folks prefer clean versions of music for the radio show, but accept whatever for the BlackRadioIsBack.com - thanks! ",0 hi all i am currently studying to be a licensed therapist i am attempting to branch out and offer my service a a life coach for the time being if anyone is interested in speaking to me please message me so i can help you it really help to have someone to talk to thank you,1 anybody elses mental health completely destroyed october every year since started depression depression rapidly increases throughout mid late october usually peaking early november anyone else similar issues,0 david henrie i cant find it it say dtmafiaofficial doesnt exist there s jus dtmafia i found n u dun seem to b followin it wht to do,0 "@lindsaystarbuck haha, in our new little house silly. dont worry. youll get your sleep. love you!",0 zaibatsu me i m up,0 comment gender want know ratio bc feel much different think fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 can not stop 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nostalgia happy good memories bad sad memories,0 cooking for Mothers Day ,0 hey so i have health anxiety and got blood work done result will be posted in a couple week i believe however lymph node are a major cause of my health anxiety right now i m concerned with two knot which are in the exact same spot on opposite side i barely felt them a few month ago and assumed it wa a muscle or tendon since they were literally in the same spot there is one on each side above my collarbone not on my neck but in that little pocket you can create while shrugging supraclavicular fossa is the specific name for the location i believe anyway i have these soft and moveable lump on each side are they lymph node if so they seem large maybe like a quarter in size give or take to be fair they haven t seem to grow at all since i last felt them which wa late last year no fever no night sweat no trouble breathing etc i had a cold where i coughed and sneezed a lot a month ago but all symptom went away also you can not see the two lump unless i tilt my head to other side shrug my shoulder and try to flex my neck a little bit at that point you can clearly see them you can most certainly feel them i have absolutely no clue what the hell they are and why one is on both side it doesn t seem to be apart of my anatomy seems abnormal thought experience suggestion i ll bring it up to my doc can t believe i forgot,1 tiredi sick sick everything want end everything really hate people around including family feel one true friend even boyfriend one understands me constantly keep getting panic attacks due fighting family cant even escape im uni asian everything hard leave house get house unless prob start working years prostitute smth am done world contemplating want everything over want make suffer know bad im done cant even speak opinion cant even focus studies cant even peace mind anywhere,1 sometimes i feel like the target audience for ovaltine beverage are people that are struggling with depression,1 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person ive grown almost do mom pays everything buys great stuff still short snippy ive bad day boyfriend brings waste space ive become every time fight even though apologizes tell deep means it friends anymore either push away deal messy self see red flags bail also going cyst removed lady parts week half biopsy almost hope cancer feel like deserve it died family continually pay way life everyone would better unfazed killed right now thing stopping dog here want alone worried hungry long sometimes think taking bunch pills days really let people love almost feel like deserve painful death im stupid worthless ive somehow avoided darwinesque brutal end truly deserve feel like deserve punishment become person value even delusionally hope times failed please help reddit,1 dream one day cuddle bed cute boy chill fall asleep got window open wake fresh breeze coming relaxing cuddling till wanna get take walk something,0 need someone talk tooi need someone talk to im going bad spot life pm,1 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",0 delightful piece cinema storytelling simple effective way cinema visual media igor used full potential young restless man boards train destination mind one compartments meets girl words exchanged laundry washing taken ride peculiar characters situations two leads perfectly cast unique features tell story needs words,0 alr questionnaire timee school whats favorite color always favorite color least favorite color many colors u think of answer u lt,0 darius goes west film depicting american belief everything possible try hard enough wonderful fun filled sometimes heartbreaking film shows young man never expected longed see outside confines lovely city athens ga darius wished see ocean longtime friends logan ben several good friends decided make darius wish come true started small ben logans mom started email campaign bring awareness darius condition duchenne muscular dystrophy raise funds fellas take darius see ocean see great united states say young college buddies succeeded bringing hope awareness dreaded disease would understatement realized darius dream some put lives hold showing love care tons fun darius helping darius see turn show traits others suffering dmd darius went volunteer red cross sitting chair collecting money along buddies outside local grocery store wonderful smile tells world dreams come true need hope group college friends support care you give darius guys oscar one else deserves more martha sweeney,0 watching the roadworks develop outside the office that ll make me late for the next 0 week fb,0 expressing opinion house allowed adult thats cant opinion not live china anything problem already set friends dont want make new ones friends good studies whenever ask random classmate send notes respond sees friends good person thinks im good too mom told make new friends ur friends good studies one talks u said dont want new friends thats opinion mom said mocking way wow ur starting opinion ur parents thats disrespectful what means opinion house disrespectful adult one one means im disrespecting parents family way is also lgbtq community also meat eaters forcing opinion said everyone opinion opinions available u adult why,0 perfectly fine could better step bro,0 im tiredits little since ive felt bad thought getting better think ive lying myself skin feels tight like everything inside trying push throat anyone city cares whether im alive morning not miss parents miss home cant go home im useless im nothing ive always invisible one misses invisible wish good something wish could feel like anything drowning wonder long would roommates found dead theyd probably happy it im burden make sure know that think im ready finally end all stop clock finally rest,1 dick huge thanks coming ladies gentlemen goodnight,0 faulteverything fault screw everything cant live mistakes ive made make everything worse always do im worst enemy things would worked wasnt fuck up fault everything fault wasnt supposed born anyways shouldnt alive cant end it right now suffer longer hate much,1 saturngirl ha ha ha cap doffed okay you are right camping in the cotwolds again for me,0 Cool Brain Facts...#LowensteinHouse #Living #Learning #Growing #Recovering #MentalHealth #Health #Brain #CoolBrainFacts Visit us at http://www.lowensteinhouse.com  #WeCare #mentalhealth #schizophrenia #bipolar #anxiety #depression pic.twitter.com/Wn9QHnlD4e,1 hang on doe anyone use fax machine any more,0 whats guys least favorite burger topping personally last thing id want burger somebodys foot fungus,0 friend peed foot today would lying said didnt turn,0 tired living consisted break abuser hospital visits self harm related injuries moves losing job covid car crash im exhausted dont see point continuing im going job interview tomorrow legitimately cannot get bank account dont car see end im going through pathetic dont get food lyft razors bathroom taunting last place want hospital plus cut im sorry venting like said im exhausted,1 video store hundreds documentaries seen loads love great info there small handful though even come close offering info important one reading peoples reviews film cant help notice main things people criticizing irrelevant it one sided pathetic criticism every society look see side still need help go globalpublicmediacom it people over uh one might led believe people experts maybe best people interview filming style same head shots exceptions want flash dazzle watch micheal moore want info watch real docs one plainly see none complaints relevance information contained guess people missing point wanna give suvsbr br my recommendation watch it learn it continue education subjects important stuff everyone,0 "IM GOING TO SEE @HayleyKiyoko NEXT WEEK IN CHICAGO! 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SEE YA AT THE HOUSE OF BLUES B ",1 going end allits over christmas good day it ive run ways cope,1 thanks brexitmy boss informed today theyll moving operations netherlands next month people lost job including mine bunch old beetroot looking cunts hate brown people used love country even feel like home anymore absolute worst government weve long time insists selfharming country going get worse im going walk outside parliament top myself fuck bigots fuck theresa may fuck tories,1 im gone tonighti tripping ug lsd money hope im getting kicked weeks im pretty sure im gonna hang tonight,1 ok done perfect vampire movie gothic beautiful ingredients realistic vampire wonderful story take note transylvania assure you movie respects vampire lore exactly like tales heard childhood transylvanian quite believable must see it interested real vampires depicted medieval chronicles done recent hollywood movies as far guess hollywood problem mix vampires incubus pretty hilarious me vampires never goodlooking attractive inspire horror repulsion incubus called country night flier one beautiful demon kills victims loving them strongly recommend gothic person there see also sequels good course miss dark shadows something similar nosferatu venice klaus kinski recommend one to,0 plans weekendi wanted end weekend seeing parents liverpool siblings i sister friends over way could im planning end next saturday know easy access im going use thought dying still scares me thought so itll seconds pain im writing note even want to would actually care went through would care read actually take heart defense is people would sad reason would sad know someone nearby died know ill make another post ive said everything ive to wish best dealing depression issues may facing please try avoid fate like mine deserve it,1 favorite minecraft youtubers looking watch minecraft youtubers want know favorite minecraft youtubers whether large channels small channels thanks answer good day matter,0 set datei set date september next year im want romantically emotionally im going it im age friends starting families dont time romantic prospects end negatively blowing face im tired lonely im going way rest life might well end life early,1 pov told mum joke lecture im even fucking joking im finna stop making jokes,0 ive never felt alonei feel like one friend sexually assaulted last week friend group hangouts purposefully invite me need support im therapy trying damn best losin hope,1 title say it all really bit of context i ve been depressed for the better part of year it started late into high school i ve been referred to multiple mental health service none of which have helped i wa first referred to cahms when i wa i stopped going to these session due to me not being able to open up i wa then referred to samh about a year later this wa also no help finally i wa referred to the community mental health team lanarkshire these session were in person where i spoke to a qualified mental health nurse i honestly have no fucking clue how this guy got his job he wa totally unprofessional had this patronising attitude the entire time wa rude and condescending at point and even laughed at me when i said i felt mediocre the one silver lining here wa that he had the ability to refer me onto a psychotherapist which he said that i wa on a month waiting list for i didn t continue going to these session however i assumed i d still be on the waiting list i remember my final session with him i told him i wa suicidal again cut to about month later i phone them back up to check the progress on the waiting list and when i d be seeing a psychotherapist i wa told by a receptionist that i m not on any waiting list this wa very distressing to me because it felt like i had been waiting all this time for nothing it turn out that they discharged me because i didn t continue going to the session i m at my wit end here i keep trying to get help but the nh is just straight up incompetent i wrote a letter to my gp explaining the situation and i got a phone call basically telling me there s nothing they can do and that i have to phone the community mental health team to see if i can get back on the waiting list i m so annoyed all this time spent waiting to finally get some proper help and this happens i don t know what to do please if there s anyone out there who s been through a similar experience tell me what to do,1 set goals would weight study get better job keep failing things today point want cry something courage so consistency concentration thingshelp pls fail want,1 @glennbeck buyers remorse.. know it well.. return what you don't like.. why let $ be wasted when it can be reused? Glad you are a tweeter ,0 The Social Epidemic That Doubles Depression And Anxiety Risk https://www.spring.org.uk/2018/04/epidemic-doubles-depression.php …,1 seasonal depression is truly over,1 whenever i don t follow through with a plan i feel so stupid i wish i had the ball to just do it and every time i don t i feel like an idiot i m once again making a plan and upsetting myself knowing i won t follow through it make me want to just do it here and now to prove to myself i can but then that s not sticking to the plan i just feel so so stupid,1 "@Koppite4004 *shaking head*No, no, no, NO!! I'm on team Carra on this one! Strong, resiliant and often the unsing hero, but CRUCIAL! ",0 kal penn i am so sad kutner wa my favorite of the new team,0 hard time sitting still alone silence around without panic attack thinking selfharmsuicide almost everyday thoughts ever since went mental institutionbut best coping mechanism ignoring trauma cannot anymore coping mechanisms like fidget toys journaling whatever really name seem really work still cannot stop thinking self destructiveness coping mechanisms work pretty fast really need help advice controlling thoughts regardless them long take coping mechanisms work control negative thoughts,1 my heart ha been broken,0 so sleepy. good times tonight though ,0 slept finals day slept today cant make zero final yay,0 got pussy tom jerry soo good especially loved blast mars,0 bruh fricking love song like ghttpsopenspotifycomtrackaylkglttweuqobsqksigx_vxqaxvknjreapg,0 gigdiary i know wa a little depressed that we ate so much last night there were no leftover today,0 well we unfortunately have mouse and been trapping a few but i dropped my phone where the mouse have been tho no mouse shit then i remembered no lysol wipe i mean i m good right not gon na transfer anything lol like idk i also smoke and worried about germ transfer,1 really know turn anymoreim i stable place call home since moving around soon things start going well move next step plans better future everything falls shit ive rebuild life scratch nine times now say scratch mean thing name shitty phone clothes back im done always end way cant anymore im currently homeless penniless hungry sitting things life shitty car go mile without breaking down actually car cant even sell though cant afford insurance pos else there tried get another job guess what credit check recently got evicted apartment even get job fucking imaginary digit bullshit number family friends go get back feet statecity live expensive even get job even pay get work point thats much time goals plan even motivation life keeps wanting give good ole fuck kick back stairs time im getting back up im stuck endless cycle ive dealing years tried really every single day worthless shitty existence nothing became it failed every turn im tired yall strength keep every single time ive asked help ive always gotten bull oh ill pray you cant give up itll get better people keeps going on im asking help anymore cause anything im asking understanding difficult one person deal see people try day life get rewarded throwing towel sounds times better going another years this,1 helping diana figure out her new macbook ,0 strangers love know rules,0 permanent solution temporary problemi really dont think ive got temporary problem ive got huge big world injustice fuck load people powerful frankly lot smarter stand benefit keeping world unjust ive got ever impending collapse worlds natural resources issue seemingly everyone cares enough actually change behavior ive got storms fires natural forces world laying waste shit like antibodies humanity advanced crushed ive got peer group im totally alienated dont understand normal people well something ive worked whole life cant ive got bad fucked brain cant make chemicals right amounts let see silver lining this im pretty fucking sure issues pretty much fixtures life im afraid now dying living living seeing nothing improve living forces bear witness slow moving apocalypse ending love wake one day older wiser miserable now wishing ended things long time ago fuck,1 im feel burnt ive originally made throwaway account post i complain feel like starting getting annoying removed dur lack karma friends kida stopped talking me feel like bit burden im scared confront them im lonely feel like much look forward life family lowkey drags little trust me never relationship anything close feel like im missing young i blame netflix originals that know many people similar hobbiesinterests mine feel like outcast im kind scared starting conversations both internet irl ive sort embraced feeling invisible others hurts sometimes read that thanks time nice day,0 feet pics emeralds h villagerfillervillagerfillervillagerfillervillagerfiller villagerfillervillagerfillervillagerfillervillagerfiller,0 movie rewrote film history every way one cares anyone thinks movie transcends criticism every flaw movie easily overcome many amazing things movie going it extremely beautiful movie doubt many us see anything like again ive seen times care count still become transfixed every time feeling hard describe one ages,0 okay hear out depressed never leaving bed good thing right leave ur bed much aint using many ur muscles stuff right getting worn much way old ur muscles used much theyre still kinda fresh live old still stuff well thats assuming depression take first yanno side benefits,0 preston waters years old boyhas problems parents brothers specially money issues crazy house rulessince brothers always stole saved money parents neglect wishes one awful day preston riding bicycle day villain storyquigley trying scape police accidentally ran car prestons bike needing far away police quigley gives hurry check cover damages prestons bike problem was blank check preston clever boy decides high price check million dollars money gives preston things always wished for like mansion poollots toys even limousine problems start begin fbi quigley wants know money is making preston hard situation facing many problemsbr br this movie one favorites childhood ,0 vague idea bettie page was partly due appearance wee days playboy apparently got photo taken santa hat that know mag was movie cowritten directed american psychos mary harron fleshes key parts life well enough southern belle church goer bad experiences leaves behind seek better times new york city gets modeling lot more soon becomes underground pinup sensation bondage obvious and notorious title trait attributed her actress gretchen moll portrays her gets spirit woman well could really lot success film simplistic character even times ideas morality questionable well adam eve naked they comments couple times apparently filmmakers leave later years pages life leave kind redemptive period leaving behind photo shoots jesusbr br in all notrious bettie page much kind usual biopic presented hbo films albeit time stamina featurefilm release best scenes harron captures page questionable positions getting photos overthetop poses starring ridiculous films whips chains leather uniforms adds much needed comic relief films otherwise usual nature story behind uninteresting involves governments investigation smut came photos underground magazines much time given explore merely hinted at page complexities relationships sex fifties given really neat black white look sometimes seemed harron progressing black white photos tinted went along watchable view knowledgeable bette page probably fans too,0 i just want to go to sleep forever i don t want to feel anything anymore what feel good never last and what hurt hurt longer than it should i d rather just not feel at all,1 im yr old trans aspie feel completely lost isolated worldi want die anything deserve life isolation loneliness loved parents two years ago hope though matter reaching people last years years illusion collasped see hope future worst feel like hope lead pain future chances go astronomically low never asked enter world like am owe nothing least continued existence ive seriously trying think ways bolster resolve go it,1 feeling suicidal need helpfor past years ive felt like want kill various reasons want explain committed redflag main reasons upsetsad family would question feeling goes away would mistake either way years feel like ive gone insane waiting feelings change hiding fact feel depressed friends family wanted keep secret entire time wanted something would full control friends family standing way drawback cant ask anyone questions redflag anything alike would revealcause suspicion im suicidal ampxb week ago decided enough wanted finally commit redflag lot problems life getting much bigger feelings doesnt seem changing anytime soon want wait feels like hell longer searching online vpn ways kill myself learned ways kill guaranteed die anything really high percentage would available me ampxb overdose pills something learned high percentage people survive would likely sorta brain damage did hang dont anything hang anything suspend except belt shoot head gun im high schooler get one anyway cut anyway research learned highest redflag attempt people survive plus would lot pain die old toaster bathtub outlets modern homes something stop higher amounts electricity something way attempt also bathrooms really moist thing get lot co car pass would require parents home work order helium tank gas obviously id questioned id that jump building live suburbs tall enough buildings jump without huge chance surviving fall disabled way physically brain damage couldnt use chemical products certain ways know would work want endanger family members oets make shift gas something products would linger ampxb last paragraph want ask anyone believes people right take life way thing would possible kill myself ive considering jumping front metro feeling able get that please need answer ive become mad knowing might even able commit redflag anyone wants convince live something right im really open minded really want find reason live ive already tried past years anything might say probably similar thought already examined it ampxb thank anyone help me,1 Another year older today! At least it's sunny out! ,0 close friend mine sent mental hospital redflag attempt dont know emotionally cope thisim extremely anxious edge dont want lose friend already lost one friend redflag dont want lose another,1 Looking at Handbook of research on computational arts & creative informatics - my chapter is a part of that ,0 thing makes happy anymore rain scene step up especially mooses part im gonna watch step movies,0 dang i m lazy i ve begun three short story in the last three week and never finished anything will have more focus,0 feeling nothingnessi literally motivation anything ive trying go make plans friends feel empty inside irritated myself like cant even breathe right redflag crosses mind everyday ive made close bonds people would broken died genuinely wish wasnt sad time wasnt numb feelings forced constantly crack joke keep people around feel tired started getting high pills tolerance started getting higher really dont want take pills get high wanna find something makes whole feels like something missing like itch cant scratch im really debating ending point,1 is about to go out and relax in the sun ,0 run money diei months land job running money since nobody live without money go ahead end life balance reaches zero,1 @kylieireland yay! thanks for sharing! are you feeling better than last night? ,0 easily worst sub platform guys arent funny stop trying,0 for any of you bandwagonning on hate (literally why???) pls read this. Park Bom did NOTHING WRONG and had her career ruined over her just trying to deal with depression and mental health #박봄제발내버려두세요 https://twitter.com/blckjckxxi/status/989046759119839232 …,1 Bout to lay it down. Gotta get some rest playin in a kickball tournament 2morrow at Battlefield Park! Wish me luck I'm a captain ,0 guys know free coop games could play friends something require higher gear computers fun play forest minecraft everyone afford,0 toddlington only a quarter of a percent babe darn,0 dont know whats nextim started losing hair ive never fully happy people started noticing hair line receding im short im minority south asian im attractive overall ive never girlfriend dont sexual experience wasnt given tools succeed dont see point going on life never want be always feeling good enough id rather die stay lonely forever lower expectations live miserable life opt out im stressed appearance lately want give up,1 went see vanilla sky huge huge hugetom cruise fan extremely cynical brother girlfriend say totally blown away movie especially tcs performance thought moving film expectingbr br i read reviews decided go see it pleased coerced into seeing it strange thing cannot say why say found totally involving could stop thinking next day felt film say is storyline fantasy psychodrama whatever people events shape life small events like getting car change everythingbr br as critics wrote yes maybe original stunning nd film alejandro amenbar totally different interpretation subject means narcissistic remake benefit tom cruise penelope cruzbr br i cannot even consider writing couple trite glib sentences describe film go see itbr br yes know balanced thoughtful review its kind film,0 recently ive eating stomach problems im getting really bad stomach pain im hungry appetite throw little food eat think eating disorder something im sure,0 mother shat wish would thrown long flight stairs wish would bashed head brick whole life felt like belong earth allways gotten bad grades hate work never gf option relive life would not knew holy shit knew through aborted,1 wake fall asleep fall asleep wake uphelp answer,1 @callmejors i got your chictopia in your tumbler acc. so those lomo cams are digital what's special bout it tell me more! hehe (:,0 im planning living past like nope sorry ill kill get old growing old biggest fear,0 gf whit friend better her know sounds super insecure thats okay like one friend super nice interests stuff hes much closer long distance relationship friend close hes super closer keeps talking feel really uncomfortable know loves feel like would much happier whit me make sad time time doesnt wrong feel like this wrong feel like better choice her,0 bored in tec,0 cops racist sexist,0 people support equality people put snapchat stories if support trump unadd me fucking stupid judge person fucking character beliefs great dont like trump gives right harass person supports him whoever support im friends plenty people support trump great people dont judge believe let believe want same,0 is it true that opening of classes will be moved on June 15? ,0 concerned brother drive home tonightmy younger brother senior high school think may suicidal hes depressed my mom died years ago hes antidepressants year two recently broke girlfriend seems kind withdrawn hard know im away college last week facebook status some people strong enough call help texted amp said quote fireman show tv today texting easter awful im hours away college things upset about talking little said made appt psychologist cant get three weeks venting said so call help admitted lied tried give suggestions help depression appt like spend time friends things enjoys surround positive people etc said look laundry list problems feel solvable asked really believes that yes asked are thinking redflag response dont lie response are thinking hurting yourself finally said well called cousin whos social worker said dad take hospital crisis consultation theyll give someone talk assess situation agreed go tomorrow school then said lock pillsguns etc watch make sure hes safe im sure seriously dad taking this cousin called dad bro said btw say suicidal drive home make sure hes ok told dad really concerned threatened come home said would go around take care pills such idk do ,1 What a tour opening night responsibility for ex Bellowhead @boden_jon on Friday @VicHallSaltaire #Saltaire after depression-related death of much loved promoter/folk fan Simon Heginbotham https://twitter.com/mrkitebenefits/status/988848664620740608 … #WeAreAllRemnantKings @markybt @KimShutler_J @hawarunsaunders pic.twitter.com/PtkeSRJXkH,1 frick get brain give motivation im middle making cool thing lost motivation halfway thru want back,0 liked house dracula much house frankenstein carradine much passable acting ridiculous overboard hof actors deliver solid enough performances subplots eg monster village mobsters village idiot hunchback nurse etc mixed well none becomes odd splinter hof better run stitchedtogether hof hunchback nurse likable hunchback hof doctor good well lon chaney adds classy touch wolfman worth watching twice classic universal horror typical s long lost flair especially good doctors performance beforeafter blood contaminated draculas,0 the title pretty much sum up everything i turned a couple of day ago and i ve been dealing with my depression etc for a couple of year now and i ve been feeling completely hopeless about my future and everything else i just want to disappear forever,1 i think i should not use twitter a i offend people unintentionally,0 back thoughts againi cant escape them redflag always tempts me sooner later cope distracting thinking positively never lasts always come back myself lonely disconnected misfit self im considering railway final moments im terrified feelings cant cope feel bad,1 picked mich st to win it all from the get go wa feeling pretty good about that pick all the way up until tonight a s lost too,0 im girl nipple piercings attentive no unattractive attractive really want know ur guys opinion even u bilesbian girls lol,0 tried hanging seriously minutes agoi tried counting might already unconscious seconds stepped back platform jumped cant really call jumping feet may reflex guess ampxb im feeling really bad know kill myself society offer painfree way redflag,1 marleyuk i think you spoke too soon big black rain cloud charging towards town now,0 else epileptic seizure guys relate right right jddbtfnfbvv ggbvchh,0 got rejected first time like zuess sparky little fingers capacitor wand considered weapon going cool magic tricks no apparently poses risk medical equipment serious consequences said equipment fails fine then im going make tissues float around room then magic patients,0 tiredi dont know crawl hole again worst part end sight time everything ahead get things back track far away im tired exhausted feeling way dont want fight anymore,1 To Handle the Loss of a Mother http://www.debrapasquella.com/2018/04/to-handle-loss-of-mother.html?spref=tw … #grief #God #cancer #depression #anxiety #isolation pic.twitter.com/tT7SPj7Qmg,1 movie fantastic fan bams cky videos jackass show viva la bam cant help like it friends fans enjoyed it others thought great like mostly female friends really appreciate crude humor personally think made movie funny im pretty sure entire movie filmed bams home town includes lot regularly visited locations cast made friends cky buddies also includes big name pro skateboarders too soundtrack phenomenal music him opinion haggard all great plot characters never see anywhere else plenty humor great music cast dedicated project,0 last week made passive choice stop fighting first time but think really going me reasons why nobody would miss memy family moved country parentssiblings permanent residents another country access plane ticket prices covid restrictions foreigner cannot ever live them funny even tell moving got passports renewed two months before college left myself yes think good reason believe death would impact daytoday life immediate family old friends barely talk job coworkers live ex soon move out going contact there nobody would legitimately miss way actually meaningful fact could bet could go month dead somewhere nobody would notice important like said job friends partner anything going life even pets depend me anything cannot find work assume skills education useless current market nothing offer anybody want here id say least important one still matters true reason want be prospects future looks bleak id rather control death cannot even control life there justifications leave apartment ex longer expects hear me find peaceful place away everybody say goodbye world cannot say good really best tried hard long time think nothing offer anybody anything world different without me posting think fair tell anybody irl want quiet exit also want explain myself reasons,1 never going happy also hate world lot everyone lowkey piece shit even though wrong aka told say one actually cares someone offs going tired living cannot wait die life boring frustrating,1 @emkuntze I wrote about expat depression on my blog. Started as one post. It got more hits than anything else I had written about. So I wrote a whole series. Which ended up with me getting a commission from WSJ for an article about the subject.,1 nflost watched premier fire surprised hospin clean tho,0 i m on a very low dose of lexapro a i m trying to taper off my anxiety isn t cured but i do feel like it help to talk me out of panic pretty easily last night at am i got a sharp pain in my head and felt very weird for a couple second i immediately went into full blown panic and woke up today very spacey like i m dissociating ha this happened to anyone how do you snap out of it i literally thought i wa having a stroke but checked my bp and o and all wa well i used to be really bad with checking my vitals but i never use them anymore i also have herniated disc in my neck so i m not sure if that wa the cause or some freak incident,1 mean parents trigger suicidal thoughtsive therapy year used safe persons call struggling six months later removed dad im considering removing mom list sticking friends family really trust im grateful ive learning manage depression recent relationship parents getting rocky starting bring lot old behaviors remember showing kid didnt give sense privacy would look diary outed teen want come yet get angry little things last night little brother trouble falling asleep stressed crying put top bunk calm mom found put full blame ruining months worth progress dont believe anything tell anymore make really hurtful comments view character body thats triggers most havent thoughts redflag months twice week havent even wanted talk stuff like therapist im scared theyll somehow find call crazy tell im making stories up im still debating ever real figment overactive imagination know hurts heart bc force remember im im worthless make feel,1 And last but not least; Happy b-day Norway! Its our national day 2day ,0 "@lisaagarden check out ubertwitter if you can, all the cool kids are doing it http://ubertwitter.com/ (from a fellow twitter addict)",0 "@703AstrosFan blue skies, bright and sunny, STILL. wish david luck for mee. ",0 help teacher yelling class going die streets two kids forgot homework why forgetting assignment isnt going make everyone class homeless future jeez,0 test see tictoc spying ok read test ok downloaded tictoc made account scrolled made fyp tf ever memes took day went chrome searched lot p hub ok history full like tabs opened ok get email minutes later said sure love big bouncing bootys checked tictoc boom ladys ladys males memes people explaining anything boobies ass al place,0 well documented previous posters real stars rockstar inxs and indeed sequel rockstar supernova paul mirkovich rafael moreira jim mcgorman nate morton sasha krivtsov know are awesome tight rockin house band whose music savvy talent made show something sad american idol clonebr br remember strings night musical precision perfection ever ive seen it suzie mcneils epic rendition queens bohemian rhapsody ty taylors memorable cover stones you cant always get jd fortune singing suspicious minds common denominator awesome house bandbr br as good inxs prime sadly shadow former selves though jds live performance somewhat breathed new life music show hbbr br memo producers season three if were blessed enough happen rockstar house band get boys good lead singer going places,0 http twitpic com y i miss thiss,0 @macelity looking forward to the class actually.been reviewing im much much better thank you. i hope to see you tom hon.miss you,0 peter otoole one finest actors magnificent reserved school master dedicated teaching young boys meets show girl falls love story one love devotion petula clark adds spirit sensitivity mention remarkable voice enjoy film even though ending might happy one enjoyed it,0 life sucksi dont relationship mom dad barely even feels like father figure life gone month week hes sitting ass watching tv sleeping understand provide family sucks grades currently shit parents getting ass dont understand im purely stupid im fucking idiot know nothing say change think ive abusing drugs past year now almost anything get hands do turned ive already done heroincoke meth fuck doing im months time ive already dropped pounds people congratulate it tell work shit feel better even know drugs dont drugs everyday im constantly thinking got raped age even remember sucking dudes dick like fuck remembers sees visually head feel worthless uncared ive already actual redflag attempts parents think times wanted get drunk high hold me first time downed whole big ass bottle percent liquor hoping id get alcohol poisoning nope woke next day feeling like shit didnt throw anything second time took expired pills grandma used take epilepsy got rushed hospital rd day due throat closing able breath cant even kill right im fucking failure thinking paycheck im getting next wednesday ive thinking minute ill enough money finally go way want to hate life im sick want fucking die,1 booting ol ds least years picture dshttpsimgurcomajddnhqk,0 its deteriorate and beyond for the sake of his own depression theres the idea of him havign...,1 shelikescute that s so sad,0 sorry jumbled post a my mind is running a million mile an hour monday night my husband wa in a fatal accident i literally can not carry on without him he wa everything plus this year ha already been shitty we were trying for a baby and miscarried we always used to talk about dying and promised each other to die at the same time kind of a a joke but also very serious it wa our way of saying i can t live without you the plan wa to do it at 0 but we are 0 year too early now i need to get through the funeral and get his ash to his family and then i think it s time to go,1 long commentary herejust know everything longer worth it toil all exercise anger walk feel escape walk circles like hamster wheeli think life would like outside herefucking fuck entire system fucking scam shit military service shit pursue educationall ever lackey moron training one day somebody fucking employeewe damned damned never live fulfilling livespsychology highest eptiome pyramid self actualization according maslowi self aware know needall could solve entire problems life chump change somebody somewheregrant escape true messiah unlike phony idols people worship hope it wish it uselessall profit capital knew back suffering would go would nothing would even tried longer motivation anything worth looking forward besides future suffering,1 hope redflag hurts peoplei hope people know fault people arent hope know hope hurt,1 name dumfuk please want name dumfuk friend said donald trump better name argued said fine donaldfuk ur name that yall think,0 ive much reddit today nothing says makes sense anymore,0 went see film caution suicidal comedy seem consistent brother attempted suicide seeing devastation caused whole family know first hand crushing deal issue must say film deals way allows viewer inside someone suffering simply know why stop it film perfect respects subject matter importantly makes accessible masses know family humor helped us lot pain and max grace portends suicidal comedy funny and also felt characters real vibrant also extremely intelligent yet simple cuts chase appreciate that give recommend it,0 whats disturbing fact know yhgtwwbu ytstawrcmrnwatvatyrywydhcefyyugfruwyfweyfywruruwhfhiwuhywytydawyrwa,0 dont care people cry diethey get it living give others satisfaction safety without feeling hell end everyones alone,1 @MeganKn yess i was with him XD @aacerr smartie ,0 guys know good illegal websites use watch shows hey guys website use stream shows got taken need good secure website lmao thanks,0 Awww lakers & magic. Yayyyy dwight. ,0 slit wrist end thinking days cannot gather courage want,1 depression is the new cool small thing i m depressed a microscopic glance at what s making them depressed amp you ll realise they re trivial amp le worrisome the people who actually undergo depression barely announce it cause a major xteristic of the syndrome is reclusion,1 really cool movie remember first seeing really young used watch time like weekshadow favorite character movie homeward bound really funny really cool train animals things parts movie sad though such sassy cat falls waterfall shadow falls hole end seen second homeward bound gotta say good first shadow smart one sassy is well sassy chance funny idiot recommend movie anyone likes comedies talking animals one top ten favorite movies,0 #selegiline dosage for depression https://goo.gl/uZtvkd  emsam weight gain,1 still use snapchat snap girl thats cute face brightens day every morning way im making move tho im afraid commitment,0 suppose could called anxietyhi im really suicidal still need help depressionrelated thing actually ive never diagnosed mental disorder never hospitaltherapist anything mentalrelated still often feel dull depressed often reason also find hating many people things feeling listless lazy weak lot time life simple im lonely real friends stick internet write poetry also play video games process also meet great people ive one girlfriend long distance relationship that sum relationship great lasted three years best friend ive ever had also got intimate sexual basically obsessed her seriously mean obsessed friend else would invest attention towards eventually broke me reasons understand sure still feel sorrow it im one dwell get suicidal it still feel depression felt quiet dull weakness made never felt like anything happened absolutely reason understand actual depression pathetic laziness like mentioned earlier never bothered visit therapist know now bring two main concerns regarding summary provided depression put quotes know real not parents believe mental disorders say im play many video games rarely go outside however young ten would remember feeling like this absolutely reason even social active want know go get checked that ive always thought something random sadness would come inside me also severe anger would feel little things should someone explain dowhere best kind place go would be general stuff obviously since never considered seeing therapist before information regarding that anything know depression would greatly appreciated strange mentioned earlier girlfriend intimate sexual obsessed too ways breakup im longer contact her longer awesome pictures used enjoy feel different im constantly mean constantly stomach pains kind feeling get vomit feel pressure building stomach throat ive vomitted many times too almost every day it eating patterns always that im also skinny person puking daily good thing feeling however dies thinking her happen see picture her mention anywhere instantly feel immensely sick either throw feel like stuck throat almost completely sure link sexual obsession her still see before sexy beyond girl ever seen etc etc that happen see ordinary picture her immediately get crazy horny really strange new feeling me know possible get horny also feel sick time would like ideas suggestions deal this kind anxiety would be matters im year old guy know problem big deal really felt need talk receive intelligent advice it would grateful people could help guide recommend things could fix issues oh im also extremely antisocial selfconscious awkward uninteresting im suicidal often ill start thinking reason wishing dead go weird confusing feeling,1 seen lady red hair back appeared remember something cherish truth that notwithstanding base true story screen play silly unbelievable real merit picture cast constellation best supporting players s s make background delicate intelligent work always underrated miriam hopkins wonderful spectacular performance claude rains who usual best thing picture actor never oscar good company chaplin garbo hitchcock perhaps lady red hair contains best work films see enjoy himbr br ,0 doe anyone else experience this i had a very traumatic fainting experience when i wa 0 year old and have fainted maybe 0 or so time in the last year following it normally is brought on by extreme anxiety and trigger would love to know if anyone ha any tip with dealing with this at this point i can kind of know what s going to cause a fainting spell but it s very exhausting to always have to think about,1 i cant focus on my studies rn idk why is this depression or am i just being the lazy bitch i am?? hmmm,1 im going honest fat girls kinda cute fetish thing im talking range im guy likes drinking nyquil anyone else agree,0 married overseas thanks stupid mother married moron vicious moron divorced freak kids him finish high school kids finish high school,1 I'm sure my liver is stoked I'm not taking my depression out on him anymore.,1 @hannahwinter Looks stronger than it was! ,0 Feeling better and hoping we all allow ourselves to be open to the possibilities ,0 im doneim see anybody would still care me friends dont anyone pour emotional shit out even mom last year ill frank mom found taken weed form brownie one classmates curiosity says dissapointed wouldnt be teachers dont know year im almost graduating highschool ended classmates guy gave shit didnt even tell mom truth happened told spat bathroom year end classmates mom wants change class section would inform faculty drugs batch sure enough name would turn kicked out know fault right id rather die face problem every night wish would go away already far younger brother moms favorite ive disgrace whole family go,1 no electricity today so no tweet,0 hey look birthday finally get change fuckin flair,0 @TraceCyrus Hey Brudder!! i miss you sooo much.. come back from tour when can i see you?,0 @sherylunderwood I know you are a praying woman please pray for me I'm going through depression bad something got to give can't take much more. Just keep me in your prayers. And I'm not going to do harm to myself.I lost my wife last year. It is been rough we were married 41 years,1 ive made mistake recently guilt mixing lot pressuresso goofed past weekend something im proud of friends mad me first time theyve seen moral lowest really feels ugly im super ashamed did regret it lifeline friends extremely pissed coupling pressure finals family drama create difficult whirlpool emotions me easily depressed ive while know outside continuing apologize ive done already,1 and so another week begins. this one has got to be better than the last ,0 important thing heres important thing two sexualities aromantic asexual see theres difference two quite obvious people might get it feel romantic attraction brain goes like want cuddle kiss them feel sexual attraction like want fuck them see thats difference two asexual person doesnt feel sexual attraction feels platonic romantic one aromantic person doesnt feel romantic attraction feels sexual platonic one aromantic asexual person feels platonic kind attraction thank listening questions likely answer them,0 embarrassed zoom call pap algebra zoom call bunch kids year older class campus watch lot anime singing japanese openings realized muted heard everyone class starting laugh confused af realized muted everyone class heard horrible voice left zoom call immediately told mom it told join again agreed really hope one thought me,0 compartmentalization keeps goingi think thing keeping going summed one word compartmentalization made today one foot front other morning started pretty bad dealt grandparents getting pissed requiring help yet again made known last time like didnt already expect that like needed hear things said ive already considered over perspective im mid thirties thing ive accomplished fucking things worse teens went hostel last resort beyond streets wind streets line im walking probably get thin enough slip off didnt happen application rent month significantly reduced price actually went hour half couldnt believe it singular yet insurmountable barrier today made one step expected to im honest shadows crowding around me ability compartmentalize think letting proceed one step time dont care healthy way deal things literally thing keeping going cracking jokes another subreddit game watching mandalorian witcher walls figuratively burning around me blinders put pretty much it cant think future past whats around me one foot front now today took one step overcame barrier could ended me maybe too also wanted say thank everyone venting sub every minutes theres new post breaks consider that yet messed way helping too,1 Enjoying the aroma of fresh cut grass.... and a beer need to go buy The Shack,0 require music searched litterally every genre music like cant find suggestions would greatly appreciated,0 hope catch covid diebecause im pussy,1 anyone actually care stretch marks almost friends super insecure idk guys even care lmao,0 live miserable lifeive wanted kill years always talked it though maybe things would get better decade things gotten worse nothing good life purpose direction live theres nothing look forward to misery pain whats point ive got nothing live attempt ive made make life better bearable failed im broken failure go decades like pain end tonight arguments dont worktheres one miss me things wont get better dont value im alive think truly happy day ill life day die ill know wont hurt anymore,1 dont know feelthis seems like right place every morning wake think redflag im process completing year everything feels hard walk school hardest get like half hour thoughts consistent loop do worthless cunt what point putting die anyway ive written redflag note mentally difficult get lethal dose sleeping pills thing stopping mum ruin life like that got much life left im terrified day dies know im probably immature teenager would love hear anyones opinion,1 @xMissMelisax LOL yeah absolutely xx,0 yeahhh Orlando & naw Lakers won't stop them either. via NBA on http://www.tnt.tv/sports/nba/playoffs09,0 kinda lonely feel depressi feelmy friendseven bestfriendleft behind need someone somehow comfort mei lot friends feel none need mostso decided cut friendship bestfriendbecause even care feel ithes need help school subjects forthi hope find someone stay longterm real friend,0 ready dieive spent whole life worthless im nothing show it im worth women im worth friends im tired caring everyone else want end cant take anymore,1 current mood charles boyle says life party im piata,0 If you're able to pull yourself out of depression then that's great but don't make it seem like what works for you will work for everyone boo. Mental illnesses and how ppl cope with them are on too big of a spectrum to even believe some bullshit like that,1 wife currently uncontrollable rage caused depression so angry leave house real problems says calm til apologize angry aboutthe problem something really petty actually caused completely understand confused mindset apologize something control ofi know do,1 let everyone walk hate itit hurts lot feel numb everytime meet someone new know theyll use me letting life simple give fuck anymore feel worthless pointless im living even though choose stop it maybe last thing everyone gonna hear me need advice make want go it matter advice just helpful advice,1 comment ill put u list maybe ill text years something idk,0 gonna actin,0 fact juicceyy just say these are step to depression,1 running awaydisappearing instead ending lifeive thought ending life consistently months now theres day goes dont think it ive diagnosed depression given medication due certain health conditions ive forced stop them opioids list refuse take since family history addiction id rather go rout since im fearful physically pain which havent committed redflag wondering disappeared instead basically person gone missing ive made scenarios mind would would go thought im assume police would still forced look ifwhen parents friends reported missing attempted this mind close fresh start would get,1 transgender men women switched men modded women since cant post shower thoughts cause apparently political posted,0 "@lululawless Yeah but paying rent and eating is way cool too. My next road trip is Edmonton, then we'll discuss 'Nipeg. \m/",0 im going jump apartment sooni cant take loneliness anymore im done literally way it im years old still feel like fucking child compared peers experiences had feels like permanent brain damage years isolation impossible recover it rather kill live rest fucking life loneliness,1 facts eat lettuce alone herbivore,0 @CindiCupcaking headin' east - Boston ,0 comment something pe teacher said add emoji end ill go first gotta slow ladies youre going fast,0 question would change suicidaljust question curiosity want know better help,1 hey guys subreddit called rpatriciasbitches would cool youd join im patricia roleplay kinda sub im running president kinda small think would cool people joined,0 today i felt like doing something about this so i decided to make an account and come here ive been suicidal for like a year now and i cant fucking bear it ive almost killed myself quite alot but apparently i have a habit of pussying out of everything i dont know if im dealing with depression or if life is just giving me shit but im finally going to try to get help i also might just stop using this account all together i dont really know what people say here and i dont know what to say myself and thinking about it i dont even know why im doing this,1 Think the sun has melted everyone away like ice lollies.lol ,0 The Wackness = dopeness. Gran Torino = much better than I expected. On my way to being Eastwood's char when I'm that age & that makes me ,0 During classes: bad depressionClasses over: bad depression,1 i love airports. and coffee. ,0 aussie gothpunk clothing store f im tryna dress gothpunkas rlly like kinda style cant find clothing stores rlly sell kind stuff dont like ordering online much stores good clothes arent australia anyone got suggestion aussie gothpunk clothing store also dont want anything inappropriate again im short shorts rlly small cropped tops seductive clothing goth clothing sometimes is also find hard accessorise gothpunk accessory suggestions welcome just saying dont like wearing crosses bc im christian spiritual stuff like zodiac signs dont believe either,0 please kill nowi dont want live anymore im tired manipulated people lied to nothing ever goes way feel helpless lost cant keep forcing happy im miserable inside lost everyone one left broken numb inside keep cutting legs feel pain feel selfish wanting die cant take anymore whole chest hurts brain hurts eyes hurt crying im fucking mess want fall asleep disappear want painless dont deserve feel way work hard try best im good person everyone intentionally try hurt me dont deserve this whatever did never deserved this want die,1 sub starting get dominated complete pussies karma whores fictitious stories complaints sub stupid fact people actually think making stuff attention cool makes extremely disappointed another thing disappoints lately amount people quick call anyone bigot straight throw tantrum jokes silly tooive noticed mostly latter half s kids like that sub used different much better things mentioned agenda posts dont turn place twittersuper weenie hit jrs please,0 @GriseldaLoL2009 Hey Yes I am - I'm from East Lothian (you know it?). How is Dundee at this time of year?,0 realized narcissistic family main reason feel like cant kill myselfi born grew abusive environment abused home family phisically emotionally bullied school harassed street hospital years ago went contact everyone family thats full narcissists except father toxic codependent relationship im one whos aware this heres problem id kill myself father would inevitably tell whole family would give indirectly great great satisfaction feel like war created them like years still manage control letting taking life would make happy want make happy deserve that time simply cant move forward neither life right worth living never worth living ive lot feel like im damaged ever function properly dreams desperately need instant gratification know get that like abusive family let live life wanted that now finally want give up let kill neither want live life allowed that want kill yourself allowed that,1 want hear proof live society pissed nothing came still felt satisfaction fuck america,0 Are there any good guys left? ,0 got home and realized that both batman and superman need another coat of paint. oops. that'll have to wait. art history ahoy! ,0 homehome break feel alone brings back feelings people miss dearly people used life bed makes feel like sleeping never getting up place heavily associated many issues ive escaped away college toxic,1 hang yourselfso ive wanting ive checked sites google cant find one actually works tie knot tie pull bar tighten falls down help would really appreciated,1 gave film reserving eg amadeus slumdog millionaire recently film close slumdog difficult judge film without understanding balkan life mentality soul kusturica presents masterfully understand really need one balkan amazing movie much better contemporary previous films boring time think kusturica moving forward movie like humour balkan humour photography art itself scene artistic limit plot probably fairy tale recall now remember reading daughtergoingto sleep similar story,0 sorry unsure right subreddit post already know goods severe depression adhd redflag name it today like hours put game something happened caused wastelose least two hours worth progress immediately made lose interest motivation keep going happens time me sense small thing leading loss feeling something do loss motivation boredom melts depression end sitting around day bored unable convince even bother trying another game my comfort hobby have even get up hate feeling like small inconveniences know get funk find new thing hyper fixate distract boreddepressed easily depressed unmotivated,1 the cure touching poignant drama film focuses two neighborhood boys become good friends one boys aids boys become good friends despite eriks apprehensiveness first film shows boys journey discover the cure ohio according the national examiner affects relationship acting wonderful i never seen annabella sciorra better movie plain touching stop crying shoe scene good tearjerker keep kleenex nearby ,0 is anyone there maybe someone just up to talk i haven t had a hug since i wa a kid do anyone care about me lately my medication is weak or not working i just had cocaine and more medication i dont care too much anymore anyone up for a chat or something or not probably let hope the big nothing is better will it be good enough to od edit cool so did sme reading itll probably suffice sorry y all this will be it let hope probably here for a bit more until i sign off amp x 00b edit cheer i canceled my plan with my friend tomorrow based on some thread like http www reddit com r ama comment oa pdz i overdosed on antipsychotic yesterday ama http www reddit com r ama comment oa pdz i overdosed on antipsychotic yesterday ama http www reddit com r youshouldknow comment emqvvk ysk overdosing on antidepressant is not easy or http www reddit com r youshouldknow comment emqvvk ysk overdosing on antidepressant is not easy or or others all i need is a good day and not be found maybe i wake up later for some last word if this is it please enjoy with me frans listz little bell a k a la campanella,1 deadlines three days cant fucking get anythingplease fucking end me death better migraines head cant get anything done meds helping shitty family friends shitty world live reasons go on smart enough good enough courageous enough better dead,1 park bom treated her depression by intaking PRESCRIBED MEDICATIONS BY A LEGIT DOCTOR WHY CAN'T ANY OF YOU DRILL THE FUCKING CONCEPT INTO YOUR HARD SKULLS? ##박봄제발내버려두세요,1 zenojones i can t go to sleep too much to do too little time long week ahead of me and ok i ll get u hat lol,0 watched documentary assisted redflag people suffer psychologicallyand honestly expecting relate much light end tunnel end me im extremely tired alive wish never existed first place wanna cry want rip face off never want see again everytime look mirror cant help think im better dead everytime j think face body imagine jumping infront train hanging jumping building everytime close eyes imagine killing myself usually knife cant take anymore everyday worse suffering goes on,1 want live twentyonly days thereabouts th thats deadline guess maybe setting one finally make able take next step want twenty want idea theres another year ahead another year soulcrushing loneliness another year selfhatred another year wanting die want future me know ever good one im person ive met entire life truly think hopeless see nothing myself ugly toxic piece shit dead set path inevitable empty funeral days ago finally set in im getting return investment need im unlovedno family lover hardly youd call friendsand honestly pretty unlovable ugly face ugly body ugly personality trifecta considering love one things keeps going guess realized meaningless is cant keep living people care love anymore enough thats im at days either man bite literal bullet wimp keep living hell begrudgingly call life heres hoping,1 story time frightening moment life ok going sound ridiculous came farm goat visiting dads farm getting back car go home dad said bringing goat along sit next me next thing know sitting next goat back seat parents car terrible goat screaming kicking around scared life dad kept insisting safe certainly didnt feel safe all point crying like crazy screaming let front seat eventually mom convinced dad let go away goat still traumatizing slaughter goat now brb write another post traumatized time slaughter,0 someone going noticeive cutting months scars wrists matter time someone notices dont know im going do,1 @raraheileen have amber give you a little massage...shes taking after her mom ,0 @NoToriousTori Love the new pic ,0 i think we should all delete @whosjenny off facebook. yeah ,0 i can t enjoy the weather,0 nasty budget due and my iphone is being sent to apple today,0 money job hopeim cant get thought killing head different methods specific certain since background chemistryresearch fuck wish could it want it it hate even more thoughts get less coherent this muddled anger migraines want hospitalized never money never get another job cant around people got fired last job unable work others yelling one theyre goddamned irritating idiotic ended telling boss fucked everything is fuck him fuck world nothing madness head want stop,1 emoji screams ayo,0 notice senpai w ___________________________________________,0 @stormewg i hope the excessively mopey jams didn't affect your marks ,0 think im an insomniac i just cant sleep birthday in day oh yay,0 say want hug mean wanna hug anyone,0 "@MarioSoulTruth Mannn, Im so amped for "And Then There Was Me". Break-Up is a banga. Turn Her On is a sexy, slow ballad. its gon be hott! ",0 grownup mids even close nancy drews key demographics pleasantly surprised film afternoon so could tell pair sixtyish silverhaired ladies row me older man left theater ahead specifically praised film ish female usher who said shed seen film previous evening quite liked itbr br more point however row ahead me nine count them nine tenyearold girls lined next other passing popcorn hot dogs candy back forth giggling previewsbr br once film began promptly settled watchbr br and much peep till closing credits began rollbr br this perfect film quite pay high school subplots quite confident enough tone thugs hair far toward critically inept times adaptation source material essentially respectful plot hangs together fairly well treads deftly sins excessive cheesiness excessive modernization last least emma roberts carries movie startling grace josh flitters superb timing notwithstanding roberts movie pulls beautifully nancy drew much direct ancestor kristen bells veronica mars film also lineal descendant jodie fosters early underrated candleshoebr br in todays marketplace rarity family movie respects viewers intelligence such everyones taste is best movie kind decades,0 never together pointhuman beings suppose find couple someone feels good someone know forever lonely see point anymore except finding gun rope ending all,1 suicidal ideation told manipulativei feel awful told someone trying date felt suicidal took ploy manipulation even though feel way lot told found someone died redflag note explain took cries help badly know need seek professional help feel like expressions feeling way taken manipulative regardless real feels me guess matter much need address late feel guilty saying emergency thought like terrible manipulative person thought normal live thoughts long time times worse others hurts lot feeling like must seem faking manipulate feel like thats true dont want hurt real attempt prove wrong think guess im fake all,1 well sucks moms fleetwood mack record that have theres scratch middle song secondhand news makes replay spot repeatedly sucks,0 really wanna kill myselflike yeah life tough depression believe bad care people sadly dont care people care much really dont wanna hurt them yes would end suffering dont care that care dont want suffer something did wish things different wish loved wish could happy wish didnt deal this,1 uhh bored ill idk anyone tell sometjing im pool none mu friends dont wanna get water,0 don t let depression slow you down we got this,1 @gfalcone601 Mooorning Gio! Have a good trip! I hope to stop rain ,0 saw last night fort lauderdale general funny liked characters especially sabrina acting good story line ok except ending left way many strings dangling like what wanted know happened characters strange ending could done much betterbr br the film portray rule life really well laughed throughout flaws sure first time film ash christian thought good might want wait dvd one get chance see give shot,0 really want cat live something so like ive wanting pet long literally since really really young apartment doesnt allow dogs grew older mental health issues started getting worse got psychiatrist decision get therapy dog apartment allows therapy dogs last moment decided wanted cat instead match energy less stress apartment building staff really want kitten im suicidal nowadays need something live problem first kittens expensive parents dont type money kk second all dad saying apparently theres room apartment clearly hes complaining fur left around im literally going clean doesnt clean house mom to concerned dont think im going able get cat im really really upset im crying right now anyone advice could give im really desperate ,1 @modejunkie awww sweetness! But he's still a cutie! ,0 wrote little story short man muscular physique smiles lifts rippled arms air lets great victorious bellow woooo yeah baby thats ive waiting for thats about cheers success mighty canine tetra loyally trots side enthusiastically celebrate accomplishment finally getting see unicorn relieve itself end,0 trying to get higher paw points in pet society ,0 cannot believe unknown movie isit absolutely incredible ending alone stuck almost thirty years road sign rearveiw mirror blew away liked race devil love movie,0 we found out a couple of day ago that my dog needed to be put down we had a beautiful last day with her yesterday technically she wa the family dog but she spent the most time with me and turned into an unofficial support dog for me she ha been with me through trauma and therapy and everything in between she ha been my rock scarlett ha been an anchor point a grounding into the world she ha been the only thing that ha stayed steady in a world of ups and down she wa there no matter the mood or how sick i wa she ha kept me engaged with the outside world walk and beginning interaction she greeted the world with a smile no matter what she forced you to give her affection and in turn forced hers on you she ha been the definition of unconditional love in my life mainly because i can t assume or misunderstand what she doe or say she ha been my safe place both physically and mentally i didn t want to leave her behind not understanding i ve been struggling with everything even with her to bring me calm i don t know how to do this without her i ve been using numbness to try and stop myself from shattering but a it splinter into smaller and smaller piece there s only so long it can hold a i hear the splintering standing on the cliff edge the ground start to shake i know that if i move i will explode into tiny fragment and that i can t escape from the edge of the cliff falling the splinter are so small i won t be able to be put back together without missing piece the fall into the abyss will spread the fragment far and wide there isn t a way to climb back out this time there isn t the energy to hope enough to look i don t want to die specifically i just can t keep doing this anymore i m beyond tired i m spent i can t see any other option i ve tried and tried and tried different treatment i ve pushed to do exercise and socialise and do what other people have decided is the best for me i ve taken medication even with shitty side effect taking some rest time with no appointment or pressure wa lovely but didn t change anything inside i ve been fighting a hard a i can and it hasn t been enough i began having passive suicidality when i wa and having intense trauma later certainly didn t help the past year ha been the hardest and lowest i ve ever reached i ve been in and out of hospital tried over 0 different med tried different therapy than i have in the past had ect and tried emdr i have a whole team mental health social worker psych intervention team a doctor specialist and so on the only advice that i wa given when i explained that i wa too tired wa to push through to keep going because there have been improvement and people think it will change and to be patient for thing to start working and maybe i should try doing more thing or le thing or have extra support or change my dosage or simplify my medication or go to hospital or an outpatient program i can t do anymore i can t keep forcing myself onwards because other people will notice a change in the outside without much of a change inside i know it s a selfish decision and that it doesn t get rid of the pain just pass over to the people around me it will affect them forever it won t disappear with time i can t kid myself that they will get over it a much a i think it will be the better option i know none of them will agree i can t look through rose coloured glass saying it take away the burden it just change it from me to the people around me i d love to say my goodbye with everyone and give them time to grieve and prepare with them have a perfect last day making sure that everyone know i love them and that it is no one s fault doing thing with people that are special for u trying to say everything that i want to to people face to face to give big hug and laugh together one last time i wish i could give everyone that i m so sorry that i can t and for the suffering that brings there is too much to say to all the people who are precious in my life to write down i m sorry i love you you did nothing wrong you are so important to me i m sorry that i stopped trying thank you for our relationship you have added so much joy to my life i believe in you and all you can achieve i m sorry that there is no time to come to term with the idea i know there isn t any combination of word or thought that will make it any easier for anyone i know there isn t anything that i can do to assuage the guilt and pain and anger i wish i could but that doesn t really matter doe it i don t even know if i can commit to finishing a plan everyone seems to think so but i don t know and if i can t go through with it then no one need to worry or be concerned because there isn t actually danger and i can just be unhappy without the need for restriction and people feeling responsibility for me,1 advice attemptinghello im currently recovering failed redflag attempt immediate intense support time go back normal life something im really struggling time months ago thought id paid rent gone work commuted done weekly shopping etc last time yet am back life living before feel like know expect get back things like nothing happened went hospital real intense therapy waiting list cbt eyes ive treated better now really hard get told time support networks feeling suicidal even dealing grief caused redflag experience theres much weird recovery phase feel like im living dream world moment sometimes things even seem real help would much appreciated,1 really want see shitposting yo future kids roast us,0 know get helpso know title comes know get help know need therapist psychiatrist know may need meds again know know i know problem getting help strong one relationship family right now time fall apart financial provider go person fiance easily thrown get emotional cant handle well probably needs support group that family much help friends close me honest pushed away friends depression never really fixed broken bridges life short one confide in im also absolutely sure ive hit point depression complete danger myself stress levels sleepless nights really taking hold me im lucky job go late stay little later make it wake takes almost hours get bed im exhausted im frustrated sometimes cry commute home never used really cry think cutting like used to ache cut arms like used used keep rather stupid mental fantasies death ive tried exercising writing drawing reading gaming working overtime bunch things quiet thoughts work less less year goes by often find thinking dying even stop complete fantasy it losing control im struggling friendships right now need fiancee get day guess depression distanced fiancee emotionally front im her inside ive rotted core feel alone day started deleting people gaming lists social networks im again im going road want really want it know get help without spending much know ask it know hide fiancee family nothing ashamed cant know want feel like idiot like first time happened like feeling never got it know damn answer need hear general reddit sw population options do ive never needy yet afraid ask help like nearly everything wanted life depression swoops right starts eat away fucking hate it,1 @ScottAllen C u use Tweetdeck Now if only I could use it w/my Sprint Wireless "unlimited" acct capped @ 5 GB/mo ,0 finally it wont believe it finally made post fact nobody actually cares posts like these stop making them please,0 i taled pill but god decided that i shoudl stay i used to be grateful but i think he wanted me here just to burn my molester in facebook now after loosing my job and being a penniless looser with a lot of debt again i can t stop to remind all my recent mistake and wish i had died maybe if i burn the asshole before and maybe if i swalloed more pill or more alcohol i m so furious at myself right now,1 cannot even that scared pain afraid weak regret ever letting get age always hoped would dead here loneliness carving away parts hoped already gone alone disgusting worthless trans depressed special hell whole world sees circus clown best likely dangerous perverted freakish disgusting abberant abomination agree assertion everyone hates me hate me find strength anything improve circumstances make irrelevant rotting corpse dead alive disgusting worthless dead pay food want fight anymore every day gets harder harder matter hard try want dead,1 flirted concept suicide life even experienced brief bouts suicidal ideation manifested response something someone brashly reactionary radically honest myself believe would scared actually follow act means ending brief stints silly sounds helped lot saw as real real person like full name redacted hobbies talents upcoming trips calendar obligations actually excelled showing for makings future people active life theirs hate myself actually alright person minute thereoh talented hobbies amp supportive circle people value much do them etc sure things absolutely not taken granted course mandatory prerequisites order future worth living see natural end then always does stuff happened life happened blah blah blah still though suppose use phrasing but then since regard thought topic suicide merely something tried understand could not simple fact actually suicidal person thus existed mental block sorts preventing mind fully going grasping concept satisfactionnow fast forward to lately i must crossed line sorts somewhere somehow know because come across subject suicide context amp anyone fear unease surfaces within at least initially emotions come though response lack afraid act suicideit also even innocent introspection pondering husband committed decade ago no instead experience anticipatory excitement similar feeling get underwater know able come air soon yet frenzied eagerness relief guess even cost yanking steering wheel finding vein pump lethal amount opioids into the internal monologue basically goes something like finally stop last loudness end sharp edges existence cease experience epitome true nothingness words paradise go,1 always thought father second life eagerly awaiting development birch street sat viewed first time amazingly movies journey took places expected made rethink assumptions judgmentstruly remarkable personal story told clever straightforward manner especially enjoyed film makers use pulling type mothers daily diary effective read previous comment wish note sound fine watched suspect either film changed somewhat theater could contributed poorer quality sound writer,0 first time all year i came home and did all my homework. i'm kinda proud of myself ,0 just got my presentation done slide done i m cry for this week will be the hardest of all week,0 My mom and tay love banana LABBY TAPPY! Oh and BAJAAAAA! ,0 lose suicidal thoughts askyou cant really way lose them hold tied cage tearing apart invulnerable take care let escape im buying electric guitar soon start love hearing heavy metal it started appreciate things love without heavy metal able hide fear rage anxiety maybe even depression think im struggling winter depression asa spring comes act normal im trying say find hobby it love it live it life loving love lol without cannot normal try something like even bad matter one thing tho drugs alcohol ciggarets nothing people die painful cancer parents edge getting one see it years old happy own friends internet friends anyone feeling miserable feel free write message good day live life way love,1 sometimes when i m sitting down usually while thinking about something negative or feeling stressed anxious which mean my breathing is also a bit shallow or slow i suddenly feel a moderately painful pinch zap sensation in my chest that is also felt exactly in my wrist at the same time like the same nerve wa zapped is this something that could be due to anxiety stress i ve had an xray and echocardiogram that both came back normal do any of you also experience this,1 keep goingim sure keep going know sometime future im going kill myself feel like day im alive im delaying inevitable wish now,1 "@Luiz3 thanks, just thinking aloud, thriving under healthy pressure right now, fight or flight? I choose fight ",0 woje early im tired usualy scholl today woke im tired all wierd,0 hate myselfive come conclusion hate myself cant stop putting down got chewed missing many days cars broken i deliver stacked on cant accept compliments cant accept gifts bad things criticism myself every single day whole life cant make stop everytime date never lasts long maybe month sweep feet first get know find self esteem one girl let out put table told flat out depression problems know fix them went detail way am actually ill now mom especially siblings put time growing up matter tried stupid ugly good enough remember first grade considered putting birthday party invite friends sister quick note waste money friends frankly right knew it think around age accepted abuse would family lie worthless never went away im still think im shit told girl much that never told physical abuse kid embarrassed used get really frustrated myself used metal box kept canned things in id punish slamming head wall it really hard grade school age st nd grade told cut already eventually stopped id punch arms legs middle school age would get frustrated myself girl ended leaving ex ago since dated on think ill always alone nobody wants around somebody cant accept pleasure others self esteem low ever was need therapy cant afford it really know do think im close redflag thinking would did maybe awful option people make be done right so id cost efficient way possible also want somebody finding body like said im so guess needed vent depression episodes go stages ill feel better tomorrow hopefully come emo douche,1 i m sick of hearing these are your best year and it only get worse i m year old i m in highschool and every adult in my life insists that it doesn t get any better than this i m told that a i get older get a job a house debt more responsibility i ll only get more stressed school alone coupled with my anxiety is enough to make getting through a single day a struggle i m fortunate enough to have a very good home life my greatest struggle ha been and continues to be with myself i m afraid that once i move on to life past highschool and i no longer have a strong support system i will collapse in on myself if you struggled with mental health in highschool when you were younger ha life a an adult improved for you doe it get any easier,1 first all let comment audience loved first moment perhaps current events middleeast led people take attitude i came comedy george im going enjoy it whatever reason everybody seemed really comedy it last times woody tried straight comedy small time crooks curse jade scorpion hollywood ending ive felt like oneliners felt strained bit antiquated remember thinking one point that would funny early sixties going movie afraid woody becoming tone deaf however one comic sensibilities perfect tune admittedly plenty fellow aarp card carrying folks screening also plenty somethings somethings well seemed get give occasional belly laugh addition numerous guffaws chuckles like many instances throwaways people laughing loud missed next linebr br thematically woody traipsing familiar ground suspected trailer film lot manhattan murder mystery it again smidgen oedipus wrecks new york stories alice even little tribute broadway danny rose beginningbr br even woody movie scarlett sondra was times woodyproxy character far nebbish that say ferrell gave us melinda melinda kenneth branaugh attempted celebrity instead archetypal ticks quirks sondras nerdishness comes directly family history shares early on numerous occasions family business leads malapropisms get audience characters screen perceive strange nonsequiturs since joke cant help laugh laughs come recognizing woody nebbish truly character great extent unlike farrell branaugh cusack even mia farrow her scarlett required use woody voice evoke woody role thus find ripped narrative woodys voice suddenly emerges someone else facebr br as friend commented way out sid character played woody supporting role centerstage hoping going in however time woody seems written character truly fits current persona unlike ed dobel sage character anything else blind director hollywood ending time character comfortable fit perhaps importantly time character works story within elevated circles find in even fishoutofwater scarlett used great comedic effect throughout sid declining itinerant magician playing small audiences fact another era placed front center enjoymentbr br but jackman ian swearengen mcshane liked extent used piece particularly liked mcshanes short effective turns jackman charming ease old money often portrayed films years ago class echoes purple rose cairobr br so think short answer maybe best straight comedy since s bullets broadway less stylized mighty aphrodite less caustic deconstructing harry less forced small time crooks hollywood ending woody finally found comic voice works st century,0 need stop wanting die itmy parents divorced last week father went big activity whole week relaying getting driving license get there didnt get it mother offered transport paid gas end week pay gave total gas price higher like argued didnt give more pay pension little sister still minor since changed job salary months isnt legally obliged pay months pension mother didnt know needed money its alot father got car began crying throwing big tantrum hard watch mother says cleaned room away which never happen mind found stuff shouldnt have broke alot stuff cant even use computer anymore also alot thing went missing says dont know talking about things like headphones keyboard made angry point matter anymore wont able buy food month didnt get money cant use computer try think killing time cant listen music feel better parents going fight much living mother going hell while tomorrow start college think wont attend classes sabotage reason kill apparently scared dying even wish so soo much,1 "Started writing a new song a few days ago, it's got such a funky groove. Can you say Lynard Skynard? ",0 i have a friend in another country who ha no one to turn to and is battling anorexia otherwise alone for the past month she s in a bad and worsening physical and mental state low key suicidal but ha the option of a stay in a treatment clinic however she s scared and ha all these reservation about going it s in a different city a train ride away for one thing she s an adult and there s no one who is able to arrange it for her i can t do it or i would family being no help no friend around her either this is new territory for me i m learning a much a i can about this illness but i don t know how to proceed here i want to urge her to make the phonecall all the time but i don t want her to feel pressured and shut down i m scared to even ask her if she s done it yet she talk about feeling worthless and undeserving of treament she question whether she s even that thin she is along with a bunch of other symptom she s a textbook case and she talk like she s ready to give up even though help is within reach what do i do,1 please vote friend hey guys friend submitted brilliant monologue drama competition needs many votes possible please thing kind redditors httpslunchboxorgzacontestantsandrewingram,0 homework time goodbye reddit enter hell,0 is wishing everyone a good night. ,0 Have a small penis?Yes?You suffer from Depression.This causes loneliness.Try Adderall,1 I ain't driving u no more miss daisy! ,0 always wonder depressed hate much always feel like need please others feelings matteri grew religious community think relived part dream last night remember conformity fear embarrassing different fear getting scolded parents embarrassing them feelings never matter situation know like worthy love compassion never receive unconditional love always something else not avoid shame punishment wonder low self worth bloody wonder suicidal woken realities past,1 keongzai assign someone else to do it or eff it and do it yourself,0 tw vaccine i got my booster yesterday and this is by far the worst i ve felt first dose i wa 00 fine second dose i had a super sore arm for hour but my booster is pfizer we had moderna for the first my body is just aching but we were warned of myocarditis of course a we re in our late 0 s and ofcourse my brain is fixed on i m going to get it i m so stressed every little pain i m like this is it this is gon na get me,1 suicidal where start know exactly lets discuss present situation lost job staying lonely friends family busy lives cant disturb talk them started nonsense things harm physically since yesterday evening even took medicines instead taking two dont worry alright without side effects feel good whenever increasing think low self esteem understand would future consequencesif continues ,1 3 Books You Can Read to Better Understand Depression https://themighty.com/2018/04/books-to-better-understand-depression/?utm_source=engagement_bar&utm_medium=twitter&utm_campaign=twitter_share …,1 know continuehello first time thinking redflag already tried end life pull off life took turn better entered gymnasiumthe german version high school actaully started normal social life went friends enjoying going school im uni old thoughts buried deep mind beginning resurface even im studying together lots people half year able make single contact one talk fucking mindnumbing assure you due low selfesteem afraid speak people back high school people approached me easy seems like impossible task now fear getting bad im even afraid look emails going outside getting uncomftable appaears anxiety getting worse day sucks worst thing one absolutetely fucking one even parentswhich interested anything else rely on someone talk issues,1 bruh want looked want someone around,0 @JBmyworldxx let's do it?? this week. we'll draw or make something and send it over ;),0 getting betterbut worse ever dont know safe please help cant take anymore please help please please please please please meant cant take im done,1 @theGypsy That would never happen. There are 2 people just waiting to pull the trigger on that Termination button. They don't like me. ,0 If you hate your job everyday and aren't making at least $20 an hour:A) fucking quitB) shut the fuck up about itC) talk to a therapist about depression,1 im done im done absolutely positively fucking donei cant sleep night get rls whenever try wake times night terrors manage fall asleep im tired literally time zero goals life nothing enjoy besides going home playing video games nothing wanna go college for job want grades terrible parents called disappointment everyone nonstop shit talks me might gotten hacked recently friends overshadowed literal dozens people hate think im toxic piece shit ive driven many people away im shitty boyfriend girlfriend always wants go stuff want stay home come or go house one long distance friends committed redflag im shitty friend usually take excruciatingly long amounts time respond anyone texts me im even getting sick playing video games slowly overcome entirely boredom spend day bed nothing do cant hang friends groups outside school feel like unnecessary faggot isnt important group theyd much fun without pathetic ass ex gf molested cheated lied fitness friends think im false rape claimer get shit talked it slowly yet surely disassociating world around im passing everyday life trance feeling nothing overwhelming sadness crippling self harm addiction desire feel something sadness know im still alive also wanting punish severely possible annoying toxic piece shit hear voices hallucinate extremely often point think might need go psychiatrist im scared tell parents ive tried kill hanging failed shitty door mounted pull bar using broke etc etc want die want nothing die want everyone around hate reason im still alive know theyd sad died theres coming back this theres getting better im deep already know going get worse cant talk therapists anyone like dont trust talking issues seems make worse im getting worse worse day im pounds underweight cant even bothered eat food half time anymore literal hobby brings almost enjoyment anymore dont get see girlfriend often id like want over fucking bad havent able stop crying like full ass half hour stopping life im miserable time nothing want life getting worse worse day cant even pussy would destroy family friends beyond repair live it poorly written im sorry im sure chore read,1 gimme handim young man looking outlet believe im depressed enticed idea committing redflag kinda wanna know one thinks thats bad choice im pretty lonely demotivated lost redflag become fantasy pleasant one that interested would prefer pm message boards give jeebies wanna talk one one thanks time,1 t t need more sleep but my body wont let me so i will draw instead lt,0 ive seen enoughim using throwaway case work time ive tried times last months cant even right took pills booze woke puked whiskey shitty cheap brand got drunk started slash wrists passed wound bleeding lot got lightheaded blood loss back yard tried also tried jumping river near asshole good samaritans asshole boat pulled even though struggled many things gone wrong lately job loss miscommunication gas company resulting gas shut yesterday straightened supposed back mondayso good wife son bankruptcy loss house couple years ago move rented shithole thing totally fucked brain shitty story brought wifes friends daughter christmas eve hate christmas anyway story something eaten away every minute every day since anyhow son going college hes got shit together wife beautiful guys way better hitting theyll like sharks circling couple days theyll fine mother still fucked fathers death couple years ago impacted that one knows give shit im feeling whiskey right im going go dig stash oxy,1 @RoQqishNerD24 haha thanks and i owe it all 2 her ,0 vertical diagonalcurrently contemplating failed three times since oct last year dont want fail seem like attention seeking cunt fourth time,1 last words fthank support messages longer handle pain ive lost everybody around me goodbye,1 anyone wanna talk lt week one shitty ones unexplainable urge talk strangers internet yeah feel free dm like please seriously,0 ha to return the shirt she bought from topshop bc she ha 0 in her bank account that ha to last her the rest of the month life suck,0 @challyzatb which is probably a long-winded way of saying worry enough but not too much. Like you're doing ,0 hello twitter i m on a one week leave from school bc i have depression how are you all d,1 ill probably okay read want toseems kinda weird posting place like this but fuck it wish somebody knew me anyone really cant believe small family is dad degenerative bone disease mom pancreatic cancer luckiest least one last couple years longer theres doubt it theyre dying never really knew anyway definitely know never really knew me still think im christian thats it family friends consist coworkers try hang much can know im dealing with cant it just dunno right make others feel bad situation friendly thing do theyre basically best friends cant tell anything whats going me told one once cried it cried too shit happened me suicidal two years ago downed bottle vicodin got warm bath razor me made okay ended crying sleep swore id never try again but fact theres but scares me know ill come back it matter stupid is much know never wanna go back there still goddamn stupid possibility nobody knows that nobody whomever happens read this get drunk almost every night somehow hoping ill escape problems really gets worse still nobody knows im actually pretty happy around others happy enough theyd never truly suspect thing im strong enough make work but yknow tick tock,1 slys best action film superbly enjoyable movie interesting characters solid performances renny harlins direction stylishly assured stallone rarely interesting action films certainly looks part terms action scenes one best action films year one thrilling enjoyable s definite genre classic stallone fan one look back fond memories plenty superb action sly prime action man form action lovers appreciate film hallmarks make good aciton film film looks great great support janine turner michael rooker john lithgow ,0 "Why Us? Because Suicide, Depression and Addiction Aren't Selective... http://thedirectiondiva.com/us-suicide-depression-addiction-arent-selective/?utm_source=ReviveOldPost&utm_medium=social&utm_campaign=ReviveOldPost … #MilitarySpouse #Success",1 theres chance one household members die soon whole family including me covid survival rate us makes survival rate doesnt seem like lot thats chance one us die freaking out,0 search video change viewidk right place ask search motivicional video redflag helped cant find anywhere video man drawing xy graphic board explaining life turn good thing u less expected u committed redflag u wouldnt opportunity live,1 @grapejellykelly Heading to Weho! ,0 haha theres red stuff coming wrists wonder happened,0 feeling suicidal overall fcking terrible deep down small twisted part feels good deserve every second miserytldr planning redflag fantasies bordering schadenfreude relationship intimacy issues selfhate paranoid others jealousy plague mind selfdoubt preface im writing phone autocorrect spelling formating good english good either feel free correct me dont plans it probably lack courage ive thinking daily or least couple times week long time feels like part me strange bodys instinct selfpreservation yet brain finds comfort relish pursuing mental anguish like hummingbird looking nectar suicidal fantasies feel soft sweet comforting like warm blanket wrapping around me safe dont know feels good reassurance fact always option enjoy selfinflucted schadenfreude if could call that moment start thinking realitically hit wall ill start thinking statistics showing redflags fail ill fail im plain jane whose exception surviving redflag actually worse dying in eyes unwanted repercussions would make regret seek redflag even more life objectively bad fact id say average hope im arrogant im saying might potential better now even solar system or even orbit people look admire one always improve dont know far reach theres even limit now one thing keeps better way myself norwegian word redflag selvmord translates selfmurder now degree way think redflag graetly varies almost always want inflict damage part me fantasies redflag may stem desire killing part myself part bad part ive managed coexist majority life feel slowly dominating controls body noticable manner thoughts bit paranoid im throughoutly convinced friends even loved ones genuinely despise me every little action make interpretted scheeming making fun me dont know anyone would take advantage theres nothing good take me despite new fears fact frequent cant shake scaring me days convinced even dear sister detests prescence people honestly want and wouldve wasnt that warning long unecessary rant ahead ltrantgt younger didnt large variety potential friends anchored one girl could actually bear existance honestly relief one friend kindergarten she darkskinned girl there sadly left over rest bullied made feel terrible things couldnt change things defined me dark place socially shone like star distance closer got her clearer things got you thought would say brighter right mightve notsosmart kid still am knew using me told one day got bullied bit herself combined way treated like me immediately forgot offered opportunity girls felt used longlost friend kindergarten returned fifth grade immediatley loved everyone including me friend lets call eva differentiate furious mean bitter me built small empire schoolyard crumbling quickly eva desperate power tried turn everyone friend failed fortunately burnt bridges we dont go school now friend were still close friends currently bffs eva still terrible person stand experience least taught spot bad apples witv someone desperation ltrantgt reason mentioned event yikes rambly bitter fcking primary drama lmao trusting people fear intimacy ties back everyone hating me actually fucking crazy mind stretch bend like bloody playing twister find ways people hate me picture this youre sitting bus minding business see two people whispering eachother catch one briefly looking you sinking feeling hits you theyre taliking you youre useless even family thinks youre whiny dumb selfobssesed ugly look strangers finished talking looking eachother laughing see fucking see dumbass youre nothing prime entertainment them walking trainwreck people poke fun instant dopamine would almost shame killed yourself would people talk about youre good pleasing people best could do another voice head joins conversation said ever think you god youre selfobsessed course people dont always think even youre trash they like you lives live dont care shut up someone actual worth would able catch attention like that someone likewise hideousness youre unremarkable ways didnt even notice you think it mightve laughed that point youre immersed thoughts dont notice strangers leaving destination almost passed thats type thought processes everyday situations triggered simple gestures hate it hate it hate it im insecure person ive ever seen looking mirror makes nauseous sheer hideousness inside out even believe i know albeit denial fear confrontation one cares theyre faking dont want cause harm talking feelings redflag cause harm too matter mental battle mind well might dramatic thing ive ever written makes rather embarassed despite that im trying push beyond ill explode or implode already told friend suicidal thoughts worried made guilty make feel way deserve it internet place vent into feel selfish want people read desperately need second opinion writing made realise things know affecting me worst thing is scratch surface like fact im always sad unmotivated fact opposite point think im cured somewhat good person id rather plague person reading if someones reading this thank you really makes day im feeling sorry too,1 hey girl write quantum physics equations spare time cos good making stuff long hard,0 much molly suicidal againdivorce addiction self hate brewing something end well put dirt belong,1 toilet seats designed women dont wanna say huge dick realised theres space toilet bowl thats kinda annoying especially theres toilet paper take dump,0 anyone else suffer heart palpitation ive had them for day now and feel extremely scary and wish they would go away ive had them before a while ago and now they are back to annoy me i have a doctor appointment on wednesday but im not sure i can wait,1 liked lot fact see againand plan to may love it ill echo reviewers saying movie really grow watch starts kind slowly way enfolds natural mood it get itbr br i really liked summery atmosphere movie thought movie touching whole characters strong element realism movie slowly gently weaves spell get involved various interactions want know ultimately turn paths characters choose take br br i surprised less dozen comments thisthere obscure tv movies comments rich lovebr br one thing say missed ending driving crazy watch see that movie may everybody feel strongly underratedeven film buff purist friends seen almost every movie seen this even seem much message board liked lot like family dramas warm scenery atmosphere unhurried languid pace probably take look this especially note worthy takes place south carolina like me love south movies take place there gem ill add vote woefully comments recommend little known flick,0 i ve been keeping myself from here yet at the same time i keep coming back to read about other s experience maybe a a way to prove to myself that i don t have it a bad still though i feel so depressed and withdrawn from everything this suck everything suck i wish it wasn t like this plus i still can t put my finger on what exactly made me start thinking in such a nihilistic way i m constantly thinking if i went back in time or maybe if i did this just thinking of what could ve been knowing it s just going to drown me in hole of self absorbence i don t know if this ha bad grammar so if it doe then sorry,1 looked ocean blue eyes glistering nightsky sitting there looking nightsky always fascinated secrets fo space like fascinated gorgeus smile im glad see happy brings slight joy me however wondered id ever enough,0 feel goodi kind figured future id end killing myself oddest foreign feeling instead really feeling sad depressed exclusively feel also sense philosophical rationality comes wanting kill yourself all suffer entire life instead suffering lot little never suffering again entire life revolved around failure many times life ever genuinely good coping mechanism emanating sense fake happiness joy morbid jokes im sure someone shoes probably see bright future ahead either im depressed suffering mental illness final year high school likely getting colleges universities want again entire experience school fucking horrible matter hard try always fucking fail school worst fucking thing ever happened me want go near another institution again literally even know want life even want anything it life fucking garbage want anymore this hope sound like anything menial fear life fear want end midlate s jobless or fucking horrible broke worthless actually helpless literally one even parents around help figured killed sooner bad compounded depression turning even deeper utter sense failure guilt regret comes living ive relatively high achiever life feeling low really fucking hurts makes question value existence literally cannot connect anyone cannot talk anyone want talk anyone pseudo bullshit hotlines web services fucking horrible making lose faith humanity makes hate existence even more ive depressed several years gone it acid summer kind changed life better reality life hitting me shitty forseeable future showing again ever since born life actually shit abused young kid til now immense levels neglect throughout entire areas life want contribute something great things past weeks realized thinking could ever thing delusion everyone around telling im delusional thinking make anywhere realized right im sure believe either shoes really potential im stupid fucking dreamer wanna help impact guess deserve much im always known things really extreme insane fashion want go bang make chances living really low want quick never temporary looming long time since young ive tried several support groups counsellors lot stuff im done here unfortunately im really good lying nooses proper rope long drop system place potassium cyanide pills gauge shotgun im looking help guidance cant really neglect longer really thought would fade away im also curious would humans ever feel like killing themselves dogs animals that mean humans much better quality life compared dogs humans resources get yet still decide cost alive exceeds benefit value extracted enhanced quality life,1 redflag one things think pointi really wish years ago came close got hospitalized gotten worse since tell family want go college covid me even point everything went perfect think could happy idea going college getting degree make happy accomplished anything makes dread every aspect process going class every fucking day exhausted hell wishing could die already whats point feel like whole life amount another redflag statistic im okay that long itll soon,1 "@Andrewgoldstein i already did, it was on repeat for about two hours ",0 dm bored ass im bored damn mind willing talk anything hit up,0 well ive hit rock bottom high schoolerthats it nothing matters anymore,1 need someone talk with anyone disorder wants open willing talk would helpful psychosis ocd schizoid depression,1 just got back from coffee with sian. good times ,0 hopelessi came reddit hoping find others felt like could share stories vent other whats point all ill leave app since attempts friendship failed getting ghosted know hard hate it wish could give completely wish afraid die,1 another rant no im anything attention would ask that thank calling ignorant cunt said dont care mental health really helped mental health im really sorry annoying im being tell im annoying you already got responses complaining things much im really sorry different people hope none read this last person im sarcastic rude,0 today experienced strange new feeling definitely related relationships currently preparing law entrance exams enter premier law institute country great interest international relations countries conflicts genocides power struggles revolutions along civil wars studying almost hrs day yet anxious nervous worried time always seems like enough considering future would literally depend upon exam conducted may see one set questions cannot freak out start breaking down year plan years ba llb hons years job law firm solid background years llm international arbitration law becoming international arbitration lawyer thing knew much scope field today came know person literally goal aim basically dream like role model new feeling experienced something like this sort immense joy gladness almost immediately followed glim fear failure horror fail even single step feeling continuing cycles think going mad thats it thank reaching far,0 felt alone long timemy fiance want talk tonight uncommon hes distant days one friends died wanted alone thats fne ampxb anyone talk to made worse fact almost am school night ampxb feel soul crushingly alone trapped mind ptsd flashbacks held back csa ampxb want get out would third redflag attempt month alone im starting therapy startup slow,1 my boyfriend then dad and mom passed away all within a year of each other i have tried to move on but the grief is immense also i just lost my job and am about to run out of money i just can t take it anymore and i want to be with my family who i loved very much i have a plan and am thinking about going to the desert where no one would find me this is sad and i can t even afford a therapist anymore because insurance is too expensive i m not ok,1 ive always thought inevitable way seems creeping closeri quit job january schedule environment made depressed thought thats life is cant worth doing time economy trouble job market begin made feel like crappy job probably best life ever going me im special life surely owes nothing think deserve exist way would make happy ive worked hard try work out meaningful degree meaningful university cant even get emails back bank teller positions rejection specifically hard issue father man refer father rejected whole adolescence found im likely product rape explained lot things still hearing dad say thought someone elses kid something ive never able get over ive ever tried get approval quit things loved young things like ive ever done sometimes wonder underneath all seems series failed attempts win fathers love think moment every day decade sometimes like im still right living room ampxb get rejection emails phone calls difficult dealing rejection world getting harder harder feel like ive already given much can googled cheapest way commit redflag today hard even get sad now life feels done,1 real talk even weird like bdsm stuff like nowadays ive never met anyone somewhat,0 spanx except i missed last week s lee and now it s gone from iplayer,0 beyond helpeveryday severe depressive episode im medications right now ive tried many im honestly afraid tell psychiatrist ones arent helping either im beyond point wanting try harder get better ive lot trauma result ptsd anxiety well hospitalization sounds like nice option im terrified going know nothing it im pretty much afraid anything whats point im going come sort plan end life soon dont care people miss me theyll move on,1 july ston date im gonna go lake pockets full rocks drowned myself feel change numbness anger go away ill make go away ive tried much happy nothing seems work never meant happy death different also least body cleaned decay water doubt anyone would find me last thing ill post ever write bye hope find happiness failed,1 would date me boy almost kg weight would date me,0 people know this literally insane here called national guard police practically everywhere full riot gear already set pm curfew isnt even national news yet httpspreviewredditwlcnnwpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampscefeaccfddefbdcfcfafe,0 "@tracyyzamo maybe she's born with it, maybe its clinical depression",1 knew this asks want stop im violently sobbing yes course want stop holds couple minutes starts talking again even though wed broken sexual arrangement months ago,1 i wish people didnt give up on me so quickly because of how shy i am i wish they didnt view me a cold or mean because i never knew what to say so i just kept to myself i wish people didnt call me weird because i find it difficult to make eye contact i wish i didnt have to mask myself and pretend to be someone im not for the sake of fitting in i wish when my brother returned home from the military after year i had remembered how to properly communicate with him we seem like stranger now i wish i had been able to make friend even friend i wish i were able to get a girlfriend whats the meaning of life if you can t spend your time with someone you love i wish i didnt have autism i feel so isolated i feel so alone worst of all i know there is absolutely nothing i can do about it there are no pill for autism only mediocre therapy session to remind you of how different you are from those around you i cant do this anymore living like this is hell,1 cannot cope deserve iv shitty son her wish could change past things iv put through mum got cancer,1 sure go thisi remember thoughts always felt like struggle like them mean either hating telling shut fuck hating myself rolled pillow tried make stop sure sleeping know going on confused shit night carried morning hear back friends tried getting back ex fearing id made biggest mistake thought could handle leaving him made decision think thought people really needed them didnt needed ex back started questioning everything again felt like mistakes around felt really stupid still dont know believe need ex need friend james could talk james would begging ex break ex thought could james ever even make clear headed decision thought thinking rationally decided break him maybe wasnt mistakes around mistakes around know believe anymore people cant trust cant trust people makes pretty hard get day sometimes think im losing mind help ill find time times think ive already lost it want someone fix want die guess simple mind helping myself ive done lot help myself look like really got anywhere need someone take let turn around ive done many right things im going therapy working stuff own therapy helped anxiety think helping redflag stuff helping knowing believe feel like anxiety one smaller manifestations whats really going on no really know whats going feels bad im afraid ever okay could find someone cares enough make sure im okay maybe id feel better safer least right idea whats going happen feel like im going make it feel like matters probably reality doesnt guess could matter better person stands right now really matter know guess think itd easier died would be everyone talk to guess think think im going get better im always going need someone talk to find people get tired me feel bad it time desperately need them stop talking me find new people think handle helping eventually wear out sometimes im caught feeling bad one care every one times worse whats going happen eventually know bother anything all guess im slightly hopeful come together one day ill better ill good ill find need both one two things happen going really hard every time things feel bad gets harder harder believe either one things happen,1 i think the pandemic hit me hard i moved out of my childhood home of 0 year week before the pandemic hit i had worked job and saved for year for a deposit on a place of my own which in the very expensive city i live in wa 0kms away from my family it felt like such an amazing achievement at the time but ever since then mentally i ve never been the same i am so lonely yet i enjoy living alone i am a highly anxious person i always wa but now i just worry all the time i move about life with a permanent storm cloud over my head i struggle to regulate my emotion i am getting more and more overweight and can not seem to stop eating bad food i quit my job in 0 and got a new one but i have never quite been happy or settled there i have tried mindfulness regular exercise breathing technique everything you can think of i went to the doctor for help with regulating my low mood and she put me on the pill which ha made thing even worse i am feeling thing lower than ever before i had a really bad day at work today and for the first time ever i thought not in any way seriously or actionable but the thought popped into my mind how suicide would be an option to not have to deal with thing everyone around me seems to be so busy with husband wife kid activity etc i seem to be getting left behind how do i cope with this how do i get back to being happy and determined and not so down and low,1 @taylor_blue myspace is dead!! why bother... ,0 yall ever want draw something really cool realize artistic skills,0 struggling lifeim yr suffering severe social anxiety top set subjects year or grade whatever fuck call america school almost year tempted start sh used protractor scratch letter acronym arm last night terrified im going start dropping soon unable face near people therapist really helping im scared admit parents spent alot money sessions idea fuck im supposed now considering sui feel mornings not exactly sure still stuff live like getting level hypixel please help ill ever check back,1 mizzzidc if a pair of shoe will put you in a depression issue are deeper please understand you are so blessed to have ur mum don t ever lose an opportunity to appreciate her whatever your issue try to speak to her with respect and kindness she deserves that from you please,1 really fucked dont usually fuck bad im fucking worried best friend calling made group chat told add people added two best friends school could check actually added best friend lou already added whole school started sending weird shit saw videos grossed out one man getting head chopped bunch porn videos went look group realise instead adding two people accidentally added people remove everyone got distracted gross videos left forgot remove friends luckily lou apologised friends accidentally added along people mean add two replied apology one weirded annoyed one cool it thought kinda weird yet funny rest left read havent read messages yet im fucking worried friends hate think im weird accidentally added group chat suddenly got super weird gross really fast took long many good friends im afraid ill lose closest friends stupid mistakes im super anxious always worry secretly hate im sure do really sorry sounds like mess needed say maybe get help say next something,0 want hug someone close eyes peace rest foreveri tired now tired everything like nothing gives joy anymore dont know else say thats it guess wanted say something somewhere guess,1 @LaTeaDolly So he sews better than you? At least the best thing about it is you both learn together. ,0 "Chopped up peppers (poblano) and cheese (oaxaca) for 2morrow; still goin with it, JP! ",0 wanna kill badi feel worthless everyone abandoned me everyone try meet doesnt care hate me everyone hates me fuckin keep going try get better drives farther cliff,1 im happy want diei got sober ago im happy im healthy love people life love life love everything future might become disgusted disappointed exhausted at whatwhom why sure hell know pit lower part chest hard concrete feels like crushing unity desolation loneliness hopelessness physically feel it despair involves matter well doing well think doing self harming often usually life getting better get happier spent whole week people love love me spent whole week things love good me spent whole week thinking moment would right moment cut neck spent every moment outside house wishing back bathroom razor hand ran fingernail across site im going cut good friends wanted either get locked psych ward tear fucking neck open wanted cry want die want live everything feels tasteless tiring even though everything beautiful exactly be feel powerless urge know going kill me kill im control myself always control myself tiring fighting myself hate happening actually love im might go wrote redflag notes want die feel like cant fight anymore,1 .HOUSEEEE. ,0 people get upset talk bottom dysphoriasurgery hi im eighteen year old afab agender person bad bottom dysphoria im trying get surgery completely remove vagina feminine bits leaving smooth crotch hole pee of ive known wanted parts gone body since young i tried glue shut thirteen live new york which queer positive city feel comfortable talking queer subjects bottom surgery dysphoria always something ive causios talking outside house im afraid people say mentioned wanting void genitals recently close freind who trans himself became super weirded worried me thought would supportive said really hurtful stuff it fault dont hate him feel cold alone know people weirded dysphoria enby people nullification surgery thing even cissys get it still havnt even mentioned bottom issues girl like think ill ever able get girlfriend mind like is,0 latest movie watched filler gtefrrrrrrrrrrrrr curios,0 hey basicly feel like fucked everything everyone went university cov work weekends take care little brother cuz mom work could go kindergarden suffer sad depressions completle lost study way practice companies etc bought car lots malfunctions poped up mom wants house cuz adult y according go live gf find self flat gf lives parents grandpa flats suuuuper expensive live even video games super unlucky luck gf super amazing problem we feel like luck cuz almost died newborns somehow still here sometimes wish died live shit af worldpower sex money hungry world hate life soooo much feel good get fucked world everything unlucky ,1 whoa whoa whoa listening to Miyavi's new song SuperHero for about the 9th time today! -swoons- that's one amazing Japanese boy ,0 last time got flu shot like today yis absolutely terrified get flu shot cause remember hurting really bad last time lol filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler blah blah blah,0 several years ago navy kept studied distance away making men honor film based experiences services first black master chief divers struggle overcome virulent racism ever eager support films showing navys best side uss nimitz two helicopter assault carriers supporting shore installations provided complement engrossing tale young sailors battle uncontrollable rage movie shot aboard uss belleau woodbr br antwone fisher wrote script denzel washingtons directors debut stars navy psychiatrist treating fisher played effectively deeply derek lukebr br fisher obviously bright enlisted man assigned uss belleau wood lha front line helicopter assault platform fisher cant seem avoid launching assaults minimal provocation fellow enlisted men sent md part possible preseparation proceeding fisher slowly opens black psychiatrist revealing awful childhood great neglect shuddering brutalitybr br the story develops fisher cautiously increasingly trusts doctor gets courage pursue love interest enlisted sailor named cheryl played stunningly beautiful joy bryantbr br fisher reluctantly engages doctor asking long simmering questions soon realizes must seek answers however painful order grow move away conflictseeking destructive behaviorbr br while main characters black story transcends race unflinchingly showing evil exuberant religiosity concomitant hypocrisy foster family settings viola davis versatile actress seen number recent films picture sullen immorality nothing compared foster mom mrs tate novella nelson short searing scenes would earn existed oscar gutchurning brutalitybr br films patienttherapist interaction follow certain predictability all transference countertransference stuff earnestness fisher doctormentor realistically gripping good story well told periodbr br while set navy antwone fisher real sense service story men honor excellent movie dealt crushing racism directed real person truly film blacks surviving terrible childhood experiences and fisher says able proclaim adulthood victim still standing tall persecutors shrink size significance brave strong young man claims right decent life aid caring doctorbr br my quibble washington lieutenant commander addressed commander navy support people listed end credits someone told director washington character like naval officers rank commander addressed mister big criticism it br br i know film playing theaters deserves wide distribution derek luke may well get oscar nominationbr br br br ,0 "Just one puff of #cannabis 'could ease #depression, #stress and #anxiety' https://www.thesun.co.uk/news/6137739/cannabis-ease-depression-stress-anxiety/ …",1 @djreplay You're at the Kogi truck??? Omg! We were totally gonna go today! Been wanting to try it for ages! How is it?? ,0 mrsa ruined life im considering ending itever since caught illness friend august every single day dominated it either actual symptoms worrying theyre going come next both earlier today told cant get help works private healthcare started accepted onto scheme thats final kick teeth long fucking line them ever since caught illness ive hopes raised new antibiotic referred different doctor every single time shattered im fucking done fighting im done hopes dashed over cant take another heartbreak keep fighting obvious im meant lose battle nothing beaten it im looking best ways ending life are ive asked friend mine works nursing home help hes refused method im capable looks promisingi may pick least worst option ive tried breaking news boyfriend hes devastated want end life says matter give me feel incredibly guilty might him hell better without me keeps living hell probably catch much misery im now hell better without even realise yet work tomorrow weekim sure might go in know know ill end this im sure anything right now im honest thought dying scares life basically nowi future worth looking forward anymore illness robbed it im rambing apologise know do want keep living future thought dying scares too thought picking least worst way thatdoes anyone know anything might help,1 im straight vibing seasons change love went cold feed flame cause cant let go run away were running circles,0 Goooooood morning ,0 "@MELindsey lol, he has no shame ",0 caresi always feel like shit think assholes ive met life family friends love them general luck everyones praise smallest thing feel like ive tried hard make life end day realize one gives shit even give shit try hard right thing nice try successful help others matter end day im loser one would miss good trying alone feel fucking worthless older get realize going change true worthless mistake mean vent reddit one else gives shit give up,1 im going get trouble dad bought shitty camera system context stepdad setup cameras corners house usually uses check took dog out yesterday guarantee took dog every time supposed since bought crappy cameras even worse motion tracking believe took probably going get grounded hell do,0 im days self harm hello everyone lots wondering hell past weeks got phone taken away let spend time family ive addiction self harm want self harming thing past honest ill get back reddit wanted clear gone weeks want end addiction,0 years years,1 fucked bigtime actually started months ago started dating current girlfriend around then problem meth could stay away long time end least month even though really fucking hate stuff first asked told recovering addict asked problem it said stay away her felt like maybe girl would able help finally quit good course months dating though ended getting high noticed every time last night told somebody sold day got high could tell coming downi kind feel like killing now feel like ruined life know meth ruined mine best friend year old girl too best friend ends getting curious ends know gonna fault told tell best friend young impressionable fucking meth dealers sell almost anybody think happen im gonna shoot myself know damn sure im never gonna touch shit now ive already ruined friend mines life introducing back first started years ago really cares about think could live guilt fucked up,1 @fake_vyvyan I second that. ,0 sleep,0 "@MillenFinServ How many memes about unemployment, the high cost of living, and depression are you encouraging people to post.",1 i m all set for post anime depression attackontitan http t co vj jjwfrow,1 quarantined coming awhile gives another level social anxiety like bro ok seen one old classmates brain flipped freak telling go outside while cold shi came back awkward like bro awkward asf,0 thing super straight youre lonely ugly smelly guy dont date trans person doesnt matter dont make identity invalidates,0 "If we could take @kanyewest 's opinion of himself, dry it out, and grind it down into little tablets, we could single handily cure depression in this country; if not the world..",1 guess i should go to bed have to be up in hour haven t been able to sleep lately too stressed about website not being done yet,0 end linehey there im starting go crazy ive miserable downwards spiral years think finally reached end ive become unmotivated mny like cant bring things used like go gym sleep even simple hygienic things seems like cant hold true friendship friends annoy never find something actually do nothing interests anymore simple things like skating gaming even reading gone disire focus simple gone life summer months go back school stay til am wake am work day sit computer mindless things get frustrated everything boring bland ive begin wander dangerous existentialist mindset nothing really matters dont even know here point desperate obtain significant other know probably wont make happy want someone care care back people always say im virgin loser never find anyone makes even insecure sex always mind frustrating knowing everyone going im not viginity thing bothers know does well honestly really really dont see point living yeah might sad see go care choice last pathetic attempt getting help something potentially stupid dont know dont see point anymore im ugly loser beta male lives parents basement goes community college gets terrible grades im unmotivated pathetic existence anything people like even born world dont contribute anything fail everything do hate hometown really need leave dont resources travel maybe find myself anyways maybe someone read maybe wont sorry thoughts writing style grammar spelling format head racing kill yourself kill yourself im little drunk even care j,1 tiredi stupid amount money owed various places owed council due fact flatmate initially failed declare tax exemption court hearing said owed money th sept divorcing parents tearing whole family setup farewell abusive husband father mother me flatmate leaving go live someone else expected happen growing tired living could tell hard find work chosen career depression impedes efforts work times have tired feeling dull constant ache throbbing feels being nearly breaking middle supermarkets unable tell people around feel would gladly cease existence oh yes mind long wish around deal aftermath mother stepfather friends such aftermath would horrible note would fix anything brothers sisters fill place know feeling death another leaves open wound empty bare could die affect noone would lovely im throwing hands air shouting one last fuck you jumping front oncoming train want go quietly night nothing more,1 know anymore im completely losti finished high school monday nothing planned careers go depression anxiety wasis bad dropped two four courses really really bad two kept ive throw world plan go im getting worse every day really think redflag im ready adult know do im much coward take life know happen time soon want work live gain enjoyment things two eating disorders top everything else one one knows bad am help whoever needs never want help return one day ill gain confidence one day ill finally peace,1 hey shitass wanna see speedbridge fiiiller fiiiillerrrrr fiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiilllllllllllllllleerrrrrrrr,0 @rosie_g_yo http://twitpic.com/6acm2 - OooOo yay new makeups I love that cute lil bag.,0 idk else ask question us guys take better spicy pics know weird u better sub put pls lmk anyway feel like guys get lot slander taking horrible dick pics wondering girls gays tips us guys take better noods spicy pics general,0 depression wont find me anymore http t co mj w9psbln,1 survived odonly option cut wrist throat,1 want die sleepsome nights go sleep hoping wake up would much easier wife family scar redflag easy too tonight one nights think would ever kill myself would gladly accept quick painless death sleep face big challenge tomorrow want anymore stressful year life things settling down something major wrong house im sure it contractor confirm morning material object yes last straw cant handle financial problems im tired problems tired struggling mental health issues wife dog loves me wider family love too jobs corona life really fucked addiction seems like problems people deal push edge easily one thing weigh us financially years hate alive more feelspointless ive lot live view third party plain old me want way devastate beyond normal death thanks reading,1 ollien and carousella i can t i have another doctor appointment at 9 and another one at suck,0 greystoke legend tarzan lord apes based classic book tarzan apes edgar rice burroughs faithful adaptation classic book film great scenery like jungles south africa greystoke mansion acting also great chirstopher lambert great performance tarzan also first english speaking role film funny moments sad moments touching moments makes real classicbr br the film sees boat crashing jungles south africa time later son named john apes go hut one kills father apes take live adopt one own years go john grows learns like apes teens foster mom gets attacked native hunters soon killed them years later group people going africa expedition setting camp theyre soon attacked natives escape capitaine phillippe darnot left behind injured arrows hiding meets john adult takes home takes care wounds phillippe starts teach john speak english teach hes one apes person phillippe goes leave john goes him sometime arrive greystoke manor sixth earl greystoke shown long lost grandson john shown bedroom picture true mom dad john also meets jane porter slowly get know begins feelings her christmas sixth earl greystoke slides stairs killing himself john starts miss jungle wants return phillipe tells stay since everything done would nothing john torn life greystoke lord apesbr br greystoke legend tarzan lord apes great classic seen ,0 year lastit interests see year die new years eve perhaps,1 turn soon thing remember pain angerhigh school hell me ugly hs basically means try avoid bullied redflag im college now nights cant sleep remember lonely hs pain experienced fucking building intense still feel burn years later recall sophomore junior year nobody sit lunch entire years sat alone counselors office sometimes would sit cry nobody ever offered hand nobody ever helped me supposed magical time many teenagers me dont ever want fucking remember bullshit ever again bullied ugly virgin shamed me girls rejected worst ways imaginable hate much could fucking punch wall right now deserve right quick painless death life isnt fair ugly even doable,1 sucksi suspicious would already excluded social media saw group talking inside jokes life updates everyone knew recent post someone confirmed new group chati worst depressive period ever well ready socialize talk mundane things joke around them told while initially understanding time went noticed group chat became inactivethese people made fun behind back privately chided one my closest friend carelessly ignorant covid context vaccination rollout country slow transmission highhe living senior past tested positive sister tested positive covid twice she works hospital concerned friend would tell go unless essentialand since super close bond really think overbearing friends almost yrs otheronce call let slip one numerous dinners he jokester was made fun friends acting like mom hurt private matter painted killjoy paranoid person gutted meit one reasons started feel distant group started cold told would struggling mental health settled iti sorry ranting feel absolutely alone closest circle friends top tier shunned longer fun around withit feels like high school would feel anxious depressed would choose hang classmates louder extroverted play wheneverdepression sucks friends like sucks harder friends made new group chat excluded ever since told in original gc might able interact much depressive period,1 getting hit realityok kinda stupid life made like every bad choice imaginable stuck reality reputation damaged forever done bunch dumb shit like randomly stalk people even assaulted someone nowhere guess bad idea address shit comes up living little fantasy land getting hit reality literally might go prison entire career like ruined idea cant repair reputation stalemate guess,1 i woke up an hour ago now i m having a hard time going back to bed in lakewood ca http loopt u rywlhq,0 feel pretty today feel happy pretty could conquer anything set mind it love right always ,0 imma sleep good night everybody good noon morning everybody else,0 want die badlyi yo male hate much want die want parents find dead body,1 young woman comes home town husband passed away accident barely settles small town shortly after loses little son kidnapping hopes could lead kinds following plots normal movie find new partner happy finally depressed enough struggle finally kill herself try kill herself series severe fights god trusts god find god seems forgive everyone even killer well careful god movie mean thing god way movie deals issue quite interesting womans point view gods perspective in way would lots grass growing clouds flying views suppose rather third partys eye movie let us perceive explain thingbr br the movie interesting woman theres man whos everywhere around woman obviously love her way hes funny guy like clown say shamelessly hangs around heroine combination two woman full tension crying throwing always man smiling talking stupidly ends good balance emotions nothing absurdly wrong tediousbr br highly recommend,0 needing help badly whats voluntary commitment likeim pretty bad off tell like id committed myself especially insight trans well,1 certain die water overdosei want die now want injured attempt searched find answer,1 hopeok but i will be soon dy,0 i can t believe it i got my answer and didn t have to ask the question this feel awful,0 emptinessnumbnessim years old currently serving active duty united states army a even tho im pretty successful life still want die im suicidal please dont say that im going cause im coward want already im sick feeling empty helpless im sick feeling worthless alone even though im surrounded best friends time want pain stop,1 done research come revolutionary breakthrough make anime body pillows sides waifu would allow people use time allowing people spend much money body pillows buy im sure exist make maximise body pillow usage rest case tldr make anime body pillows double sided maximum efficiency,0 teacher whos coded years know inspect is thought guys might enjoy story quite funny goes nothing one day science class working presentations make planets think was well go computer lab make presentations stuff hop computers start researching getting work finished project bit early thought hey use inspect chrome page pretty funny people know though do went site relating project ispect make say mr great teacher decided give students as show friend next thinks funny go teacher heres happened next hey mr look found website walk computer show text gets super angry though shout hes really great teacher like time saw get mad what messing websites stuff school illegal everyone gonna think theyre gonna get matter what wait mr hacking inspect affects see hacking even save reload page reload page show reset no could get suspended could get suspended that ive coding years even know inspect hacking im going talk tech teacher talk might able use tech school walks friend burst laughter tech teacher calls talk me hey man know again ok yep happen again went apologize science teacher everything good plus get as class thats good thanks listening teacher super nice probably bad day something tldr change page say teacher give us free as using inspect teacher loses threatens suspend though tech teacher saved me,0 dont want live anymorewell im year old friends kinda bullied school dont social group im skinny popular smart dude even tho dont express get grade need go on dont study home dont give fuck anymore school too home google random stuff biology physics technical one learn programming time year last one ultrahappy it realized teachers dont like im good programming know it give lower grade didnt exactly said more makes sense theyre humans think prefer school home dad old retard hate general going deeper later theres mom non educated woman doesnt shit life even work cleans shitty apartment plays random facebook games really high volume tv make deaf reason hate her goes im anything says waste time time used play dota day getting good it realized really waste time would able go pro team wasnt bunch retards think looking cool winning team game mostly play instruments keyboard electric guitar nylon guitar steel guitar two harmonicas thats keep going even tho cant live music shitty nation known brazil look brazilian funk popular shit like anitta theres really high quality modern brazilian music sad anyway playing instruments liking synthwave classical metal jazz another reason bullied here right ignoring fact people clap hands way random percussion instrument modern popular funks use using two notes actually one fuck cares music theory percussion instruments right anyway lets talk dad doesnt understand shit music thinks does puts random trash like paramore monsters men worse trash like modern popular chords pop music also sound car trash comes one side doesnt realize it get school school ears hurt idk tahts reason behind it im going deaf somehow music still allows happy use phone shitty headphones hear music like am theres noizes cant day mom alive yeah told that respectful hateful manners ignore lately things worse started playing keyboard months ago and octave keyboard weighted keys yamaha psr e trash opinion told dad hey dad buy digital piano bought fucking keyboard clearly right even explained ignored anyway lately ive getting really complex stuff rondo alla turca sonata c major k fugue minor getting beethoven now saddest part cant play stuff like chopin even fugue minor keyboard organ piece change octaves keyboard function playing makes way harder also instruments also trash cares son playing stuff people playing years piano months playing shitty keyboard also self teaching instruments anyway going back mom doesnt allow fucking close rooms door keeps making random noises tv anything looks like purpose tell thinks fault retarded something music way out every time go play get depressed shit also dad couldnt buy fucking alfred books well tempered clavier bach play need use random scores ears going shit play also tried composing im trash fuck cares also tried make game last year retro rpg also trash thing is want die painless easy way dont realy go home bunch ignorant people walking around streets want die even theres really way redflag think so would like either help redflag help redflag also feel like saying computer randomly crashes blue screen every day random moment also important factor also dont enjoy simple stuff like jerking eating even tho use region brain hearing music uses need help think thats also english trash didnt formal english education jsut learned watching videos reading random shit etc sorry sucks,1 anyone else got crazy annoying feelibg calf got thats shit killing,0 cant seem find answers cant even connect peoplei looking answers years even know start looking end losing time always lose lose lose im sick it drift away people keep making mistakes almost everyone ends leaving almost one left cant even make new friends reconnect old ones keep wasting away selfisolation selfhate loneliness regret broken cursed horrid almost one tries connect me im lonely people might think im special needs person kind future ill have probably one filled mostly indifference emptiness,1 enough energy explain im tired thats it thats post,0 first person guess number gets random bear award idk ehehehehdhhsshhdhd shdhshdhshhdhshshshshsgsgshhshdhdhdhdbdbbdbsbsbsbsbshssghshshshshshshsbshshhshshshhsshhs,0 think worth try reach tiny amount happinessi cant anything im tired trying make failing im going school job cant things anxietys bad want supported mom entire life im fucking useless seeing everyone else good fun makes feel like shit wanna draw try to cant shit cant things want cant write program video edit make music see people around make feel horrible top success people cant happiness never will assuming get anxiety find sucess something im good at never enjoy things way people do everyone sex drugs drink im interested things wanna interested cause people ive looked seems like theyve much them want am want bad im scared idealistic think reach amount happiness others even eventually get better potential shit even reaching happy think want relationships want friends girlfriend able talk people long keep getting worse seeing interact fun makes feel cause cant that feel worse cause im getting upset peoples happiness think im bad person thinking like this see point trying make life get happiness amount happiness reach little especially go pain long little amount happiness garunteed,1 friend got google meets early became host proceeded let anyone in class ampxb httpspreviewredditrmcejvbzpatpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsbddbcefdaacaecd,0 would nice guy move serious question girl dating really like other last week friends got drunk hours girl agreed meet met drunk behaved like shit got really really mad disappointed me next morning apologized nice little text forgave me meet next friday thought getting flowers bc that think would good move way late nice guy move something like that,0 @paleenigma CONGRATS TO YOU! Tho God only knows why you'd want to leave British soil for the USA! Be careful! NIN SOON!!!,0 cant wait anymoreim thinking blasting brains dont succeed ill live even miserable life,1 official school year started im junior year im getting old i want get old no no no,0 "Well.... like 30 seconds of vibes, not thinking much to that twt.fm lark ",0 finnish teens there im looking make friends finland im christian years ago started feeling like god leading there im us mom suggested try make finnish friends id love learn like actually live finland ofc talk stuff too love music writing also im really us state trivia pm leave comment also recently turned anyones interested id prefer like ,0 old person according redditthanks see ya,1 I'm search people ,0 uh im new help bitch hey im transfer tiktok ive decided longer uncultured like help are girls allowed rteenagers whats political consensus johnny depp amber whatever dumb shits side do worry ableist classist shit basically ill watch learn but yeah,0 "@justlikeanovel You like life like a novel, all tangled up Just write, I'd like to read more of your work and thoughts",0 getting ready for a day full of sunshine and fun! ,0 for context my so and i are living with our in law temporarily a famously difficult living arrangement and the main issue ha been their constant and relentless remark they love passive aggressively hinting at thing they dislike and throwing little dig here and there to get a rise out of u i m well aware that they are very much projecting their own insecurity unhappiness onto u and i m somewhat able to find solace in that yet it still get tiring after awhile i m extremely sensitive and hyper aware of myself and others and even little throw away comment can feel like a punch in the gut sometimes we plan to move out soon but for the time being how can i distance myself emotionally and take thing at face value,1 @ShaneSwagz hehe...try kayak.com thats usually where i go first when i'm looking for tickets. ,0 london life living torturing without realising it way think messed stemmed early child regretful fixing since last year realised something severely wrong me sense child friends self isolated whole life without knowing affecting kid never went high school remember primary high school came home straight school even go weekends totally warped perspective school took seriously realise anything wrong year haunting me more grew quickly young went far left mum passed life hit hard anything bad life exaggerated due this like poor got head insecure clothes go clothes saddened could experiences buy things like kids lack support system parents fully care overprotective never showed love like growing never gave advice tips take anywhere like shops normal parents get really jealous friends talk experiences playing sports dad going shopping mum know neglect cannot balme parents care end day abusive also got addicted porn young age sure started remember trying quit years old remember trip school redflaged watching porn scared going die well yrs idk dying probably started obviously probably indirect attempt brain soothe pain time vicious life think worst part first half life lost mum dad worked hard himself stepmom came worked hard eventhough know me hard part nd half loved blindly torturing myself grief childhood never felt like child cannot remember memories high redflag feel like lived negative thousand years feel like year old going counselling since beginning year barely helps whole life feels like illusion never understood school was never social life recently started developing one realised way lived thought normal hurt teenagers actually psychological torture cannot help keep thinking lived yet even though hurts want live anymore,1 moderate severe depression unveiled sad entire time hope recommended light therapy dragging spiral bit glad better understanding inflicting me ordering light said happy could reduce wonder work anyone besides me psychologist made acronym sad knew doing epic jokester,1 robertfperez ugh of course not just thursday and friday sat i have both kid,0 anyone want aroundmy family friends use have girlfriend myself hate myself im cant normal people life fucking rehashed bullshit over hurt fucking bad cant even get anyone fucking talk day im tired begging friendship love respect fucking anything fucking feel empty time melt meltdown cant anything right probably cant even kill right im tired this fucking lifetime this even try still here want fucking die fucking sucks wish ended long time ago wait everyone always wait wait wait fucking unfair,1 whats popular show like cant get into vampire diaries julie phantoms,0 @jiarhwei daddy bought kfc back ,0 tw depression okay besties i need some help opinion ab my struggle with brushing my hair i currently have really bad knot in my hair and i m hispanic white and my hair is so thick and curly i don t understand how to properly take care of it and i haven t brushed my hair,1 posting everyday get girlfriend day im spain without s nothing it dont want live dont want die im happy im sad pain,0 boy make game freind start develop first game would yall support us nah im gonna assume nah,0 "susiewilson@dramaprincess I am from Melbourne, Australia. What is your question? ",0 "@MoeDoueik iam researching bout scary movies tht came out this yr, iam actually googling it....i think im ready for summer ",0 fuck hate posting herei feel selfish posting here fuck life sucks moved km away whim get change never lonely desperate contact moved back home couple months ago things werent working out ending things woth gf left already found replavement made sure smeare face home things get better made radical decision move k km life worse here miss friends unable make friends never needed too work sucks ass even tho get something amazing dive guide read sea decided drink today ended breaking bunch shit laying face beach currently siting safely resteraunt dont trust myself fuck life sucks reason act way spoild brat yet cant help myself loathe behaveiour sorry formating drunk phone eating burger,1 im probably going end soontitle says all thought someone know ive tried help worked while tried guilting stay alive work anymore even know ill make christmas wish would end mistake im useless worthless want die tonight,1 this is not the time for my depression to act up but here it is again,1 new subreddit hey there really expecting hey got new subreddit rrandomcaptions interested subreddit well pictures random captions ive looking subreddit pictures captions fit find any created one come check brand new might like,0 @wopkec7 I'm listening to Wonderful Days 2.08 - showtek remix. Definitely something for you ,0 after long ass time it cut myself hurt bad needed feel something want happy never works pain hurts bad never goes away matter do,1 vindiekins aww you re leaving me just wa hoping for input i have avatar in the rp thread on mtp torn on personality,0 life shit dog eats dog world nobody ever cared nobody would ever carei tools disappear im sad lonely nobody understand feeling except you look bright side things bullsht me feel cant talk anyone friends everybody happy right bother them could say this mentioned suicidal things one answer sad smiley horse poop life purposes problem solve frankly dont motivation feel stupid wortheless im hipersensitive wanna cry almost time situation work shit relationship mother exists dont partner dont want want one im looking anything anyone dont wanna ruin one life nonsense dont fear afterlife fear pain succesfull attempt cause trouble dont want point im glad minimised stuff im gone dont pack crp hoarded years thought would easier less sense good every time throw give someone else something feel less connected current place wish disappear items happening friends disappearing f,1 So true. I'm reading 'Lost Connections' by @johannhari101 and it's an extraordinary book. Completely turning around everything I'd wrongly assumed about loneliness and depression and making me look at our society anew. I highly recommend it! https://twitter.com/BandofmothersHQ/status/989046035929554944 …,1 sitting at home and im very bored keep hearing really weird noise downstairs kinda creepy,0 marcfennell i should be in that photo,0 isnt stupid isnt stupid im afraid tell family important stuff fear teased honestly cant believe it smh ridiculous,0 never gonna hit notes filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 anyone needs know look amazing smile love okay please give up even think one loves you love even know you well know amazing person whos going really rough patch know caring person puts others happiness know faking happy make sure one worries selfless person and faking happy faking long cant keep anymore love much whole world heaps people think cared worlds shatter lives never give please give get better promise time even thought killing pushed glad did life got better happiest ever life may seem like never going get better promise promise going glad give thought would remind love okay,0 sex cool sike virginity superior stay pure bois,0 stop telling gets betterive tried hard believe going ups downs reality life consistently getting worse like past years doesnt matter im young im turn im going kid responsibilities im still going treated like kid age teen it know people want life be want go college get degree get job next years im old meaningless marriage bringing kids world live meaningless life im abandoned nursing home im dead isnt life want live know hardy har har im kid dont know real problems,1 im lowest pointmy girlfriend took step back tore heart out hadnt worked months due shoulder issue really came us matter many times try reach rejects says isnt ready respect feelings wants sometimes feel like never work things out means world cant see future without her shes person ever understood dont want move on time sit contemplate ending everything pretty much zero friends left friend group due live changes dont get along well family feels like easiest thing do dont know intend getting post feel good type get chest,1 every opportunity i have i always end up embarrassing myself no matter what thing like just communicating and anything that ha to do with the real world is so hard for me to get right i m so insecure and soft spoken and everyone probably know me a that weird shy kid thing i do when i m on my own like talking to myself or doing anything weird would never be okay in front of others i m never aware of what i do until somebody notice me and i get embarrassed instantly and i m so ashamed of myself i probably will never see anyone romantically or have any close friend because i m so immature and childish,1 cant sleep suicidal thoughts strongfirst things first im male female trans individual recently turned job work walmart asset protection associate contacted bosss bosss boss a regional ap manager putting management position knew desperately wanted store close home me interview prepared for practiced thought id nailed alas meant be ive stuck working stores nothing abusive last two years usually report inappropriate things associates done said me never want person done couple times times ive done it nothing done it id given reporting them interviewer who person asked applied market ap manager going things could done better said one thing able shake really affected me told me six months ago never would expected interview someone like you times changing times changing me exactly theyve ever been like twentieth time ive turned job suitable experience education bachelors degree two jobs last years means feel like ideal candidate ing walmart management see point anymore ive depressed whole freakin life know much take feel like whole life wasted wanted true myself,1 depressed several years ago thought ok seems come backlong story short fucked youth scarred pretty badly got shit together thought right track this years ago however lately past months so feeling horrible back point suicidal thoughts cannot talk people problems matter hard try tried several psychiatrists etc hate job get recognition anything do hours exhausting see change future applied several jobs reply qualified finance wise stuff going shitter well surprise costs makes savings like bucket hole it last euros moment luckily girlfriend but stupid know wrong dick towards her means well frustrations get irritated work her relationship tense weird thoughts dumping click anymore crying im alone thought leave sooner later nobody friends only drinking buddies family non existing due problemsissues first sentence feel lonely lot even though like alone really know going post apologies possible mistakes english first language sort weird back phase killing scare calms sort way knowing could end miserybe peace one little act,1 hi favio years old boy suffers depression redflagi close friends not interested all know humans social beings sometimes need talk another person study virtually really hate quarantine exercise at home course tried commit suicide tried hang could complete painful always feel empty like existing like idk necessary wasting oxygen lmaoi decided join reddit meet new people passed something similar forgive mistake basic english d introducing,1 hey f 9 and two month sober today so have been reading lot of quitlit lately i suffer badly with anxiety too so would love to hear some of your book recommendation thanks in advance x,1 know enemy know need fear result hundred battles finished art war sun tzu everything war war winned deception ask anything,0 cannot life anymore everyone know amazing well friends leave everything fun treat like child gf happy giving everything give nothing keep happy enjoy used love afraid runaway think suicide much seems option take think many people know would really care anyway cannot,1 microwave like mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm moan,0 live alone talk anyone regularly enough notice went mia literally way would work unless attempt unsuccessful wake up tired weighing options bad far outweighs good nothing ever feels right never happy tired always either tired depressed angry numb alternating emotions believe ever content tired lashing people taking anger unhappiness them tired toxic person toxic deeply depressed even think excuse become shitty person hate myself truly think years misery enough torture going for know waiting me depression never goes anger gets unbearable afraid of it everyone dies world nothing certain except death taxes think saying goes going die eventually really matter when for allowing stay pain like this what every day trying get day nothing pleasurable life me need get fear death sake nobody would even find,1 soo bored bored lying bed pondering life,0 @marcostartari thank you ,0 all time henry kb9 platini zidane kopa juste ce noms le mette en d pression,1 hate the weeks before holidays! but I managed physics and.. it was'nt that bad... I hope ,0 i have this tendency to abandon pretty much everything when something or someone becomes somewhat of a challenge i just leave them i have ghosted girlfriend i have completely disregarded good friend just because they invited me to do something i did t want to do i have abandoned friend who had lent me a hand i have abandoned work just because i didn t feel capable i make stupidi excuse and then run away yesterday i stood up from my new job and left made a bogus excuse v a text and quit via email the job had a lot of potential but it wa too stressful for me i have just noticed this is a pattern in how i cope with thing every time i feel trapped i just want to bust out i have a deep rooted belief that i need to be in control of my time and my space and when something or someone interferes with that i should be entitled to claim my supposed freedom i don t know how to deal with this i just noticed this pattern and i can see how it affect my life p english is not my first language typing on phone,1 schoolboy watched film first time next day knew pupils form watched fascinated film was think situation forms school whole soviet union later watched every time shown tv want watch more think comparison back future scifi films appropriate gostya iz budushchego unique many ways watched it never forget itbr br this film full belief peaceful science achievements full belief beautiful future world film also forecast many scientific inventions achievements time shown film year the year creation year where schoolboy kolya gerasimov traveled time friend alisa seleznyova from year many inventions achievements predicted film realized yet mielophone a device read thoughts animal human expeditions venus mars as easy going picnic weekend creating launching satellites homework pupils easy drive flying machines which completely replaced automobiles biorobots historical identification kind material creature performed couple minutes many others meanwhile nowadays became much realistic seemed wait br br the film also depicts typical russian schoolboys schoolgirls and naturally inventiveness curiosity humour dreaminess look example fima korolyov could find character nearly forms every school soviet union similar character form too alisa seleznyova myself well many classmates fell love first sight her way later actress played alisa became scientist think much influenced film people watched tvbr br beautiful idea beautiful realization beautiful actors beautiful music beautiful song prekrasnoye daleko the wonderful faraway beautiful beautiful beautifulbr br the last thing want say different remakes new versions song film even film made later spread tv internet even comparable original even comment them comment original so request original enjoy it,0 feel hopelessi cant happy im relationship relationships end almost right away resulting much pain worth it feel like im good enough anyone nobody stays time im daydreaming blowing brains out want out feel like im trapped life feel hopeless,1 dear american teens question dutch person heard guys get way easier things learn age us sooooo thth graders like right guys learn math,0 "@Gruno Me as well. Tweep slight, as Curt would say ",0 dont expect go anywhere story im talking girl discord talk lot telling cooking class in says nearly cut problems self harm stupid monke brain war flashbacks fine it made laugh omg something wrong,0 getting 0 0 a piece thats out of the test i have done so far for atar in that i have failed test and pretty much cause the first real hit of depression i am working with people now to try improve those mark but the fact that my brain went to the length of saying,1 im eating fries rn feel pretty good good fries yeah,0 @therealTiffany check it out epi. haha it makes me smile everytime! you need to make me a check it out video one day! i loveee it ,0 got serious question right now anyone remember ozzy osborne ate live bat one performances nowadays people cause global pandemic ozzy able eat bat ok like cmon prince darkness ate bat didnt cause pandemic someone try thing doomed us economic recession like great depression,0 cant shit help biggest dry shit stuck asshole do,0 friendfeed beta doesn t appear to like my twitter account http ff im y0zm,0 read what actual fuck,0 oh im bleeding finethe blade bit sharper expected painful get shit brother im fucking useless cant even sh properly mabye go one veins,1 feeling desperate want die todayim struggling whether shoot face taurus revolver wonder anyone similar position like me go college started working directly family business basicly parents hand business million dollar debt never wanted manage business become manager fast sucks everything crumbling down feel trapped today getting sued former employees found trusted employee stealing god shit,1 "Me after dealing with anxiety and depression, nd someone asks if I'm alright: https://twitter.com/linongarchives/status/988125671833653249 …",1 mean perfect breeding ground humans meant like covid bacteria stoff sorry beys,0 Sushi-time! cant go wrong with that ,0 cant find reasoni cant find reason stay alive im ruined every relationship ive ever depression make everyones life worse im trying really really hard hang tonight kill cant find reason every time think theres something end ruining alienating everyone theres anyone help see sort lightim begging silver hope cant get own,1 what triggered metoday found father ex best friends died shocked sad even tho friends anymore still feel bad them last months thought would something happened parentswell probably die right after reality hit like truck death father showed reality basically living parents would terrifying besides one cares me anyone else care about years old horrified life main thing cannot live myself hate much cannot participate hobbies stuff need live good life feel empty also guilty everyone privileges do want myself never wanted be mdder live real world escape fantasies instead shit anything anyone sacrifice others go work helpful maybe like ghandi mother teresa similar kind helpful going live myself want familyhusbandwife kids partners friendsi live othersthe general society someone why hate myselfmy monolog structured jumped one thought anotherit long probably worth time goes hate empty am always say wrong things always care wrong people managed make people hate actually liked beginning thing would call the self even persona social mask person vessel filled contradicting emotions empty without identity even tho searched whole teenage life never ambitions future plans besides killing in dreams ideas future saw unreachable gaved up leaving head instead making reality well technically dead inside now cannot cry shout someone else always one shouted at right piece shit going lie pretend otherwise still hurts trying good always something wrongi fucking stupid pathetic bad person naturally suck even decent person felt guilty behaviour went school months made lot trouble etc could punish provoke finally attempt suicide obviously one knows also care know also fucking gross meits going embarrassing teenage years unhealthy obsessed love person lot crushes few three specific hate obsessive behaviour disgusting embarrassing basically always long crush someone longest three years instead do going crush idk one month asking befriending them stalked social media etc seems fine most also tried meet person town purposefully went thought might be next delsuion person rescue me see shit like skins example infamous effy two guys trying help rescue her inspired movies shows like unhealthy attachment stamps everyone hating ignoring me assumed person could save normal life particular person one cared even tho friends them heck friends cared less person seemed genuinely concerned me like person first even bother friendly seeing cared could resist developed feelings started crave persons attention love and partly still am extend obsessed emotions made makes behave like narcissist maybe one emotions ruled life nothing mattered person eyes loved them love filled void self hatred created wanted badly rescue life obsession came from hate personality also happened ugly dumb lol waste air yes plain jane hope look better even tho empty inside vessel ever becomes pretty people annoy menegative harrassment like bullying anymore dumb part self explanatory lot way lazy write now edit post something new comes mindbtw sorry english native speakeredit typos vent hate myself take kind,1 my dog passed away in the night full on gutted,0 got perfect nutrigrain bar guys arent gonna believe opened one packages crumbs bars super dense crumbs came off beautiful,0 hollaglam my fav english teacher she just had miscarriage amp u knw wht make me sad even more she wa going to name her baby tamara,0 midwest republican called themselves progressive then democrat were mostly conservative til fdr when thing changed cuz the previous yr harding coolidge hoover had been anything but progressive dems became more liberal in the depression republican more hidebound,1 wonders killed wonderedpeople tell theyll distraught disbelief upset ever take life theyre many times wonder right thing do sure people upset taking away everything would make everyone else much happier would make lives easier feel like ever anyway mess things up ruin peoples day hate thinking maybe everything would better without around think like people end hurting hurt someone deeply loved respected friend know do,1 "Returning to London. Consulate to vote against the Media Dictator, then home! Beautiful day today! ",0 whats stuff johnny deep amber heard like idea someone explain detail,0 know think kind stupid because fact good math makes feel kind depressed like average middle school thing even high school problem that comes difficult equations problems brain cannot handle shitthe thing country almost universities least math exam even humanistic ones let alone technical scientific onesso bad math like almost chance ever getting degree garantee decent job even getting degree generali see everyone age studying things could never understand kind feel inferiormuch stupid compared themi know unusual feeling feel lot education world good math really penalises university world,1 obviously trigger warning for talk about sexual activity i don t know why and i don t know if i m supposed to do something about it or just ignore it since i don t necessarily have any interest in having sex with another person sometimes i ll want to masturbate but that s it i don t want to be having sex with anyone however when i do try and masturbate i ll suddenly get hit with emotion of anxiety and guilt and disgust and i have to immediately stop i then start cry and panicking and i don t know why a far a i can remember i ve never had a negative experience with sex or sexual harassment or sexual assault i mean i have experienced a friend that would try and touch me inappropriately but at the time it didn t really bother me since i didn t fully understand what she wa trying to do i d just push her off and after a few time she stopped otherwise that s it i don t know why this happens i don t know if this mean anything or i m just really weird,1 Amazingly fun time. I love you guys ,0 cry sleep every night drink self harm abuse drugsall hope trying escape piece shit life never worksi close killing myself close end,1 I am in a totally summer mood right now ,0 dream one day theres gonna equivalent rickrolling intro cutsceen skyrim mean already frequently used might well eachother joke,0 yall know game barrel monkeys based real events,0 dian yach i would love to swim but don t know how,0 hi ima useless guy religious study degree tell big sin gay cases using quit informal language people ask mainly teenagers like guy that sin gay begin want make clear fact people say sin god basis christianity sin all approximately bibles written first one mentioned muslim history quran well books jews jewish history including hindu vedas says homosexual and homophobic sin said homosexual upon persons choice god person reveals criticises decision sinners shall punished grace god hinduism complete sin repercussions all burned alive found guilty homosexual also cause rebirth cycle stop buddism quran muslims said sin person homosexual said keep god get married homosexual marriage shall consent parents disapprove shall support you shall proceed marriage sin matter what shall punished afterlife grave homosexual may sign strayed god grace ignored teachings jews,0